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Install and Load Packages

Lets go ahead and install all the necessary packages.

# Install
install.packages("tm")  # for text mining
install.packages("SnowballC") # for text stemming
install.packages("wordcloud") # word-cloud generator 
install.packages("RColorBrewer") # color palettes
install.packages("syuzhet") # for sentiment analysis
install.packages("ggplot2") # for plotting graphs
install.packages("dplyr")  # for data manipulationn
install.packages("readr") # for reading in files
install.packages("tidytext") #for tokenisation, using dplyr, ggplot2 and other tidy tools 
install.packages("stringr") # for extracting matched patterns in strings
install.packages("sparklyr") # tokenizer package
install.packages("hunspell") # spell check tool
install.packages("textstem") # lemitisation
install.packages("udpipe") # POS tagging

and now load them in using the library function

# Load
library(tm)
## Loading required package: NLP
library(SnowballC)
library(wordcloud)
## Loading required package: RColorBrewer
library(RColorBrewer)
library(syuzhet)
library(ggplot2)
## 
## Attaching package: 'ggplot2'
## The following object is masked from 'package:NLP':
## 
##     annotate
library(dplyr)
## 
## Attaching package: 'dplyr'
## The following objects are masked from 'package:stats':
## 
##     filter, lag
## The following objects are masked from 'package:base':
## 
##     intersect, setdiff, setequal, union
library(readr)
library(tidytext)
library(stringr)
library(sparklyr)
## 
## Attaching package: 'sparklyr'
## The following object is masked from 'package:stats':
## 
##     filter
library(hunspell)
library(textstem)
## Loading required package: koRpus.lang.en
## Loading required package: koRpus
## Loading required package: sylly
## For information on available language packages for 'koRpus', run
## 
##   available.koRpus.lang()
## 
## and see ?install.koRpus.lang()
## 
## Attaching package: 'koRpus'
## The following object is masked from 'package:readr':
## 
##     tokenize
## The following object is masked from 'package:tm':
## 
##     readTagged
library(udpipe)

Load in the dataset

We are going to be using the ‘text.csv’ which was created once combining all of the rtf files into one dataset.

foot_mouth_df <- read_csv("code/data/foot_mouth/text.csv")
## New names:
## Rows: 87 Columns: 3
## ── Column specification
## ──────────────────────────────────────────────────────── Delimiter: "," chr
## (2): 0, 1 dbl (1): ...1
## ℹ Use `spec()` to retrieve the full column specification for this data. ℹ
## Specify the column types or set `show_col_types = FALSE` to quiet this message.
## • `` -> `...1`
head(foot_mouth_df)
## # A tibble: 6 × 3
##    ...1 `0`             `1`                                                     
##   <dbl> <chr>           <chr>                                                   
## 1     0 5407diary02.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1975\nGe…
## 2     1 5407diary03.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1966\nGender…
## 3     2 5407diary07.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1964\nGe…
## 4     3 5407diary08.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1963\nGender…
## 5     4 5407diary09.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1981\nGender…
## 6     5 5407diary10.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1937\nGender…

Pre-processing

Obviously, we can access any column, row or cell without using named labels. But it might be easier to give some of the things named labels. This makes more sense with columns - especially if we are going to split the columns into lots of other columns and it will be hard to keep track of what the numbered columns refer to.

# Renaming columns 
names(foot_mouth_df)[1] <- "Number"
names(foot_mouth_df)[2] <- "Filename"
names(foot_mouth_df)[3] <- "Everything_else"
head(foot_mouth_df)
## # A tibble: 6 × 3
##   Number Filename        Everything_else                                        
##    <dbl> <chr>           <chr>                                                  
## 1      0 5407diary02.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1975\nG…
## 2      1 5407diary03.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1966\nGende…
## 3      2 5407diary07.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1964\nG…
## 4      3 5407diary08.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1963\nGende…
## 5      4 5407diary09.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1981\nGende…
## 6      5 5407diary10.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1937\nGende…

This file contains two types of recordings; one from diary entries and one from the interviews.

The diary files seem to start with “Information about diarist” while the interview files start with “date of interview”.

It seems like we can’t split the columns until we split this data frame into 2, one for diary files and one for interview files. How would you go about doing that? Steps to consider might include:

  1. find the last row of the diary entries and the first row of the interview entries (using access rows and/or access cells)
  2. save a new “diary” variable that contains all of the columns for all of the diary rows
  3. save a new “interview” variable that contains all of the columns for all of the interview rows

So lets go ahead and split these file types, as they will be easier to work with

#Splitting Datagrames
diary_file <- foot_mouth_df[1:39,]
group_int_file <- foot_mouth_df[40:87,]

head(diary_file)
## # A tibble: 6 × 3
##   Number Filename        Everything_else                                        
##    <dbl> <chr>           <chr>                                                  
## 1      0 5407diary02.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1975\nG…
## 2      1 5407diary03.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1966\nGende…
## 3      2 5407diary07.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1964\nG…
## 4      3 5407diary08.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1963\nGende…
## 5      4 5407diary09.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1981\nGende…
## 6      5 5407diary10.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1937\nGende…

Let’s try extracting all of the dates with the format day/month/year from each row in this column. We can then place them ina new column called ‘Dates’.

We access the column labelled ‘everything_else’ in our dataframe, and extract strings that match the RegEx pattern. Don’t worry too much about the RegEx pattern for now, this is just to illustrate how it can be used. Then we assign these values to a new column labelled ‘Dates’ for the individual data frames (that is the ‘diary_file’ and the ‘interview_file’).

#Adding Date Column 
  # first to the diary file 
diary_file$Date <- stringr::str_extract(diary_file$Everything_else, "(\\d{1,2}[/\\.-][ ]?)?(\\d{1,2}[ ]*[/\\.-]|January|February|March|April|May|June|July|August|September|October|November|December|Jan|Feb|Febr|Mar|Apr|Jun|Jul|Aug|Sept|Sep|Oct|Nov|Dec|Jan\\.|Feb\\.|Febr\\.|Mar\\.|Apr\\.|Jun\\.|Jul\\.|Aug\\.|Sept\\.|Sep\\.|Oct\\.|Nov\\.|Dec\\.)[ ]*[']?\\d{2,4}")

head(diary_file)
## # A tibble: 6 × 4
##   Number Filename        Everything_else                                   Date 
##    <dbl> <chr>           <chr>                                             <chr>
## 1      0 5407diary02.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1… Febr…
## 2      1 5407diary03.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1966\… 6.30 
## 3      2 5407diary07.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1… Marc…
## 4      3 5407diary08.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1963\… Marc…
## 5      4 5407diary09.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1981\… Febr…
## 6      5 5407diary10.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1937\… Marc…
  # then to the group/interview files
group_int_file$Date <- stringr::str_extract(group_int_file$Everything_else, "(\\d{1,2}[/\\.-][ ]?)?(\\d{1,2}[ ]*[/\\.-]|January|February|March|April|May|June|July|August|September|October|November|December|Jan|Feb|Febr|Mar|Apr|Jun|Jul|Aug|Sept|Sep|Oct|Nov|Dec|Jan\\.|Feb\\.|Febr\\.|Mar\\.|Apr\\.|Jun\\.|Jul\\.|Aug\\.|Sept\\.|Sep\\.|Oct\\.|Nov\\.|Dec\\.)[ ]*[']?\\d{2,4}")

head(group_int_file)
## # A tibble: 6 × 4
##   Number Filename        Everything_else                                   Date 
##    <dbl> <chr>           <chr>                                             <chr>
## 1     39 5407diary55.rtf "\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 196… 1.30 
## 2     40 5407fg01.rtf    "\nGroups Discussion with Members of  Farmers Fa… 17/1…
## 3     41 5407fg02.rtf    "Groups Discussion with Members of Small Busines… 23/0…
## 4     42 5407fg03.rtf    "\n\nGroups Discussion with Members of  Agricult… 31/0…
## 5     43 5407fg04.rtf    "\nNO AUDIO RECORDING\n\nGroups Discussion with … 13/0…
## 6     44 5407fg05.rtf    "\n\nGroups Discussion with Community Group of P… 21/0…

I’m going to then join append these files using the rbind() function under the base package.

# Append files 
new_foot_mouth <- rbind(diary_file, group_int_file)
head(new_foot_mouth)
## # A tibble: 6 × 4
##   Number Filename        Everything_else                                   Date 
##    <dbl> <chr>           <chr>                                             <chr>
## 1      0 5407diary02.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1… Febr…
## 2      1 5407diary03.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1966\… 6.30 
## 3      2 5407diary07.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1… Marc…
## 4      3 5407diary08.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1963\… Marc…
## 5      4 5407diary09.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1981\… Febr…
## 6      5 5407diary10.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1937\… Marc…

Another interesting piece of information to have, is the gender of the interview participant. Let’s extract this information again by using RegEx…

# Adding Gender Column and remove colon 
new_foot_mouth$Gender <- str_extract(new_foot_mouth$Everything_else, "M|F")
head(new_foot_mouth)
## # A tibble: 6 × 5
##   Number Filename        Everything_else                            Date  Gender
##    <dbl> <chr>           <chr>                                      <chr> <chr> 
## 1      0 5407diary02.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of b… Febr… M     
## 2      1 5407diary03.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth… 6.30  F     
## 3      2 5407diary07.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of b… Marc… F     
## 4      3 5407diary08.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth… Marc… M     
## 5      4 5407diary09.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth… Febr… F     
## 6      5 5407diary10.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth… Marc… M

Now will also look at getting the Occupations!

#Adding Occupation Column 
new_foot_mouth$Occupation <-as.integer(sub(".*?Group.*?(\\d+).*", "\\1", new_foot_mouth$Everything_else))
head(new_foot_mouth)
## # A tibble: 6 × 6
##   Number Filename        Everything_else                    Date  Gender Occup…¹
##    <dbl> <chr>           <chr>                              <chr> <chr>    <int>
## 1      0 5407diary02.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nD… Febr… M            6
## 2      1 5407diary03.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate … 6.30  F            6
## 3      2 5407diary07.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nD… Marc… F            6
## 4      3 5407diary08.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate … Marc… M            6
## 5      4 5407diary09.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate … Febr… F            5
## 6      5 5407diary10.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate … Marc… M            5
## # … with abbreviated variable name ¹​Occupation

Processing

Processing steps

  • Tokenisation, (or splitting text into various kinds of ‘short things’ that can be statistically analysed).
  • Standardising the next (including converting uppercase to lower, correcting spelling, find-and-replace operations to remove abbreviations, etc.).
  • Removing irrelevancies (anything from punctuation to stopwords like ‘the’ or ‘to’ that are unhelpful for many kinds of analysis).
  • Consolidating (including stemming and lemmatisation that strip words back to their ‘root’).
  • Basic NLP (that put some of the small things back together into logically useful medium things, like multi-word noun or verb phrases and proper names).

In practice, most text-mining work will require that any given corpus undergo multiple steps, but the exact steps and the exact order of steps depends on the desired analysis to be done. Thus, some of the examples that follow will use the raw text corpus as an input to the process while others use a processed corpus as an input.

As a side note, it is good practice to create new variables whenever you manipulate an existing variable rather than write over the original. This means that you keep the original and can go back to it anytime you need to if you want to try a different manipulation or correct an error. You will see how this works as we progress through the processing steps.

Since I am using this first type of processing to look for potential points for analysis, I will just stick to: word-tokenisation, basic standardisation and stemming

Tokenisation

Our first step is to cut our ‘one big thing’ into tokens, or ‘lots of little things’.

Whether you have one big file or many smaller ones, most text-mining work will also want to divide the corpus into what are known as ‘tokens’. These ‘tokens’ are the unit of analysis, which might be chapters, sections, paragraphs, sentences, words, or something else.

Since we have one file already loaded as a corpus, we can skip the right to tokenising that text into sentences and words. Both options are functions available through the tidtext package that we imported earlier. These are both useful tokens in their own way, so we will see how to produce both kinds.

We start by dividing our corpus into words, splitting the string into substrings whenever ‘word_tokenize’ detects a word.

Let’s try that. But this time, let’s just have a look at the first 100 things it finds instead of the entire text. Run/Shift+Enter.

#Since this method takes basically adding columns every time we do a new step, I will do processing on original foot_mouth_df
# Then I will append anything usefuul onto the modified 'new_foot_mouth' DataFrame.

# 1) Words 

token_list <- foot_mouth_df %>% tidytext::unnest_tokens(output = tokenised_words, 
                   token = "words",
                   input = Everything_else)
token_list
## # A tibble: 1,190,012 × 3
##    Number Filename        tokenised_words
##     <dbl> <chr>           <chr>          
##  1      0 5407diary02.rtf information    
##  2      0 5407diary02.rtf about          
##  3      0 5407diary02.rtf diarist        
##  4      0 5407diary02.rtf date           
##  5      0 5407diary02.rtf of             
##  6      0 5407diary02.rtf birth          
##  7      0 5407diary02.rtf 1975           
##  8      0 5407diary02.rtf gender         
##  9      0 5407diary02.rtf m              
## 10      0 5407diary02.rtf occupation     
## # … with 1,190,002 more rows
foot_mouth_token <- token_list %>% 
  aggregate(tokenised_words ~ Filename, FUN = function(token_list) sprintf("[%s]", toString(token_list)))

head(foot_mouth_token)
##          Filename
## 1 5407diary02.rtf
## 2 5407diary03.rtf
## 3 5407diary07.rtf
## 4 5407diary08.rtf
## 5 5407diary09.rtf
## 6 5407diary10.rtf
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visits, are, focused, fairly, and, squarely, at, defra, and, not, fmd, virus, farmers, seem, far, more, upset, at, the, constriction, put, on, them, by, defra, than, they, do, by, the, loss, of, stock, now, although, i, know, and, saw, how, utterly, devastated, most, were, when, they, were, actually, diagnosed, with, the, virus, and, in, the, week, or, two, following, my, work, in, the, practice, is, becoming, less, and, less, fmd, orientated, as, time, goes, on, licensing, and, restocking, visits, are, drawing, to, a, close, and, we, are, starting, to, return, to, normal, vet, work, my, life, has, been, more, settled, since, the, end, of, fmd, although, there, was, never, a, real, threat, of, redundancy, there, was, a, great, deal, of, uncertainty, as, to, what, form, work, would, take, during, the, outbreak, it, was, never, clear, whether, i, would, be, based, at, the, practice, or, working, as, a, defra, vet, from, month, to, month, now, that, it, is, finished, i, hope, the, practice, and, my, work, can, get, back, to, a, routine, and, at, least, knowing, where, i’ll, be, based, each, day, even, if, not, which, calls, are, going, to, come, in, with, regard, to, fmd, the, biggest, influence, it, has, at, the, moment, and, over, the, last, week, is, acting, as, a, listener, to, farmers, who, still, talk, about, it, and, defra, a, great, deal, diary, 2, mon, shap, restocking, having, to, justify, visit, wed, melmerby, i, went, to, see, a, farmer, this, week, to, do, the, first, inspection, of, his, sentinel, animals, that, he, is, restocking, his, farm, in, common, with, many, farmers, he, was, unwavering, in, his, conviction, that, his, animals, had, been, deliberately, infected, and, that, tony, blair, or, defra, were, the, ultimate, culprits, the, belief, is, that, they, want, to, put, farmers, out, of, business, this, particular, farmer, made, the, very, valid, point, that, defra, co, had, underestimated, the, resilience, of, the, farming, community, i, think, that, this, has, been, very, striking, considering, the, strain, that, they, have, been, under, in, some, cases, worse, for, those, who, didn’t, get, fmd, than, for, those, who, did, it, has, been, remarkable, how, little, the, majority, of, our, clients, have, changed, admittedly, we, see, most, of, them, on, a, professional, basis, regarding, their, animals, health, and, not, their, own, but, on, the, whole, they, seem, to, have, been, very, forward, thinking, about, the, outbreak, many, have, taken, it, as, a, chance, to, increase, the, size, of, herds, and, to, eliminate, many, other, diseases, as, well, as, fmd, work, in, the, practice, has, been, fairly, steady, as, week, the, number, of, fmd, calls, is, decreasing, one, of, the, problems, with, doing, restocking, licensing, and, tb, calls, is, that, we, are, on, the, farm, at, defra’s, instruction, normally, it, is, the, farmer, who, calls, us, out, and, this, can, cause, friction, anything, related, to, defra, will, put, hackles, up, 9, times, out, of, 10, it, definitely, causes, stress, at, times, but, puts, my, diplomacy, skills, into, good, practice, it, sometimes, feels, as, though, some, farmers, just, need, an, outlet, and, i, fit, the, bill, after, agreeing, with, everything, they, say, and, sympathising, it, usually, smoothes, out, and, ends, with, a, cup, of, tea, but, it, does, feel, as, though, we, have, to, justify, what, we, are, doing, much, more, than, prior, to, february, 2001, diary, 3, this, week, was, the, anniversary, of, the, week, i, went, to, my, first, ip, and, associated, slaughter, pyre, building, etc, at, several, times, during, the, week, i, found, myself, thinking, this, time, last, year, i, was, although, obviously, not, pleasant, memories, the, thoughts, did, not, particularly, affect, me, in, a, bad, way, or, distract, me, from, work, it, just, took, me, back, to, that, time, when, i, had, time, to, think, i, went, to, see, a, sick, horse, near, carlisle, which, is, where, the, ip, was, and, it, was, interesting, to, drive, past, the, farm, and, see, animals, in, the, buildings, again, hopefully, the, farmer, concerned, is, getting, back, on, track, again, with, respect, to, daily, routine, work, is, getting, very, busy, lambing, time, is, starting, to, really, get, going, with, the, inevitable, increase, in, calls, although, it, can, be, hectic, at, times, it’s, better, to, be, kept, busy, rather, than, having, it, too, quiet, it’s, also, good, to, actually, be, doing, lambings, and, other, sheep, work, as, it’s, two, years, since, we, did, any, apart, from, euthanasing, sheep, last, year, on, monday, i, went, to, do, a, re, stocking, check, on, a, farm, the, farmer, is, convinced, he, was, given, fmd, deliberately, and, on, arrival, i, was, given, his, weekly, tirade, regarding, defra, tony, blair, how, i, must, have, made, thousands, of, pounds, out, of, it, etc, etc, after, sometime, of, not, rising, to, the, bait, he, calmed, down, and, half, an, hour, later, was, sweetness, and, light, perhaps, he, just, needs, someone, to, let, pressure, out, to, only, one, session, like, that, a, week, isn’t, too, bad, considering, how, many, farm, visits, we, do, diary, 4, monday, brought, another, dressing, down, from, the, farmer, i, mentioned, last, week, it, was, shorter, and, less, passionate, this, time, perhaps, he’s, mellowing, a, bit, i, drove, up, to, junction, 40, one, day, with, the, sun, out, it, reminded, me, of, a, similar, day, a, year, ago, when, i, could, count, 15, smoke, plumes, from, pyres, on, the, same, bit, of, road, as, i, said, last, week, anniversary, memories, like, this, aren’t, especially, difficult, for, me, they’re, just, there, in, a, lot, of, ways, it’s, quite, satisfying, thinking, about, what, was, happening, a, year, ago, and, how, well, things, have, progressed, since, then, most, of, our, farmers, have, re, stocked, work, is, returning, to, normal, even, things, like, being, able, to, drive, onto, farms, again, rather, than, having, to, leave, the, car, at, the, farm, entrance, makes, a, big, difference, work, continues, to, be, very, busy, with, the, typical, seasonal, calls, to, sheep, and, cattle, we, have, a, couple, of, vet, students, doing, work, experience, with, us, which, had, to, stop, last, march, as, we, couldn’t, take, extras, onto, farms, with, us, another, sign, of, the, continuing, return, to, normality, some, days, it, seems, as, if, we, have, returned, to, how, we, were, a, year, ago, the, most, obvious, legacy, is, perhaps, the, thorough, and, extensive, clothing, disinfection, between, each, farm, a, good, habit, which, is, very, hard, to, break, diary, 5, i, had, to, work, on, easter, monday, morning, which, was, fairly, uneventful, as, for, the, last, few, weeks, there, were, the, usual, seasonal, calls, to, sheep, and, cattle, but, nothing, too, stressful, on, tuesday, i, did, the, final, blood, sampling, on, the, last, farm, that, we, have, that, is, still, at, the, sentinel, stage, of, re, stocking, the, farmers, seemed, fairly, mellow, today, and, spared, me, the, usual, lecture, attempt, at, argument, perhaps, it’s, because, the, end, of, his, restriction, is, in, sight, the, test, went, very, smoothly, and, i, didn’t, hear, from, him, until, the, end, of, the, week, when, i, he, was, upset, probably, justifiably, that, his, results, still, weren’t, back, as, processing, the, bloods, is, not, our, responsibility, all, i, could, do, was, sympathise, and, plead, ignorance, the, rest, of, the, week, was, fairly, routine, work, wise, friday, was, taken, up, doing, a, big, tuberculin, and, brucellosis, test, on, a, re, stocked, farm, they, all, have, to, be, done, within, 3, mths, of, re, stocking, although, it, was, a, big, job, it, was, a, well, run, farm, with, plenty, of, help, so, we, got, finished, within, the, day, and, with, as, few, delays, as, could, be, expected, now, that, the, evenings, are, lighter, it’s, meant, that, on, nights, off, duty, i’ve, been, able, to, get, out, more, it’s, made, a, very, welcome, change, to, be, able, to, bike, walk, on, the, fells, again, this, year, after, all, the, restrictions, of, 2001, long, may, it, and, the, weather, continue, diary, 6, finally, finished, the, last, a, restocking, jobs, on, monday, the, farmer, was, getting, very, frustrated, probably, justifiably, so, at, the, length, of, time, it, was, taking, the, bank, holidays, etc, last, week, meant, to, that, the, labs, were, closed, so, that, blood, samples, took, longer, to, process, i, got, the, results, at, 4, 45, monday, evening, and, in, an, attempt, to, create, some, goodwill, agreed, to, go, to, the, farm, to, do, a, final, check, that, evening, on, arrival, of, the, usual, tirade, about, defra, and, vet's, came, my, way, which, was, slightly, hard, to, take, he, then, said, that, he, didn't, blame, me, personally, which, was, nice, of, him, i, think, hope, he, realises, that, we, can, only, try, to, get, things, going, faster, and, ultimately, it’s, out, off, our, hands, at, least, it's, good, to, have, all, the, restocking, work, finished, it, feels, as, though, the, first, stage, is, over, in, getting, back, to, where, we, were, another, sign, of, returning, to, usual, is, the, continuing, pace, of, work, nights, on, call, are, again, a, time, for, working, rather, than, the, call, free, nights, of, summer, 2001, this, week, has, brought, early, morning, lambing, most, days, the, rest, of, the, time, we’re, is, as, busy, as, it's, been, for, a, year, the, day, book, is, full, each, day, and, we, all, seem, to, be, driving, around, the, county, more, or, less, keeping, up, with, the, jobs, which, is, a, good, thing, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, was, going, to, go, to, edinburgh, to, see, some, friends, but, in, the, end, stayed, in, penrith, for, some, r, r, diary, 7, i, had, a, half, day, on, monday, and, went, to, riggindale, at, the, head, of, haweswater, with, a, friend, who, had, come, to, stay, for, a, night, or, two, the, plan, was, to, see, the, golden, eagles, nesting, that, up, to, unfortunately, they, were, off, on, a, day, trip, to, another, part, of, the, lake, district, but, the, weather, was, good, and, it, made, a, very, pleasant, change, from, work, the, practice, is, still, going, flat, out, with, seasonal, work, the, daily, flow, of, lambing, and, lambing, related, sheep, problems, shows, no, sign, of, ebbing, there, are, also, increasing, numbers, of, cattle, problems, probably, related, to, coming, towards, the, spring, turn, out, of, cattle, that, have, been, inside, for, 6, 7, months, the, fact, that, most, of, them, are, in, new, surroundings, is, almost, certainly, adding, to, the, problems, on, the, whole, of, farmers, are, fairly, pragmatic, about, the, difficulties, they, are, having, most, accept, that, they, were, bound, to, have, problems, with, the, restocking, and, on, the, whole, are, pleased, just, to, have, stock, on, again, some, are, very, keen, to, be, as, efficient, as, possible, whereas, others, will, more, readily, go, along, with, the, old, farming, mantra, that, where, there's, a, livestock, there's, a, dead, stock, not, quite, what, the, veterinary, profession, wants, to, encourage, i, was, on, call, at, the, weekend, and, had, one, of, the, busier, few, days, i, can, remember, again, it, was, mostly, seasonal, farm, work, which, although, it, was, time, consuming, is, often, quite, rewarding, i'm, still, surprised, by, the, number, of, sheep, we, are, getting, called, to, perhaps, it's, because, farmers, have, spent, a, lot, of, money, on, them, to, restock, with, and, now, feel, they’re, financially, worth, calling, us, for, diary, 8, made, a, couple, of, visits, to, one, of, our, farmers, who, restocked, over, the, winter, this, week, he's, having, a, few, problems, with, cows, getting, ill, and, generally, not, settling, in, very, well, he's, one, of, the, most, amenable, farmers, on, our, books, and, never, seems, to, try, to, blame, anyone, for, his, troubles, at, times, it's, very, frustrating, not, to, be, able, to, do, more, for, people, like, him, i'd, like, to, be, able, to, give, every, one, of, his, cows, a, magic, injection, and, say, that, it'll, get, better, but, unfortunately, that's, not, how, it, works, we've, had, a, lot, of, colt, castrations, to, do, this, week, which, is, normal, for, this, time, of, year, it, puts, more, pressure, on, us, in, terms, of, work, as, we, usually, take, two, vets, to, each, castration, considering, how, busy, it, is, relations, in, the, practice, are, generally, very, good, it, has, been, stressful, at, times, but, on, the, whole, this, has, been, stress, related, to, volume, of, jobs, to, do, rather, than, people, it, has, also, been, a, very, different, and, preferable, type, of, stress, than, this, time, of, the, last, year, at, least, a, lot, of, work, makes, us, all, feel, fairly, stable, rather, than, the, terrible, uncertainty, of, last, year, we’ve, also, taken, on, an, extra, vet, this, spring, which, would, have, been, unthinkable, last, year, in, the, middle, of, the, week, i, did, a, farm, visit, with, one, of, the, vets, from, the, local, veterinary, lab, to, discuss, disease, control, on, a, re, stocked, farm, most, of, the, work, into, disease, surveillance, on, a, farm, was, defra, funded, which, went, down, well, with, the, farmer, she, at, least, felt, as, though, she, was, getting, something, back, after, fighting, with, defra, for, the, last, few, months, it, was, also, encouraging, to, see, someone, taking, a, very, positive, approach, to, disease, control, in, the, future, my, cousin, and, some, of, his, friends, came, down, from, glasgow, for, the, weekend, to, go, into, the, lake, district, the, weather, was, good, on, the, whole, and, several, people, noted, how, good, it, was, to, have, the, paths, open, again, diary, 9, started, the, week, doing, a, big, tuberculin, and, brucellosis, test, at, a, restocked, farm, there, has, been, a, big, backlog, to, clear, after, testing, was, stopped, during, fmd, last, year, so, we, have, to, catch, up, with, those, farms, that, didn’t, get, the, disease, but, are, due, a, test, as, well, as, testing, the, restocking, farms, we’re, all, very, keen, to, keep, cumbria, as, a, tb, free, zone, but, with, all, the, different, stock, coming, in, it’s, going, to, be, tricky, monday’s, test, was, long, but, okay, on, the, whole, the, set, up, was, good, and, the, farming, family, were, very, pleasant, which, makes, a, huge, difference, to, how, the, day, goes, all, was, clear, when, i, went, to, read, the, test, on, thursday, a, relief, for, all, concerned, overall, work, seems, to, be, quietening, down, a, bit, this, week, compared, to, the, last, few, we, are, now, just, busy, rather, than, always, feeling, as, if, were, one, job, behind, all, the, time, on, wednesday, and, thursday, one, of, our, clients, brought, in, half, a, dozen, shetland, ponies, to, castrate, it, makes, a, change, to, have, a, large, animal, that, is, small, enough, to, be, easily, physically, restrained, by, one, person, the, continuing, good, weather, made, doing, an, afternoon's, work, with, the, ponies, in, the, practice’s, field, a, very, pleasant, way, to, spend, a, few, hours, i, can't, help, feeling, that, no, rain, in, april, means, we'll, get, loads, later, in, the, summer, i, was, on, a, second, call, at, the, weekend, saturday, was, very, busy, with, small, animal, jobs, which, i, mainly, left, to, a, colleague, while, i, tried, to, clear, up, the, farm, and, equine, jobs, calm, was, pretty, much, restored, by, late, afternoon, after, which, i, wasn't, called, until, early, sunday, morning, another, of, our, re, stocked, clients, is, having, considerable, trouble, with, some, of, his, new, animals, and, is, becoming, increasingly, frustrated, about, it, we, all, try, to, help, with, the, medical, side, of, it, animals, but, inevitably, also, get, to, hear, a, lot, of, his, other, worries, too, hopefully, things, will, look, up, soon, and, he'll, be, able, to, ride, it, out, ok, diary, 10, had, a, day, off, on, bank, holiday, monday, always, the, good, way, to, start, the, week, i, went, up, to, peebles, in, scotland, with, some, friends, to, go, mountain, biking, it, was, surprisingly, empty, for, a, weekend, and, the, weather, was, good, and, i, didn't, fall, off, all, in, all, a, good, day, out, tuesday, was, work, as, usual, i, had, to, do, a, small, tb, test, on, a, restocking, farm, it, shouldn't, have, been, a, long, job, but, the, facilities, weren't, great, so, it, didn’t, go, as, slickly, as, it, might, have, done, we, all, managed, to, get, through, in, one, piece, so, it, could, have, been, worse, one, of, my, colleagues, went, on, maternity, this, week, she, is, part, time, but, does, all, small, animal, work, now, that, she's, off, for, the, next, few, months, it, means, that, an, extra, vet, is, needed, each, morning, to, stay, in, and, do, small, animal, operations, while, it's, probably, not, my, favourite, sort, of, work, it, does, make, a, change, from, being, out, on, farms, every, morning, it's, also, good, to, get, a, bit, more, experience, at, small, procedures, as, well, as, doing, smaller, animals, this, week, has, brought, several, interesting, equine, cases, i, had, to, hospitalise, a, horse, for, a, few, days, for, fairly, intensive, treatment, which, fortunately, appears, to, have, made, a, good, recovery, there, have, also, been, a, couple, of, horse, operations, at, the, practice, this, week, they’re, generally, quite, interesting, apart, from, the, stress, involved, with, having, half, a, ton, of, horse, asleep, on, the, operating, table, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, to, edinburgh, for, a, small, reunion, with, friends, i, was, at, college, with, although, we, do, talk, about, other, things, conversation, inevitably, came, round, to, work, the, effect, of, fmd, and, its, consequences, are, still, very, much, in, people's, minds, friends, all, asked, how, it, was, last, year, and, whether, farms, have, restocked, yet, etc, etc, it, s, stuff, which, i, seem, to, have, said, hundreds, of, times, over, the, last, few, months, but, people, never, seem, to, tire, of, asking, it, and, to, an, extent, i, don't, seem, to, get, bored, of, answering, it, diary, 11, the, week, started, with, a, big, tb, test, at, a, restocking, dairy, farm, there, were, very, good, facilities, and, it, subsequently, went, very, smoothly, and, quickly, despite, the, number, of, cows, involved, the, farmer, seems, to, be, quite, positive, about, the, new, start, and, has, been, spared, a, lot, of, the, problems, that, other, people, have, experienced, while, restocking, in, terms, of, disease, in, the, animals, everything, was, clear, when, i, read, the, test, later, in, the, week, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, had, a, bit, of, a, change, as, i, went, castrate, two, ponies, belonging, to, my, mother, she, had, bought, two, totally, wild, fell, ponies, last, autumn, they, now, a, bit, tamer, but, not, completely, used, to, being, handled, yet, i, went, with, one, of, our, nurses, and, the, senior, partner, and, it, all, went, pretty, much, to, plan, work, is, still, busy, there's, one, client, in, particular, who, is, giving, us, a, lot, to, do, he, restocked, a, few, months, ago, and, is, obviously, having, trouble, lambing, his, sheep, it, got, a, bit, trying, when, i, had, to, get, up, to, his, third, lambing, of, one, night, but, that's, what, we, are, there, for, i, suppose, he's, a, nice, man, and, always, seems, pleased, to, see, us, which, helps, i, had, the, weekend, off, again, and, went, to, glasgow, to, be, best, man, at, my, cousin's, wedding, apart, from, the, weather, it, went, very, well, i, think, with, no, unsolvable, problems, diary, 12, started, the, week, with, a, long, visit, for, dairy, fertility, work, to, one, of, our, big, dairy, farmers, it's, one, of, the, farmers, who, has, been, having, problems, after, restocking, and, a, visit, that, another, vet, usually, does, so, i, felt, a, bit, under, pressure, it's, the, type, of, work, which, is, very, routine, but, has, the, potential, to, go, quite, badly, wrong, on, the, whole, it, went, fairly, well, with, no, major, problems, i, get, on, pretty, well, with, the, farmer, which, always, helps, as, it, makes, the, time, go, by, quicker, small, animal, work, is, still, quite, busy, i, had, two, days, inside, this, week, doing, small, animals, operations, there, wasn't, anything, particularly, different, or, unusual, but, it, still, helps, to, do, more, of, it, one, of, our, farmers, who, managed, to, miss, fmd, is, very, busy, with, his, calving, schedule, at, the, moment, he’s, tending, to, have, very, big, calves, and, subsequently, we’re, doing, a, lot, of, caesareans, there, this, week, has, brought, at, least, half, a, dozen, of, which, two, were, in, the, middle, of, the, night, there, have, been, a, few, vets, are, looking, sleep, deprived, recently, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, so, see, a, couple, of, friends, in, edinburgh, we, spent, one, day, cycling, in, peebles, and, then, proceeded, to, nothing, strenuous, for, the, next, diary, 13, the, week, started, with, a, big, session, dehorning, cattle, it’s, not, exactly, technical, work, and, is, fairly, hard, work, at, least, it, gets, me, fit, we, would, normally, do, them, at, a, younger, age, but, quite, a, few, have, been, missed, as, we, didn’t, get, out, onto, farms, for, such, routine, work, last, year, on, the, whole, most, people, are, fairly, well, caught, up, now, that, they’ve, re, stocked, been, having, routine, work, done, for, the, last, 8, months, or, so, but, there, are, still, a, few, lagging, behind, i, had, a, call, from, a, farmer, who, was, one, of, our, most, consistently, and, vehemently, anti, defra, people, last, year, i, ended, up, doing, a, caesarean, and, had, quite, a, long, chat, with, him, conversation, ended, up, coming, round, to, the, events, of, last, year, and, he, aired, his, resentments, again, it, was, the, first, time, in, several, weeks, that, i, had, heard, this, kind, of, talk, whereas, a, few, months, ago, it, would, have, been, a, daily, occurrence, it, wasn’t, particularly, aimed, at, me, or, the, practice, in, particular, but, just, frustration, with, the, system, as, a, whole, i, went, for, a, walk, up, blencathra, one, evening, during, the, week, but, the, highlight, of, the, week, has, to, be, the, start, of, the, world, cup, i’ve, been, on, duty, this, w, e, but, managed, to, see, all, but, the, last, two, minutes, of, this, morning’s, rather, disappointing, draw, with, sweden, most, farmers, are, keen, to, watch, the, matches, too, so, lets, hope, not, too, many, calls, come, in, at, the, wrong, time, diary, 14, i, had, the, bank, holiday, on, monday, off, which, was, welcome, after, a, weekend, on, call, i, went, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, with, a, colleague, considering, it, was, a, bank, holiday, it, wasn't, too, crowded, had, to, work, on, bank, holiday, tuesday, though, it, wasn't, especially, busy, until, the, evening, when, i, had, to, do, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, and, then, go, and, see, a, badly, cut, horse, both, seem, to, be, doing, ok, the, rest, of, the, week, was, worked, as, usual, nothing, particularly, out, of, the, ordinary, happened, with, fairly, routine, calls, perhaps, it, was, because, everyone, was, preoccupied, with, events, in, japan, and, korea, or, maybe, that, is, just, me, i, was, booked, in, for, an, 11, am, call, on, friday, but, managed, to, persuade, the, farmer, concerned, that, 9.30, would, be, more, appropriate, said, that, i, or, should, that, be, we, could, watch, the, second, england, game, we, managed, to, get, finished, in, time, and, it, was, well, worth, it, the, 1, 0, win, over, argentina, put, everyone, in, a, good, mood, for, the, rest, of, the, day, and, the, weekend, i, was, on, first, call, over, the, weekend, saturday, morning, was, very, busy, and, we, didn’t, get, all, the, calls, done, until, early, afternoon, after, that, it, was, one, of, the, quietest, weekends, i’ve, had, they, were, a, couple, of, things, to, do, on, saturday, afternoon, evening, but, sunday, had, no, calls, until, after, lunch, almost, unheard, of, i, had, to, check, my, phone, was, switched, on, long, may, it, last, diary, 15, i’ve, done, two, days, in, the, practice, doing, small, animals, this, week, more, than, usual, the, weather, has, not, been, the, best, so, it's, no, bad, thing, i, managed, to, go, out, on, rounds, on, wednesday, though, so, i, managed, to, catch, the, third, england, match, second, round, here, we, come, i, spent, most, of, friday, morning, operating, on, two, cows, at, one, of, our, farms, they, both, had, a, condition, where, part, of, the, gut, displaces, in, the, abdomen, and, is, best, repositioned, surgically, the, farmer, observed, that, it, was, probably, linked, to, fmd, last, year, because, of, fmd, he, had, to, use, more, silage, to, keep, his, cows, inside, last, summer, this, meant, he, had, less, stored, over, the, winter, and, so, had, none, available, to, feed, this, spring, summer, the, lack, of, silage, now, is, almost, certainly, implicated, in, the, problems, his, cows, had, it's, very, unusual, to, have, two, occurring, on, one, farm, at, same, time, seeing, as, he, missed, getting, fmd, last, year, though, he, thought, it, was, a, price, worth, paying, it, was, actually, quite, a, pleasant, way, to, spend, a, morning, he's, from, kirkby, stephen, where, i, went, to, school, and, i, didn't, have, any, other, jobs, waiting, so, it, was, quite, a, relaxed, few, hours, the, surgery, went, ok, too, i, had, a, half, day, on, friday, and, drove, to, valley, just, beyond, alston, to, meet, one, of, my, old, flat, mates, from, edinburgh, for, his, stag, weekend, we, stayed, in, an, old, barn, in, middle, of, nowhere, so, it, wasn't, exactly, a, conventional, stag, party, but, very, enjoyable, all, the, same, we, walked, to, the, nearest, pub, on, saturday, to, see, england's, exciting, next, instalment, 3, 0, thank, you, very, much, after, that, it's, been, a, leisurely, day, and, drive, back, to, penrith, and, i’ve, got, another, night, to, get, my, head, back, to, normal, for, work, tomorrow, diary, 16, this, week, has, been, quite, small, animal, orientated, again, i've, done, two, mornings, in, the, surgery, and, more, consulting, than, usual, i'm, not, meant, to, be, on, duty, for, nights, this, week, but, i've, had, a, couple, to, cover, for, people, who've, been, on, holiday, fortunately, both, nights, were, fairly, quiet, i'm, sure, the, favour, will, be, returned, sometime, during, the, day, work, has, been, fairly, steady, we’re, not, quite, as, busy, as, last, week, but, there's, enough, to, keep, us, going, the, practice, like, most, of, the, country, tried, to, stop, briefly, while, england, were, losing, to, brazil, it's, a, bit, disappointing, hopefully, farmers, and, the, rest, of, our, clients, won’t, be, too, depressed, about, it, all, it, was, good, while, it, lasted, at, the, weekend, i, went, down, to, a, place, near, worcester, for, the, wedding, of, the, friend, whose, stag, weekend, it, was, the, last, week, there, were, a, lot, of, people, from, edinburgh, there, why, haven't, seen, for, several, years, and, it, was, great, to, catch, up, the, weather, was, very, kind, and, stayed, dry, diary, 18, on, monday, i, went, to, do, a, big, tuberculosis, and, brucellosis, test, at, of, one, our, big, dairy, farms, that, had, restocked, few, months, ago, they’ve, got, several, hundred, cows, and, it, took, a, lot, longer, than, anticipated, i, had, to, go, back, on, tuesday, to, finish, the, job, off, they’re, a, friendly, family, so, it, wasn't, really, too, much, of, a, chore, there, has, been, a, more, obvious, change, in, them, since, fmd, than, for, most, of, our, clients, who, had, the, disease, they, seem, much, quieter, and, less, concerned, about, farming, and, life's, problems, in, general, now, perhaps, they, think, if, they, can, get, through, 2001, then, there’s, nothing, worth, getting, stressed, about, in, comparison, wednesday, was, spent, doing, small, animal, work, made, a, change, as, on, thursday, i, went, back, to, read, the, cows, results, for, the, tb, test, all, negative, on, thursday, night, i, drove, down, to, stay, with, a, college, friend, near, birmingham, for, the, start, of, a, long, weekend, on, friday, i, carried, on, south, to, another, friend, in, north, devon, she's, working, another, vet, in, an, area, that, was, also, severely, affected, by, fmd, cumbria, was, so, badly, hit, that, is, sometimes, easy, to, forget, that, other, places, had, a, bad, time, too, thankfully, work, in, devon, is, more, or, less, back, to, normal, again, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, weekend, in, south, devon, where, my, dad, had, his, 60th, birthday, we, were, lucky, with, the, weather, and, had, fine, ish, conditions, to, have, a, barbecue, on, the, beach, i, was, off, today, monday, as, well, and, spent, the, day, driving, north, too, far, to, go, for, a, weekend, diary, 19, it's, been, a, short, working, week, seeing, as, i, had, monday, off, i’ve, also, started, a, month, back, on, the, out, of, the, hours, of, rota, this, week, it, works, a, month, on, a, month, off, system, so, nights, and, weekends, have, been, and, will, be, a, bit, busier, work, has, generally, been, a, bit, quieter, recently, this, is, fairly, typical, for, the, time, of, year, mainly, because, animals, are, outside, and, farmers, are, busy, making, hay, and, silage, rain, permitting, we've, had, two, vets, off, this, week, so, although, there, have, been, fewer, jobs, in, we, are, not, left, twiddling, our, thumbs, there, has, been, the, usual, flow, of, a, routine, farm, work, along, with, horses, and, small, animals, but, nothing, too, taxing, on, the, whole, i, had, a, night, on, thursday, and, went, up, st, sunday, crag, in, the, lake, district, with, a, couple, of, friends, from, brampton, it, was, further, than, i, remembered, it, being, we, didn't, get, down, until, it, was, almost, dark, but, apart, from, being, unseasonably, cold, surprise, surprise, it, was, a, fine, night, it, was, duty, this, weekend, i, was, on, first, call, on, friday, night, and, had, it, very, easy, no, calls, until, 12, 45pm, when, another, vet, and, i, had, to, operate, on, a, dog, until, three, am, i, checked, it, again, at, 5.30, and, then, had, to, go, to, calving, at, 6.45, just, as, that, was, finished, i, was, called, to, a, badly, cut, horse, then, some, lame, cows, and, then, to, the, bacon, roll, shop, for, breakfast, i, was, only, on, second, call, for, the, rest, of, the, weekend, and, was, fairly, quiet, this, meant, i, could, get, on, with, various, mundane, things, like, painting, my, house, tidying, the, garden, etc, etc, ideal, tasks, for, when, i, can't, do, anything, else, because, i'm, on, call, and, the, dog, did, well, so, it, makes, the, night, with, no, sleep, worthwhile, diary, 20, have, had, another, short, week, had, monday, off, as, i, was, coming, back, from, a, long, weekend, away, work, this, week, has, been, fairly, steady, farmers, are, often, busy, trying, to, get, silage, hay, in, at, the, moment, so, routine, of, vet, work, takes, a, back, seat, having, said, that, we, have, been, kept, at, least, as, busy, as, we, would, expect, with, routine, fertility, visits, and, the, occasional, sick, cow, etc, there, been, a, few, of, the, restocking, farms, that, have, had, some, fairly, unusual, diseases, that, didn't, obviously, fall, into, the, ones, we, usually, recognise, or, deal, with, as, a, lot, of, them, have, bought, stock, in, from, abroad, we, have, to, at, least, keep, in, mind, the, possibility, of, new, problems, been, brought, in, we've, worked, quite, closely, with, the, local, defra, run, veterinary, investigation, centre, on, a, few, of, these, cases, but, thankfully, none, have, turned, out, to, be, anything, to, be, unduly, worried, about, i, was, on, duty, this, weekend, but, have, fortunately, been, reasonably, quiet, the, only, thing, out, the, ordinary, was, a, horse, that, had, torn, its, leg, up, quite, badly, on, some, wire, but, with, a, bit, of, time, and, bandaging, it, should, do, okay, diary, 21, 2, vets, have, been, off, this, week, so, it's, been, a, bit, busier, for, the, rest, of, us, again, as, with, last, week, it's, been, a, mixture, of, routine, and, the, standard, a, e, type, work, there, have, been, a, few, tuberculin, tests, going, on, still, trying, to, clear, the, backlog, from, last, year, it's, getting, there, slowly, but, a, lot, of, it, will, have, to, wait, until, the, autumn, winter, when, the, cows, are, in, and, the, farmers, have, more, time, available, our, new, vet, who, started, in, april, has, seemed, to, settle, in, very, well, he, had, a, bit, of, a, bad, day, earlier, in, the, week, when, a, calving, did, go, quite, as, planned, it's, very, easy, to, do, especially, when, you, feel, under, pressure, as, is, bound, to, happen, when, you, start, a, new, job, it, reminded, me, of, some, of, the, problems, i, had, a, few, years, ago, the, farm, where, it, happened, is, quite, an, understanding, type, so, it, won't, create, any, real, problems, hockey, training, is, starting, again, which, seems, a, bit, premature, as, the, season, is, still, months, away, at, least, it'll, encourage, me, to, do, a, bit, more, exercise, to, get, fit, for, matches, the, weather, has, meant, i, haven't, been, out, into, the, hills, as, often, as, i, would, have, liked, but, hopefully, there's, still, time, for, it, to, brighten, up, a, bit, had, the, weekend, off, so, a, couple, of, friends, from, college, he, now, living, york, came, to, stay, we, went, up, to, the, borders, for, the, day, on, saturday, near, to, where, i, used, to, work, it, doesn't, seem, to, have, changed, much, i, still, think, i'm, better, off, down, here, despite, last, year, diary, 22, we, had, a, bit, of, a, rush, on, this, week, as, sometimes, seems, to, happen, it, can, be, quiet, for, couple, of, weeks, and, then, it, suddenly, it's, crazy, it, may, be, that, a, lot, of, farms, have, now, largely, got, their, crops, in, and, are, trying, to, catch, up, or, perhaps, it's, just, the, way, things, go, several, farms, have, had, ongoing, problems, this, week, with, visits, being, required, several, days, running, there, have, also, been, a, large, number, of, horse, calls, this, is, probably, fairly, common, for, this, time, of, year, as, they, tend, to, get, ridden, in, the, supposedly, better, weather, we, tend, to, go, further, afield, for, horses, on, tuesday, i, went, to, kirkby, lonsdale, area, in, morning, and, had, to, go, north, of, carlisle, in, the, afternoon, the, miles, get, racked, up, or, fairly, quickly, and, i, get, to, learn, where, the, various, blind, spots, for, phone, and, radio, reception, are, i, was, on, duty, again, on, the, weekend, which, meant, that, i, was, also, on, for, monday, wednesday, and, friday, nights, they, weren't, too, bad, apart, from, friday, when, i, have, to, go, and, see, a, couple, of, horses, being, on, duty, for, three, week, nights, tends, to, limit, what, i, can, do, apart, from, work, but, i, managed, to, meet, up, with, some, friends, working, in, brampton, one, night, and, go, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, on, thursday, the, weekend, was, fairly, quiet, but, i, was, only, on, second, call, so, i, found, time, to, do, some, decorating, in, the, room, in, my, house, which, is, the, current, project, i, lead, such, a, thrilling, life, diary, 23, the, calm, after, the, storm, after, the, frantic, levels, of, work, we, saw, last, week, it, has, again, been, a, bit, more, civilised, this, week, we've, had, time, to, have, coffee, and, lunch, breaks, and, actually, talk, to, colleagues, from, time, to, time, i, wouldn't, want, have, every, week, is, quiet, as, this, but, occasionally, it's, very, welcome, it's, quite, relaxing, to, be, able, to, go, on, a, call, knowing, that, there, is, not, another, one, waiting, it, also, means, that, if, the, afternoons, are, quiet, one, of, us, can, usually, have, a, half, day, i, got, the, nod, on, wednesday, and, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, my, folks, they’ve, got, a, smallholding, down, there, with, various, creatures, which, usually, have, some, ailment, or, other, it's, a, bit, of, a, busman's, holiday, going, there, but, it, is, nice, having, them, close, i, tend, see, them, every, week, or, two, on, wednesday, i, vaccinated, a, couple, of, horses, and, trimmed, a, few, sheep’s, feet, they, went, through, the, joys, of, 48, hourly, surveillance, inspections, last, year, but, somehow, managed, to, come, through, unscathed, their, parish, was, one, of, the, only, ones, in, the, kirkby, stephen, area, to, do, so, other, weekend, i, went, up, to, glasgow, to, see, a, cousin, who, was, having, a, leaving, party, i, didn't, know, many, people, there, but, it, was, good, to, go, and, do, something, completely, removed, from, the, usual, one, of, the, people, i, did, know, came, and, stayed, in, penrith, on, sunday, night, it, was, a, stunning, day, we, went, the, lakes, which, were, at, their, best, diary, 24, this, week, was, the, first, of, four, for, me, being, off, the, rota, which, should, mean, no, nights, and, no, weekends, on, call, can't, be, bad, on, monday, had, a, small, tb, test, to, do, it, was, with, a, very, pleasant, farmer, and, the, cows, behaved, themselves, so, it, wasn't, a, bad, way, to, spend, a, morning, he's, imported, a, small, herd, from, holland, and, seems, very, pleased, with, them, so, far, it, takes, a, bit, time, for, the, f, m, farmers, to, get, used, to, their, new, stock, as, most, of, them, knew, their, old, ones, so, well, but, on, the, whole, people, seemed, fairly, content, with, their, new, ones, i, did, small, animal, ops, on, tuesday, and, wednesday, as, one, of, the, vets, who, usually, do, it, was, on, holiday, we've, got, a, new, nurse, starting, this, week, so, it, was, a, case, of, showing, her, the, ropes, but, she, seems, to, be, doing, very, well, one, my, best, school, friends, got, married, on, friday, very, typically, after, a, fairly, quiet, week, it, suddenly, got, busy, on, friday, afternoon, i, managed, to, get, the, wedding, but, had, to, miss, the, afternoon, reception, in, order, to, go, and, see, a, horse, in, appleby, that's, life, i, was, one, of, the, duty, vets, at, lowther, show, on, saturday, i, hadn't, done, it, before, and, had, a, very, good, time, it, was, generally, fine, weather, and, there, were, some, truly, stunning, teams, of, horses, in, the, driving, event, lots, of, competitors, commented, on, how, good, it, was, to, have, the, show, up, and, running, again, after, last, year's, cancellations, the, event, passed, without, any, major, incident, for, vet, wise, so, it, was, a, pretty, calm, day, for, me, really, diary, 25, the, week's, been, fairly, steady, i, seem, to, have, been, doing, more, horses, than, anything, else, i, didn't, go, and, see, a, cow, until, friday, several, of, them, were, ongoing, cases, such, as, leg, wounds, that, have, needed, daily, dressing, changes, and, the, rest, a, selection, of, vaccinations, lameness, and, those, that, aren't, quite, right, i, quite, enjoy, the, horse, side, of, the, job, so, doing, a, bit, more, than, usual, has, been, a, welcome, change, i, had, planned, to, get, to, work, on, my, house, this, month, in, my, free, evenings, but, it, doesn't, really, seem, to, have, worked, like, that, when, i, know, i've, got, a, lot, of, free, time, nights, tend, to, get, booked, up, seeing, people, from, home, or, near, by, who, i’ve, temporarily, lost, touch, with, also, seeing, as, summer, seems, to, have, found, us, i've, been, trying, to, get, into, the, lakes, as, much, as, possible, the, house, can, wait, till, winter, this, weekend, i’ve, been, down, to, wales, to, see, a, group, of, college, friends, we, stayed, in, a, cottage, owned, by, one, of, the, group's, parents, and, played, a, few, rounds, of, golf, i, played, very, badly, lost, a, lot, of, balls, and, became, very, frustrated, with, it, all, i, think, it, comes, down, to, lack, of, talent, still, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, some, people, i, haven't, seen, since, graduation, and, i'm, sure, the, golf, will, be, better, next, year, diary, 26, i've, done, more, small, animal, work, than, anything, else, this, week, there, had, been, no, disasters, all, fairly, routine, stuff, one, of, the, small, animal, vets, has, been, away, so, i, had, to, cover, a, bit, i, didn't, actually, get, out, onto, a, farm, until, friday, morning, it, gets, a, bit, claustrophobic, inside, after, a, while, so, it, was, good, to, get, out, i, was, on, call, at, the, weekend, and, also, had, a, college, friend, to, stay, it, was, very, quiet, most, of, the, time, until, sunday, evening, i, had, swapped, duty, to, be, off, on, the, night, from, 6, 00pm, at, 5.45, four, calls, all, came, in, at, once, at, all, four, corners, of, the, practice, so, i, didn't, actually, get, finished, until, nearly, 8pm, that’s, the, way, it, goes, sometimes, i, suppose, i, had, another, half, day, earlier, in, the, week, as, it, was, fairly, quiet, i, took, my, bike, out, into, the, northern, lakes, for, a, few, hours, to, blow, away, the, cobwebs, from, being, inside, at, work, diary, 27, i, had, a, barbecue, party, this, weekend, for, people, from, work, and, a, lot, of, friends, from, college, there, were, a, lot, of, people, i, thought, i'd, always, keep, in, touch, with, the, but, as, time, went, on, i, never, did, so, i, arranged, a, weekend, a, long, way, in, advance, for, us, all, to, meet, up, again, about, 28, people, came, most, of, whom, i, haven't, seen, for, least, a, year, or, two, nobody, seems, to, have, changed, much, and, it, was, great, to, see, them, all, again, the, garden, and, house, have, both, taken, a, bit, of, a, pounding, but, i, think, most, of, the, mess, is, fairly, superficial, i, went, for, a, walk, near, howtown, today, to, clear, my, head, after, the, barbecue, last, night, it, was, a, very, good, day, weather, wise, which, meant, that, a, lot, of, people, had, had, the, same, idea, as, us, it's, been, a, variable, week, at, work, some, days, been, very, quiet, others, flat, out, i've, had, an, ongoing, case, of, a, young, horse, that, had, been, caught, up, in, wire, on, monday, evening, it, was, well, beyond, the, stage, where, it, could, have, been, stitched, when, i, saw, it, so, it'll, have, to, heal, slowly, by, filling, the, wound, in, i'm, sure, it'll, be, fine, but, it's, going, to, take, a, long, time, we’re, starting, to, get, a, lot, of, inquiries, about, the, new, rules, defra, are, bringing, in, to, allow, farmers, to, bring, animals, on, to, their, farms, in, isolation, facilities, it, should, make, things, less, restrictive, for, the, farmer, we, are, going, to, have, to, do, a, lot, of, inspections, it's, not, since, restocking, checks, last, winter, that, we’ve, really, had, to, do, this, sort, of, thing, but, the, checks, probably, won't, be, as, exhaustive, as, those, we, had, to, do, last, year, diary, 28, had, a, fairly, quiet, week, really, this, been, a, fairly, standard, mix, of, sick, cows, a, couple, of, lame, horses, and, the, continuation, of, the, young, horse, that, wrecked, its, leg, last, week, which, is, going, okay, so, it's, been, fairly, laid, back, on, the, whole, with, time, for, a, coffee, break, after, most, calls, we, have, done, the, first, of, the, inspections, for, the, new, on, farm, isolation, facilities, for, sheep, on, the, whole, farmer, compliance, has, been, very, good, there, have, been, a, few, whinges, about, why, they, have, to, do, it, and, i, can, see, why, as, it, must, be, frustrating, to, suddenly, be, told, how, to, run, stock, movements, that, they've, always, done, a, different, way, most, can, see, why, defra, are, insisting, on, it, though, as, it's, all, aimed, at, reducing, the, risk, of, having, another, situation, like, we, did, last, year, i, was, off, again, this, weekend, one, of, my, old, flat, mates, and, his, wife, came, to, stay, they, live, in, london, so, came, north, for, a, weekend, of, clean, living, and, fresh, air, we, went, for, walks, around, cat, bells, and, high, street, on, saturday, and, sunday, ate, drank, and, were, generally, fairly, unstressed, hope, it, was, what, they, were, looking, for, diary, 29, i've, had, a, short, week, in, terms, of, work, at, the, practice, this, week, as, i've, been, to, glasgow, for, an, equine, conference, from, thursday, to, saturday, further, education, is, not, compulsory, and, there, is, no, formal, structure, for, it, which, is, quite, controversial, in, some, people's, eyes, but, the, royal, college, of, vets, do, encourage, us, to, keep, up, to, date, there, is, a, quota, we’re, asked, to, fulfil, each, year, and, these, three, days, will, help, me, keep, on, track, there, were, several, different, courses, on, each, day, with, one, lecture, theatre, for, practitioner, based, subjects, that, we, could, expect, to, see, on, a, day, to, day, basis, and, another, called, advanced, clinical, sessions, on, subjects, and, cases, so, obscure, that, you'd, be, lucky, to, hear, of, one, let, alone, see, one, more, than, once, or, twice, i, didn't, go, to, many, of, those, lectures, as, well, as, being, useful, in, terms, of, picking, up, new, information, it, was, also, a, good, chance, to, catch, up, with, old, friends, from, college, lots, of, people, i, hadn't, seen, for, a, year, or, two, were, there, and, it, was, good, to, see, them, the, first, three, days, of, the, week, were, okay, i, went, out, on, tuesday, morning, to, trim, some, lame, cows, feet, and, ended, up, accidentally, trimming, some, skin, from, the, farmers, thumb, with, my, hoof, knife, all, a, bit, embarrassing, and, felt, very, bad, but, he, didn't, seem, that, fazed, by, it, and, he's, not, the, type, to, bear, a, grudge, perhaps, i, shouldn’t, try, to, keep, my, knife, so, sharp, another, of, the, week's, more, interesting, events, was, an, irish, wolfhound, that, needed, surgery, to, correct, a, twisted, and, distended, stomach, it's, fairly, common, in, this, type, of, dog, and, is, a, real, emergency, another, vet, and, i, operated, on, him, on, tuesday, afternoon, it, took, a, couple, of, hours, but, so, far, is, seems, to, have, been, worth, it, as, he's, done, very, well, and, apparently, went, home, on, friday, diary, 30, i, spent, most, of, monday, afternoon, evening, irradiating, myself, by, taking, dozens, of, x, rays, of, a, horse’s, legs, it, was, being, sold, for, a, lot, of, money, and, the, insurance, company, wanted, to, check, all, its, joints, were, ok, before, insuring, it, it, took, a, lot, longer, than, anticipated, as, it, was, difficult, to, get, it, positioned, absolutely, right, for, each, view, but, we, got, there, in, the, end, we, have, to, be, quite, careful, about, exposure, to, x, rays, but, my, x, ray, badge, hasn't, shown, a, high, reading, yet, 2, vets, have, been, off, this, week, one, on, his, honeymoon, and, one, has, been, away, doing, ai, on, sheep, its, often, a, bit, quieter, now, but, we, seem, to, have, been, kept, going, i, did, a, big, routine, fertility, visit, to, one, of, our, dairy, farms, on, wednesday, one, of, the, main, things, we, do, on, these, visits, is, manual, pregnancy, diagnosis, it's, not, too, bad, with, dairy, calves, cows, as, if, they're, not, in, calf, they, would, normally, get, another, chance, to, do, so, but, with, some, beef, farms, or, a, dairy, cow, that, is, persistently, not, conceiving, it, sometimes, more, economic, to, get, rid, of, the, cow, of, rather, than, persisting, so, there's, a, big, incentive, for, us, to, get, it, right, or, at, least, not, to, say, a, cow, isn't, in, calf, when, she, is, luckily, they, were, all, quite, straightforward, this, week, this, was, my, last, before, going, away, to, the, usa, for, a, fortnight, i, fly, to, new, york, tomorrow, to, meet, up, with, an, old, flatmate, of, mine, who's, a, journalist, out, there, i'm, crossing, the, atlantic, to, see, him, and, he's, given, me, directions, to, his, flat, rather, than, meeting, me, at, the, airport, because, i'm, arriving, when, premiership, football, is, on, tv, charming, diary, 31, two, weeks, in, the, states, can't, be, bad, i, flew, into, new, york, where, i, stayed, with, a, friend, who's, working, in, manhattan, i, did, a, lot, of, the, usual, tourist, things, empire, state, building, boat, trip, around, the, island, central, park, etc, for, its, size, it's, a, very, relaxed, place, in, a, lot, of, ways, it, feels, very, safe, and, although, there, is, loads, going, on, you, never, seem, to, get, hassled, we, flew, to, new, orleans, for, a, week, supposedly, for, some, sun, in, the, deep, south, but, landed, just, as, a, tropical, storm, hit, the, mainland, everything, was, closed, for, two, days, as, bad, as, uk, when, it, snows, once, the, weather, cleared, it, was, fine, and, we, again, went, about, being, tourists, paddle, boat, up, the, mississippi, river, out, on, a, boat, in, the, louisiana, swamps, to, look, at, alligators, and, a, bit, of, new, orleans, nightlife, i, had, a, few, more, days, in, new, york, before, flying, home, diary, 32, first, week, back, after, america, had, a, good, trip, but, the, week, has, been, rather, marred, by, the, death, of, one, of, the, hockey, team, and, a, year, mate, of, mine, at, school, in, a, tractor, accident, when, he, was, hit, by, a, wagon, on, the, a, 66, on, thursday, i, saw, him, on, wednesday, night, at, hockey, training, he, was, very, stiff, having, done, the, great, north, run, with, his, wife, the, weekend, before, i, didn't, know, him, very, well, at, school, but, have, got, to, over, the, last, few, years, via, hockey, and, he, really, was, a, tremendously, good, person, and, will, be, much, missed, by, lots, of, people, in, and, around, kirkby, stephen, the, weekend's, match, was, postponed, as, no, one, could, have, thought, about, playing, it, all, seems, very, trivial, when, this, sort, of, thing, happens, i, couldn't, have, played, anyway, as, i'm, on, duty, this, weekend, but, fortunately, it's, been, fairly, quiet, so, far, a, calving, and, 2, caesareans, but, it's, getting, into, calving, season, so, it's, about, par, for, the, course, the, first, half, of, the, week, was, ok, i, was, even, given, a, half, day, on, tuesday, a, day, and, a, half, after, returning, from, holiday, i, went, for, a, walk, at, the, bottom, end, of, derwent, water, and, then, tried, to, sleep, off, some, jet, lag, diary, 33, i, went, to, matthew's, funeral, on, tuesday, how, popular, he, was, was, reflected, in, the, number, of, people, there, we, arrived, 25, minutes, before, it, was, due, to, start, and, still, had, to, stand, and, had, to, move, up, as, more, people, tried, to, fit, into, the, chapel, it, almost, seemed, as, if, all, of, kirkby, had, come, to, a, standstill, it, went, on, quite, a, long, time, so, i, had, the, afternoon, off, and, went, to, see, my, parents, who, live, near, kirkby, afterwards, we, cancelled, hockey, training, on, wednesday, as, it, seemed, too, soon, to, go, on, as, usual, but, decided, play, our, scheduled, match, on, saturday, both, our, team, and, the, opposition, had, two, minute, silence, before, the, match, we, ended, up, drawing, 0, 0, but, it, was, a, very, good, close, game, we, normally, lose, to, this, team, and, played, in, a, competitive, but, fair, spirit, just, what, was, needed, for, our, first, match, back, i'm, actually, on, duty, again, this, weekend, but, one, my, colleagues, covered, for, me, for, a, few, hours, so, i, could, go, to, play, the, cases, at, work, have, been, fairly, steady, this, week, i'm, going, to, enrol, for, a, further, qualification, in, equine, practice, in, the, next, week, or, two, i'm, doing, a, reasonable, amount, of, horse, work, at, the, moment, but, will, try, to, do, a, bit, more, over, the, next, few, months, years, it, should, motivate, me, to, read, up, on, cases, more, and, find, slightly, more, constructive, ways, to, spend, evenings, on, call, diary, 34, tb, testing, our, biggest, beef, herd, had, its, post, restocking, test, this, week, about, 600, cattle, were, to, be, done, there’s, no, way, it, could, be, done, in, one, go, so, we, did, it, over, 3, instead, originally, planned, for, two, but, ran, out, of, daylight, it, all, went, smoothly, on, the, whole, or, at, least, as, well, as, could, be, expected, and, everything, has, been, cleared, as, negative, i, found, out, from, defra, a, few, weeks, ago, that, there, have, actually, been, quite, a, few, tb, cases, in, the, county, since, restocking, as, we'd, been, clear, for, years, previously, to, fmd, this, is, obviously, a, bit, of, a, worry, we, haven't, had, any, cases, in, our, practice, but, if, we, can't, stamp, out, these, new, cases, as, they, are, found, it’s, only, a, matter, of, time, before, it, spreads, further, afield, the, more, we, get, in, the, county, also, means, there, will, have, to, be, more, testing, at, the, moment, it's, begrudgingly, accepted, by, the, farmers, but, if, we, have, to, do, more, i, can, see, them, having, a, sense, of, humour, failure, over, it, ultimately, it's, in, their, interest, for, us, to, check, that, their, herd, is, free, but, it, is, a, big, time, commitment, and, they, don't, get, paid, for, it, while, i, spent, two, days, testing, the, rest, of, the, week, had, a, bit, more, variety, i, saw, few, horses, mainly, lameness, but, also, one, or, two, with, other, ailments, i, have, to, write, a, casebook, for, the, equine, certificate, i'm, doing, i’m, on, the, lookout, for, suitable, cases, during, my, rounds, i, had, the, weekend, off, played, hockey, in, manchester, and, then, went, to, worcester, to, see, some, college, friends, i, had, to, drive, back, via, ely, as, the, trains, are, cancelled, due, to, the, winds, which, meant, a, friend, was, stranded, not, a, very, direct, route, to, cumbria, diary, 35, the, week, started, on, monday, morning, with, another, tb, test, on, a, restocking, farm, it's, not, a, big, farm, and, was, one, of, the, late, ones, to, get, fmd, it's, run, by, a, very, nice, but, quite, intense, family, the, son, has, taken, re, stocking, very, seriously, and, has, obviously, thought, of, it, very, much, as, an, opportunity, to, start, from, scratch, and, try, to, eliminate, some, of, their, previous, herd, problems, i, have, consequently, spent, quite, a, bit, of, time, advising, him, over, the, various, vaccines, available, and, their, relative, pros, and, cons, thankfully, things, seem, to, be, paying, off, so, far, with, few, problems, in, herd, one, of, the, things, that, i, noticed, during, the, test, was, that, they, made, one, or, two, jokes, about, last, year, sorry, forgotten, exactly, what, they, said, i, thought, the, fact, that, they, were, able, to, now, talk, about, fmd, like, that, had, to, be, a, good, sign, as, i, think, it, would, have, been, highly, unlikely, a, year, ago, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, went, up, to, wigton, to, vet, a, horse, for, a, potential, buyer, there, were, several, minor, things, wrong, with, it, but, overall, it, seemed, ok, it's, always, a, responsibility, vetting, horses, as, someone, is, either, trying, to, buy, it, or, not, on, the, basis, of, what, i, find, in, this, case, it, took, quite, a, lot, of, convincing, the, buyer, that, the, imperfections, were, not, that, serious, hopefully, they, won’t, subsequently, turn, out, to, be, a, problem, i've, started, doing, more, horse, cases, recently, and, on, tuesday, sent, off, my, application, form, to, be, accepted, to, do, further, exams, in, horse, practice, i, have, to, wait, until, next, year, to, find, out, whether, i've, been, accepted, and, won't, sit, them, until, 2005, i, was, off, this, weekend, and, played, hockey, in, manchester, unfortunately, we, didn't, win, maybe, next, week, saturday, evening, i, went, down, to, kendal, to, see, an, old, flatmate, who, lives, there, diary, 36, on, tuesday, i, went, to, see, a, horse, near, carlisle, it, had, developed, a, swelling, on, its, lower, jaw, that, was, fairly, painful, to, touch, they, were, a, few, possibilities, but, the, most, likely, was, that, it, had, at, tooth, root, abscess, i, put, it, on, to, antibiotics, but, seeing, as, it, had, obviously, been, going, on, for, a, while, thought, it, was, worth, taking, some, x, rays, there, was, obvious, destruction, of, the, tooth, visible, on, the, x, ray, which, probably, means, it, needs, removing, this, is, a, fairly, major, undertaking, on, a, horse, and, as, it, was, a, valuable, creature, still, in, training, i, thought, it, best, to, send, to, edinburgh, vet, school, to, have, it, done, hopefully, i'll, be, able, to, go, and, see, it, done, in, a, day, or, two's, time, one, of, the, aspects, drawbacks, not, really, of, being, a, vet, his, that, one, is, often, asked, about, animal, ailments, out, of, work, i’m, sure, it, happens, a, lot, in, other, jobs, too, my, mother, is, very, adept, at, this, not, that, i, really, mind, her, elderly, terrier, that, we, grew, up, with, has, started, having, one, or, two, problems, recently, i, suggested, a, few, possibilities, but, thought, it, best, if, she, went, to, the, local, vets, to, have, her, looked, at, the, problem, was, she, was, so, bad, tempered, the, terrier, that, they, couldn’t, safely, blood, sample, her, so, she, had, a, day, out, to, penrith, so, that, i, could, try, to, take, blood, from, her, i, managed, to, more, or, less, intact, and, fortunately, her, results, seemed, more, or, less, in, order, or, at, least, better, than, her, temper, the, general, work, in, the, practice, has, been, fairly, steady, this, week, a, few, farmers, seem, to, be, having, quite, a, few, cows, calving, at, the, moment, which, is, a, bit, unseasonal, but, i, suppose, a, reasonable, number, tend, to, calve, all, year, round, we, haven't, really, got, into, calf, pneumonia, season, yet, but, it, can't, be, long, before, they, start, to, keep, us, busy, it, will, soon, take, over, from, lungworm, as, the, main, bovine, respiratory, problem, the, weekend, was, off, again, brought, a, victory, in, a, hockey, match, the, start, of, a, winning, streak, perhaps, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, after, the, match, to, see, a, few, friends, and, for, the, start, of, a, week, off, wahey, diary, 37, it's, a, week, off, can't, be, bad, i, didn't, do, what, i, had, planned, due, to, an, unforeseen, change, in, circumstances, but, still, good, as, i, was, in, edinburgh, last, weekend, i, decided, to, stay, up, for, few, days, this, was, partly, to, see, friends, and, also, because, i, had, referred, the, horse, with, a, bad, tooth, that, i, mentioned, last, week, voluntary, work, experience, during, time, off, dedication, or, very, rash, i, spent, tuesday, at, the, vet, school, in, edinburgh, with, one, of, my, old, tutors, the, case, i, had, sent, up, was, successfully, treated, so, far, by, removing, the, offending, tooth, it, was, very, interesting, to, see, how, he, did, it, as, he, used, a, different, technique, to, the, one, we’ve, used, in, the, practice, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, there, with, him, seeing, other, cases, it, felt, a, bit, odd, being, there, not, as, a, student, i, came, home, on, tuesday, evening, and, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, my, folks, on, wednesday, morning, i, spent, most, of, the, rest, of, the, week, either, at, their, house, or, mine, doing, things, like, stocking, up, on, firewood, for, the, winter, sorting, my, house, out, and, making, a, start, on, stripping, the, wallpaper, in, my, hallway, i, normally, go, away, when, i, take, time, off, but, it, was, actually, very, nice, to, do, things, at, home, for, change, it, made, for, quite, a, relaxing, week, on, the, whole, diary, 38, back, to, work, it, was, good, to, have, a, week, off, last, week, but, one, of, the, best, things, about, where, i, work, and, what, i, do, is, that, i, never, seem, to, feel, reluctant, to, go, back, to, work, i, think, that, must, mean, i, enjoy, it, on, the, whole, on, tuesday, i, went, back, to, see, the, horse, that, had, had, its, tooth, removed, last, week, it's, doing, very, well, and, is, back, in, training, it, was, eating, very, well, as, soon, as, the, tooth, came, out, it's, amazing, how, animals, often, seem, to, deal, with, pain, so, stoically, i'll, check, it, again, next, week, and, all, things, being, well, that, should, be, it, on, tuesday, afternoon, i, happened, to, see, another, slightly, unusual, case, in, a, horse, it, had, developed, a, lump, on, the, outside, of, its, cheek, which, on, closer, inspection, turned, out, to, be, a, large, mass, man, inside, its, mouth, it's, probably, going, to, have, to, be, removed, and, should, come, in, next, week, for, it, to, be, done, the, rest, of, the, week, was, the, usual, mix, of, more, routine, cases, have, been, on, to, more, farms, this, week, than, i, have, done, for, a, while, we, recently, took, on, a, new, dairy, farm, near, appleby, and, i, went, to, see, a, cow, there, for, the, first, time, on, a, first, visit, you, always, hope, for, something, straightforward, so, that, it's, easy, to, make, a, good, first, impression, on, this, occasion, the, cow, was, very, sick, and, wasn't, really, giving, me, many, clues, as, to, why, all, i, could, do, was, treat, it, for, the, symptoms, it, was, showing, i, saw, it, twice, on, friday, and, again, on, saturday, and, by, evening, it, was, on, the, mend, i, never, did, reach, a, conclusive, diagnosis, but, i, think, the, farmer, was, satisfied, by, the, fact, that, it, had, got, better, in, spite, of, not, knowing, quite, what, was, wrong, i, was, on, duty, friday, night, very, quiet, and, on, saturday, apart, from, the, cow, i, mentioned, it, was, fairly, easy, going, today, i, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, some, old, friends, staying, with, my, parents, two, weeks, with, no, tb, testing, it'll, change, next, week, diary, 39, it's, been, a, fairly, uneventful, week, at, work, there, don't, seem, to, have, been, any, particularly, on, going, or, notable, cases, in, some, ways, it's, not, a, bad, thing, as, it, makes, for, a, fairly, stress, free, time, it's, not, that, you, can, really, switch, off, but, it, does, mean, that, when, there, are, a, few, fairly, straightforward, cases, to, see, it's, possible, to, spend, more, time, chatting, to, the, farmer, owner, without, having, to, work, too, hard, finding, what's, wrong, with, the, patient, this, week's, most, interesting, case, was, a, horse, with, amazingly, extensive, arthritis, in, its, hind, legs, considering, its, age, it's, not, a, terminal, condition, but, it, does, have, implications, as, to, what, it, will, be, possible, to, use, it, for, in, future, in, situations, like, that, it, can, be, quite, difficult, to, give, the, client, the, right, outlook, they, often, expect, a, quick, cure, especially, in, a, young, horse, and, to, tell, them, that, a, problem, has, been, present, for, months, if, not, years, and, will, never, completely, go, away, can, come, as, a, bit, of, shock, the, owner, in, this, case, was, very, sensible, and, seemed, to, taking, what, was, said, very, well, the, other, good, thing, about, this, week, is, that, i'm, having, a, very, good, run, with, my, duties, i've, been, on, for, two, nights, on, first, call, and, the, phone, hasn't, gone, once, very, unusual, and, very, welcome, this, must, be, tempting, fate, i've, had, the, weekend, off, there, was, a, hockey, match, on, saturday, when, we, lost, to, the, league, leaders, but, avoided, humiliation, the, rest, of, the, two, days, was, spent, trying, to, progress, with, decorating, the, hallway, before, friends, come, to, stay, over, christmas, and, new, year, am, i, not, too, young, to, be, spending, weekends, off, decorating, diary, 40, i, had, a, good, test, of, my, diplomacy, skills, this, week, with, an, irate, farmer, i, had, spent, four, hours, doing, a, tb, test, on, a, very, cold, day, when, it, should, have, taken, about, one, and, a, half, hours, in, my, rush, to, get, defrosted, in, my, car, afterwards, i, forgot, to, shut, the, gate, in, the, field, where, i, had, parked, on, my, return, to, the, surgery, i, was, greeted, by, the, news, that, he, had, rung, wanting, my, head, on, a, stick, and, forbidding, me, from, ever, setting, foot, on, his, farm, again, as, all, his, tups, had, gone, walkabout, through, the, gate, i'd, left, open, on, advice, from, the, partners, at, the, practice, who, knew, him, better, i, gave, him, a, day, to, calm, down, and, then, wrote, a, very, grovelling, letter, i, was, allowed, to, go, back, at, the, end, of, the, week, to, read, the, test, results, which, fortunately, was, all, clear, i, think, he's, forgiven, me, one, of, the, more, common, cow, operations, we, do, is, to, correct, a, displaced, stomach, in, the, two, and, a, half, years, i've, been, at, the, practice, we’ve, always, done, it, using, one, particular, technique, there, are, circumstances, where, another, method, is, indicated, and, having, not, seen, them, for, 2, years, there, were, 2, this, week, they, both, went, well, so, far, another, two, years, before, the, next, i, took, my, last, day, off, for, 2002, on, thursday, and, again, spent, it, decorating, on, thursday, night, we, had, our, practice, christmas, meal, the, two, vets, on, duty, managed, not, to, get, called, out, and, on, the, whole, i, think, people, weren't, too, hung, over, on, friday, last, year, there, was, a, bit, of, a, debate, as, to, whether, we, should, have, a, christmas, night, out, as, most, farmers, were, either, just, starting, to, restock, or, still, cleaning, out, this, year, it, was, much, more, straightforward, on, friday, night, it, was, the, annual, night, at, hesket, newmarket, organised, by, the, local, defra, lab, for, any, local, vets, that, want, a, meal, and, beers, it's, a, good, chance, to, catch, up, with, other, vets, from, neighbouring, practices, in, very, informal, atmosphere, diary, 41, i've, had, a, couple, of, vet, students, staying, with, me, this, week, who, i, knew, when, i, was, in, my, final, year, at, edinburgh, they're, doing, work, experience, with, us, for, a, week, or, so, it's, made, a, pleasant, change, to, have, some, company, for, a, while, i, have, also, acquired, two, stray, kittens, in, the, last, week, the, usual, vet, procedure, of, eventually, finding, an, unwanted, patient, that, you, can't, resist, taking, yourself, they, are, settling, in, ok, and, we’ve, only, had, to, have, one, or, two, little, discussions, about, the, benefits, of, using, a, litter, tray, rather, than, the, carpet, the, week, at, work, has, been, reasonably, busy, a, good, thing, this, week, as, there, have, been, three, students, and, it's, a, bit, dull, for, them, if, there, is, nothing, going, on, we, had, a, horse, in, for, most, of, the, week, with, a, severe, respiratory, infection, it’s, needed, fairly, intensive, care, but, seems, to, be, on, the, mend, now, i, may, use, it, as, a, case, to, write, up, as, part, of, the, exam, i'm, hoping, to, do, in, a, few, years, it'll, have, to, be, a, new, year's, resolution, to, get, on, with, the, writing, up, part, of, it, apart, from, a, horse, it's, been, the, usual, sort, of, mix, a, few, routine, fertility, visits, to, dairy, farms, a, few, sick, cows, and, horses, etc, there, been, some, tb, tests, this, week, but, i've, managed, to, miss, them, all, must, be, saving, some, for, me, next, year, i, had, a, lot, of, people, from, work, here, on, friday, night, for, pre, christmas, mulled, wine, and, mince, pies, i'm, not, quite, sure, the, kittens, knew, what, was, happening, but, i, think, the, rest, of, us, enjoyed, it, i've, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, down, to, see, a, friend, in, birmingham, who, qualified, last, summer, this, was, her, second, weekend, on, call, so, i, went, to, give, moral, support, being, on, call, isn't, stressful, anymore, but, i, remember, for, the, first, few, times, it's, difficult, not, to, be, aware, of, the, phone, all, the, time, and, hoping, it, doesn't, ring, there, weren't, many, calls, and, those, that, did, come, in, she, didn't, need, me, for, suited, me, well, diary, 42, the, week, of, christmas, and, my, first, job, of, the, week, was, to, replace, a, particularly, contaminated, uterine, prolapse, in, a, cow, it, finally, went, back, in, after, an, hour, or, so, of, fairly, fruitless, efforts, very, festive, this, week, and, next, we, had, fewer, vets, than, usual, working, each, day, as, we, all, have, a, few, days, off, for, christmas, new, year, so, it‘s, sometimes, a, bit, busy, during, the, day, it's, generally, worth, it, for, the, extra, time, off, i, was, off, on, monday, night, and, went, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, school, friends, back, for, the, holiday, although, we, don't, see, each, other, very, often, any, more, people, don't, really, seem, to, change, very, much, a, good, friend, whose, parents, farm, had, f, and, m, have, sold, up, and, are, going, into, b, b, instead, i, think, it, was, a, hard, decision, but, now, they, seen, to, be, quite, relieved, to, be, out, of, it, i, was, on, duty, on, christmas, eve, and, fortunately, didn't, have, to, go, out, i, just, had, three, phone, calls, between, 7, and, 9, p, m, from, people, saying, their, dog, or, cat, had, been, off, food, for, periods, varying, from, three, weeks, to, 10, days, christmas, eve, seemed, an, odd, time, to, notice, this, i, went, home, to, kirkby, stephen, for, christmas, and, boxing, day, and, didn't, really, do, very, much, i, had, a, look, at, a, couple, of, mum’s, sheep, but, other, than, that, it, was, just, a, case, of, being, lazy, and, enjoying, seasonal, food, and, drink, i, was, on, duty, this, weekend, which, turned, out, be, fairly, busy, one, of, the, students, who, came, to, stay, last, week, came, back, to, do, some, on, call, work, which, turned, out, to, be, very, useful, a, couple, of, cows, to, operate, on, as, caesar, and, a, displaced, stomach, where, two, pairs, of, hands, are, better, than, one, and, quite, a, few, small, animals, to, see, to, diary, 43, i've, had, most, of, this, week, off, for, new, year, tuesday, to, friday, which, is, pretty, good, going, seen, as, i, was, off, for, christmas, as, well, monday, was, fairly, quiet, with, just, a, few, farm, calls, to, do, and, some, small, animals, rather, worryingly, we've, heard, that, a, local, deer, farm, not, one, of, our, customers, has, gone, down, with, tb, apparently, with, quite, a, few, deer, in, the, herd, having, it, this, means, that, we'll, have, to, do, tb, check, tests, on, any, of, our, farms, that, neighbour, the, affected, premises, over, new, year, my, cousin, her, husband, and, their, five, children, young, came, to, stay, it, wasn't, too, hectic, on, the, whole, with, just, the, occasional, loss, of, humour, a, couple, of, friends, from, work, came, round, to, join, us, for, new, year, itself, i've, had, to, work, this, weekend, part, of, the, deal, for, getting, four, days, off, midweek, but, it's, not, really, been, that, busy, i've, only, been, on, second, call, and, have, only, had, to, do, 2, calls, so, far, an, easy, return, to, work, after, new, year, excesses, diary, 44, back, to, normal, quota, of, vets, at, work, again, this, week, which, is, good, as, it, seems, to, have, been, very, busy, most, of, it, has, been, the, usual, sort, of, things, for, the, time, of, year, cows, starting, to, get, lame, after, having, been, inside, for, a, few, months, and, metabolic, problems, probably, related, to, the, poor, silage, last, year's, summer, rain, created, quite, a, few, farmers, have, a, large, amount, of, 2001, silage, left, as, it, wasn't, used, over, winter, 2001, 2002, as, they, hadn't, restocked, on, the, whole, it's, kept, very, well, and, in, many, cases, is, better, than, the, crop, they, made, last, summer, the, fall, out, from, the, deer, herd, tb, has, arrived, two, neighbouring, farms, to, test, this, week, the, first, one, has, come, back, negative, to, the, relief, of, all, concerned, i, did, the, second, one, on, friday, and, will, read, it, tomorrow, monday, the, farmers, there, are, all, very, concerned, about, it, which, is, understandable, but, hopefully, groundless, there, are, lots, of, questions, being, asked, along, the, lines, of, what, if, some, of, which, i, can, answer, and, some, not, it, does, remind, me, a, bit, of, february, 2001, when, fmd, broke, out, and, there, were, all, sorts, of, queries, about, the, disease, its, progression, etc, that, none, of, us, really, knew, about, it, didn't, take, long, for, us, to, know, the, answers, to, most, of, them, i've, had, this, weekend, off, a, hockey, fixture, list, has, started, again, after, the, christmas, break, a, return, to, winning, ways, hopefully, to, continue, diary, 45, the, week, had, a, bad, start, the, tb, test, i, did, last, friday, produced, two, reactors, and, two, inconclusive, borderline, reactors, this, means, that, the, farm, isn't, allowed, to, move, at, any, bovines, on, or, off, the, farm, except, directly, to, slaughter, under, licence, the, reactors, are, taken, away, for, post, mortem, examination, and, the, inconclusive, reactors, are, isolated, for, 60, days, until, the, rest, of, the, herd, is, re, tested, the, farmer, was, very, keen, to, get, the, inconclusive, animals, removed, as, well, quite, understandably, in, my, opinion, so, that, they, couldn't, pose, a, threat, to, the, rest, of, his, herd, apparently, defra, aren't, allowed, to, do, this, i, think, largely, due, to, financial, reasons, while, fully, appreciating, the, need, to, protect, taxpayers, money, considering, how, much, was, spent, in, 2001, i, think, this, a, potentially, flawed, argument, perhaps, the, rules, need, to, be, changed, but, then, again, i'm, not, an, epidemiologist, and, perhaps, they, don't, actually, pose, a, threat, the, farmer, seemed, very, depressed, by, it, all, i, think, a, lot, of, it, is, the, feeling, of, having, the, stigma, of, being, a, farm, under, defra, restrictions, again, he, was, also, very, aware, of, the, threat, he, was, to, his, neighbours, and, was, desperately, keen, to, minimise, it, it's, actually, quite, small, while, the, cows, are, still, indoors, but, i, think, people, are, still, very, much, thinking, of, how, serious, it, was, for, neighbours, if, someone, got, fmd, tb, is, a, very, different, type, of, organism, and, it’s, a, question, of, getting, people, to, understand, this, which, isn't, to, say, it's, not, a, very, serious, problem, on, the, same, day, another, farm, in, the, area, not, ours, was, confirmed, with, tb, so, it's, definitely, progressing, in, cumbria, depressing, all, we, can, do, is, follow, defra, instructions, on, testing, and, try, to, keep, on, top, of, it, one, of, my, colleagues, tore, a, knee, ligament, last, week, while, skiing, he, normally, does, mostly, large, animal, calls, seeing, as, he's, now, confined, to, the, practice, doing, small, animals, i've, taken, over, couple, of, the, farms, he, does, routine, fertility, visits, for, it, makes, a, change, to, spend, time, on, farms, i, don't, visit, often, although, i, hear, the, small, animal, nurses, are, quite, keen, for, matt, to, get, back, to, doing, them, diary, 46, one, of, our, dairy, farmers, has, had, a, big, outbreak, of, pneumonia, in, his, calves, this, week, i've, been, to, the, farm, at, least, once, every, day, this, week, the, tests, we've, done, are, usually, pretty, sensitive, but, have, failed, to, reveal, any, of, the, usual, causes, treatment, seems, to, have, been, working, in, some, cases, but, not, in, others, he, hasn't, lost, any, i, e, none, dead, but, the, loss, in, body, weight, is, very, obvious, it's, all, been, a, bit, frustrating, really, he's, a, very, pleasant, guy, and, hasn't, said, anything, but, when, treatments, repeatedly, fail, to, get, expected, and, predicted, results, i, can't, help, feeling, that, he, must, be, getting, a, bit, sceptical, about, it, or, perhaps, i'm, just, being, paranoid, by, the, end, of, the, week, the, majority, seem, to, be, on, the, mend, but, seeing, as, we, haven't, tracked, down, the, causative, agent, it's, hard, to, know, what, vaccination, to, recommend, next, year, there, are, some, more, tests, that, will, come, back, in, two, weeks, which, may, be, more, revealing, in, midweek, i, did, one, of, the, fairly, common, operations, to, correct, a, twisted, stomach, in, a, cow, surprisingly, it, was, the, first, time, this, dairy, farmer, had, had, one, done, and, he, took, some, convincing, that, it, was, a, good, idea, having, persuaded, someone, to, pay, for, a, procedure, i, always, feel, under, a, bit, more, pressure, than, usual, fortunately, it, went, pretty, well, and, the, cow, is, so, far, doing, well, i, was, on, second, call, this, weekend, which, turned, out, to, be, pretty, quiet, i, think, we, must, be, in, a, lull, before, lambing, really, kicks, in, let's, enjoy, it, while, it, lasts, diary, 47, after, not, doing, any, testing, last, week, it, was, my, turn, again, this, week, it, wasn't, a, big, one, only, about, 30, cows, but, it, was, a, bit, more, risky, than, usual, as, it, was, a, herd, of, beef, longhorns, and, they, do, have, long, horns, whilst, trying, to, manoeuvre, them, into, a, crush, to, inject, their, necks, with, tuberculin, we, always, had, to, be, ready, to, take, evasive, action, if, they, made, a, sudden, turn, i, don't, think, they, ever, tried, to, use, their, horns, aggressively, but, they, were, so, big, that, they, become, dangerous, weapons, when, they, were, just, moving, normally, as, it, turned, out, no, one, received, any, injuries, and, very, importantly, the, test, was, negative, this, week, also, brought, my, first, lambing, of, the, year, other, people, have, done, a, few, but, this, was, my, first, we, have, a, couple, of, farms, who, lamb, early, for, the, early, lamb, sales, it, seems, very, hard, work, at, this, time, of, year, but, the, early, prices, do, seem, to, make, it, worthwhile, give, it, another, week, or, two, and, a, sure, they’ll, start, to, become, more, frequent, i, took, friday, off, as, i, had, to, get, to, london, for, 4, pm, to, get, on, the, eurostar, to, go, skiing, typically, the, one, day, of, the, year, that, the, country, ground, to, halt, was, thursday, night, friday, we, managed, to, make, it, to, waterloo, station, only, to, find, the, station, in, chaos, as, all, eurostars, had, been, cancelled, due, to, snow, in, france, at, least, it's, not, just, britain, that, can’t, cope, with, it, after, being, assured, that, none, would, run, for, 24, hours, they, suddenly, told, us, to, board, only, 1, hours, late, very, pleasant, surprise, we, ended, up, arriving, in, val, d'isere, on, time, with, loads, of, snow, and, blue, skies, i, tried, to, spare, a, thought, for, whoever, was, on, call, at, weekend, i, managed, it, just, diary, 48, after, the, weather, almost, prevented, us, from, reaching, val, d’isere, it, was, very, clear, for, the, first, few, days, but, then, the, snow, returned, for, three, days, we, couldn't, do, much, during, that, time, but, it, did, mean, that, there, were, fantastic, conditions, for, the, last, few, days, we, had, a, group, of, 29, and, completely, filled, one, large, chalet, there, were, for, once, no, major, skiing, injuries, within, the, group, and, i, think, a, good, time, was, had, by, all, diary, 49, back, to, work, this, week, i’m, never, reluctant, to, go, back, after, a, week, off, and, sometimes, dare, i, say, it, even, look, forward, to, it, must, be, a, good, sign, apparently, last, week, was, ok, at, work, with, no, major, dramas, we, still, haven't, found, any, more, tb, cases, but, the, screening, continues, all, the, time, one, of, the, rules, for, re, stocking, herds, compared, to, herds, that, missed, fmd, is, that, all, bovines, over, 42, days, old, have, to, be, tested, rather, than, just, the, adults, last, year, when, there, weren't, many, calves, around, this, didn't, make, much, difference, but, now, most, farms, have, at, least, a, year's, worth, of, calves, in, place, it, doubles, the, size, of, most, tests, often, calves, won't, fit, in, crushes, and, are, very, wild, so, it, can, get, quite, exciting, it, seems, a, necessary, policy, though, one, of, the, reactors, i, found, a, few, weeks, ago, was, a, six, month, old, stirk, i've, had, a, fairly, quiet, week, i've, had, a, couple, of, nights, on, duty, which, were, both, quiet, there's, a, horse, near, carlisle, that, i, think, i've, mentioned, before, with, a, recurrent, tooth, problem, we, thought, we'd, finally, sorted, that, but, this, week, she, developed, a, problem, with, one, of, the, tendons, on, her, foreleg, it's, a, bit, disappointing, for, her, owner, as, she, only, bought, the, horse, recently, in, order, to, compete, to, a, very, high, standard, and, she, seems, to, permanently, off, training, with, one, ailment, or, another, i, don't, think, it's, too, serious, so, hopefully, in, another, week, or, two, she'll, be, back, to, work, i've, been, off, this, weekend, came, second, in, the, weekend’s, hockey, match, a, real, case, of, defeat, been, snatched, from, the, jaws, of, victory, i, went, for, a, walk, around, the, great, gable, scafell, area, on, sunday, afternoon, it, was, amazing, how, much, snow, and, ice, was, still, left, over, from, winter, weather, a, week, or, so, ago, maybe, i, needn't, have, bothered, going, abroad, diary, 50, i, found, another, positive, tb, case, on, friday, i, did, the, test, on, tuesday, on, a, very, large, beef, herd, on, a, restocking, farm, including, calves, they, must, have, been, just, over, 400, cattle, to, do, there, was, one, reactor, on, friday, and, two, inconclusives, there, is, a, possibility, that, it, is, a, false, positive, the, farm, has, been, having, big, problems, with, something, called, at, johne’s, disease, which, is, caused, by, a, similar, type, of, bacterium, to, the, one, that, causes, tb, there, is, a, small, possibility, of, a, cow, carrying, johne’s, disease, cross, reacting, with, the, tb, test, injection, i, actually, blood, sampled, all, the, adult, cows, on, tuesday, to, screen, the, herd, for, johne’s, in, order, to, try, to, start, eradicating, it, from, herd, it'll, be, interesting, to, see, whether, the, positive, test, cow, will, be, positive, for, johne’s, ultimately, it, doesn't, really, make, much, difference, in, the, short, term, the, farm’s, been, placed, under, restrictions, and, the, affected, cow, has, been, taken, off, for, post, mortem, one, of, my, colleagues, found, another, positive, reactor, on, a, different, farm, on, friday, as, well, that's, three, farms, in, the, practice, now, and, around, 50, 60, within, cumbria, the, big, worry, now, this, is, that, the, longer, it, stays, around, the, more, likely, inevitable, it, is, disease, will, get, into, wildlife, reservoirs, deer, and, perhaps, badgers, depending, on, whether, you, believe, that, badgers, are, an, influence, or, not, time, will, tell, but, i'm, sure, it's, going, to, keep, us, busy, for, several, years, if, not, a, lot, more, i, did, a, test, on, monday, as, well, on, a, small, farm, that, i've, never, been, to, before, at, least, testing, is, one, way, of, getting, on, to, small, farms, who, don't, often, need, us, this, one, was, all, clear, the, remainder, of, the, week, was, spent, doing, more, usual, work, lambing’s, still, not, quite, got, into, full, swing, although, we, are, seeing, a, slow, increase, in, the, number, of, sheep, been, brought, to, the, surgery, diary, 51, no, tb, testing, for, me, this, week, and, no, more, positive, cases, in, the, practice, the, first, case, that, i, found, back, in, january, was, confirmed, as, carrying, tb, this, week, though, although, it's, bad, news, for, the, farmer, it, is, quite, reassuring, to, know, that, the, tests, and, methods, we, use, do, detect, carrier, animals, reasonably, accurately, this, week, has, been, fairly, busy, without, ever, getting, too, hectic, i, operated, on, a, cow, on, tuesday, which, for, a, number, of, reasons, didn't, go, quite, as, smoothly, as, it, might, have, done, it, subsequently, didn't, do, as, well, post, operatively, as, we, would, normally, expect, the, coming, week, should, see, an, improvement, i, hope, we, can, never, give, cast, iron, guarantees, about, the, outcome, of, surgery, but, it, is, quite, rare, for, this, op, to, fail, so, fingers, crossed, for, monday, i, had, to, see, a, horse, with, colic, earlier, in, the, week, which, on, my, first, visit, to, i, was, very, suspicious, that, it, was, going, to, require, surgery, to, correct, the, owner, wasn't, prepared, for, that, happen, though, so, it, was, a, question, of, trying, to, manage, it, medically, or, euthanizing, it, it, wasn't, in, undue, pain, so, we, gave, it, a, go, medically, and, much, to, my, pleasant, surprise, over, the, next, few, hours, and, visits, he, did, very, well, just, goes, to, show, we, are, not, all, knowing, it, would, have, been, interesting, to, know, whether, it, was, a, surgical, condition, which, somehow, righted, itself, or, whether, it, was, a, medical, case, all, along, which, simply, appeared, as, something, more, serious, i, had, to, work, for, an, hour, or, so, on, saturday, morning, doing, small, animal, consultations, and, then, had, the, rest, of, the, weekend, off, we, came, second, in, a, hockey, match, again, and, then, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, to, catch, up, with, some, college, friends, who, haven't, seen, for, a, while, diary, 52, this, week, has, really, seen, the, start, of, the, lambing, season, the, sheep, every, day, or, every, other, day, that, we've, been, seeing, for, the, last, month, or, so, has, turned, into, one, every, few, hours, during, the, day, and, during, the, night, in, some, cases, it’s, encouraging, that, farmers, are, still, bringing, them, in, calling, us, out, as, many, feel, that, sheep, aren't, worth, paying, vet, fees, for, this, obviously, creates, a, welfare, problem, in, many, situations, as, inappropriate, and, inadequate, treatment, is, sometimes, provided, by, the, farmer, having, said, that, i, can, see, why, some, take, the, attitude, of, not, spending, money, on, them, as, prices, are, often, so, low, the, other, aspect, of, lambing, time, is, that, nights, get, very, busy, on, monday, i, had, a, ewe, caesarean, at, 2am, then, a, horse, that, had, just, foaled, at, 3.15, i, had, an, hour, or, so, in, bed, and, then, a, sick, cow, at, 6.20, although, it, can, be, a, bit, tiring, on, the, whole, cases, we, see, out, of, hours, are, not, the, run, of, the, mill, routine, things, so, it, does, at, least, make, it, interesting, which, isn't, always, the, first, thing, on, my, mind, when, the, phone, rings, at, 3am, unfortunately, the, cow, i, operated, on, last, week, failed, to, improve, and, i, had, to, re, operate, on, monday, this, is, far, from, ideal, as, it, carries, a, much, higher, risk, of, infection, than, first, time, operation, somewhat, to, my, surprise, it, seems, to, be, doing, very, well, now, cows, seem, to, be, amazingly, resilient, if, i'd, had, abdominal, surgery, twice, in, a, mucky, cow, byre, i'm, sure, i, wouldn't, cope, as, well, i, did, the, same, op, on, a, different, farm, later, in, the, week, which, went, much, better, i’d, be, getting, worried, about, my, technique, if, two, in, a, row, went, wrong, i've, worked, saturday, morning, again, supposedly, just, for, an, hour, but, it, turned, into, about, two, and, a, half, as, things, kept, coming, in, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, again, after, hockey, came, second, again, to, see, someone, who's, left, his, job, to, go, around, the, world, for, six, months, diary, 54, the, beginning, of, the, week, saw, a, visit, to, a, horse, which, had, a, chronic, episode, of, laminitis, a, hoof, condition, in, this, horse's, case, it, had, become, very, severe, and, really, beyond, the, point, where, treatment, is, feasible, euthanasia, was, the, best, option, for, the, horse, as, it, was, in, a, lot, of, pain, unfortunately, the, owner, was, very, reluctant, for, this, and, wanted, to, carry, on, with, treatment, this, sort, of, situation, does, crop, up, from, time, to, time, and, is, difficult, for, all, concerned, in, the, end, i, told, the, owners, what, i, thought, the, chances, of, recovery, were, and, let, them, make, their, decision, which, was, to, continue, treatment, hopefully, i'll, be, proved, wrong, and, the, horse, will, recover, but, i, can't, really, see, it, happening, i, saw, another, case, later, in, the, week, which, ended, up, going, to, liverpool, university, for, surgery, it, was, a, small, pony, that, had, managed, to, cut, itself, very, severely, on, barbed, wire, horses, always, find, something, to, injure, themselves, on, there, was, a, risk, that, it, had, penetrated, a, joint, so, i, sent, it, to, liverpool, to, be, flushed, as, far, as, i, know, it's, doing, very, well, so, far, the, rest, of, the, workload, this, week, has, been, the, usual, stuff, for, the, time, of, year, loads, of, lambing, a, few, tb, tests, negative, generally, kept, busy, on, friday, i, went, to, edinburgh, for, a, few, days, course, on, equine, neurology, i, knew, most, of, the, speakers, and, some, delegates, from, when, i, was, a, student, there, it, was, good, to, see, people, again, and, i, learnt, a, few, things, about, horses, brains, and, nerves, saturday, was, our, last, hockey, match, of, the, season, a, draw, we, didn't, win, the, league, by, any, stretch, of, the, imagination, but, we, weren't, last, either, diary, 55, another, manic, spring, week, goes, by, i've, been, on, duty, this, weekend, and, the, two, of, us, on, call, have, done, as, many, calls, in, the, last, two, days, has, eight, vets, would, expect, to, do, in, two, week, days, in, the, summer, we, haven't, been, bored, i, didn't, leave, the, practice, building, until, lunchtime, on, saturday, as, there, was, a, constant, flow, of, small, animals, to, see, to, and, a, few, sheep, brought, in, with, lambing, problems, i, eventually, left, at, 1.30, p, m, to, go, to, operate, on, a, cow, with, a, twisted, stomach, that, was, meant, to, be, done, at, 11, am, the, op, went, a, ok, but, it, was, then, straight, back, to, the, surgery, to, do, a, caesarean, on, a, whelping, bitch, with, the, help, of, a, student, who, is, seeing, practice, with, us, between, then, and, 9, pm, it, was, a, variety, of, sick, cows, sheep, to, lamb, and, a, calf, with, lead, poisoning, at, the, far, end, of, ullswater, would, have, been, a, very, nice, drive, out, if, it, hadn't, been, for, the, rush, to, top, things, off, i, had, a, cow, caesarean, at, 9, pm, it, was, very, useful, having, a, student, to, help, all, day, i, think, it, was, a, bit, of, an, eye, opener, for, her, sunday, morning, gave, me, to, more, caesareans, sheep, this, time, variety, is, the, spice, of, life, a, cat, who, had, very, mysteriously, lost, a, leg, overnight, perhaps, caught, in, a, trap, but, was, in, incredibly, good, health, otherwise, it's, amazing, what, animals, can, withstand, and, a, good, supply, of, other, calls, to, keep, me, out, of, mischief, it, has, actually, been, quite, enjoyable, despite, being, so, hectic, and, i, think, most, of, the, cases, have, been, quite, successful, which, always, helps, the, rest, of, the, week, seems, a, distant, memory, but, on, the, whole, it, was, more, of, the, same, but, at, a, slower, pace, i, did, another, small, tb, test, which, was, negative, anyway, a, night, off, tonight, i, need, a, pint, diary, 56, monday, morning, was, the, 60, day, re, test, for, the, first, herd, that, i, found, tb, in, it, was, a, sunny, day, and, on, the, whole, the, test, went, very, smoothly, the, farmer's, buildings, are, getting, very, overcrowded, though, as, he, is, under, a, movement, restriction, due, to, the, tb, first, day, started, well, as, all, the, animals, were, giving, negative, readings, but, then, came, the, dreaded, reaction, to, the, injections, we, gave, on, the, first, day, there, were, four, reactors, in, total, three, of, which, were, borderline, and, the, other, was, very, very, obvious, the, frustrating, thing, is, that, the, obvious, one, was, a, borderline, reactor, last, time, but, defra, refused, to, take, it, as, it, isn't, in, their, policy, to, take, inconclusive, reactors, found, on, a, routine, test, this, means, that, an, animal, that, is, actually, infected, his, left, on, premises, to, potentially, infect, other, animals, the, farmer, had, tried, to, point, this, out, two, months, ago, to, no, avail, he, is, now, vindicated, in, his, view, not, that, that, is, much, consolation, for, the, fact, that, his, restrictions, are, to, be, continued, and, he, may, well, probably, will, in, fact, now, have, more, carriers, which, won't, be, found, until, the, next, test, in, 60, days, time, the, reason, for, not, initially, taking, inconclusive, reactors, is, to, save, money, by, not, paying, for, the, animals, to, be, slaughtered, that, aren't, actually, infected, in, cases, like, this, it, seems, to, be, a, real, false, economy, and, doesn't, win, defra, friends, in, the, farming, community, tuesday, and, wednesday, this, week, were, mainly, horse, jobs, a, horse, with, a, recurrent, tooth, problem, that, i've, mentioned, before, came, in, for, more, x, rays, and, finally, seems, to, be, doing, ok, its, competing, in, germany, in, a, week, or, two, so, i, do, hope, it, stays, ok, this, weekend, i, went, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, with, one, of, my, old, flatmates, from, edinburgh, the, weather, held, and, was, amazingly, hot, for, the, time, of, year, almost, got, sunburnt, diary, 57, i've, had, a, final, year, student, from, edinburgh, staying, with, me, this, week, while, she's, seeing, practice, with, us, final, exams, are, looming, and, i, think, the, stress, levels, are, rising, it's, very, easy, to, think, of, all, the, things, you, don't, know, but, i, think, we've, more, or, less, managed, to, convince, her, that, she, does, know, enough, not, to, be, a, liability, when, she, qualifies, she, saw, an, interesting, incident, on, a, call, we, did, early, in, the, week, i'd, gone, to, replace, a, uterine, prolapse, in, a, cow, which, went, okay, but, the, farmer, then, asked, me, to, falsely, certify, a, cow, we, can, give, certificates, to, cows, over, 30, months, of, age, under, the, bse, scheme, for, which, farmers, are, compensated, this, cow, had, to, be, put, down, but, wasn't, 30, months, for, another, four, days, he, was, understandably, quite, upset, about, this, and, let, me, know, it’s, this, sort, of, thing, that, is, a, nightmare, for, anyone, but, especially, someone, just, starting, you, want, to, please, the, farmer, and, make, a, good, impression, but, you, also, have, responsibility, to, not, abuse, your, ability, to, use, your, signature, in, the, end, i, explained, why, he, couldn't, have, a, certificate, and, he, did, calm, down, i'm, sure, vicky, will, have, similar, situations, before, too, long, diplomatic, as, well, as, clinical, skills, develop, very, quickly, once, in, practice, another, interesting, case, came, in, on, thursday, a, year, old, foal, needed, emergency, surgery, on, a, hernia, as, luck, would, have, it, it, was, our, first, relatively, quiet, morning, for, a, few, weeks, so, we, had, enough, vets, on, hand, to, do, the, surgery, and, anaesthetic, the, op, went, well, and, the, horse, has, gone, home, this, weekend, i've, been, on, second, call, this, weekend, and, things, have, been, busy, but, not, unmanageable, i, did, 2, belgian, blue, caesareans, in, the, space, of, six, hours, on, one, farm, yesterday, but, since, then, it's, just, been, a, reasonable, stream, of, calls, rather, than, the, madness, of, two, weekends, ago, diary, 58, following, my, going, up, on, a, course, on, neurology, a, few, weeks, ago, a, case, came, up, this, week, it's, not, often, that, we, see, neurological, cases, so, it's, quite, a, coincidence, i, think, it, must, have, some, kind, of, tumour, in, its, brain, causing, it, to, show, the, various, signs, it, has, unfortunately, the, only, way, to, firmly, diagnose, this, is, by, post, mortem, which, is, how, most, neurological, cases, end, up, and, alas, i, fear, this, one, will, too, i, went, to, do, a, fertility, check, at, one, of, our, dairy, farms, on, tuesday, the, vet, he, normally, has, was, away, and, he, looked, a, bit, put, out, when, i, turned, up, i, think, hope, i, managed, not, to, abort, any, of, his, cows, and, he, seemed, very, cheery, by, the, time, i, left, i, suppose, it's, understandable, that, farmers, tend, to, want, continuity, with, which, vet, comes, work, continues, to, be, very, busy, an, indication, in, the, increase, in, daily, workload, is, that, we've, had, to, introduce, a, specific, messages, book, at, work, as, there's, no, longer, room, to, write, people, messages, in, the, day, book, as, it, so, full, with, appointments, they, used, to, be, a, few, days, in, the, year, when, both, pages, of, the, day, book, were, full, the, first, day, of, fmd, in, penrith, had, one, call, but, this, week, 4, days, have, been, full, it's, got, to, be, a, good, sign, really, and, as, i, think, i've, said, before, it, does, stop, us, all, from, getting, bored, i've, had, three, days, off, over, easter, friday, sunday, and, two, friends, and, their, two, mad, dogs, have, been, to, stay, my, cats, were, not, impressed, on, good, friday, we, went, up, plaice, fell, i, accidentally, brought, us, down, a, much, more, direct, route, than, i, intended, so, we, had, to, while, away, some, time, in, the, garden, of, the, patterdale, hotel, life's, hard, yesterday, we, left, the, bank, holiday, crowds, in, the, lakes, and, went, for, a, walk, in, the, eden, valley, didn't, see, a, soul, it's, amazing, the, difference, a, few, miles, can, make, i, suppose, it, hasn't, got, the, hills, and, isn't, as, famous, but, the, scenery, is, still, pretty, impressive, but, let's, not, tell, anyone, and, then, it, might, stay, quiet, on, bank, holidays, diary, 59, i, was, on, duty, on, easter, monday, but, it, wasn't, too, hectic, in, fact, it, was, almost, unbelievably, quiet, there, were, three, of, us, on, duty, bracing, ourselves, for, the, usual, spring, onslaught, and, we, only, had, about, two, calls, each, to, do, all, morning, weird, how, it, sometimes, turns, out, like, that, lambing, is, definitely, quietening, down, now, the, 5, 10, lambings, coming, in, each, day, is, turning, into, 2, 3, it's, mostly, fell, sheep, lambing, now, which, tend, to, be, easier, to, lamb, so, few, are, in, need, our, farmer’s, assistance, it's, starting, to, get, into, the, horse, castration, season, we've, had, the, odd, one, or, two, over, the, last, few, weeks, but, have, had, about, five, this, week, one, of, my, colleagues, who, is, next, up, from, me, in, terms, of, experience, and, i, have, started, doing, them, together, whereas, a, few, years, ago, after, it, would, always, have, been, at, least, one, of, the, partners, and, one, of, us, we, must, be, improving, tb, testing, seems, to, have, calmed, down, a, bit, too, as, a, practice, we’re, pretty, much, up, to, date, with, it, and, as, farmers, start, to, turn, their, cows, out, they'll, become, more, reluctant, to, do, it, with, the, way, it’s, spreading, in, the, county, though, we, have, to, try, to, keep, up, to, date, with, it, or, it, really, is, going, to, get, out, of, hand, i've, had, this, weekend, off, it, was, my, sister's, birthday, yesterday, so, i, went, to, meet, her, and, my, folks, for, lunch, we, sat, outside, and, enjoyed, the, april, sun, very, nice, it, was, too, farmers, are, all, wanting, rain, you, don't, hear, that, often, in, april, but, the, sun, suits, me, fine, what, are, the, odds, on, it, bucketing, down, in, june, during, silage, time, diary, 60, one, of, our, big, dairy, farms, had, had, a, big, outbreak, of, ibr, this, week, one, of, the, main, respiratory, viruses, on, the, whole, it, doesn’t, cause, death, and, is, normally, containable, on, this, occasion, however, it, seems, to, have, been, a, virulent, strain, and, has, caused, a, number, of, deaths, and, a, great, deal, of, lost, production, in, terms, of, lost, milk, and, calves, not, thriving, towards, the, end, of, the, week, i, went, and, shot, three, cows, which, were, terminally, affected, seeing, three, dead, and, bleeding, cows, in, the, yard, obviously, reminded, the, farmer, and, me, of, when, he, had, the, whole, herd, shot, in, the, same, place, for, fmd, and, he, had, then, moved, out, of, sight, very, quickly, i, think, the, worst, of, the, outbreak, is, over, now, and, all, the, cows, have, been, vaccinated, there's, only, one, vet, more, junior, qualified, for, less, time, than, me, in, the, practice, who, started, a, year, or, so, ago, this, week, we, went, to, do, a, colt, castrate, together, one, surgeon, one, as, anaesthetist, for, the, first, time, we've, both, done, a, lot, with, other, vets, but, this, was, the, first, time, we've, been, let, loose, as, a, pair, everything, went, very, smoothly, so, it, looks, as, though, our, boss's, confidence, trust, wasn't, totally, misplaced, on, friday, morning, i, had, a, big, dehorning, session, for, one, of, our, beef, farmers, it's, fairly, non, cerebral, type, work, but, is, ok, for, a, change, every, now, and, then, and, the, farmer, is, a, pretty, amenable, sort, of, guy, more, than, could, be, said, for, the, weather, so, it, was, a, fairly, laid, back, morning's, work, i, had, the, afternoon, off, and, drove, up, to, edinburgh, where, there, was, a, bit, of, a, reunion, for, recent, graduates, from, the, vet, college, there, were, a, lot, of, people, haven't, seen, for, a, long, time, and, it, was, interesting, to, compare, notes, on, what, we, were, all, up, to, diary, 61, after, last, weekend, in, edinburgh, i, had, to, come, back, to, work, on, bank, holiday, monday, it, was, fairly, manageable, on, the, whole, there, were, three, of, us, on, duty, in, the, morning, when, the, work, was, steady, without, ever, getting, too, hectic, i, was, on, first, call, after, 1pm, when, the, surgery, closed, and, it, remained, fairly, quiet, until, the, evening, when, there, was, a, sudden, run, of, calls, but, they, came, in, one, after, the, other, rather, than, building, up, too, much, on, tuesday, i, did, the, 60, day, re, test, of, the, second, herd, of, cattle, that, i, had, previously, found, a, reactor, in, it’s, a, big, herd, and, it, took, all, day, to, get, it, done, they’ve, been, a, bit, unfortunate, and, brought, in, several, other, diseases, apart, from, the, suspected, tb, when, they, re, stocked, one, of, these, an, enteric, condition, called, johnes, disease, is, a, chronic, wasting, problem, and, is, notoriously, difficult, to, eradicate, it’ll, take, years, of, blood, testing, and, careful, record, keeping, to, get, rid, of, it, it’s, frustrating, for, them, as, all, the, planning, for, the, post, fmd, period, has, been, disrupted, the, tb, test, showed, up, no, reactors, this, time, but, 3, cows, were, inconclusive, results, and, will, have, to, be, re, tested, this, is, almost, certainly, as, a, result, of, the, cows, carrying, antibodies, to, avian, tb, which, causes, no, signs, of, disease, in, cows, but, disrupts, the, bovine, tb, test, it’s, a, good, example, of, why, we, badly, need, a, more, specific, method, for, testing, for, tb, it’s, being, worked, on, at, the, moment, and, hopefully, we’ll, get, one, one, day, the, senior, partner, at, work, is, supervising, another, vet, who, is, doing, the, same, equine, qualification, that, i’m, enrolled, for, on, wednesday, he, came, to, spend, a, day, with, neil, to, do, some, equine, anaesthetics, they, were, mainly, castrates, so, i, operated, while, neil, went, through, the, anaesthetics, with, his, student, it, was, very, useful, to, hear, it, all, in, detail, again, it’s, all, too, easy, to, get, into, the, habit, of, knowing, which, drugs, work, at, what, dosages, and, not, actually, really, thinking, about, why, they, work, or, why, they’re, better, than, other, drugs, we, could, use, a, useful, day, but, it, has, made, me, realise, i’ve, got, a, lot, to, do, over, the, next, few, years, diary, 62, things, are, still, remaining, very, busy, at, work, lambing, has, pretty, much, finished, now, but, the, work, doesn't, seem, to, be, easing, the, partners, have, decided, we, need, another, vet, to, help, things, along, a, final, year, student, from, edinburgh, came, for, an, interview, this, week, and, it, looks, as, though, he'll, get, the, job, it, will, mean, that, the, rota, will, improve, and, hopefully, will, not, be, quite, as, hectic, when, he, starts, following, the, fantastically, dry, spring, it's, now, too, wet, for, the, farmers, and, they, are, tearing, their, hair, out, about, how, the, first, cut, of, silage, is, going, to, be, gathered, in, dry, hopefully, we'll, get, a, dry, spell, again, soon, to, ease, their, worries, i, found, a, potential, case, to, write, up, for, my, equine, casebook, this, week, it's, a, mare, that, managed, to, get, caught, up, in, wire, and, tear, a, big, hole, in, the, shin, of, her, lower, leg, it's, too, big, a, defect, to, stitch, so, it'll, have, to, heal, with, a, lot, of, bandaging, and, perhaps, some, skin, grafts, it, always, amazes, me, how, horses, managed, to, give, themselves, the, most, horrendous, injuries, been, fields, where, there, really, doesn't, seem, to, be, any, opportunity, for, it, clumsiness, perhaps, maybe, they, just, enjoy, pain, i, doubt, it, we're, doing, quite, a, bit, of, scanning, of, mares, for, pregnancy, at, the, moment, it's, another, thing, that, i've, been, doing, more, of, this, year, than, in, the, past, it's, a, bit, daunting, at, times, but, as, with, a, lot, of, things, it's, really, a, case, of, practising, it, as, much, as, possible, by, the, end, of, the, stud, season, it’ll, hopefully, be, fairly, straightforward, i, drove, down, to, oxford, on, friday, evening, after, work, to, see, my, sister, cousins, friends, who, live, down, there, it, seemed, a, longish, drive, but, it, was, well, worth, it, to, catch, up, with, them, all, one, of, the, things, about, working, weekends, is, that, it, makes, weekends, off, that, much, more, appreciated, diary, 63, after, a, very, pleasant, weekend, off, i, had, a, truly, delightful, first, job, on, monday, morning, a, cow, had, been, losing, weight, for, the, last, month, also, the, reason, i, found, was, that, it, had, a, very, dead, calf, inside, which, i, then, spent, the, first, hour, of, the, week, pulling, out, bone, by, bone, it, was, a, fairly, revolting, job, but, wasn't, actually, something, that, i, especially, resented, doing, must, mean, i'm, happy, in, my, work, or, perhaps, just, a, bit, weird, i, had, another, fairly, grim, job, later, in, the, week, when, i, was, called, out, at, 4, a, m, to, a, foaling, the, foal, was, stuck, half, out, and, was, dead, by, the, time, i, got, there, i, eventually, managed, to, get, the, foal, out, and, initially, the, mare, seemed, ok, but, deteriorated, over, the, next, 48, hours, and, eventually, had, to, be, euthanased, that’s, just, the, way, it, goes, sometimes, a, more, successful, case, came, later, in, the, week, when, i, saw, a, foal, that, was, acutely, lame, it, looked, at, first, as, though, it, might, have, an, infected, elbow, but, after, taking, samples, of, the, joint, fluid, and, some, x, rays, it, looked, as, though, it, was, actually, a, traumatic, injury, it, stayed, it, in, the, hospital, for, four, days, during, which, time, it, seemed, to, improve, quite, a, bit, it's, a, thoroughbred, from, a, good, racing, line, hopefully, with, a, rest, it’ll, make, a, full, recovery, and, win, the, grand, national, in, 2008, i, had, the, whole, of, the, bank, holiday, weekend, off, six, college, friends, came, to, stay, for, a, weekend, of, cumbrian, fresh, air, after, a, pretty, gloomy, forecast, the, weather, turned, out, very, well, and, we, all, went, for, a, lake, district, walk, each, day, and, had, a, pretty, relaxed, time, except, for, my, cats, four, dogs, also, came, to, stay, which, didn't, impress, the, cats, who, spent, the, whole, time, hiding, in, my, room, diary, 64, this, week, started, with, a, tb, test, for, a, small, re, stocking, herd, he, had, bought, some, cattle, from, a, farm, that, subsequently, tested, positive, for, tb, one, of, the, cattle, from, that, farm, had, then, tested, positive, on, his, farm, so, this, week's, test, was, a, 60, day, re, test, it, was, an, all, clear, this, time, which, was, obviously, a, relief, for, them, seeing, as, there, was, a, positive, on, the, farm, last, time, they, probably, have, to, have, another, test, in, 60, days, from, now, before, restrictions, are, lifted, this, farm, isn't, very, big, so, being, under, tb, restrictions, is, awkward, but, not, as, crippling, as, it, is, the, larger, farms, there, is, no, room, for, relaxing, the, rules, at, the, moment, though, the, recent, news, from, ireland, that, says, they, think, they've, proved, a, link, with, badgers, makes, it, even, more, important, to, get, it, out, of, cumbria, before, it, gets, into, wildlife, although, it, may, well, already, be, too, late, in, between, the, two, testing, days, this, week, i, seemed, to, do, a, lot, of, horse, cases, on, wednesday, i, spent, most, of, the, day, touring, around, cumbria, seeing, horses, in, wigton, cockermouth, and, bassenthwaite, it, was, a, sunny, day, and, was, a, very, pleasant, way, to, spend, the, day, great, scenery, to, look, at, outside, when, not, driving, and, cases, going, the, way, i, was, hoping, not, a, bad, way, to, work, i've, been, on, call, this, weekend, and, it's, been, very, quiet, so, far, yesterday, was, steady, with, a, reasonable, number, of, calls, but, none, stacking, up, i've, done, 2, cattle, caesareans, on, the, same, farm, this, weekend, one, yesterday, morning, which, seemed, like, a, huge, calf, until, the, one, i, did, this, morning, which, was, truly, a, freak, it, was, the, biggest, calf, i, or, the, farmer, had, seen, and, is, the, result, of, selecting, for, extreme, confirmation, in, beef, breeds, it, does, pose, serious, welfare, issues, for, the, cows, as, they, cannot, give, birth, naturally, and, have, to, have, fairly, major, abdominal, surgery, instead, we’ll, never, persuade, farmers, of, this, though, as, the, consumer, wants, cheaper, food, and, cheaper, beef, is, made, through, bigger, beef, calves, it, does, seem, tough, on, the, cows, though, or, am, i, being, too, cynical, diary, 65, i, thought, it, was, interesting, to, see, how, much, people, still, are, willing, to, talk, about, some, of, 2001, at, the, meeting, on, wednesday, night, while, a, lot, of, the, conversation, was, routed, around, the, subjects, you, had, come, up, with, over, the, last, 18, months, it, often, came, back, to, talk, of, events, and, individual, experiences, during, the, outbreak, itself, these, stories, must, have, been, told, on, dozens, of, occasions, but, people, still, want, to, tell, them, if, the, right, time, opportunity, comes, up, myself, included, there, were, so, many, themes, that, you, have, all, come, up, with, on, the, electronic, tags, sheet, that, it, seems, impossible, to, comment, on, them, all, some, of, them, seem, very, relevant, to, me, others, not, so, much, trust, is, a, category, that, comes, up, under, a, couple, of, headings, one, of, the, headings, it, is, under, is, knowledge, i, think, this, has, been, one, of, the, most, significant, changes, since, fmd, as, far, as, the, farmer, vet, relationship, is, concerned, defra, has, gone, from, being, eyed, with, some, suspicion, to, overt, distrust, and, resentment, on, a, whole, we, don't, get, too, much, flack, as, veterinary, gps, but, when, we, have, to, do, defra, allocated, jobs, such, as, tb, testing, there, is, sometimes, a, general, feeling, of, it, being, another, task, to, try, to, wear, them, down, being, sent, by, the, authorities, another, regulation, that, has, caused, huge, resentment, is, the, whole, animal, movement, licensing, system, it, is, much, easier, now, and, causes, fewer, problems, but, a, year, or, so, ago, it, was, the, source, of, much, stress, we, had, to, try, to, act, as, intermediary, between, farmers, and, defra, and, keep, both, sides, happy, the, damage, done, to, the, farmer, defra, trust, will, take, a, long, time, if, ever, to, start, to, repair, hopefully, by, trying, to, be, more, on, their, side, than, defra, seem, to, be, the, trust, they, have, in, us, has, been, preserved, it's, been, a, quietish, week, at, work, maybe, because, there's, been, a, bit, of, silaging, going, on, so, the, farmers, haven't, got, time, for, routine, work, it's, about, time, we, were, a, bit, quieter, the, summer, lull, hasn't, materialised, at, all, yet, this, year, in, fact, we’re, taking, on, another, vet, to, ease, the, workload, did, i, mention, this, last, week, in, the, meantime, it's, nice, to, have, time, to, draw, breath, and, enjoy, the, sun, for, a, day, or, two, diary, 66, this, week, seems, to, have, gone, by, a, pretty, quickly, maybe, it's, because, i'm, on, holiday, next, week, and, the, thought, of, it, is, spurring, me, on, i, fly, to, split, tomorrow, for, a, week, of, sailing, on, the, croatian, coast, with, a, college, friend, and, some, relatives, it'll, be, a, change, from, cumbria, one, of, our, big, dairy, farmers, was, away, in, thailand, this, week, the, farm, was, left, to, be, run, by, his, usual, workers, and, his, brother, and, mother, despite, this, he, felt, he, had, to, take, his, mobile, phone, with, him, and, he, was, rung, twice, during, the, week, to, be, asked, what, should, be, done, with, a, couple, of, sick, cows, i, suppose, this, either, demonstrates, extreme, dedication, or, an, inability, to, forget, about, work, or, both, but, then, again, it, also, shows, how, committed, a, lot, of, farmers, are, and, that, it's, not, just, a, job, to, them, as, farms, get, bigger, the, concept, of, all, the, cows, being, individually, known, to, the, farmer, or, being, his, friends, becomes, increasingly, unrealistic, but, in, the, majority, of, cases, they’re, not, just, milk, making, machines, and, are, cared, for, pretty, well, it's, not, hard, to, see, why, it, was, so, hard, for, people, to, lose, their, herds, after, being, a, bit, quieter, at, work, last, week, it, suddenly, seems, to, have, become, very, hectic, at, work, again, this, week, there, haven't, been, any, particularly, time, consuming, jobs, just, lots, of, sick, cows, horse, calls, and, the, usual, mix, of, animal, ailments, it's, better, to, be, busy, than, quiet, though, i, think, i, need, a, holiday, and, i'll, keep, my, phone, switched, off, diary, 67, a, week, off, work, to, go, sailing, in, croatia, easy, life, after, meeting, up, with, the, boat, and, the, rest, of, the, group, in, starigrad, we, sailed, to, vis, into, a, fairly, direct, head, wind, so, it, took, quite, a, bit, of, tacking, and, was, a, bit, of, a, rough, ride, i, also, very, stupidly, underdid, the, sunscreen, and, managed, to, burn, my, back, very, careless, but, it, got, less, uncomfortable, as, the, week, went, on, we, spent, two, nights, in, vis, harbour, as, the, others, who, had, already, been, sailing, for, a, week, wanted, a, rest, it, used, to, be, a, military, island, and, there, were, definite, signs, of, this, around, although, it, is, obviously, developing, a, now, rapidly, growing, tourist, trade, after, vis, it, was, off, to, hvar, where, we, anchored, in, a, small, inlet, a, few, miles, from, the, town, after, a, night, there, we, went, to, hvar, town, for, a, look, around, the, castle, on, the, hill, was, very, impressive, and, the, town, still, feels, as, though, it, is, relatively, unspoilt, at, the, moment, the, last, couple, of, days, were, spent, making, our, way, slowly, back, to, split, we, actually, spent, the, last, two, days, in, split, as, there, was, a, strong, northerly, wind, brewing, up, which, would, have, been, a, bit, rough, to, be, out, in, my, uncle, who, was, the, skipper, on, board, has, been, to, croatia, for, the, last, three, years, he, said, it, was, very, noticeably, more, busy, this, year, it, seems, a, shame, to, spoil, it, with, more, tourist, facilities, but, we, all, contributed, to, them, being, built, by, going, there, hopefully, it, won't, be, too, dramatically, changed, diary, 68, this, week, started, at, 9am, monday, with, a, tb, test, at, one, of, the, most, basic, run, down, farms, we, go, to, it, was, the, first, time, i'd, been, there, in, three, and, a, half, years, of, working, here, so, they, don't, make, huge, use, of, our, veterinary, services, one, of, their, bullocks, was, 7, years, old, when, i, casually, asked, about, what, plans, they, had, for, it, seeing, as, he, had, missed, the, 30, months, cut, off, time, for, human, consumption, i, was, told, it, was, just, kept, as, a, friend, for, the, bull, the, test, was, very, slow, as, the, cattle, handling, facilities, were, not, the, best, on, the, planet, they, were, very, pleasant, people, to, talk, to, and, it, soon, became, apparent, that, they, had, very, little, time, for, defra, nothing, unusual, there, the, son, was, one, of, the, people, who, had, had, his, firearms, confiscated, after, making, threats, at, the, start, of, fm, d, they, still, felt, resentful, about, the, way, the, police, became, involved, and, the, way, they, were, ultimately, given, no, choice, as, to, who, came, on, to, their, farm, to, check, their, stock, fortunately, all, the, cattle, were, negative, for, tb, so, there, was, no, need, to, further, add, to, their, distrust, of, defra, by, putting, them, under, more, restriction, the, rest, of, the, week, has, been, fairly, steady, there's, been, enough, going, on, to, keep, us, busy, without, ever, being, frantic, the, horse, i, saw, last, week, with, a, neurological, problem, has, become, a, bit, worse, so, has, gone, to, edinburgh, vet, school, to, see, one, of, the, neurologists, up, there, he, seemed, fairly, confused, by, it, as, well, which, i, have, to, say, i, found, quite, reassuring, the, weekend, was, a, bit, on, the, strenuous, side, a, cousin, who, is, a, keen, cyclist, persuaded, me, it, was, a, good, idea, to, do, a, big, cumbrian, yorkshire, bike, ride, we, went, from, penrith, to, alston, to, barnard, castle, to, tan, hill, refreshments, to, kirkby, stephen, to, penrith, on, saturday, and, then, recovered, on, sunday, it, seemed, like, a, good, idea, at, the, time, but, i, am, really, feeling, it, now, diary, 69, looking, back, at, some, of, the, quotes, in, the, recovery, section, of, the, notes, from, a, meeting, it's, noticeable, how, easy, it, is, to, forget, or, at, least, not, have, in, one's, mind, how, much, it, affected, a, lot, people, it's, almost, hard, to, remember, how, much, i, was, affected, by, it, i, know, that, there, were, some, very, unpleasant, tasks, such, as, supervising, slaughters, and, day, to, day, work, was, often, very, frustrating, when, we, felt, people, overseeing, our, work, from, offices, didn't, really, know, what, it, was, like, in, the, field, but, i, feel, now, that, on, the, whole, once, work, was, finished, life, pretty, much, went, on, maybe, this, isn't, actually, a, true, reflection, of, how, it, was, and, it's, just, that, some, of, the, detailed, memories, are, fading, often, things, don't, seem, as, bad, as, they, actually, were, when, you, look, back, on, them, i, know, plenty, of, clients, colleagues, and, friends, whose, lives, were, completely, overtaken, by, fmd, so, perhaps, mine, was, more, than, i, remember, but, i, also, feel, that, most, of, the, people, who, i, remember, as, being, heavily, affected, are, now, more, or, less, completely, over, it, one, of, the, farms, i, went, to, this, week, lost, a, son, in, a, road, accident, about, two, months, after, getting, fmd, i, think, the, farmer, was, ready, to, give, up, everything, after, that, apparently, he, left, the, cleaning, up, of, his, farm, and, took, no, interest, in, anything, time, obviously, helped, him, he's, been, back, milking, again, for, that, sic, last, year, and, a, half, there, are, still, changes, though, he, seems, very, much, quieter, and, more, laid, back, now, if, a, cow, isn't, in, calf, or, things, don't, go, quite, right, he, doesn't, seem, to, get, stressed, now, as, he, once, would, have, done, work, has, been, a, bit, quieter, this, week, which, we, would, expect, at, this, time, of, year, one, of, our, farms, has, put, some, pedigree, belgian, blue, embryos, into, some, limousin, cross, heifers, and, they're, starting, to, calve, now, they, all, need, caesar's, as, the, calves, are, almost, as, big, as, the, heifers, that, produce, them, the, only, thing, to, be, said, for, it, is, that, we, can, do, them, at, a, sensible, time, of, day, rather, than, at, two, in, the, morning, as, we, know, when, they’re, due, diary, 70, one, of, the, five, categories, you, raised, at, the, meetings, last, month, was, trauma, and, one, of, the, subsections, on, the, chart, was, sounds, smells, visions, sights, are, probably, the, most, frequent, reminder, of, fmd, now, there, are, certain, bits, of, road, that, have, memories, for, example, driving, north, on, the, m6, just, south, of, penrith, it, was, possible, to, count, smoke, plumes, from, about, 20, pyres, at, one, stage, on, fine, days, it, always, reminds, me, of, it, when, i, drive, that, stretch, one, farm, has, the, remains, of, a, pyre, that, was, started, to, be, built, but, never, finished, even, things, like, driving, across, two, lines, of, tar, across, a, road, which, once, held, down, a, disinfectant, mat, people, who, didn't, live, here, at, the, time, wouldn't, even, notice, them, but, it, seems, quite, significant, to, the, rest, of, us, it, doesn't, really, bother, me, but, just, is, a, reminder, of, what, went, on, at, other, times, it, seems, odd, how, quickly, things, have, gone, back, to, normal, even, something, as, simple, as, a, road, with, mud, or, animal, muck, on, it, in, 2001, that, would, have, stuck, out, like, a, sore, thumb, and, would, have, warranted, urgent, action, now, i'm, used, to, driving, a, dirty, car, i, do, clean, it, sometimes, and, having, some, roads, caked, in, dirt, it's, difficult, to, imagine, how, the, farmers, kept, them, clean, two, years, ago, but, they, did, obviously, there, are, other, reminders, people, never, tire, of, talking, about, it, but, it's, the, day, to, day, visions, and, places, that, are, most, regular, work, has, been, a, bit, quieter, this, week, i, did, it, a, caesar, on, a, cow, which, had, a, truly, ridiculously, enormous, calf, we, need, to, move, away, from, breeding, continental, beef, breeds, and, go, back, to, nice, compact, jersey's, or, aberdeen, anguses, i, also, saw, an, unusual, neurological, case, in, a, horse, it's, very, uncoordinated, and, has, poor, balance, it's, the, kind, of, case, where, brain, spinal, scan, would, be, useful, but, those, facilities, aren't, really, available, for, horses, it, will, be, interesting, to, see, how, it, goes, over, the, next, few, days, diary, 71, the, last, diary, the, 18, months, seem, to, have, gone, by, quickly, things, seem, so, much, back, to, how, they, were, that, it's, odd, to, think, back, to, what, was, going, on, when, we, first, started, writing, them, i, think, we, were, pretty, much, in, the, swing, of, doing, restocking, checks, and, doing, endless, blood, sampling, of, sheep, the, last, restocking, checks, i, did, were, only, 16, months, ago, it, seems, far, longer, although, i, say, things, are, back, to, how, they, were, i'm, sure, there, are, actually, a, lot, of, differences, it's, just, that, i, don't, notice, them, because, i'm, used, to, how, things, are, now, the, practice, has, become, a, lot, busier, by, october, we’ll, be, up, to, nine, full, time, and, two, part, time, vets, pre, fmd, we, were, seven, full, time, and, two, part, time, some, of, the, increase, is, equine, and, small, animal, but, most, of, it, is, in, farm, practice, part, of, this, is, directly, linked, to, fmd, eg, more, tb, testing, due, to, re, stocking, tests, and, re, stocking, having, brought, tb, into, the, county, other, factors, aren't, so, obvious, but, are, unquestionably, fmd, related, most, restocked, farmers, went, back, with, more, stock, than, they, originally, had, so, overall, there, is, greater, density, of, stock, around, more, animals, means, more, sick, animals, which, means, more, calls, for, the, vet, it's, a, shame, in, some, ways, to, see, the, small, traditional, farms, being, forced, out, but, it's, hard, to, see, how, they, can, manage, as, margins, get, smaller, and, larger, neighbours, get, more, stock, and, more, land, fmd, was, a, way, out, for, several, of, the, smaller, farms, all, have, been, bought, up, by, neighbours, with, none, being, sold, as, single, units, as, i've, said, in, recent, weeks, this, time, of, year, is, usually, quiet, it, has, become, a, bit, less, frantic, recently, but, the, traditional, summer, lull, hasn't, materialised, i've, been, a, vet, for, four, years, the, last, three, have, been, just, about, as, interesting, and, challenging, as, they, could, have, been, both, professionally, and, socially, from, the, point, of, view, of, living, in, penrith, obviously, fmd, had, devastating, effects, on, thousands, of, people, many, of, whom, are, my, friends, on, the, whole, i, see, very, few, residual, scars, it, is, still, talked, about, but, less, and, less, as, time, goes, on, more, than, one, farmer, has, actually, said, that, they, think, in, hindsight, it, was, a, very, good, thing, for, them, i'm, not, sure, i, could, ever, say, that, as, it, brought, too, much, stress, and, sadness, for, too, many, people, but, if, it, had, happened, i, think, very, much, with, the, benefit, of, hindsight, i’m, glad, that, i, had, the, chance, to, be, involved, with, it, from, the, start, and, through, the, recovery]
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1966, gender, f, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, diary, 1, monday, was, the, usual, long, hard, grind, i, accept, that, i, have, to, put, in, 10, 12, hours, and, i, don’t, mind, doing, the, work, because, it’s, not, physically, or, mentally, taxing, but, i, do, hate, not, having, a, lunch, break, just, that, little, bit, of, selfish, time, to, site, have, a, cigarette, take, the, dogs, down, the, river, see, the, horses, whatever, i, do, resent, that, fact, that, w, one, of, the, bosses, almost, always, gets, a, lunch, hour, b, the, other, boss, has, gone, up, tremendously, in, my, opinion, for, the, way, that, he, gets, on, with, the, work, he, starts, early, finishes, late, hates, derfa, paperwork, and, rarely, complains, it, is, definitely, grinding, them, down, because, they, work, like, that, at, least, 4, days, a, week, it, has, been, a, huge, advantage, this, last, year, being, part, time, at, work, my, days, off, obviously, aren’t, my, own, as, they, used, to, be, but, i, do, get, away, from, the, phone, and, the, demands, of, clients, some, of, our, clients, are, very, selfish, and, i, hadn’t, noticed, before, they, seem, to, think, they, are, the, only, ones, that, have, hassles, with, defra, i, remember, saying, to, one, complaining, about, problems, with, licensing, that, he, was, lucky, to, have, problems, with, only, one, licence, the, first, day, that, movement, licenses, came, out, we, applied, for, 26, and, received, the, explanatory, notes, from, defra, on, how, to, complete, the, paperwork, 4, days, later, anyway, managed, to, do, three, final, visits, and, complete, most, of, the, paperwork, before, 9pm, kirkby, stephen, was, buzzing, today, the, auction, reopened, for, a, cattle, sale, the, main, street, was, full, of, shiny, farmers, with, fish, and, chips, and, the, back, lane, was, full, of, shiny, some, new, land, rovers, and, trailers, trailers, mostly, new, in, fact, mc, told, me, that, as, soon, as, he, heard, his, bloods, had, come, back, clear, restocking, he, washed, and, changed, and, went, to, the, mart, he, said, it, was, the, first, time, he, had, felt, clean, since, the, day, they, were, infected, he, felt, ok, to, go, among, other, farmers, he, surprised, me, because, he, is, so, easy, going, he, takes, all, in, his, stride, but, he, still, says, fmd, is, not, as, terrible, as, testicular, cancer, and, he’s, right, ad, was, one, of, the, other, final, visits, he, doesn’t, give, a, bugger, about, anything, happy, to, become, a, flower, power, farmer, he, doesn’t, care, much, about, his, sheep, as, individuals, they, are, just, numbers, just, as, well, because, in, the, batch, he, bought, from, wales, the, sheep, have, more, legs, than, teeth, i, can’t, see, them, lasting, long, pissed, off, because, i, missed, bryan, adams, concert, in, newcastle, couldn’t, finish, in, time, to, join, the, bus, the, rest, of, the, lassies, had, a, brilliant, time, and, at, least, tracey, benefited, from, my, ticket, had, to, go, back, in, to, work, the, next, day, to, finish, my, defra, reports, and, fax, them, off, went, to, playgroup, to, talk, about, pets, took, my, dog, lurcher, and, child’s, rabbit, dodgy, combination, very, few, of, the, kids, seemed, to, have, pets, of, their, own, a, lot, of, them, referred, to, granddad’s, dogs, or, uncles, cat, when, i, left, college, the, pet, population, was, increasing, what’s, going, to, happen, in, the, next, 15, years, sister, phoned, worried, about, her, horse, he, has, haematuria, i’m, worried, that, he, has, a, tumour, i, feel, very, far, away, and, helpless, when, things, like, this, happen, even, though, she, only, lives, in, yorkshire, i’m, sure, i, could, help, her, whatever, the, outcome, if, we, lived, closer, in, fact, i, think, i, miss, my, family, more, now, than, i, ever, have, i, don’t, know, if, it’s, my, age, or, the, thought, that, m, is, over, 60, or, that, i, didn’t, see, them, much, at, all, last, year, or, just, because, i, have, son, now, and, can, understand, how, mothers, families, feel, i, miss, sisters, but, i, still, don’t, phone, them, much, i, always, think, they’ll, be, busy, i, can, talk, to, mam, three, or, four, times, a, week, for, half, an, hour, at, a, time, without, thinking, twice, she, must, get, fed, up, hearing, me, go, on, and, on, about, work, etc, but, she, loves, hearing, all, about, every, tiny, detail, of, son’s, antics, and, achievements, will, broached, the, subject, of, a, partnership, again, i, don’t, know, what, to, think, it’s, the, obvious, thing, to, do, and, a, few, years, ago, i, would, have, taken, his, hand, off, for, even, 10, or, 20, i’m, just, not, as, excited, about, it, as, i, should, be, and, what, would, change, will, i, be, better, off, will, i, be, a, better, vet, or, will, i, spend, too, much, time, of, figures, and, paperwork, will, i, become, more, commercially, aware, do, i, want, to, change, can, i, be, bothered, with, the, extra, hassle, they, are, ok, they, have, a, career, and, a, wife, i’m, trying, to, do, both, sometimes, badly, diary, 2, monday’s, are, shite, it, starts, off, busy, and, gets, worse, why, can’t, we, do, time, management, a, bit, better, it, did, look, as, if, we, might, finish, around, 6.30, at, one, stage, in, the, afternoon, then, i, was, called, out, to, a, calf, i, didn’t, really, need, a, visit, at, 6pm, at, night, w, said, never, mind, you’ll, be, picking, son, up, anyway, the, childminder, lives, on, the, next, door, farm, he, hasn’t, got, a, clue, if, i, picked, son, up, he, would, be, at, ange’s, for, about, 8, hours, i, feel, guilty, enough, that, he’s, away, for, about, 8, hours, partner, always, picks, him, up, about, 5.30, and, has, to, cope, which, he, does, well, until, i, get, home, but, it’s, hard, work, for, both, of, us, after, a, full, day, at, work, and, partner, is, usually, knackered, and, ready, for, peace, and, quiet, when, he, gets, home, not, a, tired, hungry, wee, lad, anyway, i, ended, up, having, a, farm, tour, that, night, farmer, was, so, proud, of, his, new, pedigree, belgian, blues, and, his, new, shed, he’s, been, lucky, to, get, most, of, his, commercial, stock, from, his, father, so, he, has, an, idea, of, their, past, history, he’s, a, nice, lad, and, he, was, producing, some, stunning, beef, calves, before, he, was, taken, out, at, least, he’s, young, enough, to, get, going, again, he, hasn’t, said, much, about, loosing, his, stock, so, i, haven’t, asked, i, had, a, chat, to, his, aunt, one, day, and, she, was, very, upset, and, that, upsets, me, i, hate, when, people, get, emotional, like, that, i, start, filling, up, myself, i, got, back, to, find, a, sheep, caesarean, still, to, do, waste, of, time, premature, lambs, all, born, alive, 3, and, all, dead, before, i, finished, stitching, the, uterus, and, to, put, the, tin, hat, on, the, day, my, assistant, was, the, mother, who, prattled, about, nothing, much, all, the, way, through, the, op, she, does, my, head, in, she, is, a, century, away, from, me, in, her, outlook, but, i, still, come, away, feeling, that, i, am, the, one, who, has, got, it, all, wrong, maybe, i, should, have, dinner, on, the, table, and, shirts, ironed, etc, i, don’t, want, to, be, like, her, though, and, i, can’t, even, sympathise, with, her, even, though, they, lost, all, their, sheep, i’m, sure, she, must, have, taken, it, badly, but, i, don’t, think, she, would, ever, let, her, feelings, show, in, public, something, about, the, way, she, spoke, suggested, that, she, was, forcing, herself, to, put, a, brave, face, and, look, forward, probably, for, her, own, son’s, sake, watched, rural, lives, again, on, tuesday, cr, came, over, well, i, though, i, couldn’t, help, but, snigger, when, the, slaughter, team, were, discussing, one, of, our, clients, she, made, the, kids, carry, away, the, dead, piglets, after, they’d, been, slaughtered, them, team, thought, that, was, terrible, but, i, knew, the, kids, they, all, help, on, the, farm, they, know, that, their, pigs, go, to, kill, the, family, even, started, their, own, little, slaughter, house, and, cutting, plant, before, fmd, i, don’t, think, those, kids, would, be, horrified, sad, maybe, we, all, felt, sad, over, the, last, year, sad, for, the, healthy, animals, culled, more, sad, for, the, people, caught, up, in, the, mess, one, disease, where, the, cure, is, worse, mostly, though, i, get, angry, when, i, hear, or, talk, about, fmd, i, get, angry, because, defra, let, us, all, down, the, politicians, got, too, closely, involved, nothing, happened, fast, enough, we, didn’t, seem, to, be, able, to, do, anything, we, knew, very, little, and, struggled, to, get, reliable, information, i, still, get, wound, up, thinking, about, it, all, we, were, marginalised, by, defra, i, felt, as, if, it, was, us, and, the, farmers, versus, derfa, not, all, three, groups, versus, fmd, the, rumours, that, abounded, just, magnified, the, feelings, we, talked, at, length, about, fmd, defra, etc, within, the, practice, and, with, our, clients, but, i, could, still, talk, about, it, all, day, even, now, so, many, things, are, unresolved, i, have, lost, faith, in, defra, especially, since, they, changed, their, name, no, a, for, agriculture, now, and, i’m, glad, i, have, been, ignorant, of, politics, for, so, long, there, have, been, few, shining, lights, in, the, government, i’m, heartily, sick, of, authority, interfering, and, regulating, stuff, that’s, going, along, quite, nicely, let, them, interfere, with, stuff, that’s, doing, harm, bad, farmers, need, a, shake, up, sheep, dealers, need, to, think, more, about, animal, welfare, but, the, way, things, are, going, the, good, guys, that, toe, the, line, will, end, up, following, all, the, rules, and, regulations, set, up, to, sort, out, the, bad, guys, and, will, they, bother, diary, 3, possibly, the, best, bit, of, the, week, was, sunday, when, i, eventually, after, 13, months, got, back, on, my, horse, only, 15, minutes, but, it, was, nerve, wracking, i, thought, she, might, just, throw, me, off, and, i, was, so, tense, actually, we, both, were, i, felt, as, if, i, had, forgotten, how, to, ride, i, stayed, in, the, field, thinking, it, would, be, safer, but, the, other, two, horses, were, flying, about, to, annoy, us, i’m, so, frustrated, that, i, haven’t, been, able, to, get, her, fit, for, the, start, of, the, endurance, season, there’s, no, way, we’d, be, able, to, go, to, the, first, ride, at, ullswater, and, there’s, only, one, other, in, cumbria, this, year, due, to, fmd, who, would, have, thought, that, we, would, still, be, curtailed, by, fmd, more, than, a, year, on, the, young, horse, was, very, interested, in, saddle, and, bridle, so, i, put, them, on, him, and, he, was, ok, at, first, he, was, frightened, to, move, at, all, but, then, he, realised, it, was, ok, on, monday, i, had, a, strange, request, to, go, and, hold, an, old, pony, for, the, knacker, to, shoot, the, owner’s, just, didn’t, want, to, be, around, it, was, a, lovely, morning, so, i, led, her, out, for, a, bite, of, grass, before, he, arrived, she, could, barely, manage, to, breathe, and, swallow, at, the, same, time, i, can’t, believe, how, the, tumours, have, taken, hold, of, her, since, the, turn, of, the, year, mr, a, couldn’t, tell, his, wife, the, diagnosis, initially, because, she, hadn’t, got, over, losing, the, few, pedigree, sheep, they, had, it’s, taking, some, people, a, long, time, to, get, over, the, loss, i, think, it’s, easier, to, get, over, losing, an, animal, if, you, have, more, than, one, it, helps, to, keep, you, focussed, on, the, living, rather, than, the, dead, and, farmers, haven’t, been, able, to, get, restarted, when, they, were, ready, to, because, of, all, the, c, d, requirements, anyway, the, knacker, man, told, some, good, tales, there’s, been, some, nutters, about, shooting, animals, some, even, had, their, guns, taken, off, them, poor, lad, was, given, a, day’s, notice, at, the, knackey, and, was, part, of, a, slaughter, team, after, that, so, he, was, only, paid, his, normal, wage, which, the, boss, collected, at, the, defra, rate, for, them, all, it, was, good, talking, to, him, probably, because, i, don’t, really, know, him, i, didn’t, feel, that, i, would, upset, him, because, he, wasn’t, like, a, client, who, had, lost, animals, sometimes, it’s, hard, to, know, what, to, say, if, people, get, upset, sometimes, it’s, enough, to, listen, one, of, the, most, awkward, situations, i, found, myself, in, was, talking, to, a, farmer, who, lost, no, stock, but, he, was, so, depressed, he, started, crying, the, cows, i, had, gone, to, see, should, have, gone, last, year, then, we, wouldn’t, have, had, these, problems, he, also, has, been, unable, to, sell, sheep, so, the, farm, was, completely, overstocked, overgrazed, and, had, little, silage, left, i, couldn’t, understand, why, he, was, still, overstocking, when, he, could, have, sold, sheep, and, cattle, for, restocking, or, for, slaughter, quite, easily, in, the, last, few, months, maybe, he, just, couldn’t, face, the, hassle, of, getting, licences, or, maybe, he’s, just, too, far, down, to, think, straight, i, usually, mention, that, sort, of, thing, to, b, and, w, because, i, think, it’s, important, that, everyone, in, the, practice, knows, what’s, happening, not, just, with, out, patients, but, also, with, our, clients, diary, 4, i, had, the, honour, of, completing, the, final, final, visit, today, and, it, was, one, of, my, neighbours, in, soulby, no, more, surveillance, visits, poor, lol, couldn’t, find, his, defra, paperwork, and, while, he, was, looking, through, his, files, he, found, copies, of, his, valuation, report, with, all, his, old, cows, on, i, think, it, brought, it, all, back, he’s, trying, hard, to, move, on, i, could, understand, him, being, bitter, since, his, whole, very, good, milking, herd, was, taken, as, a, dc, i, think, he, may, have, survived, because, the, infection, was, half, a, mile, away, from, his, cows, but, the, ip, land, joined, i, watched, them, load, all, his, cows, into, coal, wagons, on, s, saturday, afternoon, in, fact, it, was, midnight, when, the, last, de, tox, wagon, left, how, can, they, be, clean, if, i, can’t, even, get, my, wellies, clean, in, the, dark, how, he’s, worrying, about, his, new, cows, coming, from, holland, he, thinks, it’s, a, long, way, for, them, to, travel, but, he, can’t, wait, for, them, to, arrive, unlike, his, wife, who, thinks, that, all, this, restocking, is, going, too, fast, i, felt, apprehensive, too, about, a, fortnight, ago, but, the, feeling, is, subsiding, the, day, to, day, normality, of, work, is, returning, sheep, are, permitted, to, visit, the, surgery, for, treatment, so, we, have, had, a, much, more, normal, march, than, we’d, had, last, year, even, though, there, are, still, thousands, of, sheep, missing, from, the, practice, farmers, are, still, bringing, in, lambs, the, value, of, stock, is, obviously, not, their, prime, concern, where, there’s, life, there’s, hope, we, wouldn’t, see, ewes, or, lambs, at, all, if, the, cost, of, treatment, versus, the, animal’s, value, was, weighed, i, was, worried, that, we, would, have, a, flare, up, around, lambing, time, there’s, a, chance, that, some, of, the, fell, sheep, were, exposed, to, fmd, and, there’s, a, risk, of, virus, recrudescence, at, times, of, stress, so, i, was, thinking, that, if, we, made, it, through, lambing, then, we’d, definitely, be, ok, the, weather, has, cheered, me, up, this, week, everybody, smiles, more, when, it’s, sunny, its, tempting, to, think, my, days, at, home, are, holidays, when, the, weathers, so, nice, diary, 5, i, forgot, about, april, fools, day, for, the, first, time, ever, we, were, so, busy, at, work, and, it, was, more, of, a, bank, holiday, than, anything, else, i, do, resent, working, bank, holidays, but, monday, is, my, day, to, be, on, call, b, did, offer, to, do, some, of, the, day, but, he, had, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, a, lambing, at, 1.30, am, and, another, call, at, 6, am, so, he’d, be, knackered, enough, and, they, pay, me, for, a, day’s, work, so, its, only, fair, that, i, give, a, days, work, when, the, phone, rang, early, tuesday, and, i, felt, as, if, i’d, only, been, in, bed, 2, hours, i, was, regretting, not, passing, on, the, night, duty, a, belgian, blue, calving, caesarian, mentally, checked, my, kit, in, the, car, while, driving, to, ks, definitely, caesarean, they, shouldn’t, breed, from, these, cows, until, they’re, more, mature, we’re, getting, loads, of, bother, with, the, new, stock, never, mind, its, proper, veterinary, work, anyway, the, heifer, was, a, right, bag, started, off, lying, down, so, i, doped, her, but, she, got, up, after, we, got, the, calf, out, and, then, tried, to, lye, down, on, the, wound, peritonitis, to, follow, no, doubt, i, warned, the, farmer, and, we, were, all, very, calm, about, it, maybe, none, of, us, were, really, awake, so, that, made, partner, late, for, work, as, he, was, left, holding, the, baby, and, i, was, well, late, setting, off, to, see, my, sister, sister, sister, didn’t, mind, and, partner, s, bosses, said, it, was, ok, but, i, still, felt, guilty, had, a, great, time, at, sister’s, did, a, bit, of, touristy, stuff, and, found, a, really, nice, book, for, mam’s, birthday, by, mrs, herdie, who, used, to, holiday, near, home, mam, has, a, watercolour, by, her, but, this, book, is, all, wildflowers, other, sister, phoned, to, say, horse, is, worse, i, think, sister, and, i, both, wanted, to, go, to, yorkshire, when, we, heard, how, upset, she, was, sisters, are, so, close, being, twins, but, i, can, understand, what, sister, s, going, through, with, a, horse, on, death’s, door, she, didn’t, want, us, to, go, she, said, so, we, drank, too, much, red, wine, instead, and, watched, the, start, of, papillon, good, film, i, was, too, knackered, though, my, stamina, gives, out, a, lot, sooner, under, the, influence, of, alcohol, mam’s, birthday, was, a, queer, day, it’s, rare, that, i, get, the, chance, to, spend, time, with, any, of, my, siblings, at, home, and, we, had, a, lovely, day, apart, from, the, fact, that, we, were, all, waiting, to, hear, what, was, going, to, happen, with, sister, she, phoned, to, say, he’d, been, put, down, bladder, tumour, i, think, it, must, be, pretty, rare, she, still, said, we, shouldn’t, go, down, sister, could, have, easily, gone, and, mam, because, lynxes, on, school, hols, jammy, teacher, i, stayed, on, till, quite, late, because, both, my, brother, and, stepfather, wanted, to, see, son, he, was, so, excited, to, see, them, sometimes, he, just, makes, us, all, laugh, i, had, a, depressing, start, to, the, day, back, at, work, just, over, a, month, ago, i, amputated, a, dog’s, leg, the, leg, was, fractured, over, 6, months, ago, appeared, to, heal, and, then, suddenly, worsen, we, suspected, a, bone, infection, but, she, didn’t, respond, to, treatment, so, i, x, rayed, her, again, and, it, looked, like, a, bone, tumour, she, did, well, after, the, operation, until, last, week, when, she, developed, a, hard, knobbly, swelling, near, her, shoulder, and, her, lungs, were, infiltrated, i, felt, so, sad, for, her, and, the, family, she, was, a, lovely, placid, and, very, brave, dog, and, it, is, just, so, unfair, i, don’t, want, to, give, up, on, these, cases, and, i, feel, that, euthanasia, is, a, poor, treatment, in, this, case, i, so, wanted, her, to, have, a, couple, more, years, i, never, would, have, put, her, or, the, family, through, a, ghastly, op, like, amputation, if, i, had, known, that, she, would, get, so, little, benefit, the, farmer’s, son, who, worked, the, dog, until, she, retired, was, conspicuous, by, his, absence, he’s, rebuilding, the, milking, parlour, ready, to, restock, so, his, sister, did, the, honours, and, came, to, help, me, had, to, switch, to, party, mode, son’s, 2nd, birthday, the, sandpit, was, a, roaring, success, as, was, the, trike, and, cake, from, grandma, and, granddad, we, had, a, super, relaxing, day, mostly, outdoors, this, weather, makes, life, a, lot, easier, i, couldn’t, have, coped, with, all, those, little, boys, inside, escaped, to, the, horses, at, asby, to, take, water, it’s, so, peaceful, up, there, i’ve, really, missed, being, able, to, go, up, there, this, last, year, there’s, still, yellow, tape, on, my, gate, and, i, don’t, even, have, livestock, i, wonder, who, they, defra, thought, the, field, belongs, to, should, get, out, riding, this, next, week, with, a, bit, of, luck, and, a, bit, of, spare, time, i, think, i’ll, have, to, shelve, the, plans, to, show, the, arabs, i, haven’t, got, started, soon, enough, diary, 6, our, new, vet, started, this, week, bright, young, enthusiastic, and, full, of, new, ideas, i, feel, very, out, of, touch, i, didn’t, go, on, any, cpd, courses, last, year, for, most, of, the, year, i, felt, as, if, we, were, unclean, and, i, was, so, tired, with, working, such, long, days, it, seemed, too, much, hard, work, to, organise, extra, childcare, etc, to, allow, me, to, go, away, for, more, than, a, day, i, feel, out, of, touch, generally, though, and, a, lot, of, it, has, to, do, with, working, part, time, big, day, on, wednesday, son’s, 1st, morning, at, biggins, nursery, i, think, my, new, hobby, is, worrying, am, i, doing, the, right, thing, setting, off, on, new, extra, and, expensive, childcare, arrangements, i, think, i, feel, guilty, because, it’s, for, my, benefit, not, for, extra, work, it’s, now, going, to, cost, me, an, extra, 7.50, to, ride, my, horse, on, a, wednesday, but, i, am, starting, to, break, horse, in, as, well, and, i, can’t, handle, a, 4, year, old, horse, with, a, 2, year, old, boy, around, anyway, the, nursery, seemed, a, big, hit, and, i, had, my, first, ride, out, on, ashby, fell, i, actually, went, over, the, track, to, the, dowly, tree, instead, of, on, the, road, she, the, horse, was, quite, anxious, leading, the, other, two, and, a, bit, excited, to, be, out, in, the, open, space, of, the, fell, so, was, i, there, seems, to, be, just, one, lot, of, fell, sheep, on, there, they, must, be, h’s, i, think, nobody, else, has, started, to, heft, sheep, up, there, yet, the, dowly, tree, will, be, looking, sad, and, lonely, for, a, bit, longer, i, have, missed, being, up, on, that, fell, so, much, margaret, little, asking, if, we’re, going, to, the, village, hall, quiz, on, friday, probably, not, because, we’re, going, out, for, a, meal, for, partner, s, birthday, felt, guilty, about, not, supporting, village, activities, and, started, justifying, myself, to, her, i, hate, it, though, when, people, use, fmd, to, make, you, feel, bad, she, kept, saying, how, few, does, there, were, last, year, how, nice, it, is, for, all, the, village, to, get, together, etc, all, true, but, i, can’t, get, babysitters, and, nights, off, to, do, everything, and, partner, is, way, more, important, than, the, village, quiz, he, put, up, with, such, a, lot, of, shite, last, year, and, never, complained, far, too, tolerant, we, had, a, lovely, meal, on, the, friday, night, son, slept, out, at, t’s, for, the, first, time, in, ages, but, i, couldn’t, have, a, lie, in, because, of, the, judge’s, course, for, the, arab, horse, society, i, really, enjoyed, it, it, was, arranged, for, last, year, but, had, to, be, postponed, due, to, fmd, it, was, worth, waiting, for, and, i, couldn’t, have, gone, last, year, even, if, it, had, been, on, went, to, see, sister, and, sister’s, boyfriend, on, sunday, seemed, to, spend, all, day, being, fed, she’s, like, mam, son, took, a, real, shine, to, sister’s, boyfriend, which, entertained, us, all, she, seems, to, be, coping, ok, with, horse, s, demise, martin, has, cleaned, up, one, of, his, shoes, and, mounted, it, with, a, plaque, he’s, very, thoughtful, diary, 7, i, have, decided, that, i, am, happy, on, dry, days, when, i, can, ride, or, work, my, horses, son, and, i, can, get, outside, to, play, and, then, he’s, happier, and, people, who, come, into, work, are, more, smiley, on, good, days, too, son, and, i, went, to, a, birthday, party, this, week, he, had, a, brilliant, time, but, i, felt, very, out, of, place, everybody, else, was, immaculately, dressed, and, made, up, while, son, and, i, had, to, rush, back, from, having, a, bonfire, to, burn, all, the, old, hay, in, musgrave, field, to, quickly, wash, and, change, i’d, rather, have, carried, on, tidying, up, the, field, it’s, still, a, real, mess, and, at, least, i, have, the, grass, seed, now, it, had, better, grow, the, price, it, was, i, was, really, pleased, with, horse, on, wednesday, he’s, coming, on, quite, nicely, with, his, lunging, now, he, seems, to, be, quite, amenable, dental, appointment, on, friday, i, hope, my, dentist, never, retires, i, don’t, think, they, make, dentists, that, are, more, interested, in, people, and, their, teeth, than, money, any, more, i, always, have, a, good, chat, to, him, so, we, carried, on, our, discussion, about, my, working, conditions, comparing, them, to, his, sons, etc, he’s, a, vet, too, he, was, quite, surprised, when, i, told, him, about, the, partnership, talks, last, time, i, had, a, good, heart, to, heart, it, was, after, the, threatened, redundancy, it’s, no, wonder, i, feel, confused, about, the, future, at, times, nearly, 2, years, ago, when, i, was, on, maternity, leave, they, thought, they, might, have, to, make, me, redundant, now, they, want, to, release, a, bit, of, capital, and, take, things, easier, they, want, me, to, buy, in, this, time, last, year, i, didn’t, know, if, partner, or, i, would, have, a, job, now, i, have, to, decide, to, commit, myself, to, at, least, 20, more, years, as, a, vet, went, out, with, girls, from, work, to, a, 40th, didn’t, really, want, to, go, but, of, course, we, had, a, great, time, once, we, got, there, i, think, i, have, got, out, of, the, habit, of, evenings, out, still, can’t, get, used, to, the, freedom, the, mobile, phone, gives, us, and, spend, all, the, time, checking, that, there’s, enough, signal, battery, etc, had, a, hell, of, a, hangover, too, much, draught, coke, hell, it’s, worse, than, cider, diary, 8, the, shit, is, hitting, the, fan, we’re, having, problems, with, some, imported, dutch, heifers, we, were, waiting, for, this, especially, on, this, particular, farm, the, management’s, not, the, best, and, the, father, takes, more, advice, from, his, feed, merchant, than, us, vets, there, is, obviously, a, viral, infection, going, through, the, heifers, and, farmer, b, presumed, they, were, already, vaccinated, no, documentation, they, are, also, showing, signs, of, gastro, intestinal, upset, which, could, be, management, oh, hell, why, did, he, buy, 80, first, calvers, nobody, would, willingly, put, themselves, under, that, stress, new, vet, is, interested, but, b, and, w, are, obviously, trying, to, keep, their, distance, they’ve, been, embroiled, in, herd, problems, on, this, farm, before, i, am, now, obviously, the, senior, vet, in, charge, of, this, problem, and, i’m, not, even, at, work, every, day, it’s, too, much, for, new, vet, to, cope, with, and, the, farmer, will, get, pissed, off, soon, and, i, bet, it’s, us, that, catch, the, flak, cheered, myself, up, with, 1, hours, of, r, r, with, the, horses, on, wednesday, lovely, day, rode, down, onto, the, common, but, it, was, hard, work, as, the, other, two, horses, were, shouting, for, daisy, all, the, time, i, was, out, on, her, horse, decided, that, he, would, be, bobbly, when, i, worked, him, but, i’m, getting, confident, that, i, know, how, his, mind, works, we, had, a, bit, of, a, stand, off, but, i, made, sure, it, didn’t, turn, into, a, battle, and, he, did, as, he, was, asked, in, the, end, so, we, finished, on, a, good, note, i, think, it, will, be, quite, satisfying, bringing, him, on, myself, even, though, its, going, to, take, months, at, this, rate, some, people, work, on, young, horses, twice, a, day, he’s, lucky, if, he, gets, trained, twice, a, week, work, is, really, settling, down, now, the, lambing, time, rush, has, passed, and, we’re, catching, up, on, our, tb, testing, for, defra, it’s, a, bit, more, taxing, having, to, do, such, young, animals, in, the, restocked, herds, but, most, people, are, fairly, well, organised, we’re, not, going, to, get, some, of, the, herds, done, before, turn, out, i, wonder, if, defra, have, any, recommendations, for, catching, wild, limousin, heifers, in, the, middle, of, a, field, probably, not, they, don’t, think, that, far, ahead, diary, 9, i, hate, mondays, again, had, supper, at, 11.45, pm, there, was, a, problem, with, my, mobile, when, i, was, on, call, i, hate, mobiles, as, well, and, i, went, to, calve, a, cow, one, and, a, half, hours, after, the, first, call, came, in, i, was, so, mad, firstly, because, we, don’t, make, our, clients, wait, that, long, for, an, emergency, to, become, a, disaster, and, second, because, ws, wife, has, no, idea, about, passing, jobs, on, she, should, have, got, another, vet, to, go, since, i, was, obviously, busy, but, she, just, passed, the, message, on, to, new, vet, to, let, her, sort, it, out, and, w’s, wife, gets, paid, for, doing, the, phones, anyway, all’s, well, live, cow, and, a, tremendous, bull, calf, and, one, of, the, easiest, caesareans, i, have, done, in, ages, b, and, w, seem, to, forget, that, it, is, their, business, and, reputation, at, stake, ultimately, the, buck, stops, with, them, both, of, them, seem, to, have, had, enough, of, business, management, and, hassle, to, last, a, lifetime, last, year, has, done, a, lot, of, damage, to, a, lot, of, people, i, know, i, am, a, lot, less, tolerant, than, i, used, to, be, this, week, started, badly, and, improved, farrier, came, and, trimmed, all, 3, horses, bollocked, me, because, they, hadn’t, been, seen, for, over, a, year, i, did, tidy, them, a, bit, myself, though, had, a, lovely, afternoon, at, rheged, with, mam, we, started, going, when, fmd, was, on, because, it, was, sort, of, neutral, non, agricultural, ground, we, sat, and, chatted, while, son, played, in, the, soft, play, centre, everybody, happy, unfortunately, i, went, down, with, the, worst, dose, of, food, poisoning, i, had, ever, had, i, was, up, all, night, went, into, work, late, i, wouldn’t, have, gone, at, all, except, i, had, a, 2nd, tb, to, test, to, do, on, a, restocked, farm, and, couldn’t, bear, to, start, the, whole, thing, again, i, recovered, as, the, afternoon, went, on, and, even, managed, to, dehorn, 10, cows, the, thought, of, b, sending, fragile, young, new, vet, to, help, spurred, me, on, a, bit, i, was, knackered, when, i, finished, took, me, another, 2, days, to, recover, horse, doing, well, bridle, and, saddle, on, now, looking, grown, up, i’m, quite, proud, of, him, he, was, so, chilled, out, today, i, tried, long, reining, him, that, confused, him, but, he, was, very, sensible, norleen, and, i, didn’t, go, to, the, 1st, date, at, the, rochdale, show, i, still, didn’t, feel, right, and, partner, was, going, to, fit, the, new, fuel, pump, to, my, car, but, then, he, started, to, feel, ill, too, what, a, waste, of, a, saturday, off, made, it, to, the, show, on, sunday, pretty, good, ridden, classes, and, all, the, senior, in, hand, classes, we, were, laughing, because, we’re, so, out, of, practice, there, are, two, years, worth, of, young, stock, that, we’ve, never, seen, due, to, babies, in, 2000, and, fmd, in, 2001, we, felt, really, out, of, touch, there, are, a, few, imported, stallions, and, mares, that, we, haven’t, seen, before, too, we, had, a, brilliant, day, diary, 10, what’s, worse, than, working, on, call, on, mondays, yes, working, bank, holidays, we, hoped, to, shut, at, 12, ha, ha, i, got, home, for, lunch, at, 2pm, b, kindly, took, the, phones, for, a, couple, of, hours, in, the, afternoon, not, long, enough, to, go, anywhere, and, i, was, back, out, working, by, tea, time, my, car, failed, its, mot, because, the, back, brake, callipers, were, all, gunged, up, the, mechanic, says, it’s, disinfectant, that, does, it, bloody, defra, i, bet, there’s, no, chance, of, compensation, for, that, it, wouldn’t, be, so, bad, if, it, was, a, practice, car, but, now, that, i’m, part, time, i, have, to, paddle, my, own, canoe, all, the, local, garage, owners, warned, us, last, year, that, these, things, would, happen, what, could, we, do, we, felt, obliged, to, drive, into, all, the, voluntary, disinfectant, sites, it, doesn’t, look, good, if, the, local, vets, aren’t, disinfecting, my, beautiful, old, audi, god, knows, what, other, horrors, are, lurking, where, the, fam, has, spilled, in, my, boot, etc, hell, it, makes, me, mad, all, the, destruction, physical, and, mental, and, we, had, so, little, to, say, in, any, of, it, well, my, car, spent, the, rest, of, the, week, in, the, garage, so, i, used, borrowed, wheels, went, to, do, a, wee, talk, at, stainsmore, pre, school, in, partner, s, transit, van, very, professional, the, children, didn’t, care, they, just, wanted, to, meet, my, dog, son, missed, a, birthday, party, on, the, saturday, because, i, was, still, at, work, more, guilt, not, that, he, knows, he, missed, it, lovely, day, on, sunday, with, my, horse, went, for, a, three, hour, ride, over, in, county, durham, we, trailed, round, arable, fields, and, nice, lanes, all, very, different, from, here, other, horse, was, an, absolute, saint, and, did, very, well, to, have, no, shoes, on, she, really, did, us, proud, diary, 11, got, my, car, back, that, cheered, me, up, bad, news, about, the, imported, heifers, two, more, have, died, at, least, the, pm, exams, and, sampling, are, free, because, it’s, a, restocked, herd, farmer, getting, angry, now, at, dutch, farmers, but, taking, it, out, on, new, vet, very, unfair, she’s, spent, hours, checking, over, his, cattle, and, taking, samples, didn’t, get, my, usual, r, r, on, wed, absolutely, piddling, down, started, sorting, out, a, few, jobs, that, i, have, been, avoiding, the, sort, i, used, to, do, on, wet, sundays, now, will, become, wet, wednesday, jobs, called, in, at, work, for, coffee, and, ended, up, with, a, call, for, the, afternoon, very, interesting, job, too, went, to, sedate, two, horses, for, the, dentist, it, was, absolutely, fascinating, son, has, another, 2nd, cousin, this, week, the, family, is, really, sprouting, had, a, tough, calving, thursday, night, torsion, of, the, uterus, i, can, do, these, now, i, used, to, absolutely, dread, them, unfortunately, she’d, been, on, too, long, and, the, calf, was, born, dead, heifer, fine, though, i, hate, going, to, that, farm, the, farmer, is, a, right, old, perverted, slime, ball, and, i’ll, dance, on, his, grave, started, with, a, real, head, cold, h, crap, went, to, see, mam, and, stewart, son, on, top, form, it’s, brilliant, seeing, him, interact, with, my, family, he, has, really, strengthened, the, bonds, in, our, family, son, fevered, at, night, starting, with, the, same, cold, i, presume, no, sleep, for, me, partner, never, seems, to, hear, all, the, commotion, still, felt, ill, on, saturday, sister, and, sister, s, birthday, at, least, i, remembered, to, post, their, cards, in, plenty, of, time, this, year, went, shopping, for, wallpaper, on, sunday, to, cheer, me, up, partner, went, off, pest, controlling, with, his, dogs, they, went, up, through, tubby’s, wood, they, found, nothing, but, at, least, the, dogs, had, a, good, ratch, he, says, he, only, now, feels, ok, about, walking, across, fields, i, didn’t, even, realise, that, he, still, felt, that, he, couldn’t, go, round, all, his, old, haunts, we, must, talk, more, diary, 19, tb, test, cancelled, on, monday, and, thursday, this, week, because, the, farmer, can’t, cope, with, the, extra, hassle, he’s, a, bit, of, a, woman, at, the, best, of, times, but, he’s, been, even, worse, since, fmd, w, was, very, understanding, he, seems, to, have, the, farmers, measure, b, didn’t, seem, that, understanding, very, upset, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, had, to, put, down, my, own, terrier, after, he, took, off, and, chased, the, neighbour’s, sheep, for, the, second, time, i, can’t, understand, why, he, went, so, strange, he, used, to, be, fine, with, stock, i, had, a, miserable, afternoon, waiting, for, partner, to, come, home, to, bury, him, i’d, had, such, a, good, morning, with, the, horses, too, dizzy, and, horse, were, both, going, well, i, felt, better, once, partner, came, home, he, said, i’d, done, the, right, thing, but, i, felt, as, though, i’d, failed, somehow, because, it, should, never, have, happened, in, the, first, place, maybe, it’s, because, he, had, nothing, to, do, last, year, no, interesting, walks, no, rabbiting, etc, i, don’t, know, diary, 20, brilliant, time, tues, wed, went, to, my, sisters, with, mam, and, son, it’s, much, easier, to, keep, in, touch, with, my, family, post, fmd, i, hardly, went, anywhere, last, year, we, went, shopping, to, edinburgh, mam’s, looking, for, an, outfit, for, my, brother’s, wedding, unsuccessfully, so, far, i’ve, just, realised, that, i, haven’t, seen, brother, and, wife, on, their, farm, since, fmd, broke, out, we, must, go, soon, it’s, a, brilliant, place, for, recharging, batteries, and, they, are, the, best, bit, of, my, step, family, we, didn’t, go, to, the, cumberland, show, with, the, horses, i, haven’t, got, back, into, the, swing, of, things, yet, i, think, it, was, a, bit, of, a, washout, without, the, farming, side, and, it, rained, i, offered, to, be, the, biosecurity, officer, for, our, local, show, so, that, they, could, get, things, up, and, running, properly, they, had, money, and, trophies, donated, last, year, for, new, cattle, classes, and, there, would, be, real, interest, in, fat, cattle, classes, and, young, handler, classes, now, defra, the, bastards, managed, to, put, the, committee, off, diary, 21, sprayed, weeds, in, field, only, depressing, day, this, week, it’s, never, going, to, recover, properly, the, landlord, arrived, when, we’d, just, finished, the, first, half, and, said, he’d, decided, to, reseed, it, in, august, after, much, discussion, i, persuaded, him, it, would, be, a, waste, of, time, and, money, to, put, horses, back, on, a, newly, seeded, field, over, winter, now, i’m, worried, about, what, happens, in, spring, will, we, be, terminated, or, just, moved, to, another, field, i, wish, i’d, moved, the, horses, at, the, usual, time, 1st, april, then, we, wouldn’t, have, been, caught, up, among, ips, and, dcs, something, will, sort, out, it, always, does, dairy, 22, excellent, week, off, to, malvern, with, friends, for, the, national, arabian, horse, show, son, went, off, to, grannies, for, the, holiday, i, had, a, marvellous, time, for, three, days, watching, the, most, beautiful, horses, and, came, back, absolutely, shattered, diary, 23, few, probs, at, work, with, new, assistant, she’s, a, bit, whiney, she’s, always, bending, the, ear, of, the, nearest, receptionist, and, they, are, sick, b, has, offered, her, a, 12, month, contract, but, whether, or, not, she’ll, accept, it, is, another, matter, from, what, i, can, gather, she’s, going, to, end, up, with, better, working, conditions, than, me, w’s, not, too, happy, about, it, all, but, neither, of, them, are, willing, to, grasp, the, nettle, they’ve, both, backed, off, since, last, year, they, can’t, wait, to, get, off, home, and, i, can’t, step, in, since, they’ve, changed, their, minds, about, my, partnership, and, i’m, only, part, time, good, weekend, lowther, on, saturday, didn’t, see, many, of, the, usual, faces, the, only, thing, that, spoiled, it, was, the, mud, we, brought, more, than, our, fair, share, home, with, son, and, the, pushchair, no, biosecurity, pressure, washer, anywhere, diary, 24, the, assistant, on, holiday, for, 2, weeks, things, seem, more, like, old, times, the, cages, aren’t, full, of, animals, on, drips, i’m, working, extra, days, and, enjoying, it, it’s, tiring, but, good, highlight, of, the, week, on, thursday, brough, show, there, weren’t, many, farmers, there, but, loads, of, horses, and, ponies, instead, of, sheep, much, talk, of, defra, regulations, none, complimentary, it, just, wasn’t, the, same, without, the, sheep, it, felt, flat, i, wonder, what, the, gimmer, lamb, sales, will, be, like, diary, 25, knackered, don’t, think, i, could, cope, with, full, time, work, any, more, new, vet, still, on, holiday, felt, guilty, about, son, being, farmed, out, all, week, i, managed, to, work, myself, up, about, our, charity, horse, show, on, saturday, i, tried, to, hand, over, the, organisation, to, three, other, folk, and, still, ended, up, sorting, out, all, the, insurance, and, rosettes, and, they, changed, the, date, so, i, had, less, time, to, organise, and, it, wasn’t, advertised, it, was, the, worst, show, we’ve, ever, had, it, takes, as, much, time, to, organise, it, for, the, few, as, it, does, for, the, many, i, felt, so, disappointed, i, thought, we, would, have, a, real, good, turnout, this, time, after, having, to, cancel, last, year, oh, well, there’s, always, next, year, i’ll, need, to, make, sure, they, don’t, change, the, date, again, and, at, least, i, might, be, able, to, take, the, horses, next, time, decided, to, cheer, myself, up, by, taking, other, horse, over, to, school, her, round, the, jumps, on, the, sunday, but, i, couldn’t, catch, her, she, must, have, known, so, that, just, put, the, tin, hat, on, the, weekend, diary, 26, two, trotting, meetings, this, week, i, landed, both, of, them, and, both, nights, on, call, another, bank, holiday, with, no, time, off, and, i, had, to, take, son, to, both, because, partner, was, grouse, beating, both, meetings, were, quite, relaxed, but, there, was, one, nasty, crash, at, appleby, had, a, really, nice, day, out, at, chatsworth, game, fair, with, helen, and, neil, it’s, the, first, time, we’ve, managed, to, visit, them, and, it, took, hours, to, get, there, we, were, invited, last, year, but, the, advert, said, they, didn’t, want, any, cumbrians, social, outcasts, as, if, we, didn’t, feel, like, the, armpit, of, british, agriculture, as, it, was, i, really, enjoyed, our, day, out, i, felt, as, if, we’d, had, a, weekend, away, not, just, a, day, we’ll, have, to, think, of, some, more, trips, it’s, too, easy, just, to, stay, at, home, we, always, have, plenty, to, do, dairy, 27, it’s, started, again, defra, have, found, a, new, way, to, cock, up, our, lives, they, have, now, complicated, life, with, exemptions, from, the, 20, day, standstill, including, new, stuff, about, isolation, units, the, farmers, have, all, been, notified, by, post, some, haven’t, read, it, some, have, read, it, and, don’t, understand, it, farmers, have, to, isolate, new, stock, bought, via, auctions, etc, from, any, contact, with, other, stock, by, 50, m, outside, or, they, can, go, on, standstill, but, their, neighbours, can, move, stock, from, the, next, door, field, without, a, problem, it’s, mad, i, don’t, understand, where, they, are, coming, from, well, i, do, sort, of, but, as, usual, it’s, badly, thought, out, and, we, have, to, sell, this, idea, to, the, farmers, how, will, it, be, policed, will, it, matter, would, it, stop, another, massive, outbreak, it, doesn’t, take, much, to, wind, everyone, up, again, it’s, not, helped, at, work, by, b, defending, the, defra, line, and, w, dissing, it, what, will, the, clients, think, diary, 28, crap, week, puncture, on, thursday, during, lunch, hour, struggled, to, get, locking, nuts, off, felt, feckless, god, i, have, so, little, patience, these, days, and, i, missed, beva, congress, couldn’t, sort, out, childminding, etc, and, the, best, days, were, friday, and, saturday, there, was, no, way, i, could, go, i, was, really, disappointed, nothing, to, do, with, fmd, though, i, don’t, feel, as, if, i, get, much, encouragement, from, work, they, are, ok, about, paying, for, cpd, courses, but, they, don’t, seem, to, make, it, easy, to, swap, weekends, etc, they’re, not, bothered, themselves, so, i, suppose, they, don’t, understand, all, the, different, things, you, get, from, cpd, diary, 29, worked, extra, so, new, vet, could, go, to, sheep, meeting, at, malvern, pissed, off, it, is, not, easy, to, do, this, job, with, a, husband, and, a, family, to, consider, and, i, suppose, the, timing, stinks, since, i, missed, my, equine, course, last, week, the, week, improved, considerably, by, thursday, we, went, to, guilford, for, an, arab, horse, convention, nothing, to, do, with, work, but, very, enjoyable, i’ve, been, waiting, more, than, 10, years, for, this, i, hope, i, live, long, enough, to, go, to, the, next, one, we, talked, to, some, men, on, the, train, unheard, of, in, surrey, apparently, about, cumbria, farming, fmd, and, foxhunting, once, we, reassured, them, that, newcastle, was, not, in, cumbria, we, had, an, interesting, crack, i, hardly, ever, meet, anyone, that, is, not, connected, with, farming, and, the, countryside, they, really, have, no, idea, what, it’s, like, i, don’t, know, anything, about, it, either, which, is, what, their, job, is, i, end, up, feeling, so, frustrated, that, agriculture, and, therefore, large, animal, practice, is, in, such, a, precarious, position, it, seems, to, me, to, be, such, a, basic, fundamental, part, of, life, compared, to, computers, and, yet, the, emphasis, is, not, on, basic, stuff, anymore, surely, we, need, things, like, agriculture, and, basic, manufacturing, to, underpin, everything, else, no, wonder, nobody, was, bothered, about, us, suffering, anxiety, fear, confusion, last, year, when, we, were, in, the, throes, of, fmd, and, the, penrith, spur, was, certainly, under, reported, they, wouldn’t, have, had, so, many, marches, in, london, pre, fmd, diary, 30, quite, week, still, tired, from, last, week, loads, of, photos, to, develop, again, it, was, great, saw, horses, i’d, never, seen, before, and, got, 2, great, videos, of, long, dead, horses, that, appear, in, my, horses, pedigrees, son, was, a, bit, off, with, me, when, i, picked, him, up, monday, a, bit, unsettled, with, being, away, i, suppose, oh, this, job, just, interferes, with, a, social, life, missed, another, wedding, this, week, on, call, again, diary, 31, took, a, horse, to, penrith, vets, for, an, x, ray, they, have, a, super, new, hospital, just, out, of, town, seems, really, well, set, up, they, have, a, really, good, attitude, to, work, and, clients, i, think, we, need, a, shake, up, at, work, maybe, new, vet, s, way, of, working, isn’t, too, bad, neil, said, they, were, million, in, the, red, at, the, height, of, fmd, they, must, have, been, so, worried, none, of, us, knew, what, we’d, be, left, with, we’ve, definitely, got, a, lot, of, routine, work, because, we’ve, lost, such, a, lot, of, dairy, farms, it’s, never, going, to, be, the, same, again, and, i’m, not, good, at, accepting, change, diary, 32, sad, week, one, of, our, farmer’s, sons, was, killed, in, an, rta, on, the, a66, he, had, only, been, married, two, years, and, was, a, real, canny, lad, it, shocked, everyone, and, has, certainly, made, me, take, stock, they, have, restocked, with, fancy, cattle, from, down, south, and, these, cattle, may, have, contacted, cattle, with, a, variant, virus, from, the, usa, so, they, were, doing, a, whole, herd, test, you, could, blame, this, on, fmd, if, they, hadn’t, lost, their, cattle, they, wouldn’t, have, restocked, and, they, wouldn’t, be, testing, the, cattle, or, it, wouldn’t, have, happened, if, they’d, stopped, for, an, extra, cup, of, tea, a, client, brought, me, a, copy, of, the, cumbria, enquiry, that, didn’t, half, stir, up, some, old, feelings, all, the, things, i, was, so, angry, about, last, year, were, summed, up, in, one, phrase, i, read, slack, organisation, the, poor, woman, who, brought, the, report, has, spent, over, 1000, treating, her, dog, after, it, suffered, chemical, burns, from, fmd, disinfectant, on, a, road, map, it, now, reacts, to, phenolic, compounds, including, sheep, dip, and, fresh, tar, they’re, moving, to, scotland, i, hope, the, dog, has, a, better, life, there, diary, 33, funny, old, week, everyone, still, shell, shocked, about, farmer’s, son, s, death, no, explanation, as, to, how, the, lorry, crashed, into, his, tractor, yet, you, begin, to, wonder, how, any, family, can, cope, with, that, sort, of, trauma, b, and, w, went, to, the, huge, funeral, they, said, his, parents, were, amazing, they, do, have, a, strong, faith, but, i, can’t, see, that, being, enough, i, went, to, the, graveyard, the, next, day, to, see, the, flowers, and, ended, up, in, tears, it, was, the, messages, on, the, cards, especially, the, ones, from, his, parents, and, brother, and, sister, i, felt, so, sad, for, them, all, went, for, a, wee, walk, with, tracey, she, knows, him, quite, well, and, we, talked, a, lot, trying, to, make, sense, of, it, all, then, blow, me, on, the, thursday, his, father, and, brother, were, part, of, a, syndicate, at, the, tup, sales, that, paid, over, 100,000, for, a, swaledale, tup, i, couldn’t, believe, they’d, even, gone, to, the, auction, never, mind, doing, something, like, that, it, doesn’t, seem, right, to, me, the, others, could, have, bought, the, tup, for, them, i, think, that’s, awfully, strange, i, had, another, upset, farmer’s, wife, this, week, i, went, to, see, a, downer, cow, she’d, got, stuck, in, the, cubicles, we, had, to, carry, her, to, a, straw, box, using, the, loader, tractor, and, the, wife, got, really, upset, seeing, the, cow, swinging, on, the, front, of, the, tractor, i, felt, a, bit, guilty, really, because, i, didn’t, think, i, just, didn’t, connect, the, fmd, slaughter, with, an, injured, cow, but, then, i, didn’t, see, all, that, they, saw, when, their, herd, went, down, diary, 34, great, week, my, brother’s, wedding, son, was, a, page, boy, in, a, kilt, and, he, was, quite, well, behaved, apart, from, the, second, lot, of, photos, he, was, well, tired, and, hungry, by, then, i, love, being, home, with, my, brother, and, sisters, and, their, partners, and, it’s, great, the, way, they, all, have, so, much, time, for, son, we, always, laugh, so, much, at, the, clan, gatherings, i’m, sure, it’s, very, therapeutic, the, amount, of, alcohol, consumed, by, all, at, the, wedding, is, definitely, not, therapeutic, we, set, off, on, our, holiday, maybe, our, first, family, holiday, the, day, after, in, the, rain, but, it, turned, out, ok, later, such, a, lot, of, good, stuff, in, one, week, diary, 35, had, a, lovely, day, it, all, worked, out, well, we, may, try, four, or, five, days, away, next, year, now, that, we’ve, got, started, again, it’s, years, since, we, had, a, proper, holiday, i, usually, miss, all, the, animals, when, i’m, away, but, not, this, time, i, think, son, has, more, than, filled, that, gap, had, bad, news, on, wednesday, partner, s, van, failed, its, mot, no, transport, no, money, for, a, new, motor, mild, panic, slight, depression, then, the, gradual, return, to, my, it, will, all, work, out, somehow, attitude, and, it, did, partner, s, mum, and, dad, helped, us, out, and, i, had, to, relinquish, my, little, buy, a, new, trailer, fund, had, a, disaster, on, sunday, morning, caesarean, on, an, uncooperative, cow, she, got, up, halfway, through, the, op, and, pushed, her, rumen, out, onto, the, very, dirty, floor, and, she, started, to, haemorrhage, she, died, four, hours, later, they, ended, up, with, an, exceptional, bull, calf, but, a, dead, pedigree, belgian, blue, cow, i, hate, when, things, die, on, restocked, farms, i, think, they, were, quite, philosophical, about, it, but, i, went, over, and, over, the, whole, thing, in, my, head, b, just, said, if, they’re, going, to, die, it’s, best, they, die, soon, less, time, to, worry, and, everyone, gets, over, it, quicker, too, i, think, he, may, be, right, he’s, definitely, easier, to, talk, to, these, days, he’s, like, a, different, person, now, that, jan’s, left, diary, 36, busy, week, testing, a, restocked, herd, monday, thursday, which, had, travelled, all, of, 5, miles, to, their, new, home, a, bit, of, a, waste, of, time, but, it, was, a, nice, day, to, be, out, really, good, turnout, at, the, village, bonfire, it’s, a, new, tradition, started, in, 2001, and, it, was, the, first, village, get, together, after, fmd, at, the, end, of, the, week, i, headed, south, to, cheshire, and, the, salisbury, plain, with, my, friend, ann, and, her, horse, to, compete, in, the, marathon, what, an, awful, journey, we, had, the, rain, poured, the, traffic, crawled, i’m, glad, i, don’t, have, to, use, the, m6, on, a, daily, basis, i, really, enjoyed, my, weekend, away, but, we, had, to, pull, the, horse, out, at, the, half, way, point, she, was, so, hyped, that, we, couldn’t, get, her, heart, rate, down, so, she, wasn’t, allowed, to, continue, i, felt, really, disappointed, i, was, sure, that, she, had, a, good, chance, well, she, would, have, if, they, had, a, vet, check, halfway, through, diary, 37, a, bit, of, an, anticlimax, this, week, after, all, the, build, up, to, the, marathon, it, would, have, been, so, different, if, she’d, completed, the, course, we, had, a, better, journey, north, except, for, a, puncture, not, handy, when, you, have, a, horse, trailer, on, i, drove, most, of, the, way, back, to, ann’s, saw, all, her, horses, and, then, drove, home, another, 2, hours, oh, i, was, so, pleased, to, get, home, it, was, a, good, experience, though, i, don’t, think, either, of, us, would, trail, a, horse, all, the, way, to, salisbury, plain, for, a, two, hour, race, again, there, were, fmd, cases, near, ann, in, cheshire, that, didn’t, seem, to, catch, hold, like, they, did, in, cumbria, maybe, its, because, there, are, bigger, farms, and, more, arable, land, i, went, to, see, her, in, july, 2001, and, she, pointed, out, various, fields, that, had, been, cleared, of, stock, half, of, them, didn’t, even, have, gates, on, there, was, no, disinfectant, or, precautions, visible, and, it, was, really, starting, to, wipe, out, our, practice, at, home, it, was, unbelievable, we, were, sitting, in, cumbria, thinking, that, agriculture, was, doomed, and, everything, in, cheshire, was, carrying, on, as, normal, it, was, a, rude, awakening, for, me, diary, 38, more, tb, testing, all, day, job, testing, stock, that, wouldn’t, normally, be, tested, but, they’re, restocked, they, have, come, from, cheshire, though, so, that, does, increase, the, risk, had, a, shocking, migraine, all, day, wednesday, went, to, bed, as, soon, as, i’d, dropped, son, off, at, biggins, and, didn’t, wake, up, until, 5pm, 2, hours, after, i, should, have, collected, him, and, i, still, felt, awful, it, was, terrible, driving, in, the, dark, and, i, had, to, stop, three, times, on, the, way, home, i, went, back, to, bed, until, 9pm, and, then, was, fine, i, haven’t, had, a, migraine, for, ages, i, was, back, on, top, form, the, next, day, though, we, did, the, tb, readings, on, 172, cattle, before, lunch, cooking, with, gas, diary, 39, fed, up, with, all, this, testing, and, we, may, be, doing, this, for, the, next, 4, 5, months, sick, of, new, vet, moaning, at, work, i, don’t, know, what, it, would, take, to, make, her, happy, i, think, this, week, has, nearly, all, been, a, waste, of, time, i, haven’t, made, best, use, of, my, free, time, and, i, haven’t, been, on, top, of, my, job, at, work, diary, 40, i, was, dreading, this, week, because, there, were, so, many, things, to, do, i, think, i, avoid, adding, extra, to, my, schedule, but, this, week, i, had, 3, days, away, and, a, night, out, to, cope, with, i, really, don’t, like, the, thought, of, shopping, but, managed, to, do, some, christmas, present, locating, on, friday, spent, wednesday, with, b, which, was, better, than, i, expected, on, a, national, scrapie, plan, training, day, which, was, worse, than, i, expected, bloody, defra, they, don’t, have, to, do, or, say, much, to, raise, my, hackles, here, we, are, selecting, for, a, resistant, genotype, and, they, are, spending, all, their, time, injecting, bse, into, sheep’s, brains, to, challenge, them, how, would, that, ever, happen, naturally, nearly, missed, my, night, out, because, of, work, it, was, 10, pm, before, i, got, there, but, at, least, i, didn’t, miss, the, dancing, it, turned, into, a, really, good, night, nearly, everyone, from, work, was, there, and, j, the, ex, receptionist, we, always, have, a, good, laugh, ended, up, working, most, of, the, morning, don’t, know, if, w, was, hung, over, or, just, idle, but, he’ll, have, to, pay, me, for, the, hours, i, don’t, work, extra, out, of, the, goodness, of, my, heart, now, i, have, all, my, own, overheads, to, fund, new, vet, s, the, star, for, avoiding, extra, or, dirty, work, then, it, usually, falls, to, me, she, says, she, wants, more, large, animal, work, and, then, does, her, best, to, avoid, it, diary, 41, tired, this, week, son, came, back, from, mavis’s, full, of, cold, improved, a, bit, and, then, woke, up, screaming, on, tuesday, night, it, was, a, very, long, night, and, partner, wasn’t, even, here, t, enjoy, share, it, as, he’d, left, to, fly, to, tampa, at, 5am, that, morning, god, i, don’t, fancy, being, a, single, mum, he, soon, started, to, improve, after, 24hrs, on, antibiotics, ear, and, chest, infection, i’ve, never, seen, him, in, such, pain, of, course, he, was, nearly, better, by, the, time, partner, got, back, i, really, struggled, on, my, own, and, had, to, take, a, day, off, on, thursday, but, still, had, to, go, and, do, a, second, tb, test, otherwise, i, would, have, had, to, start, all, over, again, we, didn’t, have, time, to, test, them, twice, and, it’s, a, restocked, herd, so, we, had, to, do, them, all, it’s, really, hard, trying, to, do, the, best, for, everyone, diary, 42, pretty, good, week, until, the, weekend, had, a, good, night, out, for, tracey’s, birthday, and, i, was, really, chuffed, she, invited, son, too, he, was, well, behaved, too, nut, unfortunately, now, thinks, he, can, go, to, the, pub, so, we, have, to, go, out, to, meetings, to, avoid, a, tantrum, i, don’t, really, think, i, have, suffered, many, after, effects, from, fmd, except, a, lower, anger, threshold, and, a, loss, of, faith, in, the, powers, that, be, i’m, much, more, worried, about, some, of, our, client’s, mental, health, i, know, there, are, several, who, have, suffered, severe, depression, and, they, are, not, all, farmers, that, were, culled, out, the, sleepless, nights, were, back, with, a, vengeance, son, started, with, chickenpox, at, the, weekend, and, nobody, had, any, sleep, diary, 43, absolutely, shattered, somebody, else’s, chickenpox, is, nearly, as, bad, as, your, own, i, don’t, think, i, have, had, a, full, nights, sleep, for, over, a, fortnight, i, still, had, a, lovely, time, at, christmas, though, i, was, sure, that, partner, and, son, would, be, pleased, with, their, presents, son, suddenly, brightened, dup, on, christmas, eve, on, the, way, to, mam’s, and, never, broke, stride, after, that, he, was, son, top, form, i, was, so, tired, that, i, fell, asleep, on, saturday, evening, and, missed, the, village, hall, christmas, party, the, highlight, of, the, village, social, calendar, diary, 44, the, threat, of, tb, rears, its, ugly, head, maybe, tb, is, the, new, fmd, went, to, do, a, private, tb, test, for, a, farmer, who, has, restocked, and, passed, his, restocking, checks, unfortunately, he, bought, 3, heifers, in, november, and, the, original, farm, has, since, gone, down, with, tb, he, isolated, the, heifers, as, soon, as, he, heard, and, waited, for, defra, they, didn’t, come, so, we, did, i, hoped, for, the, best, and, expected, the, worst, one, of, the, heifers, reacted, i, didn’t, know, what, to, do, or, say, the, farmer’s, wife, was, really, upset, she, wished, they, hadn’t, gone, back, into, farming, b, the, boss, has, phoned, defra, that, morning, regarding, these, heifers, only, to, be, told, that, youngstock, don’t, pose, much, of, a, risk, they, don’t, seem, to, have, much, idea, at, all, and, don’t, have, a, clue, about, getting, on, with, the, job, they’ve, had, three, weeks, to, track, down, the, calves, out, of, the, cows, that, were, reactors, they, seem, to, let, us, down, just, when, we, need, them, most, oh, they, make, me, boil, and, we, are, going, to, have, to, cope, with, the, aftermath, again, diary, 45, felt, a, bit, flat, and, tired, this, week, the, test, i, had, this, week, was, hard, work, trying, to, catch, cows, in, cubicles, is, not, fun, we, were, all, covered, in, muck, at, the, end, of, it, and, the, second, day, was, worse, because, he, had, about, 14, to, rectal, after, the, test, wednesday, my, day, of, respite, was, taken, up, looking, after, tracey, in, bed, with, cold, she’s, really, down, still, and, i, can’t, seem, to, do, anything, to, make, her, feel, better, i, know, she’ll, come, out, of, it, eventually, but, it’s, hard, not, being, able, to, help, i, just, didn’t, feel, as, if, i, had, any, time, to, myself, this, week, and, i, really, missed, out, if, i, start, working, wednesdays, i’m, going, to, miss, it, every, week, i’ll, have, to, have, another, plan, it’s, a, bit, better, at, the, weekend, but, i, think, we, all, need, some, better, weather, and, i, miss, doing, stuff, with, the, horses, diary, 46, oh, i’m, mad, again, with, defra, i, had, to, go, back, to, the, herd, with, the, reactor, and, test, every, single, bovine, on, the, place, except, the, two, remaining, heifers, from, the, infected, herd, i, don’t, understand, why, they, can’t, just, take, out, those, heifers, too, the, poor, farmer, and, his, wife, will, be, on, tender, hooks, until, the, end, of, march, at, the, earliest, if, they, hadn’t, asked, for, a, private, test, goodness, knows, when, defra, would, have, got, there, while, i, was, testing, defra, phoned, the, farmers, wife, to, confirm, that, the, slaughtered, heifer, had, visible, lesions, so, that, puts, paid, to, the, theory, that, youngstock, weren’t, a, danger, hope, this, news, makes, them, get, a, finger, out, had, a, lovely, day, with, mam, and, son, on, tuesday, we, sat, and, talked, for, over, an, hour, in, the, car, park, everything, tested, clear, at, the, check, test, so, far, so, good, bad, day, on, thursday, the, behaviour, course, i, was, enrolled, on, has, been, cancelled, no, explanation, just, a, cheque, returned, to, the, practice, with, a, wee, note, i, was, so, disappointed, even, though, it, was, going, to, be, a, lot, of, extra, work, over, the, next, 10, months, and, extra, hassle, and, extra, childminding, i, think, i, could, have, coped, then, at, lunchtime, i, bent, my, car, door, after, stopping, to, help, somebody, stuck, on, an, icy, patch, i, haven’t, got, all, the, bits, sorted, that, were, knackered, by, fmd, disinfecting, yet, and, there’s, more, repairs, and, i, have, to, pay, for, it, myself, now, that, i, don’t, have, a, practice, car, i, was, well, fed, up, dairy, 47, busy, week, tb, testing, again, started, working, odd, wednesdays, this, week, so, spent, all, day, wednesday, up, the, back, end, of, suckler, cows, very, dangerous, taking, bloods, for, brucellosis, and, then, blood, sampling, swaledales, for, scrapie, testing, we, have, so, many, tests, still, to, do, but, not, many, dreadfully, out, of, date, and, i, think, we’ve, done, quite, a, lot, of, the, restocking, tests, but, its, all, quite, mind, numbing, stuff, not, much, clinical, acumen, required, for, getting, blood, out, of, cows, just, quick, reactions, to, dodge, shit, and, flying, feet, very, late, finished, monday, by, the, time, i, had, all, my, paperwork, done, a, a, college, friend, landed, tuesday, en, route, to, leeds, for, a, herd, health, meeting, 6, hours, driving, for, a, meeting, we, talked, a, bit, about, fmd, she, worked, as, a, tvi, towards, the, end, of, the, outbreak, they, have, a, lot, more, trouble, with, tb, up, in, aberdeenshire, once, it, gets, into, a, herd, they, struggle, to, get, rid, of, it, again, i, hope, it, doesn’t, get, to, be, a, huge, problem, round, here, collected, a, fair, few, bruises, on, thursday, pregnant, heifers, to, dehorn, they, should, have, been, done, in, 2001, but, of, course, the, routine, work, was, put, off, i, don’t, know, what, the, excuse, was, leaving, them, al, through, 2002, but, they, were, massive, anyway, it, saved, me, going, to, the, gym, on, wednesday, night, diary, 48, i, have, just, handed, in, the, latest, batch, of, diaries, and, started, a, new, session, i, have, been, thinking, that, f, m, doesn’t, really, affect, me, much, anymore, our, work, has, changed, because, of, the, restocking, that, has, taken, place, since, with, all, the, new, disease, problems, that, have, been, bought, in, as, additional, extras, and, the, extra, tb, testing, etc, but, mentally, i, am, not, aware, of, even, thinking, about, the, events, of, 2001, that, often, i, still, feel, upset, if, someone, tells, me, about, their, own, particular, experiences, which, are, often, heart, rending, but, probably, no, more, than, if, they, were, discussing, another, devastating, disease, problem, i, still, have, little, tolerance, for, the, workings, of, defra, even, though, they, are, providing, us, with, lots, of, bread, and, butter, work, diary, 51, i’m, sick, of, doing, caesareans, on, cows, who, encouraged, all, the, bloody, beef, farmers, to, restock, with, belgian, blues, i’m, not, sure, that, we, should, be, continuing, to, allow, animals, to, breed, that, can’t, reproduce, naturally, it, doesn’t, seem, right, that, we, should, almost, expect, a, caesarean, the, day, that, a, new, cow, is, put, in, calf, we, used, to, have, occasional, troubles, before, and, not, all, caesareans, are, on, belgian, blues, but, now, we, do, at, least, one, caesarean, every, week, b, did, two, in, one, day, and, they, are, bloody, hard, work, diary, 52, i, always, think, of, the, 23rd, feb, as, being, the, day, that, i, realised, we, might, be, in, the, shit, in, 2001, it, wouldn’t, have, passed, unnoticed, round, here, several, people, mentioned, the, date, in, the, following, week, yet, it, wasn’t, until, the, 4th, april, that, f, m, came, into, our, practice, loads, of, our, farmers, lost, a, lot, of, seep, early, on, though, because, they, were, wintering, away, on, dairy, farms, further, down, the, eden, valley, this, used, to, just, involve, the, hoggs, but, now, they, are, encouraged, to, leave, the, fells, almost, empty, and, are, paid, to, remove, even, pregnant, ewes, to, lower, ground, it, seems, ludicrous, that, on, certain, farms, the, fell, sheep, only, spend, summertime, on, the, fells, the, rest, of, the, time, they, are, in, bye, land, for, tupping, or, lambing, and, then, are, wintered, in, sheep, sheds, or, on, dairy, farms, sometimes, quite, far, away, from, home, i, did, get, quite, upset, when, i, read, the, stories, in, the, book, this, time, i, think, i, had, more, empathy, for, the, tourism, businesses, affected, they, must, have, been, so, frustrated, and, probably, ended, up, much, worse, off, that, the, affected, farmers, in, our, area, the, farmers, who, survived, are, the, ones, in, general, who, are, struggling, for, survival, now, and, their, farms, have, had, no, capital, investment, at, all, in, fact, some, of, the, survivors, are, still, very, bitter, about, the, whole, episode, its, so, sad, what, this, has, done, to, some, people, diary, 55, check, tb, test, at, campbells, went, well, finished, in, good, time, running, into, trouble, because, the, other, cows, taken, in, for, winter, are, calving, and, they, have, no, room, however, they, have, found, someone, to, take, and, slaughter, all, the, big, bullocks, they, are, going, to, be, moved, under, licence, direct, to, a, slaughter, house, so, at, least, they, will, have, some, income, the, first, this, year, everything, tested, clear, including, the, 2, heifers, brought, in, from, the, farm, that, had, the, reactor, so, they, are, feeling, a, little, bit, more, confident, diary, 56, bloody, defra, cocked, up, again, with, c’s, test, had, to, go, back, to, test, 11, baby, calves, how, cruel, had, to, go, back, to, h’s, as, well, to, test, one, inconclusive, reactor, all, of, them, were, ok, diary, 60, i, think, the, lambing, time, rush, is, settling, down, again, of, course, there, aren’t, quite, as, many, fell, sheep, about, as, usual, and, probably, won’t, be, again, if, the, payments, are, de, coupled, numbers, won’t, be, as, profitable, as, acres]
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1964, gender, f, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, week, beginning, 4th, march, 02, monday, 4th, march, we, decided, we, now, need, more, staff, a, new, vet, and, a, part, time, receptionist, this, could, take, us, back, up, to, our, previous, staffing, level, pre, fm, bar, a, vet, but, this, was, probably, going, to, be, all, the, recruitments, we, would, make, this, year, it’s, a, good, sign, as, things, begin, to, get, back, to, normal, work, is, increasing, quite, a, lot, now, most, of, our, farmers, have, restocked, although, a, lot, of, them, and, us, are, still, concerned, about, the, future, tuesday, 5th, march, a, difficult, day, today, with, licences, two, of, our, farmers, needed, sole, occupancy, authentitys, soa, and, there, were, queries, with, their, land, unless, some, of, their, fields, could, be, redefined, they, were, worried, their, stock, would, suffer, during, the, fm, these, worries, have, shown, how, much, they, care, about, their, stock, and, find, it, very, frustrating, when, they, don’t, understand, why, we, can’t, move, them, even, to, the, point, of, anger, and, tears, by, the, end, of, the, day, thankfully, they, were, resolved, with, compromise, on, both, sides, and, a, lot, of, phone, calls, wednesday, 6th, march, i, decided, to, sort, out, all, the, paperwork, and, guidelines, we, had, received, from, defra, over, the, past, twelve, months, it, was, quite, a, pile, it, was, interesting, looking, back, and, very, sad, it, makes, you, realise, just, how, deep, the, feelings, went, and, although, it, sounds, silly, it’s, surprising, how, quickly, those, feelings, can, return, over, the, smallest, things, anyway, having, done, that, it, did, feel, good, to, box, them, up, and, put, them, away, we, got, taken, out, for, lunch, with, our, ptizer, rep, and, it, was, nice, just, to, talk, about, usual, things, drug, competition, how, much, we, were, going, to, sell, thursday, 7th, march, very, busy, day, everyone, has, been, flat, out, all, day, started, at, 7am, this, morning, got, finished, sort, of, by, 7.30pm, very, tired, hope, we, get, a, new, vet, soon, we, also, had, a, suspect, bse, case, today, informed, defra, more, problems, with, soa, but, we, got, them, started, one, bit, of, good, news, i, managed, to, get, a, new, receptionist, for, 2, days, a, week, so, i, just, need, one, for, the, other, 3, friday, 8th, march, quite, a, good, day, no, major, hassles, today, and, still, getting, busier, had, a, staff, meeting, to, arrange, an, open, day, for, national, pet, week, in, may, and, sorted, out, a, few, other, bits, and, bobs, had, a, good, chat, with, the, staff, who, have, all, been, very, busy, this, week, and, decided, that, it, is, much, better, to, this, time, last, year, when, we, were, all, very, depressed, emotionally, drained, laying, off, staff, uncertain, of, the, future, at, least, now, we, are, doing, what, we, are, meant, to, do, saturday, 9th, march, went, shopping, first, thing, with, k, had, a, good, time, even, though, i’m, not, a, good, shopper, we, went, to, the, farmers, market, i, saw, heather, who, works, at, the, auction, and, she, said, it, had, been, quite, emotional, having, sales, again, and, the, hustle, and, bustle, but, they, were, all, happy, to, see, people, they, hadn’t, seen, for, sometime, met, my, mum, in, the, afternoon, in, the, snow, at, killington, lake, it, was, good, and, the, driving, was, interesting, sunday, 10th, march, mothers, day, husband, and, daughter, were, out, for, the, day, so, i, had, a, lovely, peaceful, day, doing, not, a, lot, daughter, got, me, a, funny, card, and, a, little, hedgehog, model, for, my, collection, in, the, evening, i, collected, a, vet, student, from, london, who, is, staying, with, us, for, 3, weeks, so, we, will, have, to, behave, she, seems, nice, and, settled, into, our, mad, house, easily, mr, w, called, in, to, let, us, know, his, cows, had, arrived, safely, week, beginning, 11th, march, 02, monday, 11th, march, what, a, busy, day, but, a, total, change, to, this, time, last, year, it, was, the, day, our, first, client, was, confirmed, with, f, m, i, helped, another, vet, do, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, that, was, fun, they, are, farmers, that, have, moved, farm, and, restocked, very, positive, one, of, our, new, receptionists, started, but, i, didn’t, get, much, chance, to, see, her, due, to, the, caesar, barbara, looked, after, her, well, and, she, seemed, to, enjoy, it, there, were, lots, of, calls, in, just, like, the, old, days, but, we, really, need, another, vet, the, adverts, in, on, thursday, so, fingers, crossed, tuesday, another, busy, day, and, another, caesar, the, calf, was, dead, unfortunately, the, cow, with, query, bse, was, taken, away, for, tests, which, was, sad, my, highlight, of, my, day, was, the, farm, across, from, us, turned, some, of, his, cows, out, again, i, call, it, my, kitchen, window, view, normally, i, can, see, sheep, in, the, fields, at, the, back, and, the, cows, across, the, road, the, sheep, came, back, a, couple, of, months, ago, and, the, cows, but, i, haven’t, actually, been, able, to, see, them, so, it, was, very, special, never, really, stopped, today, and, we, did, dog, training, classes, at, night, so, i, collected, daughter, from, her, yfc, meeting, and, got, fish, and, chips, and, we, all, went, to, bed, our, poor, vet, student, who, is, staying, with, us, is, exhausted, she’s, been, able, to, see, and, do, so, much, wednesday, today, was, a, little, more, controlled, and, went, more, according, to, plan, but, was, still, a, long, day, as, we, had, a, dog, in, about, 6.30pm, that, had, eaten, a, ball, and, hadn’t, passed, it, so, we, had, to, operate, to, remove, it, anyway, finished, at, 9.00pm, had, tea, and, went, to, bed, daughter, heard, she, had, got, 2, weeks, work, experience, at, norbrook, pharmaceutical, so, very, pleased, about, that, thursday, had, the, morning, off, the, last, few, days, had, been, rather, hectic, a, girl, who, had, done, work, experience, with, us, a, couple, of, years, ago, called, round, out, of, the, blue, she, was, still, keen, to, train, as, a, vet, nurse, and, wanted, to, write, to, the, practices, in, the, area, and, needed, advice, anyway, i, told, her, about, our, vacancy, here, and, well, the, long, and, the, short, is, she, starts, on, the, 2nd, april, receptionist, staff, now, sorted, just, need, a, vet, i, wish, it, was, as, easy, friday, husband, was, reading, a, tt, test, at, a, farm, and, found, a, reactor, pre, f, m, cumbria, was, tb, free, but, with, all, the, new, stock, coming, into, the, area, it, is, inevitable, that, this, will, not, be, the, case, there, have, already, been, two, other, cases, in, the, county, i, dropped, off, the, isolation, notice, to, the, farmer, and, as, they, are, he, seemed, okay, and, still, very, positive, i, have, always, admired, them, for, their, courage, and, stamina, as, he, said, they, love, farming, and, you, have, to, expect, things, like, this, managed, to, spend, the, afternoon, with, one, of, our, new, receptionists, she, is, doing, really, well, and, settling, in, time, she, will, grasp, it, all, in, no, time, saturday, ran, daughter, and, her, friend, into, town, and, sorted, out, the, garage, that, was, an, achievement, the, dog, that, swallowed, the, ball, wasn’t, eating, so, i, went, to, get, it, something, tasty, it’s, going, home, later, so, it, should, be, a, lot, happier, daughter, s, still, in, town, so, i, took, vet, student, to, see, hadrian’s, wall, she’s, from, america, so, was, very, keen, to, see, it, she, really, enjoyed, it, and, so, did, i, i, hadn’t, been, for, a, couple, of, years, just, had, a, nice, quiet, evening, in, sunday, my, sister, and, her, daughter, came, for, the, day, my, niece, is, two, and, a, half, years, so, need, i, say, more, we, were, busy, playing, all, day, week, beginning, monday, 18th, march, 02, monday, 18th, march, it's, looking, fairly, quiet, at, work, this, week, but, you, never, know, mr, w, farmer, came, in, he, was, letting, us, know, his, restocking, plans, and, was, one, of, the, farmers, querying, his, compensation, i, never, liked, that, as, they, were, compulsory, purchased, and, have, not, received, any, compensation, as, such, although, some, got, better, money, than, others, so, maybe, it, was, all, taken, into, account, anyway, he, missed, the, query, deadline, by, two, hours, so, defra, are, refusing, to, look, at, his, case, as, he, does, appear, to, have, lost, out, as, his, brother, with, the, same, breeding, of, cows, and, related, went, down, on, the, same, down, got, an, average, 300, more, per, cow, anyway, we, tried, to, look, to, the, future, and, he, was, looking, forward, to, getting, stock, back, we, had, another, tb, reactor, today, in, some, french, cattle, me, and, our, receptionist, were, chatting, and, decided, things, were, really, getting, back, to, normal, although, with, the, added, paperwork, daughter, was, very, upset, when, she, came, home, from, school, as, she, had, been, getting, bullied, by, a, girl, in, her, year, so, we, chatted, about, that, and, i, wrote, to, her, teacher, to, see, if, she, could, find, out, more, tuesday, daughter, went, to, school, fairly, happy, i, just, told, her, to, hand, her, letter, in, and, try, and, avoid, the, girl, i, was, going, milk, recording, tonight, which, i, really, enjoy, it's, great, to, be, among, the, animals, and, talk, to, the, farmers, we, only, have, one, farmer, milk, recording, fully, at, present, there, were, 12, the, farm, i, went, to, is, a, big, dairy, herd, and, is, now, looking, to, expanding, so, that, was, good, news, bad, news, is, that, means, i'll, have, to, get, up, earlier, in, the, mornings, for, the, recording, never, mind, daughter, had, got, on, okay, at, school, and, the, teacher, was, really, good, with, her, so, she's, feeling, happier, she, is, a, good, kid, and, although, hormonal, at, times, she, does, put, up, with, a, lot, during, the, fmd, we, were, unable, to, really, go, anywhere, or, do, anything, although, we, did, try, to, keep, her, routine, we, worked, longer, hours, and, were, more, stressed, but, she, never, complained, and, helped, a, lot, went, dog, training, after, milk, recording, so, it, was, a, long, day, wednesday, early, morning, start, today, 5am, to, go, milk, recording, but, i, always, get, a, lovely, breakfast, we, also, got, invited, to, a, party, at, the, farm, in, may, so, that's, something, to, look, forward, to, and, its, fancy, dress, so, that, will, be, fun, we, have, to, dress, up, as, children's, characters, we, then, attended, a, careers, convention, at, the, sands, centre, until, 7, pm, so, another, very, long, day, very, tired, we, saw, a, lot, of, children, who, were, interested, in, pursuing, veterinary, work, which, is, always, encouraging, i, enjoy, doing, the, careers, days, it's, interesting, to, see, the, next, workforce, they, seem, to, grow, up, so, fast, thursday, my, claim, to, fame, today, was, seeing, the, princess, royal, i, passed, her, at, a, junction, and, thought, i, was, seeing, things, i, bored, everyone, with, that, story, we, had, a, lovely, staff, lunch, meeting, we, all, helped, cook, and, sat, and, chatted, about, the, future, we, had, no, replies, from, the, advert, for, a, vet, so, we, decided, to, try, another, veterinary, magazine, so, fingers, crossed, in, the, afternoon, i, managed, to, get, very, well, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, which, is, a, rarity, as, i, normally, end, up, going, somewhere, or, sorting, something, out, so, i, was, very, pleased, especially, as, the, year, end, is, approaching, friday, discussed, a, few, ideas, with, our, nurse, regarding, the, small, animal, side, and, the, possibility, of, getting, some, new, equipment, i, shall, have, to, do, some, adding, up, husband, was, at, a, vet, meeting, locally, for, all, the, vets, in, the, area, on, thursday, night, and, there, were, 3, other, practices, looking, for, vets, and, had, been, doing, for, some, time, without, any, luck, at, all, this, is, worrying, as, our, case, loads, increase, again, it, puts, a, strain, on, the, vets, so, fingers, crossed, our, advert, is, in, tomorrow, in, the, afternoon, i, called, to, see, one, of, our, evening, receptionist, who, is, on, maternity, leave, at, present, it, was, good, to, see, her, and, her, new, addition, so, i, was, filling, her, in, on, the, news, and, gossip, hopefully, she, will, be, back, to, work, the, second, week, in, april, although, the, birth, was, a, caesarean, so, i, have, told, her, to, see, how, she, is, feeling, so, we, will, discuss, it, again, soon, as, this, is, her, fourth, child, but, she, copes, really, well, and, is, looking, really, healthy, saturday, it, snowed, i, went, to, meet, my, mum, at, killington, as, we, were, having, her, dog, while, she, went, on, holiday, and, nearly, got, stuck, in, the, snow, during, foot, and, mouth, daughter, had, counted, the, stock, in, the, field, between, carlisle, and, penrith, on, the, m6, anyway, i, did, it, again, today, last, year, we, counted, 2, this, year, we, counted, 12, big, difference, sunday, went, for, a, walk, around, a, local, wood, for, the, first, time, in, over, a, year, it, was, amazing, how, overgrown, it, had, become, the, paths, were, still, visible, but, in, places, only, just, met, up, with, a, friend's, daughter, to, finalise, arrangements, for, her, father's, surprise, meal, out, next, friday, for, his, 50th, birthday, week, beginning, monday, 25th, march, 02, monday, 25th, march, another, very, busy, day, today, still, no, answer, to, the, advert, for, a, new, vet, husband, spoke, to, another, vet, in, the, area, and, they, had, had, the, same, response, nothing, it, is, good, to, be, busy, again, our, new, receptionist, is, doing, well, and, learning, fast, so, that's, taking, the, pressure, off, me, and, other, receptioinist, completed, the, claim, form, for, business, link, grant, which, helped, a, lot, and, enabled, us, to, do, things, and, advertise, when, we, wouldn't, have, been, able, to, tuesday, starting, to, prepare, for, the, end, of, our, financial, year, i, always, dread, this, but, it, has, to, be, done, it, will, be, nice, to, end, another, chapter, the, practice, suffered, badly, last, year, and, it, was, very, worrying, we, lost, 3, vets, and, two, lay, staff, but, everyone, is, feeling, the, same, i, have, spoken, to, a, few, farmers, today, and, the, opinion, is, well, it, is, a, lot, better, than, this, time, last, year, it, has, been, interesting, to, see, how, the, effect, of, having, new, stock, does, throw, them, we, are, getting, called, out, a, lot, more, which, is, good, for, us, we, are, doing, a, lot, more, lambings, and, lambing, is, set, to, go, on, until, may, june, time, this, year, we, are, very, busy, testing, at, the, moment, but, it, gives, us, the, opportunity, to, see, the, new, animals, and, discuss, plans, with, the, farmers, the, relationship, which, was, built, during, the, f, m, is, now, definitely, benefiting, a, lot, have, said, how, helpful, it, was, and, feel, a, lot, closer, the, family, not, business, relationship, is, good, wednesday, i, had, a, day, off, today, which, was, good, i, managed, to, catch, up, on, a, few, things, which, i, just, hadn't, had, time, to, do, with, being, so, busy, i, got, a, lot, organised, for, the, holiday, at, the, week, end, which, we, are, all, looking, forward, to, but, we, can't, all, get, away, together, mainly, due, to, no, new, vet, and, our, financial, year, but, at, least, we, will, all, get, a, bit, of, a, break, daughter, got, her, report, today, and, has, done, very, well, we, are, so, proud, of, her, so, fingers, crossed, for, her, gcses, thursday, i, spoke, to, mrs, w, today, who, has, been, very, much, in, action, since, they, got, f, m, and, even, got, in, touch, with, politician, etc, to, help, give, farmers, that, voice, she, mentioned, the, public, inquiry, and, like, a, lot, of, people, feels, that, maybe, rather, than, having, a, finger, pointing, blaming, session, and, we, all, have, our, ideas, on, that, she, felt, that, maybe, trying, to, prevent, it, happening, again, would, be, a, better, idea, i, personally, have, begun, to, realize, recently, just, how, much, and, how, deep, the, feelings, run, i, think, i, am, more, emotional, now, than, when, we, were, in, the, thick, of, it, friday, spent, all, day, knuckling, down, to, the, end, of, year, but, got, a, lot, done, husband, daughter, and, vet, student, went, out, for, the, day, it, is, husband, s, first, real, day, off, since, october, and, it, did, him, good, we, all, went, out, in, the, evening, to, celebrate, a, friend's, birthday, it, was, really, good, saturday, holiday, again, today, husband, daughter, my, sister, and, her, daughter, have, gone, away, today, to, the, cottage, near, newton, stewart, we, have, rented, for, a, week, the, weather, is, great, so, they, should, have, a, lovely, time, this, could, be, our, only, holiday, this, year, husband, s, back, on, monday, then, i, go, on, wednesday, confusing, isn't, it, never, mind, at, least, we, will, all, get, away, for, a, few, days, sunday, end, of, year, day, stocktaking, counting, sunny, outside, boring, but, never, mind, it's, done, our, vet, student, went, home, today, she, had, really, enjoyed, herself, and, we, had, enjoyed, having, her, she, bought, us, all, some, lovely, gifts, it, will, be, nice, to, be, on, our, own, again, but, i, will, still, miss, her, week, beginning, monday, 1st, april, 02, monday, 1st, april, i, had, a, lovely, day, my, day, husband, and, daughter, still, away, played, in, the, garden, went, for, a, walk, read, some, of, my, book, lovely, husband, came, back, at, tea, time, so, we, went, out, for, a, meal, perfect, tuesday, went, to, help, another, vet, vet, tt, test, at, one, of, our, farms, he, had, restocked, and, was, very, positive, about, the, future, it, was, a, lovely, day, and, great, to, be, amongst, cows, again, wednesday, sunday, hols, great, i, didn't, realise, just, how, much, i, needed, it, the, weather, was, great, warm, sunny, very, relaxing, all, charged, up, again, week, beginning, monday, 8th, april, 02, monday, 8th, april, back, to, work, today, i, had, quite, a, lot, of, catching, up, to, do, and, couldn't, really, get, into, it, never, mind, it, will, all, still, be, there, tomorrow, hope, we, can, get, away, again, this, year, even, for, a, few, days, tuesday, queen, mum's, funeral, today, it, was, very, quiet, we, gave, the, girls, time, off, to, watch, the, funeral, it, was, a, nice, funeral, if, you, can, have, one, and, they, commented, on, the, poem, which, was, read, about, being, thankful, for, the, life, and, not, being, sorry, i, must, get, it, our, nurse, suggested, about, giving, it, to, clients, when, they, have, their, pets, put, to, sleep, nice, idea, wednesday, back, into, it, now, i, had, 2, very, difficult, soa, to, complete, farmers, are, slowly, getting, the, idea, but, find, all, the, paperwork, hard, but, it's, a, good, chance, for, them, to, call, in, for, a, chat, and, coffee, i, so, seem, to, spend, an, awful, lot, of, time, doing, that, now, but, it's, always, good, to, see, how, they, are, coping, thursday, the, large, animal, work, has, been, rapidly, increasing, and, it, has, been, putting, extra, pressure, on, all, the, staff, we, do, really, need, another, vet, but, another, advert, and, still, no, response, at, all, but, they, all, work, very, hard, and, we, do, manage, to, get, through, the, work, we, chatted, to, the, staff, and, tried, to, reassure, them, about, the, future, but, how, can, you, when, if, we, can't, get, another, vet, we, simply, can't, provide, the, service, our, clients, need, it, is, very, worrying, and, we, are, not, sure, of, the, solution, or, the, future, i, think, after, that, paragraph, i, need, a, we, can, do, it, kick, friday, our, new, receptionists, are, settling, in, well, and, i, did, some, work, with, them, today, which, was, good, they, are, both, very, enthusiastic, a, few, years, ago, a, i, taught, nvq, in, animal, care, so, one, of, our, receptionists, is, keen, to, do, this, so, i, organised, some, work, for, her, to, do, enjoyed, that, castrated, a, colt, in, the, afternoon, sad, i, know, but, i, enjoyed, that, saturday, went, shopping, with, daughter, in, the, morning, to, buy, her, some, new, clothes, we, had, a, good, time, then, started, the, sewing, for, the, yfc, field, day, we, had, to, make, shorts, and, t, shirt, for, a, sport, event, well, i, haven't, really, done, sewing, from, a, pattern, for, years, so, let's, just, say, it, was, fun, sunday, went, to, newcastle, for, the, day, via, some, fields, we, had, to, check, for, a, client's, soa, had, a, lovely, time, and, saw, the, blinking, or, winking, i'm, not, sure, which, one, it, is, it, was, nice, to, have, a, day, all, together, week, beginning, monday, 15th, april, 02, monday, 15th, april, very, busy, again, i, did, 175, miles, today, just, dropping, things, off, for, farmers, and, vets, and, trips, to, the, lab, i, also, found, a, new, supplier, of, paper, towels, which, will, save, us, a, lot, of, money, see, so, easy, pleased, it, was, very, tiring, but, i, do, like, being, out, and, about, and, i, even, managed, two, cups, of, coffee, on, farms, before, fmd, i, felt, that, the, relationship, between, vets, and, farmers, was, changing, but, our, relationship, during, fmd, did, change, for, the, better, i, feel, good, about, that, but, not, the, way, it, happened, me, and, daughter, had, a, girls, night, in, as, husband, was, away, that, was, fun, tuesday, 16th, april, husband, away, at, bcva, he, is, new, on, the, committee, and, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, there, is, only, him, and, another, vet, in, scotland, from, the, north, invited, onto, the, committee, so, they, are, putting, together, some, suggestions, to, put, to, the, government, re, fmd, poor, another, vet, was, very, busy, again, we, need, a, vet, wednesday, 17th, april, i, went, to, see, an, elderly, client, of, ours, this, morning, who, has, an, old, dog, she, is, going, into, hospital, and, won't, go, as, she, is, worried, about, the, dog, i, offered, to, have, kelly, the, dog, while, she, was, in, hospital, and, told, her, if, i, found, out, she, cancelled, it, i, would, be, cross, i, enjoy, talking, to, her, for, her, 87, years, she, is, very, fit, and, funny, at, lunchtime, we, all, attacked, the, bayer, rep, for, free, goodies, for, our, open, day, he, was, very, co, operative, and, got, away, without, a, scratch, we, didn't, have, an, open, day, last, year, so, it, should, be, fun, back, into, a, routine, thursday, 18th, april, i, bottomed, my, paperwork, this, morning, no, interference, no, phone, calls, no, soa, very, productive, me, and, husband, went, to, see, the, finical, advisor, at, the, bank, in, the, afternoon, it, was, good, but, we, can't, retire, this, year, never, mind, he, gave, us, some, good, ideas, so, fingers, crossed, we, might, just, be, able, to, retire, one, day, friday, 19th, april, very, busy, we, need, a, vet, repetitive, isn't, it, we, were, looking, back, in, the, visit, book, to, this, time, last, year, this, year, we, had, 21, calls, which, is, a, practise, record, last, year, we, had, 1, there, is, a, lot, of, general, well, this, time, last, year, in, some, ways, it, all, seems, very, unbelievable, but, in, other, ways, it, still, very, sad, and, emotional, i, think, more, emotional, now, than, when, it, was, actually, happening, when, you, see, farmer’s, eyes, filling, up, talking, about, it, i, used, to, worry, about, upsetting, them, but, i, feel, it, is, good, to, talk, and, it, also, helps, me, i, don't, know, if, that’s, right, but, it, seems, to, work, saturday, 20th, and, sunday, 21st, april, huge, sewing, for, yfc, field, day, i, also, found, out, today, that, there, is, also, baking, and, flower, arranging, oh, joy, week, beginning, monday, 22nd, april, 02, monday, 22nd, april, good, day, today, i've, been, to, see, my, new, girls, the, cows, over, the, road, from, us, it, was, the, one, we, could, see, from, the, practice, it, was, an, awful, day, they, had, lasted, until, june, anyway, it, was, good, to, see, the, new, girls, and, i, think, i, amused, the, farmer, we, had, a, great, time, i've, never, enjoyed, helping, tt, test, more, on, a, high, tuesday, 23rd, april, driving, around, today, i've, been, trying, to, listen, to, what, the, euro, inquiry, people, have, been, up, to, not, a, lot, from, what, i, hear, i, was, talking, to, an, old, farmer, in, the, afternoon, and, he, wasn't, impressed, either, and, we, agreed, that, it, was, all, very, well, having, these, inquires, but, were, they, going, to, help, i, suppose, only, time, will, tell, but, i, still, feel, that, unless, something, is, done, about, the, cause, then, the, chances, are, it, will, happen, again, and, to, what, extent, and, what, has, been, learnt, and, what, will, be, different, next, time, because, the, one, thing, that, must, be, prevented, is, the, effects, on, people, nobody, really, got, that, i, always, remember, the, samaritans, advert, nobody, seemed, to, care, probably, no, paperwork, can, you, tell, i've, had, a, particularly, bad, day, with, the, soa, and, the, good, news, is, they, want, to, keep, them, permanently, great, wednesday, 24th, april, i, went, to, see, mrs, b, again, today, and, she, had, heard, from, the, hospital, again, she, was, going, in, next, tuesday, so, i, arranged, at, collect, k, on, monday, afternoon, i'm, pleased, she's, having, her, op, i, have, also, been, in, touch, with, one, of, her, daughters, in, devon, so, hopefully, everything, should, go, well, now, good, news, we, have, heard, of, a, vet, at, defra, who, is, looking, for, a, job, husband, phoned, her, and, she, is, coming, on, saturday, afternoon, so, fingers, crossed, thursday, 25th, april, my, cows, got, the, tt, reading, this, morning, and, they, are, all, okay, we, have, heard, of, a, farm, in, welton, who, had, to, have, some, killed, as, they, had, 7, reactors, and, they, will, need, tested, there, has, been, quite, a, few, reactors, in, the, country, after, restocking, but, with, all, the, new, stock, coming, into, the, county, from, all, over, the, country, it, was, bound, to, happen, friday, 26th, april, sorted, out, the, open, day, next, saturday, got, everything, sorted, what, we, need, who's, getting, it, etc, me, and, receptionist, went, to, smuts, fancy, dress, and, decided, budget, wouldn't, go, to, costumes, so, we, got, some, face, paint, and, masks, me, and, daughter, and, her, friend, and, mum, went, to, see, westlife, ant, newcastle, it, was, great, fun, saturday, 27th, april, shopping, washing, and, sewing, i, know, how, to, show, myself, a, good, time, we, all, went, to, another, vet, s, at, night, for, a, bbq, it, was, great, fun, cold, but, fun, we, have, been, so, lucky, with, another, vet, she, is, so, nice, and, enthusiastic, we, interviewed, a, vet, today, from, defra, but, she, is, a, little, uncertain, what, she, wants, to, do, but, she, seems, nice, and, we, told, her, what, we, needed, so, fingers, crossed, sunday, 28th, april, finished, my, sewing, week, beginning, monday, 29th, april, monday, the, inquiry, begins, for, what, good, it, will, do, i, find, i, have, very, mixed, feelings, part, of, me, thinks, what's, the, point, and, another, is, expecting, something, but, quite, what, i, don't, yet, someone, to, blame, a, solution, an, ability, to, turn, back, the, clock, a, lesson, to, learn, or, an, end, the, last, i, know, won't, happen, for, a, while, and, the, repercussion, will, probably, be, felt, for, a, few, years, yet, tuesday, 30th, april, sorry, ill, in, bed, today, with, the, cold, from, hell, wednesday, 1st, may, much, better, today, and, we, heard, from, the, vet, we, interviewed, on, saturday, and, she, has, accepted, our, offer, and, can, start, on, the, 27th, may, yippee, holidays, and, easing, of, the, pressure, on, husband, and, another, vet, i, am, still, finding, the, saying, well, this, time, last, year, mrs, r, phoned, and, mentioned, the, saying, as, it, was, a, year, ago, today, that, their, cattle, were, killed, but, she, was, phoning, with, good, news, they, had, their, first, calf, born, healthy, and, well, and, she, wanted, to, tell, us, lovely, thursday, 2nd, may, its, official, soa, are, here, to, stay, oh, joy, so, we, contacted, all, our, farmers, who, had, not, yet, got, one, who, we, thought, might, need, one, so, lots, of, chatting, and, catching, up, so, quite, nice, open, day, is, on, saturday, and, there, still, seems, to, be, an, awful, lot, to, organise, but, we, have, been, busy, all, day, and, things, are, looking, better, and, slightly, more, organised, i, haven't, seen, or, heard, much, of, this, enquiry, but, when, you, do, hear, some, i, think, we, really, went, through, that, weird, friday, 3rd, may, open, day, panic, that’s, all, i've, done, today, but, it, is, all, coming, together, and, it, will, be, fine, hopefully, we, have, had, quite, a, good, response, about, people, coming, and, people, checking, when, it, is, and, what's, happening, so, fingers, crossed, must, go, and, bake, my, buns, saturday, 4th, may, open, day, it, went, really, well, we, started, at, 2, p.m, and, there, was, a, steady, stream, of, people, all, enjoying, themselves, hopefully, it, stayed, fine, the, whole, time, thankfully, i, even, got, my, face, painted, by, another, vet, our, vet, we, managed, to, raise, 96.71, for, the, pat, dogs, and, 27.35, for, national, pet, week, not, too, bad, for, 2, hours, the, staff, came, round, for, tea, later, which, was, nice, and, we, had, a, jolly, time, sunday, 5th, may, gardened, all, day, till, i, dropped, loved, it, i, grew, quite, fond, of, the, garden, last, year, as, it, was, another, little, escape, week, beginning, monday, 6th, may, monday, 6th, may, bank, holiday, we, had, a, lovely, family, day, out, which, have, been, very, rare, so, it, was, surprising, that, we, all, got, on, nearly, it, still, feels, strange, being, able, to, go, to, places, not, only, as, a, family, but, also, the, fact, that, for, so, long, we, didn't, really, go, anywhere, tuesday, 7th, may, very, busy, i, have, been, doing, my, hollering, as, receptionist, calls, it, what, i, have, actually, been, doing, is, dropping, off, drugs, and, chatting, i, call, it, customer, relations, i, still, feel, funny, going, onto, farms, i, have, been, to, the, gate, for, months, just, momentarily, i, feel, can, i, its, hard, to, explain, it, still, feels, normal, to, drop, things, in, the, bucket, or, bin, rather, than, driving, onto, the, farm, but, its, good, and, the, coffee, with, proper, milk, is, brill, wednesday, 8th, may, mr, g, has, got, some, cows, he, was, one, we, thought, wouldn't, restock, as, although, both, his, sons, are, on, the, farm, neither, are, interested, in, cows, one, has, horses, and, the, other, has, everything, else, from, turkeys, dogs, wallabies, monkeys, pheasants, etc, a, real, menagerie, daddy, g, is, 66, and, couldn't, decide, weather, to, get, more, cows, or, not, it, was, a, bit, of, dad, says, yes, sons, say, no, anyway, dad, won, to, begin, with, i, was, on, the, sons, side, but, when, he, came, in, beaming, and, laughing, and, full, of, joy, how, could, you, disagree, with, him, before, they, got, fmd, he, had, called, into, the, practise, and, was, having, a, coffee, and, was, very, upset, his, friend, had, phoned, him, that, morning, to, say, he, had, fmd, mr, g, just, broke, down, and, sobbed, it, was, one, of, my, worst, experiences, i, found, it, so, hard, not, to, join, him, but, to, be, strong, and, console, him, for, him, of, the, old, gentlemen, showed, the, depth, of, feeling, and, despair, that, was, around, i, have, a, lump, now, remembering, it, anyway, in, comparison, if, getting, a, few, cows, to, milk, can, make, such, a, big, difference, and, be, so, happy, so, what, thursday, 9th, may, went, to, a, meeting, in, preston, with, cl, a, vet, from, brampton, on, the, marsh, report, which, is, regarding, vets, the, privilege, to, dispense, drugs, anyway, firstly, we, got, lost, very, lost, and, then, on, arriving, at, the, meeting, eventually, it, was, all, doom, gloom, and, depressing, just, when, you, thought, things, were, getting, on, tract, bam, more, changes, more, paperwork, we, will, have, to, wait, and, see, just, how, it, effects, us, but, effect, us, it, will, friday, 10th, may, i, had, a, half, day, off, today, and, did, fun, things, like, washing, shopping, and, sorting, bits, and, pieces, but, i, couldn't, be, a, housewife, all, the, time, i, ended, up, leaving, the, cooking, and, washing, and, took, the, dog, out, instead, much, more, fun, saturday, 11th, may, took, daughter, out, to, the, young, farmers, field, day, it, was, brill, i, was, only, going, to, stay, an, hour, anyway, i, stayed, all, day, everyone, was, there, some, i, hadn't, seen, for, ages, i, had, only, spoke, to, them, and, some, new, faces, it, was, great, to, see, them, all, together, i, do, feel, farmers, and, their, families, are, very, special, people, they, have, a, wonderful, sense, of, fun, they, are, very, solid, they, are, very, close, mind, when, you, talk, to, them, you, find, they, are, all, related, they, are, also, very, proud, of, what, they, do, its, sad, the, public, do, not, see, them, this, way, gone, are, the, days, when, the, farmer, was, the, hero, who, worked, all, hours, to, feed, the, nation, well, it, was, a, wonderful, day, week, beginning, monday, 13th, may, monday, very, busy, milk, recorded, this, afternoon, it, was, good, fun, they, are, preparing, for, their, party, on, saturday, night, it, is, a, fancy, dress, party, me, and, husband, are, going, but, i, can't, say, what, as, yet, j, mentioned, that, a, friend, of, theirs, was, still, not, speaking, to, them, because, j, never, lost, his, cows, and, yet, j, said, he, had, tries, to, explain, how, hard, it, was, for, them, waiting, his, friend, had, accepted, the, invite, to, the, party, so, here’s, hopefully, to, friendship, it, show's, how, feelings, can, so, easily, run, away, and, be, blown, into, something, very, silly, we, are, all, on, the, same, side, after, all, i, see, a, lot, of, changes, in, a, lot, of, people, either, bitterness, resentment, jealousy, and, emotionally, drained, in, the, whole, situation, tuesday, 14th, may, early, morning, milk, recording, got, my, outfit, sorted, for, the, fancy, dress, party, on, saturday, me, and, friend, went, to, try, it, on, it, was, good, fun, wednesday, 15th, may, i, have, done, tons, of, backwards, and, forwarding, today, so, i've, been, hearing, about, the, inquiry, a, bit, today, i, have, decided, i, am, going, to, the, one, in, carlisle, out, of, interest, and, curiosity, i, still, feel, what, is, it, all, for, so, i, may, find, out, at, the, meeting, i, am, still, waiting, for, the, day, fmd, is, not, mentioned, or, i, have, some, dealing, regarding, it, thursday, 16th, may, i, spoke, to, a, young, couple, who, farm, and, they, were, enquiring, about, the, changes, in, buying, drugs, it, caught, me, off, guard, as, we, knew, it, would, happen, but, not, when, i, arranged, to, meet, with, them, and, chat, to, see, what, they, wanted, and, i, think, i, will, go, from, there, people, are, farming, in, different, ways, than, they, used, to, pre, fmd, weather, it, is, a, result, of, fmd, or, not, i, don't, know, but, there, are, going, to, be, a, lot, of, changes, heading, our, way, friday, 17th, may, accountant, day, today, what, a, joy, no, he, is, brilliant, he, has, helped, so, much, over, the, years, and, last, year, he, was, brilliant, he, did, have, one, consolation, we, wouldn't, have, to, pay, too, much, tax, this, year, anyway, spoke, to, a, rep, in, the, afternoon, we, have, had, all, the, usual, offers, that, we, get, every, year, but, this, year, they, look, good, as, if, we, buy, more, this, year, than, last, year, we, can, get, more, off, that, should, be, easy, saturday, 18th, may, party, night, i, am, cruella, deville, and, husband, is, bob, the, builder, it, was, great, seeing, people, we, hadn't, seen, for, ages, if, and, when, you, could, recognise, them, it, was, a, really, good, do, we, met, a, client, of, ours, and, she, is, very, anti, everything, re, fmd, i, feel, she, is, really, suffering, and, very, bitter, she, was, little, bo, peep, who, had, lost, her, sheep, and, didn't, know, where, to, find, them, but, mr, blair, can, she, preached, all, night, to, anyone, she, could, i, feel, sorry, for, her, as, people, were, avoiding, her, sad, sunday, 19th, may, recovered, week, beginning, monday, 20th, may, 02, monday, a, new, cattle, fertility, programme, has, now, become, available, to, vets, and, farmers, two, of, the, people, who, work, came, along, to, see, us, and, discuss, the, advantages, we, already, had, a, few, farmers, keen, in, having, the, program, installed, we, discussed, the, program, later, with, a, few, farmers, and, they, were, very, keen, recognising, that, they, are, going, to, need, a, program, like, this, that, can, help, them, keep, a, tighter, control, on, their, herds, fertility, and, health, which, would, enable, them, to, remain, in, business, as, most, of, them, are, realising, they, are, now, running, a, company, not, a, family, concern, so, it’s, quite, exciting, another, step, forward, hopefully, tuesday, 21st, may, very, busy, today, everyone, stretched, it, will, make, life, so, much, easier, when, our, new, vet, anne, starts, next, week, i, got, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, and, also, managed, to, catch, up, on, some, others, bits, that, needed, done, even, got, all, the, soa, defra, paperwork, sorted, miracle, wednesday, 22nd, may, went, to, see, two, of, our, farmers, today, to, discuss, the, interherd, cattle, health, and, fertility, computer, program, it, was, good, to, chat, a, listen, to, their, plans, hopes, and, dreams, and, their, concerns, a, lot, of, farmers, are, still, very, unsure, of, the, future, and, quite, honestly, are, keeping, their, options, open, definitely, gave, me, some, pause, for, thought, and, a, few, concerns, thursday, 23rd, may, quiet, day, today, mr, w, one, of, our, farmers, came, today, and, we, had, a, chat, he, was, also, worried, about, the, future, i, hope, some, good, positive, news, comes, soon, friday, 24th, may, friend, is, having, a, few, weeks, off, as, our, new, vet, is, starting, on, monday, she, came, to, us, 6, months, 10, years, ago, and, she, has, helped, us, out, ever, since, and, so, during, fmd, she, offered, to, help, it, was, great, to, have, her, and, she, worked, all, hours, as, there, was, only, her, and, husband, for, 5, months, so, she, is, having, some, well, deserved, time, off, and, will, come, back, part, time, when, we, need, her, i'll, miss, her, but, she, says, she's, a, lot, of, housework, to, catch, up, on, saturday, 25th, and, sunday, 26th, may, my, sister, and, niece, came, to, stay, for, the, weekend, we, had, a, nice, time, just, pottering, here, and, there, week, beginning, monday, 27h, may, monday, new, vet, started, she, was, very, nervous, but, very, keen, she, had, spent, 10, months, working, for, defra, and, was, relieved, to, be, finished, with, it, she, had, mainly, been, involved, with, re, stocking, anyway, she, managed, very, well, and, hopefully, will, settle, well, tuesday, 28th, may, we, booked, a, holiday, today, our, 1st, holiday, for, about, 2.5, years, so, we, are, all, very, excited, we, are, going, on, a, barge, near, chester, so, hopefully, the, weather, will, be, good, it, will, be, nice, to, go, away, together, especially, after, last, year, i, think, we, all, need, it, you, do, get, used, to, staying, at, home, but, with, all, the, trouble, and, upset, last, year, it, will, be, nice, can't, wait, wednesday, 29th, may, had, a, lovely, day, ended, up, doing, lots, of, visiting, around, the, farms, dropping, drugs, off, and, seeing, another, farm, regarding, the, interherd, program, i, went, to, a, large, dairy, farm, and, they, are, a, young, couple, who, are, keen, and, enthusiastic, about, their, future, so, it, was, very, positive, and, encouraging, it, does, give, you, a, lift, and, helps, put, things, back, on, track, thursday, 30th, may, we, had, a, farmers, coffee, morning, not, planned, they, appeared, at, once, so, it, was, quite, nice, its, quite, interesting, when, you, hear, them, together, there, were, two, elderly, and, one, younger, one, and, their, opinions, hopes, thoughts, and, experiences, were, very, different, friday, 31st, may, another, mega, paperwork, day, exciting, played, in, the, garden, this, afternoon, and, walked, the, dog, saturday, 1st, and, sunday, 2nd, june, had, a, weekend, off, together, we, went, visiting, and, walking, very, nice, week, beginning, 3rd, june, monday, my, sister, and, her, daughter, came, to, visit, we, went, into, carlisle, but, nothing, very, exciting, the, weather, was, very, disappointing, for, all, the, organised, events, we, went, to, a, couple, and, got, wet, daughter, and, niece, got, some, jubilee, mugs, at, one, of, them, wednesday, i, ended, up, helping, our, new, vet, and, new, nurse, to, operate, so, that, was, good, i, don’t, get, much, chance, to, help, in, the, op, room, these, days, so, i, enjoyed, it, thoroughly, new, vet, is, doing, very, well, she’s, only, been, qualified, 3, years, and, up, to, now, has, not, done, much, small, animal, so, i, was, worried, she, would, not, like, it, but, she, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, thoroughly, and, has, settled, in, really, well, it, seems, like, she, has, been, here, for, ages, thursday, we, had, our, first, work, experience, from, a, school, for, 2, years, she, was, very, interested, in, the, fmd, and, said, they, had, done, a, bit, on, it, at, school, so, i, went, through, a, few, of, the, details, and, we, discussed, the, human, side, which, she, hadn’t, really, been, discussed, at, school, to, finish, i, had, 4, soa, to, do, as, well, such, joy, friday, i, foolishly, decided, to, decorate, the, surgery, and, op, room, you, know, when, you, think, you, have, a, good, idea, then, realise, you, have, bitten, off, more, than, you, can, chew, well, by, sunday, night, i, was, dead, i, got, it, all, done, and, it, did, look, better, as, nothing, had, been, done, last, year, but, boy, was, i, tired, week, beginning, 10th, june, monday, our, new, interherd, disc, arrived, so, i, went, and, installed, it, on, two, farms, they, were, very, keen, to, get, started, so, it's, quite, exciting, they, both, have, young, sons, who, are, keen, to, farm, also, so, that, helps, sometimes, i, fee, if, we, can, just, get, through, this, and, then, other, times, i, feel, what's, the, point, but, down, the, middle, of, the, road, we, have, to, try, and, make, it, work, and, fight, to, make, it, work, tuesday, 11th, june, quite, busy, today, but, daughter, had, her, brace, taken, off, today, so, we, had, two, visits, to, the, hospital, she, looks, different, without, her, brace, now, wednesday, 12th, june, had, a, day, off, today, peaceful, thursday, 13th, june, nmr, came, to, see, us, to, discuss, how, they, can, work, with, us, the, interherd, and, the, farmer, it, was, interesting, and, competitively, priced, so, that, is, now, another, service, we, can, offer, to, our, farmers, which, can, only, help, long, term, i, went, to, see, another, farmer, to, enter, the, interherd, there, is, a, lot, of, interest, we, are, trying, to, maintain, a, close, contact, with, our, farmers, to, enable, us, to, meet, their, needs, as, things, progress, in, the, near, future, there, are, going, to, be, a, lot, of, changes, regarding, the, dispensing, of, drugs, which, could, alter, the, way, we, work, this, should, be, finalised, by, january, 2003, but, until, then, we, are, not, sure, just, how, they, will, affect, us, friday, 14th, saturday, 15th, and, sunday, 16th, june, husband, birthday, so, i, have, organised, a, surprise, weekend, away, for, him, we, had, a, wonderful, time, and, thankfully, the, weather, was, good, week, beginning, 17th, june, monday, very, quiet, almost, like, last, year, but, thankfully, not, for, the, same, reason, they, are, all, busy, silaging, normality, is, returning, but, they, are, still, finding, it, difficult, with, new, herds, not, really, knowing, their, new, cows, yet, or, how, they, react, one, farmer, said, it, was, like, a, new, car, you, have, to, drive, it, a, good, few, miles, before, you, are, at, ease, and, the, seat, is, comfy, well, that’s, one, way, of, putting, it, tuesday, i, went, to, see, mr, j, to, discuss, our, new, interherd, program, a, computer, program, that, they, can, keep, records, of, all, their, herds, records, and, we, can, do, analysis, on, them, it’s, quite, exciting, and, interesting, and, shows, farming, is, heading, to, the, computer, age, and, the, farmers, are, learning, another, new, skill, not, sure, they, are, all, comfy, with, after, i, had, shown, mr, j, the, program, and, how, to, use, it, he, was, keen, but, said, that, for, now, he, would, maybe, go, and, cut, down, a, few, thistles, weds, thursday, very, quiet, did, some, catching, up, on, paperwork, then, went, for, a, walk, and, played, outside, in, the, garden, friday, query, fmd, in, pigs, the, effect, it, had, was, very, strange, part, was, horror, worry, and, another, strange, one, was, of, expecting, it, although, you, did, get, on, with, everything, and, it’s, all, sorting, out, and, normality, is, returning, it’s, as, if, you, are, waiting, for, it, to, appear, again, i, went, back, to, watching, the, news, listening, to, the, radio, waiting, fingers, crossed, sad, day, sat, sun, quiet, weekend, husband, was, working, no, results, on, the, pigs, yet, the, bush, telegraph, is, working, again, we, have, had, quite, a, number, of, worried, farmers, on, the, phone, but, no, results, as, yet, week, beginning, 24th, june, monday, breakthrough, no, fmd, talk, at, all, today, i, suddenly, realised, in, the, evening, all, is, getting, back, to, normal, and, everyone, is, coming, to, terms, with, the, paperwork, farming, does, what, it, always, has, recently, fallen, from, one, disaster, to, another, but, they, are, very, proud, of, their, trade, but, do, now, feel, let, down, by, both, the, government, and, the, public, who, for, whatever, reason, don’t, seem, to, have, the, same, respect, for, farmers, as, they, used, to, but, this, just, may, be, due, to, how, we, all, are, and, work, these, days, tuesday, pigs, given, the, all, clear, everyone, breathes, a, sigh, of, relief, it, has, a, very, chilling, effect, but, again, shows, we, are, still, clear, of, the, disease, for, now, weds, over, the, last, few, days, we, have, had, 6, dairy, herds, with, very, strange, mastitis, husband, has, been, out, to, visit, them, with, a, vet, from, vla, penrith, but, they, as, yet, have, not, established, a, cause, samples, show, nothing, and, usual, treatments, don’t, work, so, it, is, a, case, of, new, herds, new, problems, thursday, day, off, and, friday, sat, sun, had, my, niece, we, had, a, lovely, time, but, very, exhausting, week, beginning, 1st, july, monday, we, have, invested, the, new, interherd, computer, programme, mon, thurs, this, week, i, have, been, out, and, about, visiting, farmers, loading, and, explaining, the, new, programme, some, of, which, i, haven't, been, too, far, over, a, year, it's, good, to, see, them, and, chat, fmd, of, course, is, always, still, at, the, top, of, the, list, followed, by, the, milk, price, and, all, the, regulations, it's, so, amazing, and, sorrowful, to, see, how, deep, the, emotions, run, the, stories, and, feelings, they, have, are, still, very, strong, but, all, are, very, emotional, they, are, very, resilient, but, do, still, have, these, deep, feelings, you, wonder, how, the, effects, will, come, out, but, it, will, take, time, friday, i, did, a, soa, for, the, first, time, in, ages, i, had, to, look, back, as, to, how, to, fill, it, in, they, are, going, to, review, these, shortly, so, watch, this, space, all, the, regulations, are, up, for, review, in, about, november, so, we, will, see, what, they, come, up, with, sunday, we, have, a, vet, student, alison, for, two, weeks, staying, with, us, she, came, to, northumberland, during, fmd, so, was, interested, to, know, what, had, happened, and, where, everything, was, at, the, more, you, go, through, it, the, easier, it, becomes, she, had, been, involved, in, the, culling, and, had, found, it, very, hard, she, did, it, for, 1, month, and, was, glad, to, leave, week, beginning, 8th, july, monday, tuesday, i, went, milk, recording, the, farm, i, go, to, did, not, get, fmd, and, they, were, saying, how, hard, it, had, been, for, them, and, to, some, extent, they, did, have, as, hard, a, time, as, people, with, fmd, just, in, different, ways, they, had, to, do, the, checking, for, longer, the, farmer, said, he, used, to, dread, going, into, the, sheds, in, a, morning, as, he, dreaded, what, he, might, find, also, washing, the, milk, takers, not, being, able, to, visit, friends, and, family, all, the, regulations, re, moving, stock, just, the, not, knowing, they, said, it, put, quite, a, strain, on, them, all, one, of, the, ways, they, coped, was, they, built, a, tennis, court, and, played, a, lot, of, other, games, and, as, a, family, this, brought, them, closer, weds, interherd, day, we, held, a, meeting, today, to, invite, all, the, farmers, interested, in, using, the, programme, the, people, who, wrote, the, programme, came, along, to, talk, to, the, farmers, it, was, very, good, and, the, farmers, seemed, to, enjoy, themselves, they, have, all, found, they, are, needing, this, sort, of, programme, as, with, the, new, herds, they, are, unsure, of, how, their, fertilities, are, thurs, fri, visited, mr, w, and, mr, j, re, interherd, got, a, proper, cup, of, coffee, and, proper, milk, that's, what, i, missed, about, last, year, and, one, of, the, reasons, i, go, to, visit, them, sat, sun, very, busy, small, animal, operated, and, nursed, all, week, end, i, was, shattered, poor, me, week, beginning, 15th, july, monday, visited, farmer, re, interherd, programme, they, are, very, positive, about, the, future, and, have, a, son, who, is, very, keen, i, can, see, a, difference, in, their, attitude, over, the, past, few, months, when, i, first, started, going, they, were, unsure, they, had, done, the, right, thing, and, had, seriously, debated, getting, any, stock, back, if, they, could, cope, with, the, changes, and, the, regulations, and, paperwork, but, as, he, said, he, just, loves, farming, not, that, he, doesn't, know, anything, else, he, just, loves, farming, and, now, they, have, progressed, and, working, together, within, the, family, they, have, a, good, system, and, appear, to, be, enjoying, themselves, the, farm, has, been, in, the, family, for, generations, so, financially, they, can, manage, i, hope, they, make, it, they, are, lovely, people, and, a, real, inspiration, the, report, on, fmd, and, the, recommendations, is, to, be, published, soon, but, from, what, we, have, heard, so, far, it, doesn't, say, anything, we, didn't, already, know, and, the, recommendations, are, a, little, sketchy, to, say, the, least, they, need, a, good, sensible, positive, protocol, for, any, future, outbreak, and, at, present, if, it, all, flared, up, again, tomorrow, it, would, be, the, same, mess, what, have, we, learnt, hopefully, time, will, tell, tuesday, sad, news, today, one, of, our, clients, who, didn't, get, fmd, has, decided, to, give, up, he, is, on, a, tenanted, farm, the, owners, are, not, keen, on, any, expansion, or, even, repairing, old, buildings, to, remain, competitive, he, sees, he, needs, more, cows, but, can't, build, any, more, sheds, so, in, his, words, he, has, decided, that, there, is, maybe, more, to, life, he, is, in, his, mid, forties, so, he, is, going, to, sell, up, and, try, something, new, very, brave, but, sad, i, think, this, will, not, be, the, first, of, our, clients, to, do, this, everyone, asks, about, the, future, and, at, the, moment, nothing, and, nobody, is, certain, can, the, smaller, farmers, keep, up, will, the, bigger, ones, get, bigger, what, new, regulations, and, paperwork, will, be, brought, in, only, time, will, tell, weds, husband, has, been, away, at, the, br, cattle, vet, ass, bcva, committee, meeting, he, has, been, on, the, committee, for, about, 18, months, now, he, enjoys, it, and, it, is, another, feather, in, his, cap, anyway, he, gave, a, talk, on, the, problems, post, fmd, and, on, the, problems, farmers, were, and, had, experienced, he, also, gave, a, talk, on, some, of, the, mastitis, cases, that, had, appeared, in, new, herds, we, have, had, some, very, strange, mastitis, cases, this, year, anyway, there, was, a, competition, for, the, best, talk, and, husband, won, i, was, very, proud, of, him, none, of, the, other, vets, there, had, ever, seen, anything, like, it, but, some, had, found, more, bad, mastitis, in, cows, this, year, so, whether, it’s, the, change, of, area, weather, or, housing, we, shall, see, thursday, i, had, a, visiting, day, today, good, fun, i, went, t, see, the, farmers, who, have, the, interherd, so, i, had, lots, of, coffee, with, proper, milk, yummy, it's, also, interesting, to, hear, all, the, different, stories, and, feelings, hopes, and, worries, there, are, so, many, most, are, ready, for, the, challenge, ahead, but, unfortunately, some, aren't, nobody, knows, how, or, when, things, will, change, but, over, the, next, couple, of, years, they, will, some, good, some, not, so, good, byee, i'm, off, on, my, hols, now, yippee, holiday, week, beginning, 22nd, july, week, beginning, monday, 29th, july, tuesday, back, to, work, the, staff, have, coped, really, well, no, falling, out, no, problems, it's, the, first, time, in, nearly, two, years, we, have, left, them, so, it, was, a, bit, worrying, but, they, are, a, great, bunch, we, are, very, lucky, i, feel, so, relaxed, and, it, was, great, fun, seeing, through, all, my, paperwork, not, i, had, a, bit, of, a, lazy, day, but, good, weds, poor, mr, g, is, having, a, terrible, time, with, defra, when, we, did, his, restocking, tt, test, he, had, a, reactor, so, the, cow, was, slaughtered, but, no, lesions, were, found, the, herd, had, to, be, tested, again, 60, days, later, and, another, reactor, was, found, and, slaughtered, anyway, he, was, due, another, test, in, 60, days, and, this, was, arranged, for, 9.00am, 9.00am, came, and, went, and, at, 10.00am, he, phoned, to, see, what, was, happening, they, had, forgotten, they, could, come, out, at, 1pm, no, good, the, last, two, times, they, had, tested, it, had, taken, 6, hours, to, test, the, cows, and, they, still, needed, milked, which, would, mean, a, very, late, finish, mr, graves, explained, this, and, was, told, not, to, complain, he, had, bought, the, cows, into, the, country, with, tb, and, he, would, have, to, do, it, when, they, said, they, know, how, to, get, people, on, their, side, don't, they, anyway, a, heated, discussion, had, pursued, and, eventually, sense, was, seen, the, test, was, rearranged, for, another, day, at, 9.00am, so, fingers, crossed, thursday, we, got, money, through, today, from, the, fmd, recovery, fund, it, has, been, very, useful, and, enabled, us, to, do, things, we, wouldn't, normally, be, able, to, do, we, had, our, vans, sign, written, we, got, a, laptop, computer, which, had, been, great, for, the, interherd, programme, we, got, pens, and, pads, to, give, out, husband, was, able, to, hold, meetings, with, our, farmers, pre, stocking, to, advise, them, what, to, look, for, etc, so, it, has, been, extremely, useful, it, was, nice, to, be, given, the, money, some, people, say, it, would, have, been, spent, elsewhere, but, it, helped, us, immensely, and, we, feel, we, have, spent, it, wisely, fri, had, a, paperwork, catch, up, day, today, it, has, been, quiet, recently, due, to, holidays, and, harvesting, but, thankfully, not, like, last, year, we, looked, back, again, and, today, last, year, we, had, no, calls, and, today, we, had, four, so, although, quiet, not, that, bad, week, beginning, monday, 5th, august, monday, very, quiet, tuesday, very, quiet, weds, very, quiet, thursday, daughter, got, her, first, job, fri, took, daughter, to, my, sisters, for, the, week, end, sat, quiet, week, end, sun, gardening, going, on, holiday, again, next, week, yippee, sorry, it’s, been, very, quiet, this, week, as, mentioned, before, this, is, usual, as, everyone, is, on, holiday, and, the, farmers, are, harvesting, i, have, caught, up, and, have, been, enjoying, a, few, days, just, poddling, going, out, with, daughter, shopping, food, it’s, nice, to, have, some, catch, up, time, on, thursday, daughter, got, a, job, her, first, proper, job, well, nearly, at, the, travel, inn, at, the, bottom, of, our, road, she, is, so, excited, and, already, planning, what, she, is, going, to, spend, her, hard, earned, cash, on, on, friday, i, took, daughter, to, my, sisters, in, lancashire, for, the, week, end, i, came, back, on, friday, night, and, we, decided, to, meet, up, at, husband, s, mum, and, dad’s, caravan, near, whitby, on, monday, for, a, week, so, another, holiday, i, don’t, know, you, have, one, and, then, another, anyway, it, should, be, good, fun, holiday, week, beginning, monday, 12thth, august, week, beginning, monday, 19thth, august, monday, visited, mr, a, today, to, load, interherd, onto, his, computer, he, has, definitely, decided, to, sell, up, he, is, hoping, by, early, next, year, this, has, all, been, very, sudden, but, his, son, is, no, longer, interested, and, as, mr, a, said, who, can, blame, him, with, all, the, new, regulations, and, paperwork, a, lot, are, finding, it, hard, tuesday, we, had, an, environment, agency, visit, this, morning, to, check, how, and, where, we, dispose, of, our, waste, in, practice, thankfully, we, are, doing, everything, properly, but, this, visit, took, two, and, a, half, hours, and, lots, of, form, filling, in, it, is, they, that, check, these, things, but, the, extent, in, questionable, mr, g, called, in, the, afternoon, he, is, having, problems, with, his, cows, they, keep, going, off, colour, we, have, so, many, new, herds, that, started, of, doing, well, happy, and, settling, in, fine, then, about, 3, 4, months, after, they, arrived, they, start, being, ill, have, mastitis, off, colour, not, eating, not, milking, properly, a, wide, variety, it’s, very, strange, the, vets, don’t, really, know, what’s, happening, we, have, a, few, on, regular, blood, sampling, trying, to, find, any, changes, weds, me, and, husband, went, to, the, accountant, to, see, just, how, bad, financially, we, really, had, done, last, year, and, oh, what, a, surprise, it, was, bad, in, fact, we, nearly, qualified, for, children’s, tax, relief, the, main, thing, is, we, survived, in, a, fashion, hopefully, it, will, be, better, next, year, thursday, i, visited, two, farmers, today, on, the, interherd, they, are, finding, it, brilliant, they, have, both, recently, had, farm, assurance, visits, and, interherd, had, helped, them, enormously, and, helped, them, reach, the, standards, they, both, appreciate, how, much, easier, it, is, for, them, and, less, paperwork, heaven, it’s, so, good, to, find, something, to, help, them, fri, i, have, been, phoning, our, main, drug, company’s, reps, inviting, them, to, our, open, evening, all, very, keen, i, think, they, just, enjoy, the, crack, week, beginning, monday, 26th, august, very, quiet, this, week, on, both, large, and, small, animal, it, must, be, the, last, holiday, rush, before, going, back, to, school, we, managed, to, do, some, catching, up, and, decided, a, four, day, week, would, be, nice, i, did, quite, a, bit, of, playing, on, interherd, so, that, when, i, visited, farmers, about, it, i, knew, what, they, want, to, see, and, where, to, find, it, most, of, them, are, interested, in, the, medicines, book, as, this, keeps, excellent, stock, records, from, when, the, drug, product, is, born, where, it, has, gone, and, batch, numbers, and, expiry, dates, these, are, all, the, information, they, need, to, produce, when, they, get, inspected, and, doing, it, manually, can, be, very, time, consuming, week, beginning, 2nd, september, monday, 2nd, september, irs, 9.30, garst, milk, rec, tuesday, garst, milk, rec, dog, course, weds, daughter, back, to, school, exporting, is, back, thursday, exporting, fri, change, date, of, open, evening, gb, way, now, 15, 10, 02, exporting, sat, off, sister, and, niece, sun, off, monday, every, 2, years, we, are, checked, by, our, radiographer, advisor, to, ensure, everything, is, well, and, we, are, doing, everything, right, they, check, the, x, ray, machine, our, records, and, our, monitoring, records, we, passed, in, the, afternoon, i, went, milk, recording, it, was, very, warm, and, very, flyie, but, good, fun, they, are, thinking, of, getting, a, new, parlour, twice, as, big, as, mr, g, feels, in, the, future, milk, will, have, to, be, produced, by, quantity, not, quality, but, it, is, difficult, and, expensive, decision, to, make, for, him, we, shall, see, tue, early, morning, milk, recording, this, morning, but, i, got, a, lovely, breakfast, with, proper, milk, i, got, to, check, the, large, animal, when, i, got, back, we, also, started, our, new, puppy, training, course, in, the, evening, that, went, very, well, it, is, a, more, 1, to, 1, basis, our, nurse, runs, it, i, go, along, and, help, with, moral, support, it, was, good, fun, but, i, had, a, very, long, day, and, went, to, bed, when, i, got, back, weds, daughter, went, back, to, school, today, i’ll, miss, her, following, me, round, helping, out, and, her, mum, can, you, take, me, we, may, have, some, exporting, of, sheep, on, friday, there, is, a, pedigree, texel, sheep, sale, at, h, h, borderway, it, is, the, first, exporting, we, have, done, in, about, 20, months, as, you, can, guess, the, paper, work, has, tripled, there, has, been, numerous, phone, calls, to, ad, from, defra, trying, to, make, sense, of, it, but, i, must, say, people, up, here, are, not, good, at, clarifying, what, they, have, written, now, there’s, a, surprise, thursday, i, have, spent, the, whole, day, either, reading, new, expert, regulations, or, running, backwards, and, forwards, for, new, paperwork, what, we, have, to, complete, and, what, they, should, bring, well, it, could, be, fun, friday, well, full, really, isn’t, the, word, i, would, use, we, needed, more, paperwork, they, needed, more, paperwork, it, took, most, of, the, day, and, we, only, had, 3, sheep, to, send, draining, the, one, good, thing, was, seeing, everyone, at, the, auction, some, new, faces, and, some, have, gone, week, beginning, 9th, september, monday, t's, 7th, birthday, we, have, another, vet, student, studying, at, the, moment, for, 2, weeks, we, have, had, five, this, year, so, far, and, another, before, christmas, but, she, won't, stay, in, the, house, as, she, is, from, carlisle, it, is, nice, to, have, them, and, it, makes, us, behave, but, i, won't, have, as, many, next, year, they, have, all, been, interested, in, the, fmd, and, some, had, a, chance, to, help, out, which, was, an, eye, opener, for, them, i, spoke, to, student, about, it, all, how, it, affected, everyone, what, happened, and, what, didn't, now, talking, about, almost, a, year, from, the, last, case, i, don't, find, it, as, hard, and, i, think, i, can, hide, how, emotional, it, was, but, at, the, time, i, wasn't, i, was, more, angry, i, feel, now, fmd, or, the, aftermath, has, sadly, become, everyday, life, i, don't, rush, for, news, on, it, or, yearn, information, i, think, because, directly, or, indirectly, we, live, with, it, everyday, it, all, has, really, become, part, of, our, lives, it, is, very, difficult, to, put, into, words, or, explain, i, also, went, to, visit, one, of, my, interherd, farmers, in, lancaster, they, are, very, pleased, with, it, and, are, coping, well, mrs, m, was, crushed, by, the, pet, cow, a, month, ago, and, was, very, lucky, she, had, two, broken, legs, cuts, and, bruises, needless, to, say, the, cow, has, gone, to, greener, pastures, they, are, very, resilient, and, are, planning, for, the, future, and, it, is, nice, to, be, a, part, of, their, planning, i, also, get, proper, milky, coffee, see, so, easy, pleased, milk, recorded, tonight, at, mr, g's, so, early, morning, tomorrow, i'm, still, trying, to, persuade, them, into, interherd, so, finger, crossed, tuesday, early, morning, milk, recording, failed, on, the, interherd, due, to, a, cow, breaking, a, leg, i, have, never, actually, experienced, it, happening, before, i, generally, hear, farmers, needing, a, slaughter, cert, or, a, cow, put, down, to, see, it, and, the, family's, reaction, i, was, humbled, i, think, is, the, word, it, was, an, accident, that, can, happen, but, the, look, on, their, faces, was, such, deep, sorrow, the, father, even, places, his, head, in, his, hands, at, breakfast, we, all, talked, about, it, she, was, only, a, heifer, getting, ready, to, be, served, for, the, let, time, she, was, a, difficult, birth, they, had, all, helped, well, bred, and, she, was, jet, black, with, a, huge, white, spot, on, her, side, so, no, prizes, for, guessing, the, name, but, as, the, farmer, said, you, can't, look, after, them, feed, them, care, for, them, day, in, day, out, without, caring, about, them, or, why, would, you, do, it, in, the, afternoon, i, attended, a, course, on, management, employment, law, customer, service, at, barnard, castle, it, went, on, till, 9, pm, with, dinner, after, so, i, decided, to, stay, over, very, spoilt, good, course, excellent, food, lovely, hotel, wednesday, came, back, from, my, course, leisurely, and, stopped, at, penrith, for, a, bit, of, shopping, very, pleasant, i'm, not, a, good, shopper, but, it, was, nice, i, had, to, get, back, for, 11, am, as, we, were, having, a, new, credit, card, machine, fitted, he, duly, arrived, well, what, an, obnoxious, man, he, was, moaning, because, we, had, a, switchboard, he, had, to, dial, 9, this, was, wrong, that, was, wrong, and, then, was, he, not, going, to, get, offered, a, coffee, to, which, he, was, told, not, without, the, special, word, he, was, a, bit, aghast, and, said, please, i, swear, if, i, had, not, just, come, from, a, course, explaining, customer, service, i, would, have, murdered, him, god, bless, courses, and, of, course, credit, card, machine, men, in, the, afternoon, i, was, visited, by, the, rspca, advertising, company, did, we, want, an, advert, in, their, leaflet, anyway, it, was, 640, for, quarter, of, a, page, for, 2, years, so, i, said, we, couldn't, afford, it, it, suddenly, dropped, to, 410, i, was, a, little, suspect, so, i, got, receptionist, to, quietly, check, if, the, company, were, connected, to, the, rspca, anyway, while, i, was, waiting, i, said, it, was, still, a, little, bit, more, than, we, could, afford, what, with, fmd, see, it, is, useful, and, true, he, then, said, he, could, do, it, for, 210, by, which, time, she, had, confirmed, they, were, with, the, rspca, so, i, said, yes, thank, you, bargain, or, rip, off, thursday, i, tried, to, get, my, head, round, isolation, units, and, tried, to, explain, to, a, farmer, about, them, i, think, we, got, there, eventually, when, husband, got, back, i, got, him, to, explain, in, simple, english, and, it, all, made, a, lot, more, sense, they, will, be, handy, for, people, selling, and, buying, stock, but, have, as, always, the, guidelines, must, have, been, written, by, someone, who, has, never, seen, a, farm, or, fields, friday, caught, up, on, paperwork, and, trolleyed, about, busy, doing, not, a, lot, i, think, the, term, is, anyway, it, was, good, week, beginning, 16th, september, this, week, has, been, appraisal, week, for, the, staff, we, didn't, do, any, last, year, so, i, thought, we, had, better, get, back, into, the, swing, of, things, i, quite, enjoy, the, appraisals, it's, a, great, opportunity, to, have, a, real, good, sort, out, get, new, ideas, and, try, and, recognise, any, potential, problems, we, started, doing, appraisals, at, bout, 4, years, ago, and, to, start, off, with, everyone, was, petrified, and, worried, but, it, was, nice, to, see, them, actually, excited, and, enjoyed, it, it, is, quite, time, consuming, but, very, worthwhile, so, not, much, out, and, about, this, week, week, beginning, 23rd, september, monday, another, suspect, case, the, main, difference, about, this, was, as, with, other, ones, i, felt, cold, sick, scared, this, one, was, better, i, felt, it, was, not, going, to, be, positive, whether, it's, a, case, of, there, have, been, a, few, now, not, positive, and, this, is, just, another, one, or, confident, that, it, no, way, could, be, positive, i, definitely, wasn't, as, worried, i, don't, know, if, that, is, being, blasé, can't, spell, sorry, but, definitely, different, tuesday, just, nicely, busy, today, just, enough, to, keep, everyone, busy, husband, and, other, vet, are, away, this, week, so, that, just, leaves, new, vet, and, other, vet, so, it, was, a, little, worrying, if, it, got, busy, it, was, the, last, of, our, dog, training, courses, tonight, they, all, passed, their, tests, well, and, were, very, pleased, with, the, progress, they, had, made, it, was, the, first, 4, week, course, we, had, run, and, feedback, was, very, positive, our, head, nurse, had, put, in, an, awful, lot, of, work, fir, it, so, i, was, very, pleased, for, her, as, well, the, next, one, is, planned, for, november, weds, experts, are, going, to, start, again, at, h, h, tomorrow, and, friday, it, will, be, the, first, ones, we, have, done, for, about, 18, months, surprisingly, the, paperwork, for, our, side, has, not, changed, much, but, the, irish, paperwork, is, horrendous, anyway, after, several, phone, calls, to, derfa, and, dard, and, various, farmers, who, are, wishing, to, sell, at, the, sale, i, think, we, have, it, sorted, we, will, see, tomorrow, thursday, and, friday, i've, put, these, into, one, as, that, is, how, it, felt, after, being, so, confident, that, we, had, everything, in, place, to, be, able, to, export, the, sheep, first, thing, thursday, morning, dard, like, irish, defra, changed, the, regulations, and, paperwork, such, joy, as, you, can, imagine, this, sent, everyone, in, a, state, of, frenzy, and, another, buzby, full, of, phone, calls, we, didn't, have, the, paperwork, sorted, when, people, had, bought, sheep, and, were, wanting, to, leave, now, some, tempers, are, reaching, fever, pitch, well, we, did, manage, to, export, them, away, on, thursday, night, 3, hours, late, so, they, had, to, book, different, ferries, all, done, and, dusted, by, friday, we, were, busy, congratulating, ourselves, on, achieving, the, impossible, and, how, we, all, had, worked, hard, to, accomplish, it, and, now, had, several, more, names, on, our, christmas, card, list, yes, you, guessed, we, had, a, phone, call, from, well, let, me, say, one, not, happy, chappy, after, having, no, sleep, catching, a, late, ferry, waiting, for, the, paperwork, to, arrive, at, larne, port, all, the, sheep, were, impounded, dard, had, added, one, more, form, to, their, list, of, requirements, and, had, forgotten, to, send, them, through, or, mention, them, hours, of, phone, calls, and, faxing, later, i, am, very, pleased, to, say, that, the, sheep, were, released, and, free, to, go, week, beginning, 7th, october, monday, 7th, october, i, made, some, trial, arrangements, for, our, open, evening, next, tuesday, all’s, ready, now, they, are, a, good, night, out, and, we, all, enjoy, it, we, haven’t, had, one, for, a, few, years, so, it, should, be, good, tuesday, for, a, while, now, we’ve, been, wondering, if, the, practice, should, invest, in, a, house, for, an, assistant, we, have, had, a, response, to, the, advert, for, our, new, vet, so, we, thought, we, would, go, house, hunting, anyway, it, wasn’t, as, much, fun, as, i, first, thought, to, start, with, obviously, they, are, quite, a, price, and, it, really, isn’t, that, easy, so, we, looked, at, one, cardboard, box, for, 70,000, and, apparently, it, went, for, 82k, frightening, well, we, can, keep, on, looking, we, have, a, vet, coming, for, an, interview, on, saturday, so, fingers, crossed, i’m, off, tomorrow, and, away, at, bvna, congress, over, the, weekend, so, i’m, looking, forward, to, that, week, beginning, 14th, october, monday, 14th, october, we, had, a, really, good, time, at, the, bvna, british, veterinary, nurse, assistant, congress, we, did, loads, of, lectures, a, learned, a, few, new, things, got, loads, of, freebies, from, the, trade, stands, and, ordered, a, new, vaporiser, for, the, anaesthetic, machine, which, uses, less, isoflo, oxygen, we, also, had, a, good, halloween, ball, stayed, up, too, late, we, got, back, on, sunday, evening, after, 3, days, of, congress, and, i, was, just, settling, down, and, filling, in, husband, and, daughter, on, what, we, had, done, when, another, vet, came, in, wanting, a, hand, with, a, caesarean, on, a, dog, ah, well, nothing, like, getting, back, into, it, today, anyway, feeling, very, tired, we, had, to, start, getting, ready, for, open, evening, tomorrow, night, for, the, farmers, so, there, was, a, lot, of, sorting, out, and, tidying, up, to, do, as, we, open, the, house, up, as, well, we, haven’t, had, one, for, a, couple, of, years, so, it, was, quite, exciting, i, really, enjoy, them, it’s, great, to, have, the, farmers, round, it’s, mainly, a, nosh, and, natter, night, but, this, year, some, of, the, drug, companies, paid, for, it, they, have, their, stands, in, various, parts, of, the, house, and, surgery, and, normally, everyone, has, a, good, time, tuesday, open, evening, day, very, busy, tidying, up, and, moving, things, around, everyone, helped, it’s, good, the, staff, are, so, excited, about, it, as, well, they, have, all, mucked, in, and, as, usual, did, us, proud, the, evening, itself, was, brilliant, it, was, so, nice, to, see, them, all, enjoying, themselves, and, there, is, nothing, farmers, like, better, than, a, good, natter, food, and, beer, quite, a, few, said, they, had, missed, the, open, evening, last, year, due, to, fmd, as, far, as, pr, goes, definitely, worth, it, wednesday, just, clearing, up, and, sorting, out, all, the, staff, said, they, had, had, good, feedback, so, well, done, to, everyone, thursday, back, to, it, now, got, new, interherd, update, so, i, spent, quite, a, lot, of, the, day, seeing, what, new, buttons, it, had, it’s, very, clever, interherd, is, sold, by, nmr, now, and, they, are, helping, us, sell, it, to, the, farmers, whose, life, and, paperwork, hope, to, make, easier, the, man, in, charge, at, nmr, is, coming, to, see, us, next, week, to, explain, how, the, milk, recording, side, all, ties, in, between, nmr, and, interherd, friday, today, was, one, of, those, when, you, rush, round, all, day, but, you, feel, unsure, of, what, you, have, actually, done, very, busy, on, both, large, and, small, side, it’s, very, tiring, but, i, do, prefer, it, when, we’re, busy, week, beginning, 21st, october, monday, 21st, october, monday, to, wednesday, off, thursday, had, a, meeting, with, id, from, nmr, re, interherd, they, are, going, to, give, us, cheap, milk, recording, prices, to, help, promote, nmr, and, interherd, they, have, also, released, a, version, of, interherd, for, farmers, and, we, were, given, the, first, one, in, the, country, to, trial, and, see, what, they, thought, it, was, very, encouraging, as, nmr, in, the, past, years, have, gained, themselves, a, slightly, unpopular, feel, especially, in, cumbria, but, they, now, seem, to, see, this, and, are, trying, very, hard, and, are, committed, to, improving, it, they, did, a, survey, and, now, with, area, herd, size, etc, the, majority, of, dairy, herds, are, in, cumbria, even, post, fmd, so, fingers, crossed, friday, a, good, day, today, husband, was, away, at, a, bcva, council, meeting, br, cattle, vets, ass, and, normally, it, goes, mad, don’t, know, why, anyway, it, didn’t, today, everyone, was, busy, but, not, madly, the, large, animal, side, is, very, up, and, down, at, present, but, it, is, now, tt, and, blood, testing, season, there, are, quite, a, lot, of, restocked, herds, to, do, as, they, are, having, to, be, done, every, year, as, opposed, to, 4, yearly, we, also, have, to, test, everything, it, is, very, time, consuming, and, if, they, have, a, tt, test, then, it, is, a, two, day, job, so, for, both, the, farmer, and, us, it, is, two, days, of, the, week, when, you, can’t, do, anything, else, week, beginning, 28th, october, monday, 28th, october, we, have, been, asked, by, newton, rigg, college, if, we, would, be, interested, in, teaching, the, animal, care, courses, at, the, college, so, me, and, vicky, went, along, it, was, quite, interesting, and, we, thought, if, we, could, do, it, together, it, would, work, so, we, said, we, would, think, about, it, and, let, them, know, went, milk, recording, in, the, afternoon, i, do, enjoy, playing, and, the, crack, tuesday, milk, recorded, again, and, discussed, interherd, with, them, so, we, are, going, to, use, them, as, the, pilot, for, the, nmr, interherd, job, so, that, will, be, interesting, regarding, the, newton, rigg, offer, we, won’t, be, able, to, do, it, as, our, part, time, nurse, is, leaving, us, she, has, been, offered, a, place, at, dalston, vets, she, will, be, able, to, train, as, a, vet, nurse, there, as, we, don’t, do, that, in, our, practice, so, that, will, leave, us, short, staffed, it, is, sad, but, everything, happens, for, a, reason, so, we, are, now, vet, and, nurse, hunting, so, more, advertising, and, interviewing, weds, we, are, sponsoring, a, class, at, the, northern, expo, holstein, friesian, shows, we, have, a, stand, and, a, good, natter, i, took, some, photos, of, a, few, cows, and, some, freebies, it, was, a, good, night, barbara, came, with, me, and, she, presented, the, prize, for, our, class, the, standard, of, cattle, was, amazing, and, it, was, a, really, good, show, thursday, out, of, the, photos, i, took, for, the, northern, expo, i, decided, to, make, a, photo, album, so, i, went, round, a, few, other, farms, photographing, it, was, good, fun, and, nice, to, see, that, we, do, have, some, very, good, stock, friday, got, a, phone, call, today, from, my, sister, she, has, sold, her, house, in, lancaster, and, is, moving, up, near, us, so, that’s, very, exciting, otherwise, a, quiet, day, today, week, beginning, 4th, november, monday, 4th, november, i, went, to, show, mr, j, the, new, interherd, farmers, version, he, was, very, interested, and, thought, it, would, save, a, lot, of, paperwork, and, time, they, all, say, that, the, paperwork, since, fmd, has, increased, immensely, along, with, the, regulations, tuesday, we, have, decided, to, have, a, tv, in, the, waiting, room, to, advertise, products, services, staff, etc, the, man, from, channel, 6, came, and, took, information, so, it, should, arrive, next, week, so, it, will, be, interesting, to, see, how, it, works, weds, we, went, to, the, bank, today, to, see, the, financial, advisor, as, this, is, a, free, service, and, very, useful, we, have, decided, to, buy, a, house, for, my, sister, to, live, in, when, she, moves, up, and, it, will, be, an, investment, as, well, a, bit, of, security, just, in, case, as, last, year, we, discovered, just, how, quick, things, can, change, we, went, for, just, over, 3, months, with, not, a, lot, of, money, coming, in, and, still, wages, to, pay, so, we, are, now, house, hunting, week, beginning, 11th, november, monday, 11th, november, one, of, our, vets, has, recently, started, her, dbr, dip, in, bovine, reproduction, course, at, liverpool, as, part, of, her, studies, she, is, looking, at, the, cows, milk, quality, pre, and, post, calving, to, see, if, any, effects, are, relevant, to, their, overall, performance, and, milk, production, and, health, so, we, collect, milk, samples, from, certain, cows, twice, a, week, over, the, period, of, lactation, and, she, is, going, to, test, them, so, watch, this, space, we, have, been, very, lucky, with, another, vet, her, enthusiasm, is, boundless, and, she, has, become, a, very, important, member, of, our, team, i, have, persuaded, mr, j, of, b, farm, to, milk, record, with, us, so, that's, more, early, morning, jaunts, the, interherd, and, nmr, trial, is, nearly, ready, so, hopefully, by, middle, of, december, everything, should, be, set, up, and, running, hopefully, tuesday, two, farmers, are, milk, reading, today, so, i, had, a, nice, little, trolly, about, i, treated, myself, to, some, of, mr, r's, ice, cream, very, nice, well, you, have, to, support, them, their, new, shop, on, the, farm, is, doing, very, well, i, loaded, my, first, farmer, version, interherd, onto, mr, w's, computer, he, is, very, impressed, and, very, keen, and, thankfully, it, all, worked, well, wednesday, we, have, computer, bugs, not, good, so, i, have, spent, most, of, the, day, on, the, phone, talking, to, the, debugging, man, thursday, still, got, bugs, we've, had, to, run, a, bug, fixer, disc, through, all, seven, computers, it, takes, ages, pee'd, off, fed, up, going, back, to, pen, and, paper, friday, i, must, have, sounded, fed, up, as, the, lovely, little, man, came, to, fix, all, the, computers, he, had, to, use, 3, different, discs, due, to, all, the, different, bugs, had, a, meeting, to, discuss, the, nmr, milk, recording, and, we, have, quite, a, lot, of, farmers, interested, mainly, because, we, have, got, a, good, price, for, nmr, so, fingers, crossed, the, bugs, are, fixed, yipeee, week, beginning, 18th, november, monday, 18th, november, due, to, our, junior, nurse, leaving, i, have, been, interviewing, all, week, we, have, had, a, lot, of, enquiries, i, decided, to, invite, any, possibles, to, come, and, play, for, the, morning, to, see, what, they, thought, and, how, they, got, on, with, the, staff, there, is, one, that, has, potential, and, sounds, very, nice, but, she, can't, make, it, until, next, monday, there, was, one, that, wrote, a, really, good, letter, but, when, she, came, in, well, she, was, sweet, but, not, really, suitable, on, friday, nurse, left, we, had, a, little, party, i, hope, she, copes, okay, she, bought, me, a, lovely, cow, ornament, to, say, thank, you, it, was, lovely, week, beginning, 25th, november, monday, 25th, november, ellen, came, for, her, interview, very, good, she, is, keen, had, experience, happy, with, the, hours, so, she, is, coming, back, tomorrow, afternoon, for, a, play, we, all, went, out, for, our, vet, who, is, leaving, on, friday, to, be, a, chalet, maid, in, a, french, ski, resort, till, april, it, will, be, very, sad, to, see, her, leave, unfortunately, still, no, joy, on, the, new, vet, front, but, we, are, going, to, leave, it, till, the, new, year, and, try, then, other, vet, is, going, to, cover, but, unfortunately, it, means, husband, s, on, duty, more, it's, a, bit, reminiscent, of, fmd, but, we'll, manage, tuesday, wednesday, feeling, very, sorry, for, myself, got, a, bad, cold, i, got, sent, to, my, room, because, everyone, was, fed, up, of, me, sneezing, all, over, them, honestly, i, was, only, shanning, thursday, much, better, today, i, sorted, a, whole, load, of, interherd, data, out, and, had, a, good, play, with, it, heard, about, nestle's, cancelling, contracts, next, year, from, one, of, our, farmers, he, felt, a, little, unsure, quite, how, it, would, affect, them, and, that, they, were, being, dealt, another, kick, in, the, teeth, it's, quite, amazing, how, many, i, have, heard, questioning, why, they, went, back, into, farming, we, are, feeling, the, effects, we, didn't, seem, to, be, called, out, as, often, or, they, don't, want, the, cows, treated, as, its, extra, expense, at, the, end, of, fmd, they, said, over, the, next, couple, of, years, there, would, be, changes, in, the, way, farmers, and, how, many, farmers, worked, it's, frightening, to, see, it, actually, starting, to, happen, and, seeing, the, effects, on, our, business, everyone, agrees, the, whole, industry, has, changed, for, the, worst, and, is, not, the, same, and, there, is, no, pleasure, now, after, all, that, a, total, contrast, me, and, daughter, went, christmas, shopping, and, had, a, lovely, time, we, met, husband, after, surgery, and, went, for, a, pizza, lovely, night, friday, everyone's, talking, about, nestle's, now, and, quite, a, few, are, angry, some, aren't, surprised, and, others, just, seem, to, resign, themselves, to, it, we, had, a, lunch, party, for, leaving, vet, today, it, was, good, we, gave, her, pressies, although, she, has, only, been, here, a, few, months, she, will, be, greatly, missed, by, everyone, you, never, know, she, may, come, back, one, day, good, news, i, offered, ellen, the, nurse's, job, and, she's, accepted, i, think, she, will, do, very, well, week, beginning, 2nd, december, monday, 2nd, december, spent, all, morning, trolling, around, the, countryside, collecting, another, vet, s, milk, samples, for, her, dbr, it, was, a, lovely, morning, chatted, to, a, few, farmers, a, lot, were, still, talking, about, nestles, tuesday, had, a, meeting, to, clarify, the, start, of, the, nmr, milk, recording, gave, her, all, the, information, she, needed, to, set, up, the, herds, it's, great, to, be, able, to, offer, the, farmers, a, good, cheaper, deal, staff, xmas, party, it, was, good, everyone, seemed, to, have, a, good, time, wednesday, day, off, shopping, what, joy, thursday, had, an, interherd, disaster, today, i, couldn't, get, it, load, what, normally, takes, 15, minutes, instead, took, 2, and, a, half, hours, anyway, we, succeeded, eventually, they, have, just, bought, some, in, calf, heifers, so, he, was, keen, to, keep, up, to, date, records, and, information, we, only, have, one, more, farmer, to, restock, now, and, then, that's, everyone, it, will, probably, work, out, at, about, 15, drop, in, work, etc, while, waiting, for, interherd, to, load, they, were, telling, me, that, they, had, been, approached, asking, them, if, they, wanted, to, appeal, against, the, amount, of, money, they, had, received, for, the, cattle, they, said, they, wouldn't, as, they, felt, they, had, already, been, overpaid, not, all, farmers, are, money, grabbers, apparently, friday, daughter, starts, her, mock, exams, now, for, the, next, fortnight, i, have, been, waiting, for, the, moods, to, start, but, as, yet, all, is, quiet, long, may, it, last, she, is, very, calm, about, it, and, has, actually, been, revising, quite, hard, she, has, the, ability, all, she, has, to, do, is, concentrate, work, wise, i've, done, not, a, lot, it's, one, of, the, perks, i've, wandered, around, just, playing, doing, nice, jobs, quite, a, change, week, beginning, 9th, december, monday, 9th, december, daughter, s, 16th, birthday, scary, even, worse, she, can, learn, to, drive, next, year, never, mind, enjoy, the, safety, we, went, out, for, lunch, and, did, some, shopping, it, was, good, i, don’t, normally, like, shopping, but, we, both, enjoyed, it, came, back, to, mayhem, a, client, small, animal, had, been, in, complaining, about, his, bill, and, had, caused, a, stink, anyway, i, phoned, him, and, once, we, had, gone, through, everything, he, seemed, happy, hopefully, he, had, either, misunderstood, or, hadn’t, had, things, explained, to, him, although, difficult, it, is, better, people, say, something, rather, than, stewing, over, it, and, making, it, into, something, it’s, not, the, small, animal, does, seem, to, have, more, problems, that, way, than, the, large, animal, i, suppose, the, large, animal, is, also, a, business, but, it, doesn’t, stop, them, caring, i, don’t, think, they, could, do, what, they, do, and, work, the, hours, they, work, if, they, didn’t, care, sometimes, they, get, a, hard, press, but, i, think, it’s, the, few, that, get, the, publicity, unfortunately, i, like, it, when, farmers, phone, to, say, they, have, a, sick, cow, and, we, ask, what, it’s, doing, and, quite, often, the, reply, is, she’s, just, not, herself, need, you, say, anymore, tuesday, i’m, going, out, to, play, milk, recording, with, a, new, person, via, interherd, he, is, one, of, our, clients, he, is, quite, a, character, old, fashioned, and, yet, in, his, thirties, it, was, good, he, is, very, passionate, about, farming, and, its, survival, he, has, a, lot, of, ideas, he, wants, to, try, with, different, cows, he, has, just, bought, some, jerseys, hence, he, wants, to, record, to, see, if, there, are, benefits, we, milked, 60, cows, in, 2, hours, at, my, other, farm, we, milk, 190, in, that, time, it’s, good, to, see, both, ways, weds, early, morning, milk, recording, good, fun, a, lot, more, relaxed, than, my, other, farm, went, to, hairdressers, straight, after, smelling, of, cows, with, pooh, in, my, hair, it’s, a, good, job, i, know, her, well, and, she, didn’t, complain, too, much, the, rest, of, the, day, was, quite, pleasant, a, bit, of, paperwork, and, a, skive, sorry, can’t, spell, to, the, lab, thursday, friday, wow, i, think, we, had, our, christmas, rush, they, should, all, be, shopping, it, has, been, very, busy, i, do, prefer, it, although, a, sit, down, now, and, then, would, be, good, me, and, nurse, had, a, good, time, on, friday, afternoon, i, helped, her, bath, and, groom, a, dog, it, was, so, naughty, nicely, we, were, both, sweating, buckets, and, soaked, to, the, skin, by, the, end, but, we, had, a, good, laugh, week, beginning, 16th, december, monday, 16th, december, with, daughter, s, mock, exams, she, has, needed, runs, to, and, from, school, at, various, times, so, mum’s, taxi, has, been, on, overtime, she, has, been, very, calm, about, it, so, we, shall, see, thursday, was, eventful, as, i, now, have, an, expectant, nurse, and, vet, watch, where, you, sit, unfortunately, there, is, a, worry, for, both, of, them, our, nurse, evening, receptionist, is, worried, she, may, be, losing, hers, and, has, had, several, tests, and, is, obviously, worried, she, is, going, in, for, a, scan, on, tuesday, so, fingers, crossed, vet, is, also, pregnant, they, have, been, trying, for, a, while, but, has, something, with, a, long, name, wrong, with, her, which, causes, her, to, miscarriage, so, she, is, pleased, worried, excited, scared, and, only, 4, weeks, so, no, lambing, for, her, she, is, quite, happy, continuing, with, all, other, work, for, now, i, hope, everything, is, ok, with, them, both, it, can, be, difficult, working, with, animals, and, being, pregnant, but, as, long, as, they, are, careful, they, should, be, ok, week, beginning, 23rd, december, monday, 23rd, december, so, much, for, getting, quiet, for, christmas, we, have, had, our, busiest, time, for, a, few, years, which, is, good, we, are, going, to, try, advertising, in, the, new, year, for, a, new, vet, especially, now, another, vet, is, expecting, it, will, all, depend, how, she, does, we, may, even, need, two, as, even, when, another, vet, is, on, duty, now, husband, has, to, be, on, standby, in, case, of, any, lambings, we, have, a, couple, of, farmers, starting, anytime, milk, recording, tonight, as, well, but, we, now, do, it, with, nmr, well, not, literally, so, i, only, need, record, once, so, not, too, bad, and, worked, in, will, with, xmas, round, the, corner, and, no, mince, pies, made, yet, tuesday, nurse, phoned, they, are, being, positive, at, the, moment, her, hormone, levels, have, increased, and, she, has, not, bled, anymore, it, doesn’t, stop, them, worrying, though, surgery, was, busy, but, we, did, finish, by, 1.30pm, my, sister, and, niece, arrived, all, set, off, we, go, christmas, was, ace, very, relaxing, good, fun, loads, of, pressies, didn’t, have, time, to, eat, too, busy, playing, and, it, was, so, warm, friday, back, to, work, a, very, busy, day, lots, of, calls, and, surgery, appointments, even, some, operations, receptionist, was, off, so, i, was, in, charge, i, enjoyed, it, finding, out, what, everyone, got, for, christmas, week, beginning, 30th, december, monday, 30th, december, busy, day, only, me, and, receptionist, in, thought, it, would, be, quiet, wrong, never, mind, we, coped, tuesday, nurse, has, lost, her, baby, or, is, losing, it, they, can’t, see, anything, on, the, scan, just, an, empty, sac, so, she, is, going, for, a, don’t, know, what, they, call, it, but, you, can, take, some, tablets, that, clear, everything, away, she, is, obviously, so, upset, what, do, you, say, she’s, going, to, drop, her, other, two, off, while, she, goes, in, it, is, so, sad, thursday, 2nd, january, everybody’s, back, again, full, crew, no, one, knowing, what, day, it, is, i, could, get, used, to, the, split, weeks, but, at, the, moment, i, need, it, stuck, to, my, head, quite, busy, as, well, which, is, good, trying, to, arrange, tt, test, but, farmers, are, never, keen, on, them, you, have, to, threaten, them, with, defra, coming, to, do, it, that, works, friday, went, blood, sampling, sheep, for, scrapie, with, husband, all, day, it, was, a, beautiful, day, very, cold, but, we, had, fun, only, we, were, stood, next, to, a, stream, women, torture, cold, air, and, running, water, i, had, to, nip, back, to, the, van, for, various, things, by, the, time, we, finished, i, was, frozen, the, test, was, part, of, the, national, scrapie, plan, which, is, to, sample, sheep, for, scrapie, so, if, or, when, they, find, bse, in, sheep, these, ones, will, or, should, be, okay, as, there, is, a, plan, to, slaughter, the, national, herd, if, bse, is, found, but, as, the, farmer, said, they, have, already, had, human, g, pigs, for, years, as, the, indians, eat, sheep, brains, and, before, the, removal, of, bone, meal, and, very, dubious, scabby, sheep, and, they, have, not, had, a, problem, so, we, will, wait, and, see, week, beginning, 6th, january, 2003, mon, 6th, january, 2003, our, new, nurse, started, today, she, managed, very, well, and, didn’t, seem, too, confused, when, she, went, home, she, has, worked, in, kennels, before, she, is, very, keen, fingers, crossed, another, vet, is, doing, her, dbr, and, for, part, of, this, she, has, to, do, a, study, she, has, decided, to, look, at, progesterone, and, other, levels, in, cows, post, calving, for, 6, weeks, to, see, what, happens, so, we, collect, a, sample, from, each, new, calved, cow, and, split, it, into, 3, smaller, pots, and, freeze, awaiting, testing, in, holland, very, exciting, but, quite, boring, the, results, should, be, interesting, though, hopefully, tuesday, you, forget, all, the, explaining, you, have, to, do, when, somebody, new, starts, so, me, and, nurse, have, written, a, step, by, step, guide, to, c, well, sort, of, it’s, all, the, little, things, we, haven’t, had, a, new, nurse, for, a, while, so, hopefully, the, book, can, be, used, for, other, new, people, it, took, a, bit, of, doing, but, we, were, pleased, with, it, in, the, end, i, spoke, to, mr, g, re, having, interherd, at, the, farm, all, i, have, to, do, now, is, get, round, to, see, him, he, is, very, hard, to, pin, down, but, we’ll, try, weds, new, nurse, liked, her, new, book, she, is, doing, very, well, and, it’s, nice, for, us, too, i, always, find, it, quite, refreshing, when, someone, is, genuinely, enthusiastic, with, us, all, being, close, and, having, their, own, areas, it’s, good, to, show, someone, else, but, can, be, scary, when, you, see, just, how, much, they, all, do, thursday, milk, pot, day, again, today, the, good, thing, is, going, to, pick, up, the, samples, as, you, get, a, natter, so, monday, and, thursday, the, samples, are, collected, split, and, frozen, it’s, quite, time, consuming, and, i’ve, just, realised, i, didn’t, ask, another, vet, how, long, she, was, doing, it, for, friday, we, have, decided, to, try, and, get, the, accounts, up, to, date, to, see, how, things, are, going, bar, not, being, able, to, find, a, vet, so, it’s, one, of, those, jobs, you, always, mean, to, keep, on, top, of, but, never, quite, manage, because, it’s, not, much, fun, interruptions, queries, and, assistance, were, very, welcome, but, i, got, a, good, start, week, beginning, 13th, january, monday, 13th, jan, a, has, started, working, with, us, again, just, two, days, a, week, this, will, help, a, lot, and, help, take, the, pressure, off, for, surgery, times, etc, i, got, to, spend, the, day, helping, with, tt, testing, it, was, good, fun, and, it, stayed, fine, it, was, a, good, day, tuesday, i, had, a, milk, recording, day, today, 3, in, total, we, have, started, using, nmr, now, so, it, was, all, new, paperwork, etc, this, is, going, to, be, cheaper, for, the, farmers, and, works, with, the, interherd, programme, anyway, it, all, went, well, and, everybody’s, samples, got, away, weds, milk, recorded, again, at, one, of, the, three, farms, first, thing, everytime, i, go, he, has, a, new, plan, as, to, how, to, make, some, money, this, month, it, is, he, is, going, to, produce, a, new, breed, of, cow, a, jersey, x, mri, so, we, will, see, how, that, goes, thursday, and, friday, just, catching, up, on, paperwork, me, and, nurse, did, some, training, with, the, new, nurse, she, is, settling, in, really, well, and, very, keen, week, beginning, 20th, january, monday, 20th, january, weds, decorated, our, bedroom, it, looks, brill, it, was, in, desperate, need, of, it, i, like, decorating, it’s, good, and, messy, thursday, i, went, on, my, brucellosis, testing, training, course, at, the, vlc, it, was, good, fun, this, means, that, after, i, have, now, tested, 150, cattle, i, get, a, licence, which, will, enable, me, to, blood, test, this, in, turn, will, hopefully, free, up, a, vet, it, will, also, give, defra, a, bank, of, blood, tester, for, any, future, outbreak, crafty, they, used, to, charge, about, 800, for, this, course, miraculously, it’s, now, free, clever, friday, we, have, had, a, reply, to, our, advert, hoorah, well, actually, two, they, are, both, foreign, one, is, in, germany, and, the, other, s, africa, so, we, are, waiting, for, their, cvs, fingers, crossed, defra, have, now, changed, the, 20, day, standstill, to, 6, days, the, general, opinion, seemed, to, be, so, it, would, be, interesting, to, actually, find, out, if, and, how, well, all, the, regulations, are, actually, working, not, well, i, feel, would, be, the, answer, week, beginning, 27th, january, mon, weds, very, busy, i, seem, to, have, spent, a, lot, of, it, in, my, car, dropping, off, tooing, and, froing, which, was, nice, but, i, do, lose, touch, with, the, happenings, at, the, surgery, and, on, tuesday, things, had, obviously, got, fraught, so, i, sorted, those, out, and, smoothed, the, creases, we, are, very, lucky, to, have, such, dedicated, staff, due, to, vet, shortage, and, another, vet, s, pregnancy, it, does, add, extra, pressure, to, everyone, none, of, the, incidents, were, very, serious, and, easily, sorted, thursday, i, went, with, my, sister, to, take, niece, to, the, hospital, as, since, she, was, born, she, has, had, a, lump, on, the, side, of, her, head, above, her, eye, so, they, xrayed, it, that, was, fun, persuading, her, to, lie, still, i, stayed, overnight, and, came, back, friday, week, beginning, 3rd, february, monday, 3rd, feb, i, did, my, first, blood, sample, on, a, live, cow, today, as, it, was, an, abortion, enquiry, and, due, to, another, vet, s, pregnancy, she, is, not, doing, them, ad, i, need, the, practice, it, was, good, fun, and, i, hit, the, 2nd, time, so, i, was, very, pleased, only, another, 145, to, go, before, i, get, my, licence, tuesday, i, completed, the, accounts, today, to, go, to, the, accountants, it, was, great, fun, i, hope, they, come, up, with, good, news, but, the, future, is, worrying, a, backlash, from, the, farmers, not, being, confident, weds, i, can’t, remember, if, i, told, you, vet, was, expecting, anyway, she, went, for, her, first, scan, today, and, so, far, so, good, it, is, very, worrying, as, she, has, a, problem, where, she, produces, duff, eggs, and, miscarriages, she, wants, to, carry, on, as, normal, as, possible, for, now, but, no, sheep, or, abortions, etc, i, hop, it, works, this, time, as, this, is, her, 4th, attempt, thursday, and, friday, very, nice, everything, worked, well, no, mad, rushes, time, to, catch, up, we, discussed, reducing, some, of, the, farm, drugs, as, they, are, able, to, buy, the, over, the, internet, with, a, prescription, all, the, laws, and, rules, will, more, than, likely, be, changing, at, the, beginning, of, march, due, to, a, report, done, for, the, govt, regarding, drugs, and, animal, use, it, will, make, a, difference, to, how, we, operate, as, if, they, remove, the, vet, surgeon’s, right, to, prescribe, drugs, i.e, vets, can, only, write, prescriptions, and, not, dispense, drugs, it, could, alter, things, completely, one, way, or, another, if, farmers, require, the, service, they, are, going, to, have, to, pay, for, it, up, to, now, it, has, always, been, that, a, reasonable, mark, up, is, put, on, the, drugs, this, is, normally, 50, and, this, will, keep, professional, fees, down, if, vets, are, not, getting, the, money, made, on, drugs, and, therefore, has, to, put, his, fees, up, although, the, farmer, may, be, buying, his, drugs, cheaper, via, the, internet, will, he, actually, save, that, much, i, wonder, so, anyway, we, have, been, getting, more, and, more, pressure, from, a, number, of, our, farmers, to, compete, with, the, internet, prices, so, we, have, selected, a, few, products, and, it, they, pay, at, the, time, they, can, get, about, 20, off, the, price, so, watch, this, space, and, we, will, see, what, happens, week, beginning, 10th, february, monday, 10th, feb, the, week, to, sum, up, a, blur, with, both, sad, and, very, funny, memories, to, start, receptionist, was, on, holiday, and, it, always, seems, to, happen, as, soon, as, someone, is, off, we, get, very, very, busy, when, everyone, is, in, it, ticks, along, nicely, mostly, i, do, enjoy, it, when, it’s, busy, but, we, worked, 3, 13, hour, days, not, food, but, everyone, worked, really, hard, they, are, excellent, staff, on, a, sad, note, vet, went, for, her, 11, week, scan, on, tuesday, and, the, baby, had, died, she, was, distraught, she, has, a, condition, that, causes, this, and, this, was, her, 4th, miscarriage, it’s, so, sad, i, called, to, see, her, and, she, just, hugged, me, and, cried, what, do, you, say, she, had, to, have, some, tablets, to, clear, away, the, placenta, etc, she, was, gutted, as, this, is, the, longest, she, had, ever, been, pregnant, and, she, thought, she’s, cracked, it, it’s, just, so, sad, my, funny, tale, for, the, week, on, a, completely, different, note, but, helped, immensely, was, other, vet, on, thursday, we, were, all, very, very, busy, and, a, farmer, called, in, i, was, very, behind, they, still, had, ops, to, do, and, this, farmer, settled, herself, down, for, a, big, chat, normally, if, i, say, i, have, a, lot, on, she, departs, but, no, not, today, it, was, obviously, my, turn, vet, came, over, from, the, op, room, and, i, know, it, was, naughty, but, i, wrote, on, a, card, can, i, have, some, help, i.e, to, free, myself, well, instead, of, reading, the, note, quietly, oh, no, she, read, it, out, at, the, top, of, her, voice, and, added, what, do, you, need, help, for, after, i, had, crawled, out, of, the, hole, that, had, opened, up, in, the, earth, to, swallow, me, i, pointed, to, the, message, book, to, try, and, hide, my, predicament, while, she, said, again, loudly, so, what, do, you, want, help, for, well, i, gave, up, and, decided, to, just, fall, into, the, hole, got, rid, of, vet, back, to, the, op, room, and, continued, alone, with, my, predicament, after, the, farmer, had, gone, who, thankfully, seemed, oblivious, to, what, had, happened, i, went, in, search, of, vet, to, kill, her, anyway, it, cheered, us, all, up, they, do, say, laughter, is, the, best, medicine, but, i, can, think, of, better, ways, week, beginning, 17th, february, monday, 17th, feb, vet, who, lost, baby, came, back, to, work, she, is, very, upset, and, weepy, everyone, has, been, lovely, with, her, hopefully, it, is, just, time, and, tlc, we, are, very, busy, again, and, have, had, an, enquiry, from, a, farmer, who, is, thinking, of, changing, vets, which, is, really, good, news, that, is, three, new, farmers, in, total, now, if, only, we, had, enough, vets, four, practices, around, carlisle, have, advertised, recently, and, none, of, the, positions, have, been, filled, it’s, quite, worrying, tuesday, i, took, vet, who, lost, baby, home, again, today, she, is, not, well, and, in, a, lot, of, pain, so, she’s, gone, back, to, bed, i, hope, she’s, feeling, better, soon, usual, day, otherwise, weds, vet, is, a, lot, better, today, apparently, they, think, it, may, be, the, cocodamol, she, was, taking, she, was, a, lot, happier, a, little, drained, but, ok, mr, w, came, in, today, his, cows, are, arriving, on, friday, hopefully, this, will, be, our, last, farm, to, restock, he, has, had, a, lot, of, alterations, done, to, the, farm, and, a, new, parlour, so, it’s, quite, exciting, thursday, we, did, some, sheep, exports, for, slaughter, from, longtown, today, the, first, of, that, sort, of, thing, since, fmd, it, was, of, course, a, bit, of, a, faf, as, they, now, have, to, be, retagged, and, checked, so, it, takes, a, little, longer, in, the, afternoon, i, had, a, meeting, with, sr, from, university, of, reading, she, is, planning, to, do, research, regarding, the, interherd, programme, and, she, had, picked, 3, vet, practices, to, see, how, the, programme, helps, the, vets, and, the, farmers, work, better, together, and, the, improvements, it, makes, to, the, farmers, record, keeping, so, she, is, going, to, meet, 3, of, our, farmers, who, use, interherd, and, interview, them, and, give, them, free, training, so, that, should, please, them, fri, day, off, me, and, daughter, went, to, newcastle, shopping, i’m, not, a, good, shopper, but, i, did, behave, and, we, had, a, good, day, mr, w’s, cows, arrived, all, fit, and, healthy, so, that, is, us, complete, now, ass, we, were, if, not, better, sad, news, though, we, heard, one, of, our, farmers, dropped, down, dead, suddenly, it, was, very, sad, as, we, had, seen, him, in, the, morning, and, he, was, his, normal, self, so, it, was, quite, a, shock, his, family, must, be, devastated, mind, if, there’s, a, good, way, to, go, that’s, it, week, beginning, 24th, february, monday, 24th, feb, another, vet, a, lot, better, today, almost, back, to, her, normal, cheery, self, she, is, a, lot, more, positive, we, took, the, bull, by, the, horns, so, to, speak, and, reduced, the, prices, of, some, drugs, we, will, have, to, wait, until, the, 10th, march, before, we, find, out, what, the, government, is, going, to, do, regarding, the, selling, of, drugs, but, the, farmers, are, very, pleased, tuesday, i, got, another, phone, call, from, mr, c, and, he, said, he, would, like, to, change, vets, to, us, so, good, news, husband, spoke, to, his, old, vet, and, explained, why, etc, it, is, very, difficult, and, i, think, that, in, the, future, there, may, be, more, changing, of, vets, where, as, in, the, past, it, never, happened, but, even, farmers, appreciate, competition, now, it, again, is, worrying, milk, recorded, at, mr, g, tonight, it’s, always, good, crack, as, they, say, weds, milk, recorded, early, morning, and, then, showed, them, the, interherd, programme, they, are, going, to, try, it, i, think, in, the, afternoon, i, went, with, other, vet, to, vet, a, horse, for, purchase, it, can, be, tricky, sometimes, and, two, pairs, of, eyes, are, better, than, one, as, it, turned, out, the, horse, was, lame, so, we, couldn’t, vet, it, so, we, will, have, to, go, back, another, day, thursday, normal, day, did, some, more, sheep, exports, in, the, afternoon, they, have, a, very, efficient, system, at, longtown, so, it, makes, it, a, lot, easier, fri, i, went, to, farmer, s, funeral, this, morning, it, was, very, sad, i, don’t, like, funerals, well, i, don’t, suppose, anyone, does, but, it, stayed, fine, and, he, had, a, good, send, off, in, the, afternoon, i, got, an, opportunity, to, do, some, more, blood, sampling, just, 15, so, it, was, good, it’s, getting, used, to, handling, everything, and, forgetting, you’re, at, the, end, that, shits, and, kicks, no, broken, limbs, and, i, got, blood, week, beginning, 3rd, march, mon, 3rd, march, i, went, to, help, a, tt, test, in, the, morning, just, taking, numbers, we, now, have, 4, farms, on, restrictions, due, to, tb, reactors, but, up, to, now, on, the, cows, taken, for, further, tests, no, lesions, have, been, fund, we, now, get, to, do, the, repeat, 60, day, test, on, the, farms, now, as, defra, can’t, keep, up, sounds, familiar, we, saw, the, accountant, in, the, afternoon, we, had, sent, 9, months, of, accounts, to, him, as, we, need, to, see, how, the, practice, was, now, doing, anyway, it, was, not, as, bad, as, we, thought, but, the, income, is, down, but, is, slowly, growing, the, main, problem, is, farmers, won’t, call, out, for, sick, cows, now, they, will, leave, it, longer, or, try, to, treat, them, themselves, mainly, due, to, them, watching, their, spending, mr, w, had, a, problem, with, his, interherd, he, needed, to, run, his, extensification, figures, and, they, didn’t, add, up, so, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, trying, to, figure, out, why, i, think, i, know, why, it, was, how, he, set, it, up, initially, so, it, may, need, his, entry, dates, changed, tues, went, tt, testing, again, this, morning, it, was, a, lovely, morning, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, sorting, mr, w’s, problem, out, and, it, worked, he, was, chuffed, the, good, is, i, think, i, now, understand, extensifications, weds, caught, up, on, some, paperwork, in, the, morning, i, helped, new, nurse, with, a, dog, grooming, in, the, afternoon, which, was, fun, she, is, doing, really, well, and, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, we, both, ended, up, soaked, thanks, to, the, dog, but, it, looked, loads, better, when, it, went, home, good, news, we, get, a, new, vet, from, south, africa, starting, 1.4.03, he, worked, over, here, during, fmd, and, met, someone, and, their, relationship, has, lasted, hence, he, wants, a, job, in, carlisle, so, bingo, here, comes, a, holiday, thursday, friday, very, busy, in, the, practice, everyone, kept, going, we, have, a, great, team, and, they, really, come, into, their, own, when, it’s, busy, i, love, the, way, everyone, pulls, together, they, are, very, dedicated, week, beginning, 10th, march, monday, quiet, day, for, a, monday, but, the, weather, has, been, nice, so, they, are, all, out, playing, but, we, had, quite, a, few, lambings, to, do, that’s, one, thing, that, has, changed, since, fmd, prior, to, fmd, we, hardly, used, to, do, any, lambings, for, farmers, but, since, we, now, do, far, more, last, year, we, put, it, down, to, them, having, new, stock, but, it, seems, to, be, the, same, this, year, tuesday, today, is, milk, recording, day, i, have, 3, recordings, today, they, all, need, boxes, and, paperwork, i, don’t, have, to, help, at, any, of, the, milkings, though, which, is, good, as, they, are, quite, a, way, from, each, other, but, a, nice, day, for, a, drive, weds, thurs, fri, the, end, of, our, weeks, seem, to, be, busier, than, the, beginnings, at, the, moment, it, has, been, non, stop, one, disadvantage, when, it, is, so, busy, is, you, don’t, have, the, time, to, chat, as, often, i, took, some, drugs, to, a, farm, our, last, one, to, restock, as, he, was, having, alterations, done, it, was, amazing, to, see, the, transformations, he, had, made, to, the, farm, all, geared, to, one, person, being, able, to, do, more, alone, with, more, cows, interesting, week, beginning, 17th, march, mon, tuesday, i, went, with, another, vet, to, mr, c’s, for, his, tt, and, blood, test, another, vet, did, the, tt, and, i, did, the, blood, as, part, of, my, lay, blood, tester’s, licence, i, needed, to, do, 150, which, i, managed, it, was, good, fun, and, the, weather, was, great, we, had, to, spread, it, over, 2, days, due, to, the, amount, of, cattle, it, was, really, good, practice, for, me, and, i, think, i’ve, cracked, it, now, there, are, talks, about, giving, tt, testing, to, lay, people, but, quite, how, and, when, is, anyone’s, guess, weds, more, blood, testing, today, i’ve, really, cracked, it, now, only, i’ve, discovered, muscles, in, my, arms, i, didn’t, know, i, had, i, enjoy, the, blood, testing, sad, isn’t, it, thursday, i, had, a, morning, with, alco, waste, management, sorting, out, all, the, clinical, waste, regulations, and, they, need, more, detail, of, what, actually, goes, in, our, waste, we, always, provided, a, free, service, to, farmers, for, disposing, of, sharps, and, old, drug, and, empty, drugs, etc, but, we, are, going, to, have, to, start, charging, now, it, is, now, 100, dearer, a, month, than, it, was, fri, me, and, husband, spent, the, morning, looking, at, fees, income, etc, and, seeing, where, we, can, increase, fees, to, help, cover, if, we, lose, the, right, to, dispense, drugs, to, farmers, which, we, still, haven’t, heard, about, to, continue, as, we, are, we, will, have, to, make, the, difference, up, it’s, just, how, week, beginning, 24th, march, monday, doing, the, paperwork, for, a, tt, test, it, was, a, beautiful, day, i, do, enjoy, doing, this, especially, when, the, weather’s, good, and, they, are, very, nice, farmers, i, also, get, to, spend, the, day, with, husband, which, makes, a, change, although, we, work, together, we, don’t, often, get, to, see, much, of, each, other, tuesday, busy, day, spent, most, of, it, making, sure, everything, got, done, and, helping, out, weds, i, went, to, the, careers, convention, at, the, sands, centre, it, was, very, busy, and, we, had, a, lot, of, interest, but, a, long, day, before, going, someone, phoned, to, say, there, was, a, collie, dog, running, around, on, the, roundabout, so, me, and, new, nurse, went, to, see, if, we, could, catch, it, well, it, didn’t, want, caught, but, i, was, really, worried, it, got, onto, the, motorway, so, we, phoned, the, police, and, the, dog, warden, who, incidentally, couldn’t, come, until, 9am, as, he, didn’t, start, til, then, so, i, had, to, politely, explain, that, he, would, have, to, be, the, police, dog, handler, wasn’t, much, help, but, at, least, he, stopped, the, traffic, bless, him, the, dog, warden, did, appear, 5, minutes, later, and, it, was, only, 8.30, am, so, we, managed, to, get, the, dog, off, the, roundabout, and, catch, it, everyone, safe, thankfully, thurs, fri, busy, days, new, vet, from, south, africa, phoned, so, he’s, coming, to, see, us, on, monday, to, pick, up, his, vehicle, and, meet, everyone, he, sounds, pleasant, so, we, will, see, my, joke, at, the, moment, when, people, ask, where, we, found, him, is, that, we, got, him, off, the, internet, it, is, a, little, worrying, not, having, met, him, first, but, it, should, work, watch, this, space, week, beginning, 31st, march, monday, we, have, had, l, staying, for, two, weeks, she’s, a, vet, student, from, london, and, stayed, with, us, about, this, tine, last, year, it, was, interesting, to, go, over, the, changes, from, a, year, ago, last, time, she, was, here, people, were, restocking, and, there, was, an, element, of, wariness, so, it, was, interesting, to, fill, her, in, on, how, things, are, now, one, thing, she, mentioned, was, noticing, the, stock, in, the, fields, was, nice, as, there, were, only, a, few, still, last, year, talking, over, things, is, still, hard, sometimes, although, it, seems, a, long, time, ago, the, feelings, and, emotions, are, still, deep, certain, parts, can, still, hit, a, raw, nerve, there, seems, to, be, a, mere, anger, at, the, moment, generally, people, and, farmers, are, wanting, to, know, why, they, still, have, restrictions, what, is, going, to, happen, about, shows, and, sales, etc, and, will, normality, ever, return, unfortunately, i, think, not, not, in, the, way, they, want, it, to, tuesday, our, new, vet, started, today, we, got, on, very, well, it, has, taken, us, so, long, to, find, a, vet, and, if, the, work, and, testing, carries, on, increasing, we, are, going, to, need, another, one, wednesday, very, busy, day, husband, s, gone, to, talk, at, a, bcva, conference, and, agm, so, poor, new, vet, has, been, thrown, in, at, the, deep, end, it, has, been, very, busy, but, he, seems, to, be, coping, well, the, clients, were, very, impressed, so, far, so, long, may, it, last, it, is, good, to, have, new, staff, with, new, ideas, i, quite, enjoy, it, and, he, is, definitely, a, big, hit, with, the, female, clients, it, really, does, make, you, embarrassed, to, be, female, when, they, go, into, the, consulting, room, you, count, to, 4, and, then, comes, the, girlie, giggle, quite, funny, thursday, sad, day, today, my, sister, had, been, confirmed, as, having, cervical, cancer, no, more, on, that, for, now, friday, had, another, interherd, sale, today, one, thing, fmd, has, forced, on, farmers, is, the, need, for, efficient, records, and, interherd, is, brilliant, at, that, it’s, so, clever, one, of, our, farmers, who, has, had, it, for, a, while, and, has, 120, milking, cows, now, does, all, his, daily, records, in, 5, 10, minutes, can’t, be, bad, week, beginning, 7th, april, monday, busy, day, new, vet, is, settling, in, really, well, and, coping, fine, if, we, carry, on, at, this, rate, we, will, need, another, vet, a, lot, of, it, depends, on, how, much, more, testing, we, are, going, to, get, and, what, happens, with, commission, report, into, dispensing, drugs, tuesday, sr, came, today, from, uni, of, reading, who, own, the, interherd, program, we, went, round, some, of, the, farmers, that, used, it, and, helped, sort, out, any, queries, it, was, a, good, day, i, learnt, a, lot, and, the, farmers, found, it, useful, too, she, said, she, would, come, again, later, in, the, year, so, i, think, we, might, try, and, organise, for, them, all, to, come, to, the, practise, for, a, chat, wednesday, did, some, interherd, training, with, one, of, the, farmers, wives, we, said, just, an, hour, as, she, wasn’t, fully, computer, literate, anyway, 4, hours, later, she, had, well, and, truly, got, the, hang, of, it, she, was, very, keen, and, i, really, enjoyed, it, thursday, friday, they, blur, into, one, as, it, has, been, so, busy, everyone, has, been, flat, out, we, are, going, to, start, the, vet, advertising, again, and, another, nurse, receptionist, week, beginning, 14th, april, monday, got, caught, up, today, sorted, out, all, the, queries, quite, pleased, with, my, self, tuesday, went, to, a, local, nursery, to, talk, about, vets, to, 3, year, olds, i, was, quite, dreading, it, but, thankfully, it, was, great, they, were, really, good, i, took, some, dressing, up, clothes, and, x, ray, instruments, and, teddy, bears, and, they, operated, and, had, a, really, good, time, one, of, them, asked, me, if, all, the, cows, and, sheep, were, better, and, did, they, still, have, funny, feet, and, mouths, week, beginning, 21st, april, tuesday, wednesday, quite, busy, days, and, a, lot, to, catch, up, on, we, all, went, away, with, sister, and, niece, this, weekend, to, husband, s, mum, and, dads, caravan, we, had, a, great, time, sister, s, biopsy, off, rest, of, week, week, beginning, 28th, april, monday, three, farmers, milk, recording, today, and, tomorrow, so, busy, dropping, pets, and, paperwork, off, advertised, for, a, vet, today, fingers, crossed, off, for, two, weeks, helping, sister, to, move, interviewed, a, nurse, receptionist, she, is, perfect, and, experienced, she, wrote, a, letter, in, as, her, husbands, job, had, brought, them, to, the, area, so, she, starts, 12th, may, i, wish, it, was, as, easy, finding, a, vet, week, beginning, 12th, may, monday, our, new, girlie, started, today, she, is, very, keen, and, capable, she, has, done, really, well, even, with, the, computer, system, that, she, was, dreading, tuesday, busy, day, also, 2x, milk, recordings, so, a, bit, of, hollering, about, i, was, thinking, it, is, about, a, year, we, have, had, now, of, normal, work, everyone, new, appears, to, be, getting, on, with, it, as, the, saying, goes, everyone, bears, a, scar, and, has, a, story, to, tell, and, realise, it, is, not, the, same, but, how, could, it, be, weds, fri, quite, busy, but, capable, at, work, daughter, got, the, job, for, the, training, in, her, m, apprentice, course, so, she, is, over, the, moon, it’s, all, a, new, learning, curve, you, suddenly, realise, she, is, growing, up, getting, a, job, and, leaving, school, unfortunately, this, morning, daughter, has, decided, she, doesn’t, want, to, leave, full, time, education, yet, and, is, worried, about, the, job, she, is, wanting, to, do, a, business, course, at, a, college, so, all, change, again, we, have, had, bid, discussions, and, are, going, to, go, down, to, connexions, next, week, sat, yf, young, farmers, field, day, today, i, love, these, days, it, is, amazing, the, effort, and, enjoyment, that, makes, it, such, a, good, day, there, is, also, such, a, high, standard, in, all, the, classes, i, admire, the, enthusiasm, of, the, young, farmers, and, just, hope, they, can, survive, somehow, week, beginning, 19th, may, monday, we, have, found, the, course, daughter, wants, to, do, at, college, thanks, to, connexions, the, bad, news, is, it, is, not, done, locally, she, could, do, a, local, course, but, it, would, be, wasted, time, to, some, extent, big, discussions, most, of, the, week, we, have, found, they, do, the, course, in, blackburn, and, preston, my, sister, and, mum, live, down, there, and, are, more, than, happy, for, her, to, move, in, i, just, don’t, know, if, i, am, ready, to, let, her, go, but, i’ll, have, to, be, a, big, girl, about, it, we, have, sent, application, forms, off, so, will, have, to, wait, and, see, now, and, try, and, get, used, to, it, weds, really, good, evening, at, penrith, re, the, discussion, it, was, so, good, to, talk, to, the, other, diarists, and, realise, and, be, able, to, relate, so, closely, to, what, they, said, it, was, poignant, to, see, what, other, people, had, written, and, interesting, to, see, what, you, had, done, so, far, with, the, data, collected, it, would, be, brilliant, to, hand, to, any, future, study, or, enquiry, as, it, is, proof, surely, not, all, these, people, could, be, wrong, and, to, have, so, many, diarists, start, and, finish, is, amazing, i’m, sure, it, can, be, used, for, so, many, different, topics, amazing, i, am, personally, very, proud, to, have, been, a, part, of, it, and, although, sometimes, i, have, wondered, if, what, i, was, writing, was, any, use, i, can, see, now, how, it, comes, together, than, you, all, for, the, opportunity, shame, not, in, better, circumstances, it, has, helped, me, more, than, i, originally, realised, but, thinking, back, it, was, all, unbelievable, and, not, something, i, would, like, to, repeat, i, am, ever, the, optimist, or, so, i’m, told, and, do, believe, or, hope, things, and, farming, can, recover, not, fully, but, enough, to, be, able, to, show, other, people, what, a, wonderful, life, it, is, hard, but, special, week, beginning, 26th, may, never, stopped, on, tuesday, after, bank, holiday, so, busy, new, vet, is, settling, in, now, but, his, girlfriend, can’t, find, a, job, so, that’s, a, bit, worrying, he, may, leave, sooner, than, expected, oh, no, not, advertising, again, the, rest, of, the, week, was, uneventful, really, ticked, along, nicely, we, met, up, with, some, friends, on, wednesday, evening, who, holiday, in, the, lakes, each, year, so, it, was, nice, to, see, them, again, we, had, a, good, evening, we, were, also, out, on, thursday, night, with, a, drug, rep, very, nice, meal, and, they, have, offered, to, pay, for, husband, bri, catt, vet, ass, meeting, in, amsterdam, in, october, so, that, was, very, nice, business, link, have, also, offered, to, help, us, get, a, consultant, in, to, see, if, they, have, any, ideas, for, improving, maybe, they, can, find, vets, too, all, in, all, quite, an, exciting, week, week, beginning, 2nd, june, the, exams, have, started, everyone, warns, to, beware, but, daughter, is, very, laid, back, about, it, all, too, much, i, feel, but, as, long, as, she, does, her, best, i, went, to, the, accountants, to, look, at, the, books, for, the, end, of, year, so, far, not, quite, finished, yet, and, thankfully, we, won’t, be, needing, income, support, this, year, it, is, so, much, better, more, regulation, but, nothing, we, can’t, cope, with, honest, week, beginning, 9th, june, daughter, had, an, interview, at, blackburn, college, it, wasn’t, a, very, nice, place, but, then, i’m, not, going, preston, is, on, the, 25th, so, she, will, decide, after, that, niece, had, her, c.t, scan, for, her, head, that, was, eventful, and, lisa, and, her, naughty, jelly, babies, zapped, all, went, well, but, she, was, a, bit, sore, after, week, beginning, 23rd, june, monday, went, tt, testing, with, another, vet, today, it, was, a, retest, due, to, them, having, a, reactor, it, was, a, good, day, they, are, nice, people, there, is, a, father, and, 2, sons, during, fmd, i, had, a, phone, call, one, night, and, this, was, just, someone, crying, on, the, end, of, it, i, didn’t, know, what, to, say, and, i, wasn’t, sure, who, it, was, but, i, just, spoke, about, mainly, silly, things, i, can’t, really, remember, what, but, didn’t, get, much, of, a, response, just, yes, and, no’s, and, i, thought, i, recognised, the, voice, as, being, the, father, we, were, with, today, anyway, during, lunch, which, we, had, at, the, farm, we, were, chatting, and, of, course, got, into, fmd, and, he, thanked, me, it, took, aback, but, he, said, he, had, appreciated, me, waffling, on, it, was, the, night, of, the, day, his, cows, had, been, shot, and, he, had, phoned, to, let, us, know, but, he, said, he, just, broke, down, and, couldn’t, say, anything, anyway, he, laughed, because, he, said, he, was, going, to, hang, up, but, he, couldn’t, get, word, in, edgeways, because, i, was, wittering, but, he, said, he, did, feel, a, bit, better, after, so, we, had, a, good, heart, to, heart, tuesday, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, and, sorted, some, bits, and, pieces, out, weds, took, daughter, to, preston, college, for, an, interview, it, was, good, and, seems, a, nice, place, i, can’t, believe, she, will, be, leaving, home, at, the, end, of, august, very, scary, i’m, really, going, to, have, to, be, a, big, girl, about, it, thursday, we, went, to, visit, business, link, to, discuss, some, more, things, and, they, are, hopefully, going, to, help, us, pay, a, firm, of, consultants, to, help, us, out, to, see, how, we, can, improve, and, move, the, practice, on, so, that’s, exciting, fri, went, milk, recording, first, thing, so, that, was, good, fun, after, recording, i, had, to, collect, one, of, our, elderly, clients, and, her, dog, that, was, coming, for, an, operation, the, lady, is, 92, and, her, and, the, dog, are, very, close, so, she, wanted, to, stay, with, her, until, she, was, sedated, so, she, was, pleased, she, could, come, with, her, the, girls, all, laugh, at, me, because, i, have, quite, a, few, little, old, ladies, who, we, visit, and, keep, a, check, on, their, pets, week, beginning, 30th, june, not, a, lot, of, excitement, at, all, this, week, we, have, been, kept, going, and, i, caught, up, on, paperwork, we, are, going, to, my, sister’s, this, week, end, to, start, sorting, her, spare, bedroom, for, daughter, week, beginning, 7th, july, mon, spent, the, morning, explaining, to, our, newest, girlie, about, interherd, and, how, to, work, it, this, will, enable, her, to, help, me, on, the, data, entry, side, we, also, had, a, little, trip, out, around, some, of, the, farms, that, record, with, us, to, give, her, an, idea, of, where, they, are, tuesday, went, exporting, sheep, today, they, all, had, to, be, retagged, it, was, quite, warm, not, much, fun, i’ll, maybe, get, new, girl, to, do, exporting, weds, 2, milk, recordings, today, so, quite, busy, with, bottles, and, sheets, and, things, and, they, are, both, in, the, opposite, direction, to, each, other, never, mind, it, was, a, nice, day, for, driving, about, thursday, we, have, got, a, new, vet, to, replace, vet, from, sa, she, seems, very, lovely, she, is, going, to, start, on, 4.08.03, we, used, an, agency, and, it, has, proved, worthwhile, we, worked, out, that, rather, than, paying, for, endless, adverts, we, would, give, it, a, go, and, it, seems, to, have, worked, so, that’s, exciting, fri, we, went, car, hunting, today, as, if, we, all, go, out, at, the, week, end, it, becomes, a, bit, crushed, and, sometimes, we, end, up, taking, two, vehicles, so, we, have, really, splashed, out, rightly, or, wrongly, and, bought, a, new, crv, truck, it’s, very, posh, so, we, get, that, on, 21.07.03, week, beginning, 14th, july, monday, person, from, the, interherd, office, came, up, to, see, us, and, we, visited, a, few, of, our, farmers, that, are, on, interherd, between, them, and, nmr, they, have, really, tried, with, providing, quality, and, cost, effective, equipment, that, is, helpful, to, the, farmers, you, can, now, use, interherd, in, some, milking, parlours, which, is, really, useful, tues, we, went, to, see, a, horse, with, a, cough, and, after, treating, the, pony, we, were, chatting, and, they, have, converted, a, small, barn, into, a, camping, hostel, their, farm, is, along, hadrian’s, wall, and, since, having, foot, and, mouth, and, doing, the, barn, up, they, have, nearly, covered, their, costs, they, still, have, a, few, stock, but, not, as, many, mr, i, was, saying, how, his, father, used, to, milk, about, 25, cows, and, be, able, to, make, a, good, living, from, that, it’s, amazing, the, difference, weds, we, got, a, new, payroll, package, today, so, i, spent, most, of, my, day, trying, to, understand, it, i, was, very, bog, eyed, by, the, end, but, i, think, i, understand, it, and, it, seems, to, work, well, and, should, be, a, lot, easier, and, quicker, thursday, busy, day, there, were, lots, of, ops, and, farm, calls, a, couple, of, farmers, have, been, asking, about, prescriptions, as, soon, they, will, be, able, to, get, their, drugs, from, anywhere, a, lot, have, said, they, appreciate, they, have, to, pay, for, the, service, one, way, or, another, and, are, happy, to, carry, on, as, they, have, been, doing, we, will, lose, money, to, some, extent, but, how, much, remains, to, be, seen, and, we, will, have, to, cope, friday, off, went, to, see, westlife, with, daughter]
## 4 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1963, gender, m, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, saturday, 9th, march, 2002, an, old, african, proverb, states, the, best, time, to, plant, a, tree, was, 20, years, ago, the, next, best, time, is, now, i, should, have, started, this, diary, over, a, year, ago, to, keep, track, of, changes, in, the, unrolling, of, the, fmd, epidemic, and, my, feelings, towards, it, today, is, probably, a, good, day, to, start, the, diary, as, i, was, about, to, sit, down, after, a, really, bad, week, to, write, some, comments, for, the, lessons, learned, inquiry, and, thought, i, should, check, the, web, site, for, an, update, i, found, out, to, my, considerable, annoyance, that, the, inquiry, was, coming, to, cumbria, to, meet, with, defra, and, hold, the, open, meeting, on, tuesday, night, and, if, you, wanted, a, ticket, to, attend, then, you, had, to, apply, by, a, week, ago, the, overall, impression, is, that, the, govt, do, not, want, to, learn, lessons, i, was, looking, after, kids, as, wife, was, on, counselling, course, and, i, was, on, call, sat, morn, the, vets, were, busy, so, i, ended, up, taking, children, into, vets, with, me, they, watched, videos, in, the, waiting, room, while, i, sorted, out, and, consulted, coming, down, with, cold, after, spending, friday, tb, testing, on, restocking, farm, but, at, least, i, managed, to, avoid, getting, kicked, and, crushed, the, farm, hand, who, is, one, of, the, hard, lads, of, wigton, refused, to, get, in, with, the, fat, bulls, to, test, them, after, getting, floored, by, a, kick, if, the, f, ministry, want, them, f, tested, they, can, f, coming, and, etc, etc, i, am, putting, in, a, letter, to, say, why, they, were, not, tested, to, see, response, didn’t, get, finished, on, farm, till, 5.45, pm, having, started, with, a, caesarean, at, 5, 30am.must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, the, farming, economy, is, bizarre, at, the, moment, he, has, silage, in, heaps, all, over, the, farm, so, instead, of, feeding, straw, which, is, incredibly, expensive, 70, ton, he, is, feeding, the, better, quality, silage, and, the, calves, are, all, too, big, there, are, 30, to, calve, so, a, few, nights, work, there, where, ever, i, go, on, farms, the, stories, that, farmers, are, wanting, to, get, off, their, chest, about, the, maff, incompetence, and, inconsistency, is, bewildering, there, is, a, lot, of, anger, out, there, i, went, to, do, the, restocking, sentinel, visit, for, mg, l, fm, he, is, usually, the, most, laid, back, of, guys, but, he, told, them, he, was, bringing, his, cattle, on, and, he, would, see, them, in, court, why, are, we, doing, sentinel, visits, to, a, farm, that, had, fmd, 11, months, ago, the, virus, only, lives, a, month, sunday, mothering, sunday, kids, had, all, got, presents, and, cards, for, mum, they, brought, them, all, in, with, a, breakfast, tray, very, cute, but, pear, juice, all, over, the, carpet, tim, and, i, spent, sat, night, baking, a, chocolate, cake, for, her, which, meant, i, hadn’t, got, lunch, never, mind, church, was, ps, speaking, on, characters, walking, with, god, and, talking, about, abraham, setting, off, with, out, knowing, where, he, is, going, maybe, i, should, follow, suit, with, large, animal, vetting, being, reduced, to, tb, testing, and, caesareans, the, evening, service, was, really, lively, with, hp, from, austria, about, turning, every, hour, over, to, god, now, that, is, what, i, should, do, g, r, called, around, sun, afternoon, he, is, pessimistic, about, fertiliser, sales, there, is, that, much, land, and, grass, around, and, the, govt, grants, for, extensification, new, regulations, on, nitrates, is, giving, him, a, headache, though, as, he, points, out, it, is, not, fertiliser, that, cause, the, problems, as, they, are, used, by, grass, but, by, phosphates, and, slurry, organics, lough, neigh, has, real, problems, with, algal, blooms, and, they, are, blaming, fertiliser, but, so, has, bassenthwaite, but, there, is, not, any, fertiliser, spread, on, the, fells, so, is, it, really, agriculture, monday, read, test, and, was, very, glad, it, was, clear, as, the, farm, of, origin, of, one, of, batches, has, gone, down, with, tb, more, testing, after, lunch, organic, farm, they, have, just, had, their, first, pay, check, 23p, per, litre, they, were, promised, 36p, when, they, started, to, convert, 2, years, ago, who, would, be, in, agriculture, desperately, behind, in, admin, with, vets, and, home, but, at, least, the, clinical, work, pays, tuesday, caught, up, on, a, lot, of, admin, as, back, to, 6, vets, for, day, 2, cows, aborting, on, restocking, farm, more, disease, rota, still, for, 5vets, yuk, the, evening, open, meeting, poorly, attendee, due, to, poor, publicity, i, am, only, local, practitioner, i, phoned, around, no, one, had, been, invited, or, had, seen, advance, publicity, and, we, all, feel, that, they, are, not, interested, and, that, they, will, not, listen, some, moving, testimony, and, the, bullying, culture, came, through, and, the, frustration, and, anger, that, comes, from, dealing, with, a, faceless, bureaucracy, distant, in, london, 11, million, animals, 2000, farms, in, cumbria, businesses, wrecked, lives, wrecked, a, crisis, turned, into, a, disaster, by, bureaucratic, incompetence, and, political, considerations, i, am, pleased, i, went, i, feel, that, it, is, like, a, sense, of, closure, the, funeral, so, to, speak, the, end, and, i, spoke, with, wife, when, i, got, back, i, feel, i, can, lay, the, past, down, and, look, to, the, future, weds, day, off, k, a, for, lunch, and, sort, out, finances, etc, and, write, diary, everyone, is, saying, about, this, time, last, year, and, glad, that, fmd, is, finished, went, to, see, grease, the, school, production, it, was, very, well, done, brought, back, memories, of, 6th, form, thurs, 300, pages, of, a4, waiting, for, me, in, my, in, tray, courtesy, of, defra, are, they, mindless, or, what, rang, to, speak, to, ah, but, only, got, hold, of, n, and, told, her, it, was, out, of, order, i, should, get, my, blood, pressure, measured, as, some, one, says, defra, stupid, idiots, so, much, for, closure, i, feel, very, frustrated, if, this, is, the, future, of, farm, practice, anal, glands, here, we, come, who, said, a, vets, life, ain’t, glamorous, managed, to, calm, down, and, get, the, next, 2, weeks, of, testing, organised, it, is, a, good, job, that, we, are, organising, it, as, trying, to, get, folk, on, the, phone, is, n’t, easy, workload, picking, up, and, managed, to, persuade, gg, to, advertise, even, if, only, at, tvi, hq, all, of, the, local, practices, who, have, advertised, have, had, very, few, if, any, responses, we, are, busy, but, with, defra, work, spent, time, singing, grease, songs, much, to, nurses, amusement, did, restocking, visit, at, lynedraw, they, gave, me, a, look, around, it, is, amazingly, clean, because, even, after, pressure, washing, the, spiders, usually, make, a, come, back, but, the, buildings, are, sterile, and, no, cobwebs, or, insect, life, which, usually, abounds, even, in, empty, buildings, weird, there, will, be, a, lot, of, flies, next, year, news, that, pi, has, headship, of, nelson, thom, and, so, we, can, expect, the, discipline, to, improve, again, friday, curry, and, quiz, at, the, boys, school, very, cosmopolitan, for, cumbria, it, was, good, fun, and, the, kids, enjoyed, it, but, we, were, useless, on, the, photos, for, which, you, definitely, need, a, tv, spent, time, chatting, to, local, gp, who, which, was, interesting, they, have, a, place, for, their, son, at, nelson, thom, but, he, isn’t, keen, saturday, 16th, march, working, this, w, e, and, on, call, friday, night, so, had, an, early, start, with, a, caser, on, ewe, a, lambing, hurray, things, are, getting, back, to, normal, even, if, it, is, a, dutch, beltex, the, farmer, is, really, fed, up, and, wants, ah, to, be, sacked, as, he, threatened, to, kill, all, his, recently, imported, dutch, sheep, as, the, paper, work, was, not, right, they, had, come, and, blood, sampled, them, and, then, sent, the, results, to, his, brother, who, is, still, under, form, a, and, then, refused, him, permission, to, move, any, of, the, sheep, off, because, he, shouldn’t, have, any, because, he, was, on, form, a, and, what, were, the, blood, results, for, defra, would, be, a, joke, if, it, wasn’t, so, serious, oh, and, after, my, complaint, about, them, deluging, us, with, paper, yes, you, guessed, it, they, sent, another, 7, x, 20, sheets, of, a4, idiots, aw, is, in, a, tiz, and, so, had, to, get, help, in, sat, morning, which, was, a, shame, but, hey, ho, she, is, not, coping, with, the, post, fmd, constant, changing, of, the, goal, posts, went, to, susan, ian’s, for, another, curry, and, had, a, really, good, time, and, have, decided, to, phase, out, house, group, which, was, coming, hopefully, low, moor, will, set, up, a, 3rd, house, group, for, wigton, hebron, is, going, to, change, to, new, outlook, groups, sun, never, managed, to, get, to, church, as, calls, all, day, beautiful, day, though, the, weather, has, really, picked, up, must, get, garden, sorted, and, seeds, planted, a, came, out, on, call, this, evening, it, is, one, good, point, that, this, job, does, allow, the, kids, to, join, with, me, she, is, really, growing, up, she, wanted, to, go, to, cinema, but, as, wife, was, late, and, weather, good, she, came, back, here, and, they, walked, the, dog, and, wound, up, the, boys, mon, early, morning, call, to, see, a, farmer, who, is, a, scrap, metal, dealer, who, hates, authority, he, therefore, didn’t, want, anyone, on, his, land, during, fmd, and, refused, access, to, maff, and, me, while, i, was, working, there, he, caused, real, problems, and, had, his, gun, removed, by, police, he, was, handled, badly, and, is, a, rogue, the, more, colourful, rumour, was, that, the, real, reason, for, not, allowing, anyone, on, was, the, amount, of, smuggled, cigarettes, was, too, great, to, hide, he, also, runs, a, fishery, shellfish, enterprise, that, is, on, the, beach, at, odd, times, he, was, found, guilty, and, fined, 350, for, his, trouble, but, never, paid, because, he, went, bust, as, everything, is, in, his, wife, and, kids, names, this, is, all, unsubstantiated, rumour, but, quite, amusing, when, push, comes, to, shove, the, ministry, could, do, nothing, with, out, the, cooperation, of, the, farmers, the, vet, students, have, arrived, and, i, feel, a, bit, guilty, about, not, having, them, to, stay, but, i, feel, i, still, need, space, at, the, moment, so, they, are, making, do, with, the, royal, oak, prayer, quad, with, the, lads, which, was, good, i, still, has, not, got, stuff, for, magazine, and, spent, time, praying, tues, the, dates, important, cos, its, my, birthday, 39, today, the, kids, all, brought, presents, in, and, had, breakfast, in, bed, it, was, really, nice, the, number, of, ordinary, calls, to, ill, animals, is, increasing, rapidly, went, to, 2, new, restocking, farms, today, i, think, one, a, day, is, probably, enough, they, were, both, full, of, stories, about, the, ministry, and, wanted, to, unload, to, some, one, who, understood, the, first, was, particularly, upsetting, in, that, i, was, admiring, his, new, parlour, and, set, up, that, he, has, put, in, while, waiting, the, 4, months, he, was, then, talking, about, all, the, animals, getting, slaughtered, and, his, wife, was, fighting, back, tears, she, is, also, very, unsure, about, whether, they, are, doing, the, right, thing, by, investing, in, the, new, parlour, she, is, very, unsure, about, the, future, and, as, they, are, both, reaching, 50, is, it, the, right, thing, to, be, doing, unfortunately, i, think, she, is, right, but, i, couldn’t, say, that, and, made, reassuring, noises, as, they, have, spent, the, money, and, it, is, too, late, now, the, future, for, dairy, is, not, good, the, price, is, going, to, continue, to, be, at, world, prices, which, with, the, current, exchange, rate, is, uneconomic, in, the, uk, the, second, farm, was, sheep, with, drop, and, they, were, grazing, over, the, burial, site, as, they, had, planted, carrots, and, turnips, on, the, surrounding, field, i, couldn’t, listen, to, another, set, of, woes, as, i, was, still, upset, from, the, first, lot, so, kept, conversation, light, and, on, sheep, weds, i, never, realised, that, fmd, is, like, any, other, grief, there, are, anniversaries, to, get, through, and, fears, and, barriers, to, be, put, to, rest, i, was, on, a, farm, to, give, certificates, to, 2, heifers, sold, in, calf, they, were, all, saying, it, was, a, year, to, the, day, that, fmd, hit, the, village, the, ai, fellow, was, there, as, well, and, he, was, talking, about, what, he, had, been, doing, he, was, saying, that, he, thinks, it, will, be, years, before, everybody, returns, to, normal, he, is, revisiting, farms, where, he, was, helping, with, the, slaughter, for, the, ai, and, was, saying, he, had, to, take, a, deep, breath, every, time, he, returns, to, one, of, these, farms, there, was, a, partners, meeting, at, lunchtime, as, usual, aw, turned, up, late, but, finally, decided, to, advertise, to, see, whether, there, are, vets, out, there, who, will, come, to, work, in, fmd, country, it, is, a, bit, frustrating, as, i, foresaw, that, we, would, be, busy, and, we, could, have, nabbed, d, before, longtown, but, gg, ever, cautious, we, went, completely, around, in, circles, trying, different, options, but, as, with, everything, else, the, only, prediction, we, can, make, is, that, we, know, that, we, don’t, know, so, much, depends, on, govt, decisions, on, supply, of, pharmaceuticals, to, farms, and, on, the, future, of, the, svs, state, vet, service, for, who, we, usually, do, 15, of, our, farm, work, for, and, currently, do, 50, for, thursday, tomorrow, i, will, get, a, lunch, break, this, is, my, resolution, have, not, managed, to, stop, for, lunch, this, week, yet, as, farm, calls, keep, coming, in, and, partners, meeting, today, was, geckos, bums, and, goose, bums, rectal, prolapses, variety, is, the, spice, of, life, also, had, much, laughter, over, watching, norman, in, the, bath, jg’s, tortoise, which, has, come, out, of, hibernation, early, and, is, anorexic, much, clunking, and, bumping, 2, lambings, and, cow, caesaer, after, hours, so, busy, on, call, it, was, also, the, last, house, group, so, it, was, end, of, an, era, we, have, been, having, them, in, our, house, for, the, past, 6, years, with, different, folk, and, have, had, god, speak, to, us, and, to, others, through, it, but, it, is, time, to, move, on, friday, started, with, another, caeaser, and, early, morning, start, and, didn’t, get, my, lunch, break, time, to, reconsider, things, again, had, folk, for, dinner, which, had, been, arranged, a, long, time, ago, it, seemed, like, a, good, idea, at, time, and, was, enjoyable, but, after, a, 14, hour, day, yesterday, and, a, 10, hour, one, today, i, was, not, feeling, life, and, soul, of, the, party, one, couple, are, still, trying, to, decide, the, future, of, their, farm, they, are, thought, out, progressive, family, farm, and, yet, they, are, not, convinced, about, what, to, do, he, finds, it, difficult, to, because, there, are, three, generations, to, consider, his, father, would, go, out, and, buy, stock, tomorrow, and, his, son, wants, to, come, home, to, work, but, they, feel, he, should, broaden, his, options, very, difficult, he, was, also, saying, that, he, ha, d, helped, a, neighbour, who, flagged, him, down, as, he, was, going, past, he, wanted, help, to, move, a, cow, that, was, down, the, last, time, he, touched, a, cow, it, was, when, his, own, were, slaughtered, it, knocked, him, off, his, stride, for, the, rest, of, the, day, had, a, good, time, as, when, i, looked, at, time, was, 1, o, clock, sat, 23rd, march, wife, went, on, her, counselling, course, for, day, which, left, me, a, bit, on, edge, this, morning, as, i, was, on, call, sat, am, and, looking, after, 4, kids, but, they, managed, with, out, me, back, sore, and, stiff, as, i’ve, missed, the, gym, but, will, go, back, on, tues, still, managed, to, get, a, bit, done, in, garden, it, was, a, great, spring, day, and, made, me, feel, like, summer, was, coming, went, to, beckfoot, to, beach, in, the, afternoon, with, kids, evening, went, to, bed, early, as, shattered, sun, 24th, back, stiffer, after, gardening, and, went, to, church, davidsons, have, moved, into, thursby, so, will, be, good, to, have, them, around, and, at, school, watched, northbank, beat, stanwix, u12, s, 6, 0, the, boys, played, well, and, passed, the, ball, around, a, lot, son, played, well, too, must, work, less, w, e’s, and, watch, the, boys, play, more, mon, 25th, looking, forward, to, finishing, on, friday, as, another, large, test, today, started, at, 8, 30am, and, finished, at, 6pm, but, at, least, it, meant, i, was, out, the, office, and, did, not, have, to, face, any, of, the, usual, hassle, factors, it, was, good, to, see, as, the, place, is, always, well, run, and, organised, a, real, family, farm, with, three, generations, working, together, but, granddad, at, 75, still, very, much, calling, the, shots, the, craic, was, good, at, lunch, as, their, sister, is, friendly, with, my, wife, so, i, got, custard, with, my, rhubarb, tart, my, wife, doesn’t, like, custard, so, i, never, get, as, i, cannot, be, bothered, to, make, it, for, one, as, the, kids, never, have, it, and, so, are, very, conservative, they, were, asking, my, view, of, the, future, too, as, they, have, sold, bullocks, privately, ie, not, through, the, auction, as, they, are, on, 21, day, stand, still, and, the, price, is, poorer, than, selling, via, the, auction, defra, will, not, allow, any, trade, through, an, auction, if, the, farms, are, on, standstill, why, if, they, are, dead, in24hrs, there, is, minimal, risk, and, they, are, putting, everyone’s, backs, up, tues, 26th, went, for, my, first, visit, to, another, restocked, farm, and, during, the, 4, month, waiting, as, well, as, visit, new, zealand, he, has, made, a, sandstone, plaque, 3ft, by, 4, ft, and, carved, on, the, date, they, went, down, with, fmd, and, the, number, of, cattle, it, is, almost, a, head, stone, type, memorial, the, cow, had, digestive, problems, a, right, displaced, abomasums, rda, probably, due, to, the, transit, and, change, in, diet, weds, 27th, small, animal, day, and, trying, to, get, everything, organised, for, going, away, finalised, advert, in, vet, record, for, new, assistant, lots, of, adverts, but, no, applicants, all, the, local, practices, are, advertising, and, there, are, no, takers, i, hope, it, is, because, there, is, a, shortage, and, not, from, lack, of, confidence, in, the, area, defra, haven’t, paid, us, for, a, lot, of, visits, and, that, needs, sorted, they, have, no, record, of, the, visits, i, e, they, have, lost, the, claim, forms, in, the, mountain, of, paper, work, they, will, only, pay, on, the, originals, as, if, there, are, duplicates, they, will, probably, pay, on, those, as, well, being, that, well, organised, they, are, really, slipping, back, into, their, old, ways, of, paper, chasing, the, frustration, without, and, within, is, palpable, i, should, just, quit, as, i, will, be, a, civil, servant, once, removed, unless, things, change, the, secretary’s, are, both, on, fmd, funded, computer, courses, so, digging, out, the, paper, work, will, have, to, wait, thurs, 28th, demob, happy, just, the, test, to, read, and, i, am, off, for, 10, days, the, test, was, clear, but, very, busy, as, a, locum, came, for, a, look, around, to, see, if, he, would, do, sa, for, several, days, a, week, any, help, i, think, will, be, a, help, good, friday, missed, out, on, church, as, one, of, the, boys, through, a, complete, wobbler, he, is, not, very, well, just, tired, at, end, of, term, i, hope, then, went, walking, with, family, and, friends, i, must, learn, to, shoot, him, down, when, he, says, it, is, a, little, scramble, what, he, means, is, its, too, dangerous, for, kids, but, it, was, fun, and, we, enjoyed, it, the, weather, was, glorious, and, the, fells, were, crowded, tourism, is, back, went, up, over, sharp, edge, to, blencathra, kids, as, well, holiday, sat, 6th, april, came, back, on, the, late, boat, from, belfast, and, arrived, in, to, wigton, late, the, grandparents, were, sad, to, see, us, go, but, i, think, they, had, also, found, us, all, quite, tiring, the, kids, have, enjoyed, playing, squash, so, that, is, something, i, would, like, to, continue, sun, 7th, april, beautiful, frosty, morning, and, went, to, church, where, the, speaker, arrived, much, to, s’s, relief, just, as, he, was, announcing, the, last, song, before, the, sermon, i, think, he, was, wondering, what, he, would, say, instead, of, the, prepared, sermon, went, to, son, s, foot, ball, cup, match, this, is, 10, year, olds, we, are, talking, about, and, the, referee, was, making, several, bad, decisions, including, a, dubious, penalty, against, his, team, northbank, the, crowd, well, about, 30, of, us, which, for, his, team, is, a, big, crowd, was, getting, a, bit, restless, robbie, was, sprinting, down, the, wing, in, front, of, his, dad, and, me, when, he, was, sent, flying, by, one, of, their, team, his, dad, then, shouted, ref, if, you, gave, a, penalty, for, them, for, nothing, you, could, at, least, give, us, a, foul, for, that, at, which, point, the, ref, blew, his, whistle, and, came, across, and, thumped, him, the, whole, thing, was, about, to, descend, in, to, a, brawl, as, i, and, another, parent, were, trying, to, restore, calm, by, telling, everyone, to, walk, away, which, they, did, followed, by, the, northbank, kids, game, abandoned, so, we, await, the, fa’s, report, so, with, that, and, the, carlisle, manager, being, sacked, and, the, knighton’s, trading, insults, with, the, prospective, buyer, for, carlisle, the, future, of, football, in, carlisle, is, not, looking, good, mon, 8th, last, day, off, for, sorting, out, vcf, magazine, and, getting, up, to, date, with, paper, work, etc, did, carrock, fell, where, we, did, not, see, another, walker, it, was, sunny, and, cold, but, beautiful, at, night, went, to, crusaders, area, meeting, where, they, are, trying, to, get, some, one, to, arrange, area, events, for, kids, and, to, support, the, group, structure, there, is, no, one, who, has, the, time, and, no, funding, to, appoint, a, post, to, do, it, so, went, around, in, circles, too, a, large, degree, but, meeting, decided, to, try, and, raise, the, funding, tues, 9th, feel, like, i, should, have, handed, in, notice, after, today, it, was, awful, going, back, the, response, to, the, advert, for, a, new, vet, now, stands, at, 2, students, who, have, yet, to, qualify, i, had, harry, giving, me, grief, over, the, fact, that, defra, promised, him, that, we, would, test, his, cattle, prior, to, turn, out, i, e, end, of, march, but, haven’t, told, us, very, helpful, his, allocation, has, not, even, come, through, they, are, useless, i, was, at, one, farm, that, has, half, restocked, because, the, parlour, is, not, yet, restored, the, heifers, are, calving, and, he, is, milking, into, a, dump, bucket, and, throwing, the, milk, away, he, can’t, get, more, stock, in, because, he, is, waiting, testing, for, brucellosis, as, his, heifers, were, on, the, same, farm, as, the, french, heifer, that, went, down, he, wanted, to, bring, them, direct, to, his, own, farm, they, would, not, let, him, bring, the, heifers, to, his, own, farm, because, the, paper, work, was, not, through, and, they, not, would, allow, multiple, drop, offs, idiots, so, with, high, levels, of, frustration, and, complete, overload, it, has, not, been, a, good, start, back, tomorrow, i, must, see, what, is, hiding, in, my, in, tray, as, i, never, had, a, chance, to, look, today, weds, 10th, quieter, day, and, managed, to, catch, up, with, paper, work, and, have, had, a, lot, of, next, week, mapped, out, so, feel, more, in, control, night, work, seems, to, be, easing, with, fewer, lambings, students, seem, to, be, enjoying, their, time, with, us, even, though, there, is, too, little, time, to, actually, teach, them, but, it, is, a, luxury, to, have, time, to, go, through, cases, with, them, as, we, take, them, on, a, voluntary, basis, and, at, the, moment, lunch, is, a, higher, priority, than, their, education, i’m, a, selfish, brat, thurs, 11th, spoke, too, soon, chaotic, again, managing, workload, with, so, much, fire, brigade, work, is, not, so, easy, fire, brigade, work, is, the, emergency, work, that, needs, seen, urgently, ie, today, if, not, now, son, isn’t, so, well, again, he, tired, easily, again, today, so, must, make, an, appointment, for, him, but, very, vague, signs, fri, 12th, half, day, finish, yo, i, could, really, get, into, a, 3, and, a, half, day, week, the, down, side, is, it, is, because, my, wife, is, going, away, for, the, w, e, so, i, have, to, be, finished, by, 3, 15, for, kids, as, i, want, to, have, the, people, carrier, i, also, have, to, muck, out, my, car, it, is, not, as, bad, since, fmd, another, positive, contribution, that, fmd, has, made, to, my, life, i, actually, feel, morally, obliged, to, keep, my, car, from, being, a, biohazard, ok, i, still, needed, a, wheelie, bin, to, through, all, the, post, it, notes, and, bits, of, cardboard, and, the, excessive, packaging, that, surrounds, any, medical, product, that, seems, to, find, its, way, on, to, the, back, seat, of, my, car, i, always, remember, reading, a, sunday, paper, article, about, what, cars, different, people, drove, and, what, they, had, lying, around, in, the, back, seat, and, what, this, showed, about, their, personality, i’m, sure, that, they, would, have, had, a, field, day, with, my, car, you, use, to, be, able, to, tell, farm, vets, cars, from, a, mile, off, but, they, have, all, gone, clean, and, shiny, sat, 13th, april, a, week, end, off, and, the, thought, of, a, saturday, morning, lie, in, unfortunately, there, is, a, football, tournament, in, carlisle, today, 9am, start, so, up, as, usual, and, get, into, town, but, managed, to, get, to, staples, which, i, have, been, trying, to, do, since, my, birthday, to, spend, my, birthday, money, the, difference, between, men, and, boys, is, the, size, of, their, toys, as, my, wife, frequently, reminds, me, so, i, am, the, proud, owner, of, a, digital, camera, the, question, is, when, will, i, find, time, to, set, it, up, took, back, all, the, library, books, and, made, the, mistake, of, checking, with, the, librarian, who, says, we, also, have, a, talking, book, and, another, junior, fiction, well, i, thought, it, would, have, been, lucky, to, get, them, all, if, they, ever, bring, in, fines, for, kids, we, are, sunk, how, does, my, wife, keep, track, of, them, all, came, home, and, enjoyed, the, good, weather, and, fortunately, the, team, bottomed, out, so, didn’t, get, into, the, next, round, v, asked, as, she, dropped, other, son, off, from, the, football, where, has, wife, gone, as, other, son, has, said, she, was, away, at, gruerly, where, is, that, she, is, away, for, a, girlie, w, e, so, we, had, time, for, a, family, cycle, ride, out, from, kirkbride, to, the, coast, it, was, beautiful, and, we, had, a, really, good, time, came, back, via, wigton, for, supplies, as, we, are, in, desperate, need, of, a, tesco, shop, sunday, 14th, had, an, easy, day, and, cooked, with, a, for, tomorrow, as, my, wife, is, doing, supply, next, week, its, ages, since, i, have, cooked, even, made, scones, church, was, a, video, sermon, which, was, ok, but, different, saw, p, he, s, back, from, nz, so, will, have, to, arrange, to, catch, up, he, was, incredibly, jet, lagged, it, must, be, sunday, cos, everyones, in, church, 36, hrs, travelling, wife, arrived, back, from, her, week, end, away, at, capernwray, having, had, a, week, end, that, sounded, as, if, they, had, all, gone, back, to, their, teenage, years, with, midnight, feasts, and, playing, tricks, on, each, other, she, was, quite, tired, and, pleased, to, have, an, early, night, mon, 15th, the, diary, has, unfortunately, died, at, this, point, and, it, is, 3, weeks, later, and, i, am, going, back, and, filling, in, the, details, as, i, remember, them, it, is, probably, the, bits, that, are, really, important, but, as, there, is, too, much, going, on, the, diary, has, remained, on, my, to, do, list, together, with, my, tax, return, and, a, small, mountain, of, paperwork, the, reasons, are, varied, but, one, of, them, is, that, my, youngest, lost, his, temper, with, the, computer, and, slammed, down, the, mouse, this, broke, the, left, right, bar, so, the, pointer, would, only, go, up, and, down, now, the, practice, manager, who, learnt, his, computing, in, the, dark, ages, of, doss, assures, me, you, do, not, need, a, mouse, to, operate, a, computer, but, as, i, have, enough, problems, trying, to, get, the, stupid, machine, to, do, what, i, want, it, to, with, a, mouse, forget, trying, shortcut, keys, and, arrows, so, a, new, mouse, was, bought, which, the, man, assured, my, wife, you, just, had, to, plug, in, and, hey, presto, it, would, find, a, driver, and, work, blank, screens, consult, hand, book, try, inserting, disk, try, exploring, disk, try, windows, disk, consult, practice, manager, who, as, you, may, have, gathered, is, my, it, guru, he, says, you, may, need, to, install, a, driver, if, it, doesn’t, work, it, will, be, on, the, disk, i, don’t, have, a, mouse, to, use, to, try, to, find, and, install, a, driver, he, assures, me, again, you, don’t, need, a, mouse, i, understand, why, my, youngest, son, lost, his, temper, with, the, stupid, machine, being, the, mature, adult, that, i, can, some, times, be, i, walk, away, to, cool, off, but, don’t, feel, like, trying, again, for, 24, hours, with, a, new, mouse, which, the, man, assured, my, wife, you, just, had, to, plug, in, and, hey, presto, it, would, find, a, driver, and, work, plugged, it, in, it, said, looking, for, driver, installing, driver, and, it, worked, why, why, not, first, time, tuesday, thursday, riding, lights, went, to, see, riding, lights, who, are, a, christian, theatre, group, who, were, performing, at, the, senior, school, at, night, they, were, extremely, funny, and, hard, hitting, and, very, pointed, all, at, the, same, time, it, was, a, magazine, of, sketches, on, all, sorts, of, different, things, modern, interpretations, of, parables, and, bible, stories, sketches, asking, questions, about, society, and, how, we, view, things, very, difficult, to, put, into, words, but, thought, provoking, on, lots, of, levels, sat, 20th, april, to, weds, 24th, april, lost, in, the, mists, of, time, thursday, 25th, starting, the, diary, again, after, having, missed, 10, days, with, too, much, going, on, the, spring, work, is, chaotic, with, a, lot, of, problems, we, are, trying, to, run, the, practice, on, 5, vets, plus, a, part, time, locum, instead, of, 7, full, time, at, this, time, of, year, i, had, said, we, should, have, advertised, and, tried, to, get, some, one, at, xmas, but, the, view, was, that, falling, milk, price, would, mean, less, work, but, the, defra, tasting, is, more, than, making, up, for, those, who, haven’t, restocked, and, those, who, have, gone, out, of, dairy, which, brings, us, the, most, work, but, saying, i, told, you, so, does, not, help, so, i’ll, just, keep, my, big, mouth, shut, as, the, practice, manager, says, the, good, old, days, when, we, new, what, the, rota, was, going, to, be, and, we, were, not, just, making, up, it, up, as, we, went, along, we, have, had, over, a, year, of, crisis, management, now, the, end, must, be, nigh, as, this, is, a, health, survey, apart, from, feeling, pressure, of, work, i, am, have, also, managed, to, catch, ringworm, on, my, leg, a, fungal, infection, from, cows, and, it, is, itchy, and, sore, and, not, responding, to, my, treatment, i, will, have, to, get, gp’s, opinion, friday, 26th, april, remind, me, next, time, not, to, try, to, interview, during, busy, periods, it, is, very, embarrassing, to, turn, up, late, to, the, interview, we, had, a, chaotic, day, but, managed, to, interview, her, she, is, frighteningly, well, prepared, and, had, lists, of, questions, i, hope, we, didn’t, put, her, off, by, being, so, disorganised, i, think, the, sandale, view, will, be, more, influential, as, part, of, the, interview, we, always, take, them, up, to, sandale, viewpoint, to, show, them, the, practice, spread, out, panoramically, beneath, them, well, it, sold, me, the, job, after, finally, getting, finished, i, was, exhausted, but, had, people, to, dinner, so, had, to, stay, awake, and, be, sociable, sat, 27th, april, had, folk, to, dinner, last, night, which, after, working, flat, out, was, probably, not, such, a, clever, idea, didn’t, fall, asleep, but, this, morning, i, feel, like, death, warmed, up, and, we, have, another, interview, this, morning, i, don’t, think, i, can, make, a, good, impression, so, it, is, a, good, job, that, i, am, looking, to, employ, rather, than, be, employed, the, candidate, is, from, a, kirby, stephen, farmers, daughter, and, so, is, at, an, immediate, advantage, she, seems, fine, so, we, will, offer, her, the, job, the, question, is, should, we, offer, them, both, a, job, went, to, bed, feeling, ill, and, with, a, migraine, and, slept, all, afternoon, and, then, in, bed, for, 9pm, sad, or, what, sun, 28th, feel, a, lot, better, for, the, sleep, and, church, was, af, speaking, he, is, always, entertaining, his, opening, slide, was, knighton, in, for, those, of, you, who, do, not, keep, up, with, the, footie, in, carlisle, michael, knighton, is, the, hated, owner, of, carlisle, united, who, is, trying, to, get, the, club, relegated, so, he, can, build, houses, on, the, land, he, is, destroying, the, club, and, it, is, not, popular, anyway, the, second, slide, was, here, for, grace, and, forgiveness, he, went, on, to, say, that, church, should, be, where, the, failures, should, feel, loved, and, welcome, as, we, all, need, god’s, love, and, forgiveness, he, was, really, good, both, entertaining, and, making, real, points, spent, time, in, the, garden, and, playing, footie, with, the, boys, mon, 29th, monday, morning, and, that, sinking, feeling, not, helped, by, my, wife’s, teaching, 3, days, this, week, and, a, trustees, meeting, for, borderline, which, means, additional, pressure, after, running, around, all, morning, and, working, out, the, amount, of, holiday, we, are, all, owed, the, conclusion, is, that, we, will, employ, them, both, i, am, owed, 46, days, holiday, so, if, i, can, take, 2, months, off, that, plus, the, sabbatical, i, am, owed, means, i, could, take, 5, months, off, i, wish, it, were, happening, the, 5, vets, are, owed, over, 200, days, between, us, which, will, be, almost, a, vet, for, a, year, as, this, is, a, health, diary, i, should, mention, my, visit, to, the, doctor, after, a, half, an, hour, wait, past, my, appointment, time, fizzing, knowing, that, i, would, have, to, make, the, time, up, later, in, my, evening, i, finally, saw, the, doc, who, agreed, with, my, diagnosis, and, agreed, with, my, treatment, only, an, occupational, hazard, of, farm, work, ring, worm, he, did, take, scrapings, but, that, is, all, tuesday, testing, next, door, why, do, we, always, end, up, working, in, a, pen, under, the, railway, in, a, middle, of, a, stream, why, they, cannot, build, a, pen, on, dry, land, away, from, the, trains, i, don’t, know, i, suppose, they, have, always, done, it, that, way, but, the, first, you, know, of, a, train, is, the, thunder, as, it, goes, over, your, head, which, startles, the, cows, who, jump, sending, a, muddy, slurry, flying, everywhere, william, is, still, not, wearing, a, helmet, for, the, quad, bike, as, he, drives, around, despite, his, fathers, protests, their, neighbour, the, other, way, is, brain, damaged, after, coming, off, his, weds, 1st, of, may, mayday, the, radio, is, predicting, riots, in, paris, against, or, for, le, pen, anti, globalists, in, london, but, i, feel, a, real, peace, with, the, turning, of, the, month, it, is, funny, how, a, different, month, can, make, you, feel, so, different, april, is, always, the, worst, month, at, work, with, a, lot, of, routine, work, dehorning, and, testing, and, a, lot, of, lambings, and, calvings, and, emergencies, even, though, the, beginning, of, may, is, just, the, same, i, always, feel, we, have, passed, the, peak, and, we, can, cruise, into, summer, the, fact, that, both, have, accepted, the, jobs, and, that, we, will, have, more, cover, helps, though, they, will, not, start, until, summer, thursday, 2nd, may, in, spite, of, all, yesterdays, predictions, there, wasn’t, any, trouble, in, paris, or, london, only, cyclists, causing, traffic, jams, what, is, about, the, media, that, they, have, to, report, the, bad, news, not, the, good, news, i, haven’t, seen, anything, beyond, the, cumberland, news, on, the, farms, restocking, stopped, at, beckfoot, on, my, rounds, and, sat, in, the, sunshine, on, the, beach, for, 10, mins, and, thought, this, is, the, life, though, in, talking, to, one, of, the, neighbours, one, of, the, farmers, is, having, real, problems, getting, motivated, he, had, milking, ayrshires, really, quiet, cows, who, you, could, do, anything, with, their, idea, of, getting, excited, was, turn, out, time, and, moving, into, a, fast, amble, to, the, spring, pastures, he, has, bought, in, really, wild, suckler, limousin, x’s, if, you, look, at, them, the, wrong, way, they, put, their, tails, in, the, air, and, take, off, i, was, there, dehorning, and, we, lost, one, which, jumped, over, a, gate, another, put, its, tail, in, the, air, and, took, off, only, stopping, when, it, came, to, the, block, wall, at, the, end, of, the, yard, unfortunately, it, didn’t, stop, fast, enough, and, crashed, headlong, into, it, it, now, has, a, definite, tilt, to, it, the, wall, isn’t, too, hot, either, i, think, if, i, had, to, look, after, the, likes, of, them, i, wouldn’t, be, too, keen, to, get, out, of, bed, either, friday, 3rd, may, spoke, too, early, about, things, easing, off, 2, bad, calvings, a, caesarean, and, testing, plus, the, usual, ill, animals, but, got, finished, for, 5, 45, and, took, my, wife, out, for, dinner, at, the, cockatoo, in, cockermouth, very, pleasant, but, while, she, wanted, to, go, on, to, socialise, at, 10pm, i, wanted, home, to, bed, sat, 4th, may, off, yippee, took, the, kids, to, nichol, end, and, went, canoeing, on, the, lake, got, absolutely, frozen, but, was, really, good, fun, it, rained, in, spite, of, all, the, good, weather, forecasts, but, with, our, style, of, canoeing, we, are, always, soaked, anyway, had, a, picnic, on, one, of, the, islands, and, had, fun, came, back, and, slept, for, the, afternoon, should, have, taken, the, boys, to, see, the, fa, cup, but, they, were, happy, playing, around, watched, ghandi, on, dvd, at, night, it, is, a, very, moving, film, and, the, ambiguities, and, politics, came, through, to, a, muted, extent, which, was, interesting, it, often, makes, me, wonder, about, how, much, of, govt, policy, is, personality, driven, again, the, inability, of, individuals, to, fight, the, system, came, through, the, front, page, of, the, times, this, morning, was, on, a, toddler, who, had, died, from, post, op, haemorrhage, following, the, use, of, disposable, instruments, in, a, tonsillectomy, large, amounts, of, money, have, been, spent, on, disposable, instruments, that, are, always, inferior, to, good, quality, surgical, kit, several, people, have, died, because, of, their, use, because, no, one, wanted, to, take, the, very, small, theoretical, risk, that, they, may, transfer, nvcjd, the, approach, to, risk, management, and, prioritisation, within, government, and, the, civil, service, is, very, poor, but, to, be, fait, to, them, the, press, is, not, helpful, i, would, like, to, see, prescott, stand, up, and, say, that, he, wants, more, deaths, on, the, railways, but, he, never, will, if, less, money, was, spent, on, safety, on, the, railways, more, trains, at, more, convenient, times, were, run, at, lower, costs, then, there, would, be, fewer, deaths, on, the, roads, but, as, no, one, holds, politicians, responsible, for, deaths, on, the, roads, it, ain’t, gonna, happen, sun, 5th, may, church, was, dn, who, is, brilliant, at, getting, the, kids, involved, son, s, face, lit, up, when, we, were, walking, in, to, church, to, see, him, walking, down, botchergate, with, guitar, in, hand, he, had, a, skin, that, had, been, cast, from, a, snake, and, based, his, songs, with, the, kids, and, his, talks, with, them, on, being, a, new, creation, cor, 5, vs, 17, getting, rid, of, the, old, self, and, hence, the, snake, skin, he, is, brilliant, on, the, guitar, and, a, real, performer, wasted, as, a, tax, inspector, mon, 6th, may, maybe, getting, the, kids, soaked, and, frozen, on, sat, was, not, a, good, idea, as, they, are, all, coming, down, with, colds, now, tim, is, very, chesty, and, was, up, in, the, night, hot, and, wheezy, any, infection, always, goes, for, his, chest, so, helvellyn, will, have, to, wait, for, another, day, so, concreted, posts, and, pressure, washed, the, yard, the, boys, loved, helping, then, demanded, i, play, football, as, payment, ag, was, here, as, his, dad, was, dropping, off, the, caravan, after, being, away, for, the, w, e, p, called, up, from, manchester, en, route, for, thailand, she, is, handing, in, her, notice, and, going, booked, summer, holiday, in, france, and, now, have, to, work, out, what, we, are, doing, on, the, way, there, and, back, tues, 7th, may, went, testing, but, i, really, do, have, the, kids, bug, and, feel, hot, and, feverish, went, to, bed, for, rest, of, day, weds, 8th, didn’t, feel, like, getting, out, of, bed, but, went, to, work, first, was, a, deer, rta, i, was, supposed, to, meet, a, police, car, there, but, no, police, either, car, or, policeman, i, am, glad, it, wasn’t, too, controversial, or, important, so, i, have, taken, all, details, and, hope, that, that, is, the, end, of, it, this, afternoon, was, spent, chasing, stirks, around, a, field, and, abbeytown, we, dehorned, them, they, should, have, been, done, this, time, last, year, but, were, n’t, because, of, fmd, they’re, now, 2, yr, old, which, means, they, were, really, too, big, to, go, around, upsetting, two, went, through, the, dyke, one, way, the, other, went, through, the, other, side, into, some, one’s, garden, and, on, to, the, abbeytown, road, so, it, was, a, bit, of, a, rodeo, it, ended, up, charging, m, who, hurt, his, shoulder, trying, to, escape, he, was, not, happy, as, this, morning, he, got, his, letter, asking, him, to, cut, back, is, milk, production, he, had, jokingly, asked, what, was, i, doing, this, winter, as, all, the, farmers, will, have, given, up, by, christmas, the, long, term, out, look, is, not, good, but, at, least, we, will, have, 2, new, graduates, in, training, to, cope, with, the, upturn, when, if, it, comes, thurs, 9th, day, off, unfortunately, spent, the, morning, shopping, in, carlisle, which, meant, wandering, around, shops, and, trying, to, find, clothes, i, needed, a, my, daughter, as, my, dress, sense, leaves, a, lot, to, be, desired, and, she, keeps, me, right, met, gb, another, carlisle, vet, which, was, good, i, haven’t, seen, him, for, a, bit, had, lunch, out, which, was, nice, though, also, got, all, the, bits, for, the, tennis, net, so, will, be, able, to, get, it, up, the, annoying, bit, was, i, got, a, parking, ticket, which, sent, my, blood, pressure, up, now, i, know, i, often, park, with, out, paying, and, in, the, wrong, places, that, is, just, living, dangerously, but, as, we, were, in, carlisle, and, had, decided, to, go, out, for, lunch, and, for, some, reason, i, was, in, wife, s, car, as, usual, there, was, no, change, in, the, car, well, as, usual, there, was, no, money, at, all, i, only, had, myself, to, blame, i, know, she, never, has, change, in, the, car, i, only, had, enough, for, 2, hours, in, my, pocket, which, to, be, honest, is, in, my, opinion, quite, long, enough, in, carlisle, shops, so, on, the, way, to, lunch, out, i, made, a, special, trip, back, to, the, car, park, armed, with, coins, ready, to, pay, the, city, council, the, extortionate, fee, so, i, could, spend, more, money, in, carlisle, city, shops, the, first, machine, refused, my, coins, i, even, tried, a, 2nd, machine, that, also, refused, to, accept, my, hard, earned, cash, so, i, left, a, note, saying, the, machine, was, not, working, in, the, windscreen, and, yes, you, guessed, it, i, came, back, to, find, a, traffic, warden, giving, me, a, ticket, who, justified, his, action, by, saying, there, w, ere, 4, machines, from, which, i, could, have, bought, a, ticket, grrrrhhh, fri, 10th, finish, of, another, week, with, more, tb, testing, a, lot, of, cows, from, netherlands, mris, meuse, rhine, issel, very, good, beefy, looking, dairy, cows, dual, purpose, why, we, have, to, test, them, i, don’t, know, but, we, have, to, keep, page, st, happy, they, were, all, tested, prior, to, export, from, holland, and, they, want, them, tested, again, the, farmer, is, very, bio, security, conscious, and, has, his, land, all, in, a, single, block, now, bounded, by, roads, or, arable, cultivation, all, the, other, cattle, he, insisted, were, tested, and, he, had, the, results, prior, to, purchase, in, spite, of, all, his, good, sense, he, is, still, going, on, about, the, missing, vials, from, porton, down, and, other, paranoid, conspiracy, theories, on, the, spread, of, fmd, but, a, part, from, cold, flu, feel, as, though, things, are, getting, back, on, track, we, can, look, to, the, next, 12, months, with, confidence, thereafter, depends, on, whether, the, wto, wins, over, the, eu, to, get, rid, of, subsidies, or, whether, maintaining, the, food, supply, within, the, eu, is, seen, as, important, the, one, thing, the, fmd, has, taught, me, is, that, you, never, know, what, will, be, coming, next, i, do, feel, guilty, about, saying, there, should, be, more, train, crashes, after, seeing, the, crash, in, the, news, today, at, potters, bar, sat, 11th, may, working, the, w, e, again, saw, another, calf, with, ccn, caused, by, a, deficiency, of, b1, usually, rare, but, seems, to, be, much, more, prevalent, this, year, due, to, old, grass, on, pastures, don’t, know, had, a, greyhound, client, in, bringing, in, a, greyhound, on, behalf, of, some, one, else, who, has, been, chased, from, the, practice, for, non, payment, so, had, a, stressful, half, hour, negotiating, with, an, irate, idiot, but, he, paid, his, old, bill, and, stumped, up, front, for, the, new, one, and, seemed, placated, treating, the, animals, is, easy, spent, the, afternoon, in, the, garden, and, fixing, up, the, tennis, nat, we, were, given, an, old, second, hand, net, so, i, have, fixed, up, on, the, concrete, and, it, was, good, fun, playing, with, the, kids, the, concrete, is, not, level, and, has, lots, of, loose, stones, so, the, bounce, is, a, bit, erratic, went, to, a, 50th, birthday, party, for, which, i, was, teased, at, work, but, i, maintain, we, are, friends, with, the, children, in, their, 20, s, it, was, a, good, craic, and, the, food, was, brilliant, there, was, one, of, the, partners, from, a, lawyers, from, carlisle, there, complaining, that, he, could, only, have, an, hourly, rate, of, charging, out, at, 185, consequently, he, couldn’t, attract, good, lawyers, to, his, firm, because, the, city, firms, were, offering, far, greater, salaries, and, were, charging, out, their, juniors, at, 200, i, couldn’t, admit, that, our, hourly, rate, is, only, 45, and, that, i, think, that, 45, hour, is, a, lot, of, money, should, have, been, a, 9, to, 5, lawyer, sunday, went, to, church, nl, but, was, still, half, asleep, from, my, late, night, spent, all, afternoon, and, evening, out, on, calls, was, ok, till, the, midnight, call, when, i, decided, that, being, a, lawyer, was, probably, a, much, better, idea, monday, 13th, half, asleep, after, the, w, e, so, took, a, little, while, to, get, going, having, kept, this, week, a, bit, quieter, as, there, should, have, been, a, lot, of, last, minute, dehorning, and, castrating, it, hasn’t, come, in, so, we, really, are, quieter, so, did, some, office, work, but, trying, to, work, out, why, the, two, computer, systems, we, have, do, not, have, the, same, balances, on, their, accounts, with, a, tired, sore, head, is, not, worthwhile, but, it, was, preferable, to, sorting, rotas, so, i, when, came, home, i, sat, and, read, tintin, much, to, my, wife’s, disgust, i, also, looked, at, my, cash, flow, predictions, which, were, totally, out, of, line, i, usually, take, a, pessimistic, view, so, as, err, on, the, side, of, caution, but, they, are, totally, out, fortunately, the, right, way, the, partners, think, it, is, a, waste, of, time, and, effort, to, try, to, predict, how, much, of, the, bills, the, farmers, are, going, to, pay, in, any, month, some, pay, every, month, but, most, pay, every, now, and, again, either, when, they, have, time, or, money, or, when, the, accountant, or, vat, man, needs, the, books, i, suppose, they, are, right, who, cares, so, long, as, they, do, pay, also, finally, caught, up, with, gp, as, ringworm, still, not, getting, better, so, finally, on, antifungals, if, the, farmers, couldn’t, get, hold, of, a, vet, pretty, quickly, to, discuss, what’s, going, on, they, would, give, us, earache, tuesday, 14th, halfway, through, may, and, time, to, get, the, rest, of, the, planting, done, in, the, garden, beautiful, weather, and, feels, like, summer, is, here, gg, had, a, visit, from, trading, standards, over, the, bulls, for, which, he, had, given, a, certificate, of, fitness, to, travel, there, is, now, no, slaughterhouse, within, an, hour’s, drive, of, here, for, cattle, ulverston, is, the, nearest, if, an, animal, is, not, fit, to, be, transported, alive, for, some, reason, e.g, because, it, is, lame, or, blind, etc, then, it, has, to, be, shot, on, the, farm, and, the, carcase, transported, to, the, slaughterhouse, however, under, the, new, meat, hygiene, regulations, of, 2, 3, years, ago, the, carcase, has, to, arrive, within, an, hour, of, being, shot, which, was, fine, while, black, brow, was, operating, the, slaughterhouse, but, since, it, has, closed, there, are, no, options, for, any, animals, to, be, shot, on, the, farm, unless, you, put, it, in, your, own, freezer, for, your, own, consumption, thus, whereas, if, there, were, borderline, cases, before, they, were, shot, on, the, farm, and, the, carcases, transported, now, the, pressure, is, to, get, them, transported, alive, or, the, farmer, loses, the, value, of, the, animal, 500, 600, and, has, to, pay, 75, to, get, them, shot, and, disposed, of, the, sooner, either, carlisle, slaughterhouse, or, black, brow, slaughterhouse, get, working, again, the, better, weds, 15th, day, off, spent, the, morning, catching, up, on, paper, work, feel, better, for, it, but, never, my, favourite, job, but, all, the, bits, and, pieces, are, in, place, for, my, tax, return, just, waiting, for, the, final, few, pieces, of, paper, wrote, a, caustic, letter, to, council, about, the, parking, ticket, but, sent, them, a, cheque, as, not, worth, the, fight, went, to, up, front, art, gallery, for, lunch, some, one, had, made, a, set, of, peat, rings, with, a, golden, bowl, at, the, centre, and, wanted, hundreds, of, pounds, for, their, art, creation, if, you, don’t, ask, you, don’t, get, spent, afternoon, running, the, kids, as, wife, was, taking, a, in, town, for, hair, cut, and, girl, time, last, football, match, for, northbank, and, son, lost, thursday, 16th, the, long, lunch, is, back, there, wasn’t, much, happening, vet, wise, but, still, a, lambing, today, as, the, season, has, dragged, on, one, restocking, farmer, was, in, today, with, a, ewe, to, be, lambed, of, the, 200, sheep, he, is, supposed, to, be, fattening, for, market, 20, have, lambed, the, guy, he, bought, them, from, is, adamant, they, were, never, near, a, tup, someone, needs, to, tell, him, about, the, birds, and, the, bees, there, was, also, a, good, if, slightly, apocryphal, story, from, defra, licensing, when, they, needed, a, licence, to, move, a, bull, the, licensing, department, asked, is, this, bull, going, to, be, used, for, breeding, purposes, yes, is, the, farmers, reply, will, this, animal, be, coming, in, to, contact, with, any, other, animals, friday, 17th, another, tb, test, another, restocking, farm, more, stories, the, best, one, was, the, fact, that, their, cattle, had, lain, for, a, week, in, the, pasture, field, after, being, shot, they, decided, to, plough, it, out, for, barley, in, the, back, end, having, spent, the, summer, pressure, washing, the, farm, buildings, to, a, gleaming, state, of, sterility, where, the, animals, had, lain, there, was, still, obvious, contamination, with, blood, etc, when, they, ploughed, it, but, having, failed, the, buildings, on, specks, of, dirt, defra, were, just, not, interested, in, contaminated, blood, stained, earth, they, had, also, phoned, the, day, before, i, arrived, to, send, some, one, out, to, arrange, tb, testing, the, chaos, in, there, continues, sat, 18th, may, i, am, to, be, best, man, a, friend, was, around, last, night, with, news, about, getting, married, we, have, a, wedding, every, month, for, the, next, 4, months, must, be, something, in, the, water, at, the, moment, unfortunately, it, meant, it, was, a, really, late, night, celebrating, and, i, am, working, the, w, e, again, so, getting, up, for, saturday, morning, surgery, was, a, bit, grim, i, survived, and, so, did, most, of, the, animals, the, worrying, thing, is, i, am, sure, that, drs, are, just, the, same, spent, the, afternoon, playing, football, and, tennis, with, the, kids, in, the, yard, and, mowing, the, grass, the, farmers, are, all, now, silaging, and, the, roads, are, full, of, tractors, flying, around, at, all, times, of, night, and, day, sat, evening, went, with, wife, to, hear, sa, speak, at, kd’s, it, was, good, to, see, him, and, clare, again, we, visited, them, in, bombay, at, the, height, of, fmd, and, it, always, puts, things, back, into, perspective, he, runs, a, mission, hospital, in, thane, an, outskirt, of, bombay, they, have, it, self, funding, by, charging, the, rich, for, luxury, service, a, long, way, behind, the, nhs, and, providing, a, basic, service, foc, for, the, average, indian, he, is, now, talking, about, trying, to, raise, funding, for, building, an, aids, hospice, to, provide, pain, relief, and, dignity, to, those, who, are, dieing, of, aids, because, of, the, stigma, and, cost, and, risk, of, cross, infection, of, both, hiv, and, tb, a, lot, of, aids, patients, are, just, thrown, out, of, their, homes, and, hiv, ve, babies, are, abandoned, as, he, says, there, is, an, epidemic, sweeping, bombay, that, will, leave, a, lot, of, orphans, and, cause, secondary, epidemics, because, of, immuno, suppression, and, it, is, not, really, being, addressed, very, thought, provoking, and, makes, the, millions, wasted, on, fmd, look, very, sick, in, a, global, perspective, sun, missed, church, in, the, morning, as, was, seeing, to, cats, and, dogs, in, the, surgery, and, dripping, calf, in, the, large, animal, bay, spent, most, of, afternoon, on, visits, all, work, and, no, play, is, making, me, a, grumpy, boy, 2, w, es, in, a, row, is, not, good, mon, aw, is, in, worse, mood, than, me, and, at, least, i, have, worked, w, e, she, is, winding, every, one, up, with, her, attitude, it, is, sthg, that, will, have, to, be, addressed, but, will, have, to, be, a, partnership, decision, wife, was, interviewing, fc, tonight, at, christian, viewpoint, in, carlisle, and, came, back, full, of, it, she, is, good, with, people, and, interviewing, she, was, also, challenged, by, what, f, was, saying, about, the, importance, of, treating, people, as, loved, and, valued, by, god, in, some, ways, very, similar, to, s, about, valuing, aids, patients, we, are, all, valued, by, god, tuesday, missed, gym, for, 3rd, week, i, am, going, to, be, getting, really, unfit, i, was, on, duty, and, had, spent, time, talking, with, folk, at, work, valuing, them, but, it, was, nice, as, a, came, out, with, me, and, she, always, likes, being, on, call, with, me, but, i, never, seem, to, know, what’s, going, on, in, her, mind, still, waters, run, deep, weds, dad, phoned, and, has, decided, not, to, come, on, the, w, e, away, this, w, e, it, is, a, family, reunion, but, it, looks, like, it, will, be, just, our, family, and, p’s, but, the, kids, love, meeting, up, with, the, cousins, even, a, who, will, no, doubt, complain, that, there, should, be, some, girl, cousins, she, is, the, only, girl, on, both, wife, s, side, of, the, family, and, mine, it, is, a, bit, worrying, in, that, he, is, losing, confidence, in, doing, anything, outside, his, normal, routine, it, is, at, times, like, this, you, realise, london, is, not, really, very, close, the, other, problem, is, working, so, many, w, es, doesn’t, give, much, time, for, the, travelling, up, and, down, to, see, him, thursday, g, was, away, on, a, course, yesterday, and, came, back, full, of, doom, and, gloom, for, along, time, we, have, relied, on, the, drug, sales, as, a, substantial, part, of, the, business, there, have, been, various, government, reports, that, have, queried, our, monopoly, and, there, is, a, move, to, insist, that, we, provide, prescriptions, for, all, the, drugs, and, then, allow, the, farmers, or, pet, owners, to, buy, the, drugs, from, whatever, source, they, want, internet, pharmacy, or, us, it, means, however, that, the, professional, fees, will, inevitably, have, to, rise, to, compensate, which, means, it, will, be, uneconomic, for, the, farmers, to, use, us, so, they, will, not, in, the, present, economic, climate, which, means, no, job, carlisle, brampton, and, dalston, vets, are, all, starting, to, write, prescriptions, which, means, that, we, are, going, to, have, to, follow, suit, the, farmer, who, rents, my, field, was, silaging, tonight, i, got, back, from, house, group, to, find, a, tractor, follow, me, in, to, start, rowing, up, as, they, had, been, at, it, all, day, i, decided, to, take, the, gates, off, their, hinges, as, it, is, a, narrow, gap, and, at, that, time, of, night, a, clunk, against, the, pillar, is, ok, but, i, don’t, want, to, have, to, replace, my, wooden, gates, they, had, just, started, to, pick, it, up, when, i, went, to, bed, at, 11pm, so, no, idea, what, time, they, finished, friday, g, is, off, ill, help, it, looked, as, though, i, might, miss, out, on, the, w, e, away, as, he, is, working, the, w, e, but, the, fact, it, would, have, meant, 3, w, e’s, in, a, row, and, 6, nights, in, a, row, managed, to, help, persuade, one, of, the, assistants, to, step, in, thankfully, so, i, finished, at, lunch, time, and, slept, to, catch, up, from, the, on, call, until, the, kids, came, home, from, school, and, set, off, for, the, w, e, saturday, 25th, may, dovedale, in, the, derbyshire, peak, district, definitely, should, have, more, w, es, away, and, not, working, we, had, a, great, time, with, the, cousins, stayed, at, a, farmhouse, b, b, it, use, to, be, a, working, farm, but, is, too, high, up, and, to, small, to, sustain, the, dairy, so, they, went, out, of, that, 3, yrs, ago, beef, and, sheep, was, not, making, any, money, so, they, have, concentrated, on, tourism, and, grass, let, the, fields, his, neighbours, are, now, renting, the, land, and, farming, it, beautiful, walk, along, the, valley, and, had, tea, out, relaxed, and, slept, like, a, log, sunday, great, british, summer, makes, you, wonder, why, any, one, would, want, to, go, abroad, wet, and, cold, so, went, to, water, world, and, watched, the, kids, big, and, little, go, flying, around, the, flumes, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, my, brother, and, family, the, boys, would, play, footie, all, day, long, and, be, happy, monday, off, to, catch, my, breath, and, tidy, up, flat, for, tenants, arriving, thursday, spent, day, trying, to, reduce, the, weeds, in, garden, and, went, swimming, at, night, the, boys, still, wanted, to, play, footie, where, do, they, get, their, energy, if, i, could, bottle, it, i, would, make, a, fortune, tuesday, it, felt, like, hard, work, going, back, to, work, after, time, off, i, always, seem, to, be, tired, and, head, achy, it, seems, to, be, hard, work, to, get, going, again, ai, just, don’t, feel, like, doing, anything, including, writing, this, diary, but, the, good, news, is, that, we, have, a, new, booted, bantie, bertie, the, cockerel, and, he, is, now, ensconced, in, his, run, we, are, hoping, to, get, him, some, young, ladies, in, the, not, too, distant, future, he, is, cute, and, a, is, over, the, moon, about, him, weds, getting, going, again, spent, time, talking, with, my, wife, who, as, always, puts, things, back, in, to, line, communication, went, to, do, some, pregnancy, diagnosis, early, this, morning, and, the, farmer, was, complaining, about, the, cost, of, his, vet, bill, and, is, wanting, to, learn, how, to, check, cows, to, see, if, they, are, in, calf, prior, to, drying, off, the, whole, economics, of, dairy, practice, with, milk, at, 13p, per, litre, is, beginning, to, hit, home, to, them, cannot, be, nice, starting, up, again, to, realise, that, you, cannot, make, money, at, doing, it, one, of, the, other, vets, is, in, really, bad, form, this, week, and, is, causing, a, lot, of, friction, and, we, will, have, to, deal, with, it, as, the, staff, are, up, in, arms, at, least, i, am, off, tomorrow, prior, to, working, jubilee, w, e, my, mother, in, law, arrived, which, the, kids, love, complete, with, her, special, treats, for, them, snowballs, went, out, for, dinner, with, mother, in, law, but, too, tired, to, enjoy, it, due, to, early, morning, caesarean, thursday, off, spent, morning, getting, flat, ready, as, we, have, new, tenants, moving, in, and, clearing, up, while, the, girls, went, shopping, dry, weather, but, intermittent, heavy, showers, tackled, the, long, grass, at, front, but, the, grass, got, too, wet, and, clogged, mower, picked, up, kids, and, did, the, fatherly, bit, went, to, bed, early, as, head, achy, and, washed, out, and, caught, up, on, zzzz’s, friday, start, of, the, jubilee, w, e, and, on, duty, for, the, next, 5, days, until, 5pm, weds, evening, work, busy, with, bits, and, pieces, and, farmers, complaining, that, it, is, too, wet, to, silage, one, of, the, vets, had, issued, a, pets, export, certificate, for, a, cat, to, come, back, into, uk, but, had, put, it, down, for, 2, years, not, one, it, is, only, valid, for, 2, years, in, dogs, but, 1, year, in, cats, typical, friday, afternoon, problem, to, sort, out, the, help, line, is, closed, for, training, and, maff, offices, are, closed, for, the, bh, w, e, i, don’t, think, there, is, a, way, around, it, either, but, will, not, be, able, to, sort, it, out, till, weds, day, and, they, are, due, on, ferry, on, tuesday, oops, also, a, bitch’s, owner, came, in, to, ask, if, we, were, open, tues, as, she, is, due, on, that, date, and, will, probably, need, a, caesaer, johnboy, called, in, the, evening, wanting, me, to, go, to, the, loyal, supporters, meeting, at, carlisle, united, as, a, spy, i’m, on, call, so, couldn’t, oblige, thank, goodness, sat, 1st, june, office, staff, were, asking, why, is, there, only, 2, vets, on, the, whole, w, e, and, i, am, beginning, to, feel, the, same, should, have, split, it, up, and, had, more, staff, on, but, at, least, the, others, will, get, a, break, and, come, back, refreshed, but, i, feel, like, i, am, looking, down, the, barrel, of, a, gun, horrendous, calving, on, a, heifer, that, was, in, calf, by, mistake, to, its, father, it, was, supposed, to, have, gone, back, to, its, breeder, but, the, buyer, was, still, tied, up, under, the, twenty, day, rule, the, calf, had, died, and, was, gassed, up, ended, up, by, caesaering, in, spite, of, rotten, calf, 2, hours, hard, work, and, the, heifer, will, at, best, be, very, ill, for, several, days, sun, 2nd, june, a, day, of, football, went, to, church, and, made, a, quick, exit, to, watch, the, football, as, with, everyone, else, was, quite, disappointed, at, hebron, at, night, dm, had, the, goals, and, the, reactions, to, them, on, the, big, screen, which, he, linked, to, romans, 12, therefore, i, urge, you, to, offer, your, bodies, as, living, sacrifices, this, is, your, act, of, spiritual, worship, talking, about, worship, to, god, being, everything, we, do, including, how, we, react, to, how, the, english, football, team, perform, very, clever, and, memorable, way, of, expounding, the, bible, went, straight, on, to, son, s, football, presentations, which, was, quite, fun, there, is, a, real, football, sub, culture, with, the, amateur, football, clubs, in, carlisle, all, vying, for, the, top, spot, the, old, pals, network, and, animosities, seem, to, be, very, prevalent, mon, 3rd, june, busy, night, and, early, start, 2, x, prolapses, why, always, at, a, bh, the, second, one, was, a, wild, limousin, heifer, it, charged, me, and, sent, me, flying, the, only, injury, was, a, sore, fist, where, i, thumped, it, in, the, eye, to, try, and, deflect, it, as, i, was, trying, to, get, it, away, gave, me, a, fright, it, was, a, heifer, that, was, bred, because, he, couldn’t, sell, it, store, last, year, because, of, restrictions, chatted, to, farmer, who, started, getting, up, at, 4, 30, am, during, fmd, because, he, couldn’t, sleep, he, is, still, doing, it, now, he, still, has, not, got, any, sheep, in, because, he, can’t, face, it, he, lost, his, sheep, to, the, cull, but, kept, his, cattle, i, had, started, by, admiring, the, view, he, said, yeah, it, would, be, great, apart, from, the, damn, windmills, he, has, a, brilliant, viewing, looking, out, over, the, solway, and, the, great, orton, site, and, the, windmills, remind, him, and, everyone, else, that, their, flocks, are, in, a, big, pit, he, says, he, can, still, see, them, going, and, feels, guilty, i, didn’t, have, the, heart, to, tell, him, that, of, the, 10,000, blood, samples, taken, at, gt, orton, only, 2, were, positive, a, very, big, mistake, that, has, caused, big, hurt, in, this, area, and, no, one, has, admitted, responsibility, and, no, one, ever, will, tues, 4th, june, watched, some, of, the, jubilee, stuff, on, tv, in, between, calls, amazing, sight, to, see, the, mall, full, of, people, more, than, ever, before, yet, rupert, murdoch, and, his, press, would, have, us, believe, that, the, monarchy, is, finished, we, managed, to, cope, with, just, the, two, of, us, on, call, so, may, be, i, was, right, also, made, a, start, on, byre, remind, me, next, time, we, have, a, dinner, party, on, a, bh, not, to, be, working, it, as, my, poor, wife, had, 4, kids, and, a, dinner, to, prepare, i, was, called, out, to, a, cow, caesar, at, 3, 30, and, then, had, another, call, after, that, fortunately, i, had, taken, tim, so, there, was, one, less, to, fight, but, got, back, to, be, told, that, i, had, to, have, a, bath, before, i, could, help, because, i, smelt, evening, was, really, good, fun, and, hilariously, funny, so, even, i, kept, going, to, the, wrong, side, of, midnight, which, after, an, early, start, was, pretty, good, going, i, will, have, to, get, phil, to, do, his, senator, homes, skit, at, the, wedding, weds, 5th, june, did, not, feel, like, getting, up, this, am, at, all, and, felt, even, less, like, going, into, work, managed, to, extricate, us, from, any, problems, with, the, cat, with, out, its, passport, there, is, no, give, in, the, defra, system, which, is, to, be, expected, richard, had, a, suspect, fmd, calf, on, tuesday, no, wonder, he, was, a, bit, jittery, when, i, spoke, to, him, later, on, even, though, you, know, that, it, probably, isn’t, going, to, be, a, case, and, that, the, farmer, is, panicking, it, still, sets, the, butterflies, flying, it, was, bvd, spent, over, an, hour, and, a, half, this, morning, on, the, phone, sorting, out, what, the, aw, calls, the, rubbish, queries, and, being, helpful, and, friendly, and, sorting, out, licensing, and, drugs, and, repeat, prescriptions, one, was, a, woman, complaining, about, the, neighbouring, practice, which, required, a, bit, of, tact, i, think, the, drs, must, have, been, as, busy, as, us, the, tally, for, the, celebrations, are, 1, off, ill, with, flu, and, bad, back, one, wrist, sprained, from, scooter, racing, at, a, street, party, after, all, the, kids, had, gone, to, bed, and, one, who, spent, the, w, e, visiting, her, boyfriend, in, hospital, she, had, said, that, he, needed, to, go, in, on, friday, but, the, doctors, had, put, him, off, as, it, was, the, w, e, he, was, worse, on, sunday, but, had, waited, till, after, the, football, before, ringing, priorities, priorities, thursday, went, to, house, group, which, was, really, good, and, spent, time, praying, for, the, group, church, area, and, for, world, situation, friends, are, trying, to, work, out, what, to, do, in, india, they, are, teaching, at, a, boarding, school, in, the, south, of, india, and, have, both, their, own, family, and, also, the, school, kids, to, think, about, the, consensus, is, that, the, foreign, office, advice, is, aimed, more, at, the, indian, and, pakistani, govts, than, the, uk, nationals, ian, is, supposed, to, be, visiting, and, has, a, flight, booked, so, is, still, going, at, the, moment, i, really, cant, believe, that, they, would, escalate, the, situation, but, it, will, be, tit, for, tat, and, then, going, to, the, brink, as, neither, will, want, to, break, face, the, ramifications, of, sept, 11th, still, keep, reverberating, around, the, world, as, the, balance, of, power, alters, makes, fmd, look, like, a, picnic, at, least, we, have, stable, govt, that, says, it, abides, by, the, laws, friday, the, secretary, asked, this, morning, what, did, i, want, meaning, tea, or, coffee, and, i, replied, as, i, had, prayed, wisdom, but, with, 2, sugars, we, had, a, difficult, partners, meeting, that, lunch, time, poor, timing, and, priorities, again, as, england, was, playing, i, had, assumed, they, would, lose, but, the, meeting, went, well, and, the, issues, were, discussed, amicably, enough, and, frankly, enough, so, we, all, know, where, we, are, at, and, issues, were, addressed, but, as, james, says, not, only, about, asking, for, wisdom, but, also, putting, it, into, action, at, night, leant, on, the, fence, and, talked, to, the, neighbour, as, the, thistles, i, was, supposed, to, be, cutting, down, carried, on, growing, but, it, was, a, nice, evening, he, works, for, stl, the, christian, book, distributors, he, was, saying, how, the, fire, that, they, had, just, after, he, arrived, at, the, time, seemed, a, disaster, and, caused, chaos, but, it, made, them, make, decisions, that, had, to, be, made, rather, than, continuing, with, the, status, quo, and, in, hind, sight, was, a, very, good, thing, i, wonder, when, we, look, back, whether, the, changes, and, opportunities, of, fmd, will, make, us, appreciate, the, decisions, we, have, all, had, to, make, it, made, me, think, of, the, woman, who, came, in, today, saying, she, was, one, of, the, lucky, ones, who, didn’t, get, fmd, very, much, tongue, in, cheek, as, they, are, much, worse, off, than, those, who, did, she, gave, up, her, job, as, they, couldn’t, sell, the, calves, as, they, were, born, and, so, some, one, had, to, look, after, them, so, she, went, back, home, to, work, on, the, farm, her, job, of, course, has, been, filled, in, the, mean, time, and, she, would, have, made, a, lot, more, money, for, less, hassle, if, she, had, stayed, sat, 8th, june, finished, the, long, period, of, work, and, on, call, on, sat, morning, and, it, came, down, with, heavy, showers, as, we, had, hoped, to, climb, helvellyn, today, it, eased, some, what, at, night, which, was, just, as, well, as, we, were, going, to, a, bbq, it, was, put, on, by, a, s, african, vet, from, defra, who, is, now, working, in, longtown, the, last, time, i, drove, through, to, charlie, and, ruth’s, who, were, hosting, the, bbq, was, when, the, pyres, were, all, burning, it, gave, me, a, funny, feeling, driving, back, up, there, the, food, was, good, and, the, craic, was, good, so, we, had, a, good, time, the, kids, would, have, kept, going, but, they, were, beginning, to, get, high, the, midges, once, you, get, north, of, the, border, are, definitely, worse, we, all, had, lumps, all, over, in, the, morning, sun, 9th, sb, spoke, at, church, on, jesus, healing, the, blind, man, at, pool, of, siloam, he, was, very, easy, to, follow, friends, called, in, and, stayed, for, tea, he, as, usual, blunt, and, controversial, as, ever, he, always, has, a, good, insight, and, dresses, it, up, in, taking, things, to, extremes, he, is, also, very, funny, with, it, so, had, a, good, meal, son, is, as, high, as, a, kite, as, he, is, going, camping, with, the, school, this, week, so, he, has, all, his, kit, ready, to, go, and, would, not, settle, to, go, to, sleep, and, kept, the, other, boys, awake, mon, 10th, pouring, down, in, time, for, the, school, camp, at, borrowdale, never, mind, they’ll, enjoy, it, any, way, 3, farms, have, had, silage, pits, burst, because, the, grass, has, been, put, in, too, wet, if, silage, is, made, when, the, grass, is, too, wet, it, flows, very, slowly, and, cannot, support, its, own, weight, so, it, bursts, the, side, walls, and, will, flow, out, of, the, heap, that, it, has, been, put, in, if, there, is, plenty, of, effluent, coming, off, it, will, usually, escape, from, the, normal, collecting, systems, and, if, it, gets, into, the, becks, it, is, worse, than, slurry, hunters, stream, was, black, with, effluent, and, the, environment, agency, were, out, testing, the, water, quality, so, they, will, be, for, the, high, jump, the, contractors, are, so, far, behind, and, the, grass, is, getting, so, long, and, bulky, that, it, doesn’t, dry, out, as, quickly, so, there, may, well, be, a, few, more, but, at, least, the, farmers, will, have, had, warning, so, it, will, be, their, own, fault, the, school, kids, are, back, for, their, work, experience, week, it, must, be, hard, for, them, to, follow, what, is, going, on, but, they, seem, to, enjoy, them, selves, the, worksheets, definitely, help, to, give, some, structure, and, a, feel, for, what, is, going, on, crusaders, meeting, at, night, pretty, disappointing, response, so, not, a, lot, we, can, do, tues, 11th, june, workload, has, set, in, and, i’m, just, cruising, and, managed, to, get, to, the, gym, while, on, first, so, feel, full, of, energy, why, do, you, feel, full, of, energy, after, expending, some, spent, half, an, hour, on, net, trying, to, get, holiday, organised, but, finding, places, for, 6, is, not, as, easy, the, weather, is, better, for, son, camping, and, should, be, better, until, the, w, e, means, we, will, hopefully, be, quiet, at, work, as, they, all, go, out, into, the, fields, weds, 12th, no, calls, over, night, first, time, since, finishing, with, defra, not, had, a, call, at, night, summer, is, truly, here, there, was, a, call, just, on, half, time, at, 8.15, which, i, did, during, the, break, so, got, to, see, the, second, half, and, england, drew, 0, 0, but, are, through, t, o, the, next, round, caught, up, on, paper, work, and, have, sorted, a, lot, of, things, so, they, are, in, place, for, the, 2, new, vets, thurs, 13th, meeting, with, bank, manager, for, executive, lunch, sandwiches, from, bells, he, asked, how, was, the, new, normality, which, seems, an, excellent, phrase, he, seemed, happy, enough, but, it, is, always, interesting, to, see, how, an, outsider, views, the, information, given, the, problem, is, usually, knowing, the, questions, to, ask, i, think, that, is, probably, he, seemed, happy, enough, but, it, is, always, interesting, to, see, how, an, outsider, views, the, information, given, the, problem, is, usually, knowing, the, questions, to, ask, i, think, that, is, probably, true, of, the, inquiries, into, fmd, unless, you, know, the, questions, you, will, not, get, the, right, answers, went, abseiling, up, at, sandale, with, the, house, group, from, church, and, had, a, bbq, it, would, have, been, nicer, if, the, wind, hadn’t, howled, i, had, gone, prepared, for, british, summer, weather, but, it, was, still, pretty, nippy, it, was, great, fun, fri, read, another, test, that, had, ir, s, for, tb, inconclusive, that, will, have, to, be, retested, in, 60, days, while, i, was, writing, up, the, paper, work, the, farmer’s, wife, was, saying, that, the, kids, were, all, off, school, and, nursery, with, hand, foot, and, mouth, she, had, taken, the, youngest, who, was, ill, with, the, middle, kid, to, the, doctor, the, doctor, had, said, what, it, was, and, the, middle, kid, burst, into, tears, as, he, thought, they, were, going, to, take, her, baby, brother, outside, and, shoot, him, it, is, funny, but, also, very, sad, the, same, farmer, was, really, fed, up, as, the, cows, were, all, supposed, to, be, tb, tested, prior, to, arriving, on, the, farm, he, had, also, let, them, out, into, a, long, 5, acre, field, with, the, water, troughs, at, the, far, end, of, the, field, half, the, cows, had, not, found, the, trough, and, so, were, very, thirsty, by, the, time, they, came, back, at, milking, time, the, idea, that, you, just, go, and, replace, the, cows, just, like, that, is, not, quite, the, case, sat, 15th, june, saturday, morning, spent, it, gardening, the, strawberries, are, coming, and, even, though, the, gooseberries, aren’t, quite, ripe, picked, some, to, start, the, harvest, and, the, one, strawberry, that, was, reddish, then, went, to, visit, friend, and, the, wide, screen, tv, for, the, football, match, no, one, expected, any, more, english, progress, but, the, lads, surprised, me, and, played, a, stormer, so, the, game, against, brazil, will, become, the, match, the, practice, bbq, in, watery, june, sunshine, was, good, fun, but, the, ground, was, too, wet, to, play, silly, games, or, even, footie, the, food, was, excellent, aw, was, notable, by, her, absence, hey, ho, bbq, is, in, need, of, a, revamp, maybe, abseiling, though, i, don’t, think, i, can, see, either, r, or, aw, going, for, it, showed, s, around, flat, and, met, her, parents, remind, me, to, be, wise, with, my, kids, sun, felt, tired, and, ill, and, washed, out, after, slowing, down, and, switching, off, after, a, busy, day, yesterday, and, all, week, watched, the, ireland, match, which, was, very, close, spent, rest, of, day, sleeping, or, just, chilling, out, mon, went, testing, at, k, and, t’d, they, are, really, nice, lads, but, not, too, hot, on, the, academic, front, but, good, fun, they, were, in, good, form, and, hoping, to, get, the, low, down, on, the, new, vets, yes, they, are, young, free, and, single, as, far, as, i, know, i, pity, their, chances, spent, a, lazy, day, in, the, sun, at, a, gentle, pace, so, quite, enjoyed, myself, caught, up, with, the, paperwork, at, night, and, feel, mellow, tuesday, too, many, o’s, one, call, was, cancelled, but, the, other, one, still, wanted, the, call, so, some, one, went, to, the, wrong, o, and, i, had, to, make, a, mad, dash, and, pour, oil, on, the, waters, to, explain, why, we, are, so, late, oops, so, more, testing, and, a, quiet, day, wife, also, had, her, quiet, day, there, was, supposed, to, be, a, group, of, them, going, for, a, retreat, day, but, the, speaker, had, cancelled, so, she, did, it, herself, with, r, and, it, went, very, well, she, was, exhausted, after, giving, out, all, day, met, up, with, lads, at, night, didn’t, get, to, gym, again, as, i, had, to, go, and, calve, a, schistasoma, yuk, weds, tried, again, to, work, out, what, we, are, going, to, do, with, summer, holidays, no, doubt, we, will, get, organised, eventually, came, home, early, for, lunch, and, had, forgotten, that, it, was, coffee, morning, here, so, felt, out, of, place, amongst, so, many, women, skipped, off, early, and, went, for, a, cycle, to, make, up, for, missing, gym, did, first, part, with, a, and, annie, and, then, zipped, around, for, a, bit, which, was, good, thursday, k, and, t, had, an, i, r, again, i, need, a, new, supply, of, little, green, forms, to, put, this, in, context, prior, to, this, year, in, 16, years, in, practice, i, have, had, 4, i, r’s, i, am, doing, that, this, week, so, another, farm, under, restrictions, friday, bad, hair, day, england, lost, och, well, never, mind, such, is, life, richard, drummond’s, report, that, the, svs, was, unprepared, yeah, we, had, all, been, saying, it, but, i, did, not, realise, that, the, svs, had, been, saying, it, 2, years, ago, has, been, picked, up, by, the, audit, office, there, is, a, report, case, of, fmd, in, a, pig, from, leicester, mkt, and, i, had, another, i, r, and, met, with, jm, a, temporary, vet, with, carlisle, svs, on, why, we, had, not, done, the, tests, allocated, mostly, cos, they, aren’t, to, do, he, also, was, very, cynical, about, the, changes, in, defra, and, the, management, ethos, has, not, changed, he, brought, a, message, back, from, them, that, the, test, we, had, sent, back, because, the, guy, is, an, old, recluse, that, is, impossible, to, deal, with, we, had, to, do, as, they, did, not, have, the, resources, what, they, are, responsible, for, ensuring, that, they, are, done, and, sorting, out, the, recalcitrant, had, the, afternoon, off, and, ran, round, after, the, kids, while, wife, did, reports, next, week, must, be, better, sat, 22nd, june, wedding, day, for, d, and, s, yippee, d, and, his, best, man, and, usher, plus, 3, others, arrived, last, night, and, it, was, really, nice, to, have, young, people, around, again, i, have, forgotten, how, much, i, enjoy, young, people, i, must, be, getting, too, old, and, cynical, c, looked, after, our, boys, and, a, went, into, town, it, was, really, nice, s, could, not, stop, smiling, and, it, is, wigton, carnival, day, so, there, were, two, pipe, bands, as, well, which, could, be, heard, drifting, over, the, vows, was, in, his, kilt, i, should, have, got, mine, on, for, the, occasion, the, reception, was, at, tullie, house, which, is, a, really, nice, relaxed, venue, we, were, seated, opposite, friends, so, it, was, really, nice, catching, up, with, them, b, d, are, just, back, from, another, wedding, in, vancouver, and, really, impressed, with, bc, they, are, out, doors, fanatics, so, the, skiing, mountains, and, whistler, really, is, their, thing, barnes, who, was, looking, after, the, kids, at, night, is, going, out, there, for, his, gap, year, to, work, in, a, book, shop, should, be, really, great, for, him, there, was, a, celeidh, in, the, evening, but, i, only, lasted, for, 3, dances, i, was, absolutely, exhausted, i, didn’t, realise, how, tired, i, was, sunday, fortunately, it, was, a, family, service, ie, doesn’t, start, until, 11;00, it, was, lead, by, the, young, adults, group, so, was, really, fresh, and, good, they, also, don’t, take, themselves, too, seriously, but, do, take, jesus, seriously, and, it, was, good, monday, missed, swimming, again, cos, work, was, really, busy, crusaders, meeting, at, night, at, rydal, very, good, met, up, with, some, of, the, leaders, i, haven’t, met, before, folk, who, work, with, young, people, are, always, good, fun, and, have, a, wicked, sense, of, humour, do, you, need, one, to, do, youth, work, or, does, youth, work, give, you, one, tuesday, diary, did, not, get, filled, in, from, here, on, as, on, weds, morning, i, reached, into, back, of, the, car, and, my, back, went, i, tore, muscles, in, it, a, long, time, ago, and, it, often, niggles, but, as, long, as, i, keep, doing, the, exercises, for, stretching, and, building, up, the, muscles, it, is, ok, but, i, have, missed, doing, the, swimming, relevant, any, way, saw, stars, and, in, agony, so, flat, on, my, back, and, stretching, every, 2, hrs, and, sore, saturday, 29th, june, my, back, is, slowly, improving, i, can, move, around, and, type, i, can, do, the, stretching, ok, but, stiff, and, achy, rather, than, spasm, work, must, have, been, bad, for, the, two, left, as, it, was, going, to, be, short, staffed, with, out, me, dropping, out, nothing, i, can, do, about, it, the, new, vet, called, around, to, look, at, the, flat, before, moving, in, a, month’s, time, she, came, with, her, mother, their, farm, was, culled, out, with, fmd, late, on, and, they, had, just, got, the, herd, to, where, they, wanted, the, breeding, her, mum, was, talking, about, it, was, going, through, a, grieving, period, and, how, some, days, it, was, yes, carry, on, and, get, going, again, and, other, days, it, was, why, bother, it, is, just, all, too, much, hassle, it, will, take, a, long, time, for, the, memories, in, the, farming, community, to, fader, and, with, the, acknowledgement, that, it, was, much, better, to, get, the, disease, and, get, it, over, with, the, cooperation, of, farmers, will, be, even, less, they, are, the, 17th, generation, on, the, farm, the, whole, concept, of, bio, security, needs, to, be, looked, at, and, farmer, education, on, how, the, disease, is, spread, the, self, imposed, isolation, of, not, sending, kids, to, school, etc, is, just, stupid, but, to, go, against, the, flow, is, very, difficult, that, as, well, as, the, defra, imposed, ridiculous, rules, they, were, not, allowed, to, leave, the, house, for, 3, months, they, just, view, this, as, a, punishment, imposed, because, they, refused, to, let, the, hefted, flock, be, culled, they, were, right, not, to, the, old, tenants, have, moved, out, of, the, cottage, eddie, and, ruth, seemed, to, really, enjoy, it, as, a, summer, holiday, while, at, work, a, change, is, as, good, as, a, rest, so, they, say, i, have, looked, at, jobs, again, but, nothing, appeals, there, is, a, job, which, i, wouldn’t, mind, doing, as, a, consultancy, but, doubt, anything, will, come, will, have, to, wait, and, continue, to, see, what, happens, went, out, for, a, meal, to, giannis, at, night, as, my, dad, is, up, for, the, w, e, sunday, p, spoke, at, family, focus, at, church, and, was, very, encouraging, he, is, always, a, revelation, as, he, takes, things, as, they, are, not, as, they, should, be, watched, brazil, beat, germany, to, win, the, world, cup, wet, weather, and, kids, out, of, sorts, and, back, still, sore, yuk, monday, drove, for, the, first, time, and, dropped, my, dad, off, in, carlisle, but, it, was, pretty, sore, by, the, time, i, got, back, dad, was, in, good, form, and, he, has, enjoyed, his, time, up, here, but, he, is, getting, older, and, with, being, in, london, we, are, going, to, have, to, visit, on, a, more, regular, basis, went, into, work, and, did, some, paper, work, and, answered, phone, and, felt, better, for, doing, sthg, as, pretty, bored, but, couldn’t, sit, still, or, really, get, going, either, came, home, and, lay, down, again, d, came, around, at, night, called, in, absolutely, hyper, he, and, a, going, to, split, up, which, is, not, so, good, even, if, it, is, not, that, un, expected, the, thing, that, has, brought, to, a, head, is, the, fact, a, is, seeing, some, one, else, who, is, also, married, not, a, good, situation, lads, came, around, at, night, which, was, good, fun, and, we, had, a, good, time, tuesday, i, am, now, the, father, of, a, teenager, a’s, b’day, so, it, was, good, to, see, her, opening, her, presents, this, morning, back, is, easing, a, lot, so, did, small, animal, today, and, i, am, moving, freely, but, still, doing, the, exercises, a’s, birthday, is, also, always, a, time, for, reflection, as, she, was, born, a, year, to, the, day, after, we, arrived, in, cumbria, so, we, have, been, here, 14, years, a, long, time, the, future, is, also, looking, a, bit, uncertain, work, wise, with, more, farmers, complaining, about, the, prices, of, their, milk, and, animals, hence, they, don’t, want, to, pay, their, bills, weds, to, saturday, as, usual, the, diary, gets, missed, when, the, crisis, hits, so, i, am, writing, this, on, the, following, tuesday, and, bringing, the, diary, entries, up, to, date, weds, morning, i, was, driving, through, wigton, having, done, my, first, farm, call, since, doing, my, back, when, there, were, lots, of, flashing, lights, and, an, ambulance, and, an, unmarked, police, car, with, all, its, lights, on, going, through, wigton, they, stopped, at, the, lay, by, in, wigton, high, st, the, traffic, was, slow, but, i, did, not, see, anything, later, on, i, was, coming, back, in, to, wigton, from, another, call, and, the, by, pass, was, closed, the, office, was, full, of, news, that, the, by, pass, had, been, closed, because, of, a, stabbing, and, that, a, welshman, and, a, wigton, woman, had, been, taken, to, hospital, and, a, wigton, man, had, been, arrested, for, attempted, murder, i, got, a, sinking, feeling, as, d, had, been, around, on, monday, saying, about, ali, having, a, boy, friend, i, said, to, wife, but, she, said, surely, not, i, got, back, after, work, and, a, friend, arrived, and, unfortunately, it, was, d, the, story, emerged, over, the, next, few, days, how, he, had, forced, his, wife, at, knife, point, to, take, him, to, where, she, was, meeting, the, boyfriend, and, there, he, attacked, him, the, sort, of, story, you, only, here, about, in, the, papers, and, crime, programmes, so, we, have, had, the, police, taking, statements, and, trying, to, come, to, terms, with, it, he, is, usually, a, mild, almost, submissive, personality, and, he, had, flipped, but, really, weird, they, have, 3, girls, who, are, now, going, to, be, really, mixed, up, having, a, father, who, attempts, to, kill, their, mother, is, not, nice, so, i, missed, the, leaving, party, for, the, locum, who, has, been, working, for, us, for, the, past, few, months, which, by, all, accounts, was, very, good, saturday, 6th, july, still, in, shell, shock, over, d, and, a, i, still, cannot, believe, what, has, happened, went, in, saturday, morning, and, sorted, my, car, and, got, testing, list, up, to, date, there, is, a, lot, in, the, veterinary, press, about, the, future, of, the, lvi, system, and, the, future, of, farm, animal, practice, the, future, is, not, looking, good, the, short, term, is, fine, if, anything, we, will, have, a, huge, amount, of, work, and, we, can, live, off, the, fmd, capital, that, the, farmers, have, but, once, that, begins, to, run, out, they, and, we, will, be, in, serious, difficulties, the, economics, are, against, the, farm, animal, practice, went, out, for, a, brilliant, meal, and, had, a, really, good, evening, at, c’s, her, husband, is, a, detective, sgt, and, had, been, called, out, because, there, was, yet, another, serious, incident, this, time, at, a, night, club, in, cockermouth, there, is, a, 22, year, old, in, newcastle, hospital, with, head, injuries, so, felt, sorry, for, c, as, she, cooked, and, hostessed, with, out, her, better, half, sunday, church, was, good, with, sg, on, the, character, of, god, he, was, quite, funny, with, his, illustrations, of, fatherly, things, from, his, life, espy, as, his, son, is, quite, a, character, met, up, with, dc, who, was, a, defra, vet, from, sa, he, was, in, good, form, and, has, another, locum, set, up, for, when, he, finishes, at, longtown, monday, back, into, full, swing, again, but, not, much, happening, read, the, test, and, felt, a, lot, happier, as, i, didn’t, have, to, leave, the, dreaded, piece, of, green, paper, as, everything, passed, of, the, farms, i, went, on, though, it, was, interesting, to, note, that, the, farmers, are, all, having, problems, with, their, backs, again, while, they, were, pressure, washing, and, not, amongst, stock, they, were, fine, but, going, back, to, pushing, animals, around, the, bad, backs, are, back, the, topic, is, probably, raised, because, of, the, fact, i, have, been, off, with, a, bad, back, du, called, in, as, he, is, replacing, d, on, the, railway, until, they, can, get, something, sorted, on, a, more, permanent, basis, he, stayed, for, 2, years, next, door, while, doing, his, railtrack, training, the, people, at, work, cannot, believe, that, dave, has, done, sthg, like, this, as, he, usually, if, anything, a, submissive, guy, du, had, just, got, the, keys, to, his, new, house, in, manchester, where, he, is, based, now, and, was, not, very, happy, to, be, posted, back, up, to, cumbria, he, hasn’t, even, managed, to, move, in, tuesday, work, very, quiet, and, long, lunches, good, for, getting, other, things, done, but, pretty, boring, looked, at, rota, and, checked, websites, reports, to, be, published, on, 18th, july, spent, time, sorting, out, rotas, and, booking, up, and, reorganising, my, kit, weds, day, off, went, into, carlisle, and, was, bounced, by, my, wife, in, to, getting, my, hair, cut, in, what, i, assume, is, an, expensive, hairdressers, she, was, getting, hers, done, and, dragged, me, in, and, it, was, a, fait, accompli, at, least, i, assume, it, is, expensive, as, she, won’t, tell, me, how, much, it, is, and, she, let, me, go, off, to, tesco’s, and, said, she, would, pay, for, both, wandered, around, book, shop, in, carlisle, and, met, wife, s, mum, off, the, bus, the, vet, student, from, usa, arrived, for, a, couple, of, days, jamie, who, is, not, as, i, assumed, male, but, female, it, is, amazing, how, you, make, assumptions, when, you, read, e, mails, and, take, messages, she, is, in, uk, for, 12, wks, and, friend, has, given, her, our, address, as, his, wife, is, about, to, have, twins, so, he, thought, it, better, not, to, have, more, people, than, really, necessary, in, his, house, there, are, a, few, babies, at, the, moment, got, a, photo, of, e, this, morning, and, friend, called, around, to, say, other, friends, had, had, a, baby, but, he, couldn’t, remember, whether, it, was, a, boy, or, a, girl, learnt, later, it, is, a, boy, thursday, not, a, lot, for, j, to, see, called, in, to, see, friend’s, new, kittens, posh, becks, both, have, cat, flu, he, is, busy, painting, house, and, tidying, up, for, the, wedding, never, seen, his, yard, as, tidy, must, tell, abbi, to, get, a, move, on, and, maybe, he, will, finish, off, some, of, the, building, work, as, well, did, 2, calvings, in, the, afternoon, and, finally, read, through, the, audit, office, report, which, i, downloaded, ages, ago, they, were, pretty, accurate, apart, from, nick, brown, insisting, it, was, all, going, splendidly, well, there, really, must, be, a, better, working, relationship, between, the, ministry, svs, vets, and, the, vets, in, general, practice, and, so, much, better, communication, the, other, point, that, is, never, made, is, that, all, farms, should, have, a, mass, disposal, plan, as, part, of, their, iacs, return, in, order, to, keep, fmd, on, peoples, minds, as, it, is, already, disappearing, as, a, part, of, history, and, history, will, repeat, itself, because, nobody, listens, and, most, of, the, anguish, and, delays, were, in, the, disposal, systems, friday, dropped, j, off, in, wigton, to, catch, the, train, it, is, always, strange, with, having, students, because, they, stay, in, our, house, they, are, very, much, part, of, our, lives, and, then, they, drop, out, of, our, lives, another, former, student, who, is, just, back, from, sa, called, in, and, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, her, she, was, on, her, way, back, to, edinburgh, for, her, 5, year, reunion, he, has, been, qualified, 5, years, and, i, thought, it, was, 2, or, three, one, of, the, vets, was, off, ill, so, it, meant, a, bit, of, a, run, around, today, as, 2, others, were, on, holiday, but, it, was, good, to, be, busy, and, get, some, adrenalin, pumping, saturday, 13th, july, working, saturday, morning, on, days, like, this, i, think, it, is, great, to, be, a, small, animal, vet, the, consults, were, all, straight, forward, and, i, could, chat, to, the, owners, with, out, having, to, stop, and, think, what, to, do, about, the, animals, that, and, 2, owners, were, really, appreciative, of, what, i, was, doing, so, felt, good, i, think, that, is, one, of, the, things, about, working, for, defra, no, one, appreciated, what, you, were, doing, ok, some, appreciated, the, concern, and, effort, and, the, way, you, did, it, but, no, one, really, thought, what, you, were, doing, was, good, like, putting, pets, down, it, is, for, the, best, but, no, one, likes, it, beautiful, day, today, too, the, sun, shining, and, picking, strawberries, and, having, a, bar, b, q, was, really, very, pleasant, my, brother, always, says, the, best, thing, about, nz, where, he, lives, is, that, he, can, plan, to, have, a, barb, in, 2, wks, time, whereas, here, you, have, to, go, with, the, flow, sun, 14th, first, call, so, wandered, around, seeing, ill, cows, several, lots, of, drugs, to, put, out, as, a, lot, for, the, restocking, farms, have, yet, to, get, their, medicine, cabinets, back, up, to, strength, had, a, collie, hit, by, a, tractor, and, its, eye, had, been, knocked, out, of, its, socket, urgh, eyes, give, me, the, creeps, mon, 15th, operating, day, as, we, are, doing, the, anaesthetic, monitoring, so, plenty, of, ops, booked, in, health, and, safety, requires, us, to, check, for, operator, exposure, to, anaesthetic, gases, as, our, new, system, has, a, scavenging, system, and, is, light, years, ahead, of, the, one, we, use, to, have, it, is, a, waste, of, time, but, we, have, to, have, the, checks, done, but, i, wonder, how, many, other, practices, actually, do, we, have, never, been, checked, up, upon, a, police, man, arrived, at, the, front, desk, while, i, was, on, the, phone, the, head, nurse, disappeared, as, soon, as, she, saw, the, marked, police, car, which, struck, me, as, very, suspicious, after, he, had, booked, an, appointment, for, his, dog, and, he, had, left, i, was, curious, to, know, where, she, had, disappeared, to, she, had, gone, to, check, that, the, medicines, cabinet, where, we, keep, the, gun, and, dangerous, drugs, was, in, fact, locked, as, while, we, are, operating, we, keep, it, open, so, as, to, have, easy, access, to, the, emergency, drugs, the, gun, licences, insist, that, it, is, kept, locked, at, all, times, and, immediate, access, to, a, police, officer, coming, to, check, it, must, be, allowed, and, we, never, been, checked, up, upon, yet, farmers, are, all, busy, with, field, work, and, are, not, wanting, to, even, think, about, any, routine, work, so, it, could, be, a, quiet, week, tuesday, 16th, beautiful, weather, and, raspberries, coming, along, nicely, wife, s, mum, is, busy, making, jam, and, mile, high, pies, yum, yum, partners, meeting, at, lunchtime, why, do, they, always, make, me, so, depressed, the, subjects, were, more, of, the, same, how, do, we, cope, with, the, changes, in, the, drug, sales, prices, and, how, do, we, compete, with, irish, drugs, being, brought, in, illegally, we, got, a, little, further, forward, and, will, hopefully, be, able, to, make, a, decision, on, it, by, the, deadline, in, september, we, need, to, look, at, new, ways, of, bringing, in, revenue, streams, but, i, don’t, think, there, is, a, willing, ness, to, look, at, the, radical, so, i, will, have, to, keep, working, away, at, it, weds, 17th, met, up, with, the, lads, last, night, to, pray, but, the, craic, was, good, and, did, more, chat, and, joking, than, praying, t’was, good, i, is, apparently, having, a, good, time, at, the, cs, lewis, convention, but, has, yet, to, open, the, book, stall, he, sells, books, and, specialises, in, antiquarian, and, first, editions, of, c.s, lewis, the, one, thing, about, the, internet, is, that, it, frees, up, communication, and, searching, for, the, really, obscure, sorry, i, the, weather, broke, today, and, the, rain, came, and, with, it, all, the, calls, as, the, farmers, got, all, the, routine, stuff, done, which, was, good, for, the, last, of, the, school, kids, which, have, plagued, us, for, the, past, few, weeks, vet, students, next, but, at, least, they, can, chat, away, with, out, me, having, to, make, all, the, effort, thurs, 18th, went, o, a, farm, today, which, restocked, in, feb, after, doing, its, 4, months, waiting, and, has, yet, to, have, a, tb, test, asked, him, whether, i, should, chase, it, up, but, he, like, everyone, else, should, be, leaving, it, to, october, and, housing, maff, efficiency, rules, we, also, tested, 44, imported, heifers, that, were, supposed, to, be, blood, sampled, within, 7, days, of, calving, but, they, have, been, missed, i, have, no, confidence, in, either, of, the, reports, to, actually, achieve, anything, part, of, me, feels, i, should, try, to, contact, the, media, and, try, to, get, them, to, push, the, agenda, along, but, i, don’t, feel, it, would, achieve, much, apart, from, sticking, my, head, above, the, parapet, which, would, not, do, much, i, have, asked, for, copies, but, none, have, arrived, yet, fri, 19th, demob, happy, i’m, on, holiday, from, 5, 30pm, so, it, will, be, good, to, catch, up, on, all, the, things, i, should, have, done, but, not, done, the, garden, is, a, mess, but, we, are, getting, on, top, of, it, slowly, in, some, ways, i, am, glad, to, be, off, when, the, lli, is, reporting, as, at, least, i, will, not, get, wound, up, so, this, is, me, signing, off, for, the, week, next, diary, will, be, on, sat, week, holiday, week, beginning, saturday, 20th, july, saturday, 27th, july, having, had, a, week, off, i, am, feeling, a, lot, happier, about, life, in, general, we, have, been, to, a, few, of, the, nights, at, the, keswick, convention, it, is, an, amazing, set, up, with, over, 12,000, people, coming, together, over, 3, weeks, in, keswick, and, meeting, up, for, bible, teaching, and, to, worship, god, there, is, a, big, tent, that, is, set, up, on, the, back, of, the, convention, centre, by, the, time, we, arrive, it, is, always, full, and, we, were, not, late, on, the, friday, evening, there, were, people, standing, outside, the, kids, went, to, a, youth, event, on, of, all, things, ezekiel, not, exactly, an, easy, choice, of, bible, book, to, convey, to, 19, 14, yr, olds, but, they, really, enjoyed, the, wacky, games, and, the, way, they, mixed, teaching, and, songs, and, games, activities, they, seemed, to, be, mostly, uni, students, who, seemed, to, get, as, much, fun, out, of, it, as, the, kids, my, brother, and, family, were, up, and, the, cousins, love, getting, together, and, even, a, joined, in, the, football, and, tennis, even, though, her, hand, to, eye, co, ordination, is, not, the, best, she, has, taken, up, running, every, day, so, i, have, been, out, with, her, but, my, back, is, still, not, right, and, i, can, feel, it, at, the, slightest, provocation, must, go, swimming, again, my, brother, also, asked, wife, what, diy, needed, doing, as, he, is, a, real, enthusiast, give, me, gardening, any, time, so, we, made, a, door, for, one, of, the, sheds, which, i, have, been, putting, off, for, the, past, 6, years, as, once, i, start, there, are, another, 5, to, do, he, is, also, a, sailing, fan, so, hired, a, sail, boat, and, went, sailing, which, was, great, fun, the, kids, had, a, canoe, and, we, raced, up, and, down, the, lake, and, the, kids, swapped, around, and, went, to, explore, islands, it, was, really, good, the, weather, helped, it, was, scorching, we, also, went, to, a, wedding, of, one, of, our, close, friends, son, i, decided, i, am, going, to, start, teaching, my, kids, the, etiquette, of, weddings, as, the, groom, could, have, done, a, better, job, it, isn’t, really, his, fault, as, he, is, young, and, has, not, thought, things, out, sun, went, to, the, all, age, service, at, the, tent, at, keswick, there, were, too, many, kids, even, for, me, but, the, mix, of, action, songs, and, asking, kids, things, and, an, action, talk, meant, that, those, leading, it, kept, the, kids, involved, it, was, good, to, see, spent, the, afternoon, on, the, lake, it, was, really, nice, day, mon, yep, it, was, a, real, monday, morning, with, my, in, tray, over, flowing, 2, rota’s, to, sort, and, 2, weeks, of, testing, to, try, to, arrange, the, only, goodish, news, was, that, the, ministry, have, finally, decided, to, put, the, restocking, farms, on, annual, testing, which, means, at, least, we, know, where, we, stand, and, can, plan, it, will, mean, a, lot, of, work, for, us, the, bad, news, was, that, the, oft, investigation, have, sent, us, a, horrific, questionnaire, which, needs, filled, in, and, one, of, my, partners, has, had, a, go, and, not, got, very, far, unfortunately, and, it, needs, to, be, in, by, tomorrow, forget, it, the, 2, new, vets, have, started, and, so, we, are, settling, them, in, and, they, are, picking, up, the, ropes, quite, quickly, which, is, ace, on, call, at, night, out, twice, for, bad, calvings, that’s, the, end, of, my, holiday, f, feeling, good, tuesday, sore, back, from, calvings, and, early, mornings, had, forgotten, i, had, arranged, for, some, one, to, be, with, me, all, day, today, in, a, moment, of, weakness, i, had, acquiesced, to, being, put, up, for, sale, in, a, promise, auction, to, raise, money, for, african, children’s, choir, so, this, was, the, promise, being, redeemed, a, morning, with, the, vet, so, i, put, on, my, best, charming, manner, all, mr, pr, man, and, took, her, on, a, tour, of, the, practice, and, on, call, and, explained, everything, i, was, doing, so, it, was, a, good, thing, we, were, not, busy, spent, the, afternoon, consulting, and, supervising, new, vets, and, showing, them, the, ropes, weds, we, were, suppose, to, be, going, walking, up, helvellyn, but, the, torrential, rain, put, us, off, so, went, into, carlisle, and, did, bits, and, pieces, and, i, took, kids, to, see, stuart, little, 2, which, is, definitely, one, for, the, kids, and, jobbed, around, at, home, but, the, kids, like, it, when, we, just, potter, around, thursday, felt, really, stiff, and, sore, and, decided, again, i, must, go, swimming, more, often, i, just, cannot, seem, to, get, there, that’s, all, must, make, time, i’m, working, this, w, e, and, i, am, then, off, for, 10, days, finishing, with, f’s, wedding, friends, are, up, with, their, kids, and, it, is, really, good, to, see, them, we, don’t, see, them, that, often, but, they, are, the, sort, of, friends, who, you, pick, up, on, as, soon, as, you, meet, them, even, if, you, haven’t, seen, them, for, ages, m, has, left, full, time, teaching, as, he, couldn’t, cope, with, the, pressure, of, all, the, paper, work, and, hassle, he, is, teaching, supply, and, doing, other, things, as, well, he, is, so, creative, and, he, has, made, a, model, of, our, house, just, while, he, was, sitting, chatting, with, us, friday, came, home, at, lunchtime, to, see, the, kitchen, table, covered, in, drawings, and, paintings, m, had, decided, to, have, a, painting, day, so, all, the, kids, were, doing, drawings, and, paintings, he, has, done, a, watercolour, of, our, house, it, is, brilliant, holiday, for, two, weeks, this, is, more, a, reflection, of, what, i, have, been, doing, and, thinking, over, the, summer, as, i, have, not, been, writing, up, the, diary, but, i, want, to, put, down, some, of, the, things, that, i, think, are, important, edited, disclosive, sat, 24th, aug, another, bank, holiday, w, e, to, be, worked, but, at, least, i, am, backing, up, our, new, young, assistant, we, work, a, system, where, the, new, vets, have, a, senior, vet, on, call, at, the, same, time, for, the, first, few, months, so, as, to, give, them, a, hands, on, support, and, mentoring, while, this, sounds, very, good, and, practical, it, is, surprisingly, uncommon, when, i, started, i, was, on, my, own, from, almost, day, one, i, started, in, august, after, getting, married, and, in, the, second, week, of, september, my, boss, headed, off, to, oman, to, do, horse, work, out, there, the, other, large, animal, vet, was, off, on, long, term, sick, and, he, could, only, get, a, small, animal, locum, when, i, look, back, now, that, he, left, me, in, charge, of, the, farm, practice, for, 2, weeks, after, only, being, a, month, qualified, i, shudder, but, at, the, time, i, just, got, on, with, it, sun, 25th, calvings, coming, thick, and, fast, the, good, warm, weather, has, made, the, grass, spring, and, the, cows, are, putting, on, too, much, weight, and, having, problems, j, was, at, a, football, tournament, at, pirelli’s, which, i, missed, but, he, came, back, really, tired, having, played, his, socks, off, did, another, pts, put, to, sleep, dog, visit, with, assistant, vet, it, is, never, the, easiest, of, consults, and, she, did, really, well, she, is, finding, her, feet, i, find, it, hard, helping, people, make, euthanasia, decisions, over, dogs, so, i, feel, quite, strongly, anti, euthanasia, when, it, comes, to, people, mon, 28th, beautiful, day, too, nice, to, work, the, morning, was, busy, but, the, afternoon, was, quiet, so, i, spent, it, lying, in, the, sun, dozing, had, bbq, at, night, at, j’s, and, chatted, to, a, few, folk, who, i, know, but, not, to, speak, to, so, was, interesting, spoke, to, one, of, our, farmers, daughters, who, told, me, her, dad, had, just, had, his, first, calf, since, fmd, and, so, he, was, really, happy, he, had, 2, holdings, which, were, run, as, one, he, managed, to, keep, his, heifers, which, were, on, the, second, holding, probably, because, they, were, the, last, ones, in, the, area, and, these, were, the, ones, that, were, now, calving, he, still, blames, the, pyre, from, a, neighbour, for, spreading, the, virus, to, his, farm, tuesday, 27th, the, problem, with, having, a, day, off, is, that, you, have, problems, stored, up, for, when, you, come, back, today, was, really, hectic, finished, at, 6, 30, after, having, come, back, from, the, belgian, blue, inspections, to, help, out, at, surgery, the, inspections, were, fun, but, it, gave, me, the, creeps, being, in, the, mart, and, inspecting, mouths, as, it, brought, back, bad, memories, the, mart, is, ridiculously, clean, and, the, last, time, i, inspected, mouths, was, for, fmd, after, shooting, a, herd, that, was, a, dangerous, contact, i, was, trying, to, persuade, london, not, to, take, out, the, other, neighbour, as, well, we, got, finished, at, 2am, and, went, in, for, a, cup, of, tea, and, to, recover, and, the, mother, greeted, me, with, the, news, that, d, had, been, next, door, and, was, starting, to, shoot, them, the, other, really, annoying, thing, is, that, the, basic, hygiene, is, not, being, enforced, and, yet, other, rules, are, the, rules, are, made, in, london, by, desk, bound, defra, officials, who, don’t, have, to, implement, them, the, mart, uses, mini, dumper, trucks, to, clean, out, the, pens, after, they, have, been, sold, the, same, trucks, are, then, used, to, put, out, straw, and, sawdust, in, the, freshly, cleansed, and, disinfected, yards, they, are, covered, in, muck, and, are, a, bio, hazard, m, the, owner, of, the, animals, we, were, inspecting, put, on, her, usual, tantrum, display, to, try, and, intimidate, the, secretary, and, inspectors, which, as, i, was, expecting, it, i, found, quite, amusing, but, i, don’t, think, she, or, they, did, had, another, bbq, tonight, with, kids, son, cooked, and, loved, it, so, i, have, found, a, new, bbqer, kids, in, brilliant, form, as, they, are, enjoying, being, around, and, a, has, been, baking, weds, 28th, another, tb, reactor, and, the, corresponding, paper, work, and, licensing, had, a, weird, oddball, case, in, surgery, and, spent, ages, trying, to, take, a, history, of, what, was, going, on, the, dog, is, not, that, unwell, in, itself, but, has, an, intermittent, history, of, different, things, i, look, forward, to, seeing, what, it, turns, out, to, be, or, whether, it, resolves, itself, with, time, vetting, is, always, varied, j, was, at, friend’s, party, after, having, a, football, school, with, blackburn, rovers, this, morning, so, he, was, passed, himself, arranged, to, visit, prisoner, in, prison, on, my, next, day, off, and, went, through, a, multitude, of, meaningless, options, to, end, up, with, a, guy, who, sounded, like, he, came, straight, off, porridge, it, is, amazing, how, intimidating, trying, to, find, your, way, around, a, bureaucracy, can, be, i, am, not, sure, i, want, to, go, but, thurs, 29th, from, feast, to, famine, not, much, work, during, the, day, at, least, al, had, 3, caesareans, last, night, and, was, running, out, of, steam, by, 5, o’clock, this, afternoon, meanwhile, i, did, small, animals, and, tried, to, organise, my, trip, to, london, to, visit, my, dad, found, web, sites, for, chitty, chitty, bang, bang, london, eye, and, madam, tussards, so, should, be, able, to, book, in, advance, if, tickets, are, left, for, the, half, term, week, other, children, are, staying, so, the, house, is, full, of, excited, kids, friday, 30th, busy, day, sorting, out, the, invitations, to, our, open, day, 1st, oct, it, is, just, a, chance, to, get, the, farmers, together, we, promised, one, to, celebrate, the, end, of, fmd, it, is, amazing, going, through, the, list, off, the, computer, how, many, farms, are, not, restocked, the, list, hasn’t, been, updated, since, pre, fmd, as, we, don’t, really, know, how, many, will, restock, so, we, have, been, waiting, for, the, end, of, fmd, to, redo, it, so, there, were, a, few, deaths, sales, and, moved, away, to, take, off, the, list, time, moves, on, sat, 31st, august, last, w, e, of, the, summer, holidays, we, had, a, bbq, at, lunch, time, for, borderline, and, then, i, promised, to, take, the, boys, camping, at, bowscale, tarn, it, was, beautiful, but, really, cold, the, weather, was, ok, sat, but, sunday, was, glorious, the, boys, wakened, at, first, light, so, we, climbed, up, on, to, the, tops, while, the, sun, was, still, rising, and, it, was, one, of, those, magical, moments, wonderful, the, boys, were, so, excited, and, full, of, energy, and, so, happy, to, be, with, their, dad, and, enjoying, life, a, time, to, treasure, sun, after, coming, down, off, the, tops, from, bowscale, tarn, went, to, visit, friends, he, is, a, vet, in, longtown, and, has, just, set, up, his, own, small, animal, practice, in, the, north, of, carlisle, the, twins, who, are, now, 4, weeks, old, were, wonderful, there, is, always, sthg, very, special, about, wee, babies, a, was, in, her, element, with, two, to, mother, mon, good, weather, continuing, and, so, we, are, still, quiet, the, vet, student, has, arrived, went, blood, sampling, sheep, for, maedi, visna, to, a, farmer, who, imports, and, sells, sheep, as, a, bit, of, a, dealer, between, him, and, his, dad, and, his, granddad, they, have, 4, holding, numbers, which, is, making, a, mockery, of, the, licensing, system, he, knows, a, lot, of, the, breeders, and, dealers, and, the, yorkshire, defra, is, even, worse, than, this, one, and, so, the, whole, licensing, system, is, allegedly, being, ignored, there, everyone, in, the, office, was, trying, to, work, out, where, we, are, going, to, go, for, the, xmas, party, as, it, is, now, september, tuesday, it, is, friend’s, last, day, at, work, tomorrow, before, the, wedding, so, the, girls, spent, most, of, the, afternoon, printing, out, posters, and, things, to, decorate, his, car, before, he, goes, tomorrow, evening, the, farmers, are, phoning, in, to, book, tb, tests, for, nov, and, dec, as, they, know, that, we, will, be, busy, which, makes, life, a, lot, easier, for, me, we, have, sent, out, notes, with, the, invitations, to, the, open, day, and, that, has, had, a, good, response, so, we, will, start, to, get, busy, testing, next, week, weds, day, off, spent, the, morning, fixing, the, shower, drainage, which, had, suffered, from, one, too, many, footballs, being, kicked, against, it, the, problem, was, the, broken, part, was, also, a, metric, to, imperial, converter, one, end, was, 40mm, and, the, other, was, 43mm, which, once, i, discovered, that, was, what, i, needed, meant, a, trip, to, carlisle, as, nowhere, in, wigton, had, it, so, it, got, codged, up, with, plenty, of, silicone, the, afternoon, was, spent, going, to, visit, prisoner, he, is, the, friend, who, stabbed, his, wife’s, boyfriend, in, wigton, and, so, he, is, currently, residing, at, her, majesty’s, pleasure, in, durham, prison, it, was, a, very, disheartening, experience, as, with, any, organisation, it, takes, time, to, work, out, where, to, go, and, what, you, need, to, get, through, the, hoops, i, went, from, one, part, of, the, prison, to, another, and, backwards, and, forwards, the, staff, where, very, friendly, and, helpful, but, they, are, all, at, fixed, stations, and, so, you, are, sent, from, one, area, to, another, the, security, although, expected, and, natural, still, comes, as, a, bit, of, a, shock, photographed, in, and, issued, with, a, barcode, to, get, you, in, and, out, and, you, put, all, your, belongings, in, a, locker, before, you, are, allowed, in, of, course, i, did, not, realise, that, you, only, need, the, id, passport, to, get, your, bar, code, so, i, kept, it, to, show, at, the, entrance, where, all, i, needed, was, the, bar, code, so, they, sent, me, back, to, put, it, in, the, locker, prisoner, was, ok, but, he, is, still, finding, it, hard, to, think, about, a, future, that, does, not, include, his, wife, even, though, the, divorce, papers, are, filed, and, he, has, done, some, pretty, nasty, things, to, her, and, the, boyfriend, he, is, pleading, guilty, and, is, expecting, to, go, down, for, a, good, few, years, the, whole, visitors, area, was, charged, with, emotion, with, people, coming, to, see, brothers, husbands, lovers, there, were, lots, of, girls, with, young, children, coming, to, see, their, dads, i, felt, very, sad, for, them, and, for, the, kids, who, are, growing, up, with, out, a, dad, or, the, stigma, of, a, dad, in, jail, his, kids, have, written, but, he, is, realistic, his, wife, is, very, anti, him, and, they, are, unlikely, to, keep, up, with, him, in, the, long, term, as, she, at, best, is, not, going, to, be, supportive, at, worst, is, going, to, try, to, dissuade, them, he, was, quite, upset, about, that, he, is, also, not, able, to, sort, out, his, things, or, see, his, house, before, it, is, sold, he, did, a, lot, of, building, work, etc, on, it, and, has, an, emotional, attachment, to, it, but, there, is, no, real, closure, he, had, emotional, problems, before, all, this, he, is, likely, to, have, even, more, on, his, release, his, car, on, which, there, is, still, a, car, loan, has, been, removed, from, the, pound, but, he, doesn’t, know, where, it, is, drove, back, over, a66, very, thoughtful, and, thankful, for, my, family, and, freedom, until, the, phone, went, to, remind, me, i, was, on, call, and, had, i, forgotten, fortunately, there, were, no, calls, as, it, takes, quite, a, while, to, get, from, barnard, castle, to, wigton, oops, thursday, did, my, first, isolation, pens, inspection, which, is, a, complete, non, sense, the, field, has, to, be, 50, m, from, any, other, livestock, which, in, london, probably, sounds, fine, or, in, scotland, where, there, are, plenty, of, woods, and, other, crops, but, here, in, cumbria, where, the, main, crop, is, grass, and, all, the, fields, are, grazed, at, this, time, of, year, then, it, is, not, so, easy, the, forms, are, horrendous, and, the, boxes, to, be, filled, in, are, greyed, out, to, make, it, easy, for, you, to, know, which, boxes, are, to, be, filled, in, this, obviously, looks, really, good, on, a, computer, screen, in, london, but, on, a, photocopy, writing, in, black, ink, makes, the, whole, thing, illegible, but, that’s, their, problem, when, does, common, sense, come, in, friday, 6th, september, colleague’s, wedding, one, of, the, vets, at, the, practice, was, married, today, at, the, parish, church, in, wigton, the, wedding, was, some, do, he, and, his, family, in, kilts, there, were, over, 200, at, the, wedding, and, reception, at, the, grennhill, hotel, where, bride’s, uncle, is, a, director, the, theme, was, an, english, rode, and, scottish, thistle, the, flowers, were, all, red, roses, in, arrangements, with, thistles, they, were, beautiful, as, was, the, bride, he, quickly, adds, there, was, a, ceilidh, afterwards, and, a, fireworks, display, several, of, the, neighbouring, farmers, complained, to, me, the, next, day, danced, and, talked, the, night, away, till, after, 2, am, getting, up, the, next, day, was, a, bit, of, a, pain, for, morning, surgery, urgh, sat, 7th, september, why, is, it, whenever, you, could, do, with, a, quiet, day, because, of, one, reason, or, another, it, is, always, busiest, managed, to, keep, going, most, of, the, day, with, calvings, and, ill, animals, still, recovering, from, the, late, night, at, wedding, day, was, a, bit, of, a, wash, out, really, sunday, milk, fever, at, 7, am, to, finish, me, off, so, missed, church, but, went, to, hear, sc, at, wigton, in, evening, he, is, head, of, oasis, trust, and, is, very, much, a, radical, but, believes, in, putting, faith, into, action, and, was, very, challenging, isiah, 58, true, fasting, that, god, wants, to, spend, your, self, on, behalf, of, the, poor, in, spirit, wife, went, to, hear, the, new, bishop, of, carlisle, who, was, speaking, at, hebron, he, is, reaching, out, to, all, the, local, churches, and, seems, to, see, outside, the, traditional, denominational, boundaries, which, is, really, encouraging, monday, had, a, crusaders, meeting, in, rydal, crusaders, is, a, youth, group, organisation, and, i, am, on, the, area, planning, group, we, have, had, money, given, in, a, legacy, to, support, some, one, full, time, to, train, leaders, to, organise, area, events, and, w, e, away, and, other, joint, activities, which, should, be, good, it, meant, a, rush, and, a, long, day, so, i, am, still, feeling, knackered, from, the, w, e, tuesday, i, was, almost, speechless, today, the, great, era, of, decentralisation, has, hit, defra, i, wish, i, rang, them, up, because, we, still, have, not, had, confirmation, for, the, appointments, of, our, 2, new, vets, to, enable, them, to, do, defra, work, what, used, to, happen, was, that, they, went, to, a, training, session, and, chat, with, the, dvm, in, carlisle, and, the, appointments, arrived, 2, days, later, guess, what, all, the, paper, work, has, to, be, sent, to, page, st, in, london, now, and, they, have, not, got, it, back, yet, weds, 11, 09, 02, it, is, funny, how, some, anniversaries, effect, you, and, others, do, not, i, had, just, started, back, in, to, the, practice, when, the, hijackers, crashed, into, the, pentagon, and, the, twin, towers, i, was, feeling, at, my, most, bruised, and, battered, having, had, a, major, confrontation, at, defra, and, had, to, work, through, the, psychological, problems, of, being, threatened, and, sidelined, and, yet, wanting, to, keep, my, integrity, by, not, reacting, and, blowing, people, out, of, the, water, the, 9, 11, bombers, made, me, realise, how, fragile, peace, is, and, how, fragile, people, are, and, the, importance, of, not, losing, sight, of, the, important, things, in, life, and, trying, to, keep, things, in, perspective, people, are, more, important, friends, and, family, and, if, i, can’t, fight, the, civil, service, mentality, that, is, their, problem, not, mine, i, remember, seeing, one, of, the, teacher’s, husbands, walking, in, to, the, kids, school, when, i, went, to, pick, them, up, looking, slumped, and, dejected, and, learning, that, their, only, son, was, in, new, york, and, they, could, not, reach, him, 2, days, later, they, heard, he, had, visited, the, twin, towers, the, day, before, and, had, taken, photos, from, the, top, he, was, supposed, be, going, back, into, the, towers, that, morning, but, he, had, got, up, late, and, by, the, time, he, and, his, friends, set, off, the, towers, had, been, hit, the, impact, of, the, number, of, people, who, have, either, been, in, or, visited, the, towers, from, all, over, the, world, does, make, it, a, potent, symbol, with, worldwide, resonance, my, sister, worked, in, them, for, a, while, several, years, ago, the, anniversary, brought, a, lot, back, up, to, the, surface, that, i, thought, was, past, but, was, merely, hidden, thursday, first, on, last, night, and, 2nd, on, tonight, so, started, early, and, finished, late, and, running, out, of, steam, friday, one, of, the, farmer’s, wives, came, in, today, for, some, wormers, for, her, chickens, that, have, gape, worm, she, paid, last, months, bill, in, cash, as, well, as, for, the, wormers, 8.76, inc, vat, she, is, working, away, from, the, farm, 2, days, a, week, her, husband, is, full, time, at, a, job, he, got, after, they, went, down, with, fmd.i, asked, how, her, father, in, law, who, is, 65, was, doing, he, is, lost, and, the, farm, is, too, quit, its, not, right, its, too, quiet, they, still, have, no, animals, back, and, are, grass, letting, its, funny, she, said, whoosh, and, your, life, takes, a, complete, change, you, never, know, what’s, going, to, happen, next, sat, 14th, september, worked, am, and, then, had, rest, of, w, e, off, hooray, sunday, monday, son, s, footie, tuesday, partnership, meeting, at, lunchtime, so, had, a, sore, head, by, the, end, of, the, day, but, a, lot, of, good, decisions, made, so, feel, as, though, we, a, re, moving, forward, weds, off, as, working, the, w, e, so, caught, up, on, paperwork, and, stuff, at, home, and, then, went, into, carlisle, to, go, shopping, for, lots, of, bits, and, pieces, and, a, new, bathroom, thursday, dvm, called, in, to, update, us, waste, of, time, and, i, had, forgotten, what, an, annoying, man, he, is, a, real, career, civil, servant, bureaucrat, who, has, forgotten, what, real, life, is, about, if, he, ever, knew, had, one, of, the, vets, around, for, tea, as, i, was, backing, her, up, spent, the, evening, playing, take, two, and, had, fun, friday, a, very, bad, day, at, the, office, dear, oh, dear, oh, dear, the, day, was, great, to, start, with, headed, down, to, iselgate, to, see, a, lame, bull, to, give, it, a, certificate, they, are, still, suffering, from, both, the, financial, and, emotional, scars, of, fmd, mind, you, they, were, always, odd, she, was, talking, about, the, isolation, that, was, hard, to, break, out, of, and, get, back, in, to, doing, things, again, they, were, also, hoping, to, retire, when, they, were, 50, but, bse, hit, so, they, decided, to, keep, on, and, had, no, income, from, jan, to, october, last, year, mind, you, they, would, only, usually, be, selling, stores, any, way, the, day, was, taking, a, turn, for, the, worse, when, after, sorting, out, umpteen, decisions, for, the, practice, manager, on, organisational, issues, he, said, wasn’t, it, easy, when, you, were, just, being, a, vet, fatal, mistake, as, the, next, dog, to, be, seen, was, an, odd, ball, it, had, woken, up, that, morning, after, being, perfectly, ok, up, til, then, it, had, growled, at, tis, owner, and, he, had, decided, to, leave, it, for, a, while, after, an, hour, or, so, he, went, to, get, it, up, out, of, its, bed, and, it, flew, at, him, and, as, he, put, it, meant, it, so, he, rang, up, and, brought, it, to, the, vets, this, change, of, behaviour, meant, he, had, put, it, in, a, kennel, and, left, it, so, when, i, went, in, to, examine, it, growled, and, flapped, its, ears, at, me, and, bit, at, the, bars, some, dogs, in, pain, or, fear, will, growl, or, let, you, know, that, it, is, not, happy, but, this, one, meant, it, we, had, a, go, at, trying, to, get, it, examined, by, using, the, dog, catcher, and, muzzles, but, it, mean, it, left, it, to, settle, down, over, lunch, but, it, was, worse, finally, got, it, sedated, it, had, a, temp, of, 104, injected, mm, and, so, was, a, case, of, encephalitis, with, rage, so, after, 3, vets, all, looking, at, it, and, umming, and, erring, we, decided, to, get, a, maff, vet, to, have, a, look, just, to, check, that, it, wasn’t, rabies, i, had, forgotten, that, none, of, them, are, clinical, or, able, to, handle, animals, but, it, was, a, bit, of, a, joke, but, as, there, was, no, history, with, it, of, contact, with, abroad, it, has, been, left, alive, for, the, time, being, but, the, stress, of, both, handling, the, dam, thing, and, the, worry, of, is, it, rabid, and, the, consequences, was, some, what, tiring, so, i, am, washed, out, tonight, tomorrow, is, another, day, week, 27, sat, 28th, september, saturday, do, tell, me, there, is, light, at, the, end, of, the, tunnel, because, at, the, moment, i, definitely, feel, there, isn’t, so, i, have, taken, time, off, next, week, to, catch, up, on, all, the, things, that, need, sorted, at, home, we, are, supposed, to, be, putting, in, a, new, bathroom, and, we, need, to, get, the, stuff, ordered, so, the, guy, can, fit, it, you, never, know, it, may, include, doing, a, few, diaries, sunday, my, wife, is, on, a, counselling, course, this, w, e, so, i, ma, on, the, run, around, with, the, kids, yesterday, was, spent, watching, the, boys, plat, football, and, run, here, and, there, with, friends, son, had, 2, friends, to, come, and, camp, last, night, so, he, is, a, little, on, the, tired, side, the, weather, is, warm, and, sunny, a, real, indian, summer, the, autumn, raspberries, that, are, usually, delicious, but, quite, sparse, are, huge, and, plentiful, well, i, definitely, have, a, teen, age, daughter, as, for, the, first, time, i, had, a, phone, call, late, in, the, evening, from, carlisle, asking, her, to, be, picked, up, as, her, lift, home, had, not, worked, out, fortunately, it, was, from, the, church, youth, group, but, it, is, the, sign, of, things, to, come, the, youth, group, took, the, church, service, tonight, so, it, was, really, good, looking, at, our, world, the, pressures, on, young, people, and, how, they, respond, as, christians, and, applying, their, faith, to, their, own, situations, very, challenging, monday, we, have, an, open, night, tomorrow, night, and, it, doesn’t, seem, very, organised, yet, not, my, pigeon, i, have, made, a, resolution, not, to, get, worked, u, about, things, that, are, not, my, responsibility, and, just, leave, them, be, the, 2, new, vets, are, beginning, to, really, pull, their, weight, which, is, great, and, colleague, is, back, from, his, honeymoon, brown, and, jet, lagged, they, spent, time, at, the, beach, and, on, safari, so, had, a, great, time, nurse, has, headed, off, to, the, far, blue, yonder, she, is, one, of, our, nurses, and, has, gone, to, nz, for, a, month, so, it, will, be, strange, with, out, her, other, nurse, is, just, back, from, states, and, another, vet, is, about, to, go, to, the, caribbean, for, 2, weeks, so, i, am, getting, itchy, feet, time, to, travel, at, least, i, should, be, of, to, india, in, the, new, year, tuesday, year, end, oct, 1st, so, stock, taking, which, for, me, includes, mucking, out, my, car, i, thought, it, was, quite, normal, to, take, the, wheelie, bin, to, the, car, and, just, hoy, the, contents, in, until, my, neighbour, saw, one, of, the, rare, occasions, when, it, happens, and, burst, out, laughing, he, found, it, quite, amusing, i, was, a, bit, taken, a, back, at, the, time, but, we, always, assume, what, we, do, is, normal, the, open, day, was, ok, but, wife, was, out, so, had, to, juggle, things, a, bit, i, was, on, call, so, late, finished, and, had, to, fetch, son, from, football, as, his, practice, had, been, shifted, to, tuesdays, with, the, dark, nights, so, i, owe, friend, a, bottle, of, wine, for, turning, up, half, an, hour, late, to, pick, him, up, the, boiler, man, arrived, at, 7pm, to, fix, the, boiler, which, was, blowing, fuses, he, needs, a, lesson, on, time, management, had, several, interesting, conversations, on, fmd, the, most, amusing, one, was, about, tony, blair, arranging, his, bust, up, with, unions, on, the, anniversary, of, the, fmd, out, break, finishing, so, as, to, keep, it, out, the, news, the, same, farmer, said, about, the, govts, response, the, countryside, alliance, march, the, fact, that, they, have, reduced, the, sparsity, factor, in, the, allocation, of, central, funds, to, local, authorities, this, means, that, those, with, a, lower, population, density, and, therefore, a, higher, perceived, cost, of, providing, services, are, going, to, have, this, downgraded, or, in, this, farmer’s, opinion, take, money, from, the, countryside, to, the, town, don’t, march, or, this, govt, will, kick, you, where, it, hurts, in, a, very, subtle, way, the, other, one, was, probably, more, relevant, in, that, in, a, group, discussion, admittedly, fuelled, by, an, intake, of, free, alcohol, several, were, saying, that, this, year, was, harder, to, cope, with, than, last, as, there, was, no, crisis, or, adrenalin, to, keep, them, going, and, that, the, toll, from, last, year, was, beginning, to, tell, on, them, and, their, nerves, two, were, still, under, court, threats, from, trading, standards, defra, for, not, complying, with, regulations, both, will, in, my, opinions, not, result, in, anything, but, they, are, pretty, pissed, off, to, put, it, mildly, there, is, also, a, real, antagonism, to, doing, the, testing, for, ministry, and, we, are, in, the, cross, fire, as, defra, vets, decide, what, is, to, be, done, and, yet, we, are, the, ones, trying, to, arrange, and, get, the, testing, done, while, they, do, not, have, to, pay, us, they, do, have, to, spend, a, fair, chunk, of, time, organising, and, actually, getting, the, job, done, we, are, having, a, real, problem, with, organising, the, testing, on, one, of, the, common, grazings, there, are, 14, farmers, with, animals, on, it, biosecurity, is, a, joke, when, your, animals, are, on, common, grazing, with, 14, others, and, trying, to, get, 2, farmers, to, agree, on, a, date, and, a, method, of, doing, it, they, all, have, different, ideas, and, most, do, not, want, so, and, so, there, co, he, ll, just, wind, the, cattle, up, and, we’ll, never, catch, them, weds, day, off, so, caught, up, on, garden, and, sleep, thursday, i, really, enjoyed, the, crack, today, there, was, just, that, right, amount, of, work, and, banter, to, have, a, good, day, laughter, and, fun, is, infectious, friday, out, for, a, meal, at, night, which, was, great, but, 8, 30, start, tomorrow, sat, am, is, not, going, to, be, good, october, a, young, colleague’s, brother, was, killed, in, an, accident, and, as, m, writes, retrospectively, see, below, there, followed, a, very, difficult, month, in, which, he, was, unable, to, keep, a, diary, saturday, 5th, october, it, is, in, the, smallest, of, things, that, suddenly, life, changes, very, suddenly, and, we, then, look, back, and, see, how, we, were, and, are, not, now, i, had, a, phone, call, at, ten, to, five, from, one, of, the, young, vet’s, father, father, was, asking, to, speak, to, george, or, i, that, in, itself, was, strange, the, receptionist, came, and, found, me, with, a, quizzical, look, saying, he, did, not, want, to, speak, to, young, vet, when, i, answered, the, phone, he, said, that, they, had, bad, news, in, that, her, brother, had, been, killed, in, a, traffic, accident, so, i, had, to, tell, her, the, bad, news, and, then, sort, out, the, consequences, once, she, had, got, over, the, initial, shock, wife, drove, her, to, her, parents, home, in, her, car, the, other, partners, are, away, so, we, are, short, staffed, and, young, vet, will, obviously, not, be, back, for, a, while, it, is, at, times, like, this, that, i, am, always, grateful, that, i, can, go, back, to, god, and, trust, in, him, even, though, i, do, not, understand, anything, i, know, that, i, can, trust, god, jan, 2003, writing, retrospectively, about, october, 2002, there, is, a, month, of, diaries, missing, from, the, death, of, vet’s, brother, onwards, i, always, meant, to, go, back, and, fill, in, the, days, that, i, missed, but, never, made, the, time, or, the, effort, i, found, the, time, very, difficult, so, how, her, parents, and, sister, in, law, coped, i, do, not, know, the, funeral, was, at, kirby, and, i, am, pleased, that, i, went, it, was, very, sad, to, see, some, one, in, the, prime, of, their, life, with, so, much, to, offer, cut, down, in, such, a, random, way, it, was, a, very, cumbrian, farming, gathering, the, red, faced, craggy, farmers, and, yet, there, was, a, friend, of, the, family, who, sang, at, the, wedding, who, was, a, black, american, gospel, singer, the, global, village, or, world, wide, family, of, the, church, take, your, pick, the, death, of, some, one, young, always, makes, you, consider, your, own, mortality, and, makes, you, think, about, what, you, are, doing, will, you, on, your, death, bed, wish, that, you, had, made, different, choices, the, next, month, was, busy, and, stressful, and, probably, a, time, which, would, have, been, useful, for, the, study, to, have, thoughts, and, reactions, to, my, life, when, under, stress, but, i, suppose, to, a, certain, extent, when, we, are, close, to, something, we, go, on, automatic, pilot, and, do, the, urgent, leaving, the, things, on, the, periphery, he, was, killed, while, driving, a, tractor, back, from, where, they, had, been, testing, cattle, for, american, bvd, they, had, bought, in, pedigree, world, class, dairy, cattle, this, included, a, sibling, to, an, embryo, which, had, had, the, american, bvd, so, the, ministry, were, keen, to, make, sure, that, it, was, not, established, within, the, uk, hence, the, reason, for, the, blood, sampling, i, know, you, cannot, look, at, history, and, say, what, if, but, if, the, cattle, had, not, been, culled, there, would, have, been, no, blood, sampling, to, do, and, no, reason, to, be, on, the, road, that, day, at, that, time, linkage, is, not, the, way, to, go, he, may, have, had, to, go, to, feed, stock, or, he, could, have, been, in, an, accident, in, another, way, but, the, ripples, of, actions, continue, to, reverberate, around, at, least, in, my, head, saturday, 12th, october, again, m, is, writing, retrospectively, here, of, his, first, thoughts, after, diagnosing, his, first, fmd, case, these, weeks, were, not, completed, because, of, my, stress, levels, i, have, wanted, to, transcribe, my, first, thoughts, on, fmd, that, were, written, in, a, hotel, in, newcastle, at, 2am, after, diagnosing, my, first, case, to, my, wife, dear, wife, i, don’t, know, why, i, am, writing, this, as, i, hope, to, see, you, tomorrow, but, i, suppose, i, need, to, record, what, i, feel, for, you, and, for, me, besides, sleep, eludes, me, today, was, a, beautiful, day, of, winter, sunshine, warm, sunshine, that, speaks, of, the, spring, that, is, to, come, on, frosted, snow, that, is, clear, and, white, and, pure, a, great, day, to, be, walking, up, in, the, hills, on, a, sunday, afternoon, enjoying, god’s, wonderful, creation, but, this, is, a, fallen, world, the, only, walkers, are, me, the, ministry, man, in, disposable, boiler, suit, and, waterproof, jacket, and, trousers, and, a, farmer, with, a, heavy, heart, we, go, into, each, field, checking, and, inspecting, all, the, pregnant, ewes, herding, them, into, a, corner, to, catch, and, examine, them, feet, ok, mouth, ok, a, smile, the, only, clue, to, the, sadness, on, this, man’s, heart, is, the, slight, acrid, smell, which, wafts, now, and, then, on, the, wind, the, smell, of, his, neighbours, future, burning, on, another, ministry, man’s, pyre, it’s, 2, o’clock, in, the, morning, and, why, am, i, writing, this, because, i, cannot, sleep, the, ministry, man, who, then, examined, the, cows, blisters, in, its, mouth, blisters, on, its, tongue, temp, 105f, i, am, sorry, i, say, it, is, they’ll, all, go, he, manages, to, say, fighting, back, tears, if, the, lab, confirms, it, yes, i, reply, as, a, farm, vet, of, 15, years, experience, i, am, not, allowed, to, say, it, is, foot, and, mouth, disease, only, that, i, suspect, it, an, anonymous, telephone, answerer, in, london, makes, stupid, comments, and, stupid, questions, i, take, my, samples, from, the, cow, i, grab, its, tongue, to, pull, it, out, to, take, a, sample, of, the, skin, from, the, tongue, the, cow’s, tongue, comes, off, in, my, hand, i, try, not, to, be, sick, and, place, the, sample, in, the, bottle, we, go, into, the, farmhouse, he, is, in, tears, she, is, in, tears, i, feel, like, crying, i, wouldn’t, do, your, job, for, all, the, b, tea, in, china, she, says, i, am, a, volunteer, a, tvi, all, big, depts, have, their, jargon, and, i, don’t, speak, it, yet, a, temporary, veterinary, inspector, i, only, started, 3, days, ago, a, clean, vet, who, had, not, been, in, contact, with, the, foot, and, mouth, disease, a, volunteer, from, general, practice, seconded, to, be, used, as, a, pawn, in, the, battle, against, fmd, a, man, from, the, ministry, as, i, leave, a, dirty, vet, having, double, disinfected, with, my, samples, and, a, heavy, heart, i, take, off, the, disposable, boiler, suit, and, put, on, my, shoes, i, am, me, again, not, the, man, from, the, ministry, hey, lad, nobody, would, know, you, from, anyone, else, like, that, says, the, farmer, he, has, seen, me, as, i, am, i, see, him, as, he, is, living, with, his, mother, since, his, father, died, so, as, to, be, on, hand, to, run, the, farm, his, wife, and, her, mother, in, law, trying, to, share, a, house, and, a, kitchen, while, they, convert, a, barn, into, a, house, the, builder, was, told, to, stay, away, a, week, ago, in, case, he, brought, disease, onto, the, farm, tomorrow, he, will, be, told, to, stay, away, as, there, will, be, no, income, for, at, least, 6, months, while, i, filled, in, forms, i, had, never, seen, before, with, initials, and, jargon, i’ve, never, heard, she, phoned, her, sister, to, pick, up, the, prescription, for, anti, depressants, the, doctor, said, she, should, go, on, them, while, the, stress, and, worry, of, foot, and, mouth, was, about, well, it’s, here, he, hasn’t, eaten, and, will, not, sleep, tonight, she, is, anxious, and, will, not, get, any, rest, and, the, man, from, the, ministry, well, its, 2am, and, i, am, writing, this, far, from, home, a, volunteer, a, tvi, a, pawn, in, a, bigger, game, but, after, 5, days, of, being, dirty, and, i, can, rejoin, life, back, to, normal, back, to, my, home, to, my, job, and, my, future, my, farming, couple, 5, days, of, shooting, and, burning, of, disinfectants, and, diggers, six, months, of, quarantine, and, a, future, in, farming, maybe, or, maybe, not, the, stories, abound, of, three, generations, waiting, for, the, men, from, the, ministry, but, grandfather, will, not, see, the, farm, restocked, the, stress, was, too, much, for, his, already, dodgy, heart, the, countryside, is, under, siege, and, pawns, are, being, lost, to, win, a, greater, gain, and, why, are, we, having, to, work, these, long, hours, and, sacrifice, these, pawns, because, some, one, was, so, arrogant, so, stupid, and, so, lazy, that, he, couldn’t, be, bothered, to, heat, the, swill, he, fed, to, his, pigs, he, couldn’t, keep, to, the, rules, that, were, made, so, this, would, not, happen, it, is, not, intensive, vs, extensive, organic, vs, agribusiness, it, is, sheep, vs, goats, and, they, will, be, sorted, saturday, 2nd, november, the, start, of, writing, diaries, again, after, a, break, of, a, few, weeks, i, am, hoping, to, go, back, and, fill, in, as, time, permits, so, this, is, today, and, forward, looking, working, the, w, e, with, young, vet, and, aw, sat, am, she, had, a, calving, this, morning, at, 4am, and, so, is, a, little, on, the, tired, side, so, hope, it, is, quiet, for, rest, of, the, w, e, did, surgery, and, then, spent, the, afternoon, trying, to, fix, the, out, sidelights, the, front, went, 18monhts, ago, which, shows, how, well, i, am, keeping, up, with, the, maintaince, on, this, house, but, the, back, one, went, recently, and, that, is, a, real, pain, as, you, cant, see, your, way, to, the, car, at, night, so, i, am, more, concerned, about, getting, it, fixed, the, old, lights, are, just, rusted, up, and, you, can, no, longer, replace, the, bulbs, so, up, the, ladder, to, re, wire, new, lights, i, went, unfortunately, i, was, on, call, and, yes, i, suppose, i, was, trying, to, do, too, much, but, if, you, don’t, try, you, don’t, succeed, so, i, downed, tools, went, off, to, calve, a, cow, and, then, came, back, to, find, a, neighbour, plus, her, 4, children, in, our, kitchen, so, i, stopped, had, a, cup, of, tea, and, then, headed, back, up, the, ladder, now, wife, maintains, i, should, have, noticed, that, there, were, lights, on, at, this, point, i, would, like, to, point, out, that, i, should, also, notice, when, she, has, moved, furniture, had, her, hair, cut, or, even, spring, cleaned, the, house, as, i, am, often, berated, for, my, lack, of, noticing, these, sorts, of, things, yes, i, should, have, noticed, but, i, didn’t, i, was, focussed, on, what, i, was, trying, to, do, as, usual, so, up, the, ladder, i, went, to, connect, up, the, light, not, knowing, that, wife, had, switched, the, electrics, back, on, and, yes, when, i, was, at, the, top, of, the, ladder, i, grabbed, the, wires, and, then, spent, what, seemed, an, awfully, long, time, trying, to, let, them, go, and, stay, on, the, ladder, as, the, electric, current, was, shocking, me, so, the, light, did, not, get, fixed, as, i, was, not, going, back, up, the, ladder, as, i, was, now, in, shock, ho, hum, sun, finished, the, light, while, every, one, was, out, and, then, picked, up, a, from, a, sleep, over, and, went, to, church, in, wigton, pm, was, speaking, on, the, parable, of, the, 10, bridesmaids, which, was, good, as, i, had, never, understood, it, as, it, is, obviously, related, to, a, cultural, thing, that, happened, at, weddings, in, jesus, day, the, point, being, that, the, wise, ones, who, were, waiting, for, the, return, of, the, bridegroom, had, the, oil, in, their, lamps, and, the, concept, that, this, was, the, holy, spirit, that, meant, they, could, meet, with, the, bridegroom, i, e, christ, i, am, not, sure, that, the, idea, is, entirely, right, since, there, is, that, big, leap, oil, holy, spirit, but, it, was, interesting, i, still, think, it, was, a, cultural, thing, that, was, obvious, to, his, original, listeners, and, we, just, don’t, have, a, clue, ali, and, andy, called, around, in, the, evening, it, was, really, good, to, see, him, again, he, used, to, be, a, vet, here, who, left, several, years, ago, and, it, looks, that, at, long, last, he, is, going, to, look, to, settle, down, he, was, quite, depressing, about, la, vet, practice, though, he, is, now, 100, small, animal, so, he, is, biased, they, are, actively, looking, at, taking, tb, testing, from, the, vets, in, his, area, and, the, vets, are, dropping, the, farm, practice, as, being, uneconomic, so, much, for, the, govt, wanting, more, farm, vets, around, at, least, this, is, a, low, cost, area, so, at, least, we, are, not, competing, with, small, animal, practices, able, to, offer, large, wages, to, assistant, vets, he, is, looking, to, set, up, his, own, or, buy, a, practice, to, settle, into, they, are, obviously, looking, to, get, married, so, that, will, be, another, wedding, to, go, to, we, have, been, invited, to, lb’s, who, is, finally, marrying, p, they, have, been, following, each, other, around, the, world, for, the, last, 2, years, from, disaster, to, disaster, as, they, are, both, in, humanitarian, relief, work, she, was, a, vet, student, here, too, mon, monday, monday, tell, me, why, i, don’t, like, mondays, young, vet, is, exhausted, and, everything, is, catching, up, with, her, so, she, is, going, to, take, the, end, of, the, week, off, the, joiner, finally, arrived, to, put, in, the, windows, and, had, real, problems, writhing, the, old, ones, out, and, so, has, taken, half, the, sand, stone, with, them, so, they, will, have, to, be, reconcreted, which, is, a, builders, job, ie, he, is, not, going, to, do, it, the, bathroom, is, still, in, pieces, 8, days, it, was, supposed, to, take, and, we, are, now, in, the, third, week, work, was, bedlam, so, i, was, queuing, the, ops, up, this, morning, i, hate, operating, all, morning, as, it, is, very, draining, as, i, have, to, concentrate, on, what, i, am, doing, while, the, office, staff, keep, coming, with, more, and, more, queries, urgh, got, another, stupid, letter, from, the, planners, quibbling, about, listed, building, consent, that, i, am, trying, to, get, for, the, windows, that, are, being, fitted, as, i, speak, i, started, the, ball, rolling, in, august, no, wonder, the, country, is, going, to, the, dogs, tuesday, calmed, down, a, bit, having, filled, in, the, visa, forms, for, our, holiday, to, india, the, great, legacy, of, the, british, the, bureaucracy, is, alive, and, well, why, do, they, want, to, know, my, mothers, place, of, birth, and, maiden, name, for, a, 2, week, holiday, civil, servants, missed, the, gym, cos, surgery, went, on, and, on, i, went, to, a, farm, and, was, asked, a, lot, of, questions, about, tb, as, they, had, had, a, reactor, the, ministry, had, been, out, testing, but, hadn’t, bothered, to, tell, us, mushroom, farmers, son, is, in, the, process, of, planning, next, years, football, team, weds, went, to, a, farm, today, and, he, is, complaining, that, he, cannot, get, his, cows, in, his, restocked, herd, back, in, calf, it, seems, to, be, an, ongoing, problem, a, lot, of, those, who, have, restocked, with, whole, herds, are, having, reduced, fertility, in, their, herds, it, would, be, an, interesting, study, to, see, the, figures, compared, to, non, restocked, herds, thursday, counting, the, days, until, i, am, off, work, continues, to, be, too, hectic, vet, who, lost, her, brother, is, off, and, it, makes, the, whole, pack, of, cards, of, having, enough, vets, to, cover, fall, down, i, think, too, i, am, just, very, tired, from, being, too, busy, for, too, long, when, planning, staffing, levels, it, is, usual, to, be, cautious, rather, than, to, have, too, many, vets, around, not, making, any, money, we, thought, we, were, stretching, it, by, employing, the, 2, new, grads, instead, of, the, one, it, is, also, just, being, under, pressure, all, the, time, with, out, a, few, days, to, cruise, it, went, out, to, chris, swifts, for, the, vcf, veterinary, christian, fellowship, which, was, really, good, as, usual, f, was, telling, us, about, the, thanksgiving, service, that, they, had, just, held, at, barnard, castle, she, has, also, just, got, engaged, so, it, may, curb, her, wanderings, she, is, an, explorer, and, mountaineer, she, is, just, back, from, antarctica, and, is, currently, doing, some, research, and, a, phd, at, durham, barnard, castle, practice, seems, well, organised, and, also, flexible, in, that, she, is, only, working, 3, days, a, week, to, spend, 2, days, at, durham, on, the, phd, it, was, really, good, speaking, to, friends, about, vet’s, brother, as, paul, was, with, them, at, the, accident, as, he, was, taking, the, bloods, so, spent, quite, a, while, praying, for, them, and, for, other, things, friday, bad, day, had, a, phone, call, from, the, planners, saying, they, were, not, going, to, allow, double, glazing, and, that, they, want, the, glazing, bars, to, be, 10mm, not, 20mm, why, there, are, no, 10mm, glazing, bars, on, the, spot, the, ministry, london, have, decided, that, they, are, not, going, to, train, lay, tb, testers, and, that, all, the, work, is, going, to, go, out, to, lvi’s, us, so, we, are, now, looking, at, a, lot, of, work, again, carlisle, defra, in, conjunction, with, london, have, decided, that, they, are, going, to, want, all, the, restocked, herds, tested, annually, with, every, animal, tested, not, just, the, adult, breeding, stock, so, from, looking, at, dropping, 1, 2, vets, 10, days, ago, we, are, now, going, to, be, looking, at, employing, extra, staff, if, we, can, get, hold, of, them, how, are, we, supposed, to, be, planning, for, the, future, if, it, is, so, dependent, on, the, whim, of, defra, officials, saturday, 9th, november, went, to, the, school, pta, pub, quiz, last, night, at, the, rugby, club, it, was, good, fun, but, i, was, struggling, both, to, stay, awake, and, to, dredge, up, the, infotainment, trivia, of, the, previous, year, it, is, funny, how, the, questions, chosen, reflected, the, people, who, were, asking, them, what, had, stuck, in, their, memory, or, that, they, had, chosen, nick, and, jane, were, across, from, newcastle, i, stayed, with, them, for, a, few, nights, when, working, for, defra, across, there, when, i, could, not, face, the, faceless, loneliness, of, the, hotel, consequently, was, completely, zonked, sat, morning, just, went, around, the, house, being, grumpy, went, to, watch, son, play, football, they, thrashed, yewdale, in, the, county, cup, it, was, good, to, be, out, in, the, fresh, air, and, came, back, to, sleep, for, a, while, before, heading, out, to, roy, and, christiana’s, en, famille, we, had, to, pick, up, fraser, from, wigton, this, is, their, son, who, has, just, started, seeing, a, girl, in, wigton, he, is, 14, and, so, was, amusingly, embarrassed, we, were, talking, about, leaving, the, kids, at, what, age, do, you, leave, them, on, their, own, and, to, look, after, the, younger, ones, christiana, told, us, about, when, she, left, all, three, boys, for, an, hour, and, a, half, and, the, older, two, had, got, so, fed, up, with, youngest, being, annoying, they, hung, him, by, his, joggers, from, the, post, at, the, bottom, of, the, stairs, the, middle, one, said, in, all, seriousness, that, it, was, his, fault, that, he, had, torn, his, trousers, if, he, hadn’t, tried, to, escape, the, trousers, would, have, been, fine, even, now, he, considers, that, the, wrongdoing, was, the, ripping, of, the, trousers, not, the, fact, that, they, had, hung, him, up, sun, went, to, church, in, morning, and, fittingly, for, remembrance, sunday, it, was, on, repentance, and, gods, love, daniels, prayer, in, daniel, 9, was, very, fitting, some, how, lunch, and, more, football, and, crashed, in, to, bed, exhausted, mon, tim, is, away, for, the, first, time, on, his, own, with, the, school, on, an, outward, bound, week, south, of, keswick, he, was, so, excited, about, going, i, think, wife, was, a, little, put, off, that, he, was, not, thinking, about, missing, home, hey, ho, but, that, is, a, sign, of, secure, roots, i, suppose, met, up, with, a’s, maths, teacher, to, discuss, her, maths, there, has, been, a, lot, of, to, and, froing, between, the, teachers, but, not, much, communication, with, home, so, we, went, to, see, what, they, were, saying, and, have, left, it, as, the, status, quo, which, is, what, it, should, be, first, call, today, was, a, farmer, who, is, just, out, of, hospital, having, had, his, appendix, removed, for, appendicitis, he, had, seen, this, cow, and, said, why, haven’t, you, had, the, vet, to, it, he, is, a, good, stocksman, and, with, him, being, out, of, action, they, had, a, relief, milker, in, who, hadn’t, noticed, it, had, a, twisted, uterus, and, was, trying, to, calve, if, i, had, seen, it, on, friday, i, could, have, sorted, it, out, but, because, it, was, now, to, late, i, had, to, send, it, off, it, is, sad, but, the, agricultural, industry, is, losing, a, lot, of, experience, and, a, lot, of, stocksmanship, and, handling, and, general, expertise, it, is, not, sthg, that, can, be, replaced, we, are, seeing, more, twisted, wombs, because, of, the, transport, and, fighting, amongst, restocked, herds, the, sad, thing, is, that, he, said, to, me, we, should, never, have, restocked, we, should, have, taken, the, money, and, let, it, all, go, it, is, just, too, much, hassle, with, the, paper, work, and, training, cows, they, have, just, housed, the, cattle, and, so, they, are, all, fighting, to, come, in, to, the, parlour, to, get, milked, and, just, making, life, difficult, there, is, a, real, disillusionment, around, at, the, moment, but, there, are, also, those, who, are, gearing, up, to, milk, more, and, more, cows, to, stay, still, 300, tuesday, the, great, european, market, combined, with, defra’s, inflexibility, is, causing, a, few, problems, the, dutch, heifers, that, have, been, imported, to, replace, some, of, the, fmd, losses, have, a, unique, identifier, number, which, is, on, their, ear, tag, so, everyone, knows, who, they, are, so, far, so, good, they, also, have, nl, on, them, rather, than, uk, which, means, we, know, they, are, from, holland, the, problem, is, they, have, a, small, check, digit, on, them, at, the, end, this, means, dutch, computers, can, recognise, if, the, ear, tag, is, a, valid, one, or, has, been, misread, the, uk, tags, have, a, check, digit, at, the, front, of, the, number, very, useful, to, help, rule, out, misreadings, or, transcribing, of, the, ear, tags, however, the, defra, computer, doesn’t, recognise, the, numbers, so, we, are, being, asked, to, retest, heifers, because, they, still, have, an, outstanding, record, of, the, ear, tag, numbers, as, untested, because, the, extra, digit, has, or, had, not, been, entered, on, the, uk, system, the, number, of, out, standing, tests, is, dropping, but, we, will, not, be, able, to, keep, up, with, this, level, of, testing, more, allocations, have, arrived, today, managed, to, get, all, the, bits, sorted, so, i, could, leave, at, 5, 30, for, my, few, days, off, the, only, out, standing, thing, is, the, stuff, for, the, accountant, end, of, year, it, was, supposed, to, be, in, by, 18th, of, oct, but, hey, ho, weds, i, have, taken, a, few, days, off, to, try, and, paint, the, windows, and, new, bathroom, we, are, having, put, in, the, planners, phoned, to, query, again, about, the, windows, and, i, told, them, they, were, already, in, so, it, went, down, like, a, lead, balloon, and, they, are, coming, to, tell, me, off, they, also, started, querying, the, other, windows, from, 95, the, problem, with, having, a, few, days, off, is, that, i, get, very, head, achey, and, feel, washed, out, and, ill, once, the, adrenalin, stops, i, seem, to, crash, thursday, met, up, with, charlie, from, longtown, vets, for, lunch, which, was, great, his, practice, in, carlisle, that, he, has, started, is, going, well, it, is, on, the, main, road, out, to, scotland, and, looks, really, good, and, he, is, getting, lots, of, custom, just, by, being, there, he, is, looking, for, a, part, time, vet, to, start, mornings, friday, repainted, the, bathroom, walls, after, discovering, i, had, used, 2, different, shades, of, green, one, was, ming, grey, the, other, ming, blue, i, just, opened, them, one, after, the, other, and, thought, the, difference, was, because, the, one, had, dried, and, the, other, was, still, wet, ooops, the, plumber, is, having, problems, with, the, electrics, and, getting, the, lights, to, work, so, it, was, all, fused, out, i, am, just, glad, we, have, a, shower, as, well, or, we, would, all, be, getting, rather, smelly, by, now, went, to, watch, changing, lanes, at, cinema, a, rather, thoughtful, if, slow, and, unbelievable, set, up, but, nice, escapism, for, an, hour, or, two, saturday, november, 16th, working, again, but, feel, better, for, having, had, a, few, days, off, even, if, the, bathroom, isn’t, finished, getting, to, be, a, bit, of, a, saga, oh, well, never, mind, sat, morning, surgery, was, busy, and, then, several, farm, calls, afterwards, for, the, amount, of, stock, around, and, the, cost, effectiveness, of, veterinary, time, we, are, doing, an, incredible, amount, of, clinical, work, dan, the, sheep, ai, vet, who, locums, for, us, on, occasions, phoned, up, wanting, alison’s, phone, number, she, was, of, course, out, it, being, sat, night, his, technician, is, ill, and, he, has, 250, swales, to, ai, tomorrow, hope, he, finds, some, one, all, the, sheep, ai, and, embryo, technicians, are, very, busy, as, people, try, to, build, up, their, pedigree, herds, and, flocks, by, breeding, for, top, quality, sun, am, busy, with, calls, and, then, painted, doors, in, bathroom, while, son, painted, the, window, very, messy, but, he, enjoyed, it, it, will, give, him, confidence, to, try, again, it, is, patience, and, practice, went, to, church, in, the, evening, rob, whitaker, the, principal, of, capernwray, bible, college, was, preaching, he, is, so, animated, and, relevant, he, was, talking, on, feeding, the, 5000, and, jesus, compassion, and, just, the, circumstances, jesus, was, in, at, the, time, how, he, used, the, disciples, and, then, applying, it, to, us, and, to, the, church, in, general, espy, compassion, very, challenging, went, on, to, meet, up, with, lads, and, spent, time, praying, phil, is, pretty, down, about, not, having, a, job, it, effects, his, self, worth, didn’t, help, that, fraser, had, a, brand, new, merc, sitting, out, side, his, house, mon, hit, the, maelstrom, running, with, an, in, tray, flowing, out, and, still, nothing, together, for, year, end, to, accountant, so, pushed, practice, manager, and, then, started, operating, and, haunting, him, every, 20, mins, in, between, ops, and, keeping, him, on, task, the, problem, is, that, there, are, so, many, other, things, going, on, at, the, moment, that, the, non, urgent, keep, disappearing, in, to, tomorrow, the, new, drugs, discount, system, is, working, and, generating, a, lot, of, interest, and, then, hopefully, will, cut, down, on, the, black, market, with, any, luck, the, increased, turn, over, will, make, up, for, margin, usual, problem, solving, and, smoothing, over, and, 2nd, opinions, to, sort, out, the, 20, day, rule, is, not, stopping, one, of, our, local, cattle, dealers, from, buying, and, selling, he, says, the, paperwork, to, run, 5, holding, numbers, is, horrendous, ken, and, anne, called, around, and, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, they, have, a, lime, spreading, business, and, have, been, really, busy, over, fmd, both, with, lime, for, land, that, is, going, to, be, used, for, barley, and, crops, rather, than, grass, and, with, a, lot, of, stone, for, building, work, and, new, pathways, and, for, lonnings, whereas, farmers, were, happy, to, move, cattle, via, roads, they, are, trying, to, reduce, the, movements, along, roads, and, are, putting, in, tracks, for, the, cows, tuesday, more, tracings, to, check, for, tb, these, are, cattle, bought, from, a, farm, where, tb, has, since, been, confirmed, and, the, paperwork, to, go, with, them, ear, tags, don’t, correlate, so, going, to, be, a, problem, rota, nightmare, at, the, moment, as, everyone, is, organising, their, skiing, trips, so, we, are, going, to, have, 1, 2, vets, off, all, of, jan, and, most, of, feb, took, first, box, load, of, paperwork, to, the, accountant, he, is, an, old, fashioned, up, the, back, stairs, not, a, computer, in, sight, type, of, fella, he, is, a, wily, old, fox, much, more, than, he, looks, as, he, manages, to, keep, the, taxman, happy, and, off, our, backs, which, is, probably, the, most, important, the, financial, year, doesn’t, look, too, bad, but, doesn’t, allow, for, the, number, of, days, of, holiday, carried, over, if, we, had, to, give, the, holiday, pay, or, pay, a, vet, to, cover, for, those, days, it, would, make, them, look, a, lot, less, rosy, got, back, in, time, for, gym, and, then, tuesday, kid, chauffer, work, then, fell, into, bed, and, slept, weds, the, phone, stopped, at, 4, 00pm, and, didn’t, ring, again, until, 9, 30, this, morning, weird, the, work, has, just, stopped, like, a, tap, being, turned, off, so, got, the, rest, of, testing, sorted, sorted, out, the, rest, of, the, stuff, for, the, accountant, tidied, the, office, wrote, up, my, book, and, even, thought, about, mucking, my, car, out, only, got, as, far, as, thinking, about, it, as, coffee, break, arrived, didn’t, earn, much, but, felt, a, lot, better, for, it, skipped, off, early, and, gave, the, bathroom, doors, second, coat, thursday, 21st, november, pay, day, decided, that, if, defra, was, a, business, it, would, be, bust, by, now, we, are, on, a, rollercoaster, trying, to, look, at, the, future, with, them, they, only, make, up, in, a, normal, year, about, 20, of, our, farm, fee, income, but, that, has, been, much, higher, over, the, past, few, years, the, chief, defra, vet, has, been, flying, kites, as, they, say, in, politics, to, see, what, the, reaction, is, or, has, been, doing, as, he, has, been, told, by, whitehall, i, don’t, know, what, the, ins, and, outs, of, it, are, but, the, gist, has, been, they, are, going, to, employ, their, own, vets, to, do, the, testing, as, this, would, be, much, more, efficient, and, cost, effective, when, it, was, pointed, out, this, wasn’t, going, to, be, the, case, we, went, to, they, would, employ, non, vets, to, do, it, as, this, would, be, much, cheaper, there, would, then, not, be, any, farm, animal, vets, in, large, areas, of, the, country, as, it, would, reduce, the, fee, income, even, further, where, the, farm, side, of, vet, businesses, is, marginal, it, would, just, be, given, up, it, would, mean, our, business, in, a, high, stock, area, would, probably, drop, 2, vets, so, london, finally, decided, that, the, status, quo, would, probably, be, best, at, the, same, time, carlisle, in, consultation, with, page, st, decided, that, as, there, is, so, much, tb, being, found, in, the, restocked, farms, that, all, the, restocked, farms, should, be, tested, on, an, annual, basis, and, that, all, animals, not, just, breeding, stock, should, be, tested, this, means, about, a, 25, increase, in, work, load, for, the, next, 2, winters, so, instead, of, dropping, a, vet, we, should, look, to, be, taking, one, on, but, we, cannot, believe, what, is, going, to, happen, next, as, how, can, we, plan, when, such, drastic, changes, are, proposed, in, the, space, of, a, month, friday, had, a, horrendous, night, with, ill, calves, with, pneumonia, in, the, evening, a, calving, at, 1, am, in, silloth, then, a, dog, trying, to, die, at, 5am, so, was, i, ever, pleased, that, it, was, my, half, day, slept, and, played, squash, with, l, j, in, the, afternoon, the, dog, belonged, to, an, old, lady, who, had, no, children, and, it, was, her, husbands, dog, who, had, died, 4, years, previously, she, was, going, to, be, on, her, own, if, it, dies, so, she, was, very, tearful, and, upset, the, dog, is, not, looking, good, as, it, is, 16yr, poodle, type, thing, she, is, isolated, booth, because, she, doesn’t, drive, and, lives, out, at, the, coast, and, because, she, and, her, husband, retired, to, here, and, neither, have, any, family, around, i, felt, for, her, made, me, appreciate, my, family, so, much, more, saturday, 23rd, november, wife, is, away, on, a, course, today, so, for, my, w, e, off, i, am, running, the, kids, and, doing, the, cooking, i, dropped, of, other, son, to, squash, did, some, errands, in, wigton, and, then, watched, the, squash, coaching, they, are, very, patient, and, encouraging, the, total, contrast, was, shown, at, son, s, football, they, are, a, very, good, team, but, i, really, do, not, like, the, attitude, of, most, of, the, coaches, and, teams, in, the, carlisle, teams, i, was, late, to, arrive, and, they, were, already, 4, 0, up, and, this, was, the, second, half, it, was, only, when, i, walked, around, to, where, the, coach, was, did, he, think, about, giving, son, and, the, other, 2, subs, a, game, we, have, had, it, out, with, him, before, that, he, should, give, all, the, kids, a, chance, to, play, or, else, they, find, it, crushing, son, was, really, fed, up, with, the, situation, but, he, does, love, playing, and, is, quite, loyal, the, coach, always, justifies, that, he, has, to, play, his, best, team, which, he, doesn’t, he, plays, his, favourites, friends, sons, but, the, point, is, irrelevant, if, you, are, winning, by, that, margin, then, you, can, afford, to, have, weaker, players, on, the, field, they, went, on, to, win, 10, 0, we, will, have, to, get, a, thursby, team, organised, for, next, year, went, on, to, longtown, poultry, sale, very, interesting, lots, of, rare, birds, and, waterfowl, will, have, to, go, and, buy, next, year, and, get, some, different, types, for, a, to, breed, up, sun, dan, spoke, on, walking, on, water, in, his, own, inimitable, style, he, is, so, refreshing, and, practical, and, honest, made, it, a, call, to, prayer, as, well, didn’t, do, much, in, morning, as, wife, was, on, course, but, finally, managed, to, finish, bathroom, hoorah, mon, decided, that, if, defra, was, a, business, it, would, be, bust, by, now, we, are, on, a, rollercoaster, trying, to, look, at, the, future, with, them, they, only, make, up, in, a, normal, year, about, 20, of, our, farm, fee, income, but, that, has, been, much, higher, over, the, past, few, years, the, chief, defra, vet, has, been, flying, kites, as, they, say, in, politics, to, see, what, the, reaction, is, or, has, been, doing, as, he, has, been, told, by, whitehall, i, don’t, know, what, the, ins, and, outs, of, it, are, but, the, gist, has, been, they, are, going, to, employ, their, own, vets, to, do, the, testing, as, this, would, be, much, more, efficient, and, cost, effective, when, it, was, pointed, out, this, wasn’t, going, to, be, the, case, we, went, to, they, would, employ, non, vets, to, do, it, as, this, would, be, much, cheaper, there, would, then, not, be, any, farm, animal, vets, in, large, areas, of, the, country, as, it, would, reduce, the, fee, income, even, further, where, the, farm, side, of, vet, businesses, is, marginal, it, would, just, be, given, up, it, would, mean, our, business, in, a, high, stock, area, would, probably, drop, 2, vets, so, london, finally, decided, that, the, status, quo, would, probably, be, best, at, the, same, time, carlisle, in, consultation, with, page, st, decided, that, as, there, is, so, much, tb, being, found, in, the, restocked, farms, that, all, the, restocked, farms, should, be, tested, on, an, annual, basis, and, that, all, animals, not, just, breeding, stock, should, be, tested, this, means, about, a, 25, increase, in, work, load, for, the, next, 2, winters, so, instead, of, dropping, a, vet, we, should, look, to, be, taking, one, on, but, we, cannot, believe, what, is, going, to, happen, next, as, how, can, we, plan, when, such, drastic, changes, are, proposed, in, the, space, of, a, month, tuesday, went, to, do, routine, fertility, at, a, farm, today, and, it, was, quite, depressing, in, that, a, neighbour, of, theirs, who, has, started, up, again, has, had, a, really, bad, time, the, problems, of, restocking, on, top, of, bad, hips, he, was, all, gung, ho, to, get, restocked, and, although, he, had, a, sore, leg, he, didn’t, go, to, the, doctors, while, he, had, the, chance, when, he, had, no, stock, as, it, was, only, a, little, sore, but, as, soon, as, he, got, stock, back, and, started, to, do, a, lot, of, physical, work, they, were, very, sore, so, he, went, to, the, dr’s, and, has, 2, hips, which, need, replaced, but, as, he, is, only, 40, they, don’t, want, to, do, it, yet, and, it, would, mean, no, physical, work, for, a, long, period, on, top, of, that, he, has, mastitis, problems, caused, by, taking, his, plant, to, pieces, by, defra, he, has, lost, 8, cows, and, heifers, through, calving, illness, or, injury, so, after, less, than, a, year, he, looks, set, to, give, up, disillusioned, and, a, lot, poorer, the, workload, for, us, is, easing, as, most, cattle, are, now, housed, and, a, lot, of, the, housing, work, is, sorted, i, always, feel, it, is, a, run, down, to, christmas, now, with, all, the, preparations, and, celebrations, and, kids, and, adult, parties, i, was, at, another, farm, today, who, had, meningitis, a, year, ago, and, has, still, not, really, recovered, properly, he, is, still, finding, it, hard, to, get, going, he, lost, all, his, animals, and, all, his, work, during, fmd, and, the, additional, strain, has, meant, he, has, lost, a, lot, of, interest, in, the, farming, side, he, can’t, be, bothered, with, all, the, hassle, and, paper, work, of, farming, sheep, and, cattle, and, so, is, growing, a, lot, of, veg, which, he, and, his, wife, have, always, enjoyed, growing, they, just, retail, at, the, farm, gate, it, doesn’t, make, much, money, but, as, he, says, it, just, keeps, things, turning, over, and, he, and, his, wife, have, time, for, each, other, and, no, hassle, life, is, more, important, than, making, a, living, very, profound, i, am, going, to, go, part, time, i, wish, wednesday, there, seem, to, be, a, lot, of, problems, still, on, restocking, farms, they, are, all, having, problems, with, getting, the, cows, back, in, calf, two, farms, today, complained, that, even, though, they, were, more, than, pleased, with, the, compensation, at, the, time, the, costs, of, restocking, are, much, much, more, it, would, be, interesting, to, do, a, survey, on, the, number, of, breeding, animals, bought, in, and, those, who, have, been, lost, either, through, illness, or, by, failure, to, get, in, calf, the, old, diseases, are, still, causing, the, most, problems, lung, worm, a, disease, i, thought, was, well, under, control, and, well, understood, has, caused, huge, problems, ibr, or, cow, flu, has, caused, so, many, problems, that, we, can, no, longer, get, the, vaccine, as, all, the, stocks, have, been, used, it, was, interesting, today, that, one, of, the, farms, that, is, about, to, start, milking, having, finally, restocked, ordered, vaccine, for, lepto, ibr, and, bvd, almost, as, a, matter, of, course, but, fertility, is, causing, the, most, worries, thursday, feel, a, lot, better, after, an, early, night, apart, from, running, to, and, from, carlisle, after, my, daughter, youth, group, last, night, and, evening, shopping, tonight, son, is, still, trying, to, organise, an, u14, thursby, team, for, next, year, all, he, needs, is, a, coach, the, problem, is, that, it, is, a, big, commitment, i, wish, i, could, do, it, but, i, work, too, many, w, e’s, spent, time, day, dreaming, about, what, to, do, with, the, byre, in, our, yard, it, is, an, old, knackered, building, that, needs, bulldozing, but, wife, s, dad, thinks, we, should, just, look, after, it, and, convert, it, into, sthg, but, what, i, still, think, that, there, is, an, opening, for, herriot, holidays, taking, people, for, a, day, at, the, vets, and, then, a, day, at, the, mart, and, so, on, diversification, is, the, name, of, the, game, friday, had, an, interesting, day, what, with, one, thing, and, another, no, lunch, but, hey, who’s, complaining, one, of, the, nurses, at, work, has, a, chicken, shed, with, her, husband, and, another, farmer, partner, the, fans, and, alarms, all, failed, and, so, the, air, was, not, circulating, the, farmer, was, devastated, it, was, a, horrendous, sight, a, carpet, of, dead, chickens, there, were, 23,000, in, the, shed, and, we, worked, out, there, were, roughly, 2, 3000, left, alive, 20.000, dead, it, brought, back, memories, of, fmd, also, the, logistics, of, disposing, of, 20, tonnes, of, dead, chicken, i, hope, the, insurance, covers, it, out, for, dinner, at, christiana’s, had, a, vet, friend, call, around, at, teatime, he, is, a, meat, hygiene, practice, covering, several, different, meat, plants, they, have, several, vets, covering, all, the, different, plants, he, has, been, asked, to, got, to, harrogate, to, discuss, how, the, different, proposed, regulations, can, be, implemented, a, marked, improvement, on, the, usual, dumping, of, unworkable, ideas, from, defra, hq, saturday, 30th, nov, took, a, while, to, get, going, after, being, out, for, dinner, last, night, though, it, was, very, pleasant, spent, day, doing, odds, and, ends, went, to, watch, son, play, footie, and, bought, an, orchid, from, the, orchid, farm, the, kids, were, making, cards, for, mum, and, wrapping, presents, so, it, was, fun, james, came, down, with, his, kids, so, there, were, 7, running, riot, which, is, really, a, bit, too, many, after, a, late, night, sun, 1st, church, in, the, morning, and, johnboy, called, around, to, see, what, time, the, prayer, meeting, finished, as, he, had, arranged, a, surprise, party, for, wife, s, 40th, so, had, loads, of, folks, in, sunday, night, which, was, great, they, had, all, crept, in, to, the, big, kitchen, and, decorated, it, while, we, were, in, the, front, room, a, and, son, had, been, going, back, and, forth, so, wife, never, noticed, so, it, was, special, the, kids, were, as, high, as, kites, mon, 2nd, wife, is, forty, and, there’s, a, photo, in, the, news, and, star, to, prove, it, the, kids, brought, breakfast, in, bed, and, opened, presents, poor, other, son, after, 3, late, nights, did, not, want, to, go, to, school, i, hope, they, are, all, right, for, gran, wife, s, mum, and, sister, arrived, nannies, from, ireland, to, the, rescue, they, are, going, to, look, after, the, kids, while, we, are, away, for, a, few, days, we, have, had, a, bit, o, banter, about, them, looking, after, the, kids, sister, found, an, advert, for, nannies, from, ireland, which, is, an, au, pair, service, and, sent, of, for, the, info, which, she, forwarded, to, us, she, is, a, character, so, they, have, been, asking, about, working, conditions, and, pay, i, have, been, requesting, police, checks, and, giving, as, good, as, i, get, the, winds, are, pretty, strong, so, they, have, had, a, bad, journey, the, super, ferry, was, cancelled, so, they, have, had, to, come, by, boat, which, takes, much, longer, a, baked, a, cake, and, managed, to, get, 40, candles, on, it, both, wife, and, i, are, looking, forward, to, getting, away, as, usual, work, was, really, busy, and, lots, of, loose, ends, to, tie, up, prior, to, leaving, but, finished, for, 3, days, hoorraaahhh, tues, 3rd, spent, the, day, travelling, up, to, loch, lomond, stopped, off, at, braeside, and, at, gretna, and, bought, some, clothes, and, mooched, around, cameron, house, is, beautiful, with, wonderful, views, and, you, can, just, walk, down, to, the, lake, there, is, a, pool, so, went, for, a, swim, before, dinner, very, civilised, we, had, just, finished, dinner, when, the, waitress, arrived, with, a, cake, with, 4, candles, and, sang, a, rather, wobbly, happy, birthday, sister, had, been, very, keen, that, we, left, the, phone, number, of, cameron, house, even, though, she, had, our, mobile, numbers, now, we, know, why, very, pleasant, surprise, but, we, will, never, eat, any, cake, let, alone, a, whole, one, while, we, were, strolling, around, after, dinner, came, across, the, picture, that, one, of, our, friends, had, used, to, decorate, the, kitchen, with, on, sunday, he, had, come, across, it, somewhere, in, a, book, and, it, looks, vaguely, like, wife, so, he, had, put, it, up, with, lady, wife, underneath, and, here, was, the, original, or, at, least, a, print, of, the, same, picture, weird, weds, after, a, very, lazy, start, a, swim, before, breakfast, full, scottish, we, walked, up, eastern, edge, of, loch, in, sunshine, and, showers, we, were, only, caught, out, in, one, shower, there, was, a, rainbow, down, to, the, loch, edge, a, beautiful, winter, walk, i, have, decided, i, am, going, to, walk, the, west, highland, way, with, the, boys, had, some, fruit, for, lunch, as, cooked, breakfast, on, top, of, dinner, last, night, means, i, don’t, really, need, to, eat, for, a, week, another, swim, thought, about, the, gym, but, i, am, on, holiday, and, felt, wonderfully, relaxed, and, then, dinner, thursday, another, lazy, start, and, swim, before, breakfast, a, walk, along, the, loch, and, the, back, to, glasgow, to, the, burrell, collection, we, just, wandered, around, the, paintings, i, can, sit, and, look, at, the, impressionists, and, keep, seeing, something, new, they, are, very, beautiful, came, back, home, in, time, for, tea, though, did, not, eat, anything, as, too, much, food, made, up, a, ditty, for, the, nannies, nannies, from, ireland, came, to, stay, so, respondent, and, wife, could, go, away, off, the, children, went, to, school, while, respondent, and, wife, swam, in, the, pool, the, nannies, were, left, with, all, the, dust, cleaning, dirt, for, their, daily, crust, their, experienced, gleaned, over, all, the, years, could, not, stop, all, other, son, s, tears, off, to, school, you, must, go, said, a, stern, faced, nanny, lo, the, nannies, go, to, tk, max, forgetting, all, about, the, cats, something, is, sick, on, the, mat, the, nannies, really, don’t, like, that, a, m, l, begs, go, and, fetch, all, the, eggs, on, animals, they’re, not, too, what, did, the, contract, really, mean, keen, they, will, not, give, another, day, until, something, is, done, about, their, pay, so, back, to, ireland, with, this, tale, they, do, go, via, cummersdale, as, their, pay, all, disappears, they, decide, on, new, careers, lois, thinks, of, a, racing, car, ruth, just, of, going, far, so, our, thanks, to, them, are, due, the, nannies, from, ireland, crew, its, now, their, turn, to, go, and, play, till, they’re, called, another, day, edited, to, remove, names, in, verse, friday, bad, hair, day, having, come, back, all, relaxed, and, cheerful, i, was, relaxed, until, i, missed, my, lunch, after, working, all, day, plenty, of, hassle, from, one, thing, and, another, i, was, then, on, call, at, night, and, it, was, very, busy, loch, lomond, and, cameron, house, seem, a, long, long, time, ago, i, am, extremely, fed, up, i, do, not, want, to, calve, another, cow, out, side, office, hours, ever, again, saturday, 7th, december, worked, this, morning, after, a, bad, night, on, call, and, felt, like, death, warmed, up, did, surgery, and, then, sorted, stuff, out, and, did, some, calls, got, finished, at, 1pm, and, went, back, to, bed, went, to, xmas, party, at, white, heather, which, was, good, fun, but, i, was, just, too, knackered, to, enjoy, it, sunday, working, a, few, calls, and, plenty, of, pneumonia, drugs, for, calves, there, is, a, lot, of, pneumonia, about, with, the, east, wind, blowing, it, is, a, wee, bitty, cruel, wind, but, at, least, it, is, dry, not, weather, to, be, working, out, side, it, also, seems, to, be, getting, dark, really, early, i, need, some, sun, on, my, back, 4, weeks, to, go, till, india, had, a, migraine, or, flu, at, night, and, went, to, bed, and, started, throwing, up, i, cannot, burn, the, candle, at, one, end, even, at, the, moment, mon, off, work, ill, but, a, new, vet, student, starting, and, r, is, off, as, well, xmas, shopping, so, thrown, in, at, deep, end, tuesday, went, back, in, and, did, my, bit, working, at, night, but, night, work, easing, off, thank, goodness, plenty, of, high, cell, count, investigations, to, try, and, sort, out, weds, took, kids, swimming, after, work, with, the, vet, student, it, was, good, to, do, some, exercise, and, chill, out, went, to, staples, prior, to, going, to, the, pool, where, as, usual, there, was, no, one, on, the, desk, for, print, cartridges, so, i, went, and, found, one, of, the, girls, chatting, on, the, till, to, get, me, what, i, was, looking, for, as, i, couldn’t, find, an, hp58, what, i, hadn’t, noticed, was, some, one, else, just, standing, at, the, other, end, of, the, long, counter, who, was, then, very, upset, and, aggressive, that, i, had, jumped, the, queue, he, is, obviously, having, a, worse, week, than, me, as, he, could, have, gone, and, got, some, one, from, the, tills, as, easily, as, i, did, but, didn’t, so, why, he, got, so, upset, i, don’t, know, now’t, as, queer, as, folk, other, son, was, very, upset, tonight, when, we, got, back, from, swimming, because, he, had, shaved, one, side, of, his, head, wife, had, cut, the, others, hair, but, his, was, still, short, and, didn’t, need, it, he, wanted, it, done, so, in, the, shower, took, things, into, his, own, hands, and, shaved, off, his, side, burn, but, only, on, one, side, he, did, not, like, getting, laughed, at, either, thursday, christiana, came, to, the, rescue, over, the, hair, other, son, s, and, has, managed, to, make, it, look, not, too, bad, but, it, was, funny, on, call, at, night, but, as, most, nights, seem, double, booked, at, the, moment, went, to, kids, performance, they, are, doing, alice, in, wonderland, very, good, they, can, really, sing, and, perform, the, teachers, do, get, a, lot, out, of, them, tim, was, the, knave, of, hearts, character, actor, and, other, son, was, a, frog, footman, grebbit, grebbit, it, was, good, fun, only, had, a, phone, call, to, put, a, client, at, ease, about, her, cat, so, managed, to, wing, it, friday, out, at, friends, tonight, kids, younger, 2, at, performance, older, 2, are, at, xmas, meal, so, a, bit, of, a, juggling, act, to, get, everyone, at, right, place, at, right, time, missed, out, on, the, cumberland, vet, club, social, which, was, a, shame, but, can, only, be, in, one, place, at, a, time, saturday, 14th, december, had, a, good, meal, out, except, only, started, talking, about, the, publicity, for, as, i, was, wanting, to, go, and, fall, asleep, some, where, i, cannot, take, late, nights, it, is, just, i, am, feeling, too, tired, all, the, time, i, think, that, the, adrenalin, has, run, out, and, i, just, feel, stale, hope, xmas, sorts, it, out, spent, morning, working, did, surgery, and, then, sorted, out, queries, with, gg, for, the, accountant, spent, the, afternoon, writing, cards, and, trying, to, put, together, lists, of, folk, we, should, send, too, a, disaster, got, as, far, as, m, before, running, out, of, cards, and, initiative, went, around, to, s’s, for, nibbles, as, a, house, warming, she, is, some, caterer, her, mother, does, it, as, a, job, so, she, has, helped, so, great, food, could, have, done, with, some, non, vets, to, dilute, down, the, vetiness, sunday, got, up, and, took, kids, to, church, wife, is, doing, a, thing, on, borderline, at, night, so, she, has, to, prepare, that, played, football, and, caught, up, with, a, few, bits, and, pieces, and, did, some, gardening, chatted, to, a, vet, from, chippenham, who, was, complaining, about, the, tb, situation, there, they, have, one, beef, farm, where, when, they, first, discovered, tb, the, farm, took, a, week, to, test, as, there, were, 600, head, there, are, only, 200, left, so, it, only, takes, a, day, the, farmer, has, been, unable, to, but, in, store, cattle, to, feed, and, has, lost, over, 100, to, defra, it, has, been, 2, monthly, testing, for, almost, 2, years, now, and, he, still, has, not, had, a, clear, test, she, was, down, too, just, from, too, much, on, call, monday, got, up, feeling, exhausted, but, even, though, not, very, busy, couldn’t, get, going, the, dairy, farms, are, all, feeling, very, nervous, over, the, nestle, pull, out, farmers, said, to, me, that, they, were, pleased, that, their, sons, are, not, going, to, be, going, into, farming, both, teenagers, one, a’s, year, and, one, a, year, older, both, looking, to, work, in, it, it, used, to, be, a, point, of, sadness, that, the, next, generation, is, not, following, on, but, there, seems, to, be, a, general, air, of, resignation, that, farming, is, not, going, to, be, a, good, career, sad, really, tuesday, 17th, december, spent, the, day, sorting, out, the, remaining, bits, and, pieces, for, the, accountant, we, met, with, him, at, night, which, as, usual, was, the, sorting, out, of, this, and, that, the, finding, of, the, relevant, pieces, of, paper, and, then, what, the, unaccounted, cheques, were, for, we, are, still, making, money, but, only, thanks, to, defra, so, three, cheers, for, mrs, beckett, cynic, it, made, it, a, very, long, day, and, lois, is, off, for, the, week, so, we, are, short, staffed, again, but, last, tests, are, today, as, we, will, not, be, able, to, get, bloods, to, the, labs, because, of, the, christmas, post, i, do, like, this, time, of, year, where, you, hear, from, friends, who, you, have, not, seen, for, ages, and, think, the, same, as, you, did, last, year, i, will, have, to, catch, up, with, them, soon, hey, ho, weds, 18th, there, is, a, lot, of, pneumonia, about, and, the, farmers, are, all, buying, vast, quantities, of, drugs, to, treat, whole, batches, of, calves, and, stirks, the, is, the, usual, mix, but, far, more, than, normal, i, don’t, know, whether, to, be, pleased, that, the, practice, is, doing, well, and, invoicing, a, lot, or, sad, that, there, is, so, much, disease, around, and, we, will, have, a, horrendous, drugs, bill, a, dilemma, i, don’t, think, i, should, explore, thurs, 19th, fri, 20th, kids, went, to, ice, rink, in, carlisle, with, wife, they, have, set, up, an, out, door, rink, which, the, city, council, are, sponsoring, to, attract, people, in, to, the, centre, i, don’t, think, that, they, really, need, to, as, the, place, seems, crowded, enough, as, it, is, son, bashed, his, head, quite, badly, and, other, son, fell, over, and, hurt, his, knee, tim, fell, loads, of, times, and, just, ended, up, wet, and, happy, their, different, characters, are, coming, out, saturday, 21st, december, the, beginning, of, the, christmas, rota, i, feel, as, though, we, are, in, the, run, up, to, christmas, now, i, have, also, made, the, mistake, of, not, buying, all, my, presents, before, now, and, went, into, carlisle, to, go, shopping, it, was, quite, nice, in, some, ways, to, see, the, ice, rink, and, mingle, in, the, crowds, but, an, hour, and, a, half, was, plenty, the, kids, have, decided, that, they, are, going, to, ask, for, money, to, take, to, india, this, year, from, the, aunts, and, uncles, and, so, there, will, be, fewer, presents, to, open, as, christmas, seems, to, be, getting, more, and, more, manic, and, commercialised, i, think, that, it, is, a, very, good, idea, well, done, a, and, son, sunday, 22nd, carols, by, candlelight, it, was, magical, the, church, was, packed, out, and, so, i, ended, up, standing, at, the, back, which, in, some, ways, was, quite, nice, as, you, look, down, the, aisles, to, the, stage, and, there, are, rows, of, candles, and, fairy, lights, down, the, sides, pm, lead, it, and, there, were, different, age, groups, taking, part, he, spoke, on, being, a, christmas, tree, and, how, we, end, up, all, convoluted, by, our, own, wrong, choices, and, how, we, can, have, lots, of, fairy, lights, and, a, star, on, top, and, have, an, image, on, the, outside, that, looks, wonderful, but, what, are, we, like, inside, all, those, things, we, surround, ourselves, with, god, knows, and, he, cares, and, he, loves, us, enough, to, send, a, gift, to, help, us, his, son, immanuel, god, with, us, who, will, take, away, the, sin, of, the, world, i, was, really, quite, moved, by, it, all, this, is, the, real, christmas, mon, 23rd, bump, reality, bites, back, it, is, difficult, to, focus, on, the, important, things, of, life, and, keep, a, perspective, on, life, if, it, keeps, getting, interrupted, by, monday, mornings, but, that, is, where, jesus, should, be, in, the, smelly, cattle, shed, and, in, the, market, place, and, making, a, difference, i, will, have, to, think, that, one, out, while, i, have, time, in, india, the, urgent, as, usual, is, pushing, out, the, important, managed, to, go, swimming, at, foxes, the, first, exercise, i, have, had, for, ages, must, get, back, into, it, maybe, wait, for, the, new, year, resolutions, as, exercise, wet, weather, and, working, over, christmas, don’t, really, go, together, tues, 24th, christmas, eve, working, but, quiet, apart, from, last, minute, panics, as, people, think, that, their, ill, dogs, and, cats, will, not, make, it, over, christmas, with, out, seeing, the, vet, called, in, to, pow, heads, for, the, turkey, they, really, do, have, a, good, butchery, and, poultry, business, going, now, good, to, see, direct, selling, by, farmers, or, cooperatives, is, the, only, way, forward, to, break, the, stranglehold, of, the, supermarkets, wife, is, panicking, about, not, having, enough, food, so, i, am, dispatched, to, buy, more, bread, and, milk, i, think, about, protesting, that, if, there, were, 5000, we, still, would, not, need, a, miracle, but, decide, this, is, one, of, those, occasions, when, it, is, better, to, just, spend, another, 2, quid, for, the, peace, wife, s, parents, arrive, an, hour, later, from, belfast, bringing, 2, loaves, of, bread, and, 5, different, types, of, irish, bread, and, 6, pints, of, milk, and, another, 3, boxes, of, food, i, wonder, about, making, a, joke, about, feeding, the, 5000, plus, inflation, but, decide, that, discretion, is, the, better, part, of, valour, and, just, put, them, in, the, freezer, weds, 25th, kids, started, at, 5, 45, am, and, were, unceremoniously, sent, back, to, bed, but, they, were, allowed, to, bring, their, stockings, in, at, half, past, seven, i, was, on, 2nd, call, so, while, they, all, went, off, to, church, i, spent, an, hour, in, the, surgery, seeing, dogs, one, had, meningitis, and, was, very, near, death’s, door, and, the, owner, was, not, that, worried, the, other, is, just, unwell, and, could, have, waited, but, the, problem, is, you, never, know, got, back, and, made, christmas, dinner, so, wasn’t, all, work, though, i, do, feel, amongst, all, the, commercialism, and, turkey, dinners, the, true, significance, of, immanuel, god, who, is, with, us, is, lost, thursday, 26th, on, first, call, and, lots, of, pneumonia, drugs, to, put, out, and, kept, busy, afternoon, evening, we, had, folk, around, lots, of, different, ages, and, backgrounds, so, was, a, real, mix, and, good, fun, friday, 27th, surgery, reopened, and, was, really, busy, i, am, pleased, that, we, had, put, plenty, of, staff, on, the, rota, it, is, always, a, difficult, balance, to, make, trying, to, work, out, if, there, will, be, enough, staff, to, cover, the, work, no, one, wants, to, work, over, xmas, new, year, but, if, there, are, not, enough, then, it, makes, it, really, awful, for, those, that, are, working, but, if, you, have, people, sitting, around, they, resent, that, too, but, it’s, nice, to, know, i, get, it, right, sometimes, doing, a, rota, always, strikes, me, as, a, no, win, situation, as, it, is, always, a, compromise, between, the, two, extremes, saturday, 28th, december, on, call, friday, night, and, then, i, finished, at, lunchtime, wife, wanted, me, to, go, on, church, walk, but, i, was, knackered, and, we, are, all, going, out, tonight, for, dinner, so, i, went, to, bed, for, a, few, hours, sleep, much, to, my, wife’s, displeasure, having, been, on, call, for, the, whole, period, as, soon, as, i, stop, i, crash, out, as, the, adrenalin, fades, and, i, realise, how, tired, i, am, but, only, mon, am, to, work, then, prepare, for, india, and, hitting, the, beach, it, does, take, its, toll, on, family, life, being, on, call, especially, over, the, christmas, period, the, folk, we, are, going, to, dinner, with, he, is, a, policeman, and, they, have, similar, frictions, sun, 29th, the, service, at, church, tonight, was, memorable, the, last, evening, of, the, year, they, have, people, talking, about, what, god, has, been, doing, in, their, lives, so, it, is, usually, people, who, are, not, eloquent, not, used, to, speaking, up, front, but, who, speak, in, a, very, real, way, about, what, jesus, has, been, working, in, their, lives, over, the, past, year, dp, who, is, 14, who, has, had, bone, cancer, gave, a, very, moving, account, about, how, he, had, nearly, died, how, so, often, we, compare, our, selves, with, those, who, have, more, than, us, whether, in, health, or, other, things, we, should, compare, ourselves, with, those, who, have, less, we, should, appreciate, our, lives, and, thank, god, for, who, and, what, we, are, he, has, had, his, ups, and, downs, but, we, are, to, follow, god’s, guiding, and, his, path, for, us, our, lives, are, in, god’s, hands, we, are, to, pray, and, to, trust, in, him, for, our, future, this, is, a, young, lad, who, has, seen, 4, of, the, friends, he, has, made, in, hospital, die, it, makes, the, trivia, we, fill, our, lives, with, back, in, perspective, mon, 30th, last, half, day, and, lots, of, last, minute, things, to, sort, out, before, i, finish, for, new, year, and, the, 2, weeks, in, india, the, cash, flow, has, gone, to, pot, because, of, the, large, amount, of, pneumonia, drugs, we, have, sold, and, tax, vat, going, out, in, end, of, jan, so, needed, to, make, sure, someone, keeps, an, eye, on, it, while, i, am, away, and, makes, sure, that, it, all, falls, into, place, the, problem, with, going, away, is, that, no, one, keeps, up, with, all, the, admin, type, work, that, i, do, so, my, in, tray, will, be, overflowing, by, the, time, i, get, back, tues, 31st, the, young, people, are, partying, at, our, house, so, we, left, them, to, it, rather, than, cramp, their, style, so, we, had, a, very, pleasant, evening, at, some, farming, friends, we, rang, up, and, called, in, on, spec, they, have, 5, boys, so, we, knew, they, wouldn’t, want, to, get, baby, sitters, for, new, year’s, eve, whereas, we, had, about, 40, they, have, stopped, dairying, but, are, now, worried, about, how, the, new, ruling, will, affect, them, at, the, moment, they, lease, their, quota, which, provides, a, fair, amount, of, income, the, new, german, ruling, will, be, applicable, across, the, whole, eec, that, non, producers, cannot, hold, and, therefore, lease, quota, this, means, they, will, have, to, either, sell, it, in, a, flooded, market, or, go, back, to, dairy, farming, unless, mr, p, can, work, a, way, around, the, new, system, they, are, also, taking, advice, and, looking, at, all, sorts, of, diversification, schemes, some, seem, quite, a, good, idea, others, i, think, are, non, starters, they, already, have, invested, some, of, the, fmd, money, into, setting, up, a, student, house, in, carlisle, the, way, house, prices, are, going, around, here, it, is, probably, a, very, good, investment, not, really, the, way, forward, for, farming, though, the, only, depressing, feature, of, the, evening, was, i, asked, what, they, thought, the, future, of, cattle, vets, was, the, answer, was, none, well, that’s, a, good, start, to, 2003, we, got, home, to, find, the, party, in, full, swing, and, we, left, them, to, it, and, went, to, bed, 1st, jan, 2003, got, up, some, what, late, after, staying, up, for, the, new, years, eve, the, young, people, had, cleared, up, after, the, party, and, we, were, amazed, at, how, well, they, had, done, they, had, set, off, the, dish, washer, and, all, we, had, to, do, was, empty, it, i, was, impressed, the, only, reminder, they, had, been, there, was, when, we, drew, the, curtains, there, were, several, glasses, which, had, been, missed, as, they, were, on, the, window, sill, and, bizarrely, an, odd, sock, the, sock, game, my, daughter, assures, me, was, very, funny, but, what, i, want, to, know, is, who, went, home, with, only, one, sock, on, started, thinking, about, india, a, good, job, my, wife, is, organised, as, we, set, off, tomorrow, 2nd, jan, thursday, travelled, down, to, see, my, brother, and, family, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, again, played, risk, which, was, a, bit, of, a, christmas, tradition, when, we, were, kids, it, was, funny, to, be, playing, with, him, and, both, sets, of, kids, as, i, felt, like, a, kid, again, it, was, really, nice, though, b, won, he, managed, to, wipe, people, out, and, amass, their, risk, cards, he, risked, everything, and, it, went, to, the, last, throw, of, the, dice, so, it, was, quite, exciting, friday, 3rd, jan, travelled, down, to, my, dads, to, have, tea, and, drop, off, some, stuff, before, heading, for, the, airport, i, am, pleased, we, have, had, a, few, days, off, before, flying, as, it, is, a, night, flight, and, i, hate, travelling, when, i, am, already, exhausted, the, weather, was, the, usual, british, winter, of, rain, and, wind, a, friend, of, mine, is, convinced, that, this, is, due, to, global, warming, more, energy, in, the, system, means, more, rain, and, wind, in, which, case, cumbria, is, not, going, to, be, the, place, to, live, as, it, is, already, wet, and, windy, enough, the, next, 2, weeks, recall, x’s, family, holiday, to, india, sat, 4th, january, 2003, i, am, sitting, in, the, nilgiri, hills, in, southern, india, in, shorts, and, t, shirt, enjoying, the, coolness, of, the, high, altitude, it, is, almost, twice, the, height, of, ben, nevis, on, bbc, world, last, night, it, showed, a, reporter, in, london, with, an, umbrella, trying, to, keep, off, the, large, wet, snowflakes, we, are, visiting, friends, who, teach, at, a, christian, school, here, the, contrasts, of, india, always, seem, so, great, the, poverty, and, the, opulence, side, by, side, the, beggars, and, the, road, repairers, at, the, side, of, the, road, in, make, shift, tents, of, plastic, sheeting, and, huts, of, bamboo, leaves, then, the, huge, opulent, houses, wooden, floored, and, air, conditioned, with, their, own, generators, and, the, 4, hotels, with, marbled, floors, and, artificial, streams, and, waterfalls, we, came, on, a, cheap, charter, flight, as, it, was, cheaper, to, come, to, trivandrum, on, a, flight, and, a, package, with, hotel, b, b, than, to, just, buy, the, flights, the, emphasis, though, should, be, on, cheap, it, is, the, first, time, i, have, ever, had, to, pay, for, drinks, on, the, plane, the, air, stewardesses, seemed, to, be, there, for, a, good, time, rather, than, to, look, after, the, passengers, can't, complain, though, as, it, was, cheap, the, only, worry, was, the, re, routing, we, were, originally, supposed, to, be, going, via, united, arab, emirates, but, the, refuelling, was, transferred, to, bahrein, as, we, flew, in, we, were, warned, it, was, a, military, as, well, as, civilian, airport, so, no, photography, was, allowed, the, build, up, of, us, forces, in, the, gulf, must, be, pretty, major, as, even, here, there, were, large, numbers, of, us, air, force, planes, and, massive, sinister, looking, helicopters, it, is, difficult, to, believe, that, they, are, aiming, to, keep, the, peace, by, preparing, for, war, the, papers, here, are, also, full, of, sabre, rattling, between, pakistan, and, india, with, daily, reports, of, skirmishes, in, kashmir, there, is, also, exchanges, of, political, rhetoric, between, the, two, states, how, much, is, actually, for, real, and, how, much, is, sabre, rattling, no, one, knows, the, weekly, telegraph, is, also, reporting, that, iraq, has, shot, down, a, reconnaissance, drone, the, same, sort, that, blew, up, one, of, the, el, quaedi, leaders, in, yemen, the, us, is, obviously, trying, regime, change, by, several, methods, the, us, response, was, to, blow, up, several, command, and, control, facilities, the, war, hasn't, officially, started, yet, but, the, skirmishes, are, going, on, the, cost, the, previous, year, for, the, raf, to, patrol, the, no, fly, zone, was, 22, uk, million, the, last, quarter, was, 10, times, that, so, there, is, money, being, spent, the, priorities, of, govts, is, often, difficult, to, work, out, the, indian, govt, doesn't, have, enough, money, at, the, local, level, to, organise, a, proper, refuse, collection, system, yet, has, money, to, develop, hi, tech, weaponry, the, attitudes, to, rubbish, here, is, very, different, when, we, were, at, the, beach, the, actual, beach, is, combed, by, litter, pickers, but, the, areas, in, between, are, terrible, there, are, 2, smart, 4, hotels, and, the, govt, buildings, where, the, tourism, training, takes, place, the, grounds, are, immaculate, and, the, flowers, and, area, beautiful, but, once, out, side, the, grounds, it, is, a, cross, between, a, rubbish, dump, and, a, building, site, with, piles, of, rubbish, and, sand, and, rubble, we, went, for, a, snorkelling, trip, around, the, coast, to, a, fishing, harbour, where, the, sea, was, calm, and, there, were, plenty, of, rocks, for, the, fish, to, hide, in, and, swim, in, and, out, of, the, boats, were, a, few, bits, of, wood, tied, together, with, string, seriously, there, were, two, central, planks, and, two, edge, planks, and, then, an, aft, piece, of, wood, to, hold, the, aft, part, together, which, was, reinforced, by, cord, the, wood, is, so, light, that, it, floats, with, our, weight, fairly, easily, the, oars, were, split, bamboo, with, no, grips, so, it, made, for, interesting, rowing, or, is, it, paddling, they, are, more, like, large, canadian, canoes, than, boats, very, hawaii, five, o, the, planks, were, roughly, shaped, but, as, we, rode, the, waves, the, water, fountained, up, through, the, holes, in, the, bottom, h, asked, what, wood, they, were, made, of, but, didn't, understand, the, answer, must, be, a, type, of, balsa, we, set, off, from, under, the, light, house, there, was, another, group, going, at, the, same, time, i, think, they, must, have, agreed, to, pay, top, whack, whereas, you, soon, learn, to, try, to, bargain, about, the, price, of, everything, here, they, had, two, helpers, in, the, boat, to, paddle, whereas, we, were, the, economy, class, with, two, paddles, but, only, one, guide, in, our, two, boats, we, took, turns, in, helping, to, paddle, whether, we, made, much, difference, to, the, progression, of, the, boat, i, don, t, know, but, it, was, fun, it, was, a, bit, worrying, that, we, were, heading, for, the, least, scenic, part, of, the, coast, the, other, way, is, beautiful, sandy, beaches, for, miles, there, is, a, wave, powered, generator, at, the, edge, of, the, harbour, a, few, rusty, wrecks, and, bits, of, broken, concrete, but, when, we, arrived, the, snorkelling, was, brilliant, it, was, like, swimming, in, a, tropical, fish, tank, my, favourite, were, small, electric, blue, fish, which, darted, away, as, soon, as, you, came, near, there, were, big, black, and, yellow, striped, tiger, fish, there, were, 2, sorts, one, with, vertical, stripes, and, one, with, horizontal, not, at, all, timid, the, angel, fish, with, their, long, dangling, barbs, were, shy, and, would, only, appear, when, you, kept, still, there, were, some, very, large, spiky, sea, anemones, as, big, as, a, football, loads, of, crabs, and, shoals, of, fish, which, swim, hither, and, thither, some, were, quite, bizarre, there, were, some, that, looked, like, sea, horses, that, had, been, straightened, out, you, almost, could, see, a, jockey, getting, a, saddle, ready, to, put, on, them, for, the, saltwater, derby, the, huge, variety, and, colours, were, just, outstanding, we, spent, a, few, hours, and, then, got, thoroughly, sun, burnt, on, the, way, back, the, boys, had, been, full, of, beans, on, the, way, there, but, were, exhausted, in, the, heat, on, the, way, back, we, spent, today, making, and, flying, kites, on, top, of, a, hill, at, pykara, the, kids, or, was, it, the, dad's, made, kites, and, then, we, tried, to, fly, them, h's, won, his, design, was, copied, from, an, original, no, stick, design, and, managed, to, fly, almost, successfully, my, traditional, kite, shaped, one, flew, once, but, its, aerodynamics, weren't, quite, right, son, s, yellow, square, was, successful, none, however, matched, the, ikea, bought, one, we, played, cricket, and, frisbee, as, the, water, buffalos, wandered, passed, in, the, typical, indian, way, of, having, no, real, boundaries, between, one, thing, and, another, called, in, at, the, vedera's, which, was, very, pleasant, the, garden, was, stunning, as, usual, i, love, driving, through, the, tea, plantations, with, acres, of, terraced, tea, plants, and, through, the, forest, to, get, there, the, hotel, is, an, up, market, indian, rather, than, a, western, which, is, great, for, us, the, décor, lacks, a, little, in, taste, and, design, concrete, floors, and, that, rather, quaint, unfinished, look, spotlessly, clean, and, the, thing, about, india, is, they, love, having, kids, around, and, spend, ages, talking, with, them, and, love, having, them, around, going, out, for, meals, in, uk, with, children, is, always, a, bit, stressful, as, low, blood, sugars, combined, with, the, general, attitude, of, people, to, children, does, not, make, it, a, pleasant, experience, whereas, even, the, hours, wait, for, the, food, here, is, not, stressful, as, the, kids, wander, off, play, games, read, books, etc, son, and, other, son, have, befriended, a, man, at, the, blue, moon, gift, shop, he, has, spent, hours, playing, chess, and, talking, to, them, son, won, a, little, elephant, off, him, by, beating, him, at, chess, son, decided, he, would, buy, josh, the, chess, set, and, kept, bargaining, the, price, down, he, eventually, paid, 350, rupees, for, it, 4.60, the, beach, is, idyllic, with, palm, trees, and, warm, rolling, sea, the, only, problem, is, having, to, get, the, kids, out, of, the, sun, during, the, red, hot, period, between, 12, and, 2, we, do, keep, slapping, on, the, sun, tan, lotion, i, missed, the, widows, peaks, where, my, hair, is, receding, and, have, sun, burnt, red, patches, either, side, of, my, head, the, boys, have, variable, tanning, depending, on, where, the, sun, block, was, washed, off, first, dear, friends, just, a, quick, note, to, say, that, we, are, enjoying, ourselves, so, much, that, we, don't, want, to, come, home, but, we, would, miss, all, our, friends, we, had, a, great, time, at, the, beach, you, know, the, palm, trees, the, warm, rolling, sea, the, sandy, beaches, and, unlike, silloth, 30, degrees, warmth, in, fact, some, days, it, was, to, hot, and, we, had, to, drag, the, boys, out, of, the, sea, or, else, they, would, have, been, really, sun, burnt, we, are, just, back, from, 3, days, at, avalanche, which, is, a, bit, of, an, unfortunate, name, for, a, mountain, out, door, centre, but, as, there, isn't, any, snow, i, don't, think, the, indians, appreciate, the, irony, it, is, up, in, the, mountains, a, jungle, area, where, there, is, very, little, apart, from, a, few, tea, plantations, reservoirs, and, hydroelectric, plants, and, jungle, and, the, wood, men, who, harvest, the, wood, every, 10, years, we, left, a, bus, and, walked, in, to, the, centre, while, a, truck, took, the, bags, food, and, the, lazy, ones, it, is, incredibly, beautiful, with, high, hills, and, lakes, but, there, is, a, drought, at, the, moment, so, the, reservoirs, are, all, very, low, and, everywhere, is, incredibly, dry, and, dusty, thick, red, dust, which, gets, in, to, everything, the, facilities, were, basic, the, water, ran, from, a, stream, to, a, tank, to, the, taps, no, electric, showers, but, fortunately, as, always, in, india, there, was, a, little, man, or, in, fact, 3, who, cooked, for, us, all, a, is, taking, after, wife, their, main, concern, was, not, meeting, any, rats, we, abseiled, down, a, waterfall, walked, and, swam, in, another, well, son, and, other, son, swam, i, am, afraid, it, was, too, cold, for, me, i, will, wait, until, we, go, back, down, to, the, beach, we, all, went, kayaking, and, sat, around, the, campfire, at, night, saturday, 18th, january, 2003, the, end, of, our, indian, holiday, and, escape, from, cumbrian, weather, wife, saw, the, rep, yesterday, and, the, bus, was, arranged, for, 12, 30, for, a, flight, at, 5, 30, this, tour, company, is, something, else, so, we, are, going, to, catch, a, taxi, at, about, 3pm, so, we, are, not, hanging, around, the, airport, for, ages, having, 4, children, and, going, through, the, bureaucracy, of, an, indian, airport, is, bad, enough, with, out, the, additional, hassle, of, waiting, around, for, 3, hours, with, out, reason, the, annoying, part, is, that, so, much, of, it, is, pointless, in, that, they, put, your, bags, through, the, security, x, ray, in, the, main, hall, and, then, give, you, your, bags, back, so, that, if, you, wanted, to, add, stuff, to, your, bag, you, could, you, have, to, go, to, 1, desk, to, check, in, another, to, get, your, seat, another, to, exit, indian, immigration, and, customs, and, then, identify, your, bags, to, get, them, put, on, the, plane, worse, than, defra, so, we, spent, a, last, morning, swimming, on, the, beach, and, then, said, good, bye, to, the, cs, and, gs, wife, had, to, buy, her, material, fro, the, study, we, were, all, quite, sad, coming, away, i, think, we, could, have, all, stayed, and, enjoyed, living, in, india, but, back, to, porridge, sun, 19th, arrived, at, dads, at, 3am, uk, time, after, clearing, customs, flight, was, not, too, crowded, thank, goodness, as, the, space, allocated, for, my, legs, is, not, enough, they, had, as, before, messed, up, their, allocation, of, vegetarian, meals, with, the, height, of, european, ignorance, and, stupidity, they, offered, a, hindu, family, by, us, a, beef, meal, the, stewardesses, should, have, known, better, but, i, just, cringed, with, inward, embarrassment, at, their, thoughtlessness, left, in, t, shirts, and, shorts, arrived, cold, in, jeans, and, fleeces, the, air, conditioning, i, don’t, think, was, working, properly, and, every, one, was, coughing, and, dry, mouthed, as, we, arrived, in, gatwick, drove, back, up, to, cumbria, and, back, to, the, house, it, was, a, strange, sensation, to, be, back, we, had, done, so, much, and, seemed, changed, and, yet, everything, here, was, still, the, same, and, yet, not, really, in, some, ways, it, is, like, after, the, fmd, epidemic, before, and, after, everything, is, the, same, but, nothing, is, the, same, part, of, you, is, trying, to, find, where, you, fit, in, the, new, reality, part, of, you, wants, the, safety, of, the, old, ways, slightly, dislocated, from, your, surroundings, but, the, physical, surroundings, are, the, same, but, i, suppose, you, have, changed, and, the, old, certainties, that, were, not, certain, but, seemed, it, have, made, way, for, new, changeable, ways, that, are, not, certain, and, you, know, that, they, are, not, certain, mon, 20th, i, have, taken, the, day, off, to, recover, the, kids, were, all, up, really, early, because, of, the, jet, lag, and, so, had, no, qualms, about, sending, them, to, school, i, spent, the, day, unpacking, and, sorting, out, with, wife, the, pile, of, post, was, huge, but, seemed, a, lot, more, manageable, by, the, time, i, had, thrown, out, al, the, junk, mail, why, do, i, need, another, 2, credit, cards, any, way, transferred, money, for, tax, bills, and, downloaded, the, emails, there, were, only, 50, so, ploughed, my, way, through, them, when, you, are, away, for, any, length, of, time, it, makes, you, realise, how, much, work, is, required, to, keep, a, household, going, with, all, the, bills, and, stuff, tues, 21st, back, to, work, and, to, face, my, in, tray, still, feeling, a, little, jet, lagged, and, seeing, an, overflowing, in, tray, as, you, arrive, is, a, daunting, feeling, did, some, of, it, and, then, went, out, on, call, it, was, good, to, be, back, on, farm, and, seeing, folk, again, it, always, amazes, me, how, everyone, around, here, knows, everything, so, they, were, all, asking, about, india, and, had, we, had, a, good, time, so, it, was, nice, to, feel, part, of, the, community, as, a, friend, of, mine, once, commented, there, is, only, one, thing, worse, than, being, talked, about, that, is, not, being, talked, about, there, is, still, that, funny, feeling, of, having, been, away, and, having, changed, but, nothing, here, is, any, different, and, yet, thinking, that, it, should, be, though, why, it, should, be, i, don’t, know, weds, 22nd, george, wanted, a, partners, meeting, at, lunch, time, so, we, met, up, and, had, the, usual, decision, making, process, to, be, honest, the, jet, lag, was, still, really, kicking, in, so, i, was, asleep, on, my, feet, it, doesn’t, usually, effect, me, for, this, long, but, both, wife, and, i, are, shattered, by, 8pm, the, kids, are, ok, and, going, to, bed, after, us, the, sign, of, things, to, come, the, whole, pets, travel, scheme, is, causing, problems, it, has, been, presented, as, a, passport, for, pets, but, all, it, really, does, is, allow, re, entry, to, the, uk, from, certain, countries, as, long, as, you, meet, the, conditions, we, have, had, a, few, problems, and, we, do, very, few, so, what, it, must, be, like, for, those, on, the, south, coast, i, dread, to, think, the, problems, are, 2, main, ones, 1, that, there, is, a, 6, month, period, before, you, can, come, back, into, the, uk, after, the, paper, work, is, completed, you, can, go, before, the, 6, months, so, people, who, spend, the, summer, on, a, caravan, site, will, take, their, dog, abroad, but, cannot, come, back, before, the, 6, month, date, there, is, also, a, problem, where, the, forms, have, to, be, renewed, it, has, to, be, done, according, to, the, manufactures, directions, which, vary, from, country, to, country, as, in, france, it, is, a, govt, regulation, that, dogs, are, vaccinated, annually, so, the, vaccine, manufactures, stick, to, that, in, the, uk, dogs, have, to, be, done, every, 2, years, cats, annually, so, you, cannot, have, your, documentation, renewed, in, france, unless, you, vaccinate, annually, whereas, in, the, uk, you, can, renew, it, with, vaccinating, every, 2, years, the, other, problem, is, that, the, paperwork, is, so, complex, that, according, to, defra’s, figures, there, is, a, 18, failure, rate, i.e, 1, in, 6, don’t, make, it, back, in, there, is, also, a, problem, in, that, there, has, been, at, least, one, dog, imported, into, cumbria, with, out, any, paperwork, as, the, owners, thought, all, they, needed, was, a, rabies, vaccination, we, are, dealing, with, it, on, a, weekly, basis, and, are, confused, so, the, poor, punters, don’t, stand, a, chance, thursday, 23rd, there, is, a, real, problem, with, cow, fertility, in, the, restocking, farms, at, the, moment, i, went, to, 1, farm, where, of, the, 10, cows, i, checked, only, one, was, in, calf, which, is, a, little, sad, no, baby, calves, no, milk, production, and, more, losses, for, the, fmd, farmers, the, compensation, is, looking, very, small, the, only, ones, who, benefited, are, those, who, took, the, money, and, got, out, it, is, difficult, trying, to, work, out, why, these, cows, are, having, so, much, of, a, problem, as, usual, i, suspect, there, is, no, simple, answer, the, blood, tests, and, analyses, do, not, help, much, the, cows, have, been, under, a, lot, of, stress, the, movement, into, new, regimes, and, cattle, systems, where, they, have, to, learn, where, to, go, where, the, water, troughs, are, where, the, milking, parlour, is, they, have, had, to, sort, out, the, pecking, order, of, the, cows, which, espy, in, the, larger, units, is, probably, quite, stressful, where, you, add, animals, to, a, herd, there, are, lead, cows, who, know, the, set, up, and, cows, are, very, much, follow, my, leader, in, their, behaviour, patterns, where, there, is, a, complete, cull, and, restocking, there, are, no, lead, cows, so, no, leader, for, the, cows, to, follow, there, has, also, been, a, lot, of, illness, in, the, herds, which, again, will, reduce, fertility, the, other, problem, is, the, poor, quality, silage, because, of, the, bad, weather, the, other, factor, that, keeps, coming, up, in, conversation, is, what, effect, the, topping, of, grass, has, on, silage, grazing, quality, which, would, have, been, an, interesting, study, that, will, never, be, done, now, stress, is, a, generality, of, a, word, but, i, can’t, think, of, a, better, more, specific, way, of, expressing, the, problems, the, stress, of, all, the, changes, has, caused, fertility, problems, the, difficulty, is, in, finding, where, do, you, go, from, here, i, think, a, lot, will, end, up, culling, fairly, large, numbers, 15, 20, because, of, fertility, friday, 24th, one, of, the, defra, tv’s, called, in, on, her, way, back, from, a, test, tb, to, let, us, know, that, there, was, still, an, ir, causing, problems, she, also, said, that, it, looked, like, there, was, going, to, be, a, complete, herd, cull, for, tb, in, the, east, of, the, county, the, farmer, had, restocked, from, three, sources, all, were, down, to, do, as, tracings, as, well, as, to, be, done, under, the, restocking, tb, testing, they, found, 32, reactors, with, lesions, so, they, will, probably, cull, the, whole, herd, it, is, so, depressing, to, think, what, the, farmer, must, be, thinking, and, whether, he, can, face, getting, back, into, farming, again, after, this, further, disaster, does, not, bear, thinking, about, saturday, 25th, january, 2003, linda, b’s, wedding, travelled, down, to, derby, for, wedding, it, was, really, nice, to, see, them, finally, tie, the, knot, as, they, have, been, talking, about, it, for, so, long, they, have, followed, each, other, around, several, continents, so, at, least, that, will, have, seen, each, other, in, different, situations, she, first, came, as, a, student, and, has, worked, for, us, as, a, locum, she, spent, 2, years, at, all, nations, bible, college, in, london, where, she, met, him, so, a, lot, of, their, friends, from, all, nations, were, there, they, have, been, doing, agricultural, relief, work, in, the, worlds, hot, spots, from, kosovo, to, indonesia, from, haiti, to, bolivia, they, are, currently, in, bolivia, working, with, church, groups, she, has, been, setting, up, tb, testing, programme, as, there, is, a, problem, of, human, tb, which, has, been, blamed, on, the, cattle, but, they, have, completed, the, testing, and, it, is, not, the, cattle, it, seems, to, be, nearly, all, human, to, human, spread, so, that, at, least, they, can, make, a, start, on, eradicating, tb, in, humans, by, treating, the, in, contacts, they, went, away, from, the, church, in, a, horse, drawn, carriage, which, was, nice, to, see, spent, quite, a, lot, of, time, catching, up, with, vets, and, their, friends, who, we, have, not, seen, for, ages, sun, 26th, we, were, staying, with, friends, from, carlisle, who, moved, down, to, derbyshire, when, he, started, to, teach, we, went, to, their, church, which, is, a, house, church, and, is, a, little, different, to, put, it, mildly, they, meet, in, a, school, and, it, is, very, informal, with, a, drumming, band, and, a, desire, not, to, be, restricted, by, convention, or, liturgy, so, it, was, a, mixture, of, readings, and, worship, songs, they, do, seem, to, be, reaching, out, to, their, local, community, as, there, were, people, from, all, walks, of, life, there, mon, 27th, back, to, work, and, not, feeling, very, good, had, 2, weeks, in, india, and, no, stomach, bugs, but, a, w, e, in, derby, and, i, have, a, very, runny, tummy, came, home, from, work, early, and, went, to, bed, tues, 28th, off, work, ill, in, bed, being, male, this, involves, dying, noisily, in, a, corner, some, sympathy, i, get, from, my, wife, weds, 29th, not, feeling, good, but, dragged, myself, back, in, as, i, have, had, that, much, time, off, recently, and, i, feel, that, i, have, to, turn, in, but, i, am, off, tomorrow, so, i, can, recover, then, the, only, drawback, is, that, i, will, be, working, the, w, e, the, sheep, seem, to, have, decided, to, start, lambing, or, maybe, decided, not, as, we, seem, to, be, seeing, a, few, if, you, get, what, i, mean, thursday, had, a, good, day, off, and, spent, time, sleeping, and, doing, household, things, even, though, i, hate, diy, it, was, good, to, get, some, jobs, sorted, called, in, at, vets, to, pick, up, stuff, for, court, tomorrow, friday, the, more, i, experience, the, legal, proceedings, the, more, i, feel, that, they, are, a, waste, of, time, what, is, important, is, how, good, your, lawyer, is, the, case, was, all, about, whether, or, not, this, guy, had, starved, his, greyhounds, or, not, he, had, but, as, he, was, on, legal, aid, he, thought, it, might, be, better, to, try, to, keep, his, other, dogs, and, have, fewer, judgements, against, him, he, obviously, knew, his, way, around, the, legal, system, saturday, 1st, feb, 2003, reflections, on, court, case, it, is, one, of, those, really, annoying, things, that, you, can, never, replay, what, has, happened, the, case, yesterday, really, churned, me, up, with, having, to, make, huge, moral, decisions, more, or, less, on, the, spur, of, the, moment, the, complicating, factors, were, that, c, who, was, acting, on, the, defence, was, acting, outside, the, rcvs, guidelines, now, i, could, have, pointed, out, this, to, the, rspca, lawyer, but, as, c, has, already, been, struck, off, once, the, matter, could, well, have, turned, very, badly, for, him, even, though, it, is, his, decision, to, get, involved, and, a, poor, one, then, i, think, that, it, is, not, for, me, to, land, him, in, the, muck, i, could, have, done, so, both, on, the, fact, he, should, not, have, been, speaking, and, also, that, i, could, have, pointed, out, that, his, record, is, tainted, why, he, was, being, an, expert, witness, in, the, first, place, for, some, one, who, is, not, even, their, client, beadsmen, beats, me, i, had, reservations, about, doing, the, legal, work, for, the, rspca, and, at, least, we, do, quite, a, lot, of, work, for, the, local, inspector, so, i, decided, not, to, trash, c, as, a, witness, as, i, thought, that, it, was, not, my, place, to, do, so, and, secondly, the, repercussions, for, local, vet, good, will, would, not, stand, me, in, good, stead, but, i, have, my, doubts, as, to, whether, i, did, the, correct, thing, there, is, no, right, and, wrong, the, dilemmas, are, there, because, you, to, choose, which, horn, you, want, to, get, impaled, on, sun, lambing, seems, to, have, started, with, a, vengeance, spent, most, of, the, morning, at, the, surgery, with, land, rovers, and, trailers, turning, up, one, after, another, with, sheep, lambing, or, having, peri, natal, problems, i, do, like, working, out, of, the, surgery, at, the, w, e, as, there, is, far, less, driving, and, working, is, so, much, easier, and, you, don’t, have, to, keep, getting, changed, in, and, out, of, protective, clothes, so, got, two, vets, work, done, by, just, keeping, on, asking, for, them, to, come, to, the, surgery, the, farmers, don’t, mind, either, as, they, generally, have, to, put, them, in, a, pick, up, to, bring, them, back, to, the, farm, from, the, field, so, it, is, as, easy, to, drive, on, to, the, vets, rather, than, hang, around, waiting, for, them, mon, went, tt, testing, at, p’s, farm, i, used, his, son, a, fair, bit, during, fmd, as, they, went, out, early, on, and, he, always, has, done, a, fair, amount, of, contracting, on, the, various, farms, he, also, has, a, very, happy, go, lucky, style, in, contrast, to, his, dad, who, is, a, bit, of, a, worrier, i, quite, enjoyed, the, banter, and, we, could, just, work, away, as, there, is, no, pressure, too, get, finished, as, the, numbers, are, not, great, tues, went, to, o’s, where, they, are, again, having, problems, getting, the, cows, in, calf, the, levels, of, infertility, in, the, restocking, herds, are, horrendous, the, sad, thing, is, we, seem, to, be, achieving, very, little, in, actually, improving, it, in, spite, of, a, lot, of, investigations, and, spending, money, on, vaccine, and, on, supplements, the, average, loss, must, be, 5, at, least, it, would, be, interesting, to, compare, the, culling, rates, of, the, restocking, farms, and, find, out, what, the, restocking, losses, actually, are, weds, took, the, new, vet, student, with, me, today, and, let, her, do, the, first, lambing, at, r’s, they, like, everyone, else, says, they, are, getting, a, lot, of, lambs, these, were, dead, and, all, tangled, up, and, aborting, so, they, could, not, get, them, out, they, had, quads, last, night, thursday, went, to, s, and, stitched, a, teat, this, is, now, a, fairly, easy, operation, with, the, advent, of, using, open, crushes, and, decent, epidural, anaesthesia, local, is, always, fairly, iffy, as, many, a, dentists, patient, will, testify, to, it, is, very, satisfying, to, fix, something, like, that, friday, spent, the, morning, doing, certs, these, are, otm22, certificates, which, were, brought, in, by, maff, to, compensate, the, farmer, for, cows, that, would, have, been, sold, for, human, consumption, before, the, otm, scheme, banned, them, from, human, consumption, if, an, animal, is, not, fit, to, travel, then, it, can, be, shot, on, the, farm, but, to, get, the, compensation, they, need, a, vet’s, cert, to, say, that, it, is, fit, for, human, consumption, so, it, can, be, burnt, on, the, scheme, if, it, is, not, fit, then, they, have, to, pay, to, have, it, taken, away, so, there, is, a, lot, of, pressure, to, sign, them, the, scheme, is, supposed, to, be, coming, to, an, end, this, summer, but, as, yet, no, markets, exist, for, the, casualty, animals, that, are, fir, for, human, consumption, the, whole, knackery, injured, animals, burying, of, animals, scheme, is, up, for, grabs, and, the, govt, needs, to, get, some, sort, of, scheme, up, and, running, but, the, govt, thinks, maybe, rightly, that, it, is, an, industry, problem, to, get, rid, of, its, own, waste, and, it, is, not, up, to, the, taxpayer, to, get, farmers, waste, problems, sorted, leave, it, up, to, the, industry, market, to, sort, it, there, is, also, a, suggestion, that, as, tb, is, not, an, important, zoonosis, in, the, uk, anymore, then, it, is, a, production, problem, and, it, should, go, the, same, way, as, sheep, scab, and, be, taken, off, the, notifiable, disease, list, and, individual, farms, have, to, ensure, they, meet, whatever, standard, that, the, buyers, want, to, specify, which, is, what, is, happening, to, a, small, extent, in, the, dairy, industry, with, buyers, specifying, farms, must, meet, certain, criteria, saturday, 8th, feb, 2003, wife, is, on, her, course, for, the, w, e, so, i, was, doing, the, run, around, to, squash, and, football, for, sons, mon, 10th, b, is, now, renting, all, the, land, bush, ghyll, head, he, has, taken, it, over, as, a, grass, letting, another, of, the, small, farms, is, disappearing, the, reality, is, it, has, only, ever, been, a, small, holding, but, they, use, to, milk, 20, odd, cows, which, meant, it, got, the, status, of, a, farm, on, our, computer, system, the, uncle, who, use, to, run, it, when, first, arrived, was, a, real, character, he, was, always, telling, you, about, when, farmers, made, money, after, the, war, a, dozen, eggs, was, 10, shilling, none, of, your, 50ps, 10, whole, shillings, you, could, take, a, girl, to, the, cinema, and, the, lyons, café, and, still, have, change, from, a, pound, even, his, free, range, hens, eggs, would, not, buy, a, cinema, ticket, for, one, these, days, he, should, of, taken, her, as, he, ended, up, as, a, bachelor, with, his, nephew, taking, over, the, farm, tuesday, 11th, the, partners, meeting, today, was, trying, to, address, the, fact, that, the, mark, up, on, fees, is, going, to, be, eroded, one, of, the, things, that, barnard, castle, are, doing, is, putting, on, their, bills, but, as, yet, not, charging, for, things, like, telephone, advice, and, out, of, hours, so, we, are, going, to, be, doing, the, same, to, try, to, get, across, the, point, that, we, are, providing, an, all, round, service, that, needs, to, be, paid, for, but, i, still, think, at, the, end, of, the, day, the, economics, will, win, if, you, cannot, provide, a, service, at, a, profit, you, cannot, provide, a, service, so, where, does, that, leave, us, weds, harrison’s, are, having, problems, with, fertility, who, isn’t, the, blood, results, are, showing, low, levels, of, copper, but, i, am, not, convinced, that, is, what, it, is, they, will, have, to, supplement, the, feed, by, adding, more, copper, to, the, feed, the, problem, with, all, these, investigations, is, that, we, are, looking, for, a, simple, answer, when, the, actual, problem, is, multi, factorial, the, cows, may, be, short, in, copper, but, they, are, not, that, low, that, it, is, really, effecting, them, i, often, wonder, with, humans, if, you, blood, sampled, them, for, lots, of, different, minerals, would, we, find, that, a, percentage, of, the, population, is, actually, below, normal, for, some, or, several, minerals, maybe, our, omnivorous, diet, and, the, fact, we, are, not, producing, huge, amounts, of, milk, probably, does, come, in, to, it, we, do, have, a, much, more, varied, diet, most, cows, are, now, on, complete, rations, here, in, the, uk, so, that, if, the, nutritionist, gets, it, slightly, wrong, then, you, will, find, that, the, cows, will, be, short, i, suppose, the, other, thing, that, we, do, always, forget, is, that, they, are, usually, working, off, either, a, single, or, 3, 4, samples, of, silage, so, that, there, will, be, a, spread, of, what, is, actually, in, the, silage, and, the, samples, may, or, may, not, reflect, it, thursday, on, call, tonight, and, busy, which, was, ok, r, was, up, helping, at, wh, house, one, of, his, suckler, calves, had, managed, to, prolapse, its, rectum, but, it, is, as, wild, as, thunder, so, we, were, all, very, careful, about, handling, it, i, had, to, dope, it, any, way, to, operate, but, when, we, put, it, back, it, was, jumping, up, the, walls, which, is, always, a, wee, bit, disconcerting, limousin, stirks, could, be, used, for, the, grand, national, d’s, brother, is, not, very, well, at, all, now, he, has, cancer, and, went, in, for, emergency, surgery, the, day, i, shot, all, the, cows, i, had, a, big, row, with, senior, staff, at, page, st, he, had, been, admitted, to, the, hospital, at, 2am, and, was, to, undergo, emergency, surgery, that, afternoon, i, did, not, want, it, put, on, the, web, site, as, they, were, announcing, them, on, radio, cumbria, i, did, not, want, him, to, be, going, down, for, the, surgery, or, just, coming, out, of, it, and, to, find, out, from, the, radio, that, i, was, shooting, all, his, cows, i, asked, them, to, put, an, embargo, on, it, of, course, the, vets, tried, not, to, let, it, go, out, but, it, did, and, i, was, really, angry, i, wrote, some, strongly, worded, letters, and, never, even, got, a, reply, i, should, have, followed, it, up, and, held, some, one, to, account, but, i, am, afraid, it, all, got, lost, in, the, passing, of, time, at, least, r, is, a, lot, better, he, had, meningitis, around, the, time, of, fmd, he, has, had, bad, heads, and, depression, ever, since, so, it, was, good, that, he, is, back, on, farms, and, has, started, fencing, again, fri, 14th, valentines, it, is, friend, s, birthday, so, we, all, went, around, to, her, house, for, dinner, which, was, really, nice, and, ended, playing, darts, with, the, kids, i, was, pleased, to, get, some, darts, in, the, board, as, it, is, a, long, long, time, since, i, have, played, saturday, 15th, february, 2003, son’s, birthday, my, little, baby, son, is, now, 8, years, old, it, is, hard, to, believe, where, the, time, has, gone, and, all, the, water, that, has, passed, under, the, bridge, went, around, to, friend’s, at, night, and, sat, and, eat, and, put, the, world, to, rights, it, is, good, every, now, and, again, to, wind, down, and, just, enjoy, talking, with, out, having, to, think, as, we, know, them, so, well, you, can, just, come, out, with, stuff, sunday, mon, 17th, spent, the, day, tb, testing, at, dl, where, they, have, had, a, nvl, no, visible, lesions, reactor, taken, colleague, did, the, first, test, and, we, are, not, doing, the, fat, stock, on, farms, that, have, restocked, as, they, will, be, going, for, slaughter, fairly, soon, so, it, is, deemed, pointless, and, really, it, is, so, spent, the, day, putting, big, bullocks, through, the, crush, and, it, is, a, dangerous, work, for, the, men, who, go, in, amongst, them, because, they, are, very, rarely, handled, and, so, don’t, take, to, it, very, well, tuesday, had, an, interesting, lambing, today, and, a, consequence, of, fmd, that, you, forget, about, there, is, an, inherited, genetic, condition, of, suffolk’s, called, dandy, walker, syndrome, causing, hydrocephalus, in, the, lambs, so, both, the, ewe, and, tup, must, carry, the, gene, to, produce, the, deformed, lambs, with, heads, too, large, to, get, through, the, mothers, pelvis, so, it, means, doing, a, caesarean, on, a, ewe, that, can, only, be, used, to, breed, fat, lambs, from, it, has, to, be, put, to, another, breed, next, year, this, years, lambs, are, dead, going, to, die, so, the, economics, are, useless, some, breeders, just, shoot, them, at, this, point, but, he, had, called, us, to, try, to, lamb, it, or, caesaer, it, as, she, was, a, big, ewe, i, eventually, managed, to, lamb, it, he, was, saying, though, that, it, takes, time, to, work, out, whether, the, stock, you, have, bought, will, produce, the, breeding, stock, that, you, want, you, have, to, try, the, different, combinations, that, you, have, to, work, out, which, lines, work, well, together, he, reckons, on, about, 4, 8, years, before, he, will, be, back, to, breeding, decent, suffolk, sheep, in, spite, of, buying, in, good, stock, there, is, more, to, breeding, than, meets, the, eye, wednesday, rb, had, a, stirk, with, mcf, malignant, catarhal, fever, it, is, a, viral, disease, which, is, quite, often, fatal, that, they, catch, from, sheep, but, they, have, really, blue, grey, eyes, from, the, change, in, the, fluid, in, the, eye, and, the, severe, iritis, it, must, be, incredibly, painful, for, them, thursday, dixons, tt2, is, now, clear, so, they, have, to, have, them, all, tested, again, in, 42, days, to, clear, the, farm, of, restrictions, un, fortunately, the, vet, from, the, ministry, said, it, would, be, from, the, day, the, cow, is, taken, not, today, so, the, whole, thing, is, getting, a, bit, complicated, and, jd, is, getting, wound, up, understandably, so, friday, tried, to, sort, out, some, of, the, tracings, that, we, are, supposed, to, be, doing, there, are, a, lot, coming, through, but, the, quality, of, the, info, is, very, poor, tracings, are, where, the, farm, has, sold, animals, and, then, subsequently, gone, down, with, tb, or, other, notifiable, disease, the, defra, paper, chase, is, so, bad, that, ear, tag, nos, are, wrong, or, a, farmer, has, bought, several, from, the, same, source, and, only, 1, 2, are, on, the, paper, work, from, defra, the, thing, seems, to, be, falling, apart, a, bit, went, and, did, a, single, animal, up, at, the, mill, he, usually, buys, in, stores, and, fattens, them, but, as, the, store, trade, has, gone, through, the, roof, he, has, sold, a, lot, of, them, on, to, let, some, one, else, fatten, or, if, heifers, breed, from, them, the, defra, files, have, him, as, a, fattening, unit, finisher, so, that, they, hadn’t, bothered, to, do, tracings, to, him, as, they, would, be, going, for, slaughter, but, of, course, he, had, sold, one, on, that, had, gone, down, with, tb, so, they, wanted, to, know, what, was, happening, with, these, now, saturday, 22nd, february, 2003, saturday, sunday, monday, tuesday, had, a, funny, sensation, to, day, i, suppose, it, was, almost, a, flash, back, in, some, ways, i, went, to, a, farm, who, has, fancy, pedigree, sheep, he, has, rented, land, and, wanted, them, added, to, his, holding, for, the, mv, scheme, so, he, needs, a, vet, inspection, to, say, that, the, fields, are, double, fenced, so, that, the, sheep, do, not, come, in, contact, to, any, others, this, inspection, of, fields, is, pretty, meaningless, as, they, know, what, needs, to, be, done, and, so, they, are, always, up, to, scratch, the, last, time, i, was, doing, it, was, for, fmd, wednesday, thursday, friday, packed, and, got, the, last, few, things, sorted, for, the, vcf, w, e, got, the, posters, printed, and, the, display, boards, together, and, set, off, down, the, motorway, to, pick, up, friend, and, spent, most, of, the, day, travelling, it, was, good, talking, to, him, he, retired, from, practice, just, before, fmd, and, then, spent, the, first, part, of, his, retirement, working, for, defra, on, the, fmd, first, at, preston, and, then, at, settle, it, seems, they, were, better, organised, at, preston, and, he, was, quite, positive, about, the, local, teams, i, sometimes, wonder, if, i, am, sill, too, close, to, it, all, and, to, emotional, to, take, a, clear, headed, look, at, what, it, was, really, like, it, was, good, to, see, friends, at, night, and, get, set, up, for, the, w, e, sat, 1st, march, sun, 2003, vcf, w, e, it, is, difficult, for, me, to, sum, up, the, w, e, as, i, was, so, much, in, it, and, part, of, it, so, i, have, copied, the, report, from, one, of, the, students, who, wrote, a, bit, for, the, vcf, magazine, vcf, triennial, conference, 28th, feb, 2nd, march, 2003, on, a, sunny, weekend, at, the, beginning, of, march, over, 70, vets, vet, students, and, families, bravely, took, time, out, of, their, busy, schedules, and, gathered, expectantly, at, the, hayes, conference, centre, in, derbyshire, for, the, 2003, vcf, conference, we, were, a, mixed, bunch, ranging, in, age, from, 2, months, to, 70, well, nearly, from, many, different, places, denominations, and, walks, of, veterinary, life, but, we, all, had, a, common, goal, in, mind, to, unite, in, our, desire, to, love, and, serve, the, lord, jesus, christ, in, the, vocation, to, which, he, has, called, us, and, to, encourage, one, another, to, be, salt, and, light, in, the, veterinary, world, our, distinguished, speaker, for, the, weekend, was, dr, l, a, consultant, psychiatrist, and, christian, who, drew, from, his, own, experience, to, bring, us, some, thoughtful, insights, on, the, subject, of, god, at, work, he, emphasised, the, fact, that, although, work, is, a, godly, activity, and, that, we, should, view, whatever, we, do, as, if, working, for, the, lord, colossians, 3, 18, it, must, not, be, forgotten, that, a, balance, must, be, achieved, between, work, church, family, life, etc, there, was, also, an, opportunity, to, discuss, how, we, would, respond, as, christians, to, a, variety, of, ethical, decisions, that, commonly, present, themselves, in, veterinary, practice, as, well, as, the, main, talks, there, was, the, opportunity, to, join, a, variety, of, seminars, on, relevant, practical, subjects, bt, a, vet, and, long, serving, missionary, in, thailand, with, omf, led, a, most, interesting, seminar, on, the, joys, and, challenges, of, both, veterinary, and, evangelistic, work, in, a, different, culture, students, and, new, graduates, were, well, provided, for, in, seminars, on, practicing, reality, living, out, one's, faith, in, the, university, or, veterinary, practice, environment, m, c, bravely, stepped, in, at, short, notice, to, lead, a, seminar, on, business, ethics, and, vcf, secretary, generated, some, thought, provoking, discussion, on, a, very, relevant, subject, for, many, singleness, it, was, not, all, work, and, no, play, however, and, we, were, much, obliged, to, the, scottish, students, for, organising, the, saturday, night, ceilidh, much, fun, was, had, by, all, so, we, all, parted, company, on, sunday, feeling, refreshed, and, well, fed, both, physically, and, spiritually, how, encouraging, to, be, reminded, that, you, are, not, the, only, christian, vet, out, there, and, that, there, are, many, others, who, grapple, with, the, same, issues, you, face, the, weekend, was, a, time, of, friendships, rekindled, and, hopefully, new, ones, made, a, time, of, strengthening, and, a, reminder, of, what, is, ultimately, the, most, important, thing, in, our, busy, lives, leading, the, seminar, on, business, ethics, or, rather, winging, it, was, very, stressful, but, very, good, which, was, very, interesting, and, very, challenging, the, questions, about, is, it, right, to, make, a, profit, were, espy, good, to, work, through, but, it, was, incredibly, draining, by, sun, night, i, was, exhausted, drove, back, to, friend’s, for, the, night, he, live, about, 20, mins, off, motorway, and, it, was, coming, through, one, of, the, wee, villages, i, was, flashed, by, a, camera, and, so, will, have, a, fine, and, a, speeding, ticket, to, sort, out, mon, had, a, really, nice, lie, in, and, then, went, for, a, walk, with, friend, around, from, his, house, across, the, fields, it, was, beautiful, then, set, off, for, preston, to, visit, the, friend, who, is, in, prison, the, road, was, closed, on, the, way, to, the, m6, so, took, me, ages, to, find, my, way, to, the, m6, and, then, after, coming, off, at, preston, to, find, the, way, to, the, prisons, the, whole, afternoon, was, very, depressing, there, is, something, very, intimidating, about, having, to, be, processed, for, the, visit, under, security, cameras, and, by, very, polite, but, uncaring, prison, officers, the, being, searched, and, going, past, sniffer, dogs, and, having, to, give, my, finger, prints, which, are, now, on, the, police, computers, prisoner, was, ok, but, fairly, depressed, about, the, outlook, even, now, he, is, worried, about, how, he, is, going, to, cope, when, he, comes, out, the, prison, regime, is, very, oppressive, and, after, being, there, for, an, hour, and, a, half, i, was, glad, to, be, going, it, is, also, a, bizarre, situation, where, you, have, to, sit, there, and, talk, for, that, length, of, time, there, is, also, a, lot, of, stuff, that, he, wants, to, know, about, the, kids, and, you, just, can’t, help, him, most, of, what, we, know, is, hearsay, and, not, first, and, so, difficult, to, sum, up, espy, as, some, of, it, is, not, good, they, are, not, coping, with, the, whole, situation, and, it, is, basically, his, fault, or, his, and, their, mothers, so, he, is, already, feeling, guilty, enough, with, out, giving, him, more, angst, to, cope, with, but, i, was, very, glad, to, be, coming, out, again, into, the, fresh, air, spent, the, evening, at, a’s, parents, evening, challenging, senior, management, and, giving, them, a, hard, time, so, quite, a, day, tuesday, as, usual, the, disasters, after, a, w, e, away, continue, the, new, bathroom, was, totally, flooded, from, a, leaking, pipe, i, felt, like, wringing, his, neck, he, is, the, plumber, the, water, was, flowing, back, through, the, old, kitchen, and, made, a, real, mess, managed, to, get, hold, of, him, after, leaving, more, and, more, urgent, phone, messages, at, all, his, answer, phones, he, has, a, mobile, a, telephone, at, his, flat, where, he, hardly, ever, is, and, at, his, girlfriends, so, the, water, was, off, most, of, the, day, until, he, found, the, leak, and, managed, to, fix, it, again, he, had, to, smash, tiles, and, cut, holes, in, the, wall, to, fix, it, and, the, place, looked, a, mess, but, boy, o, boy, am, i, fed, up, with, that, stupid, bathroom, went, into, work, to, find, no, one, had, done, the, stuff, i, had, left, to, be, done, and, work, was, really, busy, the, speeding, ticket, had, landed, already, why, are, other, govt, depts, not, as, efficient, so, spent, the, whole, day, until, 6pm, running, around, like, a, headless, chicken, and, then, decided, that, stuff, it, i, was, going, to, the, gym, for, the, circuits, class, weds, the, disasters, continued, with, the, washing, machine, giving, up, the, ghost, which, in, a, house, with, 3, boys, and, a, vet, is, a, pretty, serious, problem, i, also, had, an, argument, with, one, of, the, other, partners, saying, that, if, we, did, not, get, another, vet, we, would, have, a, rebellion, or, people, going, off, sick, through, stress, me, being, one, of, them, and, i, have, only, been, back, 2, days, still, haven’t, managed, to, read, all, of, the, stuff, in, my, in, tray, yet, let, alone, deal, with, it, thursday, finally, convinced, senior, colleague, we, needed, some, help, as, the, ministry, got, hold, of, him, and, asked, if, we, could, do, a, tracings, herd, test, urgently, on, one, of, farms, that, has, not, restocked, the, cattle, belong, to, some, one, else, he, then, looked, at, the, book, and, decided, we, could, not, idiot, i, told, him, weeks, ago, last, september, i, think, that, this, would, happen, so, spent, the, day, sorting, out, dc, to, come, in, between, vetting, he, is, not, an, lvi, so, have, had, to, pull, some, wool, and, sweet, talk, them, into, training, him, in, the, baffling, ways, of, defra, but, that, meant, i, still, have, yet, to, reach, the, bottom, of, my, in, tray, may, be, there, is, gold, buried, at, the, bottom, i, think, this, is, one, of, those, days, when, you, look, back, were, probably, quite, decisive, but, accidental, days, this, was, the, first, time, i, really, thought, that, i, was, about, to, be, killed, i, could, see, it, happening, and, there, was, nothing, i, could, have, done, differently, to, prevent, it, i, went, on, a, calving, after, work, about, 8pm, met, up, with, the, farmers, and, one, went, to, get, water, while, the, other, and, i, walked, into, the, box, to, where, the, cow, was, the, cow, gave, me, a, funny, look, and, i, backed, off, to, behind, a, pillar, in, the, pen, oh, its, ok, it’s, a, quiet, cow, she’s, had, 8, calves, he, said, next, time, i, will, listen, to, my, instincts, so, we, went, forward, to, where, she, was, without, warning, or, snorting, or, given, it, a, second, thought, she, charged, caught, me, under, the, ribs, with, her, head, and, threw, me, to, the, ground, before, i, could, react, she, butted, me, again, in, the, head, snorted, kicked, me, and, then, backed, off, as, the, farmer, started, kicking, and, hitting, her, she, then, came, again, bashed, me, into, the, corner, on, my, back, and, kept, coming, as, her, head, flew, at, me, i, grabbed, her, nose, and, swung, myself, around, on, her, nose, kicked, her, with, both, feet, taking, all, my, weight, on, the, one, hand, while, shouting, for, help, from, the, other, guys, one, came, back, with, a, pitchfork, as, i, was, on, the, ground, i, kicked, her, again, as, they, came, with, the, fork, and, let, go, and, scrambled, away, around, the, box, she, still, came, after, me, but, i, got, to, the, gate, past, the, two, brothers, who, thumped, her, again, and, then, backed, off, and, slammed, the, gate, shut, i, lay, in, a, heap, on, a, bale, for, 10, minutes, breathing, heavily, while, they, asked, did, i, need, an, ambulance, or, doctor, i, finally, came, to, enough, to, splash, water, on, my, face, and, think, that, there, must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, it, took, all, 4, brothers, armed, with, sticks, to, get, her, into, a, crush, where, i, then, managed, to, calve, 1, dead, twin, breach, and, 1, live, twin, just, in, her, defence, the, cow, had, been, calving, for, a, while, was, in, pain, and, had, probably, just, got, herself, really, wound, up, but, she, almost, killed, me, i, then, sat, having, strong, tea, for, quarter, of, an, hour, before, summoning, up, the, courage, to, drive, home, with, hind, sight, i, should, have, taken, up, there, offer, of, a, getting, some, one, else, out, to, calve, the, cow, but, the, girl, on, 2nd, was, 5ft, nothing, and, petite, and, didn’t, think, dumping, it, on, her, was, very, fair, the, adrenaline, was, still, flowing, so, i, just, kept, on, b, i, should, however, have, let, one, of, them, drive, me, home, or, probably, to, casualty, but, i, felt, they, would, not, do, anything, at, the, hospital, except, keep, an, eye, on, me, so, i, just, went, home, to, my, own, bed, and, asked, my, wife, to, wake, me, up, every, two, hours, friday, ill, with, head, spinning, every, time, i, sit, down, to, try, and, do, something, my, head, just, goes, around, and, i, feel, really, tired, and, jet, lagged, i, think, i, prefer, india, to, being, beaten, up, by, cows, time, for, a, new, job, slept, all, afternoon, but, had, friends, for, dinner, it, had, been, arrange, months, ago, so, wife, didn’t, cancel, and, i, kept, going, but, drifted, in, and, out, a, wee, bit, saturday, 8th, march, had, a, lie, in, to, 9, o, clock, yo, still, feeling, pretty, sore, but, at, least, my, head, is, one, piece, i, think, showed, flat, to, prospective, tenants, it, is, very, rare, that, we, don’t, have, to, get, up, for, sthg, when, we, are, at, home, either, for, work, or, for, football, squash, or, something, similar, there, is, another, squash, competition, but, they, are, both, later, starts, for, our, boys, which, is, great, took, son, to, football, and, wife, phoned, up, to, say, that, the, cs, were, going, to, watch, the, lord, of, the, rings, did, i, want, to, go, so, went, to, watch, it, and, swapped, younger, kids, with, wife, taking, son, and, their, youngsters, and, i, went, with, the, cs, there, are, times, when, mobile, phones, are, really, useful, to, get, things, arranged, the, film, was, really, good, but, boy, was, i, stiff, after, sitting, down, for, that, length, of, time, my, knee, was, giving, me, real, gyp, spent, evening, at, daubes, but, i, faded, so, wife, drove, home, and, went, to, bed, sunday, 9th, went, to, church, in, morning, and, picked, up, car, friends, came, to, lunch, which, was, really, good, to, see, them, but, as, a, points, out, pointedly, they, do, have, 5, boys, so, there, were, 8, kids, flying, around, but, i, did, enjoy, seeing, them, they, are, still, trying, to, sort, out, their, diversification, plans, and, hope, to, have, several, strings, to, their, bows, as, well, as, farming, there, is, a, teachers, position, at, nelson, thom, so, that, is, probably, the, most, reliable, form, of, income, for, friend, mon, 10th, went, to, work, but, every, time, i, bend, over, or, move, to, fast, my, head, spins, so, just, did, small, animals, i, think, cats, and, dogs, are, a, much, better, idea, but, a, lot, of, sympathy, from, folk, at, work, mr, h, had, been, in, and, obviously, given, a, fairly, graphic, description, of, what, had, happened, that, and, my, face, is, not, the, most, becoming, at, the, moment, tues, 11th, back, to, work, on, the, farms, i, was, at, rs, for, a, fertility, visit, even, though, i, know, his, cows, and, i, am, happy, with, them, i, did, feel, very, nervous, about, going, any, where, near, them, i, have, lost, a, lot, of, confidence, which, although, i, expected, it, i, am, still, a, bit, wound, up, about, it, the, rest, of, day, was, ok, apart, from, several, people, whingeing, about, the, current, paper, work, requirements, for, selling, cattle, mind, you, when, you, see, what, they, need, to, sell, a, few, bullocks, or, a, geld, cow, it, is, probably, easier, to, be, an, asylum, seeker, spent, evening, at, surgery, showing, d, the, ropes, he, is, the, locum, who, is, going, to, be, working, with, us, for, the, next, few, weeks, he, is, going, to, the, ministry, at, newcastle, tomorrow, to, do, his, lvi, training, at, least, that, means, he, can, do, some, of, the, tb, testing, and, at, least, give, us, a, break, from, that, it, is, these, sort, of, things, managing, staff, showing, people, the, ropes, giving, them, back, up, and, debriefing, them, that, latkes, huge, amounts, of, time, and, energy, and, yet, is, never, seen, as, work, or, relevant, by, a, lot, of, people, the, rest, of, the, partnership, and, yet, in, any, small, business, it, is, the, people, that, make, all, the, difference, and, if, they, feel, appreciated, and, supported, and, can, debrief, and, be, reassured, then, it, makes, such, a, difference, to, them, and, happy, staff, can, deal, with, situations, and, people, a, lot, better, and, easier, than, stressed, ones, weds, 12th, next, year, i, am, not, going, it, is, definitely, some, one, else’s, turn, i, speak, of, the, annual, training, day, for, senior, lvis, it, just, drives, me, up, the, wall, the, morning, was, spent, fairly, usefully, talking, about, contingency, planning, for, the, next, fmd, or, exotic, disease, epidemic, the, page, st, planners, seemed, fairly, well, clued, in, and, taking, on, board, a, lot, of, the, ideas, and, problems, that, had, been, seen, in, 2001, the, afternoon, was, then, totally, depressing, tb, is, now, endemic, in, the, south, of, the, county, there, was, a, deer, herd, that, had, animals, dying, and, so, took, them, to, the, vic, lab, at, penrith, to, find, out, why, they, had, these, animals, losing, weight, and, dying, they, had, tb, the, ministry, had, known, that, there, had, been, reactors, all, around, that, area, but, had, never, picked, up, on, the, fact, these, deer, were, here, and, should, have, been, tested, there, were, also, complaints, that, forward, tracings, were, not, being, done, on, some, cattle, to, which, the, vety, officer, giving, the, talk, said, it, was, quite, difficult, to, work, out, where, cattle, had, gone, this, was, met, with, some, incredulity, by, the, local, vets, as, the, paperwork, and, computerised, passport, scheme, surely, means, that, trace, ability, was, one, of, the, big, issues, to, do, with, bse, and, if, it, cannot, be, done, it, means, the, whole, thing, is, a, useless, sham, well, the, answer, is, that, you, can, trace, a, specific, animal, through, markets, and, holdings, but, not, animals, on, and, off, a, holding, so, tracings, are, taking, too, much, time, so, it, is, not, getting, done, so, tb, is, spreading, idiots, the, best, systems, the, best, tools, the, best, ideas, the, best, businesses, have, to, work, through, people, so, next, year, some, one, else, can, go, and, listen, to, the, plans, in, the, sky, this, was, the, meeting, where, we, had, an, excellent, talk, on, fmd, in, feb, 2000, just, a, pity, they, did, not, listen, to, their, own, experts, there, was, also, a, talk, on, the, new, scrapie, scheme, where, the, guy, speaking, knew, less, than, his, audience, why, i, have, to, go, back, to, the, speaker, at, the, vcf, w, e, who, said, that, when, he, came, out, of, medical, school, he, had, spent, 6, years, being, taught, to, be, rational, and, scientific, where, disease, was, discussed, logically, and, a, rational, conclusion, was, sought, he, came, with, the, same, idea, to, the, national, health, service, and, struggled, he, said, we, live, in, a, fallen, world, with, fallen, institutions, and, we, have, to, accept, that, at, times, they, do, not, make, sense, and, that, it, is, not, in, our, power, or, capabilities, to, change, them, where, we, can, we, change, them, where, we, cannot, we, work, within, them, thursday, 13th, day, off, prior, to, working, w, e, went, up, high, pike, with, friend, snowed, lightly, on, tops, but, beautiful, but, a, wee, bit, chilly, spent, the, afternoon, getting, the, stuff, sorted, for, vcf, magazine, and, answering, e, mails, and, putting, the, details, from, the, w, e, in, to, some, sort, of, order, i, was, trying, also, to, put, some, responses, down, for, yesterday, but, feeling, to, angry, to, risk, putting, it, down, on, paper, i, just, hope, the, govt, is, more, in, touch, with, the, armed, forces, on, the, frontline, in, kuwait, than, the, distant, arm, of, govt, in, state, vet, service, in, cumbria, friday, 14th, another, day, another, test, another, dollar, spent, morning, supervising, the, locum, and, trying, to, get, on, top, of, my, in, tray, the, stuff, for, partners, meeting, next, week, to, try, and, get, some, decisions, and, a, w, e, on, call, looms, when, i, feel, even, though, i, have, not, been, in, work, or, worked, too, many, w, e’s, tired, and, jaded, being, beaten, up, by, the, cow, probably, doesn’t, help, saturday, 15th, march, working, the, w, e, on, first, for, the, first, time, in, a, long, time, as, i, have, been, keeping, the, amount, i, am, working, back, i, am, was, way, ahead, in, the, amount, worked, so, it, brings, the, numbers, in, line, i, also, need, a, break, as, feeling, v, tired, and, fed, up, and, with, not, much, prospect, of, rejuvenation, the, morning, was, fairly, busy, but, we, all, finished, by, 12, so, not, that, bad, it, was, funny, as, julie, who, ahs, been, a, receptionist, since, pre, fmd, said, that, she, thought, it, was, really, busy, but, compared, to, the, good, old, days, of, 8, years, ago, you, thought, it, was, a, good, sat, am, if, you, finished, by, 2, so, it, is, surprising, how, things, change, and, you, get, use, to, them, the, weather, is, beautiful, with, clear, skies, and, frosty, spring, mornings, and, dry, the, good, weather, always, makes, you, feel, better, any, way, spent, afternoon, doing, bits, and, pieces, in, garden, and, jobbing, around, sunday, 16th, busy, in, morning, but, it, shows, how, useful, the, new, building, is, ok, i, know, its, 4, years, old, but, things, have, never, been, normal, and, i, still, see, it, as, new, there, were, 2, lambings, and, a, sheep, to, see, and, drugs, to, put, out, and, because, i, was, at, the, surgery, they, just, kept, on, coming, down, to, the, surgery, to, the, large, animal, bay, so, i, did, a, lot, of, work, with, no, driving, and, it, makes, such, a, difference, what, would, have, taken, 3, 4, hours, was, finished, in, an, hour, and, a, half, missed, church, and, did, the, same, at, night, with, more, lambings, the, sheep, are, back, the, afternoon, was, spent, sorting, out, after, boys, they, went, down, to, the, pond, and, because, it, is, all, churned, up, they, got, their, wellies, stuck, in, the, mud, so, they, were, cold, and, wet, and, covered, i, had, to, use, planks, to, walk, out, to, them, so, i, did, not, sink, in, i, made, the, mistake, of, fetching, the, planks, and, the, spades, back, before, sorting, the, boys, so, they, had, trailed, mud, all, around, the, house, grrrrr, but, i, should, have, taken, photos, in, the, midst, of, this, the, new, vet, student, rachael, turned, up, so, i, could, not, give, full, vent, to, my, annoyance, mon, 17th, chaos, at, work, with, loads, of, emergencies, and, testing, so, we, were, all, glad, of, students, and, d, working, more, i, r’s, found, tb, testing, so, it, looks, like, it, will, continue, still, haven’t, found, time, to, put, pen, to, paper, or, type, writer, to, send, a, letter, to, contingency, planning, group, at, defra, but, hopefully, will, get, on, top, of, it, soon, tues, 18th, some, days, i, should, have, stayed, in, bed, a, bad, hair, day, started, off, badly, with, arriving, at, fertility, visit, as, farmer, was, emerging, from, breakfast, having, been, late, as, his, wife, was, milk, recording, and, he, had, to, calve, a, cow, so, had, to, sort, cows, before, checking, to, see, in, calf, a, very, rotten, lambing, rotten, as, in, lambs, were, disintegrating, so, stank, and, then, more, calls, left, for, lunch, at, 12, 45, to, get, half, way, and, the, called, me, back, for, another, lambing, there, were, 1, 30, calls, to, do, and, then, surgery, worked, at, night, and, i, was, fed, up, of, being, on, call, stopping, me, doing, stuff, so, went, to, gym, and, was, bleeped, out, to, speak, to, folk, 4, times, by, now, really, wound, up, so, went, to, house, group, and, sat, down, chatted, and, phone, went, sorted, that, and, then, a, cow, caesarean, this, was, followed, by, 2, more, and, 3, hours, sleep, must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, weds, 19th, feeling, my, age, no, sleep, on, the, night, before, you, 40th, birthday, does, not, do, you, any, good, missed, seeing, kids, in, morning, as, i, was, out, at, caesar, 3, during, night, on, call, the, girls, at, work, had, got, hold, of, loads, of, photos, from, my, wife, so, they, were, all, around, the, practice, well, i, was, a, cute, teenager, worked, through, to, lunch, as, morning, was, busy, and, partners, meeting, then, did, a, 1, 30, and, went, home, for, sleep, opened, presents, with, kids, at, 4, o’clock, and, went, out, to, d’s, for, meal, at, night, was, good, thurs, 20th, really, quiet, as, no, tb, testing, and, lots, of, vets, did, more, lambings, and, caught, up, on, business, side, of, organisation, doing, rota, and, organising, work, reflected, on, partners, meeting, and, tried, to, work, out, whether, i, am, out, of, sync, with, the, rest, of, the, world, and, right, or, out, of, sync, and, wrong, time, will, tell, iraq, war, started, as, predicted, but, seems, to, have, been, an, opportunistic, target, i, e, saddam, himself, rather, than, all, out, assault, weird, but, that, is, politics, i, must, ask, the, history, teachers, about, what, caused, the, failure, of, the, league, of, nations, and, whether, this, is, going, to, be, similar, for, un, fri, 21st, despite, being, on, back, up, went, out, for, a, meal, it, was, the, coffee, morning’s, xmas, bash, that, is, traditionally, now, held, in, new, year, as, there, is, too, much, else, on, during, xmas, period, spent, quite, a, while, talking, to, ms, about, league, of, nations, and, the, un, he, is, fairly, sceptical, about, the, power, and, influence, of, un, which, in, his, view, is, more, often, than, not, used, as, a, fig, leaf, for, us, or, ussr, ambitions, and, is, not, really, the, international, community, he, was, interesting, to, talk, to, about, the, history, of, iraq, played, pictionary, boys, vs, girls, which, was, fun, saturday, 22nd, march, 2003, worked, am, which, was, very, busy, as, it, was, my, 10th, day, i, was, feeling, a, bit, drained, either, that, or, cos, of, out, for, meal, last, night, i, will, let, you, decide, the, beautiful, weather, is, continuing, and, we, went, for, a, lovely, walk, up, above, fellside, the, kids, loved, playing, in, the, streams, and, the, sunshine, which, for, march, is, amazing, came, back, to, find, that, there, was, a, house, full, of, folk, to, celebrate, my, 40th, birthday, which, was, really, nice, though, it, was, a, good, thing, that, the, weather, was, good, so, the, kids, could, play, out, side, as, there, were, lots, of, them, chatted, to, p, who, is, always, full, of, energy, and, enthusiasm, he, is, a, whirlwind, of, ideas, and, concepts, and, philosophy, one, of, the, few, people, who, i, can, sit, and, listen, to, for, hours, and, hours, he, is, intelligent, and, articulate, in, 7, languages, and, yet, always, ready, to, listen, to, anyone, and, hear, what, they, have, to, say, even, if, it, is, poorly, thought, out, and, very, practical, in, his, approach, and, very, un, materialistic, he, is, quite, happy, to, give, books, and, ideas, to, anyone, who, will, read, and, learn, from, them, sunday, 23rd, this, weather, is, amazing, i, still, cannot, get, over, it, with, the, sun, blazing, down, we, went, to, watch, son, play, football, against, silloth, they, won, 2, 0, but, it, was, a, tight, match, but, very, good, to, watch, much, better, than, carlisle, as, one, spectators, put, it, went, on, to, beckfoot, for, a, picnic, in, march, the, beach, was, deserted, and, yet, it, was, warm, enough, for, t, shirts, and, shorts, for, the, boys, i, lay, in, the, sun, and, slept, and, counted, my, many, blessings, came, home, and, planted, seeds, lettuce, courgette, and, sweet, pea, must, plant, leeks, and, pumpkins, if, i, get, a, a, chance, this, week, and, buy, onion, sets, wife, spent, a, while, after, church, talking, to, b, about, low, moor, difficult, mon, 24th, sent, my, letter, to, richard, drummond, who, was, the, rvo, at, harrogate, and, is, now, head, of, service, delivery, it, is, always, a, bit, of, a, conscious, effort, to, take, up, the, cudgels, against, bureaucracy, especially, one, like, the, svs, that, has, in, its, culture, a, tendency, to, attack, those, who, criticise, it, i, hope, that, tomorrow, will, be, quiet, as, i, wish, to, write, another, letter, to, the, contingency, planning, dept, i, also, want, to, look, at, the, updated, contingency, plans, and, make, comments, on, it, but, doing, all, this, does, not, pay, the, bills, and, at, the, moment, when, work, is, so, busy, i, feel, it, is, actually, more, important, to, spend, time, with, the, kids, so, i, will, sign, off, and, go, and, watch, the, great, escape, which, they, bought, me, for, my, birthday, copy, of, letter, to, richard, drummond, who, wrote, the, drummond, report, before, fmd, saying, that, if, there, was, an, outbreak, they, would, not, be, able, to, cope, 21st, march, 2003, mr, r, d, drummond, address, removed, dear, richard, i, am, writing, to, express, my, concern, with, the, current, situation, with, tb, we, last, met, at, the, lvi, meeting, in, cumbria, where, we, had, an, excellent, talk, on, foot, and, mouth, disease, and, about, how, there, was, an, increased, risk, becoming, apparent, this, was, in, feb, 2000, at, the, meeting, this, year, as, well, as, talks, on, contingency, planning, there, was, a, lot, of, discussion, on, the, emergence, of, tb, on, cumbrian, farms, there, were, also, complaints, that, forward, tracings, were, not, being, done, on, some, cattle, to, which, the, vet, officer, giving, the, talk, said, it, was, quite, difficult, and, time, consuming, to, work, out, where, cattle, had, gone, this, was, met, with, some, incredulity, by, the, local, vets, as, the, paperwork, and, computerised, passport, scheme, involved, in, moving, cattle, is, a, huge, burden, on, farmers, trace, ability, was, one, of, the, big, issues, to, do, with, bse, and, if, it, cannot, be, done, it, means, the, whole, paper, exercise, is, a, useless, sham, the, answer, was, given, that, you, can, trace, a, specific, animal, through, markets, and, holdings, but, not, animals, on, and, off, a, holding, so, tracings, are, taking, too, much, time, so, tracings, are, not, getting, done, in, some, divisions, so, tb, is, spreading, whether, this, comes, under, your, remit, as, head, of, service, delivery, i, do, not, know, but, i, would, be, grateful, if, you, could, forward, it, to, the, relevant, department, or, to, the, minister, so, that, a, single, enquiry, to, the, cattle, movements, service, at, workington, will, ensure, a, comprehensive, list, of, movements, on, and, off, a, holding, since, the, previous, test, if, we, cannot, trace, from, herds, with, tuberculosis, reactors, the, ability, to, track, fmd, is, obviously, a, non, starter, thank, you, in, advance, for, your, help, with, this, i, hope, in, 3, years, time, we, will, not, be, contemplating, what, we, should, have, learnt, from, an, lvi, meeting, in, hadrian, house, yours, sincerely, b.v.m, s, m.r.c.v.s, tues, 25th, wife, s, cousin, from, vancouver, arrived, and, it, was, really, nice, to, see, her, again, the, canadians, are, always, so, up, beat, and, down, to, earth, they, have, a, refreshingly, positive, can, do, mentality, she, and, her, daughter, have, been, with, a, school, choir, singing, in, parts, of, europe, and, doing, the, european, tour, they, are, whistle, stopping, the, lakes, tomorrow, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, them, young, vet, who, lost, brother, was, with, them, my, favourite, mother, in, law, she, brought, me, a, set, of, kitchen, knives, for, my, birthday, present, they, are, incredibly, sharp, so, i, don’t, think, that, letting, the, kids, loose, with, them, will, be, a, good, idea, but, at, least, we, can, pitch, some, of, the, old, ones, which, needed, sharpening, every, time, you, used, them, vet, arrived, back, from, skiing, very, sun, burnt, from, the, sunshine, and, wind, she, has, had, a, really, good, time, though, weds, 26th, a, and, left, as, i, arrived, in, to, go, to, yp’s, it, was, funny, to, see, them, very, much, the, young, ladies, going, out, they, live, at, opposite, ends, of, the, world, and, yet, the, fashion, is, the, same, little, hand, bags, and, scarves, as, belts, globalisation, is, not, just, effecting, agriculture, they, had, spent, time, in, keswick, and, around, the, lakes, today, making, use, of, the, gorgeous, summer, weather, in, march, it, really, is, warm, hope, we, are, in, for, a, scorcher, of, a, summer, holidays, thursday, 27th, spent, the, quietist, night, on, call, for, a, long, long, time, nothing, why, is, it, as, soon, as, you, employ, a, locum, as, an, extra, pair, of, hands, the, work, disappears, still, it, will, given, everyone, a, chance, to, have, a, breather, said, good, bye, to, the, canadians, and, mother, in, law, we, are, heading, over, to, ireland, to, see, the, irish, side, of, the, family, at, easter, so, we, will, see, vet, friend, again, soon, but, it, was, funny, saying, goodbye, all, the, same, don’t, know, why, was, doing, a, herd, health, plan, today, for, a, farm, that, has, 50, dairy, cows, he, said, he, did, not, really, know, why, he, is, doing, it, as, he, is, going, to, give, up, and, go, and, milk, for, some, one, else, as, it, is, not, viable, to, make, it, pay, on, that, sort, of, small, scale, friday, 28th, haven’t, got, the, workload, right, at, all, i, think, the, sunshine, has, sent, the, farmers, into, the, fields, to, work, and, the, lambs, and, calves, are, all, arriving, un, aided, in, to, the, sunshine, it, is, amazing, how, the, good, weather, makes, you, feel, so, much, better, so, i, have, booked, in, extra, testing, for, next, week, the, only, slightly, sad, thing, was, talking, to, one, of, the, farmers, who, had, just, started, lambing, i, was, taking, out, rotten, lambs, that, were, aborting, 2, weeks, earlier, it, is, his, first, season, actually, lambing, as, he, only, bought, in, fat, sheep, last, year, he, said, that, it, was, at, this, stage, 2, years, ago, that, they, came, and, took, all, his, sheep, he, should, not, have, let, them, do, it, it, was, wrong, and, he, had, not, put, up, a, fight, he, had, just, gone, along, with, it, he, was, fairly, melancholic, about, it, i, tried, to, point, out, that, every, one, had, done, it, and, it, had, seemed, to, be, best, thing, to, do, at, the, time, i, did, not, think, that, pointing, out, i, had, not, been, convinced, and, argued, against, it, and, that, only, 2, out, of, 10,000, blood, samples, of, live, sheep, slaughtered, had, been, exposed, to, the, virus, would, have, helped, they, were, my, granddads, flock, he, said, now, we, have, all, these, problems, he, says, looking, at, the, dead, lambs, i, have, just, pulled, out, lying, in, a, heap, in, the, corner, of, the, trailer, you, never, forget, something, like, that, lad, he, says, never, there, are, a, lot, of, anniversaries, to, go, through, and, all, the, farmers, are, saying, the, fun, has, gone, out, of, it, saturday, 29th, march, the, beautiful, weather, is, carrying, on, and, wife, and, i, had, a, child, free, vet, student, free, afternoon, the, sun, was, out, and, we, went, down, for, a, walk, along, this, side, of, bassenthwaite, lake, there, were, lots, of, daffodils, out, and, a, light, breeze, off, the, lake, it, was, beautiful, cool, sunny, day, for, walking, and, very, pleasant, we, really, enjoyed, it, son, and, a, are, on, the, young, peoples, church, w, e, at, edinburgh, and, will, arrive, back, exhausted, from, lack, of, sleep, the, js, had, the, boys, for, the, afternoon, so, it, was, good, met, up, with, friends, in, the, evening, and, spent, the, evening, putting, agriculture, to, rights, he, sells, manages, sales, of, fertiliser, for, norsk, hydro, sunday, mothering, sunday, was, a, bit, of, a, disaster, with, out, a, to, organise, the, boys, and, i, hadn’t, had, time, to, get, them, organised, church, was, r, j, on, the, beatitudes, then, met, up, with, cs, and, went, up, bow, scale, fell, son’s, friend, and, son, complained, the, whole, way, they, were, in, really, bad, form, and, i, was, fed, up, with, them, monday, the, work, has, dried, up, completely, which, for, this, time, of, year, is, unheard, of, we, have, employed, a, locum, to, try, and, get, the, testing, done, and, no, work, for, every, one, to, do, embarrassingly, got, it, wrong, usually, at, this, time, of, year, there, is, no, testing, and, the, vets, are, running, around, like, idiots, not, very, good, news, for, us, so, wrote, letters, to, the, head, of, contingency, planning, at, page, st, to, amuse, you, i, have, copied, it, here, name, defra, rm, 803a, 1a, page, st, london, sw1p, 4pq, dear, name, i, am, writing, to, thank, you, for, travelling, north, to, carlisle, to, come, to, speak, to, the, recent, lvi, meeting, at, hadrian, house, carlisle, i, have, also, been, reading, the, defra, contingency, plan, and, a, lot, of, lessons, do, seem, to, have, been, learnt, i, appreciate, this, years, deadline, has, been, passed, to, place, it, before, parliament, but, it, is, a, living, document, my, apologies, but, better, late, than, never, i, would, like, to, make, a, few, comments, as, one, of, the, early, tvi, volunteers, at, carlisle, and, as, a, partner, of, one, of, the, practices, at, the, eye, of, the, storm, 1, the, whole, issue, of, valuation, of, animals, taken, as, a, compulsory, purchase, by, the, state, for, the, benefit, of, the, farming, community, to, eradicate, disease, has, not, been, addressed, one, of, the, initial, problems, slowing, the, slaughter, of, infected, animals, was, the, valuation, my, own, view, then, and, now, is, that, a, simple, standard, valuation, must, be, applied, it, must, be, high, enough, to, be, an, incentive, to, reporting, of, disease, but, too, low, to, make, the, possibility, of, disease, seem, financially, attractive, the, price, for, compulsory, purchase, may, be, set, higher, for, dangerous, contacts, or, less, for, affected, animals, if, there, is, a, simple, standard, value, then, the, diagnosing, vet, counts, the, number, of, bovines, and, shoots, them, the, farmer, knows, in, advance, what, compensation, is, going, to, be, paid, and, individual, animals, of, high, merit, could, be, insured, for, whatever, sum, the, farmer, is, willing, to, pay, premiums, for, this, may, be, an, unpopular, nettle, but, it, needs, to, be, grasped, even, though, i, am, sure, my, clients, would, disapprove, of, it, the, current, tuberculosis, problems, are, again, high, lighting, the, problems, in, this, area, there, should, be, a, standard, procedure, and, valuation, for, all, notifiable, diseases, and, the, values, based, on, the, last, mid, market, rate, there, are, apocryphal, stories, that, the, valuers, are, still, running, the, system, for, their, clients, the, farmers, not, defra, 2, the, second, issue, that, has, not, been, addressed, is, the, tracings, system, with, the, advent, of, the, british, cattle, movement, services, i, was, under, the, impression, that, traceability, was, a, central, part, of, government, policy, it, was, with, some, incredulity, that, in, response, to, questioning, at, the, lvi, meeting, we, were, told, that, bcms, cannot, give, a, list, of, movements, on, or, off, a, holding, so, tracings, for, tb, are, still, being, done, by, a, defra, vet, trawling, through, a, farmers, movement, book, why, if, the, political, will, was, there, at, the, touch, of, a, bottom, the, data, base, should, be, able, to, generate, a, list, of, animals, moved, in, the, past, 6, months, which, markets, they, have, been, through, and, which, holdings, they, have, been, through, if, this, cannot, be, done, for, tb, you, can, forget, trying, to, do, it, for, fmd, or, other, fast, contagious, disease, there, is, still, a, confusion, over, the, database, which, should, be, based, on, holding, numbers, several, farmers, have, multiple, holding, numbers, several, have, a, single, holding, number, and, multiple, sites, high, genetic, merit, animals, may, have, several, owners, a, single, holding, may, have, stock, from, several, different, farms, the, rules, for, cph, numbers, need, to, be, re, evaluated, centrally, if, a, data, base, is, to, be, of, use, it, must, be, actively, managed, and, updated, that, can, only, be, done, at, a, local, level, 3, disposal, i, know, that, this, has, been, looked, at, but, farm, sizes, are, continuing, to, grow, at, an, ever, more, rapid, rate, the, average, size, of, dairy, farms, in, this, area, has, grown, by, 20, cows, since, fmd, this, means, there, will, be, a, bigger, disposal, problem, as, individual, farms, will, have, more, and, more, stock, 4, the, local, office, should, have, stores, to, equip, 20, tvis, at, 24hours, notice, we, touched, on, this, point, at, the, meeting, was, the, need, for, sudden, recruitment, of, tvi, or, other, veterinary, staff, while, the, svs, can, second, small, numbers, of, vets, for, short, term, availability, there, was, a, reluctance, by, some, dvms, to, second, staff, who, may, yet, be, required, in, their, own, areas, local, lvis, can, provide, veterinary, cover, but, the, whole, structure, of, large, animal, practice, is, in, flux, and, it, may, or, may, not, be, possible, to, provide, veterinary, inspections, on, an, allocated, on, a, temporary, or, part, time, basis, the, pay, and, conditions, for, such, assistance, need, addressed, and, agreed, the, other, part, of, this, is, orientation, training, at, the, local, levels, this, by, the, end, of, the, outbreak, at, carlisle, was, quite, impressive, however, has, that, information, been, put, together, centrally, should, there, be, a, central, trainer, who, trains, designated, trainers, for, each, svs, office, decc, similarly, with, lay, blood, samplers, vaccinators, again, local, practices, could, provide, nominated, nurses, lay, staff, for, training, during, the, out, break, here, ai, personnel, were, used, very, effectively, for, blood, sampling, and, other, procedures, is, this, again, something, for, the, local, plan, but, if, the, cost, for, training, ai, staff, in, blood, sampling, was, met, centrally, it, would, encourage, a, register, of, trained, personnel, to, be, maintained, locally, the, cumbria, county, council, inquiry, recommends, the, use, of, its, emergency, centre, as, a, hub, for, multi, agency, response, to, any, disease, out, break, should, there, be, some, joined, up, government, so, that, each, county, council, as, part, of, its, contingency, plan, provides, for, an, admin, back, up, for, any, emergency, civil, disaster, terrorist, incident, and, do, the, local, plans, make, use, of, this, my, main, concern, however, is, that, when, i, asked, at, that, meeting, had, the, two, way, communications, between, page, st, and, carlisle, been, sorted, out, it, was, met, by, nervous, laughter, i, would, like, to, emphasise, that, page, st, did, not, know, what, was, going, on, in, the, field, during, fmd, outbreak, there, was, a, communication, barrier, between, the, vets, in, the, field, and, carlisle, management, and, a, huge, gulf, between, carlisle, and, page, street, i, would, plead, that, this, is, addressed, as, the, culture, identified, by, iain, anderson, still, seems, to, prevail, i, quote, a, culture, predisposed, to, decision, making, by, committee, with, an, associated, fear, of, personal, risk, taking, such, a, climate, does, not, encourage, creative, initiative, it, inhibits, adaptive, behaviour, and, organisational, learning, which, over, time, lowers, the, quality, of, the, decisions, taken, it, seems, to, me, that, a, reappraisal, of, prevailing, attitudes, and, behaviours, within, the, department, would, be, beneficial, it, may, be, outside, your, remit, but, the, northumberland, report, with, its, flow, charts, and, recommendations, actually, lists, lessons, to, be, learned, in, dec, 1969, the, one, about, the, svs, who, fared, so, poorly, in, fmd, 2001, states, we, have, considered, the, recruitment, problem, of, the, state, veterinary, service, the, reasons, maybe, the, low, initial, salary, or, in, part, the, to, the, nature, of, the, duties, within, the, service, we, consider, it, important, for, future, development, that, the, ministry, of, agriculture, should, attract, a, greater, number, of, good, young, graduates, willing, to, make, a, career, in, the, service, at, the, end, of, any, plan, are, the, people, who, are, going, to, implement, it, they, need, well, managed, well, led, and, given, the, resources, to, carry, out, the, task, they, need, to, have, confidence, in, both, the, political, and, civil, service, leadership, there, will, need, to, be, a, risk, management, of, tasks, for, financial, reasons, resource, reasons, and, for, the, wider, rural, economy, this, requires, flexible, decision, makers, who, are, prepared, to, take, risks, and, stick, their, head, above, the, collective, parapet, i, hope, that, this, provides, a, few, more, thoughts, for, you, to, work, on, yours, sincerely, refs, fmd, 2001, lessons, learned, enquiry, forward, by, chairman, iain, anderson, p7, northumberland, report, presented, to, parliament, dec, 69, part, 2, section, 47, she, spoke, at, the, last, lvi, meeting, and, as, usual, the, plans, sound, good, but, where, reality, hits, is, in, the, delivery, tuesday, did, some, small, animal, work, and, more, testing, tues, evening, always, seems, a, rush, went, to, gym, and, then, on, to, n’s, for, the, new, frontiers, church, meeting, which, was, excellent, weds, managed, some, fertility, work, in, the, morning, and, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, bringing, the, practice, database, up, to, date, it, has, been, let, go, since, foot, and, mouth, as, it, tell, us, how, much, stock, each, farm, has, the, numbers, have, been, all, over, the, place, as, people, have, been, restocking, and, changing, the, direction, their, businesses, are, going, some, moving, out, some, moving, up, in, numbers, and, some, going, from, dairy, to, beef, or, sheep, the, most, interesting, thing, was, the, fact, that, a, lot, of, farms, that, had, restocked, with, adult, animals, have, dropped, by, 5, 10, cows, since, they, restocked, as, older, cows, are, lost, or, ill, cows, go, but, there, are, not, the, young, stock, replacements, coming, through, to, replace, them, the, actual, figures, for, dairy, farms, restocking, are, not, yet, entered, in, the, computer, i, was, hoping, to, have, them, but, will, get, them, thursday, did, some, small, animals, and, some, otm22, but, it, still, incredibly, quiet, consequently, i, have, booked, in, a, lot, more, work, for, the, next, few, weeks, so, i, hope, i, don’t, get, it, wrong, the, other, way, set, up, anne, a, vet, student, for, her, project, on, comparing, fertility, pre, and, post, fmd, finished, off, updating, the, database, figures, so, they, will, hopefully, get, entered, over, next, few, days, and, we, can, do, some, comparisons, march, figures, look, ok, but, the, long, term, out, look, is, not, so, good, the, govt, is, doing, a, committee, looking, at, farm, animal, vet, practice, the, lakeland, bva, have, asked, for, comments, efracom, inquiry, into, vets, and, veterinary, services, efracom, is, a, defra, committee, terms, of, reference, are, to, look, at, the, provision, of, farm, veterinary, services, in, england, and, wales, in, particular, it, will, look, at, 1, what, impact, current, levels, of, farm, income, are, having, on, the, usage, of, veterinary, services, and, in, turn, what, effect, any, reduction, in, the, usage, of, such, services, is, having, on, the, number, of, practices, dealing, with, large, animals, 2, what, effect, any, reduction, in, the, usage, of, veterinary, services, and, a, shortage, of, large, animal, vets, is, having, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, the, effectiveness, of, surveillance, for, animal, diseases, 3, whether, the, requirements, placed, on, farmers, by, government, including, those, in, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, are, realisable, in, such, circumstances, and, 4, what, is, the, impact, on, the, work, of, the, state, veterinary, service, comments, by, 12, april, please, the, day, ended, with, the, reading, of, a, tb, test, on, a, farm, that, was, hoping, to, become, clear, after, going, down, when, it, first, restocked, 18months, ago, 1, reactor, and, 1, i, r, on, normal, interpretation, they, will, probably, take, both, on, severe, interpretation, the, government, always, looks, as, though, problems, are, dealt, with, in, isolation, the, defra, vet, who, looks, after, our, practice, is, not, dealing, with, this, case, as, his, daughter, is, married, to, her, brother, the, farming, community, is, very, incestuous, friday, work, desperately, quiet, so, i, organised, more, testing, to, do, i, hope, i, haven’t, over, booked, the, work, defra, vets, at, carlisle, are, still, learning, the, ropes, when, it, come, s, to, tb, as, it, has, been, so, rare, in, this, part, of, the, world, so, a, few, of, the, allocations, have, been, wrong, so, i, am, having, to, go, back, and, do, extra, animals, so, that, set, can, be, signed, off, the, school, held, a, curry, evening, tonight, which, for, a, cumbrian, village, school, is, very, cosmopolitan, there, is, an, extended, family, of, three, pakistani, families, and, they, cooked, though, for, the, children, there, was, also, a, bangers, and, chips, option, it, was, quite, a, nice, time, though, wife, was, on, her, next, level, counselling, course, so, i, ended, up, just, with, kids, but, it, was, good, to, spend, time, with, them, i, have, enjoyed, not, working, many, w, e’s, recently, it, kind, of, gives, you, your, life, back, that, and, not, doing, much, at, work, saturday, 5th, april, 2003, wife, was, at, her, level, 2, course, counselling, so, i, had, the, kids, for, the, w, e, took, son, to, squash, went, into, town, for, some, bits, and, pieces, and, then, i, chatted, to, i, while, we, waited, for, t, and, son, to, finish, then, took, all, the, kids, into, town, we, are, having, a, mothers, day, tomorrow, to, make, up, for, the, fact, l, a, were, away, for, the, w, e, last, week, the, kids, have, bought, presents, and, made, cards, which, was, nice, the, cs, and, friend, came, for, lunch, and, then, spent, a, very, muddy, afternoon, by, the, pond, playing, and, building, dens, and, generally, making, a, mess, and, having, fun, son, even, decided, showers, were, in, order, when, he, came, back, that, shows, you, how, dirty, they, were, as, he, is, mr, allergic, to, water, i, made, a, fondue, for, tea, with, apple, juice, as, the, kids, don’t, like, the, kick, of, the, wine, it, was, a, great, success, and, did, taste, rather, good, even, if, i, do, say, so, myself, sunday, i, went, to, church, on, my, own, as, wife, was, heading, out, again, after, an, early, lunch, the, talk, was, on, god’s, leading, which, is, always, relevant, the, kids, were, great, fun, on, the, way, back, and, full, of, craic, they, had, a, return, trip, to, the, cs, as, they, were, too, late, to, find, a, sky, tv, for, the, match, carlisle, lost, as, usual, but, it, is, not, every, week, they, lose, at, the, millennium, stadium, i, picked, the, kids, up, from, the, cs, and, put, all, their, bikes, on, the, back, of, the, car, went, to, say, good, bye, to, cs, in, the, meantime, three, of, their, boys, were, hiding, in, the, boot, of, the, car, so, they, let, me, drive, out, with, them, before, the, giggles, and, laughter, gave, the, game, away, so, it, caused, much, merriment, all, round, met, up, with, the, lads, sunday, night, felt, really, sorry, for, one, guy, who, is, having, real, problems, getting, access, to, his, 7, year, old, as, his, ex, wife, is, putting, a, lot, of, ve, input, into, the, wee, one, he, can, go, down, the, legal, route, but, will, be, expensive, and, probably, counter, productive, as, she, is, not, wanting, to, negotiate, or, look, at, what, is, best, for, the, wee, girl, it, seems, a, real, mess, monday, in, spite, of, 4, tests, the, work, is, not, there, i, spent, the, day, testing, though, it, is, really, quite, amusing, as, i, know, the, guy’s, sister, quite, well, and, i, always, make, sure, i, tell, her, how, much, the, good, lunch, is, appreciated, so, there, builds, up, a, rivalry, between, them, as, to, who, can, provide, the, vet, with, the, best, food, i, am, afraid, i, consciously, flame, the, rivalry, in, spite, of, it, not, doing, my, waistline, any, good, trying, to, concentrate, after, a, three, course, lunch, on, a, boring, job, is, not, easy, you, just, have, to, think, about, coffee, time, and, more, cakes, and, tray, bakes, all, of, them, distinctly, unhealthy, with, the, aim, of, feeding, out, door, manual, labour, tuesday, had, a, bad, night, as, my, hand, was, caught, in, the, crush, yesterday, by, a, stirk, throwing, its, head, and, it, bent, the, finger, back, it, seemed, ok, but, is, now, throbbing, like, mad, plenty, of, aspirin, and, corticosteroids, did, some, ferty, and, then, saw, another, lda, the, cows, seem, to, be, having, a, real, problem, with, the, feed, this, spring, as, we, have, seen, 3, 4, times, the, normal, number, went, running, with, a, as, my, finger, meant, i, could, not, go, to, gym, to, work, machines, weds, the, speed, cameras, have, arrived, on, the, top, road, and, unfortunately, i, was, going, too, fast, by, the, time, i, saw, it, so, i, will, probably, have, another, 3, points, on, my, licence, they, have, been, building, pads, on, the, side, of, the, road, all, along, the, a595, as, it, has, a, really, bad, record, for, car, accidents, the, numbers, killed, continues, to, go, up, the, speed, cameras, are, in, a, van, which, can, move, around, and, hence, trap, the, speeders, it, is, called, casualty, reduction, unit, a, bit, of, a, pointed, message, even, if, you, did, slow, down, for, them, work, is, slow, again, today, with, no, tb, testing, on, mid, week, days, it, is, my, brother’s, birthday, in, nz, and, he, sent, a, letter, to, say, he, is, going, to, be, a, dad, again, so, the, trip, to, come, across, at, xmas, is, off, he, is, wanting, us, to, all, go, there, hm, maybe, thursday, i, has, had, 2, reactors, and, 4, i, rs, today, so, the, future, is, not, looking, good, for, him, as, it, looks, like, there, will, be, tb, there, he, has, had, real, problems, since, the, herd, restocked, with, lung, worm, energy, problems, in, the, silage, and, atrocious, fertility, he, is, going, to, have, to, go, and, buy, another, 30, odd, replacements, at, 800, to, replace, those, that, he, has, lost, through, ill, health, and, fertility, makes, the, compensation, payments, seem, pretty, small, that’s, 24k, he, has, lost, out, on, already, and, his, own, heifers, are, only, coming, up, to, be, served, work, is, busy, and, i, wonder, if, the, spring, rush, is, coming, i, was, supposed, to, be, at, the, school, parents, evening, but, got, called, out, which, was, pretty, irritating, i, hate, the, fact, that, you, are, just, so, unreliable, when, you, are, on, call, friday, another, tb, testing, day, so, busy, all, together, not, a, good, day, the, competition, report, is, out, and, is, fairly, damning, as, expected, so, the, pressure, on, drug, margins, is, going, to, continue, and, the, old, fashioned, way, of, providing, a, complete, service, will, be, going, out, the, window, we, will, have, to, charge, for, the, out, of, hours, and, on, call, the, telephone, advice, and, try, to, make, it, pay, but, the, whole, economics, of, going, out, to, see, a, single, ill, animal, will, be, gone, the, clinical, skills, of, veterinarians, will, be, gone, all, academic, as, the, cost, for, diagnosing, a, single, animal, in, the, new, era, will, be, too, much, so, the, diagnosis, will, all, be, done, by, post, mortem, of, herd, problems, but, if, you, have, large, herds, the, man, power, will, not, be, there, to, look, after, the, individual, ill, animal, sad, depressing, day, but, i, am, off, for, the, w, e, saturday, 12th, april, 2003, woke, up, early, and, got, up, even, though, it, is, my, day, for, a, lie, in, i, think, i, am, particularly, wound, up, it, all, ways, takes, me, at, least, one, day, to, wind, down, from, work, so, i, am, tired, and, yet, not, feeling, able, to, rest, took, son, to, football, and, other, son, to, buy, anew, bike, he, was, so, excited, it, is, his, birthday, coming, up, and, he, has, out, grown, his, old, one, so, it, will, be, good, for, him, the, kids, spend, ages, flying, around, the, yard, on, bikes, and, up, and, down, the, field, when, the, grass, is, short, they, have, a, real, ball, here, it, is, a, great, place, to, grow, up, as, they, have, so, much, freedom, to, play, and, play, and, play, my, finger, that, was, caught, tb, testing, started, throbbing, again, this, afternoon, so, as, it, had, improved, and, then, got, worse, i, decided, i, had, to, get, it, x, rayed, so, i, spent, the, afternoon, in, casualty, waiting, to, get, x, rayed, and, then, waiting, for, another, hour, before, being, told, it, was, not, broken, a, five, minute, consultation, that, took, me, almost, 2, hours, friends, were, up, for, the, w, e, more, friends, are, at, capernwray, bible, college, for, an, easter, youth, thing, so, they, came, on, up, so, it, was, good, to, catch, up, sunday, cooked, lunch, for, everyone, and, then, went, to, communion, it, was, dire, and, reminded, me, why, i, don’t, usually, bother, spent, the, afternoon, putting, onions, in, and, tidying, in, the, garden, it, is, incredibly, dry, and, warm, amazing, really, the, 6, kids, spent, the, whole, afternoon, messing, around, at, the, pond, and, were, disgusting, with, mud, everywhere, and, trailed, all, up, the, yard, and, wellies, abandoned, everywhere, church, was, dm, speaking, and, then, the, yps, came, back, to, ours, afterwards, mind, you, i, think, i, had, had, enough, kids, for, the, time, being, but, i, was, ok, monday, bad, haircut, day, as, there, is, only, one, day, we, can, test, this, week, i, booked, in, fair, amount, which, would, have, been, tight, but, aw, was, off, ill, so, we, were, too, tight, so, a, few, ops, have, been, put, off, until, tomorrow, d, has, a, s, african, vet, friend, visiting, so, with, him, and, the, vet, student, the, house, is, still, full, i, however, am, knackered, and, not, feeling, sociable, had, a, horrendous, calving, it, is, not, often, i, cannot, calve, a, cow, but, i, am, afraid, after, an, hour, i, gave, up, and, caesared, it, the, calf, was, dead, and, rotten, so, whether, she, will, do, i, don’t, know, i, did, not, want, to, caesarean, but, that, is, life, it, was, either, that, or, the, farmer, pay, 60, to, get, some, one, to, take, it, away, after, i, euthed, it, tuesday, we, are, in, the, period, of, anniversaries, it, is, 2, years, since, the, ls, went, down, i, was, at, a, farm, which, did, not, get, fmd, and, his, uncles, did, he, was, saying, what, a, sad, day, it, was, so, his, uncles, must, be, feeling, it, more, the, beautiful, spring, weather, with, the, grass, growing, in, spite, of, the, frosts, definitely, puts, a, bounce, in, to, your, step, on, days, like, this, i, think, that, it, is, an, excellent, life, wandering, around, the, countryside, and, enjoying, the, scenery, the, farms, the, animals, and, the, farmers, beats, working, in, a, factory, any, way, went, to, the, gym, and, felt, a, lot, better, for, it, exercise, is, a, great, way, of, getting, a, buzz, but, you, have, to, be, not, too, tired, to, a, get, there, and, b, enjoy, it, i, have, gone, often, because, i, feel, i, should, and, just, felt, like, a, steam, roller, had, run, over, me, and, its, taken, a, day, or, two, to, recover, balance, in, all, things, weds, the, commission, report, came, out, today, difficult, to, believe, that, they, will, be, able, to, implement, it, but, having, lived, through, the, fmd, there, were, quite, a, few, things, i, thought, that, they, would, not, be, able, to, implement, but, they, did, we, will, have, to, if, the, minister, decides, and, since, it, is, dti, not, defra, i, think, that, the, implementation, may, be, effective, provide, prescriptions, free, of, charge, provide, our, clients, with, a, list, of, pharmacies, agricultural, suppliers, and, other, vets, and, web, sites, that, will, meet, those, prescriptions, the, cost, of, the, most, commonly, prescribed, medicines, in, the, previous, quarter, the, cross, subsidy, of, professional, fees, by, pharmaceuticals, will, not, be, allowed, and, how, will, the, pharmacist, make, his, money, the, other, comment, which, did, irk, me, some, what, was, that, the, provision, of, 24, hour, cover, does, not, seem, that, onerous, i, do, not, often, swear, but, really, very, depressed, but, daughter, came, on, a, caesaer, with, me, as, i, was, on, call, tonight, it, is, really, nice, working, from, home, and, being, able, to, take, them, with, me, it, is, a, very, healthy, thing, to, do, she, is, growing, up, and, is, very, much, the, young, lady, the, farmers, wife, is, the, dental, receptionist, and, of, course, said, hello, a, she, was, thrown, as, of, course, being, out, of, context, she, could, not, figure, how, the, farmers, wife, knew, who, she, was, thursday, good, friday, it, is, son’s, b’day, today, and, the, day, started, out, great, for, him, i, was, on, duty, and, he, arrived, in, our, bedroom, at, 7am, with, the, other, 2, boys, to, start, on, the, birthday, celebrations, our, family, tradition, is, that, they, have, breakfast, in, bed, in, our, bed, don’t, know, why, but, that, is, what, happens, the, others, all, brought, cards, and, presents, in, the, phone, went, and, it, was, a, lambing, so, tim, decided, he, would, come, and, see, the, lambs, being, born, so, he, was, thrilled, we, opened, the, presents, later, on, which, included, a, new, boiler, suit, which, really, thrilled, him, it, is, amazing, what, kids, think, of, as, their, best, present, i, never, really, like, working, good, friday, i, always, think, one, year, i, will, be, off, and, go, to, one, of, the, contemplative, services, hebron, being, low, church, never, really, does, anything, like, that, which, is, a, real, shame, easter, is, when, i, think, the, cathedrals, old, country, churches, and, the, church, architecture, can, really, be, helpful, in, stopping, and, praying, and, helping, to, consider, what, jesus, did, on, the, cross, finished, work, and, went, up, to, the, friends, they, were, both, home, and, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, played, rounders, and, had, a, barbeque, which, was, really, nice, james, was, in, really, good, form, as, he, was, enjoying, being, back, away, from, london, where, he, has, just, started, work, as, a, high, flying, lawyer, he, is, not, enjoying, london, very, much, he, is, a, hills, and, countryside, lad, his, girlfriend, was, also, there, so, was, quite, a, good, craic, i, didn’t, really, want, to, come, home, but, was, so, knackered, that, it, was, probably, just, as, well, the, kids, were, with, us, and, it, was, not, a, too, late, a, night, saturday, 19th, april, 2004, spent, most, of, the, day, either, catching, up, on, sleep, or, on, the, day, to, day, things, that, seem, to, have, been, put, to, one, side, for, a, while, there, was, also, the, preparations, for, the, service, tomorrow, we, are, taking, the, easter, sunday, morning, service, which, is, one, of, those, night, mare, services, where, everyone, comes, the, age, range, is, from, 0, to, 100, and, everyone, has, different, expectations, i, should, explain, that, the, normal, sunday, services, are, very, different, there, is, the, family, focus, which, is, lively, and, very, informal, aimed, at, those, with, young, children, who, go, to, sunday, school, there, is, then, teaching, for, parents, adults, there, is, always, a, lot, of, noise, children, running, around, babies, crying, and, shakers, and, children’s, songs, the, communion, service, that, follows, is, very, traditional, silence, and, solemnity, rules, all, the, older, generation, go, and, it, is, a, very, different, service, so, we, are, going, to, be, combining, the, two, oil, and, water, a, lot, of, prayer, has, gone, in, to, this, one, sunday, wife, got, up, at, 6, am, to, go, to, the, sunrise, service, at, the, crematorium, she, said, she, needed, some, input, before, the, easter, service, we, are, leading, it, is, a, service, organised, by, st, james, parish, church, but, all, the, carlisle, churches, are, asked, to, take, part, christiana, had, asked, to, go, so, wife, went, with, her, and, it, was, really, good, christ, is, risen, he, is, risen, indeed, the, sermon, was, by, the, archdeacon, from, the, cathedral, who, said, that, being, a, good, anglican, he, wanted, some, liturgy, through, his, sermon, so, every, time, he, said, are, you, dead, the, congregation, had, to, reply, no, alive, in, christ, at, which, point, he, would, sound, a, hooter, the, service, at, hebron, went, very, well, oh, ye, of, little, faith, i, should, pray, more, and, worry, less, i, have, included, our, outline, below, and, i, have, put, in, additional, comments, in, blue, easter, sunday, service, welcome, to, hebron, evangelical, church, this, easter, sunday, morning, when, we, are, celebrating, jesus, is, alive, our, opening, hymn, is, our, declaration, that, jesus, is, alive, he, has, risen, from, the, dead, opening, hymn, we, believe, in, god, the, father, welcome, intro, me, and, welcome, team, this, morning, the, service, is, in, a, different, order, from, usual, we, are, going, to, remember, what, jesus, has, done, for, us, on, the, cross, and, bruce, beattie, one, of, our, elders, is, going, to, help, explain, what, the, bread, and, wine, mean, to, us, as, some, of, the, children, may, not, have, been, here, for, a, communion, service, before, then, after, taking, communion, we, are, going, to, celebrate, jesus, resurrection, with, reading, singing, and, sharing, the, resurrection, is, the, central, part, to, our, faith, who, knows, what, that, long, word, resurrection, means, the, answers, from, the, kids, were, quite, amusing, but, we, got, there, in, the, end, at, the, end, of, the, service, there, will, be, the, offering, an, opportunity, to, give, our, money, as, well, as, ourselves, to, the, living, god, if, during, the, service, the, young, children, get, fed, up, there, is, a, place, at, the, back, where, they, can, do, some, making, things, it, isn’t, easy, to, sit, still, when, you, are, little, or, be, quiet, so, please, don’t, worry, about, the, little, ones, being, a, distraction, i, often, wonder, what, it, was, like, when, jesus, fed, the, 5000plus, crowd, do, you, think, the, children, all, sat, neat, and, quiet, in, rows, i, don’t, think, so, we, are, pleased, to, see, them, and, hear, them, this, is, a, time, of, family, worship, from, the, youngest, to, the, oldest, reading, psalm, 67, i, had, this, up, on, a, power, point, and, we, read, it, together, may, god, be, gracious, to, us, and, bless, us, and, make, his, face, shine, upon, us, that, your, ways, may, be, known, on, earth, your, salvation, among, all, nations, may, the, peoples, praise, you, o, god, may, all, the, peoples, praise, you, may, the, nations, be, glad, and, sing, for, joy, for, you, rule, the, people, justly, and, guide, the, nations, of, the, earth, may, the, peoples, praise, you, o, god, may, all, the, peoples, praise, you, then, the, land, will, yield, its, harvest, and, god, our, god, will, bless, us, god, will, bless, us, and, all, the, ends, of, the, earth, will, fear, him, psalm, 67, prayer, m, as, we, sing, this, next, hymn, it, would, be, good, if, the, children, came, to, sit, at, the, front, so, that, b, can, see, you, all, when, he, talks, to, you, hymn, when, i, survey, the, wondrous, cross, communion, b, b, gave, an, excellent, talk, about, remembering, he, included, a, diary, and, a, kitchen, timer, which, he, set, to, go, of, at, the, carefully, timed, point, in, his, little, bit, he, then, used, smarties, to, go, through, the, easter, story, and, the, different, colours, i, wish, i, had, it, written, down, we, then, had, communion, and, he, had, smarties, for, the, kids, so, that, they, could, remember, about, the, easter, story, while, the, adults, took, communion, and, remembered, christ’s, death, and, resurrection, forgiveness, is, a, wonderful, thing, we, have, just, been, remembering, what, jesus, did, for, us, on, the, cross, he, died, for, us, what, incredible, love, but, thankfully, the, gospel, doesn’t, end, there, son, a, and, cerise, are, going, to, read, on, reading, and, luke, 24, vs, 1, 12, they, did, a, brilliant, dramatic, reading, an, empty, tomb, lets, sing, god’s, not, dead, he, is, alive, sing, it, twice, and, use, the, instruments, at, the, front, to, make, a, joyful, noise, we, want, you, to, have, a, little, taste, of, what, it, was, like, to, be, around, that, day, and, so, let’s, listen, in, to, mary, magdalene, chatting, on, the, phone, to, well, you, listen, and, see, who, she, is, talking, to, wife, did, a, sketch, about, mary, talking, on, the, phone, to, marta, having, met, the, risen, jesus, she, was, very, good, really, gave, the, facts, to, a, contemporary, feel, hymn, led, like, a, lamb, to, the, slaughter, in, the, second, verse, would, children, come, to, help, we, have, verses, to, give, out, to, the, big, people, and, i’d, like, you, to, help, give, them, out, making, sure, all, the, big, people, get, one, for, the, children, who, may, not, be, able, to, read, yet, we, have, some, coloured, stones, to, remind, you, of, a, huge, stone, that, was, rolled, away, when, jesus, rose, from, the, dead, you, can, keep, it, in, your, pocket, or, somewhere, special, to, remind, you, that, jesus, is, alive, and, he, wants, to, be, with, you, where, ever, you, go, a, had, made, up, tiny, scrolls, with, verses, about, the, resurrection, which, the, kids, all, gave, out, it, kept, the, wee, ones, busy, and, also, gave, everyone, a, verse, to, think, about, isn’t, it, wonderful, to, know, that, we, are, singing, he’s, alive, he, has, risen, and, all, over, the, world, the, church, is, singing, the, same, message, in, revelation, we, get, a, little, glimpse, into, what, it, will, be, like, in, heaven, with, a, new, song, being, sung, to, jesus, christ, close, your, eyes, and, listen, to, what, it, says, rev, 5, vs, 9, 11, we, have, the, privilege, in, hebron, of, having, a, few, representatives, of, different, language, people, and, nation, here, this, morning, let, us, listen, to, them, christ, is, risen, in, different, languages, and, prayer, we, then, had, one, family, say, it, in, arabic, another, in, german, there, is, a, philippino, girl, who, said, it, in, her, language, and, some, one, else, in, spanish, it, was, magical, introduce, lord, we, lift, your, name, on, high, sung, at, mizpah, orphanage, with, children, some, of, whom, had, just, heard, the, name, jesus, for, the, first, time, at, christmas, see, picture, we, need, helpers, to, do, the, actions, to, this, song, we, are, thankful, that, jesus, is, alive, and, so, he, speaks, guides, comforts, and, forgives, us, for, all, the, sin, the, mess, we, make, it, is, not, only, the, mary’s, and, the, peters, and, the, thomases, that, have, met, with, the, risen, lord, we, each, have, a, story, to, tell, of, walking, with, the, risen, lord, as, you, listen, to, some, people, here, sharing, a, bit, of, their, story, i, wonder, what, you, would, have, to, share, take, the, opportunity, to, day, to, share, what, god, is, teaching, you, where, he, is, changing, you, don’t, hide, behind, the, weather, or, holidays, share, your, journey, to, encourage, real, fellowship, end, in, prayer, over, top, song, and, offering, this, is, your, opportunity, to, offer, yourself, afresh, to, the, risen, lord, an, old, song, but, a, powerful, one, to, make, this, song, personal, to, you, choose, the, verse, where, you, will, stand, as, a, sign, of, your, offering, to, the, lord, band, will, play, it, through, twice, as, collection, taken, up, and, then, we, sing, it, if, you, want, to, sit, until, last, verse, when, we, sing, take, my, love, then, we, will, all, stand, for, last, verse, take, my, life, this, song, has, lots, of, parts, about, asking, god, to, take, and, use, different, parts, of, our, lives, songs, intellect, strength, money, etc, and, by, asking, people, to, stand, at, the, point, they, wanted, it, really, meant, they, stopped, and, offered, part, of, them, selves, back, to, god, in, response, to, the, resurrection, finish, with, thine, be, the, glory, the, service, went, really, well, people, came, and, said, how, well, it, had, gone, wife, spent, afternoon, packing, and, feeling, washed, out, giving, out, is, tiring, but, the, satisfaction, is, huge, mon, up, early, to, catch, the, boat, to, n, ireland, the, boat, was, not, too, busy, which, was, good, spent, the, boat, ride, filling, in, my, thoughts, on, the, future, of, large, animal, practice, for, the, efracom, enquiry, bought, lord, of, rings, part, 2, the, two, towers, as, i, am, wanting, to, re, read, it, having, seen, the, movie, so, that, is, my, holiday, reading, sorted, out, had, a, chance, when, we, got, there, to, sit, down, with, wife, s, parents, and, talk, through, our, future, which, was, good, as, campbell, usually, disappears, out, but, a, sit, is, a, bank, holiday, he, didn’t, they, were, fairly, up, beat, about, it, which, was, good, so, i, was, pleased, spent, the, evening, with, c, and, the, cousins, which, was, really, good, had, a, barbecue, and, chilled, out, c, was, not, really, surprised, at, the, news, as, agriculture, in, ni, is, going, through, a, bad, time, as, well, it, is, behind, the, uk, and, there, are, a, lot, of, small, uneconomic, family, farms, and, so, a, lot, of, consolidation, is, going, on, and, farmers, selling, up, tuesday, spent, the, morning, playing, squash, with, the, boys, which, w, as, great, fun, spent, the, afternoon, in, the, garden, trying, to, tidy, it, up, went, out, for, dinner, with, our, bridesmaid, who, has, also, just, handed, in, her, notice, or, rather, accepted, a, redundancy, package, it, must, be, catching, it, was, great, to, see, her, and, also, to, be, out, in, belfast, which, is, such, a, cosmopolitan, city, these, days, with, different, languages, cultures, and, nationalities, all, mixing, in, the, downtown, area, a, big, change, weds, went, to, the, new, exhibition, centre, in, the, docks, at, belfast, it, has, a, multiplex, and, a, science, exhibition, as, well, as, shops, and, restaurants, and, so, on, it, was, amazing, the, kids, could, have, spent, all, day, playing, on, the, exhibits, and, it, was, very, well, done, so, that, you, came, away, having, learnt, quite, a, lot, wife, now, believes, i, cannot, do, colours, as, i, am, easily, confused, by, them, there, was, one, exhibit, where, words, in, one, coloured, spelt, the, name, of, another, colour, i.e, the, word, was, spelt, y, e, l, l, o, w, but, it, was, red, in, colour, you, then, had, to, read, the, words, or, say, the, colours, and, i, just, could, not, do, it, my, brain, ended, up, really, confused, bought, flowers, and, stuff, for, the, garden, and, did, the, boxes, for, gran, went, out, to, dinner, at, rp, she, is, a, widow, who, is, wife, s, parents, age, but, is, so, much, fun, she, loves, giving, dinner, parties, and, having, folk, of, all, ages, around, she, gave, me, some, useful, addresses, there, are, lots, of, plans, for, wife, s, parents, golden, wedding, thursday, the, day, of, the, big, photo, shoot, wife, s, brother’s, father, in, law, is, a, photographer, and, while, we, were, all, together, wife, mum, wanted, a, photo, of, all, the, family, together, so, we, spent, an, hour, and, a, half, getting, positioned, and, photographed, 7, kids, and, 7, adults, and, a, very, pernickety, photographer, travel, back, on, the, boat, was, ok, but, came, back, to, find, that, everything, had, fused, and, that, the, phone, was, not, working, so, fixed, the, fuses, which, are, all, trips, thank, goodness, and, got, the, electrics, going, the, phone, could, not, fix, but, did, not, worry, while, we, were, away, there, had, been, a, lightning, strike, on, to, the, phone, line, up, the, road, and, it, had, fried, all, the, cables, one, of, the, neighbours, had, been, in, her, kitchen, and, the, phone, had, exploded, and, jumped, off, the, wall, it, has, left, scorch, marks, down, the, wall, i, am, just, glad, that, there, was, no, one, on, the, phone, at, the, time, the, other, unfortunate, thing, is, that, the, computer, was, attached, and, is, dead, as, a, dodo, friday, back, to, maelstrom, i, was, really, relaxed, going, back, in, to, work, and, it, lasted, for, may, be, half, an, hour, no, one, had, picked, up, on, any, of, my, admin, things, while, i, had, been, away, in, spite, of, asking, people, to, do, so, this, meant, i, had, to, start, and, get, things, organised, for, testing, the, rota, and, nestles, as, well, as, to, try, and, do, some, work, my, in, tray, is, a, mess, but, never, mind, i, also, had, to, complete, the, report, for, efracom, as, the, closing, date, is, today, i, hope, not, by, 5pm, the, report, was, actually, finished, by, 10, 15, and, was, e, mailed, off, i, would, like, to, have, polished, it, a, bit, more, but, the, schedule, today, was, not, conducive, during, the, evening, when, i, was, supposed, to, be, writing, it, i, had, a, casaers, and, a, foal, trying, to, die, at, farm, they, are, not, having, much, luck, as, they, have, had, horrendous, problems, with, restocking, they, are, also, under, tb2, i, enclose, a, copy, of, the, report, to, efracom, the, right, hon, michael, jack, mp, environment, food, and, rural, affairs, chairman, of, the, sub, committee, vets, and, veterinary, services, a, submission, summary, this, is, a, timely, review, of, farm, veterinary, services, i, would, submit, that, the, current, trends, in, veterinary, practice, are, likely, to, accelerate, rapidly, in, response, both, to, present, levels, of, farm, income, and, imminent, changes, in, veterinary, practice, in, this, submission, i, have, briefly, covered, the, following, areas, the, current, provision, of, veterinary, services, and, how, they, are, financed, current, trends, and, their, likely, impact, on, veterinary, services, the, effect, of, the, reduction, in, large, animal, clinicians, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, surveillance, the, feasibility, of, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, the, impact, on, the, svs, the, future, and, possible, outcomes, the, current, provision, of, veterinary, services, and, how, they, are, financed, the, income, for, rural, farm, veterinary, practice, that, provides, the, majority, of, veterinary, services, to, the, agricultural, industry, has, traditionally, come, from, 5, major, areas, clinical, services, examining, and, diagnosing, individual, animals, calvings, lambings, individual, surgery, routine, fertility, dehorning, and, castrating, traditional, on, farm, professional, fee, work, lvi, income, from, defra, maff, in, the, eradication, of, notifiable, disease, tuberculosis, brucellosis, anthrax, etc, many, practices, also, were, involved, with, meat, hygiene, and, inspections, at, abattoirs, the, dispensing, of, pharmaceuticals, the, provision, of, veterinary, advice, on, farm, management, and, welfare, the, majority, of, veterinary, partnerships, are, mixed, practices, a, consideration, must, be, given, to, the, fact, that, small, animal, work, makes, up, a, variable, proportion, of, the, work, and, income, to, veterinary, practice, it, is, my, opinion, that, clinical, farm, animal, practice, the, examining, and, diagnosing, of, individual, animals, is, already, uneconomic, for, both, the, veterinary, surgeon, and, the, farmer, it, is, only, happening, because, of, the, cross, subsidy, of, the, professional, fees, by, other, income, and, because, of, the, good, will, of, most, farmers, to, give, animals, a, chance, as, the, harsh, economics, are, coming, home, to, vets, and, farmers, this, is, rapidly, becoming, with, james, herriot, a, part, of, rural, history, current, trends, and, their, likely, impact, on, veterinary, services, what, are, the, current, trends, within, agriculture, and, veterinary, practice, and, what, effects, will, that, have, both, in, agriculture, and, farm, veterinary, practice, there, are, trends, that, can, be, identified, how, fast, how, far, these, trends, will, go, is, difficult, to, predict, but, my, own, experience, is, that, change, when, it, comes, change, is, often, slow, at, starting, but, then, dramatic, in, its, speed, the, effect, of, decoupling, and, other, eu, decisions, on, agriculture, are, unknown, but, the, current, trends, are, likely, to, continue, in, agriculture, farm, size, has, to, continue, to, grow, as, farms, make, less, and, less, per, animal, they, have, to, spread, costs, over, larger, and, larger, numbers, the, individual, value, of, each, animal, continues, to, drop, in, real, terms, efficiency, and, mechanisation, continues, to, increase, chicken, farms, are, now, routinely, 100,000, animals, plus, since, foot, and, mouth, disease, the, average, dairy, herd, size, has, increased, from, 90, to, 114, an, increase, of, 20, which, talking, to, many, dairy, farmers, is, only, going, to, increase, as, more, herds, are, going, to, be, 300, animals, these, increases, are, usually, with, out, an, increase, in, labour, on, the, farms, this, means, the, care, of, individual, animals, is, likely, to, be, less, important, but, the, care, of, the, overall, heath, of, the, herd, much, more, in, veterinary, practice, the, major, changes, are, likely, to, be, from, the, competition, inquiry, in, to, the, cost, of, pharmaceuticals, the, subsidy, of, professional, fees, by, sales, of, pharmaceuticals, has, been, an, increasing, trend, since, the, late, 60, s, then, professional, fees, were, subsidised, by, the, large, scale, eradication, schemes, by, maff, who, paid, very, good, fees, to, get, the, vets, on, the, farm, and, help, eradicate, the, notifiable, diseases, the, competition, inquiry, is, recommending, that, pharmaceuticals, be, dispensed, by, pharmacies, as, well, and, that, prescriptions, be, provided, free, of, charge, which, private, organisation, is, going, to, provide, a, service, free, of, charge, has, yet, to, be, ascertained, but, the, current, level, of, income, derived, from, pharmaceuticals, is, not, going, to, be, sustained, this, inevitably, means, that, the, cross, subsidy, will, disappear, and, farmers, will, have, to, pay, the, full, cost, of, veterinary, clinical, service, and, it, will, not, be, economic, to, do, so, at, the, same, time, the, costs, of, providing, veterinary, services, continues, to, rise, the, cost, of, veterinary, time, is, continuing, to, rise, students, are, now, graduating, with, debts, of, 15, 20k, because, of, the, loss, of, grants, and, payment, of, tuition, fees, this, means, there, will, need, to, be, a, further, raise, of, 2, 3k, per, annum, to, pay, veterinary, assistants, to, match, the, status, quo, farm, animal, practice, already, pays, assistants, less, than, companion, animal, practices, despite, offering, a, less, favourable, on, call, rota, in, the, short, term, following, fmd, many, practice, principals, worked, additional, on, call, to, make, the, rota, acceptable, to, attract, assistant, vets, where, this, is, viable, in, the, short, term, in, the, long, term, it, is, not, acceptable, as, partners, profit, becomes, commensurate, to, the, salaries, they, have, to, pay, to, veterinary, assistants, they, will, be, aiming, to, increase, charges, for, clinical, work, or, look, to, other, avenues, for, decreasing, costs, increasing, turnover, providing, an, out, of, hours, emergency, cover, is, not, economically, practical, for, vets, except, in, the, big, cities, where, practices, join, together, to, provide, an, emergency, clinic, currently, there, is, an, rcvs, obligation, to, provide, 24hour, cover, but, the, rcvs, is, not, involved, in, the, commercial, pricing, of, services, as, the, value, of, individual, animals, continues, to, drop, in, real, terms, then, the, cost, of, treating, individual, animals, becomes, less, and, less, viable, where, there, is, no, cross, subsidy, for, out, of, hours, work, it, will, become, untenable, as, many, mixed, practices, have, a, dwindling, farm, animal, side, that, is, less, financially, attractive, many, will, decide, to, concentrate, on, the, companion, animal, side, of, the, business, in, a, lot, of, mixed, practices, it, is, a, senior, partner, who, will, do, the, largest, amount, of, the, farm, work, this, means, the, younger, vets, will, not, have, the, case, load, to, become, experienced, and, confident, in, farm, work, there, is, a, cohort, of, practitioners, in, this, situation, heading, towards, retirement, in, the, near, future, will, the, practice, continue, to, be, involved, with, farm, work, as, fewer, practices, become, involved, with, farm, veterinary, services, the, cost, of, travel, to, the, more, distant, farms, has, to, rise, beyond, the, already, accelerated, rate, all, this, means, that, farm, veterinary, practices, will, lose, income, from, clinical, services, and, from, pharmaceutical, sales, they, will, have, to, move, more, towards, the, pig, poultry, model, of, providing, veterinary, advice, and, charging, for, it, vets, have, already, moved, out, of, nutritional, advice, leaving, this, field, to, nutritional, experts, the, reason, for, this, is, that, most, nutritional, advice, is, provided, free, to, the, farmer, by, the, firms, who, then, put, that, cost, into, the, feeds, that, are, sold, to, the, farmers, this, cross, subsidy, of, fees, by, sales, is, apparently, acceptable, where, the, subsidy, of, veterinary, fees, by, pharmaceuticals, is, not, this, model, is, beginning, to, appear, in, other, areas, whereas, vets, provided, most, mastitis, control, the, dairies, who, buy, the, milk, are, now, providing, free, or, subsidised, advice, to, farms, on, cell, counts, and, high, bacterial, counts, including, bacteriology, with, a, variable, back, up, and, quality, of, advice, nmr, and, other, recording, agencies, are, already, offering, fertility, information, on, their, recording, products, and, it, is, a, short, step, to, actually, providing, the, fertility, work, i, believe, that, these, factors, will, contribute, to, a, dramatic, decrease, in, farm, animal, clinicians, in, the, next, 5, years, the, effect, of, the, reduction, in, large, animal, clinicians, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, surveillance, as, the, number, of, clinical, veterinarians, reduces, then, there, will, be, much, less, on, farm, surveillance, this, means, that, outbreaks, of, novel, or, unusual, diseases, is, much, less, likely, to, be, noticed, or, recorded, at, an, early, stage, the, routine, care, for, the, animals, will, be, done, by, stockmen, under, veterinary, guidance, the, guidance, will, probably, be, by, quarterly, or, 6, monthly, or, annual, visits, and, by, herd, health, plans, individual, animals, are, much, more, likely, to, be, treated, ad, hoc, by, the, stockmen, rather, than, by, veterinary, surgeons, the, quality, of, this, treatment, in, some, cases, may, be, adequate, but, in, most, will, be, poor, the, significance, of, symptoms, or, illness, may, not, be, appreciated, diagnosis, and, treatment, seen, as, a, high, cost, and, used, as, a, last, resort, any, outbreak, of, disease, will, be, well, developed, and, losses, occurring, before, veterinary, advice, is, sought, as, herd, sizes, increase, and, labour, decreases, then, the, attention, to, individual, animals, must, reduce, with, a, drop, in, welfare, standards, ill, animals, are, likely, to, be, culled, quicker, as, limited, manpower, becomes, more, important, the, use, of, vets, as, additional, expert, man, power, for, calvings, lambings, will, be, seen, as, too, expensive, the, demands, of, the, system, must, mean, that, high, heath, status, is, important, with, routine, vaccination, and, herd, health, policies, being, put, in, place, defra, seems, to, set, high, regard, to, laboratory, diagnosis, results, as, a, form, of, surveillance, most, of, the, common, problems, are, diagnosed, treated, with, out, the, resort, to, laboratory, aids, fertility, lameness, mastitis, pneumonia, pge, are, rarely, referred, to, the, lab, except, where, treatment, is, not, working, most, samples, are, taken, referred, by, vets, in, practice, fewer, vets, would, mean, fewer, samples, the, lack, of, veterinary, advice, to, ill, pigs, and, ill, sheep, on, farms, at, heddon, on, the, wall, shows, how, the, lack, of, a, clinical, veterinary, service, can, lead, to, in, the, terms, of, delay, and, spread, of, disease, the, local, knowledge, of, the, current, lvi, system, is, an, invaluable, asset, that, is, in, danger, of, being, thrown, away, the, idea, that, a, farm, is, a, box, which, can, be, assigned, a, number, in, page, street, and, dealt, with, as, a, single, entity, is, a, problem, that, has, still, not, been, resolved, the, complexity, of, many, of, the, local, farming, links, through, trade, working, together, machinery, shared, grazing, fell, rights, and, family, ties, cannot, be, reduced, to, a, computer, screen, on, dcs, the, feasibility, of, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, in, my, opinion, they, are, not, i, was, hoping, to, cover, this, more, fully, but, lack, of, time, has, prevented, me, the, impact, on, the, svs, the, impact, on, the, svs, is, likely, to, be, slow, to, be, realised, the, svs, is, not, known, for, its, ability, to, meet, challenges, or, streamline, its, systems, as, the, number, of, vets, involved, in, farm, work, decreases, it, will, have, to, provide, more, of, its, own, resources, to, tackle, tasks, currently, done, by, lvis, the, more, flexible, private, practice, takes, up, the, challenge, of, getting, backlogs, in, testing, done, and, can, respond, to, new, challenges, for, example, the, licensing, brought, in, during, fmd, private, practice, can, fit, the, work, around, other, duties, whereas, if, it, is, going, to, be, done, by, the, svs, it, will, be, more, expensive, to, take, on, vets, to, do, these, tasks, alone, the, svs, was, notoriously, unreliable, in, its, work, allocation, during, fmd, the, record, being, sending, 5, vets, to, the, same, farm, on, the, same, day, has, yet, to, be, beaten, though, i, hope, it, would, be, a, lot, better, in, normal, circumstances, there, are, still, problems, with, the, allocation, system, that, can, only, be, put, right, by, local, knowledge, in, areas, where, there, are, few, farm, animals, there, may, well, not, be, lvis, willing, to, carry, out, the, routine, testing, for, notifiable, disease, who, is, going, to, provide, veterinary, cover, for, these, both, for, clinical, caseload, and, for, the, lvi, work, there, will, not, be, vets, available, to, second, to, defra, for, the, next, fmd, or, exotic, disease, outbreak, the, contingency, plan, confidently, states, that, resources, for, 20, tvis, are, to, be, kept, at, each, centre, in, case, of, an, outbreak, of, notifiable, disease, with, out, addressing, where, these, will, come, from, there, will, not, be, 20, tvi’s, available, at, short, notice, during, march, 2001, the, majority, of, vets, at, the, carlisle, decc, were, lvi’s, the, future, and, possible, outcomes, the, picture, i, have, painted, is, what, in, my, opinion, will, happen, if, the, government, allows, the, situation, to, develop, i, would, hope, that, there, would, be, some, joined, up, government, when, decisions, are, to, be, made, in, response, to, the, competition, inquiry, report, there, are, a, mixture, of, outcomes, that, are, possible, the, numbers, of, vets, in, farm, animal, practice, will, reduce, this, can, be, minimised, by, maintaining, the, cross, subsidy, of, professional, fees, for, providing, clinical, services, either, directly, by, defra, work, in, surveillance, or, other, notifiable, disease, work, and, or, from, pharmaceutical, sales, the, option, of, increasing, fees, is, not, possible, veterinary, services, will, be, provided, by, other, means, e.g, vets, working, for, feed, firms, dairies, manufactures, retailers, to, ensure, a, welfare, surveillance, standard, consultancy, firms, providing, fertility, mastitis, specialised, advice, defra, local, authority, will, have, to, provide, vets, for, notifiable, disease, testing, surveillance, tasks, developing, the, french, model, of, farm, cooperatives, employing, vets, for, their, own, farms, the, pig, poultry, model, of, regular, advisory, visits, but, minimal, involvement, in, the, day, to, day, running, or, with, individual, animals, only, the, first, of, these, provides, for, the, continuation, of, the, successful, lvi, structure, the, other, outcomes, mean, a, loss, of, clinical, veterinary, services, the, loss, of, clinical, services, means, a, drop, in, welfare, standards, and, the, loss, of, on, farm, surveillance, farm, veterinary, services, are, in, a, transitional, time, facing, economic, challenges, changes, in, agriculture, increased, regulation, and, increased, competition, for, the, pharmaceutical, and, services, they, provide, there, will, be, increased, competition, between, practices, as, they, try, to, meet, the, higher, expectations, of, new, veterinary, graduates, starting, their, careers, and, providing, a, cost, effective, service, to, the, rural, community, bvm, s, mrcvs, brief, c, v, currently, a, partner, in, one, of, the, largest, farm, veterinary, practices, in, cumbria, having, spent, 17, years, in, mixed, rural, practice, spent, 6, months, on, secondment, to, maff, at, the, carlisle, decc, during, fmd, sat, 26th, april, 2003, having, worked, last, night, and, done, 2, caesaers, and, a, calving, on, call, on, top, of, a, long, week, i, was, completely, washed, out, did, sat, am, surgery, and, a, call, then, went, home, to, bed, knackered, and, fed, up, and, deciding, i, did, not, want, to, spend, my, life, like, this, sunday, a, busy, day, on, call, but, at, least, the, calls, did, not, stack, up, just, kept, coming, in, ones, and, twos, so, the, stress, levels, were, not, to, bad, but, boyzo, am, i, tired, mon, this, is, the, beginning, of, d’s, last, week, he, has, worked, out, really, well, and, i, hope, that, he, will, be, able, to, work, here, at, the, back, end, to, help, with, the, testing, he, is, easy, going, and, has, a, good, s, african, protestant, work, ethic, always, happy, to, oblige, and, is, good, to, work, with, he, is, a, good, laugh, too, always, teasing, and, playing, silly, jokes, and, has, a, great, sense, of, humour, spent, most, of, the, day, on, catch, up, after, the, week, end, did, some, calls, and, sorted, car, and, drugs, out, and, cleaned, my, kit, the, slippage, of, cleanliness, since, fmd, is, very, noticeable, especially, at, the, w, e’s, but, don’t, tell, defra, went, swimming, at, foxes, well, to, be, honest, sat, in, the, jacuzzi, and, talked, and, then, swam, 2, lengths, i, was, too, tired, to, do, much, really, i, must, start, getting, some, proper, exercise, again, or, my, back, will, suffer, tues, i, am, really, annoyed, at, defra, i, rang, and, asked, what, would, be, needed, to, put, our, vets, on, to, panel, l, which, is, what, is, needed, to, do, the, exports, for, nestle, and, panel, l, can, just, be, added, on, as, it, is, a, simple, export, thing, so, it, would, take, half, an, hour, to, do, it, this, was, last, friday, by, now, it, is, we, have, to, go, for, training, by, svs, it, should, only, take, half, an, hour, to, through, the, forms, why, can, their, yes, not, be, yes, and, their, no, be, no, so, we, have, to, spend, an, afternoon, going, to, carlisle, to, got, through, meaningless, forms, so, that, we, can, fill, in, meaning, less, forms, so, that, nestle, can, get, th, milk, through, customs, i, am, beginning, to, see, why, people, just, smuggle, things, rather, than, get, involved, in, all, this, stupid, bureaucracy, weds, went, on, the, factory, visit, to, nestles, today, to, have, a, look, around, so, that, we, know, the, plant, and, can, give, them, certification, for, the, milk, powder, for, export, the, whole, thing, is, ludicrous, as, dried, milk, powder, is, a, sterile, product, it, has, to, be, or, else, it, goes, off, very, quickly, so, why, we, have, to, certify, that, it, has, been, pasteurised, i, don, not, know, but, hey, its, money, the, size, and, quantity, and, the, huge, amount, of, machinery, and, very, small, number, of, people, required, to, maintain, and, operate, the, plant, was, awesome, we, went, to, the, distribution, warehouse, where, there, was, just, row, upon, row, of, pallets, 3, 7, high, full, of, dried, milk, or, cappuccino, drinks, weird, to, think, mast, of, the, instant, cappuccino, is, made, in, dalston, thursday, went, for, panel, l, training, it, was, as, pointless, as, i, thought, it, would, be, took, the, opportunity, to, go, through, with, defra, admin, staff, some, of, the, queries, and, problems, at, the, moment, we, do, a, lot, of, stuff, for, defra, telling, them, who, has, stock, and, who, does, not, have, stock, to, ensure, their, database, is, relatively, up, to, date, but, it, is, a, headache, as, they, are, working, off, computer, screens, hence, mrs, f, r, of, a, farm, does, not, correlate, at, all, with, mr, e, r, of, the, same, address, the, computer, is, not, into, relationships, so, that, they, are, married, and, live, together, and, own, stock, on, the, same, piece, of, ground, does, not, really, get, off, the, ground, this, evening, was, the, final, partners, meeting, where, i, handed, in, my, notice, the, reasons, for, handing, in, my, notice, are, complex, most, decisions, probably, are, there, are, lots, of, factors, some, trivial, to, the, outsider, but, important, to, me, others, may, be, important, to, others, and, similarly, not, to, me, several, people, have, asked, is, it, a, reaction, to, fmd, the, last, casualty, in, some, ways, it, is, for, all, the, horrendous, experiences, for, all, the, long, hours, and, difficult, ethical, and, to, whom, am, i, responsible, dilemmas, it, taught, me, a, lot, about, myself, to, see, fear, in, the, eyes, of, senior, management, when, challenged, to, be, able, to, organise, a, protest, meeting, of, thirty, vets, with, jim, scudamore, to, do, the, tv, interviews, o, see, the, effect, of, feeding, information, to, journalists, to, be, able, to, break, through, by, fast, talking, and, relying, on, my, wits, to, organise, completely, new, systems, and, manage, projects, that, had, never, been, done, before, to, build, teams, from, international, backgrounds, in, the, face, of, opposition, from, the, hierarchy, to, be, constantly, caught, on, a, tight, rope, between, the, different, groupings, i, learnt, that, i, have, huge, abilities, and, to, go, back, to, normality, is, difficult, the, future, of, farm, animal, practice, is, also, very, unpredictable, there, are, a, lot, of, farms, who, are, yet, to, restock, the, cross, subsidy, of, fees, by, drug, sales, is, going, to, end, and, more, and, more, work, will, be, on, behalf, or, paid, for, by, defra, they, are, at, the, whims, of, the, politicians, and, the, treasury, they, are, also, not, the, easiest, client, to, deal, with, there, is, also, the, problem, of, being, second, in, command, and, dealing, with, the, frustrations, of, the, partnership, we, are, not, united, in, the, way, we, work, or, where, we, see, the, practice, going, this, means, my, schemes, for, diversification, for, improving, income, streams, and, managing, the, bad, debt, will, either, not, happen, or, will, become, part, of, my, workload, which, is, already, over, stretched, add, in, to, this, cock, tail, the, fact, my, wife, is, starting, to, work, and, i, have, been, given, a, really, bad, scare, by, being, tackled, by, a, cow, the, question, is, do, i, want, to, do, this, job, for, the, next, 20, years, the, answer, has, to, be, no, so, the, only, answer, is, to, hand, in, my, resignation, and, start, to, look, for, something, new, as, i, have, a, 6, month, notice, period, ending, on, an, accounting, date, i, have, to, jump, before, i, have, another, job, sorted, out, even, so, the, decision, was, very, hard, and, i, was, really, choked, up, when, i, left, them, to, discuss, the, future, i, could, not, go, home, as, the, kids, would, want, to, know, what, was, going, on, so, i, went, to, js, he, already, knew, i, will, tell, the, kids, on, friday, the, practice, manager, on, monday, and, work, on, tuesday, i, have, said, very, little, of, my, thoughts, in, the, diary, as, i, have, learnt, there, are, somethings, better, left, unwritten, until, the, time, for, the, information, to, be, public, whatever, issues, are, to, do, with, confidentiality, if, you, don’t, think, something, can, be, talked, about, then, do, not, write, it, down, as, you, never, know, who, is, going, to, read, it, a, though, got, her, self, in, to, a, stew, as, i, rang, wife, to, say, i, was, going, to, js, she, then, said, she, would, come, out, she, left, a, bit, too, hurriedly, for, a, who, then, got, it, into, her, head, that, we, had, gone, away, on, holiday, with, out, telling, them, friday, the, whole, day, was, unreal, i, knew, i, was, going, but, no, one, else, does, told, the, kids, at, tea, time, and, i, was, shocked, by, how, upset, they, were, it, has, come, as, a, shock, to, them, tim, especially, loves, coming, out, and, about, around, the, farms, with, me, there, is, also, no, what, i, am, going, to, so, it, is, just, uncertainty, on, 2nd, call, sat, 3rd, may, 2003, work, then, wash, out, i, was, on, second, last, night, and, had, 2, caesars, and, a, calving, what, the, second, caesar, was, at, 4am, so, i, felt, dreadful, all, day, young, vet, had, started, operating, and, got, stuck, so, i, went, to, the, rescue, the, cow, had, horrendous, adhesions, so, nothing, could, be, moved, around, we, spent, an, hour, and, a, half, trying, to, pull, the, calf, out, and, then, stitching, up, the, uterus, in, the, cow, i, felt, i, needed, diving, gear, on, as, i, had, both, arms, in, to, their, full, length, with, vet, beside, me, trying, to, stitch, by, feel, my, arms, were, exhausted, by, the, end, of, it, i, was, like, death, warmed, up, all, day, but, feel, i, have, definitely, made, the, right, decision, sunday, after, a, good, nights, sleep, feeling, better, my, mother, always, use, to, say, that, the, world, looks, very, different, after, a, good, nights, sleep, and, a, cooked, breakfast, i, do, not, need, a, cooked, breakfast, my, stress, levels, have, been, that, high, that, i, have, been, eating, far, too, much, i, am, going, to, go, on, a, diet, the, usual, promise, to, myself, my, weight, is, going, up, fast, so, i, will, have, to, cut, down, and, start, to, exercise, a, lot, more, went, to, see, the, practice, manager, to, tell, him, that, i, have, handed, in, my, notice, i, have, decided, to, see, him, on, his, own, so, that, he, has, a, chance, to, process, it, before, work, on, tuesday, he, is, overweight, and, stressed, and, that, type, to, have, a, heart, attack, so, treat, him, gently, he, is, also, a, good, friend, so, i, should, give, him, some, warning, so, i, spent, an, hour, chatting, it, through, and, talking, which, is, a, good, a, way, as, any, of, spending, a, sunday, afternoon, mon, bank, holiday, another, bank, holiday, working, but, at, least, it, is, fairly, quiet, so, spent, most, of, the, day, working, in, the, garden, the, kids, were, away, in, the, morning, doing, various, things, and, then, met, up, for, lunch, with, friends, which, was, really, nice, they, had, been, down, to, visit, family, in, the, lake, district, they, had, hired, a, couple, of, cottages, for, the, w, e, and, all, met, up, they, are, really, amazing, people, they, are, both, doctors, and, i, went, out, to, visit, them, in, thailand, which, was, brilliant, fun, he, was, working, with, leprosy, and, aids, cases, they, have, come, home, and, are, sharing, a, gp’s, job, between, them, she, is, also, doing, a, diploma, in, diabetes, they, are, also, doing, deputation, work, to, raise, money, for, the, work, of, omf, in, thailand, and, asia, they, have, 4, kids, and, it, was, really, nice, to, see, them, all, again, the, kids, are, similar, ages, i, really, felt, for, them, because, they, have, gone, from, home, schooling, to, schools, in, edinburgh, in, the, big, city, so, they, have, the, double, culture, shock, of, coming, to, the, uk, and, being, schooled, in, a, complete, different, way, they, are, also, very, bright, kids, and, having, had, individual, attention, from, a, very, focussed, mother, they, are, miles, ahead, of, the, rest, of, their, classes, yet, they, do, not, have, the, social, skills, to, adapt, to, the, rough, and, tumble, of, life, in, a, city, comprehensive, mobile, phones, are, not, a, must, have, item, in, rural, thailand, good, to, see, them, all, tuesday, today, i, announced, the, fact, i, was, leaving, to, those, at, work, i, had, thought, about, how, i, should, do, it, and, what, i, was, to, say, it, is, quite, difficult, both, from, an, emotional, point, of, view, and, from, the, fact, that, i, think, that, the, business, in, the, longer, term, will, have, problems, this, has, both, a, direct, relevance, for, the, lay, staff, and, their, jobs, though, there, will, still, be, a, similar, number, needed, as, their, workload, is, likely, to, remain, the, same, and, also, for, the, vets, two, of, whom, may, or, may, not, be, approached, to, buy, into, the, business, there, will, also, in, the, longer, term, be, a, smaller, number, of, vets, needed, but, this, will, probably, be, managed, by, natural, wastage, i, spoke, first, to, the, senior, assistants, and, then, lay, staff, it, was, hard, as, i, have, been, there, for, as, long, as, many, of, them, 15, years, which, is, a, long, time, i, think, also, there, is, an, attitude, that, the, ups, and, downs, seem, to, be, past, for, them, there, was, a, lot, of, upheaval, over, the, move, from, b, v, up, to, s, park, fmd, is, over, and, things, are, suppose, to, be, getting, back, on, to, an, even, keel, and, i, throw, a, spanner, in, the, works, weds, spent, the, evening, phoning, friends, and, relatives, to, let, them, know, that, i, had, handed, in, my, notice, and, sending, off, for, job, details, on, two, jobs, and, applying, for, another, i, am, not, sure, what, i, am, looking, for, so, at, the, moment, i, am, just, sending, off, for, anything, that, seems, interesting, and, waiting, and, seeing, it, seems, an, unreal, situation, in, so, many, ways, i, also, had, to, phone, the, bank, manager, both, to, arrange, our, annual, visit, and, to, tell, him, that, i, was, leaving, again, getting, the, balance, between, moving, on, and, being, positive, with, out, pointing, out, the, dangers, in, the, future, of, large, animal, practice, was, a, difficult, balance, after, the, initial, shock, all, power, to, him, as, a, salesman, banker, he, then, asked, whether, i, would, be, needing, any, banking, requirements, so, at, least, if, i, do, start, up, an, independent, vet, small, business, consultancy, i, will, have, a, bank, account, to, run, it, from, thursday, a, quit, day, as, no, testing, so, tackled, some, of, the, back, log, in, admin, spent, a, lot, of, time, setting, up, the, systems, and, know, how, folder, for, nestle, we, have, taken, over, the, work, for, doing, the, lvi, work, for, the, nestle, factory, at, dalston, as, they, have, fallen, out, with, the, previous, practice, when, we, took, it, on, i, assumed, it, would, be, the, odd, bit, of, work, but, in, fact, it, is, a, huge, amount, of, work, so, it, is, going, to, take, some, sorting, out, i, also, feel, a, bit, off, as, i, have, handed, in, my, notice, and, yet, i, am, setting, all, this, up, and, i, ma, not, going, to, benefit, from, it, at, all, i, suppose, it, comes, back, to, wanting, to, do, what, is, right, and, that, we, should, serve, god, and, not, man, it, is, always, a, useful, measuring, stick, to, use, to, work, out, motivations, and, what, should, be, done, in, a, situation, who, am, i, trying, to, do, this, for, me, the, practice, the, client, or, am, i, doing, what, jesus, would, do, friday, another, bad, hair, day, had, real, problems, trying, to, fit, the, extra, work, into, the, day, and, so, got, a, bit, frayed, around, the, edges, fortunately, next, week, will, probably, be, the, last, thank, goodness, the, practice, that, used, to, do, the, nestle, work, was, on, the, phone, to, me, and, not, very, friendly, hey, ho, went, out, for, a, meal, with, friends, which, was, great, they, are, the, church, youth, leaders, and, are, really, switched, on, but, i, think, need, more, support, and, help, hopefully, once, the, 1st, of, october, hits, i, will, be, able, to, get, more, involved, went, to, the, royal, oak, at, welton, which, just, has, been, re, done, and, is, serving, food, on, a, proper, basis, as, well, as, having, a, pub, part, more, like, a, restaurant, wife, s, food, was, excellent, mine, was, ok, i, had, an, indian, trio, of, samosa, and, 2, bharji, to, start, with, i, am, afraid, i, have, been, spoilt, by, real, indian, food, so, i, should, not, have, bothered, going, for, it, in, a, cumbrian, pub, saturday, may, 10th, saturday, may, 10th, a, day, off, after, too, many, days, working, and, too, much, stress, it, was, really, nice, just, to, be, around, home, doing, the, garden, and, not, really, worrying, what, else, is, going, on, in, the, world, i, needed, some, space, and, i, am, pleased, to, have, got, it, at, long, last, it, is, amazing, how, much, better, the, world, looks, after, a, good, nights, sleep, and, a, some, time, off, in, the, afternoon, the, c, boys, came, around, and, we, took, them, to, see, new, chicks, s, was, there, and, i, did, not, want, to, go, down, the, route, of, explaining, why, i, had, made, the, decision, i, had, to, leave, so, chickened, out, of, telling, her, i, suppose, i, am, happy, with, it, and, i, just, want, to, forget, about, for, the, w, e, so, we, arrived, with, 7, boys, which, is, quite, brave, fortunately, we, could, not, stay, long, as, we, had, to, be, back, to, go, out, to, gianni’s, with, d, he, took, us, out, and, it, was, really, good, fun, the, kids, were, all, in, good, form, came, back, and, watched, the, first, part, of, a, dvd, on, john, grisham’s, book, the, client, he, is, an, excellent, writer, and, although, film, can, never, develop, the, characters, the, same, as, a, book, so, the, film, was, good, but, only, ok, sunday, 11th, church, was, good, this, morning, and, it, was, good, to, be, there, and, spent, ages, chatting, to, folk, but, came, back, to, lunch, with, a, couple, who, stayed, too, long, there, are, some, people, i, find, really, draining, and, she, is, one, it, is, awful, but, i, get, really, wound, up, and, just, want, them, to, go, after, about, 30, minutes, they, came, for, lunch, and, did, not, leave, until, after, tea, so, i, was, almost, going, spare, monday, 12th, i, find, the, silence, around, the, fact, i, am, going, a, bit, unnerving, it, is, a, bit, elephant, and, coffee, table, really, a, lot, of, the, farmers, i, suppose, don’t, yet, know, or, if, they, do, how, to, respond, today’s, frustrations, are, all, with, things, not, working, bt, have, sent, me, a, bill, for, 115, for, fixing, the, line, that, was, struck, by, lightening, i, was, put, through, three, depts, before, i, gave, up, i, may, try, just, not, paying, and, see, if, they, can, register, the, fact, the, bill, is, being, disputed, the, other, frustration, is, the, car, doors, have, gone, again, in, wife, s, car, which, is, incredibly, frustrating, they, have, been, fixed, and, fixed, and, fixed, although, it, is, under, warranty, i, am, getting, to, the, stage, that, i, feel, we, are, being, fobbed, off, tues, 13th, i, went, to, hear, mg, from, the, licc, london, institute, of, contemporary, christianity, speak, at, the, living, word, this, is, a, series, that, happens, every, spring, and, is, organised, by, a, group, of, ministers, and, folk, from, carlisle, he, is, a, very, interesting, speaker, he, is, an, ex, ad, man, and, his, whole, message, is, to, get, the, church, to, look, out, side, of, it, self, he, thinks, that, christianity, in, the, west, has, become, a, leisure, time, activity, and, is, not, impacting, the, rest, of, peoples, lives, there, is, a, concept, of, the, sacred, secular, divide, the, church, does, not, get, involved, in, secular, things, work, culture, the, arts, sport, and, in, some, ways, philosophy, too, whereas, there, should, be, no, divide, christ, is, either, lord, of, all, or, not, at, all, he, also, is, a, very, amusing, speaker, he, was, talking, about, how, technology, is, usually, neutral, but, how, it, is, used, has, very, far, reaching, effects, on, family, work, and, society, he, used, the, microwave, as, an, example, with, a, very, amusing, story, about, how, he, managed, to, save, the, sleep, of, the, whole, of, north, london, by, using, the, new, fangled, microwave, to, heat, his, daughter’s, midnight, bottle, thereby, saving, the, chancellor, huge, sums, in, lost, revenue, with, typical, jewish, hyperbole, he, then, moved, on, to, his, kids, now, teenagers, not, coming, in, for, the, meal, he, has, prepared, but, reheating, it, in, the, microwave, and, how, that, led, to, a, lack, of, communication, and, again, hyperbole, to, his, angst, about, not, understanding, the, younger, generation, as, this, is, a, diary, about, fmd, how, do, i, relate, this, to, my, experience, of, fmd, on, the, simple, level, the, culture, within, defra, needs, to, change, servant, hood, whether, by, civil, servants, or, politicians, has, been, forgotten, truth, will, out, spin, will, fall, computers, should, be, a, tool, of, all, and, master, of, none, organisations, need, to, have, a, human, face, for, people, to, relate, to, whether, it, is, the, brigadier, or, the, cvo, people, are, individuals, created, by, god, and, have, feelings, and, are, not, numbers, or, statistics, the, post, modernist, human, secularism, where, truth, is, relative, where, brown, can, announce, that, everything, is, under, control, can, mislead, parliament, and, people, and, it, is, acceptable, i, actually, strongly, feel, that, the, current, presidential, style, of, where, no, one, can, make, a, decision, with, out, refer, to, their, boss, is, a, poor, model, pain, disaster, illness, and, trouble, are, part, of, the, human, condition, part, of, the, fall, of, evil, in, the, world, enough, philosophy, its, time, for, bed, monday, 17th, may, this, was, the, big, golden, wedding, anniversary, day, it, was, wife, s, parents, golden, wedding, and, her, brothers, and, family, all, came, to, stay, for, the, w, e, the, celebration, meal, was, at, lyzzick, hall, in, keswick, the, big, surprise, for, wife, s, mum, was, that, her, bridesmaid, and, husband, were, coming, over, from, canada, j, picked, them, up, from, the, airport, and, took, them, to, a, b, b, other, friends, were, also, coming, as, a, surprise, rp, started, the, surprises, by, coming, in, dressed, as, a, waitress, she, came, in, and, offered, wife, s, mum, a, drink, and, she, was, really, overcome, the, other, surprises, of, bridesmaid, and, canadians, was, really, nice, to, see, the, younger, parts, of, the, clan, went, off, to, the, climbing, wall, while, the, older, part, went, for, a, look, at, the, lake, in, the, rain, it, was, a, really, nice, day, ended, by, a, firework, display, thanks, to, c, as, he, grew, up, in, belfast, during, the, troubles, and, fireworks, were, banned, he, has, a, real, passion, for, them, now, as, a, big, kid, sunday, went, to, church, with, everyone, a, very, mixed, group, but, they, coped, p, spoke, in, the, morning, meeting, he, was, very, good, he, is, a, publisher, and, was, talking, about, the, church, in, china, as, he, has, just, helped, to, publish, a, book, about, some, of, the, christian, house, church, it, makes, the, materialistic, church, in, the, west, look, very, weak, and, un, spiritual, in, the, evening, mm, spoke, on, the, christian, at, work, which, was, very, good, and, very, funny, he, was, a, bed, sales, man, when, he, was, a, student, and, he, was, very, funny, about, how, he, made, shy, engaged, couples, lie, down, and, try, the, beds, this, really, tickled, other, son, age, 8, much, to, his, gran’s, tut, tutting, the, point, he, was, making, in, between, the, jokes, was, that, he, had, been, told, that, he, was, to, say, that, the, bed, s, would, all, be, delivered, in, 3, 4, weeks, when, in, fact, it, could, be, up, to, 6, weeks, but, the, shop, keeper, thought, this, would, put, people, off, this, meant, that, mm, ended, up, in, bother, with, couples, arriving, back, from, their, honey, moon, to, no, bed, so, he, decided, to, listen, to, god’s, way, and, tell, the, truth, which, he, said, like, most, biblical, teaching, is, obvious, once, it, is, explained, and, tell, people, the, truth, not, what, they, want, to, hear, mon, went, and, read, the, tb, test, for, the, tenant, farmer, there, was, 1, i, r, the, reaction, of, the, farmer, took, me, back, fairly, badly, and, i, was, quite, shocked, at, the, sheer, vehemence, of, his, reaction, fortunately, it, was, mostly, at, defra, he, went, out, early, on, to, the, disease, and, he, therefore, got, much, lower, compensation, than, a, lot, of, the, later, ones, he, had, some, cattle, wintering, at, his, farm, for, some, one, else, who, went, out, later, on, with, fmd, at, his, home, holding, the, difference, in, the, valuations, for, the, same, type, of, cattle, was, horrendous, he, also, has, buildings, that, he, owns, on, a, small, parcel, of, land, the, buildings, were, old, and, knackered, but, usable, a, lot, of, string, and, gates, defra, pulled, them, to, pieces, during, fmd, and, then, offered, him, peanuts, o, reinstate, them, which, meant, he, could, not, get, them, back, into, a, usable, state, so, he, is, not, a, happy, bunny, spent, the, afternoon, castrating, horses, which, is, not, my, favourite, job, if, a, stirk, kicks, you, it, hurts, if, a, horse, kicks, you, it, usually, means, a, trip, in, an, ambulance, you, are, therefore, very, tense, and, ready, to, move, in, awkward, positions, canadians, and, wife, s, parents, headed, off, for, a, trip, around, the, borders, in, our, people, carrier, they, are, coming, back, to, swap, over, cars, at, the, end, of, the, week, wife, has, the, tank, to, run, around, in, for, the, week, tuesday, my, back, is, twinging, from, the, castrating, and, a, calving, yesterday, and, is, really, sore, so, did, paperwork, while, sitting, like, a, ramrod, until, i, gave, up, and, came, back, to, lie, down, did, the, back, exercises, hourly, but, it, just, got, stiffer, and, sorer, weds, spent, morning, reading, in, bed, and, doing, back, exercises, but, cannot, get, it, moving, went, to, see, the, accountant, in, the, afternoon, to, sort, out, the, practicalities, of, going, freelance, and, finishing, at, the, vets, thursday, back, is, a, lot, better, and, starting, to, move, much, more, freely, the, first, negative, comment, on, me, leaving, today, came, from, a, farmer, who, has, decided, that, the, only, way, to, make, money, is, to, go, for, 300, cows, he, has, therefore, planned, all, this, designed, new, parlours, been, to, look, at, other, large, herds, thought, it, all, through, unfortunately, his, costings, are, on, buying, in, dairy, cows, at, 6, 700, per, head, and, just, recently, they, have, gone, to, over, a, thousand, which, means, he, is, out, by, 60k, oops, but, he, said, that, he, thought, i, was, deserting, them, in, a, way, i, suppose, i, am, back, in, to, being, on, call, with, a, vengeance, a, calving, a, caesar, a, prolapsed, uterus, hey, ho, friday, interesting, statistic, on, the, radio, whether, it, is, right, or, wrong, i, do, not, know, in, the, eu, the, average, beef, cow, is, subsidised, to, the, tune, of, 2, per, week, the, average, african, earns, less, than, that, the, canadians, and, wife, s, parents, arrived, back, from, their, trip, around, the, borders, the, good, news, is, they, baby, sat, or, teenage, and, child, minded, while, we, went, out, to, the, lemon, lounge, the, bad, news, is, they, are, to, feed, and, look, after, over, the, w, e, my, brother, and, family, arrive, tomorrow, so, it, will, be, a, bit, crowded, it, was, really, nice, to, be, out, on, our, own, with, relative, peace, around, us, the, noise, from, an, office, party, does, not, impinge, as, it, is, nothing, to, do, with, us, saturday, 31st, may, 2003, a, gardening, day, we, decided, that, we, would, have, to, get, the, place, sorted, out, so, spent, most, of, the, day, in, the, sunshine, pulling, weeds, and, sorting, out, the, garden, it, was, a, beautiful, day, my, back, was, pretty, sore, by, the, end, of, the, day, but, we, got, it, nearly, all, sorted, which, was, good, the, boys, cut, the, lawn, and, a, sat, on, it, and, read, her, book, another, bbq, by, the, end, of, the, day, a, made, the, salads, while, the, boys, cooked, so, it, was, a, family, meal, wife, and, the, older, two, headed, for, tesco’s, while, i, cleared, the, debris, away, sunday, june, 1st, the, sun, is, still, flaming, but, the, seeds, and, seedlings, are, looking, a, bit, sad, and, whithered, in, spite, of, the, watering, i, have, really, enjoyed, the, week, off, but, there, has, been, very, little, on, fmd, met, up, with, friends, at, church, home, visiting, parents, in, the, evening, caught, up, with, the, as, he, is, an, indian, gastro, enterologist, who, worked, at, carlisle, they, now, work, in, bombay, so, it, was, good, to, see, them, they, are, hoping, to, set, up, an, aids, hospice, there, are, currently, over, a, million, people, who, are, hiv, ve, in, bombay, monday, back, to, work, and, quite, busy, so, it, looks, as, if, the, june, quiet, period, is, not, going, to, materialise, with, folk, on, holiday, it, makes, it, seem, busier, any, way, it, took, me, until, 4pm, to, get, to, my, in, tray, which, after, a, week, was, overflowing, as, usual, tuesday, this, is, more, like, june, long, lunch, and, spent, the, morning, trying, to, get, the, accountancy, package, up, to, date, sent, off, another, speculative, e, mail, job, application, a, friend, from, church, who, is, now, studying, physio, therapy, at, glasgow, came, and, insisted, wife, i, went, out, for, a, walk, together, which, was, really, nice, he, is, a, really, nice, young, guy, went, to, beach, at, beckfoot, where, we, were, the, only, ones, walking, the, beach, there, was, one, serious, kiter, i, have, not, seen, such, a, serious, kite, for, a, long, time, it, was, fairly, windy, and, he, had, it, anchored, behind, him, so, as, not, to, be, taking, off, with, it, weds, spent, the, morning, doing, fertilities, and, then, spent, time, sorting, out, issues, with, george, there, was, so, little, work, it, is, boring, for, the, assistants, the, june, quiet, patch, ahs, arrived, the, bills, did, not, go, due, to, a, computer, upgrade, cocking, the, system, up, the, systems, are, now, so, complex, they, are, beyond, any, reasonable, way, of, keeping, tabs, you, have, to, trust, the, experts, who, you, don’t, thursday, day, off, spent, it, writing, out, a, business, proposal, to, try, and, get, work, via, a, consultancy, firm, then, tried, fixing, the, extractor, fan, and, failed, thursby, football, club, is, going, really, well, with, some, more, lads, coming, along, the, standard, is, variable, but, good, fun, friday, tb, testing, again, at, fs, they, had, just, heard, about, me, leaving, and, were, full, of, questions, the, night, was, really, busy, on, first, call, and, had, lots, going, on, wife, was, at, a, retreat, thinking, through, the, future, and, reporting, on, the, last, year, so, i, was, trying, to, juggle, kids, as, well, saturday, 7th, june, 2003, last, night, was, terrible, with, a, dog, to, see, in, the, middle, of, the, night, and, put, down, it, was, only, a, young, dog, but, it, had, leukaemia, and, was, not, responding, to, treatment, it, had, colic, probably, from, the, mesenteric, lymph, nodes, and, was, rolling, around, in, pain, not, nice, for, them, or, me, sat, am, was, busy, too, went, to, one, of, the, organic, farms, to, see, an, ill, cow, post, calving, he, was, saying, that, there, are, three, farmers, all, none, fmd, giving, up, milking, one, is, another, organic, dairy, farm, he, was, promised, a, premium, of, 10p, per, litre, and, his, costings, were, based, on, 28p, per, litre, he, is, getting, a, premium, of, less, than, 0.5p, per, litre, which, takes, it, to, 16p, the, figures, do, not, add, up, so, he, is, giving, up, the, other, 2, are, small, farms, who, cannot, make, it, work, 40, 50, cows, slept, in, the, afternoon, and, went, to, a, party, in, the, evening, bizarrely, as, we, were, walking, in, the, people, whose, dog, i, put, to, sleep, last, night, walked, in, as, well, they, live, next, door, and, had, been, invited, as, well, weird, spent, time, chatting, but, came, to, 10, and, i, was, dead, on, my, feet, sunday, 8th, the, on, call, changes, from, 2nd, back, up, to, 1st, at, 8, 30, am, the, phone, started, at, 8, 35, urghhh, i, am, finding, it, very, hard, to, have, any, enthusiasm, knowing, that, i, ma, leaving, in, a, few, months, one, of, the, farms, i, was, on, has, given, up, dairy, and, were, hoping, to, retire, fmd, year, but, lost, money, because, of, all, the, restrictions, so, they, are, now, hoping, to, finish, this, back, end, may, be, they, were, hoping, to, keep, the, milk, quota, and, lease, it, out, as, a, pension, but, because, of, the, new, rules, they, will, have, to, sell, it, and, the, price, is, low, as, there, are, a, lot, of, non, producers, who, are, in, the, same, boat, it, was, at, its, height, worth, 1, per, litre, a, lot, was, bought, and, sold, in, the, 40, 60p, per, litre, it, is, now, around, the, 10p, mark, funny, world, agriculture, monday, 9th, calving, at, 5am, followed, by, other, calls, so, an, early, start, busy, day, at, work, went, to, a, meeting, for, the, new, crusaders, support, worker, it, is, supposed, to, be, county, wide, but, is, going, to, be, based, around, kendal, as, that, is, where, the, legacy, that, is, providing, a, lot, of, the, money, is, based, so, it, is, less, relevant, tot, this, end, of, cumbria, so, i, have, backed, out, of, the, organisation, committee, as, most, of, the, meetings, will, be, at, rydal, too, far, for, me, we, were, there, tonight, so, did, not, get, back, until, 11, 30, which, after, a, w, e, on, call, is, too, late, for, this, bunny, tuesday, 10th, spent, 45, mins, on, the, phone, trying, to, work, out, what, i, am, going, to, be, doing, in, oct, with, a, guy, from, pfizer, i, then, had, to, spend, the, rest, of, the, evening, sorting, out, the, emails, i, needed, to, send, to, him, weds, 11th, spent, the, morning, having, nursery, visits, where, the, local, infants, schools, come, around, the, vets, and, i, give, my, wee, guided, tour, it, is, quite, fun, and, the, little, things, that, we, do, they, really, love, blowing, up, the, anaesthetic, bag, the, x, ray, quiz, and, listening, to, dog’s, hearts, i, always, take, some, of, son, s, chickens, in, as, well, as, most, kids, are, not, use, to, having, birds, or, handling, them, son, has, spent, so, many, hours, carrying, them, around, they, are, fairly, tame, and, used, to, being, picked, up, i, don’t, know, that, effort, pays, back, in, commercial, terms, but, it, is, fun, football, training, in, the, evening, with, 20, lads, which, was, brilliant, thursday, 12th, on, call, and, exhausted, after, the, excitement, of, the, week, the, phone, went, at, 7pm, from, the, answering, service, to, say, that, a, women, had, rung, and, asked, for, the, pass, word, for, the, alarm, this, of, course, meant, nothing, to, those, answering, the, phone, i, however, put, 2, 2, together, to, work, out, that, the, alarm, at, the, practice, and, gone, off, and, that, the, police, would, be, on, their, way, why, does, this, always, happen, when, you, are, in, the, bath, so, i, jumped, out, the, bath, and, rushed, down, to, find, out, what, was, going, on, there, was, a, police, man, there, who, was, waiting, for, me, to, lead, the, way, in, we, found, a, very, scared, dog, sitting, in, the, prep, room, having, escaped, from, its, kennel, it, then, took, an, hour, to, get, the, alarms, reset, life, is, a, rich, tapestry, friday, 13th, went, to, lawyers, today, to, meet, up, to, go, through, the, dissolution, of, the, partnership, bit, sad, in, a, way, but, another, nail, bashed, in, to, my, leaving, coffin, finished, work, and, spent, evening, playing, football, and, doing, some, coaching, which, was, good, fun, son, was, off, school, today, he, was, full, of, cold, and, just, exhausted, he, just, needed, time, out, really, he, goes, at, everything, at, 110, saturday, 14th, june, 2003, working, am, why, is, it, even, if, you, have, a, few, quiet, days, in, the, week, by, the, time, the, w, e, comes, it, is, busy, again, really, warm, so, sunshine, and, gardening, a, had, decided, she, was, going, to, do, a, changing, rooms, on, the, double, room, in, the, cottage, so, she, and, a, friend, worked, away, all, day, at, it, i, was, very, impressed, by, the, time, we, had, finished, our, barbeque, in, the, evening, it, was, all, back, to, ship, shape, and, was, finished, she, is, some, pup, sunday, went, down, to, whitehaven, to, see, the, tall, ships, in, the, harbour, there, was, only, one, there, which, was, disappointing, but, it, was, good, to, look, around, there, was, a, fair, buzz, about, the, place, and, heaving, with, people, as, the, weather, was, great, there, was, a, display, of, jet, ski’s, which, was, fun, to, watch, so, the, boys, are, now, on, at, me, to, try, and, have, a, go, the, red, arrows, were, brilliant, they, have, a, tremendous, display, and, the, coloured, streams, they, leave, behind, in, the, sky, always, amaze, me, it, is, almost, like, they, are, writing, in, the, sky, monday, finally, decided, the, duck, eggs, were, not, going, to, hatch, so, broke, them, open, to, see, if, they, were, fertile, 1, exploded, it, was, so, rotten, urghh, only, one, had, a, half, formed, egg, in, it, so, i, think, the, eggs, were, the, problem, not, the, incubation, tuesday, testing, some, more, i, r’s, for, tb, though, the, history, is, wrong, so, i, hope, that, they, will, clear, a, new, vet, student, turned, up, in, the, afternoon, she, is, staying, with, us, until, the, w, e, then, with, colleague, the, vets, is, going, to, have, to, find, new, accommodation, for, students, went, to, the, training, evening, for, the, soccer, coaching, it, was, a, form, filling, exercise, and, orientation, so, it, was, boring, but, i, am, on, the, course, which, is, good, at, least, i, well, have, the, piece, of, paper, at, the, end, of, it, weds, footie, training, at, night, only, the, hard, core, turned, up, so, looks, like, we, will, have, a, good, group, of, 14, 15, which, means, we, will, not, have, to, choose, and, disappoint, went, for, a, run, afterwards, as, feeling, in, need, of, exercise, as, not, much, large, animal, work, at, the, moment, means, i, am, sitting, around, on, the, computer, for, a, lot, of, the, day, which, is, sad, must, get, fit, is, a, constant, resolution, spent, the, evening, up, at, sandal, watching, the, sun, go, down, away, from, the, phone, and, chaos, at, home, thursday, i, was, at, work, when, i, had, a, phone, call, from, some, one, who, had, apparently, run, over, son, at, school, never, an, easy, phone, call, to, take, espy, as, she, did, not, know, what, had, happened, fortunately, he, was, ok, he, had, been, walking, backwards, and, had, stepped, into, the, path, of, a, car, which, had, caught, his, heel, the, damage, was, slight, but, it, had, upset, him, the, school, exit, is, appalling, and, needs, sorted, as, busses, cars, and, bikes, all, share, the, same, area, as, the, kids, walking, inevitably, kids, are, jostling, and, messing, around, so, it, is, an, accident, waiting, to, happen, friday, half, day, as, wife, is, starting, her, next, w, e, counselling, course, could, not, really, get, going, as, a, calving, early, this, am, and, a, call, late, last, night, so, having, run, on, adrenalin, for, all, the, week, i, collapse, in, to, a, heap, and, find, it, hard, to, get, going, and, get, motivated, spent, the, afternoon, getting, organised, for, the, visitors, arriving, as, friends, are, coming, and, friend, who, was, our, bridesmaid, is, coming, across, for, the, w, e, saturday, 21st, june, 2003, pay, day, i, don’t, really, know, why, it, always, sticks, in, my, mind, but, at, the, moment, with, the, 1st, of, october, looming, and, the, fact, that, the, 21st, will, not, be, a, pay, day, it, is, becoming, a, bit, scary, spent, morning, on, run, around, and, house, jobs, ferrying, to, and, from, squash, went, to, town, in, pm, with, a, son, having, left, off, the, younger, ones, at, cottinghams, and, spent, a, pleasant, half, hour, in, ottakars, even, they, were, running, low, on, the, book, the, latest, harry, potter, which, i, had, meant, to, order, via, internet, but, had, not, quite, got, around, to, the, statistic, is, that, she, is, expected, to, sell, 6, every, second, over, the, w, e, she, makes, 1, per, book, which, means, 360, per, minute, 21,600, per, hour, not, a, bad, hourly, rate, or, just, over, a, million, quid, for, the, w, e, as, every, other, person, on, the, tills, was, buying, a, copy, i, can, well, believe, it, sun, 22nd, church, in, the, morning, was, joint, communion, and, was, lead, by, the, denton, holm, house, group, the, church, meets, up, in, small, groups, mid, week, to, pray, and, study, bible, and, the, denton, holme, grp, lead, the, service, it, means, you, get, a, refreshingly, different, type, of, service, with, different, people, taking, part, and, leading, it, was, good, followed, by, a, picnic, in, the, park, which, was, ok, but, i, just, wanted, to, fall, asleep, in, the, sunshine, i, am, suffering, from, stopping, syndrome, i, can, keep, going, on, the, adrenalin, but, when, i, stop, thump, i, fall, asleep, and, can, not, get, going, picked, up, liz, from, church, in, the, evening, having, left, youngest, two, at, home, as, wife, was, late, back, from, her, course, thank, goodness, for, mobile, phones, or, rather, at, least, they, manage, to, make, a, complex, life, possible, really, i, should, have, let, her, pick, up, friend, and, missed, church, and, upset, a, by, telling, her, she, couldn’t, go, but, it, all, worked, out, in, the, end, mon, 23rd, friend, arrived, at, some, terrible, hour, she, finally, left, bristol, after, 8pm, after, meaning, to, leave, at, lunchtime, so, as, wife, and, i, were, exhausted, we, did, not, get, up, to, welcome, her, work, is, really, quiet, with, very, little, happening, son, is, in, a, strop, cos, we, will, not, let, him, go, sailing, after, cricket, after, school, as, he, will, be, exhausted, he, takes, after, us, if, there, is, a, possibility, we, try, to, achieve, it, our, own, fault, really, but, it, is, weird, how, you, see, your, own, faults, coming, through, in, your, children, tues, 24th, spent, the, day, talking, to, people, on, the, phone, trying, to, get, funding, for, the, research, project, have, a, few, leads, and, ideas, to, get, together, so, should, be, interesting, to, see, if, it, comes, together, weds, 25th, started, at, 4am, with, a, caesarean, which, was, really, nice, as, that, time, in, the, morning, is, beautiful, it, is, just, a, shame, that, the, rest, of, the, day, is, a, bit, of, a, wash, out, because, of, it, went, at, night, to, the, fa, training, course, which, was, class, room, based, on, a, warm, sunny, evening, and, i, was, struggling, to, stay, with, it, i, have, also, decided, that, i, need, to, get, fit, as, the, practical, day, is, going, to, be, very, long, for, my, unfit, legs, thursday, the, electrician, arrived, to, sort, out, the, electrics, in, the, bathroom, which, are, still, not, right, the, lights, keep, fusing, and, the, fan, will, not, work, i, had, a, look, at, the, wiring, which, is, a, mess, and, decided, i, could, not, follow, it, and, after, my, last, experience, i, decided, i, would, just, pay, him, to, keep, him, in, a, job, i, had, a, very, enjoyable, day, off, played, son, at, squash, and, lost, now, not, only, is, he, better, than, me, at, football, but, squash, a, swell, all, down, hill, from, here, on, in, went, to, church, in, the, evening, as, rw, was, speaking, it, was, interesting, to, hear, him, though, was, more, a, chat, than, a, biblical, exposition, friday, the, email, from, the, verse, of, the, day, seems, to, sum, up, a, years, worth, of, diaries, when, times, are, good, be, happy, but, when, times, are, bad, consider, god, has, made, the, one, as, well, as, the, other, therefore, a, man, cannot, discover, anything, about, his, future, ecclesiastes, 7, 14, new, international, version, the, future, is, uncertain, i, will, leave, my, job, in, a, few, months, time, for, a, new, start, the, pressures, of, fmd, seem, to, be, distant, in, the, warm, summer, weather, and, in, the, quiet, workload, making, me, feel, rested, and, relaxed, the, challenges, both, for, agriculture, the, veterinary, practice, and, for, policymakers, are, still, very, large, there, is, now, a, threat, of, bio, terrorism, to, add, to, the, food, scares, and, the, threat, of, exotic, disease, life, carries, on, we, may, not, learn, from, all, our, mistakes, and, government, depts, are, a, blunt, slow, awkward, machine, but, the, cows, will, still, need, to, be, milked, and, we, will, still, need, food, on, our, table, if, in, 68, you, told, some, one, that, we, had, not, had, an, outbreak, of, fmd, for, 35, years, they, would, have, said, well, done, if, you, had, said, 2, men, were, milking, 300, cows, on, a, cumbrian, farm, and, getting, 7000, litres, per, cow, he, would, never, have, believed, you, there, is, a, time, for, everything, and, a, season, for, every, activity, under, the, heaven, a, time, to, be, born, and, a, time, to, die, a, time, to, plant, and, a, time, to, uproot, a, time, to, kill, and, a, time, to, heal, a, time, to, tear, down, and, a, time, to, build, a, time, to, weep, and, a, time, to, laugh, a, time, to, mourn, and, a, time, to, dance, a, time, to, scatter, stones, and, a, time, to, gather, them, a, time, to, embrace, and, a, time, to, refrain, a, time, to, search, and, a, time, to, give, up, a, time, to, keep, and, a, time, to, throw, away, a, time, to, tear, and, a, time, to, mend, a, time, to, be, silent, and, a, time, to, speak, a, time, to, love, and, a, time, to, hate, a, time, for, war, and, a, time, for, peace]
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paper, diary, has, lots, of, newspaper, cuttings, and, other, related, material, week, beginning, 25th, february, 2002, after, the, snow, which, fell, at, the, weekend, melted, combined, with, the, additional, rainfall, many, of, the, fields, surrounding, the, village, as, well, as, the, roads, were, flooded, usually, this, wouldn't, concern, you, much, however, with, the, burial, site, being, so, close, and, the, number, of, underground, streams, in, the, area, it, does, become, worrying, there, isn't, any, guarantee, that, groundwater, in, the, surrounding, area, won't, become, effected, and, to, what, extent, there, seem, to, be, a, number, of, aspects, to, me, concerning, this, issue, which, remain, unclear, for, example, what, exactly, can, be, carried, in, water, and, how, might, this, effect, people, in, the, area, what, is, being, tested, for, in, the, surrounding, streams, what, exactly, is, classed, as, a, danger, and, if, problems, did, arise, how, would, they, be, monitored, and, resolved, all, these, issues, do, tend, to, make, you, anxious, in, particular, on, monday, when, i, was, out, walking, my, dog, i, noticed, a, couple, of, drains, which, i, passed, looked, as, if, they, were, blocked, and, there, was, a, lot, of, water, around, it, just, makes, you, wonder, how, much, has, come, possibly, from, the, burial, site, and, if, it, is, actually, safe, my, worries, on, monday, about, the, groundwater, were, even, more, emphasised, by, the, statement, i, heard, on, the, border, news, on, tuesday, by, the, environment, agency, this, statement, was, concerning, the, future, safety, of, the, groundwater, in, the, area, around, the, burial, site, the, agency, could, give, no, guarantee, that, the, groundwater, would, not, become, affected, in, the, future, since, then, i, have, heard, no, further, news, about, the, issue, there, may, be, more, information, on, news, reports, i, missed, in, my, opinion, not, enough, information, is, given, to, the, public, about, these, issues, results, of, testing, by, the, environment, agency, are, meant, to, be, available, to, the, public, however, i, have, never, heard, much, about, the, details, i, think, more, effort, should, be, made, to, inform, in, particular, resident, near, burial, sites, as, these, issues, are, bound, to, be, important, to, them, after, hearing, the, news, i, did, become, more, worried, but, at, the, end, of, the, day, there, is, little, we, can, really, do, ourselves, you, find, yourself, having, to, trust, people, or, agencies, you, know, little, about, and, just, hoping, everything, will, be, alright, on, tuesday, also, noticed, a, horrible, smell, outside, so, did, my, fiancé, but, again, you, can't, be, sure, exactly, where, this, is, coming, from, or, what, is, causing, it, on, thursday, with, news, of, possible, foot, and, mouth, case, further, south, near, leeds, i, became, very, worried, that, this, whole, thing, was, going, to, start, all, over, again, my, worries, were, about, the, farmers, and, people, involved, and, how, they, would, be, affected, if, other, cases, could, be, identified, and, in, particular, affecting, my, own, life, if, animals, would, have, to, be, slaughtered, again, in, the, future, where, would, they, be, disposed, of, would, existing, burial, sites, be, reopened, as, opposed, to, finding, suitable, sites, for, new, burial, sites, it, would, seem, easier, to, reopen, burial, sites, but, what, would, this, mean, for, the, future, and, to, what, extent, would, the, health, risks, be, increased, i, was, very, relieved, to, hear, the, testing, of, the, foot, and, mouth, cases, came, back, negative, i, was, relieved, for, the, people, involved, and, also, residents, near, burial, sites, however, this, did, raise, questions, in, my, mind, of, how, this, sort, of, situation, would, be, handled, in, the, future, and, what, consequences, it, might, have, week, 2, 4th, march, on, monday, passed, driving, test, and, now, fiancé, and, myself, are, insured, on, a, small, car, this, opens, up, so, many, opportunities, and, we, have, a, huge, sense, of, freedom, last, summer, we, had, planned, to, go, on, a, camping, holiday, with, our, dog, dog, we, had, al, our, equipment, prepared, but, were, unable, to, go, due, to, the, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, neither, of, us, imagined, how, long, and, widespread, the, outbreak, would, be, and, thought, at, first, it, would, be, over, in, a, few, weeks, now, a, year, later, we, are, able, to, replan, our, holiday, this, is, exciting, as, we, have, waited, so, long, it, is, unbelievable, to, think, how, long, it, has, taken, for, restrictions, on, the, countryside, to, return, to, as, normal, as, can, be, possible, due, to, the, circumstances, for, the, actual, people, directly, involved, in, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, this, must, have, seemed, like, far, longer, on, tuesday, i, had, a, lovely, surprise, when, i, noticed, the, lambs, in, a, field, near, my, house, when, out, walking, my, dog, it, was, lovely, to, see, and, for, a, few, minutes, things, almost, seemed, normal, again, even, though, the, burial, site, is, only, about, a, mile, away, it, is, hidden, from, view, from, the, village, you, never, forget, though, as, soon, as, you, spot, the, windmills, and, remember, the, repeated, pictures, featured, in, the, news, seeing, the, lambs, really, did, lift, my, spirits, and, the, future, after, foot, and, mouth, didn’t, seem, as, bad, as, thought, the, week, before, i, can’t, recall, the, exact, days, but, they, were, towards, the, beginning, of, the, week, on, two, particular, occasions, my, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, terrible, smell, outside, we, aren’t, sure, exactly, what, the, smell, was, just, that, it, was, very, unpleasant, the, only, other, incident, which, i, can, recall, which, stands, out, in, my, mind, this, past, week, is, a, conversation, i, had, with, my, fiancé’s, granddad, we, were, talking, about, how, bad, last, year’s, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, had, been, and, he, recalled, the, outbreak, of, 1967, he, commented, on, how, he, thought, that, outbreak, had, been, far, better, controlled, it, was, better, as, the, animals, were, killed, and, buried, on, the, actual, farms, in, lime, there, was, no, transporting, dead, or, live, animals, like, last, year, he, also, commented, on, the, fact, that, there, were, no, pyres, then, and, that, he, hadn’t, thought, it, a, good, idea, last, year, overall, he, thought, that, last, year’s, outbreak, could, have, been, dealt, with, better, and, that, action, was, taken, far, too, late, to, prevent, the, disease, spreading, week, 3, 11th, march, one, new, thing, i, have, noticed, this, week, is, the, amount, of, birds, there, are, flying, around, especially, black, crows, i, think, it, is, because, i, have, been, driving, and, every, time, i, drive, past, the, fields, at, the, south, end, of, the, village, there, are, large, amounts, of, crows, hustled, together, can, never, remember, it, being, quite, like, that, last, summer, it, makes, you, wonder, why, so, many, are, drawn, to, just, those, fields, as, i, drive, past, in, the, next, few, weeks, i, will, see, if, it, is, still, the, same, on, about, occasions, this, week, fiancé, and, i, have, noticed, a, slight, smell, outside, again, not, as, foul, smelling, but, still, noticeable, on, tuesday, saw, new, series, featured, on, itv, called, rural, lives, i, think, this, is, a, good, idea, as, the, issue, of, foot, and, mouth, is, still, very, painful, to, a, lot, of, people, and, is, not, over, yet, the, effects, are, still, happening, however, on, the, news, and, in, other, media, it, isn’t, often, mentioned, and, doesn’t, get, the, attention, it, deserves, hopefully, through, programmes, like, this, people, will, get, a, better, understanding, of, the, issues, involved, and, what, different, people, went, through, if, an, outbreak, ever, happened, again, all, the, people, involved, would, hopefully, have, a, better, idea, of, how, to, handle, the, actual, crisis, and, a, better, idea, of, people’s, needs, for, example, the, farmers, these, are, long, term, effects, which, can’t, be, ignored, my, mum, came, out, for, a, couple, of, nights, she, loves, coming, out, to, see, us, as, she, lives, in, carlisle, it, is, a, total, change, of, scenery, she, thought, it, was, great, and, enjoyed, taking, my, dog, on, long, walks, which, she, was, unable, to, do, for, a, long, time, we, went, to, see, the, lambs, in, the, lovely, weather, shows, we, are, able, to, start, enjoying, the, countryside, again, especially, coming, up, to, spring, and, summer, we, were, even, able, to, go, to, dalston, with, my, dog, and, wander, about, we, have, been, so, used, to, having, to, stick, t, the, roads, just, in, the, local, area, it, was, lovely, a, nice, change, it, does, tend, to, make, you, more, confident, about, the, coming, year, and, we, are, looking, forward, to, the, summer, week, 4, 18th, march, this, past, week, started, of, with, a, day, out, at, bowness, i, went, with, my, fiancé, and, took, our, dog, dog, it, was, lovely, to, let, her, off, the, lead, to, run, she, really, enjoys, it, and, got, absolutely, filthy, travelling, in, the, car, is, becoming, easier, for, dog, and, she, goes, crazy, when, you, arrive, we, have, only, had, dog, just, over, 2, years, and, for, the, past, year, we, couldn’t, let, her, off, the, lead, to, run, anywhere, we, are, tiring, t, train, her, again, she, listens, to, a, certain, extent, but, we, have, to, keep, an, eye, on, her, cheeky, side, i, remember, wondering, when, the, foot, and, mouth, started, how, we, were, going, to, exercise, dog, as, walking, her, on, the, roads, used, to, be, more, difficult, due, to, the, large, vehicles, travelling, up, and, down, and, also, the, fact, dog, isn’t, the, best, on, the, lead, she, used, to, be, really, energetic, and, a, bit, of, a, handful, however, now, she, has, got, used, to, a, more, relaxed, life, and, at, times, i, think, she, quite, likes, it, it, did, us, all, good, to, have, some, exercise, and, fresh, air, and, it, was, lovely, to, have, a, change, of, scenery, apart, from, on, monday, i, haven’t, really, been, anywhere, else, apart, from, shopping, and, have, been, busy, doing, my, a, level, work, therefore, i, haven’t, really, noticed, anything, different, this, week, and, haven’t, thought, about, foot, and, mouth, as, much, my, overall, view, this, week, has, been, quite, confident, and, there, has, been, no, real, significant, happenings, to, change, my, view, quite, a, good, week, overall, week, 5, 25th, march, firstly, i, received, the, newsletter, sent, out, to, the, standing, panel, it, was, a, relief, to, finally, get, some, information, regarding, the, burial, site, it, was, good, to, have, an, explanation, on, how, things, work, on, the, site, in, terms, that, we, can, understand, it, is, a, relief, to, know, that, everything, so, far, is, still, safe, however, it, is, evident, that, there, is, much, more, work, and, monitoring, to, be, carried, out, in, the, future, even, though, it, is, still, not, possible, to, do, anything, ourselves, our, minds, are, at, least, put, at, rest, by, knowing, something, it, surprises, me, how, long, it, has, taken, for, information, like, this, to, be, made, accessible, to, the, public, i, think, this, newsletter, is, a, very, good, step, forward, as, information, is, reaching, the, public, and, participants, are, also, given, the, opportunity, to, ask, questions, and, put, other, ideas, forward, on, wednesday, my, mum, came, out, again, to, see, us, once, again, we, took, a, walk, to, go, see, the, lambs, in, the, field, near, us, it, was, enjoyable, and, we, had, lovely, weather, it, makes, you, realise, how, much, you, take, for, granted, around, you, without, thinking, twice, my, mum, has, made, me, realise, this, even, more, by, seeing, how, much, she, enjoys, such, a, simple, thing, and, how, special, she, thinks, it, is, sometimes, i, think, when, you, are, surrounded, by, the, country, and, nature, all, the, time, you, forget, how, lucky, you, are, my, mum, and, gran, would, both, love, to, live, somewhere, like, here, the, biggest, surprise, this, week, was, when, i, received, the, parish, magazine, for, the, month, and, found, in, it, the, watchtree, news, this, is, the, first, time, i, have, ever, seen, anything, like, this, from, the, parish, council, i, think, it, is, a, very, good, idea, as, the, information, will, be, accessible, to, everyone, in, the, appropriate, parishes, even, though, it, is, long, overdue, it, is, very, worthwhile, and, i, think, will, be, very, informative, it, covers, a, wide, range, of, issues, the, majority, of, which, i, knew, very, little, about, and, wouldn’t, have, known, for, the, future, for, example, the, maintenance, going, to, be, carried, out, between, the, a595, orton, grange, junction, and, the, site, entrance, at, least, we, now, have, knowledge, of, this, before, it, is, going, to, be, carried, out, as, it, will, affect, other, members, of, our, family, who, live, on, the, orton, grange, junction, who, would, otherwise, have, had, no, idea, some, of, the, information, was, surprising, for, example, the, number, of, tankers, that, leave, the, site, everyday, which, i, didn’t, expect, to, be, so, high, and, which, could, rise, important, issues, are, also, now, being, tackled, such, as, the, bad, state, of, the, local, roads, the, affected, people, are, also, being, encouraged, to, report, these, things, themselves, to, the, appropriate, people, i, think, this, has, been, a, significant, development, and, will, be, very, useful, in, the, aftermath, of, foot, and, mouth, communication, between, the, appropriate, authorities, and, the, public, is, essential, week, 6, 1st, april, unfortunately, it, has, been, all, go, this, week, one, bit, of, work, after, another, i, haven't, had, time, to, focus, on, very, much, else, this, past, week, despite, this, fact, i, have, still, had, quite, a, positive, week, it, is, better, studying, out, here, as, there, are, few, distractions, and, everything, is, lovely, and, peaceful, a, drastic, difference, from, last, year, at, that, time, it, was, difficult, to, concentrate, on, anything, for, too, long, far, too, many, distractions, my, fiancé, however, has, been, up, to, the, burial, site, and, nearby, on, sunday, he, went, for, a, drive, with, a, friend, and, wondered, what, it, looked, like, up, there, we, have, only, ever, seen, it, on, television, reports, but, never, been, up, there, ourselves, in, a, future, diary, when, he, has, time, he, will, write, a, few, words, on, what, he, thought, week, 7, 8th, april, once, again, this, week, has, been, full, of, work, i, haven't, had, much, time, to, do, anything, apart, from, work, on, thursday, i, had, a, break, and, my, mom, came, out, for, a, bbq, for, the, first, time, this, year, we, have, put, out, our, patio, tables, and, chairs, as, the, weather, was, staying, pleasant, we, sat, out, for, a, while, in, the, evening, and, had, our, bbq, it, was, a, lovely, break, for, my, mom, as, there, is, peace, and, quiet, out, here, as, opposed, to, in, town, we, all, really, enjoyed, it, my, mom, and, fiance, both, commented, how, lovely, it, was, to, sit, outside, in, the, nice, weather, without, a, nasty, smell, about, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, haven't, noticed, things, smelling, so, bad, as, on, a, few, occasions, recently, there, has, also, been, a, decrease, in, the, amount, of, birds, in, particular, crows, which, have, been, in, the, fields, to, the, south, of, where, we, are, near, the, crossroads, on, the, couple, of, occasions, during, the, week, when, i, have, been, past, the, fields, there, have, only, been, a, couple, of, birds, flying, around, as, opposed, to, a, whole, field, full, of, crows, at, one, time, it, was, also, lovely, to, hear, the, sheep, especially, as, the, evening, became, darker, in, the, background, you, could, hear, the, sheep, just, in, the, field, next, to, us, and, also, the, lambs, a, few, fields, away, it, was, something, which, we, still, aren't, quite, used, to, but, which, we, appreciate, so, much, more, now, week, 8, 15th, april, i, was, feeling, quite, confident, this, week, until, friday, when, watch, the, news, i, saw, the, report, on, new, bovine, tb, cases, which, are, worrying, even, though, it, is, said, it, wouldn’t, be, as, serious, as, foot, and, mouth, it, is, still, worrying, as, it, has, the, potential, to, destroy, many, more, lives, and, bankrupt, more, farmers, who, have, probably, just, got, over, foot, and, mouth, the, worry, must, be, especially, bad, for, the, farmers, as, it, is, bad, enough, for, the, general, public, especially, after, seeing, the, damage, caused, by, foot, and, mouth, in, such, a, short, space, of, time, it, would, be, absolutely, terrible, if, this, summer, was, anything, like, last, summer, how, long, would, it, take, for, everything, to, get, back, to, normal, then, even, though, foot, and, mouth, is, evidently, far, different, to, bovine, tb, hopefully, things, will, have, been, learned, from, last, year, which, will, prevent, this, from, becoming, a, disaster, too, apart, from, that, other, aspects, of, the, foot, and, mouth, smell, etc, haven’t, been, as, bad, this, past, week, i, haven’t, noticed, any, particular, occasions, when, the, smell, has, been, particularly, bad, or, noticeable, in, addition, on, the, occasions, when, i, have, driven, past, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, there, have, been, hardly, any, crows, near, there, which, is, a, huge, improvement, there, were, a, number, of, seagulls, in, one, field, but, nowhere, near, the, amount, of, crows, there, were, before, there, has, also, been, a, decrease, in, the, amount, of, tankers, going, by, recently, that, i, have, noticed, at, first, i, didn’t, take, much, notice, of, it, but, then, fiancé, s, grandad, mentioned, that, he, had, hardly, seen, any, he, seems, to, notice, them, move, more, than, we, do, as, he, lives, on, the, orton, grange, junction, with, wigton, road, and, they, all, have, to, go, past, there, with, all, these, things, happening, the, presence, of, the, burial, site, nearby, seems, less, obvious, week, 9, 22nd, april, the, last, week, has, been, quite, a, pleasant, week, probably, because, i, have, eventually, finished, my, coursework, and, have, been, able, to, have, a, bit, of, peace, and, quiet, i, think, this, combined, with, periods, of, lovely, weather, have, made, me, feel, quite, good, on, tuesday, when, i, travelled, to, town, and, back, i, went, past, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, to, the, south, of, the, village, which, in, the, past, have, been, full, of, crows, or, seagulls, as, i, have, noticed, on, other, odd, occasions, over, the, past, week, they, appear, to, be, empty, now, i’ll, keep, an, eye, on, how, this, changes, over, the, summer, if, it, does, on, friday, i, noticed, that, there, were, a, number, of, cattle, and, calves, in, the, field, just, opposite, our, house, i, can, stand, and, watch, them, from, my, back, patio, doors, which, is, lovely, with, the, reintroduction, of, the, sheep, and, cattle, in, the, area, it, is, like, everything, is, coming, together, finally, after, the, foot, and, mouth, and, life, is, returning, to, normal, in, some, sense, the, cattle, seem, to, be, the, last, part, needed, for, everything, to, seem, to, be, running, properly, and, the, animals, finally, moving, about, at, last, i, think, this, fact, combine, with, their, being, no, significant, incidents, of, nasty, smells, or, the, rumbling, of, the, tankers, going, by, has, made, things, seem, better, when, talking, to, fiance, s, grandad, he, mentioned, again, that, there, still, haven’t, been, as, many, tankers, going, past, his, house, at, orton, grange, as, there, have, been, this, past, week, there, have, been, hardly, any, reminders, of, the, burial, site, and, the, past, foot, and, mouth, problems, living, in, the, country, has, seemed, quite, normal, after, what, seems, a, long, time, week, 10, 29th, april, all, in, all, this, week, has, been, a, good, week, overall, with, regard, to, the, foot, and, mouth, everything, seems, to, have, quietened, down, and, there, are, hardly, any, visible, reminders, of, the, burial, site, and, foot, and, mouth, around, the, village, as, i, mentioned, last, week, there, still, haven’t, been, any, noticeable, occasions, of, smells, possibly, from, the, burial, site, the, tankers, have, hardly, been, noticeable, around, the, village, and, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, have, still, been, fairly, empty, of, birds, in, particular, crows, this, was, explained, and, backed, up, in, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazines, which, i, received, this, week, it, was, good, to, read, and, very, informative, worth, reading, i, still, think, it, is, a, good, idea, and, is, being, done, well, as, it, discusses, issues, happening, now, and, also, keeps, you, informed, about, action, in, the, future, the, newsletter, mentioned, the, reduction, in, the, amount, of, tankers, which, i, have, noticed, it, also, mentions, that, there, might, be, a, slight, smell, from, the, burial, sited, during, work, but, so, far, i, haven’t, noticed, anything, once, again, it, has, been, lovely, seeing, both, the, sheep, and, the, cows, in, the, surrounding, fields, especially, at, the, moment, when, they, are, with, their, young, on, saturday, on, the, way, down, to, fiance, s, grandad, there, were, road, works, near, the, baldwinholme, bend, in, the, road, this, part, was, in, a, bad, condition, and, is, now, much, better, i, think, the, damage, was, caused, by, the, trucks, etc, used, during, foot, and, mouth, however, i’m, not, sure, week, 11, 6th, may, this, week, has, been, my, 21st, birthday, i’m, growing, up, i, had, a, lovely, day, on, thursday, and, as, a, surprise, i, was, taken, t, the, lake, district, for, the, day, it, was, lovely, and, i, really, enjoyed, it, firstly, we, stopped, off, at, bassenthwaite, lake, for, a, bit, fed, the, ducks, and, had, a, picnic, then, off, to, dodd, wood, for, a, coffee, and, to, see, the, ospreys, it, was, great, to, see, them, and, i, think, we, were, quite, lucky, then, we, had, a, pleasant, walk, around, myre, house, i, was, reminded, of, how, lucky, we, are, in, cumbria, to, have, such, lovely, places, and, i, am, glad, that, we, are, now, able, to, go, to, these, places, again, now, we’ve, got, a, car, we, are, going, to, take, better, advantage, of, cumbria, and, what, it, has, to, offer, once, again, i, realised, how, much, we, take, what, we, have, for, granted, overall, this, has, been, a, good, week, and, reminders, of, foot, and, mouth, and, the, burial, site, have, been, minimal, there, have, been, no, smells, i, have, noticed, and, hardly, any, signs, of, wagons, it, is, still, lovely, to, see, the, sheep, and, cattle, around, the, village, week, 12, 13th, may, on, wednesday, i, met, my, mum, in, town, and, got, the, cumberland, news, off, her, i, was, reading, about, the, county, council, inquiry, at, kendal, i, think, it, is, good, how, the, different, people, involved, in, the, inquiry, are, all, being, honest, about, what, happened, that, is, the, only, way, anything, will, be, improved, in, the, future, if, anything, of, a, similar, nature, should, happen, again, i, really, hope, it, doesn’t, from, reading, the, articles, written, and, what, people, have, said, it, is, clear, what, a, wide, range, of, people, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, affected, and, also, how, badly, when, you, read, of, other, people, who, have, had, family, who, have, been, so, low, it, has, driven, them, to, suicide, you, do, seem, to, feel, a, bit, guilty, as, when, we, complain, it, hasn’t, affected, us, is, such, a, drastic, way, it, brings, the, seriousness, and, the, extent, of, the, crisis, to, people’s, attention, despite, the, terrible, things, which, took, place, during, the, crisis, hopefully, some, good, will, come, out, of, it, for, the, present, and, the, future, on, thursday, fiance, went, to, the, doctor’s, and, was, talking, to, a, farmer, in, the, waiting, room, as, soon, as, fiance, mentioned, he, lived, in, great, orton, the, farmer, asked, straight, away, what, it, was, like, to, live, here, so, near, to, the, burial, site, and, how, he, couldn’t, imagine, what, it, would, have, been, like, it, too, has, been, such, a, long, time, since, anyone, has, said, anything, like, that, to, either, one, of, us, at, the, time, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, people, used, to, ask, questions, and, what, it, was, like, to, live, so, near, it, is, strange, when, farmers, in, particular, feel, sympathy, towards, you, for, living, near, the, burial, site, when, on, the, other, hand, it, is, the, farmers, i, feel, sympathy, for, before, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, a, fair, number, of, people, even, from, carlisle, didn’t, know, where, great, orton, was, but, now, many, do, and, realise, how, close, to, carlisle, it, actually, is, week, 13, 20th, may, i, haven't, really, done, anything, very, exciting, this, past, week, unfortunately, i've, been, revising, again, and, preparing, for, a, presentation, for, my, a, level, which, i, have, to, do, next, week, my, presentation, was, on, turrets, and, watchtowers, which, i, found, a, bit, confusing, at, first, from, the, books, i've, been, using, so, dragged, fiance, to, drive, and, dog, out, past, brampton, to, hadrian's, wall, there, i, found, a, watchtower, and, a, turret, everything, became, much, clearer, on, the, way, back, we, spotted, a, sign, for, a, camping, barn, on, hadrian's, wall, banks, east, we, were, both, very, interested, so, sent, away, for, the, brochure, at, this, point, we, decided, to, reconsider, our, holiday, plans, and, realised, we, didn't, need, to, go, far, afield, like, amsterdam, our, 1st, choice, then, scotland, 2nd, choice, we, hadn't, realised, actually, how, many, places, there, were, so, nearby, which, were, ideal, we, came, to, the, conclusion, a, holiday, in, cumbria, would, be, the, best, choice, as, 1, we, could, take, dog, with, us, 2, we, could, go, by, car, and, 3, it, would, be, a, bit, cheaper, as, fiance, mentioned, it, would, also, be, good, after, everything, to, put, the, money, we, were, spending, back, into, cumbria, we, were, hoping, to, go, next, week, as, it, is, half, term, the, week, after, and, my, exams, after, that, hopefully, we, will, get, something, organised, on, thursday, we, got, the, orton, newsletter, fiance, and, i, were, both, quite, disappointed, when, we, read, that, land, around, this, area, are, being, sold, for, the, building, of, houses, it, is, good, in, a, way, as, people, are, moving, forward, after, f, m, but, we, wish, it, wasn't, in, a, residential, sense, it, is, just, a, pity, so, much, of, the, farming, will, be, lost, 6, houses, at, baldwinholme, 4, in, great, orton, even, though, i, haven't, been, brought, up, with, a, farming, background, from, what, i, have, seen, it, would, be, a, pity, for, us, to, lose, this, part, of, our, countryside, week, 14, 27th, may, on, monday, saw, cb, and, was, pleased, to, hear, the, f, m, standing, panel, project, was, going, well, as, i, think, it’s, worthwhile, and, as, much, as, possible, should, be, learned, for, the, future, on, tuesday, i, attended, the, meeting, for, the, foot, and, mouth, disease, inquiry, at, great, orton, village, hall, at, 7pm, i, was, glad, i, attended, the, meeting, as, people, could, voice, their, opinions, and, try, to, get, information, about, issues, both, about, the, present, and, the, future, my, general, view, of, the, meeting, and, how, it, went, was, that, the, general, feeling, of, the, villagers, etc, was, that, they, were, losing, interest, and, nothing, was, still, being, done, there, were, many, empty, seats, i, estimated, a, total, number, of, 50, 60, people, there, was, a, whole, new, panel, of, faces, even, though, this, was, a, new, inquiry, so, there, were, new, people, on, the, panel, but, between, the, meetings, there, is, no, feel, of, continuity, as, no, one, is, sure, of, what, has, been, said, before, and, there, are, never, the, answers, promised, from, one, meeting, to, another, it, seems, as, if, this, is, a, way, of, avoiding, answers, and, getting, out, of, situations, there, were, new, aspects, which, were, brought, up, which, had, not, yet, been, disclosed, never, at, any, meeting, i, have, attended, such, as, the, fact, the, burial, was, planned, and, used, for, the, burial, of, uninfected, animals, which, is, not, what, we, were, led, to, believe, with, al, the, engineering, on, site, again, this, is, lack, of, communication, and, no, one, is, sure, of, the, facts, defra, also, are, only, guaranteeing, funding, for, this, site, for, the, next, 5, years, and, it, is, worrying, who’s, burden, this, will, become, after, then, a, variety, of, other, issues, were, discussed, health, roads, handling, of, outbreak, vaccination, etc, after, the, meeting, i, was, glad, i, had, been, however, i, felt, rather, angry, by, the, way, in, which, the, questions, are, handled, the, answers, are, often, vague, have, no, supporting, evidence, or, are, dismissed, with, i’ll, have, to, get, back, to, you, on, that, or, i, can’t, comment, in, my, opinion, many, of, the, farmers, villagers, etc, just, want, this, whole, thing, brought, to, an, end, ideally, the, remaining, trenches, filled, in, a, nature, reserve, created, and, maintained, there, were, no, guarantees, of, the, site, not, being, used, again, or, funding, after, the, next, five, years, will, this, ever, be, achieved, on, saturday, morning, fiance, and, i, decided, to, go, away, for, a, short, break, to, somewhere, near, and, where, we, could, take, dog, it, was, a, spontaneous, decision, for, the, jubilee, and, because, it, was, half, term, i, was, not, at, college, we, ended, up, going, to, a, caravan, site, with, dog, for, 4, nights, i, will, update, about, my, holiday, in, the, next, diary, clipping, from, news, and, star, here, story, about, great, orton, public, meeting, and, villagers, request, not, to, have, site, used, again, in, the, event, of, future, emergencies, holiday, week, beginning, monday, 3rd, june, week, 15, 10th, june, i, am, writing, this, a, couple, of, days, early, just, to, tell, you, about, our, holiday, it, was, lovely, in, the, end, we, hadn't, yet, received, the, brochure, on, the, camping, barns, so, on, saturday, we, decided, we, would, like, to, go, away, as, son, as, possible, and, would, like, something, for, the, jubilee, weekend, after, finding, a, caravan, at, caldbeck, not, far, away, relatively, quiet, we, went, by, 5, pm, on, saturday, fiance, dog, and, i, were, there, it, was, a, lovely, caravan, site, lovely, caravan, and, even, a, tv, for, the, world, cup, the, caravan, site, was, surrounded, by, common, land, sheep, lovely, and, quiet, and, a, lot, of, places, to, keep, dog, occupied, we, were, so, surprised, at, how, quiet, the, campsite, was, over, the, jubilee, weekend, but, thought, most, of, the, people, actually, lived, there, it, would, be, lovely, in, the, future, to, have, a, small, caravan, there, to, go, away, to, the, surrounding, places, we, went, to, were, really, busy, for, example, keswick, bassenthwaite, etc, i, was, quite, surprised, but, thought, it, was, great, to, see, cumbria, lively, again, what, a, contrast, to, what, i, would, have, imagined, these, places, to, be, like, a, year, ago, especially, for, the, jubilee, everyone, seemed, to, make, such, an, effort, it, was, lovely, to, see, we, all, had, a, lovely, time, so, relaxing, oi, don't, think, dog, has, ever, walked, so, far, we, were, surprised, that, somewhere, so, close, was, exactly, what, we, wanted, we, were, also, happy, we, could, put, our, money, back, into, cumbria, we, would, definitely, go, back, i, feel, so, much, more, confident, about, the, future, especially, in, cumbria, after, this, week, if, you, didn't, know, about, last, year, f, m, outbreak, in, some, cases, it, would, be, hard, to, tell, i, really, think, cumbria, seems, as, if, it, could, recover, from, this, hopefully, on, saturday, and, sunday, ill, in, bed, week, 16, 17th, june, with, the, combination, of, not, feeling, very, well, at, the, beginning, of, the, week, the, car, not, running, overt, the, week, end, and, dog, being, in, season, i, haven't, really, been, able, to, go, anywhere, this, week, it, has, been, quite, frustrating, but, i, have, had, work, to, do, anyway, i, still, feel, quite, confident, about, the, future, this, week, after, being, on, holiday, this, is, better, than, a, couple, of, weeks, ago, after, the, fmd, inquiry, meeting, when, i, felt, quite, unsure, at, time, of, what, was, going, to, happen, at, gt, orton, i, had, the, f, m, panel, newsletter, and, watchtree, newsletter, with, parish, magazine, i, think, both, of, these, are, good, as, you, are, able, to, gain, information, consistently, about, f, m, in, cumbria, and, in, particular, the, burial, site, this, information, would, be, difficult, to, come, by, otherwise, in, particular, i, enjoyed, reading, about, children, at, milburn, school, with, their, memories, of, the, f, m, outbreak, and, the, effort, they, have, made, researcher, had, spoken, with, respondent, about, possibility, of, monthly, diary, and, she, decided, to, start, straight, away, so, although, middle, of, month, here, follows, monthly, write, up, she, continued, to, record, her, diary, in, this, way, at, times, she, offers, short, daily, entries, drawing, 4, weeks, together, within, an, overall, reflective, piece, these, daily, entries, are, also, recorded, week, 20, 15th, july, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, i, am, looking, forward, to, attending, the, social, evening, in, dalston, i, am, a, bit, nervous, as, am, not, used, to, doing, these, sorts, of, things, but, think, it, will, be, a, good, experience, i, was, also, pleased, when, i, got, the, f, m, panel, newsletter, and, saw, the, article, i, made, notes, for, i, have, never, done, anything, like, this, before, and, was, quite, pleased, about, the, whole, thing, on, the, saturday, of, week, one, fiance, and, i, went, down, to, fiance, s, grandad's, and, noticed, there, were, more, signs, up, for, land, being, for, sale, again, we, both, think, this, is, quite, sad, as, the, area, will, inevitable, be, changing, in, the, near, future, we, wonder, how, much, of, the, land, will, be, reused, for, farming, or, sold, for, new, houses, taking, into, consideration, the, signs, we, have, seen, up, in, the, past, quite, a, bit, of, land, is, going, to, change, over, the, past, weeks, i, have, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, with, our, parish, magazine, i, still, think, this, is, a, good, idea, and, worthwhile, as, you, are, updated, every, so, often, this, will, also, reach, everyone, in, the, village, so, easily, accessible, over, a, period, of, a, few, days, in, week, 2, of, these, 4, weeks, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, a, strange, smell, outside, we, could, smell, it, here, but, not, at, fiance, s, grandad's, which, is, only, 2, miles, away, it, smelt, just, like, a, burning, smell, so, i, am, not, sure, whether, it, had, anything, to, do, with, the, burial, site, or, anything, being, done, up, there, i, just, thought, i, would, mention, it, anyway, last, wednesday, i, rang, up, the, archaeological, support, group, in, carlisle, of, which, i, have, been, a, member, for, the, past, year, and, a, half, i, had, never, been, sent, anything, to, do, with, it, for, along, time, and, wondered, why, it, turns, out, that, last, year, as, soon, as, f, m, hit, cumbria, everything, was, cancelled, and, stopped, this, i, knew, at, the, time, and, there, was, nothing, else, that, could, have, happened, the, thing, i, didn't, realise, was, that, things, have, been, so, badly, affected, that, nothing, has, been, arranged, as, yet, even, so, many, months, after, f, m, broke, out, once, again, this, is, another, example, of, how, things, have, been, affected, still, so, many, months, after, there, is, also, uncertainty, about, the, future, of, this, archaeology, group, as, nothing, has, been, decided, yet, and, it, will, depend, on, how, things, go, this, is, a, pity, and, i, hope, things, pick, up, in, the, future, on, the, first, week, of, these, 4, weeks, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, that, we, were, coughing, a, bit, more, especially, at, night, and, early, in, the, morning, since, then, fiance, has, got, better, and, is, not, coughing, as, much, but, now, i, have, got, a, sore, throat, and, a, cold, i, don't, think, this, is, anything, to, do, with, the, burial, site, or, anything, but, we, were, not, sure, about, the, coughing, and, i, thought, i, would, mention, it, 12th, august, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, i, do, not, feel, quite, as, nervous, now, as, i, did, about, the, evening, at, dalston, village, hall, it, was, a, bit, intimidating, at, first, as, i, was, going, on, the, same, night, as, frontline, workers, and, health, professionals, i, felt, a, bit, out, of, my, depth, when, i, wondered, what, sort, of, stories, they, would, be, telling, compared, to, what, i, had, seen, these, people, would, have, had, to, deal, with, the, situation, first, hand, and, must, have, seen, some, terrible, things, after, a, couple, of, weeks, i, grew, used, to, the, idea, and, didn't, feel, as, bad, it, would, turn, out, to, be, a, good, experience, as, it, turns, out, the, evening, is, now, on, the, 21st, august, and, everyone, is, going, together, things, will, be, a, bit, more, relaxed, for, me, i, think, i, hope, i, will, be, able, to, make, it, the, one, major, event, that, has, made, me, think, over, the, past, couple, of, week, is, fiance, s, auntie, jean, who, has, moved, house, from, orton, grange, 2, miles, away, from, us, into, the, middle, of, town, it, made, me, think, that, i, definitely, wouldn't, like, to, move, back, into, the, middle, of, carlisle, after, living, here, even, though, it, hasn't, been, the, most, pleasant, at, times, here, with, f, m, last, year, and, the, building, of, the, burial, site, i, would, still, miss, everything, about, it, once, again, i, am, reminded, how, lucky, i, am, to, be, surrounded, by, fields, cows, sheep, and, a, horse, in, the, overlooking, field, it, is, also, usually, quiet, and, peaceful, i, can, imagine, quite, different, to, the, middle, of, carlisle, i, think, jean, will, miss, it, quite, a, lot, just, over, a, week, ago, fiance, and, i, were, busy, getting, our, garden, ready, for, the, village, in, bloom, it, was, good, to, see, everyone, making, an, effort, to, everything, looking, nice, everything, felt, a, bit, more, normal, this, year, whereas, last, year, i, think, the, village, in, bloom, was, the, last, thing, on, most, people's, minds, it, made, me, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, perhaps, everything, or, most, things, may, return, to, normal, eventually, week, 24, 12th, august, nothing, extremely, significant, concerning, f, m, has, happened, this, week, i, have, noticed, though, now, when, working, at, village, pub, wellington, even, though, i, only, do, 1, day, it, has, really, become, quite, busy, i, think, business, has, improved, after, they, tried, more, advertising, i, can, remember, back, to, during, the, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, it, was, very, quiet, most, people, stayed, away, and, the, atmosphere, in, the, pub, was, very, depressing, now, over, a, year, later, things, do, seem, to, be, picking, up, again, and, perhaps, returning, more, to, normal, it, is, god, to, see, monday, 19th, august, all, in, all, it, has, been, a, quiet, week, i, haven’t, really, been, out, very, much, and, not, feeling, well, really, i, was, a, bit, disappointed, not, being, able, to, attend, the, social, evening, o, wednesday, as, my, mom, was, unable, to, get, time, off, work, or, change, her, shift, 26th, august, first, of, all, we, were, noticing, problems, with, our, goldfish, when, we, first, got, them, about, two, and, a, half, years, ago, we, had, very, few, problems, with, them, over, the, past, few, months, they, have, been, getting, ill, we, have, tried, all, sorts, different, chemicals, and, still, they, have, all, died, except, one, omar, fiance, s, cousin, who, breeds, fish, came, and, had, a, look, and, was, baffled, the, only, explanation, is, that, the, chemicals, have, been, changed, or, increased, for, example, the, chlorine, which, there, appears, to, be, a, lot, more, of, we, obviously, aren’t, totally, sure, what, the, problem, is, but, thought, we, should, mention, it, anyway, this, week, i, also, noticed, the, banner, opposite, the, village, shop, in, the, village, i, have, enclosed, an, article, about, this, banner, which, appeared, in, the, cumberland, news, this, week, i, think, this, sums, up, the, mood, i, have, noticed, at, the, village, meetings, nothing, has, yet, been, done, to, help, the, villagers, etc, so, what, difference, have, the, promises, made, this, is, the, main, reason, why, i, feel, less, confident, about, the, future, this, week, regarding, foot, and, mouth, as, these, things, are, still, dragging, on, monday, 2nd, september, during, the, first, week, of, these, diaries, nothing, really, significant, happened, regarding, foot, and, mouth, i, did, comment, however, that, when, working, at, the, pub, on, sundays, how, busy, the, pub, was, and, how, business, had, seemed, to, improve, a, lot, from, what, i, had, seen, during, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, the, atmosphere, then, had, been, depressing, this, made, me, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, regarding, foot, and, mouth, as, another, aspect, of, the, foot, and, mouth, had, seemed, to, return, back, to, normal, this, mood, however, did, change, during, the, third, week, of, these, diaries, when, i, felt, less, confident, about, the, future, it, all, began, when, our, goldfish, started, dying, apart, from, oner, we, still, are, not, sure, exactly, what, caused, it, and, are, not, sure, whether, or, not, it, was, because, of, the, water, here, or, something, we, did, there, just, seems, to, be, that, little, bit, of, doubt, in, my, mind, as, you, don’t, feel, totally, sure, about, what, is, happening, in, this, area, still, and, therefore, i, don’t, think, really, trust, the, organisations, dealing, with, these, issues, the, other, thing, that, seemed, to, sum, up, some, of, my, feelings, was, the, banner, which, appeared, opposite, the, village, shop, last, week, i, think, this, shows, the, desperation, and, lengths, some, of, the, people, in, the, village, have, to, go, through, in, order, to, get, noticed, and, heard, it, seems, ridiculous, that, the, same, basic, issues, brought, up, in, the, earlier, meetings, have, still, not, been, dealt, with, it, does, make, you, lose, the, trust, you, had, in, the, organisations, involved, article, enclosed, this, past, week, has, been, a, little, better, however, not, that, good, i, did, receive, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazine, which, is, still, good, to, receive, as, it, updates, you, on, a, number, of, different, aspects, of, the, burial, site, i, also, heard, about, the, article, in, the, newspaper, regarding, this, inquiry, from, cathy, as, well, as, my, mom, who, has, saved, it, for, me, but, as, yet, i, have, not, read, it, i, will, comment, on, this, in, my, next, diary, 9, 15, september, monday, got, free, news, star, last, week, and, found, article, on, f, m, diaries, not, too, bothered, that, it, has, been, printed, myself, tuesday, saw, cathy, said, about, articles, not, too, bothered, myself, but, can, see, why, otherwise, involved, would, be, as, things, are, not, represented, in, the, right, way, and, are, misleading, good, point, though, is, that, it, may, catch, people’s, attention, and, get, the, point, across, that, people, are, still, suffering, got, article, from, cumberland, news, mum, saturday, found, article, in, cumberland, news, regarding, village, in, bloom, won, a, trophy, for, our, special, efforts, in, village, in, aftermath, of, f, m, crisis, mark, andrews, trophy, 16, 22, september, monday, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, burning, smell, when, we, came, back, home, in, the, evening, not, sure, what, it, is, from, reminds, us, of, f, m, crisis, wednesday, road, works, in, village, didn’t, affect, us, too, much, thursday, road, works, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad’s, annoying, at, times, has, taken, such, a, long, time, to, do, reminds, us, of, f, m, crisis, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, burning, smell, again, not, sure, where, from, friday, good, that, watchtree, newsletter, told, us, of, these, road, works, as, wouldn’t, have, known, saturday, these, aspects, aren’t, too, bad, on, their, own, but, the, atmosphere, reminds, you, of, the, f, m, crisis, last, year, 23, 29, september, monday, read, the, diarist, and, also, had, a, look, at, the, inquiry, report, i, was, sent, after, attending, the, village, meeting, tuesday, have, not, had, time, to, read, very, much, of, it, but, i, will, get, round, to, it, and, then, comment, on, it, friday, parish, magazine, and, watchtree, newsletter, still, good, to, be, updated, on, what, is, going, on, 1, roads, and, 2, visiting, the, site, 30, 6th, october, monday, rang, up, to, book, table, at, the, autumn, fayre, being, done, in, village, hall, people, pleased, that, people, in, village, getting, involved, tuesday, water, has, been, quite, bad, especially, on, tuesday, full, of, chlorine, had, to, leave, for, a, while, for, everything, to, evaporate, makes, you, quite, concerned, about, whether, or, not, it, is, safe, to, drink, 6th, october, writing, after, 4, weeks, during, week, i, read, the, articles, regarding, those, f, m, diaries, which, appeared, in, the, cumberland, news, and, the, news, and, star, they, are, enclosed, after, reading, these, and, speaking, to, c, i, myself, wasn’t, too, bothered, or, offended, by, what, was, written, but, could, easily, have, seen, why, other, people, would, have, been, specially, if, they, are, finding, things, really, difficult, i, think, there, is, a, good, side, to, these, articles, as, well, though, as, they, will, have, grabbed, people’s, attention, and, highlighted, the, fact, that, there, are, still, problems, regarding, f, m, this, long, after, the, crisis, even, though, the, articles, were, misleading, they, have, also, done, some, good, when, reading, the, cumberland, news, i, also, found, a, mention, of, great, orton, regarding, the, village, in, bloom, it, turns, out, we, were, awarded, the, mark, andrews, trophy, for, special, efforts, during, the, aftermath, of, f, m, it, would, have, been, nice, to, win, a, better, award, but, at, least, we, were, recognised, for, something, i, was, quite, please, week, 2, was, probably, the, worst, week, i, have, had, during, the, past, month, regarding, f, m, as, the, whole, week, just, seemed, to, remind, me, of, what, it, was, like, during, the, crisis, firstly, there, were, road, works, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad’s, only, 2, miles, away, i, understand, these, had, to, be, carried, out, but, it, made, it, difficult, and, inconvenient, to, get, to, fiance, s, grandad’s, as, you, didn’t, know, which, roads, were, gong, to, be, closed, when, now, that, the, work, has, been, done, everyone, that, i, have, spoken, to, about, it, think, they, will, cause, more, trouble, than, before, as, when, you, pull, out, of, the, lay, bys, it, is, dangerous, as, the, grass, and, verge, have, not, been, smoothed, out, i, think, they, are, alright, if, you, already, know, the, roads, but, i, wouldn’t, be, as, confident, if, i, hadn’t, driven, on, them, before, the, other, aspect, which, made, the, road, works, seem, worse, were, two, instances, when, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, a, burning, smell, monday, and, thursday, we, were, not, sure, where, this, came, from, but, it, still, reminded, us, of, the, crisis, on, week, 3, i, received, a, copy, of, the, f, m, inquiry, and, glad, i, went, to, a, meting, in, the, village, sometimes, it, feels, good, to, be, involved, even, though, in, such, a, small, way, i, also, received, the, diarist, newsletter, and, watchtree, newsletter, which, i, am, still, glad, i, receive, without, the, watchtree, newsletter, i, don’t, think, i, would, have, been, informed, of, the, road, works, being, carried, out, i, am, also, glad, the, site, is, progressing, and, that, people, are, now, being, given, the, opportunity, to, visit, the, site, if, they, wish, on, week, 4, there, was, only, one, major, problem, with, our, water, on, tuesday, the, water, was, that, full, of, chlorine, that, we, had, to, leave, it, for, all, the, chlorine, in, it, to, evaporate, or, boil, it, even, to, give, dog, a, drink, this, is, the, second, time, this, has, happened, and, it, does, concern, you, as, firstly, why, is, this, being, done, and, secondly, is, the, water, safe, to, drink, we, are, not, sure, who, to, contact, about, this, as, last, time, we, contacted, united, utilities, who, said, it, was, just, routine, and, nothing, to, worry, about, week, beginning, 7th, october, not, much, this, week, regarding, fmd, think, i, have, been, too, busy, thinking, about, other, things, week, beginning, 14th, october, monday, relaxing, a, bit, today, as, going, to, be, a, busy, day, tomorrow, and, away, on, wednesday, tuesday, fiance, s, exam, turned, out, to, be, quiet, here, today, which, was, good, for, fiance, s, exam, as, he, did, it, at, home, would, have, been, difficult, last, year, with, pressure, of, f, m, weds, away, on, holiday, it, was, a, bit, of, a, drive, to, what, we, are, used, to, but, we, made, it, lovely, views, on, way, down, and, hawkshead, a, lovely, place, thursday, this, holiday, very, well, suited, for, dog, as, plenty, of, places, to, walk, a, quiet, campsite, and, shops, and, pubs, which, are, suited, for, dogs, things, she, is, not, quite, used, to, friday, lovely, to, be, away, for, a, break, away, from, great, orton, on, the, one, hand, but, then, you, remember, how, nice, it, is, where, we, are, and, how, luck, we, are, on, the, other, hand, sunday, had, a, very, good, week, and, confident, about, the, future, week, beginning, 21st, october, monday, having, quiet, week, as, just, got, back, quite, tired, but, coping, ok, nice, to, be, back, in, a, way, weds, got, watchtree, newsletters, in, parish, magazine, also, article, out, of, news, and, star, i, think, about, renaming, of, site, and, farm, that, used, to, be, there, thursday, watchtree, newsletter, interested, in, the, open, day, think, it’s, a, good, idea, and, will, be, very, interesting, especially, geology, and, fossil, remains, found, on, site, i, think, would, be, beneficial, as, even, though, we, live, in, the, village, and, have, been, to, the, meetings, still, have, little, idea, of, how, the, site, looks, now, and, will, in, the, future, week, beginning, 28th, october, weds, went, to, meet, mom, in, town, the, roads, into, town, were, terrible, mud, on, road, everywhere, and, really, busy, with, trucks, etc, must, be, where, they, are, doing, new, building, hope, it, doesn’t, get, like, this, all, the, time, as, so, much, land, round, here, seems, to, have, been, sold, for, new, construction, sat, mom, has, got, her, own, stall, this, week, end, at, the, craft, fair, in, the, village, hall, 1st, time, she, has, done, this, saw, it, in, parish, newsletter, 2nd, november, writing, after, 4, weeks, this, past, month, has, been, one, of, the, busiest, i, have, had, for, a, long, time, firstly, there, was, fiance, s, final, exam, which, was, quite, stressful, for, him, at, times, revising, and, everything, it, reminded, me, of, how, difficult, it, had, been, when, we, were, doing, our, first, exams, a, year, and, a, half, before, during, f, m, crisis, studying, had, been, very, difficult, then, due, to, constant, interruptions, and, distractions, constant, sound, of, trucks, smells, noise, tension, i’m, so, glad, it, wasn’t, this, bad, this, year, as, these, things, can, be, stressful, enough, shortly, after, fiance, s, exam, fiance, my, mom, and, i, went, for, a, short, break, to, hawkshead, it, was, great, we, all, enjoyed, it, and, dog, especially, everything, was, suited, for, dog, we, took, her, shopping, there, are, benches, and, water, bowls, outside, every, shop, we, went, for, a, bar, meal, and, sat, outside, with, her, and, on, our, last, night, even, too, her, with, us, and, went, for, a, pint, apart, from, these, things, we, also, took, her, on, plenty, of, walks, being, there, made, you, realise, how, lovely, cumbria, is, and, how, people, who, don’t, live, here, are, attracted, to, it, it, is, a, pity, how, cumbria, suffered, during, f, m, crisis, as, it, is, such, a, lovely, place, i, do, hope, that, due, to, the, large, amount, of, attractions, in, cumbria, that, things, will, hopefully, be, back, to, normal, as, can, be, expected, i, was, quite, surprised, at, how, busy, things, were, for, that, time, of, year, it, seems, things, must, be, improving, which, makes, you, confident, i, enjoyed, my, break, but, you, realise, maybe, great, orton, isn’t, such, a, bad, place, to, come, back, to, during, the, past, month, i, have, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, i’m, quite, interested, in, the, open, day, later, on, this, month, i, think, it, will, be, very, interesting, i’m, really, interested, in, the, geology, history, of, the, site, and, also, fossils, found, there, during, this, work, i, don’t, know, much, about, how, the, site, looks, or, how, it, will, be, in, the, future, it, is, amazing, that, you, can, live, so, near, but, still, have, no, idea, of, what, it, is, like, all, i, can, seem, to, remember, are, the, pictures, that, were, shown, on, the, news, months, ago, it, seems, difficult, to, imagine, it, any, different, this, past, week, has, been, very, busy, as, my, mom, is, having, a, stall, for, the, first, time, at, the, craft, fair, in, the, village, hall, i, have, been, helping, her, a, little, bit, and, helped, her, on, the, stall, i, just, sat, with, her, really, she, decided, to, have, a, go, as, she, likes, crafts, and, is, always, making, things, it, was, nice, to, be, involved, in, the, village, and, the, money, from, the, hiring, of, the, stalls, went, to, the, church, which, is, good, it, was, very, quiet, on, saturday, though, and, apparently, that, was, the, worst, it’s, been, for, a, few, years, i, wonder, if, this, is, an, effect, of, the, f, m, however, the, weather, and, other, factors, may, have, contributed, week, beginning, monday, 11th, november, tuesday, fiance, doctors, wednesday, me, dentist, and, in, town, with, mam, missed, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, disappointed, but, got, an, article, from, the, cumberland, news, this, is, included, i, haven’t, spoke, with, anyone, that, went, no, one, has, mentioned, anything, to, me, disappointed, i, missed, it, and, also, because, this, is, probably, one, of, the, only, opportunities, we, will, get, to, know, anything, fiance, and, i, both, agree, it, is, still, like, a, big, secret, no, one, really, allowed, in, and, out, it, doesn’t, feel, like, local, people, are, benefiting, at, all, is, it, anything, to, do, with, us, really, friday, children, in, need, at, the, pub, yesterday, nice, to, see, people, taking, part, again, big, difference, to, during, foot, and, mouth, we, just, made, a, donation, it, was, a, bit, busy, for, us, 1045, raised, sunday, work, at, pub, still, very, busy, the, pub, at, least, it, seems, to, have, recovered, after, f, m, but, from, what, i, have, heard, they, did, suffer, badly, along, with, the, other, businesses, here, week, beginning, 18th, november, tuesday, should, have, been, playing, darts, at, port, carlisle, had, a, break, for, a, week, the, thing, that, is, worrying, about, playing, darts, away, is, the, travelling, some, of, the, country, roads, round, here, are, terrible, is, this, because, of, the, wagons, especially, near, wiggonby, the, road, at, fiance, s, granddad, just, gets, worse, it’s, just, mud, and, less, grass, terrible, is, it, because, of, damage, done, by, wagons, and, a, combination, of, all, the, flooding, in, the, area, now, saturday, fiance, and, i, talking, about, how, the, area, has, changed, we, remembered, back, to, 4, years, ago, when, we, used, to, go, to, the, airfield, burial, site, for, some, peace, even, though, only, rubble, then, really, enjoyed, it, there, we, could, take, the, dog, had, first, driving, lesson, off, fiance, not, again, had, some, fun, and, really, miss, it, at, times, nowhere, round, here, anymore, to, get, peace, can’t, even, enjoy, the, nature, reserve, very, frustrating, week, beginning, monday, 25th, november, monday, keep, realising, when, doing, diaries, that, haven’t, had, a, chance, to, look, at, cumbria, foot, and, mouth, disease, inquiry, report, will, have, to, make, time, for, it, soon, saturday, when, i, was, at, pub, talking, about, new, fence, on, park, for, children, general, mood, is, not, very, pleased, as, it, doesn’t, fit, into, a, country, village, setting, and, nothing, else, done, sunday, can’t, believe, it, is, the, beginning, of, december, everything, is, passing, too, quick, inevitable, 31st, november, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, the, past, 4, weeks, have, been, very, busy, compared, to, what, i, am, used, to, and, at, the, same, time, have, been, quite, frustrating, in, a, few, ways, the, issues, which, have, bothered, fiance, and, i, most, are, mainly, to, do, with, the, onset, of, winter, which, of, course, is, inevitable, but, this, year, they, seem, to, be, worse, than, we, can, previously, remember, since, living, here, in, winter, the, biggest, issue, is, the, state, of, the, roads, in, the, village, and, round, about, it, is, terrible, with, the, amount, of, rain, we, have, had, there, are, puddles, everywhere, and, everything, is, turning, to, mud, the, worst, thing, is, that, it, is, very, difficult, to, walk, or, take, dog, anywhere, which, is, frustrating, you, either, get, absolutely, filthy, or, when, walking, down, the, roads, you, have, to, get, soaked, on, the, sides, of, the, roads, to, avoid, cars, and, going, down, the, lonning, isn’t, really, an, option, as, it, is, really, muddy, and, there, has, been, dumping, we, understand, most, of, this, will, be, due, to, the, weather, but, we, are, sure, some, of, it, on, the, roads, is, due, to, all, the, traffic, there, has, been, especially, at, fiance, s, granddad's, outside, the, front, of, his, gate, and, garden, the, grass, has, gradually, been, stripped, away, and, has, now, turned, to, mud, in, all, the, ears, he, has, lived, there, 50, years, he, has, never, seen, it, as, bad, the, roads, aren’t, like, this, just, nearby, i, have, noticed, other, roads, round, about, are, also, in, a, bad, state, when, i, have, travelled, away, to, other, nearby, village, pubs, when, playing, darts, i, was, disappointed, when, i, missed, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, about, the, watchtree, reserve, as, i, had, to, go, up, town, etc, i, have, not, spoken, to, anyone, i, know, that, attended, the, exhibition, but, wish, there, were, more, opportunities, to, learn, more, about, it, i, did, find, a, newspaper, article, enclosed, about, the, watchtree, it, is, quite, annoying, that, this, won’t, be, open, to, the, public, it, is, understandable, why, this, isn't, possible, but, then, on, the, other, hand, it, is, not, benefiting, anyone, really, who, lives, nearby, fiance, and, i, still, remember, back, to, when, the, airfield, was, still, there, and, it, was, a, lovely, place, to, go, walking, and, to, relax, by, getting, away, from, everything, it, used, to, be, lovely, and, quiet, and, was, also, so, nearby, we, do, actually, quite, miss, it, sometimes, as, there, is, nowhere, else, like, that, round, here, now, even, though, there, have, been, quite, a, few, negative, issues, this, past, month, it, has, also, been, encouraging, when, i, have, been, working, at, the, pub, it, has, been, very, busy, when, i, have, been, there, showing, that, it, must, be, recovering, from, the, effect, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, it, was, also, encouraging, when, there, was, a, night, held, for, children, in, need, when, they, raised, approx, 1045, it, is, good, to, see, people, involved, and, happy, again, one, thing, which, i, did, notice, was, that, the, general, mood, about, the, improvements, made, to, the, park, was, not, very, good, people, were, not, impressed, that, the, new, fence, does, not, look, like, it, belongs, to, the, country, at, all, and, that, that, is, all, that, has, changed, i, have, not, had, time, but, will, go, and, have, a, look, for, myself, december, 2002, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, average, i, haven’t, felt, too, bad, over, christmas, a, little, tired, but, since, i, have, got, a, bit, of, a, cold, and, sore, throat, not, surprising, at, this, time, of, year, average, i, think, it, has, been, all, right, haven’t, been, able, to, walk, very, far, near, village, due, to, weather, and, roads, but, this, isn’t, surprising, at, this, time, of, year, these, past, 4, weeks, have, been, rather, hectic, with, christmas, and, everything, but, i, have, still, had, quite, a, bit, to, write, in, my, diaries, concerning, foot, and, mouth, i, received, the, parish, magazine, for, december, in, which, there, was, a, thank, you, to, all, involved, in, the, craft, fayre, and, there, was, 1, 008, raised, for, st, giles, church, it, was, good, to, be, able, to, contribute, to, something, in, the, village, well, it, was, my, mum, really, but, i, helped, it, is, good, to, see, these, sorts, of, things, happening, here, it’s, good, for, the, village, after, everything, i, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazine, it, is, still, good, to, receive, this, as, it, updates, you, on, everything, and, also, had, information, regarding, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, which, i, missed, i, am, glad, it, was, a, success, and, people, attended, especially, the, school, children, who, were, taken, i, also, received, the, diarist, which, is, good, to, read, it, is, interesting, to, see, what, other, panel, members, are, up, to, and, is, surprising, what, things, can, lead, to, for, example, the, diarist, and, the, samson, tractor, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, have, also, collected, a, couple, of, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, the, first, one, lie, returns, to, watchtree, actually, made, me, feel, better, that, we, were, going, to, get, something, positive, out, of, this, whole, experience, but, the, only, problem, is, that, at, some, moments, in, time, this, won’t, be, enough, for, some, people, involved, as, it, does, not, change, what, happened, and, won’t, make, up, for, what, has, been, lost, i, think, it, just, depends, on, how, you, are, feeling, at, the, time, when, reading, the, articles, the, other, article, village, in, running, for, top, country, award, was, also, quite, pleasing, as, at, least, we, as, a, village, are, being, remembered, and, recognised, for, what, we, went, through, it, is, surprising, that, now, so, long, after, the, actual, foot, and, mouth, crisis, that, we, are, finally, being, recognised, and, so, many, things, are, now, being, written, in, the, paper, over, the, christmas, period, i, have, only, really, had, one, thing, to, complain, about, and, that, is, the, state, of, the, roads, after, the, rain, the, roads, have, been, terrible, to, drive, on, with, the, flooding, and, the, road, sides, turning, into, mud, everything, is, filthy, i, know, this, is, expected, in, winter, out, in, the, country, but, since, i, have, been, here, it, has, never, been, so, bad, especially, at, fiance, s, grandad’s, one, improvement, is, the, signs, which, have, been, put, up, at, the, passing, places, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad, fiance, and, i, both, think, these, are, much, much, better, and, a, lot, safer, we, have, also, spotted, a, couple, of, signs, from, watchtree, which, have, been, up, now, for, a, while, but, are, still, surprising, to, see, now, it, is, time, to, start, everything, again, the, new, year, and, hopefully, this, will, be, a, better, year, for, great, orton, than, the, past, couple, has, been, i, am, glad, it, is, going, to, be, quiet, here, now, for, when, i, start, my, studying, as, opposed, to, the, foot, and, mouth, when, studying, was, very, very, difficult, monday, 27th, january, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, this, week, i, found, an, article, in, the, daily, mail, which, i, thought, was, relevant, it, is, called, boom, and, doom, and, is, about, house, prices, all, over, england, for, 2002, prices, in, north, yorkshire, rose, by, 66, but, in, allerdale, they, only, rose, by, 8, it, did, not, mention, why, this, was, but, some, of, it, must, be, the, result, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, and, the, effect, on, the, area, since, then, this, made, me, think, about, the, effect, on, great, orton, and, how, difficult, it, would, probably, be, to, sell, houses, here, and, if, people, would, really, want, to, move, here, there, are, two, sides, however, as, if, more, property, was, built, in, great, orton, and, the, surrounding, area, things, would, probably, change, and, great, orton, might, lose, some, of, its, farming, background, i, definitely, wouldn't, want, it, to, change, too, much, despite, the, burial, site, i, like, it, just, the, way, it, is, the, great, thing, about, this, week, is, the, weather, for, once, we, have, been, able, to, go, down, the, lonning, with, dog, without, getting, filthy, as, it, is, frosty, it, has, been, great, i, can’t, believe, how, quickly, 2003, is, passing, it, is, february, already, this, past, month, has, been, totally, hectic, with, appointments, arrangement, birthdays, and, the, open, university, it, makes, you, realise, that, whatever, happens, time, goes, on, i, think, this, must, have, been, very, difficult, for, people, directly, involved, in, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, as, life, would, have, had, to, carry, on, despite, whatever, was, going, on, in, their, own, lives, i, think, as, time, has, gone, on, i, have, got, more, used, to, the, idea, of, watchtree, and, accept, it, more, now, i, received, the, watchtree, news, during, the, previous, week, it, is, good, to, hear, that, the, restoration, and, creation, of, the, site, is, finally, complete, overall, i, don’t, think, it, has, taken, as, long, as, i, thought, it, would, for, the, nature, reserve, to, be, established, especially, when, you, compare, it, to, how, long, it, has, taken, for, the, children’s, playground, to, be, improved, nearly, two, years, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, however, it, is, better, late, than, never, i, am, pleased, at, how, the, nature, reserve, sounds, with, al, the, different, species, of, animal, which, had, been, included, or, seen, especially, the, merlin, the, smallest, bird, of, prey, which, was, sited, fiance, and, i, both, find, these, things, very, interesting, it, is, good, that, this, is, happening, so, close, to, us, last, year, we, travelled, to, see, the, osprey, viewpoint, it, was, great, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, have, also, found, a, few, more, articles, two, of, these, are, regarding, the, 20, day, standstill, with, not, been, directly, involved, in, the, farming, side, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, i, am, not, totally, sure, about, all, these, sorts, of, rules, etc, but, think, it, is, good, that, at, least, things, are, trying, to, be, improved, for, the, future, in, case, this, may, happen, again, and, also, as, a, result, of, learning, from, past, events, there, was, also, an, article, showing, watchtree, as, a, finalist, for, the, environmental, project, award, i, definitely, think, that, watchtree, deserves, to, be, considered, for, this, award, as, so, much, has, happened, here, and, at, least, some, good, is, going, to, come, out, of, it, it, would, be, nice, to, get, this, sort, of, award, in, recognition, of, the, hard, work, of, the, people, involved, i, think, this, year, will, hopefully, be, a, better, one, for, cumbria, and, people, may, have, confidence, even, though, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, was, a, tragedy, i, think, cumbria, and, the, people, in, it, are, able, to, recover, from, it, as, people, from, the, newspaper, articles, seem, more, optimistic, and, this, rubs, off, on, you, i, think, this, year, will, be, a, better, one, and, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, at, this, point, monday, 24th, february, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, so, far, these, past, four, weeks, i, have, not, receive, a, watchtree, newsletter, but, there, was, a, small, mention, in, the, parish, magazine, about, he, playground, work, is, underway, and, it, is, hoped, to, be, finished, by, the, summer, it, seems, to, be, taking, a, long, time, to, get, the, playground, sorted, but, at, least, it, will, be, good, for, the, kids, in, the, summer, holidays, it, is, better, late, than, never, there, is, only, one, thing, that, has, bothered, us, over, these, past, weeks, our, fish, whenever, we, change, the, water, the, fish, seem, to, be, ill, and, now, we, have, had, to, add, more, and, more, chemicals, to, reduce, the, amount, of, chlorine, that, seems, to, be, in, the, water, we, did, originally, start, off, with, 13, fish, and, now, only, have, 2, left, it, does, make, you, worry, about, the, state, of, our, water, and, why, more, chemicals, are, possibly, being, added, the, fact, that, the, burial, site, is, so, near, does, make, you, worry, if, that, is, anything, to, do, with, it, over, the, past, four, weeks, i, have, been, very, confident, about, the, future, regarding, foot, and, mouth, with, the, sun, shining, again, and, the, animals, about, it, seems, as, if, nothing, bad, has, happened, here, but, you, know, that, for, some, people, involved, in, the, crisis, the, future, will, never, be, that, easy, or, simple, and, i, do, feel, sympathy, for, them, for, me, it, seems, possible, to, be, able, to, move, on, now, after, the, crisis, and, it, has, been, good, to, see, the, sheep, and, cows, about, and, fiance, has, even, seen, a, couple, of, birds, of, prey, we, are, not, sure, what, they, were, but, think, one, might, have, been, a, merlin, which, was, mentioned, in, a, previous, watchtree, newsletter, as, being, seen, on, site, the, article, called, record, tourism, figures, for, county, was, encouraging, and, shows, that, cumbria, may, be, starting, to, recover, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, i, also, found, another, article, called, fears, over, bovine, tb, time, bomb, i, think, this, is, worrying, and, should, definitely, be, taken, seriously, as, it, would, be, devastating, to, farmers, and, everyone, in, the, county, in, the, past, fortnight, it, has, also, been, my, mam’s, birthday, she, was, really, looking, forward, to, spending, some, time, out, here, and, we, went, to, bowness, for, the, afternoon, with, dog, once, again, you, realise, how, lovely, it, is, out, here, and, how, much, it, should, be, appreciated, overall, in, my, opinion, the, situation, in, cumbria, over, the, past, year, has, definitely, improved, and, will, hopefully, continue, to, do, so, 24th, march, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, these, past, four, weeks, have, been, rather, strange, and, worrying, first, of, all, there, was, the, death, of, simon, harris, a, man, from, the, village, who, you, would, regularly, see, walking, dogs, and, looking, at, the, horses, despite, what, most, of, the, papers, have, said, about, him, to, me, he, was, always, polite, and, possibly, just, a, bit, shy, i, have, enclosed, an, article, about, him, that, was, in, the, paper, shortly, after, his, death, the, headline, is, not, very, nice, but, the, article, does, include, some, of, the, best, comments, about, simon, i, was, quite, shocked, by, the, whole, thing, and, think, it, could, definitely, have, been, handled, better, by, the, papers, the, people, in, the, village, could, also, have, been, a, bit, more, respectful, i, do, not, think, it, was, their, place, to, comment, in, the, way, that, they, did, secondly, the, whole, issue, of, war, with, iraq, is, a, worrying, subject, neither, fiance, or, i, agree, with, what, is, being, done, and, how, it, is, being, carried, out, it, is, a, particularly, worrying, time, for, fiance, s, aunty, as, her, husband, lives, in, kuwait, with, the, rest, of, his, family, she, came, to, england, where, she, is, originally, from, with, her, two, children, during, the, last, gulf, war, she, knows, all, too, well, what, the, danger, are, and, what, is, involved, it, is, a, very, worrying, subject, where, you, feel, totally, helpless, and, at, the, same, time, cannot, get, away, from, it, however, life, still, carries, on, as, harsh, as, it, may, be, i, thought, of, this, when, looking, at, the, past, diaries, i, have, written, and, how, many, have, accumulated, it, is, strange, how, quickly, time, goes, by, and, how, people, are, just, expected, to, cope, and, carry, on, i, thought, in, particular, of, the, people, worst, affected, by, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, how, helpless, they, must, have, felt, and, how, they, coped, life, can, be, a, funny, thing, looking, back, i, think, this, project, has, been, very, worth, while, and, think, it, is, great, that, they, will, be, archived, for, the, future, writing, these, diaries, seems, to, have, become, part, of, my, routine, now, and, i, think, it, will, definitely, be, strange, when, i, no, longer, have, to, write, them, i, have, found, quite, a, few, newspaper, articles, over, the, past, four, weeks, donella, rebuilds, the, cumberland, show, was, encouraging, about, the, future, of, cumbria, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, however, there, are, still, worrying, issues, arising, such, as, in, the, articles, of, mp, calls, for, vaccination, to, keep, f, m, under, control, and, from, uruguay, with, a, threat, which, highlight, issues, of, important, to, the, farming, industry, i, have, also, been, very, busy, over, the, past, few, weeks, as, my, second, assignment, was, due, for, my, university, work, which, was, quite, hectic, i, have, had, a, break, for, the, past, couple, of, days, as, i, have, not, been, very, well, a, bad, cough, sore, throat, and, stomach, and, a, stuffy, nose, i, haven’t, done, too, badly, over, the, winter, months, with, illnesses, so, i, can’t, really, complain, lastly, our, water, hasn’t, been, of, the, best, quality, lately, on, occasions, it, is, white, and, fizzes, not, the, most, appetizing, 21st, april, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, these, past, 4, weeks, have, just, seem, to, fly, by, quite, a, few, good, things, have, happened, and, even, though, i, am, feeling, quite, tired, i, have, had, a, good, month, firstly, fiance, dog, and, i, have, finally, go, t, a, small, space, of, our, own, we, have, got, an, allotment, about, 8, miles, away, and, it, is, surrounded, by, horses, and, fields, it, belongs, to, a, man, who, lives, there, and, owns, all, the, land, roundabout, but, unfortunately, he, is, no, longer, well, enough, to, work, the, land, so, has, let, us, have, it, it, will, need, a, lot, of, work, but, will, be, good, for, us, so, far, we, have, got, potatoes, raspberries, and, rhubarb, growing, dog, even, helps, to, dig, even, though, we, live, in, the, country, on, our, own, block, it, is, not, always, that, easy, to, get, any, peace, we, have, also, had, the, opportunity, to, join, the, cumbria, wildlife, trust, a, leaflet, came, through, our, door, and, we, thought, it, would, be, brilliant, as, we, would, be, kept, up, to, date, with, all, the, latest, goings, on, in, cumbria, learn, a, lot, more, about, the, wildlife, and, also, possibly, get, the, chance, to, do, some, voluntary, work, fiance, and, i, are, really, interested, and, think, it, is, great, we, get, sent, though, a, certain, number, of, magazines, every, year, and, every, month, we, send, a, small, donation, so, we, feel, like, we, are, helping, a, little, bit, as, well, the, article, which, i, found, in, one, of, the, magazines, id, enclosed, on, the, next, page, the, other, thing, which, has, made, my, month, is, knowing, that, we, are, going, to, hawkshead, again, my, mam, fiance, dog, and, i, are, going, for, a, short, break, just, 3, nights, for, my, birthday, we, have, got, it, all, booked, and, are, really, looking, forward, to, it, it, was, great, last, time, especially, for, dog, i, just, hope, she, doesn’t, get, stuck, under, the, bed, in, the, caravan, this, time, as, she, is, a, bit, bigger, now, than, she, was, then, this, past, week, i, have, also, been, in, touch, with, my, dad, in, south, africa, as, it, was, his, birthday, it, turns, out, that, he, may, be, passing, through, carlisle, for, a, couple, of, days, at, the, end, of, next, week, it, would, be, lovely, to, see, him, again, and, i, think, he, will, love, great, orton, and, our, allotment, i, think, he, has, always, liked, the, thought, of, living, in, the, country, and, would, love, to, retire, to, somewhere, nice, and, quiet, things, will, also, have, improved, and, we, have, grown, up, a, bit, since, he, was, last, here, about, 3, years, ago, it, should, be, good, it, is, funny, that, after, living, in, south, africa, for, so, long, he, is, still, drawn, to, the, lifestyle, in, cumbria, lastly, i, have, made, a, note, of, the, final, meeting, for, the, foot, and, mouth, diaries, and, hope, to, be, there, i, bet, it, passes, really, quickly, now, and, will, be, over, before, i, know, it, how, strange, 28th, april, 4th, may, monday, got, 3, articles, from, cumberland, news, april, 25th, 2003, breeders, hit, out, discrimination, fmd, burial, site, celebrates, new, life, and, my, favourite, its, a, dog’s, life, for, rosie, the, lamb, tuesday, saw, c, friday, noticed, the, park, is, coming, on, a, bit, better, for, the, children, it, was, mentioned, in, the, orton, parish, awarded, 25, 000, to, reference, drain, level, and, re, seed, new, play, equipment, will, follow, saturday, some, of, the, children, were, allowed, to, attend, meetings, to, discuss, it, good, to, involve, children, about, time, too, at, least, children, will, be, able, to, play, football, 5th, 11th, may, tuesday, working, really, hard, have, to, get, assignment, posted, off, tomorrow, night, before, we, go, away, on, thursday, hectic, wednesday, service, held, at, watchtree, unable, to, go, but, think, it, was, a, very, good, idea, newspaper, article, enclosed, was, written, before, the, service, thursday, away, to, hawskhead, exciting, friday, my, birthday, had, a, lovely, day, went, shopping, in, the, morning, to, forest, in, the, afternoon, and, for, a, meal, at, night, lovely, sunday, back, from, holiday, already, it, was, lovely, everyone, was, so, friendly, or, perhaps, we, just, noticed, it, more, there, 12th, 18th, may, tuesday, fiance, at, doctors, not, very, well, he, has, got, a, viral, infection, as, well, as, fluid, behind, his, ears, told, to, just, take, it, easy, wednesday, i, have, been, sent, info, to, chose, courses, for, open, university, that, i, would, like, to, do, next, year, and, in, the, future, am, going, to, take, the, environmental, studies, route, hopefully, leading, to, diploma, in, environment, and, development, and, possibly, further, to, ba, bsc, in, environmental, studies, i, did, like, archaeology, but, think, what, i, am, doing, is, a, lot, more, relevant, to, the, future, foot, and, mouth, and, watchtree, made, me, realise, that, friday, got, watchtree, newsletter, this, week, i, will, enclose, it, this, time, as, it, covers, quite, a, few, areas, and, has, a, bit, of, information, there, is, information, about, the, service, held, awards, that, have, been, won, and, also, new, wildlife, which, are, now, present, on, the, site, lapwings, oystercatchers, and, ringed, plovers, 19th, 25th, may, 2003, tuesday, dad, has, come, to, visit, for, a, couple, of, days, from, south, africa, nice, surprise, enjoyed, seeing, him, dad, asking, about, fmd, crisis, he, saw, it, on, tv, over, there, and, how, close, it, was, i, think, he, was, quite, shocked, thursday, i, was, surprised, that, even, though, south, africa, is, so, different, he, would, still, like, to, live, somewhere, in, this, country, makes, you, think, again, how, lucky, you, are, and, what, you, take, for, granted, saturday, article, from, cumberland, news, may, 23, reward, for, post, foot, and, mouth, achievements, 25th, may, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, every, time, i, come, to, write, these, diaries, i, look, back, over, the, past, four, weeks, and, notice, they, are, becoming, more, and, more, busy, the, past, couple, of, weeks, have, been, no, exception, it, is, already, nearly, half, way, through, the, year, i, can’t, believe, it, over, the, past, 4, weeks, i, have, been, on, holiday, turned, 22, and, my, dad, had, popped, over, from, south, africa, for, a, few, days, hectic, but, good, firstly, hawkshead, was, lovely, again, i, wouldn’t, say, anything, different, it, was, great, we, all, had, a, lovely, time, and, i, had, a, really, good, birthday, when, you, are, at, home, in, great, orton, you, forget, how, much, is, really, out, there, in, cumbria, to, do, and, see, we, definitely, think, we, should, take, advantage, of, it, more, often, shortly, after, we, arrived, back, from, hawkshead, my, dad, popped, up, to, carlisle, for, a, couple, of, days, it, was, a, lovely, surprise, and, it, was, good, to, see, him, he, absolutely, loves, it, where, we, are, and, thinks, we, are, very, lucky, even, though, south, africa, is, so, different, he, still, thinks, it, is, lovely, out, here, looking, out, onto, fields, this, did, make, me, realise, how, lucky, we, are, despite, what, happened, due, to, foot, and, mouth, inevitably, sometimes, we, do, take, it, for, granted, my, dad, remembered, watching, about, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, in, south, africa, but, did, not, realise, exactly, how, close, it, was, i, think, he, was, quite, shocked, foot, and, mouth, has, definitely, made, me, more, aware, of, my, surroundings, and, how, everything, works, i, have, definitely, noticed, this, when, i, have, been, doing, my, studying, for, open, university, i, am, now, at, the, point, where, i, can, chose, my, courses, next, year, and, therefore, which, path, i, am, going, to, take, i, have, decided, to, take, courses, leading, to, a, diploma, in, environment, and, development, and, if, everything, goes, to, plan, for, an, environmental, studies, degree, i, am, really, enjoying, what, i, am, doing, at, the, minute, and, think, it, is, definitely, useful, and, relevant, for, the, future, i, did, enjoy, studying, archaeology, but, think, the, environment, and, related, issues, are, more, important, at, the, present, and, in, the, future, on, the, 7th, may, there, was, a, memorial, service, at, watchtree, to, mark, a, two, year, anniversary, from, when, the, last, animal, was, buried, at, the, site, i, think, this, was, a, good, idea, and, it, is, appropriate, to, remember, the, animals, that, were, killed, i, was, unable, to, attend, the, service, but, have, managed, to, get, a, newspaper, article, about, it, and, it, was, also, mentioned, in, the, watchtree, newsletter, i, have, included, this, newsletter, in, with, these, diaries, at, it, contains, quite, a, bit, of, information, on, a, few, different, aspects, i, think, it, is, good, about, the, wildlife, which, is, emerging, on, the, site, the, park, or, play, area, for, children, is, also, coming, on, fairly, well, at, last, it, has, finally, been, reseeded, as, well, as, levelled, it, looks, better, i, have, also, included, 4, newspaper, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, with, my, favourite, being, rosie, the, lamb, i, have, put, this, article, in, as, i, thought, it, was, lovely, 22nd, june, 2004, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, how, strange, it, seems, that, all, this, is, coming, to, an, end, and, really, how, quickly, time, has, passed, in, my, situation, i, would, say, that, time, has, healed, a, few, aspects, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, and, things, don’t, seem, so, bad, 18, months, on, i, enjoyed, the, foot, and, mouth, evening, and, learnt, a, lot, from, it, about, other, people’s, views, and, experiences, i, enjoyed, it, a, lot, more, than, i, thought, i, would, and, thought, that, the, main, themes, found, during, the, research, were, ones, which, i, would, have, agreed, with, one, thing, which, was, said, which, has, made, me, think, was, the, comment, that, these, diaries, would, be, our, type, of, memorial, i, had, never, once, thought, of, this, research, in, that, sort, of, way, but, the, more, i, think, about, it, the, more, i, agree, and, like, the, idea, it, definitely, has, been, worthwhile, being, able, to, contribute, to, something, especially, if, it, may, be, able, to, help, in, some, way, in, the, future, when, compared, to, the, article, that, i, found, in, the, cumberland, news, about, a, man’s, memorial, to, the, animals, that, he, lost, during, foot, and, mouth, i, definitely, think, ours, is, more, fitting, and, will, probably, do, some, good, i, understand, everyone, has, the, right, to, express, their, views, in, their, own, way, but, to, me, this, was, too, loud, and, too, inappropriate, however, each, to, their, own, and, at, the, end, of, the, day, at, least, people, are, trying, to, remember, in, a, good, way, as, opposed, to, sweeping, it, under, the, carpet, the, week, of, the, foot, and, mouth, evening, we, were, without, a, car, and, noticed, how, much, we, relied, on, it, and, took, it, for, granted, especially, out, here, as, there, is, a, very, limited, bus, service, everything, is, sorted, out, now, and, we, are, back, to, normal, with, a, newer, little, car, thank, you, very, much, c, for, the, lift, there, and, back, in, general, the, past, few, months, just, seem, to, have, flown, by, and, in, particular, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, don’t, seem, to, have, time, to, fit, everything, in, and, am, trying, to, get, my, assignments, done, on, time, it, turns, out, to, be, quite, a, bit, more, difficult, than, i, thought, it, is, hard, work, but, will, definitely, be, worth, it, in, th, end, over, the, past, 6, months, even, i, have, learnt, so, much, the, next, special, occasion, which, is, coming, up, is, fiance, s, birthday, 21st, july, we, are, thinking, of, going, back, to, hawkshead, again, for, a, few, days, we, really, like, it, there, and, i’m, sure, will, return, again, and, again, it, just, shows, you, that, you, don’t, need, to, leave, cumbria, to, have, a, good, holiday, well, here, we, are, at, the, end, it, just, makes, me, wonder, what, life, will, be, like, in, 18, months, from, now, will, things, be, any, different, they, probably, will, be, in, some, ways, and, hopefully, will, be, for, the, best, 20th, july, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, it, does, seem, very, strange, to, be, sitting, down, to, write, my, last, lot, of, diaries, it, feels, good, to, have, completed, something, as, worthwhile, as, this, as, well, as, it, hopefully, doing, some, good, in, the, future, concerning, foot, and, mouth, crisis, or, any, other, similar, situation, i, also, find, it, has, helped, me, to, become, a, bit, more, confident, and, aware, of, things, around, me, i, remember, back, to, when, i, attended, my, first, meeting, and, how, nervous, i, was, i, think, i, can, handle, things, like, that, a, bit, better, now, we, have, just, got, back, from, holiday, we, had, a, lovely, time, and, did, so, much, we, went, walking, with, dog, to, many, places, and, they, are, all, free, it, just, shows, you, what, a, good, holiday, you, can, have, in, cumbria, on, a, cheap, budget, you, don’t, need, much, else, the, only, disappointing, thing, is, that, some, of, the, places, fiance, and, i, had, been, to, in, the, past, are, now, closed, as, they, have, been, sold, this, has, not, yet, happened, to, talkin, tarn, and, i, definitely, think, it, should, be, given, to, the, cumbria, wildlife, trust, as, people, would, still, have, access, to, it, fiance, and, i, both, agree, that, the, countryside, is, recovering, and, it, is, great, to, be, able, to, wander, about, again, i, have, collected, a, few, more, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, related, to, foot, and, mouth, it, is, good, to, see, breeders, doing, well, again, and, people, getting, back, into, the, swing, of, things, i, would, just, like, to, thank, everyone, involved, for, involving, me, in, this, project, and, i, wish, them, all, the, best, in, the, future]
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being, in, change, of, an, offensive, weapon, a, knife, the, judge, had, acquitted, her, of, the, offences, he, showed, leniency, towards, her, last, year, during, the, fmd, crisis, she, had, returned, to, her, home, to, find, that, her, pet, goat, had, been, killed, by, slaughterers, because, the, animal, was, within, the, 3, km, radius, she, had, gone, berserk, over, this, and, threatened, the, police, officer, and, others, with, the, knife, she, had, to, be, forcibly, restrained, she, was, very, distraught, over, this, killing, even, after, she, had, appeared, in, court, and, had, been, acquitted, of, all, charges, she, showed, great, emotion, not, only, being, freed, but, also, quite, upset, over, the, loss, of, the, goat, perhaps, her, actions, didn’t, happen, to, a, lot, of, other, people, who, had, similar, things, happen, to, them, however, the, loss, of, a, lot, of, pet, animals, and, in, some, cases, needless, slaughter, of, many, farm, animals, still, creates, unhappy, memories, of, 2001, week, 2, tuesday, whilst, walking, the, dog, i, met, a, farmer, from, the, edge, of, the, village, who, has, friends, and, stock, in, close, proximity, to, the, 2, land, fill, sites, he, is, still, very, concerned, about, materials, on, these, sites, the, nearest, site, contained, hundreds, of, carcasses, this, has, been, completed, and, capped, he, is, concerned, about, leachate, from, this, site, and, feels, that, it, doesn’t, matter, how, much, clay, and, soil, were, used, to, contain, this, site, the, effects, of, heavy, rain, is, bound, to, find, a, way, down, and, also, to, drain, it, he, doesn’t, want, to, plough, these, fields, nor, can, he, sell, stock, that, have, grazed, the, same, fields, there, is, pyre, ash, being, tipped, on, the, other, site, again, what, happens, to, the, rainwater, that, runs, off, this, site, also, there, are, concerns, about, the, large, flocks, of, seagulls, that, visit, both, sites, daily, another, concern, is, what, is, happening, to, the, open, cast, coal, site, that, is, situated, almost, due, south, of, gilgarran, village, the, farmer, i, talked, to, today, is, concerned, about, this, huge, site, no, coal, has, been, moved, from, this, site, for, months, there, are, concerns, that, this, site, is, going, to, be, filled, with, waste, will, it, be, from, fmd, sites, we, as, a, village, are, very, concerned, about, rumours, of, land, fill, on, a, huge, scale, friday, noticed, that, there, was, work, being, carried, out, on, the, top, of, the, burial, site, no, villagers, have, commented, on, this, despite, large, yellow, diggers, operating, sunday, work, continuing, on, the, burial, site, cannot, make, out, what, kind, of, work, is, being, done, there, week, 3, monday, work, is, still, going, on, at, the, burial, site, i, still, don’t, know, what, is, going, on, but, the, diggers, involved, are, the, same, as, when, animals, were, being, buried, there, when, animals, were, being, buried, there, last, year, the, smell, coming, from, that, site, was, terrible, to, say, the, least, it, was, not, coming, from, the, dead, animals, as, most, observers, thought, but, from, decomposing, waste, material, that, had, already, been, buried, on, the, site, prior, to, fmd, when, excavators, dug, into, the, soil, to, make, trenches, for, the, dead, animals, they, dug, into, this, decomposing, matter, hence, the, terrible, smell, despite, the, work, that, is, going, on, there, today, no, comments, from, villagers, are, forthcoming, it, seems, to, me, that, now, that, fmd, has, gone, the, general, public, are, not, interested, any, more, unless, they, read, something, in, the, local, papers, written, by, some, enterprising, reporter, week, 4, tuesday, work, is, still, going, on, in, the, former, burial, site, villagers, don’t, seem, to, be, bothered, fmd, is, gone, so, nobody, is, interested, any, more, wednesday, whilst, trying, to, gain, comments, from, villagers, over, the, effects, of, fmd, one, or, two, comments, from, some, individuals, show, concern, about, the, outbreak, last, year, but, don’t, seem, too, concerned, over, any, after, effects, if, any, two, interesting, comments, suggest, that, 1, the, outbreak, was, started, deliberately, by, this, country, in, collusion, with, the, agriculturists, of, the, e.e.c, so, as, to, concentrate, meat, production, in, europe, and, leave, the, uk, to, concentrate, on, arable, farming, 2, the, outbreak, was, started, by, a, terrorist, attack, the, government, would, not, declare, this, because, it, would, cause, widespread, panic, thursday, 23, 25, hours, huge, fire, at, the, site, where, pyre, ash, is, being, tipped, 250,000, used, tyres, caught, fire, arson, is, suspected, fire, fighters, tried, to, contain, the, blaze, but, couldn’t, use, large, amounts, of, water, in, case, water, courses, became, contaminated, friday, 05, 00, fire, still, blazing, at, the, pyre, ash, site, later, in, the, morning, the, fire, was, showing, signs, of, dying, down, apparently, it, was, left, to, burn, itself, out, much, heavy, smoke, pollution, was, evident, drifting, south, west, for, about, nine, miles, reading, the, local, evening, paper, about, the, blaze, there, was, also, a, report, that, villagers, from, disington, 1, miles, from, gilgarran, were, complaining, of, the, foul, smell, from, both, waste, sites, parish, councillors, are, very, concerned, about, this, does, it, coincide, with, work, currently, being, carried, out, on, the, burial, site, the, smell, from, these, sites, plus, the, fact, that, animals, were, buried, on, one, site, and, pyre, ash, plus, the, huge, fire, from, the, other, site, all, happening, this, week, is, causing, concern, in, this, area, but, once, this, hue, and, cry, dies, down, people, will, soon, forget, about, it, all, week, 5, monday, through, to, friday, observed, work, on, top, of, the, burial, site, don’t, know, if, any, work, is, still, going, on, on, the, northern, and, western, sides, friday, local, weekly, paper, carried, the, report, on, the, recent, large, fire, that, occurred, on, the, alco, site, last, week, when, 250,000, tyres, caught, fire, somehow, it, was, intersting, to, read, that, the, fire, brigade, did, not, use, any, water, to, extinguish, the, blaze, in, case, pollution, occurred, in, water, courses, the, fire, was, left, to, burn, itself, out, saturday, burial, site, it, looks, like, there, is, new, soil, being, tipped, on, top, for, some, reason, no, reported, comments, froim, the, parish, council, over, this, despite, very, vociferous, objections, by, them, over, the, use, of, this, and, the, alco, site, in, the, past, sunday, talked, to, our, local, county, councillor, who, lives, in, this, village, he, feels, very, strongly, that, these, two, sites, are, dangerous, he, thinks, that, both, sites, are, a, health, hazard, risk, due, to, obnoxious, odours, and, in, particular, the, large, fire, that, occurred, last, week, which, produced, a, lot, of, polluted, smoke, for, a, distance, of, six, miles, some, people, reckoned, that, the, smell, of, burning, tyres, could, be, smelt, here, in, gilgarran, there, have, been, numerous, fires, on, these, sites, over, the, last, few, years, these, fires, give, rise, to, compaliant, by, people, like, us, but, more, so, from, the, nearer, village, of, distington, 1, miles, west, of, here, the, councillor, suggests, that, there, could, be, more, incidents, of, cancer, cases, in, this, area, in, coming, years, along, with, respiratory, troubles, as, well, as, some, cases, of, bronchitis, related, problems, he, himself, has, recently, suddenly, started, sinusitis, which, he, hasn’t, had, before, all, in, all, he, wasn’t, happy, about, the, situation, on, both, sites, we, don’t, know, what, is, being, tipped, there, all, we, can, do, as, a, community, is, accept, what, we, are, being, told, by, the, site, owners, as, previously, stated, animal, carcasses, were, being, tipped, and, buried, for, about, three, days, before, we, were, told, officially, that, this, was, so, incidentally, the, site, where, animals, are, buried, is, owned, by, cumbria, county, council, this, seems, to, be, totally, against, the, advice, of, county, council, officials, who, look, after, the, environment, and, the, health, of, the, population, as, i’ve, written, before, there, are, going, to, be, bigger, concerns, if, the, opencast, coal, site, to, the, south, of, the, village, becomes, a, landfill, site, for, refuse, from, parts, of, the, county, fifty, miles, away, at, the, moment, there, are, no, suggestions, that, anything, from, the, fmd, outbreak, will, be, dumped, there, having, said, that, however, we, as, villagers, didn’t, know, of, carcasses, being, buried, or, pyre, ash, being, tipped, until, after, it, had, happened, we, await, the, outcome, of, this, coal, site, with, some, trepidation, after, all, no, coal, has, come, from, this, site, for, some, months, it, has, all, the, indication, of, becoming, a, land, fill, site, week, 6, monday, to, wednesday, if, work, is, still, ongoing, at, the, burial, site, it, is, not, visible, from, our, side, of, the, site, i, still, don’t, know, what, is, going, on, there, it, may, all, be, innocent, and, an, improvement, to, the, environment, after, all, this, is, what, the, site, owners, have, to, do, thursday, a, delegation, of, meps, visit, the, north, of, the, county, they, have, come, to, assess, the, situation, for, themselves, and, to, report, back, to, the, european, parliament, no, doubt, they, will, also, report, back, to, their, own, constituents, in, their, own, countries, the, delegation, visit, the, auction, mart, at, longtown, where, the, disease, was, first, noticed, in, this, country, and, also, visited, the, big, burial, site, at, great, orton, where, it, was, estimated, that, half, a, million, carcasses, were, buried, good, coverage, by, the, local, press, radio, and, t.v, gave, anyone, interested, the, views, of, the, delegation, thursday, saturday, the, mep, delegation, agreed, that, the, fmd, situation, had, been, disastrous, we, all, know, that, comments, from, some, tourist, and, agriculture, observers, ranged, from, a, waste, of, time, to, at, least, some, politicians, have, bothered, to, visit, us, our, own, couldn’t, do, that, personally, i, think, that, some, good, came, out, of, this, particularly, when, it, was, reported, that, the, dutch, had, used, vaccination, techniques, when, they, had, a, small, outbreak, many, people, think, that, the, british, government, should, have, had, a, public, inquiry, into, the, outbreak, what, have, they, to, hide, cumbria, is, holding, its, own, inquiry, quite, rightly, so, other, organisations, such, as, lancaster, university, are, holding, research, into, the, outbreak, why, not, the, government, eventually, we, will, know, why, perhaps, not, in, my, lifetime, though, the, minister, and, maff, have, a, lot, to, answer, for, week, 7, thought, it, would, be, of, interest, to, include, copies, of, the, newsletter, that, the, local, authorities, issued, to, every, household, in, the, area, regarding, the, disposal, of, carcasses, and, effluent, it, will, be, of, note, that, there, was, a, fire, last, year, on, the, alco, site, also, involving, tyres, very, similar, to, last, years, only, not, as, big, a, report, on, local, t.v, today, stated, that, the, recent, visit, of, meps, to, the, area, considered, that, vaccination, should, have, been, used, at, the, outset, and, be, should, seriously, considered, should, a, future, outbreak, occur, heard, of, reports, of, an, outbreak, of, t.b, in, cattle, in, other, parts, of, the, country, this, was, reported, to, be, more, serious, than, fmd, should, a, major, outbreak, occur, this, would, lead, to, the, question, of, disposal, should, the, need, arise, as, i’ve, already, reported, in, previous, entries, the, use, of, the, opencast, coal, site, to, the, south, east, of, here, is, causing, concern, in, some, quarters, although, the, site, didn’t, feature, in, the, fmd, crisis, there, is, a, feeling, that, it, is, being, earmarked, for, use, in, the, future, should, the, need, arise, or, even, the, rumour, of, an, incinerator, is, planned, for, there, the, general, feeling, here, and, in, the, surrounding, area, is, that, we, have, had, enough, dumping, of, carcasses, effluent, toxic, chemicals, etc, it, could, be, that, the, authorities, have, seen, that, the, sites, concerned, have, handled, those, substances, before, that, an, extension, of, disposal, sites, in, this, area, would, be, effective, week, 8, nothing, of, any, significance, to, report, this, week, week, 9, now, that, cumbria’s, fmd, inquiry, has, started, a, lot, of, people, i, have, met, this, week, recall, the, happenings, of, a, year, ago, even, more, interesting, is, the, coverage, in, the, local, press, and, t.v, plenty, of, publicity, by, the, media, shows, how, little, the, government, an, maff, in, particular, let, the, farming, and, tourism, industries, of, the, county, down, there, has, been, plenty, of, distressing, stories, by, farmers, not, only, of, infected, animals, being, slaughtered, but, also, the, slaughtering, of, healthy, animals, in, the, 3, km, circle, of, an, outbreak, one, particularly, distressing, point, of, evidence, was, when, a, farmer, described, to, the, panel, the, birth, of, a, calf, five, days, after, it’s, mother, had, been, shot, we, at, the, time, of, the, outbreak, were, hearing, these, stories, on, a, daily, basis, and, still, maff, and, mr, brown, kept, telling, us, that, the, outbreak, was, under, control, all, i, can, say, at, this, point, is, may, heaven, help, us, when, it, all, happens, again, week, 10, work, is, still, going, on, at, the, burial, site, it, looks, like, new, soil, is, being, dumped, on, top, of, the, actual, site, and, dozed, to, level, it, of, and, to, smooth, it, out, on, the, side, all, we, can, do, is, accept, that, the, management, of, the, site, are, making, it, better, for, all, concerned, and, that, they, are, as, concerned, as, we, are, the, much, publicised, cumbrian, fmd, inquiry, team, visited, the, land, fill, site, they, met, local, councillors, who, expressed, their, concern, over, this, site, and, the, alco, site, no, other, report, was, forthcoming, from, the, team, the, inquiry, team, finish, their, evidence, gathering, this, week, one, very, important, statement, was, made, that, the, minister, of, the, environment, should, make, a, statement, over, this, outbreak, and, should, even, make, a, visit, to, these, sites, county, wide, there, has, been, total, silence, from, mrs, beckett’s, department, over, this, request, the, same, silence, is, observed, from, any, government, source, for, that, matter, everyone, asks, the, same, questions, what, have, they, got, to, hide, why, aren’t, they, interested, what, plans, are, being, made, and, what, lessons, have, been, learned, from, last, years, outbreak, a, lot, of, farms, are, restocking, and, in, this, neighbourhood, farm, work, is, going, on, as, before, or, so, it, looks, as, time, goes, on, though, there, seems, to, be, a, smouldering, anger, that, no, one, in, authority, is, as, concerned, as, well, are, week, 11, work, is, still, on, going, at, the, burial, site, no, comments, heard, from, any, of, the, villagers, or, neighbours, this, week, diary, 12, monday, from, my, own, observation, work, is, still, ongoing, at, the, burial, site, more, heavy, plant, has, been, moved, on, to, the, top, of, the, giant, amount, and, it, looks, as, though, more, topsoil, is, being, laid, over, the, mount, perhaps, to, improve, the, site, but, water, may, still, permeate, into, and, through, the, site, we, can, only, believe, the, operators, that, this, is, a, right, thing, to, do, friday, talked, to, 2, it, villagers, about, the, after, effects, of, fmd, one, said, oh, it's, all, over, now, and, forgotten, about, it, doesn't, bother, me, one, bit, the, other, said, it, all, in, the, past, we, just, have, to, forget, about, it, it, seems, that, life, is, returning, to, normal, in, all, aspects, of, village, life, people, don't, think, about, last, year, unless, the, diarist, mentions, that, sunday, a, bad, day, or, weather, wise, this, prolonged, rain, may, halt, work, on, the, burial, site, most, people, are, reluctant, to, talk, about, f, m, d, now, even, if, it, was, one, of, the, worst, economic, and, social, disasters, to, hit, this, country, and, this, county, in, particular, now, that, it, is, over, people's, memories, begin, to, fade, however, some, of, us, are, not, happy, at, having, these, two, disposal, sites, within, a, 1000, metres, of, this, village, fmd, may, be, over, but, these, burial, sites, are, here, for, a, long, time, yet, diary, 13, observed, in, work, on, burial, site, more, heavy, machinery, and, plant, moved, in, and, large, quantities, of, soil, are, being, laid, down, and, smoothed, out, diary, 14, talked, to, some, religious, today, about, the, after, effects, of, fmd, without, exception, they, are, not, interested, it's, all, over, with, an, idle, one, to, be, reminded, about, it, are, the, general, comments, nobody, seems, bothered, that, there, are, hundreds, of, animals, buried, a, 1000, yards, from, his, village, or, the, fact, that, there, is, leachate, and, pyre, ash, buried, in, another, site, looking, at, the, burial, site, and, the, work, that, is, going, on, there, it, does, look, as, though, the, management, there, are, doing, everything, to, make, the, site, safe, diary, 15, i, met, a, smallholder, today, to, whom, i, have, talked, to, in, the, past, about, the, effects, and, after, effects, of, fmd, he, still, not, happy, about, the, burial, site, despite, the, landscaping, and, smoothing, off, of, the, large, quantities, of, topsoil, only, time, will, tell, he, says, he, does, not, have, any, stock, near, to, the, site, but, he, has, sheep, on, the, farmer's, land, since, fmd, finished, though, his, stock, movements, are, still, restricted, by, new, legislation, that, has, come, in, since, the, area, was, declared, free, for, instance, or, if, he, takes, a, sheep, to, auction, he, asked, to, have, nine, pieces, of, paper, for, this, transaction, if, the, price, is, not, right, and, he, has, to, take, the, she, back, to, his, land, he, was, put, them, back, in, the, same, field, that, they, came, from, and, it, cannot, move, them, to, three, weeks, he, then, has, to, obtain, a, licence, to, do, this, he, does, think, that, the, authorities, are, not, going, to, be, as, strict, shortly, this, is, just, one, of, the, precautions, that, have, come, in, to, try, and, combat, any, recurrence, of, fmd, diary, 16, i, met, the, smallholder, who, rents, land, a, from, the, farmer, in, the, village, his, income, from, the, sheep, that, he, a, breeds, has, been, nil, like, many, more, people, in, similar, circumstances, fortunately, for, him, had, he, has, an, income, from, another, source, the, subject, of, compensation, came, up, during, our, conversation, i, personally, do, not, have, any, comment, to, make, about, this, item, as, it, maybe, just, a, rumour, apparently, he, got, it, bee, in, his, bonnet, about, compensation, paid, out, to, people, who, were, not, in, the, agricultural, business, what, seemed, to, upset, him, was, that, he, had, heard, that, some, of, fish, and, chip, shop, owner, in, the, lake, district, had, been, paid, 170, per, month, compensation, for, the, loss, of, trade, he, didn't, mind, too, much, that, hoteliers, and, guest, house, owners, had, claimed, compensation, but, wondered, where, else, would, this, kind, of, money, go, when, he, himself, had, been, paid, nothing, this, is, the, first, time, i've, heard, this, one, diary, 17, attended, the, cumberland, show, at, every, to, be, park, carlisle, we, as, a, family, used, to, attend, this, annual, show, regularly, both, as, spectators, and, competitors, we, have, never, seen, the, show, like, the, one, put, on, this, year, when, will, things, really, get, back, to, normal, many, of, us, think, that, agriculture, is, back, to, pre, fmd, cattle, and, sheep, on, grazing, in, the, fields, lambing, has, reached, new, heights, in, produce, on, some, farms, calves, are, being, born, silage, and, haymaking, is, progressing, when, the, weather, permits, but, there, are, still, restrictions, on, animal, movements, hence, no, sheep, cattle, or, pigs, at, this, year's, show, only, horses, poultry, dogs, and, rabbits, not, many, pieces, of, agricultural, machinery, onshore, either, plenty, of, chartered, accountants, tents, craft, tents, horse, feeds, and, tack, displays, in, the, main, arena, and, bands, not, an, agricultural, show, as, we, knew, it, it, seems, to, be, the, same, at, other, shows, ennerdale, show, is, one, of, our, local, shows, this, year, there, isn't, going, to, be, any, horses, or, sheep, generally, there, are, no, cattle, shown, at, the, show, but, without, sheep, hill, farmers, dominate, the, show, the, there, isn't, going, to, be, much, on, show, at, all, it, was, always, a, good, show, for, equestrian, events, at, many, levels, this, show, was, always, a, must, for, our, family, i, don't, think, that, we, will, be, going, this, year, diary, 18, from, the, golf, course, and, golf, driving, range, i, can, look, out, on, to, the, western, side, of, the, burial, site, i, have, written, in, previous, weeks, about, the, work, there, has, been, going, on, at, this, site, viewing, the, site, are, from, our, village, side, would, hardly, know, what, that, there, ever, was, a, burial, site, hundreds, of, tons, of, topsoil, had, been, laid, and, smoothed, out, to, make, more, or, less, like, a, landscaped, feature, it, looks, really, good, from, the, western, side, though, things, are, little, different, work, is, still, going, on, there, large, amounts, of, soil, have, been, tipped, and, levelled, off, there, are, still, portakabins, there, and, heavy, plant, can, still, be, seen, moving, about, no, doubt, the, western, side, well, look, as, good, as, the, eastern, side, before, long, diary, 19, it, is, announced, that, the, prime, minister, and, his, wife, and, son, of, his, family, at, a, visit, to, cumbria, the, pm, arrives, in, west, cumbria, all, kinds, of, reports, are, written, in, the, local, and, national, press, about, what, he, is, going, to, do, or, not, do, or, what, he, should, be, doing, after, all, he, is, on, holiday, the, pm, did, meet, some, farmers, leaders, the, press, as, usual, stirred, things, up, or, as, to, where, he, should, be, meeting, tourism, officials, say, that, the, trip, was, fantastic, for, tourism, in, the, county, or, person, they, i, can't, see, what, difference, it, made, if, people, want, to, come, cumbria, they, will, come, irrespective, of, whether, the, pm, comes, or, not, diary, 20, after, a, lot, of, protests, it, looks, as, though, it, the, 20, day, restriction, on, cattle, movement, will, be, lifted, perhaps, this, will, now, mean, that, they, could, be, cattle, and, sheep, entries, at, local, agricultural, shows, some, shows, are, going, ahead, with, very, limited, entries, of, livestock, and, some, with, no, animal, entries, at, all, these, shows, have, always, been, very, popular, with, my, family, for, over, 20, years, also, living, with, in, a, farming, community, makes, us, feel, part, of, the, annual, agricultural, scene, diary, 21, i’ve, written, before, regarding, agricultural, shows, and, the, pride, in, which, local, people, take, in, these, shows, although, a, lot, of, shows, have, gone, ahead, this, season, they, have, had, a, reduced, animal, showing, or, in, some, cases, no, animals, at, all, today, i’ve, heard, that, one, show, has, been, cancelled, altogether, this, particular, show, is, one, of, the, most, popular, in, the, area, maybe, because, of, lack, of, entries, or, the, organisers, just, wanted, to, cancel, because, of, the, 3, week, restriction, on, animal, movement, i, don’t, know, perhaps, it, would, be, better, to, cancel, them, than, have, a, depleted, show, diary, 22, spent, a, few, hours, in, the, fells, today, it, was, good, to, be, able, to, wander, the, familiar, paths, and, let, our, dog, run, free, it, was, a, good, boost, to, our, moral, and, perhaps, the, dog’s, too, we, all, missed, being, able, to, do, this, last, year, diary, 23, last, bank, holiday, before, xmas, and, the, last, before, the, schools, go, back, at, the, golf, course, where, i, help, out, part, time, during, the, summer, we, had, lots, of, customers, a, lot, of, them, commented, on, how, enjoyable, it, was, to, be, on, holiday, in, this, area, this, year, compared, to, the, restrictions, that, were, in, place, last, year, maybe, the, holiday, establishments, are, getting, back, to, normal, there, are, no, restrictions, put, on, them, like, there, is, in, place, now, with, farmers, and, agriculture, diary, 26, sorting, through, the, mail, left, whilst, away, on, holiday, and, i, came, across, a, notice, sent, by, the, village, committee, notifying, a, harvest, thanksgiving, festival, to, be, held, next, month, in, the, village, hall, as, we, have, no, church, in, the, village, it, is, being, held, in, some, farm, buildings, in, the, centre, of, the, village, this, will, be, a, splendid, event, the, farm, did, not, have, fmd, but, couldn’t, take, animals, from, one, field, to, another, and, couldn’t, market, them, when, we, consider, the, gloom, that, settled, on, this, farm, and, community, it, is, very, welcome, to, have, this, unique, event, here, in, the, heart, of, the, village, and, the, farmer, and, his, wife, will, be, at, the, centre, of, events, a, lovely, gesture, and, i, hope, it, will, be, well, supported, there, will, be, a, distribution, of, harvest, gifts, afterwards, what, a, change, from, a, year, ago, diary, 27, with, the, aid, of, binoculars, i, have, been, able, to, have, a, closer, look, at, the, burial, site, from, a, westerly, direction, there, are, vents, in, the, shape, of, small, towers, to, extract, gas, from, the, site, there, are, pipes, connecting, these, vents, a, lot, of, work, is, still, going, on, there, however, all, this, takes, place, in, the, western, side, which, is, the, opposite, side, to, where, my, village, is, situated, from, our, side, there, is, nothing, to, suggest, the, amount, of, work, going, on, because, of, this, fmd, is, pushed, further, into, the, backs, of, villager’s, minds, it, is, something, in, the, past, it, has, happened, so, what, people, like, myself, who, talk, to, farmers, and, agriculturalists, do, not, easily, forget, these, events, personally, i, am, still, concerned, about, the, burial, site, when, inquiries, are, made, about, it, all, we, can, do, is, accept, what, we, are, told, it, does, not, look, as, though, every, precaution, is, being, taken, to, alleviate, an, odours, or, contamination, diary, 28, i, had, to, see, the, village, farmer, on, another, matter, and, was, asked, inside, for, coffee, and, a, chat, he, was, able, to, tell, me, of, the, full, implications, of, the, 20, day, rule, he, accepts, that, this, is, a, precaution, to, prevent, another, outbreak, of, fmd, but, there, is, a, lot, of, work, involved, he, told, me, of, an, isolation, area, that, he, has, created, and, also, the, fencing, arrangements, where, his, land, adjoins, the, neighbours, land, i, would, say, that, 95, of, the, public, don’t, know, about, this, even, if, they, have, heard, of, the, 20, day, rule, for, him, he, owns, the, largest, farm, in, the, area, it, is, bad, enough, having, to, do, all, the, physical, work, as, regards, fencing, etc, but, for, anyone, such, as, a, small, holder, it, must, be, a, nightmare, if, he, has, to, bring, animals, back, from, market, that, haven’t, been, sold, friday, my, wife, and, i, played, a, round, of, golf, at, aspatria, this, course, was, badly, restricted, when, fmd, hit, this, area, we, were, reminded, that, there, are, restrictions, on, adjoining, land, there, were, notices, asking, people, who, hit, balls, onto, farm, land, not, to, cross, the, fence, to, retrieve, them, because, of, fmd, precautions, this, was, news, to, us, it, does, make, sense, though, the, farmer, wouldn’t, know, where, players, had, been, walking, prior, to, playing, golf, diary, 29, attended, the, harvest, festival, held, in, the, village, farm, a, large, cattle, shed, had, been, cleaned, and, decorated, for, this, event, chairs, had, been, brought, in, fruit, and, vegetables, were, on, display, for, auctioning, at, the, end, the, place, was, packed, a, lot, of, money, was, raised, and, it, was, a, very, happy, event, well, supported, and, a, big, boost, for, the, farm, and, the, village, i, don’t, think, that, the, general, public, care, much, about, fmd, now, that, is, has, been, a, year, since, the, last, case, was, confirmed, in, cumbria, the, public, may, be, reminded, if, they, read, the, local, newspapers, intently, for, instance, there, was, a, letter, to, the, editor, published, recently, which, referred, to, the, results, of, the, cumbria, inquiry, into, fmd, it, may, have, been, a, farmer, who, wrote, it, i, don’t, know, but, the, writer, certainly, went, to, town, in, the, scathing, comments, on, the, handling, of, fmd, even, caustic, remarks, regarding, the, efforts, since, fmd, of, defra, and, mrs, beckett, i, certainly, wouldn’t, like, to, cross, the, writer, i, also, think, the, farming, community, must, be, holding, it’s, breath, in, case, the, present, restrictions, such, as, they, are, prove, to, be, worthless, then, we, will, all, suffer, again, week, 30, what, a, difference, a, year, makes, despite, some, restrictions, on, public, access, to, agricultural, fields, in, some, areas, of, the, county, it, doesn’t, apply, here, although, most, locals, confine, themselves, to, footpaths, and, bridleways, other, people, seem, to, think, that, all, fields, are, recreation, areas, they, walk, and, run, across, some, of, the, fields, in, close, proximity, to, the, village, regardless, of, the, presence, of, stock, they, exercise, dogs, and, treat, it, as, a, some, kind, of, park, one, farmer, is, well, know, for, being, aggressive, he, used, last, year’s, fmd, outbreak, to, run, people, off, his, land, i, met, a, local, councillor, who, expressed, concerns, regarding, the, proposed, building, of, an, incinerator, to, the, south, of, the, village, on, the, current, open, cast, mining, site, the, two, waste, disposal, sites, to, the, west, and, north, west, of, the, village, have, become, big, issues, in, the, last, 18, months, due, to, the, burial, of, animals, and, the, disposal, of, pyre, ash, and, leachates, it, seems, as, though, we, are, going, to, get, over, this, ghastly, fmd, outbreak, only, to, have, this, scenario, thrust, upon, us, week, 31, met, a, small, holder, who, keeps, sheep, near, to, this, village, he, was, very, scathing, over, the, report, that, the, government, and, defra, don’t, want, to, talk, up, an, offer, from, the, local, authorities, here, to, implement, findings, and, recommendations, from, their, local, inquiry, over, fmd, why, what, has, this, government, who, didn’t, perform, very, well, during, the, outbreak, got, to, hide, and, why, shirk, away, from, the, findings, instead, of, facing, up, to, the, failings, that, we, all, know, about, it, also, seems, that, they, don’t, want, to, make, any, safeguards, and, recommendations, to, avoid, a, further, outbreak, as, a, non, agriculturalist, it, doesn’t, surprise, me, in, the, least, after, all, government, has, failed, other, industries, in, the, country, for, as, long, as, i, can, remember, week, 32, i, am, convinced, that, authorities, in, the, area, must, think, that, the, way, animals, were, buried, here, and, pyre, ash, and, leachate, were, disposed, of, at, another, site, nearby, was, all, done, as, very, successfully, and, that, the, two, sites, handled, everything, professionally, therefore, the, sites, would, be, more, than, capable, of, handling, ash, from, an, incinerator, to, me, this, is, the, legacy, of, fmd, i, am, most, annoyed, over, this, together, with, a, lot, more, of, the, villagers, this, village, no, longer, has, a, representative, on, the, parish, council, both, have, resigned, for, whatever, reason, and, no, one, will, step, forward, to, take, it, one, i, have, said, that, i, would, take, a, set, on, the, parish, council, to, represent, the, village, and, fight, for, our, rights, and, future, quality, of, life, due, to, this, i, have, uncovered, a, pile, of, claims, and, counter, claims, it, seems, that, both, parish, and, district, counsellors, know, what, is, going, on, regarding, the, incinerator, and, that, developers, have, made, concessions, to, some, councillors, also, there, are, claims, that, the, developers, have, offered, money, to, local, landowners, and, farmers, so, that, roads, can, be, put, in, all, these, accusations, have, been, strongly, denied, at, the, same, time, it, is, rumoured, that, some, farmers, have, been, offered, local, fields, nearby, because, of, what, i, have, discovered, in, my, own, investigations, it, would, seem, that, a, lot, of, friendships, gained, over, 20, years, could, come, to, an, end, i, am, fearful, of, what, i, have, uncovered, there, are, also, claims, that, councillors, are, only, in, it, for, what, there, can, get, out, and, are, not, to, be, trusted, i, don’t, want, that, said, of, me, also, by, the, time, all, this, is, sorted, out, i, will, be, 70, 75, i, certainly, don’t, want, to, be, fighting, peoples, battles, at, that, age, however, i, will, support, any, effort, to, stop, the, proposed, development, week, 33, once, again, the, large, farm, in, the, centre, of, the, village, was, the, venue, for, the, annual, guy, fawkes, bonfire, and, fireworks, organisers, had, been, round, the, village, asking, for, donations, to, provide, fireworks, a, tractor, and, trailer, toured, the, areas, picking, up, things, for, the, bonfire, drinks, and, food, were, served, in, a, barn, after, the, fireworks, this, is, another, occasion, when, villagers, and, the, farming, community, come, together, it, is, perhaps, the, only, time, that, the, general, public, of, the, village, think, about, fmd, and, last, years, events, if, only, briefly, the, farmer, remarked, that, is, the, third, time, this, year, that, there, has, been, a, public, function, on, his, farm, the, first, was, the, jubilee, party, in, june, then, on, october, 6th, the, harvest, festival, service, these, events, keep, farming, in, the, public, eye, week, 34, i, haven’t, written, before, about, the, proposed, building, of, an, incinerator, nearby, to, burn, the, counties, waste, if, as, we, all, suspect, the, incinerator, is, built, then, the, odours, plus, the, disposal, of, ash, to, the, fmd, waste, site, is, a, legacy, of, fmd, particularly, regarding, the, nearby, burial, and, disposal, site, week, 35, this, is, week, 35, of, this, project, and, for, most, of, the, 35, weeks, i, have, written, that, i, am, not, confident, of, the, future, there, are, numerous, reasons, for, this, mainly, the, situation, in, the, middle, east, today, i, travelled, to, keswick, to, do, some, xmas, shopping, i, was, given, a, lift, there, by, a, neighbour, who, is, in, his, 30s, he, was, very, upset, about, the, terrorist, situation, not, only, was, he, concerned, about, the, terror, threat, to, the, london, underground, but, the, threat, closer, to, home, as, regards, a, plane, crashing, into, the, nearby, sellafield, complex, we, don’t, know, the, effect, that, this, constant, bad, news, has, on, people, people, who, have, already, got, serious, worries, e.g, families, housing, finance, etc, must, feel, really, depressed, about, it, all, week, 36, near, to, the, next, village, is, a, long, established, farm, of, many, acres, recently, the, farm’s, stock, of, animals, and, machinery, was, sold, off, the, owner, who, had, farmed, for, sixty, years, was, leaving, to, live, with, one, of, his, brothers, he, said, that, he, wouldn’t, know, how, he, would, feel, when, he, left, the, farm, for, the, last, time, this, weekend, the, farmhouse, hasn’t, been, sold, yet, and, now, stands, empty, it’s, a, strange, place, now, where, everything, was, hustle, and, bustle, they, even, had, a, b, b, business, there, is, now, derelict, and, bare, it’s, a, sad, reflection, on, the, agricultural, business, in, the, wake, of, fmd, this, farm, isn’t, the, only, one, in, the, area, that, has, sold, up, some, farm, houses, remain, as, dwellings, but, this, particular, one, which, we, saw, nearly, every, day, is, just, an, other, sad, reminder, of, the, way, farming, has, declined, in, this, rural, area, week, 39, tuesday, boarded, the, train, at, penrith, to, journey, to, crewe, to, see, our, daughter, during, the, journey, i, got, into, conversation, with, a, fellow, passenger, he, noticed, i, had, got, on, the, train, at, penrith, and, perhaps, thought, i, was, connected, with, the, agricultural, industry, the, conversation, drifted, into, the, previous, years, fmd, outbreak, it, is, rather, strange, that, i, live, in, a, very, rural, area, and, fmd, is, rarely, mentioned, now, however, this, fellow, passenger, although, not, from, an, agricultural, background, gave, his, views, on, the, handling, of, the, situation, it, was, no, different, from, the, views, expressed, by, locals, at, the, time, of, the, crisis, it, just, goes, to, show, that, fmd, is, very, much, in, peoples, minds, even, if, they, were, not, connected, to, agriculture, in, any, way, week, 40, friday, now, that, the, mep, have, published, their, critical, report, on, the, fmd, crisis, it, is, interesting, to, read, an, article, published, in, our, local, weekly, paper, from, a, reader, article, entitled, foot, and, mouth, report, included, i, don’t, have, the, knowledge, or, the, data, to, support, this, readers, comments, however, i, have, heard, plenty, of, stories, from, mainly, unreliable, sources, to, confirm, what, he, says, it, makes, interesting, reading, i, think, week, 41, tuesday, no, wonder, my, confidence, in, the, future, has, taken, a, big, plunge, over, the, last, few, months, the, situation, in, iraq, doesn’t, get, any, better, mr, tony, blair’s, message, to, the, armed, forces, of, the, uk, bear, this, out, being, an, ex, serviceman, i, know, what, the, situation, holds, for, our, troops, but, are, we, right, to, follow, the, usa, in, a, war, against, iraq, no, doubt, saddam, hussein, does, pose, a, threat, but, so, does, india, and, pakistan, to, each, other, each, of, these, two, relatively, poor, countries, has, threatened, each, other, as, regards, their, nuclear, arsenals, now, the, loose, cannon, in, the, form, of, north, korea, is, positioning, itself, as, regards, its, position, in, the, nuclear, arms, league, personally, i, think, that, north, korea, poses, a, more, dangerous, threat, than, iraq, it, is, not, a, very, happy, new, year, for, a, lot, of, people, perhaps, it, will, all, be, settled, diplomatically, i, wonder, week, 42, nothing, of, any, importance, to, write, about, due, to, refurbishment, at, home, week, 43, monday, one, of, the, items, on, the, agenda, for, this, months, meeting, of, distington, parish, council, is, a, report, on, the, wood, felling, and, the, implications, of, this, as, i, have, written, in, the, diary, before, there, are, strong, rumours, of, the, proposed, plan, to, fell, woods, build, a, new, road, through, the, felled, site, and, bring, coal, from, the, nearby, opencast, site, to, link, up, with, an, existing, road, then, to, transport, the, coal, to, a, storage, area, on, workington, dock, then, when, the, coal, is, worked, out, to, build, an, incinerator, on, the, coal, site, ash, from, this, development, would, then, be, transported, on, the, new, road, to, be, disposed, of, on, the, waste, disposal, site, that, was, used, for, fmd, pyre, ash, and, leachate, thursday, read, a, report, of, the, aforesaid, meeting, the, owners, have, declared, that, our, worries, are, groundless, in, fact, they, say, that, they, plan, to, eventually, open, the, woodland, to, the, public, the, owners, of, the, woodland, are, the, same, operators, of, the, opencast, coal, site, footpaths, will, be, created, if, a, grant, can, be, obtained, a, wooden, wheeled, ancient, water, mill, will, be, restored, after, the, closed, meeting, the, operations, director, of, the, site, said, that, there, has, been, a, misunderstanding, what, we, are, doing, will, benefit, local, people, he, said, that, a, management, project, for, the, wood, is, being, followed, involving, felling, dead, trees, and, fresh, planting, he, added, the, felling, and, replanting, will, be, done, this, year, after, which, it, will, take, time, to, become, established, we’re, talking, of, a, ten, year, programme, but, it, should, have, long, term, benefits, i, think, our, pr, at, the, start, of, this, wasn’t, very, good, and, in, the, future, we, will, let, the, council, know, of, our, plans, the, council, agreed, to, keep, a, watch, on, the, work, here, in, g, this, statement, differs, greatly, from, what, some, of, us, have, been, told, by, our, village, based, county, councillor, there, has, never, been, any, suggestion, that, the, felled, woods, would, become, a, land, fill, site, but, would, be, felled, to, provide, the, new, road, there, was, nothing, mentioned, at, the, meeting, regarding, the, proposed, incinerator, being, built, the, county, council, that, this, has, ever, been, planned, however, our, representative, is, adamant, that, this, is, not, so, week, 44, tuesday, for, the, first, time, my, property, has, finally, overcome, a, situation, that, was, affected, by, fmd, in, july, 2000, the, electricity, supplier, notified, me, to, say, that, the, trees, in, my, garden, had, grown, so, tall, that, the, topmost, branches, were, in, close, contact, with, an, eleven, thousand, volt, overhead, power, line, and, that, they, should, be, felled, or, severely, pruned, after, some, further, negotiations, it, was, decided, to, prune, to, some, height, that, i, wasn’t, happy, with, although, the, treetops, were, not, actually, touching, the, wires, it, was, considered, a, risk, in, the, forthcoming, months, however, as, time, passed, i, couldn’t, wait, for, the, foresters, to, arrive, so, i, pruned, the, trees, myself, in, january, 2001, the, electric, supplier, suggested, that, the, trees, should, be, pruned, further, a, date, was, agreed, but, the, foresters, didn’t, arrive, time, dragged, on, and, the, trees, grew, back, to, their, original, height, again, the, electric, supplier, suggested, they, be, pruned, or, felled, a, new, date, was, agreed, upon, however, the, foresters, couldn’t, do, the, job, because, the, isolator, switch, was, on, farmland, and, they, couldn’t, get, access, to, it, because, of, fmd, restrictions, and, so, it, dragged, on, despite, visits, by, foresters, and, electric, supplier, reps, the, trees, got, bigger, and, i, was, forbidden, to, touch, them, neighbours, could, hear, crackling, noises, coming, from, the, wires, and, it, became, very, worrying, people, suggested, that, i, should, do, something, about, it, i, took, the, matter, up, directly, with, the, supplier, and, the, foresters, i, was, promised, dates, only, for, them, to, be, cancelled, in, december, 2002, a, date, of, 21st, january, 2003, was, given, this, time, they, came, and, we, agreed, that, two, trees, be, felled, and, another, pruned, after, 30, months, it, finally, happened, thursday, met, a, small, holder, who, has, his, land, on, the, edge, of, this, village, who, told, me, that, the, 20, day, rule, of, animal, restriction, of, animal, movement, was, being, lifted, and, replaced, by, a, 6, day, restriction, this, was, good, news, for, him, and, any, other, farmer, later, that, day, i, met, another, farmer, who, didn’t, know, that, the, restriction, was, being, lifted, you, would, have, thought, that, i, had, told, him, he’d, won, the, lottery, good, news, all, round, for, the, people, friday, listening, to, the, local, radio, today, and, was, surprised, to, hear, a, report, that, the, citizens, advice, bureau, in, a, small, lakeland, town, had, been, receiving, clients, who, were, still, experiencing, hardship, due, to, fmd, it, is, now, 18, months, since, the, last, outbreak, and, the, effects, according, to, the, person, being, interviewed, were, still, being, felt, not, just, by, farmers, and, agriculturists, but, by, guest, houses, hotels, tradesmen, and, in, particular, some, self, employed, debt, seems, to, be, the, biggest, problem, it, seems, as, though, some, people, had, weathered, the, hardships, of, fmd, initially, only, to, find, that, their, plans, had, come, adrift, somehow, afterwards, quite, disturbing, to, hear, that, the, situation, is, still, with, us, in, this, county, to, some, degree, week, 45, these, diaries, were, instituted, to, deal, with, the, after, effects, of, fmd, although, there, were, no, cases, of, fmd, in, this, village, everyone, knew, about, it, particularly, as, nearly, everyone, who, went, to, work, from, here, would, pass, the, main, farm, in, the, village, centre, or, some, of, the, farms, on, the, outskirts, of, the, village, now, that, fmd, is, over, most, people, who, live, here, don’t, seem, to, think, about, it, anymore, the, only, people, affected, are, the, farmers, naturally, this, is, a, strange, village, in, lots, of, ways, only, the, farmer, and, his, immediate, family, are, connected, with, agriculture, the, rest, are, professional, people, or, people, who, work, at, nearby, sellafield, industries, in, workington, and, whitehaven, or, are, retired, there, is, no, church, no, village, pub, no, village, shop, no, village, community, centre, or, meeting, place, only, tradesmen, that, call, are, the, milkman, and, the, solid, fuel, merchant, we, are, left, to, get, on, with, life, in, our, own, way, the, parish, of, distington, to, which, we, belong, have, all, the, facilities, associated, with, a, larger, community, such, as, a, church, pub, and, community, centre, all, of, which, are, two, miles, away, consequently, the, parish, council, meets, there, once, a, month, and, discusses, all, the, problems, of, the, area, including, ours, however, our, representative, on, the, council, has, resigned, and, no, one, has, come, forward, to, represent, us, anything, that, has, been, discussed, at, the, parish, council, is, reported, in, he, local, newspaper, village, pubs, are, a, good, venue, to, discuss, local, issues, and, to, exchange, views, and, mainly, to, gossip, village, tittle, tattle, as, i, call, it, as, we, have, no, pub, the, gossip, is, rife, from, one, source, or, another, with, bits, added, on, or, left, out, as, is, the, choice, of, the, person, concerned, quite, a, lot, of, people, one, meets, are, experts, in, their, own, particular, choice, of, subject, whether, it, is, politics, finance, or, mrs, jones, current, boy, friend, it, is, a, fault, to, take, on, board, all, that, is, gossiped, about, when, one, meets, a, fellow, villager, in, the, country, lanes, whilst, out, walking, the, dog, week, 46, illness, to, a, family, member, week, 47, continued, illness, week, 48, over, the, past, few, weeks, there, has, been, a, lot, of, tree, felling, in, the, nearby, woods, this, has, led, to, a, lot, of, disturbance, to, the, villagers, because, of, the, use, of, large, vehicles, needed, to, remove, the, felled, timber, and, also, the, foresters, vehicles, churning, up, the, grass, verges, and, the, ditches, a, lot, of, concern, was, raised, about, the, necessity, of, all, the, tree, felling, these, concerns, were, raised, in, the, press, and, also, in, the, parish, council, i, have, written, about, these, in, diaries, in, the, last, few, weeks, it, was, reported, in, mid, january, that, all, the, felled, woods, would, be, replanted, this, year, with, footpaths, created, for, the, enjoyment, of, the, local, population, now, all, timber, operations, have, ceased, large, areas, of, woodland, have, been, left, partly, felled, and, a, lot, of, felled, timber, is, left, lying, about, foresters, vehicles, have, gone, and, nothing, is, happening, despite, assurances, from, the, developers, it, looks, as, though, something, drastic, has, happened, village, tittle, tattle, says, that, the, foresters, have, not, been, paid, for, their, work, so, far, and, that, the, developers, have, run, out, of, money, if, this, is, so, what, is, going, to, happen, now, when, felling, started, late, last, year, i, contacted, two, environmental, agencies, regarding, the, threat, to, the, red, squirrels, badgers, and, buzzards, that, occupy, these, woods, i, was, told, that, it, was, only, a, partial, felling, and, they, the, environmental, agencies, were, satisfied, that, any, disturbances, would, be, slight, i, think, that, they, were, told, this, by, the, developers, and, accepted, what, they, were, told, without, a, site, visit, the, developers, have, been, known, to, mislead, groups, in, the, past, including, landowners, farmers, councils, and, individuals, i, personally, am, not, happy, about, this, situation, i, have, always, took, a, keen, interest, in, wildlife, and, feel, that, we, have, been, let, down, by, the, lies, of, developers, and, the, lack, of, serious, interest, from, wildlife, agencies, some, of, which, are, an, offshoot, of, central, government, i, for, one, will, keep, a, close, look, on, the, situation, with, or, without, other, villagers, and, in, particular, local, councillors, week, 49, by, chance, i, met, three, small, holders, all, at, the, same, time, they, were, discussing, farming, by, the, roadside, all, of, them, were, pleased, that, the, 20, day, ruling, was, coming, to, an, end, and, that, their, lives, were, more, or, less, coming, back, to, normal, they, also, expressed, the, opinion, that, the, 20, day, rule, and, the, 6, day, rule, were, only, in, force, to, protect, their, interests, however, they, were, unanimous, in, their, condemnation, over, the, importing, of, foreign, meat, and, meat, products, into, this, country, they, feel, that, foreign, meat, is, not, subjected, to, enough, checks, before, entry, into, the, united, kingdom, week, 51, met, a, farmer, today, who, told, me, that, he’d, seen, a, report, based, on, findings, by, the, eu, and, defra, it, stated, all, the, things, that, everyone, who, is, an, agriculturalist, and, those, who, take, an, interest, in, the, countryside, had, been, saying, about, what, was, wrong, with, the, handlers, of, the, fmd, outbreak, it, just, proves, that, it, doesn’t, take, an, academic, genius, to, know, what, should, have, been, done, at, the, time, everyone, can, be, wiser, after, the, event, but, statements, by, the, nfu, and, individuals, at, the, onset, were, not, heeded, for, example, the, movement, of, animals, should, have, been, halted, sooner, and, the, army, should, have, been, brought, in, much, sooner, now, the, question, of, vaccination, rumbles, on, should, we, or, shouldn’t, we, vaccinate, there, is, a, fear, of, the, outbreak, again, particularly, when, the, findings, of, the, 1960, outbreak, were, not, implemented, since, the, sadness, of, fmd, there, has, been, quite, a, few, instances, of, socialising, at, the, farm, such, as, harvest, festival, jubilee, party, and, almost, any, excuse, for, a, shindig, good, to, see, farmers, enjoying, themselves, week, 52, met, out, local, farmer, who, told, me, that, there, is, to, be, new, legislation, to, dispose, of, fallen, stock, no, longer, can, a, farmer, bury, fallen, stock, on, his, land, but, must, now, provide, an, incinerator, to, dispose, of, dead, animals, this, must, be, a, costly, business, could, dead, animals, not, be, taken, to, a, central, point, and, burned, week, 54, one, thing, about, fmd, was, the, effect, that, it, had, on, the, poaching, fraternity, living, in, a, rural, area, we, expect, this, to, happen, nobody, seems, to, mind, that, a, few, rabbits, and, pheasants, go, missing, what, is, really, alarming, is, the, use, of, dogs, and, high, powered, rifles, to, poach, deer, fmd, put, a, stop, to, all, this, now, a, neighbour, has, told, me, of, poachers, near, to, the, village, using, rifles, and, shooting, deer, the, only, people, benefiting, from, this, are, the, poachers, and, hoteliers, who, receive, these, dead, beasts, and, no, questions, asked, also, the, danger, of, villagers, being, hit, by, stray, rifle, shots, causes, alarm, to, others, week, 55, i, think, that, there, is, a, lot, of, jumping, on, the, band, wagon, now, that, fmd, has, cleared, up, for, instance, i, listened, to, an, interview, on, the, local, radio, station, given, by, a, hotelier, things, weren’t, going, well, in, his, establishment, having, got, over, fmd, and, its, implications, visitors, were, slowly, returning, to, the, area, but, not, in, sufficient, numbers, to, cause, great, joy]

Creating a word frequency

The tidytext package provides a dataset called stop_words (what else) that contains a list of all the determiners and conjunctions, adverbs and adjectives that we can eliminate from a text, so we can analyse it properly.

# We will create a function that will store all the operations to be able to plot the word frequency

word_frequency <- function(x, top = 10){
  x %>%
# We need a word count
  count(Word, sort = TRUE) %>%
# We want to create a factor from the word column with the levels showing the most frequent words as top level
# This is just for aestethic reasons, however, it helps make the point
  mutate(Word = factor(Word, levels = rev(unique(Word)))) %>% 
# We use the "top" variable defined in the function so we can decide how many words we want to use 
  top_n(top) %>%
# This will be useful later if we want to use a grouping variable and will do nothing if we don't  
  ungroup() %>%
# The graph itself
  ggplot(mapping = aes(x = Word, y = n)) +
  geom_col(show.legend = FALSE) +
  coord_flip() +
  labs(x = NULL)
}

reviews_tidy <- foot_mouth_df %>%
  tidytext::unnest_tokens("Word", "Everything_else") %>%
  dplyr::anti_join(tidytext::stop_words, by = c("Word" = "word")) %>% 
  mutate(Word = stringr::str_replace(Word, "'s", ""))

# Now you can plot
reviews_tidy %>%
  word_frequency(15) 
## Selecting by n

Once this is complete you can then apend the new dataframe that contains the tokenisaion words to our ‘foot_mout_df’

foot_mouth_df <- merge(foot_mouth_df, foot_mouth_token)

head(foot_mouth_df)
##          Filename Number
## 1 5407diary02.rtf      0
## 2 5407diary03.rtf      1
## 3 5407diary07.rtf      2
## 4 5407diary08.rtf      3
## 5 5407diary09.rtf      4
## 6 5407diary10.rtf      5
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Usual chat and DEFRA comments\nThe meeting (research panel gp 6) at the North Lakes was interesting. It surprises me sometimes how people (myself included) never seem to tire of the same stories and complaints over how the crisis was handled. Some of the episodes recounted must have been told dozens of times over the last year but whoever says it always seems just as keen to say it again – Perhaps a reflection of how deeply people feel about the events of the last year. Having said that, most of the resentments and rants that I hear on daily farm visits are focused fairly and squarely at DEFRA and not FMD virus. Farmers seem far more upset at the constriction put on them by DEFRA than they do by the loss of stock now, although I know and saw how utterly devastated most were when they were actually diagnosed with the virus and in the week or two following.\nMy work in the practice is becoming less and less FMD orientated as time goes on. Licensing and restocking visits are drawing to a close and we are starting to return to “normal” vet work. My life has been more settled since the end of FMD. Although there was never a real threat of redundancy there was a great deal of uncertainty as to what form work would take during the outbreak - it was never clear whether I would be based at the practice or working as a DEFRA vet from month to month. Now that it is finished (I hope) the practice and my work can get back to a routine and at least knowing where I’ll be based each day, even if not which calls are going to come in.\nWith regard to FMD the biggest influence it has at the moment and over the last week is acting as a listener to farmers who still talk about it (and DEFRA) a great deal.\n\nDiary 2         \nMon  Shap restocking, having to justify visit\nWed Melmerby\n I went to see a farmer this week to do the first inspection of his sentinel animals that he is restocking his farm. In common with many farmers he was unwavering in his conviction that his animals had been deliberately infected and that Tony Blair or DEFRA were the ultimate culprits. The belief is that they want to put farmers out of business. This particular farmer made the very valid point that DEFRA & co had underestimated the resilience of the farming community. I think that this has been very striking.  Considering the strain that they have been under (in some cases worse for those who didn’t get FMD than for those who did) it has been remarkable how little the majority of our clients have changed. Admittedly we see most of them on a professional basis regarding their animals’ health and not their own, but on the whole they seem to have been very forward thinking about the outbreak. Many have taken it as a chance to increase the size of herds and to eliminate many other diseases as well as FMD.\nWork in the practice has been fairly steady. As week the number of FMD calls is decreasing. One of the problems with doing restocking, licensing and TB calls is that we are on the farm at DEFRA’s instruction. Normally it is the farmer who calls us out and this can cause friction. Anything related to DEFRA will put hackles up 9 times out of 10. It definitely causes stress at times but puts my diplomacy skills into good practice! It sometimes feels as though some farmers just need an outlet and I fit the bill. After agreeing with everything they say and sympathising, it usually smoothes out and ends with a cup of tea, but it does feel as though we have to justify what we are doing much more than prior to February 2001.\n\nDiary 3\nThis week was the anniversary of the week I went to my first IP and associated slaughter, pyre building etc. At several times during the week I found myself thinking “this time last year I was…” Although obviously not pleasant memories the thoughts did not particularly affect me in a bad way or distract me from work, it just took me back to that time when I had time to think. I went to see a sick horse near Carlisle, which is where the IP was, and it was interesting to drive past the farm and see animals in the buildings again. Hopefully the farmer concerned is getting back on track again.\nWith respect to daily routine, work is getting very busy. Lambing time is starting to really get going with the inevitable increase in calls. Although it can be hectic at times it’s better to be kept busy rather than having it too quiet. It’s also good to actually be doing lambings and other sheep work as it’s two years since we did any apart from euthanasing sheep last year.\nOn Monday I went to do a re stocking check on a farm. The farmer is convinced he was given FMD deliberately and on arrival I was given his weekly tirade regarding DEFRA, Tony Blair, how I must have made thousands of pounds out of it etc etc. After sometime of not rising to the bait he calmed down and half an hour later was sweetness and light. Perhaps he just needs someone to let pressure out to. Only one session like that a week isn’t too bad considering how many farm visits we do!\n\nDiary 4\nMonday brought another dressing down from the farmer I mentioned last week. It was shorter and less passionate this time -  perhaps he’s mellowing a bit.\nI drove up to Junction 40 one day with the sun out. It reminded me of a similar day a year ago when I could count 15 smoke plumes from pyres on the same bit of road. As I said last week anniversary memories like this aren’t especially difficult for me, they’re just there. In a lot of ways it’s quite satisfying thinking about what was happening a year ago and how well things have progressed since then. Most of our farmers have re stocked, work is returning to normal. Even things like being able to drive onto farms again rather than having to leave the car at the farm entrance makes a big difference.\nWork continues to be very busy with the typical seasonal calls to sheep and cattle. We have a couple of vet students doing work experience with us which had to stop last March as we couldn’t take extras onto farms with us. Another sign of the continuing return to normality. Some days it seems as if we have returned to how we were a year ago. The most obvious legacy is perhaps the thorough and extensive clothing disinfection between each farm - a good habit which is very hard to break!\n\nDiary 5\nI had to work on Easter Monday morning, which was fairly uneventful. As for the last few weeks there were the usual seasonal calls to sheep and cattle, but nothing too stressful.\nOn Tuesday I did the final blood sampling on the last farm that we have that is still at the sentinel stage of re stocking. The farmers seemed fairly mellow today and spared me the usual lecture/attempt at argument. Perhaps it’s because the end of his restriction is in sight. The test went very smoothly, and I didn’t hear from him until the end of the week, when I (he?) was upset (probably justifiably) that his results still weren’t back. As processing the bloods is not our responsibility all I could do was sympathise and plead ignorance!\nThe rest of the week was fairly routine work-wise. Friday was taken up doing a big tuberculin and brucellosis test on a re stocked farm. They all have to be done within 3 mths of re stocking. Although it was a big job it was a well run farm with plenty of help, so we got finished within the day and with as few delays as could be expected.\nNow that the evenings are lighter it’s meant that on nights off duty I’ve been able to get out more. It’s made a very welcome change to be able to bike/walk on the fells again this year after all the restrictions of 2001. Long may it and the weather continue!\n\nDiary 6\nFinally finished the last a restocking jobs on Monday.\nThe farmer was getting very frustrated (probably justifiably so) at the length of time it was taking - the bank holidays etc last week meant to that the labs were closed so that blood samples took longer to process. I got the results at 4. 45 Monday evening and in an attempt to create some goodwill agreed to go to the farm to do a final check that evening. On arrival of the usual tirade about DEFRA and vet's came my way which was slightly hard to take. He then said that he didn't blame me personally which was nice of him. I think (hope) he realises that we can only try to get things going faster and ultimately it’s out off our hands. At least it's good to have all the restocking work finished. It feels as though the first stage is over in getting back to where we were. Another sign of returning to usual is the continuing pace of work. Nights on call are again a time for working rather than the call free nights of summer 2001. This week has brought early-morning lambing  most days. The rest of the time we’re is as busy as it's been for a year. The day book is full each day and we all seem to be driving around the county more or less keeping up with the jobs! (which is a good thing!) I had the weekend off and was going to go to Edinburgh to see some friends, but in the end stayed in Penrith for some R&R!\n\nDiary 7\nI had a half-day on Monday and went to Riggindale at the head of Haweswater with a friend who had come to stay for a night or two. The plan was to see the golden eagles nesting that up to unfortunately they were off on a day trip to another part of the Lake District. But the weather was good and it made a very pleasant change from work.\nThe practice is still going flat out with seasonal work. The daily flow of lambing and lambing related sheep problems shows no sign of ebbing.  There are also increasing numbers of cattle problems probably related to coming towards the spring turn-out of cattle that have been inside for 6-7 months.  The fact that most of them are in new surroundings is almost certainly adding to the problems. On the whole of farmers are fairly pragmatic about the difficulties they are having. Most accept that they were bound to have problems with the restocking and on the whole are pleased just to have stock on again. Some are very keen to be as efficient as possible whereas others will more readily go along with the old farming mantra that "where there's a livestock there's a dead stock" (Not quite what the veterinary profession wants to encourage!)\nI was on call at the weekend and had one of the busier few days I can remember. Again it was mostly seasonal farm work, which although it was time-consuming is often quite rewarding. I'm still surprised by the number of sheep we are getting called to - perhaps it's because farmers have spent a lot of money on them to restock with and now feel they’re financially worth calling us for.\n\nDiary 8\nMade a couple of visits to one of our farmers who restocked over the winter this week. He's having a few problems with cows getting ill and generally not settling in very well.  He's one of the most amenable farmers on our books and never seems to try to blame anyone for his troubles. At times it's very frustrating not to be able to do more for people like him. I'd like to be able to give every one of his cows a magic injection and say that it'll get better but unfortunately that's not how it works!\nWe've had a lot of colt castrations to do this week, which is normal for this time of year. It puts more pressure on us in terms of work as we usually take two vets to each castration.  Considering how busy it is relations in the practice are generally very good. It has been stressful at times but on the whole this has been stress related to volume of jobs to do rather than people. It has also been a very different (and preferable) type of stress than this time of the last year. At least a lot of work makes us all feel fairly stable rather than the terrible uncertainty of last year. We’ve also taken on an extra vet this spring which would have been unthinkable last year.\nIn the middle of the week I did a farm visit with one of the vets from the local Veterinary Lab to discuss disease control on a re-stocked farm. Most of the work into disease surveillance on a farm was DEFRA funded which went down well with the farmer.  She at least felt as though she was getting something back after fighting with DEFRA for the last few months. It was also encouraging to see someone taking a very positive approach to disease control in the future.\nMy cousin and some of his friends came down from Glasgow for the weekend to go into the Lake District. The weather was good on the whole and several people noted how good it was to have the paths open again.\n\nDiary 9\n  Started the week doing a big tuberculin and brucellosis test at a restocked farm. There has been a big backlog to clear after testing was stopped during FMD last year so we have to catch up with those farms that didn’t get the disease but are due a test as well as testing the restocking farms. We’re all very keen to keep Cumbria as a TB free zone, but with all the different stock coming in it’s going to be tricky. Monday’s test was long but okay on the whole. The set-up was good and the farming family were very pleasant which makes a huge difference to how the day goes! All was clear when I went to read the test on Thursday - a relief for all concerned.\nOverall work seems to be quietening down a bit this week compared to the last few.  We are now just busy rather than always feeling as if were one job behind all the time. On Wednesday and Thursday one of our clients brought in half-a-dozen Shetland ponies to castrate .It makes a change to have a "large animal" that is small enough to be easily physically restrained by one person.  The continuing good weather made doing an afternoon's work with the ponies in the practice’s field a very pleasant way to spend a few hours (I can't help feeling that no rain in April means we'll get loads later in the summer!)\nI was on a second call at the weekend. Saturday was very busy with small animal jobs which I mainly left to a colleague while I tried to clear up the farm and equine jobs.  Calm was pretty much restored by late afternoon, after which I wasn't called until early Sunday morning. Another of our re-stocked clients is having considerable trouble with some of his new animals and is becoming increasingly frustrated about it. We all try to help with the medical side of it (animals) but inevitably also get to hear a lot of his other worries too. Hopefully things will look up soon and he'll be able to ride it out OK.\n\nDiary 10\nHad a day off on Bank Holiday Monday - always the good way to start the week. I went up to Peebles in Scotland with some friends to go mountain biking. It was surprisingly empty for a weekend and the weather was good, and I didn't fall off - all in all, a good day out!\nTuesday was work as usual. I had to do a small TB test on a restocking farm. It shouldn't have been a long job but the facilities weren't great, so it didn’t go as slickly as it might have done. We all managed to get through in one piece so it could have been worse.\nOne of my colleagues went on maternity this week. She is part time but does all small animal work. Now that she's off for the next few months it means that an extra vet is needed each morning to stay in and do small animal operations. While it's probably not my favourite sort of work it does make a change from being out on farms every morning. It's also good to get a bit more experience at small procedures.\nAs well as doing smaller animals this week has brought several interesting equine cases. I had to hospitalise a horse for a few days for fairly intensive treatment which fortunately appears to have made a good recovery. There have also been a couple of horse operations at the practice this week. They’re generally quite interesting apart from the stress involved with having half a ton of horse asleep on the operating table!\nI had the weekend off and went to Edinburgh for a small reunion with friends I was at college with. Although we do talk about other things conversation inevitably came round to work. The effect of FMD and its consequences are still very much in people's minds. Friends all asked how it was last year and whether farms have restocked yet etc etc. It ‘s stuff which I seem to have said hundreds of times over the last few months, but people never seem to tire of asking it, and, to an extent, I don't seem to get bored of answering it. \n\nDiary 11\nThe week started with a big TB test at a restocking dairy farm. There were very good facilities and it subsequently went very smoothly and quickly despite the number of cows involved. The farmer seems to be quite positive about the new start and has been spared a lot of the problems that other people have experienced while restocking in terms of disease in the animals. Everything was clear when I read the test later in the week\nOn Wednesday afternoon I had a bit of a change as I went castrate two ponies belonging to my mother. She had bought two totally wild Fell ponies last autumn. They now a bit tamer, but not completely used to being handled yet. I went with one of our nurses and the senior partner, and it all went pretty much to plan. \nWork is still busy. There's one client in particular who is giving us a lot to do.  He restocked a few months ago and is obviously having trouble lambing his sheep. It got a bit trying when I had to get up to his third lambing of one night, but that's what we are there for I suppose! He's a nice man and always seems pleased to see us, which helps.\nI had the weekend off again and went to Glasgow to be best man at my cousin's wedding. Apart from the weather it went very well (I think) with no unsolvable problems! \n\nDiary 12\nStarted the week with a long visit for dairy fertility work to one of our big dairy farmers. It's one of the farmers who has been having problems after restocking and a visit that another vet usually does, so I felt a bit under pressure. It's the type of work, which is very routine but has the potential to go quite badly wrong. On the whole it went fairly well with no major problems. I get on pretty well with the farmer which always helps as it makes the time go by quicker.\nSmall animal work is still quite busy. I had two days inside this week doing small animals operations.  There wasn't anything particularly different or unusual, but it still helps to do more of it.\nOne of our farmers who managed to miss FMD is very busy with his calving schedule at the moment.  He’s tending to have very big calves, and subsequently we’re doing a lot of Caesareans there. This week has brought at least half-a-dozen, of which two were in the middle of the night - there have been a few vets are looking sleep deprived recently!  I had the weekend off and went so see a couple of friends in Edinburgh. We spent one day cycling in Peebles and then proceeded to nothing strenuous for the next!\n\nDiary 13\nThe week started with a big session dehorning cattle. It’s not exactly technical work and is fairly hard work – at least it gets me fit! We would normally do them at a younger age but quite a few have been missed as we didn’t get out onto farms for such routine work last year.\nOn the whole most people are fairly well caught up now that they’ve re-stocked/been having routine work done for the last 8 months or so, but there are still a few lagging behind.\nI had a call from a farmer who was one of our most consistently and vehemently anti-DEFRA people last year. I ended up doing a Caesarean and had quite a long chat with him. Conversation ended up coming round to the events of last year and he aired his resentments again. It was the first time in several weeks that I had heard this kind of talk, whereas a few months ago it would have been a daily occurrence. It wasn’t particularly aimed at me or the practice in particular but just frustration with the system as a whole.\nI went for a walk up Blencathra one evening during the week, but the highlight of the week has to be the start of the World Cup. I’ve been on duty this w/e but managed to see all but the last two minutes of this morning’s rather disappointing draw with Sweden. Most farmers are keen to watch the matches too, so lets hope not too many calls come in at the wrong time!\n\nDiary 14\nI had the bank holiday on Monday off, which was welcome, after a weekend on call. I went for a walk in the lakes with a colleague. Considering it was a bank holiday it wasn't too crowded. Had to work on Bank Holiday Tuesday though. It wasn't especially busy until the evening when I had to do a Caesarean on a cow and then go and see a badly cut horse. Both seem to be doing OK.\nThe rest of the week was worked as usual. Nothing particularly out of the ordinary happened with fairly routine calls. Perhaps it was because everyone was preoccupied with events in Japan and Korea? Or maybe that is just me. I was booked in for an 11 am call on Friday, but managed to persuade the farmer concerned that 9.30 would be more appropriate, said that I, (or should that be we?) could watch the second England game. We managed to get finished in time and it was well worth it. The 1-0 win over Argentina put everyone in a good mood for the rest of the day and the weekend.\nI was on first call over the weekend. Saturday morning was very busy and we didn’t get all the calls done until early afternoon. After that it was one of the quietest weekends I’ve had. They were a couple of things to do on Saturday afternoon - evening, but Sunday had no calls until after lunch - almost unheard of. I had to check my phone was switched on! Long may it last!\n\nDiary 15\nI’ve done two days in the practice doing small animals this week, more than usual. The weather has not been the best so it's no bad thing. I managed to go out on rounds on Wednesday though, so I managed to catch the third England match. Second round here we come!\nI spent most of Friday morning operating on two cows at one of our farms.  They both had a condition where part of the gut displaces in the abdomen, and is best repositioned surgically. The farmer observed that it was probably linked to FMD last year. Because of FMD he had to use more silage to keep his cows inside last summer. This meant he had less stored over the winter and so had none available to feed this spring/summer. The lack of silage now is almost certainly implicated in the problems his cows had. It's very unusual to have two occurring on one farm at same time. Seeing as he missed getting FMD last year though, he thought it was a price worth paying! It was actually quite a pleasant way to spend a morning - he's from Kirkby Stephen, where I went to school, and I didn't have any other jobs waiting, so it was quite a relaxed few hours. (the surgery went OK too!)\nI had a half-day on Friday and drove to valley just beyond Alston to meet one of my old flat mates from Edinburgh for his stag weekend. We stayed in an old barn in middle of nowhere, so it wasn't exactly a conventional stag party, but very enjoyable all the same. We walked to the nearest pub on Saturday to see England's exciting next instalment 3 - 0. Thank you very much. \nAfter that it's been a leisurely day and drive back to Penrith. And I’ve got another night to get my head back to normal for work tomorrow. \n\nDiary 16 \nThis week has been quite small animal orientated again. I've done two mornings in the surgery and more consulting than usual.\nI'm not meant to be on duty for nights this week but I've had a couple to cover for people who've been on holiday. Fortunately both nights were fairly quiet. I'm sure the favour will be returned sometime! During the day work has been fairly steady. We’re not quite as busy as last week, but there's enough to keep us going.\nThe practice like most of the country, tried to stop briefly while England were losing to Brazil. It's a bit disappointing - hopefully farmers and the rest of our clients won’t be too depressed about it all. It was good while it lasted!\nAt the weekend I went down to a place near Worcester for the wedding of the friend whose stag weekend it was the last week there were a lot of people from Edinburgh there why haven't seen for several years and it was great to catch up. The weather was very kind and stayed dry.\n\nDiary 18\nOn Monday I went to do a big tuberculosis and brucellosis test at of one our big dairy farms that had restocked few months ago. They’ve got several hundred cows and it took a lot longer than anticipated - I had to go back on Tuesday to finish the job off. They’re a friendly family so it wasn't really too much of a chore. There has been a more obvious change in them since FMD than for most of our clients who had the disease. They seem much quieter and less concerned about farming and life's problems in general now. Perhaps they think if they can get through 2001 then there’s nothing worth getting stressed about in comparison! \nWednesday was spent doing small animal work - made a change as on Thursday I went back to read the cows results for the TB test (all negative).\nOn Thursday night I drove down to stay with a college friend near Birmingham for the start of a long weekend. On Friday I carried on south to another friend in north Devon. She's working (another vet) in an area that was also severely affected by FMD. Cumbria was so badly hit that is sometimes easy to forget that other places had a bad time too. Thankfully work in Devon is more or less back to normal again.\nI spent the rest of the weekend in South Devon where my dad had his 60th birthday. We were lucky with the weather and had fine (ish) conditions to have a barbecue on the beach. I was off today (Monday) as well, and spent the day driving north. Too far to go for a weekend!\n\nDiary 19\nIt's been a short working week seeing as I had Monday off. I’ve also started a month back on the out of the hours of rota this week (it works a month on, a month off system) so nights and weekends have been, and will be, a bit busier.\nWork has generally been a bit quieter recently. This is fairly typical for the time of year, mainly because animals are outside and farmers are busy making hay and silage (rain permitting). We've had two vets off this week so although there have been fewer jobs in we are not left twiddling our thumbs. There has been the usual flow of a routine farm work along with horses and small animals, but nothing too taxing on the whole.\n I had a night on Thursday and went up St Sunday crag in the Lake District, with a couple of friends from Brampton.  It was further than I remembered it being - we didn't get down until it was almost dark. But apart from being unseasonably cold (surprise, surprise) it was a fine night.\nIt was duty this weekend. I was on first call on Friday night and had it very easy (no calls) until 12:45pm when another vet and I had to operate on a dog until three am. I checked it again at 5.30 and then had to go to calving at 6.45. Just as that was finished I was called to a badly cut horse, then some lame cows, and then to the bacon roll shop for breakfast!\nI was only on second call for the rest of the weekend and was fairly quiet. This meant I could get on with various mundane things like painting my house, tidying the garden etc etc - ideal tasks for when I can't do anything else because I'm on call. And the dog did well! So it makes the night with no sleep worthwhile\n\nDiary 20\nHave had another short week - had Monday off as I was coming back from a long weekend away. Work this week has been fairly steady. Farmers are often busy trying to get silage/hay in at the moment so routine of vet work takes a back seat. Having said that we have been kept at least as busy as we would expect with routine fertility visits and the occasional sick cow etc. There been a few of the restocking farms that have had some fairly unusual diseases that didn't obviously fall into the ones we usually recognise or deal with. As a lot of them have bought stock in from abroad we have to at least keep in mind the possibility of new problems been brought in. \nWe've worked quite closely with the local DEFRA-run Veterinary Investigation Centre on a few of these cases but thankfully none have turned out to be anything to be unduly worried about.\nI was on duty this weekend but have fortunately been reasonably quiet. The only thing out the ordinary was a horse that had torn its leg up quite badly on some wire, but with a bit of time and bandaging it should do okay.\n\nDiary 21\n2 vets have been off this week so it's been a bit busier for the rest of us. Again as with last week it's been a mixture of routine and the standard A&E type work. There have been a few tuberculin tests going on, still trying to clear the backlog from last year. It's getting there slowly but a lot of it will have to wait until the autumn/winter when the cows are in and the farmers have more time available. Our new vet who started in April has seemed to settle in very well. He had a bit of a bad day earlier in the week when a calving did go quite as planned. It's very easy to do, especially when you feel under pressure as is bound to happen when you start a new job. It reminded me of some of the problems I had a few years ago! The farm where it happened is quite an understanding type so it won't create any real problems.\nHockey training is starting again which seems a bit premature as the season is still months away. At least it'll encourage me to do a bit more exercise to get fit for matches. The weather has meant I haven't been out into the hills as often as I would have liked but hopefully there's still time for it to brighten up a bit!\nHad the weekend off - so a couple of friends from college he now living York came to stay. We went up to the borders for the day on Saturday, near to where I used to work - it doesn't seem to have changed much (I still think I'm better off down here despite last year!) \n\nDiary 22\nWe had a bit of a rush on this week, as sometimes seems to happen. It can be quiet for couple of weeks and then it suddenly it's crazy. It may be that a lot of farms have now largely got their crops in and are trying to catch up, or perhaps it's just the way things go. Several farms have had ongoing problems this week with visits being required several days running. There have also been a large number of horse calls. This is probably fairly common for this time of year as they tend to get ridden in the (supposedly) better weather. We tend to go further afield for horses - on Tuesday I went to Kirkby Lonsdale area in morning and had to go north of Carlisle in the afternoon the miles get racked up or fairly quickly and I get to learn where the\nvarious blind spots for phone and radio reception are!\nI was on duty again on the weekend which meant that I was also on for Monday, Wednesday and Friday nights. They weren't too bad apart from Friday when I have to go and see a couple of horses. Being on duty for three week nights tends to limit what I can do apart from work, but I managed to meet up with some friends working in Brampton one night and go for a walk in the lakes on Thursday. The weekend was fairly quiet, but I was only on second call so I found time to do some decorating in the room in my house which is the current project. (I lead such a thrilling life! ?!)\n\nDiary 23\nThe calm after the storm! After the frantic levels of work we saw last week it has again been a bit more civilised this week. We've had time to have coffee and lunch breaks and actually talk to colleagues from time to time. I wouldn't want have every week is quiet as this, but occasionally it's very welcome. It's quite relaxing to be able to go on a call knowing that there is not another one waiting. It also means that if the afternoons are quiet one of us can usually have a half day. I got the nod on Wednesday and went down to Kirkby Stephen to see my folks. They’ve got a smallholding down there with various creatures which usually have some ailment or other. It's a bit of a busman's holiday going there but it is nice having them close - I tend see them every week or two. On Wednesday I vaccinated a couple of horses and trimmed a few sheep’s feet. They went through the joys of 48 hourly surveillance inspections last year but somehow managed to come through unscathed - their parish was one of the only ones in the Kirkby Stephen area to do so.\nOther weekend I went up to Glasgow to see a cousin who was having a leaving party. I didn't know many people there but it was good to go and do something completely removed from the usual. One of the people I did know came and stayed in Penrith on Sunday night. It was a stunning day - we went the lakes which were at their best.\n\nDiary 24\nThis week was the first of four for me being off the rota, which (should) mean no nights and no weekends on call  - can't be bad!\nOn Monday had a small TB test to do. It was with a very pleasant farmer and the cows behaved themselves so it wasn't a bad way to spend a morning. He's imported a small herd from Holland and seems very pleased with them so far. It takes a bit time for the F & M farmers to get used to their new stock as most of them knew their old ones so well. But on the whole people seemed fairly content with their new ones.\nI did small animal ops on Tuesday and Wednesday as one of the vets who usually do it was on holiday.  We've got a new nurse starting this week so it was a case of showing her the ropes, but she seems to be doing very well.\nOne my best school friends got married on Friday. Very typically, after a fairly quiet week it suddenly got busy on Friday afternoon. I managed to get the wedding but had to miss the afternoon reception in order to go and see a horse in Appleby. That's life.\nI was one of the duty vets at Lowther show on Saturday. I hadn't done it before and had a very good time. It was generally fine weather and there were some truly stunning teams of horses in the driving event. Lots of competitors commented on how good it was to have the show up and running again after last year's cancellations. The event passed without any major incident for vet-wise, so it was a pretty calm day for me really\n\nDiary 25\nThe week's been fairly steady. I seem to have been doing more horses than anything else - I didn't go and see a cow until Friday. Several of them were ongoing cases such as leg wounds that have needed daily dressing changes and the rest a selection of vaccinations, lameness and those that aren't "quite right". I quite enjoy the horse side of the job so doing a bit more than usual has been a welcome change.\nI had planned to get to work on my house this month in my free evenings, but it doesn't really seem to have worked like that. When I know I've got a lot of free time nights tend to get booked up seeing people from home or near by who I’ve temporarily lost touch with. Also seeing as summer seems to have found us I've been trying to get into the lakes as much as possible – the house can wait till winter!\nThis weekend I’ve been down to Wales to see a group of college friends. We stayed in a cottage owned by one of the group's parents and played a few rounds of golf. I played very badly, lost a lot of balls, and became very frustrated with it all. I think it comes down to lack of talent. Still, it was good to catch up with some people I haven't seen since graduation. And I'm sure the golf will be better next year. \n\nDiary 26\nI've done (more) small animal work than anything else this week. There had been no disasters all fairly routine stuff. One of the small animal vets has been away so I had to cover a bit. I didn't actually get out onto a farm until Friday morning. It gets a bit claustrophobic inside after a while so it was good to get out. \nI was on call at the weekend and also had a college friend to stay. It was very quiet most of the time until Sunday evening. I had swapped duty to be off on the night from 6:00pm.  - at 5.45 four calls all came in at once at all four corners of the practice, so I didn't actually get finished until nearly 8pm . That’s the way it goes sometimes I suppose.\nI had another half day earlier in the week as it was fairly quiet. I took my bike out into the northern lakes for a few hours to blow away the cobwebs from being inside at work\n\nDiary 27\nI had a barbecue/party this weekend for people from work and a lot of friends from college. There were a lot of people I thought I'd always keep in touch with the but as time went on I never did, so I arranged a weekend a long way in advance for us all to meet up again. About 28 people came, most of whom I haven't seen for least a year or two. Nobody seems to have changed much and it was great to see them all again. The garden and house have both taken a bit of a pounding but I think most of the mess is fairly superficial!\nI went for a walk near Howtown today to clear my head after the barbecue last night. It was a very good day weather-wise which meant that a lot of people had had the same idea as us.\nIt's been a variable week at work - some days been very quiet, others flat out. I've had an ongoing case of a young horse that had been caught up in wire on Monday evening. It was well beyond the stage where it could have been stitched when I saw it, so it'll have to heal slowly by filling the wound in. I'm sure it'll be fine, but it's going to take a long time.\nWe’re starting to get a lot of inquiries about the new rules DEFRA are bringing in to allow farmers to bring animals on to their farms in isolation facilities. It should make things less restrictive for the farmer. We are going to have to do a lot of inspections. It's not since restocking checks last winter that we’ve really had to do this sort of thing, but the checks probably won't be as exhaustive as those we had to do last year\n\nDiary 28\nHad a fairly quiet week really. This been a fairly standard mix of sick cows, a couple of lame horses and the continuation of the young horse that wrecked its leg last week (which is going okay). So it's been fairly laid-back on the whole, with time for a coffee break after most calls!\nWe have done the first of the inspections for the new on-farm isolation facilities for sheep. On the whole farmer compliance has been very good. There have been a few whinges about why they have to do it, and I can see why as it must be frustrating to suddenly be told how to run stock movements that they've always done a different way. Most can see why DEFRA are insisting on it though as it's all aimed at reducing the risk of having another situation like we did last year.\nI was off again this weekend, one of my old flat mates and his wife came to stay. They live in London so came north for a weekend of clean-living and fresh-air! We went for walks around Cat Bells and High Street on Saturday and Sunday, ate drank and were generally fairly unstressed. Hope it was what they were looking for!\n\nDiary 29\nI've had a short week in terms of work at the practice this week as I've been to Glasgow for an Equine Conference from Thursday to Saturday. Further education is not compulsory and there is no formal structure for it (which is quite controversial in some people's eyes), but the Royal College of vets do encourage us to keep up-to-date. There is a quota we’re asked to fulfil each year and these three days will help me keep on track. There were several different courses on each day, with one lecture theatre for practitioner based subjects that we could expect to see on a day-to-day basis, and another called "advanced clinical sessions" on subjects and cases so obscure that you'd be lucky to hear of one, let alone see one, more than once or twice. (I didn't go to many of those lectures!).\nAs well as being useful in terms of picking up new information it was also a good chance to catch up with old friends from college. Lots of people I hadn't seen for a year or two were there and it was good to see them.\nThe first three days of the week were okay. I went out on Tuesday morning to trim some lame cows feet and ended up accidentally trimming some skin from the farmers thumb with my hoof knife. All a bit embarrassing and felt very bad but he didn't seem that fazed by it and he's not the type to bear a grudge. (perhaps I shouldn’t try to keep my knife so sharp )\nAnother of the week's more interesting events was an Irish Wolfhound that needed surgery to correct a twisted and distended stomach. It's fairly common in this type of dog and is a real emergency. Another vet and I operated on him on Tuesday afternoon. It took a couple of hours but (so far) is seems to have been worth it as he's done very well and apparently went home on Friday.\n\nDiary 30\nI spent most of Monday afternoon/evening irradiating myself by taking dozens of X-rays of a horse’s legs. It was being sold for a lot of money and the insurance company wanted to check all its joints were OK before insuring it. It took a lot longer than anticipated as it was difficult to get it positioned absolutely right for each view but we got there in the end. We have to be quite careful about exposure to X-rays but my X-ray badge hasn't shown a high reading yet!\n2 vets have been off this week (one on his honeymoon and one has been away doing AI on sheep) its often a bit quieter now but we seem to have been kept going. I did a big routine fertility visit to one of our dairy farms on Wednesday. One of the main things we do on these visits is manual pregnancy diagnosis. It's not too bad with dairy calves cows as if they're not in calf they would normally get another chance to do so, but with some beef farms or a dairy cow that is persistently not conceiving , it sometimes more economic to get rid of the cow of rather than persisting. So there's a big incentive for us to get it right, or at least not to say a cow isn't in calf when she is (luckily they were all quite straightforward this week)\nThis was my last before going away to the USA for a fortnight. I fly to New York tomorrow to meet up with an old flatmate of mine who's a journalist out there. I'm crossing the Atlantic to see him and he's given me directions to his flat rather than meeting me at the airport because I'm arriving when Premiership football is on TV. Charming.\n\nDiary 31\nTwo weeks in the States. Can't be bad. I flew into New York where I stayed with a friend who's working in Manhattan. I did a lot of the usual tourist things - Empire State Building, boat trip around the island, Central Park etc. For its size it's a very relaxed place in a lot of ways - it feels very safe and although there is loads going on you never seem to get hassled.\nWe flew to New Orleans for a week, supposedly for some sun in the Deep South, but landed just as a tropical storm hit the mainland. Everything was closed for two days (as bad as UK when it snows). Once the weather cleared it was fine and we again went about being tourists - paddle boat up the Mississippi River, out on a boat in the Louisiana swamps to look at alligators, and a bit of New Orleans nightlife.\nI had a few more days in New York before flying home. \n\nDiary 32\n First week back after America. Had a good trip, but the week has been rather marred by the death of one of the hockey team (and a year-mate of mine at school) in a tractor accident when he was hit by a wagon on the A 66 on Thursday. I saw him on Wednesday night at hockey training. He was very stiff having done the Great North Run with his wife the weekend before. I didn't know him very well at school but have got to over the last few years via hockey and he really was a tremendously good person and will be much missed by lots of people in and around Kirkby Stephen. The weekend's match was postponed as no one could have thought about playing - it all seems very trivial when this sort of thing happens. I couldn't have played anyway as I'm on duty this weekend, but fortunately it's been fairly quiet so far - a calving and 2 Caesareans, but it's getting into calving season so it's about par for the course.\nThe first half of the week was OK. I was even given a half-day on Tuesday - a day and a half after returning from holiday. I went for a walk at the bottom end of Derwent Water, and then tried to sleep off some jet lag.\n\nDiary 33\nI went to Matthew's funeral on Tuesday. How popular he was was reflected in the number of people there. We arrived 25 minutes before it was due to start and still had to stand, and had to move up as more people tried to fit into the chapel. It almost seemed as if all of Kirkby had come to a standstill. It went on quite a long time so I had the afternoon off and went to see my parents (who live near Kirkby) afterwards.\nWe cancelled hockey training on Wednesday as it seemed too soon to go on as usual, but decided play our Scheduled match on Saturday. Both our team and the opposition had two minute silence before the match. We ended up drawing 0 - 0, but it was a very good close game (we normally lose to this team), and played in a competitive but fair spirit. Just what was needed for our first match back. I'm actually on duty again this weekend but one my colleagues covered for me for a few hours so I could go to play.\nThe cases at work have been fairly steady this week. I'm going to enrol for a further qualification in Equine practice in the next week or two. I'm doing a reasonable amount of horse work at the moment, but will try to do a bit more over the next few months/years. It should motivate me to read up on cases more and find slightly more constructive ways to spend evenings on call!\n\nDiary 34\nTB testing! Our biggest beef herd had its post restocking test this week. About 600 cattle were to be done. There’s no way it could be done in one go so we did it over 3 instead (originally planned for two, but ran out of daylight). It all went smoothly on the whole (or at least as well as could be expected), and everything has been cleared as negative. I found out from DEFRA a few weeks ago that there have actually been quite a few TB cases in the county since restocking. As we'd been clear for years previously to FMD this is obviously a bit of a worry. We haven't had any cases in our practice but if we can't stamp out these new cases as they are found it’s only a matter of time before it spreads further afield. The more we get in the county also means there will have to be more testing. At the moment it's begrudgingly accepted by the farmers, but if we have to do more I can see them having a sense of humour failure over it. Ultimately it's in their interest for us to check that their herd is free, but it is a big time commitment and they don't get paid for it.\nWhile I spent two days testing the rest of the week had a bit more variety. I saw few horses, mainly lameness, but also one or two with other ailments. I have to write a casebook for the Equine certificate I'm doing I’m on the lookout for suitable cases during my rounds.\nI had the weekend off - played hockey in Manchester and then went to Worcester to see some college friends. I had to drive back via Ely (!) as the trains are cancelled due to the winds, which meant a friend was stranded. Not a very direct route to Cumbria. \n\nDiary 35\nThe week started on Monday morning with another TB test on a restocking farm. It's not a big farm and was one of the late ones to get FMD. It's run by a very nice but quite intense family. The son has taken re-stocking very seriously and has obviously thought of it very much as an opportunity to start from scratch and try to eliminate some of their previous herd problems. I have consequently spent quite a bit of time advising him over the various vaccines available and their relative pros and cons. Thankfully things seem to be paying off so far with few problems in herd. One of the things that I noticed during the test was that they made one or two jokes about last year (sorry - forgotten exactly what they said). I thought the fact that they were able to now talk about FMD like that had to be a good sign, as I think it would have been highly unlikely a year ago. \nOn Wednesday afternoon I went up to Wigton to vet a horse for a potential buyer. There were several minor things wrong with it but overall it seemed OK. It's always a responsibility vetting horses as someone is either trying to buy it or not on the basis of what I find. In this case it took quite a lot of convincing the buyer that the imperfections were not that serious. (Hopefully they won’t subsequently turn out to be a problem!)\nI've started doing more horse cases recently and on Tuesday sent off my application form to be accepted to do further exams in horse practice. I have to wait until next year to find out whether I've been accepted, and won't sit them until 2005. I was off this weekend and played hockey in Manchester. Unfortunately we didn't win. Maybe next week. Saturday evening I went down to Kendal to see an old flatmate who lives there.\n\nDiary 36\nOn Tuesday I went to see a horse near Carlisle. It had developed a swelling on its lower jaw that was fairly painful to touch. They were a few possibilities but the most likely was that it had at tooth root abscess. I put it on to antibiotics, but seeing as it had obviously been going on for a while, thought it was worth taking some X-rays. There was obvious destruction of the tooth visible on the X-ray, which probably means it needs removing. This is a fairly major undertaking on a horse and as it was a valuable creature still in training I thought it best to send to Edinburgh vet school to have it done. Hopefully I'll be able to go and see it done in a day or two's time.\nOne of the aspects (drawbacks? (not really!)) of being a vet his that one is often asked about animal ailments out of work. (I’m sure it happens a lot in other jobs too.) My mother is very adept at this not that I really mind. Her elderly terrier that we grew up with has started having one or two problems recently. I suggested a few possibilities but thought it best if she went to the local vets to have her looked at. The problem was she was so bad tempered (the terrier) that they couldn’t safely blood sample her, so she had a day out to Penrith so that I could try to take blood from her. I managed to more-or-less intact, and fortunately her results seemed more or less in order (or at least better than her temper).\nThe general work in the practice has been fairly steady this week. A few farmers seem to be having quite a few cows calving at the moment which is a bit unseasonal, but I suppose a reasonable number tend to calve all-year-round. We haven't really got into calf pneumonia season yet but it can't be long before they start to keep us busy. It will soon take over from lungworm as the main bovine respiratory problem.\nThe weekend was off again brought a victory in a hockey match. The start of a winning streak perhaps? I went up to Edinburgh after the match to see a few friends and for the start of a week off. Wahey!\n\nDiary 37\nIt's a week off - can't be bad. I didn't do what I had planned due to an unforeseen change in circumstances, but still good. As I was in Edinburgh last weekend I decided to stay up for few days. This was partly to see friends and also because I had referred the horse with a bad tooth that I mentioned last week. (voluntary work experience during time off - dedication or very rash?). I spent Tuesday at the vet School in Edinburgh with one of my old tutors. The case I had sent up was successfully treated (so far) by removing the offending tooth. It was very interesting to see how he did it as he used a different technique to the one we’ve used in the practice. I spent the rest of the day there with him seeing other cases. It felt a bit odd being there not as a student. I came home on Tuesday evening and went down to Kirkby Stephen to see my folks on Wednesday morning. I spent most of the rest of the week either at their house or mine doing things like stocking up on firewood for the winter, sorting my house out and making a start on stripping the wallpaper in my hallway. I normally go away when I take time off but it was actually very nice to do things at home for change. It made for quite a relaxing week on the whole!\n\n\nDiary 38\nBack to work. It was good to have a week off last week, but one of the best things about where I work and what I do is that I never seem to feel reluctant to go back to work. I think that must mean I enjoy it on the whole!\nOn Tuesday I went back to see the horse that had had its tooth removed last week. It's doing very well and is back in training. It was eating very well as soon as the tooth came out - it's amazing how animals often seem to deal with pain so stoically. I'll check it again next week and, all things being well, that should be it.\nOn Tuesday afternoon I happened to see another slightly unusual case in a horse. It had developed a lump on the outside of its cheek which on closer inspection turned out to be a large mass (man?) inside its mouth. It's probably going to have to be removed and should come in next week for it to be done.\nThe rest of the week was the usual mix of more routine cases. Have been on to more farms this week than I have done for a while. We recently took on a new dairy farm near Appleby and I went to see a cow there for the first time. On a first visit you always hope for something straightforward so that it's easy to make a good first impression. On this occasion the cow was very sick and wasn't really giving me many clues as to why. All I could do was treat it for the symptoms it was showing. I saw it twice on Friday and again on Saturday and by evening it was on the mend. I never did reach a conclusive diagnosis but I think the farmer was satisfied by the fact that it had got better in spite of not knowing quite what was wrong!\nI was on duty Friday night (very quiet) and on Saturday. Apart from the cow I mentioned it was fairly easy going. Today I went down to Kirkby Stephen to see some old friends staying with my parents.\n(two weeks with no TB testing!! (it'll change next week!)).\n\n\nDiary 39\nIt's been a fairly uneventful week at work. There don't seem to have been any particularly on-going or notable cases. In some ways it's not a bad thing as it makes for a fairly stress-free time. It's not that you can really switch off but it does mean that when there are a few fairly straightforward cases to see it's possible to spend more time chatting to the farmer/owner without having to work too hard finding what's wrong with the patient.\nThis week's most interesting case was a horse with amazingly extensive arthritis in its hind legs considering its age. It's not a terminal condition but it does have implications as to what it will be possible to use it for in future. In situations like that it can be quite difficult to give the client the right outlook. They often expect a quick cure, especially in a young horse and to tell them that a problem has been present for months, if not years, and will never completely go away can come as a bit of shock. The owner in this case was very sensible and seemed to taking what was said very well.\nThe other good thing about this week is that I'm having a very good run with my duties - I've been on for two nights on first call and the phone hasn't gone once - very unusual and very welcome! (this must be tempting fate...)\nI've had the weekend off - there was a hockey match on Saturday when we lost to the league leaders but avoided humiliation. The rest of the two days was spent trying to progress with decorating the hallway before friends come to stay over Christmas and New Year. Am I not too young to be spending weekends off decorating??! \n\nDiary 40\nI had a good test of my diplomacy skills this week with an irate farmer. I had spent four hours doing a TB test on a very cold day when it should have taken about one-and-a-half hours. In my rush to get defrosted in my car afterwards I forgot to shut the gate in the field where I had parked. On my return to the surgery I was greeted by the news that he had rung wanting my head on a stick and forbidding me from ever setting foot on his farm again as all his tups had gone walkabout through the gate I'd left open. On advice from the partners at the practice who knew him better I gave him a day to calm down and then wrote a very grovelling letter! I was allowed to go back at the end of the week to read the test results (which fortunately was all clear). I think he's forgiven me.\nOne of the more common cow operations we do is to correct a displaced stomach. In the two and a half years I've been at the practice we’ve always done it using one particular technique. There are circumstances where another method is indicated and having not seen them for 2½   years, there were 2 this week. They both went well (so far). Another two years before the next?\nI took my last day off for 2002 on Thursday and again spent it decorating. On Thursday night we had our Practice Christmas meal. The two vets on duty managed not to get called out and on the whole I think people weren't too hung over on Friday. Last year there was a bit of a debate as to whether we should have a Christmas night out as most farmers were either just starting to restock or still cleaning out. This year it was much more straightforward.\nOn Friday night it was the annual night at Hesket Newmarket organised by the local DEFRA lab for any local vets that want a meal and beers. It's a good chance to catch up with other vets from neighbouring practices in (very) informal atmosphere.\n\nDiary 41\nI've had a couple of vet students staying with me this week who I knew when I was in my final year at Edinburgh. They're doing work experience with us for a week or so. It's made a pleasant change to have some company for a while. I have also acquired two stray kittens in the last week - the usual vet procedure of eventually finding an unwanted patient that you can't resist taking yourself. They are settling in ok and we’ve only had to have one or two little discussions about the benefits of using a litter tray rather than the carpet.\nThe week at work has been reasonably busy - a good thing this week as there have been three students and it's a bit dull for them if there is nothing going on. We had a horse in for most of the week with a severe respiratory infection.  It’s needed fairly intensive care but seems to be on the mend now. I may use it as a case to write up as part of the exam I'm hoping to do in a few years. It'll have to be a New Year's resolution to get on with the writing up part of it.\nApart from a horse it's been the usual sort of mix - a few routine fertility visits to dairy farms, a few sick cows and horses etc. There been some TB tests this week but I've managed to miss them all - must be saving some for me next year.\nI had a lot of people from work here on Friday night for pre-Christmas mulled wine and mince pies. I'm not quite sure the kittens knew what was happening but I think the rest of us enjoyed it!\nI've had the weekend off and went down to see a friend in Birmingham who qualified last summer. This was her second weekend on call so I went to give moral support. Being on call isn't stressful anymore but I remember for the first few times it's difficult not to be aware of the phone all the time and hoping it doesn't ring. There weren't many calls and those that did come in she didn't need me for - suited me well.\n\nDiary 42\nThe week of Christmas and my first job of the week was to replace a particularly contaminated uterine prolapse in a cow. It finally went back in after an hour or so of fairly fruitless efforts. Very festive. This week and next we had fewer vets than usual working each day as we all have a few days off for Christmas/New year so it‘s sometimes a bit busy during the day. It's generally worth it for the extra time off.\nI was off on Monday night and went to Kirkby-Stephen to see school friends back for the holiday. Although we don't see each other very often any more people don't really seem to change very much. A good friend whose parents farm had F and M have sold up and are going into B&B instead. I think it was a hard decision but now they seen to be quite relieved to be out of it.\nI was on duty on Christmas Eve and fortunately didn't have to go out - I just had three phone calls between 7 and 9 p m. from people saying their dog or cat had been off food for periods varying from three weeks to 10 days. Christmas Eve seemed an odd time to notice this.\nI went home to Kirkby Stephen for Christmas and Boxing Day and didn't really do very much. I had a look at a couple of Mum’s sheep but other than that it was just a case of being lazy and enjoying seasonal food and drink.\nI was on duty this weekend, which turned out, be fairly busy. One of the students who came to stay last week came back to do some on-call work which turned out to be very useful. A couple of cows to operate on (as Caesar and a displaced stomach) where two pairs of hands are better than one and quite a few small animals to see to.\n\nDiary 43\nI've had most of this week off for New Year (Tuesday to Friday) which is pretty good going seen as I was off for Christmas as well. Monday was fairly quiet with just a few farm calls to do and some small animals. Rather worryingly we've heard that a local deer farm (not one of our customers) has gone down with TB, apparently with quite a few deer in the herd having it. This means that we'll have to do TB check tests on any of our farms that neighbour the affected premises.\nOver New Year my cousin, her husband and their five (!) children (young) came to stay. It wasn't too hectic on the whole, with just the occasional loss of humour. A couple of friends from work came round to join us for New Year itself.\nI've had to work this weekend (part of the deal for getting four days off midweek) but it's not really been that busy. I've only been on second call and have only had to do 2 calls so far - an easy return to work after New Year excesses!\n\nDiary 44\nBack to normal quota of vets at work again this week, which is good as it seems to have been very busy. Most of it has been the usual sort of things for the time of year - cows starting to get lame after having been inside for a few months and metabolic problems, probably related to the poor silage last year's summer rain created. Quite a few farmers have a large amount of 2001 silage left as it wasn't used over winter 2001/2002 as they hadn't restocked. On the whole it's kept very well and in many cases is better than the crop they made last summer.\nThe fall-out from the deer herd TB has arrived. Two neighbouring farms to test this week. The first one has come back negative to the relief of all concerned. I did the second one on Friday and will read it tomorrow (Monday). The farmers there are all very concerned about it which is understandable but hopefully groundless. There are lots of questions being asked along the lines of "what if….” some of which I can answer and some not. It does remind me a bit of February 2001 when FMD broke out and there were all sorts of queries about the disease, its progression etc that none of  (us?) really knew about. It didn't take long for us to know the answers to most of them.\nI've had this weekend off - a hockey fixture list has started again after the Christmas break. A return to winning ways - hopefully to continue…\n\nDiary 45\nThe week had a bad start - the TB test I did last Friday produced two reactors and two inconclusive (borderline) reactors this means that the farm isn't allowed to move at any bovines on or off the farm except directly to slaughter under licence. The reactors are taken away for post-mortem examination and the inconclusive reactors are isolated for 60 days until the rest of the herd is re-tested. The farmer was very keen to get the inconclusive animals removed as well (quite understandably in my opinion) so that they couldn't pose a threat to the rest of his herd. Apparently DEFRA aren't allowed to do this, I think largely due to financial reasons. While fully appreciating the need to protect taxpayers' money, considering how much was spent in 2001 I think this a potentially flawed argument. Perhaps the rules need to be changed? But then again I'm not an epidemiologist and perhaps they don't actually pose a threat.\nThe farmer seemed very depressed by it all. I think a lot of it is the feeling of having the stigma of being a farm under DEFRA restrictions again. He was also very aware of the threat he was to his neighbours and was desperately keen to minimise it. It's actually quite small while the cows are still indoors but I think people are still very much thinking of how serious it was for neighbours if someone got FMD. TB is a very different type of organism and it’s a question of getting people to understand this (which isn't to say it's not a very serious problem).\nOn the same day another farm in the area (not ours) was confirmed with TB so it's definitely progressing in Cumbria - depressing. All we can do is follow DEFRA instructions on testing and try to keep on top of it.\nOne of my colleagues tore a knee ligament last week while skiing. He normally does mostly large animal calls. Seeing as he's now confined to the practice doing small animals I've taken over couple of the farms he does routine fertility visits for. It makes a change to spend time on farms I don't visit often (although I hear the small animal nurses are quite keen for Matt to get back to doing them!) \n\nDiary 46\nOne of our dairy farmers has had a big outbreak of pneumonia in his calves this week - I've been to the farm at least once every day this week. The tests we've done are usually pretty sensitive but have failed to reveal any of the usual causes. Treatment seems to have been working in some cases but not in others. He hasn't lost any (i e none dead) but the loss in body weight is very obvious. It's all been a bit frustrating really. He's a very pleasant guy and hasn't said anything but when treatments repeatedly fail to get expected (and predicted) results I can't help feeling that he must be getting a bit sceptical about it. Or perhaps I'm just being paranoid! By the end of the week the majority seem to be on the mend but seeing as we haven't tracked down the causative agent it's hard to know what vaccination to recommend next year. There are some more tests that will come back in two weeks which may be more revealing.\nIn midweek I did one of the fairly common operations to correct a twisted stomach in a cow. Surprisingly it was the first time this dairy farmer had had one done and he took some convincing that it was a good idea. Having persuaded someone to pay for a procedure I always feel under a bit more pressure than usual. Fortunately it went pretty well and the cow is, so far, doing well.\nI was on second call this weekend, which turned out to be pretty quiet. I think we must be in a lull before lambing really kicks in - let's enjoy it while it lasts!\n\nDiary 47\nAfter not doing any testing last week it was my turn again this week. It wasn't a big one (only about 30 cows) but it was a bit more risky than usual as it was a herd of Beef Longhorns. And they do have long horns! Whilst trying to manoeuvre them into a crush to inject their necks with tuberculin we always had to be ready to take evasive action if they made a sudden turn. I don't think they ever tried to use their horns aggressively but they were so big that they become dangerous weapons when they were just moving normally. As it turned out no one received any injuries and, very importantly, the test was negative.\nThis week also brought my first lambing of the year. Other people have done a few but this was my first. We have a couple of farms who lamb early for the early lamb sales - it seems very hard work at this time of year - but the early prices do seem to make it worthwhile. Give it another week or two and a sure they’ll start to become more frequent.\nI took Friday off as I had to get to London for 4 pm. to get on the Eurostar to go skiing. Typically the one day of the year that the country ground to halt was Thursday night/Friday. We managed to make it to Waterloo station only to find the station in chaos as all Eurostars had been cancelled due to snow in France (at least it's not just Britain that can’t cope with it!) after being assured that none would run for 24 hours they suddenly told us to board, only 1½  hours late - very pleasant surprise. We ended up arriving in Val d'Isere on time, with loads of snow and blue skies. I tried to spare a thought for whoever was on call at weekend. I managed it (just).\n\nDiary 48\nAfter the weather almost prevented us from reaching Val d’Isere it was very clear for the first few days but then the snow returned for three days. We couldn't do much during that time but it did mean that there were fantastic conditions for the last few days. We had a group of 29 and completely filled one large chalet. There were, for once, no major skiing injuries within the group and I think a good time was had by all. \n\nDiary 49\nBack to work this week. I’m never reluctant to go back after a week off and sometimes, dare I say it, even look forward to it - must be a good sign?\nApparently last week was OK at work with no major dramas. We still haven't found any more TB cases but the screening continues all the time. One of the rules for re-stocking herds compared to herds that missed FMD is that all bovines over 42 days old have to be tested rather than just the adults. Last year when there weren't many calves around this didn't make much difference, but now most farms have at least a year's worth of calves in place it doubles the size of most tests. Often calves won't fit in crushes and are very wild so it can get quite exciting. It seems a necessary policy though - one of the reactors I found a few weeks ago was a six-month old stirk.\nI've had a fairly quiet week. I've had a couple of nights on duty which were both quiet. There's a horse near Carlisle that I think I've mentioned before with a recurrent tooth problem. We thought we'd finally sorted that but this week she developed a problem with one of the tendons on her foreleg. It's a bit disappointing for her owner as she only bought the horse recently in order to compete to a very high standard and she seems to () permanently off training with one ailment or another. I don't think it's too serious so hopefully in another week or two she'll be back to work.\nI've been off this weekend - came second in the weekend’s hockey match. A real case of defeat been snatched from the jaws of victory. I went for a walk around the Great Gable/Scafell area on Sunday afternoon - it was amazing how much snow and ice was still left over from winter weather a week or so ago. Maybe I needn't have bothered going abroad.\n\nDiary 50\nI found another positive TB case on Friday. I did the test on Tuesday on a very large beef herd on a restocking farm. Including calves they must have been just over 400 cattle to do. There was one reactor on Friday and two inconclusives. There is a possibility that it is a false positive - the farm has been having big problems with something called at Johne’s disease which is caused by a similar type of bacterium to the one that causes TB. There is a small possibility of a cow carrying Johne’s disease cross-reacting with the TB test injection. I actually blood sampled all the adult cows on Tuesday to screen the herd for Johne’s in order to try to start eradicating it from herd. It'll be interesting to see whether the positive test cow will be positive for Johne’s. Ultimately it doesn't really make much difference in the short term - the farm’s been placed under restrictions and the affected cow has been taken off for post mortem. One of my colleagues found another positive reactor on a different farm on Friday as well - that's three farms in the practice now and around 50 - 60 within Cumbria. The big worry now this is that the longer it stays around the more likely (inevitable?) it is disease will get into wildlife reservoirs - deer, and perhaps badgers depending on whether you believe that badgers are an influence or not. Time will tell, but I'm sure it's going to keep us busy for several years if not a lot more.\nI did a test on Monday as well on a small farm that I've never been to before - at least testing is one way of getting on to small farms who don't often need us. This one was all clear.\nThe remainder of the week was spent doing more usual work. Lambing’s still not quite got into full swing although we are seeing a slow increase in the number of sheep been brought to the surgery.\n\nDiary 51\nNo TB testing for me this week and no more positive cases in the practice. The first case that I found back in January was confirmed as carrying TB this week though. Although it's bad news for the farmer it is quite reassuring to know that the tests and methods we use do detect carrier animals reasonably accurately.\nThis week has been fairly busy without ever getting too hectic. I operated on a cow on Tuesday which for a number of reasons didn't go quite as smoothly as it might have done. It subsequently didn't do as well post-operatively as we would normally expect. The coming week should see an improvement (I hope). We can never give cast iron guarantees about the outcome of surgery but it is quite rare for this Op to fail, so fingers crossed for Monday. I had to see a horse with colic earlier in the week which on my first visit to I was very suspicious that it was going to require surgery to correct. The owner wasn't prepared for that happen though so it was a question of trying to manage it medically or euthanizing it. It wasn't in undue pain so we gave it a go medically, and much to my (pleasant) surprise over the next few hours and visits he did very well. (just goes to show we are not all-knowing!!!) It would have been interesting to know whether it was a surgical condition which somehow righted itself or whether it was a medical case all along which simply appeared as something more serious. I had to work for an hour or so on Saturday morning doing small animal consultations and then had the rest of the weekend off. We came second in a hockey match again and then I went up to Edinburgh to catch up with some college friends who haven't seen for a while.\n\nDiary 52\nThis week has really seen the start of the lambing season. The sheep every day or every other day that we've been seeing for the last month or so has turned into one every few hours during the day (and during the night in some cases). It’s encouraging that farmers are still bringing them in/calling us out as many feel that sheep aren't worth paying vet fees for. This obviously creates a welfare problem in many situations as inappropriate and inadequate treatment is sometimes provided by the farmer. Having said that I can see why some take the attitude of not spending money on them as prices are often so low.\nThe other aspect of lambing time is that nights get very busy - on Monday I had a ewe caesarean at 2am, then a horse that had just foaled at 3.15.\nI had an hour or so in bed and then a sick cow at 6.20. Although it can be a bit tiring, on the whole cases we see out of hours are not the run-of-the-mill routine things so it does at least make it interesting (which isn't always the first thing on my mind when the phone rings at 3am!)\nUnfortunately the cow I operated on last week failed to improve and I had to re operate on Monday. This is far from ideal as it carries a much higher risk of infection than first-time operation. Somewhat to my surprise it seems to be doing very well now. Cows seem to be amazingly resilient if I'd had abdominal surgery twice in a mucky cow byre I'm sure I wouldn't cope as well.\nI did the same Op on a different farm later in the week which went much better. I’d be getting worried about my technique if two in a row went wrong.\nI've worked Saturday morning again supposedly just for an hour but it turned into about two-and-a-half as things kept coming in. I went up to Edinburgh again after hockey (came second again) to see someone who's left his job to go around the world for six months.\n\nDiary 54\nThe beginning of the week saw a visit to a horse, which had a chronic episode of laminitis (a hoof condition). In this horse's case it had become very severe and really beyond the point where treatment is feasible. Euthanasia was the best option for the horse as it was in a lot of pain. Unfortunately the owner was very reluctant for this and wanted to carry on with treatment. This sort of situation does crop up from time to time and is difficult for all concerned. In the end I told the owners what I thought the chances of recovery were and let them make their decision, which was to continue treatment. Hopefully I'll be proved wrong and the horse will recover, but I can't really see it happening. I saw another case later in the week which ended up going to Liverpool University for surgery. It was a small pony that had managed to cut itself very severely on barbed-wire (horses always find something to injure themselves on). There was a risk that it had penetrated a joint so I sent it to Liverpool to be flushed. As far as I know it's doing very well so far.\nThe rest of the workload this week has been the usual stuff for the time of year. Loads of lambing, a few TB tests (negative!) - generally kept busy.\nOn Friday I went to Edinburgh for a few days course on Equine neurology. I knew most of the speakers (and some delegates) from when I was a student there - it was good to see people again (and I learnt a few things about horses brains and nerves!)\nSaturday was our last hockey match of the season - a draw. We didn't win the league by any stretch of the imagination (but we weren't last either!)\n\nDiary 55\nAnother manic spring week goes by. I've been on duty this weekend and the two of us on call have done as many calls in the last two days has eight vets would expect to do in two week days in the summer. We haven't been bored!\nI didn't leave the practice building until lunchtime on Saturday as there was a constant flow of small animals to see to and a few sheep brought in with lambing problems. I eventually left at 1.30 p m. to go to operate on a cow with a twisted stomach that was meant to be done at 11 am. The Op went a OK but it was then straight back to the surgery to do a caesarean on a whelping bitch with the help of a student who is seeing practice with us. Between then and 9 pm. It was a variety of sick cows, sheep to lamb and a calf with lead poisoning at the far end of Ullswater (would have been a very nice drive out if it hadn't been for the rush!). To top things off I had a cow caesarean at 9 pm.  It was very useful having a student to help all day - I think it was a bit of an eye opener for her!\nSunday morning gave me to more Caesareans (sheep this time - variety is the spice of life), a cat who had very mysteriously lost a leg overnight (perhaps caught in a trap?) but was in incredibly good health otherwise - it's amazing what animals can withstand - and a good supply of other calls to keep me out of mischief. It has actually been quite enjoyable despite being so hectic, and (I think) most of the cases have been quite successful which always helps.\nThe rest of the week seems a distant memory but on the whole it was more of the same, but at a slower pace! I did another small TB test which was negative. Anyway a night off tonight - I need a pint!!\n\nDiary 56\nMonday morning was the 60 day re-test for the first herd that I found TB in. It was a sunny day and on the whole the test went very smoothly. The farmer's buildings are getting very overcrowded though, as he is under a movement restriction due to the TB. First day started well as all the animals were giving negative readings, but then came the dreaded reaction to the injections we gave on the first day. There were four reactors in total; three of which were borderline and the other was very very obvious. The frustrating thing is that the obvious one was a borderline reactor last time but DEFRA refused to take it as it isn't in their policy to take inconclusive reactors found on a routine test. This means that an animal that is actually infected his left on premises to potentially infect other animals. The farmer had tried to point this out two months ago to no avail. He is now vindicated in his view, not that that is much consolation for the fact that his restrictions are to be continued and he may well (probably will in fact) now have more carriers which won't be found until the next Test in 60 days' time. The reason for not initially taking inconclusive reactors is to save money by not paying for the animals to be slaughtered that aren't actually infected. In cases like this it seems to be a real false economy and doesn't win DEFRA \nfriends in the farming community.\nTuesday and Wednesday this week were mainly horse jobs. A horse with a recurrent tooth problem that I've mentioned before came in for more X-rays and finally seems to be doing OK. Its competing in Germany in a week or two so I do hope it stays OK! This weekend I went for a walk in the lakes with one of my old flatmates from Edinburgh. The weather held and was amazingly hot for the time of year - almost got sunburnt.\n\nDiary 57\nI've had a final year student from Edinburgh staying with me this week while she's seeing practice with us. Final exams are looming and I think the stress levels are rising. It's very easy to think of all the things you don't know but I think we've more or less managed to convince her that she does know enough not to be a liability when she qualifies!\nShe saw an interesting incident on a call we did early in the week. I'd gone to replace a uterine prolapse in a cow, which went okay, but the farmer then asked me to falsely certify a cow. We can give certificates to cows over 30 months of age under the BSE scheme, for which farmers are compensated. This cow had to be put down, but wasn't 30 months for another four days. He was understandably "quite upset" about this and let me know! It’s this sort of thing that is a nightmare for anyone but especially someone just starting - you want to please the farmer and make a good impression, but you also have responsibility to not abuse your ability to use your signature. In the end I explained why he couldn't have a certificate and he did calm down. I'm sure Vicky will have similar situations before too long - diplomatic, as well as clinical, skills develop very quickly once in practice!\nAnother interesting case came in on Thursday - a year old foal needed emergency surgery on a hernia. As luck would have it it was our first relatively quiet morning for a few weeks so we had enough vets on hand to do the surgery and anaesthetic. The Op went well and the horse has gone home this weekend.\nI've been on second call this weekend and things have been busy but not unmanageable. I did 2 Belgian Blue Caesareans in the space of six hours on one farm yesterday but since then it's just been a reasonable stream of calls rather than the madness of two weekends ago.\n\nDiary 58\nFollowing my going up on a course on neurology a few weeks ago a case came up this week. It's not often that we see neurological cases so it's quite a coincidence. I think it must have some kind of tumour in its brain causing it to show the various signs it has. Unfortunately the only way to firmly diagnose this is by post mortem, which is how most neurological cases end up and, alas, I fear this one will too.\nI went to do a fertility check at one of our dairy farms on Tuesday. The vet he normally has was away and he looked a bit put out when I turned up. I think (hope) I managed not to abort any of his cows and he seemed very cheery by the time I left. I suppose it's understandable that farmers tend to want continuity with which vet comes. Work continues to be very busy. An indication in the increase in daily workload is that we've had to introduce a specific messages book at work as there's no longer room to write people messages in the day book as it so full with appointments. They used to be a few days in the year when both pages of the day book were full (the first day of FMD in Penrith had one call) but this week 4 days have been full. It's got to be a good sign really and as I think I've said before, it does stop us all from getting bored!\nI've had three days off over Easter (Friday - Sunday) and two friends and their two mad dogs have been to stay (my cats were not impressed). On Good Friday we went up Plaice Fell. I accidentally brought us down a much more direct route than I intended so we had to while away some time in the garden of the Patterdale Hotel. Life's hard! Yesterday we left the bank holiday crowds in the lakes and went for a walk in the Eden Valley - didn't see a soul. It's amazing the difference a few miles can make. I suppose it hasn't got the hills and isn't as famous, but the scenery is still pretty impressive. But let's not tell anyone and then it might stay quiet on bank holidays….\n\nDiary 59\nI was on duty on Easter Monday but it wasn't too hectic - in fact it was almost unbelievably quiet. There were three of us on duty bracing ourselves for the usual spring onslaught and we only had about two calls each to do all morning. Weird how it sometimes turns out like that. Lambing is definitely quietening down now. The 5-10 lambings coming in each day is turning into 2-3. It's mostly fell sheep lambing now which tend to be easier to lamb so few are in need our/farmer’s assistance.\nIt's starting to get into the horse castration season. We've had the odd one or two over the last few weeks but have had about five this week one of my colleagues, who is next up from me in terms of experience, and I have started doing them together whereas a few years ago after it would always have been at least one of the partners and one of us. We must be improving!\nTB testing seems to have calmed down a bit too. As a practice we’re pretty much up to date with it and as farmers start to turn their cows out they'll become more reluctant to do it. With the way it’s spreading in the county though we have to try to keep up-to-date with it or it really is going to get out of hand.\nI've had this weekend off. It was my sister's birthday yesterday so I went to meet her and my folks for lunch. We sat outside and enjoyed the April sun - very nice it was too. Farmers are all wanting rain (you don't hear that often in April) but the sun suits me fine. What are the odds on it bucketing down in June during silage time??!\n\nDiary 60\nOne of our big dairy farms had had a big outbreak of IBR this week, one of the main respiratory viruses. On the whole it doesn’t cause death and is normally containable. On this occasion however it seems to have been a virulent strain and has caused a number of deaths and a great deal of lost production in terms of lost milk and calves not thriving. Towards the end of the week I went and shot three cows which were terminally affected. Seeing three dead and bleeding cows in the yard obviously reminded the farmer (and me) of when he had the whole herd shot in the same place for FMD, and he had then moved out of sight very quickly. I think the worst of the outbreak is over now and all the cows have been vaccinated.\nThere's only one vet more junior/qualified for less time than me in the practice who started a year or so ago. This week we went to do a colt castrate together - one surgeon, one as anaesthetist - for the first time. We've both done a lot with other vets but this was the first time we've been let loose as a pair. Everything went very smoothly so it looks as though our boss's confidence/Trust wasn't totally misplaced. On Friday morning I had a big dehorning session for one of our beef farmers. It's fairly non-cerebral type work but is OK for a change every now and then. And the farmer is a pretty amenable sort of guy (more than could be said for the weather) so it was a fairly laid-back morning's work. I had the afternoon off and drove up to Edinburgh where there was a bit of a reunion for recent graduates from the vet college. There were a lot of people haven't seen for a long time and it was interesting to compare notes on what we were all up to.\n\nDiary 61\nAfter last weekend in Edinburgh I had to come back to work on bank Holiday Monday. It was fairly manageable on the whole. There were three of us on duty in the morning when the work was steady without ever getting too hectic. I was on first call after 1pm when the surgery closed and it remained fairly quiet until the evening when there was a sudden run of calls, but they came in one after the other rather than building up too much.\nOn Tuesday I did the 60 day re-test of the second herd of cattle that I had previously found a reactor in. It’s a big herd and it took all day to get it done. They’ve been a bit unfortunate and brought in several other diseases apart from the suspected TB, when they re-stocked. One of these, an enteric condition called Johnes disease, is a chronic wasting problem and is notoriously difficult to eradicate. It’ll take years  of blood-testing and careful record-keeping to get rid of it.\nIt’s frustrating for them as all the planning for the post-FMD period has been disrupted. The TB test showed up no reactors this time but 3 cows were inconclusive results and will have to be re-tested. This is almost certainly as a result of the cows carrying antibodies to avian TB which causes no signs of disease in cows but disrupts the bovine TB test. It’s a good example of why we badly need a more specific method for testing for TB. It’s being worked on at the moment and hopefully we’ll get one one day.\nThe senior partner at work is supervising another vet who is doing the same equine qualification that I’m enrolled for. On Wednesday he came to spend a day with Neil to do some equine anaesthetics. They were mainly castrates so I operated while Neil went through the anaesthetics with his student. It was very useful to hear it all in detail again – it’s all too easy to get into the habit of knowing which drugs work at what dosages and not actually really thinking about why they work or why they’re better than other drugs we could use. A useful day but it has made me realise I’ve got a lot to do over the next few years!\n\nDiary 62\nThings are still remaining very busy at work, lambing has pretty much finished now but the work doesn't seem to be easing. The partners have decided we need another vet to help things along - a final-year student from Edinburgh came for an interview this week and it looks as though he'll get the job. It will mean that the rota will improve and hopefully will not be quite as hectic when he starts.\nFollowing the fantastically dry spring it's now too wet for the farmers and they are tearing their hair out about how the first cut of silage is going to be gathered in dry. Hopefully we'll get a dry spell again soon to ease their worries.\nI found a potential case to write up for my Equine casebook this week. It's a mare that managed to get caught up in wire and tear a big hole in the shin of her lower leg. It's too big a defect to stitch so it'll have to heal with a lot of bandaging and perhaps some skin grafts. It always amazes me how horses managed to give themselves the most horrendous injuries been fields where there really doesn't seem to be any opportunity for it. Clumsiness perhaps? Maybe they just enjoy pain (I doubt it).\nWe're doing quite a bit of scanning of mares for pregnancy at the moment. It's another thing that I've been doing more of this year than in the past. It's a bit daunting at times but as with a lot of things it's really a case of practising it as much as possible. By the end of the stud season it’ll hopefully be fairly straightforward.\nI drove down to Oxford on Friday evening after work to see my sister/cousins/ friends who live down there. It seemed a longish drive but it was well worth it to catch up with them all. One of the things about working weekends is that it makes weekends off that much more appreciated\n\nDiary 63\nAfter a very pleasant weekend off I had a truly delightful first job on Monday morning. A cow had been losing weight for the last month also - the reason I found was that it had a very dead calf inside which I then spent the first hour of the week pulling out bone by bone. It was a fairly revolting job but wasn't actually something that I especially resented doing. Must mean I'm happy in my work. Or perhaps just a bit weird?\nI had another fairly grim job later in the week when I was called out at 4 a m. to a foaling. The foal was stuck half out and was dead by the time I got there. I eventually managed to get the foal out and initially the mare seemed OK but deteriorated over the next 48 hours and eventually had to be euthanased. That’s just the way it goes sometimes.\nA more successful case came later in the week when I saw a foal that was acutely lame. It looked at first as though it might have an infected elbow but after taking samples of the joint fluid and some X-rays it looked as though it was actually a traumatic injury. It stayed it in the hospital for four days during which time it seemed to improve quite a bit. It's a thoroughbred from a good racing line - hopefully with a rest it’ll make a full recovery and win the Grand National in 2008.\nI had the whole of the Bank Holiday weekend off. Six college friends came to stay for a weekend of Cumbrian fresh-air. After a pretty gloomy forecast the weather turned out very well and we all went for a Lake District walk each day and had a pretty relaxed time. Except for my cats - four dogs also came to stay, which didn't impress the cats who spent the whole time hiding in my room.\n\nDiary 64\nThis week started with a TB test for a small re-stocking herd. He had bought some cattle from a farm that subsequently tested positive for TB. One of the cattle from that farm had then tested positive on his farm so this week's test was a 60 day re-test. It was an all-clear this time which was obviously a relief for them. Seeing as there was a positive on the farm last time they probably have to have another test in 60 days from now before restrictions are lifted. This farm isn't very big so being under TB restrictions is awkward but not as crippling as it is the larger farms. There is no room for relaxing the rules at the moment though. The recent news from Ireland that says they think they've proved a link with badgers makes it even more important to get it out of Cumbria before it gets into wildlife (although it may well already be too late).\nIn between the two testing days this week I seemed to do a lot of horse cases. On Wednesday I spent most of the day touring around Cumbria seeing horses in Wigton, Cockermouth and Bassenthwaite. It was a sunny day and was a very pleasant way to spend the day - great scenery to look at, outside when not driving and cases going the way I was hoping - not a bad way to work!\nI've been on call this weekend and it's been very quiet (so far). Yesterday was steady with a reasonable number of calls but none stacking up. I've done 2 cattle Caesareans on the same farm this weekend - one yesterday morning which seemed like a huge calf until the one I did this morning which was truly a freak. It was the biggest calf I or the farmer had seen and is the result of selecting for extreme confirmation in beef breeds. It does pose serious welfare issues for the cows as they cannot give birth naturally and have to have fairly major abdominal surgery instead. We’ll never persuade farmers of this though as the consumer wants cheaper food and cheaper beef is made through bigger beef calves. It does seem tough on the cows though. Or am I being too cynical?\n\nDiary 65\nI thought it was interesting to see how much people still are willing to talk about some of 2001 at the meeting on Wednesday night. While a lot of the conversation was routed around the subjects you had come up with over the last 18 months, it often came back to talk of events and individual experiences during the outbreak itself. These stories must have been told on dozens of occasions but people still want to tell them if the right time/opportunity comes up (myself included).\nThere were so many themes that you have all come up with on the "electronic tags" sheet that it seems impossible to comment on them all. Some of them seem very relevant to me, others not so much. Trust is a category that comes up under a couple of headings. One of the headings it is under is "knowledge". I think this has been one of the most significant changes since FMD as far as the farmer/vet relationship is concerned. DEFRA has gone from being eyed with some suspicion to overt distrust and resentment. On a whole we don't get too much flack as veterinary GPs but when we have to do DEFRA allocated jobs, such as TB testing, there is sometimes a general feeling of it being another task to try to wear them down being sent by the authorities. Another regulation that has caused huge resentment is the whole animal movement licensing system. It is much easier now and causes fewer problems but a year or so ago it was the source of much stress. We had to try to act as intermediary between farmers and DEFRA and keep both sides happy. The damage done to the farmer/DEFRA Trust will take a long time (if ever) to start to repair. Hopefully, by trying to be more "on their side" than DEFRA seem to be, the trust they have in us has been preserved.\nIt's been a quietish week at work - maybe because there's been a bit of silaging going on so the farmers haven't got time for routine work. It's about time we were a bit quieter. The summer lull hasn't materialised at all yet this year. In fact we’re taking on another vet to ease the workload (did I mention this last week??). In the meantime it's nice to have time to draw breath and enjoy the sun for a day or two!\n\nDiary 66\nThis week seems to have gone by a pretty quickly. Maybe it's because I'm on holiday next week and the thought of it is spurring me on! I fly to Split tomorrow for a week of sailing on the Croatian coast with a college friend and some relatives. It'll be a change from Cumbria!\nOne of our big dairy farmers was away in Thailand this week. The farm was left to be run by his usual workers and his brother and mother. Despite this he felt he had to take his mobile phone with him, and he was rung twice during the week to be asked what should be done with a couple of sick cows. I suppose this either demonstrates extreme dedication or an inability to forget about work. Or both. But then again it also shows how committed a lot of farmers are and that it's not just a job to them. As farms get bigger the concept of all the cows being individually known to the farmer or being his "friends" becomes increasingly unrealistic, but in the majority of cases they’re not just milk making machines and are cared for pretty well. It's not hard to see why it was so hard for people to lose their herds.\nAfter being a bit quieter at work last week it suddenly seems to have become very hectic at work again this week. There haven't been any particularly time-consuming jobs, just lots of sick cows, horse calls and the usual mix of animal ailments. It's better to be busy than quiet though. I think I need a holiday (and I'll keep my phone switched off).\n\nDiary 67\nA week off work to go sailing in Croatia - Easy life. After meeting up with the boat and the rest of the group in Starigrad we sailed to Vis into a fairly direct head wind so it took quite a bit of tacking and was a bit of a rough ride. I also very stupidly underdid the sunscreen and managed to burn my back. Very careless, but it got less uncomfortable as the week went on. We spent two nights in Vis harbour as the others who had already been sailing for a week wanted a rest. It used to be a military island and there were definite signs of this around although it is obviously developing a now rapidly-growing tourist trade. After Vis it was off to Hvar, where we anchored in a small inlet a few miles from the town. After a night there we went to Hvar town for a look around - the castle on the hill was very impressive and the town still feels as though it is relatively unspoilt at the moment.\nThe last couple of days were spent making our way slowly back to Split. We actually spent the last two days in Split as there was a strong northerly wind brewing up which would have been a bit rough to be out in. My uncle who was the skipper on board has been to Croatia for the last three years - he said it was very noticeably more busy this year. It seems a shame to spoil it with more tourist facilities, but we all contributed to them being built by going there. Hopefully it won't be too dramatically changed.\n\nDiary 68\nThis week started at 9am Monday with a TB test at one of the most "basic" (run-down?) farms we go to. It was the first time I'd been there in three and a half years of working here - so they don't make huge use of our veterinary services. One of their bullocks was 7½  years old! When I casually asked about what plans they had for it seeing as he had missed the 30 months cut-off time for human consumption I was told it was just kept as a friend for the bull! The test was very slow as the cattle handling facilities were not the best on the planet. They were very pleasant people to talk to and it soon became apparent that they had very little time for DEFRA (nothing unusual there). The son was one of the people who had had his firearms confiscated after making threats at the start of FM D.  They still felt resentful about the way the police became involved and the way they were ultimately given no choice as to who came on to their farm to check their stock. Fortunately all the cattle were negative for TB so there was no need to further add to their distrust of DEFRA by putting them under more restriction.\nThe rest of the week has been fairly steady. There's been enough going on to keep us busy without ever being frantic. The horse I saw last week with a neurological problem has become a bit worse so has gone to Edinburgh vet school to see one of the neurologists up there (he seemed fairly confused by it as well, which I have to say I found quite reassuring!)\nThe weekend was a bit on the strenuous side - a cousin who is a keen cyclist persuaded me it was a good idea to do a big Cumbrian/Yorkshire bike ride. We went from Penrith to Alston to Barnard Castle, to Tan Hill (refreshments) to Kirkby-Stephen to Penrith on Saturday. And then recovered on Sunday. It seemed like a good idea at the time but I am really feeling it now!\n\nDiary 69\nLooking back at some of the quotes in the "Recovery" section of the notes from a meeting it's noticeable how easy it is to forget (or at least not have in one's mind) how much it affected a lot people. It's almost hard to remember how much I was affected by it - I know that there were some very unpleasant tasks such as supervising slaughters, and day-to-day work was often very frustrating when we felt people overseeing our work from offices didn't really know what it was like in the field, but I feel now that on the whole once work was finished life pretty much went on. Maybe this isn't actually a true reflection of how it was and it's just that some of the detailed memories are fading - often things don't seem as bad as they actually were when you look back on them. I know plenty of clients, colleagues and friends whose lives were completely overtaken by FMD so perhaps mine was more than I remember, but I also feel that most of the people who I remember as being heavily affected are now more-or-less completely over it. \nOne of the farms I went to this week lost a son in a road accident about two months after getting FMD. I think the farmer was ready to give up everything after that. Apparently he left the cleaning up of his farm and took no interest in anything. Time obviously helped him - he's been back milking again for that (sic) last year and a half. There are still changes though - he seems very much quieter and more laid back now. If a cow isn't in calf or things don't go quite right he doesn't seem to get stressed now, as he once would have done. Work has been a bit quieter this week, which we would expect at this time of year. One of our farms has put some pedigree Belgian blue embryos into some Limousin cross heifers and they're starting to calve now - they all need Caesar's as the calves are almost as big as the heifers that produce them. The only thing to be said for it is that we can do them at a sensible time of day rather than at two in the morning as we know when they’re due.\n\nDiary 70\nOne of the five categories you raised at the meetings last month was trauma and one of the subsections on the chart was "sounds/smells/visions". Sights are probably the most frequent reminder of FMD now - there are certain bits of road that have memories, for example driving north on the M6 just south of Penrith it was possible to count smoke plumes from about 20 pyres at one stage. On fine days it always reminds me of it when I drive that stretch. One farm has the remains of a pyre that was started to be built but never finished. Even things like driving across two lines of tar across a road which once held down a disinfectant mat. People who didn't live here at the time wouldn't even notice them but it seems quite significant to the rest of us. It doesn't really bother me, but just is a reminder of what went on. At other times it seems odd how quickly things have gone back to normal. - even something as simple as a road with mud or animal muck on it. In 2001 that would have stuck out like a sore thumb and would have warranted urgent action.  Now I'm used to driving a dirty car (I do clean it sometimes) and having some roads caked in dirt. It's difficult to imagine how the farmers kept them clean two years ago. (But they did). \nObviously there are other reminders (people never tire of talking about it), but it's the day-to-day visions and places that are most regular.\nWork has been a bit quieter this week. I did it a Caesar on a cow which had a truly ridiculously enormous calf. We need to move away from breeding continental beef breeds and go back to nice compact Jersey's or Aberdeen Anguses! I also saw an unusual neurological case in a horse. It's very uncoordinated and has poor balance. It's the kind of case where brain/spinal scan would be useful, but those facilities aren't really available for horses! It will be interesting to see how it goes over the next few days. \n\nDiary 71\nThe last diary! The 18 months seem to have gone by quickly. Things seem so much back to how they were that it's odd to think back to what was going on when we first started writing them. I think we were pretty much in the swing of doing restocking checks and doing endless blood sampling of sheep. The last restocking checks I did were only 16 months ago - it seems far longer. Although I say things are back to how they were I'm sure there are actually a lot of differences, it's just that I don't notice them because I'm used to how things are now. The practice has become a lot busier. By October we’ll be up to nine full-time and two part-time vets. Pre FMD we were seven full-time and two part-time. Some of the increase is Equine and small animal, but most of it is in farm practice. Part of this is directly linked to FMD (eg more TB testing due to re-stocking tests, and re-stocking having brought TB into the county). Other factors aren't so obvious but are unquestionably FMD related - most restocked farmers went back with more stock than they originally had, so overall there is greater density of stock around. More animals means more sick animals which means more calls for the vet. It's a shame in some ways to see the small traditional farms being forced out, but it's hard to see how they can manage as margins get smaller and larger neighbours get more stock and more land. FMD was a way out for several of the smaller farms - all have been bought up by neighbours with none being sold as single units. \nAs I've said in recent weeks, this time of year is usually quiet - it has become a bit less frantic recently but the traditional summer lull hasn't materialised. \nI've been a vet for four years. The last three have been just about as interesting and challenging as they could have been - both professionally and socially from the point of view of living in Penrith. Obviously FMD had devastating effects on thousands of people, many of whom are my friends. On the whole I see very few residual scars - it  is still talked about, but less and less as time goes on. More than one farmer has actually said that they think in hindsight it was a very good thing for them. I'm not sure I could ever say that as it brought too much stress and sadness for too many people, but if it had happened, I think (very much with the benefit of hindsight) I’m glad that I had the chance to be involved with it from the start and through the recovery.\n\n
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1966\nGender: F\nOccupation: Group 6\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\n\n\nDiary 1\nMonday was the usual long hard grind. I accept that I have to put in 10 – 12 hours and I don’t mind doing the work because it’s not physically or mentally taxing but I do hate not having a lunch break, just that little bit of selfish time to site, have a cigarette, take the dogs down the river, see the horses…whatever. I do resent that fact that W (one of the bosses) almost always gets a lunch hour. B (the other boss) has gone up tremendously in my opinion for the way that he gets on with the work. He starts early, finishes late, hates DERFA paperwork and rarely complains. It is definitely grinding them down because they work like that at least 4 days a week. It has been a huge advantage this last year being part-time at work. My days off obviously aren’t my own as they used to be, but I do get away from the phone and the demands of clients. Some of our clients are very selfish and I hadn’t noticed before. They seem to think they are the only ones that have hassles with DEFRA. I remember saying to one (complaining about problems with licensing) that he was lucky to have problems with only one licence. The first day that movement licenses came out we applied for 26 and received the explanatory notes from DEFRA on how to complete the paperwork 4 days later.\nAnyway managed to do three final visits and complete most of the paperwork before 9pm. Kirkby Stephen was buzzing today – the auction reopened for a cattle sale. The main street was full of shiny farmers with fish and chips and the back lane was full of shiny (some new) Land Rovers and trailers (trailers mostly new).\nIn fact MC told me that as soon as he heard his bloods had come back clear (restocking) he washed and changed and went to the mart. He said it was the first time he had felt clean since the day they were infected – he felt ok to go among other farmers. He surprised me because he is so easy going – he takes all in his stride. But he still says FMD is not as terrible as testicular cancer – and he’s right.\nAD was one of the other final visits – he doesn’t give a bugger about anything. Happy to become a flower power farmer – he doesn’t care much about his sheep as individuals, they are just numbers. Just as well because in the batch he bought from Wales the sheep have more legs than teeth – I can’t see them lasting long. Pissed off because I missed Bryan Adams concert in Newcastle – couldn’t finish in time to join the bus. The rest of the lassies had a brilliant time, and at least Tracey benefited from my ticket.\nHad to go back in to work the next day to finish my DEFRA reports and fax them off. Went to playgroup to talk about pets. Took my dog (lurcher) and [child’s] rabbit (dodgy combination). Very few of the kids seemed to have pets of their own. A lot of them referred to Granddad’s dogs or Uncles cat. When I left college the pet population was increasing, what’s going to happen in the next 15 years?\n[Sister] phoned, worried about her horse, he has haematuria. I’m worried that he has a tumour. I feel very far away and helpless when things like this happen even though she only lives in Yorkshire. I’m sure I could help her whatever the outcome if we lived closer. In fact I think I miss my family more now than I ever have. I don’t know if it’s my age, or the thought that M is over 60, or that I didn’t see them much at all last year, or just because I have [son] now and can understand how mothers/families feel. I miss [sisters] but I still don’t phone them much – I always think they’ll be busy. I can talk to Mam three or four times a week for half an hour at a time without thinking twice. She must get fed up hearing me go on and on about work etc, but she loves hearing all about every tiny detail of [son’s] antics and achievements.\nWill broached the subject of a partnership again. I don’t know what to think. It’s the obvious thing to do and a few years ago I would have taken his hand off for even 10 or 20%. I’m just not as excited about it as I should be. And what would change? Will I be better off? Will I be a better vet? Or will I spend too much time of figures and paperwork. Will I become ‘more commercially aware’? Do I want to change? Can I be bothered with the extra hassle? They are ok, they have a career and a wife, I’m trying to do both (sometimes badly).\n\nDiary 2\nMonday’s are shite! It starts off busy and gets worse – why can’t we do time management a bit better. It did look as if we might finish around 6.30 at one stage in the afternoon. Then I was called out to a calf. I didn’t really need a visit at 6pm at night. W said, ‘never mind, you’ll be picking [son] up anyway (the childminder lives on the next door farm) - he hasn’t got a clue! If I picked [son] up he would be at Ange’s for about 8 hours – I feel guilty enough that he’s away for about 8 hours. [Partner] always picks him up about 5.30 and has to cope (which he does well) until I get home. But it’s hard work for both of us after a full day at work, and [partner] is usually knackered and ready for peace and quiet when he gets home – not a tired hungry wee lad.\nAnyway, I ended up having a farm tour that night. [farmer] was so proud of his new pedigree Belgian Blues and his new shed. He’s been lucky to get most of his commercial stock from his father so he has an idea of their past history. He’s a nice lad and he was producing some stunning beef calves before he was taken out, at least he’s young enough to get going again. He hasn’t said much about loosing his stock so I haven’t asked. I had a chat to his aunt one day and she was very upset, and that upsets me. I hate when people get emotional like that, I start filling up myself. \nI got back to find a sheep caesarean still to do. Waste of time. Premature lambs all born alive (3) and all dead before I finished stitching the uterus. And to put the tin hat on the day my assistant was the mother who prattled about nothing much all the way through the op. She does my head in, she is a century away from me in her outlook but I still come away feeling that I am the one who has got it all wrong. Maybe I should have dinner on the table and shirts ironed etc. I don’t want to be like her though and I can’t even sympathise with her even though they lost all their sheep. I’m sure she must have taken it badly but I don’t think she would ever let her feelings show in public – something about the way she spoke suggested that she was forcing herself to put a brave face and look forward – probably for her own son’s sake.\nWatched ‘Rural Lives’ again on Tuesday. CR came over well I though. I couldn’t help but snigger when the slaughter team were discussing one of our clients – she made the kids carry away the dead piglets after they’d been slaughtered – them team thought that was terrible but I knew the kids – they all help on the farm, they know that their pigs go to kill, the family even started their own little slaughter house and cutting plant before FMD. I don’t think those kids would be horrified. Sad maybe. We all felt sad over the last year, sad for the healthy animals culled, more sad for the people caught up in the mess. One disease where the cure is worse! Mostly though I get angry when I hear or talk about FMD. I get angry because DEFRA let us all down, the politicians got too closely involved, nothing happened fast enough. We didn’t seem to be able to do anything. We knew very little and struggled to get reliable information. I still get wound up thinking about it all. We were marginalised by DEFRA. I felt as if it was us and the farmers versus DERFA – not all three groups versus FMD. The rumours that abounded just magnified the feelings. We talked at length about FMD, DEFRA, etc. within the practice and with our clients but I could still talk about it all day even now. So many things are unresolved. I have lost faith in DEFRA, especially since they changed their name, no A for agriculture now; and I’m glad I have been ignorant of politics for so long – there have been few shining lights in the government. I’m heartily sick of authority interfering and regulating stuff that’s going along quite nicely. Let them interfere with stuff that’s doing harm – bad farmers need a shake up, sheep dealers  need to think more about animal welfare but the way things are going the good guys that toe the line will end up following all the rules and regulations set up to sort out the bad guys – and will they bother?\n\nDiary 3\nPossibly the best bit of the week was Sunday when I eventually (after 13 months) got back on my horse. Only 15 minutes but it was nerve wracking. I thought she might just throw me off, and I was so tense (actually we both were) I felt as if I had forgotten how to ride. I stayed in the field thinking it would be safer but the other two horses were flying about to annoy us. I’m so frustrated that I haven’t been able to get her fit for the start of the endurance season. There’s no way we’d be able to go to the first ride at Ullswater, and there’s only one other in Cumbria this year (due to FMD). Who would have thought that we would still be curtailed by FMD more than a year on? \n(The young horse) was very interested in saddle and bridle so I put them on him and he was ok. At first he was frightened to move at all but then he realised it was ok. On Monday I had a strange request to go and hold an old pony for the knacker to shoot. The owner’s just didn’t want to be around. It was a lovely morning so I led her out for a bite of grass before he arrived. She could barely manage to breathe and swallow at the same time. I can’t believe how the tumours have taken hold of her since the turn of the year. Mr A couldn’t tell his wife the diagnosis initially because she hadn’t got over losing the few pedigree sheep they had. It’s taking some people a long time to get over the loss. I think it’s easier to get over losing an animal if you have more than one – it helps to keep you focussed on the living rather than the dead – and farmers haven’t been able to get restarted when they were ready to because of all the C & D requirements. Anyway, the knacker man told some good tales. There’s been some nutters about shooting animals, some even had their guns taken off them. Poor lad was given a day’s notice at the knackey and was part of a slaughter team after that so he was only paid his normal wage which the boss collected at the DEFRA rate for them all, it was good talking to him probably because I don’t really know him. I didn’t feel that I would upset him because he wasn’t like a client who had lost animals. Sometimes it’s hard to know what to say if people get upset; sometimes it’s enough to listen.\nOne of the most awkward situations I found myself in was talking to a farmer who lost no stock but he was so depressed he started crying. The cows I had gone to see ‘should have gone last year, then we wouldn’t have had these problems’. He also has been unable to sell sheep so the farm was completely overstocked, overgrazed and had little silage left.\nI couldn’t understand why he was still overstocking when he could have sold sheep and cattle for restocking or for slaughter quite easily in the last few months. Maybe he just couldn’t face the hassle of getting licences, or maybe he’s just too far down to think straight. I usually mention that sort of thing to B and W because I think it’s important that everyone in the practice knows what’s happening, not just with out patients but also with our clients.\n\nDiary 4\nI had the honour of completing the FINAL final visit today, and it was one of my neighbours in Soulby. No more surveillance visits!! Poor Lol couldn’t find his DEFRA paperwork, and while he was looking through his files he found copies of his valuation report with all his old cows on – I think it brought it all back. He’s trying hard to move on, I could understand him being bitter since his whole (very good) milking herd was taken as a DC. I think he may have survived because the infection was half a mile away from his cows but the IP land joined. I watched them load all his cows into coal wagons on s Saturday afternoon. In fact it was midnight when the last de-tox wagon left. How can they be clean if I can’t even get my wellies clean in the dark?\nHow he’s worrying about his new cows coming from Holland. He thinks it’s a long way for them to travel but he can’t wait for them to arrive – unlike his wife who thinks that all this restocking is going too fast. I felt apprehensive too about a fortnight ago, but the feeling is subsiding. The day to day normality of work is returning. Sheep are permitted to visit the surgery for treatment so we have had a much more normal March than we’d had last year, even though there are still thousands of sheep missing from the practice.\nFarmers are still bringing in lambs. The value of stock is obviously not their prime concern – ‘where there’s life there’s hope’. We wouldn’t see ewes or lambs at all if the cost of treatment versus the animal’s value was weighed. I was worried that we would have a flare up around lambing time. There’s a chance that some of the fell sheep were exposed to FMD – and there’s a risk of virus recrudescence at times of stress, so I was thinking that if we made it through lambing then we’d definitely be ok. The weather has cheered me up this week. Everybody smiles more when it’s sunny. Its tempting to think my days at home are holidays when the weathers so nice!!\n\nDiary 5\nI forgot about April Fools Day for the first time ever. We were so busy at work, and it was more of a Bank Holiday than anything else. I do resent working Bank Holidays – but Monday is my day to be on call. B did offer to do some of the day but he had a caesarean on a cow, a lambing at 1.30 am and another call at 6 am so he’d be knackered enough – and they pay me for a day’s work so its only fair that I give a days work.\nWhen the phone rang early Tuesday and I felt as if I’d only been in bed 2 hours I was regretting not passing on the night duty – a Belgian Blue calving – CAESARIAN mentally checked my kit in the car while driving to KS. Definitely caesarean. They shouldn’t breed from these cows until they’re more mature. We’re getting loads of bother with the new stock – never mind its proper veterinary work. Anyway the heifer was a right bag. Started off lying down so I doped her but she got up after we got the calf out and then tried to lye down on the wound – peritonitis to follow no doubt. I warned the farmer and we were all very calm about it – maybe none of us were really awake!! So that made [partner] late for work as he was left ‘holding the baby’ and I was well late setting off to see my sister [sister]. [sister] didn’t mind and [partner]’s bosses said it was ok but I still felt guilty.\nHad a great time at [sister’s] – did a bit of touristy stuff and found a really nice book for mam’s birthday, by Mrs Herdie who used to holiday near home. Mam has a watercolour by her but this book is all wildflowers. [Other sister] phoned to say [horse] is worse. I think [sister] and I both wanted to go to Yorkshire when we heard how upset she was. [Sisters] are so close (being twins) but I can understand what [sister]’s going through with a horse on death’s door. She didn’t want us to go (she said) so we drank too much red wine instead and watched the start of Papillon (good film). I was too knackered though; my stamina gives out a lot sooner under the influence of alcohol.\nMam’s birthday was a queer day. It’s rare that I get the chance to spend time with any of my siblings at home and we had a lovely day apart from the fact that we were all waiting to hear what was going to happen with [sister]. She phoned to say he’d been put down, bladder tumour. I think it must be pretty rare. She still said we shouldn’t go down. [sister] could have easily gone (and Mam) because Lynxes on school hols (jammy teacher!). I stayed on till quite late because both my brother and stepfather wanted to see [son] – he was so excited to see them, sometimes he just makes us all laugh.\nI had a depressing start to the day back at work – just over a month ago I amputated a dog’s leg. The leg was fractured over 6 months ago, appeared to heal and then suddenly worsen. We suspected a bone infection but she didn’t respond to treatment so I x-rayed her again and it looked like a bone tumour. She did well after the operation until last week when she developed a hard knobbly swelling near her shoulder and her lungs were infiltrated. I felt so sad for her and the family. She was a lovely placid and very brave dog and it is just so unfair. I don’t want to give up on these cases and I feel that euthanasia is a poor treatment in this case, I so wanted her to have a couple more years. I never would have put her or the family through a ghastly op like amputation if I had known that she would get so little benefit. The farmer’s son (who worked the dog until she retired) was conspicuous by his absence – he’s rebuilding the milking parlour ready to restock so his sister did the honours and came to help me.\nHad to switch to party mode – [son’s] 2nd birthday. The sandpit was a roaring success, as was the trike and cake from Grandma and Granddad. We had a super relaxing day (mostly outdoors). This weather makes life a lot easier, I couldn’t have coped with all those little boys inside!\nEscaped to the horses at Asby to take water. It’s so peaceful up there. I’ve really missed being able to go up there this last year – there’s still yellow tape on my gate and I don’t even have livestock! I wonder who they (DEFRA) thought the field belongs to? Should get out riding this next week with a bit of luck and a bit of spare time. I think I’ll have to shelve the plans to show the Arabs, I haven’t got started soon enough.\n\nDiary 6\nOur new vet started this week. Bright, young, enthusiastic and full of new ideas. I feel very out of touch. I didn’t go on any CPD courses last year, for most of the year I felt as if we were unclean, and I was so tired with working such long days it seemed too much hard work to organise extra childcare etc. to allow me to go away for more than a day. I feel out of touch generally though and a lot of it has to do with working part-time.\nBig day on Wednesday, [son’s] 1st morning at Biggins Nursery. I think my new hobby is worrying!! Am I doing the right thing setting off on new (extra and expensive) childcare arrangements? I think I feel guilty because it’s for my benefit, not for extra work. It’s now going to cost me an extra £7.50 to ride my horse on a Wednesday! But I am starting to break [horse] in as well and I can’t handle a 4 year old horse with a 2 year old boy around. Anyway the nursery seemed a big hit and I had my first ride out on Ashby fell. I actually went over the track to the Dowly tree instead of on the road. She (the horse) was quite anxious leading the other two, and a bit excited to be out in the open space of the fell – so was I. There seems to be just one lot of fell sheep on there – they must be H’s I think. Nobody else has started to heft sheep up there yet. The ‘dowly tree’ will be looking sad and lonely for a bit longer.\nI have missed being up on that fell so much. Margaret Little asking if we’re going to the village hall quiz on Friday – probably not because we’re going out for a meal for [partner]’s birthday. Felt guilty about not supporting village activities and started justifying myself to her. I hate it though when people use FMD to make you feel bad. She kept saying how few ‘does’ there were last year, how nice it is for all the village to get together etc. – all true but I can’t get babysitters and nights off to do everything and [partner] is way more important than the village quiz. He put up with such a lot of shite last year and never complained – far too tolerant!\nWe had a lovely meal on the Friday night. [son] slept out at T’s for the first time in ages but I couldn’t have a lie in because of the judge’s course for the Arab Horse Society. I really enjoyed it – it was arranged for last year but had to be postponed due to FMD – it was worth waiting for and I couldn’t have gone last year even if it had been on. Went to see [sister] and [sister’s boyfriend] on Sunday. Seemed to spend all day being fed (she’s like Mam!). [Son] took a real shine to [sister’s boyfriend] which entertained us all. She seems to be coping ok with [horse]’s demise. Martin has cleaned up one of his shoes and mounted it with a plaque – he’s very thoughtful.\n\nDiary 7\nI have decided that I am happy on dry days when I can ride or work my horses, [son] and I can get outside to play and then he’s happier and people who come into work are more smiley on good days too. [son] and I went to a birthday party this week. He had a brilliant time but I felt very out of place. Everybody else was immaculately dressed and made up while [son] and I had to rush back from having a bonfire to burn all the old hay in Musgrave field to quickly wash and change. I’d rather have carried on tidying up the field, it’s still a real mess and at least I have the grass seed now. It had better grow, the price it was!!\nI was really pleased with [horse] on Wednesday. He’s coming on quite nicely with his lunging now, he seems to be quite amenable. Dental appointment on Friday – I hope my dentist never retires – I don’t think they make dentists that are more interested in people and their teeth than money any more. I always have a good chat to him so we carried on our discussion about my working conditions, comparing them to his sons etc. (he’s a vet too). He was quite surprised when I told him about the partnership talks. Last time I had a good heart to heart it was after the threatened redundancy. It’s no wonder I feel confused about the future at times. Nearly 2 years ago when I was on maternity leave they thought they might have to make me redundant. Now they want to release a bit of capital and take things easier they want me to buy in!! This time last year I didn’t know if [partner] or I would have a job!! Now I have to decide to commit myself to at least 20 more years as a vet.\nWent out with girls from work to a 40th. Didn’t really want to go but of course we had a great time once we got there. I think I have got out of the habit of evenings out. Still can’t get used to the freedom the mobile phone gives us, and spend all the time checking that there’s enough signal/battery etc. Had a hell of a hangover – too much draught coke. Hell it’s worse than cider!\n\nDiary 8\nThe shit is hitting the fan. We’re having problems with some imported Dutch heifers. We were waiting for this, especially on this particular farm. The management’s not the best and the father takes more advice from his feed merchant than us vets. There is obviously a viral infection going through the heifers and Farmer B presumed they were already vaccinated (no documentation). They are also showing signs of gastro-intestinal upset which could be management. Oh hell why did he buy 80 first calvers. Nobody would willingly put themselves under that stress. [New vet) is interested but B and W are obviously trying to keep their distance. They’ve been embroiled in herd problems on this farm before.\nI am now obviously the senior vet in charge of this problem and I’m not even at work every day. It’s too much for [new vet] to cope with and the farmer will get pissed off soon and I bet it’s us that catch the flak!\nCheered myself up with 1½ hours of R & R with the horses on Wednesday. Lovely day. Rode down onto the common but it was hard work as the other two horses were shouting for daisy all the time I was out on her. [horse] decided that he would be bobbly when I worked him but I’m getting confident that I know how his mind works.\nWe had a bit of a stand-off but I made sure it didn’t turn into a battle and he did as he was asked in the end, so we finished on a good note. I think it will be quite satisfying bringing him on myself – even though its going to take months at this rate. Some people work on young horses twice a day, he’s lucky if he gets trained twice a week.\nWork is really settling down now. The lambing time rush has passed and we’re catching up on our TB testing for DEFRA. It’s a bit more taxing having to do such young animals in the restocked herds but most people are fairly well organised. We’re not going to get some of the herds done before turn out I wonder if DEFRA have any recommendations for catching wild Limousin heifers in the middle of a field – probably not they don’t think that far ahead.\n\nDiary 9\nI hate Mondays again. Had supper at 11.45 pm. There was a problem with my mobile when I was on call (I hate mobiles as well) and I went to calve a cow one and a half-hours after the first call came in. I was so mad – firstly because we don’t make our clients wait that long for an emergency to become a disaster and second because Ws wife has no idea about passing jobs on – she should have got another vet to go since I was obviously busy but she just passed the message on to [new vet] to let her sort it out – and W’s wife gets paid for doing the phones! Anyway all’s well – live cow and a tremendous bull calf, and one of the easiest caesareans I have done in ages. \nB and W seem to forget that it is their business (and reputation) at stake. Ultimately the buck stops with them. Both of them seem to have had enough of business management and hassle to last a lifetime. Last year has done a lot of damage to a lot of people. I know I am a lot less tolerant than I used to be.\nThis week started badly and improved. Farrier came and trimmed all 3 horses, bollocked me because they hadn’t been seen for over a year (I did tidy them a bit myself though). Had a lovely afternoon at Rheged with Mam. We started going when FMD was on because it was sort of neutral, non-agricultural ground. We sat and chatted while [son] played in the soft play centre – everybody happy. Unfortunately I went down with the worst dose of food poisoning I had ever had, I was up all night. Went into work late – I wouldn’t have gone at all except I had a 2nd TB to test to do on a restocked farm and couldn’t bear to start the whole thing again. I recovered as the afternoon went on and even managed to dehorn 10 cows. The thought of B sending fragile, young [new vet] to help spurred me on a bit. I was knackered when I finished. Took me another 2 days to recover. [horse] doing well, bridle and saddle on now, looking grown up. I’m quite proud of him. He was so chilled out today I tried long reining him – that confused him but he was very sensible.\nNorleen and I didn’t go to the 1st date at the Rochdale show, I still didn’t feel right and [partner] was going to fit the new fuel pump to my car – but then he started to feel ill too. What a waste of a Saturday off.  Made it to the show on Sunday – pretty good ridden classes, and all the senior in hand classes. We were laughing because we’re so out of practice. There are two years worth of young stock that we’ve never seen due to babies in 2000 and FMD in 2001 – we felt really out of touch. There are a few imported stallions and mares that we haven’t seen before too. We had a brilliant day.\n\nDiary 10\nWhat’s worse than working on call on Mondays – yes working Bank Holidays! We hoped to shut at 12 – ha ha! I got home for lunch at 2pm. B kindly took the phones for a couple of hours in the afternoon (not long enough to go anywhere) and I was back out working by tea time.\nMy car failed its MOT because the back brake callipers were all gunged up – the mechanic says it’s disinfectant that does it – bloody DEFRA, I bet there’s no chance of compensation for that. It wouldn’t be so bad if it was a practice car but now that I’m part-time I have to paddle my own canoe. All the local garage owners warned us last year that these things would happen – what could we do? We felt obliged to drive into all the ‘voluntary’ disinfectant sites – it doesn’t look good if the local vets aren’t disinfecting. My beautiful old Audi, God knows what other horrors are lurking where the FAM has spilled in my boot etc. Hell it makes me mad. All the destruction, physical and mental and we had so little to say in any of it.\nWell, my car spent the rest of the week in the garage so I used borrowed wheels. Went to do a wee talk at Stainsmore pre-school in [partner]s transit van – very professional. The children didn’t care; they just wanted to meet my dog! [son] missed a birthday party on the Saturday because I was still at work – more guilt, not that he knows he missed it. Lovely day on Sunday with my horse – went for a three hour ride over in County Durham. We trailed round arable fields and nice lanes – all very different from here. [other horse] was an absolute saint and did very well to have no shoes on. She really did us proud.\n\nDiary 11\nGot my car back – that cheered me up. Bad news about the imported heifers, two more have died. At least the PM exams and sampling are free because it’s a restocked herd. Farmer getting angry now (at Dutch farmers) but taking it out on [new vet]. Very unfair, she’s spent hours checking over his cattle and taking samples.\nDidn’t get my usual R & R on Wed – absolutely piddling down. Started sorting out a few jobs that I have been avoiding, the sort I used to do on wet Sundays – now will become wet Wednesday jobs!! Called in at work for coffee and ended up with a call for the afternoon. Very interesting job too – went to sedate two horses for the dentist – it was absolutely fascinating. \n[son] has another 2nd cousin this week – the family is really sprouting. Had a tough calving Thursday night – torsion of the uterus. I can do these now, I used to absolutely dread them. Unfortunately she’d been on too long and the calf was born dead, heifer fine though. I hate going to that farm, the farmer is a right old perverted slime ball and I’ll’ dance on his grave. Started with a real head cold - –h crap.\nWent to see Mam and Stewart, [son] on top form. It’s brilliant seeing him interact with my family. He has really strengthened the bonds in our family. [son] fevered at night, starting with the same cold I presume – no sleep for me. [partner] never seems to hear all the commotion. Still felt ill on Saturday – [sister] and [sister]s birthday. At least I remembered to post their cards in plenty of time this year. \nWent shopping for wallpaper on Sunday to cheer me up. [partner] went off ‘pest controlling’ with his dogs. They went up through Tubby’s wood. They found nothing but at least the dogs had a good ratch. He says he only now feels ok about walking across fields. I didn’t even realise that he still felt that he couldn’t go round all his old haunts – we must talk more!\n\nDiary 19\nTB test cancelled on Monday and Thursday this week because the farmer can’t cope with the extra hassle. He’s a bit of a woman at the best of times but he’s been even worse since FMD. W was very understanding he seems to have the farmers measure. B didn’t seem that understanding.\nVery upset on Wednesday afternoon. I had to put down my own terrier after he took off and chased the neighbour’s sheep – for the second time. I can’t understand why he went so strange; he used to be fine with stock. I had a miserable afternoon waiting for [partner] to come home to bury him. I’d had such a good morning with the horses too. Dizzy and [horse] were both going well, I felt better once [partner] came home. He said I’d done the right thing but I felt as though I’d failed somehow because it should never have happened in the first place. Maybe it’s because he had nothing to do last year, no interesting walks, no rabbiting etc, I don’t know. \n\nDiary 20\nBrilliant time Tues/Wed. Went to my sisters with Mam and [son], it’s much easier to keep in touch with my family post-FMD. I hardly went anywhere last year. We went shopping to Edinburgh, mam’s looking for an outfit for my brother’s wedding, unsuccessfully so far! I’ve just realised that I haven’t seen [brother and wife?] on their farm since FMD broke out. We must go soon, it’s a brilliant place for recharging batteries and they are the best bit of my step family. We didn’t go to the Cumberland show with the horses. I haven’t got back into the swing of things yet. I think it was a bit of a washout without the farming side, and it rained. I offered to be the biosecurity officer for our local show so that they could get things up and running properly. They had money and trophies donated last year for new cattle classes and there would be real interest in fat cattle classes and young handler classes now. DEFRA (the bastards) managed to put the committee off.\n\nDiary 21\nSprayed weeds in field – only depressing day this week, it’s never going to recover properly. The Landlord arrived when we’d just finished the first half and said he’d decided to reseed it in August!! After much discussion I persuaded him it would be a waste of time and money to put horses back on a newly seeded field over winter. Now I’m worried about what happens in spring. Will we be terminated or just moved to another field? I wish I’d moved the horses at the usual time (1st April) then we wouldn’t have been caught up among IPs and DCs. Something will sort out, it always does.\n\nDairy 22\nExcellent week. Off to Malvern with friends for the National Arabian Horse Show. [son] went off to Grannies for the holiday!! I had a marvellous time for three days watching the most beautiful horses and came back absolutely shattered.\n\nDiary 23\nFew probs at work with new assistant. She’s a bit ‘whiney’[?], she’s always bending the ear of the nearest receptionist and they are sick. B has offered her a 12 month contract – but whether or not she’ll accept it is another matter. From what I can gather she’s going to end up with better working conditions than me. W’s not too happy about it all but neither of them are willing to grasp the nettle. They’ve both backed off since last year, they can’t wait to get off home and I can’t step in since they’ve changed their minds about my partnership, and I’m only part-time. Good weekend, Lowther on Saturday – didn’t see many of the usual faces. The only thing that spoiled it was the mud – we brought more than our fair share home with [son] and the pushchair – no biosecurity pressure washer anywhere!\n\nDiary 24\n (the Assistant) on holiday for 2 weeks, things seem more like old times. The cages aren’t full of animals on drips, I’m working extra days and enjoying it – it’s tiring but good. Highlight of the week on Thursday: Brough Show, there weren’t many farmers there but loads of horses and ponies instead of sheep. Much talk of DEFRA regulations, none complimentary. It just wasn’t the same without the sheep, it felt flat. I wonder what the gimmer lamb sales will be like?\n\nDiary 25\nKnackered – don’t think I could cope with full time work any more!! [new vet] still on holiday. Felt guilty about [son] being farmed out all week. I managed to work myself up about our charity horse show on Saturday. I tried to hand over the organisation to three other folk and still ended up sorting out all the insurance and rosettes, and they changed the date so I had less time to organise, and it wasn’t advertised. \nIt was the worst show we’ve ever had. It takes as much time to organise it for the few as it does for the many! I felt so disappointed. I thought we would have a real good turnout this time after having to cancel last year. Oh well there’s always next year! I’ll need to make sure they don’t change the date again and at least I might be able to take the horses next time. Decided to cheer myself up by taking [other horse] over to school her round the jumps on the Sunday but I couldn’t catch her (she must have known) so that just put the tin hat on the weekend.\n\nDiary 26\nTwo trotting meetings this week. I landed both of them and both nights on call. Another Bank Holiday with no time off and I had to take [son] to both because [partner] was grouse-beating. Both meetings were quite relaxed but there was one nasty crash at Appleby. Had a really nice day out at Chatsworth Game Fair with Helen and Neil. It’s the first time we’ve managed to visit them and it took hours to get there. We were invited last year but the advert said they didn’t want any Cumbrians – social outcasts, as if we didn’t feel like the armpit of British Agriculture as it was. I really enjoyed our day out, I felt as if we’d had a weekend away not just a day. We’ll have to think of some more trips, it’s too easy just to stay at home – we always have plenty to do.\n\nDairy 27\nIt’s started again – DEFRA have found a new way to cock up our lives. They have now complicated life with exemptions from the 20 day standstill including new stuff about isolation units. The farmers have all been notified by post. Some haven’t read it, some have read it and don’t understand it. Farmers have to isolate new stock bought via auctions etc from any contact with other stock by 50 m outside, or they can go on standstill but their neighbours can move stock from the next door field without a problem – it’s mad. I don’t understand where they are coming from. Well I do sort of but as usual it’s badly thought out, and we have to sell this idea to the farmers. How will it be policed? Will it matter? Would it stop another massive outbreak? It doesn’t take much to wind everyone up again. It’s not helped at work by B defending the DEFRA line and W dissing it. What will the clients think?\n\nDiary 28\nCrap week. Puncture on Thursday during lunch hour. Struggled to get locking nuts off – felt feckless. God I have so little patience these days. And I missed BEVA congress – couldn’t sort out childminding etc., and the best days were Friday and Saturday – there was no way I could go. I was really disappointed – nothing to do with FMD though. I don’t feel as if I get much encouragement from work, they are ok about paying for CPD courses but they don’t seem to make it easy to swap weekends etc. They’re not bothered themselves so I suppose they don’t understand all the different things you get from CPD.\n\nDiary 29\nWorked extra so [new vet] could go to sheep meeting at Malvern. Pissed off!! It is not easy to do this job with a husband and a family to consider and I suppose the timing stinks since I missed my equine course last week. The week improved considerably by Thursday – we went to Guilford for an Arab horse convention – nothing to do with work but very enjoyable. I’ve been waiting more than 10 years for this. I hope I live long enough to go to the next one!! We talked to some men on the train (unheard of in Surrey apparently) about Cumbria, farming, FMD and foxhunting. Once we reassured them that Newcastle was not in Cumbria we had an interesting crack!\nI hardly ever meet anyone that is not connected with farming and the countryside they really have no idea what it’s like – I don’t know anything about IT either which is what their job is! I end up feeling so frustrated that agriculture and therefore large animal practice is in such a precarious position, it seems to me to be such a basic fundamental part of life compared to computers and yet the emphasis is not on basic stuff anymore. Surely we need things like agriculture and basic manufacturing to underpin everything else. No wonder nobody was bothered about us suffering anxiety, fear, confusion last year when we were in the throes of FMD and the Penrith Spur was certainly under-reported. They wouldn’t have had so many marches in London pre-FMD.\n\nDiary 30\nQuite week. Still tired from last week – loads of photos to develop again – it was great, saw horses I’d never seen before and got 2 great videos of long dead horses that appear in my horses pedigrees. [son] was a bit off with me when I picked him up Monday – a bit unsettled with being away I suppose. Oh this job just interferes with a social life missed another wedding this week – on call again.\n\nDiary 31\nTook a horse to Penrith vets for an X-ray. They have a super new hospital just out of town. Seems really well set up. They have a really good attitude to work and clients. I think we need a shake up at work. Maybe [new vet]’s way of working isn’t too bad. Neil said they were ½ million in the red at the height of FMD – they must have been so worried. None of us knew what we’d be left with. We’ve definitely got a lot of routine work because we’ve lost such a lot of dairy farms. It’s never going to be the same again and I’m not good at accepting change.\n\nDiary 32\nSad week. One of our farmer’s sons was killed in an RTA on the A66. He had only been married two years and was a real canny lad. It shocked everyone and has certainly made me take stock. They have restocked with fancy cattle from down south, and these cattle may have contacted cattle with a variant virus from the USA so they were doing a whole herd test. You could blame this on FMD – if they hadn’t lost their cattle, they wouldn’t have restocked and they wouldn’t be testing the cattle or it wouldn’t have happened if they’d stopped for an extra cup of tea. A client brought me a copy of the Cumbria Enquiry. That didn’t half stir up some old feelings. All the things I was so angry about last year were summed up in one phrase I read: ‘slack organisation’. The poor woman who brought the report has spent over £1000 treating her dog after it suffered chemical burns from FMD disinfectant on a road map – it now reacts to phenolic compounds including sheep dip and fresh tar. They’re moving to Scotland – I hope the dog has a better life there.\n\nDiary 33\nFunny old week. Everyone still shell-shocked about [farmer’s son]’s death – no explanation as to how the lorry crashed into his tractor yet. You begin to wonder how any family can cope with that sort of trauma. B and W went to the (huge) funeral. They said his parents were amazing – they do have a strong faith but I can’t see that being enough. I went to the graveyard the next day to see the flowers and ended up in tears – it was the messages on the cards especially the ones from his parents and brother and sister, I felt so sad for them all. Went for a wee walk with Tracey, she knows him quite well and we talked a lot, trying to make sense of it all. Then blow me on the Thursday, his father and brother were part of a syndicate at the tup sales that paid over £100,000 for a Swaledale tup – I couldn’t believe they’d even gone to the auction never mind doing something like that, it doesn’t seem right to me. The others could have bought the tup for them, I think that’s awfully strange. I had another upset farmer’s wife this week. I went to see a downer cow; she’d got stuck in the cubicles. We had to carry her to a straw box using the loader tractor and the wife got really upset seeing the cow swinging on the front of the tractor. I felt a bit guilty really because I didn’t think. I just didn’t connect the FMD slaughter with an injured cow, but then I didn’t see all that they saw when their herd went down.\n\nDiary 34\nGreat week. My brother’s wedding, [son] was a page boy in a kilt and he was quite well behaved apart from the second lot of photos – he was well tired and hungry by then! I love being home with my brother and sisters (and their partners) and it’s great the way they all have so much time for [son]. We always laugh so much at the ‘clan gatherings’ I’m sure it’s very therapeutic! The amount of alcohol consumed by all at the wedding is definitely not therapeutic.\nWe set off on our holiday (maybe our first family holiday) the day after, in the rain but it turned out ok later. Such a lot of good stuff in one week.\n\nDiary 35\nHad a lovely day, it all worked out well. We may try four or five days away next year now that we’ve got started again. It’s years since we had a proper holiday, I usually miss all the animals when I’m away but not this time – I think [son] has more than filled that gap. Had bad news on Wednesday, [partner]’s van failed its MOT – no transport, no money for a new motor. Mild panic, slight depression then the gradual return to my ‘it will all work out somehow’ attitude. And it did. [partner]’s Mum and Dad helped us out and I had to relinquish my little ‘buy a new trailer’ fund.\nHad a disaster on Sunday morning, caesarean on an uncooperative cow. She got up halfway through the op and pushed her rumen out onto the (very dirty) floor, and she started to haemorrhage. She died four hours later. They ended up with an exceptional bull calf but a dead pedigree Belgian Blue cow. I hate when things die on restocked farms. I think they were quite philosophical about it but I went over and over the whole thing in my head. B just said ‘if they’re going to die it’s best they die soon – less time to worry and everyone gets over it quicker too’ I think he may be right. He’s definitely easier to talk to these days – he’s like a different person now that Jan’s left.\n\nDiary 36\nBusy week. Testing a restocked herd Monday/Thursday which had travelled all of 5 miles to their new home – a bit of a waste of time but it was a nice day to be out. Really good turnout at the village bonfire. It’s a new tradition, started in 2001 and it was the first village get-together after FMD. At the end of the week I headed South to Cheshire and the Salisbury plain with my friend Ann and her horse to compete in the marathon. What an awful journey we had. The rain poured, the traffic crawled. I’m glad I don’t have to use the M6 on a daily basis. I really enjoyed my weekend away but we had to pull the horse out at the half-way point. She was so hyped that we couldn’t get her heart rate down, so she wasn’t allowed to continue. I felt really disappointed. I was sure that she had a good chance, well she would have if they had a vet check halfway through.\n\nDiary 37\nA bit of an anticlimax this week after all the build-up to the marathon. It would have been so different if she’d completed the course. We had a better journey North except for a puncture – not handy when you have a horse trailer on. I drove most of the way back to Ann’s. Saw all her horses and then drove home, another 2 hours. Oh I was so pleased to get home. It was a good experience though, I don’t think either of us would trail a horse all the way to Salisbury plain for a two hour race again!! There were FMD cases near Ann in Cheshire that didn’t seem to catch hold like they did in Cumbria. Maybe its because there are bigger farms and more arable land.\nI went to see her in July 2001 and she pointed out various fields that had been cleared of stock – half of them didn’t even have gates on, there was no disinfectant or precautions visible and it was really starting to wipe out our practice at home. It was unbelievable. We were sitting in Cumbria thinking that agriculture was doomed, and everything in Cheshire was carrying on as normal. It was a rude awakening for me.\n\nDiary 38\nMore TB testing – all day job testing stock that wouldn’t normally be tested but they’re restocked. They have come from Cheshire though so that does increase the risk. Had a shocking migraine all day Wednesday, went to bed as soon as I’d dropped [son] off at Biggins and didn’t wake up until 5pm – 2 hours after I should have collected him – and I still felt awful. It was terrible driving in the dark and I had to stop three times on the way home. I went back to bed until 9pm and then was fine. I haven’t had a migraine for ages. I was back on top form the next day though. We did the TB readings on 172 cattle before lunch – cooking with gas!\n\nDiary 39\nFed up with all this testing – and we may be doing this for the next 4-5 months. Sick of [new vet] moaning at work, I don’t know what it would take to make her happy. I think this week has nearly all been a waste of time. I haven’t made best use of my free time and I haven’t been on top of my job at work.\n\nDiary 40\nI was dreading this week because there were so many things to do. I think I avoid adding extra to my schedule but this week I had 3 days away and a night out to cope with. I really don’t like the thought of shopping but managed to do some Christmas present locating on Friday. Spent Wednesday with B (which was better than I expected) on a National Scrapie Plan training day (which was worse than I expected). Bloody DEFRA, they don’t have to do or say much to raise my hackles. Here we are selecting for a resistant genotype and they are spending all their time injecting BSE into sheep’s brains to ‘challenge’ them – how would that ever happen naturally?\nNearly missed my night out because of work, It was 10 pm before I got there, but at least I didn’t miss the dancing. It turned into a really good night. Nearly everyone from work was there, and J the ex-receptionist, we always have a good laugh. Ended up working most of the morning – don’t know if W was hung over or just idle, but he’ll have to pay me for the hours. I don’t work extra out of the goodness of my heart now I have all my own overheads to fund. [new vet]’s the star for avoiding extra or dirty work – then it usually falls to me. She says she wants more large animal work and then does her best to avoid it.\n\nDiary 41\nTired this week. [son] came back from Mavis’s full of cold, improved a bit and then woke up screaming on Tuesday night.  It was a very long night and [partner] wasn’t even here t enjoy/share it as he’d left to fly to Tampa at 5am that morning. God, I don’t fancy being a single mum.\nHe soon started to improve after 24hrs on antibiotics – ear and chest infection – I’ve never seen him in such pain. Of course, he was nearly better by the time [partner] got back. I really struggled on my own and had to take a day off on Thursday but still had to go and do a second TB test otherwise I would have had to start all over again – we didn’t have time to test them twice. And it’s a restocked herd so we had to do them all. It’s really hard trying to do the best for everyone.\n\nDiary 42\nPretty good week until the weekend. Had a good night out for Tracey’s birthday, and I was really chuffed she invited [son] too. He was well behaved too nut unfortunately now thinks he can go to ‘the pub’ so we have to go out to meetings to avoid a tantrum. I don’t really think I have suffered many after effects from FMD except a lower anger threshold and a loss of faith in ‘the powers that be’. I’m much more worried about some of our client’s mental health. I know there are several who have suffered severe depression and they are not all farmers that were culled out. The sleepless nights were back with a vengeance – [son] started with chickenpox at the weekend and nobody had any sleep.\n\nDiary 43\nAbsolutely shattered, somebody else’s chickenpox is nearly as bad as your own. I don’t think I have had a full nights sleep for over a fortnight. I still had a lovely time at Christmas though.  I was sure that [partner] and [son] would be pleased with their presents. [son] suddenly brightened dup on Christmas Eve on the way to Mam’s and never broke stride after that. He was son top form. I was so tired that I fell asleep on Saturday evening and missed the village Hall Christmas Party – the highlight of the village social calendar.\n\nDiary 44\nThe threat of TB rears its ugly head; maybe TB is the new FMD. Went to do a private TB test for a farmer who has restocked and passed his restocking checks. Unfortunately he bought 3 heifers in November and the original farm has since gone down with TB.\nHe isolated the heifers as soon as he heard and waited for DEFRA – they didn’t come so we did. I hoped for the best and expected the worst. One of the heifers reacted – I didn’t know what to do or say. The farmer’s wife was really upset, she wished they hadn’t gone back into farming. B the boss has phoned DEFRA that morning regarding these heifers only to be told that youngstock don’t pose much of a risk. They don’t seem to have much idea at all, and don’t have a clue about getting on with the job. They’ve had three weeks to track down the calves out of the cows that were reactors. They seem to let us down just when we need them most! Oh they make me boil and we are going to have to cope with the aftermath again.\n\nDiary 45\nFelt a bit flat and tired this week. The test I had this week was hard work, trying to catch cows in cubicles is not fun. We were all covered in muck at the end of it and the second day was worse because he had about 14 to rectal after the test.\nWednesday, my day of respite was taken up looking after Tracey in bed with cold – she’s really down still and I can’t seem to do anything to make her feel better. I know she’ll come out of it eventually but it’s hard not being able to help.\nI just didn’t feel as if I had any time to myself this week, and I really missed out. If I start working Wednesdays I’m going to miss it every week. I’ll have to have another plan! It’s a bit better at the weekend, but I think we all need some better weather and I miss doing stuff with the horses.\n\nDiary 46\nOh I’m mad again with DEFRA. I had to go back to the herd with the reactor and test every single bovine on the place, except the two remaining heifers from the infected herd. I don’t understand why they can’t just take out those heifers too. The poor farmer and his wife will be on tender hooks until the end of March at the earliest. If they hadn’t asked for a private test goodness knows when DEFRA would have got there.  While I was testing DEFRA phoned the farmers wife to confirm that the slaughtered heifer had visible lesions – so that puts paid to the theory that youngstock weren’t a danger. Hope this news makes them get a finger out. Had a lovely day with Mam and [son] on Tuesday – we sat and talked for over an hour in the car park, everything tested clear at the check test – so far so good.\nBad day on Thursday. The behaviour course I was enrolled on has been cancelled  - no explanation just a cheque returned to the practice with a wee note. I was so disappointed, even though it was going to be a lot of extra work over the next 10 months and extra hassle and extra childminding I think I could have coped. Then at lunchtime I bent my car door after stopping to help somebody stuck on an icy patch – I haven’t got all the bits sorted that were knackered by FMD disinfecting yet and there’s more repairs, and I have to pay for it myself now that I don’t have a practice car – I was well fed up!\n\nDairy 47\nBusy week. TB Testing again. Started working odd Wednesdays this week, so spent all day Wednesday up the back end of suckler cows (very dangerous) taking bloods for brucellosis and then blood sampling Swaledales for scrapie testing.\nWe have so many tests still to do – but not many dreadfully out of date, and I think we’ve done quite a lot of the restocking tests but its all quite mind numbing stuff – not much clinical acumen required for getting blood out of cows – just quick reactions to dodge shit and flying feet. Very late finished Monday by the time I had all my paperwork done. A, a college friend landed Tuesday en-route to Leeds for a herd health meeting – 6 hours driving for a meeting. We talked a bit about FMD – she worked as a TVI towards the end of the outbreak. They have a lot more trouble with TB up in Aberdeenshire – once it gets into a herd they struggle to get rid of it again. I hope it doesn’t get to be a huge problem round here. Collected a fair few bruises on Thursday – pregnant heifers to dehorn – they should have been done in 2001 but of course the routine work was put off. I don’t know what the excuse was leaving them al through 2002 but they were massive. Anyway, it saved me going to the gym on Wednesday night!\n\nDiary 48\nI have just handed in the latest batch of diaries, and started a new ‘session’.  I have been thinking that F&M doesn’t really affect me much anymore.  Our work has changed because of the restocking that has taken place since with all the new disease problems that have been bought in as ‘additional extras’ and the extra TB testing etc. but mentally I am not aware of even thinking about the events of 2001 that often.  I still feel upset if someone tells me about their own particular experiences which are often heart rending but probably no more than if they were discussing another devastating disease problem.  I still have little tolerance for the workings of DEFRA even though they are providing us with lots of ‘bread and butter’ work.\n\nDiary 51\nI’m sick of doing caesareans on cows – who encouraged all the bloody beef farmers to restock with Belgian Blues?  I’m not sure that we should be continuing to allow animals to breed that can’t reproduce naturally.  It doesn’t seem right that we should almost expect a caesarean the day that a new cow is put in calf.  We used to have occasional troubles before, and not all caesareans are on Belgian Blues but now we do at least one caesarean every week, (B did two in one day) and they are bloody hard work!!\n\nDiary 52\nI always think of the 23rd Feb as being the day that I realised we might be in the shit in 2001.  It wouldn’t have passed unnoticed round here – several people mentioned the date in the following week – yet it wasn’t until the 4th April that F&M came into our practice.  Loads of our farmers lost a lot of seep early on though because they were wintering away on dairy farms further down the Eden valley.  This used to just involve the hoggs but now they are encouraged to leave the fells almost empty and are paid to remove even pregnant ewes to lower ground.  It seems ludicrous that, on certain farms, the fell sheep only spend summertime on the fells.  The rest of the time they are in-bye land for tupping or lambing, and then are wintered in sheep sheds or on dairy farms, sometimes quite far away from ‘home’.  I did get quite upset when I read the stories in the book.  This time I think I had more empathy for the ‘tourism’ businesses affected.  They must have been so frustrated, and probably ended up much worse off that the affected farmers.  In our area the farmers who ‘survived’ are the ones (in general) who are struggling for survival now, and their farms have had no capital investment at all.  In fact some of the survivors are still very bitter about the whole episode.  Its so sad what this has done to some people. \n\nDiary 55\nCheck TB test at Campbells, went well finished in good time.  Running into trouble because the other cows taken in for winter are calving and they have no room.  However, they have found someone to take and slaughter all the big bullocks – they are going to be moved, under licence, direct to a slaughter house so at least they will have some income (the first this year!).  Everything tested clear including the 2 heifers brought in from the farm that had the reactor so they are feeling a little bit more confident.\n\nDiary 56\nBloody DEFRA cocked up again with C’s test – had to go back to test 11 baby calves (how cruel?).  Had to go back to H’s as well to test one inconclusive reactor.  All of them were OK\n\nDiary 60\nI think the lambing time rush is settling down again – of course there aren’t quite as many fell sheep about as usual – and probably won’t be again if the payments are de-coupled – numbers won’t be as profitable as acres.\n
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       \n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1964\nGender: F\nOccupation: Group 6\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\n\n\nWeek beginning 4th March 02\n\nMonday 4th March\nWe decided we now need more staff, a new vet and a part time receptionist, this could take us back up to our previous staffing level pre FM, bar a vet.  But this was probably going to be all the recruitments we would make this year.  It’s a good sign As Things begin to get back to normal!!  Work is increasing quite a lot now most of our farmers have restocked, although a lot of them and us are still concerned about the future.\nTuesday 5th March\nA difficult day today with licences, two of our farmers needed Sole Occupancy Authentitys (SOA) and there were queries with their land, unless some of their fields could be redefined, they were worried their stock would suffer.  During the FM these worries have shown how much they care about their stock and find it very frustrating when they don’t understand why we can’t move them, even to the point of anger and tears.  By the end of the day, thankfully they were resolved, with compromise on both sides and a lot of phone calls.\nWednesday 6th March\nI decided to sort out all the paperwork and guidelines we had received from DEFRA over the past twelve months – it was quite a pile!!  It was interesting looking back and very sad, it makes you realise just how deep the feelings went and although it sounds silly it’s surprising how quickly those feelings can return over the smallest things.  Anyway having done that, it did feel good to box them up and put them away.  We got taken out for lunch with our Ptizer rep and it was nice just to talk about usual! Things, drug competition, how much we were going to sell.\nThursday 7th March\nVery busy day, everyone has been flat out all day started at 7am this morning got finished sort of by 7.30pm, very tired.  Hope we get a new vet soon!  We also had a suspect BSE case today.  Informed DEFRA.  More problems with SOA, but we got them started, one bit of good news, I managed to get a new receptionist for 2 days a week so I just need one for the other 3.\n\n\nFriday 8th March\nQuite a good day no major hassles today, and still getting busier.  Had a staff meeting to arrange an open day for National Pet week in May, and sorted out a few other bits and bobs.  Had a good chat with the staff who have all been very busy this week and decided that it is much better to this time last year, when we were all very depressed, emotionally drained, laying off staff, uncertain of the future.  At least now we are doing what we are meant to do.\nSaturday 9th March\nWent shopping first thing with K, had a good time, even though I’m not a good shopper.  We went to the Farmers’ Market, I saw Heather who works at the Auction and she said it had been quite emotional having sales again and the hustle and bustle, but they were all happy to see people they hadn’t seen for sometime.  Met my Mum in the afternoon in the Snow at Killington Lake, it was good and the driving was interesting.\nSunday 10th March\nMothers Day – [husband] and [daughter] were out for the day, so I had a lovely peaceful day doing not a lot.  [daughter] got me a funny card and a little hedgehog model for my collection.  In the evening I collected a vet student from London who is staying with us for 3 weeks.  So we will have to behave.  She seems nice and settled into our mad house easily.  Mr W called in to let us know his cows had arrived safely. \n\n\nWeek beginning 11th March 02\n\nMonday 11th march\nWhat a busy day.  But a total change to this time last year, it was the day our first client was confirmed with f&m.  I helped [another vet] do a caesarean on a cow, that was fun, they are farmers that have moved farm and restocked – very positive.  One of our new receptionists started but I didn’t get much chance to see her due to the Caesar. Barbara looked after her well and she seemed to enjoy it.  There were lots of calls in just like the old days but we really need another vet, the adverts in on Thursday so fingers crossed.  \nTuesday\nAnother busy day and another Caesar, the calf was dead unfortunately.  The cow with query BSE was taken away for tests, which was sad.  My highlight of my day was the farm across from us turned some of his cows out again.  I call it my kitchen window view, normally I can see sheep in the fields at the back and the cows across the road, the sheep came back a couple of months ago and the cows but I haven’t actually been able to see them, so it was very special.  Never really stopped today and we did Dog training classes at night, so I collected [daughter] from her YFC meeting and got fish and chips and we all went to bed.  Our poor vet student who is staying with us is exhausted, she’s been able to see and do so much.\nWednesday\nToday was a little more controlled and went more according to plan, but was still a long day as we had a dog in about 6.30pm that had eaten a ball and hadn’t passed it, so we had to operate to remove it, anyway finished at 9.00pm, had tea and went to bed.  [daughter] heard she had got 2 weeks work experience at Norbrook pharmaceutical so very pleased about that.\n\n\n\nThursday\nHad the morning off, the last few days had been rather hectic.  A girl who had done work experience with us a couple of years ago called round, out of the blue, she was still keen to train as a Vet Nurse and wanted to write to the Practices in the area and needed advice, anyway I told her about our vacancy here and well the long and the short is she starts on the 2nd April – Receptionist staff now sorted, just need a vet, I wish it was as easy.\nFriday\n[husband] was reading a TT test at a farm and found a reactor.  Pre f+m Cumbria was TB free but with all the new stock coming into the area it is inevitable that this will not be the case, there have already been two other cases in the county.  I dropped off the isolation notice to the farmer and as they are, he seemed okay and still very positive.  I have always admired them for their courage and stamina, as he said they love farming and you have to expect things like this.  Managed to spend the afternoon with one of our new receptionists, she is doing really well and settling in time she will grasp it all in no time.\nSaturday\nRan [daughter] and her friend into town and sorted out the garage – that was an achievement.  The dog that swallowed the ball wasn’t eating so I went to get it something tasty, it’s going home later so it should be a lot happier.  [daughter]’s still in town so I took (vet student) to see Hadrian’s wall, she’s from America so was very keen to see it, she really enjoyed it and so did I.  I hadn’t been for a couple of years.  Just had a nice quiet evening in.\nSunday\nMy sister and her daughter came for the day.  My niece is two and a half years so need I say more, we were busy playing all day.\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 18th March 02\n\nMonday 18th March\nIt's looking fairly quiet at work this week but you never know.  Mr W (farmer) came in he was letting us know his restocking plans and was one of the farmers querying his compensation ( I never liked that as they were compulsory purchased and have not received any compensation as such although some got better money than others, so maybe it was all taken into account). Anyway he missed the query deadline by two hours so DEFRA are refusing to look at his case as he does appear to have lost out as his brother with the same breeding of cows and related went down on the same down, got an average £300 more per cow.  Anyway we tried to look to the future and he was looking forward to getting stock back.  We had another TB reactor today in some French cattle.  Me and our receptionist were chatting and decided things were really getting back to normal, although with the added paperwork.  [daughter] was very upset when she came home from school as she had been getting bullied by a girl in her year…., so we chatted about that and I wrote to her teacher to see if she could find out more.\nTuesday\n[daughter] went to school fairly happy.  I just told her to hand her letter in and try and avoid the girl.  I was going milk recording tonight which I really enjoy it's great to be among the animals and talk to the farmers.  We only have one farmer milk recording fully at present, there were 12.  The farm I went to is a big dairy herd and is now \nlooking to expanding so that was good news.  Bad news is that means I'll have to get up earlier in the mornings for the recording - never mind!!  [daughter] had got on okay at school and the teacher was really good with her, so she's feeling happier.  She is a good kid and although hormonal at times she does put up with a lot.  During the FMD. We were unable to really go anywhere or do anything although we did try to keep her routine, we worked longer hours and were more stressed, but she never complained and helped a lot.  Went dog training after milk recording so it was a long day.\nWednesday\nEarly morning start today.  5am to go milk recording but I always get a lovely breakfast. We also got invited to a party at the farm in May so that's something to look forward to and its fancy dress so that will be fun, we have to dress up as children's characters.\nWe then attended a careers' convention at the Sands Centre until 7 pm, so another very long day, very tired. We saw a lot of children who were interested in pursuing veterinary work which is always encouraging.  I enjoy doing the careers days, it's interesting to see the next workforce, they seem to grow up so fast\nThursday\nMy claim to fame today was seeing the Princess Royal; I passed her at a junction and thought I was seeing things.  I bored everyone with that story!  We had a lovely staff lunch meeting, we all helped cook and sat and chatted about the future, we had no replies from the advert for a vet so we decided to try another Veterinary magazine so fingers crossed.  In the afternoon I managed to get very well caught up on my paperwork which is a rarity as I normally end up going somewhere or sorting something out, so I was very pleased especially as the year end is approaching.\nFriday\nDiscussed a few ideas with our Nurse regarding the small animal side and the possibility of getting some new equipment.  I shall have to do some adding up.  [husband] was at a Vet meeting locally for all the vets in the area on Thursday night and there were 3 other practices looking for vets and had been doing for some time without any luck at all, this is worrying as our case loads increase again it puts a strain on the vets, so fingers crossed our advert is in tomorrow.  In the afternoon I called to see one of our evening receptionist who is on maternity leave at present.  It was good to see her and her new addition so I was filling her in on the news and gossip  - hopefully she will be back to work the second week in April although the birth was a caesarean so I have told her to see how she is feeling, so we will discuss it again soon as this is her fourth child but she copes really well and is looking really healthy.\nSaturday\nIt snowed, I went to meet my Mum at Killington as we were having her dog while she went on holiday and nearly got stuck in the snow.  During foot and mouth [daughter] had counted the stock in the field between Carlisle and Penrith on the M6, anyway I did it again today - last year we counted 2 - this year we counted 12 - big difference.\nSunday\nWent for a walk around a local wood for the first time in over a year it was amazing how overgrown it had become, the paths were still visible but in places only just.  Met up with a friend's daughter to finalise arrangements for her father's surprise meal out next Friday for his 50th birthday\n\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 25th March 02\n\nMonday 25th March\nAnother very busy day today.  Still no answer to the advert for a new vet. [husband] spoke to another vet in the area and they had, had the same response - nothing.  It is good to be busy again. Our new receptionist is doing well and learning fast, so that's taking the pressure off me and [other receptioinist].  Completed the claim form for Business Link grant which helped a lot and enabled us to do things and advertise when we wouldn't have been able to.\nTuesday\nStarting to prepare for the end of our financial year.  I always dread this but it has to be done.  It will be nice to end another chapter, the Practice suffered badly last year and it was very worrying. We lost 3 vets and two lay staff.  But everyone is feeling the same. I have spoken to a few farmers today and the opinion is - well it is a lot better than this time last year.  It has been interesting to see how the effect of having new stock does throw them; we are getting called out a lot more which is good for us.  We are doing a lot more lambings and lambing is set to go on until may/June time this year.  We are very busy testing at the moment but it gives us the opportunity to see the new animals and discuss plans with the farmers. The relationship which was built during the f+m is now definitely benefiting, a lot have said how helpful it was and feel a lot closer - the family not business relationship is good.\nWednesday\nI had a day off today which was good.  I managed to catch up on a few things which I just hadn't had time to do with being so busy.  I got a lot organised for the holiday at the week-end which we are all looking forward to, but we can't all get away together, mainly due to no new vet and our financial year but at least we will all get a bit of a break.\n[daughter] got her report today and has done very well, we are so proud of her so fingers crossed for her GCSEs.\nThursday\nI spoke to Mrs W today who has been very much in action since they got f+m and even got in touch with politician etc. to help give farmers that voice.  She mentioned the Public Inquiry and like a lot of people feels that maybe rather than having a finger pointing blaming session and we all have our ideas on that, she felt that maybe trying to prevent it happening again would be a better idea.  I personally have begun to realize recently just how much and how deep the feelings run, I think I am more emotional now than when we were in the thick of it.\nFriday\nSpent all day knuckling down to the end of year - but got a lot done.  [husband], [daughter] and (vet student) went out for the day. It is [husband]'s first real day off since October. And it did him good. We all went out in the evening to celebrate a friend's birthday - it was really good.\nSaturday\nHoliday again today - [husband], [daughter], my sister and her daughter have gone away today to the cottage near Newton Stewart we have rented for a week. The weather is great so they should have a lovely time, this could be our only holiday this year. [husband]'s back on Monday, then I go on Wednesday - confusing isn't it.  Never mind at least we will all get away for a few days.\nSunday\nEnd of year day. Stocktaking, counting.  Sunny outside - boring but never mind it's done.  Our vet student went home today. She had really enjoyed herself and we had enjoyed having her, she bought us all some lovely gifts. It will be nice to be on our own again but I will still miss her.\n\nWeek beginning Monday 1st April 02\n\nMonday 1st April\nI had a lovely day - my day.  [husband] and [daughter] still away - played in the garden. Went for a walk, read some of my book - lovely! [husband] came back at tea-time so we went out for a meal - perfect.\nTuesday\nWent to help [another vet] (vet) TT test at one of our farms.  He had restocked and was very positive about the future, it was a lovely day and great to be amongst cows again.\nWednesday - Sunday\nHOLS!!  Great I didn't realise just how much I needed it, the weather was great, warm, sunny very relaxing.  All charged up again. \n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 8th April 02\n\nMonday 8th April\nBack to work today.  I had quite a lot of catching up to do and couldn't really get into it, never mind it will all still be there tomorrow. Hope we can get away again this year even for a few days.\nTuesday\nQueen Mum's funeral today. It was very quiet. We gave the girls time off to watch the funeral, it was a nice funeral if you can have one and they commented on the poem which was read about being thankful for the life and not being sorry - I must get it.  Our nurse suggested about giving it to clients when they have their pets put to sleep, nice idea.\nWednesday\nBack into it now, I had 2 very difficult SOA to complete. Farmers are slowly getting the idea but find all the paperwork hard, but it's a good chance for them to call in for a chat and coffee.  I so seem to spend an awful lot of time doing that now but it's always good to see how they are coping.\nThursday\nThe large animal work has been rapidly increasing and it has been putting extra pressure on all the staff, we do really need another vet but another advert and still no response at all, but they all work very hard and we do manage to get through the work. We chatted to the staff and tried to reassure them about the future but how can you when if we can't get another vet, we simply can't provide the service our clients need. It is very worrying and we are not sure of the solution or the future.  I think after that paragraph I need a 'we can do it', kick!!\nFriday\nOur new receptionists are settling in well and I did some work with them today which was good, they are both very enthusiastic.  A few years ago a (I?) taught NVQ in Animal Care so one of our receptionists is keen to do this so I organised some work for her to do - enjoyed that.  Castrated a colt in the afternoon sad I know but I enjoyed that!!\n\nSaturday\nWent shopping with [daughter] in the morning to buy her some new clothes, we had a good time.  Then started the sewing for the YFC field day, we had to make shorts and T shirt for a sport event, well I haven't really done sewing from a pattern for years, so let's just say it was fun!!\nSunday\nWent to Newcastle for the day via some fields we had to check for a client's SOA.  Had a lovely time and saw the blinking or winking - I'm not sure which one it is, it was nice to have a day all together.\n\nWeek beginning Monday 15th April 02\n\nMonday 15th April\nVery busy again, I did 175 miles today just dropping things off for farmers and vets and trips to the lab. I also found a new supplier of Paper Towels which will save us a lot of money - see so easy pleased!! It was very tiring but I do like being out and about and I even managed two cups of coffee on farms. Before FMD I felt that the relationship between vets and farmers was changing but our relationship during FMD did change for the better, I feel good about that but not the way it happened. Me and [daughter] had a girls night in as [husband] was away, that was fun.\nTuesday 16th April\n[husband] away at BCVA he is new on the committee and seems to be enjoying it, there is only him and another vet in Scotland from the North invited onto the committee, so they are putting together some suggestions to put to the government re FMD. Poor [another vet] was very busy again. We need a vet !!!\nWednesday 17th April\nI went to see an elderly client of ours this morning who has an old dog. She is going into hospital and won't go as she is worried about the dog. I offered to have Kelly the dog while she was in hospital and told her if I found out she cancelled it I would be cross. I enjoy talking to her, for her 87 years she is very fit and funny.\nAt lunchtime we all attacked the Bayer Rep for free goodies for our open day, he was very co-operative and got away without a scratch! We didn't have an open day last year so it should be fun - back into a routine.\nThursday 18th April\nI bottomed my paperwork this morning, no interference, no phone calls, no SOA, very productive!! Me and [husband] went to see the finical advisor at the bank in the afternoon, it was good but we can't retire this year - never mind - he gave us some good ideas, so fingers crossed we might just be able to retire one day!!\nFriday 19th April\nVery busy - we need a vet repetitive isn't it. We were looking back in the visit book to this time last year - this year we had 21 calls which is a practise record last year we had 1!!. There is a lot of general "well this time last year" in some ways it all seems very unbelievable but in other ways it still very sad and emotional. I think more emotional now than when it was actually happening, when you see farmer’s eyes filling up talking about it. I used to worry about upsetting them, but I feel it is good to talk and it also helps me, I don't know if that’s right but it seems to work.\n\nSaturday 20th and Sunday 21st April\nHuge sewing for YFC field day. I also found out today that there is also baking and flower arranging - oh joy! \n\nWeek beginning Monday 22nd April 02\n\nMonday 22nd April\nGood day today - I've been to see my new girls (the cows over the road from us). It was the one we could see from the practice it was an awful day, they had lasted until June. Anyway it was good to see the new girls and I think I amused the farmer, we had a great time I've never enjoyed helping TT test more - on a high!\nTuesday 23rd April\nDriving around today I've been trying to listen to what the Euro inquiry people have been up to - not a lot from what I hear. I was talking to an old farmer in the afternoon and he wasn't impressed either and we agreed that it was all very well having these inquires, but were they going to help. I suppose only time will tell but I still feel that unless something is done about the cause then the chances are it will happen again, and to what extent and what has been learnt, and what will be different next time because the one thing that must be prevented is the effects on people, nobody really got that. I always remember the Samaritans advert; nobody seemed to care - probably no paperwork! Can you tell I've had a particularly bad day with the SOA, and the good news is they want to keep them permanently! Great. \nWednesday 24th April\nI went to see Mrs B again today and she had heard from the hospital again, she was going in next Tuesday so I arranged at collect K on Monday afternoon. I'm pleased she's having her op, I have also been in touch with one of her daughters in Devon, so hopefully everything should go well now.\nGood news we have heard of a vet at DEFRA who is looking for a job. [husband] phoned her and she is coming on Saturday afternoon so fingers crossed.\nThursday 25th April\nMy cows got the TT reading this morning and they are all okay. We have heard of a farm in Welton who had to have some killed as they had 7 reactors and they will need tested, there has been quite a few reactors in the country after restocking but with all the new stock coming into the county from all over the Country it was bound to happen.\nFriday 26th April \nSorted out the Open Day next Saturday got everything sorted, what we need, who's getting it etc. Me and [receptionist] went to Smuts fancy dress and decided budget wouldn't go to costumes, so we got some face paint and masks, Me and [daughter] and her friend and Mum went to see Westlife ant Newcastle, it was great fun.\nSaturday 27th April\nShopping, washing and sewing, I know how to show myself a good time. We all went to [another vet]'s at night for a BBQ it was great fun, cold but fun. We have been so lucky with [another vet] she is so nice and enthusiastic. We interviewed a vet today from DEFRA but she is a little uncertain what she wants to do, but she seems nice, and we told her what we needed so fingers crossed.\nSunday 28th April\n\tFinished my sewing.\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 29th April\n\nMonday\nThe Inquiry begins, for what good it will do. I find I have very mixed feelings, part of me thinks what's the point and another is expecting something but quite what I don't yet. Someone to blame, a solution, an ability to turn back the clock, a lesson to learn or an end. The last I know won't happen for a while and the repercussion will probably be felt for a few years yet.\nTuesday 30th April\nSorry ill in bed today with the cold from hell.\nWednesday 1st May\nMuch better today and we heard from the Vet we interviewed on Saturday and she has accepted our offer and can start on the 27th May - Yippee - holidays and easing of the pressure on [husband] and [another vet].\nI am still finding the saying "well this time last year". Mrs R phoned and mentioned the saying as it was a year ago today that their cattle were killed but she was phoning with good news - they had their first calf born, healthy and well and she wanted to tell us - lovely.\n Thursday 2nd May\nIts official SOA are here to stay - oh joy - so we contacted all our farmers who had not yet got one who we thought might need one. So lots of chatting and catching up - so quite nice.\nOpen day is on Saturday and there still seems to be an awful lot to organise but we have been busy all day and things are looking better and slightly more organised. I haven't seen or heard much of this enquiry, but when you do hear some I think we really went through that - weird.\nFriday 3rd May\nOpen Day panic, that’s all I've done today, but it is all coming together and it will be fine - hopefully. We have had quite a good response about people coming and people checking when it is and what's happening. So fingers crossed. Must go and bake my buns!!\nSaturday 4th May\nOpen Day\nIt went really well, we started at 2 p.m. and there was a steady stream of people all-enjoying themselves - hopefully. It stayed fine the whole time thankfully; I even got my face painted by [another vet] our vet. We managed to raise £96.71 for the 'Pat Dogs' and £27.35 for National Pet week. Not too bad for 2 hours. The staff came round for tea later which was nice and we had a jolly time.\nSunday 5th May\nGardened all day till I dropped, loved it. I grew quite fond of the garden last year as it was another little escape. \n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 6th May\nMonday 6th May\nBank Holiday - We had a lovely family day out which have been very rare, so it was surprising that we all got on - nearly. It still feels strange being able to go to places, not only as a family but also the fact that for so long we didn't really go anywhere.\n\n\nTuesday 7th May\nVery busy. I have been doing my hollering - as [receptionist] calls it! - what I have actually been doing is dropping off drugs and chatting. I call it customer relations. I still feel funny going onto farms, I have been to the gate for months, just momentarily I feel - can I - its hard to explain - it still feels normal to drop things in the bucket or bin rather than driving onto the farm. But its good and the coffee with proper milk is brill.\nWednesday 8th May\nMr G has got some cows, he was one we thought wouldn't restock as although both his sons are on the farm neither are interested in cows. One has horses and the other has everything else from turkeys, dogs, wallabies, monkeys, pheasants etc a real menagerie. Daddy G is 66 and couldn't decide weather to get more cows or not.  It was a bit of Dad says yes - sons say no. Anyway Dad won. To begin with I was on the sons side, but when he came in beaming and laughing and full of joy how could you disagree with him? Before they got FMD he had called into the practise and was having a coffee and was very upset, his friend had phoned him that morning to say he had FMD. Mr G just broke down and sobbed, it was one of my worst experiences. I found it so hard not to join him, but to be strong and console him, for him of the old gentlemen showed the depth of feeling and despair that was around. I have a lump now remembering it. Anyway in comparison if getting a few cows to milk can make such a big difference and be so happy - so what.\nThursday 9th May\nWent to a meeting in Preston with CL a vet from Brampton on the 'Marsh Report' which is regarding Vets the privilege to dispense drugs. Anyway firstly we got lost, very lost and then on arriving at the meeting eventually - it was all doom, gloom and depressing. Just when you thought things were getting on tract - bam - more changes, more paperwork. We will have to wait and see just how it effects us, but effect us it will.\nFriday 10th May\nI had a half-day off today and did fun things like washing, shopping and sorting bits and pieces - but I couldn't be a housewife all the time. I ended up leaving the cooking and washing and took the dog out instead, much more fun! \nSaturday 11th May\nTook [daughter] out to the Young Farmers Field Day - it was brill - I was only going to stay an hour, anyway I stayed all day. Everyone was there some I hadn't seen for ages. I had only spoke to them and some new faces. It was great to see them all together. I do feel farmers and their families are very special people, they have a wonderful sense of fun, they are very solid, they are very close - mind when you talk to them you find they are all related. They are also very proud of what they do. Its sad the public do not see them this way, gone are the days when the farmer was the hero who worked all hours to feed the nation. Well it was a wonderful day.\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 13th May\n\nMonday\nVery busy - Milk recorded this afternoon. It was good fun, they are preparing for their party on Saturday night it is a fancy dress party, me and [husband] are going but I can't say what as yet!! J mentioned that a friend of theirs was still not speaking to them because J never lost his cows, and yet J said he had tries to explain how hard it was for them waiting. His friend had accepted the invite to the party so here’s hopefully to friendship. It show's how feelings can so easily run away and be blown into something very silly, we are all on the same side after all. I see a lot of changes in a lot of people either bitterness, resentment, jealousy and emotionally drained in the whole situation. \nTuesday 14th May\nEarly morning milk recording. Got my outfit sorted for the fancy dress party on Saturday. Me and [friend?] went to try it on, it was good fun. \nWednesday 15th May\nI have done tons of backwards and forwarding today so I've been hearing about the Inquiry a bit today. I have decided I am going to the one in Carlisle out of interest and curiosity. I still feel what is it all for - so I may find out at the meeting. I am still waiting for the day FMD is not mentioned or I have some dealing regarding it.  \nThursday 16th May\nI spoke to a young couple who farm and they were enquiring about the changes in buying drugs - it caught me off guard as we knew it would happen but not when. I arranged to meet with them and chat to see what they wanted and I think I will go from there. People are farming in different ways than they used to pre FMD, weather it is a result of FMD or not I don't know but there are going to be a lot of changes heading our way.\nFriday 17th May\nAccountant day today - what a joy, no he is brilliant. He has helped so much over the years and last year he was brilliant. He did have one consolation - we wouldn't have to pay too much tax! This year anyway!\nSpoke to a rep in the afternoon, we have had all the usual offers that we get every year but this year they look good as if we buy more this year than last year we can get more off - that should be easy.\nSaturday 18th May\nParty night - I am Cruella Deville and [husband] is Bob the Builder. It was great seeing people we hadn't seen for ages if and when you could recognise them. It was a really good do. We met a client of ours and she is very anti everything re FMD, I feel she is really suffering and very bitter. She was little Bo Peep who had lost her sheep and didn't know where to find them but Mr Blair can, she preached all night to anyone she could. I feel sorry for her as people were avoiding her. Sad.\nSunday 19th May\nRecovered!\n\nWeek beginning Monday 20th May 02\n\nMonday\nA new cattle fertility programme has now become available to Vets and farmers. Two of the people who work came along to see us and discuss the advantages . We already had a few farmers keen in having the program installed. We discussed the program later with a few farmers and they were very keen recognising that they are going to need a program like this that can help them keep a tighter control on their herds fertility and health, which would enable them to remain in business. As most of them are realising, they are now running a company not a family concern. So it’s quite exciting another step forward hopefully.\nTuesday 21st May\nVery busy today everyone stretched, it will make life so much easier when our new vet, Anne, starts next week. I got caught up on my paperwork and also managed to catch up on some others bits that needed done. Even got all the SOA - DEFRA paperwork sorted - miracle.\nWednesday 22nd May\nWent to see two of our farmers today to discuss the Interherd Cattle Health and Fertility computer program. It was good to chat a listen to their plans, hopes and dreams and their concerns. A lot of farmers are still very unsure of the future and quite honestly are keeping their options open. Definitely gave me some pause for thought and a few concerns.\nThursday 23rd May\nQuiet day today. Mr W one of our farmers came today and we had a chat, he was also worried about the future. I hope some good positive news comes soon.\nFriday 24th May\n[friend] is having a few weeks off as our new vet is starting on Monday. [she] came to us 6 months 10 years ago and she has helped us out ever since, and so during FMD she offered to help. It was great to have her and she worked all hours as there was only her and [husband] for 5 months. So she is having some well deserved time off and will come back part time when we need her. I'll miss her but she says she's a lot of housework to catch up on!\nSaturday 25th and Sunday 26th May\nMy sister and niece came to stay for the weekend. We had a nice time just pottering here and there. \n\nWeek beginning Monday 27h May\n\nMonday\nNew vet started. She was very nervous but very keen. She had spent 10 months working for DEFRA and was relieved to be finished with it. She had mainly been involved with re-stocking. Anyway she managed very well and hopefully will settle well. \nTuesday 28th May\nWe booked a holiday today, our 1st holiday for about 2.5 years. So we are all very excited. We are going on a barge near Chester so hopefully the weather will be good. It will be nice to go away together especially after last year. I think we all need it. You do get used to staying at home but with all the trouble and upset last year, it will be nice. Can't wait.\nWednesday 29th May\nHad a lovely day. Ended up doing lots of visiting around the farms dropping drugs off and seeing another farm regarding the Interherd program. I went to a large dairy farm and they are a young couple who are keen and enthusiastic about their future so it was very positive and encouraging. It does give you a lift and helps put things back on track.\nThursday 30th May\nWe had a farmers coffee morning - not planned, they appeared at once so it was quite nice. Its quite interesting when you hear them together, there were two elderly and one younger one, and their opinions, hopes, thoughts and experiences were very different. \n\n\nFriday 31st May\nAnother mega paperwork day - exciting! Played in the garden this afternoon and walked the dog. \nSaturday 1st and Sunday 2nd June\nHad a weekend off together, we went visiting and walking. Very nice.\n\nWeek beginning 3rd June\n\nMonday\n[My sister and her daughter] came to visit.  We went into Carlisle but nothing very exciting.  The weather was very disappointing for all the organised events.  We went to a couple and got wet.  [daughter] and [niece] got some Jubilee mugs at one of them.\nWednesday\nI ended up helping (our new Vet and new Nurse) to operate so that was good.  I don’t get much chance to help in the op room these days so I enjoyed it thoroughly.  [New vet] is doing very well, she’s only been qualified 3 years and up to now has not done much small animal so I was worried she would not like it, but she seems to be enjoying it thoroughly and has settled in really well.  It seems like she has been here for ages.\nThursday\nWe had our first work experience from a school for 2 years.  She was very interested in the FMD and said they had done a bit on it at school so I went through a few of the details and we discussed the human side which she hadn’t really been discussed at school.  To finish I had 4 SOA to do as well – such joy.\nFriday\nI foolishly decided to decorate the surgery and op room.  You know when you think you have a good idea then realise you have bitten off more than you can chew – well by Sunday night I was dead – I got it all done and it did look better as nothing had been done last year but boy was I tired.\n\n\nWeek beginning 10th June\n\nMonday\nOur new Interherd disc arrived so I went and installed it on two farms, they were very keen to get started so it's quite exciting. They both have young sons who are keen to farm also so that helps. Sometimes I fee if we can just get through this and then other times I feel what's the point - but down the middle of the road we have to try and make it work and fight to make it work.   \nTuesday 11th June\nQuite busy today - but [daughter] had her brace taken off today so we had two visits to the hospital. She looks different without her brace now.\nWednesday 12th June\nHad a day off today - peaceful.\nThursday 13th June\nNMR came to see us to discuss how they can work with us, the Interherd and the farmer. It was interesting and competitively priced. So that is now another service we can offer to our farmers which can only help long term. I went to see another farmer to enter the Interherd; there is a lot of interest. We are trying to maintain a close contact with our farmers to enable us to meet their needs as things progress. In the near future there are going to be a lot of changes regarding the dispensing of drugs which could alter the way we work, this should be finalised by January 2003, but until then we are not sure just how they will affect us.\nFriday 14th, Saturday 15th and Sunday 16th June\n[husband] birthday so I have organised a surprise weekend away for him. We had a wonderful time and thankfully the weather was good.\n\n\nWeek beginning 17th June\n\nMonday\nVery quiet almost like last year but thankfully not for the same reason, they are all busy silaging.  Normality is returning.  But they are still finding it difficult with new herds not really knowing their new cows yet or how they react.  One farmer said it was like a new car, ‘you have to drive it a good few miles before you are at ease and the seat is comfy!!’  Well that’s one way of putting it.\nTuesday\nI went to see Mr J to discuss our new Interherd Program – a computer program that they can keep records of all their herds records and we can do analysis on them.  It’s quite exciting and interesting and shows farming is heading to the computer age and the farmers are learning another new skill – not sure they are all comfy with.  After I had shown Mr J the program and how to use it, he was keen but said that for now he would maybe go and cut down a few thistles!!!\nWeds/Thursday\nVery quiet – did some catching up on paperwork, then went for a walk and played outside in the garden.\nFriday\nQuery FMD in pigs.  The effect it had was very strange, part was horror, worry and another strange one was of expecting it.  Although you did get on with everything and it’s all sorting out and normality is returning it’s as if you are waiting for it to appear again.  I went back to watching the news listening to the radio, waiting, fingers crossed.  SAD DAY.\nSat/Sun\nQuiet weekend.  [husband] was working.  No results on the pigs yet.  The bush telegraph is working again.  We have had quite a number of worried farmers on the phone but no results as yet.\n\n\nWeek beginning 24th June\n\nMonday\nBreakthrough no FMD talk at all today.  I suddenly realised in the evening.  All is getting back to normal and everyone is coming to terms with the paperwork.  Farming does what it always has recently fallen from one disaster to another but they are very proud of their trade but do now feel let down by both the government and the public who for whatever reason don’t seem to have the same respect for farmers as they used to but this just may be due to how we all are and work these days.\nTuesday\nPigs given the all clear – everyone breathes a sigh of relief – It has a very chilling effect but again shows we are still clear of the disease – for now!!\nWeds\nOver the last few days we have had 6 dairy herds with very strange mastitis.  [husband] has been out to visit them with a vet from VLA Penrith but they as yet have not established a cause.  Samples show nothing and usual treatments don’t work.  So it is a case of new herds, new problems.\nThursday\nDAY OFF and FRIDAY\nSat/Sun\nHad my niece, we had a lovely time but very exhausting.\n\n\nWeek beginning 1st July\n\nMonday\nWe have invested the new Interherd computer programme.  Mon-Thurs this week I have been out and about visiting farmers loading and explaining the new programme.  Some of which I haven't been too far over a year, it's good to see them and chat FMD of course is always still at the top of the list followed by the milk price and all the regulations.  It's so amazing and sorrowful to see how deep the emotions run.  The stories and feelings they have are still very strong - but all are very emotional.  They are very resilient but do still have these deep feelings - you wonder how the effects will come out, but it will take time.\nFriday\nI did a SOA for the first time in ages.  I had to look back as to how to fill it in.  They are going to review these shortly so watch this space.  All the regulations are up for review in about November so we will see what they come up with.\nSunday\nWe have a vet student Alison for two weeks staying with us.  She came to Northumberland during FMD so was interested to know what had happened and where everything was at.  The more you go through it the easier it becomes.  She had been involved in the culling and had found it very hard; she did it for 1 month and was glad to leave. \n\n\nWeek beginning 8th July\n\nMonday/Tuesday\nI went milk recording, the farm I go to did not get FMD and they were saying how hard it had been for them and to some extent they did have as hard a time as people with FMD, just in different ways they had to do the checking for longer.  The farmer said he used to dread going into the sheds in a morning as he dreaded what he might find.  Also washing the milk takers, not being able to visit friends and family.  All the regulations re moving stock, just the not knowing they said it put quite a strain on them all.  One of the ways they coped was they built a tennis court and played a lot of other games and as a family this brought them closer.\nWeds\nInterherd Day - We held a meeting today to invite all the farmers interested in using the programme, the people who wrote the programme came along to talk to the farmers.  It was very good and the farmers seemed to enjoy themselves.  They have all found they are needing this sort of programme as with the new herds, they are unsure of how their fertilities are.\nThurs/Fri\nVisited Mr W and Mr J re Interherd - got a proper cup of coffee and proper milk, that's what I missed about last year and one of the reasons I go to visit them.\nSat/Sun\nVery busy small animal operated and nursed all week-end.  I was shattered - poor me!!\n\n\nWeek beginning 15th July\n\nMonday\nVisited [farmer] re Interherd programme, they are very positive about the future and have a son who is very keen.  I can see a difference in their attitude over the past few months, when I first started going they were unsure they had done the right thing and had seriously debated getting any stock back, if they could cope with the changes and the regulations and paperwork, but as [he] said 'he just loves farming' not that he doesn't know anything else he just loves farming.  And now they have progressed and working together within the family they have a good system and appear to be enjoying themselves.  The farm has been in the family for generations so financially they can manage.  I hope they make it, they are lovely people and a real inspiration.\nThe report on FMD and the recommendations is to be published soon, but from what we have heard so far it doesn't say anything we didn't already know and the recommendations are a little sketchy to say the least, they need a good sensible positive protocol for any future outbreak and at present if it all flared up again tomorrow, it would be the same mess. What have we learnt - hopefully time will tell.\nTuesday\n Sad news today, one of our clients who didn't get FMD has decided to give up.  He is on a tenanted farm.  The owners are not keen on any expansion or even repairing old buildings, to remain competitive, he sees he needs more cows but can't build any more sheds.  So in his words he has decided that there is maybe 'more to life’, he is in his mid forties, so he is going to sell up and try something new.  Very brave but sad. \nI think this will not be the first of our clients to do this.  Everyone asks about the future and at the moment nothing and nobody is certain.  Can the smaller farmers keep up?  Will the bigger ones get bigger?  What new regulations and paperwork will be brought in?  Only time will tell.\nWeds\n[husband] has been away at the Br Cattle Vet Ass (BCVA) Committee meeting.  He has been on the committee for about 18 months now.  He enjoys it and it is another feather in his cap.  Anyway he gave a talk on the problems post FMD and on the problems farmers were and had experienced.  He also gave a talk on some of the mastitis cases that had appeared in new herds.  We have had some very strange mastitis cases this year.  Anyway there was a competition for the best talk and [husband] won.  I was very proud of him.  None of the other vets there had ever seen anything like it, but some had found more bad mastitis in cows this year so whether it’s the change of area weather or housing, we shall see.\nThursday\nI had a visiting day today - good fun.  I went t see the farmers who have the Interherd so I had lots of coffee with 'proper milk' yummy.  It's also interesting to hear all the different stories and feelings, hopes and worries.  There are so many.  Most are ready for the challenge ahead but unfortunately some aren't.  Nobody knows how or when things will change but over the next couple of years they will, some good, some not so good.\nByee I'm off on my hols now.  Yippee!!\n\n\n\nHOLIDAY Week beginning 22nd July\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 29th July\n\nTuesday\nBack to work, the staff have coped really well, no falling out, no problems.  It's the first time in nearly two years we have left them so it was a bit worrying, but they are a great bunch, we are very lucky.  I feel so relaxed and it was great fun seeing through all my paperwork - NOT.  I had a bit of a lazy day but good.\nWeds\nPoor Mr G is having a terrible time with DEFRA. When we did his restocking TT test he had a reactor, so the cow was slaughtered but no lesions were found.  The herd had to be tested again 60 days later and another reactor was found and slaughtered.  Anyway he was due another test in 60 days and this was arranged for 9.00am.  9.00am came and went and at 10.00am he phoned to see what was happening.  They had forgotten, they could come out at 1pm.  No good, the last two times they had tested it had taken 6 hours to test the cows and they still needed milked which would mean a very late finish.  Mr graves explained this and was told not to complain he had bought the cows into the country with TB and he would have to do it when they said.  They know how to get people on their side don't they.  Anyway a heated discussion had pursued and eventually sense was seen.  The test was rearranged for another day at 9.00am so fingers crossed.\nThursday \nWe got money through today from the FMD recovery fund, it has been very useful and enabled us to do things we wouldn't normally be able to do.  We had our vans sign written, we got a laptop computer which had been great for the interherd programme, we got pens and pads to give out, [husband] was able to hold meetings with our farmers pre stocking to advise them what to look for etc.  So it has been extremely useful. It was nice to be given the money, some people say it would have been spent elsewhere but it helped us immensely and we feel we have spent it wisely. \nFri\nHad a paperwork catch up day today, it has been quiet recently due to holidays and harvesting but thankfully not like last year.  We looked back again and today last year we had no calls and today we had four, so although quiet not that bad.\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 5th August\n\nMonday\nVery quiet\nTuesday\nVery quiet\nWeds\nVery quiet\nThursday \n[daughter] got her first job\nFri\nTook [daughter] to my sisters for the week-end\nSat\nQuiet week-end\nSun\nGardening – Going on holiday again next week YIPPEE!!\n\nSorry it’s been very quiet this week as mentioned before this is usual as everyone is on holiday and the farmers are harvesting.  I have caught up and have been enjoying a few days just poddling, going out with [daughter].  Shopping – food, it’s nice to have some catch up time.\nOn Thursday [daughter] got a job – her first proper job well nearly – at the Travel inn at the bottom of our road, she is so excited and already planning what she is going to spend her hard earned cash on.\nOn Friday I took [daughter] to my sisters in Lancashire for the week-end.  I came back on Friday night and we decided to meet up at [husband]’s Mum and Dad’s caravan near Whitby on Monday for a week so another holiday.  I don’t know you have one and then another, anyway it should be good fun. \n\n HOLIDAY - Week beginning Monday 12thth August \n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 19thth August \n\nMonday\nVisited Mr A today to load Interherd onto his computer. He has definitely decided to sell up – he is hoping by early next year.  This has all been very sudden but his son is no longer interested and as Mr A said ‘who can blame him’.  With all the new regulations and paperwork a lot are finding it hard.\nTuesday \nWe had an Environment Agency visit this morning to check how and where we dispose of our waste in practice.  Thankfully we are doing everything properly but this visit took two and a half hours and lots of form filling in.  It is they that check these things but the extent in questionable!!\nMr G called in the afternoon – he is having problems with his cows, they keep going off colour.  We have so many new herds that started of doing well, happy and settling in fine then about 3-4 months after they arrived they start being ill, have mastitis, off colour, not eating, not milking properly – a wide variety.  It’s very strange; the vets don’t really know what’s happening, we have a few on regular blood sampling trying to find any changes.\nWeds\nMe and [husband] went to the accountant to see just how bad financially we really had done last year – and oh what a surprise it was bad.  In fact we nearly qualified for children’s Tax relief.  The main thing is we survived in a fashion!!  Hopefully it will be better next year!!\nThursday \nI visited two farmers today on the Interherd.  They are finding it brilliant, they have both recently had Farm Assurance visits and Interherd had helped them enormously and helped them reach the standards.  They both appreciate how much easier it is for them and less paperwork – heaven.  It’s so good to find something to help them.\nFri\nI have been phoning our main Drug Company’s Reps inviting them to our Open Evening – all very keen.  I think they just enjoy the crack.\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 26th August  \n\nVery quiet this week on both large and small animal, it must be the last holiday rush before going back to school.  We managed to do some catching up and decided a four day week would be nice!!\nI did quite a bit of playing on Interherd so that when I visited farmers about it I knew what they want to see and where to find it!  Most of them are interested in the medicines book as this keeps excellent stock records from when the drug/product is born, where it has gone and batch numbers and expiry dates.  These are all the information they need to produce when they get inspected and doing it manually can be very time consuming.\n\n\nWeek beginning 2nd September\n\nMonday 2nd September\nIRS 9.30, Garst Milk Rec\nTuesday\nGarst Milk Rec, Dog Course\nWeds\n[daughter] back to school, Exporting is back\nThursday\n Exporting\nFri\nChange date of open evening – GB way – now 15/10/02, Exporting\nSat\nOff [sister and niece].\nSun\nOff\nMonday\nEvery 2 years we are checked by our Radiographer Advisor to ensure everything is well and we are doing everything right.  They check the X-ray machine, our records and our monitoring records – we passed.  In the afternoon I went milk recording, it was very warm and very flyie, but good fun.  They are thinking of getting a new parlour, twice as big as Mr G feels in the future milk will have to be produced by quantity not quality, but it is difficult and expensive decision to make for him – we shall see.\nTue\nEarly morning milk recording this morning but I got a lovely breakfast with proper milk. I got to check the large animal when I got back.  We also started our new puppy-training course in the evening, that went very well, it is a more 1 to 1 basis, our Nurse runs it.  I go along and help with moral support – it was good fun but I had a very long day and went to bed when I got back.\nWeds\n[daughter] went back to school today, I’ll miss her following me round helping out and her ‘Mum can you take me……’.\nWe may have some exporting of sheep on Friday, there is a pedigree Texel sheep sale at H & H Borderway. It is the first exporting we have done in about 20 months.  As you can guess the paper work has tripled, there has been numerous phone calls to ad from DEFRA trying to make sense of it.  But I must say people up here are not good at clarifying what they have written – now there’s a surprise!!\nThursday\n I have spent the whole day either reading new expert regulations or running backwards and forwards for new paperwork, what we have to complete and what they should bring.  Well it could be fun.\nFriday\nWell full really isn’t the word I would use, we needed more paperwork, they needed more paperwork, it took most of the day and we only had 3 sheep to send.  Draining. The one good thing was seeing everyone at the Auction, some new faces and some have gone.\n\n\nWeek beginning 9th September\n\nMonday\nT's 7th birthday. We have another vet student studying at the moment for 2 weeks. We have had five this year so far and another before Christmas but she won't stay in the house as she is from Carlisle.  It is nice to have them and it makes us behave but I won't have as many next year.  They have all been interested in the FMD and some had a chance to help out which was an eye opener for them.  I spoke to [student] about it all, how it affected everyone, what happened and what didn't!!  Now talking about - almost a year from the last case - I don't find it as hard and I think I can hide how emotional it was, but at the time I wasn't. I was more angry.  I feel now FMD or the aftermath has sadly become everyday life, I don't rush for news on it or yearn information, I think because directly or indirectly we live with it everyday, it all has really become part of our lives.  It is very difficult to put into words or explain.\nI also went to visit one of my Interherd farmers in Lancaster; they are very pleased with it and are coping well.  Mrs M was crushed by the pet cow a month ago and was very lucky.  She had two broken legs, cuts and bruises; needless to say the cow has gone to greener pastures.  They are very resilient and are planning for the future and it is nice to be a part of their planning.  I also get proper milky coffee!!!  See so easy pleased.\nMilk recorded tonight at Mr G's so early morning tomorrow.  I'm still trying to persuade them into Interherd so finger crossed.\nTuesday \nEarly morning milk recording failed on the Interherd due to a cow breaking a leg - I have never actually experienced it happening before. I generally hear farmers needing a slaughter cert. Or a cow put down to see it and the family's reaction - I was humbled I think is the word.  It was an accident that can happen but the look on their faces was such deep sorrow - the father even places his head in his hands.  At breakfast we all talked about it, she was only a heifer getting ready to be served for the let time, she was a difficult birth, they had all helped, well bred and she was jet black with a huge white spot on her side so no prizes for guessing the name.  But as the farmer said you can't look after them, feed them, care for them, day in, day out without caring about them or why would you do it.\nIn the afternoon I attended a course on management.  Employment law, customer service at Barnard Castle, it went on till 9 pm with dinner after so I decided to stay over - very spoilt.  Good course, excellent food, lovely hotel.\nWednesday\nCame back from my course leisurely and stopped at Penrith for a bit of shopping - very pleasant. I'm not a good shopper but it was nice. I had to get back for 11 am as \nwe were having a new credit card machine fitted.  He duly arrived - well what an obnoxious man, he was moaning because we had a switchboard, he had to dial 9, this was wrong, that was wrong and then was he not going to get offered a coffee, to which he was told 'not without the special word', he was a bit aghast and said please.  I swear if I had not just come from a course explaining customer service, I would have murdered him!!  God bless courses and of course credit card machine men!!!\nIn the afternoon I was visited by the RSPCA advertising company, did we want an advert in their leaflet?  Anyway it was £640 for quarter of a page for 2 years so I said we couldn't afford it, it suddenly dropped to £410, I was a little suspect so I got [receptionist] to quietly check if the company were connected to the RSPCA. Anyway while I was waiting I said it was still a little bit more than we could afford what with FMD - see it is useful and true - he then said he could do it for £210, by which time [she] had confirmed they were with the RSPCA, so I said yes thank you - Bargain or Rip Off!!\nThursday\nI tried to get my head round isolation units and tried to explain to a farmer about them. I think we got there eventually.  When [husband] got back I got him to explain in simple English and it all made a lot more sense.  They will be handy for people selling and buying stock, but have as always the guidelines must have been written by someone who has never seen a farm or fields!!\nFriday\nCaught up on paperwork and trolleyed about.  Busy doing not a lot - I think the term is.  Anyway it was good.\n\n\nWeek beginning 16th September\n\nThis week has been appraisal week for the staff.  We didn't do any last year so I thought we had better get back into the swing of things.\nI quite enjoy the appraisals - it's a great opportunity to have a real good sort out, get new ideas and try and recognise any potential problems.\nWe started doing appraisals at bout 4 years ago and to start off with everyone was petrified and worried, but it was nice to see them actually excited and enjoyed it.\nIt is quite time consuming but very worthwhile so not much out and about this week\n\n\n\nWeek beginning 23rd September\n\nMonday\nAnother suspect case.  The main difference about this was as with other ones, I felt cold, sick, scared, this one was better.  I felt it was not going to be positive, whether it's a case of there have been a few now - not positive and this is just another one or confident that it no way could be positive.  I definitely wasn't as worried.  I don't know if that is being blasé (can't spell) - sorry.  But definitely  different.\nTuesday\nJust nicely busy today, just enough to keep everyone busy.  [husband] and (other vet) are away this week so that just leaves [new vet] and [other vet].  So it was a little worrying if it got busy.  It was the last of our dog training courses tonight; they all passed their tests well, and were very pleased with the progress they had made.  It was the first 4 week course we had run and feedback was very positive.  Our head nurse had put in an awful lot of work fir it so I was very pleased for her as well.  The next one is planned for November.\nWeds\nExperts are going to start again at H&H tomorrow and Friday.  It will be the first ones we have done for about 18 months. Surprisingly the paperwork for our side has not changed much but the Irish paperwork is horrendous.  Anyway after several phone calls to DERFA and DARD and various farmers who are wishing to sell at the sale I think we have it sorted. We will see tomorrow.\nThursday and Friday\nI've put these into one as that is how it felt.  After being so confident that we had everything in place to be able to export the sheep first thing Thursday morning DARD (like Irish DEFRA) changed the regulations and paperwork - such joy.  As you can imagine this sent everyone in a state of frenzy and another buzby full of phone calls. We didn't have the paperwork sorted when people had bought sheep and were wanting to leave, now some tempers are reaching fever pitch. Well we did manage to export them away on Thursday night - 3 hours late so they had to book different ferries. All done and dusted by Friday.  We were busy congratulating ourselves on achieving the impossible and how we all had worked hard to accomplish it and now had several more names on our Christmas card list - yes you guessed we had a phone call from well let me say one not happy chappy. After having no sleep, catching a late ferry waiting for the paperwork to arrive at Larne port, all the sheep were impounded. DARD had added one more form to their list of requirements and had forgotten to send them through or mention them - hours of phone calls and faxing.  Later I am very pleased to say that the sheep were released and free to go.\n\n\nWeek beginning 7th October\n\nMonday 7th October\nI made some trial arrangements for our Open Evening next Tuesday, all’s ready now.  They are a good night out and we all enjoy it.  We haven’t had one for a few years so it should be good.\nTuesday\nFor a while now we’ve been wondering if the Practice should invest in a house for an Assistant.  We have had a response to the advert for our new vet, so we thought we would go house hunting – anyway it wasn’t as much fun as I first thought, to start with obviously they are quite a price and it really isn’t that easy so we looked at one cardboard box for £70,000 and apparently it went for 82K – frightening.  Well we can keep on looking.  We have a vet coming for an interview on Saturday so fingers crossed.\nI’m off tomorrow and away at BVNA Congress over the weekend so I’m looking forward to that.\n\n\nWeek beginning 14th October\n\nMonday 14th October\nWe had a really good time at the BVNA (British Veterinary Nurse Assistant) Congress, we did loads of lectures a learned a few new things, got loads of freebies from the trade stands and ordered a new vaporiser for the anaesthetic machine which uses less Isoflo/Oxygen.  We also had a good Halloween Ball!!  Stayed up too late.  We got back on Sunday evening after 3 days of Congress and I was just settling down and filling in [husband] and [daughter] on what we had done when [another vet] came in wanting a hand with a caesarean on a dog, ah well nothing like getting back into it!!\nToday anyway feeling very tired we had to start getting ready for Open evening tomorrow night for the farmers.  So there was a lot of sorting out and tidying up to do as we open the house up as well.  We haven’t had one for a couple of years so it was quite exciting.  I really enjoy them, it’s great to have the farmers round, it’s mainly a nosh and natter night, but this year some of the drug companies paid for it, they have their stands in various parts of the house and surgery and normally everyone has a good time.\nTuesday\nOpen Evening Day – very busy.  Tidying up and moving things around.  Everyone helped, it’s good the staff are so excited about it as well, they have all mucked in and as usual did us proud.  The evening itself was brilliant it was so nice to see them all enjoying themselves and there is nothing farmers like better than a good natter, food and beer.  Quite a few said they had missed the Open Evening last year due to FMD.  As far as PR goes, definitely worth it.\nWednesday\nJust clearing up and sorting out.  All the staff said they had had good feedback.  So well done to everyone.\nThursday\nBack to it now, Got new Interherd update so I spent quite a lot of the day seeing what new buttons it had, it’s very clever.  Interherd is sold by NMR now and they are helping us sell it to the farmers whose life and paperwork hope to make easier.  The man in charge at NMR is coming to see us next week to explain how the milk recording side all ties in between NMR and Interherd.\nFriday\nToday was one of those when you rush round all day but you feel unsure of what you have actually done.  Very busy on both large and small side.  It’s very tiring but I do prefer it when we’re busy.\n\nWeek Beginning 21st October\n\nMonday 21st October\nMonday to Wednesday – off\nThursday\nHad a meeting with ID from NMR re Interherd.  They are going to give us cheap milk recording prices to help promote NMR and Interherd, they have also released a version of Interherd for farmers and we were given the first one in the country to trial and see what they thought.  It was very encouraging as NMR in the past years have gained themselves a slightly unpopular feel especially in Cumbria but they now seem to see this and are trying very hard and are committed to improving it.  They did a survey and now with area, herd size etc. the majority of dairy herds are in Cumbria even post FMD.  So fingers crossed.\nFriday\nA good day today.  [husband] was away at a BCVA Council meeting (Br. Cattle Vets Ass) and normally it goes mad, don’t know why.  Anyway it didn’t today, everyone was busy but not madly.  The large animal side is very up and down at present, but it is now TT and Blood testing season.  There are quite a lot of restocked herds to do as they are having to be done every year as opposed to 4 yearly.  We also have to test everything.  It is very time consuming and if they have a TT test then it is a two day job.  So for both the farmer and us, it is two days of the week when you can’t do anything else.\n\n\nWeek Beginning 28th October\n\nMonday 28th October\nWe have been asked by Newton Rigg College if we would be interested in teaching the animal care courses at the college so me and Vicky went along.  It was quite interesting and we thought if we could do it together it would work, so we said we would think about it and let them know.\nWent milk recording in the afternoon.  I do enjoy playing and the crack.\nTuesday\nMilk recorded again and discussed Interherd with them so we are going to use them as the pilot for the NMR/Interherd job, so that will be interesting.  Regarding the Newton Rigg offer we won’t be able to do it as our part time Nurse is leaving us.  She has been offered a place at Dalston Vets.  She will be able to train as a Vet Nurse there as we don’t do that in our Practice, so that will leave us short staffed.  It is sad but everything happens for a reason so we are now Vet and nurse hunting so more advertising and interviewing.\nWeds\nWe are sponsoring a class at the Northern Expo Holstein/Friesian shows.  We have a stand and a good natter.  I took some photos of a few cows and some freebies.  It was a good night, Barbara came with me and she presented the prize for our class.  The standard of cattle was amazing and it was a really good show.\nThursday\nOut of the photos I took for the Northern Expo I decided to make a photo album.  So I went round a few other farms photographing, it was good fun and nice to see that we do have some very good stock\nFriday\nGot a phone call today from my sister, she has sold her house in Lancaster and is moving up near us so that’s very exciting.  Otherwise a quiet day today.  \n\n\nWeek beginning 4th November\n\nMonday 4th November\nI went to show Mr J the new Interherd farmers version.  He was very interested and thought it would save a lot of paperwork and time, they all say that the paperwork since FMD has increased immensely along with the regulations.\nTuesday\nWe have decided to have a TV in the waiting room, to advertise products, services staff etc.  The man from Channel 6 came and took information so it should arrive next week, so it will be interesting to see how it works.\nWeds\nWe went to the bank today to see the financial advisor as this is a free service and very useful.  We have decided to buy a house for my sister to live in when she moves up and it will be an investment as well.  A bit of security just in case, as last year we discovered just how quick things can change, we went for just over 3 months with not a lot of money coming in and still wages to pay.  So we are now house hunting.    \n\n\nWeek beginning 11th November\n\nMonday 11th November\nOne of our vets has recently started her DBR (Dip in Bovine Reproduction) course at Liverpool. As part of her studies she is looking at the cows' milk quality pre and post calving to see if any effects are relevant to their overall performance and milk production and health.\nSo we collect milk samples from certain cows twice a week over the period of lactation and she is going to test them so watch this space - we have been very lucky with [another vet], her enthusiasm is boundless and she has become a very important member of our team.\nI have persuaded Mr J of B farm to milk record with us so that's more early morning jaunts!  The Interherd and NMR trial is nearly ready so hopefully by middle of December everything should be set up and running - hopefully!\nTuesday\n[two farmers] are milk reading today so I had a nice little trolly about.  I treated myself to some of Mr R's ice cream, very nice, well you have to support them, their new shop on the farm is doing very well.\nI loaded my first farmer version Interherd onto Mr W's computer, he is very impressed and very keen and thankfully it all worked well.\nWednesday\nWe have 'computer bugs' not good. So I have spent most of the day on the phone talking to the debugging man.\nThursday\nStill got bugs, we've had to run a bug fixer disc through all seven computers, it takes ages, pee'd off, fed up going back to pen and paper.\nFriday\nI must have sounded fed up as the lovely little man came to fix all the computers, he had to use 3 different discs due to all the different bugs.\nHad a meeting to discuss the NMR milk recording and we have quite a lot of farmers' interested mainly because we have got a good price for NMR so fingers crossed.\nThe bugs are fixed - yipeee.\n\n\nWeek beginning 18th November\n\nMonday 18th November\nDue to our junior Nurse leaving, I have been interviewing all week, we have had a lot of enquiries.  I decided to invite any possibles to come and play for the morning to see what they thought and how they got on with the staff.\nThere is one that has potential and sounds very nice but she can't make it until next Monday.\nThere was one that wrote a really good letter, but when she came in, well she was sweet, but not really suitable.\nOn Friday [nurse] left, we had a little party.  I hope she copes okay.  She bought me a lovely cow ornament to say 'thank you', it was lovely.\n\n\nWeek beginning 25th November\n\nMonday 25th November\nEllen came for her interview, very good.  She is keen, had experience, happy with the hours so she is coming back tomorrow afternoon for a play.\nWe all went out for our vet who is leaving on Friday to be a chalet maid in a French ski resort till April, it will be very sad to see her leave.  Unfortunately still no joy on the new vet front, but we are going to leave it till the New Year and try then. [other vet] is going to cover but unfortunately it means [husband]'s on duty more, it's a bit reminiscent of FMD, but we'll manage.\nTuesday/Wednesday\nFeeling very sorry for myself, got a bad cold, I got sent to my room because everyone was fed up of me sneezing all over them, honestly I was only 'shanning'.\nThursday\nMuch better today.  I sorted a whole load of Interherd data out and had a good play with it.\nHeard about Nestle's cancelling contracts next year from one of our farmers.  He felt a little unsure quite how it would affect them and that they were being dealt another kick in the teeth.  It's quite amazing how many I have heard questioning why they went back into farming.  We are feeling the effects, we didn't seem to be called out as often or they don't want the cows treated as its extra expense.  At the end of FMD they said over the next couple of years there would be changes in the way farmers and how many farmers worked. It's frightening to see it actually starting to happen and seeing the effects on our business.  Everyone agrees the whole industry has changed for the worst and is not the same and there is no pleasure now.\nAfter all that a total contrast, me and [daughter] went Christmas shopping and had a lovely time, we met [husband] after surgery and went for a pizza - lovely night.\nFriday\nEveryone's talking about Nestle's now and quite a few are angry.  Some aren't surprised and others just seem to resign themselves to it.\nWe had a lunch party for [leaving vet] today, it was good.  We gave her pressies. Although she has only been here a few months she will be greatly missed by everyone, you never know, she may come back one day.\nGood news I offered Ellen the nurse's job and she's accepted, I think she will do very well.\n\n\nWeek beginning 2nd December\n\nMonday 2nd December\nSpent all morning trolling around the countryside collecting [another vet]'s milk samples for her DBR, it was a lovely morning. Chatted to a few farmers.  A lot were still talking about Nestles.\nTuesday\nHad a meeting to clarify the start of the NMR milk recording, gave her all the information she needed to set up the herds. It's great to be able to offer the farmers a good cheaper deal.\nStaff Xmas party. It was good; everyone seemed to have a good time.\nWednesday\nDay off shopping - what joy.\nThursday\nHad an Interherd disaster today.  I couldn't get it load what normally takes 15 minutes instead took 2 and a half hours.  Anyway we succeeded eventually. They have just bought some in calf heifers so he was keen to keep up to date records and information.  We only have one more farmer to restock now and then that's everyone, it will probably work out at about 15% drop in work etc.  While waiting for Interherd to load, they were telling me that they had been approached asking them if they wanted to appeal against the amount of money they had received for the cattle, they said they wouldn't as they felt they had already been overpaid, not all farmers are money grabbers apparently.\nFriday\n[daughter] starts her mock exams now for the next fortnight. I have been waiting for the moods to start but as yet all is quiet, long may it last. She is very calm about it and has actually been revising quite hard, she has the ability. All she has to do is concentrate.\nWork wise I've done not a lot, it's one of the perks!!!  I've wandered around just playing doing nice jobs, quite a change. \n\n\nWeek beginning 9th December\n\nMonday 9th December\n[daughter]’s 16th birthday, scary, even worse she can learn to drive next year, never mind enjoy the safety!  We went out for lunch and did some shopping – it was good.  I don’t normally like shopping but we both enjoyed it.\nCame back to mayhem – a client (small animal) had been in complaining about his bill and had caused a stink – anyway I phoned him and once we had gone through everything he seemed happy. Hopefully he had either misunderstood or hadn’t had things explained to him – although difficult it is, better people say something rather than stewing over it and making it into something it’s not.  The small animal does seem to have more problems that way than the large animal.  I suppose the large animal is also a business but it doesn’t stop them caring.  I don’t think they could do what they do and work the hours they work if they didn’t care – sometimes they get a hard press, but I think it’s the few that get the publicity unfortunately.  I like it when farmers phone to say they have a sick cow and we ask what it’s doing and quite often the reply is she’s just not herself – need you say anymore.\nTuesday \nI’m going out to play milk recording with a new person via Interherd, he is one of our clients.  He is quite a character, old fashioned and yet in his thirties.  It was good he is very passionate about farming and its survival.  He has a lot of ideas he wants to try with different cows, he has just bought some Jerseys – hence he wants to record to see if there are benefits.  We milked 60 cows in 2 hours. At my other farm we milk 190 in that time – it’s good to see both ways.\nWeds\nEarly morning milk recording – good fun a lot more relaxed than my other farm.  Went to hairdressers straight after smelling of cows with pooh!! In my hair.  It’s a good job I know her well and she didn’t complain too much!!  The rest of the day was quite pleasant, a bit of paperwork and a skive (sorry can’t spell) to the lab.\nThursday/Friday\nWow, I think we had our Christmas rush, they should all be shopping it has been very busy. I do prefer it although a sit down now and then would be good.  Me and (Nurse) had a good time on Friday afternoon. I helped her bath and groom a dog; it was so naughty – nicely. We were both sweating buckets and soaked to the skin by the end, but we had a good laugh.\n\nWeek beginning 16th December\n\nMonday 16th December\nWith [daughter]’s mock exams she has needed runs to and from school at various times so ‘Mum’s taxi’ has been on overtime. She has been very calm about it – so we shall see.\nThursday was eventful as I now have an expectant Nurse and Vet – watch where you sit. Unfortunately there is a worry for both of them.  Our nurse/Evening receptionist is worried she may be losing hers and has had several tests and is obviously worried. She is going in for a scan on Tuesday so fingers crossed (Vet) is also pregnant – they have been trying for a while but has something with a long name wrong with her which causes her to miscarriage so she is pleased/worried/excited/scared and only 4 weeks so no lambing for her.  She is quite happy continuing with all other work for now.  I hope everything is ok with them both.  It can be difficult working with animals and being pregnant but as long as they are careful, they should be ok.\n\n\nWeek beginning 23rd December\n\nMonday 23rd December\nSo much for getting quiet for Christmas, we have had our busiest time for a few years which is good.  We are going to try advertising in the New year for a new Vet especially now [another vet] is expecting, it will all depend how she does, we may even need two. As even when [another vet] is on duty now, [husband] has to be on standby in case of any lambings, we have a couple of farmers starting anytime. \nMilk recording tonight as well but we now do it with NMR (well not literally) so I only need record once so not too bad and worked in will with Xmas round the corner and no mince pies made yet.\nTuesday\n[nurse] phoned, they are being positive at the moment, her hormone levels have increased and she has not bled anymore, it doesn’t stop them worrying though.\nSurgery was busy but we did finish by 1.30pm. My sister and [niece] arrived all set – off we go.\nChristmas was ace – very relaxing. Good fun, loads of pressies, didn’t have time to eat, too busy playing and it was so warm.\nFriday\nBack to work – a very busy day – lots of calls and surgery appointments, even some operations.  (Receptionist) was off so I was in charge, I enjoyed it, finding out what everyone got for Christmas.\n\n\nWeek beginning 30th December\n\nMonday 30th December\nBusy day, only me and [receptionist] in, thought it would be quiet – wrong.  Never mind, we coped.\nTuesday\n[nurse] has lost her baby or is losing it, they can’t see anything on the scan just an empty sac so she is going for a – don’t know what they call it but you can take some tablets that clear everything away. She is obviously so upset, what do you say.  She’s going to drop her other two off while she goes in – it is so sad.\nThursday 2nd January\nEverybody’s back again full crew, no-one knowing what day it is.  I could get used to the split weeks but at the moment I need it stuck to my head.  Quite busy as well which is good.  Trying to arrange TT test but farmers are never keen on them, you have to threaten them with Defra coming to do it – that works!!!\nFriday\nWent blood sampling sheep for scrapie with [husband] all day.  It was a beautiful day, very cold but we had fun, only we were stood next to a stream – women torture – cold air and running water, I had to nip back to the van for various things!!  By the time we finished I was frozen.\nThe test was part of the National Scrapie Plan which is to sample sheep for scrapie so if or when they find BSE in sheep, these ones will, or should be okay as there is a plan to slaughter the national herd if BSE is found, but as the farmer said they have already had human G. pigs for years as the Indians eat sheep brains and before the removal of bone meal and very dubious scabby sheep and they have not had a problem.  So we will wait and see.\n\n\nWeek beginning 6th January 2003\n\nMon 6th January 2003\nOur new nurse started today.  She managed very well and didn’t seem too confused when she went home.  She has worked in kennels before, she is very keen – fingers crossed.\n[another vet] is doing her DBR and for part of this she has to do a study, she has decided to look at progesterone and other levels in cows post calving for 6 weeks to see what happens.  So we collect a sample from each new calved cow and split it into 3 smaller pots and freeze awaiting testing in Holland.  Very exciting but quite boring, the results should be interesting though – hopefully.\nTuesday\nYou forget all the explaining you have to do when somebody new starts, so me and [nurse] have written a step by step guide to C, well sort of.  It’s all the little things.  We haven’t had a new nurse for a while, so hopefully the book can be used for other new people.  It took a bit of doing but we were pleased with it in the end.\nI spoke to Mr G re having Interherd at the farm.  All I have to do now is get round to see him – he is very hard to pin down, but we’ll try.\nWeds\n[new nurse] liked her new book.  She is doing very well and it’s nice for us too.  I always find it quite refreshing when someone is genuinely enthusiastic.  With us all being close and having their own areas it’s good to show someone else but can be scary when you see just how much they all do.\nThursday\nMilk pot day again today, the good thing is going to pick up the samples as you get a natter.  So Monday and Thursday, the samples are collected, split and frozen – it’s quite time consuming and I’ve just realised I didn’t ask [another vet] how long she was doing it for!!\nFriday\nWe have decided to try and get the Accounts up to date to see how things are going – bar not being able to find a vet.  So it’s one of those jobs you always mean to keep on top of but never quite manage because it’s not much fun.  Interruptions, queries and assistance were very welcome, but I got a good start.\n\n\nWeek beginning 13th January\n\nMonday 13th Jan\nA has started working with us again, just two days a week.  This will help a lot and help take the pressure off for surgery times etc.  I got to spend the day helping with TT testing – it was good fun and it stayed fine.  It was a good day.\nTuesday\nI had a milk recording day today – 3 in total.  We have started using NMR now so it was all new paperwork etc.  This is going to be cheaper for the farmers and works with the Interherd programme.  Anyway it all went well and everybody’s samples got away.\nWeds\nMilk recorded again at one of the three farms first thing.  Everytime I go he has a new plan as to how to make some money.  This month it is he is going to produce a new breed of cow – a jersey X MRI so we will see how that goes.\nThursday and Friday\nJust catching up on paperwork, me and [nurse] did some training with the new nurse.  She is settling in really well and very keen.\n\n\nWeek beginning 20th January\n\nMonday 20th January – Weds\nDecorated our bedroom.  It looks brill, it was in desperate need of it.  I like decorating, it’s good and messy. \nThursday\nI went on my Brucellosis testing training course at the VLC.  It was good fun.  This means that after I have now tested 150 cattle I get a licence which will enable me to blood test – this in turn will hopefully free up a vet.  It will also give DEFRA a bank of blood tester for any future outbreak – crafty.  They used to charge about £800 for this course, miraculously it’s now free – clever.\nFriday\nWe have had a reply to our advert – hoorah!  Well actually two, they are both foreign, one is in Germany and the other S. Africa, so we are waiting for their CVs – fingers crossed.\nDEFRA have now changed the 20 day standstill to 6 days – the general opinion seemed to be – so – it would be interesting to actually find out if and how well all the regulations are actually working, not well I feel would be the answer.\n\n\nWeek beginning 27th January\n\nMon – Weds\nVery busy.  I seem to have spent a lot of it in my car, dropping off, tooing and froing, which was nice but I do lose touch with the happenings at the surgery and on Tuesday, things had obviously got fraught, so I sorted those out and smoothed the creases, we are very lucky to have such dedicated staff.  Due to vet shortage and [another vet]’s pregnancy it does add extra pressure to everyone.  None of the incidents were very serious and easily sorted.\nThursday\nI went with my sister to take [niece] to the hospital as since she was born, she has had a lump on the side of her head above her eye so they Xrayed it.  That was fun persuading her to lie still.  I stayed overnight and came back Friday.\n\n\nWeek beginning 3rd February\n\nMonday 3rd Feb\nI did my first blood sample on a live cow today as it was an abortion enquiry and due to [another vet]’s pregnancy she is not doing them ad I need the practice.  It was good fun and I hit the 2nd time so I was very pleased.  Only another 145 to go before I get my licence.\nTuesday\nI completed the accounts today to go to the accountants, it was great fun.  I hope they come up with good news but the future is worrying – a backlash from the farmers not being confident.\nWeds\nI can’t remember if I told you [vet] was expecting.  Anyway she went for her first scan today and so far so good.  It is very worrying as she has a problem where she produces duff eggs and miscarriages.  She wants to carry on as normal as possible for now, but no sheep or abortions etc.  I hop it works this time as this is her 4th attempt.\nThursday and Friday\nVery nice, everything worked well, no mad rushes, time to catch up.  We discussed reducing some of the farm drugs as they are able to buy the over the internet with a prescription.  All the laws and rules will more than likely be changing at the beginning of March due to a report done for the Govt regarding drugs and animal use.  It will make a difference to how we operate as if they remove the vet surgeon’s right\nto prescribe drugs i.e. vets can only write prescriptions and not dispense drugs – it could alter things completely.  One way or another if farmers require the service, they are going to have to pay for it, up to now it has always been that a reasonable mark up is put on the drugs (this is normally 50%) and this will keep professional fees down.  If vets are not getting the money made on drugs and therefore has to put his fees up, although the farmer may be buying his drugs cheaper via the internet, will he actually save that much – I wonder.\nSo anyway we have been getting more and more pressure from a number of our farmers to compete with the internet prices. So we have selected a few products and it they pay at the time they can get about 20% off the price.  So watch this space and we will see what happens.\n\n\nWeek beginning 10th February\n\nMonday 10th Feb\nThe week\nTo sum up a blur, with both sad and very funny memories.  To start, [receptionist] was on holiday and it always seems to happen as soon as someone is off, we get very, very busy.  When everyone is in it ticks along nicely mostly/  I do enjoy it when it’s busy but we worked 3, 13 hour days – not food but everyone worked really hard, they are excellent staff.\nOn a sad note [vet] went for her 11 week scan on Tuesday and the baby had died, she was distraught.  She has a condition that causes this and this was her 4th miscarriage.  It’s so sad, I called to see her and she just hugged me and cried, what do you say.  She had to have some tablets to clear away the placenta etc. She was gutted as this is the longest she had ever been pregnant and she thought she’s cracked it.  It’s just so sad.\nMy funny tale for the week on a completely different note, but helped immensely, was (other vet) on Thursday.  We were all very, very busy and a farmer called in, I was very behind, they still had ops to do and this farmer settled herself down for a big chat – normally if I say I have a lot on she departs, but no not today it was obviously my turn.  (vet) came over from the op room and I know it was naughty but I wrote on a card ‘Can I have some help’ – i.e. to free myself.  Well instead of reading the note quietly – oh no – she read it out at the top of her voice and added, “what do you need help for?”  After I had crawled out of the hole that had opened up in the earth to swallow me I pointed to the message book to try and hide my predicament while she said again loudly, “so what do you want help for?”.  Well I gave up and decided to just fall into the hole, got rid of [vet] back to the op room and continued alone with my predicament.  After the farmer had gone who thankfully seemed oblivious to what had happened, I went in search of [vet] to kill her.  Anyway it cheered us all up they do say laughter is the best medicine but I can think of better ways. \n\n\nWeek beginning 17th February\n\nMonday 17th Feb\n[vet who lost baby] came back to work, she is very upset and weepy, everyone has been lovely with her.  Hopefully it is just time and TLC.  We are very busy again and have had an enquiry from a farmer who is thinking of changing vets, which is really good news, that is three new farmers in total now if only we had enough vets.  Four practices around Carlisle have advertised recently and none of the positions have been filled – it’s quite worrying.\nTuesday\nI took [vet who lost baby] home again today, she is not well and in a lot of pain, so she’s gone back to bed. I hope she’s feeling better soon.  Usual day otherwise.\nWeds\n[vet] is a lot better today apparently they think it may be the cocodamol she was taking.  She was a lot happier, a little drained, but ok.\nMr W came in today; his cows are arriving on Friday hopefully.  This will be our last farm to restock; he has had a lot of alterations done to the farm and a new parlour, so it’s quite exciting.\nThursday\nWe did some sheep exports for slaughter from Longtown today, the first of that sort of thing since FMD.  It was of course a bit of a faf as they now have to be retagged and checked so it takes a little longer.  In the afternoon I had a meeting with SR from University of reading.  She is planning to do research regarding the Interherd programme and she had picked 3 Vet Practices to see how the programme helps the vets and the farmers work better together and the improvements it makes to the farmers’ record keeping.  So she is going to meet 3 of our farmers who use Interherd and interview them and give them free training so that should please them.\nFri\nDay off, me and [daughter] went to Newcastle shopping – I’m not a good shopper but I did behave and we had a good day.  Mr W’s cows arrived all fit and healthy so that is us complete now – ass we were if not better.\nSad news though, we heard one of our farmers dropped down dead suddenly.  It was very sad, as we had seen him in the morning and he was his normal self so it was quite a shock. His family must be devastated, mind, if there’s a good way to go that’s it.\n\n\nWeek beginning 24th February\n\nMonday 24th Feb\n[another vet] a lot better today almost back to her normal cheery self, she is a lot more positive.  We took the bull by the horns so to speak and reduced the prices of some drugs.  We will have to wait until the 10th March before we find out what the government is going to do regarding the selling of drugs, but the farmers are very pleased.\nTuesday\nI got another phone call from Mr C and he said he would like to change vets to us, so good news.  [husband] spoke to his old vet and explained why etc.  It is very difficult and I think that in the future there may be more changing of vets, where as in the past, it never happened, but even farmers appreciate competition now, it again is worrying.\nMilk recorded at Mr G tonight, it’s always good crack as they say.\nWeds\nMilk recorded early morning and then showed them the Interherd programme.  They are going to try it I think.\nIn the afternoon I went with [other vet] to vet a horse for purchase, it can be tricky sometimes and two pairs of eyes are better than one.  As it turned out the horse was lame so we couldn’t vet it so we will have to go back another day.\nThursday\nNormal day.  Did some more sheep exports in the afternoon, they have a very efficient system at Longtown so it makes it a lot easier.\nFri\nI went to [farmer]’s funeral this morning, it was very sad.  I don’t like funerals, well I don’t suppose anyone does but it stayed fine and he had a good send off.\nIn the afternoon I got an opportunity to do some more blood sampling just 15 so it was good. It’s getting used to handling everything and forgetting you’re at the end that shits and kicks.  No broken limbs and I got blood. \n\n\nWeek beginning 3rd March\n\nMon 3rd March\nI went to help a TT Test in the morning – just taking numbers.  We now have 4 farms on restrictions due to TB reactors but up to now on the cows taken for further tests, no lesions have been fund.  We now get to do the repeat 60 day test on the farms now as DEFRA can’t keep up – sounds familiar!!\nWe saw the accountant in the afternoon. We had sent 9 months of accounts to him as we need to see how the practice was now doing. Anyway it was not as bad as we thought but the income is down but is slowly growing. The main problem is farmers won’t call out for sick cows now, they will leave it longer or try to treat them themselves, mainly due to them watching their spending.\nMr W had a problem with his Interherd, he needed to run his extensification figures and they didn’t add up. So I spent the rest of the day trying to figure out why.  I think I know why it was how he set it up initially so it may need his entry dates changed.\nTues\nWent TT Testing again this morning – it was a lovely morning. I spent the rest of the day sorting Mr W’s problem out and it worked, he was chuffed. The good is, I think, I now understand extensifications.\nWeds\nCaught up on some paperwork in the morning.  I helped [new nurse] with a dog grooming in the afternoon which was fun.  She is doing really well and seems to be enjoying it.  We both ended up soaked thanks to the dog but it looked loads better when it went home.\nGood news – we get a new vet from South Africa starting 1.4.03. He worked over here during FMD and met someone and their relationship has lasted hence he wants a job in Carlisle.  So bingo here comes a holiday.\nThursday/Friday\nVery busy in the Practice – everyone kept going. We have a great team and they really come into their own when it’s busy. I love the way everyone pulls together.  They are very dedicated.\n\n\nWeek beginning 10th March\n\nMonday\nQuiet day for a Monday but the weather has been nice so they are all out playing. But we had quite a few lambings to do.  That’s one thing that has changed since FMD. Prior to FMD we hardly used to do any lambings for farmers but since, we now do far more. Last year we put it down to them having new stock but it seems to be the same this year.\nTuesday\nToday is milk recording day. I have 3 recordings today. They all need boxes and paperwork. I don’t have to help at any of the milkings though which is good as they are quite a way from each other.  But a nice day for a drive.\nWeds/Thurs/Fri\nThe end of our weeks seem to be busier than the beginnings at the moment.  It has been non stop.  One disadvantage when it is so busy is you don’t have the time to chat as often.  I took some drugs to a farm, our last one to restock as he was having alterations done. It was amazing to see the transformations he had made to the farm – all geared to one person being able to do more alone with more cows – interesting.\n\n\nWeek beginning 17th March\n\nMon/Tuesday\nI went with [another vet] to Mr C’s for his TT and blood test.  [another vet] did the TT and I did the blood as part of my lay Blood Tester’s Licence. I needed to do 150 which I managed.  It was good fun and the weather was great.  We had to spread it over 2 days due to the amount of cattle.  It was really good practice for me and I think I’ve cracked it now.  There are talks about giving TT testing to Lay people but quite how and when is anyone’s guess.\nWeds\nMore blood testing today.  I’ve really cracked it now, only I’ve discovered muscles in my arms I didn’t know I had!!  I enjoy the blood testing. Sad isn’t it.\nThursday\nI had a morning with Alco waste management, sorting out all the clinical waste regulations and they need more detail of what actually goes in our waste. We always provided a free service to farmers for disposing of sharps and old drug and empty drugs etc. but we are going to have to start charging now.  It is now £100 dearer a month than it was.\nFri\nMe and [husband] spent the morning looking at fees, income etc. and seeing where we can increase fees to help cover if we lose the right to dispense drugs to farmers – which we still haven’t heard about – to continue as we are we will have to make the difference up – it’s just how.\n\n\nWeek beginning 24th March \n\nMonday\nDoing the paperwork for a TT Test it was a beautiful day.  I do enjoy doing this especially when the weather’s good and they are very nice farmers. I also get to spend the day with [husband] which makes a change – although we work together we don’t often get to see much of each other.\nTuesday\nBusy day – spent most of it making sure everything got done and helping out.\nWeds\nI went to the careers convention at the Sands Centre, it was very busy and we had a lot of interest but a long day.\nBefore going someone phoned to say there was a collie dog running around on the roundabout. So me and [new nurse] went to see if we could catch it, well it didn’t want caught but I was really worried it got onto the motorway.  So we phoned the police and the dog warden who incidentally couldn’t come until 9am as he didn’t start ‘til then, so I had to politely!!! Explain that he would have to be.  The police dog handler wasn’t much help but at least he stopped the traffic – bless him.  The dog warden did appear 5 minutes later and it was only 8.30 am.  So we managed to get the dog off the roundabout and catch it.  Everyone safe thankfully.\nThurs/Fri\nBusy days –new vet [from South Africa] phoned so he’s coming to see us on Monday to pick up his vehicle and meet everyone he sounds pleasant so we will see.  My joke at the moment when people ask where we found him is that we got him off the internet!!  It is a little worrying not having met him first but it should work.  Watch this space.\n\nWeek beginning 31st March \n\nMonday\nWe have had L staying for two weeks. She’s a vet student from London and stayed with us about this tine last year. It was interesting to go over the changes from a year ago. Last time she was here people were restocking and there was an element of wariness.\nSo it was interesting to fill her in on how things are now. One thing she mentioned was noticing the stock in the fields was nice as there were only a few still last year. Talking over things is still hard sometimes although it seems a long time ago the feelings and emotions are still deep. Certain parts can still hit a raw nerve. There seems to be a mere anger at the moment generally. People and farmers are wanting to know why they still have restrictions, what is going to happen about shows and sales etc and will normality ever return. Unfortunately I think not, not in the way they want it to.\nTuesday\nOur new vet started today. We got on very well, it has taken us so long to find a vet and if the work and testing carries on increasing we are going to need another one.\nWednesday\nVery busy day – [husband]’s gone to talk at a BCVA conference and AGM. So poor [new vet] has been thrown in at the deep end. It has been very busy but he seems to be coping well. The clients were very impressed so far, so long may it last. It is good to have new staff with new ideas, I quite enjoy it. And he is definitely a BIG hit with the female clients – it really does make you embarrassed to be female, when they go into the consulting room you count to 4 and then comes the girlie giggle – quite funny!\nThursday\nSad day today – my sister had been confirmed as having cervical cancer. No more on that for now.\nFriday\nHad another Interherd sale today. One thing FMD has forced on farmers is the need for efficient records and Interherd is brilliant at that, it’s so clever. One of our farmers who has had it for a while and has 120 milking cows now does all his daily records in 5 – 10 minutes – can’t be bad.\n\nWeek beginning 7th April \n\nMonday\nBusy day – [new vet] is settling in really well and coping fine. If we carry on at this rate we will need another vet. A lot of it depends on how much more testing we are going to get and what happens with Commission report into dispensing drugs.\nTuesday\nSR came today from Uni. of Reading who own the Interherd Program. We went round some of the farmers that used it and helped sort out any queries. It was a good day, I learnt a lot and the farmers found it useful too. She said she would come again later in the year, so I think we might try and organise for them all to come to the practise for a chat.\nWednesday\nDid some Interherd training with one of the farmers wives, we said just an hour as she wasn’t fully computer literate. Anyway 4 hours later, she had well and truly got the hang of it, she was very keen and I really enjoyed it. \nThursday/Friday\nThey blur into one, as it has been so busy. Everyone has been flat out. We are going to start the vet advertising again, and another nurse/receptionist.\n\n\nWeek beginning 14th April \n\nMonday\nGot caught up today, sorted out all the queries. Quite pleased with my self.\nTuesday\nWent to a local Nursery to talk about vets, to 3 year olds. I was quite dreading it – but thankfully it was great, they were really good. I took some dressing up clothes and x-ray instruments and teddy bears and they operated and had a really good time. One of them asked me if all the cows and sheep were better and did they still have funny feet and mouths!\n\n\nWeek beginning 21st April \n\nTuesday/Wednesday\nQuite busy days and a lot to catch up on. We all went away with [sister and niece]  this weekend to [husband]’s Mum and Dads caravan. We had a great time.\n[sister]’s biopsy \nOff rest of week\n\n\n\n\nWeek beginning 28th April \n\nMonday\nThree farmers milk recording today and tomorrow so busy dropping pets and paperwork off. Advertised for a vet today. Fingers crossed.\n\n\nOff for two weeks helping [sister] to Move\n\nInterviewed a Nurse/Receptionist she is perfect and experienced, she wrote a letter in as her husbands job had brought them to the area, so she starts 12th May – I wish it was as easy finding a vet.\n\n\nWeek beginning 12th May\n\nMonday\nOur new girlie started today, she is very keen and capable, she has done really well even with the computer system that she was dreading.\nTuesday\nBusy day also 2x milk recordings so a bit of hollering about. I was thinking it is about a year we have had now of normal work!!  Everyone new appears to be getting on with it as the saying goes, everyone bears a scar and has a story to tell and realise it is not the same, but how could it be. \nWeds – Fri\nQuite busy but capable at work.  [daughter] got the job for the training in her M. Apprentice course so she is over the moon.  It’s all a new learning curve, you suddenly realise she is growing up, getting a job and leaving school.\nUnfortunately this morning [daughter] has decided she doesn’t want to leave full time education yet and is worried about the job.  She is wanting to do a business course at a college so all change again. We have had bid discussions and are going to go down to Connexions next week.\nSat\nYF (Young Farmers) field day today.  I love these days it is amazing the effort and enjoyment that makes it such a good day.  There is also such a high standard in all the classes.  I admire the enthusiasm of the young farmers and just hope they can survive somehow.\n\nWeek beginning 19th May\n\nMonday \nWe have found the course [daughter] wants to do at College thanks to Connexions. The bad news is it is not done locally, she could do a local course but it would be wasted time to some extent.  \nBig discussions most of the week.  We have found they do the course in Blackburn and Preston, my sister and Mum live down there and are more than happy for her to move in, I just don’t know if I am ready to let her go, but I’ll have to be a big girl about it.\nWe have sent application forms off so will have to wait and see now and try and get used to it.\nWeds\nReally good evening at Penrith re the discussion it was so good to talk to the other diarists and realise and be able to relate so closely to what they said.  It was poignant to see what other people had written and interesting to see what you had done so far with the data collected, it would be brilliant to hand to any future study or enquiry as it is proof surely not all these people could be wrong!!!  And to have so many diarists start and finish is amazing.  I’m sure it can be used for so many different topics – AMAZING. I am personally very proud to have been a part of it, and although sometimes I have wondered if what I was writing was any use. I can see now how it comes together.  Than you all for the opportunity, shame not in better circumstances, it has helped me more than I originally realised but thinking back it was all unbelievable and not something I would like to repeat.  I am ever the optimist or so I’m told and do believe or hope things and farming can recover not fully but enough to be able to show other people what a wonderful life it is, hard but special.\n\nWeek beginning 26th May\n\nNever stopped on Tuesday after bank Holiday so busy.  [new vet] is settling in now, but his girlfriend can’t find a job so that’s a bit worrying, he may leave sooner than expected – oh no not advertising again.  The rest of the week was uneventful really ticked along nicely. We met up with some friends on Wednesday evening who holiday in the Lakes each year so it was nice to see them again, we had a good evening. We were also out on Thursday night with a drug rep, very nice meal and they have offered to pay for [husband] Bri. Catt. Vet. Ass meeting in Amsterdam in October so that was very nice.  Business link have also offered to help us get a Consultant in to see if they have any ideas for improving, maybe they can find vets too!!  All in all quite an exciting week.\n\n\nWeek beginning 2nd June\n  \nThe exams have started, everyone warns to beware but [daughter] is very laid back about it all, too much I feel.  But as long as she does her best.  I went to the accountants to look at the books for the end of year so far not quite finished yet and thankfully we won’t be needing income support this year!!  It is so much better more regulation but nothing we can’t cope with – honest!\n\n\nWeek beginning 9th June\n\n[daughter] had an interview at Blackburn College, it wasn’t a very nice place, but then I’m not going.  Preston is on the 25th so she will decide after that.\n[niece] had her C.T. Scan for her head that was eventful and Lisa and her naughty jelly babies zapped, all went well but she was a bit sore after.\n\n\nWeek beginning 23rd June\n\nMonday\nWent TT testing with [another vet] today it was a retest due to them having a reactor.\nIt was a good day, they are nice people.  There is a father and 2 sons.  During FMD I had a phone call one night and this was just someone crying on the end of it. I didn’t know what to say and I wasn’t sure who it was, but I just spoke about mainly silly things I can’t really remember what but didn’t get much of a response just yes and no’s and I thought I recognised the voice as being the father we were with today – anyway during lunch which we had at the farm we were chatting and of  course got into FMD and he thanked me it took aback but he said he had appreciated me waffling on. It was the night of the day his cows had been shot and he had phoned to let us know but he said he just broke down and couldn’t say anything – anyway he laughed because he said he was going to hang up, but he couldn’t get word in edgeways because I was wittering but he said he did feel a bit better after. So we had a good heart to heart.\nTuesday\nCaught up on my paperwork and sorted some bits and pieces out.\nWeds\nTook [daughter] to Preston College for an interview it was good and seems a nice place.  I can’t believe she will be leaving home at the end of August – very scary I’m really going to have to be a big girl about it!!\nThursday\nWe went to visit Business link to discuss some more things and [they are] hopefully going to help us pay a firm of Consultants to help us out to see how we can improve and  move the Practice on, so that’s exciting.\nFri\nWent milk recording first thing so that was good fun.  After recording I had to collect one of our elderly clients and her dog that was coming for an operation, the lady is 92 and her and the dog are very close so she wanted to stay with her until she was sedated. So she was pleased she could come with her.  The girls all laugh at me because I have quite a few little old ladies who we visit and keep a check on their pets. \n\n\nWeek beginning 30th June\n\nNot a lot of excitement at all this week, we have been kept going and I caught up on paperwork.  We are going to my sister’s this week end to start sorting her spare bedroom for [daughter].\n\n\nWeek beginning 7th July\n\nMon\nSpent the morning explaining to our newest girlie about Interherd and how to work it, this will enable her to help me on the data entry side, we also had a little trip out around some of the farms that record with us to give her an idea of where they are.\nTuesday\nWent exporting sheep today, they all had to be retagged, it was quite warm, not much fun, I’ll maybe get [new girl] to do exporting!!\nWeds\n2 milk recordings today so quite busy with bottles and sheets and things and they are both in the opposite direction to each other. Never mind it was a nice day for driving about.\nThursday\nWe have got a new vet to replace [vet from SA]. She seems very lovely.  She is going to start on 4.08.03. We used an agency and it has proved worthwhile, we worked out that rather than paying for endless adverts we would give it a go and it seems to have worked, so that’s exciting.\nFri\nWe went car hunting today as if we all go out at the week end it becomes a bit crushed and sometimes we end up taking two vehicles. So we have really splashed out rightly or wrongly and bought a new CRV truck, it’s very posh, so we get that on 21.07.03.\n\nWeek beginning 14th July\n\nMonday\n[Person] from the Interherd office came up to see us and we visited a few of our farmers that are on Interherd. Between them and NMR they have really tried with providing quality and cost effective equipment that is helpful to the farmers.  You can now use Interherd in some milking parlours which is really useful.\nTues \nWe went to see a horse with a cough and after treating the pony we were chatting and they have converted a small barn into a camping hostel, their farm is along Hadrian’s Wall and since having foot and mouth and doing the barn up, they have nearly covered their costs. They still have a few stock but not as many.  Mr I was saying how his father used to milk about 25 cows and be able to make a good living from that, it’s amazing the difference.\nWeds\nWe got a new payroll package today so I spent most of my day trying to understand it.  I was very bog eyed by the end, but I think I understand it and it seems to work well and should be a lot easier and quicker.\nThursday\nBusy day. There were lots of ops and farm calls, a couple of farmers have been asking about prescriptions as soon they will be able to get their drugs from anywhere, a lot have said they appreciate they have to pay for the service one way or another and are happy to carry on as they have been doing.  We will lose money to some extent, but how much remains to be seen and we will have to cope.\nFriday\nOff – went to see Westlife with [daughter]. \n
## 4 Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1963\nGender: M\nOccupation: Group 6\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\n\nSaturday 9th March 2002\nAn old African proverb states, "The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The next best time is now."\nI should have started this diary over a year ago to keep track of changes in the unrolling of the FMD epidemic and my feelings towards it. Today is probably a good day to start the diary as I was about to sit down after a really bad week to write some comments for the lessons learned inquiry and thought I should check the web site for an update. I found out to my considerable annoyance that the inquiry was coming to Cumbria to meet with DEFRA and hold the open meeting on Tuesday night, and if you wanted a ticket to attend, then you had to apply by a week ago. The overall impression is that the govt do not want to learn lessons. I was looking after kids as [wife] was on counselling course and I was on call Sat morn. The vets were busy so I ended up taking [children] into vets with me they watched videos in the waiting room while I sorted out and consulted. \nComing down with cold after spending Friday TB testing on restocking farm. But at least I managed to avoid getting kicked and crushed. The farm hand who is one of the hard lads of Wigton refused to get in with the fat bulls to test them after getting floored by a kick. “If the f.** ministry want them F tested they can f coming and etc etc” I am putting in a letter to say why they were not tested to see response.\nDidn’t get finished on farm till 5.45 pm having started with a caesarean at 5:30am.Must be an easier way to make a living. The farming economy is bizarre at the moment . He has silage in heaps all over the farm, so instead of feeding straw which is incredibly expensive @£70 ton he is feeding the better quality silage and the calves are all too big. There are 30 to calve, so a few nights work there….\nWhere ever I go on farms the stories that farmers are wanting to get off their chest about the MAFF incompetence and inconsistency is bewildering. There is a lot of anger out there.\nI went to do the restocking sentinel visit for MG, L Fm. He is usually the most laid back of guys but he told them he was bringing his cattle on and he would see them in court. Why are we doing sentinel visits to a farm that had FMD 11 months ago? The virus only lives a month.\nSunday\nMothering Sunday \nKids had all got presents and cards for Mum, they brought them all in with a breakfast tray very cute, but pear juice all over the carpet. Tim and I spent Sat night baking a chocolate cake for her, which meant I hadn’t got lunch. Never mind.\nChurch was PS speaking on Characters walking with God, and talking about Abraham setting off with out knowing where he is going, maybe I should follow suit, with large animal vetting being reduced to TB testing and caesareans. The evening service was really lively with HP from Austria, about turning every hour over to God, now that is what I should do. \nG & R called around Sun afternoon, he is pessimistic about fertiliser sales. There is that much land and grass around, and the govt grants for extensification. New regulations on nitrates is giving him a headache though as he points out it is not fertiliser that cause the problems, as they are used by grass but by phosphates and slurry/organics . Lough Neigh has real problems with algal blooms and they are blaming fertiliser but so has Bassenthwaite, but there is not any fertiliser spread on the fells so is it really agriculture?\nMonday\nRead test and was very glad it was clear, as the Farm of origin of one of batches has gone down with TB..More testing after lunch. Organic farm ! They have just had their first pay check, 23p per litre, they were promised 36p when they started to convert 2 years ago. Who would be in agriculture?\nDesperately behind in admin with vets and home, but at least the clinical work pays!\nTuesday\nCaught up on a lot of admin as back to 6 vets for day. 2 cows aborting on restocking farm, more disease. Rota still for 5vets Yuk!!\nThe evening open meeting poorly attendee due to poor  publicity. I am only local practitioner. I phoned around no one had been invited or had seen advance publicity and we all feel that they are not interested and that they will not listen.\nSome moving testimony and the bullying culture came through, and the frustration and anger that comes from dealing with a faceless bureaucracy distant in London.\n11 million animals, 2000 farms in Cumbria, businesses wrecked, lives wrecked, a crisis turned into a disaster by bureaucratic incompetence and political considerations.\nI am pleased I went I feel that it is like a sense of closure, the funeral so to speak, the end and I spoke with [wife] when I got back. I feel I can lay the past down and look to the future.\nWeds\nDay Off K&A for lunch and sort out finances etc, (And write diary!!)\nEveryone is saying about this time last year and glad that FMD is finished.\nWent to see Grease the school production, it was very well done, brought back memories of 6th Form\nThurs\n300 pages of A4 waiting for me in my in tray courtesy of DEFRA. Are they mindless or what. Rang to speak to AH, but only got hold of N and told her it was out of order! I should get my blood pressure measured as some one says DEFRA. Stupid idiots.\nSo much for closure, I feel very frustrated. \nIf this is the future of farm practice, Anal glands here we come! Who said a vets life ain’t glamorous)\n\nManaged to calm down and get the next 2 weeks of testing organised. It is a good job that we are organising it as trying to get folk on the phone is n’t easy. Workload picking up and managed to persuade GG to advertise even if only at TVI HQ. (All of the local practices who have advertised have had very few if any responses, we are busy but with DEFRA work).\nSpent time singing Grease songs much to nurses amusement.!! \n Did restocking visit at Lynedraw, they gave me a look around. It is amazingly clean, because even after pressure washing the spiders usually make a come back. But the buildings are sterile, and no cobwebs or insect life, which usually abounds even in empty buildings, weird. There will be a lot of flies next year.\nNews that PI has headship of Nelson Thom and so we can expect the discipline to improve again.\nFriday\nCurry and Quiz at the boys school. Very cosmopolitan for Cumbria. It was good fun and the kids enjoyed it. But we were useless on the photos for which you definitely need a TV. Spent time chatting to local GP who which was interesting. They have a place for their son at Nelson Thom but he isn’t keen!! \n\n\nSaturday 16th March\nWorking this W/e, and on call Friday night so had an early start with a caser on ewe. A LAMBING!! Hurray, things are getting back to normal. Even if it is a Dutch beltex… The farmer is really fed up and wants AH to be sacked as he threatened to kill all his recently imported Dutch sheep, as the paper work was not right. They had come and blood sampled them and then sent the results to his brother who is still under Form A, and then refused him permission to move any of the sheep off because he shouldn’t have any, because he was on Form A, and what were the Blood results for. DEFRA would be a joke if it wasn’t so serious.  Oh and after my complaint about them deluging us with paper, yes you guessed it they sent another 7 x 20 sheets of A4. Idiots!!\nAW is in a tiz and so had to get help in Sat morning which was a shame but hey ho. She is not coping with the post FMD, constant changing of the goal posts.\nWent to Susan & Ian’s for another curry and had a really good time, and have decided to phase out house group which was coming. Hopefully Low moor will set up a 3rd house group for Wigton. Hebron is going to change to new Outlook groups.\nSun\nNever managed to get to church as calls all day, beautiful day though. The weather has really picked up. Must get garden sorted and seeds planted. A came out on call this evening. It is one good point that this job does allow the kids to join with me. \nShe is really growing up. She wanted to go to cinema but as [wife] was late and weather good she came back here and they walked the dog and wound up the boys.\nMon\n Early morning call to see a farmer who is a scrap metal dealer who hates authority. He therefore didn’t want anyone on his land during FMD, and refused access to Maff, and me while I was working there. He caused real problems and had his gun removed by police. He was handled badly and is a rogue. The more colourful rumour was that the real reason for not allowing anyone on was the amount of smuggled cigarettes was too great to hide. He also runs a fishery/ shellfish enterprise that is on the beach at odd times!!??. He was found guilty and fined £350 for his trouble but never paid because he went bust, as everything is in his wife and kids names!! This is all unsubstantiated rumour but quite amusing. When push comes to shove the ministry could do nothing with out the cooperation of the Farmers!\nThe vet students have arrived, and I feel a bit guilty about not having them to stay but I feel I still need space at the moment so they are making do with the Royal Oak.\nPrayer Quad with the lads, which was good. I still has not got stuff for magazine, and spent time praying. \nTues       \nThe dates important cos its my Birthday, 39 today. The kids all brought presents in and had breakfast in Bed it was really nice. The number of ordinary calls to ill animals is increasing rapidly. Went to 2 new restocking farms today. I think one a day is probably enough. They were both full of stories about the ministry and wanted to unload to some one who understood. The first was particularly upsetting in that I was admiring his new parlour and set up that he has put in while waiting the 4 months. He was then talking about all the animals getting slaughtered and his wife was fighting back tears. She is also very unsure about whether they are doing the right thing by investing in the new parlour. She is very unsure about the future and as they are both reaching 50 is it the right thing to be doing? Unfortunately I think she is right, but I couldn’t say that and made reassuring noises as they have spent the money and it is too late now. The future for dairy is not good. The price is going to continue to be at world prices which with the current exchange rate is uneconomic in the UK. The second farm was sheep with drop, and they were grazing over the burial site as they had planted carrots and turnips on the surrounding field. I couldn’t listen to another set of woes, as I was still upset from the first lot so kept conversation light and on sheep.\nWeds\nI never realised that FMD is like any other grief there are anniversaries to get through, and fears and barriers to be put to rest. I was on a farm to give certificates to 2 heifers sold in calf. They were all saying it was a year to the day that FMD hit the village. The AI fellow was there as well, and he was talking about what he had been doing. He was saying that he thinks it will be years before everybody returns to normal. He is revisiting farms where he was helping with the slaughter for the AI, and was saying he had to take a deep breath every time he returns to one of these farms. \nThere was a partners meeting at lunchtime. As usual AW turned up late, but finally decided to advertise to see whether there are Vets out there who will come to work in FMD country. It is a bit frustrating as I foresaw that we would be busy, and we could have nabbed D before Longtown, but GG ever cautious. We went completely around in circles trying different options, but as with everything else the only prediction we can make is that we know that we don’t know. So much depends on govt. decisions on supply of pharmaceuticals to farms, and on the future of the SVS. (State Vet Service) for who we usually do 15% of our farm work for and currently do 50% for.\nThursday.\nTomorrow I will get a lunch break. This is my resolution. Have not managed to stop for lunch this week yet as farm calls keep coming in and partners meeting. Today was Geckos bums and goose bums.(Rectal prolapses). Variety is the spice of life. Also had much laughter over watching Norman in the bath. JG’s tortoise which has come out of hibernation early and is anorexic. Much clunking, and bumping.\n2 lambings and cow caesaer, after hours.    So busy On call. It was also the last house group so it was end of an era. We have been having them in our house for the past 6 years, with different folk and have had god speak to us and to others through it. But it is time to move on.\nFriday \nStarted with another caeaser and early morning start and didn’t get my lunch break! Time to reconsider things again.\nHad folk for dinner, which had been arranged a long time ago, it seemed like a good idea at time and was enjoyable but after a 14-hour day yesterday and a 10-hour one today: I was not feeling life and soul of the party. One couple are still trying to decide the future of their farm. They are thought out progressive family farm, and yet they are not convinced about what to do. He finds it difficult to because there are three generations to consider. His father would go out and buy stock tomorrow, and his son wants to come home to work, but they feel he should broaden his options. Very difficult.\nHe was also saying that he ha d helped a neighbour who flagged him down as he was going past. He wanted help to move a cow that was down. The last time he touched a cow it was when his own were slaughtered. It knocked him off his stride for the rest of the day. \nHad a good time as when I looked at time was 1 O’ Clock\n\n\nSat 23rd March  \n[wife] went on her counselling course for day, which left me a bit on edge this morning, as I was On call Sat am and looking after 4 kids. But they managed with out me. Back sore and stiff as I’ve missed the gym, but will go back on Tues. Still managed to get a bit done in garden, it was a great spring day and made me feel like summer was coming. Went to Beckfoot to beach in the afternoon with kids, evening went to bed early as shattered.\nSun 24th\nBack stiffer after gardening and went to church. Davidsons have moved into Thursby so will be good to have them around and at school.\nWatched Northbank beat Stanwix U12’s 6 –0 , the boys played well and passed the ball around a lot. [son] played well too.\nMust work less w/e’s and watch the boys play more.\nMon 25th\nLooking forward to finishing on Friday as another large test today, started at 8:30am and finished at 6pm but at least it meant I was out the office and did not have to face any of the usual hassle factors. It was good to see as the place is always well run and organised. A real family farm with three generations working together, but Granddad at 75 still very much calling the shots. The craic was good at lunch as their sister is friendly with my wife so I got custard with my rhubarb tart! My wife doesn’t like custard so I never get, as I cannot be bothered to make it for one as the kids never have it and so are very conservative. They were asking my view of the future too as they have sold bullocks privately ie not through the auction as they are on 21 day stand still and the price is poorer than selling via the auction. DEFRA will not allow any trade through an auction if the farms are on standstill. Why? If they are dead in24hrs there is minimal risk and they are putting everyone’s backs up. \n\nTues 26th \nWent for my first visit to another restocked farm and during the 4 month waiting as well as visit New Zealand he has made a sandstone plaque 3ft by 4 ft and carved on the date they went down with FMD and the number of cattle. It is almost a head stone type memorial. \nThe cow had digestive problems a right displaced abomasums ( RDA). Probably due to the transit and change in diet.\nWeds 27th\nSmall animal day and trying to get everything organised for going away. Finalised advert in Vet Record for new assistant. Lots of adverts but no applicants. All the local practices are advertising and there are no takers. I hope it is because there is a shortage and not from lack of confidence in the area. DEFRA haven’t paid us for a lot of visits and that needs sorted. They have no record of the visits i e they have lost the claim forms in the mountain of paper work. They will only pay on the originals  (As if there are duplicates they will probably pay on those as well being that well organised). They are really slipping back into their old ways of paper chasing. The frustration without and within is palpable. I should just quit as I will be a civil servant once removed unless things change. The secretary’s are both on FMD funded computer courses, so digging out the paper work will have to wait.\nThurs 28th \nDemob happy just the test to read and I am off, for 10 days…….\nThe test was clear but very busy as a locum came for a look around to see if he would do SA for several days a week. Any help I think will be a help!!!\nGood Friday\nMissed out on Church as one of the boys through a complete wobbler. He is not very well just tired at end of term. I hope.\nThen went walking with family and [friends]. I must learn to shoot [him] down when he says it is a little scramble what he means is its too dangerous for kids. But it was fun and we enjoyed it. The weather was glorious and the fells were crowded! Tourism is back. Went up over sharp edge to Blencathra, kids as well.\n\n\nHOLIDAY\n\n\nSat 6th April\nCame back on the late boat from Belfast and arrived in to Wigton late. The grandparents were sad to see us go, but I think they had also found us all quite tiring. The kids have enjoyed playing squash so that is something I would like to continue.\nSun 7th April\nBeautiful frosty morning and went to church where the speaker arrived, much to S’s relief just as he was announcing the last song before the sermon! I think he was wondering what he would say instead of the prepared sermon.!!\nWent to [son]’s foot ball cup match, this is 10 year olds we are talking about, and the referee was making several bad decisions including a dubious penalty against his team Northbank. The crowd (well about 30 of us which for his team is a big crowd) was getting a bit restless. Robbie was sprinting down the wing in front of his Dad,         (and me) when he was sent flying by one of their team. His Dad then shouted “Ref if you gave a penalty for them for nothing you could at least give us a foul for that!” At which point the ref blew his whistle and came across and thumped him. The whole thing was about to descend in to a brawl as I and another parent were trying to restore calm by telling everyone to walk away, which they did, followed by the Northbank kids, game abandoned!\nSo we await the FA’s report.\nSo with that and the Carlisle manager being sacked and the Knighton’s trading insults with the prospective buyer for Carlisle the future of football in Carlisle is not looking good.\nMon 8th\nLast day off for sorting out VCF magazine and getting up to date with paper work etc, did Carrock Fell where we did not see another walker. It was sunny and cold but beautiful. At night went to Crusaders area meeting where they are trying to get some one to arrange area events for kids and to support the group structure. There is no one who has the time and no funding to appoint a post to do it, so went around in circles too a large degree, but meeting decided to try and raise the funding. \nTues 9th\nFeel like I should have handed in Notice after today it was awful going back. The response to the advert for a new vet now stands at 2 students who have yet to qualify! I had Harry giving me grief over the fact that DEFRA promised him that we would test his cattle prior to turn out, i e end of March but haven’t told us, very helpful. His allocation has not even come through!! They are useless. I was at one farm that has half restocked because the parlour is not yet restored, the heifers are calving and he is milking into a dump bucket and throwing the milk away. He can’t get more stock in because he is waiting testing for brucellosis as his heifers were on the same farm as the French heifer that went down. He wanted to bring them direct to his own farm they would not let him bring the heifers to his own farm because the paper work was not through, and they not would allow multiple drop offs. IDIOTS. \nSo with high levels of frustration and complete overload, it has not been a good start back. Tomorrow I must see what is hiding in my “in tray”. As I never had a chance to look today\n.Weds 10th\nQuieter day and managed to catch up with paper work and have had a lot of next week mapped out so feel more in control.\nNight work seems to be easing with fewer lambings. \nStudents seem to be enjoying their time with us even though there is too little time to actually teach them, but it is a luxury to have time to go through cases with them as we take them on a voluntary basis and at the moment lunch is a higher priority than their education!! I’m a selfish brat.\nThurs 11th \nSpoke too soon, chaotic again, managing workload with so much fire brigade work is not so easy. (Fire Brigade work is the emergency work that needs seen urgently, ie today if not now!)\n[son] isn’t so well again he tired easily again today, so must make an appointment for him, but very vague signs.\nFri 12th\nHalf day finish, Yo. I could really get into a 3 and a half day week!\nThe down side is it is because my wife is going away for the w/e, so I have to be finished by 3:15 for kids. As I want to have the people carrier I also have to muck out my car. It is not as bad since FMD. Another positive contribution that FMD has made to my life. I actually feel morally obliged to keep my car from being a biohazard. OK I still needed a wheelie bin to through all the post it notes and bits of cardboard and the excessive packaging that surrounds any medical product that seems to find its way on to the back seat of my car. I always remember reading a Sunday paper article about what cars different people drove, and what they had lying around in the back seat, and what this showed about their personality. I’m sure that they would have had a field day with my car!! You use to be able to tell farm vets cars from a mile off but they have all gone clean and shiny.\n\n\nSat 13th April\nA week end off and the thought of a Saturday morning lie in…..\nUnfortunately there is a football tournament in Carlisle today! 9am start so up as usual and get into town. But managed to get to Staples, which I have been trying to do since my Birthday, to spend my birthday money… the difference between men and boys is the size of their toys! As my wife frequently reminds me. \nSo I am the proud owner of a digital camera. \nThe question is when will I find time to set it up? \nTook back all the library books and made the mistake of checking with the librarian who says we also have a talking book and another junior fiction. Well I thought it would have been lucky to get them all. If they ever bring in fines for kids we are sunk. How does my wife keep track of them all?\nCame home and enjoyed the good weather, and fortunately the team bottomed out so didn’t get into the next round. V asked as she dropped [other son] off from the football, where has [wife] gone? As [other son] has said she was away at Gruerly, where is that. She is away for a girlie w/e.!!\nSo we had time for a “family” cycle ride out from  Kirkbride to the coast. It was beautiful, and we had a really good time. Came back via Wigton for supplies as we are in desperate need of a Tesco shop. \nSunday 14th\nHad an easy day and cooked with A for tomorrow as my wife is doing supply next week. Its ages since I have cooked, even made scones. Church was a video sermon which was OK but different. Saw P he ‘s back from NZ so will have to arrange to catch up. He was incredibly jet lagged, it must be Sunday cos everyones in church!! 36 hrs travelling. [wife] arrived back from her week end away at Capernwray, having had a week end that sounded as if they had all gone back to their teenage years with midnight feasts and playing tricks on each other. She was quite tired and pleased to have an early night.\nMon 15th \nThe diary has unfortunately died at this point and it is 3 weeks later and I am going back and filling in the details as I remember them. It is probably the bits that are really important, but as there is too much going on the diary has remained on my to do list!! Together with my tax return and a small mountain of paperwork!!\nThe reasons are varied but one of them is that my youngest lost his temper with the computer and slammed down the mouse. This broke the left-right bar so the pointer would only go up and down!! Now the practice manager who learnt his computing in the dark ages of DOSS, assures me you do not need a mouse to operate a computer. But as I have enough problems trying to get the stupid machine to do what I want it to with a mouse, forget trying shortcut keys and arrows.\n\nSo a new mouse was bought which the man assured my wife you just had to plug in, and hey presto it would find a driver and work. Blank screens, consult hand book, try inserting disk, try exploring disk, try windows disk, consult practice manager, who as you may have gathered is my IT guru. He says you may need to install a driver if it doesn’t work it will be on the disk. I don’t have a mouse to use to try to find and install a driver, he assures me again you don’t need a mouse. I understand why my youngest son lost his temper with the stupid machine. Being the mature adult that I can some times be I walk away to cool off, but don’t feel like trying again for 24 hours with a new mouse which the man assured my wife you just had to plug in, and hey presto it would find a driver and work.\nPlugged it in, it said “looking for driver”, “installing Driver” and it worked. Why?\nWhy not first time?\nTuesday\nThursday\nRiding Lights\nWent to see Riding Lights who are a Christian theatre group who were performing at the senior school at night. They were extremely funny and hard-hitting and very pointed all at the same time. It was a magazine of sketches on all sorts of different things. Modern interpretations of parables, and bible stories. Sketches asking questions about society and how we view things. Very difficult to put into words but thought provoking on lots of levels. \n\n\nSat 20th April to Weds 24th April lost in the mists of time…\nThursday 25th\n Starting the diary again after having missed 10 days with too much going on.\nThe spring work is chaotic with a lot of problems. We are trying to run the practice on 5 vets plus a part time locum instead of 7 full time at this time of year. I had said we should have advertised and tried to get some one at Xmas, but the view was that falling milk price would mean less work, but the DEFRA tasting is more than making up for those who haven’t restocked, and those who have gone out of dairy which brings us the most work.\nBut saying I told you so, does not help, so I’ll just keep my big mouth shut.\n As the practice manager says, the good old days when we new what the Rota was going to be and we were not just making up it up as we went along. We have had over a year of crisis management now. The end must be nigh!! \nAs this is a health survey, apart from feeling pressure of work, I am have also managed to catch ringworm on my leg. A fungal infection from cows and it is itchy and sore and not responding to my treatment. I will have to get GP’s opinion\nFriday 26th April\nRemind me next time, not to try to interview during busy periods. It is very embarrassing to turn up late to the interview!! We had a chaotic day but managed to interview her. She is frighteningly well prepared and had lists of questions. I hope we didn’t put her off by being so disorganised!! I think the Sandale view will be more influential! As part of the interview we always take them up to Sandale viewpoint to show them the practice, spread out panoramically beneath them. Well, it sold me the job!!\nAfter finally getting finished I was exhausted but had people to dinner so had to stay awake and be sociable.\n\n\nSat 27th April\nHad folk to dinner last night, which after working flat out was probably not such a clever idea. Didn’t fall asleep but this morning I feel like death warmed up and we have another interview this morning. I don’t think I can make a good impression so it is a good job that I am looking to employ rather than be employed. The candidate is from a Kirby Stephen farmers daughter, and so is at an immediate advantage. She seems fine so we will offer her the job, the question is should we offer them both a job? Went to bed feeling ill and with a migraine and slept all afternoon and then in bed for 9pm. Sad or what!\nSun 28th\nFeel a lot better for the sleep and church was AF speaking. He is always entertaining. His opening slide was “ Knighton In “. For those of you who do not keep up with the footie in Carlisle, Michael Knighton is the hated owner of Carlisle United who is trying to get the club relegated, so he can build houses on the land. He is destroying the club, and it is NOT popular…\nAnyway the second slide was ..here for grace and forgiveness. He went on to say that church should be where the failures should feel loved and welcome, as we all need God’s love and forgiveness.\nHe was really good, both entertaining and making real points.\nSpent time in the garden and playing footie with the boys.\nMon 29th\nMonday morning and that sinking feeling not helped by my wife’s teaching 3 days this week, and a trustees meeting for Borderline, which means additional pressure.  After running around all morning and working out the amount of holiday we are all owed the conclusion is that we will employ them both. I am owed 46 days holiday, so if I can take 2 months off, that plus the sabbatical I am owed means I could take 5 months off.. I wish it were happening. The 5 vets are owed over 200 days between us, which will be almost a vet for a year!!   As this is a health diary, I should mention my visit to the doctor, after a half an hour wait past my appointment time, fizzing knowing that I would have to make the time up later in my evening, I finally saw the Doc who agreed with my diagnosis, and agreed with my treatment. Only an occupational hazard of farm work. Ring worm!! He did take scrapings but that is all\nTuesday\nTesting next door, why do we always end up working in a pen under the railway in a middle of a stream? Why they cannot build a pen on dry land away from the trains I don’t know. I suppose they have always done it that way. But the first you know of a train is the thunder as it goes over your head which startles the cows who jump, sending a muddy slurry flying everywhere.\nWilliam is still not wearing a helmet for the Quad bike as he drives around, despite his fathers protests. Their neighbour the other way is brain damaged after coming off his..\nWeds 1st of May\nMayday, the radio is predicting riots in Paris, against or for Le Pen, anti globalists in London. But I feel a real peace with the turning of the month. It is funny how a different month can make you feel so different. April is always the worst month at work with a lot of routine  work dehorning and testing, and a lot of lambings and calvings, and emergencies. Even though the beginning of May is just the same I always feel we have passed the peak, and we can cruise into summer. The fact that both have accepted the jobs, and that we will have more cover helps!! Though they will not start until summer.\nThursday 2nd May\nIn spite of all yesterdays predictions there wasn’t any trouble!!! In Paris or London, only cyclists causing traffic jams!! What is about the media that they have to report the bad news not the good news. I haven’t seen anything beyond the Cumberland News on the farms restocking.\n Stopped at Beckfoot on my rounds and sat in the sunshine on the beach for 10 mins and thought, this is the life!! Though in talking to one of the neighbours, one of the farmers is having real problems getting motivated. He had milking Ayrshires, really quiet cows who you could do anything with. Their idea of getting excited was turn out time and moving into a fast amble to the spring pastures. He has bought in really wild suckler limousin X’s.  If you look at them the wrong way, they put their tails in the air and take off. I was there dehorning and we lost one which jumped over a gate. Another put its tail in the air and took off only stopping when it came to the block wall at the end of the yard. Unfortunately it didn’t stop fast enough and crashed headlong into it. It now has a definite tilt to it. The wall isn’t too hot either!! I think if I had to look after the likes of them, I wouldn’t be too keen to get out of bed either.\nFriday 3rd May\nSpoke too early about things easing off.. 2 bad calvings, a caesarean, and testing, plus the usual ill animals. But got finished for 5:45, and took my wife out for dinner at the Cockatoo in Cockermouth. Very pleasant, but while she wanted to go on to socialise at 10pm I wanted home to bed. \n\n\nSat 4th May\nOff Yippee!!\nTook the kids to Nichol End and went canoeing on the Lake got absolutely frozen but was really good fun!! It rained in spite of all the good weather forecasts, but with our style of canoeing we are always soaked anyway.\nHad a picnic on one of the islands, and had fun.\nCame back and slept for the afternoon, should have taken the boys to see the FA Cup but they were happy playing around.\nWatched Ghandi on DVD at night it is a very moving film, and the ambiguities and politics came through, to a muted extent which was interesting. It often makes me wonder about how much of Govt policy is personality driven. Again the inability of individuals to fight the “system” came through. The front page of the Times this morning was on a toddler who had died from post op haemorrhage following the use of disposable instruments in a tonsillectomy. Large amounts of money have been spent on disposable instruments that are always inferior to good quality surgical kit: Several people have died because of their use:\nBecause no-one wanted to take the very small theoretical risk, that they may transfer nvCJD. The approach to risk management and prioritisation within government, and the civil service is very poor. But to be fait to them the press is not helpful. I would like to see Prescott stand up and say that he wants more deaths on the railways, but he never will. If less money was spent on safety on the railways, more trains at more convenient times were run at lower costs, then there would be fewer deaths on the roads. But as no-one holds politicians responsible for deaths on the roads, it ain’t gonna happen. \nSun 5th May\nChurch was DN who is brilliant at getting the kids involved. [son]’s face lit up when we were walking in to church to see him walking down Botchergate with guitar in hand. \nHe had a skin that had been cast from a snake, and based his songs with the kids, and his talks with them on being a new creation. Cor 5 vs. 17  Getting rid of the old self, and hence the snake skin.  \nHe is brilliant on the guitar and a real performer.  Wasted as a tax inspector!!\nMon 6th May\nMaybe getting the kids soaked and frozen on Sat was not a good idea as they are all coming down with colds now! Tim is very chesty and was up in the night hot and wheezy. Any infection always goes for his chest. So Helvellyn will have to wait for another day. So concreted posts and pressure washed the yard. The boys loved “Helping”. Then demanded I play football as payment! AG was here as his Dad was dropping off the caravan after being away for the w/e. P called up from Manchester en route for Thailand. She is handing in her notice and going.  \nBooked summer holiday in France, and now have to work out what we are doing on the way there and back.\nTues 7th May \nWent testing but I really do have the kids bug and feel hot and feverish.\nWent to bed for rest of day\nWeds 8th\nDidn’t feel like getting out of bed but went to work. First was a deer RTA. I was supposed to meet a police car there, but no police, either car or policeman! I am glad it wasn’t too controversial or important! So I have taken all details and hope that that is the end of it.\nThis afternoon was spent chasing stirks around a field and Abbeytown. We dehorned them, they should have been done this time last year, but were n’t because of FMD. They’re now 2 yr old which means they were really too big to go around upsetting. Two went through the dyke one way, the other went through the other side into some one’s garden and on to the Abbeytown road! So it was a bit of a rodeo. It ended up charging M who hurt his shoulder trying to escape! He was not happy as this morning he got his letter asking him to cut back is milk production. He had jokingly asked what was I doing this winter as all the farmers will have given up by Christmas.\nThe long term out look is not good, but at least we will have 2 new graduates in training to cope with the upturn when (If?) it comes. \nThurs 9th\nDay Off\nUnfortunately spent the morning shopping in Carlisle, which meant wandering around shops, and trying to find clothes. I needed A, my daughter as my dress sense leaves a lot to be desired, and she keeps me right. Met GB another Carlisle Vet which was good I haven’t seen him for a bit. Had lunch out which was nice though. Also got all the bits for the tennis net, so will be able to get it up. The annoying bit was I got a parking ticket, which sent my blood pressure up. Now I know I often park with out paying and in the wrong places, that is just living dangerously. But as we were in Carlisle and had decided to go out for lunch, and for some reason I was in [wife]’s car, as usual there was no change in the car, (well as usual there was no money at all.) I only had myself to blame I know she never has change in the car. I only had enough for 2 hours in my pocket. Which to be honest is in my opinion quite long enough in Carlisle shops. So on the way to lunch out, I made a special trip back to the car park, armed with coins ready to pay the city council the extortionate fee so I could spend more money in Carlisle City shops. The first machine refused my coins, I even tried a 2nd machine that also refused to accept my hard earned cash. So I left a note saying the machine was not working in the windscreen. And yes you guessed it, I came back to find a traffic warden giving me a ticket, who justified his action by saying there w ere 4 machines from which I could have bought a ticket. GRRRRHHH!!! \nFri 10th\nFinish of another week with more TB testing. A lot of cows from Netherlands, MRIs (Meuse, Rhine, Issel.) very good beefy looking dairy cows. Dual purpose. Why we have to test them I don’t know but we have to keep Page St happy. They were all tested prior to export from Holland, and they want them tested again. The farmer is very Bio security conscious, and has his land all in a single block now bounded by roads, or arable cultivation. All the other cattle he insisted were tested and he had the results prior to purchase! In spite of all his good sense he is still going on about the missing vials from Porton Down, and other paranoid conspiracy theories on the spread of FMD.\nBut a part from cold/flu, feel as though things are getting back on track. We can look to the next 12 months with confidence. Thereafter depends on whether the WTO wins over the EU to get rid of subsidies, or whether maintaining the food supply within the EU is seen as important. The one thing the FMD has taught me is that you never know what will be coming next.\nI do feel guilty about saying there should be more train crashes after seeing the crash in the news today at Potters Bar.\n\n\nSat 11th May\nWorking the w/e again. \nSaw another calf with CCN, caused by a deficiency of B1. Usually rare but seems to be much more prevalent this year. ? due to old grass on pastures. Don’t know. \nHad a greyhound client in, bringing in a greyhound on behalf of some one else, who has been chased from the practice for non payment, so had a stressful half hour negotiating with an irate idiot. But he paid his old bill, and stumped up front for the new one. And seemed placated, treating the animals is easy.\nSpent the afternoon in the garden and fixing up the tennis nat. We were given an old second hand net so I have fixed up on the concrete and it was good fun playing with the kids. The concrete is not level and has lots of loose stones so the bounce is a bit erratic!!\nWent to a 50th Birthday party, for which I was teased at work, but I maintain we are friends with the children in their 20’s!! It was a good craic and the food was brilliant. There was one of the partners from a lawyers from Carlisle there complaining that he could only have an hourly rate of charging out at £185. Consequently he couldn’t attract good lawyers to his firm because the city firms were offering far greater salaries and were charging out their juniors at £200. I couldn’t admit that our hourly rate is only £45 and that I think that £45/hour is a lot of money. Should have been a 9 to 5 lawyer.\n\n\n\nSunday \nWent to church NL, but was still half asleep from my late night, spent all afternoon and evening out on calls, was OK till the midnight call when I decided that being a lawyer was probably a much better idea.\nMonday 13th\nHalf asleep after the w/e so took a little while to get going. Having kept this week a bit quieter, as there should have been a lot of last minute dehorning and castrating, it hasn’t come in so we really are quieter. So did some office work but trying to work out why the two computer systems we have do not have the same balances on their accounts with a tired sore head is not worthwhile. But it was preferable to sorting Rotas.  So I when came home I sat and read TinTin much to my wife’s disgust. \nI also looked at my cash flow predictions, which were totally out of line. I usually take a pessimistic view so as err on the side of caution but they are totally out. Fortunately the right way!! The partners think it is a waste of time and effort to try to predict how much of the bills the farmers are going to pay in any month, some pay every month, but most pay every now and again, either when they have time, or money, or when the accountant or vat man needs the books. I suppose they are right who cares so long as they do pay.\nAlso finally caught up with GP as ringworm still not getting better, so finally on antifungals.  If the farmers couldn’t get hold of a vet pretty quickly to discuss what’s going on, they would give us earache.\nTuesday 14th\nHalfway through May and time to get the rest of the planting done in the garden. Beautiful weather and feels like summer is here.\nGG had a visit from trading standards over the bulls for which he had given a certificate of Fitness to travel.\nThere is now no slaughterhouse within an hour’s drive of here for cattle. Ulverston is the nearest. If an animal is not fit to be transported alive for some reason e.g. because it is lame or blind etc then it has to be shot on the farm and the carcase transported to the slaughterhouse. However under the new meat hygiene regulations of 2-3 years ago the carcase has to arrive within an hour of being shot. Which was fine while Black Brow was operating the slaughterhouse, but since it has closed, there are no options for any animals to be shot on the farm. (Unless you put it in your own freezer for your own consumption.) Thus whereas if there were borderline cases before, they were shot on the farm, and the carcases transported. Now the pressure is to get them transported alive. Or the farmer loses the value of the animal £500-£600, and has to pay £75 to get them shot and disposed of. The sooner either Carlisle slaughterhouse or Black Brow slaughterhouse get working again, the better.\nWeds 15th\nDay off\nSpent the morning catching up on paper work, feel better for it but never my favourite job.  But all the bits and pieces are in place for my tax return. Just waiting for the final few pieces of paper. Wrote a caustic letter to Council about the parking ticket, but sent them a cheque as not worth the fight.\nWent to Up Front Art Gallery for lunch. Some one had made a set of peat rings with a golden bowl at the centre and wanted hundreds of pounds for their “Art” creation. If you don’t ask you don’t get.\nSpent afternoon running the kids as [wife] was taking A in town for hair cut and girl time.\nLast football match for Northbank and [son], lost!!\nThursday 16th\nThe long lunch is back!!! There wasn’t much happening Vet wise but still a lambing today as the season has dragged on. One restocking farmer was in today with a ewe to be lambed, of the 200 sheep he is supposed to be fattening for market, 20 have lambed. The guy he bought them from is adamant they were never near a tup, someone needs to tell him about the birds and the bees!.\nThere was also a good, if slightly apocryphal story from DEFRA licensing, when they needed a licence to move a bull. The licensing department asked,\n“Is this bull going to be used for breeding purposes?”  Yes is the farmers reply.\n“Will this animal be coming in to contact with any other animals?” ……..  \nFriday 17th\nAnother TB test, another restocking farm, more stories. The best one was the fact that their cattle had lain for a week in the pasture field after being shot. They decided to plough it out for barley in the back end having spent the summer pressure washing the farm buildings to a gleaming state of sterility. \nWhere the animals had lain, there was still obvious contamination with blood etc when they ploughed it. But having failed the buildings on specks of dirt, DEFRA were just not interested in contaminated blood stained earth. They had also phoned the day before I arrived to send some one out to arrange TB testing. The chaos in there continues.\n\n\nSat  18th May\nI am to be best man! A friend was around last night with news about getting married. We have a wedding every month for the next 4 months. Must be something in the water at the moment!!\nUnfortunately it meant it was a really late night celebrating and I am working the w/e again. So getting up for Saturday morning surgery was a bit grim.\nI survived and so did most of the animals, the worrying thing is I am sure that Drs are just the same. Spent the afternoon playing football and tennis with the kids in the yard, and mowing the grass. The farmers are all now silaging and the roads are full of tractors flying around at all times of night and day.\nSat evening went with [wife] to hear SA speak at KD’s. It was good to see him and Clare again. We visited them in Bombay,at the height of FMD and it always puts things back into perspective. He runs a mission hospital in Thane an outskirt of Bombay. They have it self-funding by charging the rich, for luxury (!) service a long way behind the NHS, and providing a basic service FoC  for the average Indian. He is now talking about trying to raise funding for building an AIDS hospice to provide pain relief and dignity to those who are dieing of AIDS. Because of the stigma and cost, and risk of cross infection of both HIV and TB a lot of AIDs patients are just thrown out of their homes, and HIV +ve babies are abandoned.  As he says there is  an epidemic sweeping Bombay that will leave a lot of orphans and cause secondary epidemics because of immuno suppression, and it is not really being addressed.\nVery thought provoking, and makes the £millions wasted on FMD look very sick in a global perspective.\nSun\nMissed church in the morning as was seeing to cats and dogs in the surgery and dripping calf in the large animal bay. Spent most of afternoon on visits. All work and no play is making me a grumpy boy. 2 w/es in a row is not good.\nMon\nAW is in worse mood than me and at least I have worked w/e! She is winding every one up with her attitude. It is sthg that will have to be addressed but will have to be a partnership decision. \n[wife] was interviewing FC tonight at Christian Viewpoint in Carlisle, and came back full of it. She is good with people and interviewing. \nShe was also challenged by what F was saying about the importance of treating people as loved and valued by God. In some ways very similar to S, about valuing AIDs patients. We are all valued by God.\nTuesday\nMissed gym for 3rd week, I am going to be getting really unfit. I was on duty and had spent time talking with folk at work, valuing them!! But it was nice as A came out with me and she always likes being on call with me, but I never seem to know what’s going on in her mind. Still waters run deep.\nWeds\nDad phoned and has decided not to come on the w/e away this w/e. It is a family reunion, but it looks like it will be just our family and P’s. But the kids love meeting up with the cousins. Even A, who will no doubt complain that there should be some girl cousins. She is the only girl on both [wife]’s side of the family and mine. It is a bit worrying in that he is losing confidence in doing anything outside his normal routine. It is at times like this you realise London is not really very close. The other problem is working so many w/es doesn’t give much time for the travelling up and down to see him. \nThursday\nG was away on a course yesterday and came back full of doom and gloom. For along time we have relied on the drug sales as a substantial part of the business. There have been various government reports that have queried our monopoly, and there is a move to insist that we provide prescriptions for all the drugs, and then allow the farmers or pet owners to buy the drugs from whatever source they want: Internet, pharmacy or us. It means however that the Professional fees will inevitably have to rise to compensate. Which means it will be uneconomic for the farmers to use us. So they will not, in the present economic climate, which means no job. Carlisle, Brampton, and Dalston vets are all starting to write prescriptions which means that we are going to have  to follow suit.\nThe farmer who rents my field was silaging tonight. I got back from house group, to find a tractor follow me in to start rowing up. As they had been at it all day I decided to take the gates off their hinges as it is a narrow gap, and at that time of night, a clunk against the pillar is OK, but I don’t want to have to replace my wooden gates!! They had just started to pick it up when I went to bed at 11pm, so no idea what time they finished. \nFriday\nG is off ill, help, it looked as though I might miss out on the w/e away.  As he is working the w/e. But the fact it would have meant 3 w/e’s in a row and 6 nights in a row, managed to help persuade one of the assistants to step in thankfully. So I finished at lunch time and slept to catch up from the On call until the kids came home from school and set off for the w/e.\n\n\nSaturday 25th May\nDovedale in the Derbyshire Peak District\nDefinitely should have more w/es away and not working. We had a great time with the cousins. Stayed at a farmhouse B&B, it use to be a working farm but is too high up, and to small to sustain the dairy, so they went out of that 3 yrs ago. Beef and sheep was not making any money so they have concentrated on Tourism and grass let the fields. His neighbours are now renting the land and farming it. \nBeautiful walk along the valley and had tea out. Relaxed and slept like a log.\nSunday\nGreat British Summer; makes you wonder why any one would want to go abroad!! Wet and cold so went to water world and watched the kids, big and little go flying around the flumes.\nIt was good to catch up with my brother and family. The boys would play footie all day long, and be happy.\nMonday\nOff to catch my breath and tidy up flat for tenants arriving Thursday, spent day trying to reduce the weeds in garden and went swimming at night. The boys still wanted to play footie. Where do they get their energy? If I could bottle it I would make a fortune.\nTuesday\nIt felt like hard work going back to work, after time off I always seem to be tired and head achy. It seems to be hard work to get going again, aI just don’t feel like doing anything, including writing this diary. But the good news is that we have a new booted bantie. Bertie the cockerel and he is now ensconced in his run. We are hoping to get him some young ladies in the not too distant future. He is cute and A is over the moon about him.\nWeds \nGetting going again. Spent time talking with my wife who as always puts things back in to line. Communication!!\nWent to do some pregnancy diagnosis early this morning and the farmer was complaining about the cost of his vet bill and is wanting to learn how to check cows to see if they are in calf prior to drying off. The whole economics of dairy practice with milk at 13p per litre is beginning to hit home to them. Cannot be nice starting up again, to realise that you cannot make money at doing it. One of the other vets is in really bad form this week and is causing a lot of friction and we will have to deal with it as the staff are up in arms. At least I am off tomorrow prior to working jubilee w/e. My mother in law arrived which the kids love complete with her special treats for them snowballs.\nWent out for dinner with mother in law, but too tired to enjoy it due to early morning caesarean. \nThursday\nOff \nSpent morning getting flat ready as we have new tenants moving in and clearing up while the “girls” went shopping. Dry weather but intermittent heavy showers. Tackled the long grass at front but the grass got too wet and clogged mower. \nPicked up kids and did the fatherly bit, went to bed early as head achy and washed out and caught up on zzzz’s\nFriday\nStart of the Jubilee w/e and on duty for the next 5 days until 5pm Weds evening. Work busy with bits and pieces, and farmers complaining that it is too wet to silage. One of the vets had issued a PETS export certificate for a cat to come back into UK but had put it down for 2 years not one. It is only valid for 2 years in dogs but 1 year in cats. Typical Friday afternoon problem to sort out, The Help line is closed for training and MAFF offices are closed for the BH w/e. I don’t think there is a way around it either.  But will not be able to sort it out till Weds day and they are due on Ferry on Tuesday Oops.\nAlso a bitch’s owner came in to ask if we were open Tues as she is due on that date and will probably need a caesaer.\nJohnboy called in the evening wanting me to go to the “loyal” supporters meeting at Carlisle united as a spy. I’m on call so couldn’t oblige thank goodness.\n\n\nSat 1st June\nOffice staff were asking why is there only 2 vets on the whole w/e and I am beginning to feel the same, should have split it up and had more staff on, but at least the others will get a break and come back refreshed. But I feel like I am looking down the barrel of a gun.\nHorrendous calving on a heifer that was in calf by mistake, to its father. It was supposed to have gone back to its breeder but the buyer was still tied up under the twenty-day rule. The calf had died, and was gassed up. Ended up by caesaering in spite of rotten calf.  2 hours hard work and the heifer will at best be very ill for several days.\nSun 2nd June\nA day of football. Went to church and made a quick exit to watch the football, as with everyone else was quite disappointed. At Hebron at night DM had the goals, and the reactions to them on the big screen, which he linked to Romans 12 “ therefore I urge you to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, this is your act of spiritual worship.”  Talking about worship to God being everything we do including how we react to how the English football team perform. Very clever and memorable way of expounding the bible.\nWent straight on to [son]’s football presentations which was quite fun. There is a real football sub culture with the amateur football clubs in Carlisle all vying for the top spot. The old pals network and animosities seem to be very prevalent\nMon 3rd June\nBusy night and early start. 2 x prolapses? Why always at a BH??\nThe second one was a wild limousin heifer it charged me and sent me flying. The only injury was a sore fist where I thumped it in the eye to try and deflect it, as I was trying to get it away. Gave me a fright. It was a ¾ heifer that was bred because he couldn’t sell it store last year because of restrictions.\nChatted to farmer who started getting up at 4:30 am during FMD, because he couldn’t sleep. He is still doing it now!! He still has not got any sheep in because he can’t face it. He lost his sheep to the cull but kept his cattle. I had started by admiring the view. He said yeah it would be great apart from the damn windmills.  He has a brilliant viewing looking out over the Solway, and the Great Orton site and the windmills remind him and everyone else that their flocks are in a big pit. He says he can still see them going and feels guilty. I didn’t have the heart to tell him that of the 10,000 blood samples taken at Gt Orton only 2 were positive. A very big mistake that has caused big hurt in this area, and no one has admitted responsibility, and no one ever will.\nTues 4th June\nWatched some of the jubilee stuff on TV in between calls. Amazing sight to see the Mall full of people more than ever before. Yet Rupert Murdoch and his press would have us believe that the monarchy is finished.\nWe managed to cope with just the two of us on call so may be I was right. Also made a start on byre.\nRemind me next time we have a dinner party on a BH not to be working it. As my poor wife had 4 kids and a dinner to prepare!! I was called out to a cow Caesar at 3:30 and then had another call after that. Fortunately I had taken Tim so there was one less to fight. But got back to be told that I had to have a bath before I could help because I smelt… Evening was really good fun and hilariously funny, so even I kept going to the wrong side of midnight which after an early start was pretty good going. I will have to get Phil to do his Senator homes skit at the wedding. \nWeds 5th June\nDid not feel like getting up this am at all, and felt even less like going into work. Managed to extricate us from any problems with the cat with out its passport, there is no give in the DEFRA system, which is to be expected. Richard had a suspect FMD calf on Tuesday, no wonder he was a bit jittery when I spoke to him later on. Even though you know that it probably isn’t going to be a case and that the farmer is panicking, it still sets the butterflies flying. It was BVD.  Spent over an hour and a half this morning on the phone sorting out what the AW calls “the rubbish”. Queries and being helpful and friendly, and sorting out licensing and drugs, and repeat prescriptions. One was a woman complaining about the neighbouring practice, which required a bit of tact !!!\nI think the Drs must have been as busy as us, the tally for the celebrations are 1 off ill with flu and bad back, one wrist sprained from scooter racing at a street party after all the kids had gone to bed.(!!) And one who spent the w/e visiting her boyfriend in hospital. She had said that he needed to go in on Friday but the doctors had put him off, as it was the w/e. He was worse on Sunday but had waited till after the football before ringing. Priorities, priorities\nThursday\nWent to house group which was really good and spent time praying for the group, church, area and for world situation. [friends] are trying to work out what to do in India. They are teaching at a boarding school in the south of India and have both their own family, and also the school kids to think about. The consensus is that the foreign office advice is aimed more at the Indian and Pakistani govts than the UK Nationals. Ian is supposed to be visiting and has a flight booked so is still going at the moment. I really cant believe that they would escalate the situation, but it will be tit for tat and then going to the brink as neither will want to break face.  The ramifications of Sept 11th still keep reverberating around the world, as the balance of power alters. Makes FMD look like a picnic. At least we have stable govt that says it abides by the laws.\nFriday\nThe secretary asked this morning what did I want, meaning tea or coffee and I replied as I had prayed “wisdom.” But with 2 sugars.\nWe had a difficult partners meeting that lunch time. Poor timing and priorities again as England was playing!! I had assumed they would lose! But the meeting went well and the issues were discussed amicably enough and frankly enough so we all know where we are at, and issues were addressed.\nBut as James says not only about asking for wisdom but also putting it into action.\nAt night leant on the fence and talked to the neighbour as the thistles I was supposed to be cutting down carried on growing, but it was a nice evening. He works for STL, the Christian book distributors, he was saying how the fire that they had just after he arrived at the time seemed a disaster and caused chaos. But it made them make decisions that had to be made rather than continuing with the status quo, and in hind sight was a very good thing. I wonder when we look back whether the changes and opportunities of FMD will make us appreciate the decisions we have all had to make. \nIt made me think of the woman who came in today saying she was one of the “..lucky ones who didn’t get FMD”. Very much tongue in cheek as they are much worse off than those who did. She gave up her job as they couldn’t sell the calves as they were born and so some one had to look after them, so she went back home to work on the farm. Her job of course has been filled in the mean time, and she would have made a lot more money for less hassle if she had stayed.\n\n\nSat 8th June\nFinished the long period of work and On call on Sat morning and it came down with heavy showers as we had hoped to climb Helvellyn today. It eased some what at night which was just as well as we were going to a BBQ. It was put on by a S African vet from DEFRA who is now working in Longtown. The last time I drove through to Charlie and Ruth’s who were hosting the BBQ, was when the pyres were all burning. It gave me a funny feeling driving back up there. \nThe food was good and the craic was good, so we had a good time. The kids would have kept going but they were beginning to get high!! The midges once you get north of the border are definitely worse. We all had lumps all over in the morning.\nSun 9th\nSB spoke at church on Jesus healing the blind man at Pool of Siloam. He was very easy to follow.\n[friends] called in and stayed for tea. [he] as usual blunt and controversial as ever!! He always has a good insight, and dresses it up in taking things to extremes, he is also very funny with it so had a good meal.\n[son] is as high as a kite as he is going camping with the school this week so he has all his kit ready to go and would not settle to go to sleep and kept the other boys awake.\nMon 10th\nPouring down in time for the school camp at Borrowdale. Never mind they’ll enjoy it any way. 3 farms have had silage pits burst because the grass has been put in too wet. If silage is made when the grass is too wet it flows very slowly and cannot support its own weight. So it bursts the side walls and will flow out of the heap that it has been put in. If there is plenty of effluent coming off it will usually escape from the normal collecting systems and if it gets into the becks, it is worse than slurry. Hunters stream was black with effluent and the environment agency were out testing the water quality so they will be for the high jump. The contractors are so far behind, and the grass is getting so long and bulky that it doesn’t dry out as quickly. So there may well be a few more, but at least the farmers will have had warning so it will be their own fault.\nThe school kids are back for their work experience week. It must be hard for them to follow what is going on. But they seem to enjoy them selves. The worksheets definitely help to give some structure and a feel for what is going on.\nCrusaders meeting at night pretty disappointing response so not a lot we can do.\nTues 11th \n June workload has set in and I’m just cruising, and managed to get to the gym while on first so feel full of energy. Why do you feel full of energy after expending some? Spent half an hour on net trying to get holiday organised but finding places for 6 is not as easy. The weather is better for [son] camping and should be better until the w/e. Means we will hopefully be quiet at work as they all go out into the fields. \nWeds 12th\nNo calls over night. First time since finishing with Defra not had a call at night. Summer is truly here. There was a call just on half time at 8.15 which I did during the break so got to see the second half and England drew 0-0, but are through t o the next round. Caught up on paper work and have sorted a lot of things so they are in place for the 2 new vets.\nThurs 13th\nMeeting with Bank Manager for executive lunch.. sandwiches from Bells.\nHe asked how was the “new normality” . Which seems an excellent phrase. He seemed happy enough but it is always interesting to see how an outsider views the information given!! The problem is usually knowing the questions to ask. I think that is probably  He seemed happy enough but it is always interesting to see how an outsider views the information given!! The problem is usually knowing the questions to ask. I think that is probably true of the inquiries into FMD. Unless you know the questions you will not get the right answers.\nWent Abseiling up at Sandale with the house group from church and had a BBQ. It would have been nicer if the wind hadn’t howled. I had gone prepared for British summer weather but it was still pretty nippy. It was great fun.\nFri\nRead another test that had IR s for TB. (Inconclusive) that will have to be retested in 60 days. While I was writing up the paper work the farmer’s wife was saying that the kids were all off school and nursery with Hand foot and mouth. She had taken the youngest who was ill with the middle kid to the doctor. The doctor had said what it was and the middle kid burst into tears as he thought they were going to take her baby brother outside and shoot him!! It is funny but also very sad.\nThe same farmer was really fed up as the cows were all supposed to be TB tested prior to arriving on the farm. He had also let them out into a long 5 acre field with the water troughs at the far end of the field. Half the cows had not found the trough, and so were very thirsty by the time they came back at milking time. The idea that you just go and replace the cows just like that is not quite the case.\n\n\nSat 15th June\nSaturday morning spent it Gardening. The strawberries are coming and even though the gooseberries aren’t quite ripe picked some to start the harvest, and the one strawberry that was reddish!\nThen went to visit [friend] (and the wide screen TV) for THE football match. No one expected any more English progress but the lads surprised me and played a stormer. So the game against Brazil will become THE match.\nThe practice BBQ in watery June sunshine was good fun but the ground was too wet to play silly games or even footie. The food was excellent. AW was notable by her absence. Hey ho. BBQ is in need of a revamp, maybe abseiling though I don’t think I can see either R or AW going for it. Showed S around flat and met her parents. Remind me to be wise with my kids!!\nSun \nFelt tired and ill and washed out after slowing down and switching off after a busy day yesterday, and all week. Watched the Ireland match which was very close. Spent rest of day sleeping or just chilling out.\nMon \nWent testing at K and T’d. They are really nice lads but not too hot on the academic front but good fun. They were in good form and hoping to get the low down on the new vets… Yes they are young, free and single as far as I know! I pity their chances..  Spent a lazy day in the sun at a gentle pace, so quite enjoyed myself. Caught up with the paperwork at night and feel mellow.\nTuesday\nToo many O’s. One call was cancelled but the other one still wanted the call. So some one went to the wrong O and I had to make a mad dash and pour oil on the waters to explain why we are so late. Oops. So more Testing and a Quiet day. [wife] also had her quiet day. There was supposed to be a group of them going for a retreat day, but the speaker had cancelled so she did it herself with R and it went very well. She was exhausted after giving out all day. Met up with lads at night. Didn’t get  to gym again as I had to go and calve a schistasoma. Yuk.\nWeds\nTried again to work out what we are going to do with Summer holidays, no doubt we will get organised eventually. Came home early for lunch and had forgotten that it was coffee morning here so felt out of place amongst so many women! Skipped off early and went for a cycle to make up for missing gym. Did first part with A and Annie  and then zipped around for a bit which was good. \nThursday\nK and T had an I/R again. I need a new supply of little green forms. To put this in context. Prior to this year in 16 years in practice I have had 4 I/R’s, I am doing that this week!! So another farm under restrictions.\nFriday\nBad Hair day!! England lost !! Och well never mind such is life. Richard Drummond’s report that the SVS was unprepared, (yeah we had all been saying it, but I did not realise that the SVS had been saying it 2 years ago) has been picked up by the Audit Office. There is a Report case of FMD in a pig from Leicester Mkt. And I had another I/R. And met with JM a temporary Vet with Carlisle SVS on why we had not done the tests allocated. Mostly cos they aren’t to do!!  He also was very cynical about the changes in DEFRA, and the management ethos, has not changed. \n\tHe brought a message back from them that the test we had sent back because the guy is an old recluse that is impossible to deal with, we had to do as they did not have the resources. What!!??? They are responsible for ensuring that they are done, and sorting out the recalcitrant. \nHad the afternoon off and ran round after the kids while [wife] did reports.\nNext week must be better…\n\n\nSat 22nd June\nWedding day for D and S. Yippee.\nD and his best man and usher plus 3 others arrived last night, and it was really nice to have young people around again. I have forgotten how much I enjoy young people. I must be getting too old and cynical. C looked after our boys and A went into town.  It was really nice S could not stop smiling and it is Wigton carnival day so there were two pipe bands as well. Which could be heard drifting over the vows. was in his kilt, I should have got mine on for the occasion.  The reception was at Tullie house, which is a really nice relaxed venue. We were seated opposite [friends] so it was really nice catching up with them. B&D are just back from another wedding in Vancouver and really impressed with BC. |They are out doors fanatics so the skiing mountains and whistler really is their thing.\nBarnes who was looking after the kids at night is going out there for his gap year to work in a book shop. Should be really great for him.\nThere was a celeidh in the evening but I only lasted for 3 dances. I was absolutely exhausted. I didn’t realise how tired I was.  \nSunday\nFortunately it was a family service ie doesn’t start until 11;00!\nIt was lead by the young adults group. So was really fresh and good. They also don’t take themselves too seriously but do take Jesus seriously and it was good.\nMonday\nMissed swimming again, cos work was really busy.\nCrusaders meeting at night at Rydal very good. Met up with some of the leaders I haven’t met before. Folk who work with young people are always good fun and have a wicked sense of humour. Do you need one to do youth work or does youth work give you one?\nTuesday\nDiary did not get filled in from here on as on Weds Morning I reached into back of the car and my back went. I tore muscles in it a long time ago and it often niggles but as long as I keep doing the exercises for stretching and building up the muscles it is OK but I have missed doing the swimming? Relevant?\nAny way saw stars and in agony so flat on my back and stretching every 2 hrs and sore.\n\n\nSaturday 29th June\nMy back is slowly improving I can move around and type!!\nI can do the stretching OK but stiff and achy, rather than spasm.\nWork must have been bad for the two left as it was going to be short staffed with out me dropping out. Nothing I can do about it. The new vet called around to look at the flat before moving in a month’s time. She came with her mother. Their farm was culled out with FMD late on and they had just got the herd to where they wanted the breeding. Her mum was talking about it was going through a grieving period, and how some days it was yes carry on and get going again, and other days it was why bother? It is just all too much hassle. It will take a long time for the memories in the farming community to fader, and with the acknowledgement that it was much better to get the disease and get it over with, the cooperation of farmers will be even less. They are the 17th generation on the farm!! The whole concept of bio security needs to be looked at and farmer education on how the disease is spread. The self-imposed isolation of not sending kids to school etc is just stupid but to go against the flow is very difficult. That as well as the DEFRA imposed ridiculous rules. They were not allowed to leave the house for 3 months. They just view this as a punishment imposed because they refused to let the hefted flock be culled. (They were right not to.)  \nThe old tenants have moved out of the cottage. Eddie and Ruth seemed to really enjoy it as a summer holiday while at work!! A change is as good as a rest so they say. \nI have looked at jobs again but nothing appeals. There is a job which I wouldn’t mind doing as a consultancy but doubt anything will come. Will have to wait and continue to see what happens.\nWent out for a meal to Giannis at night as my Dad is up. For the w/e. \nSunday\nP spoke at Family Focus at church and was very encouraging he is always a revelation as he takes things as they are, not as they should be!\nWatched Brazil beat Germany to win the world cup. Wet weather and kids out of sorts and back still sore. Yuk..\nMonday\nDrove for the first time and dropped my Dad off in Carlisle but it was pretty sore by the time I got back. Dad was in good form and he has enjoyed his time up here but he is getting older, and with being in London we are going to have to visit on a more regular basis.  Went into work and did some paper work and answered phone and felt better for doing sthg, as pretty bored, but couldn’t sit still or really get going either. Came home and lay down again.\nD came around at night called in absolutely hyper. He and A going to split up which is not so good even if it is not that un expected. The thing that has brought to a head is the fact A is seeing some one else, who is also married, not a good situation.\nLads came around at night, which was good fun, and we had a good time.\nTuesday\nI am now the father of a teenager. A’s b’day so it was good to see her opening her presents this morning. Back is easing a lot so did small animal today and I am moving freely but still doing the exercises. A’s birthday is also always a time for reflection as she was born a year to the day after we arrived in Cumbria. So we have been here 14 years, a long time. The future is also looking a bit uncertain work wise with more farmers complaining about the prices of their milk and animals. Hence they don’t want to pay their bills. \nWeds to Saturday\nAs usual the diary gets missed when the crisis hits, so I am writing this on the following Tuesday and bringing the diary entries up to date. \nWeds morning I was driving through Wigton having done my first farm call since doing my back when there were lots of flashing lights and an ambulance and an unmarked police car with all its lights on going through Wigton. They stopped at the lay by in Wigton high St. The traffic was slow but I did not see anything. Later on I was coming back in to Wigton from another call and the By pass was closed. The office was full of news that the by pass had been closed because of a stabbing and that a Welshman and a Wigton woman had been taken to hospital and a Wigton man had been arrested for attempted murder. I got a sinking feeling as D had been around on Monday saying about Ali having a boy friend. I said to [wife] but she said surely not. I got back after work and a friend arrived and unfortunately it was D. The story emerged over the next few days how he had forced his wife at knife point to take him to where she was meeting the boyfriend and there he attacked him. The sort of story you only here about in the papers and crime programmes. So we have had the police taking statements and trying to come to terms with it. He is usually a mild almost submissive personality and he had flipped but really weird. \nThey have 3 girls who are now going to be really mixed up. Having a father who attempts to kill their mother is not nice.\nSo I missed the leaving party for the locum who has been working for us for the past few months which by all accounts was very good. \n\n\nSaturday 6th July\nStill in shell shock over D and A, I still cannot believe what has happened. Went in Saturday morning and sorted my car and got testing list up to date. There is a lot in the Veterinary press about the future of the LVI system and the future of Farm animal practice. The future is not looking good. The short term is fine, if anything we will have a huge amount of work and we can live off the FMD capital that the farmers have. But once that begins to run out, they and we will be in serious difficulties. The economics are against the farm animal practice.\nWent out for a brilliant meal and had a really good evening at C’s. Her husband is a Detective Sgt and had been called out because there was yet another serious incident. This time at a night club in Cockermouth. There is a 22 year old in Newcastle hospital with head injuries. So felt sorry for C as she cooked and hostessed with out her better half.\nSunday\nChurch was good with SG on the character of God. He was quite funny with his illustrations, of fatherly things from his life. Espy as his son is quite a character. Met up with DC who was a DEFRA vet from SA, he was in good form and has another locum set up for when he finishes at Longtown. \nMonday\nBack into full swing again, but not much happening. Read the test and felt a lot happier as I didn’t have to leave the dreaded piece of green paper as everything passed. Of the farms I went on though it was interesting to note that the farmers are all having problems with their backs again. While they were pressure washing and not amongst stock they were fine but going back to pushing animals around the bad backs are back! The topic is probably raised because of the fact I have been off with a bad back. Du. called in as he is replacing D on the railway until they can get something sorted on a more permanent basis. He stayed for 2 years next door while doing his railtrack training. The people at work cannot believe that Dave has done sthg like this as he usually if anything a submissive guy. \nDu. had just got the keys to his new house in Manchester where he is based now, and was not very happy to be posted back up to Cumbria. He hasn’t even managed to move in!\nTuesday.\nWork very quiet and long lunches. Good for getting other things done but pretty boring. Looked at Rota and checked websites. Reports to be published on 18th July. Spent time sorting out rotas and booking up and reorganising my kit.\nWeds\nDay off. Went into Carlisle and was bounced by my wife in to getting my hair cut in what I assume is an expensive hairdressers. She was getting hers done and dragged me in and it was a fait accompli. At least I assume it is expensive, as she won’t tell me how much it is and she let me go off to Tesco’s and said she would pay for both!! \nWandered around book shop in Carlisle and met [wife]’s mum off the bus. \nThe vet student from USA arrived for a couple of days. Jamie who is not as I assumed male but female! It is amazing how you make assumptions when you read e-mails and take messages. She is in UK for 12 wks and [friend] has given her our address as his wife is about to have twins so he thought it better not to have more people than really necessary in his house. There are a few babies at the moment, got a photo of E  this morning and [friend] called around to say [other friends] had had a baby but he couldn’t remember whether it was a boy or a girl!! (Learnt later it is a boy)\nThursday\nNot a lot for J to see. Called in to see [friend’s] new kittens, Posh & Becks. Both have cat flu. He is busy painting house and tidying up for the wedding. Never seen his yard as tidy. Must tell Abbi to get a move on and maybe he will finish off some of the building work as well!! Did 2 calvings in the afternoon and finally read through the Audit office report which I downloaded ages ago, they were pretty accurate, apart from Nick Brown insisting it was all going splendidly well!! There really must be a better working relationship between the ministry SVS vets and the vets in general practice. And so much better communication. The other point that is never made is that all farms should have a mass disposal plan as part of their IACS return in order to keep FMD on peoples minds, as it is already disappearing as a part of history. And history will repeat itself because nobody listens. And most of the anguish and delays were in the disposal systems. \nFriday\nDropped J off in Wigton to catch the train. It is always strange with having students, because they stay in our house they are very much part of our lives and then they drop out of our lives. Another former student who is just back from SA called in and it was good to catch up with her. She was on her way back to Edinburgh for her 5-year reunion. He has been qualified 5 years and I thought it was 2 or three … \nOne of the vets was off ill so it meant a bit of a run around today, as 2 others were on holiday. but it was good to be busy and get some adrenalin pumping.\n\n\nSaturday 13th July\nWorking Saturday Morning.\nOn days like this I think it is great to be a small animal vet, the Consults were all straight forward and I could chat to the owners with out having to stop and think what to do about the animals. That and 2 owners were really appreciative of what I was doing so felt good. I think that is one of the things about working for DEFRA no one appreciated what you were doing. OK some appreciated the concern and effort, and the way you did it but no one really thought what you were doing was good. Like putting pets down. It is for the best but no one likes it.\nBeautiful day today too, the sun shining and picking strawberries and having a Bar B Q was really very pleasant. My brother always says the best thing about NZ where he lives is that he can plan to have a Barb in 2 wks time, whereas here, you have to go with the flow.\nSun 14th\nFirst call so wandered around seeing ill cows. Several lots of drugs to put out as a lot for the restocking farms have yet to get their medicine cabinets back up to strength.  Had a collie hit by a tractor and its eye had been knocked out of its socket. Urgh!! Eyes give me the creeps.\nMon 15th\nOperating day as we are doing the anaesthetic monitoring so plenty of ops booked in. Health and safety requires us to check for operator exposure to anaesthetic gases. As our new system has a scavenging system and is light years ahead of the one we use to have, it is a waste of time, but we have to have the checks done. But I wonder how many other practices actually do?\nWe have never been checked up upon. \nA police man arrived at the front desk while I was on the phone. The head nurse disappeared as soon as she saw the marked Police car, which struck me as very suspicious. After he had booked an appointment for his dog and he had left. I was curious to know where she had disappeared to. She had gone to check that the medicines cabinet, where we keep the gun, and dangerous drugs, was in fact locked. As while we are operating we keep it open so as to have easy access to the emergency drugs. The Gun licences insist that it is kept locked at all times and immediate access to a police officer coming to check it must be allowed. And we never been checked up upon yet.!!  Farmers are all busy with field work and are not wanting to even think about any routine work so it could be a quiet week.\nTuesday 16th\nBeautiful weather and raspberries coming along nicely.\n[wife]’s Mum is busy making jam and mile high pies. Yum Yum\nPartners meeting at lunchtime, why do they always make me so depressed!? \nThe subjects were more of the same how do we cope with the changes in the drug sales prices and how do we compete with Irish drugs being brought in illegally. We got a little further forward and will hopefully be able to make a decision on it by the deadline in September. We need to look at new ways of bringing in revenue streams but I don’t think there is a willing ness to look at the radical so I will have to keep working away at it. \nWeds 17th\nMet up with the lads last night to pray but the craic was good, and did more chat and joking than praying! T’was good. I is apparently having a good time at the CS Lewis convention, but has yet to open the Book stall\n(He sells books and specialises in Antiquarian and first editions of C.S. Lewis). The one thing about the internet is that it frees up communication and searching for the really obscure. Sorry I)\nThe weather broke today and the rain came and with it all the calls as the farmers got all the routine stuff done. Which was good for the last of the school kids which have plagued us for the past few weeks. Vet students next but at least they can chat away with out me having to make all the effort.\nThurs 18th\nWent o a farm today which restocked in Feb after doing its 4 months waiting and has yet to have a TB test, asked him whether I should chase it up but he like everyone else should be leaving it to October and housing. MAFF efficiency  rules. We also tested 44 imported heifers that were supposed to be blood sampled within 7 days of calving but they have been missed. I have no confidence in either of the reports to actually achieve anything. Part of me feels I should try to contact the media and try to get them to push the agenda along. But I don’t feel it would achieve much apart from sticking my head above the parapet, which would not do much. I have asked for copies but none have arrived yet.\nFri 19th\nDemob happy, I’m on holiday from 5:30pm so it will be good to catch up on all the things I should have done but not done. The garden is a mess but we are getting on top of it slowly. In some ways I am glad to be off when the LLI is reporting as at least I will not get wound up.\nSo this is me signing off for the week, next diary will be on Sat week.\n\n\nHOLIDAY -  Week beginning Saturday 20th July\n\n\nSaturday 27th July\nHaving had a week off, I am feeling a lot happier about life in general. We have been to a few of the nights at the Keswick Convention. It is an amazing set up with over 12,000 people coming together over 3 weeks in Keswick and meeting up for Bible teaching and to worship God. There is a big tent that is set up on the back of the convention centre. By the time we arrive, it is always full, and we were not late. On the Friday evening there were people standing outside. The kids went to a Youth event on of all things Ezekiel, not exactly an easy choice of Bible book to convey to 19-14 yr olds. But they really enjoyed the wacky games and the way they mixed teaching and songs and games/activities. They seemed to be mostly uni students who seemed to get as much fun out of it as the kids. My brother and family were up and the cousins love getting together and even A joined in the football and tennis. Even though her hand to eye co-ordination is not the best.\nShe has taken up running every day so I have been out with her, but my back is still not right and I can feel it at the slightest provocation. Must go swimming again. My brother also asked [wife] what DIY needed doing as he is a real enthusiast. Give me gardening any time. So we made a door for one of the sheds which I have been putting off for the past 6 years. As once I start there are another 5 to do. He is also a sailing fan so hired a sail boat and went sailing which was great fun. The kids had a canoe and we raced up and down the lake. And the kids swapped around and went to explore islands it was really good. The weather helped it was scorching.\nWe also went to a wedding of one of our close friends’ son. I decided I am going to start teaching my kids the etiquette of weddings, as the groom could have done a better job.\nIt isn’t really his fault as he is young and has not thought things out.\nSun\nWent to the All age service at the tent at Keswick. There were too many kids even for me, but the mix of action songs and asking kids things and an action talk meant that those leading it kept the kids involved. It was good to see. Spent the afternoon on the lake it was really nice day.\nMon\nYep it was a real Monday morning with my in tray over flowing. 2 Rota’s to sort and 2 weeks of testing to try to arrange. The only goodish news was that the ministry have finally decided to put the restocking farms on Annual testing which means at least we know where we stand and can plan. It will mean a lot of work for us. The bad news was that the OFT investigation have sent us a horrific questionnaire which needs filled in and one of my partners has had a go and not got very far unfortunately, and it needs to be in by tomorrow.  Forget it.!!\nThe 2 new vets have started and so we are settling them in and they are picking up the ropes quite quickly, which is ace.\nOn call at night, out twice for bad calvings….that’s the end of my holiday f\nfeeling good. \nTuesday\nSore back from calvings and early mornings. Had forgotten I had arranged for some one to be with me all day today. In a moment of weakness I had acquiesced to being put up for sale in a promise auction to raise money for African Children’s Choir. So this was the promise being redeemed. A morning with the vet….So I put on my best charming manner, all Mr PR-Man. And took her on a tour of the practice and on call and explained everything I was doing so it was a good thing we were not busy.\nSpent the afternoon consulting and supervising new vets and showing them the ropes.\n Weds\nWe were suppose to be going walking up Helvellyn but the torrential rain put us off. So went into Carlisle and did bits and pieces, and I took kids to see Stuart Little 2, which is definitely one for the kids. And jobbed around at home, but the kids like it when we just potter around.\nThursday \nFelt really stiff and sore and decided again I must go swimming more often, I just cannot seem to get there, that’s all. Must make time. I’m working this w/e and I am then off for 10 days. Finishing with F’s wedding. [friends?] are up with their kids and it is really good to see them. We don’t see them that often but they are the sort of friends who you pick up on as soon as you meet them even if you haven’t seen them for ages. M has left full time teaching as he couldn’t cope with the pressure of all the paper work and hassle. He is teaching supply and doing other things as well. He is so creative and he has made a model of our house just while he was sitting chatting with us. \nFriday\nCame home at lunchtime to see the kitchen table covered in drawings and paintings. M had decided to have a painting day so all the kids were doing drawings and paintings. He has done a watercolour of our house. It is brilliant. \n\n\nHOLIDAY for two weeks\nThis is more a reflection of what I have been doing and thinking over the summer as I have not been writing up the diary but I want to put down some of the things that I think are important.\n[edited – disclosive]\n\n\n\nSat 24th  Aug \nAnother Bank Holiday w/e to be worked but at least I am backing up our new young assistant. We work a system where the new vets have a senior vet on call at the same time for the first few months so as to give them a hands on support and mentoring. While this sounds very good and practical it is surprisingly uncommon. When I started I was on my own from almost day one. I started in August after getting married, and in the second week of September, my boss headed off to Oman to do horse work out there. The other large animal vet was off on long term sick and he could only get a small animal locum. When I look back now that he left me in charge of the farm practice for 2 weeks after only being a month qualified, I shudder, but at the time I just got on with it. \nSun 25th \nCalvings coming thick and fast. The good warm weather has made the grass spring and the cows are putting on too much weight and having problems.\nJ was at a football tournament at Pirelli’s which I missed, but he came back really tired having played his socks off. Did another PTS (Put to sleep) dog visit with [assistant vet]. It is never the easiest of consults, and she did really well. She is finding her feet. I find it hard helping people make euthanasia decisions over dogs, so I feel quite strongly anti euthanasia when it comes to people.\nMon 28th \nBeautiful day too nice to work. The morning was busy but the afternoon was quiet so I spent it lying in the sun dozing. Had BBQ at night at J’s and chatted to a few folk who I know but not to speak to so was interesting. Spoke to one of our farmers daughters who told me her Dad had just had his first calf since FMD and so he was really happy. He had 2 holdings which were run as one. He managed to keep his heifers which were on the second holding. Probably because they were the last ones in the area, and these were the ones that were now calving. He still blames the pyre from a neighbour for spreading the virus to his farm.\nTuesday 27th\nThe problem with having a day off is that you have problems stored up for when you come back. Today was really hectic…finished at 6-30 after having come back from the Belgian blue inspections to help out at surgery. The inspections were fun, but it gave me the creeps being in the mart and inspecting mouths as it brought back bad memories. The mart is ridiculously clean, and the last time I inspected mouths was for FMD, after shooting a herd that was a dangerous contact. I was trying to persuade London not to take out the other neighbour as well. We got finished at 2am, and went in for a cup of tea and to recover, and the mother greeted me with the news that D had been next door and was starting to shoot them!!\nThe other really annoying thing is that the basic hygiene is not being enforced and yet other rules are. The rules are made in London by desk bound DEFRA officials who don’t have to implement them. The  mart uses mini dumper trucks to clean out the pens after they have been sold. The same trucks are then used to put out straw and sawdust in the freshly cleansed and disinfected yards. They are covered in muck, and are a bio hazard!! \nM the owner of the animals we were inspecting put on her usual tantrum display to try and intimidate the secretary and inspectors, which as I was expecting it I found quite amusing, but I don’t think she or they did!!  \nHad another BBQ tonight with kids. [son] cooked and loved it so I have found a new BBQer!!  Kids in brilliant form as they are enjoying being around and A has been baking.\nWeds 28th\nAnother TB reactor, and the corresponding paper work and licensing!!\nHad a weird oddball case in surgery and spent ages trying to take a history of what was going on. The dog is not that unwell in itself, but has an intermittent history of different things. I look forward to seeing what it turns out to be, or whether it resolves itself with time. Vetting is always varied.\nJ was at [friend’s] party, after having a football school with Blackburn rovers this morning so he was passed himself.\nArranged to visit [prisoner in prison] on my next day off. And went through a multitude of meaningless options to end up with a guy who sounded like he came straight off “Porridge”. It is amazing how intimidating trying to find your way around a bureaucracy can be. I am not sure I want to go but….\nThurs 29th \nFrom feast to famine not much work during the day at least. Al had 3 caesareans last night and was running out of steam by 5 O’clock this afternoon!!\nMeanwhile I did small animals and tried to organise my trip to London to visit my Dad. Found web sites for Chitty Chitty Bang Bang, London Eye and Madam Tussards. So should be able to book in advance if tickets are left for the half term week.\n[other children] are staying so the house is full of excited kids…\nFriday 30th\nBusy day sorting out the invitations to our Open Day, 1st Oct. It is just a chance to get the farmers together. We promised one to celebrate the end of FMD. It is amazing going through the list off the computer how many farms are not restocked. The list hasn’t been updated since pre FMD as we don’t really know how many will restock so we have been waiting for the end of FMD to redo it. So there were a few deaths, sales and ‘moved away’, to take off the list.\nTime moves on.\n\n\nSat 31st August\nLast w/e of the summer holidays. We had a BBQ at lunch time for Borderline, and then I promised to take the boys camping at Bowscale Tarn .It was beautiful but really cold. The weather was OK Sat but Sunday was glorious. The boys wakened at first light. So we climbed up on to the tops while the sun was still rising and it was one of those magical moments. Wonderful.\nThe boys were so excited and full of energy and so happy to be with their Dad and enjoying life. A time to treasure.\nSun \nAfter coming down off the tops from Bowscale Tarn went to visit [friends]. [He] is a vet in Longtown and has just set up his own Small animal practice in the north of Carlisle. The twins who are now 4 weeks old were wonderful. There is always sthg very special about wee babies. A was in her element with two to mother.\nMon\nGood weather continuing and so we are still quiet. The vet student has arrived. Went blood-sampling sheep for Maedi visna to a farmer who imports and sells sheep as a bit of a dealer. Between him and his Dad, and his Granddad they have 4 holding numbers, which is making a mockery of the licensing system. He knows a lot of the breeders and dealers, and the Yorkshire DEFRA is even worse than this one and so the whole licensing system is allegedly being ignored there.\nEveryone in the office was trying to work out where we are going to go for the Xmas party as it is now September.\n\nTuesday\nIt is [friend’s?] last day at work tomorrow before the wedding so the girls spent most of the afternoon printing out posters and things to decorate his car before he goes tomorrow evening. The farmers are phoning in to book Tb tests for Nov and Dec as they know that we will be busy, which makes life a lot easier for me. We have sent out notes with the invitations to the open day and that has had a good response so we will start to get busy testing next week.\nWeds\nDay off. Spent the morning fixing the shower drainage, which had suffered from one too many footballs being kicked against it. The problem was the broken part was also a metric to imperial converter.( One end was 40mm and the other was 43mm) Which once I discovered that was what I needed meant a trip to Carlisle as nowhere in Wigton had it. So it got codged up with plenty of silicone!! \nThe afternoon was spent going to visit [prisoner]. He is the friend who stabbed his wife’s boyfriend in Wigton, and so he is currently residing at Her Majesty’s Pleasure in Durham Prison. It was a very disheartening experience. As with any organisation, it takes time to work out where to go and what you need to get through the hoops. I went from one part of the prison to another and backwards and forwards. The staff where very friendly and helpful, but they are all at fixed stations and so you are sent from one area to another. The security, although expected and natural, still comes as a bit of a shock. Photographed in, and issued with a barcode to get you in and out. And you put all your belongings in a locker before you are allowed in. Of course I did not realise that you only need the ID (Passport) to get your bar code so I kept it to show at the entrance. Where all I needed was the bar code. So they sent me back to put it in the locker. \n[prisoner] was Ok, but he is still finding it hard to think about a future that does not include his wife. Even though the divorce papers are filed, and he has done some pretty nasty things to her and the boyfriend. He is pleading guilty and is expecting to go down for a good few years. \nThe whole visitors area was charged with emotion, with people coming to see brothers, husbands, lovers. There were lots of girls with young children coming to see their Dads. I felt very sad for them and for the kids who are growing up with out a Dad, or the stigma of a Dad in jail. \n[His] kids have written but he is realistic. His wife is very anti him, and they are unlikely to keep up with him in the long term, as she at best, is not going to be supportive, at worst is going to try to dissuade them.\nHe was quite upset about that. He is also not able to sort out his things, or see his house before it is sold. He did a lot of building work etc on it and has an emotional attachment to it. But there is no real closure. He had emotional problems before all this. He is likely to have even more on his release. His car on which there is still a car loan has been removed from the pound but he doesn’t know where it is.\nDrove back over A66 very thoughtful and thankful for my family and freedom. Until the phone went to remind me I was On Call and had I forgotten. Fortunately there were no calls as it takes quite a while to get from Barnard Castle to Wigton. Oops!!\nThursday\nDid my first isolation pens inspection, which is a complete non-sense. The field has to be 50 m from any other livestock. Which in London probably sounds fine. Or in Scotland where there are plenty of woods and other crops, but here in Cumbria where the main crop is grass and all the fields are grazed at this time of year, then it is not so easy. The forms are horrendous, and the boxes to be filled in are greyed out to make it easy for you to know which boxes are to be filled in. This obviously looks really good on a computer screen in London, but on a photocopy, writing in black ink, makes the whole thing illegible. But that’s their problem!!! When does common sense come in.\nFriday 6th September\n[colleague’s] Wedding.\nOne of the vets at the practice was married today at the parish church in Wigton. The wedding was “some do..” He and his family in kilts. There were over 200 at the wedding and reception. At the Grennhill hotel where [bride’s] uncle is a director. The theme was an English rode and Scottish thistle. The flowers were all red roses in arrangements with thistles. They were beautiful. As was the bride, he quickly adds. There was a ceilidh afterwards and a fireworks display. Several of the neighbouring farmers complained to me the next day.\nDanced and talked the night away till after 2 am. Getting up the next day was a bit of a pain for morning surgery, urgh…\n\n\nSat 7th September\nWhy is it whenever you could do with a quiet day because of one reason or another it is always busiest. Managed to keep going most of the day with calvings and ill animals. Still recovering from the late night at wedding.\nDay was a bit of a wash out really.\nSunday.\nMilk fever at 7 am to finish me off so missed church but went to hear SC at Wigton in evening. He is head of Oasis trust and is very much a radical, but believes in putting faith into action and was very challenging. Isiah 58.. True fasting that God wants to spend your self on behalf of the poor in spirit. \n[wife] went to hear the new Bishop of Carlisle who was speaking at Hebron. He is reaching out to all the local churches and seems to see outside the traditional denominational boundaries, which is really encouraging.\nMonday\nHad a crusaders meeting in Rydal. Crusaders is a youth group organisation and I am on the area planning group. We have had money given in a legacy to support some one full time to train leaders, to organise area events and w/e away and other joint activities, which should be good. It meant a rush and a long day so I am still feeling knackered from the w/e.\nTuesday\nI was almost speechless today. The great era of decentralisation has hit DEFRA, I wish… I rang them up because we still have not had confirmation for the appointments of our 2 new vets to enable them to do DEFRA work. What used to happen was that they went to a training session and chat with the DVM in Carlisle and the appointments arrived 2 days later. Guess what all the paper work has to be sent to Page St in London now, and they have not got it back yet.\nWeds  11 09 02\nIt is funny how some anniversaries effect you and others do not. I had just started back in to the practice when the hijackers crashed into the pentagon and the twin towers. I was feeling at my most bruised and battered having had a major confrontation at DEFRA, and had to work through the psychological problems of being threatened and sidelined, and yet wanting to keep my integrity by not reacting and blowing people out of the water. \nThe 9 11 bombers made me realise how fragile peace is, and how fragile people are and the importance of not losing sight of the important things in life and trying to keep things in perspective. People are more important, friends and family… and if I can’t fight the civil service mentality that is their problem not mine. I remember seeing one of the teacher’s husbands walking in to the kids’ school when I went to pick them up. Looking slumped and dejected and learning that their only son was in New York and they could not reach him. 2 days later they heard he had visited the Twin towers the day before and had taken photos from the top. He was supposed be going back into the towers that morning but he had got up late and by the time he and his friends set off the towers had been hit. The impact of the number of people, who have either been in or visited the towers from all over the world, does make it a potent symbol with worldwide resonance. My sister worked in them for a while several years ago.\nThe anniversary brought a lot back up to the surface that I thought was past, but was merely hidden.\nThursday \nFirst on last night and 2nd on tonight so started early and finished late and running out of steam.\nFriday\nOne of the farmer’s wives came in today for some wormers for her chickens that have gape worm. She paid last months bill in cash as well as for the wormers. £8.76 inc VAT. She is working away from the farm 2 days a week, her husband is full time at a job he got after they went down with FMD.I asked how her father in law who is 65 was doing. He is lost and the farm is too quit, its not right its too quiet. They still have no animals back and are grass letting. Its funny she said, whoosh and your life takes a complete change, you never know what’s going to happen next.\n\n\nSat 14th September\nWorked am and then had rest of w/e off hooray.\nSunday\nMonday\n[son]’s footie\nTuesday\nPartnership meeting at lunchtime so had a sore head by the end of the day but a lot of good decisions made. So feel as though we a re moving forward.\nWeds\nOff as working the w/e so caught up on paperwork and stuff at home and then went into Carlisle to go shopping. For lots of bits and pieces. And a new bathroom.\nThursday\nDVM called in to update us. Waste of time and I had forgotten what an annoying man he is a real career civil servant bureaucrat who has forgotten what real life is about. If he ever knew.\nHad one of the vets around for tea as I was backing her up. Spent the evening playing take two and had fun.\nFriday\n---a very bad day at the office dear oh dear oh dear.\nThe day was great to start with headed down to Iselgate to see a lame bull to give it a certificate. They are still suffering from both the financial and emotional scars of FMD. Mind you they were always odd. She was talking about the isolation that was hard to break out of, and get back in to doing things again. They were also hoping to retire when they were 50 but BSE hit, so they decided to keep on and had no income from Jan to October last year. Mind you they would only usually be selling stores any way.\nThe day was taking a turn for the worse when after sorting out umpteen decisions for the practice manager on organisational issues he said “ wasn’t it easy when you were just being a vet???” \nFatal mistake as the next dog to be seen was an odd ball. It had woken up that morning after being perfectly ok up til then. It had growled at tis owner and he had decided to leave it for a while. After an hour or so he went to get it up out of its bed and it flew at him and as he put it meant it. So he rang up and brought it to the vets. This change of behaviour meant he had put it in a kennel and left it. So when I went in to examine it growled and flapped its ears at me and bit at the bars. Some dogs in pain or fear will growl or let you know that it is not happy, but this one meant it. We had a go at trying to get it examined by using the dog catcher and muzzles, but it mean it.\nLeft it to settle down over lunch but it was worse. Finally got it sedated, it had a temp of 104. Injected mm, and so was a case of encephalitis with rage. So after 3 vets all looking at it and umming and erring we decided to get a MAFF vet to have a look just to check that it wasn’t rabies. I had forgotten that none of them are clinical or able to handle animals but it was a bit of a joke. But as there was no history with it, of contact with abroad it has been left alive for the time being.\nBut the stress of both handling the dam thing and the worry of is it rabid and the consequences was some what tiring so I am washed out tonight.\nTomorrow is another day.\n\nWeek 27- Sat 28th September\n\nSaturday.\nDo tell me there is light at the end of the tunnel because at the moment I definitely feel there isn’t. So I have taken time off next week to catch up on all the things that need sorted at home. We are supposed to be putting in a new bathroom and we need to get the stuff ordered so the guy can fit it. You never know it may include doing a few diaries!!\nSunday\nMy wife is on a counselling course this w/e so I ma on the run around with the kids. Yesterday was spent watching the boys plat football and run here and there with friends. [son] had 2 friends to come and camp last night so he is a little on the tired side. The weather is warm and sunny a real Indian summer the autumn raspberries that are usually delicious but quite sparse are huge and plentiful.\nWell I definitely have a teen-age daughter as for the first time I had a phone call late in the evening from Carlisle asking her to be picked up, as her lift home had not worked out. Fortunately it was from the church youth group, but it is the sign of things to come.\nThe youth group took the church service tonight so it was really good. Looking at Our World. The pressures on young people and how they respond as Christians and applying their faith to their own situations. Very challenging.\nMonday\nWe have an Open night tomorrow night and it doesn’t seem very organised yet. Not my pigeon. I have made a resolution not to get worked u about things that are not my responsibility and just leave them be.\nThe 2 new vets are beginning to really pull their weight, which is great, and [colleague] is back from his honeymoon. Brown and jet lagged. They spent time at the beach and on safari so had a great time. [nurse] has headed off to the far blue yonder. She is one of our nurses and has gone to NZ for a month so it will be strange with out her. [other] nurse is just back from states and [another] vet is about to go to the Caribbean for 2 weeks. So I am getting itchy feet. Time to travel. At least I should be of to India in the new year.\nTuesday\nYear end Oct 1st, so stock taking which for me includes mucking out my car. I thought it was quite normal to take the wheelie bin to the car and just hoy the contents in until my neighbour saw one of the rare occasions when it happens and burst out laughing. He found it quite amusing. I was a bit taken a back at the time but we always assume what we do is normal!\nThe open day was OK but [wife] was out so had to juggle things a bit. I was On call so late finished, and had to fetch [son] from football as his practice had been shifted to Tuesdays with the dark nights. So I owe [friend] a bottle of wine for turning up half an hour late to pick him up. The boiler man arrived at 7pm to fix the boiler which was blowing fuses. He needs a lesson on time management. \nHad several interesting conversations on FMD. The most amusing one was about Tony Blair arranging his bust up with unions on the anniversary of the FMD out break finishing so as to keep it out the news. \nThe same farmer said about the govts response the countryside alliance March. The fact that they have reduced the sparsity factor in the allocation of central funds to  local authorities. This means that those with a lower population density and therefore a higher perceived  cost  of providing services are going to have this downgraded. Or in this farmer’s opinion take money from the countryside to the town. Don’t march or this govt will kick you where it hurts in a very subtle way.\nThe other one was probably more relevant in that in a group discussion, admittedly fuelled by an intake of free alcohol. Several were saying that this year was harder to cope with than last as there was no crisis or adrenalin to keep them going. And that the toll from last year was beginning to tell on them and their nerves. Two were still under court threats from Trading Standards /DEFRA for not complying with regulations. Both will in my opinions not result in anything but they are pretty pissed off to put it mildly.\nThere is also a real antagonism to doing the testing for ministry and we are in the cross fire as Defra vets decide what is to be done and yet we are the ones trying to arrange and get the testing done. While they do not have to pay us, they do have to spend a fair chunk of time organising and actually getting the job done. We are having a real problem with organising the testing on one of the common grazings. There are 14 farmers with animals on it. Biosecurity is a joke when your animals are on common grazing with 14 others. And trying to get 2 farmers to agree on a date and a method of doing it. They all have different ideas, and most do not want so and so there co he ‘ll just wind the cattle up, and we’ll never catch them.!!!\nWeds\nDay off  So caught up on garden and sleep.\nThursday\nI really enjoyed the crack today there was just that right amount of work and banter to have a good day. Laughter and fun is infectious..\nFriday\nOut for a meal at night which was great but 8:30 start tomorrow Sat am is not going to be good…\n\n\nOCTOBER – A young colleague’s brother was killed in an accident and as M writes retrospectively (see below), there followed a very difficult month in which he was unable to keep a diary.\n\n\nSaturday 5th October\nIt is in the smallest of things that suddenly life changes very suddenly and we then look back and see how we were and are not now.  I had a phone call at ten to five from one of the young vet’s father. [Father] was asking to speak to George or I. That in itself was strange the receptionist came and found me, with a quizzical look, saying he did not want to speak to [young vet]. When I answered the phone he said that they had bad news in that her brother had been killed in a traffic accident, so I had to tell her the bad news and then sort out the consequences. Once she had got over the initial shock, [wife] drove her to her parents’ home in [her] car.\nThe other partners are away so we are short staffed and [young vet] will obviously not be back for a while.\nIt is at times like this that I am always grateful that I can go back to God and trust in him. Even though I do not understand anything, I know that I can trust God. \n\nJan 2003 (Writing retrospectively about October 2002)\nThere is a month of Diaries missing from the death of [vet’s] brother onwards. I always meant to go back and fill in the days that I missed but never made the time or the effort. I found the time very difficult. So how her parents and sister-in-law coped I do not know. The funeral was at Kirby and I am pleased that I went. It was very sad to see some one in the prime of their life with so much to offer, cut down in such a random way. It was a very Cumbrian farming gathering. The red faced craggy farmers, and yet there was a friend of the family who sang at the wedding who was a black American gospel singer. The global village or world wide family of the church, take your pick.\nThe death of some one young always makes you consider your own mortality and makes you think about what you are doing. Will you on your death bed wish that you had made different choices??\nThe next month was busy and stressful, and probably a time which would have been useful for the study to have thoughts and reactions to my life when under stress, but I suppose to a certain extent when we are close to something we go on automatic pilot and do the urgent leaving the things on the periphery. \nHe was killed while driving a tractor back from where they had been testing cattle for American BVD. They had bought in pedigree world class dairy cattle. This included a sibling to an embryo which had had the American BVD. So the ministry were keen to make sure that it was not established within the UK. Hence the reason for the blood sampling.  I know you cannot look at history and say what if… But if the cattle had not been culled, there would have been no blood sampling to do and no reason to be on the road that day at that time. Linkage is not the way to go. He may have had to go to feed stock or he could have been in an accident in another way. But the ripples of actions continue to reverberate around. \nAt least in my head.\n\nSaturday 12th October (Again M is writing retrospectively here of his first thoughts after diagnosing his first FMD case)\nThese weeks were not completed because of my stress levels!\nI have wanted to transcribe my first thoughts on FMD that were written in a hotel in Newcastle at 2am after diagnosing my first case.\n\nTo My Wife.\n\nDear [wife]\nI don’t know why I am writing this, as I hope to see you tomorrow but I suppose I need to record what I feel, for you, and for me besides, sleep eludes me.\n\nToday was a beautiful day of winter sunshine, warm sunshine that speaks of the spring that is to come, on frosted snow that is clear and white and pure. A great day to be walking up in the hills on a Sunday afternoon, enjoying God’s wonderful creation.\nBut this is a fallen world. The only walkers are me, the ministry man, in disposable boiler suit and waterproof jacket and trousers, and a farmer with a heavy heart. We go into each field checking and inspecting all the pregnant ewes, herding them into a corner to catch and examine them.\nFeet OK, Mouth OK, a smile.\nThe only clue to the sadness on this man’s heart is the slight acrid smell, which wafts, now and then on the wind. The smell of his neighbours future burning on another ministry man’s pyre.\n\nIt’s 2 o’clock in the morning, and why am I writing this? \nBecause I cannot sleep. \nThe ministry man who then examined the cows. Blisters in its mouth, blisters on its tongue, Temp 105F.\n“I am sorry” I say, “It is.”\n“They’ll all go” he manages to say fighting back tears.\n“ If the lab confirms it, yes.” I reply. As a farm vet of 15 years experience I am not allowed to say it is Foot and mouth disease only that I suspect it. An anonymous telephone answerer in London makes stupid comments and stupid questions. \nI take my samples from the cow. I grab its tongue to pull it out to take a sample of the skin from the tongue. The cow’s tongue comes off in my hand. I try not to be sick and place the sample in the bottle.\n\nWe go into the farmhouse.\nHe is in tears.\nShe is in tears.\nI feel like crying.\n\n“ I wouldn’t do your job for all the b… tea in china.” she says.\n\nI am a volunteer, a TVI, all big depts have their jargon, and I don’t speak it yet a temporary veterinary inspector. I only started 3 days ago. A “clean” vet who had not been in contact with the foot and mouth disease.\nA volunteer from general practice, seconded to be used as a pawn in the battle against FMD. A man from the ministry.\n\nAs I leave a “dirty” vet, having double disinfected with my samples and a heavy heart, I take off the disposable boiler suit, and put on my shoes.\n\nI am me again. Not the man from the ministry.\n“Hey lad, nobody would know you from anyone else like that. Says the farmer.\n\nHe has seen me as I am. I see him as he is.\n\nLiving with his mother since his father died, so as to be on hand to run the farm. His wife and her mother in law trying to share a house and a kitchen while they convert a barn into a house.\nThe builder was told to stay away a week ago in case he brought disease onto the farm. Tomorrow he will be told to stay away as there will be no income for at least 6 months.\n\nWhile I filled in forms I had never seen before, with initials and jargon I’ve never heard. She phoned her sister to pick up the prescription for anti depressants. The doctor said she should go on them while the stress and worry of foot and mouth was about. Well it’s here.\nHe hasn’t eaten and will not sleep tonight.\nShe is anxious and will not get any rest.\nAnd the man from the ministry.?\nWell its 2am and I am writing this far from home a volunteer, a TVI, a pawn in a bigger game.\nBut after 5 days of being “dirty” and I can rejoin life. Back to normal, Back to my home, to my job, and my future.\nMy farming couple. 5 days of shooting and burning, of disinfectants and diggers.\nSix months of quarantine and a future in farming, maybe. Or maybe not.\n\nThe stories abound: Of three generations waiting for the men from the ministry. But grandfather will not see the farm restocked. The stress was too much for his already dodgy heart.\nThe countryside is under siege, and pawns are being lost, to win a greater gain?\nAnd why are we having to work these long hours and sacrifice these pawns??\nBecause some one was so arrogant, so stupid and so lazy that he couldn’t be bothered to heat the swill he fed to his pigs. He couldn’t keep to the rules that were made so this would not happen.\n\nIt is not intensive vs. extensive, organic vs. agribusiness, it is sheep vs. goats.\nAnd they will be sorted.\n\n\nSaturday 2nd November \nThe start of writing diaries again after a break of a few weeks, I am hoping to go back and fill in as time permits so this is today and forward looking.\nWorking the w/e with [young vet] and AW sat am. She had a calving this morning at 4am and so is a little on the tired side so hope it is quiet for rest of the w/e.\nDid surgery and then spent the afternoon trying to fix the out sidelights. The front went 18monhts ago, which shows how well I am keeping up with the maintaince on this house!! But the back one went recently and that is a real pain as you cant see your way to the car at night so I am more concerned about getting it fixed. The old lights are just rusted up and you can no longer replace the bulbs so up the ladder to re wire new lights I went. Unfortunately I was on call, and yes I suppose I was trying to do too much, but if you don’t try you don’t succeed. So I downed tools went off to calve a cow, and then came back to find a neighbour plus her 4 children in our kitchen. So I stopped had a cup of tea and then headed back up the ladder. Now [wife] maintains I should have noticed that there were lights on at this point. I would like to point out that I should also notice when she has moved furniture, had her hair cut or even spring cleaned the house. As I am often berated for my lack of noticing these sorts of things, yes I should have noticed but I didn’t. I was focussed on what I was trying to do, as usual. So up the ladder I went, to connect up the light, not knowing that [wife] had switched the electrics back on. And yes when I was at the top of the ladder, I grabbed the wires, and then spent what seemed an awfully long time trying to let them go and stay on the ladder as the electric current was shocking me.  So the light did not get fixed as I was not going back up the ladder as I was now in shock. !!\nHo hum\nSun\nFinished the light while every one was out, and then picked up A from a sleep over and went to Church in Wigton. PM was speaking on the parable of the 10 bridesmaids, which was good, as I had never understood it as it is obviously related to a cultural thing that happened at weddings in Jesus’ day. The point being that the wise ones who were waiting for the return of the bridegroom had the oil in their lamps, and the concept that this was the holy spirit that meant they could meet with the bridegroom, i e Christ. I am not sure that the idea is entirely right since there is that big leap oil=holy spirit, but it was interesting. I still think it was a cultural thing that was obvious to his original listeners and we just don’t have a clue.\nAli and Andy called around in the evening it was really good to see him again. He used to be a vet here who left several years ago and it looks that at long last he is going to look to settle down.  He was quite depressing about LA vet practice though. He is now 100% small animal so he is biased. They are actively looking at taking TB testing from the vets in his area, and the vets are dropping the farm practice as being uneconomic!! So much for the govt wanting more farm vets around. At least this is  a low cost area so at least we are not competing with small animal practices able to offer large wages to assistant vets.\nHe is looking to set up his own or buy a practice to settle into. They are obviously looking to get married so that will be another wedding to go to. We have been invited to LB’s who is finally marrying P. They have been following each other around the world for the last 2 years, from disaster to disaster, as they are both in humanitarian relief work. She was a vet student here too  .\nMon\nMonday, Monday. Tell me why I don’t like Mondays.\n[young vet] is exhausted and everything is catching up with her so she is going to take the end of the week off. The joiner finally arrived to put in the windows and had real problems writhing the old ones out and so has taken half the sand stone with them so they will have to be reconcreted which is a builders job ie he is not going to do it. The bathroom is still in pieces. “8” days it was supposed to take and we are now in the third week.\nWork was bedlam. So I was queuing the ops up this morning. I hate operating all morning as it is very draining as I have to concentrate on what I am doing. While the office staff keep coming with more and more queries. Urgh!!!\nGot another stupid letter from the planners quibbling about listed building consent that I am trying to get for the windows that are being fitted as I speak. I started the ball rolling in August. No wonder the country is going to the dogs!\nTuesday\nCalmed down a bit having filled in the Visa forms for our holiday to India. The great legacy of the British, the bureaucracy is alive and well. Why do they want to know my mothers place of birth and Maiden name for a 2 week holiday? Civil servants! \nMissed the gym cos surgery went on and on. I went to a farm and was asked a lot of questions about TB as they had had a reactor. The ministry had been out testing but hadn’t bothered to tell us. Mushroom farmers..\n[son] is in the process of planning next years football team!!\nWeds\nWent to a farm today and he is complaining that he cannot get his cows in his restocked herd back in calf. It seems to be an ongoing problem. A lot of those who have restocked with whole herds are having reduced fertility in their herds. It would be an interesting study to see the figures compared to non restocked herds.\nThursday. \nCounting the days until I am off. Work continues to be too hectic. [vet] who lost her brother, is off and it makes the whole pack of cards of having enough vets to cover fall down!!\nI think too I am just very tired from being too busy for too long. When planning staffing levels, it is usual to be cautious rather than to have too many vets around not making any money. We thought we were stretching it by employing the 2 new grads instead of the one.\nIt is also just being under pressure all the time with out a few days to cruise it.\nWent out to Chris Swifts for the VCF (Veterinary Christian Fellowship) which was really good as usual. F was telling us about the thanksgiving service that they had just held at Barnard Castle. She has also just got engaged. So it may curb her wanderings. She is an explorer and mountaineer. She is just back from Antarctica, and is currently doing some research and a PhD at Durham. Barnard Castle practice seems well organised and also flexible in that she is only working 3 days a week to spend 2 days at Durham on the PhD.\nIt was really good speaking to [friends] about [vet’s] brother as Paul was with them at the accident as he was taking the bloods.\nSo spent quite a while praying for them and for other things.\nFriday\nBad day. Had a phone call from the planners saying they were not going to allow double-glazing, and that they want the glazing bars to be 10mm not 20mm. Why????? There are no 10mm glazing bars on the spot.\nThe ministry,(London) have decided that they are not going to train lay TB testers and that all the work is going to go out to LVI’s. (Us). So we are now looking at a lot of work again. Carlisle DEFRA in conjunction with London, have decided that they are going to want all the restocked herds tested annually with every animal tested not just the adult breeding stock. So from looking at dropping 1-2 vets 10 days ago, we are now going to be looking at employing extra staff if we can get hold of them. How are we supposed to be planning for the future if it is so dependent on the whim of DEFRA officials.\n\n\nSaturday 9th November\nWent to the School PTA Pub Quiz last night at the Rugby Club. It was good fun, but I was struggling both to stay awake and to dredge up the Infotainment trivia of the previous year. It is funny how the questions chosen reflected the people who were asking them. What had stuck in their memory or that they had chosen. Nick and Jane were across from Newcastle. I stayed with them for a few nights when working for DEFRA across there when I could not face the faceless loneliness of the hotel. \nConsequently was completely zonked Sat morning. Just went around the house being grumpy. \nWent to watch [son] play football, they thrashed Yewdale in the county cup.\nIt was good to be out in the fresh air and came back to sleep for a while before heading out to Roy and Christiana’s en famille. We had to pick up Fraser from Wigton. This is their son who has just started seeing a girl in Wigton. He is 14 and so was amusingly embarrassed.\nWe were talking about leaving the kids; at what age do you leave them on their own and to look after the younger ones. Christiana told us about when she left all three boys for an hour and a half, and the older two had got so fed up with youngest being annoying they hung him by his joggers from the post at the bottom of the stairs. The middle one said in all seriousness, that it was his fault that he had torn his trousers, if he hadn’t tried to escape the trousers would have been fine!! Even now he considers that the wrongdoing was the ripping of the trousers not the fact that they had hung him up!!\nSun\nWent to Church in morning and fittingly for remembrance Sunday it was on repentance and Gods love. Daniels prayer in Daniel 9 was very fitting some how. \nLunch and more football and crashed in to bed exhausted.\nMon \nTim is away for the first time on his own with the school on an outward-bound week south of Keswick. He was so excited about going. I think [wife] was a little put off that he was not thinking about missing home. Hey ho, but that is a sign of secure roots I suppose.\nMet up with A’s Maths teacher to discuss her Maths. There has been a lot of to and froing between the teachers but not much communication with home. So we went to see what they were saying, and have left it as the status quo, which is what it should be.\nFirst call today was a farmer who is just out of hospital having had his appendix removed for appendicitis. He had seen this cow and said why haven’t you had the vet to it. He is a good stocksman, and with him being out of action they had a relief milker in, who hadn’t noticed. It had a twisted uterus and was trying to calve, if I had seen it on Friday I could have sorted it out but because it was now to late I had to send it off. It is sad but the agricultural industry is losing a lot of experience and a lot of stocksmanship and handling and general expertise. It is not sthg that can be replaced. \nWe are seeing more twisted wombs because of the transport and fighting amongst restocked herds. The sad thing is that he said to me. We should never have restocked; we should have taken the money and let it all go. It is just too much hassle with the paper work and training cows. \nThey have just housed the cattle and so they are all fighting to come in to the parlour to get milked, and just making life difficult.\nThere is a real disillusionment around at the moment. But there are also those who are gearing up to milk more and more cows to stay still 300 +\nTuesday\nThe great European market combined with DEFRA’s inflexibility is causing a few problems. The Dutch heifers that have been imported to replace some of the FMD losses have a unique identifier number which is on their ear tag so everyone knows who they are. So far so good. They also have NL on them rather than UK, which means we know they are from Holland. The problem is they have a small check digit on them at the end. This means Dutch computers can recognise if the ear tag is a valid one or has been misread. The UK tags have a check digit at the front of the number. Very useful to help rule out misreadings or transcribing of the ear tags. \nHowever the DEFRA computer doesn’t recognise the numbers so we are being asked to retest heifers, because they still have an outstanding record of the ear tag numbers as untested because the extra digit has or had not been entered on the UK system!!!\nThe number of out standing tests is dropping but we will not be able to keep up with this level of testing, more allocations have arrived today. Managed to get all the bits sorted so I could leave at 5:30 for my few days off. The only out standing thing is the stuff for the accountant end of year. It was supposed to be in by 18th of Oct but hey ho!\nWeds \nI have taken a few days off to try and paint the windows and new bathroom we are having put in. The planners phoned to query again about the windows and I told them they were already in so it went down like a lead balloon and they are coming to tell me off. They also started querying the other windows from 95!\nThe problem with having a few days off is that I get very head achey and feel washed out and ill. Once the adrenalin stops I seem to crash.\nThursday\n Met up with Charlie from Longtown vets for lunch, which was great. His practice in Carlisle that he has started is going well. It is on the main road out to Scotland and looks really good and he is getting lots of custom just by being there.\nHe is looking for a part time vet. To start mornings.\nFriday\nRepainted the bathroom walls after discovering I had used 2 different shades of green. One was Ming grey, the other ming blue. I just opened them one after the other, and thought the difference was because the one had dried and the other was still wet. Ooops.\nThe  plumber is having problems with the electrics and getting the lights to work. So it was all fused out. I am just glad we have a shower as well or we would all be getting rather smelly by now.!!\nWent to watch “Changing lanes” at cinema. A rather thoughtful if slow and unbelievable set up. But nice escapism for an hour or two\n\n\nSaturday November 16th\nWorking Again.\nBut feel better for having had a few days off even if the bathroom isn’t finished. Getting to be a bit of a saga. Oh well never mind. \nSat morning surgery was busy and then several farm calls afterwards.\nFor the amount of stock around and the cost effectiveness of veterinary time we are doing an incredible amount of clinical work.\nDan (The sheep AI vet who locums for us on occasions) phoned up wanting Alison’s phone number. She was of course out, it being Sat night. His technician is ill and he has 250 Swales to AI tomorrow. Hope he finds some one. All the sheep AI and embryo technicians are very busy as people try to build up their pedigree herds and flocks by breeding for top quality.\nSun\nAm busy with calls and then painted doors in bathroom while [son] painted the window. Very messy but he enjoyed it! It will give him confidence to try again. It is patience and practice. \nWent to church in the evening. Rob Whitaker the principal of Capernwray Bible College was preaching. He is so animated and relevant. He was talking on feeding the 5000. And Jesus compassion and just the circumstances Jesus was in at the time. How he used the disciples and then applying it to us, and to the church in general. Espy compassion.\nVery challenging. Went on to meet up with lads and spent time praying. Phil is pretty down about not having a job. It effects his self worth/ didn’t help that Fraser had a brand new Merc sitting out side his house. \nMon\nHit the maelstrom running with an in tray flowing out, and still nothing together for year-end to accountant. So pushed practice manager and then started operating and haunting him every 20 mins in between ops and keeping him on task. The problem is that there are so many other things going on at the moment that the non urgent keep disappearing in to tomorrow. The new drugs discount system is working and generating a lot of interest and then hopefully will cut down on the black market. With any luck the increased turn over will make up for margin. Usual problem solving and smoothing over and 2nd opinions to sort out.  The 20-day rule is not stopping one of our local cattle dealers, from buying and selling. He says the paperwork to run 5 holding numbers is horrendous……\nKen and Anne called around and it was really good to see them. They have a lime spreading business and have been really busy over FMD. Both with lime for land that is going to be used for barley and crops(Rather than grass) and with a lot of stone for building work and new pathways and for lonnings. Whereas farmers were happy to move cattle via roads they are trying to reduce the movements along roads and are putting in tracks for the cows.\nTuesday\nMore tracings to check for TB, (These are cattle bought from a farm where TB has since been confirmed) and the paperwork to go with them. Ear tags don’t correlate so going to be a problem.\nRota nightmare at the moment as everyone is organising their skiing trips, so we are going to have 1-2 vets off all of Jan and most of Feb. \nTook first box load of paperwork to the Accountant. He is an old fashioned up the back stairs, not a computer in sight, type of fella. He is a wily old fox, much more than he looks, as he manages to keep the taxman happy and off our backs, which is probably the most important. \nThe financial year doesn’t look too bad, but doesn’t allow for the number of days of holiday carried over. If we had to give the holiday pay/ or pay a vet to cover for those days it would make them look a lot less rosy.\nGot back in time for gym and then Tuesday kid chauffer work.\nThen fell into bed and slept.\nWeds\nThe phone stopped at 4:00pm and didn’t ring again until 9:30 this morning. Weird. The work has just stopped like a tap being turned off. So got the rest of testing sorted. ; Sorted out the rest of the stuff for the accountant. Tidied the office, wrote up my book, and even thought about mucking my car out. Only got as far as thinking about it as coffee break arrived. Didn’t earn much but felt a lot better for it. \nSkipped off early and gave the bathroom doors second coat.\nThursday 21st November (Pay Day)\nDecided that if DEFRA was a business it would be bust by now. We are on a rollercoaster trying to look at the future with them. They only make up in a normal year about 20% of our   farm fee income but that has been much higher over the past few years. \nThe Chief DEFRA Vet has been flying kites as they say in politics. To see what the reaction is, or has been doing as he has been told by Whitehall (!).\nI don’t know what the ins and outs of it are but the gist has been. \nThey are going to employ their own vets to do the testing as this would be much more efficient and cost effective. When it was pointed out this wasn’t going to be the case we went to…\nThey would employ non-vets to do it. As this would be much cheaper. \nThere would then not be any farm animal vets in large areas of the country, as it would reduce the fee income even further. Where the farm side of vet businesses is marginal it would just be given up. It would mean our business in a high stock area would probably drop 2 vets.\nSo London finally decided that the status quo would probably be best. At the same time Carlisle in consultation with Page St decided that as there is so much TB being found in the restocked farms, that all the restocked farms should be tested on an annual basis. And that all animals, not just breeding stock should be tested. This means about a 25% increase in work load for the next 2 winters. So instead of dropping a vet we should look to be taking one on! But we cannot believe what is going to happen next as how can we plan when such drastic changes are proposed in the space of a month…..\n\nFriday\nHad a horrendous night with ill calves with pneumonia in the evening. A calving at 1 am in Silloth. Then a dog trying to die at 5am, so was I ever pleased that it was my half day. Slept and played squash with L & J in the afternoon.\nThe dog belonged to an old lady who had no children and it was her husbands dog who had died 4 years previously. She was going to be on her own if it dies. So she was very tearful and upset. The dog is not looking good as it is 16yr poodle type thing. She is isolated booth because she doesn’t drive and lives out at the coast. And because she and her husband retired to here, and neither have any family around. I felt for her.\nMade me appreciate my family so much more.\n\n\nSaturday 23rd November\n[wife] is away on a course today so for my w/e off I am running the kids and doing the cooking. \nI dropped of [other son] to squash, did some errands in Wigton and then watched the squash coaching. They are very patient and encouraging. The total contrast was shown at [son]’s football. They are a very good team, but I really do not like the attitude of most of the coaches and teams in the Carlisle teams. I was late to arrive and they were already 4-0 up. And this was the second half. It was only when I walked around to where the coach was, did he think about giving [son], and the other 2 subs a game. We have had it out with him before that he should give all the kids a chance to play, or else they find it crushing. [son] was really fed up with the situation, but he does love playing and is quite loyal. The coach always justifies that he has to play his best team, which he doesn’t, he plays his favourites/friends sons. But the point is irrelevant, if you are winning by that margin, then you can afford to have weaker players on the field. They went on to win 10- 0!!We will have to get a Thursby team organised for next year.\nWent on to Longtown poultry sale very interesting lots of rare birds and waterfowl. Will have to go and buy next year and get some different types for A to breed up.\nSun\nDan spoke on walking on water, in his own inimitable style. He is so refreshing and practical and honest. Made it a call to prayer as well. \nDidn’t do much in morning as [wife] was on course but finally managed to\nFinish bathroom. Hoorah!!!\nMon\nDecided that if DEFRA was a business it would be bust by now. We are on a rollercoaster trying to look at the future with them. They only make up in a normal year about 20% of our   farm fee income but that has been much higher over the past few years. \nThe Chief DEFRA Vet has been flying kites as they say in politics. To see what the reaction is, or has been doing as he has been told by Whitehall (!).\nI don’t know what the ins and outs of it are but the gist has been. \nThey are going to employ their own vets to do the testing as this would be much more efficient and cost effective. When it was pointed out this wasn’t going to be the case we went to…\nThey would employ non-vets to do it. As this would be much cheaper. \nThere would then not be any farm animal vets in large areas of the country, as it would reduce the fee income even further. Where the farm side of vet businesses is marginal it would just be given up. It would mean our business in a high stock area would probably drop 2 vets.\nSo London finally decided that the status quo would probably be best. At the same time Carlisle in consultation with Page St decided that as there is so much TB being found in the restocked farms, that all the restocked farms should be tested on an annual basis. And that all animals, not just breeding stock should be tested. This means about a 25% increase in work load for the next 2 winters. So instead of dropping a vet we should look to be taking one on! But we cannot believe what is going to happen next as how can we plan when such drastic changes are proposed in the space of a month…..\nTuesday\n Went to do routine fertility at a farm today and it was quite depressing in that a neighbour of theirs who has started up again has had a really bad time. The problems of restocking on top of bad hips. He was all gung ho to get restocked and although he had a sore leg he didn’t go to the doctors while he had the chance when he had no stock as it was only a little sore. But as soon as he got stock back and started to do a lot of physical work they were very sore. So he went to the Dr’s and has 2 hips which need replaced but as he is only 40 they don’t want to do it yet and it would mean no physical work for a long period. \nOn top of that he has mastitis problems caused by taking his plant to pieces by DEFRA. He has lost 8 cows and heifers through calving/illness or injury.\nSo after less than a year he looks set to give up disillusioned and a lot poorer.\nThe workload for us is easing as most cattle are now housed and a lot of the housing work is sorted. I always feel it is a run down to Christmas now with all the preparations and celebrations and kids (and adult) parties.!!!\nI was at another farm today who had meningitis a year ago, and has still not really recovered properly. He is still finding it hard to get going. He lost all his animals and all his work during FMD, and the additional strain has meant he has lost a lot of interest in the farming side. He can’t be bothered with all the hassle and paper work of farming sheep and cattle and so is growing a lot of veg which he and his wife have always enjoyed growing. They just retail at the farm gate. It doesn’t make much money but as he says it just keeps things turning over and he and his wife have time for each other and no hassle. Life is more important than making a living. Very profound. I am going to go part time, I wish\nWednesday\nThere seem to be a lot of problems (Still) on restocking farms. They are all having problems with getting the cows back in calf. Two farms today complained that even though they were more than pleased with the compensation at the time, the costs of restocking are much, much more.  It would be interesting to do a survey on the number of breeding animals bought in and those who have been lost either through illness or by failure to get in calf. \nThe old diseases are still causing the most problems. Lung worm, a disease I thought was well under control, and well understood has caused huge problems. IBR or cow flu has caused so many problems that we can no longer get the vaccine, as all the stocks have been used.\nIt was interesting today that one of the farms that is about to start milking having finally restocked ordered vaccine for Lepto, IBR, and BVD almost as a matter of course.\nBut fertility is causing the most worries.\nThursday\nFeel a lot better after an early night, apart from running to and from Carlisle after my daughter. Youth group last night, and evening shopping tonight.\n\n[son] is still trying to organise an U14 Thursby team for next year, all he needs is a coach. The problem is that it is a big commitment. I wish I could do it but I work too many w/e’s.\nSpent time day dreaming about what to do with the byre in our yard. It is an old knackered building that needs bulldozing, but [wife]’s Dad thinks we should just look after it and convert it into sthg. But what? \nI still think that there is an opening for “Herriot holidays” taking people for a day at the vets and then a day at the mart and so on.. Diversification is the name of the game.\nFriday\nHad an interesting day what with one thing and another. No lunch but hey who’s complaining. One of the nurses at work has a chicken shed with her husband and another farmer partner. The fans and alarms all failed and so the air was not circulating. The farmer was devastated. It was a horrendous sight. A carpet of dead chickens. There were 23,000 in the shed and we worked out there were roughly 2-3000 left alive. 20.000 dead. It brought back memories of FMD. Also the logistics of disposing of 20 tonnes of dead chicken. I hope the insurance covers it. Out for dinner at Christiana’s. Had a vet friend call around at teatime. He is a meat hygiene practice covering several different meat plants. They have several vets covering all the different plants. He has been asked to got to Harrogate to discuss how the different proposed regulations can be implemented. A marked improvement on the usual dumping of unworkable ideas from DEFRA HQ.\n\n\nSaturday.30th Nov\nTook a while to get going after being out for dinner last night though it was very pleasant. Spent day doing odds and ends. Went to watch [son] play footie, and bought an Orchid from the orchid farm. The kids were making cards for Mum and wrapping presents so it was fun.. James came down with his kids so there were 7 running riot which is really a bit too many after a late night.\nSun 1st\nChurch in the morning and Johnboy called around to see what time the prayer meeting finished as he had arranged a surprise party for [wife]’s 40th. So had loads of folks in Sunday night which was great. They had all crept in to the big kitchen and decorated it while we were in the front room. A and [son] had been going back and forth so [wife] never noticed. So it was special. The kids were as high as kites.\nMon 2nd\n[wife] is forty and there’s a photo in the news and star to prove it. The kids brought breakfast in bed, and opened presents. Poor [other son] after 3 late nights did not want to go to school I hope they are all right for Gran. [wife]’s Mum and [sister?] arrived. “Nannies from Ireland” to the rescue. They are going to look after the kids while we are away for a few days. We have had a bit o banter about them looking after the kids. [sister] found an advert for “nannies from Ireland” which is an au pair service and sent of for the info which she forwarded to us. She is a character. So they have been asking about working conditions and PAY!! I have been requesting Police checks and giving as good as I get.. The winds are pretty strong so they have had a bad journey. The super ferry was cancelled so they have had to come by boat which takes much longer. A baked a cake and managed to get 40 candles on it!!  \nBoth [wife] and I are looking forward to getting away. As usual work was really busy and lots of loose ends to tie up prior to leaving but finished for 3 days HoORRAAAHHH!\nTues 3rd\nSpent the day travelling up to Loch Lomond, stopped  off at Braeside and at Gretna and bought some clothes and mooched around. Cameron House is beautiful with wonderful views and you can just walk down to the lake. There is a pool so went for a swim before dinner. Very civilised.\nWe had just finished dinner when the waitress arrived with a cake with 4 candles and sang a rather wobbly happy Birthday. [sister?] had been very keen that we left the phone number of Cameron house, even though she had our mobile numbers. Now we know why!! Very pleasant surprise but we will never eat any cake let alone a whole one!!\nWhile we were strolling around after dinner came across the picture that one of our friends had used to decorate the kitchen with on Sunday. He had come across it somewhere in a book, and it looks vaguely like [wife] so he had put it up with Lady [wife] underneath! And here was the original or at least a print of the same picture. Weird.\nWeds\nAfter a very lazy start, a swim before breakfast, (Full Scottish!) . We walked up eastern edge of Loch in sunshine and showers. We were only caught out in one shower. There was a rainbow down to the Loch edge. A beautiful winter walk. I have decided I am going to walk the West Highland Way, with the boys. Had some fruit for lunch as cooked breakfast on top of dinner last night means I don’t really need to eat for a week!! Another swim, thought about the gym but I am on holiday and felt wonderfully relaxed, and then dinner.\nThursday\nAnother lazy start and swim before breakfast, a walk along the Loch, and the back to Glasgow to the Burrell Collection. We just wandered around the paintings. I can sit and look at the impressionists and keep seeing something new. They are very beautiful. Came back home in time for tea, though did not eat anything as too much food. Made up a ditty for the Nannies.\n\nNannies from Ireland came to stay\nSo [respondent] and [wife] could go away\nOff the children went to school \nWhile [respondent]  and [wife] swam in the pool\nThe Nannies were left with all the dust,\nCleaning dirt for their daily crust\nTheir experienced gleaned over all the years\nCould not stop all [other son]’s tears\n“ Off to school you must go\nSaid a stern faced Nanny Lo\nThe nannies go to TK Max\nForgetting all about the cats\nSomething is sick on the mat\nThe nannies really don’t like that\n“A M” L begs\n“Go and fetch all the eggs”\nOn animals they’re not too\nWhat did the contract really mean keen?\nThey will not give another day\nUntil something is done about their pay!\nSo back to Ireland with this tale\nThey do go via Cummersdale.\nAs their pay all disappears\nThey decide on new careers\nLois thinks of a racing car\nRuth just of going far.\nSo our thanks to them are due\nthe Nannies from Ireland crew\nIts now their turn to go and play\nTill they’re called another day. [edited to remove names in verse]\n\nFriday.\nBad hair Day.\nHaving come back all relaxed and cheerful I was relaxed until I missed my lunch.\nAfter working all day, plenty of hassle from one thing and another, I was then On Call at night, and it was very busy. \nLoch Lomond and Cameron House seem a long, long time ago\nI am extremely fed up. \nI do not want to calve another cow out side OFFICE HOURS ever again.\n\n\nSaturday.7th December\nWorked this morning after a bad night “On call” and felt like death warmed up.\nDid surgery and then sorted stuff out, and did some calls got finished at 1pm and went back to bed.\nWent to Xmas party at White Heather which was good fun but I was just too knackered to enjoy it. \nSunday \nWorking a few calls and plenty of pneumonia drugs for calves. There is a lot of pneumonia about with the East wind blowing, it is a wee bitty cruel wind but at least it is dry. Not weather to be working out side. It also seems to be getting dark really early. I need some sun on my back 4 weeks to go till India.\nHad a migraine or flu at night and went to bed, and started throwing up.\nI cannot burn the candle at one end even at the moment.\nMon\nOff work ill. But a new vet student starting and R is off as well Xmas shopping so thrown in at deep end.\nTuesday\nWent back in and did my bit. Working at night but night work easing off Thank goodness. Plenty of high cell count investigations to try and sort out.\nWeds\nTook kids swimming after work with the vet student it was good to do some exercise and chill out. Went to Staples prior to going to the pool where as usual there was no one on the desk for print cartridges. So I went and found one of the girls chatting on the till to get me what I was looking for as I couldn’t find an “HP58”. What I hadn’t noticed was some one else just standing at the other end of the long counter who was then very upset and aggressive that I had jumped the queue. He is obviously having a worse week than me. As he could have gone and got some one from the tills as easily as I did, but didn’t. So why he got so upset I don’t know. “Now’t as queer as folk”\n[other son] was very upset tonight when we got back from swimming because he had shaved one side of his head. [wife] had cut the others hair but his was still short and didn’t need it. He WANTED it done so in the shower took things into his own hands and shaved off his side burn, but only on one side!\nHe did not like getting laughed at either.\nThursday\nChristiana came to the rescue over the hair ([other son]’s) and has managed to make it look not too bad. But it was funny!!\nOn Call at night but as most nights seem double booked at the moment went to kids performance. They are doing Alice in Wonderland. Very good, they can really sing and perform. The teachers do get a lot out of them. Tim was the knave of hearts(Character actor) and [other son] was a frog footman grebbit, grebbit. It was good fun, only had a phone call to put a client at ease about her cat so managed to wing it.\nFriday\nOut at [friends] tonight. Kids younger 2 at performance older 2 are at xmas meal so a bit of a juggling act to get everyone at right place at right time!! Missed out on the Cumberland Vet Club social which was a shame but can only be in one place at a time\n \n\nSaturday 14th December\nHad a good meal out, except only started talking about the publicity for [..] as I was wanting to go and fall asleep some where. I cannot take late nights. It is just I am feeling too tired all the time. I think that the adrenalin has run out and I just feel stale. Hope Xmas sorts it out. Spent morning working. Did surgery and then sorted out queries with GG for the Accountant.\nSpent the afternoon writing cards and trying to put together lists of folk we should send too. A disaster, got as far as M before running out of cards and initiative.\nWent around to S’s for nibbles as a house warming. She is some caterer! Her mother does it as a job so she has helped so great food, could have done with some non-vets to dilute down the vetiness!!!\nSunday\nGot up and took kids to church\n[wife] is doing a thing on Borderline at night so she has to prepare that.\nPlayed football and caught up with a few bits and pieces and did some gardening.\nChatted to a vet from Chippenham who was complaining about the TB situation there. They have one beef farm where when they first discovered TB the farm took a week to test, as there were 600 head. There are only 200 left so it only takes a day. The farmer has been unable to but in store cattle to feed, and has lost over 100 to DEFRA. It has been 2 monthly testing for almost 2 years now and he still has not had a clear test.\nShe was down too, just from too much On Call.\nMonday\nGot up feeling exhausted, but even though not very busy couldn’t get going. \nThe dairy farms are all feeling very nervous over the Nestle pull out. “ farmers said to me that they were pleased that their sons are not going to be going into farming. Both teenagers, one A’s year and one a year older. Both looking to work in IT. It used to be a point of sadness that the next generation is not following on, but there seems to be a general air of resignation that farming is not going to be a good career.\nSad really.\nTuesday 17th December\nSpent the day sorting out the remaining bits and pieces for the Accountant.\nWe met with him at night, which as usual was the sorting out of this and that. The finding of the relevant pieces of paper and then what the unaccounted cheques were for!!\nWe are still making money but only thanks to DEFRA.  So three cheers for Mrs Beckett, cynic.\nIt made it a very long day and Lois is off for the week so we are short staffed again but last tests are today as we will not be able to get bloods to the labs because of the Christmas post. \nI do like this time of year where you hear from friends who you have not seen for ages, and think the same as you did last year, I will have to catch up with them soon. Hey ho.\nWeds 18th   \nThere is a lot of pneumonia about and the farmers are all buying vast quantities of drugs to treat whole batches of calves and stirks. The is the usual mix but far more than normal. I don’t know whether to be pleased that the practice is doing well, and invoicing a lot, or sad that there is so much disease around, and we will have a horrendous drugs bill.!! A dilemma I don’t think I should explore.\nThurs 19th  \nFri 20th\nKids went to ice rink in Carlisle with [wife]. They have set up an out door rink which the city council are sponsoring to attract people in to the centre. I don’t think that they really need to, as the place seems crowded enough as it is!! [son] bashed his head quite badly and [other son] fell over and hurt his knee. Tim fell loads of times and just ended up wet and happy!! Their different characters are coming out.\n\n\n Saturday.21st December\nThe beginning of the Christmas Rota!\nI feel as though we are in the run up to Christmas now. I have also made the mistake of not buying all my presents before now and went into Carlisle to go shopping. It was quite nice in some ways to see the Ice rink and mingle in the crowds…but an hour and a half was plenty!\nThe kids have decided that they are going to ask for money to take to India this year from the Aunts and Uncles and so there will be fewer presents to open. As Christmas seems to be getting more and more manic, and commercialised I think that it is a very good idea. Well done A and [son]\nSunday 22nd\nCarols by candlelight\nIt was magical, the church was packed out and so I ended up standing at the back. Which in some ways was quite nice as you look down the aisles to the stage and there are rows of candles and fairy lights down the sides. PM lead it and there were different age groups taking part. He spoke on being a Christmas tree and how we end up all convoluted by our own wrong choices, and how we can have lots of fairy lights and a star on top, and have an image on the outside  that looks wonderful. But what are we like inside all those things we surround ourselves with. God knows, and he cares, and he loves us enough to send a gift to help us. His son, Immanuel, God with us, who will take away the sin of the world. I was really quite moved by it all. This is the real Christmas.\nMon 23rd\nBUMP!! Reality bites back.\n It is difficult to focus on the important things of life, and keep a perspective on life, if it keeps getting interrupted by Monday Mornings! \nBut that is where Jesus should be, in the smelly cattle shed, and in the market place, and making a difference. I will have to think that one out while I have time in India. \nThe urgent as usual is pushing out the important\nManaged to go swimming at Foxes. The first exercise I have had for ages, must get back into it. Maybe wait for the new year resolutions, as exercise, wet weather and working over Christmas don’t really go together.\nTues 24th\nChristmas eve. Working but quiet apart from last minute panics as people think that their ill dogs and cats will not make it over Christmas with out seeing the vet.\nCalled in to Pow Heads for the turkey, they really do have a good butchery and poultry business going now. Good to see. Direct selling by farmers or Cooperatives is the only way forward to break the stranglehold of the supermarkets.\n[wife] is panicking about not having enough food so I am dispatched to buy more bread and milk. I think about protesting that if there were 5000, we still would not need a miracle but decide this is one of those occasions when it is better to just spend another 2 quid for the peace.\n[wife]’s parents arrive an hour later from Belfast, bringing 2 loaves of bread and 5 different types of Irish bread, and 6 pints of milk, and another 3 boxes of food. I wonder about making a joke about feeding the 5000 plus inflation but decide that discretion is the better part of valour and just put them in the freezer.!!\nWeds 25th\nKids started at 5:45 am and were unceremoniously sent back to bed.\nBut they were allowed to bring their stockings in at half past seven. I was on 2nd call so while they all went off to church I spent an hour in the surgery seeing dogs. One had meningitis and was very near death’s door and the owner was not that worried.  The other is just unwell and could have waited but the problem is you never know. Got back and made Christmas dinner. So wasn’t all work. Though I do feel amongst all the commercialism and turkey dinners, the true significance of Immanuel, God who is with us, is lost. \nThursday 26th \nOn first call and lots of pneumonia drugs to put out and kept busy. Afternoon/ evening we had folk around. Lots of different ages and backgrounds so was a real mix and good fun.\nFriday 27th \nSurgery reopened and was really busy, I am pleased that we had put plenty of staff on the rota. It is always a difficult balance to make. Trying to work out if there will be enough staff to cover the work. No one wants to work over Xmas/New year. But if there are not enough then it makes it really awful for those that are working. But if you have people sitting around they resent that too. But it’s nice to know I get it right sometimes. Doing a rota always strikes me as a no win situation, as it is always a compromise between the two extremes.\n\n\nSaturday 28th December\nOn call Friday night and then I finished at lunchtime. [wife] wanted me to go on church walk but I was knackered and we are all going out tonight for dinner, so I went to bed for a few hours sleep. ( Much to my wife’s displeasure.) Having been On call for the whole period, as soon as I stop, I crash out, as the adrenalin fades and I realise how tired I am. But only Mon am to work then prepare for India, and hitting the beach!\nIt does take its toll on family life being on call, especially over the Christmas period. The folk we are going to dinner with, he is a policeman and they have similar frictions.\nSun 29th \nThe service at church tonight was memorable. The last evening of the year they have people talking about what God has been doing in their lives. So it is usually people who are not eloquent, not used to speaking up front but who speak in a very real way about what Jesus has been working in their lives over the past year. DP who is 14 who has had bone cancer gave a very moving account about how he had nearly died.  How so often we compare our selves with those who have more than us, whether in health or other things. We should compare ourselves with those who have less. We should appreciate our lives, and thank God for who and what we are. He has had his ups and downs, but we are to follow God’s guiding and his path for us. Our lives are in God’s hands. We are to pray and to trust in him for our future. This is a young lad who has seen 4 of the friends he has made in hospital die. It makes the trivia we fill our lives with back in perspective.\nMon 30th\nLast half day and lots of last minute things to sort out before I finish for New Year and the 2 weeks in India. The cash flow has gone to pot because of the large amount of pneumonia drugs we have sold and tax/ vat going out in end of Jan. So needed to make sure someone keeps an eye on it while I am away and makes sure that it all falls into place. The problem with going away is that no one keeps up with all the admin type work that I do, so my In tray will be overflowing by the time I get back…. \nTues 31st \nThe Young people are partying at our house so we left them to it, rather than cramp their style. So we had a very pleasant evening at some farming friends. We rang up and called in on spec. They have 5 boys so we knew they wouldn’t want to get baby sitters for New Year’s Eve. Whereas we had about 40!! They have stopped dairying, but are now worried about how the new ruling will affect them. At the moment they lease their quota which provides a fair amount of income. The new German ruling will be applicable across the whole EEC that non producers cannot hold, and therefore lease quota. This means they will have to either sell it, in a flooded market or go back to dairy farming. Unless Mr P can work a way around the new system. \nThey are also taking advice and looking at all sorts of diversification schemes, some seem quite a good idea, others I think are non starters.\nThey already have invested some of the FMD money into setting up a student house in Carlisle. The way house prices are going around here it is probably a very good investment. Not really the way forward for farming though. \nThe only depressing feature of the evening was I asked what they thought the future of Cattle vets was, the answer was ”none”.\nWell that’s a good start to 2003.\nWe got home to find the party in full swing and we left them to it and went to bed.\n1st Jan 2003.\nGot up some what late after staying up for the New Years Eve. The young people had cleared up after the party and we were amazed at how well they had done. They had set off the dish washer and all we had to do was empty it. I was impressed. The only reminder they had been there was when we drew the curtains there were several glasses which had been missed, as they were on the window sill, and bizarrely an odd sock. The sock game my daughter assures me was very funny, but what I want to know is who went home with only one sock on!!!\nStarted thinking about India, a good job my wife is organised as we set off tomorrow.\n2nd Jan Thursday\nTravelled down to see my brother and family it was really good to see them again. Played RISK which was a bit of a Christmas tradition when we were kids. It was funny to be playing with him and both sets of kids, as I felt like a kid again. It was really nice though.  B won, he managed to wipe people out and amass their RISK cards. He risked everything and it went to the last throw of the dice, so it was quite exciting.\nFriday 3rd  Jan\n  Travelled down to my Dads to have tea and drop off some stuff before heading for the airport. I am pleased we have had a few days off before flying as it is a night flight and I hate travelling when I am already exhausted.\nThe weather was the usual British winter of rain and wind. A friend of mine is convinced that this is due to global warming, more energy in the system means more rain and wind!! In which case Cumbria is not going to be the place to live as it is already wet and windy enough!!\n\n\nThe next 2 weeks recall X’s family holiday to India:\n\n\nSat 4th January 2003\nI am sitting in the Nilgiri hills, in southern India in shorts and T shirt enjoying the coolness of the high altitude. It is almost twice the height of Ben Nevis. On BBC world last night it showed a reporter in London with an umbrella trying to keep off the large wet snowflakes!!\nWe are visiting friends who teach at a Christian School here.\nThe contrasts of India always seem so great. The poverty and the opulence side by side.\nThe beggars and the road repairers at the side of the road in make shift tents of plastic sheeting. And huts of bamboo leaves. Then the huge opulent houses, wooden floored and air conditioned with their own generators and the 4*  hotels with marbled floors and artificial streams and waterfalls.\nWe came on a cheap charter flight as it was cheaper to come  to Trivandrum on a flight and a package with hotel B&B, than to just buy the flights. The emphasis though should be on cheap. It is the first time I have ever had to pay for drinks on the plane! The air stewardesses seemed to be there for a good time rather than to look after the passengers. Can't complain though as it was cheap!\n\nThe only worry was the re routing. We were originally supposed to be going via United Arab emirates but the refuelling was transferred to Bahrein. As we flew in we were warned it was a military as well as civilian airport so no photography was allowed. The build up of US forces in the gulf must be pretty major as even here there were large numbers of US air force planes, and massive sinister looking helicopters. It is difficult to believe that they are aiming to keep the peace by preparing for war.\nThe papers here are also full of sabre rattling between Pakistan and India, with daily reports of skirmishes in Kashmir. There is also exchanges of political rhetoric between the two states. How much is actually for real and how much is sabre rattling no one knows.\nThe weekly Telegraph is also reporting that Iraq has shot down a reconnaissance drone. The same sort that blew up one of the El Quaedi leaders in Yemen. The US is obviously trying " Regime change" by several methods. The US response was to blow up several command and control facilities.  The war hasn't officially started yet but the skirmishes are going on. The cost the previous year for the RAF to patrol the no fly zone was $22 UK million , the last quarter was 10 times that. So there is money being spent.\nThe priorities of Govts is often difficult to work out. The Indian govt doesn't have enough money at the local level to organise a proper refuse collection system. Yet has money to develop hi tech weaponry!\nThe attitudes to rubbish here is very different. When we were at the beach, the actual beach is combed by litter pickers, but the areas in between are terrible. There are 2 smart 4* hotels and the govt buildings where the tourism training takes place. The grounds are immaculate and the flowers and area beautiful but once out side the grounds it is a cross between a rubbish dump and a building site with piles of rubbish and sand and rubble.\nWe went for a snorkelling trip around the coast to a fishing harbour  where the sea was calm and there were plenty of rocks for the fish to hide in, and swim in and out of.\nThe boats were a few bits of wood tied together with string. Seriously.\nThere were two central planks and two edge planks and then an aft piece of wood to hold the aft part together which was reinforced by cord. The  wood is so light that it floats with our weight fairly easily. The oars were split bamboo with no grips, so it made for interesting rowing or is it paddling? They are more like large Canadian canoes than boats. \nVery Hawaii five O. \nThe planks were roughly shaped but as we rode the waves the water fountained up through the holes in the bottom. H asked what wood they were made of but didn't understand the answer, must be a type of balsa.\n We set off  from under the light house, there was another group going at the same time. I think they must have agreed to pay top whack, whereas you\nsoon learn to try to bargain about the price of everything here. They had two helpers in the boat to paddle whereas we were the economy class with two paddles but only one guide in our two boats!! We took turns in helping to paddle, whether we made much difference to the progression of the boat I don 't know; but it was fun. It was a bit worrying that we were heading for the least scenic part of the coast.(The other way is beautiful sandy beaches for miles) \n\nThere is a wave powered generator at the edge of the harbour, a  few rusty wrecks and bits of broken concrete. But when we arrived the snorkelling was brilliant. It was like swimming in a tropical fish tank. My favourite were small electric blue fish which darted away as soon as you came near. There were big black and yellow striped tiger fish. There were 2 sorts one with vertical stripes and one with horizontal. Not at all timid.\nThe angel fish with their long dangling barbs were shy and would only appear when you kept still. There were some very large spiky sea anemones as big as a football. Loads of crabs and shoals of fish which swim hither and thither.\nSome were quite bizarre. There were some that looked like sea horses that had been straightened out. You almost could see a jockey getting a saddle ready to put on them for the Saltwater Derby. The huge variety and colours were just outstanding.\nWe spent a few hours and then got thoroughly sun burnt on the way back. The boys had been full of beans on the way there but were exhausted in the heat on the way back.\nWe spent today making and flying kites on top of a hill at Pykara. The kids(or was it the Dad's ?) made kites and then we tried to fly them. H's won. His design was copied from an original no stick design and managed to fly almost successfully. My traditional kite shaped one flew once but its aerodynamics weren't quite right. [son]'s yellow square was successful. None however matched the Ikea bought one. We played cricket and Frisbee as the water buffalos wandered passed in the typical Indian way of having no real boundaries between one thing and another. Called in at the Vedera's which was very pleasant. The garden was stunning as usual. I love driving through the tea plantations with acres of terraced tea plants and through the forest to get there.\n The hotel is an up market Indian rather than a western. Which is great for us. The décor lacks a little in taste and design. Concrete floors and that rather quaint unfinished look. Spotlessly clean, and the thing about India is they love having kids around and spend ages talking with them and love having them around. Going out for meals in UK with children is always a bit stressful, as low blood sugars combined with the general attitude of people to children does not make it a pleasant experience. Whereas even the hours wait for the food here is not stressful as the kids wander off, play games read books etc. [son] and [other son?] have befriended a man at the Blue Moon gift shop. He has spent hours playing chess and talking to them. [son] won a little elephant off him by beating him at chess. [son] decided he would buy Josh the chess set, and kept bargaining the price down. He eventually paid\n350 rupees for it. $4.60.\nThe beach is idyllic, with palm trees and warm rolling sea. The only problem is having to get the kids out of the sun during the red hot period between 12 and 2 . We do keep slapping on the sun tan lotion. I missed the widows peaks where my hair is receding and have sun burnt red patches either side of my head. The boys have variable tanning, depending on where the sun block was washed off first!\n\nDear [friends]\nJust a quick note to say that we are enjoying ourselves so much that we don't want to come home......But we would miss all our friends!!\nWe had a great time at the beach, you know the palm trees, the warm rolling sea, the sandy beaches and unlike Silloth 30 degrees warmth. In fact some days it was to hot, and we had to drag the boys out of the sea or else they would have been really sun burnt.\nWe are just back from 3 days at Avalanche, which is a bit of an unfortunate name for a mountain out door centre, but as there isn't any snow I don't think the Indians appreciate the irony.\nIt is up in the Mountains, a jungle area where there is very little apart from a few tea plantations, reservoirs and hydroelectric plants, and jungle and the wood men who harvest the wood every 10 years.\nWe left a bus and walked in to the centre, while a truck took the bags, food and the lazy ones. It is incredibly beautiful with high hills and lakes, but there is a drought at the moment so the  reservoirs are all very low. And everywhere is incredibly dry and dusty. Thick red dust, which gets in to everything. The facilities were basic. The water ran from a stream to a tank to the taps!! No electric, showers but fortunately as always in India there was a little man, or in fact 3 who cooked for us all.\nA is taking after [wife], their main concern was not meeting any rats!\nWe abseiled down a waterfall, walked and swam in another...well [son] and [other son] swam. I am afraid it was too cold for me. I will wait until we go back down to the beach. We all went kayaking, and sat around the campfire at night.\n\n\nSaturday.18th January 2003\nThe end of our Indian holiday and escape from Cumbrian weather!\n[wife] saw the rep yesterday and the bus was arranged for 12:30 for a flight at 5:30. This tour company is something else. So we are going to catch a taxi at about 3pm so we are not hanging around the airport for ages. Having 4 children and going through the bureaucracy of an Indian airport is bad enough with out the additional hassle of waiting around for 3 hours with out reason. The annoying part is that so much of it is pointless. In that they put your bags through the security x ray in the main hall  and then give you your bags back so that if you wanted to add stuff to your bag you could!!?? You have to go to 1 desk to check in, another to get your seat, another to exit Indian immigration and customs, and then identify your bags to get them put on the plane…\nWorse than DEFRA!! \nSo we spent a last morning swimming on the beach and then said good bye to the Cs and Gs. [wife] had to buy her material fro the study! \nWe were all quite sad coming away. I think we could have all stayed and enjoyed living in India but back to Porridge…\nSun 19th\nArrived at Dads at 3am UK time after clearing customs. Flight was not too crowded thank goodness as the space allocated for my legs is not enough!!\nThey had as before messed up their allocation of vegetarian meals. With the height of European ignorance and stupidity they offered a Hindu family by us a beef meal. The stewardesses should have known better, but I just cringed with inward embarrassment at their thoughtlessness. \nLeft in T shirts and shorts, arrived cold in jeans and fleeces. The air conditioning I don’t think was working properly and every one was coughing and dry mouthed as we arrived in Gatwick.\nDrove back up to Cumbria and back to the house. It was a strange sensation to be back, we had done so much and seemed changed, and yet everything here was still the same and yet not really. In some ways it is like after the FMD epidemic, before and after, everything is the same but nothing is the same. Part of you is trying to find where you fit in the new reality, part of you wants the safety of the old ways. Slightly dislocated from your surroundings, but the physical surroundings are the same, but I suppose you have changed, and the old certainties, that were not certain but seemed it, have made way for new changeable ways that are not certain and you know that they are not certain.\nMon 20th\nI have taken the day off to recover. The kids were all up really early because of the jet lag, and so had no qualms about sending them to school. \nI spent the day unpacking and sorting out with [wife]. \nThe pile of post was huge but seemed a lot more manageable by the time I had thrown out al the junk mail. Why do I need another 2 credit cards any way.  Transferred money for tax bills and downloaded the emails. There were only 50!! So ploughed my way through them. When you are away for any length of time it makes you realise how much work is required to keep a household going with all the bills and stuff.. \nTues 21st\nBack to work and to face my in tray. Still feeling a little jet lagged and seeing an overflowing In Tray  as you arrive is a daunting feeling. Did some of it and then went out On Call. It was good to be back on farm, and seeing folk again. It always amazes me how everyone around here knows everything. So they were all asking about India and had we had a good time. So it was nice to feel part of the community. As a friend of mine once commented “There is only one thing worse than being talked about, that is not being talked about.”\nThere is still that funny feeling of having been away, and having changed but nothing here is any different and yet thinking that it should be. Though why it should be I don’t know.\nWeds 22nd \nGeorge wanted a partners meeting at lunch time, so we met up and had the usual decision making process. To be honest the jet lag was still really kicking in so I was asleep on my feet. It doesn’t usually effect me for this long but both [wife] and I are shattered by 8pm. The kids are OK and going to bed after us. The sign of things to come.\nThe whole PETS travel scheme is causing problems. It has been presented as a passport for pets, but all it really does is allow re-entry to the UK from certain countries as long as you meet the conditions. We have had a few problems and we do very few. So what it must be like for those on the south coast I dread to think. The problems are 2 main ones. 1.That there is a 6 month period before you can come back into the UK after the paper work is completed. You can go before the 6 months, so people who spend the summer on a caravan site, will take their dog abroad, but cannot come back before the 6 month date. There is also a problem where the forms have to be renewed. It has to be done according to the manufactures directions, which vary from country to country. As in France it is a govt regulation that dogs are vaccinated annually so the vaccine manufactures stick to that. In the UK dogs have to be done every 2 years, cats annually. So you cannot have your documentation renewed in France unless you vaccinate annually. Whereas in the UK you can renew it with vaccinating every 2 years.\nThe other problem is that the paperwork is so complex that according to DEFRA’s figures there is a 18% failure rate. I.e. 1 in 6 don’t make it back in. There is also a problem in that there has been at least one dog imported into Cumbria with out any paperwork as the owners thought all they needed was a rabies vaccination. We are dealing with it on a weekly basis and are confused so the poor punters don’t stand a chance.\nThursday 23rd\nThere is a real problem with cow fertility in the restocking farms at the moment. I went to 1 farm where of the 10 cows I checked only one was in calf. Which is a little sad. No baby calves, no milk production and more losses for the FMD farmers. The compensation is looking very small. The only ones  who benefited are those who took the money and got out.\nIt is difficult trying to work out why these cows are having so much of a problem. As usual I suspect there is no simple answer. The blood tests and analyses do not help much. The cows have been under a lot of stress. The movement into new regimes and cattle systems where they have to learn where to go, where the water troughs are, where the milking parlour is. They have had to sort out the pecking order of the cows, which  espy in the larger units is probably quite stressful. Where you add animals to a herd there are lead cows who know the set up and cows are very much follow my leader in their behaviour patterns. Where there is a complete cull and restocking there are no lead cows so no leader for the cows to follow.\nThere has also been a lot of illness in the herds which again will reduce fertility. The other problem is the poor quality silage because of the bad weather. The other factor that keeps coming up in conversation is what effect the topping of grass has on silage/grazing quality which would have been an interesting study that will never be done now.\nStress is a generality of a word but I can’t think of a better more specific way of expressing the problems. The “stress” of all the changes has caused fertility problems. The difficulty is in finding where do you go from here. I think a lot will end up culling fairly large numbers 15-20% because of fertility.\nFriday 24th \nOne of the DEFRA TV’s called in on her way back from a test(TB) to let us know that there was still an IR causing problems. She also said that it looked like there was going to be a complete herd cull for TB in the east of the county. The farmer had restocked from three sources. All were down to do as tracings as well as to be done under the restocking TB testing. They found 32 reactors with lesions so they will probably cull the whole herd. It is so depressing. To think what the farmer must be thinking and whether he can face getting back into farming again after this further disaster does not bear thinking about.\n\n**\nSaturday 25th January 2003\nLinda B’s wedding!!!\nTravelled down to Derby for wedding. It was really nice to see them finally tie the knot as they have been talking about it for so long. They have followed each other around several continents so at least that will have seen each other in different situations. [she] first came as a student and has worked for us as  a locum. She spent 2 years at All Nations Bible College in London, where she met [him]. So a lot of their friends from All Nations were there. [they]  have been doing agricultural relief work in the worlds hot spots. From Kosovo to Indonesia, from Haiti to Bolivia. They are currently in Bolivia working with church groups. [she] has been setting up Tb testing programme as there is a problem of human TB, which has been blamed on the cattle. But they have completed the testing and it is not the cattle. It seems to be nearly all human to human spread so that at least they can make a start on eradicating TB in humans by treating the in contacts.\nThey went away from the church in a horse drawn carriage which was nice to see. Spent quite a lot of time catching up with vets and their friends who we have not seen for ages.\nSun 26th\nWe were staying with friends from Carlisle who moved down to Derbyshire when he started to teach. We went to their church which is a “house church” and is a little different to put it mildly. They meet in a school, and it is very informal with a drumming band and a desire not to be restricted by convention or liturgy! So it was a mixture of readings and worship songs. They do seem to be reaching out to their local community as there were people from all walks of life there.\nMon 27th \nBack to work and not feeling very good had 2 weeks in India and no stomach bugs but a w/e in Derby and I have a very runny tummy. Came home from work early and went to bed.\nTues 28th\nOff work Ill in bed, being male this involves dying noisily in a corner. Some sympathy I get from my wife!!! \nWeds 29th\nNot feeling good but dragged myself back in as I have had that much time off recently and I feel that I have to turn in. But I am off tomorrow so I can recover then, the only drawback is that I will be working the w/e. The sheep  seem to have decided to start lambing or maybe decided not as we seem to be seeing a few if you get what I mean\nThursday\nHad a good day off and spent time sleeping and doing household things. Even though I hate DIY it was good to get some jobs sorted.\nCalled in at vets to pick up stuff for court tomorrow.\nFriday\nThe more I experience the legal proceedings the more I feel that they are a waste of time. What is important is how good your lawyer is. The case was all about whether or not this guy had starved his greyhounds or not. He had, but as he was on legal aid he thought it might be better to try to keep his other dogs. And have fewer judgements against him. He obviously knew his way around the legal system.\n\n\nSaturday 1st Feb 2003\nReflections on Court case\nIt is one of those really annoying things that you can never replay what has happened.\nThe case yesterday really churned me up with having to make huge moral decisions more or less on the spur of the moment. \nThe complicating factors were that C who was acting on the defence was acting outside the RCVS guidelines. Now I could have pointed out this to the RSPCA lawyer, but as C has already been struck off once the matter could well have turned very badly for him. Even though it is his decision to get involved and a poor one. Then I think that it is not for me to land him in the muck, I could have done so both on the fact he should not have been speaking and also that I could have pointed out that his record is tainted. Why he was being an expert witness in the first place for some one who is not even their client beadsmen (? Beats me)\n. I had reservations about doing the legal work for the RSPCA, and at least we do quite a lot of work for the local inspector.\nSo I decided not to trash C as a witness as I thought that it was not my place to do so, and secondly the repercussions for local vet good will would not stand me in good stead. But I have my doubts as to whether I did the correct thing. There is no right and wrong. The dilemmas are there because you to choose which horn you want to get impaled on.\nSun+\nLambing seems to have started with a vengeance spent most of the morning at the surgery, with land rovers and trailers turning up one after another. With sheep lambing or having peri-natal problems. I do like working out of the surgery at the w/e, as there is far less driving and working is so much easier and you don’t have to keep getting changed in and out of protective clothes.\nSo got two vets work done by just keeping on asking for them to come to the surgery. The farmers don’t mind either as they generally have to put them in a pick up to bring them back to the farm from the field so it is as easy to drive on to the vets rather than hang around waiting for them.\nMon\n Went TT testing at P’s [farm]. I used  his son a fair bit during FMD as they went out early on and he always has done a fair amount of contracting on the various farms. He also has a very happy go lucky style in contrast to his Dad who is a bit of a worrier. I quite enjoyed the banter and we could just work away as there is no pressure too get finished, as the numbers are not great.  \n Tues\n Went to O’s where they are again having problems getting the cows in calf. The levels of infertility in the restocking herds are horrendous. The sad thing is we seem to be achieving very little in actually improving it. In spite of a lot of investigations and spending money on vaccine and on supplements.\nThe average loss must be 5% at least. It would be interesting to compare the culling rates of the restocking farms. And find out what the restocking losses actually are.\nWeds\nTook the new vet student with me today and let her do the first lambing. At R’s. They like everyone else says they are getting a lot of lambs. These were dead and all tangled up and aborting so they could not get them out. They had quads last night.\nThursday\nWent to S and stitched a teat. This is now a fairly easy operation with the advent of using open crushes and decent epidural anaesthesia. Local is always fairly iffy as many a dentists patient will testify to. It is very satisfying to fix something like that.\nFriday\nSpent the morning  doing certs. These are OTM22 certificates which were brought in by MAFF to compensate the farmer for cows that would have been sold for human consumption before the OTM scheme banned them from human consumption. If an animal is not fit to travel then it can be shot on the farm, but to get the compensation they need a vet’s cert to say that it is fit for human consumption, so it can be burnt on the scheme. If it is not fit then they have to pay to have it taken away. So there is a lot of pressure to sign them.\nThe scheme is supposed to be coming to an end this summer but as yet no markets exist for the casualty animals that are fir for human consumption. The whole knackery/ injured animals/ burying of animals scheme is up for grabs and the govt needs to get some sort of scheme up and running. But the govt thinks, maybe rightly that it is an industry problem to get rid of its own waste and it is not up to the taxpayer to get farmers waste problems sorted. Leave it up to the industry/ market to sort it.\nThere is also a suggestion that as TB is not an important zoonosis in the UK anymore then it is a production problem and it should go the same way as sheep scab and be taken off the notifiable disease list and individual farms have to ensure they meet whatever standard that the buyers want to specify. Which is what is happening to a small extent in the dairy industry with buyers specifying farms must meet certain criteria.  \n\n\nSaturday 8th  Feb 2003\n[wife] is on her course for the w/e so I was doing the run around to squash and football for [sons].\nMon 10th\nB is now renting all the land @ Bush Ghyll head. He has taken it over as a grass letting. Another of the small farms is disappearing. The reality is it has only ever been a small holding but they use to milk 20 odd cows which meant it got the status of a farm on our computer system. The Uncle who use to run it when first arrived was a real character. He was always telling you about when farmers made money after the war. A dozen eggs was 10 shilling. None of your 50ps 10 whole shillings. You could take a girl to the cinema and the Lyons Café and still have change from a pound. Even his free range hens eggs would not buy a cinema ticket for one these days. He should of taken her as he ended up as a bachelor with his nephew taking over the farm.\nTuesday 11th\nThe partners meeting today was trying to address the fact that the mark up on fees is going to be eroded. One of the things that Barnard Castle are doing is putting on their bills, but as yet not charging for things like “Telephone advice” and “Out of hours”. So we are going to be doing the same to try to get across the point that we are providing an all round service that needs to be paid for. But I still think at the end of the day the economics will win. If you cannot provide a service at a profit, you cannot provide a service. So where does that leave us??\nWeds\nHarrison’s are having problems with fertility. Who isn’t? The blood results are showing low levels of copper but I am not convinced that is what it is.\nThey will have to supplement the feed by adding more copper to the feed. The problem with all these investigations is that we are looking for a simple answer when the actual problem is multi factorial. The cows may be short in copper but they are not that low that it is really effecting them. I often wonder with humans if you blood sampled them for lots of different minerals would we find that a percentage of the population is actually below normal for some or several minerals? Maybe our omnivorous diet and the fact we are not producing huge amounts of milk probably does come in to it. We do have a much more varied diet. Most cows are now on complete rations here in the UK so that if the Nutritionist gets it slightly wrong then you will find that the cows will be short. I suppose the other thing that we do always forget is that they are usually working off either a single or 3-4 samples of silage so that there will be a spread of what is actually in the silage and the samples may or may not reflect it.\nThursday\nOn call tonight, and busy which was OK. R was up helping at\nWH house. One of his suckler calves had managed to prolapse its rectum. But it is as wild as thunder so we were all very careful about handling it. I had to dope it any way to operate. But when we put it back it was jumping up the walls which is always a wee bit disconcerting. Limousin stirks could be used for the grand national. D’s brother is not very well at all now. He has cancer and went in for emergency surgery the day I shot all the cows. I had a big row with senior staff at Page St. He had been admitted to the hospital at 2am and was to undergo emergency surgery. That afternoon. I did not want it put on the web site as they were announcing them on Radio Cumbria. I did not want him to be going down for the surgery or just coming out of it and to find out from the radio that I was shooting all his cows. I asked them to put an embargo on it. Of course the vets tried not to let it go out but it did and I was really angry. I wrote some strongly worded letters and never even got a reply. I should have followed it up and held some one to account but I am afraid it all got lost in the passing of time.\nAt least R is a lot better; he had meningitis around the time of FMD. He has had bad heads and depression ever since so, it was good that he is back on farms and has started fencing again.\nFri 14th Valentines\n It is [friend]’s Birthday so we all went around to her house for dinner which was really nice and ended playing darts with the kids. I was pleased to get some darts in the board, as it is a long long time since I have played.\n\n\nSaturday 15th February 2003  \n[son’s] birthday. My little baby son is now 8 years old. It is hard to believe where the time has gone and all the water that has passed under the bridge. \nWent around to [friend’s] at night and sat and eat and put the world to rights. It is good every now and again to wind down and just enjoy talking with out having to think as we know them so well you can just come out with stuff.\nSunday\nMon 17th\nSpent the day TB testing at DL where they have had a NVL. (No visible lesions Reactor) taken. [colleague] did the first test and we are not doing the fat stock on farms that have restocked as they will be going for slaughter fairly soon. So it is deemed pointless and really it is. So spent the day putting big bullocks through the crush and it is a dangerous work for the men who go in amongst  them because they are very rarely handled and so don’t take to it very well.\nTuesday\nHad an interesting lambing today. And a consequence of FMD that you forget about. There is an inherited genetic condition of Suffolk’s called Dandy-walker syndrome causing hydrocephalus in the lambs. So both the ewe and tup must carry the gene to produce the deformed lambs with heads too large to get through the mothers pelvis. So it means doing a caesarean on a ewe that can only be used to breed fat lambs from. It has to be put to another breed next year. This years lambs are dead/ going to die. So the economics are useless. Some breeders just shoot them at this point. But he had called us to try to lamb it or caesaer it. As she was a big ewe I eventually managed to lamb it. \nHe was saying though that it takes time to work out whether the stock you have bought will produce the breeding stock that you want. You have to try the different combinations that you have to work out which lines work well together. He reckons on about 4-8 years before he will be back to breeding decent Suffolk sheep in spite of buying in good stock. There is more to breeding than meets the eye.\nWednesday\nRB had a stirk with MCF. Malignant Catarhal Fever. It is a viral disease which is quite often fatal that they catch from sheep. But they have really blue grey eyes from the change in the fluid in the eye and the severe iritis. It must be incredibly painful for them. \nThursday\nDixons TT2 is now clear so they have to have them all tested again in 42 days to clear the farm of restrictions. Un fortunately the vet from the ministry said it would be from the day the cow is taken not today so the whole thing is getting a bit complicated and JD is getting wound up. Understandably so.\nFriday\nTried to sort out some of the Tracings that we are supposed to be doing. There are a lot coming through but the quality of the info is very poor. Tracings are where the farm has sold animals and then subsequently gone down with TB or other notifiable disease. The DEFRA paper chase is so bad that ear tag nos are wrong or a farmer has bought several from the same source and only 1-2 are on the paper work from DEFRA. The thing seems to be falling apart a bit. \nWent and did a single animal up at the mill. He usually buys in stores and fattens them. But As the store trade has gone through the roof he has sold a lot of them on to let some one else fatten or if heifers breed from them. The DEFRA files have him as a fattening unit/ finisher so that they hadn’t bothered to do tracings to him as they would be going for slaughter. But of course he had sold one on that had gone down with TB so they wanted to know what was happening with these now.\n\n\n\nSaturday 22nd February 2003\nSaturday\nSunday\nMonday\nTuesday\nHad a funny sensation to day. I suppose it was almost a flash back in some ways. I went to a farm who has fancy pedigree sheep. He has rented land and wanted them added to his holding for the MV Scheme so he needs a Vet Inspection to say that the fields are double fenced so that the sheep do not come in contact to any others. This inspection of fields is pretty meaningless as they know what needs to be done and so they are always up to scratch. The last time I was doing it was for FMD. \nWednesday\nThursday\nFriday\nPacked and got the last few things sorted for the VCF w/e. Got the posters printed and the display boards together, and set off down the motorway to pick up [friend] and spent most of the day travelling it was good talking to him. He retired from practice just before FMD and then spent the first part of his retirement working for DEFRA on the FMD. First at Preston and then at Settle. It seems they were better organised at Preston and he was quite positive about the local teams. I sometimes wonder if I am sill too close to it all and to emotional to take a clear-headed look at what it was really like. It was good to see [friends] at night and get set up for the w/e.\n\n\nSat 1st March (+ Sun) 2003\n\nVCF w/e\nIt is difficult for me to sum up the w/e as I was so much in it and part of it. \nSo I have copied the report from one of the students who wrote a bit for the VCF Magazine.\nVCF Triennial Conference - 28th Feb-2nd March 2003\n \nOn a sunny weekend at the beginning of March, over 70 vets, vet students and families bravely took time out of their busy schedules and gathered expectantly at The Hayes conference centre in Derbyshire for the 2003 VCF conference. We were a mixed bunch, ranging in age from 2 months to 70 (well, nearly), from many different places, denominations and walks of veterinary life, but we all had a common goal in mind: to unite in our desire to love and serve the Lord Jesus Christ in the vocation to which He has called us and to encourage one another to be "salt and light" in the veterinary world.\n Our distinguished speaker for the weekend was Dr. L, a consultant psychiatrist and Christian who drew from his own experience to bring us some thoughtful insights on the subject of "God at Work". He emphasised the fact that although work is a godly activity and that we should view whatever we do "as if working for the Lord" (Colossians 3:18) it must not be forgotten that a balance must be achieved between work, church, family life etc. There was also an opportunity to discuss how we would respond as Christians to a variety of ethical decisions that commonly present themselves in veterinary practice.\n As well as the main talks there was the opportunity to join a variety of seminars on relevant practical subjects. BT, a vet and long-serving missionary in Thailand with OMF, led a most interesting seminar on the joys and challenges of both veterinary and evangelistic work in a different culture. Students and new graduates were well provided for in seminars on "practicing reality" - living out one's faith in the university or veterinary practice environment. M C bravely stepped in at short notice to lead a seminar on business ethics, and vcf secretary generated some thought-provoking discussion on a very relevant subject for many - singleness. \n It was not all work and no play, however, and we were much obliged to the Scottish students for organising the Saturday night ceilidh. Much fun was had by all.\nSo, we all parted company on Sunday feeling refreshed and well-fed both physically and spiritually. How encouraging to be reminded that you are not the only Christian vet out there, and that there are many others who grapple with the same issues you face. The weekend was a time of friendships rekindled and hopefully new ones made, a time of strengthening and a reminder of what is ultimately the most important thing in our busy lives.\n\n\nLeading the seminar on business ethics, or rather winging it was very stressful but very good. Which was very interesting and very challenging. The questions about is it right to make a profit were espy good to work through, but it was incredibly draining. By Sun night I was exhausted drove back to [friend’s] for the night. He live about 20 mins off motorway and it was coming through one of the wee villages I was flashed by a camera and so will have a fine and a speeding ticket to sort out.\nMon\nHad a really nice lie in and then went for a walk with [friend] around from his house across the fields. It was beautiful. Then set off for Preston to visit the friend who is in prison. The road was closed on the way to the M6 so took me ages to find my way to the M6 and then after coming off at Preston to find the way to the prisons. The whole afternoon was very depressing. There is something very intimidating about having to be “processed” for the visit under security cameras and by very polite but uncaring prison officers. The being searched and going past sniffer dogs, and having to give my finger prints which are now on the police computers. [prisoner] was OK but fairly depressed about the outlook. Even now he is worried about how he is going to cope when he comes out. The prison regime is very oppressive, and after being there for an hour and a half I was glad to be going. It is also a bizarre situation where you have to sit there and talk for that length of time. There is also a lot of stuff that he wants to know about the kids. And you just can’t help him. Most of what we know is hearsay and not first and so difficult to sum up. Espy as some of it is not good. They are not coping with the whole situation, and it is basically his fault, or his and their mothers, so he is already feeling guilty enough with out giving him more angst to cope with. But I was very glad to be coming out again into the fresh air.\nSpent the evening at A’s parents evening challenging senior management and giving them a hard time. So quite a day.\nTuesday\nAs usual the disasters after a w/e away continue the new bathroom was totally flooded from a leaking pipe. I felt like wringing his neck. He is the plumber.  The water was flowing back through the old kitchen and made a real mess.  Managed to get hold of him after leaving more and more urgent phone messages at all his answer phones. He has a mobile, a telephone at his flat where he hardly ever is, and at his girlfriends. So the water was off most of the day until he found the leak and managed to fix it. Again he had to smash tiles and cut holes in the wall to fix it and the place looked a mess. But boy o boy am I fed up with that stupid bathroom. \nWent into work to find no one had done the stuff I had left to be done, and work was really busy. The speeding ticket had landed already, why are other govt depts not as efficient?. So spent the whole day until 6pm running around like a headless chicken and then decided that stuff it: I was going to the gym for the circuits class.\nWeds\nThe disasters continued, with the washing machine giving up the ghost. Which in a house with 3 boys and a vet is a pretty serious problem.\nI also had an argument with one of the other partners saying that if we did not get another vet we would have a rebellion or people going off sick through stress. Me being one of them and I have only been back 2 days. Still haven’t managed to read all of the stuff in my in tray yet let alone deal with it.\nThursday\nFinally convinced [senior colleague?] we needed some help as the Ministry got hold of him and asked if we could do a tracings herd test urgently on one of farms that has not restocked. (The cattle belong to some one else). He then looked at the book and decided we could not. ! Idiot I told him weeks ago, last September I think that this would happen. So spent the day sorting out DC to come. In between vetting. He is not an LVI so have had to pull some wool, and sweet talk them into training him in the baffling ways of DEFRA. But that meant I still have yet to reach the bottom of my in tray. May be there is gold buried at the bottom. \nI think this is one of those days when you look back were probably quite decisive, but accidental days. \nThis was the first time I really thought that I was about to be killed. I could see it happening and there was nothing I could have done differently to prevent it.\nI went on a calving after work about 8pm.\nMet up with the farmers and One went to get water. While the other and I walked into the box to where the cow was. The cow gave me a funny look and I backed off, to behind a pillar in the pen. “ Oh its OK it’s a quiet cow, she’s had 8 calves.” He said. Next time I will listen to my instincts.\nSo we went forward to where she was. Without warning, or snorting or given it a second thought she charged, caught me under the ribs with her head and threw me to the ground. Before I could react she butted me again in the head, snorted kicked me, and then backed off as the farmer started kicking and hitting her. She then came again, bashed me into the corner on my back and kept coming. As her head flew at me I grabbed her nose and swung myself around on her nose. Kicked her with both feet taking all my weight on the one hand while shouting for help from the other guys. One came back with a pitchfork. As I was on the ground I kicked her again. As they came with the fork and let go and scrambled away around the box she still came after me, but I got to the gate past the two brothers who thumped her again and then backed off and slammed the gate shut. I lay in a heap on a bale for 10 minutes breathing heavily, while they asked did I need an ambulance or Doctor. I finally came to enough to splash water on my face and think  that there must be an easier way to make a living!! It took all 4 brothers armed with sticks to get her into a crush where I then managed to calve 1 dead twin breach and 1 live twin (just). In her defence the cow had been calving for a while was in pain and had probably just got herself really wound up. But she almost killed me. I then sat having strong tea for quarter of an hour before summoning up the courage to drive home. With hind sight, I should have taken up there offer of a) Getting some one else out to calve the cow. But the girl on 2nd was 5ft nothing and petite, and didn’t think dumping it on her was very fair. The adrenaline was still flowing so I just kept on. b) I should however have let one of them drive me home or probably to casualty. But I felt they would not do anything at the hospital except keep an eye on me. So I just went home to my own bed and asked my wife to wake me up every two hours.\nFriday\nIll with head spinning. Every time I sit down to try and do something my head just goes around. And I feel really tired and jet lagged.\nI think I prefer India to being beaten up by cows. Time for a new job.\nSlept all afternoon, but had friends for dinner it had been arrange months ago so [wife] didn’t cancel, and I kept going but drifted in and out a wee bit!\n\n\nSaturday 8th March\nHad a lie in to 9 o clock Yo!!! Still feeling pretty sore but at least my head is one piece I think!! Showed flat to prospective tenants.\n It is very rare that we don’t have to get up for sthg when we are  at home either for work or for Football/squash or something similar. There is another squash competition but they are both later starts for our boys, which is great.\nTook [son] to football and [wife] phoned up to say that the Cs were going to watch the Lord of the rings did I want to go. So went to watch it and swapped younger kids with [wife] taking [son] and their youngsters and I went with the Cs. There are times when mobile phones are really useful to get things arranged. \nThe film was really good but boy was I stiff after sitting down for that length of time. My knee was giving me real gyp.\nSpent evening at Daubes but I faded so [wife] drove home and went to bed.\nSunday 9th\nWent to church in morning and picked up car. [friends] came to lunch which was really good to see them. But as A points out pointedly, they do have 5 boys. So there were 8 kids flying around but I did enjoy seeing them. They are still trying to sort out their diversification plans and hope to have several strings to their bows as well as farming. There is a teachers position at Nelson Thom so that is probably the most reliable form of income for [friend].\nMon 10th\nWent to work but every time I bend over or move to fast my head spins, so just did small animals. I think cats and dogs are a much better idea. But a lot of sympathy from folk at work. Mr H had been in and obviously given a fairly graphic description of what had happened.\nThat and my face is not the most becoming at the moment.\nTues 11th \nBack to work on the farms. I was at Rs for a fertility visit. Even though I know his cows and I am happy with them I did feel very nervous about going any where near them. I have lost a lot of confidence which although I expected it I am still a bit wound up about it.\nThe rest of day was OK, apart from several people whingeing about the current paper work requirements for selling cattle. Mind you when you see what they need to sell a few bullocks or a geld cow, it is probably easier to be an asylum seeker.\nSpent evening at Surgery showing D the ropes. He is the locum who is going to be working with us for the next few weeks. He is going to the ministry at Newcastle tomorrow to do his LVI training. At least that means he can do some of the TB testing and at least give us a break from that. It is these sort of things, managing staff, showing people the ropes, giving them back up and debriefing them that latkes huge amounts of time and energy and yet is never seen as “work” or relevant by a lot of people(The rest of the partnership) and yet in any small business it is the people that make all the difference and if they feel appreciated and supported, and can debrief and be reassured then it makes such a difference to them. And happy staff can deal with situations and people a lot better and easier than stressed ones!!\nWeds 12th\nNext year I am NOT going it is definitely some one else’s turn.\nI speak of the annual training (????) day for senior LVIs. It just drives me up the wall. The morning was spent fairly usefully talking about contingency planning for the next FMD or exotic disease epidemic. The Page St planners seemed fairly well clued in and taking on board a lot of the ideas and problems that had been seen in 2001.\nThe afternoon was then totally depressing.\nTB is now endemic in the south of the county, there was a deer herd that had animals dying and so took them to the VIC lab at Penrith to find out why they had these animals losing weight and dying. They had TB. The ministry had known that there had been reactors all around that area but had never picked up on the fact these deer were here and should have been tested.\nThere were also complaints that forward tracings were not being done on some cattle. To which the Vety Officer giving the talk said it was quite difficult to work out where cattle had gone. This was met with some incredulity by the local vets as the paperwork and computerised passport scheme surely means that “trace-ability” was one of the BIG issues to do with BSE, and if it cannot be done it means the whole thing is a useless sham.\nWell the answer is that you can trace a specific animal through markets and holdings but not animals on and off a holding.\nSo tracings are taking too much time.\nSo it is not getting done so TB is spreading.\nIDIOTS\n\nThe best systems, the best tools, the best ideas, the best businesses have to work through people.\nSo next year some one else can go and listen to the plans in the sky.\nThis was the meeting where we had an excellent talk on FMD in Feb 2000. Just a pity they did not listen to their own experts.\nThere was also a talk on the new Scrapie scheme where the guy speaking knew less than his audience???  Why???\nI have to go back to the speaker at the VCF w/e who said that when he came out of Medical school he Had spent 6 years being taught to be rational and scientific, where disease was discussed logically and a rational conclusion was sought. He came with the same idea to the National Health Service and struggled. He said”.. we live in a fallen world with fallen institutions, and we have to accept that at times they do not make sense, and that it is not in our power or capabilities to change them. Where we can we change them where we cannot we work within them” \nThursday 13th\nDay off prior to working w/e. \nWent up high Pike with [friend]. Snowed lightly on tops but beautiful, but a wee bit chilly. \nSpent the afternoon getting the stuff sorted for VCF magazine and answering e-mails and putting the details from the w/e in to some sort of order. I was trying also to put some responses down for yesterday but feeling to angry to risk putting it down on paper. I just hope the govt is more in touch with the armed forces on the frontline in Kuwait, than the distant arm of govt in State Vet Service in Cumbria.\nFriday 14th\nAnother day, another test, another dollar.\nSpent morning supervising the locum and trying to get on top of my in tray. The stuff for partners meeting next week to try and get some decisions. And a w/e on call looms when I feel even though I have not been in work or worked too many w/e’s tired and jaded. Being beaten up by the cow probably doesn’t help.\n\n\nSaturday 15th March\n Working the w/e on first for the first time in a long time as I have been keeping the amount I am working back. I am was way ahead in the amount worked so it brings the numbers in line. \nI also need a break as feeling v. tired and fed up. And with not much prospect of rejuvenation. \nThe morning was fairly busy but we all finished by 12 so not that bad. It was funny as Julie who ahs been a receptionist since pre FMD said that she thought it was really busy, but compared to the good old days of  8 years ago, you thought it was a good Sat am if you finished by 2!! So it is surprising how things change and you get use to them.\nThe weather is beautiful with clear skies and frosty spring mornings and dry! The good weather always makes you feel better any way.\nSpent afternoon doing bits and pieces in garden and jobbing around.\nSunday 16th\nBusy in morning but it shows how useful the new building is OK I know its 4 years old but things have never been normal and I still see it as new. There were 2 lambings and a sheep to see and drugs to put out, and because I was at the surgery they just kept on coming down to the surgery to the large animal bay so I did a lot of “work” with no driving and it makes such a difference. What would have taken 3-4 hours was finished in an hour and a half!!\nMissed church and did the same at night with more lambings the sheep are back.\nThe afternoon was spent sorting out after boys.\nThey went down to the pond and because it is all churned up they got their wellies stuck in the mud. So they were cold and wet and covered!! I had to use planks to walk out to them so I did not sink in. I made the mistake of fetching the planks and the spades back before sorting the boys so they had trailed mud all around the house!!!\nGrrrrr….\nBut I should have taken photos.\nIn the midst of this the new vet student Rachael turned up so I could not give full vent to my annoyance!!\nMon 17th\nChaos at work with loads of emergencies and testing so we were all glad of students and D working. More I/R’s found TB testing so it looks like it will continue.\nStill haven’t found time to put pen to paper or type writer to  send a letter to Contingency planning group at DEFRA. But hopefully will get on top of it soon.\nTues 18th\nSome days I should have stayed in bed. A bad hair day!! \nStarted off badly with arriving at fertility visit as farmer was emerging from breakfast having been late as his wife was milk recording and he had to calve a cow. So had to sort cows before checking to see in calf. A very rotten lambing. Rotten as in lambs were disintegrating so stank and then more calls. Left for lunch at 12:45 to get half way and the called me back for another lambing. There were 1:30 calls to do and then surgery. Worked at night and I was fed up of being On call stopping me doing stuff so went to gym and was bleeped out to speak to folk 4 times. By now really wound up so went to house group and sat down, chatted and phone went. Sorted that and then a cow caesarean. This was followed by 2 more and 3 hours sleep.\nMust be an easier way to make a living.\nWeds 19th\nFeeling my age, no sleep on the night before you 40th birthday does not do you any good. Missed seeing kids in morning as I was out at caesar. 3 during night On Call.\nThe girls at work had got hold of loads of photos (From my wife) so they were all around the practice. Well I was a cute teenager!!!\nWorked through to lunch as morning was busy and partners meeting.\nThen did a 1:30 AND WENT HOME FOR SLEEP.\nOpened presents with kids at 4 o’clock and went out to D’s for meal at night was good.\nThurs 20th\nReally quiet as no TB testing and lots of vets. Did more lambings and caught up on business side of organisation. Doing rota and organising work.\nReflected on partners meeting and tried to work out whether I am out of sync with the rest of the world and right or out of sync and wrong. Time will tell.\nIraq war started as predicted but seems to have been an opportunistic target i e Saddam himself rather than all out assault. Weird but that is politics. I must ask the history teachers about what caused the failure of the League of Nations, and whether this is going to be similar for UN.\nFri 21st\nDespite being on back up went out for a meal. It was the coffee morning’s xmas bash that is traditionally now held in new year as there is too much else on during Xmas period. Spent quite a while talking to MS about League of Nations and the UN. He is fairly sceptical about the power and influence of UN. Which in his view is more often than not used as a fig leaf for US or USSR ambitions, and is not really the “International Community”. He was interesting to talk to about the history of Iraq.\nPlayed pictionary boys vs. girls which was fun.\n\n\n\n\nSaturday 22nd  March 2003\n Worked am which was very busy. As it was my 10th day I was feeling a bit drained. Either that or cos of out for meal last night. I will let you decide!! \nThe beautiful weather is continuing, and we went for a lovely walk up above Fellside. The kids loved playing in the streams and the sunshine, which for March is amazing.\nCame back to find that there was a house full of folk to celebrate my 40th birthday which was really nice. Though it was a good thing that the weather was good so the kids could play out side as there were lots of them. Chatted to P, who is always full of energy and enthusiasm. He is a whirlwind of ideas and concepts and philosophy. One of the few people who I can sit and listen to, for hours and hours. He is intelligent and articulate (In 7 languages), and yet always ready to listen to anyone and hear what they have to say, even if it is poorly thought out. And very practical in his approach, and very un materialistic. He is quite happy to give books and ideas to anyone who will read and learn from them.\nSunday 23rd\nThis weather is amazing I still cannot get over it with the Sun blazing down we went to watch [son] play football against Silloth. They won 2-0 . But it was a tight match but very good to watch. Much better than Carlisle, as one spectators put it. Went on to Beckfoot for a picnic, in March??!! The beach was deserted and yet it was warm enough for T shirts and shorts for the boys. |I lay in the sun and slept and counted my many blessings. Came home and planted seeds, lettuce, courgette and sweet pea. Must plant leeks and pumpkins if I get a a chance this week and buy onion sets.\n[wife] spent a while after church talking to B about Low Moor. Difficult.\nMon 24th\nSent my letter to Richard Drummond, who was the RVO at Harrogate and is now head of service delivery. It is always a bit of a conscious effort to take up the cudgels..    against bureaucracy. Especially one like the SVS that has in its culture a tendency to attack those who criticise it. I hope that tomorrow will be quiet as I wish to write another letter to the contingency planning dept. I also want to look at the updated contingency plans and make comments on it. But doing all this does not pay the bills and at the moment when work is so busy I feel it is actually more important to spend time with the kids. So I will sign off and go and watch the  “Great Escape” which they bought me for my birthday.\nCopy Of letter to Richard Drummond who wrote the Drummond Report before FMD saying that if there was an outbreak they would not be able to cope!!\n\n21st March, 2003\n\nMr R D Drummond\n[address removed]\n\nDear Richard,\n\nI am writing to express my concern with the current situation with TB.\n\nWe last met at the LVI meeting in Cumbria where we had an excellent talk on Foot and Mouth Disease and about how there was an increased risk becoming apparent.  This was in Feb 2000.\n\nAt the meeting this year as well as talks on Contingency planning there was a lot of discussion on the emergence of TB on Cumbrian farms.\n\nThere were also complaints that forward tracings were not being done on some cattle. To which the Vet Officer giving the talk said it was quite difficult and time consuming to work out where cattle had gone. This was met with some incredulity by the local vets as the paperwork and computerised passport scheme involved in moving cattle is a huge burden on farmers.  "Trace-ability" was one of the BIG issues to do with BSE, and if it cannot be done it means the whole paper exercise is a useless sham.\n\nThe answer was given that you can trace a specific animal through markets and holdings but not animals on and off a holding.\nSo tracings are taking too much time.\nSo tracings are not getting done in some divisions.  \nSo TB is spreading.\n\nWhether this comes under your remit as Head of Service Delivery I do not know. \nBut I would be grateful if you could forward it to the relevant department or to the minister so that a single enquiry to the cattle movements service at Workington will ensure a comprehensive list of movements on and off a holding since the previous test. \n\nIf we cannot trace from herds with tuberculosis reactors, the ability to track FMD is obviously a non starter.\n\nThank-you in advance for your help with this.\n\nI hope in 3 years time we will not be contemplating what we should have learnt from an LVI meeting in Hadrian House.\n\nYours Sincerely\nB.V.M.&S. M.R.C.V.S.\n\nTues 25th\n[wife]’s cousin from Vancouver arrived and it was really nice to see her again. The Canadians are always so up beat and down to earth. They have a refreshingly positive can do mentality. She and her daughter have been with a school choir singing in parts of Europe and doing the European tour. They are whistle stopping the lakes tomorrow.    It was good to catch up with them. [young vet who lost brother?] was with them. My favourite mother in law. She brought me a set of kitchen knives for my birthday present . They are incredibly sharp so I don’t think that letting the kids loose with them will be a good idea. But at least we can pitch some of the old ones, which needed sharpening every time you used them.\n[vet] arrived back from skiing very sun burnt from the sunshine and wind. She has had a really good time though.\nWeds 26th\n A  and left as I arrived in to go to YP’s. It was funny to see them very much the young ladies going out. They live at opposite ends of the world and yet the fashion is the same. Little hand bags and scarves as belts!! Globalisation is not just effecting agriculture. They had spent time in Keswick and around the lakes today making use of the gorgeous summer weather. In March?? It really is warm. Hope we are in for a scorcher of a summer holidays.\nThursday 27th\nSpent the quietist night On Call for a long, long time. Nothing !!!\nWhy is it as soon as you employ a locum as  an extra pair of hands the work disappears. Still it will given everyone a chance to have a breather. Said good bye to the Canadians and Mother in law. We are heading over to Ireland to see the Irish side of the family at Easter so we will see [vet friend?] again soon. But it was funny saying goodbye all the same. Don’t know why!\nWas doing a herd health plan today for a farm that has 50 dairy cows. He said he did not really know why he is doing it as he is going to give up and go and milk for some one else as it is not viable to make it pay on that sort of small scale.\nFriday 28th\nHaven’t got the workload right at all. I think the sunshine has sent the farmers into the fields to work and the lambs and calves are all arriving un aided in to the sunshine. It is amazing how the good weather makes you feel so much better. So I have booked in extra testing for next week. \nThe only slightly sad thing was talking to one of the farmers who had just started lambing. I was taking out rotten lambs that were aborting 2 weeks earlier. It is his first season actually lambing as he only bought in fat sheep last year. He said that it was at this stage 2 years ago that they came and took all his sheep. He should not have let them do it. It was wrong and he had not put up a fight. He had just gone along with it. He was fairly melancholic about it. I tried to point out that every one had done it, and it had seemed to be best thing to do at the time. I did not think that pointing out I had not been convinced and argued against it, and that only 2 out of 10,000 blood samples of live sheep slaughtered had been exposed to the virus would have helped. They were my granddads flock, he said. Now we have all these problems he says. Looking at the dead lambs I have just pulled out: lying in a heap in the corner of the trailer. You never forget something like that lad he says never.\nThere are a lot of anniversaries to go through and all the farmers are saying the fun has gone out of it. \n\n\nSaturday 29th   March\n The beautiful weather is carrying on and [wife] and I had a child free, vet student free afternoon. The sun was out and we went down for a walk along this side of Bassenthwaite Lake. There were lots of daffodils out and a light breeze off the lake. It was beautiful, cool sunny day for walking and very pleasant. We really enjoyed it.\n [son] and A are on the Young Peoples church w/e at Edinburgh and will arrive back exhausted from lack of sleep. The Js had the boys for the afternoon so it was good. Met up with [friends] in the evening and spent the evening putting agriculture to rights. He sells/ manages sales of fertiliser for Norsk Hydro.\nSunday\nMothering Sunday was a bit of a disaster with out A to organise the boys and I hadn’t had time to get them organised. Church was R & J on the beatitudes.\nThen met up with Cs and went up Bow Scale Fell. [son’s friend] and [son] complained the whole way. They were in really bad form and I was fed up with them. \nMonday\nThe work has dried up completely which for this time of year is unheard of. We have employed a locum to try and get the testing done and no work for every one to do. Embarrassingly got it wrong. Usually at this time of year there is no testing and the vets are running around like idiots. Not very good news for us . So wrote letters to [the] head of contingency planning at Page St. To amuse you I have copied it here:\n<<\n\n\n\n\n[name]\nDEFRA\nRm 803A\n1A Page St\nLondon\nSW1P 4PQ\n\nDear [name]\n\nI am writing to thank-you for travelling north to Carlisle to come to speak to the recent LVI meeting at Hadrian House, Carlisle.\n\nI have also been reading the DEFRA contingency plan and a lot of lessons do seem to have been learnt. I appreciate this years deadline has been passed to place it before parliament, but it is a “living” document! \nMy apologies but better late than never!!!\n\n I would like to make a few comments as one of the early TVI volunteers at Carlisle, and as a partner of one of the practices at the eye of the storm.\n\n1. The whole issue of valuation of animals taken as a compulsory purchase by the state for the benefit of the farming community to eradicate disease, has not been addressed. One of the initial problems slowing the slaughter of infected animals was the valuation. My own view then and now is that a simple standard valuation must be applied. It must be high enough to be an incentive to reporting  of disease, but too low to make the possibility of disease seem financially attractive. The price for compulsory purchase may be set higher for dangerous contacts or  less for affected  animals. If there is a simple standard value, then the diagnosing vet counts the number of bovines and shoots them. The farmer knows in advance what compensation is going to be paid, and individual animals of high merit could be insured for whatever sum the farmer is willing to pay premiums for. This may be an unpopular nettle but it needs to be grasped, even though I am sure my clients would disapprove of it.\n\tThe current tuberculosis problems are again high lighting the problems in this area. There should be a standard procedure and valuation for all notifiable diseases, and the values based on the last mid market rate. There are apocryphal stories that the valuers are still running the system for their clients the farmers, not DEFRA.\n\n2. The second issue that has not been addressed is the tracings system.\nWith the advent of the British Cattle Movement Services, I was under the impression that “traceability”  was a central part of government policy. It was with some incredulity that in response to questioning at the LVI meeting we were told that BCMS cannot give a list of movements on or off a holding. So tracings for TB are still being done by a DEFRA vet trawling through a farmers movement book. Why? If the political will was there, at the touch of a bottom the data base should be able to generate a list of animals moved in the past 6 months, which markets they have been through, and which holdings they have been through. If this cannot be done for TB, you can forget trying to do it for FMD or other fast contagious disease.\nThere is still a confusion over the database which should be based on holding numbers. Several farmers have multiple holding numbers, several have a single holding number and multiple sites. High genetic merit animals may have several owners, a single holding may have stock from several different farms. The rules for CPH numbers need to be re-evaluated centrally.  If a data base is to be of use it must be actively managed and updated. That can only be done at a local level.\n\n3. Disposal\nI know that this has been looked at, but farm sizes are continuing to grow at an ever more rapid rate. The average size of dairy farms in this area has grown by 20 cows since FMD. This means there will be a bigger disposal problem as individual farms will have more and more stock.\n\n4.” The local office should have stores to equip 20 TVIs at 24hours notice.”\nWe touched on this point at the meeting was the need for sudden recruitment of TVI or other veterinary staff. While the SVS can second small numbers of vets for short term availability, there was a reluctance by some DVMs to second staff who may yet be required in their own areas. Local LVIs can provide veterinary cover but the whole structure of large animal practice is in flux, and it may or may not be possible to provide veterinary inspections on an allocated, on a  temporary or part time basis. The pay and conditions for such assistance need addressed and agreed. The other part of this is orientation/ training at the local levels. This by the end of the outbreak at Carlisle, was quite impressive. However has that information been put together centrally? Should there be a central trainer who trains designated trainers for each SVS office/DECC?\nSimilarly with lay blood samplers/ vaccinators. Again local practices could provide nominated nurses/ lay staff for training. During the out break here AI personnel were used very effectively  for blood sampling and other procedures. Is this again something for the local plan? But if  the cost for training AI staff in blood sampling was met centrally it would encourage  a register of trained personnel to be maintained locally.\n The Cumbria County Council Inquiry recommends the use of  its emergency centre as a hub for multi agency response to any disease out break.  Should there be some joined up government so that each county council as part of its contingency plan provides for an admin back up for any emergency, civil disaster, terrorist incident?? And do the local plans make use of this??\n\nMy main concern, however, is that when I asked at that meeting had the two way communications between Page St and Carlisle been sorted out…..it was met by nervous laughter.\n\nI would like to emphasise that Page St did not know what was going on in the field during FMD outbreak. There was a communication barrier between the vets in the field and Carlisle management, and a huge gulf between Carlisle and Page Street.  \n\nI would plead that this is addressed as the culture identified by Iain Anderson still seems to prevail. I quote  “a culture predisposed to decision making by committee with an associated fear of personal risk taking. Such a climate does not encourage creative initiative. It inhibits adaptive behaviour, and organisational learning which over time lowers the quality of the decisions taken. It seems to me that a reappraisal of prevailing attitudes and behaviours within the Department would be beneficial.” *\n\nIt may be outside your remit but the Northumberland report with its flow charts and recommendations, actually lists lessons to be learned in Dec 1969. The one about the SVS who fared so poorly in FMD 2001 states… “We have considered the recruitment problem of the State Veterinary Service…the reasons maybe the low initial salary or in part the to the nature of the duties within the Service…..We consider it important for future development that the Ministry of Agriculture should attract a greater number of good young graduates willing to make a career in the service.”#\n\nAt the end of any plan are the people who are going to implement it. They need well managed, well led and given the resources to carry out the task. They need to have confidence in both the political and civil service leadership. There will need to be a risk management of tasks for financial reasons, resource reasons and for the wider rural economy. This requires flexible decision makers who are prepared to take risks and stick their head above the collective parapet.\n\n\nI hope that this provides a few more thoughts for you to work on.\n\nYours Sincerely\n\n\nRefs:\n*FMD 2001 Lessons Learned Enquiry. Forward By Chairman Iain Anderson P7.\n#Northumberland Report presented to Parliament Dec 69. Part 2 Section 47.\n>>>\nShe spoke at the last LVI meeting and as usual the plans sound good but where reality hits is in the delivery/.\n\nTuesday \nDid some small animal work and more testing. Tues evening always seems a rush.\nWent to gym and then on to N’s for the New Frontiers church meeting which was excellent. \nWeds\nManaged some fertility work in the morning and spent the rest of the day bringing the practice database up to date. It has been let go since foot and mouth as it tell us how much stock each farm has. The numbers have been all over the place as people have been restocking and changing the direction their businesses are going. Some moving out, some moving up in numbers and some going from dairy to Beef or sheep.\nThe most interesting thing was the fact that a lot of farms that had restocked with adult animals have dropped by 5-10 cows since they restocked as older cows are lost, or ill cows go, but there are not the young stock replacements coming through to replace them.\nThe actual figures for dairy farms restocking are: Not yet entered in the computer. I was hoping to have them but will get them.\nThursday\nDid some small animals and some OTM22 but it still incredibly quiet. Consequently I have booked in a lot more work for the next few weeks. So I hope I don’t get it wrong the other way. Set up Anne a vet student for her project, on comparing fertility pre and post FMD. \nFinished off updating the database figures so they will hopefully get entered over next few days and we can do some comparisons.\nMarch figures look Ok but the long term out look is not so good. The govt is doing a committee looking at Farm animal vet practice. The Lakeland BVA have asked for comments.\n\nEFRACOM Inquiry into vets and veterinary services\n(EFRACOM is a DEFRA committee)\nTerms of reference are to "...look at the provision of farm veterinary\nservices in England and Wales.  In particular it will look at\n1.\twhat impact current levels of farm income are having on the usage of\nveterinary services, and in turn what effect any reduction  in the usage of\nsuch services is having on the number of practices dealing with large\nanimals;\n2.\twhat effect any reduction in the usage of veterinary services and a\nshortage of large animal vets is having on health and welfare standards and\non the effectiveness of surveillance for animal diseases;\n3.\twhether the requirements placed on farmers by Government including those\nin the Animal Health and Welfare Strategy are realisable in such\ncircumstances; and\n4.\twhat is the impact on the work of the State Veterinary Service."\ncomments by 12 April please\n\nThe day ended with the reading of a TB test on a farm that was hoping to become clear after going down when it first restocked 18months ago. 1 reactor and 1 I/R on normal interpretation. They will probably take both on severe interpretation.\nThe government always looks as though problems are dealt with in isolation. \nThe DEFRA vet who looks after our practice is not dealing with this case as his daughter is married to her brother. The farming community is very incestuous.\nFriday\nWork desperately quiet so I organised more testing to do. I hope I haven’t over booked the work. DEFRA vets at Carlisle are still learning the ropes when it come s to TB as it has been so rare in this part of the world. So a few of the allocations have been wrong. So I am having to go back and do extra animals so that set can be signed off.\nThe school held a curry evening tonight which for a Cumbrian village school is very cosmopolitan. There is an extended family of three Pakistani families and they cooked. <Though for the children there  was also a bangers and chips option> It was quite a nice time, though [wife] was on her next level counselling course so I ended up just with kids but it was good to spend time with them. I have enjoyed not working many w/e’s recently; it kind of gives you your life back; that and not doing much at work.\n\n\nSaturday 5th April 2003\n[wife] was at her level 2 course counselling so I had the kids for the w/e. Took [son] to squash. Went into town for some bits and pieces. And then I  chatted to I while we waited for T and [son] to finish.\nThen took all the kids into town. We are having a Mothers Day tomorrow to make up for the fact L & A were away for the w/e last week. The kids have bought presents and made cards which was nice. \nThe Cs and [friend] came for lunch and then spent a very muddy afternoon by the pond playing and building dens and generally making a mess and having fun. [son] even decided showers were in order when he came back. That shows you how dirty they were as he is Mr Allergic to water.\nI made a fondue for tea with apple juice as the kids don’t like the kick of the wine. It was a great success and did taste rather good even if I do say so myself!!\nSunday\n I went to church on my own as [wife] was heading out again after an early lunch. The talk was on God’s leading which is always relevant. The kids were great fun on the way back and full of craic. They had a return trip to the Cs as they were too late to find a sky TV for THE match. Carlisle lost as usual, but it is not every week they lose at the millennium stadium!!\nI picked the kids up from the Cs and put all their bikes on the back of the car. Went to say good bye to Cs. In the meantime three of their boys were hiding in the boot of the car so they let me drive out with them before the giggles and laughter gave the game away. So it caused much merriment all round. \nMet up with the lads Sunday night, felt really sorry for one guy who is having real problems getting access to his 7 year old as his ex wife is putting a lot of –ve input into the wee one. He can go down the legal route but will be expensive and probably counter productive. As she is not wanting to negotiate or look at what is best for the wee girl it seems a real mess.\nMonday\nIn spite of 4 tests the work is not there….\nI spent the day testing though. \nIt is really quite amusing as I know the guy’s sister quite well and I always make sure I tell her how much the good lunch is appreciated. So there builds up a rivalry between them as to who can provide the vet with the best food. I am afraid I consciously flame the rivalry, in spite of it not doing my waistline any good. Trying to concentrate after a three course lunch on a boring job is not easy. You just have to think about coffee time!! And more cakes and tray bakes. All of them distinctly unhealthy with the aim of feeding out door manual labour.\nTuesday\nHad a bad night as my hand was caught in the crush yesterday by a stirk throwing its head and it bent the finger back. It seemed OK but is now throbbing like mad. Plenty of aspirin and corticosteroids.\nDid some ferty and then saw another LDA. The cows seem to be having a real problem with the feed this spring as we have seen 3-4 times the normal number. Went running with A as my finger meant I could not go to gym to work machines.\nWeds\nThe speed cameras have arrived on the top road, and unfortunately I was going too fast by the time I saw it. So I will probably have another 3 points on my licence. They have been building pads on the side of the road all along the A595 as it has a really bad record for car accidents. The numbers killed continues to go up. The speed cameras are in a van, which can move around and hence trap the speeders. It is called Casualty Reduction Unit… a bit of a pointed message even if you did slow down for them!!\nWork is slow again today with no TB testing on mid week days.\nIt is my brother’s birthday in NZ and he sent a letter to say he is going to be a Dad again so the trip to come across at Xmas is off. He is wanting us to all go there. Hm maybe.\nThursday\nI has had 2 reactors and 4 I/rs today so the future is not looking good for him as it looks like there will be TB there. He has had real problems since the herd restocked with lung worm< energy problems in the silage and atrocious fertility.\nHe is going to have to go and buy another 30 odd replacements at £800 to replace those that he has lost through ill health and fertility. Makes the compensation payments seem pretty small. That’s £24K  he has lost out on already and his own heifers are only coming up to be served. \nWork is busy and I wonder if the spring rush is coming. \nI was supposed to be at the school parents evening but got called out. Which was pretty irritating. I hate the fact that you are just so unreliable when you are on call.\nFriday\nAnother TB testing day so busy.\nAll together not a good day. The competition report is out and is fairly damning as expected so the pressure on drug margins is going to continue and the old fashioned way of providing a complete service will be going out the window. We will have to charge for the out of hours and On Call, the telephone advice and try to make it pay. But the whole economics of going out to see a single ill animal will be gone, the clinical skills of veterinarians will be gone. All academic as the cost for diagnosing a single animal in the new era will be too much. So the diagnosis will all be done by post mortem of herd problems. But if you have large herds the man power will not be there to look after the individual ill animal.\nSad depressing day but I am off for the w/e.\n\n\nSaturday 12th April 2003\nWoke up early and got up even though it is my day for a lie in. I think I am particularly wound up. It all ways takes me at least one day to wind down from work. So I am tired and yet not feeling able to rest. Took [son] to football and [other son?] to buy anew bike. He was so excited. It is his birthday coming up and he has out grown his old one so it will be good for him. The kids spend ages flying around the yard on bikes and up and down the field when the grass is short. They have a real ball here it is a great place to grow up, as they have so much freedom to play and play and play.\nMy finger that was caught TB testing started throbbing again this afternoon, so as it had improved and then got worse I decided I had to get it X rayed so I spent the afternoon in casualty, waiting to get x rayed and then waiting for another hour before being told it was not broken. A five minute consultation that took me almost 2 hours.\n[friends] were up for the w/e. [more friends] are at Capernwray Bible college for an Easter Youth thing so they came on up . So it was good to catch up. \nSunday\nCooked lunch for everyone and then went to communion. It was dire and reminded me why I don’t usually bother.\nSpent the afternoon putting onions in and tidying in the garden. It is incredibly dry and warm. Amazing really. The 6 kids spent the whole afternoon messing around at the pond and were disgusting with mud everywhere and trailed all up the yard, and wellies abandoned everywhere.\nChurch was DM speaking and then the YPs came back to ours afterwards. Mind you I think I had had enough kids for the time being but I was ok. \nMonday\nBad haircut day. As there is only one day we can test this week I booked in fair amount, which would have been tight but AW was off ill so we were too tight, so a few ops have been put off until tomorrow. D has a S African vet friend visiting, so with him and the vet student the house is still full. I however am knackered and not feeling sociable. Had a horrendous calving. It is not often I cannot calve a cow but I am afraid after an hour, I gave up and caesared it. The calf was dead, and rotten so whether she will do I don’t know. I did not want to caesarean but that is life. It was either that or the farmer pay £60 to get some one to take it away after I euthed it. \nTuesday\nWe are in the period of anniversaries. It is 2 years since the Ls went down. I was at a farm which did not get FMD, and his uncles did. He was saying what a sad day it was. So his uncles must be feeling it more. The beautiful spring weather with the grass growing in spite of the frosts definitely puts a bounce in to your step. On days like this I think that it is an excellent life. Wandering around the countryside and enjoying the scenery, the farms, the animals and the farmers. Beats working in a factory any way.\nWent to the gym and felt a lot better for it. Exercise is a great way of getting a buzz. But you have to be not too tired to a) get there and b) enjoy it.\nI have gone often because I feel I should and just felt like a steam roller had run over me, and its taken a day or two to recover. Balance in all things!!!\nWeds\nThe Commission report came out today.\nDifficult to believe that they will be able to implement it. \nBut having lived through the FMD. ….There were quite a few things I thought that they would not be able to implement but they did.\nWe will have to :<if the Minister decides. And since it is DTI not DEFRA I think that the implementation may be effective.>\nProvide prescriptions free of charge\nProvide our clients with a list of pharmacies, agricultural suppliers and other vets, and web sites that will meet those prescriptions.\nThe cost of the most commonly prescribed medicines in the previous quarter.\nThe cross subsidy of professional fees by pharmaceuticals will not be allowed. And how will the pharmacist make his money??\n\nThe other comment which did irk me some what was that the provision of 24 hour cover does not seem that onerous……I do not often swear but really.\nVery depressed.\nBut [daughter] came on a caesaer with me as I was On call tonight. It is really nice working from home and being able to take them with me. It is a  very healthy thing to do. She is growing up and is very much the young lady. The farmers wife is the dental receptionist and of course said hello A. She was thrown as of course being out of context she could not figure how the farmers wife knew who she was!!\nThursday\nGood Friday\nIt is [son’s] B’day today and the day started out great for him. I was on duty and he arrived in our bedroom at 7am with the other 2 boys to start on the birthday celebrations. Our family tradition is that they have breakfast in bed in our bed. Don’t know why but that is what happens. The others all brought cards and presents in. The phone went and it was a lambing, so Tim decided he would come and see the lambs being born. So he was thrilled!!\nWe opened the presents later on. Which included a new boiler suit which really thrilled him. It is amazing what kids think of as their best present!!\nI never really like working Good Friday. I always think one year I will be off and go to one of the contemplative services. Hebron being low church never really does anything like that which is a real shame. Easter is when I think the cathedrals, old country churches, and the church architecture can really be helpful in stopping and praying and helping to consider what Jesus did on the cross.\nFinished work and went up to the [friends]. They were both home and it was really good to see them. Played rounders and had a barbeque which was really nice.\nJames was in really good form as he was enjoying being back away from London where he has just started work as a high flying lawyer. He is not enjoying London very much. He is a hills and countryside lad. His girlfriend was also there so was quite a good craic. I didn’t really want to come home but was so knackered that it was probably just as well the kids were with us and it was not a too late a night.\n\n\nSaturday 19th April 2004 \nSpent most of the day either catching up on sleep or on the day to day things that seem to have been put to one side for a while. There was also the preparations for the service tomorrow we are taking the Easter Sunday morning service which is one of those night mare services where everyone comes. The age range is from 0 to 100 and everyone has different expectations. I should explain that the normal Sunday services are very different. There is the “Family focus “ which is lively and very informal aimed at those with young children, who go to Sunday school. There is then teaching for parents/adults. There is always a lot of noise, children running around, babies crying and shakers and children’s songs. The Communion service that follows is very traditional. Silence and solemnity rules.  All the older generation go, and it is a very different service! So we are going to be combining the two. Oil and water? A lot of prayer has gone in to this one!\nSunday\n[wife] got up at 6 am to go to the sunrise service at the crematorium. \nShe said she needed some input before the Easter service we are leading. It is a service organised by St James, parish church but all the Carlisle churches are asked to take part. Christiana had asked to go, so [wife] went with her and it was really good.\nChrist is risen, he is risen indeed.\nThe sermon was by the Archdeacon from the cathedral who said that being a good Anglican he wanted some liturgy through his sermon. So every time he said are you dead the congregation had to reply, No alive in Christ.!! At which point he would sound a hooter!!\nThe service at Hebron went very well…\nOh ye of little faith. I should pray more and worry less.\n\nI have included our outline below and I have put in additional comments\nIn blue.\nEaster Sunday Service\n\nWelcome to Hebron Evangelical church this Easter Sunday morning when we are celebrating Jesus is alive.  Our opening hymn is our declaration that Jesus is alive he has risen from the dead.\n\nOpening Hymn: We believe in God the Father\nWelcome; Intro me and welcome team. \nThis morning the service is in a different order from usual. We are going to remember what Jesus has done for us on the cross and Bruce Beattie, one of our elders is going to help explain what the bread and wine mean to us as some of the children may not have been here for a communion service before .\n\nThen after taking communion we are going to celebrate Jesus’ resurrection … with reading, singing and sharing. The resurrection is the central part to our faith. Who knows what that long word “resurrection” means?? \n\nThe answers from the kids were quite amusing but we got there in the end!!\nAt the end of the service there will be the offering, an opportunity to give our money as well as ourselves to the living God.\n\nIf during the service the young children get fed up there is a place at the back where they can do some making things…It isn’t easy to sit still when you are little or be quiet! So please don’t worry about the little ones being a distraction. I often wonder what it was like when Jesus fed the 5000plus crowd. Do you think the children all sat neat and quiet in rows. I don’t think so!! \nWe are pleased to see them and hear them. This is a time of family worship from the youngest to the oldest. \n\nReading: Psalm 67 \nI had this up on a power point and we read it together.\nMay God be gracious to us and bless us and make His face shine upon us, that your ways may be known on earth, your salvation among all nations.\nMay the peoples praise you, O God; may all the peoples praise You.\nMay the nations be glad and sing for joy, for You rule the people justly and guide the nations of the earth.\nMay the peoples praise you, O God; may all the peoples praise You.\nThen the land will yield its harvest, and God, our God, will bless us. \nGod will bless us, and all the ends of the earth will fear Him.\nPsalm 67\n\n\nPrayer M\nAs we sing this next hymn it would be good if the children came to sit at the front so that B can see you all when he talks to you.\n\n\nHymn:  When I survey the wondrous cross.\n\nCommunion: B \n\nB gave an excellent talk about remembering. He included a diary and a kitchen timer which he set to go of at the carefully timed point in his little bit. He then used Smarties to go through the Easter story and the different colours. I wish I had it written down.\nWe then had communion and he had smarties for the kids so that they could remember about the Easter story while the adults took communion and remembered Christ’s death and resurrection. Forgiveness is a wonderful thing.\nWe have just been remembering what Jesus did for us on the cross. He died for us…what incredible love. But thankfully the gospel doesn’t end there . [son], A and Cerise are going to read on.\n\nReading: [?] and Luke 24 vs. 1-12\n\nThey did a brilliant dramatic reading.\n\nAn empty tomb. Lets sing ”God’s not dead .He is alive”.(sing it twice and use the instruments at the front to make a joyful noise)\n\nWe want you to have a little taste of what it was like to be around that day and so let’s listen in to  Mary Magdalene chatting on the phone to …well you listen and see who she is talking to.\n[wife] did a sketch about Mary talking on the phone to Marta having met the risen Jesus!! She was very good. Really gave the facts to a contemporary feel\n\nHymn : Led like a lamb to the slaughter…\nin the second verse would children come to help. \nWe have verses to give out to the big people and I’d like you to help give them out making sure all the big  people get one . For the children who may not be able to read yet we have some coloured stones to remind you of a huge stone that was rolled away when Jesus rose from the dead. You can keep it in your pocket or somewhere special to remind you that Jesus is alive and He wants to be with you where ever you go.\n\nA had made up tiny scrolls with verses about the resurrection which the kids all gave out. It kept the wee ones busy and also gave everyone a verse to think about.\n\nIsn’t it wonderful to know that we are singing “he’s alive, he has risen” and all over the world the church is singing the same message. In Revelation we get a little glimpse into what it will be like in heaven with a new song being sung to Jesus Christ. Close your eyes and listen to what it says:\n\nRev 5 vs. 9-11 \n\nWe have the privilege in Hebron of having a few representatives of different language, people and nation here this morning. Let us listen to them.\n“Christ is Risen” in different languages and prayer.\n\nWe then had one family say it in Arabic, another in German. There is a Philippino girl who said it in her language and some one else in Spanish. It was magical.\n\nIntroduce \nLord we lift your name on high\nSung at Mizpah orphanage with children some of whom had just heard the name Jesus for the first time at Christmas. See picture.\nWe need helpers to do the actions to this song…\n\n\n\nWe are thankful that Jesus is alive and so He speaks ,guides , comforts and forgives us for all the sin , the mess we make. It is not only the Mary’s and the Peters and the Thomases that have met with the risen Lord…we each have a story to tell of walking with the risen Lord. As you listen to some people here sharing a bit of their story I wonder what you would have to share…take the opportunity to day to share what God is teaching you, where he is changing you…don’t hide behind the weather or holidays…share your journey to encourage real fellowship.\n: \nEnd in prayer over top.\n\n\n\nSong and offering. This is your opportunity to offer yourself afresh to the risen Lord.\nAn old song but a powerful one. To make this song personal to you choose the verse where you will stand as a sign of your offering to the Lord. Band will play it through twice as collection taken up and then we sing it.\nIf you want to sit until last verse when we sing take my love then we will all stand for last verse.\n\nTake my life \n\nThis song has lots of parts about asking God to take and use different parts of our lives. Songs/ intellect/strength/money etc. And by asking people to stand at the point they wanted it really meant they stopped and offered part of them selves back to God in response to the resurrection.\n\nFinish with Thine be the glory.\n\n The service went really well  people came and said how well it had gone.\n\n[wife] spent afternoon packing and feeling washed out!! Giving out is tiring but the satisfaction is huge.\n\nMon\nUp early to catch the boat to N Ireland. The boat was not too busy which was good. Spent the boat ride filling in my thoughts on the future of Large Animal practice for the EFRACOM enquiry\nBought  Lord of rings part 2 The Two Towers as I am wanting to re read it having seen the movie. So that is my holiday reading sorted out.\nHad a chance when we got there to sit down with [wife]’s parents and talk through our future, which was good as Campbell usually disappears out but a sit is a Bank holiday he didn’t. They were fairly up beat about it which was good so I was pleased.\nSpent the evening with C and the cousins which was really good. Had a barbecue and chilled out. C was not really surprised at the news as agriculture in NI is going through a bad time as well, it is behind the UK and there are a lot of small uneconomic family farms and so a lot of consolidation is going on and farmers selling up.\nTuesday\nSpent the morning playing Squash with the boys which w as great fun. Spent the afternoon in the garden trying to tidy it up.\nWent out for dinner with our bridesmaid who has also just handed in her notice/ or rather accepted a redundancy package. It must be catching. It was great to see her and also to be out in Belfast which is such a cosmopolitan city these days with different languages, cultures and nationalities all mixing in the downtown area. A big change.\nWeds\nWent to the new exhibition centre in the docks at Belfast. It has a multiplex and a science exhibition as well as shops and restaurants and so on.\nIt was amazing the kids could have spent all day playing on the exhibits and it was very well done so that you came away having learnt quite a lot.\n[wife] now believes I cannot do colours as I am easily confused by them. There was one  exhibit where words in one coloured spelt the name of another colour i.e. the word was spelt  y-e-l-l-o-w  but it was red in colour. You then had to read the words or say the colours and I just could not do it, my brain ended up really confused.!!\nBought flowers and stuff for the Garden, and did the boxes for Gran\n Went out to dinner at RP she is a widow who is [wife]’s parents age but is so much fun. She loves giving dinner parties and having folk of all ages around. She gave me some useful addresses. There are lots of plans for [wife]’s parents Golden Wedding.\nThursday \nThe day of the big Photo shoot. [wife]’s brother’s father in law is a photographer and while we were all together [wife] mum wanted a photo of all the family together. So  we spent an hour and a half getting positioned and photographed. 7 kids and 7 adults and a very pernickety photographer. \nTravel back on the boat was OK but came back to find that everything had fused and that the phone was  not working . So fixed the fuses which are all trips thank goodness and got the electrics going.\nThe phone could not fix, but did not worry.\nWhile we were away there had been a lightning strike on to the phone line up the road and it had fried all the cables.\nOne of the neighbours had been in her kitchen and the phone had exploded and jumped off the wall. It has left scorch marks down the wall. I am just glad that there was no one on the phone at the time.\nThe other unfortunate thing is that the computer was attached and is dead as a dodo.\nFriday\nBack to maelstrom\nI was really relaxed going back in to work and it lasted for may be half an hour. No one had picked up on any of my admin things while I had been away. In spite of asking people to do so.\nThis meant I had to start and get things organised for Testing, the Rota     \nand Nestles. As well as to try and do some work. My in tray is a mess but never mind.\n I also had to complete the report for EFRACOM, as the closing date is today, I hope not by 5pm!! The report was actually finished by 10:15 and was e-mailed off. I would like to have polished it a bit more but the schedule today was not conducive.\nDuring the evening when I was supposed to be writing it I had a  casaers and a foal trying to die at [farm]. They are not having much luck as they have had horrendous problems with restocking. They are also under TB2.\n\nI enclose a copy of the report to EFRACOM\n\n\n\n\nThe Right Hon. Michael Jack, MP\nEnvironment, Food and Rural Affairs\nChairman of the  Sub Committee ”Vets and Veterinary Services”\n\nA Submission \n\nSummary\nThis is a timely review of farm veterinary services. I would submit that the current trends in veterinary practice are likely to accelerate rapidly in response both to present levels of farm income and imminent changes in veterinary practice.\n\nIn this submission I have briefly covered the following areas:\nThe current provision of veterinary services and how they are financed.\nCurrent trends and their likely impact on veterinary services.\nThe effect of the reduction in large animal clinicians on health and welfare standards and on surveillance.\nThe feasibility of the Animal Health and Welfare Strategy.\nThe impact on the SVS.\nThe future and possible outcomes.\n\n\nThe current provision of veterinary services and how they are financed \n\nThe income for rural farm veterinary practice that provides the majority of veterinary services to the agricultural industry has traditionally come from 5 major areas. \nClinical services.(Examining and diagnosing individual animals, calvings, lambings individual surgery, routine fertility, dehorning and castrating. Traditional “On Farm” Professional Fee work)\nLVI income from DEFRA/MAFF in the eradication of Notifiable Disease: Tuberculosis, Brucellosis, Anthrax, etc. Many practices also were involved with Meat Hygiene and inspections at abattoirs.\n The dispensing of pharmaceuticals.\nThe provision of veterinary advice on farm management and welfare.\nThe majority of veterinary partnerships are mixed practices: a consideration must be given to the fact that small animal work makes up a variable proportion of the work and income to veterinary practice.\n\nIt is my opinion that clinical farm animal practice, the examining and diagnosing of individual animals is already uneconomic for both the veterinary surgeon and the farmer. It is only happening because of the cross subsidy of the professional fees by other income, and because of the good will of most farmers to give animals a chance.\nAs the harsh economics are coming home to vets and farmers this is rapidly becoming; with James Herriot, a part of rural history.\n\n\nCurrent trends and their likely impact on veterinary services\n\nWhat are the current trends within agriculture and veterinary practice and what effects will that have?\n\nBoth in agriculture and farm veterinary practice there are trends that can be identified, how fast, how far these trends will go is difficult to predict, but my own experience is that change when it comes, change is often slow at starting but then dramatic in its speed. The effect of decoupling and other EU decisions on agriculture are unknown but the current trends are likely to continue.\nIn agriculture farm size has to continue to grow. As farms make less and less per animal, they have to spread costs over larger and larger numbers. The individual value of each animal continues to drop in real terms, efficiency and mechanisation continues to increase. Chicken farms are now routinely 100,000 animals plus. Since foot and mouth disease the average dairy herd size has increased from 90 to 114 an increase of 20% which talking to many dairy farmers is only going to increase as more herds are going to be 300+ animals. These increases are usually with out an increase in labour on the farms. This means the care of individual animals is likely to be less important, but the care of the overall heath of the herd much more. \n\nIn veterinary practice  the major changes are likely to be from the Competition Inquiry in to the cost of pharmaceuticals. The subsidy of professional fees by sales of pharmaceuticals has been an increasing trend since the late 60’s. Then professional fees were subsidised by the large-scale eradication schemes by MAFF who paid very good fees to get the vets on the farm and  help eradicate the Notifiable Diseases. \nThe competition inquiry is recommending that pharmaceuticals be dispensed by pharmacies as well and that prescriptions be provided free of charge. Which private organisation is going to provide a service free of charge has yet to be ascertained, but the current level of income derived from pharmaceuticals is not going to be sustained. This inevitably means that the cross subsidy will disappear and farmers will have to pay the full cost of veterinary clinical service, and it will not be economic to do so.\n\nAt the same time the costs of providing veterinary services continues to rise.\nThe cost of veterinary time is continuing to rise. Students are now graduating with debts of £15-20K because of the loss of grants and payment of tuition fees. This means there will need to be a further raise of £2-3K per annum to pay veterinary assistants to match the status quo. Farm animal practice already  pays assistants less than companion animal practices despite offering a less favourable “On Call” rota.\n In the short term following FMD many practice principals worked additional On Call to make the rota acceptable to attract assistant vets. Where this is viable in the short term, in the long term it is not acceptable. As partners profit  becomes commensurate to the salaries they have to pay to veterinary assistants they will be aiming to increase charges for clinical work or look to other avenues for decreasing costs/increasing turnover.\n\n Providing an out of hours emergency cover is not economically practical for vets. (except in the big cities where practices join together to provide an emergency clinic.) Currently there is an RCVS obligation to provide 24hour cover, but the RCVS is not involved in the commercial pricing of services. \nAs the value of individual animals continues to drop in real terms then the cost of treating individual animals becomes less and less viable. Where there is no cross subsidy for out of hours work it will become untenable.\n\nAs many mixed practices have a dwindling farm animal side that is less financially attractive, many will decide to concentrate on the companion animal side of the business.\n\n\nIn a lot of mixed practices, it is a senior partner who will do the largest amount of the farm work. This means the younger vets will not have the case load to become experienced and confident in farm work. There is a cohort of practitioners in this situation heading towards retirement in the near future, will the practice continue to be involved with farm work?\n As fewer practices become involved with farm veterinary services, the cost of travel to the more distant farms has to rise beyond the already accelerated rate.\n\nAll this means that farm veterinary practices will lose income from clinical services and from pharmaceutical sales. They will have to move more towards the pig/ poultry model of providing veterinary advice and charging for it. \n\nVets have already moved out of nutritional advice leaving this field to nutritional experts. The reason for this is that most nutritional advice is provided “free” to the farmer by the firms who then put that cost into the feeds that are sold to the farmers. This cross subsidy of fees by sales is apparently acceptable where the subsidy of veterinary fees by pharmaceuticals is not.\nThis model is beginning to appear in other areas. Whereas vets provided most mastitis control, the dairies who buy the milk are now providing “free” or subsidised advice to farms on cell counts and high bacterial counts. (Including bacteriology with a variable back up and quality of advice)\nNMR and other recording agencies are already offering fertility information on their recording products, and it is a short step to actually providing the fertility work.\n \n\nI believe that these factors will contribute to a dramatic decrease in farm animal clinicians in the next 5 years.\n\n\nThe effect of the reduction in large animal clinicians on health and welfare standards and on surveillance.\n\nAs the number of clinical veterinarians reduces then there will be much less on farm surveillance. \nThis means that outbreaks of novel or unusual diseases is much less likely to be noticed or recorded at an early stage.\n The routine care for the animals will be done by stockmen under veterinary guidance. \nThe guidance will probably be by quarterly  or 6 monthly or annual  visits and by herd health plans.\n Individual animals are much more likely to be treated ad hoc by the stockmen, rather than by veterinary surgeons.  The quality of this treatment in some cases may be adequate but in most will be poor. The significance of symptoms or illness may not be appreciated. Diagnosis and treatment seen as a high cost and used as a last resort. Any outbreak of disease will be well developed and losses occurring before veterinary advice is sought. \n\nAs herd sizes increase and labour decreases, then the attention to individual animals must reduce, with a drop in welfare standards. \nIll animals are likely to be culled quicker, as limited manpower becomes more important. The use of vets as additional expert man power for calvings/ lambings will be seen as too expensive.\n\nThe demands of the system must mean that high heath status is important, with routine vaccination and herd health policies being put in place. \nDEFRA seems to set high regard to laboratory diagnosis results as a form of surveillance. Most of the common problems are diagnosed/treated with out the resort to laboratory aids. Fertility, lameness, mastitis, pneumonia, PGE, are rarely referred to the lab except where treatment is not working.  Most samples are taken/referred by vets in practice. Fewer vets would mean fewer samples.\nThe lack of veterinary advice to ill pigs and ill sheep on farms at Heddon-on–the-Wall shows how the lack of a clinical veterinary service can lead to in the terms of delay and spread of disease.\n The local knowledge of the current LVI system is an invaluable asset that is in danger of being thrown away. The idea that a farm is a box which can be assigned a number in Page Street and dealt with as a single entity is a problem that has still not been resolved. The complexity of many of the local farming links through trade, working together, machinery, shared grazing, fell rights, and family ties cannot be reduced to a computer screen on DCS.  \n\n\nThe feasibility of the Animal Health and Welfare Strategy.\n\nIn  my opinion they are not. I was hoping to cover this more fully but lack of time has prevented me.\n\nThe impact on the SVS.\n \nThe impact on the SVS is likely to be slow to be realised.\nThe SVS  is not known for its ability to meet challenges or streamline its systems.\nAs the number of vets involved in farm work decreases it will have to provide more of its own resources to tackle tasks currently done by LVIs. \nThe more flexible private practice takes up the challenge of getting backlogs in testing done and can respond to new challenges for example the licensing brought in during FMD. Private practice can fit the work around other duties. Whereas if it is going to be done by the SVS it will be more expensive to take on vets to do these tasks alone. \nThe SVS was notoriously unreliable in its work allocation during FMD, the record being sending 5 vets to the same farm on the same day has yet to be beaten!\n Though I hope it would be a lot better in normal circumstances, there are still problems with the allocation system that can only be put right by local knowledge.\n\n In areas where there are few farm animals there may well not be LVIs willing to carry out the routine testing for Notifiable Disease. Who is going to provide veterinary cover for these? Both for clinical caseload and for the LVI work. \n\n There will not be vets available to second to DEFRA for the next FMD or exotic disease outbreak. The contingency plan confidently states that resources for 20 TVIs are to be kept at each centre in case of an outbreak of Notifiable Disease, with out addressing where these will come from. There will not be 20 TVI’s available at short notice.  During March 2001 the majority of vets at the Carlisle DECC were LVI’s.\n\n\nThe future and possible outcomes.\n\nThe picture I have painted is what in my opinion will happen if the government allows the situation to develop.  I would hope that there would be some “joined up government” when decisions are to be made in response to the Competition Inquiry Report. \n\nThere are a mixture of outcomes that are possible:\nThe numbers of vets in farm animal practice will reduce. This can be minimised by maintaining the cross subsidy of professional fees for providing clinical services, either directly by DEFRA work in surveillance or other Notifiable Disease work and/or from pharmaceutical sales. (The option of increasing fees is not possible.)\nVeterinary services will be provided by other means. E.g. Vets working for feed firms/ Dairies/ manufactures/retailers to ensure a welfare/surveillance standard.; Consultancy firms providing fertility/mastitis/specialised advice.\nDEFRA/ Local Authority will have to provide vets for notifiable disease testing/surveillance tasks.\nDeveloping the French model of farm cooperatives employing vets for their own farms.\nThe pig/poultry model of regular advisory visits, but minimal involvement in the day to day running or with individual animals.\n\nOnly the first of these provides for the continuation of the successful LVI structure. The other outcomes mean a loss of clinical veterinary services.\nThe loss of clinical services means a drop in welfare standards and the loss of on farm surveillance.\n\n\nFarm veterinary services are in a transitional time facing economic challenges, changes in agriculture, increased regulation and increased competition for the pharmaceutical and services they provide.  There will be increased competition between practices as they try to meet the higher expectations of new veterinary graduates starting their careers, and providing a cost effective service to the rural community.\n\nBVM&S MRCVS\n\n\nBrief C-V\nCurrently a partner in one of the largest farm veterinary practices in Cumbria having spent 17 years in mixed rural practice. \nSpent 6 months on secondment to MAFF at the Carlisle DECC during FMD.\n\n\n Sat 26th April 2003\nHaving worked last night and done 2 caesaers and a calving on call, on top of a long week I was completely  washed out. Did Sat am surgery and a call then went home to bed . Knackered and fed up and deciding I did not want to spend my life like this.\nSunday\nA busy day On call but at least the calls did not stack up just kept coming in ones and twos so the stress levels were not to bad. But boyzo am I tired.\nMon\nThis is the beginning of D’s last week. He has worked out really well and I hope that he will be able to work here at the back end to help with the testing. He is easy going and has a good S African protestant work ethic, always happy to oblige and is good to work with. He is a good laugh too always teasing and playing silly jokes and has a great sense of humour.\nSpent most of the day on Catch up after the week end. Did some calls, and sorted car and drugs out and cleaned my kit. The slippage of cleanliness since FMD is very noticeable especially at the w/e’s. (But don’t tell DEFRA!!!)\nWent swimming at Foxes. Well to be honest sat in the Jacuzzi and talked. And then swam 2 lengths. I was too tired to do much really.\n I must start getting some proper exercise again or my back will suffer.\nTues \nI am really annoyed at Defra. I rang and asked what would be needed to put our vets on to Panel L which is what is needed to do the exports for Nestle and “Panel L, can just be added on as it is a simple export thing so it would take half an hour to do it.” This was last Friday by now it is we have to go for training by SVS. It should only take half an hour to through the forms….” Why can their yes not be yes, and their no be no???”\nSo we have to spend an afternoon going to Carlisle to got through meaningless forms, so that we can fill in meaning less forms so that Nestle can get th milk through customs. I am beginning to see why people just smuggle things rather than get involved in all this stupid bureaucracy.\nWeds\nWent on the Factory visit to Nestles today to have a look around so that we know the plant and can give them certification for the milk powder for export. The whole thing is ludicrous as dried milk powder is a sterile product. It has to be or else it goes off very quickly so why we have to certify that it has been pasteurised I don not know. But hey its money.\nThe size and quantity and the huge amount of machinery and very small number of people required to maintain and operate the plant was awesome.\nWe went to the distribution warehouse where there was just row upon row of pallets, 3-7 high full of dried milk or cappuccino drinks. Weird to think mast of the instant cappuccino is made in Dalston.\n Thursday\nWent for Panel L Training. It was as pointless as I thought it would be.\nTook the opportunity to go through with DEFRA admin staff some of the queries and problems. At the moment we do a lot of stuff for DEFRA telling them who has stock and who does not have stock to ensure their database is relatively up to date. But it is a headache as they are working off computer screens. Hence Mrs F R of A Farm does not correlate at all with Mr E R of the same address. The computer is not into relationships. So that they are married and live together and own stock on the same piece of ground does not really get off the ground.  \nThis evening was the final Partners meeting where I handed in my notice.\nThe reasons for handing in my notice are complex, most decisions probably are.\nThere are lots of factors some trivial to the outsider but important to me, others may be important to others and similarly not to me. \nSeveral people have asked is it a reaction to FMD. The last casualty. In some ways it is. For all the horrendous experiences, for all the long hours and difficult ethical and to whom am I responsible dilemmas. It taught me a lot about myself. To see fear in the eyes of senior management when challenged, to be able to organise a protest meeting of thirty vets with Jim Scudamore, to do the TV interviews, o see the effect of feeding information to journalists. To be able to break through by fast talking and relying on my wits. To organise completely new systems and manage projects that had never been done before, to build teams from international backgrounds in the face of opposition from the hierarchy, to be constantly caught on a tight rope between the different groupings. I learnt that I have huge abilities, and to go back to normality is difficult. \nThe future of farm animal practice is also very unpredictable. There are a lot of farms who are yet to restock, the cross subsidy of fees by drug sales is going to end, and more and more work will be on behalf or paid for by DEFRA. They are at the whims of the politicians and the treasury. They are also not the easiest client to deal with.\nThere is also the problem of being second in command and dealing with the frustrations of the partnership. We are not united in the way we work, or where we see the practice going. This means my schemes for diversification, for improving income streams, and managing the bad debt, will either not happen or will become part of my workload which is already over stretched.\nAdd in to this cock tail the fact my wife is starting to work, and I have been given a really bad scare by being tackled by a cow. \nThe question is do I want to do this job for the next 20 years the answer has to be no.\nSo the only answer is to hand in my resignation and start to look for something new.\nAs I have a 6 month notice period ending on an accounting date I have to jump before I have another job sorted out.\nEven so the decision was very hard and I was really choked up when I left them to discuss the future. I could not go home as the kids would want to know what was going on so I went to Js. He already knew. I will tell the kids on Friday the practice manager on Monday and work on Tuesday.\nI have said very little of my thoughts in the diary as I have learnt there are somethings better left unwritten until the time for the information to be public. Whatever issues are to do with confidentiality, if you don’t think something can be talked about, then do not write it down, as you never know who is going to read it.\nA though got her self in to a stew as I rang [wife] to say I was going to Js, she then said she would come out. She left a bit too hurriedly for A who then got it into her head that we had gone away on holiday with out telling them!!\nFriday\nThe whole day was “Unreal”. I knew I was going but no one else does.\nTold the Kids at tea time and I was shocked by how upset they were. It has come as a shock to them. Tim especially loves coming out and about around the farms with me. There is also no what I am going to, so it is just uncertainty.\nOn 2nd call\n\n\nSat 3rd May 2003\nWork then wash out. I was on second last night and had 2 Caesars and a calving…What??? The second Caesar was at 4am so I felt dreadful all day. [young vet] had started operating and got stuck so I went to the rescue. The cow had horrendous adhesions, so nothing could be moved around, we spent an hour and a half trying to pull the calf out and then stitching up the uterus in the cow. I felt I needed diving gear on as I had both arms in to their full length with [vet] beside me trying to stitch by feel. My arms were exhausted by the end of it.  I was like death warmed up all day. But feel I have definitely made the right decision.!!!\nSunday\nAfter a good Nights sleep feeling better. My mother always use to say that the world looks very different after a good nights sleep and a cooked breakfast. I DO NOT need a cooked breakfast. My stress levels have been that high that I have been eating far too much. I am going to go on a diet. The usual promise to myself. My weight is going up fast so I will have to cut down and start to exercise a lot more.\nWent to see the practice manager to tell him that I have handed in my notice. I have decided to see him on his own so that he has a chance to process it before work on Tuesday. He is overweight and stressed and that type to have a heart attack so treat him gently. He is also a good friend, so I should give him some warning. So I spent an hour chatting it through and talking which is a good a way as any of spending a Sunday afternoon.\nMon Bank holiday\n Another bank holiday working. But at least it is fairly quiet. So spent most of the day working in the garden. The kids were away in the morning doing various things and then met up for lunch with [friends] which was really nice. They had been down to visit family in the lake district. They had hired a couple of cottages for the w/e and all met up. [they] are really amazing people. They are both doctors and I went out to visit them in Thailand which was brilliant fun. He was working with leprosy and AIDS cases. They have come home and are sharing a GP’s job between them. [she] is also doing a diploma in diabetes. They are also doing deputation work to raise money for the work of OMF in Thailand and Asia. They have 4 kids, and it was really nice to see them all again. The kids are similar ages. I really felt for them because they have gone from home schooling to schools in Edinburgh in the big city. So they have the double culture shock of coming to the UK, and being schooled in a complete different way. They are also very bright kids and having had individual attention from a very focussed mother they are miles ahead of the rest of their classes. Yet they do not have the social skills to adapt to the rough and tumble of life in a city comprehensive. Mobile phones are not a must have item in rural Thailand!!\nGood to see them all.\nTuesday\nToday I announced the fact I was leaving to those at work. I had thought about how I should do it, and what I was to say. It is quite difficult both from an emotional point of view and from the fact that I think that the business in the longer term, will have problems. This has both a direct relevance for the lay staff and their jobs. Though there will still be a similar number needed as their workload is likely to remain the same. And also for the vets. Two of whom may or may not be approached to buy into the business. There will also in the longer term be a smaller number of vets needed but this will probably be managed by natural wastage.\nI spoke first to the senior assistants and then lay staff. It was hard as I have been there for as long as many of them 15 years. Which is a long time. I think also there is an attitude that the ups and downs seem to be past for them. There was a lot of upheaval over the move from B V up to S park, FMD is over, and things are suppose to be getting back on to an even keel. And I throw a spanner in the works.\nWeds\nSpent the evening Phoning friends and relatives to let them know that I had handed in my notice and sending off for job details on two jobs and applying for another. I am not sure what I am looking for so at the moment I am just sending off for anything that seems interesting and waiting and seeing. It seems an unreal situation in so many ways. \nI also had to phone the bank manager both to arrange our annual visit, and to tell him that I was leaving. Again getting the balance between moving on and being positive, with out pointing out the dangers in the future of large animal practice was a difficult balance. After the initial shock, all power to him as a salesman/banker he then asked whether I would be needing any banking requirements!! So at least if I do start up an independent vet/small business consultancy I will have a bank account to run it from.\nThursday\nA quit day as no testing so tackled some of the Back log in admin.\nSpent a lot of time setting up the systems and know how folder for Nestle. We have taken over the work for doing the LVI work for the Nestle factory at Dalston as they have fallen out with the previous practice. When we took it on I assumed it would be the odd bit of work but in fact it is a huge amount of work.\nSo it is going to take some sorting out. I also feel a bit off, as I have handed in my notice and yet I am setting all this up and I ma not going to benefit from it at all.\nI suppose it comes back to wanting to do what is right and that we should serve God and not man. It is always a useful measuring stick to use to work out motivations and what should be done in a situation. Who am I trying to do this for?.me?..the practice?..the client? or am I doing what Jesus would do.??\nFriday\nAnother bad hair day. Had real problems trying to fit the extra work into the day and so got a bit frayed around the edges. Fortunately next week will probably be the last thank goodness. The practice that used to do the nestle work was on the phone to me and not very friendly.\nHey ho.\nWent out for a meal with [friends] which was great. They are the church youth leaders and are really  switched on but I think need more support and help. Hopefully once the 1st of October hits I will be able to get more involved.\nWent to the Royal Oak at Welton which just has-been re done and is serving food on a proper basis as  well as having a pub part. More like a restaurant.\n[wife] ‘s food was excellent. Mine was Ok. I had an Indian trio of samosa, and 2 bharji to start with. I am afraid I have been spoilt by real Indian food so I should not have bothered going for it in a Cumbrian pub!!\n\n\nSaturday May 10th Saturday May 10th\nA day off after too many days working and too much stress.\nIt was really nice just to be around home doing the garden and not really worrying what else is going on in the world. I needed some space and I am pleased to have got it at long last. It is amazing how much better the world looks after a good nights sleep and a some time off.\nIn the afternoon the C boys came around and we took them to see  new chicks. S was there and I did not want to go down the route of explaining why I had made the decision I had to leave so chickened out of telling her.. I suppose I am happy with it and I just want to forget about for the w/e.\nSo we arrived with 7 boys which is quite brave. Fortunately we could not stay long as we had to be back to go out to Gianni’s with D. He took us out and it was really good fun. The kids were all in good form.\nCame back and watched the first part of a DVD on John Grisham’s book “The Client”.\nHe is an excellent writer and although film can never develop the characters the same as a book. So the film was good but only OK.\nSunday 11th\nChurch was good this morning and it was good to be there and spent ages chatting to folk . But came back to lunch with a couple who stayed too long!! There are some people I find really draining, and she is one. It is awful but I get really wound up and just want them to go after about 30 minutes. They came for lunch and did not leave until after tea so I was almost going spare…\nMonday 12th\nI find the silence around the fact I am going a bit unnerving. It is a bit elephant and coffee table really. A lot of the farmers I suppose don’t yet know or if they do how to respond. \nToday’s frustrations are all with things not working. BT have sent me a bill for £115 for fixing the line that was struck by lightening.  I was put through three depts before I gave up. I may try just not paying and see if they can register the fact the bill is being disputed.\nThe other frustration is the car doors have gone again in [wife]’s car which is incredibly frustrating. They have been fixed and fixed and fixed. Although it is under warranty I am getting to the stage that I feel we are being fobbed off.\nTues 13th\nI went to hear MG from the LICC (London Institute of Contemporary Christianity) speak at the Living Word. This is a series that happens every spring and is organised by a group of ministers and folk from Carlisle.\nHe is a very interesting speaker. He is an ex Ad man and his whole message is to get the “church” to look out side of it self. He thinks that Christianity in the west has become a “leisure time ” activity and is not impacting the rest of peoples lives. There is a concept of the sacred secular divide. The church does not get involved in secular things, work, culture, the arts, sport, and in some ways philosophy too. Whereas there should be no divide. Christ is either Lord of all, or not at all.\nHe also is a very amusing speaker. He was talking about how technology is usually neutral, but how it is used has very far reaching effects, on family, work and society. He used the microwave as an example. With a very amusing story about how he managed to save the sleep of the whole of North London by using the new fangled microwave to heat his daughter’s midnight bottle. Thereby saving the chancellor huge sums in lost revenue…with typical Jewish hyperbole.\nHe then moved on to his kids now teenagers, not coming in for the meal he has prepared but reheating it in the microwave, and how that led to a lack of communication, and again hyperbole to his angst about not understanding the younger generation. \nAs this is a diary about FMD how do I relate this to my experience of FMD??\nOn the simple level the culture within DEFRA needs to change.\nServant hood whether by Civil servants or politicians has been forgotten.\nTruth will out. Spin will fall.\nComputers should be a tool of all and master of none.\nOrganisations need to have a human face for people to relate to. Whether it is the Brigadier or the CVO.\nPeople are individuals created by God and have feelings and are not numbers or statistics.\nThe Post modernist human secularism where truth is relative. Where Brown can announce that everything is under control, can mislead Parliament and people and it is acceptable. I actually strongly feel that the current Presidential style of where no one can make a decision with out refer to their boss is a poor model.\nPain, disaster, illness and trouble are part of the human condition. \nPart of the fall. \nOf evil in the world.\nEnough philosophy its time for bed.\n\n\nMonday 17th May\nThis was the big Golden wedding Anniversary Day.\nIt was [wife]’s parents Golden wedding and her brothers and family all came to stay for the w/e. The celebration meal was at Lyzzick Hall in Keswick. The big surprise for [wife]’s Mum was that her bridesmaid and husband were coming over from Canada. J picked them up from the airport and took them to a B&B.\nOther friends were also coming as a surprise. \nRP started the surprises by coming in dressed as a waitress. She came in and offered [wife]’s Mum a drink and she was really overcome. The other surprises of bridesmaid and Canadians was really nice to see. \nThe younger parts of the clan went off to the climbing wall while the older part went for a look at the lake in the rain.\nIt was a really nice day ended by a firework display thanks to C. As he grew up in Belfast during the troubles and fireworks were banned he has a real passion for them now as a big kid!\nSunday\nWent to church with everyone, a very mixed group but they coped!\nP spoke in the morning meeting he was very good. He is a publisher and was talking about the church in China as he has just helped to publish a book about some of the Christian house church.\nIt makes the materialistic church in the west look very weak and un spiritual.\nIn the evening MM spoke on the Christian at work which was very good and very funny. He was a bed sales man when he was a student and he was very funny about how he made shy engaged couples lie down and try the beds. This really tickled [other son] (Age 8) much to his Gran’s tut-tutting!!!\nThe point he was making in between the jokes, was that he  had been told that he was to say that the bed s would all be delivered in 3-4 weeks, when in fact it could be up to 6 weeks but the shop keeper thought this would put people off. This meant that MM ended up in bother with couples arriving back from their honey moon to no bed! So he decided to listen to God’s way and tell the truth, which he said like most biblical teaching is obvious once it is explained, and tell people the truth not what they want to hear.\nMon\nWent and read the TB test for the tenant farmer. There was 1 I/R. The reaction of the farmer took me back fairly badly and I was quite shocked at the sheer vehemence of his reaction, fortunately it was mostly at DEFRA . He went out early on to the disease and he therefore got much lower compensation than a lot of the later ones. He had some cattle wintering at his farm for some one else who went out later on with FMD at his home holding. The difference in the valuations for the same type of cattle was horrendous.\nHe also has buildings that he owns on a small parcel of land. The buildings were old and knackered but usable. (A lot of string and gates.) DEFRA pulled them to pieces during FMD and then offered him peanuts o reinstate them, which meant he could not get them back into a usable state. So he is not a happy bunny.\nSpent the afternoon castrating horses which is not my favourite job. If a stirk kicks you, it hurts. If a horse kicks you, it usually means a trip in an ambulance. You are therefore very tense and ready to move in awkward positions.\nCanadians and [wife]’s parents headed off for a trip around the borders in our people carrier. They are coming back to swap over cars at the end of the week. [wife] has the tank to run around in for the week.\nTuesday\nMy back is twinging from the castrating and a calving yesterday and is really sore. So did paperwork while sitting like a ramrod until I gave up and came back to lie down. Did the back exercises hourly but it just got stiffer and sorer.\nWeds\nSpent morning reading in bed and doing back exercises but cannot get it moving.\nWent to see the accountant in the afternoon to sort out the practicalities of going freelance, and finishing at the vets.\nThursday\nBack is a lot better and starting to move much more freely. The first negative comment on me leaving today came from a farmer who has decided that the only way to make money is to go for 300 cows. He has therefore planned all this, designed new parlours, been to look at other large herds, thought it all through. Unfortunately his costings are on buying in dairy cows at £6-700 per head and just recently they have gone to over a thousand which means he is out by £60K, oops. But he said that he thought I was deserting them. In a way I suppose I am.\nBack in to being On Call with a vengeance. A calving, a caesar, a prolapsed uterus, hey ho.\nFriday\nInteresting statistic on the radio, whether it is right or wrong I do not know. In the EU the average beef cow is subsidised to the tune of $2 per week, the average African earns less than that. \nThe Canadians and [wife] s parents arrived back from their trip around the borders. The good news is they baby sat (or teenage and child minded) while we went out to the Lemon lounge, the bad news is they are to feed and look after over the W/e. My brother and family arrive tomorrow, so it will be a bit crowded.\nIt was really nice to be out on our own with relative peace around us. The noise from an office party does not impinge as it is nothing to do with us.\n\n\nSaturday 31st May 2003\nA gardening day. \nWe decided that we would have to get the place sorted out so spent most of the day in the sunshine pulling weeds and sorting out the garden. It was a beautiful day. My back was pretty sore by the end of the day but we got it nearly all sorted which was good.\nThe boys cut the lawn and A sat on it and read her book.\nAnother BBQ by the end of the day, A made the salads, while the boys cooked so it was a family meal.\n[wife] and the older two headed for Tesco’s while I cleared the debris away.\nSunday June 1st\nThe sun is still flaming but the seeds and seedlings are looking a bit sad and whithered in spite of the watering. \nI have really enjoyed the week off but there has been very little on FMD.\nMet up with [friends] at church, home visiting parents.\n In the evening caught up with the As. He is an Indian gastro enterologist who worked at Carlisle. They now work in Bombay so it was good to see them.\nThey are hoping to set up an AIDS hospice. There are currently over a million people who are HIV +ve in Bombay.\nMonday\nBack to work and quite busy so it looks as if the June quiet period is not going to materialise. With folk on holiday it makes it seem busier any way.\nIt took me until 4pm to get to my in tray which after a week was overflowing as usual.\nTuesday\nThis is more like June. Long lunch and spent the morning trying to get the accountancy package up to date.\nSent off another speculative e mail job application. A friend from church who is now studying physio therapy at Glasgow came and insisted [wife] & I went out for a walk together which was really nice. He is a really nice young guy.\nWent to beach at Beckfoot where we were the only ones walking the beach. There was one serious kiter. I have not seen such a serious kite for a long time. It was fairly windy and he had it anchored behind him so as not to be taking off with it!!\nWeds\nSpent the morning doing fertilities and then spent time sorting out issues with George. There was so little work it is boring for the assistants.  The June quiet patch ahs arrived. The bills did not go due to a computer upgrade cocking the system up. The systems are now so complex they are beyond any reasonable way of keeping tabs, you have to trust the experts who you don’t!!\nThursday\nDay off spent it writing out a business proposal to try and get work via a consultancy firm. Then tried fixing the extractor fan and failed. \nThursby football club is going really well with some more lads coming along. The standard is variable but good fun.\nFriday\nTB testing again at Fs. They had just heard about me leaving and were full of questions. The night was really busy. On first call and had lots going on. [wife] was at a retreat, thinking through the future and reporting on the last year. So I was trying  to juggle kids as well.\n\n\nSaturday 7th June 2003\nLast night was terrible with a dog to see in the middle of the night and put down. It was only a young dog but it had leukaemia and was not responding to treatment. It had colic probably from the mesenteric Lymph nodes and was rolling around in pain. Not nice for them or me.\nSat am was busy too. Went to one of the organic farms to see an ill cow post calving. He was saying that there are three farmers, all none FMD giving up milking. One is another organic dairy farm. He was promised a premium of 10p per litre and his costings were based on 28p per litre. He is getting a premium of less than 0.5p per litre which takes it to 16p. The figures do not add up so he is giving up. The other 2 are small farms who cannot make it work. 40-50 cows.\nSlept in the afternoon and went to a party in the evening. Bizarrely as we were walking in the people whose dog I put to sleep last night walked in as well!! \nThey live next door and had been invited as well.\nWeird.\nSpent time chatting but came to 10 and I was dead on my feet.\nSunday 8th\nThe On call changes from  2nd (Back up) to 1st at 8:30 am. The phone started at 8:35…. Urghhh. I am finding it very hard to have any enthusiasm knowing that I ma leaving in a few months.\nOne of the farms I was on has given up dairy and were hoping to retire FMD year but lost money because of all the restrictions. So they are now hoping to finish this back end, may be. They were hoping to keep the Milk quota and lease it out as a pension but because of the new rules they will have to sell it and the price is low, as there are a lot of non producers who are in the same boat. It was at its height worth £1 per litre, a lot was bought and sold in the 40-60p per litre, it is now around the 10p mark. Funny world agriculture.\nMonday 9th \nCalving at 5am followed by other calls so an early start. Busy day at work \nWent to a meeting for the new Crusaders support worker. It is supposed to be county wide but is going to be based around Kendal, as that is where the legacy that is providing a lot of the money is based so it is less relevant tot this end of Cumbria. So I have backed out of the organisation committee, as most of the meetings will be at Rydal. Too far for me. We were there tonight, so did not get back until 11:30 which after a w/e on call is too late for this bunny.\nTuesday 10th\nSpent 45 mins on the phone trying to work out what I am going to be doing in Oct  with a guy from Pfizer. I then had to spend the rest of the evening sorting out the emails I needed to send to him.\nWeds 11th\nSpent the morning having nursery visits where the local infants schools come around the vets and I give my wee guided tour. It is quite fun and the little things that we do they really love; Blowing up the anaesthetic bag; The X ray quiz and listening to dog’s hearts.\nI always take some of [son]’s chickens in, as well, as most kids are not use to having Birds or handling them. [son] has spent so many hours carrying them around they are fairly tame and used to being picked up.\nI don’t know that effort pays back in commercial terms but it is fun.\nFootball training in the evening with 20 lads which was brilliant.\nThursday 12th\nOn call and exhausted after the excitement of the week. The phone went at 7pm from the answering service to say that a women had rung and asked for the pass word for the alarm. This of course meant nothing to those answering the phone. I however put 2 + 2 together to work out that the alarm at the practice and gone off and that the police would be on their way. Why does this always happen when you are in the bath. So I jumped out the bath and rushed down to find out what was going on. There was a police man there who was waiting for me to lead the way in! We found a very scared dog sitting in the prep room, having escaped from its kennel.!!!\nIt then took an hour to get the alarms reset.\nLife is a rich tapestry.\nFriday 13th\nWent to lawyers today to meet up to go through the dissolution of the partnership. Bit sad in a way, but another nail bashed in to my leaving coffin!\nFinished work and spent evening playing football and doing some coaching, which was good fun. [son] was off school today. He was full of cold and just exhausted. He just needed time out really. He goes at everything at 110%.\n\n\nSaturday 14th June 2003\nWorking am. Why is it even if you have a few quiet days in the week by the time the w/e comes it is busy again?? \nReally warm so sunshine and gardening. A had decided she was going to do a changing rooms on the double room in  the cottage, so she and a friend worked away all day at it. I was very impressed by the time we had finished our barbeque in the evening it was all back to ship shape and was finished. She is some pup.\nSunday \nWent down to Whitehaven to see the tall ships in the harbour. There was only one there which was disappointing but it was good to look around. There was a fair buzz about the place and heaving with people as the weather was great.  There was a display of Jet Ski’s which was fun to watch so the boys are now on at me to try and have a go.\nThe red arrows were brilliant. They have a tremendous display and the coloured streams they leave behind in the sky always amaze me. It is almost like they are writing in the sky.\nMonday\nFinally decided the Duck eggs were not going to hatch so broke them open to see if they were fertile. 1 exploded it was so rotten. Urghh!! Only one had a half formed egg in it. So I think the eggs were the problem not the incubation.\nTuesday\nTesting some more I/R’s for TB. Though the history is wrong, so I hope that they will clear. A new vet student turned up in the afternoon. She is staying with us until the w/e. Then with [colleague]. The vets is going to have to find new accommodation for students. Went to the Training evening for the soccer coaching. It was a form filling exercise and orientation so it was boring. But I am on the course which is good. At least I well have the piece of paper at the end of it.\nWeds\nFootie training at night. Only the hard core turned up, so looks like we will have a good group of 14-15 which means we will not have to choose and disappoint. Went for a run afterwards as feeling in need of exercise as not much large animal work at the moment means I am sitting around on the computer for a lot of the day which is sad. Must get fit is a constant resolution.\nSpent the evening up at Sandal watching the sun go down away from the phone and chaos at home.\nThursday. \nI was at work when I had a phone call from some one who had apparently run over [son] at school. Never an easy phone call to take, espy as she did not know what had happened. Fortunately he was OK.  He had been walking backwards and had stepped into the path of a car which had caught his heel. The damage was slight but it had upset him. \nThe school exit is appalling and needs sorted as busses, cars and bikes all share the same area as the kids walking. Inevitably kids are jostling and messing around so it is an accident waiting to happen.\nFriday\nHalf day as [wife] is starting her next w/e counselling course \nCould not really get going as a calving early this am, and a call late last night.\nSo having run on adrenalin for all the week I collapse in to a heap and find it hard to get going and get motivated. Spent the afternoon getting organised for the visitors arriving as [friends] are coming and [friend] who was our bridesmaid is coming across for the w/e.\n\n\nSaturday 21st June 2003\n Pay day. I don’t really know why it always sticks in my mind but at the moment with the 1st of October looming and the fact that the 21st will not be a pay day it is becoming a bit scary!!\nSpent morning on run around and house jobs, ferrying to and from squash.\nWent to town in pm with A & [son] having left off the younger ones at Cottinghams and spent a pleasant half hour in Ottakars. Even they were running low on THE book. The latest Harry Potter which I had meant to order via internet but had not quite got around to.\nThe statistic is that she is expected to sell 6 every second over the w/e. She makes £1 per book which means £360 per minute,  £21,600 per hour (not a bad hourly rate!) or just over a million quid for the w/e. As every other person on the tills was buying a copy, I can well believe it.\nSun 22nd \nChurch in the morning was joint communion and was lead by the Denton Holm house group. The church meets up in small groups mid week to pray and study bible, and the Denton Holme grp lead the service, it means you get a refreshingly different type of service with different people taking part and leading. It was good. Followed by a picnic in the park which was OK but I just wanted to fall asleep in the sunshine. I am suffering from stopping syndrome. I can keep going on the adrenalin but when I stop, thump, I fall asleep and can not get going.\nPicked up Liz from church in the evening. Having left youngest two at home as [wife] was late back from her course. Thank goodness for mobile phones, or rather at least they manage to make a complex life possible. Really I should have let her pick up [friend] and missed church and upset A by telling her she couldn’t go. But it all worked out in the end.\nMon 23rd\n[friend] arrived at some terrible hour, she finally left Bristol after 8pm after meaning to leave at lunchtime. So as [wife] and I were exhausted we did not get up to welcome her! \nWork is really quiet with very little happening.\n[son] is in a strop cos we will not let him go sailing after cricket after school as he will be exhausted. He takes after  us, if there is a possibility, we try to achieve it. Our own fault really, but it is weird how you see your own faults coming through in your children.\nTues 24th\nSpent the day talking to people on the phone trying to get funding for the research project, have a few leads and ideas to get together, so should be interesting to see if it comes together.\nWeds 25th\nStarted at 4am with a caesarean which was really nice as that time in the morning is beautiful. It is just a shame that the rest of the day is a bit of a wash out because of it. Went at night to the FA training course which was class room based on a warm sunny evening and I was struggling to stay with it. I have also decided that I need to get fit as the practical day is going to be very long for my unfit legs.\nThursday\nThe electrician arrived to sort out the electrics in the bathroom, which are still not right. The lights keep fusing and the fan will not work. I had a look at the wiring which is a mess and decided I could not follow it, and after my last experience I decided I would just pay him to keep him in a job.\nI had a very enjoyable day off, played [son] at squash and lost. Now not only is he better than me at football but squash a swell. All down hill from here on in.\nWent to church in the evening as RW was speaking. It was interesting to hear him, though was more a chat than a biblical exposition.\nFriday.\nThe email from the verse of the day seems to sum up a years worth of diaries\nWhen times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider:\nGod has made the one as well as the other. \nTherefore, a man cannot discover anything about his future.\n\nEcclesiastes 7:14, New International Version\n\nThe future is uncertain, I will leave my job in a few months time for a new start. The pressures of FMD seem to be distant in the warm summer weather and in the quiet workload making me feel rested and relaxed.\nThe challenges both for agriculture, the veterinary practice and for policymakers are still very large. \nThere is now a threat of bio terrorism to add to the food scares and the threat of exotic disease. \nLife carries on, we may not learn from all our mistakes, and government depts are a blunt, slow awkward machine, but the cows will still need to be milked and we will still need food on our table. If in ’68 you told some one that we had not had an outbreak of FMD for 35 years, they would have said “well done”. If you had said 2 men were milking 300 cows on a Cumbrian farm, and getting 7000 litres per cow he would never have believed you.  \n\nThere is a time for everything,\nAnd a season for every activity under the heaven.\n\nA time to be born and a time to die\nA time to plant and a time to uproot\nA time to kill and a time to heal\nA time to tear down and a time to build\nA time to weep and a time to laugh\nA time to mourn and a time to dance\nA time to scatter stones and a time to gather them\nA time to embrace and a time to refrain\nA time to search and a time to give up\nA time to keep and a time to throw away\nA time to tear and a time to mend\n A time to be silent and a time to speak\nA time to love and a time to hate\nA time for war and a time for peace.\n
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1981\nGender: F\nOccupation: Group 5\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\nPaper diary has lots of newspaper cuttings and other related material.\n\nWeek beginning 25th February 2002\nAfter the snow, which fell at the weekend, melted combined with the additional rainfall, many of the fields surrounding the village, as well as the roads, were flooded.  Usually this wouldn't concern you much, however, with the burial site being so close and the number of underground streams in the area, it does become worrying.  There isn't any guarantee that groundwater in the surrounding area won't become effected and to what extent.  There seem to be a number of aspects to me concerning this issue which remain unclear.  For example, what exactly can be carried in water and how might this effect people in the area? ; What is being tested for in the surrounding streams? what exactly is classed as a danger?; and if problems did arise, how would they be monitored and resolved.  All these issues do tend to make you anxious.\nIn particular on Monday, when I was out walking my dog  I noticed a couple of drains which I passed looked as if they were blocked and there was a lot of water around.  It just makes you wonder how much has come possibly from the burial site and if it is actually safe.\nMy worries on Monday about the groundwater were even more emphasised by the statement I heard on the Border News on Tuesday, by the Environment Agency.  This statement was concerning the future safety of the groundwater in the area around the burial site.  The Agency could give no guarantee that the groundwater would not become affected in the future.  Since then I have heard no further news about the issue.  There may be more information on news reports I missed. In my opinion not enough information is given to the public about these issues.  Results of testing by the Environment Agency are meant to be available to the public, however, I have never heard much about the details.  I think more effort should be made to inform, in particular, resident near burial sites as these issues are bound to be important to them.\nAfter hearing the news, I did become more worried but at the end of the day there is little we can really do ourselves.  You find yourself having to trust people or agencies you know little about and just hoping everything will be alright.\nOn Tuesday, also noticed a horrible smell outside, so did my fiancé, but again you can't be sure exactly where this is coming from or what is causing it?\n\nOn Thursday, with news of possible Foot and Mouth case further south near Leeds, I became very worried that this whole thing was going to start all over again!  My worries were about the farmers and people involved and how they would be affected; if other cases could be identified and in particular, affecting my own life, if animals would have to be slaughtered again in the future, where would they be disposed of? Would existing burial sites be reopened as opposed to finding suitable sites for new burial sites.  It would seem easier to reopen burial sites but what would this mean for the future and to what extent would the health risks be increased?\nI was very relieved to hear the testing of the foot and mouth cases came back negative.  I was relieved for the people involved, and also residents near burial sites.  However, this did raise questions in my mind of how this sort of situation would be handled in the future and what consequences it might have? \n\nWeek 2 – 4th March\nOn Monday passed driving test and now fiancé and myself are insured on a small car.  This opens up so many opportunities and we have a huge sense of freedom.  Last summer we had planned to go on a camping holiday with our dog [dog].  We had al our equipment prepared but were unable to go due to the foot and mouth outbreak.  Neither of us imagined how long and widespread the outbreak would be And Thought at first it would be over in a few weeks.  Now a year later we are able to replan our holiday.  This is exciting as we have waited so long.  It is unbelievable to think how long it has taken for restrictions on the countryside to return to as normal as can be possible, due to the circumstances.  For the actual people directly involved in the foot and mouth crisis this must have seemed like far longer!\nOn Tuesday I had a lovely surprise when I noticed the lambs in a field near my house when out walking my dog.  It was lovely to see and for a few minutes things almost seemed normal again.  Even though the burial site is only about a mile away, it is hidden from view from the village, you never forget though as soon as you spot the windmills and remember the repeated pictures featured in the news.\nSeeing the lambs really did lift my spirits and the future after foot and mouth didn’t seem as bad as  thought the week before.\nI can’t recall the exact days but they were towards the beginning of the week.  On two particular occasions my fiance and I noticed a terrible smell outside.  We aren’t sure exactly what the smell was, just that it was very unpleasant!\nThe only other incident which I can recall which stands out in my mind this past week is a conversation I had with my fiancé’s Granddad.  We were talking about how bad last year’s Foot and Mouth outbreak had been and he recalled the outbreak of 1967.  He commented on how he thought that outbreak had been far better controlled.  It was better as the animals were killed and buried on the actual farms in lime.  There was no transporting dead or live animals like last year.  He also commented on the fact that there were no pyres then and that he hadn’t thought it a good idea last year.  Overall he thought that last year’s outbreak could have been dealt with better and that action was taken far too late to prevent the disease spreading.\n\nWeek 3 – 11th March\nOne new thing I have noticed this week is the amount of birds there are flying around, especially black crows.  I think it is because I have been driving and every time I drive past the fields at the south end of the village, there are large amounts of crows hustled together. Can never remember it being quite like that last summer.  It makes you wonder why so many are drawn to just those fields.  As I drive past in the next few weeks I will see if it is still the same.\nOn about occasions this week fiancé and I have noticed a slight smell outside again.  Not as  foul smelling but still noticeable.\nOn Tuesday, saw new series featured on ITV called Rural Lives.  I think this is a good idea as the issue of foot and mouth is still very painful to a lot of people and is not over yet.  The effects are still happening however, on the news and in other media, it isn’t often mentioned and doesn’t get the attention it deserves.\nHopefully through programmes like this people will get a better understanding of the issues involved and what different people went through.\nIf an outbreak ever happened again, all the people involved would hopefully have a better idea of how to handle the actual crisis and a better idea of people’s needs for example, the farmers.  These are long term effects which can’t be ignored.\nMy Mum came out for a couple of nights. She loves coming out to see us as she lives in Carlisle it is a total change of scenery. She thought it was great and enjoyed taking my dog on long walks which she was unable to do for a long time..  We went to see the lambs in the lovely weather – shows we are able to start enjoying the countryside again, especially coming up to Spring and Summer.\nWe were even able to go to Dalston with my dog and wander about.  We have been so used to having to stick t the roads just in the local area.  It was lovely, a nice change!\nIt does tend to make you more confident about the coming year and we are looking forward to the Summer!\n\nWeek 4 – 18th March \nThis past week started of with a day out at Bowness.  I went with my fiancé and took our dog, [dog].  It was lovely to let her off the lead to run, she really enjoys it and got absolutely filthy.  Travelling in the car is becoming easier for [dog] and she goes crazy when you arrive.  We have only had [dog] just over 2 years and for the past year we couldn’t let her off the lead to run anywhere.  We are tiring t train her again, she listens to a certain extent, but we have to keep an eye on her cheeky side.  I remember wondering when the foot and mouth started how we were going to exercise [dog], as walking her on the roads used to be more difficult due to the large vehicles travelling up and down and also the fact [dog] isn’t the best on the lead.  She used to be really energetic  and a bit of a handful, however now she has got  used to a more relaxed life and at times I think she quite likes it.  It did us all good to have some exercise and fresh air and it was lovely to have a change of scenery. \nApart from on Monday, I haven’t really been anywhere else (apart from shopping) and have been busy doing my A-level work.  Therefore I haven’t really noticed anything different this week and haven’t thought about foot and mouth as much.\nMy overall view this week has been quite confident and there has been no real significant happenings to change my view.  Quite a good week overall!\n\n\n\nWeek 5 – 25th March\nFirstly I received the Newsletter sent out to the Standing panel.  It was a relief to finally get some information regarding the burial site.  It was good to have an explanation on how things work on the site in terms that we can understand.  It is a relief to know that everything so far is still safe, however, it is evident that there is much more work and monitoring to be carried out in the future.  Even though it is still not possible to do anything ourselves, our minds are at least put at rest by knowing something.  It surprises me how long it has taken for information like this to be made accessible to the public.  I think this newsletter is a very good step forward as information is reaching the public and participants are also given the opportunity to ask questions and put other ideas forward.\nOn Wednesday, My Mum came out again to see us.  Once again, we took a walk to go see the lambs in the field near us.  It was enjoyable and we had lovely weather!  It makes you realise how much you take for granted around you without thinking twice!  My Mum has made me realise this even more by seeing how much she enjoys such a simple thing and how special she thinks it is!  Sometimes I think when you are surrounded by the country and nature all the time you forget how lucky you are!  My Mum and Gran would both love to live somewhere like here!\nThe biggest surprise this week was when I received the parish magazine for the month and found in it the “Watchtree News”.  This is the first time I have ever seen anything like this from the parish council.  I think it is a very good idea as the information will be accessible to everyone in the appropriate parishes. Even though it is long overdue it is very worthwhile and I think, will be very informative.  It covers a wide range of issues, the majority of which I knew very little about and wouldn’t have known for the future for example, the maintenance going to be carried out between the A595 Orton Grange junction and the site entrance.  At least we now have knowledge of this before it is going to be carried out as it will affect other members of our family who live on the Orton Grange junction, who would otherwise have had no idea.  Some of the information was surprising, for example the number of tankers that leave the site everyday which I didn’t expect to be so high and which could rise.\nImportant issues are also now being tackled such as the bad state of the local roads. The affected people are also being encouraged to report these things themselves to the appropriate people.\nI think this has been a significant development and will be very useful in the aftermath of foot and mouth.  Communication between the appropriate authorities and the public is essential! \n\n\nWeek 6  1st April\nUnfortunately it has been all go this week!  One bit of work after another!  I haven't had time to focus on very much else this past week. Despite this fact, I have still had quite a positive week. It is better studying out here as there are few distractions and everything is lovely and peaceful - a drastic difference from last year.  At that time it was difficult to concentrate on anything for too long!  Far too many distractions!\nMy fiancé however has been up to the burial site and nearby on Sunday. He went for a drive with a friend and wondered what it looked like up there.  We have only ever seen it on television reports, but never been up there ourselves.\nIn a future diary when he has time, he will write a few words on what he thought! \n\n\n\nWeek 7  8th April\nOnce again this week has been full of work!  I haven't had much time to do anything apart from work.  ON Thursday I had a break and my Mom came out for a BBQ.  For the first time this year, we have put out our patio tables and chairs as the weather was staying pleasant.  We sat out for a while in the evening and had our BBQ.  It was a lovely break for my Mom as there is peace and quiet out here as opposed to in town.  We all really enjoyed it!\nMy Mom and [fiance] both commented how lovely it was to sit outside in the nice weather, without a nasty smell about.  Over the past couple of weeks I haven't noticed things smelling so bad as on a few occasions recently.  There has also been a decrease in the amount of birds, in particular crows which have been in the fields to the south of where we are near the crossroads.  On the couple of occasions during the week when I have been past the fields there have only been a couple of birds flying around as opposed to a whole field full of crows at one time.\nIt was also lovely to hear the sheep, especially as the evening became darker.  In the background, you could hear the sheep, just in the field next to us and also the lambs a few fields away.  It was something which we still aren't quite used to, but which we appreciate so much more now!!\n\n\nWeek 8 15th April\nI was feeling quite confident this week until Friday when watch the news. I saw the report on new Bovine TB cases which are worrying.  Even though it is said it wouldn’t be as serious as foot and mouth it is still worrying as it has the potential to destroy many more lives and bankrupt more farmers who have probably just got over foot and mouth!  The worry must be especially bad for the farmers, as it is bad enough for the general public especially after seeing the damage caused by foot and mouth in such a short space of time. It would be absolutely terrible if this summer was anything like last summer.  How long would it take for everything to get back to normal then?\nEven though foot and mouth is evidently far different to Bovine TB hopefully things will have been learned from last year which will prevent this from becoming a disaster too!\nApart from that other aspects of the foot and mouth, smell etc, haven’t been as bad this past week. I haven’t noticed any particular occasions  when the smell has been particularly bad or noticeable.  In addition, on the occasions when I have driven past the fields near the crossroads there have been hardly any crows near there, which is a huge improvement!  There were a number of seagulls in one field but nowhere   near the amount of crows there were before.\nThere has also been a decrease in the amount of tankers going by recently, that I have noticed.  At first I didn’t take much notice of it but then [fiancé]’s Grandad mentioned that he had hardly seen any.  He seems to notice them move more than we do as he lives on the Orton Grange junction with Wigton road  and they all have to go past there!\nWith all these things happening the presence of the burial site nearby seems less obvious!\n\n\nWeek 9 – 22nd April\nThe last week has been quite a pleasant week, probably because I have eventually finished my coursework and have been able to have a bit of peace and quiet!  I think this combined with periods of lovely weather have made me feel quite good.\nOn Tuesday, when I travelled to town and back I went past the fields near the crossroads to the south of the village which in the past have been full of crows or seagulls. As I have noticed on other odd occasions over the past week, they appear to be empty now.  I’ll keep an eye on how this changes over the summer if it does.\nOn Friday, I noticed that there were a number of cattle and calves in the field just opposite our house. I can stand and watch them from my back patio doors which is lovely.  With the reintroduction of the sheep and cattle in the area, it is like everything is coming together finally after the foot and mouth, and life is returning to normal in some sense. The cattle seem to be the last part needed for everything to seem to be running properly and the animals finally moving about at last. \nI think this fact combine with their being no significant incidents of nasty smells or the rumbling of the tankers going by, has made things seem better.\nWhen talking to [fiance]’s Grandad, he mentioned again that there still haven’t been as many tankers going past his house at Orton Grange as there have been.    This past week there have been hardly any reminders of the burial site and the past foot and mouth problems.  Living in the country has seemed quite normal after what seems a long time!\n\nWeek 10  29th April\nAll in all this week has been a good week overall!  With regard to the foot and mouth everything seems to have quietened down and there are hardly any visible reminders of the burial site and foot and mouth around the village.  As I mentioned last week, there still haven’t been any noticeable occasions of smells, possibly from the burial site; the tankers have hardly been noticeable around the village and the fields near the crossroads have still been fairly empty of birds, in particular crows.\nThis was explained and backed up in the Watchtree Newsletter in the parish magazines which I received this week.  It was good to read and very informative – worth reading.  I still think it is a good idea and is being done well as it discusses issues happening now and also keeps you informed about action in the future.  The newsletter mentioned the reduction in the amount of tankers which I have noticed.  It also mentions that there might be a slight smell from the burial sited during work but so far I haven’t noticed anything.  Once again it has been lovely seeing both the sheep and the cows in the surrounding fields especially at the moment when they are with their young.\nOn Saturday on the way down to [fiance]’s Grandad there were road works near the Baldwinholme bend in the road.  This part was in a bad condition and is now much better!  I think the damage was caused by the trucks etc used during foot and mouth.  However I’m not sure!\n\nWeek 11 6th May\nThis week has been my 21st Birthday!  I’m growing up!  I had a lovely day on Thursday and as a surprise I was taken t the Lake District for the day.  It was lovely and I really enjoyed it!  Firstly we stopped off at Bassenthwaite lake for a bit, fed the ducks and had a picnic.  Then off to Dodd Wood for a coffee and to see the Ospreys.  It was great to see them and I think we were quite lucky.  Then we had a pleasant walk around Myre House.\nI was reminded of how lucky we are in Cumbria to have such lovely places and I am glad that we are now able to go to these places again.  Now we’ve got a car we are going to take better advantage of Cumbria and what it has to offer.  Once again I realised how much we take what we have for granted.\nOverall this has been a good week and reminders of foot and mouth and the burial site have been minimal.  There have been no smells I have noticed, and hardly any signs of wagons.  It is still lovely to see the sheep and cattle around the village!\n\nWeek 12 – 13th May\nOn Wednesday I met my Mum in town and got the Cumberland News off her.  I was reading about the County Council Inquiry at Kendal.  I think it is good how the different people involved in the inquiry are all being honest about what happened.  That is the only way anything will be improved in the future if anything of a similar nature should happen again.  I really hope it doesn’t.  From reading the articles written and what people have said, it is clear what a wide range of people the foot and mouth crisis affected and also how badly.  When you read of other people who have had family who have been so low it has driven them to suicide you do seem to feel a bit guilty as when we complain, it hasn’t affected us is such a drastic way.  It brings the seriousness and the extent of the crisis to people’s attention.  Despite the terrible things which took place during the crisis hopefully some good will come out of it for the present and the future.\nOn Thursday [fiance] went to the doctor’s and was talking to a farmer in the waiting room.  As soon as [fiance] mentioned he lived in Great Orton, the farmer asked straight away what it was like to live here so near to the burial site and how he couldn’t imagine what it would have been like.  It too has been such a long time since anyone has said anything like that to either one of us.  At the time of the foot and mouth crisis people used to ask questions and what it was like to live so near.  It is strange when farmers in particular, feel sympathy towards you for living near the burial site, when on the other hand it is the farmers I feel sympathy for.\nBefore the foot and mouth crisis a fair number of people even from Carlisle didn’t know where Great Orton was’ but now many do and realise how close to Carlisle it actually is!  \n\n\n\nWeek 13 - 20th  May\nI haven't really done anything very exciting this past week, unfortunately, I've been revising again and preparing for a presentation for my A-level which I have to do next week.  My presentation was on 'turrets and watchtowers' which I found a bit confusing at first from the books I've been using so dragged [fiance] (to drive) and [dog] out past Brampton to Hadrian's Wall.  There I found a watchtower and a turret - everything became much clearer!  On the way back we spotted a sign for a camping barn on Hadrian's Wall (Banks East).  We were both very interested so sent away for the brochure.  At this point we decided to reconsider our holiday plans, and realised we didn't need to go far afield, like Amsterdam (our 1st choice); then Scotland (2nd choice).  We hadn't realised actually how many places there were so nearby which were ideal.  We came to the conclusion a holiday in Cumbria would be the best choice as 1. We could take [dog] with us; 2 we could go by car and 3 it would be a bit cheaper.  As [fiance] mentioned, it would also be good after everything to put the money we were spending back into Cumbria.\nWe were hoping to go next week as it is half term the week after and my exams after that!  Hopefully we will get something organised!\nOn Thursday we got the Orton newsletter. [fiance] and I were both quite disappointed when we read that land around this area are being sold for the building of houses. It is good in a way as people are moving forward after F&M but we wish it wasn't in a residential sense.  It is just a pity so much of the farming will be lost (6 houses at Baldwinholme, 4 in Great Orton).  Even though I haven't been brought up with a farming background from what I have seen it would be a pity for us to lose this part of our countryside.\n\n\nWeek 14 - 27th  May\nOn Monday saw CB and was pleased to hear the F&M standing panel project was going well as I think it’s worthwhile and as much as possible should be learned for the future.\nOn Tuesday I attended the meeting for the foot and mouth disease inquiry at Great Orton village hall at 7pm.  I was glad I attended the meeting as people could voice their opinions and try to get information about issues, both about the present and the future.  My general view of the meeting and how it went was that the general feeling of the villagers etc. was that they were losing interest and nothing was still being done. There were many empty seats, I estimated a total number of 50-60 people. There was a whole new panel of faces, even though this was a new inquiry so there were new people on  the panel but between the meetings there is no feel of continuity as no-one is sure of what has been said before and there are never the answers promised from one meeting to another.  It seems as if this is a way of avoiding answers and getting out of situations.\nThere were new aspects which were brought up which had not yet been disclosed (never at any meeting I have attended) such as the fact the burial was planned and used for the burial of uninfected animals, which is not what we were led to believe with al the engineering on site – again this is lack of communication and no-one is sure of the facts.  DEFRA also are only guaranteeing funding for this site for the next 5 years and it is worrying who’s burden this will become after then.?\nA variety of other issues were discussed – health, roads, handling of outbreak, vaccination etc.\nAfter the meeting I was glad I had been, however I felt rather angry by the way in which the questions are handled.  The answers are often vague, have no supporting evidence or are dismissed with “I’ll have to get back to you on that” or, “I can’t comment”.\nIn my opinion many of the farmers, villagers etc just want this whole thing brought to an end.  Ideally the remaining trenches filled in, a nature reserve created and maintained.  There were no guarantees of the site not being  used again or funding after the next five years.  Will this ever be achieved?\nOn Saturday morning [fiance] and I decided to go away for a short break to somewhere near and where we could take [dog].  It was a spontaneous decision for the Jubilee and because it was half term, I was not at college.  We ended up going to a caravan site with [dog] for 4 nights!  I will update about my holiday in the next diary!\n\nClipping from News and Star here – story about Great Orton public meeting and villagers’ request not to have site used again in the event of future emergencies. \n\n\nHOLIDAY - Week beginning Monday 3rd June\n\n\nWeek 15  10th June\nI am writing this a couple of days early just to tell you about our holiday!  It was lovely!  In the end we hadn't yet received the brochure on the camping barns so on Saturday we decided we would like to go away as son as possible and would like something for the Jubilee weekend.  After finding a caravan at Caldbeck, not far away, relatively quiet, we went.  By 5 pm on Saturday, [fiance] [dog] and I were there!  It was a lovely caravan site; lovely caravan and even a TV for the World Cup!\nThe caravan site was surrounded by common land sheep - lovely and quiet and a lot of places to keep [dog] occupied. We were so surprised at how quiet the campsite was over the Jubilee weekend but thought most of the people actually lived there.  It would be lovely in the future to have a small caravan there to go away to!\nThe surrounding places we went to were really busy for example Keswick, Bassenthwaite etc.\nI was quite surprised but thought it was great to see Cumbria lively again!  What a contrast to what I would have imagined these places to be like a year ago!  Especially for the Jubilee, everyone seemed to make such an effort - it was lovely to see!\nWe all had a lovely time, so relaxing!  OI don't think [dog] has ever walked so far!\nWe were surprised that somewhere so close was exactly what we wanted!  We were also happy we could put our money back into Cumbria. We would definitely go back!\nI feel so much more confident about the future especially in Cumbria after this week. If you didn't know about last year F&M outbreak in some cases it would be hard to tell! I really think Cumbria seems as if it could recover from this, hopefully.\n\nOn Saturday and Sunday - ill in bed.\n\n\nWeek 16    17th June\nWith the combination of not feeling very well at the beginning of the week; the car not running overt the week-end; and [dog] being in season, I haven't really been able to go anywhere this week. It has been quite frustrating but I have had work to do anyway.  I still feel quite confident about the future this week after being on holiday.  This is better than a couple of weeks ago after the FMD Inquiry meeting when I felt quite unsure at time of what was going to happen at Gt Orton.\nI had the F&M Panel newsletter and 'Watchtree Newsletter' (with Parish Magazine). I think both of these are good as you are able to gain information consistently about F&M in Cumbria, and in particular the burial site.  This information would be difficult to come by otherwise.  In particular I enjoyed reading about children at Milburn School with their memories of the F&M outbreak and the effort they have made.\n\n\nResearcher had spoken with respondent about possibility of monthly diary and she decided to start straight away - so although middle of month, here follows monthly write up.    She continued to record her diary in this way.  At times she offers short daily entries, drawing 4 weeks together within an overall reflective piece.   These daily entries are also recorded . \n\n\nWeek 20    15th  July \n(Writing up after 4 weeks)\nI am looking forward to attending the social evening in Dalston.  I am a bit nervous as am not used to doing these sorts of things but think it will be a good experience.  I was also pleased when I got the F&M panel newsletter and saw the article I made notes for. I have never done anything like this before and was quite pleased about the whole thing! \nOn the Saturday of week one, [fiance] and I went down to [fiance]'s Grandad's and noticed there were more signs up for land being for sale. Again we both think this is quite sad as the area will inevitable be changing in the near future.  We wonder how much of the land will be reused for farming or sold for new houses.  Taking into consideration the signs we have seen up in the past, quite a bit of land is going to change.\nOver the past weeks I have also received the 'Watchtree' newsletter with our parish magazine. I still think this is a good idea and worthwhile as you are updated every so often. This will also reach everyone in the village, so easily accessible.\nOver a period of a few days in week 2 of these 4 weeks, [fiance] and I both noticed a strange smell outside.  We could smell it here but not at [fiance]'s Grandad's which is only 2 miles away. It smelt just like a burning smell, so I am not sure whether it had anything to do with the burial site or anything being done up there.  I just thought I would mention it anyway!\nLast Wednesday I rang up the Archaeological Support group in Carlisle of which I have been a member for the past year and a half.  I had never been sent anything to do with it for along time and wondered why.  It turns out that last year as soon as F&M hit Cumbria, everything was cancelled and stopped. This I knew at the time and there was nothing else that could have happened. The thing I didn't realise was that things have been so badly affected that nothing has been arranged as yet, even so many months after F&M broke out. Once again this is another example of how things have been affected still so many months after.  There is also uncertainty about the future of this archaeology group as nothing has been decided yet and it will depend on how things go.  This is a pity and I hope things pick up in the future!\nOn the first week of these 4 weeks, [fiance] and I both noticed that we were coughing a bit more, especially at night and early in the morning.  Since then [fiance] has got better and is not coughing as much but now I have got a sore throat and a cold.  I don't think this is anything to do with the burial site or anything, but we were not sure about the coughing and I thought I would mention it.\n\n\n12th August - Writing up after 4 weeks\nI do not feel quite as nervous now as I did about the evening at Dalston Village hall.  It was a bit intimidating at first as I was going on the same night as frontline workers and health professionals.  I felt a bit out of my depth when I wondered what sort of stories they would be telling, compared to what I had seen.  These people would have had to deal with the situation first hand and must have seen some terrible things. After a couple of weeks I grew used to the idea and didn't feel as bad, it would turn out to be a good experience. As it turns out the evening is now on the 21st August and everyone is going together, things will be a bit more relaxed for me, I think.  I hope I will be able to make it!\nThe one major event that has made me think over the past couple of week is [fiance]'s Auntie Jean who has moved house from Orton Grange (2 miles away from us) into the middle of town.  It made me think that i definitely wouldn't like to move back into the middle of Carlisle after living here. Even though it hasn't been the most pleasant at times here with F&M last year and the building of the burial site, I would still miss everything about it.  Once again I am reminded how lucky I am to be surrounded by fields, cows, sheep and a horse in the overlooking field.  It is also usually quiet and peaceful - I can imagine quite different to the middle of Carlisle.  I think Jean will miss it quite a lot!\nJust over a week ago, [fiance] and I were busy getting our garden ready for the Village in Bloom. It was good to see everyone making an effort to everything looking nice.  Everything felt a bit more normal this year, whereas last year I think the Village in Bloom was the last thing on most people's minds!  It made me feel more confident about the future!  Perhaps everything or most things may return to normal eventually!\n\nWeek 24   12th August \nNothing extremely significant concerning F&M has happened this week.\nI have noticed, though, now when working at village pub – Wellington – even though I only do 1 day, it has really become quite busy.  I think business has improved after they tried more advertising.  I can remember back to during the Foot and Mouth outbreak – it was very  quiet, most people stayed away and the atmosphere in the pub was very depressing.  Now, over a year later things do seem to be picking up again and perhaps returning more to normal.  It is god to see!\n\n\nMonday 19th August\nAll in all it has been a quiet week, I haven’t really been out very much and not feeling well really.  I was a bit disappointed not being able to attend the social evening o Wednesday as my Mom was unable to get time off work or change her shift.\n\n26th August \nFirst of all we were noticing problems with our goldfish – when we first got them about two and a half years ago we had very few problems with them.  Over the past few months they have been getting ill.  We have tried all sorts (different chemicals) and still they have all died except one.  Omar, [fiance]’s cousin, who breeds fish came and had a look  and was baffled!  The only explanation is that the chemicals have been changed or increased, for example the chlorine which there appears to be a lot more of.  We obviously aren’t totally sure what the problem is but thought we should mention it anyway.\nThis week I also noticed the banner opposite the village shop in the village.  I have enclosed an article about this banner which appeared in the Cumberland News this week.  I think this sums up the mood I have noticed at the village meetings.  Nothing has yet been done to help the villagers etc, so what difference have the promises made?\nThis is the main reason why I feel less confident about the future this week regarding foot and mouth as these things are still dragging on.\n\n\nMonday 2nd September\nDuring the first week of these diaries nothing really significant happened regarding foot and mouth.  I did comment, however, that when working at the pub on Sundays, how busy the pub was and how business had seemed to improve a lot from what I had seen during the foot and mouth crisis. The atmosphere then had been depressing.  This made me feel more confident about the future regarding foot and mouth as another aspect of the foot and mouth had seemed to return back to normal.\nThis mood however did change during the third week of these diaries when I felt less confident about the future.  It all began when our goldfish started dying apart from oner.  We still are not sure exactly what caused it and are not sure whether or not it was because of the water here or something we did.  There just seems to be that little bit of doubt in my mind as you don’t feel totally sure about what is happening  in this area still, and therefore, I don’t think, really trust the organisations dealing with these issues.  The other thing that seemed to sum up some of my feelings was the banner which appeared opposite the village shop last week .  I think this shows the desperation and lengths some of the people in the village have to go through in order to get noticed and heard.  It seems ridiculous  that the same basic issues brought up in the earlier meetings have still not been dealt with.  It does make you lose the trust you had in the organisations involved (article enclosed).\nThis past week has been a little better, however, not that good.  I did receive the Watchtree Newsletter, in the Parish magazine, which is still good to receive as it updates you on a number of different aspects of the burial site.\nI also heard about the article in the newspaper regarding this inquiry from Cathy as well as my Mom who has saved it for me but as yet I have not read it.  I will comment on this in my next diary. \n\n\n9-15 September\nMonday\nGot free News & Star last week and found article on F&M diaries – not too bothered that it has been printed myself.\nTuesday\nSaw Cathy – said about articles – not too bothered myself but can see why otherwise involved would be as things are not represented in the right way and are misleading.  Good point though is that it may catch people’s attention – and get the point across that people are still suffering.  Got article from Cumberland news – Mum.\nSaturday\nFound article in Cumberland News regarding Village in Bloom – won a trophy for our special efforts in village in aftermath of F&M crisis (Mark Andrews trophy).\n\n\n16-22 September\nMonday\n[fiance] and I noticed a burning smell when we came back home in the evening.  Not sure what it is from – reminds us of F&M crisis.\nWednesday\nRoad works in village – didn’t affect us too much.\nThursday\nRoad works between here and [fiance]’s Grandad’s – annoying at times – has taken such a long time to do – reminds us of F&M crisis.  [fiance] and I noticed a burning smell again – not sure where from.\nFriday\nGood that Watchtree Newsletter told us of these road works as wouldn’t have known.\nSaturday\nThese aspects aren’t too bad on their own but the atmosphere reminds you of the F&M crisis last year.\n\n\n23-29 September\nMonday\nRead the Diarist and also had a look at the Inquiry Report I was sent after attending the village meeting.\nTuesday\nHave not had time to read very much of it but I will get round to it and then comment on it.\nFriday\nParish magazine and Watchtree Newsletter – still good to be updated on what is going on – 1. Roads and  2. Visiting the site.\n\n\n30-6th October\nMonday\nRang up to book table at the Autumn Fayre being done in village hall – people pleased that people in village getting involved!\nTuesday\nWater has been quite bad especially on Tuesday – full of chlorine – had to leave for a while for everything to evaporate.  Makes you quite concerned about whether or not it is safe to drink!\n\n\n6th October - Writing after 4 weeks  \nDuring week I  read the articles regarding those F&M diaries which appeared in the Cumberland News and the News and Star (they are enclosed).  After reading these and speaking to C, I myself wasn’t too bothered or offended by what was written but could easily have seen why other people would have been specially if they are finding things really difficult.  I think there is a good side to these articles as well though as they will have grabbed people’s attention and highlighted the fact  that there are still problems regarding F&M this long after the crisis.  Even though the articles were misleading they have also done some good! When reading the Cumberland News I also found a mention of Great Orton regarding the Village in Bloom.  It turns out we were awarded the Mark Andrews trophy for special efforts during the aftermath of F&M.  It would have been nice to win a better award but at least we were recognised for something!  I was quite please!\n\nWeek 2 was probably the worst week I have had during the past month regarding F&M as the whole week just seemed to remind me of what it was like during the crisis!\nFirstly there were road works between here and [fiance]’s Grandad’s (only 2 miles away).  I understand these had to be carried out but it made it difficult and inconvenient to get to [fiance]’s Grandad’s as you didn’t know which roads were gong to be closed when!  Now that the work has been done everyone that I have spoken to about it think they will cause more trouble than before as when you pull out of the lay bys it is dangerous as the grass and verge have not been smoothed out.  I think they are alright if you already know the roads but I wouldn’t be as confident if I hadn’t driven on them before!\nThe other aspect which made the road works seem worse were two instances when [fiance] and I both noticed a burning smell (Monday and Thursday).  We were not sure where this came from but it still reminded us of the crisis.\n\nOn week 3 I received a copy of the F&M Inquiry and glad I went to a meting in the village – sometimes it feels good to be involved even though in such a small way!\nI also received the ‘Diarist’ newsletter and ‘Watchtree’ newsletter which I am still glad I receive.  Without the Watchtree Newsletter I don’t think I would have been informed of the road works being carried out!  I am also glad the site is progressing and that people are now being given the opportunity to visit the site if they wish.\n\nOn week 4 there was only one major problem with our water.  On Tuesday the water was that full of chlorine that we had to leave it for all the chlorine in it to evaporate, or boil it, even to give [dog] a drink!  This is the second time this has happened and it does concern you as firstly why is this being done and secondly is the water safe to drink?  We are not sure who to contact about this as last time we contacted United Utilities who said it was just routine and nothing to worry about! \n\n\nWeek beginning 7th October\nNot much this week regarding FMD – think I have been too busy thinking about other things.\n\n\nWeek beginning 14th October\nMonday\nRelaxing a bit today as going to be a busy day tomorrow and away on Wednesday.\nTuesday\n[fiance]’s exam – turned out to be quiet here today which was good for [fiance]’s exam as he did it at home – would have been difficult last year with pressure of F&M.\nWeds\nAway on holiday!  It was a bit of a drive to what we are used to but we made it!  Lovely views on way down and Hawkshead a lovely place!\nThursday\nThis holiday very well suited for [dog] as plenty of places to walk, a quiet campsite and shops and pubs which are suited for dogs – things she is not quite used to!\nFriday\nLovely to be away for a break away from Great Orton on the one hand but then you remember how nice it is where we are and how luck we are on the other hand.\nSunday\nHad a very good week and confident about the future.\n\n\nWeek beginning 21st October\nMonday\nHaving quiet week as just got back. Quite tired but coping ok – nice to be back in a way!\nWeds\nGot Watchtree Newsletters in Parish magazine.  Also article out of News and Star (I think) – about renaming of site and farm that used to be there!\nThursday\nWatchtree Newsletter – interested in the Open Day – think it’s a good idea and will be very interesting (especially geology and fossil remains found on site).  I think would be beneficial as even though we live in the village and have been to the meetings – still have little idea of how the site looks now and will in the future!\n\n\nWeek beginning 28th October\nWeds\nWent to meet Mom in town.  The roads into town were terrible.  Mud on road everywhere and really busy with trucks etc.  Must be where they are doing new building – hope it doesn’t get like this all the time as so much land round here seems to have been sold for new construction!\n Sat\nMom has got her own stall this week-end at the Craft Fair in the Village hall. 1st time she has done this – saw it in Parish newsletter.\n\n\n2nd November – Writing after 4 weeks\nThis past month has been one of the busiest I have had for a long time!  Firstly there was [fiance]’s final exam – which was quite stressful for him at times, revising and everything!  It reminded me of how difficult it had been when we were doing our first exams a year and a half before, during F&M crisis.  Studying had been very difficult then due to constant interruptions and distractions – constant sound of trucks; smells; noise; tension!  I’m so glad it wasn’t this bad this year as these things can be stressful enough!\nShortly after [fiance]’s exam, [fiance], my Mom and I went for a short break to Hawkshead. It was great!  We all enjoyed it and [dog] especially!  Everything was suited for [dog] – we took her shopping (there are benches and water bowls outside every shop!); we went for a bar meal and sat outside with her! And on our last night even too her with us and went for a pint.  Apart from these things we also took her on plenty of walks!  Being there made you realise how lovely Cumbria is and how people who don’t live here are attracted to it!  It is a pity how Cumbria suffered during F&M crisis as it is such a lovely place!  I do hope that due to the large amount of attractions in Cumbria  that things will hopefully be back to normal as can be expected!  I was quite surprised at how busy things were for that time of year – it seems things must be improving which makes you confident!  I enjoyed my break but you realise maybe Great Orton isn’t such a bad place to come back to!\nDuring the past month I have also received the Watchtree Newsletter.  I’m quite interested in the Open Day later on this month – I think it will be very interesting. I’m really interested in the geology, history of the site and also fossils found there during this work. I don’t know much about how the site looks or how it will be in the future.  It is amazing that you can live so near but  still have no idea of what it is like!  All I can seem to remember are the pictures that were shown on the news months ago – it seems difficult to imagine it any different!\nThis past week has been very busy as my Mom is having a stall for the first time at the Craft fair in the village hall!  I have been helping her a little bit and helped her on the stall (I just sat with her really!).  She decided to have a go as she likes crafts and is always making things!  It was nice to be involved in the village and the money from the hiring of the stalls went to the church which is good!  It was very quiet on Saturday though and apparently that was the worst it’s been for a few years!  I wonder if this is an effect of the F&M, however the weather and other factors may have contributed!\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 11th November\nTuesday\n[fiance] – Doctors\nWednesday\nMe Dentist and in town with Mam.  Missed the Exhibition at the Village Hall, disappointed but got an article from the Cumberland News (this is included).  I haven’t spoke with anyone that went – no-one has mentioned anything to me.  Disappointed I missed it and also because this is probably one of the only opportunities we will get to know anything.\n[fiance] and I both agree it is still like a big secret – no-one really allowed in and out.  It doesn’t feel like local people are benefiting at all!  Is it anything to do with us really?\nFriday\nChildren in Need at the pub yesterday – nice to see people taking part again – big difference to during Foot and Mouth.  We just made a donation, it was a bit busy for us.  £1045 raised!\nSunday\nWork at pub – still very busy the pub – at least it seems to have recovered after F&M, but from what I have heard they did suffer badly, along with the other businesses here!\n\n\nWeek beginning 18th November \t\nTuesday\nShould have been playing darts at Port Carlisle.  Had a break for a week – the thing that is worrying about playing darts away is the travelling – some of the country roads round here are terrible!  Is this  because of the wagons? – especially near Wiggonby!\nThe road at [fiance]’s Granddad just gets worse! It’s just mud and less grass!  Terrible!  Is it because of damage done by wagons and a combination of all the flooding in the area now?\nSaturday\n[fiance] and I talking about how the area has changed!  We remembered back to 4 years ago when we used to go to the airfield/burial site for some peace.  Even though only rubble then, really enjoyed it there.  We could take the dog, had first driving lesson off [fiance] - not again!  Had some fun and really miss it at times.  Nowhere round here anymore to get peace!  Can’t even enjoy the nature reserve – very frustrating!   \n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 25th November\nMonday\nKeep realising when doing diaries that haven’t had a chance to look at Cumbria Foot and Mouth disease inquiry report – will have to make time for it soon!\nSaturday\nWhen I was at pub – talking about new fence on park for children.  General mood is, not very pleased as it doesn’t fit into a country village setting and nothing else done!\nSunday\nCan’t believe it is the beginning of December!  Everything is passing too quick.  Inevitable! \n\n31st November – Writing up after 4 weeks\nThe past 4 weeks have been very busy compared to what I am used to and at the same time have been quite frustrating in a few ways!  The issues which have bothered [fiance] and I most are mainly to do with the onset of winter, which of course is inevitable but this year they seem to be worse than we can previously remember since living here in winter!\n\nThe biggest issue is the state of the roads in the village and round about, it is terrible!  With the amount of rain we have had there are puddles everywhere and everything is turning to mud!  The worst thing is that it is very difficult to walk or take [dog] anywhere which is frustrating.  You either get absolutely filthy or when walking down the roads you have to get soaked on the sides of the roads to avoid cars and going down the lonning isn’t really an option as it is really muddy and there has been dumping.  We understand most of this will be due to the weather but we are sure some of it on the roads is due to all the traffic there has been, especially at [fiance]’s Granddad's.  Outside the front of his gate and garden, the grass has gradually been stripped away and has now turned to mud.  In all the ears he has lived there (50 years) he has never seen it as bad!\nThe roads aren’t like this just nearby, I have noticed other roads round about are also in a bad state when I have travelled away to other nearby village pubs when playing darts.\nI was disappointed when I missed the exhibition, at the Village hall, about the Watchtree Reserve as I had to go up town, etc.  I have not spoken to anyone I know that attended the exhibition, but wish there were more opportunities to learn more about it.  I did find a newspaper article (enclosed) about the Watchtree.  It is quite annoying that this won’t be open to the public.  It is understandable why this isn't possible but then on the other hand it is not benefiting anyone really who lives nearby.\n[fiance] and I still remember back to when the airfield was still there and it was a lovely place to go walking and to relax by getting away from everything. It used to be lovely and quiet and was also so nearby.  We do actually quite miss it sometimes as there is nowhere else like that round here now.\nEven though there have been quite a few negative issues this past month, it has also been encouraging when I have been working at the pub.  It has been very busy when I have been there showing that it must be recovering from the effect of the Foot and Mouth crisis. It was also encouraging when there was a night held for Children in Need when they raised approx. £1045. It is good to see people involved and happy again!  One thing which I did notice was that the general mood about the improvements made to the park was not very good.  People were not impressed that the new fence does not look like it belongs to the country at all and that that is all that has changed.  I have not had time but will go and have a look for myself!\n\n\n December 2002 – Writing up after 4 weeks\nAverage – I haven’t felt too bad over Christmas – a little tired but since I have got a bit of a cold and sore throat – not surprising at this time of year!\nAverage – I think it has been all right, haven’t been able to walk very far near village due to weather and roads – but this isn’t surprising at this time of year!\nThese past 4 weeks have been rather hectic with Christmas and everything but I have still had quite a bit to write in my diaries concerning foot and mouth.\nI received the Parish magazine for December in which there was a thank you to all involved in the Craft Fayre and there was £1 008 raised for St Giles church.  It was good to be able to contribute to something in the village (well it was my Mum really, but I helped!).  It is good to see these sorts of things happening here – it’s good for the village after everything!\nI also received the Watchtree Newsletter in the Parish magazine .  It is still good to receive this as it updates you on everything and also had information regarding the exhibition at the village hall, which I missed..  I am glad it was a success and people attended, especially the school children who were taken!\nI also received the ‘Diarist’ which is good to read.  It is interesting to see what other panel members are up to – and is surprising what things can lead to!  For example the diarist and the Samson tractor!\nOver the past couple of weeks I have also collected  a couple of articles from the Cumberland News.  The first one, ‘Lie returns to Watchtree’ actually made me feel better that we were going to get something positive out of this whole experience – but the only problem is that at some moments in time this won’t be enough for some people involved as it does not change what happened and won’t make up for what has been lost!  I think it just depends on how you are feeling at the time when reading the articles.  The other article , ‘Village in running for top country award’, was also quite pleasing as at least we, as a village, are being remembered and recognised for what we went through.  It is surprising that now so long after the actual Foot and Mouth crisis that we are finally being recognised and so many things are now being written in the paper!\nOver the Christmas period I have only really had one thing to complain about and that is the state of the roads!  After the rain, the roads have been terrible to drive on with the flooding and the road sides turning into mud!  Everything is filthy!  I know this is expected in winter, out in the country but since I have been here it has never been so bad, especially at [fiance]’s Grandad’s!\nOne improvement is the signs which have been put up at the passing places between here and [fiance]’s Grandad.  [fiance] and I both think these are much, much better and a lot safer!  We have also spotted a couple of signs from ‘Watchtree’, which have been up now for a while, but are still surprising to see!\nNow it is time to start everything again the New Year and hopefully this will be a better year for Great Orton than the past couple has been!  I am glad it is going to be quiet here now for when I start my studying, as opposed to the foot and mouth when studying was very, very difficult!\n\n\nMonday 27th January – Writing up after 4 weeks \nThis week I found an article in the Daily mail which I thought was relevant. It is called ‘Boom and Doom’ and is about house prices all over England.  For 2002, prices in North Yorkshire rose by 66% but in Allerdale they only rose by 8%.  It did not mention why this was but some of it must be the result of the Foot and Mouth crisis and the effect on the area since then.  This made me think about the effect on Great Orton and how difficult it would probably be to sell houses here, and if people would really want to move  here. There are two sides however, as if more property was built in Great Orton and the surrounding area, things would probably change and Great Orton might lose some of its farming background.  I definitely wouldn't want it to change too much, despite the burial site, I like it just the way it is!  \nThe great thing about this week is the weather, for once!  We have been able to go down the lonning with [dog] without getting filthy as it is frosty!  It has been great!\n\nI can’t believe how quickly 2003 is passing!  It is February already!  This past month has been totally hectic with appointments; arrangement; birthdays and the Open University!  It makes you realise that whatever happens, time goes on!  I think this must have been very difficult for people directly involved in the Foot and Mouth crisis, as life would have had to carry on despite whatever was going on in their own lives.  I think as time has gone on I have got more used to the idea of ‘Watchtree’ and accept it more now!\nI received the ‘Watchtree News’ during the previous week.  It is good to hear that the restoration and creation of the site is finally complete.  Overall, I don’t think it has taken as long as I thought it would for the nature reserve to be established, especially when you compare it to how long it has taken for the children’s playground to be improved!  Nearly two years after the Foot and Mouth crisis!  However it is better late than never!\nI am pleased at how the nature reserve sounds, with al the different species of animal which had been included or seen, especially the ‘merlin’, the smallest bird of prey, which was sited.  [fiance] and I both find these things very interesting!  It is good that this is happening so close to us!  Last year we travelled to see the Osprey viewpoint, it was great!\nOver the past couple of weeks I have also found a few more articles. Two of these are regarding the ’20 day standstill’. With not been directly involved in the farming side of the foot and mouth crisis, I am not totally sure about all these sorts of rules, etc, but think it is good that at least things are trying to be improved for the future in case this may happen again and also as a result of learning from past events.  There was also an article showing ‘Watchtree’ as a finalist for the ‘Environmental Project Award’.\nI definitely think that ‘Watchtree’ deserves to be considered for this award as so much has happened here and at least some good is going to come out of it!  It would be nice to get this sort of award in recognition of the hard work of the people involved!\nI think this year will hopefully be a better one for Cumbria, and people may have confidence.  Even though the Foot and Mouth crisis was a tragedy, I think Cumbria and the people in it are able to recover from it as people from the newspaper articles, seem more optimistic and this rubs off on you!  I think this year will be a better one and feel more confident about the future at this point! \n\n\nMonday 24th  February – Writing up after 4 weeks \nSo far these past four weeks I have not receive a ‘Watchtree newsletter’ but there was a small mention in the parish magazine about he playground. Work is underway and it is hoped to be finished by the summer.  It seems to be taking a long time to get the playground sorted but at least it will be good for the kids in the summer holidays. It is better late than never!\nThere is only one thing that has bothered us over these past weeks, our fish.  Whenever we change the water, the fish seem to be ill and now we have had to add more and more chemicals to reduce the amount of chlorine that seems to be in the water.  We did originally start off with 13 fish and now only have 2 left. It does make you worry about the state of our water and why more chemicals are possibly being added.  The fact that the burial site is so near, does make you worry if that is anything to do with it.\n\nOver the past four weeks I have been very confident about the future regarding foot and mouth.  With the sun shining again and the animals about – it seems as if nothing bad has happened here.  But you know that for some people involved in the crisis, the future will never be that easy or simple and I do feel sympathy for them.  For me, it seems possible to be able to move on now after the crisis and it has been good to see the sheep and cows about, and [fiance] has even seen a couple of birds of prey!  We are not sure what they were, but think one might have been a Merlin, which was mentioned in a previous ‘Watchtree Newsletter’ as being seen on site.  The article called ‘Record tourism figures for county’ was encouraging and shows that Cumbria may be starting to recover after the Foot and Mouth crisis.\nI also found another article called ‘Fears over bovine TB time bomb’.  I think this is worrying and should definitely be taken seriously, as it would be devastating to farmers and everyone in the county!\nIn the past fortnight it has also been my Mam’s birthday. She was really looking forward to spending some time out here and we went to Bowness for the afternoon with [dog].  Once again, you realise how lovely it is out here and how much it should be appreciated.\nOverall in my opinion the situation in Cumbria over the past year has definitely improved and will hopefully continue to do so!\n\n\n24th March – Writing up after 4 weeks \nThese past four weeks have been rather strange and worrying!  First of all, there was the death of Simon Harris, a man from the village, who you would regularly see walking dogs and looking at the horses.  Despite what most of the papers have said about him, to me he was always polite and possibly just a bit shy.  I have enclosed an article about him that was in the paper shortly after his death.  The headline is not very nice but the article does include some of the best comments about Simon.  I was quite shocked by the whole thing and think it could definitely have been handled better by the papers.  The people in the village could also have been a bit more respectful, I do not think it was their place to comment in the way that they did.\nSecondly the whole issue of war with Iraq is a worrying subject.  Neither [fiance] or I agree with what is being done and how it is being carried out!  It is a particularly worrying time for [fiance]’s Aunty, as her husband lives in Kuwait, with the rest of his family.  She came to England, where she is originally from with her two children during the last Gulf war. She knows all too well what the danger are and what is involved!\nIt is a very worrying subject where you feel totally helpless and at the same time cannot get away from it!  However, life still carries on, as harsh as it may be!  I thought of this when looking at the past diaries I have written and how many have accumulated!  It is strange how quickly time goes by and how people are just expected to cope and carry on.  I thought, in particular, of the people worst affected by the foot and mouth crisis; how helpless they must have felt, and how they coped!  Life can be a funny thing!\nLooking back, I think this project has been very worth while and think it is great that they will be archived for the future.  Writing these diaries seems to have become part of my routine now, and I think it will definitely be strange when I no longer have to write them!\n\nI have found quite a few newspaper articles over the past four weeks. “Donella rebuilds the Cumberland Show” was encouraging about the future of Cumbria after the foot and mouth crisis, however there are still worrying issues arising, such as in the articles of ‘MP calls for vaccination to keep F&M under control”; and, “From Uruguay with a threat”, which highlight issues of important to the farming industry.\nI have also been very busy over the past few weeks, as my second assignment was due for my university work, which was quite hectic!  I have had a break for the past couple of days as I have not been very well, a bad cough, sore throat and stomach and a stuffy nose!  I haven’t done too badly over the winter months with illnesses, so I can’t really complain!  Lastly our water hasn’t been of the best quality lately!  On occasions it is white and fizzes, not the most appetizing!!  \n\n\n21st April  Writing  up after 4 weeks\nThese past 4 weeks have just seem to fly by!  Quite a few good things have happened and even though I am feeling quite tired, I have had a good month!\nFirstly [fiance], [dog] and I have finally go t a small space of our own!  We have got an allotment about 8 miles away and it is surrounded by horses and fields.  It belongs to a man who lives there and owns all the land roundabout, but unfortunately he is no longer well enough to work the land, so has let us have it!  It will need a lot of work but will be good for us!  So far we have got potatoes, raspberries and rhubarb growing!  [dog] even helps to dig! Even though we live in the country, on our own block it is not always that easy to get any peace!\nWe have also had the opportunity to join the ‘Cumbria Wildlife Trust’.  A leaflet came through our door and we thought it would be brilliant as we would be kept up-to-date with all the latest goings on in Cumbria; learn a lot more about the wildlife and also possibly get the chance to do some voluntary work!  [fiance] and I are really interested and think it is great.  We get sent though a certain number of magazines every year and every month we send a small donation so we feel like we are helping a little bit as well!  The article which I found in one of the magazines id enclosed on the next page!\nThe other thing which has made my month is knowing that we are going to Hawkshead again!  My Mam, [fiance], [dog] and I are going for a short break, just 3 nights for my birthday!  We have got it all booked and are really looking forward to it!  It was great last time especially for [dog]!  I just hope she doesn’t get stuck under the bed in the caravan this time, as she is a bit bigger now than she was then!\nThis past week I have also been in touch with my Dad in South Africa as it was his birthday. It turns out that he may be passing through Carlisle for a couple of days at the end of next week. It would be lovely to see him again and I think he will love Great Orton and our allotment.  I think he has always liked the thought of living in the country and would love to retire to somewhere nice and quiet!  Things will also have improved and we have grown up a bit since he was last here, about 3 years ago!  It should be good!  It is funny that after living in South Africa for so long, he is still drawn to the lifestyle in Cumbria!\nLastly, I have made a note of the final meeting for the foot and mouth diaries and hope to be there!  I bet it passes really quickly now and will be over before I know it!  How strange! \n\n28th April – 4th May \nMonday\nGot 3 articles from Cumberland news, April 25th 2003 “Breeders hit out discrimination”, “FMD burial site celebrates new life” and my favourite “its a dog’s life for Rosie the lamb”\nTuesday\nSaw C\nFriday\nNoticed the park is coming on a bit better for the children. It was mentioned in the Orton Parish – awarded £25, 000 to reference, drain, level and re-seed. New play equipment will follow.\nSaturday\nSome of the children were allowed to attend meetings to discuss it. Good to involve children & about time too! At least children will be able to play football.\n\n\n5th – 11th May\nTuesday\nWorking really hard, have to get assignment posted off tomorrow night before we go away on Thursday. Hectic!\nWednesday\nService held at Watchtree – unable to go but think it was a very good idea. Newspaper article enclosed was written before the service.\nThursday\nAway to Hawskhead! Exciting!\nFriday\nMy birthday! Had a lovely day – went shopping in the morning, to forest in the afternoon and for a meal at night. Lovely!\nSunday\nBack from holiday already! It was lovely! Everyone was so friendly or perhaps we just noticed it more there.\n\n\n12th – 18th May\nTuesday\n[fiance] at doctors – not very well, he has got a viral infection as well as fluid behind his ears. Told to just take it easy!\nWednesday\nI have been sent info to chose courses for Open University that I would like to do next year and in the future. Am going to take the “Environmental Studies” route, hopefully leading to “Diploma in Environment and Development” and possibly further to BA/BSc in Environmental Studies. I did like archaeology but think what I am doing is a lot more relevant to the future, Foot and Mouth and Watchtree made me realise that.\nFriday\nGot Watchtree newsletter this week, I will enclose it this time as it covers quite a few areas and has a bit of information. There is information about the service held, awards that have been won and also new wildlife which are now present on the site – Lapwings, Oystercatchers and Ringed Plovers.  \n\n\n19th – 25th May 2003\nTuesday\nDad has come to visit for a couple of days from South Africa. Nice surprise, enjoyed seeing him. Dad asking about FMD crisis (he saw it on TV over there) and how close it was. I think he was quite shocked!\nThursday\nI was surprised that even though South Africa is so different he would still like to live somewhere in this country. Makes you think again how lucky you are and what you take for granted!\nSaturday\nArticle from Cumberland News – May 23 – “Reward for post – foot and mouth achievements”.\n\n\n25th May – Writing up after 4 weeks\nEvery time I come to write these diaries I look back over the past four weeks and notice they are becoming more and more busy, the past couple of weeks have been no exception! It is already nearly half way through the year, I can’t believe it!\n\tOver the past 4 weeks, I have been on holiday, turned 22 and my dad had popped over from South Africa for a few days! Hectic but good! Firstly, Hawkshead was lovely again! I wouldn’t say anything different – it was great! We all had a lovely time and I had a really good birthday! When you are at home in Great Orton you forget how much is really out there in Cumbria to do and see! We definitely think we should take advantage of it more often.\n\tShortly after we arrived back from Hawkshead, my dad popped up to Carlisle for a couple of days. It was a lovely surprise and it was good to see him! He absolutely loves it where we are and thinks we are very lucky – even though South Africa is so different, he still thinks it is lovely out here, looking out onto fields. This did make me realise how lucky we are, despite what happened due to foot and mouth. Inevitably, sometimes we do take it for granted! My dad remembered watching about the foot and mouth crisis in South Africa but did not realise exactly how close it was! I think he was quite shocked!\n\tFoot and mouth has definitely made me more aware of my surroundings and how everything works. I have definitely noticed this when I have been doing my studying for Open University. I am now at the point where I can chose my courses next year and therefore which path I am going to take. I have decided to take courses leading to a Diploma in Environment and Development and if everything goes to plan for an Environmental Studies degree. I am really enjoying what I am doing at the minute, and think it is definitely useful and relevant for the future. I did enjoy studying Archaeology but think the environment and related issues are more important at the present and in the future.\n\tOn the 7th May there was a memorial service at Watchtree to mark a two year anniversary from when the last animal was buried at the site. I think this was a good idea and it is appropriate to remember the animals that were killed. I was unable to attend the service but have managed to get a newspaper article about it and it was also mentioned in the Watchtree Newsletter. I have included this newsletter in with these diaries at it contains quite a bit of information on a few different aspects, I think it is good about the wildlife which is emerging on the site.\n\tThe park or play area for children is also coming on fairly well, at last! It has finally been reseeded as well as levelled, it looks better! I have also included 4 newspaper articles from the Cumberland news, with my favourite being “Rosie the lamb”. I have put this article in as I thought it was lovely.\n\n\n22nd June 2004 – Writing up after 4 weeks \nHow strange it seems that all this is coming to an end, and really how quickly time has passed.  In my situation, I would say that time has healed a few aspects of the foot and mouth crisis and things don’t seem so bad 18 months on!\nI enjoyed the foot and mouth evening and learnt a lot from it about other people’s views and experiences. I enjoyed it a lot more than I thought I would and thought that the main themes found during the research were ones which I would have agreed with! One thing which was said which has made me think was the comment that these diaries would be our type of memorial. I had never once thought of this research in that sort of way, but the more I think about it, the more I agree and like the idea!  It definitely has been worthwhile being able to contribute to something especially if it may be able to help in some way in the future!\nWhen compared to the article that I found in the Cumberland News about a man’s memorial to the animals that he lost during foot and mouth I definitely think ours is more fitting and will probably do some good!  I understand  everyone has the right to express their views in their own way but to me this was too loud and too inappropriate!  However each to their own and at the end of the day at least people are trying to remember in a good way as opposed to ‘sweeping it under the carpet’!\nThe week of the foot and mouth evening we were without a car and noticed how much we relied on it and took it for granted, especially out here as there is a very limited bus service!  Everything is sorted out now and we are back to normal with a newer little car!  Thank you very much C  for the lift there and back!\nIn general the past few months just seem to have flown by and in particular the past couple of weeks!  I don’t seem to have time to fit everything in, and am trying to get my assignments done on time! It turns out to be quite a bit more difficult than I thought!  It is hard work but will definitely be worth it in th end – over the past 6 months even I have learnt so much!\nThe next special occasion which is coming up is [fiance]’s birthday 21st July! We are thinking of going back to Hawkshead again for a few days! We really like it there and I’m sure will return again and again!  It just shows you that you don’t need to leave Cumbria to have a good holiday!\nWell, here we are at the end!  It just makes me wonder what life will be like in 18 months from now!  Will things be any different?  They probably will be in some ways and hopefully will be for the best!\n\n\n20th July – Writing up after 4 weeks\nIt does seem very strange to be sitting down to write my last lot of diaries. It feels good to have completed something as worthwhile as this!  As well as it hopefully doing some good in the future concerning foot and mouth crisis or any other similar situation, I also find it has helped me to become a bit more confident and aware of things around me.  I remember back to when I attended my first meeting and how nervous I was!  I think I can handle things like that a bit better now!\nWe have just got back from holiday!  We had a lovely time and did so much!  We went walking with [dog] to many places and they are all free!  It just shows you what a good holiday you can have in Cumbria on a cheap budget!  You don’t need much else!  The only disappointing thing is that some of the places [fiance] and I had been to in the past are now closed as they have been sold.  This has not yet happened to Talkin Tarn and I definitely think it should be given to the Cumbria Wildlife Trust as people would still have access to it.\n[fiance] and I both agree that the countryside is recovering and it is great to be able to wander about again.\nI have collected a few more articles from the Cumberland News related to Foot and Mouth. It is good to see breeders doing well again and people getting back into the swing of things!\nI would just like to thank everyone involved for involving me in this project and I wish them all the best in the future!\n
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A young lady had just left a court where she had been found guilty of assaulting a Police Officer and also being in change of an offensive weapon -–a knife. The judge had acquitted her of the offences, he showed leniency towards her. Last year during the FMD crisis she had returned to her home to find that her pet goat had been killed by slaughterers because the animal was within the 3 km radius. She had gone berserk over this and threatened the Police Officer and others with the knife. She had to be forcibly restrained, she was very distraught over this killing.\nEven after she had appeared in court and had been acquitted of all charges she showed great emotion not only being freed but also quite upset over the loss of the goat. Perhaps her actions didn’t happen to a lot of other people who had similar things happen to them. However, the loss of a lot of pet animals and in some cases, needless slaughter of many farm animals still creates unhappy memories of 2001.\n\n\nWeek 2\nTuesday\nWhilst walking the dog I met a farmer from the edge of the village who has friends and stock in close proximity to the 2 land fill sites.\nHe is still very concerned about materials on these sites. The nearest site contained hundreds of carcasses. This has been completed and capped. He is concerned about leachate from this site and feels that it doesn’t matter how much clay and soil were used to contain this site, the effects of heavy rain is bound to find a way down and also to drain it. He doesn’t want to plough these fields, nor can he sell stock that have grazed the same fields.\nThere is pyre ash being tipped on the other site. Again, what happens to the rainwater that runs off this site? Also there are concerns about the large flocks of seagulls that visit both sites daily.\nAnother concern is what is happening to the open-cast coal site that is situated almost due south of Gilgarran Village. The farmer I talked to today is concerned about this huge site. No coal has been moved from this site for months. There are concerns that this site is going to be filled with waste. Will it be from FMD sites? We, as a village, are very concerned about rumours of land fill on a huge scale. \nFriday\nNoticed that there was work being carried out on the top of the burial site. No villagers have commented on this, despite large yellow diggers operating.\nSunday\nWork continuing on the burial site. Cannot make out what kind of work is being done there\n\n\nWeek 3\nMonday\nWork is still going on at the burial site. I still don’t know what is going on, but the diggers involved are the same as when animals were being buried there. When animals were being buried there last year, the smell coming from that site was terrible to say the least! It was not coming from the dead animals as most observers thought, but from decomposing waste material that had already been buried on the site prior to FMD.\nWhen excavators dug into the soil to make trenches for the dead animals, they dug into this decomposing matter, hence the terrible smell. Despite the work that is going on there today, no comments from villagers are forthcoming. It seems to me that now that FMD has gone, the general public are not interested any more, unless they read something in the local papers written by some enterprising reporter!\n\n\nWeek 4\nTuesday\nWork is still going on in the former burial site. Villagers don’t seem to be bothered. FMD is gone, so nobody is interested any more.\nWednesday\nWhilst trying to gain comments from villagers over the effects of FMD, one or two comments from some individuals show concern about the outbreak last year, but don’t seem too concerned over any after effects, if any!\nTwo interesting comments suggest that (1) the outbreak was started deliberately by ‘this country’ in collusion with the agriculturists of the E.E.C so as to concentrate meat production in Europe and leave the UK to concentrate on arable farming; (2) The outbreak was started by a terrorist attack. The Government would not declare this because it would cause widespread panic.\nThursday 23:25 hours\nHuge fire at the site where pyre ash is being tipped. 250,000 used tyres caught fire. Arson is suspected. Fire fighters tried to contain the blaze, but couldn’t use large amounts of water in case water courses became contaminated.\nFriday 05:00\nFire still blazing at the pyre ash site. Later in the morning the fire was showing signs of dying down, apparently it was left to burn itself out. Much heavy smoke pollution was evident, drifting south west for about nine miles.\nReading the local evening paper about the blaze, there was also a report that villagers from Disington (1¾ miles from Gilgarran) were complaining of the foul smell from both waste sites. Parish councillors are very concerned about this. Does it coincide with work currently being carried out on the burial site?\nThe smell from these sites plus the fact that animals were buried on one site and pyre ash plus the huge fire from the other site all happening this week is causing concern in this area. But once this ‘hue and cry’ dies down, people will soon forget about it all.\n\n\nWeek 5\nMonday through to Friday, observed work on top of the burial site. Don’t know if any work is still going on on the northern and western sides. \nFriday\nLocal weekly paper carried the report on the recent large fire that occurred on the Alco site last week when 250,000 tyres caught fire somehow. It was intersting to read that the fire brigade did not use any water to extinguish the blaze in case pollution occurred in water courses. The fire was left to burn itself out.\nSaturday\nBurial site – it looks like there is new soil being tipped on top for some reason. No reported comments froim the Parish Council over this, despite very vociferous objections by them over the use of this and the Alco site in the past. \nSunday\nTalked to our local County Councillor (who lives in this village). He feels very strongly that these two sites are dangerous. He thinks that both sites are a health hazard risk due to obnoxious odours and in particular, the large fire that occurred last week which produced a lot of polluted smoke for a distance of six miles. Some people reckoned that the smell of burning tyres could be smelt here in Gilgarran. There have been numerous fires on these sites over the last few years. These fires give rise to compaliant by people like us, but more so from the nearer village of Distington (1¾ miles west of here). The councillor suggests that there could be more incidents of cancer cases in this area in coming years along with respiratory troubles as well as some cases of bronchitis related problems. He himself has recently suddenly started sinusitis, which he hasn’t had before. All in all, he wasn’t happy about the situation on both sites. We don’t know what is being tipped there, all we can do as a community is accept what we are being told by the site owners. As previously stated, animal carcasses were being tipped and buried for about three days before we were told officially that this was so.\nIncidentally, the site where animals are buried is owned by Cumbria County Council. This seems to be totally against the advice of County Council officials who look after the environment and the health of the population. As I’ve written before, there are going to be bigger concerns if the opencast coal site to the south of the village becomes a landfill site for refuse from parts of the county fifty miles away. At the moment there are no suggestions that anything from the FMD outbreak will be dumped there. Having said that, however, we as villagers didn’t know of carcasses being buried or pyre ash being tipped until after it had happened. We await the outcome of this coal site with some trepidation, after all, no coal has come from this site for some months. It has all the indication of becoming a land fill site.\n\n\nWeek 6\nMonday to Wednesday, if work is still ongoing at the burial site it is not visible from our side of the site. I still don’t know what is going on there. It may all be innocent and an improvement to the environment, after all, this is what the site owners have to do.\nThursday\nA delegation of MEPs visit the north of the county. They have come to assess the situation for themselves and to report back to the European Parliament. No doubt they will also report back to their own constituents in their own countries. The delegation visit the auction mart at Longtown where the disease was first noticed in this country and also visited the big burial site at Great Orton where it was estimated that half a million carcasses were buried. Good coverage by the local press, radio and T.V. gave anyone interested the views of the delegation.\nThursday – Saturday\nThe MEP delegation agreed that the FMD situation had been disastrous (we all know that!). Comments from some tourist and agriculture observers ranged from a ‘waste of time’ to ‘at least some politicians have bothered to visit us, our own couldn’t do that’ Personally, I think that some good came out of this, particularly when it was reported that the Dutch had used vaccination techniques when they had a small outbreak.\nMany people think that the British Government should have had a public inquiry into the outbreak. What have they to hide? Cumbria is holding its own inquiry – quite rightly so, other organisations such as Lancaster University are holding research into the outbreak. Why not the Government? Eventually we will know why, perhaps not in my lifetime though. The minister and MAFF have a lot to answer for.\n\n\nWeek 7\nThought it would be of interest to include copies of the newsletter that the local authorities issued to every household in the area regarding the disposal of carcasses and effluent. It will be of note that there was a fire last year on the Alco site, also involving tyres. Very similar to last years only not as big. A report on local T.V. today stated that the recent visit of MEPs to the area considered that vaccination should have been used at the outset and be should seriously considered should a future outbreak occur. Heard of reports of an outbreak of T.B. in cattle in other parts of the country. This was reported to be more serious than FMD should a major outbreak occur. This would lead to the question of disposal should the need arise. As I’ve already reported in previous entries, the use of the opencast coal site to the south-east of here is causing concern in some quarters. Although the site didn’t feature in the FMD crisis, there is a feeling that it is being earmarked for use in the future should the need arise or even the rumour of an incinerator is planned for there. The general feeling here and in the surrounding area is that we have had enough dumping of carcasses, effluent, toxic chemicals etc. It could be that the authorities have seen that the sites concerned have handled those substances before, that an extension of disposal sites in this area would be effective.\n\n\nWeek 8\nNothing of any significance to report this week.\n\n\nWeek 9\nNow that Cumbria’s FMD inquiry has started, a lot of people I have met this week recall the happenings of a year ago. Even more interesting is the coverage in the local press and T.V. Plenty of publicity by the media shows how little the Government an MAFF in particular let the farming and tourism industries of the county down. There has been plenty of distressing stories by farmers not only of infected animals being slaughtered but also the slaughtering of healthy animals in the 3 km circle of an outbreak. One particularly distressing point of evidence was when a farmer described to the panel the birth of a calf five days after it’s mother had been shot! We at the time of the outbreak were hearing these stories on a daily basis and still MAFF and Mr. Brown kept telling us that the outbreak was ‘under control’. All I can say at this point is may heaven help us when it all happens again.\n\n\nWeek 10\nWork is still going on at the burial site. It looks like new soil is being dumped on top of the actual site and ‘dozed’ to level it of and to smooth it out on the side. All we can do is accept that the management of the site are making it better for all concerned and that they are as concerned as we are. The much publicised Cumbrian FMD inquiry team visited the land fill site. They met local councillors who expressed their concern over this site and the Alco site. No other report was forthcoming from the team. The inquiry team finish their evidence gathering this week. One very important statement was made that the Minister of the Environment should make a statement over this outbreak and should even make a visit to these sites county-wide. There has been total silence from Mrs Beckett’s department over this request. The same silence is observed from any government source for that matter. Everyone asks the same questions, what have they got to hide? Why aren’t they interested? What plans are being made? And what lessons have been learned from last years outbreak? A lot of farms are restocking and in this neighbourhood, farm work is going on as before, or so it looks. As time goes on though, there seems to be a smouldering anger that no-one in authority is as concerned as well are.\n\n\nWeek 11\nWork is still on going at the burial site. No comments heard from any of the villagers or neighbours this week.\n\n\nDiary 12\nMonday, from my own observation work is still ongoing at the burial site. More heavy plant has been moved on to the top of the giant amount and it looks as though more topsoil is being laid over the Mount. Perhaps to improve the site, but water may still permeate into and through the site. We can only believe the operators that this is a right thing to do.\nFriday, talked to 2 it villagers about the after-effects of FMD. One said oh it's all over now and forgotten about it doesn't bother me one bit. The other said it all in the past we just have to forget about it. It seems that life is returning to normal in all aspects of village life, people don't think about last year unless the diarist mentions that. \n\nSunday, a bad day or weather wise. This prolonged rain may halt work on the burial site. Most people are reluctant to talk about F M D now, even if it was one of the worst economic and social disasters to hit this country and this County in particular. Now that it is over, people's memories begin to fade. However, some of us are not happy at having these two disposal sites within a 1000 metres of this village. FMD may be over but these burial sites are here for a long time yet.\n\n\nDiary 13\nObserved in work on burial site. More heavy machinery and plant moved in and large quantities of soil are being laid down and smoothed out.\n\n\nDiary 14\nTalked to some religious today about the after-effects of FMD. Without exception, they are not interested! It's all over with an idle one to be reminded about it are the general comments. Nobody seems bothered that there are hundreds of animals buried a 1000 yards from his village or the fact that there is leachate and pyre ash buried in another site. Looking at the burial site and the work that is going on there, it does look as though the management there are doing everything to make the site safe.\n\n\nDiary 15\nI met a smallholder today to whom I have talked to in the past about the effects and after-effects of FMD. He still not happy about the burial site despite the landscaping and smoothing off of the large quantities of topsoil, only time will tell he says. He does not have any stock near to the site but he has sheep on the farmer's land. Since FMD finished though his stock movements are still restricted by new legislation that has come in since the area was declared free. For instance, or if he takes a sheep to auction, he asked to have nine pieces of paper for this transaction. If the price is not right and he has to take the she back to his land he was put them back in the same field that they came from and it cannot move them to three weeks. He then has to obtain a licence to do this. He does think that the authorities are not going to be as strict shortly. This is just one of the precautions that have come in to try and combat any recurrence of FMD.\n\n\nDiary 16\nI met the smallholder who rents land a from the farmer in the village. His income from the sheep that he a breeds has been nil, like many more people in similar circumstances. Fortunately for him had he has an income from another source. The subject of compensation came up during our conversation. I personally do not have any comment to make about this item as it maybe just a rumour, apparently he got it bee in his bonnet about compensation paid out to people who were not in the agricultural business. What seemed to upset him was that he had heard that some of fish and chip shop owner in the Lake District had been paid £170 per month compensation for the loss of trade. He didn't mind too much that hoteliers and guest house owners had claimed compensation, but wondered where else would this kind of money go when he himself had been paid nothing. This is the first time I've heard this one!\n\n\nDiary 17\nAttended the Cumberland Show at every to be park Carlisle. We, as a family used to attend this annual show regularly, both as spectators and competitors. We have never seen the show like the one put on this year, when will things really get back to normal? Many of us think that agriculture is back to pre-FMD. Cattle and sheep on grazing in the fields, lambing has reached new heights in produce on some farms. Calves are being born, silage and haymaking is progressing when the weather permits. But there are still restrictions on animal movements. Hence, no sheep cattle or pigs at this year's show only horses, poultry, dogs and rabbits. Not many pieces of agricultural machinery onshore either. Plenty of Chartered Accountants tents, craft tents, Horse feeds and tack, displays in the main arena and bands. Not an agricultural show as we knew it. It seems to be the same at other shows, Ennerdale show is one of our local shows. This year there isn't going to be any horses or sheep. Generally there are no cattle shown at the show, but without sheep (hill farmers dominate the show) the there isn't going to be much on show at all. It was always a good show for equestrian events at many levels. This show was always a must for our family. I don't think that we will be going this year.\n\n\nDiary 18\nFrom the golf course and golf driving range I can look out on to the western side of the burial site. I have written in previous weeks about the work there has been going on at this site. Viewing the site are from our village side, would hardly know what that there ever was a burial site. Hundreds of tons of topsoil had been laid and smoothed out to make more-or-less like a landscaped feature. It looks really good. From the western side though, things are little different. Work is still going on there, large amounts of soil have been tipped and levelled off. There are still Portakabins there and heavy plant can still be seen moving about. No doubt the western side well look as good as the eastern side before long.\n\n\nDiary 19\nIt is announced that the Prime Minister and his wife and son of his family at a visit to Cumbria. The PM arrives in West Cumbria, all kinds of reports are written in the local and national press about what he is going to do or not do or what he should be doing. After all, he is on holiday. The PM did meet some farmers' leaders, the press as usual stirred things up or as to where he should be meeting. Tourism officials say that the trip was fantastic for tourism in the county. Or person they I can't see what difference it made. If people want to come Cumbria, they will come irrespective of whether the PM comes or not.\n\n\nDiary 20\nAfter a lot of protests it looks as though it the 20 day restriction on cattle Movement will be lifted. Perhaps this will now mean that they could be cattle and sheep entries at local agricultural shows. Some shows are going ahead with very limited entries of livestock and some with no animal entries at all. These shows have always been very popular with my family for over 20 years. Also, living with in a farming community makes us feel part of the annual agricultural scene.\n\n\nDiary 21\nI’ve written before regarding agricultural shows and the pride in which local people take in these shows. Although a lot of shows have gone ahead this season, they have had a reduced animal showing or in some cases no animals at all. Today I’ve heard that one show has been cancelled altogether. This particular show is one of the most popular in the area. Maybe because of lack of entries or the organisers just wanted to cancel because of the 3 week restriction on animal movement. I don’t know. Perhaps it would be better to cancel them than have a depleted show.\n\n\nDiary 22\nSpent a few hours in the fells today. It was good to be able to wander the familiar paths and let our dog run free. It was a good boost to our moral and perhaps the dog’s too! We all missed being able to do this last year.\n\n\nDiary 23\nLast Bank Holiday before Xmas and the last before the schools go back. At the golf course where I help out part-time during the summer we had lots of customers. A lot of them commented on how enjoyable it was to be on holiday in this area this year, compared to the restrictions that were in place last year. Maybe the holiday establishments are getting back to normal. There are no restrictions put on them like there is in place now with farmers and agriculture.\n\n\nDiary 26\nSorting through the mail left whilst away on holiday and I came across a notice sent by the village committee notifying a Harvest Thanksgiving festival to be held next month in the village hall. As we have no church in the village, it is being held in some farm buildings in the centre of the village. This will be a splendid event. The farm did not have FMD but couldn’t take animals from one field to another and couldn’t market them. When we consider the gloom that settled on this farm and community, it is very welcome to have this unique event here in the heart of the village and the farmer and his wife will be at the centre of events. A lovely gesture and I hope it will be well supported. There will be a distribution of harvest gifts afterwards, what a change from a year ago!\n\n\nDiary 27\nWith the aid of binoculars I have been able to have a closer look at the burial site from a westerly direction. There are vents in the shape of small towers to extract gas from the site. There are pipes connecting these vents. A lot of work is still going on there. However, all this takes place in the Western side which is the opposite side to where my village is situated. From our side there is nothing to suggest the amount of work going on. Because of this, FMD is pushed further into the backs of villager’s minds. It is something in the past. It has happened, so what? People like myself who talk to farmers and agriculturalists do not easily forget these events. Personally I am still concerned about the burial site. When inquiries are made about it, all we can do is accept what we are told. It does not look as though every precaution is being taken to alleviate an odours or contamination. \n\n\nDiary 28\nI had to see the village farmer on another matter and was asked inside for coffee and a chat. He was able to tell me of the full implications of the ’20 day rule’. He accepts that this is a precaution to prevent another outbreak of FMD, but there is a lot of work involved. He told me of an isolation area that he has created and also the fencing arrangements where his land adjoins the neighbours land. I would say that 95% of the public don’t know about this even if they have heard of the 20 day rule. For him (he owns the largest farm in the area) it is bad enough having to do all the physical work as regards fencing, etc. But for anyone such as a small holder, it must be a nightmare if he has to bring animals back from market that haven’t been sold. \nFriday, my wife and I played a round of golf at Aspatria. This course was badly restricted when FMD hit this area. We were reminded that there are restrictions on adjoining land. There were notices asking people who hit balls onto farm land not to cross the fence to retrieve them because of FMD precautions. This was news to us. It does make sense though. The farmer wouldn’t know where players had been walking prior to playing golf. \n\n\nDiary 29\nAttended the Harvest Festival held in  the village farm, a large cattle shed had been cleaned and decorated for this event, chairs had been brought in, fruit and vegetables were on display for auctioning at the end. The place was packed! A lot of money was raised and it was a very happy event, well supported and a big boost for the farm and the village.\nI don’t think that the general public care much about FMD now that is has been a year since the last case was confirmed in Cumbria. The public may be reminded if they read the local newspapers intently, for instance, there was a letter to the editor published recently which referred to the results of the Cumbria Inquiry into FMD. It may have been a farmer who wrote it, I don’t know, but the writer certainly went to town in the scathing comments on the handling of FMD. Even caustic remarks regarding the efforts since FMD of DEFRA and Mrs Beckett. I certainly wouldn’t like to cross the writer, I also think the farming community must be holding it’s breath in case the present restrictions such as they are, prove to be worthless. Then we will all suffer, again!\n\n\nWeek 30\nWhat a difference a year makes! Despite some restrictions on public access to agricultural fields in some areas of the county, it doesn’t apply here. Although most locals confine themselves to footpaths and bridleways, other people seem to think that all fields are recreation areas. They walk and run across some of the fields in close proximity to the village. Regardless of the presence of stock they exercise dogs and treat it as a some kind of park. One farmer is well know for being aggressive, he used last year’s FMD outbreak to run people off his land.\nI met a local councillor who expressed concerns regarding the proposed building of an incinerator to the south of the village on the current open cast mining site. The two waste disposal sites to the west and north-west of the village have become big issues in the last 18 months due to the burial of animals and the disposal of pyre ash and leachates. It seems as though we are going to get over this ghastly FMD outbreak only to have this scenario thrust upon us.\n\n\nWeek 31\nMet a small-holder who keeps sheep near to this village. He was very scathing over the report that the Government and DEFRA don’t want to talk up an offer from the Local Authorities here to implement findings and recommendations from their local inquiry over FMD. Why? What has this Government, who didn’t perform very well during the outbreak, got to hide and why shirk away from the findings instead of facing up to the failings that we all know about. It also seems that they don’t want to make any safeguards and recommendations to avoid a further outbreak. As a non-agriculturalist, it doesn’t surprise me in the least. After all, Government has failed other industries in the country for as long as I can remember.\n\n\nWeek 32\nI am convinced that authorities in the area must think that the way animals were buried here and pyre ash and leachate were disposed of at another site nearby was all done as very successfully and that the two sites handled everything professionally. Therefore the sites would be more than capable of handling ash from an incinerator. To me, this is the legacy of FMD. I am most annoyed over this, together with a lot more of the villagers. This village no longer has a representative on the parish council, both have resigned for whatever reason and no-one will step forward to take it one. I have said that I would take a set on the parish council to represent the village and fight for our rights and future quality of life. Due to this, I have uncovered a pile of claims and counter-claims. It seems that both parish and district counsellors know what is going on (regarding the incinerator) and that developers have made ‘concessions’ to some councillors. Also there are claims that the developers have offered money to local landowners and farmers so that roads can be put in. All these accusations have been strongly denied. At the same time it is rumoured that some farmers have been offered local fields nearby. Because of what I have discovered in my own investigations, it would seem that a lot of friendships gained over 20 years could come to an end, I am fearful of what I have uncovered. There are also claims that ‘councillors are only in it for what there can get out and are not to be trusted.’ I don’t want that said of me. Also by the time all this is sorted out, I will be 70-75,  I certainly don’t want to be fighting peoples battles at that age. However, I will support any effort to stop the proposed development. \n\n\nWeek 33\nOnce again the large farm in the centre of the village was the venue for the annual Guy Fawkes bonfire and fireworks. Organisers had been round the village asking for donations to provide fireworks. A tractor and trailer toured the areas picking up things for the bonfire. Drinks and food were served in a barn after the fireworks. This is another occasion when villagers and the farming community come together. It is perhaps the only time that the general public of the village think about FMD and last years events, if only briefly. The farmer remarked that is the third time this year that there has been a public function on his farm. The first was the jubilee party in June, then on October 6th the Harvest Festival service. These events keep farming in the public eye.\n\n\nWeek 34\nI haven’t written before about the proposed building of an incinerator nearby to burn the counties waste. If , as we all suspect, the incinerator is built, then the odours plus the disposal of ash (to the FMD waste site) is a legacy of FMD, particularly regarding the nearby burial and disposal site.\n\n\nWeek 35\nThis is week 35 of this project and for most of the 35 weeks I have written that I am not confident of the future. There are numerous reasons for this. Mainly the situation in the Middle East. Today I travelled to Keswick to do some Xmas shopping. I was given a lift there by a neighbour who is in his 30s. He was very upset about the terrorist situation, not only was he concerned about the terror threat to the London Underground, but the threat closer to home as regards a plane crashing into the nearby Sellafield complex. We don’t know the effect that this constant bad news has on people. People who have already got serious worries, e.g., families, housing, finance, etc must feel really depressed about it all.\n\n\nWeek 36\nNear to the next village is a long established farm of many acres. Recently the farm’s stock of animals and machinery was sold off. The owner, who had farmed for sixty years was leaving to live with one of his brothers. He said that he wouldn’t know how he would feel when he left the farm for the last time this weekend. The farmhouse hasn’t been sold yet and now stands empty. It’s a strange place now, where everything was hustle and bustle (they even had a B & B business there) is now derelict and bare. It’s a sad reflection on the agricultural business in the wake of FMD. This farm isn’t the only one in the area that has sold up. Some farm houses remain as dwellings, but this particular one which we saw nearly every day is just an other sad reminder of the way farming has declined in this rural area.\n\n\nWeek 39\nTuesday.  Boarded the train  at Penrith to journey to Crewe to see our daughter.  During the journey I got into conversation with a fellow passenger.  He noticed I had got on the train at Penrith and perhaps thought I was connected with the agricultural industry.  The conversation drifted into the previous years FMD outbreak.  It is rather strange, that I live in a very rural area, and , FMD is rarely mentioned now.  However, this fellow passenger (although not from an agricultural background) gave his views on the handling of the situation.  It was no different from the views expressed by locals at the time of the crisis.  It just goes to show that FMD is very much in peoples minds even if they were not connected to agriculture in any way.\n\n\nWeek 40\nFriday.  Now that the MEP have published their critical report on the FMD crisis, it is interesting to read an article published in our local weekly paper, from a reader … (Article entitled ‘Foot and Mouth Report’ included). \nI don’t have the knowledge or the data to support this readers comments.  However, I have heard plenty of stories from mainly unreliable sources, to confirm what he says.  It makes interesting reading I think.\n\n\nWeek 41\nTuesday.  No wonder my confidence in the future has taken a big plunge over the last few months.  The situation in Iraq doesn’t get any better.  Mr Tony Blair’s message to the Armed Forces of the UK bear this out.  Being an ex-serviceman, I know what the situation holds for our troops.  But, are we right to follow the USA in a war against Iraq?  No doubt Saddam Hussein does pose a threat but so does India and Pakistan to each other.  Each of these two relatively poor countries has threatened each other as regards their nuclear arsenals.  Now, the loose cannon in the form of North Korea is positioning itself as regards its position in the nuclear arms league.  Personally, I think that North Korea poses a more dangerous threat than Iraq.  It is not a very happy New Year for a lot of people.  Perhaps it will all be settled diplomatically.  I wonder.\n\n\nWeek 42\nNothing of any importance to write about due to refurbishment at home.\n\n\nWeek 43\nMonday.  One of the items on the agenda for this months meeting of Distington Parish Council is a report on the wood-felling and the implications of this.  As I have written in the diary before, there are strong rumours of the proposed plan to fell woods, build a new road through the felled site and bring coal from the nearby opencast site to link up with an existing road, then, to transport the coal to a storage area on Workington Dock.  Then, when the coal is worked out, to build an incinerator on the coal site.  Ash from this development would then be transported on the ‘new’ road to be disposed of on the waste disposal site that was used for FMD pyre ash and leachate.\nThursday.  Read a report of the aforesaid meeting.  The owners have declared that our worries are groundless.  In fact, they say that they plan to eventually open the woodland to the public (the owners of the woodland are the same operators of the opencast coal site).  Footpaths will be created if a grant can be obtained.  A wooden wheeled ancient water mill will be restored.  After the closed meeting the operations director of the site said that ‘There has been a misunderstanding.  What we are doing will benefit local people’.  He said that a management project for the wood is being followed involving felling dead trees and fresh planting.  He added: “The felling and replanting will be done this year after which it will take time to become established.  We’re talking of a ten year programme but it should have long-term benefits.  I think our PR at the start of this wasn’t very good and in the future we will let the council know of our plans”.  The council agreed to keep a watch on the work here in G.\nThis statement differs greatly from what some of us have been told by our village-based County Councillor.  There has never been any suggestion that the felled woods would become a land fill site, but would be felled to provide the new road.  There was nothing mentioned at the meeting regarding the proposed incinerator being built.  The County Council … that this has ever been planned.  However, our representative is adamant that this is not so.\n\n\nWeek 44\nTuesday.  For the first time, my property has finally overcome a situation that was affected by FMD.  \nIn July 2000, the electricity supplier notified me to say that the trees in my garden had grown so tall that the topmost branches were in close contact with an eleven thousand volt overhead power line and that they should be felled or severely pruned.  After some further negotiations it was decided to prune to some height that I wasn’t happy with.  Although the treetops were not actually touching the wires, it was considered a risk in the forthcoming months.  However, as time passed I couldn’t wait for the foresters to arrive, so I pruned the trees myself.\nIn January 2001, the electric supplier suggested that the trees should be pruned further.  A date was agreed but the foresters didn’t arrive.  Time dragged on and the trees grew back to their original height.  Again, the electric supplier suggested they be pruned or felled.  A new date was agreed upon.  However, the foresters couldn’t do the job because the isolator switch was on farmland and they couldn’t get access to it because of FMD restrictions.  And so it dragged on!  Despite visits by foresters and electric supplier reps. the trees got bigger and I was forbidden to touch them.  Neighbours could hear crackling noises coming from the wires and it became very worrying.  People suggested that I should ‘do something about it’.  I took the matter up directly with the supplier and the foresters.  I was promised dates only for them to be cancelled.  In December 2002, a date of 21st January 2003 was given.  This time, they came and we agreed that two trees be felled and another pruned.  After 30 months it finally happened. \nThursday.  Met a small holder who has his land on the edge of this village, who told me that the 20 day rule of animal restriction of animal movement was being lifted and replaced by a 6 day restriction.  This was good news for him and any other farmer.  Later that day I met another farmer who didn’t know that the restriction was being lifted.  You would have thought that I had told him he’d won the lottery!  Good news all round for the people.\nFriday.  Listening to the local radio today and was surprised to hear a report that the Citizens Advice Bureau in a small Lakeland town had been receiving clients who were still experiencing hardship due to FMD.  It is now 18 months since the last outbreak and the effects (according to the person being interviewed) were still being felt.  Not just by farmers and agriculturists, but by guest houses, hotels, tradesmen and in particular, some self employed.  Debt seems to be the biggest problem.  It seems as though some people had weathered the hardships of FMD initially only to find that their plans had come adrift somehow afterwards.  Quite disturbing to hear that the situation is still with us in this county to some degree. \n\n\nWeek 45\nThese diaries were instituted to deal with the after effects of FMD.  Although there were no cases of FMD in this village, everyone knew about it, particularly as nearly everyone who went to work from here would pass the main farm in the village centre, or, some of the farms on the outskirts of the village.\nNow that FMD is over, most people who live here don’t seem to think about it anymore.  The only people affected are the farmers, naturally.\nThis is a strange village in lots of ways.  Only the farmer and his immediate family are connected with agriculture.  The rest are professional people or people who work at nearby Sellafield, industries in Workington and Whitehaven, or are retired.  There is no church, no village pub, no village shop, no village community centre or meeting place.  Only tradesmen that call are the milkman and the solid fuel merchant.  We are left to ‘get on with life’ in our own way.  The parish of Distington to which we belong have all the facilities associated with a larger community, such as a church, pub and community centre.  All of which are two miles away.  Consequently, the Parish Council meets there once a month and discusses all the problems of the area including ours.  However, our representative on the council has resigned and no-one has come forward to represent us.  Anything that has been discussed at the Parish Council is reported in he local newspaper.  \nVillage pubs are a good venue to discuss local issues and to exchange views and, mainly, to gossip.  Village ‘tittle tattle’ as I call it!  As we have no pub, the gossip is rife from one source or another with bits added on or left out as is the choice of the person concerned.  Quite a lot of people one meets are ‘experts’ in their own particular choice of subject whether it is politics, finance or Mrs Jones current boy friend.  It is a fault to take on board all that is gossiped about when one meets a fellow villager in the country lanes whilst out walking the dog.\n\n  \nWeek 46\nIllness to a family member.\n\n\nWeek 47\nContinued illness.\n\n\nWeek 48\nOver the past few weeks there has been a lot of tree felling in the nearby woods.  This has led to a lot of disturbance to the villagers because of the use of large vehicles needed to remove the felled timber and also the foresters vehicles churning up the grass verges and the ditches.\nA lot of concern was raised about the necessity of all the tree felling.  These concerns were raised in the press and also in the parish council.  (I have written about these in diaries in the last few weeks).\nIt was reported in mid-January that all the felled woods would be replanted this year, with footpaths created for the enjoyment of the local population.  Now, all timber operations have ceased.  Large areas of woodland have been left partly felled and a lot of felled timber is left lying about.  Foresters vehicles have gone and nothing is happening.  Despite assurances from the developers, it looks as though something drastic has happened.  Village ‘tittle tattle’ says that the foresters have not been paid for their work so far and that the developers have run out of money.  If this is so, what is going to happen now?\nWhen felling started late last year, I contacted two environmental agencies regarding the threat to the red squirrels, badgers and buzzards that occupy these woods.  I was told that it was only a partial felling and they (the environmental agencies) were satisfied that any disturbances would be slight.  I think that they were told this by the developers, and accepted what they were told without a site visit.  The developers have been known to mislead groups in the past, including landowners, farmers, councils and individuals.\nI, personally am not happy about this situation.  I have always took a keen interest in wildlife and feel that we have been let down by the lies of developers and the lack of serious interest from wildlife agencies, some of which are an offshoot of central Government.  I for one will keep a close look on the situation with or without other villagers and in particular, local councillors.\n\n\nWeek 49\nBy chance I met three small holders all at the same time.  They were discussing farming by the roadside.  All of them were pleased that the 20-day ruling was coming to an end and that their lives were more or less coming back to normal.  They also expressed the opinion that the 20-day rule and the 6-day rule were only in force to protect their interests.  However, they were unanimous in their condemnation over the importing of foreign meat and meat products into this country.  They feel that foreign meat is not subjected to enough checks before entry into the United Kingdom.\n\n\nWeek 51\nMet a farmer today who told me that he’d seen a report based on findings by the EU and DEFRA. It stated all the things that everyone who is an agriculturalist and those who take an interest in the countryside had been saying about what was wrong with the handlers of the FMD outbreak. It just proves that it doesn’t take an academic genius to know what should have been done at the time. Everyone can be wiser after the event, but statements by the NFU and individuals at the onset were not heeded. For example, the movement of animals should have been halted sooner and the Army should have been brought in much sooner. Now, the question of vaccination rumbles on. Should we or shouldn’t we vaccinate? There is a fear of the outbreak again, particularly when the findings of the 1960 outbreak were not implemented. \nSince the sadness of FMD, there has been quite a few instances of socialising at the farm, such as harvest festival, jubilee party and almost any excuse for a ‘shindig’, good to see farmers enjoying themselves.\n\nWeek 52\nMet out local farmer who told me that there is to be new legislation to dispose of fallen stock. No longer can a farmer bury fallen stock on his land, but must now provide an incinerator to dispose of dead animals. This must be a costly business, could dead animals not be taken to a central point and burned?\n\n\nWeek 54\nOne thing about FMD was the effect that it had on the poaching fraternity. Living in a rural area, we expect this to happen. Nobody seems to mind that a few rabbits and pheasants go missing. What is really alarming is the use of dogs and high-powered rifles to poach deer. FMD put a stop to all this. Now a neighbour has told me of poachers near to the village using rifles and shooting deer. The only people benefiting from this are the poachers and hoteliers who receive these dead beasts and no questions asked. Also the danger of villagers being hit by stray rifle shots causes alarm to others.\n\n\nWeek 55\nI think that there is a lot of jumping on the band wagon now that FMD has cleared up. For instance, I listened to an interview on the local radio station given by a hotelier. Things weren’t going well in his establishment. Having got over FMD and its implications, visitors were slowly returning to the area, but not in sufficient numbers to cause great joy. \n
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                                                                                                                                                    [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1975, gender, m, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, diary, 1, thursday, meeting, n, lakes, friday, tb, testing, on, restocking, farm, usual, chat, and, defra, comments, the, meeting, research, panel, gp, 6, at, the, north, lakes, was, interesting, it, surprises, me, sometimes, how, people, myself, included, never, seem, to, tire, of, the, same, stories, and, complaints, over, how, the, crisis, was, handled, some, of, the, episodes, recounted, must, have, been, told, dozens, of, times, over, the, last, year, but, whoever, says, it, always, seems, just, as, keen, to, say, it, again, perhaps, a, reflection, of, how, deeply, people, feel, about, the, events, of, the, last, year, having, said, that, most, of, the, resentments, and, rants, that, i, hear, on, daily, farm, visits, are, focused, fairly, and, squarely, at, defra, and, not, fmd, virus, farmers, seem, far, more, upset, at, the, constriction, put, on, them, by, defra, than, they, do, by, the, loss, of, stock, now, although, i, know, and, saw, how, utterly, devastated, most, were, when, they, were, actually, diagnosed, with, the, virus, and, in, the, week, or, two, following, my, work, in, the, practice, is, becoming, less, and, less, fmd, orientated, as, time, goes, on, licensing, and, restocking, visits, are, drawing, to, a, close, and, we, are, starting, to, return, to, normal, vet, work, my, life, has, been, more, settled, since, the, end, of, fmd, although, there, was, never, a, real, threat, of, redundancy, there, was, a, great, deal, of, uncertainty, as, to, what, form, work, would, take, during, the, outbreak, it, was, never, clear, whether, i, would, be, based, at, the, practice, or, working, as, a, defra, vet, from, month, to, month, now, that, it, is, finished, i, hope, the, practice, and, my, work, can, get, back, to, a, routine, and, at, least, knowing, where, i’ll, be, based, each, day, even, if, not, which, calls, are, going, to, come, in, with, regard, to, fmd, the, biggest, influence, it, has, at, the, moment, and, over, the, last, week, is, acting, as, a, listener, to, farmers, who, still, talk, about, it, and, defra, a, great, deal, diary, 2, mon, shap, restocking, having, to, justify, visit, wed, melmerby, i, went, to, see, a, farmer, this, week, to, do, the, first, inspection, of, his, sentinel, animals, that, he, is, restocking, his, farm, in, common, with, many, farmers, he, was, unwavering, in, his, conviction, that, his, animals, had, been, deliberately, infected, and, that, tony, blair, or, defra, were, the, ultimate, culprits, the, belief, is, that, they, want, to, put, farmers, out, of, business, this, particular, farmer, made, the, very, valid, point, that, defra, co, had, underestimated, the, resilience, of, the, farming, community, i, think, that, this, has, been, very, striking, considering, the, strain, that, they, have, been, under, in, some, cases, worse, for, those, who, didn’t, get, fmd, than, for, those, who, did, it, has, been, remarkable, how, little, the, majority, of, our, clients, have, changed, admittedly, we, see, most, of, them, on, a, professional, basis, regarding, their, animals, health, and, not, their, own, but, on, the, whole, they, seem, to, have, been, very, forward, thinking, about, the, outbreak, many, have, taken, it, as, a, chance, to, increase, the, size, of, herds, and, to, eliminate, many, other, diseases, as, well, as, fmd, work, in, the, practice, has, been, fairly, steady, as, week, the, number, of, fmd, calls, is, decreasing, one, of, the, problems, with, doing, restocking, licensing, and, tb, calls, is, that, we, are, on, the, farm, at, defra’s, instruction, normally, it, is, the, farmer, who, calls, us, out, and, this, can, cause, friction, anything, related, to, defra, will, put, hackles, up, 9, times, out, of, 10, it, definitely, causes, stress, at, times, but, puts, my, diplomacy, skills, into, good, practice, it, sometimes, feels, as, though, some, farmers, just, need, an, outlet, and, i, fit, the, bill, after, agreeing, with, everything, they, say, and, sympathising, it, usually, smoothes, out, and, ends, with, a, cup, of, tea, but, it, does, feel, as, though, we, have, to, justify, what, we, are, doing, much, more, than, prior, to, february, 2001, diary, 3, this, week, was, the, anniversary, of, the, week, i, went, to, my, first, ip, and, associated, slaughter, pyre, building, etc, at, several, times, during, the, week, i, found, myself, thinking, this, time, last, year, i, was, although, obviously, not, pleasant, memories, the, thoughts, did, not, particularly, affect, me, in, a, bad, way, or, distract, me, from, work, it, just, took, me, back, to, that, time, when, i, had, time, to, think, i, went, to, see, a, sick, horse, near, carlisle, which, is, where, the, ip, was, and, it, was, interesting, to, drive, past, the, farm, and, see, animals, in, the, buildings, again, hopefully, the, farmer, concerned, is, getting, back, on, track, again, with, respect, to, daily, routine, work, is, getting, very, busy, lambing, time, is, starting, to, really, get, going, with, the, inevitable, increase, in, calls, although, it, can, be, hectic, at, times, it’s, better, to, be, kept, busy, rather, than, having, it, too, quiet, it’s, also, good, to, actually, be, doing, lambings, and, other, sheep, work, as, it’s, two, years, since, we, did, any, apart, from, euthanasing, sheep, last, year, on, monday, i, went, to, do, a, re, stocking, check, on, a, farm, the, farmer, is, convinced, he, was, given, fmd, deliberately, and, on, arrival, i, was, given, his, weekly, tirade, regarding, defra, tony, blair, how, i, must, have, made, thousands, of, pounds, out, of, it, etc, etc, after, sometime, of, not, rising, to, the, bait, he, calmed, down, and, half, an, hour, later, was, sweetness, and, light, perhaps, he, just, needs, someone, to, let, pressure, out, to, only, one, session, like, that, a, week, isn’t, too, bad, considering, how, many, farm, visits, we, do, diary, 4, monday, brought, another, dressing, down, from, the, farmer, i, mentioned, last, week, it, was, shorter, and, less, passionate, this, time, perhaps, he’s, mellowing, a, bit, i, drove, up, to, junction, 40, one, day, with, the, sun, out, it, reminded, me, of, a, similar, day, a, year, ago, when, i, could, count, 15, smoke, plumes, from, pyres, on, the, same, bit, of, road, as, i, said, last, week, anniversary, memories, like, this, aren’t, especially, difficult, for, me, they’re, just, there, in, a, lot, of, ways, it’s, quite, satisfying, thinking, about, what, was, happening, a, year, ago, and, how, well, things, have, progressed, since, then, most, of, our, farmers, have, re, stocked, work, is, returning, to, normal, even, things, like, being, able, to, drive, onto, farms, again, rather, than, having, to, leave, the, car, at, the, farm, entrance, makes, a, big, difference, work, continues, to, be, very, busy, with, the, typical, seasonal, calls, to, sheep, and, cattle, we, have, a, couple, of, vet, students, doing, work, experience, with, us, which, had, to, stop, last, march, as, we, couldn’t, take, extras, onto, farms, with, us, another, sign, of, the, continuing, return, to, normality, some, days, it, seems, as, if, we, have, returned, to, how, we, were, a, year, ago, the, most, obvious, legacy, is, perhaps, the, thorough, and, extensive, clothing, disinfection, between, each, farm, a, good, habit, which, is, very, hard, to, break, diary, 5, i, had, to, work, on, easter, monday, morning, which, was, fairly, uneventful, as, for, the, last, few, weeks, there, were, the, usual, seasonal, calls, to, sheep, and, cattle, but, nothing, too, stressful, on, tuesday, i, did, the, final, blood, sampling, on, the, last, farm, that, we, have, that, is, still, at, the, sentinel, stage, of, re, stocking, the, farmers, seemed, fairly, mellow, today, and, spared, me, the, usual, lecture, attempt, at, argument, perhaps, it’s, because, the, end, of, his, restriction, is, in, sight, the, test, went, very, smoothly, and, i, didn’t, hear, from, him, until, the, end, of, the, week, when, i, he, was, upset, probably, justifiably, that, his, results, still, weren’t, back, as, processing, the, bloods, is, not, our, responsibility, all, i, could, do, was, sympathise, and, plead, ignorance, the, rest, of, the, week, was, fairly, routine, work, wise, friday, was, taken, up, doing, a, big, tuberculin, and, brucellosis, test, on, a, re, stocked, farm, they, all, have, to, be, done, within, 3, mths, of, re, stocking, although, it, was, a, big, job, it, was, a, well, run, farm, with, plenty, of, help, so, we, got, finished, within, the, day, and, with, as, few, delays, as, could, be, expected, now, that, the, evenings, are, lighter, it’s, meant, that, on, nights, off, duty, i’ve, been, able, to, get, out, more, it’s, made, a, very, welcome, change, to, be, able, to, bike, walk, on, the, fells, again, this, year, after, all, the, restrictions, of, 2001, long, may, it, and, the, weather, continue, diary, 6, finally, finished, the, last, a, restocking, jobs, on, monday, the, farmer, was, getting, very, frustrated, probably, justifiably, so, at, the, length, of, time, it, was, taking, the, bank, holidays, etc, last, week, meant, to, that, the, labs, were, closed, so, that, blood, samples, took, longer, to, process, i, got, the, results, at, 4, 45, monday, evening, and, in, an, attempt, to, create, some, goodwill, agreed, to, go, to, the, farm, to, do, a, final, check, that, evening, on, arrival, of, the, usual, tirade, about, defra, and, vet's, came, my, way, which, was, slightly, hard, to, take, he, then, said, that, he, didn't, blame, me, personally, which, was, nice, of, him, i, think, hope, he, realises, that, we, can, only, try, to, get, things, going, faster, and, ultimately, it’s, out, off, our, hands, at, least, it's, good, to, have, all, the, restocking, work, finished, it, feels, as, though, the, first, stage, is, over, in, getting, back, to, where, we, were, another, sign, of, returning, to, usual, is, the, continuing, pace, of, work, nights, on, call, are, again, a, time, for, working, rather, than, the, call, free, nights, of, summer, 2001, this, week, has, brought, early, morning, lambing, most, days, the, rest, of, the, time, we’re, is, as, busy, as, it's, been, for, a, year, the, day, book, is, full, each, day, and, we, all, seem, to, be, driving, around, the, county, more, or, less, keeping, up, with, the, jobs, which, is, a, good, thing, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, was, going, to, go, to, edinburgh, to, see, some, friends, but, in, the, end, stayed, in, penrith, for, some, r, r, diary, 7, i, had, a, half, day, on, monday, and, went, to, riggindale, at, the, head, of, haweswater, with, a, friend, who, had, come, to, stay, for, a, night, or, two, the, plan, was, to, see, the, golden, eagles, nesting, that, up, to, unfortunately, they, were, off, on, a, day, trip, to, another, part, of, the, lake, district, but, the, weather, was, good, and, it, made, a, very, pleasant, change, from, work, the, practice, is, still, going, flat, out, with, seasonal, work, the, daily, flow, of, lambing, and, lambing, related, sheep, problems, shows, no, sign, of, ebbing, there, are, also, increasing, numbers, of, cattle, problems, probably, related, to, coming, towards, the, spring, turn, out, of, cattle, that, have, been, inside, for, 6, 7, months, the, fact, that, most, of, them, are, in, new, surroundings, is, almost, certainly, adding, to, the, problems, on, the, whole, of, farmers, are, fairly, pragmatic, about, the, difficulties, they, are, having, most, accept, that, they, were, bound, to, have, problems, with, the, restocking, and, on, the, whole, are, pleased, just, to, have, stock, on, again, some, are, very, keen, to, be, as, efficient, as, possible, whereas, others, will, more, readily, go, along, with, the, old, farming, mantra, that, where, there's, a, livestock, there's, a, dead, stock, not, quite, what, the, veterinary, profession, wants, to, encourage, i, was, on, call, at, the, weekend, and, had, one, of, the, busier, few, days, i, can, remember, again, it, was, mostly, seasonal, farm, work, which, although, it, was, time, consuming, is, often, quite, rewarding, i'm, still, surprised, by, the, number, of, sheep, we, are, getting, called, to, perhaps, it's, because, farmers, have, spent, a, lot, of, money, on, them, to, restock, with, and, now, feel, they’re, financially, worth, calling, us, for, diary, 8, made, a, couple, of, visits, to, one, of, our, farmers, who, restocked, over, the, winter, this, week, he's, having, a, few, problems, with, cows, getting, ill, and, generally, not, settling, in, very, well, he's, one, of, the, most, amenable, farmers, on, our, books, and, never, seems, to, try, to, blame, anyone, for, his, troubles, at, times, it's, very, frustrating, not, to, be, able, to, do, more, for, people, like, him, i'd, like, to, be, able, to, give, every, one, of, his, cows, a, magic, injection, and, say, that, it'll, get, better, but, unfortunately, that's, not, how, it, works, we've, had, a, lot, of, colt, castrations, to, do, this, week, which, is, normal, for, this, time, of, year, it, puts, more, pressure, on, us, in, terms, of, work, as, we, usually, take, two, vets, to, each, castration, considering, how, busy, it, is, relations, in, the, practice, are, generally, very, good, it, has, been, stressful, at, times, but, on, the, whole, this, has, been, stress, related, to, volume, of, jobs, to, do, rather, than, people, it, has, also, been, a, very, different, and, preferable, type, of, stress, than, this, time, of, the, last, year, at, least, a, lot, of, work, makes, us, all, feel, fairly, stable, rather, than, the, terrible, uncertainty, of, last, year, we’ve, also, taken, on, an, extra, vet, this, spring, which, would, have, been, unthinkable, last, year, in, the, middle, of, the, week, i, did, a, farm, visit, with, one, of, the, vets, from, the, local, veterinary, lab, to, discuss, disease, control, on, a, re, stocked, farm, most, of, the, work, into, disease, surveillance, on, a, farm, was, defra, funded, which, went, down, well, with, the, farmer, she, at, least, felt, as, though, she, was, getting, something, back, after, fighting, with, defra, for, the, last, few, months, it, was, also, encouraging, to, see, someone, taking, a, very, positive, approach, to, disease, control, in, the, future, my, cousin, and, some, of, his, friends, came, down, from, glasgow, for, the, weekend, to, go, into, the, lake, district, the, weather, was, good, on, the, whole, and, several, people, noted, how, good, it, was, to, have, the, paths, open, again, diary, 9, started, the, week, doing, a, big, tuberculin, and, brucellosis, test, at, a, restocked, farm, there, has, been, a, big, backlog, to, clear, after, testing, was, stopped, during, fmd, last, year, so, we, have, to, catch, up, with, those, farms, that, didn’t, get, the, disease, but, are, due, a, test, as, well, as, testing, the, restocking, farms, we’re, all, very, keen, to, keep, cumbria, as, a, tb, free, zone, but, with, all, the, different, stock, coming, in, it’s, going, to, be, tricky, monday’s, test, was, long, but, okay, on, the, whole, the, set, up, was, good, and, the, farming, family, were, very, pleasant, which, makes, a, huge, difference, to, how, the, day, goes, all, was, clear, when, i, went, to, read, the, test, on, thursday, a, relief, for, all, concerned, overall, work, seems, to, be, quietening, down, a, bit, this, week, compared, to, the, last, few, we, are, now, just, busy, rather, than, always, feeling, as, if, were, one, job, behind, all, the, time, on, wednesday, and, thursday, one, of, our, clients, brought, in, half, a, dozen, shetland, ponies, to, castrate, it, makes, a, change, to, have, a, large, animal, that, is, small, enough, to, be, easily, physically, restrained, by, one, person, the, continuing, good, weather, made, doing, an, afternoon's, work, with, the, ponies, in, the, practice’s, field, a, very, pleasant, way, to, spend, a, few, hours, i, can't, help, feeling, that, no, rain, in, april, means, we'll, get, loads, later, in, the, summer, i, was, on, a, second, call, at, the, weekend, saturday, was, very, busy, with, small, animal, jobs, which, i, mainly, left, to, a, colleague, while, i, tried, to, clear, up, the, farm, and, equine, jobs, calm, was, pretty, much, restored, by, late, afternoon, after, which, i, wasn't, called, until, early, sunday, morning, another, of, our, re, stocked, clients, is, having, considerable, trouble, with, some, of, his, new, animals, and, is, becoming, increasingly, frustrated, about, it, we, all, try, to, help, with, the, medical, side, of, it, animals, but, inevitably, also, get, to, hear, a, lot, of, his, other, worries, too, hopefully, things, will, look, up, soon, and, he'll, be, able, to, ride, it, out, ok, diary, 10, had, a, day, off, on, bank, holiday, monday, always, the, good, way, to, start, the, week, i, went, up, to, peebles, in, scotland, with, some, friends, to, go, mountain, biking, it, was, surprisingly, empty, for, a, weekend, and, the, weather, was, good, and, i, didn't, fall, off, all, in, all, a, good, day, out, tuesday, was, work, as, usual, i, had, to, do, a, small, tb, test, on, a, restocking, farm, it, shouldn't, have, been, a, long, job, but, the, facilities, weren't, great, so, it, didn’t, go, as, slickly, as, it, might, have, done, we, all, managed, to, get, through, in, one, piece, so, it, could, have, been, worse, one, of, my, colleagues, went, on, maternity, this, week, she, is, part, time, but, does, all, small, animal, work, now, that, she's, off, for, the, next, few, months, it, means, that, an, extra, vet, is, needed, each, morning, to, stay, in, and, do, small, animal, operations, while, it's, probably, not, my, favourite, sort, of, work, it, does, make, a, change, from, being, out, on, farms, every, morning, it's, also, good, to, get, a, bit, more, experience, at, small, procedures, as, well, as, doing, smaller, animals, this, week, has, brought, several, interesting, equine, cases, i, had, to, hospitalise, a, horse, for, a, few, days, for, fairly, intensive, treatment, which, fortunately, appears, to, have, made, a, good, recovery, there, have, also, been, a, couple, of, horse, operations, at, the, practice, this, week, they’re, generally, quite, interesting, apart, from, the, stress, involved, with, having, half, a, ton, of, horse, asleep, on, the, operating, table, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, to, edinburgh, for, a, small, reunion, with, friends, i, was, at, college, with, although, we, do, talk, about, other, things, conversation, inevitably, came, round, to, work, the, effect, of, fmd, and, its, consequences, are, still, very, much, in, people's, minds, friends, all, asked, how, it, was, last, year, and, whether, farms, have, restocked, yet, etc, etc, it, s, stuff, which, i, seem, to, have, said, hundreds, of, times, over, the, last, few, months, but, people, never, seem, to, tire, of, asking, it, and, to, an, extent, i, don't, seem, to, get, bored, of, answering, it, diary, 11, the, week, started, with, a, big, tb, test, at, a, restocking, dairy, farm, there, were, very, good, facilities, and, it, subsequently, went, very, smoothly, and, quickly, despite, the, number, of, cows, involved, the, farmer, seems, to, be, quite, positive, about, the, new, start, and, has, been, spared, a, lot, of, the, problems, that, other, people, have, experienced, while, restocking, in, terms, of, disease, in, the, animals, everything, was, clear, when, i, read, the, test, later, in, the, week, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, had, a, bit, of, a, change, as, i, went, castrate, two, ponies, belonging, to, my, mother, she, had, bought, two, totally, wild, fell, ponies, last, autumn, they, now, a, bit, tamer, but, not, completely, used, to, being, handled, yet, i, went, with, one, of, our, nurses, and, the, senior, partner, and, it, all, went, pretty, much, to, plan, work, is, still, busy, there's, one, client, in, particular, who, is, giving, us, a, lot, to, do, he, restocked, a, few, months, ago, and, is, obviously, having, trouble, lambing, his, sheep, it, got, a, bit, trying, when, i, had, to, get, up, to, his, third, lambing, of, one, night, but, that's, what, we, are, there, for, i, suppose, he's, a, nice, man, and, always, seems, pleased, to, see, us, which, helps, i, had, the, weekend, off, again, and, went, to, glasgow, to, be, best, man, at, my, cousin's, wedding, apart, from, the, weather, it, went, very, well, i, think, with, no, unsolvable, problems, diary, 12, started, the, week, with, a, long, visit, for, dairy, fertility, work, to, one, of, our, big, dairy, farmers, it's, one, of, the, farmers, who, has, been, having, problems, after, restocking, and, a, visit, that, another, vet, usually, does, so, i, felt, a, bit, under, pressure, it's, the, type, of, work, which, is, very, routine, but, has, the, potential, to, go, quite, badly, wrong, on, the, whole, it, went, fairly, well, with, no, major, problems, i, get, on, pretty, well, with, the, farmer, which, always, helps, as, it, makes, the, time, go, by, quicker, small, animal, work, is, still, quite, busy, i, had, two, days, inside, this, week, doing, small, animals, operations, there, wasn't, anything, particularly, different, or, unusual, but, it, still, helps, to, do, more, of, it, one, of, our, farmers, who, managed, to, miss, fmd, is, very, busy, with, his, calving, schedule, at, the, moment, he’s, tending, to, have, very, big, calves, and, subsequently, we’re, doing, a, lot, of, caesareans, there, this, week, has, brought, at, least, half, a, dozen, of, which, two, were, in, the, middle, of, the, night, there, have, been, a, few, vets, are, looking, sleep, deprived, recently, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, so, see, a, couple, of, friends, in, edinburgh, we, spent, one, day, cycling, in, peebles, and, then, proceeded, to, nothing, strenuous, for, the, next, diary, 13, the, week, started, with, a, big, session, dehorning, cattle, it’s, not, exactly, technical, work, and, is, fairly, hard, work, at, least, it, gets, me, fit, we, would, normally, do, them, at, a, younger, age, but, quite, a, few, have, been, missed, as, we, didn’t, get, out, onto, farms, for, such, routine, work, last, year, on, the, whole, most, people, are, fairly, well, caught, up, now, that, they’ve, re, stocked, been, having, routine, work, done, for, the, last, 8, months, or, so, but, there, are, still, a, few, lagging, behind, i, had, a, call, from, a, farmer, who, was, one, of, our, most, consistently, and, vehemently, anti, defra, people, last, year, i, ended, up, doing, a, caesarean, and, had, quite, a, long, chat, with, him, conversation, ended, up, coming, round, to, the, events, of, last, year, and, he, aired, his, resentments, again, it, was, the, first, time, in, several, weeks, that, i, had, heard, this, kind, of, talk, whereas, a, few, months, ago, it, would, have, been, a, daily, occurrence, it, wasn’t, particularly, aimed, at, me, or, the, practice, in, particular, but, just, frustration, with, the, system, as, a, whole, i, went, for, a, walk, up, blencathra, one, evening, during, the, week, but, the, highlight, of, the, week, has, to, be, the, start, of, the, world, cup, i’ve, been, on, duty, this, w, e, but, managed, to, see, all, but, the, last, two, minutes, of, this, morning’s, rather, disappointing, draw, with, sweden, most, farmers, are, keen, to, watch, the, matches, too, so, lets, hope, not, too, many, calls, come, in, at, the, wrong, time, diary, 14, i, had, the, bank, holiday, on, monday, off, which, was, welcome, after, a, weekend, on, call, i, went, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, with, a, colleague, considering, it, was, a, bank, holiday, it, wasn't, too, crowded, had, to, work, on, bank, holiday, tuesday, though, it, wasn't, especially, busy, until, the, evening, when, i, had, to, do, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, and, then, go, and, see, a, badly, cut, horse, both, seem, to, be, doing, ok, the, rest, of, the, week, was, worked, as, usual, nothing, particularly, out, of, the, ordinary, happened, with, fairly, routine, calls, perhaps, it, was, because, everyone, was, preoccupied, with, events, in, japan, and, korea, or, maybe, that, is, just, me, i, was, booked, in, for, an, 11, am, call, on, friday, but, managed, to, persuade, the, farmer, concerned, that, 9.30, would, be, more, appropriate, said, that, i, or, should, that, be, we, could, watch, the, second, england, game, we, managed, to, get, finished, in, time, and, it, was, well, worth, it, the, 1, 0, win, over, argentina, put, everyone, in, a, good, mood, for, the, rest, of, the, day, and, the, weekend, i, was, on, first, call, over, the, weekend, saturday, morning, was, very, busy, and, we, didn’t, get, all, the, calls, done, until, early, afternoon, after, that, it, was, one, of, the, quietest, weekends, i’ve, had, they, were, a, couple, of, things, to, do, on, saturday, afternoon, evening, but, sunday, had, no, calls, until, after, lunch, almost, unheard, of, i, had, to, check, my, phone, was, switched, on, long, may, it, last, diary, 15, i’ve, done, two, days, in, the, practice, doing, small, animals, this, week, more, than, usual, the, weather, has, not, been, the, best, so, it's, no, bad, thing, i, managed, to, go, out, on, rounds, on, wednesday, though, so, i, managed, to, catch, the, third, england, match, second, round, here, we, come, i, spent, most, of, friday, morning, operating, on, two, cows, at, one, of, our, farms, they, both, had, a, condition, where, part, of, the, gut, displaces, in, the, abdomen, and, is, best, repositioned, surgically, the, farmer, observed, that, it, was, probably, linked, to, fmd, last, year, because, of, fmd, he, had, to, use, more, silage, to, keep, his, cows, inside, last, summer, this, meant, he, had, less, stored, over, the, winter, and, so, had, none, available, to, feed, this, spring, summer, the, lack, of, silage, now, is, almost, certainly, implicated, in, the, problems, his, cows, had, it's, very, unusual, to, have, two, occurring, on, one, farm, at, same, time, seeing, as, he, missed, getting, fmd, last, year, though, he, thought, it, was, a, price, worth, paying, it, was, actually, quite, a, pleasant, way, to, spend, a, morning, he's, from, kirkby, stephen, where, i, went, to, school, and, i, didn't, have, any, other, jobs, waiting, so, it, was, quite, a, relaxed, few, hours, the, surgery, went, ok, too, i, had, a, half, day, on, friday, and, drove, to, valley, just, beyond, alston, to, meet, one, of, my, old, flat, mates, from, edinburgh, for, his, stag, weekend, we, stayed, in, an, old, barn, in, middle, of, nowhere, so, it, wasn't, exactly, a, conventional, stag, party, but, very, enjoyable, all, the, same, we, walked, to, the, nearest, pub, on, saturday, to, see, england's, exciting, next, instalment, 3, 0, thank, you, very, much, after, that, it's, been, a, leisurely, day, and, drive, back, to, penrith, and, i’ve, got, another, night, to, get, my, head, back, to, normal, for, work, tomorrow, diary, 16, this, week, has, been, quite, small, animal, orientated, again, i've, done, two, mornings, in, the, surgery, and, more, consulting, than, usual, i'm, not, meant, to, be, on, duty, for, nights, this, week, but, i've, had, a, couple, to, cover, for, people, who've, been, on, holiday, fortunately, both, nights, were, fairly, quiet, i'm, sure, the, favour, will, be, returned, sometime, during, the, day, work, has, been, fairly, steady, we’re, not, quite, as, busy, as, last, week, but, there's, enough, to, keep, us, going, the, practice, like, most, of, the, country, tried, to, stop, briefly, while, england, were, losing, to, brazil, it's, a, bit, disappointing, hopefully, farmers, and, the, rest, of, our, clients, won’t, be, too, depressed, about, it, all, it, was, good, while, it, lasted, at, the, weekend, i, went, down, to, a, place, near, worcester, for, the, wedding, of, the, friend, whose, stag, weekend, it, was, the, last, week, there, were, a, lot, of, people, from, edinburgh, there, why, haven't, seen, for, several, years, and, it, was, great, to, catch, up, the, weather, was, very, kind, and, stayed, dry, diary, 18, on, monday, i, went, to, do, a, big, tuberculosis, and, brucellosis, test, at, of, one, our, big, dairy, farms, that, had, restocked, few, months, ago, they’ve, got, several, hundred, cows, and, it, took, a, lot, longer, than, anticipated, i, had, to, go, back, on, tuesday, to, finish, the, job, off, they’re, a, friendly, family, so, it, wasn't, really, too, much, of, a, chore, there, has, been, a, more, obvious, change, in, them, since, fmd, than, for, most, of, our, clients, who, had, the, disease, they, seem, much, quieter, and, less, concerned, about, farming, and, life's, problems, in, general, now, perhaps, they, think, if, they, can, get, through, 2001, then, there’s, nothing, worth, getting, stressed, about, in, comparison, wednesday, was, spent, doing, small, animal, work, made, a, change, as, on, thursday, i, went, back, to, read, the, cows, results, for, the, tb, test, all, negative, on, thursday, night, i, drove, down, to, stay, with, a, college, friend, near, birmingham, for, the, start, of, a, long, weekend, on, friday, i, carried, on, south, to, another, friend, in, north, devon, she's, working, another, vet, in, an, area, that, was, also, severely, affected, by, fmd, cumbria, was, so, badly, hit, that, is, sometimes, easy, to, forget, that, other, places, had, a, bad, time, too, thankfully, work, in, devon, is, more, or, less, back, to, normal, again, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, weekend, in, south, devon, where, my, dad, had, his, 60th, birthday, we, were, lucky, with, the, weather, and, had, fine, ish, conditions, to, have, a, barbecue, on, the, beach, i, was, off, today, monday, as, well, and, spent, the, day, driving, north, too, far, to, go, for, a, weekend, diary, 19, it's, been, a, short, working, week, seeing, as, i, had, monday, off, i’ve, also, started, a, month, back, on, the, out, of, the, hours, of, rota, this, week, it, works, a, month, on, a, month, off, system, so, nights, and, weekends, have, been, and, will, be, a, bit, busier, work, has, generally, been, a, bit, quieter, recently, this, is, fairly, typical, for, the, time, of, year, mainly, because, animals, are, outside, and, farmers, are, busy, making, hay, and, silage, rain, permitting, we've, had, two, vets, off, this, week, so, although, there, have, been, fewer, jobs, in, we, are, not, left, twiddling, our, thumbs, there, has, been, the, usual, flow, of, a, routine, farm, work, along, with, horses, and, small, animals, but, nothing, too, taxing, on, the, whole, i, had, a, night, on, thursday, and, went, up, st, sunday, crag, in, the, lake, district, with, a, couple, of, friends, from, brampton, it, was, further, than, i, remembered, it, being, we, didn't, get, down, until, it, was, almost, dark, but, apart, from, being, unseasonably, cold, surprise, surprise, it, was, a, fine, night, it, was, duty, this, weekend, i, was, on, first, call, on, friday, night, and, had, it, very, easy, no, calls, until, 12, 45pm, when, another, vet, and, i, had, to, operate, on, a, dog, until, three, am, i, checked, it, again, at, 5.30, and, then, had, to, go, to, calving, at, 6.45, just, as, that, was, finished, i, was, called, to, a, badly, cut, horse, then, some, lame, cows, and, then, to, the, bacon, roll, shop, for, breakfast, i, was, only, on, second, call, for, the, rest, of, the, weekend, and, was, fairly, quiet, this, meant, i, could, get, on, with, various, mundane, things, like, painting, my, house, tidying, the, garden, etc, etc, ideal, tasks, for, when, i, can't, do, anything, else, because, i'm, on, call, and, the, dog, did, well, so, it, makes, the, night, with, no, sleep, worthwhile, diary, 20, have, had, another, short, week, had, monday, off, as, i, was, coming, back, from, a, long, weekend, away, work, this, week, has, been, fairly, steady, farmers, are, often, busy, trying, to, get, silage, hay, in, at, the, moment, so, routine, of, vet, work, takes, a, back, seat, having, said, that, we, have, been, kept, at, least, as, busy, as, we, would, expect, with, routine, fertility, visits, and, the, occasional, sick, cow, etc, there, been, a, few, of, the, restocking, farms, that, have, had, some, fairly, unusual, diseases, that, didn't, obviously, fall, into, the, ones, we, usually, recognise, or, deal, with, as, a, lot, of, them, have, bought, stock, in, from, abroad, we, have, to, at, least, keep, in, mind, the, possibility, of, new, problems, been, brought, in, we've, worked, quite, closely, with, the, local, defra, run, veterinary, investigation, centre, on, a, few, of, these, cases, but, thankfully, none, have, turned, out, to, be, anything, to, be, unduly, worried, about, i, was, on, duty, this, weekend, but, have, fortunately, been, reasonably, quiet, the, only, thing, out, the, ordinary, was, a, horse, that, had, torn, its, leg, up, quite, badly, on, some, wire, but, with, a, bit, of, time, and, bandaging, it, should, do, okay, diary, 21, 2, vets, have, been, off, this, week, so, it's, been, a, bit, busier, for, the, rest, of, us, again, as, with, last, week, it's, been, a, mixture, of, routine, and, the, standard, a, e, type, work, there, have, been, a, few, tuberculin, tests, going, on, still, trying, to, clear, the, backlog, from, last, year, it's, getting, there, slowly, but, a, lot, of, it, will, have, to, wait, until, the, autumn, winter, when, the, cows, are, in, and, the, farmers, have, more, time, available, our, new, vet, who, started, in, april, has, seemed, to, settle, in, very, well, he, had, a, bit, of, a, bad, day, earlier, in, the, week, when, a, calving, did, go, quite, as, planned, it's, very, easy, to, do, especially, when, you, feel, under, pressure, as, is, bound, to, happen, when, you, start, a, new, job, it, reminded, me, of, some, of, the, problems, i, had, a, few, years, ago, the, farm, where, it, happened, is, quite, an, understanding, type, so, it, won't, create, any, real, problems, hockey, training, is, starting, again, which, seems, a, bit, premature, as, the, season, is, still, months, away, at, least, it'll, encourage, me, to, do, a, bit, more, exercise, to, get, fit, for, matches, the, weather, has, meant, i, haven't, been, out, into, the, hills, as, often, as, i, would, have, liked, but, hopefully, there's, still, time, for, it, to, brighten, up, a, bit, had, the, weekend, off, so, a, couple, of, friends, from, college, he, now, living, york, came, to, stay, we, went, up, to, the, borders, for, the, day, on, saturday, near, to, where, i, used, to, work, it, doesn't, seem, to, have, changed, much, i, still, think, i'm, better, off, down, here, despite, last, year, diary, 22, we, had, a, bit, of, a, rush, on, this, week, as, sometimes, seems, to, happen, it, can, be, quiet, for, couple, of, weeks, and, then, it, suddenly, it's, crazy, it, may, be, that, a, lot, of, farms, have, now, largely, got, their, crops, in, and, are, trying, to, catch, up, or, perhaps, it's, just, the, way, things, go, several, farms, have, had, ongoing, problems, this, week, with, visits, being, required, several, days, running, there, have, also, been, a, large, number, of, horse, calls, this, is, probably, fairly, common, for, this, time, of, year, as, they, tend, to, get, ridden, in, the, supposedly, better, weather, we, tend, to, go, further, afield, for, horses, on, tuesday, i, went, to, kirkby, lonsdale, area, in, morning, and, had, to, go, north, of, carlisle, in, the, afternoon, the, miles, get, racked, up, or, fairly, quickly, and, i, get, to, learn, where, the, various, blind, spots, for, phone, and, radio, reception, are, i, was, on, duty, again, on, the, weekend, which, meant, that, i, was, also, on, for, monday, wednesday, and, friday, nights, they, weren't, too, bad, apart, from, friday, when, i, have, to, go, and, see, a, couple, of, horses, being, on, duty, for, three, week, nights, tends, to, limit, what, i, can, do, apart, from, work, but, i, managed, to, meet, up, with, some, friends, working, in, brampton, one, night, and, go, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, on, thursday, the, weekend, was, fairly, quiet, but, i, was, only, on, second, call, so, i, found, time, to, do, some, decorating, in, the, room, in, my, house, which, is, the, current, project, i, lead, such, a, thrilling, life, diary, 23, the, calm, after, the, storm, after, the, frantic, levels, of, work, we, saw, last, week, it, has, again, been, a, bit, more, civilised, this, week, we've, had, time, to, have, coffee, and, lunch, breaks, and, actually, talk, to, colleagues, from, time, to, time, i, wouldn't, want, have, every, week, is, quiet, as, this, but, occasionally, it's, very, welcome, it's, quite, relaxing, to, be, able, to, go, on, a, call, knowing, that, there, is, not, another, one, waiting, it, also, means, that, if, the, afternoons, are, quiet, one, of, us, can, usually, have, a, half, day, i, got, the, nod, on, wednesday, and, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, my, folks, they’ve, got, a, smallholding, down, there, with, various, creatures, which, usually, have, some, ailment, or, other, it's, a, bit, of, a, busman's, holiday, going, there, but, it, is, nice, having, them, close, i, tend, see, them, every, week, or, two, on, wednesday, i, vaccinated, a, couple, of, horses, and, trimmed, a, few, sheep’s, feet, they, went, through, the, joys, of, 48, hourly, surveillance, inspections, last, year, but, somehow, managed, to, come, through, unscathed, their, parish, was, one, of, the, only, ones, in, the, kirkby, stephen, area, to, do, so, other, weekend, i, went, up, to, glasgow, to, see, a, cousin, who, was, having, a, leaving, party, i, didn't, know, many, people, there, but, it, was, good, to, go, and, do, something, completely, removed, from, the, usual, one, of, the, people, i, did, know, came, and, stayed, in, penrith, on, sunday, night, it, was, a, stunning, day, we, went, the, lakes, which, were, at, their, best, diary, 24, this, week, was, the, first, of, four, for, me, being, off, the, rota, which, should, mean, no, nights, and, no, weekends, on, call, can't, be, bad, on, monday, had, a, small, tb, test, to, do, it, was, with, a, very, pleasant, farmer, and, the, cows, behaved, themselves, so, it, wasn't, a, bad, way, to, spend, a, morning, he's, imported, a, small, herd, from, holland, and, seems, very, pleased, with, them, so, far, it, takes, a, bit, time, for, the, f, m, farmers, to, get, used, to, their, new, stock, as, most, of, them, knew, their, old, ones, so, well, but, on, the, whole, people, seemed, fairly, content, with, their, new, ones, i, did, small, animal, ops, on, tuesday, and, wednesday, as, one, of, the, vets, who, usually, do, it, was, on, holiday, we've, got, a, new, nurse, starting, this, week, so, it, was, a, case, of, showing, her, the, ropes, but, she, seems, to, be, doing, very, well, one, my, best, school, friends, got, married, on, friday, very, typically, after, a, fairly, quiet, week, it, suddenly, got, busy, on, friday, afternoon, i, managed, to, get, the, wedding, but, had, to, miss, the, afternoon, reception, in, order, to, go, and, see, a, horse, in, appleby, that's, life, i, was, one, of, the, duty, vets, at, lowther, show, on, saturday, i, hadn't, done, it, before, and, had, a, very, good, time, it, was, generally, fine, weather, and, there, were, some, truly, stunning, teams, of, horses, in, the, driving, event, lots, of, competitors, commented, on, how, good, it, was, to, have, the, show, up, and, running, again, after, last, year's, cancellations, the, event, passed, without, any, major, incident, for, vet, wise, so, it, was, a, pretty, calm, day, for, me, really, diary, 25, the, week's, been, fairly, steady, i, seem, to, have, been, doing, more, horses, than, anything, else, i, didn't, go, and, see, a, cow, until, friday, several, of, them, were, ongoing, cases, such, as, leg, wounds, that, have, needed, daily, dressing, changes, and, the, rest, a, selection, of, vaccinations, lameness, and, those, that, aren't, quite, right, i, quite, enjoy, the, horse, side, of, the, job, so, doing, a, bit, more, than, usual, has, been, a, welcome, change, i, had, planned, to, get, to, work, on, my, house, this, month, in, my, free, evenings, but, it, doesn't, really, seem, to, have, worked, like, that, when, i, know, i've, got, a, lot, of, free, time, nights, tend, to, get, booked, up, seeing, people, from, home, or, near, by, who, i’ve, temporarily, lost, touch, with, also, seeing, as, summer, seems, to, have, found, us, i've, been, trying, to, get, into, the, lakes, as, much, as, possible, the, house, can, wait, till, winter, this, weekend, i’ve, been, down, to, wales, to, see, a, group, of, college, friends, we, stayed, in, a, cottage, owned, by, one, of, the, group's, parents, and, played, a, few, rounds, of, golf, i, played, very, badly, lost, a, lot, of, balls, and, became, very, frustrated, with, it, all, i, think, it, comes, down, to, lack, of, talent, still, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, some, people, i, haven't, seen, since, graduation, and, i'm, sure, the, golf, will, be, better, next, year, diary, 26, i've, done, more, small, animal, work, than, anything, else, this, week, there, had, been, no, disasters, all, fairly, routine, stuff, one, of, the, small, animal, vets, has, been, away, so, i, had, to, cover, a, bit, i, didn't, actually, get, out, onto, a, farm, until, friday, morning, it, gets, a, bit, claustrophobic, inside, after, a, while, so, it, was, good, to, get, out, i, was, on, call, at, the, weekend, and, also, had, a, college, friend, to, stay, it, was, very, quiet, most, of, the, time, until, sunday, evening, i, had, swapped, duty, to, be, off, on, the, night, from, 6, 00pm, at, 5.45, four, calls, all, came, in, at, once, at, all, four, corners, of, the, practice, so, i, didn't, actually, get, finished, until, nearly, 8pm, that’s, the, way, it, goes, sometimes, i, suppose, i, had, another, half, day, earlier, in, the, week, as, it, was, fairly, quiet, i, took, my, bike, out, into, the, northern, lakes, for, a, few, hours, to, blow, away, the, cobwebs, from, being, inside, at, work, diary, 27, i, had, a, barbecue, party, this, weekend, for, people, from, work, and, a, lot, of, friends, from, college, there, were, a, lot, of, people, i, thought, i'd, always, keep, in, touch, with, the, but, as, time, went, on, i, never, did, so, i, arranged, a, weekend, a, long, way, in, advance, for, us, all, to, meet, up, again, about, 28, people, came, most, of, whom, i, haven't, seen, for, least, a, year, or, two, nobody, seems, to, have, changed, much, and, it, was, great, to, see, them, all, again, the, garden, and, house, have, both, taken, a, bit, of, a, pounding, but, i, think, most, of, the, mess, is, fairly, superficial, i, went, for, a, walk, near, howtown, today, to, clear, my, head, after, the, barbecue, last, night, it, was, a, very, good, day, weather, wise, which, meant, that, a, lot, of, people, had, had, the, same, idea, as, us, it's, been, a, variable, week, at, work, some, days, been, very, quiet, others, flat, out, i've, had, an, ongoing, case, of, a, young, horse, that, had, been, caught, up, in, wire, on, monday, evening, it, was, well, beyond, the, stage, where, it, could, have, been, stitched, when, i, saw, it, so, it'll, have, to, heal, slowly, by, filling, the, wound, in, i'm, sure, it'll, be, fine, but, it's, going, to, take, a, long, time, we’re, starting, to, get, a, lot, of, inquiries, about, the, new, rules, defra, are, bringing, in, to, allow, farmers, to, bring, animals, on, to, their, farms, in, isolation, facilities, it, should, make, things, less, restrictive, for, the, farmer, we, are, going, to, have, to, do, a, lot, of, inspections, it's, not, since, restocking, checks, last, winter, that, we’ve, really, had, to, do, this, sort, of, thing, but, the, checks, probably, won't, be, as, exhaustive, as, those, we, had, to, do, last, year, diary, 28, had, a, fairly, quiet, week, really, this, been, a, fairly, standard, mix, of, sick, cows, a, couple, of, lame, horses, and, the, continuation, of, the, young, horse, that, wrecked, its, leg, last, week, which, is, going, okay, so, it's, been, fairly, laid, back, on, the, whole, with, time, for, a, coffee, break, after, most, calls, we, have, done, the, first, of, the, inspections, for, the, new, on, farm, isolation, facilities, for, sheep, on, the, whole, farmer, compliance, has, been, very, good, there, have, been, a, few, whinges, about, why, they, have, to, do, it, and, i, can, see, why, as, it, must, be, frustrating, to, suddenly, be, told, how, to, run, stock, movements, that, they've, always, done, a, different, way, most, can, see, why, defra, are, insisting, on, it, though, as, it's, all, aimed, at, reducing, the, risk, of, having, another, situation, like, we, did, last, year, i, was, off, again, this, weekend, one, of, my, old, flat, mates, and, his, wife, came, to, stay, they, live, in, london, so, came, north, for, a, weekend, of, clean, living, and, fresh, air, we, went, for, walks, around, cat, bells, and, high, street, on, saturday, and, sunday, ate, drank, and, were, generally, fairly, unstressed, hope, it, was, what, they, were, looking, for, diary, 29, i've, had, a, short, week, in, terms, of, work, at, the, practice, this, week, as, i've, been, to, glasgow, for, an, equine, conference, from, thursday, to, saturday, further, education, is, not, compulsory, and, there, is, no, formal, structure, for, it, which, is, quite, controversial, in, some, people's, eyes, but, the, royal, college, of, vets, do, encourage, us, to, keep, up, to, date, there, is, a, quota, we’re, asked, to, fulfil, each, year, and, these, three, days, will, help, me, keep, on, track, there, were, several, different, courses, on, each, day, with, one, lecture, theatre, for, practitioner, based, subjects, that, we, could, expect, to, see, on, a, day, to, day, basis, and, another, called, advanced, clinical, sessions, on, subjects, and, cases, so, obscure, that, you'd, be, lucky, to, hear, of, one, let, alone, see, one, more, than, once, or, twice, i, didn't, go, to, many, of, those, lectures, as, well, as, being, useful, in, terms, of, picking, up, new, information, it, was, also, a, good, chance, to, catch, up, with, old, friends, from, college, lots, of, people, i, hadn't, seen, for, a, year, or, two, were, there, and, it, was, good, to, see, them, the, first, three, days, of, the, week, were, okay, i, went, out, on, tuesday, morning, to, trim, some, lame, cows, feet, and, ended, up, accidentally, trimming, some, skin, from, the, farmers, thumb, with, my, hoof, knife, all, a, bit, embarrassing, and, felt, very, bad, but, he, didn't, seem, that, fazed, by, it, and, he's, not, the, type, to, bear, a, grudge, perhaps, i, shouldn’t, try, to, keep, my, knife, so, sharp, another, of, the, week's, more, interesting, events, was, an, irish, wolfhound, that, needed, surgery, to, correct, a, twisted, and, distended, stomach, it's, fairly, common, in, this, type, of, dog, and, is, a, real, emergency, another, vet, and, i, operated, on, him, on, tuesday, afternoon, it, took, a, couple, of, hours, but, so, far, is, seems, to, have, been, worth, it, as, he's, done, very, well, and, apparently, went, home, on, friday, diary, 30, i, spent, most, of, monday, afternoon, evening, irradiating, myself, by, taking, dozens, of, x, rays, of, a, horse’s, legs, it, was, being, sold, for, a, lot, of, money, and, the, insurance, company, wanted, to, check, all, its, joints, were, ok, before, insuring, it, it, took, a, lot, longer, than, anticipated, as, it, was, difficult, to, get, it, positioned, absolutely, right, for, each, view, but, we, got, there, in, the, end, we, have, to, be, quite, careful, about, exposure, to, x, rays, but, my, x, ray, badge, hasn't, shown, a, high, reading, yet, 2, vets, have, been, off, this, week, one, on, his, honeymoon, and, one, has, been, away, doing, ai, on, sheep, its, often, a, bit, quieter, now, but, we, seem, to, have, been, kept, going, i, did, a, big, routine, fertility, visit, to, one, of, our, dairy, farms, on, wednesday, one, of, the, main, things, we, do, on, these, visits, is, manual, pregnancy, diagnosis, it's, not, too, bad, with, dairy, calves, cows, as, if, they're, not, in, calf, they, would, normally, get, another, chance, to, do, so, but, with, some, beef, farms, or, a, dairy, cow, that, is, persistently, not, conceiving, it, sometimes, more, economic, to, get, rid, of, the, cow, of, rather, than, persisting, so, there's, a, big, incentive, for, us, to, get, it, right, or, at, least, not, to, say, a, cow, isn't, in, calf, when, she, is, luckily, they, were, all, quite, straightforward, this, week, this, was, my, last, before, going, away, to, the, usa, for, a, fortnight, i, fly, to, new, york, tomorrow, to, meet, up, with, an, old, flatmate, of, mine, who's, a, journalist, out, there, i'm, crossing, the, atlantic, to, see, him, and, he's, given, me, directions, to, his, flat, rather, than, meeting, me, at, the, airport, because, i'm, arriving, when, premiership, football, is, on, tv, charming, diary, 31, two, weeks, in, the, states, can't, be, bad, i, flew, into, new, york, where, i, stayed, with, a, friend, who's, working, in, manhattan, i, did, a, lot, of, the, usual, tourist, things, empire, state, building, boat, trip, around, the, island, central, park, etc, for, its, size, it's, a, very, relaxed, place, in, a, lot, of, ways, it, feels, very, safe, and, although, there, is, loads, going, on, you, never, seem, to, get, hassled, we, flew, to, new, orleans, for, a, week, supposedly, for, some, sun, in, the, deep, south, but, landed, just, as, a, tropical, storm, hit, the, mainland, everything, was, closed, for, two, days, as, bad, as, uk, when, it, snows, once, the, weather, cleared, it, was, fine, and, we, again, went, about, being, tourists, paddle, boat, up, the, mississippi, river, out, on, a, boat, in, the, louisiana, swamps, to, look, at, alligators, and, a, bit, of, new, orleans, nightlife, i, had, a, few, more, days, in, new, york, before, flying, home, diary, 32, first, week, back, after, america, had, a, good, trip, but, the, week, has, been, rather, marred, by, the, death, of, one, of, the, hockey, team, and, a, year, mate, of, mine, at, school, in, a, tractor, accident, when, he, was, hit, by, a, wagon, on, the, a, 66, on, thursday, i, saw, him, on, wednesday, night, at, hockey, training, he, was, very, stiff, having, done, the, great, north, run, with, his, wife, the, weekend, before, i, didn't, know, him, very, well, at, school, but, have, got, to, over, the, last, few, years, via, hockey, and, he, really, was, a, tremendously, good, person, and, will, be, much, missed, by, lots, of, people, in, and, around, kirkby, stephen, the, weekend's, match, was, postponed, as, no, one, could, have, thought, about, playing, it, all, seems, very, trivial, when, this, sort, of, thing, happens, i, couldn't, have, played, anyway, as, i'm, on, duty, this, weekend, but, fortunately, it's, been, fairly, quiet, so, far, a, calving, and, 2, caesareans, but, it's, getting, into, calving, season, so, it's, about, par, for, the, course, the, first, half, of, the, week, was, ok, i, was, even, given, a, half, day, on, tuesday, a, day, and, a, half, after, returning, from, holiday, i, went, for, a, walk, at, the, bottom, end, of, derwent, water, and, then, tried, to, sleep, off, some, jet, lag, diary, 33, i, went, to, matthew's, funeral, on, tuesday, how, popular, he, was, was, reflected, in, the, number, of, people, there, we, arrived, 25, minutes, before, it, was, due, to, start, and, still, had, to, stand, and, had, to, move, up, as, more, people, tried, to, fit, into, the, chapel, it, almost, seemed, as, if, all, of, kirkby, had, come, to, a, standstill, it, went, on, quite, a, long, time, so, i, had, the, afternoon, off, and, went, to, see, my, parents, who, live, near, kirkby, afterwards, we, cancelled, hockey, training, on, wednesday, as, it, seemed, too, soon, to, go, on, as, usual, but, decided, play, our, scheduled, match, on, saturday, both, our, team, and, the, opposition, had, two, minute, silence, before, the, match, we, ended, up, drawing, 0, 0, but, it, was, a, very, good, close, game, we, normally, lose, to, this, team, and, played, in, a, competitive, but, fair, spirit, just, what, was, needed, for, our, first, match, back, i'm, actually, on, duty, again, this, weekend, but, one, my, colleagues, covered, for, me, for, a, few, hours, so, i, could, go, to, play, the, cases, at, work, have, been, fairly, steady, this, week, i'm, going, to, enrol, for, a, further, qualification, in, equine, practice, in, the, next, week, or, two, i'm, doing, a, reasonable, amount, of, horse, work, at, the, moment, but, will, try, to, do, a, bit, more, over, the, next, few, months, years, it, should, motivate, me, to, read, up, on, cases, more, and, find, slightly, more, constructive, ways, to, spend, evenings, on, call, diary, 34, tb, testing, our, biggest, beef, herd, had, its, post, restocking, test, this, week, about, 600, cattle, were, to, be, done, there’s, no, way, it, could, be, done, in, one, go, so, we, did, it, over, 3, instead, originally, planned, for, two, but, ran, out, of, daylight, it, all, went, smoothly, on, the, whole, or, at, least, as, well, as, could, be, expected, and, everything, has, been, cleared, as, negative, i, found, out, from, defra, a, few, weeks, ago, that, there, have, actually, been, quite, a, few, tb, cases, in, the, county, since, restocking, as, we'd, been, clear, for, years, previously, to, fmd, this, is, obviously, a, bit, of, a, worry, we, haven't, had, any, cases, in, our, practice, but, if, we, can't, stamp, out, these, new, cases, as, they, are, found, it’s, only, a, matter, of, time, before, it, spreads, further, afield, the, more, we, get, in, the, county, also, means, there, will, have, to, be, more, testing, at, the, moment, it's, begrudgingly, accepted, by, the, farmers, but, if, we, have, to, do, more, i, can, see, them, having, a, sense, of, humour, failure, over, it, ultimately, it's, in, their, interest, for, us, to, check, that, their, herd, is, free, but, it, is, a, big, time, commitment, and, they, don't, get, paid, for, it, while, i, spent, two, days, testing, the, rest, of, the, week, had, a, bit, more, variety, i, saw, few, horses, mainly, lameness, but, also, one, or, two, with, other, ailments, i, have, to, write, a, casebook, for, the, equine, certificate, i'm, doing, i’m, on, the, lookout, for, suitable, cases, during, my, rounds, i, had, the, weekend, off, played, hockey, in, manchester, and, then, went, to, worcester, to, see, some, college, friends, i, had, to, drive, back, via, ely, as, the, trains, are, cancelled, due, to, the, winds, which, meant, a, friend, was, stranded, not, a, very, direct, route, to, cumbria, diary, 35, the, week, started, on, monday, morning, with, another, tb, test, on, a, restocking, farm, it's, not, a, big, farm, and, was, one, of, the, late, ones, to, get, fmd, it's, run, by, a, very, nice, but, quite, intense, family, the, son, has, taken, re, stocking, very, seriously, and, has, obviously, thought, of, it, very, much, as, an, opportunity, to, start, from, scratch, and, try, to, eliminate, some, of, their, previous, herd, problems, i, have, consequently, spent, quite, a, bit, of, time, advising, him, over, the, various, vaccines, available, and, their, relative, pros, and, cons, thankfully, things, seem, to, be, paying, off, so, far, with, few, problems, in, herd, one, of, the, things, that, i, noticed, during, the, test, was, that, they, made, one, or, two, jokes, about, last, year, sorry, forgotten, exactly, what, they, said, i, thought, the, fact, that, they, were, able, to, now, talk, about, fmd, like, that, had, to, be, a, good, sign, as, i, think, it, would, have, been, highly, unlikely, a, year, ago, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, went, up, to, wigton, to, vet, a, horse, for, a, potential, buyer, there, were, several, minor, things, wrong, with, it, but, overall, it, seemed, ok, it's, always, a, responsibility, vetting, horses, as, someone, is, either, trying, to, buy, it, or, not, on, the, basis, of, what, i, find, in, this, case, it, took, quite, a, lot, of, convincing, the, buyer, that, the, imperfections, were, not, that, serious, hopefully, they, won’t, subsequently, turn, out, to, be, a, problem, i've, started, doing, more, horse, cases, recently, and, on, tuesday, sent, off, my, application, form, to, be, accepted, to, do, further, exams, in, horse, practice, i, have, to, wait, until, next, year, to, find, out, whether, i've, been, accepted, and, won't, sit, them, until, 2005, i, was, off, this, weekend, and, played, hockey, in, manchester, unfortunately, we, didn't, win, maybe, next, week, saturday, evening, i, went, down, to, kendal, to, see, an, old, flatmate, who, lives, there, diary, 36, on, tuesday, i, went, to, see, a, horse, near, carlisle, it, had, developed, a, swelling, on, its, lower, jaw, that, was, fairly, painful, to, touch, they, were, a, few, possibilities, but, the, most, likely, was, that, it, had, at, tooth, root, abscess, i, put, it, on, to, antibiotics, but, seeing, as, it, had, obviously, been, going, on, for, a, while, thought, it, was, worth, taking, some, x, rays, there, was, obvious, destruction, of, the, tooth, visible, on, the, x, ray, which, probably, means, it, needs, removing, this, is, a, fairly, major, undertaking, on, a, horse, and, as, it, was, a, valuable, creature, still, in, training, i, thought, it, best, to, send, to, edinburgh, vet, school, to, have, it, done, hopefully, i'll, be, able, to, go, and, see, it, done, in, a, day, or, two's, time, one, of, the, aspects, drawbacks, not, really, of, being, a, vet, his, that, one, is, often, asked, about, animal, ailments, out, of, work, i’m, sure, it, happens, a, lot, in, other, jobs, too, my, mother, is, very, adept, at, this, not, that, i, really, mind, her, elderly, terrier, that, we, grew, up, with, has, started, having, one, or, two, problems, recently, i, suggested, a, few, possibilities, but, thought, it, best, if, she, went, to, the, local, vets, to, have, her, looked, at, the, problem, was, she, was, so, bad, tempered, the, terrier, that, they, couldn’t, safely, blood, sample, her, so, she, had, a, day, out, to, penrith, so, that, i, could, try, to, take, blood, from, her, i, managed, to, more, or, less, intact, and, fortunately, her, results, seemed, more, or, less, in, order, or, at, least, better, than, her, temper, the, general, work, in, the, practice, has, been, fairly, steady, this, week, a, few, farmers, seem, to, be, having, quite, a, few, cows, calving, at, the, moment, which, is, a, bit, unseasonal, but, i, suppose, a, reasonable, number, tend, to, calve, all, year, round, we, haven't, really, got, into, calf, pneumonia, season, yet, but, it, can't, be, long, before, they, start, to, keep, us, busy, it, will, soon, take, over, from, lungworm, as, the, main, bovine, respiratory, problem, the, weekend, was, off, again, brought, a, victory, in, a, hockey, match, the, start, of, a, winning, streak, perhaps, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, after, the, match, to, see, a, few, friends, and, for, the, start, of, a, week, off, wahey, diary, 37, it's, a, week, off, can't, be, bad, i, didn't, do, what, i, had, planned, due, to, an, unforeseen, change, in, circumstances, but, still, good, as, i, was, in, edinburgh, last, weekend, i, decided, to, stay, up, for, few, days, this, was, partly, to, see, friends, and, also, because, i, had, referred, the, horse, with, a, bad, tooth, that, i, mentioned, last, week, voluntary, work, experience, during, time, off, dedication, or, very, rash, i, spent, tuesday, at, the, vet, school, in, edinburgh, with, one, of, my, old, tutors, the, case, i, had, sent, up, was, successfully, treated, so, far, by, removing, the, offending, tooth, it, was, very, interesting, to, see, how, he, did, it, as, he, used, a, different, technique, to, the, one, we’ve, used, in, the, practice, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, there, with, him, seeing, other, cases, it, felt, a, bit, odd, being, there, not, as, a, student, i, came, home, on, tuesday, evening, and, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, my, folks, on, wednesday, morning, i, spent, most, of, the, rest, of, the, week, either, at, their, house, or, mine, doing, things, like, stocking, up, on, firewood, for, the, winter, sorting, my, house, out, and, making, a, start, on, stripping, the, wallpaper, in, my, hallway, i, normally, go, away, when, i, take, time, off, but, it, was, actually, very, nice, to, do, things, at, home, for, change, it, made, for, quite, a, relaxing, week, on, the, whole, diary, 38, back, to, work, it, was, good, to, have, a, week, off, last, week, but, one, of, the, best, things, about, where, i, work, and, what, i, do, is, that, i, never, seem, to, feel, reluctant, to, go, back, to, work, i, think, that, must, mean, i, enjoy, it, on, the, whole, on, tuesday, i, went, back, to, see, the, horse, that, had, had, its, tooth, removed, last, week, it's, doing, very, well, and, is, back, in, training, it, was, eating, very, well, as, soon, as, the, tooth, came, out, it's, amazing, how, animals, often, seem, to, deal, with, pain, so, stoically, i'll, check, it, again, next, week, and, all, things, being, well, that, should, be, it, on, tuesday, afternoon, i, happened, to, see, another, slightly, unusual, case, in, a, horse, it, had, developed, a, lump, on, the, outside, of, its, cheek, which, on, closer, inspection, turned, out, to, be, a, large, mass, man, inside, its, mouth, it's, probably, going, to, have, to, be, removed, and, should, come, in, next, week, for, it, to, be, done, the, rest, of, the, week, was, the, usual, mix, of, more, routine, cases, have, been, on, to, more, farms, this, week, than, i, have, done, for, a, while, we, recently, took, on, a, new, dairy, farm, near, appleby, and, i, went, to, see, a, cow, there, for, the, first, time, on, a, first, visit, you, always, hope, for, something, straightforward, so, that, it's, easy, to, make, a, good, first, impression, on, this, occasion, the, cow, was, very, sick, and, wasn't, really, giving, me, many, clues, as, to, why, all, i, could, do, was, treat, it, for, the, symptoms, it, was, showing, i, saw, it, twice, on, friday, and, again, on, saturday, and, by, evening, it, was, on, the, mend, i, never, did, reach, a, conclusive, diagnosis, but, i, think, the, farmer, was, satisfied, by, the, fact, that, it, had, got, better, in, spite, of, not, knowing, quite, what, was, wrong, i, was, on, duty, friday, night, very, quiet, and, on, saturday, apart, from, the, cow, i, mentioned, it, was, fairly, easy, going, today, i, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, some, old, friends, staying, with, my, parents, two, weeks, with, no, tb, testing, it'll, change, next, week, diary, 39, it's, been, a, fairly, uneventful, week, at, work, there, don't, seem, to, have, been, any, particularly, on, going, or, notable, cases, in, some, ways, it's, not, a, bad, thing, as, it, makes, for, a, fairly, stress, free, time, it's, not, that, you, can, really, switch, off, but, it, does, mean, that, when, there, are, a, few, fairly, straightforward, cases, to, see, it's, possible, to, spend, more, time, chatting, to, the, farmer, owner, without, having, to, work, too, hard, finding, what's, wrong, with, the, patient, this, week's, most, interesting, case, was, a, horse, with, amazingly, extensive, arthritis, in, its, hind, legs, considering, its, age, it's, not, a, terminal, condition, but, it, does, have, implications, as, to, what, it, will, be, possible, to, use, it, for, in, future, in, situations, like, that, it, can, be, quite, difficult, to, give, the, client, the, right, outlook, they, often, expect, a, quick, cure, especially, in, a, young, horse, and, to, tell, them, that, a, problem, has, been, present, for, months, if, not, years, and, will, never, completely, go, away, can, come, as, a, bit, of, shock, the, owner, in, this, case, was, very, sensible, and, seemed, to, taking, what, was, said, very, well, the, other, good, thing, about, this, week, is, that, i'm, having, a, very, good, run, with, my, duties, i've, been, on, for, two, nights, on, first, call, and, the, phone, hasn't, gone, once, very, unusual, and, very, welcome, this, must, be, tempting, fate, i've, had, the, weekend, off, there, was, a, hockey, match, on, saturday, when, we, lost, to, the, league, leaders, but, avoided, humiliation, the, rest, of, the, two, days, was, spent, trying, to, progress, with, decorating, the, hallway, before, friends, come, to, stay, over, christmas, and, new, year, am, i, not, too, young, to, be, spending, weekends, off, decorating, diary, 40, i, had, a, good, test, of, my, diplomacy, skills, this, week, with, an, irate, farmer, i, had, spent, four, hours, doing, a, tb, test, on, a, very, cold, day, when, it, should, have, taken, about, one, and, a, half, hours, in, my, rush, to, get, defrosted, in, my, car, afterwards, i, forgot, to, shut, the, gate, in, the, field, where, i, had, parked, on, my, return, to, the, surgery, i, was, greeted, by, the, news, that, he, had, rung, wanting, my, head, on, a, stick, and, forbidding, me, from, ever, setting, foot, on, his, farm, again, as, all, his, tups, had, gone, walkabout, through, the, gate, i'd, left, open, on, advice, from, the, partners, at, the, practice, who, knew, him, better, i, gave, him, a, day, to, calm, down, and, then, wrote, a, very, grovelling, letter, i, was, allowed, to, go, back, at, the, end, of, the, week, to, read, the, test, results, which, fortunately, was, all, clear, i, think, he's, forgiven, me, one, of, the, more, common, cow, operations, we, do, is, to, correct, a, displaced, stomach, in, the, two, and, a, half, years, i've, been, at, the, practice, we’ve, always, done, it, using, one, particular, technique, there, are, circumstances, where, another, method, is, indicated, and, having, not, seen, them, for, 2, years, there, were, 2, this, week, they, both, went, well, so, far, another, two, years, before, the, next, i, took, my, last, day, off, for, 2002, on, thursday, and, again, spent, it, decorating, on, thursday, night, we, had, our, practice, christmas, meal, the, two, vets, on, duty, managed, not, to, get, called, out, and, on, the, whole, i, think, people, weren't, too, hung, over, on, friday, last, year, there, was, a, bit, of, a, debate, as, to, whether, we, should, have, a, christmas, night, out, as, most, farmers, were, either, just, starting, to, restock, or, still, cleaning, out, this, year, it, was, much, more, straightforward, on, friday, night, it, was, the, annual, night, at, hesket, newmarket, organised, by, the, local, defra, lab, for, any, local, vets, that, want, a, meal, and, beers, it's, a, good, chance, to, catch, up, with, other, vets, from, neighbouring, practices, in, very, informal, atmosphere, diary, 41, i've, had, a, couple, of, vet, students, staying, with, me, this, week, who, i, knew, when, i, was, in, my, final, year, at, edinburgh, they're, doing, work, experience, with, us, for, a, week, or, so, it's, made, a, pleasant, change, to, have, some, company, for, a, while, i, have, also, acquired, two, stray, kittens, in, the, last, week, the, usual, vet, procedure, of, eventually, finding, an, unwanted, patient, that, you, can't, resist, taking, yourself, they, are, settling, in, ok, and, we’ve, only, had, to, have, one, or, two, little, discussions, about, the, benefits, of, using, a, litter, tray, rather, than, the, carpet, the, week, at, work, has, been, reasonably, busy, a, good, thing, this, week, as, there, have, been, three, students, and, it's, a, bit, dull, for, them, if, there, is, nothing, going, on, we, had, a, horse, in, for, most, of, the, week, with, a, severe, respiratory, infection, it’s, needed, fairly, intensive, care, but, seems, to, be, on, the, mend, now, i, may, use, it, as, a, case, to, write, up, as, part, of, the, exam, i'm, hoping, to, do, in, a, few, years, it'll, have, to, be, a, new, year's, resolution, to, get, on, with, the, writing, up, part, of, it, apart, from, a, horse, it's, been, the, usual, sort, of, mix, a, few, routine, fertility, visits, to, dairy, farms, a, few, sick, cows, and, horses, etc, there, been, some, tb, tests, this, week, but, i've, managed, to, miss, them, all, must, be, saving, some, for, me, next, year, i, had, a, lot, of, people, from, work, here, on, friday, night, for, pre, christmas, mulled, wine, and, mince, pies, i'm, not, quite, sure, the, kittens, knew, what, was, happening, but, i, think, the, rest, of, us, enjoyed, it, i've, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, down, to, see, a, friend, in, birmingham, who, qualified, last, summer, this, was, her, second, weekend, on, call, so, i, went, to, give, moral, support, being, on, call, isn't, stressful, anymore, but, i, remember, for, the, first, few, times, it's, difficult, not, to, be, aware, of, the, phone, all, the, time, and, hoping, it, doesn't, ring, there, weren't, many, calls, and, those, that, did, come, in, she, didn't, need, me, for, suited, me, well, diary, 42, the, week, of, christmas, and, my, first, job, of, the, week, was, to, replace, a, particularly, contaminated, uterine, prolapse, in, a, cow, it, finally, went, back, in, after, an, hour, or, so, of, fairly, fruitless, efforts, very, festive, this, week, and, next, we, had, fewer, vets, than, usual, working, each, day, as, we, all, have, a, few, days, off, for, christmas, new, year, so, it‘s, sometimes, a, bit, busy, during, the, day, it's, generally, worth, it, for, the, extra, time, off, i, was, off, on, monday, night, and, went, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, school, friends, back, for, the, holiday, although, we, don't, see, each, other, very, often, any, more, people, don't, really, seem, to, change, very, much, a, good, friend, whose, parents, farm, had, f, and, m, have, sold, up, and, are, going, into, b, b, instead, i, think, it, was, a, hard, decision, but, now, they, seen, to, be, quite, relieved, to, be, out, of, it, i, was, on, duty, on, christmas, eve, and, fortunately, didn't, have, to, go, out, i, just, had, three, phone, calls, between, 7, and, 9, p, m, from, people, saying, their, dog, or, cat, had, been, off, food, for, periods, varying, from, three, weeks, to, 10, days, christmas, eve, seemed, an, odd, time, to, notice, this, i, went, home, to, kirkby, stephen, for, christmas, and, boxing, day, and, didn't, really, do, very, much, i, had, a, look, at, a, couple, of, mum’s, sheep, but, other, than, that, it, was, just, a, case, of, being, lazy, and, enjoying, seasonal, food, and, drink, i, was, on, duty, this, weekend, which, turned, out, be, fairly, busy, one, of, the, students, who, came, to, stay, last, week, came, back, to, do, some, on, call, work, which, turned, out, to, be, very, useful, a, couple, of, cows, to, operate, on, as, caesar, and, a, displaced, stomach, where, two, pairs, of, hands, are, better, than, one, and, quite, a, few, small, animals, to, see, to, diary, 43, i've, had, most, of, this, week, off, for, new, year, tuesday, to, friday, which, is, pretty, good, going, seen, as, i, was, off, for, christmas, as, well, monday, was, fairly, quiet, with, just, a, few, farm, calls, to, do, and, some, small, animals, rather, worryingly, we've, heard, that, a, local, deer, farm, not, one, of, our, customers, has, gone, down, with, tb, apparently, with, quite, a, few, deer, in, the, herd, having, it, this, means, that, we'll, have, to, do, tb, check, tests, on, any, of, our, farms, that, neighbour, the, affected, premises, over, new, year, my, cousin, her, husband, and, their, five, children, young, came, to, stay, it, wasn't, too, hectic, on, the, whole, with, just, the, occasional, loss, of, humour, a, couple, of, friends, from, work, came, round, to, join, us, for, new, year, itself, i've, had, to, work, this, weekend, part, of, the, deal, for, getting, four, days, off, midweek, but, it's, not, really, been, that, busy, i've, only, been, on, second, call, and, have, only, had, to, do, 2, calls, so, far, an, easy, return, to, work, after, new, year, excesses, diary, 44, back, to, normal, quota, of, vets, at, work, again, this, week, which, is, good, as, it, seems, to, have, been, very, busy, most, of, it, has, been, the, usual, sort, of, things, for, the, time, of, year, cows, starting, to, get, lame, after, having, been, inside, for, a, few, months, and, metabolic, problems, probably, related, to, the, poor, silage, last, year's, summer, rain, created, quite, a, few, farmers, have, a, large, amount, of, 2001, silage, left, as, it, wasn't, used, over, winter, 2001, 2002, as, they, hadn't, restocked, on, the, whole, it's, kept, very, well, and, in, many, cases, is, better, than, the, crop, they, made, last, summer, the, fall, out, from, the, deer, herd, tb, has, arrived, two, neighbouring, farms, to, test, this, week, the, first, one, has, come, back, negative, to, the, relief, of, all, concerned, i, did, the, second, one, on, friday, and, will, read, it, tomorrow, monday, the, farmers, there, are, all, very, concerned, about, it, which, is, understandable, but, hopefully, groundless, there, are, lots, of, questions, being, asked, along, the, lines, of, what, if, some, of, which, i, can, answer, and, some, not, it, does, remind, me, a, bit, of, february, 2001, when, fmd, broke, out, and, there, were, all, sorts, of, queries, about, the, disease, its, progression, etc, that, none, of, us, really, knew, about, it, didn't, take, long, for, us, to, know, the, answers, to, most, of, them, i've, had, this, weekend, off, a, hockey, fixture, list, has, started, again, after, the, christmas, break, a, return, to, winning, ways, hopefully, to, continue, diary, 45, the, week, had, a, bad, start, the, tb, test, i, did, last, friday, produced, two, reactors, and, two, inconclusive, borderline, reactors, this, means, that, the, farm, isn't, allowed, to, move, at, any, bovines, on, or, off, the, farm, except, directly, to, slaughter, under, licence, the, reactors, are, taken, away, for, post, mortem, examination, and, the, inconclusive, reactors, are, isolated, for, 60, days, until, the, rest, of, the, herd, is, re, tested, the, farmer, was, very, keen, to, get, the, inconclusive, animals, removed, as, well, quite, understandably, in, my, opinion, so, that, they, couldn't, pose, a, threat, to, the, rest, of, his, herd, apparently, defra, aren't, allowed, to, do, this, i, think, largely, due, to, financial, reasons, while, fully, appreciating, the, need, to, protect, taxpayers, money, considering, how, much, was, spent, in, 2001, i, think, this, a, potentially, flawed, argument, perhaps, the, rules, need, to, be, changed, but, then, again, i'm, not, an, epidemiologist, and, perhaps, they, don't, actually, pose, a, threat, the, farmer, seemed, very, depressed, by, it, all, i, think, a, lot, of, it, is, the, feeling, of, having, the, stigma, of, being, a, farm, under, defra, restrictions, again, he, was, also, very, aware, of, the, threat, he, was, to, his, neighbours, and, was, desperately, keen, to, minimise, it, it's, actually, quite, small, while, the, cows, are, still, indoors, but, i, think, people, are, still, very, much, thinking, of, how, serious, it, was, for, neighbours, if, someone, got, fmd, tb, is, a, very, different, type, of, organism, and, it’s, a, question, of, getting, people, to, understand, this, which, isn't, to, say, it's, not, a, very, serious, problem, on, the, same, day, another, farm, in, the, area, not, ours, was, confirmed, with, tb, so, it's, definitely, progressing, in, cumbria, depressing, all, we, can, do, is, follow, defra, instructions, on, testing, and, try, to, keep, on, top, of, it, one, of, my, colleagues, tore, a, knee, ligament, last, week, while, skiing, he, normally, does, mostly, large, animal, calls, seeing, as, he's, now, confined, to, the, practice, doing, small, animals, i've, taken, over, couple, of, the, farms, he, does, routine, fertility, visits, for, it, makes, a, change, to, spend, time, on, farms, i, don't, visit, often, although, i, hear, the, small, animal, nurses, are, quite, keen, for, matt, to, get, back, to, doing, them, diary, 46, one, of, our, dairy, farmers, has, had, a, big, outbreak, of, pneumonia, in, his, calves, this, week, i've, been, to, the, farm, at, least, once, every, day, this, week, the, tests, we've, done, are, usually, pretty, sensitive, but, have, failed, to, reveal, any, of, the, usual, causes, treatment, seems, to, have, been, working, in, some, cases, but, not, in, others, he, hasn't, lost, any, i, e, none, dead, but, the, loss, in, body, weight, is, very, obvious, it's, all, been, a, bit, frustrating, really, he's, a, very, pleasant, guy, and, hasn't, said, anything, but, when, treatments, repeatedly, fail, to, get, expected, and, predicted, results, i, can't, help, feeling, that, he, must, be, getting, a, bit, sceptical, about, it, or, perhaps, i'm, just, being, paranoid, by, the, end, of, the, week, the, majority, seem, to, be, on, the, mend, but, seeing, as, we, haven't, tracked, down, the, causative, agent, it's, hard, to, know, what, vaccination, to, recommend, next, year, there, are, some, more, tests, that, will, come, back, in, two, weeks, which, may, be, more, revealing, in, midweek, i, did, one, of, the, fairly, common, operations, to, correct, a, twisted, stomach, in, a, cow, surprisingly, it, was, the, first, time, this, dairy, farmer, had, had, one, done, and, he, took, some, convincing, that, it, was, a, good, idea, having, persuaded, someone, to, pay, for, a, procedure, i, always, feel, under, a, bit, more, pressure, than, usual, fortunately, it, went, pretty, well, and, the, cow, is, so, far, doing, well, i, was, on, second, call, this, weekend, which, turned, out, to, be, pretty, quiet, i, think, we, must, be, in, a, lull, before, lambing, really, kicks, in, let's, enjoy, it, while, it, lasts, diary, 47, after, not, doing, any, testing, last, week, it, was, my, turn, again, this, week, it, wasn't, a, big, one, only, about, 30, cows, but, it, was, a, bit, more, risky, than, usual, as, it, was, a, herd, of, beef, longhorns, and, they, do, have, long, horns, whilst, trying, to, manoeuvre, them, into, a, crush, to, inject, their, necks, with, tuberculin, we, always, had, to, be, ready, to, take, evasive, action, if, they, made, a, sudden, turn, i, don't, think, they, ever, tried, to, use, their, horns, aggressively, but, they, were, so, big, that, they, become, dangerous, weapons, when, they, were, just, moving, normally, as, it, turned, out, no, one, received, any, injuries, and, very, importantly, the, test, was, negative, this, week, also, brought, my, first, lambing, of, the, year, other, people, have, done, a, few, but, this, was, my, first, we, have, a, couple, of, farms, who, lamb, early, for, the, early, lamb, sales, it, seems, very, hard, work, at, this, time, of, year, but, the, early, prices, do, seem, to, make, it, worthwhile, give, it, another, week, or, two, and, a, sure, they’ll, start, to, become, more, frequent, i, took, friday, off, as, i, had, to, get, to, london, for, 4, pm, to, get, on, the, eurostar, to, go, skiing, typically, the, one, day, of, the, year, that, the, country, ground, to, halt, was, thursday, night, friday, we, managed, to, make, it, to, waterloo, station, only, to, find, the, station, in, chaos, as, all, eurostars, had, been, cancelled, due, to, snow, in, france, at, least, it's, not, just, britain, that, can’t, cope, with, it, after, being, assured, that, none, would, run, for, 24, hours, they, suddenly, told, us, to, board, only, 1, hours, late, very, pleasant, surprise, we, ended, up, arriving, in, val, d'isere, on, time, with, loads, of, snow, and, blue, skies, i, tried, to, spare, a, thought, for, whoever, was, on, call, at, weekend, i, managed, it, just, diary, 48, after, the, weather, almost, prevented, us, from, reaching, val, d’isere, it, was, very, clear, for, the, first, few, days, but, then, the, snow, returned, for, three, days, we, couldn't, do, much, during, that, time, but, it, did, mean, that, there, were, fantastic, conditions, for, the, last, few, days, we, had, a, group, of, 29, and, completely, filled, one, large, chalet, there, were, for, once, no, major, skiing, injuries, within, the, group, and, i, think, a, good, time, was, had, by, all, diary, 49, back, to, work, this, week, i’m, never, reluctant, to, go, back, after, a, week, off, and, sometimes, dare, i, say, it, even, look, forward, to, it, must, be, a, good, sign, apparently, last, week, was, ok, at, work, with, no, major, dramas, we, still, haven't, found, any, more, tb, cases, but, the, screening, continues, all, the, time, one, of, the, rules, for, re, stocking, herds, compared, to, herds, that, missed, fmd, is, that, all, bovines, over, 42, days, old, have, to, be, tested, rather, than, just, the, adults, last, year, when, there, weren't, many, calves, around, this, didn't, make, much, difference, but, now, most, farms, have, at, least, a, year's, worth, of, calves, in, place, it, doubles, the, size, of, most, tests, often, calves, won't, fit, in, crushes, and, are, very, wild, so, it, can, get, quite, exciting, it, seems, a, necessary, policy, though, one, of, the, reactors, i, found, a, few, weeks, ago, was, a, six, month, old, stirk, i've, had, a, fairly, quiet, week, i've, had, a, couple, of, nights, on, duty, which, were, both, quiet, there's, a, horse, near, carlisle, that, i, think, i've, mentioned, before, with, a, recurrent, tooth, problem, we, thought, we'd, finally, sorted, that, but, this, week, she, developed, a, problem, with, one, of, the, tendons, on, her, foreleg, it's, a, bit, disappointing, for, her, owner, as, she, only, bought, the, horse, recently, in, order, to, compete, to, a, very, high, standard, and, she, seems, to, permanently, off, training, with, one, ailment, or, another, i, don't, think, it's, too, serious, so, hopefully, in, another, week, or, two, she'll, be, back, to, work, i've, been, off, this, weekend, came, second, in, the, weekend’s, hockey, match, a, real, case, of, defeat, been, snatched, from, the, jaws, of, victory, i, went, for, a, walk, around, the, great, gable, scafell, area, on, sunday, afternoon, it, was, amazing, how, much, snow, and, ice, was, still, left, over, from, winter, weather, a, week, or, so, ago, maybe, i, needn't, have, bothered, going, abroad, diary, 50, i, found, another, positive, tb, case, on, friday, i, did, the, test, on, tuesday, on, a, very, large, beef, herd, on, a, restocking, farm, including, calves, they, must, have, been, just, over, 400, cattle, to, do, there, was, one, reactor, on, friday, and, two, inconclusives, there, is, a, possibility, that, it, is, a, false, positive, the, farm, has, been, having, big, problems, with, something, called, at, johne’s, disease, which, is, caused, by, a, similar, type, of, bacterium, to, the, one, that, causes, tb, there, is, a, small, possibility, of, a, cow, carrying, johne’s, disease, cross, reacting, with, the, tb, test, injection, i, actually, blood, sampled, all, the, adult, cows, on, tuesday, to, screen, the, herd, for, johne’s, in, order, to, try, to, start, eradicating, it, from, herd, it'll, be, interesting, to, see, whether, the, positive, test, cow, will, be, positive, for, johne’s, ultimately, it, doesn't, really, make, much, difference, in, the, short, term, the, farm’s, been, placed, under, restrictions, and, the, affected, cow, has, been, taken, off, for, post, mortem, one, of, my, colleagues, found, another, positive, reactor, on, a, different, farm, on, friday, as, well, that's, three, farms, in, the, practice, now, and, around, 50, 60, within, cumbria, the, big, worry, now, this, is, that, the, longer, it, stays, around, the, more, likely, inevitable, it, is, disease, will, get, into, wildlife, reservoirs, deer, and, perhaps, badgers, depending, on, whether, you, believe, that, badgers, are, an, influence, or, not, time, will, tell, but, i'm, sure, it's, going, to, keep, us, busy, for, several, years, if, not, a, lot, more, i, did, a, test, on, monday, as, well, on, a, small, farm, that, i've, never, been, to, before, at, least, testing, is, one, way, of, getting, on, to, small, farms, who, don't, often, need, us, this, one, was, all, clear, the, remainder, of, the, week, was, spent, doing, more, usual, work, lambing’s, still, not, quite, got, into, full, swing, although, we, are, seeing, a, slow, increase, in, the, number, of, sheep, been, brought, to, the, surgery, diary, 51, no, tb, testing, for, me, this, week, and, no, more, positive, cases, in, the, practice, the, first, case, that, i, found, back, in, january, was, confirmed, as, carrying, tb, this, week, though, although, it's, bad, news, for, the, farmer, it, is, quite, reassuring, to, know, that, the, tests, and, methods, we, use, do, detect, carrier, animals, reasonably, accurately, this, week, has, been, fairly, busy, without, ever, getting, too, hectic, i, operated, on, a, cow, on, tuesday, which, for, a, number, of, reasons, didn't, go, quite, as, smoothly, as, it, might, have, done, it, subsequently, didn't, do, as, well, post, operatively, as, we, would, normally, expect, the, coming, week, should, see, an, improvement, i, hope, we, can, never, give, cast, iron, guarantees, about, the, outcome, of, surgery, but, it, is, quite, rare, for, this, op, to, fail, so, fingers, crossed, for, monday, i, had, to, see, a, horse, with, colic, earlier, in, the, week, which, on, my, first, visit, to, i, was, very, suspicious, that, it, was, going, to, require, surgery, to, correct, the, owner, wasn't, prepared, for, that, happen, though, so, it, was, a, question, of, trying, to, manage, it, medically, or, euthanizing, it, it, wasn't, in, undue, pain, so, we, gave, it, a, go, medically, and, much, to, my, pleasant, surprise, over, the, next, few, hours, and, visits, he, did, very, well, just, goes, to, show, we, are, not, all, knowing, it, would, have, been, interesting, to, know, whether, it, was, a, surgical, condition, which, somehow, righted, itself, or, whether, it, was, a, medical, case, all, along, which, simply, appeared, as, something, more, serious, i, had, to, work, for, an, hour, or, so, on, saturday, morning, doing, small, animal, consultations, and, then, had, the, rest, of, the, weekend, off, we, came, second, in, a, hockey, match, again, and, then, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, to, catch, up, with, some, college, friends, who, haven't, seen, for, a, while, diary, 52, this, week, has, really, seen, the, start, of, the, lambing, season, the, sheep, every, day, or, every, other, day, that, we've, been, seeing, for, the, last, month, or, so, has, turned, into, one, every, few, hours, during, the, day, and, during, the, night, in, some, cases, it’s, encouraging, that, farmers, are, still, bringing, them, in, calling, us, out, as, many, feel, that, sheep, aren't, worth, paying, vet, fees, for, this, obviously, creates, a, welfare, problem, in, many, situations, as, inappropriate, and, inadequate, treatment, is, sometimes, provided, by, the, farmer, having, said, that, i, can, see, why, some, take, the, attitude, of, not, spending, money, on, them, as, prices, are, often, so, low, the, other, aspect, of, lambing, time, is, that, nights, get, very, busy, on, monday, i, had, a, ewe, caesarean, at, 2am, then, a, horse, that, had, just, foaled, at, 3.15, i, had, an, hour, or, so, in, bed, and, then, a, sick, cow, at, 6.20, although, it, can, be, a, bit, tiring, on, the, whole, cases, we, see, out, of, hours, are, not, the, run, of, the, mill, routine, things, so, it, does, at, least, make, it, interesting, which, isn't, always, the, first, thing, on, my, mind, when, the, phone, rings, at, 3am, unfortunately, the, cow, i, operated, on, last, week, failed, to, improve, and, i, had, to, re, operate, on, monday, this, is, far, from, ideal, as, it, carries, a, much, higher, risk, of, infection, than, first, time, operation, somewhat, to, my, surprise, it, seems, to, be, doing, very, well, now, cows, seem, to, be, amazingly, resilient, if, i'd, had, abdominal, surgery, twice, in, a, mucky, cow, byre, i'm, sure, i, wouldn't, cope, as, well, i, did, the, same, op, on, a, different, farm, later, in, the, week, which, went, much, better, i’d, be, getting, worried, about, my, technique, if, two, in, a, row, went, wrong, i've, worked, saturday, morning, again, supposedly, just, for, an, hour, but, it, turned, into, about, two, and, a, half, as, things, kept, coming, in, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, again, after, hockey, came, second, again, to, see, someone, who's, left, his, job, to, go, around, the, world, for, six, months, diary, 54, the, beginning, of, the, week, saw, a, visit, to, a, horse, which, had, a, chronic, episode, of, laminitis, a, hoof, condition, in, this, horse's, case, it, had, become, very, severe, and, really, beyond, the, point, where, treatment, is, feasible, euthanasia, was, the, best, option, for, the, horse, as, it, was, in, a, lot, of, pain, unfortunately, the, owner, was, very, reluctant, for, this, and, wanted, to, carry, on, with, treatment, this, sort, of, situation, does, crop, up, from, time, to, time, and, is, difficult, for, all, concerned, in, the, end, i, told, the, owners, what, i, thought, the, chances, of, recovery, were, and, let, them, make, their, decision, which, was, to, continue, treatment, hopefully, i'll, be, proved, wrong, and, the, horse, will, recover, but, i, can't, really, see, it, happening, i, saw, another, case, later, in, the, week, which, ended, up, going, to, liverpool, university, for, surgery, it, was, a, small, pony, that, had, managed, to, cut, itself, very, severely, on, barbed, wire, horses, always, find, something, to, injure, themselves, on, there, was, a, risk, that, it, had, penetrated, a, joint, so, i, sent, it, to, liverpool, to, be, flushed, as, far, as, i, know, it's, doing, very, well, so, far, the, rest, of, the, workload, this, week, has, been, the, usual, stuff, for, the, time, of, year, loads, of, lambing, a, few, tb, tests, negative, generally, kept, busy, on, friday, i, went, to, edinburgh, for, a, few, days, course, on, equine, neurology, i, knew, most, of, the, speakers, and, some, delegates, from, when, i, was, a, student, there, it, was, good, to, see, people, again, and, i, learnt, a, few, things, about, horses, brains, and, nerves, saturday, was, our, last, hockey, match, of, the, season, a, draw, we, didn't, win, the, league, by, any, stretch, of, the, imagination, but, we, weren't, last, either, diary, 55, another, manic, spring, week, goes, by, i've, been, on, duty, this, weekend, and, the, two, of, us, on, call, have, done, as, many, calls, in, the, last, two, days, has, eight, vets, would, expect, to, do, in, two, week, days, in, the, summer, we, haven't, been, bored, i, didn't, leave, the, practice, building, until, lunchtime, on, saturday, as, there, was, a, constant, flow, of, small, animals, to, see, to, and, a, few, sheep, brought, in, with, lambing, problems, i, eventually, left, at, 1.30, p, m, to, go, to, operate, on, a, cow, with, a, twisted, stomach, that, was, meant, to, be, done, at, 11, am, the, op, went, a, ok, but, it, was, then, straight, back, to, the, surgery, to, do, a, caesarean, on, a, whelping, bitch, with, the, help, of, a, student, who, is, seeing, practice, with, us, between, then, and, 9, pm, it, was, a, variety, of, sick, cows, sheep, to, lamb, and, a, calf, with, lead, poisoning, at, the, far, end, of, ullswater, would, have, been, a, very, nice, drive, out, if, it, hadn't, been, for, the, rush, to, top, things, off, i, had, a, cow, caesarean, at, 9, pm, it, was, very, useful, having, a, student, to, help, all, day, i, think, it, was, a, bit, of, an, eye, opener, for, her, sunday, morning, gave, me, to, more, caesareans, sheep, this, time, variety, is, the, spice, of, life, a, cat, who, had, very, mysteriously, lost, a, leg, overnight, perhaps, caught, in, a, trap, but, was, in, incredibly, good, health, otherwise, it's, amazing, what, animals, can, withstand, and, a, good, supply, of, other, calls, to, keep, me, out, of, mischief, it, has, actually, been, quite, enjoyable, despite, being, so, hectic, and, i, think, most, of, the, cases, have, been, quite, successful, which, always, helps, the, rest, of, the, week, seems, a, distant, memory, but, on, the, whole, it, was, more, of, the, same, but, at, a, slower, pace, i, did, another, small, tb, test, which, was, negative, anyway, a, night, off, tonight, i, need, a, pint, diary, 56, monday, morning, was, the, 60, day, re, test, for, the, first, herd, that, i, found, tb, in, it, was, a, sunny, day, and, on, the, whole, the, test, went, very, smoothly, the, farmer's, buildings, are, getting, very, overcrowded, though, as, he, is, under, a, movement, restriction, due, to, the, tb, first, day, started, well, as, all, the, animals, were, giving, negative, readings, but, then, came, the, dreaded, reaction, to, the, injections, we, gave, on, the, first, day, there, were, four, reactors, in, total, three, of, which, were, borderline, and, the, other, was, very, very, obvious, the, frustrating, thing, is, that, the, obvious, one, was, a, borderline, reactor, last, time, but, defra, refused, to, take, it, as, it, isn't, in, their, policy, to, take, inconclusive, reactors, found, on, a, routine, test, this, means, that, an, animal, that, is, actually, infected, his, left, on, premises, to, potentially, infect, other, animals, the, farmer, had, tried, to, point, this, out, two, months, ago, to, no, avail, he, is, now, vindicated, in, his, view, not, that, that, is, much, consolation, for, the, fact, that, his, restrictions, are, to, be, continued, and, he, may, well, probably, will, in, fact, now, have, more, carriers, which, won't, be, found, until, the, next, test, in, 60, days, time, the, reason, for, not, initially, taking, inconclusive, reactors, is, to, save, money, by, not, paying, for, the, animals, to, be, slaughtered, that, aren't, actually, infected, in, cases, like, this, it, seems, to, be, a, real, false, economy, and, doesn't, win, defra, friends, in, the, farming, community, tuesday, and, wednesday, this, week, were, mainly, horse, jobs, a, horse, with, a, recurrent, tooth, problem, that, i've, mentioned, before, came, in, for, more, x, rays, and, finally, seems, to, be, doing, ok, its, competing, in, germany, in, a, week, or, two, so, i, do, hope, it, stays, ok, this, weekend, i, went, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, with, one, of, my, old, flatmates, from, edinburgh, the, weather, held, and, was, amazingly, hot, for, the, time, of, year, almost, got, sunburnt, diary, 57, i've, had, a, final, year, student, from, edinburgh, staying, with, me, this, week, while, she's, seeing, practice, with, us, final, exams, are, looming, and, i, think, the, stress, levels, are, rising, it's, very, easy, to, think, of, all, the, things, you, don't, know, but, i, think, we've, more, or, less, managed, to, convince, her, that, she, does, know, enough, not, to, be, a, liability, when, she, qualifies, she, saw, an, interesting, incident, on, a, call, we, did, early, in, the, week, i'd, gone, to, replace, a, uterine, prolapse, in, a, cow, which, went, okay, but, the, farmer, then, asked, me, to, falsely, certify, a, cow, we, can, give, certificates, to, cows, over, 30, months, of, age, under, the, bse, scheme, for, which, farmers, are, compensated, this, cow, had, to, be, put, down, but, wasn't, 30, months, for, another, four, days, he, was, understandably, quite, upset, about, this, and, let, me, know, it’s, this, sort, of, thing, that, is, a, nightmare, for, anyone, but, especially, someone, just, starting, you, want, to, please, the, farmer, and, make, a, good, impression, but, you, also, have, responsibility, to, not, abuse, your, ability, to, use, your, signature, in, the, end, i, explained, why, he, couldn't, have, a, certificate, and, he, did, calm, down, i'm, sure, vicky, will, have, similar, situations, before, too, long, diplomatic, as, well, as, clinical, skills, develop, very, quickly, once, in, practice, another, interesting, case, came, in, on, thursday, a, year, old, foal, needed, emergency, surgery, on, a, hernia, as, luck, would, have, it, it, was, our, first, relatively, quiet, morning, for, a, few, weeks, so, we, had, enough, vets, on, hand, to, do, the, surgery, and, anaesthetic, the, op, went, well, and, the, horse, has, gone, home, this, weekend, i've, been, on, second, call, this, weekend, and, things, have, been, busy, but, not, unmanageable, i, did, 2, belgian, blue, caesareans, in, the, space, of, six, hours, on, one, farm, yesterday, but, since, then, it's, just, been, a, reasonable, stream, of, calls, rather, than, the, madness, of, two, weekends, ago, diary, 58, following, my, going, up, on, a, course, on, neurology, a, few, weeks, ago, a, case, came, up, this, week, it's, not, often, that, we, see, neurological, cases, so, it's, quite, a, coincidence, i, think, it, must, have, some, kind, of, tumour, in, its, brain, causing, it, to, show, the, various, signs, it, has, unfortunately, the, only, way, to, firmly, diagnose, this, is, by, post, mortem, which, is, how, most, neurological, cases, end, up, and, alas, i, fear, this, one, will, too, i, went, to, do, a, fertility, check, at, one, of, our, dairy, farms, on, tuesday, the, vet, he, normally, has, was, away, and, he, looked, a, bit, put, out, when, i, turned, up, i, think, hope, i, managed, not, to, abort, any, of, his, cows, and, he, seemed, very, cheery, by, the, time, i, left, i, suppose, it's, understandable, that, farmers, tend, to, want, continuity, with, which, vet, comes, work, continues, to, be, very, busy, an, indication, in, the, increase, in, daily, workload, is, that, we've, had, to, introduce, a, specific, messages, book, at, work, as, there's, no, longer, room, to, write, people, messages, in, the, day, book, as, it, so, full, with, appointments, they, used, to, be, a, few, days, in, the, year, when, both, pages, of, the, day, book, were, full, the, first, day, of, fmd, in, penrith, had, one, call, but, this, week, 4, days, have, been, full, it's, got, to, be, a, good, sign, really, and, as, i, think, i've, said, before, it, does, stop, us, all, from, getting, bored, i've, had, three, days, off, over, easter, friday, sunday, and, two, friends, and, their, two, mad, dogs, have, been, to, stay, my, cats, were, not, impressed, on, good, friday, we, went, up, plaice, fell, i, accidentally, brought, us, down, a, much, more, direct, route, than, i, intended, so, we, had, to, while, away, some, time, in, the, garden, of, the, patterdale, hotel, life's, hard, yesterday, we, left, the, bank, holiday, crowds, in, the, lakes, and, went, for, a, walk, in, the, eden, valley, didn't, see, a, soul, it's, amazing, the, difference, a, few, miles, can, make, i, suppose, it, hasn't, got, the, hills, and, isn't, as, famous, but, the, scenery, is, still, pretty, impressive, but, let's, not, tell, anyone, and, then, it, might, stay, quiet, on, bank, holidays, diary, 59, i, was, on, duty, on, easter, monday, but, it, wasn't, too, hectic, in, fact, it, was, almost, unbelievably, quiet, there, were, three, of, us, on, duty, bracing, ourselves, for, the, usual, spring, onslaught, and, we, only, had, about, two, calls, each, to, do, all, morning, weird, how, it, sometimes, turns, out, like, that, lambing, is, definitely, quietening, down, now, the, 5, 10, lambings, coming, in, each, day, is, turning, into, 2, 3, it's, mostly, fell, sheep, lambing, now, which, tend, to, be, easier, to, lamb, so, few, are, in, need, our, farmer’s, assistance, it's, starting, to, get, into, the, horse, castration, season, we've, had, the, odd, one, or, two, over, the, last, few, weeks, but, have, had, about, five, this, week, one, of, my, colleagues, who, is, next, up, from, me, in, terms, of, experience, and, i, have, started, doing, them, together, whereas, a, few, years, ago, after, it, would, always, have, been, at, least, one, of, the, partners, and, one, of, us, we, must, be, improving, tb, testing, seems, to, have, calmed, down, a, bit, too, as, a, practice, we’re, pretty, much, up, to, date, with, it, and, as, farmers, start, to, turn, their, cows, out, they'll, become, more, reluctant, to, do, it, with, the, way, it’s, spreading, in, the, county, though, we, have, to, try, to, keep, up, to, date, with, it, or, it, really, is, going, to, get, out, of, hand, i've, had, this, weekend, off, it, was, my, sister's, birthday, yesterday, so, i, went, to, meet, her, and, my, folks, for, lunch, we, sat, outside, and, enjoyed, the, april, sun, very, nice, it, was, too, farmers, are, all, wanting, rain, you, don't, hear, that, often, in, april, but, the, sun, suits, me, fine, what, are, the, odds, on, it, bucketing, down, in, june, during, silage, time, diary, 60, one, of, our, big, dairy, farms, had, had, a, big, outbreak, of, ibr, this, week, one, of, the, main, respiratory, viruses, on, the, whole, it, doesn’t, cause, death, and, is, normally, containable, on, this, occasion, however, it, seems, to, have, been, a, virulent, strain, and, has, caused, a, number, of, deaths, and, a, great, deal, of, lost, production, in, terms, of, lost, milk, and, calves, not, thriving, towards, the, end, of, the, week, i, went, and, shot, three, cows, which, were, terminally, affected, seeing, three, dead, and, bleeding, cows, in, the, yard, obviously, reminded, the, farmer, and, me, of, when, he, had, the, whole, herd, shot, in, the, same, place, for, fmd, and, he, had, then, moved, out, of, sight, very, quickly, i, think, the, worst, of, the, outbreak, is, over, now, and, all, the, cows, have, been, vaccinated, there's, only, one, vet, more, junior, qualified, for, less, time, than, me, in, the, practice, who, started, a, year, or, so, ago, this, week, we, went, to, do, a, colt, castrate, together, one, surgeon, one, as, anaesthetist, for, the, first, time, we've, both, done, a, lot, with, other, vets, but, this, was, the, first, time, we've, been, let, loose, as, a, pair, everything, went, very, smoothly, so, it, looks, as, though, our, boss's, confidence, trust, wasn't, totally, misplaced, on, friday, morning, i, had, a, big, dehorning, session, for, one, of, our, beef, farmers, it's, fairly, non, cerebral, type, work, but, is, ok, for, a, change, every, now, and, then, and, the, farmer, is, a, pretty, amenable, sort, of, guy, more, than, could, be, said, for, the, weather, so, it, was, a, fairly, laid, back, morning's, work, i, had, the, afternoon, off, and, drove, up, to, edinburgh, where, there, was, a, bit, of, a, reunion, for, recent, graduates, from, the, vet, college, there, were, a, lot, of, people, haven't, seen, for, a, long, time, and, it, was, interesting, to, compare, notes, on, what, we, were, all, up, to, diary, 61, after, last, weekend, in, edinburgh, i, had, to, come, back, to, work, on, bank, holiday, monday, it, was, fairly, manageable, on, the, whole, there, were, three, of, us, on, duty, in, the, morning, when, the, work, was, steady, without, ever, getting, too, hectic, i, was, on, first, call, after, 1pm, when, the, surgery, closed, and, it, remained, fairly, quiet, until, the, evening, when, there, was, a, sudden, run, of, calls, but, they, came, in, one, after, the, other, rather, than, building, up, too, much, on, tuesday, i, did, the, 60, day, re, test, of, the, second, herd, of, cattle, that, i, had, previously, found, a, reactor, in, it’s, a, big, herd, and, it, took, all, day, to, get, it, done, they’ve, been, a, bit, unfortunate, and, brought, in, several, other, diseases, apart, from, the, suspected, tb, when, they, re, stocked, one, of, these, an, enteric, condition, called, johnes, disease, is, a, chronic, wasting, problem, and, is, notoriously, difficult, to, eradicate, it’ll, take, years, of, blood, testing, and, careful, record, keeping, to, get, rid, of, it, it’s, frustrating, for, them, as, all, the, planning, for, the, post, fmd, period, has, been, disrupted, the, tb, test, showed, up, no, reactors, this, time, but, 3, cows, were, inconclusive, results, and, will, have, to, be, re, tested, this, is, almost, certainly, as, a, result, of, the, cows, carrying, antibodies, to, avian, tb, which, causes, no, signs, of, disease, in, cows, but, disrupts, the, bovine, tb, test, it’s, a, good, example, of, why, we, badly, need, a, more, specific, method, for, testing, for, tb, it’s, being, worked, on, at, the, moment, and, hopefully, we’ll, get, one, one, day, the, senior, partner, at, work, is, supervising, another, vet, who, is, doing, the, same, equine, qualification, that, i’m, enrolled, for, on, wednesday, he, came, to, spend, a, day, with, neil, to, do, some, equine, anaesthetics, they, were, mainly, castrates, so, i, operated, while, neil, went, through, the, anaesthetics, with, his, student, it, was, very, useful, to, hear, it, all, in, detail, again, it’s, all, too, easy, to, get, into, the, habit, of, knowing, which, drugs, work, at, what, dosages, and, not, actually, really, thinking, about, why, they, work, or, why, they’re, better, than, other, drugs, we, could, use, a, useful, day, but, it, has, made, me, realise, i’ve, got, a, lot, to, do, over, the, next, few, years, diary, 62, things, are, still, remaining, very, busy, at, work, lambing, has, pretty, much, finished, now, but, the, work, doesn't, seem, to, be, easing, the, partners, have, decided, we, need, another, vet, to, help, things, along, a, final, year, student, from, edinburgh, came, for, an, interview, this, week, and, it, looks, as, though, he'll, get, the, job, it, will, mean, that, the, rota, will, improve, and, hopefully, will, not, be, quite, as, hectic, when, he, starts, following, the, fantastically, dry, spring, it's, now, too, wet, for, the, farmers, and, they, are, tearing, their, hair, out, about, how, the, first, cut, of, silage, is, going, to, be, gathered, in, dry, hopefully, we'll, get, a, dry, spell, again, soon, to, ease, their, worries, i, found, a, potential, case, to, write, up, for, my, equine, casebook, this, week, it's, a, mare, that, managed, to, get, caught, up, in, wire, and, tear, a, big, hole, in, the, shin, of, her, lower, leg, it's, too, big, a, defect, to, stitch, so, it'll, have, to, heal, with, a, lot, of, bandaging, and, perhaps, some, skin, grafts, it, always, amazes, me, how, horses, managed, to, give, themselves, the, most, horrendous, injuries, been, fields, where, there, really, doesn't, seem, to, be, any, opportunity, for, it, clumsiness, perhaps, maybe, they, just, enjoy, pain, i, doubt, it, we're, doing, quite, a, bit, of, scanning, of, mares, for, pregnancy, at, the, moment, it's, another, thing, that, i've, been, doing, more, of, this, year, than, in, the, past, it's, a, bit, daunting, at, times, but, as, with, a, lot, of, things, it's, really, a, case, of, practising, it, as, much, as, possible, by, the, end, of, the, stud, season, it’ll, hopefully, be, fairly, straightforward, i, drove, down, to, oxford, on, friday, evening, after, work, to, see, my, sister, cousins, friends, who, live, down, there, it, seemed, a, longish, drive, but, it, was, well, worth, it, to, catch, up, with, them, all, one, of, the, things, about, working, weekends, is, that, it, makes, weekends, off, that, much, more, appreciated, diary, 63, after, a, very, pleasant, weekend, off, i, had, a, truly, delightful, first, job, on, monday, morning, a, cow, had, been, losing, weight, for, the, last, month, also, the, reason, i, found, was, that, it, had, a, very, dead, calf, inside, which, i, then, spent, the, first, hour, of, the, week, pulling, out, bone, by, bone, it, was, a, fairly, revolting, job, but, wasn't, actually, something, that, i, especially, resented, doing, must, mean, i'm, happy, in, my, work, or, perhaps, just, a, bit, weird, i, had, another, fairly, grim, job, later, in, the, week, when, i, was, called, out, at, 4, a, m, to, a, foaling, the, foal, was, stuck, half, out, and, was, dead, by, the, time, i, got, there, i, eventually, managed, to, get, the, foal, out, and, initially, the, mare, seemed, ok, but, deteriorated, over, the, next, 48, hours, and, eventually, had, to, be, euthanased, that’s, just, the, way, it, goes, sometimes, a, more, successful, case, came, later, in, the, week, when, i, saw, a, foal, that, was, acutely, lame, it, looked, at, first, as, though, it, might, have, an, infected, elbow, but, after, taking, samples, of, the, joint, fluid, and, some, x, rays, it, looked, as, though, it, was, actually, a, traumatic, injury, it, stayed, it, in, the, hospital, for, four, days, during, which, time, it, seemed, to, improve, quite, a, bit, it's, a, thoroughbred, from, a, good, racing, line, hopefully, with, a, rest, it’ll, make, a, full, recovery, and, win, the, grand, national, in, 2008, i, had, the, whole, of, the, bank, holiday, weekend, off, six, college, friends, came, to, stay, for, a, weekend, of, cumbrian, fresh, air, after, a, pretty, gloomy, forecast, the, weather, turned, out, very, well, and, we, all, went, for, a, lake, district, walk, each, day, and, had, a, pretty, relaxed, time, except, for, my, cats, four, dogs, also, came, to, stay, which, didn't, impress, the, cats, who, spent, the, whole, time, hiding, in, my, room, diary, 64, this, week, started, with, a, tb, test, for, a, small, re, stocking, herd, he, had, bought, some, cattle, from, a, farm, that, subsequently, tested, positive, for, tb, one, of, the, cattle, from, that, farm, had, then, tested, positive, on, his, farm, so, this, week's, test, was, a, 60, day, re, test, it, was, an, all, clear, this, time, which, was, obviously, a, relief, for, them, seeing, as, there, was, a, positive, on, the, farm, last, time, they, probably, have, to, have, another, test, in, 60, days, from, now, before, restrictions, are, lifted, this, farm, isn't, very, big, so, being, under, tb, restrictions, is, awkward, but, not, as, crippling, as, it, is, the, larger, farms, there, is, no, room, for, relaxing, the, rules, at, the, moment, though, the, recent, news, from, ireland, that, says, they, think, they've, proved, a, link, with, badgers, makes, it, even, more, important, to, get, it, out, of, cumbria, before, it, gets, into, wildlife, although, it, may, well, already, be, too, late, in, between, the, two, testing, days, this, week, i, seemed, to, do, a, lot, of, horse, cases, on, wednesday, i, spent, most, of, the, day, touring, around, cumbria, seeing, horses, in, wigton, cockermouth, and, bassenthwaite, it, was, a, sunny, day, and, was, a, very, pleasant, way, to, spend, the, day, great, scenery, to, look, at, outside, when, not, driving, and, cases, going, the, way, i, was, hoping, not, a, bad, way, to, work, i've, been, on, call, this, weekend, and, it's, been, very, quiet, so, far, yesterday, was, steady, with, a, reasonable, number, of, calls, but, none, stacking, up, i've, done, 2, cattle, caesareans, on, the, same, farm, this, weekend, one, yesterday, morning, which, seemed, like, a, huge, calf, until, the, one, i, did, this, morning, which, was, truly, a, freak, it, was, the, biggest, calf, i, or, the, farmer, had, seen, and, is, the, result, of, selecting, for, extreme, confirmation, in, beef, breeds, it, does, pose, serious, welfare, issues, for, the, cows, as, they, cannot, give, birth, naturally, and, have, to, have, fairly, major, abdominal, surgery, instead, we’ll, never, persuade, farmers, of, this, though, as, the, consumer, wants, cheaper, food, and, cheaper, beef, is, made, through, bigger, beef, calves, it, does, seem, tough, on, the, cows, though, or, am, i, being, too, cynical, diary, 65, i, thought, it, was, interesting, to, see, how, much, people, still, are, willing, to, talk, about, some, of, 2001, at, the, meeting, on, wednesday, night, while, a, lot, of, the, conversation, was, routed, around, the, subjects, you, had, come, up, with, over, the, last, 18, months, it, often, came, back, to, talk, of, events, and, individual, experiences, during, the, outbreak, itself, these, stories, must, have, been, told, on, dozens, of, occasions, but, people, still, want, to, tell, them, if, the, right, time, opportunity, comes, up, myself, included, there, were, so, many, themes, that, you, have, all, come, up, with, on, the, electronic, tags, sheet, that, it, seems, impossible, to, comment, on, them, all, some, of, them, seem, very, relevant, to, me, others, not, so, much, trust, is, a, category, that, comes, up, under, a, couple, of, headings, one, of, the, headings, it, is, under, is, knowledge, i, think, this, has, been, one, of, the, most, significant, changes, since, fmd, as, far, as, the, farmer, vet, relationship, is, concerned, defra, has, gone, from, being, eyed, with, some, suspicion, to, overt, distrust, and, resentment, on, a, whole, we, don't, get, too, much, flack, as, veterinary, gps, but, when, we, have, to, do, defra, allocated, jobs, such, as, tb, testing, there, is, sometimes, a, general, feeling, of, it, being, another, task, to, try, to, wear, them, down, being, sent, by, the, authorities, another, regulation, that, has, caused, huge, resentment, is, the, whole, animal, movement, licensing, system, it, is, much, easier, now, and, causes, fewer, problems, but, a, year, or, so, ago, it, was, the, source, of, much, stress, we, had, to, try, to, act, as, intermediary, between, farmers, and, defra, and, keep, both, sides, happy, the, damage, done, to, the, farmer, defra, trust, will, take, a, long, time, if, ever, to, start, to, repair, hopefully, by, trying, to, be, more, on, their, side, than, defra, seem, to, be, the, trust, they, have, in, us, has, been, preserved, it's, been, a, quietish, week, at, work, maybe, because, there's, been, a, bit, of, silaging, going, on, so, the, farmers, haven't, got, time, for, routine, work, it's, about, time, we, were, a, bit, quieter, the, summer, lull, hasn't, materialised, at, all, yet, this, year, in, fact, we’re, taking, on, another, vet, to, ease, the, workload, did, i, mention, this, last, week, in, the, meantime, it's, nice, to, have, time, to, draw, breath, and, enjoy, the, sun, for, a, day, or, two, diary, 66, this, week, seems, to, have, gone, by, a, pretty, quickly, maybe, it's, because, i'm, on, holiday, next, week, and, the, thought, of, it, is, spurring, me, on, i, fly, to, split, tomorrow, for, a, week, of, sailing, on, the, croatian, coast, with, a, college, friend, and, some, relatives, it'll, be, a, change, from, cumbria, one, of, our, big, dairy, farmers, was, away, in, thailand, this, week, the, farm, was, left, to, be, run, by, his, usual, workers, and, his, brother, and, mother, despite, this, he, felt, he, had, to, take, his, mobile, phone, with, him, and, he, was, rung, twice, during, the, week, to, be, asked, what, should, be, done, with, a, couple, of, sick, cows, i, suppose, this, either, demonstrates, extreme, dedication, or, an, inability, to, forget, about, work, or, both, but, then, again, it, also, shows, how, committed, a, lot, of, farmers, are, and, that, it's, not, just, a, job, to, them, as, farms, get, bigger, the, concept, of, all, the, cows, being, individually, known, to, the, farmer, or, being, his, friends, becomes, increasingly, unrealistic, but, in, the, majority, of, cases, they’re, not, just, milk, making, machines, and, are, cared, for, pretty, well, it's, not, hard, to, see, why, it, was, so, hard, for, people, to, lose, their, herds, after, being, a, bit, quieter, at, work, last, week, it, suddenly, seems, to, have, become, very, hectic, at, work, again, this, week, there, haven't, been, any, particularly, time, consuming, jobs, just, lots, of, sick, cows, horse, calls, and, the, usual, mix, of, animal, ailments, it's, better, to, be, busy, than, quiet, though, i, think, i, need, a, holiday, and, i'll, keep, my, phone, switched, off, diary, 67, a, week, off, work, to, go, sailing, in, croatia, easy, life, after, meeting, up, with, the, boat, and, the, rest, of, the, group, in, starigrad, we, sailed, to, vis, into, a, fairly, direct, head, wind, so, it, took, quite, a, bit, of, tacking, and, was, a, bit, of, a, rough, ride, i, also, very, stupidly, underdid, the, sunscreen, and, managed, to, burn, my, back, very, careless, but, it, got, less, uncomfortable, as, the, week, went, on, we, spent, two, nights, in, vis, harbour, as, the, others, who, had, already, been, sailing, for, a, week, wanted, a, rest, it, used, to, be, a, military, island, and, there, were, definite, signs, of, this, around, although, it, is, obviously, developing, a, now, rapidly, growing, tourist, trade, after, vis, it, was, off, to, hvar, where, we, anchored, in, a, small, inlet, a, few, miles, from, the, town, after, a, night, there, we, went, to, hvar, town, for, a, look, around, the, castle, on, the, hill, was, very, impressive, and, the, town, still, feels, as, though, it, is, relatively, unspoilt, at, the, moment, the, last, couple, of, days, were, spent, making, our, way, slowly, back, to, split, we, actually, spent, the, last, two, days, in, split, as, there, was, a, strong, northerly, wind, brewing, up, which, would, have, been, a, bit, rough, to, be, out, in, my, uncle, who, was, the, skipper, on, board, has, been, to, croatia, for, the, last, three, years, he, said, it, was, very, noticeably, more, busy, this, year, it, seems, a, shame, to, spoil, it, with, more, tourist, facilities, but, we, all, contributed, to, them, being, built, by, going, there, hopefully, it, won't, be, too, dramatically, changed, diary, 68, this, week, started, at, 9am, monday, with, a, tb, test, at, one, of, the, most, basic, run, down, farms, we, go, to, it, was, the, first, time, i'd, been, there, in, three, and, a, half, years, of, working, here, so, they, don't, make, huge, use, of, our, veterinary, services, one, of, their, bullocks, was, 7, years, old, when, i, casually, asked, about, what, plans, they, had, for, it, seeing, as, he, had, missed, the, 30, months, cut, off, time, for, human, consumption, i, was, told, it, was, just, kept, as, a, friend, for, the, bull, the, test, was, very, slow, as, the, cattle, handling, facilities, were, not, the, best, on, the, planet, they, were, very, pleasant, people, to, talk, to, and, it, soon, became, apparent, that, they, had, very, little, time, for, defra, nothing, unusual, there, the, son, was, one, of, the, people, who, had, had, his, firearms, confiscated, after, making, threats, at, the, start, of, fm, d, they, still, felt, resentful, about, the, way, the, police, became, involved, and, the, way, they, were, ultimately, given, no, choice, as, to, who, came, on, to, their, farm, to, check, their, stock, fortunately, all, the, cattle, were, negative, for, tb, so, there, was, no, need, to, further, add, to, their, distrust, of, defra, by, putting, them, under, more, restriction, the, rest, of, the, week, has, been, fairly, steady, there's, been, enough, going, on, to, keep, us, busy, without, ever, being, frantic, the, horse, i, saw, last, week, with, a, neurological, problem, has, become, a, bit, worse, so, has, gone, to, edinburgh, vet, school, to, see, one, of, the, neurologists, up, there, he, seemed, fairly, confused, by, it, as, well, which, i, have, to, say, i, found, quite, reassuring, the, weekend, was, a, bit, on, the, strenuous, side, a, cousin, who, is, a, keen, cyclist, persuaded, me, it, was, a, good, idea, to, do, a, big, cumbrian, yorkshire, bike, ride, we, went, from, penrith, to, alston, to, barnard, castle, to, tan, hill, refreshments, to, kirkby, stephen, to, penrith, on, saturday, and, then, recovered, on, sunday, it, seemed, like, a, good, idea, at, the, time, but, i, am, really, feeling, it, now, diary, 69, looking, back, at, some, of, the, quotes, in, the, recovery, section, of, the, notes, from, a, meeting, it's, noticeable, how, easy, it, is, to, forget, or, at, least, not, have, in, one's, mind, how, much, it, affected, a, lot, people, it's, almost, hard, to, remember, how, much, i, was, affected, by, it, i, know, that, there, were, some, very, unpleasant, tasks, such, as, supervising, slaughters, and, day, to, day, work, was, often, very, frustrating, when, we, felt, people, overseeing, our, work, from, offices, didn't, really, know, what, it, was, like, in, the, field, but, i, feel, now, that, on, the, whole, once, work, was, finished, life, pretty, much, went, on, maybe, this, isn't, actually, a, true, reflection, of, how, it, was, and, it's, just, that, some, of, the, detailed, memories, are, fading, often, things, don't, seem, as, bad, as, they, actually, were, when, you, look, back, on, them, i, know, plenty, of, clients, colleagues, and, friends, whose, lives, were, completely, overtaken, by, fmd, so, perhaps, mine, was, more, than, i, remember, but, i, also, feel, that, most, of, the, people, who, i, remember, as, being, heavily, affected, are, now, more, or, less, completely, over, it, one, of, the, farms, i, went, to, this, week, lost, a, son, in, a, road, accident, about, two, months, after, getting, fmd, i, think, the, farmer, was, ready, to, give, up, everything, after, that, apparently, he, left, the, cleaning, up, of, his, farm, and, took, no, interest, in, anything, time, obviously, helped, him, he's, been, back, milking, again, for, that, sic, last, year, and, a, half, there, are, still, changes, though, he, seems, very, much, quieter, and, more, laid, back, now, if, a, cow, isn't, in, calf, or, things, don't, go, quite, right, he, doesn't, seem, to, get, stressed, now, as, he, once, would, have, done, work, has, been, a, bit, quieter, this, week, which, we, would, expect, at, this, time, of, year, one, of, our, farms, has, put, some, pedigree, belgian, blue, embryos, into, some, limousin, cross, heifers, and, they're, starting, to, calve, now, they, all, need, caesar's, as, the, calves, are, almost, as, big, as, the, heifers, that, produce, them, the, only, thing, to, be, said, for, it, is, that, we, can, do, them, at, a, sensible, time, of, day, rather, than, at, two, in, the, morning, as, we, know, when, they’re, due, diary, 70, one, of, the, five, categories, you, raised, at, the, meetings, last, month, was, trauma, and, one, of, the, subsections, on, the, chart, was, sounds, smells, visions, sights, are, probably, the, most, frequent, reminder, of, fmd, now, there, are, certain, bits, of, road, that, have, memories, for, example, driving, north, on, the, m6, just, south, of, penrith, it, was, possible, to, count, smoke, plumes, from, about, 20, pyres, at, one, stage, on, fine, days, it, always, reminds, me, of, it, when, i, drive, that, stretch, one, farm, has, the, remains, of, a, pyre, that, was, started, to, be, built, but, never, finished, even, things, like, driving, across, two, lines, of, tar, across, a, road, which, once, held, down, a, disinfectant, mat, people, who, didn't, live, here, at, the, time, wouldn't, even, notice, them, but, it, seems, quite, significant, to, the, rest, of, us, it, doesn't, really, bother, me, but, just, is, a, reminder, of, what, went, on, at, other, times, it, seems, odd, how, quickly, things, have, gone, back, to, normal, even, something, as, simple, as, a, road, with, mud, or, animal, muck, on, it, in, 2001, that, would, have, stuck, out, like, a, sore, thumb, and, would, have, warranted, urgent, action, now, i'm, used, to, driving, a, dirty, car, i, do, clean, it, sometimes, and, having, some, roads, caked, in, dirt, it's, difficult, to, imagine, how, the, farmers, kept, them, clean, two, years, ago, but, they, did, obviously, there, are, other, reminders, people, never, tire, of, talking, about, it, but, it's, the, day, to, day, visions, and, places, that, are, most, regular, work, has, been, a, bit, quieter, this, week, i, did, it, a, caesar, on, a, cow, which, had, a, truly, ridiculously, enormous, calf, we, need, to, move, away, from, breeding, continental, beef, breeds, and, go, back, to, nice, compact, jersey's, or, aberdeen, anguses, i, also, saw, an, unusual, neurological, case, in, a, horse, it's, very, uncoordinated, and, has, poor, balance, it's, the, kind, of, case, where, brain, spinal, scan, would, be, useful, but, those, facilities, aren't, really, available, for, horses, it, will, be, interesting, to, see, how, it, goes, over, the, next, few, days, diary, 71, the, last, diary, the, 18, months, seem, to, have, gone, by, quickly, things, seem, so, much, back, to, how, they, were, that, it's, odd, to, think, back, to, what, was, going, on, when, we, first, started, writing, them, i, think, we, were, pretty, much, in, the, swing, of, doing, restocking, checks, and, doing, endless, blood, sampling, of, sheep, the, last, restocking, checks, i, did, were, only, 16, months, ago, it, seems, far, longer, although, i, say, things, are, back, to, how, they, were, i'm, sure, there, are, actually, a, lot, of, differences, it's, just, that, i, don't, notice, them, because, i'm, used, to, how, things, are, now, the, practice, has, become, a, lot, busier, by, october, we’ll, be, up, to, nine, full, time, and, two, part, time, vets, pre, fmd, we, were, seven, full, time, and, two, part, time, some, of, the, increase, is, equine, and, small, animal, but, most, of, it, is, in, farm, practice, part, of, this, is, directly, linked, to, fmd, eg, more, tb, testing, due, to, re, stocking, tests, and, re, stocking, having, brought, tb, into, the, county, other, factors, aren't, so, obvious, but, are, unquestionably, fmd, related, most, restocked, farmers, went, back, with, more, stock, than, they, originally, had, so, overall, there, is, greater, density, of, stock, around, more, animals, means, more, sick, animals, which, means, more, calls, for, the, vet, it's, a, shame, in, some, ways, to, see, the, small, traditional, farms, being, forced, out, but, it's, hard, to, see, how, they, can, manage, as, margins, get, smaller, and, larger, neighbours, get, more, stock, and, more, land, fmd, was, a, way, out, for, several, of, the, smaller, farms, all, have, been, bought, up, by, neighbours, with, none, being, sold, as, single, units, as, i've, said, in, recent, weeks, this, time, of, year, is, usually, quiet, it, has, become, a, bit, less, frantic, recently, but, the, traditional, summer, lull, hasn't, materialised, i've, been, a, vet, for, four, years, the, last, three, have, been, just, about, as, interesting, and, challenging, as, they, could, have, been, both, professionally, and, socially, from, the, point, of, view, of, living, in, penrith, obviously, fmd, had, devastating, effects, on, thousands, of, people, many, of, whom, are, my, friends, on, the, whole, i, see, very, few, residual, scars, it, is, still, talked, about, but, less, and, less, as, time, goes, on, more, than, one, farmer, has, actually, said, that, they, think, in, hindsight, it, was, a, very, good, thing, for, them, i'm, not, sure, i, could, ever, say, that, as, it, brought, too, much, stress, and, sadness, for, too, many, people, but, if, it, had, happened, i, think, very, much, with, the, benefit, of, hindsight, i’m, glad, that, i, had, the, chance, to, be, involved, with, it, from, the, start, and, through, the, recovery]
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1966, gender, f, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, diary, 1, monday, was, the, usual, long, hard, grind, i, accept, that, i, have, to, put, in, 10, 12, hours, and, i, don’t, mind, doing, the, work, because, it’s, not, physically, or, mentally, taxing, but, i, do, hate, not, having, a, lunch, break, just, that, little, bit, of, selfish, time, to, site, have, a, cigarette, take, the, dogs, down, the, river, see, the, horses, whatever, i, do, resent, that, fact, that, w, one, of, the, bosses, almost, always, gets, a, lunch, hour, b, the, other, boss, has, gone, up, tremendously, in, my, opinion, for, the, way, that, he, gets, on, with, the, work, he, starts, early, finishes, late, hates, derfa, paperwork, and, rarely, complains, it, is, definitely, grinding, them, down, because, they, work, like, that, at, least, 4, days, a, week, it, has, been, a, huge, advantage, this, last, year, being, part, time, at, work, my, days, off, obviously, aren’t, my, own, as, they, used, to, be, but, i, do, get, away, from, the, phone, and, the, demands, of, clients, some, of, our, clients, are, very, selfish, and, i, hadn’t, noticed, before, they, seem, to, think, they, are, the, only, ones, that, have, hassles, with, defra, i, remember, saying, to, one, complaining, about, problems, with, licensing, that, he, was, lucky, to, have, problems, with, only, one, licence, the, first, day, that, movement, licenses, came, out, we, applied, for, 26, and, received, the, explanatory, notes, from, defra, on, how, to, complete, the, paperwork, 4, days, later, anyway, managed, to, do, three, final, visits, and, complete, most, of, the, paperwork, before, 9pm, kirkby, stephen, was, buzzing, today, the, auction, reopened, for, a, cattle, sale, the, main, street, was, full, of, shiny, farmers, with, fish, and, chips, and, the, back, lane, was, full, of, shiny, some, new, land, rovers, and, trailers, trailers, mostly, new, in, fact, mc, told, me, that, as, soon, as, he, heard, his, bloods, had, come, back, clear, restocking, he, washed, and, changed, and, went, to, the, mart, he, said, it, was, the, first, time, he, had, felt, clean, since, the, day, they, were, infected, he, felt, ok, to, go, among, other, farmers, he, surprised, me, because, he, is, so, easy, going, he, takes, all, in, his, stride, but, he, still, says, fmd, is, not, as, terrible, as, testicular, cancer, and, he’s, right, ad, was, one, of, the, other, final, visits, he, doesn’t, give, a, bugger, about, anything, happy, to, become, a, flower, power, farmer, he, doesn’t, care, much, about, his, sheep, as, individuals, they, are, just, numbers, just, as, well, because, in, the, batch, he, bought, from, wales, the, sheep, have, more, legs, than, teeth, i, can’t, see, them, lasting, long, pissed, off, because, i, missed, bryan, adams, concert, in, newcastle, couldn’t, finish, in, time, to, join, the, bus, the, rest, of, the, lassies, had, a, brilliant, time, and, at, least, tracey, benefited, from, my, ticket, had, to, go, back, in, to, work, the, next, day, to, finish, my, defra, reports, and, fax, them, off, went, to, playgroup, to, talk, about, pets, took, my, dog, lurcher, and, child’s, rabbit, dodgy, combination, very, few, of, the, kids, seemed, to, have, pets, of, their, own, a, lot, of, them, referred, to, granddad’s, dogs, or, uncles, cat, when, i, left, college, the, pet, population, was, increasing, what’s, going, to, happen, in, the, next, 15, years, sister, phoned, worried, about, her, horse, he, has, haematuria, i’m, worried, that, he, has, a, tumour, i, feel, very, far, away, and, helpless, when, things, like, this, happen, even, though, she, only, lives, in, yorkshire, i’m, sure, i, could, help, her, whatever, the, outcome, if, we, lived, closer, in, fact, i, think, i, miss, my, family, more, now, than, i, ever, have, i, don’t, know, if, it’s, my, age, or, the, thought, that, m, is, over, 60, or, that, i, didn’t, see, them, much, at, all, last, year, or, just, because, i, have, son, now, and, can, understand, how, mothers, families, feel, i, miss, sisters, but, i, still, don’t, phone, them, much, i, always, think, they’ll, be, busy, i, can, talk, to, mam, three, or, four, times, a, week, for, half, an, hour, at, a, time, without, thinking, twice, she, must, get, fed, up, hearing, me, go, on, and, on, about, work, etc, but, she, loves, hearing, all, about, every, tiny, detail, of, son’s, antics, and, achievements, will, broached, the, subject, of, a, partnership, again, i, don’t, know, what, to, think, it’s, the, obvious, thing, to, do, and, a, few, years, ago, i, would, have, taken, his, hand, off, for, even, 10, or, 20, i’m, just, not, as, excited, about, it, as, i, should, be, and, what, would, change, will, i, be, better, off, will, i, be, a, better, vet, or, will, i, spend, too, much, time, of, figures, and, paperwork, will, i, become, more, commercially, aware, do, i, want, to, change, can, i, be, bothered, with, the, extra, hassle, they, are, ok, they, have, a, career, and, a, wife, i’m, trying, to, do, both, sometimes, badly, diary, 2, monday’s, are, shite, it, starts, off, busy, and, gets, worse, why, can’t, we, do, time, management, a, bit, better, it, did, look, as, if, we, might, finish, around, 6.30, at, one, stage, in, the, afternoon, then, i, was, called, out, to, a, calf, i, didn’t, really, need, a, visit, at, 6pm, at, night, w, said, never, mind, you’ll, be, picking, son, up, anyway, the, childminder, lives, on, the, next, door, farm, he, hasn’t, got, a, clue, if, i, picked, son, up, he, would, be, at, ange’s, for, about, 8, hours, i, feel, guilty, enough, that, he’s, away, for, about, 8, hours, partner, always, picks, him, up, about, 5.30, and, has, to, cope, which, he, does, well, until, i, get, home, but, it’s, hard, work, for, both, of, us, after, a, full, day, at, work, and, partner, is, usually, knackered, and, ready, for, peace, and, quiet, when, he, gets, home, not, a, tired, hungry, wee, lad, anyway, i, ended, up, having, a, farm, tour, that, night, farmer, was, so, proud, of, his, new, pedigree, belgian, blues, and, his, new, shed, he’s, been, lucky, to, get, most, of, his, commercial, stock, from, his, father, so, he, has, an, idea, of, their, past, history, he’s, a, nice, lad, and, he, was, producing, some, stunning, beef, calves, before, he, was, taken, out, at, least, he’s, young, enough, to, get, going, again, he, hasn’t, said, much, about, loosing, his, stock, so, i, haven’t, asked, i, had, a, chat, to, his, aunt, one, day, and, she, was, very, upset, and, that, upsets, me, i, hate, when, people, get, emotional, like, that, i, start, filling, up, myself, i, got, back, to, find, a, sheep, caesarean, still, to, do, waste, of, time, premature, lambs, all, born, alive, 3, and, all, dead, before, i, finished, stitching, the, uterus, and, to, put, the, tin, hat, on, the, day, my, assistant, was, the, mother, who, prattled, about, nothing, much, all, the, way, through, the, op, she, does, my, head, in, she, is, a, century, away, from, me, in, her, outlook, but, i, still, come, away, feeling, that, i, am, the, one, who, has, got, it, all, wrong, maybe, i, should, have, dinner, on, the, table, and, shirts, ironed, etc, i, don’t, want, to, be, like, her, though, and, i, can’t, even, sympathise, with, her, even, though, they, lost, all, their, sheep, i’m, sure, she, must, have, taken, it, badly, but, i, don’t, think, she, would, ever, let, her, feelings, show, in, public, something, about, the, way, she, spoke, suggested, that, she, was, forcing, herself, to, put, a, brave, face, and, look, forward, probably, for, her, own, son’s, sake, watched, rural, lives, again, on, tuesday, cr, came, over, well, i, though, i, couldn’t, help, but, snigger, when, the, slaughter, team, were, discussing, one, of, our, clients, she, made, the, kids, carry, away, the, dead, piglets, after, they’d, been, slaughtered, them, team, thought, that, was, terrible, but, i, knew, the, kids, they, all, help, on, the, farm, they, know, that, their, pigs, go, to, kill, the, family, even, started, their, own, little, slaughter, house, and, cutting, plant, before, fmd, i, don’t, think, those, kids, would, be, horrified, sad, maybe, we, all, felt, sad, over, the, last, year, sad, for, the, healthy, animals, culled, more, sad, for, the, people, caught, up, in, the, mess, one, disease, where, the, cure, is, worse, mostly, though, i, get, angry, when, i, hear, or, talk, about, fmd, i, get, angry, because, defra, let, us, all, down, the, politicians, got, too, closely, involved, nothing, happened, fast, enough, we, didn’t, seem, to, be, able, to, do, anything, we, knew, very, little, and, struggled, to, get, reliable, information, i, still, get, wound, up, thinking, about, it, all, we, were, marginalised, by, defra, i, felt, as, if, it, was, us, and, the, farmers, versus, derfa, not, all, three, groups, versus, fmd, the, rumours, that, abounded, just, magnified, the, feelings, we, talked, at, length, about, fmd, defra, etc, within, the, practice, and, with, our, clients, but, i, could, still, talk, about, it, all, day, even, now, so, many, things, are, unresolved, i, have, lost, faith, in, defra, especially, since, they, changed, their, name, no, a, for, agriculture, now, and, i’m, glad, i, have, been, ignorant, of, politics, for, so, long, there, have, been, few, shining, lights, in, the, government, i’m, heartily, sick, of, authority, interfering, and, regulating, stuff, that’s, going, along, quite, nicely, let, them, interfere, with, stuff, that’s, doing, harm, bad, farmers, need, a, shake, up, sheep, dealers, need, to, think, more, about, animal, welfare, but, the, way, things, are, going, the, good, guys, that, toe, the, line, will, end, up, following, all, the, rules, and, regulations, set, up, to, sort, out, the, bad, guys, and, will, they, bother, diary, 3, possibly, the, best, bit, of, the, week, was, sunday, when, i, eventually, after, 13, months, got, back, on, my, horse, only, 15, minutes, but, it, was, nerve, wracking, i, thought, she, might, just, throw, me, off, and, i, was, so, tense, actually, we, both, were, i, felt, as, if, i, had, forgotten, how, to, ride, i, stayed, in, the, field, thinking, it, would, be, safer, but, the, other, two, horses, were, flying, about, to, annoy, us, i’m, so, frustrated, that, i, haven’t, been, able, to, get, her, fit, for, the, start, of, the, endurance, season, there’s, no, way, we’d, be, able, to, go, to, the, first, ride, at, ullswater, and, there’s, only, one, other, in, cumbria, this, year, due, to, fmd, who, would, have, thought, that, we, would, still, be, curtailed, by, fmd, more, than, a, year, on, the, young, horse, was, very, interested, in, saddle, and, bridle, so, i, put, them, on, him, and, he, was, ok, at, first, he, was, frightened, to, move, at, all, but, then, he, realised, it, was, ok, on, monday, i, had, a, strange, request, to, go, and, hold, an, old, pony, for, the, knacker, to, shoot, the, owner’s, just, didn’t, want, to, be, around, it, was, a, lovely, morning, so, i, led, her, out, for, a, bite, of, grass, before, he, arrived, she, could, barely, manage, to, breathe, and, swallow, at, the, same, time, i, can’t, believe, how, the, tumours, have, taken, hold, of, her, since, the, turn, of, the, year, mr, a, couldn’t, tell, his, wife, the, diagnosis, initially, because, she, hadn’t, got, over, losing, the, few, pedigree, sheep, they, had, it’s, taking, some, people, a, long, time, to, get, over, the, loss, i, think, it’s, easier, to, get, over, losing, an, animal, if, you, have, more, than, one, it, helps, to, keep, you, focussed, on, the, living, rather, than, the, dead, and, farmers, haven’t, been, able, to, get, restarted, when, they, were, ready, to, because, of, all, the, c, d, requirements, anyway, the, knacker, man, told, some, good, tales, there’s, been, some, nutters, about, shooting, animals, some, even, had, their, guns, taken, off, them, poor, lad, was, given, a, day’s, notice, at, the, knackey, and, was, part, of, a, slaughter, team, after, that, so, he, was, only, paid, his, normal, wage, which, the, boss, collected, at, the, defra, rate, for, them, all, it, was, good, talking, to, him, probably, because, i, don’t, really, know, him, i, didn’t, feel, that, i, would, upset, him, because, he, wasn’t, like, a, client, who, had, lost, animals, sometimes, it’s, hard, to, know, what, to, say, if, people, get, upset, sometimes, it’s, enough, to, listen, one, of, the, most, awkward, situations, i, found, myself, in, was, talking, to, a, farmer, who, lost, no, stock, but, he, was, so, depressed, he, started, crying, the, cows, i, had, gone, to, see, should, have, gone, last, year, then, we, wouldn’t, have, had, these, problems, he, also, has, been, unable, to, sell, sheep, so, the, farm, was, completely, overstocked, overgrazed, and, had, little, silage, left, i, couldn’t, understand, why, he, was, still, overstocking, when, he, could, have, sold, sheep, and, cattle, for, restocking, or, for, slaughter, quite, easily, in, the, last, few, months, maybe, he, just, couldn’t, face, the, hassle, of, getting, licences, or, maybe, he’s, just, too, far, down, to, think, straight, i, usually, mention, that, sort, of, thing, to, b, and, w, because, i, think, it’s, important, that, everyone, in, the, practice, knows, what’s, happening, not, just, with, out, patients, but, also, with, our, clients, diary, 4, i, had, the, honour, of, completing, the, final, final, visit, today, and, it, was, one, of, my, neighbours, in, soulby, no, more, surveillance, visits, poor, lol, couldn’t, find, his, defra, paperwork, and, while, he, was, looking, through, his, files, he, found, copies, of, his, valuation, report, with, all, his, old, cows, on, i, think, it, brought, it, all, back, he’s, trying, hard, to, move, on, i, could, understand, him, being, bitter, since, his, whole, very, good, milking, herd, was, taken, as, a, dc, i, think, he, may, have, survived, because, the, infection, was, half, a, mile, away, from, his, cows, but, the, ip, land, joined, i, watched, them, load, all, his, cows, into, coal, wagons, on, s, saturday, afternoon, in, fact, it, was, midnight, when, the, last, de, tox, wagon, left, how, can, they, be, clean, if, i, can’t, even, get, my, wellies, clean, in, the, dark, how, he’s, worrying, about, his, new, cows, coming, from, holland, he, thinks, it’s, a, long, way, for, them, to, travel, but, he, can’t, wait, for, them, to, arrive, unlike, his, wife, who, thinks, that, all, this, restocking, is, going, too, fast, i, felt, apprehensive, too, about, a, fortnight, ago, but, the, feeling, is, subsiding, the, day, to, day, normality, of, work, is, returning, sheep, are, permitted, to, visit, the, surgery, for, treatment, so, we, have, had, a, much, more, normal, march, than, we’d, had, last, year, even, though, there, are, still, thousands, of, sheep, missing, from, the, practice, farmers, are, still, bringing, in, lambs, the, value, of, stock, is, obviously, not, their, prime, concern, where, there’s, life, there’s, hope, we, wouldn’t, see, ewes, or, lambs, at, all, if, the, cost, of, treatment, versus, the, animal’s, value, was, weighed, i, was, worried, that, we, would, have, a, flare, up, around, lambing, time, there’s, a, chance, that, some, of, the, fell, sheep, were, exposed, to, fmd, and, there’s, a, risk, of, virus, recrudescence, at, times, of, stress, so, i, was, thinking, that, if, we, made, it, through, lambing, then, we’d, definitely, be, ok, the, weather, has, cheered, me, up, this, week, everybody, smiles, more, when, it’s, sunny, its, tempting, to, think, my, days, at, home, are, holidays, when, the, weathers, so, nice, diary, 5, i, forgot, about, april, fools, day, for, the, first, time, ever, we, were, so, busy, at, work, and, it, was, more, of, a, bank, holiday, than, anything, else, i, do, resent, working, bank, holidays, but, monday, is, my, day, to, be, on, call, b, did, offer, to, do, some, of, the, day, but, he, had, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, a, lambing, at, 1.30, am, and, another, call, at, 6, am, so, he’d, be, knackered, enough, and, they, pay, me, for, a, day’s, work, so, its, only, fair, that, i, give, a, days, work, when, the, phone, rang, early, tuesday, and, i, felt, as, if, i’d, only, been, in, bed, 2, hours, i, was, regretting, not, passing, on, the, night, duty, a, belgian, blue, calving, caesarian, mentally, checked, my, kit, in, the, car, while, driving, to, ks, definitely, caesarean, they, shouldn’t, breed, from, these, cows, until, they’re, more, mature, we’re, getting, loads, of, bother, with, the, new, stock, never, mind, its, proper, veterinary, work, anyway, the, heifer, was, a, right, bag, started, off, lying, down, so, i, doped, her, but, she, got, up, after, we, got, the, calf, out, and, then, tried, to, lye, down, on, the, wound, peritonitis, to, follow, no, doubt, i, warned, the, farmer, and, we, were, all, very, calm, about, it, maybe, none, of, us, were, really, awake, so, that, made, partner, late, for, work, as, he, was, left, holding, the, baby, and, i, was, well, late, setting, off, to, see, my, sister, sister, sister, didn’t, mind, and, partner, s, bosses, said, it, was, ok, but, i, still, felt, guilty, had, a, great, time, at, sister’s, did, a, bit, of, touristy, stuff, and, found, a, really, nice, book, for, mam’s, birthday, by, mrs, herdie, who, used, to, holiday, near, home, mam, has, a, watercolour, by, her, but, this, book, is, all, wildflowers, other, sister, phoned, to, say, horse, is, worse, i, think, sister, and, i, both, wanted, to, go, to, yorkshire, when, we, heard, how, upset, she, was, sisters, are, so, close, being, twins, but, i, can, understand, what, sister, s, going, through, with, a, horse, on, death’s, door, she, didn’t, want, us, to, go, she, said, so, we, drank, too, much, red, wine, instead, and, watched, the, start, of, papillon, good, film, i, was, too, knackered, though, my, stamina, gives, out, a, lot, sooner, under, the, influence, of, alcohol, mam’s, birthday, was, a, queer, day, it’s, rare, that, i, get, the, chance, to, spend, time, with, any, of, my, siblings, at, home, and, we, had, a, lovely, day, apart, from, the, fact, that, we, were, all, waiting, to, hear, what, was, going, to, happen, with, sister, she, phoned, to, say, he’d, been, put, down, bladder, tumour, i, think, it, must, be, pretty, rare, she, still, said, we, shouldn’t, go, down, sister, could, have, easily, gone, and, mam, because, lynxes, on, school, hols, jammy, teacher, i, stayed, on, till, quite, late, because, both, my, brother, and, stepfather, wanted, to, see, son, he, was, so, excited, to, see, them, sometimes, he, just, makes, us, all, laugh, i, had, a, depressing, start, to, the, day, back, at, work, just, over, a, month, ago, i, amputated, a, dog’s, leg, the, leg, was, fractured, over, 6, months, ago, appeared, to, heal, and, then, suddenly, worsen, we, suspected, a, bone, infection, but, she, didn’t, respond, to, treatment, so, i, x, rayed, her, again, and, it, looked, like, a, bone, tumour, she, did, well, after, the, operation, until, last, week, when, she, developed, a, hard, knobbly, swelling, near, her, shoulder, and, her, lungs, were, infiltrated, i, felt, so, sad, for, her, and, the, family, she, was, a, lovely, placid, and, very, brave, dog, and, it, is, just, so, unfair, i, don’t, want, to, give, up, on, these, cases, and, i, feel, that, euthanasia, is, a, poor, treatment, in, this, case, i, so, wanted, her, to, have, a, couple, more, years, i, never, would, have, put, her, or, the, family, through, a, ghastly, op, like, amputation, if, i, had, known, that, she, would, get, so, little, benefit, the, farmer’s, son, who, worked, the, dog, until, she, retired, was, conspicuous, by, his, absence, he’s, rebuilding, the, milking, parlour, ready, to, restock, so, his, sister, did, the, honours, and, came, to, help, me, had, to, switch, to, party, mode, son’s, 2nd, birthday, the, sandpit, was, a, roaring, success, as, was, the, trike, and, cake, from, grandma, and, granddad, we, had, a, super, relaxing, day, mostly, outdoors, this, weather, makes, life, a, lot, easier, i, couldn’t, have, coped, with, all, those, little, boys, inside, escaped, to, the, horses, at, asby, to, take, water, it’s, so, peaceful, up, there, i’ve, really, missed, being, able, to, go, up, there, this, last, year, there’s, still, yellow, tape, on, my, gate, and, i, don’t, even, have, livestock, i, wonder, who, they, defra, thought, the, field, belongs, to, should, get, out, riding, this, next, week, with, a, bit, of, luck, and, a, bit, of, spare, time, i, think, i’ll, have, to, shelve, the, plans, to, show, the, arabs, i, haven’t, got, started, soon, enough, diary, 6, our, new, vet, started, this, week, bright, young, enthusiastic, and, full, of, new, ideas, i, feel, very, out, of, touch, i, didn’t, go, on, any, cpd, courses, last, year, for, most, of, the, year, i, felt, as, if, we, were, unclean, and, i, was, so, tired, with, working, such, long, days, it, seemed, too, much, hard, work, to, organise, extra, childcare, etc, to, allow, me, to, go, away, for, more, than, a, day, i, feel, out, of, touch, generally, though, and, a, lot, of, it, has, to, do, with, working, part, time, big, day, on, wednesday, son’s, 1st, morning, at, biggins, nursery, i, think, my, new, hobby, is, worrying, am, i, doing, the, right, thing, setting, off, on, new, extra, and, expensive, childcare, arrangements, i, think, i, feel, guilty, because, it’s, for, my, benefit, not, for, extra, work, it’s, now, going, to, cost, me, an, extra, 7.50, to, ride, my, horse, on, a, wednesday, but, i, am, starting, to, break, horse, in, as, well, and, i, can’t, handle, a, 4, year, old, horse, with, a, 2, year, old, boy, around, anyway, the, nursery, seemed, a, big, hit, and, i, had, my, first, ride, out, on, ashby, fell, i, actually, went, over, the, track, to, the, dowly, tree, instead, of, on, the, road, she, the, horse, was, quite, anxious, leading, the, other, two, and, a, bit, excited, to, be, out, in, the, open, space, of, the, fell, so, was, i, there, seems, to, be, just, one, lot, of, fell, sheep, on, there, they, must, be, h’s, i, think, nobody, else, has, started, to, heft, sheep, up, there, yet, the, dowly, tree, will, be, looking, sad, and, lonely, for, a, bit, longer, i, have, missed, being, up, on, that, fell, so, much, margaret, little, asking, if, we’re, going, to, the, village, hall, quiz, on, friday, probably, not, because, we’re, going, out, for, a, meal, for, partner, s, birthday, felt, guilty, about, not, supporting, village, activities, and, started, justifying, myself, to, her, i, hate, it, though, when, people, use, fmd, to, make, you, feel, bad, she, kept, saying, how, few, does, there, were, last, year, how, nice, it, is, for, all, the, village, to, get, together, etc, all, true, but, i, can’t, get, babysitters, and, nights, off, to, do, everything, and, partner, is, way, more, important, than, the, village, quiz, he, put, up, with, such, a, lot, of, shite, last, year, and, never, complained, far, too, tolerant, we, had, a, lovely, meal, on, the, friday, night, son, slept, out, at, t’s, for, the, first, time, in, ages, but, i, couldn’t, have, a, lie, in, because, of, the, judge’s, course, for, the, arab, horse, society, i, really, enjoyed, it, it, was, arranged, for, last, year, but, had, to, be, postponed, due, to, fmd, it, was, worth, waiting, for, and, i, couldn’t, have, gone, last, year, even, if, it, had, been, on, went, to, see, sister, and, sister’s, boyfriend, on, sunday, seemed, to, spend, all, day, being, fed, she’s, like, mam, son, took, a, real, shine, to, sister’s, boyfriend, which, entertained, us, all, she, seems, to, be, coping, ok, with, horse, s, demise, martin, has, cleaned, up, one, of, his, shoes, and, mounted, it, with, a, plaque, he’s, very, thoughtful, diary, 7, i, have, decided, that, i, am, happy, on, dry, days, when, i, can, ride, or, work, my, horses, son, and, i, can, get, outside, to, play, and, then, he’s, happier, and, people, who, come, into, work, are, more, smiley, on, good, days, too, son, and, i, went, to, a, birthday, party, this, week, he, had, a, brilliant, time, but, i, felt, very, out, of, place, everybody, else, was, immaculately, dressed, and, made, up, while, son, and, i, had, to, rush, back, from, having, a, bonfire, to, burn, all, the, old, hay, in, musgrave, field, to, quickly, wash, and, change, i’d, rather, have, carried, on, tidying, up, the, field, it’s, still, a, real, mess, and, at, least, i, have, the, grass, seed, now, it, had, better, grow, the, price, it, was, i, was, really, pleased, with, horse, on, wednesday, he’s, coming, on, quite, nicely, with, his, lunging, now, he, seems, to, be, quite, amenable, dental, appointment, on, friday, i, hope, my, dentist, never, retires, i, don’t, think, they, make, dentists, that, are, more, interested, in, people, and, their, teeth, than, money, any, more, i, always, have, a, good, chat, to, him, so, we, carried, on, our, discussion, about, my, working, conditions, comparing, them, to, his, sons, etc, he’s, a, vet, too, he, was, quite, surprised, when, i, told, him, about, the, partnership, talks, last, time, i, had, a, good, heart, to, heart, it, was, after, the, threatened, redundancy, it’s, no, wonder, i, feel, confused, about, the, future, at, times, nearly, 2, years, ago, when, i, was, on, maternity, leave, they, thought, they, might, have, to, make, me, redundant, now, they, want, to, release, a, bit, of, capital, and, take, things, easier, they, want, me, to, buy, in, this, time, last, year, i, didn’t, know, if, partner, or, i, would, have, a, job, now, i, have, to, decide, to, commit, myself, to, at, least, 20, more, years, as, a, vet, went, out, with, girls, from, work, to, a, 40th, didn’t, really, want, to, go, but, of, course, we, had, a, great, time, once, we, got, there, i, think, i, have, got, out, of, the, habit, of, evenings, out, still, can’t, get, used, to, the, freedom, the, mobile, phone, gives, us, and, spend, all, the, time, checking, that, there’s, enough, signal, battery, etc, had, a, hell, of, a, hangover, too, much, draught, coke, hell, it’s, worse, than, cider, diary, 8, the, shit, is, hitting, the, fan, we’re, having, problems, with, some, imported, dutch, heifers, we, were, waiting, for, this, especially, on, this, particular, farm, the, management’s, not, the, best, and, the, father, takes, more, advice, from, his, feed, merchant, than, us, vets, there, is, obviously, a, viral, infection, going, through, the, heifers, and, farmer, b, presumed, they, were, already, vaccinated, no, documentation, they, are, also, showing, signs, of, gastro, intestinal, upset, which, could, be, management, oh, hell, why, did, he, buy, 80, first, calvers, nobody, would, willingly, put, themselves, under, that, stress, new, vet, is, interested, but, b, and, w, are, obviously, trying, to, keep, their, distance, they’ve, been, embroiled, in, herd, problems, on, this, farm, before, i, am, now, obviously, the, senior, vet, in, charge, of, this, problem, and, i’m, not, even, at, work, every, day, it’s, too, much, for, new, vet, to, cope, with, and, the, farmer, will, get, pissed, off, soon, and, i, bet, it’s, us, that, catch, the, flak, cheered, myself, up, with, 1, hours, of, r, r, with, the, horses, on, wednesday, lovely, day, rode, down, onto, the, common, but, it, was, hard, work, as, the, other, two, horses, were, shouting, for, daisy, all, the, time, i, was, out, on, her, horse, decided, that, he, would, be, bobbly, when, i, worked, him, but, i’m, getting, confident, that, i, know, how, his, mind, works, we, had, a, bit, of, a, stand, off, but, i, made, sure, it, didn’t, turn, into, a, battle, and, he, did, as, he, was, asked, in, the, end, so, we, finished, on, a, good, note, i, think, it, will, be, quite, satisfying, bringing, him, on, myself, even, though, its, going, to, take, months, at, this, rate, some, people, work, on, young, horses, twice, a, day, he’s, lucky, if, he, gets, trained, twice, a, week, work, is, really, settling, down, now, the, lambing, time, rush, has, passed, and, we’re, catching, up, on, our, tb, testing, for, defra, it’s, a, bit, more, taxing, having, to, do, such, young, animals, in, the, restocked, herds, but, most, people, are, fairly, well, organised, we’re, not, going, to, get, some, of, the, herds, done, before, turn, out, i, wonder, if, defra, have, any, recommendations, for, catching, wild, limousin, heifers, in, the, middle, of, a, field, probably, not, they, don’t, think, that, far, ahead, diary, 9, i, hate, mondays, again, had, supper, at, 11.45, pm, there, was, a, problem, with, my, mobile, when, i, was, on, call, i, hate, mobiles, as, well, and, i, went, to, calve, a, cow, one, and, a, half, hours, after, the, first, call, came, in, i, was, so, mad, firstly, because, we, don’t, make, our, clients, wait, that, long, for, an, emergency, to, become, a, disaster, and, second, because, ws, wife, has, no, idea, about, passing, jobs, on, she, should, have, got, another, vet, to, go, since, i, was, obviously, busy, but, she, just, passed, the, message, on, to, new, vet, to, let, her, sort, it, out, and, w’s, wife, gets, paid, for, doing, the, phones, anyway, all’s, well, live, cow, and, a, tremendous, bull, calf, and, one, of, the, easiest, caesareans, i, have, done, in, ages, b, and, w, seem, to, forget, that, it, is, their, business, and, reputation, at, stake, ultimately, the, buck, stops, with, them, both, of, them, seem, to, have, had, enough, of, business, management, and, hassle, to, last, a, lifetime, last, year, has, done, a, lot, of, damage, to, a, lot, of, people, i, know, i, am, a, lot, less, tolerant, than, i, used, to, be, this, week, started, badly, and, improved, farrier, came, and, trimmed, all, 3, horses, bollocked, me, because, they, hadn’t, been, seen, for, over, a, year, i, did, tidy, them, a, bit, myself, though, had, a, lovely, afternoon, at, rheged, with, mam, we, started, going, when, fmd, was, on, because, it, was, sort, of, neutral, non, agricultural, ground, we, sat, and, chatted, while, son, played, in, the, soft, play, centre, everybody, happy, unfortunately, i, went, down, with, the, worst, dose, of, food, poisoning, i, had, ever, had, i, was, up, all, night, went, into, work, late, i, wouldn’t, have, gone, at, all, except, i, had, a, 2nd, tb, to, test, to, do, on, a, restocked, farm, and, couldn’t, bear, to, start, the, whole, thing, again, i, recovered, as, the, afternoon, went, on, and, even, managed, to, dehorn, 10, cows, the, thought, of, b, sending, fragile, young, new, vet, to, help, spurred, me, on, a, bit, i, was, knackered, when, i, finished, took, me, another, 2, days, to, recover, horse, doing, well, bridle, and, saddle, on, now, looking, grown, up, i’m, quite, proud, of, him, he, was, so, chilled, out, today, i, tried, long, reining, him, that, confused, him, but, he, was, very, sensible, norleen, and, i, didn’t, go, to, the, 1st, date, at, the, rochdale, show, i, still, didn’t, feel, right, and, partner, was, going, to, fit, the, new, fuel, pump, to, my, car, but, then, he, started, to, feel, ill, too, what, a, waste, of, a, saturday, off, made, it, to, the, show, on, sunday, pretty, good, ridden, classes, and, all, the, senior, in, hand, classes, we, were, laughing, because, we’re, so, out, of, practice, there, are, two, years, worth, of, young, stock, that, we’ve, never, seen, due, to, babies, in, 2000, and, fmd, in, 2001, we, felt, really, out, of, touch, there, are, a, few, imported, stallions, and, mares, that, we, haven’t, seen, before, too, we, had, a, brilliant, day, diary, 10, what’s, worse, than, working, on, call, on, mondays, yes, working, bank, holidays, we, hoped, to, shut, at, 12, ha, ha, i, got, home, for, lunch, at, 2pm, b, kindly, took, the, phones, for, a, couple, of, hours, in, the, afternoon, not, long, enough, to, go, anywhere, and, i, was, back, out, working, by, tea, time, my, car, failed, its, mot, because, the, back, brake, callipers, were, all, gunged, up, the, mechanic, says, it’s, disinfectant, that, does, it, bloody, defra, i, bet, there’s, no, chance, of, compensation, for, that, it, wouldn’t, be, so, bad, if, it, was, a, practice, car, but, now, that, i’m, part, time, i, have, to, paddle, my, own, canoe, all, the, local, garage, owners, warned, us, last, year, that, these, things, would, happen, what, could, we, do, we, felt, obliged, to, drive, into, all, the, voluntary, disinfectant, sites, it, doesn’t, look, good, if, the, local, vets, aren’t, disinfecting, my, beautiful, old, audi, god, knows, what, other, horrors, are, lurking, where, the, fam, has, spilled, in, my, boot, etc, hell, it, makes, me, mad, all, the, destruction, physical, and, mental, and, we, had, so, little, to, say, in, any, of, it, well, my, car, spent, the, rest, of, the, week, in, the, garage, so, i, used, borrowed, wheels, went, to, do, a, wee, talk, at, stainsmore, pre, school, in, partner, s, transit, van, very, professional, the, children, didn’t, care, they, just, wanted, to, meet, my, dog, son, missed, a, birthday, party, on, the, saturday, because, i, was, still, at, work, more, guilt, not, that, he, knows, he, missed, it, lovely, day, on, sunday, with, my, horse, went, for, a, three, hour, ride, over, in, county, durham, we, trailed, round, arable, fields, and, nice, lanes, all, very, different, from, here, other, horse, was, an, absolute, saint, and, did, very, well, to, have, no, shoes, on, she, really, did, us, proud, diary, 11, got, my, car, back, that, cheered, me, up, bad, news, about, the, imported, heifers, two, more, have, died, at, least, the, pm, exams, and, sampling, are, free, because, it’s, a, restocked, herd, farmer, getting, angry, now, at, dutch, farmers, but, taking, it, out, on, new, vet, very, unfair, she’s, spent, hours, checking, over, his, cattle, and, taking, samples, didn’t, get, my, usual, r, r, on, wed, absolutely, piddling, down, started, sorting, out, a, few, jobs, that, i, have, been, avoiding, the, sort, i, used, to, do, on, wet, sundays, now, will, become, wet, wednesday, jobs, called, in, at, work, for, coffee, and, ended, up, with, a, call, for, the, afternoon, very, interesting, job, too, went, to, sedate, two, horses, for, the, dentist, it, was, absolutely, fascinating, son, has, another, 2nd, cousin, this, week, the, family, is, really, sprouting, had, a, tough, calving, thursday, night, torsion, of, the, uterus, i, can, do, these, now, i, used, to, absolutely, dread, them, unfortunately, she’d, been, on, too, long, and, the, calf, was, born, dead, heifer, fine, though, i, hate, going, to, that, farm, the, farmer, is, a, right, old, perverted, slime, ball, and, i’ll, dance, on, his, grave, started, with, a, real, head, cold, h, crap, went, to, see, mam, and, stewart, son, on, top, form, it’s, brilliant, seeing, him, interact, with, my, family, he, has, really, strengthened, the, bonds, in, our, family, son, fevered, at, night, starting, with, the, same, cold, i, presume, no, sleep, for, me, partner, never, seems, to, hear, all, the, commotion, still, felt, ill, on, saturday, sister, and, sister, s, birthday, at, least, i, remembered, to, post, their, cards, in, plenty, of, time, this, year, went, shopping, for, wallpaper, on, sunday, to, cheer, me, up, partner, went, off, pest, controlling, with, his, dogs, they, went, up, through, tubby’s, wood, they, found, nothing, but, at, least, the, dogs, had, a, good, ratch, he, says, he, only, now, feels, ok, about, walking, across, fields, i, didn’t, even, realise, that, he, still, felt, that, he, couldn’t, go, round, all, his, old, haunts, we, must, talk, more, diary, 19, tb, test, cancelled, on, monday, and, thursday, this, week, because, the, farmer, can’t, cope, with, the, extra, hassle, he’s, a, bit, of, a, woman, at, the, best, of, times, but, he’s, been, even, worse, since, fmd, w, was, very, understanding, he, seems, to, have, the, farmers, measure, b, didn’t, seem, that, understanding, very, upset, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, had, to, put, down, my, own, terrier, after, he, took, off, and, chased, the, neighbour’s, sheep, for, the, second, time, i, can’t, understand, why, he, went, so, strange, he, used, to, be, fine, with, stock, i, had, a, miserable, afternoon, waiting, for, partner, to, come, home, to, bury, him, i’d, had, such, a, good, morning, with, the, horses, too, dizzy, and, horse, were, both, going, well, i, felt, better, once, partner, came, home, he, said, i’d, done, the, right, thing, but, i, felt, as, though, i’d, failed, somehow, because, it, should, never, have, happened, in, the, first, place, maybe, it’s, because, he, had, nothing, to, do, last, year, no, interesting, walks, no, rabbiting, etc, i, don’t, know, diary, 20, brilliant, time, tues, wed, went, to, my, sisters, with, mam, and, son, it’s, much, easier, to, keep, in, touch, with, my, family, post, fmd, i, hardly, went, anywhere, last, year, we, went, shopping, to, edinburgh, mam’s, looking, for, an, outfit, for, my, brother’s, wedding, unsuccessfully, so, far, i’ve, just, realised, that, i, haven’t, seen, brother, and, wife, on, their, farm, since, fmd, broke, out, we, must, go, soon, it’s, a, brilliant, place, for, recharging, batteries, and, they, are, the, best, bit, of, my, step, family, we, didn’t, go, to, the, cumberland, show, with, the, horses, i, haven’t, got, back, into, the, swing, of, things, yet, i, think, it, was, a, bit, of, a, washout, without, the, farming, side, and, it, rained, i, offered, to, be, the, biosecurity, officer, for, our, local, show, so, that, they, could, get, things, up, and, running, properly, they, had, money, and, trophies, donated, last, year, for, new, cattle, classes, and, there, would, be, real, interest, in, fat, cattle, classes, and, young, handler, classes, now, defra, the, bastards, managed, to, put, the, committee, off, diary, 21, sprayed, weeds, in, field, only, depressing, day, this, week, it’s, never, going, to, recover, properly, the, landlord, arrived, when, we’d, just, finished, the, first, half, and, said, he’d, decided, to, reseed, it, in, august, after, much, discussion, i, persuaded, him, it, would, be, a, waste, of, time, and, money, to, put, horses, back, on, a, newly, seeded, field, over, winter, now, i’m, worried, about, what, happens, in, spring, will, we, be, terminated, or, just, moved, to, another, field, i, wish, i’d, moved, the, horses, at, the, usual, time, 1st, april, then, we, wouldn’t, have, been, caught, up, among, ips, and, dcs, something, will, sort, out, it, always, does, dairy, 22, excellent, week, off, to, malvern, with, friends, for, the, national, arabian, horse, show, son, went, off, to, grannies, for, the, holiday, i, had, a, marvellous, time, for, three, days, watching, the, most, beautiful, horses, and, came, back, absolutely, shattered, diary, 23, few, probs, at, work, with, new, assistant, she’s, a, bit, whiney, she’s, always, bending, the, ear, of, the, nearest, receptionist, and, they, are, sick, b, has, offered, her, a, 12, month, contract, but, whether, or, not, she’ll, accept, it, is, another, matter, from, what, i, can, gather, she’s, going, to, end, up, with, better, working, conditions, than, me, w’s, not, too, happy, about, it, all, but, neither, of, them, are, willing, to, grasp, the, nettle, they’ve, both, backed, off, since, last, year, they, can’t, wait, to, get, off, home, and, i, can’t, step, in, since, they’ve, changed, their, minds, about, my, partnership, and, i’m, only, part, time, good, weekend, lowther, on, saturday, didn’t, see, many, of, the, usual, faces, the, only, thing, that, spoiled, it, was, the, mud, we, brought, more, than, our, fair, share, home, with, son, and, the, pushchair, no, biosecurity, pressure, washer, anywhere, diary, 24, the, assistant, on, holiday, for, 2, weeks, things, seem, more, like, old, times, the, cages, aren’t, full, of, animals, on, drips, i’m, working, extra, days, and, enjoying, it, it’s, tiring, but, good, highlight, of, the, week, on, thursday, brough, show, there, weren’t, many, farmers, there, but, loads, of, horses, and, ponies, instead, of, sheep, much, talk, of, defra, regulations, none, complimentary, it, just, wasn’t, the, same, without, the, sheep, it, felt, flat, i, wonder, what, the, gimmer, lamb, sales, will, be, like, diary, 25, knackered, don’t, think, i, could, cope, with, full, time, work, any, more, new, vet, still, on, holiday, felt, guilty, about, son, being, farmed, out, all, week, i, managed, to, work, myself, up, about, our, charity, horse, show, on, saturday, i, tried, to, hand, over, the, organisation, to, three, other, folk, and, still, ended, up, sorting, out, all, the, insurance, and, rosettes, and, they, changed, the, date, so, i, had, less, time, to, organise, and, it, wasn’t, advertised, it, was, the, worst, show, we’ve, ever, had, it, takes, as, much, time, to, organise, it, for, the, few, as, it, does, for, the, many, i, felt, so, disappointed, i, thought, we, would, have, a, real, good, turnout, this, time, after, having, to, cancel, last, year, oh, well, there’s, always, next, year, i’ll, need, to, make, sure, they, don’t, change, the, date, again, and, at, least, i, might, be, able, to, take, the, horses, next, time, decided, to, cheer, myself, up, by, taking, other, horse, over, to, school, her, round, the, jumps, on, the, sunday, but, i, couldn’t, catch, her, she, must, have, known, so, that, just, put, the, tin, hat, on, the, weekend, diary, 26, two, trotting, meetings, this, week, i, landed, both, of, them, and, both, nights, on, call, another, bank, holiday, with, no, time, off, and, i, had, to, take, son, to, both, because, partner, was, grouse, beating, both, meetings, were, quite, relaxed, but, there, was, one, nasty, crash, at, appleby, had, a, really, nice, day, out, at, chatsworth, game, fair, with, helen, and, neil, it’s, the, first, time, we’ve, managed, to, visit, them, and, it, took, hours, to, get, there, we, were, invited, last, year, but, the, advert, said, they, didn’t, want, any, cumbrians, social, outcasts, as, if, we, didn’t, feel, like, the, armpit, of, british, agriculture, as, it, was, i, really, enjoyed, our, day, out, i, felt, as, if, we’d, had, a, weekend, away, not, just, a, day, we’ll, have, to, think, of, some, more, trips, it’s, too, easy, just, to, stay, at, home, we, always, have, plenty, to, do, dairy, 27, it’s, started, again, defra, have, found, a, new, way, to, cock, up, our, lives, they, have, now, complicated, life, with, exemptions, from, the, 20, day, standstill, including, new, stuff, about, isolation, units, the, farmers, have, all, been, notified, by, post, some, haven’t, read, it, some, have, read, it, and, don’t, understand, it, farmers, have, to, isolate, new, stock, bought, via, auctions, etc, from, any, contact, with, other, stock, by, 50, m, outside, or, they, can, go, on, standstill, but, their, neighbours, can, move, stock, from, the, next, door, field, without, a, problem, it’s, mad, i, don’t, understand, where, they, are, coming, from, well, i, do, sort, of, but, as, usual, it’s, badly, thought, out, and, we, have, to, sell, this, idea, to, the, farmers, how, will, it, be, policed, will, it, matter, would, it, stop, another, massive, outbreak, it, doesn’t, take, much, to, wind, everyone, up, again, it’s, not, helped, at, work, by, b, defending, the, defra, line, and, w, dissing, it, what, will, the, clients, think, diary, 28, crap, week, puncture, on, thursday, during, lunch, hour, struggled, to, get, locking, nuts, off, felt, feckless, god, i, have, so, little, patience, these, days, and, i, missed, beva, congress, couldn’t, sort, out, childminding, etc, and, the, best, days, were, friday, and, saturday, there, was, no, way, i, could, go, i, was, really, disappointed, nothing, to, do, with, fmd, though, i, don’t, feel, as, if, i, get, much, encouragement, from, work, they, are, ok, about, paying, for, cpd, courses, but, they, don’t, seem, to, make, it, easy, to, swap, weekends, etc, they’re, not, bothered, themselves, so, i, suppose, they, don’t, understand, all, the, different, things, you, get, from, cpd, diary, 29, worked, extra, so, new, vet, could, go, to, sheep, meeting, at, malvern, pissed, off, it, is, not, easy, to, do, this, job, with, a, husband, and, a, family, to, consider, and, i, suppose, the, timing, stinks, since, i, missed, my, equine, course, last, week, the, week, improved, considerably, by, thursday, we, went, to, guilford, for, an, arab, horse, convention, nothing, to, do, with, work, but, very, enjoyable, i’ve, been, waiting, more, than, 10, years, for, this, i, hope, i, live, long, enough, to, go, to, the, next, one, we, talked, to, some, men, on, the, train, unheard, of, in, surrey, apparently, about, cumbria, farming, fmd, and, foxhunting, once, we, reassured, them, that, newcastle, was, not, in, cumbria, we, had, an, interesting, crack, i, hardly, ever, meet, anyone, that, is, not, connected, with, farming, and, the, countryside, they, really, have, no, idea, what, it’s, like, i, don’t, know, anything, about, it, either, which, is, what, their, job, is, i, end, up, feeling, so, frustrated, that, agriculture, and, therefore, large, animal, practice, is, in, such, a, precarious, position, it, seems, to, me, to, be, such, a, basic, fundamental, part, of, life, compared, to, computers, and, yet, the, emphasis, is, not, on, basic, stuff, anymore, surely, we, need, things, like, agriculture, and, basic, manufacturing, to, underpin, everything, else, no, wonder, nobody, was, bothered, about, us, suffering, anxiety, fear, confusion, last, year, when, we, were, in, the, throes, of, fmd, and, the, penrith, spur, was, certainly, under, reported, they, wouldn’t, have, had, so, many, marches, in, london, pre, fmd, diary, 30, quite, week, still, tired, from, last, week, loads, of, photos, to, develop, again, it, was, great, saw, horses, i’d, never, seen, before, and, got, 2, great, videos, of, long, dead, horses, that, appear, in, my, horses, pedigrees, son, was, a, bit, off, with, me, when, i, picked, him, up, monday, a, bit, unsettled, with, being, away, i, suppose, oh, this, job, just, interferes, with, a, social, life, missed, another, wedding, this, week, on, call, again, diary, 31, took, a, horse, to, penrith, vets, for, an, x, ray, they, have, a, super, new, hospital, just, out, of, town, seems, really, well, set, up, they, have, a, really, good, attitude, to, work, and, clients, i, think, we, need, a, shake, up, at, work, maybe, new, vet, s, way, of, working, isn’t, too, bad, neil, said, they, were, million, in, the, red, at, the, height, of, fmd, they, must, have, been, so, worried, none, of, us, knew, what, we’d, be, left, with, we’ve, definitely, got, a, lot, of, routine, work, because, we’ve, lost, such, a, lot, of, dairy, farms, it’s, never, going, to, be, the, same, again, and, i’m, not, good, at, accepting, change, diary, 32, sad, week, one, of, our, farmer’s, sons, was, killed, in, an, rta, on, the, a66, he, had, only, been, married, two, years, and, was, a, real, canny, lad, it, shocked, everyone, and, has, certainly, made, me, take, stock, they, have, restocked, with, fancy, cattle, from, down, south, and, these, cattle, may, have, contacted, cattle, with, a, variant, virus, from, the, usa, so, they, were, doing, a, whole, herd, test, you, could, blame, this, on, fmd, if, they, hadn’t, lost, their, cattle, they, wouldn’t, have, restocked, and, they, wouldn’t, be, testing, the, cattle, or, it, wouldn’t, have, happened, if, they’d, stopped, for, an, extra, cup, of, tea, a, client, brought, me, a, copy, of, the, cumbria, enquiry, that, didn’t, half, stir, up, some, old, feelings, all, the, things, i, was, so, angry, about, last, year, were, summed, up, in, one, phrase, i, read, slack, organisation, the, poor, woman, who, brought, the, report, has, spent, over, 1000, treating, her, dog, after, it, suffered, chemical, burns, from, fmd, disinfectant, on, a, road, map, it, now, reacts, to, phenolic, compounds, including, sheep, dip, and, fresh, tar, they’re, moving, to, scotland, i, hope, the, dog, has, a, better, life, there, diary, 33, funny, old, week, everyone, still, shell, shocked, about, farmer’s, son, s, death, no, explanation, as, to, how, the, lorry, crashed, into, his, tractor, yet, you, begin, to, wonder, how, any, family, can, cope, with, that, sort, of, trauma, b, and, w, went, to, the, huge, funeral, they, said, his, parents, were, amazing, they, do, have, a, strong, faith, but, i, can’t, see, that, being, enough, i, went, to, the, graveyard, the, next, day, to, see, the, flowers, and, ended, up, in, tears, it, was, the, messages, on, the, cards, especially, the, ones, from, his, parents, and, brother, and, sister, i, felt, so, sad, for, them, all, went, for, a, wee, walk, with, tracey, she, knows, him, quite, well, and, we, talked, a, lot, trying, to, make, sense, of, it, all, then, blow, me, on, the, thursday, his, father, and, brother, were, part, of, a, syndicate, at, the, tup, sales, that, paid, over, 100,000, for, a, swaledale, tup, i, couldn’t, believe, they’d, even, gone, to, the, auction, never, mind, doing, something, like, that, it, doesn’t, seem, right, to, me, the, others, could, have, bought, the, tup, for, them, i, think, that’s, awfully, strange, i, had, another, upset, farmer’s, wife, this, week, i, went, to, see, a, downer, cow, she’d, got, stuck, in, the, cubicles, we, had, to, carry, her, to, a, straw, box, using, the, loader, tractor, and, the, wife, got, really, upset, seeing, the, cow, swinging, on, the, front, of, the, tractor, i, felt, a, bit, guilty, really, because, i, didn’t, think, i, just, didn’t, connect, the, fmd, slaughter, with, an, injured, cow, but, then, i, didn’t, see, all, that, they, saw, when, their, herd, went, down, diary, 34, great, week, my, brother’s, wedding, son, was, a, page, boy, in, a, kilt, and, he, was, quite, well, behaved, apart, from, the, second, lot, of, photos, he, was, well, tired, and, hungry, by, then, i, love, being, home, with, my, brother, and, sisters, and, their, partners, and, it’s, great, the, way, they, all, have, so, much, time, for, son, we, always, laugh, so, much, at, the, clan, gatherings, i’m, sure, it’s, very, therapeutic, the, amount, of, alcohol, consumed, by, all, at, the, wedding, is, definitely, not, therapeutic, we, set, off, on, our, holiday, maybe, our, first, family, holiday, the, day, after, in, the, rain, but, it, turned, out, ok, later, such, a, lot, of, good, stuff, in, one, week, diary, 35, had, a, lovely, day, it, all, worked, out, well, we, may, try, four, or, five, days, away, next, year, now, that, we’ve, got, started, again, it’s, years, since, we, had, a, proper, holiday, i, usually, miss, all, the, animals, when, i’m, away, but, not, this, time, i, think, son, has, more, than, filled, that, gap, had, bad, news, on, wednesday, partner, s, van, failed, its, mot, no, transport, no, money, for, a, new, motor, mild, panic, slight, depression, then, the, gradual, return, to, my, it, will, all, work, out, somehow, attitude, and, it, did, partner, s, mum, and, dad, helped, us, out, and, i, had, to, relinquish, my, little, buy, a, new, trailer, fund, had, a, disaster, on, sunday, morning, caesarean, on, an, uncooperative, cow, she, got, up, halfway, through, the, op, and, pushed, her, rumen, out, onto, the, very, dirty, floor, and, she, started, to, haemorrhage, she, died, four, hours, later, they, ended, up, with, an, exceptional, bull, calf, but, a, dead, pedigree, belgian, blue, cow, i, hate, when, things, die, on, restocked, farms, i, think, they, were, quite, philosophical, about, it, but, i, went, over, and, over, the, whole, thing, in, my, head, b, just, said, if, they’re, going, to, die, it’s, best, they, die, soon, less, time, to, worry, and, everyone, gets, over, it, quicker, too, i, think, he, may, be, right, he’s, definitely, easier, to, talk, to, these, days, he’s, like, a, different, person, now, that, jan’s, left, diary, 36, busy, week, testing, a, restocked, herd, monday, thursday, which, had, travelled, all, of, 5, miles, to, their, new, home, a, bit, of, a, waste, of, time, but, it, was, a, nice, day, to, be, out, really, good, turnout, at, the, village, bonfire, it’s, a, new, tradition, started, in, 2001, and, it, was, the, first, village, get, together, after, fmd, at, the, end, of, the, week, i, headed, south, to, cheshire, and, the, salisbury, plain, with, my, friend, ann, and, her, horse, to, compete, in, the, marathon, what, an, awful, journey, we, had, the, rain, poured, the, traffic, crawled, i’m, glad, i, don’t, have, to, use, the, m6, on, a, daily, basis, i, really, enjoyed, my, weekend, away, but, we, had, to, pull, the, horse, out, at, the, half, way, point, she, was, so, hyped, that, we, couldn’t, get, her, heart, rate, down, so, she, wasn’t, allowed, to, continue, i, felt, really, disappointed, i, was, sure, that, she, had, a, good, chance, well, she, would, have, if, they, had, a, vet, check, halfway, through, diary, 37, a, bit, of, an, anticlimax, this, week, after, all, the, build, up, to, the, marathon, it, would, have, been, so, different, if, she’d, completed, the, course, we, had, a, better, journey, north, except, for, a, puncture, not, handy, when, you, have, a, horse, trailer, on, i, drove, most, of, the, way, back, to, ann’s, saw, all, her, horses, and, then, drove, home, another, 2, hours, oh, i, was, so, pleased, to, get, home, it, was, a, good, experience, though, i, don’t, think, either, of, us, would, trail, a, horse, all, the, way, to, salisbury, plain, for, a, two, hour, race, again, there, were, fmd, cases, near, ann, in, cheshire, that, didn’t, seem, to, catch, hold, like, they, did, in, cumbria, maybe, its, because, there, are, bigger, farms, and, more, arable, land, i, went, to, see, her, in, july, 2001, and, she, pointed, out, various, fields, that, had, been, cleared, of, stock, half, of, them, didn’t, even, have, gates, on, there, was, no, disinfectant, or, precautions, visible, and, it, was, really, starting, to, wipe, out, our, practice, at, home, it, was, unbelievable, we, were, sitting, in, cumbria, thinking, that, agriculture, was, doomed, and, everything, in, cheshire, was, carrying, on, as, normal, it, was, a, rude, awakening, for, me, diary, 38, more, tb, testing, all, day, job, testing, stock, that, wouldn’t, normally, be, tested, but, they’re, restocked, they, have, come, from, cheshire, though, so, that, does, increase, the, risk, had, a, shocking, migraine, all, day, wednesday, went, to, bed, as, soon, as, i’d, dropped, son, off, at, biggins, and, didn’t, wake, up, until, 5pm, 2, hours, after, i, should, have, collected, him, and, i, still, felt, awful, it, was, terrible, driving, in, the, dark, and, i, had, to, stop, three, times, on, the, way, home, i, went, back, to, bed, until, 9pm, and, then, was, fine, i, haven’t, had, a, migraine, for, ages, i, was, back, on, top, form, the, next, day, though, we, did, the, tb, readings, on, 172, cattle, before, lunch, cooking, with, gas, diary, 39, fed, up, with, all, this, testing, and, we, may, be, doing, this, for, the, next, 4, 5, months, sick, of, new, vet, moaning, at, work, i, don’t, know, what, it, would, take, to, make, her, happy, i, think, this, week, has, nearly, all, been, a, waste, of, time, i, haven’t, made, best, use, of, my, free, time, and, i, haven’t, been, on, top, of, my, job, at, work, diary, 40, i, was, dreading, this, week, because, there, were, so, many, things, to, do, i, think, i, avoid, adding, extra, to, my, schedule, but, this, week, i, had, 3, days, away, and, a, night, out, to, cope, with, i, really, don’t, like, the, thought, of, shopping, but, managed, to, do, some, christmas, present, locating, on, friday, spent, wednesday, with, b, which, was, better, than, i, expected, on, a, national, scrapie, plan, training, day, which, was, worse, than, i, expected, bloody, defra, they, don’t, have, to, do, or, say, much, to, raise, my, hackles, here, we, are, selecting, for, a, resistant, genotype, and, they, are, spending, all, their, time, injecting, bse, into, sheep’s, brains, to, challenge, them, how, would, that, ever, happen, naturally, nearly, missed, my, night, out, because, of, work, it, was, 10, pm, before, i, got, there, but, at, least, i, didn’t, miss, the, dancing, it, turned, into, a, really, good, night, nearly, everyone, from, work, was, there, and, j, the, ex, receptionist, we, always, have, a, good, laugh, ended, up, working, most, of, the, morning, don’t, know, if, w, was, hung, over, or, just, idle, but, he’ll, have, to, pay, me, for, the, hours, i, don’t, work, extra, out, of, the, goodness, of, my, heart, now, i, have, all, my, own, overheads, to, fund, new, vet, s, the, star, for, avoiding, extra, or, dirty, work, then, it, usually, falls, to, me, she, says, she, wants, more, large, animal, work, and, then, does, her, best, to, avoid, it, diary, 41, tired, this, week, son, came, back, from, mavis’s, full, of, cold, improved, a, bit, and, then, woke, up, screaming, on, tuesday, night, it, was, a, very, long, night, and, partner, wasn’t, even, here, t, enjoy, share, it, as, he’d, left, to, fly, to, tampa, at, 5am, that, morning, god, i, don’t, fancy, being, a, single, mum, he, soon, started, to, improve, after, 24hrs, on, antibiotics, ear, and, chest, infection, i’ve, never, seen, him, in, such, pain, of, course, he, was, nearly, better, by, the, time, partner, got, back, i, really, struggled, on, my, own, and, had, to, take, a, day, off, on, thursday, but, still, had, to, go, and, do, a, second, tb, test, otherwise, i, would, have, had, to, start, all, over, again, we, didn’t, have, time, to, test, them, twice, and, it’s, a, restocked, herd, so, we, had, to, do, them, all, it’s, really, hard, trying, to, do, the, best, for, everyone, diary, 42, pretty, good, week, until, the, weekend, had, a, good, night, out, for, tracey’s, birthday, and, i, was, really, chuffed, she, invited, son, too, he, was, well, behaved, too, nut, unfortunately, now, thinks, he, can, go, to, the, pub, so, we, have, to, go, out, to, meetings, to, avoid, a, tantrum, i, don’t, really, think, i, have, suffered, many, after, effects, from, fmd, except, a, lower, anger, threshold, and, a, loss, of, faith, in, the, powers, that, be, i’m, much, more, worried, about, some, of, our, client’s, mental, health, i, know, there, are, several, who, have, suffered, severe, depression, and, they, are, not, all, farmers, that, were, culled, out, the, sleepless, nights, were, back, with, a, vengeance, son, started, with, chickenpox, at, the, weekend, and, nobody, had, any, sleep, diary, 43, absolutely, shattered, somebody, else’s, chickenpox, is, nearly, as, bad, as, your, own, i, don’t, think, i, have, had, a, full, nights, sleep, for, over, a, fortnight, i, still, had, a, lovely, time, at, christmas, though, i, was, sure, that, partner, and, son, would, be, pleased, with, their, presents, son, suddenly, brightened, dup, on, christmas, eve, on, the, way, to, mam’s, and, never, broke, stride, after, that, he, was, son, top, form, i, was, so, tired, that, i, fell, asleep, on, saturday, evening, and, missed, the, village, hall, christmas, party, the, highlight, of, the, village, social, calendar, diary, 44, the, threat, of, tb, rears, its, ugly, head, maybe, tb, is, the, new, fmd, went, to, do, a, private, tb, test, for, a, farmer, who, has, restocked, and, passed, his, restocking, checks, unfortunately, he, bought, 3, heifers, in, november, and, the, original, farm, has, since, gone, down, with, tb, he, isolated, the, heifers, as, soon, as, he, heard, and, waited, for, defra, they, didn’t, come, so, we, did, i, hoped, for, the, best, and, expected, the, worst, one, of, the, heifers, reacted, i, didn’t, know, what, to, do, or, say, the, farmer’s, wife, was, really, upset, she, wished, they, hadn’t, gone, back, into, farming, b, the, boss, has, phoned, defra, that, morning, regarding, these, heifers, only, to, be, told, that, youngstock, don’t, pose, much, of, a, risk, they, don’t, seem, to, have, much, idea, at, all, and, don’t, have, a, clue, about, getting, on, with, the, job, they’ve, had, three, weeks, to, track, down, the, calves, out, of, the, cows, that, were, reactors, they, seem, to, let, us, down, just, when, we, need, them, most, oh, they, make, me, boil, and, we, are, going, to, have, to, cope, with, the, aftermath, again, diary, 45, felt, a, bit, flat, and, tired, this, week, the, test, i, had, this, week, was, hard, work, trying, to, catch, cows, in, cubicles, is, not, fun, we, were, all, covered, in, muck, at, the, end, of, it, and, the, second, day, was, worse, because, he, had, about, 14, to, rectal, after, the, test, wednesday, my, day, of, respite, was, taken, up, looking, after, tracey, in, bed, with, cold, she’s, really, down, still, and, i, can’t, seem, to, do, anything, to, make, her, feel, better, i, know, she’ll, come, out, of, it, eventually, but, it’s, hard, not, being, able, to, help, i, just, didn’t, feel, as, if, i, had, any, time, to, myself, this, week, and, i, really, missed, out, if, i, start, working, wednesdays, i’m, going, to, miss, it, every, week, i’ll, have, to, have, another, plan, it’s, a, bit, better, at, the, weekend, but, i, think, we, all, need, some, better, weather, and, i, miss, doing, stuff, with, the, horses, diary, 46, oh, i’m, mad, again, with, defra, i, had, to, go, back, to, the, herd, with, the, reactor, and, test, every, single, bovine, on, the, place, except, the, two, remaining, heifers, from, the, infected, herd, i, don’t, understand, why, they, can’t, just, take, out, those, heifers, too, the, poor, farmer, and, his, wife, will, be, on, tender, hooks, until, the, end, of, march, at, the, earliest, if, they, hadn’t, asked, for, a, private, test, goodness, knows, when, defra, would, have, got, there, while, i, was, testing, defra, phoned, the, farmers, wife, to, confirm, that, the, slaughtered, heifer, had, visible, lesions, so, that, puts, paid, to, the, theory, that, youngstock, weren’t, a, danger, hope, this, news, makes, them, get, a, finger, out, had, a, lovely, day, with, mam, and, son, on, tuesday, we, sat, and, talked, for, over, an, hour, in, the, car, park, everything, tested, clear, at, the, check, test, so, far, so, good, bad, day, on, thursday, the, behaviour, course, i, was, enrolled, on, has, been, cancelled, no, explanation, just, a, cheque, returned, to, the, practice, with, a, wee, note, i, was, so, disappointed, even, though, it, was, going, to, be, a, lot, of, extra, work, over, the, next, 10, months, and, extra, hassle, and, extra, childminding, i, think, i, could, have, coped, then, at, lunchtime, i, bent, my, car, door, after, stopping, to, help, somebody, stuck, on, an, icy, patch, i, haven’t, got, all, the, bits, sorted, that, were, knackered, by, fmd, disinfecting, yet, and, there’s, more, repairs, and, i, have, to, pay, for, it, myself, now, that, i, don’t, have, a, practice, car, i, was, well, fed, up, dairy, 47, busy, week, tb, testing, again, started, working, odd, wednesdays, this, week, so, spent, all, day, wednesday, up, the, back, end, of, suckler, cows, very, dangerous, taking, bloods, for, brucellosis, and, then, blood, sampling, swaledales, for, scrapie, testing, we, have, so, many, tests, still, to, do, but, not, many, dreadfully, out, of, date, and, i, think, we’ve, done, quite, a, lot, of, the, restocking, tests, but, its, all, quite, mind, numbing, stuff, not, much, clinical, acumen, required, for, getting, blood, out, of, cows, just, quick, reactions, to, dodge, shit, and, flying, feet, very, late, finished, monday, by, the, time, i, had, all, my, paperwork, done, a, a, college, friend, landed, tuesday, en, route, to, leeds, for, a, herd, health, meeting, 6, hours, driving, for, a, meeting, we, talked, a, bit, about, fmd, she, worked, as, a, tvi, towards, the, end, of, the, outbreak, they, have, a, lot, more, trouble, with, tb, up, in, aberdeenshire, once, it, gets, into, a, herd, they, struggle, to, get, rid, of, it, again, i, hope, it, doesn’t, get, to, be, a, huge, problem, round, here, collected, a, fair, few, bruises, on, thursday, pregnant, heifers, to, dehorn, they, should, have, been, done, in, 2001, but, of, course, the, routine, work, was, put, off, i, don’t, know, what, the, excuse, was, leaving, them, al, through, 2002, but, they, were, massive, anyway, it, saved, me, going, to, the, gym, on, wednesday, night, diary, 48, i, have, just, handed, in, the, latest, batch, of, diaries, and, started, a, new, session, i, have, been, thinking, that, f, m, doesn’t, really, affect, me, much, anymore, our, work, has, changed, because, of, the, restocking, that, has, taken, place, since, with, all, the, new, disease, problems, that, have, been, bought, in, as, additional, extras, and, the, extra, tb, testing, etc, but, mentally, i, am, not, aware, of, even, thinking, about, the, events, of, 2001, that, often, i, still, feel, upset, if, someone, tells, me, about, their, own, particular, experiences, which, are, often, heart, rending, but, probably, no, more, than, if, they, were, discussing, another, devastating, disease, problem, i, still, have, little, tolerance, for, the, workings, of, defra, even, though, they, are, providing, us, with, lots, of, bread, and, butter, work, diary, 51, i’m, sick, of, doing, caesareans, on, cows, who, encouraged, all, the, bloody, beef, farmers, to, restock, with, belgian, blues, i’m, not, sure, that, we, should, be, continuing, to, allow, animals, to, breed, that, can’t, reproduce, naturally, it, doesn’t, seem, right, that, we, should, almost, expect, a, caesarean, the, day, that, a, new, cow, is, put, in, calf, we, used, to, have, occasional, troubles, before, and, not, all, caesareans, are, on, belgian, blues, but, now, we, do, at, least, one, caesarean, every, week, b, did, two, in, one, day, and, they, are, bloody, hard, work, diary, 52, i, always, think, of, the, 23rd, feb, as, being, the, day, that, i, realised, we, might, be, in, the, shit, in, 2001, it, wouldn’t, have, passed, unnoticed, round, here, several, people, mentioned, the, date, in, the, following, week, yet, it, wasn’t, until, the, 4th, april, that, f, m, came, into, our, practice, loads, of, our, farmers, lost, a, lot, of, seep, early, on, though, because, they, were, wintering, away, on, dairy, farms, further, down, the, eden, valley, this, used, to, just, involve, the, hoggs, but, now, they, are, encouraged, to, leave, the, fells, almost, empty, and, are, paid, to, remove, even, pregnant, ewes, to, lower, ground, it, seems, ludicrous, that, on, certain, farms, the, fell, sheep, only, spend, summertime, on, the, fells, the, rest, of, the, time, they, are, in, bye, land, for, tupping, or, lambing, and, then, are, wintered, in, sheep, sheds, or, on, dairy, farms, sometimes, quite, far, away, from, home, i, did, get, quite, upset, when, i, read, the, stories, in, the, book, this, time, i, think, i, had, more, empathy, for, the, tourism, businesses, affected, they, must, have, been, so, frustrated, and, probably, ended, up, much, worse, off, that, the, affected, farmers, in, our, area, the, farmers, who, survived, are, the, ones, in, general, who, are, struggling, for, survival, now, and, their, farms, have, had, no, capital, investment, at, all, in, fact, some, of, the, survivors, are, still, very, bitter, about, the, whole, episode, its, so, sad, what, this, has, done, to, some, people, diary, 55, check, tb, test, at, campbells, went, well, finished, in, good, time, running, into, trouble, because, the, other, cows, taken, in, for, winter, are, calving, and, they, have, no, room, however, they, have, found, someone, to, take, and, slaughter, all, the, big, bullocks, they, are, going, to, be, moved, under, licence, direct, to, a, slaughter, house, so, at, least, they, will, have, some, income, the, first, this, year, everything, tested, clear, including, the, 2, heifers, brought, in, from, the, farm, that, had, the, reactor, so, they, are, feeling, a, little, bit, more, confident, diary, 56, bloody, defra, cocked, up, again, with, c’s, test, had, to, go, back, to, test, 11, baby, calves, how, cruel, had, to, go, back, to, h’s, as, well, to, test, one, inconclusive, reactor, all, of, them, were, ok, diary, 60, i, think, the, lambing, time, rush, is, settling, down, again, of, course, there, aren’t, quite, as, many, fell, sheep, about, as, usual, and, probably, won’t, be, again, if, the, payments, are, de, coupled, numbers, won’t, be, as, profitable, as, acres]
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1964, gender, f, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, week, beginning, 4th, march, 02, monday, 4th, march, we, decided, we, now, need, more, staff, a, new, vet, and, a, part, time, receptionist, this, could, take, us, back, up, to, our, previous, staffing, level, pre, fm, bar, a, vet, but, this, was, probably, going, to, be, all, the, recruitments, we, would, make, this, year, it’s, a, good, sign, as, things, begin, to, get, back, to, normal, work, is, increasing, quite, a, lot, now, most, of, our, farmers, have, restocked, although, a, lot, of, them, and, us, are, still, concerned, about, the, future, tuesday, 5th, march, a, difficult, day, today, with, licences, two, of, our, farmers, needed, sole, occupancy, authentitys, soa, and, there, were, queries, with, their, land, unless, some, of, their, fields, could, be, redefined, they, were, worried, their, stock, would, suffer, during, the, fm, these, worries, have, shown, how, much, they, care, about, their, stock, and, find, it, very, frustrating, when, they, don’t, understand, why, we, can’t, move, them, even, to, the, point, of, anger, and, tears, by, the, end, of, the, day, thankfully, they, were, resolved, with, compromise, on, both, sides, and, a, lot, of, phone, calls, wednesday, 6th, march, i, decided, to, sort, out, all, the, paperwork, and, guidelines, we, had, received, from, defra, over, the, past, twelve, months, it, was, quite, a, pile, it, was, interesting, looking, back, and, very, sad, it, makes, you, realise, just, how, deep, the, feelings, went, and, although, it, sounds, silly, it’s, surprising, how, quickly, those, feelings, can, return, over, the, smallest, things, anyway, having, done, that, it, did, feel, good, to, box, them, up, and, put, them, away, we, got, taken, out, for, lunch, with, our, ptizer, rep, and, it, was, nice, just, to, talk, about, usual, things, drug, competition, how, much, we, were, going, to, sell, thursday, 7th, march, very, busy, day, everyone, has, been, flat, out, all, day, started, at, 7am, this, morning, got, finished, sort, of, by, 7.30pm, very, tired, hope, we, get, a, new, vet, soon, we, also, had, a, suspect, bse, case, today, informed, defra, more, problems, with, soa, but, we, got, them, started, one, bit, of, good, news, i, managed, to, get, a, new, receptionist, for, 2, days, a, week, so, i, just, need, one, for, the, other, 3, friday, 8th, march, quite, a, good, day, no, major, hassles, today, and, still, getting, busier, had, a, staff, meeting, to, arrange, an, open, day, for, national, pet, week, in, may, and, sorted, out, a, few, other, bits, and, bobs, had, a, good, chat, with, the, staff, who, have, all, been, very, busy, this, week, and, decided, that, it, is, much, better, to, this, time, last, year, when, we, were, all, very, depressed, emotionally, drained, laying, off, staff, uncertain, of, the, future, at, least, now, we, are, doing, what, we, are, meant, to, do, saturday, 9th, march, went, shopping, first, thing, with, k, had, a, good, time, even, though, i’m, not, a, good, shopper, we, went, to, the, farmers, market, i, saw, heather, who, works, at, the, auction, and, she, said, it, had, been, quite, emotional, having, sales, again, and, the, hustle, and, bustle, but, they, were, all, happy, to, see, people, they, hadn’t, seen, for, sometime, met, my, mum, in, the, afternoon, in, the, snow, at, killington, lake, it, was, good, and, the, driving, was, interesting, sunday, 10th, march, mothers, day, husband, and, daughter, were, out, for, the, day, so, i, had, a, lovely, peaceful, day, doing, not, a, lot, daughter, got, me, a, funny, card, and, a, little, hedgehog, model, for, my, collection, in, the, evening, i, collected, a, vet, student, from, london, who, is, staying, with, us, for, 3, weeks, so, we, will, have, to, behave, she, seems, nice, and, settled, into, our, mad, house, easily, mr, w, called, in, to, let, us, know, his, cows, had, arrived, safely, week, beginning, 11th, march, 02, monday, 11th, march, what, a, busy, day, but, a, total, change, to, this, time, last, year, it, was, the, day, our, first, client, was, confirmed, with, f, m, i, helped, another, vet, do, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, that, was, fun, they, are, farmers, that, have, moved, farm, and, restocked, very, positive, one, of, our, new, receptionists, started, but, i, didn’t, get, much, chance, to, see, her, due, to, the, caesar, barbara, looked, after, her, well, and, she, seemed, to, enjoy, it, there, were, lots, of, calls, in, just, like, the, old, days, but, we, really, need, another, vet, the, adverts, in, on, thursday, so, fingers, crossed, tuesday, another, busy, day, and, another, caesar, the, calf, was, dead, unfortunately, the, cow, with, query, bse, was, taken, away, for, tests, which, was, sad, my, highlight, of, my, day, was, the, farm, across, from, us, turned, some, of, his, cows, out, again, i, call, it, my, kitchen, window, view, normally, i, can, see, sheep, in, the, fields, at, the, back, and, the, cows, across, the, road, the, sheep, came, back, a, couple, of, months, ago, and, the, cows, but, i, haven’t, actually, been, able, to, see, them, so, it, was, very, special, never, really, stopped, today, and, we, did, dog, training, classes, at, night, so, i, collected, daughter, from, her, yfc, meeting, and, got, fish, and, chips, and, we, all, went, to, bed, our, poor, vet, student, who, is, staying, with, us, is, exhausted, she’s, been, able, to, see, and, do, so, much, wednesday, today, was, a, little, more, controlled, and, went, more, according, to, plan, but, was, still, a, long, day, as, we, had, a, dog, in, about, 6.30pm, that, had, eaten, a, ball, and, hadn’t, passed, it, so, we, had, to, operate, to, remove, it, anyway, finished, at, 9.00pm, had, tea, and, went, to, bed, daughter, heard, she, had, got, 2, weeks, work, experience, at, norbrook, pharmaceutical, so, very, pleased, about, that, thursday, had, the, morning, off, the, last, few, days, had, been, rather, hectic, a, girl, who, had, done, work, experience, with, us, a, couple, of, years, ago, called, round, out, of, the, blue, she, was, still, keen, to, train, as, a, vet, nurse, and, wanted, to, write, to, the, practices, in, the, area, and, needed, advice, anyway, i, told, her, about, our, vacancy, here, and, well, the, long, and, the, short, is, she, starts, on, the, 2nd, april, receptionist, staff, now, sorted, just, need, a, vet, i, wish, it, was, as, easy, friday, husband, was, reading, a, tt, test, at, a, farm, and, found, a, reactor, pre, f, m, cumbria, was, tb, free, but, with, all, the, new, stock, coming, into, the, area, it, is, inevitable, that, this, will, not, be, the, case, there, have, already, been, two, other, cases, in, the, county, i, dropped, off, the, isolation, notice, to, the, farmer, and, as, they, are, he, seemed, okay, and, still, very, positive, i, have, always, admired, them, for, their, courage, and, stamina, as, he, said, they, love, farming, and, you, have, to, expect, things, like, this, managed, to, spend, the, afternoon, with, one, of, our, new, receptionists, she, is, doing, really, well, and, settling, in, time, she, will, grasp, it, all, in, no, time, saturday, ran, daughter, and, her, friend, into, town, and, sorted, out, the, garage, that, was, an, achievement, the, dog, that, swallowed, the, ball, wasn’t, eating, so, i, went, to, get, it, something, tasty, it’s, going, home, later, so, it, should, be, a, lot, happier, daughter, s, still, in, town, so, i, took, vet, student, to, see, hadrian’s, wall, she’s, from, america, so, was, very, keen, to, see, it, she, really, enjoyed, it, and, so, did, i, i, hadn’t, been, for, a, couple, of, years, just, had, a, nice, quiet, evening, in, sunday, my, sister, and, her, daughter, came, for, the, day, my, niece, is, two, and, a, half, years, so, need, i, say, more, we, were, busy, playing, all, day, week, beginning, monday, 18th, march, 02, monday, 18th, march, it's, looking, fairly, quiet, at, work, this, week, but, you, never, know, mr, w, farmer, came, in, he, was, letting, us, know, his, restocking, plans, and, was, one, of, the, farmers, querying, his, compensation, i, never, liked, that, as, they, were, compulsory, purchased, and, have, not, received, any, compensation, as, such, although, some, got, better, money, than, others, so, maybe, it, was, all, taken, into, account, anyway, he, missed, the, query, deadline, by, two, hours, so, defra, are, refusing, to, look, at, his, case, as, he, does, appear, to, have, lost, out, as, his, brother, with, the, same, breeding, of, cows, and, related, went, down, on, the, same, down, got, an, average, 300, more, per, cow, anyway, we, tried, to, look, to, the, future, and, he, was, looking, forward, to, getting, stock, back, we, had, another, tb, reactor, today, in, some, french, cattle, me, and, our, receptionist, were, chatting, and, decided, things, were, really, getting, back, to, normal, although, with, the, added, paperwork, daughter, was, very, upset, when, she, came, home, from, school, as, she, had, been, getting, bullied, by, a, girl, in, her, year, so, we, chatted, about, that, and, i, wrote, to, her, teacher, to, see, if, she, could, find, out, more, tuesday, daughter, went, to, school, fairly, happy, i, just, told, her, to, hand, her, letter, in, and, try, and, avoid, the, girl, i, was, going, milk, recording, tonight, which, i, really, enjoy, it's, great, to, be, among, the, animals, and, talk, to, the, farmers, we, only, have, one, farmer, milk, recording, fully, at, present, there, were, 12, the, farm, i, went, to, is, a, big, dairy, herd, and, is, now, looking, to, expanding, so, that, was, good, news, bad, news, is, that, means, i'll, have, to, get, up, earlier, in, the, mornings, for, the, recording, never, mind, daughter, had, got, on, okay, at, school, and, the, teacher, was, really, good, with, her, so, she's, feeling, happier, she, is, a, good, kid, and, although, hormonal, at, times, she, does, put, up, with, a, lot, during, the, fmd, we, were, unable, to, really, go, anywhere, or, do, anything, although, we, did, try, to, keep, her, routine, we, worked, longer, hours, and, were, more, stressed, but, she, never, complained, and, helped, a, lot, went, dog, training, after, milk, recording, so, it, was, a, long, day, wednesday, early, morning, start, today, 5am, to, go, milk, recording, but, i, always, get, a, lovely, breakfast, we, also, got, invited, to, a, party, at, the, farm, in, may, so, that's, something, to, look, forward, to, and, its, fancy, dress, so, that, will, be, fun, we, have, to, dress, up, as, children's, characters, we, then, attended, a, careers, convention, at, the, sands, centre, until, 7, pm, so, another, very, long, day, very, tired, we, saw, a, lot, of, children, who, were, interested, in, pursuing, veterinary, work, which, is, always, encouraging, i, enjoy, doing, the, careers, days, it's, interesting, to, see, the, next, workforce, they, seem, to, grow, up, so, fast, thursday, my, claim, to, fame, today, was, seeing, the, princess, royal, i, passed, her, at, a, junction, and, thought, i, was, seeing, things, i, bored, everyone, with, that, story, we, had, a, lovely, staff, lunch, meeting, we, all, helped, cook, and, sat, and, chatted, about, the, future, we, had, no, replies, from, the, advert, for, a, vet, so, we, decided, to, try, another, veterinary, magazine, so, fingers, crossed, in, the, afternoon, i, managed, to, get, very, well, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, which, is, a, rarity, as, i, normally, end, up, going, somewhere, or, sorting, something, out, so, i, was, very, pleased, especially, as, the, year, end, is, approaching, friday, discussed, a, few, ideas, with, our, nurse, regarding, the, small, animal, side, and, the, possibility, of, getting, some, new, equipment, i, shall, have, to, do, some, adding, up, husband, was, at, a, vet, meeting, locally, for, all, the, vets, in, the, area, on, thursday, night, and, there, were, 3, other, practices, looking, for, vets, and, had, been, doing, for, some, time, without, any, luck, at, all, this, is, worrying, as, our, case, loads, increase, again, it, puts, a, strain, on, the, vets, so, fingers, crossed, our, advert, is, in, tomorrow, in, the, afternoon, i, called, to, see, one, of, our, evening, receptionist, who, is, on, maternity, leave, at, present, it, was, good, to, see, her, and, her, new, addition, so, i, was, filling, her, in, on, the, news, and, gossip, hopefully, she, will, be, back, to, work, the, second, week, in, april, although, the, birth, was, a, caesarean, so, i, have, told, her, to, see, how, she, is, feeling, so, we, will, discuss, it, again, soon, as, this, is, her, fourth, child, but, she, copes, really, well, and, is, looking, really, healthy, saturday, it, snowed, i, went, to, meet, my, mum, at, killington, as, we, were, having, her, dog, while, she, went, on, holiday, and, nearly, got, stuck, in, the, snow, during, foot, and, mouth, daughter, had, counted, the, stock, in, the, field, between, carlisle, and, penrith, on, the, m6, anyway, i, did, it, again, today, last, year, we, counted, 2, this, year, we, counted, 12, big, difference, sunday, went, for, a, walk, around, a, local, wood, for, the, first, time, in, over, a, year, it, was, amazing, how, overgrown, it, had, become, the, paths, were, still, visible, but, in, places, only, just, met, up, with, a, friend's, daughter, to, finalise, arrangements, for, her, father's, surprise, meal, out, next, friday, for, his, 50th, birthday, week, beginning, monday, 25th, march, 02, monday, 25th, march, another, very, busy, day, today, still, no, answer, to, the, advert, for, a, new, vet, husband, spoke, to, another, vet, in, the, area, and, they, had, had, the, same, response, nothing, it, is, good, to, be, busy, again, our, new, receptionist, is, doing, well, and, learning, fast, so, that's, taking, the, pressure, off, me, and, other, receptioinist, completed, the, claim, form, for, business, link, grant, which, helped, a, lot, and, enabled, us, to, do, things, and, advertise, when, we, wouldn't, have, been, able, to, tuesday, starting, to, prepare, for, the, end, of, our, financial, year, i, always, dread, this, but, it, has, to, be, done, it, will, be, nice, to, end, another, chapter, the, practice, suffered, badly, last, year, and, it, was, very, worrying, we, lost, 3, vets, and, two, lay, staff, but, everyone, is, feeling, the, same, i, have, spoken, to, a, few, farmers, today, and, the, opinion, is, well, it, is, a, lot, better, than, this, time, last, year, it, has, been, interesting, to, see, how, the, effect, of, having, new, stock, does, throw, them, we, are, getting, called, out, a, lot, more, which, is, good, for, us, we, are, doing, a, lot, more, lambings, and, lambing, is, set, to, go, on, until, may, june, time, this, year, we, are, very, busy, testing, at, the, moment, but, it, gives, us, the, opportunity, to, see, the, new, animals, and, discuss, plans, with, the, farmers, the, relationship, which, was, built, during, the, f, m, is, now, definitely, benefiting, a, lot, have, said, how, helpful, it, was, and, feel, a, lot, closer, the, family, not, business, relationship, is, good, wednesday, i, had, a, day, off, today, which, was, good, i, managed, to, catch, up, on, a, few, things, which, i, just, hadn't, had, time, to, do, with, being, so, busy, i, got, a, lot, organised, for, the, holiday, at, the, week, end, which, we, are, all, looking, forward, to, but, we, can't, all, get, away, together, mainly, due, to, no, new, vet, and, our, financial, year, but, at, least, we, will, all, get, a, bit, of, a, break, daughter, got, her, report, today, and, has, done, very, well, we, are, so, proud, of, her, so, fingers, crossed, for, her, gcses, thursday, i, spoke, to, mrs, w, today, who, has, been, very, much, in, action, since, they, got, f, m, and, even, got, in, touch, with, politician, etc, to, help, give, farmers, that, voice, she, mentioned, the, public, inquiry, and, like, a, lot, of, people, feels, that, maybe, rather, than, having, a, finger, pointing, blaming, session, and, we, all, have, our, ideas, on, that, she, felt, that, maybe, trying, to, prevent, it, happening, again, would, be, a, better, idea, i, personally, have, begun, to, realize, recently, just, how, much, and, how, deep, the, feelings, run, i, think, i, am, more, emotional, now, than, when, we, were, in, the, thick, of, it, friday, spent, all, day, knuckling, down, to, the, end, of, year, but, got, a, lot, done, husband, daughter, and, vet, student, went, out, for, the, day, it, is, husband, s, first, real, day, off, since, october, and, it, did, him, good, we, all, went, out, in, the, evening, to, celebrate, a, friend's, birthday, it, was, really, good, saturday, holiday, again, today, husband, daughter, my, sister, and, her, daughter, have, gone, away, today, to, the, cottage, near, newton, stewart, we, have, rented, for, a, week, the, weather, is, great, so, they, should, have, a, lovely, time, this, could, be, our, only, holiday, this, year, husband, s, back, on, monday, then, i, go, on, wednesday, confusing, isn't, it, never, mind, at, least, we, will, all, get, away, for, a, few, days, sunday, end, of, year, day, stocktaking, counting, sunny, outside, boring, but, never, mind, it's, done, our, vet, student, went, home, today, she, had, really, enjoyed, herself, and, we, had, enjoyed, having, her, she, bought, us, all, some, lovely, gifts, it, will, be, nice, to, be, on, our, own, again, but, i, will, still, miss, her, week, beginning, monday, 1st, april, 02, monday, 1st, april, i, had, a, lovely, day, my, day, husband, and, daughter, still, away, played, in, the, garden, went, for, a, walk, read, some, of, my, book, lovely, husband, came, back, at, tea, time, so, we, went, out, for, a, meal, perfect, tuesday, went, to, help, another, vet, vet, tt, test, at, one, of, our, farms, he, had, restocked, and, was, very, positive, about, the, future, it, was, a, lovely, day, and, great, to, be, amongst, cows, again, wednesday, sunday, hols, great, i, didn't, realise, just, how, much, i, needed, it, the, weather, was, great, warm, sunny, very, relaxing, all, charged, up, again, week, beginning, monday, 8th, april, 02, monday, 8th, april, back, to, work, today, i, had, quite, a, lot, of, catching, up, to, do, and, couldn't, really, get, into, it, never, mind, it, will, all, still, be, there, tomorrow, hope, we, can, get, away, again, this, year, even, for, a, few, days, tuesday, queen, mum's, funeral, today, it, was, very, quiet, we, gave, the, girls, time, off, to, watch, the, funeral, it, was, a, nice, funeral, if, you, can, have, one, and, they, commented, on, the, poem, which, was, read, about, being, thankful, for, the, life, and, not, being, sorry, i, must, get, it, our, nurse, suggested, about, giving, it, to, clients, when, they, have, their, pets, put, to, sleep, nice, idea, wednesday, back, into, it, now, i, had, 2, very, difficult, soa, to, complete, farmers, are, slowly, getting, the, idea, but, find, all, the, paperwork, hard, but, it's, a, good, chance, for, them, to, call, in, for, a, chat, and, coffee, i, so, seem, to, spend, an, awful, lot, of, time, doing, that, now, but, it's, always, good, to, see, how, they, are, coping, thursday, the, large, animal, work, has, been, rapidly, increasing, and, it, has, been, putting, extra, pressure, on, all, the, staff, we, do, really, need, another, vet, but, another, advert, and, still, no, response, at, all, but, they, all, work, very, hard, and, we, do, manage, to, get, through, the, work, we, chatted, to, the, staff, and, tried, to, reassure, them, about, the, future, but, how, can, you, when, if, we, can't, get, another, vet, we, simply, can't, provide, the, service, our, clients, need, it, is, very, worrying, and, we, are, not, sure, of, the, solution, or, the, future, i, think, after, that, paragraph, i, need, a, we, can, do, it, kick, friday, our, new, receptionists, are, settling, in, well, and, i, did, some, work, with, them, today, which, was, good, they, are, both, very, enthusiastic, a, few, years, ago, a, i, taught, nvq, in, animal, care, so, one, of, our, receptionists, is, keen, to, do, this, so, i, organised, some, work, for, her, to, do, enjoyed, that, castrated, a, colt, in, the, afternoon, sad, i, know, but, i, enjoyed, that, saturday, went, shopping, with, daughter, in, the, morning, to, buy, her, some, new, clothes, we, had, a, good, time, then, started, the, sewing, for, the, yfc, field, day, we, had, to, make, shorts, and, t, shirt, for, a, sport, event, well, i, haven't, really, done, sewing, from, a, pattern, for, years, so, let's, just, say, it, was, fun, sunday, went, to, newcastle, for, the, day, via, some, fields, we, had, to, check, for, a, client's, soa, had, a, lovely, time, and, saw, the, blinking, or, winking, i'm, not, sure, which, one, it, is, it, was, nice, to, have, a, day, all, together, week, beginning, monday, 15th, april, 02, monday, 15th, april, very, busy, again, i, did, 175, miles, today, just, dropping, things, off, for, farmers, and, vets, and, trips, to, the, lab, i, also, found, a, new, supplier, of, paper, towels, which, will, save, us, a, lot, of, money, see, so, easy, pleased, it, was, very, tiring, but, i, do, like, being, out, and, about, and, i, even, managed, two, cups, of, coffee, on, farms, before, fmd, i, felt, that, the, relationship, between, vets, and, farmers, was, changing, but, our, relationship, during, fmd, did, change, for, the, better, i, feel, good, about, that, but, not, the, way, it, happened, me, and, daughter, had, a, girls, night, in, as, husband, was, away, that, was, fun, tuesday, 16th, april, husband, away, at, bcva, he, is, new, on, the, committee, and, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, there, is, only, him, and, another, vet, in, scotland, from, the, north, invited, onto, the, committee, so, they, are, putting, together, some, suggestions, to, put, to, the, government, re, fmd, poor, another, vet, was, very, busy, again, we, need, a, vet, wednesday, 17th, april, i, went, to, see, an, elderly, client, of, ours, this, morning, who, has, an, old, dog, she, is, going, into, hospital, and, won't, go, as, she, is, worried, about, the, dog, i, offered, to, have, kelly, the, dog, while, she, was, in, hospital, and, told, her, if, i, found, out, she, cancelled, it, i, would, be, cross, i, enjoy, talking, to, her, for, her, 87, years, she, is, very, fit, and, funny, at, lunchtime, we, all, attacked, the, bayer, rep, for, free, goodies, for, our, open, day, he, was, very, co, operative, and, got, away, without, a, scratch, we, didn't, have, an, open, day, last, year, so, it, should, be, fun, back, into, a, routine, thursday, 18th, april, i, bottomed, my, paperwork, this, morning, no, interference, no, phone, calls, no, soa, very, productive, me, and, husband, went, to, see, the, finical, advisor, at, the, bank, in, the, afternoon, it, was, good, but, we, can't, retire, this, year, never, mind, he, gave, us, some, good, ideas, so, fingers, crossed, we, might, just, be, able, to, retire, one, day, friday, 19th, april, very, busy, we, need, a, vet, repetitive, isn't, it, we, were, looking, back, in, the, visit, book, to, this, time, last, year, this, year, we, had, 21, calls, which, is, a, practise, record, last, year, we, had, 1, there, is, a, lot, of, general, well, this, time, last, year, in, some, ways, it, all, seems, very, unbelievable, but, in, other, ways, it, still, very, sad, and, emotional, i, think, more, emotional, now, than, when, it, was, actually, happening, when, you, see, farmer’s, eyes, filling, up, talking, about, it, i, used, to, worry, about, upsetting, them, but, i, feel, it, is, good, to, talk, and, it, also, helps, me, i, don't, know, if, that’s, right, but, it, seems, to, work, saturday, 20th, and, sunday, 21st, april, huge, sewing, for, yfc, field, day, i, also, found, out, today, that, there, is, also, baking, and, flower, arranging, oh, joy, week, beginning, monday, 22nd, april, 02, monday, 22nd, april, good, day, today, i've, been, to, see, my, new, girls, the, cows, over, the, road, from, us, it, was, the, one, we, could, see, from, the, practice, it, was, an, awful, day, they, had, lasted, until, june, anyway, it, was, good, to, see, the, new, girls, and, i, think, i, amused, the, farmer, we, had, a, great, time, i've, never, enjoyed, helping, tt, test, more, on, a, high, tuesday, 23rd, april, driving, around, today, i've, been, trying, to, listen, to, what, the, euro, inquiry, people, have, been, up, to, not, a, lot, from, what, i, hear, i, was, talking, to, an, old, farmer, in, the, afternoon, and, he, wasn't, impressed, either, and, we, agreed, that, it, was, all, very, well, having, these, inquires, but, were, they, going, to, help, i, suppose, only, time, will, tell, but, i, still, feel, that, unless, something, is, done, about, the, cause, then, the, chances, are, it, will, happen, again, and, to, what, extent, and, what, has, been, learnt, and, what, will, be, different, next, time, because, the, one, thing, that, must, be, prevented, is, the, effects, on, people, nobody, really, got, that, i, always, remember, the, samaritans, advert, nobody, seemed, to, care, probably, no, paperwork, can, you, tell, i've, had, a, particularly, bad, day, with, the, soa, and, the, good, news, is, they, want, to, keep, them, permanently, great, wednesday, 24th, april, i, went, to, see, mrs, b, again, today, and, she, had, heard, from, the, hospital, again, she, was, going, in, next, tuesday, so, i, arranged, at, collect, k, on, monday, afternoon, i'm, pleased, she's, having, her, op, i, have, also, been, in, touch, with, one, of, her, daughters, in, devon, so, hopefully, everything, should, go, well, now, good, news, we, have, heard, of, a, vet, at, defra, who, is, looking, for, a, job, husband, phoned, her, and, she, is, coming, on, saturday, afternoon, so, fingers, crossed, thursday, 25th, april, my, cows, got, the, tt, reading, this, morning, and, they, are, all, okay, we, have, heard, of, a, farm, in, welton, who, had, to, have, some, killed, as, they, had, 7, reactors, and, they, will, need, tested, there, has, been, quite, a, few, reactors, in, the, country, after, restocking, but, with, all, the, new, stock, coming, into, the, county, from, all, over, the, country, it, was, bound, to, happen, friday, 26th, april, sorted, out, the, open, day, next, saturday, got, everything, sorted, what, we, need, who's, getting, it, etc, me, and, receptionist, went, to, smuts, fancy, dress, and, decided, budget, wouldn't, go, to, costumes, so, we, got, some, face, paint, and, masks, me, and, daughter, and, her, friend, and, mum, went, to, see, westlife, ant, newcastle, it, was, great, fun, saturday, 27th, april, shopping, washing, and, sewing, i, know, how, to, show, myself, a, good, time, we, all, went, to, another, vet, s, at, night, for, a, bbq, it, was, great, fun, cold, but, fun, we, have, been, so, lucky, with, another, vet, she, is, so, nice, and, enthusiastic, we, interviewed, a, vet, today, from, defra, but, she, is, a, little, uncertain, what, she, wants, to, do, but, she, seems, nice, and, we, told, her, what, we, needed, so, fingers, crossed, sunday, 28th, april, finished, my, sewing, week, beginning, monday, 29th, april, monday, the, inquiry, begins, for, what, good, it, will, do, i, find, i, have, very, mixed, feelings, part, of, me, thinks, what's, the, point, and, another, is, expecting, something, but, quite, what, i, don't, yet, someone, to, blame, a, solution, an, ability, to, turn, back, the, clock, a, lesson, to, learn, or, an, end, the, last, i, know, won't, happen, for, a, while, and, the, repercussion, will, probably, be, felt, for, a, few, years, yet, tuesday, 30th, april, sorry, ill, in, bed, today, with, the, cold, from, hell, wednesday, 1st, may, much, better, today, and, we, heard, from, the, vet, we, interviewed, on, saturday, and, she, has, accepted, our, offer, and, can, start, on, the, 27th, may, yippee, holidays, and, easing, of, the, pressure, on, husband, and, another, vet, i, am, still, finding, the, saying, well, this, time, last, year, mrs, r, phoned, and, mentioned, the, saying, as, it, was, a, year, ago, today, that, their, cattle, were, killed, but, she, was, phoning, with, good, news, they, had, their, first, calf, born, healthy, and, well, and, she, wanted, to, tell, us, lovely, thursday, 2nd, may, its, official, soa, are, here, to, stay, oh, joy, so, we, contacted, all, our, farmers, who, had, not, yet, got, one, who, we, thought, might, need, one, so, lots, of, chatting, and, catching, up, so, quite, nice, open, day, is, on, saturday, and, there, still, seems, to, be, an, awful, lot, to, organise, but, we, have, been, busy, all, day, and, things, are, looking, better, and, slightly, more, organised, i, haven't, seen, or, heard, much, of, this, enquiry, but, when, you, do, hear, some, i, think, we, really, went, through, that, weird, friday, 3rd, may, open, day, panic, that’s, all, i've, done, today, but, it, is, all, coming, together, and, it, will, be, fine, hopefully, we, have, had, quite, a, good, response, about, people, coming, and, people, checking, when, it, is, and, what's, happening, so, fingers, crossed, must, go, and, bake, my, buns, saturday, 4th, may, open, day, it, went, really, well, we, started, at, 2, p.m, and, there, was, a, steady, stream, of, people, all, enjoying, themselves, hopefully, it, stayed, fine, the, whole, time, thankfully, i, even, got, my, face, painted, by, another, vet, our, vet, we, managed, to, raise, 96.71, for, the, pat, dogs, and, 27.35, for, national, pet, week, not, too, bad, for, 2, hours, the, staff, came, round, for, tea, later, which, was, nice, and, we, had, a, jolly, time, sunday, 5th, may, gardened, all, day, till, i, dropped, loved, it, i, grew, quite, fond, of, the, garden, last, year, as, it, was, another, little, escape, week, beginning, monday, 6th, may, monday, 6th, may, bank, holiday, we, had, a, lovely, family, day, out, which, have, been, very, rare, so, it, was, surprising, that, we, all, got, on, nearly, it, still, feels, strange, being, able, to, go, to, places, not, only, as, a, family, but, also, the, fact, that, for, so, long, we, didn't, really, go, anywhere, tuesday, 7th, may, very, busy, i, have, been, doing, my, hollering, as, receptionist, calls, it, what, i, have, actually, been, doing, is, dropping, off, drugs, and, chatting, i, call, it, customer, relations, i, still, feel, funny, going, onto, farms, i, have, been, to, the, gate, for, months, just, momentarily, i, feel, can, i, its, hard, to, explain, it, still, feels, normal, to, drop, things, in, the, bucket, or, bin, rather, than, driving, onto, the, farm, but, its, good, and, the, coffee, with, proper, milk, is, brill, wednesday, 8th, may, mr, g, has, got, some, cows, he, was, one, we, thought, wouldn't, restock, as, although, both, his, sons, are, on, the, farm, neither, are, interested, in, cows, one, has, horses, and, the, other, has, everything, else, from, turkeys, dogs, wallabies, monkeys, pheasants, etc, a, real, menagerie, daddy, g, is, 66, and, couldn't, decide, weather, to, get, more, cows, or, not, it, was, a, bit, of, dad, says, yes, sons, say, no, anyway, dad, won, to, begin, with, i, was, on, the, sons, side, but, when, he, came, in, beaming, and, laughing, and, full, of, joy, how, could, you, disagree, with, him, before, they, got, fmd, he, had, called, into, the, practise, and, was, having, a, coffee, and, was, very, upset, his, friend, had, phoned, him, that, morning, to, say, he, had, fmd, mr, g, just, broke, down, and, sobbed, it, was, one, of, my, worst, experiences, i, found, it, so, hard, not, to, join, him, but, to, be, strong, and, console, him, for, him, of, the, old, gentlemen, showed, the, depth, of, feeling, and, despair, that, was, around, i, have, a, lump, now, remembering, it, anyway, in, comparison, if, getting, a, few, cows, to, milk, can, make, such, a, big, difference, and, be, so, happy, so, what, thursday, 9th, may, went, to, a, meeting, in, preston, with, cl, a, vet, from, brampton, on, the, marsh, report, which, is, regarding, vets, the, privilege, to, dispense, drugs, anyway, firstly, we, got, lost, very, lost, and, then, on, arriving, at, the, meeting, eventually, it, was, all, doom, gloom, and, depressing, just, when, you, thought, things, were, getting, on, tract, bam, more, changes, more, paperwork, we, will, have, to, wait, and, see, just, how, it, effects, us, but, effect, us, it, will, friday, 10th, may, i, had, a, half, day, off, today, and, did, fun, things, like, washing, shopping, and, sorting, bits, and, pieces, but, i, couldn't, be, a, housewife, all, the, time, i, ended, up, leaving, the, cooking, and, washing, and, took, the, dog, out, instead, much, more, fun, saturday, 11th, may, took, daughter, out, to, the, young, farmers, field, day, it, was, brill, i, was, only, going, to, stay, an, hour, anyway, i, stayed, all, day, everyone, was, there, some, i, hadn't, seen, for, ages, i, had, only, spoke, to, them, and, some, new, faces, it, was, great, to, see, them, all, together, i, do, feel, farmers, and, their, families, are, very, special, people, they, have, a, wonderful, sense, of, fun, they, are, very, solid, they, are, very, close, mind, when, you, talk, to, them, you, find, they, are, all, related, they, are, also, very, proud, of, what, they, do, its, sad, the, public, do, not, see, them, this, way, gone, are, the, days, when, the, farmer, was, the, hero, who, worked, all, hours, to, feed, the, nation, well, it, was, a, wonderful, day, week, beginning, monday, 13th, may, monday, very, busy, milk, recorded, this, afternoon, it, was, good, fun, they, are, preparing, for, their, party, on, saturday, night, it, is, a, fancy, dress, party, me, and, husband, are, going, but, i, can't, say, what, as, yet, j, mentioned, that, a, friend, of, theirs, was, still, not, speaking, to, them, because, j, never, lost, his, cows, and, yet, j, said, he, had, tries, to, explain, how, hard, it, was, for, them, waiting, his, friend, had, accepted, the, invite, to, the, party, so, here’s, hopefully, to, friendship, it, show's, how, feelings, can, so, easily, run, away, and, be, blown, into, something, very, silly, we, are, all, on, the, same, side, after, all, i, see, a, lot, of, changes, in, a, lot, of, people, either, bitterness, resentment, jealousy, and, emotionally, drained, in, the, whole, situation, tuesday, 14th, may, early, morning, milk, recording, got, my, outfit, sorted, for, the, fancy, dress, party, on, saturday, me, and, friend, went, to, try, it, on, it, was, good, fun, wednesday, 15th, may, i, have, done, tons, of, backwards, and, forwarding, today, so, i've, been, hearing, about, the, inquiry, a, bit, today, i, have, decided, i, am, going, to, the, one, in, carlisle, out, of, interest, and, curiosity, i, still, feel, what, is, it, all, for, so, i, may, find, out, at, the, meeting, i, am, still, waiting, for, the, day, fmd, is, not, mentioned, or, i, have, some, dealing, regarding, it, thursday, 16th, may, i, spoke, to, a, young, couple, who, farm, and, they, were, enquiring, about, the, changes, in, buying, drugs, it, caught, me, off, guard, as, we, knew, it, would, happen, but, not, when, i, arranged, to, meet, with, them, and, chat, to, see, what, they, wanted, and, i, think, i, will, go, from, there, people, are, farming, in, different, ways, than, they, used, to, pre, fmd, weather, it, is, a, result, of, fmd, or, not, i, don't, know, but, there, are, going, to, be, a, lot, of, changes, heading, our, way, friday, 17th, may, accountant, day, today, what, a, joy, no, he, is, brilliant, he, has, helped, so, much, over, the, years, and, last, year, he, was, brilliant, he, did, have, one, consolation, we, wouldn't, have, to, pay, too, much, tax, this, year, anyway, spoke, to, a, rep, in, the, afternoon, we, have, had, all, the, usual, offers, that, we, get, every, year, but, this, year, they, look, good, as, if, we, buy, more, this, year, than, last, year, we, can, get, more, off, that, should, be, easy, saturday, 18th, may, party, night, i, am, cruella, deville, and, husband, is, bob, the, builder, it, was, great, seeing, people, we, hadn't, seen, for, ages, if, and, when, you, could, recognise, them, it, was, a, really, good, do, we, met, a, client, of, ours, and, she, is, very, anti, everything, re, fmd, i, feel, she, is, really, suffering, and, very, bitter, she, was, little, bo, peep, who, had, lost, her, sheep, and, didn't, know, where, to, find, them, but, mr, blair, can, she, preached, all, night, to, anyone, she, could, i, feel, sorry, for, her, as, people, were, avoiding, her, sad, sunday, 19th, may, recovered, week, beginning, monday, 20th, may, 02, monday, a, new, cattle, fertility, programme, has, now, become, available, to, vets, and, farmers, two, of, the, people, who, work, came, along, to, see, us, and, discuss, the, advantages, we, already, had, a, few, farmers, keen, in, having, the, program, installed, we, discussed, the, program, later, with, a, few, farmers, and, they, were, very, keen, recognising, that, they, are, going, to, need, a, program, like, this, that, can, help, them, keep, a, tighter, control, on, their, herds, fertility, and, health, which, would, enable, them, to, remain, in, business, as, most, of, them, are, realising, they, are, now, running, a, company, not, a, family, concern, so, it’s, quite, exciting, another, step, forward, hopefully, tuesday, 21st, may, very, busy, today, everyone, stretched, it, will, make, life, so, much, easier, when, our, new, vet, anne, starts, next, week, i, got, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, and, also, managed, to, catch, up, on, some, others, bits, that, needed, done, even, got, all, the, soa, defra, paperwork, sorted, miracle, wednesday, 22nd, may, went, to, see, two, of, our, farmers, today, to, discuss, the, interherd, cattle, health, and, fertility, computer, program, it, was, good, to, chat, a, listen, to, their, plans, hopes, and, dreams, and, their, concerns, a, lot, of, farmers, are, still, very, unsure, of, the, future, and, quite, honestly, are, keeping, their, options, open, definitely, gave, me, some, pause, for, thought, and, a, few, concerns, thursday, 23rd, may, quiet, day, today, mr, w, one, of, our, farmers, came, today, and, we, had, a, chat, he, was, also, worried, about, the, future, i, hope, some, good, positive, news, comes, soon, friday, 24th, may, friend, is, having, a, few, weeks, off, as, our, new, vet, is, starting, on, monday, she, came, to, us, 6, months, 10, years, ago, and, she, has, helped, us, out, ever, since, and, so, during, fmd, she, offered, to, help, it, was, great, to, have, her, and, she, worked, all, hours, as, there, was, only, her, and, husband, for, 5, months, so, she, is, having, some, well, deserved, time, off, and, will, come, back, part, time, when, we, need, her, i'll, miss, her, but, she, says, she's, a, lot, of, housework, to, catch, up, on, saturday, 25th, and, sunday, 26th, may, my, sister, and, niece, came, to, stay, for, the, weekend, we, had, a, nice, time, just, pottering, here, and, there, week, beginning, monday, 27h, may, monday, new, vet, started, she, was, very, nervous, but, very, keen, she, had, spent, 10, months, working, for, defra, and, was, relieved, to, be, finished, with, it, she, had, mainly, been, involved, with, re, stocking, anyway, she, managed, very, well, and, hopefully, will, settle, well, tuesday, 28th, may, we, booked, a, holiday, today, our, 1st, holiday, for, about, 2.5, years, so, we, are, all, very, excited, we, are, going, on, a, barge, near, chester, so, hopefully, the, weather, will, be, good, it, will, be, nice, to, go, away, together, especially, after, last, year, i, think, we, all, need, it, you, do, get, used, to, staying, at, home, but, with, all, the, trouble, and, upset, last, year, it, will, be, nice, can't, wait, wednesday, 29th, may, had, a, lovely, day, ended, up, doing, lots, of, visiting, around, the, farms, dropping, drugs, off, and, seeing, another, farm, regarding, the, interherd, program, i, went, to, a, large, dairy, farm, and, they, are, a, young, couple, who, are, keen, and, enthusiastic, about, their, future, so, it, was, very, positive, and, encouraging, it, does, give, you, a, lift, and, helps, put, things, back, on, track, thursday, 30th, may, we, had, a, farmers, coffee, morning, not, planned, they, appeared, at, once, so, it, was, quite, nice, its, quite, interesting, when, you, hear, them, together, there, were, two, elderly, and, one, younger, one, and, their, opinions, hopes, thoughts, and, experiences, were, very, different, friday, 31st, may, another, mega, paperwork, day, exciting, played, in, the, garden, this, afternoon, and, walked, the, dog, saturday, 1st, and, sunday, 2nd, june, had, a, weekend, off, together, we, went, visiting, and, walking, very, nice, week, beginning, 3rd, june, monday, my, sister, and, her, daughter, came, to, visit, we, went, into, carlisle, but, nothing, very, exciting, the, weather, was, very, disappointing, for, all, the, organised, events, we, went, to, a, couple, and, got, wet, daughter, and, niece, got, some, jubilee, mugs, at, one, of, them, wednesday, i, ended, up, helping, our, new, vet, and, new, nurse, to, operate, so, that, was, good, i, don’t, get, much, chance, to, help, in, the, op, room, these, days, so, i, enjoyed, it, thoroughly, new, vet, is, doing, very, well, she’s, only, been, qualified, 3, years, and, up, to, now, has, not, done, much, small, animal, so, i, was, worried, she, would, not, like, it, but, she, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, thoroughly, and, has, settled, in, really, well, it, seems, like, she, has, been, here, for, ages, thursday, we, had, our, first, work, experience, from, a, school, for, 2, years, she, was, very, interested, in, the, fmd, and, said, they, had, done, a, bit, on, it, at, school, so, i, went, through, a, few, of, the, details, and, we, discussed, the, human, side, which, she, hadn’t, really, been, discussed, at, school, to, finish, i, had, 4, soa, to, do, as, well, such, joy, friday, i, foolishly, decided, to, decorate, the, surgery, and, op, room, you, know, when, you, think, you, have, a, good, idea, then, realise, you, have, bitten, off, more, than, you, can, chew, well, by, sunday, night, i, was, dead, i, got, it, all, done, and, it, did, look, better, as, nothing, had, been, done, last, year, but, boy, was, i, tired, week, beginning, 10th, june, monday, our, new, interherd, disc, arrived, so, i, went, and, installed, it, on, two, farms, they, were, very, keen, to, get, started, so, it's, quite, exciting, they, both, have, young, sons, who, are, keen, to, farm, also, so, that, helps, sometimes, i, fee, if, we, can, just, get, through, this, and, then, other, times, i, feel, what's, the, point, but, down, the, middle, of, the, road, we, have, to, try, and, make, it, work, and, fight, to, make, it, work, tuesday, 11th, june, quite, busy, today, but, daughter, had, her, brace, taken, off, today, so, we, had, two, visits, to, the, hospital, she, looks, different, without, her, brace, now, wednesday, 12th, june, had, a, day, off, today, peaceful, thursday, 13th, june, nmr, came, to, see, us, to, discuss, how, they, can, work, with, us, the, interherd, and, the, farmer, it, was, interesting, and, competitively, priced, so, that, is, now, another, service, we, can, offer, to, our, farmers, which, can, only, help, long, term, i, went, to, see, another, farmer, to, enter, the, interherd, there, is, a, lot, of, interest, we, are, trying, to, maintain, a, close, contact, with, our, farmers, to, enable, us, to, meet, their, needs, as, things, progress, in, the, near, future, there, are, going, to, be, a, lot, of, changes, regarding, the, dispensing, of, drugs, which, could, alter, the, way, we, work, this, should, be, finalised, by, january, 2003, but, until, then, we, are, not, sure, just, how, they, will, affect, us, friday, 14th, saturday, 15th, and, sunday, 16th, june, husband, birthday, so, i, have, organised, a, surprise, weekend, away, for, him, we, had, a, wonderful, time, and, thankfully, the, weather, was, good, week, beginning, 17th, june, monday, very, quiet, almost, like, last, year, but, thankfully, not, for, the, same, reason, they, are, all, busy, silaging, normality, is, returning, but, they, are, still, finding, it, difficult, with, new, herds, not, really, knowing, their, new, cows, yet, or, how, they, react, one, farmer, said, it, was, like, a, new, car, you, have, to, drive, it, a, good, few, miles, before, you, are, at, ease, and, the, seat, is, comfy, well, that’s, one, way, of, putting, it, tuesday, i, went, to, see, mr, j, to, discuss, our, new, interherd, program, a, computer, program, that, they, can, keep, records, of, all, their, herds, records, and, we, can, do, analysis, on, them, it’s, quite, exciting, and, interesting, and, shows, farming, is, heading, to, the, computer, age, and, the, farmers, are, learning, another, new, skill, not, sure, they, are, all, comfy, with, after, i, had, shown, mr, j, the, program, and, how, to, use, it, he, was, keen, but, said, that, for, now, he, would, maybe, go, and, cut, down, a, few, thistles, weds, thursday, very, quiet, did, some, catching, up, on, paperwork, then, went, for, a, walk, and, played, outside, in, the, garden, friday, query, fmd, in, pigs, the, effect, it, had, was, very, strange, part, was, horror, worry, and, another, strange, one, was, of, expecting, it, although, you, did, get, on, with, everything, and, it’s, all, sorting, out, and, normality, is, returning, it’s, as, if, you, are, waiting, for, it, to, appear, again, i, went, back, to, watching, the, news, listening, to, the, radio, waiting, fingers, crossed, sad, day, sat, sun, quiet, weekend, husband, was, working, no, results, on, the, pigs, yet, the, bush, telegraph, is, working, again, we, have, had, quite, a, number, of, worried, farmers, on, the, phone, but, no, results, as, yet, week, beginning, 24th, june, monday, breakthrough, no, fmd, talk, at, all, today, i, suddenly, realised, in, the, evening, all, is, getting, back, to, normal, and, everyone, is, coming, to, terms, with, the, paperwork, farming, does, what, it, always, has, recently, fallen, from, one, disaster, to, another, but, they, are, very, proud, of, their, trade, but, do, now, feel, let, down, by, both, the, government, and, the, public, who, for, whatever, reason, don’t, seem, to, have, the, same, respect, for, farmers, as, they, used, to, but, this, just, may, be, due, to, how, we, all, are, and, work, these, days, tuesday, pigs, given, the, all, clear, everyone, breathes, a, sigh, of, relief, it, has, a, very, chilling, effect, but, again, shows, we, are, still, clear, of, the, disease, for, now, weds, over, the, last, few, days, we, have, had, 6, dairy, herds, with, very, strange, mastitis, husband, has, been, out, to, visit, them, with, a, vet, from, vla, penrith, but, they, as, yet, have, not, established, a, cause, samples, show, nothing, and, usual, treatments, don’t, work, so, it, is, a, case, of, new, herds, new, problems, thursday, day, off, and, friday, sat, sun, had, my, niece, we, had, a, lovely, time, but, very, exhausting, week, beginning, 1st, july, monday, we, have, invested, the, new, interherd, computer, programme, mon, thurs, this, week, i, have, been, out, and, about, visiting, farmers, loading, and, explaining, the, new, programme, some, of, which, i, haven't, been, too, far, over, a, year, it's, good, to, see, them, and, chat, fmd, of, course, is, always, still, at, the, top, of, the, list, followed, by, the, milk, price, and, all, the, regulations, it's, so, amazing, and, sorrowful, to, see, how, deep, the, emotions, run, the, stories, and, feelings, they, have, are, still, very, strong, but, all, are, very, emotional, they, are, very, resilient, but, do, still, have, these, deep, feelings, you, wonder, how, the, effects, will, come, out, but, it, will, take, time, friday, i, did, a, soa, for, the, first, time, in, ages, i, had, to, look, back, as, to, how, to, fill, it, in, they, are, going, to, review, these, shortly, so, watch, this, space, all, the, regulations, are, up, for, review, in, about, november, so, we, will, see, what, they, come, up, with, sunday, we, have, a, vet, student, alison, for, two, weeks, staying, with, us, she, came, to, northumberland, during, fmd, so, was, interested, to, know, what, had, happened, and, where, everything, was, at, the, more, you, go, through, it, the, easier, it, becomes, she, had, been, involved, in, the, culling, and, had, found, it, very, hard, she, did, it, for, 1, month, and, was, glad, to, leave, week, beginning, 8th, july, monday, tuesday, i, went, milk, recording, the, farm, i, go, to, did, not, get, fmd, and, they, were, saying, how, hard, it, had, been, for, them, and, to, some, extent, they, did, have, as, hard, a, time, as, people, with, fmd, just, in, different, ways, they, had, to, do, the, checking, for, longer, the, farmer, said, he, used, to, dread, going, into, the, sheds, in, a, morning, as, he, dreaded, what, he, might, find, also, washing, the, milk, takers, not, being, able, to, visit, friends, and, family, all, the, regulations, re, moving, stock, just, the, not, knowing, they, said, it, put, quite, a, strain, on, them, all, one, of, the, ways, they, coped, was, they, built, a, tennis, court, and, played, a, lot, of, other, games, and, as, a, family, this, brought, them, closer, weds, interherd, day, we, held, a, meeting, today, to, invite, all, the, farmers, interested, in, using, the, programme, the, people, who, wrote, the, programme, came, along, to, talk, to, the, farmers, it, was, very, good, and, the, farmers, seemed, to, enjoy, themselves, they, have, all, found, they, are, needing, this, sort, of, programme, as, with, the, new, herds, they, are, unsure, of, how, their, fertilities, are, thurs, fri, visited, mr, w, and, mr, j, re, interherd, got, a, proper, cup, of, coffee, and, proper, milk, that's, what, i, missed, about, last, year, and, one, of, the, reasons, i, go, to, visit, them, sat, sun, very, busy, small, animal, operated, and, nursed, all, week, end, i, was, shattered, poor, me, week, beginning, 15th, july, monday, visited, farmer, re, interherd, programme, they, are, very, positive, about, the, future, and, have, a, son, who, is, very, keen, i, can, see, a, difference, in, their, attitude, over, the, past, few, months, when, i, first, started, going, they, were, unsure, they, had, done, the, right, thing, and, had, seriously, debated, getting, any, stock, back, if, they, could, cope, with, the, changes, and, the, regulations, and, paperwork, but, as, he, said, he, just, loves, farming, not, that, he, doesn't, know, anything, else, he, just, loves, farming, and, now, they, have, progressed, and, working, together, within, the, family, they, have, a, good, system, and, appear, to, be, enjoying, themselves, the, farm, has, been, in, the, family, for, generations, so, financially, they, can, manage, i, hope, they, make, it, they, are, lovely, people, and, a, real, inspiration, the, report, on, fmd, and, the, recommendations, is, to, be, published, soon, but, from, what, we, have, heard, so, far, it, doesn't, say, anything, we, didn't, already, know, and, the, recommendations, are, a, little, sketchy, to, say, the, least, they, need, a, good, sensible, positive, protocol, for, any, future, outbreak, and, at, present, if, it, all, flared, up, again, tomorrow, it, would, be, the, same, mess, what, have, we, learnt, hopefully, time, will, tell, tuesday, sad, news, today, one, of, our, clients, who, didn't, get, fmd, has, decided, to, give, up, he, is, on, a, tenanted, farm, the, owners, are, not, keen, on, any, expansion, or, even, repairing, old, buildings, to, remain, competitive, he, sees, he, needs, more, cows, but, can't, build, any, more, sheds, so, in, his, words, he, has, decided, that, there, is, maybe, more, to, life, he, is, in, his, mid, forties, so, he, is, going, to, sell, up, and, try, something, new, very, brave, but, sad, i, think, this, will, not, be, the, first, of, our, clients, to, do, this, everyone, asks, about, the, future, and, at, the, moment, nothing, and, nobody, is, certain, can, the, smaller, farmers, keep, up, will, the, bigger, ones, get, bigger, what, new, regulations, and, paperwork, will, be, brought, in, only, time, will, tell, weds, husband, has, been, away, at, the, br, cattle, vet, ass, bcva, committee, meeting, he, has, been, on, the, committee, for, about, 18, months, now, he, enjoys, it, and, it, is, another, feather, in, his, cap, anyway, he, gave, a, talk, on, the, problems, post, fmd, and, on, the, problems, farmers, were, and, had, experienced, he, also, gave, a, talk, on, some, of, the, mastitis, cases, that, had, appeared, in, new, herds, we, have, had, some, very, strange, mastitis, cases, this, year, anyway, there, was, a, competition, for, the, best, talk, and, husband, won, i, was, very, proud, of, him, none, of, the, other, vets, there, had, ever, seen, anything, like, it, but, some, had, found, more, bad, mastitis, in, cows, this, year, so, whether, it’s, the, change, of, area, weather, or, housing, we, shall, see, thursday, i, had, a, visiting, day, today, good, fun, i, went, t, see, the, farmers, who, have, the, interherd, so, i, had, lots, of, coffee, with, proper, milk, yummy, it's, also, interesting, to, hear, all, the, different, stories, and, feelings, hopes, and, worries, there, are, so, many, most, are, ready, for, the, challenge, ahead, but, unfortunately, some, aren't, nobody, knows, how, or, when, things, will, change, but, over, the, next, couple, of, years, they, will, some, good, some, not, so, good, byee, i'm, off, on, my, hols, now, yippee, holiday, week, beginning, 22nd, july, week, beginning, monday, 29th, july, tuesday, back, to, work, the, staff, have, coped, really, well, no, falling, out, no, problems, it's, the, first, time, in, nearly, two, years, we, have, left, them, so, it, was, a, bit, worrying, but, they, are, a, great, bunch, we, are, very, lucky, i, feel, so, relaxed, and, it, was, great, fun, seeing, through, all, my, paperwork, not, i, had, a, bit, of, a, lazy, day, but, good, weds, poor, mr, g, is, having, a, terrible, time, with, defra, when, we, did, his, restocking, tt, test, he, had, a, reactor, so, the, cow, was, slaughtered, but, no, lesions, were, found, the, herd, had, to, be, tested, again, 60, days, later, and, another, reactor, was, found, and, slaughtered, anyway, he, was, due, another, test, in, 60, days, and, this, was, arranged, for, 9.00am, 9.00am, came, and, went, and, at, 10.00am, he, phoned, to, see, what, was, happening, they, had, forgotten, they, could, come, out, at, 1pm, no, good, the, last, two, times, they, had, tested, it, had, taken, 6, hours, to, test, the, cows, and, they, still, needed, milked, which, would, mean, a, very, late, finish, mr, graves, explained, this, and, was, told, not, to, complain, he, had, bought, the, cows, into, the, country, with, tb, and, he, would, have, to, do, it, when, they, said, they, know, how, to, get, people, on, their, side, don't, they, anyway, a, heated, discussion, had, pursued, and, eventually, sense, was, seen, the, test, was, rearranged, for, another, day, at, 9.00am, so, fingers, crossed, thursday, we, got, money, through, today, from, the, fmd, recovery, fund, it, has, been, very, useful, and, enabled, us, to, do, things, we, wouldn't, normally, be, able, to, do, we, had, our, vans, sign, written, we, got, a, laptop, computer, which, had, been, great, for, the, interherd, programme, we, got, pens, and, pads, to, give, out, husband, was, able, to, hold, meetings, with, our, farmers, pre, stocking, to, advise, them, what, to, look, for, etc, so, it, has, been, extremely, useful, it, was, nice, to, be, given, the, money, some, people, say, it, would, have, been, spent, elsewhere, but, it, helped, us, immensely, and, we, feel, we, have, spent, it, wisely, fri, had, a, paperwork, catch, up, day, today, it, has, been, quiet, recently, due, to, holidays, and, harvesting, but, thankfully, not, like, last, year, we, looked, back, again, and, today, last, year, we, had, no, calls, and, today, we, had, four, so, although, quiet, not, that, bad, week, beginning, monday, 5th, august, monday, very, quiet, tuesday, very, quiet, weds, very, quiet, thursday, daughter, got, her, first, job, fri, took, daughter, to, my, sisters, for, the, week, end, sat, quiet, week, end, sun, gardening, going, on, holiday, again, next, week, yippee, sorry, it’s, been, very, quiet, this, week, as, mentioned, before, this, is, usual, as, everyone, is, on, holiday, and, the, farmers, are, harvesting, i, have, caught, up, and, have, been, enjoying, a, few, days, just, poddling, going, out, with, daughter, shopping, food, it’s, nice, to, have, some, catch, up, time, on, thursday, daughter, got, a, job, her, first, proper, job, well, nearly, at, the, travel, inn, at, the, bottom, of, our, road, she, is, so, excited, and, already, planning, what, she, is, going, to, spend, her, hard, earned, cash, on, on, friday, i, took, daughter, to, my, sisters, in, lancashire, for, the, week, end, i, came, back, on, friday, night, and, we, decided, to, meet, up, at, husband, s, mum, and, dad’s, caravan, near, whitby, on, monday, for, a, week, so, another, holiday, i, don’t, know, you, have, one, and, then, another, anyway, it, should, be, good, fun, holiday, week, beginning, monday, 12thth, august, week, beginning, monday, 19thth, august, monday, visited, mr, a, today, to, load, interherd, onto, his, computer, he, has, definitely, decided, to, sell, up, he, is, hoping, by, early, next, year, this, has, all, been, very, sudden, but, his, son, is, no, longer, interested, and, as, mr, a, said, who, can, blame, him, with, all, the, new, regulations, and, paperwork, a, lot, are, finding, it, hard, tuesday, we, had, an, environment, agency, visit, this, morning, to, check, how, and, where, we, dispose, of, our, waste, in, practice, thankfully, we, are, doing, everything, properly, but, this, visit, took, two, and, a, half, hours, and, lots, of, form, filling, in, it, is, they, that, check, these, things, but, the, extent, in, questionable, mr, g, called, in, the, afternoon, he, is, having, problems, with, his, cows, they, keep, going, off, colour, we, have, so, many, new, herds, that, started, of, doing, well, happy, and, settling, in, fine, then, about, 3, 4, months, after, they, arrived, they, start, being, ill, have, mastitis, off, colour, not, eating, not, milking, properly, a, wide, variety, it’s, very, strange, the, vets, don’t, really, know, what’s, happening, we, have, a, few, on, regular, blood, sampling, trying, to, find, any, changes, weds, me, and, husband, went, to, the, accountant, to, see, just, how, bad, financially, we, really, had, done, last, year, and, oh, what, a, surprise, it, was, bad, in, fact, we, nearly, qualified, for, children’s, tax, relief, the, main, thing, is, we, survived, in, a, fashion, hopefully, it, will, be, better, next, year, thursday, i, visited, two, farmers, today, on, the, interherd, they, are, finding, it, brilliant, they, have, both, recently, had, farm, assurance, visits, and, interherd, had, helped, them, enormously, and, helped, them, reach, the, standards, they, both, appreciate, how, much, easier, it, is, for, them, and, less, paperwork, heaven, it’s, so, good, to, find, something, to, help, them, fri, i, have, been, phoning, our, main, drug, company’s, reps, inviting, them, to, our, open, evening, all, very, keen, i, think, they, just, enjoy, the, crack, week, beginning, monday, 26th, august, very, quiet, this, week, on, both, large, and, small, animal, it, must, be, the, last, holiday, rush, before, going, back, to, school, we, managed, to, do, some, catching, up, and, decided, a, four, day, week, would, be, nice, i, did, quite, a, bit, of, playing, on, interherd, so, that, when, i, visited, farmers, about, it, i, knew, what, they, want, to, see, and, where, to, find, it, most, of, them, are, interested, in, the, medicines, book, as, this, keeps, excellent, stock, records, from, when, the, drug, product, is, born, where, it, has, gone, and, batch, numbers, and, expiry, dates, these, are, all, the, information, they, need, to, produce, when, they, get, inspected, and, doing, it, manually, can, be, very, time, consuming, week, beginning, 2nd, september, monday, 2nd, september, irs, 9.30, garst, milk, rec, tuesday, garst, milk, rec, dog, course, weds, daughter, back, to, school, exporting, is, back, thursday, exporting, fri, change, date, of, open, evening, gb, way, now, 15, 10, 02, exporting, sat, off, sister, and, niece, sun, off, monday, every, 2, years, we, are, checked, by, our, radiographer, advisor, to, ensure, everything, is, well, and, we, are, doing, everything, right, they, check, the, x, ray, machine, our, records, and, our, monitoring, records, we, passed, in, the, afternoon, i, went, milk, recording, it, was, very, warm, and, very, flyie, but, good, fun, they, are, thinking, of, getting, a, new, parlour, twice, as, big, as, mr, g, feels, in, the, future, milk, will, have, to, be, produced, by, quantity, not, quality, but, it, is, difficult, and, expensive, decision, to, make, for, him, we, shall, see, tue, early, morning, milk, recording, this, morning, but, i, got, a, lovely, breakfast, with, proper, milk, i, got, to, check, the, large, animal, when, i, got, back, we, also, started, our, new, puppy, training, course, in, the, evening, that, went, very, well, it, is, a, more, 1, to, 1, basis, our, nurse, runs, it, i, go, along, and, help, with, moral, support, it, was, good, fun, but, i, had, a, very, long, day, and, went, to, bed, when, i, got, back, weds, daughter, went, back, to, school, today, i’ll, miss, her, following, me, round, helping, out, and, her, mum, can, you, take, me, we, may, have, some, exporting, of, sheep, on, friday, there, is, a, pedigree, texel, sheep, sale, at, h, h, borderway, it, is, the, first, exporting, we, have, done, in, about, 20, months, as, you, can, guess, the, paper, work, has, tripled, there, has, been, numerous, phone, calls, to, ad, from, defra, trying, to, make, sense, of, it, but, i, must, say, people, up, here, are, not, good, at, clarifying, what, they, have, written, now, there’s, a, surprise, thursday, i, have, spent, the, whole, day, either, reading, new, expert, regulations, or, running, backwards, and, forwards, for, new, paperwork, what, we, have, to, complete, and, what, they, should, bring, well, it, could, be, fun, friday, well, full, really, isn’t, the, word, i, would, use, we, needed, more, paperwork, they, needed, more, paperwork, it, took, most, of, the, day, and, we, only, had, 3, sheep, to, send, draining, the, one, good, thing, was, seeing, everyone, at, the, auction, some, new, faces, and, some, have, gone, week, beginning, 9th, september, monday, t's, 7th, birthday, we, have, another, vet, student, studying, at, the, moment, for, 2, weeks, we, have, had, five, this, year, so, far, and, another, before, christmas, but, she, won't, stay, in, the, house, as, she, is, from, carlisle, it, is, nice, to, have, them, and, it, makes, us, behave, but, i, won't, have, as, many, next, year, they, have, all, been, interested, in, the, fmd, and, some, had, a, chance, to, help, out, which, was, an, eye, opener, for, them, i, spoke, to, student, about, it, all, how, it, affected, everyone, what, happened, and, what, didn't, now, talking, about, almost, a, year, from, the, last, case, i, don't, find, it, as, hard, and, i, think, i, can, hide, how, emotional, it, was, but, at, the, time, i, wasn't, i, was, more, angry, i, feel, now, fmd, or, the, aftermath, has, sadly, become, everyday, life, i, don't, rush, for, news, on, it, or, yearn, information, i, think, because, directly, or, indirectly, we, live, with, it, everyday, it, all, has, really, become, part, of, our, lives, it, is, very, difficult, to, put, into, words, or, explain, i, also, went, to, visit, one, of, my, interherd, farmers, in, lancaster, they, are, very, pleased, with, it, and, are, coping, well, mrs, m, was, crushed, by, the, pet, cow, a, month, ago, and, was, very, lucky, she, had, two, broken, legs, cuts, and, bruises, needless, to, say, the, cow, has, gone, to, greener, pastures, they, are, very, resilient, and, are, planning, for, the, future, and, it, is, nice, to, be, a, part, of, their, planning, i, also, get, proper, milky, coffee, see, so, easy, pleased, milk, recorded, tonight, at, mr, g's, so, early, morning, tomorrow, i'm, still, trying, to, persuade, them, into, interherd, so, finger, crossed, tuesday, early, morning, milk, recording, failed, on, the, interherd, due, to, a, cow, breaking, a, leg, i, have, never, actually, experienced, it, happening, before, i, generally, hear, farmers, needing, a, slaughter, cert, or, a, cow, put, down, to, see, it, and, the, family's, reaction, i, was, humbled, i, think, is, the, word, it, was, an, accident, that, can, happen, but, the, look, on, their, faces, was, such, deep, sorrow, the, father, even, places, his, head, in, his, hands, at, breakfast, we, all, talked, about, it, she, was, only, a, heifer, getting, ready, to, be, served, for, the, let, time, she, was, a, difficult, birth, they, had, all, helped, well, bred, and, she, was, jet, black, with, a, huge, white, spot, on, her, side, so, no, prizes, for, guessing, the, name, but, as, the, farmer, said, you, can't, look, after, them, feed, them, care, for, them, day, in, day, out, without, caring, about, them, or, why, would, you, do, it, in, the, afternoon, i, attended, a, course, on, management, employment, law, customer, service, at, barnard, castle, it, went, on, till, 9, pm, with, dinner, after, so, i, decided, to, stay, over, very, spoilt, good, course, excellent, food, lovely, hotel, wednesday, came, back, from, my, course, leisurely, and, stopped, at, penrith, for, a, bit, of, shopping, very, pleasant, i'm, not, a, good, shopper, but, it, was, nice, i, had, to, get, back, for, 11, am, as, we, were, having, a, new, credit, card, machine, fitted, he, duly, arrived, well, what, an, obnoxious, man, he, was, moaning, because, we, had, a, switchboard, he, had, to, dial, 9, this, was, wrong, that, was, wrong, and, then, was, he, not, going, to, get, offered, a, coffee, to, which, he, was, told, not, without, the, special, word, he, was, a, bit, aghast, and, said, please, i, swear, if, i, had, not, just, come, from, a, course, explaining, customer, service, i, would, have, murdered, him, god, bless, courses, and, of, course, credit, card, machine, men, in, the, afternoon, i, was, visited, by, the, rspca, advertising, company, did, we, want, an, advert, in, their, leaflet, anyway, it, was, 640, for, quarter, of, a, page, for, 2, years, so, i, said, we, couldn't, afford, it, it, suddenly, dropped, to, 410, i, was, a, little, suspect, so, i, got, receptionist, to, quietly, check, if, the, company, were, connected, to, the, rspca, anyway, while, i, was, waiting, i, said, it, was, still, a, little, bit, more, than, we, could, afford, what, with, fmd, see, it, is, useful, and, true, he, then, said, he, could, do, it, for, 210, by, which, time, she, had, confirmed, they, were, with, the, rspca, so, i, said, yes, thank, you, bargain, or, rip, off, thursday, i, tried, to, get, my, head, round, isolation, units, and, tried, to, explain, to, a, farmer, about, them, i, think, we, got, there, eventually, when, husband, got, back, i, got, him, to, explain, in, simple, english, and, it, all, made, a, lot, more, sense, they, will, be, handy, for, people, selling, and, buying, stock, but, have, as, always, the, guidelines, must, have, been, written, by, someone, who, has, never, seen, a, farm, or, fields, friday, caught, up, on, paperwork, and, trolleyed, about, busy, doing, not, a, lot, i, think, the, term, is, anyway, it, was, good, week, beginning, 16th, september, this, week, has, been, appraisal, week, for, the, staff, we, didn't, do, any, last, year, so, i, thought, we, had, better, get, back, into, the, swing, of, things, i, quite, enjoy, the, appraisals, it's, a, great, opportunity, to, have, a, real, good, sort, out, get, new, ideas, and, try, and, recognise, any, potential, problems, we, started, doing, appraisals, at, bout, 4, years, ago, and, to, start, off, with, everyone, was, petrified, and, worried, but, it, was, nice, to, see, them, actually, excited, and, enjoyed, it, it, is, quite, time, consuming, but, very, worthwhile, so, not, much, out, and, about, this, week, week, beginning, 23rd, september, monday, another, suspect, case, the, main, difference, about, this, was, as, with, other, ones, i, felt, cold, sick, scared, this, one, was, better, i, felt, it, was, not, going, to, be, positive, whether, it's, a, case, of, there, have, been, a, few, now, not, positive, and, this, is, just, another, one, or, confident, that, it, no, way, could, be, positive, i, definitely, wasn't, as, worried, i, don't, know, if, that, is, being, blasé, can't, spell, sorry, but, definitely, different, tuesday, just, nicely, busy, today, just, enough, to, keep, everyone, busy, husband, and, other, vet, are, away, this, week, so, that, just, leaves, new, vet, and, other, vet, so, it, was, a, little, worrying, if, it, got, busy, it, was, the, last, of, our, dog, training, courses, tonight, they, all, passed, their, tests, well, and, were, very, pleased, with, the, progress, they, had, made, it, was, the, first, 4, week, course, we, had, run, and, feedback, was, very, positive, our, head, nurse, had, put, in, an, awful, lot, of, work, fir, it, so, i, was, very, pleased, for, her, as, well, the, next, one, is, planned, for, november, weds, experts, are, going, to, start, again, at, h, h, tomorrow, and, friday, it, will, be, the, first, ones, we, have, done, for, about, 18, months, surprisingly, the, paperwork, for, our, side, has, not, changed, much, but, the, irish, paperwork, is, horrendous, anyway, after, several, phone, calls, to, derfa, and, dard, and, various, farmers, who, are, wishing, to, sell, at, the, sale, i, think, we, have, it, sorted, we, will, see, tomorrow, thursday, and, friday, i've, put, these, into, one, as, that, is, how, it, felt, after, being, so, confident, that, we, had, everything, in, place, to, be, able, to, export, the, sheep, first, thing, thursday, morning, dard, like, irish, defra, changed, the, regulations, and, paperwork, such, joy, as, you, can, imagine, this, sent, everyone, in, a, state, of, frenzy, and, another, buzby, full, of, phone, calls, we, didn't, have, the, paperwork, sorted, when, people, had, bought, sheep, and, were, wanting, to, leave, now, some, tempers, are, reaching, fever, pitch, well, we, did, manage, to, export, them, away, on, thursday, night, 3, hours, late, so, they, had, to, book, different, ferries, all, done, and, dusted, by, friday, we, were, busy, congratulating, ourselves, on, achieving, the, impossible, and, how, we, all, had, worked, hard, to, accomplish, it, and, now, had, several, more, names, on, our, christmas, card, list, yes, you, guessed, we, had, a, phone, call, from, well, let, me, say, one, not, happy, chappy, after, having, no, sleep, catching, a, late, ferry, waiting, for, the, paperwork, to, arrive, at, larne, port, all, the, sheep, were, impounded, dard, had, added, one, more, form, to, their, list, of, requirements, and, had, forgotten, to, send, them, through, or, mention, them, hours, of, phone, calls, and, faxing, later, i, am, very, pleased, to, say, that, the, sheep, were, released, and, free, to, go, week, beginning, 7th, october, monday, 7th, october, i, made, some, trial, arrangements, for, our, open, evening, next, tuesday, all’s, ready, now, they, are, a, good, night, out, and, we, all, enjoy, it, we, haven’t, had, one, for, a, few, years, so, it, should, be, good, tuesday, for, a, while, now, we’ve, been, wondering, if, the, practice, should, invest, in, a, house, for, an, assistant, we, have, had, a, response, to, the, advert, for, our, new, vet, so, we, thought, we, would, go, house, hunting, anyway, it, wasn’t, as, much, fun, as, i, first, thought, to, start, with, obviously, they, are, quite, a, price, and, it, really, isn’t, that, easy, so, we, looked, at, one, cardboard, box, for, 70,000, and, apparently, it, went, for, 82k, frightening, well, we, can, keep, on, looking, we, have, a, vet, coming, for, an, interview, on, saturday, so, fingers, crossed, i’m, off, tomorrow, and, away, at, bvna, congress, over, the, weekend, so, i’m, looking, forward, to, that, week, beginning, 14th, october, monday, 14th, october, we, had, a, really, good, time, at, the, bvna, british, veterinary, nurse, assistant, congress, we, did, loads, of, lectures, a, learned, a, few, new, things, got, loads, of, freebies, from, the, trade, stands, and, ordered, a, new, vaporiser, for, the, anaesthetic, machine, which, uses, less, isoflo, oxygen, we, also, had, a, good, halloween, ball, stayed, up, too, late, we, got, back, on, sunday, evening, after, 3, days, of, congress, and, i, was, just, settling, down, and, filling, in, husband, and, daughter, on, what, we, had, done, when, another, vet, came, in, wanting, a, hand, with, a, caesarean, on, a, dog, ah, well, nothing, like, getting, back, into, it, today, anyway, feeling, very, tired, we, had, to, start, getting, ready, for, open, evening, tomorrow, night, for, the, farmers, so, there, was, a, lot, of, sorting, out, and, tidying, up, to, do, as, we, open, the, house, up, as, well, we, haven’t, had, one, for, a, couple, of, years, so, it, was, quite, exciting, i, really, enjoy, them, it’s, great, to, have, the, farmers, round, it’s, mainly, a, nosh, and, natter, night, but, this, year, some, of, the, drug, companies, paid, for, it, they, have, their, stands, in, various, parts, of, the, house, and, surgery, and, normally, everyone, has, a, good, time, tuesday, open, evening, day, very, busy, tidying, up, and, moving, things, around, everyone, helped, it’s, good, the, staff, are, so, excited, about, it, as, well, they, have, all, mucked, in, and, as, usual, did, us, proud, the, evening, itself, was, brilliant, it, was, so, nice, to, see, them, all, enjoying, themselves, and, there, is, nothing, farmers, like, better, than, a, good, natter, food, and, beer, quite, a, few, said, they, had, missed, the, open, evening, last, year, due, to, fmd, as, far, as, pr, goes, definitely, worth, it, wednesday, just, clearing, up, and, sorting, out, all, the, staff, said, they, had, had, good, feedback, so, well, done, to, everyone, thursday, back, to, it, now, got, new, interherd, update, so, i, spent, quite, a, lot, of, the, day, seeing, what, new, buttons, it, had, it’s, very, clever, interherd, is, sold, by, nmr, now, and, they, are, helping, us, sell, it, to, the, farmers, whose, life, and, paperwork, hope, to, make, easier, the, man, in, charge, at, nmr, is, coming, to, see, us, next, week, to, explain, how, the, milk, recording, side, all, ties, in, between, nmr, and, interherd, friday, today, was, one, of, those, when, you, rush, round, all, day, but, you, feel, unsure, of, what, you, have, actually, done, very, busy, on, both, large, and, small, side, it’s, very, tiring, but, i, do, prefer, it, when, we’re, busy, week, beginning, 21st, october, monday, 21st, october, monday, to, wednesday, off, thursday, had, a, meeting, with, id, from, nmr, re, interherd, they, are, going, to, give, us, cheap, milk, recording, prices, to, help, promote, nmr, and, interherd, they, have, also, released, a, version, of, interherd, for, farmers, and, we, were, given, the, first, one, in, the, country, to, trial, and, see, what, they, thought, it, was, very, encouraging, as, nmr, in, the, past, years, have, gained, themselves, a, slightly, unpopular, feel, especially, in, cumbria, but, they, now, seem, to, see, this, and, are, trying, very, hard, and, are, committed, to, improving, it, they, did, a, survey, and, now, with, area, herd, size, etc, the, majority, of, dairy, herds, are, in, cumbria, even, post, fmd, so, fingers, crossed, friday, a, good, day, today, husband, was, away, at, a, bcva, council, meeting, br, cattle, vets, ass, and, normally, it, goes, mad, don’t, know, why, anyway, it, didn’t, today, everyone, was, busy, but, not, madly, the, large, animal, side, is, very, up, and, down, at, present, but, it, is, now, tt, and, blood, testing, season, there, are, quite, a, lot, of, restocked, herds, to, do, as, they, are, having, to, be, done, every, year, as, opposed, to, 4, yearly, we, also, have, to, test, everything, it, is, very, time, consuming, and, if, they, have, a, tt, test, then, it, is, a, two, day, job, so, for, both, the, farmer, and, us, it, is, two, days, of, the, week, when, you, can’t, do, anything, else, week, beginning, 28th, october, monday, 28th, october, we, have, been, asked, by, newton, rigg, college, if, we, would, be, interested, in, teaching, the, animal, care, courses, at, the, college, so, me, and, vicky, went, along, it, was, quite, interesting, and, we, thought, if, we, could, do, it, together, it, would, work, so, we, said, we, would, think, about, it, and, let, them, know, went, milk, recording, in, the, afternoon, i, do, enjoy, playing, and, the, crack, tuesday, milk, recorded, again, and, discussed, interherd, with, them, so, we, are, going, to, use, them, as, the, pilot, for, the, nmr, interherd, job, so, that, will, be, interesting, regarding, the, newton, rigg, offer, we, won’t, be, able, to, do, it, as, our, part, time, nurse, is, leaving, us, she, has, been, offered, a, place, at, dalston, vets, she, will, be, able, to, train, as, a, vet, nurse, there, as, we, don’t, do, that, in, our, practice, so, that, will, leave, us, short, staffed, it, is, sad, but, everything, happens, for, a, reason, so, we, are, now, vet, and, nurse, hunting, so, more, advertising, and, interviewing, weds, we, are, sponsoring, a, class, at, the, northern, expo, holstein, friesian, shows, we, have, a, stand, and, a, good, natter, i, took, some, photos, of, a, few, cows, and, some, freebies, it, was, a, good, night, barbara, came, with, me, and, she, presented, the, prize, for, our, class, the, standard, of, cattle, was, amazing, and, it, was, a, really, good, show, thursday, out, of, the, photos, i, took, for, the, northern, expo, i, decided, to, make, a, photo, album, so, i, went, round, a, few, other, farms, photographing, it, was, good, fun, and, nice, to, see, that, we, do, have, some, very, good, stock, friday, got, a, phone, call, today, from, my, sister, she, has, sold, her, house, in, lancaster, and, is, moving, up, near, us, so, that’s, very, exciting, otherwise, a, quiet, day, today, week, beginning, 4th, november, monday, 4th, november, i, went, to, show, mr, j, the, new, interherd, farmers, version, he, was, very, interested, and, thought, it, would, save, a, lot, of, paperwork, and, time, they, all, say, that, the, paperwork, since, fmd, has, increased, immensely, along, with, the, regulations, tuesday, we, have, decided, to, have, a, tv, in, the, waiting, room, to, advertise, products, services, staff, etc, the, man, from, channel, 6, came, and, took, information, so, it, should, arrive, next, week, so, it, will, be, interesting, to, see, how, it, works, weds, we, went, to, the, bank, today, to, see, the, financial, advisor, as, this, is, a, free, service, and, very, useful, we, have, decided, to, buy, a, house, for, my, sister, to, live, in, when, she, moves, up, and, it, will, be, an, investment, as, well, a, bit, of, security, just, in, case, as, last, year, we, discovered, just, how, quick, things, can, change, we, went, for, just, over, 3, months, with, not, a, lot, of, money, coming, in, and, still, wages, to, pay, so, we, are, now, house, hunting, week, beginning, 11th, november, monday, 11th, november, one, of, our, vets, has, recently, started, her, dbr, dip, in, bovine, reproduction, course, at, liverpool, as, part, of, her, studies, she, is, looking, at, the, cows, milk, quality, pre, and, post, calving, to, see, if, any, effects, are, relevant, to, their, overall, performance, and, milk, production, and, health, so, we, collect, milk, samples, from, certain, cows, twice, a, week, over, the, period, of, lactation, and, she, is, going, to, test, them, so, watch, this, space, we, have, been, very, lucky, with, another, vet, her, enthusiasm, is, boundless, and, she, has, become, a, very, important, member, of, our, team, i, have, persuaded, mr, j, of, b, farm, to, milk, record, with, us, so, that's, more, early, morning, jaunts, the, interherd, and, nmr, trial, is, nearly, ready, so, hopefully, by, middle, of, december, everything, should, be, set, up, and, running, hopefully, tuesday, two, farmers, are, milk, reading, today, so, i, had, a, nice, little, trolly, about, i, treated, myself, to, some, of, mr, r's, ice, cream, very, nice, well, you, have, to, support, them, their, new, shop, on, the, farm, is, doing, very, well, i, loaded, my, first, farmer, version, interherd, onto, mr, w's, computer, he, is, very, impressed, and, very, keen, and, thankfully, it, all, worked, well, wednesday, we, have, computer, bugs, not, good, so, i, have, spent, most, of, the, day, on, the, phone, talking, to, the, debugging, man, thursday, still, got, bugs, we've, had, to, run, a, bug, fixer, disc, through, all, seven, computers, it, takes, ages, pee'd, off, fed, up, going, back, to, pen, and, paper, friday, i, must, have, sounded, fed, up, as, the, lovely, little, man, came, to, fix, all, the, computers, he, had, to, use, 3, different, discs, due, to, all, the, different, bugs, had, a, meeting, to, discuss, the, nmr, milk, recording, and, we, have, quite, a, lot, of, farmers, interested, mainly, because, we, have, got, a, good, price, for, nmr, so, fingers, crossed, the, bugs, are, fixed, yipeee, week, beginning, 18th, november, monday, 18th, november, due, to, our, junior, nurse, leaving, i, have, been, interviewing, all, week, we, have, had, a, lot, of, enquiries, i, decided, to, invite, any, possibles, to, come, and, play, for, the, morning, to, see, what, they, thought, and, how, they, got, on, with, the, staff, there, is, one, that, has, potential, and, sounds, very, nice, but, she, can't, make, it, until, next, monday, there, was, one, that, wrote, a, really, good, letter, but, when, she, came, in, well, she, was, sweet, but, not, really, suitable, on, friday, nurse, left, we, had, a, little, party, i, hope, she, copes, okay, she, bought, me, a, lovely, cow, ornament, to, say, thank, you, it, was, lovely, week, beginning, 25th, november, monday, 25th, november, ellen, came, for, her, interview, very, good, she, is, keen, had, experience, happy, with, the, hours, so, she, is, coming, back, tomorrow, afternoon, for, a, play, we, all, went, out, for, our, vet, who, is, leaving, on, friday, to, be, a, chalet, maid, in, a, french, ski, resort, till, april, it, will, be, very, sad, to, see, her, leave, unfortunately, still, no, joy, on, the, new, vet, front, but, we, are, going, to, leave, it, till, the, new, year, and, try, then, other, vet, is, going, to, cover, but, unfortunately, it, means, husband, s, on, duty, more, it's, a, bit, reminiscent, of, fmd, but, we'll, manage, tuesday, wednesday, feeling, very, sorry, for, myself, got, a, bad, cold, i, got, sent, to, my, room, because, everyone, was, fed, up, of, me, sneezing, all, over, them, honestly, i, was, only, shanning, thursday, much, better, today, i, sorted, a, whole, load, of, interherd, data, out, and, had, a, good, play, with, it, heard, about, nestle's, cancelling, contracts, next, year, from, one, of, our, farmers, he, felt, a, little, unsure, quite, how, it, would, affect, them, and, that, they, were, being, dealt, another, kick, in, the, teeth, it's, quite, amazing, how, many, i, have, heard, questioning, why, they, went, back, into, farming, we, are, feeling, the, effects, we, didn't, seem, to, be, called, out, as, often, or, they, don't, want, the, cows, treated, as, its, extra, expense, at, the, end, of, fmd, they, said, over, the, next, couple, of, years, there, would, be, changes, in, the, way, farmers, and, how, many, farmers, worked, it's, frightening, to, see, it, actually, starting, to, happen, and, seeing, the, effects, on, our, business, everyone, agrees, the, whole, industry, has, changed, for, the, worst, and, is, not, the, same, and, there, is, no, pleasure, now, after, all, that, a, total, contrast, me, and, daughter, went, christmas, shopping, and, had, a, lovely, time, we, met, husband, after, surgery, and, went, for, a, pizza, lovely, night, friday, everyone's, talking, about, nestle's, now, and, quite, a, few, are, angry, some, aren't, surprised, and, others, just, seem, to, resign, themselves, to, it, we, had, a, lunch, party, for, leaving, vet, today, it, was, good, we, gave, her, pressies, although, she, has, only, been, here, a, few, months, she, will, be, greatly, missed, by, everyone, you, never, know, she, may, come, back, one, day, good, news, i, offered, ellen, the, nurse's, job, and, she's, accepted, i, think, she, will, do, very, well, week, beginning, 2nd, december, monday, 2nd, december, spent, all, morning, trolling, around, the, countryside, collecting, another, vet, s, milk, samples, for, her, dbr, it, was, a, lovely, morning, chatted, to, a, few, farmers, a, lot, were, still, talking, about, nestles, tuesday, had, a, meeting, to, clarify, the, start, of, the, nmr, milk, recording, gave, her, all, the, information, she, needed, to, set, up, the, herds, it's, great, to, be, able, to, offer, the, farmers, a, good, cheaper, deal, staff, xmas, party, it, was, good, everyone, seemed, to, have, a, good, time, wednesday, day, off, shopping, what, joy, thursday, had, an, interherd, disaster, today, i, couldn't, get, it, load, what, normally, takes, 15, minutes, instead, took, 2, and, a, half, hours, anyway, we, succeeded, eventually, they, have, just, bought, some, in, calf, heifers, so, he, was, keen, to, keep, up, to, date, records, and, information, we, only, have, one, more, farmer, to, restock, now, and, then, that's, everyone, it, will, probably, work, out, at, about, 15, drop, in, work, etc, while, waiting, for, interherd, to, load, they, were, telling, me, that, they, had, been, approached, asking, them, if, they, wanted, to, appeal, against, the, amount, of, money, they, had, received, for, the, cattle, they, said, they, wouldn't, as, they, felt, they, had, already, been, overpaid, not, all, farmers, are, money, grabbers, apparently, friday, daughter, starts, her, mock, exams, now, for, the, next, fortnight, i, have, been, waiting, for, the, moods, to, start, but, as, yet, all, is, quiet, long, may, it, last, she, is, very, calm, about, it, and, has, actually, been, revising, quite, hard, she, has, the, ability, all, she, has, to, do, is, concentrate, work, wise, i've, done, not, a, lot, it's, one, of, the, perks, i've, wandered, around, just, playing, doing, nice, jobs, quite, a, change, week, beginning, 9th, december, monday, 9th, december, daughter, s, 16th, birthday, scary, even, worse, she, can, learn, to, drive, next, year, never, mind, enjoy, the, safety, we, went, out, for, lunch, and, did, some, shopping, it, was, good, i, don’t, normally, like, shopping, but, we, both, enjoyed, it, came, back, to, mayhem, a, client, small, animal, had, been, in, complaining, about, his, bill, and, had, caused, a, stink, anyway, i, phoned, him, and, once, we, had, gone, through, everything, he, seemed, happy, hopefully, he, had, either, misunderstood, or, hadn’t, had, things, explained, to, him, although, difficult, it, is, better, people, say, something, rather, than, stewing, over, it, and, making, it, into, something, it’s, not, the, small, animal, does, seem, to, have, more, problems, that, way, than, the, large, animal, i, suppose, the, large, animal, is, also, a, business, but, it, doesn’t, stop, them, caring, i, don’t, think, they, could, do, what, they, do, and, work, the, hours, they, work, if, they, didn’t, care, sometimes, they, get, a, hard, press, but, i, think, it’s, the, few, that, get, the, publicity, unfortunately, i, like, it, when, farmers, phone, to, say, they, have, a, sick, cow, and, we, ask, what, it’s, doing, and, quite, often, the, reply, is, she’s, just, not, herself, need, you, say, anymore, tuesday, i’m, going, out, to, play, milk, recording, with, a, new, person, via, interherd, he, is, one, of, our, clients, he, is, quite, a, character, old, fashioned, and, yet, in, his, thirties, it, was, good, he, is, very, passionate, about, farming, and, its, survival, he, has, a, lot, of, ideas, he, wants, to, try, with, different, cows, he, has, just, bought, some, jerseys, hence, he, wants, to, record, to, see, if, there, are, benefits, we, milked, 60, cows, in, 2, hours, at, my, other, farm, we, milk, 190, in, that, time, it’s, good, to, see, both, ways, weds, early, morning, milk, recording, good, fun, a, lot, more, relaxed, than, my, other, farm, went, to, hairdressers, straight, after, smelling, of, cows, with, pooh, in, my, hair, it’s, a, good, job, i, know, her, well, and, she, didn’t, complain, too, much, the, rest, of, the, day, was, quite, pleasant, a, bit, of, paperwork, and, a, skive, sorry, can’t, spell, to, the, lab, thursday, friday, wow, i, think, we, had, our, christmas, rush, they, should, all, be, shopping, it, has, been, very, busy, i, do, prefer, it, although, a, sit, down, now, and, then, would, be, good, me, and, nurse, had, a, good, time, on, friday, afternoon, i, helped, her, bath, and, groom, a, dog, it, was, so, naughty, nicely, we, were, both, sweating, buckets, and, soaked, to, the, skin, by, the, end, but, we, had, a, good, laugh, week, beginning, 16th, december, monday, 16th, december, with, daughter, s, mock, exams, she, has, needed, runs, to, and, from, school, at, various, times, so, mum’s, taxi, has, been, on, overtime, she, has, been, very, calm, about, it, so, we, shall, see, thursday, was, eventful, as, i, now, have, an, expectant, nurse, and, vet, watch, where, you, sit, unfortunately, there, is, a, worry, for, both, of, them, our, nurse, evening, receptionist, is, worried, she, may, be, losing, hers, and, has, had, several, tests, and, is, obviously, worried, she, is, going, in, for, a, scan, on, tuesday, so, fingers, crossed, vet, is, also, pregnant, they, have, been, trying, for, a, while, but, has, something, with, a, long, name, wrong, with, her, which, causes, her, to, miscarriage, so, she, is, pleased, worried, excited, scared, and, only, 4, weeks, so, no, lambing, for, her, she, is, quite, happy, continuing, with, all, other, work, for, now, i, hope, everything, is, ok, with, them, both, it, can, be, difficult, working, with, animals, and, being, pregnant, but, as, long, as, they, are, careful, they, should, be, ok, week, beginning, 23rd, december, monday, 23rd, december, so, much, for, getting, quiet, for, christmas, we, have, had, our, busiest, time, for, a, few, years, which, is, good, we, are, going, to, try, advertising, in, the, new, year, for, a, new, vet, especially, now, another, vet, is, expecting, it, will, all, depend, how, she, does, we, may, even, need, two, as, even, when, another, vet, is, on, duty, now, husband, has, to, be, on, standby, in, case, of, any, lambings, we, have, a, couple, of, farmers, starting, anytime, milk, recording, tonight, as, well, but, we, now, do, it, with, nmr, well, not, literally, so, i, only, need, record, once, so, not, too, bad, and, worked, in, will, with, xmas, round, the, corner, and, no, mince, pies, made, yet, tuesday, nurse, phoned, they, are, being, positive, at, the, moment, her, hormone, levels, have, increased, and, she, has, not, bled, anymore, it, doesn’t, stop, them, worrying, though, surgery, was, busy, but, we, did, finish, by, 1.30pm, my, sister, and, niece, arrived, all, set, off, we, go, christmas, was, ace, very, relaxing, good, fun, loads, of, pressies, didn’t, have, time, to, eat, too, busy, playing, and, it, was, so, warm, friday, back, to, work, a, very, busy, day, lots, of, calls, and, surgery, appointments, even, some, operations, receptionist, was, off, so, i, was, in, charge, i, enjoyed, it, finding, out, what, everyone, got, for, christmas, week, beginning, 30th, december, monday, 30th, december, busy, day, only, me, and, receptionist, in, thought, it, would, be, quiet, wrong, never, mind, we, coped, tuesday, nurse, has, lost, her, baby, or, is, losing, it, they, can’t, see, anything, on, the, scan, just, an, empty, sac, so, she, is, going, for, a, don’t, know, what, they, call, it, but, you, can, take, some, tablets, that, clear, everything, away, she, is, obviously, so, upset, what, do, you, say, she’s, going, to, drop, her, other, two, off, while, she, goes, in, it, is, so, sad, thursday, 2nd, january, everybody’s, back, again, full, crew, no, one, knowing, what, day, it, is, i, could, get, used, to, the, split, weeks, but, at, the, moment, i, need, it, stuck, to, my, head, quite, busy, as, well, which, is, good, trying, to, arrange, tt, test, but, farmers, are, never, keen, on, them, you, have, to, threaten, them, with, defra, coming, to, do, it, that, works, friday, went, blood, sampling, sheep, for, scrapie, with, husband, all, day, it, was, a, beautiful, day, very, cold, but, we, had, fun, only, we, were, stood, next, to, a, stream, women, torture, cold, air, and, running, water, i, had, to, nip, back, to, the, van, for, various, things, by, the, time, we, finished, i, was, frozen, the, test, was, part, of, the, national, scrapie, plan, which, is, to, sample, sheep, for, scrapie, so, if, or, when, they, find, bse, in, sheep, these, ones, will, or, should, be, okay, as, there, is, a, plan, to, slaughter, the, national, herd, if, bse, is, found, but, as, the, farmer, said, they, have, already, had, human, g, pigs, for, years, as, the, indians, eat, sheep, brains, and, before, the, removal, of, bone, meal, and, very, dubious, scabby, sheep, and, they, have, not, had, a, problem, so, we, will, wait, and, see, week, beginning, 6th, january, 2003, mon, 6th, january, 2003, our, new, nurse, started, today, she, managed, very, well, and, didn’t, seem, too, confused, when, she, went, home, she, has, worked, in, kennels, before, she, is, very, keen, fingers, crossed, another, vet, is, doing, her, dbr, and, for, part, of, this, she, has, to, do, a, study, she, has, decided, to, look, at, progesterone, and, other, levels, in, cows, post, calving, for, 6, weeks, to, see, what, happens, so, we, collect, a, sample, from, each, new, calved, cow, and, split, it, into, 3, smaller, pots, and, freeze, awaiting, testing, in, holland, very, exciting, but, quite, boring, the, results, should, be, interesting, though, hopefully, tuesday, you, forget, all, the, explaining, you, have, to, do, when, somebody, new, starts, so, me, and, nurse, have, written, a, step, by, step, guide, to, c, well, sort, of, it’s, all, the, little, things, we, haven’t, had, a, new, nurse, for, a, while, so, hopefully, the, book, can, be, used, for, other, new, people, it, took, a, bit, of, doing, but, we, were, pleased, with, it, in, the, end, i, spoke, to, mr, g, re, having, interherd, at, the, farm, all, i, have, to, do, now, is, get, round, to, see, him, he, is, very, hard, to, pin, down, but, we’ll, try, weds, new, nurse, liked, her, new, book, she, is, doing, very, well, and, it’s, nice, for, us, too, i, always, find, it, quite, refreshing, when, someone, is, genuinely, enthusiastic, with, us, all, being, close, and, having, their, own, areas, it’s, good, to, show, someone, else, but, can, be, scary, when, you, see, just, how, much, they, all, do, thursday, milk, pot, day, again, today, the, good, thing, is, going, to, pick, up, the, samples, as, you, get, a, natter, so, monday, and, thursday, the, samples, are, collected, split, and, frozen, it’s, quite, time, consuming, and, i’ve, just, realised, i, didn’t, ask, another, vet, how, long, she, was, doing, it, for, friday, we, have, decided, to, try, and, get, the, accounts, up, to, date, to, see, how, things, are, going, bar, not, being, able, to, find, a, vet, so, it’s, one, of, those, jobs, you, always, mean, to, keep, on, top, of, but, never, quite, manage, because, it’s, not, much, fun, interruptions, queries, and, assistance, were, very, welcome, but, i, got, a, good, start, week, beginning, 13th, january, monday, 13th, jan, a, has, started, working, with, us, again, just, two, days, a, week, this, will, help, a, lot, and, help, take, the, pressure, off, for, surgery, times, etc, i, got, to, spend, the, day, helping, with, tt, testing, it, was, good, fun, and, it, stayed, fine, it, was, a, good, day, tuesday, i, had, a, milk, recording, day, today, 3, in, total, we, have, started, using, nmr, now, so, it, was, all, new, paperwork, etc, this, is, going, to, be, cheaper, for, the, farmers, and, works, with, the, interherd, programme, anyway, it, all, went, well, and, everybody’s, samples, got, away, weds, milk, recorded, again, at, one, of, the, three, farms, first, thing, everytime, i, go, he, has, a, new, plan, as, to, how, to, make, some, money, this, month, it, is, he, is, going, to, produce, a, new, breed, of, cow, a, jersey, x, mri, so, we, will, see, how, that, goes, thursday, and, friday, just, catching, up, on, paperwork, me, and, nurse, did, some, training, with, the, new, nurse, she, is, settling, in, really, well, and, very, keen, week, beginning, 20th, january, monday, 20th, january, weds, decorated, our, bedroom, it, looks, brill, it, was, in, desperate, need, of, it, i, like, decorating, it’s, good, and, messy, thursday, i, went, on, my, brucellosis, testing, training, course, at, the, vlc, it, was, good, fun, this, means, that, after, i, have, now, tested, 150, cattle, i, get, a, licence, which, will, enable, me, to, blood, test, this, in, turn, will, hopefully, free, up, a, vet, it, will, also, give, defra, a, bank, of, blood, tester, for, any, future, outbreak, crafty, they, used, to, charge, about, 800, for, this, course, miraculously, it’s, now, free, clever, friday, we, have, had, a, reply, to, our, advert, hoorah, well, actually, two, they, are, both, foreign, one, is, in, germany, and, the, other, s, africa, so, we, are, waiting, for, their, cvs, fingers, crossed, defra, have, now, changed, the, 20, day, standstill, to, 6, days, the, general, opinion, seemed, to, be, so, it, would, be, interesting, to, actually, find, out, if, and, how, well, all, the, regulations, are, actually, working, not, well, i, feel, would, be, the, answer, week, beginning, 27th, january, mon, weds, very, busy, i, seem, to, have, spent, a, lot, of, it, in, my, car, dropping, off, tooing, and, froing, which, was, nice, but, i, do, lose, touch, with, the, happenings, at, the, surgery, and, on, tuesday, things, had, obviously, got, fraught, so, i, sorted, those, out, and, smoothed, the, creases, we, are, very, lucky, to, have, such, dedicated, staff, due, to, vet, shortage, and, another, vet, s, pregnancy, it, does, add, extra, pressure, to, everyone, none, of, the, incidents, were, very, serious, and, easily, sorted, thursday, i, went, with, my, sister, to, take, niece, to, the, hospital, as, since, she, was, born, she, has, had, a, lump, on, the, side, of, her, head, above, her, eye, so, they, xrayed, it, that, was, fun, persuading, her, to, lie, still, i, stayed, overnight, and, came, back, friday, week, beginning, 3rd, february, monday, 3rd, feb, i, did, my, first, blood, sample, on, a, live, cow, today, as, it, was, an, abortion, enquiry, and, due, to, another, vet, s, pregnancy, she, is, not, doing, them, ad, i, need, the, practice, it, was, good, fun, and, i, hit, the, 2nd, time, so, i, was, very, pleased, only, another, 145, to, go, before, i, get, my, licence, tuesday, i, completed, the, accounts, today, to, go, to, the, accountants, it, was, great, fun, i, hope, they, come, up, with, good, news, but, the, future, is, worrying, a, backlash, from, the, farmers, not, being, confident, weds, i, can’t, remember, if, i, told, you, vet, was, expecting, anyway, she, went, for, her, first, scan, today, and, so, far, so, good, it, is, very, worrying, as, she, has, a, problem, where, she, produces, duff, eggs, and, miscarriages, she, wants, to, carry, on, as, normal, as, possible, for, now, but, no, sheep, or, abortions, etc, i, hop, it, works, this, time, as, this, is, her, 4th, attempt, thursday, and, friday, very, nice, everything, worked, well, no, mad, rushes, time, to, catch, up, we, discussed, reducing, some, of, the, farm, drugs, as, they, are, able, to, buy, the, over, the, internet, with, a, prescription, all, the, laws, and, rules, will, more, than, likely, be, changing, at, the, beginning, of, march, due, to, a, report, done, for, the, govt, regarding, drugs, and, animal, use, it, will, make, a, difference, to, how, we, operate, as, if, they, remove, the, vet, surgeon’s, right, to, prescribe, drugs, i.e, vets, can, only, write, prescriptions, and, not, dispense, drugs, it, could, alter, things, completely, one, way, or, another, if, farmers, require, the, service, they, are, going, to, have, to, pay, for, it, up, to, now, it, has, always, been, that, a, reasonable, mark, up, is, put, on, the, drugs, this, is, normally, 50, and, this, will, keep, professional, fees, down, if, vets, are, not, getting, the, money, made, on, drugs, and, therefore, has, to, put, his, fees, up, although, the, farmer, may, be, buying, his, drugs, cheaper, via, the, internet, will, he, actually, save, that, much, i, wonder, so, anyway, we, have, been, getting, more, and, more, pressure, from, a, number, of, our, farmers, to, compete, with, the, internet, prices, so, we, have, selected, a, few, products, and, it, they, pay, at, the, time, they, can, get, about, 20, off, the, price, so, watch, this, space, and, we, will, see, what, happens, week, beginning, 10th, february, monday, 10th, feb, the, week, to, sum, up, a, blur, with, both, sad, and, very, funny, memories, to, start, receptionist, was, on, holiday, and, it, always, seems, to, happen, as, soon, as, someone, is, off, we, get, very, very, busy, when, everyone, is, in, it, ticks, along, nicely, mostly, i, do, enjoy, it, when, it’s, busy, but, we, worked, 3, 13, hour, days, not, food, but, everyone, worked, really, hard, they, are, excellent, staff, on, a, sad, note, vet, went, for, her, 11, week, scan, on, tuesday, and, the, baby, had, died, she, was, distraught, she, has, a, condition, that, causes, this, and, this, was, her, 4th, miscarriage, it’s, so, sad, i, called, to, see, her, and, she, just, hugged, me, and, cried, what, do, you, say, she, had, to, have, some, tablets, to, clear, away, the, placenta, etc, she, was, gutted, as, this, is, the, longest, she, had, ever, been, pregnant, and, she, thought, she’s, cracked, it, it’s, just, so, sad, my, funny, tale, for, the, week, on, a, completely, different, note, but, helped, immensely, was, other, vet, on, thursday, we, were, all, very, very, busy, and, a, farmer, called, in, i, was, very, behind, they, still, had, ops, to, do, and, this, farmer, settled, herself, down, for, a, big, chat, normally, if, i, say, i, have, a, lot, on, she, departs, but, no, not, today, it, was, obviously, my, turn, vet, came, over, from, the, op, room, and, i, know, it, was, naughty, but, i, wrote, on, a, card, can, i, have, some, help, i.e, to, free, myself, well, instead, of, reading, the, note, quietly, oh, no, she, read, it, out, at, the, top, of, her, voice, and, added, what, do, you, need, help, for, after, i, had, crawled, out, of, the, hole, that, had, opened, up, in, the, earth, to, swallow, me, i, pointed, to, the, message, book, to, try, and, hide, my, predicament, while, she, said, again, loudly, so, what, do, you, want, help, for, well, i, gave, up, and, decided, to, just, fall, into, the, hole, got, rid, of, vet, back, to, the, op, room, and, continued, alone, with, my, predicament, after, the, farmer, had, gone, who, thankfully, seemed, oblivious, to, what, had, happened, i, went, in, search, of, vet, to, kill, her, anyway, it, cheered, us, all, up, they, do, say, laughter, is, the, best, medicine, but, i, can, think, of, better, ways, week, beginning, 17th, february, monday, 17th, feb, vet, who, lost, baby, came, back, to, work, she, is, very, upset, and, weepy, everyone, has, been, lovely, with, her, hopefully, it, is, just, time, and, tlc, we, are, very, busy, again, and, have, had, an, enquiry, from, a, farmer, who, is, thinking, of, changing, vets, which, is, really, good, news, that, is, three, new, farmers, in, total, now, if, only, we, had, enough, vets, four, practices, around, carlisle, have, advertised, recently, and, none, of, the, positions, have, been, filled, it’s, quite, worrying, tuesday, i, took, vet, who, lost, baby, home, again, today, she, is, not, well, and, in, a, lot, of, pain, so, she’s, gone, back, to, bed, i, hope, she’s, feeling, better, soon, usual, day, otherwise, weds, vet, is, a, lot, better, today, apparently, they, think, it, may, be, the, cocodamol, she, was, taking, she, was, a, lot, happier, a, little, drained, but, ok, mr, w, came, in, today, his, cows, are, arriving, on, friday, hopefully, this, will, be, our, last, farm, to, restock, he, has, had, a, lot, of, alterations, done, to, the, farm, and, a, new, parlour, so, it’s, quite, exciting, thursday, we, did, some, sheep, exports, for, slaughter, from, longtown, today, the, first, of, that, sort, of, thing, since, fmd, it, was, of, course, a, bit, of, a, faf, as, they, now, have, to, be, retagged, and, checked, so, it, takes, a, little, longer, in, the, afternoon, i, had, a, meeting, with, sr, from, university, of, reading, she, is, planning, to, do, research, regarding, the, interherd, programme, and, she, had, picked, 3, vet, practices, to, see, how, the, programme, helps, the, vets, and, the, farmers, work, better, together, and, the, improvements, it, makes, to, the, farmers, record, keeping, so, she, is, going, to, meet, 3, of, our, farmers, who, use, interherd, and, interview, them, and, give, them, free, training, so, that, should, please, them, fri, day, off, me, and, daughter, went, to, newcastle, shopping, i’m, not, a, good, shopper, but, i, did, behave, and, we, had, a, good, day, mr, w’s, cows, arrived, all, fit, and, healthy, so, that, is, us, complete, now, ass, we, were, if, not, better, sad, news, though, we, heard, one, of, our, farmers, dropped, down, dead, suddenly, it, was, very, sad, as, we, had, seen, him, in, the, morning, and, he, was, his, normal, self, so, it, was, quite, a, shock, his, family, must, be, devastated, mind, if, there’s, a, good, way, to, go, that’s, it, week, beginning, 24th, february, monday, 24th, feb, another, vet, a, lot, better, today, almost, back, to, her, normal, cheery, self, she, is, a, lot, more, positive, we, took, the, bull, by, the, horns, so, to, speak, and, reduced, the, prices, of, some, drugs, we, will, have, to, wait, until, the, 10th, march, before, we, find, out, what, the, government, is, going, to, do, regarding, the, selling, of, drugs, but, the, farmers, are, very, pleased, tuesday, i, got, another, phone, call, from, mr, c, and, he, said, he, would, like, to, change, vets, to, us, so, good, news, husband, spoke, to, his, old, vet, and, explained, why, etc, it, is, very, difficult, and, i, think, that, in, the, future, there, may, be, more, changing, of, vets, where, as, in, the, past, it, never, happened, but, even, farmers, appreciate, competition, now, it, again, is, worrying, milk, recorded, at, mr, g, tonight, it’s, always, good, crack, as, they, say, weds, milk, recorded, early, morning, and, then, showed, them, the, interherd, programme, they, are, going, to, try, it, i, think, in, the, afternoon, i, went, with, other, vet, to, vet, a, horse, for, purchase, it, can, be, tricky, sometimes, and, two, pairs, of, eyes, are, better, than, one, as, it, turned, out, the, horse, was, lame, so, we, couldn’t, vet, it, so, we, will, have, to, go, back, another, day, thursday, normal, day, did, some, more, sheep, exports, in, the, afternoon, they, have, a, very, efficient, system, at, longtown, so, it, makes, it, a, lot, easier, fri, i, went, to, farmer, s, funeral, this, morning, it, was, very, sad, i, don’t, like, funerals, well, i, don’t, suppose, anyone, does, but, it, stayed, fine, and, he, had, a, good, send, off, in, the, afternoon, i, got, an, opportunity, to, do, some, more, blood, sampling, just, 15, so, it, was, good, it’s, getting, used, to, handling, everything, and, forgetting, you’re, at, the, end, that, shits, and, kicks, no, broken, limbs, and, i, got, blood, week, beginning, 3rd, march, mon, 3rd, march, i, went, to, help, a, tt, test, in, the, morning, just, taking, numbers, we, now, have, 4, farms, on, restrictions, due, to, tb, reactors, but, up, to, now, on, the, cows, taken, for, further, tests, no, lesions, have, been, fund, we, now, get, to, do, the, repeat, 60, day, test, on, the, farms, now, as, defra, can’t, keep, up, sounds, familiar, we, saw, the, accountant, in, the, afternoon, we, had, sent, 9, months, of, accounts, to, him, as, we, need, to, see, how, the, practice, was, now, doing, anyway, it, was, not, as, bad, as, we, thought, but, the, income, is, down, but, is, slowly, growing, the, main, problem, is, farmers, won’t, call, out, for, sick, cows, now, they, will, leave, it, longer, or, try, to, treat, them, themselves, mainly, due, to, them, watching, their, spending, mr, w, had, a, problem, with, his, interherd, he, needed, to, run, his, extensification, figures, and, they, didn’t, add, up, so, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, trying, to, figure, out, why, i, think, i, know, why, it, was, how, he, set, it, up, initially, so, it, may, need, his, entry, dates, changed, tues, went, tt, testing, again, this, morning, it, was, a, lovely, morning, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, sorting, mr, w’s, problem, out, and, it, worked, he, was, chuffed, the, good, is, i, think, i, now, understand, extensifications, weds, caught, up, on, some, paperwork, in, the, morning, i, helped, new, nurse, with, a, dog, grooming, in, the, afternoon, which, was, fun, she, is, doing, really, well, and, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, we, both, ended, up, soaked, thanks, to, the, dog, but, it, looked, loads, better, when, it, went, home, good, news, we, get, a, new, vet, from, south, africa, starting, 1.4.03, he, worked, over, here, during, fmd, and, met, someone, and, their, relationship, has, lasted, hence, he, wants, a, job, in, carlisle, so, bingo, here, comes, a, holiday, thursday, friday, very, busy, in, the, practice, everyone, kept, going, we, have, a, great, team, and, they, really, come, into, their, own, when, it’s, busy, i, love, the, way, everyone, pulls, together, they, are, very, dedicated, week, beginning, 10th, march, monday, quiet, day, for, a, monday, but, the, weather, has, been, nice, so, they, are, all, out, playing, but, we, had, quite, a, few, lambings, to, do, that’s, one, thing, that, has, changed, since, fmd, prior, to, fmd, we, hardly, used, to, do, any, lambings, for, farmers, but, since, we, now, do, far, more, last, year, we, put, it, down, to, them, having, new, stock, but, it, seems, to, be, the, same, this, year, tuesday, today, is, milk, recording, day, i, have, 3, recordings, today, they, all, need, boxes, and, paperwork, i, don’t, have, to, help, at, any, of, the, milkings, though, which, is, good, as, they, are, quite, a, way, from, each, other, but, a, nice, day, for, a, drive, weds, thurs, fri, the, end, of, our, weeks, seem, to, be, busier, than, the, beginnings, at, the, moment, it, has, been, non, stop, one, disadvantage, when, it, is, so, busy, is, you, don’t, have, the, time, to, chat, as, often, i, took, some, drugs, to, a, farm, our, last, one, to, restock, as, he, was, having, alterations, done, it, was, amazing, to, see, the, transformations, he, had, made, to, the, farm, all, geared, to, one, person, being, able, to, do, more, alone, with, more, cows, interesting, week, beginning, 17th, march, mon, tuesday, i, went, with, another, vet, to, mr, c’s, for, his, tt, and, blood, test, another, vet, did, the, tt, and, i, did, the, blood, as, part, of, my, lay, blood, tester’s, licence, i, needed, to, do, 150, which, i, managed, it, was, good, fun, and, the, weather, was, great, we, had, to, spread, it, over, 2, days, due, to, the, amount, of, cattle, it, was, really, good, practice, for, me, and, i, think, i’ve, cracked, it, now, there, are, talks, about, giving, tt, testing, to, lay, people, but, quite, how, and, when, is, anyone’s, guess, weds, more, blood, testing, today, i’ve, really, cracked, it, now, only, i’ve, discovered, muscles, in, my, arms, i, didn’t, know, i, had, i, enjoy, the, blood, testing, sad, isn’t, it, thursday, i, had, a, morning, with, alco, waste, management, sorting, out, all, the, clinical, waste, regulations, and, they, need, more, detail, of, what, actually, goes, in, our, waste, we, always, provided, a, free, service, to, farmers, for, disposing, of, sharps, and, old, drug, and, empty, drugs, etc, but, we, are, going, to, have, to, start, charging, now, it, is, now, 100, dearer, a, month, than, it, was, fri, me, and, husband, spent, the, morning, looking, at, fees, income, etc, and, seeing, where, we, can, increase, fees, to, help, cover, if, we, lose, the, right, to, dispense, drugs, to, farmers, which, we, still, haven’t, heard, about, to, continue, as, we, are, we, will, have, to, make, the, difference, up, it’s, just, how, week, beginning, 24th, march, monday, doing, the, paperwork, for, a, tt, test, it, was, a, beautiful, day, i, do, enjoy, doing, this, especially, when, the, weather’s, good, and, they, are, very, nice, farmers, i, also, get, to, spend, the, day, with, husband, which, makes, a, change, although, we, work, together, we, don’t, often, get, to, see, much, of, each, other, tuesday, busy, day, spent, most, of, it, making, sure, everything, got, done, and, helping, out, weds, i, went, to, the, careers, convention, at, the, sands, centre, it, was, very, busy, and, we, had, a, lot, of, interest, but, a, long, day, before, going, someone, phoned, to, say, there, was, a, collie, dog, running, around, on, the, roundabout, so, me, and, new, nurse, went, to, see, if, we, could, catch, it, well, it, didn’t, want, caught, but, i, was, really, worried, it, got, onto, the, motorway, so, we, phoned, the, police, and, the, dog, warden, who, incidentally, couldn’t, come, until, 9am, as, he, didn’t, start, til, then, so, i, had, to, politely, explain, that, he, would, have, to, be, the, police, dog, handler, wasn’t, much, help, but, at, least, he, stopped, the, traffic, bless, him, the, dog, warden, did, appear, 5, minutes, later, and, it, was, only, 8.30, am, so, we, managed, to, get, the, dog, off, the, roundabout, and, catch, it, everyone, safe, thankfully, thurs, fri, busy, days, new, vet, from, south, africa, phoned, so, he’s, coming, to, see, us, on, monday, to, pick, up, his, vehicle, and, meet, everyone, he, sounds, pleasant, so, we, will, see, my, joke, at, the, moment, when, people, ask, where, we, found, him, is, that, we, got, him, off, the, internet, it, is, a, little, worrying, not, having, met, him, first, but, it, should, work, watch, this, space, week, beginning, 31st, march, monday, we, have, had, l, staying, for, two, weeks, she’s, a, vet, student, from, london, and, stayed, with, us, about, this, tine, last, year, it, was, interesting, to, go, over, the, changes, from, a, year, ago, last, time, she, was, here, people, were, restocking, and, there, was, an, element, of, wariness, so, it, was, interesting, to, fill, her, in, on, how, things, are, now, one, thing, she, mentioned, was, noticing, the, stock, in, the, fields, was, nice, as, there, were, only, a, few, still, last, year, talking, over, things, is, still, hard, sometimes, although, it, seems, a, long, time, ago, the, feelings, and, emotions, are, still, deep, certain, parts, can, still, hit, a, raw, nerve, there, seems, to, be, a, mere, anger, at, the, moment, generally, people, and, farmers, are, wanting, to, know, why, they, still, have, restrictions, what, is, going, to, happen, about, shows, and, sales, etc, and, will, normality, ever, return, unfortunately, i, think, not, not, in, the, way, they, want, it, to, tuesday, our, new, vet, started, today, we, got, on, very, well, it, has, taken, us, so, long, to, find, a, vet, and, if, the, work, and, testing, carries, on, increasing, we, are, going, to, need, another, one, wednesday, very, busy, day, husband, s, gone, to, talk, at, a, bcva, conference, and, agm, so, poor, new, vet, has, been, thrown, in, at, the, deep, end, it, has, been, very, busy, but, he, seems, to, be, coping, well, the, clients, were, very, impressed, so, far, so, long, may, it, last, it, is, good, to, have, new, staff, with, new, ideas, i, quite, enjoy, it, and, he, is, definitely, a, big, hit, with, the, female, clients, it, really, does, make, you, embarrassed, to, be, female, when, they, go, into, the, consulting, room, you, count, to, 4, and, then, comes, the, girlie, giggle, quite, funny, thursday, sad, day, today, my, sister, had, been, confirmed, as, having, cervical, cancer, no, more, on, that, for, now, friday, had, another, interherd, sale, today, one, thing, fmd, has, forced, on, farmers, is, the, need, for, efficient, records, and, interherd, is, brilliant, at, that, it’s, so, clever, one, of, our, farmers, who, has, had, it, for, a, while, and, has, 120, milking, cows, now, does, all, his, daily, records, in, 5, 10, minutes, can’t, be, bad, week, beginning, 7th, april, monday, busy, day, new, vet, is, settling, in, really, well, and, coping, fine, if, we, carry, on, at, this, rate, we, will, need, another, vet, a, lot, of, it, depends, on, how, much, more, testing, we, are, going, to, get, and, what, happens, with, commission, report, into, dispensing, drugs, tuesday, sr, came, today, from, uni, of, reading, who, own, the, interherd, program, we, went, round, some, of, the, farmers, that, used, it, and, helped, sort, out, any, queries, it, was, a, good, day, i, learnt, a, lot, and, the, farmers, found, it, useful, too, she, said, she, would, come, again, later, in, the, year, so, i, think, we, might, try, and, organise, for, them, all, to, come, to, the, practise, for, a, chat, wednesday, did, some, interherd, training, with, one, of, the, farmers, wives, we, said, just, an, hour, as, she, wasn’t, fully, computer, literate, anyway, 4, hours, later, she, had, well, and, truly, got, the, hang, of, it, she, was, very, keen, and, i, really, enjoyed, it, thursday, friday, they, blur, into, one, as, it, has, been, so, busy, everyone, has, been, flat, out, we, are, going, to, start, the, vet, advertising, again, and, another, nurse, receptionist, week, beginning, 14th, april, monday, got, caught, up, today, sorted, out, all, the, queries, quite, pleased, with, my, self, tuesday, went, to, a, local, nursery, to, talk, about, vets, to, 3, year, olds, i, was, quite, dreading, it, but, thankfully, it, was, great, they, were, really, good, i, took, some, dressing, up, clothes, and, x, ray, instruments, and, teddy, bears, and, they, operated, and, had, a, really, good, time, one, of, them, asked, me, if, all, the, cows, and, sheep, were, better, and, did, they, still, have, funny, feet, and, mouths, week, beginning, 21st, april, tuesday, wednesday, quite, busy, days, and, a, lot, to, catch, up, on, we, all, went, away, with, sister, and, niece, this, weekend, to, husband, s, mum, and, dads, caravan, we, had, a, great, time, sister, s, biopsy, off, rest, of, week, week, beginning, 28th, april, monday, three, farmers, milk, recording, today, and, tomorrow, so, busy, dropping, pets, and, paperwork, off, advertised, for, a, vet, today, fingers, crossed, off, for, two, weeks, helping, sister, to, move, interviewed, a, nurse, receptionist, she, is, perfect, and, experienced, she, wrote, a, letter, in, as, her, husbands, job, had, brought, them, to, the, area, so, she, starts, 12th, may, i, wish, it, was, as, easy, finding, a, vet, week, beginning, 12th, may, monday, our, new, girlie, started, today, she, is, very, keen, and, capable, she, has, done, really, well, even, with, the, computer, system, that, she, was, dreading, tuesday, busy, day, also, 2x, milk, recordings, so, a, bit, of, hollering, about, i, was, thinking, it, is, about, a, year, we, have, had, now, of, normal, work, everyone, new, appears, to, be, getting, on, with, it, as, the, saying, goes, everyone, bears, a, scar, and, has, a, story, to, tell, and, realise, it, is, not, the, same, but, how, could, it, be, weds, fri, quite, busy, but, capable, at, work, daughter, got, the, job, for, the, training, in, her, m, apprentice, course, so, she, is, over, the, moon, it’s, all, a, new, learning, curve, you, suddenly, realise, she, is, growing, up, getting, a, job, and, leaving, school, unfortunately, this, morning, daughter, has, decided, she, doesn’t, want, to, leave, full, time, education, yet, and, is, worried, about, the, job, she, is, wanting, to, do, a, business, course, at, a, college, so, all, change, again, we, have, had, bid, discussions, and, are, going, to, go, down, to, connexions, next, week, sat, yf, young, farmers, field, day, today, i, love, these, days, it, is, amazing, the, effort, and, enjoyment, that, makes, it, such, a, good, day, there, is, also, such, a, high, standard, in, all, the, classes, i, admire, the, enthusiasm, of, the, young, farmers, and, just, hope, they, can, survive, somehow, week, beginning, 19th, may, monday, we, have, found, the, course, daughter, wants, to, do, at, college, thanks, to, connexions, the, bad, news, is, it, is, not, done, locally, she, could, do, a, local, course, but, it, would, be, wasted, time, to, some, extent, big, discussions, most, of, the, week, we, have, found, they, do, the, course, in, blackburn, and, preston, my, sister, and, mum, live, down, there, and, are, more, than, happy, for, her, to, move, in, i, just, don’t, know, if, i, am, ready, to, let, her, go, but, i’ll, have, to, be, a, big, girl, about, it, we, have, sent, application, forms, off, so, will, have, to, wait, and, see, now, and, try, and, get, used, to, it, weds, really, good, evening, at, penrith, re, the, discussion, it, was, so, good, to, talk, to, the, other, diarists, and, realise, and, be, able, to, relate, so, closely, to, what, they, said, it, was, poignant, to, see, what, other, people, had, written, and, interesting, to, see, what, you, had, done, so, far, with, the, data, collected, it, would, be, brilliant, to, hand, to, any, future, study, or, enquiry, as, it, is, proof, surely, not, all, these, people, could, be, wrong, and, to, have, so, many, diarists, start, and, finish, is, amazing, i’m, sure, it, can, be, used, for, so, many, different, topics, amazing, i, am, personally, very, proud, to, have, been, a, part, of, it, and, although, sometimes, i, have, wondered, if, what, i, was, writing, was, any, use, i, can, see, now, how, it, comes, together, than, you, all, for, the, opportunity, shame, not, in, better, circumstances, it, has, helped, me, more, than, i, originally, realised, but, thinking, back, it, was, all, unbelievable, and, not, something, i, would, like, to, repeat, i, am, ever, the, optimist, or, so, i’m, told, and, do, believe, or, hope, things, and, farming, can, recover, not, fully, but, enough, to, be, able, to, show, other, people, what, a, wonderful, life, it, is, hard, but, special, week, beginning, 26th, may, never, stopped, on, tuesday, after, bank, holiday, so, busy, new, vet, is, settling, in, now, but, his, girlfriend, can’t, find, a, job, so, that’s, a, bit, worrying, he, may, leave, sooner, than, expected, oh, no, not, advertising, again, the, rest, of, the, week, was, uneventful, really, ticked, along, nicely, we, met, up, with, some, friends, on, wednesday, evening, who, holiday, in, the, lakes, each, year, so, it, was, nice, to, see, them, again, we, had, a, good, evening, we, were, also, out, on, thursday, night, with, a, drug, rep, very, nice, meal, and, they, have, offered, to, pay, for, husband, bri, catt, vet, ass, meeting, in, amsterdam, in, october, so, that, was, very, nice, business, link, have, also, offered, to, help, us, get, a, consultant, in, to, see, if, they, have, any, ideas, for, improving, maybe, they, can, find, vets, too, all, in, all, quite, an, exciting, week, week, beginning, 2nd, june, the, exams, have, started, everyone, warns, to, beware, but, daughter, is, very, laid, back, about, it, all, too, much, i, feel, but, as, long, as, she, does, her, best, i, went, to, the, accountants, to, look, at, the, books, for, the, end, of, year, so, far, not, quite, finished, yet, and, thankfully, we, won’t, be, needing, income, support, this, year, it, is, so, much, better, more, regulation, but, nothing, we, can’t, cope, with, honest, week, beginning, 9th, june, daughter, had, an, interview, at, blackburn, college, it, wasn’t, a, very, nice, place, but, then, i’m, not, going, preston, is, on, the, 25th, so, she, will, decide, after, that, niece, had, her, c.t, scan, for, her, head, that, was, eventful, and, lisa, and, her, naughty, jelly, babies, zapped, all, went, well, but, she, was, a, bit, sore, after, week, beginning, 23rd, june, monday, went, tt, testing, with, another, vet, today, it, was, a, retest, due, to, them, having, a, reactor, it, was, a, good, day, they, are, nice, people, there, is, a, father, and, 2, sons, during, fmd, i, had, a, phone, call, one, night, and, this, was, just, someone, crying, on, the, end, of, it, i, didn’t, know, what, to, say, and, i, wasn’t, sure, who, it, was, but, i, just, spoke, about, mainly, silly, things, i, can’t, really, remember, what, but, didn’t, get, much, of, a, response, just, yes, and, no’s, and, i, thought, i, recognised, the, voice, as, being, the, father, we, were, with, today, anyway, during, lunch, which, we, had, at, the, farm, we, were, chatting, and, of, course, got, into, fmd, and, he, thanked, me, it, took, aback, but, he, said, he, had, appreciated, me, waffling, on, it, was, the, night, of, the, day, his, cows, had, been, shot, and, he, had, phoned, to, let, us, know, but, he, said, he, just, broke, down, and, couldn’t, say, anything, anyway, he, laughed, because, he, said, he, was, going, to, hang, up, but, he, couldn’t, get, word, in, edgeways, because, i, was, wittering, but, he, said, he, did, feel, a, bit, better, after, so, we, had, a, good, heart, to, heart, tuesday, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, and, sorted, some, bits, and, pieces, out, weds, took, daughter, to, preston, college, for, an, interview, it, was, good, and, seems, a, nice, place, i, can’t, believe, she, will, be, leaving, home, at, the, end, of, august, very, scary, i’m, really, going, to, have, to, be, a, big, girl, about, it, thursday, we, went, to, visit, business, link, to, discuss, some, more, things, and, they, are, hopefully, going, to, help, us, pay, a, firm, of, consultants, to, help, us, out, to, see, how, we, can, improve, and, move, the, practice, on, so, that’s, exciting, fri, went, milk, recording, first, thing, so, that, was, good, fun, after, recording, i, had, to, collect, one, of, our, elderly, clients, and, her, dog, that, was, coming, for, an, operation, the, lady, is, 92, and, her, and, the, dog, are, very, close, so, she, wanted, to, stay, with, her, until, she, was, sedated, so, she, was, pleased, she, could, come, with, her, the, girls, all, laugh, at, me, because, i, have, quite, a, few, little, old, ladies, who, we, visit, and, keep, a, check, on, their, pets, week, beginning, 30th, june, not, a, lot, of, excitement, at, all, this, week, we, have, been, kept, going, and, i, caught, up, on, paperwork, we, are, going, to, my, sister’s, this, week, end, to, start, sorting, her, spare, bedroom, for, daughter, week, beginning, 7th, july, mon, spent, the, morning, explaining, to, our, newest, girlie, about, interherd, and, how, to, work, it, this, will, enable, her, to, help, me, on, the, data, entry, side, we, also, had, a, little, trip, out, around, some, of, the, farms, that, record, with, us, to, give, her, an, idea, of, where, they, are, tuesday, went, exporting, sheep, today, they, all, had, to, be, retagged, it, was, quite, warm, not, much, fun, i’ll, maybe, get, new, girl, to, do, exporting, weds, 2, milk, recordings, today, so, quite, busy, with, bottles, and, sheets, and, things, and, they, are, both, in, the, opposite, direction, to, each, other, never, mind, it, was, a, nice, day, for, driving, about, thursday, we, have, got, a, new, vet, to, replace, vet, from, sa, she, seems, very, lovely, she, is, going, to, start, on, 4.08.03, we, used, an, agency, and, it, has, proved, worthwhile, we, worked, out, that, rather, than, paying, for, endless, adverts, we, would, give, it, a, go, and, it, seems, to, have, worked, so, that’s, exciting, fri, we, went, car, hunting, today, as, if, we, all, go, out, at, the, week, end, it, becomes, a, bit, crushed, and, sometimes, we, end, up, taking, two, vehicles, so, we, have, really, splashed, out, rightly, or, wrongly, and, bought, a, new, crv, truck, it’s, very, posh, so, we, get, that, on, 21.07.03, week, beginning, 14th, july, monday, person, from, the, interherd, office, came, up, to, see, us, and, we, visited, a, few, of, our, farmers, that, are, on, interherd, between, them, and, nmr, they, have, really, tried, with, providing, quality, and, cost, effective, equipment, that, is, helpful, to, the, farmers, you, can, now, use, interherd, in, some, milking, parlours, which, is, really, useful, tues, we, went, to, see, a, horse, with, a, cough, and, after, treating, the, pony, we, were, chatting, and, they, have, converted, a, small, barn, into, a, camping, hostel, their, farm, is, along, hadrian’s, wall, and, since, having, foot, and, mouth, and, doing, the, barn, up, they, have, nearly, covered, their, costs, they, still, have, a, few, stock, but, not, as, many, mr, i, was, saying, how, his, father, used, to, milk, about, 25, cows, and, be, able, to, make, a, good, living, from, that, it’s, amazing, the, difference, weds, we, got, a, new, payroll, package, today, so, i, spent, most, of, my, day, trying, to, understand, it, i, was, very, bog, eyed, by, the, end, but, i, think, i, understand, it, and, it, seems, to, work, well, and, should, be, a, lot, easier, and, quicker, thursday, busy, day, there, were, lots, of, ops, and, farm, calls, a, couple, of, farmers, have, been, asking, about, prescriptions, as, soon, they, will, be, able, to, get, their, drugs, from, anywhere, a, lot, have, said, they, appreciate, they, have, to, pay, for, the, service, one, way, or, another, and, are, happy, to, carry, on, as, they, have, been, doing, we, will, lose, money, to, some, extent, but, how, much, remains, to, be, seen, and, we, will, have, to, cope, friday, off, went, to, see, westlife, with, daughter]
## 4 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1963, gender, m, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, saturday, 9th, march, 2002, an, old, african, proverb, states, the, best, time, to, plant, a, tree, was, 20, years, ago, the, next, best, time, is, now, i, should, have, started, this, diary, over, a, year, ago, to, keep, track, of, changes, in, the, unrolling, of, the, fmd, epidemic, and, my, feelings, towards, it, today, is, probably, a, good, day, to, start, the, diary, as, i, was, about, to, sit, down, after, a, really, bad, week, to, write, some, comments, for, the, lessons, learned, inquiry, and, thought, i, should, check, the, web, site, for, an, update, i, found, out, to, my, considerable, annoyance, that, the, inquiry, was, coming, to, cumbria, to, meet, with, defra, and, hold, the, open, meeting, on, tuesday, night, and, if, you, wanted, a, ticket, to, attend, then, you, had, to, apply, by, a, week, ago, the, overall, impression, is, that, the, govt, do, not, want, to, learn, lessons, i, was, looking, after, kids, as, wife, was, on, counselling, course, and, i, was, on, call, sat, morn, the, vets, were, busy, so, i, ended, up, taking, children, into, vets, with, me, they, watched, videos, in, the, waiting, room, while, i, sorted, out, and, consulted, coming, down, with, cold, after, spending, friday, tb, testing, on, restocking, farm, but, at, least, i, managed, to, avoid, getting, kicked, and, crushed, the, farm, hand, who, is, one, of, the, hard, lads, of, wigton, refused, to, get, in, with, the, fat, bulls, to, test, them, after, getting, floored, by, a, kick, if, the, f, ministry, want, them, f, tested, they, can, f, coming, and, etc, etc, i, am, putting, in, a, letter, to, say, why, they, were, not, tested, to, see, response, didn’t, get, finished, on, farm, till, 5.45, pm, having, started, with, a, caesarean, at, 5, 30am.must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, the, farming, economy, is, bizarre, at, the, moment, he, has, silage, in, heaps, all, over, the, farm, so, instead, of, feeding, straw, which, is, incredibly, expensive, 70, ton, he, is, feeding, the, better, quality, silage, and, the, calves, are, all, too, big, there, are, 30, to, calve, so, a, few, nights, work, there, where, ever, i, go, on, farms, the, stories, that, farmers, are, wanting, to, get, off, their, chest, about, the, maff, incompetence, and, inconsistency, is, bewildering, there, is, a, lot, of, anger, out, there, i, went, to, do, the, restocking, sentinel, visit, for, mg, l, fm, he, is, usually, the, most, laid, back, of, guys, but, he, told, them, he, was, bringing, his, cattle, on, and, he, would, see, them, in, court, why, are, we, doing, sentinel, visits, to, a, farm, that, had, fmd, 11, months, ago, the, virus, only, lives, a, month, sunday, mothering, sunday, kids, had, all, got, presents, and, cards, for, mum, they, brought, them, all, in, with, a, breakfast, tray, very, cute, but, pear, juice, all, over, the, carpet, tim, and, i, spent, sat, night, baking, a, chocolate, cake, for, her, which, meant, i, hadn’t, got, lunch, never, mind, church, was, ps, speaking, on, characters, walking, with, god, and, talking, about, abraham, setting, off, with, out, knowing, where, he, is, going, maybe, i, should, follow, suit, with, large, animal, vetting, being, reduced, to, tb, testing, and, caesareans, the, evening, service, was, really, lively, with, hp, from, austria, about, turning, every, hour, over, to, god, now, that, is, what, i, should, do, g, r, called, around, sun, afternoon, he, is, pessimistic, about, fertiliser, sales, there, is, that, much, land, and, grass, around, and, the, govt, grants, for, extensification, new, regulations, on, nitrates, is, giving, him, a, headache, though, as, he, points, out, it, is, not, fertiliser, that, cause, the, problems, as, they, are, used, by, grass, but, by, phosphates, and, slurry, organics, lough, neigh, has, real, problems, with, algal, blooms, and, they, are, blaming, fertiliser, but, so, has, bassenthwaite, but, there, is, not, any, fertiliser, spread, on, the, fells, so, is, it, really, agriculture, monday, read, test, and, was, very, glad, it, was, clear, as, the, farm, of, origin, of, one, of, batches, has, gone, down, with, tb, more, testing, after, lunch, organic, farm, they, have, just, had, their, first, pay, check, 23p, per, litre, they, were, promised, 36p, when, they, started, to, convert, 2, years, ago, who, would, be, in, agriculture, desperately, behind, in, admin, with, vets, and, home, but, at, least, the, clinical, work, pays, tuesday, caught, up, on, a, lot, of, admin, as, back, to, 6, vets, for, day, 2, cows, aborting, on, restocking, farm, more, disease, rota, still, for, 5vets, yuk, the, evening, open, meeting, poorly, attendee, due, to, poor, publicity, i, am, only, local, practitioner, i, phoned, around, no, one, had, been, invited, or, had, seen, advance, publicity, and, we, all, feel, that, they, are, not, interested, and, that, they, will, not, listen, some, moving, testimony, and, the, bullying, culture, came, through, and, the, frustration, and, anger, that, comes, from, dealing, with, a, faceless, bureaucracy, distant, in, london, 11, million, animals, 2000, farms, in, cumbria, businesses, wrecked, lives, wrecked, a, crisis, turned, into, a, disaster, by, bureaucratic, incompetence, and, political, considerations, i, am, pleased, i, went, i, feel, that, it, is, like, a, sense, of, closure, the, funeral, so, to, speak, the, end, and, i, spoke, with, wife, when, i, got, back, i, feel, i, can, lay, the, past, down, and, look, to, the, future, weds, day, off, k, a, for, lunch, and, sort, out, finances, etc, and, write, diary, everyone, is, saying, about, this, time, last, year, and, glad, that, fmd, is, finished, went, to, see, grease, the, school, production, it, was, very, well, done, brought, back, memories, of, 6th, form, thurs, 300, pages, of, a4, waiting, for, me, in, my, in, tray, courtesy, of, defra, are, they, mindless, or, what, rang, to, speak, to, ah, but, only, got, hold, of, n, and, told, her, it, was, out, of, order, i, should, get, my, blood, pressure, measured, as, some, one, says, defra, stupid, idiots, so, much, for, closure, i, feel, very, frustrated, if, this, is, the, future, of, farm, practice, anal, glands, here, we, come, who, said, a, vets, life, ain’t, glamorous, managed, to, calm, down, and, get, the, next, 2, weeks, of, testing, organised, it, is, a, good, job, that, we, are, organising, it, as, trying, to, get, folk, on, the, phone, is, n’t, easy, workload, picking, up, and, managed, to, persuade, gg, to, advertise, even, if, only, at, tvi, hq, all, of, the, local, practices, who, have, advertised, have, had, very, few, if, any, responses, we, are, busy, but, with, defra, work, spent, time, singing, grease, songs, much, to, nurses, amusement, did, restocking, visit, at, lynedraw, they, gave, me, a, look, around, it, is, amazingly, clean, because, even, after, pressure, washing, the, spiders, usually, make, a, come, back, but, the, buildings, are, sterile, and, no, cobwebs, or, insect, life, which, usually, abounds, even, in, empty, buildings, weird, there, will, be, a, lot, of, flies, next, year, news, that, pi, has, headship, of, nelson, thom, and, so, we, can, expect, the, discipline, to, improve, again, friday, curry, and, quiz, at, the, boys, school, very, cosmopolitan, for, cumbria, it, was, good, fun, and, the, kids, enjoyed, it, but, we, were, useless, on, the, photos, for, which, you, definitely, need, a, tv, spent, time, chatting, to, local, gp, who, which, was, interesting, they, have, a, place, for, their, son, at, nelson, thom, but, he, isn’t, keen, saturday, 16th, march, working, this, w, e, and, on, call, friday, night, so, had, an, early, start, with, a, caser, on, ewe, a, lambing, hurray, things, are, getting, back, to, normal, even, if, it, is, a, dutch, beltex, the, farmer, is, really, fed, up, and, wants, ah, to, be, sacked, as, he, threatened, to, kill, all, his, recently, imported, dutch, sheep, as, the, paper, work, was, not, right, they, had, come, and, blood, sampled, them, and, then, sent, the, results, to, his, brother, who, is, still, under, form, a, and, then, refused, him, permission, to, move, any, of, the, sheep, off, because, he, shouldn’t, have, any, because, he, was, on, form, a, and, what, were, the, blood, results, for, defra, would, be, a, joke, if, it, wasn’t, so, serious, oh, and, after, my, complaint, about, them, deluging, us, with, paper, yes, you, guessed, it, they, sent, another, 7, x, 20, sheets, of, a4, idiots, aw, is, in, a, tiz, and, so, had, to, get, help, in, sat, morning, which, was, a, shame, but, hey, ho, she, is, not, coping, with, the, post, fmd, constant, changing, of, the, goal, posts, went, to, susan, ian’s, for, another, curry, and, had, a, really, good, time, and, have, decided, to, phase, out, house, group, which, was, coming, hopefully, low, moor, will, set, up, a, 3rd, house, group, for, wigton, hebron, is, going, to, change, to, new, outlook, groups, sun, never, managed, to, get, to, church, as, calls, all, day, beautiful, day, though, the, weather, has, really, picked, up, must, get, garden, sorted, and, seeds, planted, a, came, out, on, call, this, evening, it, is, one, good, point, that, this, job, does, allow, the, kids, to, join, with, me, she, is, really, growing, up, she, wanted, to, go, to, cinema, but, as, wife, was, late, and, weather, good, she, came, back, here, and, they, walked, the, dog, and, wound, up, the, boys, mon, early, morning, call, to, see, a, farmer, who, is, a, scrap, metal, dealer, who, hates, authority, he, therefore, didn’t, want, anyone, on, his, land, during, fmd, and, refused, access, to, maff, and, me, while, i, was, working, there, he, caused, real, problems, and, had, his, gun, removed, by, police, he, was, handled, badly, and, is, a, rogue, the, more, colourful, rumour, was, that, the, real, reason, for, not, allowing, anyone, on, was, the, amount, of, smuggled, cigarettes, was, too, great, to, hide, he, also, runs, a, fishery, shellfish, enterprise, that, is, on, the, beach, at, odd, times, he, was, found, guilty, and, fined, 350, for, his, trouble, but, never, paid, because, he, went, bust, as, everything, is, in, his, wife, and, kids, names, this, is, all, unsubstantiated, rumour, but, quite, amusing, when, push, comes, to, shove, the, ministry, could, do, nothing, with, out, the, cooperation, of, the, farmers, the, vet, students, have, arrived, and, i, feel, a, bit, guilty, about, not, having, them, to, stay, but, i, feel, i, still, need, space, at, the, moment, so, they, are, making, do, with, the, royal, oak, prayer, quad, with, the, lads, which, was, good, i, still, has, not, got, stuff, for, magazine, and, spent, time, praying, tues, the, dates, important, cos, its, my, birthday, 39, today, the, kids, all, brought, presents, in, and, had, breakfast, in, bed, it, was, really, nice, the, number, of, ordinary, calls, to, ill, animals, is, increasing, rapidly, went, to, 2, new, restocking, farms, today, i, think, one, a, day, is, probably, enough, they, were, both, full, of, stories, about, the, ministry, and, wanted, to, unload, to, some, one, who, understood, the, first, was, particularly, upsetting, in, that, i, was, admiring, his, new, parlour, and, set, up, that, he, has, put, in, while, waiting, the, 4, months, he, was, then, talking, about, all, the, animals, getting, slaughtered, and, his, wife, was, fighting, back, tears, she, is, also, very, unsure, about, whether, they, are, doing, the, right, thing, by, investing, in, the, new, parlour, she, is, very, unsure, about, the, future, and, as, they, are, both, reaching, 50, is, it, the, right, thing, to, be, doing, unfortunately, i, think, she, is, right, but, i, couldn’t, say, that, and, made, reassuring, noises, as, they, have, spent, the, money, and, it, is, too, late, now, the, future, for, dairy, is, not, good, the, price, is, going, to, continue, to, be, at, world, prices, which, with, the, current, exchange, rate, is, uneconomic, in, the, uk, the, second, farm, was, sheep, with, drop, and, they, were, grazing, over, the, burial, site, as, they, had, planted, carrots, and, turnips, on, the, surrounding, field, i, couldn’t, listen, to, another, set, of, woes, as, i, was, still, upset, from, the, first, lot, so, kept, conversation, light, and, on, sheep, weds, i, never, realised, that, fmd, is, like, any, other, grief, there, are, anniversaries, to, get, through, and, fears, and, barriers, to, be, put, to, rest, i, was, on, a, farm, to, give, certificates, to, 2, heifers, sold, in, calf, they, were, all, saying, it, was, a, year, to, the, day, that, fmd, hit, the, village, the, ai, fellow, was, there, as, well, and, he, was, talking, about, what, he, had, been, doing, he, was, saying, that, he, thinks, it, will, be, years, before, everybody, returns, to, normal, he, is, revisiting, farms, where, he, was, helping, with, the, slaughter, for, the, ai, and, was, saying, he, had, to, take, a, deep, breath, every, time, he, returns, to, one, of, these, farms, there, was, a, partners, meeting, at, lunchtime, as, usual, aw, turned, up, late, but, finally, decided, to, advertise, to, see, whether, there, are, vets, out, there, who, will, come, to, work, in, fmd, country, it, is, a, bit, frustrating, as, i, foresaw, that, we, would, be, busy, and, we, could, have, nabbed, d, before, longtown, but, gg, ever, cautious, we, went, completely, around, in, circles, trying, different, options, but, as, with, everything, else, the, only, prediction, we, can, make, is, that, we, know, that, we, don’t, know, so, much, depends, on, govt, decisions, on, supply, of, pharmaceuticals, to, farms, and, on, the, future, of, the, svs, state, vet, service, for, who, we, usually, do, 15, of, our, farm, work, for, and, currently, do, 50, for, thursday, tomorrow, i, will, get, a, lunch, break, this, is, my, resolution, have, not, managed, to, stop, for, lunch, this, week, yet, as, farm, calls, keep, coming, in, and, partners, meeting, today, was, geckos, bums, and, goose, bums, rectal, prolapses, variety, is, the, spice, of, life, also, had, much, laughter, over, watching, norman, in, the, bath, jg’s, tortoise, which, has, come, out, of, hibernation, early, and, is, anorexic, much, clunking, and, bumping, 2, lambings, and, cow, caesaer, after, hours, so, busy, on, call, it, was, also, the, last, house, group, so, it, was, end, of, an, era, we, have, been, having, them, in, our, house, for, the, past, 6, years, with, different, folk, and, have, had, god, speak, to, us, and, to, others, through, it, but, it, is, time, to, move, on, friday, started, with, another, caeaser, and, early, morning, start, and, didn’t, get, my, lunch, break, time, to, reconsider, things, again, had, folk, for, dinner, which, had, been, arranged, a, long, time, ago, it, seemed, like, a, good, idea, at, time, and, was, enjoyable, but, after, a, 14, hour, day, yesterday, and, a, 10, hour, one, today, i, was, not, feeling, life, and, soul, of, the, party, one, couple, are, still, trying, to, decide, the, future, of, their, farm, they, are, thought, out, progressive, family, farm, and, yet, they, are, not, convinced, about, what, to, do, he, finds, it, difficult, to, because, there, are, three, generations, to, consider, his, father, would, go, out, and, buy, stock, tomorrow, and, his, son, wants, to, come, home, to, work, but, they, feel, he, should, broaden, his, options, very, difficult, he, was, also, saying, that, he, ha, d, helped, a, neighbour, who, flagged, him, down, as, he, was, going, past, he, wanted, help, to, move, a, cow, that, was, down, the, last, time, he, touched, a, cow, it, was, when, his, own, were, slaughtered, it, knocked, him, off, his, stride, for, the, rest, of, the, day, had, a, good, time, as, when, i, looked, at, time, was, 1, o, clock, sat, 23rd, march, wife, went, on, her, counselling, course, for, day, which, left, me, a, bit, on, edge, this, morning, as, i, was, on, call, sat, am, and, looking, after, 4, kids, but, they, managed, with, out, me, back, sore, and, stiff, as, i’ve, missed, the, gym, but, will, go, back, on, tues, still, managed, to, get, a, bit, done, in, garden, it, was, a, great, spring, day, and, made, me, feel, like, summer, was, coming, went, to, beckfoot, to, beach, in, the, afternoon, with, kids, evening, went, to, bed, early, as, shattered, sun, 24th, back, stiffer, after, gardening, and, went, to, church, davidsons, have, moved, into, thursby, so, will, be, good, to, have, them, around, and, at, school, watched, northbank, beat, stanwix, u12, s, 6, 0, the, boys, played, well, and, passed, the, ball, around, a, lot, son, played, well, too, must, work, less, w, e’s, and, watch, the, boys, play, more, mon, 25th, looking, forward, to, finishing, on, friday, as, another, large, test, today, started, at, 8, 30am, and, finished, at, 6pm, but, at, least, it, meant, i, was, out, the, office, and, did, not, have, to, face, any, of, the, usual, hassle, factors, it, was, good, to, see, as, the, place, is, always, well, run, and, organised, a, real, family, farm, with, three, generations, working, together, but, granddad, at, 75, still, very, much, calling, the, shots, the, craic, was, good, at, lunch, as, their, sister, is, friendly, with, my, wife, so, i, got, custard, with, my, rhubarb, tart, my, wife, doesn’t, like, custard, so, i, never, get, as, i, cannot, be, bothered, to, make, it, for, one, as, the, kids, never, have, it, and, so, are, very, conservative, they, were, asking, my, view, of, the, future, too, as, they, have, sold, bullocks, privately, ie, not, through, the, auction, as, they, are, on, 21, day, stand, still, and, the, price, is, poorer, than, selling, via, the, auction, defra, will, not, allow, any, trade, through, an, auction, if, the, farms, are, on, standstill, why, if, they, are, dead, in24hrs, there, is, minimal, risk, and, they, are, putting, everyone’s, backs, up, tues, 26th, went, for, my, first, visit, to, another, restocked, farm, and, during, the, 4, month, waiting, as, well, as, visit, new, zealand, he, has, made, a, sandstone, plaque, 3ft, by, 4, ft, and, carved, on, the, date, they, went, down, with, fmd, and, the, number, of, cattle, it, is, almost, a, head, stone, type, memorial, the, cow, had, digestive, problems, a, right, displaced, abomasums, rda, probably, due, to, the, transit, and, change, in, diet, weds, 27th, small, animal, day, and, trying, to, get, everything, organised, for, going, away, finalised, advert, in, vet, record, for, new, assistant, lots, of, adverts, but, no, applicants, all, the, local, practices, are, advertising, and, there, are, no, takers, i, hope, it, is, because, there, is, a, shortage, and, not, from, lack, of, confidence, in, the, area, defra, haven’t, paid, us, for, a, lot, of, visits, and, that, needs, sorted, they, have, no, record, of, the, visits, i, e, they, have, lost, the, claim, forms, in, the, mountain, of, paper, work, they, will, only, pay, on, the, originals, as, if, there, are, duplicates, they, will, probably, pay, on, those, as, well, being, that, well, organised, they, are, really, slipping, back, into, their, old, ways, of, paper, chasing, the, frustration, without, and, within, is, palpable, i, should, just, quit, as, i, will, be, a, civil, servant, once, removed, unless, things, change, the, secretary’s, are, both, on, fmd, funded, computer, courses, so, digging, out, the, paper, work, will, have, to, wait, thurs, 28th, demob, happy, just, the, test, to, read, and, i, am, off, for, 10, days, the, test, was, clear, but, very, busy, as, a, locum, came, for, a, look, around, to, see, if, he, would, do, sa, for, several, days, a, week, any, help, i, think, will, be, a, help, good, friday, missed, out, on, church, as, one, of, the, boys, through, a, complete, wobbler, he, is, not, very, well, just, tired, at, end, of, term, i, hope, then, went, walking, with, family, and, friends, i, must, learn, to, shoot, him, down, when, he, says, it, is, a, little, scramble, what, he, means, is, its, too, dangerous, for, kids, but, it, was, fun, and, we, enjoyed, it, the, weather, was, glorious, and, the, fells, were, crowded, tourism, is, back, went, up, over, sharp, edge, to, blencathra, kids, as, well, holiday, sat, 6th, april, came, back, on, the, late, boat, from, belfast, and, arrived, in, to, wigton, late, the, grandparents, were, sad, to, see, us, go, but, i, think, they, had, also, found, us, all, quite, tiring, the, kids, have, enjoyed, playing, squash, so, that, is, something, i, would, like, to, continue, sun, 7th, april, beautiful, frosty, morning, and, went, to, church, where, the, speaker, arrived, much, to, s’s, relief, just, as, he, was, announcing, the, last, song, before, the, sermon, i, think, he, was, wondering, what, he, would, say, instead, of, the, prepared, sermon, went, to, son, s, foot, ball, cup, match, this, is, 10, year, olds, we, are, talking, about, and, the, referee, was, making, several, bad, decisions, including, a, dubious, penalty, against, his, team, northbank, the, crowd, well, about, 30, of, us, which, for, his, team, is, a, big, crowd, was, getting, a, bit, restless, robbie, was, sprinting, down, the, wing, in, front, of, his, dad, and, me, when, he, was, sent, flying, by, one, of, their, team, his, dad, then, shouted, ref, if, you, gave, a, penalty, for, them, for, nothing, you, could, at, least, give, us, a, foul, for, that, at, which, point, the, ref, blew, his, whistle, and, came, across, and, thumped, him, the, whole, thing, was, about, to, descend, in, to, a, brawl, as, i, and, another, parent, were, trying, to, restore, calm, by, telling, everyone, to, walk, away, which, they, did, followed, by, the, northbank, kids, game, abandoned, so, we, await, the, fa’s, report, so, with, that, and, the, carlisle, manager, being, sacked, and, the, knighton’s, trading, insults, with, the, prospective, buyer, for, carlisle, the, future, of, football, in, carlisle, is, not, looking, good, mon, 8th, last, day, off, for, sorting, out, vcf, magazine, and, getting, up, to, date, with, paper, work, etc, did, carrock, fell, where, we, did, not, see, another, walker, it, was, sunny, and, cold, but, beautiful, at, night, went, to, crusaders, area, meeting, where, they, are, trying, to, get, some, one, to, arrange, area, events, for, kids, and, to, support, the, group, structure, there, is, no, one, who, has, the, time, and, no, funding, to, appoint, a, post, to, do, it, so, went, around, in, circles, too, a, large, degree, but, meeting, decided, to, try, and, raise, the, funding, tues, 9th, feel, like, i, should, have, handed, in, notice, after, today, it, was, awful, going, back, the, response, to, the, advert, for, a, new, vet, now, stands, at, 2, students, who, have, yet, to, qualify, i, had, harry, giving, me, grief, over, the, fact, that, defra, promised, him, that, we, would, test, his, cattle, prior, to, turn, out, i, e, end, of, march, but, haven’t, told, us, very, helpful, his, allocation, has, not, even, come, through, they, are, useless, i, was, at, one, farm, that, has, half, restocked, because, the, parlour, is, not, yet, restored, the, heifers, are, calving, and, he, is, milking, into, a, dump, bucket, and, throwing, the, milk, away, he, can’t, get, more, stock, in, because, he, is, waiting, testing, for, brucellosis, as, his, heifers, were, on, the, same, farm, as, the, french, heifer, that, went, down, he, wanted, to, bring, them, direct, to, his, own, farm, they, would, not, let, him, bring, the, heifers, to, his, own, farm, because, the, paper, work, was, not, through, and, they, not, would, allow, multiple, drop, offs, idiots, so, with, high, levels, of, frustration, and, complete, overload, it, has, not, been, a, good, start, back, tomorrow, i, must, see, what, is, hiding, in, my, in, tray, as, i, never, had, a, chance, to, look, today, weds, 10th, quieter, day, and, managed, to, catch, up, with, paper, work, and, have, had, a, lot, of, next, week, mapped, out, so, feel, more, in, control, night, work, seems, to, be, easing, with, fewer, lambings, students, seem, to, be, enjoying, their, time, with, us, even, though, there, is, too, little, time, to, actually, teach, them, but, it, is, a, luxury, to, have, time, to, go, through, cases, with, them, as, we, take, them, on, a, voluntary, basis, and, at, the, moment, lunch, is, a, higher, priority, than, their, education, i’m, a, selfish, brat, thurs, 11th, spoke, too, soon, chaotic, again, managing, workload, with, so, much, fire, brigade, work, is, not, so, easy, fire, brigade, work, is, the, emergency, work, that, needs, seen, urgently, ie, today, if, not, now, son, isn’t, so, well, again, he, tired, easily, again, today, so, must, make, an, appointment, for, him, but, very, vague, signs, fri, 12th, half, day, finish, yo, i, could, really, get, into, a, 3, and, a, half, day, week, the, down, side, is, it, is, because, my, wife, is, going, away, for, the, w, e, so, i, have, to, be, finished, by, 3, 15, for, kids, as, i, want, to, have, the, people, carrier, i, also, have, to, muck, out, my, car, it, is, not, as, bad, since, fmd, another, positive, contribution, that, fmd, has, made, to, my, life, i, actually, feel, morally, obliged, to, keep, my, car, from, being, a, biohazard, ok, i, still, needed, a, wheelie, bin, to, through, all, the, post, it, notes, and, bits, of, cardboard, and, the, excessive, packaging, that, surrounds, any, medical, product, that, seems, to, find, its, way, on, to, the, back, seat, of, my, car, i, always, remember, reading, a, sunday, paper, article, about, what, cars, different, people, drove, and, what, they, had, lying, around, in, the, back, seat, and, what, this, showed, about, their, personality, i’m, sure, that, they, would, have, had, a, field, day, with, my, car, you, use, to, be, able, to, tell, farm, vets, cars, from, a, mile, off, but, they, have, all, gone, clean, and, shiny, sat, 13th, april, a, week, end, off, and, the, thought, of, a, saturday, morning, lie, in, unfortunately, there, is, a, football, tournament, in, carlisle, today, 9am, start, so, up, as, usual, and, get, into, town, but, managed, to, get, to, staples, which, i, have, been, trying, to, do, since, my, birthday, to, spend, my, birthday, money, the, difference, between, men, and, boys, is, the, size, of, their, toys, as, my, wife, frequently, reminds, me, so, i, am, the, proud, owner, of, a, digital, camera, the, question, is, when, will, i, find, time, to, set, it, up, took, back, all, the, library, books, and, made, the, mistake, of, checking, with, the, librarian, who, says, we, also, have, a, talking, book, and, another, junior, fiction, well, i, thought, it, would, have, been, lucky, to, get, them, all, if, they, ever, bring, in, fines, for, kids, we, are, sunk, how, does, my, wife, keep, track, of, them, all, came, home, and, enjoyed, the, good, weather, and, fortunately, the, team, bottomed, out, so, didn’t, get, into, the, next, round, v, asked, as, she, dropped, other, son, off, from, the, football, where, has, wife, gone, as, other, son, has, said, she, was, away, at, gruerly, where, is, that, she, is, away, for, a, girlie, w, e, so, we, had, time, for, a, family, cycle, ride, out, from, kirkbride, to, the, coast, it, was, beautiful, and, we, had, a, really, good, time, came, back, via, wigton, for, supplies, as, we, are, in, desperate, need, of, a, tesco, shop, sunday, 14th, had, an, easy, day, and, cooked, with, a, for, tomorrow, as, my, wife, is, doing, supply, next, week, its, ages, since, i, have, cooked, even, made, scones, church, was, a, video, sermon, which, was, ok, but, different, saw, p, he, s, back, from, nz, so, will, have, to, arrange, to, catch, up, he, was, incredibly, jet, lagged, it, must, be, sunday, cos, everyones, in, church, 36, hrs, travelling, wife, arrived, back, from, her, week, end, away, at, capernwray, having, had, a, week, end, that, sounded, as, if, they, had, all, gone, back, to, their, teenage, years, with, midnight, feasts, and, playing, tricks, on, each, other, she, was, quite, tired, and, pleased, to, have, an, early, night, mon, 15th, the, diary, has, unfortunately, died, at, this, point, and, it, is, 3, weeks, later, and, i, am, going, back, and, filling, in, the, details, as, i, remember, them, it, is, probably, the, bits, that, are, really, important, but, as, there, is, too, much, going, on, the, diary, has, remained, on, my, to, do, list, together, with, my, tax, return, and, a, small, mountain, of, paperwork, the, reasons, are, varied, but, one, of, them, is, that, my, youngest, lost, his, temper, with, the, computer, and, slammed, down, the, mouse, this, broke, the, left, right, bar, so, the, pointer, would, only, go, up, and, down, now, the, practice, manager, who, learnt, his, computing, in, the, dark, ages, of, doss, assures, me, you, do, not, need, a, mouse, to, operate, a, computer, but, as, i, have, enough, problems, trying, to, get, the, stupid, machine, to, do, what, i, want, it, to, with, a, mouse, forget, trying, shortcut, keys, and, arrows, so, a, new, mouse, was, bought, which, the, man, assured, my, wife, you, just, had, to, plug, in, and, hey, presto, it, would, find, a, driver, and, work, blank, screens, consult, hand, book, try, inserting, disk, try, exploring, disk, try, windows, disk, consult, practice, manager, who, as, you, may, have, gathered, is, my, it, guru, he, says, you, may, need, to, install, a, driver, if, it, doesn’t, work, it, will, be, on, the, disk, i, don’t, have, a, mouse, to, use, to, try, to, find, and, install, a, driver, he, assures, me, again, you, don’t, need, a, mouse, i, understand, why, my, youngest, son, lost, his, temper, with, the, stupid, machine, being, the, mature, adult, that, i, can, some, times, be, i, walk, away, to, cool, off, but, don’t, feel, like, trying, again, for, 24, hours, with, a, new, mouse, which, the, man, assured, my, wife, you, just, had, to, plug, in, and, hey, presto, it, would, find, a, driver, and, work, plugged, it, in, it, said, looking, for, driver, installing, driver, and, it, worked, why, why, not, first, time, tuesday, thursday, riding, lights, went, to, see, riding, lights, who, are, a, christian, theatre, group, who, were, performing, at, the, senior, school, at, night, they, were, extremely, funny, and, hard, hitting, and, very, pointed, all, at, the, same, time, it, was, a, magazine, of, sketches, on, all, sorts, of, different, things, modern, interpretations, of, parables, and, bible, stories, sketches, asking, questions, about, society, and, how, we, view, things, very, difficult, to, put, into, words, but, thought, provoking, on, lots, of, levels, sat, 20th, april, to, weds, 24th, april, lost, in, the, mists, of, time, thursday, 25th, starting, the, diary, again, after, having, missed, 10, days, with, too, much, going, on, the, spring, work, is, chaotic, with, a, lot, of, problems, we, are, trying, to, run, the, practice, on, 5, vets, plus, a, part, time, locum, instead, of, 7, full, time, at, this, time, of, year, i, had, said, we, should, have, advertised, and, tried, to, get, some, one, at, xmas, but, the, view, was, that, falling, milk, price, would, mean, less, work, but, the, defra, tasting, is, more, than, making, up, for, those, who, haven’t, restocked, and, those, who, have, gone, out, of, dairy, which, brings, us, the, most, work, but, saying, i, told, you, so, does, not, help, so, i’ll, just, keep, my, big, mouth, shut, as, the, practice, manager, says, the, good, old, days, when, we, new, what, the, rota, was, going, to, be, and, we, were, not, just, making, up, it, up, as, we, went, along, we, have, had, over, a, year, of, crisis, management, now, the, end, must, be, nigh, as, this, is, a, health, survey, apart, from, feeling, pressure, of, work, i, am, have, also, managed, to, catch, ringworm, on, my, leg, a, fungal, infection, from, cows, and, it, is, itchy, and, sore, and, not, responding, to, my, treatment, i, will, have, to, get, gp’s, opinion, friday, 26th, april, remind, me, next, time, not, to, try, to, interview, during, busy, periods, it, is, very, embarrassing, to, turn, up, late, to, the, interview, we, had, a, chaotic, day, but, managed, to, interview, her, she, is, frighteningly, well, prepared, and, had, lists, of, questions, i, hope, we, didn’t, put, her, off, by, being, so, disorganised, i, think, the, sandale, view, will, be, more, influential, as, part, of, the, interview, we, always, take, them, up, to, sandale, viewpoint, to, show, them, the, practice, spread, out, panoramically, beneath, them, well, it, sold, me, the, job, after, finally, getting, finished, i, was, exhausted, but, had, people, to, dinner, so, had, to, stay, awake, and, be, sociable, sat, 27th, april, had, folk, to, dinner, last, night, which, after, working, flat, out, was, probably, not, such, a, clever, idea, didn’t, fall, asleep, but, this, morning, i, feel, like, death, warmed, up, and, we, have, another, interview, this, morning, i, don’t, think, i, can, make, a, good, impression, so, it, is, a, good, job, that, i, am, looking, to, employ, rather, than, be, employed, the, candidate, is, from, a, kirby, stephen, farmers, daughter, and, so, is, at, an, immediate, advantage, she, seems, fine, so, we, will, offer, her, the, job, the, question, is, should, we, offer, them, both, a, job, went, to, bed, feeling, ill, and, with, a, migraine, and, slept, all, afternoon, and, then, in, bed, for, 9pm, sad, or, what, sun, 28th, feel, a, lot, better, for, the, sleep, and, church, was, af, speaking, he, is, always, entertaining, his, opening, slide, was, knighton, in, for, those, of, you, who, do, not, keep, up, with, the, footie, in, carlisle, michael, knighton, is, the, hated, owner, of, carlisle, united, who, is, trying, to, get, the, club, relegated, so, he, can, build, houses, on, the, land, he, is, destroying, the, club, and, it, is, not, popular, anyway, the, second, slide, was, here, for, grace, and, forgiveness, he, went, on, to, say, that, church, should, be, where, the, failures, should, feel, loved, and, welcome, as, we, all, need, god’s, love, and, forgiveness, he, was, really, good, both, entertaining, and, making, real, points, spent, time, in, the, garden, and, playing, footie, with, the, boys, mon, 29th, monday, morning, and, that, sinking, feeling, not, helped, by, my, wife’s, teaching, 3, days, this, week, and, a, trustees, meeting, for, borderline, which, means, additional, pressure, after, running, around, all, morning, and, working, out, the, amount, of, holiday, we, are, all, owed, the, conclusion, is, that, we, will, employ, them, both, i, am, owed, 46, days, holiday, so, if, i, can, take, 2, months, off, that, plus, the, sabbatical, i, am, owed, means, i, could, take, 5, months, off, i, wish, it, were, happening, the, 5, vets, are, owed, over, 200, days, between, us, which, will, be, almost, a, vet, for, a, year, as, this, is, a, health, diary, i, should, mention, my, visit, to, the, doctor, after, a, half, an, hour, wait, past, my, appointment, time, fizzing, knowing, that, i, would, have, to, make, the, time, up, later, in, my, evening, i, finally, saw, the, doc, who, agreed, with, my, diagnosis, and, agreed, with, my, treatment, only, an, occupational, hazard, of, farm, work, ring, worm, he, did, take, scrapings, but, that, is, all, tuesday, testing, next, door, why, do, we, always, end, up, working, in, a, pen, under, the, railway, in, a, middle, of, a, stream, why, they, cannot, build, a, pen, on, dry, land, away, from, the, trains, i, don’t, know, i, suppose, they, have, always, done, it, that, way, but, the, first, you, know, of, a, train, is, the, thunder, as, it, goes, over, your, head, which, startles, the, cows, who, jump, sending, a, muddy, slurry, flying, everywhere, william, is, still, not, wearing, a, helmet, for, the, quad, bike, as, he, drives, around, despite, his, fathers, protests, their, neighbour, the, other, way, is, brain, damaged, after, coming, off, his, weds, 1st, of, may, mayday, the, radio, is, predicting, riots, in, paris, against, or, for, le, pen, anti, globalists, in, london, but, i, feel, a, real, peace, with, the, turning, of, the, month, it, is, funny, how, a, different, month, can, make, you, feel, so, different, april, is, always, the, worst, month, at, work, with, a, lot, of, routine, work, dehorning, and, testing, and, a, lot, of, lambings, and, calvings, and, emergencies, even, though, the, beginning, of, may, is, just, the, same, i, always, feel, we, have, passed, the, peak, and, we, can, cruise, into, summer, the, fact, that, both, have, accepted, the, jobs, and, that, we, will, have, more, cover, helps, though, they, will, not, start, until, summer, thursday, 2nd, may, in, spite, of, all, yesterdays, predictions, there, wasn’t, any, trouble, in, paris, or, london, only, cyclists, causing, traffic, jams, what, is, about, the, media, that, they, have, to, report, the, bad, news, not, the, good, news, i, haven’t, seen, anything, beyond, the, cumberland, news, on, the, farms, restocking, stopped, at, beckfoot, on, my, rounds, and, sat, in, the, sunshine, on, the, beach, for, 10, mins, and, thought, this, is, the, life, though, in, talking, to, one, of, the, neighbours, one, of, the, farmers, is, having, real, problems, getting, motivated, he, had, milking, ayrshires, really, quiet, cows, who, you, could, do, anything, with, their, idea, of, getting, excited, was, turn, out, time, and, moving, into, a, fast, amble, to, the, spring, pastures, he, has, bought, in, really, wild, suckler, limousin, x’s, if, you, look, at, them, the, wrong, way, they, put, their, tails, in, the, air, and, take, off, i, was, there, dehorning, and, we, lost, one, which, jumped, over, a, gate, another, put, its, tail, in, the, air, and, took, off, only, stopping, when, it, came, to, the, block, wall, at, the, end, of, the, yard, unfortunately, it, didn’t, stop, fast, enough, and, crashed, headlong, into, it, it, now, has, a, definite, tilt, to, it, the, wall, isn’t, too, hot, either, i, think, if, i, had, to, look, after, the, likes, of, them, i, wouldn’t, be, too, keen, to, get, out, of, bed, either, friday, 3rd, may, spoke, too, early, about, things, easing, off, 2, bad, calvings, a, caesarean, and, testing, plus, the, usual, ill, animals, but, got, finished, for, 5, 45, and, took, my, wife, out, for, dinner, at, the, cockatoo, in, cockermouth, very, pleasant, but, while, she, wanted, to, go, on, to, socialise, at, 10pm, i, wanted, home, to, bed, sat, 4th, may, off, yippee, took, the, kids, to, nichol, end, and, went, canoeing, on, the, lake, got, absolutely, frozen, but, was, really, good, fun, it, rained, in, spite, of, all, the, good, weather, forecasts, but, with, our, style, of, canoeing, we, are, always, soaked, anyway, had, a, picnic, on, one, of, the, islands, and, had, fun, came, back, and, slept, for, the, afternoon, should, have, taken, the, boys, to, see, the, fa, cup, but, they, were, happy, playing, around, watched, ghandi, on, dvd, at, night, it, is, a, very, moving, film, and, the, ambiguities, and, politics, came, through, to, a, muted, extent, which, was, interesting, it, often, makes, me, wonder, about, how, much, of, govt, policy, is, personality, driven, again, the, inability, of, individuals, to, fight, the, system, came, through, the, front, page, of, the, times, this, morning, was, on, a, toddler, who, had, died, from, post, op, haemorrhage, following, the, use, of, disposable, instruments, in, a, tonsillectomy, large, amounts, of, money, have, been, spent, on, disposable, instruments, that, are, always, inferior, to, good, quality, surgical, kit, several, people, have, died, because, of, their, use, because, no, one, wanted, to, take, the, very, small, theoretical, risk, that, they, may, transfer, nvcjd, the, approach, to, risk, management, and, prioritisation, within, government, and, the, civil, service, is, very, poor, but, to, be, fait, to, them, the, press, is, not, helpful, i, would, like, to, see, prescott, stand, up, and, say, that, he, wants, more, deaths, on, the, railways, but, he, never, will, if, less, money, was, spent, on, safety, on, the, railways, more, trains, at, more, convenient, times, were, run, at, lower, costs, then, there, would, be, fewer, deaths, on, the, roads, but, as, no, one, holds, politicians, responsible, for, deaths, on, the, roads, it, ain’t, gonna, happen, sun, 5th, may, church, was, dn, who, is, brilliant, at, getting, the, kids, involved, son, s, face, lit, up, when, we, were, walking, in, to, church, to, see, him, walking, down, botchergate, with, guitar, in, hand, he, had, a, skin, that, had, been, cast, from, a, snake, and, based, his, songs, with, the, kids, and, his, talks, with, them, on, being, a, new, creation, cor, 5, vs, 17, getting, rid, of, the, old, self, and, hence, the, snake, skin, he, is, brilliant, on, the, guitar, and, a, real, performer, wasted, as, a, tax, inspector, mon, 6th, may, maybe, getting, the, kids, soaked, and, frozen, on, sat, was, not, a, good, idea, as, they, are, all, coming, down, with, colds, now, tim, is, very, chesty, and, was, up, in, the, night, hot, and, wheezy, any, infection, always, goes, for, his, chest, so, helvellyn, will, have, to, wait, for, another, day, so, concreted, posts, and, pressure, washed, the, yard, the, boys, loved, helping, then, demanded, i, play, football, as, payment, ag, was, here, as, his, dad, was, dropping, off, the, caravan, after, being, away, for, the, w, e, p, called, up, from, manchester, en, route, for, thailand, she, is, handing, in, her, notice, and, going, booked, summer, holiday, in, france, and, now, have, to, work, out, what, we, are, doing, on, the, way, there, and, back, tues, 7th, may, went, testing, but, i, really, do, have, the, kids, bug, and, feel, hot, and, feverish, went, to, bed, for, rest, of, day, weds, 8th, didn’t, feel, like, getting, out, of, bed, but, went, to, work, first, was, a, deer, rta, i, was, supposed, to, meet, a, police, car, there, but, no, police, either, car, or, policeman, i, am, glad, it, wasn’t, too, controversial, or, important, so, i, have, taken, all, details, and, hope, that, that, is, the, end, of, it, this, afternoon, was, spent, chasing, stirks, around, a, field, and, abbeytown, we, dehorned, them, they, should, have, been, done, this, time, last, year, but, were, n’t, because, of, fmd, they’re, now, 2, yr, old, which, means, they, were, really, too, big, to, go, around, upsetting, two, went, through, the, dyke, one, way, the, other, went, through, the, other, side, into, some, one’s, garden, and, on, to, the, abbeytown, road, so, it, was, a, bit, of, a, rodeo, it, ended, up, charging, m, who, hurt, his, shoulder, trying, to, escape, he, was, not, happy, as, this, morning, he, got, his, letter, asking, him, to, cut, back, is, milk, production, he, had, jokingly, asked, what, was, i, doing, this, winter, as, all, the, farmers, will, have, given, up, by, christmas, the, long, term, out, look, is, not, good, but, at, least, we, will, have, 2, new, graduates, in, training, to, cope, with, the, upturn, when, if, it, comes, thurs, 9th, day, off, unfortunately, spent, the, morning, shopping, in, carlisle, which, meant, wandering, around, shops, and, trying, to, find, clothes, i, needed, a, my, daughter, as, my, dress, sense, leaves, a, lot, to, be, desired, and, she, keeps, me, right, met, gb, another, carlisle, vet, which, was, good, i, haven’t, seen, him, for, a, bit, had, lunch, out, which, was, nice, though, also, got, all, the, bits, for, the, tennis, net, so, will, be, able, to, get, it, up, the, annoying, bit, was, i, got, a, parking, ticket, which, sent, my, blood, pressure, up, now, i, know, i, often, park, with, out, paying, and, in, the, wrong, places, that, is, just, living, dangerously, but, as, we, were, in, carlisle, and, had, decided, to, go, out, for, lunch, and, for, some, reason, i, was, in, wife, s, car, as, usual, there, was, no, change, in, the, car, well, as, usual, there, was, no, money, at, all, i, only, had, myself, to, blame, i, know, she, never, has, change, in, the, car, i, only, had, enough, for, 2, hours, in, my, pocket, which, to, be, honest, is, in, my, opinion, quite, long, enough, in, carlisle, shops, so, on, the, way, to, lunch, out, i, made, a, special, trip, back, to, the, car, park, armed, with, coins, ready, to, pay, the, city, council, the, extortionate, fee, so, i, could, spend, more, money, in, carlisle, city, shops, the, first, machine, refused, my, coins, i, even, tried, a, 2nd, machine, that, also, refused, to, accept, my, hard, earned, cash, so, i, left, a, note, saying, the, machine, was, not, working, in, the, windscreen, and, yes, you, guessed, it, i, came, back, to, find, a, traffic, warden, giving, me, a, ticket, who, justified, his, action, by, saying, there, w, ere, 4, machines, from, which, i, could, have, bought, a, ticket, grrrrhhh, fri, 10th, finish, of, another, week, with, more, tb, testing, a, lot, of, cows, from, netherlands, mris, meuse, rhine, issel, very, good, beefy, looking, dairy, cows, dual, purpose, why, we, have, to, test, them, i, don’t, know, but, we, have, to, keep, page, st, happy, they, were, all, tested, prior, to, export, from, holland, and, they, want, them, tested, again, the, farmer, is, very, bio, security, conscious, and, has, his, land, all, in, a, single, block, now, bounded, by, roads, or, arable, cultivation, all, the, other, cattle, he, insisted, were, tested, and, he, had, the, results, prior, to, purchase, in, spite, of, all, his, good, sense, he, is, still, going, on, about, the, missing, vials, from, porton, down, and, other, paranoid, conspiracy, theories, on, the, spread, of, fmd, but, a, part, from, cold, flu, feel, as, though, things, are, getting, back, on, track, we, can, look, to, the, next, 12, months, with, confidence, thereafter, depends, on, whether, the, wto, wins, over, the, eu, to, get, rid, of, subsidies, or, whether, maintaining, the, food, supply, within, the, eu, is, seen, as, important, the, one, thing, the, fmd, has, taught, me, is, that, you, never, know, what, will, be, coming, next, i, do, feel, guilty, about, saying, there, should, be, more, train, crashes, after, seeing, the, crash, in, the, news, today, at, potters, bar, sat, 11th, may, working, the, w, e, again, saw, another, calf, with, ccn, caused, by, a, deficiency, of, b1, usually, rare, but, seems, to, be, much, more, prevalent, this, year, due, to, old, grass, on, pastures, don’t, know, had, a, greyhound, client, in, bringing, in, a, greyhound, on, behalf, of, some, one, else, who, has, been, chased, from, the, practice, for, non, payment, so, had, a, stressful, half, hour, negotiating, with, an, irate, idiot, but, he, paid, his, old, bill, and, stumped, up, front, for, the, new, one, and, seemed, placated, treating, the, animals, is, easy, spent, the, afternoon, in, the, garden, and, fixing, up, the, tennis, nat, we, were, given, an, old, second, hand, net, so, i, have, fixed, up, on, the, concrete, and, it, was, good, fun, playing, with, the, kids, the, concrete, is, not, level, and, has, lots, of, loose, stones, so, the, bounce, is, a, bit, erratic, went, to, a, 50th, birthday, party, for, which, i, was, teased, at, work, but, i, maintain, we, are, friends, with, the, children, in, their, 20, s, it, was, a, good, craic, and, the, food, was, brilliant, there, was, one, of, the, partners, from, a, lawyers, from, carlisle, there, complaining, that, he, could, only, have, an, hourly, rate, of, charging, out, at, 185, consequently, he, couldn’t, attract, good, lawyers, to, his, firm, because, the, city, firms, were, offering, far, greater, salaries, and, were, charging, out, their, juniors, at, 200, i, couldn’t, admit, that, our, hourly, rate, is, only, 45, and, that, i, think, that, 45, hour, is, a, lot, of, money, should, have, been, a, 9, to, 5, lawyer, sunday, went, to, church, nl, but, was, still, half, asleep, from, my, late, night, spent, all, afternoon, and, evening, out, on, calls, was, ok, till, the, midnight, call, when, i, decided, that, being, a, lawyer, was, probably, a, much, better, idea, monday, 13th, half, asleep, after, the, w, e, so, took, a, little, while, to, get, going, having, kept, this, week, a, bit, quieter, as, there, should, have, been, a, lot, of, last, minute, dehorning, and, castrating, it, hasn’t, come, in, so, we, really, are, quieter, so, did, some, office, work, but, trying, to, work, out, why, the, two, computer, systems, we, have, do, not, have, the, same, balances, on, their, accounts, with, a, tired, sore, head, is, not, worthwhile, but, it, was, preferable, to, sorting, rotas, so, i, when, came, home, i, sat, and, read, tintin, much, to, my, wife’s, disgust, i, also, looked, at, my, cash, flow, predictions, which, were, totally, out, of, line, i, usually, take, a, pessimistic, view, so, as, err, on, the, side, of, caution, but, they, are, totally, out, fortunately, the, right, way, the, partners, think, it, is, a, waste, of, time, and, effort, to, try, to, predict, how, much, of, the, bills, the, farmers, are, going, to, pay, in, any, month, some, pay, every, month, but, most, pay, every, now, and, again, either, when, they, have, time, or, money, or, when, the, accountant, or, vat, man, needs, the, books, i, suppose, they, are, right, who, cares, so, long, as, they, do, pay, also, finally, caught, up, with, gp, as, ringworm, still, not, getting, better, so, finally, on, antifungals, if, the, farmers, couldn’t, get, hold, of, a, vet, pretty, quickly, to, discuss, what’s, going, on, they, would, give, us, earache, tuesday, 14th, halfway, through, may, and, time, to, get, the, rest, of, the, planting, done, in, the, garden, beautiful, weather, and, feels, like, summer, is, here, gg, had, a, visit, from, trading, standards, over, the, bulls, for, which, he, had, given, a, certificate, of, fitness, to, travel, there, is, now, no, slaughterhouse, within, an, hour’s, drive, of, here, for, cattle, ulverston, is, the, nearest, if, an, animal, is, not, fit, to, be, transported, alive, for, some, reason, e.g, because, it, is, lame, or, blind, etc, then, it, has, to, be, shot, on, the, farm, and, the, carcase, transported, to, the, slaughterhouse, however, under, the, new, meat, hygiene, regulations, of, 2, 3, years, ago, the, carcase, has, to, arrive, within, an, hour, of, being, shot, which, was, fine, while, black, brow, was, operating, the, slaughterhouse, but, since, it, has, closed, there, are, no, options, for, any, animals, to, be, shot, on, the, farm, unless, you, put, it, in, your, own, freezer, for, your, own, consumption, thus, whereas, if, there, were, borderline, cases, before, they, were, shot, on, the, farm, and, the, carcases, transported, now, the, pressure, is, to, get, them, transported, alive, or, the, farmer, loses, the, value, of, the, animal, 500, 600, and, has, to, pay, 75, to, get, them, shot, and, disposed, of, the, sooner, either, carlisle, slaughterhouse, or, black, brow, slaughterhouse, get, working, again, the, better, weds, 15th, day, off, spent, the, morning, catching, up, on, paper, work, feel, better, for, it, but, never, my, favourite, job, but, all, the, bits, and, pieces, are, in, place, for, my, tax, return, just, waiting, for, the, final, few, pieces, of, paper, wrote, a, caustic, letter, to, council, about, the, parking, ticket, but, sent, them, a, cheque, as, not, worth, the, fight, went, to, up, front, art, gallery, for, lunch, some, one, had, made, a, set, of, peat, rings, with, a, golden, bowl, at, the, centre, and, wanted, hundreds, of, pounds, for, their, art, creation, if, you, don’t, ask, you, don’t, get, spent, afternoon, running, the, kids, as, wife, was, taking, a, in, town, for, hair, cut, and, girl, time, last, football, match, for, northbank, and, son, lost, thursday, 16th, the, long, lunch, is, back, there, wasn’t, much, happening, vet, wise, but, still, a, lambing, today, as, the, season, has, dragged, on, one, restocking, farmer, was, in, today, with, a, ewe, to, be, lambed, of, the, 200, sheep, he, is, supposed, to, be, fattening, for, market, 20, have, lambed, the, guy, he, bought, them, from, is, adamant, they, were, never, near, a, tup, someone, needs, to, tell, him, about, the, birds, and, the, bees, there, was, also, a, good, if, slightly, apocryphal, story, from, defra, licensing, when, they, needed, a, licence, to, move, a, bull, the, licensing, department, asked, is, this, bull, going, to, be, used, for, breeding, purposes, yes, is, the, farmers, reply, will, this, animal, be, coming, in, to, contact, with, any, other, animals, friday, 17th, another, tb, test, another, restocking, farm, more, stories, the, best, one, was, the, fact, that, their, cattle, had, lain, for, a, week, in, the, pasture, field, after, being, shot, they, decided, to, plough, it, out, for, barley, in, the, back, end, having, spent, the, summer, pressure, washing, the, farm, buildings, to, a, gleaming, state, of, sterility, where, the, animals, had, lain, there, was, still, obvious, contamination, with, blood, etc, when, they, ploughed, it, but, having, failed, the, buildings, on, specks, of, dirt, defra, were, just, not, interested, in, contaminated, blood, stained, earth, they, had, also, phoned, the, day, before, i, arrived, to, send, some, one, out, to, arrange, tb, testing, the, chaos, in, there, continues, sat, 18th, may, i, am, to, be, best, man, a, friend, was, around, last, night, with, news, about, getting, married, we, have, a, wedding, every, month, for, the, next, 4, months, must, be, something, in, the, water, at, the, moment, unfortunately, it, meant, it, was, a, really, late, night, celebrating, and, i, am, working, the, w, e, again, so, getting, up, for, saturday, morning, surgery, was, a, bit, grim, i, survived, and, so, did, most, of, the, animals, the, worrying, thing, is, i, am, sure, that, drs, are, just, the, same, spent, the, afternoon, playing, football, and, tennis, with, the, kids, in, the, yard, and, mowing, the, grass, the, farmers, are, all, now, silaging, and, the, roads, are, full, of, tractors, flying, around, at, all, times, of, night, and, day, sat, evening, went, with, wife, to, hear, sa, speak, at, kd’s, it, was, good, to, see, him, and, clare, again, we, visited, them, in, bombay, at, the, height, of, fmd, and, it, always, puts, things, back, into, perspective, he, runs, a, mission, hospital, in, thane, an, outskirt, of, bombay, they, have, it, self, funding, by, charging, the, rich, for, luxury, service, a, long, way, behind, the, nhs, and, providing, a, basic, service, foc, for, the, average, indian, he, is, now, talking, about, trying, to, raise, funding, for, building, an, aids, hospice, to, provide, pain, relief, and, dignity, to, those, who, are, dieing, of, aids, because, of, the, stigma, and, cost, and, risk, of, cross, infection, of, both, hiv, and, tb, a, lot, of, aids, patients, are, just, thrown, out, of, their, homes, and, hiv, ve, babies, are, abandoned, as, he, says, there, is, an, epidemic, sweeping, bombay, that, will, leave, a, lot, of, orphans, and, cause, secondary, epidemics, because, of, immuno, suppression, and, it, is, not, really, being, addressed, very, thought, provoking, and, makes, the, millions, wasted, on, fmd, look, very, sick, in, a, global, perspective, sun, missed, church, in, the, morning, as, was, seeing, to, cats, and, dogs, in, the, surgery, and, dripping, calf, in, the, large, animal, bay, spent, most, of, afternoon, on, visits, all, work, and, no, play, is, making, me, a, grumpy, boy, 2, w, es, in, a, row, is, not, good, mon, aw, is, in, worse, mood, than, me, and, at, least, i, have, worked, w, e, she, is, winding, every, one, up, with, her, attitude, it, is, sthg, that, will, have, to, be, addressed, but, will, have, to, be, a, partnership, decision, wife, was, interviewing, fc, tonight, at, christian, viewpoint, in, carlisle, and, came, back, full, of, it, she, is, good, with, people, and, interviewing, she, was, also, challenged, by, what, f, was, saying, about, the, importance, of, treating, people, as, loved, and, valued, by, god, in, some, ways, very, similar, to, s, about, valuing, aids, patients, we, are, all, valued, by, god, tuesday, missed, gym, for, 3rd, week, i, am, going, to, be, getting, really, unfit, i, was, on, duty, and, had, spent, time, talking, with, folk, at, work, valuing, them, but, it, was, nice, as, a, came, out, with, me, and, she, always, likes, being, on, call, with, me, but, i, never, seem, to, know, what’s, going, on, in, her, mind, still, waters, run, deep, weds, dad, phoned, and, has, decided, not, to, come, on, the, w, e, away, this, w, e, it, is, a, family, reunion, but, it, looks, like, it, will, be, just, our, family, and, p’s, but, the, kids, love, meeting, up, with, the, cousins, even, a, who, will, no, doubt, complain, that, there, should, be, some, girl, cousins, she, is, the, only, girl, on, both, wife, s, side, of, the, family, and, mine, it, is, a, bit, worrying, in, that, he, is, losing, confidence, in, doing, anything, outside, his, normal, routine, it, is, at, times, like, this, you, realise, london, is, not, really, very, close, the, other, problem, is, working, so, many, w, es, doesn’t, give, much, time, for, the, travelling, up, and, down, to, see, him, thursday, g, was, away, on, a, course, yesterday, and, came, back, full, of, doom, and, gloom, for, along, time, we, have, relied, on, the, drug, sales, as, a, substantial, part, of, the, business, there, have, been, various, government, reports, that, have, queried, our, monopoly, and, there, is, a, move, to, insist, that, we, provide, prescriptions, for, all, the, drugs, and, then, allow, the, farmers, or, pet, owners, to, buy, the, drugs, from, whatever, source, they, want, internet, pharmacy, or, us, it, means, however, that, the, professional, fees, will, inevitably, have, to, rise, to, compensate, which, means, it, will, be, uneconomic, for, the, farmers, to, use, us, so, they, will, not, in, the, present, economic, climate, which, means, no, job, carlisle, brampton, and, dalston, vets, are, all, starting, to, write, prescriptions, which, means, that, we, are, going, to, have, to, follow, suit, the, farmer, who, rents, my, field, was, silaging, tonight, i, got, back, from, house, group, to, find, a, tractor, follow, me, in, to, start, rowing, up, as, they, had, been, at, it, all, day, i, decided, to, take, the, gates, off, their, hinges, as, it, is, a, narrow, gap, and, at, that, time, of, night, a, clunk, against, the, pillar, is, ok, but, i, don’t, want, to, have, to, replace, my, wooden, gates, they, had, just, started, to, pick, it, up, when, i, went, to, bed, at, 11pm, so, no, idea, what, time, they, finished, friday, g, is, off, ill, help, it, looked, as, though, i, might, miss, out, on, the, w, e, away, as, he, is, working, the, w, e, but, the, fact, it, would, have, meant, 3, w, e’s, in, a, row, and, 6, nights, in, a, row, managed, to, help, persuade, one, of, the, assistants, to, step, in, thankfully, so, i, finished, at, lunch, time, and, slept, to, catch, up, from, the, on, call, until, the, kids, came, home, from, school, and, set, off, for, the, w, e, saturday, 25th, may, dovedale, in, the, derbyshire, peak, district, definitely, should, have, more, w, es, away, and, not, working, we, had, a, great, time, with, the, cousins, stayed, at, a, farmhouse, b, b, it, use, to, be, a, working, farm, but, is, too, high, up, and, to, small, to, sustain, the, dairy, so, they, went, out, of, that, 3, yrs, ago, beef, and, sheep, was, not, making, any, money, so, they, have, concentrated, on, tourism, and, grass, let, the, fields, his, neighbours, are, now, renting, the, land, and, farming, it, beautiful, walk, along, the, valley, and, had, tea, out, relaxed, and, slept, like, a, log, sunday, great, british, summer, makes, you, wonder, why, any, one, would, want, to, go, abroad, wet, and, cold, so, went, to, water, world, and, watched, the, kids, big, and, little, go, flying, around, the, flumes, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, my, brother, and, family, the, boys, would, play, footie, all, day, long, and, be, happy, monday, off, to, catch, my, breath, and, tidy, up, flat, for, tenants, arriving, thursday, spent, day, trying, to, reduce, the, weeds, in, garden, and, went, swimming, at, night, the, boys, still, wanted, to, play, footie, where, do, they, get, their, energy, if, i, could, bottle, it, i, would, make, a, fortune, tuesday, it, felt, like, hard, work, going, back, to, work, after, time, off, i, always, seem, to, be, tired, and, head, achy, it, seems, to, be, hard, work, to, get, going, again, ai, just, don’t, feel, like, doing, anything, including, writing, this, diary, but, the, good, news, is, that, we, have, a, new, booted, bantie, bertie, the, cockerel, and, he, is, now, ensconced, in, his, run, we, are, hoping, to, get, him, some, young, ladies, in, the, not, too, distant, future, he, is, cute, and, a, is, over, the, moon, about, him, weds, getting, going, again, spent, time, talking, with, my, wife, who, as, always, puts, things, back, in, to, line, communication, went, to, do, some, pregnancy, diagnosis, early, this, morning, and, the, farmer, was, complaining, about, the, cost, of, his, vet, bill, and, is, wanting, to, learn, how, to, check, cows, to, see, if, they, are, in, calf, prior, to, drying, off, the, whole, economics, of, dairy, practice, with, milk, at, 13p, per, litre, is, beginning, to, hit, home, to, them, cannot, be, nice, starting, up, again, to, realise, that, you, cannot, make, money, at, doing, it, one, of, the, other, vets, is, in, really, bad, form, this, week, and, is, causing, a, lot, of, friction, and, we, will, have, to, deal, with, it, as, the, staff, are, up, in, arms, at, least, i, am, off, tomorrow, prior, to, working, jubilee, w, e, my, mother, in, law, arrived, which, the, kids, love, complete, with, her, special, treats, for, them, snowballs, went, out, for, dinner, with, mother, in, law, but, too, tired, to, enjoy, it, due, to, early, morning, caesarean, thursday, off, spent, morning, getting, flat, ready, as, we, have, new, tenants, moving, in, and, clearing, up, while, the, girls, went, shopping, dry, weather, but, intermittent, heavy, showers, tackled, the, long, grass, at, front, but, the, grass, got, too, wet, and, clogged, mower, picked, up, kids, and, did, the, fatherly, bit, went, to, bed, early, as, head, achy, and, washed, out, and, caught, up, on, zzzz’s, friday, start, of, the, jubilee, w, e, and, on, duty, for, the, next, 5, days, until, 5pm, weds, evening, work, busy, with, bits, and, pieces, and, farmers, complaining, that, it, is, too, wet, to, silage, one, of, the, vets, had, issued, a, pets, export, certificate, for, a, cat, to, come, back, into, uk, but, had, put, it, down, for, 2, years, not, one, it, is, only, valid, for, 2, years, in, dogs, but, 1, year, in, cats, typical, friday, afternoon, problem, to, sort, out, the, help, line, is, closed, for, training, and, maff, offices, are, closed, for, the, bh, w, e, i, don’t, think, there, is, a, way, around, it, either, but, will, not, be, able, to, sort, it, out, till, weds, day, and, they, are, due, on, ferry, on, tuesday, oops, also, a, bitch’s, owner, came, in, to, ask, if, we, were, open, tues, as, she, is, due, on, that, date, and, will, probably, need, a, caesaer, johnboy, called, in, the, evening, wanting, me, to, go, to, the, loyal, supporters, meeting, at, carlisle, united, as, a, spy, i’m, on, call, so, couldn’t, oblige, thank, goodness, sat, 1st, june, office, staff, were, asking, why, is, there, only, 2, vets, on, the, whole, w, e, and, i, am, beginning, to, feel, the, same, should, have, split, it, up, and, had, more, staff, on, but, at, least, the, others, will, get, a, break, and, come, back, refreshed, but, i, feel, like, i, am, looking, down, the, barrel, of, a, gun, horrendous, calving, on, a, heifer, that, was, in, calf, by, mistake, to, its, father, it, was, supposed, to, have, gone, back, to, its, breeder, but, the, buyer, was, still, tied, up, under, the, twenty, day, rule, the, calf, had, died, and, was, gassed, up, ended, up, by, caesaering, in, spite, of, rotten, calf, 2, hours, hard, work, and, the, heifer, will, at, best, be, very, ill, for, several, days, sun, 2nd, june, a, day, of, football, went, to, church, and, made, a, quick, exit, to, watch, the, football, as, with, everyone, else, was, quite, disappointed, at, hebron, at, night, dm, had, the, goals, and, the, reactions, to, them, on, the, big, screen, which, he, linked, to, romans, 12, therefore, i, urge, you, to, offer, your, bodies, as, living, sacrifices, this, is, your, act, of, spiritual, worship, talking, about, worship, to, god, being, everything, we, do, including, how, we, react, to, how, the, english, football, team, perform, very, clever, and, memorable, way, of, expounding, the, bible, went, straight, on, to, son, s, football, presentations, which, was, quite, fun, there, is, a, real, football, sub, culture, with, the, amateur, football, clubs, in, carlisle, all, vying, for, the, top, spot, the, old, pals, network, and, animosities, seem, to, be, very, prevalent, mon, 3rd, june, busy, night, and, early, start, 2, x, prolapses, why, always, at, a, bh, the, second, one, was, a, wild, limousin, heifer, it, charged, me, and, sent, me, flying, the, only, injury, was, a, sore, fist, where, i, thumped, it, in, the, eye, to, try, and, deflect, it, as, i, was, trying, to, get, it, away, gave, me, a, fright, it, was, a, heifer, that, was, bred, because, he, couldn’t, sell, it, store, last, year, because, of, restrictions, chatted, to, farmer, who, started, getting, up, at, 4, 30, am, during, fmd, because, he, couldn’t, sleep, he, is, still, doing, it, now, he, still, has, not, got, any, sheep, in, because, he, can’t, face, it, he, lost, his, sheep, to, the, cull, but, kept, his, cattle, i, had, started, by, admiring, the, view, he, said, yeah, it, would, be, great, apart, from, the, damn, windmills, he, has, a, brilliant, viewing, looking, out, over, the, solway, and, the, great, orton, site, and, the, windmills, remind, him, and, everyone, else, that, their, flocks, are, in, a, big, pit, he, says, he, can, still, see, them, going, and, feels, guilty, i, didn’t, have, the, heart, to, tell, him, that, of, the, 10,000, blood, samples, taken, at, gt, orton, only, 2, were, positive, a, very, big, mistake, that, has, caused, big, hurt, in, this, area, and, no, one, has, admitted, responsibility, and, no, one, ever, will, tues, 4th, june, watched, some, of, the, jubilee, stuff, on, tv, in, between, calls, amazing, sight, to, see, the, mall, full, of, people, more, than, ever, before, yet, rupert, murdoch, and, his, press, would, have, us, believe, that, the, monarchy, is, finished, we, managed, to, cope, with, just, the, two, of, us, on, call, so, may, be, i, was, right, also, made, a, start, on, byre, remind, me, next, time, we, have, a, dinner, party, on, a, bh, not, to, be, working, it, as, my, poor, wife, had, 4, kids, and, a, dinner, to, prepare, i, was, called, out, to, a, cow, caesar, at, 3, 30, and, then, had, another, call, after, that, fortunately, i, had, taken, tim, so, there, was, one, less, to, fight, but, got, back, to, be, told, that, i, had, to, have, a, bath, before, i, could, help, because, i, smelt, evening, was, really, good, fun, and, hilariously, funny, so, even, i, kept, going, to, the, wrong, side, of, midnight, which, after, an, early, start, was, pretty, good, going, i, will, have, to, get, phil, to, do, his, senator, homes, skit, at, the, wedding, weds, 5th, june, did, not, feel, like, getting, up, this, am, at, all, and, felt, even, less, like, going, into, work, managed, to, extricate, us, from, any, problems, with, the, cat, with, out, its, passport, there, is, no, give, in, the, defra, system, which, is, to, be, expected, richard, had, a, suspect, fmd, calf, on, tuesday, no, wonder, he, was, a, bit, jittery, when, i, spoke, to, him, later, on, even, though, you, know, that, it, probably, isn’t, going, to, be, a, case, and, that, the, farmer, is, panicking, it, still, sets, the, butterflies, flying, it, was, bvd, spent, over, an, hour, and, a, half, this, morning, on, the, phone, sorting, out, what, the, aw, calls, the, rubbish, queries, and, being, helpful, and, friendly, and, sorting, out, licensing, and, drugs, and, repeat, prescriptions, one, was, a, woman, complaining, about, the, neighbouring, practice, which, required, a, bit, of, tact, i, think, the, drs, must, have, been, as, busy, as, us, the, tally, for, the, celebrations, are, 1, off, ill, with, flu, and, bad, back, one, wrist, sprained, from, scooter, racing, at, a, street, party, after, all, the, kids, had, gone, to, bed, and, one, who, spent, the, w, e, visiting, her, boyfriend, in, hospital, she, had, said, that, he, needed, to, go, in, on, friday, but, the, doctors, had, put, him, off, as, it, was, the, w, e, he, was, worse, on, sunday, but, had, waited, till, after, the, football, before, ringing, priorities, priorities, thursday, went, to, house, group, which, was, really, good, and, spent, time, praying, for, the, group, church, area, and, for, world, situation, friends, are, trying, to, work, out, what, to, do, in, india, they, are, teaching, at, a, boarding, school, in, the, south, of, india, and, have, both, their, own, family, and, also, the, school, kids, to, think, about, the, consensus, is, that, the, foreign, office, advice, is, aimed, more, at, the, indian, and, pakistani, govts, than, the, uk, nationals, ian, is, supposed, to, be, visiting, and, has, a, flight, booked, so, is, still, going, at, the, moment, i, really, cant, believe, that, they, would, escalate, the, situation, but, it, will, be, tit, for, tat, and, then, going, to, the, brink, as, neither, will, want, to, break, face, the, ramifications, of, sept, 11th, still, keep, reverberating, around, the, world, as, the, balance, of, power, alters, makes, fmd, look, like, a, picnic, at, least, we, have, stable, govt, that, says, it, abides, by, the, laws, friday, the, secretary, asked, this, morning, what, did, i, want, meaning, tea, or, coffee, and, i, replied, as, i, had, prayed, wisdom, but, with, 2, sugars, we, had, a, difficult, partners, meeting, that, lunch, time, poor, timing, and, priorities, again, as, england, was, playing, i, had, assumed, they, would, lose, but, the, meeting, went, well, and, the, issues, were, discussed, amicably, enough, and, frankly, enough, so, we, all, know, where, we, are, at, and, issues, were, addressed, but, as, james, says, not, only, about, asking, for, wisdom, but, also, putting, it, into, action, at, night, leant, on, the, fence, and, talked, to, the, neighbour, as, the, thistles, i, was, supposed, to, be, cutting, down, carried, on, growing, but, it, was, a, nice, evening, he, works, for, stl, the, christian, book, distributors, he, was, saying, how, the, fire, that, they, had, just, after, he, arrived, at, the, time, seemed, a, disaster, and, caused, chaos, but, it, made, them, make, decisions, that, had, to, be, made, rather, than, continuing, with, the, status, quo, and, in, hind, sight, was, a, very, good, thing, i, wonder, when, we, look, back, whether, the, changes, and, opportunities, of, fmd, will, make, us, appreciate, the, decisions, we, have, all, had, to, make, it, made, me, think, of, the, woman, who, came, in, today, saying, she, was, one, of, the, lucky, ones, who, didn’t, get, fmd, very, much, tongue, in, cheek, as, they, are, much, worse, off, than, those, who, did, she, gave, up, her, job, as, they, couldn’t, sell, the, calves, as, they, were, born, and, so, some, one, had, to, look, after, them, so, she, went, back, home, to, work, on, the, farm, her, job, of, course, has, been, filled, in, the, mean, time, and, she, would, have, made, a, lot, more, money, for, less, hassle, if, she, had, stayed, sat, 8th, june, finished, the, long, period, of, work, and, on, call, on, sat, morning, and, it, came, down, with, heavy, showers, as, we, had, hoped, to, climb, helvellyn, today, it, eased, some, what, at, night, which, was, just, as, well, as, we, were, going, to, a, bbq, it, was, put, on, by, a, s, african, vet, from, defra, who, is, now, working, in, longtown, the, last, time, i, drove, through, to, charlie, and, ruth’s, who, were, hosting, the, bbq, was, when, the, pyres, were, all, burning, it, gave, me, a, funny, feeling, driving, back, up, there, the, food, was, good, and, the, craic, was, good, so, we, had, a, good, time, the, kids, would, have, kept, going, but, they, were, beginning, to, get, high, the, midges, once, you, get, north, of, the, border, are, definitely, worse, we, all, had, lumps, all, over, in, the, morning, sun, 9th, sb, spoke, at, church, on, jesus, healing, the, blind, man, at, pool, of, siloam, he, was, very, easy, to, follow, friends, called, in, and, stayed, for, tea, he, as, usual, blunt, and, controversial, as, ever, he, always, has, a, good, insight, and, dresses, it, up, in, taking, things, to, extremes, he, is, also, very, funny, with, it, so, had, a, good, meal, son, is, as, high, as, a, kite, as, he, is, going, camping, with, the, school, this, week, so, he, has, all, his, kit, ready, to, go, and, would, not, settle, to, go, to, sleep, and, kept, the, other, boys, awake, mon, 10th, pouring, down, in, time, for, the, school, camp, at, borrowdale, never, mind, they’ll, enjoy, it, any, way, 3, farms, have, had, silage, pits, burst, because, the, grass, has, been, put, in, too, wet, if, silage, is, made, when, the, grass, is, too, wet, it, flows, very, slowly, and, cannot, support, its, own, weight, so, it, bursts, the, side, walls, and, will, flow, out, of, the, heap, that, it, has, been, put, in, if, there, is, plenty, of, effluent, coming, off, it, will, usually, escape, from, the, normal, collecting, systems, and, if, it, gets, into, the, becks, it, is, worse, than, slurry, hunters, stream, was, black, with, effluent, and, the, environment, agency, were, out, testing, the, water, quality, so, they, will, be, for, the, high, jump, the, contractors, are, so, far, behind, and, the, grass, is, getting, so, long, and, bulky, that, it, doesn’t, dry, out, as, quickly, so, there, may, well, be, a, few, more, but, at, least, the, farmers, will, have, had, warning, so, it, will, be, their, own, fault, the, school, kids, are, back, for, their, work, experience, week, it, must, be, hard, for, them, to, follow, what, is, going, on, but, they, seem, to, enjoy, them, selves, the, worksheets, definitely, help, to, give, some, structure, and, a, feel, for, what, is, going, on, crusaders, meeting, at, night, pretty, disappointing, response, so, not, a, lot, we, can, do, tues, 11th, june, workload, has, set, in, and, i’m, just, cruising, and, managed, to, get, to, the, gym, while, on, first, so, feel, full, of, energy, why, do, you, feel, full, of, energy, after, expending, some, spent, half, an, hour, on, net, trying, to, get, holiday, organised, but, finding, places, for, 6, is, not, as, easy, the, weather, is, better, for, son, camping, and, should, be, better, until, the, w, e, means, we, will, hopefully, be, quiet, at, work, as, they, all, go, out, into, the, fields, weds, 12th, no, calls, over, night, first, time, since, finishing, with, defra, not, had, a, call, at, night, summer, is, truly, here, there, was, a, call, just, on, half, time, at, 8.15, which, i, did, during, the, break, so, got, to, see, the, second, half, and, england, drew, 0, 0, but, are, through, t, o, the, next, round, caught, up, on, paper, work, and, have, sorted, a, lot, of, things, so, they, are, in, place, for, the, 2, new, vets, thurs, 13th, meeting, with, bank, manager, for, executive, lunch, sandwiches, from, bells, he, asked, how, was, the, new, normality, which, seems, an, excellent, phrase, he, seemed, happy, enough, but, it, is, always, interesting, to, see, how, an, outsider, views, the, information, given, the, problem, is, usually, knowing, the, questions, to, ask, i, think, that, is, probably, he, seemed, happy, enough, but, it, is, always, interesting, to, see, how, an, outsider, views, the, information, given, the, problem, is, usually, knowing, the, questions, to, ask, i, think, that, is, probably, true, of, the, inquiries, into, fmd, unless, you, know, the, questions, you, will, not, get, the, right, answers, went, abseiling, up, at, sandale, with, the, house, group, from, church, and, had, a, bbq, it, would, have, been, nicer, if, the, wind, hadn’t, howled, i, had, gone, prepared, for, british, summer, weather, but, it, was, still, pretty, nippy, it, was, great, fun, fri, read, another, test, that, had, ir, s, for, tb, inconclusive, that, will, have, to, be, retested, in, 60, days, while, i, was, writing, up, the, paper, work, the, farmer’s, wife, was, saying, that, the, kids, were, all, off, school, and, nursery, with, hand, foot, and, mouth, she, had, taken, the, youngest, who, was, ill, with, the, middle, kid, to, the, doctor, the, doctor, had, said, what, it, was, and, the, middle, kid, burst, into, tears, as, he, thought, they, were, going, to, take, her, baby, brother, outside, and, shoot, him, it, is, funny, but, also, very, sad, the, same, farmer, was, really, fed, up, as, the, cows, were, all, supposed, to, be, tb, tested, prior, to, arriving, on, the, farm, he, had, also, let, them, out, into, a, long, 5, acre, field, with, the, water, troughs, at, the, far, end, of, the, field, half, the, cows, had, not, found, the, trough, and, so, were, very, thirsty, by, the, time, they, came, back, at, milking, time, the, idea, that, you, just, go, and, replace, the, cows, just, like, that, is, not, quite, the, case, sat, 15th, june, saturday, morning, spent, it, gardening, the, strawberries, are, coming, and, even, though, the, gooseberries, aren’t, quite, ripe, picked, some, to, start, the, harvest, and, the, one, strawberry, that, was, reddish, then, went, to, visit, friend, and, the, wide, screen, tv, for, the, football, match, no, one, expected, any, more, english, progress, but, the, lads, surprised, me, and, played, a, stormer, so, the, game, against, brazil, will, become, the, match, the, practice, bbq, in, watery, june, sunshine, was, good, fun, but, the, ground, was, too, wet, to, play, silly, games, or, even, footie, the, food, was, excellent, aw, was, notable, by, her, absence, hey, ho, bbq, is, in, need, of, a, revamp, maybe, abseiling, though, i, don’t, think, i, can, see, either, r, or, aw, going, for, it, showed, s, around, flat, and, met, her, parents, remind, me, to, be, wise, with, my, kids, sun, felt, tired, and, ill, and, washed, out, after, slowing, down, and, switching, off, after, a, busy, day, yesterday, and, all, week, watched, the, ireland, match, which, was, very, close, spent, rest, of, day, sleeping, or, just, chilling, out, mon, went, testing, at, k, and, t’d, they, are, really, nice, lads, but, not, too, hot, on, the, academic, front, but, good, fun, they, were, in, good, form, and, hoping, to, get, the, low, down, on, the, new, vets, yes, they, are, young, free, and, single, as, far, as, i, know, i, pity, their, chances, spent, a, lazy, day, in, the, sun, at, a, gentle, pace, so, quite, enjoyed, myself, caught, up, with, the, paperwork, at, night, and, feel, mellow, tuesday, too, many, o’s, one, call, was, cancelled, but, the, other, one, still, wanted, the, call, so, some, one, went, to, the, wrong, o, and, i, had, to, make, a, mad, dash, and, pour, oil, on, the, waters, to, explain, why, we, are, so, late, oops, so, more, testing, and, a, quiet, day, wife, also, had, her, quiet, day, there, was, supposed, to, be, a, group, of, them, going, for, a, retreat, day, but, the, speaker, had, cancelled, so, she, did, it, herself, with, r, and, it, went, very, well, she, was, exhausted, after, giving, out, all, day, met, up, with, lads, at, night, didn’t, get, to, gym, again, as, i, had, to, go, and, calve, a, schistasoma, yuk, weds, tried, again, to, work, out, what, we, are, going, to, do, with, summer, holidays, no, doubt, we, will, get, organised, eventually, came, home, early, for, lunch, and, had, forgotten, that, it, was, coffee, morning, here, so, felt, out, of, place, amongst, so, many, women, skipped, off, early, and, went, for, a, cycle, to, make, up, for, missing, gym, did, first, part, with, a, and, annie, and, then, zipped, around, for, a, bit, which, was, good, thursday, k, and, t, had, an, i, r, again, i, need, a, new, supply, of, little, green, forms, to, put, this, in, context, prior, to, this, year, in, 16, years, in, practice, i, have, had, 4, i, r’s, i, am, doing, that, this, week, so, another, farm, under, restrictions, friday, bad, hair, day, england, lost, och, well, never, mind, such, is, life, richard, drummond’s, report, that, the, svs, was, unprepared, yeah, we, had, all, been, saying, it, but, i, did, not, realise, that, the, svs, had, been, saying, it, 2, years, ago, has, been, picked, up, by, the, audit, office, there, is, a, report, case, of, fmd, in, a, pig, from, leicester, mkt, and, i, had, another, i, r, and, met, with, jm, a, temporary, vet, with, carlisle, svs, on, why, we, had, not, done, the, tests, allocated, mostly, cos, they, aren’t, to, do, he, also, was, very, cynical, about, the, changes, in, defra, and, the, management, ethos, has, not, changed, he, brought, a, message, back, from, them, that, the, test, we, had, sent, back, because, the, guy, is, an, old, recluse, that, is, impossible, to, deal, with, we, had, to, do, as, they, did, not, have, the, resources, what, they, are, responsible, for, ensuring, that, they, are, done, and, sorting, out, the, recalcitrant, had, the, afternoon, off, and, ran, round, after, the, kids, while, wife, did, reports, next, week, must, be, better, sat, 22nd, june, wedding, day, for, d, and, s, yippee, d, and, his, best, man, and, usher, plus, 3, others, arrived, last, night, and, it, was, really, nice, to, have, young, people, around, again, i, have, forgotten, how, much, i, enjoy, young, people, i, must, be, getting, too, old, and, cynical, c, looked, after, our, boys, and, a, went, into, town, it, was, really, nice, s, could, not, stop, smiling, and, it, is, wigton, carnival, day, so, there, were, two, pipe, bands, as, well, which, could, be, heard, drifting, over, the, vows, was, in, his, kilt, i, should, have, got, mine, on, for, the, occasion, the, reception, was, at, tullie, house, which, is, a, really, nice, relaxed, venue, we, were, seated, opposite, friends, so, it, was, really, nice, catching, up, with, them, b, d, are, just, back, from, another, wedding, in, vancouver, and, really, impressed, with, bc, they, are, out, doors, fanatics, so, the, skiing, mountains, and, whistler, really, is, their, thing, barnes, who, was, looking, after, the, kids, at, night, is, going, out, there, for, his, gap, year, to, work, in, a, book, shop, should, be, really, great, for, him, there, was, a, celeidh, in, the, evening, but, i, only, lasted, for, 3, dances, i, was, absolutely, exhausted, i, didn’t, realise, how, tired, i, was, sunday, fortunately, it, was, a, family, service, ie, doesn’t, start, until, 11;00, it, was, lead, by, the, young, adults, group, so, was, really, fresh, and, good, they, also, don’t, take, themselves, too, seriously, but, do, take, jesus, seriously, and, it, was, good, monday, missed, swimming, again, cos, work, was, really, busy, crusaders, meeting, at, night, at, rydal, very, good, met, up, with, some, of, the, leaders, i, haven’t, met, before, folk, who, work, with, young, people, are, always, good, fun, and, have, a, wicked, sense, of, humour, do, you, need, one, to, do, youth, work, or, does, youth, work, give, you, one, tuesday, diary, did, not, get, filled, in, from, here, on, as, on, weds, morning, i, reached, into, back, of, the, car, and, my, back, went, i, tore, muscles, in, it, a, long, time, ago, and, it, often, niggles, but, as, long, as, i, keep, doing, the, exercises, for, stretching, and, building, up, the, muscles, it, is, ok, but, i, have, missed, doing, the, swimming, relevant, any, way, saw, stars, and, in, agony, so, flat, on, my, back, and, stretching, every, 2, hrs, and, sore, saturday, 29th, june, my, back, is, slowly, improving, i, can, move, around, and, type, i, can, do, the, stretching, ok, but, stiff, and, achy, rather, than, spasm, work, must, have, been, bad, for, the, two, left, as, it, was, going, to, be, short, staffed, with, out, me, dropping, out, nothing, i, can, do, about, it, the, new, vet, called, around, to, look, at, the, flat, before, moving, in, a, month’s, time, she, came, with, her, mother, their, farm, was, culled, out, with, fmd, late, on, and, they, had, just, got, the, herd, to, where, they, wanted, the, breeding, her, mum, was, talking, about, it, was, going, through, a, grieving, period, and, how, some, days, it, was, yes, carry, on, and, get, going, again, and, other, days, it, was, why, bother, it, is, just, all, too, much, hassle, it, will, take, a, long, time, for, the, memories, in, the, farming, community, to, fader, and, with, the, acknowledgement, that, it, was, much, better, to, get, the, disease, and, get, it, over, with, the, cooperation, of, farmers, will, be, even, less, they, are, the, 17th, generation, on, the, farm, the, whole, concept, of, bio, security, needs, to, be, looked, at, and, farmer, education, on, how, the, disease, is, spread, the, self, imposed, isolation, of, not, sending, kids, to, school, etc, is, just, stupid, but, to, go, against, the, flow, is, very, difficult, that, as, well, as, the, defra, imposed, ridiculous, rules, they, were, not, allowed, to, leave, the, house, for, 3, months, they, just, view, this, as, a, punishment, imposed, because, they, refused, to, let, the, hefted, flock, be, culled, they, were, right, not, to, the, old, tenants, have, moved, out, of, the, cottage, eddie, and, ruth, seemed, to, really, enjoy, it, as, a, summer, holiday, while, at, work, a, change, is, as, good, as, a, rest, so, they, say, i, have, looked, at, jobs, again, but, nothing, appeals, there, is, a, job, which, i, wouldn’t, mind, doing, as, a, consultancy, but, doubt, anything, will, come, will, have, to, wait, and, continue, to, see, what, happens, went, out, for, a, meal, to, giannis, at, night, as, my, dad, is, up, for, the, w, e, sunday, p, spoke, at, family, focus, at, church, and, was, very, encouraging, he, is, always, a, revelation, as, he, takes, things, as, they, are, not, as, they, should, be, watched, brazil, beat, germany, to, win, the, world, cup, wet, weather, and, kids, out, of, sorts, and, back, still, sore, yuk, monday, drove, for, the, first, time, and, dropped, my, dad, off, in, carlisle, but, it, was, pretty, sore, by, the, time, i, got, back, dad, was, in, good, form, and, he, has, enjoyed, his, time, up, here, but, he, is, getting, older, and, with, being, in, london, we, are, going, to, have, to, visit, on, a, more, regular, basis, went, into, work, and, did, some, paper, work, and, answered, phone, and, felt, better, for, doing, sthg, as, pretty, bored, but, couldn’t, sit, still, or, really, get, going, either, came, home, and, lay, down, again, d, came, around, at, night, called, in, absolutely, hyper, he, and, a, going, to, split, up, which, is, not, so, good, even, if, it, is, not, that, un, expected, the, thing, that, has, brought, to, a, head, is, the, fact, a, is, seeing, some, one, else, who, is, also, married, not, a, good, situation, lads, came, around, at, night, which, was, good, fun, and, we, had, a, good, time, tuesday, i, am, now, the, father, of, a, teenager, a’s, b’day, so, it, was, good, to, see, her, opening, her, presents, this, morning, back, is, easing, a, lot, so, did, small, animal, today, and, i, am, moving, freely, but, still, doing, the, exercises, a’s, birthday, is, also, always, a, time, for, reflection, as, she, was, born, a, year, to, the, day, after, we, arrived, in, cumbria, so, we, have, been, here, 14, years, a, long, time, the, future, is, also, looking, a, bit, uncertain, work, wise, with, more, farmers, complaining, about, the, prices, of, their, milk, and, animals, hence, they, don’t, want, to, pay, their, bills, weds, to, saturday, as, usual, the, diary, gets, missed, when, the, crisis, hits, so, i, am, writing, this, on, the, following, tuesday, and, bringing, the, diary, entries, up, to, date, weds, morning, i, was, driving, through, wigton, having, done, my, first, farm, call, since, doing, my, back, when, there, were, lots, of, flashing, lights, and, an, ambulance, and, an, unmarked, police, car, with, all, its, lights, on, going, through, wigton, they, stopped, at, the, lay, by, in, wigton, high, st, the, traffic, was, slow, but, i, did, not, see, anything, later, on, i, was, coming, back, in, to, wigton, from, another, call, and, the, by, pass, was, closed, the, office, was, full, of, news, that, the, by, pass, had, been, closed, because, of, a, stabbing, and, that, a, welshman, and, a, wigton, woman, had, been, taken, to, hospital, and, a, wigton, man, had, been, arrested, for, attempted, murder, i, got, a, sinking, feeling, as, d, had, been, around, on, monday, saying, about, ali, having, a, boy, friend, i, said, to, wife, but, she, said, surely, not, i, got, back, after, work, and, a, friend, arrived, and, unfortunately, it, was, d, the, story, emerged, over, the, next, few, days, how, he, had, forced, his, wife, at, knife, point, to, take, him, to, where, she, was, meeting, the, boyfriend, and, there, he, attacked, him, the, sort, of, story, you, only, here, about, in, the, papers, and, crime, programmes, so, we, have, had, the, police, taking, statements, and, trying, to, come, to, terms, with, it, he, is, usually, a, mild, almost, submissive, personality, and, he, had, flipped, but, really, weird, they, have, 3, girls, who, are, now, going, to, be, really, mixed, up, having, a, father, who, attempts, to, kill, their, mother, is, not, nice, so, i, missed, the, leaving, party, for, the, locum, who, has, been, working, for, us, for, the, past, few, months, which, by, all, accounts, was, very, good, saturday, 6th, july, still, in, shell, shock, over, d, and, a, i, still, cannot, believe, what, has, happened, went, in, saturday, morning, and, sorted, my, car, and, got, testing, list, up, to, date, there, is, a, lot, in, the, veterinary, press, about, the, future, of, the, lvi, system, and, the, future, of, farm, animal, practice, the, future, is, not, looking, good, the, short, term, is, fine, if, anything, we, will, have, a, huge, amount, of, work, and, we, can, live, off, the, fmd, capital, that, the, farmers, have, but, once, that, begins, to, run, out, they, and, we, will, be, in, serious, difficulties, the, economics, are, against, the, farm, animal, practice, went, out, for, a, brilliant, meal, and, had, a, really, good, evening, at, c’s, her, husband, is, a, detective, sgt, and, had, been, called, out, because, there, was, yet, another, serious, incident, this, time, at, a, night, club, in, cockermouth, there, is, a, 22, year, old, in, newcastle, hospital, with, head, injuries, so, felt, sorry, for, c, as, she, cooked, and, hostessed, with, out, her, better, half, sunday, church, was, good, with, sg, on, the, character, of, god, he, was, quite, funny, with, his, illustrations, of, fatherly, things, from, his, life, espy, as, his, son, is, quite, a, character, met, up, with, dc, who, was, a, defra, vet, from, sa, he, was, in, good, form, and, has, another, locum, set, up, for, when, he, finishes, at, longtown, monday, back, into, full, swing, again, but, not, much, happening, read, the, test, and, felt, a, lot, happier, as, i, didn’t, have, to, leave, the, dreaded, piece, of, green, paper, as, everything, passed, of, the, farms, i, went, on, though, it, was, interesting, to, note, that, the, farmers, are, all, having, problems, with, their, backs, again, while, they, were, pressure, washing, and, not, amongst, stock, they, were, fine, but, going, back, to, pushing, animals, around, the, bad, backs, are, back, the, topic, is, probably, raised, because, of, the, fact, i, have, been, off, with, a, bad, back, du, called, in, as, he, is, replacing, d, on, the, railway, until, they, can, get, something, sorted, on, a, more, permanent, basis, he, stayed, for, 2, years, next, door, while, doing, his, railtrack, training, the, people, at, work, cannot, believe, that, dave, has, done, sthg, like, this, as, he, usually, if, anything, a, submissive, guy, du, had, just, got, the, keys, to, his, new, house, in, manchester, where, he, is, based, now, and, was, not, very, happy, to, be, posted, back, up, to, cumbria, he, hasn’t, even, managed, to, move, in, tuesday, work, very, quiet, and, long, lunches, good, for, getting, other, things, done, but, pretty, boring, looked, at, rota, and, checked, websites, reports, to, be, published, on, 18th, july, spent, time, sorting, out, rotas, and, booking, up, and, reorganising, my, kit, weds, day, off, went, into, carlisle, and, was, bounced, by, my, wife, in, to, getting, my, hair, cut, in, what, i, assume, is, an, expensive, hairdressers, she, was, getting, hers, done, and, dragged, me, in, and, it, was, a, fait, accompli, at, least, i, assume, it, is, expensive, as, she, won’t, tell, me, how, much, it, is, and, she, let, me, go, off, to, tesco’s, and, said, she, would, pay, for, both, wandered, around, book, shop, in, carlisle, and, met, wife, s, mum, off, the, bus, the, vet, student, from, usa, arrived, for, a, couple, of, days, jamie, who, is, not, as, i, assumed, male, but, female, it, is, amazing, how, you, make, assumptions, when, you, read, e, mails, and, take, messages, she, is, in, uk, for, 12, wks, and, friend, has, given, her, our, address, as, his, wife, is, about, to, have, twins, so, he, thought, it, better, not, to, have, more, people, than, really, necessary, in, his, house, there, are, a, few, babies, at, the, moment, got, a, photo, of, e, this, morning, and, friend, called, around, to, say, other, friends, had, had, a, baby, but, he, couldn’t, remember, whether, it, was, a, boy, or, a, girl, learnt, later, it, is, a, boy, thursday, not, a, lot, for, j, to, see, called, in, to, see, friend’s, new, kittens, posh, becks, both, have, cat, flu, he, is, busy, painting, house, and, tidying, up, for, the, wedding, never, seen, his, yard, as, tidy, must, tell, abbi, to, get, a, move, on, and, maybe, he, will, finish, off, some, of, the, building, work, as, well, did, 2, calvings, in, the, afternoon, and, finally, read, through, the, audit, office, report, which, i, downloaded, ages, ago, they, were, pretty, accurate, apart, from, nick, brown, insisting, it, was, all, going, splendidly, well, there, really, must, be, a, better, working, relationship, between, the, ministry, svs, vets, and, the, vets, in, general, practice, and, so, much, better, communication, the, other, point, that, is, never, made, is, that, all, farms, should, have, a, mass, disposal, plan, as, part, of, their, iacs, return, in, order, to, keep, fmd, on, peoples, minds, as, it, is, already, disappearing, as, a, part, of, history, and, history, will, repeat, itself, because, nobody, listens, and, most, of, the, anguish, and, delays, were, in, the, disposal, systems, friday, dropped, j, off, in, wigton, to, catch, the, train, it, is, always, strange, with, having, students, because, they, stay, in, our, house, they, are, very, much, part, of, our, lives, and, then, they, drop, out, of, our, lives, another, former, student, who, is, just, back, from, sa, called, in, and, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, her, she, was, on, her, way, back, to, edinburgh, for, her, 5, year, reunion, he, has, been, qualified, 5, years, and, i, thought, it, was, 2, or, three, one, of, the, vets, was, off, ill, so, it, meant, a, bit, of, a, run, around, today, as, 2, others, were, on, holiday, but, it, was, good, to, be, busy, and, get, some, adrenalin, pumping, saturday, 13th, july, working, saturday, morning, on, days, like, this, i, think, it, is, great, to, be, a, small, animal, vet, the, consults, were, all, straight, forward, and, i, could, chat, to, the, owners, with, out, having, to, stop, and, think, what, to, do, about, the, animals, that, and, 2, owners, were, really, appreciative, of, what, i, was, doing, so, felt, good, i, think, that, is, one, of, the, things, about, working, for, defra, no, one, appreciated, what, you, were, doing, ok, some, appreciated, the, concern, and, effort, and, the, way, you, did, it, but, no, one, really, thought, what, you, were, doing, was, good, like, putting, pets, down, it, is, for, the, best, but, no, one, likes, it, beautiful, day, today, too, the, sun, shining, and, picking, strawberries, and, having, a, bar, b, q, was, really, very, pleasant, my, brother, always, says, the, best, thing, about, nz, where, he, lives, is, that, he, can, plan, to, have, a, barb, in, 2, wks, time, whereas, here, you, have, to, go, with, the, flow, sun, 14th, first, call, so, wandered, around, seeing, ill, cows, several, lots, of, drugs, to, put, out, as, a, lot, for, the, restocking, farms, have, yet, to, get, their, medicine, cabinets, back, up, to, strength, had, a, collie, hit, by, a, tractor, and, its, eye, had, been, knocked, out, of, its, socket, urgh, eyes, give, me, the, creeps, mon, 15th, operating, day, as, we, are, doing, the, anaesthetic, monitoring, so, plenty, of, ops, booked, in, health, and, safety, requires, us, to, check, for, operator, exposure, to, anaesthetic, gases, as, our, new, system, has, a, scavenging, system, and, is, light, years, ahead, of, the, one, we, use, to, have, it, is, a, waste, of, time, but, we, have, to, have, the, checks, done, but, i, wonder, how, many, other, practices, actually, do, we, have, never, been, checked, up, upon, a, police, man, arrived, at, the, front, desk, while, i, was, on, the, phone, the, head, nurse, disappeared, as, soon, as, she, saw, the, marked, police, car, which, struck, me, as, very, suspicious, after, he, had, booked, an, appointment, for, his, dog, and, he, had, left, i, was, curious, to, know, where, she, had, disappeared, to, she, had, gone, to, check, that, the, medicines, cabinet, where, we, keep, the, gun, and, dangerous, drugs, was, in, fact, locked, as, while, we, are, operating, we, keep, it, open, so, as, to, have, easy, access, to, the, emergency, drugs, the, gun, licences, insist, that, it, is, kept, locked, at, all, times, and, immediate, access, to, a, police, officer, coming, to, check, it, must, be, allowed, and, we, never, been, checked, up, upon, yet, farmers, are, all, busy, with, field, work, and, are, not, wanting, to, even, think, about, any, routine, work, so, it, could, be, a, quiet, week, tuesday, 16th, beautiful, weather, and, raspberries, coming, along, nicely, wife, s, mum, is, busy, making, jam, and, mile, high, pies, yum, yum, partners, meeting, at, lunchtime, why, do, they, always, make, me, so, depressed, the, subjects, were, more, of, the, same, how, do, we, cope, with, the, changes, in, the, drug, sales, prices, and, how, do, we, compete, with, irish, drugs, being, brought, in, illegally, we, got, a, little, further, forward, and, will, hopefully, be, able, to, make, a, decision, on, it, by, the, deadline, in, september, we, need, to, look, at, new, ways, of, bringing, in, revenue, streams, but, i, don’t, think, there, is, a, willing, ness, to, look, at, the, radical, so, i, will, have, to, keep, working, away, at, it, weds, 17th, met, up, with, the, lads, last, night, to, pray, but, the, craic, was, good, and, did, more, chat, and, joking, than, praying, t’was, good, i, is, apparently, having, a, good, time, at, the, cs, lewis, convention, but, has, yet, to, open, the, book, stall, he, sells, books, and, specialises, in, antiquarian, and, first, editions, of, c.s, lewis, the, one, thing, about, the, internet, is, that, it, frees, up, communication, and, searching, for, the, really, obscure, sorry, i, the, weather, broke, today, and, the, rain, came, and, with, it, all, the, calls, as, the, farmers, got, all, the, routine, stuff, done, which, was, good, for, the, last, of, the, school, kids, which, have, plagued, us, for, the, past, few, weeks, vet, students, next, but, at, least, they, can, chat, away, with, out, me, having, to, make, all, the, effort, thurs, 18th, went, o, a, farm, today, which, restocked, in, feb, after, doing, its, 4, months, waiting, and, has, yet, to, have, a, tb, test, asked, him, whether, i, should, chase, it, up, but, he, like, everyone, else, should, be, leaving, it, to, october, and, housing, maff, efficiency, rules, we, also, tested, 44, imported, heifers, that, were, supposed, to, be, blood, sampled, within, 7, days, of, calving, but, they, have, been, missed, i, have, no, confidence, in, either, of, the, reports, to, actually, achieve, anything, part, of, me, feels, i, should, try, to, contact, the, media, and, try, to, get, them, to, push, the, agenda, along, but, i, don’t, feel, it, would, achieve, much, apart, from, sticking, my, head, above, the, parapet, which, would, not, do, much, i, have, asked, for, copies, but, none, have, arrived, yet, fri, 19th, demob, happy, i’m, on, holiday, from, 5, 30pm, so, it, will, be, good, to, catch, up, on, all, the, things, i, should, have, done, but, not, done, the, garden, is, a, mess, but, we, are, getting, on, top, of, it, slowly, in, some, ways, i, am, glad, to, be, off, when, the, lli, is, reporting, as, at, least, i, will, not, get, wound, up, so, this, is, me, signing, off, for, the, week, next, diary, will, be, on, sat, week, holiday, week, beginning, saturday, 20th, july, saturday, 27th, july, having, had, a, week, off, i, am, feeling, a, lot, happier, about, life, in, general, we, have, been, to, a, few, of, the, nights, at, the, keswick, convention, it, is, an, amazing, set, up, with, over, 12,000, people, coming, together, over, 3, weeks, in, keswick, and, meeting, up, for, bible, teaching, and, to, worship, god, there, is, a, big, tent, that, is, set, up, on, the, back, of, the, convention, centre, by, the, time, we, arrive, it, is, always, full, and, we, were, not, late, on, the, friday, evening, there, were, people, standing, outside, the, kids, went, to, a, youth, event, on, of, all, things, ezekiel, not, exactly, an, easy, choice, of, bible, book, to, convey, to, 19, 14, yr, olds, but, they, really, enjoyed, the, wacky, games, and, the, way, they, mixed, teaching, and, songs, and, games, activities, they, seemed, to, be, mostly, uni, students, who, seemed, to, get, as, much, fun, out, of, it, as, the, kids, my, brother, and, family, were, up, and, the, cousins, love, getting, together, and, even, a, joined, in, the, football, and, tennis, even, though, her, hand, to, eye, co, ordination, is, not, the, best, she, has, taken, up, running, every, day, so, i, have, been, out, with, her, but, my, back, is, still, not, right, and, i, can, feel, it, at, the, slightest, provocation, must, go, swimming, again, my, brother, also, asked, wife, what, diy, needed, doing, as, he, is, a, real, enthusiast, give, me, gardening, any, time, so, we, made, a, door, for, one, of, the, sheds, which, i, have, been, putting, off, for, the, past, 6, years, as, once, i, start, there, are, another, 5, to, do, he, is, also, a, sailing, fan, so, hired, a, sail, boat, and, went, sailing, which, was, great, fun, the, kids, had, a, canoe, and, we, raced, up, and, down, the, lake, and, the, kids, swapped, around, and, went, to, explore, islands, it, was, really, good, the, weather, helped, it, was, scorching, we, also, went, to, a, wedding, of, one, of, our, close, friends, son, i, decided, i, am, going, to, start, teaching, my, kids, the, etiquette, of, weddings, as, the, groom, could, have, done, a, better, job, it, isn’t, really, his, fault, as, he, is, young, and, has, not, thought, things, out, sun, went, to, the, all, age, service, at, the, tent, at, keswick, there, were, too, many, kids, even, for, me, but, the, mix, of, action, songs, and, asking, kids, things, and, an, action, talk, meant, that, those, leading, it, kept, the, kids, involved, it, was, good, to, see, spent, the, afternoon, on, the, lake, it, was, really, nice, day, mon, yep, it, was, a, real, monday, morning, with, my, in, tray, over, flowing, 2, rota’s, to, sort, and, 2, weeks, of, testing, to, try, to, arrange, the, only, goodish, news, was, that, the, ministry, have, finally, decided, to, put, the, restocking, farms, on, annual, testing, which, means, at, least, we, know, where, we, stand, and, can, plan, it, will, mean, a, lot, of, work, for, us, the, bad, news, was, that, the, oft, investigation, have, sent, us, a, horrific, questionnaire, which, needs, filled, in, and, one, of, my, partners, has, had, a, go, and, not, got, very, far, unfortunately, and, it, needs, to, be, in, by, tomorrow, forget, it, the, 2, new, vets, have, started, and, so, we, are, settling, them, in, and, they, are, picking, up, the, ropes, quite, quickly, which, is, ace, on, call, at, night, out, twice, for, bad, calvings, that’s, the, end, of, my, holiday, f, feeling, good, tuesday, sore, back, from, calvings, and, early, mornings, had, forgotten, i, had, arranged, for, some, one, to, be, with, me, all, day, today, in, a, moment, of, weakness, i, had, acquiesced, to, being, put, up, for, sale, in, a, promise, auction, to, raise, money, for, african, children’s, choir, so, this, was, the, promise, being, redeemed, a, morning, with, the, vet, so, i, put, on, my, best, charming, manner, all, mr, pr, man, and, took, her, on, a, tour, of, the, practice, and, on, call, and, explained, everything, i, was, doing, so, it, was, a, good, thing, we, were, not, busy, spent, the, afternoon, consulting, and, supervising, new, vets, and, showing, them, the, ropes, weds, we, were, suppose, to, be, going, walking, up, helvellyn, but, the, torrential, rain, put, us, off, so, went, into, carlisle, and, did, bits, and, pieces, and, i, took, kids, to, see, stuart, little, 2, which, is, definitely, one, for, the, kids, and, jobbed, around, at, home, but, the, kids, like, it, when, we, just, potter, around, thursday, felt, really, stiff, and, sore, and, decided, again, i, must, go, swimming, more, often, i, just, cannot, seem, to, get, there, that’s, all, must, make, time, i’m, working, this, w, e, and, i, am, then, off, for, 10, days, finishing, with, f’s, wedding, friends, are, up, with, their, kids, and, it, is, really, good, to, see, them, we, don’t, see, them, that, often, but, they, are, the, sort, of, friends, who, you, pick, up, on, as, soon, as, you, meet, them, even, if, you, haven’t, seen, them, for, ages, m, has, left, full, time, teaching, as, he, couldn’t, cope, with, the, pressure, of, all, the, paper, work, and, hassle, he, is, teaching, supply, and, doing, other, things, as, well, he, is, so, creative, and, he, has, made, a, model, of, our, house, just, while, he, was, sitting, chatting, with, us, friday, came, home, at, lunchtime, to, see, the, kitchen, table, covered, in, drawings, and, paintings, m, had, decided, to, have, a, painting, day, so, all, the, kids, were, doing, drawings, and, paintings, he, has, done, a, watercolour, of, our, house, it, is, brilliant, holiday, for, two, weeks, this, is, more, a, reflection, of, what, i, have, been, doing, and, thinking, over, the, summer, as, i, have, not, been, writing, up, the, diary, but, i, want, to, put, down, some, of, the, things, that, i, think, are, important, edited, disclosive, sat, 24th, aug, another, bank, holiday, w, e, to, be, worked, but, at, least, i, am, backing, up, our, new, young, assistant, we, work, a, system, where, the, new, vets, have, a, senior, vet, on, call, at, the, same, time, for, the, first, few, months, so, as, to, give, them, a, hands, on, support, and, mentoring, while, this, sounds, very, good, and, practical, it, is, surprisingly, uncommon, when, i, started, i, was, on, my, own, from, almost, day, one, i, started, in, august, after, getting, married, and, in, the, second, week, of, september, my, boss, headed, off, to, oman, to, do, horse, work, out, there, the, other, large, animal, vet, was, off, on, long, term, sick, and, he, could, only, get, a, small, animal, locum, when, i, look, back, now, that, he, left, me, in, charge, of, the, farm, practice, for, 2, weeks, after, only, being, a, month, qualified, i, shudder, but, at, the, time, i, just, got, on, with, it, sun, 25th, calvings, coming, thick, and, fast, the, good, warm, weather, has, made, the, grass, spring, and, the, cows, are, putting, on, too, much, weight, and, having, problems, j, was, at, a, football, tournament, at, pirelli’s, which, i, missed, but, he, came, back, really, tired, having, played, his, socks, off, did, another, pts, put, to, sleep, dog, visit, with, assistant, vet, it, is, never, the, easiest, of, consults, and, she, did, really, well, she, is, finding, her, feet, i, find, it, hard, helping, people, make, euthanasia, decisions, over, dogs, so, i, feel, quite, strongly, anti, euthanasia, when, it, comes, to, people, mon, 28th, beautiful, day, too, nice, to, work, the, morning, was, busy, but, the, afternoon, was, quiet, so, i, spent, it, lying, in, the, sun, dozing, had, bbq, at, night, at, j’s, and, chatted, to, a, few, folk, who, i, know, but, not, to, speak, to, so, was, interesting, spoke, to, one, of, our, farmers, daughters, who, told, me, her, dad, had, just, had, his, first, calf, since, fmd, and, so, he, was, really, happy, he, had, 2, holdings, which, were, run, as, one, he, managed, to, keep, his, heifers, which, were, on, the, second, holding, probably, because, they, were, the, last, ones, in, the, area, and, these, were, the, ones, that, were, now, calving, he, still, blames, the, pyre, from, a, neighbour, for, spreading, the, virus, to, his, farm, tuesday, 27th, the, problem, with, having, a, day, off, is, that, you, have, problems, stored, up, for, when, you, come, back, today, was, really, hectic, finished, at, 6, 30, after, having, come, back, from, the, belgian, blue, inspections, to, help, out, at, surgery, the, inspections, were, fun, but, it, gave, me, the, creeps, being, in, the, mart, and, inspecting, mouths, as, it, brought, back, bad, memories, the, mart, is, ridiculously, clean, and, the, last, time, i, inspected, mouths, was, for, fmd, after, shooting, a, herd, that, was, a, dangerous, contact, i, was, trying, to, persuade, london, not, to, take, out, the, other, neighbour, as, well, we, got, finished, at, 2am, and, went, in, for, a, cup, of, tea, and, to, recover, and, the, mother, greeted, me, with, the, news, that, d, had, been, next, door, and, was, starting, to, shoot, them, the, other, really, annoying, thing, is, that, the, basic, hygiene, is, not, being, enforced, and, yet, other, rules, are, the, rules, are, made, in, london, by, desk, bound, defra, officials, who, don’t, have, to, implement, them, the, mart, uses, mini, dumper, trucks, to, clean, out, the, pens, after, they, have, been, sold, the, same, trucks, are, then, used, to, put, out, straw, and, sawdust, in, the, freshly, cleansed, and, disinfected, yards, they, are, covered, in, muck, and, are, a, bio, hazard, m, the, owner, of, the, animals, we, were, inspecting, put, on, her, usual, tantrum, display, to, try, and, intimidate, the, secretary, and, inspectors, which, as, i, was, expecting, it, i, found, quite, amusing, but, i, don’t, think, she, or, they, did, had, another, bbq, tonight, with, kids, son, cooked, and, loved, it, so, i, have, found, a, new, bbqer, kids, in, brilliant, form, as, they, are, enjoying, being, around, and, a, has, been, baking, weds, 28th, another, tb, reactor, and, the, corresponding, paper, work, and, licensing, had, a, weird, oddball, case, in, surgery, and, spent, ages, trying, to, take, a, history, of, what, was, going, on, the, dog, is, not, that, unwell, in, itself, but, has, an, intermittent, history, of, different, things, i, look, forward, to, seeing, what, it, turns, out, to, be, or, whether, it, resolves, itself, with, time, vetting, is, always, varied, j, was, at, friend’s, party, after, having, a, football, school, with, blackburn, rovers, this, morning, so, he, was, passed, himself, arranged, to, visit, prisoner, in, prison, on, my, next, day, off, and, went, through, a, multitude, of, meaningless, options, to, end, up, with, a, guy, who, sounded, like, he, came, straight, off, porridge, it, is, amazing, how, intimidating, trying, to, find, your, way, around, a, bureaucracy, can, be, i, am, not, sure, i, want, to, go, but, thurs, 29th, from, feast, to, famine, not, much, work, during, the, day, at, least, al, had, 3, caesareans, last, night, and, was, running, out, of, steam, by, 5, o’clock, this, afternoon, meanwhile, i, did, small, animals, and, tried, to, organise, my, trip, to, london, to, visit, my, dad, found, web, sites, for, chitty, chitty, bang, bang, london, eye, and, madam, tussards, so, should, be, able, to, book, in, advance, if, tickets, are, left, for, the, half, term, week, other, children, are, staying, so, the, house, is, full, of, excited, kids, friday, 30th, busy, day, sorting, out, the, invitations, to, our, open, day, 1st, oct, it, is, just, a, chance, to, get, the, farmers, together, we, promised, one, to, celebrate, the, end, of, fmd, it, is, amazing, going, through, the, list, off, the, computer, how, many, farms, are, not, restocked, the, list, hasn’t, been, updated, since, pre, fmd, as, we, don’t, really, know, how, many, will, restock, so, we, have, been, waiting, for, the, end, of, fmd, to, redo, it, so, there, were, a, few, deaths, sales, and, moved, away, to, take, off, the, list, time, moves, on, sat, 31st, august, last, w, e, of, the, summer, holidays, we, had, a, bbq, at, lunch, time, for, borderline, and, then, i, promised, to, take, the, boys, camping, at, bowscale, tarn, it, was, beautiful, but, really, cold, the, weather, was, ok, sat, but, sunday, was, glorious, the, boys, wakened, at, first, light, so, we, climbed, up, on, to, the, tops, while, the, sun, was, still, rising, and, it, was, one, of, those, magical, moments, wonderful, the, boys, were, so, excited, and, full, of, energy, and, so, happy, to, be, with, their, dad, and, enjoying, life, a, time, to, treasure, sun, after, coming, down, off, the, tops, from, bowscale, tarn, went, to, visit, friends, he, is, a, vet, in, longtown, and, has, just, set, up, his, own, small, animal, practice, in, the, north, of, carlisle, the, twins, who, are, now, 4, weeks, old, were, wonderful, there, is, always, sthg, very, special, about, wee, babies, a, was, in, her, element, with, two, to, mother, mon, good, weather, continuing, and, so, we, are, still, quiet, the, vet, student, has, arrived, went, blood, sampling, sheep, for, maedi, visna, to, a, farmer, who, imports, and, sells, sheep, as, a, bit, of, a, dealer, between, him, and, his, dad, and, his, granddad, they, have, 4, holding, numbers, which, is, making, a, mockery, of, the, licensing, system, he, knows, a, lot, of, the, breeders, and, dealers, and, the, yorkshire, defra, is, even, worse, than, this, one, and, so, the, whole, licensing, system, is, allegedly, being, ignored, there, everyone, in, the, office, was, trying, to, work, out, where, we, are, going, to, go, for, the, xmas, party, as, it, is, now, september, tuesday, it, is, friend’s, last, day, at, work, tomorrow, before, the, wedding, so, the, girls, spent, most, of, the, afternoon, printing, out, posters, and, things, to, decorate, his, car, before, he, goes, tomorrow, evening, the, farmers, are, phoning, in, to, book, tb, tests, for, nov, and, dec, as, they, know, that, we, will, be, busy, which, makes, life, a, lot, easier, for, me, we, have, sent, out, notes, with, the, invitations, to, the, open, day, and, that, has, had, a, good, response, so, we, will, start, to, get, busy, testing, next, week, weds, day, off, spent, the, morning, fixing, the, shower, drainage, which, had, suffered, from, one, too, many, footballs, being, kicked, against, it, the, problem, was, the, broken, part, was, also, a, metric, to, imperial, converter, one, end, was, 40mm, and, the, other, was, 43mm, which, once, i, discovered, that, was, what, i, needed, meant, a, trip, to, carlisle, as, nowhere, in, wigton, had, it, so, it, got, codged, up, with, plenty, of, silicone, the, afternoon, was, spent, going, to, visit, prisoner, he, is, the, friend, who, stabbed, his, wife’s, boyfriend, in, wigton, and, so, he, is, currently, residing, at, her, majesty’s, pleasure, in, durham, prison, it, was, a, very, disheartening, experience, as, with, any, organisation, it, takes, time, to, work, out, where, to, go, and, what, you, need, to, get, through, the, hoops, i, went, from, one, part, of, the, prison, to, another, and, backwards, and, forwards, the, staff, where, very, friendly, and, helpful, but, they, are, all, at, fixed, stations, and, so, you, are, sent, from, one, area, to, another, the, security, although, expected, and, natural, still, comes, as, a, bit, of, a, shock, photographed, in, and, issued, with, a, barcode, to, get, you, in, and, out, and, you, put, all, your, belongings, in, a, locker, before, you, are, allowed, in, of, course, i, did, not, realise, that, you, only, need, the, id, passport, to, get, your, bar, code, so, i, kept, it, to, show, at, the, entrance, where, all, i, needed, was, the, bar, code, so, they, sent, me, back, to, put, it, in, the, locker, prisoner, was, ok, but, he, is, still, finding, it, hard, to, think, about, a, future, that, does, not, include, his, wife, even, though, the, divorce, papers, are, filed, and, he, has, done, some, pretty, nasty, things, to, her, and, the, boyfriend, he, is, pleading, guilty, and, is, expecting, to, go, down, for, a, good, few, years, the, whole, visitors, area, was, charged, with, emotion, with, people, coming, to, see, brothers, husbands, lovers, there, were, lots, of, girls, with, young, children, coming, to, see, their, dads, i, felt, very, sad, for, them, and, for, the, kids, who, are, growing, up, with, out, a, dad, or, the, stigma, of, a, dad, in, jail, his, kids, have, written, but, he, is, realistic, his, wife, is, very, anti, him, and, they, are, unlikely, to, keep, up, with, him, in, the, long, term, as, she, at, best, is, not, going, to, be, supportive, at, worst, is, going, to, try, to, dissuade, them, he, was, quite, upset, about, that, he, is, also, not, able, to, sort, out, his, things, or, see, his, house, before, it, is, sold, he, did, a, lot, of, building, work, etc, on, it, and, has, an, emotional, attachment, to, it, but, there, is, no, real, closure, he, had, emotional, problems, before, all, this, he, is, likely, to, have, even, more, on, his, release, his, car, on, which, there, is, still, a, car, loan, has, been, removed, from, the, pound, but, he, doesn’t, know, where, it, is, drove, back, over, a66, very, thoughtful, and, thankful, for, my, family, and, freedom, until, the, phone, went, to, remind, me, i, was, on, call, and, had, i, forgotten, fortunately, there, were, no, calls, as, it, takes, quite, a, while, to, get, from, barnard, castle, to, wigton, oops, thursday, did, my, first, isolation, pens, inspection, which, is, a, complete, non, sense, the, field, has, to, be, 50, m, from, any, other, livestock, which, in, london, probably, sounds, fine, or, in, scotland, where, there, are, plenty, of, woods, and, other, crops, but, here, in, cumbria, where, the, main, crop, is, grass, and, all, the, fields, are, grazed, at, this, time, of, year, then, it, is, not, so, easy, the, forms, are, horrendous, and, the, boxes, to, be, filled, in, are, greyed, out, to, make, it, easy, for, you, to, know, which, boxes, are, to, be, filled, in, this, obviously, looks, really, good, on, a, computer, screen, in, london, but, on, a, photocopy, writing, in, black, ink, makes, the, whole, thing, illegible, but, that’s, their, problem, when, does, common, sense, come, in, friday, 6th, september, colleague’s, wedding, one, of, the, vets, at, the, practice, was, married, today, at, the, parish, church, in, wigton, the, wedding, was, some, do, he, and, his, family, in, kilts, there, were, over, 200, at, the, wedding, and, reception, at, the, grennhill, hotel, where, bride’s, uncle, is, a, director, the, theme, was, an, english, rode, and, scottish, thistle, the, flowers, were, all, red, roses, in, arrangements, with, thistles, they, were, beautiful, as, was, the, bride, he, quickly, adds, there, was, a, ceilidh, afterwards, and, a, fireworks, display, several, of, the, neighbouring, farmers, complained, to, me, the, next, day, danced, and, talked, the, night, away, till, after, 2, am, getting, up, the, next, day, was, a, bit, of, a, pain, for, morning, surgery, urgh, sat, 7th, september, why, is, it, whenever, you, could, do, with, a, quiet, day, because, of, one, reason, or, another, it, is, always, busiest, managed, to, keep, going, most, of, the, day, with, calvings, and, ill, animals, still, recovering, from, the, late, night, at, wedding, day, was, a, bit, of, a, wash, out, really, sunday, milk, fever, at, 7, am, to, finish, me, off, so, missed, church, but, went, to, hear, sc, at, wigton, in, evening, he, is, head, of, oasis, trust, and, is, very, much, a, radical, but, believes, in, putting, faith, into, action, and, was, very, challenging, isiah, 58, true, fasting, that, god, wants, to, spend, your, self, on, behalf, of, the, poor, in, spirit, wife, went, to, hear, the, new, bishop, of, carlisle, who, was, speaking, at, hebron, he, is, reaching, out, to, all, the, local, churches, and, seems, to, see, outside, the, traditional, denominational, boundaries, which, is, really, encouraging, monday, had, a, crusaders, meeting, in, rydal, crusaders, is, a, youth, group, organisation, and, i, am, on, the, area, planning, group, we, have, had, money, given, in, a, legacy, to, support, some, one, full, time, to, train, leaders, to, organise, area, events, and, w, e, away, and, other, joint, activities, which, should, be, good, it, meant, a, rush, and, a, long, day, so, i, am, still, feeling, knackered, from, the, w, e, tuesday, i, was, almost, speechless, today, the, great, era, of, decentralisation, has, hit, defra, i, wish, i, rang, them, up, because, we, still, have, not, had, confirmation, for, the, appointments, of, our, 2, new, vets, to, enable, them, to, do, defra, work, what, used, to, happen, was, that, they, went, to, a, training, session, and, chat, with, the, dvm, in, carlisle, and, the, appointments, arrived, 2, days, later, guess, what, all, the, paper, work, has, to, be, sent, to, page, st, in, london, now, and, they, have, not, got, it, back, yet, weds, 11, 09, 02, it, is, funny, how, some, anniversaries, effect, you, and, others, do, not, i, had, just, started, back, in, to, the, practice, when, the, hijackers, crashed, into, the, pentagon, and, the, twin, towers, i, was, feeling, at, my, most, bruised, and, battered, having, had, a, major, confrontation, at, defra, and, had, to, work, through, the, psychological, problems, of, being, threatened, and, sidelined, and, yet, wanting, to, keep, my, integrity, by, not, reacting, and, blowing, people, out, of, the, water, the, 9, 11, bombers, made, me, realise, how, fragile, peace, is, and, how, fragile, people, are, and, the, importance, of, not, losing, sight, of, the, important, things, in, life, and, trying, to, keep, things, in, perspective, people, are, more, important, friends, and, family, and, if, i, can’t, fight, the, civil, service, mentality, that, is, their, problem, not, mine, i, remember, seeing, one, of, the, teacher’s, husbands, walking, in, to, the, kids, school, when, i, went, to, pick, them, up, looking, slumped, and, dejected, and, learning, that, their, only, son, was, in, new, york, and, they, could, not, reach, him, 2, days, later, they, heard, he, had, visited, the, twin, towers, the, day, before, and, had, taken, photos, from, the, top, he, was, supposed, be, going, back, into, the, towers, that, morning, but, he, had, got, up, late, and, by, the, time, he, and, his, friends, set, off, the, towers, had, been, hit, the, impact, of, the, number, of, people, who, have, either, been, in, or, visited, the, towers, from, all, over, the, world, does, make, it, a, potent, symbol, with, worldwide, resonance, my, sister, worked, in, them, for, a, while, several, years, ago, the, anniversary, brought, a, lot, back, up, to, the, surface, that, i, thought, was, past, but, was, merely, hidden, thursday, first, on, last, night, and, 2nd, on, tonight, so, started, early, and, finished, late, and, running, out, of, steam, friday, one, of, the, farmer’s, wives, came, in, today, for, some, wormers, for, her, chickens, that, have, gape, worm, she, paid, last, months, bill, in, cash, as, well, as, for, the, wormers, 8.76, inc, vat, she, is, working, away, from, the, farm, 2, days, a, week, her, husband, is, full, time, at, a, job, he, got, after, they, went, down, with, fmd.i, asked, how, her, father, in, law, who, is, 65, was, doing, he, is, lost, and, the, farm, is, too, quit, its, not, right, its, too, quiet, they, still, have, no, animals, back, and, are, grass, letting, its, funny, she, said, whoosh, and, your, life, takes, a, complete, change, you, never, know, what’s, going, to, happen, next, sat, 14th, september, worked, am, and, then, had, rest, of, w, e, off, hooray, sunday, monday, son, s, footie, tuesday, partnership, meeting, at, lunchtime, so, had, a, sore, head, by, the, end, of, the, day, but, a, lot, of, good, decisions, made, so, feel, as, though, we, a, re, moving, forward, weds, off, as, working, the, w, e, so, caught, up, on, paperwork, and, stuff, at, home, and, then, went, into, carlisle, to, go, shopping, for, lots, of, bits, and, pieces, and, a, new, bathroom, thursday, dvm, called, in, to, update, us, waste, of, time, and, i, had, forgotten, what, an, annoying, man, he, is, a, real, career, civil, servant, bureaucrat, who, has, forgotten, what, real, life, is, about, if, he, ever, knew, had, one, of, the, vets, around, for, tea, as, i, was, backing, her, up, spent, the, evening, playing, take, two, and, had, fun, friday, a, very, bad, day, at, the, office, dear, oh, dear, oh, dear, the, day, was, great, to, start, with, headed, down, to, iselgate, to, see, a, lame, bull, to, give, it, a, certificate, they, are, still, suffering, from, both, the, financial, and, emotional, scars, of, fmd, mind, you, they, were, always, odd, she, was, talking, about, the, isolation, that, was, hard, to, break, out, of, and, get, back, in, to, doing, things, again, they, were, also, hoping, to, retire, when, they, were, 50, but, bse, hit, so, they, decided, to, keep, on, and, had, no, income, from, jan, to, october, last, year, mind, you, they, would, only, usually, be, selling, stores, any, way, the, day, was, taking, a, turn, for, the, worse, when, after, sorting, out, umpteen, decisions, for, the, practice, manager, on, organisational, issues, he, said, wasn’t, it, easy, when, you, were, just, being, a, vet, fatal, mistake, as, the, next, dog, to, be, seen, was, an, odd, ball, it, had, woken, up, that, morning, after, being, perfectly, ok, up, til, then, it, had, growled, at, tis, owner, and, he, had, decided, to, leave, it, for, a, while, after, an, hour, or, so, he, went, to, get, it, up, out, of, its, bed, and, it, flew, at, him, and, as, he, put, it, meant, it, so, he, rang, up, and, brought, it, to, the, vets, this, change, of, behaviour, meant, he, had, put, it, in, a, kennel, and, left, it, so, when, i, went, in, to, examine, it, growled, and, flapped, its, ears, at, me, and, bit, at, the, bars, some, dogs, in, pain, or, fear, will, growl, or, let, you, know, that, it, is, not, happy, but, this, one, meant, it, we, had, a, go, at, trying, to, get, it, examined, by, using, the, dog, catcher, and, muzzles, but, it, mean, it, left, it, to, settle, down, over, lunch, but, it, was, worse, finally, got, it, sedated, it, had, a, temp, of, 104, injected, mm, and, so, was, a, case, of, encephalitis, with, rage, so, after, 3, vets, all, looking, at, it, and, umming, and, erring, we, decided, to, get, a, maff, vet, to, have, a, look, just, to, check, that, it, wasn’t, rabies, i, had, forgotten, that, none, of, them, are, clinical, or, able, to, handle, animals, but, it, was, a, bit, of, a, joke, but, as, there, was, no, history, with, it, of, contact, with, abroad, it, has, been, left, alive, for, the, time, being, but, the, stress, of, both, handling, the, dam, thing, and, the, worry, of, is, it, rabid, and, the, consequences, was, some, what, tiring, so, i, am, washed, out, tonight, tomorrow, is, another, day, week, 27, sat, 28th, september, saturday, do, tell, me, there, is, light, at, the, end, of, the, tunnel, because, at, the, moment, i, definitely, feel, there, isn’t, so, i, have, taken, time, off, next, week, to, catch, up, on, all, the, things, that, need, sorted, at, home, we, are, supposed, to, be, putting, in, a, new, bathroom, and, we, need, to, get, the, stuff, ordered, so, the, guy, can, fit, it, you, never, know, it, may, include, doing, a, few, diaries, sunday, my, wife, is, on, a, counselling, course, this, w, e, so, i, ma, on, the, run, around, with, the, kids, yesterday, was, spent, watching, the, boys, plat, football, and, run, here, and, there, with, friends, son, had, 2, friends, to, come, and, camp, last, night, so, he, is, a, little, on, the, tired, side, the, weather, is, warm, and, sunny, a, real, indian, summer, the, autumn, raspberries, that, are, usually, delicious, but, quite, sparse, are, huge, and, plentiful, well, i, definitely, have, a, teen, age, daughter, as, for, the, first, time, i, had, a, phone, call, late, in, the, evening, from, carlisle, asking, her, to, be, picked, up, as, her, lift, home, had, not, worked, out, fortunately, it, was, from, the, church, youth, group, but, it, is, the, sign, of, things, to, come, the, youth, group, took, the, church, service, tonight, so, it, was, really, good, looking, at, our, world, the, pressures, on, young, people, and, how, they, respond, as, christians, and, applying, their, faith, to, their, own, situations, very, challenging, monday, we, have, an, open, night, tomorrow, night, and, it, doesn’t, seem, very, organised, yet, not, my, pigeon, i, have, made, a, resolution, not, to, get, worked, u, about, things, that, are, not, my, responsibility, and, just, leave, them, be, the, 2, new, vets, are, beginning, to, really, pull, their, weight, which, is, great, and, colleague, is, back, from, his, honeymoon, brown, and, jet, lagged, they, spent, time, at, the, beach, and, on, safari, so, had, a, great, time, nurse, has, headed, off, to, the, far, blue, yonder, she, is, one, of, our, nurses, and, has, gone, to, nz, for, a, month, so, it, will, be, strange, with, out, her, other, nurse, is, just, back, from, states, and, another, vet, is, about, to, go, to, the, caribbean, for, 2, weeks, so, i, am, getting, itchy, feet, time, to, travel, at, least, i, should, be, of, to, india, in, the, new, year, tuesday, year, end, oct, 1st, so, stock, taking, which, for, me, includes, mucking, out, my, car, i, thought, it, was, quite, normal, to, take, the, wheelie, bin, to, the, car, and, just, hoy, the, contents, in, until, my, neighbour, saw, one, of, the, rare, occasions, when, it, happens, and, burst, out, laughing, he, found, it, quite, amusing, i, was, a, bit, taken, a, back, at, the, time, but, we, always, assume, what, we, do, is, normal, the, open, day, was, ok, but, wife, was, out, so, had, to, juggle, things, a, bit, i, was, on, call, so, late, finished, and, had, to, fetch, son, from, football, as, his, practice, had, been, shifted, to, tuesdays, with, the, dark, nights, so, i, owe, friend, a, bottle, of, wine, for, turning, up, half, an, hour, late, to, pick, him, up, the, boiler, man, arrived, at, 7pm, to, fix, the, boiler, which, was, blowing, fuses, he, needs, a, lesson, on, time, management, had, several, interesting, conversations, on, fmd, the, most, amusing, one, was, about, tony, blair, arranging, his, bust, up, with, unions, on, the, anniversary, of, the, fmd, out, break, finishing, so, as, to, keep, it, out, the, news, the, same, farmer, said, about, the, govts, response, the, countryside, alliance, march, the, fact, that, they, have, reduced, the, sparsity, factor, in, the, allocation, of, central, funds, to, local, authorities, this, means, that, those, with, a, lower, population, density, and, therefore, a, higher, perceived, cost, of, providing, services, are, going, to, have, this, downgraded, or, in, this, farmer’s, opinion, take, money, from, the, countryside, to, the, town, don’t, march, or, this, govt, will, kick, you, where, it, hurts, in, a, very, subtle, way, the, other, one, was, probably, more, relevant, in, that, in, a, group, discussion, admittedly, fuelled, by, an, intake, of, free, alcohol, several, were, saying, that, this, year, was, harder, to, cope, with, than, last, as, there, was, no, crisis, or, adrenalin, to, keep, them, going, and, that, the, toll, from, last, year, was, beginning, to, tell, on, them, and, their, nerves, two, were, still, under, court, threats, from, trading, standards, defra, for, not, complying, with, regulations, both, will, in, my, opinions, not, result, in, anything, but, they, are, pretty, pissed, off, to, put, it, mildly, there, is, also, a, real, antagonism, to, doing, the, testing, for, ministry, and, we, are, in, the, cross, fire, as, defra, vets, decide, what, is, to, be, done, and, yet, we, are, the, ones, trying, to, arrange, and, get, the, testing, done, while, they, do, not, have, to, pay, us, they, do, have, to, spend, a, fair, chunk, of, time, organising, and, actually, getting, the, job, done, we, are, having, a, real, problem, with, organising, the, testing, on, one, of, the, common, grazings, there, are, 14, farmers, with, animals, on, it, biosecurity, is, a, joke, when, your, animals, are, on, common, grazing, with, 14, others, and, trying, to, get, 2, farmers, to, agree, on, a, date, and, a, method, of, doing, it, they, all, have, different, ideas, and, most, do, not, want, so, and, so, there, co, he, ll, just, wind, the, cattle, up, and, we’ll, never, catch, them, weds, day, off, so, caught, up, on, garden, and, sleep, thursday, i, really, enjoyed, the, crack, today, there, was, just, that, right, amount, of, work, and, banter, to, have, a, good, day, laughter, and, fun, is, infectious, friday, out, for, a, meal, at, night, which, was, great, but, 8, 30, start, tomorrow, sat, am, is, not, going, to, be, good, october, a, young, colleague’s, brother, was, killed, in, an, accident, and, as, m, writes, retrospectively, see, below, there, followed, a, very, difficult, month, in, which, he, was, unable, to, keep, a, diary, saturday, 5th, october, it, is, in, the, smallest, of, things, that, suddenly, life, changes, very, suddenly, and, we, then, look, back, and, see, how, we, were, and, are, not, now, i, had, a, phone, call, at, ten, to, five, from, one, of, the, young, vet’s, father, father, was, asking, to, speak, to, george, or, i, that, in, itself, was, strange, the, receptionist, came, and, found, me, with, a, quizzical, look, saying, he, did, not, want, to, speak, to, young, vet, when, i, answered, the, phone, he, said, that, they, had, bad, news, in, that, her, brother, had, been, killed, in, a, traffic, accident, so, i, had, to, tell, her, the, bad, news, and, then, sort, out, the, consequences, once, she, had, got, over, the, initial, shock, wife, drove, her, to, her, parents, home, in, her, car, the, other, partners, are, away, so, we, are, short, staffed, and, young, vet, will, obviously, not, be, back, for, a, while, it, is, at, times, like, this, that, i, am, always, grateful, that, i, can, go, back, to, god, and, trust, in, him, even, though, i, do, not, understand, anything, i, know, that, i, can, trust, god, jan, 2003, writing, retrospectively, about, october, 2002, there, is, a, month, of, diaries, missing, from, the, death, of, vet’s, brother, onwards, i, always, meant, to, go, back, and, fill, in, the, days, that, i, missed, but, never, made, the, time, or, the, effort, i, found, the, time, very, difficult, so, how, her, parents, and, sister, in, law, coped, i, do, not, know, the, funeral, was, at, kirby, and, i, am, pleased, that, i, went, it, was, very, sad, to, see, some, one, in, the, prime, of, their, life, with, so, much, to, offer, cut, down, in, such, a, random, way, it, was, a, very, cumbrian, farming, gathering, the, red, faced, craggy, farmers, and, yet, there, was, a, friend, of, the, family, who, sang, at, the, wedding, who, was, a, black, american, gospel, singer, the, global, village, or, world, wide, family, of, the, church, take, your, pick, the, death, of, some, one, young, always, makes, you, consider, your, own, mortality, and, makes, you, think, about, what, you, are, doing, will, you, on, your, death, bed, wish, that, you, had, made, different, choices, the, next, month, was, busy, and, stressful, and, probably, a, time, which, would, have, been, useful, for, the, study, to, have, thoughts, and, reactions, to, my, life, when, under, stress, but, i, suppose, to, a, certain, extent, when, we, are, close, to, something, we, go, on, automatic, pilot, and, do, the, urgent, leaving, the, things, on, the, periphery, he, was, killed, while, driving, a, tractor, back, from, where, they, had, been, testing, cattle, for, american, bvd, they, had, bought, in, pedigree, world, class, dairy, cattle, this, included, a, sibling, to, an, embryo, which, had, had, the, american, bvd, so, the, ministry, were, keen, to, make, sure, that, it, was, not, established, within, the, uk, hence, the, reason, for, the, blood, sampling, i, know, you, cannot, look, at, history, and, say, what, if, but, if, the, cattle, had, not, been, culled, there, would, have, been, no, blood, sampling, to, do, and, no, reason, to, be, on, the, road, that, day, at, that, time, linkage, is, not, the, way, to, go, he, may, have, had, to, go, to, feed, stock, or, he, could, have, been, in, an, accident, in, another, way, but, the, ripples, of, actions, continue, to, reverberate, around, at, least, in, my, head, saturday, 12th, october, again, m, is, writing, retrospectively, here, of, his, first, thoughts, after, diagnosing, his, first, fmd, case, these, weeks, were, not, completed, because, of, my, stress, levels, i, have, wanted, to, transcribe, my, first, thoughts, on, fmd, that, were, written, in, a, hotel, in, newcastle, at, 2am, after, diagnosing, my, first, case, to, my, wife, dear, wife, i, don’t, know, why, i, am, writing, this, as, i, hope, to, see, you, tomorrow, but, i, suppose, i, need, to, record, what, i, feel, for, you, and, for, me, besides, sleep, eludes, me, today, was, a, beautiful, day, of, winter, sunshine, warm, sunshine, that, speaks, of, the, spring, that, is, to, come, on, frosted, snow, that, is, clear, and, white, and, pure, a, great, day, to, be, walking, up, in, the, hills, on, a, sunday, afternoon, enjoying, god’s, wonderful, creation, but, this, is, a, fallen, world, the, only, walkers, are, me, the, ministry, man, in, disposable, boiler, suit, and, waterproof, jacket, and, trousers, and, a, farmer, with, a, heavy, heart, we, go, into, each, field, checking, and, inspecting, all, the, pregnant, ewes, herding, them, into, a, corner, to, catch, and, examine, them, feet, ok, mouth, ok, a, smile, the, only, clue, to, the, sadness, on, this, man’s, heart, is, the, slight, acrid, smell, which, wafts, now, and, then, on, the, wind, the, smell, of, his, neighbours, future, burning, on, another, ministry, man’s, pyre, it’s, 2, o’clock, in, the, morning, and, why, am, i, writing, this, because, i, cannot, sleep, the, ministry, man, who, then, examined, the, cows, blisters, in, its, mouth, blisters, on, its, tongue, temp, 105f, i, am, sorry, i, say, it, is, they’ll, all, go, he, manages, to, say, fighting, back, tears, if, the, lab, confirms, it, yes, i, reply, as, a, farm, vet, of, 15, years, experience, i, am, not, allowed, to, say, it, is, foot, and, mouth, disease, only, that, i, suspect, it, an, anonymous, telephone, answerer, in, london, makes, stupid, comments, and, stupid, questions, i, take, my, samples, from, the, cow, i, grab, its, tongue, to, pull, it, out, to, take, a, sample, of, the, skin, from, the, tongue, the, cow’s, tongue, comes, off, in, my, hand, i, try, not, to, be, sick, and, place, the, sample, in, the, bottle, we, go, into, the, farmhouse, he, is, in, tears, she, is, in, tears, i, feel, like, crying, i, wouldn’t, do, your, job, for, all, the, b, tea, in, china, she, says, i, am, a, volunteer, a, tvi, all, big, depts, have, their, jargon, and, i, don’t, speak, it, yet, a, temporary, veterinary, inspector, i, only, started, 3, days, ago, a, clean, vet, who, had, not, been, in, contact, with, the, foot, and, mouth, disease, a, volunteer, from, general, practice, seconded, to, be, used, as, a, pawn, in, the, battle, against, fmd, a, man, from, the, ministry, as, i, leave, a, dirty, vet, having, double, disinfected, with, my, samples, and, a, heavy, heart, i, take, off, the, disposable, boiler, suit, and, put, on, my, shoes, i, am, me, again, not, the, man, from, the, ministry, hey, lad, nobody, would, know, you, from, anyone, else, like, that, says, the, farmer, he, has, seen, me, as, i, am, i, see, him, as, he, is, living, with, his, mother, since, his, father, died, so, as, to, be, on, hand, to, run, the, farm, his, wife, and, her, mother, in, law, trying, to, share, a, house, and, a, kitchen, while, they, convert, a, barn, into, a, house, the, builder, was, told, to, stay, away, a, week, ago, in, case, he, brought, disease, onto, the, farm, tomorrow, he, will, be, told, to, stay, away, as, there, will, be, no, income, for, at, least, 6, months, while, i, filled, in, forms, i, had, never, seen, before, with, initials, and, jargon, i’ve, never, heard, she, phoned, her, sister, to, pick, up, the, prescription, for, anti, depressants, the, doctor, said, she, should, go, on, them, while, the, stress, and, worry, of, foot, and, mouth, was, about, well, it’s, here, he, hasn’t, eaten, and, will, not, sleep, tonight, she, is, anxious, and, will, not, get, any, rest, and, the, man, from, the, ministry, well, its, 2am, and, i, am, writing, this, far, from, home, a, volunteer, a, tvi, a, pawn, in, a, bigger, game, but, after, 5, days, of, being, dirty, and, i, can, rejoin, life, back, to, normal, back, to, my, home, to, my, job, and, my, future, my, farming, couple, 5, days, of, shooting, and, burning, of, disinfectants, and, diggers, six, months, of, quarantine, and, a, future, in, farming, maybe, or, maybe, not, the, stories, abound, of, three, generations, waiting, for, the, men, from, the, ministry, but, grandfather, will, not, see, the, farm, restocked, the, stress, was, too, much, for, his, already, dodgy, heart, the, countryside, is, under, siege, and, pawns, are, being, lost, to, win, a, greater, gain, and, why, are, we, having, to, work, these, long, hours, and, sacrifice, these, pawns, because, some, one, was, so, arrogant, so, stupid, and, so, lazy, that, he, couldn’t, be, bothered, to, heat, the, swill, he, fed, to, his, pigs, he, couldn’t, keep, to, the, rules, that, were, made, so, this, would, not, happen, it, is, not, intensive, vs, extensive, organic, vs, agribusiness, it, is, sheep, vs, goats, and, they, will, be, sorted, saturday, 2nd, november, the, start, of, writing, diaries, again, after, a, break, of, a, few, weeks, i, am, hoping, to, go, back, and, fill, in, as, time, permits, so, this, is, today, and, forward, looking, working, the, w, e, with, young, vet, and, aw, sat, am, she, had, a, calving, this, morning, at, 4am, and, so, is, a, little, on, the, tired, side, so, hope, it, is, quiet, for, rest, of, the, w, e, did, surgery, and, then, spent, the, afternoon, trying, to, fix, the, out, sidelights, the, front, went, 18monhts, ago, which, shows, how, well, i, am, keeping, up, with, the, maintaince, on, this, house, but, the, back, one, went, recently, and, that, is, a, real, pain, as, you, cant, see, your, way, to, the, car, at, night, so, i, am, more, concerned, about, getting, it, fixed, the, old, lights, are, just, rusted, up, and, you, can, no, longer, replace, the, bulbs, so, up, the, ladder, to, re, wire, new, lights, i, went, unfortunately, i, was, on, call, and, yes, i, suppose, i, was, trying, to, do, too, much, but, if, you, don’t, try, you, don’t, succeed, so, i, downed, tools, went, off, to, calve, a, cow, and, then, came, back, to, find, a, neighbour, plus, her, 4, children, in, our, kitchen, so, i, stopped, had, a, cup, of, tea, and, then, headed, back, up, the, ladder, now, wife, maintains, i, should, have, noticed, that, there, were, lights, on, at, this, point, i, would, like, to, point, out, that, i, should, also, notice, when, she, has, moved, furniture, had, her, hair, cut, or, even, spring, cleaned, the, house, as, i, am, often, berated, for, my, lack, of, noticing, these, sorts, of, things, yes, i, should, have, noticed, but, i, didn’t, i, was, focussed, on, what, i, was, trying, to, do, as, usual, so, up, the, ladder, i, went, to, connect, up, the, light, not, knowing, that, wife, had, switched, the, electrics, back, on, and, yes, when, i, was, at, the, top, of, the, ladder, i, grabbed, the, wires, and, then, spent, what, seemed, an, awfully, long, time, trying, to, let, them, go, and, stay, on, the, ladder, as, the, electric, current, was, shocking, me, so, the, light, did, not, get, fixed, as, i, was, not, going, back, up, the, ladder, as, i, was, now, in, shock, ho, hum, sun, finished, the, light, while, every, one, was, out, and, then, picked, up, a, from, a, sleep, over, and, went, to, church, in, wigton, pm, was, speaking, on, the, parable, of, the, 10, bridesmaids, which, was, good, as, i, had, never, understood, it, as, it, is, obviously, related, to, a, cultural, thing, that, happened, at, weddings, in, jesus, day, the, point, being, that, the, wise, ones, who, were, waiting, for, the, return, of, the, bridegroom, had, the, oil, in, their, lamps, and, the, concept, that, this, was, the, holy, spirit, that, meant, they, could, meet, with, the, bridegroom, i, e, christ, i, am, not, sure, that, the, idea, is, entirely, right, since, there, is, that, big, leap, oil, holy, spirit, but, it, was, interesting, i, still, think, it, was, a, cultural, thing, that, was, obvious, to, his, original, listeners, and, we, just, don’t, have, a, clue, ali, and, andy, called, around, in, the, evening, it, was, really, good, to, see, him, again, he, used, to, be, a, vet, here, who, left, several, years, ago, and, it, looks, that, at, long, last, he, is, going, to, look, to, settle, down, he, was, quite, depressing, about, la, vet, practice, though, he, is, now, 100, small, animal, so, he, is, biased, they, are, actively, looking, at, taking, tb, testing, from, the, vets, in, his, area, and, the, vets, are, dropping, the, farm, practice, as, being, uneconomic, so, much, for, the, govt, wanting, more, farm, vets, around, at, least, this, is, a, low, cost, area, so, at, least, we, are, not, competing, with, small, animal, practices, able, to, offer, large, wages, to, assistant, vets, he, is, looking, to, set, up, his, own, or, buy, a, practice, to, settle, into, they, are, obviously, looking, to, get, married, so, that, will, be, another, wedding, to, go, to, we, have, been, invited, to, lb’s, who, is, finally, marrying, p, they, have, been, following, each, other, around, the, world, for, the, last, 2, years, from, disaster, to, disaster, as, they, are, both, in, humanitarian, relief, work, she, was, a, vet, student, here, too, mon, monday, monday, tell, me, why, i, don’t, like, mondays, young, vet, is, exhausted, and, everything, is, catching, up, with, her, so, she, is, going, to, take, the, end, of, the, week, off, the, joiner, finally, arrived, to, put, in, the, windows, and, had, real, problems, writhing, the, old, ones, out, and, so, has, taken, half, the, sand, stone, with, them, so, they, will, have, to, be, reconcreted, which, is, a, builders, job, ie, he, is, not, going, to, do, it, the, bathroom, is, still, in, pieces, 8, days, it, was, supposed, to, take, and, we, are, now, in, the, third, week, work, was, bedlam, so, i, was, queuing, the, ops, up, this, morning, i, hate, operating, all, morning, as, it, is, very, draining, as, i, have, to, concentrate, on, what, i, am, doing, while, the, office, staff, keep, coming, with, more, and, more, queries, urgh, got, another, stupid, letter, from, the, planners, quibbling, about, listed, building, consent, that, i, am, trying, to, get, for, the, windows, that, are, being, fitted, as, i, speak, i, started, the, ball, rolling, in, august, no, wonder, the, country, is, going, to, the, dogs, tuesday, calmed, down, a, bit, having, filled, in, the, visa, forms, for, our, holiday, to, india, the, great, legacy, of, the, british, the, bureaucracy, is, alive, and, well, why, do, they, want, to, know, my, mothers, place, of, birth, and, maiden, name, for, a, 2, week, holiday, civil, servants, missed, the, gym, cos, surgery, went, on, and, on, i, went, to, a, farm, and, was, asked, a, lot, of, questions, about, tb, as, they, had, had, a, reactor, the, ministry, had, been, out, testing, but, hadn’t, bothered, to, tell, us, mushroom, farmers, son, is, in, the, process, of, planning, next, years, football, team, weds, went, to, a, farm, today, and, he, is, complaining, that, he, cannot, get, his, cows, in, his, restocked, herd, back, in, calf, it, seems, to, be, an, ongoing, problem, a, lot, of, those, who, have, restocked, with, whole, herds, are, having, reduced, fertility, in, their, herds, it, would, be, an, interesting, study, to, see, the, figures, compared, to, non, restocked, herds, thursday, counting, the, days, until, i, am, off, work, continues, to, be, too, hectic, vet, who, lost, her, brother, is, off, and, it, makes, the, whole, pack, of, cards, of, having, enough, vets, to, cover, fall, down, i, think, too, i, am, just, very, tired, from, being, too, busy, for, too, long, when, planning, staffing, levels, it, is, usual, to, be, cautious, rather, than, to, have, too, many, vets, around, not, making, any, money, we, thought, we, were, stretching, it, by, employing, the, 2, new, grads, instead, of, the, one, it, is, also, just, being, under, pressure, all, the, time, with, out, a, few, days, to, cruise, it, went, out, to, chris, swifts, for, the, vcf, veterinary, christian, fellowship, which, was, really, good, as, usual, f, was, telling, us, about, the, thanksgiving, service, that, they, had, just, held, at, barnard, castle, she, has, also, just, got, engaged, so, it, may, curb, her, wanderings, she, is, an, explorer, and, mountaineer, she, is, just, back, from, antarctica, and, is, currently, doing, some, research, and, a, phd, at, durham, barnard, castle, practice, seems, well, organised, and, also, flexible, in, that, she, is, only, working, 3, days, a, week, to, spend, 2, days, at, durham, on, the, phd, it, was, really, good, speaking, to, friends, about, vet’s, brother, as, paul, was, with, them, at, the, accident, as, he, was, taking, the, bloods, so, spent, quite, a, while, praying, for, them, and, for, other, things, friday, bad, day, had, a, phone, call, from, the, planners, saying, they, were, not, going, to, allow, double, glazing, and, that, they, want, the, glazing, bars, to, be, 10mm, not, 20mm, why, there, are, no, 10mm, glazing, bars, on, the, spot, the, ministry, london, have, decided, that, they, are, not, going, to, train, lay, tb, testers, and, that, all, the, work, is, going, to, go, out, to, lvi’s, us, so, we, are, now, looking, at, a, lot, of, work, again, carlisle, defra, in, conjunction, with, london, have, decided, that, they, are, going, to, want, all, the, restocked, herds, tested, annually, with, every, animal, tested, not, just, the, adult, breeding, stock, so, from, looking, at, dropping, 1, 2, vets, 10, days, ago, we, are, now, going, to, be, looking, at, employing, extra, staff, if, we, can, get, hold, of, them, how, are, we, supposed, to, be, planning, for, the, future, if, it, is, so, dependent, on, the, whim, of, defra, officials, saturday, 9th, november, went, to, the, school, pta, pub, quiz, last, night, at, the, rugby, club, it, was, good, fun, but, i, was, struggling, both, to, stay, awake, and, to, dredge, up, the, infotainment, trivia, of, the, previous, year, it, is, funny, how, the, questions, chosen, reflected, the, people, who, were, asking, them, what, had, stuck, in, their, memory, or, that, they, had, chosen, nick, and, jane, were, across, from, newcastle, i, stayed, with, them, for, a, few, nights, when, working, for, defra, across, there, when, i, could, not, face, the, faceless, loneliness, of, the, hotel, consequently, was, completely, zonked, sat, morning, just, went, around, the, house, being, grumpy, went, to, watch, son, play, football, they, thrashed, yewdale, in, the, county, cup, it, was, good, to, be, out, in, the, fresh, air, and, came, back, to, sleep, for, a, while, before, heading, out, to, roy, and, christiana’s, en, famille, we, had, to, pick, up, fraser, from, wigton, this, is, their, son, who, has, just, started, seeing, a, girl, in, wigton, he, is, 14, and, so, was, amusingly, embarrassed, we, were, talking, about, leaving, the, kids, at, what, age, do, you, leave, them, on, their, own, and, to, look, after, the, younger, ones, christiana, told, us, about, when, she, left, all, three, boys, for, an, hour, and, a, half, and, the, older, two, had, got, so, fed, up, with, youngest, being, annoying, they, hung, him, by, his, joggers, from, the, post, at, the, bottom, of, the, stairs, the, middle, one, said, in, all, seriousness, that, it, was, his, fault, that, he, had, torn, his, trousers, if, he, hadn’t, tried, to, escape, the, trousers, would, have, been, fine, even, now, he, considers, that, the, wrongdoing, was, the, ripping, of, the, trousers, not, the, fact, that, they, had, hung, him, up, sun, went, to, church, in, morning, and, fittingly, for, remembrance, sunday, it, was, on, repentance, and, gods, love, daniels, prayer, in, daniel, 9, was, very, fitting, some, how, lunch, and, more, football, and, crashed, in, to, bed, exhausted, mon, tim, is, away, for, the, first, time, on, his, own, with, the, school, on, an, outward, bound, week, south, of, keswick, he, was, so, excited, about, going, i, think, wife, was, a, little, put, off, that, he, was, not, thinking, about, missing, home, hey, ho, but, that, is, a, sign, of, secure, roots, i, suppose, met, up, with, a’s, maths, teacher, to, discuss, her, maths, there, has, been, a, lot, of, to, and, froing, between, the, teachers, but, not, much, communication, with, home, so, we, went, to, see, what, they, were, saying, and, have, left, it, as, the, status, quo, which, is, what, it, should, be, first, call, today, was, a, farmer, who, is, just, out, of, hospital, having, had, his, appendix, removed, for, appendicitis, he, had, seen, this, cow, and, said, why, haven’t, you, had, the, vet, to, it, he, is, a, good, stocksman, and, with, him, being, out, of, action, they, had, a, relief, milker, in, who, hadn’t, noticed, it, had, a, twisted, uterus, and, was, trying, to, calve, if, i, had, seen, it, on, friday, i, could, have, sorted, it, out, but, because, it, was, now, to, late, i, had, to, send, it, off, it, is, sad, but, the, agricultural, industry, is, losing, a, lot, of, experience, and, a, lot, of, stocksmanship, and, handling, and, general, expertise, it, is, not, sthg, that, can, be, replaced, we, are, seeing, more, twisted, wombs, because, of, the, transport, and, fighting, amongst, restocked, herds, the, sad, thing, is, that, he, said, to, me, we, should, never, have, restocked, we, should, have, taken, the, money, and, let, it, all, go, it, is, just, too, much, hassle, with, the, paper, work, and, training, cows, they, have, just, housed, the, cattle, and, so, they, are, all, fighting, to, come, in, to, the, parlour, to, get, milked, and, just, making, life, difficult, there, is, a, real, disillusionment, around, at, the, moment, but, there, are, also, those, who, are, gearing, up, to, milk, more, and, more, cows, to, stay, still, 300, tuesday, the, great, european, market, combined, with, defra’s, inflexibility, is, causing, a, few, problems, the, dutch, heifers, that, have, been, imported, to, replace, some, of, the, fmd, losses, have, a, unique, identifier, number, which, is, on, their, ear, tag, so, everyone, knows, who, they, are, so, far, so, good, they, also, have, nl, on, them, rather, than, uk, which, means, we, know, they, are, from, holland, the, problem, is, they, have, a, small, check, digit, on, them, at, the, end, this, means, dutch, computers, can, recognise, if, the, ear, tag, is, a, valid, one, or, has, been, misread, the, uk, tags, have, a, check, digit, at, the, front, of, the, number, very, useful, to, help, rule, out, misreadings, or, transcribing, of, the, ear, tags, however, the, defra, computer, doesn’t, recognise, the, numbers, so, we, are, being, asked, to, retest, heifers, because, they, still, have, an, outstanding, record, of, the, ear, tag, numbers, as, untested, because, the, extra, digit, has, or, had, not, been, entered, on, the, uk, system, the, number, of, out, standing, tests, is, dropping, but, we, will, not, be, able, to, keep, up, with, this, level, of, testing, more, allocations, have, arrived, today, managed, to, get, all, the, bits, sorted, so, i, could, leave, at, 5, 30, for, my, few, days, off, the, only, out, standing, thing, is, the, stuff, for, the, accountant, end, of, year, it, was, supposed, to, be, in, by, 18th, of, oct, but, hey, ho, weds, i, have, taken, a, few, days, off, to, try, and, paint, the, windows, and, new, bathroom, we, are, having, put, in, the, planners, phoned, to, query, again, about, the, windows, and, i, told, them, they, were, already, in, so, it, went, down, like, a, lead, balloon, and, they, are, coming, to, tell, me, off, they, also, started, querying, the, other, windows, from, 95, the, problem, with, having, a, few, days, off, is, that, i, get, very, head, achey, and, feel, washed, out, and, ill, once, the, adrenalin, stops, i, seem, to, crash, thursday, met, up, with, charlie, from, longtown, vets, for, lunch, which, was, great, his, practice, in, carlisle, that, he, has, started, is, going, well, it, is, on, the, main, road, out, to, scotland, and, looks, really, good, and, he, is, getting, lots, of, custom, just, by, being, there, he, is, looking, for, a, part, time, vet, to, start, mornings, friday, repainted, the, bathroom, walls, after, discovering, i, had, used, 2, different, shades, of, green, one, was, ming, grey, the, other, ming, blue, i, just, opened, them, one, after, the, other, and, thought, the, difference, was, because, the, one, had, dried, and, the, other, was, still, wet, ooops, the, plumber, is, having, problems, with, the, electrics, and, getting, the, lights, to, work, so, it, was, all, fused, out, i, am, just, glad, we, have, a, shower, as, well, or, we, would, all, be, getting, rather, smelly, by, now, went, to, watch, changing, lanes, at, cinema, a, rather, thoughtful, if, slow, and, unbelievable, set, up, but, nice, escapism, for, an, hour, or, two, saturday, november, 16th, working, again, but, feel, better, for, having, had, a, few, days, off, even, if, the, bathroom, isn’t, finished, getting, to, be, a, bit, of, a, saga, oh, well, never, mind, sat, morning, surgery, was, busy, and, then, several, farm, calls, afterwards, for, the, amount, of, stock, around, and, the, cost, effectiveness, of, veterinary, time, we, are, doing, an, incredible, amount, of, clinical, work, dan, the, sheep, ai, vet, who, locums, for, us, on, occasions, phoned, up, wanting, alison’s, phone, number, she, was, of, course, out, it, being, sat, night, his, technician, is, ill, and, he, has, 250, swales, to, ai, tomorrow, hope, he, finds, some, one, all, the, sheep, ai, and, embryo, technicians, are, very, busy, as, people, try, to, build, up, their, pedigree, herds, and, flocks, by, breeding, for, top, quality, sun, am, busy, with, calls, and, then, painted, doors, in, bathroom, while, son, painted, the, window, very, messy, but, he, enjoyed, it, it, will, give, him, confidence, to, try, again, it, is, patience, and, practice, went, to, church, in, the, evening, rob, whitaker, the, principal, of, capernwray, bible, college, was, preaching, he, is, so, animated, and, relevant, he, was, talking, on, feeding, the, 5000, and, jesus, compassion, and, just, the, circumstances, jesus, was, in, at, the, time, how, he, used, the, disciples, and, then, applying, it, to, us, and, to, the, church, in, general, espy, compassion, very, challenging, went, on, to, meet, up, with, lads, and, spent, time, praying, phil, is, pretty, down, about, not, having, a, job, it, effects, his, self, worth, didn’t, help, that, fraser, had, a, brand, new, merc, sitting, out, side, his, house, mon, hit, the, maelstrom, running, with, an, in, tray, flowing, out, and, still, nothing, together, for, year, end, to, accountant, so, pushed, practice, manager, and, then, started, operating, and, haunting, him, every, 20, mins, in, between, ops, and, keeping, him, on, task, the, problem, is, that, there, are, so, many, other, things, going, on, at, the, moment, that, the, non, urgent, keep, disappearing, in, to, tomorrow, the, new, drugs, discount, system, is, working, and, generating, a, lot, of, interest, and, then, hopefully, will, cut, down, on, the, black, market, with, any, luck, the, increased, turn, over, will, make, up, for, margin, usual, problem, solving, and, smoothing, over, and, 2nd, opinions, to, sort, out, the, 20, day, rule, is, not, stopping, one, of, our, local, cattle, dealers, from, buying, and, selling, he, says, the, paperwork, to, run, 5, holding, numbers, is, horrendous, ken, and, anne, called, around, and, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, they, have, a, lime, spreading, business, and, have, been, really, busy, over, fmd, both, with, lime, for, land, that, is, going, to, be, used, for, barley, and, crops, rather, than, grass, and, with, a, lot, of, stone, for, building, work, and, new, pathways, and, for, lonnings, whereas, farmers, were, happy, to, move, cattle, via, roads, they, are, trying, to, reduce, the, movements, along, roads, and, are, putting, in, tracks, for, the, cows, tuesday, more, tracings, to, check, for, tb, these, are, cattle, bought, from, a, farm, where, tb, has, since, been, confirmed, and, the, paperwork, to, go, with, them, ear, tags, don’t, correlate, so, going, to, be, a, problem, rota, nightmare, at, the, moment, as, everyone, is, organising, their, skiing, trips, so, we, are, going, to, have, 1, 2, vets, off, all, of, jan, and, most, of, feb, took, first, box, load, of, paperwork, to, the, accountant, he, is, an, old, fashioned, up, the, back, stairs, not, a, computer, in, sight, type, of, fella, he, is, a, wily, old, fox, much, more, than, he, looks, as, he, manages, to, keep, the, taxman, happy, and, off, our, backs, which, is, probably, the, most, important, the, financial, year, doesn’t, look, too, bad, but, doesn’t, allow, for, the, number, of, days, of, holiday, carried, over, if, we, had, to, give, the, holiday, pay, or, pay, a, vet, to, cover, for, those, days, it, would, make, them, look, a, lot, less, rosy, got, back, in, time, for, gym, and, then, tuesday, kid, chauffer, work, then, fell, into, bed, and, slept, weds, the, phone, stopped, at, 4, 00pm, and, didn’t, ring, again, until, 9, 30, this, morning, weird, the, work, has, just, stopped, like, a, tap, being, turned, off, so, got, the, rest, of, testing, sorted, sorted, out, the, rest, of, the, stuff, for, the, accountant, tidied, the, office, wrote, up, my, book, and, even, thought, about, mucking, my, car, out, only, got, as, far, as, thinking, about, it, as, coffee, break, arrived, didn’t, earn, much, but, felt, a, lot, better, for, it, skipped, off, early, and, gave, the, bathroom, doors, second, coat, thursday, 21st, november, pay, day, decided, that, if, defra, was, a, business, it, would, be, bust, by, now, we, are, on, a, rollercoaster, trying, to, look, at, the, future, with, them, they, only, make, up, in, a, normal, year, about, 20, of, our, farm, fee, income, but, that, has, been, much, higher, over, the, past, few, years, the, chief, defra, vet, has, been, flying, kites, as, they, say, in, politics, to, see, what, the, reaction, is, or, has, been, doing, as, he, has, been, told, by, whitehall, i, don’t, know, what, the, ins, and, outs, of, it, are, but, the, gist, has, been, they, are, going, to, employ, their, own, vets, to, do, the, testing, as, this, would, be, much, more, efficient, and, cost, effective, when, it, was, pointed, out, this, wasn’t, going, to, be, the, case, we, went, to, they, would, employ, non, vets, to, do, it, as, this, would, be, much, cheaper, there, would, then, not, be, any, farm, animal, vets, in, large, areas, of, the, country, as, it, would, reduce, the, fee, income, even, further, where, the, farm, side, of, vet, businesses, is, marginal, it, would, just, be, given, up, it, would, mean, our, business, in, a, high, stock, area, would, probably, drop, 2, vets, so, london, finally, decided, that, the, status, quo, would, probably, be, best, at, the, same, time, carlisle, in, consultation, with, page, st, decided, that, as, there, is, so, much, tb, being, found, in, the, restocked, farms, that, all, the, restocked, farms, should, be, tested, on, an, annual, basis, and, that, all, animals, not, just, breeding, stock, should, be, tested, this, means, about, a, 25, increase, in, work, load, for, the, next, 2, winters, so, instead, of, dropping, a, vet, we, should, look, to, be, taking, one, on, but, we, cannot, believe, what, is, going, to, happen, next, as, how, can, we, plan, when, such, drastic, changes, are, proposed, in, the, space, of, a, month, friday, had, a, horrendous, night, with, ill, calves, with, pneumonia, in, the, evening, a, calving, at, 1, am, in, silloth, then, a, dog, trying, to, die, at, 5am, so, was, i, ever, pleased, that, it, was, my, half, day, slept, and, played, squash, with, l, j, in, the, afternoon, the, dog, belonged, to, an, old, lady, who, had, no, children, and, it, was, her, husbands, dog, who, had, died, 4, years, previously, she, was, going, to, be, on, her, own, if, it, dies, so, she, was, very, tearful, and, upset, the, dog, is, not, looking, good, as, it, is, 16yr, poodle, type, thing, she, is, isolated, booth, because, she, doesn’t, drive, and, lives, out, at, the, coast, and, because, she, and, her, husband, retired, to, here, and, neither, have, any, family, around, i, felt, for, her, made, me, appreciate, my, family, so, much, more, saturday, 23rd, november, wife, is, away, on, a, course, today, so, for, my, w, e, off, i, am, running, the, kids, and, doing, the, cooking, i, dropped, of, other, son, to, squash, did, some, errands, in, wigton, and, then, watched, the, squash, coaching, they, are, very, patient, and, encouraging, the, total, contrast, was, shown, at, son, s, football, they, are, a, very, good, team, but, i, really, do, not, like, the, attitude, of, most, of, the, coaches, and, teams, in, the, carlisle, teams, i, was, late, to, arrive, and, they, were, already, 4, 0, up, and, this, was, the, second, half, it, was, only, when, i, walked, around, to, where, the, coach, was, did, he, think, about, giving, son, and, the, other, 2, subs, a, game, we, have, had, it, out, with, him, before, that, he, should, give, all, the, kids, a, chance, to, play, or, else, they, find, it, crushing, son, was, really, fed, up, with, the, situation, but, he, does, love, playing, and, is, quite, loyal, the, coach, always, justifies, that, he, has, to, play, his, best, team, which, he, doesn’t, he, plays, his, favourites, friends, sons, but, the, point, is, irrelevant, if, you, are, winning, by, that, margin, then, you, can, afford, to, have, weaker, players, on, the, field, they, went, on, to, win, 10, 0, we, will, have, to, get, a, thursby, team, organised, for, next, year, went, on, to, longtown, poultry, sale, very, interesting, lots, of, rare, birds, and, waterfowl, will, have, to, go, and, buy, next, year, and, get, some, different, types, for, a, to, breed, up, sun, dan, spoke, on, walking, on, water, in, his, own, inimitable, style, he, is, so, refreshing, and, practical, and, honest, made, it, a, call, to, prayer, as, well, didn’t, do, much, in, morning, as, wife, was, on, course, but, finally, managed, to, finish, bathroom, hoorah, mon, decided, that, if, defra, was, a, business, it, would, be, bust, by, now, we, are, on, a, rollercoaster, trying, to, look, at, the, future, with, them, they, only, make, up, in, a, normal, year, about, 20, of, our, farm, fee, income, but, that, has, been, much, higher, over, the, past, few, years, the, chief, defra, vet, has, been, flying, kites, as, they, say, in, politics, to, see, what, the, reaction, is, or, has, been, doing, as, he, has, been, told, by, whitehall, i, don’t, know, what, the, ins, and, outs, of, it, are, but, the, gist, has, been, they, are, going, to, employ, their, own, vets, to, do, the, testing, as, this, would, be, much, more, efficient, and, cost, effective, when, it, was, pointed, out, this, wasn’t, going, to, be, the, case, we, went, to, they, would, employ, non, vets, to, do, it, as, this, would, be, much, cheaper, there, would, then, not, be, any, farm, animal, vets, in, large, areas, of, the, country, as, it, would, reduce, the, fee, income, even, further, where, the, farm, side, of, vet, businesses, is, marginal, it, would, just, be, given, up, it, would, mean, our, business, in, a, high, stock, area, would, probably, drop, 2, vets, so, london, finally, decided, that, the, status, quo, would, probably, be, best, at, the, same, time, carlisle, in, consultation, with, page, st, decided, that, as, there, is, so, much, tb, being, found, in, the, restocked, farms, that, all, the, restocked, farms, should, be, tested, on, an, annual, basis, and, that, all, animals, not, just, breeding, stock, should, be, tested, this, means, about, a, 25, increase, in, work, load, for, the, next, 2, winters, so, instead, of, dropping, a, vet, we, should, look, to, be, taking, one, on, but, we, cannot, believe, what, is, going, to, happen, next, as, how, can, we, plan, when, such, drastic, changes, are, proposed, in, the, space, of, a, month, tuesday, went, to, do, routine, fertility, at, a, farm, today, and, it, was, quite, depressing, in, that, a, neighbour, of, theirs, who, has, started, up, again, has, had, a, really, bad, time, the, problems, of, restocking, on, top, of, bad, hips, he, was, all, gung, ho, to, get, restocked, and, although, he, had, a, sore, leg, he, didn’t, go, to, the, doctors, while, he, had, the, chance, when, he, had, no, stock, as, it, was, only, a, little, sore, but, as, soon, as, he, got, stock, back, and, started, to, do, a, lot, of, physical, work, they, were, very, sore, so, he, went, to, the, dr’s, and, has, 2, hips, which, need, replaced, but, as, he, is, only, 40, they, don’t, want, to, do, it, yet, and, it, would, mean, no, physical, work, for, a, long, period, on, top, of, that, he, has, mastitis, problems, caused, by, taking, his, plant, to, pieces, by, defra, he, has, lost, 8, cows, and, heifers, through, calving, illness, or, injury, so, after, less, than, a, year, he, looks, set, to, give, up, disillusioned, and, a, lot, poorer, the, workload, for, us, is, easing, as, most, cattle, are, now, housed, and, a, lot, of, the, housing, work, is, sorted, i, always, feel, it, is, a, run, down, to, christmas, now, with, all, the, preparations, and, celebrations, and, kids, and, adult, parties, i, was, at, another, farm, today, who, had, meningitis, a, year, ago, and, has, still, not, really, recovered, properly, he, is, still, finding, it, hard, to, get, going, he, lost, all, his, animals, and, all, his, work, during, fmd, and, the, additional, strain, has, meant, he, has, lost, a, lot, of, interest, in, the, farming, side, he, can’t, be, bothered, with, all, the, hassle, and, paper, work, of, farming, sheep, and, cattle, and, so, is, growing, a, lot, of, veg, which, he, and, his, wife, have, always, enjoyed, growing, they, just, retail, at, the, farm, gate, it, doesn’t, make, much, money, but, as, he, says, it, just, keeps, things, turning, over, and, he, and, his, wife, have, time, for, each, other, and, no, hassle, life, is, more, important, than, making, a, living, very, profound, i, am, going, to, go, part, time, i, wish, wednesday, there, seem, to, be, a, lot, of, problems, still, on, restocking, farms, they, are, all, having, problems, with, getting, the, cows, back, in, calf, two, farms, today, complained, that, even, though, they, were, more, than, pleased, with, the, compensation, at, the, time, the, costs, of, restocking, are, much, much, more, it, would, be, interesting, to, do, a, survey, on, the, number, of, breeding, animals, bought, in, and, those, who, have, been, lost, either, through, illness, or, by, failure, to, get, in, calf, the, old, diseases, are, still, causing, the, most, problems, lung, worm, a, disease, i, thought, was, well, under, control, and, well, understood, has, caused, huge, problems, ibr, or, cow, flu, has, caused, so, many, problems, that, we, can, no, longer, get, the, vaccine, as, all, the, stocks, have, been, used, it, was, interesting, today, that, one, of, the, farms, that, is, about, to, start, milking, having, finally, restocked, ordered, vaccine, for, lepto, ibr, and, bvd, almost, as, a, matter, of, course, but, fertility, is, causing, the, most, worries, thursday, feel, a, lot, better, after, an, early, night, apart, from, running, to, and, from, carlisle, after, my, daughter, youth, group, last, night, and, evening, shopping, tonight, son, is, still, trying, to, organise, an, u14, thursby, team, for, next, year, all, he, needs, is, a, coach, the, problem, is, that, it, is, a, big, commitment, i, wish, i, could, do, it, but, i, work, too, many, w, e’s, spent, time, day, dreaming, about, what, to, do, with, the, byre, in, our, yard, it, is, an, old, knackered, building, that, needs, bulldozing, but, wife, s, dad, thinks, we, should, just, look, after, it, and, convert, it, into, sthg, but, what, i, still, think, that, there, is, an, opening, for, herriot, holidays, taking, people, for, a, day, at, the, vets, and, then, a, day, at, the, mart, and, so, on, diversification, is, the, name, of, the, game, friday, had, an, interesting, day, what, with, one, thing, and, another, no, lunch, but, hey, who’s, complaining, one, of, the, nurses, at, work, has, a, chicken, shed, with, her, husband, and, another, farmer, partner, the, fans, and, alarms, all, failed, and, so, the, air, was, not, circulating, the, farmer, was, devastated, it, was, a, horrendous, sight, a, carpet, of, dead, chickens, there, were, 23,000, in, the, shed, and, we, worked, out, there, were, roughly, 2, 3000, left, alive, 20.000, dead, it, brought, back, memories, of, fmd, also, the, logistics, of, disposing, of, 20, tonnes, of, dead, chicken, i, hope, the, insurance, covers, it, out, for, dinner, at, christiana’s, had, a, vet, friend, call, around, at, teatime, he, is, a, meat, hygiene, practice, covering, several, different, meat, plants, they, have, several, vets, covering, all, the, different, plants, he, has, been, asked, to, got, to, harrogate, to, discuss, how, the, different, proposed, regulations, can, be, implemented, a, marked, improvement, on, the, usual, dumping, of, unworkable, ideas, from, defra, hq, saturday, 30th, nov, took, a, while, to, get, going, after, being, out, for, dinner, last, night, though, it, was, very, pleasant, spent, day, doing, odds, and, ends, went, to, watch, son, play, footie, and, bought, an, orchid, from, the, orchid, farm, the, kids, were, making, cards, for, mum, and, wrapping, presents, so, it, was, fun, james, came, down, with, his, kids, so, there, were, 7, running, riot, which, is, really, a, bit, too, many, after, a, late, night, sun, 1st, church, in, the, morning, and, johnboy, called, around, to, see, what, time, the, prayer, meeting, finished, as, he, had, arranged, a, surprise, party, for, wife, s, 40th, so, had, loads, of, folks, in, sunday, night, which, was, great, they, had, all, crept, in, to, the, big, kitchen, and, decorated, it, while, we, were, in, the, front, room, a, and, son, had, been, going, back, and, forth, so, wife, never, noticed, so, it, was, special, the, kids, were, as, high, as, kites, mon, 2nd, wife, is, forty, and, there’s, a, photo, in, the, news, and, star, to, prove, it, the, kids, brought, breakfast, in, bed, and, opened, presents, poor, other, son, after, 3, late, nights, did, not, want, to, go, to, school, i, hope, they, are, all, right, for, gran, wife, s, mum, and, sister, arrived, nannies, from, ireland, to, the, rescue, they, are, going, to, look, after, the, kids, while, we, are, away, for, a, few, days, we, have, had, a, bit, o, banter, about, them, looking, after, the, kids, sister, found, an, advert, for, nannies, from, ireland, which, is, an, au, pair, service, and, sent, of, for, the, info, which, she, forwarded, to, us, she, is, a, character, so, they, have, been, asking, about, working, conditions, and, pay, i, have, been, requesting, police, checks, and, giving, as, good, as, i, get, the, winds, are, pretty, strong, so, they, have, had, a, bad, journey, the, super, ferry, was, cancelled, so, they, have, had, to, come, by, boat, which, takes, much, longer, a, baked, a, cake, and, managed, to, get, 40, candles, on, it, both, wife, and, i, are, looking, forward, to, getting, away, as, usual, work, was, really, busy, and, lots, of, loose, ends, to, tie, up, prior, to, leaving, but, finished, for, 3, days, hoorraaahhh, tues, 3rd, spent, the, day, travelling, up, to, loch, lomond, stopped, off, at, braeside, and, at, gretna, and, bought, some, clothes, and, mooched, around, cameron, house, is, beautiful, with, wonderful, views, and, you, can, just, walk, down, to, the, lake, there, is, a, pool, so, went, for, a, swim, before, dinner, very, civilised, we, had, just, finished, dinner, when, the, waitress, arrived, with, a, cake, with, 4, candles, and, sang, a, rather, wobbly, happy, birthday, sister, had, been, very, keen, that, we, left, the, phone, number, of, cameron, house, even, though, she, had, our, mobile, numbers, now, we, know, why, very, pleasant, surprise, but, we, will, never, eat, any, cake, let, alone, a, whole, one, while, we, were, strolling, around, after, dinner, came, across, the, picture, that, one, of, our, friends, had, used, to, decorate, the, kitchen, with, on, sunday, he, had, come, across, it, somewhere, in, a, book, and, it, looks, vaguely, like, wife, so, he, had, put, it, up, with, lady, wife, underneath, and, here, was, the, original, or, at, least, a, print, of, the, same, picture, weird, weds, after, a, very, lazy, start, a, swim, before, breakfast, full, scottish, we, walked, up, eastern, edge, of, loch, in, sunshine, and, showers, we, were, only, caught, out, in, one, shower, there, was, a, rainbow, down, to, the, loch, edge, a, beautiful, winter, walk, i, have, decided, i, am, going, to, walk, the, west, highland, way, with, the, boys, had, some, fruit, for, lunch, as, cooked, breakfast, on, top, of, dinner, last, night, means, i, don’t, really, need, to, eat, for, a, week, another, swim, thought, about, the, gym, but, i, am, on, holiday, and, felt, wonderfully, relaxed, and, then, dinner, thursday, another, lazy, start, and, swim, before, breakfast, a, walk, along, the, loch, and, the, back, to, glasgow, to, the, burrell, collection, we, just, wandered, around, the, paintings, i, can, sit, and, look, at, the, impressionists, and, keep, seeing, something, new, they, are, very, beautiful, came, back, home, in, time, for, tea, though, did, not, eat, anything, as, too, much, food, made, up, a, ditty, for, the, nannies, nannies, from, ireland, came, to, stay, so, respondent, and, wife, could, go, away, off, the, children, went, to, school, while, respondent, and, wife, swam, in, the, pool, the, nannies, were, left, with, all, the, dust, cleaning, dirt, for, their, daily, crust, their, experienced, gleaned, over, all, the, years, could, not, stop, all, other, son, s, tears, off, to, school, you, must, go, said, a, stern, faced, nanny, lo, the, nannies, go, to, tk, max, forgetting, all, about, the, cats, something, is, sick, on, the, mat, the, nannies, really, don’t, like, that, a, m, l, begs, go, and, fetch, all, the, eggs, on, animals, they’re, not, too, what, did, the, contract, really, mean, keen, they, will, not, give, another, day, until, something, is, done, about, their, pay, so, back, to, ireland, with, this, tale, they, do, go, via, cummersdale, as, their, pay, all, disappears, they, decide, on, new, careers, lois, thinks, of, a, racing, car, ruth, just, of, going, far, so, our, thanks, to, them, are, due, the, nannies, from, ireland, crew, its, now, their, turn, to, go, and, play, till, they’re, called, another, day, edited, to, remove, names, in, verse, friday, bad, hair, day, having, come, back, all, relaxed, and, cheerful, i, was, relaxed, until, i, missed, my, lunch, after, working, all, day, plenty, of, hassle, from, one, thing, and, another, i, was, then, on, call, at, night, and, it, was, very, busy, loch, lomond, and, cameron, house, seem, a, long, long, time, ago, i, am, extremely, fed, up, i, do, not, want, to, calve, another, cow, out, side, office, hours, ever, again, saturday, 7th, december, worked, this, morning, after, a, bad, night, on, call, and, felt, like, death, warmed, up, did, surgery, and, then, sorted, stuff, out, and, did, some, calls, got, finished, at, 1pm, and, went, back, to, bed, went, to, xmas, party, at, white, heather, which, was, good, fun, but, i, was, just, too, knackered, to, enjoy, it, sunday, working, a, few, calls, and, plenty, of, pneumonia, drugs, for, calves, there, is, a, lot, of, pneumonia, about, with, the, east, wind, blowing, it, is, a, wee, bitty, cruel, wind, but, at, least, it, is, dry, not, weather, to, be, working, out, side, it, also, seems, to, be, getting, dark, really, early, i, need, some, sun, on, my, back, 4, weeks, to, go, till, india, had, a, migraine, or, flu, at, night, and, went, to, bed, and, started, throwing, up, i, cannot, burn, the, candle, at, one, end, even, at, the, moment, mon, off, work, ill, but, a, new, vet, student, starting, and, r, is, off, as, well, xmas, shopping, so, thrown, in, at, deep, end, tuesday, went, back, in, and, did, my, bit, working, at, night, but, night, work, easing, off, thank, goodness, plenty, of, high, cell, count, investigations, to, try, and, sort, out, weds, took, kids, swimming, after, work, with, the, vet, student, it, was, good, to, do, some, exercise, and, chill, out, went, to, staples, prior, to, going, to, the, pool, where, as, usual, there, was, no, one, on, the, desk, for, print, cartridges, so, i, went, and, found, one, of, the, girls, chatting, on, the, till, to, get, me, what, i, was, looking, for, as, i, couldn’t, find, an, hp58, what, i, hadn’t, noticed, was, some, one, else, just, standing, at, the, other, end, of, the, long, counter, who, was, then, very, upset, and, aggressive, that, i, had, jumped, the, queue, he, is, obviously, having, a, worse, week, than, me, as, he, could, have, gone, and, got, some, one, from, the, tills, as, easily, as, i, did, but, didn’t, so, why, he, got, so, upset, i, don’t, know, now’t, as, queer, as, folk, other, son, was, very, upset, tonight, when, we, got, back, from, swimming, because, he, had, shaved, one, side, of, his, head, wife, had, cut, the, others, hair, but, his, was, still, short, and, didn’t, need, it, he, wanted, it, done, so, in, the, shower, took, things, into, his, own, hands, and, shaved, off, his, side, burn, but, only, on, one, side, he, did, not, like, getting, laughed, at, either, thursday, christiana, came, to, the, rescue, over, the, hair, other, son, s, and, has, managed, to, make, it, look, not, too, bad, but, it, was, funny, on, call, at, night, but, as, most, nights, seem, double, booked, at, the, moment, went, to, kids, performance, they, are, doing, alice, in, wonderland, very, good, they, can, really, sing, and, perform, the, teachers, do, get, a, lot, out, of, them, tim, was, the, knave, of, hearts, character, actor, and, other, son, was, a, frog, footman, grebbit, grebbit, it, was, good, fun, only, had, a, phone, call, to, put, a, client, at, ease, about, her, cat, so, managed, to, wing, it, friday, out, at, friends, tonight, kids, younger, 2, at, performance, older, 2, are, at, xmas, meal, so, a, bit, of, a, juggling, act, to, get, everyone, at, right, place, at, right, time, missed, out, on, the, cumberland, vet, club, social, which, was, a, shame, but, can, only, be, in, one, place, at, a, time, saturday, 14th, december, had, a, good, meal, out, except, only, started, talking, about, the, publicity, for, as, i, was, wanting, to, go, and, fall, asleep, some, where, i, cannot, take, late, nights, it, is, just, i, am, feeling, too, tired, all, the, time, i, think, that, the, adrenalin, has, run, out, and, i, just, feel, stale, hope, xmas, sorts, it, out, spent, morning, working, did, surgery, and, then, sorted, out, queries, with, gg, for, the, accountant, spent, the, afternoon, writing, cards, and, trying, to, put, together, lists, of, folk, we, should, send, too, a, disaster, got, as, far, as, m, before, running, out, of, cards, and, initiative, went, around, to, s’s, for, nibbles, as, a, house, warming, she, is, some, caterer, her, mother, does, it, as, a, job, so, she, has, helped, so, great, food, could, have, done, with, some, non, vets, to, dilute, down, the, vetiness, sunday, got, up, and, took, kids, to, church, wife, is, doing, a, thing, on, borderline, at, night, so, she, has, to, prepare, that, played, football, and, caught, up, with, a, few, bits, and, pieces, and, did, some, gardening, chatted, to, a, vet, from, chippenham, who, was, complaining, about, the, tb, situation, there, they, have, one, beef, farm, where, when, they, first, discovered, tb, the, farm, took, a, week, to, test, as, there, were, 600, head, there, are, only, 200, left, so, it, only, takes, a, day, the, farmer, has, been, unable, to, but, in, store, cattle, to, feed, and, has, lost, over, 100, to, defra, it, has, been, 2, monthly, testing, for, almost, 2, years, now, and, he, still, has, not, had, a, clear, test, she, was, down, too, just, from, too, much, on, call, monday, got, up, feeling, exhausted, but, even, though, not, very, busy, couldn’t, get, going, the, dairy, farms, are, all, feeling, very, nervous, over, the, nestle, pull, out, farmers, said, to, me, that, they, were, pleased, that, their, sons, are, not, going, to, be, going, into, farming, both, teenagers, one, a’s, year, and, one, a, year, older, both, looking, to, work, in, it, it, used, to, be, a, point, of, sadness, that, the, next, generation, is, not, following, on, but, there, seems, to, be, a, general, air, of, resignation, that, farming, is, not, going, to, be, a, good, career, sad, really, tuesday, 17th, december, spent, the, day, sorting, out, the, remaining, bits, and, pieces, for, the, accountant, we, met, with, him, at, night, which, as, usual, was, the, sorting, out, of, this, and, that, the, finding, of, the, relevant, pieces, of, paper, and, then, what, the, unaccounted, cheques, were, for, we, are, still, making, money, but, only, thanks, to, defra, so, three, cheers, for, mrs, beckett, cynic, it, made, it, a, very, long, day, and, lois, is, off, for, the, week, so, we, are, short, staffed, again, but, last, tests, are, today, as, we, will, not, be, able, to, get, bloods, to, the, labs, because, of, the, christmas, post, i, do, like, this, time, of, year, where, you, hear, from, friends, who, you, have, not, seen, for, ages, and, think, the, same, as, you, did, last, year, i, will, have, to, catch, up, with, them, soon, hey, ho, weds, 18th, there, is, a, lot, of, pneumonia, about, and, the, farmers, are, all, buying, vast, quantities, of, drugs, to, treat, whole, batches, of, calves, and, stirks, the, is, the, usual, mix, but, far, more, than, normal, i, don’t, know, whether, to, be, pleased, that, the, practice, is, doing, well, and, invoicing, a, lot, or, sad, that, there, is, so, much, disease, around, and, we, will, have, a, horrendous, drugs, bill, a, dilemma, i, don’t, think, i, should, explore, thurs, 19th, fri, 20th, kids, went, to, ice, rink, in, carlisle, with, wife, they, have, set, up, an, out, door, rink, which, the, city, council, are, sponsoring, to, attract, people, in, to, the, centre, i, don’t, think, that, they, really, need, to, as, the, place, seems, crowded, enough, as, it, is, son, bashed, his, head, quite, badly, and, other, son, fell, over, and, hurt, his, knee, tim, fell, loads, of, times, and, just, ended, up, wet, and, happy, their, different, characters, are, coming, out, saturday, 21st, december, the, beginning, of, the, christmas, rota, i, feel, as, though, we, are, in, the, run, up, to, christmas, now, i, have, also, made, the, mistake, of, not, buying, all, my, presents, before, now, and, went, into, carlisle, to, go, shopping, it, was, quite, nice, in, some, ways, to, see, the, ice, rink, and, mingle, in, the, crowds, but, an, hour, and, a, half, was, plenty, the, kids, have, decided, that, they, are, going, to, ask, for, money, to, take, to, india, this, year, from, the, aunts, and, uncles, and, so, there, will, be, fewer, presents, to, open, as, christmas, seems, to, be, getting, more, and, more, manic, and, commercialised, i, think, that, it, is, a, very, good, idea, well, done, a, and, son, sunday, 22nd, carols, by, candlelight, it, was, magical, the, church, was, packed, out, and, so, i, ended, up, standing, at, the, back, which, in, some, ways, was, quite, nice, as, you, look, down, the, aisles, to, the, stage, and, there, are, rows, of, candles, and, fairy, lights, down, the, sides, pm, lead, it, and, there, were, different, age, groups, taking, part, he, spoke, on, being, a, christmas, tree, and, how, we, end, up, all, convoluted, by, our, own, wrong, choices, and, how, we, can, have, lots, of, fairy, lights, and, a, star, on, top, and, have, an, image, on, the, outside, that, looks, wonderful, but, what, are, we, like, inside, all, those, things, we, surround, ourselves, with, god, knows, and, he, cares, and, he, loves, us, enough, to, send, a, gift, to, help, us, his, son, immanuel, god, with, us, who, will, take, away, the, sin, of, the, world, i, was, really, quite, moved, by, it, all, this, is, the, real, christmas, mon, 23rd, bump, reality, bites, back, it, is, difficult, to, focus, on, the, important, things, of, life, and, keep, a, perspective, on, life, if, it, keeps, getting, interrupted, by, monday, mornings, but, that, is, where, jesus, should, be, in, the, smelly, cattle, shed, and, in, the, market, place, and, making, a, difference, i, will, have, to, think, that, one, out, while, i, have, time, in, india, the, urgent, as, usual, is, pushing, out, the, important, managed, to, go, swimming, at, foxes, the, first, exercise, i, have, had, for, ages, must, get, back, into, it, maybe, wait, for, the, new, year, resolutions, as, exercise, wet, weather, and, working, over, christmas, don’t, really, go, together, tues, 24th, christmas, eve, working, but, quiet, apart, from, last, minute, panics, as, people, think, that, their, ill, dogs, and, cats, will, not, make, it, over, christmas, with, out, seeing, the, vet, called, in, to, pow, heads, for, the, turkey, they, really, do, have, a, good, butchery, and, poultry, business, going, now, good, to, see, direct, selling, by, farmers, or, cooperatives, is, the, only, way, forward, to, break, the, stranglehold, of, the, supermarkets, wife, is, panicking, about, not, having, enough, food, so, i, am, dispatched, to, buy, more, bread, and, milk, i, think, about, protesting, that, if, there, were, 5000, we, still, would, not, need, a, miracle, but, decide, this, is, one, of, those, occasions, when, it, is, better, to, just, spend, another, 2, quid, for, the, peace, wife, s, parents, arrive, an, hour, later, from, belfast, bringing, 2, loaves, of, bread, and, 5, different, types, of, irish, bread, and, 6, pints, of, milk, and, another, 3, boxes, of, food, i, wonder, about, making, a, joke, about, feeding, the, 5000, plus, inflation, but, decide, that, discretion, is, the, better, part, of, valour, and, just, put, them, in, the, freezer, weds, 25th, kids, started, at, 5, 45, am, and, were, unceremoniously, sent, back, to, bed, but, they, were, allowed, to, bring, their, stockings, in, at, half, past, seven, i, was, on, 2nd, call, so, while, they, all, went, off, to, church, i, spent, an, hour, in, the, surgery, seeing, dogs, one, had, meningitis, and, was, very, near, death’s, door, and, the, owner, was, not, that, worried, the, other, is, just, unwell, and, could, have, waited, but, the, problem, is, you, never, know, got, back, and, made, christmas, dinner, so, wasn’t, all, work, though, i, do, feel, amongst, all, the, commercialism, and, turkey, dinners, the, true, significance, of, immanuel, god, who, is, with, us, is, lost, thursday, 26th, on, first, call, and, lots, of, pneumonia, drugs, to, put, out, and, kept, busy, afternoon, evening, we, had, folk, around, lots, of, different, ages, and, backgrounds, so, was, a, real, mix, and, good, fun, friday, 27th, surgery, reopened, and, was, really, busy, i, am, pleased, that, we, had, put, plenty, of, staff, on, the, rota, it, is, always, a, difficult, balance, to, make, trying, to, work, out, if, there, will, be, enough, staff, to, cover, the, work, no, one, wants, to, work, over, xmas, new, year, but, if, there, are, not, enough, then, it, makes, it, really, awful, for, those, that, are, working, but, if, you, have, people, sitting, around, they, resent, that, too, but, it’s, nice, to, know, i, get, it, right, sometimes, doing, a, rota, always, strikes, me, as, a, no, win, situation, as, it, is, always, a, compromise, between, the, two, extremes, saturday, 28th, december, on, call, friday, night, and, then, i, finished, at, lunchtime, wife, wanted, me, to, go, on, church, walk, but, i, was, knackered, and, we, are, all, going, out, tonight, for, dinner, so, i, went, to, bed, for, a, few, hours, sleep, much, to, my, wife’s, displeasure, having, been, on, call, for, the, whole, period, as, soon, as, i, stop, i, crash, out, as, the, adrenalin, fades, and, i, realise, how, tired, i, am, but, only, mon, am, to, work, then, prepare, for, india, and, hitting, the, beach, it, does, take, its, toll, on, family, life, being, on, call, especially, over, the, christmas, period, the, folk, we, are, going, to, dinner, with, he, is, a, policeman, and, they, have, similar, frictions, sun, 29th, the, service, at, church, tonight, was, memorable, the, last, evening, of, the, year, they, have, people, talking, about, what, god, has, been, doing, in, their, lives, so, it, is, usually, people, who, are, not, eloquent, not, used, to, speaking, up, front, but, who, speak, in, a, very, real, way, about, what, jesus, has, been, working, in, their, lives, over, the, past, year, dp, who, is, 14, who, has, had, bone, cancer, gave, a, very, moving, account, about, how, he, had, nearly, died, how, so, often, we, compare, our, selves, with, those, who, have, more, than, us, whether, in, health, or, other, things, we, should, compare, ourselves, with, those, who, have, less, we, should, appreciate, our, lives, and, thank, god, for, who, and, what, we, are, he, has, had, his, ups, and, downs, but, we, are, to, follow, god’s, guiding, and, his, path, for, us, our, lives, are, in, god’s, hands, we, are, to, pray, and, to, trust, in, him, for, our, future, this, is, a, young, lad, who, has, seen, 4, of, the, friends, he, has, made, in, hospital, die, it, makes, the, trivia, we, fill, our, lives, with, back, in, perspective, mon, 30th, last, half, day, and, lots, of, last, minute, things, to, sort, out, before, i, finish, for, new, year, and, the, 2, weeks, in, india, the, cash, flow, has, gone, to, pot, because, of, the, large, amount, of, pneumonia, drugs, we, have, sold, and, tax, vat, going, out, in, end, of, jan, so, needed, to, make, sure, someone, keeps, an, eye, on, it, while, i, am, away, and, makes, sure, that, it, all, falls, into, place, the, problem, with, going, away, is, that, no, one, keeps, up, with, all, the, admin, type, work, that, i, do, so, my, in, tray, will, be, overflowing, by, the, time, i, get, back, tues, 31st, the, young, people, are, partying, at, our, house, so, we, left, them, to, it, rather, than, cramp, their, style, so, we, had, a, very, pleasant, evening, at, some, farming, friends, we, rang, up, and, called, in, on, spec, they, have, 5, boys, so, we, knew, they, wouldn’t, want, to, get, baby, sitters, for, new, year’s, eve, whereas, we, had, about, 40, they, have, stopped, dairying, but, are, now, worried, about, how, the, new, ruling, will, affect, them, at, the, moment, they, lease, their, quota, which, provides, a, fair, amount, of, income, the, new, german, ruling, will, be, applicable, across, the, whole, eec, that, non, producers, cannot, hold, and, therefore, lease, quota, this, means, they, will, have, to, either, sell, it, in, a, flooded, market, or, go, back, to, dairy, farming, unless, mr, p, can, work, a, way, around, the, new, system, they, are, also, taking, advice, and, looking, at, all, sorts, of, diversification, schemes, some, seem, quite, a, good, idea, others, i, think, are, non, starters, they, already, have, invested, some, of, the, fmd, money, into, setting, up, a, student, house, in, carlisle, the, way, house, prices, are, going, around, here, it, is, probably, a, very, good, investment, not, really, the, way, forward, for, farming, though, the, only, depressing, feature, of, the, evening, was, i, asked, what, they, thought, the, future, of, cattle, vets, was, the, answer, was, none, well, that’s, a, good, start, to, 2003, we, got, home, to, find, the, party, in, full, swing, and, we, left, them, to, it, and, went, to, bed, 1st, jan, 2003, got, up, some, what, late, after, staying, up, for, the, new, years, eve, the, young, people, had, cleared, up, after, the, party, and, we, were, amazed, at, how, well, they, had, done, they, had, set, off, the, dish, washer, and, all, we, had, to, do, was, empty, it, i, was, impressed, the, only, reminder, they, had, been, there, was, when, we, drew, the, curtains, there, were, several, glasses, which, had, been, missed, as, they, were, on, the, window, sill, and, bizarrely, an, odd, sock, the, sock, game, my, daughter, assures, me, was, very, funny, but, what, i, want, to, know, is, who, went, home, with, only, one, sock, on, started, thinking, about, india, a, good, job, my, wife, is, organised, as, we, set, off, tomorrow, 2nd, jan, thursday, travelled, down, to, see, my, brother, and, family, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, again, played, risk, which, was, a, bit, of, a, christmas, tradition, when, we, were, kids, it, was, funny, to, be, playing, with, him, and, both, sets, of, kids, as, i, felt, like, a, kid, again, it, was, really, nice, though, b, won, he, managed, to, wipe, people, out, and, amass, their, risk, cards, he, risked, everything, and, it, went, to, the, last, throw, of, the, dice, so, it, was, quite, exciting, friday, 3rd, jan, travelled, down, to, my, dads, to, have, tea, and, drop, off, some, stuff, before, heading, for, the, airport, i, am, pleased, we, have, had, a, few, days, off, before, flying, as, it, is, a, night, flight, and, i, hate, travelling, when, i, am, already, exhausted, the, weather, was, the, usual, british, winter, of, rain, and, wind, a, friend, of, mine, is, convinced, that, this, is, due, to, global, warming, more, energy, in, the, system, means, more, rain, and, wind, in, which, case, cumbria, is, not, going, to, be, the, place, to, live, as, it, is, already, wet, and, windy, enough, the, next, 2, weeks, recall, x’s, family, holiday, to, india, sat, 4th, january, 2003, i, am, sitting, in, the, nilgiri, hills, in, southern, india, in, shorts, and, t, shirt, enjoying, the, coolness, of, the, high, altitude, it, is, almost, twice, the, height, of, ben, nevis, on, bbc, world, last, night, it, showed, a, reporter, in, london, with, an, umbrella, trying, to, keep, off, the, large, wet, snowflakes, we, are, visiting, friends, who, teach, at, a, christian, school, here, the, contrasts, of, india, always, seem, so, great, the, poverty, and, the, opulence, side, by, side, the, beggars, and, the, road, repairers, at, the, side, of, the, road, in, make, shift, tents, of, plastic, sheeting, and, huts, of, bamboo, leaves, then, the, huge, opulent, houses, wooden, floored, and, air, conditioned, with, their, own, generators, and, the, 4, hotels, with, marbled, floors, and, artificial, streams, and, waterfalls, we, came, on, a, cheap, charter, flight, as, it, was, cheaper, to, come, to, trivandrum, on, a, flight, and, a, package, with, hotel, b, b, than, to, just, buy, the, flights, the, emphasis, though, should, be, on, cheap, it, is, the, first, time, i, have, ever, had, to, pay, for, drinks, on, the, plane, the, air, stewardesses, seemed, to, be, there, for, a, good, time, rather, than, to, look, after, the, passengers, can't, complain, though, as, it, was, cheap, the, only, worry, was, the, re, routing, we, were, originally, supposed, to, be, going, via, united, arab, emirates, but, the, refuelling, was, transferred, to, bahrein, as, we, flew, in, we, were, warned, it, was, a, military, as, well, as, civilian, airport, so, no, photography, was, allowed, the, build, up, of, us, forces, in, the, gulf, must, be, pretty, major, as, even, here, there, were, large, numbers, of, us, air, force, planes, and, massive, sinister, looking, helicopters, it, is, difficult, to, believe, that, they, are, aiming, to, keep, the, peace, by, preparing, for, war, the, papers, here, are, also, full, of, sabre, rattling, between, pakistan, and, india, with, daily, reports, of, skirmishes, in, kashmir, there, is, also, exchanges, of, political, rhetoric, between, the, two, states, how, much, is, actually, for, real, and, how, much, is, sabre, rattling, no, one, knows, the, weekly, telegraph, is, also, reporting, that, iraq, has, shot, down, a, reconnaissance, drone, the, same, sort, that, blew, up, one, of, the, el, quaedi, leaders, in, yemen, the, us, is, obviously, trying, regime, change, by, several, methods, the, us, response, was, to, blow, up, several, command, and, control, facilities, the, war, hasn't, officially, started, yet, but, the, skirmishes, are, going, on, the, cost, the, previous, year, for, the, raf, to, patrol, the, no, fly, zone, was, 22, uk, million, the, last, quarter, was, 10, times, that, so, there, is, money, being, spent, the, priorities, of, govts, is, often, difficult, to, work, out, the, indian, govt, doesn't, have, enough, money, at, the, local, level, to, organise, a, proper, refuse, collection, system, yet, has, money, to, develop, hi, tech, weaponry, the, attitudes, to, rubbish, here, is, very, different, when, we, were, at, the, beach, the, actual, beach, is, combed, by, litter, pickers, but, the, areas, in, between, are, terrible, there, are, 2, smart, 4, hotels, and, the, govt, buildings, where, the, tourism, training, takes, place, the, grounds, are, immaculate, and, the, flowers, and, area, beautiful, but, once, out, side, the, grounds, it, is, a, cross, between, a, rubbish, dump, and, a, building, site, with, piles, of, rubbish, and, sand, and, rubble, we, went, for, a, snorkelling, trip, around, the, coast, to, a, fishing, harbour, where, the, sea, was, calm, and, there, were, plenty, of, rocks, for, the, fish, to, hide, in, and, swim, in, and, out, of, the, boats, were, a, few, bits, of, wood, tied, together, with, string, seriously, there, were, two, central, planks, and, two, edge, planks, and, then, an, aft, piece, of, wood, to, hold, the, aft, part, together, which, was, reinforced, by, cord, the, wood, is, so, light, that, it, floats, with, our, weight, fairly, easily, the, oars, were, split, bamboo, with, no, grips, so, it, made, for, interesting, rowing, or, is, it, paddling, they, are, more, like, large, canadian, canoes, than, boats, very, hawaii, five, o, the, planks, were, roughly, shaped, but, as, we, rode, the, waves, the, water, fountained, up, through, the, holes, in, the, bottom, h, asked, what, wood, they, were, made, of, but, didn't, understand, the, answer, must, be, a, type, of, balsa, we, set, off, from, under, the, light, house, there, was, another, group, going, at, the, same, time, i, think, they, must, have, agreed, to, pay, top, whack, whereas, you, soon, learn, to, try, to, bargain, about, the, price, of, everything, here, they, had, two, helpers, in, the, boat, to, paddle, whereas, we, were, the, economy, class, with, two, paddles, but, only, one, guide, in, our, two, boats, we, took, turns, in, helping, to, paddle, whether, we, made, much, difference, to, the, progression, of, the, boat, i, don, t, know, but, it, was, fun, it, was, a, bit, worrying, that, we, were, heading, for, the, least, scenic, part, of, the, coast, the, other, way, is, beautiful, sandy, beaches, for, miles, there, is, a, wave, powered, generator, at, the, edge, of, the, harbour, a, few, rusty, wrecks, and, bits, of, broken, concrete, but, when, we, arrived, the, snorkelling, was, brilliant, it, was, like, swimming, in, a, tropical, fish, tank, my, favourite, were, small, electric, blue, fish, which, darted, away, as, soon, as, you, came, near, there, were, big, black, and, yellow, striped, tiger, fish, there, were, 2, sorts, one, with, vertical, stripes, and, one, with, horizontal, not, at, all, timid, the, angel, fish, with, their, long, dangling, barbs, were, shy, and, would, only, appear, when, you, kept, still, there, were, some, very, large, spiky, sea, anemones, as, big, as, a, football, loads, of, crabs, and, shoals, of, fish, which, swim, hither, and, thither, some, were, quite, bizarre, there, were, some, that, looked, like, sea, horses, that, had, been, straightened, out, you, almost, could, see, a, jockey, getting, a, saddle, ready, to, put, on, them, for, the, saltwater, derby, the, huge, variety, and, colours, were, just, outstanding, we, spent, a, few, hours, and, then, got, thoroughly, sun, burnt, on, the, way, back, the, boys, had, been, full, of, beans, on, the, way, there, but, were, exhausted, in, the, heat, on, the, way, back, we, spent, today, making, and, flying, kites, on, top, of, a, hill, at, pykara, the, kids, or, was, it, the, dad's, made, kites, and, then, we, tried, to, fly, them, h's, won, his, design, was, copied, from, an, original, no, stick, design, and, managed, to, fly, almost, successfully, my, traditional, kite, shaped, one, flew, once, but, its, aerodynamics, weren't, quite, right, son, s, yellow, square, was, successful, none, however, matched, the, ikea, bought, one, we, played, cricket, and, frisbee, as, the, water, buffalos, wandered, passed, in, the, typical, indian, way, of, having, no, real, boundaries, between, one, thing, and, another, called, in, at, the, vedera's, which, was, very, pleasant, the, garden, was, stunning, as, usual, i, love, driving, through, the, tea, plantations, with, acres, of, terraced, tea, plants, and, through, the, forest, to, get, there, the, hotel, is, an, up, market, indian, rather, than, a, western, which, is, great, for, us, the, décor, lacks, a, little, in, taste, and, design, concrete, floors, and, that, rather, quaint, unfinished, look, spotlessly, clean, and, the, thing, about, india, is, they, love, having, kids, around, and, spend, ages, talking, with, them, and, love, having, them, around, going, out, for, meals, in, uk, with, children, is, always, a, bit, stressful, as, low, blood, sugars, combined, with, the, general, attitude, of, people, to, children, does, not, make, it, a, pleasant, experience, whereas, even, the, hours, wait, for, the, food, here, is, not, stressful, as, the, kids, wander, off, play, games, read, books, etc, son, and, other, son, have, befriended, a, man, at, the, blue, moon, gift, shop, he, has, spent, hours, playing, chess, and, talking, to, them, son, won, a, little, elephant, off, him, by, beating, him, at, chess, son, decided, he, would, buy, josh, the, chess, set, and, kept, bargaining, the, price, down, he, eventually, paid, 350, rupees, for, it, 4.60, the, beach, is, idyllic, with, palm, trees, and, warm, rolling, sea, the, only, problem, is, having, to, get, the, kids, out, of, the, sun, during, the, red, hot, period, between, 12, and, 2, we, do, keep, slapping, on, the, sun, tan, lotion, i, missed, the, widows, peaks, where, my, hair, is, receding, and, have, sun, burnt, red, patches, either, side, of, my, head, the, boys, have, variable, tanning, depending, on, where, the, sun, block, was, washed, off, first, dear, friends, just, a, quick, note, to, say, that, we, are, enjoying, ourselves, so, much, that, we, don't, want, to, come, home, but, we, would, miss, all, our, friends, we, had, a, great, time, at, the, beach, you, know, the, palm, trees, the, warm, rolling, sea, the, sandy, beaches, and, unlike, silloth, 30, degrees, warmth, in, fact, some, days, it, was, to, hot, and, we, had, to, drag, the, boys, out, of, the, sea, or, else, they, would, have, been, really, sun, burnt, we, are, just, back, from, 3, days, at, avalanche, which, is, a, bit, of, an, unfortunate, name, for, a, mountain, out, door, centre, but, as, there, isn't, any, snow, i, don't, think, the, indians, appreciate, the, irony, it, is, up, in, the, mountains, a, jungle, area, where, there, is, very, little, apart, from, a, few, tea, plantations, reservoirs, and, hydroelectric, plants, and, jungle, and, the, wood, men, who, harvest, the, wood, every, 10, years, we, left, a, bus, and, walked, in, to, the, centre, while, a, truck, took, the, bags, food, and, the, lazy, ones, it, is, incredibly, beautiful, with, high, hills, and, lakes, but, there, is, a, drought, at, the, moment, so, the, reservoirs, are, all, very, low, and, everywhere, is, incredibly, dry, and, dusty, thick, red, dust, which, gets, in, to, everything, the, facilities, were, basic, the, water, ran, from, a, stream, to, a, tank, to, the, taps, no, electric, showers, but, fortunately, as, always, in, india, there, was, a, little, man, or, in, fact, 3, who, cooked, for, us, all, a, is, taking, after, wife, their, main, concern, was, not, meeting, any, rats, we, abseiled, down, a, waterfall, walked, and, swam, in, another, well, son, and, other, son, swam, i, am, afraid, it, was, too, cold, for, me, i, will, wait, until, we, go, back, down, to, the, beach, we, all, went, kayaking, and, sat, around, the, campfire, at, night, saturday, 18th, january, 2003, the, end, of, our, indian, holiday, and, escape, from, cumbrian, weather, wife, saw, the, rep, yesterday, and, the, bus, was, arranged, for, 12, 30, for, a, flight, at, 5, 30, this, tour, company, is, something, else, so, we, are, going, to, catch, a, taxi, at, about, 3pm, so, we, are, not, hanging, around, the, airport, for, ages, having, 4, children, and, going, through, the, bureaucracy, of, an, indian, airport, is, bad, enough, with, out, the, additional, hassle, of, waiting, around, for, 3, hours, with, out, reason, the, annoying, part, is, that, so, much, of, it, is, pointless, in, that, they, put, your, bags, through, the, security, x, ray, in, the, main, hall, and, then, give, you, your, bags, back, so, that, if, you, wanted, to, add, stuff, to, your, bag, you, could, you, have, to, go, to, 1, desk, to, check, in, another, to, get, your, seat, another, to, exit, indian, immigration, and, customs, and, then, identify, your, bags, to, get, them, put, on, the, plane, worse, than, defra, so, we, spent, a, last, morning, swimming, on, the, beach, and, then, said, good, bye, to, the, cs, and, gs, wife, had, to, buy, her, material, fro, the, study, we, were, all, quite, sad, coming, away, i, think, we, could, have, all, stayed, and, enjoyed, living, in, india, but, back, to, porridge, sun, 19th, arrived, at, dads, at, 3am, uk, time, after, clearing, customs, flight, was, not, too, crowded, thank, goodness, as, the, space, allocated, for, my, legs, is, not, enough, they, had, as, before, messed, up, their, allocation, of, vegetarian, meals, with, the, height, of, european, ignorance, and, stupidity, they, offered, a, hindu, family, by, us, a, beef, meal, the, stewardesses, should, have, known, better, but, i, just, cringed, with, inward, embarrassment, at, their, thoughtlessness, left, in, t, shirts, and, shorts, arrived, cold, in, jeans, and, fleeces, the, air, conditioning, i, don’t, think, was, working, properly, and, every, one, was, coughing, and, dry, mouthed, as, we, arrived, in, gatwick, drove, back, up, to, cumbria, and, back, to, the, house, it, was, a, strange, sensation, to, be, back, we, had, done, so, much, and, seemed, changed, and, yet, everything, here, was, still, the, same, and, yet, not, really, in, some, ways, it, is, like, after, the, fmd, epidemic, before, and, after, everything, is, the, same, but, nothing, is, the, same, part, of, you, is, trying, to, find, where, you, fit, in, the, new, reality, part, of, you, wants, the, safety, of, the, old, ways, slightly, dislocated, from, your, surroundings, but, the, physical, surroundings, are, the, same, but, i, suppose, you, have, changed, and, the, old, certainties, that, were, not, certain, but, seemed, it, have, made, way, for, new, changeable, ways, that, are, not, certain, and, you, know, that, they, are, not, certain, mon, 20th, i, have, taken, the, day, off, to, recover, the, kids, were, all, up, really, early, because, of, the, jet, lag, and, so, had, no, qualms, about, sending, them, to, school, i, spent, the, day, unpacking, and, sorting, out, with, wife, the, pile, of, post, was, huge, but, seemed, a, lot, more, manageable, by, the, time, i, had, thrown, out, al, the, junk, mail, why, do, i, need, another, 2, credit, cards, any, way, transferred, money, for, tax, bills, and, downloaded, the, emails, there, were, only, 50, so, ploughed, my, way, through, them, when, you, are, away, for, any, length, of, time, it, makes, you, realise, how, much, work, is, required, to, keep, a, household, going, with, all, the, bills, and, stuff, tues, 21st, back, to, work, and, to, face, my, in, tray, still, feeling, a, little, jet, lagged, and, seeing, an, overflowing, in, tray, as, you, arrive, is, a, daunting, feeling, did, some, of, it, and, then, went, out, on, call, it, was, good, to, be, back, on, farm, and, seeing, folk, again, it, always, amazes, me, how, everyone, around, here, knows, everything, so, they, were, all, asking, about, india, and, had, we, had, a, good, time, so, it, was, nice, to, feel, part, of, the, community, as, a, friend, of, mine, once, commented, there, is, only, one, thing, worse, than, being, talked, about, that, is, not, being, talked, about, there, is, still, that, funny, feeling, of, having, been, away, and, having, changed, but, nothing, here, is, any, different, and, yet, thinking, that, it, should, be, though, why, it, should, be, i, don’t, know, weds, 22nd, george, wanted, a, partners, meeting, at, lunch, time, so, we, met, up, and, had, the, usual, decision, making, process, to, be, honest, the, jet, lag, was, still, really, kicking, in, so, i, was, asleep, on, my, feet, it, doesn’t, usually, effect, me, for, this, long, but, both, wife, and, i, are, shattered, by, 8pm, the, kids, are, ok, and, going, to, bed, after, us, the, sign, of, things, to, come, the, whole, pets, travel, scheme, is, causing, problems, it, has, been, presented, as, a, passport, for, pets, but, all, it, really, does, is, allow, re, entry, to, the, uk, from, certain, countries, as, long, as, you, meet, the, conditions, we, have, had, a, few, problems, and, we, do, very, few, so, what, it, must, be, like, for, those, on, the, south, coast, i, dread, to, think, the, problems, are, 2, main, ones, 1, that, there, is, a, 6, month, period, before, you, can, come, back, into, the, uk, after, the, paper, work, is, completed, you, can, go, before, the, 6, months, so, people, who, spend, the, summer, on, a, caravan, site, will, take, their, dog, abroad, but, cannot, come, back, before, the, 6, month, date, there, is, also, a, problem, where, the, forms, have, to, be, renewed, it, has, to, be, done, according, to, the, manufactures, directions, which, vary, from, country, to, country, as, in, france, it, is, a, govt, regulation, that, dogs, are, vaccinated, annually, so, the, vaccine, manufactures, stick, to, that, in, the, uk, dogs, have, to, be, done, every, 2, years, cats, annually, so, you, cannot, have, your, documentation, renewed, in, france, unless, you, vaccinate, annually, whereas, in, the, uk, you, can, renew, it, with, vaccinating, every, 2, years, the, other, problem, is, that, the, paperwork, is, so, complex, that, according, to, defra’s, figures, there, is, a, 18, failure, rate, i.e, 1, in, 6, don’t, make, it, back, in, there, is, also, a, problem, in, that, there, has, been, at, least, one, dog, imported, into, cumbria, with, out, any, paperwork, as, the, owners, thought, all, they, needed, was, a, rabies, vaccination, we, are, dealing, with, it, on, a, weekly, basis, and, are, confused, so, the, poor, punters, don’t, stand, a, chance, thursday, 23rd, there, is, a, real, problem, with, cow, fertility, in, the, restocking, farms, at, the, moment, i, went, to, 1, farm, where, of, the, 10, cows, i, checked, only, one, was, in, calf, which, is, a, little, sad, no, baby, calves, no, milk, production, and, more, losses, for, the, fmd, farmers, the, compensation, is, looking, very, small, the, only, ones, who, benefited, are, those, who, took, the, money, and, got, out, it, is, difficult, trying, to, work, out, why, these, cows, are, having, so, much, of, a, problem, as, usual, i, suspect, there, is, no, simple, answer, the, blood, tests, and, analyses, do, not, help, much, the, cows, have, been, under, a, lot, of, stress, the, movement, into, new, regimes, and, cattle, systems, where, they, have, to, learn, where, to, go, where, the, water, troughs, are, where, the, milking, parlour, is, they, have, had, to, sort, out, the, pecking, order, of, the, cows, which, espy, in, the, larger, units, is, probably, quite, stressful, where, you, add, animals, to, a, herd, there, are, lead, cows, who, know, the, set, up, and, cows, are, very, much, follow, my, leader, in, their, behaviour, patterns, where, there, is, a, complete, cull, and, restocking, there, are, no, lead, cows, so, no, leader, for, the, cows, to, follow, there, has, also, been, a, lot, of, illness, in, the, herds, which, again, will, reduce, fertility, the, other, problem, is, the, poor, quality, silage, because, of, the, bad, weather, the, other, factor, that, keeps, coming, up, in, conversation, is, what, effect, the, topping, of, grass, has, on, silage, grazing, quality, which, would, have, been, an, interesting, study, that, will, never, be, done, now, stress, is, a, generality, of, a, word, but, i, can’t, think, of, a, better, more, specific, way, of, expressing, the, problems, the, stress, of, all, the, changes, has, caused, fertility, problems, the, difficulty, is, in, finding, where, do, you, go, from, here, i, think, a, lot, will, end, up, culling, fairly, large, numbers, 15, 20, because, of, fertility, friday, 24th, one, of, the, defra, tv’s, called, in, on, her, way, back, from, a, test, tb, to, let, us, know, that, there, was, still, an, ir, causing, problems, she, also, said, that, it, looked, like, there, was, going, to, be, a, complete, herd, cull, for, tb, in, the, east, of, the, county, the, farmer, had, restocked, from, three, sources, all, were, down, to, do, as, tracings, as, well, as, to, be, done, under, the, restocking, tb, testing, they, found, 32, reactors, with, lesions, so, they, will, probably, cull, the, whole, herd, it, is, so, depressing, to, think, what, the, farmer, must, be, thinking, and, whether, he, can, face, getting, back, into, farming, again, after, this, further, disaster, does, not, bear, thinking, about, saturday, 25th, january, 2003, linda, b’s, wedding, travelled, down, to, derby, for, wedding, it, was, really, nice, to, see, them, finally, tie, the, knot, as, they, have, been, talking, about, it, for, so, long, they, have, followed, each, other, around, several, continents, so, at, least, that, will, have, seen, each, other, in, different, situations, she, first, came, as, a, student, and, has, worked, for, us, as, a, locum, she, spent, 2, years, at, all, nations, bible, college, in, london, where, she, met, him, so, a, lot, of, their, friends, from, all, nations, were, there, they, have, been, doing, agricultural, relief, work, in, the, worlds, hot, spots, from, kosovo, to, indonesia, from, haiti, to, bolivia, they, are, currently, in, bolivia, working, with, church, groups, she, has, been, setting, up, tb, testing, programme, as, there, is, a, problem, of, human, tb, which, has, been, blamed, on, the, cattle, but, they, have, completed, the, testing, and, it, is, not, the, cattle, it, seems, to, be, nearly, all, human, to, human, spread, so, that, at, least, they, can, make, a, start, on, eradicating, tb, in, humans, by, treating, the, in, contacts, they, went, away, from, the, church, in, a, horse, drawn, carriage, which, was, nice, to, see, spent, quite, a, lot, of, time, catching, up, with, vets, and, their, friends, who, we, have, not, seen, for, ages, sun, 26th, we, were, staying, with, friends, from, carlisle, who, moved, down, to, derbyshire, when, he, started, to, teach, we, went, to, their, church, which, is, a, house, church, and, is, a, little, different, to, put, it, mildly, they, meet, in, a, school, and, it, is, very, informal, with, a, drumming, band, and, a, desire, not, to, be, restricted, by, convention, or, liturgy, so, it, was, a, mixture, of, readings, and, worship, songs, they, do, seem, to, be, reaching, out, to, their, local, community, as, there, were, people, from, all, walks, of, life, there, mon, 27th, back, to, work, and, not, feeling, very, good, had, 2, weeks, in, india, and, no, stomach, bugs, but, a, w, e, in, derby, and, i, have, a, very, runny, tummy, came, home, from, work, early, and, went, to, bed, tues, 28th, off, work, ill, in, bed, being, male, this, involves, dying, noisily, in, a, corner, some, sympathy, i, get, from, my, wife, weds, 29th, not, feeling, good, but, dragged, myself, back, in, as, i, have, had, that, much, time, off, recently, and, i, feel, that, i, have, to, turn, in, but, i, am, off, tomorrow, so, i, can, recover, then, the, only, drawback, is, that, i, will, be, working, the, w, e, the, sheep, seem, to, have, decided, to, start, lambing, or, maybe, decided, not, as, we, seem, to, be, seeing, a, few, if, you, get, what, i, mean, thursday, had, a, good, day, off, and, spent, time, sleeping, and, doing, household, things, even, though, i, hate, diy, it, was, good, to, get, some, jobs, sorted, called, in, at, vets, to, pick, up, stuff, for, court, tomorrow, friday, the, more, i, experience, the, legal, proceedings, the, more, i, feel, that, they, are, a, waste, of, time, what, is, important, is, how, good, your, lawyer, is, the, case, was, all, about, whether, or, not, this, guy, had, starved, his, greyhounds, or, not, he, had, but, as, he, was, on, legal, aid, he, thought, it, might, be, better, to, try, to, keep, his, other, dogs, and, have, fewer, judgements, against, him, he, obviously, knew, his, way, around, the, legal, system, saturday, 1st, feb, 2003, reflections, on, court, case, it, is, one, of, those, really, annoying, things, that, you, can, never, replay, what, has, happened, the, case, yesterday, really, churned, me, up, with, having, to, make, huge, moral, decisions, more, or, less, on, the, spur, of, the, moment, the, complicating, factors, were, that, c, who, was, acting, on, the, defence, was, acting, outside, the, rcvs, guidelines, now, i, could, have, pointed, out, this, to, the, rspca, lawyer, but, as, c, has, already, been, struck, off, once, the, matter, could, well, have, turned, very, badly, for, him, even, though, it, is, his, decision, to, get, involved, and, a, poor, one, then, i, think, that, it, is, not, for, me, to, land, him, in, the, muck, i, could, have, done, so, both, on, the, fact, he, should, not, have, been, speaking, and, also, that, i, could, have, pointed, out, that, his, record, is, tainted, why, he, was, being, an, expert, witness, in, the, first, place, for, some, one, who, is, not, even, their, client, beadsmen, beats, me, i, had, reservations, about, doing, the, legal, work, for, the, rspca, and, at, least, we, do, quite, a, lot, of, work, for, the, local, inspector, so, i, decided, not, to, trash, c, as, a, witness, as, i, thought, that, it, was, not, my, place, to, do, so, and, secondly, the, repercussions, for, local, vet, good, will, would, not, stand, me, in, good, stead, but, i, have, my, doubts, as, to, whether, i, did, the, correct, thing, there, is, no, right, and, wrong, the, dilemmas, are, there, because, you, to, choose, which, horn, you, want, to, get, impaled, on, sun, lambing, seems, to, have, started, with, a, vengeance, spent, most, of, the, morning, at, the, surgery, with, land, rovers, and, trailers, turning, up, one, after, another, with, sheep, lambing, or, having, peri, natal, problems, i, do, like, working, out, of, the, surgery, at, the, w, e, as, there, is, far, less, driving, and, working, is, so, much, easier, and, you, don’t, have, to, keep, getting, changed, in, and, out, of, protective, clothes, so, got, two, vets, work, done, by, just, keeping, on, asking, for, them, to, come, to, the, surgery, the, farmers, don’t, mind, either, as, they, generally, have, to, put, them, in, a, pick, up, to, bring, them, back, to, the, farm, from, the, field, so, it, is, as, easy, to, drive, on, to, the, vets, rather, than, hang, around, waiting, for, them, mon, went, tt, testing, at, p’s, farm, i, used, his, son, a, fair, bit, during, fmd, as, they, went, out, early, on, and, he, always, has, done, a, fair, amount, of, contracting, on, the, various, farms, he, also, has, a, very, happy, go, lucky, style, in, contrast, to, his, dad, who, is, a, bit, of, a, worrier, i, quite, enjoyed, the, banter, and, we, could, just, work, away, as, there, is, no, pressure, too, get, finished, as, the, numbers, are, not, great, tues, went, to, o’s, where, they, are, again, having, problems, getting, the, cows, in, calf, the, levels, of, infertility, in, the, restocking, herds, are, horrendous, the, sad, thing, is, we, seem, to, be, achieving, very, little, in, actually, improving, it, in, spite, of, a, lot, of, investigations, and, spending, money, on, vaccine, and, on, supplements, the, average, loss, must, be, 5, at, least, it, would, be, interesting, to, compare, the, culling, rates, of, the, restocking, farms, and, find, out, what, the, restocking, losses, actually, are, weds, took, the, new, vet, student, with, me, today, and, let, her, do, the, first, lambing, at, r’s, they, like, everyone, else, says, they, are, getting, a, lot, of, lambs, these, were, dead, and, all, tangled, up, and, aborting, so, they, could, not, get, them, out, they, had, quads, last, night, thursday, went, to, s, and, stitched, a, teat, this, is, now, a, fairly, easy, operation, with, the, advent, of, using, open, crushes, and, decent, epidural, anaesthesia, local, is, always, fairly, iffy, as, many, a, dentists, patient, will, testify, to, it, is, very, satisfying, to, fix, something, like, that, friday, spent, the, morning, doing, certs, these, are, otm22, certificates, which, were, brought, in, by, maff, to, compensate, the, farmer, for, cows, that, would, have, been, sold, for, human, consumption, before, the, otm, scheme, banned, them, from, human, consumption, if, an, animal, is, not, fit, to, travel, then, it, can, be, shot, on, the, farm, but, to, get, the, compensation, they, need, a, vet’s, cert, to, say, that, it, is, fit, for, human, consumption, so, it, can, be, burnt, on, the, scheme, if, it, is, not, fit, then, they, have, to, pay, to, have, it, taken, away, so, there, is, a, lot, of, pressure, to, sign, them, the, scheme, is, supposed, to, be, coming, to, an, end, this, summer, but, as, yet, no, markets, exist, for, the, casualty, animals, that, are, fir, for, human, consumption, the, whole, knackery, injured, animals, burying, of, animals, scheme, is, up, for, grabs, and, the, govt, needs, to, get, some, sort, of, scheme, up, and, running, but, the, govt, thinks, maybe, rightly, that, it, is, an, industry, problem, to, get, rid, of, its, own, waste, and, it, is, not, up, to, the, taxpayer, to, get, farmers, waste, problems, sorted, leave, it, up, to, the, industry, market, to, sort, it, there, is, also, a, suggestion, that, as, tb, is, not, an, important, zoonosis, in, the, uk, anymore, then, it, is, a, production, problem, and, it, should, go, the, same, way, as, sheep, scab, and, be, taken, off, the, notifiable, disease, list, and, individual, farms, have, to, ensure, they, meet, whatever, standard, that, the, buyers, want, to, specify, which, is, what, is, happening, to, a, small, extent, in, the, dairy, industry, with, buyers, specifying, farms, must, meet, certain, criteria, saturday, 8th, feb, 2003, wife, is, on, her, course, for, the, w, e, so, i, was, doing, the, run, around, to, squash, and, football, for, sons, mon, 10th, b, is, now, renting, all, the, land, bush, ghyll, head, he, has, taken, it, over, as, a, grass, letting, another, of, the, small, farms, is, disappearing, the, reality, is, it, has, only, ever, been, a, small, holding, but, they, use, to, milk, 20, odd, cows, which, meant, it, got, the, status, of, a, farm, on, our, computer, system, the, uncle, who, use, to, run, it, when, first, arrived, was, a, real, character, he, was, always, telling, you, about, when, farmers, made, money, after, the, war, a, dozen, eggs, was, 10, shilling, none, of, your, 50ps, 10, whole, shillings, you, could, take, a, girl, to, the, cinema, and, the, lyons, café, and, still, have, change, from, a, pound, even, his, free, range, hens, eggs, would, not, buy, a, cinema, ticket, for, one, these, days, he, should, of, taken, her, as, he, ended, up, as, a, bachelor, with, his, nephew, taking, over, the, farm, tuesday, 11th, the, partners, meeting, today, was, trying, to, address, the, fact, that, the, mark, up, on, fees, is, going, to, be, eroded, one, of, the, things, that, barnard, castle, are, doing, is, putting, on, their, bills, but, as, yet, not, charging, for, things, like, telephone, advice, and, out, of, hours, so, we, are, going, to, be, doing, the, same, to, try, to, get, across, the, point, that, we, are, providing, an, all, round, service, that, needs, to, be, paid, for, but, i, still, think, at, the, end, of, the, day, the, economics, will, win, if, you, cannot, provide, a, service, at, a, profit, you, cannot, provide, a, service, so, where, does, that, leave, us, weds, harrison’s, are, having, problems, with, fertility, who, isn’t, the, blood, results, are, showing, low, levels, of, copper, but, i, am, not, convinced, that, is, what, it, is, they, will, have, to, supplement, the, feed, by, adding, more, copper, to, the, feed, the, problem, with, all, these, investigations, is, that, we, are, looking, for, a, simple, answer, when, the, actual, problem, is, multi, factorial, the, cows, may, be, short, in, copper, but, they, are, not, that, low, that, it, is, really, effecting, them, i, often, wonder, with, humans, if, you, blood, sampled, them, for, lots, of, different, minerals, would, we, find, that, a, percentage, of, the, population, is, actually, below, normal, for, some, or, several, minerals, maybe, our, omnivorous, diet, and, the, fact, we, are, not, producing, huge, amounts, of, milk, probably, does, come, in, to, it, we, do, have, a, much, more, varied, diet, most, cows, are, now, on, complete, rations, here, in, the, uk, so, that, if, the, nutritionist, gets, it, slightly, wrong, then, you, will, find, that, the, cows, will, be, short, i, suppose, the, other, thing, that, we, do, always, forget, is, that, they, are, usually, working, off, either, a, single, or, 3, 4, samples, of, silage, so, that, there, will, be, a, spread, of, what, is, actually, in, the, silage, and, the, samples, may, or, may, not, reflect, it, thursday, on, call, tonight, and, busy, which, was, ok, r, was, up, helping, at, wh, house, one, of, his, suckler, calves, had, managed, to, prolapse, its, rectum, but, it, is, as, wild, as, thunder, so, we, were, all, very, careful, about, handling, it, i, had, to, dope, it, any, way, to, operate, but, when, we, put, it, back, it, was, jumping, up, the, walls, which, is, always, a, wee, bit, disconcerting, limousin, stirks, could, be, used, for, the, grand, national, d’s, brother, is, not, very, well, at, all, now, he, has, cancer, and, went, in, for, emergency, surgery, the, day, i, shot, all, the, cows, i, had, a, big, row, with, senior, staff, at, page, st, he, had, been, admitted, to, the, hospital, at, 2am, and, was, to, undergo, emergency, surgery, that, afternoon, i, did, not, want, it, put, on, the, web, site, as, they, were, announcing, them, on, radio, cumbria, i, did, not, want, him, to, be, going, down, for, the, surgery, or, just, coming, out, of, it, and, to, find, out, from, the, radio, that, i, was, shooting, all, his, cows, i, asked, them, to, put, an, embargo, on, it, of, course, the, vets, tried, not, to, let, it, go, out, but, it, did, and, i, was, really, angry, i, wrote, some, strongly, worded, letters, and, never, even, got, a, reply, i, should, have, followed, it, up, and, held, some, one, to, account, but, i, am, afraid, it, all, got, lost, in, the, passing, of, time, at, least, r, is, a, lot, better, he, had, meningitis, around, the, time, of, fmd, he, has, had, bad, heads, and, depression, ever, since, so, it, was, good, that, he, is, back, on, farms, and, has, started, fencing, again, fri, 14th, valentines, it, is, friend, s, birthday, so, we, all, went, around, to, her, house, for, dinner, which, was, really, nice, and, ended, playing, darts, with, the, kids, i, was, pleased, to, get, some, darts, in, the, board, as, it, is, a, long, long, time, since, i, have, played, saturday, 15th, february, 2003, son’s, birthday, my, little, baby, son, is, now, 8, years, old, it, is, hard, to, believe, where, the, time, has, gone, and, all, the, water, that, has, passed, under, the, bridge, went, around, to, friend’s, at, night, and, sat, and, eat, and, put, the, world, to, rights, it, is, good, every, now, and, again, to, wind, down, and, just, enjoy, talking, with, out, having, to, think, as, we, know, them, so, well, you, can, just, come, out, with, stuff, sunday, mon, 17th, spent, the, day, tb, testing, at, dl, where, they, have, had, a, nvl, no, visible, lesions, reactor, taken, colleague, did, the, first, test, and, we, are, not, doing, the, fat, stock, on, farms, that, have, restocked, as, they, will, be, going, for, slaughter, fairly, soon, so, it, is, deemed, pointless, and, really, it, is, so, spent, the, day, putting, big, bullocks, through, the, crush, and, it, is, a, dangerous, work, for, the, men, who, go, in, amongst, them, because, they, are, very, rarely, handled, and, so, don’t, take, to, it, very, well, tuesday, had, an, interesting, lambing, today, and, a, consequence, of, fmd, that, you, forget, about, there, is, an, inherited, genetic, condition, of, suffolk’s, called, dandy, walker, syndrome, causing, hydrocephalus, in, the, lambs, so, both, the, ewe, and, tup, must, carry, the, gene, to, produce, the, deformed, lambs, with, heads, too, large, to, get, through, the, mothers, pelvis, so, it, means, doing, a, caesarean, on, a, ewe, that, can, only, be, used, to, breed, fat, lambs, from, it, has, to, be, put, to, another, breed, next, year, this, years, lambs, are, dead, going, to, die, so, the, economics, are, useless, some, breeders, just, shoot, them, at, this, point, but, he, had, called, us, to, try, to, lamb, it, or, caesaer, it, as, she, was, a, big, ewe, i, eventually, managed, to, lamb, it, he, was, saying, though, that, it, takes, time, to, work, out, whether, the, stock, you, have, bought, will, produce, the, breeding, stock, that, you, want, you, have, to, try, the, different, combinations, that, you, have, to, work, out, which, lines, work, well, together, he, reckons, on, about, 4, 8, years, before, he, will, be, back, to, breeding, decent, suffolk, sheep, in, spite, of, buying, in, good, stock, there, is, more, to, breeding, than, meets, the, eye, wednesday, rb, had, a, stirk, with, mcf, malignant, catarhal, fever, it, is, a, viral, disease, which, is, quite, often, fatal, that, they, catch, from, sheep, but, they, have, really, blue, grey, eyes, from, the, change, in, the, fluid, in, the, eye, and, the, severe, iritis, it, must, be, incredibly, painful, for, them, thursday, dixons, tt2, is, now, clear, so, they, have, to, have, them, all, tested, again, in, 42, days, to, clear, the, farm, of, restrictions, un, fortunately, the, vet, from, the, ministry, said, it, would, be, from, the, day, the, cow, is, taken, not, today, so, the, whole, thing, is, getting, a, bit, complicated, and, jd, is, getting, wound, up, understandably, so, friday, tried, to, sort, out, some, of, the, tracings, that, we, are, supposed, to, be, doing, there, are, a, lot, coming, through, but, the, quality, of, the, info, is, very, poor, tracings, are, where, the, farm, has, sold, animals, and, then, subsequently, gone, down, with, tb, or, other, notifiable, disease, the, defra, paper, chase, is, so, bad, that, ear, tag, nos, are, wrong, or, a, farmer, has, bought, several, from, the, same, source, and, only, 1, 2, are, on, the, paper, work, from, defra, the, thing, seems, to, be, falling, apart, a, bit, went, and, did, a, single, animal, up, at, the, mill, he, usually, buys, in, stores, and, fattens, them, but, as, the, store, trade, has, gone, through, the, roof, he, has, sold, a, lot, of, them, on, to, let, some, one, else, fatten, or, if, heifers, breed, from, them, the, defra, files, have, him, as, a, fattening, unit, finisher, so, that, they, hadn’t, bothered, to, do, tracings, to, him, as, they, would, be, going, for, slaughter, but, of, course, he, had, sold, one, on, that, had, gone, down, with, tb, so, they, wanted, to, know, what, was, happening, with, these, now, saturday, 22nd, february, 2003, saturday, sunday, monday, tuesday, had, a, funny, sensation, to, day, i, suppose, it, was, almost, a, flash, back, in, some, ways, i, went, to, a, farm, who, has, fancy, pedigree, sheep, he, has, rented, land, and, wanted, them, added, to, his, holding, for, the, mv, scheme, so, he, needs, a, vet, inspection, to, say, that, the, fields, are, double, fenced, so, that, the, sheep, do, not, come, in, contact, to, any, others, this, inspection, of, fields, is, pretty, meaningless, as, they, know, what, needs, to, be, done, and, so, they, are, always, up, to, scratch, the, last, time, i, was, doing, it, was, for, fmd, wednesday, thursday, friday, packed, and, got, the, last, few, things, sorted, for, the, vcf, w, e, got, the, posters, printed, and, the, display, boards, together, and, set, off, down, the, motorway, to, pick, up, friend, and, spent, most, of, the, day, travelling, it, was, good, talking, to, him, he, retired, from, practice, just, before, fmd, and, then, spent, the, first, part, of, his, retirement, working, for, defra, on, the, fmd, first, at, preston, and, then, at, settle, it, seems, they, were, better, organised, at, preston, and, he, was, quite, positive, about, the, local, teams, i, sometimes, wonder, if, i, am, sill, too, close, to, it, all, and, to, emotional, to, take, a, clear, headed, look, at, what, it, was, really, like, it, was, good, to, see, friends, at, night, and, get, set, up, for, the, w, e, sat, 1st, march, sun, 2003, vcf, w, e, it, is, difficult, for, me, to, sum, up, the, w, e, as, i, was, so, much, in, it, and, part, of, it, so, i, have, copied, the, report, from, one, of, the, students, who, wrote, a, bit, for, the, vcf, magazine, vcf, triennial, conference, 28th, feb, 2nd, march, 2003, on, a, sunny, weekend, at, the, beginning, of, march, over, 70, vets, vet, students, and, families, bravely, took, time, out, of, their, busy, schedules, and, gathered, expectantly, at, the, hayes, conference, centre, in, derbyshire, for, the, 2003, vcf, conference, we, were, a, mixed, bunch, ranging, in, age, from, 2, months, to, 70, well, nearly, from, many, different, places, denominations, and, walks, of, veterinary, life, but, we, all, had, a, common, goal, in, mind, to, unite, in, our, desire, to, love, and, serve, the, lord, jesus, christ, in, the, vocation, to, which, he, has, called, us, and, to, encourage, one, another, to, be, salt, and, light, in, the, veterinary, world, our, distinguished, speaker, for, the, weekend, was, dr, l, a, consultant, psychiatrist, and, christian, who, drew, from, his, own, experience, to, bring, us, some, thoughtful, insights, on, the, subject, of, god, at, work, he, emphasised, the, fact, that, although, work, is, a, godly, activity, and, that, we, should, view, whatever, we, do, as, if, working, for, the, lord, colossians, 3, 18, it, must, not, be, forgotten, that, a, balance, must, be, achieved, between, work, church, family, life, etc, there, was, also, an, opportunity, to, discuss, how, we, would, respond, as, christians, to, a, variety, of, ethical, decisions, that, commonly, present, themselves, in, veterinary, practice, as, well, as, the, main, talks, there, was, the, opportunity, to, join, a, variety, of, seminars, on, relevant, practical, subjects, bt, a, vet, and, long, serving, missionary, in, thailand, with, omf, led, a, most, interesting, seminar, on, the, joys, and, challenges, of, both, veterinary, and, evangelistic, work, in, a, different, culture, students, and, new, graduates, were, well, provided, for, in, seminars, on, practicing, reality, living, out, one's, faith, in, the, university, or, veterinary, practice, environment, m, c, bravely, stepped, in, at, short, notice, to, lead, a, seminar, on, business, ethics, and, vcf, secretary, generated, some, thought, provoking, discussion, on, a, very, relevant, subject, for, many, singleness, it, was, not, all, work, and, no, play, however, and, we, were, much, obliged, to, the, scottish, students, for, organising, the, saturday, night, ceilidh, much, fun, was, had, by, all, so, we, all, parted, company, on, sunday, feeling, refreshed, and, well, fed, both, physically, and, spiritually, how, encouraging, to, be, reminded, that, you, are, not, the, only, christian, vet, out, there, and, that, there, are, many, others, who, grapple, with, the, same, issues, you, face, the, weekend, was, a, time, of, friendships, rekindled, and, hopefully, new, ones, made, a, time, of, strengthening, and, a, reminder, of, what, is, ultimately, the, most, important, thing, in, our, busy, lives, leading, the, seminar, on, business, ethics, or, rather, winging, it, was, very, stressful, but, very, good, which, was, very, interesting, and, very, challenging, the, questions, about, is, it, right, to, make, a, profit, were, espy, good, to, work, through, but, it, was, incredibly, draining, by, sun, night, i, was, exhausted, drove, back, to, friend’s, for, the, night, he, live, about, 20, mins, off, motorway, and, it, was, coming, through, one, of, the, wee, villages, i, was, flashed, by, a, camera, and, so, will, have, a, fine, and, a, speeding, ticket, to, sort, out, mon, had, a, really, nice, lie, in, and, then, went, for, a, walk, with, friend, around, from, his, house, across, the, fields, it, was, beautiful, then, set, off, for, preston, to, visit, the, friend, who, is, in, prison, the, road, was, closed, on, the, way, to, the, m6, so, took, me, ages, to, find, my, way, to, the, m6, and, then, after, coming, off, at, preston, to, find, the, way, to, the, prisons, the, whole, afternoon, was, very, depressing, there, is, something, very, intimidating, about, having, to, be, processed, for, the, visit, under, security, cameras, and, by, very, polite, but, uncaring, prison, officers, the, being, searched, and, going, past, sniffer, dogs, and, having, to, give, my, finger, prints, which, are, now, on, the, police, computers, prisoner, was, ok, but, fairly, depressed, about, the, outlook, even, now, he, is, worried, about, how, he, is, going, to, cope, when, he, comes, out, the, prison, regime, is, very, oppressive, and, after, being, there, for, an, hour, and, a, half, i, was, glad, to, be, going, it, is, also, a, bizarre, situation, where, you, have, to, sit, there, and, talk, for, that, length, of, time, there, is, also, a, lot, of, stuff, that, he, wants, to, know, about, the, kids, and, you, just, can’t, help, him, most, of, what, we, know, is, hearsay, and, not, first, and, so, difficult, to, sum, up, espy, as, some, of, it, is, not, good, they, are, not, coping, with, the, whole, situation, and, it, is, basically, his, fault, or, his, and, their, mothers, so, he, is, already, feeling, guilty, enough, with, out, giving, him, more, angst, to, cope, with, but, i, was, very, glad, to, be, coming, out, again, into, the, fresh, air, spent, the, evening, at, a’s, parents, evening, challenging, senior, management, and, giving, them, a, hard, time, so, quite, a, day, tuesday, as, usual, the, disasters, after, a, w, e, away, continue, the, new, bathroom, was, totally, flooded, from, a, leaking, pipe, i, felt, like, wringing, his, neck, he, is, the, plumber, the, water, was, flowing, back, through, the, old, kitchen, and, made, a, real, mess, managed, to, get, hold, of, him, after, leaving, more, and, more, urgent, phone, messages, at, all, his, answer, phones, he, has, a, mobile, a, telephone, at, his, flat, where, he, hardly, ever, is, and, at, his, girlfriends, so, the, water, was, off, most, of, the, day, until, he, found, the, leak, and, managed, to, fix, it, again, he, had, to, smash, tiles, and, cut, holes, in, the, wall, to, fix, it, and, the, place, looked, a, mess, but, boy, o, boy, am, i, fed, up, with, that, stupid, bathroom, went, into, work, to, find, no, one, had, done, the, stuff, i, had, left, to, be, done, and, work, was, really, busy, the, speeding, ticket, had, landed, already, why, are, other, govt, depts, not, as, efficient, so, spent, the, whole, day, until, 6pm, running, around, like, a, headless, chicken, and, then, decided, that, stuff, it, i, was, going, to, the, gym, for, the, circuits, class, weds, the, disasters, continued, with, the, washing, machine, giving, up, the, ghost, which, in, a, house, with, 3, boys, and, a, vet, is, a, pretty, serious, problem, i, also, had, an, argument, with, one, of, the, other, partners, saying, that, if, we, did, not, get, another, vet, we, would, have, a, rebellion, or, people, going, off, sick, through, stress, me, being, one, of, them, and, i, have, only, been, back, 2, days, still, haven’t, managed, to, read, all, of, the, stuff, in, my, in, tray, yet, let, alone, deal, with, it, thursday, finally, convinced, senior, colleague, we, needed, some, help, as, the, ministry, got, hold, of, him, and, asked, if, we, could, do, a, tracings, herd, test, urgently, on, one, of, farms, that, has, not, restocked, the, cattle, belong, to, some, one, else, he, then, looked, at, the, book, and, decided, we, could, not, idiot, i, told, him, weeks, ago, last, september, i, think, that, this, would, happen, so, spent, the, day, sorting, out, dc, to, come, in, between, vetting, he, is, not, an, lvi, so, have, had, to, pull, some, wool, and, sweet, talk, them, into, training, him, in, the, baffling, ways, of, defra, but, that, meant, i, still, have, yet, to, reach, the, bottom, of, my, in, tray, may, be, there, is, gold, buried, at, the, bottom, i, think, this, is, one, of, those, days, when, you, look, back, were, probably, quite, decisive, but, accidental, days, this, was, the, first, time, i, really, thought, that, i, was, about, to, be, killed, i, could, see, it, happening, and, there, was, nothing, i, could, have, done, differently, to, prevent, it, i, went, on, a, calving, after, work, about, 8pm, met, up, with, the, farmers, and, one, went, to, get, water, while, the, other, and, i, walked, into, the, box, to, where, the, cow, was, the, cow, gave, me, a, funny, look, and, i, backed, off, to, behind, a, pillar, in, the, pen, oh, its, ok, it’s, a, quiet, cow, she’s, had, 8, calves, he, said, next, time, i, will, listen, to, my, instincts, so, we, went, forward, to, where, she, was, without, warning, or, snorting, or, given, it, a, second, thought, she, charged, caught, me, under, the, ribs, with, her, head, and, threw, me, to, the, ground, before, i, could, react, she, butted, me, again, in, the, head, snorted, kicked, me, and, then, backed, off, as, the, farmer, started, kicking, and, hitting, her, she, then, came, again, bashed, me, into, the, corner, on, my, back, and, kept, coming, as, her, head, flew, at, me, i, grabbed, her, nose, and, swung, myself, around, on, her, nose, kicked, her, with, both, feet, taking, all, my, weight, on, the, one, hand, while, shouting, for, help, from, the, other, guys, one, came, back, with, a, pitchfork, as, i, was, on, the, ground, i, kicked, her, again, as, they, came, with, the, fork, and, let, go, and, scrambled, away, around, the, box, she, still, came, after, me, but, i, got, to, the, gate, past, the, two, brothers, who, thumped, her, again, and, then, backed, off, and, slammed, the, gate, shut, i, lay, in, a, heap, on, a, bale, for, 10, minutes, breathing, heavily, while, they, asked, did, i, need, an, ambulance, or, doctor, i, finally, came, to, enough, to, splash, water, on, my, face, and, think, that, there, must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, it, took, all, 4, brothers, armed, with, sticks, to, get, her, into, a, crush, where, i, then, managed, to, calve, 1, dead, twin, breach, and, 1, live, twin, just, in, her, defence, the, cow, had, been, calving, for, a, while, was, in, pain, and, had, probably, just, got, herself, really, wound, up, but, she, almost, killed, me, i, then, sat, having, strong, tea, for, quarter, of, an, hour, before, summoning, up, the, courage, to, drive, home, with, hind, sight, i, should, have, taken, up, there, offer, of, a, getting, some, one, else, out, to, calve, the, cow, but, the, girl, on, 2nd, was, 5ft, nothing, and, petite, and, didn’t, think, dumping, it, on, her, was, very, fair, the, adrenaline, was, still, flowing, so, i, just, kept, on, b, i, should, however, have, let, one, of, them, drive, me, home, or, probably, to, casualty, but, i, felt, they, would, not, do, anything, at, the, hospital, except, keep, an, eye, on, me, so, i, just, went, home, to, my, own, bed, and, asked, my, wife, to, wake, me, up, every, two, hours, friday, ill, with, head, spinning, every, time, i, sit, down, to, try, and, do, something, my, head, just, goes, around, and, i, feel, really, tired, and, jet, lagged, i, think, i, prefer, india, to, being, beaten, up, by, cows, time, for, a, new, job, slept, all, afternoon, but, had, friends, for, dinner, it, had, been, arrange, months, ago, so, wife, didn’t, cancel, and, i, kept, going, but, drifted, in, and, out, a, wee, bit, saturday, 8th, march, had, a, lie, in, to, 9, o, clock, yo, still, feeling, pretty, sore, but, at, least, my, head, is, one, piece, i, think, showed, flat, to, prospective, tenants, it, is, very, rare, that, we, don’t, have, to, get, up, for, sthg, when, we, are, at, home, either, for, work, or, for, football, squash, or, something, similar, there, is, another, squash, competition, but, they, are, both, later, starts, for, our, boys, which, is, great, took, son, to, football, and, wife, phoned, up, to, say, that, the, cs, were, going, to, watch, the, lord, of, the, rings, did, i, want, to, go, so, went, to, watch, it, and, swapped, younger, kids, with, wife, taking, son, and, their, youngsters, and, i, went, with, the, cs, there, are, times, when, mobile, phones, are, really, useful, to, get, things, arranged, the, film, was, really, good, but, boy, was, i, stiff, after, sitting, down, for, that, length, of, time, my, knee, was, giving, me, real, gyp, spent, evening, at, daubes, but, i, faded, so, wife, drove, home, and, went, to, bed, sunday, 9th, went, to, church, in, morning, and, picked, up, car, friends, came, to, lunch, which, was, really, good, to, see, them, but, as, a, points, out, pointedly, they, do, have, 5, boys, so, there, were, 8, kids, flying, around, but, i, did, enjoy, seeing, them, they, are, still, trying, to, sort, out, their, diversification, plans, and, hope, to, have, several, strings, to, their, bows, as, well, as, farming, there, is, a, teachers, position, at, nelson, thom, so, that, is, probably, the, most, reliable, form, of, income, for, friend, mon, 10th, went, to, work, but, every, time, i, bend, over, or, move, to, fast, my, head, spins, so, just, did, small, animals, i, think, cats, and, dogs, are, a, much, better, idea, but, a, lot, of, sympathy, from, folk, at, work, mr, h, had, been, in, and, obviously, given, a, fairly, graphic, description, of, what, had, happened, that, and, my, face, is, not, the, most, becoming, at, the, moment, tues, 11th, back, to, work, on, the, farms, i, was, at, rs, for, a, fertility, visit, even, though, i, know, his, cows, and, i, am, happy, with, them, i, did, feel, very, nervous, about, going, any, where, near, them, i, have, lost, a, lot, of, confidence, which, although, i, expected, it, i, am, still, a, bit, wound, up, about, it, the, rest, of, day, was, ok, apart, from, several, people, whingeing, about, the, current, paper, work, requirements, for, selling, cattle, mind, you, when, you, see, what, they, need, to, sell, a, few, bullocks, or, a, geld, cow, it, is, probably, easier, to, be, an, asylum, seeker, spent, evening, at, surgery, showing, d, the, ropes, he, is, the, locum, who, is, going, to, be, working, with, us, for, the, next, few, weeks, he, is, going, to, the, ministry, at, newcastle, tomorrow, to, do, his, lvi, training, at, least, that, means, he, can, do, some, of, the, tb, testing, and, at, least, give, us, a, break, from, that, it, is, these, sort, of, things, managing, staff, showing, people, the, ropes, giving, them, back, up, and, debriefing, them, that, latkes, huge, amounts, of, time, and, energy, and, yet, is, never, seen, as, work, or, relevant, by, a, lot, of, people, the, rest, of, the, partnership, and, yet, in, any, small, business, it, is, the, people, that, make, all, the, difference, and, if, they, feel, appreciated, and, supported, and, can, debrief, and, be, reassured, then, it, makes, such, a, difference, to, them, and, happy, staff, can, deal, with, situations, and, people, a, lot, better, and, easier, than, stressed, ones, weds, 12th, next, year, i, am, not, going, it, is, definitely, some, one, else’s, turn, i, speak, of, the, annual, training, day, for, senior, lvis, it, just, drives, me, up, the, wall, the, morning, was, spent, fairly, usefully, talking, about, contingency, planning, for, the, next, fmd, or, exotic, disease, epidemic, the, page, st, planners, seemed, fairly, well, clued, in, and, taking, on, board, a, lot, of, the, ideas, and, problems, that, had, been, seen, in, 2001, the, afternoon, was, then, totally, depressing, tb, is, now, endemic, in, the, south, of, the, county, there, was, a, deer, herd, that, had, animals, dying, and, so, took, them, to, the, vic, lab, at, penrith, to, find, out, why, they, had, these, animals, losing, weight, and, dying, they, had, tb, the, ministry, had, known, that, there, had, been, reactors, all, around, that, area, but, had, never, picked, up, on, the, fact, these, deer, were, here, and, should, have, been, tested, there, were, also, complaints, that, forward, tracings, were, not, being, done, on, some, cattle, to, which, the, vety, officer, giving, the, talk, said, it, was, quite, difficult, to, work, out, where, cattle, had, gone, this, was, met, with, some, incredulity, by, the, local, vets, as, the, paperwork, and, computerised, passport, scheme, surely, means, that, trace, ability, was, one, of, the, big, issues, to, do, with, bse, and, if, it, cannot, be, done, it, means, the, whole, thing, is, a, useless, sham, well, the, answer, is, that, you, can, trace, a, specific, animal, through, markets, and, holdings, but, not, animals, on, and, off, a, holding, so, tracings, are, taking, too, much, time, so, it, is, not, getting, done, so, tb, is, spreading, idiots, the, best, systems, the, best, tools, the, best, ideas, the, best, businesses, have, to, work, through, people, so, next, year, some, one, else, can, go, and, listen, to, the, plans, in, the, sky, this, was, the, meeting, where, we, had, an, excellent, talk, on, fmd, in, feb, 2000, just, a, pity, they, did, not, listen, to, their, own, experts, there, was, also, a, talk, on, the, new, scrapie, scheme, where, the, guy, speaking, knew, less, than, his, audience, why, i, have, to, go, back, to, the, speaker, at, the, vcf, w, e, who, said, that, when, he, came, out, of, medical, school, he, had, spent, 6, years, being, taught, to, be, rational, and, scientific, where, disease, was, discussed, logically, and, a, rational, conclusion, was, sought, he, came, with, the, same, idea, to, the, national, health, service, and, struggled, he, said, we, live, in, a, fallen, world, with, fallen, institutions, and, we, have, to, accept, that, at, times, they, do, not, make, sense, and, that, it, is, not, in, our, power, or, capabilities, to, change, them, where, we, can, we, change, them, where, we, cannot, we, work, within, them, thursday, 13th, day, off, prior, to, working, w, e, went, up, high, pike, with, friend, snowed, lightly, on, tops, but, beautiful, but, a, wee, bit, chilly, spent, the, afternoon, getting, the, stuff, sorted, for, vcf, magazine, and, answering, e, mails, and, putting, the, details, from, the, w, e, in, to, some, sort, of, order, i, was, trying, also, to, put, some, responses, down, for, yesterday, but, feeling, to, angry, to, risk, putting, it, down, on, paper, i, just, hope, the, govt, is, more, in, touch, with, the, armed, forces, on, the, frontline, in, kuwait, than, the, distant, arm, of, govt, in, state, vet, service, in, cumbria, friday, 14th, another, day, another, test, another, dollar, spent, morning, supervising, the, locum, and, trying, to, get, on, top, of, my, in, tray, the, stuff, for, partners, meeting, next, week, to, try, and, get, some, decisions, and, a, w, e, on, call, looms, when, i, feel, even, though, i, have, not, been, in, work, or, worked, too, many, w, e’s, tired, and, jaded, being, beaten, up, by, the, cow, probably, doesn’t, help, saturday, 15th, march, working, the, w, e, on, first, for, the, first, time, in, a, long, time, as, i, have, been, keeping, the, amount, i, am, working, back, i, am, was, way, ahead, in, the, amount, worked, so, it, brings, the, numbers, in, line, i, also, need, a, break, as, feeling, v, tired, and, fed, up, and, with, not, much, prospect, of, rejuvenation, the, morning, was, fairly, busy, but, we, all, finished, by, 12, so, not, that, bad, it, was, funny, as, julie, who, ahs, been, a, receptionist, since, pre, fmd, said, that, she, thought, it, was, really, busy, but, compared, to, the, good, old, days, of, 8, years, ago, you, thought, it, was, a, good, sat, am, if, you, finished, by, 2, so, it, is, surprising, how, things, change, and, you, get, use, to, them, the, weather, is, beautiful, with, clear, skies, and, frosty, spring, mornings, and, dry, the, good, weather, always, makes, you, feel, better, any, way, spent, afternoon, doing, bits, and, pieces, in, garden, and, jobbing, around, sunday, 16th, busy, in, morning, but, it, shows, how, useful, the, new, building, is, ok, i, know, its, 4, years, old, but, things, have, never, been, normal, and, i, still, see, it, as, new, there, were, 2, lambings, and, a, sheep, to, see, and, drugs, to, put, out, and, because, i, was, at, the, surgery, they, just, kept, on, coming, down, to, the, surgery, to, the, large, animal, bay, so, i, did, a, lot, of, work, with, no, driving, and, it, makes, such, a, difference, what, would, have, taken, 3, 4, hours, was, finished, in, an, hour, and, a, half, missed, church, and, did, the, same, at, night, with, more, lambings, the, sheep, are, back, the, afternoon, was, spent, sorting, out, after, boys, they, went, down, to, the, pond, and, because, it, is, all, churned, up, they, got, their, wellies, stuck, in, the, mud, so, they, were, cold, and, wet, and, covered, i, had, to, use, planks, to, walk, out, to, them, so, i, did, not, sink, in, i, made, the, mistake, of, fetching, the, planks, and, the, spades, back, before, sorting, the, boys, so, they, had, trailed, mud, all, around, the, house, grrrrr, but, i, should, have, taken, photos, in, the, midst, of, this, the, new, vet, student, rachael, turned, up, so, i, could, not, give, full, vent, to, my, annoyance, mon, 17th, chaos, at, work, with, loads, of, emergencies, and, testing, so, we, were, all, glad, of, students, and, d, working, more, i, r’s, found, tb, testing, so, it, looks, like, it, will, continue, still, haven’t, found, time, to, put, pen, to, paper, or, type, writer, to, send, a, letter, to, contingency, planning, group, at, defra, but, hopefully, will, get, on, top, of, it, soon, tues, 18th, some, days, i, should, have, stayed, in, bed, a, bad, hair, day, started, off, badly, with, arriving, at, fertility, visit, as, farmer, was, emerging, from, breakfast, having, been, late, as, his, wife, was, milk, recording, and, he, had, to, calve, a, cow, so, had, to, sort, cows, before, checking, to, see, in, calf, a, very, rotten, lambing, rotten, as, in, lambs, were, disintegrating, so, stank, and, then, more, calls, left, for, lunch, at, 12, 45, to, get, half, way, and, the, called, me, back, for, another, lambing, there, were, 1, 30, calls, to, do, and, then, surgery, worked, at, night, and, i, was, fed, up, of, being, on, call, stopping, me, doing, stuff, so, went, to, gym, and, was, bleeped, out, to, speak, to, folk, 4, times, by, now, really, wound, up, so, went, to, house, group, and, sat, down, chatted, and, phone, went, sorted, that, and, then, a, cow, caesarean, this, was, followed, by, 2, more, and, 3, hours, sleep, must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, weds, 19th, feeling, my, age, no, sleep, on, the, night, before, you, 40th, birthday, does, not, do, you, any, good, missed, seeing, kids, in, morning, as, i, was, out, at, caesar, 3, during, night, on, call, the, girls, at, work, had, got, hold, of, loads, of, photos, from, my, wife, so, they, were, all, around, the, practice, well, i, was, a, cute, teenager, worked, through, to, lunch, as, morning, was, busy, and, partners, meeting, then, did, a, 1, 30, and, went, home, for, sleep, opened, presents, with, kids, at, 4, o’clock, and, went, out, to, d’s, for, meal, at, night, was, good, thurs, 20th, really, quiet, as, no, tb, testing, and, lots, of, vets, did, more, lambings, and, caught, up, on, business, side, of, organisation, doing, rota, and, organising, work, reflected, on, partners, meeting, and, tried, to, work, out, whether, i, am, out, of, sync, with, the, rest, of, the, world, and, right, or, out, of, sync, and, wrong, time, will, tell, iraq, war, started, as, predicted, but, seems, to, have, been, an, opportunistic, target, i, e, saddam, himself, rather, than, all, out, assault, weird, but, that, is, politics, i, must, ask, the, history, teachers, about, what, caused, the, failure, of, the, league, of, nations, and, whether, this, is, going, to, be, similar, for, un, fri, 21st, despite, being, on, back, up, went, out, for, a, meal, it, was, the, coffee, morning’s, xmas, bash, that, is, traditionally, now, held, in, new, year, as, there, is, too, much, else, on, during, xmas, period, spent, quite, a, while, talking, to, ms, about, league, of, nations, and, the, un, he, is, fairly, sceptical, about, the, power, and, influence, of, un, which, in, his, view, is, more, often, than, not, used, as, a, fig, leaf, for, us, or, ussr, ambitions, and, is, not, really, the, international, community, he, was, interesting, to, talk, to, about, the, history, of, iraq, played, pictionary, boys, vs, girls, which, was, fun, saturday, 22nd, march, 2003, worked, am, which, was, very, busy, as, it, was, my, 10th, day, i, was, feeling, a, bit, drained, either, that, or, cos, of, out, for, meal, last, night, i, will, let, you, decide, the, beautiful, weather, is, continuing, and, we, went, for, a, lovely, walk, up, above, fellside, the, kids, loved, playing, in, the, streams, and, the, sunshine, which, for, march, is, amazing, came, back, to, find, that, there, was, a, house, full, of, folk, to, celebrate, my, 40th, birthday, which, was, really, nice, though, it, was, a, good, thing, that, the, weather, was, good, so, the, kids, could, play, out, side, as, there, were, lots, of, them, chatted, to, p, who, is, always, full, of, energy, and, enthusiasm, he, is, a, whirlwind, of, ideas, and, concepts, and, philosophy, one, of, the, few, people, who, i, can, sit, and, listen, to, for, hours, and, hours, he, is, intelligent, and, articulate, in, 7, languages, and, yet, always, ready, to, listen, to, anyone, and, hear, what, they, have, to, say, even, if, it, is, poorly, thought, out, and, very, practical, in, his, approach, and, very, un, materialistic, he, is, quite, happy, to, give, books, and, ideas, to, anyone, who, will, read, and, learn, from, them, sunday, 23rd, this, weather, is, amazing, i, still, cannot, get, over, it, with, the, sun, blazing, down, we, went, to, watch, son, play, football, against, silloth, they, won, 2, 0, but, it, was, a, tight, match, but, very, good, to, watch, much, better, than, carlisle, as, one, spectators, put, it, went, on, to, beckfoot, for, a, picnic, in, march, the, beach, was, deserted, and, yet, it, was, warm, enough, for, t, shirts, and, shorts, for, the, boys, i, lay, in, the, sun, and, slept, and, counted, my, many, blessings, came, home, and, planted, seeds, lettuce, courgette, and, sweet, pea, must, plant, leeks, and, pumpkins, if, i, get, a, a, chance, this, week, and, buy, onion, sets, wife, spent, a, while, after, church, talking, to, b, about, low, moor, difficult, mon, 24th, sent, my, letter, to, richard, drummond, who, was, the, rvo, at, harrogate, and, is, now, head, of, service, delivery, it, is, always, a, bit, of, a, conscious, effort, to, take, up, the, cudgels, against, bureaucracy, especially, one, like, the, svs, that, has, in, its, culture, a, tendency, to, attack, those, who, criticise, it, i, hope, that, tomorrow, will, be, quiet, as, i, wish, to, write, another, letter, to, the, contingency, planning, dept, i, also, want, to, look, at, the, updated, contingency, plans, and, make, comments, on, it, but, doing, all, this, does, not, pay, the, bills, and, at, the, moment, when, work, is, so, busy, i, feel, it, is, actually, more, important, to, spend, time, with, the, kids, so, i, will, sign, off, and, go, and, watch, the, great, escape, which, they, bought, me, for, my, birthday, copy, of, letter, to, richard, drummond, who, wrote, the, drummond, report, before, fmd, saying, that, if, there, was, an, outbreak, they, would, not, be, able, to, cope, 21st, march, 2003, mr, r, d, drummond, address, removed, dear, richard, i, am, writing, to, express, my, concern, with, the, current, situation, with, tb, we, last, met, at, the, lvi, meeting, in, cumbria, where, we, had, an, excellent, talk, on, foot, and, mouth, disease, and, about, how, there, was, an, increased, risk, becoming, apparent, this, was, in, feb, 2000, at, the, meeting, this, year, as, well, as, talks, on, contingency, planning, there, was, a, lot, of, discussion, on, the, emergence, of, tb, on, cumbrian, farms, there, were, also, complaints, that, forward, tracings, were, not, being, done, on, some, cattle, to, which, the, vet, officer, giving, the, talk, said, it, was, quite, difficult, and, time, consuming, to, work, out, where, cattle, had, gone, this, was, met, with, some, incredulity, by, the, local, vets, as, the, paperwork, and, computerised, passport, scheme, involved, in, moving, cattle, is, a, huge, burden, on, farmers, trace, ability, was, one, of, the, big, issues, to, do, with, bse, and, if, it, cannot, be, done, it, means, the, whole, paper, exercise, is, a, useless, sham, the, answer, was, given, that, you, can, trace, a, specific, animal, through, markets, and, holdings, but, not, animals, on, and, off, a, holding, so, tracings, are, taking, too, much, time, so, tracings, are, not, getting, done, in, some, divisions, so, tb, is, spreading, whether, this, comes, under, your, remit, as, head, of, service, delivery, i, do, not, know, but, i, would, be, grateful, if, you, could, forward, it, to, the, relevant, department, or, to, the, minister, so, that, a, single, enquiry, to, the, cattle, movements, service, at, workington, will, ensure, a, comprehensive, list, of, movements, on, and, off, a, holding, since, the, previous, test, if, we, cannot, trace, from, herds, with, tuberculosis, reactors, the, ability, to, track, fmd, is, obviously, a, non, starter, thank, you, in, advance, for, your, help, with, this, i, hope, in, 3, years, time, we, will, not, be, contemplating, what, we, should, have, learnt, from, an, lvi, meeting, in, hadrian, house, yours, sincerely, b.v.m, s, m.r.c.v.s, tues, 25th, wife, s, cousin, from, vancouver, arrived, and, it, was, really, nice, to, see, her, again, the, canadians, are, always, so, up, beat, and, down, to, earth, they, have, a, refreshingly, positive, can, do, mentality, she, and, her, daughter, have, been, with, a, school, choir, singing, in, parts, of, europe, and, doing, the, european, tour, they, are, whistle, stopping, the, lakes, tomorrow, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, them, young, vet, who, lost, brother, was, with, them, my, favourite, mother, in, law, she, brought, me, a, set, of, kitchen, knives, for, my, birthday, present, they, are, incredibly, sharp, so, i, don’t, think, that, letting, the, kids, loose, with, them, will, be, a, good, idea, but, at, least, we, can, pitch, some, of, the, old, ones, which, needed, sharpening, every, time, you, used, them, vet, arrived, back, from, skiing, very, sun, burnt, from, the, sunshine, and, wind, she, has, had, a, really, good, time, though, weds, 26th, a, and, left, as, i, arrived, in, to, go, to, yp’s, it, was, funny, to, see, them, very, much, the, young, ladies, going, out, they, live, at, opposite, ends, of, the, world, and, yet, the, fashion, is, the, same, little, hand, bags, and, scarves, as, belts, globalisation, is, not, just, effecting, agriculture, they, had, spent, time, in, keswick, and, around, the, lakes, today, making, use, of, the, gorgeous, summer, weather, in, march, it, really, is, warm, hope, we, are, in, for, a, scorcher, of, a, summer, holidays, thursday, 27th, spent, the, quietist, night, on, call, for, a, long, long, time, nothing, why, is, it, as, soon, as, you, employ, a, locum, as, an, extra, pair, of, hands, the, work, disappears, still, it, will, given, everyone, a, chance, to, have, a, breather, said, good, bye, to, the, canadians, and, mother, in, law, we, are, heading, over, to, ireland, to, see, the, irish, side, of, the, family, at, easter, so, we, will, see, vet, friend, again, soon, but, it, was, funny, saying, goodbye, all, the, same, don’t, know, why, was, doing, a, herd, health, plan, today, for, a, farm, that, has, 50, dairy, cows, he, said, he, did, not, really, know, why, he, is, doing, it, as, he, is, going, to, give, up, and, go, and, milk, for, some, one, else, as, it, is, not, viable, to, make, it, pay, on, that, sort, of, small, scale, friday, 28th, haven’t, got, the, workload, right, at, all, i, think, the, sunshine, has, sent, the, farmers, into, the, fields, to, work, and, the, lambs, and, calves, are, all, arriving, un, aided, in, to, the, sunshine, it, is, amazing, how, the, good, weather, makes, you, feel, so, much, better, so, i, have, booked, in, extra, testing, for, next, week, the, only, slightly, sad, thing, was, talking, to, one, of, the, farmers, who, had, just, started, lambing, i, was, taking, out, rotten, lambs, that, were, aborting, 2, weeks, earlier, it, is, his, first, season, actually, lambing, as, he, only, bought, in, fat, sheep, last, year, he, said, that, it, was, at, this, stage, 2, years, ago, that, they, came, and, took, all, his, sheep, he, should, not, have, let, them, do, it, it, was, wrong, and, he, had, not, put, up, a, fight, he, had, just, gone, along, with, it, he, was, fairly, melancholic, about, it, i, tried, to, point, out, that, every, one, had, done, it, and, it, had, seemed, to, be, best, thing, to, do, at, the, time, i, did, not, think, that, pointing, out, i, had, not, been, convinced, and, argued, against, it, and, that, only, 2, out, of, 10,000, blood, samples, of, live, sheep, slaughtered, had, been, exposed, to, the, virus, would, have, helped, they, were, my, granddads, flock, he, said, now, we, have, all, these, problems, he, says, looking, at, the, dead, lambs, i, have, just, pulled, out, lying, in, a, heap, in, the, corner, of, the, trailer, you, never, forget, something, like, that, lad, he, says, never, there, are, a, lot, of, anniversaries, to, go, through, and, all, the, farmers, are, saying, the, fun, has, gone, out, of, it, saturday, 29th, march, the, beautiful, weather, is, carrying, on, and, wife, and, i, had, a, child, free, vet, student, free, afternoon, the, sun, was, out, and, we, went, down, for, a, walk, along, this, side, of, bassenthwaite, lake, there, were, lots, of, daffodils, out, and, a, light, breeze, off, the, lake, it, was, beautiful, cool, sunny, day, for, walking, and, very, pleasant, we, really, enjoyed, it, son, and, a, are, on, the, young, peoples, church, w, e, at, edinburgh, and, will, arrive, back, exhausted, from, lack, of, sleep, the, js, had, the, boys, for, the, afternoon, so, it, was, good, met, up, with, friends, in, the, evening, and, spent, the, evening, putting, agriculture, to, rights, he, sells, manages, sales, of, fertiliser, for, norsk, hydro, sunday, mothering, sunday, was, a, bit, of, a, disaster, with, out, a, to, organise, the, boys, and, i, hadn’t, had, time, to, get, them, organised, church, was, r, j, on, the, beatitudes, then, met, up, with, cs, and, went, up, bow, scale, fell, son’s, friend, and, son, complained, the, whole, way, they, were, in, really, bad, form, and, i, was, fed, up, with, them, monday, the, work, has, dried, up, completely, which, for, this, time, of, year, is, unheard, of, we, have, employed, a, locum, to, try, and, get, the, testing, done, and, no, work, for, every, one, to, do, embarrassingly, got, it, wrong, usually, at, this, time, of, year, there, is, no, testing, and, the, vets, are, running, around, like, idiots, not, very, good, news, for, us, so, wrote, letters, to, the, head, of, contingency, planning, at, page, st, to, amuse, you, i, have, copied, it, here, name, defra, rm, 803a, 1a, page, st, london, sw1p, 4pq, dear, name, i, am, writing, to, thank, you, for, travelling, north, to, carlisle, to, come, to, speak, to, the, recent, lvi, meeting, at, hadrian, house, carlisle, i, have, also, been, reading, the, defra, contingency, plan, and, a, lot, of, lessons, do, seem, to, have, been, learnt, i, appreciate, this, years, deadline, has, been, passed, to, place, it, before, parliament, but, it, is, a, living, document, my, apologies, but, better, late, than, never, i, would, like, to, make, a, few, comments, as, one, of, the, early, tvi, volunteers, at, carlisle, and, as, a, partner, of, one, of, the, practices, at, the, eye, of, the, storm, 1, the, whole, issue, of, valuation, of, animals, taken, as, a, compulsory, purchase, by, the, state, for, the, benefit, of, the, farming, community, to, eradicate, disease, has, not, been, addressed, one, of, the, initial, problems, slowing, the, slaughter, of, infected, animals, was, the, valuation, my, own, view, then, and, now, is, that, a, simple, standard, valuation, must, be, applied, it, must, be, high, enough, to, be, an, incentive, to, reporting, of, disease, but, too, low, to, make, the, possibility, of, disease, seem, financially, attractive, the, price, for, compulsory, purchase, may, be, set, higher, for, dangerous, contacts, or, less, for, affected, animals, if, there, is, a, simple, standard, value, then, the, diagnosing, vet, counts, the, number, of, bovines, and, shoots, them, the, farmer, knows, in, advance, what, compensation, is, going, to, be, paid, and, individual, animals, of, high, merit, could, be, insured, for, whatever, sum, the, farmer, is, willing, to, pay, premiums, for, this, may, be, an, unpopular, nettle, but, it, needs, to, be, grasped, even, though, i, am, sure, my, clients, would, disapprove, of, it, the, current, tuberculosis, problems, are, again, high, lighting, the, problems, in, this, area, there, should, be, a, standard, procedure, and, valuation, for, all, notifiable, diseases, and, the, values, based, on, the, last, mid, market, rate, there, are, apocryphal, stories, that, the, valuers, are, still, running, the, system, for, their, clients, the, farmers, not, defra, 2, the, second, issue, that, has, not, been, addressed, is, the, tracings, system, with, the, advent, of, the, british, cattle, movement, services, i, was, under, the, impression, that, traceability, was, a, central, part, of, government, policy, it, was, with, some, incredulity, that, in, response, to, questioning, at, the, lvi, meeting, we, were, told, that, bcms, cannot, give, a, list, of, movements, on, or, off, a, holding, so, tracings, for, tb, are, still, being, done, by, a, defra, vet, trawling, through, a, farmers, movement, book, why, if, the, political, will, was, there, at, the, touch, of, a, bottom, the, data, base, should, be, able, to, generate, a, list, of, animals, moved, in, the, past, 6, months, which, markets, they, have, been, through, and, which, holdings, they, have, been, through, if, this, cannot, be, done, for, tb, you, can, forget, trying, to, do, it, for, fmd, or, other, fast, contagious, disease, there, is, still, a, confusion, over, the, database, which, should, be, based, on, holding, numbers, several, farmers, have, multiple, holding, numbers, several, have, a, single, holding, number, and, multiple, sites, high, genetic, merit, animals, may, have, several, owners, a, single, holding, may, have, stock, from, several, different, farms, the, rules, for, cph, numbers, need, to, be, re, evaluated, centrally, if, a, data, base, is, to, be, of, use, it, must, be, actively, managed, and, updated, that, can, only, be, done, at, a, local, level, 3, disposal, i, know, that, this, has, been, looked, at, but, farm, sizes, are, continuing, to, grow, at, an, ever, more, rapid, rate, the, average, size, of, dairy, farms, in, this, area, has, grown, by, 20, cows, since, fmd, this, means, there, will, be, a, bigger, disposal, problem, as, individual, farms, will, have, more, and, more, stock, 4, the, local, office, should, have, stores, to, equip, 20, tvis, at, 24hours, notice, we, touched, on, this, point, at, the, meeting, was, the, need, for, sudden, recruitment, of, tvi, or, other, veterinary, staff, while, the, svs, can, second, small, numbers, of, vets, for, short, term, availability, there, was, a, reluctance, by, some, dvms, to, second, staff, who, may, yet, be, required, in, their, own, areas, local, lvis, can, provide, veterinary, cover, but, the, whole, structure, of, large, animal, practice, is, in, flux, and, it, may, or, may, not, be, possible, to, provide, veterinary, inspections, on, an, allocated, on, a, temporary, or, part, time, basis, the, pay, and, conditions, for, such, assistance, need, addressed, and, agreed, the, other, part, of, this, is, orientation, training, at, the, local, levels, this, by, the, end, of, the, outbreak, at, carlisle, was, quite, impressive, however, has, that, information, been, put, together, centrally, should, there, be, a, central, trainer, who, trains, designated, trainers, for, each, svs, office, decc, similarly, with, lay, blood, samplers, vaccinators, again, local, practices, could, provide, nominated, nurses, lay, staff, for, training, during, the, out, break, here, ai, personnel, were, used, very, effectively, for, blood, sampling, and, other, procedures, is, this, again, something, for, the, local, plan, but, if, the, cost, for, training, ai, staff, in, blood, sampling, was, met, centrally, it, would, encourage, a, register, of, trained, personnel, to, be, maintained, locally, the, cumbria, county, council, inquiry, recommends, the, use, of, its, emergency, centre, as, a, hub, for, multi, agency, response, to, any, disease, out, break, should, there, be, some, joined, up, government, so, that, each, county, council, as, part, of, its, contingency, plan, provides, for, an, admin, back, up, for, any, emergency, civil, disaster, terrorist, incident, and, do, the, local, plans, make, use, of, this, my, main, concern, however, is, that, when, i, asked, at, that, meeting, had, the, two, way, communications, between, page, st, and, carlisle, been, sorted, out, it, was, met, by, nervous, laughter, i, would, like, to, emphasise, that, page, st, did, not, know, what, was, going, on, in, the, field, during, fmd, outbreak, there, was, a, communication, barrier, between, the, vets, in, the, field, and, carlisle, management, and, a, huge, gulf, between, carlisle, and, page, street, i, would, plead, that, this, is, addressed, as, the, culture, identified, by, iain, anderson, still, seems, to, prevail, i, quote, a, culture, predisposed, to, decision, making, by, committee, with, an, associated, fear, of, personal, risk, taking, such, a, climate, does, not, encourage, creative, initiative, it, inhibits, adaptive, behaviour, and, organisational, learning, which, over, time, lowers, the, quality, of, the, decisions, taken, it, seems, to, me, that, a, reappraisal, of, prevailing, attitudes, and, behaviours, within, the, department, would, be, beneficial, it, may, be, outside, your, remit, but, the, northumberland, report, with, its, flow, charts, and, recommendations, actually, lists, lessons, to, be, learned, in, dec, 1969, the, one, about, the, svs, who, fared, so, poorly, in, fmd, 2001, states, we, have, considered, the, recruitment, problem, of, the, state, veterinary, service, the, reasons, maybe, the, low, initial, salary, or, in, part, the, to, the, nature, of, the, duties, within, the, service, we, consider, it, important, for, future, development, that, the, ministry, of, agriculture, should, attract, a, greater, number, of, good, young, graduates, willing, to, make, a, career, in, the, service, at, the, end, of, any, plan, are, the, people, who, are, going, to, implement, it, they, need, well, managed, well, led, and, given, the, resources, to, carry, out, the, task, they, need, to, have, confidence, in, both, the, political, and, civil, service, leadership, there, will, need, to, be, a, risk, management, of, tasks, for, financial, reasons, resource, reasons, and, for, the, wider, rural, economy, this, requires, flexible, decision, makers, who, are, prepared, to, take, risks, and, stick, their, head, above, the, collective, parapet, i, hope, that, this, provides, a, few, more, thoughts, for, you, to, work, on, yours, sincerely, refs, fmd, 2001, lessons, learned, enquiry, forward, by, chairman, iain, anderson, p7, northumberland, report, presented, to, parliament, dec, 69, part, 2, section, 47, she, spoke, at, the, last, lvi, meeting, and, as, usual, the, plans, sound, good, but, where, reality, hits, is, in, the, delivery, tuesday, did, some, small, animal, work, and, more, testing, tues, evening, always, seems, a, rush, went, to, gym, and, then, on, to, n’s, for, the, new, frontiers, church, meeting, which, was, excellent, weds, managed, some, fertility, work, in, the, morning, and, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, bringing, the, practice, database, up, to, date, it, has, been, let, go, since, foot, and, mouth, as, it, tell, us, how, much, stock, each, farm, has, the, numbers, have, been, all, over, the, place, as, people, have, been, restocking, and, changing, the, direction, their, businesses, are, going, some, moving, out, some, moving, up, in, numbers, and, some, going, from, dairy, to, beef, or, sheep, the, most, interesting, thing, was, the, fact, that, a, lot, of, farms, that, had, restocked, with, adult, animals, have, dropped, by, 5, 10, cows, since, they, restocked, as, older, cows, are, lost, or, ill, cows, go, but, there, are, not, the, young, stock, replacements, coming, through, to, replace, them, the, actual, figures, for, dairy, farms, restocking, are, not, yet, entered, in, the, computer, i, was, hoping, to, have, them, but, will, get, them, thursday, did, some, small, animals, and, some, otm22, but, it, still, incredibly, quiet, consequently, i, have, booked, in, a, lot, more, work, for, the, next, few, weeks, so, i, hope, i, don’t, get, it, wrong, the, other, way, set, up, anne, a, vet, student, for, her, project, on, comparing, fertility, pre, and, post, fmd, finished, off, updating, the, database, figures, so, they, will, hopefully, get, entered, over, next, few, days, and, we, can, do, some, comparisons, march, figures, look, ok, but, the, long, term, out, look, is, not, so, good, the, govt, is, doing, a, committee, looking, at, farm, animal, vet, practice, the, lakeland, bva, have, asked, for, comments, efracom, inquiry, into, vets, and, veterinary, services, efracom, is, a, defra, committee, terms, of, reference, are, to, look, at, the, provision, of, farm, veterinary, services, in, england, and, wales, in, particular, it, will, look, at, 1, what, impact, current, levels, of, farm, income, are, having, on, the, usage, of, veterinary, services, and, in, turn, what, effect, any, reduction, in, the, usage, of, such, services, is, having, on, the, number, of, practices, dealing, with, large, animals, 2, what, effect, any, reduction, in, the, usage, of, veterinary, services, and, a, shortage, of, large, animal, vets, is, having, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, the, effectiveness, of, surveillance, for, animal, diseases, 3, whether, the, requirements, placed, on, farmers, by, government, including, those, in, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, are, realisable, in, such, circumstances, and, 4, what, is, the, impact, on, the, work, of, the, state, veterinary, service, comments, by, 12, april, please, the, day, ended, with, the, reading, of, a, tb, test, on, a, farm, that, was, hoping, to, become, clear, after, going, down, when, it, first, restocked, 18months, ago, 1, reactor, and, 1, i, r, on, normal, interpretation, they, will, probably, take, both, on, severe, interpretation, the, government, always, looks, as, though, problems, are, dealt, with, in, isolation, the, defra, vet, who, looks, after, our, practice, is, not, dealing, with, this, case, as, his, daughter, is, married, to, her, brother, the, farming, community, is, very, incestuous, friday, work, desperately, quiet, so, i, organised, more, testing, to, do, i, hope, i, haven’t, over, booked, the, work, defra, vets, at, carlisle, are, still, learning, the, ropes, when, it, come, s, to, tb, as, it, has, been, so, rare, in, this, part, of, the, world, so, a, few, of, the, allocations, have, been, wrong, so, i, am, having, to, go, back, and, do, extra, animals, so, that, set, can, be, signed, off, the, school, held, a, curry, evening, tonight, which, for, a, cumbrian, village, school, is, very, cosmopolitan, there, is, an, extended, family, of, three, pakistani, families, and, they, cooked, though, for, the, children, there, was, also, a, bangers, and, chips, option, it, was, quite, a, nice, time, though, wife, was, on, her, next, level, counselling, course, so, i, ended, up, just, with, kids, but, it, was, good, to, spend, time, with, them, i, have, enjoyed, not, working, many, w, e’s, recently, it, kind, of, gives, you, your, life, back, that, and, not, doing, much, at, work, saturday, 5th, april, 2003, wife, was, at, her, level, 2, course, counselling, so, i, had, the, kids, for, the, w, e, took, son, to, squash, went, into, town, for, some, bits, and, pieces, and, then, i, chatted, to, i, while, we, waited, for, t, and, son, to, finish, then, took, all, the, kids, into, town, we, are, having, a, mothers, day, tomorrow, to, make, up, for, the, fact, l, a, were, away, for, the, w, e, last, week, the, kids, have, bought, presents, and, made, cards, which, was, nice, the, cs, and, friend, came, for, lunch, and, then, spent, a, very, muddy, afternoon, by, the, pond, playing, and, building, dens, and, generally, making, a, mess, and, having, fun, son, even, decided, showers, were, in, order, when, he, came, back, that, shows, you, how, dirty, they, were, as, he, is, mr, allergic, to, water, i, made, a, fondue, for, tea, with, apple, juice, as, the, kids, don’t, like, the, kick, of, the, wine, it, was, a, great, success, and, did, taste, rather, good, even, if, i, do, say, so, myself, sunday, i, went, to, church, on, my, own, as, wife, was, heading, out, again, after, an, early, lunch, the, talk, was, on, god’s, leading, which, is, always, relevant, the, kids, were, great, fun, on, the, way, back, and, full, of, craic, they, had, a, return, trip, to, the, cs, as, they, were, too, late, to, find, a, sky, tv, for, the, match, carlisle, lost, as, usual, but, it, is, not, every, week, they, lose, at, the, millennium, stadium, i, picked, the, kids, up, from, the, cs, and, put, all, their, bikes, on, the, back, of, the, car, went, to, say, good, bye, to, cs, in, the, meantime, three, of, their, boys, were, hiding, in, the, boot, of, the, car, so, they, let, me, drive, out, with, them, before, the, giggles, and, laughter, gave, the, game, away, so, it, caused, much, merriment, all, round, met, up, with, the, lads, sunday, night, felt, really, sorry, for, one, guy, who, is, having, real, problems, getting, access, to, his, 7, year, old, as, his, ex, wife, is, putting, a, lot, of, ve, input, into, the, wee, one, he, can, go, down, the, legal, route, but, will, be, expensive, and, probably, counter, productive, as, she, is, not, wanting, to, negotiate, or, look, at, what, is, best, for, the, wee, girl, it, seems, a, real, mess, monday, in, spite, of, 4, tests, the, work, is, not, there, i, spent, the, day, testing, though, it, is, really, quite, amusing, as, i, know, the, guy’s, sister, quite, well, and, i, always, make, sure, i, tell, her, how, much, the, good, lunch, is, appreciated, so, there, builds, up, a, rivalry, between, them, as, to, who, can, provide, the, vet, with, the, best, food, i, am, afraid, i, consciously, flame, the, rivalry, in, spite, of, it, not, doing, my, waistline, any, good, trying, to, concentrate, after, a, three, course, lunch, on, a, boring, job, is, not, easy, you, just, have, to, think, about, coffee, time, and, more, cakes, and, tray, bakes, all, of, them, distinctly, unhealthy, with, the, aim, of, feeding, out, door, manual, labour, tuesday, had, a, bad, night, as, my, hand, was, caught, in, the, crush, yesterday, by, a, stirk, throwing, its, head, and, it, bent, the, finger, back, it, seemed, ok, but, is, now, throbbing, like, mad, plenty, of, aspirin, and, corticosteroids, did, some, ferty, and, then, saw, another, lda, the, cows, seem, to, be, having, a, real, problem, with, the, feed, this, spring, as, we, have, seen, 3, 4, times, the, normal, number, went, running, with, a, as, my, finger, meant, i, could, not, go, to, gym, to, work, machines, weds, the, speed, cameras, have, arrived, on, the, top, road, and, unfortunately, i, was, going, too, fast, by, the, time, i, saw, it, so, i, will, probably, have, another, 3, points, on, my, licence, they, have, been, building, pads, on, the, side, of, the, road, all, along, the, a595, as, it, has, a, really, bad, record, for, car, accidents, the, numbers, killed, continues, to, go, up, the, speed, cameras, are, in, a, van, which, can, move, around, and, hence, trap, the, speeders, it, is, called, casualty, reduction, unit, a, bit, of, a, pointed, message, even, if, you, did, slow, down, for, them, work, is, slow, again, today, with, no, tb, testing, on, mid, week, days, it, is, my, brother’s, birthday, in, nz, and, he, sent, a, letter, to, say, he, is, going, to, be, a, dad, again, so, the, trip, to, come, across, at, xmas, is, off, he, is, wanting, us, to, all, go, there, hm, maybe, thursday, i, has, had, 2, reactors, and, 4, i, rs, today, so, the, future, is, not, looking, good, for, him, as, it, looks, like, there, will, be, tb, there, he, has, had, real, problems, since, the, herd, restocked, with, lung, worm, energy, problems, in, the, silage, and, atrocious, fertility, he, is, going, to, have, to, go, and, buy, another, 30, odd, replacements, at, 800, to, replace, those, that, he, has, lost, through, ill, health, and, fertility, makes, the, compensation, payments, seem, pretty, small, that’s, 24k, he, has, lost, out, on, already, and, his, own, heifers, are, only, coming, up, to, be, served, work, is, busy, and, i, wonder, if, the, spring, rush, is, coming, i, was, supposed, to, be, at, the, school, parents, evening, but, got, called, out, which, was, pretty, irritating, i, hate, the, fact, that, you, are, just, so, unreliable, when, you, are, on, call, friday, another, tb, testing, day, so, busy, all, together, not, a, good, day, the, competition, report, is, out, and, is, fairly, damning, as, expected, so, the, pressure, on, drug, margins, is, going, to, continue, and, the, old, fashioned, way, of, providing, a, complete, service, will, be, going, out, the, window, we, will, have, to, charge, for, the, out, of, hours, and, on, call, the, telephone, advice, and, try, to, make, it, pay, but, the, whole, economics, of, going, out, to, see, a, single, ill, animal, will, be, gone, the, clinical, skills, of, veterinarians, will, be, gone, all, academic, as, the, cost, for, diagnosing, a, single, animal, in, the, new, era, will, be, too, much, so, the, diagnosis, will, all, be, done, by, post, mortem, of, herd, problems, but, if, you, have, large, herds, the, man, power, will, not, be, there, to, look, after, the, individual, ill, animal, sad, depressing, day, but, i, am, off, for, the, w, e, saturday, 12th, april, 2003, woke, up, early, and, got, up, even, though, it, is, my, day, for, a, lie, in, i, think, i, am, particularly, wound, up, it, all, ways, takes, me, at, least, one, day, to, wind, down, from, work, so, i, am, tired, and, yet, not, feeling, able, to, rest, took, son, to, football, and, other, son, to, buy, anew, bike, he, was, so, excited, it, is, his, birthday, coming, up, and, he, has, out, grown, his, old, one, so, it, will, be, good, for, him, the, kids, spend, ages, flying, around, the, yard, on, bikes, and, up, and, down, the, field, when, the, grass, is, short, they, have, a, real, ball, here, it, is, a, great, place, to, grow, up, as, they, have, so, much, freedom, to, play, and, play, and, play, my, finger, that, was, caught, tb, testing, started, throbbing, again, this, afternoon, so, as, it, had, improved, and, then, got, worse, i, decided, i, had, to, get, it, x, rayed, so, i, spent, the, afternoon, in, casualty, waiting, to, get, x, rayed, and, then, waiting, for, another, hour, before, being, told, it, was, not, broken, a, five, minute, consultation, that, took, me, almost, 2, hours, friends, were, up, for, the, w, e, more, friends, are, at, capernwray, bible, college, for, an, easter, youth, thing, so, they, came, on, up, so, it, was, good, to, catch, up, sunday, cooked, lunch, for, everyone, and, then, went, to, communion, it, was, dire, and, reminded, me, why, i, don’t, usually, bother, spent, the, afternoon, putting, onions, in, and, tidying, in, the, garden, it, is, incredibly, dry, and, warm, amazing, really, the, 6, kids, spent, the, whole, afternoon, messing, around, at, the, pond, and, were, disgusting, with, mud, everywhere, and, trailed, all, up, the, yard, and, wellies, abandoned, everywhere, church, was, dm, speaking, and, then, the, yps, came, back, to, ours, afterwards, mind, you, i, think, i, had, had, enough, kids, for, the, time, being, but, i, was, ok, monday, bad, haircut, day, as, there, is, only, one, day, we, can, test, this, week, i, booked, in, fair, amount, which, would, have, been, tight, but, aw, was, off, ill, so, we, were, too, tight, so, a, few, ops, have, been, put, off, until, tomorrow, d, has, a, s, african, vet, friend, visiting, so, with, him, and, the, vet, student, the, house, is, still, full, i, however, am, knackered, and, not, feeling, sociable, had, a, horrendous, calving, it, is, not, often, i, cannot, calve, a, cow, but, i, am, afraid, after, an, hour, i, gave, up, and, caesared, it, the, calf, was, dead, and, rotten, so, whether, she, will, do, i, don’t, know, i, did, not, want, to, caesarean, but, that, is, life, it, was, either, that, or, the, farmer, pay, 60, to, get, some, one, to, take, it, away, after, i, euthed, it, tuesday, we, are, in, the, period, of, anniversaries, it, is, 2, years, since, the, ls, went, down, i, was, at, a, farm, which, did, not, get, fmd, and, his, uncles, did, he, was, saying, what, a, sad, day, it, was, so, his, uncles, must, be, feeling, it, more, the, beautiful, spring, weather, with, the, grass, growing, in, spite, of, the, frosts, definitely, puts, a, bounce, in, to, your, step, on, days, like, this, i, think, that, it, is, an, excellent, life, wandering, around, the, countryside, and, enjoying, the, scenery, the, farms, the, animals, and, the, farmers, beats, working, in, a, factory, any, way, went, to, the, gym, and, felt, a, lot, better, for, it, exercise, is, a, great, way, of, getting, a, buzz, but, you, have, to, be, not, too, tired, to, a, get, there, and, b, enjoy, it, i, have, gone, often, because, i, feel, i, should, and, just, felt, like, a, steam, roller, had, run, over, me, and, its, taken, a, day, or, two, to, recover, balance, in, all, things, weds, the, commission, report, came, out, today, difficult, to, believe, that, they, will, be, able, to, implement, it, but, having, lived, through, the, fmd, there, were, quite, a, few, things, i, thought, that, they, would, not, be, able, to, implement, but, they, did, we, will, have, to, if, the, minister, decides, and, since, it, is, dti, not, defra, i, think, that, the, implementation, may, be, effective, provide, prescriptions, free, of, charge, provide, our, clients, with, a, list, of, pharmacies, agricultural, suppliers, and, other, vets, and, web, sites, that, will, meet, those, prescriptions, the, cost, of, the, most, commonly, prescribed, medicines, in, the, previous, quarter, the, cross, subsidy, of, professional, fees, by, pharmaceuticals, will, not, be, allowed, and, how, will, the, pharmacist, make, his, money, the, other, comment, which, did, irk, me, some, what, was, that, the, provision, of, 24, hour, cover, does, not, seem, that, onerous, i, do, not, often, swear, but, really, very, depressed, but, daughter, came, on, a, caesaer, with, me, as, i, was, on, call, tonight, it, is, really, nice, working, from, home, and, being, able, to, take, them, with, me, it, is, a, very, healthy, thing, to, do, she, is, growing, up, and, is, very, much, the, young, lady, the, farmers, wife, is, the, dental, receptionist, and, of, course, said, hello, a, she, was, thrown, as, of, course, being, out, of, context, she, could, not, figure, how, the, farmers, wife, knew, who, she, was, thursday, good, friday, it, is, son’s, b’day, today, and, the, day, started, out, great, for, him, i, was, on, duty, and, he, arrived, in, our, bedroom, at, 7am, with, the, other, 2, boys, to, start, on, the, birthday, celebrations, our, family, tradition, is, that, they, have, breakfast, in, bed, in, our, bed, don’t, know, why, but, that, is, what, happens, the, others, all, brought, cards, and, presents, in, the, phone, went, and, it, was, a, lambing, so, tim, decided, he, would, come, and, see, the, lambs, being, born, so, he, was, thrilled, we, opened, the, presents, later, on, which, included, a, new, boiler, suit, which, really, thrilled, him, it, is, amazing, what, kids, think, of, as, their, best, present, i, never, really, like, working, good, friday, i, always, think, one, year, i, will, be, off, and, go, to, one, of, the, contemplative, services, hebron, being, low, church, never, really, does, anything, like, that, which, is, a, real, shame, easter, is, when, i, think, the, cathedrals, old, country, churches, and, the, church, architecture, can, really, be, helpful, in, stopping, and, praying, and, helping, to, consider, what, jesus, did, on, the, cross, finished, work, and, went, up, to, the, friends, they, were, both, home, and, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, played, rounders, and, had, a, barbeque, which, was, really, nice, james, was, in, really, good, form, as, he, was, enjoying, being, back, away, from, london, where, he, has, just, started, work, as, a, high, flying, lawyer, he, is, not, enjoying, london, very, much, he, is, a, hills, and, countryside, lad, his, girlfriend, was, also, there, so, was, quite, a, good, craic, i, didn’t, really, want, to, come, home, but, was, so, knackered, that, it, was, probably, just, as, well, the, kids, were, with, us, and, it, was, not, a, too, late, a, night, saturday, 19th, april, 2004, spent, most, of, the, day, either, catching, up, on, sleep, or, on, the, day, to, day, things, that, seem, to, have, been, put, to, one, side, for, a, while, there, was, also, the, preparations, for, the, service, tomorrow, we, are, taking, the, easter, sunday, morning, service, which, is, one, of, those, night, mare, services, where, everyone, comes, the, age, range, is, from, 0, to, 100, and, everyone, has, different, expectations, i, should, explain, that, the, normal, sunday, services, are, very, different, there, is, the, family, focus, which, is, lively, and, very, informal, aimed, at, those, with, young, children, who, go, to, sunday, school, there, is, then, teaching, for, parents, adults, there, is, always, a, lot, of, noise, children, running, around, babies, crying, and, shakers, and, children’s, songs, the, communion, service, that, follows, is, very, traditional, silence, and, solemnity, rules, all, the, older, generation, go, and, it, is, a, very, different, service, so, we, are, going, to, be, combining, the, two, oil, and, water, a, lot, of, prayer, has, gone, in, to, this, one, sunday, wife, got, up, at, 6, am, to, go, to, the, sunrise, service, at, the, crematorium, she, said, she, needed, some, input, before, the, easter, service, we, are, leading, it, is, a, service, organised, by, st, james, parish, church, but, all, the, carlisle, churches, are, asked, to, take, part, christiana, had, asked, to, go, so, wife, went, with, her, and, it, was, really, good, christ, is, risen, he, is, risen, indeed, the, sermon, was, by, the, archdeacon, from, the, cathedral, who, said, that, being, a, good, anglican, he, wanted, some, liturgy, through, his, sermon, so, every, time, he, said, are, you, dead, the, congregation, had, to, reply, no, alive, in, christ, at, which, point, he, would, sound, a, hooter, the, service, at, hebron, went, very, well, oh, ye, of, little, faith, i, should, pray, more, and, worry, less, i, have, included, our, outline, below, and, i, have, put, in, additional, comments, in, blue, easter, sunday, service, welcome, to, hebron, evangelical, church, this, easter, sunday, morning, when, we, are, celebrating, jesus, is, alive, our, opening, hymn, is, our, declaration, that, jesus, is, alive, he, has, risen, from, the, dead, opening, hymn, we, believe, in, god, the, father, welcome, intro, me, and, welcome, team, this, morning, the, service, is, in, a, different, order, from, usual, we, are, going, to, remember, what, jesus, has, done, for, us, on, the, cross, and, bruce, beattie, one, of, our, elders, is, going, to, help, explain, what, the, bread, and, wine, mean, to, us, as, some, of, the, children, may, not, have, been, here, for, a, communion, service, before, then, after, taking, communion, we, are, going, to, celebrate, jesus, resurrection, with, reading, singing, and, sharing, the, resurrection, is, the, central, part, to, our, faith, who, knows, what, that, long, word, resurrection, means, the, answers, from, the, kids, were, quite, amusing, but, we, got, there, in, the, end, at, the, end, of, the, service, there, will, be, the, offering, an, opportunity, to, give, our, money, as, well, as, ourselves, to, the, living, god, if, during, the, service, the, young, children, get, fed, up, there, is, a, place, at, the, back, where, they, can, do, some, making, things, it, isn’t, easy, to, sit, still, when, you, are, little, or, be, quiet, so, please, don’t, worry, about, the, little, ones, being, a, distraction, i, often, wonder, what, it, was, like, when, jesus, fed, the, 5000plus, crowd, do, you, think, the, children, all, sat, neat, and, quiet, in, rows, i, don’t, think, so, we, are, pleased, to, see, them, and, hear, them, this, is, a, time, of, family, worship, from, the, youngest, to, the, oldest, reading, psalm, 67, i, had, this, up, on, a, power, point, and, we, read, it, together, may, god, be, gracious, to, us, and, bless, us, and, make, his, face, shine, upon, us, that, your, ways, may, be, known, on, earth, your, salvation, among, all, nations, may, the, peoples, praise, you, o, god, may, all, the, peoples, praise, you, may, the, nations, be, glad, and, sing, for, joy, for, you, rule, the, people, justly, and, guide, the, nations, of, the, earth, may, the, peoples, praise, you, o, god, may, all, the, peoples, praise, you, then, the, land, will, yield, its, harvest, and, god, our, god, will, bless, us, god, will, bless, us, and, all, the, ends, of, the, earth, will, fear, him, psalm, 67, prayer, m, as, we, sing, this, next, hymn, it, would, be, good, if, the, children, came, to, sit, at, the, front, so, that, b, can, see, you, all, when, he, talks, to, you, hymn, when, i, survey, the, wondrous, cross, communion, b, b, gave, an, excellent, talk, about, remembering, he, included, a, diary, and, a, kitchen, timer, which, he, set, to, go, of, at, the, carefully, timed, point, in, his, little, bit, he, then, used, smarties, to, go, through, the, easter, story, and, the, different, colours, i, wish, i, had, it, written, down, we, then, had, communion, and, he, had, smarties, for, the, kids, so, that, they, could, remember, about, the, easter, story, while, the, adults, took, communion, and, remembered, christ’s, death, and, resurrection, forgiveness, is, a, wonderful, thing, we, have, just, been, remembering, what, jesus, did, for, us, on, the, cross, he, died, for, us, what, incredible, love, but, thankfully, the, gospel, doesn’t, end, there, son, a, and, cerise, are, going, to, read, on, reading, and, luke, 24, vs, 1, 12, they, did, a, brilliant, dramatic, reading, an, empty, tomb, lets, sing, god’s, not, dead, he, is, alive, sing, it, twice, and, use, the, instruments, at, the, front, to, make, a, joyful, noise, we, want, you, to, have, a, little, taste, of, what, it, was, like, to, be, around, that, day, and, so, let’s, listen, in, to, mary, magdalene, chatting, on, the, phone, to, well, you, listen, and, see, who, she, is, talking, to, wife, did, a, sketch, about, mary, talking, on, the, phone, to, marta, having, met, the, risen, jesus, she, was, very, good, really, gave, the, facts, to, a, contemporary, feel, hymn, led, like, a, lamb, to, the, slaughter, in, the, second, verse, would, children, come, to, help, we, have, verses, to, give, out, to, the, big, people, and, i’d, like, you, to, help, give, them, out, making, sure, all, the, big, people, get, one, for, the, children, who, may, not, be, able, to, read, yet, we, have, some, coloured, stones, to, remind, you, of, a, huge, stone, that, was, rolled, away, when, jesus, rose, from, the, dead, you, can, keep, it, in, your, pocket, or, somewhere, special, to, remind, you, that, jesus, is, alive, and, he, wants, to, be, with, you, where, ever, you, go, a, had, made, up, tiny, scrolls, with, verses, about, the, resurrection, which, the, kids, all, gave, out, it, kept, the, wee, ones, busy, and, also, gave, everyone, a, verse, to, think, about, isn’t, it, wonderful, to, know, that, we, are, singing, he’s, alive, he, has, risen, and, all, over, the, world, the, church, is, singing, the, same, message, in, revelation, we, get, a, little, glimpse, into, what, it, will, be, like, in, heaven, with, a, new, song, being, sung, to, jesus, christ, close, your, eyes, and, listen, to, what, it, says, rev, 5, vs, 9, 11, we, have, the, privilege, in, hebron, of, having, a, few, representatives, of, different, language, people, and, nation, here, this, morning, let, us, listen, to, them, christ, is, risen, in, different, languages, and, prayer, we, then, had, one, family, say, it, in, arabic, another, in, german, there, is, a, philippino, girl, who, said, it, in, her, language, and, some, one, else, in, spanish, it, was, magical, introduce, lord, we, lift, your, name, on, high, sung, at, mizpah, orphanage, with, children, some, of, whom, had, just, heard, the, name, jesus, for, the, first, time, at, christmas, see, picture, we, need, helpers, to, do, the, actions, to, this, song, we, are, thankful, that, jesus, is, alive, and, so, he, speaks, guides, comforts, and, forgives, us, for, all, the, sin, the, mess, we, make, it, is, not, only, the, mary’s, and, the, peters, and, the, thomases, that, have, met, with, the, risen, lord, we, each, have, a, story, to, tell, of, walking, with, the, risen, lord, as, you, listen, to, some, people, here, sharing, a, bit, of, their, story, i, wonder, what, you, would, have, to, share, take, the, opportunity, to, day, to, share, what, god, is, teaching, you, where, he, is, changing, you, don’t, hide, behind, the, weather, or, holidays, share, your, journey, to, encourage, real, fellowship, end, in, prayer, over, top, song, and, offering, this, is, your, opportunity, to, offer, yourself, afresh, to, the, risen, lord, an, old, song, but, a, powerful, one, to, make, this, song, personal, to, you, choose, the, verse, where, you, will, stand, as, a, sign, of, your, offering, to, the, lord, band, will, play, it, through, twice, as, collection, taken, up, and, then, we, sing, it, if, you, want, to, sit, until, last, verse, when, we, sing, take, my, love, then, we, will, all, stand, for, last, verse, take, my, life, this, song, has, lots, of, parts, about, asking, god, to, take, and, use, different, parts, of, our, lives, songs, intellect, strength, money, etc, and, by, asking, people, to, stand, at, the, point, they, wanted, it, really, meant, they, stopped, and, offered, part, of, them, selves, back, to, god, in, response, to, the, resurrection, finish, with, thine, be, the, glory, the, service, went, really, well, people, came, and, said, how, well, it, had, gone, wife, spent, afternoon, packing, and, feeling, washed, out, giving, out, is, tiring, but, the, satisfaction, is, huge, mon, up, early, to, catch, the, boat, to, n, ireland, the, boat, was, not, too, busy, which, was, good, spent, the, boat, ride, filling, in, my, thoughts, on, the, future, of, large, animal, practice, for, the, efracom, enquiry, bought, lord, of, rings, part, 2, the, two, towers, as, i, am, wanting, to, re, read, it, having, seen, the, movie, so, that, is, my, holiday, reading, sorted, out, had, a, chance, when, we, got, there, to, sit, down, with, wife, s, parents, and, talk, through, our, future, which, was, good, as, campbell, usually, disappears, out, but, a, sit, is, a, bank, holiday, he, didn’t, they, were, fairly, up, beat, about, it, which, was, good, so, i, was, pleased, spent, the, evening, with, c, and, the, cousins, which, was, really, good, had, a, barbecue, and, chilled, out, c, was, not, really, surprised, at, the, news, as, agriculture, in, ni, is, going, through, a, bad, time, as, well, it, is, behind, the, uk, and, there, are, a, lot, of, small, uneconomic, family, farms, and, so, a, lot, of, consolidation, is, going, on, and, farmers, selling, up, tuesday, spent, the, morning, playing, squash, with, the, boys, which, w, as, great, fun, spent, the, afternoon, in, the, garden, trying, to, tidy, it, up, went, out, for, dinner, with, our, bridesmaid, who, has, also, just, handed, in, her, notice, or, rather, accepted, a, redundancy, package, it, must, be, catching, it, was, great, to, see, her, and, also, to, be, out, in, belfast, which, is, such, a, cosmopolitan, city, these, days, with, different, languages, cultures, and, nationalities, all, mixing, in, the, downtown, area, a, big, change, weds, went, to, the, new, exhibition, centre, in, the, docks, at, belfast, it, has, a, multiplex, and, a, science, exhibition, as, well, as, shops, and, restaurants, and, so, on, it, was, amazing, the, kids, could, have, spent, all, day, playing, on, the, exhibits, and, it, was, very, well, done, so, that, you, came, away, having, learnt, quite, a, lot, wife, now, believes, i, cannot, do, colours, as, i, am, easily, confused, by, them, there, was, one, exhibit, where, words, in, one, coloured, spelt, the, name, of, another, colour, i.e, the, word, was, spelt, y, e, l, l, o, w, but, it, was, red, in, colour, you, then, had, to, read, the, words, or, say, the, colours, and, i, just, could, not, do, it, my, brain, ended, up, really, confused, bought, flowers, and, stuff, for, the, garden, and, did, the, boxes, for, gran, went, out, to, dinner, at, rp, she, is, a, widow, who, is, wife, s, parents, age, but, is, so, much, fun, she, loves, giving, dinner, parties, and, having, folk, of, all, ages, around, she, gave, me, some, useful, addresses, there, are, lots, of, plans, for, wife, s, parents, golden, wedding, thursday, the, day, of, the, big, photo, shoot, wife, s, brother’s, father, in, law, is, a, photographer, and, while, we, were, all, together, wife, mum, wanted, a, photo, of, all, the, family, together, so, we, spent, an, hour, and, a, half, getting, positioned, and, photographed, 7, kids, and, 7, adults, and, a, very, pernickety, photographer, travel, back, on, the, boat, was, ok, but, came, back, to, find, that, everything, had, fused, and, that, the, phone, was, not, working, so, fixed, the, fuses, which, are, all, trips, thank, goodness, and, got, the, electrics, going, the, phone, could, not, fix, but, did, not, worry, while, we, were, away, there, had, been, a, lightning, strike, on, to, the, phone, line, up, the, road, and, it, had, fried, all, the, cables, one, of, the, neighbours, had, been, in, her, kitchen, and, the, phone, had, exploded, and, jumped, off, the, wall, it, has, left, scorch, marks, down, the, wall, i, am, just, glad, that, there, was, no, one, on, the, phone, at, the, time, the, other, unfortunate, thing, is, that, the, computer, was, attached, and, is, dead, as, a, dodo, friday, back, to, maelstrom, i, was, really, relaxed, going, back, in, to, work, and, it, lasted, for, may, be, half, an, hour, no, one, had, picked, up, on, any, of, my, admin, things, while, i, had, been, away, in, spite, of, asking, people, to, do, so, this, meant, i, had, to, start, and, get, things, organised, for, testing, the, rota, and, nestles, as, well, as, to, try, and, do, some, work, my, in, tray, is, a, mess, but, never, mind, i, also, had, to, complete, the, report, for, efracom, as, the, closing, date, is, today, i, hope, not, by, 5pm, the, report, was, actually, finished, by, 10, 15, and, was, e, mailed, off, i, would, like, to, have, polished, it, a, bit, more, but, the, schedule, today, was, not, conducive, during, the, evening, when, i, was, supposed, to, be, writing, it, i, had, a, casaers, and, a, foal, trying, to, die, at, farm, they, are, not, having, much, luck, as, they, have, had, horrendous, problems, with, restocking, they, are, also, under, tb2, i, enclose, a, copy, of, the, report, to, efracom, the, right, hon, michael, jack, mp, environment, food, and, rural, affairs, chairman, of, the, sub, committee, vets, and, veterinary, services, a, submission, summary, this, is, a, timely, review, of, farm, veterinary, services, i, would, submit, that, the, current, trends, in, veterinary, practice, are, likely, to, accelerate, rapidly, in, response, both, to, present, levels, of, farm, income, and, imminent, changes, in, veterinary, practice, in, this, submission, i, have, briefly, covered, the, following, areas, the, current, provision, of, veterinary, services, and, how, they, are, financed, current, trends, and, their, likely, impact, on, veterinary, services, the, effect, of, the, reduction, in, large, animal, clinicians, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, surveillance, the, feasibility, of, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, the, impact, on, the, svs, the, future, and, possible, outcomes, the, current, provision, of, veterinary, services, and, how, they, are, financed, the, income, for, rural, farm, veterinary, practice, that, provides, the, majority, of, veterinary, services, to, the, agricultural, industry, has, traditionally, come, from, 5, major, areas, clinical, services, examining, and, diagnosing, individual, animals, calvings, lambings, individual, surgery, routine, fertility, dehorning, and, castrating, traditional, on, farm, professional, fee, work, lvi, income, from, defra, maff, in, the, eradication, of, notifiable, disease, tuberculosis, brucellosis, anthrax, etc, many, practices, also, were, involved, with, meat, hygiene, and, inspections, at, abattoirs, the, dispensing, of, pharmaceuticals, the, provision, of, veterinary, advice, on, farm, management, and, welfare, the, majority, of, veterinary, partnerships, are, mixed, practices, a, consideration, must, be, given, to, the, fact, that, small, animal, work, makes, up, a, variable, proportion, of, the, work, and, income, to, veterinary, practice, it, is, my, opinion, that, clinical, farm, animal, practice, the, examining, and, diagnosing, of, individual, animals, is, already, uneconomic, for, both, the, veterinary, surgeon, and, the, farmer, it, is, only, happening, because, of, the, cross, subsidy, of, the, professional, fees, by, other, income, and, because, of, the, good, will, of, most, farmers, to, give, animals, a, chance, as, the, harsh, economics, are, coming, home, to, vets, and, farmers, this, is, rapidly, becoming, with, james, herriot, a, part, of, rural, history, current, trends, and, their, likely, impact, on, veterinary, services, what, are, the, current, trends, within, agriculture, and, veterinary, practice, and, what, effects, will, that, have, both, in, agriculture, and, farm, veterinary, practice, there, are, trends, that, can, be, identified, how, fast, how, far, these, trends, will, go, is, difficult, to, predict, but, my, own, experience, is, that, change, when, it, comes, change, is, often, slow, at, starting, but, then, dramatic, in, its, speed, the, effect, of, decoupling, and, other, eu, decisions, on, agriculture, are, unknown, but, the, current, trends, are, likely, to, continue, in, agriculture, farm, size, has, to, continue, to, grow, as, farms, make, less, and, less, per, animal, they, have, to, spread, costs, over, larger, and, larger, numbers, the, individual, value, of, each, animal, continues, to, drop, in, real, terms, efficiency, and, mechanisation, continues, to, increase, chicken, farms, are, now, routinely, 100,000, animals, plus, since, foot, and, mouth, disease, the, average, dairy, herd, size, has, increased, from, 90, to, 114, an, increase, of, 20, which, talking, to, many, dairy, farmers, is, only, going, to, increase, as, more, herds, are, going, to, be, 300, animals, these, increases, are, usually, with, out, an, increase, in, labour, on, the, farms, this, means, the, care, of, individual, animals, is, likely, to, be, less, important, but, the, care, of, the, overall, heath, of, the, herd, much, more, in, veterinary, practice, the, major, changes, are, likely, to, be, from, the, competition, inquiry, in, to, the, cost, of, pharmaceuticals, the, subsidy, of, professional, fees, by, sales, of, pharmaceuticals, has, been, an, increasing, trend, since, the, late, 60, s, then, professional, fees, were, subsidised, by, the, large, scale, eradication, schemes, by, maff, who, paid, very, good, fees, to, get, the, vets, on, the, farm, and, help, eradicate, the, notifiable, diseases, the, competition, inquiry, is, recommending, that, pharmaceuticals, be, dispensed, by, pharmacies, as, well, and, that, prescriptions, be, provided, free, of, charge, which, private, organisation, is, going, to, provide, a, service, free, of, charge, has, yet, to, be, ascertained, but, the, current, level, of, income, derived, from, pharmaceuticals, is, not, going, to, be, sustained, this, inevitably, means, that, the, cross, subsidy, will, disappear, and, farmers, will, have, to, pay, the, full, cost, of, veterinary, clinical, service, and, it, will, not, be, economic, to, do, so, at, the, same, time, the, costs, of, providing, veterinary, services, continues, to, rise, the, cost, of, veterinary, time, is, continuing, to, rise, students, are, now, graduating, with, debts, of, 15, 20k, because, of, the, loss, of, grants, and, payment, of, tuition, fees, this, means, there, will, need, to, be, a, further, raise, of, 2, 3k, per, annum, to, pay, veterinary, assistants, to, match, the, status, quo, farm, animal, practice, already, pays, assistants, less, than, companion, animal, practices, despite, offering, a, less, favourable, on, call, rota, in, the, short, term, following, fmd, many, practice, principals, worked, additional, on, call, to, make, the, rota, acceptable, to, attract, assistant, vets, where, this, is, viable, in, the, short, term, in, the, long, term, it, is, not, acceptable, as, partners, profit, becomes, commensurate, to, the, salaries, they, have, to, pay, to, veterinary, assistants, they, will, be, aiming, to, increase, charges, for, clinical, work, or, look, to, other, avenues, for, decreasing, costs, increasing, turnover, providing, an, out, of, hours, emergency, cover, is, not, economically, practical, for, vets, except, in, the, big, cities, where, practices, join, together, to, provide, an, emergency, clinic, currently, there, is, an, rcvs, obligation, to, provide, 24hour, cover, but, the, rcvs, is, not, involved, in, the, commercial, pricing, of, services, as, the, value, of, individual, animals, continues, to, drop, in, real, terms, then, the, cost, of, treating, individual, animals, becomes, less, and, less, viable, where, there, is, no, cross, subsidy, for, out, of, hours, work, it, will, become, untenable, as, many, mixed, practices, have, a, dwindling, farm, animal, side, that, is, less, financially, attractive, many, will, decide, to, concentrate, on, the, companion, animal, side, of, the, business, in, a, lot, of, mixed, practices, it, is, a, senior, partner, who, will, do, the, largest, amount, of, the, farm, work, this, means, the, younger, vets, will, not, have, the, case, load, to, become, experienced, and, confident, in, farm, work, there, is, a, cohort, of, practitioners, in, this, situation, heading, towards, retirement, in, the, near, future, will, the, practice, continue, to, be, involved, with, farm, work, as, fewer, practices, become, involved, with, farm, veterinary, services, the, cost, of, travel, to, the, more, distant, farms, has, to, rise, beyond, the, already, accelerated, rate, all, this, means, that, farm, veterinary, practices, will, lose, income, from, clinical, services, and, from, pharmaceutical, sales, they, will, have, to, move, more, towards, the, pig, poultry, model, of, providing, veterinary, advice, and, charging, for, it, vets, have, already, moved, out, of, nutritional, advice, leaving, this, field, to, nutritional, experts, the, reason, for, this, is, that, most, nutritional, advice, is, provided, free, to, the, farmer, by, the, firms, who, then, put, that, cost, into, the, feeds, that, are, sold, to, the, farmers, this, cross, subsidy, of, fees, by, sales, is, apparently, acceptable, where, the, subsidy, of, veterinary, fees, by, pharmaceuticals, is, not, this, model, is, beginning, to, appear, in, other, areas, whereas, vets, provided, most, mastitis, control, the, dairies, who, buy, the, milk, are, now, providing, free, or, subsidised, advice, to, farms, on, cell, counts, and, high, bacterial, counts, including, bacteriology, with, a, variable, back, up, and, quality, of, advice, nmr, and, other, recording, agencies, are, already, offering, fertility, information, on, their, recording, products, and, it, is, a, short, step, to, actually, providing, the, fertility, work, i, believe, that, these, factors, will, contribute, to, a, dramatic, decrease, in, farm, animal, clinicians, in, the, next, 5, years, the, effect, of, the, reduction, in, large, animal, clinicians, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, surveillance, as, the, number, of, clinical, veterinarians, reduces, then, there, will, be, much, less, on, farm, surveillance, this, means, that, outbreaks, of, novel, or, unusual, diseases, is, much, less, likely, to, be, noticed, or, recorded, at, an, early, stage, the, routine, care, for, the, animals, will, be, done, by, stockmen, under, veterinary, guidance, the, guidance, will, probably, be, by, quarterly, or, 6, monthly, or, annual, visits, and, by, herd, health, plans, individual, animals, are, much, more, likely, to, be, treated, ad, hoc, by, the, stockmen, rather, than, by, veterinary, surgeons, the, quality, of, this, treatment, in, some, cases, may, be, adequate, but, in, most, will, be, poor, the, significance, of, symptoms, or, illness, may, not, be, appreciated, diagnosis, and, treatment, seen, as, a, high, cost, and, used, as, a, last, resort, any, outbreak, of, disease, will, be, well, developed, and, losses, occurring, before, veterinary, advice, is, sought, as, herd, sizes, increase, and, labour, decreases, then, the, attention, to, individual, animals, must, reduce, with, a, drop, in, welfare, standards, ill, animals, are, likely, to, be, culled, quicker, as, limited, manpower, becomes, more, important, the, use, of, vets, as, additional, expert, man, power, for, calvings, lambings, will, be, seen, as, too, expensive, the, demands, of, the, system, must, mean, that, high, heath, status, is, important, with, routine, vaccination, and, herd, health, policies, being, put, in, place, defra, seems, to, set, high, regard, to, laboratory, diagnosis, results, as, a, form, of, surveillance, most, of, the, common, problems, are, diagnosed, treated, with, out, the, resort, to, laboratory, aids, fertility, lameness, mastitis, pneumonia, pge, are, rarely, referred, to, the, lab, except, where, treatment, is, not, working, most, samples, are, taken, referred, by, vets, in, practice, fewer, vets, would, mean, fewer, samples, the, lack, of, veterinary, advice, to, ill, pigs, and, ill, sheep, on, farms, at, heddon, on, the, wall, shows, how, the, lack, of, a, clinical, veterinary, service, can, lead, to, in, the, terms, of, delay, and, spread, of, disease, the, local, knowledge, of, the, current, lvi, system, is, an, invaluable, asset, that, is, in, danger, of, being, thrown, away, the, idea, that, a, farm, is, a, box, which, can, be, assigned, a, number, in, page, street, and, dealt, with, as, a, single, entity, is, a, problem, that, has, still, not, been, resolved, the, complexity, of, many, of, the, local, farming, links, through, trade, working, together, machinery, shared, grazing, fell, rights, and, family, ties, cannot, be, reduced, to, a, computer, screen, on, dcs, the, feasibility, of, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, in, my, opinion, they, are, not, i, was, hoping, to, cover, this, more, fully, but, lack, of, time, has, prevented, me, the, impact, on, the, svs, the, impact, on, the, svs, is, likely, to, be, slow, to, be, realised, the, svs, is, not, known, for, its, ability, to, meet, challenges, or, streamline, its, systems, as, the, number, of, vets, involved, in, farm, work, decreases, it, will, have, to, provide, more, of, its, own, resources, to, tackle, tasks, currently, done, by, lvis, the, more, flexible, private, practice, takes, up, the, challenge, of, getting, backlogs, in, testing, done, and, can, respond, to, new, challenges, for, example, the, licensing, brought, in, during, fmd, private, practice, can, fit, the, work, around, other, duties, whereas, if, it, is, going, to, be, done, by, the, svs, it, will, be, more, expensive, to, take, on, vets, to, do, these, tasks, alone, the, svs, was, notoriously, unreliable, in, its, work, allocation, during, fmd, the, record, being, sending, 5, vets, to, the, same, farm, on, the, same, day, has, yet, to, be, beaten, though, i, hope, it, would, be, a, lot, better, in, normal, circumstances, there, are, still, problems, with, the, allocation, system, that, can, only, be, put, right, by, local, knowledge, in, areas, where, there, are, few, farm, animals, there, may, well, not, be, lvis, willing, to, carry, out, the, routine, testing, for, notifiable, disease, who, is, going, to, provide, veterinary, cover, for, these, both, for, clinical, caseload, and, for, the, lvi, work, there, will, not, be, vets, available, to, second, to, defra, for, the, next, fmd, or, exotic, disease, outbreak, the, contingency, plan, confidently, states, that, resources, for, 20, tvis, are, to, be, kept, at, each, centre, in, case, of, an, outbreak, of, notifiable, disease, with, out, addressing, where, these, will, come, from, there, will, not, be, 20, tvi’s, available, at, short, notice, during, march, 2001, the, majority, of, vets, at, the, carlisle, decc, were, lvi’s, the, future, and, possible, outcomes, the, picture, i, have, painted, is, what, in, my, opinion, will, happen, if, the, government, allows, the, situation, to, develop, i, would, hope, that, there, would, be, some, joined, up, government, when, decisions, are, to, be, made, in, response, to, the, competition, inquiry, report, there, are, a, mixture, of, outcomes, that, are, possible, the, numbers, of, vets, in, farm, animal, practice, will, reduce, this, can, be, minimised, by, maintaining, the, cross, subsidy, of, professional, fees, for, providing, clinical, services, either, directly, by, defra, work, in, surveillance, or, other, notifiable, disease, work, and, or, from, pharmaceutical, sales, the, option, of, increasing, fees, is, not, possible, veterinary, services, will, be, provided, by, other, means, e.g, vets, working, for, feed, firms, dairies, manufactures, retailers, to, ensure, a, welfare, surveillance, standard, consultancy, firms, providing, fertility, mastitis, specialised, advice, defra, local, authority, will, have, to, provide, vets, for, notifiable, disease, testing, surveillance, tasks, developing, the, french, model, of, farm, cooperatives, employing, vets, for, their, own, farms, the, pig, poultry, model, of, regular, advisory, visits, but, minimal, involvement, in, the, day, to, day, running, or, with, individual, animals, only, the, first, of, these, provides, for, the, continuation, of, the, successful, lvi, structure, the, other, outcomes, mean, a, loss, of, clinical, veterinary, services, the, loss, of, clinical, services, means, a, drop, in, welfare, standards, and, the, loss, of, on, farm, surveillance, farm, veterinary, services, are, in, a, transitional, time, facing, economic, challenges, changes, in, agriculture, increased, regulation, and, increased, competition, for, the, pharmaceutical, and, services, they, provide, there, will, be, increased, competition, between, practices, as, they, try, to, meet, the, higher, expectations, of, new, veterinary, graduates, starting, their, careers, and, providing, a, cost, effective, service, to, the, rural, community, bvm, s, mrcvs, brief, c, v, currently, a, partner, in, one, of, the, largest, farm, veterinary, practices, in, cumbria, having, spent, 17, years, in, mixed, rural, practice, spent, 6, months, on, secondment, to, maff, at, the, carlisle, decc, during, fmd, sat, 26th, april, 2003, having, worked, last, night, and, done, 2, caesaers, and, a, calving, on, call, on, top, of, a, long, week, i, was, completely, washed, out, did, sat, am, surgery, and, a, call, then, went, home, to, bed, knackered, and, fed, up, and, deciding, i, did, not, want, to, spend, my, life, like, this, sunday, a, busy, day, on, call, but, at, least, the, calls, did, not, stack, up, just, kept, coming, in, ones, and, twos, so, the, stress, levels, were, not, to, bad, but, boyzo, am, i, tired, mon, this, is, the, beginning, of, d’s, last, week, he, has, worked, out, really, well, and, i, hope, that, he, will, be, able, to, work, here, at, the, back, end, to, help, with, the, testing, he, is, easy, going, and, has, a, good, s, african, protestant, work, ethic, always, happy, to, oblige, and, is, good, to, work, with, he, is, a, good, laugh, too, always, teasing, and, playing, silly, jokes, and, has, a, great, sense, of, humour, spent, most, of, the, day, on, catch, up, after, the, week, end, did, some, calls, and, sorted, car, and, drugs, out, and, cleaned, my, kit, the, slippage, of, cleanliness, since, fmd, is, very, noticeable, especially, at, the, w, e’s, but, don’t, tell, defra, went, swimming, at, foxes, well, to, be, honest, sat, in, the, jacuzzi, and, talked, and, then, swam, 2, lengths, i, was, too, tired, to, do, much, really, i, must, start, getting, some, proper, exercise, again, or, my, back, will, suffer, tues, i, am, really, annoyed, at, defra, i, rang, and, asked, what, would, be, needed, to, put, our, vets, on, to, panel, l, which, is, what, is, needed, to, do, the, exports, for, nestle, and, panel, l, can, just, be, added, on, as, it, is, a, simple, export, thing, so, it, would, take, half, an, hour, to, do, it, this, was, last, friday, by, now, it, is, we, have, to, go, for, training, by, svs, it, should, only, take, half, an, hour, to, through, the, forms, why, can, their, yes, not, be, yes, and, their, no, be, no, so, we, have, to, spend, an, afternoon, going, to, carlisle, to, got, through, meaningless, forms, so, that, we, can, fill, in, meaning, less, forms, so, that, nestle, can, get, th, milk, through, customs, i, am, beginning, to, see, why, people, just, smuggle, things, rather, than, get, involved, in, all, this, stupid, bureaucracy, weds, went, on, the, factory, visit, to, nestles, today, to, have, a, look, around, so, that, we, know, the, plant, and, can, give, them, certification, for, the, milk, powder, for, export, the, whole, thing, is, ludicrous, as, dried, milk, powder, is, a, sterile, product, it, has, to, be, or, else, it, goes, off, very, quickly, so, why, we, have, to, certify, that, it, has, been, pasteurised, i, don, not, know, but, hey, its, money, the, size, and, quantity, and, the, huge, amount, of, machinery, and, very, small, number, of, people, required, to, maintain, and, operate, the, plant, was, awesome, we, went, to, the, distribution, warehouse, where, there, was, just, row, upon, row, of, pallets, 3, 7, high, full, of, dried, milk, or, cappuccino, drinks, weird, to, think, mast, of, the, instant, cappuccino, is, made, in, dalston, thursday, went, for, panel, l, training, it, was, as, pointless, as, i, thought, it, would, be, took, the, opportunity, to, go, through, with, defra, admin, staff, some, of, the, queries, and, problems, at, the, moment, we, do, a, lot, of, stuff, for, defra, telling, them, who, has, stock, and, who, does, not, have, stock, to, ensure, their, database, is, relatively, up, to, date, but, it, is, a, headache, as, they, are, working, off, computer, screens, hence, mrs, f, r, of, a, farm, does, not, correlate, at, all, with, mr, e, r, of, the, same, address, the, computer, is, not, into, relationships, so, that, they, are, married, and, live, together, and, own, stock, on, the, same, piece, of, ground, does, not, really, get, off, the, ground, this, evening, was, the, final, partners, meeting, where, i, handed, in, my, notice, the, reasons, for, handing, in, my, notice, are, complex, most, decisions, probably, are, there, are, lots, of, factors, some, trivial, to, the, outsider, but, important, to, me, others, may, be, important, to, others, and, similarly, not, to, me, several, people, have, asked, is, it, a, reaction, to, fmd, the, last, casualty, in, some, ways, it, is, for, all, the, horrendous, experiences, for, all, the, long, hours, and, difficult, ethical, and, to, whom, am, i, responsible, dilemmas, it, taught, me, a, lot, about, myself, to, see, fear, in, the, eyes, of, senior, management, when, challenged, to, be, able, to, organise, a, protest, meeting, of, thirty, vets, with, jim, scudamore, to, do, the, tv, interviews, o, see, the, effect, of, feeding, information, to, journalists, to, be, able, to, break, through, by, fast, talking, and, relying, on, my, wits, to, organise, completely, new, systems, and, manage, projects, that, had, never, been, done, before, to, build, teams, from, international, backgrounds, in, the, face, of, opposition, from, the, hierarchy, to, be, constantly, caught, on, a, tight, rope, between, the, different, groupings, i, learnt, that, i, have, huge, abilities, and, to, go, back, to, normality, is, difficult, the, future, of, farm, animal, practice, is, also, very, unpredictable, there, are, a, lot, of, farms, who, are, yet, to, restock, the, cross, subsidy, of, fees, by, drug, sales, is, going, to, end, and, more, and, more, work, will, be, on, behalf, or, paid, for, by, defra, they, are, at, the, whims, of, the, politicians, and, the, treasury, they, are, also, not, the, easiest, client, to, deal, with, there, is, also, the, problem, of, being, second, in, command, and, dealing, with, the, frustrations, of, the, partnership, we, are, not, united, in, the, way, we, work, or, where, we, see, the, practice, going, this, means, my, schemes, for, diversification, for, improving, income, streams, and, managing, the, bad, debt, will, either, not, happen, or, will, become, part, of, my, workload, which, is, already, over, stretched, add, in, to, this, cock, tail, the, fact, my, wife, is, starting, to, work, and, i, have, been, given, a, really, bad, scare, by, being, tackled, by, a, cow, the, question, is, do, i, want, to, do, this, job, for, the, next, 20, years, the, answer, has, to, be, no, so, the, only, answer, is, to, hand, in, my, resignation, and, start, to, look, for, something, new, as, i, have, a, 6, month, notice, period, ending, on, an, accounting, date, i, have, to, jump, before, i, have, another, job, sorted, out, even, so, the, decision, was, very, hard, and, i, was, really, choked, up, when, i, left, them, to, discuss, the, future, i, could, not, go, home, as, the, kids, would, want, to, know, what, was, going, on, so, i, went, to, js, he, already, knew, i, will, tell, the, kids, on, friday, the, practice, manager, on, monday, and, work, on, tuesday, i, have, said, very, little, of, my, thoughts, in, the, diary, as, i, have, learnt, there, are, somethings, better, left, unwritten, until, the, time, for, the, information, to, be, public, whatever, issues, are, to, do, with, confidentiality, if, you, don’t, think, something, can, be, talked, about, then, do, not, write, it, down, as, you, never, know, who, is, going, to, read, it, a, though, got, her, self, in, to, a, stew, as, i, rang, wife, to, say, i, was, going, to, js, she, then, said, she, would, come, out, she, left, a, bit, too, hurriedly, for, a, who, then, got, it, into, her, head, that, we, had, gone, away, on, holiday, with, out, telling, them, friday, the, whole, day, was, unreal, i, knew, i, was, going, but, no, one, else, does, told, the, kids, at, tea, time, and, i, was, shocked, by, how, upset, they, were, it, has, come, as, a, shock, to, them, tim, especially, loves, coming, out, and, about, around, the, farms, with, me, there, is, also, no, what, i, am, going, to, so, it, is, just, uncertainty, on, 2nd, call, sat, 3rd, may, 2003, work, then, wash, out, i, was, on, second, last, night, and, had, 2, caesars, and, a, calving, what, the, second, caesar, was, at, 4am, so, i, felt, dreadful, all, day, young, vet, had, started, operating, and, got, stuck, so, i, went, to, the, rescue, the, cow, had, horrendous, adhesions, so, nothing, could, be, moved, around, we, spent, an, hour, and, a, half, trying, to, pull, the, calf, out, and, then, stitching, up, the, uterus, in, the, cow, i, felt, i, needed, diving, gear, on, as, i, had, both, arms, in, to, their, full, length, with, vet, beside, me, trying, to, stitch, by, feel, my, arms, were, exhausted, by, the, end, of, it, i, was, like, death, warmed, up, all, day, but, feel, i, have, definitely, made, the, right, decision, sunday, after, a, good, nights, sleep, feeling, better, my, mother, always, use, to, say, that, the, world, looks, very, different, after, a, good, nights, sleep, and, a, cooked, breakfast, i, do, not, need, a, cooked, breakfast, my, stress, levels, have, been, that, high, that, i, have, been, eating, far, too, much, i, am, going, to, go, on, a, diet, the, usual, promise, to, myself, my, weight, is, going, up, fast, so, i, will, have, to, cut, down, and, start, to, exercise, a, lot, more, went, to, see, the, practice, manager, to, tell, him, that, i, have, handed, in, my, notice, i, have, decided, to, see, him, on, his, own, so, that, he, has, a, chance, to, process, it, before, work, on, tuesday, he, is, overweight, and, stressed, and, that, type, to, have, a, heart, attack, so, treat, him, gently, he, is, also, a, good, friend, so, i, should, give, him, some, warning, so, i, spent, an, hour, chatting, it, through, and, talking, which, is, a, good, a, way, as, any, of, spending, a, sunday, afternoon, mon, bank, holiday, another, bank, holiday, working, but, at, least, it, is, fairly, quiet, so, spent, most, of, the, day, working, in, the, garden, the, kids, were, away, in, the, morning, doing, various, things, and, then, met, up, for, lunch, with, friends, which, was, really, nice, they, had, been, down, to, visit, family, in, the, lake, district, they, had, hired, a, couple, of, cottages, for, the, w, e, and, all, met, up, they, are, really, amazing, people, they, are, both, doctors, and, i, went, out, to, visit, them, in, thailand, which, was, brilliant, fun, he, was, working, with, leprosy, and, aids, cases, they, have, come, home, and, are, sharing, a, gp’s, job, between, them, she, is, also, doing, a, diploma, in, diabetes, they, are, also, doing, deputation, work, to, raise, money, for, the, work, of, omf, in, thailand, and, asia, they, have, 4, kids, and, it, was, really, nice, to, see, them, all, again, the, kids, are, similar, ages, i, really, felt, for, them, because, they, have, gone, from, home, schooling, to, schools, in, edinburgh, in, the, big, city, so, they, have, the, double, culture, shock, of, coming, to, the, uk, and, being, schooled, in, a, complete, different, way, they, are, also, very, bright, kids, and, having, had, individual, attention, from, a, very, focussed, mother, they, are, miles, ahead, of, the, rest, of, their, classes, yet, they, do, not, have, the, social, skills, to, adapt, to, the, rough, and, tumble, of, life, in, a, city, comprehensive, mobile, phones, are, not, a, must, have, item, in, rural, thailand, good, to, see, them, all, tuesday, today, i, announced, the, fact, i, was, leaving, to, those, at, work, i, had, thought, about, how, i, should, do, it, and, what, i, was, to, say, it, is, quite, difficult, both, from, an, emotional, point, of, view, and, from, the, fact, that, i, think, that, the, business, in, the, longer, term, will, have, problems, this, has, both, a, direct, relevance, for, the, lay, staff, and, their, jobs, though, there, will, still, be, a, similar, number, needed, as, their, workload, is, likely, to, remain, the, same, and, also, for, the, vets, two, of, whom, may, or, may, not, be, approached, to, buy, into, the, business, there, will, also, in, the, longer, term, be, a, smaller, number, of, vets, needed, but, this, will, probably, be, managed, by, natural, wastage, i, spoke, first, to, the, senior, assistants, and, then, lay, staff, it, was, hard, as, i, have, been, there, for, as, long, as, many, of, them, 15, years, which, is, a, long, time, i, think, also, there, is, an, attitude, that, the, ups, and, downs, seem, to, be, past, for, them, there, was, a, lot, of, upheaval, over, the, move, from, b, v, up, to, s, park, fmd, is, over, and, things, are, suppose, to, be, getting, back, on, to, an, even, keel, and, i, throw, a, spanner, in, the, works, weds, spent, the, evening, phoning, friends, and, relatives, to, let, them, know, that, i, had, handed, in, my, notice, and, sending, off, for, job, details, on, two, jobs, and, applying, for, another, i, am, not, sure, what, i, am, looking, for, so, at, the, moment, i, am, just, sending, off, for, anything, that, seems, interesting, and, waiting, and, seeing, it, seems, an, unreal, situation, in, so, many, ways, i, also, had, to, phone, the, bank, manager, both, to, arrange, our, annual, visit, and, to, tell, him, that, i, was, leaving, again, getting, the, balance, between, moving, on, and, being, positive, with, out, pointing, out, the, dangers, in, the, future, of, large, animal, practice, was, a, difficult, balance, after, the, initial, shock, all, power, to, him, as, a, salesman, banker, he, then, asked, whether, i, would, be, needing, any, banking, requirements, so, at, least, if, i, do, start, up, an, independent, vet, small, business, consultancy, i, will, have, a, bank, account, to, run, it, from, thursday, a, quit, day, as, no, testing, so, tackled, some, of, the, back, log, in, admin, spent, a, lot, of, time, setting, up, the, systems, and, know, how, folder, for, nestle, we, have, taken, over, the, work, for, doing, the, lvi, work, for, the, nestle, factory, at, dalston, as, they, have, fallen, out, with, the, previous, practice, when, we, took, it, on, i, assumed, it, would, be, the, odd, bit, of, work, but, in, fact, it, is, a, huge, amount, of, work, so, it, is, going, to, take, some, sorting, out, i, also, feel, a, bit, off, as, i, have, handed, in, my, notice, and, yet, i, am, setting, all, this, up, and, i, ma, not, going, to, benefit, from, it, at, all, i, suppose, it, comes, back, to, wanting, to, do, what, is, right, and, that, we, should, serve, god, and, not, man, it, is, always, a, useful, measuring, stick, to, use, to, work, out, motivations, and, what, should, be, done, in, a, situation, who, am, i, trying, to, do, this, for, me, the, practice, the, client, or, am, i, doing, what, jesus, would, do, friday, another, bad, hair, day, had, real, problems, trying, to, fit, the, extra, work, into, the, day, and, so, got, a, bit, frayed, around, the, edges, fortunately, next, week, will, probably, be, the, last, thank, goodness, the, practice, that, used, to, do, the, nestle, work, was, on, the, phone, to, me, and, not, very, friendly, hey, ho, went, out, for, a, meal, with, friends, which, was, great, they, are, the, church, youth, leaders, and, are, really, switched, on, but, i, think, need, more, support, and, help, hopefully, once, the, 1st, of, october, hits, i, will, be, able, to, get, more, involved, went, to, the, royal, oak, at, welton, which, just, has, been, re, done, and, is, serving, food, on, a, proper, basis, as, well, as, having, a, pub, part, more, like, a, restaurant, wife, s, food, was, excellent, mine, was, ok, i, had, an, indian, trio, of, samosa, and, 2, bharji, to, start, with, i, am, afraid, i, have, been, spoilt, by, real, indian, food, so, i, should, not, have, bothered, going, for, it, in, a, cumbrian, pub, saturday, may, 10th, saturday, may, 10th, a, day, off, after, too, many, days, working, and, too, much, stress, it, was, really, nice, just, to, be, around, home, doing, the, garden, and, not, really, worrying, what, else, is, going, on, in, the, world, i, needed, some, space, and, i, am, pleased, to, have, got, it, at, long, last, it, is, amazing, how, much, better, the, world, looks, after, a, good, nights, sleep, and, a, some, time, off, in, the, afternoon, the, c, boys, came, around, and, we, took, them, to, see, new, chicks, s, was, there, and, i, did, not, want, to, go, down, the, route, of, explaining, why, i, had, made, the, decision, i, had, to, leave, so, chickened, out, of, telling, her, i, suppose, i, am, happy, with, it, and, i, just, want, to, forget, about, for, the, w, e, so, we, arrived, with, 7, boys, which, is, quite, brave, fortunately, we, could, not, stay, long, as, we, had, to, be, back, to, go, out, to, gianni’s, with, d, he, took, us, out, and, it, was, really, good, fun, the, kids, were, all, in, good, form, came, back, and, watched, the, first, part, of, a, dvd, on, john, grisham’s, book, the, client, he, is, an, excellent, writer, and, although, film, can, never, develop, the, characters, the, same, as, a, book, so, the, film, was, good, but, only, ok, sunday, 11th, church, was, good, this, morning, and, it, was, good, to, be, there, and, spent, ages, chatting, to, folk, but, came, back, to, lunch, with, a, couple, who, stayed, too, long, there, are, some, people, i, find, really, draining, and, she, is, one, it, is, awful, but, i, get, really, wound, up, and, just, want, them, to, go, after, about, 30, minutes, they, came, for, lunch, and, did, not, leave, until, after, tea, so, i, was, almost, going, spare, monday, 12th, i, find, the, silence, around, the, fact, i, am, going, a, bit, unnerving, it, is, a, bit, elephant, and, coffee, table, really, a, lot, of, the, farmers, i, suppose, don’t, yet, know, or, if, they, do, how, to, respond, today’s, frustrations, are, all, with, things, not, working, bt, have, sent, me, a, bill, for, 115, for, fixing, the, line, that, was, struck, by, lightening, i, was, put, through, three, depts, before, i, gave, up, i, may, try, just, not, paying, and, see, if, they, can, register, the, fact, the, bill, is, being, disputed, the, other, frustration, is, the, car, doors, have, gone, again, in, wife, s, car, which, is, incredibly, frustrating, they, have, been, fixed, and, fixed, and, fixed, although, it, is, under, warranty, i, am, getting, to, the, stage, that, i, feel, we, are, being, fobbed, off, tues, 13th, i, went, to, hear, mg, from, the, licc, london, institute, of, contemporary, christianity, speak, at, the, living, word, this, is, a, series, that, happens, every, spring, and, is, organised, by, a, group, of, ministers, and, folk, from, carlisle, he, is, a, very, interesting, speaker, he, is, an, ex, ad, man, and, his, whole, message, is, to, get, the, church, to, look, out, side, of, it, self, he, thinks, that, christianity, in, the, west, has, become, a, leisure, time, activity, and, is, not, impacting, the, rest, of, peoples, lives, there, is, a, concept, of, the, sacred, secular, divide, the, church, does, not, get, involved, in, secular, things, work, culture, the, arts, sport, and, in, some, ways, philosophy, too, whereas, there, should, be, no, divide, christ, is, either, lord, of, all, or, not, at, all, he, also, is, a, very, amusing, speaker, he, was, talking, about, how, technology, is, usually, neutral, but, how, it, is, used, has, very, far, reaching, effects, on, family, work, and, society, he, used, the, microwave, as, an, example, with, a, very, amusing, story, about, how, he, managed, to, save, the, sleep, of, the, whole, of, north, london, by, using, the, new, fangled, microwave, to, heat, his, daughter’s, midnight, bottle, thereby, saving, the, chancellor, huge, sums, in, lost, revenue, with, typical, jewish, hyperbole, he, then, moved, on, to, his, kids, now, teenagers, not, coming, in, for, the, meal, he, has, prepared, but, reheating, it, in, the, microwave, and, how, that, led, to, a, lack, of, communication, and, again, hyperbole, to, his, angst, about, not, understanding, the, younger, generation, as, this, is, a, diary, about, fmd, how, do, i, relate, this, to, my, experience, of, fmd, on, the, simple, level, the, culture, within, defra, needs, to, change, servant, hood, whether, by, civil, servants, or, politicians, has, been, forgotten, truth, will, out, spin, will, fall, computers, should, be, a, tool, of, all, and, master, of, none, organisations, need, to, have, a, human, face, for, people, to, relate, to, whether, it, is, the, brigadier, or, the, cvo, people, are, individuals, created, by, god, and, have, feelings, and, are, not, numbers, or, statistics, the, post, modernist, human, secularism, where, truth, is, relative, where, brown, can, announce, that, everything, is, under, control, can, mislead, parliament, and, people, and, it, is, acceptable, i, actually, strongly, feel, that, the, current, presidential, style, of, where, no, one, can, make, a, decision, with, out, refer, to, their, boss, is, a, poor, model, pain, disaster, illness, and, trouble, are, part, of, the, human, condition, part, of, the, fall, of, evil, in, the, world, enough, philosophy, its, time, for, bed, monday, 17th, may, this, was, the, big, golden, wedding, anniversary, day, it, was, wife, s, parents, golden, wedding, and, her, brothers, and, family, all, came, to, stay, for, the, w, e, the, celebration, meal, was, at, lyzzick, hall, in, keswick, the, big, surprise, for, wife, s, mum, was, that, her, bridesmaid, and, husband, were, coming, over, from, canada, j, picked, them, up, from, the, airport, and, took, them, to, a, b, b, other, friends, were, also, coming, as, a, surprise, rp, started, the, surprises, by, coming, in, dressed, as, a, waitress, she, came, in, and, offered, wife, s, mum, a, drink, and, she, was, really, overcome, the, other, surprises, of, bridesmaid, and, canadians, was, really, nice, to, see, the, younger, parts, of, the, clan, went, off, to, the, climbing, wall, while, the, older, part, went, for, a, look, at, the, lake, in, the, rain, it, was, a, really, nice, day, ended, by, a, firework, display, thanks, to, c, as, he, grew, up, in, belfast, during, the, troubles, and, fireworks, were, banned, he, has, a, real, passion, for, them, now, as, a, big, kid, sunday, went, to, church, with, everyone, a, very, mixed, group, but, they, coped, p, spoke, in, the, morning, meeting, he, was, very, good, he, is, a, publisher, and, was, talking, about, the, church, in, china, as, he, has, just, helped, to, publish, a, book, about, some, of, the, christian, house, church, it, makes, the, materialistic, church, in, the, west, look, very, weak, and, un, spiritual, in, the, evening, mm, spoke, on, the, christian, at, work, which, was, very, good, and, very, funny, he, was, a, bed, sales, man, when, he, was, a, student, and, he, was, very, funny, about, how, he, made, shy, engaged, couples, lie, down, and, try, the, beds, this, really, tickled, other, son, age, 8, much, to, his, gran’s, tut, tutting, the, point, he, was, making, in, between, the, jokes, was, that, he, had, been, told, that, he, was, to, say, that, the, bed, s, would, all, be, delivered, in, 3, 4, weeks, when, in, fact, it, could, be, up, to, 6, weeks, but, the, shop, keeper, thought, this, would, put, people, off, this, meant, that, mm, ended, up, in, bother, with, couples, arriving, back, from, their, honey, moon, to, no, bed, so, he, decided, to, listen, to, god’s, way, and, tell, the, truth, which, he, said, like, most, biblical, teaching, is, obvious, once, it, is, explained, and, tell, people, the, truth, not, what, they, want, to, hear, mon, went, and, read, the, tb, test, for, the, tenant, farmer, there, was, 1, i, r, the, reaction, of, the, farmer, took, me, back, fairly, badly, and, i, was, quite, shocked, at, the, sheer, vehemence, of, his, reaction, fortunately, it, was, mostly, at, defra, he, went, out, early, on, to, the, disease, and, he, therefore, got, much, lower, compensation, than, a, lot, of, the, later, ones, he, had, some, cattle, wintering, at, his, farm, for, some, one, else, who, went, out, later, on, with, fmd, at, his, home, holding, the, difference, in, the, valuations, for, the, same, type, of, cattle, was, horrendous, he, also, has, buildings, that, he, owns, on, a, small, parcel, of, land, the, buildings, were, old, and, knackered, but, usable, a, lot, of, string, and, gates, defra, pulled, them, to, pieces, during, fmd, and, then, offered, him, peanuts, o, reinstate, them, which, meant, he, could, not, get, them, back, into, a, usable, state, so, he, is, not, a, happy, bunny, spent, the, afternoon, castrating, horses, which, is, not, my, favourite, job, if, a, stirk, kicks, you, it, hurts, if, a, horse, kicks, you, it, usually, means, a, trip, in, an, ambulance, you, are, therefore, very, tense, and, ready, to, move, in, awkward, positions, canadians, and, wife, s, parents, headed, off, for, a, trip, around, the, borders, in, our, people, carrier, they, are, coming, back, to, swap, over, cars, at, the, end, of, the, week, wife, has, the, tank, to, run, around, in, for, the, week, tuesday, my, back, is, twinging, from, the, castrating, and, a, calving, yesterday, and, is, really, sore, so, did, paperwork, while, sitting, like, a, ramrod, until, i, gave, up, and, came, back, to, lie, down, did, the, back, exercises, hourly, but, it, just, got, stiffer, and, sorer, weds, spent, morning, reading, in, bed, and, doing, back, exercises, but, cannot, get, it, moving, went, to, see, the, accountant, in, the, afternoon, to, sort, out, the, practicalities, of, going, freelance, and, finishing, at, the, vets, thursday, back, is, a, lot, better, and, starting, to, move, much, more, freely, the, first, negative, comment, on, me, leaving, today, came, from, a, farmer, who, has, decided, that, the, only, way, to, make, money, is, to, go, for, 300, cows, he, has, therefore, planned, all, this, designed, new, parlours, been, to, look, at, other, large, herds, thought, it, all, through, unfortunately, his, costings, are, on, buying, in, dairy, cows, at, 6, 700, per, head, and, just, recently, they, have, gone, to, over, a, thousand, which, means, he, is, out, by, 60k, oops, but, he, said, that, he, thought, i, was, deserting, them, in, a, way, i, suppose, i, am, back, in, to, being, on, call, with, a, vengeance, a, calving, a, caesar, a, prolapsed, uterus, hey, ho, friday, interesting, statistic, on, the, radio, whether, it, is, right, or, wrong, i, do, not, know, in, the, eu, the, average, beef, cow, is, subsidised, to, the, tune, of, 2, per, week, the, average, african, earns, less, than, that, the, canadians, and, wife, s, parents, arrived, back, from, their, trip, around, the, borders, the, good, news, is, they, baby, sat, or, teenage, and, child, minded, while, we, went, out, to, the, lemon, lounge, the, bad, news, is, they, are, to, feed, and, look, after, over, the, w, e, my, brother, and, family, arrive, tomorrow, so, it, will, be, a, bit, crowded, it, was, really, nice, to, be, out, on, our, own, with, relative, peace, around, us, the, noise, from, an, office, party, does, not, impinge, as, it, is, nothing, to, do, with, us, saturday, 31st, may, 2003, a, gardening, day, we, decided, that, we, would, have, to, get, the, place, sorted, out, so, spent, most, of, the, day, in, the, sunshine, pulling, weeds, and, sorting, out, the, garden, it, was, a, beautiful, day, my, back, was, pretty, sore, by, the, end, of, the, day, but, we, got, it, nearly, all, sorted, which, was, good, the, boys, cut, the, lawn, and, a, sat, on, it, and, read, her, book, another, bbq, by, the, end, of, the, day, a, made, the, salads, while, the, boys, cooked, so, it, was, a, family, meal, wife, and, the, older, two, headed, for, tesco’s, while, i, cleared, the, debris, away, sunday, june, 1st, the, sun, is, still, flaming, but, the, seeds, and, seedlings, are, looking, a, bit, sad, and, whithered, in, spite, of, the, watering, i, have, really, enjoyed, the, week, off, but, there, has, been, very, little, on, fmd, met, up, with, friends, at, church, home, visiting, parents, in, the, evening, caught, up, with, the, as, he, is, an, indian, gastro, enterologist, who, worked, at, carlisle, they, now, work, in, bombay, so, it, was, good, to, see, them, they, are, hoping, to, set, up, an, aids, hospice, there, are, currently, over, a, million, people, who, are, hiv, ve, in, bombay, monday, back, to, work, and, quite, busy, so, it, looks, as, if, the, june, quiet, period, is, not, going, to, materialise, with, folk, on, holiday, it, makes, it, seem, busier, any, way, it, took, me, until, 4pm, to, get, to, my, in, tray, which, after, a, week, was, overflowing, as, usual, tuesday, this, is, more, like, june, long, lunch, and, spent, the, morning, trying, to, get, the, accountancy, package, up, to, date, sent, off, another, speculative, e, mail, job, application, a, friend, from, church, who, is, now, studying, physio, therapy, at, glasgow, came, and, insisted, wife, i, went, out, for, a, walk, together, which, was, really, nice, he, is, a, really, nice, young, guy, went, to, beach, at, beckfoot, where, we, were, the, only, ones, walking, the, beach, there, was, one, serious, kiter, i, have, not, seen, such, a, serious, kite, for, a, long, time, it, was, fairly, windy, and, he, had, it, anchored, behind, him, so, as, not, to, be, taking, off, with, it, weds, spent, the, morning, doing, fertilities, and, then, spent, time, sorting, out, issues, with, george, there, was, so, little, work, it, is, boring, for, the, assistants, the, june, quiet, patch, ahs, arrived, the, bills, did, not, go, due, to, a, computer, upgrade, cocking, the, system, up, the, systems, are, now, so, complex, they, are, beyond, any, reasonable, way, of, keeping, tabs, you, have, to, trust, the, experts, who, you, don’t, thursday, day, off, spent, it, writing, out, a, business, proposal, to, try, and, get, work, via, a, consultancy, firm, then, tried, fixing, the, extractor, fan, and, failed, thursby, football, club, is, going, really, well, with, some, more, lads, coming, along, the, standard, is, variable, but, good, fun, friday, tb, testing, again, at, fs, they, had, just, heard, about, me, leaving, and, were, full, of, questions, the, night, was, really, busy, on, first, call, and, had, lots, going, on, wife, was, at, a, retreat, thinking, through, the, future, and, reporting, on, the, last, year, so, i, was, trying, to, juggle, kids, as, well, saturday, 7th, june, 2003, last, night, was, terrible, with, a, dog, to, see, in, the, middle, of, the, night, and, put, down, it, was, only, a, young, dog, but, it, had, leukaemia, and, was, not, responding, to, treatment, it, had, colic, probably, from, the, mesenteric, lymph, nodes, and, was, rolling, around, in, pain, not, nice, for, them, or, me, sat, am, was, busy, too, went, to, one, of, the, organic, farms, to, see, an, ill, cow, post, calving, he, was, saying, that, there, are, three, farmers, all, none, fmd, giving, up, milking, one, is, another, organic, dairy, farm, he, was, promised, a, premium, of, 10p, per, litre, and, his, costings, were, based, on, 28p, per, litre, he, is, getting, a, premium, of, less, than, 0.5p, per, litre, which, takes, it, to, 16p, the, figures, do, not, add, up, so, he, is, giving, up, the, other, 2, are, small, farms, who, cannot, make, it, work, 40, 50, cows, slept, in, the, afternoon, and, went, to, a, party, in, the, evening, bizarrely, as, we, were, walking, in, the, people, whose, dog, i, put, to, sleep, last, night, walked, in, as, well, they, live, next, door, and, had, been, invited, as, well, weird, spent, time, chatting, but, came, to, 10, and, i, was, dead, on, my, feet, sunday, 8th, the, on, call, changes, from, 2nd, back, up, to, 1st, at, 8, 30, am, the, phone, started, at, 8, 35, urghhh, i, am, finding, it, very, hard, to, have, any, enthusiasm, knowing, that, i, ma, leaving, in, a, few, months, one, of, the, farms, i, was, on, has, given, up, dairy, and, were, hoping, to, retire, fmd, year, but, lost, money, because, of, all, the, restrictions, so, they, are, now, hoping, to, finish, this, back, end, may, be, they, were, hoping, to, keep, the, milk, quota, and, lease, it, out, as, a, pension, but, because, of, the, new, rules, they, will, have, to, sell, it, and, the, price, is, low, as, there, are, a, lot, of, non, producers, who, are, in, the, same, boat, it, was, at, its, height, worth, 1, per, litre, a, lot, was, bought, and, sold, in, the, 40, 60p, per, litre, it, is, now, around, the, 10p, mark, funny, world, agriculture, monday, 9th, calving, at, 5am, followed, by, other, calls, so, an, early, start, busy, day, at, work, went, to, a, meeting, for, the, new, crusaders, support, worker, it, is, supposed, to, be, county, wide, but, is, going, to, be, based, around, kendal, as, that, is, where, the, legacy, that, is, providing, a, lot, of, the, money, is, based, so, it, is, less, relevant, tot, this, end, of, cumbria, so, i, have, backed, out, of, the, organisation, committee, as, most, of, the, meetings, will, be, at, rydal, too, far, for, me, we, were, there, tonight, so, did, not, get, back, until, 11, 30, which, after, a, w, e, on, call, is, too, late, for, this, bunny, tuesday, 10th, spent, 45, mins, on, the, phone, trying, to, work, out, what, i, am, going, to, be, doing, in, oct, with, a, guy, from, pfizer, i, then, had, to, spend, the, rest, of, the, evening, sorting, out, the, emails, i, needed, to, send, to, him, weds, 11th, spent, the, morning, having, nursery, visits, where, the, local, infants, schools, come, around, the, vets, and, i, give, my, wee, guided, tour, it, is, quite, fun, and, the, little, things, that, we, do, they, really, love, blowing, up, the, anaesthetic, bag, the, x, ray, quiz, and, listening, to, dog’s, hearts, i, always, take, some, of, son, s, chickens, in, as, well, as, most, kids, are, not, use, to, having, birds, or, handling, them, son, has, spent, so, many, hours, carrying, them, around, they, are, fairly, tame, and, used, to, being, picked, up, i, don’t, know, that, effort, pays, back, in, commercial, terms, but, it, is, fun, football, training, in, the, evening, with, 20, lads, which, was, brilliant, thursday, 12th, on, call, and, exhausted, after, the, excitement, of, the, week, the, phone, went, at, 7pm, from, the, answering, service, to, say, that, a, women, had, rung, and, asked, for, the, pass, word, for, the, alarm, this, of, course, meant, nothing, to, those, answering, the, phone, i, however, put, 2, 2, together, to, work, out, that, the, alarm, at, the, practice, and, gone, off, and, that, the, police, would, be, on, their, way, why, does, this, always, happen, when, you, are, in, the, bath, so, i, jumped, out, the, bath, and, rushed, down, to, find, out, what, was, going, on, there, was, a, police, man, there, who, was, waiting, for, me, to, lead, the, way, in, we, found, a, very, scared, dog, sitting, in, the, prep, room, having, escaped, from, its, kennel, it, then, took, an, hour, to, get, the, alarms, reset, life, is, a, rich, tapestry, friday, 13th, went, to, lawyers, today, to, meet, up, to, go, through, the, dissolution, of, the, partnership, bit, sad, in, a, way, but, another, nail, bashed, in, to, my, leaving, coffin, finished, work, and, spent, evening, playing, football, and, doing, some, coaching, which, was, good, fun, son, was, off, school, today, he, was, full, of, cold, and, just, exhausted, he, just, needed, time, out, really, he, goes, at, everything, at, 110, saturday, 14th, june, 2003, working, am, why, is, it, even, if, you, have, a, few, quiet, days, in, the, week, by, the, time, the, w, e, comes, it, is, busy, again, really, warm, so, sunshine, and, gardening, a, had, decided, she, was, going, to, do, a, changing, rooms, on, the, double, room, in, the, cottage, so, she, and, a, friend, worked, away, all, day, at, it, i, was, very, impressed, by, the, time, we, had, finished, our, barbeque, in, the, evening, it, was, all, back, to, ship, shape, and, was, finished, she, is, some, pup, sunday, went, down, to, whitehaven, to, see, the, tall, ships, in, the, harbour, there, was, only, one, there, which, was, disappointing, but, it, was, good, to, look, around, there, was, a, fair, buzz, about, the, place, and, heaving, with, people, as, the, weather, was, great, there, was, a, display, of, jet, ski’s, which, was, fun, to, watch, so, the, boys, are, now, on, at, me, to, try, and, have, a, go, the, red, arrows, were, brilliant, they, have, a, tremendous, display, and, the, coloured, streams, they, leave, behind, in, the, sky, always, amaze, me, it, is, almost, like, they, are, writing, in, the, sky, monday, finally, decided, the, duck, eggs, were, not, going, to, hatch, so, broke, them, open, to, see, if, they, were, fertile, 1, exploded, it, was, so, rotten, urghh, only, one, had, a, half, formed, egg, in, it, so, i, think, the, eggs, were, the, problem, not, the, incubation, tuesday, testing, some, more, i, r’s, for, tb, though, the, history, is, wrong, so, i, hope, that, they, will, clear, a, new, vet, student, turned, up, in, the, afternoon, she, is, staying, with, us, until, the, w, e, then, with, colleague, the, vets, is, going, to, have, to, find, new, accommodation, for, students, went, to, the, training, evening, for, the, soccer, coaching, it, was, a, form, filling, exercise, and, orientation, so, it, was, boring, but, i, am, on, the, course, which, is, good, at, least, i, well, have, the, piece, of, paper, at, the, end, of, it, weds, footie, training, at, night, only, the, hard, core, turned, up, so, looks, like, we, will, have, a, good, group, of, 14, 15, which, means, we, will, not, have, to, choose, and, disappoint, went, for, a, run, afterwards, as, feeling, in, need, of, exercise, as, not, much, large, animal, work, at, the, moment, means, i, am, sitting, around, on, the, computer, for, a, lot, of, the, day, which, is, sad, must, get, fit, is, a, constant, resolution, spent, the, evening, up, at, sandal, watching, the, sun, go, down, away, from, the, phone, and, chaos, at, home, thursday, i, was, at, work, when, i, had, a, phone, call, from, some, one, who, had, apparently, run, over, son, at, school, never, an, easy, phone, call, to, take, espy, as, she, did, not, know, what, had, happened, fortunately, he, was, ok, he, had, been, walking, backwards, and, had, stepped, into, the, path, of, a, car, which, had, caught, his, heel, the, damage, was, slight, but, it, had, upset, him, the, school, exit, is, appalling, and, needs, sorted, as, busses, cars, and, bikes, all, share, the, same, area, as, the, kids, walking, inevitably, kids, are, jostling, and, messing, around, so, it, is, an, accident, waiting, to, happen, friday, half, day, as, wife, is, starting, her, next, w, e, counselling, course, could, not, really, get, going, as, a, calving, early, this, am, and, a, call, late, last, night, so, having, run, on, adrenalin, for, all, the, week, i, collapse, in, to, a, heap, and, find, it, hard, to, get, going, and, get, motivated, spent, the, afternoon, getting, organised, for, the, visitors, arriving, as, friends, are, coming, and, friend, who, was, our, bridesmaid, is, coming, across, for, the, w, e, saturday, 21st, june, 2003, pay, day, i, don’t, really, know, why, it, always, sticks, in, my, mind, but, at, the, moment, with, the, 1st, of, october, looming, and, the, fact, that, the, 21st, will, not, be, a, pay, day, it, is, becoming, a, bit, scary, spent, morning, on, run, around, and, house, jobs, ferrying, to, and, from, squash, went, to, town, in, pm, with, a, son, having, left, off, the, younger, ones, at, cottinghams, and, spent, a, pleasant, half, hour, in, ottakars, even, they, were, running, low, on, the, book, the, latest, harry, potter, which, i, had, meant, to, order, via, internet, but, had, not, quite, got, around, to, the, statistic, is, that, she, is, expected, to, sell, 6, every, second, over, the, w, e, she, makes, 1, per, book, which, means, 360, per, minute, 21,600, per, hour, not, a, bad, hourly, rate, or, just, over, a, million, quid, for, the, w, e, as, every, other, person, on, the, tills, was, buying, a, copy, i, can, well, believe, it, sun, 22nd, church, in, the, morning, was, joint, communion, and, was, lead, by, the, denton, holm, house, group, the, church, meets, up, in, small, groups, mid, week, to, pray, and, study, bible, and, the, denton, holme, grp, lead, the, service, it, means, you, get, a, refreshingly, different, type, of, service, with, different, people, taking, part, and, leading, it, was, good, followed, by, a, picnic, in, the, park, which, was, ok, but, i, just, wanted, to, fall, asleep, in, the, sunshine, i, am, suffering, from, stopping, syndrome, i, can, keep, going, on, the, adrenalin, but, when, i, stop, thump, i, fall, asleep, and, can, not, get, going, picked, up, liz, from, church, in, the, evening, having, left, youngest, two, at, home, as, wife, was, late, back, from, her, course, thank, goodness, for, mobile, phones, or, rather, at, least, they, manage, to, make, a, complex, life, possible, really, i, should, have, let, her, pick, up, friend, and, missed, church, and, upset, a, by, telling, her, she, couldn’t, go, but, it, all, worked, out, in, the, end, mon, 23rd, friend, arrived, at, some, terrible, hour, she, finally, left, bristol, after, 8pm, after, meaning, to, leave, at, lunchtime, so, as, wife, and, i, were, exhausted, we, did, not, get, up, to, welcome, her, work, is, really, quiet, with, very, little, happening, son, is, in, a, strop, cos, we, will, not, let, him, go, sailing, after, cricket, after, school, as, he, will, be, exhausted, he, takes, after, us, if, there, is, a, possibility, we, try, to, achieve, it, our, own, fault, really, but, it, is, weird, how, you, see, your, own, faults, coming, through, in, your, children, tues, 24th, spent, the, day, talking, to, people, on, the, phone, trying, to, get, funding, for, the, research, project, have, a, few, leads, and, ideas, to, get, together, so, should, be, interesting, to, see, if, it, comes, together, weds, 25th, started, at, 4am, with, a, caesarean, which, was, really, nice, as, that, time, in, the, morning, is, beautiful, it, is, just, a, shame, that, the, rest, of, the, day, is, a, bit, of, a, wash, out, because, of, it, went, at, night, to, the, fa, training, course, which, was, class, room, based, on, a, warm, sunny, evening, and, i, was, struggling, to, stay, with, it, i, have, also, decided, that, i, need, to, get, fit, as, the, practical, day, is, going, to, be, very, long, for, my, unfit, legs, thursday, the, electrician, arrived, to, sort, out, the, electrics, in, the, bathroom, which, are, still, not, right, the, lights, keep, fusing, and, the, fan, will, not, work, i, had, a, look, at, the, wiring, which, is, a, mess, and, decided, i, could, not, follow, it, and, after, my, last, experience, i, decided, i, would, just, pay, him, to, keep, him, in, a, job, i, had, a, very, enjoyable, day, off, played, son, at, squash, and, lost, now, not, only, is, he, better, than, me, at, football, but, squash, a, swell, all, down, hill, from, here, on, in, went, to, church, in, the, evening, as, rw, was, speaking, it, was, interesting, to, hear, him, though, was, more, a, chat, than, a, biblical, exposition, friday, the, email, from, the, verse, of, the, day, seems, to, sum, up, a, years, worth, of, diaries, when, times, are, good, be, happy, but, when, times, are, bad, consider, god, has, made, the, one, as, well, as, the, other, therefore, a, man, cannot, discover, anything, about, his, future, ecclesiastes, 7, 14, new, international, version, the, future, is, uncertain, i, will, leave, my, job, in, a, few, months, time, for, a, new, start, the, pressures, of, fmd, seem, to, be, distant, in, the, warm, summer, weather, and, in, the, quiet, workload, making, me, feel, rested, and, relaxed, the, challenges, both, for, agriculture, the, veterinary, practice, and, for, policymakers, are, still, very, large, there, is, now, a, threat, of, bio, terrorism, to, add, to, the, food, scares, and, the, threat, of, exotic, disease, life, carries, on, we, may, not, learn, from, all, our, mistakes, and, government, depts, are, a, blunt, slow, awkward, machine, but, the, cows, will, still, need, to, be, milked, and, we, will, still, need, food, on, our, table, if, in, 68, you, told, some, one, that, we, had, not, had, an, outbreak, of, fmd, for, 35, years, they, would, have, said, well, done, if, you, had, said, 2, men, were, milking, 300, cows, on, a, cumbrian, farm, and, getting, 7000, litres, per, cow, he, would, never, have, believed, you, there, is, a, time, for, everything, and, a, season, for, every, activity, under, the, heaven, a, time, to, be, born, and, a, time, to, die, a, time, to, plant, and, a, time, to, uproot, a, time, to, kill, and, a, time, to, heal, a, time, to, tear, down, and, a, time, to, build, a, time, to, weep, and, a, time, to, laugh, a, time, to, mourn, and, a, time, to, dance, a, time, to, scatter, stones, and, a, time, to, gather, them, a, time, to, embrace, and, a, time, to, refrain, a, time, to, search, and, a, time, to, give, up, a, time, to, keep, and, a, time, to, throw, away, a, time, to, tear, and, a, time, to, mend, a, time, to, be, silent, and, a, time, to, speak, a, time, to, love, and, a, time, to, hate, a, time, for, war, and, a, time, for, peace]
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1981, gender, f, occupation, group, 5, geographic, region, north, cumbria, paper, diary, has, lots, of, newspaper, cuttings, and, other, related, material, week, beginning, 25th, february, 2002, after, the, snow, which, fell, at, the, weekend, melted, combined, with, the, additional, rainfall, many, of, the, fields, surrounding, the, village, as, well, as, the, roads, were, flooded, usually, this, wouldn't, concern, you, much, however, with, the, burial, site, being, so, close, and, the, number, of, underground, streams, in, the, area, it, does, become, worrying, there, isn't, any, guarantee, that, groundwater, in, the, surrounding, area, won't, become, effected, and, to, what, extent, there, seem, to, be, a, number, of, aspects, to, me, concerning, this, issue, which, remain, unclear, for, example, what, exactly, can, be, carried, in, water, and, how, might, this, effect, people, in, the, area, what, is, being, tested, for, in, the, surrounding, streams, what, exactly, is, classed, as, a, danger, and, if, problems, did, arise, how, would, they, be, monitored, and, resolved, all, these, issues, do, tend, to, make, you, anxious, in, particular, on, monday, when, i, was, out, walking, my, dog, i, noticed, a, couple, of, drains, which, i, passed, looked, as, if, they, were, blocked, and, there, was, a, lot, of, water, around, it, just, makes, you, wonder, how, much, has, come, possibly, from, the, burial, site, and, if, it, is, actually, safe, my, worries, on, monday, about, the, groundwater, were, even, more, emphasised, by, the, statement, i, heard, on, the, border, news, on, tuesday, by, the, environment, agency, this, statement, was, concerning, the, future, safety, of, the, groundwater, in, the, area, around, the, burial, site, the, agency, could, give, no, guarantee, that, the, groundwater, would, not, become, affected, in, the, future, since, then, i, have, heard, no, further, news, about, the, issue, there, may, be, more, information, on, news, reports, i, missed, in, my, opinion, not, enough, information, is, given, to, the, public, about, these, issues, results, of, testing, by, the, environment, agency, are, meant, to, be, available, to, the, public, however, i, have, never, heard, much, about, the, details, i, think, more, effort, should, be, made, to, inform, in, particular, resident, near, burial, sites, as, these, issues, are, bound, to, be, important, to, them, after, hearing, the, news, i, did, become, more, worried, but, at, the, end, of, the, day, there, is, little, we, can, really, do, ourselves, you, find, yourself, having, to, trust, people, or, agencies, you, know, little, about, and, just, hoping, everything, will, be, alright, on, tuesday, also, noticed, a, horrible, smell, outside, so, did, my, fiancé, but, again, you, can't, be, sure, exactly, where, this, is, coming, from, or, what, is, causing, it, on, thursday, with, news, of, possible, foot, and, mouth, case, further, south, near, leeds, i, became, very, worried, that, this, whole, thing, was, going, to, start, all, over, again, my, worries, were, about, the, farmers, and, people, involved, and, how, they, would, be, affected, if, other, cases, could, be, identified, and, in, particular, affecting, my, own, life, if, animals, would, have, to, be, slaughtered, again, in, the, future, where, would, they, be, disposed, of, would, existing, burial, sites, be, reopened, as, opposed, to, finding, suitable, sites, for, new, burial, sites, it, would, seem, easier, to, reopen, burial, sites, but, what, would, this, mean, for, the, future, and, to, what, extent, would, the, health, risks, be, increased, i, was, very, relieved, to, hear, the, testing, of, the, foot, and, mouth, cases, came, back, negative, i, was, relieved, for, the, people, involved, and, also, residents, near, burial, sites, however, this, did, raise, questions, in, my, mind, of, how, this, sort, of, situation, would, be, handled, in, the, future, and, what, consequences, it, might, have, week, 2, 4th, march, on, monday, passed, driving, test, and, now, fiancé, and, myself, are, insured, on, a, small, car, this, opens, up, so, many, opportunities, and, we, have, a, huge, sense, of, freedom, last, summer, we, had, planned, to, go, on, a, camping, holiday, with, our, dog, dog, we, had, al, our, equipment, prepared, but, were, unable, to, go, due, to, the, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, neither, of, us, imagined, how, long, and, widespread, the, outbreak, would, be, and, thought, at, first, it, would, be, over, in, a, few, weeks, now, a, year, later, we, are, able, to, replan, our, holiday, this, is, exciting, as, we, have, waited, so, long, it, is, unbelievable, to, think, how, long, it, has, taken, for, restrictions, on, the, countryside, to, return, to, as, normal, as, can, be, possible, due, to, the, circumstances, for, the, actual, people, directly, involved, in, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, this, must, have, seemed, like, far, longer, on, tuesday, i, had, a, lovely, surprise, when, i, noticed, the, lambs, in, a, field, near, my, house, when, out, walking, my, dog, it, was, lovely, to, see, and, for, a, few, minutes, things, almost, seemed, normal, again, even, though, the, burial, site, is, only, about, a, mile, away, it, is, hidden, from, view, from, the, village, you, never, forget, though, as, soon, as, you, spot, the, windmills, and, remember, the, repeated, pictures, featured, in, the, news, seeing, the, lambs, really, did, lift, my, spirits, and, the, future, after, foot, and, mouth, didn’t, seem, as, bad, as, thought, the, week, before, i, can’t, recall, the, exact, days, but, they, were, towards, the, beginning, of, the, week, on, two, particular, occasions, my, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, terrible, smell, outside, we, aren’t, sure, exactly, what, the, smell, was, just, that, it, was, very, unpleasant, the, only, other, incident, which, i, can, recall, which, stands, out, in, my, mind, this, past, week, is, a, conversation, i, had, with, my, fiancé’s, granddad, we, were, talking, about, how, bad, last, year’s, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, had, been, and, he, recalled, the, outbreak, of, 1967, he, commented, on, how, he, thought, that, outbreak, had, been, far, better, controlled, it, was, better, as, the, animals, were, killed, and, buried, on, the, actual, farms, in, lime, there, was, no, transporting, dead, or, live, animals, like, last, year, he, also, commented, on, the, fact, that, there, were, no, pyres, then, and, that, he, hadn’t, thought, it, a, good, idea, last, year, overall, he, thought, that, last, year’s, outbreak, could, have, been, dealt, with, better, and, that, action, was, taken, far, too, late, to, prevent, the, disease, spreading, week, 3, 11th, march, one, new, thing, i, have, noticed, this, week, is, the, amount, of, birds, there, are, flying, around, especially, black, crows, i, think, it, is, because, i, have, been, driving, and, every, time, i, drive, past, the, fields, at, the, south, end, of, the, village, there, are, large, amounts, of, crows, hustled, together, can, never, remember, it, being, quite, like, that, last, summer, it, makes, you, wonder, why, so, many, are, drawn, to, just, those, fields, as, i, drive, past, in, the, next, few, weeks, i, will, see, if, it, is, still, the, same, on, about, occasions, this, week, fiancé, and, i, have, noticed, a, slight, smell, outside, again, not, as, foul, smelling, but, still, noticeable, on, tuesday, saw, new, series, featured, on, itv, called, rural, lives, i, think, this, is, a, good, idea, as, the, issue, of, foot, and, mouth, is, still, very, painful, to, a, lot, of, people, and, is, not, over, yet, the, effects, are, still, happening, however, on, the, news, and, in, other, media, it, isn’t, often, mentioned, and, doesn’t, get, the, attention, it, deserves, hopefully, through, programmes, like, this, people, will, get, a, better, understanding, of, the, issues, involved, and, what, different, people, went, through, if, an, outbreak, ever, happened, again, all, the, people, involved, would, hopefully, have, a, better, idea, of, how, to, handle, the, actual, crisis, and, a, better, idea, of, people’s, needs, for, example, the, farmers, these, are, long, term, effects, which, can’t, be, ignored, my, mum, came, out, for, a, couple, of, nights, she, loves, coming, out, to, see, us, as, she, lives, in, carlisle, it, is, a, total, change, of, scenery, she, thought, it, was, great, and, enjoyed, taking, my, dog, on, long, walks, which, she, was, unable, to, do, for, a, long, time, we, went, to, see, the, lambs, in, the, lovely, weather, shows, we, are, able, to, start, enjoying, the, countryside, again, especially, coming, up, to, spring, and, summer, we, were, even, able, to, go, to, dalston, with, my, dog, and, wander, about, we, have, been, so, used, to, having, to, stick, t, the, roads, just, in, the, local, area, it, was, lovely, a, nice, change, it, does, tend, to, make, you, more, confident, about, the, coming, year, and, we, are, looking, forward, to, the, summer, week, 4, 18th, march, this, past, week, started, of, with, a, day, out, at, bowness, i, went, with, my, fiancé, and, took, our, dog, dog, it, was, lovely, to, let, her, off, the, lead, to, run, she, really, enjoys, it, and, got, absolutely, filthy, travelling, in, the, car, is, becoming, easier, for, dog, and, she, goes, crazy, when, you, arrive, we, have, only, had, dog, just, over, 2, years, and, for, the, past, year, we, couldn’t, let, her, off, the, lead, to, run, anywhere, we, are, tiring, t, train, her, again, she, listens, to, a, certain, extent, but, we, have, to, keep, an, eye, on, her, cheeky, side, i, remember, wondering, when, the, foot, and, mouth, started, how, we, were, going, to, exercise, dog, as, walking, her, on, the, roads, used, to, be, more, difficult, due, to, the, large, vehicles, travelling, up, and, down, and, also, the, fact, dog, isn’t, the, best, on, the, lead, she, used, to, be, really, energetic, and, a, bit, of, a, handful, however, now, she, has, got, used, to, a, more, relaxed, life, and, at, times, i, think, she, quite, likes, it, it, did, us, all, good, to, have, some, exercise, and, fresh, air, and, it, was, lovely, to, have, a, change, of, scenery, apart, from, on, monday, i, haven’t, really, been, anywhere, else, apart, from, shopping, and, have, been, busy, doing, my, a, level, work, therefore, i, haven’t, really, noticed, anything, different, this, week, and, haven’t, thought, about, foot, and, mouth, as, much, my, overall, view, this, week, has, been, quite, confident, and, there, has, been, no, real, significant, happenings, to, change, my, view, quite, a, good, week, overall, week, 5, 25th, march, firstly, i, received, the, newsletter, sent, out, to, the, standing, panel, it, was, a, relief, to, finally, get, some, information, regarding, the, burial, site, it, was, good, to, have, an, explanation, on, how, things, work, on, the, site, in, terms, that, we, can, understand, it, is, a, relief, to, know, that, everything, so, far, is, still, safe, however, it, is, evident, that, there, is, much, more, work, and, monitoring, to, be, carried, out, in, the, future, even, though, it, is, still, not, possible, to, do, anything, ourselves, our, minds, are, at, least, put, at, rest, by, knowing, something, it, surprises, me, how, long, it, has, taken, for, information, like, this, to, be, made, accessible, to, the, public, i, think, this, newsletter, is, a, very, good, step, forward, as, information, is, reaching, the, public, and, participants, are, also, given, the, opportunity, to, ask, questions, and, put, other, ideas, forward, on, wednesday, my, mum, came, out, again, to, see, us, once, again, we, took, a, walk, to, go, see, the, lambs, in, the, field, near, us, it, was, enjoyable, and, we, had, lovely, weather, it, makes, you, realise, how, much, you, take, for, granted, around, you, without, thinking, twice, my, mum, has, made, me, realise, this, even, more, by, seeing, how, much, she, enjoys, such, a, simple, thing, and, how, special, she, thinks, it, is, sometimes, i, think, when, you, are, surrounded, by, the, country, and, nature, all, the, time, you, forget, how, lucky, you, are, my, mum, and, gran, would, both, love, to, live, somewhere, like, here, the, biggest, surprise, this, week, was, when, i, received, the, parish, magazine, for, the, month, and, found, in, it, the, watchtree, news, this, is, the, first, time, i, have, ever, seen, anything, like, this, from, the, parish, council, i, think, it, is, a, very, good, idea, as, the, information, will, be, accessible, to, everyone, in, the, appropriate, parishes, even, though, it, is, long, overdue, it, is, very, worthwhile, and, i, think, will, be, very, informative, it, covers, a, wide, range, of, issues, the, majority, of, which, i, knew, very, little, about, and, wouldn’t, have, known, for, the, future, for, example, the, maintenance, going, to, be, carried, out, between, the, a595, orton, grange, junction, and, the, site, entrance, at, least, we, now, have, knowledge, of, this, before, it, is, going, to, be, carried, out, as, it, will, affect, other, members, of, our, family, who, live, on, the, orton, grange, junction, who, would, otherwise, have, had, no, idea, some, of, the, information, was, surprising, for, example, the, number, of, tankers, that, leave, the, site, everyday, which, i, didn’t, expect, to, be, so, high, and, which, could, rise, important, issues, are, also, now, being, tackled, such, as, the, bad, state, of, the, local, roads, the, affected, people, are, also, being, encouraged, to, report, these, things, themselves, to, the, appropriate, people, i, think, this, has, been, a, significant, development, and, will, be, very, useful, in, the, aftermath, of, foot, and, mouth, communication, between, the, appropriate, authorities, and, the, public, is, essential, week, 6, 1st, april, unfortunately, it, has, been, all, go, this, week, one, bit, of, work, after, another, i, haven't, had, time, to, focus, on, very, much, else, this, past, week, despite, this, fact, i, have, still, had, quite, a, positive, week, it, is, better, studying, out, here, as, there, are, few, distractions, and, everything, is, lovely, and, peaceful, a, drastic, difference, from, last, year, at, that, time, it, was, difficult, to, concentrate, on, anything, for, too, long, far, too, many, distractions, my, fiancé, however, has, been, up, to, the, burial, site, and, nearby, on, sunday, he, went, for, a, drive, with, a, friend, and, wondered, what, it, looked, like, up, there, we, have, only, ever, seen, it, on, television, reports, but, never, been, up, there, ourselves, in, a, future, diary, when, he, has, time, he, will, write, a, few, words, on, what, he, thought, week, 7, 8th, april, once, again, this, week, has, been, full, of, work, i, haven't, had, much, time, to, do, anything, apart, from, work, on, thursday, i, had, a, break, and, my, mom, came, out, for, a, bbq, for, the, first, time, this, year, we, have, put, out, our, patio, tables, and, chairs, as, the, weather, was, staying, pleasant, we, sat, out, for, a, while, in, the, evening, and, had, our, bbq, it, was, a, lovely, break, for, my, mom, as, there, is, peace, and, quiet, out, here, as, opposed, to, in, town, we, all, really, enjoyed, it, my, mom, and, fiance, both, commented, how, lovely, it, was, to, sit, outside, in, the, nice, weather, without, a, nasty, smell, about, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, haven't, noticed, things, smelling, so, bad, as, on, a, few, occasions, recently, there, has, also, been, a, decrease, in, the, amount, of, birds, in, particular, crows, which, have, been, in, the, fields, to, the, south, of, where, we, are, near, the, crossroads, on, the, couple, of, occasions, during, the, week, when, i, have, been, past, the, fields, there, have, only, been, a, couple, of, birds, flying, around, as, opposed, to, a, whole, field, full, of, crows, at, one, time, it, was, also, lovely, to, hear, the, sheep, especially, as, the, evening, became, darker, in, the, background, you, could, hear, the, sheep, just, in, the, field, next, to, us, and, also, the, lambs, a, few, fields, away, it, was, something, which, we, still, aren't, quite, used, to, but, which, we, appreciate, so, much, more, now, week, 8, 15th, april, i, was, feeling, quite, confident, this, week, until, friday, when, watch, the, news, i, saw, the, report, on, new, bovine, tb, cases, which, are, worrying, even, though, it, is, said, it, wouldn’t, be, as, serious, as, foot, and, mouth, it, is, still, worrying, as, it, has, the, potential, to, destroy, many, more, lives, and, bankrupt, more, farmers, who, have, probably, just, got, over, foot, and, mouth, the, worry, must, be, especially, bad, for, the, farmers, as, it, is, bad, enough, for, the, general, public, especially, after, seeing, the, damage, caused, by, foot, and, mouth, in, such, a, short, space, of, time, it, would, be, absolutely, terrible, if, this, summer, was, anything, like, last, summer, how, long, would, it, take, for, everything, to, get, back, to, normal, then, even, though, foot, and, mouth, is, evidently, far, different, to, bovine, tb, hopefully, things, will, have, been, learned, from, last, year, which, will, prevent, this, from, becoming, a, disaster, too, apart, from, that, other, aspects, of, the, foot, and, mouth, smell, etc, haven’t, been, as, bad, this, past, week, i, haven’t, noticed, any, particular, occasions, when, the, smell, has, been, particularly, bad, or, noticeable, in, addition, on, the, occasions, when, i, have, driven, past, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, there, have, been, hardly, any, crows, near, there, which, is, a, huge, improvement, there, were, a, number, of, seagulls, in, one, field, but, nowhere, near, the, amount, of, crows, there, were, before, there, has, also, been, a, decrease, in, the, amount, of, tankers, going, by, recently, that, i, have, noticed, at, first, i, didn’t, take, much, notice, of, it, but, then, fiancé, s, grandad, mentioned, that, he, had, hardly, seen, any, he, seems, to, notice, them, move, more, than, we, do, as, he, lives, on, the, orton, grange, junction, with, wigton, road, and, they, all, have, to, go, past, there, with, all, these, things, happening, the, presence, of, the, burial, site, nearby, seems, less, obvious, week, 9, 22nd, april, the, last, week, has, been, quite, a, pleasant, week, probably, because, i, have, eventually, finished, my, coursework, and, have, been, able, to, have, a, bit, of, peace, and, quiet, i, think, this, combined, with, periods, of, lovely, weather, have, made, me, feel, quite, good, on, tuesday, when, i, travelled, to, town, and, back, i, went, past, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, to, the, south, of, the, village, which, in, the, past, have, been, full, of, crows, or, seagulls, as, i, have, noticed, on, other, odd, occasions, over, the, past, week, they, appear, to, be, empty, now, i’ll, keep, an, eye, on, how, this, changes, over, the, summer, if, it, does, on, friday, i, noticed, that, there, were, a, number, of, cattle, and, calves, in, the, field, just, opposite, our, house, i, can, stand, and, watch, them, from, my, back, patio, doors, which, is, lovely, with, the, reintroduction, of, the, sheep, and, cattle, in, the, area, it, is, like, everything, is, coming, together, finally, after, the, foot, and, mouth, and, life, is, returning, to, normal, in, some, sense, the, cattle, seem, to, be, the, last, part, needed, for, everything, to, seem, to, be, running, properly, and, the, animals, finally, moving, about, at, last, i, think, this, fact, combine, with, their, being, no, significant, incidents, of, nasty, smells, or, the, rumbling, of, the, tankers, going, by, has, made, things, seem, better, when, talking, to, fiance, s, grandad, he, mentioned, again, that, there, still, haven’t, been, as, many, tankers, going, past, his, house, at, orton, grange, as, there, have, been, this, past, week, there, have, been, hardly, any, reminders, of, the, burial, site, and, the, past, foot, and, mouth, problems, living, in, the, country, has, seemed, quite, normal, after, what, seems, a, long, time, week, 10, 29th, april, all, in, all, this, week, has, been, a, good, week, overall, with, regard, to, the, foot, and, mouth, everything, seems, to, have, quietened, down, and, there, are, hardly, any, visible, reminders, of, the, burial, site, and, foot, and, mouth, around, the, village, as, i, mentioned, last, week, there, still, haven’t, been, any, noticeable, occasions, of, smells, possibly, from, the, burial, site, the, tankers, have, hardly, been, noticeable, around, the, village, and, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, have, still, been, fairly, empty, of, birds, in, particular, crows, this, was, explained, and, backed, up, in, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazines, which, i, received, this, week, it, was, good, to, read, and, very, informative, worth, reading, i, still, think, it, is, a, good, idea, and, is, being, done, well, as, it, discusses, issues, happening, now, and, also, keeps, you, informed, about, action, in, the, future, the, newsletter, mentioned, the, reduction, in, the, amount, of, tankers, which, i, have, noticed, it, also, mentions, that, there, might, be, a, slight, smell, from, the, burial, sited, during, work, but, so, far, i, haven’t, noticed, anything, once, again, it, has, been, lovely, seeing, both, the, sheep, and, the, cows, in, the, surrounding, fields, especially, at, the, moment, when, they, are, with, their, young, on, saturday, on, the, way, down, to, fiance, s, grandad, there, were, road, works, near, the, baldwinholme, bend, in, the, road, this, part, was, in, a, bad, condition, and, is, now, much, better, i, think, the, damage, was, caused, by, the, trucks, etc, used, during, foot, and, mouth, however, i’m, not, sure, week, 11, 6th, may, this, week, has, been, my, 21st, birthday, i’m, growing, up, i, had, a, lovely, day, on, thursday, and, as, a, surprise, i, was, taken, t, the, lake, district, for, the, day, it, was, lovely, and, i, really, enjoyed, it, firstly, we, stopped, off, at, bassenthwaite, lake, for, a, bit, fed, the, ducks, and, had, a, picnic, then, off, to, dodd, wood, for, a, coffee, and, to, see, the, ospreys, it, was, great, to, see, them, and, i, think, we, were, quite, lucky, then, we, had, a, pleasant, walk, around, myre, house, i, was, reminded, of, how, lucky, we, are, in, cumbria, to, have, such, lovely, places, and, i, am, glad, that, we, are, now, able, to, go, to, these, places, again, now, we’ve, got, a, car, we, are, going, to, take, better, advantage, of, cumbria, and, what, it, has, to, offer, once, again, i, realised, how, much, we, take, what, we, have, for, granted, overall, this, has, been, a, good, week, and, reminders, of, foot, and, mouth, and, the, burial, site, have, been, minimal, there, have, been, no, smells, i, have, noticed, and, hardly, any, signs, of, wagons, it, is, still, lovely, to, see, the, sheep, and, cattle, around, the, village, week, 12, 13th, may, on, wednesday, i, met, my, mum, in, town, and, got, the, cumberland, news, off, her, i, was, reading, about, the, county, council, inquiry, at, kendal, i, think, it, is, good, how, the, different, people, involved, in, the, inquiry, are, all, being, honest, about, what, happened, that, is, the, only, way, anything, will, be, improved, in, the, future, if, anything, of, a, similar, nature, should, happen, again, i, really, hope, it, doesn’t, from, reading, the, articles, written, and, what, people, have, said, it, is, clear, what, a, wide, range, of, people, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, affected, and, also, how, badly, when, you, read, of, other, people, who, have, had, family, who, have, been, so, low, it, has, driven, them, to, suicide, you, do, seem, to, feel, a, bit, guilty, as, when, we, complain, it, hasn’t, affected, us, is, such, a, drastic, way, it, brings, the, seriousness, and, the, extent, of, the, crisis, to, people’s, attention, despite, the, terrible, things, which, took, place, during, the, crisis, hopefully, some, good, will, come, out, of, it, for, the, present, and, the, future, on, thursday, fiance, went, to, the, doctor’s, and, was, talking, to, a, farmer, in, the, waiting, room, as, soon, as, fiance, mentioned, he, lived, in, great, orton, the, farmer, asked, straight, away, what, it, was, like, to, live, here, so, near, to, the, burial, site, and, how, he, couldn’t, imagine, what, it, would, have, been, like, it, too, has, been, such, a, long, time, since, anyone, has, said, anything, like, that, to, either, one, of, us, at, the, time, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, people, used, to, ask, questions, and, what, it, was, like, to, live, so, near, it, is, strange, when, farmers, in, particular, feel, sympathy, towards, you, for, living, near, the, burial, site, when, on, the, other, hand, it, is, the, farmers, i, feel, sympathy, for, before, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, a, fair, number, of, people, even, from, carlisle, didn’t, know, where, great, orton, was, but, now, many, do, and, realise, how, close, to, carlisle, it, actually, is, week, 13, 20th, may, i, haven't, really, done, anything, very, exciting, this, past, week, unfortunately, i've, been, revising, again, and, preparing, for, a, presentation, for, my, a, level, which, i, have, to, do, next, week, my, presentation, was, on, turrets, and, watchtowers, which, i, found, a, bit, confusing, at, first, from, the, books, i've, been, using, so, dragged, fiance, to, drive, and, dog, out, past, brampton, to, hadrian's, wall, there, i, found, a, watchtower, and, a, turret, everything, became, much, clearer, on, the, way, back, we, spotted, a, sign, for, a, camping, barn, on, hadrian's, wall, banks, east, we, were, both, very, interested, so, sent, away, for, the, brochure, at, this, point, we, decided, to, reconsider, our, holiday, plans, and, realised, we, didn't, need, to, go, far, afield, like, amsterdam, our, 1st, choice, then, scotland, 2nd, choice, we, hadn't, realised, actually, how, many, places, there, were, so, nearby, which, were, ideal, we, came, to, the, conclusion, a, holiday, in, cumbria, would, be, the, best, choice, as, 1, we, could, take, dog, with, us, 2, we, could, go, by, car, and, 3, it, would, be, a, bit, cheaper, as, fiance, mentioned, it, would, also, be, good, after, everything, to, put, the, money, we, were, spending, back, into, cumbria, we, were, hoping, to, go, next, week, as, it, is, half, term, the, week, after, and, my, exams, after, that, hopefully, we, will, get, something, organised, on, thursday, we, got, the, orton, newsletter, fiance, and, i, were, both, quite, disappointed, when, we, read, that, land, around, this, area, are, being, sold, for, the, building, of, houses, it, is, good, in, a, way, as, people, are, moving, forward, after, f, m, but, we, wish, it, wasn't, in, a, residential, sense, it, is, just, a, pity, so, much, of, the, farming, will, be, lost, 6, houses, at, baldwinholme, 4, in, great, orton, even, though, i, haven't, been, brought, up, with, a, farming, background, from, what, i, have, seen, it, would, be, a, pity, for, us, to, lose, this, part, of, our, countryside, week, 14, 27th, may, on, monday, saw, cb, and, was, pleased, to, hear, the, f, m, standing, panel, project, was, going, well, as, i, think, it’s, worthwhile, and, as, much, as, possible, should, be, learned, for, the, future, on, tuesday, i, attended, the, meeting, for, the, foot, and, mouth, disease, inquiry, at, great, orton, village, hall, at, 7pm, i, was, glad, i, attended, the, meeting, as, people, could, voice, their, opinions, and, try, to, get, information, about, issues, both, about, the, present, and, the, future, my, general, view, of, the, meeting, and, how, it, went, was, that, the, general, feeling, of, the, villagers, etc, was, that, they, were, losing, interest, and, nothing, was, still, being, done, there, were, many, empty, seats, i, estimated, a, total, number, of, 50, 60, people, there, was, a, whole, new, panel, of, faces, even, though, this, was, a, new, inquiry, so, there, were, new, people, on, the, panel, but, between, the, meetings, there, is, no, feel, of, continuity, as, no, one, is, sure, of, what, has, been, said, before, and, there, are, never, the, answers, promised, from, one, meeting, to, another, it, seems, as, if, this, is, a, way, of, avoiding, answers, and, getting, out, of, situations, there, were, new, aspects, which, were, brought, up, which, had, not, yet, been, disclosed, never, at, any, meeting, i, have, attended, such, as, the, fact, the, burial, was, planned, and, used, for, the, burial, of, uninfected, animals, which, is, not, what, we, were, led, to, believe, with, al, the, engineering, on, site, again, this, is, lack, of, communication, and, no, one, is, sure, of, the, facts, defra, also, are, only, guaranteeing, funding, for, this, site, for, the, next, 5, years, and, it, is, worrying, who’s, burden, this, will, become, after, then, a, variety, of, other, issues, were, discussed, health, roads, handling, of, outbreak, vaccination, etc, after, the, meeting, i, was, glad, i, had, been, however, i, felt, rather, angry, by, the, way, in, which, the, questions, are, handled, the, answers, are, often, vague, have, no, supporting, evidence, or, are, dismissed, with, i’ll, have, to, get, back, to, you, on, that, or, i, can’t, comment, in, my, opinion, many, of, the, farmers, villagers, etc, just, want, this, whole, thing, brought, to, an, end, ideally, the, remaining, trenches, filled, in, a, nature, reserve, created, and, maintained, there, were, no, guarantees, of, the, site, not, being, used, again, or, funding, after, the, next, five, years, will, this, ever, be, achieved, on, saturday, morning, fiance, and, i, decided, to, go, away, for, a, short, break, to, somewhere, near, and, where, we, could, take, dog, it, was, a, spontaneous, decision, for, the, jubilee, and, because, it, was, half, term, i, was, not, at, college, we, ended, up, going, to, a, caravan, site, with, dog, for, 4, nights, i, will, update, about, my, holiday, in, the, next, diary, clipping, from, news, and, star, here, story, about, great, orton, public, meeting, and, villagers, request, not, to, have, site, used, again, in, the, event, of, future, emergencies, holiday, week, beginning, monday, 3rd, june, week, 15, 10th, june, i, am, writing, this, a, couple, of, days, early, just, to, tell, you, about, our, holiday, it, was, lovely, in, the, end, we, hadn't, yet, received, the, brochure, on, the, camping, barns, so, on, saturday, we, decided, we, would, like, to, go, away, as, son, as, possible, and, would, like, something, for, the, jubilee, weekend, after, finding, a, caravan, at, caldbeck, not, far, away, relatively, quiet, we, went, by, 5, pm, on, saturday, fiance, dog, and, i, were, there, it, was, a, lovely, caravan, site, lovely, caravan, and, even, a, tv, for, the, world, cup, the, caravan, site, was, surrounded, by, common, land, sheep, lovely, and, quiet, and, a, lot, of, places, to, keep, dog, occupied, we, were, so, surprised, at, how, quiet, the, campsite, was, over, the, jubilee, weekend, but, thought, most, of, the, people, actually, lived, there, it, would, be, lovely, in, the, future, to, have, a, small, caravan, there, to, go, away, to, the, surrounding, places, we, went, to, were, really, busy, for, example, keswick, bassenthwaite, etc, i, was, quite, surprised, but, thought, it, was, great, to, see, cumbria, lively, again, what, a, contrast, to, what, i, would, have, imagined, these, places, to, be, like, a, year, ago, especially, for, the, jubilee, everyone, seemed, to, make, such, an, effort, it, was, lovely, to, see, we, all, had, a, lovely, time, so, relaxing, oi, don't, think, dog, has, ever, walked, so, far, we, were, surprised, that, somewhere, so, close, was, exactly, what, we, wanted, we, were, also, happy, we, could, put, our, money, back, into, cumbria, we, would, definitely, go, back, i, feel, so, much, more, confident, about, the, future, especially, in, cumbria, after, this, week, if, you, didn't, know, about, last, year, f, m, outbreak, in, some, cases, it, would, be, hard, to, tell, i, really, think, cumbria, seems, as, if, it, could, recover, from, this, hopefully, on, saturday, and, sunday, ill, in, bed, week, 16, 17th, june, with, the, combination, of, not, feeling, very, well, at, the, beginning, of, the, week, the, car, not, running, overt, the, week, end, and, dog, being, in, season, i, haven't, really, been, able, to, go, anywhere, this, week, it, has, been, quite, frustrating, but, i, have, had, work, to, do, anyway, i, still, feel, quite, confident, about, the, future, this, week, after, being, on, holiday, this, is, better, than, a, couple, of, weeks, ago, after, the, fmd, inquiry, meeting, when, i, felt, quite, unsure, at, time, of, what, was, going, to, happen, at, gt, orton, i, had, the, f, m, panel, newsletter, and, watchtree, newsletter, with, parish, magazine, i, think, both, of, these, are, good, as, you, are, able, to, gain, information, consistently, about, f, m, in, cumbria, and, in, particular, the, burial, site, this, information, would, be, difficult, to, come, by, otherwise, in, particular, i, enjoyed, reading, about, children, at, milburn, school, with, their, memories, of, the, f, m, outbreak, and, the, effort, they, have, made, researcher, had, spoken, with, respondent, about, possibility, of, monthly, diary, and, she, decided, to, start, straight, away, so, although, middle, of, month, here, follows, monthly, write, up, she, continued, to, record, her, diary, in, this, way, at, times, she, offers, short, daily, entries, drawing, 4, weeks, together, within, an, overall, reflective, piece, these, daily, entries, are, also, recorded, week, 20, 15th, july, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, i, am, looking, forward, to, attending, the, social, evening, in, dalston, i, am, a, bit, nervous, as, am, not, used, to, doing, these, sorts, of, things, but, think, it, will, be, a, good, experience, i, was, also, pleased, when, i, got, the, f, m, panel, newsletter, and, saw, the, article, i, made, notes, for, i, have, never, done, anything, like, this, before, and, was, quite, pleased, about, the, whole, thing, on, the, saturday, of, week, one, fiance, and, i, went, down, to, fiance, s, grandad's, and, noticed, there, were, more, signs, up, for, land, being, for, sale, again, we, both, think, this, is, quite, sad, as, the, area, will, inevitable, be, changing, in, the, near, future, we, wonder, how, much, of, the, land, will, be, reused, for, farming, or, sold, for, new, houses, taking, into, consideration, the, signs, we, have, seen, up, in, the, past, quite, a, bit, of, land, is, going, to, change, over, the, past, weeks, i, have, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, with, our, parish, magazine, i, still, think, this, is, a, good, idea, and, worthwhile, as, you, are, updated, every, so, often, this, will, also, reach, everyone, in, the, village, so, easily, accessible, over, a, period, of, a, few, days, in, week, 2, of, these, 4, weeks, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, a, strange, smell, outside, we, could, smell, it, here, but, not, at, fiance, s, grandad's, which, is, only, 2, miles, away, it, smelt, just, like, a, burning, smell, so, i, am, not, sure, whether, it, had, anything, to, do, with, the, burial, site, or, anything, being, done, up, there, i, just, thought, i, would, mention, it, anyway, last, wednesday, i, rang, up, the, archaeological, support, group, in, carlisle, of, which, i, have, been, a, member, for, the, past, year, and, a, half, i, had, never, been, sent, anything, to, do, with, it, for, along, time, and, wondered, why, it, turns, out, that, last, year, as, soon, as, f, m, hit, cumbria, everything, was, cancelled, and, stopped, this, i, knew, at, the, time, and, there, was, nothing, else, that, could, have, happened, the, thing, i, didn't, realise, was, that, things, have, been, so, badly, affected, that, nothing, has, been, arranged, as, yet, even, so, many, months, after, f, m, broke, out, once, again, this, is, another, example, of, how, things, have, been, affected, still, so, many, months, after, there, is, also, uncertainty, about, the, future, of, this, archaeology, group, as, nothing, has, been, decided, yet, and, it, will, depend, on, how, things, go, this, is, a, pity, and, i, hope, things, pick, up, in, the, future, on, the, first, week, of, these, 4, weeks, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, that, we, were, coughing, a, bit, more, especially, at, night, and, early, in, the, morning, since, then, fiance, has, got, better, and, is, not, coughing, as, much, but, now, i, have, got, a, sore, throat, and, a, cold, i, don't, think, this, is, anything, to, do, with, the, burial, site, or, anything, but, we, were, not, sure, about, the, coughing, and, i, thought, i, would, mention, it, 12th, august, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, i, do, not, feel, quite, as, nervous, now, as, i, did, about, the, evening, at, dalston, village, hall, it, was, a, bit, intimidating, at, first, as, i, was, going, on, the, same, night, as, frontline, workers, and, health, professionals, i, felt, a, bit, out, of, my, depth, when, i, wondered, what, sort, of, stories, they, would, be, telling, compared, to, what, i, had, seen, these, people, would, have, had, to, deal, with, the, situation, first, hand, and, must, have, seen, some, terrible, things, after, a, couple, of, weeks, i, grew, used, to, the, idea, and, didn't, feel, as, bad, it, would, turn, out, to, be, a, good, experience, as, it, turns, out, the, evening, is, now, on, the, 21st, august, and, everyone, is, going, together, things, will, be, a, bit, more, relaxed, for, me, i, think, i, hope, i, will, be, able, to, make, it, the, one, major, event, that, has, made, me, think, over, the, past, couple, of, week, is, fiance, s, auntie, jean, who, has, moved, house, from, orton, grange, 2, miles, away, from, us, into, the, middle, of, town, it, made, me, think, that, i, definitely, wouldn't, like, to, move, back, into, the, middle, of, carlisle, after, living, here, even, though, it, hasn't, been, the, most, pleasant, at, times, here, with, f, m, last, year, and, the, building, of, the, burial, site, i, would, still, miss, everything, about, it, once, again, i, am, reminded, how, lucky, i, am, to, be, surrounded, by, fields, cows, sheep, and, a, horse, in, the, overlooking, field, it, is, also, usually, quiet, and, peaceful, i, can, imagine, quite, different, to, the, middle, of, carlisle, i, think, jean, will, miss, it, quite, a, lot, just, over, a, week, ago, fiance, and, i, were, busy, getting, our, garden, ready, for, the, village, in, bloom, it, was, good, to, see, everyone, making, an, effort, to, everything, looking, nice, everything, felt, a, bit, more, normal, this, year, whereas, last, year, i, think, the, village, in, bloom, was, the, last, thing, on, most, people's, minds, it, made, me, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, perhaps, everything, or, most, things, may, return, to, normal, eventually, week, 24, 12th, august, nothing, extremely, significant, concerning, f, m, has, happened, this, week, i, have, noticed, though, now, when, working, at, village, pub, wellington, even, though, i, only, do, 1, day, it, has, really, become, quite, busy, i, think, business, has, improved, after, they, tried, more, advertising, i, can, remember, back, to, during, the, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, it, was, very, quiet, most, people, stayed, away, and, the, atmosphere, in, the, pub, was, very, depressing, now, over, a, year, later, things, do, seem, to, be, picking, up, again, and, perhaps, returning, more, to, normal, it, is, god, to, see, monday, 19th, august, all, in, all, it, has, been, a, quiet, week, i, haven’t, really, been, out, very, much, and, not, feeling, well, really, i, was, a, bit, disappointed, not, being, able, to, attend, the, social, evening, o, wednesday, as, my, mom, was, unable, to, get, time, off, work, or, change, her, shift, 26th, august, first, of, all, we, were, noticing, problems, with, our, goldfish, when, we, first, got, them, about, two, and, a, half, years, ago, we, had, very, few, problems, with, them, over, the, past, few, months, they, have, been, getting, ill, we, have, tried, all, sorts, different, chemicals, and, still, they, have, all, died, except, one, omar, fiance, s, cousin, who, breeds, fish, came, and, had, a, look, and, was, baffled, the, only, explanation, is, that, the, chemicals, have, been, changed, or, increased, for, example, the, chlorine, which, there, appears, to, be, a, lot, more, of, we, obviously, aren’t, totally, sure, what, the, problem, is, but, thought, we, should, mention, it, anyway, this, week, i, also, noticed, the, banner, opposite, the, village, shop, in, the, village, i, have, enclosed, an, article, about, this, banner, which, appeared, in, the, cumberland, news, this, week, i, think, this, sums, up, the, mood, i, have, noticed, at, the, village, meetings, nothing, has, yet, been, done, to, help, the, villagers, etc, so, what, difference, have, the, promises, made, this, is, the, main, reason, why, i, feel, less, confident, about, the, future, this, week, regarding, foot, and, mouth, as, these, things, are, still, dragging, on, monday, 2nd, september, during, the, first, week, of, these, diaries, nothing, really, significant, happened, regarding, foot, and, mouth, i, did, comment, however, that, when, working, at, the, pub, on, sundays, how, busy, the, pub, was, and, how, business, had, seemed, to, improve, a, lot, from, what, i, had, seen, during, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, the, atmosphere, then, had, been, depressing, this, made, me, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, regarding, foot, and, mouth, as, another, aspect, of, the, foot, and, mouth, had, seemed, to, return, back, to, normal, this, mood, however, did, change, during, the, third, week, of, these, diaries, when, i, felt, less, confident, about, the, future, it, all, began, when, our, goldfish, started, dying, apart, from, oner, we, still, are, not, sure, exactly, what, caused, it, and, are, not, sure, whether, or, not, it, was, because, of, the, water, here, or, something, we, did, there, just, seems, to, be, that, little, bit, of, doubt, in, my, mind, as, you, don’t, feel, totally, sure, about, what, is, happening, in, this, area, still, and, therefore, i, don’t, think, really, trust, the, organisations, dealing, with, these, issues, the, other, thing, that, seemed, to, sum, up, some, of, my, feelings, was, the, banner, which, appeared, opposite, the, village, shop, last, week, i, think, this, shows, the, desperation, and, lengths, some, of, the, people, in, the, village, have, to, go, through, in, order, to, get, noticed, and, heard, it, seems, ridiculous, that, the, same, basic, issues, brought, up, in, the, earlier, meetings, have, still, not, been, dealt, with, it, does, make, you, lose, the, trust, you, had, in, the, organisations, involved, article, enclosed, this, past, week, has, been, a, little, better, however, not, that, good, i, did, receive, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazine, which, is, still, good, to, receive, as, it, updates, you, on, a, number, of, different, aspects, of, the, burial, site, i, also, heard, about, the, article, in, the, newspaper, regarding, this, inquiry, from, cathy, as, well, as, my, mom, who, has, saved, it, for, me, but, as, yet, i, have, not, read, it, i, will, comment, on, this, in, my, next, diary, 9, 15, september, monday, got, free, news, star, last, week, and, found, article, on, f, m, diaries, not, too, bothered, that, it, has, been, printed, myself, tuesday, saw, cathy, said, about, articles, not, too, bothered, myself, but, can, see, why, otherwise, involved, would, be, as, things, are, not, represented, in, the, right, way, and, are, misleading, good, point, though, is, that, it, may, catch, people’s, attention, and, get, the, point, across, that, people, are, still, suffering, got, article, from, cumberland, news, mum, saturday, found, article, in, cumberland, news, regarding, village, in, bloom, won, a, trophy, for, our, special, efforts, in, village, in, aftermath, of, f, m, crisis, mark, andrews, trophy, 16, 22, september, monday, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, burning, smell, when, we, came, back, home, in, the, evening, not, sure, what, it, is, from, reminds, us, of, f, m, crisis, wednesday, road, works, in, village, didn’t, affect, us, too, much, thursday, road, works, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad’s, annoying, at, times, has, taken, such, a, long, time, to, do, reminds, us, of, f, m, crisis, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, burning, smell, again, not, sure, where, from, friday, good, that, watchtree, newsletter, told, us, of, these, road, works, as, wouldn’t, have, known, saturday, these, aspects, aren’t, too, bad, on, their, own, but, the, atmosphere, reminds, you, of, the, f, m, crisis, last, year, 23, 29, september, monday, read, the, diarist, and, also, had, a, look, at, the, inquiry, report, i, was, sent, after, attending, the, village, meeting, tuesday, have, not, had, time, to, read, very, much, of, it, but, i, will, get, round, to, it, and, then, comment, on, it, friday, parish, magazine, and, watchtree, newsletter, still, good, to, be, updated, on, what, is, going, on, 1, roads, and, 2, visiting, the, site, 30, 6th, october, monday, rang, up, to, book, table, at, the, autumn, fayre, being, done, in, village, hall, people, pleased, that, people, in, village, getting, involved, tuesday, water, has, been, quite, bad, especially, on, tuesday, full, of, chlorine, had, to, leave, for, a, while, for, everything, to, evaporate, makes, you, quite, concerned, about, whether, or, not, it, is, safe, to, drink, 6th, october, writing, after, 4, weeks, during, week, i, read, the, articles, regarding, those, f, m, diaries, which, appeared, in, the, cumberland, news, and, the, news, and, star, they, are, enclosed, after, reading, these, and, speaking, to, c, i, myself, wasn’t, too, bothered, or, offended, by, what, was, written, but, could, easily, have, seen, why, other, people, would, have, been, specially, if, they, are, finding, things, really, difficult, i, think, there, is, a, good, side, to, these, articles, as, well, though, as, they, will, have, grabbed, people’s, attention, and, highlighted, the, fact, that, there, are, still, problems, regarding, f, m, this, long, after, the, crisis, even, though, the, articles, were, misleading, they, have, also, done, some, good, when, reading, the, cumberland, news, i, also, found, a, mention, of, great, orton, regarding, the, village, in, bloom, it, turns, out, we, were, awarded, the, mark, andrews, trophy, for, special, efforts, during, the, aftermath, of, f, m, it, would, have, been, nice, to, win, a, better, award, but, at, least, we, were, recognised, for, something, i, was, quite, please, week, 2, was, probably, the, worst, week, i, have, had, during, the, past, month, regarding, f, m, as, the, whole, week, just, seemed, to, remind, me, of, what, it, was, like, during, the, crisis, firstly, there, were, road, works, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad’s, only, 2, miles, away, i, understand, these, had, to, be, carried, out, but, it, made, it, difficult, and, inconvenient, to, get, to, fiance, s, grandad’s, as, you, didn’t, know, which, roads, were, gong, to, be, closed, when, now, that, the, work, has, been, done, everyone, that, i, have, spoken, to, about, it, think, they, will, cause, more, trouble, than, before, as, when, you, pull, out, of, the, lay, bys, it, is, dangerous, as, the, grass, and, verge, have, not, been, smoothed, out, i, think, they, are, alright, if, you, already, know, the, roads, but, i, wouldn’t, be, as, confident, if, i, hadn’t, driven, on, them, before, the, other, aspect, which, made, the, road, works, seem, worse, were, two, instances, when, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, a, burning, smell, monday, and, thursday, we, were, not, sure, where, this, came, from, but, it, still, reminded, us, of, the, crisis, on, week, 3, i, received, a, copy, of, the, f, m, inquiry, and, glad, i, went, to, a, meting, in, the, village, sometimes, it, feels, good, to, be, involved, even, though, in, such, a, small, way, i, also, received, the, diarist, newsletter, and, watchtree, newsletter, which, i, am, still, glad, i, receive, without, the, watchtree, newsletter, i, don’t, think, i, would, have, been, informed, of, the, road, works, being, carried, out, i, am, also, glad, the, site, is, progressing, and, that, people, are, now, being, given, the, opportunity, to, visit, the, site, if, they, wish, on, week, 4, there, was, only, one, major, problem, with, our, water, on, tuesday, the, water, was, that, full, of, chlorine, that, we, had, to, leave, it, for, all, the, chlorine, in, it, to, evaporate, or, boil, it, even, to, give, dog, a, drink, this, is, the, second, time, this, has, happened, and, it, does, concern, you, as, firstly, why, is, this, being, done, and, secondly, is, the, water, safe, to, drink, we, are, not, sure, who, to, contact, about, this, as, last, time, we, contacted, united, utilities, who, said, it, was, just, routine, and, nothing, to, worry, about, week, beginning, 7th, october, not, much, this, week, regarding, fmd, think, i, have, been, too, busy, thinking, about, other, things, week, beginning, 14th, october, monday, relaxing, a, bit, today, as, going, to, be, a, busy, day, tomorrow, and, away, on, wednesday, tuesday, fiance, s, exam, turned, out, to, be, quiet, here, today, which, was, good, for, fiance, s, exam, as, he, did, it, at, home, would, have, been, difficult, last, year, with, pressure, of, f, m, weds, away, on, holiday, it, was, a, bit, of, a, drive, to, what, we, are, used, to, but, we, made, it, lovely, views, on, way, down, and, hawkshead, a, lovely, place, thursday, this, holiday, very, well, suited, for, dog, as, plenty, of, places, to, walk, a, quiet, campsite, and, shops, and, pubs, which, are, suited, for, dogs, things, she, is, not, quite, used, to, friday, lovely, to, be, away, for, a, break, away, from, great, orton, on, the, one, hand, but, then, you, remember, how, nice, it, is, where, we, are, and, how, luck, we, are, on, the, other, hand, sunday, had, a, very, good, week, and, confident, about, the, future, week, beginning, 21st, october, monday, having, quiet, week, as, just, got, back, quite, tired, but, coping, ok, nice, to, be, back, in, a, way, weds, got, watchtree, newsletters, in, parish, magazine, also, article, out, of, news, and, star, i, think, about, renaming, of, site, and, farm, that, used, to, be, there, thursday, watchtree, newsletter, interested, in, the, open, day, think, it’s, a, good, idea, and, will, be, very, interesting, especially, geology, and, fossil, remains, found, on, site, i, think, would, be, beneficial, as, even, though, we, live, in, the, village, and, have, been, to, the, meetings, still, have, little, idea, of, how, the, site, looks, now, and, will, in, the, future, week, beginning, 28th, october, weds, went, to, meet, mom, in, town, the, roads, into, town, were, terrible, mud, on, road, everywhere, and, really, busy, with, trucks, etc, must, be, where, they, are, doing, new, building, hope, it, doesn’t, get, like, this, all, the, time, as, so, much, land, round, here, seems, to, have, been, sold, for, new, construction, sat, mom, has, got, her, own, stall, this, week, end, at, the, craft, fair, in, the, village, hall, 1st, time, she, has, done, this, saw, it, in, parish, newsletter, 2nd, november, writing, after, 4, weeks, this, past, month, has, been, one, of, the, busiest, i, have, had, for, a, long, time, firstly, there, was, fiance, s, final, exam, which, was, quite, stressful, for, him, at, times, revising, and, everything, it, reminded, me, of, how, difficult, it, had, been, when, we, were, doing, our, first, exams, a, year, and, a, half, before, during, f, m, crisis, studying, had, been, very, difficult, then, due, to, constant, interruptions, and, distractions, constant, sound, of, trucks, smells, noise, tension, i’m, so, glad, it, wasn’t, this, bad, this, year, as, these, things, can, be, stressful, enough, shortly, after, fiance, s, exam, fiance, my, mom, and, i, went, for, a, short, break, to, hawkshead, it, was, great, we, all, enjoyed, it, and, dog, especially, everything, was, suited, for, dog, we, took, her, shopping, there, are, benches, and, water, bowls, outside, every, shop, we, went, for, a, bar, meal, and, sat, outside, with, her, and, on, our, last, night, even, too, her, with, us, and, went, for, a, pint, apart, from, these, things, we, also, took, her, on, plenty, of, walks, being, there, made, you, realise, how, lovely, cumbria, is, and, how, people, who, don’t, live, here, are, attracted, to, it, it, is, a, pity, how, cumbria, suffered, during, f, m, crisis, as, it, is, such, a, lovely, place, i, do, hope, that, due, to, the, large, amount, of, attractions, in, cumbria, that, things, will, hopefully, be, back, to, normal, as, can, be, expected, i, was, quite, surprised, at, how, busy, things, were, for, that, time, of, year, it, seems, things, must, be, improving, which, makes, you, confident, i, enjoyed, my, break, but, you, realise, maybe, great, orton, isn’t, such, a, bad, place, to, come, back, to, during, the, past, month, i, have, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, i’m, quite, interested, in, the, open, day, later, on, this, month, i, think, it, will, be, very, interesting, i’m, really, interested, in, the, geology, history, of, the, site, and, also, fossils, found, there, during, this, work, i, don’t, know, much, about, how, the, site, looks, or, how, it, will, be, in, the, future, it, is, amazing, that, you, can, live, so, near, but, still, have, no, idea, of, what, it, is, like, all, i, can, seem, to, remember, are, the, pictures, that, were, shown, on, the, news, months, ago, it, seems, difficult, to, imagine, it, any, different, this, past, week, has, been, very, busy, as, my, mom, is, having, a, stall, for, the, first, time, at, the, craft, fair, in, the, village, hall, i, have, been, helping, her, a, little, bit, and, helped, her, on, the, stall, i, just, sat, with, her, really, she, decided, to, have, a, go, as, she, likes, crafts, and, is, always, making, things, it, was, nice, to, be, involved, in, the, village, and, the, money, from, the, hiring, of, the, stalls, went, to, the, church, which, is, good, it, was, very, quiet, on, saturday, though, and, apparently, that, was, the, worst, it’s, been, for, a, few, years, i, wonder, if, this, is, an, effect, of, the, f, m, however, the, weather, and, other, factors, may, have, contributed, week, beginning, monday, 11th, november, tuesday, fiance, doctors, wednesday, me, dentist, and, in, town, with, mam, missed, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, disappointed, but, got, an, article, from, the, cumberland, news, this, is, included, i, haven’t, spoke, with, anyone, that, went, no, one, has, mentioned, anything, to, me, disappointed, i, missed, it, and, also, because, this, is, probably, one, of, the, only, opportunities, we, will, get, to, know, anything, fiance, and, i, both, agree, it, is, still, like, a, big, secret, no, one, really, allowed, in, and, out, it, doesn’t, feel, like, local, people, are, benefiting, at, all, is, it, anything, to, do, with, us, really, friday, children, in, need, at, the, pub, yesterday, nice, to, see, people, taking, part, again, big, difference, to, during, foot, and, mouth, we, just, made, a, donation, it, was, a, bit, busy, for, us, 1045, raised, sunday, work, at, pub, still, very, busy, the, pub, at, least, it, seems, to, have, recovered, after, f, m, but, from, what, i, have, heard, they, did, suffer, badly, along, with, the, other, businesses, here, week, beginning, 18th, november, tuesday, should, have, been, playing, darts, at, port, carlisle, had, a, break, for, a, week, the, thing, that, is, worrying, about, playing, darts, away, is, the, travelling, some, of, the, country, roads, round, here, are, terrible, is, this, because, of, the, wagons, especially, near, wiggonby, the, road, at, fiance, s, granddad, just, gets, worse, it’s, just, mud, and, less, grass, terrible, is, it, because, of, damage, done, by, wagons, and, a, combination, of, all, the, flooding, in, the, area, now, saturday, fiance, and, i, talking, about, how, the, area, has, changed, we, remembered, back, to, 4, years, ago, when, we, used, to, go, to, the, airfield, burial, site, for, some, peace, even, though, only, rubble, then, really, enjoyed, it, there, we, could, take, the, dog, had, first, driving, lesson, off, fiance, not, again, had, some, fun, and, really, miss, it, at, times, nowhere, round, here, anymore, to, get, peace, can’t, even, enjoy, the, nature, reserve, very, frustrating, week, beginning, monday, 25th, november, monday, keep, realising, when, doing, diaries, that, haven’t, had, a, chance, to, look, at, cumbria, foot, and, mouth, disease, inquiry, report, will, have, to, make, time, for, it, soon, saturday, when, i, was, at, pub, talking, about, new, fence, on, park, for, children, general, mood, is, not, very, pleased, as, it, doesn’t, fit, into, a, country, village, setting, and, nothing, else, done, sunday, can’t, believe, it, is, the, beginning, of, december, everything, is, passing, too, quick, inevitable, 31st, november, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, the, past, 4, weeks, have, been, very, busy, compared, to, what, i, am, used, to, and, at, the, same, time, have, been, quite, frustrating, in, a, few, ways, the, issues, which, have, bothered, fiance, and, i, most, are, mainly, to, do, with, the, onset, of, winter, which, of, course, is, inevitable, but, this, year, they, seem, to, be, worse, than, we, can, previously, remember, since, living, here, in, winter, the, biggest, issue, is, the, state, of, the, roads, in, the, village, and, round, about, it, is, terrible, with, the, amount, of, rain, we, have, had, there, are, puddles, everywhere, and, everything, is, turning, to, mud, the, worst, thing, is, that, it, is, very, difficult, to, walk, or, take, dog, anywhere, which, is, frustrating, you, either, get, absolutely, filthy, or, when, walking, down, the, roads, you, have, to, get, soaked, on, the, sides, of, the, roads, to, avoid, cars, and, going, down, the, lonning, isn’t, really, an, option, as, it, is, really, muddy, and, there, has, been, dumping, we, understand, most, of, this, will, be, due, to, the, weather, but, we, are, sure, some, of, it, on, the, roads, is, due, to, all, the, traffic, there, has, been, especially, at, fiance, s, granddad's, outside, the, front, of, his, gate, and, garden, the, grass, has, gradually, been, stripped, away, and, has, now, turned, to, mud, in, all, the, ears, he, has, lived, there, 50, years, he, has, never, seen, it, as, bad, the, roads, aren’t, like, this, just, nearby, i, have, noticed, other, roads, round, about, are, also, in, a, bad, state, when, i, have, travelled, away, to, other, nearby, village, pubs, when, playing, darts, i, was, disappointed, when, i, missed, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, about, the, watchtree, reserve, as, i, had, to, go, up, town, etc, i, have, not, spoken, to, anyone, i, know, that, attended, the, exhibition, but, wish, there, were, more, opportunities, to, learn, more, about, it, i, did, find, a, newspaper, article, enclosed, about, the, watchtree, it, is, quite, annoying, that, this, won’t, be, open, to, the, public, it, is, understandable, why, this, isn't, possible, but, then, on, the, other, hand, it, is, not, benefiting, anyone, really, who, lives, nearby, fiance, and, i, still, remember, back, to, when, the, airfield, was, still, there, and, it, was, a, lovely, place, to, go, walking, and, to, relax, by, getting, away, from, everything, it, used, to, be, lovely, and, quiet, and, was, also, so, nearby, we, do, actually, quite, miss, it, sometimes, as, there, is, nowhere, else, like, that, round, here, now, even, though, there, have, been, quite, a, few, negative, issues, this, past, month, it, has, also, been, encouraging, when, i, have, been, working, at, the, pub, it, has, been, very, busy, when, i, have, been, there, showing, that, it, must, be, recovering, from, the, effect, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, it, was, also, encouraging, when, there, was, a, night, held, for, children, in, need, when, they, raised, approx, 1045, it, is, good, to, see, people, involved, and, happy, again, one, thing, which, i, did, notice, was, that, the, general, mood, about, the, improvements, made, to, the, park, was, not, very, good, people, were, not, impressed, that, the, new, fence, does, not, look, like, it, belongs, to, the, country, at, all, and, that, that, is, all, that, has, changed, i, have, not, had, time, but, will, go, and, have, a, look, for, myself, december, 2002, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, average, i, haven’t, felt, too, bad, over, christmas, a, little, tired, but, since, i, have, got, a, bit, of, a, cold, and, sore, throat, not, surprising, at, this, time, of, year, average, i, think, it, has, been, all, right, haven’t, been, able, to, walk, very, far, near, village, due, to, weather, and, roads, but, this, isn’t, surprising, at, this, time, of, year, these, past, 4, weeks, have, been, rather, hectic, with, christmas, and, everything, but, i, have, still, had, quite, a, bit, to, write, in, my, diaries, concerning, foot, and, mouth, i, received, the, parish, magazine, for, december, in, which, there, was, a, thank, you, to, all, involved, in, the, craft, fayre, and, there, was, 1, 008, raised, for, st, giles, church, it, was, good, to, be, able, to, contribute, to, something, in, the, village, well, it, was, my, mum, really, but, i, helped, it, is, good, to, see, these, sorts, of, things, happening, here, it’s, good, for, the, village, after, everything, i, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazine, it, is, still, good, to, receive, this, as, it, updates, you, on, everything, and, also, had, information, regarding, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, which, i, missed, i, am, glad, it, was, a, success, and, people, attended, especially, the, school, children, who, were, taken, i, also, received, the, diarist, which, is, good, to, read, it, is, interesting, to, see, what, other, panel, members, are, up, to, and, is, surprising, what, things, can, lead, to, for, example, the, diarist, and, the, samson, tractor, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, have, also, collected, a, couple, of, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, the, first, one, lie, returns, to, watchtree, actually, made, me, feel, better, that, we, were, going, to, get, something, positive, out, of, this, whole, experience, but, the, only, problem, is, that, at, some, moments, in, time, this, won’t, be, enough, for, some, people, involved, as, it, does, not, change, what, happened, and, won’t, make, up, for, what, has, been, lost, i, think, it, just, depends, on, how, you, are, feeling, at, the, time, when, reading, the, articles, the, other, article, village, in, running, for, top, country, award, was, also, quite, pleasing, as, at, least, we, as, a, village, are, being, remembered, and, recognised, for, what, we, went, through, it, is, surprising, that, now, so, long, after, the, actual, foot, and, mouth, crisis, that, we, are, finally, being, recognised, and, so, many, things, are, now, being, written, in, the, paper, over, the, christmas, period, i, have, only, really, had, one, thing, to, complain, about, and, that, is, the, state, of, the, roads, after, the, rain, the, roads, have, been, terrible, to, drive, on, with, the, flooding, and, the, road, sides, turning, into, mud, everything, is, filthy, i, know, this, is, expected, in, winter, out, in, the, country, but, since, i, have, been, here, it, has, never, been, so, bad, especially, at, fiance, s, grandad’s, one, improvement, is, the, signs, which, have, been, put, up, at, the, passing, places, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad, fiance, and, i, both, think, these, are, much, much, better, and, a, lot, safer, we, have, also, spotted, a, couple, of, signs, from, watchtree, which, have, been, up, now, for, a, while, but, are, still, surprising, to, see, now, it, is, time, to, start, everything, again, the, new, year, and, hopefully, this, will, be, a, better, year, for, great, orton, than, the, past, couple, has, been, i, am, glad, it, is, going, to, be, quiet, here, now, for, when, i, start, my, studying, as, opposed, to, the, foot, and, mouth, when, studying, was, very, very, difficult, monday, 27th, january, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, this, week, i, found, an, article, in, the, daily, mail, which, i, thought, was, relevant, it, is, called, boom, and, doom, and, is, about, house, prices, all, over, england, for, 2002, prices, in, north, yorkshire, rose, by, 66, but, in, allerdale, they, only, rose, by, 8, it, did, not, mention, why, this, was, but, some, of, it, must, be, the, result, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, and, the, effect, on, the, area, since, then, this, made, me, think, about, the, effect, on, great, orton, and, how, difficult, it, would, probably, be, to, sell, houses, here, and, if, people, would, really, want, to, move, here, there, are, two, sides, however, as, if, more, property, was, built, in, great, orton, and, the, surrounding, area, things, would, probably, change, and, great, orton, might, lose, some, of, its, farming, background, i, definitely, wouldn't, want, it, to, change, too, much, despite, the, burial, site, i, like, it, just, the, way, it, is, the, great, thing, about, this, week, is, the, weather, for, once, we, have, been, able, to, go, down, the, lonning, with, dog, without, getting, filthy, as, it, is, frosty, it, has, been, great, i, can’t, believe, how, quickly, 2003, is, passing, it, is, february, already, this, past, month, has, been, totally, hectic, with, appointments, arrangement, birthdays, and, the, open, university, it, makes, you, realise, that, whatever, happens, time, goes, on, i, think, this, must, have, been, very, difficult, for, people, directly, involved, in, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, as, life, would, have, had, to, carry, on, despite, whatever, was, going, on, in, their, own, lives, i, think, as, time, has, gone, on, i, have, got, more, used, to, the, idea, of, watchtree, and, accept, it, more, now, i, received, the, watchtree, news, during, the, previous, week, it, is, good, to, hear, that, the, restoration, and, creation, of, the, site, is, finally, complete, overall, i, don’t, think, it, has, taken, as, long, as, i, thought, it, would, for, the, nature, reserve, to, be, established, especially, when, you, compare, it, to, how, long, it, has, taken, for, the, children’s, playground, to, be, improved, nearly, two, years, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, however, it, is, better, late, than, never, i, am, pleased, at, how, the, nature, reserve, sounds, with, al, the, different, species, of, animal, which, had, been, included, or, seen, especially, the, merlin, the, smallest, bird, of, prey, which, was, sited, fiance, and, i, both, find, these, things, very, interesting, it, is, good, that, this, is, happening, so, close, to, us, last, year, we, travelled, to, see, the, osprey, viewpoint, it, was, great, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, have, also, found, a, few, more, articles, two, of, these, are, regarding, the, 20, day, standstill, with, not, been, directly, involved, in, the, farming, side, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, i, am, not, totally, sure, about, all, these, sorts, of, rules, etc, but, think, it, is, good, that, at, least, things, are, trying, to, be, improved, for, the, future, in, case, this, may, happen, again, and, also, as, a, result, of, learning, from, past, events, there, was, also, an, article, showing, watchtree, as, a, finalist, for, the, environmental, project, award, i, definitely, think, that, watchtree, deserves, to, be, considered, for, this, award, as, so, much, has, happened, here, and, at, least, some, good, is, going, to, come, out, of, it, it, would, be, nice, to, get, this, sort, of, award, in, recognition, of, the, hard, work, of, the, people, involved, i, think, this, year, will, hopefully, be, a, better, one, for, cumbria, and, people, may, have, confidence, even, though, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, was, a, tragedy, i, think, cumbria, and, the, people, in, it, are, able, to, recover, from, it, as, people, from, the, newspaper, articles, seem, more, optimistic, and, this, rubs, off, on, you, i, think, this, year, will, be, a, better, one, and, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, at, this, point, monday, 24th, february, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, so, far, these, past, four, weeks, i, have, not, receive, a, watchtree, newsletter, but, there, was, a, small, mention, in, the, parish, magazine, about, he, playground, work, is, underway, and, it, is, hoped, to, be, finished, by, the, summer, it, seems, to, be, taking, a, long, time, to, get, the, playground, sorted, but, at, least, it, will, be, good, for, the, kids, in, the, summer, holidays, it, is, better, late, than, never, there, is, only, one, thing, that, has, bothered, us, over, these, past, weeks, our, fish, whenever, we, change, the, water, the, fish, seem, to, be, ill, and, now, we, have, had, to, add, more, and, more, chemicals, to, reduce, the, amount, of, chlorine, that, seems, to, be, in, the, water, we, did, originally, start, off, with, 13, fish, and, now, only, have, 2, left, it, does, make, you, worry, about, the, state, of, our, water, and, why, more, chemicals, are, possibly, being, added, the, fact, that, the, burial, site, is, so, near, does, make, you, worry, if, that, is, anything, to, do, with, it, over, the, past, four, weeks, i, have, been, very, confident, about, the, future, regarding, foot, and, mouth, with, the, sun, shining, again, and, the, animals, about, it, seems, as, if, nothing, bad, has, happened, here, but, you, know, that, for, some, people, involved, in, the, crisis, the, future, will, never, be, that, easy, or, simple, and, i, do, feel, sympathy, for, them, for, me, it, seems, possible, to, be, able, to, move, on, now, after, the, crisis, and, it, has, been, good, to, see, the, sheep, and, cows, about, and, fiance, has, even, seen, a, couple, of, birds, of, prey, we, are, not, sure, what, they, were, but, think, one, might, have, been, a, merlin, which, was, mentioned, in, a, previous, watchtree, newsletter, as, being, seen, on, site, the, article, called, record, tourism, figures, for, county, was, encouraging, and, shows, that, cumbria, may, be, starting, to, recover, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, i, also, found, another, article, called, fears, over, bovine, tb, time, bomb, i, think, this, is, worrying, and, should, definitely, be, taken, seriously, as, it, would, be, devastating, to, farmers, and, everyone, in, the, county, in, the, past, fortnight, it, has, also, been, my, mam’s, birthday, she, was, really, looking, forward, to, spending, some, time, out, here, and, we, went, to, bowness, for, the, afternoon, with, dog, once, again, you, realise, how, lovely, it, is, out, here, and, how, much, it, should, be, appreciated, overall, in, my, opinion, the, situation, in, cumbria, over, the, past, year, has, definitely, improved, and, will, hopefully, continue, to, do, so, 24th, march, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, these, past, four, weeks, have, been, rather, strange, and, worrying, first, of, all, there, was, the, death, of, simon, harris, a, man, from, the, village, who, you, would, regularly, see, walking, dogs, and, looking, at, the, horses, despite, what, most, of, the, papers, have, said, about, him, to, me, he, was, always, polite, and, possibly, just, a, bit, shy, i, have, enclosed, an, article, about, him, that, was, in, the, paper, shortly, after, his, death, the, headline, is, not, very, nice, but, the, article, does, include, some, of, the, best, comments, about, simon, i, was, quite, shocked, by, the, whole, thing, and, think, it, could, definitely, have, been, handled, better, by, the, papers, the, people, in, the, village, could, also, have, been, a, bit, more, respectful, i, do, not, think, it, was, their, place, to, comment, in, the, way, that, they, did, secondly, the, whole, issue, of, war, with, iraq, is, a, worrying, subject, neither, fiance, or, i, agree, with, what, is, being, done, and, how, it, is, being, carried, out, it, is, a, particularly, worrying, time, for, fiance, s, aunty, as, her, husband, lives, in, kuwait, with, the, rest, of, his, family, she, came, to, england, where, she, is, originally, from, with, her, two, children, during, the, last, gulf, war, she, knows, all, too, well, what, the, danger, are, and, what, is, involved, it, is, a, very, worrying, subject, where, you, feel, totally, helpless, and, at, the, same, time, cannot, get, away, from, it, however, life, still, carries, on, as, harsh, as, it, may, be, i, thought, of, this, when, looking, at, the, past, diaries, i, have, written, and, how, many, have, accumulated, it, is, strange, how, quickly, time, goes, by, and, how, people, are, just, expected, to, cope, and, carry, on, i, thought, in, particular, of, the, people, worst, affected, by, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, how, helpless, they, must, have, felt, and, how, they, coped, life, can, be, a, funny, thing, looking, back, i, think, this, project, has, been, very, worth, while, and, think, it, is, great, that, they, will, be, archived, for, the, future, writing, these, diaries, seems, to, have, become, part, of, my, routine, now, and, i, think, it, will, definitely, be, strange, when, i, no, longer, have, to, write, them, i, have, found, quite, a, few, newspaper, articles, over, the, past, four, weeks, donella, rebuilds, the, cumberland, show, was, encouraging, about, the, future, of, cumbria, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, however, there, are, still, worrying, issues, arising, such, as, in, the, articles, of, mp, calls, for, vaccination, to, keep, f, m, under, control, and, from, uruguay, with, a, threat, which, highlight, issues, of, important, to, the, farming, industry, i, have, also, been, very, busy, over, the, past, few, weeks, as, my, second, assignment, was, due, for, my, university, work, which, was, quite, hectic, i, have, had, a, break, for, the, past, couple, of, days, as, i, have, not, been, very, well, a, bad, cough, sore, throat, and, stomach, and, a, stuffy, nose, i, haven’t, done, too, badly, over, the, winter, months, with, illnesses, so, i, can’t, really, complain, lastly, our, water, hasn’t, been, of, the, best, quality, lately, on, occasions, it, is, white, and, fizzes, not, the, most, appetizing, 21st, april, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, these, past, 4, weeks, have, just, seem, to, fly, by, quite, a, few, good, things, have, happened, and, even, though, i, am, feeling, quite, tired, i, have, had, a, good, month, firstly, fiance, dog, and, i, have, finally, go, t, a, small, space, of, our, own, we, have, got, an, allotment, about, 8, miles, away, and, it, is, surrounded, by, horses, and, fields, it, belongs, to, a, man, who, lives, there, and, owns, all, the, land, roundabout, but, unfortunately, he, is, no, longer, well, enough, to, work, the, land, so, has, let, us, have, it, it, will, need, a, lot, of, work, but, will, be, good, for, us, so, far, we, have, got, potatoes, raspberries, and, rhubarb, growing, dog, even, helps, to, dig, even, though, we, live, in, the, country, on, our, own, block, it, is, not, always, that, easy, to, get, any, peace, we, have, also, had, the, opportunity, to, join, the, cumbria, wildlife, trust, a, leaflet, came, through, our, door, and, we, thought, it, would, be, brilliant, as, we, would, be, kept, up, to, date, with, all, the, latest, goings, on, in, cumbria, learn, a, lot, more, about, the, wildlife, and, also, possibly, get, the, chance, to, do, some, voluntary, work, fiance, and, i, are, really, interested, and, think, it, is, great, we, get, sent, though, a, certain, number, of, magazines, every, year, and, every, month, we, send, a, small, donation, so, we, feel, like, we, are, helping, a, little, bit, as, well, the, article, which, i, found, in, one, of, the, magazines, id, enclosed, on, the, next, page, the, other, thing, which, has, made, my, month, is, knowing, that, we, are, going, to, hawkshead, again, my, mam, fiance, dog, and, i, are, going, for, a, short, break, just, 3, nights, for, my, birthday, we, have, got, it, all, booked, and, are, really, looking, forward, to, it, it, was, great, last, time, especially, for, dog, i, just, hope, she, doesn’t, get, stuck, under, the, bed, in, the, caravan, this, time, as, she, is, a, bit, bigger, now, than, she, was, then, this, past, week, i, have, also, been, in, touch, with, my, dad, in, south, africa, as, it, was, his, birthday, it, turns, out, that, he, may, be, passing, through, carlisle, for, a, couple, of, days, at, the, end, of, next, week, it, would, be, lovely, to, see, him, again, and, i, think, he, will, love, great, orton, and, our, allotment, i, think, he, has, always, liked, the, thought, of, living, in, the, country, and, would, love, to, retire, to, somewhere, nice, and, quiet, things, will, also, have, improved, and, we, have, grown, up, a, bit, since, he, was, last, here, about, 3, years, ago, it, should, be, good, it, is, funny, that, after, living, in, south, africa, for, so, long, he, is, still, drawn, to, the, lifestyle, in, cumbria, lastly, i, have, made, a, note, of, the, final, meeting, for, the, foot, and, mouth, diaries, and, hope, to, be, there, i, bet, it, passes, really, quickly, now, and, will, be, over, before, i, know, it, how, strange, 28th, april, 4th, may, monday, got, 3, articles, from, cumberland, news, april, 25th, 2003, breeders, hit, out, discrimination, fmd, burial, site, celebrates, new, life, and, my, favourite, its, a, dog’s, life, for, rosie, the, lamb, tuesday, saw, c, friday, noticed, the, park, is, coming, on, a, bit, better, for, the, children, it, was, mentioned, in, the, orton, parish, awarded, 25, 000, to, reference, drain, level, and, re, seed, new, play, equipment, will, follow, saturday, some, of, the, children, were, allowed, to, attend, meetings, to, discuss, it, good, to, involve, children, about, time, too, at, least, children, will, be, able, to, play, football, 5th, 11th, may, tuesday, working, really, hard, have, to, get, assignment, posted, off, tomorrow, night, before, we, go, away, on, thursday, hectic, wednesday, service, held, at, watchtree, unable, to, go, but, think, it, was, a, very, good, idea, newspaper, article, enclosed, was, written, before, the, service, thursday, away, to, hawskhead, exciting, friday, my, birthday, had, a, lovely, day, went, shopping, in, the, morning, to, forest, in, the, afternoon, and, for, a, meal, at, night, lovely, sunday, back, from, holiday, already, it, was, lovely, everyone, was, so, friendly, or, perhaps, we, just, noticed, it, more, there, 12th, 18th, may, tuesday, fiance, at, doctors, not, very, well, he, has, got, a, viral, infection, as, well, as, fluid, behind, his, ears, told, to, just, take, it, easy, wednesday, i, have, been, sent, info, to, chose, courses, for, open, university, that, i, would, like, to, do, next, year, and, in, the, future, am, going, to, take, the, environmental, studies, route, hopefully, leading, to, diploma, in, environment, and, development, and, possibly, further, to, ba, bsc, in, environmental, studies, i, did, like, archaeology, but, think, what, i, am, doing, is, a, lot, more, relevant, to, the, future, foot, and, mouth, and, watchtree, made, me, realise, that, friday, got, watchtree, newsletter, this, week, i, will, enclose, it, this, time, as, it, covers, quite, a, few, areas, and, has, a, bit, of, information, there, is, information, about, the, service, held, awards, that, have, been, won, and, also, new, wildlife, which, are, now, present, on, the, site, lapwings, oystercatchers, and, ringed, plovers, 19th, 25th, may, 2003, tuesday, dad, has, come, to, visit, for, a, couple, of, days, from, south, africa, nice, surprise, enjoyed, seeing, him, dad, asking, about, fmd, crisis, he, saw, it, on, tv, over, there, and, how, close, it, was, i, think, he, was, quite, shocked, thursday, i, was, surprised, that, even, though, south, africa, is, so, different, he, would, still, like, to, live, somewhere, in, this, country, makes, you, think, again, how, lucky, you, are, and, what, you, take, for, granted, saturday, article, from, cumberland, news, may, 23, reward, for, post, foot, and, mouth, achievements, 25th, may, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, every, time, i, come, to, write, these, diaries, i, look, back, over, the, past, four, weeks, and, notice, they, are, becoming, more, and, more, busy, the, past, couple, of, weeks, have, been, no, exception, it, is, already, nearly, half, way, through, the, year, i, can’t, believe, it, over, the, past, 4, weeks, i, have, been, on, holiday, turned, 22, and, my, dad, had, popped, over, from, south, africa, for, a, few, days, hectic, but, good, firstly, hawkshead, was, lovely, again, i, wouldn’t, say, anything, different, it, was, great, we, all, had, a, lovely, time, and, i, had, a, really, good, birthday, when, you, are, at, home, in, great, orton, you, forget, how, much, is, really, out, there, in, cumbria, to, do, and, see, we, definitely, think, we, should, take, advantage, of, it, more, often, shortly, after, we, arrived, back, from, hawkshead, my, dad, popped, up, to, carlisle, for, a, couple, of, days, it, was, a, lovely, surprise, and, it, was, good, to, see, him, he, absolutely, loves, it, where, we, are, and, thinks, we, are, very, lucky, even, though, south, africa, is, so, different, he, still, thinks, it, is, lovely, out, here, looking, out, onto, fields, this, did, make, me, realise, how, lucky, we, are, despite, what, happened, due, to, foot, and, mouth, inevitably, sometimes, we, do, take, it, for, granted, my, dad, remembered, watching, about, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, in, south, africa, but, did, not, realise, exactly, how, close, it, was, i, think, he, was, quite, shocked, foot, and, mouth, has, definitely, made, me, more, aware, of, my, surroundings, and, how, everything, works, i, have, definitely, noticed, this, when, i, have, been, doing, my, studying, for, open, university, i, am, now, at, the, point, where, i, can, chose, my, courses, next, year, and, therefore, which, path, i, am, going, to, take, i, have, decided, to, take, courses, leading, to, a, diploma, in, environment, and, development, and, if, everything, goes, to, plan, for, an, environmental, studies, degree, i, am, really, enjoying, what, i, am, doing, at, the, minute, and, think, it, is, definitely, useful, and, relevant, for, the, future, i, did, enjoy, studying, archaeology, but, think, the, environment, and, related, issues, are, more, important, at, the, present, and, in, the, future, on, the, 7th, may, there, was, a, memorial, service, at, watchtree, to, mark, a, two, year, anniversary, from, when, the, last, animal, was, buried, at, the, site, i, think, this, was, a, good, idea, and, it, is, appropriate, to, remember, the, animals, that, were, killed, i, was, unable, to, attend, the, service, but, have, managed, to, get, a, newspaper, article, about, it, and, it, was, also, mentioned, in, the, watchtree, newsletter, i, have, included, this, newsletter, in, with, these, diaries, at, it, contains, quite, a, bit, of, information, on, a, few, different, aspects, i, think, it, is, good, about, the, wildlife, which, is, emerging, on, the, site, the, park, or, play, area, for, children, is, also, coming, on, fairly, well, at, last, it, has, finally, been, reseeded, as, well, as, levelled, it, looks, better, i, have, also, included, 4, newspaper, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, with, my, favourite, being, rosie, the, lamb, i, have, put, this, article, in, as, i, thought, it, was, lovely, 22nd, june, 2004, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, how, strange, it, seems, that, all, this, is, coming, to, an, end, and, really, how, quickly, time, has, passed, in, my, situation, i, would, say, that, time, has, healed, a, few, aspects, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, and, things, don’t, seem, so, bad, 18, months, on, i, enjoyed, the, foot, and, mouth, evening, and, learnt, a, lot, from, it, about, other, people’s, views, and, experiences, i, enjoyed, it, a, lot, more, than, i, thought, i, would, and, thought, that, the, main, themes, found, during, the, research, were, ones, which, i, would, have, agreed, with, one, thing, which, was, said, which, has, made, me, think, was, the, comment, that, these, diaries, would, be, our, type, of, memorial, i, had, never, once, thought, of, this, research, in, that, sort, of, way, but, the, more, i, think, about, it, the, more, i, agree, and, like, the, idea, it, definitely, has, been, worthwhile, being, able, to, contribute, to, something, especially, if, it, may, be, able, to, help, in, some, way, in, the, future, when, compared, to, the, article, that, i, found, in, the, cumberland, news, about, a, man’s, memorial, to, the, animals, that, he, lost, during, foot, and, mouth, i, definitely, think, ours, is, more, fitting, and, will, probably, do, some, good, i, understand, everyone, has, the, right, to, express, their, views, in, their, own, way, but, to, me, this, was, too, loud, and, too, inappropriate, however, each, to, their, own, and, at, the, end, of, the, day, at, least, people, are, trying, to, remember, in, a, good, way, as, opposed, to, sweeping, it, under, the, carpet, the, week, of, the, foot, and, mouth, evening, we, were, without, a, car, and, noticed, how, much, we, relied, on, it, and, took, it, for, granted, especially, out, here, as, there, is, a, very, limited, bus, service, everything, is, sorted, out, now, and, we, are, back, to, normal, with, a, newer, little, car, thank, you, very, much, c, for, the, lift, there, and, back, in, general, the, past, few, months, just, seem, to, have, flown, by, and, in, particular, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, don’t, seem, to, have, time, to, fit, everything, in, and, am, trying, to, get, my, assignments, done, on, time, it, turns, out, to, be, quite, a, bit, more, difficult, than, i, thought, it, is, hard, work, but, will, definitely, be, worth, it, in, th, end, over, the, past, 6, months, even, i, have, learnt, so, much, the, next, special, occasion, which, is, coming, up, is, fiance, s, birthday, 21st, july, we, are, thinking, of, going, back, to, hawkshead, again, for, a, few, days, we, really, like, it, there, and, i’m, sure, will, return, again, and, again, it, just, shows, you, that, you, don’t, need, to, leave, cumbria, to, have, a, good, holiday, well, here, we, are, at, the, end, it, just, makes, me, wonder, what, life, will, be, like, in, 18, months, from, now, will, things, be, any, different, they, probably, will, be, in, some, ways, and, hopefully, will, be, for, the, best, 20th, july, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, it, does, seem, very, strange, to, be, sitting, down, to, write, my, last, lot, of, diaries, it, feels, good, to, have, completed, something, as, worthwhile, as, this, as, well, as, it, hopefully, doing, some, good, in, the, future, concerning, foot, and, mouth, crisis, or, any, other, similar, situation, i, also, find, it, has, helped, me, to, become, a, bit, more, confident, and, aware, of, things, around, me, i, remember, back, to, when, i, attended, my, first, meeting, and, how, nervous, i, was, i, think, i, can, handle, things, like, that, a, bit, better, now, we, have, just, got, back, from, holiday, we, had, a, lovely, time, and, did, so, much, we, went, walking, with, dog, to, many, places, and, they, are, all, free, it, just, shows, you, what, a, good, holiday, you, can, have, in, cumbria, on, a, cheap, budget, you, don’t, need, much, else, the, only, disappointing, thing, is, that, some, of, the, places, fiance, and, i, had, been, to, in, the, past, are, now, closed, as, they, have, been, sold, this, has, not, yet, happened, to, talkin, tarn, and, i, definitely, think, it, should, be, given, to, the, cumbria, wildlife, trust, as, people, would, still, have, access, to, it, fiance, and, i, both, agree, that, the, countryside, is, recovering, and, it, is, great, to, be, able, to, wander, about, again, i, have, collected, a, few, more, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, related, to, foot, and, mouth, it, is, good, to, see, breeders, doing, well, again, and, people, getting, back, into, the, swing, of, things, i, would, just, like, to, thank, everyone, involved, for, involving, me, in, this, project, and, i, wish, them, all, the, best, in, the, future]
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being, in, change, of, an, offensive, weapon, a, knife, the, judge, had, acquitted, her, of, the, offences, he, showed, leniency, towards, her, last, year, during, the, fmd, crisis, she, had, returned, to, her, home, to, find, that, her, pet, goat, had, been, killed, by, slaughterers, because, the, animal, was, within, the, 3, km, radius, she, had, gone, berserk, over, this, and, threatened, the, police, officer, and, others, with, the, knife, she, had, to, be, forcibly, restrained, she, was, very, distraught, over, this, killing, even, after, she, had, appeared, in, court, and, had, been, acquitted, of, all, charges, she, showed, great, emotion, not, only, being, freed, but, also, quite, upset, over, the, loss, of, the, goat, perhaps, her, actions, didn’t, happen, to, a, lot, of, other, people, who, had, similar, things, happen, to, them, however, the, loss, of, a, lot, of, pet, animals, and, in, some, cases, needless, slaughter, of, many, farm, animals, still, creates, unhappy, memories, of, 2001, week, 2, tuesday, whilst, walking, the, dog, i, met, a, farmer, from, the, edge, of, the, village, who, has, friends, and, stock, in, close, proximity, to, the, 2, land, fill, sites, he, is, still, very, concerned, about, materials, on, these, sites, the, nearest, site, contained, hundreds, of, carcasses, this, has, been, completed, and, capped, he, is, concerned, about, leachate, from, this, site, and, feels, that, it, doesn’t, matter, how, much, clay, and, soil, were, used, to, contain, this, site, the, effects, of, heavy, rain, is, bound, to, find, a, way, down, and, also, to, drain, it, he, doesn’t, want, to, plough, these, fields, nor, can, he, sell, stock, that, have, grazed, the, same, fields, there, is, pyre, ash, being, tipped, on, the, other, site, again, what, happens, to, the, rainwater, that, runs, off, this, site, also, there, are, concerns, about, the, large, flocks, of, seagulls, that, visit, both, sites, daily, another, concern, is, what, is, happening, to, the, open, cast, coal, site, that, is, situated, almost, due, south, of, gilgarran, village, the, farmer, i, talked, to, today, is, concerned, about, this, huge, site, no, coal, has, been, moved, from, this, site, for, months, there, are, concerns, that, this, site, is, going, to, be, filled, with, waste, will, it, be, from, fmd, sites, we, as, a, village, are, very, concerned, about, rumours, of, land, fill, on, a, huge, scale, friday, noticed, that, there, was, work, being, carried, out, on, the, top, of, the, burial, site, no, villagers, have, commented, on, this, despite, large, yellow, diggers, operating, sunday, work, continuing, on, the, burial, site, cannot, make, out, what, kind, of, work, is, being, done, there, week, 3, monday, work, is, still, going, on, at, the, burial, site, i, still, don’t, know, what, is, going, on, but, the, diggers, involved, are, the, same, as, when, animals, were, being, buried, there, when, animals, were, being, buried, there, last, year, the, smell, coming, from, that, site, was, terrible, to, say, the, least, it, was, not, coming, from, the, dead, animals, as, most, observers, thought, but, from, decomposing, waste, material, that, had, already, been, buried, on, the, site, prior, to, fmd, when, excavators, dug, into, the, soil, to, make, trenches, for, the, dead, animals, they, dug, into, this, decomposing, matter, hence, the, terrible, smell, despite, the, work, that, is, going, on, there, today, no, comments, from, villagers, are, forthcoming, it, seems, to, me, that, now, that, fmd, has, gone, the, general, public, are, not, interested, any, more, unless, they, read, something, in, the, local, papers, written, by, some, enterprising, reporter, week, 4, tuesday, work, is, still, going, on, in, the, former, burial, site, villagers, don’t, seem, to, be, bothered, fmd, is, gone, so, nobody, is, interested, any, more, wednesday, whilst, trying, to, gain, comments, from, villagers, over, the, effects, of, fmd, one, or, two, comments, from, some, individuals, show, concern, about, the, outbreak, last, year, but, don’t, seem, too, concerned, over, any, after, effects, if, any, two, interesting, comments, suggest, that, 1, the, outbreak, was, started, deliberately, by, this, country, in, collusion, with, the, agriculturists, of, the, e.e.c, so, as, to, concentrate, meat, production, in, europe, and, leave, the, uk, to, concentrate, on, arable, farming, 2, the, outbreak, was, started, by, a, terrorist, attack, the, government, would, not, declare, this, because, it, would, cause, widespread, panic, thursday, 23, 25, hours, huge, fire, at, the, site, where, pyre, ash, is, being, tipped, 250,000, used, tyres, caught, fire, arson, is, suspected, fire, fighters, tried, to, contain, the, blaze, but, couldn’t, use, large, amounts, of, water, in, case, water, courses, became, contaminated, friday, 05, 00, fire, still, blazing, at, the, pyre, ash, site, later, in, the, morning, the, fire, was, showing, signs, of, dying, down, apparently, it, was, left, to, burn, itself, out, much, heavy, smoke, pollution, was, evident, drifting, south, west, for, about, nine, miles, reading, the, local, evening, paper, about, the, blaze, there, was, also, a, report, that, villagers, from, disington, 1, miles, from, gilgarran, were, complaining, of, the, foul, smell, from, both, waste, sites, parish, councillors, are, very, concerned, about, this, does, it, coincide, with, work, currently, being, carried, out, on, the, burial, site, the, smell, from, these, sites, plus, the, fact, that, animals, were, buried, on, one, site, and, pyre, ash, plus, the, huge, fire, from, the, other, site, all, happening, this, week, is, causing, concern, in, this, area, but, once, this, hue, and, cry, dies, down, people, will, soon, forget, about, it, all, week, 5, monday, through, to, friday, observed, work, on, top, of, the, burial, site, don’t, know, if, any, work, is, still, going, on, on, the, northern, and, western, sides, friday, local, weekly, paper, carried, the, report, on, the, recent, large, fire, that, occurred, on, the, alco, site, last, week, when, 250,000, tyres, caught, fire, somehow, it, was, intersting, to, read, that, the, fire, brigade, did, not, use, any, water, to, extinguish, the, blaze, in, case, pollution, occurred, in, water, courses, the, fire, was, left, to, burn, itself, out, saturday, burial, site, it, looks, like, there, is, new, soil, being, tipped, on, top, for, some, reason, no, reported, comments, froim, the, parish, council, over, this, despite, very, vociferous, objections, by, them, over, the, use, of, this, and, the, alco, site, in, the, past, sunday, talked, to, our, local, county, councillor, who, lives, in, this, village, he, feels, very, strongly, that, these, two, sites, are, dangerous, he, thinks, that, both, sites, are, a, health, hazard, risk, due, to, obnoxious, odours, and, in, particular, the, large, fire, that, occurred, last, week, which, produced, a, lot, of, polluted, smoke, for, a, distance, of, six, miles, some, people, reckoned, that, the, smell, of, burning, tyres, could, be, smelt, here, in, gilgarran, there, have, been, numerous, fires, on, these, sites, over, the, last, few, years, these, fires, give, rise, to, compaliant, by, people, like, us, but, more, so, from, the, nearer, village, of, distington, 1, miles, west, of, here, the, councillor, suggests, that, there, could, be, more, incidents, of, cancer, cases, in, this, area, in, coming, years, along, with, respiratory, troubles, as, well, as, some, cases, of, bronchitis, related, problems, he, himself, has, recently, suddenly, started, sinusitis, which, he, hasn’t, had, before, all, in, all, he, wasn’t, happy, about, the, situation, on, both, sites, we, don’t, know, what, is, being, tipped, there, all, we, can, do, as, a, community, is, accept, what, we, are, being, told, by, the, site, owners, as, previously, stated, animal, carcasses, were, being, tipped, and, buried, for, about, three, days, before, we, were, told, officially, that, this, was, so, incidentally, the, site, where, animals, are, buried, is, owned, by, cumbria, county, council, this, seems, to, be, totally, against, the, advice, of, county, council, officials, who, look, after, the, environment, and, the, health, of, the, population, as, i’ve, written, before, there, are, going, to, be, bigger, concerns, if, the, opencast, coal, site, to, the, south, of, the, village, becomes, a, landfill, site, for, refuse, from, parts, of, the, county, fifty, miles, away, at, the, moment, there, are, no, suggestions, that, anything, from, the, fmd, outbreak, will, be, dumped, there, having, said, that, however, we, as, villagers, didn’t, know, of, carcasses, being, buried, or, pyre, ash, being, tipped, until, after, it, had, happened, we, await, the, outcome, of, this, coal, site, with, some, trepidation, after, all, no, coal, has, come, from, this, site, for, some, months, it, has, all, the, indication, of, becoming, a, land, fill, site, week, 6, monday, to, wednesday, if, work, is, still, ongoing, at, the, burial, site, it, is, not, visible, from, our, side, of, the, site, i, still, don’t, know, what, is, going, on, there, it, may, all, be, innocent, and, an, improvement, to, the, environment, after, all, this, is, what, the, site, owners, have, to, do, thursday, a, delegation, of, meps, visit, the, north, of, the, county, they, have, come, to, assess, the, situation, for, themselves, and, to, report, back, to, the, european, parliament, no, doubt, they, will, also, report, back, to, their, own, constituents, in, their, own, countries, the, delegation, visit, the, auction, mart, at, longtown, where, the, disease, was, first, noticed, in, this, country, and, also, visited, the, big, burial, site, at, great, orton, where, it, was, estimated, that, half, a, million, carcasses, were, buried, good, coverage, by, the, local, press, radio, and, t.v, gave, anyone, interested, the, views, of, the, delegation, thursday, saturday, the, mep, delegation, agreed, that, the, fmd, situation, had, been, disastrous, we, all, know, that, comments, from, some, tourist, and, agriculture, observers, ranged, from, a, waste, of, time, to, at, least, some, politicians, have, bothered, to, visit, us, our, own, couldn’t, do, that, personally, i, think, that, some, good, came, out, of, this, particularly, when, it, was, reported, that, the, dutch, had, used, vaccination, techniques, when, they, had, a, small, outbreak, many, people, think, that, the, british, government, should, have, had, a, public, inquiry, into, the, outbreak, what, have, they, to, hide, cumbria, is, holding, its, own, inquiry, quite, rightly, so, other, organisations, such, as, lancaster, university, are, holding, research, into, the, outbreak, why, not, the, government, eventually, we, will, know, why, perhaps, not, in, my, lifetime, though, the, minister, and, maff, have, a, lot, to, answer, for, week, 7, thought, it, would, be, of, interest, to, include, copies, of, the, newsletter, that, the, local, authorities, issued, to, every, household, in, the, area, regarding, the, disposal, of, carcasses, and, effluent, it, will, be, of, note, that, there, was, a, fire, last, year, on, the, alco, site, also, involving, tyres, very, similar, to, last, years, only, not, as, big, a, report, on, local, t.v, today, stated, that, the, recent, visit, of, meps, to, the, area, considered, that, vaccination, should, have, been, used, at, the, outset, and, be, should, seriously, considered, should, a, future, outbreak, occur, heard, of, reports, of, an, outbreak, of, t.b, in, cattle, in, other, parts, of, the, country, this, was, reported, to, be, more, serious, than, fmd, should, a, major, outbreak, occur, this, would, lead, to, the, question, of, disposal, should, the, need, arise, as, i’ve, already, reported, in, previous, entries, the, use, of, the, opencast, coal, site, to, the, south, east, of, here, is, causing, concern, in, some, quarters, although, the, site, didn’t, feature, in, the, fmd, crisis, there, is, a, feeling, that, it, is, being, earmarked, for, use, in, the, future, should, the, need, arise, or, even, the, rumour, of, an, incinerator, is, planned, for, there, the, general, feeling, here, and, in, the, surrounding, area, is, that, we, have, had, enough, dumping, of, carcasses, effluent, toxic, chemicals, etc, it, could, be, that, the, authorities, have, seen, that, the, sites, concerned, have, handled, those, substances, before, that, an, extension, of, disposal, sites, in, this, area, would, be, effective, week, 8, nothing, of, any, significance, to, report, this, week, week, 9, now, that, cumbria’s, fmd, inquiry, has, started, a, lot, of, people, i, have, met, this, week, recall, the, happenings, of, a, year, ago, even, more, interesting, is, the, coverage, in, the, local, press, and, t.v, plenty, of, publicity, by, the, media, shows, how, little, the, government, an, maff, in, particular, let, the, farming, and, tourism, industries, of, the, county, down, there, has, been, plenty, of, distressing, stories, by, farmers, not, only, of, infected, animals, being, slaughtered, but, also, the, slaughtering, of, healthy, animals, in, the, 3, km, circle, of, an, outbreak, one, particularly, distressing, point, of, evidence, was, when, a, farmer, described, to, the, panel, the, birth, of, a, calf, five, days, after, it’s, mother, had, been, shot, we, at, the, time, of, the, outbreak, were, hearing, these, stories, on, a, daily, basis, and, still, maff, and, mr, brown, kept, telling, us, that, the, outbreak, was, under, control, all, i, can, say, at, this, point, is, may, heaven, help, us, when, it, all, happens, again, week, 10, work, is, still, going, on, at, the, burial, site, it, looks, like, new, soil, is, being, dumped, on, top, of, the, actual, site, and, dozed, to, level, it, of, and, to, smooth, it, out, on, the, side, all, we, can, do, is, accept, that, the, management, of, the, site, are, making, it, better, for, all, concerned, and, that, they, are, as, concerned, as, we, are, the, much, publicised, cumbrian, fmd, inquiry, team, visited, the, land, fill, site, they, met, local, councillors, who, expressed, their, concern, over, this, site, and, the, alco, site, no, other, report, was, forthcoming, from, the, team, the, inquiry, team, finish, their, evidence, gathering, this, week, one, very, important, statement, was, made, that, the, minister, of, the, environment, should, make, a, statement, over, this, outbreak, and, should, even, make, a, visit, to, these, sites, county, wide, there, has, been, total, silence, from, mrs, beckett’s, department, over, this, request, the, same, silence, is, observed, from, any, government, source, for, that, matter, everyone, asks, the, same, questions, what, have, they, got, to, hide, why, aren’t, they, interested, what, plans, are, being, made, and, what, lessons, have, been, learned, from, last, years, outbreak, a, lot, of, farms, are, restocking, and, in, this, neighbourhood, farm, work, is, going, on, as, before, or, so, it, looks, as, time, goes, on, though, there, seems, to, be, a, smouldering, anger, that, no, one, in, authority, is, as, concerned, as, well, are, week, 11, work, is, still, on, going, at, the, burial, site, no, comments, heard, from, any, of, the, villagers, or, neighbours, this, week, diary, 12, monday, from, my, own, observation, work, is, still, ongoing, at, the, burial, site, more, heavy, plant, has, been, moved, on, to, the, top, of, the, giant, amount, and, it, looks, as, though, more, topsoil, is, being, laid, over, the, mount, perhaps, to, improve, the, site, but, water, may, still, permeate, into, and, through, the, site, we, can, only, believe, the, operators, that, this, is, a, right, thing, to, do, friday, talked, to, 2, it, villagers, about, the, after, effects, of, fmd, one, said, oh, it's, all, over, now, and, forgotten, about, it, doesn't, bother, me, one, bit, the, other, said, it, all, in, the, past, we, just, have, to, forget, about, it, it, seems, that, life, is, returning, to, normal, in, all, aspects, of, village, life, people, don't, think, about, last, year, unless, the, diarist, mentions, that, sunday, a, bad, day, or, weather, wise, this, prolonged, rain, may, halt, work, on, the, burial, site, most, people, are, reluctant, to, talk, about, f, m, d, now, even, if, it, was, one, of, the, worst, economic, and, social, disasters, to, hit, this, country, and, this, county, in, particular, now, that, it, is, over, people's, memories, begin, to, fade, however, some, of, us, are, not, happy, at, having, these, two, disposal, sites, within, a, 1000, metres, of, this, village, fmd, may, be, over, but, these, burial, sites, are, here, for, a, long, time, yet, diary, 13, observed, in, work, on, burial, site, more, heavy, machinery, and, plant, moved, in, and, large, quantities, of, soil, are, being, laid, down, and, smoothed, out, diary, 14, talked, to, some, religious, today, about, the, after, effects, of, fmd, without, exception, they, are, not, interested, it's, all, over, with, an, idle, one, to, be, reminded, about, it, are, the, general, comments, nobody, seems, bothered, that, there, are, hundreds, of, animals, buried, a, 1000, yards, from, his, village, or, the, fact, that, there, is, leachate, and, pyre, ash, buried, in, another, site, looking, at, the, burial, site, and, the, work, that, is, going, on, there, it, does, look, as, though, the, management, there, are, doing, everything, to, make, the, site, safe, diary, 15, i, met, a, smallholder, today, to, whom, i, have, talked, to, in, the, past, about, the, effects, and, after, effects, of, fmd, he, still, not, happy, about, the, burial, site, despite, the, landscaping, and, smoothing, off, of, the, large, quantities, of, topsoil, only, time, will, tell, he, says, he, does, not, have, any, stock, near, to, the, site, but, he, has, sheep, on, the, farmer's, land, since, fmd, finished, though, his, stock, movements, are, still, restricted, by, new, legislation, that, has, come, in, since, the, area, was, declared, free, for, instance, or, if, he, takes, a, sheep, to, auction, he, asked, to, have, nine, pieces, of, paper, for, this, transaction, if, the, price, is, not, right, and, he, has, to, take, the, she, back, to, his, land, he, was, put, them, back, in, the, same, field, that, they, came, from, and, it, cannot, move, them, to, three, weeks, he, then, has, to, obtain, a, licence, to, do, this, he, does, think, that, the, authorities, are, not, going, to, be, as, strict, shortly, this, is, just, one, of, the, precautions, that, have, come, in, to, try, and, combat, any, recurrence, of, fmd, diary, 16, i, met, the, smallholder, who, rents, land, a, from, the, farmer, in, the, village, his, income, from, the, sheep, that, he, a, breeds, has, been, nil, like, many, more, people, in, similar, circumstances, fortunately, for, him, had, he, has, an, income, from, another, source, the, subject, of, compensation, came, up, during, our, conversation, i, personally, do, not, have, any, comment, to, make, about, this, item, as, it, maybe, just, a, rumour, apparently, he, got, it, bee, in, his, bonnet, about, compensation, paid, out, to, people, who, were, not, in, the, agricultural, business, what, seemed, to, upset, him, was, that, he, had, heard, that, some, of, fish, and, chip, shop, owner, in, the, lake, district, had, been, paid, 170, per, month, compensation, for, the, loss, of, trade, he, didn't, mind, too, much, that, hoteliers, and, guest, house, owners, had, claimed, compensation, but, wondered, where, else, would, this, kind, of, money, go, when, he, himself, had, been, paid, nothing, this, is, the, first, time, i've, heard, this, one, diary, 17, attended, the, cumberland, show, at, every, to, be, park, carlisle, we, as, a, family, used, to, attend, this, annual, show, regularly, both, as, spectators, and, competitors, we, have, never, seen, the, show, like, the, one, put, on, this, year, when, will, things, really, get, back, to, normal, many, of, us, think, that, agriculture, is, back, to, pre, fmd, cattle, and, sheep, on, grazing, in, the, fields, lambing, has, reached, new, heights, in, produce, on, some, farms, calves, are, being, born, silage, and, haymaking, is, progressing, when, the, weather, permits, but, there, are, still, restrictions, on, animal, movements, hence, no, sheep, cattle, or, pigs, at, this, year's, show, only, horses, poultry, dogs, and, rabbits, not, many, pieces, of, agricultural, machinery, onshore, either, plenty, of, chartered, accountants, tents, craft, tents, horse, feeds, and, tack, displays, in, the, main, arena, and, bands, not, an, agricultural, show, as, we, knew, it, it, seems, to, be, the, same, at, other, shows, ennerdale, show, is, one, of, our, local, shows, this, year, there, isn't, going, to, be, any, horses, or, sheep, generally, there, are, no, cattle, shown, at, the, show, but, without, sheep, hill, farmers, dominate, the, show, the, there, isn't, going, to, be, much, on, show, at, all, it, was, always, a, good, show, for, equestrian, events, at, many, levels, this, show, was, always, a, must, for, our, family, i, don't, think, that, we, will, be, going, this, year, diary, 18, from, the, golf, course, and, golf, driving, range, i, can, look, out, on, to, the, western, side, of, the, burial, site, i, have, written, in, previous, weeks, about, the, work, there, has, been, going, on, at, this, site, viewing, the, site, are, from, our, village, side, would, hardly, know, what, that, there, ever, was, a, burial, site, hundreds, of, tons, of, topsoil, had, been, laid, and, smoothed, out, to, make, more, or, less, like, a, landscaped, feature, it, looks, really, good, from, the, western, side, though, things, are, little, different, work, is, still, going, on, there, large, amounts, of, soil, have, been, tipped, and, levelled, off, there, are, still, portakabins, there, and, heavy, plant, can, still, be, seen, moving, about, no, doubt, the, western, side, well, look, as, good, as, the, eastern, side, before, long, diary, 19, it, is, announced, that, the, prime, minister, and, his, wife, and, son, of, his, family, at, a, visit, to, cumbria, the, pm, arrives, in, west, cumbria, all, kinds, of, reports, are, written, in, the, local, and, national, press, about, what, he, is, going, to, do, or, not, do, or, what, he, should, be, doing, after, all, he, is, on, holiday, the, pm, did, meet, some, farmers, leaders, the, press, as, usual, stirred, things, up, or, as, to, where, he, should, be, meeting, tourism, officials, say, that, the, trip, was, fantastic, for, tourism, in, the, county, or, person, they, i, can't, see, what, difference, it, made, if, people, want, to, come, cumbria, they, will, come, irrespective, of, whether, the, pm, comes, or, not, diary, 20, after, a, lot, of, protests, it, looks, as, though, it, the, 20, day, restriction, on, cattle, movement, will, be, lifted, perhaps, this, will, now, mean, that, they, could, be, cattle, and, sheep, entries, at, local, agricultural, shows, some, shows, are, going, ahead, with, very, limited, entries, of, livestock, and, some, with, no, animal, entries, at, all, these, shows, have, always, been, very, popular, with, my, family, for, over, 20, years, also, living, with, in, a, farming, community, makes, us, feel, part, of, the, annual, agricultural, scene, diary, 21, i’ve, written, before, regarding, agricultural, shows, and, the, pride, in, which, local, people, take, in, these, shows, although, a, lot, of, shows, have, gone, ahead, this, season, they, have, had, a, reduced, animal, showing, or, in, some, cases, no, animals, at, all, today, i’ve, heard, that, one, show, has, been, cancelled, altogether, this, particular, show, is, one, of, the, most, popular, in, the, area, maybe, because, of, lack, of, entries, or, the, organisers, just, wanted, to, cancel, because, of, the, 3, week, restriction, on, animal, movement, i, don’t, know, perhaps, it, would, be, better, to, cancel, them, than, have, a, depleted, show, diary, 22, spent, a, few, hours, in, the, fells, today, it, was, good, to, be, able, to, wander, the, familiar, paths, and, let, our, dog, run, free, it, was, a, good, boost, to, our, moral, and, perhaps, the, dog’s, too, we, all, missed, being, able, to, do, this, last, year, diary, 23, last, bank, holiday, before, xmas, and, the, last, before, the, schools, go, back, at, the, golf, course, where, i, help, out, part, time, during, the, summer, we, had, lots, of, customers, a, lot, of, them, commented, on, how, enjoyable, it, was, to, be, on, holiday, in, this, area, this, year, compared, to, the, restrictions, that, were, in, place, last, year, maybe, the, holiday, establishments, are, getting, back, to, normal, there, are, no, restrictions, put, on, them, like, there, is, in, place, now, with, farmers, and, agriculture, diary, 26, sorting, through, the, mail, left, whilst, away, on, holiday, and, i, came, across, a, notice, sent, by, the, village, committee, notifying, a, harvest, thanksgiving, festival, to, be, held, next, month, in, the, village, hall, as, we, have, no, church, in, the, village, it, is, being, held, in, some, farm, buildings, in, the, centre, of, the, village, this, will, be, a, splendid, event, the, farm, did, not, have, fmd, but, couldn’t, take, animals, from, one, field, to, another, and, couldn’t, market, them, when, we, consider, the, gloom, that, settled, on, this, farm, and, community, it, is, very, welcome, to, have, this, unique, event, here, in, the, heart, of, the, village, and, the, farmer, and, his, wife, will, be, at, the, centre, of, events, a, lovely, gesture, and, i, hope, it, will, be, well, supported, there, will, be, a, distribution, of, harvest, gifts, afterwards, what, a, change, from, a, year, ago, diary, 27, with, the, aid, of, binoculars, i, have, been, able, to, have, a, closer, look, at, the, burial, site, from, a, westerly, direction, there, are, vents, in, the, shape, of, small, towers, to, extract, gas, from, the, site, there, are, pipes, connecting, these, vents, a, lot, of, work, is, still, going, on, there, however, all, this, takes, place, in, the, western, side, which, is, the, opposite, side, to, where, my, village, is, situated, from, our, side, there, is, nothing, to, suggest, the, amount, of, work, going, on, because, of, this, fmd, is, pushed, further, into, the, backs, of, villager’s, minds, it, is, something, in, the, past, it, has, happened, so, what, people, like, myself, who, talk, to, farmers, and, agriculturalists, do, not, easily, forget, these, events, personally, i, am, still, concerned, about, the, burial, site, when, inquiries, are, made, about, it, all, we, can, do, is, accept, what, we, are, told, it, does, not, look, as, though, every, precaution, is, being, taken, to, alleviate, an, odours, or, contamination, diary, 28, i, had, to, see, the, village, farmer, on, another, matter, and, was, asked, inside, for, coffee, and, a, chat, he, was, able, to, tell, me, of, the, full, implications, of, the, 20, day, rule, he, accepts, that, this, is, a, precaution, to, prevent, another, outbreak, of, fmd, but, there, is, a, lot, of, work, involved, he, told, me, of, an, isolation, area, that, he, has, created, and, also, the, fencing, arrangements, where, his, land, adjoins, the, neighbours, land, i, would, say, that, 95, of, the, public, don’t, know, about, this, even, if, they, have, heard, of, the, 20, day, rule, for, him, he, owns, the, largest, farm, in, the, area, it, is, bad, enough, having, to, do, all, the, physical, work, as, regards, fencing, etc, but, for, anyone, such, as, a, small, holder, it, must, be, a, nightmare, if, he, has, to, bring, animals, back, from, market, that, haven’t, been, sold, friday, my, wife, and, i, played, a, round, of, golf, at, aspatria, this, course, was, badly, restricted, when, fmd, hit, this, area, we, were, reminded, that, there, are, restrictions, on, adjoining, land, there, were, notices, asking, people, who, hit, balls, onto, farm, land, not, to, cross, the, fence, to, retrieve, them, because, of, fmd, precautions, this, was, news, to, us, it, does, make, sense, though, the, farmer, wouldn’t, know, where, players, had, been, walking, prior, to, playing, golf, diary, 29, attended, the, harvest, festival, held, in, the, village, farm, a, large, cattle, shed, had, been, cleaned, and, decorated, for, this, event, chairs, had, been, brought, in, fruit, and, vegetables, were, on, display, for, auctioning, at, the, end, the, place, was, packed, a, lot, of, money, was, raised, and, it, was, a, very, happy, event, well, supported, and, a, big, boost, for, the, farm, and, the, village, i, don’t, think, that, the, general, public, care, much, about, fmd, now, that, is, has, been, a, year, since, the, last, case, was, confirmed, in, cumbria, the, public, may, be, reminded, if, they, read, the, local, newspapers, intently, for, instance, there, was, a, letter, to, the, editor, published, recently, which, referred, to, the, results, of, the, cumbria, inquiry, into, fmd, it, may, have, been, a, farmer, who, wrote, it, i, don’t, know, but, the, writer, certainly, went, to, town, in, the, scathing, comments, on, the, handling, of, fmd, even, caustic, remarks, regarding, the, efforts, since, fmd, of, defra, and, mrs, beckett, i, certainly, wouldn’t, like, to, cross, the, writer, i, also, think, the, farming, community, must, be, holding, it’s, breath, in, case, the, present, restrictions, such, as, they, are, prove, to, be, worthless, then, we, will, all, suffer, again, week, 30, what, a, difference, a, year, makes, despite, some, restrictions, on, public, access, to, agricultural, fields, in, some, areas, of, the, county, it, doesn’t, apply, here, although, most, locals, confine, themselves, to, footpaths, and, bridleways, other, people, seem, to, think, that, all, fields, are, recreation, areas, they, walk, and, run, across, some, of, the, fields, in, close, proximity, to, the, village, regardless, of, the, presence, of, stock, they, exercise, dogs, and, treat, it, as, a, some, kind, of, park, one, farmer, is, well, know, for, being, aggressive, he, used, last, year’s, fmd, outbreak, to, run, people, off, his, land, i, met, a, local, councillor, who, expressed, concerns, regarding, the, proposed, building, of, an, incinerator, to, the, south, of, the, village, on, the, current, open, cast, mining, site, the, two, waste, disposal, sites, to, the, west, and, north, west, of, the, village, have, become, big, issues, in, the, last, 18, months, due, to, the, burial, of, animals, and, the, disposal, of, pyre, ash, and, leachates, it, seems, as, though, we, are, going, to, get, over, this, ghastly, fmd, outbreak, only, to, have, this, scenario, thrust, upon, us, week, 31, met, a, small, holder, who, keeps, sheep, near, to, this, village, he, was, very, scathing, over, the, report, that, the, government, and, defra, don’t, want, to, talk, up, an, offer, from, the, local, authorities, here, to, implement, findings, and, recommendations, from, their, local, inquiry, over, fmd, why, what, has, this, government, who, didn’t, perform, very, well, during, the, outbreak, got, to, hide, and, why, shirk, away, from, the, findings, instead, of, facing, up, to, the, failings, that, we, all, know, about, it, also, seems, that, they, don’t, want, to, make, any, safeguards, and, recommendations, to, avoid, a, further, outbreak, as, a, non, agriculturalist, it, doesn’t, surprise, me, in, the, least, after, all, government, has, failed, other, industries, in, the, country, for, as, long, as, i, can, remember, week, 32, i, am, convinced, that, authorities, in, the, area, must, think, that, the, way, animals, were, buried, here, and, pyre, ash, and, leachate, were, disposed, of, at, another, site, nearby, was, all, done, as, very, successfully, and, that, the, two, sites, handled, everything, professionally, therefore, the, sites, would, be, more, than, capable, of, handling, ash, from, an, incinerator, to, me, this, is, the, legacy, of, fmd, i, am, most, annoyed, over, this, together, with, a, lot, more, of, the, villagers, this, village, no, longer, has, a, representative, on, the, parish, council, both, have, resigned, for, whatever, reason, and, no, one, will, step, forward, to, take, it, one, i, have, said, that, i, would, take, a, set, on, the, parish, council, to, represent, the, village, and, fight, for, our, rights, and, future, quality, of, life, due, to, this, i, have, uncovered, a, pile, of, claims, and, counter, claims, it, seems, that, both, parish, and, district, counsellors, know, what, is, going, on, regarding, the, incinerator, and, that, developers, have, made, concessions, to, some, councillors, also, there, are, claims, that, the, developers, have, offered, money, to, local, landowners, and, farmers, so, that, roads, can, be, put, in, all, these, accusations, have, been, strongly, denied, at, the, same, time, it, is, rumoured, that, some, farmers, have, been, offered, local, fields, nearby, because, of, what, i, have, discovered, in, my, own, investigations, it, would, seem, that, a, lot, of, friendships, gained, over, 20, years, could, come, to, an, end, i, am, fearful, of, what, i, have, uncovered, there, are, also, claims, that, councillors, are, only, in, it, for, what, there, can, get, out, and, are, not, to, be, trusted, i, don’t, want, that, said, of, me, also, by, the, time, all, this, is, sorted, out, i, will, be, 70, 75, i, certainly, don’t, want, to, be, fighting, peoples, battles, at, that, age, however, i, will, support, any, effort, to, stop, the, proposed, development, week, 33, once, again, the, large, farm, in, the, centre, of, the, village, was, the, venue, for, the, annual, guy, fawkes, bonfire, and, fireworks, organisers, had, been, round, the, village, asking, for, donations, to, provide, fireworks, a, tractor, and, trailer, toured, the, areas, picking, up, things, for, the, bonfire, drinks, and, food, were, served, in, a, barn, after, the, fireworks, this, is, another, occasion, when, villagers, and, the, farming, community, come, together, it, is, perhaps, the, only, time, that, the, general, public, of, the, village, think, about, fmd, and, last, years, events, if, only, briefly, the, farmer, remarked, that, is, the, third, time, this, year, that, there, has, been, a, public, function, on, his, farm, the, first, was, the, jubilee, party, in, june, then, on, october, 6th, the, harvest, festival, service, these, events, keep, farming, in, the, public, eye, week, 34, i, haven’t, written, before, about, the, proposed, building, of, an, incinerator, nearby, to, burn, the, counties, waste, if, as, we, all, suspect, the, incinerator, is, built, then, the, odours, plus, the, disposal, of, ash, to, the, fmd, waste, site, is, a, legacy, of, fmd, particularly, regarding, the, nearby, burial, and, disposal, site, week, 35, this, is, week, 35, of, this, project, and, for, most, of, the, 35, weeks, i, have, written, that, i, am, not, confident, of, the, future, there, are, numerous, reasons, for, this, mainly, the, situation, in, the, middle, east, today, i, travelled, to, keswick, to, do, some, xmas, shopping, i, was, given, a, lift, there, by, a, neighbour, who, is, in, his, 30s, he, was, very, upset, about, the, terrorist, situation, not, only, was, he, concerned, about, the, terror, threat, to, the, london, underground, but, the, threat, closer, to, home, as, regards, a, plane, crashing, into, the, nearby, sellafield, complex, we, don’t, know, the, effect, that, this, constant, bad, news, has, on, people, people, who, have, already, got, serious, worries, e.g, families, housing, finance, etc, must, feel, really, depressed, about, it, all, week, 36, near, to, the, next, village, is, a, long, established, farm, of, many, acres, recently, the, farm’s, stock, of, animals, and, machinery, was, sold, off, the, owner, who, had, farmed, for, sixty, years, was, leaving, to, live, with, one, of, his, brothers, he, said, that, he, wouldn’t, know, how, he, would, feel, when, he, left, the, farm, for, the, last, time, this, weekend, the, farmhouse, hasn’t, been, sold, yet, and, now, stands, empty, it’s, a, strange, place, now, where, everything, was, hustle, and, bustle, they, even, had, a, b, b, business, there, is, now, derelict, and, bare, it’s, a, sad, reflection, on, the, agricultural, business, in, the, wake, of, fmd, this, farm, isn’t, the, only, one, in, the, area, that, has, sold, up, some, farm, houses, remain, as, dwellings, but, this, particular, one, which, we, saw, nearly, every, day, is, just, an, other, sad, reminder, of, the, way, farming, has, declined, in, this, rural, area, week, 39, tuesday, boarded, the, train, at, penrith, to, journey, to, crewe, to, see, our, daughter, during, the, journey, i, got, into, conversation, with, a, fellow, passenger, he, noticed, i, had, got, on, the, train, at, penrith, and, perhaps, thought, i, was, connected, with, the, agricultural, industry, the, conversation, drifted, into, the, previous, years, fmd, outbreak, it, is, rather, strange, that, i, live, in, a, very, rural, area, and, fmd, is, rarely, mentioned, now, however, this, fellow, passenger, although, not, from, an, agricultural, background, gave, his, views, on, the, handling, of, the, situation, it, was, no, different, from, the, views, expressed, by, locals, at, the, time, of, the, crisis, it, just, goes, to, show, that, fmd, is, very, much, in, peoples, minds, even, if, they, were, not, connected, to, agriculture, in, any, way, week, 40, friday, now, that, the, mep, have, published, their, critical, report, on, the, fmd, crisis, it, is, interesting, to, read, an, article, published, in, our, local, weekly, paper, from, a, reader, article, entitled, foot, and, mouth, report, included, i, don’t, have, the, knowledge, or, the, data, to, support, this, readers, comments, however, i, have, heard, plenty, of, stories, from, mainly, unreliable, sources, to, confirm, what, he, says, it, makes, interesting, reading, i, think, week, 41, tuesday, no, wonder, my, confidence, in, the, future, has, taken, a, big, plunge, over, the, last, few, months, the, situation, in, iraq, doesn’t, get, any, better, mr, tony, blair’s, message, to, the, armed, forces, of, the, uk, bear, this, out, being, an, ex, serviceman, i, know, what, the, situation, holds, for, our, troops, but, are, we, right, to, follow, the, usa, in, a, war, against, iraq, no, doubt, saddam, hussein, does, pose, a, threat, but, so, does, india, and, pakistan, to, each, other, each, of, these, two, relatively, poor, countries, has, threatened, each, other, as, regards, their, nuclear, arsenals, now, the, loose, cannon, in, the, form, of, north, korea, is, positioning, itself, as, regards, its, position, in, the, nuclear, arms, league, personally, i, think, that, north, korea, poses, a, more, dangerous, threat, than, iraq, it, is, not, a, very, happy, new, year, for, a, lot, of, people, perhaps, it, will, all, be, settled, diplomatically, i, wonder, week, 42, nothing, of, any, importance, to, write, about, due, to, refurbishment, at, home, week, 43, monday, one, of, the, items, on, the, agenda, for, this, months, meeting, of, distington, parish, council, is, a, report, on, the, wood, felling, and, the, implications, of, this, as, i, have, written, in, the, diary, before, there, are, strong, rumours, of, the, proposed, plan, to, fell, woods, build, a, new, road, through, the, felled, site, and, bring, coal, from, the, nearby, opencast, site, to, link, up, with, an, existing, road, then, to, transport, the, coal, to, a, storage, area, on, workington, dock, then, when, the, coal, is, worked, out, to, build, an, incinerator, on, the, coal, site, ash, from, this, development, would, then, be, transported, on, the, new, road, to, be, disposed, of, on, the, waste, disposal, site, that, was, used, for, fmd, pyre, ash, and, leachate, thursday, read, a, report, of, the, aforesaid, meeting, the, owners, have, declared, that, our, worries, are, groundless, in, fact, they, say, that, they, plan, to, eventually, open, the, woodland, to, the, public, the, owners, of, the, woodland, are, the, same, operators, of, the, opencast, coal, site, footpaths, will, be, created, if, a, grant, can, be, obtained, a, wooden, wheeled, ancient, water, mill, will, be, restored, after, the, closed, meeting, the, operations, director, of, the, site, said, that, there, has, been, a, misunderstanding, what, we, are, doing, will, benefit, local, people, he, said, that, a, management, project, for, the, wood, is, being, followed, involving, felling, dead, trees, and, fresh, planting, he, added, the, felling, and, replanting, will, be, done, this, year, after, which, it, will, take, time, to, become, established, we’re, talking, of, a, ten, year, programme, but, it, should, have, long, term, benefits, i, think, our, pr, at, the, start, of, this, wasn’t, very, good, and, in, the, future, we, will, let, the, council, know, of, our, plans, the, council, agreed, to, keep, a, watch, on, the, work, here, in, g, this, statement, differs, greatly, from, what, some, of, us, have, been, told, by, our, village, based, county, councillor, there, has, never, been, any, suggestion, that, the, felled, woods, would, become, a, land, fill, site, but, would, be, felled, to, provide, the, new, road, there, was, nothing, mentioned, at, the, meeting, regarding, the, proposed, incinerator, being, built, the, county, council, that, this, has, ever, been, planned, however, our, representative, is, adamant, that, this, is, not, so, week, 44, tuesday, for, the, first, time, my, property, has, finally, overcome, a, situation, that, was, affected, by, fmd, in, july, 2000, the, electricity, supplier, notified, me, to, say, that, the, trees, in, my, garden, had, grown, so, tall, that, the, topmost, branches, were, in, close, contact, with, an, eleven, thousand, volt, overhead, power, line, and, that, they, should, be, felled, or, severely, pruned, after, some, further, negotiations, it, was, decided, to, prune, to, some, height, that, i, wasn’t, happy, with, although, the, treetops, were, not, actually, touching, the, wires, it, was, considered, a, risk, in, the, forthcoming, months, however, as, time, passed, i, couldn’t, wait, for, the, foresters, to, arrive, so, i, pruned, the, trees, myself, in, january, 2001, the, electric, supplier, suggested, that, the, trees, should, be, pruned, further, a, date, was, agreed, but, the, foresters, didn’t, arrive, time, dragged, on, and, the, trees, grew, back, to, their, original, height, again, the, electric, supplier, suggested, they, be, pruned, or, felled, a, new, date, was, agreed, upon, however, the, foresters, couldn’t, do, the, job, because, the, isolator, switch, was, on, farmland, and, they, couldn’t, get, access, to, it, because, of, fmd, restrictions, and, so, it, dragged, on, despite, visits, by, foresters, and, electric, supplier, reps, the, trees, got, bigger, and, i, was, forbidden, to, touch, them, neighbours, could, hear, crackling, noises, coming, from, the, wires, and, it, became, very, worrying, people, suggested, that, i, should, do, something, about, it, i, took, the, matter, up, directly, with, the, supplier, and, the, foresters, i, was, promised, dates, only, for, them, to, be, cancelled, in, december, 2002, a, date, of, 21st, january, 2003, was, given, this, time, they, came, and, we, agreed, that, two, trees, be, felled, and, another, pruned, after, 30, months, it, finally, happened, thursday, met, a, small, holder, who, has, his, land, on, the, edge, of, this, village, who, told, me, that, the, 20, day, rule, of, animal, restriction, of, animal, movement, was, being, lifted, and, replaced, by, a, 6, day, restriction, this, was, good, news, for, him, and, any, other, farmer, later, that, day, i, met, another, farmer, who, didn’t, know, that, the, restriction, was, being, lifted, you, would, have, thought, that, i, had, told, him, he’d, won, the, lottery, good, news, all, round, for, the, people, friday, listening, to, the, local, radio, today, and, was, surprised, to, hear, a, report, that, the, citizens, advice, bureau, in, a, small, lakeland, town, had, been, receiving, clients, who, were, still, experiencing, hardship, due, to, fmd, it, is, now, 18, months, since, the, last, outbreak, and, the, effects, according, to, the, person, being, interviewed, were, still, being, felt, not, just, by, farmers, and, agriculturists, but, by, guest, houses, hotels, tradesmen, and, in, particular, some, self, employed, debt, seems, to, be, the, biggest, problem, it, seems, as, though, some, people, had, weathered, the, hardships, of, fmd, initially, only, to, find, that, their, plans, had, come, adrift, somehow, afterwards, quite, disturbing, to, hear, that, the, situation, is, still, with, us, in, this, county, to, some, degree, week, 45, these, diaries, were, instituted, to, deal, with, the, after, effects, of, fmd, although, there, were, no, cases, of, fmd, in, this, village, everyone, knew, about, it, particularly, as, nearly, everyone, who, went, to, work, from, here, would, pass, the, main, farm, in, the, village, centre, or, some, of, the, farms, on, the, outskirts, of, the, village, now, that, fmd, is, over, most, people, who, live, here, don’t, seem, to, think, about, it, anymore, the, only, people, affected, are, the, farmers, naturally, this, is, a, strange, village, in, lots, of, ways, only, the, farmer, and, his, immediate, family, are, connected, with, agriculture, the, rest, are, professional, people, or, people, who, work, at, nearby, sellafield, industries, in, workington, and, whitehaven, or, are, retired, there, is, no, church, no, village, pub, no, village, shop, no, village, community, centre, or, meeting, place, only, tradesmen, that, call, are, the, milkman, and, the, solid, fuel, merchant, we, are, left, to, get, on, with, life, in, our, own, way, the, parish, of, distington, to, which, we, belong, have, all, the, facilities, associated, with, a, larger, community, such, as, a, church, pub, and, community, centre, all, of, which, are, two, miles, away, consequently, the, parish, council, meets, there, once, a, month, and, discusses, all, the, problems, of, the, area, including, ours, however, our, representative, on, the, council, has, resigned, and, no, one, has, come, forward, to, represent, us, anything, that, has, been, discussed, at, the, parish, council, is, reported, in, he, local, newspaper, village, pubs, are, a, good, venue, to, discuss, local, issues, and, to, exchange, views, and, mainly, to, gossip, village, tittle, tattle, as, i, call, it, as, we, have, no, pub, the, gossip, is, rife, from, one, source, or, another, with, bits, added, on, or, left, out, as, is, the, choice, of, the, person, concerned, quite, a, lot, of, people, one, meets, are, experts, in, their, own, particular, choice, of, subject, whether, it, is, politics, finance, or, mrs, jones, current, boy, friend, it, is, a, fault, to, take, on, board, all, that, is, gossiped, about, when, one, meets, a, fellow, villager, in, the, country, lanes, whilst, out, walking, the, dog, week, 46, illness, to, a, family, member, week, 47, continued, illness, week, 48, over, the, past, few, weeks, there, has, been, a, lot, of, tree, felling, in, the, nearby, woods, this, has, led, to, a, lot, of, disturbance, to, the, villagers, because, of, the, use, of, large, vehicles, needed, to, remove, the, felled, timber, and, also, the, foresters, vehicles, churning, up, the, grass, verges, and, the, ditches, a, lot, of, concern, was, raised, about, the, necessity, of, all, the, tree, felling, these, concerns, were, raised, in, the, press, and, also, in, the, parish, council, i, have, written, about, these, in, diaries, in, the, last, few, weeks, it, was, reported, in, mid, january, that, all, the, felled, woods, would, be, replanted, this, year, with, footpaths, created, for, the, enjoyment, of, the, local, population, now, all, timber, operations, have, ceased, large, areas, of, woodland, have, been, left, partly, felled, and, a, lot, of, felled, timber, is, left, lying, about, foresters, vehicles, have, gone, and, nothing, is, happening, despite, assurances, from, the, developers, it, looks, as, though, something, drastic, has, happened, village, tittle, tattle, says, that, the, foresters, have, not, been, paid, for, their, work, so, far, and, that, the, developers, have, run, out, of, money, if, this, is, so, what, is, going, to, happen, now, when, felling, started, late, last, year, i, contacted, two, environmental, agencies, regarding, the, threat, to, the, red, squirrels, badgers, and, buzzards, that, occupy, these, woods, i, was, told, that, it, was, only, a, partial, felling, and, they, the, environmental, agencies, were, satisfied, that, any, disturbances, would, be, slight, i, think, that, they, were, told, this, by, the, developers, and, accepted, what, they, were, told, without, a, site, visit, the, developers, have, been, known, to, mislead, groups, in, the, past, including, landowners, farmers, councils, and, individuals, i, personally, am, not, happy, about, this, situation, i, have, always, took, a, keen, interest, in, wildlife, and, feel, that, we, have, been, let, down, by, the, lies, of, developers, and, the, lack, of, serious, interest, from, wildlife, agencies, some, of, which, are, an, offshoot, of, central, government, i, for, one, will, keep, a, close, look, on, the, situation, with, or, without, other, villagers, and, in, particular, local, councillors, week, 49, by, chance, i, met, three, small, holders, all, at, the, same, time, they, were, discussing, farming, by, the, roadside, all, of, them, were, pleased, that, the, 20, day, ruling, was, coming, to, an, end, and, that, their, lives, were, more, or, less, coming, back, to, normal, they, also, expressed, the, opinion, that, the, 20, day, rule, and, the, 6, day, rule, were, only, in, force, to, protect, their, interests, however, they, were, unanimous, in, their, condemnation, over, the, importing, of, foreign, meat, and, meat, products, into, this, country, they, feel, that, foreign, meat, is, not, subjected, to, enough, checks, before, entry, into, the, united, kingdom, week, 51, met, a, farmer, today, who, told, me, that, he’d, seen, a, report, based, on, findings, by, the, eu, and, defra, it, stated, all, the, things, that, everyone, who, is, an, agriculturalist, and, those, who, take, an, interest, in, the, countryside, had, been, saying, about, what, was, wrong, with, the, handlers, of, the, fmd, outbreak, it, just, proves, that, it, doesn’t, take, an, academic, genius, to, know, what, should, have, been, done, at, the, time, everyone, can, be, wiser, after, the, event, but, statements, by, the, nfu, and, individuals, at, the, onset, were, not, heeded, for, example, the, movement, of, animals, should, have, been, halted, sooner, and, the, army, should, have, been, brought, in, much, sooner, now, the, question, of, vaccination, rumbles, on, should, we, or, shouldn’t, we, vaccinate, there, is, a, fear, of, the, outbreak, again, particularly, when, the, findings, of, the, 1960, outbreak, were, not, implemented, since, the, sadness, of, fmd, there, has, been, quite, a, few, instances, of, socialising, at, the, farm, such, as, harvest, festival, jubilee, party, and, almost, any, excuse, for, a, shindig, good, to, see, farmers, enjoying, themselves, week, 52, met, out, local, farmer, who, told, me, that, there, is, to, be, new, legislation, to, dispose, of, fallen, stock, no, longer, can, a, farmer, bury, fallen, stock, on, his, land, but, must, now, provide, an, incinerator, to, dispose, of, dead, animals, this, must, be, a, costly, business, could, dead, animals, not, be, taken, to, a, central, point, and, burned, week, 54, one, thing, about, fmd, was, the, effect, that, it, had, on, the, poaching, fraternity, living, in, a, rural, area, we, expect, this, to, happen, nobody, seems, to, mind, that, a, few, rabbits, and, pheasants, go, missing, what, is, really, alarming, is, the, use, of, dogs, and, high, powered, rifles, to, poach, deer, fmd, put, a, stop, to, all, this, now, a, neighbour, has, told, me, of, poachers, near, to, the, village, using, rifles, and, shooting, deer, the, only, people, benefiting, from, this, are, the, poachers, and, hoteliers, who, receive, these, dead, beasts, and, no, questions, asked, also, the, danger, of, villagers, being, hit, by, stray, rifle, shots, causes, alarm, to, others, week, 55, i, think, that, there, is, a, lot, of, jumping, on, the, band, wagon, now, that, fmd, has, cleared, up, for, instance, i, listened, to, an, interview, on, the, local, radio, station, given, by, a, hotelier, things, weren’t, going, well, in, his, establishment, having, got, over, fmd, and, its, implications, visitors, were, slowly, returning, to, the, area, but, not, in, sufficient, numbers, to, cause, great, joy]

Standardising

If we want to focus on the ‘bag of words’ approach, we don’t really care about uppercase or lowercase distinctions. For example, we want ‘Privacy’ to count as the same word as ‘privacy’, rather than as two different words.

We can remove all uppercase letters with the function ‘tolower’ under the base package

However, you may have noticed that the above tokenisation code has already returned our text as lowercase, so we do not need to do anything more. But if you’re curious, the code to do so is listed here!

foot_mouth_df$lower_case <- 
tolower(foot_mouth_df$tokenised_words)

Spell check

We can use the hunspell_check and hunspell_suggest functions from the hunspell package to test individual words

#foot_mouth_df$spell_checked <-
#hunspell(foot_mouth_df$Everything_else)

Remove irrevalancies

In this section we will identify how to remove;

  1. punctuation
  2. empty spaces
  3. stop words

Removing Punctuation

Punctuation is not always very useful for understanding text, especially if you look at words as tokens because lots of the punctuation ends up being tokenised on its own.

We could use RegEx to replace all punctuation with nothing, and that is a valid approach.

# Removing Punction
foot_mouth_df$no_punct <- 
  str_replace_all(foot_mouth_df$tokenised_words, "[[:punct:]]", "")

head(foot_mouth_df$punct)
## NULL

If you were interested in removing non-alphanumeric characters, the reg ex exprresion is as follows “[^[:alnum:]]”, ““

#Remove Non-Alphanumeric characters 

#foot_mouth_df$no_alpha_num <- 
  #str_replace_all(foot_mouth_df$Everything_else, "[^[:alnum:]]", "")

Removing empty spaces

Did you notice that removing the punctuation has left list items that are empty strings. Between ‘corpus’ and ‘it’, for example, is an item shown as ’’. This is an empty string item that was a full stop before we removed the punctuation.

We can again use the str_replace_all function from the stringry package to replace all intances of empty spaces

foot_mouth_df$no_spaces <- 
  str_replace_all(foot_mouth_df$no_punct, " ", repl ="")

head(foot_mouth_df)
##          Filename Number
## 1 5407diary02.rtf      0
## 2 5407diary03.rtf      1
## 3 5407diary07.rtf      2
## 4 5407diary08.rtf      3
## 5 5407diary09.rtf      4
## 6 5407diary10.rtf      5
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   \n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1975\nGender: M\nOccupation: Group 6\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\n\nDiary 1         \nThursday Meeting @ N Lakes\nFriday TB testing on restocking farm. Usual chat and DEFRA comments\nThe meeting (research panel gp 6) at the North Lakes was interesting. It surprises me sometimes how people (myself included) never seem to tire of the same stories and complaints over how the crisis was handled. Some of the episodes recounted must have been told dozens of times over the last year but whoever says it always seems just as keen to say it again – Perhaps a reflection of how deeply people feel about the events of the last year. Having said that, most of the resentments and rants that I hear on daily farm visits are focused fairly and squarely at DEFRA and not FMD virus. Farmers seem far more upset at the constriction put on them by DEFRA than they do by the loss of stock now, although I know and saw how utterly devastated most were when they were actually diagnosed with the virus and in the week or two following.\nMy work in the practice is becoming less and less FMD orientated as time goes on. Licensing and restocking visits are drawing to a close and we are starting to return to “normal” vet work. My life has been more settled since the end of FMD. Although there was never a real threat of redundancy there was a great deal of uncertainty as to what form work would take during the outbreak - it was never clear whether I would be based at the practice or working as a DEFRA vet from month to month. Now that it is finished (I hope) the practice and my work can get back to a routine and at least knowing where I’ll be based each day, even if not which calls are going to come in.\nWith regard to FMD the biggest influence it has at the moment and over the last week is acting as a listener to farmers who still talk about it (and DEFRA) a great deal.\n\nDiary 2         \nMon  Shap restocking, having to justify visit\nWed Melmerby\n I went to see a farmer this week to do the first inspection of his sentinel animals that he is restocking his farm. In common with many farmers he was unwavering in his conviction that his animals had been deliberately infected and that Tony Blair or DEFRA were the ultimate culprits. The belief is that they want to put farmers out of business. This particular farmer made the very valid point that DEFRA & co had underestimated the resilience of the farming community. I think that this has been very striking.  Considering the strain that they have been under (in some cases worse for those who didn’t get FMD than for those who did) it has been remarkable how little the majority of our clients have changed. Admittedly we see most of them on a professional basis regarding their animals’ health and not their own, but on the whole they seem to have been very forward thinking about the outbreak. Many have taken it as a chance to increase the size of herds and to eliminate many other diseases as well as FMD.\nWork in the practice has been fairly steady. As week the number of FMD calls is decreasing. One of the problems with doing restocking, licensing and TB calls is that we are on the farm at DEFRA’s instruction. Normally it is the farmer who calls us out and this can cause friction. Anything related to DEFRA will put hackles up 9 times out of 10. It definitely causes stress at times but puts my diplomacy skills into good practice! It sometimes feels as though some farmers just need an outlet and I fit the bill. After agreeing with everything they say and sympathising, it usually smoothes out and ends with a cup of tea, but it does feel as though we have to justify what we are doing much more than prior to February 2001.\n\nDiary 3\nThis week was the anniversary of the week I went to my first IP and associated slaughter, pyre building etc. At several times during the week I found myself thinking “this time last year I was…” Although obviously not pleasant memories the thoughts did not particularly affect me in a bad way or distract me from work, it just took me back to that time when I had time to think. I went to see a sick horse near Carlisle, which is where the IP was, and it was interesting to drive past the farm and see animals in the buildings again. Hopefully the farmer concerned is getting back on track again.\nWith respect to daily routine, work is getting very busy. Lambing time is starting to really get going with the inevitable increase in calls. Although it can be hectic at times it’s better to be kept busy rather than having it too quiet. It’s also good to actually be doing lambings and other sheep work as it’s two years since we did any apart from euthanasing sheep last year.\nOn Monday I went to do a re stocking check on a farm. The farmer is convinced he was given FMD deliberately and on arrival I was given his weekly tirade regarding DEFRA, Tony Blair, how I must have made thousands of pounds out of it etc etc. After sometime of not rising to the bait he calmed down and half an hour later was sweetness and light. Perhaps he just needs someone to let pressure out to. Only one session like that a week isn’t too bad considering how many farm visits we do!\n\nDiary 4\nMonday brought another dressing down from the farmer I mentioned last week. It was shorter and less passionate this time -  perhaps he’s mellowing a bit.\nI drove up to Junction 40 one day with the sun out. It reminded me of a similar day a year ago when I could count 15 smoke plumes from pyres on the same bit of road. As I said last week anniversary memories like this aren’t especially difficult for me, they’re just there. In a lot of ways it’s quite satisfying thinking about what was happening a year ago and how well things have progressed since then. Most of our farmers have re stocked, work is returning to normal. Even things like being able to drive onto farms again rather than having to leave the car at the farm entrance makes a big difference.\nWork continues to be very busy with the typical seasonal calls to sheep and cattle. We have a couple of vet students doing work experience with us which had to stop last March as we couldn’t take extras onto farms with us. Another sign of the continuing return to normality. Some days it seems as if we have returned to how we were a year ago. The most obvious legacy is perhaps the thorough and extensive clothing disinfection between each farm - a good habit which is very hard to break!\n\nDiary 5\nI had to work on Easter Monday morning, which was fairly uneventful. As for the last few weeks there were the usual seasonal calls to sheep and cattle, but nothing too stressful.\nOn Tuesday I did the final blood sampling on the last farm that we have that is still at the sentinel stage of re stocking. The farmers seemed fairly mellow today and spared me the usual lecture/attempt at argument. Perhaps it’s because the end of his restriction is in sight. The test went very smoothly, and I didn’t hear from him until the end of the week, when I (he?) was upset (probably justifiably) that his results still weren’t back. As processing the bloods is not our responsibility all I could do was sympathise and plead ignorance!\nThe rest of the week was fairly routine work-wise. Friday was taken up doing a big tuberculin and brucellosis test on a re stocked farm. They all have to be done within 3 mths of re stocking. Although it was a big job it was a well run farm with plenty of help, so we got finished within the day and with as few delays as could be expected.\nNow that the evenings are lighter it’s meant that on nights off duty I’ve been able to get out more. It’s made a very welcome change to be able to bike/walk on the fells again this year after all the restrictions of 2001. Long may it and the weather continue!\n\nDiary 6\nFinally finished the last a restocking jobs on Monday.\nThe farmer was getting very frustrated (probably justifiably so) at the length of time it was taking - the bank holidays etc last week meant to that the labs were closed so that blood samples took longer to process. I got the results at 4. 45 Monday evening and in an attempt to create some goodwill agreed to go to the farm to do a final check that evening. On arrival of the usual tirade about DEFRA and vet's came my way which was slightly hard to take. He then said that he didn't blame me personally which was nice of him. I think (hope) he realises that we can only try to get things going faster and ultimately it’s out off our hands. At least it's good to have all the restocking work finished. It feels as though the first stage is over in getting back to where we were. Another sign of returning to usual is the continuing pace of work. Nights on call are again a time for working rather than the call free nights of summer 2001. This week has brought early-morning lambing  most days. The rest of the time we’re is as busy as it's been for a year. The day book is full each day and we all seem to be driving around the county more or less keeping up with the jobs! (which is a good thing!) I had the weekend off and was going to go to Edinburgh to see some friends, but in the end stayed in Penrith for some R&R!\n\nDiary 7\nI had a half-day on Monday and went to Riggindale at the head of Haweswater with a friend who had come to stay for a night or two. The plan was to see the golden eagles nesting that up to unfortunately they were off on a day trip to another part of the Lake District. But the weather was good and it made a very pleasant change from work.\nThe practice is still going flat out with seasonal work. The daily flow of lambing and lambing related sheep problems shows no sign of ebbing.  There are also increasing numbers of cattle problems probably related to coming towards the spring turn-out of cattle that have been inside for 6-7 months.  The fact that most of them are in new surroundings is almost certainly adding to the problems. On the whole of farmers are fairly pragmatic about the difficulties they are having. Most accept that they were bound to have problems with the restocking and on the whole are pleased just to have stock on again. Some are very keen to be as efficient as possible whereas others will more readily go along with the old farming mantra that "where there's a livestock there's a dead stock" (Not quite what the veterinary profession wants to encourage!)\nI was on call at the weekend and had one of the busier few days I can remember. Again it was mostly seasonal farm work, which although it was time-consuming is often quite rewarding. I'm still surprised by the number of sheep we are getting called to - perhaps it's because farmers have spent a lot of money on them to restock with and now feel they’re financially worth calling us for.\n\nDiary 8\nMade a couple of visits to one of our farmers who restocked over the winter this week. He's having a few problems with cows getting ill and generally not settling in very well.  He's one of the most amenable farmers on our books and never seems to try to blame anyone for his troubles. At times it's very frustrating not to be able to do more for people like him. I'd like to be able to give every one of his cows a magic injection and say that it'll get better but unfortunately that's not how it works!\nWe've had a lot of colt castrations to do this week, which is normal for this time of year. It puts more pressure on us in terms of work as we usually take two vets to each castration.  Considering how busy it is relations in the practice are generally very good. It has been stressful at times but on the whole this has been stress related to volume of jobs to do rather than people. It has also been a very different (and preferable) type of stress than this time of the last year. At least a lot of work makes us all feel fairly stable rather than the terrible uncertainty of last year. We’ve also taken on an extra vet this spring which would have been unthinkable last year.\nIn the middle of the week I did a farm visit with one of the vets from the local Veterinary Lab to discuss disease control on a re-stocked farm. Most of the work into disease surveillance on a farm was DEFRA funded which went down well with the farmer.  She at least felt as though she was getting something back after fighting with DEFRA for the last few months. It was also encouraging to see someone taking a very positive approach to disease control in the future.\nMy cousin and some of his friends came down from Glasgow for the weekend to go into the Lake District. The weather was good on the whole and several people noted how good it was to have the paths open again.\n\nDiary 9\n  Started the week doing a big tuberculin and brucellosis test at a restocked farm. There has been a big backlog to clear after testing was stopped during FMD last year so we have to catch up with those farms that didn’t get the disease but are due a test as well as testing the restocking farms. We’re all very keen to keep Cumbria as a TB free zone, but with all the different stock coming in it’s going to be tricky. Monday’s test was long but okay on the whole. The set-up was good and the farming family were very pleasant which makes a huge difference to how the day goes! All was clear when I went to read the test on Thursday - a relief for all concerned.\nOverall work seems to be quietening down a bit this week compared to the last few.  We are now just busy rather than always feeling as if were one job behind all the time. On Wednesday and Thursday one of our clients brought in half-a-dozen Shetland ponies to castrate .It makes a change to have a "large animal" that is small enough to be easily physically restrained by one person.  The continuing good weather made doing an afternoon's work with the ponies in the practice’s field a very pleasant way to spend a few hours (I can't help feeling that no rain in April means we'll get loads later in the summer!)\nI was on a second call at the weekend. Saturday was very busy with small animal jobs which I mainly left to a colleague while I tried to clear up the farm and equine jobs.  Calm was pretty much restored by late afternoon, after which I wasn't called until early Sunday morning. Another of our re-stocked clients is having considerable trouble with some of his new animals and is becoming increasingly frustrated about it. We all try to help with the medical side of it (animals) but inevitably also get to hear a lot of his other worries too. Hopefully things will look up soon and he'll be able to ride it out OK.\n\nDiary 10\nHad a day off on Bank Holiday Monday - always the good way to start the week. I went up to Peebles in Scotland with some friends to go mountain biking. It was surprisingly empty for a weekend and the weather was good, and I didn't fall off - all in all, a good day out!\nTuesday was work as usual. I had to do a small TB test on a restocking farm. It shouldn't have been a long job but the facilities weren't great, so it didn’t go as slickly as it might have done. We all managed to get through in one piece so it could have been worse.\nOne of my colleagues went on maternity this week. She is part time but does all small animal work. Now that she's off for the next few months it means that an extra vet is needed each morning to stay in and do small animal operations. While it's probably not my favourite sort of work it does make a change from being out on farms every morning. It's also good to get a bit more experience at small procedures.\nAs well as doing smaller animals this week has brought several interesting equine cases. I had to hospitalise a horse for a few days for fairly intensive treatment which fortunately appears to have made a good recovery. There have also been a couple of horse operations at the practice this week. They’re generally quite interesting apart from the stress involved with having half a ton of horse asleep on the operating table!\nI had the weekend off and went to Edinburgh for a small reunion with friends I was at college with. Although we do talk about other things conversation inevitably came round to work. The effect of FMD and its consequences are still very much in people's minds. Friends all asked how it was last year and whether farms have restocked yet etc etc. It ‘s stuff which I seem to have said hundreds of times over the last few months, but people never seem to tire of asking it, and, to an extent, I don't seem to get bored of answering it. \n\nDiary 11\nThe week started with a big TB test at a restocking dairy farm. There were very good facilities and it subsequently went very smoothly and quickly despite the number of cows involved. The farmer seems to be quite positive about the new start and has been spared a lot of the problems that other people have experienced while restocking in terms of disease in the animals. Everything was clear when I read the test later in the week\nOn Wednesday afternoon I had a bit of a change as I went castrate two ponies belonging to my mother. She had bought two totally wild Fell ponies last autumn. They now a bit tamer, but not completely used to being handled yet. I went with one of our nurses and the senior partner, and it all went pretty much to plan. \nWork is still busy. There's one client in particular who is giving us a lot to do.  He restocked a few months ago and is obviously having trouble lambing his sheep. It got a bit trying when I had to get up to his third lambing of one night, but that's what we are there for I suppose! He's a nice man and always seems pleased to see us, which helps.\nI had the weekend off again and went to Glasgow to be best man at my cousin's wedding. Apart from the weather it went very well (I think) with no unsolvable problems! \n\nDiary 12\nStarted the week with a long visit for dairy fertility work to one of our big dairy farmers. It's one of the farmers who has been having problems after restocking and a visit that another vet usually does, so I felt a bit under pressure. It's the type of work, which is very routine but has the potential to go quite badly wrong. On the whole it went fairly well with no major problems. I get on pretty well with the farmer which always helps as it makes the time go by quicker.\nSmall animal work is still quite busy. I had two days inside this week doing small animals operations.  There wasn't anything particularly different or unusual, but it still helps to do more of it.\nOne of our farmers who managed to miss FMD is very busy with his calving schedule at the moment.  He’s tending to have very big calves, and subsequently we’re doing a lot of Caesareans there. This week has brought at least half-a-dozen, of which two were in the middle of the night - there have been a few vets are looking sleep deprived recently!  I had the weekend off and went so see a couple of friends in Edinburgh. We spent one day cycling in Peebles and then proceeded to nothing strenuous for the next!\n\nDiary 13\nThe week started with a big session dehorning cattle. It’s not exactly technical work and is fairly hard work – at least it gets me fit! We would normally do them at a younger age but quite a few have been missed as we didn’t get out onto farms for such routine work last year.\nOn the whole most people are fairly well caught up now that they’ve re-stocked/been having routine work done for the last 8 months or so, but there are still a few lagging behind.\nI had a call from a farmer who was one of our most consistently and vehemently anti-DEFRA people last year. I ended up doing a Caesarean and had quite a long chat with him. Conversation ended up coming round to the events of last year and he aired his resentments again. It was the first time in several weeks that I had heard this kind of talk, whereas a few months ago it would have been a daily occurrence. It wasn’t particularly aimed at me or the practice in particular but just frustration with the system as a whole.\nI went for a walk up Blencathra one evening during the week, but the highlight of the week has to be the start of the World Cup. I’ve been on duty this w/e but managed to see all but the last two minutes of this morning’s rather disappointing draw with Sweden. Most farmers are keen to watch the matches too, so lets hope not too many calls come in at the wrong time!\n\nDiary 14\nI had the bank holiday on Monday off, which was welcome, after a weekend on call. I went for a walk in the lakes with a colleague. Considering it was a bank holiday it wasn't too crowded. Had to work on Bank Holiday Tuesday though. It wasn't especially busy until the evening when I had to do a Caesarean on a cow and then go and see a badly cut horse. Both seem to be doing OK.\nThe rest of the week was worked as usual. Nothing particularly out of the ordinary happened with fairly routine calls. Perhaps it was because everyone was preoccupied with events in Japan and Korea? Or maybe that is just me. I was booked in for an 11 am call on Friday, but managed to persuade the farmer concerned that 9.30 would be more appropriate, said that I, (or should that be we?) could watch the second England game. We managed to get finished in time and it was well worth it. The 1-0 win over Argentina put everyone in a good mood for the rest of the day and the weekend.\nI was on first call over the weekend. Saturday morning was very busy and we didn’t get all the calls done until early afternoon. After that it was one of the quietest weekends I’ve had. They were a couple of things to do on Saturday afternoon - evening, but Sunday had no calls until after lunch - almost unheard of. I had to check my phone was switched on! Long may it last!\n\nDiary 15\nI’ve done two days in the practice doing small animals this week, more than usual. The weather has not been the best so it's no bad thing. I managed to go out on rounds on Wednesday though, so I managed to catch the third England match. Second round here we come!\nI spent most of Friday morning operating on two cows at one of our farms.  They both had a condition where part of the gut displaces in the abdomen, and is best repositioned surgically. The farmer observed that it was probably linked to FMD last year. Because of FMD he had to use more silage to keep his cows inside last summer. This meant he had less stored over the winter and so had none available to feed this spring/summer. The lack of silage now is almost certainly implicated in the problems his cows had. It's very unusual to have two occurring on one farm at same time. Seeing as he missed getting FMD last year though, he thought it was a price worth paying! It was actually quite a pleasant way to spend a morning - he's from Kirkby Stephen, where I went to school, and I didn't have any other jobs waiting, so it was quite a relaxed few hours. (the surgery went OK too!)\nI had a half-day on Friday and drove to valley just beyond Alston to meet one of my old flat mates from Edinburgh for his stag weekend. We stayed in an old barn in middle of nowhere, so it wasn't exactly a conventional stag party, but very enjoyable all the same. We walked to the nearest pub on Saturday to see England's exciting next instalment 3 - 0. Thank you very much. \nAfter that it's been a leisurely day and drive back to Penrith. And I’ve got another night to get my head back to normal for work tomorrow. \n\nDiary 16 \nThis week has been quite small animal orientated again. I've done two mornings in the surgery and more consulting than usual.\nI'm not meant to be on duty for nights this week but I've had a couple to cover for people who've been on holiday. Fortunately both nights were fairly quiet. I'm sure the favour will be returned sometime! During the day work has been fairly steady. We’re not quite as busy as last week, but there's enough to keep us going.\nThe practice like most of the country, tried to stop briefly while England were losing to Brazil. It's a bit disappointing - hopefully farmers and the rest of our clients won’t be too depressed about it all. It was good while it lasted!\nAt the weekend I went down to a place near Worcester for the wedding of the friend whose stag weekend it was the last week there were a lot of people from Edinburgh there why haven't seen for several years and it was great to catch up. The weather was very kind and stayed dry.\n\nDiary 18\nOn Monday I went to do a big tuberculosis and brucellosis test at of one our big dairy farms that had restocked few months ago. They’ve got several hundred cows and it took a lot longer than anticipated - I had to go back on Tuesday to finish the job off. They’re a friendly family so it wasn't really too much of a chore. There has been a more obvious change in them since FMD than for most of our clients who had the disease. They seem much quieter and less concerned about farming and life's problems in general now. Perhaps they think if they can get through 2001 then there’s nothing worth getting stressed about in comparison! \nWednesday was spent doing small animal work - made a change as on Thursday I went back to read the cows results for the TB test (all negative).\nOn Thursday night I drove down to stay with a college friend near Birmingham for the start of a long weekend. On Friday I carried on south to another friend in north Devon. She's working (another vet) in an area that was also severely affected by FMD. Cumbria was so badly hit that is sometimes easy to forget that other places had a bad time too. Thankfully work in Devon is more or less back to normal again.\nI spent the rest of the weekend in South Devon where my dad had his 60th birthday. We were lucky with the weather and had fine (ish) conditions to have a barbecue on the beach. I was off today (Monday) as well, and spent the day driving north. Too far to go for a weekend!\n\nDiary 19\nIt's been a short working week seeing as I had Monday off. I’ve also started a month back on the out of the hours of rota this week (it works a month on, a month off system) so nights and weekends have been, and will be, a bit busier.\nWork has generally been a bit quieter recently. This is fairly typical for the time of year, mainly because animals are outside and farmers are busy making hay and silage (rain permitting). We've had two vets off this week so although there have been fewer jobs in we are not left twiddling our thumbs. There has been the usual flow of a routine farm work along with horses and small animals, but nothing too taxing on the whole.\n I had a night on Thursday and went up St Sunday crag in the Lake District, with a couple of friends from Brampton.  It was further than I remembered it being - we didn't get down until it was almost dark. But apart from being unseasonably cold (surprise, surprise) it was a fine night.\nIt was duty this weekend. I was on first call on Friday night and had it very easy (no calls) until 12:45pm when another vet and I had to operate on a dog until three am. I checked it again at 5.30 and then had to go to calving at 6.45. Just as that was finished I was called to a badly cut horse, then some lame cows, and then to the bacon roll shop for breakfast!\nI was only on second call for the rest of the weekend and was fairly quiet. This meant I could get on with various mundane things like painting my house, tidying the garden etc etc - ideal tasks for when I can't do anything else because I'm on call. And the dog did well! So it makes the night with no sleep worthwhile\n\nDiary 20\nHave had another short week - had Monday off as I was coming back from a long weekend away. Work this week has been fairly steady. Farmers are often busy trying to get silage/hay in at the moment so routine of vet work takes a back seat. Having said that we have been kept at least as busy as we would expect with routine fertility visits and the occasional sick cow etc. There been a few of the restocking farms that have had some fairly unusual diseases that didn't obviously fall into the ones we usually recognise or deal with. As a lot of them have bought stock in from abroad we have to at least keep in mind the possibility of new problems been brought in. \nWe've worked quite closely with the local DEFRA-run Veterinary Investigation Centre on a few of these cases but thankfully none have turned out to be anything to be unduly worried about.\nI was on duty this weekend but have fortunately been reasonably quiet. The only thing out the ordinary was a horse that had torn its leg up quite badly on some wire, but with a bit of time and bandaging it should do okay.\n\nDiary 21\n2 vets have been off this week so it's been a bit busier for the rest of us. Again as with last week it's been a mixture of routine and the standard A&E type work. There have been a few tuberculin tests going on, still trying to clear the backlog from last year. It's getting there slowly but a lot of it will have to wait until the autumn/winter when the cows are in and the farmers have more time available. Our new vet who started in April has seemed to settle in very well. He had a bit of a bad day earlier in the week when a calving did go quite as planned. It's very easy to do, especially when you feel under pressure as is bound to happen when you start a new job. It reminded me of some of the problems I had a few years ago! The farm where it happened is quite an understanding type so it won't create any real problems.\nHockey training is starting again which seems a bit premature as the season is still months away. At least it'll encourage me to do a bit more exercise to get fit for matches. The weather has meant I haven't been out into the hills as often as I would have liked but hopefully there's still time for it to brighten up a bit!\nHad the weekend off - so a couple of friends from college he now living York came to stay. We went up to the borders for the day on Saturday, near to where I used to work - it doesn't seem to have changed much (I still think I'm better off down here despite last year!) \n\nDiary 22\nWe had a bit of a rush on this week, as sometimes seems to happen. It can be quiet for couple of weeks and then it suddenly it's crazy. It may be that a lot of farms have now largely got their crops in and are trying to catch up, or perhaps it's just the way things go. Several farms have had ongoing problems this week with visits being required several days running. There have also been a large number of horse calls. This is probably fairly common for this time of year as they tend to get ridden in the (supposedly) better weather. We tend to go further afield for horses - on Tuesday I went to Kirkby Lonsdale area in morning and had to go north of Carlisle in the afternoon the miles get racked up or fairly quickly and I get to learn where the\nvarious blind spots for phone and radio reception are!\nI was on duty again on the weekend which meant that I was also on for Monday, Wednesday and Friday nights. They weren't too bad apart from Friday when I have to go and see a couple of horses. Being on duty for three week nights tends to limit what I can do apart from work, but I managed to meet up with some friends working in Brampton one night and go for a walk in the lakes on Thursday. The weekend was fairly quiet, but I was only on second call so I found time to do some decorating in the room in my house which is the current project. (I lead such a thrilling life! ?!)\n\nDiary 23\nThe calm after the storm! After the frantic levels of work we saw last week it has again been a bit more civilised this week. We've had time to have coffee and lunch breaks and actually talk to colleagues from time to time. I wouldn't want have every week is quiet as this, but occasionally it's very welcome. It's quite relaxing to be able to go on a call knowing that there is not another one waiting. It also means that if the afternoons are quiet one of us can usually have a half day. I got the nod on Wednesday and went down to Kirkby Stephen to see my folks. They’ve got a smallholding down there with various creatures which usually have some ailment or other. It's a bit of a busman's holiday going there but it is nice having them close - I tend see them every week or two. On Wednesday I vaccinated a couple of horses and trimmed a few sheep’s feet. They went through the joys of 48 hourly surveillance inspections last year but somehow managed to come through unscathed - their parish was one of the only ones in the Kirkby Stephen area to do so.\nOther weekend I went up to Glasgow to see a cousin who was having a leaving party. I didn't know many people there but it was good to go and do something completely removed from the usual. One of the people I did know came and stayed in Penrith on Sunday night. It was a stunning day - we went the lakes which were at their best.\n\nDiary 24\nThis week was the first of four for me being off the rota, which (should) mean no nights and no weekends on call  - can't be bad!\nOn Monday had a small TB test to do. It was with a very pleasant farmer and the cows behaved themselves so it wasn't a bad way to spend a morning. He's imported a small herd from Holland and seems very pleased with them so far. It takes a bit time for the F & M farmers to get used to their new stock as most of them knew their old ones so well. But on the whole people seemed fairly content with their new ones.\nI did small animal ops on Tuesday and Wednesday as one of the vets who usually do it was on holiday.  We've got a new nurse starting this week so it was a case of showing her the ropes, but she seems to be doing very well.\nOne my best school friends got married on Friday. Very typically, after a fairly quiet week it suddenly got busy on Friday afternoon. I managed to get the wedding but had to miss the afternoon reception in order to go and see a horse in Appleby. That's life.\nI was one of the duty vets at Lowther show on Saturday. I hadn't done it before and had a very good time. It was generally fine weather and there were some truly stunning teams of horses in the driving event. Lots of competitors commented on how good it was to have the show up and running again after last year's cancellations. The event passed without any major incident for vet-wise, so it was a pretty calm day for me really\n\nDiary 25\nThe week's been fairly steady. I seem to have been doing more horses than anything else - I didn't go and see a cow until Friday. Several of them were ongoing cases such as leg wounds that have needed daily dressing changes and the rest a selection of vaccinations, lameness and those that aren't "quite right". I quite enjoy the horse side of the job so doing a bit more than usual has been a welcome change.\nI had planned to get to work on my house this month in my free evenings, but it doesn't really seem to have worked like that. When I know I've got a lot of free time nights tend to get booked up seeing people from home or near by who I’ve temporarily lost touch with. Also seeing as summer seems to have found us I've been trying to get into the lakes as much as possible – the house can wait till winter!\nThis weekend I’ve been down to Wales to see a group of college friends. We stayed in a cottage owned by one of the group's parents and played a few rounds of golf. I played very badly, lost a lot of balls, and became very frustrated with it all. I think it comes down to lack of talent. Still, it was good to catch up with some people I haven't seen since graduation. And I'm sure the golf will be better next year. \n\nDiary 26\nI've done (more) small animal work than anything else this week. There had been no disasters all fairly routine stuff. One of the small animal vets has been away so I had to cover a bit. I didn't actually get out onto a farm until Friday morning. It gets a bit claustrophobic inside after a while so it was good to get out. \nI was on call at the weekend and also had a college friend to stay. It was very quiet most of the time until Sunday evening. I had swapped duty to be off on the night from 6:00pm.  - at 5.45 four calls all came in at once at all four corners of the practice, so I didn't actually get finished until nearly 8pm . That’s the way it goes sometimes I suppose.\nI had another half day earlier in the week as it was fairly quiet. I took my bike out into the northern lakes for a few hours to blow away the cobwebs from being inside at work\n\nDiary 27\nI had a barbecue/party this weekend for people from work and a lot of friends from college. There were a lot of people I thought I'd always keep in touch with the but as time went on I never did, so I arranged a weekend a long way in advance for us all to meet up again. About 28 people came, most of whom I haven't seen for least a year or two. Nobody seems to have changed much and it was great to see them all again. The garden and house have both taken a bit of a pounding but I think most of the mess is fairly superficial!\nI went for a walk near Howtown today to clear my head after the barbecue last night. It was a very good day weather-wise which meant that a lot of people had had the same idea as us.\nIt's been a variable week at work - some days been very quiet, others flat out. I've had an ongoing case of a young horse that had been caught up in wire on Monday evening. It was well beyond the stage where it could have been stitched when I saw it, so it'll have to heal slowly by filling the wound in. I'm sure it'll be fine, but it's going to take a long time.\nWe’re starting to get a lot of inquiries about the new rules DEFRA are bringing in to allow farmers to bring animals on to their farms in isolation facilities. It should make things less restrictive for the farmer. We are going to have to do a lot of inspections. It's not since restocking checks last winter that we’ve really had to do this sort of thing, but the checks probably won't be as exhaustive as those we had to do last year\n\nDiary 28\nHad a fairly quiet week really. This been a fairly standard mix of sick cows, a couple of lame horses and the continuation of the young horse that wrecked its leg last week (which is going okay). So it's been fairly laid-back on the whole, with time for a coffee break after most calls!\nWe have done the first of the inspections for the new on-farm isolation facilities for sheep. On the whole farmer compliance has been very good. There have been a few whinges about why they have to do it, and I can see why as it must be frustrating to suddenly be told how to run stock movements that they've always done a different way. Most can see why DEFRA are insisting on it though as it's all aimed at reducing the risk of having another situation like we did last year.\nI was off again this weekend, one of my old flat mates and his wife came to stay. They live in London so came north for a weekend of clean-living and fresh-air! We went for walks around Cat Bells and High Street on Saturday and Sunday, ate drank and were generally fairly unstressed. Hope it was what they were looking for!\n\nDiary 29\nI've had a short week in terms of work at the practice this week as I've been to Glasgow for an Equine Conference from Thursday to Saturday. Further education is not compulsory and there is no formal structure for it (which is quite controversial in some people's eyes), but the Royal College of vets do encourage us to keep up-to-date. There is a quota we’re asked to fulfil each year and these three days will help me keep on track. There were several different courses on each day, with one lecture theatre for practitioner based subjects that we could expect to see on a day-to-day basis, and another called "advanced clinical sessions" on subjects and cases so obscure that you'd be lucky to hear of one, let alone see one, more than once or twice. (I didn't go to many of those lectures!).\nAs well as being useful in terms of picking up new information it was also a good chance to catch up with old friends from college. Lots of people I hadn't seen for a year or two were there and it was good to see them.\nThe first three days of the week were okay. I went out on Tuesday morning to trim some lame cows feet and ended up accidentally trimming some skin from the farmers thumb with my hoof knife. All a bit embarrassing and felt very bad but he didn't seem that fazed by it and he's not the type to bear a grudge. (perhaps I shouldn’t try to keep my knife so sharp )\nAnother of the week's more interesting events was an Irish Wolfhound that needed surgery to correct a twisted and distended stomach. It's fairly common in this type of dog and is a real emergency. Another vet and I operated on him on Tuesday afternoon. It took a couple of hours but (so far) is seems to have been worth it as he's done very well and apparently went home on Friday.\n\nDiary 30\nI spent most of Monday afternoon/evening irradiating myself by taking dozens of X-rays of a horse’s legs. It was being sold for a lot of money and the insurance company wanted to check all its joints were OK before insuring it. It took a lot longer than anticipated as it was difficult to get it positioned absolutely right for each view but we got there in the end. We have to be quite careful about exposure to X-rays but my X-ray badge hasn't shown a high reading yet!\n2 vets have been off this week (one on his honeymoon and one has been away doing AI on sheep) its often a bit quieter now but we seem to have been kept going. I did a big routine fertility visit to one of our dairy farms on Wednesday. One of the main things we do on these visits is manual pregnancy diagnosis. It's not too bad with dairy calves cows as if they're not in calf they would normally get another chance to do so, but with some beef farms or a dairy cow that is persistently not conceiving , it sometimes more economic to get rid of the cow of rather than persisting. So there's a big incentive for us to get it right, or at least not to say a cow isn't in calf when she is (luckily they were all quite straightforward this week)\nThis was my last before going away to the USA for a fortnight. I fly to New York tomorrow to meet up with an old flatmate of mine who's a journalist out there. I'm crossing the Atlantic to see him and he's given me directions to his flat rather than meeting me at the airport because I'm arriving when Premiership football is on TV. Charming.\n\nDiary 31\nTwo weeks in the States. Can't be bad. I flew into New York where I stayed with a friend who's working in Manhattan. I did a lot of the usual tourist things - Empire State Building, boat trip around the island, Central Park etc. For its size it's a very relaxed place in a lot of ways - it feels very safe and although there is loads going on you never seem to get hassled.\nWe flew to New Orleans for a week, supposedly for some sun in the Deep South, but landed just as a tropical storm hit the mainland. Everything was closed for two days (as bad as UK when it snows). Once the weather cleared it was fine and we again went about being tourists - paddle boat up the Mississippi River, out on a boat in the Louisiana swamps to look at alligators, and a bit of New Orleans nightlife.\nI had a few more days in New York before flying home. \n\nDiary 32\n First week back after America. Had a good trip, but the week has been rather marred by the death of one of the hockey team (and a year-mate of mine at school) in a tractor accident when he was hit by a wagon on the A 66 on Thursday. I saw him on Wednesday night at hockey training. He was very stiff having done the Great North Run with his wife the weekend before. I didn't know him very well at school but have got to over the last few years via hockey and he really was a tremendously good person and will be much missed by lots of people in and around Kirkby Stephen. The weekend's match was postponed as no one could have thought about playing - it all seems very trivial when this sort of thing happens. I couldn't have played anyway as I'm on duty this weekend, but fortunately it's been fairly quiet so far - a calving and 2 Caesareans, but it's getting into calving season so it's about par for the course.\nThe first half of the week was OK. I was even given a half-day on Tuesday - a day and a half after returning from holiday. I went for a walk at the bottom end of Derwent Water, and then tried to sleep off some jet lag.\n\nDiary 33\nI went to Matthew's funeral on Tuesday. How popular he was was reflected in the number of people there. We arrived 25 minutes before it was due to start and still had to stand, and had to move up as more people tried to fit into the chapel. It almost seemed as if all of Kirkby had come to a standstill. It went on quite a long time so I had the afternoon off and went to see my parents (who live near Kirkby) afterwards.\nWe cancelled hockey training on Wednesday as it seemed too soon to go on as usual, but decided play our Scheduled match on Saturday. Both our team and the opposition had two minute silence before the match. We ended up drawing 0 - 0, but it was a very good close game (we normally lose to this team), and played in a competitive but fair spirit. Just what was needed for our first match back. I'm actually on duty again this weekend but one my colleagues covered for me for a few hours so I could go to play.\nThe cases at work have been fairly steady this week. I'm going to enrol for a further qualification in Equine practice in the next week or two. I'm doing a reasonable amount of horse work at the moment, but will try to do a bit more over the next few months/years. It should motivate me to read up on cases more and find slightly more constructive ways to spend evenings on call!\n\nDiary 34\nTB testing! Our biggest beef herd had its post restocking test this week. About 600 cattle were to be done. There’s no way it could be done in one go so we did it over 3 instead (originally planned for two, but ran out of daylight). It all went smoothly on the whole (or at least as well as could be expected), and everything has been cleared as negative. I found out from DEFRA a few weeks ago that there have actually been quite a few TB cases in the county since restocking. As we'd been clear for years previously to FMD this is obviously a bit of a worry. We haven't had any cases in our practice but if we can't stamp out these new cases as they are found it’s only a matter of time before it spreads further afield. The more we get in the county also means there will have to be more testing. At the moment it's begrudgingly accepted by the farmers, but if we have to do more I can see them having a sense of humour failure over it. Ultimately it's in their interest for us to check that their herd is free, but it is a big time commitment and they don't get paid for it.\nWhile I spent two days testing the rest of the week had a bit more variety. I saw few horses, mainly lameness, but also one or two with other ailments. I have to write a casebook for the Equine certificate I'm doing I’m on the lookout for suitable cases during my rounds.\nI had the weekend off - played hockey in Manchester and then went to Worcester to see some college friends. I had to drive back via Ely (!) as the trains are cancelled due to the winds, which meant a friend was stranded. Not a very direct route to Cumbria. \n\nDiary 35\nThe week started on Monday morning with another TB test on a restocking farm. It's not a big farm and was one of the late ones to get FMD. It's run by a very nice but quite intense family. The son has taken re-stocking very seriously and has obviously thought of it very much as an opportunity to start from scratch and try to eliminate some of their previous herd problems. I have consequently spent quite a bit of time advising him over the various vaccines available and their relative pros and cons. Thankfully things seem to be paying off so far with few problems in herd. One of the things that I noticed during the test was that they made one or two jokes about last year (sorry - forgotten exactly what they said). I thought the fact that they were able to now talk about FMD like that had to be a good sign, as I think it would have been highly unlikely a year ago. \nOn Wednesday afternoon I went up to Wigton to vet a horse for a potential buyer. There were several minor things wrong with it but overall it seemed OK. It's always a responsibility vetting horses as someone is either trying to buy it or not on the basis of what I find. In this case it took quite a lot of convincing the buyer that the imperfections were not that serious. (Hopefully they won’t subsequently turn out to be a problem!)\nI've started doing more horse cases recently and on Tuesday sent off my application form to be accepted to do further exams in horse practice. I have to wait until next year to find out whether I've been accepted, and won't sit them until 2005. I was off this weekend and played hockey in Manchester. Unfortunately we didn't win. Maybe next week. Saturday evening I went down to Kendal to see an old flatmate who lives there.\n\nDiary 36\nOn Tuesday I went to see a horse near Carlisle. It had developed a swelling on its lower jaw that was fairly painful to touch. They were a few possibilities but the most likely was that it had at tooth root abscess. I put it on to antibiotics, but seeing as it had obviously been going on for a while, thought it was worth taking some X-rays. There was obvious destruction of the tooth visible on the X-ray, which probably means it needs removing. This is a fairly major undertaking on a horse and as it was a valuable creature still in training I thought it best to send to Edinburgh vet school to have it done. Hopefully I'll be able to go and see it done in a day or two's time.\nOne of the aspects (drawbacks? (not really!)) of being a vet his that one is often asked about animal ailments out of work. (I’m sure it happens a lot in other jobs too.) My mother is very adept at this not that I really mind. Her elderly terrier that we grew up with has started having one or two problems recently. I suggested a few possibilities but thought it best if she went to the local vets to have her looked at. The problem was she was so bad tempered (the terrier) that they couldn’t safely blood sample her, so she had a day out to Penrith so that I could try to take blood from her. I managed to more-or-less intact, and fortunately her results seemed more or less in order (or at least better than her temper).\nThe general work in the practice has been fairly steady this week. A few farmers seem to be having quite a few cows calving at the moment which is a bit unseasonal, but I suppose a reasonable number tend to calve all-year-round. We haven't really got into calf pneumonia season yet but it can't be long before they start to keep us busy. It will soon take over from lungworm as the main bovine respiratory problem.\nThe weekend was off again brought a victory in a hockey match. The start of a winning streak perhaps? I went up to Edinburgh after the match to see a few friends and for the start of a week off. Wahey!\n\nDiary 37\nIt's a week off - can't be bad. I didn't do what I had planned due to an unforeseen change in circumstances, but still good. As I was in Edinburgh last weekend I decided to stay up for few days. This was partly to see friends and also because I had referred the horse with a bad tooth that I mentioned last week. (voluntary work experience during time off - dedication or very rash?). I spent Tuesday at the vet School in Edinburgh with one of my old tutors. The case I had sent up was successfully treated (so far) by removing the offending tooth. It was very interesting to see how he did it as he used a different technique to the one we’ve used in the practice. I spent the rest of the day there with him seeing other cases. It felt a bit odd being there not as a student. I came home on Tuesday evening and went down to Kirkby Stephen to see my folks on Wednesday morning. I spent most of the rest of the week either at their house or mine doing things like stocking up on firewood for the winter, sorting my house out and making a start on stripping the wallpaper in my hallway. I normally go away when I take time off but it was actually very nice to do things at home for change. It made for quite a relaxing week on the whole!\n\n\nDiary 38\nBack to work. It was good to have a week off last week, but one of the best things about where I work and what I do is that I never seem to feel reluctant to go back to work. I think that must mean I enjoy it on the whole!\nOn Tuesday I went back to see the horse that had had its tooth removed last week. It's doing very well and is back in training. It was eating very well as soon as the tooth came out - it's amazing how animals often seem to deal with pain so stoically. I'll check it again next week and, all things being well, that should be it.\nOn Tuesday afternoon I happened to see another slightly unusual case in a horse. It had developed a lump on the outside of its cheek which on closer inspection turned out to be a large mass (man?) inside its mouth. It's probably going to have to be removed and should come in next week for it to be done.\nThe rest of the week was the usual mix of more routine cases. Have been on to more farms this week than I have done for a while. We recently took on a new dairy farm near Appleby and I went to see a cow there for the first time. On a first visit you always hope for something straightforward so that it's easy to make a good first impression. On this occasion the cow was very sick and wasn't really giving me many clues as to why. All I could do was treat it for the symptoms it was showing. I saw it twice on Friday and again on Saturday and by evening it was on the mend. I never did reach a conclusive diagnosis but I think the farmer was satisfied by the fact that it had got better in spite of not knowing quite what was wrong!\nI was on duty Friday night (very quiet) and on Saturday. Apart from the cow I mentioned it was fairly easy going. Today I went down to Kirkby Stephen to see some old friends staying with my parents.\n(two weeks with no TB testing!! (it'll change next week!)).\n\n\nDiary 39\nIt's been a fairly uneventful week at work. There don't seem to have been any particularly on-going or notable cases. In some ways it's not a bad thing as it makes for a fairly stress-free time. It's not that you can really switch off but it does mean that when there are a few fairly straightforward cases to see it's possible to spend more time chatting to the farmer/owner without having to work too hard finding what's wrong with the patient.\nThis week's most interesting case was a horse with amazingly extensive arthritis in its hind legs considering its age. It's not a terminal condition but it does have implications as to what it will be possible to use it for in future. In situations like that it can be quite difficult to give the client the right outlook. They often expect a quick cure, especially in a young horse and to tell them that a problem has been present for months, if not years, and will never completely go away can come as a bit of shock. The owner in this case was very sensible and seemed to taking what was said very well.\nThe other good thing about this week is that I'm having a very good run with my duties - I've been on for two nights on first call and the phone hasn't gone once - very unusual and very welcome! (this must be tempting fate...)\nI've had the weekend off - there was a hockey match on Saturday when we lost to the league leaders but avoided humiliation. The rest of the two days was spent trying to progress with decorating the hallway before friends come to stay over Christmas and New Year. Am I not too young to be spending weekends off decorating??! \n\nDiary 40\nI had a good test of my diplomacy skills this week with an irate farmer. I had spent four hours doing a TB test on a very cold day when it should have taken about one-and-a-half hours. In my rush to get defrosted in my car afterwards I forgot to shut the gate in the field where I had parked. On my return to the surgery I was greeted by the news that he had rung wanting my head on a stick and forbidding me from ever setting foot on his farm again as all his tups had gone walkabout through the gate I'd left open. On advice from the partners at the practice who knew him better I gave him a day to calm down and then wrote a very grovelling letter! I was allowed to go back at the end of the week to read the test results (which fortunately was all clear). I think he's forgiven me.\nOne of the more common cow operations we do is to correct a displaced stomach. In the two and a half years I've been at the practice we’ve always done it using one particular technique. There are circumstances where another method is indicated and having not seen them for 2½   years, there were 2 this week. They both went well (so far). Another two years before the next?\nI took my last day off for 2002 on Thursday and again spent it decorating. On Thursday night we had our Practice Christmas meal. The two vets on duty managed not to get called out and on the whole I think people weren't too hung over on Friday. Last year there was a bit of a debate as to whether we should have a Christmas night out as most farmers were either just starting to restock or still cleaning out. This year it was much more straightforward.\nOn Friday night it was the annual night at Hesket Newmarket organised by the local DEFRA lab for any local vets that want a meal and beers. It's a good chance to catch up with other vets from neighbouring practices in (very) informal atmosphere.\n\nDiary 41\nI've had a couple of vet students staying with me this week who I knew when I was in my final year at Edinburgh. They're doing work experience with us for a week or so. It's made a pleasant change to have some company for a while. I have also acquired two stray kittens in the last week - the usual vet procedure of eventually finding an unwanted patient that you can't resist taking yourself. They are settling in ok and we’ve only had to have one or two little discussions about the benefits of using a litter tray rather than the carpet.\nThe week at work has been reasonably busy - a good thing this week as there have been three students and it's a bit dull for them if there is nothing going on. We had a horse in for most of the week with a severe respiratory infection.  It’s needed fairly intensive care but seems to be on the mend now. I may use it as a case to write up as part of the exam I'm hoping to do in a few years. It'll have to be a New Year's resolution to get on with the writing up part of it.\nApart from a horse it's been the usual sort of mix - a few routine fertility visits to dairy farms, a few sick cows and horses etc. There been some TB tests this week but I've managed to miss them all - must be saving some for me next year.\nI had a lot of people from work here on Friday night for pre-Christmas mulled wine and mince pies. I'm not quite sure the kittens knew what was happening but I think the rest of us enjoyed it!\nI've had the weekend off and went down to see a friend in Birmingham who qualified last summer. This was her second weekend on call so I went to give moral support. Being on call isn't stressful anymore but I remember for the first few times it's difficult not to be aware of the phone all the time and hoping it doesn't ring. There weren't many calls and those that did come in she didn't need me for - suited me well.\n\nDiary 42\nThe week of Christmas and my first job of the week was to replace a particularly contaminated uterine prolapse in a cow. It finally went back in after an hour or so of fairly fruitless efforts. Very festive. This week and next we had fewer vets than usual working each day as we all have a few days off for Christmas/New year so it‘s sometimes a bit busy during the day. It's generally worth it for the extra time off.\nI was off on Monday night and went to Kirkby-Stephen to see school friends back for the holiday. Although we don't see each other very often any more people don't really seem to change very much. A good friend whose parents farm had F and M have sold up and are going into B&B instead. I think it was a hard decision but now they seen to be quite relieved to be out of it.\nI was on duty on Christmas Eve and fortunately didn't have to go out - I just had three phone calls between 7 and 9 p m. from people saying their dog or cat had been off food for periods varying from three weeks to 10 days. Christmas Eve seemed an odd time to notice this.\nI went home to Kirkby Stephen for Christmas and Boxing Day and didn't really do very much. I had a look at a couple of Mum’s sheep but other than that it was just a case of being lazy and enjoying seasonal food and drink.\nI was on duty this weekend, which turned out, be fairly busy. One of the students who came to stay last week came back to do some on-call work which turned out to be very useful. A couple of cows to operate on (as Caesar and a displaced stomach) where two pairs of hands are better than one and quite a few small animals to see to.\n\nDiary 43\nI've had most of this week off for New Year (Tuesday to Friday) which is pretty good going seen as I was off for Christmas as well. Monday was fairly quiet with just a few farm calls to do and some small animals. Rather worryingly we've heard that a local deer farm (not one of our customers) has gone down with TB, apparently with quite a few deer in the herd having it. This means that we'll have to do TB check tests on any of our farms that neighbour the affected premises.\nOver New Year my cousin, her husband and their five (!) children (young) came to stay. It wasn't too hectic on the whole, with just the occasional loss of humour. A couple of friends from work came round to join us for New Year itself.\nI've had to work this weekend (part of the deal for getting four days off midweek) but it's not really been that busy. I've only been on second call and have only had to do 2 calls so far - an easy return to work after New Year excesses!\n\nDiary 44\nBack to normal quota of vets at work again this week, which is good as it seems to have been very busy. Most of it has been the usual sort of things for the time of year - cows starting to get lame after having been inside for a few months and metabolic problems, probably related to the poor silage last year's summer rain created. Quite a few farmers have a large amount of 2001 silage left as it wasn't used over winter 2001/2002 as they hadn't restocked. On the whole it's kept very well and in many cases is better than the crop they made last summer.\nThe fall-out from the deer herd TB has arrived. Two neighbouring farms to test this week. The first one has come back negative to the relief of all concerned. I did the second one on Friday and will read it tomorrow (Monday). The farmers there are all very concerned about it which is understandable but hopefully groundless. There are lots of questions being asked along the lines of "what if….” some of which I can answer and some not. It does remind me a bit of February 2001 when FMD broke out and there were all sorts of queries about the disease, its progression etc that none of  (us?) really knew about. It didn't take long for us to know the answers to most of them.\nI've had this weekend off - a hockey fixture list has started again after the Christmas break. A return to winning ways - hopefully to continue…\n\nDiary 45\nThe week had a bad start - the TB test I did last Friday produced two reactors and two inconclusive (borderline) reactors this means that the farm isn't allowed to move at any bovines on or off the farm except directly to slaughter under licence. The reactors are taken away for post-mortem examination and the inconclusive reactors are isolated for 60 days until the rest of the herd is re-tested. The farmer was very keen to get the inconclusive animals removed as well (quite understandably in my opinion) so that they couldn't pose a threat to the rest of his herd. Apparently DEFRA aren't allowed to do this, I think largely due to financial reasons. While fully appreciating the need to protect taxpayers' money, considering how much was spent in 2001 I think this a potentially flawed argument. Perhaps the rules need to be changed? But then again I'm not an epidemiologist and perhaps they don't actually pose a threat.\nThe farmer seemed very depressed by it all. I think a lot of it is the feeling of having the stigma of being a farm under DEFRA restrictions again. He was also very aware of the threat he was to his neighbours and was desperately keen to minimise it. It's actually quite small while the cows are still indoors but I think people are still very much thinking of how serious it was for neighbours if someone got FMD. TB is a very different type of organism and it’s a question of getting people to understand this (which isn't to say it's not a very serious problem).\nOn the same day another farm in the area (not ours) was confirmed with TB so it's definitely progressing in Cumbria - depressing. All we can do is follow DEFRA instructions on testing and try to keep on top of it.\nOne of my colleagues tore a knee ligament last week while skiing. He normally does mostly large animal calls. Seeing as he's now confined to the practice doing small animals I've taken over couple of the farms he does routine fertility visits for. It makes a change to spend time on farms I don't visit often (although I hear the small animal nurses are quite keen for Matt to get back to doing them!) \n\nDiary 46\nOne of our dairy farmers has had a big outbreak of pneumonia in his calves this week - I've been to the farm at least once every day this week. The tests we've done are usually pretty sensitive but have failed to reveal any of the usual causes. Treatment seems to have been working in some cases but not in others. He hasn't lost any (i e none dead) but the loss in body weight is very obvious. It's all been a bit frustrating really. He's a very pleasant guy and hasn't said anything but when treatments repeatedly fail to get expected (and predicted) results I can't help feeling that he must be getting a bit sceptical about it. Or perhaps I'm just being paranoid! By the end of the week the majority seem to be on the mend but seeing as we haven't tracked down the causative agent it's hard to know what vaccination to recommend next year. There are some more tests that will come back in two weeks which may be more revealing.\nIn midweek I did one of the fairly common operations to correct a twisted stomach in a cow. Surprisingly it was the first time this dairy farmer had had one done and he took some convincing that it was a good idea. Having persuaded someone to pay for a procedure I always feel under a bit more pressure than usual. Fortunately it went pretty well and the cow is, so far, doing well.\nI was on second call this weekend, which turned out to be pretty quiet. I think we must be in a lull before lambing really kicks in - let's enjoy it while it lasts!\n\nDiary 47\nAfter not doing any testing last week it was my turn again this week. It wasn't a big one (only about 30 cows) but it was a bit more risky than usual as it was a herd of Beef Longhorns. And they do have long horns! Whilst trying to manoeuvre them into a crush to inject their necks with tuberculin we always had to be ready to take evasive action if they made a sudden turn. I don't think they ever tried to use their horns aggressively but they were so big that they become dangerous weapons when they were just moving normally. As it turned out no one received any injuries and, very importantly, the test was negative.\nThis week also brought my first lambing of the year. Other people have done a few but this was my first. We have a couple of farms who lamb early for the early lamb sales - it seems very hard work at this time of year - but the early prices do seem to make it worthwhile. Give it another week or two and a sure they’ll start to become more frequent.\nI took Friday off as I had to get to London for 4 pm. to get on the Eurostar to go skiing. Typically the one day of the year that the country ground to halt was Thursday night/Friday. We managed to make it to Waterloo station only to find the station in chaos as all Eurostars had been cancelled due to snow in France (at least it's not just Britain that can’t cope with it!) after being assured that none would run for 24 hours they suddenly told us to board, only 1½  hours late - very pleasant surprise. We ended up arriving in Val d'Isere on time, with loads of snow and blue skies. I tried to spare a thought for whoever was on call at weekend. I managed it (just).\n\nDiary 48\nAfter the weather almost prevented us from reaching Val d’Isere it was very clear for the first few days but then the snow returned for three days. We couldn't do much during that time but it did mean that there were fantastic conditions for the last few days. We had a group of 29 and completely filled one large chalet. There were, for once, no major skiing injuries within the group and I think a good time was had by all. \n\nDiary 49\nBack to work this week. I’m never reluctant to go back after a week off and sometimes, dare I say it, even look forward to it - must be a good sign?\nApparently last week was OK at work with no major dramas. We still haven't found any more TB cases but the screening continues all the time. One of the rules for re-stocking herds compared to herds that missed FMD is that all bovines over 42 days old have to be tested rather than just the adults. Last year when there weren't many calves around this didn't make much difference, but now most farms have at least a year's worth of calves in place it doubles the size of most tests. Often calves won't fit in crushes and are very wild so it can get quite exciting. It seems a necessary policy though - one of the reactors I found a few weeks ago was a six-month old stirk.\nI've had a fairly quiet week. I've had a couple of nights on duty which were both quiet. There's a horse near Carlisle that I think I've mentioned before with a recurrent tooth problem. We thought we'd finally sorted that but this week she developed a problem with one of the tendons on her foreleg. It's a bit disappointing for her owner as she only bought the horse recently in order to compete to a very high standard and she seems to () permanently off training with one ailment or another. I don't think it's too serious so hopefully in another week or two she'll be back to work.\nI've been off this weekend - came second in the weekend’s hockey match. A real case of defeat been snatched from the jaws of victory. I went for a walk around the Great Gable/Scafell area on Sunday afternoon - it was amazing how much snow and ice was still left over from winter weather a week or so ago. Maybe I needn't have bothered going abroad.\n\nDiary 50\nI found another positive TB case on Friday. I did the test on Tuesday on a very large beef herd on a restocking farm. Including calves they must have been just over 400 cattle to do. There was one reactor on Friday and two inconclusives. There is a possibility that it is a false positive - the farm has been having big problems with something called at Johne’s disease which is caused by a similar type of bacterium to the one that causes TB. There is a small possibility of a cow carrying Johne’s disease cross-reacting with the TB test injection. I actually blood sampled all the adult cows on Tuesday to screen the herd for Johne’s in order to try to start eradicating it from herd. It'll be interesting to see whether the positive test cow will be positive for Johne’s. Ultimately it doesn't really make much difference in the short term - the farm’s been placed under restrictions and the affected cow has been taken off for post mortem. One of my colleagues found another positive reactor on a different farm on Friday as well - that's three farms in the practice now and around 50 - 60 within Cumbria. The big worry now this is that the longer it stays around the more likely (inevitable?) it is disease will get into wildlife reservoirs - deer, and perhaps badgers depending on whether you believe that badgers are an influence or not. Time will tell, but I'm sure it's going to keep us busy for several years if not a lot more.\nI did a test on Monday as well on a small farm that I've never been to before - at least testing is one way of getting on to small farms who don't often need us. This one was all clear.\nThe remainder of the week was spent doing more usual work. Lambing’s still not quite got into full swing although we are seeing a slow increase in the number of sheep been brought to the surgery.\n\nDiary 51\nNo TB testing for me this week and no more positive cases in the practice. The first case that I found back in January was confirmed as carrying TB this week though. Although it's bad news for the farmer it is quite reassuring to know that the tests and methods we use do detect carrier animals reasonably accurately.\nThis week has been fairly busy without ever getting too hectic. I operated on a cow on Tuesday which for a number of reasons didn't go quite as smoothly as it might have done. It subsequently didn't do as well post-operatively as we would normally expect. The coming week should see an improvement (I hope). We can never give cast iron guarantees about the outcome of surgery but it is quite rare for this Op to fail, so fingers crossed for Monday. I had to see a horse with colic earlier in the week which on my first visit to I was very suspicious that it was going to require surgery to correct. The owner wasn't prepared for that happen though so it was a question of trying to manage it medically or euthanizing it. It wasn't in undue pain so we gave it a go medically, and much to my (pleasant) surprise over the next few hours and visits he did very well. (just goes to show we are not all-knowing!!!) It would have been interesting to know whether it was a surgical condition which somehow righted itself or whether it was a medical case all along which simply appeared as something more serious. I had to work for an hour or so on Saturday morning doing small animal consultations and then had the rest of the weekend off. We came second in a hockey match again and then I went up to Edinburgh to catch up with some college friends who haven't seen for a while.\n\nDiary 52\nThis week has really seen the start of the lambing season. The sheep every day or every other day that we've been seeing for the last month or so has turned into one every few hours during the day (and during the night in some cases). It’s encouraging that farmers are still bringing them in/calling us out as many feel that sheep aren't worth paying vet fees for. This obviously creates a welfare problem in many situations as inappropriate and inadequate treatment is sometimes provided by the farmer. Having said that I can see why some take the attitude of not spending money on them as prices are often so low.\nThe other aspect of lambing time is that nights get very busy - on Monday I had a ewe caesarean at 2am, then a horse that had just foaled at 3.15.\nI had an hour or so in bed and then a sick cow at 6.20. Although it can be a bit tiring, on the whole cases we see out of hours are not the run-of-the-mill routine things so it does at least make it interesting (which isn't always the first thing on my mind when the phone rings at 3am!)\nUnfortunately the cow I operated on last week failed to improve and I had to re operate on Monday. This is far from ideal as it carries a much higher risk of infection than first-time operation. Somewhat to my surprise it seems to be doing very well now. Cows seem to be amazingly resilient if I'd had abdominal surgery twice in a mucky cow byre I'm sure I wouldn't cope as well.\nI did the same Op on a different farm later in the week which went much better. I’d be getting worried about my technique if two in a row went wrong.\nI've worked Saturday morning again supposedly just for an hour but it turned into about two-and-a-half as things kept coming in. I went up to Edinburgh again after hockey (came second again) to see someone who's left his job to go around the world for six months.\n\nDiary 54\nThe beginning of the week saw a visit to a horse, which had a chronic episode of laminitis (a hoof condition). In this horse's case it had become very severe and really beyond the point where treatment is feasible. Euthanasia was the best option for the horse as it was in a lot of pain. Unfortunately the owner was very reluctant for this and wanted to carry on with treatment. This sort of situation does crop up from time to time and is difficult for all concerned. In the end I told the owners what I thought the chances of recovery were and let them make their decision, which was to continue treatment. Hopefully I'll be proved wrong and the horse will recover, but I can't really see it happening. I saw another case later in the week which ended up going to Liverpool University for surgery. It was a small pony that had managed to cut itself very severely on barbed-wire (horses always find something to injure themselves on). There was a risk that it had penetrated a joint so I sent it to Liverpool to be flushed. As far as I know it's doing very well so far.\nThe rest of the workload this week has been the usual stuff for the time of year. Loads of lambing, a few TB tests (negative!) - generally kept busy.\nOn Friday I went to Edinburgh for a few days course on Equine neurology. I knew most of the speakers (and some delegates) from when I was a student there - it was good to see people again (and I learnt a few things about horses brains and nerves!)\nSaturday was our last hockey match of the season - a draw. We didn't win the league by any stretch of the imagination (but we weren't last either!)\n\nDiary 55\nAnother manic spring week goes by. I've been on duty this weekend and the two of us on call have done as many calls in the last two days has eight vets would expect to do in two week days in the summer. We haven't been bored!\nI didn't leave the practice building until lunchtime on Saturday as there was a constant flow of small animals to see to and a few sheep brought in with lambing problems. I eventually left at 1.30 p m. to go to operate on a cow with a twisted stomach that was meant to be done at 11 am. The Op went a OK but it was then straight back to the surgery to do a caesarean on a whelping bitch with the help of a student who is seeing practice with us. Between then and 9 pm. It was a variety of sick cows, sheep to lamb and a calf with lead poisoning at the far end of Ullswater (would have been a very nice drive out if it hadn't been for the rush!). To top things off I had a cow caesarean at 9 pm.  It was very useful having a student to help all day - I think it was a bit of an eye opener for her!\nSunday morning gave me to more Caesareans (sheep this time - variety is the spice of life), a cat who had very mysteriously lost a leg overnight (perhaps caught in a trap?) but was in incredibly good health otherwise - it's amazing what animals can withstand - and a good supply of other calls to keep me out of mischief. It has actually been quite enjoyable despite being so hectic, and (I think) most of the cases have been quite successful which always helps.\nThe rest of the week seems a distant memory but on the whole it was more of the same, but at a slower pace! I did another small TB test which was negative. Anyway a night off tonight - I need a pint!!\n\nDiary 56\nMonday morning was the 60 day re-test for the first herd that I found TB in. It was a sunny day and on the whole the test went very smoothly. The farmer's buildings are getting very overcrowded though, as he is under a movement restriction due to the TB. First day started well as all the animals were giving negative readings, but then came the dreaded reaction to the injections we gave on the first day. There were four reactors in total; three of which were borderline and the other was very very obvious. The frustrating thing is that the obvious one was a borderline reactor last time but DEFRA refused to take it as it isn't in their policy to take inconclusive reactors found on a routine test. This means that an animal that is actually infected his left on premises to potentially infect other animals. The farmer had tried to point this out two months ago to no avail. He is now vindicated in his view, not that that is much consolation for the fact that his restrictions are to be continued and he may well (probably will in fact) now have more carriers which won't be found until the next Test in 60 days' time. The reason for not initially taking inconclusive reactors is to save money by not paying for the animals to be slaughtered that aren't actually infected. In cases like this it seems to be a real false economy and doesn't win DEFRA \nfriends in the farming community.\nTuesday and Wednesday this week were mainly horse jobs. A horse with a recurrent tooth problem that I've mentioned before came in for more X-rays and finally seems to be doing OK. Its competing in Germany in a week or two so I do hope it stays OK! This weekend I went for a walk in the lakes with one of my old flatmates from Edinburgh. The weather held and was amazingly hot for the time of year - almost got sunburnt.\n\nDiary 57\nI've had a final year student from Edinburgh staying with me this week while she's seeing practice with us. Final exams are looming and I think the stress levels are rising. It's very easy to think of all the things you don't know but I think we've more or less managed to convince her that she does know enough not to be a liability when she qualifies!\nShe saw an interesting incident on a call we did early in the week. I'd gone to replace a uterine prolapse in a cow, which went okay, but the farmer then asked me to falsely certify a cow. We can give certificates to cows over 30 months of age under the BSE scheme, for which farmers are compensated. This cow had to be put down, but wasn't 30 months for another four days. He was understandably "quite upset" about this and let me know! It’s this sort of thing that is a nightmare for anyone but especially someone just starting - you want to please the farmer and make a good impression, but you also have responsibility to not abuse your ability to use your signature. In the end I explained why he couldn't have a certificate and he did calm down. I'm sure Vicky will have similar situations before too long - diplomatic, as well as clinical, skills develop very quickly once in practice!\nAnother interesting case came in on Thursday - a year old foal needed emergency surgery on a hernia. As luck would have it it was our first relatively quiet morning for a few weeks so we had enough vets on hand to do the surgery and anaesthetic. The Op went well and the horse has gone home this weekend.\nI've been on second call this weekend and things have been busy but not unmanageable. I did 2 Belgian Blue Caesareans in the space of six hours on one farm yesterday but since then it's just been a reasonable stream of calls rather than the madness of two weekends ago.\n\nDiary 58\nFollowing my going up on a course on neurology a few weeks ago a case came up this week. It's not often that we see neurological cases so it's quite a coincidence. I think it must have some kind of tumour in its brain causing it to show the various signs it has. Unfortunately the only way to firmly diagnose this is by post mortem, which is how most neurological cases end up and, alas, I fear this one will too.\nI went to do a fertility check at one of our dairy farms on Tuesday. The vet he normally has was away and he looked a bit put out when I turned up. I think (hope) I managed not to abort any of his cows and he seemed very cheery by the time I left. I suppose it's understandable that farmers tend to want continuity with which vet comes. Work continues to be very busy. An indication in the increase in daily workload is that we've had to introduce a specific messages book at work as there's no longer room to write people messages in the day book as it so full with appointments. They used to be a few days in the year when both pages of the day book were full (the first day of FMD in Penrith had one call) but this week 4 days have been full. It's got to be a good sign really and as I think I've said before, it does stop us all from getting bored!\nI've had three days off over Easter (Friday - Sunday) and two friends and their two mad dogs have been to stay (my cats were not impressed). On Good Friday we went up Plaice Fell. I accidentally brought us down a much more direct route than I intended so we had to while away some time in the garden of the Patterdale Hotel. Life's hard! Yesterday we left the bank holiday crowds in the lakes and went for a walk in the Eden Valley - didn't see a soul. It's amazing the difference a few miles can make. I suppose it hasn't got the hills and isn't as famous, but the scenery is still pretty impressive. But let's not tell anyone and then it might stay quiet on bank holidays….\n\nDiary 59\nI was on duty on Easter Monday but it wasn't too hectic - in fact it was almost unbelievably quiet. There were three of us on duty bracing ourselves for the usual spring onslaught and we only had about two calls each to do all morning. Weird how it sometimes turns out like that. Lambing is definitely quietening down now. The 5-10 lambings coming in each day is turning into 2-3. It's mostly fell sheep lambing now which tend to be easier to lamb so few are in need our/farmer’s assistance.\nIt's starting to get into the horse castration season. We've had the odd one or two over the last few weeks but have had about five this week one of my colleagues, who is next up from me in terms of experience, and I have started doing them together whereas a few years ago after it would always have been at least one of the partners and one of us. We must be improving!\nTB testing seems to have calmed down a bit too. As a practice we’re pretty much up to date with it and as farmers start to turn their cows out they'll become more reluctant to do it. With the way it’s spreading in the county though we have to try to keep up-to-date with it or it really is going to get out of hand.\nI've had this weekend off. It was my sister's birthday yesterday so I went to meet her and my folks for lunch. We sat outside and enjoyed the April sun - very nice it was too. Farmers are all wanting rain (you don't hear that often in April) but the sun suits me fine. What are the odds on it bucketing down in June during silage time??!\n\nDiary 60\nOne of our big dairy farms had had a big outbreak of IBR this week, one of the main respiratory viruses. On the whole it doesn’t cause death and is normally containable. On this occasion however it seems to have been a virulent strain and has caused a number of deaths and a great deal of lost production in terms of lost milk and calves not thriving. Towards the end of the week I went and shot three cows which were terminally affected. Seeing three dead and bleeding cows in the yard obviously reminded the farmer (and me) of when he had the whole herd shot in the same place for FMD, and he had then moved out of sight very quickly. I think the worst of the outbreak is over now and all the cows have been vaccinated.\nThere's only one vet more junior/qualified for less time than me in the practice who started a year or so ago. This week we went to do a colt castrate together - one surgeon, one as anaesthetist - for the first time. We've both done a lot with other vets but this was the first time we've been let loose as a pair. Everything went very smoothly so it looks as though our boss's confidence/Trust wasn't totally misplaced. On Friday morning I had a big dehorning session for one of our beef farmers. It's fairly non-cerebral type work but is OK for a change every now and then. And the farmer is a pretty amenable sort of guy (more than could be said for the weather) so it was a fairly laid-back morning's work. I had the afternoon off and drove up to Edinburgh where there was a bit of a reunion for recent graduates from the vet college. There were a lot of people haven't seen for a long time and it was interesting to compare notes on what we were all up to.\n\nDiary 61\nAfter last weekend in Edinburgh I had to come back to work on bank Holiday Monday. It was fairly manageable on the whole. There were three of us on duty in the morning when the work was steady without ever getting too hectic. I was on first call after 1pm when the surgery closed and it remained fairly quiet until the evening when there was a sudden run of calls, but they came in one after the other rather than building up too much.\nOn Tuesday I did the 60 day re-test of the second herd of cattle that I had previously found a reactor in. It’s a big herd and it took all day to get it done. They’ve been a bit unfortunate and brought in several other diseases apart from the suspected TB, when they re-stocked. One of these, an enteric condition called Johnes disease, is a chronic wasting problem and is notoriously difficult to eradicate. It’ll take years  of blood-testing and careful record-keeping to get rid of it.\nIt’s frustrating for them as all the planning for the post-FMD period has been disrupted. The TB test showed up no reactors this time but 3 cows were inconclusive results and will have to be re-tested. This is almost certainly as a result of the cows carrying antibodies to avian TB which causes no signs of disease in cows but disrupts the bovine TB test. It’s a good example of why we badly need a more specific method for testing for TB. It’s being worked on at the moment and hopefully we’ll get one one day.\nThe senior partner at work is supervising another vet who is doing the same equine qualification that I’m enrolled for. On Wednesday he came to spend a day with Neil to do some equine anaesthetics. They were mainly castrates so I operated while Neil went through the anaesthetics with his student. It was very useful to hear it all in detail again – it’s all too easy to get into the habit of knowing which drugs work at what dosages and not actually really thinking about why they work or why they’re better than other drugs we could use. A useful day but it has made me realise I’ve got a lot to do over the next few years!\n\nDiary 62\nThings are still remaining very busy at work, lambing has pretty much finished now but the work doesn't seem to be easing. The partners have decided we need another vet to help things along - a final-year student from Edinburgh came for an interview this week and it looks as though he'll get the job. It will mean that the rota will improve and hopefully will not be quite as hectic when he starts.\nFollowing the fantastically dry spring it's now too wet for the farmers and they are tearing their hair out about how the first cut of silage is going to be gathered in dry. Hopefully we'll get a dry spell again soon to ease their worries.\nI found a potential case to write up for my Equine casebook this week. It's a mare that managed to get caught up in wire and tear a big hole in the shin of her lower leg. It's too big a defect to stitch so it'll have to heal with a lot of bandaging and perhaps some skin grafts. It always amazes me how horses managed to give themselves the most horrendous injuries been fields where there really doesn't seem to be any opportunity for it. Clumsiness perhaps? Maybe they just enjoy pain (I doubt it).\nWe're doing quite a bit of scanning of mares for pregnancy at the moment. It's another thing that I've been doing more of this year than in the past. It's a bit daunting at times but as with a lot of things it's really a case of practising it as much as possible. By the end of the stud season it’ll hopefully be fairly straightforward.\nI drove down to Oxford on Friday evening after work to see my sister/cousins/ friends who live down there. It seemed a longish drive but it was well worth it to catch up with them all. One of the things about working weekends is that it makes weekends off that much more appreciated\n\nDiary 63\nAfter a very pleasant weekend off I had a truly delightful first job on Monday morning. A cow had been losing weight for the last month also - the reason I found was that it had a very dead calf inside which I then spent the first hour of the week pulling out bone by bone. It was a fairly revolting job but wasn't actually something that I especially resented doing. Must mean I'm happy in my work. Or perhaps just a bit weird?\nI had another fairly grim job later in the week when I was called out at 4 a m. to a foaling. The foal was stuck half out and was dead by the time I got there. I eventually managed to get the foal out and initially the mare seemed OK but deteriorated over the next 48 hours and eventually had to be euthanased. That’s just the way it goes sometimes.\nA more successful case came later in the week when I saw a foal that was acutely lame. It looked at first as though it might have an infected elbow but after taking samples of the joint fluid and some X-rays it looked as though it was actually a traumatic injury. It stayed it in the hospital for four days during which time it seemed to improve quite a bit. It's a thoroughbred from a good racing line - hopefully with a rest it’ll make a full recovery and win the Grand National in 2008.\nI had the whole of the Bank Holiday weekend off. Six college friends came to stay for a weekend of Cumbrian fresh-air. After a pretty gloomy forecast the weather turned out very well and we all went for a Lake District walk each day and had a pretty relaxed time. Except for my cats - four dogs also came to stay, which didn't impress the cats who spent the whole time hiding in my room.\n\nDiary 64\nThis week started with a TB test for a small re-stocking herd. He had bought some cattle from a farm that subsequently tested positive for TB. One of the cattle from that farm had then tested positive on his farm so this week's test was a 60 day re-test. It was an all-clear this time which was obviously a relief for them. Seeing as there was a positive on the farm last time they probably have to have another test in 60 days from now before restrictions are lifted. This farm isn't very big so being under TB restrictions is awkward but not as crippling as it is the larger farms. There is no room for relaxing the rules at the moment though. The recent news from Ireland that says they think they've proved a link with badgers makes it even more important to get it out of Cumbria before it gets into wildlife (although it may well already be too late).\nIn between the two testing days this week I seemed to do a lot of horse cases. On Wednesday I spent most of the day touring around Cumbria seeing horses in Wigton, Cockermouth and Bassenthwaite. It was a sunny day and was a very pleasant way to spend the day - great scenery to look at, outside when not driving and cases going the way I was hoping - not a bad way to work!\nI've been on call this weekend and it's been very quiet (so far). Yesterday was steady with a reasonable number of calls but none stacking up. I've done 2 cattle Caesareans on the same farm this weekend - one yesterday morning which seemed like a huge calf until the one I did this morning which was truly a freak. It was the biggest calf I or the farmer had seen and is the result of selecting for extreme confirmation in beef breeds. It does pose serious welfare issues for the cows as they cannot give birth naturally and have to have fairly major abdominal surgery instead. We’ll never persuade farmers of this though as the consumer wants cheaper food and cheaper beef is made through bigger beef calves. It does seem tough on the cows though. Or am I being too cynical?\n\nDiary 65\nI thought it was interesting to see how much people still are willing to talk about some of 2001 at the meeting on Wednesday night. While a lot of the conversation was routed around the subjects you had come up with over the last 18 months, it often came back to talk of events and individual experiences during the outbreak itself. These stories must have been told on dozens of occasions but people still want to tell them if the right time/opportunity comes up (myself included).\nThere were so many themes that you have all come up with on the "electronic tags" sheet that it seems impossible to comment on them all. Some of them seem very relevant to me, others not so much. Trust is a category that comes up under a couple of headings. One of the headings it is under is "knowledge". I think this has been one of the most significant changes since FMD as far as the farmer/vet relationship is concerned. DEFRA has gone from being eyed with some suspicion to overt distrust and resentment. On a whole we don't get too much flack as veterinary GPs but when we have to do DEFRA allocated jobs, such as TB testing, there is sometimes a general feeling of it being another task to try to wear them down being sent by the authorities. Another regulation that has caused huge resentment is the whole animal movement licensing system. It is much easier now and causes fewer problems but a year or so ago it was the source of much stress. We had to try to act as intermediary between farmers and DEFRA and keep both sides happy. The damage done to the farmer/DEFRA Trust will take a long time (if ever) to start to repair. Hopefully, by trying to be more "on their side" than DEFRA seem to be, the trust they have in us has been preserved.\nIt's been a quietish week at work - maybe because there's been a bit of silaging going on so the farmers haven't got time for routine work. It's about time we were a bit quieter. The summer lull hasn't materialised at all yet this year. In fact we’re taking on another vet to ease the workload (did I mention this last week??). In the meantime it's nice to have time to draw breath and enjoy the sun for a day or two!\n\nDiary 66\nThis week seems to have gone by a pretty quickly. Maybe it's because I'm on holiday next week and the thought of it is spurring me on! I fly to Split tomorrow for a week of sailing on the Croatian coast with a college friend and some relatives. It'll be a change from Cumbria!\nOne of our big dairy farmers was away in Thailand this week. The farm was left to be run by his usual workers and his brother and mother. Despite this he felt he had to take his mobile phone with him, and he was rung twice during the week to be asked what should be done with a couple of sick cows. I suppose this either demonstrates extreme dedication or an inability to forget about work. Or both. But then again it also shows how committed a lot of farmers are and that it's not just a job to them. As farms get bigger the concept of all the cows being individually known to the farmer or being his "friends" becomes increasingly unrealistic, but in the majority of cases they’re not just milk making machines and are cared for pretty well. It's not hard to see why it was so hard for people to lose their herds.\nAfter being a bit quieter at work last week it suddenly seems to have become very hectic at work again this week. There haven't been any particularly time-consuming jobs, just lots of sick cows, horse calls and the usual mix of animal ailments. It's better to be busy than quiet though. I think I need a holiday (and I'll keep my phone switched off).\n\nDiary 67\nA week off work to go sailing in Croatia - Easy life. After meeting up with the boat and the rest of the group in Starigrad we sailed to Vis into a fairly direct head wind so it took quite a bit of tacking and was a bit of a rough ride. I also very stupidly underdid the sunscreen and managed to burn my back. Very careless, but it got less uncomfortable as the week went on. We spent two nights in Vis harbour as the others who had already been sailing for a week wanted a rest. It used to be a military island and there were definite signs of this around although it is obviously developing a now rapidly-growing tourist trade. After Vis it was off to Hvar, where we anchored in a small inlet a few miles from the town. After a night there we went to Hvar town for a look around - the castle on the hill was very impressive and the town still feels as though it is relatively unspoilt at the moment.\nThe last couple of days were spent making our way slowly back to Split. We actually spent the last two days in Split as there was a strong northerly wind brewing up which would have been a bit rough to be out in. My uncle who was the skipper on board has been to Croatia for the last three years - he said it was very noticeably more busy this year. It seems a shame to spoil it with more tourist facilities, but we all contributed to them being built by going there. Hopefully it won't be too dramatically changed.\n\nDiary 68\nThis week started at 9am Monday with a TB test at one of the most "basic" (run-down?) farms we go to. It was the first time I'd been there in three and a half years of working here - so they don't make huge use of our veterinary services. One of their bullocks was 7½  years old! When I casually asked about what plans they had for it seeing as he had missed the 30 months cut-off time for human consumption I was told it was just kept as a friend for the bull! The test was very slow as the cattle handling facilities were not the best on the planet. They were very pleasant people to talk to and it soon became apparent that they had very little time for DEFRA (nothing unusual there). The son was one of the people who had had his firearms confiscated after making threats at the start of FM D.  They still felt resentful about the way the police became involved and the way they were ultimately given no choice as to who came on to their farm to check their stock. Fortunately all the cattle were negative for TB so there was no need to further add to their distrust of DEFRA by putting them under more restriction.\nThe rest of the week has been fairly steady. There's been enough going on to keep us busy without ever being frantic. The horse I saw last week with a neurological problem has become a bit worse so has gone to Edinburgh vet school to see one of the neurologists up there (he seemed fairly confused by it as well, which I have to say I found quite reassuring!)\nThe weekend was a bit on the strenuous side - a cousin who is a keen cyclist persuaded me it was a good idea to do a big Cumbrian/Yorkshire bike ride. We went from Penrith to Alston to Barnard Castle, to Tan Hill (refreshments) to Kirkby-Stephen to Penrith on Saturday. And then recovered on Sunday. It seemed like a good idea at the time but I am really feeling it now!\n\nDiary 69\nLooking back at some of the quotes in the "Recovery" section of the notes from a meeting it's noticeable how easy it is to forget (or at least not have in one's mind) how much it affected a lot people. It's almost hard to remember how much I was affected by it - I know that there were some very unpleasant tasks such as supervising slaughters, and day-to-day work was often very frustrating when we felt people overseeing our work from offices didn't really know what it was like in the field, but I feel now that on the whole once work was finished life pretty much went on. Maybe this isn't actually a true reflection of how it was and it's just that some of the detailed memories are fading - often things don't seem as bad as they actually were when you look back on them. I know plenty of clients, colleagues and friends whose lives were completely overtaken by FMD so perhaps mine was more than I remember, but I also feel that most of the people who I remember as being heavily affected are now more-or-less completely over it. \nOne of the farms I went to this week lost a son in a road accident about two months after getting FMD. I think the farmer was ready to give up everything after that. Apparently he left the cleaning up of his farm and took no interest in anything. Time obviously helped him - he's been back milking again for that (sic) last year and a half. There are still changes though - he seems very much quieter and more laid back now. If a cow isn't in calf or things don't go quite right he doesn't seem to get stressed now, as he once would have done. Work has been a bit quieter this week, which we would expect at this time of year. One of our farms has put some pedigree Belgian blue embryos into some Limousin cross heifers and they're starting to calve now - they all need Caesar's as the calves are almost as big as the heifers that produce them. The only thing to be said for it is that we can do them at a sensible time of day rather than at two in the morning as we know when they’re due.\n\nDiary 70\nOne of the five categories you raised at the meetings last month was trauma and one of the subsections on the chart was "sounds/smells/visions". Sights are probably the most frequent reminder of FMD now - there are certain bits of road that have memories, for example driving north on the M6 just south of Penrith it was possible to count smoke plumes from about 20 pyres at one stage. On fine days it always reminds me of it when I drive that stretch. One farm has the remains of a pyre that was started to be built but never finished. Even things like driving across two lines of tar across a road which once held down a disinfectant mat. People who didn't live here at the time wouldn't even notice them but it seems quite significant to the rest of us. It doesn't really bother me, but just is a reminder of what went on. At other times it seems odd how quickly things have gone back to normal. - even something as simple as a road with mud or animal muck on it. In 2001 that would have stuck out like a sore thumb and would have warranted urgent action.  Now I'm used to driving a dirty car (I do clean it sometimes) and having some roads caked in dirt. It's difficult to imagine how the farmers kept them clean two years ago. (But they did). \nObviously there are other reminders (people never tire of talking about it), but it's the day-to-day visions and places that are most regular.\nWork has been a bit quieter this week. I did it a Caesar on a cow which had a truly ridiculously enormous calf. We need to move away from breeding continental beef breeds and go back to nice compact Jersey's or Aberdeen Anguses! I also saw an unusual neurological case in a horse. It's very uncoordinated and has poor balance. It's the kind of case where brain/spinal scan would be useful, but those facilities aren't really available for horses! It will be interesting to see how it goes over the next few days. \n\nDiary 71\nThe last diary! The 18 months seem to have gone by quickly. Things seem so much back to how they were that it's odd to think back to what was going on when we first started writing them. I think we were pretty much in the swing of doing restocking checks and doing endless blood sampling of sheep. The last restocking checks I did were only 16 months ago - it seems far longer. Although I say things are back to how they were I'm sure there are actually a lot of differences, it's just that I don't notice them because I'm used to how things are now. The practice has become a lot busier. By October we’ll be up to nine full-time and two part-time vets. Pre FMD we were seven full-time and two part-time. Some of the increase is Equine and small animal, but most of it is in farm practice. Part of this is directly linked to FMD (eg more TB testing due to re-stocking tests, and re-stocking having brought TB into the county). Other factors aren't so obvious but are unquestionably FMD related - most restocked farmers went back with more stock than they originally had, so overall there is greater density of stock around. More animals means more sick animals which means more calls for the vet. It's a shame in some ways to see the small traditional farms being forced out, but it's hard to see how they can manage as margins get smaller and larger neighbours get more stock and more land. FMD was a way out for several of the smaller farms - all have been bought up by neighbours with none being sold as single units. \nAs I've said in recent weeks, this time of year is usually quiet - it has become a bit less frantic recently but the traditional summer lull hasn't materialised. \nI've been a vet for four years. The last three have been just about as interesting and challenging as they could have been - both professionally and socially from the point of view of living in Penrith. Obviously FMD had devastating effects on thousands of people, many of whom are my friends. On the whole I see very few residual scars - it  is still talked about, but less and less as time goes on. More than one farmer has actually said that they think in hindsight it was a very good thing for them. I'm not sure I could ever say that as it brought too much stress and sadness for too many people, but if it had happened, I think (very much with the benefit of hindsight) I’m glad that I had the chance to be involved with it from the start and through the recovery.\n\n
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1966\nGender: F\nOccupation: Group 6\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\n\n\nDiary 1\nMonday was the usual long hard grind. I accept that I have to put in 10 – 12 hours and I don’t mind doing the work because it’s not physically or mentally taxing but I do hate not having a lunch break, just that little bit of selfish time to site, have a cigarette, take the dogs down the river, see the horses…whatever. I do resent that fact that W (one of the bosses) almost always gets a lunch hour. B (the other boss) has gone up tremendously in my opinion for the way that he gets on with the work. He starts early, finishes late, hates DERFA paperwork and rarely complains. It is definitely grinding them down because they work like that at least 4 days a week. It has been a huge advantage this last year being part-time at work. My days off obviously aren’t my own as they used to be, but I do get away from the phone and the demands of clients. Some of our clients are very selfish and I hadn’t noticed before. They seem to think they are the only ones that have hassles with DEFRA. I remember saying to one (complaining about problems with licensing) that he was lucky to have problems with only one licence. The first day that movement licenses came out we applied for 26 and received the explanatory notes from DEFRA on how to complete the paperwork 4 days later.\nAnyway managed to do three final visits and complete most of the paperwork before 9pm. Kirkby Stephen was buzzing today – the auction reopened for a cattle sale. The main street was full of shiny farmers with fish and chips and the back lane was full of shiny (some new) Land Rovers and trailers (trailers mostly new).\nIn fact MC told me that as soon as he heard his bloods had come back clear (restocking) he washed and changed and went to the mart. He said it was the first time he had felt clean since the day they were infected – he felt ok to go among other farmers. He surprised me because he is so easy going – he takes all in his stride. But he still says FMD is not as terrible as testicular cancer – and he’s right.\nAD was one of the other final visits – he doesn’t give a bugger about anything. Happy to become a flower power farmer – he doesn’t care much about his sheep as individuals, they are just numbers. Just as well because in the batch he bought from Wales the sheep have more legs than teeth – I can’t see them lasting long. Pissed off because I missed Bryan Adams concert in Newcastle – couldn’t finish in time to join the bus. The rest of the lassies had a brilliant time, and at least Tracey benefited from my ticket.\nHad to go back in to work the next day to finish my DEFRA reports and fax them off. Went to playgroup to talk about pets. Took my dog (lurcher) and [child’s] rabbit (dodgy combination). Very few of the kids seemed to have pets of their own. A lot of them referred to Granddad’s dogs or Uncles cat. When I left college the pet population was increasing, what’s going to happen in the next 15 years?\n[Sister] phoned, worried about her horse, he has haematuria. I’m worried that he has a tumour. I feel very far away and helpless when things like this happen even though she only lives in Yorkshire. I’m sure I could help her whatever the outcome if we lived closer. In fact I think I miss my family more now than I ever have. I don’t know if it’s my age, or the thought that M is over 60, or that I didn’t see them much at all last year, or just because I have [son] now and can understand how mothers/families feel. I miss [sisters] but I still don’t phone them much – I always think they’ll be busy. I can talk to Mam three or four times a week for half an hour at a time without thinking twice. She must get fed up hearing me go on and on about work etc, but she loves hearing all about every tiny detail of [son’s] antics and achievements.\nWill broached the subject of a partnership again. I don’t know what to think. It’s the obvious thing to do and a few years ago I would have taken his hand off for even 10 or 20%. I’m just not as excited about it as I should be. And what would change? Will I be better off? Will I be a better vet? Or will I spend too much time of figures and paperwork. Will I become ‘more commercially aware’? Do I want to change? Can I be bothered with the extra hassle? They are ok, they have a career and a wife, I’m trying to do both (sometimes badly).\n\nDiary 2\nMonday’s are shite! It starts off busy and gets worse – why can’t we do time management a bit better. It did look as if we might finish around 6.30 at one stage in the afternoon. Then I was called out to a calf. I didn’t really need a visit at 6pm at night. W said, ‘never mind, you’ll be picking [son] up anyway (the childminder lives on the next door farm) - he hasn’t got a clue! If I picked [son] up he would be at Ange’s for about 8 hours – I feel guilty enough that he’s away for about 8 hours. [Partner] always picks him up about 5.30 and has to cope (which he does well) until I get home. But it’s hard work for both of us after a full day at work, and [partner] is usually knackered and ready for peace and quiet when he gets home – not a tired hungry wee lad.\nAnyway, I ended up having a farm tour that night. [farmer] was so proud of his new pedigree Belgian Blues and his new shed. He’s been lucky to get most of his commercial stock from his father so he has an idea of their past history. He’s a nice lad and he was producing some stunning beef calves before he was taken out, at least he’s young enough to get going again. He hasn’t said much about loosing his stock so I haven’t asked. I had a chat to his aunt one day and she was very upset, and that upsets me. I hate when people get emotional like that, I start filling up myself. \nI got back to find a sheep caesarean still to do. Waste of time. Premature lambs all born alive (3) and all dead before I finished stitching the uterus. And to put the tin hat on the day my assistant was the mother who prattled about nothing much all the way through the op. She does my head in, she is a century away from me in her outlook but I still come away feeling that I am the one who has got it all wrong. Maybe I should have dinner on the table and shirts ironed etc. I don’t want to be like her though and I can’t even sympathise with her even though they lost all their sheep. I’m sure she must have taken it badly but I don’t think she would ever let her feelings show in public – something about the way she spoke suggested that she was forcing herself to put a brave face and look forward – probably for her own son’s sake.\nWatched ‘Rural Lives’ again on Tuesday. CR came over well I though. I couldn’t help but snigger when the slaughter team were discussing one of our clients – she made the kids carry away the dead piglets after they’d been slaughtered – them team thought that was terrible but I knew the kids – they all help on the farm, they know that their pigs go to kill, the family even started their own little slaughter house and cutting plant before FMD. I don’t think those kids would be horrified. Sad maybe. We all felt sad over the last year, sad for the healthy animals culled, more sad for the people caught up in the mess. One disease where the cure is worse! Mostly though I get angry when I hear or talk about FMD. I get angry because DEFRA let us all down, the politicians got too closely involved, nothing happened fast enough. We didn’t seem to be able to do anything. We knew very little and struggled to get reliable information. I still get wound up thinking about it all. We were marginalised by DEFRA. I felt as if it was us and the farmers versus DERFA – not all three groups versus FMD. The rumours that abounded just magnified the feelings. We talked at length about FMD, DEFRA, etc. within the practice and with our clients but I could still talk about it all day even now. So many things are unresolved. I have lost faith in DEFRA, especially since they changed their name, no A for agriculture now; and I’m glad I have been ignorant of politics for so long – there have been few shining lights in the government. I’m heartily sick of authority interfering and regulating stuff that’s going along quite nicely. Let them interfere with stuff that’s doing harm – bad farmers need a shake up, sheep dealers  need to think more about animal welfare but the way things are going the good guys that toe the line will end up following all the rules and regulations set up to sort out the bad guys – and will they bother?\n\nDiary 3\nPossibly the best bit of the week was Sunday when I eventually (after 13 months) got back on my horse. Only 15 minutes but it was nerve wracking. I thought she might just throw me off, and I was so tense (actually we both were) I felt as if I had forgotten how to ride. I stayed in the field thinking it would be safer but the other two horses were flying about to annoy us. I’m so frustrated that I haven’t been able to get her fit for the start of the endurance season. There’s no way we’d be able to go to the first ride at Ullswater, and there’s only one other in Cumbria this year (due to FMD). Who would have thought that we would still be curtailed by FMD more than a year on? \n(The young horse) was very interested in saddle and bridle so I put them on him and he was ok. At first he was frightened to move at all but then he realised it was ok. On Monday I had a strange request to go and hold an old pony for the knacker to shoot. The owner’s just didn’t want to be around. It was a lovely morning so I led her out for a bite of grass before he arrived. She could barely manage to breathe and swallow at the same time. I can’t believe how the tumours have taken hold of her since the turn of the year. Mr A couldn’t tell his wife the diagnosis initially because she hadn’t got over losing the few pedigree sheep they had. It’s taking some people a long time to get over the loss. I think it’s easier to get over losing an animal if you have more than one – it helps to keep you focussed on the living rather than the dead – and farmers haven’t been able to get restarted when they were ready to because of all the C & D requirements. Anyway, the knacker man told some good tales. There’s been some nutters about shooting animals, some even had their guns taken off them. Poor lad was given a day’s notice at the knackey and was part of a slaughter team after that so he was only paid his normal wage which the boss collected at the DEFRA rate for them all, it was good talking to him probably because I don’t really know him. I didn’t feel that I would upset him because he wasn’t like a client who had lost animals. Sometimes it’s hard to know what to say if people get upset; sometimes it’s enough to listen.\nOne of the most awkward situations I found myself in was talking to a farmer who lost no stock but he was so depressed he started crying. The cows I had gone to see ‘should have gone last year, then we wouldn’t have had these problems’. He also has been unable to sell sheep so the farm was completely overstocked, overgrazed and had little silage left.\nI couldn’t understand why he was still overstocking when he could have sold sheep and cattle for restocking or for slaughter quite easily in the last few months. Maybe he just couldn’t face the hassle of getting licences, or maybe he’s just too far down to think straight. I usually mention that sort of thing to B and W because I think it’s important that everyone in the practice knows what’s happening, not just with out patients but also with our clients.\n\nDiary 4\nI had the honour of completing the FINAL final visit today, and it was one of my neighbours in Soulby. No more surveillance visits!! Poor Lol couldn’t find his DEFRA paperwork, and while he was looking through his files he found copies of his valuation report with all his old cows on – I think it brought it all back. He’s trying hard to move on, I could understand him being bitter since his whole (very good) milking herd was taken as a DC. I think he may have survived because the infection was half a mile away from his cows but the IP land joined. I watched them load all his cows into coal wagons on s Saturday afternoon. In fact it was midnight when the last de-tox wagon left. How can they be clean if I can’t even get my wellies clean in the dark?\nHow he’s worrying about his new cows coming from Holland. He thinks it’s a long way for them to travel but he can’t wait for them to arrive – unlike his wife who thinks that all this restocking is going too fast. I felt apprehensive too about a fortnight ago, but the feeling is subsiding. The day to day normality of work is returning. Sheep are permitted to visit the surgery for treatment so we have had a much more normal March than we’d had last year, even though there are still thousands of sheep missing from the practice.\nFarmers are still bringing in lambs. The value of stock is obviously not their prime concern – ‘where there’s life there’s hope’. We wouldn’t see ewes or lambs at all if the cost of treatment versus the animal’s value was weighed. I was worried that we would have a flare up around lambing time. There’s a chance that some of the fell sheep were exposed to FMD – and there’s a risk of virus recrudescence at times of stress, so I was thinking that if we made it through lambing then we’d definitely be ok. The weather has cheered me up this week. Everybody smiles more when it’s sunny. Its tempting to think my days at home are holidays when the weathers so nice!!\n\nDiary 5\nI forgot about April Fools Day for the first time ever. We were so busy at work, and it was more of a Bank Holiday than anything else. I do resent working Bank Holidays – but Monday is my day to be on call. B did offer to do some of the day but he had a caesarean on a cow, a lambing at 1.30 am and another call at 6 am so he’d be knackered enough – and they pay me for a day’s work so its only fair that I give a days work.\nWhen the phone rang early Tuesday and I felt as if I’d only been in bed 2 hours I was regretting not passing on the night duty – a Belgian Blue calving – CAESARIAN mentally checked my kit in the car while driving to KS. Definitely caesarean. They shouldn’t breed from these cows until they’re more mature. We’re getting loads of bother with the new stock – never mind its proper veterinary work. Anyway the heifer was a right bag. Started off lying down so I doped her but she got up after we got the calf out and then tried to lye down on the wound – peritonitis to follow no doubt. I warned the farmer and we were all very calm about it – maybe none of us were really awake!! So that made [partner] late for work as he was left ‘holding the baby’ and I was well late setting off to see my sister [sister]. [sister] didn’t mind and [partner]’s bosses said it was ok but I still felt guilty.\nHad a great time at [sister’s] – did a bit of touristy stuff and found a really nice book for mam’s birthday, by Mrs Herdie who used to holiday near home. Mam has a watercolour by her but this book is all wildflowers. [Other sister] phoned to say [horse] is worse. I think [sister] and I both wanted to go to Yorkshire when we heard how upset she was. [Sisters] are so close (being twins) but I can understand what [sister]’s going through with a horse on death’s door. She didn’t want us to go (she said) so we drank too much red wine instead and watched the start of Papillon (good film). I was too knackered though; my stamina gives out a lot sooner under the influence of alcohol.\nMam’s birthday was a queer day. It’s rare that I get the chance to spend time with any of my siblings at home and we had a lovely day apart from the fact that we were all waiting to hear what was going to happen with [sister]. She phoned to say he’d been put down, bladder tumour. I think it must be pretty rare. She still said we shouldn’t go down. [sister] could have easily gone (and Mam) because Lynxes on school hols (jammy teacher!). I stayed on till quite late because both my brother and stepfather wanted to see [son] – he was so excited to see them, sometimes he just makes us all laugh.\nI had a depressing start to the day back at work – just over a month ago I amputated a dog’s leg. The leg was fractured over 6 months ago, appeared to heal and then suddenly worsen. We suspected a bone infection but she didn’t respond to treatment so I x-rayed her again and it looked like a bone tumour. She did well after the operation until last week when she developed a hard knobbly swelling near her shoulder and her lungs were infiltrated. I felt so sad for her and the family. She was a lovely placid and very brave dog and it is just so unfair. I don’t want to give up on these cases and I feel that euthanasia is a poor treatment in this case, I so wanted her to have a couple more years. I never would have put her or the family through a ghastly op like amputation if I had known that she would get so little benefit. The farmer’s son (who worked the dog until she retired) was conspicuous by his absence – he’s rebuilding the milking parlour ready to restock so his sister did the honours and came to help me.\nHad to switch to party mode – [son’s] 2nd birthday. The sandpit was a roaring success, as was the trike and cake from Grandma and Granddad. We had a super relaxing day (mostly outdoors). This weather makes life a lot easier, I couldn’t have coped with all those little boys inside!\nEscaped to the horses at Asby to take water. It’s so peaceful up there. I’ve really missed being able to go up there this last year – there’s still yellow tape on my gate and I don’t even have livestock! I wonder who they (DEFRA) thought the field belongs to? Should get out riding this next week with a bit of luck and a bit of spare time. I think I’ll have to shelve the plans to show the Arabs, I haven’t got started soon enough.\n\nDiary 6\nOur new vet started this week. Bright, young, enthusiastic and full of new ideas. I feel very out of touch. I didn’t go on any CPD courses last year, for most of the year I felt as if we were unclean, and I was so tired with working such long days it seemed too much hard work to organise extra childcare etc. to allow me to go away for more than a day. I feel out of touch generally though and a lot of it has to do with working part-time.\nBig day on Wednesday, [son’s] 1st morning at Biggins Nursery. I think my new hobby is worrying!! Am I doing the right thing setting off on new (extra and expensive) childcare arrangements? I think I feel guilty because it’s for my benefit, not for extra work. It’s now going to cost me an extra £7.50 to ride my horse on a Wednesday! But I am starting to break [horse] in as well and I can’t handle a 4 year old horse with a 2 year old boy around. Anyway the nursery seemed a big hit and I had my first ride out on Ashby fell. I actually went over the track to the Dowly tree instead of on the road. She (the horse) was quite anxious leading the other two, and a bit excited to be out in the open space of the fell – so was I. There seems to be just one lot of fell sheep on there – they must be H’s I think. Nobody else has started to heft sheep up there yet. The ‘dowly tree’ will be looking sad and lonely for a bit longer.\nI have missed being up on that fell so much. Margaret Little asking if we’re going to the village hall quiz on Friday – probably not because we’re going out for a meal for [partner]’s birthday. Felt guilty about not supporting village activities and started justifying myself to her. I hate it though when people use FMD to make you feel bad. She kept saying how few ‘does’ there were last year, how nice it is for all the village to get together etc. – all true but I can’t get babysitters and nights off to do everything and [partner] is way more important than the village quiz. He put up with such a lot of shite last year and never complained – far too tolerant!\nWe had a lovely meal on the Friday night. [son] slept out at T’s for the first time in ages but I couldn’t have a lie in because of the judge’s course for the Arab Horse Society. I really enjoyed it – it was arranged for last year but had to be postponed due to FMD – it was worth waiting for and I couldn’t have gone last year even if it had been on. Went to see [sister] and [sister’s boyfriend] on Sunday. Seemed to spend all day being fed (she’s like Mam!). [Son] took a real shine to [sister’s boyfriend] which entertained us all. She seems to be coping ok with [horse]’s demise. Martin has cleaned up one of his shoes and mounted it with a plaque – he’s very thoughtful.\n\nDiary 7\nI have decided that I am happy on dry days when I can ride or work my horses, [son] and I can get outside to play and then he’s happier and people who come into work are more smiley on good days too. [son] and I went to a birthday party this week. He had a brilliant time but I felt very out of place. Everybody else was immaculately dressed and made up while [son] and I had to rush back from having a bonfire to burn all the old hay in Musgrave field to quickly wash and change. I’d rather have carried on tidying up the field, it’s still a real mess and at least I have the grass seed now. It had better grow, the price it was!!\nI was really pleased with [horse] on Wednesday. He’s coming on quite nicely with his lunging now, he seems to be quite amenable. Dental appointment on Friday – I hope my dentist never retires – I don’t think they make dentists that are more interested in people and their teeth than money any more. I always have a good chat to him so we carried on our discussion about my working conditions, comparing them to his sons etc. (he’s a vet too). He was quite surprised when I told him about the partnership talks. Last time I had a good heart to heart it was after the threatened redundancy. It’s no wonder I feel confused about the future at times. Nearly 2 years ago when I was on maternity leave they thought they might have to make me redundant. Now they want to release a bit of capital and take things easier they want me to buy in!! This time last year I didn’t know if [partner] or I would have a job!! Now I have to decide to commit myself to at least 20 more years as a vet.\nWent out with girls from work to a 40th. Didn’t really want to go but of course we had a great time once we got there. I think I have got out of the habit of evenings out. Still can’t get used to the freedom the mobile phone gives us, and spend all the time checking that there’s enough signal/battery etc. Had a hell of a hangover – too much draught coke. Hell it’s worse than cider!\n\nDiary 8\nThe shit is hitting the fan. We’re having problems with some imported Dutch heifers. We were waiting for this, especially on this particular farm. The management’s not the best and the father takes more advice from his feed merchant than us vets. There is obviously a viral infection going through the heifers and Farmer B presumed they were already vaccinated (no documentation). They are also showing signs of gastro-intestinal upset which could be management. Oh hell why did he buy 80 first calvers. Nobody would willingly put themselves under that stress. [New vet) is interested but B and W are obviously trying to keep their distance. They’ve been embroiled in herd problems on this farm before.\nI am now obviously the senior vet in charge of this problem and I’m not even at work every day. It’s too much for [new vet] to cope with and the farmer will get pissed off soon and I bet it’s us that catch the flak!\nCheered myself up with 1½ hours of R & R with the horses on Wednesday. Lovely day. Rode down onto the common but it was hard work as the other two horses were shouting for daisy all the time I was out on her. [horse] decided that he would be bobbly when I worked him but I’m getting confident that I know how his mind works.\nWe had a bit of a stand-off but I made sure it didn’t turn into a battle and he did as he was asked in the end, so we finished on a good note. I think it will be quite satisfying bringing him on myself – even though its going to take months at this rate. Some people work on young horses twice a day, he’s lucky if he gets trained twice a week.\nWork is really settling down now. The lambing time rush has passed and we’re catching up on our TB testing for DEFRA. It’s a bit more taxing having to do such young animals in the restocked herds but most people are fairly well organised. We’re not going to get some of the herds done before turn out I wonder if DEFRA have any recommendations for catching wild Limousin heifers in the middle of a field – probably not they don’t think that far ahead.\n\nDiary 9\nI hate Mondays again. Had supper at 11.45 pm. There was a problem with my mobile when I was on call (I hate mobiles as well) and I went to calve a cow one and a half-hours after the first call came in. I was so mad – firstly because we don’t make our clients wait that long for an emergency to become a disaster and second because Ws wife has no idea about passing jobs on – she should have got another vet to go since I was obviously busy but she just passed the message on to [new vet] to let her sort it out – and W’s wife gets paid for doing the phones! Anyway all’s well – live cow and a tremendous bull calf, and one of the easiest caesareans I have done in ages. \nB and W seem to forget that it is their business (and reputation) at stake. Ultimately the buck stops with them. Both of them seem to have had enough of business management and hassle to last a lifetime. Last year has done a lot of damage to a lot of people. I know I am a lot less tolerant than I used to be.\nThis week started badly and improved. Farrier came and trimmed all 3 horses, bollocked me because they hadn’t been seen for over a year (I did tidy them a bit myself though). Had a lovely afternoon at Rheged with Mam. We started going when FMD was on because it was sort of neutral, non-agricultural ground. We sat and chatted while [son] played in the soft play centre – everybody happy. Unfortunately I went down with the worst dose of food poisoning I had ever had, I was up all night. Went into work late – I wouldn’t have gone at all except I had a 2nd TB to test to do on a restocked farm and couldn’t bear to start the whole thing again. I recovered as the afternoon went on and even managed to dehorn 10 cows. The thought of B sending fragile, young [new vet] to help spurred me on a bit. I was knackered when I finished. Took me another 2 days to recover. [horse] doing well, bridle and saddle on now, looking grown up. I’m quite proud of him. He was so chilled out today I tried long reining him – that confused him but he was very sensible.\nNorleen and I didn’t go to the 1st date at the Rochdale show, I still didn’t feel right and [partner] was going to fit the new fuel pump to my car – but then he started to feel ill too. What a waste of a Saturday off.  Made it to the show on Sunday – pretty good ridden classes, and all the senior in hand classes. We were laughing because we’re so out of practice. There are two years worth of young stock that we’ve never seen due to babies in 2000 and FMD in 2001 – we felt really out of touch. There are a few imported stallions and mares that we haven’t seen before too. We had a brilliant day.\n\nDiary 10\nWhat’s worse than working on call on Mondays – yes working Bank Holidays! We hoped to shut at 12 – ha ha! I got home for lunch at 2pm. B kindly took the phones for a couple of hours in the afternoon (not long enough to go anywhere) and I was back out working by tea time.\nMy car failed its MOT because the back brake callipers were all gunged up – the mechanic says it’s disinfectant that does it – bloody DEFRA, I bet there’s no chance of compensation for that. It wouldn’t be so bad if it was a practice car but now that I’m part-time I have to paddle my own canoe. All the local garage owners warned us last year that these things would happen – what could we do? We felt obliged to drive into all the ‘voluntary’ disinfectant sites – it doesn’t look good if the local vets aren’t disinfecting. My beautiful old Audi, God knows what other horrors are lurking where the FAM has spilled in my boot etc. Hell it makes me mad. All the destruction, physical and mental and we had so little to say in any of it.\nWell, my car spent the rest of the week in the garage so I used borrowed wheels. Went to do a wee talk at Stainsmore pre-school in [partner]s transit van – very professional. The children didn’t care; they just wanted to meet my dog! [son] missed a birthday party on the Saturday because I was still at work – more guilt, not that he knows he missed it. Lovely day on Sunday with my horse – went for a three hour ride over in County Durham. We trailed round arable fields and nice lanes – all very different from here. [other horse] was an absolute saint and did very well to have no shoes on. She really did us proud.\n\nDiary 11\nGot my car back – that cheered me up. Bad news about the imported heifers, two more have died. At least the PM exams and sampling are free because it’s a restocked herd. Farmer getting angry now (at Dutch farmers) but taking it out on [new vet]. Very unfair, she’s spent hours checking over his cattle and taking samples.\nDidn’t get my usual R & R on Wed – absolutely piddling down. Started sorting out a few jobs that I have been avoiding, the sort I used to do on wet Sundays – now will become wet Wednesday jobs!! Called in at work for coffee and ended up with a call for the afternoon. Very interesting job too – went to sedate two horses for the dentist – it was absolutely fascinating. \n[son] has another 2nd cousin this week – the family is really sprouting. Had a tough calving Thursday night – torsion of the uterus. I can do these now, I used to absolutely dread them. Unfortunately she’d been on too long and the calf was born dead, heifer fine though. I hate going to that farm, the farmer is a right old perverted slime ball and I’ll’ dance on his grave. Started with a real head cold - –h crap.\nWent to see Mam and Stewart, [son] on top form. It’s brilliant seeing him interact with my family. He has really strengthened the bonds in our family. [son] fevered at night, starting with the same cold I presume – no sleep for me. [partner] never seems to hear all the commotion. Still felt ill on Saturday – [sister] and [sister]s birthday. At least I remembered to post their cards in plenty of time this year. \nWent shopping for wallpaper on Sunday to cheer me up. [partner] went off ‘pest controlling’ with his dogs. They went up through Tubby’s wood. They found nothing but at least the dogs had a good ratch. He says he only now feels ok about walking across fields. I didn’t even realise that he still felt that he couldn’t go round all his old haunts – we must talk more!\n\nDiary 19\nTB test cancelled on Monday and Thursday this week because the farmer can’t cope with the extra hassle. He’s a bit of a woman at the best of times but he’s been even worse since FMD. W was very understanding he seems to have the farmers measure. B didn’t seem that understanding.\nVery upset on Wednesday afternoon. I had to put down my own terrier after he took off and chased the neighbour’s sheep – for the second time. I can’t understand why he went so strange; he used to be fine with stock. I had a miserable afternoon waiting for [partner] to come home to bury him. I’d had such a good morning with the horses too. Dizzy and [horse] were both going well, I felt better once [partner] came home. He said I’d done the right thing but I felt as though I’d failed somehow because it should never have happened in the first place. Maybe it’s because he had nothing to do last year, no interesting walks, no rabbiting etc, I don’t know. \n\nDiary 20\nBrilliant time Tues/Wed. Went to my sisters with Mam and [son], it’s much easier to keep in touch with my family post-FMD. I hardly went anywhere last year. We went shopping to Edinburgh, mam’s looking for an outfit for my brother’s wedding, unsuccessfully so far! I’ve just realised that I haven’t seen [brother and wife?] on their farm since FMD broke out. We must go soon, it’s a brilliant place for recharging batteries and they are the best bit of my step family. We didn’t go to the Cumberland show with the horses. I haven’t got back into the swing of things yet. I think it was a bit of a washout without the farming side, and it rained. I offered to be the biosecurity officer for our local show so that they could get things up and running properly. They had money and trophies donated last year for new cattle classes and there would be real interest in fat cattle classes and young handler classes now. DEFRA (the bastards) managed to put the committee off.\n\nDiary 21\nSprayed weeds in field – only depressing day this week, it’s never going to recover properly. The Landlord arrived when we’d just finished the first half and said he’d decided to reseed it in August!! After much discussion I persuaded him it would be a waste of time and money to put horses back on a newly seeded field over winter. Now I’m worried about what happens in spring. Will we be terminated or just moved to another field? I wish I’d moved the horses at the usual time (1st April) then we wouldn’t have been caught up among IPs and DCs. Something will sort out, it always does.\n\nDairy 22\nExcellent week. Off to Malvern with friends for the National Arabian Horse Show. [son] went off to Grannies for the holiday!! I had a marvellous time for three days watching the most beautiful horses and came back absolutely shattered.\n\nDiary 23\nFew probs at work with new assistant. She’s a bit ‘whiney’[?], she’s always bending the ear of the nearest receptionist and they are sick. B has offered her a 12 month contract – but whether or not she’ll accept it is another matter. From what I can gather she’s going to end up with better working conditions than me. W’s not too happy about it all but neither of them are willing to grasp the nettle. They’ve both backed off since last year, they can’t wait to get off home and I can’t step in since they’ve changed their minds about my partnership, and I’m only part-time. Good weekend, Lowther on Saturday – didn’t see many of the usual faces. The only thing that spoiled it was the mud – we brought more than our fair share home with [son] and the pushchair – no biosecurity pressure washer anywhere!\n\nDiary 24\n (the Assistant) on holiday for 2 weeks, things seem more like old times. The cages aren’t full of animals on drips, I’m working extra days and enjoying it – it’s tiring but good. Highlight of the week on Thursday: Brough Show, there weren’t many farmers there but loads of horses and ponies instead of sheep. Much talk of DEFRA regulations, none complimentary. It just wasn’t the same without the sheep, it felt flat. I wonder what the gimmer lamb sales will be like?\n\nDiary 25\nKnackered – don’t think I could cope with full time work any more!! [new vet] still on holiday. Felt guilty about [son] being farmed out all week. I managed to work myself up about our charity horse show on Saturday. I tried to hand over the organisation to three other folk and still ended up sorting out all the insurance and rosettes, and they changed the date so I had less time to organise, and it wasn’t advertised. \nIt was the worst show we’ve ever had. It takes as much time to organise it for the few as it does for the many! I felt so disappointed. I thought we would have a real good turnout this time after having to cancel last year. Oh well there’s always next year! I’ll need to make sure they don’t change the date again and at least I might be able to take the horses next time. Decided to cheer myself up by taking [other horse] over to school her round the jumps on the Sunday but I couldn’t catch her (she must have known) so that just put the tin hat on the weekend.\n\nDiary 26\nTwo trotting meetings this week. I landed both of them and both nights on call. Another Bank Holiday with no time off and I had to take [son] to both because [partner] was grouse-beating. Both meetings were quite relaxed but there was one nasty crash at Appleby. Had a really nice day out at Chatsworth Game Fair with Helen and Neil. It’s the first time we’ve managed to visit them and it took hours to get there. We were invited last year but the advert said they didn’t want any Cumbrians – social outcasts, as if we didn’t feel like the armpit of British Agriculture as it was. I really enjoyed our day out, I felt as if we’d had a weekend away not just a day. We’ll have to think of some more trips, it’s too easy just to stay at home – we always have plenty to do.\n\nDairy 27\nIt’s started again – DEFRA have found a new way to cock up our lives. They have now complicated life with exemptions from the 20 day standstill including new stuff about isolation units. The farmers have all been notified by post. Some haven’t read it, some have read it and don’t understand it. Farmers have to isolate new stock bought via auctions etc from any contact with other stock by 50 m outside, or they can go on standstill but their neighbours can move stock from the next door field without a problem – it’s mad. I don’t understand where they are coming from. Well I do sort of but as usual it’s badly thought out, and we have to sell this idea to the farmers. How will it be policed? Will it matter? Would it stop another massive outbreak? It doesn’t take much to wind everyone up again. It’s not helped at work by B defending the DEFRA line and W dissing it. What will the clients think?\n\nDiary 28\nCrap week. Puncture on Thursday during lunch hour. Struggled to get locking nuts off – felt feckless. God I have so little patience these days. And I missed BEVA congress – couldn’t sort out childminding etc., and the best days were Friday and Saturday – there was no way I could go. I was really disappointed – nothing to do with FMD though. I don’t feel as if I get much encouragement from work, they are ok about paying for CPD courses but they don’t seem to make it easy to swap weekends etc. They’re not bothered themselves so I suppose they don’t understand all the different things you get from CPD.\n\nDiary 29\nWorked extra so [new vet] could go to sheep meeting at Malvern. Pissed off!! It is not easy to do this job with a husband and a family to consider and I suppose the timing stinks since I missed my equine course last week. The week improved considerably by Thursday – we went to Guilford for an Arab horse convention – nothing to do with work but very enjoyable. I’ve been waiting more than 10 years for this. I hope I live long enough to go to the next one!! We talked to some men on the train (unheard of in Surrey apparently) about Cumbria, farming, FMD and foxhunting. Once we reassured them that Newcastle was not in Cumbria we had an interesting crack!\nI hardly ever meet anyone that is not connected with farming and the countryside they really have no idea what it’s like – I don’t know anything about IT either which is what their job is! I end up feeling so frustrated that agriculture and therefore large animal practice is in such a precarious position, it seems to me to be such a basic fundamental part of life compared to computers and yet the emphasis is not on basic stuff anymore. Surely we need things like agriculture and basic manufacturing to underpin everything else. No wonder nobody was bothered about us suffering anxiety, fear, confusion last year when we were in the throes of FMD and the Penrith Spur was certainly under-reported. They wouldn’t have had so many marches in London pre-FMD.\n\nDiary 30\nQuite week. Still tired from last week – loads of photos to develop again – it was great, saw horses I’d never seen before and got 2 great videos of long dead horses that appear in my horses pedigrees. [son] was a bit off with me when I picked him up Monday – a bit unsettled with being away I suppose. Oh this job just interferes with a social life missed another wedding this week – on call again.\n\nDiary 31\nTook a horse to Penrith vets for an X-ray. They have a super new hospital just out of town. Seems really well set up. They have a really good attitude to work and clients. I think we need a shake up at work. Maybe [new vet]’s way of working isn’t too bad. Neil said they were ½ million in the red at the height of FMD – they must have been so worried. None of us knew what we’d be left with. We’ve definitely got a lot of routine work because we’ve lost such a lot of dairy farms. It’s never going to be the same again and I’m not good at accepting change.\n\nDiary 32\nSad week. One of our farmer’s sons was killed in an RTA on the A66. He had only been married two years and was a real canny lad. It shocked everyone and has certainly made me take stock. They have restocked with fancy cattle from down south, and these cattle may have contacted cattle with a variant virus from the USA so they were doing a whole herd test. You could blame this on FMD – if they hadn’t lost their cattle, they wouldn’t have restocked and they wouldn’t be testing the cattle or it wouldn’t have happened if they’d stopped for an extra cup of tea. A client brought me a copy of the Cumbria Enquiry. That didn’t half stir up some old feelings. All the things I was so angry about last year were summed up in one phrase I read: ‘slack organisation’. The poor woman who brought the report has spent over £1000 treating her dog after it suffered chemical burns from FMD disinfectant on a road map – it now reacts to phenolic compounds including sheep dip and fresh tar. They’re moving to Scotland – I hope the dog has a better life there.\n\nDiary 33\nFunny old week. Everyone still shell-shocked about [farmer’s son]’s death – no explanation as to how the lorry crashed into his tractor yet. You begin to wonder how any family can cope with that sort of trauma. B and W went to the (huge) funeral. They said his parents were amazing – they do have a strong faith but I can’t see that being enough. I went to the graveyard the next day to see the flowers and ended up in tears – it was the messages on the cards especially the ones from his parents and brother and sister, I felt so sad for them all. Went for a wee walk with Tracey, she knows him quite well and we talked a lot, trying to make sense of it all. Then blow me on the Thursday, his father and brother were part of a syndicate at the tup sales that paid over £100,000 for a Swaledale tup – I couldn’t believe they’d even gone to the auction never mind doing something like that, it doesn’t seem right to me. The others could have bought the tup for them, I think that’s awfully strange. I had another upset farmer’s wife this week. I went to see a downer cow; she’d got stuck in the cubicles. We had to carry her to a straw box using the loader tractor and the wife got really upset seeing the cow swinging on the front of the tractor. I felt a bit guilty really because I didn’t think. I just didn’t connect the FMD slaughter with an injured cow, but then I didn’t see all that they saw when their herd went down.\n\nDiary 34\nGreat week. My brother’s wedding, [son] was a page boy in a kilt and he was quite well behaved apart from the second lot of photos – he was well tired and hungry by then! I love being home with my brother and sisters (and their partners) and it’s great the way they all have so much time for [son]. We always laugh so much at the ‘clan gatherings’ I’m sure it’s very therapeutic! The amount of alcohol consumed by all at the wedding is definitely not therapeutic.\nWe set off on our holiday (maybe our first family holiday) the day after, in the rain but it turned out ok later. Such a lot of good stuff in one week.\n\nDiary 35\nHad a lovely day, it all worked out well. We may try four or five days away next year now that we’ve got started again. It’s years since we had a proper holiday, I usually miss all the animals when I’m away but not this time – I think [son] has more than filled that gap. Had bad news on Wednesday, [partner]’s van failed its MOT – no transport, no money for a new motor. Mild panic, slight depression then the gradual return to my ‘it will all work out somehow’ attitude. And it did. [partner]’s Mum and Dad helped us out and I had to relinquish my little ‘buy a new trailer’ fund.\nHad a disaster on Sunday morning, caesarean on an uncooperative cow. She got up halfway through the op and pushed her rumen out onto the (very dirty) floor, and she started to haemorrhage. She died four hours later. They ended up with an exceptional bull calf but a dead pedigree Belgian Blue cow. I hate when things die on restocked farms. I think they were quite philosophical about it but I went over and over the whole thing in my head. B just said ‘if they’re going to die it’s best they die soon – less time to worry and everyone gets over it quicker too’ I think he may be right. He’s definitely easier to talk to these days – he’s like a different person now that Jan’s left.\n\nDiary 36\nBusy week. Testing a restocked herd Monday/Thursday which had travelled all of 5 miles to their new home – a bit of a waste of time but it was a nice day to be out. Really good turnout at the village bonfire. It’s a new tradition, started in 2001 and it was the first village get-together after FMD. At the end of the week I headed South to Cheshire and the Salisbury plain with my friend Ann and her horse to compete in the marathon. What an awful journey we had. The rain poured, the traffic crawled. I’m glad I don’t have to use the M6 on a daily basis. I really enjoyed my weekend away but we had to pull the horse out at the half-way point. She was so hyped that we couldn’t get her heart rate down, so she wasn’t allowed to continue. I felt really disappointed. I was sure that she had a good chance, well she would have if they had a vet check halfway through.\n\nDiary 37\nA bit of an anticlimax this week after all the build-up to the marathon. It would have been so different if she’d completed the course. We had a better journey North except for a puncture – not handy when you have a horse trailer on. I drove most of the way back to Ann’s. Saw all her horses and then drove home, another 2 hours. Oh I was so pleased to get home. It was a good experience though, I don’t think either of us would trail a horse all the way to Salisbury plain for a two hour race again!! There were FMD cases near Ann in Cheshire that didn’t seem to catch hold like they did in Cumbria. Maybe its because there are bigger farms and more arable land.\nI went to see her in July 2001 and she pointed out various fields that had been cleared of stock – half of them didn’t even have gates on, there was no disinfectant or precautions visible and it was really starting to wipe out our practice at home. It was unbelievable. We were sitting in Cumbria thinking that agriculture was doomed, and everything in Cheshire was carrying on as normal. It was a rude awakening for me.\n\nDiary 38\nMore TB testing – all day job testing stock that wouldn’t normally be tested but they’re restocked. They have come from Cheshire though so that does increase the risk. Had a shocking migraine all day Wednesday, went to bed as soon as I’d dropped [son] off at Biggins and didn’t wake up until 5pm – 2 hours after I should have collected him – and I still felt awful. It was terrible driving in the dark and I had to stop three times on the way home. I went back to bed until 9pm and then was fine. I haven’t had a migraine for ages. I was back on top form the next day though. We did the TB readings on 172 cattle before lunch – cooking with gas!\n\nDiary 39\nFed up with all this testing – and we may be doing this for the next 4-5 months. Sick of [new vet] moaning at work, I don’t know what it would take to make her happy. I think this week has nearly all been a waste of time. I haven’t made best use of my free time and I haven’t been on top of my job at work.\n\nDiary 40\nI was dreading this week because there were so many things to do. I think I avoid adding extra to my schedule but this week I had 3 days away and a night out to cope with. I really don’t like the thought of shopping but managed to do some Christmas present locating on Friday. Spent Wednesday with B (which was better than I expected) on a National Scrapie Plan training day (which was worse than I expected). Bloody DEFRA, they don’t have to do or say much to raise my hackles. Here we are selecting for a resistant genotype and they are spending all their time injecting BSE into sheep’s brains to ‘challenge’ them – how would that ever happen naturally?\nNearly missed my night out because of work, It was 10 pm before I got there, but at least I didn’t miss the dancing. It turned into a really good night. Nearly everyone from work was there, and J the ex-receptionist, we always have a good laugh. Ended up working most of the morning – don’t know if W was hung over or just idle, but he’ll have to pay me for the hours. I don’t work extra out of the goodness of my heart now I have all my own overheads to fund. [new vet]’s the star for avoiding extra or dirty work – then it usually falls to me. She says she wants more large animal work and then does her best to avoid it.\n\nDiary 41\nTired this week. [son] came back from Mavis’s full of cold, improved a bit and then woke up screaming on Tuesday night.  It was a very long night and [partner] wasn’t even here t enjoy/share it as he’d left to fly to Tampa at 5am that morning. God, I don’t fancy being a single mum.\nHe soon started to improve after 24hrs on antibiotics – ear and chest infection – I’ve never seen him in such pain. Of course, he was nearly better by the time [partner] got back. I really struggled on my own and had to take a day off on Thursday but still had to go and do a second TB test otherwise I would have had to start all over again – we didn’t have time to test them twice. And it’s a restocked herd so we had to do them all. It’s really hard trying to do the best for everyone.\n\nDiary 42\nPretty good week until the weekend. Had a good night out for Tracey’s birthday, and I was really chuffed she invited [son] too. He was well behaved too nut unfortunately now thinks he can go to ‘the pub’ so we have to go out to meetings to avoid a tantrum. I don’t really think I have suffered many after effects from FMD except a lower anger threshold and a loss of faith in ‘the powers that be’. I’m much more worried about some of our client’s mental health. I know there are several who have suffered severe depression and they are not all farmers that were culled out. The sleepless nights were back with a vengeance – [son] started with chickenpox at the weekend and nobody had any sleep.\n\nDiary 43\nAbsolutely shattered, somebody else’s chickenpox is nearly as bad as your own. I don’t think I have had a full nights sleep for over a fortnight. I still had a lovely time at Christmas though.  I was sure that [partner] and [son] would be pleased with their presents. [son] suddenly brightened dup on Christmas Eve on the way to Mam’s and never broke stride after that. He was son top form. I was so tired that I fell asleep on Saturday evening and missed the village Hall Christmas Party – the highlight of the village social calendar.\n\nDiary 44\nThe threat of TB rears its ugly head; maybe TB is the new FMD. Went to do a private TB test for a farmer who has restocked and passed his restocking checks. Unfortunately he bought 3 heifers in November and the original farm has since gone down with TB.\nHe isolated the heifers as soon as he heard and waited for DEFRA – they didn’t come so we did. I hoped for the best and expected the worst. One of the heifers reacted – I didn’t know what to do or say. The farmer’s wife was really upset, she wished they hadn’t gone back into farming. B the boss has phoned DEFRA that morning regarding these heifers only to be told that youngstock don’t pose much of a risk. They don’t seem to have much idea at all, and don’t have a clue about getting on with the job. They’ve had three weeks to track down the calves out of the cows that were reactors. They seem to let us down just when we need them most! Oh they make me boil and we are going to have to cope with the aftermath again.\n\nDiary 45\nFelt a bit flat and tired this week. The test I had this week was hard work, trying to catch cows in cubicles is not fun. We were all covered in muck at the end of it and the second day was worse because he had about 14 to rectal after the test.\nWednesday, my day of respite was taken up looking after Tracey in bed with cold – she’s really down still and I can’t seem to do anything to make her feel better. I know she’ll come out of it eventually but it’s hard not being able to help.\nI just didn’t feel as if I had any time to myself this week, and I really missed out. If I start working Wednesdays I’m going to miss it every week. I’ll have to have another plan! It’s a bit better at the weekend, but I think we all need some better weather and I miss doing stuff with the horses.\n\nDiary 46\nOh I’m mad again with DEFRA. I had to go back to the herd with the reactor and test every single bovine on the place, except the two remaining heifers from the infected herd. I don’t understand why they can’t just take out those heifers too. The poor farmer and his wife will be on tender hooks until the end of March at the earliest. If they hadn’t asked for a private test goodness knows when DEFRA would have got there.  While I was testing DEFRA phoned the farmers wife to confirm that the slaughtered heifer had visible lesions – so that puts paid to the theory that youngstock weren’t a danger. Hope this news makes them get a finger out. Had a lovely day with Mam and [son] on Tuesday – we sat and talked for over an hour in the car park, everything tested clear at the check test – so far so good.\nBad day on Thursday. The behaviour course I was enrolled on has been cancelled  - no explanation just a cheque returned to the practice with a wee note. I was so disappointed, even though it was going to be a lot of extra work over the next 10 months and extra hassle and extra childminding I think I could have coped. Then at lunchtime I bent my car door after stopping to help somebody stuck on an icy patch – I haven’t got all the bits sorted that were knackered by FMD disinfecting yet and there’s more repairs, and I have to pay for it myself now that I don’t have a practice car – I was well fed up!\n\nDairy 47\nBusy week. TB Testing again. Started working odd Wednesdays this week, so spent all day Wednesday up the back end of suckler cows (very dangerous) taking bloods for brucellosis and then blood sampling Swaledales for scrapie testing.\nWe have so many tests still to do – but not many dreadfully out of date, and I think we’ve done quite a lot of the restocking tests but its all quite mind numbing stuff – not much clinical acumen required for getting blood out of cows – just quick reactions to dodge shit and flying feet. Very late finished Monday by the time I had all my paperwork done. A, a college friend landed Tuesday en-route to Leeds for a herd health meeting – 6 hours driving for a meeting. We talked a bit about FMD – she worked as a TVI towards the end of the outbreak. They have a lot more trouble with TB up in Aberdeenshire – once it gets into a herd they struggle to get rid of it again. I hope it doesn’t get to be a huge problem round here. Collected a fair few bruises on Thursday – pregnant heifers to dehorn – they should have been done in 2001 but of course the routine work was put off. I don’t know what the excuse was leaving them al through 2002 but they were massive. Anyway, it saved me going to the gym on Wednesday night!\n\nDiary 48\nI have just handed in the latest batch of diaries, and started a new ‘session’.  I have been thinking that F&M doesn’t really affect me much anymore.  Our work has changed because of the restocking that has taken place since with all the new disease problems that have been bought in as ‘additional extras’ and the extra TB testing etc. but mentally I am not aware of even thinking about the events of 2001 that often.  I still feel upset if someone tells me about their own particular experiences which are often heart rending but probably no more than if they were discussing another devastating disease problem.  I still have little tolerance for the workings of DEFRA even though they are providing us with lots of ‘bread and butter’ work.\n\nDiary 51\nI’m sick of doing caesareans on cows – who encouraged all the bloody beef farmers to restock with Belgian Blues?  I’m not sure that we should be continuing to allow animals to breed that can’t reproduce naturally.  It doesn’t seem right that we should almost expect a caesarean the day that a new cow is put in calf.  We used to have occasional troubles before, and not all caesareans are on Belgian Blues but now we do at least one caesarean every week, (B did two in one day) and they are bloody hard work!!\n\nDiary 52\nI always think of the 23rd Feb as being the day that I realised we might be in the shit in 2001.  It wouldn’t have passed unnoticed round here – several people mentioned the date in the following week – yet it wasn’t until the 4th April that F&M came into our practice.  Loads of our farmers lost a lot of seep early on though because they were wintering away on dairy farms further down the Eden valley.  This used to just involve the hoggs but now they are encouraged to leave the fells almost empty and are paid to remove even pregnant ewes to lower ground.  It seems ludicrous that, on certain farms, the fell sheep only spend summertime on the fells.  The rest of the time they are in-bye land for tupping or lambing, and then are wintered in sheep sheds or on dairy farms, sometimes quite far away from ‘home’.  I did get quite upset when I read the stories in the book.  This time I think I had more empathy for the ‘tourism’ businesses affected.  They must have been so frustrated, and probably ended up much worse off that the affected farmers.  In our area the farmers who ‘survived’ are the ones (in general) who are struggling for survival now, and their farms have had no capital investment at all.  In fact some of the survivors are still very bitter about the whole episode.  Its so sad what this has done to some people. \n\nDiary 55\nCheck TB test at Campbells, went well finished in good time.  Running into trouble because the other cows taken in for winter are calving and they have no room.  However, they have found someone to take and slaughter all the big bullocks – they are going to be moved, under licence, direct to a slaughter house so at least they will have some income (the first this year!).  Everything tested clear including the 2 heifers brought in from the farm that had the reactor so they are feeling a little bit more confident.\n\nDiary 56\nBloody DEFRA cocked up again with C’s test – had to go back to test 11 baby calves (how cruel?).  Had to go back to H’s as well to test one inconclusive reactor.  All of them were OK\n\nDiary 60\nI think the lambing time rush is settling down again – of course there aren’t quite as many fell sheep about as usual – and probably won’t be again if the payments are de-coupled – numbers won’t be as profitable as acres.\n
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       \n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1964\nGender: F\nOccupation: Group 6\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\n\n\nWeek beginning 4th March 02\n\nMonday 4th March\nWe decided we now need more staff, a new vet and a part time receptionist, this could take us back up to our previous staffing level pre FM, bar a vet.  But this was probably going to be all the recruitments we would make this year.  It’s a good sign As Things begin to get back to normal!!  Work is increasing quite a lot now most of our farmers have restocked, although a lot of them and us are still concerned about the future.\nTuesday 5th March\nA difficult day today with licences, two of our farmers needed Sole Occupancy Authentitys (SOA) and there were queries with their land, unless some of their fields could be redefined, they were worried their stock would suffer.  During the FM these worries have shown how much they care about their stock and find it very frustrating when they don’t understand why we can’t move them, even to the point of anger and tears.  By the end of the day, thankfully they were resolved, with compromise on both sides and a lot of phone calls.\nWednesday 6th March\nI decided to sort out all the paperwork and guidelines we had received from DEFRA over the past twelve months – it was quite a pile!!  It was interesting looking back and very sad, it makes you realise just how deep the feelings went and although it sounds silly it’s surprising how quickly those feelings can return over the smallest things.  Anyway having done that, it did feel good to box them up and put them away.  We got taken out for lunch with our Ptizer rep and it was nice just to talk about usual! Things, drug competition, how much we were going to sell.\nThursday 7th March\nVery busy day, everyone has been flat out all day started at 7am this morning got finished sort of by 7.30pm, very tired.  Hope we get a new vet soon!  We also had a suspect BSE case today.  Informed DEFRA.  More problems with SOA, but we got them started, one bit of good news, I managed to get a new receptionist for 2 days a week so I just need one for the other 3.\n\n\nFriday 8th March\nQuite a good day no major hassles today, and still getting busier.  Had a staff meeting to arrange an open day for National Pet week in May, and sorted out a few other bits and bobs.  Had a good chat with the staff who have all been very busy this week and decided that it is much better to this time last year, when we were all very depressed, emotionally drained, laying off staff, uncertain of the future.  At least now we are doing what we are meant to do.\nSaturday 9th March\nWent shopping first thing with K, had a good time, even though I’m not a good shopper.  We went to the Farmers’ Market, I saw Heather who works at the Auction and she said it had been quite emotional having sales again and the hustle and bustle, but they were all happy to see people they hadn’t seen for sometime.  Met my Mum in the afternoon in the Snow at Killington Lake, it was good and the driving was interesting.\nSunday 10th March\nMothers Day – [husband] and [daughter] were out for the day, so I had a lovely peaceful day doing not a lot.  [daughter] got me a funny card and a little hedgehog model for my collection.  In the evening I collected a vet student from London who is staying with us for 3 weeks.  So we will have to behave.  She seems nice and settled into our mad house easily.  Mr W called in to let us know his cows had arrived safely. \n\n\nWeek beginning 11th March 02\n\nMonday 11th march\nWhat a busy day.  But a total change to this time last year, it was the day our first client was confirmed with f&m.  I helped [another vet] do a caesarean on a cow, that was fun, they are farmers that have moved farm and restocked – very positive.  One of our new receptionists started but I didn’t get much chance to see her due to the Caesar. Barbara looked after her well and she seemed to enjoy it.  There were lots of calls in just like the old days but we really need another vet, the adverts in on Thursday so fingers crossed.  \nTuesday\nAnother busy day and another Caesar, the calf was dead unfortunately.  The cow with query BSE was taken away for tests, which was sad.  My highlight of my day was the farm across from us turned some of his cows out again.  I call it my kitchen window view, normally I can see sheep in the fields at the back and the cows across the road, the sheep came back a couple of months ago and the cows but I haven’t actually been able to see them, so it was very special.  Never really stopped today and we did Dog training classes at night, so I collected [daughter] from her YFC meeting and got fish and chips and we all went to bed.  Our poor vet student who is staying with us is exhausted, she’s been able to see and do so much.\nWednesday\nToday was a little more controlled and went more according to plan, but was still a long day as we had a dog in about 6.30pm that had eaten a ball and hadn’t passed it, so we had to operate to remove it, anyway finished at 9.00pm, had tea and went to bed.  [daughter] heard she had got 2 weeks work experience at Norbrook pharmaceutical so very pleased about that.\n\n\n\nThursday\nHad the morning off, the last few days had been rather hectic.  A girl who had done work experience with us a couple of years ago called round, out of the blue, she was still keen to train as a Vet Nurse and wanted to write to the Practices in the area and needed advice, anyway I told her about our vacancy here and well the long and the short is she starts on the 2nd April – Receptionist staff now sorted, just need a vet, I wish it was as easy.\nFriday\n[husband] was reading a TT test at a farm and found a reactor.  Pre f+m Cumbria was TB free but with all the new stock coming into the area it is inevitable that this will not be the case, there have already been two other cases in the county.  I dropped off the isolation notice to the farmer and as they are, he seemed okay and still very positive.  I have always admired them for their courage and stamina, as he said they love farming and you have to expect things like this.  Managed to spend the afternoon with one of our new receptionists, she is doing really well and settling in time she will grasp it all in no time.\nSaturday\nRan [daughter] and her friend into town and sorted out the garage – that was an achievement.  The dog that swallowed the ball wasn’t eating so I went to get it something tasty, it’s going home later so it should be a lot happier.  [daughter]’s still in town so I took (vet student) to see Hadrian’s wall, she’s from America so was very keen to see it, she really enjoyed it and so did I.  I hadn’t been for a couple of years.  Just had a nice quiet evening in.\nSunday\nMy sister and her daughter came for the day.  My niece is two and a half years so need I say more, we were busy playing all day.\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 18th March 02\n\nMonday 18th March\nIt's looking fairly quiet at work this week but you never know.  Mr W (farmer) came in he was letting us know his restocking plans and was one of the farmers querying his compensation ( I never liked that as they were compulsory purchased and have not received any compensation as such although some got better money than others, so maybe it was all taken into account). Anyway he missed the query deadline by two hours so DEFRA are refusing to look at his case as he does appear to have lost out as his brother with the same breeding of cows and related went down on the same down, got an average £300 more per cow.  Anyway we tried to look to the future and he was looking forward to getting stock back.  We had another TB reactor today in some French cattle.  Me and our receptionist were chatting and decided things were really getting back to normal, although with the added paperwork.  [daughter] was very upset when she came home from school as she had been getting bullied by a girl in her year…., so we chatted about that and I wrote to her teacher to see if she could find out more.\nTuesday\n[daughter] went to school fairly happy.  I just told her to hand her letter in and try and avoid the girl.  I was going milk recording tonight which I really enjoy it's great to be among the animals and talk to the farmers.  We only have one farmer milk recording fully at present, there were 12.  The farm I went to is a big dairy herd and is now \nlooking to expanding so that was good news.  Bad news is that means I'll have to get up earlier in the mornings for the recording - never mind!!  [daughter] had got on okay at school and the teacher was really good with her, so she's feeling happier.  She is a good kid and although hormonal at times she does put up with a lot.  During the FMD. We were unable to really go anywhere or do anything although we did try to keep her routine, we worked longer hours and were more stressed, but she never complained and helped a lot.  Went dog training after milk recording so it was a long day.\nWednesday\nEarly morning start today.  5am to go milk recording but I always get a lovely breakfast. We also got invited to a party at the farm in May so that's something to look forward to and its fancy dress so that will be fun, we have to dress up as children's characters.\nWe then attended a careers' convention at the Sands Centre until 7 pm, so another very long day, very tired. We saw a lot of children who were interested in pursuing veterinary work which is always encouraging.  I enjoy doing the careers days, it's interesting to see the next workforce, they seem to grow up so fast\nThursday\nMy claim to fame today was seeing the Princess Royal; I passed her at a junction and thought I was seeing things.  I bored everyone with that story!  We had a lovely staff lunch meeting, we all helped cook and sat and chatted about the future, we had no replies from the advert for a vet so we decided to try another Veterinary magazine so fingers crossed.  In the afternoon I managed to get very well caught up on my paperwork which is a rarity as I normally end up going somewhere or sorting something out, so I was very pleased especially as the year end is approaching.\nFriday\nDiscussed a few ideas with our Nurse regarding the small animal side and the possibility of getting some new equipment.  I shall have to do some adding up.  [husband] was at a Vet meeting locally for all the vets in the area on Thursday night and there were 3 other practices looking for vets and had been doing for some time without any luck at all, this is worrying as our case loads increase again it puts a strain on the vets, so fingers crossed our advert is in tomorrow.  In the afternoon I called to see one of our evening receptionist who is on maternity leave at present.  It was good to see her and her new addition so I was filling her in on the news and gossip  - hopefully she will be back to work the second week in April although the birth was a caesarean so I have told her to see how she is feeling, so we will discuss it again soon as this is her fourth child but she copes really well and is looking really healthy.\nSaturday\nIt snowed, I went to meet my Mum at Killington as we were having her dog while she went on holiday and nearly got stuck in the snow.  During foot and mouth [daughter] had counted the stock in the field between Carlisle and Penrith on the M6, anyway I did it again today - last year we counted 2 - this year we counted 12 - big difference.\nSunday\nWent for a walk around a local wood for the first time in over a year it was amazing how overgrown it had become, the paths were still visible but in places only just.  Met up with a friend's daughter to finalise arrangements for her father's surprise meal out next Friday for his 50th birthday\n\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 25th March 02\n\nMonday 25th March\nAnother very busy day today.  Still no answer to the advert for a new vet. [husband] spoke to another vet in the area and they had, had the same response - nothing.  It is good to be busy again. Our new receptionist is doing well and learning fast, so that's taking the pressure off me and [other receptioinist].  Completed the claim form for Business Link grant which helped a lot and enabled us to do things and advertise when we wouldn't have been able to.\nTuesday\nStarting to prepare for the end of our financial year.  I always dread this but it has to be done.  It will be nice to end another chapter, the Practice suffered badly last year and it was very worrying. We lost 3 vets and two lay staff.  But everyone is feeling the same. I have spoken to a few farmers today and the opinion is - well it is a lot better than this time last year.  It has been interesting to see how the effect of having new stock does throw them; we are getting called out a lot more which is good for us.  We are doing a lot more lambings and lambing is set to go on until may/June time this year.  We are very busy testing at the moment but it gives us the opportunity to see the new animals and discuss plans with the farmers. The relationship which was built during the f+m is now definitely benefiting, a lot have said how helpful it was and feel a lot closer - the family not business relationship is good.\nWednesday\nI had a day off today which was good.  I managed to catch up on a few things which I just hadn't had time to do with being so busy.  I got a lot organised for the holiday at the week-end which we are all looking forward to, but we can't all get away together, mainly due to no new vet and our financial year but at least we will all get a bit of a break.\n[daughter] got her report today and has done very well, we are so proud of her so fingers crossed for her GCSEs.\nThursday\nI spoke to Mrs W today who has been very much in action since they got f+m and even got in touch with politician etc. to help give farmers that voice.  She mentioned the Public Inquiry and like a lot of people feels that maybe rather than having a finger pointing blaming session and we all have our ideas on that, she felt that maybe trying to prevent it happening again would be a better idea.  I personally have begun to realize recently just how much and how deep the feelings run, I think I am more emotional now than when we were in the thick of it.\nFriday\nSpent all day knuckling down to the end of year - but got a lot done.  [husband], [daughter] and (vet student) went out for the day. It is [husband]'s first real day off since October. And it did him good. We all went out in the evening to celebrate a friend's birthday - it was really good.\nSaturday\nHoliday again today - [husband], [daughter], my sister and her daughter have gone away today to the cottage near Newton Stewart we have rented for a week. The weather is great so they should have a lovely time, this could be our only holiday this year. [husband]'s back on Monday, then I go on Wednesday - confusing isn't it.  Never mind at least we will all get away for a few days.\nSunday\nEnd of year day. Stocktaking, counting.  Sunny outside - boring but never mind it's done.  Our vet student went home today. She had really enjoyed herself and we had enjoyed having her, she bought us all some lovely gifts. It will be nice to be on our own again but I will still miss her.\n\nWeek beginning Monday 1st April 02\n\nMonday 1st April\nI had a lovely day - my day.  [husband] and [daughter] still away - played in the garden. Went for a walk, read some of my book - lovely! [husband] came back at tea-time so we went out for a meal - perfect.\nTuesday\nWent to help [another vet] (vet) TT test at one of our farms.  He had restocked and was very positive about the future, it was a lovely day and great to be amongst cows again.\nWednesday - Sunday\nHOLS!!  Great I didn't realise just how much I needed it, the weather was great, warm, sunny very relaxing.  All charged up again. \n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 8th April 02\n\nMonday 8th April\nBack to work today.  I had quite a lot of catching up to do and couldn't really get into it, never mind it will all still be there tomorrow. Hope we can get away again this year even for a few days.\nTuesday\nQueen Mum's funeral today. It was very quiet. We gave the girls time off to watch the funeral, it was a nice funeral if you can have one and they commented on the poem which was read about being thankful for the life and not being sorry - I must get it.  Our nurse suggested about giving it to clients when they have their pets put to sleep, nice idea.\nWednesday\nBack into it now, I had 2 very difficult SOA to complete. Farmers are slowly getting the idea but find all the paperwork hard, but it's a good chance for them to call in for a chat and coffee.  I so seem to spend an awful lot of time doing that now but it's always good to see how they are coping.\nThursday\nThe large animal work has been rapidly increasing and it has been putting extra pressure on all the staff, we do really need another vet but another advert and still no response at all, but they all work very hard and we do manage to get through the work. We chatted to the staff and tried to reassure them about the future but how can you when if we can't get another vet, we simply can't provide the service our clients need. It is very worrying and we are not sure of the solution or the future.  I think after that paragraph I need a 'we can do it', kick!!\nFriday\nOur new receptionists are settling in well and I did some work with them today which was good, they are both very enthusiastic.  A few years ago a (I?) taught NVQ in Animal Care so one of our receptionists is keen to do this so I organised some work for her to do - enjoyed that.  Castrated a colt in the afternoon sad I know but I enjoyed that!!\n\nSaturday\nWent shopping with [daughter] in the morning to buy her some new clothes, we had a good time.  Then started the sewing for the YFC field day, we had to make shorts and T shirt for a sport event, well I haven't really done sewing from a pattern for years, so let's just say it was fun!!\nSunday\nWent to Newcastle for the day via some fields we had to check for a client's SOA.  Had a lovely time and saw the blinking or winking - I'm not sure which one it is, it was nice to have a day all together.\n\nWeek beginning Monday 15th April 02\n\nMonday 15th April\nVery busy again, I did 175 miles today just dropping things off for farmers and vets and trips to the lab. I also found a new supplier of Paper Towels which will save us a lot of money - see so easy pleased!! It was very tiring but I do like being out and about and I even managed two cups of coffee on farms. Before FMD I felt that the relationship between vets and farmers was changing but our relationship during FMD did change for the better, I feel good about that but not the way it happened. Me and [daughter] had a girls night in as [husband] was away, that was fun.\nTuesday 16th April\n[husband] away at BCVA he is new on the committee and seems to be enjoying it, there is only him and another vet in Scotland from the North invited onto the committee, so they are putting together some suggestions to put to the government re FMD. Poor [another vet] was very busy again. We need a vet !!!\nWednesday 17th April\nI went to see an elderly client of ours this morning who has an old dog. She is going into hospital and won't go as she is worried about the dog. I offered to have Kelly the dog while she was in hospital and told her if I found out she cancelled it I would be cross. I enjoy talking to her, for her 87 years she is very fit and funny.\nAt lunchtime we all attacked the Bayer Rep for free goodies for our open day, he was very co-operative and got away without a scratch! We didn't have an open day last year so it should be fun - back into a routine.\nThursday 18th April\nI bottomed my paperwork this morning, no interference, no phone calls, no SOA, very productive!! Me and [husband] went to see the finical advisor at the bank in the afternoon, it was good but we can't retire this year - never mind - he gave us some good ideas, so fingers crossed we might just be able to retire one day!!\nFriday 19th April\nVery busy - we need a vet repetitive isn't it. We were looking back in the visit book to this time last year - this year we had 21 calls which is a practise record last year we had 1!!. There is a lot of general "well this time last year" in some ways it all seems very unbelievable but in other ways it still very sad and emotional. I think more emotional now than when it was actually happening, when you see farmer’s eyes filling up talking about it. I used to worry about upsetting them, but I feel it is good to talk and it also helps me, I don't know if that’s right but it seems to work.\n\nSaturday 20th and Sunday 21st April\nHuge sewing for YFC field day. I also found out today that there is also baking and flower arranging - oh joy! \n\nWeek beginning Monday 22nd April 02\n\nMonday 22nd April\nGood day today - I've been to see my new girls (the cows over the road from us). It was the one we could see from the practice it was an awful day, they had lasted until June. Anyway it was good to see the new girls and I think I amused the farmer, we had a great time I've never enjoyed helping TT test more - on a high!\nTuesday 23rd April\nDriving around today I've been trying to listen to what the Euro inquiry people have been up to - not a lot from what I hear. I was talking to an old farmer in the afternoon and he wasn't impressed either and we agreed that it was all very well having these inquires, but were they going to help. I suppose only time will tell but I still feel that unless something is done about the cause then the chances are it will happen again, and to what extent and what has been learnt, and what will be different next time because the one thing that must be prevented is the effects on people, nobody really got that. I always remember the Samaritans advert; nobody seemed to care - probably no paperwork! Can you tell I've had a particularly bad day with the SOA, and the good news is they want to keep them permanently! Great. \nWednesday 24th April\nI went to see Mrs B again today and she had heard from the hospital again, she was going in next Tuesday so I arranged at collect K on Monday afternoon. I'm pleased she's having her op, I have also been in touch with one of her daughters in Devon, so hopefully everything should go well now.\nGood news we have heard of a vet at DEFRA who is looking for a job. [husband] phoned her and she is coming on Saturday afternoon so fingers crossed.\nThursday 25th April\nMy cows got the TT reading this morning and they are all okay. We have heard of a farm in Welton who had to have some killed as they had 7 reactors and they will need tested, there has been quite a few reactors in the country after restocking but with all the new stock coming into the county from all over the Country it was bound to happen.\nFriday 26th April \nSorted out the Open Day next Saturday got everything sorted, what we need, who's getting it etc. Me and [receptionist] went to Smuts fancy dress and decided budget wouldn't go to costumes, so we got some face paint and masks, Me and [daughter] and her friend and Mum went to see Westlife ant Newcastle, it was great fun.\nSaturday 27th April\nShopping, washing and sewing, I know how to show myself a good time. We all went to [another vet]'s at night for a BBQ it was great fun, cold but fun. We have been so lucky with [another vet] she is so nice and enthusiastic. We interviewed a vet today from DEFRA but she is a little uncertain what she wants to do, but she seems nice, and we told her what we needed so fingers crossed.\nSunday 28th April\n\tFinished my sewing.\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 29th April\n\nMonday\nThe Inquiry begins, for what good it will do. I find I have very mixed feelings, part of me thinks what's the point and another is expecting something but quite what I don't yet. Someone to blame, a solution, an ability to turn back the clock, a lesson to learn or an end. The last I know won't happen for a while and the repercussion will probably be felt for a few years yet.\nTuesday 30th April\nSorry ill in bed today with the cold from hell.\nWednesday 1st May\nMuch better today and we heard from the Vet we interviewed on Saturday and she has accepted our offer and can start on the 27th May - Yippee - holidays and easing of the pressure on [husband] and [another vet].\nI am still finding the saying "well this time last year". Mrs R phoned and mentioned the saying as it was a year ago today that their cattle were killed but she was phoning with good news - they had their first calf born, healthy and well and she wanted to tell us - lovely.\n Thursday 2nd May\nIts official SOA are here to stay - oh joy - so we contacted all our farmers who had not yet got one who we thought might need one. So lots of chatting and catching up - so quite nice.\nOpen day is on Saturday and there still seems to be an awful lot to organise but we have been busy all day and things are looking better and slightly more organised. I haven't seen or heard much of this enquiry, but when you do hear some I think we really went through that - weird.\nFriday 3rd May\nOpen Day panic, that’s all I've done today, but it is all coming together and it will be fine - hopefully. We have had quite a good response about people coming and people checking when it is and what's happening. So fingers crossed. Must go and bake my buns!!\nSaturday 4th May\nOpen Day\nIt went really well, we started at 2 p.m. and there was a steady stream of people all-enjoying themselves - hopefully. It stayed fine the whole time thankfully; I even got my face painted by [another vet] our vet. We managed to raise £96.71 for the 'Pat Dogs' and £27.35 for National Pet week. Not too bad for 2 hours. The staff came round for tea later which was nice and we had a jolly time.\nSunday 5th May\nGardened all day till I dropped, loved it. I grew quite fond of the garden last year as it was another little escape. \n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 6th May\nMonday 6th May\nBank Holiday - We had a lovely family day out which have been very rare, so it was surprising that we all got on - nearly. It still feels strange being able to go to places, not only as a family but also the fact that for so long we didn't really go anywhere.\n\n\nTuesday 7th May\nVery busy. I have been doing my hollering - as [receptionist] calls it! - what I have actually been doing is dropping off drugs and chatting. I call it customer relations. I still feel funny going onto farms, I have been to the gate for months, just momentarily I feel - can I - its hard to explain - it still feels normal to drop things in the bucket or bin rather than driving onto the farm. But its good and the coffee with proper milk is brill.\nWednesday 8th May\nMr G has got some cows, he was one we thought wouldn't restock as although both his sons are on the farm neither are interested in cows. One has horses and the other has everything else from turkeys, dogs, wallabies, monkeys, pheasants etc a real menagerie. Daddy G is 66 and couldn't decide weather to get more cows or not.  It was a bit of Dad says yes - sons say no. Anyway Dad won. To begin with I was on the sons side, but when he came in beaming and laughing and full of joy how could you disagree with him? Before they got FMD he had called into the practise and was having a coffee and was very upset, his friend had phoned him that morning to say he had FMD. Mr G just broke down and sobbed, it was one of my worst experiences. I found it so hard not to join him, but to be strong and console him, for him of the old gentlemen showed the depth of feeling and despair that was around. I have a lump now remembering it. Anyway in comparison if getting a few cows to milk can make such a big difference and be so happy - so what.\nThursday 9th May\nWent to a meeting in Preston with CL a vet from Brampton on the 'Marsh Report' which is regarding Vets the privilege to dispense drugs. Anyway firstly we got lost, very lost and then on arriving at the meeting eventually - it was all doom, gloom and depressing. Just when you thought things were getting on tract - bam - more changes, more paperwork. We will have to wait and see just how it effects us, but effect us it will.\nFriday 10th May\nI had a half-day off today and did fun things like washing, shopping and sorting bits and pieces - but I couldn't be a housewife all the time. I ended up leaving the cooking and washing and took the dog out instead, much more fun! \nSaturday 11th May\nTook [daughter] out to the Young Farmers Field Day - it was brill - I was only going to stay an hour, anyway I stayed all day. Everyone was there some I hadn't seen for ages. I had only spoke to them and some new faces. It was great to see them all together. I do feel farmers and their families are very special people, they have a wonderful sense of fun, they are very solid, they are very close - mind when you talk to them you find they are all related. They are also very proud of what they do. Its sad the public do not see them this way, gone are the days when the farmer was the hero who worked all hours to feed the nation. Well it was a wonderful day.\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 13th May\n\nMonday\nVery busy - Milk recorded this afternoon. It was good fun, they are preparing for their party on Saturday night it is a fancy dress party, me and [husband] are going but I can't say what as yet!! J mentioned that a friend of theirs was still not speaking to them because J never lost his cows, and yet J said he had tries to explain how hard it was for them waiting. His friend had accepted the invite to the party so here’s hopefully to friendship. It show's how feelings can so easily run away and be blown into something very silly, we are all on the same side after all. I see a lot of changes in a lot of people either bitterness, resentment, jealousy and emotionally drained in the whole situation. \nTuesday 14th May\nEarly morning milk recording. Got my outfit sorted for the fancy dress party on Saturday. Me and [friend?] went to try it on, it was good fun. \nWednesday 15th May\nI have done tons of backwards and forwarding today so I've been hearing about the Inquiry a bit today. I have decided I am going to the one in Carlisle out of interest and curiosity. I still feel what is it all for - so I may find out at the meeting. I am still waiting for the day FMD is not mentioned or I have some dealing regarding it.  \nThursday 16th May\nI spoke to a young couple who farm and they were enquiring about the changes in buying drugs - it caught me off guard as we knew it would happen but not when. I arranged to meet with them and chat to see what they wanted and I think I will go from there. People are farming in different ways than they used to pre FMD, weather it is a result of FMD or not I don't know but there are going to be a lot of changes heading our way.\nFriday 17th May\nAccountant day today - what a joy, no he is brilliant. He has helped so much over the years and last year he was brilliant. He did have one consolation - we wouldn't have to pay too much tax! This year anyway!\nSpoke to a rep in the afternoon, we have had all the usual offers that we get every year but this year they look good as if we buy more this year than last year we can get more off - that should be easy.\nSaturday 18th May\nParty night - I am Cruella Deville and [husband] is Bob the Builder. It was great seeing people we hadn't seen for ages if and when you could recognise them. It was a really good do. We met a client of ours and she is very anti everything re FMD, I feel she is really suffering and very bitter. She was little Bo Peep who had lost her sheep and didn't know where to find them but Mr Blair can, she preached all night to anyone she could. I feel sorry for her as people were avoiding her. Sad.\nSunday 19th May\nRecovered!\n\nWeek beginning Monday 20th May 02\n\nMonday\nA new cattle fertility programme has now become available to Vets and farmers. Two of the people who work came along to see us and discuss the advantages . We already had a few farmers keen in having the program installed. We discussed the program later with a few farmers and they were very keen recognising that they are going to need a program like this that can help them keep a tighter control on their herds fertility and health, which would enable them to remain in business. As most of them are realising, they are now running a company not a family concern. So it’s quite exciting another step forward hopefully.\nTuesday 21st May\nVery busy today everyone stretched, it will make life so much easier when our new vet, Anne, starts next week. I got caught up on my paperwork and also managed to catch up on some others bits that needed done. Even got all the SOA - DEFRA paperwork sorted - miracle.\nWednesday 22nd May\nWent to see two of our farmers today to discuss the Interherd Cattle Health and Fertility computer program. It was good to chat a listen to their plans, hopes and dreams and their concerns. A lot of farmers are still very unsure of the future and quite honestly are keeping their options open. Definitely gave me some pause for thought and a few concerns.\nThursday 23rd May\nQuiet day today. Mr W one of our farmers came today and we had a chat, he was also worried about the future. I hope some good positive news comes soon.\nFriday 24th May\n[friend] is having a few weeks off as our new vet is starting on Monday. [she] came to us 6 months 10 years ago and she has helped us out ever since, and so during FMD she offered to help. It was great to have her and she worked all hours as there was only her and [husband] for 5 months. So she is having some well deserved time off and will come back part time when we need her. I'll miss her but she says she's a lot of housework to catch up on!\nSaturday 25th and Sunday 26th May\nMy sister and niece came to stay for the weekend. We had a nice time just pottering here and there. \n\nWeek beginning Monday 27h May\n\nMonday\nNew vet started. She was very nervous but very keen. She had spent 10 months working for DEFRA and was relieved to be finished with it. She had mainly been involved with re-stocking. Anyway she managed very well and hopefully will settle well. \nTuesday 28th May\nWe booked a holiday today, our 1st holiday for about 2.5 years. So we are all very excited. We are going on a barge near Chester so hopefully the weather will be good. It will be nice to go away together especially after last year. I think we all need it. You do get used to staying at home but with all the trouble and upset last year, it will be nice. Can't wait.\nWednesday 29th May\nHad a lovely day. Ended up doing lots of visiting around the farms dropping drugs off and seeing another farm regarding the Interherd program. I went to a large dairy farm and they are a young couple who are keen and enthusiastic about their future so it was very positive and encouraging. It does give you a lift and helps put things back on track.\nThursday 30th May\nWe had a farmers coffee morning - not planned, they appeared at once so it was quite nice. Its quite interesting when you hear them together, there were two elderly and one younger one, and their opinions, hopes, thoughts and experiences were very different. \n\n\nFriday 31st May\nAnother mega paperwork day - exciting! Played in the garden this afternoon and walked the dog. \nSaturday 1st and Sunday 2nd June\nHad a weekend off together, we went visiting and walking. Very nice.\n\nWeek beginning 3rd June\n\nMonday\n[My sister and her daughter] came to visit.  We went into Carlisle but nothing very exciting.  The weather was very disappointing for all the organised events.  We went to a couple and got wet.  [daughter] and [niece] got some Jubilee mugs at one of them.\nWednesday\nI ended up helping (our new Vet and new Nurse) to operate so that was good.  I don’t get much chance to help in the op room these days so I enjoyed it thoroughly.  [New vet] is doing very well, she’s only been qualified 3 years and up to now has not done much small animal so I was worried she would not like it, but she seems to be enjoying it thoroughly and has settled in really well.  It seems like she has been here for ages.\nThursday\nWe had our first work experience from a school for 2 years.  She was very interested in the FMD and said they had done a bit on it at school so I went through a few of the details and we discussed the human side which she hadn’t really been discussed at school.  To finish I had 4 SOA to do as well – such joy.\nFriday\nI foolishly decided to decorate the surgery and op room.  You know when you think you have a good idea then realise you have bitten off more than you can chew – well by Sunday night I was dead – I got it all done and it did look better as nothing had been done last year but boy was I tired.\n\n\nWeek beginning 10th June\n\nMonday\nOur new Interherd disc arrived so I went and installed it on two farms, they were very keen to get started so it's quite exciting. They both have young sons who are keen to farm also so that helps. Sometimes I fee if we can just get through this and then other times I feel what's the point - but down the middle of the road we have to try and make it work and fight to make it work.   \nTuesday 11th June\nQuite busy today - but [daughter] had her brace taken off today so we had two visits to the hospital. She looks different without her brace now.\nWednesday 12th June\nHad a day off today - peaceful.\nThursday 13th June\nNMR came to see us to discuss how they can work with us, the Interherd and the farmer. It was interesting and competitively priced. So that is now another service we can offer to our farmers which can only help long term. I went to see another farmer to enter the Interherd; there is a lot of interest. We are trying to maintain a close contact with our farmers to enable us to meet their needs as things progress. In the near future there are going to be a lot of changes regarding the dispensing of drugs which could alter the way we work, this should be finalised by January 2003, but until then we are not sure just how they will affect us.\nFriday 14th, Saturday 15th and Sunday 16th June\n[husband] birthday so I have organised a surprise weekend away for him. We had a wonderful time and thankfully the weather was good.\n\n\nWeek beginning 17th June\n\nMonday\nVery quiet almost like last year but thankfully not for the same reason, they are all busy silaging.  Normality is returning.  But they are still finding it difficult with new herds not really knowing their new cows yet or how they react.  One farmer said it was like a new car, ‘you have to drive it a good few miles before you are at ease and the seat is comfy!!’  Well that’s one way of putting it.\nTuesday\nI went to see Mr J to discuss our new Interherd Program – a computer program that they can keep records of all their herds records and we can do analysis on them.  It’s quite exciting and interesting and shows farming is heading to the computer age and the farmers are learning another new skill – not sure they are all comfy with.  After I had shown Mr J the program and how to use it, he was keen but said that for now he would maybe go and cut down a few thistles!!!\nWeds/Thursday\nVery quiet – did some catching up on paperwork, then went for a walk and played outside in the garden.\nFriday\nQuery FMD in pigs.  The effect it had was very strange, part was horror, worry and another strange one was of expecting it.  Although you did get on with everything and it’s all sorting out and normality is returning it’s as if you are waiting for it to appear again.  I went back to watching the news listening to the radio, waiting, fingers crossed.  SAD DAY.\nSat/Sun\nQuiet weekend.  [husband] was working.  No results on the pigs yet.  The bush telegraph is working again.  We have had quite a number of worried farmers on the phone but no results as yet.\n\n\nWeek beginning 24th June\n\nMonday\nBreakthrough no FMD talk at all today.  I suddenly realised in the evening.  All is getting back to normal and everyone is coming to terms with the paperwork.  Farming does what it always has recently fallen from one disaster to another but they are very proud of their trade but do now feel let down by both the government and the public who for whatever reason don’t seem to have the same respect for farmers as they used to but this just may be due to how we all are and work these days.\nTuesday\nPigs given the all clear – everyone breathes a sigh of relief – It has a very chilling effect but again shows we are still clear of the disease – for now!!\nWeds\nOver the last few days we have had 6 dairy herds with very strange mastitis.  [husband] has been out to visit them with a vet from VLA Penrith but they as yet have not established a cause.  Samples show nothing and usual treatments don’t work.  So it is a case of new herds, new problems.\nThursday\nDAY OFF and FRIDAY\nSat/Sun\nHad my niece, we had a lovely time but very exhausting.\n\n\nWeek beginning 1st July\n\nMonday\nWe have invested the new Interherd computer programme.  Mon-Thurs this week I have been out and about visiting farmers loading and explaining the new programme.  Some of which I haven't been too far over a year, it's good to see them and chat FMD of course is always still at the top of the list followed by the milk price and all the regulations.  It's so amazing and sorrowful to see how deep the emotions run.  The stories and feelings they have are still very strong - but all are very emotional.  They are very resilient but do still have these deep feelings - you wonder how the effects will come out, but it will take time.\nFriday\nI did a SOA for the first time in ages.  I had to look back as to how to fill it in.  They are going to review these shortly so watch this space.  All the regulations are up for review in about November so we will see what they come up with.\nSunday\nWe have a vet student Alison for two weeks staying with us.  She came to Northumberland during FMD so was interested to know what had happened and where everything was at.  The more you go through it the easier it becomes.  She had been involved in the culling and had found it very hard; she did it for 1 month and was glad to leave. \n\n\nWeek beginning 8th July\n\nMonday/Tuesday\nI went milk recording, the farm I go to did not get FMD and they were saying how hard it had been for them and to some extent they did have as hard a time as people with FMD, just in different ways they had to do the checking for longer.  The farmer said he used to dread going into the sheds in a morning as he dreaded what he might find.  Also washing the milk takers, not being able to visit friends and family.  All the regulations re moving stock, just the not knowing they said it put quite a strain on them all.  One of the ways they coped was they built a tennis court and played a lot of other games and as a family this brought them closer.\nWeds\nInterherd Day - We held a meeting today to invite all the farmers interested in using the programme, the people who wrote the programme came along to talk to the farmers.  It was very good and the farmers seemed to enjoy themselves.  They have all found they are needing this sort of programme as with the new herds, they are unsure of how their fertilities are.\nThurs/Fri\nVisited Mr W and Mr J re Interherd - got a proper cup of coffee and proper milk, that's what I missed about last year and one of the reasons I go to visit them.\nSat/Sun\nVery busy small animal operated and nursed all week-end.  I was shattered - poor me!!\n\n\nWeek beginning 15th July\n\nMonday\nVisited [farmer] re Interherd programme, they are very positive about the future and have a son who is very keen.  I can see a difference in their attitude over the past few months, when I first started going they were unsure they had done the right thing and had seriously debated getting any stock back, if they could cope with the changes and the regulations and paperwork, but as [he] said 'he just loves farming' not that he doesn't know anything else he just loves farming.  And now they have progressed and working together within the family they have a good system and appear to be enjoying themselves.  The farm has been in the family for generations so financially they can manage.  I hope they make it, they are lovely people and a real inspiration.\nThe report on FMD and the recommendations is to be published soon, but from what we have heard so far it doesn't say anything we didn't already know and the recommendations are a little sketchy to say the least, they need a good sensible positive protocol for any future outbreak and at present if it all flared up again tomorrow, it would be the same mess. What have we learnt - hopefully time will tell.\nTuesday\n Sad news today, one of our clients who didn't get FMD has decided to give up.  He is on a tenanted farm.  The owners are not keen on any expansion or even repairing old buildings, to remain competitive, he sees he needs more cows but can't build any more sheds.  So in his words he has decided that there is maybe 'more to life’, he is in his mid forties, so he is going to sell up and try something new.  Very brave but sad. \nI think this will not be the first of our clients to do this.  Everyone asks about the future and at the moment nothing and nobody is certain.  Can the smaller farmers keep up?  Will the bigger ones get bigger?  What new regulations and paperwork will be brought in?  Only time will tell.\nWeds\n[husband] has been away at the Br Cattle Vet Ass (BCVA) Committee meeting.  He has been on the committee for about 18 months now.  He enjoys it and it is another feather in his cap.  Anyway he gave a talk on the problems post FMD and on the problems farmers were and had experienced.  He also gave a talk on some of the mastitis cases that had appeared in new herds.  We have had some very strange mastitis cases this year.  Anyway there was a competition for the best talk and [husband] won.  I was very proud of him.  None of the other vets there had ever seen anything like it, but some had found more bad mastitis in cows this year so whether it’s the change of area weather or housing, we shall see.\nThursday\nI had a visiting day today - good fun.  I went t see the farmers who have the Interherd so I had lots of coffee with 'proper milk' yummy.  It's also interesting to hear all the different stories and feelings, hopes and worries.  There are so many.  Most are ready for the challenge ahead but unfortunately some aren't.  Nobody knows how or when things will change but over the next couple of years they will, some good, some not so good.\nByee I'm off on my hols now.  Yippee!!\n\n\n\nHOLIDAY Week beginning 22nd July\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 29th July\n\nTuesday\nBack to work, the staff have coped really well, no falling out, no problems.  It's the first time in nearly two years we have left them so it was a bit worrying, but they are a great bunch, we are very lucky.  I feel so relaxed and it was great fun seeing through all my paperwork - NOT.  I had a bit of a lazy day but good.\nWeds\nPoor Mr G is having a terrible time with DEFRA. When we did his restocking TT test he had a reactor, so the cow was slaughtered but no lesions were found.  The herd had to be tested again 60 days later and another reactor was found and slaughtered.  Anyway he was due another test in 60 days and this was arranged for 9.00am.  9.00am came and went and at 10.00am he phoned to see what was happening.  They had forgotten, they could come out at 1pm.  No good, the last two times they had tested it had taken 6 hours to test the cows and they still needed milked which would mean a very late finish.  Mr graves explained this and was told not to complain he had bought the cows into the country with TB and he would have to do it when they said.  They know how to get people on their side don't they.  Anyway a heated discussion had pursued and eventually sense was seen.  The test was rearranged for another day at 9.00am so fingers crossed.\nThursday \nWe got money through today from the FMD recovery fund, it has been very useful and enabled us to do things we wouldn't normally be able to do.  We had our vans sign written, we got a laptop computer which had been great for the interherd programme, we got pens and pads to give out, [husband] was able to hold meetings with our farmers pre stocking to advise them what to look for etc.  So it has been extremely useful. It was nice to be given the money, some people say it would have been spent elsewhere but it helped us immensely and we feel we have spent it wisely. \nFri\nHad a paperwork catch up day today, it has been quiet recently due to holidays and harvesting but thankfully not like last year.  We looked back again and today last year we had no calls and today we had four, so although quiet not that bad.\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 5th August\n\nMonday\nVery quiet\nTuesday\nVery quiet\nWeds\nVery quiet\nThursday \n[daughter] got her first job\nFri\nTook [daughter] to my sisters for the week-end\nSat\nQuiet week-end\nSun\nGardening – Going on holiday again next week YIPPEE!!\n\nSorry it’s been very quiet this week as mentioned before this is usual as everyone is on holiday and the farmers are harvesting.  I have caught up and have been enjoying a few days just poddling, going out with [daughter].  Shopping – food, it’s nice to have some catch up time.\nOn Thursday [daughter] got a job – her first proper job well nearly – at the Travel inn at the bottom of our road, she is so excited and already planning what she is going to spend her hard earned cash on.\nOn Friday I took [daughter] to my sisters in Lancashire for the week-end.  I came back on Friday night and we decided to meet up at [husband]’s Mum and Dad’s caravan near Whitby on Monday for a week so another holiday.  I don’t know you have one and then another, anyway it should be good fun. \n\n HOLIDAY - Week beginning Monday 12thth August \n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 19thth August \n\nMonday\nVisited Mr A today to load Interherd onto his computer. He has definitely decided to sell up – he is hoping by early next year.  This has all been very sudden but his son is no longer interested and as Mr A said ‘who can blame him’.  With all the new regulations and paperwork a lot are finding it hard.\nTuesday \nWe had an Environment Agency visit this morning to check how and where we dispose of our waste in practice.  Thankfully we are doing everything properly but this visit took two and a half hours and lots of form filling in.  It is they that check these things but the extent in questionable!!\nMr G called in the afternoon – he is having problems with his cows, they keep going off colour.  We have so many new herds that started of doing well, happy and settling in fine then about 3-4 months after they arrived they start being ill, have mastitis, off colour, not eating, not milking properly – a wide variety.  It’s very strange; the vets don’t really know what’s happening, we have a few on regular blood sampling trying to find any changes.\nWeds\nMe and [husband] went to the accountant to see just how bad financially we really had done last year – and oh what a surprise it was bad.  In fact we nearly qualified for children’s Tax relief.  The main thing is we survived in a fashion!!  Hopefully it will be better next year!!\nThursday \nI visited two farmers today on the Interherd.  They are finding it brilliant, they have both recently had Farm Assurance visits and Interherd had helped them enormously and helped them reach the standards.  They both appreciate how much easier it is for them and less paperwork – heaven.  It’s so good to find something to help them.\nFri\nI have been phoning our main Drug Company’s Reps inviting them to our Open Evening – all very keen.  I think they just enjoy the crack.\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 26th August  \n\nVery quiet this week on both large and small animal, it must be the last holiday rush before going back to school.  We managed to do some catching up and decided a four day week would be nice!!\nI did quite a bit of playing on Interherd so that when I visited farmers about it I knew what they want to see and where to find it!  Most of them are interested in the medicines book as this keeps excellent stock records from when the drug/product is born, where it has gone and batch numbers and expiry dates.  These are all the information they need to produce when they get inspected and doing it manually can be very time consuming.\n\n\nWeek beginning 2nd September\n\nMonday 2nd September\nIRS 9.30, Garst Milk Rec\nTuesday\nGarst Milk Rec, Dog Course\nWeds\n[daughter] back to school, Exporting is back\nThursday\n Exporting\nFri\nChange date of open evening – GB way – now 15/10/02, Exporting\nSat\nOff [sister and niece].\nSun\nOff\nMonday\nEvery 2 years we are checked by our Radiographer Advisor to ensure everything is well and we are doing everything right.  They check the X-ray machine, our records and our monitoring records – we passed.  In the afternoon I went milk recording, it was very warm and very flyie, but good fun.  They are thinking of getting a new parlour, twice as big as Mr G feels in the future milk will have to be produced by quantity not quality, but it is difficult and expensive decision to make for him – we shall see.\nTue\nEarly morning milk recording this morning but I got a lovely breakfast with proper milk. I got to check the large animal when I got back.  We also started our new puppy-training course in the evening, that went very well, it is a more 1 to 1 basis, our Nurse runs it.  I go along and help with moral support – it was good fun but I had a very long day and went to bed when I got back.\nWeds\n[daughter] went back to school today, I’ll miss her following me round helping out and her ‘Mum can you take me……’.\nWe may have some exporting of sheep on Friday, there is a pedigree Texel sheep sale at H & H Borderway. It is the first exporting we have done in about 20 months.  As you can guess the paper work has tripled, there has been numerous phone calls to ad from DEFRA trying to make sense of it.  But I must say people up here are not good at clarifying what they have written – now there’s a surprise!!\nThursday\n I have spent the whole day either reading new expert regulations or running backwards and forwards for new paperwork, what we have to complete and what they should bring.  Well it could be fun.\nFriday\nWell full really isn’t the word I would use, we needed more paperwork, they needed more paperwork, it took most of the day and we only had 3 sheep to send.  Draining. The one good thing was seeing everyone at the Auction, some new faces and some have gone.\n\n\nWeek beginning 9th September\n\nMonday\nT's 7th birthday. We have another vet student studying at the moment for 2 weeks. We have had five this year so far and another before Christmas but she won't stay in the house as she is from Carlisle.  It is nice to have them and it makes us behave but I won't have as many next year.  They have all been interested in the FMD and some had a chance to help out which was an eye opener for them.  I spoke to [student] about it all, how it affected everyone, what happened and what didn't!!  Now talking about - almost a year from the last case - I don't find it as hard and I think I can hide how emotional it was, but at the time I wasn't. I was more angry.  I feel now FMD or the aftermath has sadly become everyday life, I don't rush for news on it or yearn information, I think because directly or indirectly we live with it everyday, it all has really become part of our lives.  It is very difficult to put into words or explain.\nI also went to visit one of my Interherd farmers in Lancaster; they are very pleased with it and are coping well.  Mrs M was crushed by the pet cow a month ago and was very lucky.  She had two broken legs, cuts and bruises; needless to say the cow has gone to greener pastures.  They are very resilient and are planning for the future and it is nice to be a part of their planning.  I also get proper milky coffee!!!  See so easy pleased.\nMilk recorded tonight at Mr G's so early morning tomorrow.  I'm still trying to persuade them into Interherd so finger crossed.\nTuesday \nEarly morning milk recording failed on the Interherd due to a cow breaking a leg - I have never actually experienced it happening before. I generally hear farmers needing a slaughter cert. Or a cow put down to see it and the family's reaction - I was humbled I think is the word.  It was an accident that can happen but the look on their faces was such deep sorrow - the father even places his head in his hands.  At breakfast we all talked about it, she was only a heifer getting ready to be served for the let time, she was a difficult birth, they had all helped, well bred and she was jet black with a huge white spot on her side so no prizes for guessing the name.  But as the farmer said you can't look after them, feed them, care for them, day in, day out without caring about them or why would you do it.\nIn the afternoon I attended a course on management.  Employment law, customer service at Barnard Castle, it went on till 9 pm with dinner after so I decided to stay over - very spoilt.  Good course, excellent food, lovely hotel.\nWednesday\nCame back from my course leisurely and stopped at Penrith for a bit of shopping - very pleasant. I'm not a good shopper but it was nice. I had to get back for 11 am as \nwe were having a new credit card machine fitted.  He duly arrived - well what an obnoxious man, he was moaning because we had a switchboard, he had to dial 9, this was wrong, that was wrong and then was he not going to get offered a coffee, to which he was told 'not without the special word', he was a bit aghast and said please.  I swear if I had not just come from a course explaining customer service, I would have murdered him!!  God bless courses and of course credit card machine men!!!\nIn the afternoon I was visited by the RSPCA advertising company, did we want an advert in their leaflet?  Anyway it was £640 for quarter of a page for 2 years so I said we couldn't afford it, it suddenly dropped to £410, I was a little suspect so I got [receptionist] to quietly check if the company were connected to the RSPCA. Anyway while I was waiting I said it was still a little bit more than we could afford what with FMD - see it is useful and true - he then said he could do it for £210, by which time [she] had confirmed they were with the RSPCA, so I said yes thank you - Bargain or Rip Off!!\nThursday\nI tried to get my head round isolation units and tried to explain to a farmer about them. I think we got there eventually.  When [husband] got back I got him to explain in simple English and it all made a lot more sense.  They will be handy for people selling and buying stock, but have as always the guidelines must have been written by someone who has never seen a farm or fields!!\nFriday\nCaught up on paperwork and trolleyed about.  Busy doing not a lot - I think the term is.  Anyway it was good.\n\n\nWeek beginning 16th September\n\nThis week has been appraisal week for the staff.  We didn't do any last year so I thought we had better get back into the swing of things.\nI quite enjoy the appraisals - it's a great opportunity to have a real good sort out, get new ideas and try and recognise any potential problems.\nWe started doing appraisals at bout 4 years ago and to start off with everyone was petrified and worried, but it was nice to see them actually excited and enjoyed it.\nIt is quite time consuming but very worthwhile so not much out and about this week\n\n\n\nWeek beginning 23rd September\n\nMonday\nAnother suspect case.  The main difference about this was as with other ones, I felt cold, sick, scared, this one was better.  I felt it was not going to be positive, whether it's a case of there have been a few now - not positive and this is just another one or confident that it no way could be positive.  I definitely wasn't as worried.  I don't know if that is being blasé (can't spell) - sorry.  But definitely  different.\nTuesday\nJust nicely busy today, just enough to keep everyone busy.  [husband] and (other vet) are away this week so that just leaves [new vet] and [other vet].  So it was a little worrying if it got busy.  It was the last of our dog training courses tonight; they all passed their tests well, and were very pleased with the progress they had made.  It was the first 4 week course we had run and feedback was very positive.  Our head nurse had put in an awful lot of work fir it so I was very pleased for her as well.  The next one is planned for November.\nWeds\nExperts are going to start again at H&H tomorrow and Friday.  It will be the first ones we have done for about 18 months. Surprisingly the paperwork for our side has not changed much but the Irish paperwork is horrendous.  Anyway after several phone calls to DERFA and DARD and various farmers who are wishing to sell at the sale I think we have it sorted. We will see tomorrow.\nThursday and Friday\nI've put these into one as that is how it felt.  After being so confident that we had everything in place to be able to export the sheep first thing Thursday morning DARD (like Irish DEFRA) changed the regulations and paperwork - such joy.  As you can imagine this sent everyone in a state of frenzy and another buzby full of phone calls. We didn't have the paperwork sorted when people had bought sheep and were wanting to leave, now some tempers are reaching fever pitch. Well we did manage to export them away on Thursday night - 3 hours late so they had to book different ferries. All done and dusted by Friday.  We were busy congratulating ourselves on achieving the impossible and how we all had worked hard to accomplish it and now had several more names on our Christmas card list - yes you guessed we had a phone call from well let me say one not happy chappy. After having no sleep, catching a late ferry waiting for the paperwork to arrive at Larne port, all the sheep were impounded. DARD had added one more form to their list of requirements and had forgotten to send them through or mention them - hours of phone calls and faxing.  Later I am very pleased to say that the sheep were released and free to go.\n\n\nWeek beginning 7th October\n\nMonday 7th October\nI made some trial arrangements for our Open Evening next Tuesday, all’s ready now.  They are a good night out and we all enjoy it.  We haven’t had one for a few years so it should be good.\nTuesday\nFor a while now we’ve been wondering if the Practice should invest in a house for an Assistant.  We have had a response to the advert for our new vet, so we thought we would go house hunting – anyway it wasn’t as much fun as I first thought, to start with obviously they are quite a price and it really isn’t that easy so we looked at one cardboard box for £70,000 and apparently it went for 82K – frightening.  Well we can keep on looking.  We have a vet coming for an interview on Saturday so fingers crossed.\nI’m off tomorrow and away at BVNA Congress over the weekend so I’m looking forward to that.\n\n\nWeek beginning 14th October\n\nMonday 14th October\nWe had a really good time at the BVNA (British Veterinary Nurse Assistant) Congress, we did loads of lectures a learned a few new things, got loads of freebies from the trade stands and ordered a new vaporiser for the anaesthetic machine which uses less Isoflo/Oxygen.  We also had a good Halloween Ball!!  Stayed up too late.  We got back on Sunday evening after 3 days of Congress and I was just settling down and filling in [husband] and [daughter] on what we had done when [another vet] came in wanting a hand with a caesarean on a dog, ah well nothing like getting back into it!!\nToday anyway feeling very tired we had to start getting ready for Open evening tomorrow night for the farmers.  So there was a lot of sorting out and tidying up to do as we open the house up as well.  We haven’t had one for a couple of years so it was quite exciting.  I really enjoy them, it’s great to have the farmers round, it’s mainly a nosh and natter night, but this year some of the drug companies paid for it, they have their stands in various parts of the house and surgery and normally everyone has a good time.\nTuesday\nOpen Evening Day – very busy.  Tidying up and moving things around.  Everyone helped, it’s good the staff are so excited about it as well, they have all mucked in and as usual did us proud.  The evening itself was brilliant it was so nice to see them all enjoying themselves and there is nothing farmers like better than a good natter, food and beer.  Quite a few said they had missed the Open Evening last year due to FMD.  As far as PR goes, definitely worth it.\nWednesday\nJust clearing up and sorting out.  All the staff said they had had good feedback.  So well done to everyone.\nThursday\nBack to it now, Got new Interherd update so I spent quite a lot of the day seeing what new buttons it had, it’s very clever.  Interherd is sold by NMR now and they are helping us sell it to the farmers whose life and paperwork hope to make easier.  The man in charge at NMR is coming to see us next week to explain how the milk recording side all ties in between NMR and Interherd.\nFriday\nToday was one of those when you rush round all day but you feel unsure of what you have actually done.  Very busy on both large and small side.  It’s very tiring but I do prefer it when we’re busy.\n\nWeek Beginning 21st October\n\nMonday 21st October\nMonday to Wednesday – off\nThursday\nHad a meeting with ID from NMR re Interherd.  They are going to give us cheap milk recording prices to help promote NMR and Interherd, they have also released a version of Interherd for farmers and we were given the first one in the country to trial and see what they thought.  It was very encouraging as NMR in the past years have gained themselves a slightly unpopular feel especially in Cumbria but they now seem to see this and are trying very hard and are committed to improving it.  They did a survey and now with area, herd size etc. the majority of dairy herds are in Cumbria even post FMD.  So fingers crossed.\nFriday\nA good day today.  [husband] was away at a BCVA Council meeting (Br. Cattle Vets Ass) and normally it goes mad, don’t know why.  Anyway it didn’t today, everyone was busy but not madly.  The large animal side is very up and down at present, but it is now TT and Blood testing season.  There are quite a lot of restocked herds to do as they are having to be done every year as opposed to 4 yearly.  We also have to test everything.  It is very time consuming and if they have a TT test then it is a two day job.  So for both the farmer and us, it is two days of the week when you can’t do anything else.\n\n\nWeek Beginning 28th October\n\nMonday 28th October\nWe have been asked by Newton Rigg College if we would be interested in teaching the animal care courses at the college so me and Vicky went along.  It was quite interesting and we thought if we could do it together it would work, so we said we would think about it and let them know.\nWent milk recording in the afternoon.  I do enjoy playing and the crack.\nTuesday\nMilk recorded again and discussed Interherd with them so we are going to use them as the pilot for the NMR/Interherd job, so that will be interesting.  Regarding the Newton Rigg offer we won’t be able to do it as our part time Nurse is leaving us.  She has been offered a place at Dalston Vets.  She will be able to train as a Vet Nurse there as we don’t do that in our Practice, so that will leave us short staffed.  It is sad but everything happens for a reason so we are now Vet and nurse hunting so more advertising and interviewing.\nWeds\nWe are sponsoring a class at the Northern Expo Holstein/Friesian shows.  We have a stand and a good natter.  I took some photos of a few cows and some freebies.  It was a good night, Barbara came with me and she presented the prize for our class.  The standard of cattle was amazing and it was a really good show.\nThursday\nOut of the photos I took for the Northern Expo I decided to make a photo album.  So I went round a few other farms photographing, it was good fun and nice to see that we do have some very good stock\nFriday\nGot a phone call today from my sister, she has sold her house in Lancaster and is moving up near us so that’s very exciting.  Otherwise a quiet day today.  \n\n\nWeek beginning 4th November\n\nMonday 4th November\nI went to show Mr J the new Interherd farmers version.  He was very interested and thought it would save a lot of paperwork and time, they all say that the paperwork since FMD has increased immensely along with the regulations.\nTuesday\nWe have decided to have a TV in the waiting room, to advertise products, services staff etc.  The man from Channel 6 came and took information so it should arrive next week, so it will be interesting to see how it works.\nWeds\nWe went to the bank today to see the financial advisor as this is a free service and very useful.  We have decided to buy a house for my sister to live in when she moves up and it will be an investment as well.  A bit of security just in case, as last year we discovered just how quick things can change, we went for just over 3 months with not a lot of money coming in and still wages to pay.  So we are now house hunting.    \n\n\nWeek beginning 11th November\n\nMonday 11th November\nOne of our vets has recently started her DBR (Dip in Bovine Reproduction) course at Liverpool. As part of her studies she is looking at the cows' milk quality pre and post calving to see if any effects are relevant to their overall performance and milk production and health.\nSo we collect milk samples from certain cows twice a week over the period of lactation and she is going to test them so watch this space - we have been very lucky with [another vet], her enthusiasm is boundless and she has become a very important member of our team.\nI have persuaded Mr J of B farm to milk record with us so that's more early morning jaunts!  The Interherd and NMR trial is nearly ready so hopefully by middle of December everything should be set up and running - hopefully!\nTuesday\n[two farmers] are milk reading today so I had a nice little trolly about.  I treated myself to some of Mr R's ice cream, very nice, well you have to support them, their new shop on the farm is doing very well.\nI loaded my first farmer version Interherd onto Mr W's computer, he is very impressed and very keen and thankfully it all worked well.\nWednesday\nWe have 'computer bugs' not good. So I have spent most of the day on the phone talking to the debugging man.\nThursday\nStill got bugs, we've had to run a bug fixer disc through all seven computers, it takes ages, pee'd off, fed up going back to pen and paper.\nFriday\nI must have sounded fed up as the lovely little man came to fix all the computers, he had to use 3 different discs due to all the different bugs.\nHad a meeting to discuss the NMR milk recording and we have quite a lot of farmers' interested mainly because we have got a good price for NMR so fingers crossed.\nThe bugs are fixed - yipeee.\n\n\nWeek beginning 18th November\n\nMonday 18th November\nDue to our junior Nurse leaving, I have been interviewing all week, we have had a lot of enquiries.  I decided to invite any possibles to come and play for the morning to see what they thought and how they got on with the staff.\nThere is one that has potential and sounds very nice but she can't make it until next Monday.\nThere was one that wrote a really good letter, but when she came in, well she was sweet, but not really suitable.\nOn Friday [nurse] left, we had a little party.  I hope she copes okay.  She bought me a lovely cow ornament to say 'thank you', it was lovely.\n\n\nWeek beginning 25th November\n\nMonday 25th November\nEllen came for her interview, very good.  She is keen, had experience, happy with the hours so she is coming back tomorrow afternoon for a play.\nWe all went out for our vet who is leaving on Friday to be a chalet maid in a French ski resort till April, it will be very sad to see her leave.  Unfortunately still no joy on the new vet front, but we are going to leave it till the New Year and try then. [other vet] is going to cover but unfortunately it means [husband]'s on duty more, it's a bit reminiscent of FMD, but we'll manage.\nTuesday/Wednesday\nFeeling very sorry for myself, got a bad cold, I got sent to my room because everyone was fed up of me sneezing all over them, honestly I was only 'shanning'.\nThursday\nMuch better today.  I sorted a whole load of Interherd data out and had a good play with it.\nHeard about Nestle's cancelling contracts next year from one of our farmers.  He felt a little unsure quite how it would affect them and that they were being dealt another kick in the teeth.  It's quite amazing how many I have heard questioning why they went back into farming.  We are feeling the effects, we didn't seem to be called out as often or they don't want the cows treated as its extra expense.  At the end of FMD they said over the next couple of years there would be changes in the way farmers and how many farmers worked. It's frightening to see it actually starting to happen and seeing the effects on our business.  Everyone agrees the whole industry has changed for the worst and is not the same and there is no pleasure now.\nAfter all that a total contrast, me and [daughter] went Christmas shopping and had a lovely time, we met [husband] after surgery and went for a pizza - lovely night.\nFriday\nEveryone's talking about Nestle's now and quite a few are angry.  Some aren't surprised and others just seem to resign themselves to it.\nWe had a lunch party for [leaving vet] today, it was good.  We gave her pressies. Although she has only been here a few months she will be greatly missed by everyone, you never know, she may come back one day.\nGood news I offered Ellen the nurse's job and she's accepted, I think she will do very well.\n\n\nWeek beginning 2nd December\n\nMonday 2nd December\nSpent all morning trolling around the countryside collecting [another vet]'s milk samples for her DBR, it was a lovely morning. Chatted to a few farmers.  A lot were still talking about Nestles.\nTuesday\nHad a meeting to clarify the start of the NMR milk recording, gave her all the information she needed to set up the herds. It's great to be able to offer the farmers a good cheaper deal.\nStaff Xmas party. It was good; everyone seemed to have a good time.\nWednesday\nDay off shopping - what joy.\nThursday\nHad an Interherd disaster today.  I couldn't get it load what normally takes 15 minutes instead took 2 and a half hours.  Anyway we succeeded eventually. They have just bought some in calf heifers so he was keen to keep up to date records and information.  We only have one more farmer to restock now and then that's everyone, it will probably work out at about 15% drop in work etc.  While waiting for Interherd to load, they were telling me that they had been approached asking them if they wanted to appeal against the amount of money they had received for the cattle, they said they wouldn't as they felt they had already been overpaid, not all farmers are money grabbers apparently.\nFriday\n[daughter] starts her mock exams now for the next fortnight. I have been waiting for the moods to start but as yet all is quiet, long may it last. She is very calm about it and has actually been revising quite hard, she has the ability. All she has to do is concentrate.\nWork wise I've done not a lot, it's one of the perks!!!  I've wandered around just playing doing nice jobs, quite a change. \n\n\nWeek beginning 9th December\n\nMonday 9th December\n[daughter]’s 16th birthday, scary, even worse she can learn to drive next year, never mind enjoy the safety!  We went out for lunch and did some shopping – it was good.  I don’t normally like shopping but we both enjoyed it.\nCame back to mayhem – a client (small animal) had been in complaining about his bill and had caused a stink – anyway I phoned him and once we had gone through everything he seemed happy. Hopefully he had either misunderstood or hadn’t had things explained to him – although difficult it is, better people say something rather than stewing over it and making it into something it’s not.  The small animal does seem to have more problems that way than the large animal.  I suppose the large animal is also a business but it doesn’t stop them caring.  I don’t think they could do what they do and work the hours they work if they didn’t care – sometimes they get a hard press, but I think it’s the few that get the publicity unfortunately.  I like it when farmers phone to say they have a sick cow and we ask what it’s doing and quite often the reply is she’s just not herself – need you say anymore.\nTuesday \nI’m going out to play milk recording with a new person via Interherd, he is one of our clients.  He is quite a character, old fashioned and yet in his thirties.  It was good he is very passionate about farming and its survival.  He has a lot of ideas he wants to try with different cows, he has just bought some Jerseys – hence he wants to record to see if there are benefits.  We milked 60 cows in 2 hours. At my other farm we milk 190 in that time – it’s good to see both ways.\nWeds\nEarly morning milk recording – good fun a lot more relaxed than my other farm.  Went to hairdressers straight after smelling of cows with pooh!! In my hair.  It’s a good job I know her well and she didn’t complain too much!!  The rest of the day was quite pleasant, a bit of paperwork and a skive (sorry can’t spell) to the lab.\nThursday/Friday\nWow, I think we had our Christmas rush, they should all be shopping it has been very busy. I do prefer it although a sit down now and then would be good.  Me and (Nurse) had a good time on Friday afternoon. I helped her bath and groom a dog; it was so naughty – nicely. We were both sweating buckets and soaked to the skin by the end, but we had a good laugh.\n\nWeek beginning 16th December\n\nMonday 16th December\nWith [daughter]’s mock exams she has needed runs to and from school at various times so ‘Mum’s taxi’ has been on overtime. She has been very calm about it – so we shall see.\nThursday was eventful as I now have an expectant Nurse and Vet – watch where you sit. Unfortunately there is a worry for both of them.  Our nurse/Evening receptionist is worried she may be losing hers and has had several tests and is obviously worried. She is going in for a scan on Tuesday so fingers crossed (Vet) is also pregnant – they have been trying for a while but has something with a long name wrong with her which causes her to miscarriage so she is pleased/worried/excited/scared and only 4 weeks so no lambing for her.  She is quite happy continuing with all other work for now.  I hope everything is ok with them both.  It can be difficult working with animals and being pregnant but as long as they are careful, they should be ok.\n\n\nWeek beginning 23rd December\n\nMonday 23rd December\nSo much for getting quiet for Christmas, we have had our busiest time for a few years which is good.  We are going to try advertising in the New year for a new Vet especially now [another vet] is expecting, it will all depend how she does, we may even need two. As even when [another vet] is on duty now, [husband] has to be on standby in case of any lambings, we have a couple of farmers starting anytime. \nMilk recording tonight as well but we now do it with NMR (well not literally) so I only need record once so not too bad and worked in will with Xmas round the corner and no mince pies made yet.\nTuesday\n[nurse] phoned, they are being positive at the moment, her hormone levels have increased and she has not bled anymore, it doesn’t stop them worrying though.\nSurgery was busy but we did finish by 1.30pm. My sister and [niece] arrived all set – off we go.\nChristmas was ace – very relaxing. Good fun, loads of pressies, didn’t have time to eat, too busy playing and it was so warm.\nFriday\nBack to work – a very busy day – lots of calls and surgery appointments, even some operations.  (Receptionist) was off so I was in charge, I enjoyed it, finding out what everyone got for Christmas.\n\n\nWeek beginning 30th December\n\nMonday 30th December\nBusy day, only me and [receptionist] in, thought it would be quiet – wrong.  Never mind, we coped.\nTuesday\n[nurse] has lost her baby or is losing it, they can’t see anything on the scan just an empty sac so she is going for a – don’t know what they call it but you can take some tablets that clear everything away. She is obviously so upset, what do you say.  She’s going to drop her other two off while she goes in – it is so sad.\nThursday 2nd January\nEverybody’s back again full crew, no-one knowing what day it is.  I could get used to the split weeks but at the moment I need it stuck to my head.  Quite busy as well which is good.  Trying to arrange TT test but farmers are never keen on them, you have to threaten them with Defra coming to do it – that works!!!\nFriday\nWent blood sampling sheep for scrapie with [husband] all day.  It was a beautiful day, very cold but we had fun, only we were stood next to a stream – women torture – cold air and running water, I had to nip back to the van for various things!!  By the time we finished I was frozen.\nThe test was part of the National Scrapie Plan which is to sample sheep for scrapie so if or when they find BSE in sheep, these ones will, or should be okay as there is a plan to slaughter the national herd if BSE is found, but as the farmer said they have already had human G. pigs for years as the Indians eat sheep brains and before the removal of bone meal and very dubious scabby sheep and they have not had a problem.  So we will wait and see.\n\n\nWeek beginning 6th January 2003\n\nMon 6th January 2003\nOur new nurse started today.  She managed very well and didn’t seem too confused when she went home.  She has worked in kennels before, she is very keen – fingers crossed.\n[another vet] is doing her DBR and for part of this she has to do a study, she has decided to look at progesterone and other levels in cows post calving for 6 weeks to see what happens.  So we collect a sample from each new calved cow and split it into 3 smaller pots and freeze awaiting testing in Holland.  Very exciting but quite boring, the results should be interesting though – hopefully.\nTuesday\nYou forget all the explaining you have to do when somebody new starts, so me and [nurse] have written a step by step guide to C, well sort of.  It’s all the little things.  We haven’t had a new nurse for a while, so hopefully the book can be used for other new people.  It took a bit of doing but we were pleased with it in the end.\nI spoke to Mr G re having Interherd at the farm.  All I have to do now is get round to see him – he is very hard to pin down, but we’ll try.\nWeds\n[new nurse] liked her new book.  She is doing very well and it’s nice for us too.  I always find it quite refreshing when someone is genuinely enthusiastic.  With us all being close and having their own areas it’s good to show someone else but can be scary when you see just how much they all do.\nThursday\nMilk pot day again today, the good thing is going to pick up the samples as you get a natter.  So Monday and Thursday, the samples are collected, split and frozen – it’s quite time consuming and I’ve just realised I didn’t ask [another vet] how long she was doing it for!!\nFriday\nWe have decided to try and get the Accounts up to date to see how things are going – bar not being able to find a vet.  So it’s one of those jobs you always mean to keep on top of but never quite manage because it’s not much fun.  Interruptions, queries and assistance were very welcome, but I got a good start.\n\n\nWeek beginning 13th January\n\nMonday 13th Jan\nA has started working with us again, just two days a week.  This will help a lot and help take the pressure off for surgery times etc.  I got to spend the day helping with TT testing – it was good fun and it stayed fine.  It was a good day.\nTuesday\nI had a milk recording day today – 3 in total.  We have started using NMR now so it was all new paperwork etc.  This is going to be cheaper for the farmers and works with the Interherd programme.  Anyway it all went well and everybody’s samples got away.\nWeds\nMilk recorded again at one of the three farms first thing.  Everytime I go he has a new plan as to how to make some money.  This month it is he is going to produce a new breed of cow – a jersey X MRI so we will see how that goes.\nThursday and Friday\nJust catching up on paperwork, me and [nurse] did some training with the new nurse.  She is settling in really well and very keen.\n\n\nWeek beginning 20th January\n\nMonday 20th January – Weds\nDecorated our bedroom.  It looks brill, it was in desperate need of it.  I like decorating, it’s good and messy. \nThursday\nI went on my Brucellosis testing training course at the VLC.  It was good fun.  This means that after I have now tested 150 cattle I get a licence which will enable me to blood test – this in turn will hopefully free up a vet.  It will also give DEFRA a bank of blood tester for any future outbreak – crafty.  They used to charge about £800 for this course, miraculously it’s now free – clever.\nFriday\nWe have had a reply to our advert – hoorah!  Well actually two, they are both foreign, one is in Germany and the other S. Africa, so we are waiting for their CVs – fingers crossed.\nDEFRA have now changed the 20 day standstill to 6 days – the general opinion seemed to be – so – it would be interesting to actually find out if and how well all the regulations are actually working, not well I feel would be the answer.\n\n\nWeek beginning 27th January\n\nMon – Weds\nVery busy.  I seem to have spent a lot of it in my car, dropping off, tooing and froing, which was nice but I do lose touch with the happenings at the surgery and on Tuesday, things had obviously got fraught, so I sorted those out and smoothed the creases, we are very lucky to have such dedicated staff.  Due to vet shortage and [another vet]’s pregnancy it does add extra pressure to everyone.  None of the incidents were very serious and easily sorted.\nThursday\nI went with my sister to take [niece] to the hospital as since she was born, she has had a lump on the side of her head above her eye so they Xrayed it.  That was fun persuading her to lie still.  I stayed overnight and came back Friday.\n\n\nWeek beginning 3rd February\n\nMonday 3rd Feb\nI did my first blood sample on a live cow today as it was an abortion enquiry and due to [another vet]’s pregnancy she is not doing them ad I need the practice.  It was good fun and I hit the 2nd time so I was very pleased.  Only another 145 to go before I get my licence.\nTuesday\nI completed the accounts today to go to the accountants, it was great fun.  I hope they come up with good news but the future is worrying – a backlash from the farmers not being confident.\nWeds\nI can’t remember if I told you [vet] was expecting.  Anyway she went for her first scan today and so far so good.  It is very worrying as she has a problem where she produces duff eggs and miscarriages.  She wants to carry on as normal as possible for now, but no sheep or abortions etc.  I hop it works this time as this is her 4th attempt.\nThursday and Friday\nVery nice, everything worked well, no mad rushes, time to catch up.  We discussed reducing some of the farm drugs as they are able to buy the over the internet with a prescription.  All the laws and rules will more than likely be changing at the beginning of March due to a report done for the Govt regarding drugs and animal use.  It will make a difference to how we operate as if they remove the vet surgeon’s right\nto prescribe drugs i.e. vets can only write prescriptions and not dispense drugs – it could alter things completely.  One way or another if farmers require the service, they are going to have to pay for it, up to now it has always been that a reasonable mark up is put on the drugs (this is normally 50%) and this will keep professional fees down.  If vets are not getting the money made on drugs and therefore has to put his fees up, although the farmer may be buying his drugs cheaper via the internet, will he actually save that much – I wonder.\nSo anyway we have been getting more and more pressure from a number of our farmers to compete with the internet prices. So we have selected a few products and it they pay at the time they can get about 20% off the price.  So watch this space and we will see what happens.\n\n\nWeek beginning 10th February\n\nMonday 10th Feb\nThe week\nTo sum up a blur, with both sad and very funny memories.  To start, [receptionist] was on holiday and it always seems to happen as soon as someone is off, we get very, very busy.  When everyone is in it ticks along nicely mostly/  I do enjoy it when it’s busy but we worked 3, 13 hour days – not food but everyone worked really hard, they are excellent staff.\nOn a sad note [vet] went for her 11 week scan on Tuesday and the baby had died, she was distraught.  She has a condition that causes this and this was her 4th miscarriage.  It’s so sad, I called to see her and she just hugged me and cried, what do you say.  She had to have some tablets to clear away the placenta etc. She was gutted as this is the longest she had ever been pregnant and she thought she’s cracked it.  It’s just so sad.\nMy funny tale for the week on a completely different note, but helped immensely, was (other vet) on Thursday.  We were all very, very busy and a farmer called in, I was very behind, they still had ops to do and this farmer settled herself down for a big chat – normally if I say I have a lot on she departs, but no not today it was obviously my turn.  (vet) came over from the op room and I know it was naughty but I wrote on a card ‘Can I have some help’ – i.e. to free myself.  Well instead of reading the note quietly – oh no – she read it out at the top of her voice and added, “what do you need help for?”  After I had crawled out of the hole that had opened up in the earth to swallow me I pointed to the message book to try and hide my predicament while she said again loudly, “so what do you want help for?”.  Well I gave up and decided to just fall into the hole, got rid of [vet] back to the op room and continued alone with my predicament.  After the farmer had gone who thankfully seemed oblivious to what had happened, I went in search of [vet] to kill her.  Anyway it cheered us all up they do say laughter is the best medicine but I can think of better ways. \n\n\nWeek beginning 17th February\n\nMonday 17th Feb\n[vet who lost baby] came back to work, she is very upset and weepy, everyone has been lovely with her.  Hopefully it is just time and TLC.  We are very busy again and have had an enquiry from a farmer who is thinking of changing vets, which is really good news, that is three new farmers in total now if only we had enough vets.  Four practices around Carlisle have advertised recently and none of the positions have been filled – it’s quite worrying.\nTuesday\nI took [vet who lost baby] home again today, she is not well and in a lot of pain, so she’s gone back to bed. I hope she’s feeling better soon.  Usual day otherwise.\nWeds\n[vet] is a lot better today apparently they think it may be the cocodamol she was taking.  She was a lot happier, a little drained, but ok.\nMr W came in today; his cows are arriving on Friday hopefully.  This will be our last farm to restock; he has had a lot of alterations done to the farm and a new parlour, so it’s quite exciting.\nThursday\nWe did some sheep exports for slaughter from Longtown today, the first of that sort of thing since FMD.  It was of course a bit of a faf as they now have to be retagged and checked so it takes a little longer.  In the afternoon I had a meeting with SR from University of reading.  She is planning to do research regarding the Interherd programme and she had picked 3 Vet Practices to see how the programme helps the vets and the farmers work better together and the improvements it makes to the farmers’ record keeping.  So she is going to meet 3 of our farmers who use Interherd and interview them and give them free training so that should please them.\nFri\nDay off, me and [daughter] went to Newcastle shopping – I’m not a good shopper but I did behave and we had a good day.  Mr W’s cows arrived all fit and healthy so that is us complete now – ass we were if not better.\nSad news though, we heard one of our farmers dropped down dead suddenly.  It was very sad, as we had seen him in the morning and he was his normal self so it was quite a shock. His family must be devastated, mind, if there’s a good way to go that’s it.\n\n\nWeek beginning 24th February\n\nMonday 24th Feb\n[another vet] a lot better today almost back to her normal cheery self, she is a lot more positive.  We took the bull by the horns so to speak and reduced the prices of some drugs.  We will have to wait until the 10th March before we find out what the government is going to do regarding the selling of drugs, but the farmers are very pleased.\nTuesday\nI got another phone call from Mr C and he said he would like to change vets to us, so good news.  [husband] spoke to his old vet and explained why etc.  It is very difficult and I think that in the future there may be more changing of vets, where as in the past, it never happened, but even farmers appreciate competition now, it again is worrying.\nMilk recorded at Mr G tonight, it’s always good crack as they say.\nWeds\nMilk recorded early morning and then showed them the Interherd programme.  They are going to try it I think.\nIn the afternoon I went with [other vet] to vet a horse for purchase, it can be tricky sometimes and two pairs of eyes are better than one.  As it turned out the horse was lame so we couldn’t vet it so we will have to go back another day.\nThursday\nNormal day.  Did some more sheep exports in the afternoon, they have a very efficient system at Longtown so it makes it a lot easier.\nFri\nI went to [farmer]’s funeral this morning, it was very sad.  I don’t like funerals, well I don’t suppose anyone does but it stayed fine and he had a good send off.\nIn the afternoon I got an opportunity to do some more blood sampling just 15 so it was good. It’s getting used to handling everything and forgetting you’re at the end that shits and kicks.  No broken limbs and I got blood. \n\n\nWeek beginning 3rd March\n\nMon 3rd March\nI went to help a TT Test in the morning – just taking numbers.  We now have 4 farms on restrictions due to TB reactors but up to now on the cows taken for further tests, no lesions have been fund.  We now get to do the repeat 60 day test on the farms now as DEFRA can’t keep up – sounds familiar!!\nWe saw the accountant in the afternoon. We had sent 9 months of accounts to him as we need to see how the practice was now doing. Anyway it was not as bad as we thought but the income is down but is slowly growing. The main problem is farmers won’t call out for sick cows now, they will leave it longer or try to treat them themselves, mainly due to them watching their spending.\nMr W had a problem with his Interherd, he needed to run his extensification figures and they didn’t add up. So I spent the rest of the day trying to figure out why.  I think I know why it was how he set it up initially so it may need his entry dates changed.\nTues\nWent TT Testing again this morning – it was a lovely morning. I spent the rest of the day sorting Mr W’s problem out and it worked, he was chuffed. The good is, I think, I now understand extensifications.\nWeds\nCaught up on some paperwork in the morning.  I helped [new nurse] with a dog grooming in the afternoon which was fun.  She is doing really well and seems to be enjoying it.  We both ended up soaked thanks to the dog but it looked loads better when it went home.\nGood news – we get a new vet from South Africa starting 1.4.03. He worked over here during FMD and met someone and their relationship has lasted hence he wants a job in Carlisle.  So bingo here comes a holiday.\nThursday/Friday\nVery busy in the Practice – everyone kept going. We have a great team and they really come into their own when it’s busy. I love the way everyone pulls together.  They are very dedicated.\n\n\nWeek beginning 10th March\n\nMonday\nQuiet day for a Monday but the weather has been nice so they are all out playing. But we had quite a few lambings to do.  That’s one thing that has changed since FMD. Prior to FMD we hardly used to do any lambings for farmers but since, we now do far more. Last year we put it down to them having new stock but it seems to be the same this year.\nTuesday\nToday is milk recording day. I have 3 recordings today. They all need boxes and paperwork. I don’t have to help at any of the milkings though which is good as they are quite a way from each other.  But a nice day for a drive.\nWeds/Thurs/Fri\nThe end of our weeks seem to be busier than the beginnings at the moment.  It has been non stop.  One disadvantage when it is so busy is you don’t have the time to chat as often.  I took some drugs to a farm, our last one to restock as he was having alterations done. It was amazing to see the transformations he had made to the farm – all geared to one person being able to do more alone with more cows – interesting.\n\n\nWeek beginning 17th March\n\nMon/Tuesday\nI went with [another vet] to Mr C’s for his TT and blood test.  [another vet] did the TT and I did the blood as part of my lay Blood Tester’s Licence. I needed to do 150 which I managed.  It was good fun and the weather was great.  We had to spread it over 2 days due to the amount of cattle.  It was really good practice for me and I think I’ve cracked it now.  There are talks about giving TT testing to Lay people but quite how and when is anyone’s guess.\nWeds\nMore blood testing today.  I’ve really cracked it now, only I’ve discovered muscles in my arms I didn’t know I had!!  I enjoy the blood testing. Sad isn’t it.\nThursday\nI had a morning with Alco waste management, sorting out all the clinical waste regulations and they need more detail of what actually goes in our waste. We always provided a free service to farmers for disposing of sharps and old drug and empty drugs etc. but we are going to have to start charging now.  It is now £100 dearer a month than it was.\nFri\nMe and [husband] spent the morning looking at fees, income etc. and seeing where we can increase fees to help cover if we lose the right to dispense drugs to farmers – which we still haven’t heard about – to continue as we are we will have to make the difference up – it’s just how.\n\n\nWeek beginning 24th March \n\nMonday\nDoing the paperwork for a TT Test it was a beautiful day.  I do enjoy doing this especially when the weather’s good and they are very nice farmers. I also get to spend the day with [husband] which makes a change – although we work together we don’t often get to see much of each other.\nTuesday\nBusy day – spent most of it making sure everything got done and helping out.\nWeds\nI went to the careers convention at the Sands Centre, it was very busy and we had a lot of interest but a long day.\nBefore going someone phoned to say there was a collie dog running around on the roundabout. So me and [new nurse] went to see if we could catch it, well it didn’t want caught but I was really worried it got onto the motorway.  So we phoned the police and the dog warden who incidentally couldn’t come until 9am as he didn’t start ‘til then, so I had to politely!!! Explain that he would have to be.  The police dog handler wasn’t much help but at least he stopped the traffic – bless him.  The dog warden did appear 5 minutes later and it was only 8.30 am.  So we managed to get the dog off the roundabout and catch it.  Everyone safe thankfully.\nThurs/Fri\nBusy days –new vet [from South Africa] phoned so he’s coming to see us on Monday to pick up his vehicle and meet everyone he sounds pleasant so we will see.  My joke at the moment when people ask where we found him is that we got him off the internet!!  It is a little worrying not having met him first but it should work.  Watch this space.\n\nWeek beginning 31st March \n\nMonday\nWe have had L staying for two weeks. She’s a vet student from London and stayed with us about this tine last year. It was interesting to go over the changes from a year ago. Last time she was here people were restocking and there was an element of wariness.\nSo it was interesting to fill her in on how things are now. One thing she mentioned was noticing the stock in the fields was nice as there were only a few still last year. Talking over things is still hard sometimes although it seems a long time ago the feelings and emotions are still deep. Certain parts can still hit a raw nerve. There seems to be a mere anger at the moment generally. People and farmers are wanting to know why they still have restrictions, what is going to happen about shows and sales etc and will normality ever return. Unfortunately I think not, not in the way they want it to.\nTuesday\nOur new vet started today. We got on very well, it has taken us so long to find a vet and if the work and testing carries on increasing we are going to need another one.\nWednesday\nVery busy day – [husband]’s gone to talk at a BCVA conference and AGM. So poor [new vet] has been thrown in at the deep end. It has been very busy but he seems to be coping well. The clients were very impressed so far, so long may it last. It is good to have new staff with new ideas, I quite enjoy it. And he is definitely a BIG hit with the female clients – it really does make you embarrassed to be female, when they go into the consulting room you count to 4 and then comes the girlie giggle – quite funny!\nThursday\nSad day today – my sister had been confirmed as having cervical cancer. No more on that for now.\nFriday\nHad another Interherd sale today. One thing FMD has forced on farmers is the need for efficient records and Interherd is brilliant at that, it’s so clever. One of our farmers who has had it for a while and has 120 milking cows now does all his daily records in 5 – 10 minutes – can’t be bad.\n\nWeek beginning 7th April \n\nMonday\nBusy day – [new vet] is settling in really well and coping fine. If we carry on at this rate we will need another vet. A lot of it depends on how much more testing we are going to get and what happens with Commission report into dispensing drugs.\nTuesday\nSR came today from Uni. of Reading who own the Interherd Program. We went round some of the farmers that used it and helped sort out any queries. It was a good day, I learnt a lot and the farmers found it useful too. She said she would come again later in the year, so I think we might try and organise for them all to come to the practise for a chat.\nWednesday\nDid some Interherd training with one of the farmers wives, we said just an hour as she wasn’t fully computer literate. Anyway 4 hours later, she had well and truly got the hang of it, she was very keen and I really enjoyed it. \nThursday/Friday\nThey blur into one, as it has been so busy. Everyone has been flat out. We are going to start the vet advertising again, and another nurse/receptionist.\n\n\nWeek beginning 14th April \n\nMonday\nGot caught up today, sorted out all the queries. Quite pleased with my self.\nTuesday\nWent to a local Nursery to talk about vets, to 3 year olds. I was quite dreading it – but thankfully it was great, they were really good. I took some dressing up clothes and x-ray instruments and teddy bears and they operated and had a really good time. One of them asked me if all the cows and sheep were better and did they still have funny feet and mouths!\n\n\nWeek beginning 21st April \n\nTuesday/Wednesday\nQuite busy days and a lot to catch up on. We all went away with [sister and niece]  this weekend to [husband]’s Mum and Dads caravan. We had a great time.\n[sister]’s biopsy \nOff rest of week\n\n\n\n\nWeek beginning 28th April \n\nMonday\nThree farmers milk recording today and tomorrow so busy dropping pets and paperwork off. Advertised for a vet today. Fingers crossed.\n\n\nOff for two weeks helping [sister] to Move\n\nInterviewed a Nurse/Receptionist she is perfect and experienced, she wrote a letter in as her husbands job had brought them to the area, so she starts 12th May – I wish it was as easy finding a vet.\n\n\nWeek beginning 12th May\n\nMonday\nOur new girlie started today, she is very keen and capable, she has done really well even with the computer system that she was dreading.\nTuesday\nBusy day also 2x milk recordings so a bit of hollering about. I was thinking it is about a year we have had now of normal work!!  Everyone new appears to be getting on with it as the saying goes, everyone bears a scar and has a story to tell and realise it is not the same, but how could it be. \nWeds – Fri\nQuite busy but capable at work.  [daughter] got the job for the training in her M. Apprentice course so she is over the moon.  It’s all a new learning curve, you suddenly realise she is growing up, getting a job and leaving school.\nUnfortunately this morning [daughter] has decided she doesn’t want to leave full time education yet and is worried about the job.  She is wanting to do a business course at a college so all change again. We have had bid discussions and are going to go down to Connexions next week.\nSat\nYF (Young Farmers) field day today.  I love these days it is amazing the effort and enjoyment that makes it such a good day.  There is also such a high standard in all the classes.  I admire the enthusiasm of the young farmers and just hope they can survive somehow.\n\nWeek beginning 19th May\n\nMonday \nWe have found the course [daughter] wants to do at College thanks to Connexions. The bad news is it is not done locally, she could do a local course but it would be wasted time to some extent.  \nBig discussions most of the week.  We have found they do the course in Blackburn and Preston, my sister and Mum live down there and are more than happy for her to move in, I just don’t know if I am ready to let her go, but I’ll have to be a big girl about it.\nWe have sent application forms off so will have to wait and see now and try and get used to it.\nWeds\nReally good evening at Penrith re the discussion it was so good to talk to the other diarists and realise and be able to relate so closely to what they said.  It was poignant to see what other people had written and interesting to see what you had done so far with the data collected, it would be brilliant to hand to any future study or enquiry as it is proof surely not all these people could be wrong!!!  And to have so many diarists start and finish is amazing.  I’m sure it can be used for so many different topics – AMAZING. I am personally very proud to have been a part of it, and although sometimes I have wondered if what I was writing was any use. I can see now how it comes together.  Than you all for the opportunity, shame not in better circumstances, it has helped me more than I originally realised but thinking back it was all unbelievable and not something I would like to repeat.  I am ever the optimist or so I’m told and do believe or hope things and farming can recover not fully but enough to be able to show other people what a wonderful life it is, hard but special.\n\nWeek beginning 26th May\n\nNever stopped on Tuesday after bank Holiday so busy.  [new vet] is settling in now, but his girlfriend can’t find a job so that’s a bit worrying, he may leave sooner than expected – oh no not advertising again.  The rest of the week was uneventful really ticked along nicely. We met up with some friends on Wednesday evening who holiday in the Lakes each year so it was nice to see them again, we had a good evening. We were also out on Thursday night with a drug rep, very nice meal and they have offered to pay for [husband] Bri. Catt. Vet. Ass meeting in Amsterdam in October so that was very nice.  Business link have also offered to help us get a Consultant in to see if they have any ideas for improving, maybe they can find vets too!!  All in all quite an exciting week.\n\n\nWeek beginning 2nd June\n  \nThe exams have started, everyone warns to beware but [daughter] is very laid back about it all, too much I feel.  But as long as she does her best.  I went to the accountants to look at the books for the end of year so far not quite finished yet and thankfully we won’t be needing income support this year!!  It is so much better more regulation but nothing we can’t cope with – honest!\n\n\nWeek beginning 9th June\n\n[daughter] had an interview at Blackburn College, it wasn’t a very nice place, but then I’m not going.  Preston is on the 25th so she will decide after that.\n[niece] had her C.T. Scan for her head that was eventful and Lisa and her naughty jelly babies zapped, all went well but she was a bit sore after.\n\n\nWeek beginning 23rd June\n\nMonday\nWent TT testing with [another vet] today it was a retest due to them having a reactor.\nIt was a good day, they are nice people.  There is a father and 2 sons.  During FMD I had a phone call one night and this was just someone crying on the end of it. I didn’t know what to say and I wasn’t sure who it was, but I just spoke about mainly silly things I can’t really remember what but didn’t get much of a response just yes and no’s and I thought I recognised the voice as being the father we were with today – anyway during lunch which we had at the farm we were chatting and of  course got into FMD and he thanked me it took aback but he said he had appreciated me waffling on. It was the night of the day his cows had been shot and he had phoned to let us know but he said he just broke down and couldn’t say anything – anyway he laughed because he said he was going to hang up, but he couldn’t get word in edgeways because I was wittering but he said he did feel a bit better after. So we had a good heart to heart.\nTuesday\nCaught up on my paperwork and sorted some bits and pieces out.\nWeds\nTook [daughter] to Preston College for an interview it was good and seems a nice place.  I can’t believe she will be leaving home at the end of August – very scary I’m really going to have to be a big girl about it!!\nThursday\nWe went to visit Business link to discuss some more things and [they are] hopefully going to help us pay a firm of Consultants to help us out to see how we can improve and  move the Practice on, so that’s exciting.\nFri\nWent milk recording first thing so that was good fun.  After recording I had to collect one of our elderly clients and her dog that was coming for an operation, the lady is 92 and her and the dog are very close so she wanted to stay with her until she was sedated. So she was pleased she could come with her.  The girls all laugh at me because I have quite a few little old ladies who we visit and keep a check on their pets. \n\n\nWeek beginning 30th June\n\nNot a lot of excitement at all this week, we have been kept going and I caught up on paperwork.  We are going to my sister’s this week end to start sorting her spare bedroom for [daughter].\n\n\nWeek beginning 7th July\n\nMon\nSpent the morning explaining to our newest girlie about Interherd and how to work it, this will enable her to help me on the data entry side, we also had a little trip out around some of the farms that record with us to give her an idea of where they are.\nTuesday\nWent exporting sheep today, they all had to be retagged, it was quite warm, not much fun, I’ll maybe get [new girl] to do exporting!!\nWeds\n2 milk recordings today so quite busy with bottles and sheets and things and they are both in the opposite direction to each other. Never mind it was a nice day for driving about.\nThursday\nWe have got a new vet to replace [vet from SA]. She seems very lovely.  She is going to start on 4.08.03. We used an agency and it has proved worthwhile, we worked out that rather than paying for endless adverts we would give it a go and it seems to have worked, so that’s exciting.\nFri\nWe went car hunting today as if we all go out at the week end it becomes a bit crushed and sometimes we end up taking two vehicles. So we have really splashed out rightly or wrongly and bought a new CRV truck, it’s very posh, so we get that on 21.07.03.\n\nWeek beginning 14th July\n\nMonday\n[Person] from the Interherd office came up to see us and we visited a few of our farmers that are on Interherd. Between them and NMR they have really tried with providing quality and cost effective equipment that is helpful to the farmers.  You can now use Interherd in some milking parlours which is really useful.\nTues \nWe went to see a horse with a cough and after treating the pony we were chatting and they have converted a small barn into a camping hostel, their farm is along Hadrian’s Wall and since having foot and mouth and doing the barn up, they have nearly covered their costs. They still have a few stock but not as many.  Mr I was saying how his father used to milk about 25 cows and be able to make a good living from that, it’s amazing the difference.\nWeds\nWe got a new payroll package today so I spent most of my day trying to understand it.  I was very bog eyed by the end, but I think I understand it and it seems to work well and should be a lot easier and quicker.\nThursday\nBusy day. There were lots of ops and farm calls, a couple of farmers have been asking about prescriptions as soon they will be able to get their drugs from anywhere, a lot have said they appreciate they have to pay for the service one way or another and are happy to carry on as they have been doing.  We will lose money to some extent, but how much remains to be seen and we will have to cope.\nFriday\nOff – went to see Westlife with [daughter]. \n
## 4 Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1963\nGender: M\nOccupation: Group 6\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\n\nSaturday 9th March 2002\nAn old African proverb states, "The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The next best time is now."\nI should have started this diary over a year ago to keep track of changes in the unrolling of the FMD epidemic and my feelings towards it. Today is probably a good day to start the diary as I was about to sit down after a really bad week to write some comments for the lessons learned inquiry and thought I should check the web site for an update. I found out to my considerable annoyance that the inquiry was coming to Cumbria to meet with DEFRA and hold the open meeting on Tuesday night, and if you wanted a ticket to attend, then you had to apply by a week ago. The overall impression is that the govt do not want to learn lessons. I was looking after kids as [wife] was on counselling course and I was on call Sat morn. The vets were busy so I ended up taking [children] into vets with me they watched videos in the waiting room while I sorted out and consulted. \nComing down with cold after spending Friday TB testing on restocking farm. But at least I managed to avoid getting kicked and crushed. The farm hand who is one of the hard lads of Wigton refused to get in with the fat bulls to test them after getting floored by a kick. “If the f.** ministry want them F tested they can f coming and etc etc” I am putting in a letter to say why they were not tested to see response.\nDidn’t get finished on farm till 5.45 pm having started with a caesarean at 5:30am.Must be an easier way to make a living. The farming economy is bizarre at the moment . He has silage in heaps all over the farm, so instead of feeding straw which is incredibly expensive @£70 ton he is feeding the better quality silage and the calves are all too big. There are 30 to calve, so a few nights work there….\nWhere ever I go on farms the stories that farmers are wanting to get off their chest about the MAFF incompetence and inconsistency is bewildering. There is a lot of anger out there.\nI went to do the restocking sentinel visit for MG, L Fm. He is usually the most laid back of guys but he told them he was bringing his cattle on and he would see them in court. Why are we doing sentinel visits to a farm that had FMD 11 months ago? The virus only lives a month.\nSunday\nMothering Sunday \nKids had all got presents and cards for Mum, they brought them all in with a breakfast tray very cute, but pear juice all over the carpet. Tim and I spent Sat night baking a chocolate cake for her, which meant I hadn’t got lunch. Never mind.\nChurch was PS speaking on Characters walking with God, and talking about Abraham setting off with out knowing where he is going, maybe I should follow suit, with large animal vetting being reduced to TB testing and caesareans. The evening service was really lively with HP from Austria, about turning every hour over to God, now that is what I should do. \nG & R called around Sun afternoon, he is pessimistic about fertiliser sales. There is that much land and grass around, and the govt grants for extensification. New regulations on nitrates is giving him a headache though as he points out it is not fertiliser that cause the problems, as they are used by grass but by phosphates and slurry/organics . Lough Neigh has real problems with algal blooms and they are blaming fertiliser but so has Bassenthwaite, but there is not any fertiliser spread on the fells so is it really agriculture?\nMonday\nRead test and was very glad it was clear, as the Farm of origin of one of batches has gone down with TB..More testing after lunch. Organic farm ! They have just had their first pay check, 23p per litre, they were promised 36p when they started to convert 2 years ago. Who would be in agriculture?\nDesperately behind in admin with vets and home, but at least the clinical work pays!\nTuesday\nCaught up on a lot of admin as back to 6 vets for day. 2 cows aborting on restocking farm, more disease. Rota still for 5vets Yuk!!\nThe evening open meeting poorly attendee due to poor  publicity. I am only local practitioner. I phoned around no one had been invited or had seen advance publicity and we all feel that they are not interested and that they will not listen.\nSome moving testimony and the bullying culture came through, and the frustration and anger that comes from dealing with a faceless bureaucracy distant in London.\n11 million animals, 2000 farms in Cumbria, businesses wrecked, lives wrecked, a crisis turned into a disaster by bureaucratic incompetence and political considerations.\nI am pleased I went I feel that it is like a sense of closure, the funeral so to speak, the end and I spoke with [wife] when I got back. I feel I can lay the past down and look to the future.\nWeds\nDay Off K&A for lunch and sort out finances etc, (And write diary!!)\nEveryone is saying about this time last year and glad that FMD is finished.\nWent to see Grease the school production, it was very well done, brought back memories of 6th Form\nThurs\n300 pages of A4 waiting for me in my in tray courtesy of DEFRA. Are they mindless or what. Rang to speak to AH, but only got hold of N and told her it was out of order! I should get my blood pressure measured as some one says DEFRA. Stupid idiots.\nSo much for closure, I feel very frustrated. \nIf this is the future of farm practice, Anal glands here we come! Who said a vets life ain’t glamorous)\n\nManaged to calm down and get the next 2 weeks of testing organised. It is a good job that we are organising it as trying to get folk on the phone is n’t easy. Workload picking up and managed to persuade GG to advertise even if only at TVI HQ. (All of the local practices who have advertised have had very few if any responses, we are busy but with DEFRA work).\nSpent time singing Grease songs much to nurses amusement.!! \n Did restocking visit at Lynedraw, they gave me a look around. It is amazingly clean, because even after pressure washing the spiders usually make a come back. But the buildings are sterile, and no cobwebs or insect life, which usually abounds even in empty buildings, weird. There will be a lot of flies next year.\nNews that PI has headship of Nelson Thom and so we can expect the discipline to improve again.\nFriday\nCurry and Quiz at the boys school. Very cosmopolitan for Cumbria. It was good fun and the kids enjoyed it. But we were useless on the photos for which you definitely need a TV. Spent time chatting to local GP who which was interesting. They have a place for their son at Nelson Thom but he isn’t keen!! \n\n\nSaturday 16th March\nWorking this W/e, and on call Friday night so had an early start with a caser on ewe. A LAMBING!! Hurray, things are getting back to normal. Even if it is a Dutch beltex… The farmer is really fed up and wants AH to be sacked as he threatened to kill all his recently imported Dutch sheep, as the paper work was not right. They had come and blood sampled them and then sent the results to his brother who is still under Form A, and then refused him permission to move any of the sheep off because he shouldn’t have any, because he was on Form A, and what were the Blood results for. DEFRA would be a joke if it wasn’t so serious.  Oh and after my complaint about them deluging us with paper, yes you guessed it they sent another 7 x 20 sheets of A4. Idiots!!\nAW is in a tiz and so had to get help in Sat morning which was a shame but hey ho. She is not coping with the post FMD, constant changing of the goal posts.\nWent to Susan & Ian’s for another curry and had a really good time, and have decided to phase out house group which was coming. Hopefully Low moor will set up a 3rd house group for Wigton. Hebron is going to change to new Outlook groups.\nSun\nNever managed to get to church as calls all day, beautiful day though. The weather has really picked up. Must get garden sorted and seeds planted. A came out on call this evening. It is one good point that this job does allow the kids to join with me. \nShe is really growing up. She wanted to go to cinema but as [wife] was late and weather good she came back here and they walked the dog and wound up the boys.\nMon\n Early morning call to see a farmer who is a scrap metal dealer who hates authority. He therefore didn’t want anyone on his land during FMD, and refused access to Maff, and me while I was working there. He caused real problems and had his gun removed by police. He was handled badly and is a rogue. The more colourful rumour was that the real reason for not allowing anyone on was the amount of smuggled cigarettes was too great to hide. He also runs a fishery/ shellfish enterprise that is on the beach at odd times!!??. He was found guilty and fined £350 for his trouble but never paid because he went bust, as everything is in his wife and kids names!! This is all unsubstantiated rumour but quite amusing. When push comes to shove the ministry could do nothing with out the cooperation of the Farmers!\nThe vet students have arrived, and I feel a bit guilty about not having them to stay but I feel I still need space at the moment so they are making do with the Royal Oak.\nPrayer Quad with the lads, which was good. I still has not got stuff for magazine, and spent time praying. \nTues       \nThe dates important cos its my Birthday, 39 today. The kids all brought presents in and had breakfast in Bed it was really nice. The number of ordinary calls to ill animals is increasing rapidly. Went to 2 new restocking farms today. I think one a day is probably enough. They were both full of stories about the ministry and wanted to unload to some one who understood. The first was particularly upsetting in that I was admiring his new parlour and set up that he has put in while waiting the 4 months. He was then talking about all the animals getting slaughtered and his wife was fighting back tears. She is also very unsure about whether they are doing the right thing by investing in the new parlour. She is very unsure about the future and as they are both reaching 50 is it the right thing to be doing? Unfortunately I think she is right, but I couldn’t say that and made reassuring noises as they have spent the money and it is too late now. The future for dairy is not good. The price is going to continue to be at world prices which with the current exchange rate is uneconomic in the UK. The second farm was sheep with drop, and they were grazing over the burial site as they had planted carrots and turnips on the surrounding field. I couldn’t listen to another set of woes, as I was still upset from the first lot so kept conversation light and on sheep.\nWeds\nI never realised that FMD is like any other grief there are anniversaries to get through, and fears and barriers to be put to rest. I was on a farm to give certificates to 2 heifers sold in calf. They were all saying it was a year to the day that FMD hit the village. The AI fellow was there as well, and he was talking about what he had been doing. He was saying that he thinks it will be years before everybody returns to normal. He is revisiting farms where he was helping with the slaughter for the AI, and was saying he had to take a deep breath every time he returns to one of these farms. \nThere was a partners meeting at lunchtime. As usual AW turned up late, but finally decided to advertise to see whether there are Vets out there who will come to work in FMD country. It is a bit frustrating as I foresaw that we would be busy, and we could have nabbed D before Longtown, but GG ever cautious. We went completely around in circles trying different options, but as with everything else the only prediction we can make is that we know that we don’t know. So much depends on govt. decisions on supply of pharmaceuticals to farms, and on the future of the SVS. (State Vet Service) for who we usually do 15% of our farm work for and currently do 50% for.\nThursday.\nTomorrow I will get a lunch break. This is my resolution. Have not managed to stop for lunch this week yet as farm calls keep coming in and partners meeting. Today was Geckos bums and goose bums.(Rectal prolapses). Variety is the spice of life. Also had much laughter over watching Norman in the bath. JG’s tortoise which has come out of hibernation early and is anorexic. Much clunking, and bumping.\n2 lambings and cow caesaer, after hours.    So busy On call. It was also the last house group so it was end of an era. We have been having them in our house for the past 6 years, with different folk and have had god speak to us and to others through it. But it is time to move on.\nFriday \nStarted with another caeaser and early morning start and didn’t get my lunch break! Time to reconsider things again.\nHad folk for dinner, which had been arranged a long time ago, it seemed like a good idea at time and was enjoyable but after a 14-hour day yesterday and a 10-hour one today: I was not feeling life and soul of the party. One couple are still trying to decide the future of their farm. They are thought out progressive family farm, and yet they are not convinced about what to do. He finds it difficult to because there are three generations to consider. His father would go out and buy stock tomorrow, and his son wants to come home to work, but they feel he should broaden his options. Very difficult.\nHe was also saying that he ha d helped a neighbour who flagged him down as he was going past. He wanted help to move a cow that was down. The last time he touched a cow it was when his own were slaughtered. It knocked him off his stride for the rest of the day. \nHad a good time as when I looked at time was 1 O’ Clock\n\n\nSat 23rd March  \n[wife] went on her counselling course for day, which left me a bit on edge this morning, as I was On call Sat am and looking after 4 kids. But they managed with out me. Back sore and stiff as I’ve missed the gym, but will go back on Tues. Still managed to get a bit done in garden, it was a great spring day and made me feel like summer was coming. Went to Beckfoot to beach in the afternoon with kids, evening went to bed early as shattered.\nSun 24th\nBack stiffer after gardening and went to church. Davidsons have moved into Thursby so will be good to have them around and at school.\nWatched Northbank beat Stanwix U12’s 6 –0 , the boys played well and passed the ball around a lot. [son] played well too.\nMust work less w/e’s and watch the boys play more.\nMon 25th\nLooking forward to finishing on Friday as another large test today, started at 8:30am and finished at 6pm but at least it meant I was out the office and did not have to face any of the usual hassle factors. It was good to see as the place is always well run and organised. A real family farm with three generations working together, but Granddad at 75 still very much calling the shots. The craic was good at lunch as their sister is friendly with my wife so I got custard with my rhubarb tart! My wife doesn’t like custard so I never get, as I cannot be bothered to make it for one as the kids never have it and so are very conservative. They were asking my view of the future too as they have sold bullocks privately ie not through the auction as they are on 21 day stand still and the price is poorer than selling via the auction. DEFRA will not allow any trade through an auction if the farms are on standstill. Why? If they are dead in24hrs there is minimal risk and they are putting everyone’s backs up. \n\nTues 26th \nWent for my first visit to another restocked farm and during the 4 month waiting as well as visit New Zealand he has made a sandstone plaque 3ft by 4 ft and carved on the date they went down with FMD and the number of cattle. It is almost a head stone type memorial. \nThe cow had digestive problems a right displaced abomasums ( RDA). Probably due to the transit and change in diet.\nWeds 27th\nSmall animal day and trying to get everything organised for going away. Finalised advert in Vet Record for new assistant. Lots of adverts but no applicants. All the local practices are advertising and there are no takers. I hope it is because there is a shortage and not from lack of confidence in the area. DEFRA haven’t paid us for a lot of visits and that needs sorted. They have no record of the visits i e they have lost the claim forms in the mountain of paper work. They will only pay on the originals  (As if there are duplicates they will probably pay on those as well being that well organised). They are really slipping back into their old ways of paper chasing. The frustration without and within is palpable. I should just quit as I will be a civil servant once removed unless things change. The secretary’s are both on FMD funded computer courses, so digging out the paper work will have to wait.\nThurs 28th \nDemob happy just the test to read and I am off, for 10 days…….\nThe test was clear but very busy as a locum came for a look around to see if he would do SA for several days a week. Any help I think will be a help!!!\nGood Friday\nMissed out on Church as one of the boys through a complete wobbler. He is not very well just tired at end of term. I hope.\nThen went walking with family and [friends]. I must learn to shoot [him] down when he says it is a little scramble what he means is its too dangerous for kids. But it was fun and we enjoyed it. The weather was glorious and the fells were crowded! Tourism is back. Went up over sharp edge to Blencathra, kids as well.\n\n\nHOLIDAY\n\n\nSat 6th April\nCame back on the late boat from Belfast and arrived in to Wigton late. The grandparents were sad to see us go, but I think they had also found us all quite tiring. The kids have enjoyed playing squash so that is something I would like to continue.\nSun 7th April\nBeautiful frosty morning and went to church where the speaker arrived, much to S’s relief just as he was announcing the last song before the sermon! I think he was wondering what he would say instead of the prepared sermon.!!\nWent to [son]’s foot ball cup match, this is 10 year olds we are talking about, and the referee was making several bad decisions including a dubious penalty against his team Northbank. The crowd (well about 30 of us which for his team is a big crowd) was getting a bit restless. Robbie was sprinting down the wing in front of his Dad,         (and me) when he was sent flying by one of their team. His Dad then shouted “Ref if you gave a penalty for them for nothing you could at least give us a foul for that!” At which point the ref blew his whistle and came across and thumped him. The whole thing was about to descend in to a brawl as I and another parent were trying to restore calm by telling everyone to walk away, which they did, followed by the Northbank kids, game abandoned!\nSo we await the FA’s report.\nSo with that and the Carlisle manager being sacked and the Knighton’s trading insults with the prospective buyer for Carlisle the future of football in Carlisle is not looking good.\nMon 8th\nLast day off for sorting out VCF magazine and getting up to date with paper work etc, did Carrock Fell where we did not see another walker. It was sunny and cold but beautiful. At night went to Crusaders area meeting where they are trying to get some one to arrange area events for kids and to support the group structure. There is no one who has the time and no funding to appoint a post to do it, so went around in circles too a large degree, but meeting decided to try and raise the funding. \nTues 9th\nFeel like I should have handed in Notice after today it was awful going back. The response to the advert for a new vet now stands at 2 students who have yet to qualify! I had Harry giving me grief over the fact that DEFRA promised him that we would test his cattle prior to turn out, i e end of March but haven’t told us, very helpful. His allocation has not even come through!! They are useless. I was at one farm that has half restocked because the parlour is not yet restored, the heifers are calving and he is milking into a dump bucket and throwing the milk away. He can’t get more stock in because he is waiting testing for brucellosis as his heifers were on the same farm as the French heifer that went down. He wanted to bring them direct to his own farm they would not let him bring the heifers to his own farm because the paper work was not through, and they not would allow multiple drop offs. IDIOTS. \nSo with high levels of frustration and complete overload, it has not been a good start back. Tomorrow I must see what is hiding in my “in tray”. As I never had a chance to look today\n.Weds 10th\nQuieter day and managed to catch up with paper work and have had a lot of next week mapped out so feel more in control.\nNight work seems to be easing with fewer lambings. \nStudents seem to be enjoying their time with us even though there is too little time to actually teach them, but it is a luxury to have time to go through cases with them as we take them on a voluntary basis and at the moment lunch is a higher priority than their education!! I’m a selfish brat.\nThurs 11th \nSpoke too soon, chaotic again, managing workload with so much fire brigade work is not so easy. (Fire Brigade work is the emergency work that needs seen urgently, ie today if not now!)\n[son] isn’t so well again he tired easily again today, so must make an appointment for him, but very vague signs.\nFri 12th\nHalf day finish, Yo. I could really get into a 3 and a half day week!\nThe down side is it is because my wife is going away for the w/e, so I have to be finished by 3:15 for kids. As I want to have the people carrier I also have to muck out my car. It is not as bad since FMD. Another positive contribution that FMD has made to my life. I actually feel morally obliged to keep my car from being a biohazard. OK I still needed a wheelie bin to through all the post it notes and bits of cardboard and the excessive packaging that surrounds any medical product that seems to find its way on to the back seat of my car. I always remember reading a Sunday paper article about what cars different people drove, and what they had lying around in the back seat, and what this showed about their personality. I’m sure that they would have had a field day with my car!! You use to be able to tell farm vets cars from a mile off but they have all gone clean and shiny.\n\n\nSat 13th April\nA week end off and the thought of a Saturday morning lie in…..\nUnfortunately there is a football tournament in Carlisle today! 9am start so up as usual and get into town. But managed to get to Staples, which I have been trying to do since my Birthday, to spend my birthday money… the difference between men and boys is the size of their toys! As my wife frequently reminds me. \nSo I am the proud owner of a digital camera. \nThe question is when will I find time to set it up? \nTook back all the library books and made the mistake of checking with the librarian who says we also have a talking book and another junior fiction. Well I thought it would have been lucky to get them all. If they ever bring in fines for kids we are sunk. How does my wife keep track of them all?\nCame home and enjoyed the good weather, and fortunately the team bottomed out so didn’t get into the next round. V asked as she dropped [other son] off from the football, where has [wife] gone? As [other son] has said she was away at Gruerly, where is that. She is away for a girlie w/e.!!\nSo we had time for a “family” cycle ride out from  Kirkbride to the coast. It was beautiful, and we had a really good time. Came back via Wigton for supplies as we are in desperate need of a Tesco shop. \nSunday 14th\nHad an easy day and cooked with A for tomorrow as my wife is doing supply next week. Its ages since I have cooked, even made scones. Church was a video sermon which was OK but different. Saw P he ‘s back from NZ so will have to arrange to catch up. He was incredibly jet lagged, it must be Sunday cos everyones in church!! 36 hrs travelling. [wife] arrived back from her week end away at Capernwray, having had a week end that sounded as if they had all gone back to their teenage years with midnight feasts and playing tricks on each other. She was quite tired and pleased to have an early night.\nMon 15th \nThe diary has unfortunately died at this point and it is 3 weeks later and I am going back and filling in the details as I remember them. It is probably the bits that are really important, but as there is too much going on the diary has remained on my to do list!! Together with my tax return and a small mountain of paperwork!!\nThe reasons are varied but one of them is that my youngest lost his temper with the computer and slammed down the mouse. This broke the left-right bar so the pointer would only go up and down!! Now the practice manager who learnt his computing in the dark ages of DOSS, assures me you do not need a mouse to operate a computer. But as I have enough problems trying to get the stupid machine to do what I want it to with a mouse, forget trying shortcut keys and arrows.\n\nSo a new mouse was bought which the man assured my wife you just had to plug in, and hey presto it would find a driver and work. Blank screens, consult hand book, try inserting disk, try exploring disk, try windows disk, consult practice manager, who as you may have gathered is my IT guru. He says you may need to install a driver if it doesn’t work it will be on the disk. I don’t have a mouse to use to try to find and install a driver, he assures me again you don’t need a mouse. I understand why my youngest son lost his temper with the stupid machine. Being the mature adult that I can some times be I walk away to cool off, but don’t feel like trying again for 24 hours with a new mouse which the man assured my wife you just had to plug in, and hey presto it would find a driver and work.\nPlugged it in, it said “looking for driver”, “installing Driver” and it worked. Why?\nWhy not first time?\nTuesday\nThursday\nRiding Lights\nWent to see Riding Lights who are a Christian theatre group who were performing at the senior school at night. They were extremely funny and hard-hitting and very pointed all at the same time. It was a magazine of sketches on all sorts of different things. Modern interpretations of parables, and bible stories. Sketches asking questions about society and how we view things. Very difficult to put into words but thought provoking on lots of levels. \n\n\nSat 20th April to Weds 24th April lost in the mists of time…\nThursday 25th\n Starting the diary again after having missed 10 days with too much going on.\nThe spring work is chaotic with a lot of problems. We are trying to run the practice on 5 vets plus a part time locum instead of 7 full time at this time of year. I had said we should have advertised and tried to get some one at Xmas, but the view was that falling milk price would mean less work, but the DEFRA tasting is more than making up for those who haven’t restocked, and those who have gone out of dairy which brings us the most work.\nBut saying I told you so, does not help, so I’ll just keep my big mouth shut.\n As the practice manager says, the good old days when we new what the Rota was going to be and we were not just making up it up as we went along. We have had over a year of crisis management now. The end must be nigh!! \nAs this is a health survey, apart from feeling pressure of work, I am have also managed to catch ringworm on my leg. A fungal infection from cows and it is itchy and sore and not responding to my treatment. I will have to get GP’s opinion\nFriday 26th April\nRemind me next time, not to try to interview during busy periods. It is very embarrassing to turn up late to the interview!! We had a chaotic day but managed to interview her. She is frighteningly well prepared and had lists of questions. I hope we didn’t put her off by being so disorganised!! I think the Sandale view will be more influential! As part of the interview we always take them up to Sandale viewpoint to show them the practice, spread out panoramically beneath them. Well, it sold me the job!!\nAfter finally getting finished I was exhausted but had people to dinner so had to stay awake and be sociable.\n\n\nSat 27th April\nHad folk to dinner last night, which after working flat out was probably not such a clever idea. Didn’t fall asleep but this morning I feel like death warmed up and we have another interview this morning. I don’t think I can make a good impression so it is a good job that I am looking to employ rather than be employed. The candidate is from a Kirby Stephen farmers daughter, and so is at an immediate advantage. She seems fine so we will offer her the job, the question is should we offer them both a job? Went to bed feeling ill and with a migraine and slept all afternoon and then in bed for 9pm. Sad or what!\nSun 28th\nFeel a lot better for the sleep and church was AF speaking. He is always entertaining. His opening slide was “ Knighton In “. For those of you who do not keep up with the footie in Carlisle, Michael Knighton is the hated owner of Carlisle United who is trying to get the club relegated, so he can build houses on the land. He is destroying the club, and it is NOT popular…\nAnyway the second slide was ..here for grace and forgiveness. He went on to say that church should be where the failures should feel loved and welcome, as we all need God’s love and forgiveness.\nHe was really good, both entertaining and making real points.\nSpent time in the garden and playing footie with the boys.\nMon 29th\nMonday morning and that sinking feeling not helped by my wife’s teaching 3 days this week, and a trustees meeting for Borderline, which means additional pressure.  After running around all morning and working out the amount of holiday we are all owed the conclusion is that we will employ them both. I am owed 46 days holiday, so if I can take 2 months off, that plus the sabbatical I am owed means I could take 5 months off.. I wish it were happening. The 5 vets are owed over 200 days between us, which will be almost a vet for a year!!   As this is a health diary, I should mention my visit to the doctor, after a half an hour wait past my appointment time, fizzing knowing that I would have to make the time up later in my evening, I finally saw the Doc who agreed with my diagnosis, and agreed with my treatment. Only an occupational hazard of farm work. Ring worm!! He did take scrapings but that is all\nTuesday\nTesting next door, why do we always end up working in a pen under the railway in a middle of a stream? Why they cannot build a pen on dry land away from the trains I don’t know. I suppose they have always done it that way. But the first you know of a train is the thunder as it goes over your head which startles the cows who jump, sending a muddy slurry flying everywhere.\nWilliam is still not wearing a helmet for the Quad bike as he drives around, despite his fathers protests. Their neighbour the other way is brain damaged after coming off his..\nWeds 1st of May\nMayday, the radio is predicting riots in Paris, against or for Le Pen, anti globalists in London. But I feel a real peace with the turning of the month. It is funny how a different month can make you feel so different. April is always the worst month at work with a lot of routine  work dehorning and testing, and a lot of lambings and calvings, and emergencies. Even though the beginning of May is just the same I always feel we have passed the peak, and we can cruise into summer. The fact that both have accepted the jobs, and that we will have more cover helps!! Though they will not start until summer.\nThursday 2nd May\nIn spite of all yesterdays predictions there wasn’t any trouble!!! In Paris or London, only cyclists causing traffic jams!! What is about the media that they have to report the bad news not the good news. I haven’t seen anything beyond the Cumberland News on the farms restocking.\n Stopped at Beckfoot on my rounds and sat in the sunshine on the beach for 10 mins and thought, this is the life!! Though in talking to one of the neighbours, one of the farmers is having real problems getting motivated. He had milking Ayrshires, really quiet cows who you could do anything with. Their idea of getting excited was turn out time and moving into a fast amble to the spring pastures. He has bought in really wild suckler limousin X’s.  If you look at them the wrong way, they put their tails in the air and take off. I was there dehorning and we lost one which jumped over a gate. Another put its tail in the air and took off only stopping when it came to the block wall at the end of the yard. Unfortunately it didn’t stop fast enough and crashed headlong into it. It now has a definite tilt to it. The wall isn’t too hot either!! I think if I had to look after the likes of them, I wouldn’t be too keen to get out of bed either.\nFriday 3rd May\nSpoke too early about things easing off.. 2 bad calvings, a caesarean, and testing, plus the usual ill animals. But got finished for 5:45, and took my wife out for dinner at the Cockatoo in Cockermouth. Very pleasant, but while she wanted to go on to socialise at 10pm I wanted home to bed. \n\n\nSat 4th May\nOff Yippee!!\nTook the kids to Nichol End and went canoeing on the Lake got absolutely frozen but was really good fun!! It rained in spite of all the good weather forecasts, but with our style of canoeing we are always soaked anyway.\nHad a picnic on one of the islands, and had fun.\nCame back and slept for the afternoon, should have taken the boys to see the FA Cup but they were happy playing around.\nWatched Ghandi on DVD at night it is a very moving film, and the ambiguities and politics came through, to a muted extent which was interesting. It often makes me wonder about how much of Govt policy is personality driven. Again the inability of individuals to fight the “system” came through. The front page of the Times this morning was on a toddler who had died from post op haemorrhage following the use of disposable instruments in a tonsillectomy. Large amounts of money have been spent on disposable instruments that are always inferior to good quality surgical kit: Several people have died because of their use:\nBecause no-one wanted to take the very small theoretical risk, that they may transfer nvCJD. The approach to risk management and prioritisation within government, and the civil service is very poor. But to be fait to them the press is not helpful. I would like to see Prescott stand up and say that he wants more deaths on the railways, but he never will. If less money was spent on safety on the railways, more trains at more convenient times were run at lower costs, then there would be fewer deaths on the roads. But as no-one holds politicians responsible for deaths on the roads, it ain’t gonna happen. \nSun 5th May\nChurch was DN who is brilliant at getting the kids involved. [son]’s face lit up when we were walking in to church to see him walking down Botchergate with guitar in hand. \nHe had a skin that had been cast from a snake, and based his songs with the kids, and his talks with them on being a new creation. Cor 5 vs. 17  Getting rid of the old self, and hence the snake skin.  \nHe is brilliant on the guitar and a real performer.  Wasted as a tax inspector!!\nMon 6th May\nMaybe getting the kids soaked and frozen on Sat was not a good idea as they are all coming down with colds now! Tim is very chesty and was up in the night hot and wheezy. Any infection always goes for his chest. So Helvellyn will have to wait for another day. So concreted posts and pressure washed the yard. The boys loved “Helping”. Then demanded I play football as payment! AG was here as his Dad was dropping off the caravan after being away for the w/e. P called up from Manchester en route for Thailand. She is handing in her notice and going.  \nBooked summer holiday in France, and now have to work out what we are doing on the way there and back.\nTues 7th May \nWent testing but I really do have the kids bug and feel hot and feverish.\nWent to bed for rest of day\nWeds 8th\nDidn’t feel like getting out of bed but went to work. First was a deer RTA. I was supposed to meet a police car there, but no police, either car or policeman! I am glad it wasn’t too controversial or important! So I have taken all details and hope that that is the end of it.\nThis afternoon was spent chasing stirks around a field and Abbeytown. We dehorned them, they should have been done this time last year, but were n’t because of FMD. They’re now 2 yr old which means they were really too big to go around upsetting. Two went through the dyke one way, the other went through the other side into some one’s garden and on to the Abbeytown road! So it was a bit of a rodeo. It ended up charging M who hurt his shoulder trying to escape! He was not happy as this morning he got his letter asking him to cut back is milk production. He had jokingly asked what was I doing this winter as all the farmers will have given up by Christmas.\nThe long term out look is not good, but at least we will have 2 new graduates in training to cope with the upturn when (If?) it comes. \nThurs 9th\nDay Off\nUnfortunately spent the morning shopping in Carlisle, which meant wandering around shops, and trying to find clothes. I needed A, my daughter as my dress sense leaves a lot to be desired, and she keeps me right. Met GB another Carlisle Vet which was good I haven’t seen him for a bit. Had lunch out which was nice though. Also got all the bits for the tennis net, so will be able to get it up. The annoying bit was I got a parking ticket, which sent my blood pressure up. Now I know I often park with out paying and in the wrong places, that is just living dangerously. But as we were in Carlisle and had decided to go out for lunch, and for some reason I was in [wife]’s car, as usual there was no change in the car, (well as usual there was no money at all.) I only had myself to blame I know she never has change in the car. I only had enough for 2 hours in my pocket. Which to be honest is in my opinion quite long enough in Carlisle shops. So on the way to lunch out, I made a special trip back to the car park, armed with coins ready to pay the city council the extortionate fee so I could spend more money in Carlisle City shops. The first machine refused my coins, I even tried a 2nd machine that also refused to accept my hard earned cash. So I left a note saying the machine was not working in the windscreen. And yes you guessed it, I came back to find a traffic warden giving me a ticket, who justified his action by saying there w ere 4 machines from which I could have bought a ticket. GRRRRHHH!!! \nFri 10th\nFinish of another week with more TB testing. A lot of cows from Netherlands, MRIs (Meuse, Rhine, Issel.) very good beefy looking dairy cows. Dual purpose. Why we have to test them I don’t know but we have to keep Page St happy. They were all tested prior to export from Holland, and they want them tested again. The farmer is very Bio security conscious, and has his land all in a single block now bounded by roads, or arable cultivation. All the other cattle he insisted were tested and he had the results prior to purchase! In spite of all his good sense he is still going on about the missing vials from Porton Down, and other paranoid conspiracy theories on the spread of FMD.\nBut a part from cold/flu, feel as though things are getting back on track. We can look to the next 12 months with confidence. Thereafter depends on whether the WTO wins over the EU to get rid of subsidies, or whether maintaining the food supply within the EU is seen as important. The one thing the FMD has taught me is that you never know what will be coming next.\nI do feel guilty about saying there should be more train crashes after seeing the crash in the news today at Potters Bar.\n\n\nSat 11th May\nWorking the w/e again. \nSaw another calf with CCN, caused by a deficiency of B1. Usually rare but seems to be much more prevalent this year. ? due to old grass on pastures. Don’t know. \nHad a greyhound client in, bringing in a greyhound on behalf of some one else, who has been chased from the practice for non payment, so had a stressful half hour negotiating with an irate idiot. But he paid his old bill, and stumped up front for the new one. And seemed placated, treating the animals is easy.\nSpent the afternoon in the garden and fixing up the tennis nat. We were given an old second hand net so I have fixed up on the concrete and it was good fun playing with the kids. The concrete is not level and has lots of loose stones so the bounce is a bit erratic!!\nWent to a 50th Birthday party, for which I was teased at work, but I maintain we are friends with the children in their 20’s!! It was a good craic and the food was brilliant. There was one of the partners from a lawyers from Carlisle there complaining that he could only have an hourly rate of charging out at £185. Consequently he couldn’t attract good lawyers to his firm because the city firms were offering far greater salaries and were charging out their juniors at £200. I couldn’t admit that our hourly rate is only £45 and that I think that £45/hour is a lot of money. Should have been a 9 to 5 lawyer.\n\n\n\nSunday \nWent to church NL, but was still half asleep from my late night, spent all afternoon and evening out on calls, was OK till the midnight call when I decided that being a lawyer was probably a much better idea.\nMonday 13th\nHalf asleep after the w/e so took a little while to get going. Having kept this week a bit quieter, as there should have been a lot of last minute dehorning and castrating, it hasn’t come in so we really are quieter. So did some office work but trying to work out why the two computer systems we have do not have the same balances on their accounts with a tired sore head is not worthwhile. But it was preferable to sorting Rotas.  So I when came home I sat and read TinTin much to my wife’s disgust. \nI also looked at my cash flow predictions, which were totally out of line. I usually take a pessimistic view so as err on the side of caution but they are totally out. Fortunately the right way!! The partners think it is a waste of time and effort to try to predict how much of the bills the farmers are going to pay in any month, some pay every month, but most pay every now and again, either when they have time, or money, or when the accountant or vat man needs the books. I suppose they are right who cares so long as they do pay.\nAlso finally caught up with GP as ringworm still not getting better, so finally on antifungals.  If the farmers couldn’t get hold of a vet pretty quickly to discuss what’s going on, they would give us earache.\nTuesday 14th\nHalfway through May and time to get the rest of the planting done in the garden. Beautiful weather and feels like summer is here.\nGG had a visit from trading standards over the bulls for which he had given a certificate of Fitness to travel.\nThere is now no slaughterhouse within an hour’s drive of here for cattle. Ulverston is the nearest. If an animal is not fit to be transported alive for some reason e.g. because it is lame or blind etc then it has to be shot on the farm and the carcase transported to the slaughterhouse. However under the new meat hygiene regulations of 2-3 years ago the carcase has to arrive within an hour of being shot. Which was fine while Black Brow was operating the slaughterhouse, but since it has closed, there are no options for any animals to be shot on the farm. (Unless you put it in your own freezer for your own consumption.) Thus whereas if there were borderline cases before, they were shot on the farm, and the carcases transported. Now the pressure is to get them transported alive. Or the farmer loses the value of the animal £500-£600, and has to pay £75 to get them shot and disposed of. The sooner either Carlisle slaughterhouse or Black Brow slaughterhouse get working again, the better.\nWeds 15th\nDay off\nSpent the morning catching up on paper work, feel better for it but never my favourite job.  But all the bits and pieces are in place for my tax return. Just waiting for the final few pieces of paper. Wrote a caustic letter to Council about the parking ticket, but sent them a cheque as not worth the fight.\nWent to Up Front Art Gallery for lunch. Some one had made a set of peat rings with a golden bowl at the centre and wanted hundreds of pounds for their “Art” creation. If you don’t ask you don’t get.\nSpent afternoon running the kids as [wife] was taking A in town for hair cut and girl time.\nLast football match for Northbank and [son], lost!!\nThursday 16th\nThe long lunch is back!!! There wasn’t much happening Vet wise but still a lambing today as the season has dragged on. One restocking farmer was in today with a ewe to be lambed, of the 200 sheep he is supposed to be fattening for market, 20 have lambed. The guy he bought them from is adamant they were never near a tup, someone needs to tell him about the birds and the bees!.\nThere was also a good, if slightly apocryphal story from DEFRA licensing, when they needed a licence to move a bull. The licensing department asked,\n“Is this bull going to be used for breeding purposes?”  Yes is the farmers reply.\n“Will this animal be coming in to contact with any other animals?” ……..  \nFriday 17th\nAnother TB test, another restocking farm, more stories. The best one was the fact that their cattle had lain for a week in the pasture field after being shot. They decided to plough it out for barley in the back end having spent the summer pressure washing the farm buildings to a gleaming state of sterility. \nWhere the animals had lain, there was still obvious contamination with blood etc when they ploughed it. But having failed the buildings on specks of dirt, DEFRA were just not interested in contaminated blood stained earth. They had also phoned the day before I arrived to send some one out to arrange TB testing. The chaos in there continues.\n\n\nSat  18th May\nI am to be best man! A friend was around last night with news about getting married. We have a wedding every month for the next 4 months. Must be something in the water at the moment!!\nUnfortunately it meant it was a really late night celebrating and I am working the w/e again. So getting up for Saturday morning surgery was a bit grim.\nI survived and so did most of the animals, the worrying thing is I am sure that Drs are just the same. Spent the afternoon playing football and tennis with the kids in the yard, and mowing the grass. The farmers are all now silaging and the roads are full of tractors flying around at all times of night and day.\nSat evening went with [wife] to hear SA speak at KD’s. It was good to see him and Clare again. We visited them in Bombay,at the height of FMD and it always puts things back into perspective. He runs a mission hospital in Thane an outskirt of Bombay. They have it self-funding by charging the rich, for luxury (!) service a long way behind the NHS, and providing a basic service FoC  for the average Indian. He is now talking about trying to raise funding for building an AIDS hospice to provide pain relief and dignity to those who are dieing of AIDS. Because of the stigma and cost, and risk of cross infection of both HIV and TB a lot of AIDs patients are just thrown out of their homes, and HIV +ve babies are abandoned.  As he says there is  an epidemic sweeping Bombay that will leave a lot of orphans and cause secondary epidemics because of immuno suppression, and it is not really being addressed.\nVery thought provoking, and makes the £millions wasted on FMD look very sick in a global perspective.\nSun\nMissed church in the morning as was seeing to cats and dogs in the surgery and dripping calf in the large animal bay. Spent most of afternoon on visits. All work and no play is making me a grumpy boy. 2 w/es in a row is not good.\nMon\nAW is in worse mood than me and at least I have worked w/e! She is winding every one up with her attitude. It is sthg that will have to be addressed but will have to be a partnership decision. \n[wife] was interviewing FC tonight at Christian Viewpoint in Carlisle, and came back full of it. She is good with people and interviewing. \nShe was also challenged by what F was saying about the importance of treating people as loved and valued by God. In some ways very similar to S, about valuing AIDs patients. We are all valued by God.\nTuesday\nMissed gym for 3rd week, I am going to be getting really unfit. I was on duty and had spent time talking with folk at work, valuing them!! But it was nice as A came out with me and she always likes being on call with me, but I never seem to know what’s going on in her mind. Still waters run deep.\nWeds\nDad phoned and has decided not to come on the w/e away this w/e. It is a family reunion, but it looks like it will be just our family and P’s. But the kids love meeting up with the cousins. Even A, who will no doubt complain that there should be some girl cousins. She is the only girl on both [wife]’s side of the family and mine. It is a bit worrying in that he is losing confidence in doing anything outside his normal routine. It is at times like this you realise London is not really very close. The other problem is working so many w/es doesn’t give much time for the travelling up and down to see him. \nThursday\nG was away on a course yesterday and came back full of doom and gloom. For along time we have relied on the drug sales as a substantial part of the business. There have been various government reports that have queried our monopoly, and there is a move to insist that we provide prescriptions for all the drugs, and then allow the farmers or pet owners to buy the drugs from whatever source they want: Internet, pharmacy or us. It means however that the Professional fees will inevitably have to rise to compensate. Which means it will be uneconomic for the farmers to use us. So they will not, in the present economic climate, which means no job. Carlisle, Brampton, and Dalston vets are all starting to write prescriptions which means that we are going to have  to follow suit.\nThe farmer who rents my field was silaging tonight. I got back from house group, to find a tractor follow me in to start rowing up. As they had been at it all day I decided to take the gates off their hinges as it is a narrow gap, and at that time of night, a clunk against the pillar is OK, but I don’t want to have to replace my wooden gates!! They had just started to pick it up when I went to bed at 11pm, so no idea what time they finished. \nFriday\nG is off ill, help, it looked as though I might miss out on the w/e away.  As he is working the w/e. But the fact it would have meant 3 w/e’s in a row and 6 nights in a row, managed to help persuade one of the assistants to step in thankfully. So I finished at lunch time and slept to catch up from the On call until the kids came home from school and set off for the w/e.\n\n\nSaturday 25th May\nDovedale in the Derbyshire Peak District\nDefinitely should have more w/es away and not working. We had a great time with the cousins. Stayed at a farmhouse B&B, it use to be a working farm but is too high up, and to small to sustain the dairy, so they went out of that 3 yrs ago. Beef and sheep was not making any money so they have concentrated on Tourism and grass let the fields. His neighbours are now renting the land and farming it. \nBeautiful walk along the valley and had tea out. Relaxed and slept like a log.\nSunday\nGreat British Summer; makes you wonder why any one would want to go abroad!! Wet and cold so went to water world and watched the kids, big and little go flying around the flumes.\nIt was good to catch up with my brother and family. The boys would play footie all day long, and be happy.\nMonday\nOff to catch my breath and tidy up flat for tenants arriving Thursday, spent day trying to reduce the weeds in garden and went swimming at night. The boys still wanted to play footie. Where do they get their energy? If I could bottle it I would make a fortune.\nTuesday\nIt felt like hard work going back to work, after time off I always seem to be tired and head achy. It seems to be hard work to get going again, aI just don’t feel like doing anything, including writing this diary. But the good news is that we have a new booted bantie. Bertie the cockerel and he is now ensconced in his run. We are hoping to get him some young ladies in the not too distant future. He is cute and A is over the moon about him.\nWeds \nGetting going again. Spent time talking with my wife who as always puts things back in to line. Communication!!\nWent to do some pregnancy diagnosis early this morning and the farmer was complaining about the cost of his vet bill and is wanting to learn how to check cows to see if they are in calf prior to drying off. The whole economics of dairy practice with milk at 13p per litre is beginning to hit home to them. Cannot be nice starting up again, to realise that you cannot make money at doing it. One of the other vets is in really bad form this week and is causing a lot of friction and we will have to deal with it as the staff are up in arms. At least I am off tomorrow prior to working jubilee w/e. My mother in law arrived which the kids love complete with her special treats for them snowballs.\nWent out for dinner with mother in law, but too tired to enjoy it due to early morning caesarean. \nThursday\nOff \nSpent morning getting flat ready as we have new tenants moving in and clearing up while the “girls” went shopping. Dry weather but intermittent heavy showers. Tackled the long grass at front but the grass got too wet and clogged mower. \nPicked up kids and did the fatherly bit, went to bed early as head achy and washed out and caught up on zzzz’s\nFriday\nStart of the Jubilee w/e and on duty for the next 5 days until 5pm Weds evening. Work busy with bits and pieces, and farmers complaining that it is too wet to silage. One of the vets had issued a PETS export certificate for a cat to come back into UK but had put it down for 2 years not one. It is only valid for 2 years in dogs but 1 year in cats. Typical Friday afternoon problem to sort out, The Help line is closed for training and MAFF offices are closed for the BH w/e. I don’t think there is a way around it either.  But will not be able to sort it out till Weds day and they are due on Ferry on Tuesday Oops.\nAlso a bitch’s owner came in to ask if we were open Tues as she is due on that date and will probably need a caesaer.\nJohnboy called in the evening wanting me to go to the “loyal” supporters meeting at Carlisle united as a spy. I’m on call so couldn’t oblige thank goodness.\n\n\nSat 1st June\nOffice staff were asking why is there only 2 vets on the whole w/e and I am beginning to feel the same, should have split it up and had more staff on, but at least the others will get a break and come back refreshed. But I feel like I am looking down the barrel of a gun.\nHorrendous calving on a heifer that was in calf by mistake, to its father. It was supposed to have gone back to its breeder but the buyer was still tied up under the twenty-day rule. The calf had died, and was gassed up. Ended up by caesaering in spite of rotten calf.  2 hours hard work and the heifer will at best be very ill for several days.\nSun 2nd June\nA day of football. Went to church and made a quick exit to watch the football, as with everyone else was quite disappointed. At Hebron at night DM had the goals, and the reactions to them on the big screen, which he linked to Romans 12 “ therefore I urge you to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, this is your act of spiritual worship.”  Talking about worship to God being everything we do including how we react to how the English football team perform. Very clever and memorable way of expounding the bible.\nWent straight on to [son]’s football presentations which was quite fun. There is a real football sub culture with the amateur football clubs in Carlisle all vying for the top spot. The old pals network and animosities seem to be very prevalent\nMon 3rd June\nBusy night and early start. 2 x prolapses? Why always at a BH??\nThe second one was a wild limousin heifer it charged me and sent me flying. The only injury was a sore fist where I thumped it in the eye to try and deflect it, as I was trying to get it away. Gave me a fright. It was a ¾ heifer that was bred because he couldn’t sell it store last year because of restrictions.\nChatted to farmer who started getting up at 4:30 am during FMD, because he couldn’t sleep. He is still doing it now!! He still has not got any sheep in because he can’t face it. He lost his sheep to the cull but kept his cattle. I had started by admiring the view. He said yeah it would be great apart from the damn windmills.  He has a brilliant viewing looking out over the Solway, and the Great Orton site and the windmills remind him and everyone else that their flocks are in a big pit. He says he can still see them going and feels guilty. I didn’t have the heart to tell him that of the 10,000 blood samples taken at Gt Orton only 2 were positive. A very big mistake that has caused big hurt in this area, and no one has admitted responsibility, and no one ever will.\nTues 4th June\nWatched some of the jubilee stuff on TV in between calls. Amazing sight to see the Mall full of people more than ever before. Yet Rupert Murdoch and his press would have us believe that the monarchy is finished.\nWe managed to cope with just the two of us on call so may be I was right. Also made a start on byre.\nRemind me next time we have a dinner party on a BH not to be working it. As my poor wife had 4 kids and a dinner to prepare!! I was called out to a cow Caesar at 3:30 and then had another call after that. Fortunately I had taken Tim so there was one less to fight. But got back to be told that I had to have a bath before I could help because I smelt… Evening was really good fun and hilariously funny, so even I kept going to the wrong side of midnight which after an early start was pretty good going. I will have to get Phil to do his Senator homes skit at the wedding. \nWeds 5th June\nDid not feel like getting up this am at all, and felt even less like going into work. Managed to extricate us from any problems with the cat with out its passport, there is no give in the DEFRA system, which is to be expected. Richard had a suspect FMD calf on Tuesday, no wonder he was a bit jittery when I spoke to him later on. Even though you know that it probably isn’t going to be a case and that the farmer is panicking, it still sets the butterflies flying. It was BVD.  Spent over an hour and a half this morning on the phone sorting out what the AW calls “the rubbish”. Queries and being helpful and friendly, and sorting out licensing and drugs, and repeat prescriptions. One was a woman complaining about the neighbouring practice, which required a bit of tact !!!\nI think the Drs must have been as busy as us, the tally for the celebrations are 1 off ill with flu and bad back, one wrist sprained from scooter racing at a street party after all the kids had gone to bed.(!!) And one who spent the w/e visiting her boyfriend in hospital. She had said that he needed to go in on Friday but the doctors had put him off, as it was the w/e. He was worse on Sunday but had waited till after the football before ringing. Priorities, priorities\nThursday\nWent to house group which was really good and spent time praying for the group, church, area and for world situation. [friends] are trying to work out what to do in India. They are teaching at a boarding school in the south of India and have both their own family, and also the school kids to think about. The consensus is that the foreign office advice is aimed more at the Indian and Pakistani govts than the UK Nationals. Ian is supposed to be visiting and has a flight booked so is still going at the moment. I really cant believe that they would escalate the situation, but it will be tit for tat and then going to the brink as neither will want to break face.  The ramifications of Sept 11th still keep reverberating around the world, as the balance of power alters. Makes FMD look like a picnic. At least we have stable govt that says it abides by the laws.\nFriday\nThe secretary asked this morning what did I want, meaning tea or coffee and I replied as I had prayed “wisdom.” But with 2 sugars.\nWe had a difficult partners meeting that lunch time. Poor timing and priorities again as England was playing!! I had assumed they would lose! But the meeting went well and the issues were discussed amicably enough and frankly enough so we all know where we are at, and issues were addressed.\nBut as James says not only about asking for wisdom but also putting it into action.\nAt night leant on the fence and talked to the neighbour as the thistles I was supposed to be cutting down carried on growing, but it was a nice evening. He works for STL, the Christian book distributors, he was saying how the fire that they had just after he arrived at the time seemed a disaster and caused chaos. But it made them make decisions that had to be made rather than continuing with the status quo, and in hind sight was a very good thing. I wonder when we look back whether the changes and opportunities of FMD will make us appreciate the decisions we have all had to make. \nIt made me think of the woman who came in today saying she was one of the “..lucky ones who didn’t get FMD”. Very much tongue in cheek as they are much worse off than those who did. She gave up her job as they couldn’t sell the calves as they were born and so some one had to look after them, so she went back home to work on the farm. Her job of course has been filled in the mean time, and she would have made a lot more money for less hassle if she had stayed.\n\n\nSat 8th June\nFinished the long period of work and On call on Sat morning and it came down with heavy showers as we had hoped to climb Helvellyn today. It eased some what at night which was just as well as we were going to a BBQ. It was put on by a S African vet from DEFRA who is now working in Longtown. The last time I drove through to Charlie and Ruth’s who were hosting the BBQ, was when the pyres were all burning. It gave me a funny feeling driving back up there. \nThe food was good and the craic was good, so we had a good time. The kids would have kept going but they were beginning to get high!! The midges once you get north of the border are definitely worse. We all had lumps all over in the morning.\nSun 9th\nSB spoke at church on Jesus healing the blind man at Pool of Siloam. He was very easy to follow.\n[friends] called in and stayed for tea. [he] as usual blunt and controversial as ever!! He always has a good insight, and dresses it up in taking things to extremes, he is also very funny with it so had a good meal.\n[son] is as high as a kite as he is going camping with the school this week so he has all his kit ready to go and would not settle to go to sleep and kept the other boys awake.\nMon 10th\nPouring down in time for the school camp at Borrowdale. Never mind they’ll enjoy it any way. 3 farms have had silage pits burst because the grass has been put in too wet. If silage is made when the grass is too wet it flows very slowly and cannot support its own weight. So it bursts the side walls and will flow out of the heap that it has been put in. If there is plenty of effluent coming off it will usually escape from the normal collecting systems and if it gets into the becks, it is worse than slurry. Hunters stream was black with effluent and the environment agency were out testing the water quality so they will be for the high jump. The contractors are so far behind, and the grass is getting so long and bulky that it doesn’t dry out as quickly. So there may well be a few more, but at least the farmers will have had warning so it will be their own fault.\nThe school kids are back for their work experience week. It must be hard for them to follow what is going on. But they seem to enjoy them selves. The worksheets definitely help to give some structure and a feel for what is going on.\nCrusaders meeting at night pretty disappointing response so not a lot we can do.\nTues 11th \n June workload has set in and I’m just cruising, and managed to get to the gym while on first so feel full of energy. Why do you feel full of energy after expending some? Spent half an hour on net trying to get holiday organised but finding places for 6 is not as easy. The weather is better for [son] camping and should be better until the w/e. Means we will hopefully be quiet at work as they all go out into the fields. \nWeds 12th\nNo calls over night. First time since finishing with Defra not had a call at night. Summer is truly here. There was a call just on half time at 8.15 which I did during the break so got to see the second half and England drew 0-0, but are through t o the next round. Caught up on paper work and have sorted a lot of things so they are in place for the 2 new vets.\nThurs 13th\nMeeting with Bank Manager for executive lunch.. sandwiches from Bells.\nHe asked how was the “new normality” . Which seems an excellent phrase. He seemed happy enough but it is always interesting to see how an outsider views the information given!! The problem is usually knowing the questions to ask. I think that is probably  He seemed happy enough but it is always interesting to see how an outsider views the information given!! The problem is usually knowing the questions to ask. I think that is probably true of the inquiries into FMD. Unless you know the questions you will not get the right answers.\nWent Abseiling up at Sandale with the house group from church and had a BBQ. It would have been nicer if the wind hadn’t howled. I had gone prepared for British summer weather but it was still pretty nippy. It was great fun.\nFri\nRead another test that had IR s for TB. (Inconclusive) that will have to be retested in 60 days. While I was writing up the paper work the farmer’s wife was saying that the kids were all off school and nursery with Hand foot and mouth. She had taken the youngest who was ill with the middle kid to the doctor. The doctor had said what it was and the middle kid burst into tears as he thought they were going to take her baby brother outside and shoot him!! It is funny but also very sad.\nThe same farmer was really fed up as the cows were all supposed to be TB tested prior to arriving on the farm. He had also let them out into a long 5 acre field with the water troughs at the far end of the field. Half the cows had not found the trough, and so were very thirsty by the time they came back at milking time. The idea that you just go and replace the cows just like that is not quite the case.\n\n\nSat 15th June\nSaturday morning spent it Gardening. The strawberries are coming and even though the gooseberries aren’t quite ripe picked some to start the harvest, and the one strawberry that was reddish!\nThen went to visit [friend] (and the wide screen TV) for THE football match. No one expected any more English progress but the lads surprised me and played a stormer. So the game against Brazil will become THE match.\nThe practice BBQ in watery June sunshine was good fun but the ground was too wet to play silly games or even footie. The food was excellent. AW was notable by her absence. Hey ho. BBQ is in need of a revamp, maybe abseiling though I don’t think I can see either R or AW going for it. Showed S around flat and met her parents. Remind me to be wise with my kids!!\nSun \nFelt tired and ill and washed out after slowing down and switching off after a busy day yesterday, and all week. Watched the Ireland match which was very close. Spent rest of day sleeping or just chilling out.\nMon \nWent testing at K and T’d. They are really nice lads but not too hot on the academic front but good fun. They were in good form and hoping to get the low down on the new vets… Yes they are young, free and single as far as I know! I pity their chances..  Spent a lazy day in the sun at a gentle pace, so quite enjoyed myself. Caught up with the paperwork at night and feel mellow.\nTuesday\nToo many O’s. One call was cancelled but the other one still wanted the call. So some one went to the wrong O and I had to make a mad dash and pour oil on the waters to explain why we are so late. Oops. So more Testing and a Quiet day. [wife] also had her quiet day. There was supposed to be a group of them going for a retreat day, but the speaker had cancelled so she did it herself with R and it went very well. She was exhausted after giving out all day. Met up with lads at night. Didn’t get  to gym again as I had to go and calve a schistasoma. Yuk.\nWeds\nTried again to work out what we are going to do with Summer holidays, no doubt we will get organised eventually. Came home early for lunch and had forgotten that it was coffee morning here so felt out of place amongst so many women! Skipped off early and went for a cycle to make up for missing gym. Did first part with A and Annie  and then zipped around for a bit which was good. \nThursday\nK and T had an I/R again. I need a new supply of little green forms. To put this in context. Prior to this year in 16 years in practice I have had 4 I/R’s, I am doing that this week!! So another farm under restrictions.\nFriday\nBad Hair day!! England lost !! Och well never mind such is life. Richard Drummond’s report that the SVS was unprepared, (yeah we had all been saying it, but I did not realise that the SVS had been saying it 2 years ago) has been picked up by the Audit Office. There is a Report case of FMD in a pig from Leicester Mkt. And I had another I/R. And met with JM a temporary Vet with Carlisle SVS on why we had not done the tests allocated. Mostly cos they aren’t to do!!  He also was very cynical about the changes in DEFRA, and the management ethos, has not changed. \n\tHe brought a message back from them that the test we had sent back because the guy is an old recluse that is impossible to deal with, we had to do as they did not have the resources. What!!??? They are responsible for ensuring that they are done, and sorting out the recalcitrant. \nHad the afternoon off and ran round after the kids while [wife] did reports.\nNext week must be better…\n\n\nSat 22nd June\nWedding day for D and S. Yippee.\nD and his best man and usher plus 3 others arrived last night, and it was really nice to have young people around again. I have forgotten how much I enjoy young people. I must be getting too old and cynical. C looked after our boys and A went into town.  It was really nice S could not stop smiling and it is Wigton carnival day so there were two pipe bands as well. Which could be heard drifting over the vows. was in his kilt, I should have got mine on for the occasion.  The reception was at Tullie house, which is a really nice relaxed venue. We were seated opposite [friends] so it was really nice catching up with them. B&D are just back from another wedding in Vancouver and really impressed with BC. |They are out doors fanatics so the skiing mountains and whistler really is their thing.\nBarnes who was looking after the kids at night is going out there for his gap year to work in a book shop. Should be really great for him.\nThere was a celeidh in the evening but I only lasted for 3 dances. I was absolutely exhausted. I didn’t realise how tired I was.  \nSunday\nFortunately it was a family service ie doesn’t start until 11;00!\nIt was lead by the young adults group. So was really fresh and good. They also don’t take themselves too seriously but do take Jesus seriously and it was good.\nMonday\nMissed swimming again, cos work was really busy.\nCrusaders meeting at night at Rydal very good. Met up with some of the leaders I haven’t met before. Folk who work with young people are always good fun and have a wicked sense of humour. Do you need one to do youth work or does youth work give you one?\nTuesday\nDiary did not get filled in from here on as on Weds Morning I reached into back of the car and my back went. I tore muscles in it a long time ago and it often niggles but as long as I keep doing the exercises for stretching and building up the muscles it is OK but I have missed doing the swimming? Relevant?\nAny way saw stars and in agony so flat on my back and stretching every 2 hrs and sore.\n\n\nSaturday 29th June\nMy back is slowly improving I can move around and type!!\nI can do the stretching OK but stiff and achy, rather than spasm.\nWork must have been bad for the two left as it was going to be short staffed with out me dropping out. Nothing I can do about it. The new vet called around to look at the flat before moving in a month’s time. She came with her mother. Their farm was culled out with FMD late on and they had just got the herd to where they wanted the breeding. Her mum was talking about it was going through a grieving period, and how some days it was yes carry on and get going again, and other days it was why bother? It is just all too much hassle. It will take a long time for the memories in the farming community to fader, and with the acknowledgement that it was much better to get the disease and get it over with, the cooperation of farmers will be even less. They are the 17th generation on the farm!! The whole concept of bio security needs to be looked at and farmer education on how the disease is spread. The self-imposed isolation of not sending kids to school etc is just stupid but to go against the flow is very difficult. That as well as the DEFRA imposed ridiculous rules. They were not allowed to leave the house for 3 months. They just view this as a punishment imposed because they refused to let the hefted flock be culled. (They were right not to.)  \nThe old tenants have moved out of the cottage. Eddie and Ruth seemed to really enjoy it as a summer holiday while at work!! A change is as good as a rest so they say. \nI have looked at jobs again but nothing appeals. There is a job which I wouldn’t mind doing as a consultancy but doubt anything will come. Will have to wait and continue to see what happens.\nWent out for a meal to Giannis at night as my Dad is up. For the w/e. \nSunday\nP spoke at Family Focus at church and was very encouraging he is always a revelation as he takes things as they are, not as they should be!\nWatched Brazil beat Germany to win the world cup. Wet weather and kids out of sorts and back still sore. Yuk..\nMonday\nDrove for the first time and dropped my Dad off in Carlisle but it was pretty sore by the time I got back. Dad was in good form and he has enjoyed his time up here but he is getting older, and with being in London we are going to have to visit on a more regular basis.  Went into work and did some paper work and answered phone and felt better for doing sthg, as pretty bored, but couldn’t sit still or really get going either. Came home and lay down again.\nD came around at night called in absolutely hyper. He and A going to split up which is not so good even if it is not that un expected. The thing that has brought to a head is the fact A is seeing some one else, who is also married, not a good situation.\nLads came around at night, which was good fun, and we had a good time.\nTuesday\nI am now the father of a teenager. A’s b’day so it was good to see her opening her presents this morning. Back is easing a lot so did small animal today and I am moving freely but still doing the exercises. A’s birthday is also always a time for reflection as she was born a year to the day after we arrived in Cumbria. So we have been here 14 years, a long time. The future is also looking a bit uncertain work wise with more farmers complaining about the prices of their milk and animals. Hence they don’t want to pay their bills. \nWeds to Saturday\nAs usual the diary gets missed when the crisis hits, so I am writing this on the following Tuesday and bringing the diary entries up to date. \nWeds morning I was driving through Wigton having done my first farm call since doing my back when there were lots of flashing lights and an ambulance and an unmarked police car with all its lights on going through Wigton. They stopped at the lay by in Wigton high St. The traffic was slow but I did not see anything. Later on I was coming back in to Wigton from another call and the By pass was closed. The office was full of news that the by pass had been closed because of a stabbing and that a Welshman and a Wigton woman had been taken to hospital and a Wigton man had been arrested for attempted murder. I got a sinking feeling as D had been around on Monday saying about Ali having a boy friend. I said to [wife] but she said surely not. I got back after work and a friend arrived and unfortunately it was D. The story emerged over the next few days how he had forced his wife at knife point to take him to where she was meeting the boyfriend and there he attacked him. The sort of story you only here about in the papers and crime programmes. So we have had the police taking statements and trying to come to terms with it. He is usually a mild almost submissive personality and he had flipped but really weird. \nThey have 3 girls who are now going to be really mixed up. Having a father who attempts to kill their mother is not nice.\nSo I missed the leaving party for the locum who has been working for us for the past few months which by all accounts was very good. \n\n\nSaturday 6th July\nStill in shell shock over D and A, I still cannot believe what has happened. Went in Saturday morning and sorted my car and got testing list up to date. There is a lot in the Veterinary press about the future of the LVI system and the future of Farm animal practice. The future is not looking good. The short term is fine, if anything we will have a huge amount of work and we can live off the FMD capital that the farmers have. But once that begins to run out, they and we will be in serious difficulties. The economics are against the farm animal practice.\nWent out for a brilliant meal and had a really good evening at C’s. Her husband is a Detective Sgt and had been called out because there was yet another serious incident. This time at a night club in Cockermouth. There is a 22 year old in Newcastle hospital with head injuries. So felt sorry for C as she cooked and hostessed with out her better half.\nSunday\nChurch was good with SG on the character of God. He was quite funny with his illustrations, of fatherly things from his life. Espy as his son is quite a character. Met up with DC who was a DEFRA vet from SA, he was in good form and has another locum set up for when he finishes at Longtown. \nMonday\nBack into full swing again, but not much happening. Read the test and felt a lot happier as I didn’t have to leave the dreaded piece of green paper as everything passed. Of the farms I went on though it was interesting to note that the farmers are all having problems with their backs again. While they were pressure washing and not amongst stock they were fine but going back to pushing animals around the bad backs are back! The topic is probably raised because of the fact I have been off with a bad back. Du. called in as he is replacing D on the railway until they can get something sorted on a more permanent basis. He stayed for 2 years next door while doing his railtrack training. The people at work cannot believe that Dave has done sthg like this as he usually if anything a submissive guy. \nDu. had just got the keys to his new house in Manchester where he is based now, and was not very happy to be posted back up to Cumbria. He hasn’t even managed to move in!\nTuesday.\nWork very quiet and long lunches. Good for getting other things done but pretty boring. Looked at Rota and checked websites. Reports to be published on 18th July. Spent time sorting out rotas and booking up and reorganising my kit.\nWeds\nDay off. Went into Carlisle and was bounced by my wife in to getting my hair cut in what I assume is an expensive hairdressers. She was getting hers done and dragged me in and it was a fait accompli. At least I assume it is expensive, as she won’t tell me how much it is and she let me go off to Tesco’s and said she would pay for both!! \nWandered around book shop in Carlisle and met [wife]’s mum off the bus. \nThe vet student from USA arrived for a couple of days. Jamie who is not as I assumed male but female! It is amazing how you make assumptions when you read e-mails and take messages. She is in UK for 12 wks and [friend] has given her our address as his wife is about to have twins so he thought it better not to have more people than really necessary in his house. There are a few babies at the moment, got a photo of E  this morning and [friend] called around to say [other friends] had had a baby but he couldn’t remember whether it was a boy or a girl!! (Learnt later it is a boy)\nThursday\nNot a lot for J to see. Called in to see [friend’s] new kittens, Posh & Becks. Both have cat flu. He is busy painting house and tidying up for the wedding. Never seen his yard as tidy. Must tell Abbi to get a move on and maybe he will finish off some of the building work as well!! Did 2 calvings in the afternoon and finally read through the Audit office report which I downloaded ages ago, they were pretty accurate, apart from Nick Brown insisting it was all going splendidly well!! There really must be a better working relationship between the ministry SVS vets and the vets in general practice. And so much better communication. The other point that is never made is that all farms should have a mass disposal plan as part of their IACS return in order to keep FMD on peoples minds, as it is already disappearing as a part of history. And history will repeat itself because nobody listens. And most of the anguish and delays were in the disposal systems. \nFriday\nDropped J off in Wigton to catch the train. It is always strange with having students, because they stay in our house they are very much part of our lives and then they drop out of our lives. Another former student who is just back from SA called in and it was good to catch up with her. She was on her way back to Edinburgh for her 5-year reunion. He has been qualified 5 years and I thought it was 2 or three … \nOne of the vets was off ill so it meant a bit of a run around today, as 2 others were on holiday. but it was good to be busy and get some adrenalin pumping.\n\n\nSaturday 13th July\nWorking Saturday Morning.\nOn days like this I think it is great to be a small animal vet, the Consults were all straight forward and I could chat to the owners with out having to stop and think what to do about the animals. That and 2 owners were really appreciative of what I was doing so felt good. I think that is one of the things about working for DEFRA no one appreciated what you were doing. OK some appreciated the concern and effort, and the way you did it but no one really thought what you were doing was good. Like putting pets down. It is for the best but no one likes it.\nBeautiful day today too, the sun shining and picking strawberries and having a Bar B Q was really very pleasant. My brother always says the best thing about NZ where he lives is that he can plan to have a Barb in 2 wks time, whereas here, you have to go with the flow.\nSun 14th\nFirst call so wandered around seeing ill cows. Several lots of drugs to put out as a lot for the restocking farms have yet to get their medicine cabinets back up to strength.  Had a collie hit by a tractor and its eye had been knocked out of its socket. Urgh!! Eyes give me the creeps.\nMon 15th\nOperating day as we are doing the anaesthetic monitoring so plenty of ops booked in. Health and safety requires us to check for operator exposure to anaesthetic gases. As our new system has a scavenging system and is light years ahead of the one we use to have, it is a waste of time, but we have to have the checks done. But I wonder how many other practices actually do?\nWe have never been checked up upon. \nA police man arrived at the front desk while I was on the phone. The head nurse disappeared as soon as she saw the marked Police car, which struck me as very suspicious. After he had booked an appointment for his dog and he had left. I was curious to know where she had disappeared to. She had gone to check that the medicines cabinet, where we keep the gun, and dangerous drugs, was in fact locked. As while we are operating we keep it open so as to have easy access to the emergency drugs. The Gun licences insist that it is kept locked at all times and immediate access to a police officer coming to check it must be allowed. And we never been checked up upon yet.!!  Farmers are all busy with field work and are not wanting to even think about any routine work so it could be a quiet week.\nTuesday 16th\nBeautiful weather and raspberries coming along nicely.\n[wife]’s Mum is busy making jam and mile high pies. Yum Yum\nPartners meeting at lunchtime, why do they always make me so depressed!? \nThe subjects were more of the same how do we cope with the changes in the drug sales prices and how do we compete with Irish drugs being brought in illegally. We got a little further forward and will hopefully be able to make a decision on it by the deadline in September. We need to look at new ways of bringing in revenue streams but I don’t think there is a willing ness to look at the radical so I will have to keep working away at it. \nWeds 17th\nMet up with the lads last night to pray but the craic was good, and did more chat and joking than praying! T’was good. I is apparently having a good time at the CS Lewis convention, but has yet to open the Book stall\n(He sells books and specialises in Antiquarian and first editions of C.S. Lewis). The one thing about the internet is that it frees up communication and searching for the really obscure. Sorry I)\nThe weather broke today and the rain came and with it all the calls as the farmers got all the routine stuff done. Which was good for the last of the school kids which have plagued us for the past few weeks. Vet students next but at least they can chat away with out me having to make all the effort.\nThurs 18th\nWent o a farm today which restocked in Feb after doing its 4 months waiting and has yet to have a TB test, asked him whether I should chase it up but he like everyone else should be leaving it to October and housing. MAFF efficiency  rules. We also tested 44 imported heifers that were supposed to be blood sampled within 7 days of calving but they have been missed. I have no confidence in either of the reports to actually achieve anything. Part of me feels I should try to contact the media and try to get them to push the agenda along. But I don’t feel it would achieve much apart from sticking my head above the parapet, which would not do much. I have asked for copies but none have arrived yet.\nFri 19th\nDemob happy, I’m on holiday from 5:30pm so it will be good to catch up on all the things I should have done but not done. The garden is a mess but we are getting on top of it slowly. In some ways I am glad to be off when the LLI is reporting as at least I will not get wound up.\nSo this is me signing off for the week, next diary will be on Sat week.\n\n\nHOLIDAY -  Week beginning Saturday 20th July\n\n\nSaturday 27th July\nHaving had a week off, I am feeling a lot happier about life in general. We have been to a few of the nights at the Keswick Convention. It is an amazing set up with over 12,000 people coming together over 3 weeks in Keswick and meeting up for Bible teaching and to worship God. There is a big tent that is set up on the back of the convention centre. By the time we arrive, it is always full, and we were not late. On the Friday evening there were people standing outside. The kids went to a Youth event on of all things Ezekiel, not exactly an easy choice of Bible book to convey to 19-14 yr olds. But they really enjoyed the wacky games and the way they mixed teaching and songs and games/activities. They seemed to be mostly uni students who seemed to get as much fun out of it as the kids. My brother and family were up and the cousins love getting together and even A joined in the football and tennis. Even though her hand to eye co-ordination is not the best.\nShe has taken up running every day so I have been out with her, but my back is still not right and I can feel it at the slightest provocation. Must go swimming again. My brother also asked [wife] what DIY needed doing as he is a real enthusiast. Give me gardening any time. So we made a door for one of the sheds which I have been putting off for the past 6 years. As once I start there are another 5 to do. He is also a sailing fan so hired a sail boat and went sailing which was great fun. The kids had a canoe and we raced up and down the lake. And the kids swapped around and went to explore islands it was really good. The weather helped it was scorching.\nWe also went to a wedding of one of our close friends’ son. I decided I am going to start teaching my kids the etiquette of weddings, as the groom could have done a better job.\nIt isn’t really his fault as he is young and has not thought things out.\nSun\nWent to the All age service at the tent at Keswick. There were too many kids even for me, but the mix of action songs and asking kids things and an action talk meant that those leading it kept the kids involved. It was good to see. Spent the afternoon on the lake it was really nice day.\nMon\nYep it was a real Monday morning with my in tray over flowing. 2 Rota’s to sort and 2 weeks of testing to try to arrange. The only goodish news was that the ministry have finally decided to put the restocking farms on Annual testing which means at least we know where we stand and can plan. It will mean a lot of work for us. The bad news was that the OFT investigation have sent us a horrific questionnaire which needs filled in and one of my partners has had a go and not got very far unfortunately, and it needs to be in by tomorrow.  Forget it.!!\nThe 2 new vets have started and so we are settling them in and they are picking up the ropes quite quickly, which is ace.\nOn call at night, out twice for bad calvings….that’s the end of my holiday f\nfeeling good. \nTuesday\nSore back from calvings and early mornings. Had forgotten I had arranged for some one to be with me all day today. In a moment of weakness I had acquiesced to being put up for sale in a promise auction to raise money for African Children’s Choir. So this was the promise being redeemed. A morning with the vet….So I put on my best charming manner, all Mr PR-Man. And took her on a tour of the practice and on call and explained everything I was doing so it was a good thing we were not busy.\nSpent the afternoon consulting and supervising new vets and showing them the ropes.\n Weds\nWe were suppose to be going walking up Helvellyn but the torrential rain put us off. So went into Carlisle and did bits and pieces, and I took kids to see Stuart Little 2, which is definitely one for the kids. And jobbed around at home, but the kids like it when we just potter around.\nThursday \nFelt really stiff and sore and decided again I must go swimming more often, I just cannot seem to get there, that’s all. Must make time. I’m working this w/e and I am then off for 10 days. Finishing with F’s wedding. [friends?] are up with their kids and it is really good to see them. We don’t see them that often but they are the sort of friends who you pick up on as soon as you meet them even if you haven’t seen them for ages. M has left full time teaching as he couldn’t cope with the pressure of all the paper work and hassle. He is teaching supply and doing other things as well. He is so creative and he has made a model of our house just while he was sitting chatting with us. \nFriday\nCame home at lunchtime to see the kitchen table covered in drawings and paintings. M had decided to have a painting day so all the kids were doing drawings and paintings. He has done a watercolour of our house. It is brilliant. \n\n\nHOLIDAY for two weeks\nThis is more a reflection of what I have been doing and thinking over the summer as I have not been writing up the diary but I want to put down some of the things that I think are important.\n[edited – disclosive]\n\n\n\nSat 24th  Aug \nAnother Bank Holiday w/e to be worked but at least I am backing up our new young assistant. We work a system where the new vets have a senior vet on call at the same time for the first few months so as to give them a hands on support and mentoring. While this sounds very good and practical it is surprisingly uncommon. When I started I was on my own from almost day one. I started in August after getting married, and in the second week of September, my boss headed off to Oman to do horse work out there. The other large animal vet was off on long term sick and he could only get a small animal locum. When I look back now that he left me in charge of the farm practice for 2 weeks after only being a month qualified, I shudder, but at the time I just got on with it. \nSun 25th \nCalvings coming thick and fast. The good warm weather has made the grass spring and the cows are putting on too much weight and having problems.\nJ was at a football tournament at Pirelli’s which I missed, but he came back really tired having played his socks off. Did another PTS (Put to sleep) dog visit with [assistant vet]. It is never the easiest of consults, and she did really well. She is finding her feet. I find it hard helping people make euthanasia decisions over dogs, so I feel quite strongly anti euthanasia when it comes to people.\nMon 28th \nBeautiful day too nice to work. The morning was busy but the afternoon was quiet so I spent it lying in the sun dozing. Had BBQ at night at J’s and chatted to a few folk who I know but not to speak to so was interesting. Spoke to one of our farmers daughters who told me her Dad had just had his first calf since FMD and so he was really happy. He had 2 holdings which were run as one. He managed to keep his heifers which were on the second holding. Probably because they were the last ones in the area, and these were the ones that were now calving. He still blames the pyre from a neighbour for spreading the virus to his farm.\nTuesday 27th\nThe problem with having a day off is that you have problems stored up for when you come back. Today was really hectic…finished at 6-30 after having come back from the Belgian blue inspections to help out at surgery. The inspections were fun, but it gave me the creeps being in the mart and inspecting mouths as it brought back bad memories. The mart is ridiculously clean, and the last time I inspected mouths was for FMD, after shooting a herd that was a dangerous contact. I was trying to persuade London not to take out the other neighbour as well. We got finished at 2am, and went in for a cup of tea and to recover, and the mother greeted me with the news that D had been next door and was starting to shoot them!!\nThe other really annoying thing is that the basic hygiene is not being enforced and yet other rules are. The rules are made in London by desk bound DEFRA officials who don’t have to implement them. The  mart uses mini dumper trucks to clean out the pens after they have been sold. The same trucks are then used to put out straw and sawdust in the freshly cleansed and disinfected yards. They are covered in muck, and are a bio hazard!! \nM the owner of the animals we were inspecting put on her usual tantrum display to try and intimidate the secretary and inspectors, which as I was expecting it I found quite amusing, but I don’t think she or they did!!  \nHad another BBQ tonight with kids. [son] cooked and loved it so I have found a new BBQer!!  Kids in brilliant form as they are enjoying being around and A has been baking.\nWeds 28th\nAnother TB reactor, and the corresponding paper work and licensing!!\nHad a weird oddball case in surgery and spent ages trying to take a history of what was going on. The dog is not that unwell in itself, but has an intermittent history of different things. I look forward to seeing what it turns out to be, or whether it resolves itself with time. Vetting is always varied.\nJ was at [friend’s] party, after having a football school with Blackburn rovers this morning so he was passed himself.\nArranged to visit [prisoner in prison] on my next day off. And went through a multitude of meaningless options to end up with a guy who sounded like he came straight off “Porridge”. It is amazing how intimidating trying to find your way around a bureaucracy can be. I am not sure I want to go but….\nThurs 29th \nFrom feast to famine not much work during the day at least. Al had 3 caesareans last night and was running out of steam by 5 O’clock this afternoon!!\nMeanwhile I did small animals and tried to organise my trip to London to visit my Dad. Found web sites for Chitty Chitty Bang Bang, London Eye and Madam Tussards. So should be able to book in advance if tickets are left for the half term week.\n[other children] are staying so the house is full of excited kids…\nFriday 30th\nBusy day sorting out the invitations to our Open Day, 1st Oct. It is just a chance to get the farmers together. We promised one to celebrate the end of FMD. It is amazing going through the list off the computer how many farms are not restocked. The list hasn’t been updated since pre FMD as we don’t really know how many will restock so we have been waiting for the end of FMD to redo it. So there were a few deaths, sales and ‘moved away’, to take off the list.\nTime moves on.\n\n\nSat 31st August\nLast w/e of the summer holidays. We had a BBQ at lunch time for Borderline, and then I promised to take the boys camping at Bowscale Tarn .It was beautiful but really cold. The weather was OK Sat but Sunday was glorious. The boys wakened at first light. So we climbed up on to the tops while the sun was still rising and it was one of those magical moments. Wonderful.\nThe boys were so excited and full of energy and so happy to be with their Dad and enjoying life. A time to treasure.\nSun \nAfter coming down off the tops from Bowscale Tarn went to visit [friends]. [He] is a vet in Longtown and has just set up his own Small animal practice in the north of Carlisle. The twins who are now 4 weeks old were wonderful. There is always sthg very special about wee babies. A was in her element with two to mother.\nMon\nGood weather continuing and so we are still quiet. The vet student has arrived. Went blood-sampling sheep for Maedi visna to a farmer who imports and sells sheep as a bit of a dealer. Between him and his Dad, and his Granddad they have 4 holding numbers, which is making a mockery of the licensing system. He knows a lot of the breeders and dealers, and the Yorkshire DEFRA is even worse than this one and so the whole licensing system is allegedly being ignored there.\nEveryone in the office was trying to work out where we are going to go for the Xmas party as it is now September.\n\nTuesday\nIt is [friend’s?] last day at work tomorrow before the wedding so the girls spent most of the afternoon printing out posters and things to decorate his car before he goes tomorrow evening. The farmers are phoning in to book Tb tests for Nov and Dec as they know that we will be busy, which makes life a lot easier for me. We have sent out notes with the invitations to the open day and that has had a good response so we will start to get busy testing next week.\nWeds\nDay off. Spent the morning fixing the shower drainage, which had suffered from one too many footballs being kicked against it. The problem was the broken part was also a metric to imperial converter.( One end was 40mm and the other was 43mm) Which once I discovered that was what I needed meant a trip to Carlisle as nowhere in Wigton had it. So it got codged up with plenty of silicone!! \nThe afternoon was spent going to visit [prisoner]. He is the friend who stabbed his wife’s boyfriend in Wigton, and so he is currently residing at Her Majesty’s Pleasure in Durham Prison. It was a very disheartening experience. As with any organisation, it takes time to work out where to go and what you need to get through the hoops. I went from one part of the prison to another and backwards and forwards. The staff where very friendly and helpful, but they are all at fixed stations and so you are sent from one area to another. The security, although expected and natural, still comes as a bit of a shock. Photographed in, and issued with a barcode to get you in and out. And you put all your belongings in a locker before you are allowed in. Of course I did not realise that you only need the ID (Passport) to get your bar code so I kept it to show at the entrance. Where all I needed was the bar code. So they sent me back to put it in the locker. \n[prisoner] was Ok, but he is still finding it hard to think about a future that does not include his wife. Even though the divorce papers are filed, and he has done some pretty nasty things to her and the boyfriend. He is pleading guilty and is expecting to go down for a good few years. \nThe whole visitors area was charged with emotion, with people coming to see brothers, husbands, lovers. There were lots of girls with young children coming to see their Dads. I felt very sad for them and for the kids who are growing up with out a Dad, or the stigma of a Dad in jail. \n[His] kids have written but he is realistic. His wife is very anti him, and they are unlikely to keep up with him in the long term, as she at best, is not going to be supportive, at worst is going to try to dissuade them.\nHe was quite upset about that. He is also not able to sort out his things, or see his house before it is sold. He did a lot of building work etc on it and has an emotional attachment to it. But there is no real closure. He had emotional problems before all this. He is likely to have even more on his release. His car on which there is still a car loan has been removed from the pound but he doesn’t know where it is.\nDrove back over A66 very thoughtful and thankful for my family and freedom. Until the phone went to remind me I was On Call and had I forgotten. Fortunately there were no calls as it takes quite a while to get from Barnard Castle to Wigton. Oops!!\nThursday\nDid my first isolation pens inspection, which is a complete non-sense. The field has to be 50 m from any other livestock. Which in London probably sounds fine. Or in Scotland where there are plenty of woods and other crops, but here in Cumbria where the main crop is grass and all the fields are grazed at this time of year, then it is not so easy. The forms are horrendous, and the boxes to be filled in are greyed out to make it easy for you to know which boxes are to be filled in. This obviously looks really good on a computer screen in London, but on a photocopy, writing in black ink, makes the whole thing illegible. But that’s their problem!!! When does common sense come in.\nFriday 6th September\n[colleague’s] Wedding.\nOne of the vets at the practice was married today at the parish church in Wigton. The wedding was “some do..” He and his family in kilts. There were over 200 at the wedding and reception. At the Grennhill hotel where [bride’s] uncle is a director. The theme was an English rode and Scottish thistle. The flowers were all red roses in arrangements with thistles. They were beautiful. As was the bride, he quickly adds. There was a ceilidh afterwards and a fireworks display. Several of the neighbouring farmers complained to me the next day.\nDanced and talked the night away till after 2 am. Getting up the next day was a bit of a pain for morning surgery, urgh…\n\n\nSat 7th September\nWhy is it whenever you could do with a quiet day because of one reason or another it is always busiest. Managed to keep going most of the day with calvings and ill animals. Still recovering from the late night at wedding.\nDay was a bit of a wash out really.\nSunday.\nMilk fever at 7 am to finish me off so missed church but went to hear SC at Wigton in evening. He is head of Oasis trust and is very much a radical, but believes in putting faith into action and was very challenging. Isiah 58.. True fasting that God wants to spend your self on behalf of the poor in spirit. \n[wife] went to hear the new Bishop of Carlisle who was speaking at Hebron. He is reaching out to all the local churches and seems to see outside the traditional denominational boundaries, which is really encouraging.\nMonday\nHad a crusaders meeting in Rydal. Crusaders is a youth group organisation and I am on the area planning group. We have had money given in a legacy to support some one full time to train leaders, to organise area events and w/e away and other joint activities, which should be good. It meant a rush and a long day so I am still feeling knackered from the w/e.\nTuesday\nI was almost speechless today. The great era of decentralisation has hit DEFRA, I wish… I rang them up because we still have not had confirmation for the appointments of our 2 new vets to enable them to do DEFRA work. What used to happen was that they went to a training session and chat with the DVM in Carlisle and the appointments arrived 2 days later. Guess what all the paper work has to be sent to Page St in London now, and they have not got it back yet.\nWeds  11 09 02\nIt is funny how some anniversaries effect you and others do not. I had just started back in to the practice when the hijackers crashed into the pentagon and the twin towers. I was feeling at my most bruised and battered having had a major confrontation at DEFRA, and had to work through the psychological problems of being threatened and sidelined, and yet wanting to keep my integrity by not reacting and blowing people out of the water. \nThe 9 11 bombers made me realise how fragile peace is, and how fragile people are and the importance of not losing sight of the important things in life and trying to keep things in perspective. People are more important, friends and family… and if I can’t fight the civil service mentality that is their problem not mine. I remember seeing one of the teacher’s husbands walking in to the kids’ school when I went to pick them up. Looking slumped and dejected and learning that their only son was in New York and they could not reach him. 2 days later they heard he had visited the Twin towers the day before and had taken photos from the top. He was supposed be going back into the towers that morning but he had got up late and by the time he and his friends set off the towers had been hit. The impact of the number of people, who have either been in or visited the towers from all over the world, does make it a potent symbol with worldwide resonance. My sister worked in them for a while several years ago.\nThe anniversary brought a lot back up to the surface that I thought was past, but was merely hidden.\nThursday \nFirst on last night and 2nd on tonight so started early and finished late and running out of steam.\nFriday\nOne of the farmer’s wives came in today for some wormers for her chickens that have gape worm. She paid last months bill in cash as well as for the wormers. £8.76 inc VAT. She is working away from the farm 2 days a week, her husband is full time at a job he got after they went down with FMD.I asked how her father in law who is 65 was doing. He is lost and the farm is too quit, its not right its too quiet. They still have no animals back and are grass letting. Its funny she said, whoosh and your life takes a complete change, you never know what’s going to happen next.\n\n\nSat 14th September\nWorked am and then had rest of w/e off hooray.\nSunday\nMonday\n[son]’s footie\nTuesday\nPartnership meeting at lunchtime so had a sore head by the end of the day but a lot of good decisions made. So feel as though we a re moving forward.\nWeds\nOff as working the w/e so caught up on paperwork and stuff at home and then went into Carlisle to go shopping. For lots of bits and pieces. And a new bathroom.\nThursday\nDVM called in to update us. Waste of time and I had forgotten what an annoying man he is a real career civil servant bureaucrat who has forgotten what real life is about. If he ever knew.\nHad one of the vets around for tea as I was backing her up. Spent the evening playing take two and had fun.\nFriday\n---a very bad day at the office dear oh dear oh dear.\nThe day was great to start with headed down to Iselgate to see a lame bull to give it a certificate. They are still suffering from both the financial and emotional scars of FMD. Mind you they were always odd. She was talking about the isolation that was hard to break out of, and get back in to doing things again. They were also hoping to retire when they were 50 but BSE hit, so they decided to keep on and had no income from Jan to October last year. Mind you they would only usually be selling stores any way.\nThe day was taking a turn for the worse when after sorting out umpteen decisions for the practice manager on organisational issues he said “ wasn’t it easy when you were just being a vet???” \nFatal mistake as the next dog to be seen was an odd ball. It had woken up that morning after being perfectly ok up til then. It had growled at tis owner and he had decided to leave it for a while. After an hour or so he went to get it up out of its bed and it flew at him and as he put it meant it. So he rang up and brought it to the vets. This change of behaviour meant he had put it in a kennel and left it. So when I went in to examine it growled and flapped its ears at me and bit at the bars. Some dogs in pain or fear will growl or let you know that it is not happy, but this one meant it. We had a go at trying to get it examined by using the dog catcher and muzzles, but it mean it.\nLeft it to settle down over lunch but it was worse. Finally got it sedated, it had a temp of 104. Injected mm, and so was a case of encephalitis with rage. So after 3 vets all looking at it and umming and erring we decided to get a MAFF vet to have a look just to check that it wasn’t rabies. I had forgotten that none of them are clinical or able to handle animals but it was a bit of a joke. But as there was no history with it, of contact with abroad it has been left alive for the time being.\nBut the stress of both handling the dam thing and the worry of is it rabid and the consequences was some what tiring so I am washed out tonight.\nTomorrow is another day.\n\nWeek 27- Sat 28th September\n\nSaturday.\nDo tell me there is light at the end of the tunnel because at the moment I definitely feel there isn’t. So I have taken time off next week to catch up on all the things that need sorted at home. We are supposed to be putting in a new bathroom and we need to get the stuff ordered so the guy can fit it. You never know it may include doing a few diaries!!\nSunday\nMy wife is on a counselling course this w/e so I ma on the run around with the kids. Yesterday was spent watching the boys plat football and run here and there with friends. [son] had 2 friends to come and camp last night so he is a little on the tired side. The weather is warm and sunny a real Indian summer the autumn raspberries that are usually delicious but quite sparse are huge and plentiful.\nWell I definitely have a teen-age daughter as for the first time I had a phone call late in the evening from Carlisle asking her to be picked up, as her lift home had not worked out. Fortunately it was from the church youth group, but it is the sign of things to come.\nThe youth group took the church service tonight so it was really good. Looking at Our World. The pressures on young people and how they respond as Christians and applying their faith to their own situations. Very challenging.\nMonday\nWe have an Open night tomorrow night and it doesn’t seem very organised yet. Not my pigeon. I have made a resolution not to get worked u about things that are not my responsibility and just leave them be.\nThe 2 new vets are beginning to really pull their weight, which is great, and [colleague] is back from his honeymoon. Brown and jet lagged. They spent time at the beach and on safari so had a great time. [nurse] has headed off to the far blue yonder. She is one of our nurses and has gone to NZ for a month so it will be strange with out her. [other] nurse is just back from states and [another] vet is about to go to the Caribbean for 2 weeks. So I am getting itchy feet. Time to travel. At least I should be of to India in the new year.\nTuesday\nYear end Oct 1st, so stock taking which for me includes mucking out my car. I thought it was quite normal to take the wheelie bin to the car and just hoy the contents in until my neighbour saw one of the rare occasions when it happens and burst out laughing. He found it quite amusing. I was a bit taken a back at the time but we always assume what we do is normal!\nThe open day was OK but [wife] was out so had to juggle things a bit. I was On call so late finished, and had to fetch [son] from football as his practice had been shifted to Tuesdays with the dark nights. So I owe [friend] a bottle of wine for turning up half an hour late to pick him up. The boiler man arrived at 7pm to fix the boiler which was blowing fuses. He needs a lesson on time management. \nHad several interesting conversations on FMD. The most amusing one was about Tony Blair arranging his bust up with unions on the anniversary of the FMD out break finishing so as to keep it out the news. \nThe same farmer said about the govts response the countryside alliance March. The fact that they have reduced the sparsity factor in the allocation of central funds to  local authorities. This means that those with a lower population density and therefore a higher perceived  cost  of providing services are going to have this downgraded. Or in this farmer’s opinion take money from the countryside to the town. Don’t march or this govt will kick you where it hurts in a very subtle way.\nThe other one was probably more relevant in that in a group discussion, admittedly fuelled by an intake of free alcohol. Several were saying that this year was harder to cope with than last as there was no crisis or adrenalin to keep them going. And that the toll from last year was beginning to tell on them and their nerves. Two were still under court threats from Trading Standards /DEFRA for not complying with regulations. Both will in my opinions not result in anything but they are pretty pissed off to put it mildly.\nThere is also a real antagonism to doing the testing for ministry and we are in the cross fire as Defra vets decide what is to be done and yet we are the ones trying to arrange and get the testing done. While they do not have to pay us, they do have to spend a fair chunk of time organising and actually getting the job done. We are having a real problem with organising the testing on one of the common grazings. There are 14 farmers with animals on it. Biosecurity is a joke when your animals are on common grazing with 14 others. And trying to get 2 farmers to agree on a date and a method of doing it. They all have different ideas, and most do not want so and so there co he ‘ll just wind the cattle up, and we’ll never catch them.!!!\nWeds\nDay off  So caught up on garden and sleep.\nThursday\nI really enjoyed the crack today there was just that right amount of work and banter to have a good day. Laughter and fun is infectious..\nFriday\nOut for a meal at night which was great but 8:30 start tomorrow Sat am is not going to be good…\n\n\nOCTOBER – A young colleague’s brother was killed in an accident and as M writes retrospectively (see below), there followed a very difficult month in which he was unable to keep a diary.\n\n\nSaturday 5th October\nIt is in the smallest of things that suddenly life changes very suddenly and we then look back and see how we were and are not now.  I had a phone call at ten to five from one of the young vet’s father. [Father] was asking to speak to George or I. That in itself was strange the receptionist came and found me, with a quizzical look, saying he did not want to speak to [young vet]. When I answered the phone he said that they had bad news in that her brother had been killed in a traffic accident, so I had to tell her the bad news and then sort out the consequences. Once she had got over the initial shock, [wife] drove her to her parents’ home in [her] car.\nThe other partners are away so we are short staffed and [young vet] will obviously not be back for a while.\nIt is at times like this that I am always grateful that I can go back to God and trust in him. Even though I do not understand anything, I know that I can trust God. \n\nJan 2003 (Writing retrospectively about October 2002)\nThere is a month of Diaries missing from the death of [vet’s] brother onwards. I always meant to go back and fill in the days that I missed but never made the time or the effort. I found the time very difficult. So how her parents and sister-in-law coped I do not know. The funeral was at Kirby and I am pleased that I went. It was very sad to see some one in the prime of their life with so much to offer, cut down in such a random way. It was a very Cumbrian farming gathering. The red faced craggy farmers, and yet there was a friend of the family who sang at the wedding who was a black American gospel singer. The global village or world wide family of the church, take your pick.\nThe death of some one young always makes you consider your own mortality and makes you think about what you are doing. Will you on your death bed wish that you had made different choices??\nThe next month was busy and stressful, and probably a time which would have been useful for the study to have thoughts and reactions to my life when under stress, but I suppose to a certain extent when we are close to something we go on automatic pilot and do the urgent leaving the things on the periphery. \nHe was killed while driving a tractor back from where they had been testing cattle for American BVD. They had bought in pedigree world class dairy cattle. This included a sibling to an embryo which had had the American BVD. So the ministry were keen to make sure that it was not established within the UK. Hence the reason for the blood sampling.  I know you cannot look at history and say what if… But if the cattle had not been culled, there would have been no blood sampling to do and no reason to be on the road that day at that time. Linkage is not the way to go. He may have had to go to feed stock or he could have been in an accident in another way. But the ripples of actions continue to reverberate around. \nAt least in my head.\n\nSaturday 12th October (Again M is writing retrospectively here of his first thoughts after diagnosing his first FMD case)\nThese weeks were not completed because of my stress levels!\nI have wanted to transcribe my first thoughts on FMD that were written in a hotel in Newcastle at 2am after diagnosing my first case.\n\nTo My Wife.\n\nDear [wife]\nI don’t know why I am writing this, as I hope to see you tomorrow but I suppose I need to record what I feel, for you, and for me besides, sleep eludes me.\n\nToday was a beautiful day of winter sunshine, warm sunshine that speaks of the spring that is to come, on frosted snow that is clear and white and pure. A great day to be walking up in the hills on a Sunday afternoon, enjoying God’s wonderful creation.\nBut this is a fallen world. The only walkers are me, the ministry man, in disposable boiler suit and waterproof jacket and trousers, and a farmer with a heavy heart. We go into each field checking and inspecting all the pregnant ewes, herding them into a corner to catch and examine them.\nFeet OK, Mouth OK, a smile.\nThe only clue to the sadness on this man’s heart is the slight acrid smell, which wafts, now and then on the wind. The smell of his neighbours future burning on another ministry man’s pyre.\n\nIt’s 2 o’clock in the morning, and why am I writing this? \nBecause I cannot sleep. \nThe ministry man who then examined the cows. Blisters in its mouth, blisters on its tongue, Temp 105F.\n“I am sorry” I say, “It is.”\n“They’ll all go” he manages to say fighting back tears.\n“ If the lab confirms it, yes.” I reply. As a farm vet of 15 years experience I am not allowed to say it is Foot and mouth disease only that I suspect it. An anonymous telephone answerer in London makes stupid comments and stupid questions. \nI take my samples from the cow. I grab its tongue to pull it out to take a sample of the skin from the tongue. The cow’s tongue comes off in my hand. I try not to be sick and place the sample in the bottle.\n\nWe go into the farmhouse.\nHe is in tears.\nShe is in tears.\nI feel like crying.\n\n“ I wouldn’t do your job for all the b… tea in china.” she says.\n\nI am a volunteer, a TVI, all big depts have their jargon, and I don’t speak it yet a temporary veterinary inspector. I only started 3 days ago. A “clean” vet who had not been in contact with the foot and mouth disease.\nA volunteer from general practice, seconded to be used as a pawn in the battle against FMD. A man from the ministry.\n\nAs I leave a “dirty” vet, having double disinfected with my samples and a heavy heart, I take off the disposable boiler suit, and put on my shoes.\n\nI am me again. Not the man from the ministry.\n“Hey lad, nobody would know you from anyone else like that. Says the farmer.\n\nHe has seen me as I am. I see him as he is.\n\nLiving with his mother since his father died, so as to be on hand to run the farm. His wife and her mother in law trying to share a house and a kitchen while they convert a barn into a house.\nThe builder was told to stay away a week ago in case he brought disease onto the farm. Tomorrow he will be told to stay away as there will be no income for at least 6 months.\n\nWhile I filled in forms I had never seen before, with initials and jargon I’ve never heard. She phoned her sister to pick up the prescription for anti depressants. The doctor said she should go on them while the stress and worry of foot and mouth was about. Well it’s here.\nHe hasn’t eaten and will not sleep tonight.\nShe is anxious and will not get any rest.\nAnd the man from the ministry.?\nWell its 2am and I am writing this far from home a volunteer, a TVI, a pawn in a bigger game.\nBut after 5 days of being “dirty” and I can rejoin life. Back to normal, Back to my home, to my job, and my future.\nMy farming couple. 5 days of shooting and burning, of disinfectants and diggers.\nSix months of quarantine and a future in farming, maybe. Or maybe not.\n\nThe stories abound: Of three generations waiting for the men from the ministry. But grandfather will not see the farm restocked. The stress was too much for his already dodgy heart.\nThe countryside is under siege, and pawns are being lost, to win a greater gain?\nAnd why are we having to work these long hours and sacrifice these pawns??\nBecause some one was so arrogant, so stupid and so lazy that he couldn’t be bothered to heat the swill he fed to his pigs. He couldn’t keep to the rules that were made so this would not happen.\n\nIt is not intensive vs. extensive, organic vs. agribusiness, it is sheep vs. goats.\nAnd they will be sorted.\n\n\nSaturday 2nd November \nThe start of writing diaries again after a break of a few weeks, I am hoping to go back and fill in as time permits so this is today and forward looking.\nWorking the w/e with [young vet] and AW sat am. She had a calving this morning at 4am and so is a little on the tired side so hope it is quiet for rest of the w/e.\nDid surgery and then spent the afternoon trying to fix the out sidelights. The front went 18monhts ago, which shows how well I am keeping up with the maintaince on this house!! But the back one went recently and that is a real pain as you cant see your way to the car at night so I am more concerned about getting it fixed. The old lights are just rusted up and you can no longer replace the bulbs so up the ladder to re wire new lights I went. Unfortunately I was on call, and yes I suppose I was trying to do too much, but if you don’t try you don’t succeed. So I downed tools went off to calve a cow, and then came back to find a neighbour plus her 4 children in our kitchen. So I stopped had a cup of tea and then headed back up the ladder. Now [wife] maintains I should have noticed that there were lights on at this point. I would like to point out that I should also notice when she has moved furniture, had her hair cut or even spring cleaned the house. As I am often berated for my lack of noticing these sorts of things, yes I should have noticed but I didn’t. I was focussed on what I was trying to do, as usual. So up the ladder I went, to connect up the light, not knowing that [wife] had switched the electrics back on. And yes when I was at the top of the ladder, I grabbed the wires, and then spent what seemed an awfully long time trying to let them go and stay on the ladder as the electric current was shocking me.  So the light did not get fixed as I was not going back up the ladder as I was now in shock. !!\nHo hum\nSun\nFinished the light while every one was out, and then picked up A from a sleep over and went to Church in Wigton. PM was speaking on the parable of the 10 bridesmaids, which was good, as I had never understood it as it is obviously related to a cultural thing that happened at weddings in Jesus’ day. The point being that the wise ones who were waiting for the return of the bridegroom had the oil in their lamps, and the concept that this was the holy spirit that meant they could meet with the bridegroom, i e Christ. I am not sure that the idea is entirely right since there is that big leap oil=holy spirit, but it was interesting. I still think it was a cultural thing that was obvious to his original listeners and we just don’t have a clue.\nAli and Andy called around in the evening it was really good to see him again. He used to be a vet here who left several years ago and it looks that at long last he is going to look to settle down.  He was quite depressing about LA vet practice though. He is now 100% small animal so he is biased. They are actively looking at taking TB testing from the vets in his area, and the vets are dropping the farm practice as being uneconomic!! So much for the govt wanting more farm vets around. At least this is  a low cost area so at least we are not competing with small animal practices able to offer large wages to assistant vets.\nHe is looking to set up his own or buy a practice to settle into. They are obviously looking to get married so that will be another wedding to go to. We have been invited to LB’s who is finally marrying P. They have been following each other around the world for the last 2 years, from disaster to disaster, as they are both in humanitarian relief work. She was a vet student here too  .\nMon\nMonday, Monday. Tell me why I don’t like Mondays.\n[young vet] is exhausted and everything is catching up with her so she is going to take the end of the week off. The joiner finally arrived to put in the windows and had real problems writhing the old ones out and so has taken half the sand stone with them so they will have to be reconcreted which is a builders job ie he is not going to do it. The bathroom is still in pieces. “8” days it was supposed to take and we are now in the third week.\nWork was bedlam. So I was queuing the ops up this morning. I hate operating all morning as it is very draining as I have to concentrate on what I am doing. While the office staff keep coming with more and more queries. Urgh!!!\nGot another stupid letter from the planners quibbling about listed building consent that I am trying to get for the windows that are being fitted as I speak. I started the ball rolling in August. No wonder the country is going to the dogs!\nTuesday\nCalmed down a bit having filled in the Visa forms for our holiday to India. The great legacy of the British, the bureaucracy is alive and well. Why do they want to know my mothers place of birth and Maiden name for a 2 week holiday? Civil servants! \nMissed the gym cos surgery went on and on. I went to a farm and was asked a lot of questions about TB as they had had a reactor. The ministry had been out testing but hadn’t bothered to tell us. Mushroom farmers..\n[son] is in the process of planning next years football team!!\nWeds\nWent to a farm today and he is complaining that he cannot get his cows in his restocked herd back in calf. It seems to be an ongoing problem. A lot of those who have restocked with whole herds are having reduced fertility in their herds. It would be an interesting study to see the figures compared to non restocked herds.\nThursday. \nCounting the days until I am off. Work continues to be too hectic. [vet] who lost her brother, is off and it makes the whole pack of cards of having enough vets to cover fall down!!\nI think too I am just very tired from being too busy for too long. When planning staffing levels, it is usual to be cautious rather than to have too many vets around not making any money. We thought we were stretching it by employing the 2 new grads instead of the one.\nIt is also just being under pressure all the time with out a few days to cruise it.\nWent out to Chris Swifts for the VCF (Veterinary Christian Fellowship) which was really good as usual. F was telling us about the thanksgiving service that they had just held at Barnard Castle. She has also just got engaged. So it may curb her wanderings. She is an explorer and mountaineer. She is just back from Antarctica, and is currently doing some research and a PhD at Durham. Barnard Castle practice seems well organised and also flexible in that she is only working 3 days a week to spend 2 days at Durham on the PhD.\nIt was really good speaking to [friends] about [vet’s] brother as Paul was with them at the accident as he was taking the bloods.\nSo spent quite a while praying for them and for other things.\nFriday\nBad day. Had a phone call from the planners saying they were not going to allow double-glazing, and that they want the glazing bars to be 10mm not 20mm. Why????? There are no 10mm glazing bars on the spot.\nThe ministry,(London) have decided that they are not going to train lay TB testers and that all the work is going to go out to LVI’s. (Us). So we are now looking at a lot of work again. Carlisle DEFRA in conjunction with London, have decided that they are going to want all the restocked herds tested annually with every animal tested not just the adult breeding stock. So from looking at dropping 1-2 vets 10 days ago, we are now going to be looking at employing extra staff if we can get hold of them. How are we supposed to be planning for the future if it is so dependent on the whim of DEFRA officials.\n\n\nSaturday 9th November\nWent to the School PTA Pub Quiz last night at the Rugby Club. It was good fun, but I was struggling both to stay awake and to dredge up the Infotainment trivia of the previous year. It is funny how the questions chosen reflected the people who were asking them. What had stuck in their memory or that they had chosen. Nick and Jane were across from Newcastle. I stayed with them for a few nights when working for DEFRA across there when I could not face the faceless loneliness of the hotel. \nConsequently was completely zonked Sat morning. Just went around the house being grumpy. \nWent to watch [son] play football, they thrashed Yewdale in the county cup.\nIt was good to be out in the fresh air and came back to sleep for a while before heading out to Roy and Christiana’s en famille. We had to pick up Fraser from Wigton. This is their son who has just started seeing a girl in Wigton. He is 14 and so was amusingly embarrassed.\nWe were talking about leaving the kids; at what age do you leave them on their own and to look after the younger ones. Christiana told us about when she left all three boys for an hour and a half, and the older two had got so fed up with youngest being annoying they hung him by his joggers from the post at the bottom of the stairs. The middle one said in all seriousness, that it was his fault that he had torn his trousers, if he hadn’t tried to escape the trousers would have been fine!! Even now he considers that the wrongdoing was the ripping of the trousers not the fact that they had hung him up!!\nSun\nWent to Church in morning and fittingly for remembrance Sunday it was on repentance and Gods love. Daniels prayer in Daniel 9 was very fitting some how. \nLunch and more football and crashed in to bed exhausted.\nMon \nTim is away for the first time on his own with the school on an outward-bound week south of Keswick. He was so excited about going. I think [wife] was a little put off that he was not thinking about missing home. Hey ho, but that is a sign of secure roots I suppose.\nMet up with A’s Maths teacher to discuss her Maths. There has been a lot of to and froing between the teachers but not much communication with home. So we went to see what they were saying, and have left it as the status quo, which is what it should be.\nFirst call today was a farmer who is just out of hospital having had his appendix removed for appendicitis. He had seen this cow and said why haven’t you had the vet to it. He is a good stocksman, and with him being out of action they had a relief milker in, who hadn’t noticed. It had a twisted uterus and was trying to calve, if I had seen it on Friday I could have sorted it out but because it was now to late I had to send it off. It is sad but the agricultural industry is losing a lot of experience and a lot of stocksmanship and handling and general expertise. It is not sthg that can be replaced. \nWe are seeing more twisted wombs because of the transport and fighting amongst restocked herds. The sad thing is that he said to me. We should never have restocked; we should have taken the money and let it all go. It is just too much hassle with the paper work and training cows. \nThey have just housed the cattle and so they are all fighting to come in to the parlour to get milked, and just making life difficult.\nThere is a real disillusionment around at the moment. But there are also those who are gearing up to milk more and more cows to stay still 300 +\nTuesday\nThe great European market combined with DEFRA’s inflexibility is causing a few problems. The Dutch heifers that have been imported to replace some of the FMD losses have a unique identifier number which is on their ear tag so everyone knows who they are. So far so good. They also have NL on them rather than UK, which means we know they are from Holland. The problem is they have a small check digit on them at the end. This means Dutch computers can recognise if the ear tag is a valid one or has been misread. The UK tags have a check digit at the front of the number. Very useful to help rule out misreadings or transcribing of the ear tags. \nHowever the DEFRA computer doesn’t recognise the numbers so we are being asked to retest heifers, because they still have an outstanding record of the ear tag numbers as untested because the extra digit has or had not been entered on the UK system!!!\nThe number of out standing tests is dropping but we will not be able to keep up with this level of testing, more allocations have arrived today. Managed to get all the bits sorted so I could leave at 5:30 for my few days off. The only out standing thing is the stuff for the accountant end of year. It was supposed to be in by 18th of Oct but hey ho!\nWeds \nI have taken a few days off to try and paint the windows and new bathroom we are having put in. The planners phoned to query again about the windows and I told them they were already in so it went down like a lead balloon and they are coming to tell me off. They also started querying the other windows from 95!\nThe problem with having a few days off is that I get very head achey and feel washed out and ill. Once the adrenalin stops I seem to crash.\nThursday\n Met up with Charlie from Longtown vets for lunch, which was great. His practice in Carlisle that he has started is going well. It is on the main road out to Scotland and looks really good and he is getting lots of custom just by being there.\nHe is looking for a part time vet. To start mornings.\nFriday\nRepainted the bathroom walls after discovering I had used 2 different shades of green. One was Ming grey, the other ming blue. I just opened them one after the other, and thought the difference was because the one had dried and the other was still wet. Ooops.\nThe  plumber is having problems with the electrics and getting the lights to work. So it was all fused out. I am just glad we have a shower as well or we would all be getting rather smelly by now.!!\nWent to watch “Changing lanes” at cinema. A rather thoughtful if slow and unbelievable set up. But nice escapism for an hour or two\n\n\nSaturday November 16th\nWorking Again.\nBut feel better for having had a few days off even if the bathroom isn’t finished. Getting to be a bit of a saga. Oh well never mind. \nSat morning surgery was busy and then several farm calls afterwards.\nFor the amount of stock around and the cost effectiveness of veterinary time we are doing an incredible amount of clinical work.\nDan (The sheep AI vet who locums for us on occasions) phoned up wanting Alison’s phone number. She was of course out, it being Sat night. His technician is ill and he has 250 Swales to AI tomorrow. Hope he finds some one. All the sheep AI and embryo technicians are very busy as people try to build up their pedigree herds and flocks by breeding for top quality.\nSun\nAm busy with calls and then painted doors in bathroom while [son] painted the window. Very messy but he enjoyed it! It will give him confidence to try again. It is patience and practice. \nWent to church in the evening. Rob Whitaker the principal of Capernwray Bible College was preaching. He is so animated and relevant. He was talking on feeding the 5000. And Jesus compassion and just the circumstances Jesus was in at the time. How he used the disciples and then applying it to us, and to the church in general. Espy compassion.\nVery challenging. Went on to meet up with lads and spent time praying. Phil is pretty down about not having a job. It effects his self worth/ didn’t help that Fraser had a brand new Merc sitting out side his house. \nMon\nHit the maelstrom running with an in tray flowing out, and still nothing together for year-end to accountant. So pushed practice manager and then started operating and haunting him every 20 mins in between ops and keeping him on task. The problem is that there are so many other things going on at the moment that the non urgent keep disappearing in to tomorrow. The new drugs discount system is working and generating a lot of interest and then hopefully will cut down on the black market. With any luck the increased turn over will make up for margin. Usual problem solving and smoothing over and 2nd opinions to sort out.  The 20-day rule is not stopping one of our local cattle dealers, from buying and selling. He says the paperwork to run 5 holding numbers is horrendous……\nKen and Anne called around and it was really good to see them. They have a lime spreading business and have been really busy over FMD. Both with lime for land that is going to be used for barley and crops(Rather than grass) and with a lot of stone for building work and new pathways and for lonnings. Whereas farmers were happy to move cattle via roads they are trying to reduce the movements along roads and are putting in tracks for the cows.\nTuesday\nMore tracings to check for TB, (These are cattle bought from a farm where TB has since been confirmed) and the paperwork to go with them. Ear tags don’t correlate so going to be a problem.\nRota nightmare at the moment as everyone is organising their skiing trips, so we are going to have 1-2 vets off all of Jan and most of Feb. \nTook first box load of paperwork to the Accountant. He is an old fashioned up the back stairs, not a computer in sight, type of fella. He is a wily old fox, much more than he looks, as he manages to keep the taxman happy and off our backs, which is probably the most important. \nThe financial year doesn’t look too bad, but doesn’t allow for the number of days of holiday carried over. If we had to give the holiday pay/ or pay a vet to cover for those days it would make them look a lot less rosy.\nGot back in time for gym and then Tuesday kid chauffer work.\nThen fell into bed and slept.\nWeds\nThe phone stopped at 4:00pm and didn’t ring again until 9:30 this morning. Weird. The work has just stopped like a tap being turned off. So got the rest of testing sorted. ; Sorted out the rest of the stuff for the accountant. Tidied the office, wrote up my book, and even thought about mucking my car out. Only got as far as thinking about it as coffee break arrived. Didn’t earn much but felt a lot better for it. \nSkipped off early and gave the bathroom doors second coat.\nThursday 21st November (Pay Day)\nDecided that if DEFRA was a business it would be bust by now. We are on a rollercoaster trying to look at the future with them. They only make up in a normal year about 20% of our   farm fee income but that has been much higher over the past few years. \nThe Chief DEFRA Vet has been flying kites as they say in politics. To see what the reaction is, or has been doing as he has been told by Whitehall (!).\nI don’t know what the ins and outs of it are but the gist has been. \nThey are going to employ their own vets to do the testing as this would be much more efficient and cost effective. When it was pointed out this wasn’t going to be the case we went to…\nThey would employ non-vets to do it. As this would be much cheaper. \nThere would then not be any farm animal vets in large areas of the country, as it would reduce the fee income even further. Where the farm side of vet businesses is marginal it would just be given up. It would mean our business in a high stock area would probably drop 2 vets.\nSo London finally decided that the status quo would probably be best. At the same time Carlisle in consultation with Page St decided that as there is so much TB being found in the restocked farms, that all the restocked farms should be tested on an annual basis. And that all animals, not just breeding stock should be tested. This means about a 25% increase in work load for the next 2 winters. So instead of dropping a vet we should look to be taking one on! But we cannot believe what is going to happen next as how can we plan when such drastic changes are proposed in the space of a month…..\n\nFriday\nHad a horrendous night with ill calves with pneumonia in the evening. A calving at 1 am in Silloth. Then a dog trying to die at 5am, so was I ever pleased that it was my half day. Slept and played squash with L & J in the afternoon.\nThe dog belonged to an old lady who had no children and it was her husbands dog who had died 4 years previously. She was going to be on her own if it dies. So she was very tearful and upset. The dog is not looking good as it is 16yr poodle type thing. She is isolated booth because she doesn’t drive and lives out at the coast. And because she and her husband retired to here, and neither have any family around. I felt for her.\nMade me appreciate my family so much more.\n\n\nSaturday 23rd November\n[wife] is away on a course today so for my w/e off I am running the kids and doing the cooking. \nI dropped of [other son] to squash, did some errands in Wigton and then watched the squash coaching. They are very patient and encouraging. The total contrast was shown at [son]’s football. They are a very good team, but I really do not like the attitude of most of the coaches and teams in the Carlisle teams. I was late to arrive and they were already 4-0 up. And this was the second half. It was only when I walked around to where the coach was, did he think about giving [son], and the other 2 subs a game. We have had it out with him before that he should give all the kids a chance to play, or else they find it crushing. [son] was really fed up with the situation, but he does love playing and is quite loyal. The coach always justifies that he has to play his best team, which he doesn’t, he plays his favourites/friends sons. But the point is irrelevant, if you are winning by that margin, then you can afford to have weaker players on the field. They went on to win 10- 0!!We will have to get a Thursby team organised for next year.\nWent on to Longtown poultry sale very interesting lots of rare birds and waterfowl. Will have to go and buy next year and get some different types for A to breed up.\nSun\nDan spoke on walking on water, in his own inimitable style. He is so refreshing and practical and honest. Made it a call to prayer as well. \nDidn’t do much in morning as [wife] was on course but finally managed to\nFinish bathroom. Hoorah!!!\nMon\nDecided that if DEFRA was a business it would be bust by now. We are on a rollercoaster trying to look at the future with them. They only make up in a normal year about 20% of our   farm fee income but that has been much higher over the past few years. \nThe Chief DEFRA Vet has been flying kites as they say in politics. To see what the reaction is, or has been doing as he has been told by Whitehall (!).\nI don’t know what the ins and outs of it are but the gist has been. \nThey are going to employ their own vets to do the testing as this would be much more efficient and cost effective. When it was pointed out this wasn’t going to be the case we went to…\nThey would employ non-vets to do it. As this would be much cheaper. \nThere would then not be any farm animal vets in large areas of the country, as it would reduce the fee income even further. Where the farm side of vet businesses is marginal it would just be given up. It would mean our business in a high stock area would probably drop 2 vets.\nSo London finally decided that the status quo would probably be best. At the same time Carlisle in consultation with Page St decided that as there is so much TB being found in the restocked farms, that all the restocked farms should be tested on an annual basis. And that all animals, not just breeding stock should be tested. This means about a 25% increase in work load for the next 2 winters. So instead of dropping a vet we should look to be taking one on! But we cannot believe what is going to happen next as how can we plan when such drastic changes are proposed in the space of a month…..\nTuesday\n Went to do routine fertility at a farm today and it was quite depressing in that a neighbour of theirs who has started up again has had a really bad time. The problems of restocking on top of bad hips. He was all gung ho to get restocked and although he had a sore leg he didn’t go to the doctors while he had the chance when he had no stock as it was only a little sore. But as soon as he got stock back and started to do a lot of physical work they were very sore. So he went to the Dr’s and has 2 hips which need replaced but as he is only 40 they don’t want to do it yet and it would mean no physical work for a long period. \nOn top of that he has mastitis problems caused by taking his plant to pieces by DEFRA. He has lost 8 cows and heifers through calving/illness or injury.\nSo after less than a year he looks set to give up disillusioned and a lot poorer.\nThe workload for us is easing as most cattle are now housed and a lot of the housing work is sorted. I always feel it is a run down to Christmas now with all the preparations and celebrations and kids (and adult) parties.!!!\nI was at another farm today who had meningitis a year ago, and has still not really recovered properly. He is still finding it hard to get going. He lost all his animals and all his work during FMD, and the additional strain has meant he has lost a lot of interest in the farming side. He can’t be bothered with all the hassle and paper work of farming sheep and cattle and so is growing a lot of veg which he and his wife have always enjoyed growing. They just retail at the farm gate. It doesn’t make much money but as he says it just keeps things turning over and he and his wife have time for each other and no hassle. Life is more important than making a living. Very profound. I am going to go part time, I wish\nWednesday\nThere seem to be a lot of problems (Still) on restocking farms. They are all having problems with getting the cows back in calf. Two farms today complained that even though they were more than pleased with the compensation at the time, the costs of restocking are much, much more.  It would be interesting to do a survey on the number of breeding animals bought in and those who have been lost either through illness or by failure to get in calf. \nThe old diseases are still causing the most problems. Lung worm, a disease I thought was well under control, and well understood has caused huge problems. IBR or cow flu has caused so many problems that we can no longer get the vaccine, as all the stocks have been used.\nIt was interesting today that one of the farms that is about to start milking having finally restocked ordered vaccine for Lepto, IBR, and BVD almost as a matter of course.\nBut fertility is causing the most worries.\nThursday\nFeel a lot better after an early night, apart from running to and from Carlisle after my daughter. Youth group last night, and evening shopping tonight.\n\n[son] is still trying to organise an U14 Thursby team for next year, all he needs is a coach. The problem is that it is a big commitment. I wish I could do it but I work too many w/e’s.\nSpent time day dreaming about what to do with the byre in our yard. It is an old knackered building that needs bulldozing, but [wife]’s Dad thinks we should just look after it and convert it into sthg. But what? \nI still think that there is an opening for “Herriot holidays” taking people for a day at the vets and then a day at the mart and so on.. Diversification is the name of the game.\nFriday\nHad an interesting day what with one thing and another. No lunch but hey who’s complaining. One of the nurses at work has a chicken shed with her husband and another farmer partner. The fans and alarms all failed and so the air was not circulating. The farmer was devastated. It was a horrendous sight. A carpet of dead chickens. There were 23,000 in the shed and we worked out there were roughly 2-3000 left alive. 20.000 dead. It brought back memories of FMD. Also the logistics of disposing of 20 tonnes of dead chicken. I hope the insurance covers it. Out for dinner at Christiana’s. Had a vet friend call around at teatime. He is a meat hygiene practice covering several different meat plants. They have several vets covering all the different plants. He has been asked to got to Harrogate to discuss how the different proposed regulations can be implemented. A marked improvement on the usual dumping of unworkable ideas from DEFRA HQ.\n\n\nSaturday.30th Nov\nTook a while to get going after being out for dinner last night though it was very pleasant. Spent day doing odds and ends. Went to watch [son] play footie, and bought an Orchid from the orchid farm. The kids were making cards for Mum and wrapping presents so it was fun.. James came down with his kids so there were 7 running riot which is really a bit too many after a late night.\nSun 1st\nChurch in the morning and Johnboy called around to see what time the prayer meeting finished as he had arranged a surprise party for [wife]’s 40th. So had loads of folks in Sunday night which was great. They had all crept in to the big kitchen and decorated it while we were in the front room. A and [son] had been going back and forth so [wife] never noticed. So it was special. The kids were as high as kites.\nMon 2nd\n[wife] is forty and there’s a photo in the news and star to prove it. The kids brought breakfast in bed, and opened presents. Poor [other son] after 3 late nights did not want to go to school I hope they are all right for Gran. [wife]’s Mum and [sister?] arrived. “Nannies from Ireland” to the rescue. They are going to look after the kids while we are away for a few days. We have had a bit o banter about them looking after the kids. [sister] found an advert for “nannies from Ireland” which is an au pair service and sent of for the info which she forwarded to us. She is a character. So they have been asking about working conditions and PAY!! I have been requesting Police checks and giving as good as I get.. The winds are pretty strong so they have had a bad journey. The super ferry was cancelled so they have had to come by boat which takes much longer. A baked a cake and managed to get 40 candles on it!!  \nBoth [wife] and I are looking forward to getting away. As usual work was really busy and lots of loose ends to tie up prior to leaving but finished for 3 days HoORRAAAHHH!\nTues 3rd\nSpent the day travelling up to Loch Lomond, stopped  off at Braeside and at Gretna and bought some clothes and mooched around. Cameron House is beautiful with wonderful views and you can just walk down to the lake. There is a pool so went for a swim before dinner. Very civilised.\nWe had just finished dinner when the waitress arrived with a cake with 4 candles and sang a rather wobbly happy Birthday. [sister?] had been very keen that we left the phone number of Cameron house, even though she had our mobile numbers. Now we know why!! Very pleasant surprise but we will never eat any cake let alone a whole one!!\nWhile we were strolling around after dinner came across the picture that one of our friends had used to decorate the kitchen with on Sunday. He had come across it somewhere in a book, and it looks vaguely like [wife] so he had put it up with Lady [wife] underneath! And here was the original or at least a print of the same picture. Weird.\nWeds\nAfter a very lazy start, a swim before breakfast, (Full Scottish!) . We walked up eastern edge of Loch in sunshine and showers. We were only caught out in one shower. There was a rainbow down to the Loch edge. A beautiful winter walk. I have decided I am going to walk the West Highland Way, with the boys. Had some fruit for lunch as cooked breakfast on top of dinner last night means I don’t really need to eat for a week!! Another swim, thought about the gym but I am on holiday and felt wonderfully relaxed, and then dinner.\nThursday\nAnother lazy start and swim before breakfast, a walk along the Loch, and the back to Glasgow to the Burrell Collection. We just wandered around the paintings. I can sit and look at the impressionists and keep seeing something new. They are very beautiful. Came back home in time for tea, though did not eat anything as too much food. Made up a ditty for the Nannies.\n\nNannies from Ireland came to stay\nSo [respondent] and [wife] could go away\nOff the children went to school \nWhile [respondent]  and [wife] swam in the pool\nThe Nannies were left with all the dust,\nCleaning dirt for their daily crust\nTheir experienced gleaned over all the years\nCould not stop all [other son]’s tears\n“ Off to school you must go\nSaid a stern faced Nanny Lo\nThe nannies go to TK Max\nForgetting all about the cats\nSomething is sick on the mat\nThe nannies really don’t like that\n“A M” L begs\n“Go and fetch all the eggs”\nOn animals they’re not too\nWhat did the contract really mean keen?\nThey will not give another day\nUntil something is done about their pay!\nSo back to Ireland with this tale\nThey do go via Cummersdale.\nAs their pay all disappears\nThey decide on new careers\nLois thinks of a racing car\nRuth just of going far.\nSo our thanks to them are due\nthe Nannies from Ireland crew\nIts now their turn to go and play\nTill they’re called another day. [edited to remove names in verse]\n\nFriday.\nBad hair Day.\nHaving come back all relaxed and cheerful I was relaxed until I missed my lunch.\nAfter working all day, plenty of hassle from one thing and another, I was then On Call at night, and it was very busy. \nLoch Lomond and Cameron House seem a long, long time ago\nI am extremely fed up. \nI do not want to calve another cow out side OFFICE HOURS ever again.\n\n\nSaturday.7th December\nWorked this morning after a bad night “On call” and felt like death warmed up.\nDid surgery and then sorted stuff out, and did some calls got finished at 1pm and went back to bed.\nWent to Xmas party at White Heather which was good fun but I was just too knackered to enjoy it. \nSunday \nWorking a few calls and plenty of pneumonia drugs for calves. There is a lot of pneumonia about with the East wind blowing, it is a wee bitty cruel wind but at least it is dry. Not weather to be working out side. It also seems to be getting dark really early. I need some sun on my back 4 weeks to go till India.\nHad a migraine or flu at night and went to bed, and started throwing up.\nI cannot burn the candle at one end even at the moment.\nMon\nOff work ill. But a new vet student starting and R is off as well Xmas shopping so thrown in at deep end.\nTuesday\nWent back in and did my bit. Working at night but night work easing off Thank goodness. Plenty of high cell count investigations to try and sort out.\nWeds\nTook kids swimming after work with the vet student it was good to do some exercise and chill out. Went to Staples prior to going to the pool where as usual there was no one on the desk for print cartridges. So I went and found one of the girls chatting on the till to get me what I was looking for as I couldn’t find an “HP58”. What I hadn’t noticed was some one else just standing at the other end of the long counter who was then very upset and aggressive that I had jumped the queue. He is obviously having a worse week than me. As he could have gone and got some one from the tills as easily as I did, but didn’t. So why he got so upset I don’t know. “Now’t as queer as folk”\n[other son] was very upset tonight when we got back from swimming because he had shaved one side of his head. [wife] had cut the others hair but his was still short and didn’t need it. He WANTED it done so in the shower took things into his own hands and shaved off his side burn, but only on one side!\nHe did not like getting laughed at either.\nThursday\nChristiana came to the rescue over the hair ([other son]’s) and has managed to make it look not too bad. But it was funny!!\nOn Call at night but as most nights seem double booked at the moment went to kids performance. They are doing Alice in Wonderland. Very good, they can really sing and perform. The teachers do get a lot out of them. Tim was the knave of hearts(Character actor) and [other son] was a frog footman grebbit, grebbit. It was good fun, only had a phone call to put a client at ease about her cat so managed to wing it.\nFriday\nOut at [friends] tonight. Kids younger 2 at performance older 2 are at xmas meal so a bit of a juggling act to get everyone at right place at right time!! Missed out on the Cumberland Vet Club social which was a shame but can only be in one place at a time\n \n\nSaturday 14th December\nHad a good meal out, except only started talking about the publicity for [..] as I was wanting to go and fall asleep some where. I cannot take late nights. It is just I am feeling too tired all the time. I think that the adrenalin has run out and I just feel stale. Hope Xmas sorts it out. Spent morning working. Did surgery and then sorted out queries with GG for the Accountant.\nSpent the afternoon writing cards and trying to put together lists of folk we should send too. A disaster, got as far as M before running out of cards and initiative.\nWent around to S’s for nibbles as a house warming. She is some caterer! Her mother does it as a job so she has helped so great food, could have done with some non-vets to dilute down the vetiness!!!\nSunday\nGot up and took kids to church\n[wife] is doing a thing on Borderline at night so she has to prepare that.\nPlayed football and caught up with a few bits and pieces and did some gardening.\nChatted to a vet from Chippenham who was complaining about the TB situation there. They have one beef farm where when they first discovered TB the farm took a week to test, as there were 600 head. There are only 200 left so it only takes a day. The farmer has been unable to but in store cattle to feed, and has lost over 100 to DEFRA. It has been 2 monthly testing for almost 2 years now and he still has not had a clear test.\nShe was down too, just from too much On Call.\nMonday\nGot up feeling exhausted, but even though not very busy couldn’t get going. \nThe dairy farms are all feeling very nervous over the Nestle pull out. “ farmers said to me that they were pleased that their sons are not going to be going into farming. Both teenagers, one A’s year and one a year older. Both looking to work in IT. It used to be a point of sadness that the next generation is not following on, but there seems to be a general air of resignation that farming is not going to be a good career.\nSad really.\nTuesday 17th December\nSpent the day sorting out the remaining bits and pieces for the Accountant.\nWe met with him at night, which as usual was the sorting out of this and that. The finding of the relevant pieces of paper and then what the unaccounted cheques were for!!\nWe are still making money but only thanks to DEFRA.  So three cheers for Mrs Beckett, cynic.\nIt made it a very long day and Lois is off for the week so we are short staffed again but last tests are today as we will not be able to get bloods to the labs because of the Christmas post. \nI do like this time of year where you hear from friends who you have not seen for ages, and think the same as you did last year, I will have to catch up with them soon. Hey ho.\nWeds 18th   \nThere is a lot of pneumonia about and the farmers are all buying vast quantities of drugs to treat whole batches of calves and stirks. The is the usual mix but far more than normal. I don’t know whether to be pleased that the practice is doing well, and invoicing a lot, or sad that there is so much disease around, and we will have a horrendous drugs bill.!! A dilemma I don’t think I should explore.\nThurs 19th  \nFri 20th\nKids went to ice rink in Carlisle with [wife]. They have set up an out door rink which the city council are sponsoring to attract people in to the centre. I don’t think that they really need to, as the place seems crowded enough as it is!! [son] bashed his head quite badly and [other son] fell over and hurt his knee. Tim fell loads of times and just ended up wet and happy!! Their different characters are coming out.\n\n\n Saturday.21st December\nThe beginning of the Christmas Rota!\nI feel as though we are in the run up to Christmas now. I have also made the mistake of not buying all my presents before now and went into Carlisle to go shopping. It was quite nice in some ways to see the Ice rink and mingle in the crowds…but an hour and a half was plenty!\nThe kids have decided that they are going to ask for money to take to India this year from the Aunts and Uncles and so there will be fewer presents to open. As Christmas seems to be getting more and more manic, and commercialised I think that it is a very good idea. Well done A and [son]\nSunday 22nd\nCarols by candlelight\nIt was magical, the church was packed out and so I ended up standing at the back. Which in some ways was quite nice as you look down the aisles to the stage and there are rows of candles and fairy lights down the sides. PM lead it and there were different age groups taking part. He spoke on being a Christmas tree and how we end up all convoluted by our own wrong choices, and how we can have lots of fairy lights and a star on top, and have an image on the outside  that looks wonderful. But what are we like inside all those things we surround ourselves with. God knows, and he cares, and he loves us enough to send a gift to help us. His son, Immanuel, God with us, who will take away the sin of the world. I was really quite moved by it all. This is the real Christmas.\nMon 23rd\nBUMP!! Reality bites back.\n It is difficult to focus on the important things of life, and keep a perspective on life, if it keeps getting interrupted by Monday Mornings! \nBut that is where Jesus should be, in the smelly cattle shed, and in the market place, and making a difference. I will have to think that one out while I have time in India. \nThe urgent as usual is pushing out the important\nManaged to go swimming at Foxes. The first exercise I have had for ages, must get back into it. Maybe wait for the new year resolutions, as exercise, wet weather and working over Christmas don’t really go together.\nTues 24th\nChristmas eve. Working but quiet apart from last minute panics as people think that their ill dogs and cats will not make it over Christmas with out seeing the vet.\nCalled in to Pow Heads for the turkey, they really do have a good butchery and poultry business going now. Good to see. Direct selling by farmers or Cooperatives is the only way forward to break the stranglehold of the supermarkets.\n[wife] is panicking about not having enough food so I am dispatched to buy more bread and milk. I think about protesting that if there were 5000, we still would not need a miracle but decide this is one of those occasions when it is better to just spend another 2 quid for the peace.\n[wife]’s parents arrive an hour later from Belfast, bringing 2 loaves of bread and 5 different types of Irish bread, and 6 pints of milk, and another 3 boxes of food. I wonder about making a joke about feeding the 5000 plus inflation but decide that discretion is the better part of valour and just put them in the freezer.!!\nWeds 25th\nKids started at 5:45 am and were unceremoniously sent back to bed.\nBut they were allowed to bring their stockings in at half past seven. I was on 2nd call so while they all went off to church I spent an hour in the surgery seeing dogs. One had meningitis and was very near death’s door and the owner was not that worried.  The other is just unwell and could have waited but the problem is you never know. Got back and made Christmas dinner. So wasn’t all work. Though I do feel amongst all the commercialism and turkey dinners, the true significance of Immanuel, God who is with us, is lost. \nThursday 26th \nOn first call and lots of pneumonia drugs to put out and kept busy. Afternoon/ evening we had folk around. Lots of different ages and backgrounds so was a real mix and good fun.\nFriday 27th \nSurgery reopened and was really busy, I am pleased that we had put plenty of staff on the rota. It is always a difficult balance to make. Trying to work out if there will be enough staff to cover the work. No one wants to work over Xmas/New year. But if there are not enough then it makes it really awful for those that are working. But if you have people sitting around they resent that too. But it’s nice to know I get it right sometimes. Doing a rota always strikes me as a no win situation, as it is always a compromise between the two extremes.\n\n\nSaturday 28th December\nOn call Friday night and then I finished at lunchtime. [wife] wanted me to go on church walk but I was knackered and we are all going out tonight for dinner, so I went to bed for a few hours sleep. ( Much to my wife’s displeasure.) Having been On call for the whole period, as soon as I stop, I crash out, as the adrenalin fades and I realise how tired I am. But only Mon am to work then prepare for India, and hitting the beach!\nIt does take its toll on family life being on call, especially over the Christmas period. The folk we are going to dinner with, he is a policeman and they have similar frictions.\nSun 29th \nThe service at church tonight was memorable. The last evening of the year they have people talking about what God has been doing in their lives. So it is usually people who are not eloquent, not used to speaking up front but who speak in a very real way about what Jesus has been working in their lives over the past year. DP who is 14 who has had bone cancer gave a very moving account about how he had nearly died.  How so often we compare our selves with those who have more than us, whether in health or other things. We should compare ourselves with those who have less. We should appreciate our lives, and thank God for who and what we are. He has had his ups and downs, but we are to follow God’s guiding and his path for us. Our lives are in God’s hands. We are to pray and to trust in him for our future. This is a young lad who has seen 4 of the friends he has made in hospital die. It makes the trivia we fill our lives with back in perspective.\nMon 30th\nLast half day and lots of last minute things to sort out before I finish for New Year and the 2 weeks in India. The cash flow has gone to pot because of the large amount of pneumonia drugs we have sold and tax/ vat going out in end of Jan. So needed to make sure someone keeps an eye on it while I am away and makes sure that it all falls into place. The problem with going away is that no one keeps up with all the admin type work that I do, so my In tray will be overflowing by the time I get back…. \nTues 31st \nThe Young people are partying at our house so we left them to it, rather than cramp their style. So we had a very pleasant evening at some farming friends. We rang up and called in on spec. They have 5 boys so we knew they wouldn’t want to get baby sitters for New Year’s Eve. Whereas we had about 40!! They have stopped dairying, but are now worried about how the new ruling will affect them. At the moment they lease their quota which provides a fair amount of income. The new German ruling will be applicable across the whole EEC that non producers cannot hold, and therefore lease quota. This means they will have to either sell it, in a flooded market or go back to dairy farming. Unless Mr P can work a way around the new system. \nThey are also taking advice and looking at all sorts of diversification schemes, some seem quite a good idea, others I think are non starters.\nThey already have invested some of the FMD money into setting up a student house in Carlisle. The way house prices are going around here it is probably a very good investment. Not really the way forward for farming though. \nThe only depressing feature of the evening was I asked what they thought the future of Cattle vets was, the answer was ”none”.\nWell that’s a good start to 2003.\nWe got home to find the party in full swing and we left them to it and went to bed.\n1st Jan 2003.\nGot up some what late after staying up for the New Years Eve. The young people had cleared up after the party and we were amazed at how well they had done. They had set off the dish washer and all we had to do was empty it. I was impressed. The only reminder they had been there was when we drew the curtains there were several glasses which had been missed, as they were on the window sill, and bizarrely an odd sock. The sock game my daughter assures me was very funny, but what I want to know is who went home with only one sock on!!!\nStarted thinking about India, a good job my wife is organised as we set off tomorrow.\n2nd Jan Thursday\nTravelled down to see my brother and family it was really good to see them again. Played RISK which was a bit of a Christmas tradition when we were kids. It was funny to be playing with him and both sets of kids, as I felt like a kid again. It was really nice though.  B won, he managed to wipe people out and amass their RISK cards. He risked everything and it went to the last throw of the dice, so it was quite exciting.\nFriday 3rd  Jan\n  Travelled down to my Dads to have tea and drop off some stuff before heading for the airport. I am pleased we have had a few days off before flying as it is a night flight and I hate travelling when I am already exhausted.\nThe weather was the usual British winter of rain and wind. A friend of mine is convinced that this is due to global warming, more energy in the system means more rain and wind!! In which case Cumbria is not going to be the place to live as it is already wet and windy enough!!\n\n\nThe next 2 weeks recall X’s family holiday to India:\n\n\nSat 4th January 2003\nI am sitting in the Nilgiri hills, in southern India in shorts and T shirt enjoying the coolness of the high altitude. It is almost twice the height of Ben Nevis. On BBC world last night it showed a reporter in London with an umbrella trying to keep off the large wet snowflakes!!\nWe are visiting friends who teach at a Christian School here.\nThe contrasts of India always seem so great. The poverty and the opulence side by side.\nThe beggars and the road repairers at the side of the road in make shift tents of plastic sheeting. And huts of bamboo leaves. Then the huge opulent houses, wooden floored and air conditioned with their own generators and the 4*  hotels with marbled floors and artificial streams and waterfalls.\nWe came on a cheap charter flight as it was cheaper to come  to Trivandrum on a flight and a package with hotel B&B, than to just buy the flights. The emphasis though should be on cheap. It is the first time I have ever had to pay for drinks on the plane! The air stewardesses seemed to be there for a good time rather than to look after the passengers. Can't complain though as it was cheap!\n\nThe only worry was the re routing. We were originally supposed to be going via United Arab emirates but the refuelling was transferred to Bahrein. As we flew in we were warned it was a military as well as civilian airport so no photography was allowed. The build up of US forces in the gulf must be pretty major as even here there were large numbers of US air force planes, and massive sinister looking helicopters. It is difficult to believe that they are aiming to keep the peace by preparing for war.\nThe papers here are also full of sabre rattling between Pakistan and India, with daily reports of skirmishes in Kashmir. There is also exchanges of political rhetoric between the two states. How much is actually for real and how much is sabre rattling no one knows.\nThe weekly Telegraph is also reporting that Iraq has shot down a reconnaissance drone. The same sort that blew up one of the El Quaedi leaders in Yemen. The US is obviously trying " Regime change" by several methods. The US response was to blow up several command and control facilities.  The war hasn't officially started yet but the skirmishes are going on. The cost the previous year for the RAF to patrol the no fly zone was $22 UK million , the last quarter was 10 times that. So there is money being spent.\nThe priorities of Govts is often difficult to work out. The Indian govt doesn't have enough money at the local level to organise a proper refuse collection system. Yet has money to develop hi tech weaponry!\nThe attitudes to rubbish here is very different. When we were at the beach, the actual beach is combed by litter pickers, but the areas in between are terrible. There are 2 smart 4* hotels and the govt buildings where the tourism training takes place. The grounds are immaculate and the flowers and area beautiful but once out side the grounds it is a cross between a rubbish dump and a building site with piles of rubbish and sand and rubble.\nWe went for a snorkelling trip around the coast to a fishing harbour  where the sea was calm and there were plenty of rocks for the fish to hide in, and swim in and out of.\nThe boats were a few bits of wood tied together with string. Seriously.\nThere were two central planks and two edge planks and then an aft piece of wood to hold the aft part together which was reinforced by cord. The  wood is so light that it floats with our weight fairly easily. The oars were split bamboo with no grips, so it made for interesting rowing or is it paddling? They are more like large Canadian canoes than boats. \nVery Hawaii five O. \nThe planks were roughly shaped but as we rode the waves the water fountained up through the holes in the bottom. H asked what wood they were made of but didn't understand the answer, must be a type of balsa.\n We set off  from under the light house, there was another group going at the same time. I think they must have agreed to pay top whack, whereas you\nsoon learn to try to bargain about the price of everything here. They had two helpers in the boat to paddle whereas we were the economy class with two paddles but only one guide in our two boats!! We took turns in helping to paddle, whether we made much difference to the progression of the boat I don 't know; but it was fun. It was a bit worrying that we were heading for the least scenic part of the coast.(The other way is beautiful sandy beaches for miles) \n\nThere is a wave powered generator at the edge of the harbour, a  few rusty wrecks and bits of broken concrete. But when we arrived the snorkelling was brilliant. It was like swimming in a tropical fish tank. My favourite were small electric blue fish which darted away as soon as you came near. There were big black and yellow striped tiger fish. There were 2 sorts one with vertical stripes and one with horizontal. Not at all timid.\nThe angel fish with their long dangling barbs were shy and would only appear when you kept still. There were some very large spiky sea anemones as big as a football. Loads of crabs and shoals of fish which swim hither and thither.\nSome were quite bizarre. There were some that looked like sea horses that had been straightened out. You almost could see a jockey getting a saddle ready to put on them for the Saltwater Derby. The huge variety and colours were just outstanding.\nWe spent a few hours and then got thoroughly sun burnt on the way back. The boys had been full of beans on the way there but were exhausted in the heat on the way back.\nWe spent today making and flying kites on top of a hill at Pykara. The kids(or was it the Dad's ?) made kites and then we tried to fly them. H's won. His design was copied from an original no stick design and managed to fly almost successfully. My traditional kite shaped one flew once but its aerodynamics weren't quite right. [son]'s yellow square was successful. None however matched the Ikea bought one. We played cricket and Frisbee as the water buffalos wandered passed in the typical Indian way of having no real boundaries between one thing and another. Called in at the Vedera's which was very pleasant. The garden was stunning as usual. I love driving through the tea plantations with acres of terraced tea plants and through the forest to get there.\n The hotel is an up market Indian rather than a western. Which is great for us. The décor lacks a little in taste and design. Concrete floors and that rather quaint unfinished look. Spotlessly clean, and the thing about India is they love having kids around and spend ages talking with them and love having them around. Going out for meals in UK with children is always a bit stressful, as low blood sugars combined with the general attitude of people to children does not make it a pleasant experience. Whereas even the hours wait for the food here is not stressful as the kids wander off, play games read books etc. [son] and [other son?] have befriended a man at the Blue Moon gift shop. He has spent hours playing chess and talking to them. [son] won a little elephant off him by beating him at chess. [son] decided he would buy Josh the chess set, and kept bargaining the price down. He eventually paid\n350 rupees for it. $4.60.\nThe beach is idyllic, with palm trees and warm rolling sea. The only problem is having to get the kids out of the sun during the red hot period between 12 and 2 . We do keep slapping on the sun tan lotion. I missed the widows peaks where my hair is receding and have sun burnt red patches either side of my head. The boys have variable tanning, depending on where the sun block was washed off first!\n\nDear [friends]\nJust a quick note to say that we are enjoying ourselves so much that we don't want to come home......But we would miss all our friends!!\nWe had a great time at the beach, you know the palm trees, the warm rolling sea, the sandy beaches and unlike Silloth 30 degrees warmth. In fact some days it was to hot, and we had to drag the boys out of the sea or else they would have been really sun burnt.\nWe are just back from 3 days at Avalanche, which is a bit of an unfortunate name for a mountain out door centre, but as there isn't any snow I don't think the Indians appreciate the irony.\nIt is up in the Mountains, a jungle area where there is very little apart from a few tea plantations, reservoirs and hydroelectric plants, and jungle and the wood men who harvest the wood every 10 years.\nWe left a bus and walked in to the centre, while a truck took the bags, food and the lazy ones. It is incredibly beautiful with high hills and lakes, but there is a drought at the moment so the  reservoirs are all very low. And everywhere is incredibly dry and dusty. Thick red dust, which gets in to everything. The facilities were basic. The water ran from a stream to a tank to the taps!! No electric, showers but fortunately as always in India there was a little man, or in fact 3 who cooked for us all.\nA is taking after [wife], their main concern was not meeting any rats!\nWe abseiled down a waterfall, walked and swam in another...well [son] and [other son] swam. I am afraid it was too cold for me. I will wait until we go back down to the beach. We all went kayaking, and sat around the campfire at night.\n\n\nSaturday.18th January 2003\nThe end of our Indian holiday and escape from Cumbrian weather!\n[wife] saw the rep yesterday and the bus was arranged for 12:30 for a flight at 5:30. This tour company is something else. So we are going to catch a taxi at about 3pm so we are not hanging around the airport for ages. Having 4 children and going through the bureaucracy of an Indian airport is bad enough with out the additional hassle of waiting around for 3 hours with out reason. The annoying part is that so much of it is pointless. In that they put your bags through the security x ray in the main hall  and then give you your bags back so that if you wanted to add stuff to your bag you could!!?? You have to go to 1 desk to check in, another to get your seat, another to exit Indian immigration and customs, and then identify your bags to get them put on the plane…\nWorse than DEFRA!! \nSo we spent a last morning swimming on the beach and then said good bye to the Cs and Gs. [wife] had to buy her material fro the study! \nWe were all quite sad coming away. I think we could have all stayed and enjoyed living in India but back to Porridge…\nSun 19th\nArrived at Dads at 3am UK time after clearing customs. Flight was not too crowded thank goodness as the space allocated for my legs is not enough!!\nThey had as before messed up their allocation of vegetarian meals. With the height of European ignorance and stupidity they offered a Hindu family by us a beef meal. The stewardesses should have known better, but I just cringed with inward embarrassment at their thoughtlessness. \nLeft in T shirts and shorts, arrived cold in jeans and fleeces. The air conditioning I don’t think was working properly and every one was coughing and dry mouthed as we arrived in Gatwick.\nDrove back up to Cumbria and back to the house. It was a strange sensation to be back, we had done so much and seemed changed, and yet everything here was still the same and yet not really. In some ways it is like after the FMD epidemic, before and after, everything is the same but nothing is the same. Part of you is trying to find where you fit in the new reality, part of you wants the safety of the old ways. Slightly dislocated from your surroundings, but the physical surroundings are the same, but I suppose you have changed, and the old certainties, that were not certain but seemed it, have made way for new changeable ways that are not certain and you know that they are not certain.\nMon 20th\nI have taken the day off to recover. The kids were all up really early because of the jet lag, and so had no qualms about sending them to school. \nI spent the day unpacking and sorting out with [wife]. \nThe pile of post was huge but seemed a lot more manageable by the time I had thrown out al the junk mail. Why do I need another 2 credit cards any way.  Transferred money for tax bills and downloaded the emails. There were only 50!! So ploughed my way through them. When you are away for any length of time it makes you realise how much work is required to keep a household going with all the bills and stuff.. \nTues 21st\nBack to work and to face my in tray. Still feeling a little jet lagged and seeing an overflowing In Tray  as you arrive is a daunting feeling. Did some of it and then went out On Call. It was good to be back on farm, and seeing folk again. It always amazes me how everyone around here knows everything. So they were all asking about India and had we had a good time. So it was nice to feel part of the community. As a friend of mine once commented “There is only one thing worse than being talked about, that is not being talked about.”\nThere is still that funny feeling of having been away, and having changed but nothing here is any different and yet thinking that it should be. Though why it should be I don’t know.\nWeds 22nd \nGeorge wanted a partners meeting at lunch time, so we met up and had the usual decision making process. To be honest the jet lag was still really kicking in so I was asleep on my feet. It doesn’t usually effect me for this long but both [wife] and I are shattered by 8pm. The kids are OK and going to bed after us. The sign of things to come.\nThe whole PETS travel scheme is causing problems. It has been presented as a passport for pets, but all it really does is allow re-entry to the UK from certain countries as long as you meet the conditions. We have had a few problems and we do very few. So what it must be like for those on the south coast I dread to think. The problems are 2 main ones. 1.That there is a 6 month period before you can come back into the UK after the paper work is completed. You can go before the 6 months, so people who spend the summer on a caravan site, will take their dog abroad, but cannot come back before the 6 month date. There is also a problem where the forms have to be renewed. It has to be done according to the manufactures directions, which vary from country to country. As in France it is a govt regulation that dogs are vaccinated annually so the vaccine manufactures stick to that. In the UK dogs have to be done every 2 years, cats annually. So you cannot have your documentation renewed in France unless you vaccinate annually. Whereas in the UK you can renew it with vaccinating every 2 years.\nThe other problem is that the paperwork is so complex that according to DEFRA’s figures there is a 18% failure rate. I.e. 1 in 6 don’t make it back in. There is also a problem in that there has been at least one dog imported into Cumbria with out any paperwork as the owners thought all they needed was a rabies vaccination. We are dealing with it on a weekly basis and are confused so the poor punters don’t stand a chance.\nThursday 23rd\nThere is a real problem with cow fertility in the restocking farms at the moment. I went to 1 farm where of the 10 cows I checked only one was in calf. Which is a little sad. No baby calves, no milk production and more losses for the FMD farmers. The compensation is looking very small. The only ones  who benefited are those who took the money and got out.\nIt is difficult trying to work out why these cows are having so much of a problem. As usual I suspect there is no simple answer. The blood tests and analyses do not help much. The cows have been under a lot of stress. The movement into new regimes and cattle systems where they have to learn where to go, where the water troughs are, where the milking parlour is. They have had to sort out the pecking order of the cows, which  espy in the larger units is probably quite stressful. Where you add animals to a herd there are lead cows who know the set up and cows are very much follow my leader in their behaviour patterns. Where there is a complete cull and restocking there are no lead cows so no leader for the cows to follow.\nThere has also been a lot of illness in the herds which again will reduce fertility. The other problem is the poor quality silage because of the bad weather. The other factor that keeps coming up in conversation is what effect the topping of grass has on silage/grazing quality which would have been an interesting study that will never be done now.\nStress is a generality of a word but I can’t think of a better more specific way of expressing the problems. The “stress” of all the changes has caused fertility problems. The difficulty is in finding where do you go from here. I think a lot will end up culling fairly large numbers 15-20% because of fertility.\nFriday 24th \nOne of the DEFRA TV’s called in on her way back from a test(TB) to let us know that there was still an IR causing problems. She also said that it looked like there was going to be a complete herd cull for TB in the east of the county. The farmer had restocked from three sources. All were down to do as tracings as well as to be done under the restocking TB testing. They found 32 reactors with lesions so they will probably cull the whole herd. It is so depressing. To think what the farmer must be thinking and whether he can face getting back into farming again after this further disaster does not bear thinking about.\n\n**\nSaturday 25th January 2003\nLinda B’s wedding!!!\nTravelled down to Derby for wedding. It was really nice to see them finally tie the knot as they have been talking about it for so long. They have followed each other around several continents so at least that will have seen each other in different situations. [she] first came as a student and has worked for us as  a locum. She spent 2 years at All Nations Bible College in London, where she met [him]. So a lot of their friends from All Nations were there. [they]  have been doing agricultural relief work in the worlds hot spots. From Kosovo to Indonesia, from Haiti to Bolivia. They are currently in Bolivia working with church groups. [she] has been setting up Tb testing programme as there is a problem of human TB, which has been blamed on the cattle. But they have completed the testing and it is not the cattle. It seems to be nearly all human to human spread so that at least they can make a start on eradicating TB in humans by treating the in contacts.\nThey went away from the church in a horse drawn carriage which was nice to see. Spent quite a lot of time catching up with vets and their friends who we have not seen for ages.\nSun 26th\nWe were staying with friends from Carlisle who moved down to Derbyshire when he started to teach. We went to their church which is a “house church” and is a little different to put it mildly. They meet in a school, and it is very informal with a drumming band and a desire not to be restricted by convention or liturgy! So it was a mixture of readings and worship songs. They do seem to be reaching out to their local community as there were people from all walks of life there.\nMon 27th \nBack to work and not feeling very good had 2 weeks in India and no stomach bugs but a w/e in Derby and I have a very runny tummy. Came home from work early and went to bed.\nTues 28th\nOff work Ill in bed, being male this involves dying noisily in a corner. Some sympathy I get from my wife!!! \nWeds 29th\nNot feeling good but dragged myself back in as I have had that much time off recently and I feel that I have to turn in. But I am off tomorrow so I can recover then, the only drawback is that I will be working the w/e. The sheep  seem to have decided to start lambing or maybe decided not as we seem to be seeing a few if you get what I mean\nThursday\nHad a good day off and spent time sleeping and doing household things. Even though I hate DIY it was good to get some jobs sorted.\nCalled in at vets to pick up stuff for court tomorrow.\nFriday\nThe more I experience the legal proceedings the more I feel that they are a waste of time. What is important is how good your lawyer is. The case was all about whether or not this guy had starved his greyhounds or not. He had, but as he was on legal aid he thought it might be better to try to keep his other dogs. And have fewer judgements against him. He obviously knew his way around the legal system.\n\n\nSaturday 1st Feb 2003\nReflections on Court case\nIt is one of those really annoying things that you can never replay what has happened.\nThe case yesterday really churned me up with having to make huge moral decisions more or less on the spur of the moment. \nThe complicating factors were that C who was acting on the defence was acting outside the RCVS guidelines. Now I could have pointed out this to the RSPCA lawyer, but as C has already been struck off once the matter could well have turned very badly for him. Even though it is his decision to get involved and a poor one. Then I think that it is not for me to land him in the muck, I could have done so both on the fact he should not have been speaking and also that I could have pointed out that his record is tainted. Why he was being an expert witness in the first place for some one who is not even their client beadsmen (? Beats me)\n. I had reservations about doing the legal work for the RSPCA, and at least we do quite a lot of work for the local inspector.\nSo I decided not to trash C as a witness as I thought that it was not my place to do so, and secondly the repercussions for local vet good will would not stand me in good stead. But I have my doubts as to whether I did the correct thing. There is no right and wrong. The dilemmas are there because you to choose which horn you want to get impaled on.\nSun+\nLambing seems to have started with a vengeance spent most of the morning at the surgery, with land rovers and trailers turning up one after another. With sheep lambing or having peri-natal problems. I do like working out of the surgery at the w/e, as there is far less driving and working is so much easier and you don’t have to keep getting changed in and out of protective clothes.\nSo got two vets work done by just keeping on asking for them to come to the surgery. The farmers don’t mind either as they generally have to put them in a pick up to bring them back to the farm from the field so it is as easy to drive on to the vets rather than hang around waiting for them.\nMon\n Went TT testing at P’s [farm]. I used  his son a fair bit during FMD as they went out early on and he always has done a fair amount of contracting on the various farms. He also has a very happy go lucky style in contrast to his Dad who is a bit of a worrier. I quite enjoyed the banter and we could just work away as there is no pressure too get finished, as the numbers are not great.  \n Tues\n Went to O’s where they are again having problems getting the cows in calf. The levels of infertility in the restocking herds are horrendous. The sad thing is we seem to be achieving very little in actually improving it. In spite of a lot of investigations and spending money on vaccine and on supplements.\nThe average loss must be 5% at least. It would be interesting to compare the culling rates of the restocking farms. And find out what the restocking losses actually are.\nWeds\nTook the new vet student with me today and let her do the first lambing. At R’s. They like everyone else says they are getting a lot of lambs. These were dead and all tangled up and aborting so they could not get them out. They had quads last night.\nThursday\nWent to S and stitched a teat. This is now a fairly easy operation with the advent of using open crushes and decent epidural anaesthesia. Local is always fairly iffy as many a dentists patient will testify to. It is very satisfying to fix something like that.\nFriday\nSpent the morning  doing certs. These are OTM22 certificates which were brought in by MAFF to compensate the farmer for cows that would have been sold for human consumption before the OTM scheme banned them from human consumption. If an animal is not fit to travel then it can be shot on the farm, but to get the compensation they need a vet’s cert to say that it is fit for human consumption, so it can be burnt on the scheme. If it is not fit then they have to pay to have it taken away. So there is a lot of pressure to sign them.\nThe scheme is supposed to be coming to an end this summer but as yet no markets exist for the casualty animals that are fir for human consumption. The whole knackery/ injured animals/ burying of animals scheme is up for grabs and the govt needs to get some sort of scheme up and running. But the govt thinks, maybe rightly that it is an industry problem to get rid of its own waste and it is not up to the taxpayer to get farmers waste problems sorted. Leave it up to the industry/ market to sort it.\nThere is also a suggestion that as TB is not an important zoonosis in the UK anymore then it is a production problem and it should go the same way as sheep scab and be taken off the notifiable disease list and individual farms have to ensure they meet whatever standard that the buyers want to specify. Which is what is happening to a small extent in the dairy industry with buyers specifying farms must meet certain criteria.  \n\n\nSaturday 8th  Feb 2003\n[wife] is on her course for the w/e so I was doing the run around to squash and football for [sons].\nMon 10th\nB is now renting all the land @ Bush Ghyll head. He has taken it over as a grass letting. Another of the small farms is disappearing. The reality is it has only ever been a small holding but they use to milk 20 odd cows which meant it got the status of a farm on our computer system. The Uncle who use to run it when first arrived was a real character. He was always telling you about when farmers made money after the war. A dozen eggs was 10 shilling. None of your 50ps 10 whole shillings. You could take a girl to the cinema and the Lyons Café and still have change from a pound. Even his free range hens eggs would not buy a cinema ticket for one these days. He should of taken her as he ended up as a bachelor with his nephew taking over the farm.\nTuesday 11th\nThe partners meeting today was trying to address the fact that the mark up on fees is going to be eroded. One of the things that Barnard Castle are doing is putting on their bills, but as yet not charging for things like “Telephone advice” and “Out of hours”. So we are going to be doing the same to try to get across the point that we are providing an all round service that needs to be paid for. But I still think at the end of the day the economics will win. If you cannot provide a service at a profit, you cannot provide a service. So where does that leave us??\nWeds\nHarrison’s are having problems with fertility. Who isn’t? The blood results are showing low levels of copper but I am not convinced that is what it is.\nThey will have to supplement the feed by adding more copper to the feed. The problem with all these investigations is that we are looking for a simple answer when the actual problem is multi factorial. The cows may be short in copper but they are not that low that it is really effecting them. I often wonder with humans if you blood sampled them for lots of different minerals would we find that a percentage of the population is actually below normal for some or several minerals? Maybe our omnivorous diet and the fact we are not producing huge amounts of milk probably does come in to it. We do have a much more varied diet. Most cows are now on complete rations here in the UK so that if the Nutritionist gets it slightly wrong then you will find that the cows will be short. I suppose the other thing that we do always forget is that they are usually working off either a single or 3-4 samples of silage so that there will be a spread of what is actually in the silage and the samples may or may not reflect it.\nThursday\nOn call tonight, and busy which was OK. R was up helping at\nWH house. One of his suckler calves had managed to prolapse its rectum. But it is as wild as thunder so we were all very careful about handling it. I had to dope it any way to operate. But when we put it back it was jumping up the walls which is always a wee bit disconcerting. Limousin stirks could be used for the grand national. D’s brother is not very well at all now. He has cancer and went in for emergency surgery the day I shot all the cows. I had a big row with senior staff at Page St. He had been admitted to the hospital at 2am and was to undergo emergency surgery. That afternoon. I did not want it put on the web site as they were announcing them on Radio Cumbria. I did not want him to be going down for the surgery or just coming out of it and to find out from the radio that I was shooting all his cows. I asked them to put an embargo on it. Of course the vets tried not to let it go out but it did and I was really angry. I wrote some strongly worded letters and never even got a reply. I should have followed it up and held some one to account but I am afraid it all got lost in the passing of time.\nAt least R is a lot better; he had meningitis around the time of FMD. He has had bad heads and depression ever since so, it was good that he is back on farms and has started fencing again.\nFri 14th Valentines\n It is [friend]’s Birthday so we all went around to her house for dinner which was really nice and ended playing darts with the kids. I was pleased to get some darts in the board, as it is a long long time since I have played.\n\n\nSaturday 15th February 2003  \n[son’s] birthday. My little baby son is now 8 years old. It is hard to believe where the time has gone and all the water that has passed under the bridge. \nWent around to [friend’s] at night and sat and eat and put the world to rights. It is good every now and again to wind down and just enjoy talking with out having to think as we know them so well you can just come out with stuff.\nSunday\nMon 17th\nSpent the day TB testing at DL where they have had a NVL. (No visible lesions Reactor) taken. [colleague] did the first test and we are not doing the fat stock on farms that have restocked as they will be going for slaughter fairly soon. So it is deemed pointless and really it is. So spent the day putting big bullocks through the crush and it is a dangerous work for the men who go in amongst  them because they are very rarely handled and so don’t take to it very well.\nTuesday\nHad an interesting lambing today. And a consequence of FMD that you forget about. There is an inherited genetic condition of Suffolk’s called Dandy-walker syndrome causing hydrocephalus in the lambs. So both the ewe and tup must carry the gene to produce the deformed lambs with heads too large to get through the mothers pelvis. So it means doing a caesarean on a ewe that can only be used to breed fat lambs from. It has to be put to another breed next year. This years lambs are dead/ going to die. So the economics are useless. Some breeders just shoot them at this point. But he had called us to try to lamb it or caesaer it. As she was a big ewe I eventually managed to lamb it. \nHe was saying though that it takes time to work out whether the stock you have bought will produce the breeding stock that you want. You have to try the different combinations that you have to work out which lines work well together. He reckons on about 4-8 years before he will be back to breeding decent Suffolk sheep in spite of buying in good stock. There is more to breeding than meets the eye.\nWednesday\nRB had a stirk with MCF. Malignant Catarhal Fever. It is a viral disease which is quite often fatal that they catch from sheep. But they have really blue grey eyes from the change in the fluid in the eye and the severe iritis. It must be incredibly painful for them. \nThursday\nDixons TT2 is now clear so they have to have them all tested again in 42 days to clear the farm of restrictions. Un fortunately the vet from the ministry said it would be from the day the cow is taken not today so the whole thing is getting a bit complicated and JD is getting wound up. Understandably so.\nFriday\nTried to sort out some of the Tracings that we are supposed to be doing. There are a lot coming through but the quality of the info is very poor. Tracings are where the farm has sold animals and then subsequently gone down with TB or other notifiable disease. The DEFRA paper chase is so bad that ear tag nos are wrong or a farmer has bought several from the same source and only 1-2 are on the paper work from DEFRA. The thing seems to be falling apart a bit. \nWent and did a single animal up at the mill. He usually buys in stores and fattens them. But As the store trade has gone through the roof he has sold a lot of them on to let some one else fatten or if heifers breed from them. The DEFRA files have him as a fattening unit/ finisher so that they hadn’t bothered to do tracings to him as they would be going for slaughter. But of course he had sold one on that had gone down with TB so they wanted to know what was happening with these now.\n\n\n\nSaturday 22nd February 2003\nSaturday\nSunday\nMonday\nTuesday\nHad a funny sensation to day. I suppose it was almost a flash back in some ways. I went to a farm who has fancy pedigree sheep. He has rented land and wanted them added to his holding for the MV Scheme so he needs a Vet Inspection to say that the fields are double fenced so that the sheep do not come in contact to any others. This inspection of fields is pretty meaningless as they know what needs to be done and so they are always up to scratch. The last time I was doing it was for FMD. \nWednesday\nThursday\nFriday\nPacked and got the last few things sorted for the VCF w/e. Got the posters printed and the display boards together, and set off down the motorway to pick up [friend] and spent most of the day travelling it was good talking to him. He retired from practice just before FMD and then spent the first part of his retirement working for DEFRA on the FMD. First at Preston and then at Settle. It seems they were better organised at Preston and he was quite positive about the local teams. I sometimes wonder if I am sill too close to it all and to emotional to take a clear-headed look at what it was really like. It was good to see [friends] at night and get set up for the w/e.\n\n\nSat 1st March (+ Sun) 2003\n\nVCF w/e\nIt is difficult for me to sum up the w/e as I was so much in it and part of it. \nSo I have copied the report from one of the students who wrote a bit for the VCF Magazine.\nVCF Triennial Conference - 28th Feb-2nd March 2003\n \nOn a sunny weekend at the beginning of March, over 70 vets, vet students and families bravely took time out of their busy schedules and gathered expectantly at The Hayes conference centre in Derbyshire for the 2003 VCF conference. We were a mixed bunch, ranging in age from 2 months to 70 (well, nearly), from many different places, denominations and walks of veterinary life, but we all had a common goal in mind: to unite in our desire to love and serve the Lord Jesus Christ in the vocation to which He has called us and to encourage one another to be "salt and light" in the veterinary world.\n Our distinguished speaker for the weekend was Dr. L, a consultant psychiatrist and Christian who drew from his own experience to bring us some thoughtful insights on the subject of "God at Work". He emphasised the fact that although work is a godly activity and that we should view whatever we do "as if working for the Lord" (Colossians 3:18) it must not be forgotten that a balance must be achieved between work, church, family life etc. There was also an opportunity to discuss how we would respond as Christians to a variety of ethical decisions that commonly present themselves in veterinary practice.\n As well as the main talks there was the opportunity to join a variety of seminars on relevant practical subjects. BT, a vet and long-serving missionary in Thailand with OMF, led a most interesting seminar on the joys and challenges of both veterinary and evangelistic work in a different culture. Students and new graduates were well provided for in seminars on "practicing reality" - living out one's faith in the university or veterinary practice environment. M C bravely stepped in at short notice to lead a seminar on business ethics, and vcf secretary generated some thought-provoking discussion on a very relevant subject for many - singleness. \n It was not all work and no play, however, and we were much obliged to the Scottish students for organising the Saturday night ceilidh. Much fun was had by all.\nSo, we all parted company on Sunday feeling refreshed and well-fed both physically and spiritually. How encouraging to be reminded that you are not the only Christian vet out there, and that there are many others who grapple with the same issues you face. The weekend was a time of friendships rekindled and hopefully new ones made, a time of strengthening and a reminder of what is ultimately the most important thing in our busy lives.\n\n\nLeading the seminar on business ethics, or rather winging it was very stressful but very good. Which was very interesting and very challenging. The questions about is it right to make a profit were espy good to work through, but it was incredibly draining. By Sun night I was exhausted drove back to [friend’s] for the night. He live about 20 mins off motorway and it was coming through one of the wee villages I was flashed by a camera and so will have a fine and a speeding ticket to sort out.\nMon\nHad a really nice lie in and then went for a walk with [friend] around from his house across the fields. It was beautiful. Then set off for Preston to visit the friend who is in prison. The road was closed on the way to the M6 so took me ages to find my way to the M6 and then after coming off at Preston to find the way to the prisons. The whole afternoon was very depressing. There is something very intimidating about having to be “processed” for the visit under security cameras and by very polite but uncaring prison officers. The being searched and going past sniffer dogs, and having to give my finger prints which are now on the police computers. [prisoner] was OK but fairly depressed about the outlook. Even now he is worried about how he is going to cope when he comes out. The prison regime is very oppressive, and after being there for an hour and a half I was glad to be going. It is also a bizarre situation where you have to sit there and talk for that length of time. There is also a lot of stuff that he wants to know about the kids. And you just can’t help him. Most of what we know is hearsay and not first and so difficult to sum up. Espy as some of it is not good. They are not coping with the whole situation, and it is basically his fault, or his and their mothers, so he is already feeling guilty enough with out giving him more angst to cope with. But I was very glad to be coming out again into the fresh air.\nSpent the evening at A’s parents evening challenging senior management and giving them a hard time. So quite a day.\nTuesday\nAs usual the disasters after a w/e away continue the new bathroom was totally flooded from a leaking pipe. I felt like wringing his neck. He is the plumber.  The water was flowing back through the old kitchen and made a real mess.  Managed to get hold of him after leaving more and more urgent phone messages at all his answer phones. He has a mobile, a telephone at his flat where he hardly ever is, and at his girlfriends. So the water was off most of the day until he found the leak and managed to fix it. Again he had to smash tiles and cut holes in the wall to fix it and the place looked a mess. But boy o boy am I fed up with that stupid bathroom. \nWent into work to find no one had done the stuff I had left to be done, and work was really busy. The speeding ticket had landed already, why are other govt depts not as efficient?. So spent the whole day until 6pm running around like a headless chicken and then decided that stuff it: I was going to the gym for the circuits class.\nWeds\nThe disasters continued, with the washing machine giving up the ghost. Which in a house with 3 boys and a vet is a pretty serious problem.\nI also had an argument with one of the other partners saying that if we did not get another vet we would have a rebellion or people going off sick through stress. Me being one of them and I have only been back 2 days. Still haven’t managed to read all of the stuff in my in tray yet let alone deal with it.\nThursday\nFinally convinced [senior colleague?] we needed some help as the Ministry got hold of him and asked if we could do a tracings herd test urgently on one of farms that has not restocked. (The cattle belong to some one else). He then looked at the book and decided we could not. ! Idiot I told him weeks ago, last September I think that this would happen. So spent the day sorting out DC to come. In between vetting. He is not an LVI so have had to pull some wool, and sweet talk them into training him in the baffling ways of DEFRA. But that meant I still have yet to reach the bottom of my in tray. May be there is gold buried at the bottom. \nI think this is one of those days when you look back were probably quite decisive, but accidental days. \nThis was the first time I really thought that I was about to be killed. I could see it happening and there was nothing I could have done differently to prevent it.\nI went on a calving after work about 8pm.\nMet up with the farmers and One went to get water. While the other and I walked into the box to where the cow was. The cow gave me a funny look and I backed off, to behind a pillar in the pen. “ Oh its OK it’s a quiet cow, she’s had 8 calves.” He said. Next time I will listen to my instincts.\nSo we went forward to where she was. Without warning, or snorting or given it a second thought she charged, caught me under the ribs with her head and threw me to the ground. Before I could react she butted me again in the head, snorted kicked me, and then backed off as the farmer started kicking and hitting her. She then came again, bashed me into the corner on my back and kept coming. As her head flew at me I grabbed her nose and swung myself around on her nose. Kicked her with both feet taking all my weight on the one hand while shouting for help from the other guys. One came back with a pitchfork. As I was on the ground I kicked her again. As they came with the fork and let go and scrambled away around the box she still came after me, but I got to the gate past the two brothers who thumped her again and then backed off and slammed the gate shut. I lay in a heap on a bale for 10 minutes breathing heavily, while they asked did I need an ambulance or Doctor. I finally came to enough to splash water on my face and think  that there must be an easier way to make a living!! It took all 4 brothers armed with sticks to get her into a crush where I then managed to calve 1 dead twin breach and 1 live twin (just). In her defence the cow had been calving for a while was in pain and had probably just got herself really wound up. But she almost killed me. I then sat having strong tea for quarter of an hour before summoning up the courage to drive home. With hind sight, I should have taken up there offer of a) Getting some one else out to calve the cow. But the girl on 2nd was 5ft nothing and petite, and didn’t think dumping it on her was very fair. The adrenaline was still flowing so I just kept on. b) I should however have let one of them drive me home or probably to casualty. But I felt they would not do anything at the hospital except keep an eye on me. So I just went home to my own bed and asked my wife to wake me up every two hours.\nFriday\nIll with head spinning. Every time I sit down to try and do something my head just goes around. And I feel really tired and jet lagged.\nI think I prefer India to being beaten up by cows. Time for a new job.\nSlept all afternoon, but had friends for dinner it had been arrange months ago so [wife] didn’t cancel, and I kept going but drifted in and out a wee bit!\n\n\nSaturday 8th March\nHad a lie in to 9 o clock Yo!!! Still feeling pretty sore but at least my head is one piece I think!! Showed flat to prospective tenants.\n It is very rare that we don’t have to get up for sthg when we are  at home either for work or for Football/squash or something similar. There is another squash competition but they are both later starts for our boys, which is great.\nTook [son] to football and [wife] phoned up to say that the Cs were going to watch the Lord of the rings did I want to go. So went to watch it and swapped younger kids with [wife] taking [son] and their youngsters and I went with the Cs. There are times when mobile phones are really useful to get things arranged. \nThe film was really good but boy was I stiff after sitting down for that length of time. My knee was giving me real gyp.\nSpent evening at Daubes but I faded so [wife] drove home and went to bed.\nSunday 9th\nWent to church in morning and picked up car. [friends] came to lunch which was really good to see them. But as A points out pointedly, they do have 5 boys. So there were 8 kids flying around but I did enjoy seeing them. They are still trying to sort out their diversification plans and hope to have several strings to their bows as well as farming. There is a teachers position at Nelson Thom so that is probably the most reliable form of income for [friend].\nMon 10th\nWent to work but every time I bend over or move to fast my head spins, so just did small animals. I think cats and dogs are a much better idea. But a lot of sympathy from folk at work. Mr H had been in and obviously given a fairly graphic description of what had happened.\nThat and my face is not the most becoming at the moment.\nTues 11th \nBack to work on the farms. I was at Rs for a fertility visit. Even though I know his cows and I am happy with them I did feel very nervous about going any where near them. I have lost a lot of confidence which although I expected it I am still a bit wound up about it.\nThe rest of day was OK, apart from several people whingeing about the current paper work requirements for selling cattle. Mind you when you see what they need to sell a few bullocks or a geld cow, it is probably easier to be an asylum seeker.\nSpent evening at Surgery showing D the ropes. He is the locum who is going to be working with us for the next few weeks. He is going to the ministry at Newcastle tomorrow to do his LVI training. At least that means he can do some of the TB testing and at least give us a break from that. It is these sort of things, managing staff, showing people the ropes, giving them back up and debriefing them that latkes huge amounts of time and energy and yet is never seen as “work” or relevant by a lot of people(The rest of the partnership) and yet in any small business it is the people that make all the difference and if they feel appreciated and supported, and can debrief and be reassured then it makes such a difference to them. And happy staff can deal with situations and people a lot better and easier than stressed ones!!\nWeds 12th\nNext year I am NOT going it is definitely some one else’s turn.\nI speak of the annual training (????) day for senior LVIs. It just drives me up the wall. The morning was spent fairly usefully talking about contingency planning for the next FMD or exotic disease epidemic. The Page St planners seemed fairly well clued in and taking on board a lot of the ideas and problems that had been seen in 2001.\nThe afternoon was then totally depressing.\nTB is now endemic in the south of the county, there was a deer herd that had animals dying and so took them to the VIC lab at Penrith to find out why they had these animals losing weight and dying. They had TB. The ministry had known that there had been reactors all around that area but had never picked up on the fact these deer were here and should have been tested.\nThere were also complaints that forward tracings were not being done on some cattle. To which the Vety Officer giving the talk said it was quite difficult to work out where cattle had gone. This was met with some incredulity by the local vets as the paperwork and computerised passport scheme surely means that “trace-ability” was one of the BIG issues to do with BSE, and if it cannot be done it means the whole thing is a useless sham.\nWell the answer is that you can trace a specific animal through markets and holdings but not animals on and off a holding.\nSo tracings are taking too much time.\nSo it is not getting done so TB is spreading.\nIDIOTS\n\nThe best systems, the best tools, the best ideas, the best businesses have to work through people.\nSo next year some one else can go and listen to the plans in the sky.\nThis was the meeting where we had an excellent talk on FMD in Feb 2000. Just a pity they did not listen to their own experts.\nThere was also a talk on the new Scrapie scheme where the guy speaking knew less than his audience???  Why???\nI have to go back to the speaker at the VCF w/e who said that when he came out of Medical school he Had spent 6 years being taught to be rational and scientific, where disease was discussed logically and a rational conclusion was sought. He came with the same idea to the National Health Service and struggled. He said”.. we live in a fallen world with fallen institutions, and we have to accept that at times they do not make sense, and that it is not in our power or capabilities to change them. Where we can we change them where we cannot we work within them” \nThursday 13th\nDay off prior to working w/e. \nWent up high Pike with [friend]. Snowed lightly on tops but beautiful, but a wee bit chilly. \nSpent the afternoon getting the stuff sorted for VCF magazine and answering e-mails and putting the details from the w/e in to some sort of order. I was trying also to put some responses down for yesterday but feeling to angry to risk putting it down on paper. I just hope the govt is more in touch with the armed forces on the frontline in Kuwait, than the distant arm of govt in State Vet Service in Cumbria.\nFriday 14th\nAnother day, another test, another dollar.\nSpent morning supervising the locum and trying to get on top of my in tray. The stuff for partners meeting next week to try and get some decisions. And a w/e on call looms when I feel even though I have not been in work or worked too many w/e’s tired and jaded. Being beaten up by the cow probably doesn’t help.\n\n\nSaturday 15th March\n Working the w/e on first for the first time in a long time as I have been keeping the amount I am working back. I am was way ahead in the amount worked so it brings the numbers in line. \nI also need a break as feeling v. tired and fed up. And with not much prospect of rejuvenation. \nThe morning was fairly busy but we all finished by 12 so not that bad. It was funny as Julie who ahs been a receptionist since pre FMD said that she thought it was really busy, but compared to the good old days of  8 years ago, you thought it was a good Sat am if you finished by 2!! So it is surprising how things change and you get use to them.\nThe weather is beautiful with clear skies and frosty spring mornings and dry! The good weather always makes you feel better any way.\nSpent afternoon doing bits and pieces in garden and jobbing around.\nSunday 16th\nBusy in morning but it shows how useful the new building is OK I know its 4 years old but things have never been normal and I still see it as new. There were 2 lambings and a sheep to see and drugs to put out, and because I was at the surgery they just kept on coming down to the surgery to the large animal bay so I did a lot of “work” with no driving and it makes such a difference. What would have taken 3-4 hours was finished in an hour and a half!!\nMissed church and did the same at night with more lambings the sheep are back.\nThe afternoon was spent sorting out after boys.\nThey went down to the pond and because it is all churned up they got their wellies stuck in the mud. So they were cold and wet and covered!! I had to use planks to walk out to them so I did not sink in. I made the mistake of fetching the planks and the spades back before sorting the boys so they had trailed mud all around the house!!!\nGrrrrr….\nBut I should have taken photos.\nIn the midst of this the new vet student Rachael turned up so I could not give full vent to my annoyance!!\nMon 17th\nChaos at work with loads of emergencies and testing so we were all glad of students and D working. More I/R’s found TB testing so it looks like it will continue.\nStill haven’t found time to put pen to paper or type writer to  send a letter to Contingency planning group at DEFRA. But hopefully will get on top of it soon.\nTues 18th\nSome days I should have stayed in bed. A bad hair day!! \nStarted off badly with arriving at fertility visit as farmer was emerging from breakfast having been late as his wife was milk recording and he had to calve a cow. So had to sort cows before checking to see in calf. A very rotten lambing. Rotten as in lambs were disintegrating so stank and then more calls. Left for lunch at 12:45 to get half way and the called me back for another lambing. There were 1:30 calls to do and then surgery. Worked at night and I was fed up of being On call stopping me doing stuff so went to gym and was bleeped out to speak to folk 4 times. By now really wound up so went to house group and sat down, chatted and phone went. Sorted that and then a cow caesarean. This was followed by 2 more and 3 hours sleep.\nMust be an easier way to make a living.\nWeds 19th\nFeeling my age, no sleep on the night before you 40th birthday does not do you any good. Missed seeing kids in morning as I was out at caesar. 3 during night On Call.\nThe girls at work had got hold of loads of photos (From my wife) so they were all around the practice. Well I was a cute teenager!!!\nWorked through to lunch as morning was busy and partners meeting.\nThen did a 1:30 AND WENT HOME FOR SLEEP.\nOpened presents with kids at 4 o’clock and went out to D’s for meal at night was good.\nThurs 20th\nReally quiet as no TB testing and lots of vets. Did more lambings and caught up on business side of organisation. Doing rota and organising work.\nReflected on partners meeting and tried to work out whether I am out of sync with the rest of the world and right or out of sync and wrong. Time will tell.\nIraq war started as predicted but seems to have been an opportunistic target i e Saddam himself rather than all out assault. Weird but that is politics. I must ask the history teachers about what caused the failure of the League of Nations, and whether this is going to be similar for UN.\nFri 21st\nDespite being on back up went out for a meal. It was the coffee morning’s xmas bash that is traditionally now held in new year as there is too much else on during Xmas period. Spent quite a while talking to MS about League of Nations and the UN. He is fairly sceptical about the power and influence of UN. Which in his view is more often than not used as a fig leaf for US or USSR ambitions, and is not really the “International Community”. He was interesting to talk to about the history of Iraq.\nPlayed pictionary boys vs. girls which was fun.\n\n\n\n\nSaturday 22nd  March 2003\n Worked am which was very busy. As it was my 10th day I was feeling a bit drained. Either that or cos of out for meal last night. I will let you decide!! \nThe beautiful weather is continuing, and we went for a lovely walk up above Fellside. The kids loved playing in the streams and the sunshine, which for March is amazing.\nCame back to find that there was a house full of folk to celebrate my 40th birthday which was really nice. Though it was a good thing that the weather was good so the kids could play out side as there were lots of them. Chatted to P, who is always full of energy and enthusiasm. He is a whirlwind of ideas and concepts and philosophy. One of the few people who I can sit and listen to, for hours and hours. He is intelligent and articulate (In 7 languages), and yet always ready to listen to anyone and hear what they have to say, even if it is poorly thought out. And very practical in his approach, and very un materialistic. He is quite happy to give books and ideas to anyone who will read and learn from them.\nSunday 23rd\nThis weather is amazing I still cannot get over it with the Sun blazing down we went to watch [son] play football against Silloth. They won 2-0 . But it was a tight match but very good to watch. Much better than Carlisle, as one spectators put it. Went on to Beckfoot for a picnic, in March??!! The beach was deserted and yet it was warm enough for T shirts and shorts for the boys. |I lay in the sun and slept and counted my many blessings. Came home and planted seeds, lettuce, courgette and sweet pea. Must plant leeks and pumpkins if I get a a chance this week and buy onion sets.\n[wife] spent a while after church talking to B about Low Moor. Difficult.\nMon 24th\nSent my letter to Richard Drummond, who was the RVO at Harrogate and is now head of service delivery. It is always a bit of a conscious effort to take up the cudgels..    against bureaucracy. Especially one like the SVS that has in its culture a tendency to attack those who criticise it. I hope that tomorrow will be quiet as I wish to write another letter to the contingency planning dept. I also want to look at the updated contingency plans and make comments on it. But doing all this does not pay the bills and at the moment when work is so busy I feel it is actually more important to spend time with the kids. So I will sign off and go and watch the  “Great Escape” which they bought me for my birthday.\nCopy Of letter to Richard Drummond who wrote the Drummond Report before FMD saying that if there was an outbreak they would not be able to cope!!\n\n21st March, 2003\n\nMr R D Drummond\n[address removed]\n\nDear Richard,\n\nI am writing to express my concern with the current situation with TB.\n\nWe last met at the LVI meeting in Cumbria where we had an excellent talk on Foot and Mouth Disease and about how there was an increased risk becoming apparent.  This was in Feb 2000.\n\nAt the meeting this year as well as talks on Contingency planning there was a lot of discussion on the emergence of TB on Cumbrian farms.\n\nThere were also complaints that forward tracings were not being done on some cattle. To which the Vet Officer giving the talk said it was quite difficult and time consuming to work out where cattle had gone. This was met with some incredulity by the local vets as the paperwork and computerised passport scheme involved in moving cattle is a huge burden on farmers.  "Trace-ability" was one of the BIG issues to do with BSE, and if it cannot be done it means the whole paper exercise is a useless sham.\n\nThe answer was given that you can trace a specific animal through markets and holdings but not animals on and off a holding.\nSo tracings are taking too much time.\nSo tracings are not getting done in some divisions.  \nSo TB is spreading.\n\nWhether this comes under your remit as Head of Service Delivery I do not know. \nBut I would be grateful if you could forward it to the relevant department or to the minister so that a single enquiry to the cattle movements service at Workington will ensure a comprehensive list of movements on and off a holding since the previous test. \n\nIf we cannot trace from herds with tuberculosis reactors, the ability to track FMD is obviously a non starter.\n\nThank-you in advance for your help with this.\n\nI hope in 3 years time we will not be contemplating what we should have learnt from an LVI meeting in Hadrian House.\n\nYours Sincerely\nB.V.M.&S. M.R.C.V.S.\n\nTues 25th\n[wife]’s cousin from Vancouver arrived and it was really nice to see her again. The Canadians are always so up beat and down to earth. They have a refreshingly positive can do mentality. She and her daughter have been with a school choir singing in parts of Europe and doing the European tour. They are whistle stopping the lakes tomorrow.    It was good to catch up with them. [young vet who lost brother?] was with them. My favourite mother in law. She brought me a set of kitchen knives for my birthday present . They are incredibly sharp so I don’t think that letting the kids loose with them will be a good idea. But at least we can pitch some of the old ones, which needed sharpening every time you used them.\n[vet] arrived back from skiing very sun burnt from the sunshine and wind. She has had a really good time though.\nWeds 26th\n A  and left as I arrived in to go to YP’s. It was funny to see them very much the young ladies going out. They live at opposite ends of the world and yet the fashion is the same. Little hand bags and scarves as belts!! Globalisation is not just effecting agriculture. They had spent time in Keswick and around the lakes today making use of the gorgeous summer weather. In March?? It really is warm. Hope we are in for a scorcher of a summer holidays.\nThursday 27th\nSpent the quietist night On Call for a long, long time. Nothing !!!\nWhy is it as soon as you employ a locum as  an extra pair of hands the work disappears. Still it will given everyone a chance to have a breather. Said good bye to the Canadians and Mother in law. We are heading over to Ireland to see the Irish side of the family at Easter so we will see [vet friend?] again soon. But it was funny saying goodbye all the same. Don’t know why!\nWas doing a herd health plan today for a farm that has 50 dairy cows. He said he did not really know why he is doing it as he is going to give up and go and milk for some one else as it is not viable to make it pay on that sort of small scale.\nFriday 28th\nHaven’t got the workload right at all. I think the sunshine has sent the farmers into the fields to work and the lambs and calves are all arriving un aided in to the sunshine. It is amazing how the good weather makes you feel so much better. So I have booked in extra testing for next week. \nThe only slightly sad thing was talking to one of the farmers who had just started lambing. I was taking out rotten lambs that were aborting 2 weeks earlier. It is his first season actually lambing as he only bought in fat sheep last year. He said that it was at this stage 2 years ago that they came and took all his sheep. He should not have let them do it. It was wrong and he had not put up a fight. He had just gone along with it. He was fairly melancholic about it. I tried to point out that every one had done it, and it had seemed to be best thing to do at the time. I did not think that pointing out I had not been convinced and argued against it, and that only 2 out of 10,000 blood samples of live sheep slaughtered had been exposed to the virus would have helped. They were my granddads flock, he said. Now we have all these problems he says. Looking at the dead lambs I have just pulled out: lying in a heap in the corner of the trailer. You never forget something like that lad he says never.\nThere are a lot of anniversaries to go through and all the farmers are saying the fun has gone out of it. \n\n\nSaturday 29th   March\n The beautiful weather is carrying on and [wife] and I had a child free, vet student free afternoon. The sun was out and we went down for a walk along this side of Bassenthwaite Lake. There were lots of daffodils out and a light breeze off the lake. It was beautiful, cool sunny day for walking and very pleasant. We really enjoyed it.\n [son] and A are on the Young Peoples church w/e at Edinburgh and will arrive back exhausted from lack of sleep. The Js had the boys for the afternoon so it was good. Met up with [friends] in the evening and spent the evening putting agriculture to rights. He sells/ manages sales of fertiliser for Norsk Hydro.\nSunday\nMothering Sunday was a bit of a disaster with out A to organise the boys and I hadn’t had time to get them organised. Church was R & J on the beatitudes.\nThen met up with Cs and went up Bow Scale Fell. [son’s friend] and [son] complained the whole way. They were in really bad form and I was fed up with them. \nMonday\nThe work has dried up completely which for this time of year is unheard of. We have employed a locum to try and get the testing done and no work for every one to do. Embarrassingly got it wrong. Usually at this time of year there is no testing and the vets are running around like idiots. Not very good news for us . So wrote letters to [the] head of contingency planning at Page St. To amuse you I have copied it here:\n<<\n\n\n\n\n[name]\nDEFRA\nRm 803A\n1A Page St\nLondon\nSW1P 4PQ\n\nDear [name]\n\nI am writing to thank-you for travelling north to Carlisle to come to speak to the recent LVI meeting at Hadrian House, Carlisle.\n\nI have also been reading the DEFRA contingency plan and a lot of lessons do seem to have been learnt. I appreciate this years deadline has been passed to place it before parliament, but it is a “living” document! \nMy apologies but better late than never!!!\n\n I would like to make a few comments as one of the early TVI volunteers at Carlisle, and as a partner of one of the practices at the eye of the storm.\n\n1. The whole issue of valuation of animals taken as a compulsory purchase by the state for the benefit of the farming community to eradicate disease, has not been addressed. One of the initial problems slowing the slaughter of infected animals was the valuation. My own view then and now is that a simple standard valuation must be applied. It must be high enough to be an incentive to reporting  of disease, but too low to make the possibility of disease seem financially attractive. The price for compulsory purchase may be set higher for dangerous contacts or  less for affected  animals. If there is a simple standard value, then the diagnosing vet counts the number of bovines and shoots them. The farmer knows in advance what compensation is going to be paid, and individual animals of high merit could be insured for whatever sum the farmer is willing to pay premiums for. This may be an unpopular nettle but it needs to be grasped, even though I am sure my clients would disapprove of it.\n\tThe current tuberculosis problems are again high lighting the problems in this area. There should be a standard procedure and valuation for all notifiable diseases, and the values based on the last mid market rate. There are apocryphal stories that the valuers are still running the system for their clients the farmers, not DEFRA.\n\n2. The second issue that has not been addressed is the tracings system.\nWith the advent of the British Cattle Movement Services, I was under the impression that “traceability”  was a central part of government policy. It was with some incredulity that in response to questioning at the LVI meeting we were told that BCMS cannot give a list of movements on or off a holding. So tracings for TB are still being done by a DEFRA vet trawling through a farmers movement book. Why? If the political will was there, at the touch of a bottom the data base should be able to generate a list of animals moved in the past 6 months, which markets they have been through, and which holdings they have been through. If this cannot be done for TB, you can forget trying to do it for FMD or other fast contagious disease.\nThere is still a confusion over the database which should be based on holding numbers. Several farmers have multiple holding numbers, several have a single holding number and multiple sites. High genetic merit animals may have several owners, a single holding may have stock from several different farms. The rules for CPH numbers need to be re-evaluated centrally.  If a data base is to be of use it must be actively managed and updated. That can only be done at a local level.\n\n3. Disposal\nI know that this has been looked at, but farm sizes are continuing to grow at an ever more rapid rate. The average size of dairy farms in this area has grown by 20 cows since FMD. This means there will be a bigger disposal problem as individual farms will have more and more stock.\n\n4.” The local office should have stores to equip 20 TVIs at 24hours notice.”\nWe touched on this point at the meeting was the need for sudden recruitment of TVI or other veterinary staff. While the SVS can second small numbers of vets for short term availability, there was a reluctance by some DVMs to second staff who may yet be required in their own areas. Local LVIs can provide veterinary cover but the whole structure of large animal practice is in flux, and it may or may not be possible to provide veterinary inspections on an allocated, on a  temporary or part time basis. The pay and conditions for such assistance need addressed and agreed. The other part of this is orientation/ training at the local levels. This by the end of the outbreak at Carlisle, was quite impressive. However has that information been put together centrally? Should there be a central trainer who trains designated trainers for each SVS office/DECC?\nSimilarly with lay blood samplers/ vaccinators. Again local practices could provide nominated nurses/ lay staff for training. During the out break here AI personnel were used very effectively  for blood sampling and other procedures. Is this again something for the local plan? But if  the cost for training AI staff in blood sampling was met centrally it would encourage  a register of trained personnel to be maintained locally.\n The Cumbria County Council Inquiry recommends the use of  its emergency centre as a hub for multi agency response to any disease out break.  Should there be some joined up government so that each county council as part of its contingency plan provides for an admin back up for any emergency, civil disaster, terrorist incident?? And do the local plans make use of this??\n\nMy main concern, however, is that when I asked at that meeting had the two way communications between Page St and Carlisle been sorted out…..it was met by nervous laughter.\n\nI would like to emphasise that Page St did not know what was going on in the field during FMD outbreak. There was a communication barrier between the vets in the field and Carlisle management, and a huge gulf between Carlisle and Page Street.  \n\nI would plead that this is addressed as the culture identified by Iain Anderson still seems to prevail. I quote  “a culture predisposed to decision making by committee with an associated fear of personal risk taking. Such a climate does not encourage creative initiative. It inhibits adaptive behaviour, and organisational learning which over time lowers the quality of the decisions taken. It seems to me that a reappraisal of prevailing attitudes and behaviours within the Department would be beneficial.” *\n\nIt may be outside your remit but the Northumberland report with its flow charts and recommendations, actually lists lessons to be learned in Dec 1969. The one about the SVS who fared so poorly in FMD 2001 states… “We have considered the recruitment problem of the State Veterinary Service…the reasons maybe the low initial salary or in part the to the nature of the duties within the Service…..We consider it important for future development that the Ministry of Agriculture should attract a greater number of good young graduates willing to make a career in the service.”#\n\nAt the end of any plan are the people who are going to implement it. They need well managed, well led and given the resources to carry out the task. They need to have confidence in both the political and civil service leadership. There will need to be a risk management of tasks for financial reasons, resource reasons and for the wider rural economy. This requires flexible decision makers who are prepared to take risks and stick their head above the collective parapet.\n\n\nI hope that this provides a few more thoughts for you to work on.\n\nYours Sincerely\n\n\nRefs:\n*FMD 2001 Lessons Learned Enquiry. Forward By Chairman Iain Anderson P7.\n#Northumberland Report presented to Parliament Dec 69. Part 2 Section 47.\n>>>\nShe spoke at the last LVI meeting and as usual the plans sound good but where reality hits is in the delivery/.\n\nTuesday \nDid some small animal work and more testing. Tues evening always seems a rush.\nWent to gym and then on to N’s for the New Frontiers church meeting which was excellent. \nWeds\nManaged some fertility work in the morning and spent the rest of the day bringing the practice database up to date. It has been let go since foot and mouth as it tell us how much stock each farm has. The numbers have been all over the place as people have been restocking and changing the direction their businesses are going. Some moving out, some moving up in numbers and some going from dairy to Beef or sheep.\nThe most interesting thing was the fact that a lot of farms that had restocked with adult animals have dropped by 5-10 cows since they restocked as older cows are lost, or ill cows go, but there are not the young stock replacements coming through to replace them.\nThe actual figures for dairy farms restocking are: Not yet entered in the computer. I was hoping to have them but will get them.\nThursday\nDid some small animals and some OTM22 but it still incredibly quiet. Consequently I have booked in a lot more work for the next few weeks. So I hope I don’t get it wrong the other way. Set up Anne a vet student for her project, on comparing fertility pre and post FMD. \nFinished off updating the database figures so they will hopefully get entered over next few days and we can do some comparisons.\nMarch figures look Ok but the long term out look is not so good. The govt is doing a committee looking at Farm animal vet practice. The Lakeland BVA have asked for comments.\n\nEFRACOM Inquiry into vets and veterinary services\n(EFRACOM is a DEFRA committee)\nTerms of reference are to "...look at the provision of farm veterinary\nservices in England and Wales.  In particular it will look at\n1.\twhat impact current levels of farm income are having on the usage of\nveterinary services, and in turn what effect any reduction  in the usage of\nsuch services is having on the number of practices dealing with large\nanimals;\n2.\twhat effect any reduction in the usage of veterinary services and a\nshortage of large animal vets is having on health and welfare standards and\non the effectiveness of surveillance for animal diseases;\n3.\twhether the requirements placed on farmers by Government including those\nin the Animal Health and Welfare Strategy are realisable in such\ncircumstances; and\n4.\twhat is the impact on the work of the State Veterinary Service."\ncomments by 12 April please\n\nThe day ended with the reading of a TB test on a farm that was hoping to become clear after going down when it first restocked 18months ago. 1 reactor and 1 I/R on normal interpretation. They will probably take both on severe interpretation.\nThe government always looks as though problems are dealt with in isolation. \nThe DEFRA vet who looks after our practice is not dealing with this case as his daughter is married to her brother. The farming community is very incestuous.\nFriday\nWork desperately quiet so I organised more testing to do. I hope I haven’t over booked the work. DEFRA vets at Carlisle are still learning the ropes when it come s to TB as it has been so rare in this part of the world. So a few of the allocations have been wrong. So I am having to go back and do extra animals so that set can be signed off.\nThe school held a curry evening tonight which for a Cumbrian village school is very cosmopolitan. There is an extended family of three Pakistani families and they cooked. <Though for the children there  was also a bangers and chips option> It was quite a nice time, though [wife] was on her next level counselling course so I ended up just with kids but it was good to spend time with them. I have enjoyed not working many w/e’s recently; it kind of gives you your life back; that and not doing much at work.\n\n\nSaturday 5th April 2003\n[wife] was at her level 2 course counselling so I had the kids for the w/e. Took [son] to squash. Went into town for some bits and pieces. And then I  chatted to I while we waited for T and [son] to finish.\nThen took all the kids into town. We are having a Mothers Day tomorrow to make up for the fact L & A were away for the w/e last week. The kids have bought presents and made cards which was nice. \nThe Cs and [friend] came for lunch and then spent a very muddy afternoon by the pond playing and building dens and generally making a mess and having fun. [son] even decided showers were in order when he came back. That shows you how dirty they were as he is Mr Allergic to water.\nI made a fondue for tea with apple juice as the kids don’t like the kick of the wine. It was a great success and did taste rather good even if I do say so myself!!\nSunday\n I went to church on my own as [wife] was heading out again after an early lunch. The talk was on God’s leading which is always relevant. The kids were great fun on the way back and full of craic. They had a return trip to the Cs as they were too late to find a sky TV for THE match. Carlisle lost as usual, but it is not every week they lose at the millennium stadium!!\nI picked the kids up from the Cs and put all their bikes on the back of the car. Went to say good bye to Cs. In the meantime three of their boys were hiding in the boot of the car so they let me drive out with them before the giggles and laughter gave the game away. So it caused much merriment all round. \nMet up with the lads Sunday night, felt really sorry for one guy who is having real problems getting access to his 7 year old as his ex wife is putting a lot of –ve input into the wee one. He can go down the legal route but will be expensive and probably counter productive. As she is not wanting to negotiate or look at what is best for the wee girl it seems a real mess.\nMonday\nIn spite of 4 tests the work is not there….\nI spent the day testing though. \nIt is really quite amusing as I know the guy’s sister quite well and I always make sure I tell her how much the good lunch is appreciated. So there builds up a rivalry between them as to who can provide the vet with the best food. I am afraid I consciously flame the rivalry, in spite of it not doing my waistline any good. Trying to concentrate after a three course lunch on a boring job is not easy. You just have to think about coffee time!! And more cakes and tray bakes. All of them distinctly unhealthy with the aim of feeding out door manual labour.\nTuesday\nHad a bad night as my hand was caught in the crush yesterday by a stirk throwing its head and it bent the finger back. It seemed OK but is now throbbing like mad. Plenty of aspirin and corticosteroids.\nDid some ferty and then saw another LDA. The cows seem to be having a real problem with the feed this spring as we have seen 3-4 times the normal number. Went running with A as my finger meant I could not go to gym to work machines.\nWeds\nThe speed cameras have arrived on the top road, and unfortunately I was going too fast by the time I saw it. So I will probably have another 3 points on my licence. They have been building pads on the side of the road all along the A595 as it has a really bad record for car accidents. The numbers killed continues to go up. The speed cameras are in a van, which can move around and hence trap the speeders. It is called Casualty Reduction Unit… a bit of a pointed message even if you did slow down for them!!\nWork is slow again today with no TB testing on mid week days.\nIt is my brother’s birthday in NZ and he sent a letter to say he is going to be a Dad again so the trip to come across at Xmas is off. He is wanting us to all go there. Hm maybe.\nThursday\nI has had 2 reactors and 4 I/rs today so the future is not looking good for him as it looks like there will be TB there. He has had real problems since the herd restocked with lung worm< energy problems in the silage and atrocious fertility.\nHe is going to have to go and buy another 30 odd replacements at £800 to replace those that he has lost through ill health and fertility. Makes the compensation payments seem pretty small. That’s £24K  he has lost out on already and his own heifers are only coming up to be served. \nWork is busy and I wonder if the spring rush is coming. \nI was supposed to be at the school parents evening but got called out. Which was pretty irritating. I hate the fact that you are just so unreliable when you are on call.\nFriday\nAnother TB testing day so busy.\nAll together not a good day. The competition report is out and is fairly damning as expected so the pressure on drug margins is going to continue and the old fashioned way of providing a complete service will be going out the window. We will have to charge for the out of hours and On Call, the telephone advice and try to make it pay. But the whole economics of going out to see a single ill animal will be gone, the clinical skills of veterinarians will be gone. All academic as the cost for diagnosing a single animal in the new era will be too much. So the diagnosis will all be done by post mortem of herd problems. But if you have large herds the man power will not be there to look after the individual ill animal.\nSad depressing day but I am off for the w/e.\n\n\nSaturday 12th April 2003\nWoke up early and got up even though it is my day for a lie in. I think I am particularly wound up. It all ways takes me at least one day to wind down from work. So I am tired and yet not feeling able to rest. Took [son] to football and [other son?] to buy anew bike. He was so excited. It is his birthday coming up and he has out grown his old one so it will be good for him. The kids spend ages flying around the yard on bikes and up and down the field when the grass is short. They have a real ball here it is a great place to grow up, as they have so much freedom to play and play and play.\nMy finger that was caught TB testing started throbbing again this afternoon, so as it had improved and then got worse I decided I had to get it X rayed so I spent the afternoon in casualty, waiting to get x rayed and then waiting for another hour before being told it was not broken. A five minute consultation that took me almost 2 hours.\n[friends] were up for the w/e. [more friends] are at Capernwray Bible college for an Easter Youth thing so they came on up . So it was good to catch up. \nSunday\nCooked lunch for everyone and then went to communion. It was dire and reminded me why I don’t usually bother.\nSpent the afternoon putting onions in and tidying in the garden. It is incredibly dry and warm. Amazing really. The 6 kids spent the whole afternoon messing around at the pond and were disgusting with mud everywhere and trailed all up the yard, and wellies abandoned everywhere.\nChurch was DM speaking and then the YPs came back to ours afterwards. Mind you I think I had had enough kids for the time being but I was ok. \nMonday\nBad haircut day. As there is only one day we can test this week I booked in fair amount, which would have been tight but AW was off ill so we were too tight, so a few ops have been put off until tomorrow. D has a S African vet friend visiting, so with him and the vet student the house is still full. I however am knackered and not feeling sociable. Had a horrendous calving. It is not often I cannot calve a cow but I am afraid after an hour, I gave up and caesared it. The calf was dead, and rotten so whether she will do I don’t know. I did not want to caesarean but that is life. It was either that or the farmer pay £60 to get some one to take it away after I euthed it. \nTuesday\nWe are in the period of anniversaries. It is 2 years since the Ls went down. I was at a farm which did not get FMD, and his uncles did. He was saying what a sad day it was. So his uncles must be feeling it more. The beautiful spring weather with the grass growing in spite of the frosts definitely puts a bounce in to your step. On days like this I think that it is an excellent life. Wandering around the countryside and enjoying the scenery, the farms, the animals and the farmers. Beats working in a factory any way.\nWent to the gym and felt a lot better for it. Exercise is a great way of getting a buzz. But you have to be not too tired to a) get there and b) enjoy it.\nI have gone often because I feel I should and just felt like a steam roller had run over me, and its taken a day or two to recover. Balance in all things!!!\nWeds\nThe Commission report came out today.\nDifficult to believe that they will be able to implement it. \nBut having lived through the FMD. ….There were quite a few things I thought that they would not be able to implement but they did.\nWe will have to :<if the Minister decides. And since it is DTI not DEFRA I think that the implementation may be effective.>\nProvide prescriptions free of charge\nProvide our clients with a list of pharmacies, agricultural suppliers and other vets, and web sites that will meet those prescriptions.\nThe cost of the most commonly prescribed medicines in the previous quarter.\nThe cross subsidy of professional fees by pharmaceuticals will not be allowed. And how will the pharmacist make his money??\n\nThe other comment which did irk me some what was that the provision of 24 hour cover does not seem that onerous……I do not often swear but really.\nVery depressed.\nBut [daughter] came on a caesaer with me as I was On call tonight. It is really nice working from home and being able to take them with me. It is a  very healthy thing to do. She is growing up and is very much the young lady. The farmers wife is the dental receptionist and of course said hello A. She was thrown as of course being out of context she could not figure how the farmers wife knew who she was!!\nThursday\nGood Friday\nIt is [son’s] B’day today and the day started out great for him. I was on duty and he arrived in our bedroom at 7am with the other 2 boys to start on the birthday celebrations. Our family tradition is that they have breakfast in bed in our bed. Don’t know why but that is what happens. The others all brought cards and presents in. The phone went and it was a lambing, so Tim decided he would come and see the lambs being born. So he was thrilled!!\nWe opened the presents later on. Which included a new boiler suit which really thrilled him. It is amazing what kids think of as their best present!!\nI never really like working Good Friday. I always think one year I will be off and go to one of the contemplative services. Hebron being low church never really does anything like that which is a real shame. Easter is when I think the cathedrals, old country churches, and the church architecture can really be helpful in stopping and praying and helping to consider what Jesus did on the cross.\nFinished work and went up to the [friends]. They were both home and it was really good to see them. Played rounders and had a barbeque which was really nice.\nJames was in really good form as he was enjoying being back away from London where he has just started work as a high flying lawyer. He is not enjoying London very much. He is a hills and countryside lad. His girlfriend was also there so was quite a good craic. I didn’t really want to come home but was so knackered that it was probably just as well the kids were with us and it was not a too late a night.\n\n\nSaturday 19th April 2004 \nSpent most of the day either catching up on sleep or on the day to day things that seem to have been put to one side for a while. There was also the preparations for the service tomorrow we are taking the Easter Sunday morning service which is one of those night mare services where everyone comes. The age range is from 0 to 100 and everyone has different expectations. I should explain that the normal Sunday services are very different. There is the “Family focus “ which is lively and very informal aimed at those with young children, who go to Sunday school. There is then teaching for parents/adults. There is always a lot of noise, children running around, babies crying and shakers and children’s songs. The Communion service that follows is very traditional. Silence and solemnity rules.  All the older generation go, and it is a very different service! So we are going to be combining the two. Oil and water? A lot of prayer has gone in to this one!\nSunday\n[wife] got up at 6 am to go to the sunrise service at the crematorium. \nShe said she needed some input before the Easter service we are leading. It is a service organised by St James, parish church but all the Carlisle churches are asked to take part. Christiana had asked to go, so [wife] went with her and it was really good.\nChrist is risen, he is risen indeed.\nThe sermon was by the Archdeacon from the cathedral who said that being a good Anglican he wanted some liturgy through his sermon. So every time he said are you dead the congregation had to reply, No alive in Christ.!! At which point he would sound a hooter!!\nThe service at Hebron went very well…\nOh ye of little faith. I should pray more and worry less.\n\nI have included our outline below and I have put in additional comments\nIn blue.\nEaster Sunday Service\n\nWelcome to Hebron Evangelical church this Easter Sunday morning when we are celebrating Jesus is alive.  Our opening hymn is our declaration that Jesus is alive he has risen from the dead.\n\nOpening Hymn: We believe in God the Father\nWelcome; Intro me and welcome team. \nThis morning the service is in a different order from usual. We are going to remember what Jesus has done for us on the cross and Bruce Beattie, one of our elders is going to help explain what the bread and wine mean to us as some of the children may not have been here for a communion service before .\n\nThen after taking communion we are going to celebrate Jesus’ resurrection … with reading, singing and sharing. The resurrection is the central part to our faith. Who knows what that long word “resurrection” means?? \n\nThe answers from the kids were quite amusing but we got there in the end!!\nAt the end of the service there will be the offering, an opportunity to give our money as well as ourselves to the living God.\n\nIf during the service the young children get fed up there is a place at the back where they can do some making things…It isn’t easy to sit still when you are little or be quiet! So please don’t worry about the little ones being a distraction. I often wonder what it was like when Jesus fed the 5000plus crowd. Do you think the children all sat neat and quiet in rows. I don’t think so!! \nWe are pleased to see them and hear them. This is a time of family worship from the youngest to the oldest. \n\nReading: Psalm 67 \nI had this up on a power point and we read it together.\nMay God be gracious to us and bless us and make His face shine upon us, that your ways may be known on earth, your salvation among all nations.\nMay the peoples praise you, O God; may all the peoples praise You.\nMay the nations be glad and sing for joy, for You rule the people justly and guide the nations of the earth.\nMay the peoples praise you, O God; may all the peoples praise You.\nThen the land will yield its harvest, and God, our God, will bless us. \nGod will bless us, and all the ends of the earth will fear Him.\nPsalm 67\n\n\nPrayer M\nAs we sing this next hymn it would be good if the children came to sit at the front so that B can see you all when he talks to you.\n\n\nHymn:  When I survey the wondrous cross.\n\nCommunion: B \n\nB gave an excellent talk about remembering. He included a diary and a kitchen timer which he set to go of at the carefully timed point in his little bit. He then used Smarties to go through the Easter story and the different colours. I wish I had it written down.\nWe then had communion and he had smarties for the kids so that they could remember about the Easter story while the adults took communion and remembered Christ’s death and resurrection. Forgiveness is a wonderful thing.\nWe have just been remembering what Jesus did for us on the cross. He died for us…what incredible love. But thankfully the gospel doesn’t end there . [son], A and Cerise are going to read on.\n\nReading: [?] and Luke 24 vs. 1-12\n\nThey did a brilliant dramatic reading.\n\nAn empty tomb. Lets sing ”God’s not dead .He is alive”.(sing it twice and use the instruments at the front to make a joyful noise)\n\nWe want you to have a little taste of what it was like to be around that day and so let’s listen in to  Mary Magdalene chatting on the phone to …well you listen and see who she is talking to.\n[wife] did a sketch about Mary talking on the phone to Marta having met the risen Jesus!! She was very good. Really gave the facts to a contemporary feel\n\nHymn : Led like a lamb to the slaughter…\nin the second verse would children come to help. \nWe have verses to give out to the big people and I’d like you to help give them out making sure all the big  people get one . For the children who may not be able to read yet we have some coloured stones to remind you of a huge stone that was rolled away when Jesus rose from the dead. You can keep it in your pocket or somewhere special to remind you that Jesus is alive and He wants to be with you where ever you go.\n\nA had made up tiny scrolls with verses about the resurrection which the kids all gave out. It kept the wee ones busy and also gave everyone a verse to think about.\n\nIsn’t it wonderful to know that we are singing “he’s alive, he has risen” and all over the world the church is singing the same message. In Revelation we get a little glimpse into what it will be like in heaven with a new song being sung to Jesus Christ. Close your eyes and listen to what it says:\n\nRev 5 vs. 9-11 \n\nWe have the privilege in Hebron of having a few representatives of different language, people and nation here this morning. Let us listen to them.\n“Christ is Risen” in different languages and prayer.\n\nWe then had one family say it in Arabic, another in German. There is a Philippino girl who said it in her language and some one else in Spanish. It was magical.\n\nIntroduce \nLord we lift your name on high\nSung at Mizpah orphanage with children some of whom had just heard the name Jesus for the first time at Christmas. See picture.\nWe need helpers to do the actions to this song…\n\n\n\nWe are thankful that Jesus is alive and so He speaks ,guides , comforts and forgives us for all the sin , the mess we make. It is not only the Mary’s and the Peters and the Thomases that have met with the risen Lord…we each have a story to tell of walking with the risen Lord. As you listen to some people here sharing a bit of their story I wonder what you would have to share…take the opportunity to day to share what God is teaching you, where he is changing you…don’t hide behind the weather or holidays…share your journey to encourage real fellowship.\n: \nEnd in prayer over top.\n\n\n\nSong and offering. This is your opportunity to offer yourself afresh to the risen Lord.\nAn old song but a powerful one. To make this song personal to you choose the verse where you will stand as a sign of your offering to the Lord. Band will play it through twice as collection taken up and then we sing it.\nIf you want to sit until last verse when we sing take my love then we will all stand for last verse.\n\nTake my life \n\nThis song has lots of parts about asking God to take and use different parts of our lives. Songs/ intellect/strength/money etc. And by asking people to stand at the point they wanted it really meant they stopped and offered part of them selves back to God in response to the resurrection.\n\nFinish with Thine be the glory.\n\n The service went really well  people came and said how well it had gone.\n\n[wife] spent afternoon packing and feeling washed out!! Giving out is tiring but the satisfaction is huge.\n\nMon\nUp early to catch the boat to N Ireland. The boat was not too busy which was good. Spent the boat ride filling in my thoughts on the future of Large Animal practice for the EFRACOM enquiry\nBought  Lord of rings part 2 The Two Towers as I am wanting to re read it having seen the movie. So that is my holiday reading sorted out.\nHad a chance when we got there to sit down with [wife]’s parents and talk through our future, which was good as Campbell usually disappears out but a sit is a Bank holiday he didn’t. They were fairly up beat about it which was good so I was pleased.\nSpent the evening with C and the cousins which was really good. Had a barbecue and chilled out. C was not really surprised at the news as agriculture in NI is going through a bad time as well, it is behind the UK and there are a lot of small uneconomic family farms and so a lot of consolidation is going on and farmers selling up.\nTuesday\nSpent the morning playing Squash with the boys which w as great fun. Spent the afternoon in the garden trying to tidy it up.\nWent out for dinner with our bridesmaid who has also just handed in her notice/ or rather accepted a redundancy package. It must be catching. It was great to see her and also to be out in Belfast which is such a cosmopolitan city these days with different languages, cultures and nationalities all mixing in the downtown area. A big change.\nWeds\nWent to the new exhibition centre in the docks at Belfast. It has a multiplex and a science exhibition as well as shops and restaurants and so on.\nIt was amazing the kids could have spent all day playing on the exhibits and it was very well done so that you came away having learnt quite a lot.\n[wife] now believes I cannot do colours as I am easily confused by them. There was one  exhibit where words in one coloured spelt the name of another colour i.e. the word was spelt  y-e-l-l-o-w  but it was red in colour. You then had to read the words or say the colours and I just could not do it, my brain ended up really confused.!!\nBought flowers and stuff for the Garden, and did the boxes for Gran\n Went out to dinner at RP she is a widow who is [wife]’s parents age but is so much fun. She loves giving dinner parties and having folk of all ages around. She gave me some useful addresses. There are lots of plans for [wife]’s parents Golden Wedding.\nThursday \nThe day of the big Photo shoot. [wife]’s brother’s father in law is a photographer and while we were all together [wife] mum wanted a photo of all the family together. So  we spent an hour and a half getting positioned and photographed. 7 kids and 7 adults and a very pernickety photographer. \nTravel back on the boat was OK but came back to find that everything had fused and that the phone was  not working . So fixed the fuses which are all trips thank goodness and got the electrics going.\nThe phone could not fix, but did not worry.\nWhile we were away there had been a lightning strike on to the phone line up the road and it had fried all the cables.\nOne of the neighbours had been in her kitchen and the phone had exploded and jumped off the wall. It has left scorch marks down the wall. I am just glad that there was no one on the phone at the time.\nThe other unfortunate thing is that the computer was attached and is dead as a dodo.\nFriday\nBack to maelstrom\nI was really relaxed going back in to work and it lasted for may be half an hour. No one had picked up on any of my admin things while I had been away. In spite of asking people to do so.\nThis meant I had to start and get things organised for Testing, the Rota     \nand Nestles. As well as to try and do some work. My in tray is a mess but never mind.\n I also had to complete the report for EFRACOM, as the closing date is today, I hope not by 5pm!! The report was actually finished by 10:15 and was e-mailed off. I would like to have polished it a bit more but the schedule today was not conducive.\nDuring the evening when I was supposed to be writing it I had a  casaers and a foal trying to die at [farm]. They are not having much luck as they have had horrendous problems with restocking. They are also under TB2.\n\nI enclose a copy of the report to EFRACOM\n\n\n\n\nThe Right Hon. Michael Jack, MP\nEnvironment, Food and Rural Affairs\nChairman of the  Sub Committee ”Vets and Veterinary Services”\n\nA Submission \n\nSummary\nThis is a timely review of farm veterinary services. I would submit that the current trends in veterinary practice are likely to accelerate rapidly in response both to present levels of farm income and imminent changes in veterinary practice.\n\nIn this submission I have briefly covered the following areas:\nThe current provision of veterinary services and how they are financed.\nCurrent trends and their likely impact on veterinary services.\nThe effect of the reduction in large animal clinicians on health and welfare standards and on surveillance.\nThe feasibility of the Animal Health and Welfare Strategy.\nThe impact on the SVS.\nThe future and possible outcomes.\n\n\nThe current provision of veterinary services and how they are financed \n\nThe income for rural farm veterinary practice that provides the majority of veterinary services to the agricultural industry has traditionally come from 5 major areas. \nClinical services.(Examining and diagnosing individual animals, calvings, lambings individual surgery, routine fertility, dehorning and castrating. Traditional “On Farm” Professional Fee work)\nLVI income from DEFRA/MAFF in the eradication of Notifiable Disease: Tuberculosis, Brucellosis, Anthrax, etc. Many practices also were involved with Meat Hygiene and inspections at abattoirs.\n The dispensing of pharmaceuticals.\nThe provision of veterinary advice on farm management and welfare.\nThe majority of veterinary partnerships are mixed practices: a consideration must be given to the fact that small animal work makes up a variable proportion of the work and income to veterinary practice.\n\nIt is my opinion that clinical farm animal practice, the examining and diagnosing of individual animals is already uneconomic for both the veterinary surgeon and the farmer. It is only happening because of the cross subsidy of the professional fees by other income, and because of the good will of most farmers to give animals a chance.\nAs the harsh economics are coming home to vets and farmers this is rapidly becoming; with James Herriot, a part of rural history.\n\n\nCurrent trends and their likely impact on veterinary services\n\nWhat are the current trends within agriculture and veterinary practice and what effects will that have?\n\nBoth in agriculture and farm veterinary practice there are trends that can be identified, how fast, how far these trends will go is difficult to predict, but my own experience is that change when it comes, change is often slow at starting but then dramatic in its speed. The effect of decoupling and other EU decisions on agriculture are unknown but the current trends are likely to continue.\nIn agriculture farm size has to continue to grow. As farms make less and less per animal, they have to spread costs over larger and larger numbers. The individual value of each animal continues to drop in real terms, efficiency and mechanisation continues to increase. Chicken farms are now routinely 100,000 animals plus. Since foot and mouth disease the average dairy herd size has increased from 90 to 114 an increase of 20% which talking to many dairy farmers is only going to increase as more herds are going to be 300+ animals. These increases are usually with out an increase in labour on the farms. This means the care of individual animals is likely to be less important, but the care of the overall heath of the herd much more. \n\nIn veterinary practice  the major changes are likely to be from the Competition Inquiry in to the cost of pharmaceuticals. The subsidy of professional fees by sales of pharmaceuticals has been an increasing trend since the late 60’s. Then professional fees were subsidised by the large-scale eradication schemes by MAFF who paid very good fees to get the vets on the farm and  help eradicate the Notifiable Diseases. \nThe competition inquiry is recommending that pharmaceuticals be dispensed by pharmacies as well and that prescriptions be provided free of charge. Which private organisation is going to provide a service free of charge has yet to be ascertained, but the current level of income derived from pharmaceuticals is not going to be sustained. This inevitably means that the cross subsidy will disappear and farmers will have to pay the full cost of veterinary clinical service, and it will not be economic to do so.\n\nAt the same time the costs of providing veterinary services continues to rise.\nThe cost of veterinary time is continuing to rise. Students are now graduating with debts of £15-20K because of the loss of grants and payment of tuition fees. This means there will need to be a further raise of £2-3K per annum to pay veterinary assistants to match the status quo. Farm animal practice already  pays assistants less than companion animal practices despite offering a less favourable “On Call” rota.\n In the short term following FMD many practice principals worked additional On Call to make the rota acceptable to attract assistant vets. Where this is viable in the short term, in the long term it is not acceptable. As partners profit  becomes commensurate to the salaries they have to pay to veterinary assistants they will be aiming to increase charges for clinical work or look to other avenues for decreasing costs/increasing turnover.\n\n Providing an out of hours emergency cover is not economically practical for vets. (except in the big cities where practices join together to provide an emergency clinic.) Currently there is an RCVS obligation to provide 24hour cover, but the RCVS is not involved in the commercial pricing of services. \nAs the value of individual animals continues to drop in real terms then the cost of treating individual animals becomes less and less viable. Where there is no cross subsidy for out of hours work it will become untenable.\n\nAs many mixed practices have a dwindling farm animal side that is less financially attractive, many will decide to concentrate on the companion animal side of the business.\n\n\nIn a lot of mixed practices, it is a senior partner who will do the largest amount of the farm work. This means the younger vets will not have the case load to become experienced and confident in farm work. There is a cohort of practitioners in this situation heading towards retirement in the near future, will the practice continue to be involved with farm work?\n As fewer practices become involved with farm veterinary services, the cost of travel to the more distant farms has to rise beyond the already accelerated rate.\n\nAll this means that farm veterinary practices will lose income from clinical services and from pharmaceutical sales. They will have to move more towards the pig/ poultry model of providing veterinary advice and charging for it. \n\nVets have already moved out of nutritional advice leaving this field to nutritional experts. The reason for this is that most nutritional advice is provided “free” to the farmer by the firms who then put that cost into the feeds that are sold to the farmers. This cross subsidy of fees by sales is apparently acceptable where the subsidy of veterinary fees by pharmaceuticals is not.\nThis model is beginning to appear in other areas. Whereas vets provided most mastitis control, the dairies who buy the milk are now providing “free” or subsidised advice to farms on cell counts and high bacterial counts. (Including bacteriology with a variable back up and quality of advice)\nNMR and other recording agencies are already offering fertility information on their recording products, and it is a short step to actually providing the fertility work.\n \n\nI believe that these factors will contribute to a dramatic decrease in farm animal clinicians in the next 5 years.\n\n\nThe effect of the reduction in large animal clinicians on health and welfare standards and on surveillance.\n\nAs the number of clinical veterinarians reduces then there will be much less on farm surveillance. \nThis means that outbreaks of novel or unusual diseases is much less likely to be noticed or recorded at an early stage.\n The routine care for the animals will be done by stockmen under veterinary guidance. \nThe guidance will probably be by quarterly  or 6 monthly or annual  visits and by herd health plans.\n Individual animals are much more likely to be treated ad hoc by the stockmen, rather than by veterinary surgeons.  The quality of this treatment in some cases may be adequate but in most will be poor. The significance of symptoms or illness may not be appreciated. Diagnosis and treatment seen as a high cost and used as a last resort. Any outbreak of disease will be well developed and losses occurring before veterinary advice is sought. \n\nAs herd sizes increase and labour decreases, then the attention to individual animals must reduce, with a drop in welfare standards. \nIll animals are likely to be culled quicker, as limited manpower becomes more important. The use of vets as additional expert man power for calvings/ lambings will be seen as too expensive.\n\nThe demands of the system must mean that high heath status is important, with routine vaccination and herd health policies being put in place. \nDEFRA seems to set high regard to laboratory diagnosis results as a form of surveillance. Most of the common problems are diagnosed/treated with out the resort to laboratory aids. Fertility, lameness, mastitis, pneumonia, PGE, are rarely referred to the lab except where treatment is not working.  Most samples are taken/referred by vets in practice. Fewer vets would mean fewer samples.\nThe lack of veterinary advice to ill pigs and ill sheep on farms at Heddon-on–the-Wall shows how the lack of a clinical veterinary service can lead to in the terms of delay and spread of disease.\n The local knowledge of the current LVI system is an invaluable asset that is in danger of being thrown away. The idea that a farm is a box which can be assigned a number in Page Street and dealt with as a single entity is a problem that has still not been resolved. The complexity of many of the local farming links through trade, working together, machinery, shared grazing, fell rights, and family ties cannot be reduced to a computer screen on DCS.  \n\n\nThe feasibility of the Animal Health and Welfare Strategy.\n\nIn  my opinion they are not. I was hoping to cover this more fully but lack of time has prevented me.\n\nThe impact on the SVS.\n \nThe impact on the SVS is likely to be slow to be realised.\nThe SVS  is not known for its ability to meet challenges or streamline its systems.\nAs the number of vets involved in farm work decreases it will have to provide more of its own resources to tackle tasks currently done by LVIs. \nThe more flexible private practice takes up the challenge of getting backlogs in testing done and can respond to new challenges for example the licensing brought in during FMD. Private practice can fit the work around other duties. Whereas if it is going to be done by the SVS it will be more expensive to take on vets to do these tasks alone. \nThe SVS was notoriously unreliable in its work allocation during FMD, the record being sending 5 vets to the same farm on the same day has yet to be beaten!\n Though I hope it would be a lot better in normal circumstances, there are still problems with the allocation system that can only be put right by local knowledge.\n\n In areas where there are few farm animals there may well not be LVIs willing to carry out the routine testing for Notifiable Disease. Who is going to provide veterinary cover for these? Both for clinical caseload and for the LVI work. \n\n There will not be vets available to second to DEFRA for the next FMD or exotic disease outbreak. The contingency plan confidently states that resources for 20 TVIs are to be kept at each centre in case of an outbreak of Notifiable Disease, with out addressing where these will come from. There will not be 20 TVI’s available at short notice.  During March 2001 the majority of vets at the Carlisle DECC were LVI’s.\n\n\nThe future and possible outcomes.\n\nThe picture I have painted is what in my opinion will happen if the government allows the situation to develop.  I would hope that there would be some “joined up government” when decisions are to be made in response to the Competition Inquiry Report. \n\nThere are a mixture of outcomes that are possible:\nThe numbers of vets in farm animal practice will reduce. This can be minimised by maintaining the cross subsidy of professional fees for providing clinical services, either directly by DEFRA work in surveillance or other Notifiable Disease work and/or from pharmaceutical sales. (The option of increasing fees is not possible.)\nVeterinary services will be provided by other means. E.g. Vets working for feed firms/ Dairies/ manufactures/retailers to ensure a welfare/surveillance standard.; Consultancy firms providing fertility/mastitis/specialised advice.\nDEFRA/ Local Authority will have to provide vets for notifiable disease testing/surveillance tasks.\nDeveloping the French model of farm cooperatives employing vets for their own farms.\nThe pig/poultry model of regular advisory visits, but minimal involvement in the day to day running or with individual animals.\n\nOnly the first of these provides for the continuation of the successful LVI structure. The other outcomes mean a loss of clinical veterinary services.\nThe loss of clinical services means a drop in welfare standards and the loss of on farm surveillance.\n\n\nFarm veterinary services are in a transitional time facing economic challenges, changes in agriculture, increased regulation and increased competition for the pharmaceutical and services they provide.  There will be increased competition between practices as they try to meet the higher expectations of new veterinary graduates starting their careers, and providing a cost effective service to the rural community.\n\nBVM&S MRCVS\n\n\nBrief C-V\nCurrently a partner in one of the largest farm veterinary practices in Cumbria having spent 17 years in mixed rural practice. \nSpent 6 months on secondment to MAFF at the Carlisle DECC during FMD.\n\n\n Sat 26th April 2003\nHaving worked last night and done 2 caesaers and a calving on call, on top of a long week I was completely  washed out. Did Sat am surgery and a call then went home to bed . Knackered and fed up and deciding I did not want to spend my life like this.\nSunday\nA busy day On call but at least the calls did not stack up just kept coming in ones and twos so the stress levels were not to bad. But boyzo am I tired.\nMon\nThis is the beginning of D’s last week. He has worked out really well and I hope that he will be able to work here at the back end to help with the testing. He is easy going and has a good S African protestant work ethic, always happy to oblige and is good to work with. He is a good laugh too always teasing and playing silly jokes and has a great sense of humour.\nSpent most of the day on Catch up after the week end. Did some calls, and sorted car and drugs out and cleaned my kit. The slippage of cleanliness since FMD is very noticeable especially at the w/e’s. (But don’t tell DEFRA!!!)\nWent swimming at Foxes. Well to be honest sat in the Jacuzzi and talked. And then swam 2 lengths. I was too tired to do much really.\n I must start getting some proper exercise again or my back will suffer.\nTues \nI am really annoyed at Defra. I rang and asked what would be needed to put our vets on to Panel L which is what is needed to do the exports for Nestle and “Panel L, can just be added on as it is a simple export thing so it would take half an hour to do it.” This was last Friday by now it is we have to go for training by SVS. It should only take half an hour to through the forms….” Why can their yes not be yes, and their no be no???”\nSo we have to spend an afternoon going to Carlisle to got through meaningless forms, so that we can fill in meaning less forms so that Nestle can get th milk through customs. I am beginning to see why people just smuggle things rather than get involved in all this stupid bureaucracy.\nWeds\nWent on the Factory visit to Nestles today to have a look around so that we know the plant and can give them certification for the milk powder for export. The whole thing is ludicrous as dried milk powder is a sterile product. It has to be or else it goes off very quickly so why we have to certify that it has been pasteurised I don not know. But hey its money.\nThe size and quantity and the huge amount of machinery and very small number of people required to maintain and operate the plant was awesome.\nWe went to the distribution warehouse where there was just row upon row of pallets, 3-7 high full of dried milk or cappuccino drinks. Weird to think mast of the instant cappuccino is made in Dalston.\n Thursday\nWent for Panel L Training. It was as pointless as I thought it would be.\nTook the opportunity to go through with DEFRA admin staff some of the queries and problems. At the moment we do a lot of stuff for DEFRA telling them who has stock and who does not have stock to ensure their database is relatively up to date. But it is a headache as they are working off computer screens. Hence Mrs F R of A Farm does not correlate at all with Mr E R of the same address. The computer is not into relationships. So that they are married and live together and own stock on the same piece of ground does not really get off the ground.  \nThis evening was the final Partners meeting where I handed in my notice.\nThe reasons for handing in my notice are complex, most decisions probably are.\nThere are lots of factors some trivial to the outsider but important to me, others may be important to others and similarly not to me. \nSeveral people have asked is it a reaction to FMD. The last casualty. In some ways it is. For all the horrendous experiences, for all the long hours and difficult ethical and to whom am I responsible dilemmas. It taught me a lot about myself. To see fear in the eyes of senior management when challenged, to be able to organise a protest meeting of thirty vets with Jim Scudamore, to do the TV interviews, o see the effect of feeding information to journalists. To be able to break through by fast talking and relying on my wits. To organise completely new systems and manage projects that had never been done before, to build teams from international backgrounds in the face of opposition from the hierarchy, to be constantly caught on a tight rope between the different groupings. I learnt that I have huge abilities, and to go back to normality is difficult. \nThe future of farm animal practice is also very unpredictable. There are a lot of farms who are yet to restock, the cross subsidy of fees by drug sales is going to end, and more and more work will be on behalf or paid for by DEFRA. They are at the whims of the politicians and the treasury. They are also not the easiest client to deal with.\nThere is also the problem of being second in command and dealing with the frustrations of the partnership. We are not united in the way we work, or where we see the practice going. This means my schemes for diversification, for improving income streams, and managing the bad debt, will either not happen or will become part of my workload which is already over stretched.\nAdd in to this cock tail the fact my wife is starting to work, and I have been given a really bad scare by being tackled by a cow. \nThe question is do I want to do this job for the next 20 years the answer has to be no.\nSo the only answer is to hand in my resignation and start to look for something new.\nAs I have a 6 month notice period ending on an accounting date I have to jump before I have another job sorted out.\nEven so the decision was very hard and I was really choked up when I left them to discuss the future. I could not go home as the kids would want to know what was going on so I went to Js. He already knew. I will tell the kids on Friday the practice manager on Monday and work on Tuesday.\nI have said very little of my thoughts in the diary as I have learnt there are somethings better left unwritten until the time for the information to be public. Whatever issues are to do with confidentiality, if you don’t think something can be talked about, then do not write it down, as you never know who is going to read it.\nA though got her self in to a stew as I rang [wife] to say I was going to Js, she then said she would come out. She left a bit too hurriedly for A who then got it into her head that we had gone away on holiday with out telling them!!\nFriday\nThe whole day was “Unreal”. I knew I was going but no one else does.\nTold the Kids at tea time and I was shocked by how upset they were. It has come as a shock to them. Tim especially loves coming out and about around the farms with me. There is also no what I am going to, so it is just uncertainty.\nOn 2nd call\n\n\nSat 3rd May 2003\nWork then wash out. I was on second last night and had 2 Caesars and a calving…What??? The second Caesar was at 4am so I felt dreadful all day. [young vet] had started operating and got stuck so I went to the rescue. The cow had horrendous adhesions, so nothing could be moved around, we spent an hour and a half trying to pull the calf out and then stitching up the uterus in the cow. I felt I needed diving gear on as I had both arms in to their full length with [vet] beside me trying to stitch by feel. My arms were exhausted by the end of it.  I was like death warmed up all day. But feel I have definitely made the right decision.!!!\nSunday\nAfter a good Nights sleep feeling better. My mother always use to say that the world looks very different after a good nights sleep and a cooked breakfast. I DO NOT need a cooked breakfast. My stress levels have been that high that I have been eating far too much. I am going to go on a diet. The usual promise to myself. My weight is going up fast so I will have to cut down and start to exercise a lot more.\nWent to see the practice manager to tell him that I have handed in my notice. I have decided to see him on his own so that he has a chance to process it before work on Tuesday. He is overweight and stressed and that type to have a heart attack so treat him gently. He is also a good friend, so I should give him some warning. So I spent an hour chatting it through and talking which is a good a way as any of spending a Sunday afternoon.\nMon Bank holiday\n Another bank holiday working. But at least it is fairly quiet. So spent most of the day working in the garden. The kids were away in the morning doing various things and then met up for lunch with [friends] which was really nice. They had been down to visit family in the lake district. They had hired a couple of cottages for the w/e and all met up. [they] are really amazing people. They are both doctors and I went out to visit them in Thailand which was brilliant fun. He was working with leprosy and AIDS cases. They have come home and are sharing a GP’s job between them. [she] is also doing a diploma in diabetes. They are also doing deputation work to raise money for the work of OMF in Thailand and Asia. They have 4 kids, and it was really nice to see them all again. The kids are similar ages. I really felt for them because they have gone from home schooling to schools in Edinburgh in the big city. So they have the double culture shock of coming to the UK, and being schooled in a complete different way. They are also very bright kids and having had individual attention from a very focussed mother they are miles ahead of the rest of their classes. Yet they do not have the social skills to adapt to the rough and tumble of life in a city comprehensive. Mobile phones are not a must have item in rural Thailand!!\nGood to see them all.\nTuesday\nToday I announced the fact I was leaving to those at work. I had thought about how I should do it, and what I was to say. It is quite difficult both from an emotional point of view and from the fact that I think that the business in the longer term, will have problems. This has both a direct relevance for the lay staff and their jobs. Though there will still be a similar number needed as their workload is likely to remain the same. And also for the vets. Two of whom may or may not be approached to buy into the business. There will also in the longer term be a smaller number of vets needed but this will probably be managed by natural wastage.\nI spoke first to the senior assistants and then lay staff. It was hard as I have been there for as long as many of them 15 years. Which is a long time. I think also there is an attitude that the ups and downs seem to be past for them. There was a lot of upheaval over the move from B V up to S park, FMD is over, and things are suppose to be getting back on to an even keel. And I throw a spanner in the works.\nWeds\nSpent the evening Phoning friends and relatives to let them know that I had handed in my notice and sending off for job details on two jobs and applying for another. I am not sure what I am looking for so at the moment I am just sending off for anything that seems interesting and waiting and seeing. It seems an unreal situation in so many ways. \nI also had to phone the bank manager both to arrange our annual visit, and to tell him that I was leaving. Again getting the balance between moving on and being positive, with out pointing out the dangers in the future of large animal practice was a difficult balance. After the initial shock, all power to him as a salesman/banker he then asked whether I would be needing any banking requirements!! So at least if I do start up an independent vet/small business consultancy I will have a bank account to run it from.\nThursday\nA quit day as no testing so tackled some of the Back log in admin.\nSpent a lot of time setting up the systems and know how folder for Nestle. We have taken over the work for doing the LVI work for the Nestle factory at Dalston as they have fallen out with the previous practice. When we took it on I assumed it would be the odd bit of work but in fact it is a huge amount of work.\nSo it is going to take some sorting out. I also feel a bit off, as I have handed in my notice and yet I am setting all this up and I ma not going to benefit from it at all.\nI suppose it comes back to wanting to do what is right and that we should serve God and not man. It is always a useful measuring stick to use to work out motivations and what should be done in a situation. Who am I trying to do this for?.me?..the practice?..the client? or am I doing what Jesus would do.??\nFriday\nAnother bad hair day. Had real problems trying to fit the extra work into the day and so got a bit frayed around the edges. Fortunately next week will probably be the last thank goodness. The practice that used to do the nestle work was on the phone to me and not very friendly.\nHey ho.\nWent out for a meal with [friends] which was great. They are the church youth leaders and are really  switched on but I think need more support and help. Hopefully once the 1st of October hits I will be able to get more involved.\nWent to the Royal Oak at Welton which just has-been re done and is serving food on a proper basis as  well as having a pub part. More like a restaurant.\n[wife] ‘s food was excellent. Mine was Ok. I had an Indian trio of samosa, and 2 bharji to start with. I am afraid I have been spoilt by real Indian food so I should not have bothered going for it in a Cumbrian pub!!\n\n\nSaturday May 10th Saturday May 10th\nA day off after too many days working and too much stress.\nIt was really nice just to be around home doing the garden and not really worrying what else is going on in the world. I needed some space and I am pleased to have got it at long last. It is amazing how much better the world looks after a good nights sleep and a some time off.\nIn the afternoon the C boys came around and we took them to see  new chicks. S was there and I did not want to go down the route of explaining why I had made the decision I had to leave so chickened out of telling her.. I suppose I am happy with it and I just want to forget about for the w/e.\nSo we arrived with 7 boys which is quite brave. Fortunately we could not stay long as we had to be back to go out to Gianni’s with D. He took us out and it was really good fun. The kids were all in good form.\nCame back and watched the first part of a DVD on John Grisham’s book “The Client”.\nHe is an excellent writer and although film can never develop the characters the same as a book. So the film was good but only OK.\nSunday 11th\nChurch was good this morning and it was good to be there and spent ages chatting to folk . But came back to lunch with a couple who stayed too long!! There are some people I find really draining, and she is one. It is awful but I get really wound up and just want them to go after about 30 minutes. They came for lunch and did not leave until after tea so I was almost going spare…\nMonday 12th\nI find the silence around the fact I am going a bit unnerving. It is a bit elephant and coffee table really. A lot of the farmers I suppose don’t yet know or if they do how to respond. \nToday’s frustrations are all with things not working. BT have sent me a bill for £115 for fixing the line that was struck by lightening.  I was put through three depts before I gave up. I may try just not paying and see if they can register the fact the bill is being disputed.\nThe other frustration is the car doors have gone again in [wife]’s car which is incredibly frustrating. They have been fixed and fixed and fixed. Although it is under warranty I am getting to the stage that I feel we are being fobbed off.\nTues 13th\nI went to hear MG from the LICC (London Institute of Contemporary Christianity) speak at the Living Word. This is a series that happens every spring and is organised by a group of ministers and folk from Carlisle.\nHe is a very interesting speaker. He is an ex Ad man and his whole message is to get the “church” to look out side of it self. He thinks that Christianity in the west has become a “leisure time ” activity and is not impacting the rest of peoples lives. There is a concept of the sacred secular divide. The church does not get involved in secular things, work, culture, the arts, sport, and in some ways philosophy too. Whereas there should be no divide. Christ is either Lord of all, or not at all.\nHe also is a very amusing speaker. He was talking about how technology is usually neutral, but how it is used has very far reaching effects, on family, work and society. He used the microwave as an example. With a very amusing story about how he managed to save the sleep of the whole of North London by using the new fangled microwave to heat his daughter’s midnight bottle. Thereby saving the chancellor huge sums in lost revenue…with typical Jewish hyperbole.\nHe then moved on to his kids now teenagers, not coming in for the meal he has prepared but reheating it in the microwave, and how that led to a lack of communication, and again hyperbole to his angst about not understanding the younger generation. \nAs this is a diary about FMD how do I relate this to my experience of FMD??\nOn the simple level the culture within DEFRA needs to change.\nServant hood whether by Civil servants or politicians has been forgotten.\nTruth will out. Spin will fall.\nComputers should be a tool of all and master of none.\nOrganisations need to have a human face for people to relate to. Whether it is the Brigadier or the CVO.\nPeople are individuals created by God and have feelings and are not numbers or statistics.\nThe Post modernist human secularism where truth is relative. Where Brown can announce that everything is under control, can mislead Parliament and people and it is acceptable. I actually strongly feel that the current Presidential style of where no one can make a decision with out refer to their boss is a poor model.\nPain, disaster, illness and trouble are part of the human condition. \nPart of the fall. \nOf evil in the world.\nEnough philosophy its time for bed.\n\n\nMonday 17th May\nThis was the big Golden wedding Anniversary Day.\nIt was [wife]’s parents Golden wedding and her brothers and family all came to stay for the w/e. The celebration meal was at Lyzzick Hall in Keswick. The big surprise for [wife]’s Mum was that her bridesmaid and husband were coming over from Canada. J picked them up from the airport and took them to a B&B.\nOther friends were also coming as a surprise. \nRP started the surprises by coming in dressed as a waitress. She came in and offered [wife]’s Mum a drink and she was really overcome. The other surprises of bridesmaid and Canadians was really nice to see. \nThe younger parts of the clan went off to the climbing wall while the older part went for a look at the lake in the rain.\nIt was a really nice day ended by a firework display thanks to C. As he grew up in Belfast during the troubles and fireworks were banned he has a real passion for them now as a big kid!\nSunday\nWent to church with everyone, a very mixed group but they coped!\nP spoke in the morning meeting he was very good. He is a publisher and was talking about the church in China as he has just helped to publish a book about some of the Christian house church.\nIt makes the materialistic church in the west look very weak and un spiritual.\nIn the evening MM spoke on the Christian at work which was very good and very funny. He was a bed sales man when he was a student and he was very funny about how he made shy engaged couples lie down and try the beds. This really tickled [other son] (Age 8) much to his Gran’s tut-tutting!!!\nThe point he was making in between the jokes, was that he  had been told that he was to say that the bed s would all be delivered in 3-4 weeks, when in fact it could be up to 6 weeks but the shop keeper thought this would put people off. This meant that MM ended up in bother with couples arriving back from their honey moon to no bed! So he decided to listen to God’s way and tell the truth, which he said like most biblical teaching is obvious once it is explained, and tell people the truth not what they want to hear.\nMon\nWent and read the TB test for the tenant farmer. There was 1 I/R. The reaction of the farmer took me back fairly badly and I was quite shocked at the sheer vehemence of his reaction, fortunately it was mostly at DEFRA . He went out early on to the disease and he therefore got much lower compensation than a lot of the later ones. He had some cattle wintering at his farm for some one else who went out later on with FMD at his home holding. The difference in the valuations for the same type of cattle was horrendous.\nHe also has buildings that he owns on a small parcel of land. The buildings were old and knackered but usable. (A lot of string and gates.) DEFRA pulled them to pieces during FMD and then offered him peanuts o reinstate them, which meant he could not get them back into a usable state. So he is not a happy bunny.\nSpent the afternoon castrating horses which is not my favourite job. If a stirk kicks you, it hurts. If a horse kicks you, it usually means a trip in an ambulance. You are therefore very tense and ready to move in awkward positions.\nCanadians and [wife]’s parents headed off for a trip around the borders in our people carrier. They are coming back to swap over cars at the end of the week. [wife] has the tank to run around in for the week.\nTuesday\nMy back is twinging from the castrating and a calving yesterday and is really sore. So did paperwork while sitting like a ramrod until I gave up and came back to lie down. Did the back exercises hourly but it just got stiffer and sorer.\nWeds\nSpent morning reading in bed and doing back exercises but cannot get it moving.\nWent to see the accountant in the afternoon to sort out the practicalities of going freelance, and finishing at the vets.\nThursday\nBack is a lot better and starting to move much more freely. The first negative comment on me leaving today came from a farmer who has decided that the only way to make money is to go for 300 cows. He has therefore planned all this, designed new parlours, been to look at other large herds, thought it all through. Unfortunately his costings are on buying in dairy cows at £6-700 per head and just recently they have gone to over a thousand which means he is out by £60K, oops. But he said that he thought I was deserting them. In a way I suppose I am.\nBack in to being On Call with a vengeance. A calving, a caesar, a prolapsed uterus, hey ho.\nFriday\nInteresting statistic on the radio, whether it is right or wrong I do not know. In the EU the average beef cow is subsidised to the tune of $2 per week, the average African earns less than that. \nThe Canadians and [wife] s parents arrived back from their trip around the borders. The good news is they baby sat (or teenage and child minded) while we went out to the Lemon lounge, the bad news is they are to feed and look after over the W/e. My brother and family arrive tomorrow, so it will be a bit crowded.\nIt was really nice to be out on our own with relative peace around us. The noise from an office party does not impinge as it is nothing to do with us.\n\n\nSaturday 31st May 2003\nA gardening day. \nWe decided that we would have to get the place sorted out so spent most of the day in the sunshine pulling weeds and sorting out the garden. It was a beautiful day. My back was pretty sore by the end of the day but we got it nearly all sorted which was good.\nThe boys cut the lawn and A sat on it and read her book.\nAnother BBQ by the end of the day, A made the salads, while the boys cooked so it was a family meal.\n[wife] and the older two headed for Tesco’s while I cleared the debris away.\nSunday June 1st\nThe sun is still flaming but the seeds and seedlings are looking a bit sad and whithered in spite of the watering. \nI have really enjoyed the week off but there has been very little on FMD.\nMet up with [friends] at church, home visiting parents.\n In the evening caught up with the As. He is an Indian gastro enterologist who worked at Carlisle. They now work in Bombay so it was good to see them.\nThey are hoping to set up an AIDS hospice. There are currently over a million people who are HIV +ve in Bombay.\nMonday\nBack to work and quite busy so it looks as if the June quiet period is not going to materialise. With folk on holiday it makes it seem busier any way.\nIt took me until 4pm to get to my in tray which after a week was overflowing as usual.\nTuesday\nThis is more like June. Long lunch and spent the morning trying to get the accountancy package up to date.\nSent off another speculative e mail job application. A friend from church who is now studying physio therapy at Glasgow came and insisted [wife] & I went out for a walk together which was really nice. He is a really nice young guy.\nWent to beach at Beckfoot where we were the only ones walking the beach. There was one serious kiter. I have not seen such a serious kite for a long time. It was fairly windy and he had it anchored behind him so as not to be taking off with it!!\nWeds\nSpent the morning doing fertilities and then spent time sorting out issues with George. There was so little work it is boring for the assistants.  The June quiet patch ahs arrived. The bills did not go due to a computer upgrade cocking the system up. The systems are now so complex they are beyond any reasonable way of keeping tabs, you have to trust the experts who you don’t!!\nThursday\nDay off spent it writing out a business proposal to try and get work via a consultancy firm. Then tried fixing the extractor fan and failed. \nThursby football club is going really well with some more lads coming along. The standard is variable but good fun.\nFriday\nTB testing again at Fs. They had just heard about me leaving and were full of questions. The night was really busy. On first call and had lots going on. [wife] was at a retreat, thinking through the future and reporting on the last year. So I was trying  to juggle kids as well.\n\n\nSaturday 7th June 2003\nLast night was terrible with a dog to see in the middle of the night and put down. It was only a young dog but it had leukaemia and was not responding to treatment. It had colic probably from the mesenteric Lymph nodes and was rolling around in pain. Not nice for them or me.\nSat am was busy too. Went to one of the organic farms to see an ill cow post calving. He was saying that there are three farmers, all none FMD giving up milking. One is another organic dairy farm. He was promised a premium of 10p per litre and his costings were based on 28p per litre. He is getting a premium of less than 0.5p per litre which takes it to 16p. The figures do not add up so he is giving up. The other 2 are small farms who cannot make it work. 40-50 cows.\nSlept in the afternoon and went to a party in the evening. Bizarrely as we were walking in the people whose dog I put to sleep last night walked in as well!! \nThey live next door and had been invited as well.\nWeird.\nSpent time chatting but came to 10 and I was dead on my feet.\nSunday 8th\nThe On call changes from  2nd (Back up) to 1st at 8:30 am. The phone started at 8:35…. Urghhh. I am finding it very hard to have any enthusiasm knowing that I ma leaving in a few months.\nOne of the farms I was on has given up dairy and were hoping to retire FMD year but lost money because of all the restrictions. So they are now hoping to finish this back end, may be. They were hoping to keep the Milk quota and lease it out as a pension but because of the new rules they will have to sell it and the price is low, as there are a lot of non producers who are in the same boat. It was at its height worth £1 per litre, a lot was bought and sold in the 40-60p per litre, it is now around the 10p mark. Funny world agriculture.\nMonday 9th \nCalving at 5am followed by other calls so an early start. Busy day at work \nWent to a meeting for the new Crusaders support worker. It is supposed to be county wide but is going to be based around Kendal, as that is where the legacy that is providing a lot of the money is based so it is less relevant tot this end of Cumbria. So I have backed out of the organisation committee, as most of the meetings will be at Rydal. Too far for me. We were there tonight, so did not get back until 11:30 which after a w/e on call is too late for this bunny.\nTuesday 10th\nSpent 45 mins on the phone trying to work out what I am going to be doing in Oct  with a guy from Pfizer. I then had to spend the rest of the evening sorting out the emails I needed to send to him.\nWeds 11th\nSpent the morning having nursery visits where the local infants schools come around the vets and I give my wee guided tour. It is quite fun and the little things that we do they really love; Blowing up the anaesthetic bag; The X ray quiz and listening to dog’s hearts.\nI always take some of [son]’s chickens in, as well, as most kids are not use to having Birds or handling them. [son] has spent so many hours carrying them around they are fairly tame and used to being picked up.\nI don’t know that effort pays back in commercial terms but it is fun.\nFootball training in the evening with 20 lads which was brilliant.\nThursday 12th\nOn call and exhausted after the excitement of the week. The phone went at 7pm from the answering service to say that a women had rung and asked for the pass word for the alarm. This of course meant nothing to those answering the phone. I however put 2 + 2 together to work out that the alarm at the practice and gone off and that the police would be on their way. Why does this always happen when you are in the bath. So I jumped out the bath and rushed down to find out what was going on. There was a police man there who was waiting for me to lead the way in! We found a very scared dog sitting in the prep room, having escaped from its kennel.!!!\nIt then took an hour to get the alarms reset.\nLife is a rich tapestry.\nFriday 13th\nWent to lawyers today to meet up to go through the dissolution of the partnership. Bit sad in a way, but another nail bashed in to my leaving coffin!\nFinished work and spent evening playing football and doing some coaching, which was good fun. [son] was off school today. He was full of cold and just exhausted. He just needed time out really. He goes at everything at 110%.\n\n\nSaturday 14th June 2003\nWorking am. Why is it even if you have a few quiet days in the week by the time the w/e comes it is busy again?? \nReally warm so sunshine and gardening. A had decided she was going to do a changing rooms on the double room in  the cottage, so she and a friend worked away all day at it. I was very impressed by the time we had finished our barbeque in the evening it was all back to ship shape and was finished. She is some pup.\nSunday \nWent down to Whitehaven to see the tall ships in the harbour. There was only one there which was disappointing but it was good to look around. There was a fair buzz about the place and heaving with people as the weather was great.  There was a display of Jet Ski’s which was fun to watch so the boys are now on at me to try and have a go.\nThe red arrows were brilliant. They have a tremendous display and the coloured streams they leave behind in the sky always amaze me. It is almost like they are writing in the sky.\nMonday\nFinally decided the Duck eggs were not going to hatch so broke them open to see if they were fertile. 1 exploded it was so rotten. Urghh!! Only one had a half formed egg in it. So I think the eggs were the problem not the incubation.\nTuesday\nTesting some more I/R’s for TB. Though the history is wrong, so I hope that they will clear. A new vet student turned up in the afternoon. She is staying with us until the w/e. Then with [colleague]. The vets is going to have to find new accommodation for students. Went to the Training evening for the soccer coaching. It was a form filling exercise and orientation so it was boring. But I am on the course which is good. At least I well have the piece of paper at the end of it.\nWeds\nFootie training at night. Only the hard core turned up, so looks like we will have a good group of 14-15 which means we will not have to choose and disappoint. Went for a run afterwards as feeling in need of exercise as not much large animal work at the moment means I am sitting around on the computer for a lot of the day which is sad. Must get fit is a constant resolution.\nSpent the evening up at Sandal watching the sun go down away from the phone and chaos at home.\nThursday. \nI was at work when I had a phone call from some one who had apparently run over [son] at school. Never an easy phone call to take, espy as she did not know what had happened. Fortunately he was OK.  He had been walking backwards and had stepped into the path of a car which had caught his heel. The damage was slight but it had upset him. \nThe school exit is appalling and needs sorted as busses, cars and bikes all share the same area as the kids walking. Inevitably kids are jostling and messing around so it is an accident waiting to happen.\nFriday\nHalf day as [wife] is starting her next w/e counselling course \nCould not really get going as a calving early this am, and a call late last night.\nSo having run on adrenalin for all the week I collapse in to a heap and find it hard to get going and get motivated. Spent the afternoon getting organised for the visitors arriving as [friends] are coming and [friend] who was our bridesmaid is coming across for the w/e.\n\n\nSaturday 21st June 2003\n Pay day. I don’t really know why it always sticks in my mind but at the moment with the 1st of October looming and the fact that the 21st will not be a pay day it is becoming a bit scary!!\nSpent morning on run around and house jobs, ferrying to and from squash.\nWent to town in pm with A & [son] having left off the younger ones at Cottinghams and spent a pleasant half hour in Ottakars. Even they were running low on THE book. The latest Harry Potter which I had meant to order via internet but had not quite got around to.\nThe statistic is that she is expected to sell 6 every second over the w/e. She makes £1 per book which means £360 per minute,  £21,600 per hour (not a bad hourly rate!) or just over a million quid for the w/e. As every other person on the tills was buying a copy, I can well believe it.\nSun 22nd \nChurch in the morning was joint communion and was lead by the Denton Holm house group. The church meets up in small groups mid week to pray and study bible, and the Denton Holme grp lead the service, it means you get a refreshingly different type of service with different people taking part and leading. It was good. Followed by a picnic in the park which was OK but I just wanted to fall asleep in the sunshine. I am suffering from stopping syndrome. I can keep going on the adrenalin but when I stop, thump, I fall asleep and can not get going.\nPicked up Liz from church in the evening. Having left youngest two at home as [wife] was late back from her course. Thank goodness for mobile phones, or rather at least they manage to make a complex life possible. Really I should have let her pick up [friend] and missed church and upset A by telling her she couldn’t go. But it all worked out in the end.\nMon 23rd\n[friend] arrived at some terrible hour, she finally left Bristol after 8pm after meaning to leave at lunchtime. So as [wife] and I were exhausted we did not get up to welcome her! \nWork is really quiet with very little happening.\n[son] is in a strop cos we will not let him go sailing after cricket after school as he will be exhausted. He takes after  us, if there is a possibility, we try to achieve it. Our own fault really, but it is weird how you see your own faults coming through in your children.\nTues 24th\nSpent the day talking to people on the phone trying to get funding for the research project, have a few leads and ideas to get together, so should be interesting to see if it comes together.\nWeds 25th\nStarted at 4am with a caesarean which was really nice as that time in the morning is beautiful. It is just a shame that the rest of the day is a bit of a wash out because of it. Went at night to the FA training course which was class room based on a warm sunny evening and I was struggling to stay with it. I have also decided that I need to get fit as the practical day is going to be very long for my unfit legs.\nThursday\nThe electrician arrived to sort out the electrics in the bathroom, which are still not right. The lights keep fusing and the fan will not work. I had a look at the wiring which is a mess and decided I could not follow it, and after my last experience I decided I would just pay him to keep him in a job.\nI had a very enjoyable day off, played [son] at squash and lost. Now not only is he better than me at football but squash a swell. All down hill from here on in.\nWent to church in the evening as RW was speaking. It was interesting to hear him, though was more a chat than a biblical exposition.\nFriday.\nThe email from the verse of the day seems to sum up a years worth of diaries\nWhen times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider:\nGod has made the one as well as the other. \nTherefore, a man cannot discover anything about his future.\n\nEcclesiastes 7:14, New International Version\n\nThe future is uncertain, I will leave my job in a few months time for a new start. The pressures of FMD seem to be distant in the warm summer weather and in the quiet workload making me feel rested and relaxed.\nThe challenges both for agriculture, the veterinary practice and for policymakers are still very large. \nThere is now a threat of bio terrorism to add to the food scares and the threat of exotic disease. \nLife carries on, we may not learn from all our mistakes, and government depts are a blunt, slow awkward machine, but the cows will still need to be milked and we will still need food on our table. If in ’68 you told some one that we had not had an outbreak of FMD for 35 years, they would have said “well done”. If you had said 2 men were milking 300 cows on a Cumbrian farm, and getting 7000 litres per cow he would never have believed you.  \n\nThere is a time for everything,\nAnd a season for every activity under the heaven.\n\nA time to be born and a time to die\nA time to plant and a time to uproot\nA time to kill and a time to heal\nA time to tear down and a time to build\nA time to weep and a time to laugh\nA time to mourn and a time to dance\nA time to scatter stones and a time to gather them\nA time to embrace and a time to refrain\nA time to search and a time to give up\nA time to keep and a time to throw away\nA time to tear and a time to mend\n A time to be silent and a time to speak\nA time to love and a time to hate\nA time for war and a time for peace.\n
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1981\nGender: F\nOccupation: Group 5\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\nPaper diary has lots of newspaper cuttings and other related material.\n\nWeek beginning 25th February 2002\nAfter the snow, which fell at the weekend, melted combined with the additional rainfall, many of the fields surrounding the village, as well as the roads, were flooded.  Usually this wouldn't concern you much, however, with the burial site being so close and the number of underground streams in the area, it does become worrying.  There isn't any guarantee that groundwater in the surrounding area won't become effected and to what extent.  There seem to be a number of aspects to me concerning this issue which remain unclear.  For example, what exactly can be carried in water and how might this effect people in the area? ; What is being tested for in the surrounding streams? what exactly is classed as a danger?; and if problems did arise, how would they be monitored and resolved.  All these issues do tend to make you anxious.\nIn particular on Monday, when I was out walking my dog  I noticed a couple of drains which I passed looked as if they were blocked and there was a lot of water around.  It just makes you wonder how much has come possibly from the burial site and if it is actually safe.\nMy worries on Monday about the groundwater were even more emphasised by the statement I heard on the Border News on Tuesday, by the Environment Agency.  This statement was concerning the future safety of the groundwater in the area around the burial site.  The Agency could give no guarantee that the groundwater would not become affected in the future.  Since then I have heard no further news about the issue.  There may be more information on news reports I missed. In my opinion not enough information is given to the public about these issues.  Results of testing by the Environment Agency are meant to be available to the public, however, I have never heard much about the details.  I think more effort should be made to inform, in particular, resident near burial sites as these issues are bound to be important to them.\nAfter hearing the news, I did become more worried but at the end of the day there is little we can really do ourselves.  You find yourself having to trust people or agencies you know little about and just hoping everything will be alright.\nOn Tuesday, also noticed a horrible smell outside, so did my fiancé, but again you can't be sure exactly where this is coming from or what is causing it?\n\nOn Thursday, with news of possible Foot and Mouth case further south near Leeds, I became very worried that this whole thing was going to start all over again!  My worries were about the farmers and people involved and how they would be affected; if other cases could be identified and in particular, affecting my own life, if animals would have to be slaughtered again in the future, where would they be disposed of? Would existing burial sites be reopened as opposed to finding suitable sites for new burial sites.  It would seem easier to reopen burial sites but what would this mean for the future and to what extent would the health risks be increased?\nI was very relieved to hear the testing of the foot and mouth cases came back negative.  I was relieved for the people involved, and also residents near burial sites.  However, this did raise questions in my mind of how this sort of situation would be handled in the future and what consequences it might have? \n\nWeek 2 – 4th March\nOn Monday passed driving test and now fiancé and myself are insured on a small car.  This opens up so many opportunities and we have a huge sense of freedom.  Last summer we had planned to go on a camping holiday with our dog [dog].  We had al our equipment prepared but were unable to go due to the foot and mouth outbreak.  Neither of us imagined how long and widespread the outbreak would be And Thought at first it would be over in a few weeks.  Now a year later we are able to replan our holiday.  This is exciting as we have waited so long.  It is unbelievable to think how long it has taken for restrictions on the countryside to return to as normal as can be possible, due to the circumstances.  For the actual people directly involved in the foot and mouth crisis this must have seemed like far longer!\nOn Tuesday I had a lovely surprise when I noticed the lambs in a field near my house when out walking my dog.  It was lovely to see and for a few minutes things almost seemed normal again.  Even though the burial site is only about a mile away, it is hidden from view from the village, you never forget though as soon as you spot the windmills and remember the repeated pictures featured in the news.\nSeeing the lambs really did lift my spirits and the future after foot and mouth didn’t seem as bad as  thought the week before.\nI can’t recall the exact days but they were towards the beginning of the week.  On two particular occasions my fiance and I noticed a terrible smell outside.  We aren’t sure exactly what the smell was, just that it was very unpleasant!\nThe only other incident which I can recall which stands out in my mind this past week is a conversation I had with my fiancé’s Granddad.  We were talking about how bad last year’s Foot and Mouth outbreak had been and he recalled the outbreak of 1967.  He commented on how he thought that outbreak had been far better controlled.  It was better as the animals were killed and buried on the actual farms in lime.  There was no transporting dead or live animals like last year.  He also commented on the fact that there were no pyres then and that he hadn’t thought it a good idea last year.  Overall he thought that last year’s outbreak could have been dealt with better and that action was taken far too late to prevent the disease spreading.\n\nWeek 3 – 11th March\nOne new thing I have noticed this week is the amount of birds there are flying around, especially black crows.  I think it is because I have been driving and every time I drive past the fields at the south end of the village, there are large amounts of crows hustled together. Can never remember it being quite like that last summer.  It makes you wonder why so many are drawn to just those fields.  As I drive past in the next few weeks I will see if it is still the same.\nOn about occasions this week fiancé and I have noticed a slight smell outside again.  Not as  foul smelling but still noticeable.\nOn Tuesday, saw new series featured on ITV called Rural Lives.  I think this is a good idea as the issue of foot and mouth is still very painful to a lot of people and is not over yet.  The effects are still happening however, on the news and in other media, it isn’t often mentioned and doesn’t get the attention it deserves.\nHopefully through programmes like this people will get a better understanding of the issues involved and what different people went through.\nIf an outbreak ever happened again, all the people involved would hopefully have a better idea of how to handle the actual crisis and a better idea of people’s needs for example, the farmers.  These are long term effects which can’t be ignored.\nMy Mum came out for a couple of nights. She loves coming out to see us as she lives in Carlisle it is a total change of scenery. She thought it was great and enjoyed taking my dog on long walks which she was unable to do for a long time..  We went to see the lambs in the lovely weather – shows we are able to start enjoying the countryside again, especially coming up to Spring and Summer.\nWe were even able to go to Dalston with my dog and wander about.  We have been so used to having to stick t the roads just in the local area.  It was lovely, a nice change!\nIt does tend to make you more confident about the coming year and we are looking forward to the Summer!\n\nWeek 4 – 18th March \nThis past week started of with a day out at Bowness.  I went with my fiancé and took our dog, [dog].  It was lovely to let her off the lead to run, she really enjoys it and got absolutely filthy.  Travelling in the car is becoming easier for [dog] and she goes crazy when you arrive.  We have only had [dog] just over 2 years and for the past year we couldn’t let her off the lead to run anywhere.  We are tiring t train her again, she listens to a certain extent, but we have to keep an eye on her cheeky side.  I remember wondering when the foot and mouth started how we were going to exercise [dog], as walking her on the roads used to be more difficult due to the large vehicles travelling up and down and also the fact [dog] isn’t the best on the lead.  She used to be really energetic  and a bit of a handful, however now she has got  used to a more relaxed life and at times I think she quite likes it.  It did us all good to have some exercise and fresh air and it was lovely to have a change of scenery. \nApart from on Monday, I haven’t really been anywhere else (apart from shopping) and have been busy doing my A-level work.  Therefore I haven’t really noticed anything different this week and haven’t thought about foot and mouth as much.\nMy overall view this week has been quite confident and there has been no real significant happenings to change my view.  Quite a good week overall!\n\n\n\nWeek 5 – 25th March\nFirstly I received the Newsletter sent out to the Standing panel.  It was a relief to finally get some information regarding the burial site.  It was good to have an explanation on how things work on the site in terms that we can understand.  It is a relief to know that everything so far is still safe, however, it is evident that there is much more work and monitoring to be carried out in the future.  Even though it is still not possible to do anything ourselves, our minds are at least put at rest by knowing something.  It surprises me how long it has taken for information like this to be made accessible to the public.  I think this newsletter is a very good step forward as information is reaching the public and participants are also given the opportunity to ask questions and put other ideas forward.\nOn Wednesday, My Mum came out again to see us.  Once again, we took a walk to go see the lambs in the field near us.  It was enjoyable and we had lovely weather!  It makes you realise how much you take for granted around you without thinking twice!  My Mum has made me realise this even more by seeing how much she enjoys such a simple thing and how special she thinks it is!  Sometimes I think when you are surrounded by the country and nature all the time you forget how lucky you are!  My Mum and Gran would both love to live somewhere like here!\nThe biggest surprise this week was when I received the parish magazine for the month and found in it the “Watchtree News”.  This is the first time I have ever seen anything like this from the parish council.  I think it is a very good idea as the information will be accessible to everyone in the appropriate parishes. Even though it is long overdue it is very worthwhile and I think, will be very informative.  It covers a wide range of issues, the majority of which I knew very little about and wouldn’t have known for the future for example, the maintenance going to be carried out between the A595 Orton Grange junction and the site entrance.  At least we now have knowledge of this before it is going to be carried out as it will affect other members of our family who live on the Orton Grange junction, who would otherwise have had no idea.  Some of the information was surprising, for example the number of tankers that leave the site everyday which I didn’t expect to be so high and which could rise.\nImportant issues are also now being tackled such as the bad state of the local roads. The affected people are also being encouraged to report these things themselves to the appropriate people.\nI think this has been a significant development and will be very useful in the aftermath of foot and mouth.  Communication between the appropriate authorities and the public is essential! \n\n\nWeek 6  1st April\nUnfortunately it has been all go this week!  One bit of work after another!  I haven't had time to focus on very much else this past week. Despite this fact, I have still had quite a positive week. It is better studying out here as there are few distractions and everything is lovely and peaceful - a drastic difference from last year.  At that time it was difficult to concentrate on anything for too long!  Far too many distractions!\nMy fiancé however has been up to the burial site and nearby on Sunday. He went for a drive with a friend and wondered what it looked like up there.  We have only ever seen it on television reports, but never been up there ourselves.\nIn a future diary when he has time, he will write a few words on what he thought! \n\n\n\nWeek 7  8th April\nOnce again this week has been full of work!  I haven't had much time to do anything apart from work.  ON Thursday I had a break and my Mom came out for a BBQ.  For the first time this year, we have put out our patio tables and chairs as the weather was staying pleasant.  We sat out for a while in the evening and had our BBQ.  It was a lovely break for my Mom as there is peace and quiet out here as opposed to in town.  We all really enjoyed it!\nMy Mom and [fiance] both commented how lovely it was to sit outside in the nice weather, without a nasty smell about.  Over the past couple of weeks I haven't noticed things smelling so bad as on a few occasions recently.  There has also been a decrease in the amount of birds, in particular crows which have been in the fields to the south of where we are near the crossroads.  On the couple of occasions during the week when I have been past the fields there have only been a couple of birds flying around as opposed to a whole field full of crows at one time.\nIt was also lovely to hear the sheep, especially as the evening became darker.  In the background, you could hear the sheep, just in the field next to us and also the lambs a few fields away.  It was something which we still aren't quite used to, but which we appreciate so much more now!!\n\n\nWeek 8 15th April\nI was feeling quite confident this week until Friday when watch the news. I saw the report on new Bovine TB cases which are worrying.  Even though it is said it wouldn’t be as serious as foot and mouth it is still worrying as it has the potential to destroy many more lives and bankrupt more farmers who have probably just got over foot and mouth!  The worry must be especially bad for the farmers, as it is bad enough for the general public especially after seeing the damage caused by foot and mouth in such a short space of time. It would be absolutely terrible if this summer was anything like last summer.  How long would it take for everything to get back to normal then?\nEven though foot and mouth is evidently far different to Bovine TB hopefully things will have been learned from last year which will prevent this from becoming a disaster too!\nApart from that other aspects of the foot and mouth, smell etc, haven’t been as bad this past week. I haven’t noticed any particular occasions  when the smell has been particularly bad or noticeable.  In addition, on the occasions when I have driven past the fields near the crossroads there have been hardly any crows near there, which is a huge improvement!  There were a number of seagulls in one field but nowhere   near the amount of crows there were before.\nThere has also been a decrease in the amount of tankers going by recently, that I have noticed.  At first I didn’t take much notice of it but then [fiancé]’s Grandad mentioned that he had hardly seen any.  He seems to notice them move more than we do as he lives on the Orton Grange junction with Wigton road  and they all have to go past there!\nWith all these things happening the presence of the burial site nearby seems less obvious!\n\n\nWeek 9 – 22nd April\nThe last week has been quite a pleasant week, probably because I have eventually finished my coursework and have been able to have a bit of peace and quiet!  I think this combined with periods of lovely weather have made me feel quite good.\nOn Tuesday, when I travelled to town and back I went past the fields near the crossroads to the south of the village which in the past have been full of crows or seagulls. As I have noticed on other odd occasions over the past week, they appear to be empty now.  I’ll keep an eye on how this changes over the summer if it does.\nOn Friday, I noticed that there were a number of cattle and calves in the field just opposite our house. I can stand and watch them from my back patio doors which is lovely.  With the reintroduction of the sheep and cattle in the area, it is like everything is coming together finally after the foot and mouth, and life is returning to normal in some sense. The cattle seem to be the last part needed for everything to seem to be running properly and the animals finally moving about at last. \nI think this fact combine with their being no significant incidents of nasty smells or the rumbling of the tankers going by, has made things seem better.\nWhen talking to [fiance]’s Grandad, he mentioned again that there still haven’t been as many tankers going past his house at Orton Grange as there have been.    This past week there have been hardly any reminders of the burial site and the past foot and mouth problems.  Living in the country has seemed quite normal after what seems a long time!\n\nWeek 10  29th April\nAll in all this week has been a good week overall!  With regard to the foot and mouth everything seems to have quietened down and there are hardly any visible reminders of the burial site and foot and mouth around the village.  As I mentioned last week, there still haven’t been any noticeable occasions of smells, possibly from the burial site; the tankers have hardly been noticeable around the village and the fields near the crossroads have still been fairly empty of birds, in particular crows.\nThis was explained and backed up in the Watchtree Newsletter in the parish magazines which I received this week.  It was good to read and very informative – worth reading.  I still think it is a good idea and is being done well as it discusses issues happening now and also keeps you informed about action in the future.  The newsletter mentioned the reduction in the amount of tankers which I have noticed.  It also mentions that there might be a slight smell from the burial sited during work but so far I haven’t noticed anything.  Once again it has been lovely seeing both the sheep and the cows in the surrounding fields especially at the moment when they are with their young.\nOn Saturday on the way down to [fiance]’s Grandad there were road works near the Baldwinholme bend in the road.  This part was in a bad condition and is now much better!  I think the damage was caused by the trucks etc used during foot and mouth.  However I’m not sure!\n\nWeek 11 6th May\nThis week has been my 21st Birthday!  I’m growing up!  I had a lovely day on Thursday and as a surprise I was taken t the Lake District for the day.  It was lovely and I really enjoyed it!  Firstly we stopped off at Bassenthwaite lake for a bit, fed the ducks and had a picnic.  Then off to Dodd Wood for a coffee and to see the Ospreys.  It was great to see them and I think we were quite lucky.  Then we had a pleasant walk around Myre House.\nI was reminded of how lucky we are in Cumbria to have such lovely places and I am glad that we are now able to go to these places again.  Now we’ve got a car we are going to take better advantage of Cumbria and what it has to offer.  Once again I realised how much we take what we have for granted.\nOverall this has been a good week and reminders of foot and mouth and the burial site have been minimal.  There have been no smells I have noticed, and hardly any signs of wagons.  It is still lovely to see the sheep and cattle around the village!\n\nWeek 12 – 13th May\nOn Wednesday I met my Mum in town and got the Cumberland News off her.  I was reading about the County Council Inquiry at Kendal.  I think it is good how the different people involved in the inquiry are all being honest about what happened.  That is the only way anything will be improved in the future if anything of a similar nature should happen again.  I really hope it doesn’t.  From reading the articles written and what people have said, it is clear what a wide range of people the foot and mouth crisis affected and also how badly.  When you read of other people who have had family who have been so low it has driven them to suicide you do seem to feel a bit guilty as when we complain, it hasn’t affected us is such a drastic way.  It brings the seriousness and the extent of the crisis to people’s attention.  Despite the terrible things which took place during the crisis hopefully some good will come out of it for the present and the future.\nOn Thursday [fiance] went to the doctor’s and was talking to a farmer in the waiting room.  As soon as [fiance] mentioned he lived in Great Orton, the farmer asked straight away what it was like to live here so near to the burial site and how he couldn’t imagine what it would have been like.  It too has been such a long time since anyone has said anything like that to either one of us.  At the time of the foot and mouth crisis people used to ask questions and what it was like to live so near.  It is strange when farmers in particular, feel sympathy towards you for living near the burial site, when on the other hand it is the farmers I feel sympathy for.\nBefore the foot and mouth crisis a fair number of people even from Carlisle didn’t know where Great Orton was’ but now many do and realise how close to Carlisle it actually is!  \n\n\n\nWeek 13 - 20th  May\nI haven't really done anything very exciting this past week, unfortunately, I've been revising again and preparing for a presentation for my A-level which I have to do next week.  My presentation was on 'turrets and watchtowers' which I found a bit confusing at first from the books I've been using so dragged [fiance] (to drive) and [dog] out past Brampton to Hadrian's Wall.  There I found a watchtower and a turret - everything became much clearer!  On the way back we spotted a sign for a camping barn on Hadrian's Wall (Banks East).  We were both very interested so sent away for the brochure.  At this point we decided to reconsider our holiday plans, and realised we didn't need to go far afield, like Amsterdam (our 1st choice); then Scotland (2nd choice).  We hadn't realised actually how many places there were so nearby which were ideal.  We came to the conclusion a holiday in Cumbria would be the best choice as 1. We could take [dog] with us; 2 we could go by car and 3 it would be a bit cheaper.  As [fiance] mentioned, it would also be good after everything to put the money we were spending back into Cumbria.\nWe were hoping to go next week as it is half term the week after and my exams after that!  Hopefully we will get something organised!\nOn Thursday we got the Orton newsletter. [fiance] and I were both quite disappointed when we read that land around this area are being sold for the building of houses. It is good in a way as people are moving forward after F&M but we wish it wasn't in a residential sense.  It is just a pity so much of the farming will be lost (6 houses at Baldwinholme, 4 in Great Orton).  Even though I haven't been brought up with a farming background from what I have seen it would be a pity for us to lose this part of our countryside.\n\n\nWeek 14 - 27th  May\nOn Monday saw CB and was pleased to hear the F&M standing panel project was going well as I think it’s worthwhile and as much as possible should be learned for the future.\nOn Tuesday I attended the meeting for the foot and mouth disease inquiry at Great Orton village hall at 7pm.  I was glad I attended the meeting as people could voice their opinions and try to get information about issues, both about the present and the future.  My general view of the meeting and how it went was that the general feeling of the villagers etc. was that they were losing interest and nothing was still being done. There were many empty seats, I estimated a total number of 50-60 people. There was a whole new panel of faces, even though this was a new inquiry so there were new people on  the panel but between the meetings there is no feel of continuity as no-one is sure of what has been said before and there are never the answers promised from one meeting to another.  It seems as if this is a way of avoiding answers and getting out of situations.\nThere were new aspects which were brought up which had not yet been disclosed (never at any meeting I have attended) such as the fact the burial was planned and used for the burial of uninfected animals, which is not what we were led to believe with al the engineering on site – again this is lack of communication and no-one is sure of the facts.  DEFRA also are only guaranteeing funding for this site for the next 5 years and it is worrying who’s burden this will become after then.?\nA variety of other issues were discussed – health, roads, handling of outbreak, vaccination etc.\nAfter the meeting I was glad I had been, however I felt rather angry by the way in which the questions are handled.  The answers are often vague, have no supporting evidence or are dismissed with “I’ll have to get back to you on that” or, “I can’t comment”.\nIn my opinion many of the farmers, villagers etc just want this whole thing brought to an end.  Ideally the remaining trenches filled in, a nature reserve created and maintained.  There were no guarantees of the site not being  used again or funding after the next five years.  Will this ever be achieved?\nOn Saturday morning [fiance] and I decided to go away for a short break to somewhere near and where we could take [dog].  It was a spontaneous decision for the Jubilee and because it was half term, I was not at college.  We ended up going to a caravan site with [dog] for 4 nights!  I will update about my holiday in the next diary!\n\nClipping from News and Star here – story about Great Orton public meeting and villagers’ request not to have site used again in the event of future emergencies. \n\n\nHOLIDAY - Week beginning Monday 3rd June\n\n\nWeek 15  10th June\nI am writing this a couple of days early just to tell you about our holiday!  It was lovely!  In the end we hadn't yet received the brochure on the camping barns so on Saturday we decided we would like to go away as son as possible and would like something for the Jubilee weekend.  After finding a caravan at Caldbeck, not far away, relatively quiet, we went.  By 5 pm on Saturday, [fiance] [dog] and I were there!  It was a lovely caravan site; lovely caravan and even a TV for the World Cup!\nThe caravan site was surrounded by common land sheep - lovely and quiet and a lot of places to keep [dog] occupied. We were so surprised at how quiet the campsite was over the Jubilee weekend but thought most of the people actually lived there.  It would be lovely in the future to have a small caravan there to go away to!\nThe surrounding places we went to were really busy for example Keswick, Bassenthwaite etc.\nI was quite surprised but thought it was great to see Cumbria lively again!  What a contrast to what I would have imagined these places to be like a year ago!  Especially for the Jubilee, everyone seemed to make such an effort - it was lovely to see!\nWe all had a lovely time, so relaxing!  OI don't think [dog] has ever walked so far!\nWe were surprised that somewhere so close was exactly what we wanted!  We were also happy we could put our money back into Cumbria. We would definitely go back!\nI feel so much more confident about the future especially in Cumbria after this week. If you didn't know about last year F&M outbreak in some cases it would be hard to tell! I really think Cumbria seems as if it could recover from this, hopefully.\n\nOn Saturday and Sunday - ill in bed.\n\n\nWeek 16    17th June\nWith the combination of not feeling very well at the beginning of the week; the car not running overt the week-end; and [dog] being in season, I haven't really been able to go anywhere this week. It has been quite frustrating but I have had work to do anyway.  I still feel quite confident about the future this week after being on holiday.  This is better than a couple of weeks ago after the FMD Inquiry meeting when I felt quite unsure at time of what was going to happen at Gt Orton.\nI had the F&M Panel newsletter and 'Watchtree Newsletter' (with Parish Magazine). I think both of these are good as you are able to gain information consistently about F&M in Cumbria, and in particular the burial site.  This information would be difficult to come by otherwise.  In particular I enjoyed reading about children at Milburn School with their memories of the F&M outbreak and the effort they have made.\n\n\nResearcher had spoken with respondent about possibility of monthly diary and she decided to start straight away - so although middle of month, here follows monthly write up.    She continued to record her diary in this way.  At times she offers short daily entries, drawing 4 weeks together within an overall reflective piece.   These daily entries are also recorded . \n\n\nWeek 20    15th  July \n(Writing up after 4 weeks)\nI am looking forward to attending the social evening in Dalston.  I am a bit nervous as am not used to doing these sorts of things but think it will be a good experience.  I was also pleased when I got the F&M panel newsletter and saw the article I made notes for. I have never done anything like this before and was quite pleased about the whole thing! \nOn the Saturday of week one, [fiance] and I went down to [fiance]'s Grandad's and noticed there were more signs up for land being for sale. Again we both think this is quite sad as the area will inevitable be changing in the near future.  We wonder how much of the land will be reused for farming or sold for new houses.  Taking into consideration the signs we have seen up in the past, quite a bit of land is going to change.\nOver the past weeks I have also received the 'Watchtree' newsletter with our parish magazine. I still think this is a good idea and worthwhile as you are updated every so often. This will also reach everyone in the village, so easily accessible.\nOver a period of a few days in week 2 of these 4 weeks, [fiance] and I both noticed a strange smell outside.  We could smell it here but not at [fiance]'s Grandad's which is only 2 miles away. It smelt just like a burning smell, so I am not sure whether it had anything to do with the burial site or anything being done up there.  I just thought I would mention it anyway!\nLast Wednesday I rang up the Archaeological Support group in Carlisle of which I have been a member for the past year and a half.  I had never been sent anything to do with it for along time and wondered why.  It turns out that last year as soon as F&M hit Cumbria, everything was cancelled and stopped. This I knew at the time and there was nothing else that could have happened. The thing I didn't realise was that things have been so badly affected that nothing has been arranged as yet, even so many months after F&M broke out. Once again this is another example of how things have been affected still so many months after.  There is also uncertainty about the future of this archaeology group as nothing has been decided yet and it will depend on how things go.  This is a pity and I hope things pick up in the future!\nOn the first week of these 4 weeks, [fiance] and I both noticed that we were coughing a bit more, especially at night and early in the morning.  Since then [fiance] has got better and is not coughing as much but now I have got a sore throat and a cold.  I don't think this is anything to do with the burial site or anything, but we were not sure about the coughing and I thought I would mention it.\n\n\n12th August - Writing up after 4 weeks\nI do not feel quite as nervous now as I did about the evening at Dalston Village hall.  It was a bit intimidating at first as I was going on the same night as frontline workers and health professionals.  I felt a bit out of my depth when I wondered what sort of stories they would be telling, compared to what I had seen.  These people would have had to deal with the situation first hand and must have seen some terrible things. After a couple of weeks I grew used to the idea and didn't feel as bad, it would turn out to be a good experience. As it turns out the evening is now on the 21st August and everyone is going together, things will be a bit more relaxed for me, I think.  I hope I will be able to make it!\nThe one major event that has made me think over the past couple of week is [fiance]'s Auntie Jean who has moved house from Orton Grange (2 miles away from us) into the middle of town.  It made me think that i definitely wouldn't like to move back into the middle of Carlisle after living here. Even though it hasn't been the most pleasant at times here with F&M last year and the building of the burial site, I would still miss everything about it.  Once again I am reminded how lucky I am to be surrounded by fields, cows, sheep and a horse in the overlooking field.  It is also usually quiet and peaceful - I can imagine quite different to the middle of Carlisle.  I think Jean will miss it quite a lot!\nJust over a week ago, [fiance] and I were busy getting our garden ready for the Village in Bloom. It was good to see everyone making an effort to everything looking nice.  Everything felt a bit more normal this year, whereas last year I think the Village in Bloom was the last thing on most people's minds!  It made me feel more confident about the future!  Perhaps everything or most things may return to normal eventually!\n\nWeek 24   12th August \nNothing extremely significant concerning F&M has happened this week.\nI have noticed, though, now when working at village pub – Wellington – even though I only do 1 day, it has really become quite busy.  I think business has improved after they tried more advertising.  I can remember back to during the Foot and Mouth outbreak – it was very  quiet, most people stayed away and the atmosphere in the pub was very depressing.  Now, over a year later things do seem to be picking up again and perhaps returning more to normal.  It is god to see!\n\n\nMonday 19th August\nAll in all it has been a quiet week, I haven’t really been out very much and not feeling well really.  I was a bit disappointed not being able to attend the social evening o Wednesday as my Mom was unable to get time off work or change her shift.\n\n26th August \nFirst of all we were noticing problems with our goldfish – when we first got them about two and a half years ago we had very few problems with them.  Over the past few months they have been getting ill.  We have tried all sorts (different chemicals) and still they have all died except one.  Omar, [fiance]’s cousin, who breeds fish came and had a look  and was baffled!  The only explanation is that the chemicals have been changed or increased, for example the chlorine which there appears to be a lot more of.  We obviously aren’t totally sure what the problem is but thought we should mention it anyway.\nThis week I also noticed the banner opposite the village shop in the village.  I have enclosed an article about this banner which appeared in the Cumberland News this week.  I think this sums up the mood I have noticed at the village meetings.  Nothing has yet been done to help the villagers etc, so what difference have the promises made?\nThis is the main reason why I feel less confident about the future this week regarding foot and mouth as these things are still dragging on.\n\n\nMonday 2nd September\nDuring the first week of these diaries nothing really significant happened regarding foot and mouth.  I did comment, however, that when working at the pub on Sundays, how busy the pub was and how business had seemed to improve a lot from what I had seen during the foot and mouth crisis. The atmosphere then had been depressing.  This made me feel more confident about the future regarding foot and mouth as another aspect of the foot and mouth had seemed to return back to normal.\nThis mood however did change during the third week of these diaries when I felt less confident about the future.  It all began when our goldfish started dying apart from oner.  We still are not sure exactly what caused it and are not sure whether or not it was because of the water here or something we did.  There just seems to be that little bit of doubt in my mind as you don’t feel totally sure about what is happening  in this area still, and therefore, I don’t think, really trust the organisations dealing with these issues.  The other thing that seemed to sum up some of my feelings was the banner which appeared opposite the village shop last week .  I think this shows the desperation and lengths some of the people in the village have to go through in order to get noticed and heard.  It seems ridiculous  that the same basic issues brought up in the earlier meetings have still not been dealt with.  It does make you lose the trust you had in the organisations involved (article enclosed).\nThis past week has been a little better, however, not that good.  I did receive the Watchtree Newsletter, in the Parish magazine, which is still good to receive as it updates you on a number of different aspects of the burial site.\nI also heard about the article in the newspaper regarding this inquiry from Cathy as well as my Mom who has saved it for me but as yet I have not read it.  I will comment on this in my next diary. \n\n\n9-15 September\nMonday\nGot free News & Star last week and found article on F&M diaries – not too bothered that it has been printed myself.\nTuesday\nSaw Cathy – said about articles – not too bothered myself but can see why otherwise involved would be as things are not represented in the right way and are misleading.  Good point though is that it may catch people’s attention – and get the point across that people are still suffering.  Got article from Cumberland news – Mum.\nSaturday\nFound article in Cumberland News regarding Village in Bloom – won a trophy for our special efforts in village in aftermath of F&M crisis (Mark Andrews trophy).\n\n\n16-22 September\nMonday\n[fiance] and I noticed a burning smell when we came back home in the evening.  Not sure what it is from – reminds us of F&M crisis.\nWednesday\nRoad works in village – didn’t affect us too much.\nThursday\nRoad works between here and [fiance]’s Grandad’s – annoying at times – has taken such a long time to do – reminds us of F&M crisis.  [fiance] and I noticed a burning smell again – not sure where from.\nFriday\nGood that Watchtree Newsletter told us of these road works as wouldn’t have known.\nSaturday\nThese aspects aren’t too bad on their own but the atmosphere reminds you of the F&M crisis last year.\n\n\n23-29 September\nMonday\nRead the Diarist and also had a look at the Inquiry Report I was sent after attending the village meeting.\nTuesday\nHave not had time to read very much of it but I will get round to it and then comment on it.\nFriday\nParish magazine and Watchtree Newsletter – still good to be updated on what is going on – 1. Roads and  2. Visiting the site.\n\n\n30-6th October\nMonday\nRang up to book table at the Autumn Fayre being done in village hall – people pleased that people in village getting involved!\nTuesday\nWater has been quite bad especially on Tuesday – full of chlorine – had to leave for a while for everything to evaporate.  Makes you quite concerned about whether or not it is safe to drink!\n\n\n6th October - Writing after 4 weeks  \nDuring week I  read the articles regarding those F&M diaries which appeared in the Cumberland News and the News and Star (they are enclosed).  After reading these and speaking to C, I myself wasn’t too bothered or offended by what was written but could easily have seen why other people would have been specially if they are finding things really difficult.  I think there is a good side to these articles as well though as they will have grabbed people’s attention and highlighted the fact  that there are still problems regarding F&M this long after the crisis.  Even though the articles were misleading they have also done some good! When reading the Cumberland News I also found a mention of Great Orton regarding the Village in Bloom.  It turns out we were awarded the Mark Andrews trophy for special efforts during the aftermath of F&M.  It would have been nice to win a better award but at least we were recognised for something!  I was quite please!\n\nWeek 2 was probably the worst week I have had during the past month regarding F&M as the whole week just seemed to remind me of what it was like during the crisis!\nFirstly there were road works between here and [fiance]’s Grandad’s (only 2 miles away).  I understand these had to be carried out but it made it difficult and inconvenient to get to [fiance]’s Grandad’s as you didn’t know which roads were gong to be closed when!  Now that the work has been done everyone that I have spoken to about it think they will cause more trouble than before as when you pull out of the lay bys it is dangerous as the grass and verge have not been smoothed out.  I think they are alright if you already know the roads but I wouldn’t be as confident if I hadn’t driven on them before!\nThe other aspect which made the road works seem worse were two instances when [fiance] and I both noticed a burning smell (Monday and Thursday).  We were not sure where this came from but it still reminded us of the crisis.\n\nOn week 3 I received a copy of the F&M Inquiry and glad I went to a meting in the village – sometimes it feels good to be involved even though in such a small way!\nI also received the ‘Diarist’ newsletter and ‘Watchtree’ newsletter which I am still glad I receive.  Without the Watchtree Newsletter I don’t think I would have been informed of the road works being carried out!  I am also glad the site is progressing and that people are now being given the opportunity to visit the site if they wish.\n\nOn week 4 there was only one major problem with our water.  On Tuesday the water was that full of chlorine that we had to leave it for all the chlorine in it to evaporate, or boil it, even to give [dog] a drink!  This is the second time this has happened and it does concern you as firstly why is this being done and secondly is the water safe to drink?  We are not sure who to contact about this as last time we contacted United Utilities who said it was just routine and nothing to worry about! \n\n\nWeek beginning 7th October\nNot much this week regarding FMD – think I have been too busy thinking about other things.\n\n\nWeek beginning 14th October\nMonday\nRelaxing a bit today as going to be a busy day tomorrow and away on Wednesday.\nTuesday\n[fiance]’s exam – turned out to be quiet here today which was good for [fiance]’s exam as he did it at home – would have been difficult last year with pressure of F&M.\nWeds\nAway on holiday!  It was a bit of a drive to what we are used to but we made it!  Lovely views on way down and Hawkshead a lovely place!\nThursday\nThis holiday very well suited for [dog] as plenty of places to walk, a quiet campsite and shops and pubs which are suited for dogs – things she is not quite used to!\nFriday\nLovely to be away for a break away from Great Orton on the one hand but then you remember how nice it is where we are and how luck we are on the other hand.\nSunday\nHad a very good week and confident about the future.\n\n\nWeek beginning 21st October\nMonday\nHaving quiet week as just got back. Quite tired but coping ok – nice to be back in a way!\nWeds\nGot Watchtree Newsletters in Parish magazine.  Also article out of News and Star (I think) – about renaming of site and farm that used to be there!\nThursday\nWatchtree Newsletter – interested in the Open Day – think it’s a good idea and will be very interesting (especially geology and fossil remains found on site).  I think would be beneficial as even though we live in the village and have been to the meetings – still have little idea of how the site looks now and will in the future!\n\n\nWeek beginning 28th October\nWeds\nWent to meet Mom in town.  The roads into town were terrible.  Mud on road everywhere and really busy with trucks etc.  Must be where they are doing new building – hope it doesn’t get like this all the time as so much land round here seems to have been sold for new construction!\n Sat\nMom has got her own stall this week-end at the Craft Fair in the Village hall. 1st time she has done this – saw it in Parish newsletter.\n\n\n2nd November – Writing after 4 weeks\nThis past month has been one of the busiest I have had for a long time!  Firstly there was [fiance]’s final exam – which was quite stressful for him at times, revising and everything!  It reminded me of how difficult it had been when we were doing our first exams a year and a half before, during F&M crisis.  Studying had been very difficult then due to constant interruptions and distractions – constant sound of trucks; smells; noise; tension!  I’m so glad it wasn’t this bad this year as these things can be stressful enough!\nShortly after [fiance]’s exam, [fiance], my Mom and I went for a short break to Hawkshead. It was great!  We all enjoyed it and [dog] especially!  Everything was suited for [dog] – we took her shopping (there are benches and water bowls outside every shop!); we went for a bar meal and sat outside with her! And on our last night even too her with us and went for a pint.  Apart from these things we also took her on plenty of walks!  Being there made you realise how lovely Cumbria is and how people who don’t live here are attracted to it!  It is a pity how Cumbria suffered during F&M crisis as it is such a lovely place!  I do hope that due to the large amount of attractions in Cumbria  that things will hopefully be back to normal as can be expected!  I was quite surprised at how busy things were for that time of year – it seems things must be improving which makes you confident!  I enjoyed my break but you realise maybe Great Orton isn’t such a bad place to come back to!\nDuring the past month I have also received the Watchtree Newsletter.  I’m quite interested in the Open Day later on this month – I think it will be very interesting. I’m really interested in the geology, history of the site and also fossils found there during this work. I don’t know much about how the site looks or how it will be in the future.  It is amazing that you can live so near but  still have no idea of what it is like!  All I can seem to remember are the pictures that were shown on the news months ago – it seems difficult to imagine it any different!\nThis past week has been very busy as my Mom is having a stall for the first time at the Craft fair in the village hall!  I have been helping her a little bit and helped her on the stall (I just sat with her really!).  She decided to have a go as she likes crafts and is always making things!  It was nice to be involved in the village and the money from the hiring of the stalls went to the church which is good!  It was very quiet on Saturday though and apparently that was the worst it’s been for a few years!  I wonder if this is an effect of the F&M, however the weather and other factors may have contributed!\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 11th November\nTuesday\n[fiance] – Doctors\nWednesday\nMe Dentist and in town with Mam.  Missed the Exhibition at the Village Hall, disappointed but got an article from the Cumberland News (this is included).  I haven’t spoke with anyone that went – no-one has mentioned anything to me.  Disappointed I missed it and also because this is probably one of the only opportunities we will get to know anything.\n[fiance] and I both agree it is still like a big secret – no-one really allowed in and out.  It doesn’t feel like local people are benefiting at all!  Is it anything to do with us really?\nFriday\nChildren in Need at the pub yesterday – nice to see people taking part again – big difference to during Foot and Mouth.  We just made a donation, it was a bit busy for us.  £1045 raised!\nSunday\nWork at pub – still very busy the pub – at least it seems to have recovered after F&M, but from what I have heard they did suffer badly, along with the other businesses here!\n\n\nWeek beginning 18th November \t\nTuesday\nShould have been playing darts at Port Carlisle.  Had a break for a week – the thing that is worrying about playing darts away is the travelling – some of the country roads round here are terrible!  Is this  because of the wagons? – especially near Wiggonby!\nThe road at [fiance]’s Granddad just gets worse! It’s just mud and less grass!  Terrible!  Is it because of damage done by wagons and a combination of all the flooding in the area now?\nSaturday\n[fiance] and I talking about how the area has changed!  We remembered back to 4 years ago when we used to go to the airfield/burial site for some peace.  Even though only rubble then, really enjoyed it there.  We could take the dog, had first driving lesson off [fiance] - not again!  Had some fun and really miss it at times.  Nowhere round here anymore to get peace!  Can’t even enjoy the nature reserve – very frustrating!   \n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 25th November\nMonday\nKeep realising when doing diaries that haven’t had a chance to look at Cumbria Foot and Mouth disease inquiry report – will have to make time for it soon!\nSaturday\nWhen I was at pub – talking about new fence on park for children.  General mood is, not very pleased as it doesn’t fit into a country village setting and nothing else done!\nSunday\nCan’t believe it is the beginning of December!  Everything is passing too quick.  Inevitable! \n\n31st November – Writing up after 4 weeks\nThe past 4 weeks have been very busy compared to what I am used to and at the same time have been quite frustrating in a few ways!  The issues which have bothered [fiance] and I most are mainly to do with the onset of winter, which of course is inevitable but this year they seem to be worse than we can previously remember since living here in winter!\n\nThe biggest issue is the state of the roads in the village and round about, it is terrible!  With the amount of rain we have had there are puddles everywhere and everything is turning to mud!  The worst thing is that it is very difficult to walk or take [dog] anywhere which is frustrating.  You either get absolutely filthy or when walking down the roads you have to get soaked on the sides of the roads to avoid cars and going down the lonning isn’t really an option as it is really muddy and there has been dumping.  We understand most of this will be due to the weather but we are sure some of it on the roads is due to all the traffic there has been, especially at [fiance]’s Granddad's.  Outside the front of his gate and garden, the grass has gradually been stripped away and has now turned to mud.  In all the ears he has lived there (50 years) he has never seen it as bad!\nThe roads aren’t like this just nearby, I have noticed other roads round about are also in a bad state when I have travelled away to other nearby village pubs when playing darts.\nI was disappointed when I missed the exhibition, at the Village hall, about the Watchtree Reserve as I had to go up town, etc.  I have not spoken to anyone I know that attended the exhibition, but wish there were more opportunities to learn more about it.  I did find a newspaper article (enclosed) about the Watchtree.  It is quite annoying that this won’t be open to the public.  It is understandable why this isn't possible but then on the other hand it is not benefiting anyone really who lives nearby.\n[fiance] and I still remember back to when the airfield was still there and it was a lovely place to go walking and to relax by getting away from everything. It used to be lovely and quiet and was also so nearby.  We do actually quite miss it sometimes as there is nowhere else like that round here now.\nEven though there have been quite a few negative issues this past month, it has also been encouraging when I have been working at the pub.  It has been very busy when I have been there showing that it must be recovering from the effect of the Foot and Mouth crisis. It was also encouraging when there was a night held for Children in Need when they raised approx. £1045. It is good to see people involved and happy again!  One thing which I did notice was that the general mood about the improvements made to the park was not very good.  People were not impressed that the new fence does not look like it belongs to the country at all and that that is all that has changed.  I have not had time but will go and have a look for myself!\n\n\n December 2002 – Writing up after 4 weeks\nAverage – I haven’t felt too bad over Christmas – a little tired but since I have got a bit of a cold and sore throat – not surprising at this time of year!\nAverage – I think it has been all right, haven’t been able to walk very far near village due to weather and roads – but this isn’t surprising at this time of year!\nThese past 4 weeks have been rather hectic with Christmas and everything but I have still had quite a bit to write in my diaries concerning foot and mouth.\nI received the Parish magazine for December in which there was a thank you to all involved in the Craft Fayre and there was £1 008 raised for St Giles church.  It was good to be able to contribute to something in the village (well it was my Mum really, but I helped!).  It is good to see these sorts of things happening here – it’s good for the village after everything!\nI also received the Watchtree Newsletter in the Parish magazine .  It is still good to receive this as it updates you on everything and also had information regarding the exhibition at the village hall, which I missed..  I am glad it was a success and people attended, especially the school children who were taken!\nI also received the ‘Diarist’ which is good to read.  It is interesting to see what other panel members are up to – and is surprising what things can lead to!  For example the diarist and the Samson tractor!\nOver the past couple of weeks I have also collected  a couple of articles from the Cumberland News.  The first one, ‘Lie returns to Watchtree’ actually made me feel better that we were going to get something positive out of this whole experience – but the only problem is that at some moments in time this won’t be enough for some people involved as it does not change what happened and won’t make up for what has been lost!  I think it just depends on how you are feeling at the time when reading the articles.  The other article , ‘Village in running for top country award’, was also quite pleasing as at least we, as a village, are being remembered and recognised for what we went through.  It is surprising that now so long after the actual Foot and Mouth crisis that we are finally being recognised and so many things are now being written in the paper!\nOver the Christmas period I have only really had one thing to complain about and that is the state of the roads!  After the rain, the roads have been terrible to drive on with the flooding and the road sides turning into mud!  Everything is filthy!  I know this is expected in winter, out in the country but since I have been here it has never been so bad, especially at [fiance]’s Grandad’s!\nOne improvement is the signs which have been put up at the passing places between here and [fiance]’s Grandad.  [fiance] and I both think these are much, much better and a lot safer!  We have also spotted a couple of signs from ‘Watchtree’, which have been up now for a while, but are still surprising to see!\nNow it is time to start everything again the New Year and hopefully this will be a better year for Great Orton than the past couple has been!  I am glad it is going to be quiet here now for when I start my studying, as opposed to the foot and mouth when studying was very, very difficult!\n\n\nMonday 27th January – Writing up after 4 weeks \nThis week I found an article in the Daily mail which I thought was relevant. It is called ‘Boom and Doom’ and is about house prices all over England.  For 2002, prices in North Yorkshire rose by 66% but in Allerdale they only rose by 8%.  It did not mention why this was but some of it must be the result of the Foot and Mouth crisis and the effect on the area since then.  This made me think about the effect on Great Orton and how difficult it would probably be to sell houses here, and if people would really want to move  here. There are two sides however, as if more property was built in Great Orton and the surrounding area, things would probably change and Great Orton might lose some of its farming background.  I definitely wouldn't want it to change too much, despite the burial site, I like it just the way it is!  \nThe great thing about this week is the weather, for once!  We have been able to go down the lonning with [dog] without getting filthy as it is frosty!  It has been great!\n\nI can’t believe how quickly 2003 is passing!  It is February already!  This past month has been totally hectic with appointments; arrangement; birthdays and the Open University!  It makes you realise that whatever happens, time goes on!  I think this must have been very difficult for people directly involved in the Foot and Mouth crisis, as life would have had to carry on despite whatever was going on in their own lives.  I think as time has gone on I have got more used to the idea of ‘Watchtree’ and accept it more now!\nI received the ‘Watchtree News’ during the previous week.  It is good to hear that the restoration and creation of the site is finally complete.  Overall, I don’t think it has taken as long as I thought it would for the nature reserve to be established, especially when you compare it to how long it has taken for the children’s playground to be improved!  Nearly two years after the Foot and Mouth crisis!  However it is better late than never!\nI am pleased at how the nature reserve sounds, with al the different species of animal which had been included or seen, especially the ‘merlin’, the smallest bird of prey, which was sited.  [fiance] and I both find these things very interesting!  It is good that this is happening so close to us!  Last year we travelled to see the Osprey viewpoint, it was great!\nOver the past couple of weeks I have also found a few more articles. Two of these are regarding the ’20 day standstill’. With not been directly involved in the farming side of the foot and mouth crisis, I am not totally sure about all these sorts of rules, etc, but think it is good that at least things are trying to be improved for the future in case this may happen again and also as a result of learning from past events.  There was also an article showing ‘Watchtree’ as a finalist for the ‘Environmental Project Award’.\nI definitely think that ‘Watchtree’ deserves to be considered for this award as so much has happened here and at least some good is going to come out of it!  It would be nice to get this sort of award in recognition of the hard work of the people involved!\nI think this year will hopefully be a better one for Cumbria, and people may have confidence.  Even though the Foot and Mouth crisis was a tragedy, I think Cumbria and the people in it are able to recover from it as people from the newspaper articles, seem more optimistic and this rubs off on you!  I think this year will be a better one and feel more confident about the future at this point! \n\n\nMonday 24th  February – Writing up after 4 weeks \nSo far these past four weeks I have not receive a ‘Watchtree newsletter’ but there was a small mention in the parish magazine about he playground. Work is underway and it is hoped to be finished by the summer.  It seems to be taking a long time to get the playground sorted but at least it will be good for the kids in the summer holidays. It is better late than never!\nThere is only one thing that has bothered us over these past weeks, our fish.  Whenever we change the water, the fish seem to be ill and now we have had to add more and more chemicals to reduce the amount of chlorine that seems to be in the water.  We did originally start off with 13 fish and now only have 2 left. It does make you worry about the state of our water and why more chemicals are possibly being added.  The fact that the burial site is so near, does make you worry if that is anything to do with it.\n\nOver the past four weeks I have been very confident about the future regarding foot and mouth.  With the sun shining again and the animals about – it seems as if nothing bad has happened here.  But you know that for some people involved in the crisis, the future will never be that easy or simple and I do feel sympathy for them.  For me, it seems possible to be able to move on now after the crisis and it has been good to see the sheep and cows about, and [fiance] has even seen a couple of birds of prey!  We are not sure what they were, but think one might have been a Merlin, which was mentioned in a previous ‘Watchtree Newsletter’ as being seen on site.  The article called ‘Record tourism figures for county’ was encouraging and shows that Cumbria may be starting to recover after the Foot and Mouth crisis.\nI also found another article called ‘Fears over bovine TB time bomb’.  I think this is worrying and should definitely be taken seriously, as it would be devastating to farmers and everyone in the county!\nIn the past fortnight it has also been my Mam’s birthday. She was really looking forward to spending some time out here and we went to Bowness for the afternoon with [dog].  Once again, you realise how lovely it is out here and how much it should be appreciated.\nOverall in my opinion the situation in Cumbria over the past year has definitely improved and will hopefully continue to do so!\n\n\n24th March – Writing up after 4 weeks \nThese past four weeks have been rather strange and worrying!  First of all, there was the death of Simon Harris, a man from the village, who you would regularly see walking dogs and looking at the horses.  Despite what most of the papers have said about him, to me he was always polite and possibly just a bit shy.  I have enclosed an article about him that was in the paper shortly after his death.  The headline is not very nice but the article does include some of the best comments about Simon.  I was quite shocked by the whole thing and think it could definitely have been handled better by the papers.  The people in the village could also have been a bit more respectful, I do not think it was their place to comment in the way that they did.\nSecondly the whole issue of war with Iraq is a worrying subject.  Neither [fiance] or I agree with what is being done and how it is being carried out!  It is a particularly worrying time for [fiance]’s Aunty, as her husband lives in Kuwait, with the rest of his family.  She came to England, where she is originally from with her two children during the last Gulf war. She knows all too well what the danger are and what is involved!\nIt is a very worrying subject where you feel totally helpless and at the same time cannot get away from it!  However, life still carries on, as harsh as it may be!  I thought of this when looking at the past diaries I have written and how many have accumulated!  It is strange how quickly time goes by and how people are just expected to cope and carry on.  I thought, in particular, of the people worst affected by the foot and mouth crisis; how helpless they must have felt, and how they coped!  Life can be a funny thing!\nLooking back, I think this project has been very worth while and think it is great that they will be archived for the future.  Writing these diaries seems to have become part of my routine now, and I think it will definitely be strange when I no longer have to write them!\n\nI have found quite a few newspaper articles over the past four weeks. “Donella rebuilds the Cumberland Show” was encouraging about the future of Cumbria after the foot and mouth crisis, however there are still worrying issues arising, such as in the articles of ‘MP calls for vaccination to keep F&M under control”; and, “From Uruguay with a threat”, which highlight issues of important to the farming industry.\nI have also been very busy over the past few weeks, as my second assignment was due for my university work, which was quite hectic!  I have had a break for the past couple of days as I have not been very well, a bad cough, sore throat and stomach and a stuffy nose!  I haven’t done too badly over the winter months with illnesses, so I can’t really complain!  Lastly our water hasn’t been of the best quality lately!  On occasions it is white and fizzes, not the most appetizing!!  \n\n\n21st April  Writing  up after 4 weeks\nThese past 4 weeks have just seem to fly by!  Quite a few good things have happened and even though I am feeling quite tired, I have had a good month!\nFirstly [fiance], [dog] and I have finally go t a small space of our own!  We have got an allotment about 8 miles away and it is surrounded by horses and fields.  It belongs to a man who lives there and owns all the land roundabout, but unfortunately he is no longer well enough to work the land, so has let us have it!  It will need a lot of work but will be good for us!  So far we have got potatoes, raspberries and rhubarb growing!  [dog] even helps to dig! Even though we live in the country, on our own block it is not always that easy to get any peace!\nWe have also had the opportunity to join the ‘Cumbria Wildlife Trust’.  A leaflet came through our door and we thought it would be brilliant as we would be kept up-to-date with all the latest goings on in Cumbria; learn a lot more about the wildlife and also possibly get the chance to do some voluntary work!  [fiance] and I are really interested and think it is great.  We get sent though a certain number of magazines every year and every month we send a small donation so we feel like we are helping a little bit as well!  The article which I found in one of the magazines id enclosed on the next page!\nThe other thing which has made my month is knowing that we are going to Hawkshead again!  My Mam, [fiance], [dog] and I are going for a short break, just 3 nights for my birthday!  We have got it all booked and are really looking forward to it!  It was great last time especially for [dog]!  I just hope she doesn’t get stuck under the bed in the caravan this time, as she is a bit bigger now than she was then!\nThis past week I have also been in touch with my Dad in South Africa as it was his birthday. It turns out that he may be passing through Carlisle for a couple of days at the end of next week. It would be lovely to see him again and I think he will love Great Orton and our allotment.  I think he has always liked the thought of living in the country and would love to retire to somewhere nice and quiet!  Things will also have improved and we have grown up a bit since he was last here, about 3 years ago!  It should be good!  It is funny that after living in South Africa for so long, he is still drawn to the lifestyle in Cumbria!\nLastly, I have made a note of the final meeting for the foot and mouth diaries and hope to be there!  I bet it passes really quickly now and will be over before I know it!  How strange! \n\n28th April – 4th May \nMonday\nGot 3 articles from Cumberland news, April 25th 2003 “Breeders hit out discrimination”, “FMD burial site celebrates new life” and my favourite “its a dog’s life for Rosie the lamb”\nTuesday\nSaw C\nFriday\nNoticed the park is coming on a bit better for the children. It was mentioned in the Orton Parish – awarded £25, 000 to reference, drain, level and re-seed. New play equipment will follow.\nSaturday\nSome of the children were allowed to attend meetings to discuss it. Good to involve children & about time too! At least children will be able to play football.\n\n\n5th – 11th May\nTuesday\nWorking really hard, have to get assignment posted off tomorrow night before we go away on Thursday. Hectic!\nWednesday\nService held at Watchtree – unable to go but think it was a very good idea. Newspaper article enclosed was written before the service.\nThursday\nAway to Hawskhead! Exciting!\nFriday\nMy birthday! Had a lovely day – went shopping in the morning, to forest in the afternoon and for a meal at night. Lovely!\nSunday\nBack from holiday already! It was lovely! Everyone was so friendly or perhaps we just noticed it more there.\n\n\n12th – 18th May\nTuesday\n[fiance] at doctors – not very well, he has got a viral infection as well as fluid behind his ears. Told to just take it easy!\nWednesday\nI have been sent info to chose courses for Open University that I would like to do next year and in the future. Am going to take the “Environmental Studies” route, hopefully leading to “Diploma in Environment and Development” and possibly further to BA/BSc in Environmental Studies. I did like archaeology but think what I am doing is a lot more relevant to the future, Foot and Mouth and Watchtree made me realise that.\nFriday\nGot Watchtree newsletter this week, I will enclose it this time as it covers quite a few areas and has a bit of information. There is information about the service held, awards that have been won and also new wildlife which are now present on the site – Lapwings, Oystercatchers and Ringed Plovers.  \n\n\n19th – 25th May 2003\nTuesday\nDad has come to visit for a couple of days from South Africa. Nice surprise, enjoyed seeing him. Dad asking about FMD crisis (he saw it on TV over there) and how close it was. I think he was quite shocked!\nThursday\nI was surprised that even though South Africa is so different he would still like to live somewhere in this country. Makes you think again how lucky you are and what you take for granted!\nSaturday\nArticle from Cumberland News – May 23 – “Reward for post – foot and mouth achievements”.\n\n\n25th May – Writing up after 4 weeks\nEvery time I come to write these diaries I look back over the past four weeks and notice they are becoming more and more busy, the past couple of weeks have been no exception! It is already nearly half way through the year, I can’t believe it!\n\tOver the past 4 weeks, I have been on holiday, turned 22 and my dad had popped over from South Africa for a few days! Hectic but good! Firstly, Hawkshead was lovely again! I wouldn’t say anything different – it was great! We all had a lovely time and I had a really good birthday! When you are at home in Great Orton you forget how much is really out there in Cumbria to do and see! We definitely think we should take advantage of it more often.\n\tShortly after we arrived back from Hawkshead, my dad popped up to Carlisle for a couple of days. It was a lovely surprise and it was good to see him! He absolutely loves it where we are and thinks we are very lucky – even though South Africa is so different, he still thinks it is lovely out here, looking out onto fields. This did make me realise how lucky we are, despite what happened due to foot and mouth. Inevitably, sometimes we do take it for granted! My dad remembered watching about the foot and mouth crisis in South Africa but did not realise exactly how close it was! I think he was quite shocked!\n\tFoot and mouth has definitely made me more aware of my surroundings and how everything works. I have definitely noticed this when I have been doing my studying for Open University. I am now at the point where I can chose my courses next year and therefore which path I am going to take. I have decided to take courses leading to a Diploma in Environment and Development and if everything goes to plan for an Environmental Studies degree. I am really enjoying what I am doing at the minute, and think it is definitely useful and relevant for the future. I did enjoy studying Archaeology but think the environment and related issues are more important at the present and in the future.\n\tOn the 7th May there was a memorial service at Watchtree to mark a two year anniversary from when the last animal was buried at the site. I think this was a good idea and it is appropriate to remember the animals that were killed. I was unable to attend the service but have managed to get a newspaper article about it and it was also mentioned in the Watchtree Newsletter. I have included this newsletter in with these diaries at it contains quite a bit of information on a few different aspects, I think it is good about the wildlife which is emerging on the site.\n\tThe park or play area for children is also coming on fairly well, at last! It has finally been reseeded as well as levelled, it looks better! I have also included 4 newspaper articles from the Cumberland news, with my favourite being “Rosie the lamb”. I have put this article in as I thought it was lovely.\n\n\n22nd June 2004 – Writing up after 4 weeks \nHow strange it seems that all this is coming to an end, and really how quickly time has passed.  In my situation, I would say that time has healed a few aspects of the foot and mouth crisis and things don’t seem so bad 18 months on!\nI enjoyed the foot and mouth evening and learnt a lot from it about other people’s views and experiences. I enjoyed it a lot more than I thought I would and thought that the main themes found during the research were ones which I would have agreed with! One thing which was said which has made me think was the comment that these diaries would be our type of memorial. I had never once thought of this research in that sort of way, but the more I think about it, the more I agree and like the idea!  It definitely has been worthwhile being able to contribute to something especially if it may be able to help in some way in the future!\nWhen compared to the article that I found in the Cumberland News about a man’s memorial to the animals that he lost during foot and mouth I definitely think ours is more fitting and will probably do some good!  I understand  everyone has the right to express their views in their own way but to me this was too loud and too inappropriate!  However each to their own and at the end of the day at least people are trying to remember in a good way as opposed to ‘sweeping it under the carpet’!\nThe week of the foot and mouth evening we were without a car and noticed how much we relied on it and took it for granted, especially out here as there is a very limited bus service!  Everything is sorted out now and we are back to normal with a newer little car!  Thank you very much C  for the lift there and back!\nIn general the past few months just seem to have flown by and in particular the past couple of weeks!  I don’t seem to have time to fit everything in, and am trying to get my assignments done on time! It turns out to be quite a bit more difficult than I thought!  It is hard work but will definitely be worth it in th end – over the past 6 months even I have learnt so much!\nThe next special occasion which is coming up is [fiance]’s birthday 21st July! We are thinking of going back to Hawkshead again for a few days! We really like it there and I’m sure will return again and again!  It just shows you that you don’t need to leave Cumbria to have a good holiday!\nWell, here we are at the end!  It just makes me wonder what life will be like in 18 months from now!  Will things be any different?  They probably will be in some ways and hopefully will be for the best!\n\n\n20th July – Writing up after 4 weeks\nIt does seem very strange to be sitting down to write my last lot of diaries. It feels good to have completed something as worthwhile as this!  As well as it hopefully doing some good in the future concerning foot and mouth crisis or any other similar situation, I also find it has helped me to become a bit more confident and aware of things around me.  I remember back to when I attended my first meeting and how nervous I was!  I think I can handle things like that a bit better now!\nWe have just got back from holiday!  We had a lovely time and did so much!  We went walking with [dog] to many places and they are all free!  It just shows you what a good holiday you can have in Cumbria on a cheap budget!  You don’t need much else!  The only disappointing thing is that some of the places [fiance] and I had been to in the past are now closed as they have been sold.  This has not yet happened to Talkin Tarn and I definitely think it should be given to the Cumbria Wildlife Trust as people would still have access to it.\n[fiance] and I both agree that the countryside is recovering and it is great to be able to wander about again.\nI have collected a few more articles from the Cumberland News related to Foot and Mouth. It is good to see breeders doing well again and people getting back into the swing of things!\nI would just like to thank everyone involved for involving me in this project and I wish them all the best in the future!\n
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1937\nGender: M\nOccupation: Group 5\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\nWeek 1\nMonday 11th March 2002\nWhilst watching the local TV news at 6 p.m. there was a news item that caused us to reflect back on the events a year ago. A young lady had just left a court where she had been found guilty of assaulting a Police Officer and also being in change of an offensive weapon -–a knife. The judge had acquitted her of the offences, he showed leniency towards her. Last year during the FMD crisis she had returned to her home to find that her pet goat had been killed by slaughterers because the animal was within the 3 km radius. She had gone berserk over this and threatened the Police Officer and others with the knife. She had to be forcibly restrained, she was very distraught over this killing.\nEven after she had appeared in court and had been acquitted of all charges she showed great emotion not only being freed but also quite upset over the loss of the goat. Perhaps her actions didn’t happen to a lot of other people who had similar things happen to them. However, the loss of a lot of pet animals and in some cases, needless slaughter of many farm animals still creates unhappy memories of 2001.\n\n\nWeek 2\nTuesday\nWhilst walking the dog I met a farmer from the edge of the village who has friends and stock in close proximity to the 2 land fill sites.\nHe is still very concerned about materials on these sites. The nearest site contained hundreds of carcasses. This has been completed and capped. He is concerned about leachate from this site and feels that it doesn’t matter how much clay and soil were used to contain this site, the effects of heavy rain is bound to find a way down and also to drain it. He doesn’t want to plough these fields, nor can he sell stock that have grazed the same fields.\nThere is pyre ash being tipped on the other site. Again, what happens to the rainwater that runs off this site? Also there are concerns about the large flocks of seagulls that visit both sites daily.\nAnother concern is what is happening to the open-cast coal site that is situated almost due south of Gilgarran Village. The farmer I talked to today is concerned about this huge site. No coal has been moved from this site for months. There are concerns that this site is going to be filled with waste. Will it be from FMD sites? We, as a village, are very concerned about rumours of land fill on a huge scale. \nFriday\nNoticed that there was work being carried out on the top of the burial site. No villagers have commented on this, despite large yellow diggers operating.\nSunday\nWork continuing on the burial site. Cannot make out what kind of work is being done there\n\n\nWeek 3\nMonday\nWork is still going on at the burial site. I still don’t know what is going on, but the diggers involved are the same as when animals were being buried there. When animals were being buried there last year, the smell coming from that site was terrible to say the least! It was not coming from the dead animals as most observers thought, but from decomposing waste material that had already been buried on the site prior to FMD.\nWhen excavators dug into the soil to make trenches for the dead animals, they dug into this decomposing matter, hence the terrible smell. Despite the work that is going on there today, no comments from villagers are forthcoming. It seems to me that now that FMD has gone, the general public are not interested any more, unless they read something in the local papers written by some enterprising reporter!\n\n\nWeek 4\nTuesday\nWork is still going on in the former burial site. Villagers don’t seem to be bothered. FMD is gone, so nobody is interested any more.\nWednesday\nWhilst trying to gain comments from villagers over the effects of FMD, one or two comments from some individuals show concern about the outbreak last year, but don’t seem too concerned over any after effects, if any!\nTwo interesting comments suggest that (1) the outbreak was started deliberately by ‘this country’ in collusion with the agriculturists of the E.E.C so as to concentrate meat production in Europe and leave the UK to concentrate on arable farming; (2) The outbreak was started by a terrorist attack. The Government would not declare this because it would cause widespread panic.\nThursday 23:25 hours\nHuge fire at the site where pyre ash is being tipped. 250,000 used tyres caught fire. Arson is suspected. Fire fighters tried to contain the blaze, but couldn’t use large amounts of water in case water courses became contaminated.\nFriday 05:00\nFire still blazing at the pyre ash site. Later in the morning the fire was showing signs of dying down, apparently it was left to burn itself out. Much heavy smoke pollution was evident, drifting south west for about nine miles.\nReading the local evening paper about the blaze, there was also a report that villagers from Disington (1¾ miles from Gilgarran) were complaining of the foul smell from both waste sites. Parish councillors are very concerned about this. Does it coincide with work currently being carried out on the burial site?\nThe smell from these sites plus the fact that animals were buried on one site and pyre ash plus the huge fire from the other site all happening this week is causing concern in this area. But once this ‘hue and cry’ dies down, people will soon forget about it all.\n\n\nWeek 5\nMonday through to Friday, observed work on top of the burial site. Don’t know if any work is still going on on the northern and western sides. \nFriday\nLocal weekly paper carried the report on the recent large fire that occurred on the Alco site last week when 250,000 tyres caught fire somehow. It was intersting to read that the fire brigade did not use any water to extinguish the blaze in case pollution occurred in water courses. The fire was left to burn itself out.\nSaturday\nBurial site – it looks like there is new soil being tipped on top for some reason. No reported comments froim the Parish Council over this, despite very vociferous objections by them over the use of this and the Alco site in the past. \nSunday\nTalked to our local County Councillor (who lives in this village). He feels very strongly that these two sites are dangerous. He thinks that both sites are a health hazard risk due to obnoxious odours and in particular, the large fire that occurred last week which produced a lot of polluted smoke for a distance of six miles. Some people reckoned that the smell of burning tyres could be smelt here in Gilgarran. There have been numerous fires on these sites over the last few years. These fires give rise to compaliant by people like us, but more so from the nearer village of Distington (1¾ miles west of here). The councillor suggests that there could be more incidents of cancer cases in this area in coming years along with respiratory troubles as well as some cases of bronchitis related problems. He himself has recently suddenly started sinusitis, which he hasn’t had before. All in all, he wasn’t happy about the situation on both sites. We don’t know what is being tipped there, all we can do as a community is accept what we are being told by the site owners. As previously stated, animal carcasses were being tipped and buried for about three days before we were told officially that this was so.\nIncidentally, the site where animals are buried is owned by Cumbria County Council. This seems to be totally against the advice of County Council officials who look after the environment and the health of the population. As I’ve written before, there are going to be bigger concerns if the opencast coal site to the south of the village becomes a landfill site for refuse from parts of the county fifty miles away. At the moment there are no suggestions that anything from the FMD outbreak will be dumped there. Having said that, however, we as villagers didn’t know of carcasses being buried or pyre ash being tipped until after it had happened. We await the outcome of this coal site with some trepidation, after all, no coal has come from this site for some months. It has all the indication of becoming a land fill site.\n\n\nWeek 6\nMonday to Wednesday, if work is still ongoing at the burial site it is not visible from our side of the site. I still don’t know what is going on there. It may all be innocent and an improvement to the environment, after all, this is what the site owners have to do.\nThursday\nA delegation of MEPs visit the north of the county. They have come to assess the situation for themselves and to report back to the European Parliament. No doubt they will also report back to their own constituents in their own countries. The delegation visit the auction mart at Longtown where the disease was first noticed in this country and also visited the big burial site at Great Orton where it was estimated that half a million carcasses were buried. Good coverage by the local press, radio and T.V. gave anyone interested the views of the delegation.\nThursday – Saturday\nThe MEP delegation agreed that the FMD situation had been disastrous (we all know that!). Comments from some tourist and agriculture observers ranged from a ‘waste of time’ to ‘at least some politicians have bothered to visit us, our own couldn’t do that’ Personally, I think that some good came out of this, particularly when it was reported that the Dutch had used vaccination techniques when they had a small outbreak.\nMany people think that the British Government should have had a public inquiry into the outbreak. What have they to hide? Cumbria is holding its own inquiry – quite rightly so, other organisations such as Lancaster University are holding research into the outbreak. Why not the Government? Eventually we will know why, perhaps not in my lifetime though. The minister and MAFF have a lot to answer for.\n\n\nWeek 7\nThought it would be of interest to include copies of the newsletter that the local authorities issued to every household in the area regarding the disposal of carcasses and effluent. It will be of note that there was a fire last year on the Alco site, also involving tyres. Very similar to last years only not as big. A report on local T.V. today stated that the recent visit of MEPs to the area considered that vaccination should have been used at the outset and be should seriously considered should a future outbreak occur. Heard of reports of an outbreak of T.B. in cattle in other parts of the country. This was reported to be more serious than FMD should a major outbreak occur. This would lead to the question of disposal should the need arise. As I’ve already reported in previous entries, the use of the opencast coal site to the south-east of here is causing concern in some quarters. Although the site didn’t feature in the FMD crisis, there is a feeling that it is being earmarked for use in the future should the need arise or even the rumour of an incinerator is planned for there. The general feeling here and in the surrounding area is that we have had enough dumping of carcasses, effluent, toxic chemicals etc. It could be that the authorities have seen that the sites concerned have handled those substances before, that an extension of disposal sites in this area would be effective.\n\n\nWeek 8\nNothing of any significance to report this week.\n\n\nWeek 9\nNow that Cumbria’s FMD inquiry has started, a lot of people I have met this week recall the happenings of a year ago. Even more interesting is the coverage in the local press and T.V. Plenty of publicity by the media shows how little the Government an MAFF in particular let the farming and tourism industries of the county down. There has been plenty of distressing stories by farmers not only of infected animals being slaughtered but also the slaughtering of healthy animals in the 3 km circle of an outbreak. One particularly distressing point of evidence was when a farmer described to the panel the birth of a calf five days after it’s mother had been shot! We at the time of the outbreak were hearing these stories on a daily basis and still MAFF and Mr. Brown kept telling us that the outbreak was ‘under control’. All I can say at this point is may heaven help us when it all happens again.\n\n\nWeek 10\nWork is still going on at the burial site. It looks like new soil is being dumped on top of the actual site and ‘dozed’ to level it of and to smooth it out on the side. All we can do is accept that the management of the site are making it better for all concerned and that they are as concerned as we are. The much publicised Cumbrian FMD inquiry team visited the land fill site. They met local councillors who expressed their concern over this site and the Alco site. No other report was forthcoming from the team. The inquiry team finish their evidence gathering this week. One very important statement was made that the Minister of the Environment should make a statement over this outbreak and should even make a visit to these sites county-wide. There has been total silence from Mrs Beckett’s department over this request. The same silence is observed from any government source for that matter. Everyone asks the same questions, what have they got to hide? Why aren’t they interested? What plans are being made? And what lessons have been learned from last years outbreak? A lot of farms are restocking and in this neighbourhood, farm work is going on as before, or so it looks. As time goes on though, there seems to be a smouldering anger that no-one in authority is as concerned as well are.\n\n\nWeek 11\nWork is still on going at the burial site. No comments heard from any of the villagers or neighbours this week.\n\n\nDiary 12\nMonday, from my own observation work is still ongoing at the burial site. More heavy plant has been moved on to the top of the giant amount and it looks as though more topsoil is being laid over the Mount. Perhaps to improve the site, but water may still permeate into and through the site. We can only believe the operators that this is a right thing to do.\nFriday, talked to 2 it villagers about the after-effects of FMD. One said oh it's all over now and forgotten about it doesn't bother me one bit. The other said it all in the past we just have to forget about it. It seems that life is returning to normal in all aspects of village life, people don't think about last year unless the diarist mentions that. \n\nSunday, a bad day or weather wise. This prolonged rain may halt work on the burial site. Most people are reluctant to talk about F M D now, even if it was one of the worst economic and social disasters to hit this country and this County in particular. Now that it is over, people's memories begin to fade. However, some of us are not happy at having these two disposal sites within a 1000 metres of this village. FMD may be over but these burial sites are here for a long time yet.\n\n\nDiary 13\nObserved in work on burial site. More heavy machinery and plant moved in and large quantities of soil are being laid down and smoothed out.\n\n\nDiary 14\nTalked to some religious today about the after-effects of FMD. Without exception, they are not interested! It's all over with an idle one to be reminded about it are the general comments. Nobody seems bothered that there are hundreds of animals buried a 1000 yards from his village or the fact that there is leachate and pyre ash buried in another site. Looking at the burial site and the work that is going on there, it does look as though the management there are doing everything to make the site safe.\n\n\nDiary 15\nI met a smallholder today to whom I have talked to in the past about the effects and after-effects of FMD. He still not happy about the burial site despite the landscaping and smoothing off of the large quantities of topsoil, only time will tell he says. He does not have any stock near to the site but he has sheep on the farmer's land. Since FMD finished though his stock movements are still restricted by new legislation that has come in since the area was declared free. For instance, or if he takes a sheep to auction, he asked to have nine pieces of paper for this transaction. If the price is not right and he has to take the she back to his land he was put them back in the same field that they came from and it cannot move them to three weeks. He then has to obtain a licence to do this. He does think that the authorities are not going to be as strict shortly. This is just one of the precautions that have come in to try and combat any recurrence of FMD.\n\n\nDiary 16\nI met the smallholder who rents land a from the farmer in the village. His income from the sheep that he a breeds has been nil, like many more people in similar circumstances. Fortunately for him had he has an income from another source. The subject of compensation came up during our conversation. I personally do not have any comment to make about this item as it maybe just a rumour, apparently he got it bee in his bonnet about compensation paid out to people who were not in the agricultural business. What seemed to upset him was that he had heard that some of fish and chip shop owner in the Lake District had been paid £170 per month compensation for the loss of trade. He didn't mind too much that hoteliers and guest house owners had claimed compensation, but wondered where else would this kind of money go when he himself had been paid nothing. This is the first time I've heard this one!\n\n\nDiary 17\nAttended the Cumberland Show at every to be park Carlisle. We, as a family used to attend this annual show regularly, both as spectators and competitors. We have never seen the show like the one put on this year, when will things really get back to normal? Many of us think that agriculture is back to pre-FMD. Cattle and sheep on grazing in the fields, lambing has reached new heights in produce on some farms. Calves are being born, silage and haymaking is progressing when the weather permits. But there are still restrictions on animal movements. Hence, no sheep cattle or pigs at this year's show only horses, poultry, dogs and rabbits. Not many pieces of agricultural machinery onshore either. Plenty of Chartered Accountants tents, craft tents, Horse feeds and tack, displays in the main arena and bands. Not an agricultural show as we knew it. It seems to be the same at other shows, Ennerdale show is one of our local shows. This year there isn't going to be any horses or sheep. Generally there are no cattle shown at the show, but without sheep (hill farmers dominate the show) the there isn't going to be much on show at all. It was always a good show for equestrian events at many levels. This show was always a must for our family. I don't think that we will be going this year.\n\n\nDiary 18\nFrom the golf course and golf driving range I can look out on to the western side of the burial site. I have written in previous weeks about the work there has been going on at this site. Viewing the site are from our village side, would hardly know what that there ever was a burial site. Hundreds of tons of topsoil had been laid and smoothed out to make more-or-less like a landscaped feature. It looks really good. From the western side though, things are little different. Work is still going on there, large amounts of soil have been tipped and levelled off. There are still Portakabins there and heavy plant can still be seen moving about. No doubt the western side well look as good as the eastern side before long.\n\n\nDiary 19\nIt is announced that the Prime Minister and his wife and son of his family at a visit to Cumbria. The PM arrives in West Cumbria, all kinds of reports are written in the local and national press about what he is going to do or not do or what he should be doing. After all, he is on holiday. The PM did meet some farmers' leaders, the press as usual stirred things up or as to where he should be meeting. Tourism officials say that the trip was fantastic for tourism in the county. Or person they I can't see what difference it made. If people want to come Cumbria, they will come irrespective of whether the PM comes or not.\n\n\nDiary 20\nAfter a lot of protests it looks as though it the 20 day restriction on cattle Movement will be lifted. Perhaps this will now mean that they could be cattle and sheep entries at local agricultural shows. Some shows are going ahead with very limited entries of livestock and some with no animal entries at all. These shows have always been very popular with my family for over 20 years. Also, living with in a farming community makes us feel part of the annual agricultural scene.\n\n\nDiary 21\nI’ve written before regarding agricultural shows and the pride in which local people take in these shows. Although a lot of shows have gone ahead this season, they have had a reduced animal showing or in some cases no animals at all. Today I’ve heard that one show has been cancelled altogether. This particular show is one of the most popular in the area. Maybe because of lack of entries or the organisers just wanted to cancel because of the 3 week restriction on animal movement. I don’t know. Perhaps it would be better to cancel them than have a depleted show.\n\n\nDiary 22\nSpent a few hours in the fells today. It was good to be able to wander the familiar paths and let our dog run free. It was a good boost to our moral and perhaps the dog’s too! We all missed being able to do this last year.\n\n\nDiary 23\nLast Bank Holiday before Xmas and the last before the schools go back. At the golf course where I help out part-time during the summer we had lots of customers. A lot of them commented on how enjoyable it was to be on holiday in this area this year, compared to the restrictions that were in place last year. Maybe the holiday establishments are getting back to normal. There are no restrictions put on them like there is in place now with farmers and agriculture.\n\n\nDiary 26\nSorting through the mail left whilst away on holiday and I came across a notice sent by the village committee notifying a Harvest Thanksgiving festival to be held next month in the village hall. As we have no church in the village, it is being held in some farm buildings in the centre of the village. This will be a splendid event. The farm did not have FMD but couldn’t take animals from one field to another and couldn’t market them. When we consider the gloom that settled on this farm and community, it is very welcome to have this unique event here in the heart of the village and the farmer and his wife will be at the centre of events. A lovely gesture and I hope it will be well supported. There will be a distribution of harvest gifts afterwards, what a change from a year ago!\n\n\nDiary 27\nWith the aid of binoculars I have been able to have a closer look at the burial site from a westerly direction. There are vents in the shape of small towers to extract gas from the site. There are pipes connecting these vents. A lot of work is still going on there. However, all this takes place in the Western side which is the opposite side to where my village is situated. From our side there is nothing to suggest the amount of work going on. Because of this, FMD is pushed further into the backs of villager’s minds. It is something in the past. It has happened, so what? People like myself who talk to farmers and agriculturalists do not easily forget these events. Personally I am still concerned about the burial site. When inquiries are made about it, all we can do is accept what we are told. It does not look as though every precaution is being taken to alleviate an odours or contamination. \n\n\nDiary 28\nI had to see the village farmer on another matter and was asked inside for coffee and a chat. He was able to tell me of the full implications of the ’20 day rule’. He accepts that this is a precaution to prevent another outbreak of FMD, but there is a lot of work involved. He told me of an isolation area that he has created and also the fencing arrangements where his land adjoins the neighbours land. I would say that 95% of the public don’t know about this even if they have heard of the 20 day rule. For him (he owns the largest farm in the area) it is bad enough having to do all the physical work as regards fencing, etc. But for anyone such as a small holder, it must be a nightmare if he has to bring animals back from market that haven’t been sold. \nFriday, my wife and I played a round of golf at Aspatria. This course was badly restricted when FMD hit this area. We were reminded that there are restrictions on adjoining land. There were notices asking people who hit balls onto farm land not to cross the fence to retrieve them because of FMD precautions. This was news to us. It does make sense though. The farmer wouldn’t know where players had been walking prior to playing golf. \n\n\nDiary 29\nAttended the Harvest Festival held in  the village farm, a large cattle shed had been cleaned and decorated for this event, chairs had been brought in, fruit and vegetables were on display for auctioning at the end. The place was packed! A lot of money was raised and it was a very happy event, well supported and a big boost for the farm and the village.\nI don’t think that the general public care much about FMD now that is has been a year since the last case was confirmed in Cumbria. The public may be reminded if they read the local newspapers intently, for instance, there was a letter to the editor published recently which referred to the results of the Cumbria Inquiry into FMD. It may have been a farmer who wrote it, I don’t know, but the writer certainly went to town in the scathing comments on the handling of FMD. Even caustic remarks regarding the efforts since FMD of DEFRA and Mrs Beckett. I certainly wouldn’t like to cross the writer, I also think the farming community must be holding it’s breath in case the present restrictions such as they are, prove to be worthless. Then we will all suffer, again!\n\n\nWeek 30\nWhat a difference a year makes! Despite some restrictions on public access to agricultural fields in some areas of the county, it doesn’t apply here. Although most locals confine themselves to footpaths and bridleways, other people seem to think that all fields are recreation areas. They walk and run across some of the fields in close proximity to the village. Regardless of the presence of stock they exercise dogs and treat it as a some kind of park. One farmer is well know for being aggressive, he used last year’s FMD outbreak to run people off his land.\nI met a local councillor who expressed concerns regarding the proposed building of an incinerator to the south of the village on the current open cast mining site. The two waste disposal sites to the west and north-west of the village have become big issues in the last 18 months due to the burial of animals and the disposal of pyre ash and leachates. It seems as though we are going to get over this ghastly FMD outbreak only to have this scenario thrust upon us.\n\n\nWeek 31\nMet a small-holder who keeps sheep near to this village. He was very scathing over the report that the Government and DEFRA don’t want to talk up an offer from the Local Authorities here to implement findings and recommendations from their local inquiry over FMD. Why? What has this Government, who didn’t perform very well during the outbreak, got to hide and why shirk away from the findings instead of facing up to the failings that we all know about. It also seems that they don’t want to make any safeguards and recommendations to avoid a further outbreak. As a non-agriculturalist, it doesn’t surprise me in the least. After all, Government has failed other industries in the country for as long as I can remember.\n\n\nWeek 32\nI am convinced that authorities in the area must think that the way animals were buried here and pyre ash and leachate were disposed of at another site nearby was all done as very successfully and that the two sites handled everything professionally. Therefore the sites would be more than capable of handling ash from an incinerator. To me, this is the legacy of FMD. I am most annoyed over this, together with a lot more of the villagers. This village no longer has a representative on the parish council, both have resigned for whatever reason and no-one will step forward to take it one. I have said that I would take a set on the parish council to represent the village and fight for our rights and future quality of life. Due to this, I have uncovered a pile of claims and counter-claims. It seems that both parish and district counsellors know what is going on (regarding the incinerator) and that developers have made ‘concessions’ to some councillors. Also there are claims that the developers have offered money to local landowners and farmers so that roads can be put in. All these accusations have been strongly denied. At the same time it is rumoured that some farmers have been offered local fields nearby. Because of what I have discovered in my own investigations, it would seem that a lot of friendships gained over 20 years could come to an end, I am fearful of what I have uncovered. There are also claims that ‘councillors are only in it for what there can get out and are not to be trusted.’ I don’t want that said of me. Also by the time all this is sorted out, I will be 70-75,  I certainly don’t want to be fighting peoples battles at that age. However, I will support any effort to stop the proposed development. \n\n\nWeek 33\nOnce again the large farm in the centre of the village was the venue for the annual Guy Fawkes bonfire and fireworks. Organisers had been round the village asking for donations to provide fireworks. A tractor and trailer toured the areas picking up things for the bonfire. Drinks and food were served in a barn after the fireworks. This is another occasion when villagers and the farming community come together. It is perhaps the only time that the general public of the village think about FMD and last years events, if only briefly. The farmer remarked that is the third time this year that there has been a public function on his farm. The first was the jubilee party in June, then on October 6th the Harvest Festival service. These events keep farming in the public eye.\n\n\nWeek 34\nI haven’t written before about the proposed building of an incinerator nearby to burn the counties waste. If , as we all suspect, the incinerator is built, then the odours plus the disposal of ash (to the FMD waste site) is a legacy of FMD, particularly regarding the nearby burial and disposal site.\n\n\nWeek 35\nThis is week 35 of this project and for most of the 35 weeks I have written that I am not confident of the future. There are numerous reasons for this. Mainly the situation in the Middle East. Today I travelled to Keswick to do some Xmas shopping. I was given a lift there by a neighbour who is in his 30s. He was very upset about the terrorist situation, not only was he concerned about the terror threat to the London Underground, but the threat closer to home as regards a plane crashing into the nearby Sellafield complex. We don’t know the effect that this constant bad news has on people. People who have already got serious worries, e.g., families, housing, finance, etc must feel really depressed about it all.\n\n\nWeek 36\nNear to the next village is a long established farm of many acres. Recently the farm’s stock of animals and machinery was sold off. The owner, who had farmed for sixty years was leaving to live with one of his brothers. He said that he wouldn’t know how he would feel when he left the farm for the last time this weekend. The farmhouse hasn’t been sold yet and now stands empty. It’s a strange place now, where everything was hustle and bustle (they even had a B & B business there) is now derelict and bare. It’s a sad reflection on the agricultural business in the wake of FMD. This farm isn’t the only one in the area that has sold up. Some farm houses remain as dwellings, but this particular one which we saw nearly every day is just an other sad reminder of the way farming has declined in this rural area.\n\n\nWeek 39\nTuesday.  Boarded the train  at Penrith to journey to Crewe to see our daughter.  During the journey I got into conversation with a fellow passenger.  He noticed I had got on the train at Penrith and perhaps thought I was connected with the agricultural industry.  The conversation drifted into the previous years FMD outbreak.  It is rather strange, that I live in a very rural area, and , FMD is rarely mentioned now.  However, this fellow passenger (although not from an agricultural background) gave his views on the handling of the situation.  It was no different from the views expressed by locals at the time of the crisis.  It just goes to show that FMD is very much in peoples minds even if they were not connected to agriculture in any way.\n\n\nWeek 40\nFriday.  Now that the MEP have published their critical report on the FMD crisis, it is interesting to read an article published in our local weekly paper, from a reader … (Article entitled ‘Foot and Mouth Report’ included). \nI don’t have the knowledge or the data to support this readers comments.  However, I have heard plenty of stories from mainly unreliable sources, to confirm what he says.  It makes interesting reading I think.\n\n\nWeek 41\nTuesday.  No wonder my confidence in the future has taken a big plunge over the last few months.  The situation in Iraq doesn’t get any better.  Mr Tony Blair’s message to the Armed Forces of the UK bear this out.  Being an ex-serviceman, I know what the situation holds for our troops.  But, are we right to follow the USA in a war against Iraq?  No doubt Saddam Hussein does pose a threat but so does India and Pakistan to each other.  Each of these two relatively poor countries has threatened each other as regards their nuclear arsenals.  Now, the loose cannon in the form of North Korea is positioning itself as regards its position in the nuclear arms league.  Personally, I think that North Korea poses a more dangerous threat than Iraq.  It is not a very happy New Year for a lot of people.  Perhaps it will all be settled diplomatically.  I wonder.\n\n\nWeek 42\nNothing of any importance to write about due to refurbishment at home.\n\n\nWeek 43\nMonday.  One of the items on the agenda for this months meeting of Distington Parish Council is a report on the wood-felling and the implications of this.  As I have written in the diary before, there are strong rumours of the proposed plan to fell woods, build a new road through the felled site and bring coal from the nearby opencast site to link up with an existing road, then, to transport the coal to a storage area on Workington Dock.  Then, when the coal is worked out, to build an incinerator on the coal site.  Ash from this development would then be transported on the ‘new’ road to be disposed of on the waste disposal site that was used for FMD pyre ash and leachate.\nThursday.  Read a report of the aforesaid meeting.  The owners have declared that our worries are groundless.  In fact, they say that they plan to eventually open the woodland to the public (the owners of the woodland are the same operators of the opencast coal site).  Footpaths will be created if a grant can be obtained.  A wooden wheeled ancient water mill will be restored.  After the closed meeting the operations director of the site said that ‘There has been a misunderstanding.  What we are doing will benefit local people’.  He said that a management project for the wood is being followed involving felling dead trees and fresh planting.  He added: “The felling and replanting will be done this year after which it will take time to become established.  We’re talking of a ten year programme but it should have long-term benefits.  I think our PR at the start of this wasn’t very good and in the future we will let the council know of our plans”.  The council agreed to keep a watch on the work here in G.\nThis statement differs greatly from what some of us have been told by our village-based County Councillor.  There has never been any suggestion that the felled woods would become a land fill site, but would be felled to provide the new road.  There was nothing mentioned at the meeting regarding the proposed incinerator being built.  The County Council … that this has ever been planned.  However, our representative is adamant that this is not so.\n\n\nWeek 44\nTuesday.  For the first time, my property has finally overcome a situation that was affected by FMD.  \nIn July 2000, the electricity supplier notified me to say that the trees in my garden had grown so tall that the topmost branches were in close contact with an eleven thousand volt overhead power line and that they should be felled or severely pruned.  After some further negotiations it was decided to prune to some height that I wasn’t happy with.  Although the treetops were not actually touching the wires, it was considered a risk in the forthcoming months.  However, as time passed I couldn’t wait for the foresters to arrive, so I pruned the trees myself.\nIn January 2001, the electric supplier suggested that the trees should be pruned further.  A date was agreed but the foresters didn’t arrive.  Time dragged on and the trees grew back to their original height.  Again, the electric supplier suggested they be pruned or felled.  A new date was agreed upon.  However, the foresters couldn’t do the job because the isolator switch was on farmland and they couldn’t get access to it because of FMD restrictions.  And so it dragged on!  Despite visits by foresters and electric supplier reps. the trees got bigger and I was forbidden to touch them.  Neighbours could hear crackling noises coming from the wires and it became very worrying.  People suggested that I should ‘do something about it’.  I took the matter up directly with the supplier and the foresters.  I was promised dates only for them to be cancelled.  In December 2002, a date of 21st January 2003 was given.  This time, they came and we agreed that two trees be felled and another pruned.  After 30 months it finally happened. \nThursday.  Met a small holder who has his land on the edge of this village, who told me that the 20 day rule of animal restriction of animal movement was being lifted and replaced by a 6 day restriction.  This was good news for him and any other farmer.  Later that day I met another farmer who didn’t know that the restriction was being lifted.  You would have thought that I had told him he’d won the lottery!  Good news all round for the people.\nFriday.  Listening to the local radio today and was surprised to hear a report that the Citizens Advice Bureau in a small Lakeland town had been receiving clients who were still experiencing hardship due to FMD.  It is now 18 months since the last outbreak and the effects (according to the person being interviewed) were still being felt.  Not just by farmers and agriculturists, but by guest houses, hotels, tradesmen and in particular, some self employed.  Debt seems to be the biggest problem.  It seems as though some people had weathered the hardships of FMD initially only to find that their plans had come adrift somehow afterwards.  Quite disturbing to hear that the situation is still with us in this county to some degree. \n\n\nWeek 45\nThese diaries were instituted to deal with the after effects of FMD.  Although there were no cases of FMD in this village, everyone knew about it, particularly as nearly everyone who went to work from here would pass the main farm in the village centre, or, some of the farms on the outskirts of the village.\nNow that FMD is over, most people who live here don’t seem to think about it anymore.  The only people affected are the farmers, naturally.\nThis is a strange village in lots of ways.  Only the farmer and his immediate family are connected with agriculture.  The rest are professional people or people who work at nearby Sellafield, industries in Workington and Whitehaven, or are retired.  There is no church, no village pub, no village shop, no village community centre or meeting place.  Only tradesmen that call are the milkman and the solid fuel merchant.  We are left to ‘get on with life’ in our own way.  The parish of Distington to which we belong have all the facilities associated with a larger community, such as a church, pub and community centre.  All of which are two miles away.  Consequently, the Parish Council meets there once a month and discusses all the problems of the area including ours.  However, our representative on the council has resigned and no-one has come forward to represent us.  Anything that has been discussed at the Parish Council is reported in he local newspaper.  \nVillage pubs are a good venue to discuss local issues and to exchange views and, mainly, to gossip.  Village ‘tittle tattle’ as I call it!  As we have no pub, the gossip is rife from one source or another with bits added on or left out as is the choice of the person concerned.  Quite a lot of people one meets are ‘experts’ in their own particular choice of subject whether it is politics, finance or Mrs Jones current boy friend.  It is a fault to take on board all that is gossiped about when one meets a fellow villager in the country lanes whilst out walking the dog.\n\n  \nWeek 46\nIllness to a family member.\n\n\nWeek 47\nContinued illness.\n\n\nWeek 48\nOver the past few weeks there has been a lot of tree felling in the nearby woods.  This has led to a lot of disturbance to the villagers because of the use of large vehicles needed to remove the felled timber and also the foresters vehicles churning up the grass verges and the ditches.\nA lot of concern was raised about the necessity of all the tree felling.  These concerns were raised in the press and also in the parish council.  (I have written about these in diaries in the last few weeks).\nIt was reported in mid-January that all the felled woods would be replanted this year, with footpaths created for the enjoyment of the local population.  Now, all timber operations have ceased.  Large areas of woodland have been left partly felled and a lot of felled timber is left lying about.  Foresters vehicles have gone and nothing is happening.  Despite assurances from the developers, it looks as though something drastic has happened.  Village ‘tittle tattle’ says that the foresters have not been paid for their work so far and that the developers have run out of money.  If this is so, what is going to happen now?\nWhen felling started late last year, I contacted two environmental agencies regarding the threat to the red squirrels, badgers and buzzards that occupy these woods.  I was told that it was only a partial felling and they (the environmental agencies) were satisfied that any disturbances would be slight.  I think that they were told this by the developers, and accepted what they were told without a site visit.  The developers have been known to mislead groups in the past, including landowners, farmers, councils and individuals.\nI, personally am not happy about this situation.  I have always took a keen interest in wildlife and feel that we have been let down by the lies of developers and the lack of serious interest from wildlife agencies, some of which are an offshoot of central Government.  I for one will keep a close look on the situation with or without other villagers and in particular, local councillors.\n\n\nWeek 49\nBy chance I met three small holders all at the same time.  They were discussing farming by the roadside.  All of them were pleased that the 20-day ruling was coming to an end and that their lives were more or less coming back to normal.  They also expressed the opinion that the 20-day rule and the 6-day rule were only in force to protect their interests.  However, they were unanimous in their condemnation over the importing of foreign meat and meat products into this country.  They feel that foreign meat is not subjected to enough checks before entry into the United Kingdom.\n\n\nWeek 51\nMet a farmer today who told me that he’d seen a report based on findings by the EU and DEFRA. It stated all the things that everyone who is an agriculturalist and those who take an interest in the countryside had been saying about what was wrong with the handlers of the FMD outbreak. It just proves that it doesn’t take an academic genius to know what should have been done at the time. Everyone can be wiser after the event, but statements by the NFU and individuals at the onset were not heeded. For example, the movement of animals should have been halted sooner and the Army should have been brought in much sooner. Now, the question of vaccination rumbles on. Should we or shouldn’t we vaccinate? There is a fear of the outbreak again, particularly when the findings of the 1960 outbreak were not implemented. \nSince the sadness of FMD, there has been quite a few instances of socialising at the farm, such as harvest festival, jubilee party and almost any excuse for a ‘shindig’, good to see farmers enjoying themselves.\n\nWeek 52\nMet out local farmer who told me that there is to be new legislation to dispose of fallen stock. No longer can a farmer bury fallen stock on his land, but must now provide an incinerator to dispose of dead animals. This must be a costly business, could dead animals not be taken to a central point and burned?\n\n\nWeek 54\nOne thing about FMD was the effect that it had on the poaching fraternity. Living in a rural area, we expect this to happen. Nobody seems to mind that a few rabbits and pheasants go missing. What is really alarming is the use of dogs and high-powered rifles to poach deer. FMD put a stop to all this. Now a neighbour has told me of poachers near to the village using rifles and shooting deer. The only people benefiting from this are the poachers and hoteliers who receive these dead beasts and no questions asked. Also the danger of villagers being hit by stray rifle shots causes alarm to others.\n\n\nWeek 55\nI think that there is a lot of jumping on the band wagon now that FMD has cleared up. For instance, I listened to an interview on the local radio station given by a hotelier. Things weren’t going well in his establishment. Having got over FMD and its implications, visitors were slowly returning to the area, but not in sufficient numbers to cause great joy. \n
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                                                                                                                                                    [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1975, gender, m, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, diary, 1, thursday, meeting, n, lakes, friday, tb, testing, on, restocking, farm, usual, chat, and, defra, comments, the, meeting, research, panel, gp, 6, at, the, north, lakes, was, interesting, it, surprises, me, sometimes, how, people, myself, included, never, seem, to, tire, of, the, same, stories, and, complaints, over, how, the, crisis, was, handled, some, of, the, episodes, recounted, must, have, been, told, dozens, of, times, over, the, last, year, but, whoever, says, it, always, seems, just, as, keen, to, say, it, again, perhaps, a, reflection, of, how, deeply, people, feel, about, the, events, of, the, last, year, having, said, that, most, of, the, resentments, and, rants, that, i, hear, on, daily, farm, visits, are, focused, fairly, and, squarely, at, defra, and, not, fmd, virus, farmers, seem, far, more, upset, at, the, constriction, put, on, them, by, defra, than, they, do, by, the, loss, of, stock, now, although, i, know, and, saw, how, utterly, devastated, most, were, when, they, were, actually, diagnosed, with, the, virus, and, in, the, week, or, two, following, my, work, in, the, practice, is, becoming, less, and, less, fmd, orientated, as, time, goes, on, licensing, and, restocking, visits, are, drawing, to, a, close, and, we, are, starting, to, return, to, normal, vet, work, my, life, has, been, more, settled, since, the, end, of, fmd, although, there, was, never, a, real, threat, of, redundancy, there, was, a, great, deal, of, uncertainty, as, to, what, form, work, would, take, during, the, outbreak, it, was, never, clear, whether, i, would, be, based, at, the, practice, or, working, as, a, defra, vet, from, month, to, month, now, that, it, is, finished, i, hope, the, practice, and, my, work, can, get, back, to, a, routine, and, at, least, knowing, where, i’ll, be, based, each, day, even, if, not, which, calls, are, going, to, come, in, with, regard, to, fmd, the, biggest, influence, it, has, at, the, moment, and, over, the, last, week, is, acting, as, a, listener, to, farmers, who, still, talk, about, it, and, defra, a, great, deal, diary, 2, mon, shap, restocking, having, to, justify, visit, wed, melmerby, i, went, to, see, a, farmer, this, week, to, do, the, first, inspection, of, his, sentinel, animals, that, he, is, restocking, his, farm, in, common, with, many, farmers, he, was, unwavering, in, his, conviction, that, his, animals, had, been, deliberately, infected, and, that, tony, blair, or, defra, were, the, ultimate, culprits, the, belief, is, that, they, want, to, put, farmers, out, of, business, this, particular, farmer, made, the, very, valid, point, that, defra, co, had, underestimated, the, resilience, of, the, farming, community, i, think, that, this, has, been, very, striking, considering, the, strain, that, they, have, been, under, in, some, cases, worse, for, those, who, didn’t, get, fmd, than, for, those, who, did, it, has, been, remarkable, how, little, the, majority, of, our, clients, have, changed, admittedly, we, see, most, of, them, on, a, professional, basis, regarding, their, animals, health, and, not, their, own, but, on, the, whole, they, seem, to, have, been, very, forward, thinking, about, the, outbreak, many, have, taken, it, as, a, chance, to, increase, the, size, of, herds, and, to, eliminate, many, other, diseases, as, well, as, fmd, work, in, the, practice, has, been, fairly, steady, as, week, the, number, of, fmd, calls, is, decreasing, one, of, the, problems, with, doing, restocking, licensing, and, tb, calls, is, that, we, are, on, the, farm, at, defra’s, instruction, normally, it, is, the, farmer, who, calls, us, out, and, this, can, cause, friction, anything, related, to, defra, will, put, hackles, up, 9, times, out, of, 10, it, definitely, causes, stress, at, times, but, puts, my, diplomacy, skills, into, good, practice, it, sometimes, feels, as, though, some, farmers, just, need, an, outlet, and, i, fit, the, bill, after, agreeing, with, everything, they, say, and, sympathising, it, usually, smoothes, out, and, ends, with, a, cup, of, tea, but, it, does, feel, as, though, we, have, to, justify, what, we, are, doing, much, more, than, prior, to, february, 2001, diary, 3, this, week, was, the, anniversary, of, the, week, i, went, to, my, first, ip, and, associated, slaughter, pyre, building, etc, at, several, times, during, the, week, i, found, myself, thinking, this, time, last, year, i, was, although, obviously, not, pleasant, memories, the, thoughts, did, not, particularly, affect, me, in, a, bad, way, or, distract, me, from, work, it, just, took, me, back, to, that, time, when, i, had, time, to, think, i, went, to, see, a, sick, horse, near, carlisle, which, is, where, the, ip, was, and, it, was, interesting, to, drive, past, the, farm, and, see, animals, in, the, buildings, again, hopefully, the, farmer, concerned, is, getting, back, on, track, again, with, respect, to, daily, routine, work, is, getting, very, busy, lambing, time, is, starting, to, really, get, going, with, the, inevitable, increase, in, calls, although, it, can, be, hectic, at, times, it’s, better, to, be, kept, busy, rather, than, having, it, too, quiet, it’s, also, good, to, actually, be, doing, lambings, and, other, sheep, work, as, it’s, two, years, since, we, did, any, apart, from, euthanasing, sheep, last, year, on, monday, i, went, to, do, a, re, stocking, check, on, a, farm, the, farmer, is, convinced, he, was, given, fmd, deliberately, and, on, arrival, i, was, given, his, weekly, tirade, regarding, defra, tony, blair, how, i, must, have, made, thousands, of, pounds, out, of, it, etc, etc, after, sometime, of, not, rising, to, the, bait, he, calmed, down, and, half, an, hour, later, was, sweetness, and, light, perhaps, he, just, needs, someone, to, let, pressure, out, to, only, one, session, like, that, a, week, isn’t, too, bad, considering, how, many, farm, visits, we, do, diary, 4, monday, brought, another, dressing, down, from, the, farmer, i, mentioned, last, week, it, was, shorter, and, less, passionate, this, time, perhaps, he’s, mellowing, a, bit, i, drove, up, to, junction, 40, one, day, with, the, sun, out, it, reminded, me, of, a, similar, day, a, year, ago, when, i, could, count, 15, smoke, plumes, from, pyres, on, the, same, bit, of, road, as, i, said, last, week, anniversary, memories, like, this, aren’t, especially, difficult, for, me, they’re, just, there, in, a, lot, of, ways, it’s, quite, satisfying, thinking, about, what, was, happening, a, year, ago, and, how, well, things, have, progressed, since, then, most, of, our, farmers, have, re, stocked, work, is, returning, to, normal, even, things, like, being, able, to, drive, onto, farms, again, rather, than, having, to, leave, the, car, at, the, farm, entrance, makes, a, big, difference, work, continues, to, be, very, busy, with, the, typical, seasonal, calls, to, sheep, and, cattle, we, have, a, couple, of, vet, students, doing, work, experience, with, us, which, had, to, stop, last, march, as, we, couldn’t, take, extras, onto, farms, with, us, another, sign, of, the, continuing, return, to, normality, some, days, it, seems, as, if, we, have, returned, to, how, we, were, a, year, ago, the, most, obvious, legacy, is, perhaps, the, thorough, and, extensive, clothing, disinfection, between, each, farm, a, good, habit, which, is, very, hard, to, break, diary, 5, i, had, to, work, on, easter, monday, morning, which, was, fairly, uneventful, as, for, the, last, few, weeks, there, were, the, usual, seasonal, calls, to, sheep, and, cattle, but, nothing, too, stressful, on, tuesday, i, did, the, final, blood, sampling, on, the, last, farm, that, we, have, that, is, still, at, the, sentinel, stage, of, re, stocking, the, farmers, seemed, fairly, mellow, today, and, spared, me, the, usual, lecture, attempt, at, argument, perhaps, it’s, because, the, end, of, his, restriction, is, in, sight, the, test, went, very, smoothly, and, i, didn’t, hear, from, him, until, the, end, of, the, week, when, i, he, was, upset, probably, justifiably, that, his, results, still, weren’t, back, as, processing, the, bloods, is, not, our, responsibility, all, i, could, do, was, sympathise, and, plead, ignorance, the, rest, of, the, week, was, fairly, routine, work, wise, friday, was, taken, up, doing, a, big, tuberculin, and, brucellosis, test, on, a, re, stocked, farm, they, all, have, to, be, done, within, 3, mths, of, re, stocking, although, it, was, a, big, job, it, was, a, well, run, farm, with, plenty, of, help, so, we, got, finished, within, the, day, and, with, as, few, delays, as, could, be, expected, now, that, the, evenings, are, lighter, it’s, meant, that, on, nights, off, duty, i’ve, been, able, to, get, out, more, it’s, made, a, very, welcome, change, to, be, able, to, bike, walk, on, the, fells, again, this, year, after, all, the, restrictions, of, 2001, long, may, it, and, the, weather, continue, diary, 6, finally, finished, the, last, a, restocking, jobs, on, monday, the, farmer, was, getting, very, frustrated, probably, justifiably, so, at, the, length, of, time, it, was, taking, the, bank, holidays, etc, last, week, meant, to, that, the, labs, were, closed, so, that, blood, samples, took, longer, to, process, i, got, the, results, at, 4, 45, monday, evening, and, in, an, attempt, to, create, some, goodwill, agreed, to, go, to, the, farm, to, do, a, final, check, that, evening, on, arrival, of, the, usual, tirade, about, defra, and, vet's, came, my, way, which, was, slightly, hard, to, take, he, then, said, that, he, didn't, blame, me, personally, which, was, nice, of, him, i, think, hope, he, realises, that, we, can, only, try, to, get, things, going, faster, and, ultimately, it’s, out, off, our, hands, at, least, it's, good, to, have, all, the, restocking, work, finished, it, feels, as, though, the, first, stage, is, over, in, getting, back, to, where, we, were, another, sign, of, returning, to, usual, is, the, continuing, pace, of, work, nights, on, call, are, again, a, time, for, working, rather, than, the, call, free, nights, of, summer, 2001, this, week, has, brought, early, morning, lambing, most, days, the, rest, of, the, time, we’re, is, as, busy, as, it's, been, for, a, year, the, day, book, is, full, each, day, and, we, all, seem, to, be, driving, around, the, county, more, or, less, keeping, up, with, the, jobs, which, is, a, good, thing, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, was, going, to, go, to, edinburgh, to, see, some, friends, but, in, the, end, stayed, in, penrith, for, some, r, r, diary, 7, i, had, a, half, day, on, monday, and, went, to, riggindale, at, the, head, of, haweswater, with, a, friend, who, had, come, to, stay, for, a, night, or, two, the, plan, was, to, see, the, golden, eagles, nesting, that, up, to, unfortunately, they, were, off, on, a, day, trip, to, another, part, of, the, lake, district, but, the, weather, was, good, and, it, made, a, very, pleasant, change, from, work, the, practice, is, still, going, flat, out, with, seasonal, work, the, daily, flow, of, lambing, and, lambing, related, sheep, problems, shows, no, sign, of, ebbing, there, are, also, increasing, numbers, of, cattle, problems, probably, related, to, coming, towards, the, spring, turn, out, of, cattle, that, have, been, inside, for, 6, 7, months, the, fact, that, most, of, them, are, in, new, surroundings, is, almost, certainly, adding, to, the, problems, on, the, whole, of, farmers, are, fairly, pragmatic, about, the, difficulties, they, are, having, most, accept, that, they, were, bound, to, have, problems, with, the, restocking, and, on, the, whole, are, pleased, just, to, have, stock, on, again, some, are, very, keen, to, be, as, efficient, as, possible, whereas, others, will, more, readily, go, along, with, the, old, farming, mantra, that, where, there's, a, livestock, there's, a, dead, stock, not, quite, what, the, veterinary, profession, wants, to, encourage, i, was, on, call, at, the, weekend, and, had, one, of, the, busier, few, days, i, can, remember, again, it, was, mostly, seasonal, farm, work, which, although, it, was, time, consuming, is, often, quite, rewarding, i'm, still, surprised, by, the, number, of, sheep, we, are, getting, called, to, perhaps, it's, because, farmers, have, spent, a, lot, of, money, on, them, to, restock, with, and, now, feel, they’re, financially, worth, calling, us, for, diary, 8, made, a, couple, of, visits, to, one, of, our, farmers, who, restocked, over, the, winter, this, week, he's, having, a, few, problems, with, cows, getting, ill, and, generally, not, settling, in, very, well, he's, one, of, the, most, amenable, farmers, on, our, books, and, never, seems, to, try, to, blame, anyone, for, his, troubles, at, times, it's, very, frustrating, not, to, be, able, to, do, more, for, people, like, him, i'd, like, to, be, able, to, give, every, one, of, his, cows, a, magic, injection, and, say, that, it'll, get, better, but, unfortunately, that's, not, how, it, works, we've, had, a, lot, of, colt, castrations, to, do, this, week, which, is, normal, for, this, time, of, year, it, puts, more, pressure, on, us, in, terms, of, work, as, we, usually, take, two, vets, to, each, castration, considering, how, busy, it, is, relations, in, the, practice, are, generally, very, good, it, has, been, stressful, at, times, but, on, the, whole, this, has, been, stress, related, to, volume, of, jobs, to, do, rather, than, people, it, has, also, been, a, very, different, and, preferable, type, of, stress, than, this, time, of, the, last, year, at, least, a, lot, of, work, makes, us, all, feel, fairly, stable, rather, than, the, terrible, uncertainty, of, last, year, we’ve, also, taken, on, an, extra, vet, this, spring, which, would, have, been, unthinkable, last, year, in, the, middle, of, the, week, i, did, a, farm, visit, with, one, of, the, vets, from, the, local, veterinary, lab, to, discuss, disease, control, on, a, re, stocked, farm, most, of, the, work, into, disease, surveillance, on, a, farm, was, defra, funded, which, went, down, well, with, the, farmer, she, at, least, felt, as, though, she, was, getting, something, back, after, fighting, with, defra, for, the, last, few, months, it, was, also, encouraging, to, see, someone, taking, a, very, positive, approach, to, disease, control, in, the, future, my, cousin, and, some, of, his, friends, came, down, from, glasgow, for, the, weekend, to, go, into, the, lake, district, the, weather, was, good, on, the, whole, and, several, people, noted, how, good, it, was, to, have, the, paths, open, again, diary, 9, started, the, week, doing, a, big, tuberculin, and, brucellosis, test, at, a, restocked, farm, there, has, been, a, big, backlog, to, clear, after, testing, was, stopped, during, fmd, last, year, so, we, have, to, catch, up, with, those, farms, that, didn’t, get, the, disease, but, are, due, a, test, as, well, as, testing, the, restocking, farms, we’re, all, very, keen, to, keep, cumbria, as, a, tb, free, zone, but, with, all, the, different, stock, coming, in, it’s, going, to, be, tricky, monday’s, test, was, long, but, okay, on, the, whole, the, set, up, was, good, and, the, farming, family, were, very, pleasant, which, makes, a, huge, difference, to, how, the, day, goes, all, was, clear, when, i, went, to, read, the, test, on, thursday, a, relief, for, all, concerned, overall, work, seems, to, be, quietening, down, a, bit, this, week, compared, to, the, last, few, we, are, now, just, busy, rather, than, always, feeling, as, if, were, one, job, behind, all, the, time, on, wednesday, and, thursday, one, of, our, clients, brought, in, half, a, dozen, shetland, ponies, to, castrate, it, makes, a, change, to, have, a, large, animal, that, is, small, enough, to, be, easily, physically, restrained, by, one, person, the, continuing, good, weather, made, doing, an, afternoon's, work, with, the, ponies, in, the, practice’s, field, a, very, pleasant, way, to, spend, a, few, hours, i, can't, help, feeling, that, no, rain, in, april, means, we'll, get, loads, later, in, the, summer, i, was, on, a, second, call, at, the, weekend, saturday, was, very, busy, with, small, animal, jobs, which, i, mainly, left, to, a, colleague, while, i, tried, to, clear, up, the, farm, and, equine, jobs, calm, was, pretty, much, restored, by, late, afternoon, after, which, i, wasn't, called, until, early, sunday, morning, another, of, our, re, stocked, clients, is, having, considerable, trouble, with, some, of, his, new, animals, and, is, becoming, increasingly, frustrated, about, it, we, all, try, to, help, with, the, medical, side, of, it, animals, but, inevitably, also, get, to, hear, a, lot, of, his, other, worries, too, hopefully, things, will, look, up, soon, and, he'll, be, able, to, ride, it, out, ok, diary, 10, had, a, day, off, on, bank, holiday, monday, always, the, good, way, to, start, the, week, i, went, up, to, peebles, in, scotland, with, some, friends, to, go, mountain, biking, it, was, surprisingly, empty, for, a, weekend, and, the, weather, was, good, and, i, didn't, fall, off, all, in, all, a, good, day, out, tuesday, was, work, as, usual, i, had, to, do, a, small, tb, test, on, a, restocking, farm, it, shouldn't, have, been, a, long, job, but, the, facilities, weren't, great, so, it, didn’t, go, as, slickly, as, it, might, have, done, we, all, managed, to, get, through, in, one, piece, so, it, could, have, been, worse, one, of, my, colleagues, went, on, maternity, this, week, she, is, part, time, but, does, all, small, animal, work, now, that, she's, off, for, the, next, few, months, it, means, that, an, extra, vet, is, needed, each, morning, to, stay, in, and, do, small, animal, operations, while, it's, probably, not, my, favourite, sort, of, work, it, does, make, a, change, from, being, out, on, farms, every, morning, it's, also, good, to, get, a, bit, more, experience, at, small, procedures, as, well, as, doing, smaller, animals, this, week, has, brought, several, interesting, equine, cases, i, had, to, hospitalise, a, horse, for, a, few, days, for, fairly, intensive, treatment, which, fortunately, appears, to, have, made, a, good, recovery, there, have, also, been, a, couple, of, horse, operations, at, the, practice, this, week, they’re, generally, quite, interesting, apart, from, the, stress, involved, with, having, half, a, ton, of, horse, asleep, on, the, operating, table, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, to, edinburgh, for, a, small, reunion, with, friends, i, was, at, college, with, although, we, do, talk, about, other, things, conversation, inevitably, came, round, to, work, the, effect, of, fmd, and, its, consequences, are, still, very, much, in, people's, minds, friends, all, asked, how, it, was, last, year, and, whether, farms, have, restocked, yet, etc, etc, it, s, stuff, which, i, seem, to, have, said, hundreds, of, times, over, the, last, few, months, but, people, never, seem, to, tire, of, asking, it, and, to, an, extent, i, don't, seem, to, get, bored, of, answering, it, diary, 11, the, week, started, with, a, big, tb, test, at, a, restocking, dairy, farm, there, were, very, good, facilities, and, it, subsequently, went, very, smoothly, and, quickly, despite, the, number, of, cows, involved, the, farmer, seems, to, be, quite, positive, about, the, new, start, and, has, been, spared, a, lot, of, the, problems, that, other, people, have, experienced, while, restocking, in, terms, of, disease, in, the, animals, everything, was, clear, when, i, read, the, test, later, in, the, week, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, had, a, bit, of, a, change, as, i, went, castrate, two, ponies, belonging, to, my, mother, she, had, bought, two, totally, wild, fell, ponies, last, autumn, they, now, a, bit, tamer, but, not, completely, used, to, being, handled, yet, i, went, with, one, of, our, nurses, and, the, senior, partner, and, it, all, went, pretty, much, to, plan, work, is, still, busy, there's, one, client, in, particular, who, is, giving, us, a, lot, to, do, he, restocked, a, few, months, ago, and, is, obviously, having, trouble, lambing, his, sheep, it, got, a, bit, trying, when, i, had, to, get, up, to, his, third, lambing, of, one, night, but, that's, what, we, are, there, for, i, suppose, he's, a, nice, man, and, always, seems, pleased, to, see, us, which, helps, i, had, the, weekend, off, again, and, went, to, glasgow, to, be, best, man, at, my, cousin's, wedding, apart, from, the, weather, it, went, very, well, i, think, with, no, unsolvable, problems, diary, 12, started, the, week, with, a, long, visit, for, dairy, fertility, work, to, one, of, our, big, dairy, farmers, it's, one, of, the, farmers, who, has, been, having, problems, after, restocking, and, a, visit, that, another, vet, usually, does, so, i, felt, a, bit, under, pressure, it's, the, type, of, work, which, is, very, routine, but, has, the, potential, to, go, quite, badly, wrong, on, the, whole, it, went, fairly, well, with, no, major, problems, i, get, on, pretty, well, with, the, farmer, which, always, helps, as, it, makes, the, time, go, by, quicker, small, animal, work, is, still, quite, busy, i, had, two, days, inside, this, week, doing, small, animals, operations, there, wasn't, anything, particularly, different, or, unusual, but, it, still, helps, to, do, more, of, it, one, of, our, farmers, who, managed, to, miss, fmd, is, very, busy, with, his, calving, schedule, at, the, moment, he’s, tending, to, have, very, big, calves, and, subsequently, we’re, doing, a, lot, of, caesareans, there, this, week, has, brought, at, least, half, a, dozen, of, which, two, were, in, the, middle, of, the, night, there, have, been, a, few, vets, are, looking, sleep, deprived, recently, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, so, see, a, couple, of, friends, in, edinburgh, we, spent, one, day, cycling, in, peebles, and, then, proceeded, to, nothing, strenuous, for, the, next, diary, 13, the, week, started, with, a, big, session, dehorning, cattle, it’s, not, exactly, technical, work, and, is, fairly, hard, work, at, least, it, gets, me, fit, we, would, normally, do, them, at, a, younger, age, but, quite, a, few, have, been, missed, as, we, didn’t, get, out, onto, farms, for, such, routine, work, last, year, on, the, whole, most, people, are, fairly, well, caught, up, now, that, they’ve, re, stocked, been, having, routine, work, done, for, the, last, 8, months, or, so, but, there, are, still, a, few, lagging, behind, i, had, a, call, from, a, farmer, who, was, one, of, our, most, consistently, and, vehemently, anti, defra, people, last, year, i, ended, up, doing, a, caesarean, and, had, quite, a, long, chat, with, him, conversation, ended, up, coming, round, to, the, events, of, last, year, and, he, aired, his, resentments, again, it, was, the, first, time, in, several, weeks, that, i, had, heard, this, kind, of, talk, whereas, a, few, months, ago, it, would, have, been, a, daily, occurrence, it, wasn’t, particularly, aimed, at, me, or, the, practice, in, particular, but, just, frustration, with, the, system, as, a, whole, i, went, for, a, walk, up, blencathra, one, evening, during, the, week, but, the, highlight, of, the, week, has, to, be, the, start, of, the, world, cup, i’ve, been, on, duty, this, w, e, but, managed, to, see, all, but, the, last, two, minutes, of, this, morning’s, rather, disappointing, draw, with, sweden, most, farmers, are, keen, to, watch, the, matches, too, so, lets, hope, not, too, many, calls, come, in, at, the, wrong, time, diary, 14, i, had, the, bank, holiday, on, monday, off, which, was, welcome, after, a, weekend, on, call, i, went, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, with, a, colleague, considering, it, was, a, bank, holiday, it, wasn't, too, crowded, had, to, work, on, bank, holiday, tuesday, though, it, wasn't, especially, busy, until, the, evening, when, i, had, to, do, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, and, then, go, and, see, a, badly, cut, horse, both, seem, to, be, doing, ok, the, rest, of, the, week, was, worked, as, usual, nothing, particularly, out, of, the, ordinary, happened, with, fairly, routine, calls, perhaps, it, was, because, everyone, was, preoccupied, with, events, in, japan, and, korea, or, maybe, that, is, just, me, i, was, booked, in, for, an, 11, am, call, on, friday, but, managed, to, persuade, the, farmer, concerned, that, 9.30, would, be, more, appropriate, said, that, i, or, should, that, be, we, could, watch, the, second, england, game, we, managed, to, get, finished, in, time, and, it, was, well, worth, it, the, 1, 0, win, over, argentina, put, everyone, in, a, good, mood, for, the, rest, of, the, day, and, the, weekend, i, was, on, first, call, over, the, weekend, saturday, morning, was, very, busy, and, we, didn’t, get, all, the, calls, done, until, early, afternoon, after, that, it, was, one, of, the, quietest, weekends, i’ve, had, they, were, a, couple, of, things, to, do, on, saturday, afternoon, evening, but, sunday, had, no, calls, until, after, lunch, almost, unheard, of, i, had, to, check, my, phone, was, switched, on, long, may, it, last, diary, 15, i’ve, done, two, days, in, the, practice, doing, small, animals, this, week, more, than, usual, the, weather, has, not, been, the, best, so, it's, no, bad, thing, i, managed, to, go, out, on, rounds, on, wednesday, though, so, i, managed, to, catch, the, third, england, match, second, round, here, we, come, i, spent, most, of, friday, morning, operating, on, two, cows, at, one, of, our, farms, they, both, had, a, condition, where, part, of, the, gut, displaces, in, the, abdomen, and, is, best, repositioned, surgically, the, farmer, observed, that, it, was, probably, linked, to, fmd, last, year, because, of, fmd, he, had, to, use, more, silage, to, keep, his, cows, inside, last, summer, this, meant, he, had, less, stored, over, the, winter, and, so, had, none, available, to, feed, this, spring, summer, the, lack, of, silage, now, is, almost, certainly, implicated, in, the, problems, his, cows, had, it's, very, unusual, to, have, two, occurring, on, one, farm, at, same, time, seeing, as, he, missed, getting, fmd, last, year, though, he, thought, it, was, a, price, worth, paying, it, was, actually, quite, a, pleasant, way, to, spend, a, morning, he's, from, kirkby, stephen, where, i, went, to, school, and, i, didn't, have, any, other, jobs, waiting, so, it, was, quite, a, relaxed, few, hours, the, surgery, went, ok, too, i, had, a, half, day, on, friday, and, drove, to, valley, just, beyond, alston, to, meet, one, of, my, old, flat, mates, from, edinburgh, for, his, stag, weekend, we, stayed, in, an, old, barn, in, middle, of, nowhere, so, it, wasn't, exactly, a, conventional, stag, party, but, very, enjoyable, all, the, same, we, walked, to, the, nearest, pub, on, saturday, to, see, england's, exciting, next, instalment, 3, 0, thank, you, very, much, after, that, it's, been, a, leisurely, day, and, drive, back, to, penrith, and, i’ve, got, another, night, to, get, my, head, back, to, normal, for, work, tomorrow, diary, 16, this, week, has, been, quite, small, animal, orientated, again, i've, done, two, mornings, in, the, surgery, and, more, consulting, than, usual, i'm, not, meant, to, be, on, duty, for, nights, this, week, but, i've, had, a, couple, to, cover, for, people, who've, been, on, holiday, fortunately, both, nights, were, fairly, quiet, i'm, sure, the, favour, will, be, returned, sometime, during, the, day, work, has, been, fairly, steady, we’re, not, quite, as, busy, as, last, week, but, there's, enough, to, keep, us, going, the, practice, like, most, of, the, country, tried, to, stop, briefly, while, england, were, losing, to, brazil, it's, a, bit, disappointing, hopefully, farmers, and, the, rest, of, our, clients, won’t, be, too, depressed, about, it, all, it, was, good, while, it, lasted, at, the, weekend, i, went, down, to, a, place, near, worcester, for, the, wedding, of, the, friend, whose, stag, weekend, it, was, the, last, week, there, were, a, lot, of, people, from, edinburgh, there, why, haven't, seen, for, several, years, and, it, was, great, to, catch, up, the, weather, was, very, kind, and, stayed, dry, diary, 18, on, monday, i, went, to, do, a, big, tuberculosis, and, brucellosis, test, at, of, one, our, big, dairy, farms, that, had, restocked, few, months, ago, they’ve, got, several, hundred, cows, and, it, took, a, lot, longer, than, anticipated, i, had, to, go, back, on, tuesday, to, finish, the, job, off, they’re, a, friendly, family, so, it, wasn't, really, too, much, of, a, chore, there, has, been, a, more, obvious, change, in, them, since, fmd, than, for, most, of, our, clients, who, had, the, disease, they, seem, much, quieter, and, less, concerned, about, farming, and, life's, problems, in, general, now, perhaps, they, think, if, they, can, get, through, 2001, then, there’s, nothing, worth, getting, stressed, about, in, comparison, wednesday, was, spent, doing, small, animal, work, made, a, change, as, on, thursday, i, went, back, to, read, the, cows, results, for, the, tb, test, all, negative, on, thursday, night, i, drove, down, to, stay, with, a, college, friend, near, birmingham, for, the, start, of, a, long, weekend, on, friday, i, carried, on, south, to, another, friend, in, north, devon, she's, working, another, vet, in, an, area, that, was, also, severely, affected, by, fmd, cumbria, was, so, badly, hit, that, is, sometimes, easy, to, forget, that, other, places, had, a, bad, time, too, thankfully, work, in, devon, is, more, or, less, back, to, normal, again, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, weekend, in, south, devon, where, my, dad, had, his, 60th, birthday, we, were, lucky, with, the, weather, and, had, fine, ish, conditions, to, have, a, barbecue, on, the, beach, i, was, off, today, monday, as, well, and, spent, the, day, driving, north, too, far, to, go, for, a, weekend, diary, 19, it's, been, a, short, working, week, seeing, as, i, had, monday, off, i’ve, also, started, a, month, back, on, the, out, of, the, hours, of, rota, this, week, it, works, a, month, on, a, month, off, system, so, nights, and, weekends, have, been, and, will, be, a, bit, busier, work, has, generally, been, a, bit, quieter, recently, this, is, fairly, typical, for, the, time, of, year, mainly, because, animals, are, outside, and, farmers, are, busy, making, hay, and, silage, rain, permitting, we've, had, two, vets, off, this, week, so, although, there, have, been, fewer, jobs, in, we, are, not, left, twiddling, our, thumbs, there, has, been, the, usual, flow, of, a, routine, farm, work, along, with, horses, and, small, animals, but, nothing, too, taxing, on, the, whole, i, had, a, night, on, thursday, and, went, up, st, sunday, crag, in, the, lake, district, with, a, couple, of, friends, from, brampton, it, was, further, than, i, remembered, it, being, we, didn't, get, down, until, it, was, almost, dark, but, apart, from, being, unseasonably, cold, surprise, surprise, it, was, a, fine, night, it, was, duty, this, weekend, i, was, on, first, call, on, friday, night, and, had, it, very, easy, no, calls, until, 12, 45pm, when, another, vet, and, i, had, to, operate, on, a, dog, until, three, am, i, checked, it, again, at, 5.30, and, then, had, to, go, to, calving, at, 6.45, just, as, that, was, finished, i, was, called, to, a, badly, cut, horse, then, some, lame, cows, and, then, to, the, bacon, roll, shop, for, breakfast, i, was, only, on, second, call, for, the, rest, of, the, weekend, and, was, fairly, quiet, this, meant, i, could, get, on, with, various, mundane, things, like, painting, my, house, tidying, the, garden, etc, etc, ideal, tasks, for, when, i, can't, do, anything, else, because, i'm, on, call, and, the, dog, did, well, so, it, makes, the, night, with, no, sleep, worthwhile, diary, 20, have, had, another, short, week, had, monday, off, as, i, was, coming, back, from, a, long, weekend, away, work, this, week, has, been, fairly, steady, farmers, are, often, busy, trying, to, get, silage, hay, in, at, the, moment, so, routine, of, vet, work, takes, a, back, seat, having, said, that, we, have, been, kept, at, least, as, busy, as, we, would, expect, with, routine, fertility, visits, and, the, occasional, sick, cow, etc, there, been, a, few, of, the, restocking, farms, that, have, had, some, fairly, unusual, diseases, that, didn't, obviously, fall, into, the, ones, we, usually, recognise, or, deal, with, as, a, lot, of, them, have, bought, stock, in, from, abroad, we, have, to, at, least, keep, in, mind, the, possibility, of, new, problems, been, brought, in, we've, worked, quite, closely, with, the, local, defra, run, veterinary, investigation, centre, on, a, few, of, these, cases, but, thankfully, none, have, turned, out, to, be, anything, to, be, unduly, worried, about, i, was, on, duty, this, weekend, but, have, fortunately, been, reasonably, quiet, the, only, thing, out, the, ordinary, was, a, horse, that, had, torn, its, leg, up, quite, badly, on, some, wire, but, with, a, bit, of, time, and, bandaging, it, should, do, okay, diary, 21, 2, vets, have, been, off, this, week, so, it's, been, a, bit, busier, for, the, rest, of, us, again, as, with, last, week, it's, been, a, mixture, of, routine, and, the, standard, a, e, type, work, there, have, been, a, few, tuberculin, tests, going, on, still, trying, to, clear, the, backlog, from, last, year, it's, getting, there, slowly, but, a, lot, of, it, will, have, to, wait, until, the, autumn, winter, when, the, cows, are, in, and, the, farmers, have, more, time, available, our, new, vet, who, started, in, april, has, seemed, to, settle, in, very, well, he, had, a, bit, of, a, bad, day, earlier, in, the, week, when, a, calving, did, go, quite, as, planned, it's, very, easy, to, do, especially, when, you, feel, under, pressure, as, is, bound, to, happen, when, you, start, a, new, job, it, reminded, me, of, some, of, the, problems, i, had, a, few, years, ago, the, farm, where, it, happened, is, quite, an, understanding, type, so, it, won't, create, any, real, problems, hockey, training, is, starting, again, which, seems, a, bit, premature, as, the, season, is, still, months, away, at, least, it'll, encourage, me, to, do, a, bit, more, exercise, to, get, fit, for, matches, the, weather, has, meant, i, haven't, been, out, into, the, hills, as, often, as, i, would, have, liked, but, hopefully, there's, still, time, for, it, to, brighten, up, a, bit, had, the, weekend, off, so, a, couple, of, friends, from, college, he, now, living, york, came, to, stay, we, went, up, to, the, borders, for, the, day, on, saturday, near, to, where, i, used, to, work, it, doesn't, seem, to, have, changed, much, i, still, think, i'm, better, off, down, here, despite, last, year, diary, 22, we, had, a, bit, of, a, rush, on, this, week, as, sometimes, seems, to, happen, it, can, be, quiet, for, couple, of, weeks, and, then, it, suddenly, it's, crazy, it, may, be, that, a, lot, of, farms, have, now, largely, got, their, crops, in, and, are, trying, to, catch, up, or, perhaps, it's, just, the, way, things, go, several, farms, have, had, ongoing, problems, this, week, with, visits, being, required, several, days, running, there, have, also, been, a, large, number, of, horse, calls, this, is, probably, fairly, common, for, this, time, of, year, as, they, tend, to, get, ridden, in, the, supposedly, better, weather, we, tend, to, go, further, afield, for, horses, on, tuesday, i, went, to, kirkby, lonsdale, area, in, morning, and, had, to, go, north, of, carlisle, in, the, afternoon, the, miles, get, racked, up, or, fairly, quickly, and, i, get, to, learn, where, the, various, blind, spots, for, phone, and, radio, reception, are, i, was, on, duty, again, on, the, weekend, which, meant, that, i, was, also, on, for, monday, wednesday, and, friday, nights, they, weren't, too, bad, apart, from, friday, when, i, have, to, go, and, see, a, couple, of, horses, being, on, duty, for, three, week, nights, tends, to, limit, what, i, can, do, apart, from, work, but, i, managed, to, meet, up, with, some, friends, working, in, brampton, one, night, and, go, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, on, thursday, the, weekend, was, fairly, quiet, but, i, was, only, on, second, call, so, i, found, time, to, do, some, decorating, in, the, room, in, my, house, which, is, the, current, project, i, lead, such, a, thrilling, life, diary, 23, the, calm, after, the, storm, after, the, frantic, levels, of, work, we, saw, last, week, it, has, again, been, a, bit, more, civilised, this, week, we've, had, time, to, have, coffee, and, lunch, breaks, and, actually, talk, to, colleagues, from, time, to, time, i, wouldn't, want, have, every, week, is, quiet, as, this, but, occasionally, it's, very, welcome, it's, quite, relaxing, to, be, able, to, go, on, a, call, knowing, that, there, is, not, another, one, waiting, it, also, means, that, if, the, afternoons, are, quiet, one, of, us, can, usually, have, a, half, day, i, got, the, nod, on, wednesday, and, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, my, folks, they’ve, got, a, smallholding, down, there, with, various, creatures, which, usually, have, some, ailment, or, other, it's, a, bit, of, a, busman's, holiday, going, there, but, it, is, nice, having, them, close, i, tend, see, them, every, week, or, two, on, wednesday, i, vaccinated, a, couple, of, horses, and, trimmed, a, few, sheep’s, feet, they, went, through, the, joys, of, 48, hourly, surveillance, inspections, last, year, but, somehow, managed, to, come, through, unscathed, their, parish, was, one, of, the, only, ones, in, the, kirkby, stephen, area, to, do, so, other, weekend, i, went, up, to, glasgow, to, see, a, cousin, who, was, having, a, leaving, party, i, didn't, know, many, people, there, but, it, was, good, to, go, and, do, something, completely, removed, from, the, usual, one, of, the, people, i, did, know, came, and, stayed, in, penrith, on, sunday, night, it, was, a, stunning, day, we, went, the, lakes, which, were, at, their, best, diary, 24, this, week, was, the, first, of, four, for, me, being, off, the, rota, which, should, mean, no, nights, and, no, weekends, on, call, can't, be, bad, on, monday, had, a, small, tb, test, to, do, it, was, with, a, very, pleasant, farmer, and, the, cows, behaved, themselves, so, it, wasn't, a, bad, way, to, spend, a, morning, he's, imported, a, small, herd, from, holland, and, seems, very, pleased, with, them, so, far, it, takes, a, bit, time, for, the, f, m, farmers, to, get, used, to, their, new, stock, as, most, of, them, knew, their, old, ones, so, well, but, on, the, whole, people, seemed, fairly, content, with, their, new, ones, i, did, small, animal, ops, on, tuesday, and, wednesday, as, one, of, the, vets, who, usually, do, it, was, on, holiday, we've, got, a, new, nurse, starting, this, week, so, it, was, a, case, of, showing, her, the, ropes, but, she, seems, to, be, doing, very, well, one, my, best, school, friends, got, married, on, friday, very, typically, after, a, fairly, quiet, week, it, suddenly, got, busy, on, friday, afternoon, i, managed, to, get, the, wedding, but, had, to, miss, the, afternoon, reception, in, order, to, go, and, see, a, horse, in, appleby, that's, life, i, was, one, of, the, duty, vets, at, lowther, show, on, saturday, i, hadn't, done, it, before, and, had, a, very, good, time, it, was, generally, fine, weather, and, there, were, some, truly, stunning, teams, of, horses, in, the, driving, event, lots, of, competitors, commented, on, how, good, it, was, to, have, the, show, up, and, running, again, after, last, year's, cancellations, the, event, passed, without, any, major, incident, for, vet, wise, so, it, was, a, pretty, calm, day, for, me, really, diary, 25, the, week's, been, fairly, steady, i, seem, to, have, been, doing, more, horses, than, anything, else, i, didn't, go, and, see, a, cow, until, friday, several, of, them, were, ongoing, cases, such, as, leg, wounds, that, have, needed, daily, dressing, changes, and, the, rest, a, selection, of, vaccinations, lameness, and, those, that, aren't, quite, right, i, quite, enjoy, the, horse, side, of, the, job, so, doing, a, bit, more, than, usual, has, been, a, welcome, change, i, had, planned, to, get, to, work, on, my, house, this, month, in, my, free, evenings, but, it, doesn't, really, seem, to, have, worked, like, that, when, i, know, i've, got, a, lot, of, free, time, nights, tend, to, get, booked, up, seeing, people, from, home, or, near, by, who, i’ve, temporarily, lost, touch, with, also, seeing, as, summer, seems, to, have, found, us, i've, been, trying, to, get, into, the, lakes, as, much, as, possible, the, house, can, wait, till, winter, this, weekend, i’ve, been, down, to, wales, to, see, a, group, of, college, friends, we, stayed, in, a, cottage, owned, by, one, of, the, group's, parents, and, played, a, few, rounds, of, golf, i, played, very, badly, lost, a, lot, of, balls, and, became, very, frustrated, with, it, all, i, think, it, comes, down, to, lack, of, talent, still, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, some, people, i, haven't, seen, since, graduation, and, i'm, sure, the, golf, will, be, better, next, year, diary, 26, i've, done, more, small, animal, work, than, anything, else, this, week, there, had, been, no, disasters, all, fairly, routine, stuff, one, of, the, small, animal, vets, has, been, away, so, i, had, to, cover, a, bit, i, didn't, actually, get, out, onto, a, farm, until, friday, morning, it, gets, a, bit, claustrophobic, inside, after, a, while, so, it, was, good, to, get, out, i, was, on, call, at, the, weekend, and, also, had, a, college, friend, to, stay, it, was, very, quiet, most, of, the, time, until, sunday, evening, i, had, swapped, duty, to, be, off, on, the, night, from, 6, 00pm, at, 5.45, four, calls, all, came, in, at, once, at, all, four, corners, of, the, practice, so, i, didn't, actually, get, finished, until, nearly, 8pm, that’s, the, way, it, goes, sometimes, i, suppose, i, had, another, half, day, earlier, in, the, week, as, it, was, fairly, quiet, i, took, my, bike, out, into, the, northern, lakes, for, a, few, hours, to, blow, away, the, cobwebs, from, being, inside, at, work, diary, 27, i, had, a, barbecue, party, this, weekend, for, people, from, work, and, a, lot, of, friends, from, college, there, were, a, lot, of, people, i, thought, i'd, always, keep, in, touch, with, the, but, as, time, went, on, i, never, did, so, i, arranged, a, weekend, a, long, way, in, advance, for, us, all, to, meet, up, again, about, 28, people, came, most, of, whom, i, haven't, seen, for, least, a, year, or, two, nobody, seems, to, have, changed, much, and, it, was, great, to, see, them, all, again, the, garden, and, house, have, both, taken, a, bit, of, a, pounding, but, i, think, most, of, the, mess, is, fairly, superficial, i, went, for, a, walk, near, howtown, today, to, clear, my, head, after, the, barbecue, last, night, it, was, a, very, good, day, weather, wise, which, meant, that, a, lot, of, people, had, had, the, same, idea, as, us, it's, been, a, variable, week, at, work, some, days, been, very, quiet, others, flat, out, i've, had, an, ongoing, case, of, a, young, horse, that, had, been, caught, up, in, wire, on, monday, evening, it, was, well, beyond, the, stage, where, it, could, have, been, stitched, when, i, saw, it, so, it'll, have, to, heal, slowly, by, filling, the, wound, in, i'm, sure, it'll, be, fine, but, it's, going, to, take, a, long, time, we’re, starting, to, get, a, lot, of, inquiries, about, the, new, rules, defra, are, bringing, in, to, allow, farmers, to, bring, animals, on, to, their, farms, in, isolation, facilities, it, should, make, things, less, restrictive, for, the, farmer, we, are, going, to, have, to, do, a, lot, of, inspections, it's, not, since, restocking, checks, last, winter, that, we’ve, really, had, to, do, this, sort, of, thing, but, the, checks, probably, won't, be, as, exhaustive, as, those, we, had, to, do, last, year, diary, 28, had, a, fairly, quiet, week, really, this, been, a, fairly, standard, mix, of, sick, cows, a, couple, of, lame, horses, and, the, continuation, of, the, young, horse, that, wrecked, its, leg, last, week, which, is, going, okay, so, it's, been, fairly, laid, back, on, the, whole, with, time, for, a, coffee, break, after, most, calls, we, have, done, the, first, of, the, inspections, for, the, new, on, farm, isolation, facilities, for, sheep, on, the, whole, farmer, compliance, has, been, very, good, there, have, been, a, few, whinges, about, why, they, have, to, do, it, and, i, can, see, why, as, it, must, be, frustrating, to, suddenly, be, told, how, to, run, stock, movements, that, they've, always, done, a, different, way, most, can, see, why, defra, are, insisting, on, it, though, as, it's, all, aimed, at, reducing, the, risk, of, having, another, situation, like, we, did, last, year, i, was, off, again, this, weekend, one, of, my, old, flat, mates, and, his, wife, came, to, stay, they, live, in, london, so, came, north, for, a, weekend, of, clean, living, and, fresh, air, we, went, for, walks, around, cat, bells, and, high, street, on, saturday, and, sunday, ate, drank, and, were, generally, fairly, unstressed, hope, it, was, what, they, were, looking, for, diary, 29, i've, had, a, short, week, in, terms, of, work, at, the, practice, this, week, as, i've, been, to, glasgow, for, an, equine, conference, from, thursday, to, saturday, further, education, is, not, compulsory, and, there, is, no, formal, structure, for, it, which, is, quite, controversial, in, some, people's, eyes, but, the, royal, college, of, vets, do, encourage, us, to, keep, up, to, date, there, is, a, quota, we’re, asked, to, fulfil, each, year, and, these, three, days, will, help, me, keep, on, track, there, were, several, different, courses, on, each, day, with, one, lecture, theatre, for, practitioner, based, subjects, that, we, could, expect, to, see, on, a, day, to, day, basis, and, another, called, advanced, clinical, sessions, on, subjects, and, cases, so, obscure, that, you'd, be, lucky, to, hear, of, one, let, alone, see, one, more, than, once, or, twice, i, didn't, go, to, many, of, those, lectures, as, well, as, being, useful, in, terms, of, picking, up, new, information, it, was, also, a, good, chance, to, catch, up, with, old, friends, from, college, lots, of, people, i, hadn't, seen, for, a, year, or, two, were, there, and, it, was, good, to, see, them, the, first, three, days, of, the, week, were, okay, i, went, out, on, tuesday, morning, to, trim, some, lame, cows, feet, and, ended, up, accidentally, trimming, some, skin, from, the, farmers, thumb, with, my, hoof, knife, all, a, bit, embarrassing, and, felt, very, bad, but, he, didn't, seem, that, fazed, by, it, and, he's, not, the, type, to, bear, a, grudge, perhaps, i, shouldn’t, try, to, keep, my, knife, so, sharp, another, of, the, week's, more, interesting, events, was, an, irish, wolfhound, that, needed, surgery, to, correct, a, twisted, and, distended, stomach, it's, fairly, common, in, this, type, of, dog, and, is, a, real, emergency, another, vet, and, i, operated, on, him, on, tuesday, afternoon, it, took, a, couple, of, hours, but, so, far, is, seems, to, have, been, worth, it, as, he's, done, very, well, and, apparently, went, home, on, friday, diary, 30, i, spent, most, of, monday, afternoon, evening, irradiating, myself, by, taking, dozens, of, x, rays, of, a, horse’s, legs, it, was, being, sold, for, a, lot, of, money, and, the, insurance, company, wanted, to, check, all, its, joints, were, ok, before, insuring, it, it, took, a, lot, longer, than, anticipated, as, it, was, difficult, to, get, it, positioned, absolutely, right, for, each, view, but, we, got, there, in, the, end, we, have, to, be, quite, careful, about, exposure, to, x, rays, but, my, x, ray, badge, hasn't, shown, a, high, reading, yet, 2, vets, have, been, off, this, week, one, on, his, honeymoon, and, one, has, been, away, doing, ai, on, sheep, its, often, a, bit, quieter, now, but, we, seem, to, have, been, kept, going, i, did, a, big, routine, fertility, visit, to, one, of, our, dairy, farms, on, wednesday, one, of, the, main, things, we, do, on, these, visits, is, manual, pregnancy, diagnosis, it's, not, too, bad, with, dairy, calves, cows, as, if, they're, not, in, calf, they, would, normally, get, another, chance, to, do, so, but, with, some, beef, farms, or, a, dairy, cow, that, is, persistently, not, conceiving, it, sometimes, more, economic, to, get, rid, of, the, cow, of, rather, than, persisting, so, there's, a, big, incentive, for, us, to, get, it, right, or, at, least, not, to, say, a, cow, isn't, in, calf, when, she, is, luckily, they, were, all, quite, straightforward, this, week, this, was, my, last, before, going, away, to, the, usa, for, a, fortnight, i, fly, to, new, york, tomorrow, to, meet, up, with, an, old, flatmate, of, mine, who's, a, journalist, out, there, i'm, crossing, the, atlantic, to, see, him, and, he's, given, me, directions, to, his, flat, rather, than, meeting, me, at, the, airport, because, i'm, arriving, when, premiership, football, is, on, tv, charming, diary, 31, two, weeks, in, the, states, can't, be, bad, i, flew, into, new, york, where, i, stayed, with, a, friend, who's, working, in, manhattan, i, did, a, lot, of, the, usual, tourist, things, empire, state, building, boat, trip, around, the, island, central, park, etc, for, its, size, it's, a, very, relaxed, place, in, a, lot, of, ways, it, feels, very, safe, and, although, there, is, loads, going, on, you, never, seem, to, get, hassled, we, flew, to, new, orleans, for, a, week, supposedly, for, some, sun, in, the, deep, south, but, landed, just, as, a, tropical, storm, hit, the, mainland, everything, was, closed, for, two, days, as, bad, as, uk, when, it, snows, once, the, weather, cleared, it, was, fine, and, we, again, went, about, being, tourists, paddle, boat, up, the, mississippi, river, out, on, a, boat, in, the, louisiana, swamps, to, look, at, alligators, and, a, bit, of, new, orleans, nightlife, i, had, a, few, more, days, in, new, york, before, flying, home, diary, 32, first, week, back, after, america, had, a, good, trip, but, the, week, has, been, rather, marred, by, the, death, of, one, of, the, hockey, team, and, a, year, mate, of, mine, at, school, in, a, tractor, accident, when, he, was, hit, by, a, wagon, on, the, a, 66, on, thursday, i, saw, him, on, wednesday, night, at, hockey, training, he, was, very, stiff, having, done, the, great, north, run, with, his, wife, the, weekend, before, i, didn't, know, him, very, well, at, school, but, have, got, to, over, the, last, few, years, via, hockey, and, he, really, was, a, tremendously, good, person, and, will, be, much, missed, by, lots, of, people, in, and, around, kirkby, stephen, the, weekend's, match, was, postponed, as, no, one, could, have, thought, about, playing, it, all, seems, very, trivial, when, this, sort, of, thing, happens, i, couldn't, have, played, anyway, as, i'm, on, duty, this, weekend, but, fortunately, it's, been, fairly, quiet, so, far, a, calving, and, 2, caesareans, but, it's, getting, into, calving, season, so, it's, about, par, for, the, course, the, first, half, of, the, week, was, ok, i, was, even, given, a, half, day, on, tuesday, a, day, and, a, half, after, returning, from, holiday, i, went, for, a, walk, at, the, bottom, end, of, derwent, water, and, then, tried, to, sleep, off, some, jet, lag, diary, 33, i, went, to, matthew's, funeral, on, tuesday, how, popular, he, was, was, reflected, in, the, number, of, people, there, we, arrived, 25, minutes, before, it, was, due, to, start, and, still, had, to, stand, and, had, to, move, up, as, more, people, tried, to, fit, into, the, chapel, it, almost, seemed, as, if, all, of, kirkby, had, come, to, a, standstill, it, went, on, quite, a, long, time, so, i, had, the, afternoon, off, and, went, to, see, my, parents, who, live, near, kirkby, afterwards, we, cancelled, hockey, training, on, wednesday, as, it, seemed, too, soon, to, go, on, as, usual, but, decided, play, our, scheduled, match, on, saturday, both, our, team, and, the, opposition, had, two, minute, silence, before, the, match, we, ended, up, drawing, 0, 0, but, it, was, a, very, good, close, game, we, normally, lose, to, this, team, and, played, in, a, competitive, but, fair, spirit, just, what, was, needed, for, our, first, match, back, i'm, actually, on, duty, again, this, weekend, but, one, my, colleagues, covered, for, me, for, a, few, hours, so, i, could, go, to, play, the, cases, at, work, have, been, fairly, steady, this, week, i'm, going, to, enrol, for, a, further, qualification, in, equine, practice, in, the, next, week, or, two, i'm, doing, a, reasonable, amount, of, horse, work, at, the, moment, but, will, try, to, do, a, bit, more, over, the, next, few, months, years, it, should, motivate, me, to, read, up, on, cases, more, and, find, slightly, more, constructive, ways, to, spend, evenings, on, call, diary, 34, tb, testing, our, biggest, beef, herd, had, its, post, restocking, test, this, week, about, 600, cattle, were, to, be, done, there’s, no, way, it, could, be, done, in, one, go, so, we, did, it, over, 3, instead, originally, planned, for, two, but, ran, out, of, daylight, it, all, went, smoothly, on, the, whole, or, at, least, as, well, as, could, be, expected, and, everything, has, been, cleared, as, negative, i, found, out, from, defra, a, few, weeks, ago, that, there, have, actually, been, quite, a, few, tb, cases, in, the, county, since, restocking, as, we'd, been, clear, for, years, previously, to, fmd, this, is, obviously, a, bit, of, a, worry, we, haven't, had, any, cases, in, our, practice, but, if, we, can't, stamp, out, these, new, cases, as, they, are, found, it’s, only, a, matter, of, time, before, it, spreads, further, afield, the, more, we, get, in, the, county, also, means, there, will, have, to, be, more, testing, at, the, moment, it's, begrudgingly, accepted, by, the, farmers, but, if, we, have, to, do, more, i, can, see, them, having, a, sense, of, humour, failure, over, it, ultimately, it's, in, their, interest, for, us, to, check, that, their, herd, is, free, but, it, is, a, big, time, commitment, and, they, don't, get, paid, for, it, while, i, spent, two, days, testing, the, rest, of, the, week, had, a, bit, more, variety, i, saw, few, horses, mainly, lameness, but, also, one, or, two, with, other, ailments, i, have, to, write, a, casebook, for, the, equine, certificate, i'm, doing, i’m, on, the, lookout, for, suitable, cases, during, my, rounds, i, had, the, weekend, off, played, hockey, in, manchester, and, then, went, to, worcester, to, see, some, college, friends, i, had, to, drive, back, via, ely, as, the, trains, are, cancelled, due, to, the, winds, which, meant, a, friend, was, stranded, not, a, very, direct, route, to, cumbria, diary, 35, the, week, started, on, monday, morning, with, another, tb, test, on, a, restocking, farm, it's, not, a, big, farm, and, was, one, of, the, late, ones, to, get, fmd, it's, run, by, a, very, nice, but, quite, intense, family, the, son, has, taken, re, stocking, very, seriously, and, has, obviously, thought, of, it, very, much, as, an, opportunity, to, start, from, scratch, and, try, to, eliminate, some, of, their, previous, herd, problems, i, have, consequently, spent, quite, a, bit, of, time, advising, him, over, the, various, vaccines, available, and, their, relative, pros, and, cons, thankfully, things, seem, to, be, paying, off, so, far, with, few, problems, in, herd, one, of, the, things, that, i, noticed, during, the, test, was, that, they, made, one, or, two, jokes, about, last, year, sorry, forgotten, exactly, what, they, said, i, thought, the, fact, that, they, were, able, to, now, talk, about, fmd, like, that, had, to, be, a, good, sign, as, i, think, it, would, have, been, highly, unlikely, a, year, ago, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, went, up, to, wigton, to, vet, a, horse, for, a, potential, buyer, there, were, several, minor, things, wrong, with, it, but, overall, it, seemed, ok, it's, always, a, responsibility, vetting, horses, as, someone, is, either, trying, to, buy, it, or, not, on, the, basis, of, what, i, find, in, this, case, it, took, quite, a, lot, of, convincing, the, buyer, that, the, imperfections, were, not, that, serious, hopefully, they, won’t, subsequently, turn, out, to, be, a, problem, i've, started, doing, more, horse, cases, recently, and, on, tuesday, sent, off, my, application, form, to, be, accepted, to, do, further, exams, in, horse, practice, i, have, to, wait, until, next, year, to, find, out, whether, i've, been, accepted, and, won't, sit, them, until, 2005, i, was, off, this, weekend, and, played, hockey, in, manchester, unfortunately, we, didn't, win, maybe, next, week, saturday, evening, i, went, down, to, kendal, to, see, an, old, flatmate, who, lives, there, diary, 36, on, tuesday, i, went, to, see, a, horse, near, carlisle, it, had, developed, a, swelling, on, its, lower, jaw, that, was, fairly, painful, to, touch, they, were, a, few, possibilities, but, the, most, likely, was, that, it, had, at, tooth, root, abscess, i, put, it, on, to, antibiotics, but, seeing, as, it, had, obviously, been, going, on, for, a, while, thought, it, was, worth, taking, some, x, rays, there, was, obvious, destruction, of, the, tooth, visible, on, the, x, ray, which, probably, means, it, needs, removing, this, is, a, fairly, major, undertaking, on, a, horse, and, as, it, was, a, valuable, creature, still, in, training, i, thought, it, best, to, send, to, edinburgh, vet, school, to, have, it, done, hopefully, i'll, be, able, to, go, and, see, it, done, in, a, day, or, two's, time, one, of, the, aspects, drawbacks, not, really, of, being, a, vet, his, that, one, is, often, asked, about, animal, ailments, out, of, work, i’m, sure, it, happens, a, lot, in, other, jobs, too, my, mother, is, very, adept, at, this, not, that, i, really, mind, her, elderly, terrier, that, we, grew, up, with, has, started, having, one, or, two, problems, recently, i, suggested, a, few, possibilities, but, thought, it, best, if, she, went, to, the, local, vets, to, have, her, looked, at, the, problem, was, she, was, so, bad, tempered, the, terrier, that, they, couldn’t, safely, blood, sample, her, so, she, had, a, day, out, to, penrith, so, that, i, could, try, to, take, blood, from, her, i, managed, to, more, or, less, intact, and, fortunately, her, results, seemed, more, or, less, in, order, or, at, least, better, than, her, temper, the, general, work, in, the, practice, has, been, fairly, steady, this, week, a, few, farmers, seem, to, be, having, quite, a, few, cows, calving, at, the, moment, which, is, a, bit, unseasonal, but, i, suppose, a, reasonable, number, tend, to, calve, all, year, round, we, haven't, really, got, into, calf, pneumonia, season, yet, but, it, can't, be, long, before, they, start, to, keep, us, busy, it, will, soon, take, over, from, lungworm, as, the, main, bovine, respiratory, problem, the, weekend, was, off, again, brought, a, victory, in, a, hockey, match, the, start, of, a, winning, streak, perhaps, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, after, the, match, to, see, a, few, friends, and, for, the, start, of, a, week, off, wahey, diary, 37, it's, a, week, off, can't, be, bad, i, didn't, do, what, i, had, planned, due, to, an, unforeseen, change, in, circumstances, but, still, good, as, i, was, in, edinburgh, last, weekend, i, decided, to, stay, up, for, few, days, this, was, partly, to, see, friends, and, also, because, i, had, referred, the, horse, with, a, bad, tooth, that, i, mentioned, last, week, voluntary, work, experience, during, time, off, dedication, or, very, rash, i, spent, tuesday, at, the, vet, school, in, edinburgh, with, one, of, my, old, tutors, the, case, i, had, sent, up, was, successfully, treated, so, far, by, removing, the, offending, tooth, it, was, very, interesting, to, see, how, he, did, it, as, he, used, a, different, technique, to, the, one, we’ve, used, in, the, practice, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, there, with, him, seeing, other, cases, it, felt, a, bit, odd, being, there, not, as, a, student, i, came, home, on, tuesday, evening, and, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, my, folks, on, wednesday, morning, i, spent, most, of, the, rest, of, the, week, either, at, their, house, or, mine, doing, things, like, stocking, up, on, firewood, for, the, winter, sorting, my, house, out, and, making, a, start, on, stripping, the, wallpaper, in, my, hallway, i, normally, go, away, when, i, take, time, off, but, it, was, actually, very, nice, to, do, things, at, home, for, change, it, made, for, quite, a, relaxing, week, on, the, whole, diary, 38, back, to, work, it, was, good, to, have, a, week, off, last, week, but, one, of, the, best, things, about, where, i, work, and, what, i, do, is, that, i, never, seem, to, feel, reluctant, to, go, back, to, work, i, think, that, must, mean, i, enjoy, it, on, the, whole, on, tuesday, i, went, back, to, see, the, horse, that, had, had, its, tooth, removed, last, week, it's, doing, very, well, and, is, back, in, training, it, was, eating, very, well, as, soon, as, the, tooth, came, out, it's, amazing, how, animals, often, seem, to, deal, with, pain, so, stoically, i'll, check, it, again, next, week, and, all, things, being, well, that, should, be, it, on, tuesday, afternoon, i, happened, to, see, another, slightly, unusual, case, in, a, horse, it, had, developed, a, lump, on, the, outside, of, its, cheek, which, on, closer, inspection, turned, out, to, be, a, large, mass, man, inside, its, mouth, it's, probably, going, to, have, to, be, removed, and, should, come, in, next, week, for, it, to, be, done, the, rest, of, the, week, was, the, usual, mix, of, more, routine, cases, have, been, on, to, more, farms, this, week, than, i, have, done, for, a, while, we, recently, took, on, a, new, dairy, farm, near, appleby, and, i, went, to, see, a, cow, there, for, the, first, time, on, a, first, visit, you, always, hope, for, something, straightforward, so, that, it's, easy, to, make, a, good, first, impression, on, this, occasion, the, cow, was, very, sick, and, wasn't, really, giving, me, many, clues, as, to, why, all, i, could, do, was, treat, it, for, the, symptoms, it, was, showing, i, saw, it, twice, on, friday, and, again, on, saturday, and, by, evening, it, was, on, the, mend, i, never, did, reach, a, conclusive, diagnosis, but, i, think, the, farmer, was, satisfied, by, the, fact, that, it, had, got, better, in, spite, of, not, knowing, quite, what, was, wrong, i, was, on, duty, friday, night, very, quiet, and, on, saturday, apart, from, the, cow, i, mentioned, it, was, fairly, easy, going, today, i, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, some, old, friends, staying, with, my, parents, two, weeks, with, no, tb, testing, it'll, change, next, week, diary, 39, it's, been, a, fairly, uneventful, week, at, work, there, don't, seem, to, have, been, any, particularly, on, going, or, notable, cases, in, some, ways, it's, not, a, bad, thing, as, it, makes, for, a, fairly, stress, free, time, it's, not, that, you, can, really, switch, off, but, it, does, mean, that, when, there, are, a, few, fairly, straightforward, cases, to, see, it's, possible, to, spend, more, time, chatting, to, the, farmer, owner, without, having, to, work, too, hard, finding, what's, wrong, with, the, patient, this, week's, most, interesting, case, was, a, horse, with, amazingly, extensive, arthritis, in, its, hind, legs, considering, its, age, it's, not, a, terminal, condition, but, it, does, have, implications, as, to, what, it, will, be, possible, to, use, it, for, in, future, in, situations, like, that, it, can, be, quite, difficult, to, give, the, client, the, right, outlook, they, often, expect, a, quick, cure, especially, in, a, young, horse, and, to, tell, them, that, a, problem, has, been, present, for, months, if, not, years, and, will, never, completely, go, away, can, come, as, a, bit, of, shock, the, owner, in, this, case, was, very, sensible, and, seemed, to, taking, what, was, said, very, well, the, other, good, thing, about, this, week, is, that, i'm, having, a, very, good, run, with, my, duties, i've, been, on, for, two, nights, on, first, call, and, the, phone, hasn't, gone, once, very, unusual, and, very, welcome, this, must, be, tempting, fate, i've, had, the, weekend, off, there, was, a, hockey, match, on, saturday, when, we, lost, to, the, league, leaders, but, avoided, humiliation, the, rest, of, the, two, days, was, spent, trying, to, progress, with, decorating, the, hallway, before, friends, come, to, stay, over, christmas, and, new, year, am, i, not, too, young, to, be, spending, weekends, off, decorating, diary, 40, i, had, a, good, test, of, my, diplomacy, skills, this, week, with, an, irate, farmer, i, had, spent, four, hours, doing, a, tb, test, on, a, very, cold, day, when, it, should, have, taken, about, one, and, a, half, hours, in, my, rush, to, get, defrosted, in, my, car, afterwards, i, forgot, to, shut, the, gate, in, the, field, where, i, had, parked, on, my, return, to, the, surgery, i, was, greeted, by, the, news, that, he, had, rung, wanting, my, head, on, a, stick, and, forbidding, me, from, ever, setting, foot, on, his, farm, again, as, all, his, tups, had, gone, walkabout, through, the, gate, i'd, left, open, on, advice, from, the, partners, at, the, practice, who, knew, him, better, i, gave, him, a, day, to, calm, down, and, then, wrote, a, very, grovelling, letter, i, was, allowed, to, go, back, at, the, end, of, the, week, to, read, the, test, results, which, fortunately, was, all, clear, i, think, he's, forgiven, me, one, of, the, more, common, cow, operations, we, do, is, to, correct, a, displaced, stomach, in, the, two, and, a, half, years, i've, been, at, the, practice, we’ve, always, done, it, using, one, particular, technique, there, are, circumstances, where, another, method, is, indicated, and, having, not, seen, them, for, 2, years, there, were, 2, this, week, they, both, went, well, so, far, another, two, years, before, the, next, i, took, my, last, day, off, for, 2002, on, thursday, and, again, spent, it, decorating, on, thursday, night, we, had, our, practice, christmas, meal, the, two, vets, on, duty, managed, not, to, get, called, out, and, on, the, whole, i, think, people, weren't, too, hung, over, on, friday, last, year, there, was, a, bit, of, a, debate, as, to, whether, we, should, have, a, christmas, night, out, as, most, farmers, were, either, just, starting, to, restock, or, still, cleaning, out, this, year, it, was, much, more, straightforward, on, friday, night, it, was, the, annual, night, at, hesket, newmarket, organised, by, the, local, defra, lab, for, any, local, vets, that, want, a, meal, and, beers, it's, a, good, chance, to, catch, up, with, other, vets, from, neighbouring, practices, in, very, informal, atmosphere, diary, 41, i've, had, a, couple, of, vet, students, staying, with, me, this, week, who, i, knew, when, i, was, in, my, final, year, at, edinburgh, they're, doing, work, experience, with, us, for, a, week, or, so, it's, made, a, pleasant, change, to, have, some, company, for, a, while, i, have, also, acquired, two, stray, kittens, in, the, last, week, the, usual, vet, procedure, of, eventually, finding, an, unwanted, patient, that, you, can't, resist, taking, yourself, they, are, settling, in, ok, and, we’ve, only, had, to, have, one, or, two, little, discussions, about, the, benefits, of, using, a, litter, tray, rather, than, the, carpet, the, week, at, work, has, been, reasonably, busy, a, good, thing, this, week, as, there, have, been, three, students, and, it's, a, bit, dull, for, them, if, there, is, nothing, going, on, we, had, a, horse, in, for, most, of, the, week, with, a, severe, respiratory, infection, it’s, needed, fairly, intensive, care, but, seems, to, be, on, the, mend, now, i, may, use, it, as, a, case, to, write, up, as, part, of, the, exam, i'm, hoping, to, do, in, a, few, years, it'll, have, to, be, a, new, year's, resolution, to, get, on, with, the, writing, up, part, of, it, apart, from, a, horse, it's, been, the, usual, sort, of, mix, a, few, routine, fertility, visits, to, dairy, farms, a, few, sick, cows, and, horses, etc, there, been, some, tb, tests, this, week, but, i've, managed, to, miss, them, all, must, be, saving, some, for, me, next, year, i, had, a, lot, of, people, from, work, here, on, friday, night, for, pre, christmas, mulled, wine, and, mince, pies, i'm, not, quite, sure, the, kittens, knew, what, was, happening, but, i, think, the, rest, of, us, enjoyed, it, i've, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, down, to, see, a, friend, in, birmingham, who, qualified, last, summer, this, was, her, second, weekend, on, call, so, i, went, to, give, moral, support, being, on, call, isn't, stressful, anymore, but, i, remember, for, the, first, few, times, it's, difficult, not, to, be, aware, of, the, phone, all, the, time, and, hoping, it, doesn't, ring, there, weren't, many, calls, and, those, that, did, come, in, she, didn't, need, me, for, suited, me, well, diary, 42, the, week, of, christmas, and, my, first, job, of, the, week, was, to, replace, a, particularly, contaminated, uterine, prolapse, in, a, cow, it, finally, went, back, in, after, an, hour, or, so, of, fairly, fruitless, efforts, very, festive, this, week, and, next, we, had, fewer, vets, than, usual, working, each, day, as, we, all, have, a, few, days, off, for, christmas, new, year, so, it‘s, sometimes, a, bit, busy, during, the, day, it's, generally, worth, it, for, the, extra, time, off, i, was, off, on, monday, night, and, went, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, school, friends, back, for, the, holiday, although, we, don't, see, each, other, very, often, any, more, people, don't, really, seem, to, change, very, much, a, good, friend, whose, parents, farm, had, f, and, m, have, sold, up, and, are, going, into, b, b, instead, i, think, it, was, a, hard, decision, but, now, they, seen, to, be, quite, relieved, to, be, out, of, it, i, was, on, duty, on, christmas, eve, and, fortunately, didn't, have, to, go, out, i, just, had, three, phone, calls, between, 7, and, 9, p, m, from, people, saying, their, dog, or, cat, had, been, off, food, for, periods, varying, from, three, weeks, to, 10, days, christmas, eve, seemed, an, odd, time, to, notice, this, i, went, home, to, kirkby, stephen, for, christmas, and, boxing, day, and, didn't, really, do, very, much, i, had, a, look, at, a, couple, of, mum’s, sheep, but, other, than, that, it, was, just, a, case, of, being, lazy, and, enjoying, seasonal, food, and, drink, i, was, on, duty, this, weekend, which, turned, out, be, fairly, busy, one, of, the, students, who, came, to, stay, last, week, came, back, to, do, some, on, call, work, which, turned, out, to, be, very, useful, a, couple, of, cows, to, operate, on, as, caesar, and, a, displaced, stomach, where, two, pairs, of, hands, are, better, than, one, and, quite, a, few, small, animals, to, see, to, diary, 43, i've, had, most, of, this, week, off, for, new, year, tuesday, to, friday, which, is, pretty, good, going, seen, as, i, was, off, for, christmas, as, well, monday, was, fairly, quiet, with, just, a, few, farm, calls, to, do, and, some, small, animals, rather, worryingly, we've, heard, that, a, local, deer, farm, not, one, of, our, customers, has, gone, down, with, tb, apparently, with, quite, a, few, deer, in, the, herd, having, it, this, means, that, we'll, have, to, do, tb, check, tests, on, any, of, our, farms, that, neighbour, the, affected, premises, over, new, year, my, cousin, her, husband, and, their, five, children, young, came, to, stay, it, wasn't, too, hectic, on, the, whole, with, just, the, occasional, loss, of, humour, a, couple, of, friends, from, work, came, round, to, join, us, for, new, year, itself, i've, had, to, work, this, weekend, part, of, the, deal, for, getting, four, days, off, midweek, but, it's, not, really, been, that, busy, i've, only, been, on, second, call, and, have, only, had, to, do, 2, calls, so, far, an, easy, return, to, work, after, new, year, excesses, diary, 44, back, to, normal, quota, of, vets, at, work, again, this, week, which, is, good, as, it, seems, to, have, been, very, busy, most, of, it, has, been, the, usual, sort, of, things, for, the, time, of, year, cows, starting, to, get, lame, after, having, been, inside, for, a, few, months, and, metabolic, problems, probably, related, to, the, poor, silage, last, year's, summer, rain, created, quite, a, few, farmers, have, a, large, amount, of, 2001, silage, left, as, it, wasn't, used, over, winter, 2001, 2002, as, they, hadn't, restocked, on, the, whole, it's, kept, very, well, and, in, many, cases, is, better, than, the, crop, they, made, last, summer, the, fall, out, from, the, deer, herd, tb, has, arrived, two, neighbouring, farms, to, test, this, week, the, first, one, has, come, back, negative, to, the, relief, of, all, concerned, i, did, the, second, one, on, friday, and, will, read, it, tomorrow, monday, the, farmers, there, are, all, very, concerned, about, it, which, is, understandable, but, hopefully, groundless, there, are, lots, of, questions, being, asked, along, the, lines, of, what, if, some, of, which, i, can, answer, and, some, not, it, does, remind, me, a, bit, of, february, 2001, when, fmd, broke, out, and, there, were, all, sorts, of, queries, about, the, disease, its, progression, etc, that, none, of, us, really, knew, about, it, didn't, take, long, for, us, to, know, the, answers, to, most, of, them, i've, had, this, weekend, off, a, hockey, fixture, list, has, started, again, after, the, christmas, break, a, return, to, winning, ways, hopefully, to, continue, diary, 45, the, week, had, a, bad, start, the, tb, test, i, did, last, friday, produced, two, reactors, and, two, inconclusive, borderline, reactors, this, means, that, the, farm, isn't, allowed, to, move, at, any, bovines, on, or, off, the, farm, except, directly, to, slaughter, under, licence, the, reactors, are, taken, away, for, post, mortem, examination, and, the, inconclusive, reactors, are, isolated, for, 60, days, until, the, rest, of, the, herd, is, re, tested, the, farmer, was, very, keen, to, get, the, inconclusive, animals, removed, as, well, quite, understandably, in, my, opinion, so, that, they, couldn't, pose, a, threat, to, the, rest, of, his, herd, apparently, defra, aren't, allowed, to, do, this, i, think, largely, due, to, financial, reasons, while, fully, appreciating, the, need, to, protect, taxpayers, money, considering, how, much, was, spent, in, 2001, i, think, this, a, potentially, flawed, argument, perhaps, the, rules, need, to, be, changed, but, then, again, i'm, not, an, epidemiologist, and, perhaps, they, don't, actually, pose, a, threat, the, farmer, seemed, very, depressed, by, it, all, i, think, a, lot, of, it, is, the, feeling, of, having, the, stigma, of, being, a, farm, under, defra, restrictions, again, he, was, also, very, aware, of, the, threat, he, was, to, his, neighbours, and, was, desperately, keen, to, minimise, it, it's, actually, quite, small, while, the, cows, are, still, indoors, but, i, think, people, are, still, very, much, thinking, of, how, serious, it, was, for, neighbours, if, someone, got, fmd, tb, is, a, very, different, type, of, organism, and, it’s, a, question, of, getting, people, to, understand, this, which, isn't, to, say, it's, not, a, very, serious, problem, on, the, same, day, another, farm, in, the, area, not, ours, was, confirmed, with, tb, so, it's, definitely, progressing, in, cumbria, depressing, all, we, can, do, is, follow, defra, instructions, on, testing, and, try, to, keep, on, top, of, it, one, of, my, colleagues, tore, a, knee, ligament, last, week, while, skiing, he, normally, does, mostly, large, animal, calls, seeing, as, he's, now, confined, to, the, practice, doing, small, animals, i've, taken, over, couple, of, the, farms, he, does, routine, fertility, visits, for, it, makes, a, change, to, spend, time, on, farms, i, don't, visit, often, although, i, hear, the, small, animal, nurses, are, quite, keen, for, matt, to, get, back, to, doing, them, diary, 46, one, of, our, dairy, farmers, has, had, a, big, outbreak, of, pneumonia, in, his, calves, this, week, i've, been, to, the, farm, at, least, once, every, day, this, week, the, tests, we've, done, are, usually, pretty, sensitive, but, have, failed, to, reveal, any, of, the, usual, causes, treatment, seems, to, have, been, working, in, some, cases, but, not, in, others, he, hasn't, lost, any, i, e, none, dead, but, the, loss, in, body, weight, is, very, obvious, it's, all, been, a, bit, frustrating, really, he's, a, very, pleasant, guy, and, hasn't, said, anything, but, when, treatments, repeatedly, fail, to, get, expected, and, predicted, results, i, can't, help, feeling, that, he, must, be, getting, a, bit, sceptical, about, it, or, perhaps, i'm, just, being, paranoid, by, the, end, of, the, week, the, majority, seem, to, be, on, the, mend, but, seeing, as, we, haven't, tracked, down, the, causative, agent, it's, hard, to, know, what, vaccination, to, recommend, next, year, there, are, some, more, tests, that, will, come, back, in, two, weeks, which, may, be, more, revealing, in, midweek, i, did, one, of, the, fairly, common, operations, to, correct, a, twisted, stomach, in, a, cow, surprisingly, it, was, the, first, time, this, dairy, farmer, had, had, one, done, and, he, took, some, convincing, that, it, was, a, good, idea, having, persuaded, someone, to, pay, for, a, procedure, i, always, feel, under, a, bit, more, pressure, than, usual, fortunately, it, went, pretty, well, and, the, cow, is, so, far, doing, well, i, was, on, second, call, this, weekend, which, turned, out, to, be, pretty, quiet, i, think, we, must, be, in, a, lull, before, lambing, really, kicks, in, let's, enjoy, it, while, it, lasts, diary, 47, after, not, doing, any, testing, last, week, it, was, my, turn, again, this, week, it, wasn't, a, big, one, only, about, 30, cows, but, it, was, a, bit, more, risky, than, usual, as, it, was, a, herd, of, beef, longhorns, and, they, do, have, long, horns, whilst, trying, to, manoeuvre, them, into, a, crush, to, inject, their, necks, with, tuberculin, we, always, had, to, be, ready, to, take, evasive, action, if, they, made, a, sudden, turn, i, don't, think, they, ever, tried, to, use, their, horns, aggressively, but, they, were, so, big, that, they, become, dangerous, weapons, when, they, were, just, moving, normally, as, it, turned, out, no, one, received, any, injuries, and, very, importantly, the, test, was, negative, this, week, also, brought, my, first, lambing, of, the, year, other, people, have, done, a, few, but, this, was, my, first, we, have, a, couple, of, farms, who, lamb, early, for, the, early, lamb, sales, it, seems, very, hard, work, at, this, time, of, year, but, the, early, prices, do, seem, to, make, it, worthwhile, give, it, another, week, or, two, and, a, sure, they’ll, start, to, become, more, frequent, i, took, friday, off, as, i, had, to, get, to, london, for, 4, pm, to, get, on, the, eurostar, to, go, skiing, typically, the, one, day, of, the, year, that, the, country, ground, to, halt, was, thursday, night, friday, we, managed, to, make, it, to, waterloo, station, only, to, find, the, station, in, chaos, as, all, eurostars, had, been, cancelled, due, to, snow, in, france, at, least, it's, not, just, britain, that, can’t, cope, with, it, after, being, assured, that, none, would, run, for, 24, hours, they, suddenly, told, us, to, board, only, 1, hours, late, very, pleasant, surprise, we, ended, up, arriving, in, val, d'isere, on, time, with, loads, of, snow, and, blue, skies, i, tried, to, spare, a, thought, for, whoever, was, on, call, at, weekend, i, managed, it, just, diary, 48, after, the, weather, almost, prevented, us, from, reaching, val, d’isere, it, was, very, clear, for, the, first, few, days, but, then, the, snow, returned, for, three, days, we, couldn't, do, much, during, that, time, but, it, did, mean, that, there, were, fantastic, conditions, for, the, last, few, days, we, had, a, group, of, 29, and, completely, filled, one, large, chalet, there, were, for, once, no, major, skiing, injuries, within, the, group, and, i, think, a, good, time, was, had, by, all, diary, 49, back, to, work, this, week, i’m, never, reluctant, to, go, back, after, a, week, off, and, sometimes, dare, i, say, it, even, look, forward, to, it, must, be, a, good, sign, apparently, last, week, was, ok, at, work, with, no, major, dramas, we, still, haven't, found, any, more, tb, cases, but, the, screening, continues, all, the, time, one, of, the, rules, for, re, stocking, herds, compared, to, herds, that, missed, fmd, is, that, all, bovines, over, 42, days, old, have, to, be, tested, rather, than, just, the, adults, last, year, when, there, weren't, many, calves, around, this, didn't, make, much, difference, but, now, most, farms, have, at, least, a, year's, worth, of, calves, in, place, it, doubles, the, size, of, most, tests, often, calves, won't, fit, in, crushes, and, are, very, wild, so, it, can, get, quite, exciting, it, seems, a, necessary, policy, though, one, of, the, reactors, i, found, a, few, weeks, ago, was, a, six, month, old, stirk, i've, had, a, fairly, quiet, week, i've, had, a, couple, of, nights, on, duty, which, were, both, quiet, there's, a, horse, near, carlisle, that, i, think, i've, mentioned, before, with, a, recurrent, tooth, problem, we, thought, we'd, finally, sorted, that, but, this, week, she, developed, a, problem, with, one, of, the, tendons, on, her, foreleg, it's, a, bit, disappointing, for, her, owner, as, she, only, bought, the, horse, recently, in, order, to, compete, to, a, very, high, standard, and, she, seems, to, permanently, off, training, with, one, ailment, or, another, i, don't, think, it's, too, serious, so, hopefully, in, another, week, or, two, she'll, be, back, to, work, i've, been, off, this, weekend, came, second, in, the, weekend’s, hockey, match, a, real, case, of, defeat, been, snatched, from, the, jaws, of, victory, i, went, for, a, walk, around, the, great, gable, scafell, area, on, sunday, afternoon, it, was, amazing, how, much, snow, and, ice, was, still, left, over, from, winter, weather, a, week, or, so, ago, maybe, i, needn't, have, bothered, going, abroad, diary, 50, i, found, another, positive, tb, case, on, friday, i, did, the, test, on, tuesday, on, a, very, large, beef, herd, on, a, restocking, farm, including, calves, they, must, have, been, just, over, 400, cattle, to, do, there, was, one, reactor, on, friday, and, two, inconclusives, there, is, a, possibility, that, it, is, a, false, positive, the, farm, has, been, having, big, problems, with, something, called, at, johne’s, disease, which, is, caused, by, a, similar, type, of, bacterium, to, the, one, that, causes, tb, there, is, a, small, possibility, of, a, cow, carrying, johne’s, disease, cross, reacting, with, the, tb, test, injection, i, actually, blood, sampled, all, the, adult, cows, on, tuesday, to, screen, the, herd, for, johne’s, in, order, to, try, to, start, eradicating, it, from, herd, it'll, be, interesting, to, see, whether, the, positive, test, cow, will, be, positive, for, johne’s, ultimately, it, doesn't, really, make, much, difference, in, the, short, term, the, farm’s, been, placed, under, restrictions, and, the, affected, cow, has, been, taken, off, for, post, mortem, one, of, my, colleagues, found, another, positive, reactor, on, a, different, farm, on, friday, as, well, that's, three, farms, in, the, practice, now, and, around, 50, 60, within, cumbria, the, big, worry, now, this, is, that, the, longer, it, stays, around, the, more, likely, inevitable, it, is, disease, will, get, into, wildlife, reservoirs, deer, and, perhaps, badgers, depending, on, whether, you, believe, that, badgers, are, an, influence, or, not, time, will, tell, but, i'm, sure, it's, going, to, keep, us, busy, for, several, years, if, not, a, lot, more, i, did, a, test, on, monday, as, well, on, a, small, farm, that, i've, never, been, to, before, at, least, testing, is, one, way, of, getting, on, to, small, farms, who, don't, often, need, us, this, one, was, all, clear, the, remainder, of, the, week, was, spent, doing, more, usual, work, lambing’s, still, not, quite, got, into, full, swing, although, we, are, seeing, a, slow, increase, in, the, number, of, sheep, been, brought, to, the, surgery, diary, 51, no, tb, testing, for, me, this, week, and, no, more, positive, cases, in, the, practice, the, first, case, that, i, found, back, in, january, was, confirmed, as, carrying, tb, this, week, though, although, it's, bad, news, for, the, farmer, it, is, quite, reassuring, to, know, that, the, tests, and, methods, we, use, do, detect, carrier, animals, reasonably, accurately, this, week, has, been, fairly, busy, without, ever, getting, too, hectic, i, operated, on, a, cow, on, tuesday, which, for, a, number, of, reasons, didn't, go, quite, as, smoothly, as, it, might, have, done, it, subsequently, didn't, do, as, well, post, operatively, as, we, would, normally, expect, the, coming, week, should, see, an, improvement, i, hope, we, can, never, give, cast, iron, guarantees, about, the, outcome, of, surgery, but, it, is, quite, rare, for, this, op, to, fail, so, fingers, crossed, for, monday, i, had, to, see, a, horse, with, colic, earlier, in, the, week, which, on, my, first, visit, to, i, was, very, suspicious, that, it, was, going, to, require, surgery, to, correct, the, owner, wasn't, prepared, for, that, happen, though, so, it, was, a, question, of, trying, to, manage, it, medically, or, euthanizing, it, it, wasn't, in, undue, pain, so, we, gave, it, a, go, medically, and, much, to, my, pleasant, surprise, over, the, next, few, hours, and, visits, he, did, very, well, just, goes, to, show, we, are, not, all, knowing, it, would, have, been, interesting, to, know, whether, it, was, a, surgical, condition, which, somehow, righted, itself, or, whether, it, was, a, medical, case, all, along, which, simply, appeared, as, something, more, serious, i, had, to, work, for, an, hour, or, so, on, saturday, morning, doing, small, animal, consultations, and, then, had, the, rest, of, the, weekend, off, we, came, second, in, a, hockey, match, again, and, then, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, to, catch, up, with, some, college, friends, who, haven't, seen, for, a, while, diary, 52, this, week, has, really, seen, the, start, of, the, lambing, season, the, sheep, every, day, or, every, other, day, that, we've, been, seeing, for, the, last, month, or, so, has, turned, into, one, every, few, hours, during, the, day, and, during, the, night, in, some, cases, it’s, encouraging, that, farmers, are, still, bringing, them, in, calling, us, out, as, many, feel, that, sheep, aren't, worth, paying, vet, fees, for, this, obviously, creates, a, welfare, problem, in, many, situations, as, inappropriate, and, inadequate, treatment, is, sometimes, provided, by, the, farmer, having, said, that, i, can, see, why, some, take, the, attitude, of, not, spending, money, on, them, as, prices, are, often, so, low, the, other, aspect, of, lambing, time, is, that, nights, get, very, busy, on, monday, i, had, a, ewe, caesarean, at, 2am, then, a, horse, that, had, just, foaled, at, 3.15, i, had, an, hour, or, so, in, bed, and, then, a, sick, cow, at, 6.20, although, it, can, be, a, bit, tiring, on, the, whole, cases, we, see, out, of, hours, are, not, the, run, of, the, mill, routine, things, so, it, does, at, least, make, it, interesting, which, isn't, always, the, first, thing, on, my, mind, when, the, phone, rings, at, 3am, unfortunately, the, cow, i, operated, on, last, week, failed, to, improve, and, i, had, to, re, operate, on, monday, this, is, far, from, ideal, as, it, carries, a, much, higher, risk, of, infection, than, first, time, operation, somewhat, to, my, surprise, it, seems, to, be, doing, very, well, now, cows, seem, to, be, amazingly, resilient, if, i'd, had, abdominal, surgery, twice, in, a, mucky, cow, byre, i'm, sure, i, wouldn't, cope, as, well, i, did, the, same, op, on, a, different, farm, later, in, the, week, which, went, much, better, i’d, be, getting, worried, about, my, technique, if, two, in, a, row, went, wrong, i've, worked, saturday, morning, again, supposedly, just, for, an, hour, but, it, turned, into, about, two, and, a, half, as, things, kept, coming, in, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, again, after, hockey, came, second, again, to, see, someone, who's, left, his, job, to, go, around, the, world, for, six, months, diary, 54, the, beginning, of, the, week, saw, a, visit, to, a, horse, which, had, a, chronic, episode, of, laminitis, a, hoof, condition, in, this, horse's, case, it, had, become, very, severe, and, really, beyond, the, point, where, treatment, is, feasible, euthanasia, was, the, best, option, for, the, horse, as, it, was, in, a, lot, of, pain, unfortunately, the, owner, was, very, reluctant, for, this, and, wanted, to, carry, on, with, treatment, this, sort, of, situation, does, crop, up, from, time, to, time, and, is, difficult, for, all, concerned, in, the, end, i, told, the, owners, what, i, thought, the, chances, of, recovery, were, and, let, them, make, their, decision, which, was, to, continue, treatment, hopefully, i'll, be, proved, wrong, and, the, horse, will, recover, but, i, can't, really, see, it, happening, i, saw, another, case, later, in, the, week, which, ended, up, going, to, liverpool, university, for, surgery, it, was, a, small, pony, that, had, managed, to, cut, itself, very, severely, on, barbed, wire, horses, always, find, something, to, injure, themselves, on, there, was, a, risk, that, it, had, penetrated, a, joint, so, i, sent, it, to, liverpool, to, be, flushed, as, far, as, i, know, it's, doing, very, well, so, far, the, rest, of, the, workload, this, week, has, been, the, usual, stuff, for, the, time, of, year, loads, of, lambing, a, few, tb, tests, negative, generally, kept, busy, on, friday, i, went, to, edinburgh, for, a, few, days, course, on, equine, neurology, i, knew, most, of, the, speakers, and, some, delegates, from, when, i, was, a, student, there, it, was, good, to, see, people, again, and, i, learnt, a, few, things, about, horses, brains, and, nerves, saturday, was, our, last, hockey, match, of, the, season, a, draw, we, didn't, win, the, league, by, any, stretch, of, the, imagination, but, we, weren't, last, either, diary, 55, another, manic, spring, week, goes, by, i've, been, on, duty, this, weekend, and, the, two, of, us, on, call, have, done, as, many, calls, in, the, last, two, days, has, eight, vets, would, expect, to, do, in, two, week, days, in, the, summer, we, haven't, been, bored, i, didn't, leave, the, practice, building, until, lunchtime, on, saturday, as, there, was, a, constant, flow, of, small, animals, to, see, to, and, a, few, sheep, brought, in, with, lambing, problems, i, eventually, left, at, 1.30, p, m, to, go, to, operate, on, a, cow, with, a, twisted, stomach, that, was, meant, to, be, done, at, 11, am, the, op, went, a, ok, but, it, was, then, straight, back, to, the, surgery, to, do, a, caesarean, on, a, whelping, bitch, with, the, help, of, a, student, who, is, seeing, practice, with, us, between, then, and, 9, pm, it, was, a, variety, of, sick, cows, sheep, to, lamb, and, a, calf, with, lead, poisoning, at, the, far, end, of, ullswater, would, have, been, a, very, nice, drive, out, if, it, hadn't, been, for, the, rush, to, top, things, off, i, had, a, cow, caesarean, at, 9, pm, it, was, very, useful, having, a, student, to, help, all, day, i, think, it, was, a, bit, of, an, eye, opener, for, her, sunday, morning, gave, me, to, more, caesareans, sheep, this, time, variety, is, the, spice, of, life, a, cat, who, had, very, mysteriously, lost, a, leg, overnight, perhaps, caught, in, a, trap, but, was, in, incredibly, good, health, otherwise, it's, amazing, what, animals, can, withstand, and, a, good, supply, of, other, calls, to, keep, me, out, of, mischief, it, has, actually, been, quite, enjoyable, despite, being, so, hectic, and, i, think, most, of, the, cases, have, been, quite, successful, which, always, helps, the, rest, of, the, week, seems, a, distant, memory, but, on, the, whole, it, was, more, of, the, same, but, at, a, slower, pace, i, did, another, small, tb, test, which, was, negative, anyway, a, night, off, tonight, i, need, a, pint, diary, 56, monday, morning, was, the, 60, day, re, test, for, the, first, herd, that, i, found, tb, in, it, was, a, sunny, day, and, on, the, whole, the, test, went, very, smoothly, the, farmer's, buildings, are, getting, very, overcrowded, though, as, he, is, under, a, movement, restriction, due, to, the, tb, first, day, started, well, as, all, the, animals, were, giving, negative, readings, but, then, came, the, dreaded, reaction, to, the, injections, we, gave, on, the, first, day, there, were, four, reactors, in, total, three, of, which, were, borderline, and, the, other, was, very, very, obvious, the, frustrating, thing, is, that, the, obvious, one, was, a, borderline, reactor, last, time, but, defra, refused, to, take, it, as, it, isn't, in, their, policy, to, take, inconclusive, reactors, found, on, a, routine, test, this, means, that, an, animal, that, is, actually, infected, his, left, on, premises, to, potentially, infect, other, animals, the, farmer, had, tried, to, point, this, out, two, months, ago, to, no, avail, he, is, now, vindicated, in, his, view, not, that, that, is, much, consolation, for, the, fact, that, his, restrictions, are, to, be, continued, and, he, may, well, probably, will, in, fact, now, have, more, carriers, which, won't, be, found, until, the, next, test, in, 60, days, time, the, reason, for, not, initially, taking, inconclusive, reactors, is, to, save, money, by, not, paying, for, the, animals, to, be, slaughtered, that, aren't, actually, infected, in, cases, like, this, it, seems, to, be, a, real, false, economy, and, doesn't, win, defra, friends, in, the, farming, community, tuesday, and, wednesday, this, week, were, mainly, horse, jobs, a, horse, with, a, recurrent, tooth, problem, that, i've, mentioned, before, came, in, for, more, x, rays, and, finally, seems, to, be, doing, ok, its, competing, in, germany, in, a, week, or, two, so, i, do, hope, it, stays, ok, this, weekend, i, went, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, with, one, of, my, old, flatmates, from, edinburgh, the, weather, held, and, was, amazingly, hot, for, the, time, of, year, almost, got, sunburnt, diary, 57, i've, had, a, final, year, student, from, edinburgh, staying, with, me, this, week, while, she's, seeing, practice, with, us, final, exams, are, looming, and, i, think, the, stress, levels, are, rising, it's, very, easy, to, think, of, all, the, things, you, don't, know, but, i, think, we've, more, or, less, managed, to, convince, her, that, she, does, know, enough, not, to, be, a, liability, when, she, qualifies, she, saw, an, interesting, incident, on, a, call, we, did, early, in, the, week, i'd, gone, to, replace, a, uterine, prolapse, in, a, cow, which, went, okay, but, the, farmer, then, asked, me, to, falsely, certify, a, cow, we, can, give, certificates, to, cows, over, 30, months, of, age, under, the, bse, scheme, for, which, farmers, are, compensated, this, cow, had, to, be, put, down, but, wasn't, 30, months, for, another, four, days, he, was, understandably, quite, upset, about, this, and, let, me, know, it’s, this, sort, of, thing, that, is, a, nightmare, for, anyone, but, especially, someone, just, starting, you, want, to, please, the, farmer, and, make, a, good, impression, but, you, also, have, responsibility, to, not, abuse, your, ability, to, use, your, signature, in, the, end, i, explained, why, he, couldn't, have, a, certificate, and, he, did, calm, down, i'm, sure, vicky, will, have, similar, situations, before, too, long, diplomatic, as, well, as, clinical, skills, develop, very, quickly, once, in, practice, another, interesting, case, came, in, on, thursday, a, year, old, foal, needed, emergency, surgery, on, a, hernia, as, luck, would, have, it, it, was, our, first, relatively, quiet, morning, for, a, few, weeks, so, we, had, enough, vets, on, hand, to, do, the, surgery, and, anaesthetic, the, op, went, well, and, the, horse, has, gone, home, this, weekend, i've, been, on, second, call, this, weekend, and, things, have, been, busy, but, not, unmanageable, i, did, 2, belgian, blue, caesareans, in, the, space, of, six, hours, on, one, farm, yesterday, but, since, then, it's, just, been, a, reasonable, stream, of, calls, rather, than, the, madness, of, two, weekends, ago, diary, 58, following, my, going, up, on, a, course, on, neurology, a, few, weeks, ago, a, case, came, up, this, week, it's, not, often, that, we, see, neurological, cases, so, it's, quite, a, coincidence, i, think, it, must, have, some, kind, of, tumour, in, its, brain, causing, it, to, show, the, various, signs, it, has, unfortunately, the, only, way, to, firmly, diagnose, this, is, by, post, mortem, which, is, how, most, neurological, cases, end, up, and, alas, i, fear, this, one, will, too, i, went, to, do, a, fertility, check, at, one, of, our, dairy, farms, on, tuesday, the, vet, he, normally, has, was, away, and, he, looked, a, bit, put, out, when, i, turned, up, i, think, hope, i, managed, not, to, abort, any, of, his, cows, and, he, seemed, very, cheery, by, the, time, i, left, i, suppose, it's, understandable, that, farmers, tend, to, want, continuity, with, which, vet, comes, work, continues, to, be, very, busy, an, indication, in, the, increase, in, daily, workload, is, that, we've, had, to, introduce, a, specific, messages, book, at, work, as, there's, no, longer, room, to, write, people, messages, in, the, day, book, as, it, so, full, with, appointments, they, used, to, be, a, few, days, in, the, year, when, both, pages, of, the, day, book, were, full, the, first, day, of, fmd, in, penrith, had, one, call, but, this, week, 4, days, have, been, full, it's, got, to, be, a, good, sign, really, and, as, i, think, i've, said, before, it, does, stop, us, all, from, getting, bored, i've, had, three, days, off, over, easter, friday, sunday, and, two, friends, and, their, two, mad, dogs, have, been, to, stay, my, cats, were, not, impressed, on, good, friday, we, went, up, plaice, fell, i, accidentally, brought, us, down, a, much, more, direct, route, than, i, intended, so, we, had, to, while, away, some, time, in, the, garden, of, the, patterdale, hotel, life's, hard, yesterday, we, left, the, bank, holiday, crowds, in, the, lakes, and, went, for, a, walk, in, the, eden, valley, didn't, see, a, soul, it's, amazing, the, difference, a, few, miles, can, make, i, suppose, it, hasn't, got, the, hills, and, isn't, as, famous, but, the, scenery, is, still, pretty, impressive, but, let's, not, tell, anyone, and, then, it, might, stay, quiet, on, bank, holidays, diary, 59, i, was, on, duty, on, easter, monday, but, it, wasn't, too, hectic, in, fact, it, was, almost, unbelievably, quiet, there, were, three, of, us, on, duty, bracing, ourselves, for, the, usual, spring, onslaught, and, we, only, had, about, two, calls, each, to, do, all, morning, weird, how, it, sometimes, turns, out, like, that, lambing, is, definitely, quietening, down, now, the, 5, 10, lambings, coming, in, each, day, is, turning, into, 2, 3, it's, mostly, fell, sheep, lambing, now, which, tend, to, be, easier, to, lamb, so, few, are, in, need, our, farmer’s, assistance, it's, starting, to, get, into, the, horse, castration, season, we've, had, the, odd, one, or, two, over, the, last, few, weeks, but, have, had, about, five, this, week, one, of, my, colleagues, who, is, next, up, from, me, in, terms, of, experience, and, i, have, started, doing, them, together, whereas, a, few, years, ago, after, it, would, always, have, been, at, least, one, of, the, partners, and, one, of, us, we, must, be, improving, tb, testing, seems, to, have, calmed, down, a, bit, too, as, a, practice, we’re, pretty, much, up, to, date, with, it, and, as, farmers, start, to, turn, their, cows, out, they'll, become, more, reluctant, to, do, it, with, the, way, it’s, spreading, in, the, county, though, we, have, to, try, to, keep, up, to, date, with, it, or, it, really, is, going, to, get, out, of, hand, i've, had, this, weekend, off, it, was, my, sister's, birthday, yesterday, so, i, went, to, meet, her, and, my, folks, for, lunch, we, sat, outside, and, enjoyed, the, april, sun, very, nice, it, was, too, farmers, are, all, wanting, rain, you, don't, hear, that, often, in, april, but, the, sun, suits, me, fine, what, are, the, odds, on, it, bucketing, down, in, june, during, silage, time, diary, 60, one, of, our, big, dairy, farms, had, had, a, big, outbreak, of, ibr, this, week, one, of, the, main, respiratory, viruses, on, the, whole, it, doesn’t, cause, death, and, is, normally, containable, on, this, occasion, however, it, seems, to, have, been, a, virulent, strain, and, has, caused, a, number, of, deaths, and, a, great, deal, of, lost, production, in, terms, of, lost, milk, and, calves, not, thriving, towards, the, end, of, the, week, i, went, and, shot, three, cows, which, were, terminally, affected, seeing, three, dead, and, bleeding, cows, in, the, yard, obviously, reminded, the, farmer, and, me, of, when, he, had, the, whole, herd, shot, in, the, same, place, for, fmd, and, he, had, then, moved, out, of, sight, very, quickly, i, think, the, worst, of, the, outbreak, is, over, now, and, all, the, cows, have, been, vaccinated, there's, only, one, vet, more, junior, qualified, for, less, time, than, me, in, the, practice, who, started, a, year, or, so, ago, this, week, we, went, to, do, a, colt, castrate, together, one, surgeon, one, as, anaesthetist, for, the, first, time, we've, both, done, a, lot, with, other, vets, but, this, was, the, first, time, we've, been, let, loose, as, a, pair, everything, went, very, smoothly, so, it, looks, as, though, our, boss's, confidence, trust, wasn't, totally, misplaced, on, friday, morning, i, had, a, big, dehorning, session, for, one, of, our, beef, farmers, it's, fairly, non, cerebral, type, work, but, is, ok, for, a, change, every, now, and, then, and, the, farmer, is, a, pretty, amenable, sort, of, guy, more, than, could, be, said, for, the, weather, so, it, was, a, fairly, laid, back, morning's, work, i, had, the, afternoon, off, and, drove, up, to, edinburgh, where, there, was, a, bit, of, a, reunion, for, recent, graduates, from, the, vet, college, there, were, a, lot, of, people, haven't, seen, for, a, long, time, and, it, was, interesting, to, compare, notes, on, what, we, were, all, up, to, diary, 61, after, last, weekend, in, edinburgh, i, had, to, come, back, to, work, on, bank, holiday, monday, it, was, fairly, manageable, on, the, whole, there, were, three, of, us, on, duty, in, the, morning, when, the, work, was, steady, without, ever, getting, too, hectic, i, was, on, first, call, after, 1pm, when, the, surgery, closed, and, it, remained, fairly, quiet, until, the, evening, when, there, was, a, sudden, run, of, calls, but, they, came, in, one, after, the, other, rather, than, building, up, too, much, on, tuesday, i, did, the, 60, day, re, test, of, the, second, herd, of, cattle, that, i, had, previously, found, a, reactor, in, it’s, a, big, herd, and, it, took, all, day, to, get, it, done, they’ve, been, a, bit, unfortunate, and, brought, in, several, other, diseases, apart, from, the, suspected, tb, when, they, re, stocked, one, of, these, an, enteric, condition, called, johnes, disease, is, a, chronic, wasting, problem, and, is, notoriously, difficult, to, eradicate, it’ll, take, years, of, blood, testing, and, careful, record, keeping, to, get, rid, of, it, it’s, frustrating, for, them, as, all, the, planning, for, the, post, fmd, period, has, been, disrupted, the, tb, test, showed, up, no, reactors, this, time, but, 3, cows, were, inconclusive, results, and, will, have, to, be, re, tested, this, is, almost, certainly, as, a, result, of, the, cows, carrying, antibodies, to, avian, tb, which, causes, no, signs, of, disease, in, cows, but, disrupts, the, bovine, tb, test, it’s, a, good, example, of, why, we, badly, need, a, more, specific, method, for, testing, for, tb, it’s, being, worked, on, at, the, moment, and, hopefully, we’ll, get, one, one, day, the, senior, partner, at, work, is, supervising, another, vet, who, is, doing, the, same, equine, qualification, that, i’m, enrolled, for, on, wednesday, he, came, to, spend, a, day, with, neil, to, do, some, equine, anaesthetics, they, were, mainly, castrates, so, i, operated, while, neil, went, through, the, anaesthetics, with, his, student, it, was, very, useful, to, hear, it, all, in, detail, again, it’s, all, too, easy, to, get, into, the, habit, of, knowing, which, drugs, work, at, what, dosages, and, not, actually, really, thinking, about, why, they, work, or, why, they’re, better, than, other, drugs, we, could, use, a, useful, day, but, it, has, made, me, realise, i’ve, got, a, lot, to, do, over, the, next, few, years, diary, 62, things, are, still, remaining, very, busy, at, work, lambing, has, pretty, much, finished, now, but, the, work, doesn't, seem, to, be, easing, the, partners, have, decided, we, need, another, vet, to, help, things, along, a, final, year, student, from, edinburgh, came, for, an, interview, this, week, and, it, looks, as, though, he'll, get, the, job, it, will, mean, that, the, rota, will, improve, and, hopefully, will, not, be, quite, as, hectic, when, he, starts, following, the, fantastically, dry, spring, it's, now, too, wet, for, the, farmers, and, they, are, tearing, their, hair, out, about, how, the, first, cut, of, silage, is, going, to, be, gathered, in, dry, hopefully, we'll, get, a, dry, spell, again, soon, to, ease, their, worries, i, found, a, potential, case, to, write, up, for, my, equine, casebook, this, week, it's, a, mare, that, managed, to, get, caught, up, in, wire, and, tear, a, big, hole, in, the, shin, of, her, lower, leg, it's, too, big, a, defect, to, stitch, so, it'll, have, to, heal, with, a, lot, of, bandaging, and, perhaps, some, skin, grafts, it, always, amazes, me, how, horses, managed, to, give, themselves, the, most, horrendous, injuries, been, fields, where, there, really, doesn't, seem, to, be, any, opportunity, for, it, clumsiness, perhaps, maybe, they, just, enjoy, pain, i, doubt, it, we're, doing, quite, a, bit, of, scanning, of, mares, for, pregnancy, at, the, moment, it's, another, thing, that, i've, been, doing, more, of, this, year, than, in, the, past, it's, a, bit, daunting, at, times, but, as, with, a, lot, of, things, it's, really, a, case, of, practising, it, as, much, as, possible, by, the, end, of, the, stud, season, it’ll, hopefully, be, fairly, straightforward, i, drove, down, to, oxford, on, friday, evening, after, work, to, see, my, sister, cousins, friends, who, live, down, there, it, seemed, a, longish, drive, but, it, was, well, worth, it, to, catch, up, with, them, all, one, of, the, things, about, working, weekends, is, that, it, makes, weekends, off, that, much, more, appreciated, diary, 63, after, a, very, pleasant, weekend, off, i, had, a, truly, delightful, first, job, on, monday, morning, a, cow, had, been, losing, weight, for, the, last, month, also, the, reason, i, found, was, that, it, had, a, very, dead, calf, inside, which, i, then, spent, the, first, hour, of, the, week, pulling, out, bone, by, bone, it, was, a, fairly, revolting, job, but, wasn't, actually, something, that, i, especially, resented, doing, must, mean, i'm, happy, in, my, work, or, perhaps, just, a, bit, weird, i, had, another, fairly, grim, job, later, in, the, week, when, i, was, called, out, at, 4, a, m, to, a, foaling, the, foal, was, stuck, half, out, and, was, dead, by, the, time, i, got, there, i, eventually, managed, to, get, the, foal, out, and, initially, the, mare, seemed, ok, but, deteriorated, over, the, next, 48, hours, and, eventually, had, to, be, euthanased, that’s, just, the, way, it, goes, sometimes, a, more, successful, case, came, later, in, the, week, when, i, saw, a, foal, that, was, acutely, lame, it, looked, at, first, as, though, it, might, have, an, infected, elbow, but, after, taking, samples, of, the, joint, fluid, and, some, x, rays, it, looked, as, though, it, was, actually, a, traumatic, injury, it, stayed, it, in, the, hospital, for, four, days, during, which, time, it, seemed, to, improve, quite, a, bit, it's, a, thoroughbred, from, a, good, racing, line, hopefully, with, a, rest, it’ll, make, a, full, recovery, and, win, the, grand, national, in, 2008, i, had, the, whole, of, the, bank, holiday, weekend, off, six, college, friends, came, to, stay, for, a, weekend, of, cumbrian, fresh, air, after, a, pretty, gloomy, forecast, the, weather, turned, out, very, well, and, we, all, went, for, a, lake, district, walk, each, day, and, had, a, pretty, relaxed, time, except, for, my, cats, four, dogs, also, came, to, stay, which, didn't, impress, the, cats, who, spent, the, whole, time, hiding, in, my, room, diary, 64, this, week, started, with, a, tb, test, for, a, small, re, stocking, herd, he, had, bought, some, cattle, from, a, farm, that, subsequently, tested, positive, for, tb, one, of, the, cattle, from, that, farm, had, then, tested, positive, on, his, farm, so, this, week's, test, was, a, 60, day, re, test, it, was, an, all, clear, this, time, which, was, obviously, a, relief, for, them, seeing, as, there, was, a, positive, on, the, farm, last, time, they, probably, have, to, have, another, test, in, 60, days, from, now, before, restrictions, are, lifted, this, farm, isn't, very, big, so, being, under, tb, restrictions, is, awkward, but, not, as, crippling, as, it, is, the, larger, farms, there, is, no, room, for, relaxing, the, rules, at, the, moment, though, the, recent, news, from, ireland, that, says, they, think, they've, proved, a, link, with, badgers, makes, it, even, more, important, to, get, it, out, of, cumbria, before, it, gets, into, wildlife, although, it, may, well, already, be, too, late, in, between, the, two, testing, days, this, week, i, seemed, to, do, a, lot, of, horse, cases, on, wednesday, i, spent, most, of, the, day, touring, around, cumbria, seeing, horses, in, wigton, cockermouth, and, bassenthwaite, it, was, a, sunny, day, and, was, a, very, pleasant, way, to, spend, the, day, great, scenery, to, look, at, outside, when, not, driving, and, cases, going, the, way, i, was, hoping, not, a, bad, way, to, work, i've, been, on, call, this, weekend, and, it's, been, very, quiet, so, far, yesterday, was, steady, with, a, reasonable, number, of, calls, but, none, stacking, up, i've, done, 2, cattle, caesareans, on, the, same, farm, this, weekend, one, yesterday, morning, which, seemed, like, a, huge, calf, until, the, one, i, did, this, morning, which, was, truly, a, freak, it, was, the, biggest, calf, i, or, the, farmer, had, seen, and, is, the, result, of, selecting, for, extreme, confirmation, in, beef, breeds, it, does, pose, serious, welfare, issues, for, the, cows, as, they, cannot, give, birth, naturally, and, have, to, have, fairly, major, abdominal, surgery, instead, we’ll, never, persuade, farmers, of, this, though, as, the, consumer, wants, cheaper, food, and, cheaper, beef, is, made, through, bigger, beef, calves, it, does, seem, tough, on, the, cows, though, or, am, i, being, too, cynical, diary, 65, i, thought, it, was, interesting, to, see, how, much, people, still, are, willing, to, talk, about, some, of, 2001, at, the, meeting, on, wednesday, night, while, a, lot, of, the, conversation, was, routed, around, the, subjects, you, had, come, up, with, over, the, last, 18, months, it, often, came, back, to, talk, of, events, and, individual, experiences, during, the, outbreak, itself, these, stories, must, have, been, told, on, dozens, of, occasions, but, people, still, want, to, tell, them, if, the, right, time, opportunity, comes, up, myself, included, there, were, so, many, themes, that, you, have, all, come, up, with, on, the, electronic, tags, sheet, that, it, seems, impossible, to, comment, on, them, all, some, of, them, seem, very, relevant, to, me, others, not, so, much, trust, is, a, category, that, comes, up, under, a, couple, of, headings, one, of, the, headings, it, is, under, is, knowledge, i, think, this, has, been, one, of, the, most, significant, changes, since, fmd, as, far, as, the, farmer, vet, relationship, is, concerned, defra, has, gone, from, being, eyed, with, some, suspicion, to, overt, distrust, and, resentment, on, a, whole, we, don't, get, too, much, flack, as, veterinary, gps, but, when, we, have, to, do, defra, allocated, jobs, such, as, tb, testing, there, is, sometimes, a, general, feeling, of, it, being, another, task, to, try, to, wear, them, down, being, sent, by, the, authorities, another, regulation, that, has, caused, huge, resentment, is, the, whole, animal, movement, licensing, system, it, is, much, easier, now, and, causes, fewer, problems, but, a, year, or, so, ago, it, was, the, source, of, much, stress, we, had, to, try, to, act, as, intermediary, between, farmers, and, defra, and, keep, both, sides, happy, the, damage, done, to, the, farmer, defra, trust, will, take, a, long, time, if, ever, to, start, to, repair, hopefully, by, trying, to, be, more, on, their, side, than, defra, seem, to, be, the, trust, they, have, in, us, has, been, preserved, it's, been, a, quietish, week, at, work, maybe, because, there's, been, a, bit, of, silaging, going, on, so, the, farmers, haven't, got, time, for, routine, work, it's, about, time, we, were, a, bit, quieter, the, summer, lull, hasn't, materialised, at, all, yet, this, year, in, fact, we’re, taking, on, another, vet, to, ease, the, workload, did, i, mention, this, last, week, in, the, meantime, it's, nice, to, have, time, to, draw, breath, and, enjoy, the, sun, for, a, day, or, two, diary, 66, this, week, seems, to, have, gone, by, a, pretty, quickly, maybe, it's, because, i'm, on, holiday, next, week, and, the, thought, of, it, is, spurring, me, on, i, fly, to, split, tomorrow, for, a, week, of, sailing, on, the, croatian, coast, with, a, college, friend, and, some, relatives, it'll, be, a, change, from, cumbria, one, of, our, big, dairy, farmers, was, away, in, thailand, this, week, the, farm, was, left, to, be, run, by, his, usual, workers, and, his, brother, and, mother, despite, this, he, felt, he, had, to, take, his, mobile, phone, with, him, and, he, was, rung, twice, during, the, week, to, be, asked, what, should, be, done, with, a, couple, of, sick, cows, i, suppose, this, either, demonstrates, extreme, dedication, or, an, inability, to, forget, about, work, or, both, but, then, again, it, also, shows, how, committed, a, lot, of, farmers, are, and, that, it's, not, just, a, job, to, them, as, farms, get, bigger, the, concept, of, all, the, cows, being, individually, known, to, the, farmer, or, being, his, friends, becomes, increasingly, unrealistic, but, in, the, majority, of, cases, they’re, not, just, milk, making, machines, and, are, cared, for, pretty, well, it's, not, hard, to, see, why, it, was, so, hard, for, people, to, lose, their, herds, after, being, a, bit, quieter, at, work, last, week, it, suddenly, seems, to, have, become, very, hectic, at, work, again, this, week, there, haven't, been, any, particularly, time, consuming, jobs, just, lots, of, sick, cows, horse, calls, and, the, usual, mix, of, animal, ailments, it's, better, to, be, busy, than, quiet, though, i, think, i, need, a, holiday, and, i'll, keep, my, phone, switched, off, diary, 67, a, week, off, work, to, go, sailing, in, croatia, easy, life, after, meeting, up, with, the, boat, and, the, rest, of, the, group, in, starigrad, we, sailed, to, vis, into, a, fairly, direct, head, wind, so, it, took, quite, a, bit, of, tacking, and, was, a, bit, of, a, rough, ride, i, also, very, stupidly, underdid, the, sunscreen, and, managed, to, burn, my, back, very, careless, but, it, got, less, uncomfortable, as, the, week, went, on, we, spent, two, nights, in, vis, harbour, as, the, others, who, had, already, been, sailing, for, a, week, wanted, a, rest, it, used, to, be, a, military, island, and, there, were, definite, signs, of, this, around, although, it, is, obviously, developing, a, now, rapidly, growing, tourist, trade, after, vis, it, was, off, to, hvar, where, we, anchored, in, a, small, inlet, a, few, miles, from, the, town, after, a, night, there, we, went, to, hvar, town, for, a, look, around, the, castle, on, the, hill, was, very, impressive, and, the, town, still, feels, as, though, it, is, relatively, unspoilt, at, the, moment, the, last, couple, of, days, were, spent, making, our, way, slowly, back, to, split, we, actually, spent, the, last, two, days, in, split, as, there, was, a, strong, northerly, wind, brewing, up, which, would, have, been, a, bit, rough, to, be, out, in, my, uncle, who, was, the, skipper, on, board, has, been, to, croatia, for, the, last, three, years, he, said, it, was, very, noticeably, more, busy, this, year, it, seems, a, shame, to, spoil, it, with, more, tourist, facilities, but, we, all, contributed, to, them, being, built, by, going, there, hopefully, it, won't, be, too, dramatically, changed, diary, 68, this, week, started, at, 9am, monday, with, a, tb, test, at, one, of, the, most, basic, run, down, farms, we, go, to, it, was, the, first, time, i'd, been, there, in, three, and, a, half, years, of, working, here, so, they, don't, make, huge, use, of, our, veterinary, services, one, of, their, bullocks, was, 7, years, old, when, i, casually, asked, about, what, plans, they, had, for, it, seeing, as, he, had, missed, the, 30, months, cut, off, time, for, human, consumption, i, was, told, it, was, just, kept, as, a, friend, for, the, bull, the, test, was, very, slow, as, the, cattle, handling, facilities, were, not, the, best, on, the, planet, they, were, very, pleasant, people, to, talk, to, and, it, soon, became, apparent, that, they, had, very, little, time, for, defra, nothing, unusual, there, the, son, was, one, of, the, people, who, had, had, his, firearms, confiscated, after, making, threats, at, the, start, of, fm, d, they, still, felt, resentful, about, the, way, the, police, became, involved, and, the, way, they, were, ultimately, given, no, choice, as, to, who, came, on, to, their, farm, to, check, their, stock, fortunately, all, the, cattle, were, negative, for, tb, so, there, was, no, need, to, further, add, to, their, distrust, of, defra, by, putting, them, under, more, restriction, the, rest, of, the, week, has, been, fairly, steady, there's, been, enough, going, on, to, keep, us, busy, without, ever, being, frantic, the, horse, i, saw, last, week, with, a, neurological, problem, has, become, a, bit, worse, so, has, gone, to, edinburgh, vet, school, to, see, one, of, the, neurologists, up, there, he, seemed, fairly, confused, by, it, as, well, which, i, have, to, say, i, found, quite, reassuring, the, weekend, was, a, bit, on, the, strenuous, side, a, cousin, who, is, a, keen, cyclist, persuaded, me, it, was, a, good, idea, to, do, a, big, cumbrian, yorkshire, bike, ride, we, went, from, penrith, to, alston, to, barnard, castle, to, tan, hill, refreshments, to, kirkby, stephen, to, penrith, on, saturday, and, then, recovered, on, sunday, it, seemed, like, a, good, idea, at, the, time, but, i, am, really, feeling, it, now, diary, 69, looking, back, at, some, of, the, quotes, in, the, recovery, section, of, the, notes, from, a, meeting, it's, noticeable, how, easy, it, is, to, forget, or, at, least, not, have, in, one's, mind, how, much, it, affected, a, lot, people, it's, almost, hard, to, remember, how, much, i, was, affected, by, it, i, know, that, there, were, some, very, unpleasant, tasks, such, as, supervising, slaughters, and, day, to, day, work, was, often, very, frustrating, when, we, felt, people, overseeing, our, work, from, offices, didn't, really, know, what, it, was, like, in, the, field, but, i, feel, now, that, on, the, whole, once, work, was, finished, life, pretty, much, went, on, maybe, this, isn't, actually, a, true, reflection, of, how, it, was, and, it's, just, that, some, of, the, detailed, memories, are, fading, often, things, don't, seem, as, bad, as, they, actually, were, when, you, look, back, on, them, i, know, plenty, of, clients, colleagues, and, friends, whose, lives, were, completely, overtaken, by, fmd, so, perhaps, mine, was, more, than, i, remember, but, i, also, feel, that, most, of, the, people, who, i, remember, as, being, heavily, affected, are, now, more, or, less, completely, over, it, one, of, the, farms, i, went, to, this, week, lost, a, son, in, a, road, accident, about, two, months, after, getting, fmd, i, think, the, farmer, was, ready, to, give, up, everything, after, that, apparently, he, left, the, cleaning, up, of, his, farm, and, took, no, interest, in, anything, time, obviously, helped, him, he's, been, back, milking, again, for, that, sic, last, year, and, a, half, there, are, still, changes, though, he, seems, very, much, quieter, and, more, laid, back, now, if, a, cow, isn't, in, calf, or, things, don't, go, quite, right, he, doesn't, seem, to, get, stressed, now, as, he, once, would, have, done, work, has, been, a, bit, quieter, this, week, which, we, would, expect, at, this, time, of, year, one, of, our, farms, has, put, some, pedigree, belgian, blue, embryos, into, some, limousin, cross, heifers, and, they're, starting, to, calve, now, they, all, need, caesar's, as, the, calves, are, almost, as, big, as, the, heifers, that, produce, them, the, only, thing, to, be, said, for, it, is, that, we, can, do, them, at, a, sensible, time, of, day, rather, than, at, two, in, the, morning, as, we, know, when, they’re, due, diary, 70, one, of, the, five, categories, you, raised, at, the, meetings, last, month, was, trauma, and, one, of, the, subsections, on, the, chart, was, sounds, smells, visions, sights, are, probably, the, most, frequent, reminder, of, fmd, now, there, are, certain, bits, of, road, that, have, memories, for, example, driving, north, on, the, m6, just, south, of, penrith, it, was, possible, to, count, smoke, plumes, from, about, 20, pyres, at, one, stage, on, fine, days, it, always, reminds, me, of, it, when, i, drive, that, stretch, one, farm, has, the, remains, of, a, pyre, that, was, started, to, be, built, but, never, finished, even, things, like, driving, across, two, lines, of, tar, across, a, road, which, once, held, down, a, disinfectant, mat, people, who, didn't, live, here, at, the, time, wouldn't, even, notice, them, but, it, seems, quite, significant, to, the, rest, of, us, it, doesn't, really, bother, me, but, just, is, a, reminder, of, what, went, on, at, other, times, it, seems, odd, how, quickly, things, have, gone, back, to, normal, even, something, as, simple, as, a, road, with, mud, or, animal, muck, on, it, in, 2001, that, would, have, stuck, out, like, a, sore, thumb, and, would, have, warranted, urgent, action, now, i'm, used, to, driving, a, dirty, car, i, do, clean, it, sometimes, and, having, some, roads, caked, in, dirt, it's, difficult, to, imagine, how, the, farmers, kept, them, clean, two, years, ago, but, they, did, obviously, there, are, other, reminders, people, never, tire, of, talking, about, it, but, it's, the, day, to, day, visions, and, places, that, are, most, regular, work, has, been, a, bit, quieter, this, week, i, did, it, a, caesar, on, a, cow, which, had, a, truly, ridiculously, enormous, calf, we, need, to, move, away, from, breeding, continental, beef, breeds, and, go, back, to, nice, compact, jersey's, or, aberdeen, anguses, i, also, saw, an, unusual, neurological, case, in, a, horse, it's, very, uncoordinated, and, has, poor, balance, it's, the, kind, of, case, where, brain, spinal, scan, would, be, useful, but, those, facilities, aren't, really, available, for, horses, it, will, be, interesting, to, see, how, it, goes, over, the, next, few, days, diary, 71, the, last, diary, the, 18, months, seem, to, have, gone, by, quickly, things, seem, so, much, back, to, how, they, were, that, it's, odd, to, think, back, to, what, was, going, on, when, we, first, started, writing, them, i, think, we, were, pretty, much, in, the, swing, of, doing, restocking, checks, and, doing, endless, blood, sampling, of, sheep, the, last, restocking, checks, i, did, were, only, 16, months, ago, it, seems, far, longer, although, i, say, things, are, back, to, how, they, were, i'm, sure, there, are, actually, a, lot, of, differences, it's, just, that, i, don't, notice, them, because, i'm, used, to, how, things, are, now, the, practice, has, become, a, lot, busier, by, october, we’ll, be, up, to, nine, full, time, and, two, part, time, vets, pre, fmd, we, were, seven, full, time, and, two, part, time, some, of, the, increase, is, equine, and, small, animal, but, most, of, it, is, in, farm, practice, part, of, this, is, directly, linked, to, fmd, eg, more, tb, testing, due, to, re, stocking, tests, and, re, stocking, having, brought, tb, into, the, county, other, factors, aren't, so, obvious, but, are, unquestionably, fmd, related, most, restocked, farmers, went, back, with, more, stock, than, they, originally, had, so, overall, there, is, greater, density, of, stock, around, more, animals, means, more, sick, animals, which, means, more, calls, for, the, vet, it's, a, shame, in, some, ways, to, see, the, small, traditional, farms, being, forced, out, but, it's, hard, to, see, how, they, can, manage, as, margins, get, smaller, and, larger, neighbours, get, more, stock, and, more, land, fmd, was, a, way, out, for, several, of, the, smaller, farms, all, have, been, bought, up, by, neighbours, with, none, being, sold, as, single, units, as, i've, said, in, recent, weeks, this, time, of, year, is, usually, quiet, it, has, become, a, bit, less, frantic, recently, but, the, traditional, summer, lull, hasn't, materialised, i've, been, a, vet, for, four, years, the, last, three, have, been, just, about, as, interesting, and, challenging, as, they, could, have, been, both, professionally, and, socially, from, the, point, of, view, of, living, in, penrith, obviously, fmd, had, devastating, effects, on, thousands, of, people, many, of, whom, are, my, friends, on, the, whole, i, see, very, few, residual, scars, it, is, still, talked, about, but, less, and, less, as, time, goes, on, more, than, one, farmer, has, actually, said, that, they, think, in, hindsight, it, was, a, very, good, thing, for, them, i'm, not, sure, i, could, ever, say, that, as, it, brought, too, much, stress, and, sadness, for, too, many, people, but, if, it, had, happened, i, think, very, much, with, the, benefit, of, hindsight, i’m, glad, that, i, had, the, chance, to, be, involved, with, it, from, the, start, and, through, the, recovery]
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1966, gender, f, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, diary, 1, monday, was, the, usual, long, hard, grind, i, accept, that, i, have, to, put, in, 10, 12, hours, and, i, don’t, mind, doing, the, work, because, it’s, not, physically, or, mentally, taxing, but, i, do, hate, not, having, a, lunch, break, just, that, little, bit, of, selfish, time, to, site, have, a, cigarette, take, the, dogs, down, the, river, see, the, horses, whatever, i, do, resent, that, fact, that, w, one, of, the, bosses, almost, always, gets, a, lunch, hour, b, the, other, boss, has, gone, up, tremendously, in, my, opinion, for, the, way, that, he, gets, on, with, the, work, he, starts, early, finishes, late, hates, derfa, paperwork, and, rarely, complains, it, is, definitely, grinding, them, down, because, they, work, like, that, at, least, 4, days, a, week, it, has, been, a, huge, advantage, this, last, year, being, part, time, at, work, my, days, off, obviously, aren’t, my, own, as, they, used, to, be, but, i, do, get, away, from, the, phone, and, the, demands, of, clients, some, of, our, clients, are, very, selfish, and, i, hadn’t, noticed, before, they, seem, to, think, they, are, the, only, ones, that, have, hassles, with, defra, i, remember, saying, to, one, complaining, about, problems, with, licensing, that, he, was, lucky, to, have, problems, with, only, one, licence, the, first, day, that, movement, licenses, came, out, we, applied, for, 26, and, received, the, explanatory, notes, from, defra, on, how, to, complete, the, paperwork, 4, days, later, anyway, managed, to, do, three, final, visits, and, complete, most, of, the, paperwork, before, 9pm, kirkby, stephen, was, buzzing, today, the, auction, reopened, for, a, cattle, sale, the, main, street, was, full, of, shiny, farmers, with, fish, and, chips, and, the, back, lane, was, full, of, shiny, some, new, land, rovers, and, trailers, trailers, mostly, new, in, fact, mc, told, me, that, as, soon, as, he, heard, his, bloods, had, come, back, clear, restocking, he, washed, and, changed, and, went, to, the, mart, he, said, it, was, the, first, time, he, had, felt, clean, since, the, day, they, were, infected, he, felt, ok, to, go, among, other, farmers, he, surprised, me, because, he, is, so, easy, going, he, takes, all, in, his, stride, but, he, still, says, fmd, is, not, as, terrible, as, testicular, cancer, and, he’s, right, ad, was, one, of, the, other, final, visits, he, doesn’t, give, a, bugger, about, anything, happy, to, become, a, flower, power, farmer, he, doesn’t, care, much, about, his, sheep, as, individuals, they, are, just, numbers, just, as, well, because, in, the, batch, he, bought, from, wales, the, sheep, have, more, legs, than, teeth, i, can’t, see, them, lasting, long, pissed, off, because, i, missed, bryan, adams, concert, in, newcastle, couldn’t, finish, in, time, to, join, the, bus, the, rest, of, the, lassies, had, a, brilliant, time, and, at, least, tracey, benefited, from, my, ticket, had, to, go, back, in, to, work, the, next, day, to, finish, my, defra, reports, and, fax, them, off, went, to, playgroup, to, talk, about, pets, took, my, dog, lurcher, and, child’s, rabbit, dodgy, combination, very, few, of, the, kids, seemed, to, have, pets, of, their, own, a, lot, of, them, referred, to, granddad’s, dogs, or, uncles, cat, when, i, left, college, the, pet, population, was, increasing, what’s, going, to, happen, in, the, next, 15, years, sister, phoned, worried, about, her, horse, he, has, haematuria, i’m, worried, that, he, has, a, tumour, i, feel, very, far, away, and, helpless, when, things, like, this, happen, even, though, she, only, lives, in, yorkshire, i’m, sure, i, could, help, her, whatever, the, outcome, if, we, lived, closer, in, fact, i, think, i, miss, my, family, more, now, than, i, ever, have, i, don’t, know, if, it’s, my, age, or, the, thought, that, m, is, over, 60, or, that, i, didn’t, see, them, much, at, all, last, year, or, just, because, i, have, son, now, and, can, understand, how, mothers, families, feel, i, miss, sisters, but, i, still, don’t, phone, them, much, i, always, think, they’ll, be, busy, i, can, talk, to, mam, three, or, four, times, a, week, for, half, an, hour, at, a, time, without, thinking, twice, she, must, get, fed, up, hearing, me, go, on, and, on, about, work, etc, but, she, loves, hearing, all, about, every, tiny, detail, of, son’s, antics, and, achievements, will, broached, the, subject, of, a, partnership, again, i, don’t, know, what, to, think, it’s, the, obvious, thing, to, do, and, a, few, years, ago, i, would, have, taken, his, hand, off, for, even, 10, or, 20, i’m, just, not, as, excited, about, it, as, i, should, be, and, what, would, change, will, i, be, better, off, will, i, be, a, better, vet, or, will, i, spend, too, much, time, of, figures, and, paperwork, will, i, become, more, commercially, aware, do, i, want, to, change, can, i, be, bothered, with, the, extra, hassle, they, are, ok, they, have, a, career, and, a, wife, i’m, trying, to, do, both, sometimes, badly, diary, 2, monday’s, are, shite, it, starts, off, busy, and, gets, worse, why, can’t, we, do, time, management, a, bit, better, it, did, look, as, if, we, might, finish, around, 6.30, at, one, stage, in, the, afternoon, then, i, was, called, out, to, a, calf, i, didn’t, really, need, a, visit, at, 6pm, at, night, w, said, never, mind, you’ll, be, picking, son, up, anyway, the, childminder, lives, on, the, next, door, farm, he, hasn’t, got, a, clue, if, i, picked, son, up, he, would, be, at, ange’s, for, about, 8, hours, i, feel, guilty, enough, that, he’s, away, for, about, 8, hours, partner, always, picks, him, up, about, 5.30, and, has, to, cope, which, he, does, well, until, i, get, home, but, it’s, hard, work, for, both, of, us, after, a, full, day, at, work, and, partner, is, usually, knackered, and, ready, for, peace, and, quiet, when, he, gets, home, not, a, tired, hungry, wee, lad, anyway, i, ended, up, having, a, farm, tour, that, night, farmer, was, so, proud, of, his, new, pedigree, belgian, blues, and, his, new, shed, he’s, been, lucky, to, get, most, of, his, commercial, stock, from, his, father, so, he, has, an, idea, of, their, past, history, he’s, a, nice, lad, and, he, was, producing, some, stunning, beef, calves, before, he, was, taken, out, at, least, he’s, young, enough, to, get, going, again, he, hasn’t, said, much, about, loosing, his, stock, so, i, haven’t, asked, i, had, a, chat, to, his, aunt, one, day, and, she, was, very, upset, and, that, upsets, me, i, hate, when, people, get, emotional, like, that, i, start, filling, up, myself, i, got, back, to, find, a, sheep, caesarean, still, to, do, waste, of, time, premature, lambs, all, born, alive, 3, and, all, dead, before, i, finished, stitching, the, uterus, and, to, put, the, tin, hat, on, the, day, my, assistant, was, the, mother, who, prattled, about, nothing, much, all, the, way, through, the, op, she, does, my, head, in, she, is, a, century, away, from, me, in, her, outlook, but, i, still, come, away, feeling, that, i, am, the, one, who, has, got, it, all, wrong, maybe, i, should, have, dinner, on, the, table, and, shirts, ironed, etc, i, don’t, want, to, be, like, her, though, and, i, can’t, even, sympathise, with, her, even, though, they, lost, all, their, sheep, i’m, sure, she, must, have, taken, it, badly, but, i, don’t, think, she, would, ever, let, her, feelings, show, in, public, something, about, the, way, she, spoke, suggested, that, she, was, forcing, herself, to, put, a, brave, face, and, look, forward, probably, for, her, own, son’s, sake, watched, rural, lives, again, on, tuesday, cr, came, over, well, i, though, i, couldn’t, help, but, snigger, when, the, slaughter, team, were, discussing, one, of, our, clients, she, made, the, kids, carry, away, the, dead, piglets, after, they’d, been, slaughtered, them, team, thought, that, was, terrible, but, i, knew, the, kids, they, all, help, on, the, farm, they, know, that, their, pigs, go, to, kill, the, family, even, started, their, own, little, slaughter, house, and, cutting, plant, before, fmd, i, don’t, think, those, kids, would, be, horrified, sad, maybe, we, all, felt, sad, over, the, last, year, sad, for, the, healthy, animals, culled, more, sad, for, the, people, caught, up, in, the, mess, one, disease, where, the, cure, is, worse, mostly, though, i, get, angry, when, i, hear, or, talk, about, fmd, i, get, angry, because, defra, let, us, all, down, the, politicians, got, too, closely, involved, nothing, happened, fast, enough, we, didn’t, seem, to, be, able, to, do, anything, we, knew, very, little, and, struggled, to, get, reliable, information, i, still, get, wound, up, thinking, about, it, all, we, were, marginalised, by, defra, i, felt, as, if, it, was, us, and, the, farmers, versus, derfa, not, all, three, groups, versus, fmd, the, rumours, that, abounded, just, magnified, the, feelings, we, talked, at, length, about, fmd, defra, etc, within, the, practice, and, with, our, clients, but, i, could, still, talk, about, it, all, day, even, now, so, many, things, are, unresolved, i, have, lost, faith, in, defra, especially, since, they, changed, their, name, no, a, for, agriculture, now, and, i’m, glad, i, have, been, ignorant, of, politics, for, so, long, there, have, been, few, shining, lights, in, the, government, i’m, heartily, sick, of, authority, interfering, and, regulating, stuff, that’s, going, along, quite, nicely, let, them, interfere, with, stuff, that’s, doing, harm, bad, farmers, need, a, shake, up, sheep, dealers, need, to, think, more, about, animal, welfare, but, the, way, things, are, going, the, good, guys, that, toe, the, line, will, end, up, following, all, the, rules, and, regulations, set, up, to, sort, out, the, bad, guys, and, will, they, bother, diary, 3, possibly, the, best, bit, of, the, week, was, sunday, when, i, eventually, after, 13, months, got, back, on, my, horse, only, 15, minutes, but, it, was, nerve, wracking, i, thought, she, might, just, throw, me, off, and, i, was, so, tense, actually, we, both, were, i, felt, as, if, i, had, forgotten, how, to, ride, i, stayed, in, the, field, thinking, it, would, be, safer, but, the, other, two, horses, were, flying, about, to, annoy, us, i’m, so, frustrated, that, i, haven’t, been, able, to, get, her, fit, for, the, start, of, the, endurance, season, there’s, no, way, we’d, be, able, to, go, to, the, first, ride, at, ullswater, and, there’s, only, one, other, in, cumbria, this, year, due, to, fmd, who, would, have, thought, that, we, would, still, be, curtailed, by, fmd, more, than, a, year, on, the, young, horse, was, very, interested, in, saddle, and, bridle, so, i, put, them, on, him, and, he, was, ok, at, first, he, was, frightened, to, move, at, all, but, then, he, realised, it, was, ok, on, monday, i, had, a, strange, request, to, go, and, hold, an, old, pony, for, the, knacker, to, shoot, the, owner’s, just, didn’t, want, to, be, around, it, was, a, lovely, morning, so, i, led, her, out, for, a, bite, of, grass, before, he, arrived, she, could, barely, manage, to, breathe, and, swallow, at, the, same, time, i, can’t, believe, how, the, tumours, have, taken, hold, of, her, since, the, turn, of, the, year, mr, a, couldn’t, tell, his, wife, the, diagnosis, initially, because, she, hadn’t, got, over, losing, the, few, pedigree, sheep, they, had, it’s, taking, some, people, a, long, time, to, get, over, the, loss, i, think, it’s, easier, to, get, over, losing, an, animal, if, you, have, more, than, one, it, helps, to, keep, you, focussed, on, the, living, rather, than, the, dead, and, farmers, haven’t, been, able, to, get, restarted, when, they, were, ready, to, because, of, all, the, c, d, requirements, anyway, the, knacker, man, told, some, good, tales, there’s, been, some, nutters, about, shooting, animals, some, even, had, their, guns, taken, off, them, poor, lad, was, given, a, day’s, notice, at, the, knackey, and, was, part, of, a, slaughter, team, after, that, so, he, was, only, paid, his, normal, wage, which, the, boss, collected, at, the, defra, rate, for, them, all, it, was, good, talking, to, him, probably, because, i, don’t, really, know, him, i, didn’t, feel, that, i, would, upset, him, because, he, wasn’t, like, a, client, who, had, lost, animals, sometimes, it’s, hard, to, know, what, to, say, if, people, get, upset, sometimes, it’s, enough, to, listen, one, of, the, most, awkward, situations, i, found, myself, in, was, talking, to, a, farmer, who, lost, no, stock, but, he, was, so, depressed, he, started, crying, the, cows, i, had, gone, to, see, should, have, gone, last, year, then, we, wouldn’t, have, had, these, problems, he, also, has, been, unable, to, sell, sheep, so, the, farm, was, completely, overstocked, overgrazed, and, had, little, silage, left, i, couldn’t, understand, why, he, was, still, overstocking, when, he, could, have, sold, sheep, and, cattle, for, restocking, or, for, slaughter, quite, easily, in, the, last, few, months, maybe, he, just, couldn’t, face, the, hassle, of, getting, licences, or, maybe, he’s, just, too, far, down, to, think, straight, i, usually, mention, that, sort, of, thing, to, b, and, w, because, i, think, it’s, important, that, everyone, in, the, practice, knows, what’s, happening, not, just, with, out, patients, but, also, with, our, clients, diary, 4, i, had, the, honour, of, completing, the, final, final, visit, today, and, it, was, one, of, my, neighbours, in, soulby, no, more, surveillance, visits, poor, lol, couldn’t, find, his, defra, paperwork, and, while, he, was, looking, through, his, files, he, found, copies, of, his, valuation, report, with, all, his, old, cows, on, i, think, it, brought, it, all, back, he’s, trying, hard, to, move, on, i, could, understand, him, being, bitter, since, his, whole, very, good, milking, herd, was, taken, as, a, dc, i, think, he, may, have, survived, because, the, infection, was, half, a, mile, away, from, his, cows, but, the, ip, land, joined, i, watched, them, load, all, his, cows, into, coal, wagons, on, s, saturday, afternoon, in, fact, it, was, midnight, when, the, last, de, tox, wagon, left, how, can, they, be, clean, if, i, can’t, even, get, my, wellies, clean, in, the, dark, how, he’s, worrying, about, his, new, cows, coming, from, holland, he, thinks, it’s, a, long, way, for, them, to, travel, but, he, can’t, wait, for, them, to, arrive, unlike, his, wife, who, thinks, that, all, this, restocking, is, going, too, fast, i, felt, apprehensive, too, about, a, fortnight, ago, but, the, feeling, is, subsiding, the, day, to, day, normality, of, work, is, returning, sheep, are, permitted, to, visit, the, surgery, for, treatment, so, we, have, had, a, much, more, normal, march, than, we’d, had, last, year, even, though, there, are, still, thousands, of, sheep, missing, from, the, practice, farmers, are, still, bringing, in, lambs, the, value, of, stock, is, obviously, not, their, prime, concern, where, there’s, life, there’s, hope, we, wouldn’t, see, ewes, or, lambs, at, all, if, the, cost, of, treatment, versus, the, animal’s, value, was, weighed, i, was, worried, that, we, would, have, a, flare, up, around, lambing, time, there’s, a, chance, that, some, of, the, fell, sheep, were, exposed, to, fmd, and, there’s, a, risk, of, virus, recrudescence, at, times, of, stress, so, i, was, thinking, that, if, we, made, it, through, lambing, then, we’d, definitely, be, ok, the, weather, has, cheered, me, up, this, week, everybody, smiles, more, when, it’s, sunny, its, tempting, to, think, my, days, at, home, are, holidays, when, the, weathers, so, nice, diary, 5, i, forgot, about, april, fools, day, for, the, first, time, ever, we, were, so, busy, at, work, and, it, was, more, of, a, bank, holiday, than, anything, else, i, do, resent, working, bank, holidays, but, monday, is, my, day, to, be, on, call, b, did, offer, to, do, some, of, the, day, but, he, had, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, a, lambing, at, 1.30, am, and, another, call, at, 6, am, so, he’d, be, knackered, enough, and, they, pay, me, for, a, day’s, work, so, its, only, fair, that, i, give, a, days, work, when, the, phone, rang, early, tuesday, and, i, felt, as, if, i’d, only, been, in, bed, 2, hours, i, was, regretting, not, passing, on, the, night, duty, a, belgian, blue, calving, caesarian, mentally, checked, my, kit, in, the, car, while, driving, to, ks, definitely, caesarean, they, shouldn’t, breed, from, these, cows, until, they’re, more, mature, we’re, getting, loads, of, bother, with, the, new, stock, never, mind, its, proper, veterinary, work, anyway, the, heifer, was, a, right, bag, started, off, lying, down, so, i, doped, her, but, she, got, up, after, we, got, the, calf, out, and, then, tried, to, lye, down, on, the, wound, peritonitis, to, follow, no, doubt, i, warned, the, farmer, and, we, were, all, very, calm, about, it, maybe, none, of, us, were, really, awake, so, that, made, partner, late, for, work, as, he, was, left, holding, the, baby, and, i, was, well, late, setting, off, to, see, my, sister, sister, sister, didn’t, mind, and, partner, s, bosses, said, it, was, ok, but, i, still, felt, guilty, had, a, great, time, at, sister’s, did, a, bit, of, touristy, stuff, and, found, a, really, nice, book, for, mam’s, birthday, by, mrs, herdie, who, used, to, holiday, near, home, mam, has, a, watercolour, by, her, but, this, book, is, all, wildflowers, other, sister, phoned, to, say, horse, is, worse, i, think, sister, and, i, both, wanted, to, go, to, yorkshire, when, we, heard, how, upset, she, was, sisters, are, so, close, being, twins, but, i, can, understand, what, sister, s, going, through, with, a, horse, on, death’s, door, she, didn’t, want, us, to, go, she, said, so, we, drank, too, much, red, wine, instead, and, watched, the, start, of, papillon, good, film, i, was, too, knackered, though, my, stamina, gives, out, a, lot, sooner, under, the, influence, of, alcohol, mam’s, birthday, was, a, queer, day, it’s, rare, that, i, get, the, chance, to, spend, time, with, any, of, my, siblings, at, home, and, we, had, a, lovely, day, apart, from, the, fact, that, we, were, all, waiting, to, hear, what, was, going, to, happen, with, sister, she, phoned, to, say, he’d, been, put, down, bladder, tumour, i, think, it, must, be, pretty, rare, she, still, said, we, shouldn’t, go, down, sister, could, have, easily, gone, and, mam, because, lynxes, on, school, hols, jammy, teacher, i, stayed, on, till, quite, late, because, both, my, brother, and, stepfather, wanted, to, see, son, he, was, so, excited, to, see, them, sometimes, he, just, makes, us, all, laugh, i, had, a, depressing, start, to, the, day, back, at, work, just, over, a, month, ago, i, amputated, a, dog’s, leg, the, leg, was, fractured, over, 6, months, ago, appeared, to, heal, and, then, suddenly, worsen, we, suspected, a, bone, infection, but, she, didn’t, respond, to, treatment, so, i, x, rayed, her, again, and, it, looked, like, a, bone, tumour, she, did, well, after, the, operation, until, last, week, when, she, developed, a, hard, knobbly, swelling, near, her, shoulder, and, her, lungs, were, infiltrated, i, felt, so, sad, for, her, and, the, family, she, was, a, lovely, placid, and, very, brave, dog, and, it, is, just, so, unfair, i, don’t, want, to, give, up, on, these, cases, and, i, feel, that, euthanasia, is, a, poor, treatment, in, this, case, i, so, wanted, her, to, have, a, couple, more, years, i, never, would, have, put, her, or, the, family, through, a, ghastly, op, like, amputation, if, i, had, known, that, she, would, get, so, little, benefit, the, farmer’s, son, who, worked, the, dog, until, she, retired, was, conspicuous, by, his, absence, he’s, rebuilding, the, milking, parlour, ready, to, restock, so, his, sister, did, the, honours, and, came, to, help, me, had, to, switch, to, party, mode, son’s, 2nd, birthday, the, sandpit, was, a, roaring, success, as, was, the, trike, and, cake, from, grandma, and, granddad, we, had, a, super, relaxing, day, mostly, outdoors, this, weather, makes, life, a, lot, easier, i, couldn’t, have, coped, with, all, those, little, boys, inside, escaped, to, the, horses, at, asby, to, take, water, it’s, so, peaceful, up, there, i’ve, really, missed, being, able, to, go, up, there, this, last, year, there’s, still, yellow, tape, on, my, gate, and, i, don’t, even, have, livestock, i, wonder, who, they, defra, thought, the, field, belongs, to, should, get, out, riding, this, next, week, with, a, bit, of, luck, and, a, bit, of, spare, time, i, think, i’ll, have, to, shelve, the, plans, to, show, the, arabs, i, haven’t, got, started, soon, enough, diary, 6, our, new, vet, started, this, week, bright, young, enthusiastic, and, full, of, new, ideas, i, feel, very, out, of, touch, i, didn’t, go, on, any, cpd, courses, last, year, for, most, of, the, year, i, felt, as, if, we, were, unclean, and, i, was, so, tired, with, working, such, long, days, it, seemed, too, much, hard, work, to, organise, extra, childcare, etc, to, allow, me, to, go, away, for, more, than, a, day, i, feel, out, of, touch, generally, though, and, a, lot, of, it, has, to, do, with, working, part, time, big, day, on, wednesday, son’s, 1st, morning, at, biggins, nursery, i, think, my, new, hobby, is, worrying, am, i, doing, the, right, thing, setting, off, on, new, extra, and, expensive, childcare, arrangements, i, think, i, feel, guilty, because, it’s, for, my, benefit, not, for, extra, work, it’s, now, going, to, cost, me, an, extra, 7.50, to, ride, my, horse, on, a, wednesday, but, i, am, starting, to, break, horse, in, as, well, and, i, can’t, handle, a, 4, year, old, horse, with, a, 2, year, old, boy, around, anyway, the, nursery, seemed, a, big, hit, and, i, had, my, first, ride, out, on, ashby, fell, i, actually, went, over, the, track, to, the, dowly, tree, instead, of, on, the, road, she, the, horse, was, quite, anxious, leading, the, other, two, and, a, bit, excited, to, be, out, in, the, open, space, of, the, fell, so, was, i, there, seems, to, be, just, one, lot, of, fell, sheep, on, there, they, must, be, h’s, i, think, nobody, else, has, started, to, heft, sheep, up, there, yet, the, dowly, tree, will, be, looking, sad, and, lonely, for, a, bit, longer, i, have, missed, being, up, on, that, fell, so, much, margaret, little, asking, if, we’re, going, to, the, village, hall, quiz, on, friday, probably, not, because, we’re, going, out, for, a, meal, for, partner, s, birthday, felt, guilty, about, not, supporting, village, activities, and, started, justifying, myself, to, her, i, hate, it, though, when, people, use, fmd, to, make, you, feel, bad, she, kept, saying, how, few, does, there, were, last, year, how, nice, it, is, for, all, the, village, to, get, together, etc, all, true, but, i, can’t, get, babysitters, and, nights, off, to, do, everything, and, partner, is, way, more, important, than, the, village, quiz, he, put, up, with, such, a, lot, of, shite, last, year, and, never, complained, far, too, tolerant, we, had, a, lovely, meal, on, the, friday, night, son, slept, out, at, t’s, for, the, first, time, in, ages, but, i, couldn’t, have, a, lie, in, because, of, the, judge’s, course, for, the, arab, horse, society, i, really, enjoyed, it, it, was, arranged, for, last, year, but, had, to, be, postponed, due, to, fmd, it, was, worth, waiting, for, and, i, couldn’t, have, gone, last, year, even, if, it, had, been, on, went, to, see, sister, and, sister’s, boyfriend, on, sunday, seemed, to, spend, all, day, being, fed, she’s, like, mam, son, took, a, real, shine, to, sister’s, boyfriend, which, entertained, us, all, she, seems, to, be, coping, ok, with, horse, s, demise, martin, has, cleaned, up, one, of, his, shoes, and, mounted, it, with, a, plaque, he’s, very, thoughtful, diary, 7, i, have, decided, that, i, am, happy, on, dry, days, when, i, can, ride, or, work, my, horses, son, and, i, can, get, outside, to, play, and, then, he’s, happier, and, people, who, come, into, work, are, more, smiley, on, good, days, too, son, and, i, went, to, a, birthday, party, this, week, he, had, a, brilliant, time, but, i, felt, very, out, of, place, everybody, else, was, immaculately, dressed, and, made, up, while, son, and, i, had, to, rush, back, from, having, a, bonfire, to, burn, all, the, old, hay, in, musgrave, field, to, quickly, wash, and, change, i’d, rather, have, carried, on, tidying, up, the, field, it’s, still, a, real, mess, and, at, least, i, have, the, grass, seed, now, it, had, better, grow, the, price, it, was, i, was, really, pleased, with, horse, on, wednesday, he’s, coming, on, quite, nicely, with, his, lunging, now, he, seems, to, be, quite, amenable, dental, appointment, on, friday, i, hope, my, dentist, never, retires, i, don’t, think, they, make, dentists, that, are, more, interested, in, people, and, their, teeth, than, money, any, more, i, always, have, a, good, chat, to, him, so, we, carried, on, our, discussion, about, my, working, conditions, comparing, them, to, his, sons, etc, he’s, a, vet, too, he, was, quite, surprised, when, i, told, him, about, the, partnership, talks, last, time, i, had, a, good, heart, to, heart, it, was, after, the, threatened, redundancy, it’s, no, wonder, i, feel, confused, about, the, future, at, times, nearly, 2, years, ago, when, i, was, on, maternity, leave, they, thought, they, might, have, to, make, me, redundant, now, they, want, to, release, a, bit, of, capital, and, take, things, easier, they, want, me, to, buy, in, this, time, last, year, i, didn’t, know, if, partner, or, i, would, have, a, job, now, i, have, to, decide, to, commit, myself, to, at, least, 20, more, years, as, a, vet, went, out, with, girls, from, work, to, a, 40th, didn’t, really, want, to, go, but, of, course, we, had, a, great, time, once, we, got, there, i, think, i, have, got, out, of, the, habit, of, evenings, out, still, can’t, get, used, to, the, freedom, the, mobile, phone, gives, us, and, spend, all, the, time, checking, that, there’s, enough, signal, battery, etc, had, a, hell, of, a, hangover, too, much, draught, coke, hell, it’s, worse, than, cider, diary, 8, the, shit, is, hitting, the, fan, we’re, having, problems, with, some, imported, dutch, heifers, we, were, waiting, for, this, especially, on, this, particular, farm, the, management’s, not, the, best, and, the, father, takes, more, advice, from, his, feed, merchant, than, us, vets, there, is, obviously, a, viral, infection, going, through, the, heifers, and, farmer, b, presumed, they, were, already, vaccinated, no, documentation, they, are, also, showing, signs, of, gastro, intestinal, upset, which, could, be, management, oh, hell, why, did, he, buy, 80, first, calvers, nobody, would, willingly, put, themselves, under, that, stress, new, vet, is, interested, but, b, and, w, are, obviously, trying, to, keep, their, distance, they’ve, been, embroiled, in, herd, problems, on, this, farm, before, i, am, now, obviously, the, senior, vet, in, charge, of, this, problem, and, i’m, not, even, at, work, every, day, it’s, too, much, for, new, vet, to, cope, with, and, the, farmer, will, get, pissed, off, soon, and, i, bet, it’s, us, that, catch, the, flak, cheered, myself, up, with, 1, hours, of, r, r, with, the, horses, on, wednesday, lovely, day, rode, down, onto, the, common, but, it, was, hard, work, as, the, other, two, horses, were, shouting, for, daisy, all, the, time, i, was, out, on, her, horse, decided, that, he, would, be, bobbly, when, i, worked, him, but, i’m, getting, confident, that, i, know, how, his, mind, works, we, had, a, bit, of, a, stand, off, but, i, made, sure, it, didn’t, turn, into, a, battle, and, he, did, as, he, was, asked, in, the, end, so, we, finished, on, a, good, note, i, think, it, will, be, quite, satisfying, bringing, him, on, myself, even, though, its, going, to, take, months, at, this, rate, some, people, work, on, young, horses, twice, a, day, he’s, lucky, if, he, gets, trained, twice, a, week, work, is, really, settling, down, now, the, lambing, time, rush, has, passed, and, we’re, catching, up, on, our, tb, testing, for, defra, it’s, a, bit, more, taxing, having, to, do, such, young, animals, in, the, restocked, herds, but, most, people, are, fairly, well, organised, we’re, not, going, to, get, some, of, the, herds, done, before, turn, out, i, wonder, if, defra, have, any, recommendations, for, catching, wild, limousin, heifers, in, the, middle, of, a, field, probably, not, they, don’t, think, that, far, ahead, diary, 9, i, hate, mondays, again, had, supper, at, 11.45, pm, there, was, a, problem, with, my, mobile, when, i, was, on, call, i, hate, mobiles, as, well, and, i, went, to, calve, a, cow, one, and, a, half, hours, after, the, first, call, came, in, i, was, so, mad, firstly, because, we, don’t, make, our, clients, wait, that, long, for, an, emergency, to, become, a, disaster, and, second, because, ws, wife, has, no, idea, about, passing, jobs, on, she, should, have, got, another, vet, to, go, since, i, was, obviously, busy, but, she, just, passed, the, message, on, to, new, vet, to, let, her, sort, it, out, and, w’s, wife, gets, paid, for, doing, the, phones, anyway, all’s, well, live, cow, and, a, tremendous, bull, calf, and, one, of, the, easiest, caesareans, i, have, done, in, ages, b, and, w, seem, to, forget, that, it, is, their, business, and, reputation, at, stake, ultimately, the, buck, stops, with, them, both, of, them, seem, to, have, had, enough, of, business, management, and, hassle, to, last, a, lifetime, last, year, has, done, a, lot, of, damage, to, a, lot, of, people, i, know, i, am, a, lot, less, tolerant, than, i, used, to, be, this, week, started, badly, and, improved, farrier, came, and, trimmed, all, 3, horses, bollocked, me, because, they, hadn’t, been, seen, for, over, a, year, i, did, tidy, them, a, bit, myself, though, had, a, lovely, afternoon, at, rheged, with, mam, we, started, going, when, fmd, was, on, because, it, was, sort, of, neutral, non, agricultural, ground, we, sat, and, chatted, while, son, played, in, the, soft, play, centre, everybody, happy, unfortunately, i, went, down, with, the, worst, dose, of, food, poisoning, i, had, ever, had, i, was, up, all, night, went, into, work, late, i, wouldn’t, have, gone, at, all, except, i, had, a, 2nd, tb, to, test, to, do, on, a, restocked, farm, and, couldn’t, bear, to, start, the, whole, thing, again, i, recovered, as, the, afternoon, went, on, and, even, managed, to, dehorn, 10, cows, the, thought, of, b, sending, fragile, young, new, vet, to, help, spurred, me, on, a, bit, i, was, knackered, when, i, finished, took, me, another, 2, days, to, recover, horse, doing, well, bridle, and, saddle, on, now, looking, grown, up, i’m, quite, proud, of, him, he, was, so, chilled, out, today, i, tried, long, reining, him, that, confused, him, but, he, was, very, sensible, norleen, and, i, didn’t, go, to, the, 1st, date, at, the, rochdale, show, i, still, didn’t, feel, right, and, partner, was, going, to, fit, the, new, fuel, pump, to, my, car, but, then, he, started, to, feel, ill, too, what, a, waste, of, a, saturday, off, made, it, to, the, show, on, sunday, pretty, good, ridden, classes, and, all, the, senior, in, hand, classes, we, were, laughing, because, we’re, so, out, of, practice, there, are, two, years, worth, of, young, stock, that, we’ve, never, seen, due, to, babies, in, 2000, and, fmd, in, 2001, we, felt, really, out, of, touch, there, are, a, few, imported, stallions, and, mares, that, we, haven’t, seen, before, too, we, had, a, brilliant, day, diary, 10, what’s, worse, than, working, on, call, on, mondays, yes, working, bank, holidays, we, hoped, to, shut, at, 12, ha, ha, i, got, home, for, lunch, at, 2pm, b, kindly, took, the, phones, for, a, couple, of, hours, in, the, afternoon, not, long, enough, to, go, anywhere, and, i, was, back, out, working, by, tea, time, my, car, failed, its, mot, because, the, back, brake, callipers, were, all, gunged, up, the, mechanic, says, it’s, disinfectant, that, does, it, bloody, defra, i, bet, there’s, no, chance, of, compensation, for, that, it, wouldn’t, be, so, bad, if, it, was, a, practice, car, but, now, that, i’m, part, time, i, have, to, paddle, my, own, canoe, all, the, local, garage, owners, warned, us, last, year, that, these, things, would, happen, what, could, we, do, we, felt, obliged, to, drive, into, all, the, voluntary, disinfectant, sites, it, doesn’t, look, good, if, the, local, vets, aren’t, disinfecting, my, beautiful, old, audi, god, knows, what, other, horrors, are, lurking, where, the, fam, has, spilled, in, my, boot, etc, hell, it, makes, me, mad, all, the, destruction, physical, and, mental, and, we, had, so, little, to, say, in, any, of, it, well, my, car, spent, the, rest, of, the, week, in, the, garage, so, i, used, borrowed, wheels, went, to, do, a, wee, talk, at, stainsmore, pre, school, in, partner, s, transit, van, very, professional, the, children, didn’t, care, they, just, wanted, to, meet, my, dog, son, missed, a, birthday, party, on, the, saturday, because, i, was, still, at, work, more, guilt, not, that, he, knows, he, missed, it, lovely, day, on, sunday, with, my, horse, went, for, a, three, hour, ride, over, in, county, durham, we, trailed, round, arable, fields, and, nice, lanes, all, very, different, from, here, other, horse, was, an, absolute, saint, and, did, very, well, to, have, no, shoes, on, she, really, did, us, proud, diary, 11, got, my, car, back, that, cheered, me, up, bad, news, about, the, imported, heifers, two, more, have, died, at, least, the, pm, exams, and, sampling, are, free, because, it’s, a, restocked, herd, farmer, getting, angry, now, at, dutch, farmers, but, taking, it, out, on, new, vet, very, unfair, she’s, spent, hours, checking, over, his, cattle, and, taking, samples, didn’t, get, my, usual, r, r, on, wed, absolutely, piddling, down, started, sorting, out, a, few, jobs, that, i, have, been, avoiding, the, sort, i, used, to, do, on, wet, sundays, now, will, become, wet, wednesday, jobs, called, in, at, work, for, coffee, and, ended, up, with, a, call, for, the, afternoon, very, interesting, job, too, went, to, sedate, two, horses, for, the, dentist, it, was, absolutely, fascinating, son, has, another, 2nd, cousin, this, week, the, family, is, really, sprouting, had, a, tough, calving, thursday, night, torsion, of, the, uterus, i, can, do, these, now, i, used, to, absolutely, dread, them, unfortunately, she’d, been, on, too, long, and, the, calf, was, born, dead, heifer, fine, though, i, hate, going, to, that, farm, the, farmer, is, a, right, old, perverted, slime, ball, and, i’ll, dance, on, his, grave, started, with, a, real, head, cold, h, crap, went, to, see, mam, and, stewart, son, on, top, form, it’s, brilliant, seeing, him, interact, with, my, family, he, has, really, strengthened, the, bonds, in, our, family, son, fevered, at, night, starting, with, the, same, cold, i, presume, no, sleep, for, me, partner, never, seems, to, hear, all, the, commotion, still, felt, ill, on, saturday, sister, and, sister, s, birthday, at, least, i, remembered, to, post, their, cards, in, plenty, of, time, this, year, went, shopping, for, wallpaper, on, sunday, to, cheer, me, up, partner, went, off, pest, controlling, with, his, dogs, they, went, up, through, tubby’s, wood, they, found, nothing, but, at, least, the, dogs, had, a, good, ratch, he, says, he, only, now, feels, ok, about, walking, across, fields, i, didn’t, even, realise, that, he, still, felt, that, he, couldn’t, go, round, all, his, old, haunts, we, must, talk, more, diary, 19, tb, test, cancelled, on, monday, and, thursday, this, week, because, the, farmer, can’t, cope, with, the, extra, hassle, he’s, a, bit, of, a, woman, at, the, best, of, times, but, he’s, been, even, worse, since, fmd, w, was, very, understanding, he, seems, to, have, the, farmers, measure, b, didn’t, seem, that, understanding, very, upset, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, had, to, put, down, my, own, terrier, after, he, took, off, and, chased, the, neighbour’s, sheep, for, the, second, time, i, can’t, understand, why, he, went, so, strange, he, used, to, be, fine, with, stock, i, had, a, miserable, afternoon, waiting, for, partner, to, come, home, to, bury, him, i’d, had, such, a, good, morning, with, the, horses, too, dizzy, and, horse, were, both, going, well, i, felt, better, once, partner, came, home, he, said, i’d, done, the, right, thing, but, i, felt, as, though, i’d, failed, somehow, because, it, should, never, have, happened, in, the, first, place, maybe, it’s, because, he, had, nothing, to, do, last, year, no, interesting, walks, no, rabbiting, etc, i, don’t, know, diary, 20, brilliant, time, tues, wed, went, to, my, sisters, with, mam, and, son, it’s, much, easier, to, keep, in, touch, with, my, family, post, fmd, i, hardly, went, anywhere, last, year, we, went, shopping, to, edinburgh, mam’s, looking, for, an, outfit, for, my, brother’s, wedding, unsuccessfully, so, far, i’ve, just, realised, that, i, haven’t, seen, brother, and, wife, on, their, farm, since, fmd, broke, out, we, must, go, soon, it’s, a, brilliant, place, for, recharging, batteries, and, they, are, the, best, bit, of, my, step, family, we, didn’t, go, to, the, cumberland, show, with, the, horses, i, haven’t, got, back, into, the, swing, of, things, yet, i, think, it, was, a, bit, of, a, washout, without, the, farming, side, and, it, rained, i, offered, to, be, the, biosecurity, officer, for, our, local, show, so, that, they, could, get, things, up, and, running, properly, they, had, money, and, trophies, donated, last, year, for, new, cattle, classes, and, there, would, be, real, interest, in, fat, cattle, classes, and, young, handler, classes, now, defra, the, bastards, managed, to, put, the, committee, off, diary, 21, sprayed, weeds, in, field, only, depressing, day, this, week, it’s, never, going, to, recover, properly, the, landlord, arrived, when, we’d, just, finished, the, first, half, and, said, he’d, decided, to, reseed, it, in, august, after, much, discussion, i, persuaded, him, it, would, be, a, waste, of, time, and, money, to, put, horses, back, on, a, newly, seeded, field, over, winter, now, i’m, worried, about, what, happens, in, spring, will, we, be, terminated, or, just, moved, to, another, field, i, wish, i’d, moved, the, horses, at, the, usual, time, 1st, april, then, we, wouldn’t, have, been, caught, up, among, ips, and, dcs, something, will, sort, out, it, always, does, dairy, 22, excellent, week, off, to, malvern, with, friends, for, the, national, arabian, horse, show, son, went, off, to, grannies, for, the, holiday, i, had, a, marvellous, time, for, three, days, watching, the, most, beautiful, horses, and, came, back, absolutely, shattered, diary, 23, few, probs, at, work, with, new, assistant, she’s, a, bit, whiney, she’s, always, bending, the, ear, of, the, nearest, receptionist, and, they, are, sick, b, has, offered, her, a, 12, month, contract, but, whether, or, not, she’ll, accept, it, is, another, matter, from, what, i, can, gather, she’s, going, to, end, up, with, better, working, conditions, than, me, w’s, not, too, happy, about, it, all, but, neither, of, them, are, willing, to, grasp, the, nettle, they’ve, both, backed, off, since, last, year, they, can’t, wait, to, get, off, home, and, i, can’t, step, in, since, they’ve, changed, their, minds, about, my, partnership, and, i’m, only, part, time, good, weekend, lowther, on, saturday, didn’t, see, many, of, the, usual, faces, the, only, thing, that, spoiled, it, was, the, mud, we, brought, more, than, our, fair, share, home, with, son, and, the, pushchair, no, biosecurity, pressure, washer, anywhere, diary, 24, the, assistant, on, holiday, for, 2, weeks, things, seem, more, like, old, times, the, cages, aren’t, full, of, animals, on, drips, i’m, working, extra, days, and, enjoying, it, it’s, tiring, but, good, highlight, of, the, week, on, thursday, brough, show, there, weren’t, many, farmers, there, but, loads, of, horses, and, ponies, instead, of, sheep, much, talk, of, defra, regulations, none, complimentary, it, just, wasn’t, the, same, without, the, sheep, it, felt, flat, i, wonder, what, the, gimmer, lamb, sales, will, be, like, diary, 25, knackered, don’t, think, i, could, cope, with, full, time, work, any, more, new, vet, still, on, holiday, felt, guilty, about, son, being, farmed, out, all, week, i, managed, to, work, myself, up, about, our, charity, horse, show, on, saturday, i, tried, to, hand, over, the, organisation, to, three, other, folk, and, still, ended, up, sorting, out, all, the, insurance, and, rosettes, and, they, changed, the, date, so, i, had, less, time, to, organise, and, it, wasn’t, advertised, it, was, the, worst, show, we’ve, ever, had, it, takes, as, much, time, to, organise, it, for, the, few, as, it, does, for, the, many, i, felt, so, disappointed, i, thought, we, would, have, a, real, good, turnout, this, time, after, having, to, cancel, last, year, oh, well, there’s, always, next, year, i’ll, need, to, make, sure, they, don’t, change, the, date, again, and, at, least, i, might, be, able, to, take, the, horses, next, time, decided, to, cheer, myself, up, by, taking, other, horse, over, to, school, her, round, the, jumps, on, the, sunday, but, i, couldn’t, catch, her, she, must, have, known, so, that, just, put, the, tin, hat, on, the, weekend, diary, 26, two, trotting, meetings, this, week, i, landed, both, of, them, and, both, nights, on, call, another, bank, holiday, with, no, time, off, and, i, had, to, take, son, to, both, because, partner, was, grouse, beating, both, meetings, were, quite, relaxed, but, there, was, one, nasty, crash, at, appleby, had, a, really, nice, day, out, at, chatsworth, game, fair, with, helen, and, neil, it’s, the, first, time, we’ve, managed, to, visit, them, and, it, took, hours, to, get, there, we, were, invited, last, year, but, the, advert, said, they, didn’t, want, any, cumbrians, social, outcasts, as, if, we, didn’t, feel, like, the, armpit, of, british, agriculture, as, it, was, i, really, enjoyed, our, day, out, i, felt, as, if, we’d, had, a, weekend, away, not, just, a, day, we’ll, have, to, think, of, some, more, trips, it’s, too, easy, just, to, stay, at, home, we, always, have, plenty, to, do, dairy, 27, it’s, started, again, defra, have, found, a, new, way, to, cock, up, our, lives, they, have, now, complicated, life, with, exemptions, from, the, 20, day, standstill, including, new, stuff, about, isolation, units, the, farmers, have, all, been, notified, by, post, some, haven’t, read, it, some, have, read, it, and, don’t, understand, it, farmers, have, to, isolate, new, stock, bought, via, auctions, etc, from, any, contact, with, other, stock, by, 50, m, outside, or, they, can, go, on, standstill, but, their, neighbours, can, move, stock, from, the, next, door, field, without, a, problem, it’s, mad, i, don’t, understand, where, they, are, coming, from, well, i, do, sort, of, but, as, usual, it’s, badly, thought, out, and, we, have, to, sell, this, idea, to, the, farmers, how, will, it, be, policed, will, it, matter, would, it, stop, another, massive, outbreak, it, doesn’t, take, much, to, wind, everyone, up, again, it’s, not, helped, at, work, by, b, defending, the, defra, line, and, w, dissing, it, what, will, the, clients, think, diary, 28, crap, week, puncture, on, thursday, during, lunch, hour, struggled, to, get, locking, nuts, off, felt, feckless, god, i, have, so, little, patience, these, days, and, i, missed, beva, congress, couldn’t, sort, out, childminding, etc, and, the, best, days, were, friday, and, saturday, there, was, no, way, i, could, go, i, was, really, disappointed, nothing, to, do, with, fmd, though, i, don’t, feel, as, if, i, get, much, encouragement, from, work, they, are, ok, about, paying, for, cpd, courses, but, they, don’t, seem, to, make, it, easy, to, swap, weekends, etc, they’re, not, bothered, themselves, so, i, suppose, they, don’t, understand, all, the, different, things, you, get, from, cpd, diary, 29, worked, extra, so, new, vet, could, go, to, sheep, meeting, at, malvern, pissed, off, it, is, not, easy, to, do, this, job, with, a, husband, and, a, family, to, consider, and, i, suppose, the, timing, stinks, since, i, missed, my, equine, course, last, week, the, week, improved, considerably, by, thursday, we, went, to, guilford, for, an, arab, horse, convention, nothing, to, do, with, work, but, very, enjoyable, i’ve, been, waiting, more, than, 10, years, for, this, i, hope, i, live, long, enough, to, go, to, the, next, one, we, talked, to, some, men, on, the, train, unheard, of, in, surrey, apparently, about, cumbria, farming, fmd, and, foxhunting, once, we, reassured, them, that, newcastle, was, not, in, cumbria, we, had, an, interesting, crack, i, hardly, ever, meet, anyone, that, is, not, connected, with, farming, and, the, countryside, they, really, have, no, idea, what, it’s, like, i, don’t, know, anything, about, it, either, which, is, what, their, job, is, i, end, up, feeling, so, frustrated, that, agriculture, and, therefore, large, animal, practice, is, in, such, a, precarious, position, it, seems, to, me, to, be, such, a, basic, fundamental, part, of, life, compared, to, computers, and, yet, the, emphasis, is, not, on, basic, stuff, anymore, surely, we, need, things, like, agriculture, and, basic, manufacturing, to, underpin, everything, else, no, wonder, nobody, was, bothered, about, us, suffering, anxiety, fear, confusion, last, year, when, we, were, in, the, throes, of, fmd, and, the, penrith, spur, was, certainly, under, reported, they, wouldn’t, have, had, so, many, marches, in, london, pre, fmd, diary, 30, quite, week, still, tired, from, last, week, loads, of, photos, to, develop, again, it, was, great, saw, horses, i’d, never, seen, before, and, got, 2, great, videos, of, long, dead, horses, that, appear, in, my, horses, pedigrees, son, was, a, bit, off, with, me, when, i, picked, him, up, monday, a, bit, unsettled, with, being, away, i, suppose, oh, this, job, just, interferes, with, a, social, life, missed, another, wedding, this, week, on, call, again, diary, 31, took, a, horse, to, penrith, vets, for, an, x, ray, they, have, a, super, new, hospital, just, out, of, town, seems, really, well, set, up, they, have, a, really, good, attitude, to, work, and, clients, i, think, we, need, a, shake, up, at, work, maybe, new, vet, s, way, of, working, isn’t, too, bad, neil, said, they, were, million, in, the, red, at, the, height, of, fmd, they, must, have, been, so, worried, none, of, us, knew, what, we’d, be, left, with, we’ve, definitely, got, a, lot, of, routine, work, because, we’ve, lost, such, a, lot, of, dairy, farms, it’s, never, going, to, be, the, same, again, and, i’m, not, good, at, accepting, change, diary, 32, sad, week, one, of, our, farmer’s, sons, was, killed, in, an, rta, on, the, a66, he, had, only, been, married, two, years, and, was, a, real, canny, lad, it, shocked, everyone, and, has, certainly, made, me, take, stock, they, have, restocked, with, fancy, cattle, from, down, south, and, these, cattle, may, have, contacted, cattle, with, a, variant, virus, from, the, usa, so, they, were, doing, a, whole, herd, test, you, could, blame, this, on, fmd, if, they, hadn’t, lost, their, cattle, they, wouldn’t, have, restocked, and, they, wouldn’t, be, testing, the, cattle, or, it, wouldn’t, have, happened, if, they’d, stopped, for, an, extra, cup, of, tea, a, client, brought, me, a, copy, of, the, cumbria, enquiry, that, didn’t, half, stir, up, some, old, feelings, all, the, things, i, was, so, angry, about, last, year, were, summed, up, in, one, phrase, i, read, slack, organisation, the, poor, woman, who, brought, the, report, has, spent, over, 1000, treating, her, dog, after, it, suffered, chemical, burns, from, fmd, disinfectant, on, a, road, map, it, now, reacts, to, phenolic, compounds, including, sheep, dip, and, fresh, tar, they’re, moving, to, scotland, i, hope, the, dog, has, a, better, life, there, diary, 33, funny, old, week, everyone, still, shell, shocked, about, farmer’s, son, s, death, no, explanation, as, to, how, the, lorry, crashed, into, his, tractor, yet, you, begin, to, wonder, how, any, family, can, cope, with, that, sort, of, trauma, b, and, w, went, to, the, huge, funeral, they, said, his, parents, were, amazing, they, do, have, a, strong, faith, but, i, can’t, see, that, being, enough, i, went, to, the, graveyard, the, next, day, to, see, the, flowers, and, ended, up, in, tears, it, was, the, messages, on, the, cards, especially, the, ones, from, his, parents, and, brother, and, sister, i, felt, so, sad, for, them, all, went, for, a, wee, walk, with, tracey, she, knows, him, quite, well, and, we, talked, a, lot, trying, to, make, sense, of, it, all, then, blow, me, on, the, thursday, his, father, and, brother, were, part, of, a, syndicate, at, the, tup, sales, that, paid, over, 100,000, for, a, swaledale, tup, i, couldn’t, believe, they’d, even, gone, to, the, auction, never, mind, doing, something, like, that, it, doesn’t, seem, right, to, me, the, others, could, have, bought, the, tup, for, them, i, think, that’s, awfully, strange, i, had, another, upset, farmer’s, wife, this, week, i, went, to, see, a, downer, cow, she’d, got, stuck, in, the, cubicles, we, had, to, carry, her, to, a, straw, box, using, the, loader, tractor, and, the, wife, got, really, upset, seeing, the, cow, swinging, on, the, front, of, the, tractor, i, felt, a, bit, guilty, really, because, i, didn’t, think, i, just, didn’t, connect, the, fmd, slaughter, with, an, injured, cow, but, then, i, didn’t, see, all, that, they, saw, when, their, herd, went, down, diary, 34, great, week, my, brother’s, wedding, son, was, a, page, boy, in, a, kilt, and, he, was, quite, well, behaved, apart, from, the, second, lot, of, photos, he, was, well, tired, and, hungry, by, then, i, love, being, home, with, my, brother, and, sisters, and, their, partners, and, it’s, great, the, way, they, all, have, so, much, time, for, son, we, always, laugh, so, much, at, the, clan, gatherings, i’m, sure, it’s, very, therapeutic, the, amount, of, alcohol, consumed, by, all, at, the, wedding, is, definitely, not, therapeutic, we, set, off, on, our, holiday, maybe, our, first, family, holiday, the, day, after, in, the, rain, but, it, turned, out, ok, later, such, a, lot, of, good, stuff, in, one, week, diary, 35, had, a, lovely, day, it, all, worked, out, well, we, may, try, four, or, five, days, away, next, year, now, that, we’ve, got, started, again, it’s, years, since, we, had, a, proper, holiday, i, usually, miss, all, the, animals, when, i’m, away, but, not, this, time, i, think, son, has, more, than, filled, that, gap, had, bad, news, on, wednesday, partner, s, van, failed, its, mot, no, transport, no, money, for, a, new, motor, mild, panic, slight, depression, then, the, gradual, return, to, my, it, will, all, work, out, somehow, attitude, and, it, did, partner, s, mum, and, dad, helped, us, out, and, i, had, to, relinquish, my, little, buy, a, new, trailer, fund, had, a, disaster, on, sunday, morning, caesarean, on, an, uncooperative, cow, she, got, up, halfway, through, the, op, and, pushed, her, rumen, out, onto, the, very, dirty, floor, and, she, started, to, haemorrhage, she, died, four, hours, later, they, ended, up, with, an, exceptional, bull, calf, but, a, dead, pedigree, belgian, blue, cow, i, hate, when, things, die, on, restocked, farms, i, think, they, were, quite, philosophical, about, it, but, i, went, over, and, over, the, whole, thing, in, my, head, b, just, said, if, they’re, going, to, die, it’s, best, they, die, soon, less, time, to, worry, and, everyone, gets, over, it, quicker, too, i, think, he, may, be, right, he’s, definitely, easier, to, talk, to, these, days, he’s, like, a, different, person, now, that, jan’s, left, diary, 36, busy, week, testing, a, restocked, herd, monday, thursday, which, had, travelled, all, of, 5, miles, to, their, new, home, a, bit, of, a, waste, of, time, but, it, was, a, nice, day, to, be, out, really, good, turnout, at, the, village, bonfire, it’s, a, new, tradition, started, in, 2001, and, it, was, the, first, village, get, together, after, fmd, at, the, end, of, the, week, i, headed, south, to, cheshire, and, the, salisbury, plain, with, my, friend, ann, and, her, horse, to, compete, in, the, marathon, what, an, awful, journey, we, had, the, rain, poured, the, traffic, crawled, i’m, glad, i, don’t, have, to, use, the, m6, on, a, daily, basis, i, really, enjoyed, my, weekend, away, but, we, had, to, pull, the, horse, out, at, the, half, way, point, she, was, so, hyped, that, we, couldn’t, get, her, heart, rate, down, so, she, wasn’t, allowed, to, continue, i, felt, really, disappointed, i, was, sure, that, she, had, a, good, chance, well, she, would, have, if, they, had, a, vet, check, halfway, through, diary, 37, a, bit, of, an, anticlimax, this, week, after, all, the, build, up, to, the, marathon, it, would, have, been, so, different, if, she’d, completed, the, course, we, had, a, better, journey, north, except, for, a, puncture, not, handy, when, you, have, a, horse, trailer, on, i, drove, most, of, the, way, back, to, ann’s, saw, all, her, horses, and, then, drove, home, another, 2, hours, oh, i, was, so, pleased, to, get, home, it, was, a, good, experience, though, i, don’t, think, either, of, us, would, trail, a, horse, all, the, way, to, salisbury, plain, for, a, two, hour, race, again, there, were, fmd, cases, near, ann, in, cheshire, that, didn’t, seem, to, catch, hold, like, they, did, in, cumbria, maybe, its, because, there, are, bigger, farms, and, more, arable, land, i, went, to, see, her, in, july, 2001, and, she, pointed, out, various, fields, that, had, been, cleared, of, stock, half, of, them, didn’t, even, have, gates, on, there, was, no, disinfectant, or, precautions, visible, and, it, was, really, starting, to, wipe, out, our, practice, at, home, it, was, unbelievable, we, were, sitting, in, cumbria, thinking, that, agriculture, was, doomed, and, everything, in, cheshire, was, carrying, on, as, normal, it, was, a, rude, awakening, for, me, diary, 38, more, tb, testing, all, day, job, testing, stock, that, wouldn’t, normally, be, tested, but, they’re, restocked, they, have, come, from, cheshire, though, so, that, does, increase, the, risk, had, a, shocking, migraine, all, day, wednesday, went, to, bed, as, soon, as, i’d, dropped, son, off, at, biggins, and, didn’t, wake, up, until, 5pm, 2, hours, after, i, should, have, collected, him, and, i, still, felt, awful, it, was, terrible, driving, in, the, dark, and, i, had, to, stop, three, times, on, the, way, home, i, went, back, to, bed, until, 9pm, and, then, was, fine, i, haven’t, had, a, migraine, for, ages, i, was, back, on, top, form, the, next, day, though, we, did, the, tb, readings, on, 172, cattle, before, lunch, cooking, with, gas, diary, 39, fed, up, with, all, this, testing, and, we, may, be, doing, this, for, the, next, 4, 5, months, sick, of, new, vet, moaning, at, work, i, don’t, know, what, it, would, take, to, make, her, happy, i, think, this, week, has, nearly, all, been, a, waste, of, time, i, haven’t, made, best, use, of, my, free, time, and, i, haven’t, been, on, top, of, my, job, at, work, diary, 40, i, was, dreading, this, week, because, there, were, so, many, things, to, do, i, think, i, avoid, adding, extra, to, my, schedule, but, this, week, i, had, 3, days, away, and, a, night, out, to, cope, with, i, really, don’t, like, the, thought, of, shopping, but, managed, to, do, some, christmas, present, locating, on, friday, spent, wednesday, with, b, which, was, better, than, i, expected, on, a, national, scrapie, plan, training, day, which, was, worse, than, i, expected, bloody, defra, they, don’t, have, to, do, or, say, much, to, raise, my, hackles, here, we, are, selecting, for, a, resistant, genotype, and, they, are, spending, all, their, time, injecting, bse, into, sheep’s, brains, to, challenge, them, how, would, that, ever, happen, naturally, nearly, missed, my, night, out, because, of, work, it, was, 10, pm, before, i, got, there, but, at, least, i, didn’t, miss, the, dancing, it, turned, into, a, really, good, night, nearly, everyone, from, work, was, there, and, j, the, ex, receptionist, we, always, have, a, good, laugh, ended, up, working, most, of, the, morning, don’t, know, if, w, was, hung, over, or, just, idle, but, he’ll, have, to, pay, me, for, the, hours, i, don’t, work, extra, out, of, the, goodness, of, my, heart, now, i, have, all, my, own, overheads, to, fund, new, vet, s, the, star, for, avoiding, extra, or, dirty, work, then, it, usually, falls, to, me, she, says, she, wants, more, large, animal, work, and, then, does, her, best, to, avoid, it, diary, 41, tired, this, week, son, came, back, from, mavis’s, full, of, cold, improved, a, bit, and, then, woke, up, screaming, on, tuesday, night, it, was, a, very, long, night, and, partner, wasn’t, even, here, t, enjoy, share, it, as, he’d, left, to, fly, to, tampa, at, 5am, that, morning, god, i, don’t, fancy, being, a, single, mum, he, soon, started, to, improve, after, 24hrs, on, antibiotics, ear, and, chest, infection, i’ve, never, seen, him, in, such, pain, of, course, he, was, nearly, better, by, the, time, partner, got, back, i, really, struggled, on, my, own, and, had, to, take, a, day, off, on, thursday, but, still, had, to, go, and, do, a, second, tb, test, otherwise, i, would, have, had, to, start, all, over, again, we, didn’t, have, time, to, test, them, twice, and, it’s, a, restocked, herd, so, we, had, to, do, them, all, it’s, really, hard, trying, to, do, the, best, for, everyone, diary, 42, pretty, good, week, until, the, weekend, had, a, good, night, out, for, tracey’s, birthday, and, i, was, really, chuffed, she, invited, son, too, he, was, well, behaved, too, nut, unfortunately, now, thinks, he, can, go, to, the, pub, so, we, have, to, go, out, to, meetings, to, avoid, a, tantrum, i, don’t, really, think, i, have, suffered, many, after, effects, from, fmd, except, a, lower, anger, threshold, and, a, loss, of, faith, in, the, powers, that, be, i’m, much, more, worried, about, some, of, our, client’s, mental, health, i, know, there, are, several, who, have, suffered, severe, depression, and, they, are, not, all, farmers, that, were, culled, out, the, sleepless, nights, were, back, with, a, vengeance, son, started, with, chickenpox, at, the, weekend, and, nobody, had, any, sleep, diary, 43, absolutely, shattered, somebody, else’s, chickenpox, is, nearly, as, bad, as, your, own, i, don’t, think, i, have, had, a, full, nights, sleep, for, over, a, fortnight, i, still, had, a, lovely, time, at, christmas, though, i, was, sure, that, partner, and, son, would, be, pleased, with, their, presents, son, suddenly, brightened, dup, on, christmas, eve, on, the, way, to, mam’s, and, never, broke, stride, after, that, he, was, son, top, form, i, was, so, tired, that, i, fell, asleep, on, saturday, evening, and, missed, the, village, hall, christmas, party, the, highlight, of, the, village, social, calendar, diary, 44, the, threat, of, tb, rears, its, ugly, head, maybe, tb, is, the, new, fmd, went, to, do, a, private, tb, test, for, a, farmer, who, has, restocked, and, passed, his, restocking, checks, unfortunately, he, bought, 3, heifers, in, november, and, the, original, farm, has, since, gone, down, with, tb, he, isolated, the, heifers, as, soon, as, he, heard, and, waited, for, defra, they, didn’t, come, so, we, did, i, hoped, for, the, best, and, expected, the, worst, one, of, the, heifers, reacted, i, didn’t, know, what, to, do, or, say, the, farmer’s, wife, was, really, upset, she, wished, they, hadn’t, gone, back, into, farming, b, the, boss, has, phoned, defra, that, morning, regarding, these, heifers, only, to, be, told, that, youngstock, don’t, pose, much, of, a, risk, they, don’t, seem, to, have, much, idea, at, all, and, don’t, have, a, clue, about, getting, on, with, the, job, they’ve, had, three, weeks, to, track, down, the, calves, out, of, the, cows, that, were, reactors, they, seem, to, let, us, down, just, when, we, need, them, most, oh, they, make, me, boil, and, we, are, going, to, have, to, cope, with, the, aftermath, again, diary, 45, felt, a, bit, flat, and, tired, this, week, the, test, i, had, this, week, was, hard, work, trying, to, catch, cows, in, cubicles, is, not, fun, we, were, all, covered, in, muck, at, the, end, of, it, and, the, second, day, was, worse, because, he, had, about, 14, to, rectal, after, the, test, wednesday, my, day, of, respite, was, taken, up, looking, after, tracey, in, bed, with, cold, she’s, really, down, still, and, i, can’t, seem, to, do, anything, to, make, her, feel, better, i, know, she’ll, come, out, of, it, eventually, but, it’s, hard, not, being, able, to, help, i, just, didn’t, feel, as, if, i, had, any, time, to, myself, this, week, and, i, really, missed, out, if, i, start, working, wednesdays, i’m, going, to, miss, it, every, week, i’ll, have, to, have, another, plan, it’s, a, bit, better, at, the, weekend, but, i, think, we, all, need, some, better, weather, and, i, miss, doing, stuff, with, the, horses, diary, 46, oh, i’m, mad, again, with, defra, i, had, to, go, back, to, the, herd, with, the, reactor, and, test, every, single, bovine, on, the, place, except, the, two, remaining, heifers, from, the, infected, herd, i, don’t, understand, why, they, can’t, just, take, out, those, heifers, too, the, poor, farmer, and, his, wife, will, be, on, tender, hooks, until, the, end, of, march, at, the, earliest, if, they, hadn’t, asked, for, a, private, test, goodness, knows, when, defra, would, have, got, there, while, i, was, testing, defra, phoned, the, farmers, wife, to, confirm, that, the, slaughtered, heifer, had, visible, lesions, so, that, puts, paid, to, the, theory, that, youngstock, weren’t, a, danger, hope, this, news, makes, them, get, a, finger, out, had, a, lovely, day, with, mam, and, son, on, tuesday, we, sat, and, talked, for, over, an, hour, in, the, car, park, everything, tested, clear, at, the, check, test, so, far, so, good, bad, day, on, thursday, the, behaviour, course, i, was, enrolled, on, has, been, cancelled, no, explanation, just, a, cheque, returned, to, the, practice, with, a, wee, note, i, was, so, disappointed, even, though, it, was, going, to, be, a, lot, of, extra, work, over, the, next, 10, months, and, extra, hassle, and, extra, childminding, i, think, i, could, have, coped, then, at, lunchtime, i, bent, my, car, door, after, stopping, to, help, somebody, stuck, on, an, icy, patch, i, haven’t, got, all, the, bits, sorted, that, were, knackered, by, fmd, disinfecting, yet, and, there’s, more, repairs, and, i, have, to, pay, for, it, myself, now, that, i, don’t, have, a, practice, car, i, was, well, fed, up, dairy, 47, busy, week, tb, testing, again, started, working, odd, wednesdays, this, week, so, spent, all, day, wednesday, up, the, back, end, of, suckler, cows, very, dangerous, taking, bloods, for, brucellosis, and, then, blood, sampling, swaledales, for, scrapie, testing, we, have, so, many, tests, still, to, do, but, not, many, dreadfully, out, of, date, and, i, think, we’ve, done, quite, a, lot, of, the, restocking, tests, but, its, all, quite, mind, numbing, stuff, not, much, clinical, acumen, required, for, getting, blood, out, of, cows, just, quick, reactions, to, dodge, shit, and, flying, feet, very, late, finished, monday, by, the, time, i, had, all, my, paperwork, done, a, a, college, friend, landed, tuesday, en, route, to, leeds, for, a, herd, health, meeting, 6, hours, driving, for, a, meeting, we, talked, a, bit, about, fmd, she, worked, as, a, tvi, towards, the, end, of, the, outbreak, they, have, a, lot, more, trouble, with, tb, up, in, aberdeenshire, once, it, gets, into, a, herd, they, struggle, to, get, rid, of, it, again, i, hope, it, doesn’t, get, to, be, a, huge, problem, round, here, collected, a, fair, few, bruises, on, thursday, pregnant, heifers, to, dehorn, they, should, have, been, done, in, 2001, but, of, course, the, routine, work, was, put, off, i, don’t, know, what, the, excuse, was, leaving, them, al, through, 2002, but, they, were, massive, anyway, it, saved, me, going, to, the, gym, on, wednesday, night, diary, 48, i, have, just, handed, in, the, latest, batch, of, diaries, and, started, a, new, session, i, have, been, thinking, that, f, m, doesn’t, really, affect, me, much, anymore, our, work, has, changed, because, of, the, restocking, that, has, taken, place, since, with, all, the, new, disease, problems, that, have, been, bought, in, as, additional, extras, and, the, extra, tb, testing, etc, but, mentally, i, am, not, aware, of, even, thinking, about, the, events, of, 2001, that, often, i, still, feel, upset, if, someone, tells, me, about, their, own, particular, experiences, which, are, often, heart, rending, but, probably, no, more, than, if, they, were, discussing, another, devastating, disease, problem, i, still, have, little, tolerance, for, the, workings, of, defra, even, though, they, are, providing, us, with, lots, of, bread, and, butter, work, diary, 51, i’m, sick, of, doing, caesareans, on, cows, who, encouraged, all, the, bloody, beef, farmers, to, restock, with, belgian, blues, i’m, not, sure, that, we, should, be, continuing, to, allow, animals, to, breed, that, can’t, reproduce, naturally, it, doesn’t, seem, right, that, we, should, almost, expect, a, caesarean, the, day, that, a, new, cow, is, put, in, calf, we, used, to, have, occasional, troubles, before, and, not, all, caesareans, are, on, belgian, blues, but, now, we, do, at, least, one, caesarean, every, week, b, did, two, in, one, day, and, they, are, bloody, hard, work, diary, 52, i, always, think, of, the, 23rd, feb, as, being, the, day, that, i, realised, we, might, be, in, the, shit, in, 2001, it, wouldn’t, have, passed, unnoticed, round, here, several, people, mentioned, the, date, in, the, following, week, yet, it, wasn’t, until, the, 4th, april, that, f, m, came, into, our, practice, loads, of, our, farmers, lost, a, lot, of, seep, early, on, though, because, they, were, wintering, away, on, dairy, farms, further, down, the, eden, valley, this, used, to, just, involve, the, hoggs, but, now, they, are, encouraged, to, leave, the, fells, almost, empty, and, are, paid, to, remove, even, pregnant, ewes, to, lower, ground, it, seems, ludicrous, that, on, certain, farms, the, fell, sheep, only, spend, summertime, on, the, fells, the, rest, of, the, time, they, are, in, bye, land, for, tupping, or, lambing, and, then, are, wintered, in, sheep, sheds, or, on, dairy, farms, sometimes, quite, far, away, from, home, i, did, get, quite, upset, when, i, read, the, stories, in, the, book, this, time, i, think, i, had, more, empathy, for, the, tourism, businesses, affected, they, must, have, been, so, frustrated, and, probably, ended, up, much, worse, off, that, the, affected, farmers, in, our, area, the, farmers, who, survived, are, the, ones, in, general, who, are, struggling, for, survival, now, and, their, farms, have, had, no, capital, investment, at, all, in, fact, some, of, the, survivors, are, still, very, bitter, about, the, whole, episode, its, so, sad, what, this, has, done, to, some, people, diary, 55, check, tb, test, at, campbells, went, well, finished, in, good, time, running, into, trouble, because, the, other, cows, taken, in, for, winter, are, calving, and, they, have, no, room, however, they, have, found, someone, to, take, and, slaughter, all, the, big, bullocks, they, are, going, to, be, moved, under, licence, direct, to, a, slaughter, house, so, at, least, they, will, have, some, income, the, first, this, year, everything, tested, clear, including, the, 2, heifers, brought, in, from, the, farm, that, had, the, reactor, so, they, are, feeling, a, little, bit, more, confident, diary, 56, bloody, defra, cocked, up, again, with, c’s, test, had, to, go, back, to, test, 11, baby, calves, how, cruel, had, to, go, back, to, h’s, as, well, to, test, one, inconclusive, reactor, all, of, them, were, ok, diary, 60, i, think, the, lambing, time, rush, is, settling, down, again, of, course, there, aren’t, quite, as, many, fell, sheep, about, as, usual, and, probably, won’t, be, again, if, the, payments, are, de, coupled, numbers, won’t, be, as, profitable, as, acres]
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1964, gender, f, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, week, beginning, 4th, march, 02, monday, 4th, march, we, decided, we, now, need, more, staff, a, new, vet, and, a, part, time, receptionist, this, could, take, us, back, up, to, our, previous, staffing, level, pre, fm, bar, a, vet, but, this, was, probably, going, to, be, all, the, recruitments, we, would, make, this, year, it’s, a, good, sign, as, things, begin, to, get, back, to, normal, work, is, increasing, quite, a, lot, now, most, of, our, farmers, have, restocked, although, a, lot, of, them, and, us, are, still, concerned, about, the, future, tuesday, 5th, march, a, difficult, day, today, with, licences, two, of, our, farmers, needed, sole, occupancy, authentitys, soa, and, there, were, queries, with, their, land, unless, some, of, their, fields, could, be, redefined, they, were, worried, their, stock, would, suffer, during, the, fm, these, worries, have, shown, how, much, they, care, about, their, stock, and, find, it, very, frustrating, when, they, don’t, understand, why, we, can’t, move, them, even, to, the, point, of, anger, and, tears, by, the, end, of, the, day, thankfully, they, were, resolved, with, compromise, on, both, sides, and, a, lot, of, phone, calls, wednesday, 6th, march, i, decided, to, sort, out, all, the, paperwork, and, guidelines, we, had, received, from, defra, over, the, past, twelve, months, it, was, quite, a, pile, it, was, interesting, looking, back, and, very, sad, it, makes, you, realise, just, how, deep, the, feelings, went, and, although, it, sounds, silly, it’s, surprising, how, quickly, those, feelings, can, return, over, the, smallest, things, anyway, having, done, that, it, did, feel, good, to, box, them, up, and, put, them, away, we, got, taken, out, for, lunch, with, our, ptizer, rep, and, it, was, nice, just, to, talk, about, usual, things, drug, competition, how, much, we, were, going, to, sell, thursday, 7th, march, very, busy, day, everyone, has, been, flat, out, all, day, started, at, 7am, this, morning, got, finished, sort, of, by, 7.30pm, very, tired, hope, we, get, a, new, vet, soon, we, also, had, a, suspect, bse, case, today, informed, defra, more, problems, with, soa, but, we, got, them, started, one, bit, of, good, news, i, managed, to, get, a, new, receptionist, for, 2, days, a, week, so, i, just, need, one, for, the, other, 3, friday, 8th, march, quite, a, good, day, no, major, hassles, today, and, still, getting, busier, had, a, staff, meeting, to, arrange, an, open, day, for, national, pet, week, in, may, and, sorted, out, a, few, other, bits, and, bobs, had, a, good, chat, with, the, staff, who, have, all, been, very, busy, this, week, and, decided, that, it, is, much, better, to, this, time, last, year, when, we, were, all, very, depressed, emotionally, drained, laying, off, staff, uncertain, of, the, future, at, least, now, we, are, doing, what, we, are, meant, to, do, saturday, 9th, march, went, shopping, first, thing, with, k, had, a, good, time, even, though, i’m, not, a, good, shopper, we, went, to, the, farmers, market, i, saw, heather, who, works, at, the, auction, and, she, said, it, had, been, quite, emotional, having, sales, again, and, the, hustle, and, bustle, but, they, were, all, happy, to, see, people, they, hadn’t, seen, for, sometime, met, my, mum, in, the, afternoon, in, the, snow, at, killington, lake, it, was, good, and, the, driving, was, interesting, sunday, 10th, march, mothers, day, husband, and, daughter, were, out, for, the, day, so, i, had, a, lovely, peaceful, day, doing, not, a, lot, daughter, got, me, a, funny, card, and, a, little, hedgehog, model, for, my, collection, in, the, evening, i, collected, a, vet, student, from, london, who, is, staying, with, us, for, 3, weeks, so, we, will, have, to, behave, she, seems, nice, and, settled, into, our, mad, house, easily, mr, w, called, in, to, let, us, know, his, cows, had, arrived, safely, week, beginning, 11th, march, 02, monday, 11th, march, what, a, busy, day, but, a, total, change, to, this, time, last, year, it, was, the, day, our, first, client, was, confirmed, with, f, m, i, helped, another, vet, do, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, that, was, fun, they, are, farmers, that, have, moved, farm, and, restocked, very, positive, one, of, our, new, receptionists, started, but, i, didn’t, get, much, chance, to, see, her, due, to, the, caesar, barbara, looked, after, her, well, and, she, seemed, to, enjoy, it, there, were, lots, of, calls, in, just, like, the, old, days, but, we, really, need, another, vet, the, adverts, in, on, thursday, so, fingers, crossed, tuesday, another, busy, day, and, another, caesar, the, calf, was, dead, unfortunately, the, cow, with, query, bse, was, taken, away, for, tests, which, was, sad, my, highlight, of, my, day, was, the, farm, across, from, us, turned, some, of, his, cows, out, again, i, call, it, my, kitchen, window, view, normally, i, can, see, sheep, in, the, fields, at, the, back, and, the, cows, across, the, road, the, sheep, came, back, a, couple, of, months, ago, and, the, cows, but, i, haven’t, actually, been, able, to, see, them, so, it, was, very, special, never, really, stopped, today, and, we, did, dog, training, classes, at, night, so, i, collected, daughter, from, her, yfc, meeting, and, got, fish, and, chips, and, we, all, went, to, bed, our, poor, vet, student, who, is, staying, with, us, is, exhausted, she’s, been, able, to, see, and, do, so, much, wednesday, today, was, a, little, more, controlled, and, went, more, according, to, plan, but, was, still, a, long, day, as, we, had, a, dog, in, about, 6.30pm, that, had, eaten, a, ball, and, hadn’t, passed, it, so, we, had, to, operate, to, remove, it, anyway, finished, at, 9.00pm, had, tea, and, went, to, bed, daughter, heard, she, had, got, 2, weeks, work, experience, at, norbrook, pharmaceutical, so, very, pleased, about, that, thursday, had, the, morning, off, the, last, few, days, had, been, rather, hectic, a, girl, who, had, done, work, experience, with, us, a, couple, of, years, ago, called, round, out, of, the, blue, she, was, still, keen, to, train, as, a, vet, nurse, and, wanted, to, write, to, the, practices, in, the, area, and, needed, advice, anyway, i, told, her, about, our, vacancy, here, and, well, the, long, and, the, short, is, she, starts, on, the, 2nd, april, receptionist, staff, now, sorted, just, need, a, vet, i, wish, it, was, as, easy, friday, husband, was, reading, a, tt, test, at, a, farm, and, found, a, reactor, pre, f, m, cumbria, was, tb, free, but, with, all, the, new, stock, coming, into, the, area, it, is, inevitable, that, this, will, not, be, the, case, there, have, already, been, two, other, cases, in, the, county, i, dropped, off, the, isolation, notice, to, the, farmer, and, as, they, are, he, seemed, okay, and, still, very, positive, i, have, always, admired, them, for, their, courage, and, stamina, as, he, said, they, love, farming, and, you, have, to, expect, things, like, this, managed, to, spend, the, afternoon, with, one, of, our, new, receptionists, she, is, doing, really, well, and, settling, in, time, she, will, grasp, it, all, in, no, time, saturday, ran, daughter, and, her, friend, into, town, and, sorted, out, the, garage, that, was, an, achievement, the, dog, that, swallowed, the, ball, wasn’t, eating, so, i, went, to, get, it, something, tasty, it’s, going, home, later, so, it, should, be, a, lot, happier, daughter, s, still, in, town, so, i, took, vet, student, to, see, hadrian’s, wall, she’s, from, america, so, was, very, keen, to, see, it, she, really, enjoyed, it, and, so, did, i, i, hadn’t, been, for, a, couple, of, years, just, had, a, nice, quiet, evening, in, sunday, my, sister, and, her, daughter, came, for, the, day, my, niece, is, two, and, a, half, years, so, need, i, say, more, we, were, busy, playing, all, day, week, beginning, monday, 18th, march, 02, monday, 18th, march, it's, looking, fairly, quiet, at, work, this, week, but, you, never, know, mr, w, farmer, came, in, he, was, letting, us, know, his, restocking, plans, and, was, one, of, the, farmers, querying, his, compensation, i, never, liked, that, as, they, were, compulsory, purchased, and, have, not, received, any, compensation, as, such, although, some, got, better, money, than, others, so, maybe, it, was, all, taken, into, account, anyway, he, missed, the, query, deadline, by, two, hours, so, defra, are, refusing, to, look, at, his, case, as, he, does, appear, to, have, lost, out, as, his, brother, with, the, same, breeding, of, cows, and, related, went, down, on, the, same, down, got, an, average, 300, more, per, cow, anyway, we, tried, to, look, to, the, future, and, he, was, looking, forward, to, getting, stock, back, we, had, another, tb, reactor, today, in, some, french, cattle, me, and, our, receptionist, were, chatting, and, decided, things, were, really, getting, back, to, normal, although, with, the, added, paperwork, daughter, was, very, upset, when, she, came, home, from, school, as, she, had, been, getting, bullied, by, a, girl, in, her, year, so, we, chatted, about, that, and, i, wrote, to, her, teacher, to, see, if, she, could, find, out, more, tuesday, daughter, went, to, school, fairly, happy, i, just, told, her, to, hand, her, letter, in, and, try, and, avoid, the, girl, i, was, going, milk, recording, tonight, which, i, really, enjoy, it's, great, to, be, among, the, animals, and, talk, to, the, farmers, we, only, have, one, farmer, milk, recording, fully, at, present, there, were, 12, the, farm, i, went, to, is, a, big, dairy, herd, and, is, now, looking, to, expanding, so, that, was, good, news, bad, news, is, that, means, i'll, have, to, get, up, earlier, in, the, mornings, for, the, recording, never, mind, daughter, had, got, on, okay, at, school, and, the, teacher, was, really, good, with, her, so, she's, feeling, happier, she, is, a, good, kid, and, although, hormonal, at, times, she, does, put, up, with, a, lot, during, the, fmd, we, were, unable, to, really, go, anywhere, or, do, anything, although, we, did, try, to, keep, her, routine, we, worked, longer, hours, and, were, more, stressed, but, she, never, complained, and, helped, a, lot, went, dog, training, after, milk, recording, so, it, was, a, long, day, wednesday, early, morning, start, today, 5am, to, go, milk, recording, but, i, always, get, a, lovely, breakfast, we, also, got, invited, to, a, party, at, the, farm, in, may, so, that's, something, to, look, forward, to, and, its, fancy, dress, so, that, will, be, fun, we, have, to, dress, up, as, children's, characters, we, then, attended, a, careers, convention, at, the, sands, centre, until, 7, pm, so, another, very, long, day, very, tired, we, saw, a, lot, of, children, who, were, interested, in, pursuing, veterinary, work, which, is, always, encouraging, i, enjoy, doing, the, careers, days, it's, interesting, to, see, the, next, workforce, they, seem, to, grow, up, so, fast, thursday, my, claim, to, fame, today, was, seeing, the, princess, royal, i, passed, her, at, a, junction, and, thought, i, was, seeing, things, i, bored, everyone, with, that, story, we, had, a, lovely, staff, lunch, meeting, we, all, helped, cook, and, sat, and, chatted, about, the, future, we, had, no, replies, from, the, advert, for, a, vet, so, we, decided, to, try, another, veterinary, magazine, so, fingers, crossed, in, the, afternoon, i, managed, to, get, very, well, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, which, is, a, rarity, as, i, normally, end, up, going, somewhere, or, sorting, something, out, so, i, was, very, pleased, especially, as, the, year, end, is, approaching, friday, discussed, a, few, ideas, with, our, nurse, regarding, the, small, animal, side, and, the, possibility, of, getting, some, new, equipment, i, shall, have, to, do, some, adding, up, husband, was, at, a, vet, meeting, locally, for, all, the, vets, in, the, area, on, thursday, night, and, there, were, 3, other, practices, looking, for, vets, and, had, been, doing, for, some, time, without, any, luck, at, all, this, is, worrying, as, our, case, loads, increase, again, it, puts, a, strain, on, the, vets, so, fingers, crossed, our, advert, is, in, tomorrow, in, the, afternoon, i, called, to, see, one, of, our, evening, receptionist, who, is, on, maternity, leave, at, present, it, was, good, to, see, her, and, her, new, addition, so, i, was, filling, her, in, on, the, news, and, gossip, hopefully, she, will, be, back, to, work, the, second, week, in, april, although, the, birth, was, a, caesarean, so, i, have, told, her, to, see, how, she, is, feeling, so, we, will, discuss, it, again, soon, as, this, is, her, fourth, child, but, she, copes, really, well, and, is, looking, really, healthy, saturday, it, snowed, i, went, to, meet, my, mum, at, killington, as, we, were, having, her, dog, while, she, went, on, holiday, and, nearly, got, stuck, in, the, snow, during, foot, and, mouth, daughter, had, counted, the, stock, in, the, field, between, carlisle, and, penrith, on, the, m6, anyway, i, did, it, again, today, last, year, we, counted, 2, this, year, we, counted, 12, big, difference, sunday, went, for, a, walk, around, a, local, wood, for, the, first, time, in, over, a, year, it, was, amazing, how, overgrown, it, had, become, the, paths, were, still, visible, but, in, places, only, just, met, up, with, a, friend's, daughter, to, finalise, arrangements, for, her, father's, surprise, meal, out, next, friday, for, his, 50th, birthday, week, beginning, monday, 25th, march, 02, monday, 25th, march, another, very, busy, day, today, still, no, answer, to, the, advert, for, a, new, vet, husband, spoke, to, another, vet, in, the, area, and, they, had, had, the, same, response, nothing, it, is, good, to, be, busy, again, our, new, receptionist, is, doing, well, and, learning, fast, so, that's, taking, the, pressure, off, me, and, other, receptioinist, completed, the, claim, form, for, business, link, grant, which, helped, a, lot, and, enabled, us, to, do, things, and, advertise, when, we, wouldn't, have, been, able, to, tuesday, starting, to, prepare, for, the, end, of, our, financial, year, i, always, dread, this, but, it, has, to, be, done, it, will, be, nice, to, end, another, chapter, the, practice, suffered, badly, last, year, and, it, was, very, worrying, we, lost, 3, vets, and, two, lay, staff, but, everyone, is, feeling, the, same, i, have, spoken, to, a, few, farmers, today, and, the, opinion, is, well, it, is, a, lot, better, than, this, time, last, year, it, has, been, interesting, to, see, how, the, effect, of, having, new, stock, does, throw, them, we, are, getting, called, out, a, lot, more, which, is, good, for, us, we, are, doing, a, lot, more, lambings, and, lambing, is, set, to, go, on, until, may, june, time, this, year, we, are, very, busy, testing, at, the, moment, but, it, gives, us, the, opportunity, to, see, the, new, animals, and, discuss, plans, with, the, farmers, the, relationship, which, was, built, during, the, f, m, is, now, definitely, benefiting, a, lot, have, said, how, helpful, it, was, and, feel, a, lot, closer, the, family, not, business, relationship, is, good, wednesday, i, had, a, day, off, today, which, was, good, i, managed, to, catch, up, on, a, few, things, which, i, just, hadn't, had, time, to, do, with, being, so, busy, i, got, a, lot, organised, for, the, holiday, at, the, week, end, which, we, are, all, looking, forward, to, but, we, can't, all, get, away, together, mainly, due, to, no, new, vet, and, our, financial, year, but, at, least, we, will, all, get, a, bit, of, a, break, daughter, got, her, report, today, and, has, done, very, well, we, are, so, proud, of, her, so, fingers, crossed, for, her, gcses, thursday, i, spoke, to, mrs, w, today, who, has, been, very, much, in, action, since, they, got, f, m, and, even, got, in, touch, with, politician, etc, to, help, give, farmers, that, voice, she, mentioned, the, public, inquiry, and, like, a, lot, of, people, feels, that, maybe, rather, than, having, a, finger, pointing, blaming, session, and, we, all, have, our, ideas, on, that, she, felt, that, maybe, trying, to, prevent, it, happening, again, would, be, a, better, idea, i, personally, have, begun, to, realize, recently, just, how, much, and, how, deep, the, feelings, run, i, think, i, am, more, emotional, now, than, when, we, were, in, the, thick, of, it, friday, spent, all, day, knuckling, down, to, the, end, of, year, but, got, a, lot, done, husband, daughter, and, vet, student, went, out, for, the, day, it, is, husband, s, first, real, day, off, since, october, and, it, did, him, good, we, all, went, out, in, the, evening, to, celebrate, a, friend's, birthday, it, was, really, good, saturday, holiday, again, today, husband, daughter, my, sister, and, her, daughter, have, gone, away, today, to, the, cottage, near, newton, stewart, we, have, rented, for, a, week, the, weather, is, great, so, they, should, have, a, lovely, time, this, could, be, our, only, holiday, this, year, husband, s, back, on, monday, then, i, go, on, wednesday, confusing, isn't, it, never, mind, at, least, we, will, all, get, away, for, a, few, days, sunday, end, of, year, day, stocktaking, counting, sunny, outside, boring, but, never, mind, it's, done, our, vet, student, went, home, today, she, had, really, enjoyed, herself, and, we, had, enjoyed, having, her, she, bought, us, all, some, lovely, gifts, it, will, be, nice, to, be, on, our, own, again, but, i, will, still, miss, her, week, beginning, monday, 1st, april, 02, monday, 1st, april, i, had, a, lovely, day, my, day, husband, and, daughter, still, away, played, in, the, garden, went, for, a, walk, read, some, of, my, book, lovely, husband, came, back, at, tea, time, so, we, went, out, for, a, meal, perfect, tuesday, went, to, help, another, vet, vet, tt, test, at, one, of, our, farms, he, had, restocked, and, was, very, positive, about, the, future, it, was, a, lovely, day, and, great, to, be, amongst, cows, again, wednesday, sunday, hols, great, i, didn't, realise, just, how, much, i, needed, it, the, weather, was, great, warm, sunny, very, relaxing, all, charged, up, again, week, beginning, monday, 8th, april, 02, monday, 8th, april, back, to, work, today, i, had, quite, a, lot, of, catching, up, to, do, and, couldn't, really, get, into, it, never, mind, it, will, all, still, be, there, tomorrow, hope, we, can, get, away, again, this, year, even, for, a, few, days, tuesday, queen, mum's, funeral, today, it, was, very, quiet, we, gave, the, girls, time, off, to, watch, the, funeral, it, was, a, nice, funeral, if, you, can, have, one, and, they, commented, on, the, poem, which, was, read, about, being, thankful, for, the, life, and, not, being, sorry, i, must, get, it, our, nurse, suggested, about, giving, it, to, clients, when, they, have, their, pets, put, to, sleep, nice, idea, wednesday, back, into, it, now, i, had, 2, very, difficult, soa, to, complete, farmers, are, slowly, getting, the, idea, but, find, all, the, paperwork, hard, but, it's, a, good, chance, for, them, to, call, in, for, a, chat, and, coffee, i, so, seem, to, spend, an, awful, lot, of, time, doing, that, now, but, it's, always, good, to, see, how, they, are, coping, thursday, the, large, animal, work, has, been, rapidly, increasing, and, it, has, been, putting, extra, pressure, on, all, the, staff, we, do, really, need, another, vet, but, another, advert, and, still, no, response, at, all, but, they, all, work, very, hard, and, we, do, manage, to, get, through, the, work, we, chatted, to, the, staff, and, tried, to, reassure, them, about, the, future, but, how, can, you, when, if, we, can't, get, another, vet, we, simply, can't, provide, the, service, our, clients, need, it, is, very, worrying, and, we, are, not, sure, of, the, solution, or, the, future, i, think, after, that, paragraph, i, need, a, we, can, do, it, kick, friday, our, new, receptionists, are, settling, in, well, and, i, did, some, work, with, them, today, which, was, good, they, are, both, very, enthusiastic, a, few, years, ago, a, i, taught, nvq, in, animal, care, so, one, of, our, receptionists, is, keen, to, do, this, so, i, organised, some, work, for, her, to, do, enjoyed, that, castrated, a, colt, in, the, afternoon, sad, i, know, but, i, enjoyed, that, saturday, went, shopping, with, daughter, in, the, morning, to, buy, her, some, new, clothes, we, had, a, good, time, then, started, the, sewing, for, the, yfc, field, day, we, had, to, make, shorts, and, t, shirt, for, a, sport, event, well, i, haven't, really, done, sewing, from, a, pattern, for, years, so, let's, just, say, it, was, fun, sunday, went, to, newcastle, for, the, day, via, some, fields, we, had, to, check, for, a, client's, soa, had, a, lovely, time, and, saw, the, blinking, or, winking, i'm, not, sure, which, one, it, is, it, was, nice, to, have, a, day, all, together, week, beginning, monday, 15th, april, 02, monday, 15th, april, very, busy, again, i, did, 175, miles, today, just, dropping, things, off, for, farmers, and, vets, and, trips, to, the, lab, i, also, found, a, new, supplier, of, paper, towels, which, will, save, us, a, lot, of, money, see, so, easy, pleased, it, was, very, tiring, but, i, do, like, being, out, and, about, and, i, even, managed, two, cups, of, coffee, on, farms, before, fmd, i, felt, that, the, relationship, between, vets, and, farmers, was, changing, but, our, relationship, during, fmd, did, change, for, the, better, i, feel, good, about, that, but, not, the, way, it, happened, me, and, daughter, had, a, girls, night, in, as, husband, was, away, that, was, fun, tuesday, 16th, april, husband, away, at, bcva, he, is, new, on, the, committee, and, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, there, is, only, him, and, another, vet, in, scotland, from, the, north, invited, onto, the, committee, so, they, are, putting, together, some, suggestions, to, put, to, the, government, re, fmd, poor, another, vet, was, very, busy, again, we, need, a, vet, wednesday, 17th, april, i, went, to, see, an, elderly, client, of, ours, this, morning, who, has, an, old, dog, she, is, going, into, hospital, and, won't, go, as, she, is, worried, about, the, dog, i, offered, to, have, kelly, the, dog, while, she, was, in, hospital, and, told, her, if, i, found, out, she, cancelled, it, i, would, be, cross, i, enjoy, talking, to, her, for, her, 87, years, she, is, very, fit, and, funny, at, lunchtime, we, all, attacked, the, bayer, rep, for, free, goodies, for, our, open, day, he, was, very, co, operative, and, got, away, without, a, scratch, we, didn't, have, an, open, day, last, year, so, it, should, be, fun, back, into, a, routine, thursday, 18th, april, i, bottomed, my, paperwork, this, morning, no, interference, no, phone, calls, no, soa, very, productive, me, and, husband, went, to, see, the, finical, advisor, at, the, bank, in, the, afternoon, it, was, good, but, we, can't, retire, this, year, never, mind, he, gave, us, some, good, ideas, so, fingers, crossed, we, might, just, be, able, to, retire, one, day, friday, 19th, april, very, busy, we, need, a, vet, repetitive, isn't, it, we, were, looking, back, in, the, visit, book, to, this, time, last, year, this, year, we, had, 21, calls, which, is, a, practise, record, last, year, we, had, 1, there, is, a, lot, of, general, well, this, time, last, year, in, some, ways, it, all, seems, very, unbelievable, but, in, other, ways, it, still, very, sad, and, emotional, i, think, more, emotional, now, than, when, it, was, actually, happening, when, you, see, farmer’s, eyes, filling, up, talking, about, it, i, used, to, worry, about, upsetting, them, but, i, feel, it, is, good, to, talk, and, it, also, helps, me, i, don't, know, if, that’s, right, but, it, seems, to, work, saturday, 20th, and, sunday, 21st, april, huge, sewing, for, yfc, field, day, i, also, found, out, today, that, there, is, also, baking, and, flower, arranging, oh, joy, week, beginning, monday, 22nd, april, 02, monday, 22nd, april, good, day, today, i've, been, to, see, my, new, girls, the, cows, over, the, road, from, us, it, was, the, one, we, could, see, from, the, practice, it, was, an, awful, day, they, had, lasted, until, june, anyway, it, was, good, to, see, the, new, girls, and, i, think, i, amused, the, farmer, we, had, a, great, time, i've, never, enjoyed, helping, tt, test, more, on, a, high, tuesday, 23rd, april, driving, around, today, i've, been, trying, to, listen, to, what, the, euro, inquiry, people, have, been, up, to, not, a, lot, from, what, i, hear, i, was, talking, to, an, old, farmer, in, the, afternoon, and, he, wasn't, impressed, either, and, we, agreed, that, it, was, all, very, well, having, these, inquires, but, were, they, going, to, help, i, suppose, only, time, will, tell, but, i, still, feel, that, unless, something, is, done, about, the, cause, then, the, chances, are, it, will, happen, again, and, to, what, extent, and, what, has, been, learnt, and, what, will, be, different, next, time, because, the, one, thing, that, must, be, prevented, is, the, effects, on, people, nobody, really, got, that, i, always, remember, the, samaritans, advert, nobody, seemed, to, care, probably, no, paperwork, can, you, tell, i've, had, a, particularly, bad, day, with, the, soa, and, the, good, news, is, they, want, to, keep, them, permanently, great, wednesday, 24th, april, i, went, to, see, mrs, b, again, today, and, she, had, heard, from, the, hospital, again, she, was, going, in, next, tuesday, so, i, arranged, at, collect, k, on, monday, afternoon, i'm, pleased, she's, having, her, op, i, have, also, been, in, touch, with, one, of, her, daughters, in, devon, so, hopefully, everything, should, go, well, now, good, news, we, have, heard, of, a, vet, at, defra, who, is, looking, for, a, job, husband, phoned, her, and, she, is, coming, on, saturday, afternoon, so, fingers, crossed, thursday, 25th, april, my, cows, got, the, tt, reading, this, morning, and, they, are, all, okay, we, have, heard, of, a, farm, in, welton, who, had, to, have, some, killed, as, they, had, 7, reactors, and, they, will, need, tested, there, has, been, quite, a, few, reactors, in, the, country, after, restocking, but, with, all, the, new, stock, coming, into, the, county, from, all, over, the, country, it, was, bound, to, happen, friday, 26th, april, sorted, out, the, open, day, next, saturday, got, everything, sorted, what, we, need, who's, getting, it, etc, me, and, receptionist, went, to, smuts, fancy, dress, and, decided, budget, wouldn't, go, to, costumes, so, we, got, some, face, paint, and, masks, me, and, daughter, and, her, friend, and, mum, went, to, see, westlife, ant, newcastle, it, was, great, fun, saturday, 27th, april, shopping, washing, and, sewing, i, know, how, to, show, myself, a, good, time, we, all, went, to, another, vet, s, at, night, for, a, bbq, it, was, great, fun, cold, but, fun, we, have, been, so, lucky, with, another, vet, she, is, so, nice, and, enthusiastic, we, interviewed, a, vet, today, from, defra, but, she, is, a, little, uncertain, what, she, wants, to, do, but, she, seems, nice, and, we, told, her, what, we, needed, so, fingers, crossed, sunday, 28th, april, finished, my, sewing, week, beginning, monday, 29th, april, monday, the, inquiry, begins, for, what, good, it, will, do, i, find, i, have, very, mixed, feelings, part, of, me, thinks, what's, the, point, and, another, is, expecting, something, but, quite, what, i, don't, yet, someone, to, blame, a, solution, an, ability, to, turn, back, the, clock, a, lesson, to, learn, or, an, end, the, last, i, know, won't, happen, for, a, while, and, the, repercussion, will, probably, be, felt, for, a, few, years, yet, tuesday, 30th, april, sorry, ill, in, bed, today, with, the, cold, from, hell, wednesday, 1st, may, much, better, today, and, we, heard, from, the, vet, we, interviewed, on, saturday, and, she, has, accepted, our, offer, and, can, start, on, the, 27th, may, yippee, holidays, and, easing, of, the, pressure, on, husband, and, another, vet, i, am, still, finding, the, saying, well, this, time, last, year, mrs, r, phoned, and, mentioned, the, saying, as, it, was, a, year, ago, today, that, their, cattle, were, killed, but, she, was, phoning, with, good, news, they, had, their, first, calf, born, healthy, and, well, and, she, wanted, to, tell, us, lovely, thursday, 2nd, may, its, official, soa, are, here, to, stay, oh, joy, so, we, contacted, all, our, farmers, who, had, not, yet, got, one, who, we, thought, might, need, one, so, lots, of, chatting, and, catching, up, so, quite, nice, open, day, is, on, saturday, and, there, still, seems, to, be, an, awful, lot, to, organise, but, we, have, been, busy, all, day, and, things, are, looking, better, and, slightly, more, organised, i, haven't, seen, or, heard, much, of, this, enquiry, but, when, you, do, hear, some, i, think, we, really, went, through, that, weird, friday, 3rd, may, open, day, panic, that’s, all, i've, done, today, but, it, is, all, coming, together, and, it, will, be, fine, hopefully, we, have, had, quite, a, good, response, about, people, coming, and, people, checking, when, it, is, and, what's, happening, so, fingers, crossed, must, go, and, bake, my, buns, saturday, 4th, may, open, day, it, went, really, well, we, started, at, 2, p.m, and, there, was, a, steady, stream, of, people, all, enjoying, themselves, hopefully, it, stayed, fine, the, whole, time, thankfully, i, even, got, my, face, painted, by, another, vet, our, vet, we, managed, to, raise, 96.71, for, the, pat, dogs, and, 27.35, for, national, pet, week, not, too, bad, for, 2, hours, the, staff, came, round, for, tea, later, which, was, nice, and, we, had, a, jolly, time, sunday, 5th, may, gardened, all, day, till, i, dropped, loved, it, i, grew, quite, fond, of, the, garden, last, year, as, it, was, another, little, escape, week, beginning, monday, 6th, may, monday, 6th, may, bank, holiday, we, had, a, lovely, family, day, out, which, have, been, very, rare, so, it, was, surprising, that, we, all, got, on, nearly, it, still, feels, strange, being, able, to, go, to, places, not, only, as, a, family, but, also, the, fact, that, for, so, long, we, didn't, really, go, anywhere, tuesday, 7th, may, very, busy, i, have, been, doing, my, hollering, as, receptionist, calls, it, what, i, have, actually, been, doing, is, dropping, off, drugs, and, chatting, i, call, it, customer, relations, i, still, feel, funny, going, onto, farms, i, have, been, to, the, gate, for, months, just, momentarily, i, feel, can, i, its, hard, to, explain, it, still, feels, normal, to, drop, things, in, the, bucket, or, bin, rather, than, driving, onto, the, farm, but, its, good, and, the, coffee, with, proper, milk, is, brill, wednesday, 8th, may, mr, g, has, got, some, cows, he, was, one, we, thought, wouldn't, restock, as, although, both, his, sons, are, on, the, farm, neither, are, interested, in, cows, one, has, horses, and, the, other, has, everything, else, from, turkeys, dogs, wallabies, monkeys, pheasants, etc, a, real, menagerie, daddy, g, is, 66, and, couldn't, decide, weather, to, get, more, cows, or, not, it, was, a, bit, of, dad, says, yes, sons, say, no, anyway, dad, won, to, begin, with, i, was, on, the, sons, side, but, when, he, came, in, beaming, and, laughing, and, full, of, joy, how, could, you, disagree, with, him, before, they, got, fmd, he, had, called, into, the, practise, and, was, having, a, coffee, and, was, very, upset, his, friend, had, phoned, him, that, morning, to, say, he, had, fmd, mr, g, just, broke, down, and, sobbed, it, was, one, of, my, worst, experiences, i, found, it, so, hard, not, to, join, him, but, to, be, strong, and, console, him, for, him, of, the, old, gentlemen, showed, the, depth, of, feeling, and, despair, that, was, around, i, have, a, lump, now, remembering, it, anyway, in, comparison, if, getting, a, few, cows, to, milk, can, make, such, a, big, difference, and, be, so, happy, so, what, thursday, 9th, may, went, to, a, meeting, in, preston, with, cl, a, vet, from, brampton, on, the, marsh, report, which, is, regarding, vets, the, privilege, to, dispense, drugs, anyway, firstly, we, got, lost, very, lost, and, then, on, arriving, at, the, meeting, eventually, it, was, all, doom, gloom, and, depressing, just, when, you, thought, things, were, getting, on, tract, bam, more, changes, more, paperwork, we, will, have, to, wait, and, see, just, how, it, effects, us, but, effect, us, it, will, friday, 10th, may, i, had, a, half, day, off, today, and, did, fun, things, like, washing, shopping, and, sorting, bits, and, pieces, but, i, couldn't, be, a, housewife, all, the, time, i, ended, up, leaving, the, cooking, and, washing, and, took, the, dog, out, instead, much, more, fun, saturday, 11th, may, took, daughter, out, to, the, young, farmers, field, day, it, was, brill, i, was, only, going, to, stay, an, hour, anyway, i, stayed, all, day, everyone, was, there, some, i, hadn't, seen, for, ages, i, had, only, spoke, to, them, and, some, new, faces, it, was, great, to, see, them, all, together, i, do, feel, farmers, and, their, families, are, very, special, people, they, have, a, wonderful, sense, of, fun, they, are, very, solid, they, are, very, close, mind, when, you, talk, to, them, you, find, they, are, all, related, they, are, also, very, proud, of, what, they, do, its, sad, the, public, do, not, see, them, this, way, gone, are, the, days, when, the, farmer, was, the, hero, who, worked, all, hours, to, feed, the, nation, well, it, was, a, wonderful, day, week, beginning, monday, 13th, may, monday, very, busy, milk, recorded, this, afternoon, it, was, good, fun, they, are, preparing, for, their, party, on, saturday, night, it, is, a, fancy, dress, party, me, and, husband, are, going, but, i, can't, say, what, as, yet, j, mentioned, that, a, friend, of, theirs, was, still, not, speaking, to, them, because, j, never, lost, his, cows, and, yet, j, said, he, had, tries, to, explain, how, hard, it, was, for, them, waiting, his, friend, had, accepted, the, invite, to, the, party, so, here’s, hopefully, to, friendship, it, show's, how, feelings, can, so, easily, run, away, and, be, blown, into, something, very, silly, we, are, all, on, the, same, side, after, all, i, see, a, lot, of, changes, in, a, lot, of, people, either, bitterness, resentment, jealousy, and, emotionally, drained, in, the, whole, situation, tuesday, 14th, may, early, morning, milk, recording, got, my, outfit, sorted, for, the, fancy, dress, party, on, saturday, me, and, friend, went, to, try, it, on, it, was, good, fun, wednesday, 15th, may, i, have, done, tons, of, backwards, and, forwarding, today, so, i've, been, hearing, about, the, inquiry, a, bit, today, i, have, decided, i, am, going, to, the, one, in, carlisle, out, of, interest, and, curiosity, i, still, feel, what, is, it, all, for, so, i, may, find, out, at, the, meeting, i, am, still, waiting, for, the, day, fmd, is, not, mentioned, or, i, have, some, dealing, regarding, it, thursday, 16th, may, i, spoke, to, a, young, couple, who, farm, and, they, were, enquiring, about, the, changes, in, buying, drugs, it, caught, me, off, guard, as, we, knew, it, would, happen, but, not, when, i, arranged, to, meet, with, them, and, chat, to, see, what, they, wanted, and, i, think, i, will, go, from, there, people, are, farming, in, different, ways, than, they, used, to, pre, fmd, weather, it, is, a, result, of, fmd, or, not, i, don't, know, but, there, are, going, to, be, a, lot, of, changes, heading, our, way, friday, 17th, may, accountant, day, today, what, a, joy, no, he, is, brilliant, he, has, helped, so, much, over, the, years, and, last, year, he, was, brilliant, he, did, have, one, consolation, we, wouldn't, have, to, pay, too, much, tax, this, year, anyway, spoke, to, a, rep, in, the, afternoon, we, have, had, all, the, usual, offers, that, we, get, every, year, but, this, year, they, look, good, as, if, we, buy, more, this, year, than, last, year, we, can, get, more, off, that, should, be, easy, saturday, 18th, may, party, night, i, am, cruella, deville, and, husband, is, bob, the, builder, it, was, great, seeing, people, we, hadn't, seen, for, ages, if, and, when, you, could, recognise, them, it, was, a, really, good, do, we, met, a, client, of, ours, and, she, is, very, anti, everything, re, fmd, i, feel, she, is, really, suffering, and, very, bitter, she, was, little, bo, peep, who, had, lost, her, sheep, and, didn't, know, where, to, find, them, but, mr, blair, can, she, preached, all, night, to, anyone, she, could, i, feel, sorry, for, her, as, people, were, avoiding, her, sad, sunday, 19th, may, recovered, week, beginning, monday, 20th, may, 02, monday, a, new, cattle, fertility, programme, has, now, become, available, to, vets, and, farmers, two, of, the, people, who, work, came, along, to, see, us, and, discuss, the, advantages, we, already, had, a, few, farmers, keen, in, having, the, program, installed, we, discussed, the, program, later, with, a, few, farmers, and, they, were, very, keen, recognising, that, they, are, going, to, need, a, program, like, this, that, can, help, them, keep, a, tighter, control, on, their, herds, fertility, and, health, which, would, enable, them, to, remain, in, business, as, most, of, them, are, realising, they, are, now, running, a, company, not, a, family, concern, so, it’s, quite, exciting, another, step, forward, hopefully, tuesday, 21st, may, very, busy, today, everyone, stretched, it, will, make, life, so, much, easier, when, our, new, vet, anne, starts, next, week, i, got, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, and, also, managed, to, catch, up, on, some, others, bits, that, needed, done, even, got, all, the, soa, defra, paperwork, sorted, miracle, wednesday, 22nd, may, went, to, see, two, of, our, farmers, today, to, discuss, the, interherd, cattle, health, and, fertility, computer, program, it, was, good, to, chat, a, listen, to, their, plans, hopes, and, dreams, and, their, concerns, a, lot, of, farmers, are, still, very, unsure, of, the, future, and, quite, honestly, are, keeping, their, options, open, definitely, gave, me, some, pause, for, thought, and, a, few, concerns, thursday, 23rd, may, quiet, day, today, mr, w, one, of, our, farmers, came, today, and, we, had, a, chat, he, was, also, worried, about, the, future, i, hope, some, good, positive, news, comes, soon, friday, 24th, may, friend, is, having, a, few, weeks, off, as, our, new, vet, is, starting, on, monday, she, came, to, us, 6, months, 10, years, ago, and, she, has, helped, us, out, ever, since, and, so, during, fmd, she, offered, to, help, it, was, great, to, have, her, and, she, worked, all, hours, as, there, was, only, her, and, husband, for, 5, months, so, she, is, having, some, well, deserved, time, off, and, will, come, back, part, time, when, we, need, her, i'll, miss, her, but, she, says, she's, a, lot, of, housework, to, catch, up, on, saturday, 25th, and, sunday, 26th, may, my, sister, and, niece, came, to, stay, for, the, weekend, we, had, a, nice, time, just, pottering, here, and, there, week, beginning, monday, 27h, may, monday, new, vet, started, she, was, very, nervous, but, very, keen, she, had, spent, 10, months, working, for, defra, and, was, relieved, to, be, finished, with, it, she, had, mainly, been, involved, with, re, stocking, anyway, she, managed, very, well, and, hopefully, will, settle, well, tuesday, 28th, may, we, booked, a, holiday, today, our, 1st, holiday, for, about, 2.5, years, so, we, are, all, very, excited, we, are, going, on, a, barge, near, chester, so, hopefully, the, weather, will, be, good, it, will, be, nice, to, go, away, together, especially, after, last, year, i, think, we, all, need, it, you, do, get, used, to, staying, at, home, but, with, all, the, trouble, and, upset, last, year, it, will, be, nice, can't, wait, wednesday, 29th, may, had, a, lovely, day, ended, up, doing, lots, of, visiting, around, the, farms, dropping, drugs, off, and, seeing, another, farm, regarding, the, interherd, program, i, went, to, a, large, dairy, farm, and, they, are, a, young, couple, who, are, keen, and, enthusiastic, about, their, future, so, it, was, very, positive, and, encouraging, it, does, give, you, a, lift, and, helps, put, things, back, on, track, thursday, 30th, may, we, had, a, farmers, coffee, morning, not, planned, they, appeared, at, once, so, it, was, quite, nice, its, quite, interesting, when, you, hear, them, together, there, were, two, elderly, and, one, younger, one, and, their, opinions, hopes, thoughts, and, experiences, were, very, different, friday, 31st, may, another, mega, paperwork, day, exciting, played, in, the, garden, this, afternoon, and, walked, the, dog, saturday, 1st, and, sunday, 2nd, june, had, a, weekend, off, together, we, went, visiting, and, walking, very, nice, week, beginning, 3rd, june, monday, my, sister, and, her, daughter, came, to, visit, we, went, into, carlisle, but, nothing, very, exciting, the, weather, was, very, disappointing, for, all, the, organised, events, we, went, to, a, couple, and, got, wet, daughter, and, niece, got, some, jubilee, mugs, at, one, of, them, wednesday, i, ended, up, helping, our, new, vet, and, new, nurse, to, operate, so, that, was, good, i, don’t, get, much, chance, to, help, in, the, op, room, these, days, so, i, enjoyed, it, thoroughly, new, vet, is, doing, very, well, she’s, only, been, qualified, 3, years, and, up, to, now, has, not, done, much, small, animal, so, i, was, worried, she, would, not, like, it, but, she, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, thoroughly, and, has, settled, in, really, well, it, seems, like, she, has, been, here, for, ages, thursday, we, had, our, first, work, experience, from, a, school, for, 2, years, she, was, very, interested, in, the, fmd, and, said, they, had, done, a, bit, on, it, at, school, so, i, went, through, a, few, of, the, details, and, we, discussed, the, human, side, which, she, hadn’t, really, been, discussed, at, school, to, finish, i, had, 4, soa, to, do, as, well, such, joy, friday, i, foolishly, decided, to, decorate, the, surgery, and, op, room, you, know, when, you, think, you, have, a, good, idea, then, realise, you, have, bitten, off, more, than, you, can, chew, well, by, sunday, night, i, was, dead, i, got, it, all, done, and, it, did, look, better, as, nothing, had, been, done, last, year, but, boy, was, i, tired, week, beginning, 10th, june, monday, our, new, interherd, disc, arrived, so, i, went, and, installed, it, on, two, farms, they, were, very, keen, to, get, started, so, it's, quite, exciting, they, both, have, young, sons, who, are, keen, to, farm, also, so, that, helps, sometimes, i, fee, if, we, can, just, get, through, this, and, then, other, times, i, feel, what's, the, point, but, down, the, middle, of, the, road, we, have, to, try, and, make, it, work, and, fight, to, make, it, work, tuesday, 11th, june, quite, busy, today, but, daughter, had, her, brace, taken, off, today, so, we, had, two, visits, to, the, hospital, she, looks, different, without, her, brace, now, wednesday, 12th, june, had, a, day, off, today, peaceful, thursday, 13th, june, nmr, came, to, see, us, to, discuss, how, they, can, work, with, us, the, interherd, and, the, farmer, it, was, interesting, and, competitively, priced, so, that, is, now, another, service, we, can, offer, to, our, farmers, which, can, only, help, long, term, i, went, to, see, another, farmer, to, enter, the, interherd, there, is, a, lot, of, interest, we, are, trying, to, maintain, a, close, contact, with, our, farmers, to, enable, us, to, meet, their, needs, as, things, progress, in, the, near, future, there, are, going, to, be, a, lot, of, changes, regarding, the, dispensing, of, drugs, which, could, alter, the, way, we, work, this, should, be, finalised, by, january, 2003, but, until, then, we, are, not, sure, just, how, they, will, affect, us, friday, 14th, saturday, 15th, and, sunday, 16th, june, husband, birthday, so, i, have, organised, a, surprise, weekend, away, for, him, we, had, a, wonderful, time, and, thankfully, the, weather, was, good, week, beginning, 17th, june, monday, very, quiet, almost, like, last, year, but, thankfully, not, for, the, same, reason, they, are, all, busy, silaging, normality, is, returning, but, they, are, still, finding, it, difficult, with, new, herds, not, really, knowing, their, new, cows, yet, or, how, they, react, one, farmer, said, it, was, like, a, new, car, you, have, to, drive, it, a, good, few, miles, before, you, are, at, ease, and, the, seat, is, comfy, well, that’s, one, way, of, putting, it, tuesday, i, went, to, see, mr, j, to, discuss, our, new, interherd, program, a, computer, program, that, they, can, keep, records, of, all, their, herds, records, and, we, can, do, analysis, on, them, it’s, quite, exciting, and, interesting, and, shows, farming, is, heading, to, the, computer, age, and, the, farmers, are, learning, another, new, skill, not, sure, they, are, all, comfy, with, after, i, had, shown, mr, j, the, program, and, how, to, use, it, he, was, keen, but, said, that, for, now, he, would, maybe, go, and, cut, down, a, few, thistles, weds, thursday, very, quiet, did, some, catching, up, on, paperwork, then, went, for, a, walk, and, played, outside, in, the, garden, friday, query, fmd, in, pigs, the, effect, it, had, was, very, strange, part, was, horror, worry, and, another, strange, one, was, of, expecting, it, although, you, did, get, on, with, everything, and, it’s, all, sorting, out, and, normality, is, returning, it’s, as, if, you, are, waiting, for, it, to, appear, again, i, went, back, to, watching, the, news, listening, to, the, radio, waiting, fingers, crossed, sad, day, sat, sun, quiet, weekend, husband, was, working, no, results, on, the, pigs, yet, the, bush, telegraph, is, working, again, we, have, had, quite, a, number, of, worried, farmers, on, the, phone, but, no, results, as, yet, week, beginning, 24th, june, monday, breakthrough, no, fmd, talk, at, all, today, i, suddenly, realised, in, the, evening, all, is, getting, back, to, normal, and, everyone, is, coming, to, terms, with, the, paperwork, farming, does, what, it, always, has, recently, fallen, from, one, disaster, to, another, but, they, are, very, proud, of, their, trade, but, do, now, feel, let, down, by, both, the, government, and, the, public, who, for, whatever, reason, don’t, seem, to, have, the, same, respect, for, farmers, as, they, used, to, but, this, just, may, be, due, to, how, we, all, are, and, work, these, days, tuesday, pigs, given, the, all, clear, everyone, breathes, a, sigh, of, relief, it, has, a, very, chilling, effect, but, again, shows, we, are, still, clear, of, the, disease, for, now, weds, over, the, last, few, days, we, have, had, 6, dairy, herds, with, very, strange, mastitis, husband, has, been, out, to, visit, them, with, a, vet, from, vla, penrith, but, they, as, yet, have, not, established, a, cause, samples, show, nothing, and, usual, treatments, don’t, work, so, it, is, a, case, of, new, herds, new, problems, thursday, day, off, and, friday, sat, sun, had, my, niece, we, had, a, lovely, time, but, very, exhausting, week, beginning, 1st, july, monday, we, have, invested, the, new, interherd, computer, programme, mon, thurs, this, week, i, have, been, out, and, about, visiting, farmers, loading, and, explaining, the, new, programme, some, of, which, i, haven't, been, too, far, over, a, year, it's, good, to, see, them, and, chat, fmd, of, course, is, always, still, at, the, top, of, the, list, followed, by, the, milk, price, and, all, the, regulations, it's, so, amazing, and, sorrowful, to, see, how, deep, the, emotions, run, the, stories, and, feelings, they, have, are, still, very, strong, but, all, are, very, emotional, they, are, very, resilient, but, do, still, have, these, deep, feelings, you, wonder, how, the, effects, will, come, out, but, it, will, take, time, friday, i, did, a, soa, for, the, first, time, in, ages, i, had, to, look, back, as, to, how, to, fill, it, in, they, are, going, to, review, these, shortly, so, watch, this, space, all, the, regulations, are, up, for, review, in, about, november, so, we, will, see, what, they, come, up, with, sunday, we, have, a, vet, student, alison, for, two, weeks, staying, with, us, she, came, to, northumberland, during, fmd, so, was, interested, to, know, what, had, happened, and, where, everything, was, at, the, more, you, go, through, it, the, easier, it, becomes, she, had, been, involved, in, the, culling, and, had, found, it, very, hard, she, did, it, for, 1, month, and, was, glad, to, leave, week, beginning, 8th, july, monday, tuesday, i, went, milk, recording, the, farm, i, go, to, did, not, get, fmd, and, they, were, saying, how, hard, it, had, been, for, them, and, to, some, extent, they, did, have, as, hard, a, time, as, people, with, fmd, just, in, different, ways, they, had, to, do, the, checking, for, longer, the, farmer, said, he, used, to, dread, going, into, the, sheds, in, a, morning, as, he, dreaded, what, he, might, find, also, washing, the, milk, takers, not, being, able, to, visit, friends, and, family, all, the, regulations, re, moving, stock, just, the, not, knowing, they, said, it, put, quite, a, strain, on, them, all, one, of, the, ways, they, coped, was, they, built, a, tennis, court, and, played, a, lot, of, other, games, and, as, a, family, this, brought, them, closer, weds, interherd, day, we, held, a, meeting, today, to, invite, all, the, farmers, interested, in, using, the, programme, the, people, who, wrote, the, programme, came, along, to, talk, to, the, farmers, it, was, very, good, and, the, farmers, seemed, to, enjoy, themselves, they, have, all, found, they, are, needing, this, sort, of, programme, as, with, the, new, herds, they, are, unsure, of, how, their, fertilities, are, thurs, fri, visited, mr, w, and, mr, j, re, interherd, got, a, proper, cup, of, coffee, and, proper, milk, that's, what, i, missed, about, last, year, and, one, of, the, reasons, i, go, to, visit, them, sat, sun, very, busy, small, animal, operated, and, nursed, all, week, end, i, was, shattered, poor, me, week, beginning, 15th, july, monday, visited, farmer, re, interherd, programme, they, are, very, positive, about, the, future, and, have, a, son, who, is, very, keen, i, can, see, a, difference, in, their, attitude, over, the, past, few, months, when, i, first, started, going, they, were, unsure, they, had, done, the, right, thing, and, had, seriously, debated, getting, any, stock, back, if, they, could, cope, with, the, changes, and, the, regulations, and, paperwork, but, as, he, said, he, just, loves, farming, not, that, he, doesn't, know, anything, else, he, just, loves, farming, and, now, they, have, progressed, and, working, together, within, the, family, they, have, a, good, system, and, appear, to, be, enjoying, themselves, the, farm, has, been, in, the, family, for, generations, so, financially, they, can, manage, i, hope, they, make, it, they, are, lovely, people, and, a, real, inspiration, the, report, on, fmd, and, the, recommendations, is, to, be, published, soon, but, from, what, we, have, heard, so, far, it, doesn't, say, anything, we, didn't, already, know, and, the, recommendations, are, a, little, sketchy, to, say, the, least, they, need, a, good, sensible, positive, protocol, for, any, future, outbreak, and, at, present, if, it, all, flared, up, again, tomorrow, it, would, be, the, same, mess, what, have, we, learnt, hopefully, time, will, tell, tuesday, sad, news, today, one, of, our, clients, who, didn't, get, fmd, has, decided, to, give, up, he, is, on, a, tenanted, farm, the, owners, are, not, keen, on, any, expansion, or, even, repairing, old, buildings, to, remain, competitive, he, sees, he, needs, more, cows, but, can't, build, any, more, sheds, so, in, his, words, he, has, decided, that, there, is, maybe, more, to, life, he, is, in, his, mid, forties, so, he, is, going, to, sell, up, and, try, something, new, very, brave, but, sad, i, think, this, will, not, be, the, first, of, our, clients, to, do, this, everyone, asks, about, the, future, and, at, the, moment, nothing, and, nobody, is, certain, can, the, smaller, farmers, keep, up, will, the, bigger, ones, get, bigger, what, new, regulations, and, paperwork, will, be, brought, in, only, time, will, tell, weds, husband, has, been, away, at, the, br, cattle, vet, ass, bcva, committee, meeting, he, has, been, on, the, committee, for, about, 18, months, now, he, enjoys, it, and, it, is, another, feather, in, his, cap, anyway, he, gave, a, talk, on, the, problems, post, fmd, and, on, the, problems, farmers, were, and, had, experienced, he, also, gave, a, talk, on, some, of, the, mastitis, cases, that, had, appeared, in, new, herds, we, have, had, some, very, strange, mastitis, cases, this, year, anyway, there, was, a, competition, for, the, best, talk, and, husband, won, i, was, very, proud, of, him, none, of, the, other, vets, there, had, ever, seen, anything, like, it, but, some, had, found, more, bad, mastitis, in, cows, this, year, so, whether, it’s, the, change, of, area, weather, or, housing, we, shall, see, thursday, i, had, a, visiting, day, today, good, fun, i, went, t, see, the, farmers, who, have, the, interherd, so, i, had, lots, of, coffee, with, proper, milk, yummy, it's, also, interesting, to, hear, all, the, different, stories, and, feelings, hopes, and, worries, there, are, so, many, most, are, ready, for, the, challenge, ahead, but, unfortunately, some, aren't, nobody, knows, how, or, when, things, will, change, but, over, the, next, couple, of, years, they, will, some, good, some, not, so, good, byee, i'm, off, on, my, hols, now, yippee, holiday, week, beginning, 22nd, july, week, beginning, monday, 29th, july, tuesday, back, to, work, the, staff, have, coped, really, well, no, falling, out, no, problems, it's, the, first, time, in, nearly, two, years, we, have, left, them, so, it, was, a, bit, worrying, but, they, are, a, great, bunch, we, are, very, lucky, i, feel, so, relaxed, and, it, was, great, fun, seeing, through, all, my, paperwork, not, i, had, a, bit, of, a, lazy, day, but, good, weds, poor, mr, g, is, having, a, terrible, time, with, defra, when, we, did, his, restocking, tt, test, he, had, a, reactor, so, the, cow, was, slaughtered, but, no, lesions, were, found, the, herd, had, to, be, tested, again, 60, days, later, and, another, reactor, was, found, and, slaughtered, anyway, he, was, due, another, test, in, 60, days, and, this, was, arranged, for, 9.00am, 9.00am, came, and, went, and, at, 10.00am, he, phoned, to, see, what, was, happening, they, had, forgotten, they, could, come, out, at, 1pm, no, good, the, last, two, times, they, had, tested, it, had, taken, 6, hours, to, test, the, cows, and, they, still, needed, milked, which, would, mean, a, very, late, finish, mr, graves, explained, this, and, was, told, not, to, complain, he, had, bought, the, cows, into, the, country, with, tb, and, he, would, have, to, do, it, when, they, said, they, know, how, to, get, people, on, their, side, don't, they, anyway, a, heated, discussion, had, pursued, and, eventually, sense, was, seen, the, test, was, rearranged, for, another, day, at, 9.00am, so, fingers, crossed, thursday, we, got, money, through, today, from, the, fmd, recovery, fund, it, has, been, very, useful, and, enabled, us, to, do, things, we, wouldn't, normally, be, able, to, do, we, had, our, vans, sign, written, we, got, a, laptop, computer, which, had, been, great, for, the, interherd, programme, we, got, pens, and, pads, to, give, out, husband, was, able, to, hold, meetings, with, our, farmers, pre, stocking, to, advise, them, what, to, look, for, etc, so, it, has, been, extremely, useful, it, was, nice, to, be, given, the, money, some, people, say, it, would, have, been, spent, elsewhere, but, it, helped, us, immensely, and, we, feel, we, have, spent, it, wisely, fri, had, a, paperwork, catch, up, day, today, it, has, been, quiet, recently, due, to, holidays, and, harvesting, but, thankfully, not, like, last, year, we, looked, back, again, and, today, last, year, we, had, no, calls, and, today, we, had, four, so, although, quiet, not, that, bad, week, beginning, monday, 5th, august, monday, very, quiet, tuesday, very, quiet, weds, very, quiet, thursday, daughter, got, her, first, job, fri, took, daughter, to, my, sisters, for, the, week, end, sat, quiet, week, end, sun, gardening, going, on, holiday, again, next, week, yippee, sorry, it’s, been, very, quiet, this, week, as, mentioned, before, this, is, usual, as, everyone, is, on, holiday, and, the, farmers, are, harvesting, i, have, caught, up, and, have, been, enjoying, a, few, days, just, poddling, going, out, with, daughter, shopping, food, it’s, nice, to, have, some, catch, up, time, on, thursday, daughter, got, a, job, her, first, proper, job, well, nearly, at, the, travel, inn, at, the, bottom, of, our, road, she, is, so, excited, and, already, planning, what, she, is, going, to, spend, her, hard, earned, cash, on, on, friday, i, took, daughter, to, my, sisters, in, lancashire, for, the, week, end, i, came, back, on, friday, night, and, we, decided, to, meet, up, at, husband, s, mum, and, dad’s, caravan, near, whitby, on, monday, for, a, week, so, another, holiday, i, don’t, know, you, have, one, and, then, another, anyway, it, should, be, good, fun, holiday, week, beginning, monday, 12thth, august, week, beginning, monday, 19thth, august, monday, visited, mr, a, today, to, load, interherd, onto, his, computer, he, has, definitely, decided, to, sell, up, he, is, hoping, by, early, next, year, this, has, all, been, very, sudden, but, his, son, is, no, longer, interested, and, as, mr, a, said, who, can, blame, him, with, all, the, new, regulations, and, paperwork, a, lot, are, finding, it, hard, tuesday, we, had, an, environment, agency, visit, this, morning, to, check, how, and, where, we, dispose, of, our, waste, in, practice, thankfully, we, are, doing, everything, properly, but, this, visit, took, two, and, a, half, hours, and, lots, of, form, filling, in, it, is, they, that, check, these, things, but, the, extent, in, questionable, mr, g, called, in, the, afternoon, he, is, having, problems, with, his, cows, they, keep, going, off, colour, we, have, so, many, new, herds, that, started, of, doing, well, happy, and, settling, in, fine, then, about, 3, 4, months, after, they, arrived, they, start, being, ill, have, mastitis, off, colour, not, eating, not, milking, properly, a, wide, variety, it’s, very, strange, the, vets, don’t, really, know, what’s, happening, we, have, a, few, on, regular, blood, sampling, trying, to, find, any, changes, weds, me, and, husband, went, to, the, accountant, to, see, just, how, bad, financially, we, really, had, done, last, year, and, oh, what, a, surprise, it, was, bad, in, fact, we, nearly, qualified, for, children’s, tax, relief, the, main, thing, is, we, survived, in, a, fashion, hopefully, it, will, be, better, next, year, thursday, i, visited, two, farmers, today, on, the, interherd, they, are, finding, it, brilliant, they, have, both, recently, had, farm, assurance, visits, and, interherd, had, helped, them, enormously, and, helped, them, reach, the, standards, they, both, appreciate, how, much, easier, it, is, for, them, and, less, paperwork, heaven, it’s, so, good, to, find, something, to, help, them, fri, i, have, been, phoning, our, main, drug, company’s, reps, inviting, them, to, our, open, evening, all, very, keen, i, think, they, just, enjoy, the, crack, week, beginning, monday, 26th, august, very, quiet, this, week, on, both, large, and, small, animal, it, must, be, the, last, holiday, rush, before, going, back, to, school, we, managed, to, do, some, catching, up, and, decided, a, four, day, week, would, be, nice, i, did, quite, a, bit, of, playing, on, interherd, so, that, when, i, visited, farmers, about, it, i, knew, what, they, want, to, see, and, where, to, find, it, most, of, them, are, interested, in, the, medicines, book, as, this, keeps, excellent, stock, records, from, when, the, drug, product, is, born, where, it, has, gone, and, batch, numbers, and, expiry, dates, these, are, all, the, information, they, need, to, produce, when, they, get, inspected, and, doing, it, manually, can, be, very, time, consuming, week, beginning, 2nd, september, monday, 2nd, september, irs, 9.30, garst, milk, rec, tuesday, garst, milk, rec, dog, course, weds, daughter, back, to, school, exporting, is, back, thursday, exporting, fri, change, date, of, open, evening, gb, way, now, 15, 10, 02, exporting, sat, off, sister, and, niece, sun, off, monday, every, 2, years, we, are, checked, by, our, radiographer, advisor, to, ensure, everything, is, well, and, we, are, doing, everything, right, they, check, the, x, ray, machine, our, records, and, our, monitoring, records, we, passed, in, the, afternoon, i, went, milk, recording, it, was, very, warm, and, very, flyie, but, good, fun, they, are, thinking, of, getting, a, new, parlour, twice, as, big, as, mr, g, feels, in, the, future, milk, will, have, to, be, produced, by, quantity, not, quality, but, it, is, difficult, and, expensive, decision, to, make, for, him, we, shall, see, tue, early, morning, milk, recording, this, morning, but, i, got, a, lovely, breakfast, with, proper, milk, i, got, to, check, the, large, animal, when, i, got, back, we, also, started, our, new, puppy, training, course, in, the, evening, that, went, very, well, it, is, a, more, 1, to, 1, basis, our, nurse, runs, it, i, go, along, and, help, with, moral, support, it, was, good, fun, but, i, had, a, very, long, day, and, went, to, bed, when, i, got, back, weds, daughter, went, back, to, school, today, i’ll, miss, her, following, me, round, helping, out, and, her, mum, can, you, take, me, we, may, have, some, exporting, of, sheep, on, friday, there, is, a, pedigree, texel, sheep, sale, at, h, h, borderway, it, is, the, first, exporting, we, have, done, in, about, 20, months, as, you, can, guess, the, paper, work, has, tripled, there, has, been, numerous, phone, calls, to, ad, from, defra, trying, to, make, sense, of, it, but, i, must, say, people, up, here, are, not, good, at, clarifying, what, they, have, written, now, there’s, a, surprise, thursday, i, have, spent, the, whole, day, either, reading, new, expert, regulations, or, running, backwards, and, forwards, for, new, paperwork, what, we, have, to, complete, and, what, they, should, bring, well, it, could, be, fun, friday, well, full, really, isn’t, the, word, i, would, use, we, needed, more, paperwork, they, needed, more, paperwork, it, took, most, of, the, day, and, we, only, had, 3, sheep, to, send, draining, the, one, good, thing, was, seeing, everyone, at, the, auction, some, new, faces, and, some, have, gone, week, beginning, 9th, september, monday, t's, 7th, birthday, we, have, another, vet, student, studying, at, the, moment, for, 2, weeks, we, have, had, five, this, year, so, far, and, another, before, christmas, but, she, won't, stay, in, the, house, as, she, is, from, carlisle, it, is, nice, to, have, them, and, it, makes, us, behave, but, i, won't, have, as, many, next, year, they, have, all, been, interested, in, the, fmd, and, some, had, a, chance, to, help, out, which, was, an, eye, opener, for, them, i, spoke, to, student, about, it, all, how, it, affected, everyone, what, happened, and, what, didn't, now, talking, about, almost, a, year, from, the, last, case, i, don't, find, it, as, hard, and, i, think, i, can, hide, how, emotional, it, was, but, at, the, time, i, wasn't, i, was, more, angry, i, feel, now, fmd, or, the, aftermath, has, sadly, become, everyday, life, i, don't, rush, for, news, on, it, or, yearn, information, i, think, because, directly, or, indirectly, we, live, with, it, everyday, it, all, has, really, become, part, of, our, lives, it, is, very, difficult, to, put, into, words, or, explain, i, also, went, to, visit, one, of, my, interherd, farmers, in, lancaster, they, are, very, pleased, with, it, and, are, coping, well, mrs, m, was, crushed, by, the, pet, cow, a, month, ago, and, was, very, lucky, she, had, two, broken, legs, cuts, and, bruises, needless, to, say, the, cow, has, gone, to, greener, pastures, they, are, very, resilient, and, are, planning, for, the, future, and, it, is, nice, to, be, a, part, of, their, planning, i, also, get, proper, milky, coffee, see, so, easy, pleased, milk, recorded, tonight, at, mr, g's, so, early, morning, tomorrow, i'm, still, trying, to, persuade, them, into, interherd, so, finger, crossed, tuesday, early, morning, milk, recording, failed, on, the, interherd, due, to, a, cow, breaking, a, leg, i, have, never, actually, experienced, it, happening, before, i, generally, hear, farmers, needing, a, slaughter, cert, or, a, cow, put, down, to, see, it, and, the, family's, reaction, i, was, humbled, i, think, is, the, word, it, was, an, accident, that, can, happen, but, the, look, on, their, faces, was, such, deep, sorrow, the, father, even, places, his, head, in, his, hands, at, breakfast, we, all, talked, about, it, she, was, only, a, heifer, getting, ready, to, be, served, for, the, let, time, she, was, a, difficult, birth, they, had, all, helped, well, bred, and, she, was, jet, black, with, a, huge, white, spot, on, her, side, so, no, prizes, for, guessing, the, name, but, as, the, farmer, said, you, can't, look, after, them, feed, them, care, for, them, day, in, day, out, without, caring, about, them, or, why, would, you, do, it, in, the, afternoon, i, attended, a, course, on, management, employment, law, customer, service, at, barnard, castle, it, went, on, till, 9, pm, with, dinner, after, so, i, decided, to, stay, over, very, spoilt, good, course, excellent, food, lovely, hotel, wednesday, came, back, from, my, course, leisurely, and, stopped, at, penrith, for, a, bit, of, shopping, very, pleasant, i'm, not, a, good, shopper, but, it, was, nice, i, had, to, get, back, for, 11, am, as, we, were, having, a, new, credit, card, machine, fitted, he, duly, arrived, well, what, an, obnoxious, man, he, was, moaning, because, we, had, a, switchboard, he, had, to, dial, 9, this, was, wrong, that, was, wrong, and, then, was, he, not, going, to, get, offered, a, coffee, to, which, he, was, told, not, without, the, special, word, he, was, a, bit, aghast, and, said, please, i, swear, if, i, had, not, just, come, from, a, course, explaining, customer, service, i, would, have, murdered, him, god, bless, courses, and, of, course, credit, card, machine, men, in, the, afternoon, i, was, visited, by, the, rspca, advertising, company, did, we, want, an, advert, in, their, leaflet, anyway, it, was, 640, for, quarter, of, a, page, for, 2, years, so, i, said, we, couldn't, afford, it, it, suddenly, dropped, to, 410, i, was, a, little, suspect, so, i, got, receptionist, to, quietly, check, if, the, company, were, connected, to, the, rspca, anyway, while, i, was, waiting, i, said, it, was, still, a, little, bit, more, than, we, could, afford, what, with, fmd, see, it, is, useful, and, true, he, then, said, he, could, do, it, for, 210, by, which, time, she, had, confirmed, they, were, with, the, rspca, so, i, said, yes, thank, you, bargain, or, rip, off, thursday, i, tried, to, get, my, head, round, isolation, units, and, tried, to, explain, to, a, farmer, about, them, i, think, we, got, there, eventually, when, husband, got, back, i, got, him, to, explain, in, simple, english, and, it, all, made, a, lot, more, sense, they, will, be, handy, for, people, selling, and, buying, stock, but, have, as, always, the, guidelines, must, have, been, written, by, someone, who, has, never, seen, a, farm, or, fields, friday, caught, up, on, paperwork, and, trolleyed, about, busy, doing, not, a, lot, i, think, the, term, is, anyway, it, was, good, week, beginning, 16th, september, this, week, has, been, appraisal, week, for, the, staff, we, didn't, do, any, last, year, so, i, thought, we, had, better, get, back, into, the, swing, of, things, i, quite, enjoy, the, appraisals, it's, a, great, opportunity, to, have, a, real, good, sort, out, get, new, ideas, and, try, and, recognise, any, potential, problems, we, started, doing, appraisals, at, bout, 4, years, ago, and, to, start, off, with, everyone, was, petrified, and, worried, but, it, was, nice, to, see, them, actually, excited, and, enjoyed, it, it, is, quite, time, consuming, but, very, worthwhile, so, not, much, out, and, about, this, week, week, beginning, 23rd, september, monday, another, suspect, case, the, main, difference, about, this, was, as, with, other, ones, i, felt, cold, sick, scared, this, one, was, better, i, felt, it, was, not, going, to, be, positive, whether, it's, a, case, of, there, have, been, a, few, now, not, positive, and, this, is, just, another, one, or, confident, that, it, no, way, could, be, positive, i, definitely, wasn't, as, worried, i, don't, know, if, that, is, being, blasé, can't, spell, sorry, but, definitely, different, tuesday, just, nicely, busy, today, just, enough, to, keep, everyone, busy, husband, and, other, vet, are, away, this, week, so, that, just, leaves, new, vet, and, other, vet, so, it, was, a, little, worrying, if, it, got, busy, it, was, the, last, of, our, dog, training, courses, tonight, they, all, passed, their, tests, well, and, were, very, pleased, with, the, progress, they, had, made, it, was, the, first, 4, week, course, we, had, run, and, feedback, was, very, positive, our, head, nurse, had, put, in, an, awful, lot, of, work, fir, it, so, i, was, very, pleased, for, her, as, well, the, next, one, is, planned, for, november, weds, experts, are, going, to, start, again, at, h, h, tomorrow, and, friday, it, will, be, the, first, ones, we, have, done, for, about, 18, months, surprisingly, the, paperwork, for, our, side, has, not, changed, much, but, the, irish, paperwork, is, horrendous, anyway, after, several, phone, calls, to, derfa, and, dard, and, various, farmers, who, are, wishing, to, sell, at, the, sale, i, think, we, have, it, sorted, we, will, see, tomorrow, thursday, and, friday, i've, put, these, into, one, as, that, is, how, it, felt, after, being, so, confident, that, we, had, everything, in, place, to, be, able, to, export, the, sheep, first, thing, thursday, morning, dard, like, irish, defra, changed, the, regulations, and, paperwork, such, joy, as, you, can, imagine, this, sent, everyone, in, a, state, of, frenzy, and, another, buzby, full, of, phone, calls, we, didn't, have, the, paperwork, sorted, when, people, had, bought, sheep, and, were, wanting, to, leave, now, some, tempers, are, reaching, fever, pitch, well, we, did, manage, to, export, them, away, on, thursday, night, 3, hours, late, so, they, had, to, book, different, ferries, all, done, and, dusted, by, friday, we, were, busy, congratulating, ourselves, on, achieving, the, impossible, and, how, we, all, had, worked, hard, to, accomplish, it, and, now, had, several, more, names, on, our, christmas, card, list, yes, you, guessed, we, had, a, phone, call, from, well, let, me, say, one, not, happy, chappy, after, having, no, sleep, catching, a, late, ferry, waiting, for, the, paperwork, to, arrive, at, larne, port, all, the, sheep, were, impounded, dard, had, added, one, more, form, to, their, list, of, requirements, and, had, forgotten, to, send, them, through, or, mention, them, hours, of, phone, calls, and, faxing, later, i, am, very, pleased, to, say, that, the, sheep, were, released, and, free, to, go, week, beginning, 7th, october, monday, 7th, october, i, made, some, trial, arrangements, for, our, open, evening, next, tuesday, all’s, ready, now, they, are, a, good, night, out, and, we, all, enjoy, it, we, haven’t, had, one, for, a, few, years, so, it, should, be, good, tuesday, for, a, while, now, we’ve, been, wondering, if, the, practice, should, invest, in, a, house, for, an, assistant, we, have, had, a, response, to, the, advert, for, our, new, vet, so, we, thought, we, would, go, house, hunting, anyway, it, wasn’t, as, much, fun, as, i, first, thought, to, start, with, obviously, they, are, quite, a, price, and, it, really, isn’t, that, easy, so, we, looked, at, one, cardboard, box, for, 70,000, and, apparently, it, went, for, 82k, frightening, well, we, can, keep, on, looking, we, have, a, vet, coming, for, an, interview, on, saturday, so, fingers, crossed, i’m, off, tomorrow, and, away, at, bvna, congress, over, the, weekend, so, i’m, looking, forward, to, that, week, beginning, 14th, october, monday, 14th, october, we, had, a, really, good, time, at, the, bvna, british, veterinary, nurse, assistant, congress, we, did, loads, of, lectures, a, learned, a, few, new, things, got, loads, of, freebies, from, the, trade, stands, and, ordered, a, new, vaporiser, for, the, anaesthetic, machine, which, uses, less, isoflo, oxygen, we, also, had, a, good, halloween, ball, stayed, up, too, late, we, got, back, on, sunday, evening, after, 3, days, of, congress, and, i, was, just, settling, down, and, filling, in, husband, and, daughter, on, what, we, had, done, when, another, vet, came, in, wanting, a, hand, with, a, caesarean, on, a, dog, ah, well, nothing, like, getting, back, into, it, today, anyway, feeling, very, tired, we, had, to, start, getting, ready, for, open, evening, tomorrow, night, for, the, farmers, so, there, was, a, lot, of, sorting, out, and, tidying, up, to, do, as, we, open, the, house, up, as, well, we, haven’t, had, one, for, a, couple, of, years, so, it, was, quite, exciting, i, really, enjoy, them, it’s, great, to, have, the, farmers, round, it’s, mainly, a, nosh, and, natter, night, but, this, year, some, of, the, drug, companies, paid, for, it, they, have, their, stands, in, various, parts, of, the, house, and, surgery, and, normally, everyone, has, a, good, time, tuesday, open, evening, day, very, busy, tidying, up, and, moving, things, around, everyone, helped, it’s, good, the, staff, are, so, excited, about, it, as, well, they, have, all, mucked, in, and, as, usual, did, us, proud, the, evening, itself, was, brilliant, it, was, so, nice, to, see, them, all, enjoying, themselves, and, there, is, nothing, farmers, like, better, than, a, good, natter, food, and, beer, quite, a, few, said, they, had, missed, the, open, evening, last, year, due, to, fmd, as, far, as, pr, goes, definitely, worth, it, wednesday, just, clearing, up, and, sorting, out, all, the, staff, said, they, had, had, good, feedback, so, well, done, to, everyone, thursday, back, to, it, now, got, new, interherd, update, so, i, spent, quite, a, lot, of, the, day, seeing, what, new, buttons, it, had, it’s, very, clever, interherd, is, sold, by, nmr, now, and, they, are, helping, us, sell, it, to, the, farmers, whose, life, and, paperwork, hope, to, make, easier, the, man, in, charge, at, nmr, is, coming, to, see, us, next, week, to, explain, how, the, milk, recording, side, all, ties, in, between, nmr, and, interherd, friday, today, was, one, of, those, when, you, rush, round, all, day, but, you, feel, unsure, of, what, you, have, actually, done, very, busy, on, both, large, and, small, side, it’s, very, tiring, but, i, do, prefer, it, when, we’re, busy, week, beginning, 21st, october, monday, 21st, october, monday, to, wednesday, off, thursday, had, a, meeting, with, id, from, nmr, re, interherd, they, are, going, to, give, us, cheap, milk, recording, prices, to, help, promote, nmr, and, interherd, they, have, also, released, a, version, of, interherd, for, farmers, and, we, were, given, the, first, one, in, the, country, to, trial, and, see, what, they, thought, it, was, very, encouraging, as, nmr, in, the, past, years, have, gained, themselves, a, slightly, unpopular, feel, especially, in, cumbria, but, they, now, seem, to, see, this, and, are, trying, very, hard, and, are, committed, to, improving, it, they, did, a, survey, and, now, with, area, herd, size, etc, the, majority, of, dairy, herds, are, in, cumbria, even, post, fmd, so, fingers, crossed, friday, a, good, day, today, husband, was, away, at, a, bcva, council, meeting, br, cattle, vets, ass, and, normally, it, goes, mad, don’t, know, why, anyway, it, didn’t, today, everyone, was, busy, but, not, madly, the, large, animal, side, is, very, up, and, down, at, present, but, it, is, now, tt, and, blood, testing, season, there, are, quite, a, lot, of, restocked, herds, to, do, as, they, are, having, to, be, done, every, year, as, opposed, to, 4, yearly, we, also, have, to, test, everything, it, is, very, time, consuming, and, if, they, have, a, tt, test, then, it, is, a, two, day, job, so, for, both, the, farmer, and, us, it, is, two, days, of, the, week, when, you, can’t, do, anything, else, week, beginning, 28th, october, monday, 28th, october, we, have, been, asked, by, newton, rigg, college, if, we, would, be, interested, in, teaching, the, animal, care, courses, at, the, college, so, me, and, vicky, went, along, it, was, quite, interesting, and, we, thought, if, we, could, do, it, together, it, would, work, so, we, said, we, would, think, about, it, and, let, them, know, went, milk, recording, in, the, afternoon, i, do, enjoy, playing, and, the, crack, tuesday, milk, recorded, again, and, discussed, interherd, with, them, so, we, are, going, to, use, them, as, the, pilot, for, the, nmr, interherd, job, so, that, will, be, interesting, regarding, the, newton, rigg, offer, we, won’t, be, able, to, do, it, as, our, part, time, nurse, is, leaving, us, she, has, been, offered, a, place, at, dalston, vets, she, will, be, able, to, train, as, a, vet, nurse, there, as, we, don’t, do, that, in, our, practice, so, that, will, leave, us, short, staffed, it, is, sad, but, everything, happens, for, a, reason, so, we, are, now, vet, and, nurse, hunting, so, more, advertising, and, interviewing, weds, we, are, sponsoring, a, class, at, the, northern, expo, holstein, friesian, shows, we, have, a, stand, and, a, good, natter, i, took, some, photos, of, a, few, cows, and, some, freebies, it, was, a, good, night, barbara, came, with, me, and, she, presented, the, prize, for, our, class, the, standard, of, cattle, was, amazing, and, it, was, a, really, good, show, thursday, out, of, the, photos, i, took, for, the, northern, expo, i, decided, to, make, a, photo, album, so, i, went, round, a, few, other, farms, photographing, it, was, good, fun, and, nice, to, see, that, we, do, have, some, very, good, stock, friday, got, a, phone, call, today, from, my, sister, she, has, sold, her, house, in, lancaster, and, is, moving, up, near, us, so, that’s, very, exciting, otherwise, a, quiet, day, today, week, beginning, 4th, november, monday, 4th, november, i, went, to, show, mr, j, the, new, interherd, farmers, version, he, was, very, interested, and, thought, it, would, save, a, lot, of, paperwork, and, time, they, all, say, that, the, paperwork, since, fmd, has, increased, immensely, along, with, the, regulations, tuesday, we, have, decided, to, have, a, tv, in, the, waiting, room, to, advertise, products, services, staff, etc, the, man, from, channel, 6, came, and, took, information, so, it, should, arrive, next, week, so, it, will, be, interesting, to, see, how, it, works, weds, we, went, to, the, bank, today, to, see, the, financial, advisor, as, this, is, a, free, service, and, very, useful, we, have, decided, to, buy, a, house, for, my, sister, to, live, in, when, she, moves, up, and, it, will, be, an, investment, as, well, a, bit, of, security, just, in, case, as, last, year, we, discovered, just, how, quick, things, can, change, we, went, for, just, over, 3, months, with, not, a, lot, of, money, coming, in, and, still, wages, to, pay, so, we, are, now, house, hunting, week, beginning, 11th, november, monday, 11th, november, one, of, our, vets, has, recently, started, her, dbr, dip, in, bovine, reproduction, course, at, liverpool, as, part, of, her, studies, she, is, looking, at, the, cows, milk, quality, pre, and, post, calving, to, see, if, any, effects, are, relevant, to, their, overall, performance, and, milk, production, and, health, so, we, collect, milk, samples, from, certain, cows, twice, a, week, over, the, period, of, lactation, and, she, is, going, to, test, them, so, watch, this, space, we, have, been, very, lucky, with, another, vet, her, enthusiasm, is, boundless, and, she, has, become, a, very, important, member, of, our, team, i, have, persuaded, mr, j, of, b, farm, to, milk, record, with, us, so, that's, more, early, morning, jaunts, the, interherd, and, nmr, trial, is, nearly, ready, so, hopefully, by, middle, of, december, everything, should, be, set, up, and, running, hopefully, tuesday, two, farmers, are, milk, reading, today, so, i, had, a, nice, little, trolly, about, i, treated, myself, to, some, of, mr, r's, ice, cream, very, nice, well, you, have, to, support, them, their, new, shop, on, the, farm, is, doing, very, well, i, loaded, my, first, farmer, version, interherd, onto, mr, w's, computer, he, is, very, impressed, and, very, keen, and, thankfully, it, all, worked, well, wednesday, we, have, computer, bugs, not, good, so, i, have, spent, most, of, the, day, on, the, phone, talking, to, the, debugging, man, thursday, still, got, bugs, we've, had, to, run, a, bug, fixer, disc, through, all, seven, computers, it, takes, ages, pee'd, off, fed, up, going, back, to, pen, and, paper, friday, i, must, have, sounded, fed, up, as, the, lovely, little, man, came, to, fix, all, the, computers, he, had, to, use, 3, different, discs, due, to, all, the, different, bugs, had, a, meeting, to, discuss, the, nmr, milk, recording, and, we, have, quite, a, lot, of, farmers, interested, mainly, because, we, have, got, a, good, price, for, nmr, so, fingers, crossed, the, bugs, are, fixed, yipeee, week, beginning, 18th, november, monday, 18th, november, due, to, our, junior, nurse, leaving, i, have, been, interviewing, all, week, we, have, had, a, lot, of, enquiries, i, decided, to, invite, any, possibles, to, come, and, play, for, the, morning, to, see, what, they, thought, and, how, they, got, on, with, the, staff, there, is, one, that, has, potential, and, sounds, very, nice, but, she, can't, make, it, until, next, monday, there, was, one, that, wrote, a, really, good, letter, but, when, she, came, in, well, she, was, sweet, but, not, really, suitable, on, friday, nurse, left, we, had, a, little, party, i, hope, she, copes, okay, she, bought, me, a, lovely, cow, ornament, to, say, thank, you, it, was, lovely, week, beginning, 25th, november, monday, 25th, november, ellen, came, for, her, interview, very, good, she, is, keen, had, experience, happy, with, the, hours, so, she, is, coming, back, tomorrow, afternoon, for, a, play, we, all, went, out, for, our, vet, who, is, leaving, on, friday, to, be, a, chalet, maid, in, a, french, ski, resort, till, april, it, will, be, very, sad, to, see, her, leave, unfortunately, still, no, joy, on, the, new, vet, front, but, we, are, going, to, leave, it, till, the, new, year, and, try, then, other, vet, is, going, to, cover, but, unfortunately, it, means, husband, s, on, duty, more, it's, a, bit, reminiscent, of, fmd, but, we'll, manage, tuesday, wednesday, feeling, very, sorry, for, myself, got, a, bad, cold, i, got, sent, to, my, room, because, everyone, was, fed, up, of, me, sneezing, all, over, them, honestly, i, was, only, shanning, thursday, much, better, today, i, sorted, a, whole, load, of, interherd, data, out, and, had, a, good, play, with, it, heard, about, nestle's, cancelling, contracts, next, year, from, one, of, our, farmers, he, felt, a, little, unsure, quite, how, it, would, affect, them, and, that, they, were, being, dealt, another, kick, in, the, teeth, it's, quite, amazing, how, many, i, have, heard, questioning, why, they, went, back, into, farming, we, are, feeling, the, effects, we, didn't, seem, to, be, called, out, as, often, or, they, don't, want, the, cows, treated, as, its, extra, expense, at, the, end, of, fmd, they, said, over, the, next, couple, of, years, there, would, be, changes, in, the, way, farmers, and, how, many, farmers, worked, it's, frightening, to, see, it, actually, starting, to, happen, and, seeing, the, effects, on, our, business, everyone, agrees, the, whole, industry, has, changed, for, the, worst, and, is, not, the, same, and, there, is, no, pleasure, now, after, all, that, a, total, contrast, me, and, daughter, went, christmas, shopping, and, had, a, lovely, time, we, met, husband, after, surgery, and, went, for, a, pizza, lovely, night, friday, everyone's, talking, about, nestle's, now, and, quite, a, few, are, angry, some, aren't, surprised, and, others, just, seem, to, resign, themselves, to, it, we, had, a, lunch, party, for, leaving, vet, today, it, was, good, we, gave, her, pressies, although, she, has, only, been, here, a, few, months, she, will, be, greatly, missed, by, everyone, you, never, know, she, may, come, back, one, day, good, news, i, offered, ellen, the, nurse's, job, and, she's, accepted, i, think, she, will, do, very, well, week, beginning, 2nd, december, monday, 2nd, december, spent, all, morning, trolling, around, the, countryside, collecting, another, vet, s, milk, samples, for, her, dbr, it, was, a, lovely, morning, chatted, to, a, few, farmers, a, lot, were, still, talking, about, nestles, tuesday, had, a, meeting, to, clarify, the, start, of, the, nmr, milk, recording, gave, her, all, the, information, she, needed, to, set, up, the, herds, it's, great, to, be, able, to, offer, the, farmers, a, good, cheaper, deal, staff, xmas, party, it, was, good, everyone, seemed, to, have, a, good, time, wednesday, day, off, shopping, what, joy, thursday, had, an, interherd, disaster, today, i, couldn't, get, it, load, what, normally, takes, 15, minutes, instead, took, 2, and, a, half, hours, anyway, we, succeeded, eventually, they, have, just, bought, some, in, calf, heifers, so, he, was, keen, to, keep, up, to, date, records, and, information, we, only, have, one, more, farmer, to, restock, now, and, then, that's, everyone, it, will, probably, work, out, at, about, 15, drop, in, work, etc, while, waiting, for, interherd, to, load, they, were, telling, me, that, they, had, been, approached, asking, them, if, they, wanted, to, appeal, against, the, amount, of, money, they, had, received, for, the, cattle, they, said, they, wouldn't, as, they, felt, they, had, already, been, overpaid, not, all, farmers, are, money, grabbers, apparently, friday, daughter, starts, her, mock, exams, now, for, the, next, fortnight, i, have, been, waiting, for, the, moods, to, start, but, as, yet, all, is, quiet, long, may, it, last, she, is, very, calm, about, it, and, has, actually, been, revising, quite, hard, she, has, the, ability, all, she, has, to, do, is, concentrate, work, wise, i've, done, not, a, lot, it's, one, of, the, perks, i've, wandered, around, just, playing, doing, nice, jobs, quite, a, change, week, beginning, 9th, december, monday, 9th, december, daughter, s, 16th, birthday, scary, even, worse, she, can, learn, to, drive, next, year, never, mind, enjoy, the, safety, we, went, out, for, lunch, and, did, some, shopping, it, was, good, i, don’t, normally, like, shopping, but, we, both, enjoyed, it, came, back, to, mayhem, a, client, small, animal, had, been, in, complaining, about, his, bill, and, had, caused, a, stink, anyway, i, phoned, him, and, once, we, had, gone, through, everything, he, seemed, happy, hopefully, he, had, either, misunderstood, or, hadn’t, had, things, explained, to, him, although, difficult, it, is, better, people, say, something, rather, than, stewing, over, it, and, making, it, into, something, it’s, not, the, small, animal, does, seem, to, have, more, problems, that, way, than, the, large, animal, i, suppose, the, large, animal, is, also, a, business, but, it, doesn’t, stop, them, caring, i, don’t, think, they, could, do, what, they, do, and, work, the, hours, they, work, if, they, didn’t, care, sometimes, they, get, a, hard, press, but, i, think, it’s, the, few, that, get, the, publicity, unfortunately, i, like, it, when, farmers, phone, to, say, they, have, a, sick, cow, and, we, ask, what, it’s, doing, and, quite, often, the, reply, is, she’s, just, not, herself, need, you, say, anymore, tuesday, i’m, going, out, to, play, milk, recording, with, a, new, person, via, interherd, he, is, one, of, our, clients, he, is, quite, a, character, old, fashioned, and, yet, in, his, thirties, it, was, good, he, is, very, passionate, about, farming, and, its, survival, he, has, a, lot, of, ideas, he, wants, to, try, with, different, cows, he, has, just, bought, some, jerseys, hence, he, wants, to, record, to, see, if, there, are, benefits, we, milked, 60, cows, in, 2, hours, at, my, other, farm, we, milk, 190, in, that, time, it’s, good, to, see, both, ways, weds, early, morning, milk, recording, good, fun, a, lot, more, relaxed, than, my, other, farm, went, to, hairdressers, straight, after, smelling, of, cows, with, pooh, in, my, hair, it’s, a, good, job, i, know, her, well, and, she, didn’t, complain, too, much, the, rest, of, the, day, was, quite, pleasant, a, bit, of, paperwork, and, a, skive, sorry, can’t, spell, to, the, lab, thursday, friday, wow, i, think, we, had, our, christmas, rush, they, should, all, be, shopping, it, has, been, very, busy, i, do, prefer, it, although, a, sit, down, now, and, then, would, be, good, me, and, nurse, had, a, good, time, on, friday, afternoon, i, helped, her, bath, and, groom, a, dog, it, was, so, naughty, nicely, we, were, both, sweating, buckets, and, soaked, to, the, skin, by, the, end, but, we, had, a, good, laugh, week, beginning, 16th, december, monday, 16th, december, with, daughter, s, mock, exams, she, has, needed, runs, to, and, from, school, at, various, times, so, mum’s, taxi, has, been, on, overtime, she, has, been, very, calm, about, it, so, we, shall, see, thursday, was, eventful, as, i, now, have, an, expectant, nurse, and, vet, watch, where, you, sit, unfortunately, there, is, a, worry, for, both, of, them, our, nurse, evening, receptionist, is, worried, she, may, be, losing, hers, and, has, had, several, tests, and, is, obviously, worried, she, is, going, in, for, a, scan, on, tuesday, so, fingers, crossed, vet, is, also, pregnant, they, have, been, trying, for, a, while, but, has, something, with, a, long, name, wrong, with, her, which, causes, her, to, miscarriage, so, she, is, pleased, worried, excited, scared, and, only, 4, weeks, so, no, lambing, for, her, she, is, quite, happy, continuing, with, all, other, work, for, now, i, hope, everything, is, ok, with, them, both, it, can, be, difficult, working, with, animals, and, being, pregnant, but, as, long, as, they, are, careful, they, should, be, ok, week, beginning, 23rd, december, monday, 23rd, december, so, much, for, getting, quiet, for, christmas, we, have, had, our, busiest, time, for, a, few, years, which, is, good, we, are, going, to, try, advertising, in, the, new, year, for, a, new, vet, especially, now, another, vet, is, expecting, it, will, all, depend, how, she, does, we, may, even, need, two, as, even, when, another, vet, is, on, duty, now, husband, has, to, be, on, standby, in, case, of, any, lambings, we, have, a, couple, of, farmers, starting, anytime, milk, recording, tonight, as, well, but, we, now, do, it, with, nmr, well, not, literally, so, i, only, need, record, once, so, not, too, bad, and, worked, in, will, with, xmas, round, the, corner, and, no, mince, pies, made, yet, tuesday, nurse, phoned, they, are, being, positive, at, the, moment, her, hormone, levels, have, increased, and, she, has, not, bled, anymore, it, doesn’t, stop, them, worrying, though, surgery, was, busy, but, we, did, finish, by, 1.30pm, my, sister, and, niece, arrived, all, set, off, we, go, christmas, was, ace, very, relaxing, good, fun, loads, of, pressies, didn’t, have, time, to, eat, too, busy, playing, and, it, was, so, warm, friday, back, to, work, a, very, busy, day, lots, of, calls, and, surgery, appointments, even, some, operations, receptionist, was, off, so, i, was, in, charge, i, enjoyed, it, finding, out, what, everyone, got, for, christmas, week, beginning, 30th, december, monday, 30th, december, busy, day, only, me, and, receptionist, in, thought, it, would, be, quiet, wrong, never, mind, we, coped, tuesday, nurse, has, lost, her, baby, or, is, losing, it, they, can’t, see, anything, on, the, scan, just, an, empty, sac, so, she, is, going, for, a, don’t, know, what, they, call, it, but, you, can, take, some, tablets, that, clear, everything, away, she, is, obviously, so, upset, what, do, you, say, she’s, going, to, drop, her, other, two, off, while, she, goes, in, it, is, so, sad, thursday, 2nd, january, everybody’s, back, again, full, crew, no, one, knowing, what, day, it, is, i, could, get, used, to, the, split, weeks, but, at, the, moment, i, need, it, stuck, to, my, head, quite, busy, as, well, which, is, good, trying, to, arrange, tt, test, but, farmers, are, never, keen, on, them, you, have, to, threaten, them, with, defra, coming, to, do, it, that, works, friday, went, blood, sampling, sheep, for, scrapie, with, husband, all, day, it, was, a, beautiful, day, very, cold, but, we, had, fun, only, we, were, stood, next, to, a, stream, women, torture, cold, air, and, running, water, i, had, to, nip, back, to, the, van, for, various, things, by, the, time, we, finished, i, was, frozen, the, test, was, part, of, the, national, scrapie, plan, which, is, to, sample, sheep, for, scrapie, so, if, or, when, they, find, bse, in, sheep, these, ones, will, or, should, be, okay, as, there, is, a, plan, to, slaughter, the, national, herd, if, bse, is, found, but, as, the, farmer, said, they, have, already, had, human, g, pigs, for, years, as, the, indians, eat, sheep, brains, and, before, the, removal, of, bone, meal, and, very, dubious, scabby, sheep, and, they, have, not, had, a, problem, so, we, will, wait, and, see, week, beginning, 6th, january, 2003, mon, 6th, january, 2003, our, new, nurse, started, today, she, managed, very, well, and, didn’t, seem, too, confused, when, she, went, home, she, has, worked, in, kennels, before, she, is, very, keen, fingers, crossed, another, vet, is, doing, her, dbr, and, for, part, of, this, she, has, to, do, a, study, she, has, decided, to, look, at, progesterone, and, other, levels, in, cows, post, calving, for, 6, weeks, to, see, what, happens, so, we, collect, a, sample, from, each, new, calved, cow, and, split, it, into, 3, smaller, pots, and, freeze, awaiting, testing, in, holland, very, exciting, but, quite, boring, the, results, should, be, interesting, though, hopefully, tuesday, you, forget, all, the, explaining, you, have, to, do, when, somebody, new, starts, so, me, and, nurse, have, written, a, step, by, step, guide, to, c, well, sort, of, it’s, all, the, little, things, we, haven’t, had, a, new, nurse, for, a, while, so, hopefully, the, book, can, be, used, for, other, new, people, it, took, a, bit, of, doing, but, we, were, pleased, with, it, in, the, end, i, spoke, to, mr, g, re, having, interherd, at, the, farm, all, i, have, to, do, now, is, get, round, to, see, him, he, is, very, hard, to, pin, down, but, we’ll, try, weds, new, nurse, liked, her, new, book, she, is, doing, very, well, and, it’s, nice, for, us, too, i, always, find, it, quite, refreshing, when, someone, is, genuinely, enthusiastic, with, us, all, being, close, and, having, their, own, areas, it’s, good, to, show, someone, else, but, can, be, scary, when, you, see, just, how, much, they, all, do, thursday, milk, pot, day, again, today, the, good, thing, is, going, to, pick, up, the, samples, as, you, get, a, natter, so, monday, and, thursday, the, samples, are, collected, split, and, frozen, it’s, quite, time, consuming, and, i’ve, just, realised, i, didn’t, ask, another, vet, how, long, she, was, doing, it, for, friday, we, have, decided, to, try, and, get, the, accounts, up, to, date, to, see, how, things, are, going, bar, not, being, able, to, find, a, vet, so, it’s, one, of, those, jobs, you, always, mean, to, keep, on, top, of, but, never, quite, manage, because, it’s, not, much, fun, interruptions, queries, and, assistance, were, very, welcome, but, i, got, a, good, start, week, beginning, 13th, january, monday, 13th, jan, a, has, started, working, with, us, again, just, two, days, a, week, this, will, help, a, lot, and, help, take, the, pressure, off, for, surgery, times, etc, i, got, to, spend, the, day, helping, with, tt, testing, it, was, good, fun, and, it, stayed, fine, it, was, a, good, day, tuesday, i, had, a, milk, recording, day, today, 3, in, total, we, have, started, using, nmr, now, so, it, was, all, new, paperwork, etc, this, is, going, to, be, cheaper, for, the, farmers, and, works, with, the, interherd, programme, anyway, it, all, went, well, and, everybody’s, samples, got, away, weds, milk, recorded, again, at, one, of, the, three, farms, first, thing, everytime, i, go, he, has, a, new, plan, as, to, how, to, make, some, money, this, month, it, is, he, is, going, to, produce, a, new, breed, of, cow, a, jersey, x, mri, so, we, will, see, how, that, goes, thursday, and, friday, just, catching, up, on, paperwork, me, and, nurse, did, some, training, with, the, new, nurse, she, is, settling, in, really, well, and, very, keen, week, beginning, 20th, january, monday, 20th, january, weds, decorated, our, bedroom, it, looks, brill, it, was, in, desperate, need, of, it, i, like, decorating, it’s, good, and, messy, thursday, i, went, on, my, brucellosis, testing, training, course, at, the, vlc, it, was, good, fun, this, means, that, after, i, have, now, tested, 150, cattle, i, get, a, licence, which, will, enable, me, to, blood, test, this, in, turn, will, hopefully, free, up, a, vet, it, will, also, give, defra, a, bank, of, blood, tester, for, any, future, outbreak, crafty, they, used, to, charge, about, 800, for, this, course, miraculously, it’s, now, free, clever, friday, we, have, had, a, reply, to, our, advert, hoorah, well, actually, two, they, are, both, foreign, one, is, in, germany, and, the, other, s, africa, so, we, are, waiting, for, their, cvs, fingers, crossed, defra, have, now, changed, the, 20, day, standstill, to, 6, days, the, general, opinion, seemed, to, be, so, it, would, be, interesting, to, actually, find, out, if, and, how, well, all, the, regulations, are, actually, working, not, well, i, feel, would, be, the, answer, week, beginning, 27th, january, mon, weds, very, busy, i, seem, to, have, spent, a, lot, of, it, in, my, car, dropping, off, tooing, and, froing, which, was, nice, but, i, do, lose, touch, with, the, happenings, at, the, surgery, and, on, tuesday, things, had, obviously, got, fraught, so, i, sorted, those, out, and, smoothed, the, creases, we, are, very, lucky, to, have, such, dedicated, staff, due, to, vet, shortage, and, another, vet, s, pregnancy, it, does, add, extra, pressure, to, everyone, none, of, the, incidents, were, very, serious, and, easily, sorted, thursday, i, went, with, my, sister, to, take, niece, to, the, hospital, as, since, she, was, born, she, has, had, a, lump, on, the, side, of, her, head, above, her, eye, so, they, xrayed, it, that, was, fun, persuading, her, to, lie, still, i, stayed, overnight, and, came, back, friday, week, beginning, 3rd, february, monday, 3rd, feb, i, did, my, first, blood, sample, on, a, live, cow, today, as, it, was, an, abortion, enquiry, and, due, to, another, vet, s, pregnancy, she, is, not, doing, them, ad, i, need, the, practice, it, was, good, fun, and, i, hit, the, 2nd, time, so, i, was, very, pleased, only, another, 145, to, go, before, i, get, my, licence, tuesday, i, completed, the, accounts, today, to, go, to, the, accountants, it, was, great, fun, i, hope, they, come, up, with, good, news, but, the, future, is, worrying, a, backlash, from, the, farmers, not, being, confident, weds, i, can’t, remember, if, i, told, you, vet, was, expecting, anyway, she, went, for, her, first, scan, today, and, so, far, so, good, it, is, very, worrying, as, she, has, a, problem, where, she, produces, duff, eggs, and, miscarriages, she, wants, to, carry, on, as, normal, as, possible, for, now, but, no, sheep, or, abortions, etc, i, hop, it, works, this, time, as, this, is, her, 4th, attempt, thursday, and, friday, very, nice, everything, worked, well, no, mad, rushes, time, to, catch, up, we, discussed, reducing, some, of, the, farm, drugs, as, they, are, able, to, buy, the, over, the, internet, with, a, prescription, all, the, laws, and, rules, will, more, than, likely, be, changing, at, the, beginning, of, march, due, to, a, report, done, for, the, govt, regarding, drugs, and, animal, use, it, will, make, a, difference, to, how, we, operate, as, if, they, remove, the, vet, surgeon’s, right, to, prescribe, drugs, i.e, vets, can, only, write, prescriptions, and, not, dispense, drugs, it, could, alter, things, completely, one, way, or, another, if, farmers, require, the, service, they, are, going, to, have, to, pay, for, it, up, to, now, it, has, always, been, that, a, reasonable, mark, up, is, put, on, the, drugs, this, is, normally, 50, and, this, will, keep, professional, fees, down, if, vets, are, not, getting, the, money, made, on, drugs, and, therefore, has, to, put, his, fees, up, although, the, farmer, may, be, buying, his, drugs, cheaper, via, the, internet, will, he, actually, save, that, much, i, wonder, so, anyway, we, have, been, getting, more, and, more, pressure, from, a, number, of, our, farmers, to, compete, with, the, internet, prices, so, we, have, selected, a, few, products, and, it, they, pay, at, the, time, they, can, get, about, 20, off, the, price, so, watch, this, space, and, we, will, see, what, happens, week, beginning, 10th, february, monday, 10th, feb, the, week, to, sum, up, a, blur, with, both, sad, and, very, funny, memories, to, start, receptionist, was, on, holiday, and, it, always, seems, to, happen, as, soon, as, someone, is, off, we, get, very, very, busy, when, everyone, is, in, it, ticks, along, nicely, mostly, i, do, enjoy, it, when, it’s, busy, but, we, worked, 3, 13, hour, days, not, food, but, everyone, worked, really, hard, they, are, excellent, staff, on, a, sad, note, vet, went, for, her, 11, week, scan, on, tuesday, and, the, baby, had, died, she, was, distraught, she, has, a, condition, that, causes, this, and, this, was, her, 4th, miscarriage, it’s, so, sad, i, called, to, see, her, and, she, just, hugged, me, and, cried, what, do, you, say, she, had, to, have, some, tablets, to, clear, away, the, placenta, etc, she, was, gutted, as, this, is, the, longest, she, had, ever, been, pregnant, and, she, thought, she’s, cracked, it, it’s, just, so, sad, my, funny, tale, for, the, week, on, a, completely, different, note, but, helped, immensely, was, other, vet, on, thursday, we, were, all, very, very, busy, and, a, farmer, called, in, i, was, very, behind, they, still, had, ops, to, do, and, this, farmer, settled, herself, down, for, a, big, chat, normally, if, i, say, i, have, a, lot, on, she, departs, but, no, not, today, it, was, obviously, my, turn, vet, came, over, from, the, op, room, and, i, know, it, was, naughty, but, i, wrote, on, a, card, can, i, have, some, help, i.e, to, free, myself, well, instead, of, reading, the, note, quietly, oh, no, she, read, it, out, at, the, top, of, her, voice, and, added, what, do, you, need, help, for, after, i, had, crawled, out, of, the, hole, that, had, opened, up, in, the, earth, to, swallow, me, i, pointed, to, the, message, book, to, try, and, hide, my, predicament, while, she, said, again, loudly, so, what, do, you, want, help, for, well, i, gave, up, and, decided, to, just, fall, into, the, hole, got, rid, of, vet, back, to, the, op, room, and, continued, alone, with, my, predicament, after, the, farmer, had, gone, who, thankfully, seemed, oblivious, to, what, had, happened, i, went, in, search, of, vet, to, kill, her, anyway, it, cheered, us, all, up, they, do, say, laughter, is, the, best, medicine, but, i, can, think, of, better, ways, week, beginning, 17th, february, monday, 17th, feb, vet, who, lost, baby, came, back, to, work, she, is, very, upset, and, weepy, everyone, has, been, lovely, with, her, hopefully, it, is, just, time, and, tlc, we, are, very, busy, again, and, have, had, an, enquiry, from, a, farmer, who, is, thinking, of, changing, vets, which, is, really, good, news, that, is, three, new, farmers, in, total, now, if, only, we, had, enough, vets, four, practices, around, carlisle, have, advertised, recently, and, none, of, the, positions, have, been, filled, it’s, quite, worrying, tuesday, i, took, vet, who, lost, baby, home, again, today, she, is, not, well, and, in, a, lot, of, pain, so, she’s, gone, back, to, bed, i, hope, she’s, feeling, better, soon, usual, day, otherwise, weds, vet, is, a, lot, better, today, apparently, they, think, it, may, be, the, cocodamol, she, was, taking, she, was, a, lot, happier, a, little, drained, but, ok, mr, w, came, in, today, his, cows, are, arriving, on, friday, hopefully, this, will, be, our, last, farm, to, restock, he, has, had, a, lot, of, alterations, done, to, the, farm, and, a, new, parlour, so, it’s, quite, exciting, thursday, we, did, some, sheep, exports, for, slaughter, from, longtown, today, the, first, of, that, sort, of, thing, since, fmd, it, was, of, course, a, bit, of, a, faf, as, they, now, have, to, be, retagged, and, checked, so, it, takes, a, little, longer, in, the, afternoon, i, had, a, meeting, with, sr, from, university, of, reading, she, is, planning, to, do, research, regarding, the, interherd, programme, and, she, had, picked, 3, vet, practices, to, see, how, the, programme, helps, the, vets, and, the, farmers, work, better, together, and, the, improvements, it, makes, to, the, farmers, record, keeping, so, she, is, going, to, meet, 3, of, our, farmers, who, use, interherd, and, interview, them, and, give, them, free, training, so, that, should, please, them, fri, day, off, me, and, daughter, went, to, newcastle, shopping, i’m, not, a, good, shopper, but, i, did, behave, and, we, had, a, good, day, mr, w’s, cows, arrived, all, fit, and, healthy, so, that, is, us, complete, now, ass, we, were, if, not, better, sad, news, though, we, heard, one, of, our, farmers, dropped, down, dead, suddenly, it, was, very, sad, as, we, had, seen, him, in, the, morning, and, he, was, his, normal, self, so, it, was, quite, a, shock, his, family, must, be, devastated, mind, if, there’s, a, good, way, to, go, that’s, it, week, beginning, 24th, february, monday, 24th, feb, another, vet, a, lot, better, today, almost, back, to, her, normal, cheery, self, she, is, a, lot, more, positive, we, took, the, bull, by, the, horns, so, to, speak, and, reduced, the, prices, of, some, drugs, we, will, have, to, wait, until, the, 10th, march, before, we, find, out, what, the, government, is, going, to, do, regarding, the, selling, of, drugs, but, the, farmers, are, very, pleased, tuesday, i, got, another, phone, call, from, mr, c, and, he, said, he, would, like, to, change, vets, to, us, so, good, news, husband, spoke, to, his, old, vet, and, explained, why, etc, it, is, very, difficult, and, i, think, that, in, the, future, there, may, be, more, changing, of, vets, where, as, in, the, past, it, never, happened, but, even, farmers, appreciate, competition, now, it, again, is, worrying, milk, recorded, at, mr, g, tonight, it’s, always, good, crack, as, they, say, weds, milk, recorded, early, morning, and, then, showed, them, the, interherd, programme, they, are, going, to, try, it, i, think, in, the, afternoon, i, went, with, other, vet, to, vet, a, horse, for, purchase, it, can, be, tricky, sometimes, and, two, pairs, of, eyes, are, better, than, one, as, it, turned, out, the, horse, was, lame, so, we, couldn’t, vet, it, so, we, will, have, to, go, back, another, day, thursday, normal, day, did, some, more, sheep, exports, in, the, afternoon, they, have, a, very, efficient, system, at, longtown, so, it, makes, it, a, lot, easier, fri, i, went, to, farmer, s, funeral, this, morning, it, was, very, sad, i, don’t, like, funerals, well, i, don’t, suppose, anyone, does, but, it, stayed, fine, and, he, had, a, good, send, off, in, the, afternoon, i, got, an, opportunity, to, do, some, more, blood, sampling, just, 15, so, it, was, good, it’s, getting, used, to, handling, everything, and, forgetting, you’re, at, the, end, that, shits, and, kicks, no, broken, limbs, and, i, got, blood, week, beginning, 3rd, march, mon, 3rd, march, i, went, to, help, a, tt, test, in, the, morning, just, taking, numbers, we, now, have, 4, farms, on, restrictions, due, to, tb, reactors, but, up, to, now, on, the, cows, taken, for, further, tests, no, lesions, have, been, fund, we, now, get, to, do, the, repeat, 60, day, test, on, the, farms, now, as, defra, can’t, keep, up, sounds, familiar, we, saw, the, accountant, in, the, afternoon, we, had, sent, 9, months, of, accounts, to, him, as, we, need, to, see, how, the, practice, was, now, doing, anyway, it, was, not, as, bad, as, we, thought, but, the, income, is, down, but, is, slowly, growing, the, main, problem, is, farmers, won’t, call, out, for, sick, cows, now, they, will, leave, it, longer, or, try, to, treat, them, themselves, mainly, due, to, them, watching, their, spending, mr, w, had, a, problem, with, his, interherd, he, needed, to, run, his, extensification, figures, and, they, didn’t, add, up, so, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, trying, to, figure, out, why, i, think, i, know, why, it, was, how, he, set, it, up, initially, so, it, may, need, his, entry, dates, changed, tues, went, tt, testing, again, this, morning, it, was, a, lovely, morning, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, sorting, mr, w’s, problem, out, and, it, worked, he, was, chuffed, the, good, is, i, think, i, now, understand, extensifications, weds, caught, up, on, some, paperwork, in, the, morning, i, helped, new, nurse, with, a, dog, grooming, in, the, afternoon, which, was, fun, she, is, doing, really, well, and, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, we, both, ended, up, soaked, thanks, to, the, dog, but, it, looked, loads, better, when, it, went, home, good, news, we, get, a, new, vet, from, south, africa, starting, 1.4.03, he, worked, over, here, during, fmd, and, met, someone, and, their, relationship, has, lasted, hence, he, wants, a, job, in, carlisle, so, bingo, here, comes, a, holiday, thursday, friday, very, busy, in, the, practice, everyone, kept, going, we, have, a, great, team, and, they, really, come, into, their, own, when, it’s, busy, i, love, the, way, everyone, pulls, together, they, are, very, dedicated, week, beginning, 10th, march, monday, quiet, day, for, a, monday, but, the, weather, has, been, nice, so, they, are, all, out, playing, but, we, had, quite, a, few, lambings, to, do, that’s, one, thing, that, has, changed, since, fmd, prior, to, fmd, we, hardly, used, to, do, any, lambings, for, farmers, but, since, we, now, do, far, more, last, year, we, put, it, down, to, them, having, new, stock, but, it, seems, to, be, the, same, this, year, tuesday, today, is, milk, recording, day, i, have, 3, recordings, today, they, all, need, boxes, and, paperwork, i, don’t, have, to, help, at, any, of, the, milkings, though, which, is, good, as, they, are, quite, a, way, from, each, other, but, a, nice, day, for, a, drive, weds, thurs, fri, the, end, of, our, weeks, seem, to, be, busier, than, the, beginnings, at, the, moment, it, has, been, non, stop, one, disadvantage, when, it, is, so, busy, is, you, don’t, have, the, time, to, chat, as, often, i, took, some, drugs, to, a, farm, our, last, one, to, restock, as, he, was, having, alterations, done, it, was, amazing, to, see, the, transformations, he, had, made, to, the, farm, all, geared, to, one, person, being, able, to, do, more, alone, with, more, cows, interesting, week, beginning, 17th, march, mon, tuesday, i, went, with, another, vet, to, mr, c’s, for, his, tt, and, blood, test, another, vet, did, the, tt, and, i, did, the, blood, as, part, of, my, lay, blood, tester’s, licence, i, needed, to, do, 150, which, i, managed, it, was, good, fun, and, the, weather, was, great, we, had, to, spread, it, over, 2, days, due, to, the, amount, of, cattle, it, was, really, good, practice, for, me, and, i, think, i’ve, cracked, it, now, there, are, talks, about, giving, tt, testing, to, lay, people, but, quite, how, and, when, is, anyone’s, guess, weds, more, blood, testing, today, i’ve, really, cracked, it, now, only, i’ve, discovered, muscles, in, my, arms, i, didn’t, know, i, had, i, enjoy, the, blood, testing, sad, isn’t, it, thursday, i, had, a, morning, with, alco, waste, management, sorting, out, all, the, clinical, waste, regulations, and, they, need, more, detail, of, what, actually, goes, in, our, waste, we, always, provided, a, free, service, to, farmers, for, disposing, of, sharps, and, old, drug, and, empty, drugs, etc, but, we, are, going, to, have, to, start, charging, now, it, is, now, 100, dearer, a, month, than, it, was, fri, me, and, husband, spent, the, morning, looking, at, fees, income, etc, and, seeing, where, we, can, increase, fees, to, help, cover, if, we, lose, the, right, to, dispense, drugs, to, farmers, which, we, still, haven’t, heard, about, to, continue, as, we, are, we, will, have, to, make, the, difference, up, it’s, just, how, week, beginning, 24th, march, monday, doing, the, paperwork, for, a, tt, test, it, was, a, beautiful, day, i, do, enjoy, doing, this, especially, when, the, weather’s, good, and, they, are, very, nice, farmers, i, also, get, to, spend, the, day, with, husband, which, makes, a, change, although, we, work, together, we, don’t, often, get, to, see, much, of, each, other, tuesday, busy, day, spent, most, of, it, making, sure, everything, got, done, and, helping, out, weds, i, went, to, the, careers, convention, at, the, sands, centre, it, was, very, busy, and, we, had, a, lot, of, interest, but, a, long, day, before, going, someone, phoned, to, say, there, was, a, collie, dog, running, around, on, the, roundabout, so, me, and, new, nurse, went, to, see, if, we, could, catch, it, well, it, didn’t, want, caught, but, i, was, really, worried, it, got, onto, the, motorway, so, we, phoned, the, police, and, the, dog, warden, who, incidentally, couldn’t, come, until, 9am, as, he, didn’t, start, til, then, so, i, had, to, politely, explain, that, he, would, have, to, be, the, police, dog, handler, wasn’t, much, help, but, at, least, he, stopped, the, traffic, bless, him, the, dog, warden, did, appear, 5, minutes, later, and, it, was, only, 8.30, am, so, we, managed, to, get, the, dog, off, the, roundabout, and, catch, it, everyone, safe, thankfully, thurs, fri, busy, days, new, vet, from, south, africa, phoned, so, he’s, coming, to, see, us, on, monday, to, pick, up, his, vehicle, and, meet, everyone, he, sounds, pleasant, so, we, will, see, my, joke, at, the, moment, when, people, ask, where, we, found, him, is, that, we, got, him, off, the, internet, it, is, a, little, worrying, not, having, met, him, first, but, it, should, work, watch, this, space, week, beginning, 31st, march, monday, we, have, had, l, staying, for, two, weeks, she’s, a, vet, student, from, london, and, stayed, with, us, about, this, tine, last, year, it, was, interesting, to, go, over, the, changes, from, a, year, ago, last, time, she, was, here, people, were, restocking, and, there, was, an, element, of, wariness, so, it, was, interesting, to, fill, her, in, on, how, things, are, now, one, thing, she, mentioned, was, noticing, the, stock, in, the, fields, was, nice, as, there, were, only, a, few, still, last, year, talking, over, things, is, still, hard, sometimes, although, it, seems, a, long, time, ago, the, feelings, and, emotions, are, still, deep, certain, parts, can, still, hit, a, raw, nerve, there, seems, to, be, a, mere, anger, at, the, moment, generally, people, and, farmers, are, wanting, to, know, why, they, still, have, restrictions, what, is, going, to, happen, about, shows, and, sales, etc, and, will, normality, ever, return, unfortunately, i, think, not, not, in, the, way, they, want, it, to, tuesday, our, new, vet, started, today, we, got, on, very, well, it, has, taken, us, so, long, to, find, a, vet, and, if, the, work, and, testing, carries, on, increasing, we, are, going, to, need, another, one, wednesday, very, busy, day, husband, s, gone, to, talk, at, a, bcva, conference, and, agm, so, poor, new, vet, has, been, thrown, in, at, the, deep, end, it, has, been, very, busy, but, he, seems, to, be, coping, well, the, clients, were, very, impressed, so, far, so, long, may, it, last, it, is, good, to, have, new, staff, with, new, ideas, i, quite, enjoy, it, and, he, is, definitely, a, big, hit, with, the, female, clients, it, really, does, make, you, embarrassed, to, be, female, when, they, go, into, the, consulting, room, you, count, to, 4, and, then, comes, the, girlie, giggle, quite, funny, thursday, sad, day, today, my, sister, had, been, confirmed, as, having, cervical, cancer, no, more, on, that, for, now, friday, had, another, interherd, sale, today, one, thing, fmd, has, forced, on, farmers, is, the, need, for, efficient, records, and, interherd, is, brilliant, at, that, it’s, so, clever, one, of, our, farmers, who, has, had, it, for, a, while, and, has, 120, milking, cows, now, does, all, his, daily, records, in, 5, 10, minutes, can’t, be, bad, week, beginning, 7th, april, monday, busy, day, new, vet, is, settling, in, really, well, and, coping, fine, if, we, carry, on, at, this, rate, we, will, need, another, vet, a, lot, of, it, depends, on, how, much, more, testing, we, are, going, to, get, and, what, happens, with, commission, report, into, dispensing, drugs, tuesday, sr, came, today, from, uni, of, reading, who, own, the, interherd, program, we, went, round, some, of, the, farmers, that, used, it, and, helped, sort, out, any, queries, it, was, a, good, day, i, learnt, a, lot, and, the, farmers, found, it, useful, too, she, said, she, would, come, again, later, in, the, year, so, i, think, we, might, try, and, organise, for, them, all, to, come, to, the, practise, for, a, chat, wednesday, did, some, interherd, training, with, one, of, the, farmers, wives, we, said, just, an, hour, as, she, wasn’t, fully, computer, literate, anyway, 4, hours, later, she, had, well, and, truly, got, the, hang, of, it, she, was, very, keen, and, i, really, enjoyed, it, thursday, friday, they, blur, into, one, as, it, has, been, so, busy, everyone, has, been, flat, out, we, are, going, to, start, the, vet, advertising, again, and, another, nurse, receptionist, week, beginning, 14th, april, monday, got, caught, up, today, sorted, out, all, the, queries, quite, pleased, with, my, self, tuesday, went, to, a, local, nursery, to, talk, about, vets, to, 3, year, olds, i, was, quite, dreading, it, but, thankfully, it, was, great, they, were, really, good, i, took, some, dressing, up, clothes, and, x, ray, instruments, and, teddy, bears, and, they, operated, and, had, a, really, good, time, one, of, them, asked, me, if, all, the, cows, and, sheep, were, better, and, did, they, still, have, funny, feet, and, mouths, week, beginning, 21st, april, tuesday, wednesday, quite, busy, days, and, a, lot, to, catch, up, on, we, all, went, away, with, sister, and, niece, this, weekend, to, husband, s, mum, and, dads, caravan, we, had, a, great, time, sister, s, biopsy, off, rest, of, week, week, beginning, 28th, april, monday, three, farmers, milk, recording, today, and, tomorrow, so, busy, dropping, pets, and, paperwork, off, advertised, for, a, vet, today, fingers, crossed, off, for, two, weeks, helping, sister, to, move, interviewed, a, nurse, receptionist, she, is, perfect, and, experienced, she, wrote, a, letter, in, as, her, husbands, job, had, brought, them, to, the, area, so, she, starts, 12th, may, i, wish, it, was, as, easy, finding, a, vet, week, beginning, 12th, may, monday, our, new, girlie, started, today, she, is, very, keen, and, capable, she, has, done, really, well, even, with, the, computer, system, that, she, was, dreading, tuesday, busy, day, also, 2x, milk, recordings, so, a, bit, of, hollering, about, i, was, thinking, it, is, about, a, year, we, have, had, now, of, normal, work, everyone, new, appears, to, be, getting, on, with, it, as, the, saying, goes, everyone, bears, a, scar, and, has, a, story, to, tell, and, realise, it, is, not, the, same, but, how, could, it, be, weds, fri, quite, busy, but, capable, at, work, daughter, got, the, job, for, the, training, in, her, m, apprentice, course, so, she, is, over, the, moon, it’s, all, a, new, learning, curve, you, suddenly, realise, she, is, growing, up, getting, a, job, and, leaving, school, unfortunately, this, morning, daughter, has, decided, she, doesn’t, want, to, leave, full, time, education, yet, and, is, worried, about, the, job, she, is, wanting, to, do, a, business, course, at, a, college, so, all, change, again, we, have, had, bid, discussions, and, are, going, to, go, down, to, connexions, next, week, sat, yf, young, farmers, field, day, today, i, love, these, days, it, is, amazing, the, effort, and, enjoyment, that, makes, it, such, a, good, day, there, is, also, such, a, high, standard, in, all, the, classes, i, admire, the, enthusiasm, of, the, young, farmers, and, just, hope, they, can, survive, somehow, week, beginning, 19th, may, monday, we, have, found, the, course, daughter, wants, to, do, at, college, thanks, to, connexions, the, bad, news, is, it, is, not, done, locally, she, could, do, a, local, course, but, it, would, be, wasted, time, to, some, extent, big, discussions, most, of, the, week, we, have, found, they, do, the, course, in, blackburn, and, preston, my, sister, and, mum, live, down, there, and, are, more, than, happy, for, her, to, move, in, i, just, don’t, know, if, i, am, ready, to, let, her, go, but, i’ll, have, to, be, a, big, girl, about, it, we, have, sent, application, forms, off, so, will, have, to, wait, and, see, now, and, try, and, get, used, to, it, weds, really, good, evening, at, penrith, re, the, discussion, it, was, so, good, to, talk, to, the, other, diarists, and, realise, and, be, able, to, relate, so, closely, to, what, they, said, it, was, poignant, to, see, what, other, people, had, written, and, interesting, to, see, what, you, had, done, so, far, with, the, data, collected, it, would, be, brilliant, to, hand, to, any, future, study, or, enquiry, as, it, is, proof, surely, not, all, these, people, could, be, wrong, and, to, have, so, many, diarists, start, and, finish, is, amazing, i’m, sure, it, can, be, used, for, so, many, different, topics, amazing, i, am, personally, very, proud, to, have, been, a, part, of, it, and, although, sometimes, i, have, wondered, if, what, i, was, writing, was, any, use, i, can, see, now, how, it, comes, together, than, you, all, for, the, opportunity, shame, not, in, better, circumstances, it, has, helped, me, more, than, i, originally, realised, but, thinking, back, it, was, all, unbelievable, and, not, something, i, would, like, to, repeat, i, am, ever, the, optimist, or, so, i’m, told, and, do, believe, or, hope, things, and, farming, can, recover, not, fully, but, enough, to, be, able, to, show, other, people, what, a, wonderful, life, it, is, hard, but, special, week, beginning, 26th, may, never, stopped, on, tuesday, after, bank, holiday, so, busy, new, vet, is, settling, in, now, but, his, girlfriend, can’t, find, a, job, so, that’s, a, bit, worrying, he, may, leave, sooner, than, expected, oh, no, not, advertising, again, the, rest, of, the, week, was, uneventful, really, ticked, along, nicely, we, met, up, with, some, friends, on, wednesday, evening, who, holiday, in, the, lakes, each, year, so, it, was, nice, to, see, them, again, we, had, a, good, evening, we, were, also, out, on, thursday, night, with, a, drug, rep, very, nice, meal, and, they, have, offered, to, pay, for, husband, bri, catt, vet, ass, meeting, in, amsterdam, in, october, so, that, was, very, nice, business, link, have, also, offered, to, help, us, get, a, consultant, in, to, see, if, they, have, any, ideas, for, improving, maybe, they, can, find, vets, too, all, in, all, quite, an, exciting, week, week, beginning, 2nd, june, the, exams, have, started, everyone, warns, to, beware, but, daughter, is, very, laid, back, about, it, all, too, much, i, feel, but, as, long, as, she, does, her, best, i, went, to, the, accountants, to, look, at, the, books, for, the, end, of, year, so, far, not, quite, finished, yet, and, thankfully, we, won’t, be, needing, income, support, this, year, it, is, so, much, better, more, regulation, but, nothing, we, can’t, cope, with, honest, week, beginning, 9th, june, daughter, had, an, interview, at, blackburn, college, it, wasn’t, a, very, nice, place, but, then, i’m, not, going, preston, is, on, the, 25th, so, she, will, decide, after, that, niece, had, her, c.t, scan, for, her, head, that, was, eventful, and, lisa, and, her, naughty, jelly, babies, zapped, all, went, well, but, she, was, a, bit, sore, after, week, beginning, 23rd, june, monday, went, tt, testing, with, another, vet, today, it, was, a, retest, due, to, them, having, a, reactor, it, was, a, good, day, they, are, nice, people, there, is, a, father, and, 2, sons, during, fmd, i, had, a, phone, call, one, night, and, this, was, just, someone, crying, on, the, end, of, it, i, didn’t, know, what, to, say, and, i, wasn’t, sure, who, it, was, but, i, just, spoke, about, mainly, silly, things, i, can’t, really, remember, what, but, didn’t, get, much, of, a, response, just, yes, and, no’s, and, i, thought, i, recognised, the, voice, as, being, the, father, we, were, with, today, anyway, during, lunch, which, we, had, at, the, farm, we, were, chatting, and, of, course, got, into, fmd, and, he, thanked, me, it, took, aback, but, he, said, he, had, appreciated, me, waffling, on, it, was, the, night, of, the, day, his, cows, had, been, shot, and, he, had, phoned, to, let, us, know, but, he, said, he, just, broke, down, and, couldn’t, say, anything, anyway, he, laughed, because, he, said, he, was, going, to, hang, up, but, he, couldn’t, get, word, in, edgeways, because, i, was, wittering, but, he, said, he, did, feel, a, bit, better, after, so, we, had, a, good, heart, to, heart, tuesday, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, and, sorted, some, bits, and, pieces, out, weds, took, daughter, to, preston, college, for, an, interview, it, was, good, and, seems, a, nice, place, i, can’t, believe, she, will, be, leaving, home, at, the, end, of, august, very, scary, i’m, really, going, to, have, to, be, a, big, girl, about, it, thursday, we, went, to, visit, business, link, to, discuss, some, more, things, and, they, are, hopefully, going, to, help, us, pay, a, firm, of, consultants, to, help, us, out, to, see, how, we, can, improve, and, move, the, practice, on, so, that’s, exciting, fri, went, milk, recording, first, thing, so, that, was, good, fun, after, recording, i, had, to, collect, one, of, our, elderly, clients, and, her, dog, that, was, coming, for, an, operation, the, lady, is, 92, and, her, and, the, dog, are, very, close, so, she, wanted, to, stay, with, her, until, she, was, sedated, so, she, was, pleased, she, could, come, with, her, the, girls, all, laugh, at, me, because, i, have, quite, a, few, little, old, ladies, who, we, visit, and, keep, a, check, on, their, pets, week, beginning, 30th, june, not, a, lot, of, excitement, at, all, this, week, we, have, been, kept, going, and, i, caught, up, on, paperwork, we, are, going, to, my, sister’s, this, week, end, to, start, sorting, her, spare, bedroom, for, daughter, week, beginning, 7th, july, mon, spent, the, morning, explaining, to, our, newest, girlie, about, interherd, and, how, to, work, it, this, will, enable, her, to, help, me, on, the, data, entry, side, we, also, had, a, little, trip, out, around, some, of, the, farms, that, record, with, us, to, give, her, an, idea, of, where, they, are, tuesday, went, exporting, sheep, today, they, all, had, to, be, retagged, it, was, quite, warm, not, much, fun, i’ll, maybe, get, new, girl, to, do, exporting, weds, 2, milk, recordings, today, so, quite, busy, with, bottles, and, sheets, and, things, and, they, are, both, in, the, opposite, direction, to, each, other, never, mind, it, was, a, nice, day, for, driving, about, thursday, we, have, got, a, new, vet, to, replace, vet, from, sa, she, seems, very, lovely, she, is, going, to, start, on, 4.08.03, we, used, an, agency, and, it, has, proved, worthwhile, we, worked, out, that, rather, than, paying, for, endless, adverts, we, would, give, it, a, go, and, it, seems, to, have, worked, so, that’s, exciting, fri, we, went, car, hunting, today, as, if, we, all, go, out, at, the, week, end, it, becomes, a, bit, crushed, and, sometimes, we, end, up, taking, two, vehicles, so, we, have, really, splashed, out, rightly, or, wrongly, and, bought, a, new, crv, truck, it’s, very, posh, so, we, get, that, on, 21.07.03, week, beginning, 14th, july, monday, person, from, the, interherd, office, came, up, to, see, us, and, we, visited, a, few, of, our, farmers, that, are, on, interherd, between, them, and, nmr, they, have, really, tried, with, providing, quality, and, cost, effective, equipment, that, is, helpful, to, the, farmers, you, can, now, use, interherd, in, some, milking, parlours, which, is, really, useful, tues, we, went, to, see, a, horse, with, a, cough, and, after, treating, the, pony, we, were, chatting, and, they, have, converted, a, small, barn, into, a, camping, hostel, their, farm, is, along, hadrian’s, wall, and, since, having, foot, and, mouth, and, doing, the, barn, up, they, have, nearly, covered, their, costs, they, still, have, a, few, stock, but, not, as, many, mr, i, was, saying, how, his, father, used, to, milk, about, 25, cows, and, be, able, to, make, a, good, living, from, that, it’s, amazing, the, difference, weds, we, got, a, new, payroll, package, today, so, i, spent, most, of, my, day, trying, to, understand, it, i, was, very, bog, eyed, by, the, end, but, i, think, i, understand, it, and, it, seems, to, work, well, and, should, be, a, lot, easier, and, quicker, thursday, busy, day, there, were, lots, of, ops, and, farm, calls, a, couple, of, farmers, have, been, asking, about, prescriptions, as, soon, they, will, be, able, to, get, their, drugs, from, anywhere, a, lot, have, said, they, appreciate, they, have, to, pay, for, the, service, one, way, or, another, and, are, happy, to, carry, on, as, they, have, been, doing, we, will, lose, money, to, some, extent, but, how, much, remains, to, be, seen, and, we, will, have, to, cope, friday, off, went, to, see, westlife, with, daughter]
## 4 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1963, gender, m, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, saturday, 9th, march, 2002, an, old, african, proverb, states, the, best, time, to, plant, a, tree, was, 20, years, ago, the, next, best, time, is, now, i, should, have, started, this, diary, over, a, year, ago, to, keep, track, of, changes, in, the, unrolling, of, the, fmd, epidemic, and, my, feelings, towards, it, today, is, probably, a, good, day, to, start, the, diary, as, i, was, about, to, sit, down, after, a, really, bad, week, to, write, some, comments, for, the, lessons, learned, inquiry, and, thought, i, should, check, the, web, site, for, an, update, i, found, out, to, my, considerable, annoyance, that, the, inquiry, was, coming, to, cumbria, to, meet, with, defra, and, hold, the, open, meeting, on, tuesday, night, and, if, you, wanted, a, ticket, to, attend, then, you, had, to, apply, by, a, week, ago, the, overall, impression, is, that, the, govt, do, not, want, to, learn, lessons, i, was, looking, after, kids, as, wife, was, on, counselling, course, and, i, was, on, call, sat, morn, the, vets, were, busy, so, i, ended, up, taking, children, into, vets, with, me, they, watched, videos, in, the, waiting, room, while, i, sorted, out, and, consulted, coming, down, with, cold, after, spending, friday, tb, testing, on, restocking, farm, but, at, least, i, managed, to, avoid, getting, kicked, and, crushed, the, farm, hand, who, is, one, of, the, hard, lads, of, wigton, refused, to, get, in, with, the, fat, bulls, to, test, them, after, getting, floored, by, a, kick, if, the, f, ministry, want, them, f, tested, they, can, f, coming, and, etc, etc, i, am, putting, in, a, letter, to, say, why, they, were, not, tested, to, see, response, didn’t, get, finished, on, farm, till, 5.45, pm, having, started, with, a, caesarean, at, 5, 30am.must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, the, farming, economy, is, bizarre, at, the, moment, he, has, silage, in, heaps, all, over, the, farm, so, instead, of, feeding, straw, which, is, incredibly, expensive, 70, ton, he, is, feeding, the, better, quality, silage, and, the, calves, are, all, too, big, there, are, 30, to, calve, so, a, few, nights, work, there, where, ever, i, go, on, farms, the, stories, that, farmers, are, wanting, to, get, off, their, chest, about, the, maff, incompetence, and, inconsistency, is, bewildering, there, is, a, lot, of, anger, out, there, i, went, to, do, the, restocking, sentinel, visit, for, mg, l, fm, he, is, usually, the, most, laid, back, of, guys, but, he, told, them, he, was, bringing, his, cattle, on, and, he, would, see, them, in, court, why, are, we, doing, sentinel, visits, to, a, farm, that, had, fmd, 11, months, ago, the, virus, only, lives, a, month, sunday, mothering, sunday, kids, had, all, got, presents, and, cards, for, mum, they, brought, them, all, in, with, a, breakfast, tray, very, cute, but, pear, juice, all, over, the, carpet, tim, and, i, spent, sat, night, baking, a, chocolate, cake, for, her, which, meant, i, hadn’t, got, lunch, never, mind, church, was, ps, speaking, on, characters, walking, with, god, and, talking, about, abraham, setting, off, with, out, knowing, where, he, is, going, maybe, i, should, follow, suit, with, large, animal, vetting, being, reduced, to, tb, testing, and, caesareans, the, evening, service, was, really, lively, with, hp, from, austria, about, turning, every, hour, over, to, god, now, that, is, what, i, should, do, g, r, called, around, sun, afternoon, he, is, pessimistic, about, fertiliser, sales, there, is, that, much, land, and, grass, around, and, the, govt, grants, for, extensification, new, regulations, on, nitrates, is, giving, him, a, headache, though, as, he, points, out, it, is, not, fertiliser, that, cause, the, problems, as, they, are, used, by, grass, but, by, phosphates, and, slurry, organics, lough, neigh, has, real, problems, with, algal, blooms, and, they, are, blaming, fertiliser, but, so, has, bassenthwaite, but, there, is, not, any, fertiliser, spread, on, the, fells, so, is, it, really, agriculture, monday, read, test, and, was, very, glad, it, was, clear, as, the, farm, of, origin, of, one, of, batches, has, gone, down, with, tb, more, testing, after, lunch, organic, farm, they, have, just, had, their, first, pay, check, 23p, per, litre, they, were, promised, 36p, when, they, started, to, convert, 2, years, ago, who, would, be, in, agriculture, desperately, behind, in, admin, with, vets, and, home, but, at, least, the, clinical, work, pays, tuesday, caught, up, on, a, lot, of, admin, as, back, to, 6, vets, for, day, 2, cows, aborting, on, restocking, farm, more, disease, rota, still, for, 5vets, yuk, the, evening, open, meeting, poorly, attendee, due, to, poor, publicity, i, am, only, local, practitioner, i, phoned, around, no, one, had, been, invited, or, had, seen, advance, publicity, and, we, all, feel, that, they, are, not, interested, and, that, they, will, not, listen, some, moving, testimony, and, the, bullying, culture, came, through, and, the, frustration, and, anger, that, comes, from, dealing, with, a, faceless, bureaucracy, distant, in, london, 11, million, animals, 2000, farms, in, cumbria, businesses, wrecked, lives, wrecked, a, crisis, turned, into, a, disaster, by, bureaucratic, incompetence, and, political, considerations, i, am, pleased, i, went, i, feel, that, it, is, like, a, sense, of, closure, the, funeral, so, to, speak, the, end, and, i, spoke, with, wife, when, i, got, back, i, feel, i, can, lay, the, past, down, and, look, to, the, future, weds, day, off, k, a, for, lunch, and, sort, out, finances, etc, and, write, diary, everyone, is, saying, about, this, time, last, year, and, glad, that, fmd, is, finished, went, to, see, grease, the, school, production, it, was, very, well, done, brought, back, memories, of, 6th, form, thurs, 300, pages, of, a4, waiting, for, me, in, my, in, tray, courtesy, of, defra, are, they, mindless, or, what, rang, to, speak, to, ah, but, only, got, hold, of, n, and, told, her, it, was, out, of, order, i, should, get, my, blood, pressure, measured, as, some, one, says, defra, stupid, idiots, so, much, for, closure, i, feel, very, frustrated, if, this, is, the, future, of, farm, practice, anal, glands, here, we, come, who, said, a, vets, life, ain’t, glamorous, managed, to, calm, down, and, get, the, next, 2, weeks, of, testing, organised, it, is, a, good, job, that, we, are, organising, it, as, trying, to, get, folk, on, the, phone, is, n’t, easy, workload, picking, up, and, managed, to, persuade, gg, to, advertise, even, if, only, at, tvi, hq, all, of, the, local, practices, who, have, advertised, have, had, very, few, if, any, responses, we, are, busy, but, with, defra, work, spent, time, singing, grease, songs, much, to, nurses, amusement, did, restocking, visit, at, lynedraw, they, gave, me, a, look, around, it, is, amazingly, clean, because, even, after, pressure, washing, the, spiders, usually, make, a, come, back, but, the, buildings, are, sterile, and, no, cobwebs, or, insect, life, which, usually, abounds, even, in, empty, buildings, weird, there, will, be, a, lot, of, flies, next, year, news, that, pi, has, headship, of, nelson, thom, and, so, we, can, expect, the, discipline, to, improve, again, friday, curry, and, quiz, at, the, boys, school, very, cosmopolitan, for, cumbria, it, was, good, fun, and, the, kids, enjoyed, it, but, we, were, useless, on, the, photos, for, which, you, definitely, need, a, tv, spent, time, chatting, to, local, gp, who, which, was, interesting, they, have, a, place, for, their, son, at, nelson, thom, but, he, isn’t, keen, saturday, 16th, march, working, this, w, e, and, on, call, friday, night, so, had, an, early, start, with, a, caser, on, ewe, a, lambing, hurray, things, are, getting, back, to, normal, even, if, it, is, a, dutch, beltex, the, farmer, is, really, fed, up, and, wants, ah, to, be, sacked, as, he, threatened, to, kill, all, his, recently, imported, dutch, sheep, as, the, paper, work, was, not, right, they, had, come, and, blood, sampled, them, and, then, sent, the, results, to, his, brother, who, is, still, under, form, a, and, then, refused, him, permission, to, move, any, of, the, sheep, off, because, he, shouldn’t, have, any, because, he, was, on, form, a, and, what, were, the, blood, results, for, defra, would, be, a, joke, if, it, wasn’t, so, serious, oh, and, after, my, complaint, about, them, deluging, us, with, paper, yes, you, guessed, it, they, sent, another, 7, x, 20, sheets, of, a4, idiots, aw, is, in, a, tiz, and, so, had, to, get, help, in, sat, morning, which, was, a, shame, but, hey, ho, she, is, not, coping, with, the, post, fmd, constant, changing, of, the, goal, posts, went, to, susan, ian’s, for, another, curry, and, had, a, really, good, time, and, have, decided, to, phase, out, house, group, which, was, coming, hopefully, low, moor, will, set, up, a, 3rd, house, group, for, wigton, hebron, is, going, to, change, to, new, outlook, groups, sun, never, managed, to, get, to, church, as, calls, all, day, beautiful, day, though, the, weather, has, really, picked, up, must, get, garden, sorted, and, seeds, planted, a, came, out, on, call, this, evening, it, is, one, good, point, that, this, job, does, allow, the, kids, to, join, with, me, she, is, really, growing, up, she, wanted, to, go, to, cinema, but, as, wife, was, late, and, weather, good, she, came, back, here, and, they, walked, the, dog, and, wound, up, the, boys, mon, early, morning, call, to, see, a, farmer, who, is, a, scrap, metal, dealer, who, hates, authority, he, therefore, didn’t, want, anyone, on, his, land, during, fmd, and, refused, access, to, maff, and, me, while, i, was, working, there, he, caused, real, problems, and, had, his, gun, removed, by, police, he, was, handled, badly, and, is, a, rogue, the, more, colourful, rumour, was, that, the, real, reason, for, not, allowing, anyone, on, was, the, amount, of, smuggled, cigarettes, was, too, great, to, hide, he, also, runs, a, fishery, shellfish, enterprise, that, is, on, the, beach, at, odd, times, he, was, found, guilty, and, fined, 350, for, his, trouble, but, never, paid, because, he, went, bust, as, everything, is, in, his, wife, and, kids, names, this, is, all, unsubstantiated, rumour, but, quite, amusing, when, push, comes, to, shove, the, ministry, could, do, nothing, with, out, the, cooperation, of, the, farmers, the, vet, students, have, arrived, and, i, feel, a, bit, guilty, about, not, having, them, to, stay, but, i, feel, i, still, need, space, at, the, moment, so, they, are, making, do, with, the, royal, oak, prayer, quad, with, the, lads, which, was, good, i, still, has, not, got, stuff, for, magazine, and, spent, time, praying, tues, the, dates, important, cos, its, my, birthday, 39, today, the, kids, all, brought, presents, in, and, had, breakfast, in, bed, it, was, really, nice, the, number, of, ordinary, calls, to, ill, animals, is, increasing, rapidly, went, to, 2, new, restocking, farms, today, i, think, one, a, day, is, probably, enough, they, were, both, full, of, stories, about, the, ministry, and, wanted, to, unload, to, some, one, who, understood, the, first, was, particularly, upsetting, in, that, i, was, admiring, his, new, parlour, and, set, up, that, he, has, put, in, while, waiting, the, 4, months, he, was, then, talking, about, all, the, animals, getting, slaughtered, and, his, wife, was, fighting, back, tears, she, is, also, very, unsure, about, whether, they, are, doing, the, right, thing, by, investing, in, the, new, parlour, she, is, very, unsure, about, the, future, and, as, they, are, both, reaching, 50, is, it, the, right, thing, to, be, doing, unfortunately, i, think, she, is, right, but, i, couldn’t, say, that, and, made, reassuring, noises, as, they, have, spent, the, money, and, it, is, too, late, now, the, future, for, dairy, is, not, good, the, price, is, going, to, continue, to, be, at, world, prices, which, with, the, current, exchange, rate, is, uneconomic, in, the, uk, the, second, farm, was, sheep, with, drop, and, they, were, grazing, over, the, burial, site, as, they, had, planted, carrots, and, turnips, on, the, surrounding, field, i, couldn’t, listen, to, another, set, of, woes, as, i, was, still, upset, from, the, first, lot, so, kept, conversation, light, and, on, sheep, weds, i, never, realised, that, fmd, is, like, any, other, grief, there, are, anniversaries, to, get, through, and, fears, and, barriers, to, be, put, to, rest, i, was, on, a, farm, to, give, certificates, to, 2, heifers, sold, in, calf, they, were, all, saying, it, was, a, year, to, the, day, that, fmd, hit, the, village, the, ai, fellow, was, there, as, well, and, he, was, talking, about, what, he, had, been, doing, he, was, saying, that, he, thinks, it, will, be, years, before, everybody, returns, to, normal, he, is, revisiting, farms, where, he, was, helping, with, the, slaughter, for, the, ai, and, was, saying, he, had, to, take, a, deep, breath, every, time, he, returns, to, one, of, these, farms, there, was, a, partners, meeting, at, lunchtime, as, usual, aw, turned, up, late, but, finally, decided, to, advertise, to, see, whether, there, are, vets, out, there, who, will, come, to, work, in, fmd, country, it, is, a, bit, frustrating, as, i, foresaw, that, we, would, be, busy, and, we, could, have, nabbed, d, before, longtown, but, gg, ever, cautious, we, went, completely, around, in, circles, trying, different, options, but, as, with, everything, else, the, only, prediction, we, can, make, is, that, we, know, that, we, don’t, know, so, much, depends, on, govt, decisions, on, supply, of, pharmaceuticals, to, farms, and, on, the, future, of, the, svs, state, vet, service, for, who, we, usually, do, 15, of, our, farm, work, for, and, currently, do, 50, for, thursday, tomorrow, i, will, get, a, lunch, break, this, is, my, resolution, have, not, managed, to, stop, for, lunch, this, week, yet, as, farm, calls, keep, coming, in, and, partners, meeting, today, was, geckos, bums, and, goose, bums, rectal, prolapses, variety, is, the, spice, of, life, also, had, much, laughter, over, watching, norman, in, the, bath, jg’s, tortoise, which, has, come, out, of, hibernation, early, and, is, anorexic, much, clunking, and, bumping, 2, lambings, and, cow, caesaer, after, hours, so, busy, on, call, it, was, also, the, last, house, group, so, it, was, end, of, an, era, we, have, been, having, them, in, our, house, for, the, past, 6, years, with, different, folk, and, have, had, god, speak, to, us, and, to, others, through, it, but, it, is, time, to, move, on, friday, started, with, another, caeaser, and, early, morning, start, and, didn’t, get, my, lunch, break, time, to, reconsider, things, again, had, folk, for, dinner, which, had, been, arranged, a, long, time, ago, it, seemed, like, a, good, idea, at, time, and, was, enjoyable, but, after, a, 14, hour, day, yesterday, and, a, 10, hour, one, today, i, was, not, feeling, life, and, soul, of, the, party, one, couple, are, still, trying, to, decide, the, future, of, their, farm, they, are, thought, out, progressive, family, farm, and, yet, they, are, not, convinced, about, what, to, do, he, finds, it, difficult, to, because, there, are, three, generations, to, consider, his, father, would, go, out, and, buy, stock, tomorrow, and, his, son, wants, to, come, home, to, work, but, they, feel, he, should, broaden, his, options, very, difficult, he, was, also, saying, that, he, ha, d, helped, a, neighbour, who, flagged, him, down, as, he, was, going, past, he, wanted, help, to, move, a, cow, that, was, down, the, last, time, he, touched, a, cow, it, was, when, his, own, were, slaughtered, it, knocked, him, off, his, stride, for, the, rest, of, the, day, had, a, good, time, as, when, i, looked, at, time, was, 1, o, clock, sat, 23rd, march, wife, went, on, her, counselling, course, for, day, which, left, me, a, bit, on, edge, this, morning, as, i, was, on, call, sat, am, and, looking, after, 4, kids, but, they, managed, with, out, me, back, sore, and, stiff, as, i’ve, missed, the, gym, but, will, go, back, on, tues, still, managed, to, get, a, bit, done, in, garden, it, was, a, great, spring, day, and, made, me, feel, like, summer, was, coming, went, to, beckfoot, to, beach, in, the, afternoon, with, kids, evening, went, to, bed, early, as, shattered, sun, 24th, back, stiffer, after, gardening, and, went, to, church, davidsons, have, moved, into, thursby, so, will, be, good, to, have, them, around, and, at, school, watched, northbank, beat, stanwix, u12, s, 6, 0, the, boys, played, well, and, passed, the, ball, around, a, lot, son, played, well, too, must, work, less, w, e’s, and, watch, the, boys, play, more, mon, 25th, looking, forward, to, finishing, on, friday, as, another, large, test, today, started, at, 8, 30am, and, finished, at, 6pm, but, at, least, it, meant, i, was, out, the, office, and, did, not, have, to, face, any, of, the, usual, hassle, factors, it, was, good, to, see, as, the, place, is, always, well, run, and, organised, a, real, family, farm, with, three, generations, working, together, but, granddad, at, 75, still, very, much, calling, the, shots, the, craic, was, good, at, lunch, as, their, sister, is, friendly, with, my, wife, so, i, got, custard, with, my, rhubarb, tart, my, wife, doesn’t, like, custard, so, i, never, get, as, i, cannot, be, bothered, to, make, it, for, one, as, the, kids, never, have, it, and, so, are, very, conservative, they, were, asking, my, view, of, the, future, too, as, they, have, sold, bullocks, privately, ie, not, through, the, auction, as, they, are, on, 21, day, stand, still, and, the, price, is, poorer, than, selling, via, the, auction, defra, will, not, allow, any, trade, through, an, auction, if, the, farms, are, on, standstill, why, if, they, are, dead, in24hrs, there, is, minimal, risk, and, they, are, putting, everyone’s, backs, up, tues, 26th, went, for, my, first, visit, to, another, restocked, farm, and, during, the, 4, month, waiting, as, well, as, visit, new, zealand, he, has, made, a, sandstone, plaque, 3ft, by, 4, ft, and, carved, on, the, date, they, went, down, with, fmd, and, the, number, of, cattle, it, is, almost, a, head, stone, type, memorial, the, cow, had, digestive, problems, a, right, displaced, abomasums, rda, probably, due, to, the, transit, and, change, in, diet, weds, 27th, small, animal, day, and, trying, to, get, everything, organised, for, going, away, finalised, advert, in, vet, record, for, new, assistant, lots, of, adverts, but, no, applicants, all, the, local, practices, are, advertising, and, there, are, no, takers, i, hope, it, is, because, there, is, a, shortage, and, not, from, lack, of, confidence, in, the, area, defra, haven’t, paid, us, for, a, lot, of, visits, and, that, needs, sorted, they, have, no, record, of, the, visits, i, e, they, have, lost, the, claim, forms, in, the, mountain, of, paper, work, they, will, only, pay, on, the, originals, as, if, there, are, duplicates, they, will, probably, pay, on, those, as, well, being, that, well, organised, they, are, really, slipping, back, into, their, old, ways, of, paper, chasing, the, frustration, without, and, within, is, palpable, i, should, just, quit, as, i, will, be, a, civil, servant, once, removed, unless, things, change, the, secretary’s, are, both, on, fmd, funded, computer, courses, so, digging, out, the, paper, work, will, have, to, wait, thurs, 28th, demob, happy, just, the, test, to, read, and, i, am, off, for, 10, days, the, test, was, clear, but, very, busy, as, a, locum, came, for, a, look, around, to, see, if, he, would, do, sa, for, several, days, a, week, any, help, i, think, will, be, a, help, good, friday, missed, out, on, church, as, one, of, the, boys, through, a, complete, wobbler, he, is, not, very, well, just, tired, at, end, of, term, i, hope, then, went, walking, with, family, and, friends, i, must, learn, to, shoot, him, down, when, he, says, it, is, a, little, scramble, what, he, means, is, its, too, dangerous, for, kids, but, it, was, fun, and, we, enjoyed, it, the, weather, was, glorious, and, the, fells, were, crowded, tourism, is, back, went, up, over, sharp, edge, to, blencathra, kids, as, well, holiday, sat, 6th, april, came, back, on, the, late, boat, from, belfast, and, arrived, in, to, wigton, late, the, grandparents, were, sad, to, see, us, go, but, i, think, they, had, also, found, us, all, quite, tiring, the, kids, have, enjoyed, playing, squash, so, that, is, something, i, would, like, to, continue, sun, 7th, april, beautiful, frosty, morning, and, went, to, church, where, the, speaker, arrived, much, to, s’s, relief, just, as, he, was, announcing, the, last, song, before, the, sermon, i, think, he, was, wondering, what, he, would, say, instead, of, the, prepared, sermon, went, to, son, s, foot, ball, cup, match, this, is, 10, year, olds, we, are, talking, about, and, the, referee, was, making, several, bad, decisions, including, a, dubious, penalty, against, his, team, northbank, the, crowd, well, about, 30, of, us, which, for, his, team, is, a, big, crowd, was, getting, a, bit, restless, robbie, was, sprinting, down, the, wing, in, front, of, his, dad, and, me, when, he, was, sent, flying, by, one, of, their, team, his, dad, then, shouted, ref, if, you, gave, a, penalty, for, them, for, nothing, you, could, at, least, give, us, a, foul, for, that, at, which, point, the, ref, blew, his, whistle, and, came, across, and, thumped, him, the, whole, thing, was, about, to, descend, in, to, a, brawl, as, i, and, another, parent, were, trying, to, restore, calm, by, telling, everyone, to, walk, away, which, they, did, followed, by, the, northbank, kids, game, abandoned, so, we, await, the, fa’s, report, so, with, that, and, the, carlisle, manager, being, sacked, and, the, knighton’s, trading, insults, with, the, prospective, buyer, for, carlisle, the, future, of, football, in, carlisle, is, not, looking, good, mon, 8th, last, day, off, for, sorting, out, vcf, magazine, and, getting, up, to, date, with, paper, work, etc, did, carrock, fell, where, we, did, not, see, another, walker, it, was, sunny, and, cold, but, beautiful, at, night, went, to, crusaders, area, meeting, where, they, are, trying, to, get, some, one, to, arrange, area, events, for, kids, and, to, support, the, group, structure, there, is, no, one, who, has, the, time, and, no, funding, to, appoint, a, post, to, do, it, so, went, around, in, circles, too, a, large, degree, but, meeting, decided, to, try, and, raise, the, funding, tues, 9th, feel, like, i, should, have, handed, in, notice, after, today, it, was, awful, going, back, the, response, to, the, advert, for, a, new, vet, now, stands, at, 2, students, who, have, yet, to, qualify, i, had, harry, giving, me, grief, over, the, fact, that, defra, promised, him, that, we, would, test, his, cattle, prior, to, turn, out, i, e, end, of, march, but, haven’t, told, us, very, helpful, his, allocation, has, not, even, come, through, they, are, useless, i, was, at, one, farm, that, has, half, restocked, because, the, parlour, is, not, yet, restored, the, heifers, are, calving, and, he, is, milking, into, a, dump, bucket, and, throwing, the, milk, away, he, can’t, get, more, stock, in, because, he, is, waiting, testing, for, brucellosis, as, his, heifers, were, on, the, same, farm, as, the, french, heifer, that, went, down, he, wanted, to, bring, them, direct, to, his, own, farm, they, would, not, let, him, bring, the, heifers, to, his, own, farm, because, the, paper, work, was, not, through, and, they, not, would, allow, multiple, drop, offs, idiots, so, with, high, levels, of, frustration, and, complete, overload, it, has, not, been, a, good, start, back, tomorrow, i, must, see, what, is, hiding, in, my, in, tray, as, i, never, had, a, chance, to, look, today, weds, 10th, quieter, day, and, managed, to, catch, up, with, paper, work, and, have, had, a, lot, of, next, week, mapped, out, so, feel, more, in, control, night, work, seems, to, be, easing, with, fewer, lambings, students, seem, to, be, enjoying, their, time, with, us, even, though, there, is, too, little, time, to, actually, teach, them, but, it, is, a, luxury, to, have, time, to, go, through, cases, with, them, as, we, take, them, on, a, voluntary, basis, and, at, the, moment, lunch, is, a, higher, priority, than, their, education, i’m, a, selfish, brat, thurs, 11th, spoke, too, soon, chaotic, again, managing, workload, with, so, much, fire, brigade, work, is, not, so, easy, fire, brigade, work, is, the, emergency, work, that, needs, seen, urgently, ie, today, if, not, now, son, isn’t, so, well, again, he, tired, easily, again, today, so, must, make, an, appointment, for, him, but, very, vague, signs, fri, 12th, half, day, finish, yo, i, could, really, get, into, a, 3, and, a, half, day, week, the, down, side, is, it, is, because, my, wife, is, going, away, for, the, w, e, so, i, have, to, be, finished, by, 3, 15, for, kids, as, i, want, to, have, the, people, carrier, i, also, have, to, muck, out, my, car, it, is, not, as, bad, since, fmd, another, positive, contribution, that, fmd, has, made, to, my, life, i, actually, feel, morally, obliged, to, keep, my, car, from, being, a, biohazard, ok, i, still, needed, a, wheelie, bin, to, through, all, the, post, it, notes, and, bits, of, cardboard, and, the, excessive, packaging, that, surrounds, any, medical, product, that, seems, to, find, its, way, on, to, the, back, seat, of, my, car, i, always, remember, reading, a, sunday, paper, article, about, what, cars, different, people, drove, and, what, they, had, lying, around, in, the, back, seat, and, what, this, showed, about, their, personality, i’m, sure, that, they, would, have, had, a, field, day, with, my, car, you, use, to, be, able, to, tell, farm, vets, cars, from, a, mile, off, but, they, have, all, gone, clean, and, shiny, sat, 13th, april, a, week, end, off, and, the, thought, of, a, saturday, morning, lie, in, unfortunately, there, is, a, football, tournament, in, carlisle, today, 9am, start, so, up, as, usual, and, get, into, town, but, managed, to, get, to, staples, which, i, have, been, trying, to, do, since, my, birthday, to, spend, my, birthday, money, the, difference, between, men, and, boys, is, the, size, of, their, toys, as, my, wife, frequently, reminds, me, so, i, am, the, proud, owner, of, a, digital, camera, the, question, is, when, will, i, find, time, to, set, it, up, took, back, all, the, library, books, and, made, the, mistake, of, checking, with, the, librarian, who, says, we, also, have, a, talking, book, and, another, junior, fiction, well, i, thought, it, would, have, been, lucky, to, get, them, all, if, they, ever, bring, in, fines, for, kids, we, are, sunk, how, does, my, wife, keep, track, of, them, all, came, home, and, enjoyed, the, good, weather, and, fortunately, the, team, bottomed, out, so, didn’t, get, into, the, next, round, v, asked, as, she, dropped, other, son, off, from, the, football, where, has, wife, gone, as, other, son, has, said, she, was, away, at, gruerly, where, is, that, she, is, away, for, a, girlie, w, e, so, we, had, time, for, a, family, cycle, ride, out, from, kirkbride, to, the, coast, it, was, beautiful, and, we, had, a, really, good, time, came, back, via, wigton, for, supplies, as, we, are, in, desperate, need, of, a, tesco, shop, sunday, 14th, had, an, easy, day, and, cooked, with, a, for, tomorrow, as, my, wife, is, doing, supply, next, week, its, ages, since, i, have, cooked, even, made, scones, church, was, a, video, sermon, which, was, ok, but, different, saw, p, he, s, back, from, nz, so, will, have, to, arrange, to, catch, up, he, was, incredibly, jet, lagged, it, must, be, sunday, cos, everyones, in, church, 36, hrs, travelling, wife, arrived, back, from, her, week, end, away, at, capernwray, having, had, a, week, end, that, sounded, as, if, they, had, all, gone, back, to, their, teenage, years, with, midnight, feasts, and, playing, tricks, on, each, other, she, was, quite, tired, and, pleased, to, have, an, early, night, mon, 15th, the, diary, has, unfortunately, died, at, this, point, and, it, is, 3, weeks, later, and, i, am, going, back, and, filling, in, the, details, as, i, remember, them, it, is, probably, the, bits, that, are, really, important, but, as, there, is, too, much, going, on, the, diary, has, remained, on, my, to, do, list, together, with, my, tax, return, and, a, small, mountain, of, paperwork, the, reasons, are, varied, but, one, of, them, is, that, my, youngest, lost, his, temper, with, the, computer, and, slammed, down, the, mouse, this, broke, the, left, right, bar, so, the, pointer, would, only, go, up, and, down, now, the, practice, manager, who, learnt, his, computing, in, the, dark, ages, of, doss, assures, me, you, do, not, need, a, mouse, to, operate, a, computer, but, as, i, have, enough, problems, trying, to, get, the, stupid, machine, to, do, what, i, want, it, to, with, a, mouse, forget, trying, shortcut, keys, and, arrows, so, a, new, mouse, was, bought, which, the, man, assured, my, wife, you, just, had, to, plug, in, and, hey, presto, it, would, find, a, driver, and, work, blank, screens, consult, hand, book, try, inserting, disk, try, exploring, disk, try, windows, disk, consult, practice, manager, who, as, you, may, have, gathered, is, my, it, guru, he, says, you, may, need, to, install, a, driver, if, it, doesn’t, work, it, will, be, on, the, disk, i, don’t, have, a, mouse, to, use, to, try, to, find, and, install, a, driver, he, assures, me, again, you, don’t, need, a, mouse, i, understand, why, my, youngest, son, lost, his, temper, with, the, stupid, machine, being, the, mature, adult, that, i, can, some, times, be, i, walk, away, to, cool, off, but, don’t, feel, like, trying, again, for, 24, hours, with, a, new, mouse, which, the, man, assured, my, wife, you, just, had, to, plug, in, and, hey, presto, it, would, find, a, driver, and, work, plugged, it, in, it, said, looking, for, driver, installing, driver, and, it, worked, why, why, not, first, time, tuesday, thursday, riding, lights, went, to, see, riding, lights, who, are, a, christian, theatre, group, who, were, performing, at, the, senior, school, at, night, they, were, extremely, funny, and, hard, hitting, and, very, pointed, all, at, the, same, time, it, was, a, magazine, of, sketches, on, all, sorts, of, different, things, modern, interpretations, of, parables, and, bible, stories, sketches, asking, questions, about, society, and, how, we, view, things, very, difficult, to, put, into, words, but, thought, provoking, on, lots, of, levels, sat, 20th, april, to, weds, 24th, april, lost, in, the, mists, of, time, thursday, 25th, starting, the, diary, again, after, having, missed, 10, days, with, too, much, going, on, the, spring, work, is, chaotic, with, a, lot, of, problems, we, are, trying, to, run, the, practice, on, 5, vets, plus, a, part, time, locum, instead, of, 7, full, time, at, this, time, of, year, i, had, said, we, should, have, advertised, and, tried, to, get, some, one, at, xmas, but, the, view, was, that, falling, milk, price, would, mean, less, work, but, the, defra, tasting, is, more, than, making, up, for, those, who, haven’t, restocked, and, those, who, have, gone, out, of, dairy, which, brings, us, the, most, work, but, saying, i, told, you, so, does, not, help, so, i’ll, just, keep, my, big, mouth, shut, as, the, practice, manager, says, the, good, old, days, when, we, new, what, the, rota, was, going, to, be, and, we, were, not, just, making, up, it, up, as, we, went, along, we, have, had, over, a, year, of, crisis, management, now, the, end, must, be, nigh, as, this, is, a, health, survey, apart, from, feeling, pressure, of, work, i, am, have, also, managed, to, catch, ringworm, on, my, leg, a, fungal, infection, from, cows, and, it, is, itchy, and, sore, and, not, responding, to, my, treatment, i, will, have, to, get, gp’s, opinion, friday, 26th, april, remind, me, next, time, not, to, try, to, interview, during, busy, periods, it, is, very, embarrassing, to, turn, up, late, to, the, interview, we, had, a, chaotic, day, but, managed, to, interview, her, she, is, frighteningly, well, prepared, and, had, lists, of, questions, i, hope, we, didn’t, put, her, off, by, being, so, disorganised, i, think, the, sandale, view, will, be, more, influential, as, part, of, the, interview, we, always, take, them, up, to, sandale, viewpoint, to, show, them, the, practice, spread, out, panoramically, beneath, them, well, it, sold, me, the, job, after, finally, getting, finished, i, was, exhausted, but, had, people, to, dinner, so, had, to, stay, awake, and, be, sociable, sat, 27th, april, had, folk, to, dinner, last, night, which, after, working, flat, out, was, probably, not, such, a, clever, idea, didn’t, fall, asleep, but, this, morning, i, feel, like, death, warmed, up, and, we, have, another, interview, this, morning, i, don’t, think, i, can, make, a, good, impression, so, it, is, a, good, job, that, i, am, looking, to, employ, rather, than, be, employed, the, candidate, is, from, a, kirby, stephen, farmers, daughter, and, so, is, at, an, immediate, advantage, she, seems, fine, so, we, will, offer, her, the, job, the, question, is, should, we, offer, them, both, a, job, went, to, bed, feeling, ill, and, with, a, migraine, and, slept, all, afternoon, and, then, in, bed, for, 9pm, sad, or, what, sun, 28th, feel, a, lot, better, for, the, sleep, and, church, was, af, speaking, he, is, always, entertaining, his, opening, slide, was, knighton, in, for, those, of, you, who, do, not, keep, up, with, the, footie, in, carlisle, michael, knighton, is, the, hated, owner, of, carlisle, united, who, is, trying, to, get, the, club, relegated, so, he, can, build, houses, on, the, land, he, is, destroying, the, club, and, it, is, not, popular, anyway, the, second, slide, was, here, for, grace, and, forgiveness, he, went, on, to, say, that, church, should, be, where, the, failures, should, feel, loved, and, welcome, as, we, all, need, god’s, love, and, forgiveness, he, was, really, good, both, entertaining, and, making, real, points, spent, time, in, the, garden, and, playing, footie, with, the, boys, mon, 29th, monday, morning, and, that, sinking, feeling, not, helped, by, my, wife’s, teaching, 3, days, this, week, and, a, trustees, meeting, for, borderline, which, means, additional, pressure, after, running, around, all, morning, and, working, out, the, amount, of, holiday, we, are, all, owed, the, conclusion, is, that, we, will, employ, them, both, i, am, owed, 46, days, holiday, so, if, i, can, take, 2, months, off, that, plus, the, sabbatical, i, am, owed, means, i, could, take, 5, months, off, i, wish, it, were, happening, the, 5, vets, are, owed, over, 200, days, between, us, which, will, be, almost, a, vet, for, a, year, as, this, is, a, health, diary, i, should, mention, my, visit, to, the, doctor, after, a, half, an, hour, wait, past, my, appointment, time, fizzing, knowing, that, i, would, have, to, make, the, time, up, later, in, my, evening, i, finally, saw, the, doc, who, agreed, with, my, diagnosis, and, agreed, with, my, treatment, only, an, occupational, hazard, of, farm, work, ring, worm, he, did, take, scrapings, but, that, is, all, tuesday, testing, next, door, why, do, we, always, end, up, working, in, a, pen, under, the, railway, in, a, middle, of, a, stream, why, they, cannot, build, a, pen, on, dry, land, away, from, the, trains, i, don’t, know, i, suppose, they, have, always, done, it, that, way, but, the, first, you, know, of, a, train, is, the, thunder, as, it, goes, over, your, head, which, startles, the, cows, who, jump, sending, a, muddy, slurry, flying, everywhere, william, is, still, not, wearing, a, helmet, for, the, quad, bike, as, he, drives, around, despite, his, fathers, protests, their, neighbour, the, other, way, is, brain, damaged, after, coming, off, his, weds, 1st, of, may, mayday, the, radio, is, predicting, riots, in, paris, against, or, for, le, pen, anti, globalists, in, london, but, i, feel, a, real, peace, with, the, turning, of, the, month, it, is, funny, how, a, different, month, can, make, you, feel, so, different, april, is, always, the, worst, month, at, work, with, a, lot, of, routine, work, dehorning, and, testing, and, a, lot, of, lambings, and, calvings, and, emergencies, even, though, the, beginning, of, may, is, just, the, same, i, always, feel, we, have, passed, the, peak, and, we, can, cruise, into, summer, the, fact, that, both, have, accepted, the, jobs, and, that, we, will, have, more, cover, helps, though, they, will, not, start, until, summer, thursday, 2nd, may, in, spite, of, all, yesterdays, predictions, there, wasn’t, any, trouble, in, paris, or, london, only, cyclists, causing, traffic, jams, what, is, about, the, media, that, they, have, to, report, the, bad, news, not, the, good, news, i, haven’t, seen, anything, beyond, the, cumberland, news, on, the, farms, restocking, stopped, at, beckfoot, on, my, rounds, and, sat, in, the, sunshine, on, the, beach, for, 10, mins, and, thought, this, is, the, life, though, in, talking, to, one, of, the, neighbours, one, of, the, farmers, is, having, real, problems, getting, motivated, he, had, milking, ayrshires, really, quiet, cows, who, you, could, do, anything, with, their, idea, of, getting, excited, was, turn, out, time, and, moving, into, a, fast, amble, to, the, spring, pastures, he, has, bought, in, really, wild, suckler, limousin, x’s, if, you, look, at, them, the, wrong, way, they, put, their, tails, in, the, air, and, take, off, i, was, there, dehorning, and, we, lost, one, which, jumped, over, a, gate, another, put, its, tail, in, the, air, and, took, off, only, stopping, when, it, came, to, the, block, wall, at, the, end, of, the, yard, unfortunately, it, didn’t, stop, fast, enough, and, crashed, headlong, into, it, it, now, has, a, definite, tilt, to, it, the, wall, isn’t, too, hot, either, i, think, if, i, had, to, look, after, the, likes, of, them, i, wouldn’t, be, too, keen, to, get, out, of, bed, either, friday, 3rd, may, spoke, too, early, about, things, easing, off, 2, bad, calvings, a, caesarean, and, testing, plus, the, usual, ill, animals, but, got, finished, for, 5, 45, and, took, my, wife, out, for, dinner, at, the, cockatoo, in, cockermouth, very, pleasant, but, while, she, wanted, to, go, on, to, socialise, at, 10pm, i, wanted, home, to, bed, sat, 4th, may, off, yippee, took, the, kids, to, nichol, end, and, went, canoeing, on, the, lake, got, absolutely, frozen, but, was, really, good, fun, it, rained, in, spite, of, all, the, good, weather, forecasts, but, with, our, style, of, canoeing, we, are, always, soaked, anyway, had, a, picnic, on, one, of, the, islands, and, had, fun, came, back, and, slept, for, the, afternoon, should, have, taken, the, boys, to, see, the, fa, cup, but, they, were, happy, playing, around, watched, ghandi, on, dvd, at, night, it, is, a, very, moving, film, and, the, ambiguities, and, politics, came, through, to, a, muted, extent, which, was, interesting, it, often, makes, me, wonder, about, how, much, of, govt, policy, is, personality, driven, again, the, inability, of, individuals, to, fight, the, system, came, through, the, front, page, of, the, times, this, morning, was, on, a, toddler, who, had, died, from, post, op, haemorrhage, following, the, use, of, disposable, instruments, in, a, tonsillectomy, large, amounts, of, money, have, been, spent, on, disposable, instruments, that, are, always, inferior, to, good, quality, surgical, kit, several, people, have, died, because, of, their, use, because, no, one, wanted, to, take, the, very, small, theoretical, risk, that, they, may, transfer, nvcjd, the, approach, to, risk, management, and, prioritisation, within, government, and, the, civil, service, is, very, poor, but, to, be, fait, to, them, the, press, is, not, helpful, i, would, like, to, see, prescott, stand, up, and, say, that, he, wants, more, deaths, on, the, railways, but, he, never, will, if, less, money, was, spent, on, safety, on, the, railways, more, trains, at, more, convenient, times, were, run, at, lower, costs, then, there, would, be, fewer, deaths, on, the, roads, but, as, no, one, holds, politicians, responsible, for, deaths, on, the, roads, it, ain’t, gonna, happen, sun, 5th, may, church, was, dn, who, is, brilliant, at, getting, the, kids, involved, son, s, face, lit, up, when, we, were, walking, in, to, church, to, see, him, walking, down, botchergate, with, guitar, in, hand, he, had, a, skin, that, had, been, cast, from, a, snake, and, based, his, songs, with, the, kids, and, his, talks, with, them, on, being, a, new, creation, cor, 5, vs, 17, getting, rid, of, the, old, self, and, hence, the, snake, skin, he, is, brilliant, on, the, guitar, and, a, real, performer, wasted, as, a, tax, inspector, mon, 6th, may, maybe, getting, the, kids, soaked, and, frozen, on, sat, was, not, a, good, idea, as, they, are, all, coming, down, with, colds, now, tim, is, very, chesty, and, was, up, in, the, night, hot, and, wheezy, any, infection, always, goes, for, his, chest, so, helvellyn, will, have, to, wait, for, another, day, so, concreted, posts, and, pressure, washed, the, yard, the, boys, loved, helping, then, demanded, i, play, football, as, payment, ag, was, here, as, his, dad, was, dropping, off, the, caravan, after, being, away, for, the, w, e, p, called, up, from, manchester, en, route, for, thailand, she, is, handing, in, her, notice, and, going, booked, summer, holiday, in, france, and, now, have, to, work, out, what, we, are, doing, on, the, way, there, and, back, tues, 7th, may, went, testing, but, i, really, do, have, the, kids, bug, and, feel, hot, and, feverish, went, to, bed, for, rest, of, day, weds, 8th, didn’t, feel, like, getting, out, of, bed, but, went, to, work, first, was, a, deer, rta, i, was, supposed, to, meet, a, police, car, there, but, no, police, either, car, or, policeman, i, am, glad, it, wasn’t, too, controversial, or, important, so, i, have, taken, all, details, and, hope, that, that, is, the, end, of, it, this, afternoon, was, spent, chasing, stirks, around, a, field, and, abbeytown, we, dehorned, them, they, should, have, been, done, this, time, last, year, but, were, n’t, because, of, fmd, they’re, now, 2, yr, old, which, means, they, were, really, too, big, to, go, around, upsetting, two, went, through, the, dyke, one, way, the, other, went, through, the, other, side, into, some, one’s, garden, and, on, to, the, abbeytown, road, so, it, was, a, bit, of, a, rodeo, it, ended, up, charging, m, who, hurt, his, shoulder, trying, to, escape, he, was, not, happy, as, this, morning, he, got, his, letter, asking, him, to, cut, back, is, milk, production, he, had, jokingly, asked, what, was, i, doing, this, winter, as, all, the, farmers, will, have, given, up, by, christmas, the, long, term, out, look, is, not, good, but, at, least, we, will, have, 2, new, graduates, in, training, to, cope, with, the, upturn, when, if, it, comes, thurs, 9th, day, off, unfortunately, spent, the, morning, shopping, in, carlisle, which, meant, wandering, around, shops, and, trying, to, find, clothes, i, needed, a, my, daughter, as, my, dress, sense, leaves, a, lot, to, be, desired, and, she, keeps, me, right, met, gb, another, carlisle, vet, which, was, good, i, haven’t, seen, him, for, a, bit, had, lunch, out, which, was, nice, though, also, got, all, the, bits, for, the, tennis, net, so, will, be, able, to, get, it, up, the, annoying, bit, was, i, got, a, parking, ticket, which, sent, my, blood, pressure, up, now, i, know, i, often, park, with, out, paying, and, in, the, wrong, places, that, is, just, living, dangerously, but, as, we, were, in, carlisle, and, had, decided, to, go, out, for, lunch, and, for, some, reason, i, was, in, wife, s, car, as, usual, there, was, no, change, in, the, car, well, as, usual, there, was, no, money, at, all, i, only, had, myself, to, blame, i, know, she, never, has, change, in, the, car, i, only, had, enough, for, 2, hours, in, my, pocket, which, to, be, honest, is, in, my, opinion, quite, long, enough, in, carlisle, shops, so, on, the, way, to, lunch, out, i, made, a, special, trip, back, to, the, car, park, armed, with, coins, ready, to, pay, the, city, council, the, extortionate, fee, so, i, could, spend, more, money, in, carlisle, city, shops, the, first, machine, refused, my, coins, i, even, tried, a, 2nd, machine, that, also, refused, to, accept, my, hard, earned, cash, so, i, left, a, note, saying, the, machine, was, not, working, in, the, windscreen, and, yes, you, guessed, it, i, came, back, to, find, a, traffic, warden, giving, me, a, ticket, who, justified, his, action, by, saying, there, w, ere, 4, machines, from, which, i, could, have, bought, a, ticket, grrrrhhh, fri, 10th, finish, of, another, week, with, more, tb, testing, a, lot, of, cows, from, netherlands, mris, meuse, rhine, issel, very, good, beefy, looking, dairy, cows, dual, purpose, why, we, have, to, test, them, i, don’t, know, but, we, have, to, keep, page, st, happy, they, were, all, tested, prior, to, export, from, holland, and, they, want, them, tested, again, the, farmer, is, very, bio, security, conscious, and, has, his, land, all, in, a, single, block, now, bounded, by, roads, or, arable, cultivation, all, the, other, cattle, he, insisted, were, tested, and, he, had, the, results, prior, to, purchase, in, spite, of, all, his, good, sense, he, is, still, going, on, about, the, missing, vials, from, porton, down, and, other, paranoid, conspiracy, theories, on, the, spread, of, fmd, but, a, part, from, cold, flu, feel, as, though, things, are, getting, back, on, track, we, can, look, to, the, next, 12, months, with, confidence, thereafter, depends, on, whether, the, wto, wins, over, the, eu, to, get, rid, of, subsidies, or, whether, maintaining, the, food, supply, within, the, eu, is, seen, as, important, the, one, thing, the, fmd, has, taught, me, is, that, you, never, know, what, will, be, coming, next, i, do, feel, guilty, about, saying, there, should, be, more, train, crashes, after, seeing, the, crash, in, the, news, today, at, potters, bar, sat, 11th, may, working, the, w, e, again, saw, another, calf, with, ccn, caused, by, a, deficiency, of, b1, usually, rare, but, seems, to, be, much, more, prevalent, this, year, due, to, old, grass, on, pastures, don’t, know, had, a, greyhound, client, in, bringing, in, a, greyhound, on, behalf, of, some, one, else, who, has, been, chased, from, the, practice, for, non, payment, so, had, a, stressful, half, hour, negotiating, with, an, irate, idiot, but, he, paid, his, old, bill, and, stumped, up, front, for, the, new, one, and, seemed, placated, treating, the, animals, is, easy, spent, the, afternoon, in, the, garden, and, fixing, up, the, tennis, nat, we, were, given, an, old, second, hand, net, so, i, have, fixed, up, on, the, concrete, and, it, was, good, fun, playing, with, the, kids, the, concrete, is, not, level, and, has, lots, of, loose, stones, so, the, bounce, is, a, bit, erratic, went, to, a, 50th, birthday, party, for, which, i, was, teased, at, work, but, i, maintain, we, are, friends, with, the, children, in, their, 20, s, it, was, a, good, craic, and, the, food, was, brilliant, there, was, one, of, the, partners, from, a, lawyers, from, carlisle, there, complaining, that, he, could, only, have, an, hourly, rate, of, charging, out, at, 185, consequently, he, couldn’t, attract, good, lawyers, to, his, firm, because, the, city, firms, were, offering, far, greater, salaries, and, were, charging, out, their, juniors, at, 200, i, couldn’t, admit, that, our, hourly, rate, is, only, 45, and, that, i, think, that, 45, hour, is, a, lot, of, money, should, have, been, a, 9, to, 5, lawyer, sunday, went, to, church, nl, but, was, still, half, asleep, from, my, late, night, spent, all, afternoon, and, evening, out, on, calls, was, ok, till, the, midnight, call, when, i, decided, that, being, a, lawyer, was, probably, a, much, better, idea, monday, 13th, half, asleep, after, the, w, e, so, took, a, little, while, to, get, going, having, kept, this, week, a, bit, quieter, as, there, should, have, been, a, lot, of, last, minute, dehorning, and, castrating, it, hasn’t, come, in, so, we, really, are, quieter, so, did, some, office, work, but, trying, to, work, out, why, the, two, computer, systems, we, have, do, not, have, the, same, balances, on, their, accounts, with, a, tired, sore, head, is, not, worthwhile, but, it, was, preferable, to, sorting, rotas, so, i, when, came, home, i, sat, and, read, tintin, much, to, my, wife’s, disgust, i, also, looked, at, my, cash, flow, predictions, which, were, totally, out, of, line, i, usually, take, a, pessimistic, view, so, as, err, on, the, side, of, caution, but, they, are, totally, out, fortunately, the, right, way, the, partners, think, it, is, a, waste, of, time, and, effort, to, try, to, predict, how, much, of, the, bills, the, farmers, are, going, to, pay, in, any, month, some, pay, every, month, but, most, pay, every, now, and, again, either, when, they, have, time, or, money, or, when, the, accountant, or, vat, man, needs, the, books, i, suppose, they, are, right, who, cares, so, long, as, they, do, pay, also, finally, caught, up, with, gp, as, ringworm, still, not, getting, better, so, finally, on, antifungals, if, the, farmers, couldn’t, get, hold, of, a, vet, pretty, quickly, to, discuss, what’s, going, on, they, would, give, us, earache, tuesday, 14th, halfway, through, may, and, time, to, get, the, rest, of, the, planting, done, in, the, garden, beautiful, weather, and, feels, like, summer, is, here, gg, had, a, visit, from, trading, standards, over, the, bulls, for, which, he, had, given, a, certificate, of, fitness, to, travel, there, is, now, no, slaughterhouse, within, an, hour’s, drive, of, here, for, cattle, ulverston, is, the, nearest, if, an, animal, is, not, fit, to, be, transported, alive, for, some, reason, e.g, because, it, is, lame, or, blind, etc, then, it, has, to, be, shot, on, the, farm, and, the, carcase, transported, to, the, slaughterhouse, however, under, the, new, meat, hygiene, regulations, of, 2, 3, years, ago, the, carcase, has, to, arrive, within, an, hour, of, being, shot, which, was, fine, while, black, brow, was, operating, the, slaughterhouse, but, since, it, has, closed, there, are, no, options, for, any, animals, to, be, shot, on, the, farm, unless, you, put, it, in, your, own, freezer, for, your, own, consumption, thus, whereas, if, there, were, borderline, cases, before, they, were, shot, on, the, farm, and, the, carcases, transported, now, the, pressure, is, to, get, them, transported, alive, or, the, farmer, loses, the, value, of, the, animal, 500, 600, and, has, to, pay, 75, to, get, them, shot, and, disposed, of, the, sooner, either, carlisle, slaughterhouse, or, black, brow, slaughterhouse, get, working, again, the, better, weds, 15th, day, off, spent, the, morning, catching, up, on, paper, work, feel, better, for, it, but, never, my, favourite, job, but, all, the, bits, and, pieces, are, in, place, for, my, tax, return, just, waiting, for, the, final, few, pieces, of, paper, wrote, a, caustic, letter, to, council, about, the, parking, ticket, but, sent, them, a, cheque, as, not, worth, the, fight, went, to, up, front, art, gallery, for, lunch, some, one, had, made, a, set, of, peat, rings, with, a, golden, bowl, at, the, centre, and, wanted, hundreds, of, pounds, for, their, art, creation, if, you, don’t, ask, you, don’t, get, spent, afternoon, running, the, kids, as, wife, was, taking, a, in, town, for, hair, cut, and, girl, time, last, football, match, for, northbank, and, son, lost, thursday, 16th, the, long, lunch, is, back, there, wasn’t, much, happening, vet, wise, but, still, a, lambing, today, as, the, season, has, dragged, on, one, restocking, farmer, was, in, today, with, a, ewe, to, be, lambed, of, the, 200, sheep, he, is, supposed, to, be, fattening, for, market, 20, have, lambed, the, guy, he, bought, them, from, is, adamant, they, were, never, near, a, tup, someone, needs, to, tell, him, about, the, birds, and, the, bees, there, was, also, a, good, if, slightly, apocryphal, story, from, defra, licensing, when, they, needed, a, licence, to, move, a, bull, the, licensing, department, asked, is, this, bull, going, to, be, used, for, breeding, purposes, yes, is, the, farmers, reply, will, this, animal, be, coming, in, to, contact, with, any, other, animals, friday, 17th, another, tb, test, another, restocking, farm, more, stories, the, best, one, was, the, fact, that, their, cattle, had, lain, for, a, week, in, the, pasture, field, after, being, shot, they, decided, to, plough, it, out, for, barley, in, the, back, end, having, spent, the, summer, pressure, washing, the, farm, buildings, to, a, gleaming, state, of, sterility, where, the, animals, had, lain, there, was, still, obvious, contamination, with, blood, etc, when, they, ploughed, it, but, having, failed, the, buildings, on, specks, of, dirt, defra, were, just, not, interested, in, contaminated, blood, stained, earth, they, had, also, phoned, the, day, before, i, arrived, to, send, some, one, out, to, arrange, tb, testing, the, chaos, in, there, continues, sat, 18th, may, i, am, to, be, best, man, a, friend, was, around, last, night, with, news, about, getting, married, we, have, a, wedding, every, month, for, the, next, 4, months, must, be, something, in, the, water, at, the, moment, unfortunately, it, meant, it, was, a, really, late, night, celebrating, and, i, am, working, the, w, e, again, so, getting, up, for, saturday, morning, surgery, was, a, bit, grim, i, survived, and, so, did, most, of, the, animals, the, worrying, thing, is, i, am, sure, that, drs, are, just, the, same, spent, the, afternoon, playing, football, and, tennis, with, the, kids, in, the, yard, and, mowing, the, grass, the, farmers, are, all, now, silaging, and, the, roads, are, full, of, tractors, flying, around, at, all, times, of, night, and, day, sat, evening, went, with, wife, to, hear, sa, speak, at, kd’s, it, was, good, to, see, him, and, clare, again, we, visited, them, in, bombay, at, the, height, of, fmd, and, it, always, puts, things, back, into, perspective, he, runs, a, mission, hospital, in, thane, an, outskirt, of, bombay, they, have, it, self, funding, by, charging, the, rich, for, luxury, service, a, long, way, behind, the, nhs, and, providing, a, basic, service, foc, for, the, average, indian, he, is, now, talking, about, trying, to, raise, funding, for, building, an, aids, hospice, to, provide, pain, relief, and, dignity, to, those, who, are, dieing, of, aids, because, of, the, stigma, and, cost, and, risk, of, cross, infection, of, both, hiv, and, tb, a, lot, of, aids, patients, are, just, thrown, out, of, their, homes, and, hiv, ve, babies, are, abandoned, as, he, says, there, is, an, epidemic, sweeping, bombay, that, will, leave, a, lot, of, orphans, and, cause, secondary, epidemics, because, of, immuno, suppression, and, it, is, not, really, being, addressed, very, thought, provoking, and, makes, the, millions, wasted, on, fmd, look, very, sick, in, a, global, perspective, sun, missed, church, in, the, morning, as, was, seeing, to, cats, and, dogs, in, the, surgery, and, dripping, calf, in, the, large, animal, bay, spent, most, of, afternoon, on, visits, all, work, and, no, play, is, making, me, a, grumpy, boy, 2, w, es, in, a, row, is, not, good, mon, aw, is, in, worse, mood, than, me, and, at, least, i, have, worked, w, e, she, is, winding, every, one, up, with, her, attitude, it, is, sthg, that, will, have, to, be, addressed, but, will, have, to, be, a, partnership, decision, wife, was, interviewing, fc, tonight, at, christian, viewpoint, in, carlisle, and, came, back, full, of, it, she, is, good, with, people, and, interviewing, she, was, also, challenged, by, what, f, was, saying, about, the, importance, of, treating, people, as, loved, and, valued, by, god, in, some, ways, very, similar, to, s, about, valuing, aids, patients, we, are, all, valued, by, god, tuesday, missed, gym, for, 3rd, week, i, am, going, to, be, getting, really, unfit, i, was, on, duty, and, had, spent, time, talking, with, folk, at, work, valuing, them, but, it, was, nice, as, a, came, out, with, me, and, she, always, likes, being, on, call, with, me, but, i, never, seem, to, know, what’s, going, on, in, her, mind, still, waters, run, deep, weds, dad, phoned, and, has, decided, not, to, come, on, the, w, e, away, this, w, e, it, is, a, family, reunion, but, it, looks, like, it, will, be, just, our, family, and, p’s, but, the, kids, love, meeting, up, with, the, cousins, even, a, who, will, no, doubt, complain, that, there, should, be, some, girl, cousins, she, is, the, only, girl, on, both, wife, s, side, of, the, family, and, mine, it, is, a, bit, worrying, in, that, he, is, losing, confidence, in, doing, anything, outside, his, normal, routine, it, is, at, times, like, this, you, realise, london, is, not, really, very, close, the, other, problem, is, working, so, many, w, es, doesn’t, give, much, time, for, the, travelling, up, and, down, to, see, him, thursday, g, was, away, on, a, course, yesterday, and, came, back, full, of, doom, and, gloom, for, along, time, we, have, relied, on, the, drug, sales, as, a, substantial, part, of, the, business, there, have, been, various, government, reports, that, have, queried, our, monopoly, and, there, is, a, move, to, insist, that, we, provide, prescriptions, for, all, the, drugs, and, then, allow, the, farmers, or, pet, owners, to, buy, the, drugs, from, whatever, source, they, want, internet, pharmacy, or, us, it, means, however, that, the, professional, fees, will, inevitably, have, to, rise, to, compensate, which, means, it, will, be, uneconomic, for, the, farmers, to, use, us, so, they, will, not, in, the, present, economic, climate, which, means, no, job, carlisle, brampton, and, dalston, vets, are, all, starting, to, write, prescriptions, which, means, that, we, are, going, to, have, to, follow, suit, the, farmer, who, rents, my, field, was, silaging, tonight, i, got, back, from, house, group, to, find, a, tractor, follow, me, in, to, start, rowing, up, as, they, had, been, at, it, all, day, i, decided, to, take, the, gates, off, their, hinges, as, it, is, a, narrow, gap, and, at, that, time, of, night, a, clunk, against, the, pillar, is, ok, but, i, don’t, want, to, have, to, replace, my, wooden, gates, they, had, just, started, to, pick, it, up, when, i, went, to, bed, at, 11pm, so, no, idea, what, time, they, finished, friday, g, is, off, ill, help, it, looked, as, though, i, might, miss, out, on, the, w, e, away, as, he, is, working, the, w, e, but, the, fact, it, would, have, meant, 3, w, e’s, in, a, row, and, 6, nights, in, a, row, managed, to, help, persuade, one, of, the, assistants, to, step, in, thankfully, so, i, finished, at, lunch, time, and, slept, to, catch, up, from, the, on, call, until, the, kids, came, home, from, school, and, set, off, for, the, w, e, saturday, 25th, may, dovedale, in, the, derbyshire, peak, district, definitely, should, have, more, w, es, away, and, not, working, we, had, a, great, time, with, the, cousins, stayed, at, a, farmhouse, b, b, it, use, to, be, a, working, farm, but, is, too, high, up, and, to, small, to, sustain, the, dairy, so, they, went, out, of, that, 3, yrs, ago, beef, and, sheep, was, not, making, any, money, so, they, have, concentrated, on, tourism, and, grass, let, the, fields, his, neighbours, are, now, renting, the, land, and, farming, it, beautiful, walk, along, the, valley, and, had, tea, out, relaxed, and, slept, like, a, log, sunday, great, british, summer, makes, you, wonder, why, any, one, would, want, to, go, abroad, wet, and, cold, so, went, to, water, world, and, watched, the, kids, big, and, little, go, flying, around, the, flumes, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, my, brother, and, family, the, boys, would, play, footie, all, day, long, and, be, happy, monday, off, to, catch, my, breath, and, tidy, up, flat, for, tenants, arriving, thursday, spent, day, trying, to, reduce, the, weeds, in, garden, and, went, swimming, at, night, the, boys, still, wanted, to, play, footie, where, do, they, get, their, energy, if, i, could, bottle, it, i, would, make, a, fortune, tuesday, it, felt, like, hard, work, going, back, to, work, after, time, off, i, always, seem, to, be, tired, and, head, achy, it, seems, to, be, hard, work, to, get, going, again, ai, just, don’t, feel, like, doing, anything, including, writing, this, diary, but, the, good, news, is, that, we, have, a, new, booted, bantie, bertie, the, cockerel, and, he, is, now, ensconced, in, his, run, we, are, hoping, to, get, him, some, young, ladies, in, the, not, too, distant, future, he, is, cute, and, a, is, over, the, moon, about, him, weds, getting, going, again, spent, time, talking, with, my, wife, who, as, always, puts, things, back, in, to, line, communication, went, to, do, some, pregnancy, diagnosis, early, this, morning, and, the, farmer, was, complaining, about, the, cost, of, his, vet, bill, and, is, wanting, to, learn, how, to, check, cows, to, see, if, they, are, in, calf, prior, to, drying, off, the, whole, economics, of, dairy, practice, with, milk, at, 13p, per, litre, is, beginning, to, hit, home, to, them, cannot, be, nice, starting, up, again, to, realise, that, you, cannot, make, money, at, doing, it, one, of, the, other, vets, is, in, really, bad, form, this, week, and, is, causing, a, lot, of, friction, and, we, will, have, to, deal, with, it, as, the, staff, are, up, in, arms, at, least, i, am, off, tomorrow, prior, to, working, jubilee, w, e, my, mother, in, law, arrived, which, the, kids, love, complete, with, her, special, treats, for, them, snowballs, went, out, for, dinner, with, mother, in, law, but, too, tired, to, enjoy, it, due, to, early, morning, caesarean, thursday, off, spent, morning, getting, flat, ready, as, we, have, new, tenants, moving, in, and, clearing, up, while, the, girls, went, shopping, dry, weather, but, intermittent, heavy, showers, tackled, the, long, grass, at, front, but, the, grass, got, too, wet, and, clogged, mower, picked, up, kids, and, did, the, fatherly, bit, went, to, bed, early, as, head, achy, and, washed, out, and, caught, up, on, zzzz’s, friday, start, of, the, jubilee, w, e, and, on, duty, for, the, next, 5, days, until, 5pm, weds, evening, work, busy, with, bits, and, pieces, and, farmers, complaining, that, it, is, too, wet, to, silage, one, of, the, vets, had, issued, a, pets, export, certificate, for, a, cat, to, come, back, into, uk, but, had, put, it, down, for, 2, years, not, one, it, is, only, valid, for, 2, years, in, dogs, but, 1, year, in, cats, typical, friday, afternoon, problem, to, sort, out, the, help, line, is, closed, for, training, and, maff, offices, are, closed, for, the, bh, w, e, i, don’t, think, there, is, a, way, around, it, either, but, will, not, be, able, to, sort, it, out, till, weds, day, and, they, are, due, on, ferry, on, tuesday, oops, also, a, bitch’s, owner, came, in, to, ask, if, we, were, open, tues, as, she, is, due, on, that, date, and, will, probably, need, a, caesaer, johnboy, called, in, the, evening, wanting, me, to, go, to, the, loyal, supporters, meeting, at, carlisle, united, as, a, spy, i’m, on, call, so, couldn’t, oblige, thank, goodness, sat, 1st, june, office, staff, were, asking, why, is, there, only, 2, vets, on, the, whole, w, e, and, i, am, beginning, to, feel, the, same, should, have, split, it, up, and, had, more, staff, on, but, at, least, the, others, will, get, a, break, and, come, back, refreshed, but, i, feel, like, i, am, looking, down, the, barrel, of, a, gun, horrendous, calving, on, a, heifer, that, was, in, calf, by, mistake, to, its, father, it, was, supposed, to, have, gone, back, to, its, breeder, but, the, buyer, was, still, tied, up, under, the, twenty, day, rule, the, calf, had, died, and, was, gassed, up, ended, up, by, caesaering, in, spite, of, rotten, calf, 2, hours, hard, work, and, the, heifer, will, at, best, be, very, ill, for, several, days, sun, 2nd, june, a, day, of, football, went, to, church, and, made, a, quick, exit, to, watch, the, football, as, with, everyone, else, was, quite, disappointed, at, hebron, at, night, dm, had, the, goals, and, the, reactions, to, them, on, the, big, screen, which, he, linked, to, romans, 12, therefore, i, urge, you, to, offer, your, bodies, as, living, sacrifices, this, is, your, act, of, spiritual, worship, talking, about, worship, to, god, being, everything, we, do, including, how, we, react, to, how, the, english, football, team, perform, very, clever, and, memorable, way, of, expounding, the, bible, went, straight, on, to, son, s, football, presentations, which, was, quite, fun, there, is, a, real, football, sub, culture, with, the, amateur, football, clubs, in, carlisle, all, vying, for, the, top, spot, the, old, pals, network, and, animosities, seem, to, be, very, prevalent, mon, 3rd, june, busy, night, and, early, start, 2, x, prolapses, why, always, at, a, bh, the, second, one, was, a, wild, limousin, heifer, it, charged, me, and, sent, me, flying, the, only, injury, was, a, sore, fist, where, i, thumped, it, in, the, eye, to, try, and, deflect, it, as, i, was, trying, to, get, it, away, gave, me, a, fright, it, was, a, heifer, that, was, bred, because, he, couldn’t, sell, it, store, last, year, because, of, restrictions, chatted, to, farmer, who, started, getting, up, at, 4, 30, am, during, fmd, because, he, couldn’t, sleep, he, is, still, doing, it, now, he, still, has, not, got, any, sheep, in, because, he, can’t, face, it, he, lost, his, sheep, to, the, cull, but, kept, his, cattle, i, had, started, by, admiring, the, view, he, said, yeah, it, would, be, great, apart, from, the, damn, windmills, he, has, a, brilliant, viewing, looking, out, over, the, solway, and, the, great, orton, site, and, the, windmills, remind, him, and, everyone, else, that, their, flocks, are, in, a, big, pit, he, says, he, can, still, see, them, going, and, feels, guilty, i, didn’t, have, the, heart, to, tell, him, that, of, the, 10,000, blood, samples, taken, at, gt, orton, only, 2, were, positive, a, very, big, mistake, that, has, caused, big, hurt, in, this, area, and, no, one, has, admitted, responsibility, and, no, one, ever, will, tues, 4th, june, watched, some, of, the, jubilee, stuff, on, tv, in, between, calls, amazing, sight, to, see, the, mall, full, of, people, more, than, ever, before, yet, rupert, murdoch, and, his, press, would, have, us, believe, that, the, monarchy, is, finished, we, managed, to, cope, with, just, the, two, of, us, on, call, so, may, be, i, was, right, also, made, a, start, on, byre, remind, me, next, time, we, have, a, dinner, party, on, a, bh, not, to, be, working, it, as, my, poor, wife, had, 4, kids, and, a, dinner, to, prepare, i, was, called, out, to, a, cow, caesar, at, 3, 30, and, then, had, another, call, after, that, fortunately, i, had, taken, tim, so, there, was, one, less, to, fight, but, got, back, to, be, told, that, i, had, to, have, a, bath, before, i, could, help, because, i, smelt, evening, was, really, good, fun, and, hilariously, funny, so, even, i, kept, going, to, the, wrong, side, of, midnight, which, after, an, early, start, was, pretty, good, going, i, will, have, to, get, phil, to, do, his, senator, homes, skit, at, the, wedding, weds, 5th, june, did, not, feel, like, getting, up, this, am, at, all, and, felt, even, less, like, going, into, work, managed, to, extricate, us, from, any, problems, with, the, cat, with, out, its, passport, there, is, no, give, in, the, defra, system, which, is, to, be, expected, richard, had, a, suspect, fmd, calf, on, tuesday, no, wonder, he, was, a, bit, jittery, when, i, spoke, to, him, later, on, even, though, you, know, that, it, probably, isn’t, going, to, be, a, case, and, that, the, farmer, is, panicking, it, still, sets, the, butterflies, flying, it, was, bvd, spent, over, an, hour, and, a, half, this, morning, on, the, phone, sorting, out, what, the, aw, calls, the, rubbish, queries, and, being, helpful, and, friendly, and, sorting, out, licensing, and, drugs, and, repeat, prescriptions, one, was, a, woman, complaining, about, the, neighbouring, practice, which, required, a, bit, of, tact, i, think, the, drs, must, have, been, as, busy, as, us, the, tally, for, the, celebrations, are, 1, off, ill, with, flu, and, bad, back, one, wrist, sprained, from, scooter, racing, at, a, street, party, after, all, the, kids, had, gone, to, bed, and, one, who, spent, the, w, e, visiting, her, boyfriend, in, hospital, she, had, said, that, he, needed, to, go, in, on, friday, but, the, doctors, had, put, him, off, as, it, was, the, w, e, he, was, worse, on, sunday, but, had, waited, till, after, the, football, before, ringing, priorities, priorities, thursday, went, to, house, group, which, was, really, good, and, spent, time, praying, for, the, group, church, area, and, for, world, situation, friends, are, trying, to, work, out, what, to, do, in, india, they, are, teaching, at, a, boarding, school, in, the, south, of, india, and, have, both, their, own, family, and, also, the, school, kids, to, think, about, the, consensus, is, that, the, foreign, office, advice, is, aimed, more, at, the, indian, and, pakistani, govts, than, the, uk, nationals, ian, is, supposed, to, be, visiting, and, has, a, flight, booked, so, is, still, going, at, the, moment, i, really, cant, believe, that, they, would, escalate, the, situation, but, it, will, be, tit, for, tat, and, then, going, to, the, brink, as, neither, will, want, to, break, face, the, ramifications, of, sept, 11th, still, keep, reverberating, around, the, world, as, the, balance, of, power, alters, makes, fmd, look, like, a, picnic, at, least, we, have, stable, govt, that, says, it, abides, by, the, laws, friday, the, secretary, asked, this, morning, what, did, i, want, meaning, tea, or, coffee, and, i, replied, as, i, had, prayed, wisdom, but, with, 2, sugars, we, had, a, difficult, partners, meeting, that, lunch, time, poor, timing, and, priorities, again, as, england, was, playing, i, had, assumed, they, would, lose, but, the, meeting, went, well, and, the, issues, were, discussed, amicably, enough, and, frankly, enough, so, we, all, know, where, we, are, at, and, issues, were, addressed, but, as, james, says, not, only, about, asking, for, wisdom, but, also, putting, it, into, action, at, night, leant, on, the, fence, and, talked, to, the, neighbour, as, the, thistles, i, was, supposed, to, be, cutting, down, carried, on, growing, but, it, was, a, nice, evening, he, works, for, stl, the, christian, book, distributors, he, was, saying, how, the, fire, that, they, had, just, after, he, arrived, at, the, time, seemed, a, disaster, and, caused, chaos, but, it, made, them, make, decisions, that, had, to, be, made, rather, than, continuing, with, the, status, quo, and, in, hind, sight, was, a, very, good, thing, i, wonder, when, we, look, back, whether, the, changes, and, opportunities, of, fmd, will, make, us, appreciate, the, decisions, we, have, all, had, to, make, it, made, me, think, of, the, woman, who, came, in, today, saying, she, was, one, of, the, lucky, ones, who, didn’t, get, fmd, very, much, tongue, in, cheek, as, they, are, much, worse, off, than, those, who, did, she, gave, up, her, job, as, they, couldn’t, sell, the, calves, as, they, were, born, and, so, some, one, had, to, look, after, them, so, she, went, back, home, to, work, on, the, farm, her, job, of, course, has, been, filled, in, the, mean, time, and, she, would, have, made, a, lot, more, money, for, less, hassle, if, she, had, stayed, sat, 8th, june, finished, the, long, period, of, work, and, on, call, on, sat, morning, and, it, came, down, with, heavy, showers, as, we, had, hoped, to, climb, helvellyn, today, it, eased, some, what, at, night, which, was, just, as, well, as, we, were, going, to, a, bbq, it, was, put, on, by, a, s, african, vet, from, defra, who, is, now, working, in, longtown, the, last, time, i, drove, through, to, charlie, and, ruth’s, who, were, hosting, the, bbq, was, when, the, pyres, were, all, burning, it, gave, me, a, funny, feeling, driving, back, up, there, the, food, was, good, and, the, craic, was, good, so, we, had, a, good, time, the, kids, would, have, kept, going, but, they, were, beginning, to, get, high, the, midges, once, you, get, north, of, the, border, are, definitely, worse, we, all, had, lumps, all, over, in, the, morning, sun, 9th, sb, spoke, at, church, on, jesus, healing, the, blind, man, at, pool, of, siloam, he, was, very, easy, to, follow, friends, called, in, and, stayed, for, tea, he, as, usual, blunt, and, controversial, as, ever, he, always, has, a, good, insight, and, dresses, it, up, in, taking, things, to, extremes, he, is, also, very, funny, with, it, so, had, a, good, meal, son, is, as, high, as, a, kite, as, he, is, going, camping, with, the, school, this, week, so, he, has, all, his, kit, ready, to, go, and, would, not, settle, to, go, to, sleep, and, kept, the, other, boys, awake, mon, 10th, pouring, down, in, time, for, the, school, camp, at, borrowdale, never, mind, they’ll, enjoy, it, any, way, 3, farms, have, had, silage, pits, burst, because, the, grass, has, been, put, in, too, wet, if, silage, is, made, when, the, grass, is, too, wet, it, flows, very, slowly, and, cannot, support, its, own, weight, so, it, bursts, the, side, walls, and, will, flow, out, of, the, heap, that, it, has, been, put, in, if, there, is, plenty, of, effluent, coming, off, it, will, usually, escape, from, the, normal, collecting, systems, and, if, it, gets, into, the, becks, it, is, worse, than, slurry, hunters, stream, was, black, with, effluent, and, the, environment, agency, were, out, testing, the, water, quality, so, they, will, be, for, the, high, jump, the, contractors, are, so, far, behind, and, the, grass, is, getting, so, long, and, bulky, that, it, doesn’t, dry, out, as, quickly, so, there, may, well, be, a, few, more, but, at, least, the, farmers, will, have, had, warning, so, it, will, be, their, own, fault, the, school, kids, are, back, for, their, work, experience, week, it, must, be, hard, for, them, to, follow, what, is, going, on, but, they, seem, to, enjoy, them, selves, the, worksheets, definitely, help, to, give, some, structure, and, a, feel, for, what, is, going, on, crusaders, meeting, at, night, pretty, disappointing, response, so, not, a, lot, we, can, do, tues, 11th, june, workload, has, set, in, and, i’m, just, cruising, and, managed, to, get, to, the, gym, while, on, first, so, feel, full, of, energy, why, do, you, feel, full, of, energy, after, expending, some, spent, half, an, hour, on, net, trying, to, get, holiday, organised, but, finding, places, for, 6, is, not, as, easy, the, weather, is, better, for, son, camping, and, should, be, better, until, the, w, e, means, we, will, hopefully, be, quiet, at, work, as, they, all, go, out, into, the, fields, weds, 12th, no, calls, over, night, first, time, since, finishing, with, defra, not, had, a, call, at, night, summer, is, truly, here, there, was, a, call, just, on, half, time, at, 8.15, which, i, did, during, the, break, so, got, to, see, the, second, half, and, england, drew, 0, 0, but, are, through, t, o, the, next, round, caught, up, on, paper, work, and, have, sorted, a, lot, of, things, so, they, are, in, place, for, the, 2, new, vets, thurs, 13th, meeting, with, bank, manager, for, executive, lunch, sandwiches, from, bells, he, asked, how, was, the, new, normality, which, seems, an, excellent, phrase, he, seemed, happy, enough, but, it, is, always, interesting, to, see, how, an, outsider, views, the, information, given, the, problem, is, usually, knowing, the, questions, to, ask, i, think, that, is, probably, he, seemed, happy, enough, but, it, is, always, interesting, to, see, how, an, outsider, views, the, information, given, the, problem, is, usually, knowing, the, questions, to, ask, i, think, that, is, probably, true, of, the, inquiries, into, fmd, unless, you, know, the, questions, you, will, not, get, the, right, answers, went, abseiling, up, at, sandale, with, the, house, group, from, church, and, had, a, bbq, it, would, have, been, nicer, if, the, wind, hadn’t, howled, i, had, gone, prepared, for, british, summer, weather, but, it, was, still, pretty, nippy, it, was, great, fun, fri, read, another, test, that, had, ir, s, for, tb, inconclusive, that, will, have, to, be, retested, in, 60, days, while, i, was, writing, up, the, paper, work, the, farmer’s, wife, was, saying, that, the, kids, were, all, off, school, and, nursery, with, hand, foot, and, mouth, she, had, taken, the, youngest, who, was, ill, with, the, middle, kid, to, the, doctor, the, doctor, had, said, what, it, was, and, the, middle, kid, burst, into, tears, as, he, thought, they, were, going, to, take, her, baby, brother, outside, and, shoot, him, it, is, funny, but, also, very, sad, the, same, farmer, was, really, fed, up, as, the, cows, were, all, supposed, to, be, tb, tested, prior, to, arriving, on, the, farm, he, had, also, let, them, out, into, a, long, 5, acre, field, with, the, water, troughs, at, the, far, end, of, the, field, half, the, cows, had, not, found, the, trough, and, so, were, very, thirsty, by, the, time, they, came, back, at, milking, time, the, idea, that, you, just, go, and, replace, the, cows, just, like, that, is, not, quite, the, case, sat, 15th, june, saturday, morning, spent, it, gardening, the, strawberries, are, coming, and, even, though, the, gooseberries, aren’t, quite, ripe, picked, some, to, start, the, harvest, and, the, one, strawberry, that, was, reddish, then, went, to, visit, friend, and, the, wide, screen, tv, for, the, football, match, no, one, expected, any, more, english, progress, but, the, lads, surprised, me, and, played, a, stormer, so, the, game, against, brazil, will, become, the, match, the, practice, bbq, in, watery, june, sunshine, was, good, fun, but, the, ground, was, too, wet, to, play, silly, games, or, even, footie, the, food, was, excellent, aw, was, notable, by, her, absence, hey, ho, bbq, is, in, need, of, a, revamp, maybe, abseiling, though, i, don’t, think, i, can, see, either, r, or, aw, going, for, it, showed, s, around, flat, and, met, her, parents, remind, me, to, be, wise, with, my, kids, sun, felt, tired, and, ill, and, washed, out, after, slowing, down, and, switching, off, after, a, busy, day, yesterday, and, all, week, watched, the, ireland, match, which, was, very, close, spent, rest, of, day, sleeping, or, just, chilling, out, mon, went, testing, at, k, and, t’d, they, are, really, nice, lads, but, not, too, hot, on, the, academic, front, but, good, fun, they, were, in, good, form, and, hoping, to, get, the, low, down, on, the, new, vets, yes, they, are, young, free, and, single, as, far, as, i, know, i, pity, their, chances, spent, a, lazy, day, in, the, sun, at, a, gentle, pace, so, quite, enjoyed, myself, caught, up, with, the, paperwork, at, night, and, feel, mellow, tuesday, too, many, o’s, one, call, was, cancelled, but, the, other, one, still, wanted, the, call, so, some, one, went, to, the, wrong, o, and, i, had, to, make, a, mad, dash, and, pour, oil, on, the, waters, to, explain, why, we, are, so, late, oops, so, more, testing, and, a, quiet, day, wife, also, had, her, quiet, day, there, was, supposed, to, be, a, group, of, them, going, for, a, retreat, day, but, the, speaker, had, cancelled, so, she, did, it, herself, with, r, and, it, went, very, well, she, was, exhausted, after, giving, out, all, day, met, up, with, lads, at, night, didn’t, get, to, gym, again, as, i, had, to, go, and, calve, a, schistasoma, yuk, weds, tried, again, to, work, out, what, we, are, going, to, do, with, summer, holidays, no, doubt, we, will, get, organised, eventually, came, home, early, for, lunch, and, had, forgotten, that, it, was, coffee, morning, here, so, felt, out, of, place, amongst, so, many, women, skipped, off, early, and, went, for, a, cycle, to, make, up, for, missing, gym, did, first, part, with, a, and, annie, and, then, zipped, around, for, a, bit, which, was, good, thursday, k, and, t, had, an, i, r, again, i, need, a, new, supply, of, little, green, forms, to, put, this, in, context, prior, to, this, year, in, 16, years, in, practice, i, have, had, 4, i, r’s, i, am, doing, that, this, week, so, another, farm, under, restrictions, friday, bad, hair, day, england, lost, och, well, never, mind, such, is, life, richard, drummond’s, report, that, the, svs, was, unprepared, yeah, we, had, all, been, saying, it, but, i, did, not, realise, that, the, svs, had, been, saying, it, 2, years, ago, has, been, picked, up, by, the, audit, office, there, is, a, report, case, of, fmd, in, a, pig, from, leicester, mkt, and, i, had, another, i, r, and, met, with, jm, a, temporary, vet, with, carlisle, svs, on, why, we, had, not, done, the, tests, allocated, mostly, cos, they, aren’t, to, do, he, also, was, very, cynical, about, the, changes, in, defra, and, the, management, ethos, has, not, changed, he, brought, a, message, back, from, them, that, the, test, we, had, sent, back, because, the, guy, is, an, old, recluse, that, is, impossible, to, deal, with, we, had, to, do, as, they, did, not, have, the, resources, what, they, are, responsible, for, ensuring, that, they, are, done, and, sorting, out, the, recalcitrant, had, the, afternoon, off, and, ran, round, after, the, kids, while, wife, did, reports, next, week, must, be, better, sat, 22nd, june, wedding, day, for, d, and, s, yippee, d, and, his, best, man, and, usher, plus, 3, others, arrived, last, night, and, it, was, really, nice, to, have, young, people, around, again, i, have, forgotten, how, much, i, enjoy, young, people, i, must, be, getting, too, old, and, cynical, c, looked, after, our, boys, and, a, went, into, town, it, was, really, nice, s, could, not, stop, smiling, and, it, is, wigton, carnival, day, so, there, were, two, pipe, bands, as, well, which, could, be, heard, drifting, over, the, vows, was, in, his, kilt, i, should, have, got, mine, on, for, the, occasion, the, reception, was, at, tullie, house, which, is, a, really, nice, relaxed, venue, we, were, seated, opposite, friends, so, it, was, really, nice, catching, up, with, them, b, d, are, just, back, from, another, wedding, in, vancouver, and, really, impressed, with, bc, they, are, out, doors, fanatics, so, the, skiing, mountains, and, whistler, really, is, their, thing, barnes, who, was, looking, after, the, kids, at, night, is, going, out, there, for, his, gap, year, to, work, in, a, book, shop, should, be, really, great, for, him, there, was, a, celeidh, in, the, evening, but, i, only, lasted, for, 3, dances, i, was, absolutely, exhausted, i, didn’t, realise, how, tired, i, was, sunday, fortunately, it, was, a, family, service, ie, doesn’t, start, until, 11;00, it, was, lead, by, the, young, adults, group, so, was, really, fresh, and, good, they, also, don’t, take, themselves, too, seriously, but, do, take, jesus, seriously, and, it, was, good, monday, missed, swimming, again, cos, work, was, really, busy, crusaders, meeting, at, night, at, rydal, very, good, met, up, with, some, of, the, leaders, i, haven’t, met, before, folk, who, work, with, young, people, are, always, good, fun, and, have, a, wicked, sense, of, humour, do, you, need, one, to, do, youth, work, or, does, youth, work, give, you, one, tuesday, diary, did, not, get, filled, in, from, here, on, as, on, weds, morning, i, reached, into, back, of, the, car, and, my, back, went, i, tore, muscles, in, it, a, long, time, ago, and, it, often, niggles, but, as, long, as, i, keep, doing, the, exercises, for, stretching, and, building, up, the, muscles, it, is, ok, but, i, have, missed, doing, the, swimming, relevant, any, way, saw, stars, and, in, agony, so, flat, on, my, back, and, stretching, every, 2, hrs, and, sore, saturday, 29th, june, my, back, is, slowly, improving, i, can, move, around, and, type, i, can, do, the, stretching, ok, but, stiff, and, achy, rather, than, spasm, work, must, have, been, bad, for, the, two, left, as, it, was, going, to, be, short, staffed, with, out, me, dropping, out, nothing, i, can, do, about, it, the, new, vet, called, around, to, look, at, the, flat, before, moving, in, a, month’s, time, she, came, with, her, mother, their, farm, was, culled, out, with, fmd, late, on, and, they, had, just, got, the, herd, to, where, they, wanted, the, breeding, her, mum, was, talking, about, it, was, going, through, a, grieving, period, and, how, some, days, it, was, yes, carry, on, and, get, going, again, and, other, days, it, was, why, bother, it, is, just, all, too, much, hassle, it, will, take, a, long, time, for, the, memories, in, the, farming, community, to, fader, and, with, the, acknowledgement, that, it, was, much, better, to, get, the, disease, and, get, it, over, with, the, cooperation, of, farmers, will, be, even, less, they, are, the, 17th, generation, on, the, farm, the, whole, concept, of, bio, security, needs, to, be, looked, at, and, farmer, education, on, how, the, disease, is, spread, the, self, imposed, isolation, of, not, sending, kids, to, school, etc, is, just, stupid, but, to, go, against, the, flow, is, very, difficult, that, as, well, as, the, defra, imposed, ridiculous, rules, they, were, not, allowed, to, leave, the, house, for, 3, months, they, just, view, this, as, a, punishment, imposed, because, they, refused, to, let, the, hefted, flock, be, culled, they, were, right, not, to, the, old, tenants, have, moved, out, of, the, cottage, eddie, and, ruth, seemed, to, really, enjoy, it, as, a, summer, holiday, while, at, work, a, change, is, as, good, as, a, rest, so, they, say, i, have, looked, at, jobs, again, but, nothing, appeals, there, is, a, job, which, i, wouldn’t, mind, doing, as, a, consultancy, but, doubt, anything, will, come, will, have, to, wait, and, continue, to, see, what, happens, went, out, for, a, meal, to, giannis, at, night, as, my, dad, is, up, for, the, w, e, sunday, p, spoke, at, family, focus, at, church, and, was, very, encouraging, he, is, always, a, revelation, as, he, takes, things, as, they, are, not, as, they, should, be, watched, brazil, beat, germany, to, win, the, world, cup, wet, weather, and, kids, out, of, sorts, and, back, still, sore, yuk, monday, drove, for, the, first, time, and, dropped, my, dad, off, in, carlisle, but, it, was, pretty, sore, by, the, time, i, got, back, dad, was, in, good, form, and, he, has, enjoyed, his, time, up, here, but, he, is, getting, older, and, with, being, in, london, we, are, going, to, have, to, visit, on, a, more, regular, basis, went, into, work, and, did, some, paper, work, and, answered, phone, and, felt, better, for, doing, sthg, as, pretty, bored, but, couldn’t, sit, still, or, really, get, going, either, came, home, and, lay, down, again, d, came, around, at, night, called, in, absolutely, hyper, he, and, a, going, to, split, up, which, is, not, so, good, even, if, it, is, not, that, un, expected, the, thing, that, has, brought, to, a, head, is, the, fact, a, is, seeing, some, one, else, who, is, also, married, not, a, good, situation, lads, came, around, at, night, which, was, good, fun, and, we, had, a, good, time, tuesday, i, am, now, the, father, of, a, teenager, a’s, b’day, so, it, was, good, to, see, her, opening, her, presents, this, morning, back, is, easing, a, lot, so, did, small, animal, today, and, i, am, moving, freely, but, still, doing, the, exercises, a’s, birthday, is, also, always, a, time, for, reflection, as, she, was, born, a, year, to, the, day, after, we, arrived, in, cumbria, so, we, have, been, here, 14, years, a, long, time, the, future, is, also, looking, a, bit, uncertain, work, wise, with, more, farmers, complaining, about, the, prices, of, their, milk, and, animals, hence, they, don’t, want, to, pay, their, bills, weds, to, saturday, as, usual, the, diary, gets, missed, when, the, crisis, hits, so, i, am, writing, this, on, the, following, tuesday, and, bringing, the, diary, entries, up, to, date, weds, morning, i, was, driving, through, wigton, having, done, my, first, farm, call, since, doing, my, back, when, there, were, lots, of, flashing, lights, and, an, ambulance, and, an, unmarked, police, car, with, all, its, lights, on, going, through, wigton, they, stopped, at, the, lay, by, in, wigton, high, st, the, traffic, was, slow, but, i, did, not, see, anything, later, on, i, was, coming, back, in, to, wigton, from, another, call, and, the, by, pass, was, closed, the, office, was, full, of, news, that, the, by, pass, had, been, closed, because, of, a, stabbing, and, that, a, welshman, and, a, wigton, woman, had, been, taken, to, hospital, and, a, wigton, man, had, been, arrested, for, attempted, murder, i, got, a, sinking, feeling, as, d, had, been, around, on, monday, saying, about, ali, having, a, boy, friend, i, said, to, wife, but, she, said, surely, not, i, got, back, after, work, and, a, friend, arrived, and, unfortunately, it, was, d, the, story, emerged, over, the, next, few, days, how, he, had, forced, his, wife, at, knife, point, to, take, him, to, where, she, was, meeting, the, boyfriend, and, there, he, attacked, him, the, sort, of, story, you, only, here, about, in, the, papers, and, crime, programmes, so, we, have, had, the, police, taking, statements, and, trying, to, come, to, terms, with, it, he, is, usually, a, mild, almost, submissive, personality, and, he, had, flipped, but, really, weird, they, have, 3, girls, who, are, now, going, to, be, really, mixed, up, having, a, father, who, attempts, to, kill, their, mother, is, not, nice, so, i, missed, the, leaving, party, for, the, locum, who, has, been, working, for, us, for, the, past, few, months, which, by, all, accounts, was, very, good, saturday, 6th, july, still, in, shell, shock, over, d, and, a, i, still, cannot, believe, what, has, happened, went, in, saturday, morning, and, sorted, my, car, and, got, testing, list, up, to, date, there, is, a, lot, in, the, veterinary, press, about, the, future, of, the, lvi, system, and, the, future, of, farm, animal, practice, the, future, is, not, looking, good, the, short, term, is, fine, if, anything, we, will, have, a, huge, amount, of, work, and, we, can, live, off, the, fmd, capital, that, the, farmers, have, but, once, that, begins, to, run, out, they, and, we, will, be, in, serious, difficulties, the, economics, are, against, the, farm, animal, practice, went, out, for, a, brilliant, meal, and, had, a, really, good, evening, at, c’s, her, husband, is, a, detective, sgt, and, had, been, called, out, because, there, was, yet, another, serious, incident, this, time, at, a, night, club, in, cockermouth, there, is, a, 22, year, old, in, newcastle, hospital, with, head, injuries, so, felt, sorry, for, c, as, she, cooked, and, hostessed, with, out, her, better, half, sunday, church, was, good, with, sg, on, the, character, of, god, he, was, quite, funny, with, his, illustrations, of, fatherly, things, from, his, life, espy, as, his, son, is, quite, a, character, met, up, with, dc, who, was, a, defra, vet, from, sa, he, was, in, good, form, and, has, another, locum, set, up, for, when, he, finishes, at, longtown, monday, back, into, full, swing, again, but, not, much, happening, read, the, test, and, felt, a, lot, happier, as, i, didn’t, have, to, leave, the, dreaded, piece, of, green, paper, as, everything, passed, of, the, farms, i, went, on, though, it, was, interesting, to, note, that, the, farmers, are, all, having, problems, with, their, backs, again, while, they, were, pressure, washing, and, not, amongst, stock, they, were, fine, but, going, back, to, pushing, animals, around, the, bad, backs, are, back, the, topic, is, probably, raised, because, of, the, fact, i, have, been, off, with, a, bad, back, du, called, in, as, he, is, replacing, d, on, the, railway, until, they, can, get, something, sorted, on, a, more, permanent, basis, he, stayed, for, 2, years, next, door, while, doing, his, railtrack, training, the, people, at, work, cannot, believe, that, dave, has, done, sthg, like, this, as, he, usually, if, anything, a, submissive, guy, du, had, just, got, the, keys, to, his, new, house, in, manchester, where, he, is, based, now, and, was, not, very, happy, to, be, posted, back, up, to, cumbria, he, hasn’t, even, managed, to, move, in, tuesday, work, very, quiet, and, long, lunches, good, for, getting, other, things, done, but, pretty, boring, looked, at, rota, and, checked, websites, reports, to, be, published, on, 18th, july, spent, time, sorting, out, rotas, and, booking, up, and, reorganising, my, kit, weds, day, off, went, into, carlisle, and, was, bounced, by, my, wife, in, to, getting, my, hair, cut, in, what, i, assume, is, an, expensive, hairdressers, she, was, getting, hers, done, and, dragged, me, in, and, it, was, a, fait, accompli, at, least, i, assume, it, is, expensive, as, she, won’t, tell, me, how, much, it, is, and, she, let, me, go, off, to, tesco’s, and, said, she, would, pay, for, both, wandered, around, book, shop, in, carlisle, and, met, wife, s, mum, off, the, bus, the, vet, student, from, usa, arrived, for, a, couple, of, days, jamie, who, is, not, as, i, assumed, male, but, female, it, is, amazing, how, you, make, assumptions, when, you, read, e, mails, and, take, messages, she, is, in, uk, for, 12, wks, and, friend, has, given, her, our, address, as, his, wife, is, about, to, have, twins, so, he, thought, it, better, not, to, have, more, people, than, really, necessary, in, his, house, there, are, a, few, babies, at, the, moment, got, a, photo, of, e, this, morning, and, friend, called, around, to, say, other, friends, had, had, a, baby, but, he, couldn’t, remember, whether, it, was, a, boy, or, a, girl, learnt, later, it, is, a, boy, thursday, not, a, lot, for, j, to, see, called, in, to, see, friend’s, new, kittens, posh, becks, both, have, cat, flu, he, is, busy, painting, house, and, tidying, up, for, the, wedding, never, seen, his, yard, as, tidy, must, tell, abbi, to, get, a, move, on, and, maybe, he, will, finish, off, some, of, the, building, work, as, well, did, 2, calvings, in, the, afternoon, and, finally, read, through, the, audit, office, report, which, i, downloaded, ages, ago, they, were, pretty, accurate, apart, from, nick, brown, insisting, it, was, all, going, splendidly, well, there, really, must, be, a, better, working, relationship, between, the, ministry, svs, vets, and, the, vets, in, general, practice, and, so, much, better, communication, the, other, point, that, is, never, made, is, that, all, farms, should, have, a, mass, disposal, plan, as, part, of, their, iacs, return, in, order, to, keep, fmd, on, peoples, minds, as, it, is, already, disappearing, as, a, part, of, history, and, history, will, repeat, itself, because, nobody, listens, and, most, of, the, anguish, and, delays, were, in, the, disposal, systems, friday, dropped, j, off, in, wigton, to, catch, the, train, it, is, always, strange, with, having, students, because, they, stay, in, our, house, they, are, very, much, part, of, our, lives, and, then, they, drop, out, of, our, lives, another, former, student, who, is, just, back, from, sa, called, in, and, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, her, she, was, on, her, way, back, to, edinburgh, for, her, 5, year, reunion, he, has, been, qualified, 5, years, and, i, thought, it, was, 2, or, three, one, of, the, vets, was, off, ill, so, it, meant, a, bit, of, a, run, around, today, as, 2, others, were, on, holiday, but, it, was, good, to, be, busy, and, get, some, adrenalin, pumping, saturday, 13th, july, working, saturday, morning, on, days, like, this, i, think, it, is, great, to, be, a, small, animal, vet, the, consults, were, all, straight, forward, and, i, could, chat, to, the, owners, with, out, having, to, stop, and, think, what, to, do, about, the, animals, that, and, 2, owners, were, really, appreciative, of, what, i, was, doing, so, felt, good, i, think, that, is, one, of, the, things, about, working, for, defra, no, one, appreciated, what, you, were, doing, ok, some, appreciated, the, concern, and, effort, and, the, way, you, did, it, but, no, one, really, thought, what, you, were, doing, was, good, like, putting, pets, down, it, is, for, the, best, but, no, one, likes, it, beautiful, day, today, too, the, sun, shining, and, picking, strawberries, and, having, a, bar, b, q, was, really, very, pleasant, my, brother, always, says, the, best, thing, about, nz, where, he, lives, is, that, he, can, plan, to, have, a, barb, in, 2, wks, time, whereas, here, you, have, to, go, with, the, flow, sun, 14th, first, call, so, wandered, around, seeing, ill, cows, several, lots, of, drugs, to, put, out, as, a, lot, for, the, restocking, farms, have, yet, to, get, their, medicine, cabinets, back, up, to, strength, had, a, collie, hit, by, a, tractor, and, its, eye, had, been, knocked, out, of, its, socket, urgh, eyes, give, me, the, creeps, mon, 15th, operating, day, as, we, are, doing, the, anaesthetic, monitoring, so, plenty, of, ops, booked, in, health, and, safety, requires, us, to, check, for, operator, exposure, to, anaesthetic, gases, as, our, new, system, has, a, scavenging, system, and, is, light, years, ahead, of, the, one, we, use, to, have, it, is, a, waste, of, time, but, we, have, to, have, the, checks, done, but, i, wonder, how, many, other, practices, actually, do, we, have, never, been, checked, up, upon, a, police, man, arrived, at, the, front, desk, while, i, was, on, the, phone, the, head, nurse, disappeared, as, soon, as, she, saw, the, marked, police, car, which, struck, me, as, very, suspicious, after, he, had, booked, an, appointment, for, his, dog, and, he, had, left, i, was, curious, to, know, where, she, had, disappeared, to, she, had, gone, to, check, that, the, medicines, cabinet, where, we, keep, the, gun, and, dangerous, drugs, was, in, fact, locked, as, while, we, are, operating, we, keep, it, open, so, as, to, have, easy, access, to, the, emergency, drugs, the, gun, licences, insist, that, it, is, kept, locked, at, all, times, and, immediate, access, to, a, police, officer, coming, to, check, it, must, be, allowed, and, we, never, been, checked, up, upon, yet, farmers, are, all, busy, with, field, work, and, are, not, wanting, to, even, think, about, any, routine, work, so, it, could, be, a, quiet, week, tuesday, 16th, beautiful, weather, and, raspberries, coming, along, nicely, wife, s, mum, is, busy, making, jam, and, mile, high, pies, yum, yum, partners, meeting, at, lunchtime, why, do, they, always, make, me, so, depressed, the, subjects, were, more, of, the, same, how, do, we, cope, with, the, changes, in, the, drug, sales, prices, and, how, do, we, compete, with, irish, drugs, being, brought, in, illegally, we, got, a, little, further, forward, and, will, hopefully, be, able, to, make, a, decision, on, it, by, the, deadline, in, september, we, need, to, look, at, new, ways, of, bringing, in, revenue, streams, but, i, don’t, think, there, is, a, willing, ness, to, look, at, the, radical, so, i, will, have, to, keep, working, away, at, it, weds, 17th, met, up, with, the, lads, last, night, to, pray, but, the, craic, was, good, and, did, more, chat, and, joking, than, praying, t’was, good, i, is, apparently, having, a, good, time, at, the, cs, lewis, convention, but, has, yet, to, open, the, book, stall, he, sells, books, and, specialises, in, antiquarian, and, first, editions, of, c.s, lewis, the, one, thing, about, the, internet, is, that, it, frees, up, communication, and, searching, for, the, really, obscure, sorry, i, the, weather, broke, today, and, the, rain, came, and, with, it, all, the, calls, as, the, farmers, got, all, the, routine, stuff, done, which, was, good, for, the, last, of, the, school, kids, which, have, plagued, us, for, the, past, few, weeks, vet, students, next, but, at, least, they, can, chat, away, with, out, me, having, to, make, all, the, effort, thurs, 18th, went, o, a, farm, today, which, restocked, in, feb, after, doing, its, 4, months, waiting, and, has, yet, to, have, a, tb, test, asked, him, whether, i, should, chase, it, up, but, he, like, everyone, else, should, be, leaving, it, to, october, and, housing, maff, efficiency, rules, we, also, tested, 44, imported, heifers, that, were, supposed, to, be, blood, sampled, within, 7, days, of, calving, but, they, have, been, missed, i, have, no, confidence, in, either, of, the, reports, to, actually, achieve, anything, part, of, me, feels, i, should, try, to, contact, the, media, and, try, to, get, them, to, push, the, agenda, along, but, i, don’t, feel, it, would, achieve, much, apart, from, sticking, my, head, above, the, parapet, which, would, not, do, much, i, have, asked, for, copies, but, none, have, arrived, yet, fri, 19th, demob, happy, i’m, on, holiday, from, 5, 30pm, so, it, will, be, good, to, catch, up, on, all, the, things, i, should, have, done, but, not, done, the, garden, is, a, mess, but, we, are, getting, on, top, of, it, slowly, in, some, ways, i, am, glad, to, be, off, when, the, lli, is, reporting, as, at, least, i, will, not, get, wound, up, so, this, is, me, signing, off, for, the, week, next, diary, will, be, on, sat, week, holiday, week, beginning, saturday, 20th, july, saturday, 27th, july, having, had, a, week, off, i, am, feeling, a, lot, happier, about, life, in, general, we, have, been, to, a, few, of, the, nights, at, the, keswick, convention, it, is, an, amazing, set, up, with, over, 12,000, people, coming, together, over, 3, weeks, in, keswick, and, meeting, up, for, bible, teaching, and, to, worship, god, there, is, a, big, tent, that, is, set, up, on, the, back, of, the, convention, centre, by, the, time, we, arrive, it, is, always, full, and, we, were, not, late, on, the, friday, evening, there, were, people, standing, outside, the, kids, went, to, a, youth, event, on, of, all, things, ezekiel, not, exactly, an, easy, choice, of, bible, book, to, convey, to, 19, 14, yr, olds, but, they, really, enjoyed, the, wacky, games, and, the, way, they, mixed, teaching, and, songs, and, games, activities, they, seemed, to, be, mostly, uni, students, who, seemed, to, get, as, much, fun, out, of, it, as, the, kids, my, brother, and, family, were, up, and, the, cousins, love, getting, together, and, even, a, joined, in, the, football, and, tennis, even, though, her, hand, to, eye, co, ordination, is, not, the, best, she, has, taken, up, running, every, day, so, i, have, been, out, with, her, but, my, back, is, still, not, right, and, i, can, feel, it, at, the, slightest, provocation, must, go, swimming, again, my, brother, also, asked, wife, what, diy, needed, doing, as, he, is, a, real, enthusiast, give, me, gardening, any, time, so, we, made, a, door, for, one, of, the, sheds, which, i, have, been, putting, off, for, the, past, 6, years, as, once, i, start, there, are, another, 5, to, do, he, is, also, a, sailing, fan, so, hired, a, sail, boat, and, went, sailing, which, was, great, fun, the, kids, had, a, canoe, and, we, raced, up, and, down, the, lake, and, the, kids, swapped, around, and, went, to, explore, islands, it, was, really, good, the, weather, helped, it, was, scorching, we, also, went, to, a, wedding, of, one, of, our, close, friends, son, i, decided, i, am, going, to, start, teaching, my, kids, the, etiquette, of, weddings, as, the, groom, could, have, done, a, better, job, it, isn’t, really, his, fault, as, he, is, young, and, has, not, thought, things, out, sun, went, to, the, all, age, service, at, the, tent, at, keswick, there, were, too, many, kids, even, for, me, but, the, mix, of, action, songs, and, asking, kids, things, and, an, action, talk, meant, that, those, leading, it, kept, the, kids, involved, it, was, good, to, see, spent, the, afternoon, on, the, lake, it, was, really, nice, day, mon, yep, it, was, a, real, monday, morning, with, my, in, tray, over, flowing, 2, rota’s, to, sort, and, 2, weeks, of, testing, to, try, to, arrange, the, only, goodish, news, was, that, the, ministry, have, finally, decided, to, put, the, restocking, farms, on, annual, testing, which, means, at, least, we, know, where, we, stand, and, can, plan, it, will, mean, a, lot, of, work, for, us, the, bad, news, was, that, the, oft, investigation, have, sent, us, a, horrific, questionnaire, which, needs, filled, in, and, one, of, my, partners, has, had, a, go, and, not, got, very, far, unfortunately, and, it, needs, to, be, in, by, tomorrow, forget, it, the, 2, new, vets, have, started, and, so, we, are, settling, them, in, and, they, are, picking, up, the, ropes, quite, quickly, which, is, ace, on, call, at, night, out, twice, for, bad, calvings, that’s, the, end, of, my, holiday, f, feeling, good, tuesday, sore, back, from, calvings, and, early, mornings, had, forgotten, i, had, arranged, for, some, one, to, be, with, me, all, day, today, in, a, moment, of, weakness, i, had, acquiesced, to, being, put, up, for, sale, in, a, promise, auction, to, raise, money, for, african, children’s, choir, so, this, was, the, promise, being, redeemed, a, morning, with, the, vet, so, i, put, on, my, best, charming, manner, all, mr, pr, man, and, took, her, on, a, tour, of, the, practice, and, on, call, and, explained, everything, i, was, doing, so, it, was, a, good, thing, we, were, not, busy, spent, the, afternoon, consulting, and, supervising, new, vets, and, showing, them, the, ropes, weds, we, were, suppose, to, be, going, walking, up, helvellyn, but, the, torrential, rain, put, us, off, so, went, into, carlisle, and, did, bits, and, pieces, and, i, took, kids, to, see, stuart, little, 2, which, is, definitely, one, for, the, kids, and, jobbed, around, at, home, but, the, kids, like, it, when, we, just, potter, around, thursday, felt, really, stiff, and, sore, and, decided, again, i, must, go, swimming, more, often, i, just, cannot, seem, to, get, there, that’s, all, must, make, time, i’m, working, this, w, e, and, i, am, then, off, for, 10, days, finishing, with, f’s, wedding, friends, are, up, with, their, kids, and, it, is, really, good, to, see, them, we, don’t, see, them, that, often, but, they, are, the, sort, of, friends, who, you, pick, up, on, as, soon, as, you, meet, them, even, if, you, haven’t, seen, them, for, ages, m, has, left, full, time, teaching, as, he, couldn’t, cope, with, the, pressure, of, all, the, paper, work, and, hassle, he, is, teaching, supply, and, doing, other, things, as, well, he, is, so, creative, and, he, has, made, a, model, of, our, house, just, while, he, was, sitting, chatting, with, us, friday, came, home, at, lunchtime, to, see, the, kitchen, table, covered, in, drawings, and, paintings, m, had, decided, to, have, a, painting, day, so, all, the, kids, were, doing, drawings, and, paintings, he, has, done, a, watercolour, of, our, house, it, is, brilliant, holiday, for, two, weeks, this, is, more, a, reflection, of, what, i, have, been, doing, and, thinking, over, the, summer, as, i, have, not, been, writing, up, the, diary, but, i, want, to, put, down, some, of, the, things, that, i, think, are, important, edited, disclosive, sat, 24th, aug, another, bank, holiday, w, e, to, be, worked, but, at, least, i, am, backing, up, our, new, young, assistant, we, work, a, system, where, the, new, vets, have, a, senior, vet, on, call, at, the, same, time, for, the, first, few, months, so, as, to, give, them, a, hands, on, support, and, mentoring, while, this, sounds, very, good, and, practical, it, is, surprisingly, uncommon, when, i, started, i, was, on, my, own, from, almost, day, one, i, started, in, august, after, getting, married, and, in, the, second, week, of, september, my, boss, headed, off, to, oman, to, do, horse, work, out, there, the, other, large, animal, vet, was, off, on, long, term, sick, and, he, could, only, get, a, small, animal, locum, when, i, look, back, now, that, he, left, me, in, charge, of, the, farm, practice, for, 2, weeks, after, only, being, a, month, qualified, i, shudder, but, at, the, time, i, just, got, on, with, it, sun, 25th, calvings, coming, thick, and, fast, the, good, warm, weather, has, made, the, grass, spring, and, the, cows, are, putting, on, too, much, weight, and, having, problems, j, was, at, a, football, tournament, at, pirelli’s, which, i, missed, but, he, came, back, really, tired, having, played, his, socks, off, did, another, pts, put, to, sleep, dog, visit, with, assistant, vet, it, is, never, the, easiest, of, consults, and, she, did, really, well, she, is, finding, her, feet, i, find, it, hard, helping, people, make, euthanasia, decisions, over, dogs, so, i, feel, quite, strongly, anti, euthanasia, when, it, comes, to, people, mon, 28th, beautiful, day, too, nice, to, work, the, morning, was, busy, but, the, afternoon, was, quiet, so, i, spent, it, lying, in, the, sun, dozing, had, bbq, at, night, at, j’s, and, chatted, to, a, few, folk, who, i, know, but, not, to, speak, to, so, was, interesting, spoke, to, one, of, our, farmers, daughters, who, told, me, her, dad, had, just, had, his, first, calf, since, fmd, and, so, he, was, really, happy, he, had, 2, holdings, which, were, run, as, one, he, managed, to, keep, his, heifers, which, were, on, the, second, holding, probably, because, they, were, the, last, ones, in, the, area, and, these, were, the, ones, that, were, now, calving, he, still, blames, the, pyre, from, a, neighbour, for, spreading, the, virus, to, his, farm, tuesday, 27th, the, problem, with, having, a, day, off, is, that, you, have, problems, stored, up, for, when, you, come, back, today, was, really, hectic, finished, at, 6, 30, after, having, come, back, from, the, belgian, blue, inspections, to, help, out, at, surgery, the, inspections, were, fun, but, it, gave, me, the, creeps, being, in, the, mart, and, inspecting, mouths, as, it, brought, back, bad, memories, the, mart, is, ridiculously, clean, and, the, last, time, i, inspected, mouths, was, for, fmd, after, shooting, a, herd, that, was, a, dangerous, contact, i, was, trying, to, persuade, london, not, to, take, out, the, other, neighbour, as, well, we, got, finished, at, 2am, and, went, in, for, a, cup, of, tea, and, to, recover, and, the, mother, greeted, me, with, the, news, that, d, had, been, next, door, and, was, starting, to, shoot, them, the, other, really, annoying, thing, is, that, the, basic, hygiene, is, not, being, enforced, and, yet, other, rules, are, the, rules, are, made, in, london, by, desk, bound, defra, officials, who, don’t, have, to, implement, them, the, mart, uses, mini, dumper, trucks, to, clean, out, the, pens, after, they, have, been, sold, the, same, trucks, are, then, used, to, put, out, straw, and, sawdust, in, the, freshly, cleansed, and, disinfected, yards, they, are, covered, in, muck, and, are, a, bio, hazard, m, the, owner, of, the, animals, we, were, inspecting, put, on, her, usual, tantrum, display, to, try, and, intimidate, the, secretary, and, inspectors, which, as, i, was, expecting, it, i, found, quite, amusing, but, i, don’t, think, she, or, they, did, had, another, bbq, tonight, with, kids, son, cooked, and, loved, it, so, i, have, found, a, new, bbqer, kids, in, brilliant, form, as, they, are, enjoying, being, around, and, a, has, been, baking, weds, 28th, another, tb, reactor, and, the, corresponding, paper, work, and, licensing, had, a, weird, oddball, case, in, surgery, and, spent, ages, trying, to, take, a, history, of, what, was, going, on, the, dog, is, not, that, unwell, in, itself, but, has, an, intermittent, history, of, different, things, i, look, forward, to, seeing, what, it, turns, out, to, be, or, whether, it, resolves, itself, with, time, vetting, is, always, varied, j, was, at, friend’s, party, after, having, a, football, school, with, blackburn, rovers, this, morning, so, he, was, passed, himself, arranged, to, visit, prisoner, in, prison, on, my, next, day, off, and, went, through, a, multitude, of, meaningless, options, to, end, up, with, a, guy, who, sounded, like, he, came, straight, off, porridge, it, is, amazing, how, intimidating, trying, to, find, your, way, around, a, bureaucracy, can, be, i, am, not, sure, i, want, to, go, but, thurs, 29th, from, feast, to, famine, not, much, work, during, the, day, at, least, al, had, 3, caesareans, last, night, and, was, running, out, of, steam, by, 5, o’clock, this, afternoon, meanwhile, i, did, small, animals, and, tried, to, organise, my, trip, to, london, to, visit, my, dad, found, web, sites, for, chitty, chitty, bang, bang, london, eye, and, madam, tussards, so, should, be, able, to, book, in, advance, if, tickets, are, left, for, the, half, term, week, other, children, are, staying, so, the, house, is, full, of, excited, kids, friday, 30th, busy, day, sorting, out, the, invitations, to, our, open, day, 1st, oct, it, is, just, a, chance, to, get, the, farmers, together, we, promised, one, to, celebrate, the, end, of, fmd, it, is, amazing, going, through, the, list, off, the, computer, how, many, farms, are, not, restocked, the, list, hasn’t, been, updated, since, pre, fmd, as, we, don’t, really, know, how, many, will, restock, so, we, have, been, waiting, for, the, end, of, fmd, to, redo, it, so, there, were, a, few, deaths, sales, and, moved, away, to, take, off, the, list, time, moves, on, sat, 31st, august, last, w, e, of, the, summer, holidays, we, had, a, bbq, at, lunch, time, for, borderline, and, then, i, promised, to, take, the, boys, camping, at, bowscale, tarn, it, was, beautiful, but, really, cold, the, weather, was, ok, sat, but, sunday, was, glorious, the, boys, wakened, at, first, light, so, we, climbed, up, on, to, the, tops, while, the, sun, was, still, rising, and, it, was, one, of, those, magical, moments, wonderful, the, boys, were, so, excited, and, full, of, energy, and, so, happy, to, be, with, their, dad, and, enjoying, life, a, time, to, treasure, sun, after, coming, down, off, the, tops, from, bowscale, tarn, went, to, visit, friends, he, is, a, vet, in, longtown, and, has, just, set, up, his, own, small, animal, practice, in, the, north, of, carlisle, the, twins, who, are, now, 4, weeks, old, were, wonderful, there, is, always, sthg, very, special, about, wee, babies, a, was, in, her, element, with, two, to, mother, mon, good, weather, continuing, and, so, we, are, still, quiet, the, vet, student, has, arrived, went, blood, sampling, sheep, for, maedi, visna, to, a, farmer, who, imports, and, sells, sheep, as, a, bit, of, a, dealer, between, him, and, his, dad, and, his, granddad, they, have, 4, holding, numbers, which, is, making, a, mockery, of, the, licensing, system, he, knows, a, lot, of, the, breeders, and, dealers, and, the, yorkshire, defra, is, even, worse, than, this, one, and, so, the, whole, licensing, system, is, allegedly, being, ignored, there, everyone, in, the, office, was, trying, to, work, out, where, we, are, going, to, go, for, the, xmas, party, as, it, is, now, september, tuesday, it, is, friend’s, last, day, at, work, tomorrow, before, the, wedding, so, the, girls, spent, most, of, the, afternoon, printing, out, posters, and, things, to, decorate, his, car, before, he, goes, tomorrow, evening, the, farmers, are, phoning, in, to, book, tb, tests, for, nov, and, dec, as, they, know, that, we, will, be, busy, which, makes, life, a, lot, easier, for, me, we, have, sent, out, notes, with, the, invitations, to, the, open, day, and, that, has, had, a, good, response, so, we, will, start, to, get, busy, testing, next, week, weds, day, off, spent, the, morning, fixing, the, shower, drainage, which, had, suffered, from, one, too, many, footballs, being, kicked, against, it, the, problem, was, the, broken, part, was, also, a, metric, to, imperial, converter, one, end, was, 40mm, and, the, other, was, 43mm, which, once, i, discovered, that, was, what, i, needed, meant, a, trip, to, carlisle, as, nowhere, in, wigton, had, it, so, it, got, codged, up, with, plenty, of, silicone, the, afternoon, was, spent, going, to, visit, prisoner, he, is, the, friend, who, stabbed, his, wife’s, boyfriend, in, wigton, and, so, he, is, currently, residing, at, her, majesty’s, pleasure, in, durham, prison, it, was, a, very, disheartening, experience, as, with, any, organisation, it, takes, time, to, work, out, where, to, go, and, what, you, need, to, get, through, the, hoops, i, went, from, one, part, of, the, prison, to, another, and, backwards, and, forwards, the, staff, where, very, friendly, and, helpful, but, they, are, all, at, fixed, stations, and, so, you, are, sent, from, one, area, to, another, the, security, although, expected, and, natural, still, comes, as, a, bit, of, a, shock, photographed, in, and, issued, with, a, barcode, to, get, you, in, and, out, and, you, put, all, your, belongings, in, a, locker, before, you, are, allowed, in, of, course, i, did, not, realise, that, you, only, need, the, id, passport, to, get, your, bar, code, so, i, kept, it, to, show, at, the, entrance, where, all, i, needed, was, the, bar, code, so, they, sent, me, back, to, put, it, in, the, locker, prisoner, was, ok, but, he, is, still, finding, it, hard, to, think, about, a, future, that, does, not, include, his, wife, even, though, the, divorce, papers, are, filed, and, he, has, done, some, pretty, nasty, things, to, her, and, the, boyfriend, he, is, pleading, guilty, and, is, expecting, to, go, down, for, a, good, few, years, the, whole, visitors, area, was, charged, with, emotion, with, people, coming, to, see, brothers, husbands, lovers, there, were, lots, of, girls, with, young, children, coming, to, see, their, dads, i, felt, very, sad, for, them, and, for, the, kids, who, are, growing, up, with, out, a, dad, or, the, stigma, of, a, dad, in, jail, his, kids, have, written, but, he, is, realistic, his, wife, is, very, anti, him, and, they, are, unlikely, to, keep, up, with, him, in, the, long, term, as, she, at, best, is, not, going, to, be, supportive, at, worst, is, going, to, try, to, dissuade, them, he, was, quite, upset, about, that, he, is, also, not, able, to, sort, out, his, things, or, see, his, house, before, it, is, sold, he, did, a, lot, of, building, work, etc, on, it, and, has, an, emotional, attachment, to, it, but, there, is, no, real, closure, he, had, emotional, problems, before, all, this, he, is, likely, to, have, even, more, on, his, release, his, car, on, which, there, is, still, a, car, loan, has, been, removed, from, the, pound, but, he, doesn’t, know, where, it, is, drove, back, over, a66, very, thoughtful, and, thankful, for, my, family, and, freedom, until, the, phone, went, to, remind, me, i, was, on, call, and, had, i, forgotten, fortunately, there, were, no, calls, as, it, takes, quite, a, while, to, get, from, barnard, castle, to, wigton, oops, thursday, did, my, first, isolation, pens, inspection, which, is, a, complete, non, sense, the, field, has, to, be, 50, m, from, any, other, livestock, which, in, london, probably, sounds, fine, or, in, scotland, where, there, are, plenty, of, woods, and, other, crops, but, here, in, cumbria, where, the, main, crop, is, grass, and, all, the, fields, are, grazed, at, this, time, of, year, then, it, is, not, so, easy, the, forms, are, horrendous, and, the, boxes, to, be, filled, in, are, greyed, out, to, make, it, easy, for, you, to, know, which, boxes, are, to, be, filled, in, this, obviously, looks, really, good, on, a, computer, screen, in, london, but, on, a, photocopy, writing, in, black, ink, makes, the, whole, thing, illegible, but, that’s, their, problem, when, does, common, sense, come, in, friday, 6th, september, colleague’s, wedding, one, of, the, vets, at, the, practice, was, married, today, at, the, parish, church, in, wigton, the, wedding, was, some, do, he, and, his, family, in, kilts, there, were, over, 200, at, the, wedding, and, reception, at, the, grennhill, hotel, where, bride’s, uncle, is, a, director, the, theme, was, an, english, rode, and, scottish, thistle, the, flowers, were, all, red, roses, in, arrangements, with, thistles, they, were, beautiful, as, was, the, bride, he, quickly, adds, there, was, a, ceilidh, afterwards, and, a, fireworks, display, several, of, the, neighbouring, farmers, complained, to, me, the, next, day, danced, and, talked, the, night, away, till, after, 2, am, getting, up, the, next, day, was, a, bit, of, a, pain, for, morning, surgery, urgh, sat, 7th, september, why, is, it, whenever, you, could, do, with, a, quiet, day, because, of, one, reason, or, another, it, is, always, busiest, managed, to, keep, going, most, of, the, day, with, calvings, and, ill, animals, still, recovering, from, the, late, night, at, wedding, day, was, a, bit, of, a, wash, out, really, sunday, milk, fever, at, 7, am, to, finish, me, off, so, missed, church, but, went, to, hear, sc, at, wigton, in, evening, he, is, head, of, oasis, trust, and, is, very, much, a, radical, but, believes, in, putting, faith, into, action, and, was, very, challenging, isiah, 58, true, fasting, that, god, wants, to, spend, your, self, on, behalf, of, the, poor, in, spirit, wife, went, to, hear, the, new, bishop, of, carlisle, who, was, speaking, at, hebron, he, is, reaching, out, to, all, the, local, churches, and, seems, to, see, outside, the, traditional, denominational, boundaries, which, is, really, encouraging, monday, had, a, crusaders, meeting, in, rydal, crusaders, is, a, youth, group, organisation, and, i, am, on, the, area, planning, group, we, have, had, money, given, in, a, legacy, to, support, some, one, full, time, to, train, leaders, to, organise, area, events, and, w, e, away, and, other, joint, activities, which, should, be, good, it, meant, a, rush, and, a, long, day, so, i, am, still, feeling, knackered, from, the, w, e, tuesday, i, was, almost, speechless, today, the, great, era, of, decentralisation, has, hit, defra, i, wish, i, rang, them, up, because, we, still, have, not, had, confirmation, for, the, appointments, of, our, 2, new, vets, to, enable, them, to, do, defra, work, what, used, to, happen, was, that, they, went, to, a, training, session, and, chat, with, the, dvm, in, carlisle, and, the, appointments, arrived, 2, days, later, guess, what, all, the, paper, work, has, to, be, sent, to, page, st, in, london, now, and, they, have, not, got, it, back, yet, weds, 11, 09, 02, it, is, funny, how, some, anniversaries, effect, you, and, others, do, not, i, had, just, started, back, in, to, the, practice, when, the, hijackers, crashed, into, the, pentagon, and, the, twin, towers, i, was, feeling, at, my, most, bruised, and, battered, having, had, a, major, confrontation, at, defra, and, had, to, work, through, the, psychological, problems, of, being, threatened, and, sidelined, and, yet, wanting, to, keep, my, integrity, by, not, reacting, and, blowing, people, out, of, the, water, the, 9, 11, bombers, made, me, realise, how, fragile, peace, is, and, how, fragile, people, are, and, the, importance, of, not, losing, sight, of, the, important, things, in, life, and, trying, to, keep, things, in, perspective, people, are, more, important, friends, and, family, and, if, i, can’t, fight, the, civil, service, mentality, that, is, their, problem, not, mine, i, remember, seeing, one, of, the, teacher’s, husbands, walking, in, to, the, kids, school, when, i, went, to, pick, them, up, looking, slumped, and, dejected, and, learning, that, their, only, son, was, in, new, york, and, they, could, not, reach, him, 2, days, later, they, heard, he, had, visited, the, twin, towers, the, day, before, and, had, taken, photos, from, the, top, he, was, supposed, be, going, back, into, the, towers, that, morning, but, he, had, got, up, late, and, by, the, time, he, and, his, friends, set, off, the, towers, had, been, hit, the, impact, of, the, number, of, people, who, have, either, been, in, or, visited, the, towers, from, all, over, the, world, does, make, it, a, potent, symbol, with, worldwide, resonance, my, sister, worked, in, them, for, a, while, several, years, ago, the, anniversary, brought, a, lot, back, up, to, the, surface, that, i, thought, was, past, but, was, merely, hidden, thursday, first, on, last, night, and, 2nd, on, tonight, so, started, early, and, finished, late, and, running, out, of, steam, friday, one, of, the, farmer’s, wives, came, in, today, for, some, wormers, for, her, chickens, that, have, gape, worm, she, paid, last, months, bill, in, cash, as, well, as, for, the, wormers, 8.76, inc, vat, she, is, working, away, from, the, farm, 2, days, a, week, her, husband, is, full, time, at, a, job, he, got, after, they, went, down, with, fmd.i, asked, how, her, father, in, law, who, is, 65, was, doing, he, is, lost, and, the, farm, is, too, quit, its, not, right, its, too, quiet, they, still, have, no, animals, back, and, are, grass, letting, its, funny, she, said, whoosh, and, your, life, takes, a, complete, change, you, never, know, what’s, going, to, happen, next, sat, 14th, september, worked, am, and, then, had, rest, of, w, e, off, hooray, sunday, monday, son, s, footie, tuesday, partnership, meeting, at, lunchtime, so, had, a, sore, head, by, the, end, of, the, day, but, a, lot, of, good, decisions, made, so, feel, as, though, we, a, re, moving, forward, weds, off, as, working, the, w, e, so, caught, up, on, paperwork, and, stuff, at, home, and, then, went, into, carlisle, to, go, shopping, for, lots, of, bits, and, pieces, and, a, new, bathroom, thursday, dvm, called, in, to, update, us, waste, of, time, and, i, had, forgotten, what, an, annoying, man, he, is, a, real, career, civil, servant, bureaucrat, who, has, forgotten, what, real, life, is, about, if, he, ever, knew, had, one, of, the, vets, around, for, tea, as, i, was, backing, her, up, spent, the, evening, playing, take, two, and, had, fun, friday, a, very, bad, day, at, the, office, dear, oh, dear, oh, dear, the, day, was, great, to, start, with, headed, down, to, iselgate, to, see, a, lame, bull, to, give, it, a, certificate, they, are, still, suffering, from, both, the, financial, and, emotional, scars, of, fmd, mind, you, they, were, always, odd, she, was, talking, about, the, isolation, that, was, hard, to, break, out, of, and, get, back, in, to, doing, things, again, they, were, also, hoping, to, retire, when, they, were, 50, but, bse, hit, so, they, decided, to, keep, on, and, had, no, income, from, jan, to, october, last, year, mind, you, they, would, only, usually, be, selling, stores, any, way, the, day, was, taking, a, turn, for, the, worse, when, after, sorting, out, umpteen, decisions, for, the, practice, manager, on, organisational, issues, he, said, wasn’t, it, easy, when, you, were, just, being, a, vet, fatal, mistake, as, the, next, dog, to, be, seen, was, an, odd, ball, it, had, woken, up, that, morning, after, being, perfectly, ok, up, til, then, it, had, growled, at, tis, owner, and, he, had, decided, to, leave, it, for, a, while, after, an, hour, or, so, he, went, to, get, it, up, out, of, its, bed, and, it, flew, at, him, and, as, he, put, it, meant, it, so, he, rang, up, and, brought, it, to, the, vets, this, change, of, behaviour, meant, he, had, put, it, in, a, kennel, and, left, it, so, when, i, went, in, to, examine, it, growled, and, flapped, its, ears, at, me, and, bit, at, the, bars, some, dogs, in, pain, or, fear, will, growl, or, let, you, know, that, it, is, not, happy, but, this, one, meant, it, we, had, a, go, at, trying, to, get, it, examined, by, using, the, dog, catcher, and, muzzles, but, it, mean, it, left, it, to, settle, down, over, lunch, but, it, was, worse, finally, got, it, sedated, it, had, a, temp, of, 104, injected, mm, and, so, was, a, case, of, encephalitis, with, rage, so, after, 3, vets, all, looking, at, it, and, umming, and, erring, we, decided, to, get, a, maff, vet, to, have, a, look, just, to, check, that, it, wasn’t, rabies, i, had, forgotten, that, none, of, them, are, clinical, or, able, to, handle, animals, but, it, was, a, bit, of, a, joke, but, as, there, was, no, history, with, it, of, contact, with, abroad, it, has, been, left, alive, for, the, time, being, but, the, stress, of, both, handling, the, dam, thing, and, the, worry, of, is, it, rabid, and, the, consequences, was, some, what, tiring, so, i, am, washed, out, tonight, tomorrow, is, another, day, week, 27, sat, 28th, september, saturday, do, tell, me, there, is, light, at, the, end, of, the, tunnel, because, at, the, moment, i, definitely, feel, there, isn’t, so, i, have, taken, time, off, next, week, to, catch, up, on, all, the, things, that, need, sorted, at, home, we, are, supposed, to, be, putting, in, a, new, bathroom, and, we, need, to, get, the, stuff, ordered, so, the, guy, can, fit, it, you, never, know, it, may, include, doing, a, few, diaries, sunday, my, wife, is, on, a, counselling, course, this, w, e, so, i, ma, on, the, run, around, with, the, kids, yesterday, was, spent, watching, the, boys, plat, football, and, run, here, and, there, with, friends, son, had, 2, friends, to, come, and, camp, last, night, so, he, is, a, little, on, the, tired, side, the, weather, is, warm, and, sunny, a, real, indian, summer, the, autumn, raspberries, that, are, usually, delicious, but, quite, sparse, are, huge, and, plentiful, well, i, definitely, have, a, teen, age, daughter, as, for, the, first, time, i, had, a, phone, call, late, in, the, evening, from, carlisle, asking, her, to, be, picked, up, as, her, lift, home, had, not, worked, out, fortunately, it, was, from, the, church, youth, group, but, it, is, the, sign, of, things, to, come, the, youth, group, took, the, church, service, tonight, so, it, was, really, good, looking, at, our, world, the, pressures, on, young, people, and, how, they, respond, as, christians, and, applying, their, faith, to, their, own, situations, very, challenging, monday, we, have, an, open, night, tomorrow, night, and, it, doesn’t, seem, very, organised, yet, not, my, pigeon, i, have, made, a, resolution, not, to, get, worked, u, about, things, that, are, not, my, responsibility, and, just, leave, them, be, the, 2, new, vets, are, beginning, to, really, pull, their, weight, which, is, great, and, colleague, is, back, from, his, honeymoon, brown, and, jet, lagged, they, spent, time, at, the, beach, and, on, safari, so, had, a, great, time, nurse, has, headed, off, to, the, far, blue, yonder, she, is, one, of, our, nurses, and, has, gone, to, nz, for, a, month, so, it, will, be, strange, with, out, her, other, nurse, is, just, back, from, states, and, another, vet, is, about, to, go, to, the, caribbean, for, 2, weeks, so, i, am, getting, itchy, feet, time, to, travel, at, least, i, should, be, of, to, india, in, the, new, year, tuesday, year, end, oct, 1st, so, stock, taking, which, for, me, includes, mucking, out, my, car, i, thought, it, was, quite, normal, to, take, the, wheelie, bin, to, the, car, and, just, hoy, the, contents, in, until, my, neighbour, saw, one, of, the, rare, occasions, when, it, happens, and, burst, out, laughing, he, found, it, quite, amusing, i, was, a, bit, taken, a, back, at, the, time, but, we, always, assume, what, we, do, is, normal, the, open, day, was, ok, but, wife, was, out, so, had, to, juggle, things, a, bit, i, was, on, call, so, late, finished, and, had, to, fetch, son, from, football, as, his, practice, had, been, shifted, to, tuesdays, with, the, dark, nights, so, i, owe, friend, a, bottle, of, wine, for, turning, up, half, an, hour, late, to, pick, him, up, the, boiler, man, arrived, at, 7pm, to, fix, the, boiler, which, was, blowing, fuses, he, needs, a, lesson, on, time, management, had, several, interesting, conversations, on, fmd, the, most, amusing, one, was, about, tony, blair, arranging, his, bust, up, with, unions, on, the, anniversary, of, the, fmd, out, break, finishing, so, as, to, keep, it, out, the, news, the, same, farmer, said, about, the, govts, response, the, countryside, alliance, march, the, fact, that, they, have, reduced, the, sparsity, factor, in, the, allocation, of, central, funds, to, local, authorities, this, means, that, those, with, a, lower, population, density, and, therefore, a, higher, perceived, cost, of, providing, services, are, going, to, have, this, downgraded, or, in, this, farmer’s, opinion, take, money, from, the, countryside, to, the, town, don’t, march, or, this, govt, will, kick, you, where, it, hurts, in, a, very, subtle, way, the, other, one, was, probably, more, relevant, in, that, in, a, group, discussion, admittedly, fuelled, by, an, intake, of, free, alcohol, several, were, saying, that, this, year, was, harder, to, cope, with, than, last, as, there, was, no, crisis, or, adrenalin, to, keep, them, going, and, that, the, toll, from, last, year, was, beginning, to, tell, on, them, and, their, nerves, two, were, still, under, court, threats, from, trading, standards, defra, for, not, complying, with, regulations, both, will, in, my, opinions, not, result, in, anything, but, they, are, pretty, pissed, off, to, put, it, mildly, there, is, also, a, real, antagonism, to, doing, the, testing, for, ministry, and, we, are, in, the, cross, fire, as, defra, vets, decide, what, is, to, be, done, and, yet, we, are, the, ones, trying, to, arrange, and, get, the, testing, done, while, they, do, not, have, to, pay, us, they, do, have, to, spend, a, fair, chunk, of, time, organising, and, actually, getting, the, job, done, we, are, having, a, real, problem, with, organising, the, testing, on, one, of, the, common, grazings, there, are, 14, farmers, with, animals, on, it, biosecurity, is, a, joke, when, your, animals, are, on, common, grazing, with, 14, others, and, trying, to, get, 2, farmers, to, agree, on, a, date, and, a, method, of, doing, it, they, all, have, different, ideas, and, most, do, not, want, so, and, so, there, co, he, ll, just, wind, the, cattle, up, and, we’ll, never, catch, them, weds, day, off, so, caught, up, on, garden, and, sleep, thursday, i, really, enjoyed, the, crack, today, there, was, just, that, right, amount, of, work, and, banter, to, have, a, good, day, laughter, and, fun, is, infectious, friday, out, for, a, meal, at, night, which, was, great, but, 8, 30, start, tomorrow, sat, am, is, not, going, to, be, good, october, a, young, colleague’s, brother, was, killed, in, an, accident, and, as, m, writes, retrospectively, see, below, there, followed, a, very, difficult, month, in, which, he, was, unable, to, keep, a, diary, saturday, 5th, october, it, is, in, the, smallest, of, things, that, suddenly, life, changes, very, suddenly, and, we, then, look, back, and, see, how, we, were, and, are, not, now, i, had, a, phone, call, at, ten, to, five, from, one, of, the, young, vet’s, father, father, was, asking, to, speak, to, george, or, i, that, in, itself, was, strange, the, receptionist, came, and, found, me, with, a, quizzical, look, saying, he, did, not, want, to, speak, to, young, vet, when, i, answered, the, phone, he, said, that, they, had, bad, news, in, that, her, brother, had, been, killed, in, a, traffic, accident, so, i, had, to, tell, her, the, bad, news, and, then, sort, out, the, consequences, once, she, had, got, over, the, initial, shock, wife, drove, her, to, her, parents, home, in, her, car, the, other, partners, are, away, so, we, are, short, staffed, and, young, vet, will, obviously, not, be, back, for, a, while, it, is, at, times, like, this, that, i, am, always, grateful, that, i, can, go, back, to, god, and, trust, in, him, even, though, i, do, not, understand, anything, i, know, that, i, can, trust, god, jan, 2003, writing, retrospectively, about, october, 2002, there, is, a, month, of, diaries, missing, from, the, death, of, vet’s, brother, onwards, i, always, meant, to, go, back, and, fill, in, the, days, that, i, missed, but, never, made, the, time, or, the, effort, i, found, the, time, very, difficult, so, how, her, parents, and, sister, in, law, coped, i, do, not, know, the, funeral, was, at, kirby, and, i, am, pleased, that, i, went, it, was, very, sad, to, see, some, one, in, the, prime, of, their, life, with, so, much, to, offer, cut, down, in, such, a, random, way, it, was, a, very, cumbrian, farming, gathering, the, red, faced, craggy, farmers, and, yet, there, was, a, friend, of, the, family, who, sang, at, the, wedding, who, was, a, black, american, gospel, singer, the, global, village, or, world, wide, family, of, the, church, take, your, pick, the, death, of, some, one, young, always, makes, you, consider, your, own, mortality, and, makes, you, think, about, what, you, are, doing, will, you, on, your, death, bed, wish, that, you, had, made, different, choices, the, next, month, was, busy, and, stressful, and, probably, a, time, which, would, have, been, useful, for, the, study, to, have, thoughts, and, reactions, to, my, life, when, under, stress, but, i, suppose, to, a, certain, extent, when, we, are, close, to, something, we, go, on, automatic, pilot, and, do, the, urgent, leaving, the, things, on, the, periphery, he, was, killed, while, driving, a, tractor, back, from, where, they, had, been, testing, cattle, for, american, bvd, they, had, bought, in, pedigree, world, class, dairy, cattle, this, included, a, sibling, to, an, embryo, which, had, had, the, american, bvd, so, the, ministry, were, keen, to, make, sure, that, it, was, not, established, within, the, uk, hence, the, reason, for, the, blood, sampling, i, know, you, cannot, look, at, history, and, say, what, if, but, if, the, cattle, had, not, been, culled, there, would, have, been, no, blood, sampling, to, do, and, no, reason, to, be, on, the, road, that, day, at, that, time, linkage, is, not, the, way, to, go, he, may, have, had, to, go, to, feed, stock, or, he, could, have, been, in, an, accident, in, another, way, but, the, ripples, of, actions, continue, to, reverberate, around, at, least, in, my, head, saturday, 12th, october, again, m, is, writing, retrospectively, here, of, his, first, thoughts, after, diagnosing, his, first, fmd, case, these, weeks, were, not, completed, because, of, my, stress, levels, i, have, wanted, to, transcribe, my, first, thoughts, on, fmd, that, were, written, in, a, hotel, in, newcastle, at, 2am, after, diagnosing, my, first, case, to, my, wife, dear, wife, i, don’t, know, why, i, am, writing, this, as, i, hope, to, see, you, tomorrow, but, i, suppose, i, need, to, record, what, i, feel, for, you, and, for, me, besides, sleep, eludes, me, today, was, a, beautiful, day, of, winter, sunshine, warm, sunshine, that, speaks, of, the, spring, that, is, to, come, on, frosted, snow, that, is, clear, and, white, and, pure, a, great, day, to, be, walking, up, in, the, hills, on, a, sunday, afternoon, enjoying, god’s, wonderful, creation, but, this, is, a, fallen, world, the, only, walkers, are, me, the, ministry, man, in, disposable, boiler, suit, and, waterproof, jacket, and, trousers, and, a, farmer, with, a, heavy, heart, we, go, into, each, field, checking, and, inspecting, all, the, pregnant, ewes, herding, them, into, a, corner, to, catch, and, examine, them, feet, ok, mouth, ok, a, smile, the, only, clue, to, the, sadness, on, this, man’s, heart, is, the, slight, acrid, smell, which, wafts, now, and, then, on, the, wind, the, smell, of, his, neighbours, future, burning, on, another, ministry, man’s, pyre, it’s, 2, o’clock, in, the, morning, and, why, am, i, writing, this, because, i, cannot, sleep, the, ministry, man, who, then, examined, the, cows, blisters, in, its, mouth, blisters, on, its, tongue, temp, 105f, i, am, sorry, i, say, it, is, they’ll, all, go, he, manages, to, say, fighting, back, tears, if, the, lab, confirms, it, yes, i, reply, as, a, farm, vet, of, 15, years, experience, i, am, not, allowed, to, say, it, is, foot, and, mouth, disease, only, that, i, suspect, it, an, anonymous, telephone, answerer, in, london, makes, stupid, comments, and, stupid, questions, i, take, my, samples, from, the, cow, i, grab, its, tongue, to, pull, it, out, to, take, a, sample, of, the, skin, from, the, tongue, the, cow’s, tongue, comes, off, in, my, hand, i, try, not, to, be, sick, and, place, the, sample, in, the, bottle, we, go, into, the, farmhouse, he, is, in, tears, she, is, in, tears, i, feel, like, crying, i, wouldn’t, do, your, job, for, all, the, b, tea, in, china, she, says, i, am, a, volunteer, a, tvi, all, big, depts, have, their, jargon, and, i, don’t, speak, it, yet, a, temporary, veterinary, inspector, i, only, started, 3, days, ago, a, clean, vet, who, had, not, been, in, contact, with, the, foot, and, mouth, disease, a, volunteer, from, general, practice, seconded, to, be, used, as, a, pawn, in, the, battle, against, fmd, a, man, from, the, ministry, as, i, leave, a, dirty, vet, having, double, disinfected, with, my, samples, and, a, heavy, heart, i, take, off, the, disposable, boiler, suit, and, put, on, my, shoes, i, am, me, again, not, the, man, from, the, ministry, hey, lad, nobody, would, know, you, from, anyone, else, like, that, says, the, farmer, he, has, seen, me, as, i, am, i, see, him, as, he, is, living, with, his, mother, since, his, father, died, so, as, to, be, on, hand, to, run, the, farm, his, wife, and, her, mother, in, law, trying, to, share, a, house, and, a, kitchen, while, they, convert, a, barn, into, a, house, the, builder, was, told, to, stay, away, a, week, ago, in, case, he, brought, disease, onto, the, farm, tomorrow, he, will, be, told, to, stay, away, as, there, will, be, no, income, for, at, least, 6, months, while, i, filled, in, forms, i, had, never, seen, before, with, initials, and, jargon, i’ve, never, heard, she, phoned, her, sister, to, pick, up, the, prescription, for, anti, depressants, the, doctor, said, she, should, go, on, them, while, the, stress, and, worry, of, foot, and, mouth, was, about, well, it’s, here, he, hasn’t, eaten, and, will, not, sleep, tonight, she, is, anxious, and, will, not, get, any, rest, and, the, man, from, the, ministry, well, its, 2am, and, i, am, writing, this, far, from, home, a, volunteer, a, tvi, a, pawn, in, a, bigger, game, but, after, 5, days, of, being, dirty, and, i, can, rejoin, life, back, to, normal, back, to, my, home, to, my, job, and, my, future, my, farming, couple, 5, days, of, shooting, and, burning, of, disinfectants, and, diggers, six, months, of, quarantine, and, a, future, in, farming, maybe, or, maybe, not, the, stories, abound, of, three, generations, waiting, for, the, men, from, the, ministry, but, grandfather, will, not, see, the, farm, restocked, the, stress, was, too, much, for, his, already, dodgy, heart, the, countryside, is, under, siege, and, pawns, are, being, lost, to, win, a, greater, gain, and, why, are, we, having, to, work, these, long, hours, and, sacrifice, these, pawns, because, some, one, was, so, arrogant, so, stupid, and, so, lazy, that, he, couldn’t, be, bothered, to, heat, the, swill, he, fed, to, his, pigs, he, couldn’t, keep, to, the, rules, that, were, made, so, this, would, not, happen, it, is, not, intensive, vs, extensive, organic, vs, agribusiness, it, is, sheep, vs, goats, and, they, will, be, sorted, saturday, 2nd, november, the, start, of, writing, diaries, again, after, a, break, of, a, few, weeks, i, am, hoping, to, go, back, and, fill, in, as, time, permits, so, this, is, today, and, forward, looking, working, the, w, e, with, young, vet, and, aw, sat, am, she, had, a, calving, this, morning, at, 4am, and, so, is, a, little, on, the, tired, side, so, hope, it, is, quiet, for, rest, of, the, w, e, did, surgery, and, then, spent, the, afternoon, trying, to, fix, the, out, sidelights, the, front, went, 18monhts, ago, which, shows, how, well, i, am, keeping, up, with, the, maintaince, on, this, house, but, the, back, one, went, recently, and, that, is, a, real, pain, as, you, cant, see, your, way, to, the, car, at, night, so, i, am, more, concerned, about, getting, it, fixed, the, old, lights, are, just, rusted, up, and, you, can, no, longer, replace, the, bulbs, so, up, the, ladder, to, re, wire, new, lights, i, went, unfortunately, i, was, on, call, and, yes, i, suppose, i, was, trying, to, do, too, much, but, if, you, don’t, try, you, don’t, succeed, so, i, downed, tools, went, off, to, calve, a, cow, and, then, came, back, to, find, a, neighbour, plus, her, 4, children, in, our, kitchen, so, i, stopped, had, a, cup, of, tea, and, then, headed, back, up, the, ladder, now, wife, maintains, i, should, have, noticed, that, there, were, lights, on, at, this, point, i, would, like, to, point, out, that, i, should, also, notice, when, she, has, moved, furniture, had, her, hair, cut, or, even, spring, cleaned, the, house, as, i, am, often, berated, for, my, lack, of, noticing, these, sorts, of, things, yes, i, should, have, noticed, but, i, didn’t, i, was, focussed, on, what, i, was, trying, to, do, as, usual, so, up, the, ladder, i, went, to, connect, up, the, light, not, knowing, that, wife, had, switched, the, electrics, back, on, and, yes, when, i, was, at, the, top, of, the, ladder, i, grabbed, the, wires, and, then, spent, what, seemed, an, awfully, long, time, trying, to, let, them, go, and, stay, on, the, ladder, as, the, electric, current, was, shocking, me, so, the, light, did, not, get, fixed, as, i, was, not, going, back, up, the, ladder, as, i, was, now, in, shock, ho, hum, sun, finished, the, light, while, every, one, was, out, and, then, picked, up, a, from, a, sleep, over, and, went, to, church, in, wigton, pm, was, speaking, on, the, parable, of, the, 10, bridesmaids, which, was, good, as, i, had, never, understood, it, as, it, is, obviously, related, to, a, cultural, thing, that, happened, at, weddings, in, jesus, day, the, point, being, that, the, wise, ones, who, were, waiting, for, the, return, of, the, bridegroom, had, the, oil, in, their, lamps, and, the, concept, that, this, was, the, holy, spirit, that, meant, they, could, meet, with, the, bridegroom, i, e, christ, i, am, not, sure, that, the, idea, is, entirely, right, since, there, is, that, big, leap, oil, holy, spirit, but, it, was, interesting, i, still, think, it, was, a, cultural, thing, that, was, obvious, to, his, original, listeners, and, we, just, don’t, have, a, clue, ali, and, andy, called, around, in, the, evening, it, was, really, good, to, see, him, again, he, used, to, be, a, vet, here, who, left, several, years, ago, and, it, looks, that, at, long, last, he, is, going, to, look, to, settle, down, he, was, quite, depressing, about, la, vet, practice, though, he, is, now, 100, small, animal, so, he, is, biased, they, are, actively, looking, at, taking, tb, testing, from, the, vets, in, his, area, and, the, vets, are, dropping, the, farm, practice, as, being, uneconomic, so, much, for, the, govt, wanting, more, farm, vets, around, at, least, this, is, a, low, cost, area, so, at, least, we, are, not, competing, with, small, animal, practices, able, to, offer, large, wages, to, assistant, vets, he, is, looking, to, set, up, his, own, or, buy, a, practice, to, settle, into, they, are, obviously, looking, to, get, married, so, that, will, be, another, wedding, to, go, to, we, have, been, invited, to, lb’s, who, is, finally, marrying, p, they, have, been, following, each, other, around, the, world, for, the, last, 2, years, from, disaster, to, disaster, as, they, are, both, in, humanitarian, relief, work, she, was, a, vet, student, here, too, mon, monday, monday, tell, me, why, i, don’t, like, mondays, young, vet, is, exhausted, and, everything, is, catching, up, with, her, so, she, is, going, to, take, the, end, of, the, week, off, the, joiner, finally, arrived, to, put, in, the, windows, and, had, real, problems, writhing, the, old, ones, out, and, so, has, taken, half, the, sand, stone, with, them, so, they, will, have, to, be, reconcreted, which, is, a, builders, job, ie, he, is, not, going, to, do, it, the, bathroom, is, still, in, pieces, 8, days, it, was, supposed, to, take, and, we, are, now, in, the, third, week, work, was, bedlam, so, i, was, queuing, the, ops, up, this, morning, i, hate, operating, all, morning, as, it, is, very, draining, as, i, have, to, concentrate, on, what, i, am, doing, while, the, office, staff, keep, coming, with, more, and, more, queries, urgh, got, another, stupid, letter, from, the, planners, quibbling, about, listed, building, consent, that, i, am, trying, to, get, for, the, windows, that, are, being, fitted, as, i, speak, i, started, the, ball, rolling, in, august, no, wonder, the, country, is, going, to, the, dogs, tuesday, calmed, down, a, bit, having, filled, in, the, visa, forms, for, our, holiday, to, india, the, great, legacy, of, the, british, the, bureaucracy, is, alive, and, well, why, do, they, want, to, know, my, mothers, place, of, birth, and, maiden, name, for, a, 2, week, holiday, civil, servants, missed, the, gym, cos, surgery, went, on, and, on, i, went, to, a, farm, and, was, asked, a, lot, of, questions, about, tb, as, they, had, had, a, reactor, the, ministry, had, been, out, testing, but, hadn’t, bothered, to, tell, us, mushroom, farmers, son, is, in, the, process, of, planning, next, years, football, team, weds, went, to, a, farm, today, and, he, is, complaining, that, he, cannot, get, his, cows, in, his, restocked, herd, back, in, calf, it, seems, to, be, an, ongoing, problem, a, lot, of, those, who, have, restocked, with, whole, herds, are, having, reduced, fertility, in, their, herds, it, would, be, an, interesting, study, to, see, the, figures, compared, to, non, restocked, herds, thursday, counting, the, days, until, i, am, off, work, continues, to, be, too, hectic, vet, who, lost, her, brother, is, off, and, it, makes, the, whole, pack, of, cards, of, having, enough, vets, to, cover, fall, down, i, think, too, i, am, just, very, tired, from, being, too, busy, for, too, long, when, planning, staffing, levels, it, is, usual, to, be, cautious, rather, than, to, have, too, many, vets, around, not, making, any, money, we, thought, we, were, stretching, it, by, employing, the, 2, new, grads, instead, of, the, one, it, is, also, just, being, under, pressure, all, the, time, with, out, a, few, days, to, cruise, it, went, out, to, chris, swifts, for, the, vcf, veterinary, christian, fellowship, which, was, really, good, as, usual, f, was, telling, us, about, the, thanksgiving, service, that, they, had, just, held, at, barnard, castle, she, has, also, just, got, engaged, so, it, may, curb, her, wanderings, she, is, an, explorer, and, mountaineer, she, is, just, back, from, antarctica, and, is, currently, doing, some, research, and, a, phd, at, durham, barnard, castle, practice, seems, well, organised, and, also, flexible, in, that, she, is, only, working, 3, days, a, week, to, spend, 2, days, at, durham, on, the, phd, it, was, really, good, speaking, to, friends, about, vet’s, brother, as, paul, was, with, them, at, the, accident, as, he, was, taking, the, bloods, so, spent, quite, a, while, praying, for, them, and, for, other, things, friday, bad, day, had, a, phone, call, from, the, planners, saying, they, were, not, going, to, allow, double, glazing, and, that, they, want, the, glazing, bars, to, be, 10mm, not, 20mm, why, there, are, no, 10mm, glazing, bars, on, the, spot, the, ministry, london, have, decided, that, they, are, not, going, to, train, lay, tb, testers, and, that, all, the, work, is, going, to, go, out, to, lvi’s, us, so, we, are, now, looking, at, a, lot, of, work, again, carlisle, defra, in, conjunction, with, london, have, decided, that, they, are, going, to, want, all, the, restocked, herds, tested, annually, with, every, animal, tested, not, just, the, adult, breeding, stock, so, from, looking, at, dropping, 1, 2, vets, 10, days, ago, we, are, now, going, to, be, looking, at, employing, extra, staff, if, we, can, get, hold, of, them, how, are, we, supposed, to, be, planning, for, the, future, if, it, is, so, dependent, on, the, whim, of, defra, officials, saturday, 9th, november, went, to, the, school, pta, pub, quiz, last, night, at, the, rugby, club, it, was, good, fun, but, i, was, struggling, both, to, stay, awake, and, to, dredge, up, the, infotainment, trivia, of, the, previous, year, it, is, funny, how, the, questions, chosen, reflected, the, people, who, were, asking, them, what, had, stuck, in, their, memory, or, that, they, had, chosen, nick, and, jane, were, across, from, newcastle, i, stayed, with, them, for, a, few, nights, when, working, for, defra, across, there, when, i, could, not, face, the, faceless, loneliness, of, the, hotel, consequently, was, completely, zonked, sat, morning, just, went, around, the, house, being, grumpy, went, to, watch, son, play, football, they, thrashed, yewdale, in, the, county, cup, it, was, good, to, be, out, in, the, fresh, air, and, came, back, to, sleep, for, a, while, before, heading, out, to, roy, and, christiana’s, en, famille, we, had, to, pick, up, fraser, from, wigton, this, is, their, son, who, has, just, started, seeing, a, girl, in, wigton, he, is, 14, and, so, was, amusingly, embarrassed, we, were, talking, about, leaving, the, kids, at, what, age, do, you, leave, them, on, their, own, and, to, look, after, the, younger, ones, christiana, told, us, about, when, she, left, all, three, boys, for, an, hour, and, a, half, and, the, older, two, had, got, so, fed, up, with, youngest, being, annoying, they, hung, him, by, his, joggers, from, the, post, at, the, bottom, of, the, stairs, the, middle, one, said, in, all, seriousness, that, it, was, his, fault, that, he, had, torn, his, trousers, if, he, hadn’t, tried, to, escape, the, trousers, would, have, been, fine, even, now, he, considers, that, the, wrongdoing, was, the, ripping, of, the, trousers, not, the, fact, that, they, had, hung, him, up, sun, went, to, church, in, morning, and, fittingly, for, remembrance, sunday, it, was, on, repentance, and, gods, love, daniels, prayer, in, daniel, 9, was, very, fitting, some, how, lunch, and, more, football, and, crashed, in, to, bed, exhausted, mon, tim, is, away, for, the, first, time, on, his, own, with, the, school, on, an, outward, bound, week, south, of, keswick, he, was, so, excited, about, going, i, think, wife, was, a, little, put, off, that, he, was, not, thinking, about, missing, home, hey, ho, but, that, is, a, sign, of, secure, roots, i, suppose, met, up, with, a’s, maths, teacher, to, discuss, her, maths, there, has, been, a, lot, of, to, and, froing, between, the, teachers, but, not, much, communication, with, home, so, we, went, to, see, what, they, were, saying, and, have, left, it, as, the, status, quo, which, is, what, it, should, be, first, call, today, was, a, farmer, who, is, just, out, of, hospital, having, had, his, appendix, removed, for, appendicitis, he, had, seen, this, cow, and, said, why, haven’t, you, had, the, vet, to, it, he, is, a, good, stocksman, and, with, him, being, out, of, action, they, had, a, relief, milker, in, who, hadn’t, noticed, it, had, a, twisted, uterus, and, was, trying, to, calve, if, i, had, seen, it, on, friday, i, could, have, sorted, it, out, but, because, it, was, now, to, late, i, had, to, send, it, off, it, is, sad, but, the, agricultural, industry, is, losing, a, lot, of, experience, and, a, lot, of, stocksmanship, and, handling, and, general, expertise, it, is, not, sthg, that, can, be, replaced, we, are, seeing, more, twisted, wombs, because, of, the, transport, and, fighting, amongst, restocked, herds, the, sad, thing, is, that, he, said, to, me, we, should, never, have, restocked, we, should, have, taken, the, money, and, let, it, all, go, it, is, just, too, much, hassle, with, the, paper, work, and, training, cows, they, have, just, housed, the, cattle, and, so, they, are, all, fighting, to, come, in, to, the, parlour, to, get, milked, and, just, making, life, difficult, there, is, a, real, disillusionment, around, at, the, moment, but, there, are, also, those, who, are, gearing, up, to, milk, more, and, more, cows, to, stay, still, 300, tuesday, the, great, european, market, combined, with, defra’s, inflexibility, is, causing, a, few, problems, the, dutch, heifers, that, have, been, imported, to, replace, some, of, the, fmd, losses, have, a, unique, identifier, number, which, is, on, their, ear, tag, so, everyone, knows, who, they, are, so, far, so, good, they, also, have, nl, on, them, rather, than, uk, which, means, we, know, they, are, from, holland, the, problem, is, they, have, a, small, check, digit, on, them, at, the, end, this, means, dutch, computers, can, recognise, if, the, ear, tag, is, a, valid, one, or, has, been, misread, the, uk, tags, have, a, check, digit, at, the, front, of, the, number, very, useful, to, help, rule, out, misreadings, or, transcribing, of, the, ear, tags, however, the, defra, computer, doesn’t, recognise, the, numbers, so, we, are, being, asked, to, retest, heifers, because, they, still, have, an, outstanding, record, of, the, ear, tag, numbers, as, untested, because, the, extra, digit, has, or, had, not, been, entered, on, the, uk, system, the, number, of, out, standing, tests, is, dropping, but, we, will, not, be, able, to, keep, up, with, this, level, of, testing, more, allocations, have, arrived, today, managed, to, get, all, the, bits, sorted, so, i, could, leave, at, 5, 30, for, my, few, days, off, the, only, out, standing, thing, is, the, stuff, for, the, accountant, end, of, year, it, was, supposed, to, be, in, by, 18th, of, oct, but, hey, ho, weds, i, have, taken, a, few, days, off, to, try, and, paint, the, windows, and, new, bathroom, we, are, having, put, in, the, planners, phoned, to, query, again, about, the, windows, and, i, told, them, they, were, already, in, so, it, went, down, like, a, lead, balloon, and, they, are, coming, to, tell, me, off, they, also, started, querying, the, other, windows, from, 95, the, problem, with, having, a, few, days, off, is, that, i, get, very, head, achey, and, feel, washed, out, and, ill, once, the, adrenalin, stops, i, seem, to, crash, thursday, met, up, with, charlie, from, longtown, vets, for, lunch, which, was, great, his, practice, in, carlisle, that, he, has, started, is, going, well, it, is, on, the, main, road, out, to, scotland, and, looks, really, good, and, he, is, getting, lots, of, custom, just, by, being, there, he, is, looking, for, a, part, time, vet, to, start, mornings, friday, repainted, the, bathroom, walls, after, discovering, i, had, used, 2, different, shades, of, green, one, was, ming, grey, the, other, ming, blue, i, just, opened, them, one, after, the, other, and, thought, the, difference, was, because, the, one, had, dried, and, the, other, was, still, wet, ooops, the, plumber, is, having, problems, with, the, electrics, and, getting, the, lights, to, work, so, it, was, all, fused, out, i, am, just, glad, we, have, a, shower, as, well, or, we, would, all, be, getting, rather, smelly, by, now, went, to, watch, changing, lanes, at, cinema, a, rather, thoughtful, if, slow, and, unbelievable, set, up, but, nice, escapism, for, an, hour, or, two, saturday, november, 16th, working, again, but, feel, better, for, having, had, a, few, days, off, even, if, the, bathroom, isn’t, finished, getting, to, be, a, bit, of, a, saga, oh, well, never, mind, sat, morning, surgery, was, busy, and, then, several, farm, calls, afterwards, for, the, amount, of, stock, around, and, the, cost, effectiveness, of, veterinary, time, we, are, doing, an, incredible, amount, of, clinical, work, dan, the, sheep, ai, vet, who, locums, for, us, on, occasions, phoned, up, wanting, alison’s, phone, number, she, was, of, course, out, it, being, sat, night, his, technician, is, ill, and, he, has, 250, swales, to, ai, tomorrow, hope, he, finds, some, one, all, the, sheep, ai, and, embryo, technicians, are, very, busy, as, people, try, to, build, up, their, pedigree, herds, and, flocks, by, breeding, for, top, quality, sun, am, busy, with, calls, and, then, painted, doors, in, bathroom, while, son, painted, the, window, very, messy, but, he, enjoyed, it, it, will, give, him, confidence, to, try, again, it, is, patience, and, practice, went, to, church, in, the, evening, rob, whitaker, the, principal, of, capernwray, bible, college, was, preaching, he, is, so, animated, and, relevant, he, was, talking, on, feeding, the, 5000, and, jesus, compassion, and, just, the, circumstances, jesus, was, in, at, the, time, how, he, used, the, disciples, and, then, applying, it, to, us, and, to, the, church, in, general, espy, compassion, very, challenging, went, on, to, meet, up, with, lads, and, spent, time, praying, phil, is, pretty, down, about, not, having, a, job, it, effects, his, self, worth, didn’t, help, that, fraser, had, a, brand, new, merc, sitting, out, side, his, house, mon, hit, the, maelstrom, running, with, an, in, tray, flowing, out, and, still, nothing, together, for, year, end, to, accountant, so, pushed, practice, manager, and, then, started, operating, and, haunting, him, every, 20, mins, in, between, ops, and, keeping, him, on, task, the, problem, is, that, there, are, so, many, other, things, going, on, at, the, moment, that, the, non, urgent, keep, disappearing, in, to, tomorrow, the, new, drugs, discount, system, is, working, and, generating, a, lot, of, interest, and, then, hopefully, will, cut, down, on, the, black, market, with, any, luck, the, increased, turn, over, will, make, up, for, margin, usual, problem, solving, and, smoothing, over, and, 2nd, opinions, to, sort, out, the, 20, day, rule, is, not, stopping, one, of, our, local, cattle, dealers, from, buying, and, selling, he, says, the, paperwork, to, run, 5, holding, numbers, is, horrendous, ken, and, anne, called, around, and, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, they, have, a, lime, spreading, business, and, have, been, really, busy, over, fmd, both, with, lime, for, land, that, is, going, to, be, used, for, barley, and, crops, rather, than, grass, and, with, a, lot, of, stone, for, building, work, and, new, pathways, and, for, lonnings, whereas, farmers, were, happy, to, move, cattle, via, roads, they, are, trying, to, reduce, the, movements, along, roads, and, are, putting, in, tracks, for, the, cows, tuesday, more, tracings, to, check, for, tb, these, are, cattle, bought, from, a, farm, where, tb, has, since, been, confirmed, and, the, paperwork, to, go, with, them, ear, tags, don’t, correlate, so, going, to, be, a, problem, rota, nightmare, at, the, moment, as, everyone, is, organising, their, skiing, trips, so, we, are, going, to, have, 1, 2, vets, off, all, of, jan, and, most, of, feb, took, first, box, load, of, paperwork, to, the, accountant, he, is, an, old, fashioned, up, the, back, stairs, not, a, computer, in, sight, type, of, fella, he, is, a, wily, old, fox, much, more, than, he, looks, as, he, manages, to, keep, the, taxman, happy, and, off, our, backs, which, is, probably, the, most, important, the, financial, year, doesn’t, look, too, bad, but, doesn’t, allow, for, the, number, of, days, of, holiday, carried, over, if, we, had, to, give, the, holiday, pay, or, pay, a, vet, to, cover, for, those, days, it, would, make, them, look, a, lot, less, rosy, got, back, in, time, for, gym, and, then, tuesday, kid, chauffer, work, then, fell, into, bed, and, slept, weds, the, phone, stopped, at, 4, 00pm, and, didn’t, ring, again, until, 9, 30, this, morning, weird, the, work, has, just, stopped, like, a, tap, being, turned, off, so, got, the, rest, of, testing, sorted, sorted, out, the, rest, of, the, stuff, for, the, accountant, tidied, the, office, wrote, up, my, book, and, even, thought, about, mucking, my, car, out, only, got, as, far, as, thinking, about, it, as, coffee, break, arrived, didn’t, earn, much, but, felt, a, lot, better, for, it, skipped, off, early, and, gave, the, bathroom, doors, second, coat, thursday, 21st, november, pay, day, decided, that, if, defra, was, a, business, it, would, be, bust, by, now, we, are, on, a, rollercoaster, trying, to, look, at, the, future, with, them, they, only, make, up, in, a, normal, year, about, 20, of, our, farm, fee, income, but, that, has, been, much, higher, over, the, past, few, years, the, chief, defra, vet, has, been, flying, kites, as, they, say, in, politics, to, see, what, the, reaction, is, or, has, been, doing, as, he, has, been, told, by, whitehall, i, don’t, know, what, the, ins, and, outs, of, it, are, but, the, gist, has, been, they, are, going, to, employ, their, own, vets, to, do, the, testing, as, this, would, be, much, more, efficient, and, cost, effective, when, it, was, pointed, out, this, wasn’t, going, to, be, the, case, we, went, to, they, would, employ, non, vets, to, do, it, as, this, would, be, much, cheaper, there, would, then, not, be, any, farm, animal, vets, in, large, areas, of, the, country, as, it, would, reduce, the, fee, income, even, further, where, the, farm, side, of, vet, businesses, is, marginal, it, would, just, be, given, up, it, would, mean, our, business, in, a, high, stock, area, would, probably, drop, 2, vets, so, london, finally, decided, that, the, status, quo, would, probably, be, best, at, the, same, time, carlisle, in, consultation, with, page, st, decided, that, as, there, is, so, much, tb, being, found, in, the, restocked, farms, that, all, the, restocked, farms, should, be, tested, on, an, annual, basis, and, that, all, animals, not, just, breeding, stock, should, be, tested, this, means, about, a, 25, increase, in, work, load, for, the, next, 2, winters, so, instead, of, dropping, a, vet, we, should, look, to, be, taking, one, on, but, we, cannot, believe, what, is, going, to, happen, next, as, how, can, we, plan, when, such, drastic, changes, are, proposed, in, the, space, of, a, month, friday, had, a, horrendous, night, with, ill, calves, with, pneumonia, in, the, evening, a, calving, at, 1, am, in, silloth, then, a, dog, trying, to, die, at, 5am, so, was, i, ever, pleased, that, it, was, my, half, day, slept, and, played, squash, with, l, j, in, the, afternoon, the, dog, belonged, to, an, old, lady, who, had, no, children, and, it, was, her, husbands, dog, who, had, died, 4, years, previously, she, was, going, to, be, on, her, own, if, it, dies, so, she, was, very, tearful, and, upset, the, dog, is, not, looking, good, as, it, is, 16yr, poodle, type, thing, she, is, isolated, booth, because, she, doesn’t, drive, and, lives, out, at, the, coast, and, because, she, and, her, husband, retired, to, here, and, neither, have, any, family, around, i, felt, for, her, made, me, appreciate, my, family, so, much, more, saturday, 23rd, november, wife, is, away, on, a, course, today, so, for, my, w, e, off, i, am, running, the, kids, and, doing, the, cooking, i, dropped, of, other, son, to, squash, did, some, errands, in, wigton, and, then, watched, the, squash, coaching, they, are, very, patient, and, encouraging, the, total, contrast, was, shown, at, son, s, football, they, are, a, very, good, team, but, i, really, do, not, like, the, attitude, of, most, of, the, coaches, and, teams, in, the, carlisle, teams, i, was, late, to, arrive, and, they, were, already, 4, 0, up, and, this, was, the, second, half, it, was, only, when, i, walked, around, to, where, the, coach, was, did, he, think, about, giving, son, and, the, other, 2, subs, a, game, we, have, had, it, out, with, him, before, that, he, should, give, all, the, kids, a, chance, to, play, or, else, they, find, it, crushing, son, was, really, fed, up, with, the, situation, but, he, does, love, playing, and, is, quite, loyal, the, coach, always, justifies, that, he, has, to, play, his, best, team, which, he, doesn’t, he, plays, his, favourites, friends, sons, but, the, point, is, irrelevant, if, you, are, winning, by, that, margin, then, you, can, afford, to, have, weaker, players, on, the, field, they, went, on, to, win, 10, 0, we, will, have, to, get, a, thursby, team, organised, for, next, year, went, on, to, longtown, poultry, sale, very, interesting, lots, of, rare, birds, and, waterfowl, will, have, to, go, and, buy, next, year, and, get, some, different, types, for, a, to, breed, up, sun, dan, spoke, on, walking, on, water, in, his, own, inimitable, style, he, is, so, refreshing, and, practical, and, honest, made, it, a, call, to, prayer, as, well, didn’t, do, much, in, morning, as, wife, was, on, course, but, finally, managed, to, finish, bathroom, hoorah, mon, decided, that, if, defra, was, a, business, it, would, be, bust, by, now, we, are, on, a, rollercoaster, trying, to, look, at, the, future, with, them, they, only, make, up, in, a, normal, year, about, 20, of, our, farm, fee, income, but, that, has, been, much, higher, over, the, past, few, years, the, chief, defra, vet, has, been, flying, kites, as, they, say, in, politics, to, see, what, the, reaction, is, or, has, been, doing, as, he, has, been, told, by, whitehall, i, don’t, know, what, the, ins, and, outs, of, it, are, but, the, gist, has, been, they, are, going, to, employ, their, own, vets, to, do, the, testing, as, this, would, be, much, more, efficient, and, cost, effective, when, it, was, pointed, out, this, wasn’t, going, to, be, the, case, we, went, to, they, would, employ, non, vets, to, do, it, as, this, would, be, much, cheaper, there, would, then, not, be, any, farm, animal, vets, in, large, areas, of, the, country, as, it, would, reduce, the, fee, income, even, further, where, the, farm, side, of, vet, businesses, is, marginal, it, would, just, be, given, up, it, would, mean, our, business, in, a, high, stock, area, would, probably, drop, 2, vets, so, london, finally, decided, that, the, status, quo, would, probably, be, best, at, the, same, time, carlisle, in, consultation, with, page, st, decided, that, as, there, is, so, much, tb, being, found, in, the, restocked, farms, that, all, the, restocked, farms, should, be, tested, on, an, annual, basis, and, that, all, animals, not, just, breeding, stock, should, be, tested, this, means, about, a, 25, increase, in, work, load, for, the, next, 2, winters, so, instead, of, dropping, a, vet, we, should, look, to, be, taking, one, on, but, we, cannot, believe, what, is, going, to, happen, next, as, how, can, we, plan, when, such, drastic, changes, are, proposed, in, the, space, of, a, month, tuesday, went, to, do, routine, fertility, at, a, farm, today, and, it, was, quite, depressing, in, that, a, neighbour, of, theirs, who, has, started, up, again, has, had, a, really, bad, time, the, problems, of, restocking, on, top, of, bad, hips, he, was, all, gung, ho, to, get, restocked, and, although, he, had, a, sore, leg, he, didn’t, go, to, the, doctors, while, he, had, the, chance, when, he, had, no, stock, as, it, was, only, a, little, sore, but, as, soon, as, he, got, stock, back, and, started, to, do, a, lot, of, physical, work, they, were, very, sore, so, he, went, to, the, dr’s, and, has, 2, hips, which, need, replaced, but, as, he, is, only, 40, they, don’t, want, to, do, it, yet, and, it, would, mean, no, physical, work, for, a, long, period, on, top, of, that, he, has, mastitis, problems, caused, by, taking, his, plant, to, pieces, by, defra, he, has, lost, 8, cows, and, heifers, through, calving, illness, or, injury, so, after, less, than, a, year, he, looks, set, to, give, up, disillusioned, and, a, lot, poorer, the, workload, for, us, is, easing, as, most, cattle, are, now, housed, and, a, lot, of, the, housing, work, is, sorted, i, always, feel, it, is, a, run, down, to, christmas, now, with, all, the, preparations, and, celebrations, and, kids, and, adult, parties, i, was, at, another, farm, today, who, had, meningitis, a, year, ago, and, has, still, not, really, recovered, properly, he, is, still, finding, it, hard, to, get, going, he, lost, all, his, animals, and, all, his, work, during, fmd, and, the, additional, strain, has, meant, he, has, lost, a, lot, of, interest, in, the, farming, side, he, can’t, be, bothered, with, all, the, hassle, and, paper, work, of, farming, sheep, and, cattle, and, so, is, growing, a, lot, of, veg, which, he, and, his, wife, have, always, enjoyed, growing, they, just, retail, at, the, farm, gate, it, doesn’t, make, much, money, but, as, he, says, it, just, keeps, things, turning, over, and, he, and, his, wife, have, time, for, each, other, and, no, hassle, life, is, more, important, than, making, a, living, very, profound, i, am, going, to, go, part, time, i, wish, wednesday, there, seem, to, be, a, lot, of, problems, still, on, restocking, farms, they, are, all, having, problems, with, getting, the, cows, back, in, calf, two, farms, today, complained, that, even, though, they, were, more, than, pleased, with, the, compensation, at, the, time, the, costs, of, restocking, are, much, much, more, it, would, be, interesting, to, do, a, survey, on, the, number, of, breeding, animals, bought, in, and, those, who, have, been, lost, either, through, illness, or, by, failure, to, get, in, calf, the, old, diseases, are, still, causing, the, most, problems, lung, worm, a, disease, i, thought, was, well, under, control, and, well, understood, has, caused, huge, problems, ibr, or, cow, flu, has, caused, so, many, problems, that, we, can, no, longer, get, the, vaccine, as, all, the, stocks, have, been, used, it, was, interesting, today, that, one, of, the, farms, that, is, about, to, start, milking, having, finally, restocked, ordered, vaccine, for, lepto, ibr, and, bvd, almost, as, a, matter, of, course, but, fertility, is, causing, the, most, worries, thursday, feel, a, lot, better, after, an, early, night, apart, from, running, to, and, from, carlisle, after, my, daughter, youth, group, last, night, and, evening, shopping, tonight, son, is, still, trying, to, organise, an, u14, thursby, team, for, next, year, all, he, needs, is, a, coach, the, problem, is, that, it, is, a, big, commitment, i, wish, i, could, do, it, but, i, work, too, many, w, e’s, spent, time, day, dreaming, about, what, to, do, with, the, byre, in, our, yard, it, is, an, old, knackered, building, that, needs, bulldozing, but, wife, s, dad, thinks, we, should, just, look, after, it, and, convert, it, into, sthg, but, what, i, still, think, that, there, is, an, opening, for, herriot, holidays, taking, people, for, a, day, at, the, vets, and, then, a, day, at, the, mart, and, so, on, diversification, is, the, name, of, the, game, friday, had, an, interesting, day, what, with, one, thing, and, another, no, lunch, but, hey, who’s, complaining, one, of, the, nurses, at, work, has, a, chicken, shed, with, her, husband, and, another, farmer, partner, the, fans, and, alarms, all, failed, and, so, the, air, was, not, circulating, the, farmer, was, devastated, it, was, a, horrendous, sight, a, carpet, of, dead, chickens, there, were, 23,000, in, the, shed, and, we, worked, out, there, were, roughly, 2, 3000, left, alive, 20.000, dead, it, brought, back, memories, of, fmd, also, the, logistics, of, disposing, of, 20, tonnes, of, dead, chicken, i, hope, the, insurance, covers, it, out, for, dinner, at, christiana’s, had, a, vet, friend, call, around, at, teatime, he, is, a, meat, hygiene, practice, covering, several, different, meat, plants, they, have, several, vets, covering, all, the, different, plants, he, has, been, asked, to, got, to, harrogate, to, discuss, how, the, different, proposed, regulations, can, be, implemented, a, marked, improvement, on, the, usual, dumping, of, unworkable, ideas, from, defra, hq, saturday, 30th, nov, took, a, while, to, get, going, after, being, out, for, dinner, last, night, though, it, was, very, pleasant, spent, day, doing, odds, and, ends, went, to, watch, son, play, footie, and, bought, an, orchid, from, the, orchid, farm, the, kids, were, making, cards, for, mum, and, wrapping, presents, so, it, was, fun, james, came, down, with, his, kids, so, there, were, 7, running, riot, which, is, really, a, bit, too, many, after, a, late, night, sun, 1st, church, in, the, morning, and, johnboy, called, around, to, see, what, time, the, prayer, meeting, finished, as, he, had, arranged, a, surprise, party, for, wife, s, 40th, so, had, loads, of, folks, in, sunday, night, which, was, great, they, had, all, crept, in, to, the, big, kitchen, and, decorated, it, while, we, were, in, the, front, room, a, and, son, had, been, going, back, and, forth, so, wife, never, noticed, so, it, was, special, the, kids, were, as, high, as, kites, mon, 2nd, wife, is, forty, and, there’s, a, photo, in, the, news, and, star, to, prove, it, the, kids, brought, breakfast, in, bed, and, opened, presents, poor, other, son, after, 3, late, nights, did, not, want, to, go, to, school, i, hope, they, are, all, right, for, gran, wife, s, mum, and, sister, arrived, nannies, from, ireland, to, the, rescue, they, are, going, to, look, after, the, kids, while, we, are, away, for, a, few, days, we, have, had, a, bit, o, banter, about, them, looking, after, the, kids, sister, found, an, advert, for, nannies, from, ireland, which, is, an, au, pair, service, and, sent, of, for, the, info, which, she, forwarded, to, us, she, is, a, character, so, they, have, been, asking, about, working, conditions, and, pay, i, have, been, requesting, police, checks, and, giving, as, good, as, i, get, the, winds, are, pretty, strong, so, they, have, had, a, bad, journey, the, super, ferry, was, cancelled, so, they, have, had, to, come, by, boat, which, takes, much, longer, a, baked, a, cake, and, managed, to, get, 40, candles, on, it, both, wife, and, i, are, looking, forward, to, getting, away, as, usual, work, was, really, busy, and, lots, of, loose, ends, to, tie, up, prior, to, leaving, but, finished, for, 3, days, hoorraaahhh, tues, 3rd, spent, the, day, travelling, up, to, loch, lomond, stopped, off, at, braeside, and, at, gretna, and, bought, some, clothes, and, mooched, around, cameron, house, is, beautiful, with, wonderful, views, and, you, can, just, walk, down, to, the, lake, there, is, a, pool, so, went, for, a, swim, before, dinner, very, civilised, we, had, just, finished, dinner, when, the, waitress, arrived, with, a, cake, with, 4, candles, and, sang, a, rather, wobbly, happy, birthday, sister, had, been, very, keen, that, we, left, the, phone, number, of, cameron, house, even, though, she, had, our, mobile, numbers, now, we, know, why, very, pleasant, surprise, but, we, will, never, eat, any, cake, let, alone, a, whole, one, while, we, were, strolling, around, after, dinner, came, across, the, picture, that, one, of, our, friends, had, used, to, decorate, the, kitchen, with, on, sunday, he, had, come, across, it, somewhere, in, a, book, and, it, looks, vaguely, like, wife, so, he, had, put, it, up, with, lady, wife, underneath, and, here, was, the, original, or, at, least, a, print, of, the, same, picture, weird, weds, after, a, very, lazy, start, a, swim, before, breakfast, full, scottish, we, walked, up, eastern, edge, of, loch, in, sunshine, and, showers, we, were, only, caught, out, in, one, shower, there, was, a, rainbow, down, to, the, loch, edge, a, beautiful, winter, walk, i, have, decided, i, am, going, to, walk, the, west, highland, way, with, the, boys, had, some, fruit, for, lunch, as, cooked, breakfast, on, top, of, dinner, last, night, means, i, don’t, really, need, to, eat, for, a, week, another, swim, thought, about, the, gym, but, i, am, on, holiday, and, felt, wonderfully, relaxed, and, then, dinner, thursday, another, lazy, start, and, swim, before, breakfast, a, walk, along, the, loch, and, the, back, to, glasgow, to, the, burrell, collection, we, just, wandered, around, the, paintings, i, can, sit, and, look, at, the, impressionists, and, keep, seeing, something, new, they, are, very, beautiful, came, back, home, in, time, for, tea, though, did, not, eat, anything, as, too, much, food, made, up, a, ditty, for, the, nannies, nannies, from, ireland, came, to, stay, so, respondent, and, wife, could, go, away, off, the, children, went, to, school, while, respondent, and, wife, swam, in, the, pool, the, nannies, were, left, with, all, the, dust, cleaning, dirt, for, their, daily, crust, their, experienced, gleaned, over, all, the, years, could, not, stop, all, other, son, s, tears, off, to, school, you, must, go, said, a, stern, faced, nanny, lo, the, nannies, go, to, tk, max, forgetting, all, about, the, cats, something, is, sick, on, the, mat, the, nannies, really, don’t, like, that, a, m, l, begs, go, and, fetch, all, the, eggs, on, animals, they’re, not, too, what, did, the, contract, really, mean, keen, they, will, not, give, another, day, until, something, is, done, about, their, pay, so, back, to, ireland, with, this, tale, they, do, go, via, cummersdale, as, their, pay, all, disappears, they, decide, on, new, careers, lois, thinks, of, a, racing, car, ruth, just, of, going, far, so, our, thanks, to, them, are, due, the, nannies, from, ireland, crew, its, now, their, turn, to, go, and, play, till, they’re, called, another, day, edited, to, remove, names, in, verse, friday, bad, hair, day, having, come, back, all, relaxed, and, cheerful, i, was, relaxed, until, i, missed, my, lunch, after, working, all, day, plenty, of, hassle, from, one, thing, and, another, i, was, then, on, call, at, night, and, it, was, very, busy, loch, lomond, and, cameron, house, seem, a, long, long, time, ago, i, am, extremely, fed, up, i, do, not, want, to, calve, another, cow, out, side, office, hours, ever, again, saturday, 7th, december, worked, this, morning, after, a, bad, night, on, call, and, felt, like, death, warmed, up, did, surgery, and, then, sorted, stuff, out, and, did, some, calls, got, finished, at, 1pm, and, went, back, to, bed, went, to, xmas, party, at, white, heather, which, was, good, fun, but, i, was, just, too, knackered, to, enjoy, it, sunday, working, a, few, calls, and, plenty, of, pneumonia, drugs, for, calves, there, is, a, lot, of, pneumonia, about, with, the, east, wind, blowing, it, is, a, wee, bitty, cruel, wind, but, at, least, it, is, dry, not, weather, to, be, working, out, side, it, also, seems, to, be, getting, dark, really, early, i, need, some, sun, on, my, back, 4, weeks, to, go, till, india, had, a, migraine, or, flu, at, night, and, went, to, bed, and, started, throwing, up, i, cannot, burn, the, candle, at, one, end, even, at, the, moment, mon, off, work, ill, but, a, new, vet, student, starting, and, r, is, off, as, well, xmas, shopping, so, thrown, in, at, deep, end, tuesday, went, back, in, and, did, my, bit, working, at, night, but, night, work, easing, off, thank, goodness, plenty, of, high, cell, count, investigations, to, try, and, sort, out, weds, took, kids, swimming, after, work, with, the, vet, student, it, was, good, to, do, some, exercise, and, chill, out, went, to, staples, prior, to, going, to, the, pool, where, as, usual, there, was, no, one, on, the, desk, for, print, cartridges, so, i, went, and, found, one, of, the, girls, chatting, on, the, till, to, get, me, what, i, was, looking, for, as, i, couldn’t, find, an, hp58, what, i, hadn’t, noticed, was, some, one, else, just, standing, at, the, other, end, of, the, long, counter, who, was, then, very, upset, and, aggressive, that, i, had, jumped, the, queue, he, is, obviously, having, a, worse, week, than, me, as, he, could, have, gone, and, got, some, one, from, the, tills, as, easily, as, i, did, but, didn’t, so, why, he, got, so, upset, i, don’t, know, now’t, as, queer, as, folk, other, son, was, very, upset, tonight, when, we, got, back, from, swimming, because, he, had, shaved, one, side, of, his, head, wife, had, cut, the, others, hair, but, his, was, still, short, and, didn’t, need, it, he, wanted, it, done, so, in, the, shower, took, things, into, his, own, hands, and, shaved, off, his, side, burn, but, only, on, one, side, he, did, not, like, getting, laughed, at, either, thursday, christiana, came, to, the, rescue, over, the, hair, other, son, s, and, has, managed, to, make, it, look, not, too, bad, but, it, was, funny, on, call, at, night, but, as, most, nights, seem, double, booked, at, the, moment, went, to, kids, performance, they, are, doing, alice, in, wonderland, very, good, they, can, really, sing, and, perform, the, teachers, do, get, a, lot, out, of, them, tim, was, the, knave, of, hearts, character, actor, and, other, son, was, a, frog, footman, grebbit, grebbit, it, was, good, fun, only, had, a, phone, call, to, put, a, client, at, ease, about, her, cat, so, managed, to, wing, it, friday, out, at, friends, tonight, kids, younger, 2, at, performance, older, 2, are, at, xmas, meal, so, a, bit, of, a, juggling, act, to, get, everyone, at, right, place, at, right, time, missed, out, on, the, cumberland, vet, club, social, which, was, a, shame, but, can, only, be, in, one, place, at, a, time, saturday, 14th, december, had, a, good, meal, out, except, only, started, talking, about, the, publicity, for, as, i, was, wanting, to, go, and, fall, asleep, some, where, i, cannot, take, late, nights, it, is, just, i, am, feeling, too, tired, all, the, time, i, think, that, the, adrenalin, has, run, out, and, i, just, feel, stale, hope, xmas, sorts, it, out, spent, morning, working, did, surgery, and, then, sorted, out, queries, with, gg, for, the, accountant, spent, the, afternoon, writing, cards, and, trying, to, put, together, lists, of, folk, we, should, send, too, a, disaster, got, as, far, as, m, before, running, out, of, cards, and, initiative, went, around, to, s’s, for, nibbles, as, a, house, warming, she, is, some, caterer, her, mother, does, it, as, a, job, so, she, has, helped, so, great, food, could, have, done, with, some, non, vets, to, dilute, down, the, vetiness, sunday, got, up, and, took, kids, to, church, wife, is, doing, a, thing, on, borderline, at, night, so, she, has, to, prepare, that, played, football, and, caught, up, with, a, few, bits, and, pieces, and, did, some, gardening, chatted, to, a, vet, from, chippenham, who, was, complaining, about, the, tb, situation, there, they, have, one, beef, farm, where, when, they, first, discovered, tb, the, farm, took, a, week, to, test, as, there, were, 600, head, there, are, only, 200, left, so, it, only, takes, a, day, the, farmer, has, been, unable, to, but, in, store, cattle, to, feed, and, has, lost, over, 100, to, defra, it, has, been, 2, monthly, testing, for, almost, 2, years, now, and, he, still, has, not, had, a, clear, test, she, was, down, too, just, from, too, much, on, call, monday, got, up, feeling, exhausted, but, even, though, not, very, busy, couldn’t, get, going, the, dairy, farms, are, all, feeling, very, nervous, over, the, nestle, pull, out, farmers, said, to, me, that, they, were, pleased, that, their, sons, are, not, going, to, be, going, into, farming, both, teenagers, one, a’s, year, and, one, a, year, older, both, looking, to, work, in, it, it, used, to, be, a, point, of, sadness, that, the, next, generation, is, not, following, on, but, there, seems, to, be, a, general, air, of, resignation, that, farming, is, not, going, to, be, a, good, career, sad, really, tuesday, 17th, december, spent, the, day, sorting, out, the, remaining, bits, and, pieces, for, the, accountant, we, met, with, him, at, night, which, as, usual, was, the, sorting, out, of, this, and, that, the, finding, of, the, relevant, pieces, of, paper, and, then, what, the, unaccounted, cheques, were, for, we, are, still, making, money, but, only, thanks, to, defra, so, three, cheers, for, mrs, beckett, cynic, it, made, it, a, very, long, day, and, lois, is, off, for, the, week, so, we, are, short, staffed, again, but, last, tests, are, today, as, we, will, not, be, able, to, get, bloods, to, the, labs, because, of, the, christmas, post, i, do, like, this, time, of, year, where, you, hear, from, friends, who, you, have, not, seen, for, ages, and, think, the, same, as, you, did, last, year, i, will, have, to, catch, up, with, them, soon, hey, ho, weds, 18th, there, is, a, lot, of, pneumonia, about, and, the, farmers, are, all, buying, vast, quantities, of, drugs, to, treat, whole, batches, of, calves, and, stirks, the, is, the, usual, mix, but, far, more, than, normal, i, don’t, know, whether, to, be, pleased, that, the, practice, is, doing, well, and, invoicing, a, lot, or, sad, that, there, is, so, much, disease, around, and, we, will, have, a, horrendous, drugs, bill, a, dilemma, i, don’t, think, i, should, explore, thurs, 19th, fri, 20th, kids, went, to, ice, rink, in, carlisle, with, wife, they, have, set, up, an, out, door, rink, which, the, city, council, are, sponsoring, to, attract, people, in, to, the, centre, i, don’t, think, that, they, really, need, to, as, the, place, seems, crowded, enough, as, it, is, son, bashed, his, head, quite, badly, and, other, son, fell, over, and, hurt, his, knee, tim, fell, loads, of, times, and, just, ended, up, wet, and, happy, their, different, characters, are, coming, out, saturday, 21st, december, the, beginning, of, the, christmas, rota, i, feel, as, though, we, are, in, the, run, up, to, christmas, now, i, have, also, made, the, mistake, of, not, buying, all, my, presents, before, now, and, went, into, carlisle, to, go, shopping, it, was, quite, nice, in, some, ways, to, see, the, ice, rink, and, mingle, in, the, crowds, but, an, hour, and, a, half, was, plenty, the, kids, have, decided, that, they, are, going, to, ask, for, money, to, take, to, india, this, year, from, the, aunts, and, uncles, and, so, there, will, be, fewer, presents, to, open, as, christmas, seems, to, be, getting, more, and, more, manic, and, commercialised, i, think, that, it, is, a, very, good, idea, well, done, a, and, son, sunday, 22nd, carols, by, candlelight, it, was, magical, the, church, was, packed, out, and, so, i, ended, up, standing, at, the, back, which, in, some, ways, was, quite, nice, as, you, look, down, the, aisles, to, the, stage, and, there, are, rows, of, candles, and, fairy, lights, down, the, sides, pm, lead, it, and, there, were, different, age, groups, taking, part, he, spoke, on, being, a, christmas, tree, and, how, we, end, up, all, convoluted, by, our, own, wrong, choices, and, how, we, can, have, lots, of, fairy, lights, and, a, star, on, top, and, have, an, image, on, the, outside, that, looks, wonderful, but, what, are, we, like, inside, all, those, things, we, surround, ourselves, with, god, knows, and, he, cares, and, he, loves, us, enough, to, send, a, gift, to, help, us, his, son, immanuel, god, with, us, who, will, take, away, the, sin, of, the, world, i, was, really, quite, moved, by, it, all, this, is, the, real, christmas, mon, 23rd, bump, reality, bites, back, it, is, difficult, to, focus, on, the, important, things, of, life, and, keep, a, perspective, on, life, if, it, keeps, getting, interrupted, by, monday, mornings, but, that, is, where, jesus, should, be, in, the, smelly, cattle, shed, and, in, the, market, place, and, making, a, difference, i, will, have, to, think, that, one, out, while, i, have, time, in, india, the, urgent, as, usual, is, pushing, out, the, important, managed, to, go, swimming, at, foxes, the, first, exercise, i, have, had, for, ages, must, get, back, into, it, maybe, wait, for, the, new, year, resolutions, as, exercise, wet, weather, and, working, over, christmas, don’t, really, go, together, tues, 24th, christmas, eve, working, but, quiet, apart, from, last, minute, panics, as, people, think, that, their, ill, dogs, and, cats, will, not, make, it, over, christmas, with, out, seeing, the, vet, called, in, to, pow, heads, for, the, turkey, they, really, do, have, a, good, butchery, and, poultry, business, going, now, good, to, see, direct, selling, by, farmers, or, cooperatives, is, the, only, way, forward, to, break, the, stranglehold, of, the, supermarkets, wife, is, panicking, about, not, having, enough, food, so, i, am, dispatched, to, buy, more, bread, and, milk, i, think, about, protesting, that, if, there, were, 5000, we, still, would, not, need, a, miracle, but, decide, this, is, one, of, those, occasions, when, it, is, better, to, just, spend, another, 2, quid, for, the, peace, wife, s, parents, arrive, an, hour, later, from, belfast, bringing, 2, loaves, of, bread, and, 5, different, types, of, irish, bread, and, 6, pints, of, milk, and, another, 3, boxes, of, food, i, wonder, about, making, a, joke, about, feeding, the, 5000, plus, inflation, but, decide, that, discretion, is, the, better, part, of, valour, and, just, put, them, in, the, freezer, weds, 25th, kids, started, at, 5, 45, am, and, were, unceremoniously, sent, back, to, bed, but, they, were, allowed, to, bring, their, stockings, in, at, half, past, seven, i, was, on, 2nd, call, so, while, they, all, went, off, to, church, i, spent, an, hour, in, the, surgery, seeing, dogs, one, had, meningitis, and, was, very, near, death’s, door, and, the, owner, was, not, that, worried, the, other, is, just, unwell, and, could, have, waited, but, the, problem, is, you, never, know, got, back, and, made, christmas, dinner, so, wasn’t, all, work, though, i, do, feel, amongst, all, the, commercialism, and, turkey, dinners, the, true, significance, of, immanuel, god, who, is, with, us, is, lost, thursday, 26th, on, first, call, and, lots, of, pneumonia, drugs, to, put, out, and, kept, busy, afternoon, evening, we, had, folk, around, lots, of, different, ages, and, backgrounds, so, was, a, real, mix, and, good, fun, friday, 27th, surgery, reopened, and, was, really, busy, i, am, pleased, that, we, had, put, plenty, of, staff, on, the, rota, it, is, always, a, difficult, balance, to, make, trying, to, work, out, if, there, will, be, enough, staff, to, cover, the, work, no, one, wants, to, work, over, xmas, new, year, but, if, there, are, not, enough, then, it, makes, it, really, awful, for, those, that, are, working, but, if, you, have, people, sitting, around, they, resent, that, too, but, it’s, nice, to, know, i, get, it, right, sometimes, doing, a, rota, always, strikes, me, as, a, no, win, situation, as, it, is, always, a, compromise, between, the, two, extremes, saturday, 28th, december, on, call, friday, night, and, then, i, finished, at, lunchtime, wife, wanted, me, to, go, on, church, walk, but, i, was, knackered, and, we, are, all, going, out, tonight, for, dinner, so, i, went, to, bed, for, a, few, hours, sleep, much, to, my, wife’s, displeasure, having, been, on, call, for, the, whole, period, as, soon, as, i, stop, i, crash, out, as, the, adrenalin, fades, and, i, realise, how, tired, i, am, but, only, mon, am, to, work, then, prepare, for, india, and, hitting, the, beach, it, does, take, its, toll, on, family, life, being, on, call, especially, over, the, christmas, period, the, folk, we, are, going, to, dinner, with, he, is, a, policeman, and, they, have, similar, frictions, sun, 29th, the, service, at, church, tonight, was, memorable, the, last, evening, of, the, year, they, have, people, talking, about, what, god, has, been, doing, in, their, lives, so, it, is, usually, people, who, are, not, eloquent, not, used, to, speaking, up, front, but, who, speak, in, a, very, real, way, about, what, jesus, has, been, working, in, their, lives, over, the, past, year, dp, who, is, 14, who, has, had, bone, cancer, gave, a, very, moving, account, about, how, he, had, nearly, died, how, so, often, we, compare, our, selves, with, those, who, have, more, than, us, whether, in, health, or, other, things, we, should, compare, ourselves, with, those, who, have, less, we, should, appreciate, our, lives, and, thank, god, for, who, and, what, we, are, he, has, had, his, ups, and, downs, but, we, are, to, follow, god’s, guiding, and, his, path, for, us, our, lives, are, in, god’s, hands, we, are, to, pray, and, to, trust, in, him, for, our, future, this, is, a, young, lad, who, has, seen, 4, of, the, friends, he, has, made, in, hospital, die, it, makes, the, trivia, we, fill, our, lives, with, back, in, perspective, mon, 30th, last, half, day, and, lots, of, last, minute, things, to, sort, out, before, i, finish, for, new, year, and, the, 2, weeks, in, india, the, cash, flow, has, gone, to, pot, because, of, the, large, amount, of, pneumonia, drugs, we, have, sold, and, tax, vat, going, out, in, end, of, jan, so, needed, to, make, sure, someone, keeps, an, eye, on, it, while, i, am, away, and, makes, sure, that, it, all, falls, into, place, the, problem, with, going, away, is, that, no, one, keeps, up, with, all, the, admin, type, work, that, i, do, so, my, in, tray, will, be, overflowing, by, the, time, i, get, back, tues, 31st, the, young, people, are, partying, at, our, house, so, we, left, them, to, it, rather, than, cramp, their, style, so, we, had, a, very, pleasant, evening, at, some, farming, friends, we, rang, up, and, called, in, on, spec, they, have, 5, boys, so, we, knew, they, wouldn’t, want, to, get, baby, sitters, for, new, year’s, eve, whereas, we, had, about, 40, they, have, stopped, dairying, but, are, now, worried, about, how, the, new, ruling, will, affect, them, at, the, moment, they, lease, their, quota, which, provides, a, fair, amount, of, income, the, new, german, ruling, will, be, applicable, across, the, whole, eec, that, non, producers, cannot, hold, and, therefore, lease, quota, this, means, they, will, have, to, either, sell, it, in, a, flooded, market, or, go, back, to, dairy, farming, unless, mr, p, can, work, a, way, around, the, new, system, they, are, also, taking, advice, and, looking, at, all, sorts, of, diversification, schemes, some, seem, quite, a, good, idea, others, i, think, are, non, starters, they, already, have, invested, some, of, the, fmd, money, into, setting, up, a, student, house, in, carlisle, the, way, house, prices, are, going, around, here, it, is, probably, a, very, good, investment, not, really, the, way, forward, for, farming, though, the, only, depressing, feature, of, the, evening, was, i, asked, what, they, thought, the, future, of, cattle, vets, was, the, answer, was, none, well, that’s, a, good, start, to, 2003, we, got, home, to, find, the, party, in, full, swing, and, we, left, them, to, it, and, went, to, bed, 1st, jan, 2003, got, up, some, what, late, after, staying, up, for, the, new, years, eve, the, young, people, had, cleared, up, after, the, party, and, we, were, amazed, at, how, well, they, had, done, they, had, set, off, the, dish, washer, and, all, we, had, to, do, was, empty, it, i, was, impressed, the, only, reminder, they, had, been, there, was, when, we, drew, the, curtains, there, were, several, glasses, which, had, been, missed, as, they, were, on, the, window, sill, and, bizarrely, an, odd, sock, the, sock, game, my, daughter, assures, me, was, very, funny, but, what, i, want, to, know, is, who, went, home, with, only, one, sock, on, started, thinking, about, india, a, good, job, my, wife, is, organised, as, we, set, off, tomorrow, 2nd, jan, thursday, travelled, down, to, see, my, brother, and, family, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, again, played, risk, which, was, a, bit, of, a, christmas, tradition, when, we, were, kids, it, was, funny, to, be, playing, with, him, and, both, sets, of, kids, as, i, felt, like, a, kid, again, it, was, really, nice, though, b, won, he, managed, to, wipe, people, out, and, amass, their, risk, cards, he, risked, everything, and, it, went, to, the, last, throw, of, the, dice, so, it, was, quite, exciting, friday, 3rd, jan, travelled, down, to, my, dads, to, have, tea, and, drop, off, some, stuff, before, heading, for, the, airport, i, am, pleased, we, have, had, a, few, days, off, before, flying, as, it, is, a, night, flight, and, i, hate, travelling, when, i, am, already, exhausted, the, weather, was, the, usual, british, winter, of, rain, and, wind, a, friend, of, mine, is, convinced, that, this, is, due, to, global, warming, more, energy, in, the, system, means, more, rain, and, wind, in, which, case, cumbria, is, not, going, to, be, the, place, to, live, as, it, is, already, wet, and, windy, enough, the, next, 2, weeks, recall, x’s, family, holiday, to, india, sat, 4th, january, 2003, i, am, sitting, in, the, nilgiri, hills, in, southern, india, in, shorts, and, t, shirt, enjoying, the, coolness, of, the, high, altitude, it, is, almost, twice, the, height, of, ben, nevis, on, bbc, world, last, night, it, showed, a, reporter, in, london, with, an, umbrella, trying, to, keep, off, the, large, wet, snowflakes, we, are, visiting, friends, who, teach, at, a, christian, school, here, the, contrasts, of, india, always, seem, so, great, the, poverty, and, the, opulence, side, by, side, the, beggars, and, the, road, repairers, at, the, side, of, the, road, in, make, shift, tents, of, plastic, sheeting, and, huts, of, bamboo, leaves, then, the, huge, opulent, houses, wooden, floored, and, air, conditioned, with, their, own, generators, and, the, 4, hotels, with, marbled, floors, and, artificial, streams, and, waterfalls, we, came, on, a, cheap, charter, flight, as, it, was, cheaper, to, come, to, trivandrum, on, a, flight, and, a, package, with, hotel, b, b, than, to, just, buy, the, flights, the, emphasis, though, should, be, on, cheap, it, is, the, first, time, i, have, ever, had, to, pay, for, drinks, on, the, plane, the, air, stewardesses, seemed, to, be, there, for, a, good, time, rather, than, to, look, after, the, passengers, can't, complain, though, as, it, was, cheap, the, only, worry, was, the, re, routing, we, were, originally, supposed, to, be, going, via, united, arab, emirates, but, the, refuelling, was, transferred, to, bahrein, as, we, flew, in, we, were, warned, it, was, a, military, as, well, as, civilian, airport, so, no, photography, was, allowed, the, build, up, of, us, forces, in, the, gulf, must, be, pretty, major, as, even, here, there, were, large, numbers, of, us, air, force, planes, and, massive, sinister, looking, helicopters, it, is, difficult, to, believe, that, they, are, aiming, to, keep, the, peace, by, preparing, for, war, the, papers, here, are, also, full, of, sabre, rattling, between, pakistan, and, india, with, daily, reports, of, skirmishes, in, kashmir, there, is, also, exchanges, of, political, rhetoric, between, the, two, states, how, much, is, actually, for, real, and, how, much, is, sabre, rattling, no, one, knows, the, weekly, telegraph, is, also, reporting, that, iraq, has, shot, down, a, reconnaissance, drone, the, same, sort, that, blew, up, one, of, the, el, quaedi, leaders, in, yemen, the, us, is, obviously, trying, regime, change, by, several, methods, the, us, response, was, to, blow, up, several, command, and, control, facilities, the, war, hasn't, officially, started, yet, but, the, skirmishes, are, going, on, the, cost, the, previous, year, for, the, raf, to, patrol, the, no, fly, zone, was, 22, uk, million, the, last, quarter, was, 10, times, that, so, there, is, money, being, spent, the, priorities, of, govts, is, often, difficult, to, work, out, the, indian, govt, doesn't, have, enough, money, at, the, local, level, to, organise, a, proper, refuse, collection, system, yet, has, money, to, develop, hi, tech, weaponry, the, attitudes, to, rubbish, here, is, very, different, when, we, were, at, the, beach, the, actual, beach, is, combed, by, litter, pickers, but, the, areas, in, between, are, terrible, there, are, 2, smart, 4, hotels, and, the, govt, buildings, where, the, tourism, training, takes, place, the, grounds, are, immaculate, and, the, flowers, and, area, beautiful, but, once, out, side, the, grounds, it, is, a, cross, between, a, rubbish, dump, and, a, building, site, with, piles, of, rubbish, and, sand, and, rubble, we, went, for, a, snorkelling, trip, around, the, coast, to, a, fishing, harbour, where, the, sea, was, calm, and, there, were, plenty, of, rocks, for, the, fish, to, hide, in, and, swim, in, and, out, of, the, boats, were, a, few, bits, of, wood, tied, together, with, string, seriously, there, were, two, central, planks, and, two, edge, planks, and, then, an, aft, piece, of, wood, to, hold, the, aft, part, together, which, was, reinforced, by, cord, the, wood, is, so, light, that, it, floats, with, our, weight, fairly, easily, the, oars, were, split, bamboo, with, no, grips, so, it, made, for, interesting, rowing, or, is, it, paddling, they, are, more, like, large, canadian, canoes, than, boats, very, hawaii, five, o, the, planks, were, roughly, shaped, but, as, we, rode, the, waves, the, water, fountained, up, through, the, holes, in, the, bottom, h, asked, what, wood, they, were, made, of, but, didn't, understand, the, answer, must, be, a, type, of, balsa, we, set, off, from, under, the, light, house, there, was, another, group, going, at, the, same, time, i, think, they, must, have, agreed, to, pay, top, whack, whereas, you, soon, learn, to, try, to, bargain, about, the, price, of, everything, here, they, had, two, helpers, in, the, boat, to, paddle, whereas, we, were, the, economy, class, with, two, paddles, but, only, one, guide, in, our, two, boats, we, took, turns, in, helping, to, paddle, whether, we, made, much, difference, to, the, progression, of, the, boat, i, don, t, know, but, it, was, fun, it, was, a, bit, worrying, that, we, were, heading, for, the, least, scenic, part, of, the, coast, the, other, way, is, beautiful, sandy, beaches, for, miles, there, is, a, wave, powered, generator, at, the, edge, of, the, harbour, a, few, rusty, wrecks, and, bits, of, broken, concrete, but, when, we, arrived, the, snorkelling, was, brilliant, it, was, like, swimming, in, a, tropical, fish, tank, my, favourite, were, small, electric, blue, fish, which, darted, away, as, soon, as, you, came, near, there, were, big, black, and, yellow, striped, tiger, fish, there, were, 2, sorts, one, with, vertical, stripes, and, one, with, horizontal, not, at, all, timid, the, angel, fish, with, their, long, dangling, barbs, were, shy, and, would, only, appear, when, you, kept, still, there, were, some, very, large, spiky, sea, anemones, as, big, as, a, football, loads, of, crabs, and, shoals, of, fish, which, swim, hither, and, thither, some, were, quite, bizarre, there, were, some, that, looked, like, sea, horses, that, had, been, straightened, out, you, almost, could, see, a, jockey, getting, a, saddle, ready, to, put, on, them, for, the, saltwater, derby, the, huge, variety, and, colours, were, just, outstanding, we, spent, a, few, hours, and, then, got, thoroughly, sun, burnt, on, the, way, back, the, boys, had, been, full, of, beans, on, the, way, there, but, were, exhausted, in, the, heat, on, the, way, back, we, spent, today, making, and, flying, kites, on, top, of, a, hill, at, pykara, the, kids, or, was, it, the, dad's, made, kites, and, then, we, tried, to, fly, them, h's, won, his, design, was, copied, from, an, original, no, stick, design, and, managed, to, fly, almost, successfully, my, traditional, kite, shaped, one, flew, once, but, its, aerodynamics, weren't, quite, right, son, s, yellow, square, was, successful, none, however, matched, the, ikea, bought, one, we, played, cricket, and, frisbee, as, the, water, buffalos, wandered, passed, in, the, typical, indian, way, of, having, no, real, boundaries, between, one, thing, and, another, called, in, at, the, vedera's, which, was, very, pleasant, the, garden, was, stunning, as, usual, i, love, driving, through, the, tea, plantations, with, acres, of, terraced, tea, plants, and, through, the, forest, to, get, there, the, hotel, is, an, up, market, indian, rather, than, a, western, which, is, great, for, us, the, décor, lacks, a, little, in, taste, and, design, concrete, floors, and, that, rather, quaint, unfinished, look, spotlessly, clean, and, the, thing, about, india, is, they, love, having, kids, around, and, spend, ages, talking, with, them, and, love, having, them, around, going, out, for, meals, in, uk, with, children, is, always, a, bit, stressful, as, low, blood, sugars, combined, with, the, general, attitude, of, people, to, children, does, not, make, it, a, pleasant, experience, whereas, even, the, hours, wait, for, the, food, here, is, not, stressful, as, the, kids, wander, off, play, games, read, books, etc, son, and, other, son, have, befriended, a, man, at, the, blue, moon, gift, shop, he, has, spent, hours, playing, chess, and, talking, to, them, son, won, a, little, elephant, off, him, by, beating, him, at, chess, son, decided, he, would, buy, josh, the, chess, set, and, kept, bargaining, the, price, down, he, eventually, paid, 350, rupees, for, it, 4.60, the, beach, is, idyllic, with, palm, trees, and, warm, rolling, sea, the, only, problem, is, having, to, get, the, kids, out, of, the, sun, during, the, red, hot, period, between, 12, and, 2, we, do, keep, slapping, on, the, sun, tan, lotion, i, missed, the, widows, peaks, where, my, hair, is, receding, and, have, sun, burnt, red, patches, either, side, of, my, head, the, boys, have, variable, tanning, depending, on, where, the, sun, block, was, washed, off, first, dear, friends, just, a, quick, note, to, say, that, we, are, enjoying, ourselves, so, much, that, we, don't, want, to, come, home, but, we, would, miss, all, our, friends, we, had, a, great, time, at, the, beach, you, know, the, palm, trees, the, warm, rolling, sea, the, sandy, beaches, and, unlike, silloth, 30, degrees, warmth, in, fact, some, days, it, was, to, hot, and, we, had, to, drag, the, boys, out, of, the, sea, or, else, they, would, have, been, really, sun, burnt, we, are, just, back, from, 3, days, at, avalanche, which, is, a, bit, of, an, unfortunate, name, for, a, mountain, out, door, centre, but, as, there, isn't, any, snow, i, don't, think, the, indians, appreciate, the, irony, it, is, up, in, the, mountains, a, jungle, area, where, there, is, very, little, apart, from, a, few, tea, plantations, reservoirs, and, hydroelectric, plants, and, jungle, and, the, wood, men, who, harvest, the, wood, every, 10, years, we, left, a, bus, and, walked, in, to, the, centre, while, a, truck, took, the, bags, food, and, the, lazy, ones, it, is, incredibly, beautiful, with, high, hills, and, lakes, but, there, is, a, drought, at, the, moment, so, the, reservoirs, are, all, very, low, and, everywhere, is, incredibly, dry, and, dusty, thick, red, dust, which, gets, in, to, everything, the, facilities, were, basic, the, water, ran, from, a, stream, to, a, tank, to, the, taps, no, electric, showers, but, fortunately, as, always, in, india, there, was, a, little, man, or, in, fact, 3, who, cooked, for, us, all, a, is, taking, after, wife, their, main, concern, was, not, meeting, any, rats, we, abseiled, down, a, waterfall, walked, and, swam, in, another, well, son, and, other, son, swam, i, am, afraid, it, was, too, cold, for, me, i, will, wait, until, we, go, back, down, to, the, beach, we, all, went, kayaking, and, sat, around, the, campfire, at, night, saturday, 18th, january, 2003, the, end, of, our, indian, holiday, and, escape, from, cumbrian, weather, wife, saw, the, rep, yesterday, and, the, bus, was, arranged, for, 12, 30, for, a, flight, at, 5, 30, this, tour, company, is, something, else, so, we, are, going, to, catch, a, taxi, at, about, 3pm, so, we, are, not, hanging, around, the, airport, for, ages, having, 4, children, and, going, through, the, bureaucracy, of, an, indian, airport, is, bad, enough, with, out, the, additional, hassle, of, waiting, around, for, 3, hours, with, out, reason, the, annoying, part, is, that, so, much, of, it, is, pointless, in, that, they, put, your, bags, through, the, security, x, ray, in, the, main, hall, and, then, give, you, your, bags, back, so, that, if, you, wanted, to, add, stuff, to, your, bag, you, could, you, have, to, go, to, 1, desk, to, check, in, another, to, get, your, seat, another, to, exit, indian, immigration, and, customs, and, then, identify, your, bags, to, get, them, put, on, the, plane, worse, than, defra, so, we, spent, a, last, morning, swimming, on, the, beach, and, then, said, good, bye, to, the, cs, and, gs, wife, had, to, buy, her, material, fro, the, study, we, were, all, quite, sad, coming, away, i, think, we, could, have, all, stayed, and, enjoyed, living, in, india, but, back, to, porridge, sun, 19th, arrived, at, dads, at, 3am, uk, time, after, clearing, customs, flight, was, not, too, crowded, thank, goodness, as, the, space, allocated, for, my, legs, is, not, enough, they, had, as, before, messed, up, their, allocation, of, vegetarian, meals, with, the, height, of, european, ignorance, and, stupidity, they, offered, a, hindu, family, by, us, a, beef, meal, the, stewardesses, should, have, known, better, but, i, just, cringed, with, inward, embarrassment, at, their, thoughtlessness, left, in, t, shirts, and, shorts, arrived, cold, in, jeans, and, fleeces, the, air, conditioning, i, don’t, think, was, working, properly, and, every, one, was, coughing, and, dry, mouthed, as, we, arrived, in, gatwick, drove, back, up, to, cumbria, and, back, to, the, house, it, was, a, strange, sensation, to, be, back, we, had, done, so, much, and, seemed, changed, and, yet, everything, here, was, still, the, same, and, yet, not, really, in, some, ways, it, is, like, after, the, fmd, epidemic, before, and, after, everything, is, the, same, but, nothing, is, the, same, part, of, you, is, trying, to, find, where, you, fit, in, the, new, reality, part, of, you, wants, the, safety, of, the, old, ways, slightly, dislocated, from, your, surroundings, but, the, physical, surroundings, are, the, same, but, i, suppose, you, have, changed, and, the, old, certainties, that, were, not, certain, but, seemed, it, have, made, way, for, new, changeable, ways, that, are, not, certain, and, you, know, that, they, are, not, certain, mon, 20th, i, have, taken, the, day, off, to, recover, the, kids, were, all, up, really, early, because, of, the, jet, lag, and, so, had, no, qualms, about, sending, them, to, school, i, spent, the, day, unpacking, and, sorting, out, with, wife, the, pile, of, post, was, huge, but, seemed, a, lot, more, manageable, by, the, time, i, had, thrown, out, al, the, junk, mail, why, do, i, need, another, 2, credit, cards, any, way, transferred, money, for, tax, bills, and, downloaded, the, emails, there, were, only, 50, so, ploughed, my, way, through, them, when, you, are, away, for, any, length, of, time, it, makes, you, realise, how, much, work, is, required, to, keep, a, household, going, with, all, the, bills, and, stuff, tues, 21st, back, to, work, and, to, face, my, in, tray, still, feeling, a, little, jet, lagged, and, seeing, an, overflowing, in, tray, as, you, arrive, is, a, daunting, feeling, did, some, of, it, and, then, went, out, on, call, it, was, good, to, be, back, on, farm, and, seeing, folk, again, it, always, amazes, me, how, everyone, around, here, knows, everything, so, they, were, all, asking, about, india, and, had, we, had, a, good, time, so, it, was, nice, to, feel, part, of, the, community, as, a, friend, of, mine, once, commented, there, is, only, one, thing, worse, than, being, talked, about, that, is, not, being, talked, about, there, is, still, that, funny, feeling, of, having, been, away, and, having, changed, but, nothing, here, is, any, different, and, yet, thinking, that, it, should, be, though, why, it, should, be, i, don’t, know, weds, 22nd, george, wanted, a, partners, meeting, at, lunch, time, so, we, met, up, and, had, the, usual, decision, making, process, to, be, honest, the, jet, lag, was, still, really, kicking, in, so, i, was, asleep, on, my, feet, it, doesn’t, usually, effect, me, for, this, long, but, both, wife, and, i, are, shattered, by, 8pm, the, kids, are, ok, and, going, to, bed, after, us, the, sign, of, things, to, come, the, whole, pets, travel, scheme, is, causing, problems, it, has, been, presented, as, a, passport, for, pets, but, all, it, really, does, is, allow, re, entry, to, the, uk, from, certain, countries, as, long, as, you, meet, the, conditions, we, have, had, a, few, problems, and, we, do, very, few, so, what, it, must, be, like, for, those, on, the, south, coast, i, dread, to, think, the, problems, are, 2, main, ones, 1, that, there, is, a, 6, month, period, before, you, can, come, back, into, the, uk, after, the, paper, work, is, completed, you, can, go, before, the, 6, months, so, people, who, spend, the, summer, on, a, caravan, site, will, take, their, dog, abroad, but, cannot, come, back, before, the, 6, month, date, there, is, also, a, problem, where, the, forms, have, to, be, renewed, it, has, to, be, done, according, to, the, manufactures, directions, which, vary, from, country, to, country, as, in, france, it, is, a, govt, regulation, that, dogs, are, vaccinated, annually, so, the, vaccine, manufactures, stick, to, that, in, the, uk, dogs, have, to, be, done, every, 2, years, cats, annually, so, you, cannot, have, your, documentation, renewed, in, france, unless, you, vaccinate, annually, whereas, in, the, uk, you, can, renew, it, with, vaccinating, every, 2, years, the, other, problem, is, that, the, paperwork, is, so, complex, that, according, to, defra’s, figures, there, is, a, 18, failure, rate, i.e, 1, in, 6, don’t, make, it, back, in, there, is, also, a, problem, in, that, there, has, been, at, least, one, dog, imported, into, cumbria, with, out, any, paperwork, as, the, owners, thought, all, they, needed, was, a, rabies, vaccination, we, are, dealing, with, it, on, a, weekly, basis, and, are, confused, so, the, poor, punters, don’t, stand, a, chance, thursday, 23rd, there, is, a, real, problem, with, cow, fertility, in, the, restocking, farms, at, the, moment, i, went, to, 1, farm, where, of, the, 10, cows, i, checked, only, one, was, in, calf, which, is, a, little, sad, no, baby, calves, no, milk, production, and, more, losses, for, the, fmd, farmers, the, compensation, is, looking, very, small, the, only, ones, who, benefited, are, those, who, took, the, money, and, got, out, it, is, difficult, trying, to, work, out, why, these, cows, are, having, so, much, of, a, problem, as, usual, i, suspect, there, is, no, simple, answer, the, blood, tests, and, analyses, do, not, help, much, the, cows, have, been, under, a, lot, of, stress, the, movement, into, new, regimes, and, cattle, systems, where, they, have, to, learn, where, to, go, where, the, water, troughs, are, where, the, milking, parlour, is, they, have, had, to, sort, out, the, pecking, order, of, the, cows, which, espy, in, the, larger, units, is, probably, quite, stressful, where, you, add, animals, to, a, herd, there, are, lead, cows, who, know, the, set, up, and, cows, are, very, much, follow, my, leader, in, their, behaviour, patterns, where, there, is, a, complete, cull, and, restocking, there, are, no, lead, cows, so, no, leader, for, the, cows, to, follow, there, has, also, been, a, lot, of, illness, in, the, herds, which, again, will, reduce, fertility, the, other, problem, is, the, poor, quality, silage, because, of, the, bad, weather, the, other, factor, that, keeps, coming, up, in, conversation, is, what, effect, the, topping, of, grass, has, on, silage, grazing, quality, which, would, have, been, an, interesting, study, that, will, never, be, done, now, stress, is, a, generality, of, a, word, but, i, can’t, think, of, a, better, more, specific, way, of, expressing, the, problems, the, stress, of, all, the, changes, has, caused, fertility, problems, the, difficulty, is, in, finding, where, do, you, go, from, here, i, think, a, lot, will, end, up, culling, fairly, large, numbers, 15, 20, because, of, fertility, friday, 24th, one, of, the, defra, tv’s, called, in, on, her, way, back, from, a, test, tb, to, let, us, know, that, there, was, still, an, ir, causing, problems, she, also, said, that, it, looked, like, there, was, going, to, be, a, complete, herd, cull, for, tb, in, the, east, of, the, county, the, farmer, had, restocked, from, three, sources, all, were, down, to, do, as, tracings, as, well, as, to, be, done, under, the, restocking, tb, testing, they, found, 32, reactors, with, lesions, so, they, will, probably, cull, the, whole, herd, it, is, so, depressing, to, think, what, the, farmer, must, be, thinking, and, whether, he, can, face, getting, back, into, farming, again, after, this, further, disaster, does, not, bear, thinking, about, saturday, 25th, january, 2003, linda, b’s, wedding, travelled, down, to, derby, for, wedding, it, was, really, nice, to, see, them, finally, tie, the, knot, as, they, have, been, talking, about, it, for, so, long, they, have, followed, each, other, around, several, continents, so, at, least, that, will, have, seen, each, other, in, different, situations, she, first, came, as, a, student, and, has, worked, for, us, as, a, locum, she, spent, 2, years, at, all, nations, bible, college, in, london, where, she, met, him, so, a, lot, of, their, friends, from, all, nations, were, there, they, have, been, doing, agricultural, relief, work, in, the, worlds, hot, spots, from, kosovo, to, indonesia, from, haiti, to, bolivia, they, are, currently, in, bolivia, working, with, church, groups, she, has, been, setting, up, tb, testing, programme, as, there, is, a, problem, of, human, tb, which, has, been, blamed, on, the, cattle, but, they, have, completed, the, testing, and, it, is, not, the, cattle, it, seems, to, be, nearly, all, human, to, human, spread, so, that, at, least, they, can, make, a, start, on, eradicating, tb, in, humans, by, treating, the, in, contacts, they, went, away, from, the, church, in, a, horse, drawn, carriage, which, was, nice, to, see, spent, quite, a, lot, of, time, catching, up, with, vets, and, their, friends, who, we, have, not, seen, for, ages, sun, 26th, we, were, staying, with, friends, from, carlisle, who, moved, down, to, derbyshire, when, he, started, to, teach, we, went, to, their, church, which, is, a, house, church, and, is, a, little, different, to, put, it, mildly, they, meet, in, a, school, and, it, is, very, informal, with, a, drumming, band, and, a, desire, not, to, be, restricted, by, convention, or, liturgy, so, it, was, a, mixture, of, readings, and, worship, songs, they, do, seem, to, be, reaching, out, to, their, local, community, as, there, were, people, from, all, walks, of, life, there, mon, 27th, back, to, work, and, not, feeling, very, good, had, 2, weeks, in, india, and, no, stomach, bugs, but, a, w, e, in, derby, and, i, have, a, very, runny, tummy, came, home, from, work, early, and, went, to, bed, tues, 28th, off, work, ill, in, bed, being, male, this, involves, dying, noisily, in, a, corner, some, sympathy, i, get, from, my, wife, weds, 29th, not, feeling, good, but, dragged, myself, back, in, as, i, have, had, that, much, time, off, recently, and, i, feel, that, i, have, to, turn, in, but, i, am, off, tomorrow, so, i, can, recover, then, the, only, drawback, is, that, i, will, be, working, the, w, e, the, sheep, seem, to, have, decided, to, start, lambing, or, maybe, decided, not, as, we, seem, to, be, seeing, a, few, if, you, get, what, i, mean, thursday, had, a, good, day, off, and, spent, time, sleeping, and, doing, household, things, even, though, i, hate, diy, it, was, good, to, get, some, jobs, sorted, called, in, at, vets, to, pick, up, stuff, for, court, tomorrow, friday, the, more, i, experience, the, legal, proceedings, the, more, i, feel, that, they, are, a, waste, of, time, what, is, important, is, how, good, your, lawyer, is, the, case, was, all, about, whether, or, not, this, guy, had, starved, his, greyhounds, or, not, he, had, but, as, he, was, on, legal, aid, he, thought, it, might, be, better, to, try, to, keep, his, other, dogs, and, have, fewer, judgements, against, him, he, obviously, knew, his, way, around, the, legal, system, saturday, 1st, feb, 2003, reflections, on, court, case, it, is, one, of, those, really, annoying, things, that, you, can, never, replay, what, has, happened, the, case, yesterday, really, churned, me, up, with, having, to, make, huge, moral, decisions, more, or, less, on, the, spur, of, the, moment, the, complicating, factors, were, that, c, who, was, acting, on, the, defence, was, acting, outside, the, rcvs, guidelines, now, i, could, have, pointed, out, this, to, the, rspca, lawyer, but, as, c, has, already, been, struck, off, once, the, matter, could, well, have, turned, very, badly, for, him, even, though, it, is, his, decision, to, get, involved, and, a, poor, one, then, i, think, that, it, is, not, for, me, to, land, him, in, the, muck, i, could, have, done, so, both, on, the, fact, he, should, not, have, been, speaking, and, also, that, i, could, have, pointed, out, that, his, record, is, tainted, why, he, was, being, an, expert, witness, in, the, first, place, for, some, one, who, is, not, even, their, client, beadsmen, beats, me, i, had, reservations, about, doing, the, legal, work, for, the, rspca, and, at, least, we, do, quite, a, lot, of, work, for, the, local, inspector, so, i, decided, not, to, trash, c, as, a, witness, as, i, thought, that, it, was, not, my, place, to, do, so, and, secondly, the, repercussions, for, local, vet, good, will, would, not, stand, me, in, good, stead, but, i, have, my, doubts, as, to, whether, i, did, the, correct, thing, there, is, no, right, and, wrong, the, dilemmas, are, there, because, you, to, choose, which, horn, you, want, to, get, impaled, on, sun, lambing, seems, to, have, started, with, a, vengeance, spent, most, of, the, morning, at, the, surgery, with, land, rovers, and, trailers, turning, up, one, after, another, with, sheep, lambing, or, having, peri, natal, problems, i, do, like, working, out, of, the, surgery, at, the, w, e, as, there, is, far, less, driving, and, working, is, so, much, easier, and, you, don’t, have, to, keep, getting, changed, in, and, out, of, protective, clothes, so, got, two, vets, work, done, by, just, keeping, on, asking, for, them, to, come, to, the, surgery, the, farmers, don’t, mind, either, as, they, generally, have, to, put, them, in, a, pick, up, to, bring, them, back, to, the, farm, from, the, field, so, it, is, as, easy, to, drive, on, to, the, vets, rather, than, hang, around, waiting, for, them, mon, went, tt, testing, at, p’s, farm, i, used, his, son, a, fair, bit, during, fmd, as, they, went, out, early, on, and, he, always, has, done, a, fair, amount, of, contracting, on, the, various, farms, he, also, has, a, very, happy, go, lucky, style, in, contrast, to, his, dad, who, is, a, bit, of, a, worrier, i, quite, enjoyed, the, banter, and, we, could, just, work, away, as, there, is, no, pressure, too, get, finished, as, the, numbers, are, not, great, tues, went, to, o’s, where, they, are, again, having, problems, getting, the, cows, in, calf, the, levels, of, infertility, in, the, restocking, herds, are, horrendous, the, sad, thing, is, we, seem, to, be, achieving, very, little, in, actually, improving, it, in, spite, of, a, lot, of, investigations, and, spending, money, on, vaccine, and, on, supplements, the, average, loss, must, be, 5, at, least, it, would, be, interesting, to, compare, the, culling, rates, of, the, restocking, farms, and, find, out, what, the, restocking, losses, actually, are, weds, took, the, new, vet, student, with, me, today, and, let, her, do, the, first, lambing, at, r’s, they, like, everyone, else, says, they, are, getting, a, lot, of, lambs, these, were, dead, and, all, tangled, up, and, aborting, so, they, could, not, get, them, out, they, had, quads, last, night, thursday, went, to, s, and, stitched, a, teat, this, is, now, a, fairly, easy, operation, with, the, advent, of, using, open, crushes, and, decent, epidural, anaesthesia, local, is, always, fairly, iffy, as, many, a, dentists, patient, will, testify, to, it, is, very, satisfying, to, fix, something, like, that, friday, spent, the, morning, doing, certs, these, are, otm22, certificates, which, were, brought, in, by, maff, to, compensate, the, farmer, for, cows, that, would, have, been, sold, for, human, consumption, before, the, otm, scheme, banned, them, from, human, consumption, if, an, animal, is, not, fit, to, travel, then, it, can, be, shot, on, the, farm, but, to, get, the, compensation, they, need, a, vet’s, cert, to, say, that, it, is, fit, for, human, consumption, so, it, can, be, burnt, on, the, scheme, if, it, is, not, fit, then, they, have, to, pay, to, have, it, taken, away, so, there, is, a, lot, of, pressure, to, sign, them, the, scheme, is, supposed, to, be, coming, to, an, end, this, summer, but, as, yet, no, markets, exist, for, the, casualty, animals, that, are, fir, for, human, consumption, the, whole, knackery, injured, animals, burying, of, animals, scheme, is, up, for, grabs, and, the, govt, needs, to, get, some, sort, of, scheme, up, and, running, but, the, govt, thinks, maybe, rightly, that, it, is, an, industry, problem, to, get, rid, of, its, own, waste, and, it, is, not, up, to, the, taxpayer, to, get, farmers, waste, problems, sorted, leave, it, up, to, the, industry, market, to, sort, it, there, is, also, a, suggestion, that, as, tb, is, not, an, important, zoonosis, in, the, uk, anymore, then, it, is, a, production, problem, and, it, should, go, the, same, way, as, sheep, scab, and, be, taken, off, the, notifiable, disease, list, and, individual, farms, have, to, ensure, they, meet, whatever, standard, that, the, buyers, want, to, specify, which, is, what, is, happening, to, a, small, extent, in, the, dairy, industry, with, buyers, specifying, farms, must, meet, certain, criteria, saturday, 8th, feb, 2003, wife, is, on, her, course, for, the, w, e, so, i, was, doing, the, run, around, to, squash, and, football, for, sons, mon, 10th, b, is, now, renting, all, the, land, bush, ghyll, head, he, has, taken, it, over, as, a, grass, letting, another, of, the, small, farms, is, disappearing, the, reality, is, it, has, only, ever, been, a, small, holding, but, they, use, to, milk, 20, odd, cows, which, meant, it, got, the, status, of, a, farm, on, our, computer, system, the, uncle, who, use, to, run, it, when, first, arrived, was, a, real, character, he, was, always, telling, you, about, when, farmers, made, money, after, the, war, a, dozen, eggs, was, 10, shilling, none, of, your, 50ps, 10, whole, shillings, you, could, take, a, girl, to, the, cinema, and, the, lyons, café, and, still, have, change, from, a, pound, even, his, free, range, hens, eggs, would, not, buy, a, cinema, ticket, for, one, these, days, he, should, of, taken, her, as, he, ended, up, as, a, bachelor, with, his, nephew, taking, over, the, farm, tuesday, 11th, the, partners, meeting, today, was, trying, to, address, the, fact, that, the, mark, up, on, fees, is, going, to, be, eroded, one, of, the, things, that, barnard, castle, are, doing, is, putting, on, their, bills, but, as, yet, not, charging, for, things, like, telephone, advice, and, out, of, hours, so, we, are, going, to, be, doing, the, same, to, try, to, get, across, the, point, that, we, are, providing, an, all, round, service, that, needs, to, be, paid, for, but, i, still, think, at, the, end, of, the, day, the, economics, will, win, if, you, cannot, provide, a, service, at, a, profit, you, cannot, provide, a, service, so, where, does, that, leave, us, weds, harrison’s, are, having, problems, with, fertility, who, isn’t, the, blood, results, are, showing, low, levels, of, copper, but, i, am, not, convinced, that, is, what, it, is, they, will, have, to, supplement, the, feed, by, adding, more, copper, to, the, feed, the, problem, with, all, these, investigations, is, that, we, are, looking, for, a, simple, answer, when, the, actual, problem, is, multi, factorial, the, cows, may, be, short, in, copper, but, they, are, not, that, low, that, it, is, really, effecting, them, i, often, wonder, with, humans, if, you, blood, sampled, them, for, lots, of, different, minerals, would, we, find, that, a, percentage, of, the, population, is, actually, below, normal, for, some, or, several, minerals, maybe, our, omnivorous, diet, and, the, fact, we, are, not, producing, huge, amounts, of, milk, probably, does, come, in, to, it, we, do, have, a, much, more, varied, diet, most, cows, are, now, on, complete, rations, here, in, the, uk, so, that, if, the, nutritionist, gets, it, slightly, wrong, then, you, will, find, that, the, cows, will, be, short, i, suppose, the, other, thing, that, we, do, always, forget, is, that, they, are, usually, working, off, either, a, single, or, 3, 4, samples, of, silage, so, that, there, will, be, a, spread, of, what, is, actually, in, the, silage, and, the, samples, may, or, may, not, reflect, it, thursday, on, call, tonight, and, busy, which, was, ok, r, was, up, helping, at, wh, house, one, of, his, suckler, calves, had, managed, to, prolapse, its, rectum, but, it, is, as, wild, as, thunder, so, we, were, all, very, careful, about, handling, it, i, had, to, dope, it, any, way, to, operate, but, when, we, put, it, back, it, was, jumping, up, the, walls, which, is, always, a, wee, bit, disconcerting, limousin, stirks, could, be, used, for, the, grand, national, d’s, brother, is, not, very, well, at, all, now, he, has, cancer, and, went, in, for, emergency, surgery, the, day, i, shot, all, the, cows, i, had, a, big, row, with, senior, staff, at, page, st, he, had, been, admitted, to, the, hospital, at, 2am, and, was, to, undergo, emergency, surgery, that, afternoon, i, did, not, want, it, put, on, the, web, site, as, they, were, announcing, them, on, radio, cumbria, i, did, not, want, him, to, be, going, down, for, the, surgery, or, just, coming, out, of, it, and, to, find, out, from, the, radio, that, i, was, shooting, all, his, cows, i, asked, them, to, put, an, embargo, on, it, of, course, the, vets, tried, not, to, let, it, go, out, but, it, did, and, i, was, really, angry, i, wrote, some, strongly, worded, letters, and, never, even, got, a, reply, i, should, have, followed, it, up, and, held, some, one, to, account, but, i, am, afraid, it, all, got, lost, in, the, passing, of, time, at, least, r, is, a, lot, better, he, had, meningitis, around, the, time, of, fmd, he, has, had, bad, heads, and, depression, ever, since, so, it, was, good, that, he, is, back, on, farms, and, has, started, fencing, again, fri, 14th, valentines, it, is, friend, s, birthday, so, we, all, went, around, to, her, house, for, dinner, which, was, really, nice, and, ended, playing, darts, with, the, kids, i, was, pleased, to, get, some, darts, in, the, board, as, it, is, a, long, long, time, since, i, have, played, saturday, 15th, february, 2003, son’s, birthday, my, little, baby, son, is, now, 8, years, old, it, is, hard, to, believe, where, the, time, has, gone, and, all, the, water, that, has, passed, under, the, bridge, went, around, to, friend’s, at, night, and, sat, and, eat, and, put, the, world, to, rights, it, is, good, every, now, and, again, to, wind, down, and, just, enjoy, talking, with, out, having, to, think, as, we, know, them, so, well, you, can, just, come, out, with, stuff, sunday, mon, 17th, spent, the, day, tb, testing, at, dl, where, they, have, had, a, nvl, no, visible, lesions, reactor, taken, colleague, did, the, first, test, and, we, are, not, doing, the, fat, stock, on, farms, that, have, restocked, as, they, will, be, going, for, slaughter, fairly, soon, so, it, is, deemed, pointless, and, really, it, is, so, spent, the, day, putting, big, bullocks, through, the, crush, and, it, is, a, dangerous, work, for, the, men, who, go, in, amongst, them, because, they, are, very, rarely, handled, and, so, don’t, take, to, it, very, well, tuesday, had, an, interesting, lambing, today, and, a, consequence, of, fmd, that, you, forget, about, there, is, an, inherited, genetic, condition, of, suffolk’s, called, dandy, walker, syndrome, causing, hydrocephalus, in, the, lambs, so, both, the, ewe, and, tup, must, carry, the, gene, to, produce, the, deformed, lambs, with, heads, too, large, to, get, through, the, mothers, pelvis, so, it, means, doing, a, caesarean, on, a, ewe, that, can, only, be, used, to, breed, fat, lambs, from, it, has, to, be, put, to, another, breed, next, year, this, years, lambs, are, dead, going, to, die, so, the, economics, are, useless, some, breeders, just, shoot, them, at, this, point, but, he, had, called, us, to, try, to, lamb, it, or, caesaer, it, as, she, was, a, big, ewe, i, eventually, managed, to, lamb, it, he, was, saying, though, that, it, takes, time, to, work, out, whether, the, stock, you, have, bought, will, produce, the, breeding, stock, that, you, want, you, have, to, try, the, different, combinations, that, you, have, to, work, out, which, lines, work, well, together, he, reckons, on, about, 4, 8, years, before, he, will, be, back, to, breeding, decent, suffolk, sheep, in, spite, of, buying, in, good, stock, there, is, more, to, breeding, than, meets, the, eye, wednesday, rb, had, a, stirk, with, mcf, malignant, catarhal, fever, it, is, a, viral, disease, which, is, quite, often, fatal, that, they, catch, from, sheep, but, they, have, really, blue, grey, eyes, from, the, change, in, the, fluid, in, the, eye, and, the, severe, iritis, it, must, be, incredibly, painful, for, them, thursday, dixons, tt2, is, now, clear, so, they, have, to, have, them, all, tested, again, in, 42, days, to, clear, the, farm, of, restrictions, un, fortunately, the, vet, from, the, ministry, said, it, would, be, from, the, day, the, cow, is, taken, not, today, so, the, whole, thing, is, getting, a, bit, complicated, and, jd, is, getting, wound, up, understandably, so, friday, tried, to, sort, out, some, of, the, tracings, that, we, are, supposed, to, be, doing, there, are, a, lot, coming, through, but, the, quality, of, the, info, is, very, poor, tracings, are, where, the, farm, has, sold, animals, and, then, subsequently, gone, down, with, tb, or, other, notifiable, disease, the, defra, paper, chase, is, so, bad, that, ear, tag, nos, are, wrong, or, a, farmer, has, bought, several, from, the, same, source, and, only, 1, 2, are, on, the, paper, work, from, defra, the, thing, seems, to, be, falling, apart, a, bit, went, and, did, a, single, animal, up, at, the, mill, he, usually, buys, in, stores, and, fattens, them, but, as, the, store, trade, has, gone, through, the, roof, he, has, sold, a, lot, of, them, on, to, let, some, one, else, fatten, or, if, heifers, breed, from, them, the, defra, files, have, him, as, a, fattening, unit, finisher, so, that, they, hadn’t, bothered, to, do, tracings, to, him, as, they, would, be, going, for, slaughter, but, of, course, he, had, sold, one, on, that, had, gone, down, with, tb, so, they, wanted, to, know, what, was, happening, with, these, now, saturday, 22nd, february, 2003, saturday, sunday, monday, tuesday, had, a, funny, sensation, to, day, i, suppose, it, was, almost, a, flash, back, in, some, ways, i, went, to, a, farm, who, has, fancy, pedigree, sheep, he, has, rented, land, and, wanted, them, added, to, his, holding, for, the, mv, scheme, so, he, needs, a, vet, inspection, to, say, that, the, fields, are, double, fenced, so, that, the, sheep, do, not, come, in, contact, to, any, others, this, inspection, of, fields, is, pretty, meaningless, as, they, know, what, needs, to, be, done, and, so, they, are, always, up, to, scratch, the, last, time, i, was, doing, it, was, for, fmd, wednesday, thursday, friday, packed, and, got, the, last, few, things, sorted, for, the, vcf, w, e, got, the, posters, printed, and, the, display, boards, together, and, set, off, down, the, motorway, to, pick, up, friend, and, spent, most, of, the, day, travelling, it, was, good, talking, to, him, he, retired, from, practice, just, before, fmd, and, then, spent, the, first, part, of, his, retirement, working, for, defra, on, the, fmd, first, at, preston, and, then, at, settle, it, seems, they, were, better, organised, at, preston, and, he, was, quite, positive, about, the, local, teams, i, sometimes, wonder, if, i, am, sill, too, close, to, it, all, and, to, emotional, to, take, a, clear, headed, look, at, what, it, was, really, like, it, was, good, to, see, friends, at, night, and, get, set, up, for, the, w, e, sat, 1st, march, sun, 2003, vcf, w, e, it, is, difficult, for, me, to, sum, up, the, w, e, as, i, was, so, much, in, it, and, part, of, it, so, i, have, copied, the, report, from, one, of, the, students, who, wrote, a, bit, for, the, vcf, magazine, vcf, triennial, conference, 28th, feb, 2nd, march, 2003, on, a, sunny, weekend, at, the, beginning, of, march, over, 70, vets, vet, students, and, families, bravely, took, time, out, of, their, busy, schedules, and, gathered, expectantly, at, the, hayes, conference, centre, in, derbyshire, for, the, 2003, vcf, conference, we, were, a, mixed, bunch, ranging, in, age, from, 2, months, to, 70, well, nearly, from, many, different, places, denominations, and, walks, of, veterinary, life, but, we, all, had, a, common, goal, in, mind, to, unite, in, our, desire, to, love, and, serve, the, lord, jesus, christ, in, the, vocation, to, which, he, has, called, us, and, to, encourage, one, another, to, be, salt, and, light, in, the, veterinary, world, our, distinguished, speaker, for, the, weekend, was, dr, l, a, consultant, psychiatrist, and, christian, who, drew, from, his, own, experience, to, bring, us, some, thoughtful, insights, on, the, subject, of, god, at, work, he, emphasised, the, fact, that, although, work, is, a, godly, activity, and, that, we, should, view, whatever, we, do, as, if, working, for, the, lord, colossians, 3, 18, it, must, not, be, forgotten, that, a, balance, must, be, achieved, between, work, church, family, life, etc, there, was, also, an, opportunity, to, discuss, how, we, would, respond, as, christians, to, a, variety, of, ethical, decisions, that, commonly, present, themselves, in, veterinary, practice, as, well, as, the, main, talks, there, was, the, opportunity, to, join, a, variety, of, seminars, on, relevant, practical, subjects, bt, a, vet, and, long, serving, missionary, in, thailand, with, omf, led, a, most, interesting, seminar, on, the, joys, and, challenges, of, both, veterinary, and, evangelistic, work, in, a, different, culture, students, and, new, graduates, were, well, provided, for, in, seminars, on, practicing, reality, living, out, one's, faith, in, the, university, or, veterinary, practice, environment, m, c, bravely, stepped, in, at, short, notice, to, lead, a, seminar, on, business, ethics, and, vcf, secretary, generated, some, thought, provoking, discussion, on, a, very, relevant, subject, for, many, singleness, it, was, not, all, work, and, no, play, however, and, we, were, much, obliged, to, the, scottish, students, for, organising, the, saturday, night, ceilidh, much, fun, was, had, by, all, so, we, all, parted, company, on, sunday, feeling, refreshed, and, well, fed, both, physically, and, spiritually, how, encouraging, to, be, reminded, that, you, are, not, the, only, christian, vet, out, there, and, that, there, are, many, others, who, grapple, with, the, same, issues, you, face, the, weekend, was, a, time, of, friendships, rekindled, and, hopefully, new, ones, made, a, time, of, strengthening, and, a, reminder, of, what, is, ultimately, the, most, important, thing, in, our, busy, lives, leading, the, seminar, on, business, ethics, or, rather, winging, it, was, very, stressful, but, very, good, which, was, very, interesting, and, very, challenging, the, questions, about, is, it, right, to, make, a, profit, were, espy, good, to, work, through, but, it, was, incredibly, draining, by, sun, night, i, was, exhausted, drove, back, to, friend’s, for, the, night, he, live, about, 20, mins, off, motorway, and, it, was, coming, through, one, of, the, wee, villages, i, was, flashed, by, a, camera, and, so, will, have, a, fine, and, a, speeding, ticket, to, sort, out, mon, had, a, really, nice, lie, in, and, then, went, for, a, walk, with, friend, around, from, his, house, across, the, fields, it, was, beautiful, then, set, off, for, preston, to, visit, the, friend, who, is, in, prison, the, road, was, closed, on, the, way, to, the, m6, so, took, me, ages, to, find, my, way, to, the, m6, and, then, after, coming, off, at, preston, to, find, the, way, to, the, prisons, the, whole, afternoon, was, very, depressing, there, is, something, very, intimidating, about, having, to, be, processed, for, the, visit, under, security, cameras, and, by, very, polite, but, uncaring, prison, officers, the, being, searched, and, going, past, sniffer, dogs, and, having, to, give, my, finger, prints, which, are, now, on, the, police, computers, prisoner, was, ok, but, fairly, depressed, about, the, outlook, even, now, he, is, worried, about, how, he, is, going, to, cope, when, he, comes, out, the, prison, regime, is, very, oppressive, and, after, being, there, for, an, hour, and, a, half, i, was, glad, to, be, going, it, is, also, a, bizarre, situation, where, you, have, to, sit, there, and, talk, for, that, length, of, time, there, is, also, a, lot, of, stuff, that, he, wants, to, know, about, the, kids, and, you, just, can’t, help, him, most, of, what, we, know, is, hearsay, and, not, first, and, so, difficult, to, sum, up, espy, as, some, of, it, is, not, good, they, are, not, coping, with, the, whole, situation, and, it, is, basically, his, fault, or, his, and, their, mothers, so, he, is, already, feeling, guilty, enough, with, out, giving, him, more, angst, to, cope, with, but, i, was, very, glad, to, be, coming, out, again, into, the, fresh, air, spent, the, evening, at, a’s, parents, evening, challenging, senior, management, and, giving, them, a, hard, time, so, quite, a, day, tuesday, as, usual, the, disasters, after, a, w, e, away, continue, the, new, bathroom, was, totally, flooded, from, a, leaking, pipe, i, felt, like, wringing, his, neck, he, is, the, plumber, the, water, was, flowing, back, through, the, old, kitchen, and, made, a, real, mess, managed, to, get, hold, of, him, after, leaving, more, and, more, urgent, phone, messages, at, all, his, answer, phones, he, has, a, mobile, a, telephone, at, his, flat, where, he, hardly, ever, is, and, at, his, girlfriends, so, the, water, was, off, most, of, the, day, until, he, found, the, leak, and, managed, to, fix, it, again, he, had, to, smash, tiles, and, cut, holes, in, the, wall, to, fix, it, and, the, place, looked, a, mess, but, boy, o, boy, am, i, fed, up, with, that, stupid, bathroom, went, into, work, to, find, no, one, had, done, the, stuff, i, had, left, to, be, done, and, work, was, really, busy, the, speeding, ticket, had, landed, already, why, are, other, govt, depts, not, as, efficient, so, spent, the, whole, day, until, 6pm, running, around, like, a, headless, chicken, and, then, decided, that, stuff, it, i, was, going, to, the, gym, for, the, circuits, class, weds, the, disasters, continued, with, the, washing, machine, giving, up, the, ghost, which, in, a, house, with, 3, boys, and, a, vet, is, a, pretty, serious, problem, i, also, had, an, argument, with, one, of, the, other, partners, saying, that, if, we, did, not, get, another, vet, we, would, have, a, rebellion, or, people, going, off, sick, through, stress, me, being, one, of, them, and, i, have, only, been, back, 2, days, still, haven’t, managed, to, read, all, of, the, stuff, in, my, in, tray, yet, let, alone, deal, with, it, thursday, finally, convinced, senior, colleague, we, needed, some, help, as, the, ministry, got, hold, of, him, and, asked, if, we, could, do, a, tracings, herd, test, urgently, on, one, of, farms, that, has, not, restocked, the, cattle, belong, to, some, one, else, he, then, looked, at, the, book, and, decided, we, could, not, idiot, i, told, him, weeks, ago, last, september, i, think, that, this, would, happen, so, spent, the, day, sorting, out, dc, to, come, in, between, vetting, he, is, not, an, lvi, so, have, had, to, pull, some, wool, and, sweet, talk, them, into, training, him, in, the, baffling, ways, of, defra, but, that, meant, i, still, have, yet, to, reach, the, bottom, of, my, in, tray, may, be, there, is, gold, buried, at, the, bottom, i, think, this, is, one, of, those, days, when, you, look, back, were, probably, quite, decisive, but, accidental, days, this, was, the, first, time, i, really, thought, that, i, was, about, to, be, killed, i, could, see, it, happening, and, there, was, nothing, i, could, have, done, differently, to, prevent, it, i, went, on, a, calving, after, work, about, 8pm, met, up, with, the, farmers, and, one, went, to, get, water, while, the, other, and, i, walked, into, the, box, to, where, the, cow, was, the, cow, gave, me, a, funny, look, and, i, backed, off, to, behind, a, pillar, in, the, pen, oh, its, ok, it’s, a, quiet, cow, she’s, had, 8, calves, he, said, next, time, i, will, listen, to, my, instincts, so, we, went, forward, to, where, she, was, without, warning, or, snorting, or, given, it, a, second, thought, she, charged, caught, me, under, the, ribs, with, her, head, and, threw, me, to, the, ground, before, i, could, react, she, butted, me, again, in, the, head, snorted, kicked, me, and, then, backed, off, as, the, farmer, started, kicking, and, hitting, her, she, then, came, again, bashed, me, into, the, corner, on, my, back, and, kept, coming, as, her, head, flew, at, me, i, grabbed, her, nose, and, swung, myself, around, on, her, nose, kicked, her, with, both, feet, taking, all, my, weight, on, the, one, hand, while, shouting, for, help, from, the, other, guys, one, came, back, with, a, pitchfork, as, i, was, on, the, ground, i, kicked, her, again, as, they, came, with, the, fork, and, let, go, and, scrambled, away, around, the, box, she, still, came, after, me, but, i, got, to, the, gate, past, the, two, brothers, who, thumped, her, again, and, then, backed, off, and, slammed, the, gate, shut, i, lay, in, a, heap, on, a, bale, for, 10, minutes, breathing, heavily, while, they, asked, did, i, need, an, ambulance, or, doctor, i, finally, came, to, enough, to, splash, water, on, my, face, and, think, that, there, must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, it, took, all, 4, brothers, armed, with, sticks, to, get, her, into, a, crush, where, i, then, managed, to, calve, 1, dead, twin, breach, and, 1, live, twin, just, in, her, defence, the, cow, had, been, calving, for, a, while, was, in, pain, and, had, probably, just, got, herself, really, wound, up, but, she, almost, killed, me, i, then, sat, having, strong, tea, for, quarter, of, an, hour, before, summoning, up, the, courage, to, drive, home, with, hind, sight, i, should, have, taken, up, there, offer, of, a, getting, some, one, else, out, to, calve, the, cow, but, the, girl, on, 2nd, was, 5ft, nothing, and, petite, and, didn’t, think, dumping, it, on, her, was, very, fair, the, adrenaline, was, still, flowing, so, i, just, kept, on, b, i, should, however, have, let, one, of, them, drive, me, home, or, probably, to, casualty, but, i, felt, they, would, not, do, anything, at, the, hospital, except, keep, an, eye, on, me, so, i, just, went, home, to, my, own, bed, and, asked, my, wife, to, wake, me, up, every, two, hours, friday, ill, with, head, spinning, every, time, i, sit, down, to, try, and, do, something, my, head, just, goes, around, and, i, feel, really, tired, and, jet, lagged, i, think, i, prefer, india, to, being, beaten, up, by, cows, time, for, a, new, job, slept, all, afternoon, but, had, friends, for, dinner, it, had, been, arrange, months, ago, so, wife, didn’t, cancel, and, i, kept, going, but, drifted, in, and, out, a, wee, bit, saturday, 8th, march, had, a, lie, in, to, 9, o, clock, yo, still, feeling, pretty, sore, but, at, least, my, head, is, one, piece, i, think, showed, flat, to, prospective, tenants, it, is, very, rare, that, we, don’t, have, to, get, up, for, sthg, when, we, are, at, home, either, for, work, or, for, football, squash, or, something, similar, there, is, another, squash, competition, but, they, are, both, later, starts, for, our, boys, which, is, great, took, son, to, football, and, wife, phoned, up, to, say, that, the, cs, were, going, to, watch, the, lord, of, the, rings, did, i, want, to, go, so, went, to, watch, it, and, swapped, younger, kids, with, wife, taking, son, and, their, youngsters, and, i, went, with, the, cs, there, are, times, when, mobile, phones, are, really, useful, to, get, things, arranged, the, film, was, really, good, but, boy, was, i, stiff, after, sitting, down, for, that, length, of, time, my, knee, was, giving, me, real, gyp, spent, evening, at, daubes, but, i, faded, so, wife, drove, home, and, went, to, bed, sunday, 9th, went, to, church, in, morning, and, picked, up, car, friends, came, to, lunch, which, was, really, good, to, see, them, but, as, a, points, out, pointedly, they, do, have, 5, boys, so, there, were, 8, kids, flying, around, but, i, did, enjoy, seeing, them, they, are, still, trying, to, sort, out, their, diversification, plans, and, hope, to, have, several, strings, to, their, bows, as, well, as, farming, there, is, a, teachers, position, at, nelson, thom, so, that, is, probably, the, most, reliable, form, of, income, for, friend, mon, 10th, went, to, work, but, every, time, i, bend, over, or, move, to, fast, my, head, spins, so, just, did, small, animals, i, think, cats, and, dogs, are, a, much, better, idea, but, a, lot, of, sympathy, from, folk, at, work, mr, h, had, been, in, and, obviously, given, a, fairly, graphic, description, of, what, had, happened, that, and, my, face, is, not, the, most, becoming, at, the, moment, tues, 11th, back, to, work, on, the, farms, i, was, at, rs, for, a, fertility, visit, even, though, i, know, his, cows, and, i, am, happy, with, them, i, did, feel, very, nervous, about, going, any, where, near, them, i, have, lost, a, lot, of, confidence, which, although, i, expected, it, i, am, still, a, bit, wound, up, about, it, the, rest, of, day, was, ok, apart, from, several, people, whingeing, about, the, current, paper, work, requirements, for, selling, cattle, mind, you, when, you, see, what, they, need, to, sell, a, few, bullocks, or, a, geld, cow, it, is, probably, easier, to, be, an, asylum, seeker, spent, evening, at, surgery, showing, d, the, ropes, he, is, the, locum, who, is, going, to, be, working, with, us, for, the, next, few, weeks, he, is, going, to, the, ministry, at, newcastle, tomorrow, to, do, his, lvi, training, at, least, that, means, he, can, do, some, of, the, tb, testing, and, at, least, give, us, a, break, from, that, it, is, these, sort, of, things, managing, staff, showing, people, the, ropes, giving, them, back, up, and, debriefing, them, that, latkes, huge, amounts, of, time, and, energy, and, yet, is, never, seen, as, work, or, relevant, by, a, lot, of, people, the, rest, of, the, partnership, and, yet, in, any, small, business, it, is, the, people, that, make, all, the, difference, and, if, they, feel, appreciated, and, supported, and, can, debrief, and, be, reassured, then, it, makes, such, a, difference, to, them, and, happy, staff, can, deal, with, situations, and, people, a, lot, better, and, easier, than, stressed, ones, weds, 12th, next, year, i, am, not, going, it, is, definitely, some, one, else’s, turn, i, speak, of, the, annual, training, day, for, senior, lvis, it, just, drives, me, up, the, wall, the, morning, was, spent, fairly, usefully, talking, about, contingency, planning, for, the, next, fmd, or, exotic, disease, epidemic, the, page, st, planners, seemed, fairly, well, clued, in, and, taking, on, board, a, lot, of, the, ideas, and, problems, that, had, been, seen, in, 2001, the, afternoon, was, then, totally, depressing, tb, is, now, endemic, in, the, south, of, the, county, there, was, a, deer, herd, that, had, animals, dying, and, so, took, them, to, the, vic, lab, at, penrith, to, find, out, why, they, had, these, animals, losing, weight, and, dying, they, had, tb, the, ministry, had, known, that, there, had, been, reactors, all, around, that, area, but, had, never, picked, up, on, the, fact, these, deer, were, here, and, should, have, been, tested, there, were, also, complaints, that, forward, tracings, were, not, being, done, on, some, cattle, to, which, the, vety, officer, giving, the, talk, said, it, was, quite, difficult, to, work, out, where, cattle, had, gone, this, was, met, with, some, incredulity, by, the, local, vets, as, the, paperwork, and, computerised, passport, scheme, surely, means, that, trace, ability, was, one, of, the, big, issues, to, do, with, bse, and, if, it, cannot, be, done, it, means, the, whole, thing, is, a, useless, sham, well, the, answer, is, that, you, can, trace, a, specific, animal, through, markets, and, holdings, but, not, animals, on, and, off, a, holding, so, tracings, are, taking, too, much, time, so, it, is, not, getting, done, so, tb, is, spreading, idiots, the, best, systems, the, best, tools, the, best, ideas, the, best, businesses, have, to, work, through, people, so, next, year, some, one, else, can, go, and, listen, to, the, plans, in, the, sky, this, was, the, meeting, where, we, had, an, excellent, talk, on, fmd, in, feb, 2000, just, a, pity, they, did, not, listen, to, their, own, experts, there, was, also, a, talk, on, the, new, scrapie, scheme, where, the, guy, speaking, knew, less, than, his, audience, why, i, have, to, go, back, to, the, speaker, at, the, vcf, w, e, who, said, that, when, he, came, out, of, medical, school, he, had, spent, 6, years, being, taught, to, be, rational, and, scientific, where, disease, was, discussed, logically, and, a, rational, conclusion, was, sought, he, came, with, the, same, idea, to, the, national, health, service, and, struggled, he, said, we, live, in, a, fallen, world, with, fallen, institutions, and, we, have, to, accept, that, at, times, they, do, not, make, sense, and, that, it, is, not, in, our, power, or, capabilities, to, change, them, where, we, can, we, change, them, where, we, cannot, we, work, within, them, thursday, 13th, day, off, prior, to, working, w, e, went, up, high, pike, with, friend, snowed, lightly, on, tops, but, beautiful, but, a, wee, bit, chilly, spent, the, afternoon, getting, the, stuff, sorted, for, vcf, magazine, and, answering, e, mails, and, putting, the, details, from, the, w, e, in, to, some, sort, of, order, i, was, trying, also, to, put, some, responses, down, for, yesterday, but, feeling, to, angry, to, risk, putting, it, down, on, paper, i, just, hope, the, govt, is, more, in, touch, with, the, armed, forces, on, the, frontline, in, kuwait, than, the, distant, arm, of, govt, in, state, vet, service, in, cumbria, friday, 14th, another, day, another, test, another, dollar, spent, morning, supervising, the, locum, and, trying, to, get, on, top, of, my, in, tray, the, stuff, for, partners, meeting, next, week, to, try, and, get, some, decisions, and, a, w, e, on, call, looms, when, i, feel, even, though, i, have, not, been, in, work, or, worked, too, many, w, e’s, tired, and, jaded, being, beaten, up, by, the, cow, probably, doesn’t, help, saturday, 15th, march, working, the, w, e, on, first, for, the, first, time, in, a, long, time, as, i, have, been, keeping, the, amount, i, am, working, back, i, am, was, way, ahead, in, the, amount, worked, so, it, brings, the, numbers, in, line, i, also, need, a, break, as, feeling, v, tired, and, fed, up, and, with, not, much, prospect, of, rejuvenation, the, morning, was, fairly, busy, but, we, all, finished, by, 12, so, not, that, bad, it, was, funny, as, julie, who, ahs, been, a, receptionist, since, pre, fmd, said, that, she, thought, it, was, really, busy, but, compared, to, the, good, old, days, of, 8, years, ago, you, thought, it, was, a, good, sat, am, if, you, finished, by, 2, so, it, is, surprising, how, things, change, and, you, get, use, to, them, the, weather, is, beautiful, with, clear, skies, and, frosty, spring, mornings, and, dry, the, good, weather, always, makes, you, feel, better, any, way, spent, afternoon, doing, bits, and, pieces, in, garden, and, jobbing, around, sunday, 16th, busy, in, morning, but, it, shows, how, useful, the, new, building, is, ok, i, know, its, 4, years, old, but, things, have, never, been, normal, and, i, still, see, it, as, new, there, were, 2, lambings, and, a, sheep, to, see, and, drugs, to, put, out, and, because, i, was, at, the, surgery, they, just, kept, on, coming, down, to, the, surgery, to, the, large, animal, bay, so, i, did, a, lot, of, work, with, no, driving, and, it, makes, such, a, difference, what, would, have, taken, 3, 4, hours, was, finished, in, an, hour, and, a, half, missed, church, and, did, the, same, at, night, with, more, lambings, the, sheep, are, back, the, afternoon, was, spent, sorting, out, after, boys, they, went, down, to, the, pond, and, because, it, is, all, churned, up, they, got, their, wellies, stuck, in, the, mud, so, they, were, cold, and, wet, and, covered, i, had, to, use, planks, to, walk, out, to, them, so, i, did, not, sink, in, i, made, the, mistake, of, fetching, the, planks, and, the, spades, back, before, sorting, the, boys, so, they, had, trailed, mud, all, around, the, house, grrrrr, but, i, should, have, taken, photos, in, the, midst, of, this, the, new, vet, student, rachael, turned, up, so, i, could, not, give, full, vent, to, my, annoyance, mon, 17th, chaos, at, work, with, loads, of, emergencies, and, testing, so, we, were, all, glad, of, students, and, d, working, more, i, r’s, found, tb, testing, so, it, looks, like, it, will, continue, still, haven’t, found, time, to, put, pen, to, paper, or, type, writer, to, send, a, letter, to, contingency, planning, group, at, defra, but, hopefully, will, get, on, top, of, it, soon, tues, 18th, some, days, i, should, have, stayed, in, bed, a, bad, hair, day, started, off, badly, with, arriving, at, fertility, visit, as, farmer, was, emerging, from, breakfast, having, been, late, as, his, wife, was, milk, recording, and, he, had, to, calve, a, cow, so, had, to, sort, cows, before, checking, to, see, in, calf, a, very, rotten, lambing, rotten, as, in, lambs, were, disintegrating, so, stank, and, then, more, calls, left, for, lunch, at, 12, 45, to, get, half, way, and, the, called, me, back, for, another, lambing, there, were, 1, 30, calls, to, do, and, then, surgery, worked, at, night, and, i, was, fed, up, of, being, on, call, stopping, me, doing, stuff, so, went, to, gym, and, was, bleeped, out, to, speak, to, folk, 4, times, by, now, really, wound, up, so, went, to, house, group, and, sat, down, chatted, and, phone, went, sorted, that, and, then, a, cow, caesarean, this, was, followed, by, 2, more, and, 3, hours, sleep, must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, weds, 19th, feeling, my, age, no, sleep, on, the, night, before, you, 40th, birthday, does, not, do, you, any, good, missed, seeing, kids, in, morning, as, i, was, out, at, caesar, 3, during, night, on, call, the, girls, at, work, had, got, hold, of, loads, of, photos, from, my, wife, so, they, were, all, around, the, practice, well, i, was, a, cute, teenager, worked, through, to, lunch, as, morning, was, busy, and, partners, meeting, then, did, a, 1, 30, and, went, home, for, sleep, opened, presents, with, kids, at, 4, o’clock, and, went, out, to, d’s, for, meal, at, night, was, good, thurs, 20th, really, quiet, as, no, tb, testing, and, lots, of, vets, did, more, lambings, and, caught, up, on, business, side, of, organisation, doing, rota, and, organising, work, reflected, on, partners, meeting, and, tried, to, work, out, whether, i, am, out, of, sync, with, the, rest, of, the, world, and, right, or, out, of, sync, and, wrong, time, will, tell, iraq, war, started, as, predicted, but, seems, to, have, been, an, opportunistic, target, i, e, saddam, himself, rather, than, all, out, assault, weird, but, that, is, politics, i, must, ask, the, history, teachers, about, what, caused, the, failure, of, the, league, of, nations, and, whether, this, is, going, to, be, similar, for, un, fri, 21st, despite, being, on, back, up, went, out, for, a, meal, it, was, the, coffee, morning’s, xmas, bash, that, is, traditionally, now, held, in, new, year, as, there, is, too, much, else, on, during, xmas, period, spent, quite, a, while, talking, to, ms, about, league, of, nations, and, the, un, he, is, fairly, sceptical, about, the, power, and, influence, of, un, which, in, his, view, is, more, often, than, not, used, as, a, fig, leaf, for, us, or, ussr, ambitions, and, is, not, really, the, international, community, he, was, interesting, to, talk, to, about, the, history, of, iraq, played, pictionary, boys, vs, girls, which, was, fun, saturday, 22nd, march, 2003, worked, am, which, was, very, busy, as, it, was, my, 10th, day, i, was, feeling, a, bit, drained, either, that, or, cos, of, out, for, meal, last, night, i, will, let, you, decide, the, beautiful, weather, is, continuing, and, we, went, for, a, lovely, walk, up, above, fellside, the, kids, loved, playing, in, the, streams, and, the, sunshine, which, for, march, is, amazing, came, back, to, find, that, there, was, a, house, full, of, folk, to, celebrate, my, 40th, birthday, which, was, really, nice, though, it, was, a, good, thing, that, the, weather, was, good, so, the, kids, could, play, out, side, as, there, were, lots, of, them, chatted, to, p, who, is, always, full, of, energy, and, enthusiasm, he, is, a, whirlwind, of, ideas, and, concepts, and, philosophy, one, of, the, few, people, who, i, can, sit, and, listen, to, for, hours, and, hours, he, is, intelligent, and, articulate, in, 7, languages, and, yet, always, ready, to, listen, to, anyone, and, hear, what, they, have, to, say, even, if, it, is, poorly, thought, out, and, very, practical, in, his, approach, and, very, un, materialistic, he, is, quite, happy, to, give, books, and, ideas, to, anyone, who, will, read, and, learn, from, them, sunday, 23rd, this, weather, is, amazing, i, still, cannot, get, over, it, with, the, sun, blazing, down, we, went, to, watch, son, play, football, against, silloth, they, won, 2, 0, but, it, was, a, tight, match, but, very, good, to, watch, much, better, than, carlisle, as, one, spectators, put, it, went, on, to, beckfoot, for, a, picnic, in, march, the, beach, was, deserted, and, yet, it, was, warm, enough, for, t, shirts, and, shorts, for, the, boys, i, lay, in, the, sun, and, slept, and, counted, my, many, blessings, came, home, and, planted, seeds, lettuce, courgette, and, sweet, pea, must, plant, leeks, and, pumpkins, if, i, get, a, a, chance, this, week, and, buy, onion, sets, wife, spent, a, while, after, church, talking, to, b, about, low, moor, difficult, mon, 24th, sent, my, letter, to, richard, drummond, who, was, the, rvo, at, harrogate, and, is, now, head, of, service, delivery, it, is, always, a, bit, of, a, conscious, effort, to, take, up, the, cudgels, against, bureaucracy, especially, one, like, the, svs, that, has, in, its, culture, a, tendency, to, attack, those, who, criticise, it, i, hope, that, tomorrow, will, be, quiet, as, i, wish, to, write, another, letter, to, the, contingency, planning, dept, i, also, want, to, look, at, the, updated, contingency, plans, and, make, comments, on, it, but, doing, all, this, does, not, pay, the, bills, and, at, the, moment, when, work, is, so, busy, i, feel, it, is, actually, more, important, to, spend, time, with, the, kids, so, i, will, sign, off, and, go, and, watch, the, great, escape, which, they, bought, me, for, my, birthday, copy, of, letter, to, richard, drummond, who, wrote, the, drummond, report, before, fmd, saying, that, if, there, was, an, outbreak, they, would, not, be, able, to, cope, 21st, march, 2003, mr, r, d, drummond, address, removed, dear, richard, i, am, writing, to, express, my, concern, with, the, current, situation, with, tb, we, last, met, at, the, lvi, meeting, in, cumbria, where, we, had, an, excellent, talk, on, foot, and, mouth, disease, and, about, how, there, was, an, increased, risk, becoming, apparent, this, was, in, feb, 2000, at, the, meeting, this, year, as, well, as, talks, on, contingency, planning, there, was, a, lot, of, discussion, on, the, emergence, of, tb, on, cumbrian, farms, there, were, also, complaints, that, forward, tracings, were, not, being, done, on, some, cattle, to, which, the, vet, officer, giving, the, talk, said, it, was, quite, difficult, and, time, consuming, to, work, out, where, cattle, had, gone, this, was, met, with, some, incredulity, by, the, local, vets, as, the, paperwork, and, computerised, passport, scheme, involved, in, moving, cattle, is, a, huge, burden, on, farmers, trace, ability, was, one, of, the, big, issues, to, do, with, bse, and, if, it, cannot, be, done, it, means, the, whole, paper, exercise, is, a, useless, sham, the, answer, was, given, that, you, can, trace, a, specific, animal, through, markets, and, holdings, but, not, animals, on, and, off, a, holding, so, tracings, are, taking, too, much, time, so, tracings, are, not, getting, done, in, some, divisions, so, tb, is, spreading, whether, this, comes, under, your, remit, as, head, of, service, delivery, i, do, not, know, but, i, would, be, grateful, if, you, could, forward, it, to, the, relevant, department, or, to, the, minister, so, that, a, single, enquiry, to, the, cattle, movements, service, at, workington, will, ensure, a, comprehensive, list, of, movements, on, and, off, a, holding, since, the, previous, test, if, we, cannot, trace, from, herds, with, tuberculosis, reactors, the, ability, to, track, fmd, is, obviously, a, non, starter, thank, you, in, advance, for, your, help, with, this, i, hope, in, 3, years, time, we, will, not, be, contemplating, what, we, should, have, learnt, from, an, lvi, meeting, in, hadrian, house, yours, sincerely, b.v.m, s, m.r.c.v.s, tues, 25th, wife, s, cousin, from, vancouver, arrived, and, it, was, really, nice, to, see, her, again, the, canadians, are, always, so, up, beat, and, down, to, earth, they, have, a, refreshingly, positive, can, do, mentality, she, and, her, daughter, have, been, with, a, school, choir, singing, in, parts, of, europe, and, doing, the, european, tour, they, are, whistle, stopping, the, lakes, tomorrow, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, them, young, vet, who, lost, brother, was, with, them, my, favourite, mother, in, law, she, brought, me, a, set, of, kitchen, knives, for, my, birthday, present, they, are, incredibly, sharp, so, i, don’t, think, that, letting, the, kids, loose, with, them, will, be, a, good, idea, but, at, least, we, can, pitch, some, of, the, old, ones, which, needed, sharpening, every, time, you, used, them, vet, arrived, back, from, skiing, very, sun, burnt, from, the, sunshine, and, wind, she, has, had, a, really, good, time, though, weds, 26th, a, and, left, as, i, arrived, in, to, go, to, yp’s, it, was, funny, to, see, them, very, much, the, young, ladies, going, out, they, live, at, opposite, ends, of, the, world, and, yet, the, fashion, is, the, same, little, hand, bags, and, scarves, as, belts, globalisation, is, not, just, effecting, agriculture, they, had, spent, time, in, keswick, and, around, the, lakes, today, making, use, of, the, gorgeous, summer, weather, in, march, it, really, is, warm, hope, we, are, in, for, a, scorcher, of, a, summer, holidays, thursday, 27th, spent, the, quietist, night, on, call, for, a, long, long, time, nothing, why, is, it, as, soon, as, you, employ, a, locum, as, an, extra, pair, of, hands, the, work, disappears, still, it, will, given, everyone, a, chance, to, have, a, breather, said, good, bye, to, the, canadians, and, mother, in, law, we, are, heading, over, to, ireland, to, see, the, irish, side, of, the, family, at, easter, so, we, will, see, vet, friend, again, soon, but, it, was, funny, saying, goodbye, all, the, same, don’t, know, why, was, doing, a, herd, health, plan, today, for, a, farm, that, has, 50, dairy, cows, he, said, he, did, not, really, know, why, he, is, doing, it, as, he, is, going, to, give, up, and, go, and, milk, for, some, one, else, as, it, is, not, viable, to, make, it, pay, on, that, sort, of, small, scale, friday, 28th, haven’t, got, the, workload, right, at, all, i, think, the, sunshine, has, sent, the, farmers, into, the, fields, to, work, and, the, lambs, and, calves, are, all, arriving, un, aided, in, to, the, sunshine, it, is, amazing, how, the, good, weather, makes, you, feel, so, much, better, so, i, have, booked, in, extra, testing, for, next, week, the, only, slightly, sad, thing, was, talking, to, one, of, the, farmers, who, had, just, started, lambing, i, was, taking, out, rotten, lambs, that, were, aborting, 2, weeks, earlier, it, is, his, first, season, actually, lambing, as, he, only, bought, in, fat, sheep, last, year, he, said, that, it, was, at, this, stage, 2, years, ago, that, they, came, and, took, all, his, sheep, he, should, not, have, let, them, do, it, it, was, wrong, and, he, had, not, put, up, a, fight, he, had, just, gone, along, with, it, he, was, fairly, melancholic, about, it, i, tried, to, point, out, that, every, one, had, done, it, and, it, had, seemed, to, be, best, thing, to, do, at, the, time, i, did, not, think, that, pointing, out, i, had, not, been, convinced, and, argued, against, it, and, that, only, 2, out, of, 10,000, blood, samples, of, live, sheep, slaughtered, had, been, exposed, to, the, virus, would, have, helped, they, were, my, granddads, flock, he, said, now, we, have, all, these, problems, he, says, looking, at, the, dead, lambs, i, have, just, pulled, out, lying, in, a, heap, in, the, corner, of, the, trailer, you, never, forget, something, like, that, lad, he, says, never, there, are, a, lot, of, anniversaries, to, go, through, and, all, the, farmers, are, saying, the, fun, has, gone, out, of, it, saturday, 29th, march, the, beautiful, weather, is, carrying, on, and, wife, and, i, had, a, child, free, vet, student, free, afternoon, the, sun, was, out, and, we, went, down, for, a, walk, along, this, side, of, bassenthwaite, lake, there, were, lots, of, daffodils, out, and, a, light, breeze, off, the, lake, it, was, beautiful, cool, sunny, day, for, walking, and, very, pleasant, we, really, enjoyed, it, son, and, a, are, on, the, young, peoples, church, w, e, at, edinburgh, and, will, arrive, back, exhausted, from, lack, of, sleep, the, js, had, the, boys, for, the, afternoon, so, it, was, good, met, up, with, friends, in, the, evening, and, spent, the, evening, putting, agriculture, to, rights, he, sells, manages, sales, of, fertiliser, for, norsk, hydro, sunday, mothering, sunday, was, a, bit, of, a, disaster, with, out, a, to, organise, the, boys, and, i, hadn’t, had, time, to, get, them, organised, church, was, r, j, on, the, beatitudes, then, met, up, with, cs, and, went, up, bow, scale, fell, son’s, friend, and, son, complained, the, whole, way, they, were, in, really, bad, form, and, i, was, fed, up, with, them, monday, the, work, has, dried, up, completely, which, for, this, time, of, year, is, unheard, of, we, have, employed, a, locum, to, try, and, get, the, testing, done, and, no, work, for, every, one, to, do, embarrassingly, got, it, wrong, usually, at, this, time, of, year, there, is, no, testing, and, the, vets, are, running, around, like, idiots, not, very, good, news, for, us, so, wrote, letters, to, the, head, of, contingency, planning, at, page, st, to, amuse, you, i, have, copied, it, here, name, defra, rm, 803a, 1a, page, st, london, sw1p, 4pq, dear, name, i, am, writing, to, thank, you, for, travelling, north, to, carlisle, to, come, to, speak, to, the, recent, lvi, meeting, at, hadrian, house, carlisle, i, have, also, been, reading, the, defra, contingency, plan, and, a, lot, of, lessons, do, seem, to, have, been, learnt, i, appreciate, this, years, deadline, has, been, passed, to, place, it, before, parliament, but, it, is, a, living, document, my, apologies, but, better, late, than, never, i, would, like, to, make, a, few, comments, as, one, of, the, early, tvi, volunteers, at, carlisle, and, as, a, partner, of, one, of, the, practices, at, the, eye, of, the, storm, 1, the, whole, issue, of, valuation, of, animals, taken, as, a, compulsory, purchase, by, the, state, for, the, benefit, of, the, farming, community, to, eradicate, disease, has, not, been, addressed, one, of, the, initial, problems, slowing, the, slaughter, of, infected, animals, was, the, valuation, my, own, view, then, and, now, is, that, a, simple, standard, valuation, must, be, applied, it, must, be, high, enough, to, be, an, incentive, to, reporting, of, disease, but, too, low, to, make, the, possibility, of, disease, seem, financially, attractive, the, price, for, compulsory, purchase, may, be, set, higher, for, dangerous, contacts, or, less, for, affected, animals, if, there, is, a, simple, standard, value, then, the, diagnosing, vet, counts, the, number, of, bovines, and, shoots, them, the, farmer, knows, in, advance, what, compensation, is, going, to, be, paid, and, individual, animals, of, high, merit, could, be, insured, for, whatever, sum, the, farmer, is, willing, to, pay, premiums, for, this, may, be, an, unpopular, nettle, but, it, needs, to, be, grasped, even, though, i, am, sure, my, clients, would, disapprove, of, it, the, current, tuberculosis, problems, are, again, high, lighting, the, problems, in, this, area, there, should, be, a, standard, procedure, and, valuation, for, all, notifiable, diseases, and, the, values, based, on, the, last, mid, market, rate, there, are, apocryphal, stories, that, the, valuers, are, still, running, the, system, for, their, clients, the, farmers, not, defra, 2, the, second, issue, that, has, not, been, addressed, is, the, tracings, system, with, the, advent, of, the, british, cattle, movement, services, i, was, under, the, impression, that, traceability, was, a, central, part, of, government, policy, it, was, with, some, incredulity, that, in, response, to, questioning, at, the, lvi, meeting, we, were, told, that, bcms, cannot, give, a, list, of, movements, on, or, off, a, holding, so, tracings, for, tb, are, still, being, done, by, a, defra, vet, trawling, through, a, farmers, movement, book, why, if, the, political, will, was, there, at, the, touch, of, a, bottom, the, data, base, should, be, able, to, generate, a, list, of, animals, moved, in, the, past, 6, months, which, markets, they, have, been, through, and, which, holdings, they, have, been, through, if, this, cannot, be, done, for, tb, you, can, forget, trying, to, do, it, for, fmd, or, other, fast, contagious, disease, there, is, still, a, confusion, over, the, database, which, should, be, based, on, holding, numbers, several, farmers, have, multiple, holding, numbers, several, have, a, single, holding, number, and, multiple, sites, high, genetic, merit, animals, may, have, several, owners, a, single, holding, may, have, stock, from, several, different, farms, the, rules, for, cph, numbers, need, to, be, re, evaluated, centrally, if, a, data, base, is, to, be, of, use, it, must, be, actively, managed, and, updated, that, can, only, be, done, at, a, local, level, 3, disposal, i, know, that, this, has, been, looked, at, but, farm, sizes, are, continuing, to, grow, at, an, ever, more, rapid, rate, the, average, size, of, dairy, farms, in, this, area, has, grown, by, 20, cows, since, fmd, this, means, there, will, be, a, bigger, disposal, problem, as, individual, farms, will, have, more, and, more, stock, 4, the, local, office, should, have, stores, to, equip, 20, tvis, at, 24hours, notice, we, touched, on, this, point, at, the, meeting, was, the, need, for, sudden, recruitment, of, tvi, or, other, veterinary, staff, while, the, svs, can, second, small, numbers, of, vets, for, short, term, availability, there, was, a, reluctance, by, some, dvms, to, second, staff, who, may, yet, be, required, in, their, own, areas, local, lvis, can, provide, veterinary, cover, but, the, whole, structure, of, large, animal, practice, is, in, flux, and, it, may, or, may, not, be, possible, to, provide, veterinary, inspections, on, an, allocated, on, a, temporary, or, part, time, basis, the, pay, and, conditions, for, such, assistance, need, addressed, and, agreed, the, other, part, of, this, is, orientation, training, at, the, local, levels, this, by, the, end, of, the, outbreak, at, carlisle, was, quite, impressive, however, has, that, information, been, put, together, centrally, should, there, be, a, central, trainer, who, trains, designated, trainers, for, each, svs, office, decc, similarly, with, lay, blood, samplers, vaccinators, again, local, practices, could, provide, nominated, nurses, lay, staff, for, training, during, the, out, break, here, ai, personnel, were, used, very, effectively, for, blood, sampling, and, other, procedures, is, this, again, something, for, the, local, plan, but, if, the, cost, for, training, ai, staff, in, blood, sampling, was, met, centrally, it, would, encourage, a, register, of, trained, personnel, to, be, maintained, locally, the, cumbria, county, council, inquiry, recommends, the, use, of, its, emergency, centre, as, a, hub, for, multi, agency, response, to, any, disease, out, break, should, there, be, some, joined, up, government, so, that, each, county, council, as, part, of, its, contingency, plan, provides, for, an, admin, back, up, for, any, emergency, civil, disaster, terrorist, incident, and, do, the, local, plans, make, use, of, this, my, main, concern, however, is, that, when, i, asked, at, that, meeting, had, the, two, way, communications, between, page, st, and, carlisle, been, sorted, out, it, was, met, by, nervous, laughter, i, would, like, to, emphasise, that, page, st, did, not, know, what, was, going, on, in, the, field, during, fmd, outbreak, there, was, a, communication, barrier, between, the, vets, in, the, field, and, carlisle, management, and, a, huge, gulf, between, carlisle, and, page, street, i, would, plead, that, this, is, addressed, as, the, culture, identified, by, iain, anderson, still, seems, to, prevail, i, quote, a, culture, predisposed, to, decision, making, by, committee, with, an, associated, fear, of, personal, risk, taking, such, a, climate, does, not, encourage, creative, initiative, it, inhibits, adaptive, behaviour, and, organisational, learning, which, over, time, lowers, the, quality, of, the, decisions, taken, it, seems, to, me, that, a, reappraisal, of, prevailing, attitudes, and, behaviours, within, the, department, would, be, beneficial, it, may, be, outside, your, remit, but, the, northumberland, report, with, its, flow, charts, and, recommendations, actually, lists, lessons, to, be, learned, in, dec, 1969, the, one, about, the, svs, who, fared, so, poorly, in, fmd, 2001, states, we, have, considered, the, recruitment, problem, of, the, state, veterinary, service, the, reasons, maybe, the, low, initial, salary, or, in, part, the, to, the, nature, of, the, duties, within, the, service, we, consider, it, important, for, future, development, that, the, ministry, of, agriculture, should, attract, a, greater, number, of, good, young, graduates, willing, to, make, a, career, in, the, service, at, the, end, of, any, plan, are, the, people, who, are, going, to, implement, it, they, need, well, managed, well, led, and, given, the, resources, to, carry, out, the, task, they, need, to, have, confidence, in, both, the, political, and, civil, service, leadership, there, will, need, to, be, a, risk, management, of, tasks, for, financial, reasons, resource, reasons, and, for, the, wider, rural, economy, this, requires, flexible, decision, makers, who, are, prepared, to, take, risks, and, stick, their, head, above, the, collective, parapet, i, hope, that, this, provides, a, few, more, thoughts, for, you, to, work, on, yours, sincerely, refs, fmd, 2001, lessons, learned, enquiry, forward, by, chairman, iain, anderson, p7, northumberland, report, presented, to, parliament, dec, 69, part, 2, section, 47, she, spoke, at, the, last, lvi, meeting, and, as, usual, the, plans, sound, good, but, where, reality, hits, is, in, the, delivery, tuesday, did, some, small, animal, work, and, more, testing, tues, evening, always, seems, a, rush, went, to, gym, and, then, on, to, n’s, for, the, new, frontiers, church, meeting, which, was, excellent, weds, managed, some, fertility, work, in, the, morning, and, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, bringing, the, practice, database, up, to, date, it, has, been, let, go, since, foot, and, mouth, as, it, tell, us, how, much, stock, each, farm, has, the, numbers, have, been, all, over, the, place, as, people, have, been, restocking, and, changing, the, direction, their, businesses, are, going, some, moving, out, some, moving, up, in, numbers, and, some, going, from, dairy, to, beef, or, sheep, the, most, interesting, thing, was, the, fact, that, a, lot, of, farms, that, had, restocked, with, adult, animals, have, dropped, by, 5, 10, cows, since, they, restocked, as, older, cows, are, lost, or, ill, cows, go, but, there, are, not, the, young, stock, replacements, coming, through, to, replace, them, the, actual, figures, for, dairy, farms, restocking, are, not, yet, entered, in, the, computer, i, was, hoping, to, have, them, but, will, get, them, thursday, did, some, small, animals, and, some, otm22, but, it, still, incredibly, quiet, consequently, i, have, booked, in, a, lot, more, work, for, the, next, few, weeks, so, i, hope, i, don’t, get, it, wrong, the, other, way, set, up, anne, a, vet, student, for, her, project, on, comparing, fertility, pre, and, post, fmd, finished, off, updating, the, database, figures, so, they, will, hopefully, get, entered, over, next, few, days, and, we, can, do, some, comparisons, march, figures, look, ok, but, the, long, term, out, look, is, not, so, good, the, govt, is, doing, a, committee, looking, at, farm, animal, vet, practice, the, lakeland, bva, have, asked, for, comments, efracom, inquiry, into, vets, and, veterinary, services, efracom, is, a, defra, committee, terms, of, reference, are, to, look, at, the, provision, of, farm, veterinary, services, in, england, and, wales, in, particular, it, will, look, at, 1, what, impact, current, levels, of, farm, income, are, having, on, the, usage, of, veterinary, services, and, in, turn, what, effect, any, reduction, in, the, usage, of, such, services, is, having, on, the, number, of, practices, dealing, with, large, animals, 2, what, effect, any, reduction, in, the, usage, of, veterinary, services, and, a, shortage, of, large, animal, vets, is, having, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, the, effectiveness, of, surveillance, for, animal, diseases, 3, whether, the, requirements, placed, on, farmers, by, government, including, those, in, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, are, realisable, in, such, circumstances, and, 4, what, is, the, impact, on, the, work, of, the, state, veterinary, service, comments, by, 12, april, please, the, day, ended, with, the, reading, of, a, tb, test, on, a, farm, that, was, hoping, to, become, clear, after, going, down, when, it, first, restocked, 18months, ago, 1, reactor, and, 1, i, r, on, normal, interpretation, they, will, probably, take, both, on, severe, interpretation, the, government, always, looks, as, though, problems, are, dealt, with, in, isolation, the, defra, vet, who, looks, after, our, practice, is, not, dealing, with, this, case, as, his, daughter, is, married, to, her, brother, the, farming, community, is, very, incestuous, friday, work, desperately, quiet, so, i, organised, more, testing, to, do, i, hope, i, haven’t, over, booked, the, work, defra, vets, at, carlisle, are, still, learning, the, ropes, when, it, come, s, to, tb, as, it, has, been, so, rare, in, this, part, of, the, world, so, a, few, of, the, allocations, have, been, wrong, so, i, am, having, to, go, back, and, do, extra, animals, so, that, set, can, be, signed, off, the, school, held, a, curry, evening, tonight, which, for, a, cumbrian, village, school, is, very, cosmopolitan, there, is, an, extended, family, of, three, pakistani, families, and, they, cooked, though, for, the, children, there, was, also, a, bangers, and, chips, option, it, was, quite, a, nice, time, though, wife, was, on, her, next, level, counselling, course, so, i, ended, up, just, with, kids, but, it, was, good, to, spend, time, with, them, i, have, enjoyed, not, working, many, w, e’s, recently, it, kind, of, gives, you, your, life, back, that, and, not, doing, much, at, work, saturday, 5th, april, 2003, wife, was, at, her, level, 2, course, counselling, so, i, had, the, kids, for, the, w, e, took, son, to, squash, went, into, town, for, some, bits, and, pieces, and, then, i, chatted, to, i, while, we, waited, for, t, and, son, to, finish, then, took, all, the, kids, into, town, we, are, having, a, mothers, day, tomorrow, to, make, up, for, the, fact, l, a, were, away, for, the, w, e, last, week, the, kids, have, bought, presents, and, made, cards, which, was, nice, the, cs, and, friend, came, for, lunch, and, then, spent, a, very, muddy, afternoon, by, the, pond, playing, and, building, dens, and, generally, making, a, mess, and, having, fun, son, even, decided, showers, were, in, order, when, he, came, back, that, shows, you, how, dirty, they, were, as, he, is, mr, allergic, to, water, i, made, a, fondue, for, tea, with, apple, juice, as, the, kids, don’t, like, the, kick, of, the, wine, it, was, a, great, success, and, did, taste, rather, good, even, if, i, do, say, so, myself, sunday, i, went, to, church, on, my, own, as, wife, was, heading, out, again, after, an, early, lunch, the, talk, was, on, god’s, leading, which, is, always, relevant, the, kids, were, great, fun, on, the, way, back, and, full, of, craic, they, had, a, return, trip, to, the, cs, as, they, were, too, late, to, find, a, sky, tv, for, the, match, carlisle, lost, as, usual, but, it, is, not, every, week, they, lose, at, the, millennium, stadium, i, picked, the, kids, up, from, the, cs, and, put, all, their, bikes, on, the, back, of, the, car, went, to, say, good, bye, to, cs, in, the, meantime, three, of, their, boys, were, hiding, in, the, boot, of, the, car, so, they, let, me, drive, out, with, them, before, the, giggles, and, laughter, gave, the, game, away, so, it, caused, much, merriment, all, round, met, up, with, the, lads, sunday, night, felt, really, sorry, for, one, guy, who, is, having, real, problems, getting, access, to, his, 7, year, old, as, his, ex, wife, is, putting, a, lot, of, ve, input, into, the, wee, one, he, can, go, down, the, legal, route, but, will, be, expensive, and, probably, counter, productive, as, she, is, not, wanting, to, negotiate, or, look, at, what, is, best, for, the, wee, girl, it, seems, a, real, mess, monday, in, spite, of, 4, tests, the, work, is, not, there, i, spent, the, day, testing, though, it, is, really, quite, amusing, as, i, know, the, guy’s, sister, quite, well, and, i, always, make, sure, i, tell, her, how, much, the, good, lunch, is, appreciated, so, there, builds, up, a, rivalry, between, them, as, to, who, can, provide, the, vet, with, the, best, food, i, am, afraid, i, consciously, flame, the, rivalry, in, spite, of, it, not, doing, my, waistline, any, good, trying, to, concentrate, after, a, three, course, lunch, on, a, boring, job, is, not, easy, you, just, have, to, think, about, coffee, time, and, more, cakes, and, tray, bakes, all, of, them, distinctly, unhealthy, with, the, aim, of, feeding, out, door, manual, labour, tuesday, had, a, bad, night, as, my, hand, was, caught, in, the, crush, yesterday, by, a, stirk, throwing, its, head, and, it, bent, the, finger, back, it, seemed, ok, but, is, now, throbbing, like, mad, plenty, of, aspirin, and, corticosteroids, did, some, ferty, and, then, saw, another, lda, the, cows, seem, to, be, having, a, real, problem, with, the, feed, this, spring, as, we, have, seen, 3, 4, times, the, normal, number, went, running, with, a, as, my, finger, meant, i, could, not, go, to, gym, to, work, machines, weds, the, speed, cameras, have, arrived, on, the, top, road, and, unfortunately, i, was, going, too, fast, by, the, time, i, saw, it, so, i, will, probably, have, another, 3, points, on, my, licence, they, have, been, building, pads, on, the, side, of, the, road, all, along, the, a595, as, it, has, a, really, bad, record, for, car, accidents, the, numbers, killed, continues, to, go, up, the, speed, cameras, are, in, a, van, which, can, move, around, and, hence, trap, the, speeders, it, is, called, casualty, reduction, unit, a, bit, of, a, pointed, message, even, if, you, did, slow, down, for, them, work, is, slow, again, today, with, no, tb, testing, on, mid, week, days, it, is, my, brother’s, birthday, in, nz, and, he, sent, a, letter, to, say, he, is, going, to, be, a, dad, again, so, the, trip, to, come, across, at, xmas, is, off, he, is, wanting, us, to, all, go, there, hm, maybe, thursday, i, has, had, 2, reactors, and, 4, i, rs, today, so, the, future, is, not, looking, good, for, him, as, it, looks, like, there, will, be, tb, there, he, has, had, real, problems, since, the, herd, restocked, with, lung, worm, energy, problems, in, the, silage, and, atrocious, fertility, he, is, going, to, have, to, go, and, buy, another, 30, odd, replacements, at, 800, to, replace, those, that, he, has, lost, through, ill, health, and, fertility, makes, the, compensation, payments, seem, pretty, small, that’s, 24k, he, has, lost, out, on, already, and, his, own, heifers, are, only, coming, up, to, be, served, work, is, busy, and, i, wonder, if, the, spring, rush, is, coming, i, was, supposed, to, be, at, the, school, parents, evening, but, got, called, out, which, was, pretty, irritating, i, hate, the, fact, that, you, are, just, so, unreliable, when, you, are, on, call, friday, another, tb, testing, day, so, busy, all, together, not, a, good, day, the, competition, report, is, out, and, is, fairly, damning, as, expected, so, the, pressure, on, drug, margins, is, going, to, continue, and, the, old, fashioned, way, of, providing, a, complete, service, will, be, going, out, the, window, we, will, have, to, charge, for, the, out, of, hours, and, on, call, the, telephone, advice, and, try, to, make, it, pay, but, the, whole, economics, of, going, out, to, see, a, single, ill, animal, will, be, gone, the, clinical, skills, of, veterinarians, will, be, gone, all, academic, as, the, cost, for, diagnosing, a, single, animal, in, the, new, era, will, be, too, much, so, the, diagnosis, will, all, be, done, by, post, mortem, of, herd, problems, but, if, you, have, large, herds, the, man, power, will, not, be, there, to, look, after, the, individual, ill, animal, sad, depressing, day, but, i, am, off, for, the, w, e, saturday, 12th, april, 2003, woke, up, early, and, got, up, even, though, it, is, my, day, for, a, lie, in, i, think, i, am, particularly, wound, up, it, all, ways, takes, me, at, least, one, day, to, wind, down, from, work, so, i, am, tired, and, yet, not, feeling, able, to, rest, took, son, to, football, and, other, son, to, buy, anew, bike, he, was, so, excited, it, is, his, birthday, coming, up, and, he, has, out, grown, his, old, one, so, it, will, be, good, for, him, the, kids, spend, ages, flying, around, the, yard, on, bikes, and, up, and, down, the, field, when, the, grass, is, short, they, have, a, real, ball, here, it, is, a, great, place, to, grow, up, as, they, have, so, much, freedom, to, play, and, play, and, play, my, finger, that, was, caught, tb, testing, started, throbbing, again, this, afternoon, so, as, it, had, improved, and, then, got, worse, i, decided, i, had, to, get, it, x, rayed, so, i, spent, the, afternoon, in, casualty, waiting, to, get, x, rayed, and, then, waiting, for, another, hour, before, being, told, it, was, not, broken, a, five, minute, consultation, that, took, me, almost, 2, hours, friends, were, up, for, the, w, e, more, friends, are, at, capernwray, bible, college, for, an, easter, youth, thing, so, they, came, on, up, so, it, was, good, to, catch, up, sunday, cooked, lunch, for, everyone, and, then, went, to, communion, it, was, dire, and, reminded, me, why, i, don’t, usually, bother, spent, the, afternoon, putting, onions, in, and, tidying, in, the, garden, it, is, incredibly, dry, and, warm, amazing, really, the, 6, kids, spent, the, whole, afternoon, messing, around, at, the, pond, and, were, disgusting, with, mud, everywhere, and, trailed, all, up, the, yard, and, wellies, abandoned, everywhere, church, was, dm, speaking, and, then, the, yps, came, back, to, ours, afterwards, mind, you, i, think, i, had, had, enough, kids, for, the, time, being, but, i, was, ok, monday, bad, haircut, day, as, there, is, only, one, day, we, can, test, this, week, i, booked, in, fair, amount, which, would, have, been, tight, but, aw, was, off, ill, so, we, were, too, tight, so, a, few, ops, have, been, put, off, until, tomorrow, d, has, a, s, african, vet, friend, visiting, so, with, him, and, the, vet, student, the, house, is, still, full, i, however, am, knackered, and, not, feeling, sociable, had, a, horrendous, calving, it, is, not, often, i, cannot, calve, a, cow, but, i, am, afraid, after, an, hour, i, gave, up, and, caesared, it, the, calf, was, dead, and, rotten, so, whether, she, will, do, i, don’t, know, i, did, not, want, to, caesarean, but, that, is, life, it, was, either, that, or, the, farmer, pay, 60, to, get, some, one, to, take, it, away, after, i, euthed, it, tuesday, we, are, in, the, period, of, anniversaries, it, is, 2, years, since, the, ls, went, down, i, was, at, a, farm, which, did, not, get, fmd, and, his, uncles, did, he, was, saying, what, a, sad, day, it, was, so, his, uncles, must, be, feeling, it, more, the, beautiful, spring, weather, with, the, grass, growing, in, spite, of, the, frosts, definitely, puts, a, bounce, in, to, your, step, on, days, like, this, i, think, that, it, is, an, excellent, life, wandering, around, the, countryside, and, enjoying, the, scenery, the, farms, the, animals, and, the, farmers, beats, working, in, a, factory, any, way, went, to, the, gym, and, felt, a, lot, better, for, it, exercise, is, a, great, way, of, getting, a, buzz, but, you, have, to, be, not, too, tired, to, a, get, there, and, b, enjoy, it, i, have, gone, often, because, i, feel, i, should, and, just, felt, like, a, steam, roller, had, run, over, me, and, its, taken, a, day, or, two, to, recover, balance, in, all, things, weds, the, commission, report, came, out, today, difficult, to, believe, that, they, will, be, able, to, implement, it, but, having, lived, through, the, fmd, there, were, quite, a, few, things, i, thought, that, they, would, not, be, able, to, implement, but, they, did, we, will, have, to, if, the, minister, decides, and, since, it, is, dti, not, defra, i, think, that, the, implementation, may, be, effective, provide, prescriptions, free, of, charge, provide, our, clients, with, a, list, of, pharmacies, agricultural, suppliers, and, other, vets, and, web, sites, that, will, meet, those, prescriptions, the, cost, of, the, most, commonly, prescribed, medicines, in, the, previous, quarter, the, cross, subsidy, of, professional, fees, by, pharmaceuticals, will, not, be, allowed, and, how, will, the, pharmacist, make, his, money, the, other, comment, which, did, irk, me, some, what, was, that, the, provision, of, 24, hour, cover, does, not, seem, that, onerous, i, do, not, often, swear, but, really, very, depressed, but, daughter, came, on, a, caesaer, with, me, as, i, was, on, call, tonight, it, is, really, nice, working, from, home, and, being, able, to, take, them, with, me, it, is, a, very, healthy, thing, to, do, she, is, growing, up, and, is, very, much, the, young, lady, the, farmers, wife, is, the, dental, receptionist, and, of, course, said, hello, a, she, was, thrown, as, of, course, being, out, of, context, she, could, not, figure, how, the, farmers, wife, knew, who, she, was, thursday, good, friday, it, is, son’s, b’day, today, and, the, day, started, out, great, for, him, i, was, on, duty, and, he, arrived, in, our, bedroom, at, 7am, with, the, other, 2, boys, to, start, on, the, birthday, celebrations, our, family, tradition, is, that, they, have, breakfast, in, bed, in, our, bed, don’t, know, why, but, that, is, what, happens, the, others, all, brought, cards, and, presents, in, the, phone, went, and, it, was, a, lambing, so, tim, decided, he, would, come, and, see, the, lambs, being, born, so, he, was, thrilled, we, opened, the, presents, later, on, which, included, a, new, boiler, suit, which, really, thrilled, him, it, is, amazing, what, kids, think, of, as, their, best, present, i, never, really, like, working, good, friday, i, always, think, one, year, i, will, be, off, and, go, to, one, of, the, contemplative, services, hebron, being, low, church, never, really, does, anything, like, that, which, is, a, real, shame, easter, is, when, i, think, the, cathedrals, old, country, churches, and, the, church, architecture, can, really, be, helpful, in, stopping, and, praying, and, helping, to, consider, what, jesus, did, on, the, cross, finished, work, and, went, up, to, the, friends, they, were, both, home, and, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, played, rounders, and, had, a, barbeque, which, was, really, nice, james, was, in, really, good, form, as, he, was, enjoying, being, back, away, from, london, where, he, has, just, started, work, as, a, high, flying, lawyer, he, is, not, enjoying, london, very, much, he, is, a, hills, and, countryside, lad, his, girlfriend, was, also, there, so, was, quite, a, good, craic, i, didn’t, really, want, to, come, home, but, was, so, knackered, that, it, was, probably, just, as, well, the, kids, were, with, us, and, it, was, not, a, too, late, a, night, saturday, 19th, april, 2004, spent, most, of, the, day, either, catching, up, on, sleep, or, on, the, day, to, day, things, that, seem, to, have, been, put, to, one, side, for, a, while, there, was, also, the, preparations, for, the, service, tomorrow, we, are, taking, the, easter, sunday, morning, service, which, is, one, of, those, night, mare, services, where, everyone, comes, the, age, range, is, from, 0, to, 100, and, everyone, has, different, expectations, i, should, explain, that, the, normal, sunday, services, are, very, different, there, is, the, family, focus, which, is, lively, and, very, informal, aimed, at, those, with, young, children, who, go, to, sunday, school, there, is, then, teaching, for, parents, adults, there, is, always, a, lot, of, noise, children, running, around, babies, crying, and, shakers, and, children’s, songs, the, communion, service, that, follows, is, very, traditional, silence, and, solemnity, rules, all, the, older, generation, go, and, it, is, a, very, different, service, so, we, are, going, to, be, combining, the, two, oil, and, water, a, lot, of, prayer, has, gone, in, to, this, one, sunday, wife, got, up, at, 6, am, to, go, to, the, sunrise, service, at, the, crematorium, she, said, she, needed, some, input, before, the, easter, service, we, are, leading, it, is, a, service, organised, by, st, james, parish, church, but, all, the, carlisle, churches, are, asked, to, take, part, christiana, had, asked, to, go, so, wife, went, with, her, and, it, was, really, good, christ, is, risen, he, is, risen, indeed, the, sermon, was, by, the, archdeacon, from, the, cathedral, who, said, that, being, a, good, anglican, he, wanted, some, liturgy, through, his, sermon, so, every, time, he, said, are, you, dead, the, congregation, had, to, reply, no, alive, in, christ, at, which, point, he, would, sound, a, hooter, the, service, at, hebron, went, very, well, oh, ye, of, little, faith, i, should, pray, more, and, worry, less, i, have, included, our, outline, below, and, i, have, put, in, additional, comments, in, blue, easter, sunday, service, welcome, to, hebron, evangelical, church, this, easter, sunday, morning, when, we, are, celebrating, jesus, is, alive, our, opening, hymn, is, our, declaration, that, jesus, is, alive, he, has, risen, from, the, dead, opening, hymn, we, believe, in, god, the, father, welcome, intro, me, and, welcome, team, this, morning, the, service, is, in, a, different, order, from, usual, we, are, going, to, remember, what, jesus, has, done, for, us, on, the, cross, and, bruce, beattie, one, of, our, elders, is, going, to, help, explain, what, the, bread, and, wine, mean, to, us, as, some, of, the, children, may, not, have, been, here, for, a, communion, service, before, then, after, taking, communion, we, are, going, to, celebrate, jesus, resurrection, with, reading, singing, and, sharing, the, resurrection, is, the, central, part, to, our, faith, who, knows, what, that, long, word, resurrection, means, the, answers, from, the, kids, were, quite, amusing, but, we, got, there, in, the, end, at, the, end, of, the, service, there, will, be, the, offering, an, opportunity, to, give, our, money, as, well, as, ourselves, to, the, living, god, if, during, the, service, the, young, children, get, fed, up, there, is, a, place, at, the, back, where, they, can, do, some, making, things, it, isn’t, easy, to, sit, still, when, you, are, little, or, be, quiet, so, please, don’t, worry, about, the, little, ones, being, a, distraction, i, often, wonder, what, it, was, like, when, jesus, fed, the, 5000plus, crowd, do, you, think, the, children, all, sat, neat, and, quiet, in, rows, i, don’t, think, so, we, are, pleased, to, see, them, and, hear, them, this, is, a, time, of, family, worship, from, the, youngest, to, the, oldest, reading, psalm, 67, i, had, this, up, on, a, power, point, and, we, read, it, together, may, god, be, gracious, to, us, and, bless, us, and, make, his, face, shine, upon, us, that, your, ways, may, be, known, on, earth, your, salvation, among, all, nations, may, the, peoples, praise, you, o, god, may, all, the, peoples, praise, you, may, the, nations, be, glad, and, sing, for, joy, for, you, rule, the, people, justly, and, guide, the, nations, of, the, earth, may, the, peoples, praise, you, o, god, may, all, the, peoples, praise, you, then, the, land, will, yield, its, harvest, and, god, our, god, will, bless, us, god, will, bless, us, and, all, the, ends, of, the, earth, will, fear, him, psalm, 67, prayer, m, as, we, sing, this, next, hymn, it, would, be, good, if, the, children, came, to, sit, at, the, front, so, that, b, can, see, you, all, when, he, talks, to, you, hymn, when, i, survey, the, wondrous, cross, communion, b, b, gave, an, excellent, talk, about, remembering, he, included, a, diary, and, a, kitchen, timer, which, he, set, to, go, of, at, the, carefully, timed, point, in, his, little, bit, he, then, used, smarties, to, go, through, the, easter, story, and, the, different, colours, i, wish, i, had, it, written, down, we, then, had, communion, and, he, had, smarties, for, the, kids, so, that, they, could, remember, about, the, easter, story, while, the, adults, took, communion, and, remembered, christ’s, death, and, resurrection, forgiveness, is, a, wonderful, thing, we, have, just, been, remembering, what, jesus, did, for, us, on, the, cross, he, died, for, us, what, incredible, love, but, thankfully, the, gospel, doesn’t, end, there, son, a, and, cerise, are, going, to, read, on, reading, and, luke, 24, vs, 1, 12, they, did, a, brilliant, dramatic, reading, an, empty, tomb, lets, sing, god’s, not, dead, he, is, alive, sing, it, twice, and, use, the, instruments, at, the, front, to, make, a, joyful, noise, we, want, you, to, have, a, little, taste, of, what, it, was, like, to, be, around, that, day, and, so, let’s, listen, in, to, mary, magdalene, chatting, on, the, phone, to, well, you, listen, and, see, who, she, is, talking, to, wife, did, a, sketch, about, mary, talking, on, the, phone, to, marta, having, met, the, risen, jesus, she, was, very, good, really, gave, the, facts, to, a, contemporary, feel, hymn, led, like, a, lamb, to, the, slaughter, in, the, second, verse, would, children, come, to, help, we, have, verses, to, give, out, to, the, big, people, and, i’d, like, you, to, help, give, them, out, making, sure, all, the, big, people, get, one, for, the, children, who, may, not, be, able, to, read, yet, we, have, some, coloured, stones, to, remind, you, of, a, huge, stone, that, was, rolled, away, when, jesus, rose, from, the, dead, you, can, keep, it, in, your, pocket, or, somewhere, special, to, remind, you, that, jesus, is, alive, and, he, wants, to, be, with, you, where, ever, you, go, a, had, made, up, tiny, scrolls, with, verses, about, the, resurrection, which, the, kids, all, gave, out, it, kept, the, wee, ones, busy, and, also, gave, everyone, a, verse, to, think, about, isn’t, it, wonderful, to, know, that, we, are, singing, he’s, alive, he, has, risen, and, all, over, the, world, the, church, is, singing, the, same, message, in, revelation, we, get, a, little, glimpse, into, what, it, will, be, like, in, heaven, with, a, new, song, being, sung, to, jesus, christ, close, your, eyes, and, listen, to, what, it, says, rev, 5, vs, 9, 11, we, have, the, privilege, in, hebron, of, having, a, few, representatives, of, different, language, people, and, nation, here, this, morning, let, us, listen, to, them, christ, is, risen, in, different, languages, and, prayer, we, then, had, one, family, say, it, in, arabic, another, in, german, there, is, a, philippino, girl, who, said, it, in, her, language, and, some, one, else, in, spanish, it, was, magical, introduce, lord, we, lift, your, name, on, high, sung, at, mizpah, orphanage, with, children, some, of, whom, had, just, heard, the, name, jesus, for, the, first, time, at, christmas, see, picture, we, need, helpers, to, do, the, actions, to, this, song, we, are, thankful, that, jesus, is, alive, and, so, he, speaks, guides, comforts, and, forgives, us, for, all, the, sin, the, mess, we, make, it, is, not, only, the, mary’s, and, the, peters, and, the, thomases, that, have, met, with, the, risen, lord, we, each, have, a, story, to, tell, of, walking, with, the, risen, lord, as, you, listen, to, some, people, here, sharing, a, bit, of, their, story, i, wonder, what, you, would, have, to, share, take, the, opportunity, to, day, to, share, what, god, is, teaching, you, where, he, is, changing, you, don’t, hide, behind, the, weather, or, holidays, share, your, journey, to, encourage, real, fellowship, end, in, prayer, over, top, song, and, offering, this, is, your, opportunity, to, offer, yourself, afresh, to, the, risen, lord, an, old, song, but, a, powerful, one, to, make, this, song, personal, to, you, choose, the, verse, where, you, will, stand, as, a, sign, of, your, offering, to, the, lord, band, will, play, it, through, twice, as, collection, taken, up, and, then, we, sing, it, if, you, want, to, sit, until, last, verse, when, we, sing, take, my, love, then, we, will, all, stand, for, last, verse, take, my, life, this, song, has, lots, of, parts, about, asking, god, to, take, and, use, different, parts, of, our, lives, songs, intellect, strength, money, etc, and, by, asking, people, to, stand, at, the, point, they, wanted, it, really, meant, they, stopped, and, offered, part, of, them, selves, back, to, god, in, response, to, the, resurrection, finish, with, thine, be, the, glory, the, service, went, really, well, people, came, and, said, how, well, it, had, gone, wife, spent, afternoon, packing, and, feeling, washed, out, giving, out, is, tiring, but, the, satisfaction, is, huge, mon, up, early, to, catch, the, boat, to, n, ireland, the, boat, was, not, too, busy, which, was, good, spent, the, boat, ride, filling, in, my, thoughts, on, the, future, of, large, animal, practice, for, the, efracom, enquiry, bought, lord, of, rings, part, 2, the, two, towers, as, i, am, wanting, to, re, read, it, having, seen, the, movie, so, that, is, my, holiday, reading, sorted, out, had, a, chance, when, we, got, there, to, sit, down, with, wife, s, parents, and, talk, through, our, future, which, was, good, as, campbell, usually, disappears, out, but, a, sit, is, a, bank, holiday, he, didn’t, they, were, fairly, up, beat, about, it, which, was, good, so, i, was, pleased, spent, the, evening, with, c, and, the, cousins, which, was, really, good, had, a, barbecue, and, chilled, out, c, was, not, really, surprised, at, the, news, as, agriculture, in, ni, is, going, through, a, bad, time, as, well, it, is, behind, the, uk, and, there, are, a, lot, of, small, uneconomic, family, farms, and, so, a, lot, of, consolidation, is, going, on, and, farmers, selling, up, tuesday, spent, the, morning, playing, squash, with, the, boys, which, w, as, great, fun, spent, the, afternoon, in, the, garden, trying, to, tidy, it, up, went, out, for, dinner, with, our, bridesmaid, who, has, also, just, handed, in, her, notice, or, rather, accepted, a, redundancy, package, it, must, be, catching, it, was, great, to, see, her, and, also, to, be, out, in, belfast, which, is, such, a, cosmopolitan, city, these, days, with, different, languages, cultures, and, nationalities, all, mixing, in, the, downtown, area, a, big, change, weds, went, to, the, new, exhibition, centre, in, the, docks, at, belfast, it, has, a, multiplex, and, a, science, exhibition, as, well, as, shops, and, restaurants, and, so, on, it, was, amazing, the, kids, could, have, spent, all, day, playing, on, the, exhibits, and, it, was, very, well, done, so, that, you, came, away, having, learnt, quite, a, lot, wife, now, believes, i, cannot, do, colours, as, i, am, easily, confused, by, them, there, was, one, exhibit, where, words, in, one, coloured, spelt, the, name, of, another, colour, i.e, the, word, was, spelt, y, e, l, l, o, w, but, it, was, red, in, colour, you, then, had, to, read, the, words, or, say, the, colours, and, i, just, could, not, do, it, my, brain, ended, up, really, confused, bought, flowers, and, stuff, for, the, garden, and, did, the, boxes, for, gran, went, out, to, dinner, at, rp, she, is, a, widow, who, is, wife, s, parents, age, but, is, so, much, fun, she, loves, giving, dinner, parties, and, having, folk, of, all, ages, around, she, gave, me, some, useful, addresses, there, are, lots, of, plans, for, wife, s, parents, golden, wedding, thursday, the, day, of, the, big, photo, shoot, wife, s, brother’s, father, in, law, is, a, photographer, and, while, we, were, all, together, wife, mum, wanted, a, photo, of, all, the, family, together, so, we, spent, an, hour, and, a, half, getting, positioned, and, photographed, 7, kids, and, 7, adults, and, a, very, pernickety, photographer, travel, back, on, the, boat, was, ok, but, came, back, to, find, that, everything, had, fused, and, that, the, phone, was, not, working, so, fixed, the, fuses, which, are, all, trips, thank, goodness, and, got, the, electrics, going, the, phone, could, not, fix, but, did, not, worry, while, we, were, away, there, had, been, a, lightning, strike, on, to, the, phone, line, up, the, road, and, it, had, fried, all, the, cables, one, of, the, neighbours, had, been, in, her, kitchen, and, the, phone, had, exploded, and, jumped, off, the, wall, it, has, left, scorch, marks, down, the, wall, i, am, just, glad, that, there, was, no, one, on, the, phone, at, the, time, the, other, unfortunate, thing, is, that, the, computer, was, attached, and, is, dead, as, a, dodo, friday, back, to, maelstrom, i, was, really, relaxed, going, back, in, to, work, and, it, lasted, for, may, be, half, an, hour, no, one, had, picked, up, on, any, of, my, admin, things, while, i, had, been, away, in, spite, of, asking, people, to, do, so, this, meant, i, had, to, start, and, get, things, organised, for, testing, the, rota, and, nestles, as, well, as, to, try, and, do, some, work, my, in, tray, is, a, mess, but, never, mind, i, also, had, to, complete, the, report, for, efracom, as, the, closing, date, is, today, i, hope, not, by, 5pm, the, report, was, actually, finished, by, 10, 15, and, was, e, mailed, off, i, would, like, to, have, polished, it, a, bit, more, but, the, schedule, today, was, not, conducive, during, the, evening, when, i, was, supposed, to, be, writing, it, i, had, a, casaers, and, a, foal, trying, to, die, at, farm, they, are, not, having, much, luck, as, they, have, had, horrendous, problems, with, restocking, they, are, also, under, tb2, i, enclose, a, copy, of, the, report, to, efracom, the, right, hon, michael, jack, mp, environment, food, and, rural, affairs, chairman, of, the, sub, committee, vets, and, veterinary, services, a, submission, summary, this, is, a, timely, review, of, farm, veterinary, services, i, would, submit, that, the, current, trends, in, veterinary, practice, are, likely, to, accelerate, rapidly, in, response, both, to, present, levels, of, farm, income, and, imminent, changes, in, veterinary, practice, in, this, submission, i, have, briefly, covered, the, following, areas, the, current, provision, of, veterinary, services, and, how, they, are, financed, current, trends, and, their, likely, impact, on, veterinary, services, the, effect, of, the, reduction, in, large, animal, clinicians, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, surveillance, the, feasibility, of, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, the, impact, on, the, svs, the, future, and, possible, outcomes, the, current, provision, of, veterinary, services, and, how, they, are, financed, the, income, for, rural, farm, veterinary, practice, that, provides, the, majority, of, veterinary, services, to, the, agricultural, industry, has, traditionally, come, from, 5, major, areas, clinical, services, examining, and, diagnosing, individual, animals, calvings, lambings, individual, surgery, routine, fertility, dehorning, and, castrating, traditional, on, farm, professional, fee, work, lvi, income, from, defra, maff, in, the, eradication, of, notifiable, disease, tuberculosis, brucellosis, anthrax, etc, many, practices, also, were, involved, with, meat, hygiene, and, inspections, at, abattoirs, the, dispensing, of, pharmaceuticals, the, provision, of, veterinary, advice, on, farm, management, and, welfare, the, majority, of, veterinary, partnerships, are, mixed, practices, a, consideration, must, be, given, to, the, fact, that, small, animal, work, makes, up, a, variable, proportion, of, the, work, and, income, to, veterinary, practice, it, is, my, opinion, that, clinical, farm, animal, practice, the, examining, and, diagnosing, of, individual, animals, is, already, uneconomic, for, both, the, veterinary, surgeon, and, the, farmer, it, is, only, happening, because, of, the, cross, subsidy, of, the, professional, fees, by, other, income, and, because, of, the, good, will, of, most, farmers, to, give, animals, a, chance, as, the, harsh, economics, are, coming, home, to, vets, and, farmers, this, is, rapidly, becoming, with, james, herriot, a, part, of, rural, history, current, trends, and, their, likely, impact, on, veterinary, services, what, are, the, current, trends, within, agriculture, and, veterinary, practice, and, what, effects, will, that, have, both, in, agriculture, and, farm, veterinary, practice, there, are, trends, that, can, be, identified, how, fast, how, far, these, trends, will, go, is, difficult, to, predict, but, my, own, experience, is, that, change, when, it, comes, change, is, often, slow, at, starting, but, then, dramatic, in, its, speed, the, effect, of, decoupling, and, other, eu, decisions, on, agriculture, are, unknown, but, the, current, trends, are, likely, to, continue, in, agriculture, farm, size, has, to, continue, to, grow, as, farms, make, less, and, less, per, animal, they, have, to, spread, costs, over, larger, and, larger, numbers, the, individual, value, of, each, animal, continues, to, drop, in, real, terms, efficiency, and, mechanisation, continues, to, increase, chicken, farms, are, now, routinely, 100,000, animals, plus, since, foot, and, mouth, disease, the, average, dairy, herd, size, has, increased, from, 90, to, 114, an, increase, of, 20, which, talking, to, many, dairy, farmers, is, only, going, to, increase, as, more, herds, are, going, to, be, 300, animals, these, increases, are, usually, with, out, an, increase, in, labour, on, the, farms, this, means, the, care, of, individual, animals, is, likely, to, be, less, important, but, the, care, of, the, overall, heath, of, the, herd, much, more, in, veterinary, practice, the, major, changes, are, likely, to, be, from, the, competition, inquiry, in, to, the, cost, of, pharmaceuticals, the, subsidy, of, professional, fees, by, sales, of, pharmaceuticals, has, been, an, increasing, trend, since, the, late, 60, s, then, professional, fees, were, subsidised, by, the, large, scale, eradication, schemes, by, maff, who, paid, very, good, fees, to, get, the, vets, on, the, farm, and, help, eradicate, the, notifiable, diseases, the, competition, inquiry, is, recommending, that, pharmaceuticals, be, dispensed, by, pharmacies, as, well, and, that, prescriptions, be, provided, free, of, charge, which, private, organisation, is, going, to, provide, a, service, free, of, charge, has, yet, to, be, ascertained, but, the, current, level, of, income, derived, from, pharmaceuticals, is, not, going, to, be, sustained, this, inevitably, means, that, the, cross, subsidy, will, disappear, and, farmers, will, have, to, pay, the, full, cost, of, veterinary, clinical, service, and, it, will, not, be, economic, to, do, so, at, the, same, time, the, costs, of, providing, veterinary, services, continues, to, rise, the, cost, of, veterinary, time, is, continuing, to, rise, students, are, now, graduating, with, debts, of, 15, 20k, because, of, the, loss, of, grants, and, payment, of, tuition, fees, this, means, there, will, need, to, be, a, further, raise, of, 2, 3k, per, annum, to, pay, veterinary, assistants, to, match, the, status, quo, farm, animal, practice, already, pays, assistants, less, than, companion, animal, practices, despite, offering, a, less, favourable, on, call, rota, in, the, short, term, following, fmd, many, practice, principals, worked, additional, on, call, to, make, the, rota, acceptable, to, attract, assistant, vets, where, this, is, viable, in, the, short, term, in, the, long, term, it, is, not, acceptable, as, partners, profit, becomes, commensurate, to, the, salaries, they, have, to, pay, to, veterinary, assistants, they, will, be, aiming, to, increase, charges, for, clinical, work, or, look, to, other, avenues, for, decreasing, costs, increasing, turnover, providing, an, out, of, hours, emergency, cover, is, not, economically, practical, for, vets, except, in, the, big, cities, where, practices, join, together, to, provide, an, emergency, clinic, currently, there, is, an, rcvs, obligation, to, provide, 24hour, cover, but, the, rcvs, is, not, involved, in, the, commercial, pricing, of, services, as, the, value, of, individual, animals, continues, to, drop, in, real, terms, then, the, cost, of, treating, individual, animals, becomes, less, and, less, viable, where, there, is, no, cross, subsidy, for, out, of, hours, work, it, will, become, untenable, as, many, mixed, practices, have, a, dwindling, farm, animal, side, that, is, less, financially, attractive, many, will, decide, to, concentrate, on, the, companion, animal, side, of, the, business, in, a, lot, of, mixed, practices, it, is, a, senior, partner, who, will, do, the, largest, amount, of, the, farm, work, this, means, the, younger, vets, will, not, have, the, case, load, to, become, experienced, and, confident, in, farm, work, there, is, a, cohort, of, practitioners, in, this, situation, heading, towards, retirement, in, the, near, future, will, the, practice, continue, to, be, involved, with, farm, work, as, fewer, practices, become, involved, with, farm, veterinary, services, the, cost, of, travel, to, the, more, distant, farms, has, to, rise, beyond, the, already, accelerated, rate, all, this, means, that, farm, veterinary, practices, will, lose, income, from, clinical, services, and, from, pharmaceutical, sales, they, will, have, to, move, more, towards, the, pig, poultry, model, of, providing, veterinary, advice, and, charging, for, it, vets, have, already, moved, out, of, nutritional, advice, leaving, this, field, to, nutritional, experts, the, reason, for, this, is, that, most, nutritional, advice, is, provided, free, to, the, farmer, by, the, firms, who, then, put, that, cost, into, the, feeds, that, are, sold, to, the, farmers, this, cross, subsidy, of, fees, by, sales, is, apparently, acceptable, where, the, subsidy, of, veterinary, fees, by, pharmaceuticals, is, not, this, model, is, beginning, to, appear, in, other, areas, whereas, vets, provided, most, mastitis, control, the, dairies, who, buy, the, milk, are, now, providing, free, or, subsidised, advice, to, farms, on, cell, counts, and, high, bacterial, counts, including, bacteriology, with, a, variable, back, up, and, quality, of, advice, nmr, and, other, recording, agencies, are, already, offering, fertility, information, on, their, recording, products, and, it, is, a, short, step, to, actually, providing, the, fertility, work, i, believe, that, these, factors, will, contribute, to, a, dramatic, decrease, in, farm, animal, clinicians, in, the, next, 5, years, the, effect, of, the, reduction, in, large, animal, clinicians, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, surveillance, as, the, number, of, clinical, veterinarians, reduces, then, there, will, be, much, less, on, farm, surveillance, this, means, that, outbreaks, of, novel, or, unusual, diseases, is, much, less, likely, to, be, noticed, or, recorded, at, an, early, stage, the, routine, care, for, the, animals, will, be, done, by, stockmen, under, veterinary, guidance, the, guidance, will, probably, be, by, quarterly, or, 6, monthly, or, annual, visits, and, by, herd, health, plans, individual, animals, are, much, more, likely, to, be, treated, ad, hoc, by, the, stockmen, rather, than, by, veterinary, surgeons, the, quality, of, this, treatment, in, some, cases, may, be, adequate, but, in, most, will, be, poor, the, significance, of, symptoms, or, illness, may, not, be, appreciated, diagnosis, and, treatment, seen, as, a, high, cost, and, used, as, a, last, resort, any, outbreak, of, disease, will, be, well, developed, and, losses, occurring, before, veterinary, advice, is, sought, as, herd, sizes, increase, and, labour, decreases, then, the, attention, to, individual, animals, must, reduce, with, a, drop, in, welfare, standards, ill, animals, are, likely, to, be, culled, quicker, as, limited, manpower, becomes, more, important, the, use, of, vets, as, additional, expert, man, power, for, calvings, lambings, will, be, seen, as, too, expensive, the, demands, of, the, system, must, mean, that, high, heath, status, is, important, with, routine, vaccination, and, herd, health, policies, being, put, in, place, defra, seems, to, set, high, regard, to, laboratory, diagnosis, results, as, a, form, of, surveillance, most, of, the, common, problems, are, diagnosed, treated, with, out, the, resort, to, laboratory, aids, fertility, lameness, mastitis, pneumonia, pge, are, rarely, referred, to, the, lab, except, where, treatment, is, not, working, most, samples, are, taken, referred, by, vets, in, practice, fewer, vets, would, mean, fewer, samples, the, lack, of, veterinary, advice, to, ill, pigs, and, ill, sheep, on, farms, at, heddon, on, the, wall, shows, how, the, lack, of, a, clinical, veterinary, service, can, lead, to, in, the, terms, of, delay, and, spread, of, disease, the, local, knowledge, of, the, current, lvi, system, is, an, invaluable, asset, that, is, in, danger, of, being, thrown, away, the, idea, that, a, farm, is, a, box, which, can, be, assigned, a, number, in, page, street, and, dealt, with, as, a, single, entity, is, a, problem, that, has, still, not, been, resolved, the, complexity, of, many, of, the, local, farming, links, through, trade, working, together, machinery, shared, grazing, fell, rights, and, family, ties, cannot, be, reduced, to, a, computer, screen, on, dcs, the, feasibility, of, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, in, my, opinion, they, are, not, i, was, hoping, to, cover, this, more, fully, but, lack, of, time, has, prevented, me, the, impact, on, the, svs, the, impact, on, the, svs, is, likely, to, be, slow, to, be, realised, the, svs, is, not, known, for, its, ability, to, meet, challenges, or, streamline, its, systems, as, the, number, of, vets, involved, in, farm, work, decreases, it, will, have, to, provide, more, of, its, own, resources, to, tackle, tasks, currently, done, by, lvis, the, more, flexible, private, practice, takes, up, the, challenge, of, getting, backlogs, in, testing, done, and, can, respond, to, new, challenges, for, example, the, licensing, brought, in, during, fmd, private, practice, can, fit, the, work, around, other, duties, whereas, if, it, is, going, to, be, done, by, the, svs, it, will, be, more, expensive, to, take, on, vets, to, do, these, tasks, alone, the, svs, was, notoriously, unreliable, in, its, work, allocation, during, fmd, the, record, being, sending, 5, vets, to, the, same, farm, on, the, same, day, has, yet, to, be, beaten, though, i, hope, it, would, be, a, lot, better, in, normal, circumstances, there, are, still, problems, with, the, allocation, system, that, can, only, be, put, right, by, local, knowledge, in, areas, where, there, are, few, farm, animals, there, may, well, not, be, lvis, willing, to, carry, out, the, routine, testing, for, notifiable, disease, who, is, going, to, provide, veterinary, cover, for, these, both, for, clinical, caseload, and, for, the, lvi, work, there, will, not, be, vets, available, to, second, to, defra, for, the, next, fmd, or, exotic, disease, outbreak, the, contingency, plan, confidently, states, that, resources, for, 20, tvis, are, to, be, kept, at, each, centre, in, case, of, an, outbreak, of, notifiable, disease, with, out, addressing, where, these, will, come, from, there, will, not, be, 20, tvi’s, available, at, short, notice, during, march, 2001, the, majority, of, vets, at, the, carlisle, decc, were, lvi’s, the, future, and, possible, outcomes, the, picture, i, have, painted, is, what, in, my, opinion, will, happen, if, the, government, allows, the, situation, to, develop, i, would, hope, that, there, would, be, some, joined, up, government, when, decisions, are, to, be, made, in, response, to, the, competition, inquiry, report, there, are, a, mixture, of, outcomes, that, are, possible, the, numbers, of, vets, in, farm, animal, practice, will, reduce, this, can, be, minimised, by, maintaining, the, cross, subsidy, of, professional, fees, for, providing, clinical, services, either, directly, by, defra, work, in, surveillance, or, other, notifiable, disease, work, and, or, from, pharmaceutical, sales, the, option, of, increasing, fees, is, not, possible, veterinary, services, will, be, provided, by, other, means, e.g, vets, working, for, feed, firms, dairies, manufactures, retailers, to, ensure, a, welfare, surveillance, standard, consultancy, firms, providing, fertility, mastitis, specialised, advice, defra, local, authority, will, have, to, provide, vets, for, notifiable, disease, testing, surveillance, tasks, developing, the, french, model, of, farm, cooperatives, employing, vets, for, their, own, farms, the, pig, poultry, model, of, regular, advisory, visits, but, minimal, involvement, in, the, day, to, day, running, or, with, individual, animals, only, the, first, of, these, provides, for, the, continuation, of, the, successful, lvi, structure, the, other, outcomes, mean, a, loss, of, clinical, veterinary, services, the, loss, of, clinical, services, means, a, drop, in, welfare, standards, and, the, loss, of, on, farm, surveillance, farm, veterinary, services, are, in, a, transitional, time, facing, economic, challenges, changes, in, agriculture, increased, regulation, and, increased, competition, for, the, pharmaceutical, and, services, they, provide, there, will, be, increased, competition, between, practices, as, they, try, to, meet, the, higher, expectations, of, new, veterinary, graduates, starting, their, careers, and, providing, a, cost, effective, service, to, the, rural, community, bvm, s, mrcvs, brief, c, v, currently, a, partner, in, one, of, the, largest, farm, veterinary, practices, in, cumbria, having, spent, 17, years, in, mixed, rural, practice, spent, 6, months, on, secondment, to, maff, at, the, carlisle, decc, during, fmd, sat, 26th, april, 2003, having, worked, last, night, and, done, 2, caesaers, and, a, calving, on, call, on, top, of, a, long, week, i, was, completely, washed, out, did, sat, am, surgery, and, a, call, then, went, home, to, bed, knackered, and, fed, up, and, deciding, i, did, not, want, to, spend, my, life, like, this, sunday, a, busy, day, on, call, but, at, least, the, calls, did, not, stack, up, just, kept, coming, in, ones, and, twos, so, the, stress, levels, were, not, to, bad, but, boyzo, am, i, tired, mon, this, is, the, beginning, of, d’s, last, week, he, has, worked, out, really, well, and, i, hope, that, he, will, be, able, to, work, here, at, the, back, end, to, help, with, the, testing, he, is, easy, going, and, has, a, good, s, african, protestant, work, ethic, always, happy, to, oblige, and, is, good, to, work, with, he, is, a, good, laugh, too, always, teasing, and, playing, silly, jokes, and, has, a, great, sense, of, humour, spent, most, of, the, day, on, catch, up, after, the, week, end, did, some, calls, and, sorted, car, and, drugs, out, and, cleaned, my, kit, the, slippage, of, cleanliness, since, fmd, is, very, noticeable, especially, at, the, w, e’s, but, don’t, tell, defra, went, swimming, at, foxes, well, to, be, honest, sat, in, the, jacuzzi, and, talked, and, then, swam, 2, lengths, i, was, too, tired, to, do, much, really, i, must, start, getting, some, proper, exercise, again, or, my, back, will, suffer, tues, i, am, really, annoyed, at, defra, i, rang, and, asked, what, would, be, needed, to, put, our, vets, on, to, panel, l, which, is, what, is, needed, to, do, the, exports, for, nestle, and, panel, l, can, just, be, added, on, as, it, is, a, simple, export, thing, so, it, would, take, half, an, hour, to, do, it, this, was, last, friday, by, now, it, is, we, have, to, go, for, training, by, svs, it, should, only, take, half, an, hour, to, through, the, forms, why, can, their, yes, not, be, yes, and, their, no, be, no, so, we, have, to, spend, an, afternoon, going, to, carlisle, to, got, through, meaningless, forms, so, that, we, can, fill, in, meaning, less, forms, so, that, nestle, can, get, th, milk, through, customs, i, am, beginning, to, see, why, people, just, smuggle, things, rather, than, get, involved, in, all, this, stupid, bureaucracy, weds, went, on, the, factory, visit, to, nestles, today, to, have, a, look, around, so, that, we, know, the, plant, and, can, give, them, certification, for, the, milk, powder, for, export, the, whole, thing, is, ludicrous, as, dried, milk, powder, is, a, sterile, product, it, has, to, be, or, else, it, goes, off, very, quickly, so, why, we, have, to, certify, that, it, has, been, pasteurised, i, don, not, know, but, hey, its, money, the, size, and, quantity, and, the, huge, amount, of, machinery, and, very, small, number, of, people, required, to, maintain, and, operate, the, plant, was, awesome, we, went, to, the, distribution, warehouse, where, there, was, just, row, upon, row, of, pallets, 3, 7, high, full, of, dried, milk, or, cappuccino, drinks, weird, to, think, mast, of, the, instant, cappuccino, is, made, in, dalston, thursday, went, for, panel, l, training, it, was, as, pointless, as, i, thought, it, would, be, took, the, opportunity, to, go, through, with, defra, admin, staff, some, of, the, queries, and, problems, at, the, moment, we, do, a, lot, of, stuff, for, defra, telling, them, who, has, stock, and, who, does, not, have, stock, to, ensure, their, database, is, relatively, up, to, date, but, it, is, a, headache, as, they, are, working, off, computer, screens, hence, mrs, f, r, of, a, farm, does, not, correlate, at, all, with, mr, e, r, of, the, same, address, the, computer, is, not, into, relationships, so, that, they, are, married, and, live, together, and, own, stock, on, the, same, piece, of, ground, does, not, really, get, off, the, ground, this, evening, was, the, final, partners, meeting, where, i, handed, in, my, notice, the, reasons, for, handing, in, my, notice, are, complex, most, decisions, probably, are, there, are, lots, of, factors, some, trivial, to, the, outsider, but, important, to, me, others, may, be, important, to, others, and, similarly, not, to, me, several, people, have, asked, is, it, a, reaction, to, fmd, the, last, casualty, in, some, ways, it, is, for, all, the, horrendous, experiences, for, all, the, long, hours, and, difficult, ethical, and, to, whom, am, i, responsible, dilemmas, it, taught, me, a, lot, about, myself, to, see, fear, in, the, eyes, of, senior, management, when, challenged, to, be, able, to, organise, a, protest, meeting, of, thirty, vets, with, jim, scudamore, to, do, the, tv, interviews, o, see, the, effect, of, feeding, information, to, journalists, to, be, able, to, break, through, by, fast, talking, and, relying, on, my, wits, to, organise, completely, new, systems, and, manage, projects, that, had, never, been, done, before, to, build, teams, from, international, backgrounds, in, the, face, of, opposition, from, the, hierarchy, to, be, constantly, caught, on, a, tight, rope, between, the, different, groupings, i, learnt, that, i, have, huge, abilities, and, to, go, back, to, normality, is, difficult, the, future, of, farm, animal, practice, is, also, very, unpredictable, there, are, a, lot, of, farms, who, are, yet, to, restock, the, cross, subsidy, of, fees, by, drug, sales, is, going, to, end, and, more, and, more, work, will, be, on, behalf, or, paid, for, by, defra, they, are, at, the, whims, of, the, politicians, and, the, treasury, they, are, also, not, the, easiest, client, to, deal, with, there, is, also, the, problem, of, being, second, in, command, and, dealing, with, the, frustrations, of, the, partnership, we, are, not, united, in, the, way, we, work, or, where, we, see, the, practice, going, this, means, my, schemes, for, diversification, for, improving, income, streams, and, managing, the, bad, debt, will, either, not, happen, or, will, become, part, of, my, workload, which, is, already, over, stretched, add, in, to, this, cock, tail, the, fact, my, wife, is, starting, to, work, and, i, have, been, given, a, really, bad, scare, by, being, tackled, by, a, cow, the, question, is, do, i, want, to, do, this, job, for, the, next, 20, years, the, answer, has, to, be, no, so, the, only, answer, is, to, hand, in, my, resignation, and, start, to, look, for, something, new, as, i, have, a, 6, month, notice, period, ending, on, an, accounting, date, i, have, to, jump, before, i, have, another, job, sorted, out, even, so, the, decision, was, very, hard, and, i, was, really, choked, up, when, i, left, them, to, discuss, the, future, i, could, not, go, home, as, the, kids, would, want, to, know, what, was, going, on, so, i, went, to, js, he, already, knew, i, will, tell, the, kids, on, friday, the, practice, manager, on, monday, and, work, on, tuesday, i, have, said, very, little, of, my, thoughts, in, the, diary, as, i, have, learnt, there, are, somethings, better, left, unwritten, until, the, time, for, the, information, to, be, public, whatever, issues, are, to, do, with, confidentiality, if, you, don’t, think, something, can, be, talked, about, then, do, not, write, it, down, as, you, never, know, who, is, going, to, read, it, a, though, got, her, self, in, to, a, stew, as, i, rang, wife, to, say, i, was, going, to, js, she, then, said, she, would, come, out, she, left, a, bit, too, hurriedly, for, a, who, then, got, it, into, her, head, that, we, had, gone, away, on, holiday, with, out, telling, them, friday, the, whole, day, was, unreal, i, knew, i, was, going, but, no, one, else, does, told, the, kids, at, tea, time, and, i, was, shocked, by, how, upset, they, were, it, has, come, as, a, shock, to, them, tim, especially, loves, coming, out, and, about, around, the, farms, with, me, there, is, also, no, what, i, am, going, to, so, it, is, just, uncertainty, on, 2nd, call, sat, 3rd, may, 2003, work, then, wash, out, i, was, on, second, last, night, and, had, 2, caesars, and, a, calving, what, the, second, caesar, was, at, 4am, so, i, felt, dreadful, all, day, young, vet, had, started, operating, and, got, stuck, so, i, went, to, the, rescue, the, cow, had, horrendous, adhesions, so, nothing, could, be, moved, around, we, spent, an, hour, and, a, half, trying, to, pull, the, calf, out, and, then, stitching, up, the, uterus, in, the, cow, i, felt, i, needed, diving, gear, on, as, i, had, both, arms, in, to, their, full, length, with, vet, beside, me, trying, to, stitch, by, feel, my, arms, were, exhausted, by, the, end, of, it, i, was, like, death, warmed, up, all, day, but, feel, i, have, definitely, made, the, right, decision, sunday, after, a, good, nights, sleep, feeling, better, my, mother, always, use, to, say, that, the, world, looks, very, different, after, a, good, nights, sleep, and, a, cooked, breakfast, i, do, not, need, a, cooked, breakfast, my, stress, levels, have, been, that, high, that, i, have, been, eating, far, too, much, i, am, going, to, go, on, a, diet, the, usual, promise, to, myself, my, weight, is, going, up, fast, so, i, will, have, to, cut, down, and, start, to, exercise, a, lot, more, went, to, see, the, practice, manager, to, tell, him, that, i, have, handed, in, my, notice, i, have, decided, to, see, him, on, his, own, so, that, he, has, a, chance, to, process, it, before, work, on, tuesday, he, is, overweight, and, stressed, and, that, type, to, have, a, heart, attack, so, treat, him, gently, he, is, also, a, good, friend, so, i, should, give, him, some, warning, so, i, spent, an, hour, chatting, it, through, and, talking, which, is, a, good, a, way, as, any, of, spending, a, sunday, afternoon, mon, bank, holiday, another, bank, holiday, working, but, at, least, it, is, fairly, quiet, so, spent, most, of, the, day, working, in, the, garden, the, kids, were, away, in, the, morning, doing, various, things, and, then, met, up, for, lunch, with, friends, which, was, really, nice, they, had, been, down, to, visit, family, in, the, lake, district, they, had, hired, a, couple, of, cottages, for, the, w, e, and, all, met, up, they, are, really, amazing, people, they, are, both, doctors, and, i, went, out, to, visit, them, in, thailand, which, was, brilliant, fun, he, was, working, with, leprosy, and, aids, cases, they, have, come, home, and, are, sharing, a, gp’s, job, between, them, she, is, also, doing, a, diploma, in, diabetes, they, are, also, doing, deputation, work, to, raise, money, for, the, work, of, omf, in, thailand, and, asia, they, have, 4, kids, and, it, was, really, nice, to, see, them, all, again, the, kids, are, similar, ages, i, really, felt, for, them, because, they, have, gone, from, home, schooling, to, schools, in, edinburgh, in, the, big, city, so, they, have, the, double, culture, shock, of, coming, to, the, uk, and, being, schooled, in, a, complete, different, way, they, are, also, very, bright, kids, and, having, had, individual, attention, from, a, very, focussed, mother, they, are, miles, ahead, of, the, rest, of, their, classes, yet, they, do, not, have, the, social, skills, to, adapt, to, the, rough, and, tumble, of, life, in, a, city, comprehensive, mobile, phones, are, not, a, must, have, item, in, rural, thailand, good, to, see, them, all, tuesday, today, i, announced, the, fact, i, was, leaving, to, those, at, work, i, had, thought, about, how, i, should, do, it, and, what, i, was, to, say, it, is, quite, difficult, both, from, an, emotional, point, of, view, and, from, the, fact, that, i, think, that, the, business, in, the, longer, term, will, have, problems, this, has, both, a, direct, relevance, for, the, lay, staff, and, their, jobs, though, there, will, still, be, a, similar, number, needed, as, their, workload, is, likely, to, remain, the, same, and, also, for, the, vets, two, of, whom, may, or, may, not, be, approached, to, buy, into, the, business, there, will, also, in, the, longer, term, be, a, smaller, number, of, vets, needed, but, this, will, probably, be, managed, by, natural, wastage, i, spoke, first, to, the, senior, assistants, and, then, lay, staff, it, was, hard, as, i, have, been, there, for, as, long, as, many, of, them, 15, years, which, is, a, long, time, i, think, also, there, is, an, attitude, that, the, ups, and, downs, seem, to, be, past, for, them, there, was, a, lot, of, upheaval, over, the, move, from, b, v, up, to, s, park, fmd, is, over, and, things, are, suppose, to, be, getting, back, on, to, an, even, keel, and, i, throw, a, spanner, in, the, works, weds, spent, the, evening, phoning, friends, and, relatives, to, let, them, know, that, i, had, handed, in, my, notice, and, sending, off, for, job, details, on, two, jobs, and, applying, for, another, i, am, not, sure, what, i, am, looking, for, so, at, the, moment, i, am, just, sending, off, for, anything, that, seems, interesting, and, waiting, and, seeing, it, seems, an, unreal, situation, in, so, many, ways, i, also, had, to, phone, the, bank, manager, both, to, arrange, our, annual, visit, and, to, tell, him, that, i, was, leaving, again, getting, the, balance, between, moving, on, and, being, positive, with, out, pointing, out, the, dangers, in, the, future, of, large, animal, practice, was, a, difficult, balance, after, the, initial, shock, all, power, to, him, as, a, salesman, banker, he, then, asked, whether, i, would, be, needing, any, banking, requirements, so, at, least, if, i, do, start, up, an, independent, vet, small, business, consultancy, i, will, have, a, bank, account, to, run, it, from, thursday, a, quit, day, as, no, testing, so, tackled, some, of, the, back, log, in, admin, spent, a, lot, of, time, setting, up, the, systems, and, know, how, folder, for, nestle, we, have, taken, over, the, work, for, doing, the, lvi, work, for, the, nestle, factory, at, dalston, as, they, have, fallen, out, with, the, previous, practice, when, we, took, it, on, i, assumed, it, would, be, the, odd, bit, of, work, but, in, fact, it, is, a, huge, amount, of, work, so, it, is, going, to, take, some, sorting, out, i, also, feel, a, bit, off, as, i, have, handed, in, my, notice, and, yet, i, am, setting, all, this, up, and, i, ma, not, going, to, benefit, from, it, at, all, i, suppose, it, comes, back, to, wanting, to, do, what, is, right, and, that, we, should, serve, god, and, not, man, it, is, always, a, useful, measuring, stick, to, use, to, work, out, motivations, and, what, should, be, done, in, a, situation, who, am, i, trying, to, do, this, for, me, the, practice, the, client, or, am, i, doing, what, jesus, would, do, friday, another, bad, hair, day, had, real, problems, trying, to, fit, the, extra, work, into, the, day, and, so, got, a, bit, frayed, around, the, edges, fortunately, next, week, will, probably, be, the, last, thank, goodness, the, practice, that, used, to, do, the, nestle, work, was, on, the, phone, to, me, and, not, very, friendly, hey, ho, went, out, for, a, meal, with, friends, which, was, great, they, are, the, church, youth, leaders, and, are, really, switched, on, but, i, think, need, more, support, and, help, hopefully, once, the, 1st, of, october, hits, i, will, be, able, to, get, more, involved, went, to, the, royal, oak, at, welton, which, just, has, been, re, done, and, is, serving, food, on, a, proper, basis, as, well, as, having, a, pub, part, more, like, a, restaurant, wife, s, food, was, excellent, mine, was, ok, i, had, an, indian, trio, of, samosa, and, 2, bharji, to, start, with, i, am, afraid, i, have, been, spoilt, by, real, indian, food, so, i, should, not, have, bothered, going, for, it, in, a, cumbrian, pub, saturday, may, 10th, saturday, may, 10th, a, day, off, after, too, many, days, working, and, too, much, stress, it, was, really, nice, just, to, be, around, home, doing, the, garden, and, not, really, worrying, what, else, is, going, on, in, the, world, i, needed, some, space, and, i, am, pleased, to, have, got, it, at, long, last, it, is, amazing, how, much, better, the, world, looks, after, a, good, nights, sleep, and, a, some, time, off, in, the, afternoon, the, c, boys, came, around, and, we, took, them, to, see, new, chicks, s, was, there, and, i, did, not, want, to, go, down, the, route, of, explaining, why, i, had, made, the, decision, i, had, to, leave, so, chickened, out, of, telling, her, i, suppose, i, am, happy, with, it, and, i, just, want, to, forget, about, for, the, w, e, so, we, arrived, with, 7, boys, which, is, quite, brave, fortunately, we, could, not, stay, long, as, we, had, to, be, back, to, go, out, to, gianni’s, with, d, he, took, us, out, and, it, was, really, good, fun, the, kids, were, all, in, good, form, came, back, and, watched, the, first, part, of, a, dvd, on, john, grisham’s, book, the, client, he, is, an, excellent, writer, and, although, film, can, never, develop, the, characters, the, same, as, a, book, so, the, film, was, good, but, only, ok, sunday, 11th, church, was, good, this, morning, and, it, was, good, to, be, there, and, spent, ages, chatting, to, folk, but, came, back, to, lunch, with, a, couple, who, stayed, too, long, there, are, some, people, i, find, really, draining, and, she, is, one, it, is, awful, but, i, get, really, wound, up, and, just, want, them, to, go, after, about, 30, minutes, they, came, for, lunch, and, did, not, leave, until, after, tea, so, i, was, almost, going, spare, monday, 12th, i, find, the, silence, around, the, fact, i, am, going, a, bit, unnerving, it, is, a, bit, elephant, and, coffee, table, really, a, lot, of, the, farmers, i, suppose, don’t, yet, know, or, if, they, do, how, to, respond, today’s, frustrations, are, all, with, things, not, working, bt, have, sent, me, a, bill, for, 115, for, fixing, the, line, that, was, struck, by, lightening, i, was, put, through, three, depts, before, i, gave, up, i, may, try, just, not, paying, and, see, if, they, can, register, the, fact, the, bill, is, being, disputed, the, other, frustration, is, the, car, doors, have, gone, again, in, wife, s, car, which, is, incredibly, frustrating, they, have, been, fixed, and, fixed, and, fixed, although, it, is, under, warranty, i, am, getting, to, the, stage, that, i, feel, we, are, being, fobbed, off, tues, 13th, i, went, to, hear, mg, from, the, licc, london, institute, of, contemporary, christianity, speak, at, the, living, word, this, is, a, series, that, happens, every, spring, and, is, organised, by, a, group, of, ministers, and, folk, from, carlisle, he, is, a, very, interesting, speaker, he, is, an, ex, ad, man, and, his, whole, message, is, to, get, the, church, to, look, out, side, of, it, self, he, thinks, that, christianity, in, the, west, has, become, a, leisure, time, activity, and, is, not, impacting, the, rest, of, peoples, lives, there, is, a, concept, of, the, sacred, secular, divide, the, church, does, not, get, involved, in, secular, things, work, culture, the, arts, sport, and, in, some, ways, philosophy, too, whereas, there, should, be, no, divide, christ, is, either, lord, of, all, or, not, at, all, he, also, is, a, very, amusing, speaker, he, was, talking, about, how, technology, is, usually, neutral, but, how, it, is, used, has, very, far, reaching, effects, on, family, work, and, society, he, used, the, microwave, as, an, example, with, a, very, amusing, story, about, how, he, managed, to, save, the, sleep, of, the, whole, of, north, london, by, using, the, new, fangled, microwave, to, heat, his, daughter’s, midnight, bottle, thereby, saving, the, chancellor, huge, sums, in, lost, revenue, with, typical, jewish, hyperbole, he, then, moved, on, to, his, kids, now, teenagers, not, coming, in, for, the, meal, he, has, prepared, but, reheating, it, in, the, microwave, and, how, that, led, to, a, lack, of, communication, and, again, hyperbole, to, his, angst, about, not, understanding, the, younger, generation, as, this, is, a, diary, about, fmd, how, do, i, relate, this, to, my, experience, of, fmd, on, the, simple, level, the, culture, within, defra, needs, to, change, servant, hood, whether, by, civil, servants, or, politicians, has, been, forgotten, truth, will, out, spin, will, fall, computers, should, be, a, tool, of, all, and, master, of, none, organisations, need, to, have, a, human, face, for, people, to, relate, to, whether, it, is, the, brigadier, or, the, cvo, people, are, individuals, created, by, god, and, have, feelings, and, are, not, numbers, or, statistics, the, post, modernist, human, secularism, where, truth, is, relative, where, brown, can, announce, that, everything, is, under, control, can, mislead, parliament, and, people, and, it, is, acceptable, i, actually, strongly, feel, that, the, current, presidential, style, of, where, no, one, can, make, a, decision, with, out, refer, to, their, boss, is, a, poor, model, pain, disaster, illness, and, trouble, are, part, of, the, human, condition, part, of, the, fall, of, evil, in, the, world, enough, philosophy, its, time, for, bed, monday, 17th, may, this, was, the, big, golden, wedding, anniversary, day, it, was, wife, s, parents, golden, wedding, and, her, brothers, and, family, all, came, to, stay, for, the, w, e, the, celebration, meal, was, at, lyzzick, hall, in, keswick, the, big, surprise, for, wife, s, mum, was, that, her, bridesmaid, and, husband, were, coming, over, from, canada, j, picked, them, up, from, the, airport, and, took, them, to, a, b, b, other, friends, were, also, coming, as, a, surprise, rp, started, the, surprises, by, coming, in, dressed, as, a, waitress, she, came, in, and, offered, wife, s, mum, a, drink, and, she, was, really, overcome, the, other, surprises, of, bridesmaid, and, canadians, was, really, nice, to, see, the, younger, parts, of, the, clan, went, off, to, the, climbing, wall, while, the, older, part, went, for, a, look, at, the, lake, in, the, rain, it, was, a, really, nice, day, ended, by, a, firework, display, thanks, to, c, as, he, grew, up, in, belfast, during, the, troubles, and, fireworks, were, banned, he, has, a, real, passion, for, them, now, as, a, big, kid, sunday, went, to, church, with, everyone, a, very, mixed, group, but, they, coped, p, spoke, in, the, morning, meeting, he, was, very, good, he, is, a, publisher, and, was, talking, about, the, church, in, china, as, he, has, just, helped, to, publish, a, book, about, some, of, the, christian, house, church, it, makes, the, materialistic, church, in, the, west, look, very, weak, and, un, spiritual, in, the, evening, mm, spoke, on, the, christian, at, work, which, was, very, good, and, very, funny, he, was, a, bed, sales, man, when, he, was, a, student, and, he, was, very, funny, about, how, he, made, shy, engaged, couples, lie, down, and, try, the, beds, this, really, tickled, other, son, age, 8, much, to, his, gran’s, tut, tutting, the, point, he, was, making, in, between, the, jokes, was, that, he, had, been, told, that, he, was, to, say, that, the, bed, s, would, all, be, delivered, in, 3, 4, weeks, when, in, fact, it, could, be, up, to, 6, weeks, but, the, shop, keeper, thought, this, would, put, people, off, this, meant, that, mm, ended, up, in, bother, with, couples, arriving, back, from, their, honey, moon, to, no, bed, so, he, decided, to, listen, to, god’s, way, and, tell, the, truth, which, he, said, like, most, biblical, teaching, is, obvious, once, it, is, explained, and, tell, people, the, truth, not, what, they, want, to, hear, mon, went, and, read, the, tb, test, for, the, tenant, farmer, there, was, 1, i, r, the, reaction, of, the, farmer, took, me, back, fairly, badly, and, i, was, quite, shocked, at, the, sheer, vehemence, of, his, reaction, fortunately, it, was, mostly, at, defra, he, went, out, early, on, to, the, disease, and, he, therefore, got, much, lower, compensation, than, a, lot, of, the, later, ones, he, had, some, cattle, wintering, at, his, farm, for, some, one, else, who, went, out, later, on, with, fmd, at, his, home, holding, the, difference, in, the, valuations, for, the, same, type, of, cattle, was, horrendous, he, also, has, buildings, that, he, owns, on, a, small, parcel, of, land, the, buildings, were, old, and, knackered, but, usable, a, lot, of, string, and, gates, defra, pulled, them, to, pieces, during, fmd, and, then, offered, him, peanuts, o, reinstate, them, which, meant, he, could, not, get, them, back, into, a, usable, state, so, he, is, not, a, happy, bunny, spent, the, afternoon, castrating, horses, which, is, not, my, favourite, job, if, a, stirk, kicks, you, it, hurts, if, a, horse, kicks, you, it, usually, means, a, trip, in, an, ambulance, you, are, therefore, very, tense, and, ready, to, move, in, awkward, positions, canadians, and, wife, s, parents, headed, off, for, a, trip, around, the, borders, in, our, people, carrier, they, are, coming, back, to, swap, over, cars, at, the, end, of, the, week, wife, has, the, tank, to, run, around, in, for, the, week, tuesday, my, back, is, twinging, from, the, castrating, and, a, calving, yesterday, and, is, really, sore, so, did, paperwork, while, sitting, like, a, ramrod, until, i, gave, up, and, came, back, to, lie, down, did, the, back, exercises, hourly, but, it, just, got, stiffer, and, sorer, weds, spent, morning, reading, in, bed, and, doing, back, exercises, but, cannot, get, it, moving, went, to, see, the, accountant, in, the, afternoon, to, sort, out, the, practicalities, of, going, freelance, and, finishing, at, the, vets, thursday, back, is, a, lot, better, and, starting, to, move, much, more, freely, the, first, negative, comment, on, me, leaving, today, came, from, a, farmer, who, has, decided, that, the, only, way, to, make, money, is, to, go, for, 300, cows, he, has, therefore, planned, all, this, designed, new, parlours, been, to, look, at, other, large, herds, thought, it, all, through, unfortunately, his, costings, are, on, buying, in, dairy, cows, at, 6, 700, per, head, and, just, recently, they, have, gone, to, over, a, thousand, which, means, he, is, out, by, 60k, oops, but, he, said, that, he, thought, i, was, deserting, them, in, a, way, i, suppose, i, am, back, in, to, being, on, call, with, a, vengeance, a, calving, a, caesar, a, prolapsed, uterus, hey, ho, friday, interesting, statistic, on, the, radio, whether, it, is, right, or, wrong, i, do, not, know, in, the, eu, the, average, beef, cow, is, subsidised, to, the, tune, of, 2, per, week, the, average, african, earns, less, than, that, the, canadians, and, wife, s, parents, arrived, back, from, their, trip, around, the, borders, the, good, news, is, they, baby, sat, or, teenage, and, child, minded, while, we, went, out, to, the, lemon, lounge, the, bad, news, is, they, are, to, feed, and, look, after, over, the, w, e, my, brother, and, family, arrive, tomorrow, so, it, will, be, a, bit, crowded, it, was, really, nice, to, be, out, on, our, own, with, relative, peace, around, us, the, noise, from, an, office, party, does, not, impinge, as, it, is, nothing, to, do, with, us, saturday, 31st, may, 2003, a, gardening, day, we, decided, that, we, would, have, to, get, the, place, sorted, out, so, spent, most, of, the, day, in, the, sunshine, pulling, weeds, and, sorting, out, the, garden, it, was, a, beautiful, day, my, back, was, pretty, sore, by, the, end, of, the, day, but, we, got, it, nearly, all, sorted, which, was, good, the, boys, cut, the, lawn, and, a, sat, on, it, and, read, her, book, another, bbq, by, the, end, of, the, day, a, made, the, salads, while, the, boys, cooked, so, it, was, a, family, meal, wife, and, the, older, two, headed, for, tesco’s, while, i, cleared, the, debris, away, sunday, june, 1st, the, sun, is, still, flaming, but, the, seeds, and, seedlings, are, looking, a, bit, sad, and, whithered, in, spite, of, the, watering, i, have, really, enjoyed, the, week, off, but, there, has, been, very, little, on, fmd, met, up, with, friends, at, church, home, visiting, parents, in, the, evening, caught, up, with, the, as, he, is, an, indian, gastro, enterologist, who, worked, at, carlisle, they, now, work, in, bombay, so, it, was, good, to, see, them, they, are, hoping, to, set, up, an, aids, hospice, there, are, currently, over, a, million, people, who, are, hiv, ve, in, bombay, monday, back, to, work, and, quite, busy, so, it, looks, as, if, the, june, quiet, period, is, not, going, to, materialise, with, folk, on, holiday, it, makes, it, seem, busier, any, way, it, took, me, until, 4pm, to, get, to, my, in, tray, which, after, a, week, was, overflowing, as, usual, tuesday, this, is, more, like, june, long, lunch, and, spent, the, morning, trying, to, get, the, accountancy, package, up, to, date, sent, off, another, speculative, e, mail, job, application, a, friend, from, church, who, is, now, studying, physio, therapy, at, glasgow, came, and, insisted, wife, i, went, out, for, a, walk, together, which, was, really, nice, he, is, a, really, nice, young, guy, went, to, beach, at, beckfoot, where, we, were, the, only, ones, walking, the, beach, there, was, one, serious, kiter, i, have, not, seen, such, a, serious, kite, for, a, long, time, it, was, fairly, windy, and, he, had, it, anchored, behind, him, so, as, not, to, be, taking, off, with, it, weds, spent, the, morning, doing, fertilities, and, then, spent, time, sorting, out, issues, with, george, there, was, so, little, work, it, is, boring, for, the, assistants, the, june, quiet, patch, ahs, arrived, the, bills, did, not, go, due, to, a, computer, upgrade, cocking, the, system, up, the, systems, are, now, so, complex, they, are, beyond, any, reasonable, way, of, keeping, tabs, you, have, to, trust, the, experts, who, you, don’t, thursday, day, off, spent, it, writing, out, a, business, proposal, to, try, and, get, work, via, a, consultancy, firm, then, tried, fixing, the, extractor, fan, and, failed, thursby, football, club, is, going, really, well, with, some, more, lads, coming, along, the, standard, is, variable, but, good, fun, friday, tb, testing, again, at, fs, they, had, just, heard, about, me, leaving, and, were, full, of, questions, the, night, was, really, busy, on, first, call, and, had, lots, going, on, wife, was, at, a, retreat, thinking, through, the, future, and, reporting, on, the, last, year, so, i, was, trying, to, juggle, kids, as, well, saturday, 7th, june, 2003, last, night, was, terrible, with, a, dog, to, see, in, the, middle, of, the, night, and, put, down, it, was, only, a, young, dog, but, it, had, leukaemia, and, was, not, responding, to, treatment, it, had, colic, probably, from, the, mesenteric, lymph, nodes, and, was, rolling, around, in, pain, not, nice, for, them, or, me, sat, am, was, busy, too, went, to, one, of, the, organic, farms, to, see, an, ill, cow, post, calving, he, was, saying, that, there, are, three, farmers, all, none, fmd, giving, up, milking, one, is, another, organic, dairy, farm, he, was, promised, a, premium, of, 10p, per, litre, and, his, costings, were, based, on, 28p, per, litre, he, is, getting, a, premium, of, less, than, 0.5p, per, litre, which, takes, it, to, 16p, the, figures, do, not, add, up, so, he, is, giving, up, the, other, 2, are, small, farms, who, cannot, make, it, work, 40, 50, cows, slept, in, the, afternoon, and, went, to, a, party, in, the, evening, bizarrely, as, we, were, walking, in, the, people, whose, dog, i, put, to, sleep, last, night, walked, in, as, well, they, live, next, door, and, had, been, invited, as, well, weird, spent, time, chatting, but, came, to, 10, and, i, was, dead, on, my, feet, sunday, 8th, the, on, call, changes, from, 2nd, back, up, to, 1st, at, 8, 30, am, the, phone, started, at, 8, 35, urghhh, i, am, finding, it, very, hard, to, have, any, enthusiasm, knowing, that, i, ma, leaving, in, a, few, months, one, of, the, farms, i, was, on, has, given, up, dairy, and, were, hoping, to, retire, fmd, year, but, lost, money, because, of, all, the, restrictions, so, they, are, now, hoping, to, finish, this, back, end, may, be, they, were, hoping, to, keep, the, milk, quota, and, lease, it, out, as, a, pension, but, because, of, the, new, rules, they, will, have, to, sell, it, and, the, price, is, low, as, there, are, a, lot, of, non, producers, who, are, in, the, same, boat, it, was, at, its, height, worth, 1, per, litre, a, lot, was, bought, and, sold, in, the, 40, 60p, per, litre, it, is, now, around, the, 10p, mark, funny, world, agriculture, monday, 9th, calving, at, 5am, followed, by, other, calls, so, an, early, start, busy, day, at, work, went, to, a, meeting, for, the, new, crusaders, support, worker, it, is, supposed, to, be, county, wide, but, is, going, to, be, based, around, kendal, as, that, is, where, the, legacy, that, is, providing, a, lot, of, the, money, is, based, so, it, is, less, relevant, tot, this, end, of, cumbria, so, i, have, backed, out, of, the, organisation, committee, as, most, of, the, meetings, will, be, at, rydal, too, far, for, me, we, were, there, tonight, so, did, not, get, back, until, 11, 30, which, after, a, w, e, on, call, is, too, late, for, this, bunny, tuesday, 10th, spent, 45, mins, on, the, phone, trying, to, work, out, what, i, am, going, to, be, doing, in, oct, with, a, guy, from, pfizer, i, then, had, to, spend, the, rest, of, the, evening, sorting, out, the, emails, i, needed, to, send, to, him, weds, 11th, spent, the, morning, having, nursery, visits, where, the, local, infants, schools, come, around, the, vets, and, i, give, my, wee, guided, tour, it, is, quite, fun, and, the, little, things, that, we, do, they, really, love, blowing, up, the, anaesthetic, bag, the, x, ray, quiz, and, listening, to, dog’s, hearts, i, always, take, some, of, son, s, chickens, in, as, well, as, most, kids, are, not, use, to, having, birds, or, handling, them, son, has, spent, so, many, hours, carrying, them, around, they, are, fairly, tame, and, used, to, being, picked, up, i, don’t, know, that, effort, pays, back, in, commercial, terms, but, it, is, fun, football, training, in, the, evening, with, 20, lads, which, was, brilliant, thursday, 12th, on, call, and, exhausted, after, the, excitement, of, the, week, the, phone, went, at, 7pm, from, the, answering, service, to, say, that, a, women, had, rung, and, asked, for, the, pass, word, for, the, alarm, this, of, course, meant, nothing, to, those, answering, the, phone, i, however, put, 2, 2, together, to, work, out, that, the, alarm, at, the, practice, and, gone, off, and, that, the, police, would, be, on, their, way, why, does, this, always, happen, when, you, are, in, the, bath, so, i, jumped, out, the, bath, and, rushed, down, to, find, out, what, was, going, on, there, was, a, police, man, there, who, was, waiting, for, me, to, lead, the, way, in, we, found, a, very, scared, dog, sitting, in, the, prep, room, having, escaped, from, its, kennel, it, then, took, an, hour, to, get, the, alarms, reset, life, is, a, rich, tapestry, friday, 13th, went, to, lawyers, today, to, meet, up, to, go, through, the, dissolution, of, the, partnership, bit, sad, in, a, way, but, another, nail, bashed, in, to, my, leaving, coffin, finished, work, and, spent, evening, playing, football, and, doing, some, coaching, which, was, good, fun, son, was, off, school, today, he, was, full, of, cold, and, just, exhausted, he, just, needed, time, out, really, he, goes, at, everything, at, 110, saturday, 14th, june, 2003, working, am, why, is, it, even, if, you, have, a, few, quiet, days, in, the, week, by, the, time, the, w, e, comes, it, is, busy, again, really, warm, so, sunshine, and, gardening, a, had, decided, she, was, going, to, do, a, changing, rooms, on, the, double, room, in, the, cottage, so, she, and, a, friend, worked, away, all, day, at, it, i, was, very, impressed, by, the, time, we, had, finished, our, barbeque, in, the, evening, it, was, all, back, to, ship, shape, and, was, finished, she, is, some, pup, sunday, went, down, to, whitehaven, to, see, the, tall, ships, in, the, harbour, there, was, only, one, there, which, was, disappointing, but, it, was, good, to, look, around, there, was, a, fair, buzz, about, the, place, and, heaving, with, people, as, the, weather, was, great, there, was, a, display, of, jet, ski’s, which, was, fun, to, watch, so, the, boys, are, now, on, at, me, to, try, and, have, a, go, the, red, arrows, were, brilliant, they, have, a, tremendous, display, and, the, coloured, streams, they, leave, behind, in, the, sky, always, amaze, me, it, is, almost, like, they, are, writing, in, the, sky, monday, finally, decided, the, duck, eggs, were, not, going, to, hatch, so, broke, them, open, to, see, if, they, were, fertile, 1, exploded, it, was, so, rotten, urghh, only, one, had, a, half, formed, egg, in, it, so, i, think, the, eggs, were, the, problem, not, the, incubation, tuesday, testing, some, more, i, r’s, for, tb, though, the, history, is, wrong, so, i, hope, that, they, will, clear, a, new, vet, student, turned, up, in, the, afternoon, she, is, staying, with, us, until, the, w, e, then, with, colleague, the, vets, is, going, to, have, to, find, new, accommodation, for, students, went, to, the, training, evening, for, the, soccer, coaching, it, was, a, form, filling, exercise, and, orientation, so, it, was, boring, but, i, am, on, the, course, which, is, good, at, least, i, well, have, the, piece, of, paper, at, the, end, of, it, weds, footie, training, at, night, only, the, hard, core, turned, up, so, looks, like, we, will, have, a, good, group, of, 14, 15, which, means, we, will, not, have, to, choose, and, disappoint, went, for, a, run, afterwards, as, feeling, in, need, of, exercise, as, not, much, large, animal, work, at, the, moment, means, i, am, sitting, around, on, the, computer, for, a, lot, of, the, day, which, is, sad, must, get, fit, is, a, constant, resolution, spent, the, evening, up, at, sandal, watching, the, sun, go, down, away, from, the, phone, and, chaos, at, home, thursday, i, was, at, work, when, i, had, a, phone, call, from, some, one, who, had, apparently, run, over, son, at, school, never, an, easy, phone, call, to, take, espy, as, she, did, not, know, what, had, happened, fortunately, he, was, ok, he, had, been, walking, backwards, and, had, stepped, into, the, path, of, a, car, which, had, caught, his, heel, the, damage, was, slight, but, it, had, upset, him, the, school, exit, is, appalling, and, needs, sorted, as, busses, cars, and, bikes, all, share, the, same, area, as, the, kids, walking, inevitably, kids, are, jostling, and, messing, around, so, it, is, an, accident, waiting, to, happen, friday, half, day, as, wife, is, starting, her, next, w, e, counselling, course, could, not, really, get, going, as, a, calving, early, this, am, and, a, call, late, last, night, so, having, run, on, adrenalin, for, all, the, week, i, collapse, in, to, a, heap, and, find, it, hard, to, get, going, and, get, motivated, spent, the, afternoon, getting, organised, for, the, visitors, arriving, as, friends, are, coming, and, friend, who, was, our, bridesmaid, is, coming, across, for, the, w, e, saturday, 21st, june, 2003, pay, day, i, don’t, really, know, why, it, always, sticks, in, my, mind, but, at, the, moment, with, the, 1st, of, october, looming, and, the, fact, that, the, 21st, will, not, be, a, pay, day, it, is, becoming, a, bit, scary, spent, morning, on, run, around, and, house, jobs, ferrying, to, and, from, squash, went, to, town, in, pm, with, a, son, having, left, off, the, younger, ones, at, cottinghams, and, spent, a, pleasant, half, hour, in, ottakars, even, they, were, running, low, on, the, book, the, latest, harry, potter, which, i, had, meant, to, order, via, internet, but, had, not, quite, got, around, to, the, statistic, is, that, she, is, expected, to, sell, 6, every, second, over, the, w, e, she, makes, 1, per, book, which, means, 360, per, minute, 21,600, per, hour, not, a, bad, hourly, rate, or, just, over, a, million, quid, for, the, w, e, as, every, other, person, on, the, tills, was, buying, a, copy, i, can, well, believe, it, sun, 22nd, church, in, the, morning, was, joint, communion, and, was, lead, by, the, denton, holm, house, group, the, church, meets, up, in, small, groups, mid, week, to, pray, and, study, bible, and, the, denton, holme, grp, lead, the, service, it, means, you, get, a, refreshingly, different, type, of, service, with, different, people, taking, part, and, leading, it, was, good, followed, by, a, picnic, in, the, park, which, was, ok, but, i, just, wanted, to, fall, asleep, in, the, sunshine, i, am, suffering, from, stopping, syndrome, i, can, keep, going, on, the, adrenalin, but, when, i, stop, thump, i, fall, asleep, and, can, not, get, going, picked, up, liz, from, church, in, the, evening, having, left, youngest, two, at, home, as, wife, was, late, back, from, her, course, thank, goodness, for, mobile, phones, or, rather, at, least, they, manage, to, make, a, complex, life, possible, really, i, should, have, let, her, pick, up, friend, and, missed, church, and, upset, a, by, telling, her, she, couldn’t, go, but, it, all, worked, out, in, the, end, mon, 23rd, friend, arrived, at, some, terrible, hour, she, finally, left, bristol, after, 8pm, after, meaning, to, leave, at, lunchtime, so, as, wife, and, i, were, exhausted, we, did, not, get, up, to, welcome, her, work, is, really, quiet, with, very, little, happening, son, is, in, a, strop, cos, we, will, not, let, him, go, sailing, after, cricket, after, school, as, he, will, be, exhausted, he, takes, after, us, if, there, is, a, possibility, we, try, to, achieve, it, our, own, fault, really, but, it, is, weird, how, you, see, your, own, faults, coming, through, in, your, children, tues, 24th, spent, the, day, talking, to, people, on, the, phone, trying, to, get, funding, for, the, research, project, have, a, few, leads, and, ideas, to, get, together, so, should, be, interesting, to, see, if, it, comes, together, weds, 25th, started, at, 4am, with, a, caesarean, which, was, really, nice, as, that, time, in, the, morning, is, beautiful, it, is, just, a, shame, that, the, rest, of, the, day, is, a, bit, of, a, wash, out, because, of, it, went, at, night, to, the, fa, training, course, which, was, class, room, based, on, a, warm, sunny, evening, and, i, was, struggling, to, stay, with, it, i, have, also, decided, that, i, need, to, get, fit, as, the, practical, day, is, going, to, be, very, long, for, my, unfit, legs, thursday, the, electrician, arrived, to, sort, out, the, electrics, in, the, bathroom, which, are, still, not, right, the, lights, keep, fusing, and, the, fan, will, not, work, i, had, a, look, at, the, wiring, which, is, a, mess, and, decided, i, could, not, follow, it, and, after, my, last, experience, i, decided, i, would, just, pay, him, to, keep, him, in, a, job, i, had, a, very, enjoyable, day, off, played, son, at, squash, and, lost, now, not, only, is, he, better, than, me, at, football, but, squash, a, swell, all, down, hill, from, here, on, in, went, to, church, in, the, evening, as, rw, was, speaking, it, was, interesting, to, hear, him, though, was, more, a, chat, than, a, biblical, exposition, friday, the, email, from, the, verse, of, the, day, seems, to, sum, up, a, years, worth, of, diaries, when, times, are, good, be, happy, but, when, times, are, bad, consider, god, has, made, the, one, as, well, as, the, other, therefore, a, man, cannot, discover, anything, about, his, future, ecclesiastes, 7, 14, new, international, version, the, future, is, uncertain, i, will, leave, my, job, in, a, few, months, time, for, a, new, start, the, pressures, of, fmd, seem, to, be, distant, in, the, warm, summer, weather, and, in, the, quiet, workload, making, me, feel, rested, and, relaxed, the, challenges, both, for, agriculture, the, veterinary, practice, and, for, policymakers, are, still, very, large, there, is, now, a, threat, of, bio, terrorism, to, add, to, the, food, scares, and, the, threat, of, exotic, disease, life, carries, on, we, may, not, learn, from, all, our, mistakes, and, government, depts, are, a, blunt, slow, awkward, machine, but, the, cows, will, still, need, to, be, milked, and, we, will, still, need, food, on, our, table, if, in, 68, you, told, some, one, that, we, had, not, had, an, outbreak, of, fmd, for, 35, years, they, would, have, said, well, done, if, you, had, said, 2, men, were, milking, 300, cows, on, a, cumbrian, farm, and, getting, 7000, litres, per, cow, he, would, never, have, believed, you, there, is, a, time, for, everything, and, a, season, for, every, activity, under, the, heaven, a, time, to, be, born, and, a, time, to, die, a, time, to, plant, and, a, time, to, uproot, a, time, to, kill, and, a, time, to, heal, a, time, to, tear, down, and, a, time, to, build, a, time, to, weep, and, a, time, to, laugh, a, time, to, mourn, and, a, time, to, dance, a, time, to, scatter, stones, and, a, time, 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paper, diary, has, lots, of, newspaper, cuttings, and, other, related, material, week, beginning, 25th, february, 2002, after, the, snow, which, fell, at, the, weekend, melted, combined, with, the, additional, rainfall, many, of, the, fields, surrounding, the, village, as, well, as, the, roads, were, flooded, usually, this, wouldn't, concern, you, much, however, with, the, burial, site, being, so, close, and, the, number, of, underground, streams, in, the, area, it, does, become, worrying, there, isn't, any, guarantee, that, groundwater, in, the, surrounding, area, won't, become, effected, and, to, what, extent, there, seem, to, be, a, number, of, aspects, to, me, concerning, this, issue, which, remain, unclear, for, example, what, exactly, can, be, carried, in, water, and, how, might, this, effect, people, in, the, area, what, is, being, tested, for, in, the, surrounding, streams, what, exactly, is, classed, as, a, danger, and, if, problems, did, arise, how, would, they, be, monitored, and, resolved, all, these, issues, do, tend, to, make, you, anxious, in, particular, on, monday, when, i, was, out, walking, my, dog, i, noticed, a, couple, of, drains, which, i, passed, looked, as, if, they, were, blocked, and, there, was, a, lot, of, water, around, it, just, makes, you, wonder, how, much, has, come, possibly, from, the, burial, site, and, if, it, is, actually, safe, my, worries, on, monday, about, the, groundwater, were, even, more, emphasised, by, the, statement, i, heard, on, the, border, news, on, tuesday, by, the, environment, agency, this, statement, was, concerning, the, future, safety, of, the, groundwater, in, the, area, around, the, burial, site, the, agency, could, give, no, guarantee, that, the, groundwater, would, not, become, affected, in, the, future, since, then, i, have, heard, no, further, news, about, the, issue, there, may, be, more, information, on, news, reports, i, missed, in, my, opinion, not, enough, information, is, given, to, the, public, about, these, issues, results, of, testing, by, the, environment, agency, are, meant, to, be, available, to, the, public, however, i, have, never, heard, much, about, the, details, i, think, more, effort, should, be, made, to, inform, in, particular, resident, near, burial, sites, as, these, issues, are, bound, to, be, important, to, them, after, hearing, the, news, i, did, become, more, worried, but, at, the, end, of, the, day, there, is, little, we, can, really, do, ourselves, you, find, yourself, having, to, trust, people, or, agencies, you, know, little, about, and, just, hoping, everything, will, be, alright, on, tuesday, also, noticed, a, horrible, smell, outside, so, did, my, fiancé, but, again, you, can't, be, sure, exactly, where, this, is, coming, from, or, what, is, causing, it, on, thursday, with, news, of, possible, foot, and, mouth, case, further, south, near, leeds, i, became, very, worried, that, this, whole, thing, was, going, to, start, all, over, again, my, worries, were, about, the, farmers, and, people, involved, and, how, they, would, be, affected, if, other, cases, could, be, identified, and, in, particular, affecting, my, own, life, if, animals, would, have, to, be, slaughtered, again, in, the, future, where, would, they, be, disposed, of, would, existing, burial, sites, be, reopened, as, opposed, to, finding, suitable, sites, for, new, burial, sites, it, would, seem, easier, to, reopen, burial, sites, but, what, would, this, mean, for, the, future, and, to, what, extent, would, the, health, risks, be, increased, i, was, very, relieved, to, hear, the, testing, of, the, foot, and, mouth, cases, came, back, negative, i, was, relieved, for, the, people, involved, and, also, residents, near, burial, sites, however, this, did, raise, questions, in, my, mind, of, how, this, sort, of, situation, would, be, handled, in, the, future, and, what, consequences, it, might, have, week, 2, 4th, march, on, monday, passed, driving, test, and, now, fiancé, and, myself, are, insured, on, a, small, car, this, opens, up, so, many, opportunities, and, we, have, a, huge, sense, of, freedom, last, summer, we, had, planned, to, go, on, a, camping, holiday, with, our, dog, dog, we, had, al, our, equipment, prepared, but, were, unable, to, go, due, to, the, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, neither, of, us, imagined, how, long, and, widespread, the, outbreak, would, be, and, thought, at, first, it, would, be, over, in, a, few, weeks, now, a, year, later, we, are, able, to, replan, our, holiday, this, is, exciting, as, we, have, waited, so, long, it, is, unbelievable, to, think, how, long, it, has, taken, for, restrictions, on, the, countryside, to, return, to, as, normal, as, can, be, possible, due, to, the, circumstances, for, the, actual, people, directly, involved, in, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, this, must, have, seemed, like, far, longer, on, tuesday, i, had, a, lovely, surprise, when, i, noticed, the, lambs, in, a, field, near, my, house, when, out, walking, my, dog, it, was, lovely, to, see, and, for, a, few, minutes, things, almost, seemed, normal, again, even, though, the, burial, site, is, only, about, a, mile, away, it, is, hidden, from, view, from, the, village, you, never, forget, though, as, soon, as, you, spot, the, windmills, and, remember, the, repeated, pictures, featured, in, the, news, seeing, the, lambs, really, did, lift, my, spirits, and, the, future, after, foot, and, mouth, didn’t, seem, as, bad, as, thought, the, week, before, i, can’t, recall, the, exact, days, but, they, were, towards, the, beginning, of, the, week, on, two, particular, occasions, my, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, terrible, smell, outside, we, aren’t, sure, exactly, what, the, smell, was, just, that, it, was, very, unpleasant, the, only, other, incident, which, i, can, recall, which, stands, out, in, my, mind, this, past, week, is, a, conversation, i, had, with, my, fiancé’s, granddad, we, were, talking, about, how, bad, last, year’s, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, had, been, and, he, recalled, the, outbreak, of, 1967, he, commented, on, how, he, thought, that, outbreak, had, been, far, better, controlled, it, was, better, as, the, animals, were, killed, and, buried, on, the, actual, farms, in, lime, there, was, no, transporting, dead, or, live, animals, like, last, year, he, also, commented, on, the, fact, that, there, were, no, pyres, then, and, that, he, hadn’t, thought, it, a, good, idea, last, year, overall, he, thought, that, last, year’s, outbreak, could, have, been, dealt, with, better, and, that, action, was, taken, far, too, late, to, prevent, the, disease, spreading, week, 3, 11th, march, one, new, thing, i, have, noticed, this, week, is, the, amount, of, birds, there, are, flying, around, especially, black, crows, i, think, it, is, because, i, have, been, driving, and, every, time, i, drive, past, the, fields, at, the, south, end, of, the, village, there, are, large, amounts, of, crows, hustled, together, can, never, remember, it, being, quite, like, that, last, summer, it, makes, you, wonder, why, so, many, are, drawn, to, just, those, fields, as, i, drive, past, in, the, next, few, weeks, i, will, see, if, it, is, still, the, same, on, about, occasions, this, week, fiancé, and, i, have, noticed, a, slight, smell, outside, again, not, as, foul, smelling, but, still, noticeable, on, tuesday, saw, new, series, featured, on, itv, called, rural, lives, i, think, this, is, a, good, idea, as, the, issue, of, foot, and, mouth, is, still, very, painful, to, a, lot, of, people, and, is, not, over, yet, the, effects, are, still, happening, however, on, the, news, and, in, other, media, it, isn’t, often, mentioned, and, doesn’t, get, the, attention, it, deserves, hopefully, through, programmes, like, this, people, will, get, a, better, understanding, of, the, issues, involved, and, what, different, people, went, through, if, an, outbreak, ever, happened, again, all, the, people, involved, would, hopefully, have, a, better, idea, of, how, to, handle, the, actual, crisis, and, a, better, idea, of, people’s, needs, for, example, the, farmers, these, are, long, term, effects, which, can’t, be, ignored, my, mum, came, out, for, a, couple, of, nights, she, loves, coming, out, to, see, us, as, she, lives, in, carlisle, it, is, a, total, change, of, scenery, she, thought, it, was, great, and, enjoyed, taking, my, dog, on, long, walks, which, she, was, unable, to, do, for, a, long, time, we, went, to, see, the, lambs, in, the, lovely, weather, shows, we, are, able, to, start, enjoying, the, countryside, again, especially, coming, up, to, spring, and, summer, we, were, even, able, to, go, to, dalston, with, my, dog, and, wander, about, we, have, been, so, used, to, having, to, stick, t, the, roads, just, in, the, local, area, it, was, lovely, a, nice, change, it, does, tend, to, make, you, more, confident, about, the, coming, year, and, we, are, looking, forward, to, the, summer, week, 4, 18th, march, this, past, week, started, of, with, a, day, out, at, bowness, i, went, with, my, fiancé, and, took, our, dog, dog, it, was, lovely, to, let, her, off, the, lead, to, run, she, really, enjoys, it, and, got, absolutely, filthy, travelling, in, the, car, is, becoming, easier, for, dog, and, she, goes, crazy, when, you, arrive, we, have, only, had, dog, just, over, 2, years, and, for, the, past, year, we, couldn’t, let, her, off, the, lead, to, run, anywhere, we, are, tiring, t, train, her, again, she, listens, to, a, certain, extent, but, we, have, to, keep, an, eye, on, her, cheeky, side, i, remember, wondering, when, the, foot, and, mouth, started, how, we, were, going, to, exercise, dog, as, walking, her, on, the, roads, used, to, be, more, difficult, due, to, the, large, vehicles, travelling, up, and, down, and, also, the, fact, dog, isn’t, the, best, on, the, lead, she, used, to, be, really, energetic, and, a, bit, of, a, handful, however, now, she, has, got, used, to, a, more, relaxed, life, and, at, times, i, think, she, quite, likes, it, it, did, us, all, good, to, have, some, exercise, and, fresh, air, and, it, was, lovely, to, have, a, change, of, scenery, apart, from, on, monday, i, haven’t, really, been, anywhere, else, apart, from, shopping, and, have, been, busy, doing, my, a, level, work, therefore, i, haven’t, really, noticed, anything, different, this, week, and, haven’t, thought, about, foot, and, mouth, as, much, my, overall, view, this, week, has, been, quite, confident, and, there, has, been, no, real, significant, happenings, to, change, my, view, quite, a, good, week, overall, week, 5, 25th, march, firstly, i, received, the, newsletter, sent, out, to, the, standing, panel, it, was, a, relief, to, finally, get, some, information, regarding, the, burial, site, it, was, good, to, have, an, explanation, on, how, things, work, on, the, site, in, terms, that, we, can, understand, it, is, a, relief, to, know, that, everything, so, far, is, still, safe, however, it, is, evident, that, there, is, much, more, work, and, monitoring, to, be, carried, out, in, the, future, even, though, it, is, still, not, possible, to, do, anything, ourselves, our, minds, are, at, least, put, at, rest, by, knowing, something, it, surprises, me, how, long, it, has, taken, for, information, like, this, to, be, made, accessible, to, the, public, i, think, this, newsletter, is, a, very, good, step, forward, as, information, is, reaching, the, public, and, participants, are, also, given, the, opportunity, to, ask, questions, and, put, other, ideas, forward, on, wednesday, my, mum, came, out, again, to, see, us, once, again, we, took, a, walk, to, go, see, the, lambs, in, the, field, near, us, it, was, enjoyable, and, we, had, lovely, weather, it, makes, you, realise, how, much, you, take, for, granted, around, you, without, thinking, twice, my, mum, has, made, me, realise, this, even, more, by, seeing, how, much, she, enjoys, such, a, simple, thing, and, how, special, she, thinks, it, is, sometimes, i, think, when, you, are, surrounded, by, the, country, and, nature, all, the, time, you, forget, how, lucky, you, are, my, mum, and, gran, would, both, love, to, live, somewhere, like, here, the, biggest, surprise, this, week, was, when, i, received, the, parish, magazine, for, the, month, and, found, in, it, the, watchtree, news, this, is, the, first, time, i, have, ever, seen, anything, like, this, from, the, parish, council, i, think, it, is, a, very, good, idea, as, the, information, will, be, accessible, to, everyone, in, the, appropriate, parishes, even, though, it, is, long, overdue, it, is, very, worthwhile, and, i, think, will, be, very, informative, it, covers, a, wide, range, of, issues, the, majority, of, which, i, knew, very, little, about, and, wouldn’t, have, known, for, the, future, for, example, the, maintenance, going, to, be, carried, out, between, the, a595, orton, grange, junction, and, the, site, entrance, at, least, we, now, have, knowledge, of, this, before, it, is, going, to, be, carried, out, as, it, will, affect, other, members, of, our, family, who, live, on, the, orton, grange, junction, who, would, otherwise, have, had, no, idea, some, of, the, information, was, surprising, for, example, the, number, of, tankers, that, leave, the, site, everyday, which, i, didn’t, expect, to, be, so, high, and, which, could, rise, important, issues, are, also, now, being, tackled, such, as, the, bad, state, of, the, local, roads, the, affected, people, are, also, being, encouraged, to, report, these, things, themselves, to, the, appropriate, people, i, think, this, has, been, a, significant, development, and, will, be, very, useful, in, the, aftermath, of, foot, and, mouth, communication, between, the, appropriate, authorities, and, the, public, is, essential, week, 6, 1st, april, unfortunately, it, has, been, all, go, this, week, one, bit, of, work, after, another, i, haven't, had, time, to, focus, on, very, much, else, this, past, week, despite, this, fact, i, have, still, had, quite, a, positive, week, it, is, better, studying, out, here, as, there, are, few, distractions, and, everything, is, lovely, and, peaceful, a, drastic, difference, from, last, year, at, that, time, it, was, difficult, to, concentrate, on, anything, for, too, long, far, too, many, distractions, my, fiancé, however, has, been, up, to, the, burial, site, and, nearby, on, sunday, he, went, for, a, drive, with, a, friend, and, wondered, what, it, looked, like, up, there, we, have, only, ever, seen, it, on, television, reports, but, never, been, up, there, ourselves, in, a, future, diary, when, he, has, time, he, will, write, a, few, words, on, what, he, thought, week, 7, 8th, april, once, again, this, week, has, been, full, of, work, i, haven't, had, much, time, to, do, anything, apart, from, work, on, thursday, i, had, a, break, and, my, mom, came, out, for, a, bbq, for, the, first, time, this, year, we, have, put, out, our, patio, tables, and, chairs, as, the, weather, was, staying, pleasant, we, sat, out, for, a, while, in, the, evening, and, had, our, bbq, it, was, a, lovely, break, for, my, mom, as, there, is, peace, and, quiet, out, here, as, opposed, to, in, town, we, all, really, enjoyed, it, my, mom, and, fiance, both, commented, how, lovely, it, was, to, sit, outside, in, the, nice, weather, without, a, nasty, smell, about, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, haven't, noticed, things, smelling, so, bad, as, on, a, few, occasions, recently, there, has, also, been, a, decrease, in, the, amount, of, birds, in, particular, crows, which, have, been, in, the, fields, to, the, south, of, where, we, are, near, the, crossroads, on, the, couple, of, occasions, during, the, week, when, i, have, been, past, the, fields, there, have, only, been, a, couple, of, birds, flying, around, as, opposed, to, a, whole, field, full, of, crows, at, one, time, it, was, also, lovely, to, hear, the, sheep, especially, as, the, evening, became, darker, in, the, background, you, could, hear, the, sheep, just, in, the, field, next, to, us, and, also, the, lambs, a, few, fields, away, it, was, something, which, we, still, aren't, quite, used, to, but, which, we, appreciate, so, much, more, now, week, 8, 15th, april, i, was, feeling, quite, confident, this, week, until, friday, when, watch, the, news, i, saw, the, report, on, new, bovine, tb, cases, which, are, worrying, even, though, it, is, said, it, wouldn’t, be, as, serious, as, foot, and, mouth, it, is, still, worrying, as, it, has, the, potential, to, destroy, many, more, lives, and, bankrupt, more, farmers, who, have, probably, just, got, over, foot, and, mouth, the, worry, must, be, especially, bad, for, the, farmers, as, it, is, bad, enough, for, the, general, public, especially, after, seeing, the, damage, caused, by, foot, and, mouth, in, such, a, short, space, of, time, it, would, be, absolutely, terrible, if, this, summer, was, anything, like, last, summer, how, long, would, it, take, for, everything, to, get, back, to, normal, then, even, though, foot, and, mouth, is, evidently, far, different, to, bovine, tb, hopefully, things, will, have, been, learned, from, last, year, which, will, prevent, this, from, becoming, a, disaster, too, apart, from, that, other, aspects, of, the, foot, and, mouth, smell, etc, haven’t, been, as, bad, this, past, week, i, haven’t, noticed, any, particular, occasions, when, the, smell, has, been, particularly, bad, or, noticeable, in, addition, on, the, occasions, when, i, have, driven, past, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, there, have, been, hardly, any, crows, near, there, which, is, a, huge, improvement, there, were, a, number, of, seagulls, in, one, field, but, nowhere, near, the, amount, of, crows, there, were, before, there, has, also, been, a, decrease, in, the, amount, of, tankers, going, by, recently, that, i, have, noticed, at, first, i, didn’t, take, much, notice, of, it, but, then, fiancé, s, grandad, mentioned, that, he, had, hardly, seen, any, he, seems, to, notice, them, move, more, than, we, do, as, he, lives, on, the, orton, grange, junction, with, wigton, road, and, they, all, have, to, go, past, there, with, all, these, things, happening, the, presence, of, the, burial, site, nearby, seems, less, obvious, week, 9, 22nd, april, the, last, week, has, been, quite, a, pleasant, week, probably, because, i, have, eventually, finished, my, coursework, and, have, been, able, to, have, a, bit, of, peace, and, quiet, i, think, this, combined, with, periods, of, lovely, weather, have, made, me, feel, quite, good, on, tuesday, when, i, travelled, to, town, and, back, i, went, past, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, to, the, south, of, the, village, which, in, the, past, have, been, full, of, crows, or, seagulls, as, i, have, noticed, on, other, odd, occasions, over, the, past, week, they, appear, to, be, empty, now, i’ll, keep, an, eye, on, how, this, changes, over, the, summer, if, it, does, on, friday, i, noticed, that, there, were, a, number, of, cattle, and, calves, in, the, field, just, opposite, our, house, i, can, stand, and, watch, them, from, my, back, patio, doors, which, is, lovely, with, the, reintroduction, of, the, sheep, and, cattle, in, the, area, it, is, like, everything, is, coming, together, finally, after, the, foot, and, mouth, and, life, is, returning, to, normal, in, some, sense, the, cattle, seem, to, be, the, last, part, needed, for, everything, to, seem, to, be, running, properly, and, the, animals, finally, moving, about, at, last, i, think, this, fact, combine, with, their, being, no, significant, incidents, of, nasty, smells, or, the, rumbling, of, the, tankers, going, by, has, made, things, seem, better, when, talking, to, fiance, s, grandad, he, mentioned, again, that, there, still, haven’t, been, as, many, tankers, going, past, his, house, at, orton, grange, as, there, have, been, this, past, week, there, have, been, hardly, any, reminders, of, the, burial, site, and, the, past, foot, and, mouth, problems, living, in, the, country, has, seemed, quite, normal, after, what, seems, a, long, time, week, 10, 29th, april, all, in, all, this, week, has, been, a, good, week, overall, with, regard, to, the, foot, and, mouth, everything, seems, to, have, quietened, down, and, there, are, hardly, any, visible, reminders, of, the, burial, site, and, foot, and, mouth, around, the, village, as, i, mentioned, last, week, there, still, haven’t, been, any, noticeable, occasions, of, smells, possibly, from, the, burial, site, the, tankers, have, hardly, been, noticeable, around, the, village, and, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, have, still, been, fairly, empty, of, birds, in, particular, crows, this, was, explained, and, backed, up, in, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazines, which, i, received, this, week, it, was, good, to, read, and, very, informative, worth, reading, i, still, think, it, is, a, good, idea, and, is, being, done, well, as, it, discusses, issues, happening, now, and, also, keeps, you, informed, about, action, in, the, future, the, newsletter, mentioned, the, reduction, in, the, amount, of, tankers, which, i, have, noticed, it, also, mentions, that, there, might, be, a, slight, smell, from, the, burial, sited, during, work, but, so, far, i, haven’t, noticed, anything, once, again, it, has, been, lovely, seeing, both, the, sheep, and, the, cows, in, the, surrounding, fields, especially, at, the, moment, when, they, are, with, their, young, on, saturday, on, the, way, down, to, fiance, s, grandad, there, were, road, works, near, the, baldwinholme, bend, in, the, road, this, part, was, in, a, bad, condition, and, is, now, much, better, i, think, the, damage, was, caused, by, the, trucks, etc, used, during, foot, and, mouth, however, i’m, not, sure, week, 11, 6th, may, this, week, has, been, my, 21st, birthday, i’m, growing, up, i, had, a, lovely, day, on, thursday, and, as, a, surprise, i, was, taken, t, the, lake, district, for, the, day, it, was, lovely, and, i, really, enjoyed, it, firstly, we, stopped, off, at, bassenthwaite, lake, for, a, bit, fed, the, ducks, and, had, a, picnic, then, off, to, dodd, wood, for, a, coffee, and, to, see, the, ospreys, it, was, great, to, see, them, and, i, think, we, were, quite, lucky, then, we, had, a, pleasant, walk, around, myre, house, i, was, reminded, of, how, lucky, we, are, in, cumbria, to, have, such, lovely, places, and, i, am, glad, that, we, are, now, able, to, go, to, these, places, again, now, we’ve, got, a, car, we, are, going, to, take, better, advantage, of, cumbria, and, what, it, has, to, offer, once, again, i, realised, how, much, we, take, what, we, have, for, granted, overall, this, has, been, a, good, week, and, reminders, of, foot, and, mouth, and, the, burial, site, have, been, minimal, there, have, been, no, smells, i, have, noticed, and, hardly, any, signs, of, wagons, it, is, still, lovely, to, see, the, sheep, and, cattle, around, the, village, week, 12, 13th, may, on, wednesday, i, met, my, mum, in, town, and, got, the, cumberland, news, off, her, i, was, reading, about, the, county, council, inquiry, at, kendal, i, think, it, is, good, how, the, different, people, involved, in, the, inquiry, are, all, being, honest, about, what, happened, that, is, the, only, way, anything, will, be, improved, in, the, future, if, anything, of, a, similar, nature, should, happen, again, i, really, hope, it, doesn’t, from, reading, the, articles, written, and, what, people, have, said, it, is, clear, what, a, wide, range, of, people, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, affected, and, also, how, badly, when, you, read, of, other, people, who, have, had, family, who, have, been, so, low, it, has, driven, them, to, suicide, you, do, seem, to, feel, a, bit, guilty, as, when, we, complain, it, hasn’t, affected, us, is, such, a, drastic, way, it, brings, the, seriousness, and, the, extent, of, the, crisis, to, people’s, attention, despite, the, terrible, things, which, took, place, during, the, crisis, hopefully, some, good, will, come, out, of, it, for, the, present, and, the, future, on, thursday, fiance, went, to, the, doctor’s, and, was, talking, to, a, farmer, in, the, waiting, room, as, soon, as, fiance, mentioned, he, lived, in, great, orton, the, farmer, asked, straight, away, what, it, was, like, to, live, here, so, near, to, the, burial, site, and, how, he, couldn’t, imagine, what, it, would, have, been, like, it, too, has, been, such, a, long, time, since, anyone, has, said, anything, like, that, to, either, one, of, us, at, the, time, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, people, used, to, ask, questions, and, what, it, was, like, to, live, so, near, it, is, strange, when, farmers, in, particular, feel, sympathy, towards, you, for, living, near, the, burial, site, when, on, the, other, hand, it, is, the, farmers, i, feel, sympathy, for, before, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, a, fair, number, of, people, even, from, carlisle, didn’t, know, where, great, orton, was, but, now, many, do, and, realise, how, close, to, carlisle, it, actually, is, week, 13, 20th, may, i, haven't, really, done, anything, very, exciting, this, past, week, unfortunately, i've, been, revising, again, and, preparing, for, a, presentation, for, my, a, level, which, i, have, to, do, next, week, my, presentation, was, on, turrets, and, watchtowers, which, i, found, a, bit, confusing, at, first, from, the, books, i've, been, using, so, dragged, fiance, to, drive, and, dog, out, past, brampton, to, hadrian's, wall, there, i, found, a, watchtower, and, a, turret, everything, became, much, clearer, on, the, way, back, we, spotted, a, sign, for, a, camping, barn, on, hadrian's, wall, banks, east, we, were, both, very, interested, so, sent, away, for, the, brochure, at, this, point, we, decided, to, reconsider, our, holiday, plans, and, realised, we, didn't, need, to, go, far, afield, like, amsterdam, our, 1st, choice, then, scotland, 2nd, choice, we, hadn't, realised, actually, how, many, places, there, were, so, nearby, which, were, ideal, we, came, to, the, conclusion, a, holiday, in, cumbria, would, be, the, best, choice, as, 1, we, could, take, dog, with, us, 2, we, could, go, by, car, and, 3, it, would, be, a, bit, cheaper, as, fiance, mentioned, it, would, also, be, good, after, everything, to, put, the, money, we, were, spending, back, into, cumbria, we, were, hoping, to, go, next, week, as, it, is, half, term, the, week, after, and, my, exams, after, that, hopefully, we, will, get, something, organised, on, thursday, we, got, the, orton, newsletter, fiance, and, i, were, both, quite, disappointed, when, we, read, that, land, around, this, area, are, being, sold, for, the, building, of, houses, it, is, good, in, a, way, as, people, are, moving, forward, after, f, m, but, we, wish, it, wasn't, in, a, residential, sense, it, is, just, a, pity, so, much, of, the, farming, will, be, lost, 6, houses, at, baldwinholme, 4, in, great, orton, even, though, i, haven't, been, brought, up, with, a, farming, background, from, what, i, have, seen, it, would, be, a, pity, for, us, to, lose, this, part, of, our, countryside, week, 14, 27th, may, on, monday, saw, cb, and, was, pleased, to, hear, the, f, m, standing, panel, project, was, going, well, as, i, think, it’s, worthwhile, and, as, much, as, possible, should, be, learned, for, the, future, on, tuesday, i, attended, the, meeting, for, the, foot, and, mouth, disease, inquiry, at, great, orton, village, hall, at, 7pm, i, was, glad, i, attended, the, meeting, as, people, could, voice, their, opinions, and, try, to, get, information, about, issues, both, about, the, present, and, the, future, my, general, view, of, the, meeting, and, how, it, went, was, that, the, general, feeling, of, the, villagers, etc, was, that, they, were, losing, interest, and, nothing, was, still, being, done, there, were, many, empty, seats, i, estimated, a, total, number, of, 50, 60, people, there, was, a, whole, new, panel, of, faces, even, though, this, was, a, new, inquiry, so, there, were, new, people, on, the, panel, but, between, the, meetings, there, is, no, feel, of, continuity, as, no, one, is, sure, of, what, has, been, said, before, and, there, are, never, the, answers, promised, from, one, meeting, to, another, it, seems, as, if, this, is, a, way, of, avoiding, answers, and, getting, out, of, situations, there, were, new, aspects, which, were, brought, up, which, had, not, yet, been, disclosed, never, at, any, meeting, i, have, attended, such, as, the, fact, the, burial, was, planned, and, used, for, the, burial, of, uninfected, animals, which, is, not, what, we, were, led, to, believe, with, al, the, engineering, on, site, again, this, is, lack, of, communication, and, no, one, is, sure, of, the, facts, defra, also, are, only, guaranteeing, funding, for, this, site, for, the, next, 5, years, and, it, is, worrying, who’s, burden, this, will, become, after, then, a, variety, of, other, issues, were, discussed, health, roads, handling, of, outbreak, vaccination, etc, after, the, meeting, i, was, glad, i, had, been, however, i, felt, rather, angry, by, the, way, in, which, the, questions, are, handled, the, answers, are, often, vague, have, no, supporting, evidence, or, are, dismissed, with, i’ll, have, to, get, back, to, you, on, that, or, i, can’t, comment, in, my, opinion, many, of, the, farmers, villagers, etc, just, want, this, whole, thing, brought, to, an, end, ideally, the, remaining, trenches, filled, in, a, nature, reserve, created, and, maintained, there, were, no, guarantees, of, the, site, not, being, used, again, or, funding, after, the, next, five, years, will, this, ever, be, achieved, on, saturday, morning, fiance, and, i, decided, to, go, away, for, a, short, break, to, somewhere, near, and, where, we, could, take, dog, it, was, a, spontaneous, decision, for, the, jubilee, and, because, it, was, half, term, i, was, not, at, college, we, ended, up, going, to, a, caravan, site, with, dog, for, 4, nights, i, will, update, about, my, holiday, in, the, next, diary, clipping, from, news, and, star, here, story, about, great, orton, public, meeting, and, villagers, request, not, to, have, site, used, again, in, the, event, of, future, emergencies, holiday, week, beginning, monday, 3rd, june, week, 15, 10th, june, i, am, writing, this, a, couple, of, days, early, just, to, tell, you, about, our, holiday, it, was, lovely, in, the, end, we, hadn't, yet, received, the, brochure, on, the, camping, barns, so, on, saturday, we, decided, we, would, like, to, go, away, as, son, as, possible, and, would, like, something, for, the, jubilee, weekend, after, finding, a, caravan, at, caldbeck, not, far, away, relatively, quiet, we, went, by, 5, pm, on, saturday, fiance, dog, and, i, were, there, it, was, a, lovely, caravan, site, lovely, caravan, and, even, a, tv, for, the, world, cup, the, caravan, site, was, surrounded, by, common, land, sheep, lovely, and, quiet, and, a, lot, of, places, to, keep, dog, occupied, we, were, so, surprised, at, how, quiet, the, campsite, was, over, the, jubilee, weekend, but, thought, most, of, the, people, actually, lived, there, it, would, be, lovely, in, the, future, to, have, a, small, caravan, there, to, go, away, to, the, surrounding, places, we, went, to, were, really, busy, for, example, keswick, bassenthwaite, etc, i, was, quite, surprised, but, thought, it, was, great, to, see, cumbria, lively, again, what, a, contrast, to, what, i, would, have, imagined, these, places, to, be, like, a, year, ago, especially, for, the, jubilee, everyone, seemed, to, make, such, an, effort, it, was, lovely, to, see, we, all, had, a, lovely, time, so, relaxing, oi, don't, think, dog, has, ever, walked, so, far, we, were, surprised, that, somewhere, so, close, was, exactly, what, we, wanted, we, were, also, happy, we, could, put, our, money, back, into, cumbria, we, would, definitely, go, back, i, feel, so, much, more, confident, about, the, future, especially, in, cumbria, after, this, week, if, you, didn't, know, about, last, year, f, m, outbreak, in, some, cases, it, would, be, hard, to, tell, i, really, think, cumbria, seems, as, if, it, could, recover, from, this, hopefully, on, saturday, and, sunday, ill, in, bed, week, 16, 17th, june, with, the, combination, of, not, feeling, very, well, at, the, beginning, of, the, week, the, car, not, running, overt, the, week, end, and, dog, being, in, season, i, haven't, really, been, able, to, go, anywhere, this, week, it, has, been, quite, frustrating, but, i, have, had, work, to, do, anyway, i, still, feel, quite, confident, about, the, future, this, week, after, being, on, holiday, this, is, better, than, a, couple, of, weeks, ago, after, the, fmd, inquiry, meeting, when, i, felt, quite, unsure, at, time, of, what, was, going, to, happen, at, gt, orton, i, had, the, f, m, panel, newsletter, and, watchtree, newsletter, with, parish, magazine, i, think, both, of, these, are, good, as, you, are, able, to, gain, information, consistently, about, f, m, in, cumbria, and, in, particular, the, burial, site, this, information, would, be, difficult, to, come, by, otherwise, in, particular, i, enjoyed, reading, about, children, at, milburn, school, with, their, memories, of, the, f, m, outbreak, and, the, effort, they, have, made, researcher, had, spoken, with, respondent, about, possibility, of, monthly, diary, and, she, decided, to, start, straight, away, so, although, middle, of, month, here, follows, monthly, write, up, she, continued, to, record, her, diary, in, this, way, at, times, she, offers, short, daily, entries, drawing, 4, weeks, together, within, an, overall, reflective, piece, these, daily, entries, are, also, recorded, week, 20, 15th, july, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, i, am, looking, forward, to, attending, the, social, evening, in, dalston, i, am, a, bit, nervous, as, am, not, used, to, doing, these, sorts, of, things, but, think, it, will, be, a, good, experience, i, was, also, pleased, when, i, got, the, f, m, panel, newsletter, and, saw, the, article, i, made, notes, for, i, have, never, done, anything, like, this, before, and, was, quite, pleased, about, the, whole, thing, on, the, saturday, of, week, one, fiance, and, i, went, down, to, fiance, s, grandad's, and, noticed, there, were, more, signs, up, for, land, being, for, sale, again, we, both, think, this, is, quite, sad, as, the, area, will, inevitable, be, changing, in, the, near, future, we, wonder, how, much, of, the, land, will, be, reused, for, farming, or, sold, for, new, houses, taking, into, consideration, the, signs, we, have, seen, up, in, the, past, quite, a, bit, of, land, is, going, to, change, over, the, past, weeks, i, have, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, with, our, parish, magazine, i, still, think, this, is, a, good, idea, and, worthwhile, as, you, are, updated, every, so, often, this, will, also, reach, everyone, in, the, village, so, easily, accessible, over, a, period, of, a, few, days, in, week, 2, of, these, 4, weeks, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, a, strange, smell, outside, we, could, smell, it, here, but, not, at, fiance, s, grandad's, which, is, only, 2, miles, away, it, smelt, just, like, a, burning, smell, so, i, am, not, sure, whether, it, had, anything, to, do, with, the, burial, site, or, anything, being, done, up, there, i, just, thought, i, would, mention, it, anyway, last, wednesday, i, rang, up, the, archaeological, support, group, in, carlisle, of, which, i, have, been, a, member, for, the, past, year, and, a, half, i, had, never, been, sent, anything, to, do, with, it, for, along, time, and, wondered, why, it, turns, out, that, last, year, as, soon, as, f, m, hit, cumbria, everything, was, cancelled, and, stopped, this, i, knew, at, the, time, and, there, was, nothing, else, that, could, have, happened, the, thing, i, didn't, realise, was, that, things, have, been, so, badly, affected, that, nothing, has, been, arranged, as, yet, even, so, many, months, after, f, m, broke, out, once, again, this, is, another, example, of, how, things, have, been, affected, still, so, many, months, after, there, is, also, uncertainty, about, the, future, of, this, archaeology, group, as, nothing, has, been, decided, yet, and, it, will, depend, on, how, things, go, this, is, a, pity, and, i, hope, things, pick, up, in, the, future, on, the, first, week, of, these, 4, weeks, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, that, we, were, coughing, a, bit, more, especially, at, night, and, early, in, the, morning, since, then, fiance, has, got, better, and, is, not, coughing, as, much, but, now, i, have, got, a, sore, throat, and, a, cold, i, don't, think, this, is, anything, to, do, with, the, burial, site, or, anything, but, we, were, not, sure, about, the, coughing, and, i, thought, i, would, mention, it, 12th, august, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, i, do, not, feel, quite, as, nervous, now, as, i, did, about, the, evening, at, dalston, village, hall, it, was, a, bit, intimidating, at, first, as, i, was, going, on, the, same, night, as, frontline, workers, and, health, professionals, i, felt, a, bit, out, of, my, depth, when, i, wondered, what, sort, of, stories, they, would, be, telling, compared, to, what, i, had, seen, these, people, would, have, had, to, deal, with, the, situation, first, hand, and, must, have, seen, some, terrible, things, after, a, couple, of, weeks, i, grew, used, to, the, idea, and, didn't, feel, as, bad, it, would, turn, out, to, be, a, good, experience, as, it, turns, out, the, evening, is, now, on, the, 21st, august, and, everyone, is, going, together, things, will, be, a, bit, more, relaxed, for, me, i, think, i, hope, i, will, be, able, to, make, it, the, one, major, event, that, has, made, me, think, over, the, past, couple, of, week, is, fiance, s, auntie, jean, who, has, moved, house, from, orton, grange, 2, miles, away, from, us, into, the, middle, of, town, it, made, me, think, that, i, definitely, wouldn't, like, to, move, back, into, the, middle, of, carlisle, after, living, here, even, though, it, hasn't, been, the, most, pleasant, at, times, here, with, f, m, last, year, and, the, building, of, the, burial, site, i, would, still, miss, everything, about, it, once, again, i, am, reminded, how, lucky, i, am, to, be, surrounded, by, fields, cows, sheep, and, a, horse, in, the, overlooking, field, it, is, also, usually, quiet, and, peaceful, i, can, imagine, quite, different, to, the, middle, of, carlisle, i, think, jean, will, miss, it, quite, a, lot, just, over, a, week, ago, fiance, and, i, were, busy, getting, our, garden, ready, for, the, village, in, bloom, it, was, good, to, see, everyone, making, an, effort, to, everything, looking, nice, everything, felt, a, bit, more, normal, this, year, whereas, last, year, i, think, the, village, in, bloom, was, the, last, thing, on, most, people's, minds, it, made, me, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, perhaps, everything, or, most, things, may, return, to, normal, eventually, week, 24, 12th, august, nothing, extremely, significant, concerning, f, m, has, happened, this, week, i, have, noticed, though, now, when, working, at, village, pub, wellington, even, though, i, only, do, 1, day, it, has, really, become, quite, busy, i, think, business, has, improved, after, they, tried, more, advertising, i, can, remember, back, to, during, the, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, it, was, very, quiet, most, people, stayed, away, and, the, atmosphere, in, the, pub, was, very, depressing, now, over, a, year, later, things, do, seem, to, be, picking, up, again, and, perhaps, returning, more, to, normal, it, is, god, to, see, monday, 19th, august, all, in, all, it, has, been, a, quiet, week, i, haven’t, really, been, out, very, much, and, not, feeling, well, really, i, was, a, bit, disappointed, not, being, able, to, attend, the, social, evening, o, wednesday, as, my, mom, was, unable, to, get, time, off, work, or, change, her, shift, 26th, august, first, of, all, we, were, noticing, problems, with, our, goldfish, when, we, first, got, them, about, two, and, a, half, years, ago, we, had, very, few, problems, with, them, over, the, past, few, months, they, have, been, getting, ill, we, have, tried, all, sorts, different, chemicals, and, still, they, have, all, died, except, one, omar, fiance, s, cousin, who, breeds, fish, came, and, had, a, look, and, was, baffled, the, only, explanation, is, that, the, chemicals, have, been, changed, or, increased, for, example, the, chlorine, which, there, appears, to, be, a, lot, more, of, we, obviously, aren’t, totally, sure, what, the, problem, is, but, thought, we, should, mention, it, anyway, this, week, i, also, noticed, the, banner, opposite, the, village, shop, in, the, village, i, have, enclosed, an, article, about, this, banner, which, appeared, in, the, cumberland, news, this, week, i, think, this, sums, up, the, mood, i, have, noticed, at, the, village, meetings, nothing, has, yet, been, done, to, help, the, villagers, etc, so, what, difference, have, the, promises, made, this, is, the, main, reason, why, i, feel, less, confident, about, the, future, this, week, regarding, foot, and, mouth, as, these, things, are, still, dragging, on, monday, 2nd, september, during, the, first, week, of, these, diaries, nothing, really, significant, happened, regarding, foot, and, mouth, i, did, comment, however, that, when, working, at, the, pub, on, sundays, how, busy, the, pub, was, and, how, business, had, seemed, to, improve, a, lot, from, what, i, had, seen, during, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, the, atmosphere, then, had, been, depressing, this, made, me, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, regarding, foot, and, mouth, as, another, aspect, of, the, foot, and, mouth, had, seemed, to, return, back, to, normal, this, mood, however, did, change, during, the, third, week, of, these, diaries, when, i, felt, less, confident, about, the, future, it, all, began, when, our, goldfish, started, dying, apart, from, oner, we, still, are, not, sure, exactly, what, caused, it, and, are, not, sure, whether, or, not, it, was, because, of, the, water, here, or, something, we, did, there, just, seems, to, be, that, little, bit, of, doubt, in, my, mind, as, you, don’t, feel, totally, sure, about, what, is, happening, in, this, area, still, and, therefore, i, don’t, think, really, trust, the, organisations, dealing, with, these, issues, the, other, thing, that, seemed, to, sum, up, some, of, my, feelings, was, the, banner, which, appeared, opposite, the, village, shop, last, week, i, think, this, shows, the, desperation, and, lengths, some, of, the, people, in, the, village, have, to, go, through, in, order, to, get, noticed, and, heard, it, seems, ridiculous, that, the, same, basic, issues, brought, up, in, the, earlier, meetings, have, still, not, been, dealt, with, it, does, make, you, lose, the, trust, you, had, in, the, organisations, involved, article, enclosed, this, past, week, has, been, a, little, better, however, not, that, good, i, did, receive, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazine, which, is, still, good, to, receive, as, it, updates, you, on, a, number, of, different, aspects, of, the, burial, site, i, also, heard, about, the, article, in, the, newspaper, regarding, this, inquiry, from, cathy, as, well, as, my, mom, who, has, saved, it, for, me, but, as, yet, i, have, not, read, it, i, will, comment, on, this, in, my, next, diary, 9, 15, september, monday, got, free, news, star, last, week, and, found, article, on, f, m, diaries, not, too, bothered, that, it, has, been, printed, myself, tuesday, saw, cathy, said, about, articles, not, too, bothered, myself, but, can, see, why, otherwise, involved, would, be, as, things, are, not, represented, in, the, right, way, and, are, misleading, good, point, though, is, that, it, may, catch, people’s, attention, and, get, the, point, across, that, people, are, still, suffering, got, article, from, cumberland, news, mum, saturday, found, article, in, cumberland, news, regarding, village, in, bloom, won, a, trophy, for, our, special, efforts, in, village, in, aftermath, of, f, m, crisis, mark, andrews, trophy, 16, 22, september, monday, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, burning, smell, when, we, came, back, home, in, the, evening, not, sure, what, it, is, from, reminds, us, of, f, m, crisis, wednesday, road, works, in, village, didn’t, affect, us, too, much, thursday, road, works, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad’s, annoying, at, times, has, taken, such, a, long, time, to, do, reminds, us, of, f, m, crisis, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, burning, smell, again, not, sure, where, from, friday, good, that, watchtree, newsletter, told, us, of, these, road, works, as, wouldn’t, have, known, saturday, these, aspects, aren’t, too, bad, on, their, own, but, the, atmosphere, reminds, you, of, the, f, m, crisis, last, year, 23, 29, september, monday, read, the, diarist, and, also, had, a, look, at, the, inquiry, report, i, was, sent, after, attending, the, village, meeting, tuesday, have, not, had, time, to, read, very, much, of, it, but, i, will, get, round, to, it, and, then, comment, on, it, friday, parish, magazine, and, watchtree, newsletter, still, good, to, be, updated, on, what, is, going, on, 1, roads, and, 2, visiting, the, site, 30, 6th, october, monday, rang, up, to, book, table, at, the, autumn, fayre, being, done, in, village, hall, people, pleased, that, people, in, village, getting, involved, tuesday, water, has, been, quite, bad, especially, on, tuesday, full, of, chlorine, had, to, leave, for, a, while, for, everything, to, evaporate, makes, you, quite, concerned, about, whether, or, not, it, is, safe, to, drink, 6th, october, writing, after, 4, weeks, during, week, i, read, the, articles, regarding, those, f, m, diaries, which, appeared, in, the, cumberland, news, and, the, news, and, star, they, are, enclosed, after, reading, these, and, speaking, to, c, i, myself, wasn’t, too, bothered, or, offended, by, what, was, written, but, could, easily, have, seen, why, other, people, would, have, been, specially, if, they, are, finding, things, really, difficult, i, think, there, is, a, good, side, to, these, articles, as, well, though, as, they, will, have, grabbed, people’s, attention, and, highlighted, the, fact, that, there, are, still, problems, regarding, f, m, this, long, after, the, crisis, even, though, the, articles, were, misleading, they, have, also, done, some, good, when, reading, the, cumberland, news, i, also, found, a, mention, of, great, orton, regarding, the, village, in, bloom, it, turns, out, we, were, awarded, the, mark, andrews, trophy, for, special, efforts, during, the, aftermath, of, f, m, it, would, have, been, nice, to, win, a, better, award, but, at, least, we, were, recognised, for, something, i, was, quite, please, week, 2, was, probably, the, worst, week, i, have, had, during, the, past, month, regarding, f, m, as, the, whole, week, just, seemed, to, remind, me, of, what, it, was, like, during, the, crisis, firstly, there, were, road, works, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad’s, only, 2, miles, away, i, understand, these, had, to, be, carried, out, but, it, made, it, difficult, and, inconvenient, to, get, to, fiance, s, grandad’s, as, you, didn’t, know, which, roads, were, gong, to, be, closed, when, now, that, the, work, has, been, done, everyone, that, i, have, spoken, to, about, it, think, they, will, cause, more, trouble, than, before, as, when, you, pull, out, of, the, lay, bys, it, is, dangerous, as, the, grass, and, verge, have, not, been, smoothed, out, i, think, they, are, alright, if, you, already, know, the, roads, but, i, wouldn’t, be, as, confident, if, i, hadn’t, driven, on, them, before, the, other, aspect, which, made, the, road, works, seem, worse, were, two, instances, when, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, a, burning, smell, monday, and, thursday, we, were, not, sure, where, this, came, from, but, it, still, reminded, us, of, the, crisis, on, week, 3, i, received, a, copy, of, the, f, m, inquiry, and, glad, i, went, to, a, meting, in, the, village, sometimes, it, feels, good, to, be, involved, even, though, in, such, a, small, way, i, also, received, the, diarist, newsletter, and, watchtree, newsletter, which, i, am, still, glad, i, receive, without, the, watchtree, newsletter, i, don’t, think, i, would, have, been, informed, of, the, road, works, being, carried, out, i, am, also, glad, the, site, is, progressing, and, that, people, are, now, being, given, the, opportunity, to, visit, the, site, if, they, wish, on, week, 4, there, was, only, one, major, problem, with, our, water, on, tuesday, the, water, was, that, full, of, chlorine, that, we, had, to, leave, it, for, all, the, chlorine, in, it, to, evaporate, or, boil, it, even, to, give, dog, a, drink, this, is, the, second, time, this, has, happened, and, it, does, concern, you, as, firstly, why, is, this, being, done, and, secondly, is, the, water, safe, to, drink, we, are, not, sure, who, to, contact, about, this, as, last, time, we, contacted, united, utilities, who, said, it, was, just, routine, and, nothing, to, worry, about, week, beginning, 7th, october, not, much, this, week, regarding, fmd, think, i, have, been, too, busy, thinking, about, other, things, week, beginning, 14th, october, monday, relaxing, a, bit, today, as, going, to, be, a, busy, day, tomorrow, and, away, on, wednesday, tuesday, fiance, s, exam, turned, out, to, be, quiet, here, today, which, was, good, for, fiance, s, exam, as, he, did, it, at, home, would, have, been, difficult, last, year, with, pressure, of, f, m, weds, away, on, holiday, it, was, a, bit, of, a, drive, to, what, we, are, used, to, but, we, made, it, lovely, views, on, way, down, and, hawkshead, a, lovely, place, thursday, this, holiday, very, well, suited, for, dog, as, plenty, of, places, to, walk, a, quiet, campsite, and, shops, and, pubs, which, are, suited, for, dogs, things, she, is, not, quite, used, to, friday, lovely, to, be, away, for, a, break, away, from, great, orton, on, the, one, hand, but, then, you, remember, how, nice, it, is, where, we, are, and, how, luck, we, are, on, the, other, hand, sunday, had, a, very, good, week, and, confident, about, the, future, week, beginning, 21st, october, monday, having, quiet, week, as, just, got, back, quite, tired, but, coping, ok, nice, to, be, back, in, a, way, weds, got, watchtree, newsletters, in, parish, magazine, also, article, out, of, news, and, star, i, think, about, renaming, of, site, and, farm, that, used, to, be, there, thursday, watchtree, newsletter, interested, in, the, open, day, think, it’s, a, good, idea, and, will, be, very, interesting, especially, geology, and, fossil, remains, found, on, site, i, think, would, be, beneficial, as, even, though, we, live, in, the, village, and, have, been, to, the, meetings, still, have, little, idea, of, how, the, site, looks, now, and, will, in, the, future, week, beginning, 28th, october, weds, went, to, meet, mom, in, town, the, roads, into, town, were, terrible, mud, on, road, everywhere, and, really, busy, with, trucks, etc, must, be, where, they, are, doing, new, building, hope, it, doesn’t, get, like, this, all, the, time, as, so, much, land, round, here, seems, to, have, been, sold, for, new, construction, sat, mom, has, got, her, own, stall, this, week, end, at, the, craft, fair, in, the, village, hall, 1st, time, she, has, done, this, saw, it, in, parish, newsletter, 2nd, november, writing, after, 4, weeks, this, past, month, has, been, one, of, the, busiest, i, have, had, for, a, long, time, firstly, there, was, fiance, s, final, exam, which, was, quite, stressful, for, him, at, times, revising, and, everything, it, reminded, me, of, how, difficult, it, had, been, when, we, were, doing, our, first, exams, a, year, and, a, half, before, during, f, m, crisis, studying, had, been, very, difficult, then, due, to, constant, interruptions, and, distractions, constant, sound, of, trucks, smells, noise, tension, i’m, so, glad, it, wasn’t, this, bad, this, year, as, these, things, can, be, stressful, enough, shortly, after, fiance, s, exam, fiance, my, mom, and, i, went, for, a, short, break, to, hawkshead, it, was, great, we, all, enjoyed, it, and, dog, especially, everything, was, suited, for, dog, we, took, her, shopping, there, are, benches, and, water, bowls, outside, every, shop, we, went, for, a, bar, meal, and, sat, outside, with, her, and, on, our, last, night, even, too, her, with, us, and, went, for, a, pint, apart, from, these, things, we, also, took, her, on, plenty, of, walks, being, there, made, you, realise, how, lovely, cumbria, is, and, how, people, who, don’t, live, here, are, attracted, to, it, it, is, a, pity, how, cumbria, suffered, during, f, m, crisis, as, it, is, such, a, lovely, place, i, do, hope, that, due, to, the, large, amount, of, attractions, in, cumbria, that, things, will, hopefully, be, back, to, normal, as, can, be, expected, i, was, quite, surprised, at, how, busy, things, were, for, that, time, of, year, it, seems, things, must, be, improving, which, makes, you, confident, i, enjoyed, my, break, but, you, realise, maybe, great, orton, isn’t, such, a, bad, place, to, come, back, to, during, the, past, month, i, have, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, i’m, quite, interested, in, the, open, day, later, on, this, month, i, think, it, will, be, very, interesting, i’m, really, interested, in, the, geology, history, of, the, site, and, also, fossils, found, there, during, this, work, i, don’t, know, much, about, how, the, site, looks, or, how, it, will, be, in, the, future, it, is, amazing, that, you, can, live, so, near, but, still, have, no, idea, of, what, it, is, like, all, i, can, seem, to, remember, are, the, pictures, that, were, shown, on, the, news, months, ago, it, seems, difficult, to, imagine, it, any, different, this, past, week, has, been, very, busy, as, my, mom, is, having, a, stall, for, the, first, time, at, the, craft, fair, in, the, village, hall, i, have, been, helping, her, a, little, bit, and, helped, her, on, the, stall, i, just, sat, with, her, really, she, decided, to, have, a, go, as, she, likes, crafts, and, is, always, making, things, it, was, nice, to, be, involved, in, the, village, and, the, money, from, the, hiring, of, the, stalls, went, to, the, church, which, is, good, it, was, very, quiet, on, saturday, though, and, apparently, that, was, the, worst, it’s, been, for, a, few, years, i, wonder, if, this, is, an, effect, of, the, f, m, however, the, weather, and, other, factors, may, have, contributed, week, beginning, monday, 11th, november, tuesday, fiance, doctors, wednesday, me, dentist, and, in, town, with, mam, missed, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, disappointed, but, got, an, article, from, the, cumberland, news, this, is, included, i, haven’t, spoke, with, anyone, that, went, no, one, has, mentioned, anything, to, me, disappointed, i, missed, it, and, also, because, this, is, probably, one, of, the, only, opportunities, we, will, get, to, know, anything, fiance, and, i, both, agree, it, is, still, like, a, big, secret, no, one, really, allowed, in, and, out, it, doesn’t, feel, like, local, people, are, benefiting, at, all, is, it, anything, to, do, with, us, really, friday, children, in, need, at, the, pub, yesterday, nice, to, see, people, taking, part, again, big, difference, to, during, foot, and, mouth, we, just, made, a, donation, it, was, a, bit, busy, for, us, 1045, raised, sunday, work, at, pub, still, very, busy, the, pub, at, least, it, seems, to, have, recovered, after, f, m, but, from, what, i, have, heard, they, did, suffer, badly, along, with, the, other, businesses, here, week, beginning, 18th, november, tuesday, should, have, been, playing, darts, at, port, carlisle, had, a, break, for, a, week, the, thing, that, is, worrying, about, playing, darts, away, is, the, travelling, some, of, the, country, roads, round, here, are, terrible, is, this, because, of, the, wagons, especially, near, wiggonby, the, road, at, fiance, s, granddad, just, gets, worse, it’s, just, mud, and, less, grass, terrible, is, it, because, of, damage, done, by, wagons, and, a, combination, of, all, the, flooding, in, the, area, now, saturday, fiance, and, i, talking, about, how, the, area, has, changed, we, remembered, back, to, 4, years, ago, when, we, used, to, go, to, the, airfield, burial, site, for, some, peace, even, though, only, rubble, then, really, enjoyed, it, there, we, could, take, the, dog, had, first, driving, lesson, off, fiance, not, again, had, some, fun, and, really, miss, it, at, times, nowhere, round, here, anymore, to, get, peace, can’t, even, enjoy, the, nature, reserve, very, frustrating, week, beginning, monday, 25th, november, monday, keep, realising, when, doing, diaries, that, haven’t, had, a, chance, to, look, at, cumbria, foot, and, mouth, disease, inquiry, report, will, have, to, make, time, for, it, soon, saturday, when, i, was, at, pub, talking, about, new, fence, on, park, for, children, general, mood, is, not, very, pleased, as, it, doesn’t, fit, into, a, country, village, setting, and, nothing, else, done, sunday, can’t, believe, it, is, the, beginning, of, december, everything, is, passing, too, quick, inevitable, 31st, november, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, the, past, 4, weeks, have, been, very, busy, compared, to, what, i, am, used, to, and, at, the, same, time, have, been, quite, frustrating, in, a, few, ways, the, issues, which, have, bothered, fiance, and, i, most, are, mainly, to, do, with, the, onset, of, winter, which, of, course, is, inevitable, but, this, year, they, seem, to, be, worse, than, we, can, previously, remember, since, living, here, in, winter, the, biggest, issue, is, the, state, of, the, roads, in, the, village, and, round, about, it, is, terrible, with, the, amount, of, rain, we, have, had, there, are, puddles, everywhere, and, everything, is, turning, to, mud, the, worst, thing, is, that, it, is, very, difficult, to, walk, or, take, dog, anywhere, which, is, frustrating, you, either, get, absolutely, filthy, or, when, walking, down, the, roads, you, have, to, get, soaked, on, the, sides, of, the, roads, to, avoid, cars, and, going, down, the, lonning, isn’t, really, an, option, as, it, is, really, muddy, and, there, has, been, dumping, we, understand, most, of, this, will, be, due, to, the, weather, but, we, are, sure, some, of, it, on, the, roads, is, due, to, all, the, traffic, there, has, been, especially, at, fiance, s, granddad's, outside, the, front, of, his, gate, and, garden, the, grass, has, gradually, been, stripped, away, and, has, now, turned, to, mud, in, all, the, ears, he, has, lived, there, 50, years, he, has, never, seen, it, as, bad, the, roads, aren’t, like, this, just, nearby, i, have, noticed, other, roads, round, about, are, also, in, a, bad, state, when, i, have, travelled, away, to, other, nearby, village, pubs, when, playing, darts, i, was, disappointed, when, i, missed, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, about, the, watchtree, reserve, as, i, had, to, go, up, town, etc, i, have, not, spoken, to, anyone, i, know, that, attended, the, exhibition, but, wish, there, were, more, opportunities, to, learn, more, about, it, i, did, find, a, newspaper, article, enclosed, about, the, watchtree, it, is, quite, annoying, that, this, won’t, be, open, to, the, public, it, is, understandable, why, this, isn't, possible, but, then, on, the, other, hand, it, is, not, benefiting, anyone, really, who, lives, nearby, fiance, and, i, still, remember, back, to, when, the, airfield, was, still, there, and, it, was, a, lovely, place, to, go, walking, and, to, relax, by, getting, away, from, everything, it, used, to, be, lovely, and, quiet, and, was, also, so, nearby, we, do, actually, quite, miss, it, sometimes, as, there, is, nowhere, else, like, that, round, here, now, even, though, there, have, been, quite, a, few, negative, issues, this, past, month, it, has, also, been, encouraging, when, i, have, been, working, at, the, pub, it, has, been, very, busy, when, i, have, been, there, showing, that, it, must, be, recovering, from, the, effect, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, it, was, also, encouraging, when, there, was, a, night, held, for, children, in, need, when, they, raised, approx, 1045, it, is, good, to, see, people, involved, and, happy, again, one, thing, which, i, did, notice, was, that, the, general, mood, about, the, improvements, made, to, the, park, was, not, very, good, people, were, not, impressed, that, the, new, fence, does, not, look, like, it, belongs, to, the, country, at, all, and, that, that, is, all, that, has, changed, i, have, not, had, time, but, will, go, and, have, a, look, for, myself, december, 2002, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, average, i, haven’t, felt, too, bad, over, christmas, a, little, tired, but, since, i, have, got, a, bit, of, a, cold, and, sore, throat, not, surprising, at, this, time, of, year, average, i, think, it, has, been, all, right, haven’t, been, able, to, walk, very, far, near, village, due, to, weather, and, roads, but, this, isn’t, surprising, at, this, time, of, year, these, past, 4, weeks, have, been, rather, hectic, with, christmas, and, everything, but, i, have, still, had, quite, a, bit, to, write, in, my, diaries, concerning, foot, and, mouth, i, received, the, parish, magazine, for, december, in, which, there, was, a, thank, you, to, all, involved, in, the, craft, fayre, and, there, was, 1, 008, raised, for, st, giles, church, it, was, good, to, be, able, to, contribute, to, something, in, the, village, well, it, was, my, mum, really, but, i, helped, it, is, good, to, see, these, sorts, of, things, happening, here, it’s, good, for, the, village, after, everything, i, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazine, it, is, still, good, to, receive, this, as, it, updates, you, on, everything, and, also, had, information, regarding, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, which, i, missed, i, am, glad, it, was, a, success, and, people, attended, especially, the, school, children, who, were, taken, i, also, received, the, diarist, which, is, good, to, read, it, is, interesting, to, see, what, other, panel, members, are, up, to, and, is, surprising, what, things, can, lead, to, for, example, the, diarist, and, the, samson, tractor, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, have, also, collected, a, couple, of, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, the, first, one, lie, returns, to, watchtree, actually, made, me, feel, better, that, we, were, going, to, get, something, positive, out, of, this, whole, experience, but, the, only, problem, is, that, at, some, moments, in, time, this, won’t, be, enough, for, some, people, involved, as, it, does, not, change, what, happened, and, won’t, make, up, for, what, has, been, lost, i, think, it, just, depends, on, how, you, are, feeling, at, the, time, when, reading, the, articles, the, other, article, village, in, running, for, top, country, award, was, also, quite, pleasing, as, at, least, we, as, a, village, are, being, remembered, and, recognised, for, what, we, went, through, it, is, surprising, that, now, so, long, after, the, actual, foot, and, mouth, crisis, that, we, are, finally, being, recognised, and, so, many, things, are, now, being, written, in, the, paper, over, the, christmas, period, i, have, only, really, had, one, thing, to, complain, about, and, that, is, the, state, of, the, roads, after, the, rain, the, roads, have, been, terrible, to, drive, on, with, the, flooding, and, the, road, sides, turning, into, mud, everything, is, filthy, i, know, this, is, expected, in, winter, out, in, the, country, but, since, i, have, been, here, it, has, never, been, so, bad, especially, at, fiance, s, grandad’s, one, improvement, is, the, signs, which, have, been, put, up, at, the, passing, places, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad, fiance, and, i, both, think, these, are, much, much, better, and, a, lot, safer, we, have, also, spotted, a, couple, of, signs, from, watchtree, which, have, been, up, now, for, a, while, but, are, still, surprising, to, see, now, it, is, time, to, start, everything, again, the, new, year, and, hopefully, this, will, be, a, better, year, for, great, orton, than, the, past, couple, has, been, i, am, glad, it, is, going, to, be, quiet, here, now, for, when, i, start, my, studying, as, opposed, to, the, foot, and, mouth, when, studying, was, very, very, difficult, monday, 27th, january, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, this, week, i, found, an, article, in, the, daily, mail, which, i, thought, was, relevant, it, is, called, boom, and, doom, and, is, about, house, prices, all, over, england, for, 2002, prices, in, north, yorkshire, rose, by, 66, but, in, allerdale, they, only, rose, by, 8, it, did, not, mention, why, this, was, but, some, of, it, must, be, the, result, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, and, the, effect, on, the, area, since, then, this, made, me, think, about, the, effect, on, great, orton, and, how, difficult, it, would, probably, be, to, sell, houses, here, and, if, people, would, really, want, to, move, here, there, are, two, sides, however, as, if, more, property, was, built, in, great, orton, and, the, surrounding, area, things, would, probably, change, and, great, orton, might, lose, some, of, its, farming, background, i, definitely, wouldn't, want, it, to, change, too, much, despite, the, burial, site, i, like, it, just, the, way, it, is, the, great, thing, about, this, week, is, the, weather, for, once, we, have, been, able, to, go, down, the, lonning, with, dog, without, getting, filthy, as, it, is, frosty, it, has, been, great, i, can’t, believe, how, quickly, 2003, is, passing, it, is, february, already, this, past, month, has, been, totally, hectic, with, appointments, arrangement, birthdays, and, the, open, university, it, makes, you, realise, that, whatever, happens, time, goes, on, i, think, this, must, have, been, very, difficult, for, people, directly, involved, in, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, as, life, would, have, had, to, carry, on, despite, whatever, was, going, on, in, their, own, lives, i, think, as, time, has, gone, on, i, have, got, more, used, to, the, idea, of, watchtree, and, accept, it, more, now, i, received, the, watchtree, news, during, the, previous, week, it, is, good, to, hear, that, the, restoration, and, creation, of, the, site, is, finally, complete, overall, i, don’t, think, it, has, taken, as, long, as, i, thought, it, would, for, the, nature, reserve, to, be, established, especially, when, you, compare, it, to, how, long, it, has, taken, for, the, children’s, playground, to, be, improved, nearly, two, years, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, however, it, is, better, late, than, never, i, am, pleased, at, how, the, nature, reserve, sounds, with, al, the, different, species, of, animal, which, had, been, included, or, seen, especially, the, merlin, the, smallest, bird, of, prey, which, was, sited, fiance, and, i, both, find, these, things, very, interesting, it, is, good, that, this, is, happening, so, close, to, us, last, year, we, travelled, to, see, the, osprey, viewpoint, it, was, great, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, have, also, found, a, few, more, articles, two, of, these, are, regarding, the, 20, day, standstill, with, not, been, directly, involved, in, the, farming, side, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, i, am, not, totally, sure, about, all, these, sorts, of, rules, etc, but, think, it, is, good, that, at, least, things, are, trying, to, be, improved, for, the, future, in, case, this, may, happen, again, and, also, as, a, result, of, learning, from, past, events, there, was, also, an, article, showing, watchtree, as, a, finalist, for, the, environmental, project, award, i, definitely, think, that, watchtree, deserves, to, be, considered, for, this, award, as, so, much, has, happened, here, and, at, least, some, good, is, going, to, come, out, of, it, it, would, be, nice, to, get, this, sort, of, award, in, recognition, of, the, hard, work, of, the, people, involved, i, think, this, year, will, hopefully, be, a, better, one, for, cumbria, and, people, may, have, confidence, even, though, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, was, a, tragedy, i, think, cumbria, and, the, people, in, it, are, able, to, recover, from, it, as, people, from, the, newspaper, articles, seem, more, optimistic, and, this, rubs, off, on, you, i, think, this, year, will, be, a, better, one, and, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, at, this, point, monday, 24th, february, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, so, far, these, past, four, weeks, i, have, not, receive, a, watchtree, newsletter, but, there, was, a, small, mention, in, the, parish, magazine, about, he, playground, work, is, underway, and, it, is, hoped, to, be, finished, by, the, summer, it, seems, to, be, taking, a, long, time, to, get, the, playground, sorted, but, at, least, it, will, be, good, for, the, kids, in, the, summer, holidays, it, is, better, late, than, never, there, is, only, one, thing, that, has, bothered, us, over, these, past, weeks, our, fish, whenever, we, change, the, water, the, fish, seem, to, be, ill, and, now, we, have, had, to, add, more, and, more, chemicals, to, reduce, the, amount, of, chlorine, that, seems, to, be, in, the, water, we, did, originally, start, off, with, 13, fish, and, now, only, have, 2, left, it, does, make, you, worry, about, the, state, of, our, water, and, why, more, chemicals, are, possibly, being, added, the, fact, that, the, burial, site, is, so, near, does, make, you, worry, if, that, is, anything, to, do, with, it, over, the, past, four, weeks, i, have, been, very, confident, about, the, future, regarding, foot, and, mouth, with, the, sun, shining, again, and, the, animals, about, it, seems, as, if, nothing, bad, has, happened, here, but, you, know, that, for, some, people, involved, in, the, crisis, the, future, will, never, be, that, easy, or, simple, and, i, do, feel, sympathy, for, them, for, me, it, seems, possible, to, be, able, to, move, on, now, after, the, crisis, and, it, has, been, good, to, see, the, sheep, and, cows, about, and, fiance, has, even, seen, a, couple, of, birds, of, prey, we, are, not, sure, what, they, were, but, think, one, might, have, been, a, merlin, which, was, mentioned, in, a, previous, watchtree, newsletter, as, being, seen, on, site, the, article, called, record, tourism, figures, for, county, was, encouraging, and, shows, that, cumbria, may, be, starting, to, recover, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, i, also, found, another, article, called, fears, over, bovine, tb, time, bomb, i, think, this, is, worrying, and, should, definitely, be, taken, seriously, as, it, would, be, devastating, to, farmers, and, everyone, in, the, county, in, the, past, fortnight, it, has, also, been, my, mam’s, birthday, she, was, really, looking, forward, to, spending, some, time, out, here, and, we, went, to, bowness, for, the, afternoon, with, dog, once, again, you, realise, how, lovely, it, is, out, here, and, how, much, it, should, be, appreciated, overall, in, my, opinion, the, situation, in, cumbria, over, the, past, year, has, definitely, improved, and, will, hopefully, continue, to, do, so, 24th, march, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, these, past, four, weeks, have, been, rather, strange, and, worrying, first, of, all, there, was, the, death, of, simon, harris, a, man, from, the, village, who, you, would, regularly, see, walking, dogs, and, looking, at, the, horses, despite, what, most, of, the, papers, have, said, about, him, to, me, he, was, always, polite, and, possibly, just, a, bit, shy, i, have, enclosed, an, article, about, him, that, was, in, the, paper, shortly, after, his, death, the, headline, is, not, very, nice, but, the, article, does, include, some, of, the, best, comments, about, simon, i, was, quite, shocked, by, the, whole, thing, and, think, it, could, definitely, have, been, handled, better, by, the, papers, the, people, in, the, village, could, also, have, been, a, bit, more, respectful, i, do, not, think, it, was, their, place, to, comment, in, the, way, that, they, did, secondly, the, whole, issue, of, war, with, iraq, is, a, worrying, subject, neither, fiance, or, i, agree, with, what, is, being, done, and, how, it, is, being, carried, out, it, is, a, particularly, worrying, time, for, fiance, s, aunty, as, her, husband, lives, in, kuwait, with, the, rest, of, his, family, she, came, to, england, where, she, is, originally, from, with, her, two, children, during, the, last, gulf, war, she, knows, all, too, well, what, the, danger, are, and, what, is, involved, it, is, a, very, worrying, subject, where, you, feel, totally, helpless, and, at, the, same, time, cannot, get, away, from, it, however, life, still, carries, on, as, harsh, as, it, may, be, i, thought, of, this, when, looking, at, the, past, diaries, i, have, written, and, how, many, have, accumulated, it, is, strange, how, quickly, time, goes, by, and, how, people, are, just, expected, to, cope, and, carry, on, i, thought, in, particular, of, the, people, worst, affected, by, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, how, helpless, they, must, have, felt, and, how, they, coped, life, can, be, a, funny, thing, looking, back, i, think, this, project, has, been, very, worth, while, and, think, it, is, great, that, they, will, be, archived, for, the, future, writing, these, diaries, seems, to, have, become, part, of, my, routine, now, and, i, think, it, will, definitely, be, strange, when, i, no, longer, have, to, write, them, i, have, found, quite, a, few, newspaper, articles, over, the, past, four, weeks, donella, rebuilds, the, cumberland, show, was, encouraging, about, the, future, of, cumbria, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, however, there, are, still, worrying, issues, arising, such, as, in, the, articles, of, mp, calls, for, vaccination, to, keep, f, m, under, control, and, from, uruguay, with, a, threat, which, highlight, issues, of, important, to, the, farming, industry, i, have, also, been, very, busy, over, the, past, few, weeks, as, my, second, assignment, was, due, for, my, university, work, which, was, quite, hectic, i, have, had, a, break, for, the, past, couple, of, days, as, i, have, not, been, very, well, a, bad, cough, sore, throat, and, stomach, and, a, stuffy, nose, i, haven’t, done, too, badly, over, the, winter, months, with, illnesses, so, i, can’t, really, complain, lastly, our, water, hasn’t, been, of, the, best, quality, lately, on, occasions, it, is, white, and, fizzes, not, the, most, appetizing, 21st, april, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, these, past, 4, weeks, have, just, seem, to, fly, by, quite, a, few, good, things, have, happened, and, even, though, i, am, feeling, quite, tired, i, have, had, a, good, month, firstly, fiance, dog, and, i, have, finally, go, t, a, small, space, of, our, own, we, have, got, an, allotment, about, 8, miles, away, and, it, is, surrounded, by, horses, and, fields, it, belongs, to, a, man, who, lives, there, and, owns, all, the, land, roundabout, but, unfortunately, he, is, no, longer, well, enough, to, work, the, land, so, has, let, us, have, it, it, will, need, a, lot, of, work, but, will, be, good, for, us, so, far, we, have, got, potatoes, raspberries, and, rhubarb, growing, dog, even, helps, to, dig, even, though, we, live, in, the, country, on, our, own, block, it, is, not, always, that, easy, to, get, any, peace, we, have, also, had, the, opportunity, to, join, the, cumbria, wildlife, trust, a, leaflet, came, through, our, door, and, we, thought, it, would, be, brilliant, as, we, would, be, kept, up, to, date, with, all, the, latest, goings, on, in, cumbria, learn, a, lot, more, about, the, wildlife, and, also, possibly, get, the, chance, to, do, some, voluntary, work, fiance, and, i, are, really, interested, and, think, it, is, great, we, get, sent, though, a, certain, number, of, magazines, every, year, and, every, month, we, send, a, small, donation, so, we, feel, like, we, are, helping, a, little, bit, as, well, the, article, which, i, found, in, one, of, the, magazines, id, enclosed, on, the, next, page, the, other, thing, which, has, made, my, month, is, knowing, that, we, are, going, to, hawkshead, again, my, mam, fiance, dog, and, i, are, going, for, a, short, break, just, 3, nights, for, my, birthday, we, have, got, it, all, booked, and, are, really, looking, forward, to, it, it, was, great, last, time, especially, for, dog, i, just, hope, she, doesn’t, get, stuck, under, the, bed, in, the, caravan, this, time, as, she, is, a, bit, bigger, now, than, she, was, then, this, past, week, i, have, also, been, in, touch, with, my, dad, in, south, africa, as, it, was, his, birthday, it, turns, out, that, he, may, be, passing, through, carlisle, for, a, couple, of, days, at, the, end, of, next, week, it, would, be, lovely, to, see, him, again, and, i, think, he, will, love, great, orton, and, our, allotment, i, think, he, has, always, liked, the, thought, of, living, in, the, country, and, would, love, to, retire, to, somewhere, nice, and, quiet, things, will, also, have, improved, and, we, have, grown, up, a, bit, since, he, was, last, here, about, 3, years, ago, it, should, be, good, it, is, funny, that, after, living, in, south, africa, for, so, long, he, is, still, drawn, to, the, lifestyle, in, cumbria, lastly, i, have, made, a, note, of, the, final, meeting, for, the, foot, and, mouth, diaries, and, hope, to, be, there, i, bet, it, passes, really, quickly, now, and, will, be, over, before, i, know, it, how, strange, 28th, april, 4th, may, monday, got, 3, articles, from, cumberland, news, april, 25th, 2003, breeders, hit, out, discrimination, fmd, burial, site, celebrates, new, life, and, my, favourite, its, a, dog’s, life, for, rosie, the, lamb, tuesday, saw, c, friday, noticed, the, park, is, coming, on, a, bit, better, for, the, children, it, was, mentioned, in, the, orton, parish, awarded, 25, 000, to, reference, drain, level, and, re, seed, new, play, equipment, will, follow, saturday, some, of, the, children, were, allowed, to, attend, meetings, to, discuss, it, good, to, involve, children, about, time, too, at, least, children, will, be, able, to, play, football, 5th, 11th, may, tuesday, working, really, hard, have, to, get, assignment, posted, off, tomorrow, night, before, we, go, away, on, thursday, hectic, wednesday, service, held, at, watchtree, unable, to, go, but, think, it, was, a, very, good, idea, newspaper, article, enclosed, was, written, before, the, service, thursday, away, to, hawskhead, exciting, friday, my, birthday, had, a, lovely, day, went, shopping, in, the, morning, to, forest, in, the, afternoon, and, for, a, meal, at, night, lovely, sunday, back, from, holiday, already, it, was, lovely, everyone, was, so, friendly, or, perhaps, we, just, noticed, it, more, there, 12th, 18th, may, tuesday, fiance, at, doctors, not, very, well, he, has, got, a, viral, infection, as, well, as, fluid, behind, his, ears, told, to, just, take, it, easy, wednesday, i, have, been, sent, info, to, chose, courses, for, open, university, that, i, would, like, to, do, next, year, and, in, the, future, am, going, to, take, the, environmental, studies, route, hopefully, leading, to, diploma, in, environment, and, development, and, possibly, further, to, ba, bsc, in, environmental, studies, i, did, like, archaeology, but, think, what, i, am, doing, is, a, lot, more, relevant, to, the, future, foot, and, mouth, and, watchtree, made, me, realise, that, friday, got, watchtree, newsletter, this, week, i, will, enclose, it, this, time, as, it, covers, quite, a, few, areas, and, has, a, bit, of, information, there, is, information, about, the, service, held, awards, that, have, been, won, and, also, new, wildlife, which, are, now, present, on, the, site, lapwings, oystercatchers, and, ringed, plovers, 19th, 25th, may, 2003, tuesday, dad, has, come, to, visit, for, a, couple, of, days, from, south, africa, nice, surprise, enjoyed, seeing, him, dad, asking, about, fmd, crisis, he, saw, it, on, tv, over, there, and, how, close, it, was, i, think, he, was, quite, shocked, thursday, i, was, surprised, that, even, though, south, africa, is, so, different, he, would, still, like, to, live, somewhere, in, this, country, makes, you, think, again, how, lucky, you, are, and, what, you, take, for, granted, saturday, article, from, cumberland, news, may, 23, reward, for, post, foot, and, mouth, achievements, 25th, may, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, every, time, i, come, to, write, these, diaries, i, look, back, over, the, past, four, weeks, and, notice, they, are, becoming, more, and, more, busy, the, past, couple, of, weeks, have, been, no, exception, it, is, already, nearly, half, way, through, the, year, i, can’t, believe, it, over, the, past, 4, weeks, i, have, been, on, holiday, turned, 22, and, my, dad, had, popped, over, from, south, africa, for, a, few, days, hectic, but, good, firstly, hawkshead, was, lovely, again, i, wouldn’t, say, anything, different, it, was, great, we, all, had, a, lovely, time, and, i, had, a, really, good, birthday, when, you, are, at, home, in, great, orton, you, forget, how, much, is, really, out, there, in, cumbria, to, do, and, see, we, definitely, think, we, should, take, advantage, of, it, more, often, shortly, after, we, arrived, back, from, hawkshead, my, dad, popped, up, to, carlisle, for, a, couple, of, days, it, was, a, lovely, surprise, and, it, was, good, to, see, him, he, absolutely, loves, it, where, we, are, and, thinks, we, are, very, lucky, even, though, south, africa, is, so, different, he, still, thinks, it, is, lovely, out, here, looking, out, onto, fields, this, did, make, me, realise, how, lucky, we, are, despite, what, happened, due, to, foot, and, mouth, inevitably, sometimes, we, do, take, it, for, granted, my, dad, remembered, watching, about, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, in, south, africa, but, did, not, realise, exactly, how, close, it, was, i, think, he, was, quite, shocked, foot, and, mouth, has, definitely, made, me, more, aware, of, my, surroundings, and, how, everything, works, i, have, definitely, noticed, this, when, i, have, been, doing, my, studying, for, open, university, i, am, now, at, the, point, where, i, can, chose, my, courses, next, year, and, therefore, which, path, i, am, going, to, take, i, have, decided, to, take, courses, leading, to, a, diploma, in, environment, and, development, and, if, everything, goes, to, plan, for, an, environmental, studies, degree, i, am, really, enjoying, what, i, am, doing, at, the, minute, and, think, it, is, definitely, useful, and, relevant, for, the, future, i, did, enjoy, studying, archaeology, but, think, the, environment, and, related, issues, are, more, important, at, the, present, and, in, the, future, on, the, 7th, may, there, was, a, memorial, service, at, watchtree, to, mark, a, two, year, anniversary, from, when, the, last, animal, was, buried, at, the, site, i, think, this, was, a, good, idea, and, it, is, appropriate, to, remember, the, animals, that, were, killed, i, was, unable, to, attend, the, service, but, have, managed, to, get, a, newspaper, article, about, it, and, it, was, also, mentioned, in, the, watchtree, newsletter, i, have, included, this, newsletter, in, with, these, diaries, at, it, contains, quite, a, bit, of, information, on, a, few, different, aspects, i, think, it, is, good, about, the, wildlife, which, is, emerging, on, the, site, the, park, or, play, area, for, children, is, also, coming, on, fairly, well, at, last, it, has, finally, been, reseeded, as, well, as, levelled, it, looks, better, i, have, also, included, 4, newspaper, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, with, my, favourite, being, rosie, the, lamb, i, have, put, this, article, in, as, i, thought, it, was, lovely, 22nd, june, 2004, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, how, strange, it, seems, that, all, this, is, coming, to, an, end, and, really, how, quickly, time, has, passed, in, my, situation, i, would, say, that, time, has, healed, a, few, aspects, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, and, things, don’t, seem, so, bad, 18, months, on, i, enjoyed, the, foot, and, mouth, evening, and, learnt, a, lot, from, it, about, other, people’s, views, and, experiences, i, enjoyed, it, a, lot, more, than, i, thought, i, would, and, thought, that, the, main, themes, found, during, the, research, were, ones, which, i, would, have, agreed, with, one, thing, which, was, said, which, has, made, me, think, was, the, comment, that, these, diaries, would, be, our, type, of, memorial, i, had, never, once, thought, of, this, research, in, that, sort, of, way, but, the, more, i, think, about, it, the, more, i, agree, and, like, the, idea, it, definitely, has, been, worthwhile, being, able, to, contribute, to, something, especially, if, it, may, be, able, to, help, in, some, way, in, the, future, when, compared, to, the, article, that, i, found, in, the, cumberland, news, about, a, man’s, memorial, to, the, animals, that, he, lost, during, foot, and, mouth, i, definitely, think, ours, is, more, fitting, and, will, probably, do, some, good, i, understand, everyone, has, the, right, to, express, their, views, in, their, own, way, but, to, me, this, was, too, loud, and, too, inappropriate, however, each, to, their, own, and, at, the, end, of, the, day, at, least, people, are, trying, to, remember, in, a, good, way, as, opposed, to, sweeping, it, under, the, carpet, the, week, of, the, foot, and, mouth, evening, we, were, without, a, car, and, noticed, how, much, we, relied, on, it, and, took, it, for, granted, especially, out, here, as, there, is, a, very, limited, bus, service, everything, is, sorted, out, now, and, we, are, back, to, normal, with, a, newer, little, car, thank, you, very, much, c, for, the, lift, there, and, back, in, general, the, past, few, months, just, seem, to, have, flown, by, and, in, particular, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, don’t, seem, to, have, time, to, fit, everything, in, and, am, trying, to, get, my, assignments, done, on, time, it, turns, out, to, be, quite, a, bit, more, difficult, than, i, thought, it, is, hard, work, but, will, definitely, be, worth, it, in, th, end, over, the, past, 6, months, even, i, have, learnt, so, much, the, next, special, occasion, which, is, coming, up, is, fiance, s, birthday, 21st, july, we, are, thinking, of, going, back, to, hawkshead, again, for, a, few, days, we, really, like, it, there, and, i’m, sure, will, return, again, and, again, it, just, shows, you, that, you, don’t, need, to, leave, cumbria, to, have, a, good, holiday, well, here, we, are, at, the, end, it, just, makes, me, wonder, what, life, will, be, like, in, 18, months, from, now, will, things, be, any, different, they, probably, will, be, in, some, ways, and, hopefully, will, be, for, the, best, 20th, july, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, it, does, seem, very, strange, to, be, sitting, down, to, write, my, last, lot, of, diaries, it, feels, good, to, have, completed, something, as, worthwhile, as, this, as, well, as, it, hopefully, doing, some, good, in, the, future, concerning, foot, and, mouth, crisis, or, any, other, similar, situation, i, also, find, it, has, helped, me, to, become, a, bit, more, confident, and, aware, of, things, around, me, i, remember, back, to, when, i, attended, my, first, meeting, and, how, nervous, i, was, i, think, i, can, handle, things, like, that, a, bit, better, now, we, have, just, got, back, from, holiday, we, had, a, lovely, time, and, did, so, much, we, went, walking, with, dog, to, many, places, and, they, are, all, free, it, just, shows, you, what, a, good, holiday, you, can, have, in, cumbria, on, a, cheap, budget, you, don’t, need, much, else, the, only, disappointing, thing, is, that, some, of, the, places, fiance, and, i, had, been, to, in, the, past, are, now, closed, as, they, have, been, sold, this, has, not, yet, happened, to, talkin, tarn, and, i, definitely, think, it, should, be, given, to, the, cumbria, wildlife, trust, as, people, would, still, have, access, to, it, fiance, and, i, both, agree, that, the, countryside, is, recovering, and, it, is, great, to, be, able, to, wander, about, again, i, have, collected, a, few, more, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, related, to, foot, and, mouth, it, is, good, to, see, breeders, doing, well, again, and, people, getting, back, into, the, swing, of, things, i, would, just, like, to, thank, everyone, involved, for, involving, me, in, this, project, and, i, wish, them, all, the, best, in, the, future]
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being, in, change, of, an, offensive, weapon, a, knife, the, judge, had, acquitted, her, of, the, offences, he, showed, leniency, towards, her, last, year, during, the, fmd, crisis, she, had, returned, to, her, home, to, find, that, her, pet, goat, had, been, killed, by, slaughterers, because, the, animal, was, within, the, 3, km, radius, she, had, gone, berserk, over, this, and, threatened, the, police, officer, and, others, with, the, knife, she, had, to, be, forcibly, restrained, she, was, very, distraught, over, this, killing, even, after, she, had, appeared, in, court, and, had, been, acquitted, of, all, charges, she, showed, great, emotion, not, only, being, freed, but, also, quite, upset, over, the, loss, of, the, goat, perhaps, her, actions, didn’t, happen, to, a, lot, of, other, people, who, had, similar, things, happen, to, them, however, the, loss, of, a, lot, of, pet, animals, and, in, some, cases, needless, slaughter, of, many, farm, animals, still, creates, unhappy, memories, of, 2001, week, 2, tuesday, whilst, walking, the, dog, i, met, a, farmer, from, the, edge, of, the, village, who, has, friends, and, stock, in, close, proximity, to, the, 2, land, fill, sites, he, is, still, very, concerned, about, materials, on, these, sites, the, nearest, site, contained, hundreds, of, carcasses, this, has, been, completed, and, capped, he, is, concerned, about, leachate, from, this, site, and, feels, that, it, doesn’t, matter, how, much, clay, and, soil, were, used, to, contain, this, site, the, effects, of, heavy, rain, is, bound, to, find, a, way, down, and, also, to, drain, it, he, doesn’t, want, to, plough, these, fields, nor, can, he, sell, stock, that, have, grazed, the, same, fields, there, is, pyre, ash, being, tipped, on, the, other, site, again, what, happens, to, the, rainwater, that, runs, off, this, site, also, there, are, concerns, about, the, large, flocks, of, seagulls, that, visit, both, sites, daily, another, concern, is, what, is, happening, to, the, open, cast, coal, site, that, is, situated, almost, due, south, of, gilgarran, village, the, farmer, i, talked, to, today, is, concerned, about, this, huge, site, no, coal, has, been, moved, from, this, site, for, months, there, are, concerns, that, this, site, is, going, to, be, filled, with, waste, will, it, be, from, fmd, sites, we, as, a, village, are, very, concerned, about, rumours, of, land, fill, on, a, huge, scale, friday, noticed, that, there, was, work, being, carried, out, on, the, top, of, the, burial, site, no, villagers, have, commented, on, this, despite, large, yellow, diggers, operating, sunday, work, continuing, on, the, burial, site, cannot, make, out, what, kind, of, work, is, being, done, there, week, 3, monday, work, is, still, going, on, at, the, burial, site, i, still, don’t, know, what, is, going, on, but, the, diggers, involved, are, the, same, as, when, animals, were, being, buried, there, when, animals, were, being, buried, there, last, year, the, smell, coming, from, that, site, was, terrible, to, say, the, least, it, was, not, coming, from, the, dead, animals, as, most, observers, thought, but, from, decomposing, waste, material, that, had, already, been, buried, on, the, site, prior, to, fmd, when, excavators, dug, into, the, soil, to, make, trenches, for, the, dead, animals, they, dug, into, this, decomposing, matter, hence, the, terrible, smell, despite, the, work, that, is, going, on, there, today, no, comments, from, villagers, are, forthcoming, it, seems, to, me, that, now, that, fmd, has, gone, the, general, public, are, not, interested, any, more, unless, they, read, something, in, the, local, papers, written, by, some, enterprising, reporter, week, 4, tuesday, work, is, still, going, on, in, the, former, burial, site, villagers, don’t, seem, to, be, bothered, fmd, is, gone, so, nobody, is, interested, any, more, wednesday, whilst, trying, to, gain, comments, from, villagers, over, the, effects, of, fmd, one, or, two, comments, from, some, individuals, show, concern, about, the, outbreak, last, year, but, don’t, seem, too, concerned, over, any, after, effects, if, any, two, interesting, comments, suggest, that, 1, the, outbreak, was, started, deliberately, by, this, country, in, collusion, with, the, agriculturists, of, the, e.e.c, so, as, to, concentrate, meat, production, in, europe, and, leave, the, uk, to, concentrate, on, arable, farming, 2, the, outbreak, was, started, by, a, terrorist, attack, the, government, would, not, declare, this, because, it, would, cause, widespread, panic, thursday, 23, 25, hours, huge, fire, at, the, site, where, pyre, ash, is, being, tipped, 250,000, used, tyres, caught, fire, arson, is, suspected, fire, fighters, tried, to, contain, the, blaze, but, couldn’t, use, large, amounts, of, water, in, case, water, courses, became, contaminated, friday, 05, 00, fire, still, blazing, at, the, pyre, ash, site, later, in, the, morning, the, fire, was, showing, signs, of, dying, down, apparently, it, was, left, to, burn, itself, out, much, heavy, smoke, pollution, was, evident, drifting, south, west, for, about, nine, miles, reading, the, local, evening, paper, about, the, blaze, there, was, also, a, report, that, villagers, from, disington, 1, miles, from, gilgarran, were, complaining, of, the, foul, smell, from, both, waste, sites, parish, councillors, are, very, concerned, about, this, does, it, coincide, with, work, currently, being, carried, out, on, the, burial, site, the, smell, from, these, sites, plus, the, fact, that, animals, were, buried, on, one, site, and, pyre, ash, plus, the, huge, fire, from, the, other, site, all, happening, this, week, is, causing, concern, in, this, area, but, once, this, hue, and, cry, dies, down, people, will, soon, forget, about, it, all, week, 5, monday, through, to, friday, observed, work, on, top, of, the, burial, site, don’t, know, if, any, work, is, still, going, on, on, the, northern, and, western, sides, friday, local, weekly, paper, carried, the, report, on, the, recent, large, fire, that, occurred, on, the, alco, site, last, week, when, 250,000, tyres, caught, fire, somehow, it, was, intersting, to, read, that, the, fire, brigade, did, not, use, any, water, to, extinguish, the, blaze, in, case, pollution, occurred, in, water, courses, the, fire, was, left, to, burn, itself, out, saturday, burial, site, it, looks, like, there, is, new, soil, being, tipped, on, top, for, some, reason, no, reported, comments, froim, the, parish, council, over, this, despite, very, vociferous, objections, by, them, over, the, use, of, this, and, the, alco, site, in, the, past, sunday, talked, to, our, local, county, councillor, who, lives, in, this, village, he, feels, very, strongly, that, these, two, sites, are, dangerous, he, thinks, that, both, sites, are, a, health, hazard, risk, due, to, obnoxious, odours, and, in, particular, the, large, fire, that, occurred, last, week, which, produced, a, lot, of, polluted, smoke, for, a, distance, of, six, miles, some, people, reckoned, that, the, smell, of, burning, tyres, could, be, smelt, here, in, gilgarran, there, have, been, numerous, fires, on, these, sites, over, the, last, few, years, these, fires, give, rise, to, compaliant, by, people, like, us, but, more, so, from, the, nearer, village, of, distington, 1, miles, west, of, here, the, councillor, suggests, that, there, could, be, more, incidents, of, cancer, cases, in, this, area, in, coming, years, along, with, respiratory, troubles, as, well, as, some, cases, of, bronchitis, related, problems, he, himself, has, recently, suddenly, started, sinusitis, which, he, hasn’t, had, before, all, in, all, he, wasn’t, happy, about, the, situation, on, both, sites, we, don’t, know, what, is, being, tipped, there, all, we, can, do, as, a, community, is, accept, what, we, are, being, told, by, the, site, owners, as, previously, stated, animal, carcasses, were, being, tipped, and, buried, for, about, three, days, before, we, were, told, officially, that, this, was, so, incidentally, the, site, where, animals, are, buried, is, owned, by, cumbria, county, council, this, seems, to, be, totally, against, the, advice, of, county, council, officials, who, look, after, the, environment, and, the, health, of, the, population, as, i’ve, written, before, there, are, going, to, be, bigger, concerns, if, the, opencast, coal, site, to, the, south, of, the, village, becomes, a, landfill, site, for, refuse, from, parts, of, the, county, fifty, miles, away, at, the, moment, there, are, no, suggestions, that, anything, from, the, fmd, outbreak, will, be, dumped, there, having, said, that, however, we, as, villagers, didn’t, know, of, carcasses, being, buried, or, pyre, ash, being, tipped, until, after, it, had, happened, we, await, the, outcome, of, this, coal, site, with, some, trepidation, after, all, no, coal, has, come, from, this, site, for, some, months, it, has, all, the, indication, of, becoming, a, land, fill, site, week, 6, monday, to, wednesday, if, work, is, still, ongoing, at, the, burial, site, it, is, not, visible, from, our, side, of, the, site, i, still, don’t, know, what, is, going, on, there, it, may, all, be, innocent, and, an, improvement, to, the, environment, after, all, this, is, what, the, site, owners, have, to, do, thursday, a, delegation, of, meps, visit, the, north, of, the, county, they, have, come, to, assess, the, situation, for, themselves, and, to, report, back, to, the, european, parliament, no, doubt, they, will, also, report, back, to, their, own, constituents, in, their, own, countries, the, delegation, visit, the, auction, mart, at, longtown, where, the, disease, was, first, noticed, in, this, country, and, also, visited, the, big, burial, site, at, great, orton, where, it, was, estimated, that, half, a, million, carcasses, were, buried, good, coverage, by, the, local, press, radio, and, t.v, gave, anyone, interested, the, views, of, the, delegation, thursday, saturday, the, mep, delegation, agreed, that, the, fmd, situation, had, been, disastrous, we, all, know, that, comments, from, some, tourist, and, agriculture, observers, ranged, from, a, waste, of, time, to, at, least, some, politicians, have, bothered, to, visit, us, our, own, couldn’t, do, that, personally, i, think, that, some, good, came, out, of, this, particularly, when, it, was, reported, that, the, dutch, had, used, vaccination, techniques, when, they, had, a, small, outbreak, many, people, think, that, the, british, government, should, have, had, a, public, inquiry, into, the, outbreak, what, have, they, to, hide, cumbria, is, holding, its, own, inquiry, quite, rightly, so, other, organisations, such, as, lancaster, university, are, holding, research, into, the, outbreak, why, not, the, government, eventually, we, will, know, why, perhaps, not, in, my, lifetime, though, the, minister, and, maff, have, a, lot, to, answer, for, week, 7, thought, it, would, be, of, interest, to, include, copies, of, the, newsletter, that, the, local, authorities, issued, to, every, household, in, the, area, regarding, the, disposal, of, carcasses, and, effluent, it, will, be, of, note, that, there, was, a, fire, last, year, on, the, alco, site, also, involving, tyres, very, similar, to, last, years, only, not, as, big, a, report, on, local, t.v, today, stated, that, the, recent, visit, of, meps, to, the, area, considered, that, vaccination, should, have, been, used, at, the, outset, and, be, should, seriously, considered, should, a, future, outbreak, occur, heard, of, reports, of, an, outbreak, of, t.b, in, cattle, in, other, parts, of, the, country, this, was, reported, to, be, more, serious, than, fmd, should, a, major, outbreak, occur, this, would, lead, to, the, question, of, disposal, should, the, need, arise, as, i’ve, already, reported, in, previous, entries, the, use, of, the, opencast, coal, site, to, the, south, east, of, here, is, causing, concern, in, some, quarters, although, the, site, didn’t, feature, in, the, fmd, crisis, there, is, a, feeling, that, it, is, being, earmarked, for, use, in, the, future, should, the, need, arise, or, even, the, rumour, of, an, incinerator, is, planned, for, there, the, general, feeling, here, and, in, the, surrounding, area, is, that, we, have, had, enough, dumping, of, carcasses, effluent, toxic, chemicals, etc, it, could, be, that, the, authorities, have, seen, that, the, sites, concerned, have, handled, those, substances, before, that, an, extension, of, disposal, sites, in, this, area, would, be, effective, week, 8, nothing, of, any, significance, to, report, this, week, week, 9, now, that, cumbria’s, fmd, inquiry, has, started, a, lot, of, people, i, have, met, this, week, recall, the, happenings, of, a, year, ago, even, more, interesting, is, the, coverage, in, the, local, press, and, t.v, plenty, of, publicity, by, the, media, shows, how, little, the, government, an, maff, in, particular, let, the, farming, and, tourism, industries, of, the, county, down, there, has, been, plenty, of, distressing, stories, by, farmers, not, only, of, infected, animals, being, slaughtered, but, also, the, slaughtering, of, healthy, animals, in, the, 3, km, circle, of, an, outbreak, one, particularly, distressing, point, of, evidence, was, when, a, farmer, described, to, the, panel, the, birth, of, a, calf, five, days, after, it’s, mother, had, been, shot, we, at, the, time, of, the, outbreak, were, hearing, these, stories, on, a, daily, basis, and, still, maff, and, mr, brown, kept, telling, us, that, the, outbreak, was, under, control, all, i, can, say, at, this, point, is, may, heaven, help, us, when, it, all, happens, again, week, 10, work, is, still, going, on, at, the, burial, site, it, looks, like, new, soil, is, being, dumped, on, top, of, the, actual, site, and, dozed, to, level, it, of, and, to, smooth, it, out, on, the, side, all, we, can, do, is, accept, that, the, management, of, the, site, are, making, it, better, for, all, concerned, and, that, they, are, as, concerned, as, we, are, the, much, publicised, cumbrian, fmd, inquiry, team, visited, the, land, fill, site, they, met, local, councillors, who, expressed, their, concern, over, this, site, and, the, alco, site, no, other, report, was, forthcoming, from, the, team, the, inquiry, team, finish, their, evidence, gathering, this, week, one, very, important, statement, was, made, that, the, minister, of, the, environment, should, make, a, statement, over, this, outbreak, and, should, even, make, a, visit, to, these, sites, county, wide, there, has, been, total, silence, from, mrs, beckett’s, department, over, this, request, the, same, silence, is, observed, from, any, government, source, for, that, matter, everyone, asks, the, same, questions, what, have, they, got, to, hide, why, aren’t, they, interested, what, plans, are, being, made, and, what, lessons, have, been, learned, from, last, years, outbreak, a, lot, of, farms, are, restocking, and, in, this, neighbourhood, farm, work, is, going, on, as, before, or, so, it, looks, as, time, goes, on, though, there, seems, to, be, a, smouldering, anger, that, no, one, in, authority, is, as, concerned, as, well, are, week, 11, work, is, still, on, going, at, the, burial, site, no, comments, heard, from, any, of, the, villagers, or, neighbours, this, week, diary, 12, monday, from, my, own, observation, work, is, still, ongoing, at, the, burial, site, more, heavy, plant, has, been, moved, on, to, the, top, of, the, giant, amount, and, it, looks, as, though, more, topsoil, is, being, laid, over, the, mount, perhaps, to, improve, the, site, but, water, may, still, permeate, into, and, through, the, site, we, can, only, believe, the, operators, that, this, is, a, right, thing, to, do, friday, talked, to, 2, it, villagers, about, the, after, effects, of, fmd, one, said, oh, it's, all, over, now, and, forgotten, about, it, doesn't, bother, me, one, bit, the, other, said, it, all, in, the, past, we, just, have, to, forget, about, it, it, seems, that, life, is, returning, to, normal, in, all, aspects, of, village, life, people, don't, think, about, last, year, unless, the, diarist, mentions, that, sunday, a, bad, day, or, weather, wise, this, prolonged, rain, may, halt, work, on, the, burial, site, most, people, are, reluctant, to, talk, about, f, m, d, now, even, if, it, was, one, of, the, worst, economic, and, social, disasters, to, hit, this, country, and, this, county, in, particular, now, that, it, is, over, people's, memories, begin, to, fade, however, some, of, us, are, not, happy, at, having, these, two, disposal, sites, within, a, 1000, metres, of, this, village, fmd, may, be, over, but, these, burial, sites, are, here, for, a, long, time, yet, diary, 13, observed, in, work, on, burial, site, more, heavy, machinery, and, plant, moved, in, and, large, quantities, of, soil, are, being, laid, down, and, smoothed, out, diary, 14, talked, to, some, religious, today, about, the, after, effects, of, fmd, without, exception, they, are, not, interested, it's, all, over, with, an, idle, one, to, be, reminded, about, it, are, the, general, comments, nobody, seems, bothered, that, there, are, hundreds, of, animals, buried, a, 1000, yards, from, his, village, or, the, fact, that, there, is, leachate, and, pyre, ash, buried, in, another, site, looking, at, the, burial, site, and, the, work, that, is, going, on, there, it, does, look, as, though, the, management, there, are, doing, everything, to, make, the, site, safe, diary, 15, i, met, a, smallholder, today, to, whom, i, have, talked, to, in, the, past, about, the, effects, and, after, effects, of, fmd, he, still, not, happy, about, the, burial, site, despite, the, landscaping, and, smoothing, off, of, the, large, quantities, of, topsoil, only, time, will, tell, he, says, he, does, not, have, any, stock, near, to, the, site, but, he, has, sheep, on, the, farmer's, land, since, fmd, finished, though, his, stock, movements, are, still, restricted, by, new, legislation, that, has, come, in, since, the, area, was, declared, free, for, instance, or, if, he, takes, a, sheep, to, auction, he, asked, to, have, nine, pieces, of, paper, for, this, transaction, if, the, price, is, not, right, and, he, has, to, take, the, she, back, to, his, land, he, was, put, them, back, in, the, same, field, that, they, came, from, and, it, cannot, move, them, to, three, weeks, he, then, has, to, obtain, a, licence, to, do, this, he, does, think, that, the, authorities, are, not, going, to, be, as, strict, shortly, this, is, just, one, of, the, precautions, that, have, come, in, to, try, and, combat, any, recurrence, of, fmd, diary, 16, i, met, the, smallholder, who, rents, land, a, from, the, farmer, in, the, village, his, income, from, the, sheep, that, he, a, breeds, has, been, nil, like, many, more, people, in, similar, circumstances, fortunately, for, him, had, he, has, an, income, from, another, source, the, subject, of, compensation, came, up, during, our, conversation, i, personally, do, not, have, any, comment, to, make, about, this, item, as, it, maybe, just, a, rumour, apparently, he, got, it, bee, in, his, bonnet, about, compensation, paid, out, to, people, who, were, not, in, the, agricultural, business, what, seemed, to, upset, him, was, that, he, had, heard, that, some, of, fish, and, chip, shop, owner, in, the, lake, district, had, been, paid, 170, per, month, compensation, for, the, loss, of, trade, he, didn't, mind, too, much, that, hoteliers, and, guest, house, owners, had, claimed, compensation, but, wondered, where, else, would, this, kind, of, money, go, when, he, himself, had, been, paid, nothing, this, is, the, first, time, i've, heard, this, one, diary, 17, attended, the, cumberland, show, at, every, to, be, park, carlisle, we, as, a, family, used, to, attend, this, annual, show, regularly, both, as, spectators, and, competitors, we, have, never, seen, the, show, like, the, one, put, on, this, year, when, will, things, really, get, back, to, normal, many, of, us, think, that, agriculture, is, back, to, pre, fmd, cattle, and, sheep, on, grazing, in, the, fields, lambing, has, reached, new, heights, in, produce, on, some, farms, calves, are, being, born, silage, and, haymaking, is, progressing, when, the, weather, permits, but, there, are, still, restrictions, on, animal, movements, hence, no, sheep, cattle, or, pigs, at, this, year's, show, only, horses, poultry, dogs, and, rabbits, not, many, pieces, of, agricultural, machinery, onshore, either, plenty, of, chartered, accountants, tents, craft, tents, horse, feeds, and, tack, displays, in, the, main, arena, and, bands, not, an, agricultural, show, as, we, knew, it, it, seems, to, be, the, same, at, other, shows, ennerdale, show, is, one, of, our, local, shows, this, year, there, isn't, going, to, be, any, horses, or, sheep, generally, there, are, no, cattle, shown, at, the, show, but, without, sheep, hill, farmers, dominate, the, show, the, there, isn't, going, to, be, much, on, show, at, all, it, was, always, a, good, show, for, equestrian, events, at, many, levels, this, show, was, always, a, must, for, our, family, i, don't, think, that, we, will, be, going, this, year, diary, 18, from, the, golf, course, and, golf, driving, range, i, can, look, out, on, to, the, western, side, of, the, burial, site, i, have, written, in, previous, weeks, about, the, work, there, has, been, going, on, at, this, site, viewing, the, site, are, from, our, village, side, would, hardly, know, what, that, there, ever, was, a, burial, site, hundreds, of, tons, of, topsoil, had, been, laid, and, smoothed, out, to, make, more, or, less, like, a, landscaped, feature, it, looks, really, good, from, the, western, side, though, things, are, little, different, work, is, still, going, on, there, large, amounts, of, soil, have, been, tipped, and, levelled, off, there, are, still, portakabins, there, and, heavy, plant, can, still, be, seen, moving, about, no, doubt, the, western, side, well, look, as, good, as, the, eastern, side, before, long, diary, 19, it, is, announced, that, the, prime, minister, and, his, wife, and, son, of, his, family, at, a, visit, to, cumbria, the, pm, arrives, in, west, cumbria, all, kinds, of, reports, are, written, in, the, local, and, national, press, about, what, he, is, going, to, do, or, not, do, or, what, he, should, be, doing, after, all, he, is, on, holiday, the, pm, did, meet, some, farmers, leaders, the, press, as, usual, stirred, things, up, or, as, to, where, he, should, be, meeting, tourism, officials, say, that, the, trip, was, fantastic, for, tourism, in, the, county, or, person, they, i, can't, see, what, difference, it, made, if, people, want, to, come, cumbria, they, will, come, irrespective, of, whether, the, pm, comes, or, not, diary, 20, after, a, lot, of, protests, it, looks, as, though, it, the, 20, day, restriction, on, cattle, movement, will, be, lifted, perhaps, this, will, now, mean, that, they, could, be, cattle, and, sheep, entries, at, local, agricultural, shows, some, shows, are, going, ahead, with, very, limited, entries, of, livestock, and, some, with, no, animal, entries, at, all, these, shows, have, always, been, very, popular, with, my, family, for, over, 20, years, also, living, with, in, a, farming, community, makes, us, feel, part, of, the, annual, agricultural, scene, diary, 21, i’ve, written, before, regarding, agricultural, shows, and, the, pride, in, which, local, people, take, in, these, shows, although, a, lot, of, shows, have, gone, ahead, this, season, they, have, had, a, reduced, animal, showing, or, in, some, cases, no, animals, at, all, today, i’ve, heard, that, one, show, has, been, cancelled, altogether, this, particular, show, is, one, of, the, most, popular, in, the, area, maybe, because, of, lack, of, entries, or, the, organisers, just, wanted, to, cancel, because, of, the, 3, week, restriction, on, animal, movement, i, don’t, know, perhaps, it, would, be, better, to, cancel, them, than, have, a, depleted, show, diary, 22, spent, a, few, hours, in, the, fells, today, it, was, good, to, be, able, to, wander, the, familiar, paths, and, let, our, dog, run, free, it, was, a, good, boost, to, our, moral, and, perhaps, the, dog’s, too, we, all, missed, being, able, to, do, this, last, year, diary, 23, last, bank, holiday, before, xmas, and, the, last, before, the, schools, go, back, at, the, golf, course, where, i, help, out, part, time, during, the, summer, we, had, lots, of, customers, a, lot, of, them, commented, on, how, enjoyable, it, was, to, be, on, holiday, in, this, area, this, year, compared, to, the, restrictions, that, were, in, place, last, year, maybe, the, holiday, establishments, are, getting, back, to, normal, there, are, no, restrictions, put, on, them, like, there, is, in, place, now, with, farmers, and, agriculture, diary, 26, sorting, through, the, mail, left, whilst, away, on, holiday, and, i, came, across, a, notice, sent, by, the, village, committee, notifying, a, harvest, thanksgiving, festival, to, be, held, next, month, in, the, village, hall, as, we, have, no, church, in, the, village, it, is, being, held, in, some, farm, buildings, in, the, centre, of, the, village, this, will, be, a, splendid, event, the, farm, did, not, have, fmd, but, couldn’t, take, animals, from, one, field, to, another, and, couldn’t, market, them, when, we, consider, the, gloom, that, settled, on, this, farm, and, community, it, is, very, welcome, to, have, this, unique, event, here, in, the, heart, of, the, village, and, the, farmer, and, his, wife, will, be, at, the, centre, of, events, a, lovely, gesture, and, i, hope, it, will, be, well, supported, there, will, be, a, distribution, of, harvest, gifts, afterwards, what, a, change, from, a, year, ago, diary, 27, with, the, aid, of, binoculars, i, have, been, able, to, have, a, closer, look, at, the, burial, site, from, a, westerly, direction, there, are, vents, in, the, shape, of, small, towers, to, extract, gas, from, the, site, there, are, pipes, connecting, these, vents, a, lot, of, work, is, still, going, on, there, however, all, this, takes, place, in, the, western, side, which, is, the, opposite, side, to, where, my, village, is, situated, from, our, side, there, is, nothing, to, suggest, the, amount, of, work, going, on, because, of, this, fmd, is, pushed, further, into, the, backs, of, villager’s, minds, it, is, something, in, the, past, it, has, happened, so, what, people, like, myself, who, talk, to, farmers, and, agriculturalists, do, not, easily, forget, these, events, personally, i, am, still, concerned, about, the, burial, site, when, inquiries, are, made, about, it, all, we, can, do, is, accept, what, we, are, told, it, does, not, look, as, though, every, precaution, is, being, taken, to, alleviate, an, odours, or, contamination, diary, 28, i, had, to, see, the, village, farmer, on, another, matter, and, was, asked, inside, for, coffee, and, a, chat, he, was, able, to, tell, me, of, the, full, implications, of, the, 20, day, rule, he, accepts, that, this, is, a, precaution, to, prevent, another, outbreak, of, fmd, but, there, is, a, lot, of, work, involved, he, told, me, of, an, isolation, area, that, he, has, created, and, also, the, fencing, arrangements, where, his, land, adjoins, the, neighbours, land, i, would, say, that, 95, of, the, public, don’t, know, about, this, even, if, they, have, heard, of, the, 20, day, rule, for, him, he, owns, the, largest, farm, in, the, area, it, is, bad, enough, having, to, do, all, the, physical, work, as, regards, fencing, etc, but, for, anyone, such, as, a, small, holder, it, must, be, a, nightmare, if, he, has, to, bring, animals, back, from, market, that, haven’t, been, sold, friday, my, wife, and, i, played, a, round, of, golf, at, aspatria, this, course, was, badly, restricted, when, fmd, hit, this, area, we, were, reminded, that, there, are, restrictions, on, adjoining, land, there, were, notices, asking, people, who, hit, balls, onto, farm, land, not, to, cross, the, fence, to, retrieve, them, because, of, fmd, precautions, this, was, news, to, us, it, does, make, sense, though, the, farmer, wouldn’t, know, where, players, had, been, walking, prior, to, playing, golf, diary, 29, attended, the, harvest, festival, held, in, the, village, farm, a, large, cattle, shed, had, been, cleaned, and, decorated, for, this, event, chairs, had, been, brought, in, fruit, and, vegetables, were, on, display, for, auctioning, at, the, end, the, place, was, packed, a, lot, of, money, was, raised, and, it, was, a, very, happy, event, well, supported, and, a, big, boost, for, the, farm, and, the, village, i, don’t, think, that, the, general, public, care, much, about, fmd, now, that, is, has, been, a, year, since, the, last, case, was, confirmed, in, cumbria, the, public, may, be, reminded, if, they, read, the, local, newspapers, intently, for, instance, there, was, a, letter, to, the, editor, published, recently, which, referred, to, the, results, of, the, cumbria, inquiry, into, fmd, it, may, have, been, a, farmer, who, wrote, it, i, don’t, know, but, the, writer, certainly, went, to, town, in, the, scathing, comments, on, the, handling, of, fmd, even, caustic, remarks, regarding, the, efforts, since, fmd, of, defra, and, mrs, beckett, i, certainly, wouldn’t, like, to, cross, the, writer, i, also, think, the, farming, community, must, be, holding, it’s, breath, in, case, the, present, restrictions, such, as, they, are, prove, to, be, worthless, then, we, will, all, suffer, again, week, 30, what, a, difference, a, year, makes, despite, some, restrictions, on, public, access, to, agricultural, fields, in, some, areas, of, the, county, it, doesn’t, apply, here, although, most, locals, confine, themselves, to, footpaths, and, bridleways, other, people, seem, to, think, that, all, fields, are, recreation, areas, they, walk, and, run, across, some, of, the, fields, in, close, proximity, to, the, village, regardless, of, the, presence, of, stock, they, exercise, dogs, and, treat, it, as, a, some, kind, of, park, one, farmer, is, well, know, for, being, aggressive, he, used, last, year’s, fmd, outbreak, to, run, people, off, his, land, i, met, a, local, councillor, who, expressed, concerns, regarding, the, proposed, building, of, an, incinerator, to, the, south, of, the, village, on, the, current, open, cast, mining, site, the, two, waste, disposal, sites, to, the, west, and, north, west, of, the, village, have, become, big, issues, in, the, last, 18, months, due, to, the, burial, of, animals, and, the, disposal, of, pyre, ash, and, leachates, it, seems, as, though, we, are, going, to, get, over, this, ghastly, fmd, outbreak, only, to, have, this, scenario, thrust, upon, us, week, 31, met, a, small, holder, who, keeps, sheep, near, to, this, village, he, was, very, scathing, over, the, report, that, the, government, and, defra, don’t, want, to, talk, up, an, offer, from, the, local, authorities, here, to, implement, findings, and, recommendations, from, their, local, inquiry, over, fmd, why, what, has, this, government, who, didn’t, perform, very, well, during, the, outbreak, got, to, hide, and, why, shirk, away, from, the, findings, instead, of, facing, up, to, the, failings, that, we, all, know, about, it, also, seems, that, they, don’t, want, to, make, any, safeguards, and, recommendations, to, avoid, a, further, outbreak, as, a, non, agriculturalist, it, doesn’t, surprise, me, in, the, least, after, all, government, has, failed, other, industries, in, the, country, for, as, long, as, i, can, remember, week, 32, i, am, convinced, that, authorities, in, the, area, must, think, that, the, way, animals, were, buried, here, and, pyre, ash, and, leachate, were, disposed, of, at, another, site, nearby, was, all, done, as, very, successfully, and, that, the, two, sites, handled, everything, professionally, therefore, the, sites, would, be, more, than, capable, of, handling, ash, from, an, incinerator, to, me, this, is, the, legacy, of, fmd, i, am, most, annoyed, over, this, together, with, a, lot, more, of, the, villagers, this, village, no, longer, has, a, representative, on, the, parish, council, both, have, resigned, for, whatever, reason, and, no, one, will, step, forward, to, take, it, one, i, have, said, that, i, would, take, a, set, on, the, parish, council, to, represent, the, village, and, fight, for, our, rights, and, future, quality, of, life, due, to, this, i, have, uncovered, a, pile, of, claims, and, counter, claims, it, seems, that, both, parish, and, district, counsellors, know, what, is, going, on, regarding, the, incinerator, and, that, developers, have, made, concessions, to, some, councillors, also, there, are, claims, that, the, developers, have, offered, money, to, local, landowners, and, farmers, so, that, roads, can, be, put, in, all, these, accusations, have, been, strongly, denied, at, the, same, time, it, is, rumoured, that, some, farmers, have, been, offered, local, fields, nearby, because, of, what, i, have, discovered, in, my, own, investigations, it, would, seem, that, a, lot, of, friendships, gained, over, 20, years, could, come, to, an, end, i, am, fearful, of, what, i, have, uncovered, there, are, also, claims, that, councillors, are, only, in, it, for, what, there, can, get, out, and, are, not, to, be, trusted, i, don’t, want, that, said, of, me, also, by, the, time, all, this, is, sorted, out, i, will, be, 70, 75, i, certainly, don’t, want, to, be, fighting, peoples, battles, at, that, age, however, i, will, support, any, effort, to, stop, the, proposed, development, week, 33, once, again, the, large, farm, in, the, centre, of, the, village, was, the, venue, for, the, annual, guy, fawkes, bonfire, and, fireworks, organisers, had, been, round, the, village, asking, for, donations, to, provide, fireworks, a, tractor, and, trailer, toured, the, areas, picking, up, things, for, the, bonfire, drinks, and, food, were, served, in, a, barn, after, the, fireworks, this, is, another, occasion, when, villagers, and, the, farming, community, come, together, it, is, perhaps, the, only, time, that, the, general, public, of, the, village, think, about, fmd, and, last, years, events, if, only, briefly, the, farmer, remarked, that, is, the, third, time, this, year, that, there, has, been, a, public, function, on, his, farm, the, first, was, the, jubilee, party, in, june, then, on, october, 6th, the, harvest, festival, service, these, events, keep, farming, in, the, public, eye, week, 34, i, haven’t, written, before, about, the, proposed, building, of, an, incinerator, nearby, to, burn, the, counties, waste, if, as, we, all, suspect, the, incinerator, is, built, then, the, odours, plus, the, disposal, of, ash, to, the, fmd, waste, site, is, a, legacy, of, fmd, particularly, regarding, the, nearby, burial, and, disposal, site, week, 35, this, is, week, 35, of, this, project, and, for, most, of, the, 35, weeks, i, have, written, that, i, am, not, confident, of, the, future, there, are, numerous, reasons, for, this, mainly, the, situation, in, the, middle, east, today, i, travelled, to, keswick, to, do, some, xmas, shopping, i, was, given, a, lift, there, by, a, neighbour, who, is, in, his, 30s, he, was, very, upset, about, the, terrorist, situation, not, only, was, he, concerned, about, the, terror, threat, to, the, london, underground, but, the, threat, closer, to, home, as, regards, a, plane, crashing, into, the, nearby, sellafield, complex, we, don’t, know, the, effect, that, this, constant, bad, news, has, on, people, people, who, have, already, got, serious, worries, e.g, families, housing, finance, etc, must, feel, really, depressed, about, it, all, week, 36, near, to, the, next, village, is, a, long, established, farm, of, many, acres, recently, the, farm’s, stock, of, animals, and, machinery, was, sold, off, the, owner, who, had, farmed, for, sixty, years, was, leaving, to, live, with, one, of, his, brothers, he, said, that, he, wouldn’t, know, how, he, would, feel, when, he, left, the, farm, for, the, last, time, this, weekend, the, farmhouse, hasn’t, been, sold, yet, and, now, stands, empty, it’s, a, strange, place, now, where, everything, was, hustle, and, bustle, they, even, had, a, b, b, business, there, is, now, derelict, and, bare, it’s, a, sad, reflection, on, the, agricultural, business, in, the, wake, of, fmd, this, farm, isn’t, the, only, one, in, the, area, that, has, sold, up, some, farm, houses, remain, as, dwellings, but, this, particular, one, which, we, saw, nearly, every, day, is, just, an, other, sad, reminder, of, the, way, farming, has, declined, in, this, rural, area, week, 39, tuesday, boarded, the, train, at, penrith, to, journey, to, crewe, to, see, our, daughter, during, the, journey, i, got, into, conversation, with, a, fellow, passenger, he, noticed, i, had, got, on, the, train, at, penrith, and, perhaps, thought, i, was, connected, with, the, agricultural, industry, the, conversation, drifted, into, the, previous, years, fmd, outbreak, it, is, rather, strange, that, i, live, in, a, very, rural, area, and, fmd, is, rarely, mentioned, now, however, this, fellow, passenger, although, not, from, an, agricultural, background, gave, his, views, on, the, handling, of, the, situation, it, was, no, different, from, the, views, expressed, by, locals, at, the, time, of, the, crisis, it, just, goes, to, show, that, fmd, is, very, much, in, peoples, minds, even, if, they, were, not, connected, to, agriculture, in, any, way, week, 40, friday, now, that, the, mep, have, published, their, critical, report, on, the, fmd, crisis, it, is, interesting, to, read, an, article, published, in, our, local, weekly, paper, from, a, reader, article, entitled, foot, and, mouth, report, included, i, don’t, have, the, knowledge, or, the, data, to, support, this, readers, comments, however, i, have, heard, plenty, of, stories, from, mainly, unreliable, sources, to, confirm, what, he, says, it, makes, interesting, reading, i, think, week, 41, tuesday, no, wonder, my, confidence, in, the, future, has, taken, a, big, plunge, over, the, last, few, months, the, situation, in, iraq, doesn’t, get, any, better, mr, tony, blair’s, message, to, the, armed, forces, of, the, uk, bear, this, out, being, an, ex, serviceman, i, know, what, the, situation, holds, for, our, troops, but, are, we, right, to, follow, the, usa, in, a, war, against, iraq, no, doubt, saddam, hussein, does, pose, a, threat, but, so, does, india, and, pakistan, to, each, other, each, of, these, two, relatively, poor, countries, has, threatened, each, other, as, regards, their, nuclear, arsenals, now, the, loose, cannon, in, the, form, of, north, korea, is, positioning, itself, as, regards, its, position, in, the, nuclear, arms, league, personally, i, think, that, north, korea, poses, a, more, dangerous, threat, than, iraq, it, is, not, a, very, happy, new, year, for, a, lot, of, people, perhaps, it, will, all, be, settled, diplomatically, i, wonder, week, 42, nothing, of, any, importance, to, write, about, due, to, refurbishment, at, home, week, 43, monday, one, of, the, items, on, the, agenda, for, this, months, meeting, of, distington, parish, council, is, a, report, on, the, wood, felling, and, the, implications, of, this, as, i, have, written, in, the, diary, before, there, are, strong, rumours, of, the, proposed, plan, to, fell, woods, build, a, new, road, through, the, felled, site, and, bring, coal, from, the, nearby, opencast, site, to, link, up, with, an, existing, road, then, to, transport, the, coal, to, a, storage, area, on, workington, dock, then, when, the, coal, is, worked, out, to, build, an, incinerator, on, the, coal, site, ash, from, this, development, would, then, be, transported, on, the, new, road, to, be, disposed, of, on, the, waste, disposal, site, that, was, used, for, fmd, pyre, ash, and, leachate, thursday, read, a, report, of, the, aforesaid, meeting, the, owners, have, declared, that, our, worries, are, groundless, in, fact, they, say, that, they, plan, to, eventually, open, the, woodland, to, the, public, the, owners, of, the, woodland, are, the, same, operators, of, the, opencast, coal, site, footpaths, will, be, created, if, a, grant, can, be, obtained, a, wooden, wheeled, ancient, water, mill, will, be, restored, after, the, closed, meeting, the, operations, director, of, the, site, said, that, there, has, been, a, misunderstanding, what, we, are, doing, will, benefit, local, people, he, said, that, a, management, project, for, the, wood, is, being, followed, involving, felling, dead, trees, and, fresh, planting, he, added, the, felling, and, replanting, will, be, done, this, year, after, which, it, will, take, time, to, become, established, we’re, talking, of, a, ten, year, programme, but, it, should, have, long, term, benefits, i, think, our, pr, at, the, start, of, this, wasn’t, very, good, and, in, the, future, we, will, let, the, council, know, of, our, plans, the, council, agreed, to, keep, a, watch, on, the, work, here, in, g, this, statement, differs, greatly, from, what, some, of, us, have, been, told, by, our, village, based, county, councillor, there, has, never, been, any, suggestion, that, the, felled, woods, would, become, a, land, fill, site, but, would, be, felled, to, provide, the, new, road, there, was, nothing, mentioned, at, the, meeting, regarding, the, proposed, incinerator, being, built, the, county, council, that, this, has, ever, been, planned, however, our, representative, is, adamant, that, this, is, not, so, week, 44, tuesday, for, the, first, time, my, property, has, finally, overcome, a, situation, that, was, affected, by, fmd, in, july, 2000, the, electricity, supplier, notified, me, to, say, that, the, trees, in, my, garden, had, grown, so, tall, that, the, topmost, branches, were, in, close, contact, with, an, eleven, thousand, volt, overhead, power, line, and, that, they, should, be, felled, or, severely, pruned, after, some, further, negotiations, it, was, decided, to, prune, to, some, height, that, i, wasn’t, happy, with, although, the, treetops, were, not, actually, touching, the, wires, it, was, considered, a, risk, in, the, forthcoming, months, however, as, time, passed, i, couldn’t, wait, for, the, foresters, to, arrive, so, i, pruned, the, trees, myself, in, january, 2001, the, electric, supplier, suggested, that, the, trees, should, be, pruned, further, a, date, was, agreed, but, the, foresters, didn’t, arrive, time, dragged, on, and, the, trees, grew, back, to, their, original, height, again, the, electric, supplier, suggested, they, be, pruned, or, felled, a, new, date, was, agreed, upon, however, the, foresters, couldn’t, do, the, job, because, the, isolator, switch, was, on, farmland, and, they, couldn’t, get, access, to, it, because, of, fmd, restrictions, and, so, it, dragged, on, despite, visits, by, foresters, and, electric, supplier, reps, the, trees, got, bigger, and, i, was, forbidden, to, touch, them, neighbours, could, hear, crackling, noises, coming, from, the, wires, and, it, became, very, worrying, people, suggested, that, i, should, do, something, about, it, i, took, the, matter, up, directly, with, the, supplier, and, the, foresters, i, was, promised, dates, only, for, them, to, be, cancelled, in, december, 2002, a, date, of, 21st, january, 2003, was, given, this, time, they, came, and, we, agreed, that, two, trees, be, felled, and, another, pruned, after, 30, months, it, finally, happened, thursday, met, a, small, holder, who, has, his, land, on, the, edge, of, this, village, who, told, me, that, the, 20, day, rule, of, animal, restriction, of, animal, movement, was, being, lifted, and, replaced, by, a, 6, day, restriction, this, was, good, news, for, him, and, any, other, farmer, later, that, day, i, met, another, farmer, who, didn’t, know, that, the, restriction, was, being, lifted, you, would, have, thought, that, i, had, told, him, he’d, won, the, lottery, good, news, all, round, for, the, people, friday, listening, to, the, local, radio, today, and, was, surprised, to, hear, a, report, that, the, citizens, advice, bureau, in, a, small, lakeland, town, had, been, receiving, clients, who, were, still, experiencing, hardship, due, to, fmd, it, is, now, 18, months, since, the, last, outbreak, and, the, effects, according, to, the, person, being, interviewed, were, still, being, felt, not, just, by, farmers, and, agriculturists, but, by, guest, houses, hotels, tradesmen, and, in, particular, some, self, employed, debt, seems, to, be, the, biggest, problem, it, seems, as, though, some, people, had, weathered, the, hardships, of, fmd, initially, only, to, find, that, their, plans, had, come, adrift, somehow, afterwards, quite, disturbing, to, hear, that, the, situation, is, still, with, us, in, this, county, to, some, degree, week, 45, these, diaries, were, instituted, to, deal, with, the, after, effects, of, fmd, although, there, were, no, cases, of, fmd, in, this, village, everyone, knew, about, it, particularly, as, nearly, everyone, who, went, to, work, from, here, would, pass, the, main, farm, in, the, village, centre, or, some, of, the, farms, on, the, outskirts, of, the, village, now, that, fmd, is, over, most, people, who, live, here, don’t, seem, to, think, about, it, anymore, the, only, people, affected, are, the, farmers, naturally, this, is, a, strange, village, in, lots, of, ways, only, the, farmer, and, his, immediate, family, are, connected, with, agriculture, the, rest, are, professional, people, or, people, who, work, at, nearby, sellafield, industries, in, workington, and, whitehaven, or, are, retired, there, is, no, church, no, village, pub, no, village, shop, no, village, community, centre, or, meeting, place, only, tradesmen, that, call, are, the, milkman, and, the, solid, fuel, merchant, we, are, left, to, get, on, with, life, in, our, own, way, the, parish, of, distington, to, which, we, belong, have, all, the, facilities, associated, with, a, larger, community, such, as, a, church, pub, and, community, centre, all, of, which, are, two, miles, away, consequently, the, parish, council, meets, there, once, a, month, and, discusses, all, the, problems, of, the, area, including, ours, however, our, representative, on, the, council, has, resigned, and, no, one, has, come, forward, to, represent, us, anything, that, has, been, discussed, at, the, parish, council, is, reported, in, he, local, newspaper, village, pubs, are, a, good, venue, to, discuss, local, issues, and, to, exchange, views, and, mainly, to, gossip, village, tittle, tattle, as, i, call, it, as, we, have, no, pub, the, gossip, is, rife, from, one, source, or, another, with, bits, added, on, or, left, out, as, is, the, choice, of, the, person, concerned, quite, a, lot, of, people, one, meets, are, experts, in, their, own, particular, choice, of, subject, whether, it, is, politics, finance, or, mrs, jones, current, boy, friend, it, is, a, fault, to, take, on, board, all, that, is, gossiped, about, when, one, meets, a, fellow, villager, in, the, country, lanes, whilst, out, walking, the, dog, week, 46, illness, to, a, family, member, week, 47, continued, illness, week, 48, over, the, past, few, weeks, there, has, been, a, lot, of, tree, felling, in, the, nearby, woods, this, has, led, to, a, lot, of, disturbance, to, the, villagers, because, of, the, use, of, large, vehicles, needed, to, remove, the, felled, timber, and, also, the, foresters, vehicles, churning, up, the, grass, verges, and, the, ditches, a, lot, of, concern, was, raised, about, the, necessity, of, all, the, tree, felling, these, concerns, were, raised, in, the, press, and, also, in, the, parish, council, i, have, written, about, these, in, diaries, in, the, last, few, weeks, it, was, reported, in, mid, january, that, all, the, felled, woods, would, be, replanted, this, year, with, footpaths, created, for, the, enjoyment, of, the, local, population, now, all, timber, operations, have, ceased, large, areas, of, woodland, have, been, left, partly, felled, and, a, lot, of, felled, timber, is, left, lying, about, foresters, vehicles, have, gone, and, nothing, is, happening, despite, assurances, from, the, developers, it, looks, as, though, something, drastic, has, happened, village, tittle, tattle, says, that, the, foresters, have, not, been, paid, for, their, work, so, far, and, that, the, developers, have, run, out, of, money, if, this, is, so, what, is, going, to, happen, now, when, felling, started, late, last, year, i, contacted, two, environmental, agencies, regarding, the, threat, to, the, red, squirrels, badgers, and, buzzards, that, occupy, these, woods, i, was, told, that, it, was, only, a, partial, felling, and, they, the, environmental, agencies, were, satisfied, that, any, disturbances, would, be, slight, i, think, that, they, were, told, this, by, the, developers, and, accepted, what, they, were, told, without, a, site, visit, the, developers, have, been, known, to, mislead, groups, in, the, past, including, landowners, farmers, councils, and, individuals, i, personally, am, not, happy, about, this, situation, i, have, always, took, a, keen, interest, in, wildlife, and, feel, that, we, have, been, let, down, by, the, lies, of, developers, and, the, lack, of, serious, interest, from, wildlife, agencies, some, of, which, are, an, offshoot, of, central, government, i, for, one, will, keep, a, close, look, on, the, situation, with, or, without, other, villagers, and, in, particular, local, councillors, week, 49, by, chance, i, met, three, small, holders, all, at, the, same, time, they, were, discussing, farming, by, the, roadside, all, of, them, were, pleased, that, the, 20, day, ruling, was, coming, to, an, end, and, that, their, lives, were, more, or, less, coming, back, to, normal, they, also, expressed, the, opinion, that, the, 20, day, rule, and, the, 6, day, rule, were, only, in, force, to, protect, their, interests, however, they, were, unanimous, in, their, condemnation, over, the, importing, of, foreign, meat, and, meat, products, into, this, country, they, feel, that, foreign, meat, is, not, subjected, to, enough, checks, before, entry, into, the, united, kingdom, week, 51, met, a, farmer, today, who, told, me, that, he’d, seen, a, report, based, on, findings, by, the, eu, and, defra, it, stated, all, the, things, that, everyone, who, is, an, agriculturalist, and, those, who, take, an, interest, in, the, countryside, had, been, saying, about, what, was, wrong, with, the, handlers, of, the, fmd, outbreak, it, just, proves, that, it, doesn’t, take, an, academic, genius, to, know, what, should, have, been, done, at, the, time, everyone, can, be, wiser, after, the, event, but, statements, by, the, nfu, and, individuals, at, the, onset, were, not, heeded, for, example, the, movement, of, animals, should, have, been, halted, sooner, and, the, army, should, have, been, brought, in, much, sooner, now, the, question, of, vaccination, rumbles, on, should, we, or, shouldn’t, we, vaccinate, there, is, a, fear, of, the, outbreak, again, particularly, when, the, findings, of, the, 1960, outbreak, were, not, implemented, since, the, sadness, of, fmd, there, has, been, quite, a, few, instances, of, socialising, at, the, farm, such, as, harvest, festival, jubilee, party, and, almost, any, excuse, for, a, shindig, good, to, see, farmers, enjoying, themselves, week, 52, met, out, local, farmer, who, told, me, that, there, is, to, be, new, legislation, to, dispose, of, fallen, stock, no, longer, can, a, farmer, bury, fallen, stock, on, his, land, but, must, now, provide, an, incinerator, to, dispose, of, dead, animals, this, must, be, a, costly, business, could, dead, animals, not, be, taken, to, a, central, point, and, burned, week, 54, one, thing, about, fmd, was, the, effect, that, it, had, on, the, poaching, fraternity, living, in, a, rural, area, we, expect, this, to, happen, nobody, seems, to, mind, that, a, few, rabbits, and, pheasants, go, missing, what, is, really, alarming, is, the, use, of, dogs, and, high, powered, rifles, to, poach, deer, fmd, put, a, stop, to, all, this, now, a, neighbour, has, told, me, of, poachers, near, to, the, village, using, rifles, and, shooting, deer, the, only, people, benefiting, from, this, are, the, poachers, and, hoteliers, who, receive, these, dead, beasts, and, no, questions, asked, also, the, danger, of, villagers, being, hit, by, stray, rifle, shots, causes, alarm, to, others, week, 55, i, think, that, there, is, a, lot, of, jumping, on, the, band, wagon, now, that, fmd, has, cleared, up, for, instance, i, listened, to, an, interview, on, the, local, radio, station, given, by, a, hotelier, things, weren’t, going, well, in, his, establishment, having, got, over, fmd, and, its, implications, visitors, were, slowly, returning, to, the, area, but, not, in, sufficient, numbers, to, cause, great, joy]
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                                                                                                                                                    [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1975, gender, m, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, diary, 1, thursday, meeting, n, lakes, friday, tb, testing, on, restocking, farm, usual, chat, and, defra, comments, the, meeting, research, panel, gp, 6, at, the, north, lakes, was, interesting, it, surprises, me, sometimes, how, people, myself, included, never, seem, to, tire, of, the, same, stories, and, complaints, over, how, the, crisis, was, handled, some, of, the, episodes, recounted, must, have, been, told, dozens, of, times, over, the, last, year, but, whoever, says, it, always, seems, just, as, keen, to, say, it, again, perhaps, a, reflection, of, how, deeply, people, feel, about, the, events, of, the, last, year, having, said, that, most, of, the, resentments, and, rants, that, i, hear, on, daily, farm, visits, are, focused, fairly, and, squarely, at, defra, and, not, fmd, virus, farmers, seem, far, more, upset, at, the, constriction, put, on, them, by, defra, than, they, do, by, the, loss, of, stock, now, although, i, know, and, saw, how, utterly, devastated, most, were, when, they, were, actually, diagnosed, with, the, virus, and, in, the, week, or, two, following, my, work, in, the, practice, is, becoming, less, and, less, fmd, orientated, as, time, goes, on, licensing, and, restocking, visits, are, drawing, to, a, close, and, we, are, starting, to, return, to, normal, vet, work, my, life, has, been, more, settled, since, the, end, of, fmd, although, there, was, never, a, real, threat, of, redundancy, there, was, a, great, deal, of, uncertainty, as, to, what, form, work, would, take, during, the, outbreak, it, was, never, clear, whether, i, would, be, based, at, the, practice, or, working, as, a, defra, vet, from, month, to, month, now, that, it, is, finished, i, hope, the, practice, and, my, work, can, get, back, to, a, routine, and, at, least, knowing, where, i’ll, be, based, each, day, even, if, not, which, calls, are, going, to, come, in, with, regard, to, fmd, the, biggest, influence, it, has, at, the, moment, and, over, the, last, week, is, acting, as, a, listener, to, farmers, who, still, talk, about, it, and, defra, a, great, deal, diary, 2, mon, shap, restocking, having, to, justify, visit, wed, melmerby, i, went, to, see, a, farmer, this, week, to, do, the, first, inspection, of, his, sentinel, animals, that, he, is, restocking, his, farm, in, common, with, many, farmers, he, was, unwavering, in, his, conviction, that, his, animals, had, been, deliberately, infected, and, that, tony, blair, or, defra, were, the, ultimate, culprits, the, belief, is, that, they, want, to, put, farmers, out, of, business, this, particular, farmer, made, the, very, valid, point, that, defra, co, had, underestimated, the, resilience, of, the, farming, community, i, think, that, this, has, been, very, striking, considering, the, strain, that, they, have, been, under, in, some, cases, worse, for, those, who, didn’t, get, fmd, than, for, those, who, did, it, has, been, remarkable, how, little, the, majority, of, our, clients, have, changed, admittedly, we, see, most, of, them, on, a, professional, basis, regarding, their, animals, health, and, not, their, own, but, on, the, whole, they, seem, to, have, been, very, forward, thinking, about, the, outbreak, many, have, taken, it, as, a, chance, to, increase, the, size, of, herds, and, to, eliminate, many, other, diseases, as, well, as, fmd, work, in, the, practice, has, been, fairly, steady, as, week, the, number, of, fmd, calls, is, decreasing, one, of, the, problems, with, doing, restocking, licensing, and, tb, calls, is, that, we, are, on, the, farm, at, defra’s, instruction, normally, it, is, the, farmer, who, calls, us, out, and, this, can, cause, friction, anything, related, to, defra, will, put, hackles, up, 9, times, out, of, 10, it, definitely, causes, stress, at, times, but, puts, my, diplomacy, skills, into, good, practice, it, sometimes, feels, as, though, some, farmers, just, need, an, outlet, and, i, fit, the, bill, after, agreeing, with, everything, they, say, and, sympathising, it, usually, smoothes, out, and, ends, with, a, cup, of, tea, but, it, does, feel, as, though, we, have, to, justify, what, we, are, doing, much, more, than, prior, to, february, 2001, diary, 3, this, week, was, the, anniversary, of, the, week, i, went, to, my, first, ip, and, associated, slaughter, pyre, building, etc, at, several, times, during, the, week, i, found, myself, thinking, this, time, last, year, i, was, although, obviously, not, pleasant, memories, the, thoughts, did, not, particularly, affect, me, in, a, bad, way, or, distract, me, from, work, it, just, took, me, back, to, that, time, when, i, had, time, to, think, i, went, to, see, a, sick, horse, near, carlisle, which, is, where, the, ip, was, and, it, was, interesting, to, drive, past, the, farm, and, see, animals, in, the, buildings, again, hopefully, the, farmer, concerned, is, getting, back, on, track, again, with, respect, to, daily, routine, work, is, getting, very, busy, lambing, time, is, starting, to, really, get, going, with, the, inevitable, increase, in, calls, although, it, can, be, hectic, at, times, it’s, better, to, be, kept, busy, rather, than, having, it, too, quiet, it’s, also, good, to, actually, be, doing, lambings, and, other, sheep, work, as, it’s, two, years, since, we, did, any, apart, from, euthanasing, sheep, last, year, on, monday, i, went, to, do, a, re, stocking, check, on, a, farm, the, farmer, is, convinced, he, was, given, fmd, deliberately, and, on, arrival, i, was, given, his, weekly, tirade, regarding, defra, tony, blair, how, i, must, have, made, thousands, of, pounds, out, of, it, etc, etc, after, sometime, of, not, rising, to, the, bait, he, calmed, down, and, half, an, hour, later, was, sweetness, and, light, perhaps, he, just, needs, someone, to, let, pressure, out, to, only, one, session, like, that, a, week, isn’t, too, bad, considering, how, many, farm, visits, we, do, diary, 4, monday, brought, another, dressing, down, from, the, farmer, i, mentioned, last, week, it, was, shorter, and, less, passionate, this, time, perhaps, he’s, mellowing, a, bit, i, drove, up, to, junction, 40, one, day, with, the, sun, out, it, reminded, me, of, a, similar, day, a, year, ago, when, i, could, count, 15, smoke, plumes, from, pyres, on, the, same, bit, of, road, as, i, said, last, week, anniversary, memories, like, this, aren’t, especially, difficult, for, me, they’re, just, there, in, a, lot, of, ways, it’s, quite, satisfying, thinking, about, what, was, happening, a, year, ago, and, how, well, things, have, progressed, since, then, most, of, our, farmers, have, re, stocked, work, is, returning, to, normal, even, things, like, being, able, to, drive, onto, farms, again, rather, than, having, to, leave, the, car, at, the, farm, entrance, makes, a, big, difference, work, continues, to, be, very, busy, with, the, typical, seasonal, calls, to, sheep, and, cattle, we, have, a, couple, of, vet, students, doing, work, experience, with, us, which, had, to, stop, last, march, as, we, couldn’t, take, extras, onto, farms, with, us, another, sign, of, the, continuing, return, to, normality, some, days, it, seems, as, if, we, have, returned, to, how, we, were, a, year, ago, the, most, obvious, legacy, is, perhaps, the, thorough, and, extensive, clothing, disinfection, between, each, farm, a, good, habit, which, is, very, hard, to, break, diary, 5, i, had, to, work, on, easter, monday, morning, which, was, fairly, uneventful, as, for, the, last, few, weeks, there, were, the, usual, seasonal, calls, to, sheep, and, cattle, but, nothing, too, stressful, on, tuesday, i, did, the, final, blood, sampling, on, the, last, farm, that, we, have, that, is, still, at, the, sentinel, stage, of, re, stocking, the, farmers, seemed, fairly, mellow, today, and, spared, me, the, usual, lecture, attempt, at, argument, perhaps, it’s, because, the, end, of, his, restriction, is, in, sight, the, test, went, very, smoothly, and, i, didn’t, hear, from, him, until, the, end, of, the, week, when, i, he, was, upset, probably, justifiably, that, his, results, still, weren’t, back, as, processing, the, bloods, is, not, our, responsibility, all, i, could, do, was, sympathise, and, plead, ignorance, the, rest, of, the, week, was, fairly, routine, work, wise, friday, was, taken, up, doing, a, big, tuberculin, and, brucellosis, test, on, a, re, stocked, farm, they, all, have, to, be, done, within, 3, mths, of, re, stocking, although, it, was, a, big, job, it, was, a, well, run, farm, with, plenty, of, help, so, we, got, finished, within, the, day, and, with, as, few, delays, as, could, be, expected, now, that, the, evenings, are, lighter, it’s, meant, that, on, nights, off, duty, i’ve, been, able, to, get, out, more, it’s, made, a, very, welcome, change, to, be, able, to, bike, walk, on, the, fells, again, this, year, after, all, the, restrictions, of, 2001, long, may, it, and, the, weather, continue, diary, 6, finally, finished, the, last, a, restocking, jobs, on, monday, the, farmer, was, getting, very, frustrated, probably, justifiably, so, at, the, length, of, time, it, was, taking, the, bank, holidays, etc, last, week, meant, to, that, the, labs, were, closed, so, that, blood, samples, took, longer, to, process, i, got, the, results, at, 4, 45, monday, evening, and, in, an, attempt, to, create, some, goodwill, agreed, to, go, to, the, farm, to, do, a, final, check, that, evening, on, arrival, of, the, usual, tirade, about, defra, and, vet's, came, my, way, which, was, slightly, hard, to, take, he, then, said, that, he, didn't, blame, me, personally, which, was, nice, of, him, i, think, hope, he, realises, that, we, can, only, try, to, get, things, going, faster, and, ultimately, it’s, out, off, our, hands, at, least, it's, good, to, have, all, the, restocking, work, finished, it, feels, as, though, the, first, stage, is, over, in, getting, back, to, where, we, were, another, sign, of, returning, to, usual, is, the, continuing, pace, of, work, nights, on, call, are, again, a, time, for, working, rather, than, the, call, free, nights, of, summer, 2001, this, week, has, brought, early, morning, lambing, most, days, the, rest, of, the, time, we’re, is, as, busy, as, it's, been, for, a, year, the, day, book, is, full, each, day, and, we, all, seem, to, be, driving, around, the, county, more, or, less, keeping, up, with, the, jobs, which, is, a, good, thing, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, was, going, to, go, to, edinburgh, to, see, some, friends, but, in, the, end, stayed, in, penrith, for, some, r, r, diary, 7, i, had, a, half, day, on, monday, and, went, to, riggindale, at, the, head, of, haweswater, with, a, friend, who, had, come, to, stay, for, a, night, or, two, the, plan, was, to, see, the, golden, eagles, nesting, that, up, to, unfortunately, they, were, off, on, a, day, trip, to, another, part, of, the, lake, district, but, the, weather, was, good, and, it, made, a, very, pleasant, change, from, work, the, practice, is, still, going, flat, out, with, seasonal, work, the, daily, flow, of, lambing, and, lambing, related, sheep, problems, shows, no, sign, of, ebbing, there, are, also, increasing, numbers, of, cattle, problems, probably, related, to, coming, towards, the, spring, turn, out, of, cattle, that, have, been, inside, for, 6, 7, months, the, fact, that, most, of, them, are, in, new, surroundings, is, almost, certainly, adding, to, the, problems, on, the, whole, of, farmers, are, fairly, pragmatic, about, the, difficulties, they, are, having, most, accept, that, they, were, bound, to, have, problems, with, the, restocking, and, on, the, whole, are, pleased, just, to, have, stock, on, again, some, are, very, keen, to, be, as, efficient, as, possible, whereas, others, will, more, readily, go, along, with, the, old, farming, mantra, that, where, there's, a, livestock, there's, a, dead, stock, not, quite, what, the, veterinary, profession, wants, to, encourage, i, was, on, call, at, the, weekend, and, had, one, of, the, busier, few, days, i, can, remember, again, it, was, mostly, seasonal, farm, work, which, although, it, was, time, consuming, is, often, quite, rewarding, i'm, still, surprised, by, the, number, of, sheep, we, are, getting, called, to, perhaps, it's, because, farmers, have, spent, a, lot, of, money, on, them, to, restock, with, and, now, feel, they’re, financially, worth, calling, us, for, diary, 8, made, a, couple, of, visits, to, one, of, our, farmers, who, restocked, over, the, winter, this, week, he's, having, a, few, problems, with, cows, getting, ill, and, generally, not, settling, in, very, well, he's, one, of, the, most, amenable, farmers, on, our, books, and, never, seems, to, try, to, blame, anyone, for, his, troubles, at, times, it's, very, frustrating, not, to, be, able, to, do, more, for, people, like, him, i'd, like, to, be, able, to, give, every, one, of, his, cows, a, magic, injection, and, say, that, it'll, get, better, but, unfortunately, that's, not, how, it, works, we've, had, a, lot, of, colt, castrations, to, do, this, week, which, is, normal, for, this, time, of, year, it, puts, more, pressure, on, us, in, terms, of, work, as, we, usually, take, two, vets, to, each, castration, considering, how, busy, it, is, relations, in, the, practice, are, generally, very, good, it, has, been, stressful, at, times, but, on, the, whole, this, has, been, stress, related, to, volume, of, jobs, to, do, rather, than, people, it, has, also, been, a, very, different, and, preferable, type, of, stress, than, this, time, of, the, last, year, at, least, a, lot, of, work, makes, us, all, feel, fairly, stable, rather, than, the, terrible, uncertainty, of, last, year, we’ve, also, taken, on, an, extra, vet, this, spring, which, would, have, been, unthinkable, last, year, in, the, middle, of, the, week, i, did, a, farm, visit, with, one, of, the, vets, from, the, local, veterinary, lab, to, discuss, disease, control, on, a, re, stocked, farm, most, of, the, work, into, disease, surveillance, on, a, farm, was, defra, funded, which, went, down, well, with, the, farmer, she, at, least, felt, as, though, she, was, getting, something, back, after, fighting, with, defra, for, the, last, few, months, it, was, also, encouraging, to, see, someone, taking, a, very, positive, approach, to, disease, control, in, the, future, my, cousin, and, some, of, his, friends, came, down, from, glasgow, for, the, weekend, to, go, into, the, lake, district, the, weather, was, good, on, the, whole, and, several, people, noted, how, good, it, was, to, have, the, paths, open, again, diary, 9, started, the, week, doing, a, big, tuberculin, and, brucellosis, test, at, a, restocked, farm, there, has, been, a, big, backlog, to, clear, after, testing, was, stopped, during, fmd, last, year, so, we, have, to, catch, up, with, those, farms, that, didn’t, get, the, disease, but, are, due, a, test, as, well, as, testing, the, restocking, farms, we’re, all, very, keen, to, keep, cumbria, as, a, tb, free, zone, but, with, all, the, different, stock, coming, in, it’s, going, to, be, tricky, monday’s, test, was, long, but, okay, on, the, whole, the, set, up, was, good, and, the, farming, family, were, very, pleasant, which, makes, a, huge, difference, to, how, the, day, goes, all, was, clear, when, i, went, to, read, the, test, on, thursday, a, relief, for, all, concerned, overall, work, seems, to, be, quietening, down, a, bit, this, week, compared, to, the, last, few, we, are, now, just, busy, rather, than, always, feeling, as, if, were, one, job, behind, all, the, time, on, wednesday, and, thursday, one, of, our, clients, brought, in, half, a, dozen, shetland, ponies, to, castrate, it, makes, a, change, to, have, a, large, animal, that, is, small, enough, to, be, easily, physically, restrained, by, one, person, the, continuing, good, weather, made, doing, an, afternoon's, work, with, the, ponies, in, the, practice’s, field, a, very, pleasant, way, to, spend, a, few, hours, i, can't, help, feeling, that, no, rain, in, april, means, we'll, get, loads, later, in, the, summer, i, was, on, a, second, call, at, the, weekend, saturday, was, very, busy, with, small, animal, jobs, which, i, mainly, left, to, a, colleague, while, i, tried, to, clear, up, the, farm, and, equine, jobs, calm, was, pretty, much, restored, by, late, afternoon, after, which, i, wasn't, called, until, early, sunday, morning, another, of, our, re, stocked, clients, is, having, considerable, trouble, with, some, of, his, new, animals, and, is, becoming, increasingly, frustrated, about, it, we, all, try, to, help, with, the, medical, side, of, it, animals, but, inevitably, also, get, to, hear, a, lot, of, his, other, worries, too, hopefully, things, will, look, up, soon, and, he'll, be, able, to, ride, it, out, ok, diary, 10, had, a, day, off, on, bank, holiday, monday, always, the, good, way, to, start, the, week, i, went, up, to, peebles, in, scotland, with, some, friends, to, go, mountain, biking, it, was, surprisingly, empty, for, a, weekend, and, the, weather, was, good, and, i, didn't, fall, off, all, in, all, a, good, day, out, tuesday, was, work, as, usual, i, had, to, do, a, small, tb, test, on, a, restocking, farm, it, shouldn't, have, been, a, long, job, but, the, facilities, weren't, great, so, it, didn’t, go, as, slickly, as, it, might, have, done, we, all, managed, to, get, through, in, one, piece, so, it, could, have, been, worse, one, of, my, colleagues, went, on, maternity, this, week, she, is, part, time, but, does, all, small, animal, work, now, that, she's, off, for, the, next, few, months, it, means, that, an, extra, vet, is, needed, each, morning, to, stay, in, and, do, small, animal, operations, while, it's, probably, not, my, favourite, sort, of, work, it, does, make, a, change, from, being, out, on, farms, every, morning, it's, also, good, to, get, a, bit, more, experience, at, small, procedures, as, well, as, doing, smaller, animals, this, week, has, brought, several, interesting, equine, cases, i, had, to, hospitalise, a, horse, for, a, few, days, for, fairly, intensive, treatment, which, fortunately, appears, to, have, made, a, good, recovery, there, have, also, been, a, couple, of, horse, operations, at, the, practice, this, week, they’re, generally, quite, interesting, apart, from, the, stress, involved, with, having, half, a, ton, of, horse, asleep, on, the, operating, table, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, to, edinburgh, for, a, small, reunion, with, friends, i, was, at, college, with, although, we, do, talk, about, other, things, conversation, inevitably, came, round, to, work, the, effect, of, fmd, and, its, consequences, are, still, very, much, in, people's, minds, friends, all, asked, how, it, was, last, year, and, whether, farms, have, restocked, yet, etc, etc, it, s, stuff, which, i, seem, to, have, said, hundreds, of, times, over, the, last, few, months, but, people, never, seem, to, tire, of, asking, it, and, to, an, extent, i, don't, seem, to, get, bored, of, answering, it, diary, 11, the, week, started, with, a, big, tb, test, at, a, restocking, dairy, farm, there, were, very, good, facilities, and, it, subsequently, went, very, smoothly, and, quickly, despite, the, number, of, cows, involved, the, farmer, seems, to, be, quite, positive, about, the, new, start, and, has, been, spared, a, lot, of, the, problems, that, other, people, have, experienced, while, restocking, in, terms, of, disease, in, the, animals, everything, was, clear, when, i, read, the, test, later, in, the, week, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, had, a, bit, of, a, change, as, i, went, castrate, two, ponies, belonging, to, my, mother, she, had, bought, two, totally, wild, fell, ponies, last, autumn, they, now, a, bit, tamer, but, not, completely, used, to, being, handled, yet, i, went, with, one, of, our, nurses, and, the, senior, partner, and, it, all, went, pretty, much, to, plan, work, is, still, busy, there's, one, client, in, particular, who, is, giving, us, a, lot, to, do, he, restocked, a, few, months, ago, and, is, obviously, having, trouble, lambing, his, sheep, it, got, a, bit, trying, when, i, had, to, get, up, to, his, third, lambing, of, one, night, but, that's, what, we, are, there, for, i, suppose, he's, a, nice, man, and, always, seems, pleased, to, see, us, which, helps, i, had, the, weekend, off, again, and, went, to, glasgow, to, be, best, man, at, my, cousin's, wedding, apart, from, the, weather, it, went, very, well, i, think, with, no, unsolvable, problems, diary, 12, started, the, week, with, a, long, visit, for, dairy, fertility, work, to, one, of, our, big, dairy, farmers, it's, one, of, the, farmers, who, has, been, having, problems, after, restocking, and, a, visit, that, another, vet, usually, does, so, i, felt, a, bit, under, pressure, it's, the, type, of, work, which, is, very, routine, but, has, the, potential, to, go, quite, badly, wrong, on, the, whole, it, went, fairly, well, with, no, major, problems, i, get, on, pretty, well, with, the, farmer, which, always, helps, as, it, makes, the, time, go, by, quicker, small, animal, work, is, still, quite, busy, i, had, two, days, inside, this, week, doing, small, animals, operations, there, wasn't, anything, particularly, different, or, unusual, but, it, still, helps, to, do, more, of, it, one, of, our, farmers, who, managed, to, miss, fmd, is, very, busy, with, his, calving, schedule, at, the, moment, he’s, tending, to, have, very, big, calves, and, subsequently, we’re, doing, a, lot, of, caesareans, there, this, week, has, brought, at, least, half, a, dozen, of, which, two, were, in, the, middle, of, the, night, there, have, been, a, few, vets, are, looking, sleep, deprived, recently, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, so, see, a, couple, of, friends, in, edinburgh, we, spent, one, day, cycling, in, peebles, and, then, proceeded, to, nothing, strenuous, for, the, next, diary, 13, the, week, started, with, a, big, session, dehorning, cattle, it’s, not, exactly, technical, work, and, is, fairly, hard, work, at, least, it, gets, me, fit, we, would, normally, do, them, at, a, younger, age, but, quite, a, few, have, been, missed, as, we, didn’t, get, out, onto, farms, for, such, routine, work, last, year, on, the, whole, most, people, are, fairly, well, caught, up, now, that, they’ve, re, stocked, been, having, routine, work, done, for, the, last, 8, months, or, so, but, there, are, still, a, few, lagging, behind, i, had, a, call, from, a, farmer, who, was, one, of, our, most, consistently, and, vehemently, anti, defra, people, last, year, i, ended, up, doing, a, caesarean, and, had, quite, a, long, chat, with, him, conversation, ended, up, coming, round, to, the, events, of, last, year, and, he, aired, his, resentments, again, it, was, the, first, time, in, several, weeks, that, i, had, heard, this, kind, of, talk, whereas, a, few, months, ago, it, would, have, been, a, daily, occurrence, it, wasn’t, particularly, aimed, at, me, or, the, practice, in, particular, but, just, frustration, with, the, system, as, a, whole, i, went, for, a, walk, up, blencathra, one, evening, during, the, week, but, the, highlight, of, the, week, has, to, be, the, start, of, the, world, cup, i’ve, been, on, duty, this, w, e, but, managed, to, see, all, but, the, last, two, minutes, of, this, morning’s, rather, disappointing, draw, with, sweden, most, farmers, are, keen, to, watch, the, matches, too, so, lets, hope, not, too, many, calls, come, in, at, the, wrong, time, diary, 14, i, had, the, bank, holiday, on, monday, off, which, was, welcome, after, a, weekend, on, call, i, went, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, with, a, colleague, considering, it, was, a, bank, holiday, it, wasn't, too, crowded, had, to, work, on, bank, holiday, tuesday, though, it, wasn't, especially, busy, until, the, evening, when, i, had, to, do, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, and, then, go, and, see, a, badly, cut, horse, both, seem, to, be, doing, ok, the, rest, of, the, week, was, worked, as, usual, nothing, particularly, out, of, the, ordinary, happened, with, fairly, routine, calls, perhaps, it, was, because, everyone, was, preoccupied, with, events, in, japan, and, korea, or, maybe, that, is, just, me, i, was, booked, in, for, an, 11, am, call, on, friday, but, managed, to, persuade, the, farmer, concerned, that, 9.30, would, be, more, appropriate, said, that, i, or, should, that, be, we, could, watch, the, second, england, game, we, managed, to, get, finished, in, time, and, it, was, well, worth, it, the, 1, 0, win, over, argentina, put, everyone, in, a, good, mood, for, the, rest, of, the, day, and, the, weekend, i, was, on, first, call, over, the, weekend, saturday, morning, was, very, busy, and, we, didn’t, get, all, the, calls, done, until, early, afternoon, after, that, it, was, one, of, the, quietest, weekends, i’ve, had, they, were, a, couple, of, things, to, do, on, saturday, afternoon, evening, but, sunday, had, no, calls, until, after, lunch, almost, unheard, of, i, had, to, check, my, phone, was, switched, on, long, may, it, last, diary, 15, i’ve, done, two, days, in, the, practice, doing, small, animals, this, week, more, than, usual, the, weather, has, not, been, the, best, so, it's, no, bad, thing, i, managed, to, go, out, on, rounds, on, wednesday, though, so, i, managed, to, catch, the, third, england, match, second, round, here, we, come, i, spent, most, of, friday, morning, operating, on, two, cows, at, one, of, our, farms, they, both, had, a, condition, where, part, of, the, gut, displaces, in, the, abdomen, and, is, best, repositioned, surgically, the, farmer, observed, that, it, was, probably, linked, to, fmd, last, year, because, of, fmd, he, had, to, use, more, silage, to, keep, his, cows, inside, last, summer, this, meant, he, had, less, stored, over, the, winter, and, so, had, none, available, to, feed, this, spring, summer, the, lack, of, silage, now, is, almost, certainly, implicated, in, the, problems, his, cows, had, it's, very, unusual, to, have, two, occurring, on, one, farm, at, same, time, seeing, as, he, missed, getting, fmd, last, year, though, he, thought, it, was, a, price, worth, paying, it, was, actually, quite, a, pleasant, way, to, spend, a, morning, he's, from, kirkby, stephen, where, i, went, to, school, and, i, didn't, have, any, other, jobs, waiting, so, it, was, quite, a, relaxed, few, hours, the, surgery, went, ok, too, i, had, a, half, day, on, friday, and, drove, to, valley, just, beyond, alston, to, meet, one, of, my, old, flat, mates, from, edinburgh, for, his, stag, weekend, we, stayed, in, an, old, barn, in, middle, of, nowhere, so, it, wasn't, exactly, a, conventional, stag, party, but, very, enjoyable, all, the, same, we, walked, to, the, nearest, pub, on, saturday, to, see, england's, exciting, next, instalment, 3, 0, thank, you, very, much, after, that, it's, been, a, leisurely, day, and, drive, back, to, penrith, and, i’ve, got, another, night, to, get, my, head, back, to, normal, for, work, tomorrow, diary, 16, this, week, has, been, quite, small, animal, orientated, again, i've, done, two, mornings, in, the, surgery, and, more, consulting, than, usual, i'm, not, meant, to, be, on, duty, for, nights, this, week, but, i've, had, a, couple, to, cover, for, people, who've, been, on, holiday, fortunately, both, nights, were, fairly, quiet, i'm, sure, the, favour, will, be, returned, sometime, during, the, day, work, has, been, fairly, steady, we’re, not, quite, as, busy, as, last, week, but, there's, enough, to, keep, us, going, the, practice, like, most, of, the, country, tried, to, stop, briefly, while, england, were, losing, to, brazil, it's, a, bit, disappointing, hopefully, farmers, and, the, rest, of, our, clients, won’t, be, too, depressed, about, it, all, it, was, good, while, it, lasted, at, the, weekend, i, went, down, to, a, place, near, worcester, for, the, wedding, of, the, friend, whose, stag, weekend, it, was, the, last, week, there, were, a, lot, of, people, from, edinburgh, there, why, haven't, seen, for, several, years, and, it, was, great, to, catch, up, the, weather, was, very, kind, and, stayed, dry, diary, 18, on, monday, i, went, to, do, a, big, tuberculosis, and, brucellosis, test, at, of, one, our, big, dairy, farms, that, had, restocked, few, months, ago, they’ve, got, several, hundred, cows, and, it, took, a, lot, longer, than, anticipated, i, had, to, go, back, on, tuesday, to, finish, the, job, off, they’re, a, friendly, family, so, it, wasn't, really, too, much, of, a, chore, there, has, been, a, more, obvious, change, in, them, since, fmd, than, for, most, of, our, clients, who, had, the, disease, they, seem, much, quieter, and, less, concerned, about, farming, and, life's, problems, in, general, now, perhaps, they, think, if, they, can, get, through, 2001, then, there’s, nothing, worth, getting, stressed, about, in, comparison, wednesday, was, spent, doing, small, animal, work, made, a, change, as, on, thursday, i, went, back, to, read, the, cows, results, for, the, tb, test, all, negative, on, thursday, night, i, drove, down, to, stay, with, a, college, friend, near, birmingham, for, the, start, of, a, long, weekend, on, friday, i, carried, on, south, to, another, friend, in, north, devon, she's, working, another, vet, in, an, area, that, was, also, severely, affected, by, fmd, cumbria, was, so, badly, hit, that, is, sometimes, easy, to, forget, that, other, places, had, a, bad, time, too, thankfully, work, in, devon, is, more, or, less, back, to, normal, again, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, weekend, in, south, devon, where, my, dad, had, his, 60th, birthday, we, were, lucky, with, the, weather, and, had, fine, ish, conditions, to, have, a, barbecue, on, the, beach, i, was, off, today, monday, as, well, and, spent, the, day, driving, north, too, far, to, go, for, a, weekend, diary, 19, it's, been, a, short, working, week, seeing, as, i, had, monday, off, i’ve, also, started, a, month, back, on, the, out, of, the, hours, of, rota, this, week, it, works, a, month, on, a, month, off, system, so, nights, and, weekends, have, been, and, will, be, a, bit, busier, work, has, generally, been, a, bit, quieter, recently, this, is, fairly, typical, for, the, time, of, year, mainly, because, animals, are, outside, and, farmers, are, busy, making, hay, and, silage, rain, permitting, we've, had, two, vets, off, this, week, so, although, there, have, been, fewer, jobs, in, we, are, not, left, twiddling, our, thumbs, there, has, been, the, usual, flow, of, a, routine, farm, work, along, with, horses, and, small, animals, but, nothing, too, taxing, on, the, whole, i, had, a, night, on, thursday, and, went, up, st, sunday, crag, in, the, lake, district, with, a, couple, of, friends, from, brampton, it, was, further, than, i, remembered, it, being, we, didn't, get, down, until, it, was, almost, dark, but, apart, from, being, unseasonably, cold, surprise, surprise, it, was, a, fine, night, it, was, duty, this, weekend, i, was, on, first, call, on, friday, night, and, had, it, very, easy, no, calls, until, 12, 45pm, when, another, vet, and, i, had, to, operate, on, a, dog, until, three, am, i, checked, it, again, at, 5.30, and, then, had, to, go, to, calving, at, 6.45, just, as, that, was, finished, i, was, called, to, a, badly, cut, horse, then, some, lame, cows, and, then, to, the, bacon, roll, shop, for, breakfast, i, was, only, on, second, call, for, the, rest, of, the, weekend, and, was, fairly, quiet, this, meant, i, could, get, on, with, various, mundane, things, like, painting, my, house, tidying, the, garden, etc, etc, ideal, tasks, for, when, i, can't, do, anything, else, because, i'm, on, call, and, the, dog, did, well, so, it, makes, the, night, with, no, sleep, worthwhile, diary, 20, have, had, another, short, week, had, monday, off, as, i, was, coming, back, from, a, long, weekend, away, work, this, week, has, been, fairly, steady, farmers, are, often, busy, trying, to, get, silage, hay, in, at, the, moment, so, routine, of, vet, work, takes, a, back, seat, having, said, that, we, have, been, kept, at, least, as, busy, as, we, would, expect, with, routine, fertility, visits, and, the, occasional, sick, cow, etc, there, been, a, few, of, the, restocking, farms, that, have, had, some, fairly, unusual, diseases, that, didn't, obviously, fall, into, the, ones, we, usually, recognise, or, deal, with, as, a, lot, of, them, have, bought, stock, in, from, abroad, we, have, to, at, least, keep, in, mind, the, possibility, of, new, problems, been, brought, in, we've, worked, quite, closely, with, the, local, defra, run, veterinary, investigation, centre, on, a, few, of, these, cases, but, thankfully, none, have, turned, out, to, be, anything, to, be, unduly, worried, about, i, was, on, duty, this, weekend, but, have, fortunately, been, reasonably, quiet, the, only, thing, out, the, ordinary, was, a, horse, that, had, torn, its, leg, up, quite, badly, on, some, wire, but, with, a, bit, of, time, and, bandaging, it, should, do, okay, diary, 21, 2, vets, have, been, off, this, week, so, it's, been, a, bit, busier, for, the, rest, of, us, again, as, with, last, week, it's, been, a, mixture, of, routine, and, the, standard, a, e, type, work, there, have, been, a, few, tuberculin, tests, going, on, still, trying, to, clear, the, backlog, from, last, year, it's, getting, there, slowly, but, a, lot, of, it, will, have, to, wait, until, the, autumn, winter, when, the, cows, are, in, and, the, farmers, have, more, time, available, our, new, vet, who, started, in, april, has, seemed, to, settle, in, very, well, he, had, a, bit, of, a, bad, day, earlier, in, the, week, when, a, calving, did, go, quite, as, planned, it's, very, easy, to, do, especially, when, you, feel, under, pressure, as, is, bound, to, happen, when, you, start, a, new, job, it, reminded, me, of, some, of, the, problems, i, had, a, few, years, ago, the, farm, where, it, happened, is, quite, an, understanding, type, so, it, won't, create, any, real, problems, hockey, training, is, starting, again, which, seems, a, bit, premature, as, the, season, is, still, months, away, at, least, it'll, encourage, me, to, do, a, bit, more, exercise, to, get, fit, for, matches, the, weather, has, meant, i, haven't, been, out, into, the, hills, as, often, as, i, would, have, liked, but, hopefully, there's, still, time, for, it, to, brighten, up, a, bit, had, the, weekend, off, so, a, couple, of, friends, from, college, he, now, living, york, came, to, stay, we, went, up, to, the, borders, for, the, day, on, saturday, near, to, where, i, used, to, work, it, doesn't, seem, to, have, changed, much, i, still, think, i'm, better, off, down, here, despite, last, year, diary, 22, we, had, a, bit, of, a, rush, on, this, week, as, sometimes, seems, to, happen, it, can, be, quiet, for, couple, of, weeks, and, then, it, suddenly, it's, crazy, it, may, be, that, a, lot, of, farms, have, now, largely, got, their, crops, in, and, are, trying, to, catch, up, or, perhaps, it's, just, the, way, things, go, several, farms, have, had, ongoing, problems, this, week, with, visits, being, required, several, days, running, there, have, also, been, a, large, number, of, horse, calls, this, is, probably, fairly, common, for, this, time, of, year, as, they, tend, to, get, ridden, in, the, supposedly, better, weather, we, tend, to, go, further, afield, for, horses, on, tuesday, i, went, to, kirkby, lonsdale, area, in, morning, and, had, to, go, north, of, carlisle, in, the, afternoon, the, miles, get, racked, up, or, fairly, quickly, and, i, get, to, learn, where, the, various, blind, spots, for, phone, and, radio, reception, are, i, was, on, duty, again, on, the, weekend, which, meant, that, i, was, also, on, for, monday, wednesday, and, friday, nights, they, weren't, too, bad, apart, from, friday, when, i, have, to, go, and, see, a, couple, of, horses, being, on, duty, for, three, week, nights, tends, to, limit, what, i, can, do, apart, from, work, but, i, managed, to, meet, up, with, some, friends, working, in, brampton, one, night, and, go, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, on, thursday, the, weekend, was, fairly, quiet, but, i, was, only, on, second, call, so, i, found, time, to, do, some, decorating, in, the, room, in, my, house, which, is, the, current, project, i, lead, such, a, thrilling, life, diary, 23, the, calm, after, the, storm, after, the, frantic, levels, of, work, we, saw, last, week, it, has, again, been, a, bit, more, civilised, this, week, we've, had, time, to, have, coffee, and, lunch, breaks, and, actually, talk, to, colleagues, from, time, to, time, i, wouldn't, want, have, every, week, is, quiet, as, this, but, occasionally, it's, very, welcome, it's, quite, relaxing, to, be, able, to, go, on, a, call, knowing, that, there, is, not, another, one, waiting, it, also, means, that, if, the, afternoons, are, quiet, one, of, us, can, usually, have, a, half, day, i, got, the, nod, on, wednesday, and, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, my, folks, they’ve, got, a, smallholding, down, there, with, various, creatures, which, usually, have, some, ailment, or, other, it's, a, bit, of, a, busman's, holiday, going, there, but, it, is, nice, having, them, close, i, tend, see, them, every, week, or, two, on, wednesday, i, vaccinated, a, couple, of, horses, and, trimmed, a, few, sheep’s, feet, they, went, through, the, joys, of, 48, hourly, surveillance, inspections, last, year, but, somehow, managed, to, come, through, unscathed, their, parish, was, one, of, the, only, ones, in, the, kirkby, stephen, area, to, do, so, other, weekend, i, went, up, to, glasgow, to, see, a, cousin, who, was, having, a, leaving, party, i, didn't, know, many, people, there, but, it, was, good, to, go, and, do, something, completely, removed, from, the, usual, one, of, the, people, i, did, know, came, and, stayed, in, penrith, on, sunday, night, it, was, a, stunning, day, we, went, the, lakes, which, were, at, their, best, diary, 24, this, week, was, the, first, of, four, for, me, being, off, the, rota, which, should, mean, no, nights, and, no, weekends, on, call, can't, be, bad, on, monday, had, a, small, tb, test, to, do, it, was, with, a, very, pleasant, farmer, and, the, cows, behaved, themselves, so, it, wasn't, a, bad, way, to, spend, a, morning, he's, imported, a, small, herd, from, holland, and, seems, very, pleased, with, them, so, far, it, takes, a, bit, time, for, the, f, m, farmers, to, get, used, to, their, new, stock, as, most, of, them, knew, their, old, ones, so, well, but, on, the, whole, people, seemed, fairly, content, with, their, new, ones, i, did, small, animal, ops, on, tuesday, and, wednesday, as, one, of, the, vets, who, usually, do, it, was, on, holiday, we've, got, a, new, nurse, starting, this, week, so, it, was, a, case, of, showing, her, the, ropes, but, she, seems, to, be, doing, very, well, one, my, best, school, friends, got, married, on, friday, very, typically, after, a, fairly, quiet, week, it, suddenly, got, busy, on, friday, afternoon, i, managed, to, get, the, wedding, but, had, to, miss, the, afternoon, reception, in, order, to, go, and, see, a, horse, in, appleby, that's, life, i, was, one, of, the, duty, vets, at, lowther, show, on, saturday, i, hadn't, done, it, before, and, had, a, very, good, time, it, was, generally, fine, weather, and, there, were, some, truly, stunning, teams, of, horses, in, the, driving, event, lots, of, competitors, commented, on, how, good, it, was, to, have, the, show, up, and, running, again, after, last, year's, cancellations, the, event, passed, without, any, major, incident, for, vet, wise, so, it, was, a, pretty, calm, day, for, me, really, diary, 25, the, week's, been, fairly, steady, i, seem, to, have, been, doing, more, horses, than, anything, else, i, didn't, go, and, see, a, cow, until, friday, several, of, them, were, ongoing, cases, such, as, leg, wounds, that, have, needed, daily, dressing, changes, and, the, rest, a, selection, of, vaccinations, lameness, and, those, that, aren't, quite, right, i, quite, enjoy, the, horse, side, of, the, job, so, doing, a, bit, more, than, usual, has, been, a, welcome, change, i, had, planned, to, get, to, work, on, my, house, this, month, in, my, free, evenings, but, it, doesn't, really, seem, to, have, worked, like, that, when, i, know, i've, got, a, lot, of, free, time, nights, tend, to, get, booked, up, seeing, people, from, home, or, near, by, who, i’ve, temporarily, lost, touch, with, also, seeing, as, summer, seems, to, have, found, us, i've, been, trying, to, get, into, the, lakes, as, much, as, possible, the, house, can, wait, till, winter, this, weekend, i’ve, been, down, to, wales, to, see, a, group, of, college, friends, we, stayed, in, a, cottage, owned, by, one, of, the, group's, parents, and, played, a, few, rounds, of, golf, i, played, very, badly, lost, a, lot, of, balls, and, became, very, frustrated, with, it, all, i, think, it, comes, down, to, lack, of, talent, still, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, some, people, i, haven't, seen, since, graduation, and, i'm, sure, the, golf, will, be, better, next, year, diary, 26, i've, done, more, small, animal, work, than, anything, else, this, week, there, had, been, no, disasters, all, fairly, routine, stuff, one, of, the, small, animal, vets, has, been, away, so, i, had, to, cover, a, bit, i, didn't, actually, get, out, onto, a, farm, until, friday, morning, it, gets, a, bit, claustrophobic, inside, after, a, while, so, it, was, good, to, get, out, i, was, on, call, at, the, weekend, and, also, had, a, college, friend, to, stay, it, was, very, quiet, most, of, the, time, until, sunday, evening, i, had, swapped, duty, to, be, off, on, the, night, from, 6, 00pm, at, 5.45, four, calls, all, came, in, at, once, at, all, four, corners, of, the, practice, so, i, didn't, actually, get, finished, until, nearly, 8pm, that’s, the, way, it, goes, sometimes, i, suppose, i, had, another, half, day, earlier, in, the, week, as, it, was, fairly, quiet, i, took, my, bike, out, into, the, northern, lakes, for, a, few, hours, to, blow, away, the, cobwebs, from, being, inside, at, work, diary, 27, i, had, a, barbecue, party, this, weekend, for, people, from, work, and, a, lot, of, friends, from, college, there, were, a, lot, of, people, i, thought, i'd, always, keep, in, touch, with, the, but, as, time, went, on, i, never, did, so, i, arranged, a, weekend, a, long, way, in, advance, for, us, all, to, meet, up, again, about, 28, people, came, most, of, whom, i, haven't, seen, for, least, a, year, or, two, nobody, seems, to, have, changed, much, and, it, was, great, to, see, them, all, again, the, garden, and, house, have, both, taken, a, bit, of, a, pounding, but, i, think, most, of, the, mess, is, fairly, superficial, i, went, for, a, walk, near, howtown, today, to, clear, my, head, after, the, barbecue, last, night, it, was, a, very, good, day, weather, wise, which, meant, that, a, lot, of, people, had, had, the, same, idea, as, us, it's, been, a, variable, week, at, work, some, days, been, very, quiet, others, flat, out, i've, had, an, ongoing, case, of, a, young, horse, that, had, been, caught, up, in, wire, on, monday, evening, it, was, well, beyond, the, stage, where, it, could, have, been, stitched, when, i, saw, it, so, it'll, have, to, heal, slowly, by, filling, the, wound, in, i'm, sure, it'll, be, fine, but, it's, going, to, take, a, long, time, we’re, starting, to, get, a, lot, of, inquiries, about, the, new, rules, defra, are, bringing, in, to, allow, farmers, to, bring, animals, on, to, their, farms, in, isolation, facilities, it, should, make, things, less, restrictive, for, the, farmer, we, are, going, to, have, to, do, a, lot, of, inspections, it's, not, since, restocking, checks, last, winter, that, we’ve, really, had, to, do, this, sort, of, thing, but, the, checks, probably, won't, be, as, exhaustive, as, those, we, had, to, do, last, year, diary, 28, had, a, fairly, quiet, week, really, this, been, a, fairly, standard, mix, of, sick, cows, a, couple, of, lame, horses, and, the, continuation, of, the, young, horse, that, wrecked, its, leg, last, week, which, is, going, okay, so, it's, been, fairly, laid, back, on, the, whole, with, time, for, a, coffee, break, after, most, calls, we, have, done, the, first, of, the, inspections, for, the, new, on, farm, isolation, facilities, for, sheep, on, the, whole, farmer, compliance, has, been, very, good, there, have, been, a, few, whinges, about, why, they, have, to, do, it, and, i, can, see, why, as, it, must, be, frustrating, to, suddenly, be, told, how, to, run, stock, movements, that, they've, always, done, a, different, way, most, can, see, why, defra, are, insisting, on, it, though, as, it's, all, aimed, at, reducing, the, risk, of, having, another, situation, like, we, did, last, year, i, was, off, again, this, weekend, one, of, my, old, flat, mates, and, his, wife, came, to, stay, they, live, in, london, so, came, north, for, a, weekend, of, clean, living, and, fresh, air, we, went, for, walks, around, cat, bells, and, high, street, on, saturday, and, sunday, ate, drank, and, were, generally, fairly, unstressed, hope, it, was, what, they, were, looking, for, diary, 29, i've, had, a, short, week, in, terms, of, work, at, the, practice, this, week, as, i've, been, to, glasgow, for, an, equine, conference, from, thursday, to, saturday, further, education, is, not, compulsory, and, there, is, no, formal, structure, for, it, which, is, quite, controversial, in, some, people's, eyes, but, the, royal, college, of, vets, do, encourage, us, to, keep, up, to, date, there, is, a, quota, we’re, asked, to, fulfil, each, year, and, these, three, days, will, help, me, keep, on, track, there, were, several, different, courses, on, each, day, with, one, lecture, theatre, for, practitioner, based, subjects, that, we, could, expect, to, see, on, a, day, to, day, basis, and, another, called, advanced, clinical, sessions, on, subjects, and, cases, so, obscure, that, you'd, be, lucky, to, hear, of, one, let, alone, see, one, more, than, once, or, twice, i, didn't, go, to, many, of, those, lectures, as, well, as, being, useful, in, terms, of, picking, up, new, information, it, was, also, a, good, chance, to, catch, up, with, old, friends, from, college, lots, of, people, i, hadn't, seen, for, a, year, or, two, were, there, and, it, was, good, to, see, them, the, first, three, days, of, the, week, were, okay, i, went, out, on, tuesday, morning, to, trim, some, lame, cows, feet, and, ended, up, accidentally, trimming, some, skin, from, the, farmers, thumb, with, my, hoof, knife, all, a, bit, embarrassing, and, felt, very, bad, but, he, didn't, seem, that, fazed, by, it, and, he's, not, the, type, to, bear, a, grudge, perhaps, i, shouldn’t, try, to, keep, my, knife, so, sharp, another, of, the, week's, more, interesting, events, was, an, irish, wolfhound, that, needed, surgery, to, correct, a, twisted, and, distended, stomach, it's, fairly, common, in, this, type, of, dog, and, is, a, real, emergency, another, vet, and, i, operated, on, him, on, tuesday, afternoon, it, took, a, couple, of, hours, but, so, far, is, seems, to, have, been, worth, it, as, he's, done, very, well, and, apparently, went, home, on, friday, diary, 30, i, spent, most, of, monday, afternoon, evening, irradiating, myself, by, taking, dozens, of, x, rays, of, a, horse’s, legs, it, was, being, sold, for, a, lot, of, money, and, the, insurance, company, wanted, to, check, all, its, joints, were, ok, before, insuring, it, it, took, a, lot, longer, than, anticipated, as, it, was, difficult, to, get, it, positioned, absolutely, right, for, each, view, but, we, got, there, in, the, end, we, have, to, be, quite, careful, about, exposure, to, x, rays, but, my, x, ray, badge, hasn't, shown, a, high, reading, yet, 2, vets, have, been, off, this, week, one, on, his, honeymoon, and, one, has, been, away, doing, ai, on, sheep, its, often, a, bit, quieter, now, but, we, seem, to, have, been, kept, going, i, did, a, big, routine, fertility, visit, to, one, of, our, dairy, farms, on, wednesday, one, of, the, main, things, we, do, on, these, visits, is, manual, pregnancy, diagnosis, it's, not, too, bad, with, dairy, calves, cows, as, if, they're, not, in, calf, they, would, normally, get, another, chance, to, do, so, but, with, some, beef, farms, or, a, dairy, cow, that, is, persistently, not, conceiving, it, sometimes, more, economic, to, get, rid, of, the, cow, of, rather, than, persisting, so, there's, a, big, incentive, for, us, to, get, it, right, or, at, least, not, to, say, a, cow, isn't, in, calf, when, she, is, luckily, they, were, all, quite, straightforward, this, week, this, was, my, last, before, going, away, to, the, usa, for, a, fortnight, i, fly, to, new, york, tomorrow, to, meet, up, with, an, old, flatmate, of, mine, who's, a, journalist, out, there, i'm, crossing, the, atlantic, to, see, him, and, he's, given, me, directions, to, his, flat, rather, than, meeting, me, at, the, airport, because, i'm, arriving, when, premiership, football, is, on, tv, charming, diary, 31, two, weeks, in, the, states, can't, be, bad, i, flew, into, new, york, where, i, stayed, with, a, friend, who's, working, in, manhattan, i, did, a, lot, of, the, usual, tourist, things, empire, state, building, boat, trip, around, the, island, central, park, etc, for, its, size, it's, a, very, relaxed, place, in, a, lot, of, ways, it, feels, very, safe, and, although, there, is, loads, going, on, you, never, seem, to, get, hassled, we, flew, to, new, orleans, for, a, week, supposedly, for, some, sun, in, the, deep, south, but, landed, just, as, a, tropical, storm, hit, the, mainland, everything, was, closed, for, two, days, as, bad, as, uk, when, it, snows, once, the, weather, cleared, it, was, fine, and, we, again, went, about, being, tourists, paddle, boat, up, the, mississippi, river, out, on, a, boat, in, the, louisiana, swamps, to, look, at, alligators, and, a, bit, of, new, orleans, nightlife, i, had, a, few, more, days, in, new, york, before, flying, home, diary, 32, first, week, back, after, america, had, a, good, trip, but, the, week, has, been, rather, marred, by, the, death, of, one, of, the, hockey, team, and, a, year, mate, of, mine, at, school, in, a, tractor, accident, when, he, was, hit, by, a, wagon, on, the, a, 66, on, thursday, i, saw, him, on, wednesday, night, at, hockey, training, he, was, very, stiff, having, done, the, great, north, run, with, his, wife, the, weekend, before, i, didn't, know, him, very, well, at, school, but, have, got, to, over, the, last, few, years, via, hockey, and, he, really, was, a, tremendously, good, person, and, will, be, much, missed, by, lots, of, people, in, and, around, kirkby, stephen, the, weekend's, match, was, postponed, as, no, one, could, have, thought, about, playing, it, all, seems, very, trivial, when, this, sort, of, thing, happens, i, couldn't, have, played, anyway, as, i'm, on, duty, this, weekend, but, fortunately, it's, been, fairly, quiet, so, far, a, calving, and, 2, caesareans, but, it's, getting, into, calving, season, so, it's, about, par, for, the, course, the, first, half, of, the, week, was, ok, i, was, even, given, a, half, day, on, tuesday, a, day, and, a, half, after, returning, from, holiday, i, went, for, a, walk, at, the, bottom, end, of, derwent, water, and, then, tried, to, sleep, off, some, jet, lag, diary, 33, i, went, to, matthew's, funeral, on, tuesday, how, popular, he, was, was, reflected, in, the, number, of, people, there, we, arrived, 25, minutes, before, it, was, due, to, start, and, still, had, to, stand, and, had, to, move, up, as, more, people, tried, to, fit, into, the, chapel, it, almost, seemed, as, if, all, of, kirkby, had, come, to, a, standstill, it, went, on, quite, a, long, time, so, i, had, the, afternoon, off, and, went, to, see, my, parents, who, live, near, kirkby, afterwards, we, cancelled, hockey, training, on, wednesday, as, it, seemed, too, soon, to, go, on, as, usual, but, decided, play, our, scheduled, match, on, saturday, both, our, team, and, the, opposition, had, two, minute, silence, before, the, match, we, ended, up, drawing, 0, 0, but, it, was, a, very, good, close, game, we, normally, lose, to, this, team, and, played, in, a, competitive, but, fair, spirit, just, what, was, needed, for, our, first, match, back, i'm, actually, on, duty, again, this, weekend, but, one, my, colleagues, covered, for, me, for, a, few, hours, so, i, could, go, to, play, the, cases, at, work, have, been, fairly, steady, this, week, i'm, going, to, enrol, for, a, further, qualification, in, equine, practice, in, the, next, week, or, two, i'm, doing, a, reasonable, amount, of, horse, work, at, the, moment, but, will, try, to, do, a, bit, more, over, the, next, few, months, years, it, should, motivate, me, to, read, up, on, cases, more, and, find, slightly, more, constructive, ways, to, spend, evenings, on, call, diary, 34, tb, testing, our, biggest, beef, herd, had, its, post, restocking, test, this, week, about, 600, cattle, were, to, be, done, there’s, no, way, it, could, be, done, in, one, go, so, we, did, it, over, 3, instead, originally, planned, for, two, but, ran, out, of, daylight, it, all, went, smoothly, on, the, whole, or, at, least, as, well, as, could, be, expected, and, everything, has, been, cleared, as, negative, i, found, out, from, defra, a, few, weeks, ago, that, there, have, actually, been, quite, a, few, tb, cases, in, the, county, since, restocking, as, we'd, been, clear, for, years, previously, to, fmd, this, is, obviously, a, bit, of, a, worry, we, haven't, had, any, cases, in, our, practice, but, if, we, can't, stamp, out, these, new, cases, as, they, are, found, it’s, only, a, matter, of, time, before, it, spreads, further, afield, the, more, we, get, in, the, county, also, means, there, will, have, to, be, more, testing, at, the, moment, it's, begrudgingly, accepted, by, the, farmers, but, if, we, have, to, do, more, i, can, see, them, having, a, sense, of, humour, failure, over, it, ultimately, it's, in, their, interest, for, us, to, check, that, their, herd, is, free, but, it, is, a, big, time, commitment, and, they, don't, get, paid, for, it, while, i, spent, two, days, testing, the, rest, of, the, week, had, a, bit, more, variety, i, saw, few, horses, mainly, lameness, but, also, one, or, two, with, other, ailments, i, have, to, write, a, casebook, for, the, equine, certificate, i'm, doing, i’m, on, the, lookout, for, suitable, cases, during, my, rounds, i, had, the, weekend, off, played, hockey, in, manchester, and, then, went, to, worcester, to, see, some, college, friends, i, had, to, drive, back, via, ely, as, the, trains, are, cancelled, due, to, the, winds, which, meant, a, friend, was, stranded, not, a, very, direct, route, to, cumbria, diary, 35, the, week, started, on, monday, morning, with, another, tb, test, on, a, restocking, farm, it's, not, a, big, farm, and, was, one, of, the, late, ones, to, get, fmd, it's, run, by, a, very, nice, but, quite, intense, family, the, son, has, taken, re, stocking, very, seriously, and, has, obviously, thought, of, it, very, much, as, an, opportunity, to, start, from, scratch, and, try, to, eliminate, some, of, their, previous, herd, problems, i, have, consequently, spent, quite, a, bit, of, time, advising, him, over, the, various, vaccines, available, and, their, relative, pros, and, cons, thankfully, things, seem, to, be, paying, off, so, far, with, few, problems, in, herd, one, of, the, things, that, i, noticed, during, the, test, was, that, they, made, one, or, two, jokes, about, last, year, sorry, forgotten, exactly, what, they, said, i, thought, the, fact, that, they, were, able, to, now, talk, about, fmd, like, that, had, to, be, a, good, sign, as, i, think, it, would, have, been, highly, unlikely, a, year, ago, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, went, up, to, wigton, to, vet, a, horse, for, a, potential, buyer, there, were, several, minor, things, wrong, with, it, but, overall, it, seemed, ok, it's, always, a, responsibility, vetting, horses, as, someone, is, either, trying, to, buy, it, or, not, on, the, basis, of, what, i, find, in, this, case, it, took, quite, a, lot, of, convincing, the, buyer, that, the, imperfections, were, not, that, serious, hopefully, they, won’t, subsequently, turn, out, to, be, a, problem, i've, started, doing, more, horse, cases, recently, and, on, tuesday, sent, off, my, application, form, to, be, accepted, to, do, further, exams, in, horse, practice, i, have, to, wait, until, next, year, to, find, out, whether, i've, been, accepted, and, won't, sit, them, until, 2005, i, was, off, this, weekend, and, played, hockey, in, manchester, unfortunately, we, didn't, win, maybe, next, week, saturday, evening, i, went, down, to, kendal, to, see, an, old, flatmate, who, lives, there, diary, 36, on, tuesday, i, went, to, see, a, horse, near, carlisle, it, had, developed, a, swelling, on, its, lower, jaw, that, was, fairly, painful, to, touch, they, were, a, few, possibilities, but, the, most, likely, was, that, it, had, at, tooth, root, abscess, i, put, it, on, to, antibiotics, but, seeing, as, it, had, obviously, been, going, on, for, a, while, thought, it, was, worth, taking, some, x, rays, there, was, obvious, destruction, of, the, tooth, visible, on, the, x, ray, which, probably, means, it, needs, removing, this, is, a, fairly, major, undertaking, on, a, horse, and, as, it, was, a, valuable, creature, still, in, training, i, thought, it, best, to, send, to, edinburgh, vet, school, to, have, it, done, hopefully, i'll, be, able, to, go, and, see, it, done, in, a, day, or, two's, time, one, of, the, aspects, drawbacks, not, really, of, being, a, vet, his, that, one, is, often, asked, about, animal, ailments, out, of, work, i’m, sure, it, happens, a, lot, in, other, jobs, too, my, mother, is, very, adept, at, this, not, that, i, really, mind, her, elderly, terrier, that, we, grew, up, with, has, started, having, one, or, two, problems, recently, i, suggested, a, few, possibilities, but, thought, it, best, if, she, went, to, the, local, vets, to, have, her, looked, at, the, problem, was, she, was, so, bad, tempered, the, terrier, that, they, couldn’t, safely, blood, sample, her, so, she, had, a, day, out, to, penrith, so, that, i, could, try, to, take, blood, from, her, i, managed, to, more, or, less, intact, and, fortunately, her, results, seemed, more, or, less, in, order, or, at, least, better, than, her, temper, the, general, work, in, the, practice, has, been, fairly, steady, this, week, a, few, farmers, seem, to, be, having, quite, a, few, cows, calving, at, the, moment, which, is, a, bit, unseasonal, but, i, suppose, a, reasonable, number, tend, to, calve, all, year, round, we, haven't, really, got, into, calf, pneumonia, season, yet, but, it, can't, be, long, before, they, start, to, keep, us, busy, it, will, soon, take, over, from, lungworm, as, the, main, bovine, respiratory, problem, the, weekend, was, off, again, brought, a, victory, in, a, hockey, match, the, start, of, a, winning, streak, perhaps, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, after, the, match, to, see, a, few, friends, and, for, the, start, of, a, week, off, wahey, diary, 37, it's, a, week, off, can't, be, bad, i, didn't, do, what, i, had, planned, due, to, an, unforeseen, change, in, circumstances, but, still, good, as, i, was, in, edinburgh, last, weekend, i, decided, to, stay, up, for, few, days, this, was, partly, to, see, friends, and, also, because, i, had, referred, the, horse, with, a, bad, tooth, that, i, mentioned, last, week, voluntary, work, experience, during, time, off, dedication, or, very, rash, i, spent, tuesday, at, the, vet, school, in, edinburgh, with, one, of, my, old, tutors, the, case, i, had, sent, up, was, successfully, treated, so, far, by, removing, the, offending, tooth, it, was, very, interesting, to, see, how, he, did, it, as, he, used, a, different, technique, to, the, one, we’ve, used, in, the, practice, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, there, with, him, seeing, other, cases, it, felt, a, bit, odd, being, there, not, as, a, student, i, came, home, on, tuesday, evening, and, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, my, folks, on, wednesday, morning, i, spent, most, of, the, rest, of, the, week, either, at, their, house, or, mine, doing, things, like, stocking, up, on, firewood, for, the, winter, sorting, my, house, out, and, making, a, start, on, stripping, the, wallpaper, in, my, hallway, i, normally, go, away, when, i, take, time, off, but, it, was, actually, very, nice, to, do, things, at, home, for, change, it, made, for, quite, a, relaxing, week, on, the, whole, diary, 38, back, to, work, it, was, good, to, have, a, week, off, last, week, but, one, of, the, best, things, about, where, i, work, and, what, i, do, is, that, i, never, seem, to, feel, reluctant, to, go, back, to, work, i, think, that, must, mean, i, enjoy, it, on, the, whole, on, tuesday, i, went, back, to, see, the, horse, that, had, had, its, tooth, removed, last, week, it's, doing, very, well, and, is, back, in, training, it, was, eating, very, well, as, soon, as, the, tooth, came, out, it's, amazing, how, animals, often, seem, to, deal, with, pain, so, stoically, i'll, check, it, again, next, week, and, all, things, being, well, that, should, be, it, on, tuesday, afternoon, i, happened, to, see, another, slightly, unusual, case, in, a, horse, it, had, developed, a, lump, on, the, outside, of, its, cheek, which, on, closer, inspection, turned, out, to, be, a, large, mass, man, inside, its, mouth, it's, probably, going, to, have, to, be, removed, and, should, come, in, next, week, for, it, to, be, done, the, rest, of, the, week, was, the, usual, mix, of, more, routine, cases, have, been, on, to, more, farms, this, week, than, i, have, done, for, a, while, we, recently, took, on, a, new, dairy, farm, near, appleby, and, i, went, to, see, a, cow, there, for, the, first, time, on, a, first, visit, you, always, hope, for, something, straightforward, so, that, it's, easy, to, make, a, good, first, impression, on, this, occasion, the, cow, was, very, sick, and, wasn't, really, giving, me, many, clues, as, to, why, all, i, could, do, was, treat, it, for, the, symptoms, it, was, showing, i, saw, it, twice, on, friday, and, again, on, saturday, and, by, evening, it, was, on, the, mend, i, never, did, reach, a, conclusive, diagnosis, but, i, think, the, farmer, was, satisfied, by, the, fact, that, it, had, got, better, in, spite, of, not, knowing, quite, what, was, wrong, i, was, on, duty, friday, night, very, quiet, and, on, saturday, apart, from, the, cow, i, mentioned, it, was, fairly, easy, going, today, i, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, some, old, friends, staying, with, my, parents, two, weeks, with, no, tb, testing, it'll, change, next, week, diary, 39, it's, been, a, fairly, uneventful, week, at, work, there, don't, seem, to, have, been, any, particularly, on, going, or, notable, cases, in, some, ways, it's, not, a, bad, thing, as, it, makes, for, a, fairly, stress, free, time, it's, not, that, you, can, really, switch, off, but, it, does, mean, that, when, there, are, a, few, fairly, straightforward, cases, to, see, it's, possible, to, spend, more, time, chatting, to, the, farmer, owner, without, having, to, work, too, hard, finding, what's, wrong, with, the, patient, this, week's, most, interesting, case, was, a, horse, with, amazingly, extensive, arthritis, in, its, hind, legs, considering, its, age, it's, not, a, terminal, condition, but, it, does, have, implications, as, to, what, it, will, be, possible, to, use, it, for, in, future, in, situations, like, that, it, can, be, quite, difficult, to, give, the, client, the, right, outlook, they, often, expect, a, quick, cure, especially, in, a, young, horse, and, to, tell, them, that, a, problem, has, been, present, for, months, if, not, years, and, will, never, completely, go, away, can, come, as, a, bit, of, shock, the, owner, in, this, case, was, very, sensible, and, seemed, to, taking, what, was, said, very, well, the, other, good, thing, about, this, week, is, that, i'm, having, a, very, good, run, with, my, duties, i've, been, on, for, two, nights, on, first, call, and, the, phone, hasn't, gone, once, very, unusual, and, very, welcome, this, must, be, tempting, fate, i've, had, the, weekend, off, there, was, a, hockey, match, on, saturday, when, we, lost, to, the, league, leaders, but, avoided, humiliation, the, rest, of, the, two, days, was, spent, trying, to, progress, with, decorating, the, hallway, before, friends, come, to, stay, over, christmas, and, new, year, am, i, not, too, young, to, be, spending, weekends, off, decorating, diary, 40, i, had, a, good, test, of, my, diplomacy, skills, this, week, with, an, irate, farmer, i, had, spent, four, hours, doing, a, tb, test, on, a, very, cold, day, when, it, should, have, taken, about, one, and, a, half, hours, in, my, rush, to, get, defrosted, in, my, car, afterwards, i, forgot, to, shut, the, gate, in, the, field, where, i, had, parked, on, my, return, to, the, surgery, i, was, greeted, by, the, news, that, he, had, rung, wanting, my, head, on, a, stick, and, forbidding, me, from, ever, setting, foot, on, his, farm, again, as, all, his, tups, had, gone, walkabout, through, the, gate, i'd, left, open, on, advice, from, the, partners, at, the, practice, who, knew, him, better, i, gave, him, a, day, to, calm, down, and, then, wrote, a, very, grovelling, letter, i, was, allowed, to, go, back, at, the, end, of, the, week, to, read, the, test, results, which, fortunately, was, all, clear, i, think, he's, forgiven, me, one, of, the, more, common, cow, operations, we, do, is, to, correct, a, displaced, stomach, in, the, two, and, a, half, years, i've, been, at, the, practice, we’ve, always, done, it, using, one, particular, technique, there, are, circumstances, where, another, method, is, indicated, and, having, not, seen, them, for, 2, years, there, were, 2, this, week, they, both, went, well, so, far, another, two, years, before, the, next, i, took, my, last, day, off, for, 2002, on, thursday, and, again, spent, it, decorating, on, thursday, night, we, had, our, practice, christmas, meal, the, two, vets, on, duty, managed, not, to, get, called, out, and, on, the, whole, i, think, people, weren't, too, hung, over, on, friday, last, year, there, was, a, bit, of, a, debate, as, to, whether, we, should, have, a, christmas, night, out, as, most, farmers, were, either, just, starting, to, restock, or, still, cleaning, out, this, year, it, was, much, more, straightforward, on, friday, night, it, was, the, annual, night, at, hesket, newmarket, organised, by, the, local, defra, lab, for, any, local, vets, that, want, a, meal, and, beers, it's, a, good, chance, to, catch, up, with, other, vets, from, neighbouring, practices, in, very, informal, atmosphere, diary, 41, i've, had, a, couple, of, vet, students, staying, with, me, this, week, who, i, knew, when, i, was, in, my, final, year, at, edinburgh, they're, doing, work, experience, with, us, for, a, week, or, so, it's, made, a, pleasant, change, to, have, some, company, for, a, while, i, have, also, acquired, two, stray, kittens, in, the, last, week, the, usual, vet, procedure, of, eventually, finding, an, unwanted, patient, that, you, can't, resist, taking, yourself, they, are, settling, in, ok, and, we’ve, only, had, to, have, one, or, two, little, discussions, about, the, benefits, of, using, a, litter, tray, rather, than, the, carpet, the, week, at, work, has, been, reasonably, busy, a, good, thing, this, week, as, there, have, been, three, students, and, it's, a, bit, dull, for, them, if, there, is, nothing, going, on, we, had, a, horse, in, for, most, of, the, week, with, a, severe, respiratory, infection, it’s, needed, fairly, intensive, care, but, seems, to, be, on, the, mend, now, i, may, use, it, as, a, case, to, write, up, as, part, of, the, exam, i'm, hoping, to, do, in, a, few, years, it'll, have, to, be, a, new, year's, resolution, to, get, on, with, the, writing, up, part, of, it, apart, from, a, horse, it's, been, the, usual, sort, of, mix, a, few, routine, fertility, visits, to, dairy, farms, a, few, sick, cows, and, horses, etc, there, been, some, tb, tests, this, week, but, i've, managed, to, miss, them, all, must, be, saving, some, for, me, next, year, i, had, a, lot, of, people, from, work, here, on, friday, night, for, pre, christmas, mulled, wine, and, mince, pies, i'm, not, quite, sure, the, kittens, knew, what, was, happening, but, i, think, the, rest, of, us, enjoyed, it, i've, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, down, to, see, a, friend, in, birmingham, who, qualified, last, summer, this, was, her, second, weekend, on, call, so, i, went, to, give, moral, support, being, on, call, isn't, stressful, anymore, but, i, remember, for, the, first, few, times, it's, difficult, not, to, be, aware, of, the, phone, all, the, time, and, hoping, it, doesn't, ring, there, weren't, many, calls, and, those, that, did, come, in, she, didn't, need, me, for, suited, me, well, diary, 42, the, week, of, christmas, and, my, first, job, of, the, week, was, to, replace, a, particularly, contaminated, uterine, prolapse, in, a, cow, it, finally, went, back, in, after, an, hour, or, so, of, fairly, fruitless, efforts, very, festive, this, week, and, next, we, had, fewer, vets, than, usual, working, each, day, as, we, all, have, a, few, days, off, for, christmas, new, year, so, it‘s, sometimes, a, bit, busy, during, the, day, it's, generally, worth, it, for, the, extra, time, off, i, was, off, on, monday, night, and, went, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, school, friends, back, for, the, holiday, although, we, don't, see, each, other, very, often, any, more, people, don't, really, seem, to, change, very, much, a, good, friend, whose, parents, farm, had, f, and, m, have, sold, up, and, are, going, into, b, b, instead, i, think, it, was, a, hard, decision, but, now, they, seen, to, be, quite, relieved, to, be, out, of, it, i, was, on, duty, on, christmas, eve, and, fortunately, didn't, have, to, go, out, i, just, had, three, phone, calls, between, 7, and, 9, p, m, from, people, saying, their, dog, or, cat, had, been, off, food, for, periods, varying, from, three, weeks, to, 10, days, christmas, eve, seemed, an, odd, time, to, notice, this, i, went, home, to, kirkby, stephen, for, christmas, and, boxing, day, and, didn't, really, do, very, much, i, had, a, look, at, a, couple, of, mum’s, sheep, but, other, than, that, it, was, just, a, case, of, being, lazy, and, enjoying, seasonal, food, and, drink, i, was, on, duty, this, weekend, which, turned, out, be, fairly, busy, one, of, the, students, who, came, to, stay, last, week, came, back, to, do, some, on, call, work, which, turned, out, to, be, very, useful, a, couple, of, cows, to, operate, on, as, caesar, and, a, displaced, stomach, where, two, pairs, of, hands, are, better, than, one, and, quite, a, few, small, animals, to, see, to, diary, 43, i've, had, most, of, this, week, off, for, new, year, tuesday, to, friday, which, is, pretty, good, going, seen, as, i, was, off, for, christmas, as, well, monday, was, fairly, quiet, with, just, a, few, farm, calls, to, do, and, some, small, animals, rather, worryingly, we've, heard, that, a, local, deer, farm, not, one, of, our, customers, has, gone, down, with, tb, apparently, with, quite, a, few, deer, in, the, herd, having, it, this, means, that, we'll, have, to, do, tb, check, tests, on, any, of, our, farms, that, neighbour, the, affected, premises, over, new, year, my, cousin, her, husband, and, their, five, children, young, came, to, stay, it, wasn't, too, hectic, on, the, whole, with, just, the, occasional, loss, of, humour, a, couple, of, friends, from, work, came, round, to, join, us, for, new, year, itself, i've, had, to, work, this, weekend, part, of, the, deal, for, getting, four, days, off, midweek, but, it's, not, really, been, that, busy, i've, only, been, on, second, call, and, have, only, had, to, do, 2, calls, so, far, an, easy, return, to, work, after, new, year, excesses, diary, 44, back, to, normal, quota, of, vets, at, work, again, this, week, which, is, good, as, it, seems, to, have, been, very, busy, most, of, it, has, been, the, usual, sort, of, things, for, the, time, of, year, cows, starting, to, get, lame, after, having, been, inside, for, a, few, months, and, metabolic, problems, probably, related, to, the, poor, silage, last, year's, summer, rain, created, quite, a, few, farmers, have, a, large, amount, of, 2001, silage, left, as, it, wasn't, used, over, winter, 2001, 2002, as, they, hadn't, restocked, on, the, whole, it's, kept, very, well, and, in, many, cases, is, better, than, the, crop, they, made, last, summer, the, fall, out, from, the, deer, herd, tb, has, arrived, two, neighbouring, farms, to, test, this, week, the, first, one, has, come, back, negative, to, the, relief, of, all, concerned, i, did, the, second, one, on, friday, and, will, read, it, tomorrow, monday, the, farmers, there, are, all, very, concerned, about, it, which, is, understandable, but, hopefully, groundless, there, are, lots, of, questions, being, asked, along, the, lines, of, what, if, some, of, which, i, can, answer, and, some, not, it, does, remind, me, a, bit, of, february, 2001, when, fmd, broke, out, and, there, were, all, sorts, of, queries, about, the, disease, its, progression, etc, that, none, of, us, really, knew, about, it, didn't, take, long, for, us, to, know, the, answers, to, most, of, them, i've, had, this, weekend, off, a, hockey, fixture, list, has, started, again, after, the, christmas, break, a, return, to, winning, ways, hopefully, to, continue, diary, 45, the, week, had, a, bad, start, the, tb, test, i, did, last, friday, produced, two, reactors, and, two, inconclusive, borderline, reactors, this, means, that, the, farm, isn't, allowed, to, move, at, any, bovines, on, or, off, the, farm, except, directly, to, slaughter, under, licence, the, reactors, are, taken, away, for, post, mortem, examination, and, the, inconclusive, reactors, are, isolated, for, 60, days, until, the, rest, of, the, herd, is, re, tested, the, farmer, was, very, keen, to, get, the, inconclusive, animals, removed, as, well, quite, understandably, in, my, opinion, so, that, they, couldn't, pose, a, threat, to, the, rest, of, his, herd, apparently, defra, aren't, allowed, to, do, this, i, think, largely, due, to, financial, reasons, while, fully, appreciating, the, need, to, protect, taxpayers, money, considering, how, much, was, spent, in, 2001, i, think, this, a, potentially, flawed, argument, perhaps, the, rules, need, to, be, changed, but, then, again, i'm, not, an, epidemiologist, and, perhaps, they, don't, actually, pose, a, threat, the, farmer, seemed, very, depressed, by, it, all, i, think, a, lot, of, it, is, the, feeling, of, having, the, stigma, of, being, a, farm, under, defra, restrictions, again, he, was, also, very, aware, of, the, threat, he, was, to, his, neighbours, and, was, desperately, keen, to, minimise, it, it's, actually, quite, small, while, the, cows, are, still, indoors, but, i, think, people, are, still, very, much, thinking, of, how, serious, it, was, for, neighbours, if, someone, got, fmd, tb, is, a, very, different, type, of, organism, and, it’s, a, question, of, getting, people, to, understand, this, which, isn't, to, say, it's, not, a, very, serious, problem, on, the, same, day, another, farm, in, the, area, not, ours, was, confirmed, with, tb, so, it's, definitely, progressing, in, cumbria, depressing, all, we, can, do, is, follow, defra, instructions, on, testing, and, try, to, keep, on, top, of, it, one, of, my, colleagues, tore, a, knee, ligament, last, week, while, skiing, he, normally, does, mostly, large, animal, calls, seeing, as, he's, now, confined, to, the, practice, doing, small, animals, i've, taken, over, couple, of, the, farms, he, does, routine, fertility, visits, for, it, makes, a, change, to, spend, time, on, farms, i, don't, visit, often, although, i, hear, the, small, animal, nurses, are, quite, keen, for, matt, to, get, back, to, doing, them, diary, 46, one, of, our, dairy, farmers, has, had, a, big, outbreak, of, pneumonia, in, his, calves, this, week, i've, been, to, the, farm, at, least, once, every, day, this, week, the, tests, we've, done, are, usually, pretty, sensitive, but, have, failed, to, reveal, any, of, the, usual, causes, treatment, seems, to, have, been, working, in, some, cases, but, not, in, others, he, hasn't, lost, any, i, e, none, dead, but, the, loss, in, body, weight, is, very, obvious, it's, all, been, a, bit, frustrating, really, he's, a, very, pleasant, guy, and, hasn't, said, anything, but, when, treatments, repeatedly, fail, to, get, expected, and, predicted, results, i, can't, help, feeling, that, he, must, be, getting, a, bit, sceptical, about, it, or, perhaps, i'm, just, being, paranoid, by, the, end, of, the, week, the, majority, seem, to, be, on, the, mend, but, seeing, as, we, haven't, tracked, down, the, causative, agent, it's, hard, to, know, what, vaccination, to, recommend, next, year, there, are, some, more, tests, that, will, come, back, in, two, weeks, which, may, be, more, revealing, in, midweek, i, did, one, of, the, fairly, common, operations, to, correct, a, twisted, stomach, in, a, cow, surprisingly, it, was, the, first, time, this, dairy, farmer, had, had, one, done, and, he, took, some, convincing, that, it, was, a, good, idea, having, persuaded, someone, to, pay, for, a, procedure, i, always, feel, under, a, bit, more, pressure, than, usual, fortunately, it, went, pretty, well, and, the, cow, is, so, far, doing, well, i, was, on, second, call, this, weekend, which, turned, out, to, be, pretty, quiet, i, think, we, must, be, in, a, lull, before, lambing, really, kicks, in, let's, enjoy, it, while, it, lasts, diary, 47, after, not, doing, any, testing, last, week, it, was, my, turn, again, this, week, it, wasn't, a, big, one, only, about, 30, cows, but, it, was, a, bit, more, risky, than, usual, as, it, was, a, herd, of, beef, longhorns, and, they, do, have, long, horns, whilst, trying, to, manoeuvre, them, into, a, crush, to, inject, their, necks, with, tuberculin, we, always, had, to, be, ready, to, take, evasive, action, if, they, made, a, sudden, turn, i, don't, think, they, ever, tried, to, use, their, horns, aggressively, but, they, were, so, big, that, they, become, dangerous, weapons, when, they, were, just, moving, normally, as, it, turned, out, no, one, received, any, injuries, and, very, importantly, the, test, was, negative, this, week, also, brought, my, first, lambing, of, the, year, other, people, have, done, a, few, but, this, was, my, first, we, have, a, couple, of, farms, who, lamb, early, for, the, early, lamb, sales, it, seems, very, hard, work, at, this, time, of, year, but, the, early, prices, do, seem, to, make, it, worthwhile, give, it, another, week, or, two, and, a, sure, they’ll, start, to, become, more, frequent, i, took, friday, off, as, i, had, to, get, to, london, for, 4, pm, to, get, on, the, eurostar, to, go, skiing, typically, the, one, day, of, the, year, that, the, country, ground, to, halt, was, thursday, night, friday, we, managed, to, make, it, to, waterloo, station, only, to, find, the, station, in, chaos, as, all, eurostars, had, been, cancelled, due, to, snow, in, france, at, least, it's, not, just, britain, that, can’t, cope, with, it, after, being, assured, that, none, would, run, for, 24, hours, they, suddenly, told, us, to, board, only, 1, hours, late, very, pleasant, surprise, we, ended, up, arriving, in, val, d'isere, on, time, with, loads, of, snow, and, blue, skies, i, tried, to, spare, a, thought, for, whoever, was, on, call, at, weekend, i, managed, it, just, diary, 48, after, the, weather, almost, prevented, us, from, reaching, val, d’isere, it, was, very, clear, for, the, first, few, days, but, then, the, snow, returned, for, three, days, we, couldn't, do, much, during, that, time, but, it, did, mean, that, there, were, fantastic, conditions, for, the, last, few, days, we, had, a, group, of, 29, and, completely, filled, one, large, chalet, there, were, for, once, no, major, skiing, injuries, within, the, group, and, i, think, a, good, time, was, had, by, all, diary, 49, back, to, work, this, week, i’m, never, reluctant, to, go, back, after, a, week, off, and, sometimes, dare, i, say, it, even, look, forward, to, it, must, be, a, good, sign, apparently, last, week, was, ok, at, work, with, no, major, dramas, we, still, haven't, found, any, more, tb, cases, but, the, screening, continues, all, the, time, one, of, the, rules, for, re, stocking, herds, compared, to, herds, that, missed, fmd, is, that, all, bovines, over, 42, days, old, have, to, be, tested, rather, than, just, the, adults, last, year, when, there, weren't, many, calves, around, this, didn't, make, much, difference, but, now, most, farms, have, at, least, a, year's, worth, of, calves, in, place, it, doubles, the, size, of, most, tests, often, calves, won't, fit, in, crushes, and, are, very, wild, so, it, can, get, quite, exciting, it, seems, a, necessary, policy, though, one, of, the, reactors, i, found, a, few, weeks, ago, was, a, six, month, old, stirk, i've, had, a, fairly, quiet, week, i've, had, a, couple, of, nights, on, duty, which, were, both, quiet, there's, a, horse, near, carlisle, that, i, think, i've, mentioned, before, with, a, recurrent, tooth, problem, we, thought, we'd, finally, sorted, that, but, this, week, she, developed, a, problem, with, one, of, the, tendons, on, her, foreleg, it's, a, bit, disappointing, for, her, owner, as, she, only, bought, the, horse, recently, in, order, to, compete, to, a, very, high, standard, and, she, seems, to, permanently, off, training, with, one, ailment, or, another, i, don't, think, it's, too, serious, so, hopefully, in, another, week, or, two, she'll, be, back, to, work, i've, been, off, this, weekend, came, second, in, the, weekend’s, hockey, match, a, real, case, of, defeat, been, snatched, from, the, jaws, of, victory, i, went, for, a, walk, around, the, great, gable, scafell, area, on, sunday, afternoon, it, was, amazing, how, much, snow, and, ice, was, still, left, over, from, winter, weather, a, week, or, so, ago, maybe, i, needn't, have, bothered, going, abroad, diary, 50, i, found, another, positive, tb, case, on, friday, i, did, the, test, on, tuesday, on, a, very, large, beef, herd, on, a, restocking, farm, including, calves, they, must, have, been, just, over, 400, cattle, to, do, there, was, one, reactor, on, friday, and, two, inconclusives, there, is, a, possibility, that, it, is, a, false, positive, the, farm, has, been, having, big, problems, with, something, called, at, johne’s, disease, which, is, caused, by, a, similar, type, of, bacterium, to, the, one, that, causes, tb, there, is, a, small, possibility, of, a, cow, carrying, johne’s, disease, cross, reacting, with, the, tb, test, injection, i, actually, blood, sampled, all, the, adult, cows, on, tuesday, to, screen, the, herd, for, johne’s, in, order, to, try, to, start, eradicating, it, from, herd, it'll, be, interesting, to, see, whether, the, positive, test, cow, will, be, positive, for, johne’s, ultimately, it, doesn't, really, make, much, difference, in, the, short, term, the, farm’s, been, placed, under, restrictions, and, the, affected, cow, has, been, taken, off, for, post, mortem, one, of, my, colleagues, found, another, positive, reactor, on, a, different, farm, on, friday, as, well, that's, three, farms, in, the, practice, now, and, around, 50, 60, within, cumbria, the, big, worry, now, this, is, that, the, longer, it, stays, around, the, more, likely, inevitable, it, is, disease, will, get, into, wildlife, reservoirs, deer, and, perhaps, badgers, depending, on, whether, you, believe, that, badgers, are, an, influence, or, not, time, will, tell, but, i'm, sure, it's, going, to, keep, us, busy, for, several, years, if, not, a, lot, more, i, did, a, test, on, monday, as, well, on, a, small, farm, that, i've, never, been, to, before, at, least, testing, is, one, way, of, getting, on, to, small, farms, who, don't, often, need, us, this, one, was, all, clear, the, remainder, of, the, week, was, spent, doing, more, usual, work, lambing’s, still, not, quite, got, into, full, swing, although, we, are, seeing, a, slow, increase, in, the, number, of, sheep, been, brought, to, the, surgery, diary, 51, no, tb, testing, for, me, this, week, and, no, more, positive, cases, in, the, practice, the, first, case, that, i, found, back, in, january, was, confirmed, as, carrying, tb, this, week, though, although, it's, bad, news, for, the, farmer, it, is, quite, reassuring, to, know, that, the, tests, and, methods, we, use, do, detect, carrier, animals, reasonably, accurately, this, week, has, been, fairly, busy, without, ever, getting, too, hectic, i, operated, on, a, cow, on, tuesday, which, for, a, number, of, reasons, didn't, go, quite, as, smoothly, as, it, might, have, done, it, subsequently, didn't, do, as, well, post, operatively, as, we, would, normally, expect, the, coming, week, should, see, an, improvement, i, hope, we, can, never, give, cast, iron, guarantees, about, the, outcome, of, surgery, but, it, is, quite, rare, for, this, op, to, fail, so, fingers, crossed, for, monday, i, had, to, see, a, horse, with, colic, earlier, in, the, week, which, on, my, first, visit, to, i, was, very, suspicious, that, it, was, going, to, require, surgery, to, correct, the, owner, wasn't, prepared, for, that, happen, though, so, it, was, a, question, of, trying, to, manage, it, medically, or, euthanizing, it, it, wasn't, in, undue, pain, so, we, gave, it, a, go, medically, and, much, to, my, pleasant, surprise, over, the, next, few, hours, and, visits, he, did, very, well, just, goes, to, show, we, are, not, all, knowing, it, would, have, been, interesting, to, know, whether, it, was, a, surgical, condition, which, somehow, righted, itself, or, whether, it, was, a, medical, case, all, along, which, simply, appeared, as, something, more, serious, i, had, to, work, for, an, hour, or, so, on, saturday, morning, doing, small, animal, consultations, and, then, had, the, rest, of, the, weekend, off, we, came, second, in, a, hockey, match, again, and, then, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, to, catch, up, with, some, college, friends, who, haven't, seen, for, a, while, diary, 52, this, week, has, really, seen, the, start, of, the, lambing, season, the, sheep, every, day, or, every, other, day, that, we've, been, seeing, for, the, last, month, or, so, has, turned, into, one, every, few, hours, during, the, day, and, during, the, night, in, some, cases, it’s, encouraging, that, farmers, are, still, bringing, them, in, calling, us, out, as, many, feel, that, sheep, aren't, worth, paying, vet, fees, for, this, obviously, creates, a, welfare, problem, in, many, situations, as, inappropriate, and, inadequate, treatment, is, sometimes, provided, by, the, farmer, having, said, that, i, can, see, why, some, take, the, attitude, of, not, spending, money, on, them, as, prices, are, often, so, low, the, other, aspect, of, lambing, time, is, that, nights, get, very, busy, on, monday, i, had, a, ewe, caesarean, at, 2am, then, a, horse, that, had, just, foaled, at, 3.15, i, had, an, hour, or, so, in, bed, and, then, a, sick, cow, at, 6.20, although, it, can, be, a, bit, tiring, on, the, whole, cases, we, see, out, of, hours, are, not, the, run, of, the, mill, routine, things, so, it, does, at, least, make, it, interesting, which, isn't, always, the, first, thing, on, my, mind, when, the, phone, rings, at, 3am, unfortunately, the, cow, i, operated, on, last, week, failed, to, improve, and, i, had, to, re, operate, on, monday, this, is, far, from, ideal, as, it, carries, a, much, higher, risk, of, infection, than, first, time, operation, somewhat, to, my, surprise, it, seems, to, be, doing, very, well, now, cows, seem, to, be, amazingly, resilient, if, i'd, had, abdominal, surgery, twice, in, a, mucky, cow, byre, i'm, sure, i, wouldn't, cope, as, well, i, did, the, same, op, on, a, different, farm, later, in, the, week, which, went, much, better, i’d, be, getting, worried, about, my, technique, if, two, in, a, row, went, wrong, i've, worked, saturday, morning, again, supposedly, just, for, an, hour, but, it, turned, into, about, two, and, a, half, as, things, kept, coming, in, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, again, after, hockey, came, second, again, to, see, someone, who's, left, his, job, to, go, around, the, world, for, six, months, diary, 54, the, beginning, of, the, week, saw, a, visit, to, a, horse, which, had, a, chronic, episode, of, laminitis, a, hoof, condition, in, this, horse's, case, it, had, become, very, severe, and, really, beyond, the, point, where, treatment, is, feasible, euthanasia, was, the, best, option, for, the, horse, as, it, was, in, a, lot, of, pain, unfortunately, the, owner, was, very, reluctant, for, this, and, wanted, to, carry, on, with, treatment, this, sort, of, situation, does, crop, up, from, time, to, time, and, is, difficult, for, all, concerned, in, the, end, i, told, the, owners, what, i, thought, the, chances, of, recovery, were, and, let, them, make, their, decision, which, was, to, continue, treatment, hopefully, i'll, be, proved, wrong, and, the, horse, will, recover, but, i, can't, really, see, it, happening, i, saw, another, case, later, in, the, week, which, ended, up, going, to, liverpool, university, for, surgery, it, was, a, small, pony, that, had, managed, to, cut, itself, very, severely, on, barbed, wire, horses, always, find, something, to, injure, themselves, on, there, was, a, risk, that, it, had, penetrated, a, joint, so, i, sent, it, to, liverpool, to, be, flushed, as, far, as, i, know, it's, doing, very, well, so, far, the, rest, of, the, workload, this, week, has, been, the, usual, stuff, for, the, time, of, year, loads, of, lambing, a, few, tb, tests, negative, generally, kept, busy, on, friday, i, went, to, edinburgh, for, a, few, days, course, on, equine, neurology, i, knew, most, of, the, speakers, and, some, delegates, from, when, i, was, a, student, there, it, was, good, to, see, people, again, and, i, learnt, a, few, things, about, horses, brains, and, nerves, saturday, was, our, last, hockey, match, of, the, season, a, draw, we, didn't, win, the, league, by, any, stretch, of, the, imagination, but, we, weren't, last, either, diary, 55, another, manic, spring, week, goes, by, i've, been, on, duty, this, weekend, and, the, two, of, us, on, call, have, done, as, many, calls, in, the, last, two, days, has, eight, vets, would, expect, to, do, in, two, week, days, in, the, summer, we, haven't, been, bored, i, didn't, leave, the, practice, building, until, lunchtime, on, saturday, as, there, was, a, constant, flow, of, small, animals, to, see, to, and, a, few, sheep, brought, in, with, lambing, problems, i, eventually, left, at, 1.30, p, m, to, go, to, operate, on, a, cow, with, a, twisted, stomach, that, was, meant, to, be, done, at, 11, am, the, op, went, a, ok, but, it, was, then, straight, back, to, the, surgery, to, do, a, caesarean, on, a, whelping, bitch, with, the, help, of, a, student, who, is, seeing, practice, with, us, between, then, and, 9, pm, it, was, a, variety, of, sick, cows, sheep, to, lamb, and, a, calf, with, lead, poisoning, at, the, far, end, of, ullswater, would, have, been, a, very, nice, drive, out, if, it, hadn't, been, for, the, rush, to, top, things, off, i, had, a, cow, caesarean, at, 9, pm, it, was, very, useful, having, a, student, to, help, all, day, i, think, it, was, a, bit, of, an, eye, opener, for, her, sunday, morning, gave, me, to, more, caesareans, sheep, this, time, variety, is, the, spice, of, life, a, cat, who, had, very, mysteriously, lost, a, leg, overnight, perhaps, caught, in, a, trap, but, was, in, incredibly, good, health, otherwise, it's, amazing, what, animals, can, withstand, and, a, good, supply, of, other, calls, to, keep, me, out, of, mischief, it, has, actually, been, quite, enjoyable, despite, being, so, hectic, and, i, think, most, of, the, cases, have, been, quite, successful, which, always, helps, the, rest, of, the, week, seems, a, distant, memory, but, on, the, whole, it, was, more, of, the, same, but, at, a, slower, pace, i, did, another, small, tb, test, which, was, negative, anyway, a, night, off, tonight, i, need, a, pint, diary, 56, monday, morning, was, the, 60, day, re, test, for, the, first, herd, that, i, found, tb, in, it, was, a, sunny, day, and, on, the, whole, the, test, went, very, smoothly, the, farmer's, buildings, are, getting, very, overcrowded, though, as, he, is, under, a, movement, restriction, due, to, the, tb, first, day, started, well, as, all, the, animals, were, giving, negative, readings, but, then, came, the, dreaded, reaction, to, the, injections, we, gave, on, the, first, day, there, were, four, reactors, in, total, three, of, which, were, borderline, and, the, other, was, very, very, obvious, the, frustrating, thing, is, that, the, obvious, one, was, a, borderline, reactor, last, time, but, defra, refused, to, take, it, as, it, isn't, in, their, policy, to, take, inconclusive, reactors, found, on, a, routine, test, this, means, that, an, animal, that, is, actually, infected, his, left, on, premises, to, potentially, infect, other, animals, the, farmer, had, tried, to, point, this, out, two, months, ago, to, no, avail, he, is, now, vindicated, in, his, view, not, that, that, is, much, consolation, for, the, fact, that, his, restrictions, are, to, be, continued, and, he, may, well, probably, will, in, fact, now, have, more, carriers, which, won't, be, found, until, the, next, test, in, 60, days, time, the, reason, for, not, initially, taking, inconclusive, reactors, is, to, save, money, by, not, paying, for, the, animals, to, be, slaughtered, that, aren't, actually, infected, in, cases, like, this, it, seems, to, be, a, real, false, economy, and, doesn't, win, defra, friends, in, the, farming, community, tuesday, and, wednesday, this, week, were, mainly, horse, jobs, a, horse, with, a, recurrent, tooth, problem, that, i've, mentioned, before, came, in, for, more, x, rays, and, finally, seems, to, be, doing, ok, its, competing, in, germany, in, a, week, or, two, so, i, do, hope, it, stays, ok, this, weekend, i, went, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, with, one, of, my, old, flatmates, from, edinburgh, the, weather, held, and, was, amazingly, hot, for, the, time, of, year, almost, got, sunburnt, diary, 57, i've, had, a, final, year, student, from, edinburgh, staying, with, me, this, week, while, she's, seeing, practice, with, us, final, exams, are, looming, and, i, think, the, stress, levels, are, rising, it's, very, easy, to, think, of, all, the, things, you, don't, know, but, i, think, we've, more, or, less, managed, to, convince, her, that, she, does, know, enough, not, to, be, a, liability, when, she, qualifies, she, saw, an, interesting, incident, on, a, call, we, did, early, in, the, week, i'd, gone, to, replace, a, uterine, prolapse, in, a, cow, which, went, okay, but, the, farmer, then, asked, me, to, falsely, certify, a, cow, we, can, give, certificates, to, cows, over, 30, months, of, age, under, the, bse, scheme, for, which, farmers, are, compensated, this, cow, had, to, be, put, down, but, wasn't, 30, months, for, another, four, days, he, was, understandably, quite, upset, about, this, and, let, me, know, it’s, this, sort, of, thing, that, is, a, nightmare, for, anyone, but, especially, someone, just, starting, you, want, to, please, the, farmer, and, make, a, good, impression, but, you, also, have, responsibility, to, not, abuse, your, ability, to, use, your, signature, in, the, end, i, explained, why, he, couldn't, have, a, certificate, and, he, did, calm, down, i'm, sure, vicky, will, have, similar, situations, before, too, long, diplomatic, as, well, as, clinical, skills, develop, very, quickly, once, in, practice, another, interesting, case, came, in, on, thursday, a, year, old, foal, needed, emergency, surgery, on, a, hernia, as, luck, would, have, it, it, was, our, first, relatively, quiet, morning, for, a, few, weeks, so, we, had, enough, vets, on, hand, to, do, the, surgery, and, anaesthetic, the, op, went, well, and, the, horse, has, gone, home, this, weekend, i've, been, on, second, call, this, weekend, and, things, have, been, busy, but, not, unmanageable, i, did, 2, belgian, blue, caesareans, in, the, space, of, six, hours, on, one, farm, yesterday, but, since, then, it's, just, been, a, reasonable, stream, of, calls, rather, than, the, madness, of, two, weekends, ago, diary, 58, following, my, going, up, on, a, course, on, neurology, a, few, weeks, ago, a, case, came, up, this, week, it's, not, often, that, we, see, neurological, cases, so, it's, quite, a, coincidence, i, think, it, must, have, some, kind, of, tumour, in, its, brain, causing, it, to, show, the, various, signs, it, has, unfortunately, the, only, way, to, firmly, diagnose, this, is, by, post, mortem, which, is, how, most, neurological, cases, end, up, and, alas, i, fear, this, one, will, too, i, went, to, do, a, fertility, check, at, one, of, our, dairy, farms, on, tuesday, the, vet, he, normally, has, was, away, and, he, looked, a, bit, put, out, when, i, turned, up, i, think, hope, i, managed, not, to, abort, any, of, his, cows, and, he, seemed, very, cheery, by, the, time, i, left, i, suppose, it's, understandable, that, farmers, tend, to, want, continuity, with, which, vet, comes, work, continues, to, be, very, busy, an, indication, in, the, increase, in, daily, workload, is, that, we've, had, to, introduce, a, specific, messages, book, at, work, as, there's, no, longer, room, to, write, people, messages, in, the, day, book, as, it, so, full, with, appointments, they, used, to, be, a, few, days, in, the, year, when, both, pages, of, the, day, book, were, full, the, first, day, of, fmd, in, penrith, had, one, call, but, this, week, 4, days, have, been, full, it's, got, to, be, a, good, sign, really, and, as, i, think, i've, said, before, it, does, stop, us, all, from, getting, bored, i've, had, three, days, off, over, easter, friday, sunday, and, two, friends, and, their, two, mad, dogs, have, been, to, stay, my, cats, were, not, impressed, on, good, friday, we, went, up, plaice, fell, i, accidentally, brought, us, down, a, much, more, direct, route, than, i, intended, so, we, had, to, while, away, some, time, in, the, garden, of, the, patterdale, hotel, life's, hard, yesterday, we, left, the, bank, holiday, crowds, in, the, lakes, and, went, for, a, walk, in, the, eden, valley, didn't, see, a, soul, it's, amazing, the, difference, a, few, miles, can, make, i, suppose, it, hasn't, got, the, hills, and, isn't, as, famous, but, the, scenery, is, still, pretty, impressive, but, let's, not, tell, anyone, and, then, it, might, stay, quiet, on, bank, holidays, diary, 59, i, was, on, duty, on, easter, monday, but, it, wasn't, too, hectic, in, fact, it, was, almost, unbelievably, quiet, there, were, three, of, us, on, duty, bracing, ourselves, for, the, usual, spring, onslaught, and, we, only, had, about, two, calls, each, to, do, all, morning, weird, how, it, sometimes, turns, out, like, that, lambing, is, definitely, quietening, down, now, the, 5, 10, lambings, coming, in, each, day, is, turning, into, 2, 3, it's, mostly, fell, sheep, lambing, now, which, tend, to, be, easier, to, lamb, so, few, are, in, need, our, farmer’s, assistance, it's, starting, to, get, into, the, horse, castration, season, we've, had, the, odd, one, or, two, over, the, last, few, weeks, but, have, had, about, five, this, week, one, of, my, colleagues, who, is, next, up, from, me, in, terms, of, experience, and, i, have, started, doing, them, together, whereas, a, few, years, ago, after, it, would, always, have, been, at, least, one, of, the, partners, and, one, of, us, we, must, be, improving, tb, testing, seems, to, have, calmed, down, a, bit, too, as, a, practice, we’re, pretty, much, up, to, date, with, it, and, as, farmers, start, to, turn, their, cows, out, they'll, become, more, reluctant, to, do, it, with, the, way, it’s, spreading, in, the, county, though, we, have, to, try, to, keep, up, to, date, with, it, or, it, really, is, going, to, get, out, of, hand, i've, had, this, weekend, off, it, was, my, sister's, birthday, yesterday, so, i, went, to, meet, her, and, my, folks, for, lunch, we, sat, outside, and, enjoyed, the, april, sun, very, nice, it, was, too, farmers, are, all, wanting, rain, you, don't, hear, that, often, in, april, but, the, sun, suits, me, fine, what, are, the, odds, on, it, bucketing, down, in, june, during, silage, time, diary, 60, one, of, our, big, dairy, farms, had, had, a, big, outbreak, of, ibr, this, week, one, of, the, main, respiratory, viruses, on, the, whole, it, doesn’t, cause, death, and, is, normally, containable, on, this, occasion, however, it, seems, to, have, been, a, virulent, strain, and, has, caused, a, number, of, deaths, and, a, great, deal, of, lost, production, in, terms, of, lost, milk, and, calves, not, thriving, towards, the, end, of, the, week, i, went, and, shot, three, cows, which, were, terminally, affected, seeing, three, dead, and, bleeding, cows, in, the, yard, obviously, reminded, the, farmer, and, me, of, when, he, had, the, whole, herd, shot, in, the, same, place, for, fmd, and, he, had, then, moved, out, of, sight, very, quickly, i, think, the, worst, of, the, outbreak, is, over, now, and, all, the, cows, have, been, vaccinated, there's, only, one, vet, more, junior, qualified, for, less, time, than, me, in, the, practice, who, started, a, year, or, so, ago, this, week, we, went, to, do, a, colt, castrate, together, one, surgeon, one, as, anaesthetist, for, the, first, time, we've, both, done, a, lot, with, other, vets, but, this, was, the, first, time, we've, been, let, loose, as, a, pair, everything, went, very, smoothly, so, it, looks, as, though, our, boss's, confidence, trust, wasn't, totally, misplaced, on, friday, morning, i, had, a, big, dehorning, session, for, one, of, our, beef, farmers, it's, fairly, non, cerebral, type, work, but, is, ok, for, a, change, every, now, and, then, and, the, farmer, is, a, pretty, amenable, sort, of, guy, more, than, could, be, said, for, the, weather, so, it, was, a, fairly, laid, back, morning's, work, i, had, the, afternoon, off, and, drove, up, to, edinburgh, where, there, was, a, bit, of, a, reunion, for, recent, graduates, from, the, vet, college, there, were, a, lot, of, people, haven't, seen, for, a, long, time, and, it, was, interesting, to, compare, notes, on, what, we, were, all, up, to, diary, 61, after, last, weekend, in, edinburgh, i, had, to, come, back, to, work, on, bank, holiday, monday, it, was, fairly, manageable, on, the, whole, there, were, three, of, us, on, duty, in, the, morning, when, the, work, was, steady, without, ever, getting, too, hectic, i, was, on, first, call, after, 1pm, when, the, surgery, closed, and, it, remained, fairly, quiet, until, the, evening, when, there, was, a, sudden, run, of, calls, but, they, came, in, one, after, the, other, rather, than, building, up, too, much, on, tuesday, i, did, the, 60, day, re, test, of, the, second, herd, of, cattle, that, i, had, previously, found, a, reactor, in, it’s, a, big, herd, and, it, took, all, day, to, get, it, done, they’ve, been, a, bit, unfortunate, and, brought, in, several, other, diseases, apart, from, the, suspected, tb, when, they, re, stocked, one, of, these, an, enteric, condition, called, johnes, disease, is, a, chronic, wasting, problem, and, is, notoriously, difficult, to, eradicate, it’ll, take, years, of, blood, testing, and, careful, record, keeping, to, get, rid, of, it, it’s, frustrating, for, them, as, all, the, planning, for, the, post, fmd, period, has, been, disrupted, the, tb, test, showed, up, no, reactors, this, time, but, 3, cows, were, inconclusive, results, and, will, have, to, be, re, tested, this, is, almost, certainly, as, a, result, of, the, cows, carrying, antibodies, to, avian, tb, which, causes, no, signs, of, disease, in, cows, but, disrupts, the, bovine, tb, test, it’s, a, good, example, of, why, we, badly, need, a, more, specific, method, for, testing, for, tb, it’s, being, worked, on, at, the, moment, and, hopefully, we’ll, get, one, one, day, the, senior, partner, at, work, is, supervising, another, vet, who, is, doing, the, same, equine, qualification, that, i’m, enrolled, for, on, wednesday, he, came, to, spend, a, day, with, neil, to, do, some, equine, anaesthetics, they, were, mainly, castrates, so, i, operated, while, neil, went, through, the, anaesthetics, with, his, student, it, was, very, useful, to, hear, it, all, in, detail, again, it’s, all, too, easy, to, get, into, the, habit, of, knowing, which, drugs, work, at, what, dosages, and, not, actually, really, thinking, about, why, they, work, or, why, they’re, better, than, other, drugs, we, could, use, a, useful, day, but, it, has, made, me, realise, i’ve, got, a, lot, to, do, over, the, next, few, years, diary, 62, things, are, still, remaining, very, busy, at, work, lambing, has, pretty, much, finished, now, but, the, work, doesn't, seem, to, be, easing, the, partners, have, decided, we, need, another, vet, to, help, things, along, a, final, year, student, from, edinburgh, came, for, an, interview, this, week, and, it, looks, as, though, he'll, get, the, job, it, will, mean, that, the, rota, will, improve, and, hopefully, will, not, be, quite, as, hectic, when, he, starts, following, the, fantastically, dry, spring, it's, now, too, wet, for, the, farmers, and, they, are, tearing, their, hair, out, about, how, the, first, cut, of, silage, is, going, to, be, gathered, in, dry, hopefully, we'll, get, a, dry, spell, again, soon, to, ease, their, worries, i, found, a, potential, case, to, write, up, for, my, equine, casebook, this, week, it's, a, mare, that, managed, to, get, caught, up, in, wire, and, tear, a, big, hole, in, the, shin, of, her, lower, leg, it's, too, big, a, defect, to, stitch, so, it'll, have, to, heal, with, a, lot, of, bandaging, and, perhaps, some, skin, grafts, it, always, amazes, me, how, horses, managed, to, give, themselves, the, most, horrendous, injuries, been, fields, where, there, really, doesn't, seem, to, be, any, opportunity, for, it, clumsiness, perhaps, maybe, they, just, enjoy, pain, i, doubt, it, we're, doing, quite, a, bit, of, scanning, of, mares, for, pregnancy, at, the, moment, it's, another, thing, that, i've, been, doing, more, of, this, year, than, in, the, past, it's, a, bit, daunting, at, times, but, as, with, a, lot, of, things, it's, really, a, case, of, practising, it, as, much, as, possible, by, the, end, of, the, stud, season, it’ll, hopefully, be, fairly, straightforward, i, drove, down, to, oxford, on, friday, evening, after, work, to, see, my, sister, cousins, friends, who, live, down, there, it, seemed, a, longish, drive, but, it, was, well, worth, it, to, catch, up, with, them, all, one, of, the, things, about, working, weekends, is, that, it, makes, weekends, off, that, much, more, appreciated, diary, 63, after, a, very, pleasant, weekend, off, i, had, a, truly, delightful, first, job, on, monday, morning, a, cow, had, been, losing, weight, for, the, last, month, also, the, reason, i, found, was, that, it, had, a, very, dead, calf, inside, which, i, then, spent, the, first, hour, of, the, week, pulling, out, bone, by, bone, it, was, a, fairly, revolting, job, but, wasn't, actually, something, that, i, especially, resented, doing, must, mean, i'm, happy, in, my, work, or, perhaps, just, a, bit, weird, i, had, another, fairly, grim, job, later, in, the, week, when, i, was, called, out, at, 4, a, m, to, a, foaling, the, foal, was, stuck, half, out, and, was, dead, by, the, time, i, got, there, i, eventually, managed, to, get, the, foal, out, and, initially, the, mare, seemed, ok, but, deteriorated, over, the, next, 48, hours, and, eventually, had, to, be, euthanased, that’s, just, the, way, it, goes, sometimes, a, more, successful, case, came, later, in, the, week, when, i, saw, a, foal, that, was, acutely, lame, it, looked, at, first, as, though, it, might, have, an, infected, elbow, but, after, taking, samples, of, the, joint, fluid, and, some, x, rays, it, looked, as, though, it, was, actually, a, traumatic, injury, it, stayed, it, in, the, hospital, for, four, days, during, which, time, it, seemed, to, improve, quite, a, bit, it's, a, thoroughbred, from, a, good, racing, line, hopefully, with, a, rest, it’ll, make, a, full, recovery, and, win, the, grand, national, in, 2008, i, had, the, whole, of, the, bank, holiday, weekend, off, six, college, friends, came, to, stay, for, a, weekend, of, cumbrian, fresh, air, after, a, pretty, gloomy, forecast, the, weather, turned, out, very, well, and, we, all, went, for, a, lake, district, walk, each, day, and, had, a, pretty, relaxed, time, except, for, my, cats, four, dogs, also, came, to, stay, which, didn't, impress, the, cats, who, spent, the, whole, time, hiding, in, my, room, diary, 64, this, week, started, with, a, tb, test, for, a, small, re, stocking, herd, he, had, bought, some, cattle, from, a, farm, that, subsequently, tested, positive, for, tb, one, of, the, cattle, from, that, farm, had, then, tested, positive, on, his, farm, so, this, week's, test, was, a, 60, day, re, test, it, was, an, all, clear, this, time, which, was, obviously, a, relief, for, them, seeing, as, there, was, a, positive, on, the, farm, last, time, they, probably, have, to, have, another, test, in, 60, days, from, now, before, restrictions, are, lifted, this, farm, isn't, very, big, so, being, under, tb, restrictions, is, awkward, but, not, as, crippling, as, it, is, the, larger, farms, there, is, no, room, for, relaxing, the, rules, at, the, moment, though, the, recent, news, from, ireland, that, says, they, think, they've, proved, a, link, with, badgers, makes, it, even, more, important, to, get, it, out, of, cumbria, before, it, gets, into, wildlife, although, it, may, well, already, be, too, late, in, between, the, two, testing, days, this, week, i, seemed, to, do, a, lot, of, horse, cases, on, wednesday, i, spent, most, of, the, day, touring, around, cumbria, seeing, horses, in, wigton, cockermouth, and, bassenthwaite, it, was, a, sunny, day, and, was, a, very, pleasant, way, to, spend, the, day, great, scenery, to, look, at, outside, when, not, driving, and, cases, going, the, way, i, was, hoping, not, a, bad, way, to, work, i've, been, on, call, this, weekend, and, it's, been, very, quiet, so, far, yesterday, was, steady, with, a, reasonable, number, of, calls, but, none, stacking, up, i've, done, 2, cattle, caesareans, on, the, same, farm, this, weekend, one, yesterday, morning, which, seemed, like, a, huge, calf, until, the, one, i, did, this, morning, which, was, truly, a, freak, it, was, the, biggest, calf, i, or, the, farmer, had, seen, and, is, the, result, of, selecting, for, extreme, confirmation, in, beef, breeds, it, does, pose, serious, welfare, issues, for, the, cows, as, they, cannot, give, birth, naturally, and, have, to, have, fairly, major, abdominal, surgery, instead, we’ll, never, persuade, farmers, of, this, though, as, the, consumer, wants, cheaper, food, and, cheaper, beef, is, made, through, bigger, beef, calves, it, does, seem, tough, on, the, cows, though, or, am, i, being, too, cynical, diary, 65, i, thought, it, was, interesting, to, see, how, much, people, still, are, willing, to, talk, about, some, of, 2001, at, the, meeting, on, wednesday, night, while, a, lot, of, the, conversation, was, routed, around, the, subjects, you, had, come, up, with, over, the, last, 18, months, it, often, came, back, to, talk, of, events, and, individual, experiences, during, the, outbreak, itself, these, stories, must, have, been, told, on, dozens, of, occasions, but, people, still, want, to, tell, them, if, the, right, time, opportunity, comes, up, myself, included, there, were, so, many, themes, that, you, have, all, come, up, with, on, the, electronic, tags, sheet, that, it, seems, impossible, to, comment, on, them, all, some, of, them, seem, very, relevant, to, me, others, not, so, much, trust, is, a, category, that, comes, up, under, a, couple, of, headings, one, of, the, headings, it, is, under, is, knowledge, i, think, this, has, been, one, of, the, most, significant, changes, since, fmd, as, far, as, the, farmer, vet, relationship, is, concerned, defra, has, gone, from, being, eyed, with, some, suspicion, to, overt, distrust, and, resentment, on, a, whole, we, don't, get, too, much, flack, as, veterinary, gps, but, when, we, have, to, do, defra, allocated, jobs, such, as, tb, testing, there, is, sometimes, a, general, feeling, of, it, being, another, task, to, try, to, wear, them, down, being, sent, by, the, authorities, another, regulation, that, has, caused, huge, resentment, is, the, whole, animal, movement, licensing, system, it, is, much, easier, now, and, causes, fewer, problems, but, a, year, or, so, ago, it, was, the, source, of, much, stress, we, had, to, try, to, act, as, intermediary, between, farmers, and, defra, and, keep, both, sides, happy, the, damage, done, to, the, farmer, defra, trust, will, take, a, long, time, if, ever, to, start, to, repair, hopefully, by, trying, to, be, more, on, their, side, than, defra, seem, to, be, the, trust, they, have, in, us, has, been, preserved, it's, been, a, quietish, week, at, work, maybe, because, there's, been, a, bit, of, silaging, going, on, so, the, farmers, haven't, got, time, for, routine, work, it's, about, time, we, were, a, bit, quieter, the, summer, lull, hasn't, materialised, at, all, yet, this, year, in, fact, we’re, taking, on, another, vet, to, ease, the, workload, did, i, mention, this, last, week, in, the, meantime, it's, nice, to, have, time, to, draw, breath, and, enjoy, the, sun, for, a, day, or, two, diary, 66, this, week, seems, to, have, gone, by, a, pretty, quickly, maybe, it's, because, i'm, on, holiday, next, week, and, the, thought, of, it, is, spurring, me, on, i, fly, to, split, tomorrow, for, a, week, of, sailing, on, the, croatian, coast, with, a, college, friend, and, some, relatives, it'll, be, a, change, from, cumbria, one, of, our, big, dairy, farmers, was, away, in, thailand, this, week, the, farm, was, left, to, be, run, by, his, usual, workers, and, his, brother, and, mother, despite, this, he, felt, he, had, to, take, his, mobile, phone, with, him, and, he, was, rung, twice, during, the, week, to, be, asked, what, should, be, done, with, a, couple, of, sick, cows, i, suppose, this, either, demonstrates, extreme, dedication, or, an, inability, to, forget, about, work, or, both, but, then, again, it, also, shows, how, committed, a, lot, of, farmers, are, and, that, it's, not, just, a, job, to, them, as, farms, get, bigger, the, concept, of, all, the, cows, being, individually, known, to, the, farmer, or, being, his, friends, becomes, increasingly, unrealistic, but, in, the, majority, of, cases, they’re, not, just, milk, making, machines, and, are, cared, for, pretty, well, it's, not, hard, to, see, why, it, was, so, hard, for, people, to, lose, their, herds, after, being, a, bit, quieter, at, work, last, week, it, suddenly, seems, to, have, become, very, hectic, at, work, again, this, week, there, haven't, been, any, particularly, time, consuming, jobs, just, lots, of, sick, cows, horse, calls, and, the, usual, mix, of, animal, ailments, it's, better, to, be, busy, than, quiet, though, i, think, i, need, a, holiday, and, i'll, keep, my, phone, switched, off, diary, 67, a, week, off, work, to, go, sailing, in, croatia, easy, life, after, meeting, up, with, the, boat, and, the, rest, of, the, group, in, starigrad, we, sailed, to, vis, into, a, fairly, direct, head, wind, so, it, took, quite, a, bit, of, tacking, and, was, a, bit, of, a, rough, ride, i, also, very, stupidly, underdid, the, sunscreen, and, managed, to, burn, my, back, very, careless, but, it, got, less, uncomfortable, as, the, week, went, on, we, spent, two, nights, in, vis, harbour, as, the, others, who, had, already, been, sailing, for, a, week, wanted, a, rest, it, used, to, be, a, military, island, and, there, were, definite, signs, of, this, around, although, it, is, obviously, developing, a, now, rapidly, growing, tourist, trade, after, vis, it, was, off, to, hvar, where, we, anchored, in, a, small, inlet, a, few, miles, from, the, town, after, a, night, there, we, went, to, hvar, town, for, a, look, around, the, castle, on, the, hill, was, very, impressive, and, the, town, still, feels, as, though, it, is, relatively, unspoilt, at, the, moment, the, last, couple, of, days, were, spent, making, our, way, slowly, back, to, split, we, actually, spent, the, last, two, days, in, split, as, there, was, a, strong, northerly, wind, brewing, up, which, would, have, been, a, bit, rough, to, be, out, in, my, uncle, who, was, the, skipper, on, board, has, been, to, croatia, for, the, last, three, years, he, said, it, was, very, noticeably, more, busy, this, year, it, seems, a, shame, to, spoil, it, with, more, tourist, facilities, but, we, all, contributed, to, them, being, built, by, going, there, hopefully, it, won't, be, too, dramatically, changed, diary, 68, this, week, started, at, 9am, monday, with, a, tb, test, at, one, of, the, most, basic, run, down, farms, we, go, to, it, was, the, first, time, i'd, been, there, in, three, and, a, half, years, of, working, here, so, they, don't, make, huge, use, of, our, veterinary, services, one, of, their, bullocks, was, 7, years, old, when, i, casually, asked, about, what, plans, they, had, for, it, seeing, as, he, had, missed, the, 30, months, cut, off, time, for, human, consumption, i, was, told, it, was, just, kept, as, a, friend, for, the, bull, the, test, was, very, slow, as, the, cattle, handling, facilities, were, not, the, best, on, the, planet, they, were, very, pleasant, people, to, talk, to, and, it, soon, became, apparent, that, they, had, very, little, time, for, defra, nothing, unusual, there, the, son, was, one, of, the, people, who, had, had, his, firearms, confiscated, after, making, threats, at, the, start, of, fm, d, they, still, felt, resentful, about, the, way, the, police, became, involved, and, the, way, they, were, ultimately, given, no, choice, as, to, who, came, on, to, their, farm, to, check, their, stock, fortunately, all, the, cattle, were, negative, for, tb, so, there, was, no, need, to, further, add, to, their, distrust, of, defra, by, putting, them, under, more, restriction, the, rest, of, the, week, has, been, fairly, steady, there's, been, enough, going, on, to, keep, us, busy, without, ever, being, frantic, the, horse, i, saw, last, week, with, a, neurological, problem, has, become, a, bit, worse, so, has, gone, to, edinburgh, vet, school, to, see, one, of, the, neurologists, up, there, he, seemed, fairly, confused, by, it, as, well, which, i, have, to, say, i, found, quite, reassuring, the, weekend, was, a, bit, on, the, strenuous, side, a, cousin, who, is, a, keen, cyclist, persuaded, me, it, was, a, good, idea, to, do, a, big, cumbrian, yorkshire, bike, ride, we, went, from, penrith, to, alston, to, barnard, castle, to, tan, hill, refreshments, to, kirkby, stephen, to, penrith, on, saturday, and, then, recovered, on, sunday, it, seemed, like, a, good, idea, at, the, time, but, i, am, really, feeling, it, now, diary, 69, looking, back, at, some, of, the, quotes, in, the, recovery, section, of, the, notes, from, a, meeting, it's, noticeable, how, easy, it, is, to, forget, or, at, least, not, have, in, one's, mind, how, much, it, affected, a, lot, people, it's, almost, hard, to, remember, how, much, i, was, affected, by, it, i, know, that, there, were, some, very, unpleasant, tasks, such, as, supervising, slaughters, and, day, to, day, work, was, often, very, frustrating, when, we, felt, people, overseeing, our, work, from, offices, didn't, really, know, what, it, was, like, in, the, field, but, i, feel, now, that, on, the, whole, once, work, was, finished, life, pretty, much, went, on, maybe, this, isn't, actually, a, true, reflection, of, how, it, was, and, it's, just, that, some, of, the, detailed, memories, are, fading, often, things, don't, seem, as, bad, as, they, actually, were, when, you, look, back, on, them, i, know, plenty, of, clients, colleagues, and, friends, whose, lives, were, completely, overtaken, by, fmd, so, perhaps, mine, was, more, than, i, remember, but, i, also, feel, that, most, of, the, people, who, i, remember, as, being, heavily, affected, are, now, more, or, less, completely, over, it, one, of, the, farms, i, went, to, this, week, lost, a, son, in, a, road, accident, about, two, months, after, getting, fmd, i, think, the, farmer, was, ready, to, give, up, everything, after, that, apparently, he, left, the, cleaning, up, of, his, farm, and, took, no, interest, in, anything, time, obviously, helped, him, he's, been, back, milking, again, for, that, sic, last, year, and, a, half, there, are, still, changes, though, he, seems, very, much, quieter, and, more, laid, back, now, if, a, cow, isn't, in, calf, or, things, don't, go, quite, right, he, doesn't, seem, to, get, stressed, now, as, he, once, would, have, done, work, has, been, a, bit, quieter, this, week, which, we, would, expect, at, this, time, of, year, one, of, our, farms, has, put, some, pedigree, belgian, blue, embryos, into, some, limousin, cross, heifers, and, they're, starting, to, calve, now, they, all, need, caesar's, as, the, calves, are, almost, as, big, as, the, heifers, that, produce, them, the, only, thing, to, be, said, for, it, is, that, we, can, do, them, at, a, sensible, time, of, day, rather, than, at, two, in, the, morning, as, we, know, when, they’re, due, diary, 70, one, of, the, five, categories, you, raised, at, the, meetings, last, month, was, trauma, and, one, of, the, subsections, on, the, chart, was, sounds, smells, visions, sights, are, probably, the, most, frequent, reminder, of, fmd, now, there, are, certain, bits, of, road, that, have, memories, for, example, driving, north, on, the, m6, just, south, of, penrith, it, was, possible, to, count, smoke, plumes, from, about, 20, pyres, at, one, stage, on, fine, days, it, always, reminds, me, of, it, when, i, drive, that, stretch, one, farm, has, the, remains, of, a, pyre, that, was, started, to, be, built, but, never, finished, even, things, like, driving, across, two, lines, of, tar, across, a, road, which, once, held, down, a, disinfectant, mat, people, who, didn't, live, here, at, the, time, wouldn't, even, notice, them, but, it, seems, quite, significant, to, the, rest, of, us, it, doesn't, really, bother, me, but, just, is, a, reminder, of, what, went, on, at, other, times, it, seems, odd, how, quickly, things, have, gone, back, to, normal, even, something, as, simple, as, a, road, with, mud, or, animal, muck, on, it, in, 2001, that, would, have, stuck, out, like, a, sore, thumb, and, would, have, warranted, urgent, action, now, i'm, used, to, driving, a, dirty, car, i, do, clean, it, sometimes, and, having, some, roads, caked, in, dirt, it's, difficult, to, imagine, how, the, farmers, kept, them, clean, two, years, ago, but, they, did, obviously, there, are, other, reminders, people, never, tire, of, talking, about, it, but, it's, the, day, to, day, visions, and, places, that, are, most, regular, work, has, been, a, bit, quieter, this, week, i, did, it, a, caesar, on, a, cow, which, had, a, truly, ridiculously, enormous, calf, we, need, to, move, away, from, breeding, continental, beef, breeds, and, go, back, to, nice, compact, jersey's, or, aberdeen, anguses, i, also, saw, an, unusual, neurological, case, in, a, horse, it's, very, uncoordinated, and, has, poor, balance, it's, the, kind, of, case, where, brain, spinal, scan, would, be, useful, but, those, facilities, aren't, really, available, for, horses, it, will, be, interesting, to, see, how, it, goes, over, the, next, few, days, diary, 71, the, last, diary, the, 18, months, seem, to, have, gone, by, quickly, things, seem, so, much, back, to, how, they, were, that, it's, odd, to, think, back, to, what, was, going, on, when, we, first, started, writing, them, i, think, we, were, pretty, much, in, the, swing, of, doing, restocking, checks, and, doing, endless, blood, sampling, of, sheep, the, last, restocking, checks, i, did, were, only, 16, months, ago, it, seems, far, longer, although, i, say, things, are, back, to, how, they, were, i'm, sure, there, are, actually, a, lot, of, differences, it's, just, that, i, don't, notice, them, because, i'm, used, to, how, things, are, now, the, practice, has, become, a, lot, busier, by, october, we’ll, be, up, to, nine, full, time, and, two, part, time, vets, pre, fmd, we, were, seven, full, time, and, two, part, time, some, of, the, increase, is, equine, and, small, animal, but, most, of, it, is, in, farm, practice, part, of, this, is, directly, linked, to, fmd, eg, more, tb, testing, due, to, re, stocking, tests, and, re, stocking, having, brought, tb, into, the, county, other, factors, aren't, so, obvious, but, are, unquestionably, fmd, related, most, restocked, farmers, went, back, with, more, stock, than, they, originally, had, so, overall, there, is, greater, density, of, stock, around, more, animals, means, more, sick, animals, which, means, more, calls, for, the, vet, it's, a, shame, in, some, ways, to, see, the, small, traditional, farms, being, forced, out, but, it's, hard, to, see, how, they, can, manage, as, margins, get, smaller, and, larger, neighbours, get, more, stock, and, more, land, fmd, was, a, way, out, for, several, of, the, smaller, farms, all, have, been, bought, up, by, neighbours, with, none, being, sold, as, single, units, as, i've, said, in, recent, weeks, this, time, of, year, is, usually, quiet, it, has, become, a, bit, less, frantic, recently, but, the, traditional, summer, lull, hasn't, materialised, i've, been, a, vet, for, four, years, the, last, three, have, been, just, about, as, interesting, and, challenging, as, they, could, have, been, both, professionally, and, socially, from, the, point, of, view, of, living, in, penrith, obviously, fmd, had, devastating, effects, on, thousands, of, people, many, of, whom, are, my, friends, on, the, whole, i, see, very, few, residual, scars, it, is, still, talked, about, but, less, and, less, as, time, goes, on, more, than, one, farmer, has, actually, said, that, they, think, in, hindsight, it, was, a, very, good, thing, for, them, i'm, not, sure, i, could, ever, say, that, as, it, brought, too, much, stress, and, sadness, for, too, many, people, but, if, it, had, happened, i, think, very, much, with, the, benefit, of, hindsight, i’m, glad, that, i, had, the, chance, to, be, involved, with, it, from, the, start, and, through, the, recovery]
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1966, gender, f, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, diary, 1, monday, was, the, usual, long, hard, grind, i, accept, that, i, have, to, put, in, 10, 12, hours, and, i, don’t, mind, doing, the, work, because, it’s, not, physically, or, mentally, taxing, but, i, do, hate, not, having, a, lunch, break, just, that, little, bit, of, selfish, time, to, site, have, a, cigarette, take, the, dogs, down, the, river, see, the, horses, whatever, i, do, resent, that, fact, that, w, one, of, the, bosses, almost, always, gets, a, lunch, hour, b, the, other, boss, has, gone, up, tremendously, in, my, opinion, for, the, way, that, he, gets, on, with, the, work, he, starts, early, finishes, late, hates, derfa, paperwork, and, rarely, complains, it, is, definitely, grinding, them, down, because, they, work, like, that, at, least, 4, days, a, week, it, has, been, a, huge, advantage, this, last, year, being, part, time, at, work, my, days, off, obviously, aren’t, my, own, as, they, used, to, be, but, i, do, get, away, from, the, phone, and, the, demands, of, clients, some, of, our, clients, are, very, selfish, and, i, hadn’t, noticed, before, they, seem, to, think, they, are, the, only, ones, that, have, hassles, with, defra, i, remember, saying, to, one, complaining, about, problems, with, licensing, that, he, was, lucky, to, have, problems, with, only, one, licence, the, first, day, that, movement, licenses, came, out, we, applied, for, 26, and, received, the, explanatory, notes, from, defra, on, how, to, complete, the, paperwork, 4, days, later, anyway, managed, to, do, three, final, visits, and, complete, most, of, the, paperwork, before, 9pm, kirkby, stephen, was, buzzing, today, the, auction, reopened, for, a, cattle, sale, the, main, street, was, full, of, shiny, farmers, with, fish, and, chips, and, the, back, lane, was, full, of, shiny, some, new, land, rovers, and, trailers, trailers, mostly, new, in, fact, mc, told, me, that, as, soon, as, he, heard, his, bloods, had, come, back, clear, restocking, he, washed, and, changed, and, went, to, the, mart, he, said, it, was, the, first, time, he, had, felt, clean, since, the, day, they, were, infected, he, felt, ok, to, go, among, other, farmers, he, surprised, me, because, he, is, so, easy, going, he, takes, all, in, his, stride, but, he, still, says, fmd, is, not, as, terrible, as, testicular, cancer, and, he’s, right, ad, was, one, of, the, other, final, visits, he, doesn’t, give, a, bugger, about, anything, happy, to, become, a, flower, power, farmer, he, doesn’t, care, much, about, his, sheep, as, individuals, they, are, just, numbers, just, as, well, because, in, the, batch, he, bought, from, wales, the, sheep, have, more, legs, than, teeth, i, can’t, see, them, lasting, long, pissed, off, because, i, missed, bryan, adams, concert, in, newcastle, couldn’t, finish, in, time, to, join, the, bus, the, rest, of, the, lassies, had, a, brilliant, time, and, at, least, tracey, benefited, from, my, ticket, had, to, go, back, in, to, work, the, next, day, to, finish, my, defra, reports, and, fax, them, off, went, to, playgroup, to, talk, about, pets, took, my, dog, lurcher, and, child’s, rabbit, dodgy, combination, very, few, of, the, kids, seemed, to, have, pets, of, their, own, a, lot, of, them, referred, to, granddad’s, dogs, or, uncles, cat, when, i, left, college, the, pet, population, was, increasing, what’s, going, to, happen, in, the, next, 15, years, sister, phoned, worried, about, her, horse, he, has, haematuria, i’m, worried, that, he, has, a, tumour, i, feel, very, far, away, and, helpless, when, things, like, this, happen, even, though, she, only, lives, in, yorkshire, i’m, sure, i, could, help, her, whatever, the, outcome, if, we, lived, closer, in, fact, i, think, i, miss, my, family, more, now, than, i, ever, have, i, don’t, know, if, it’s, my, age, or, the, thought, that, m, is, over, 60, or, that, i, didn’t, see, them, much, at, all, last, year, or, just, because, i, have, son, now, and, can, understand, how, mothers, families, feel, i, miss, sisters, but, i, still, don’t, phone, them, much, i, always, think, they’ll, be, busy, i, can, talk, to, mam, three, or, four, times, a, week, for, half, an, hour, at, a, time, without, thinking, twice, she, must, get, fed, up, hearing, me, go, on, and, on, about, work, etc, but, she, loves, hearing, all, about, every, tiny, detail, of, son’s, antics, and, achievements, will, broached, the, subject, of, a, partnership, again, i, don’t, know, what, to, think, it’s, the, obvious, thing, to, do, and, a, few, years, ago, i, would, have, taken, his, hand, off, for, even, 10, or, 20, i’m, just, not, as, excited, about, it, as, i, should, be, and, what, would, change, will, i, be, better, off, will, i, be, a, better, vet, or, will, i, spend, too, much, time, of, figures, and, paperwork, will, i, become, more, commercially, aware, do, i, want, to, change, can, i, be, bothered, with, the, extra, hassle, they, are, ok, they, have, a, career, and, a, wife, i’m, trying, to, do, both, sometimes, badly, diary, 2, monday’s, are, shite, it, starts, off, busy, and, gets, worse, why, can’t, we, do, time, management, a, bit, better, it, did, look, as, if, we, might, finish, around, 6.30, at, one, stage, in, the, afternoon, then, i, was, called, out, to, a, calf, i, didn’t, really, need, a, visit, at, 6pm, at, night, w, said, never, mind, you’ll, be, picking, son, up, anyway, the, childminder, lives, on, the, next, door, farm, he, hasn’t, got, a, clue, if, i, picked, son, up, he, would, be, at, ange’s, for, about, 8, hours, i, feel, guilty, enough, that, he’s, away, for, about, 8, hours, partner, always, picks, him, up, about, 5.30, and, has, to, cope, which, he, does, well, until, i, get, home, but, it’s, hard, work, for, both, of, us, after, a, full, day, at, work, and, partner, is, usually, knackered, and, ready, for, peace, and, quiet, when, he, gets, home, not, a, tired, hungry, wee, lad, anyway, i, ended, up, having, a, farm, tour, that, night, farmer, was, so, proud, of, his, new, pedigree, belgian, blues, and, his, new, shed, he’s, been, lucky, to, get, most, of, his, commercial, stock, from, his, father, so, he, has, an, idea, of, their, past, history, he’s, a, nice, lad, and, he, was, producing, some, stunning, beef, calves, before, he, was, taken, out, at, least, he’s, young, enough, to, get, going, again, he, hasn’t, said, much, about, loosing, his, stock, so, i, haven’t, asked, i, had, a, chat, to, his, aunt, one, day, and, she, was, very, upset, and, that, upsets, me, i, hate, when, people, get, emotional, like, that, i, start, filling, up, myself, i, got, back, to, find, a, sheep, caesarean, still, to, do, waste, of, time, premature, lambs, all, born, alive, 3, and, all, dead, before, i, finished, stitching, the, uterus, and, to, put, the, tin, hat, on, the, day, my, assistant, was, the, mother, who, prattled, about, nothing, much, all, the, way, through, the, op, she, does, my, head, in, she, is, a, century, away, from, me, in, her, outlook, but, i, still, come, away, feeling, that, i, am, the, one, who, has, got, it, all, wrong, maybe, i, should, have, dinner, on, the, table, and, shirts, ironed, etc, i, don’t, want, to, be, like, her, though, and, i, can’t, even, sympathise, with, her, even, though, they, lost, all, their, sheep, i’m, sure, she, must, have, taken, it, badly, but, i, don’t, think, she, would, ever, let, her, feelings, show, in, public, something, about, the, way, she, spoke, suggested, that, she, was, forcing, herself, to, put, a, brave, face, and, look, forward, probably, for, her, own, son’s, sake, watched, rural, lives, again, on, tuesday, cr, came, over, well, i, though, i, couldn’t, help, but, snigger, when, the, slaughter, team, were, discussing, one, of, our, clients, she, made, the, kids, carry, away, the, dead, piglets, after, they’d, been, slaughtered, them, team, thought, that, was, terrible, but, i, knew, the, kids, they, all, help, on, the, farm, they, know, that, their, pigs, go, to, kill, the, family, even, started, their, own, little, slaughter, house, and, cutting, plant, before, fmd, i, don’t, think, those, kids, would, be, horrified, sad, maybe, we, all, felt, sad, over, the, last, year, sad, for, the, healthy, animals, culled, more, sad, for, the, people, caught, up, in, the, mess, one, disease, where, the, cure, is, worse, mostly, though, i, get, angry, when, i, hear, or, talk, about, fmd, i, get, angry, because, defra, let, us, all, down, the, politicians, got, too, closely, involved, nothing, happened, fast, enough, we, didn’t, seem, to, be, able, to, do, anything, we, knew, very, little, and, struggled, to, get, reliable, information, i, still, get, wound, up, thinking, about, it, all, we, were, marginalised, by, defra, i, felt, as, if, it, was, us, and, the, farmers, versus, derfa, not, all, three, groups, versus, fmd, the, rumours, that, abounded, just, magnified, the, feelings, we, talked, at, length, about, fmd, defra, etc, within, the, practice, and, with, our, clients, but, i, could, still, talk, about, it, all, day, even, now, so, many, things, are, unresolved, i, have, lost, faith, in, defra, especially, since, they, changed, their, name, no, a, for, agriculture, now, and, i’m, glad, i, have, been, ignorant, of, politics, for, so, long, there, have, been, few, shining, lights, in, the, government, i’m, heartily, sick, of, authority, interfering, and, regulating, stuff, that’s, going, along, quite, nicely, let, them, interfere, with, stuff, that’s, doing, harm, bad, farmers, need, a, shake, up, sheep, dealers, need, to, think, more, about, animal, welfare, but, the, way, things, are, going, the, good, guys, that, toe, the, line, will, end, up, following, all, the, rules, and, regulations, set, up, to, sort, out, the, bad, guys, and, will, they, bother, diary, 3, possibly, the, best, bit, of, the, week, was, sunday, when, i, eventually, after, 13, months, got, back, on, my, horse, only, 15, minutes, but, it, was, nerve, wracking, i, thought, she, might, just, throw, me, off, and, i, was, so, tense, actually, we, both, were, i, felt, as, if, i, had, forgotten, how, to, ride, i, stayed, in, the, field, thinking, it, would, be, safer, but, the, other, two, horses, were, flying, about, to, annoy, us, i’m, so, frustrated, that, i, haven’t, been, able, to, get, her, fit, for, the, start, of, the, endurance, season, there’s, no, way, we’d, be, able, to, go, to, the, first, ride, at, ullswater, and, there’s, only, one, other, in, cumbria, this, year, due, to, fmd, who, would, have, thought, that, we, would, still, be, curtailed, by, fmd, more, than, a, year, on, the, young, horse, was, very, interested, in, saddle, and, bridle, so, i, put, them, on, him, and, he, was, ok, at, first, he, was, frightened, to, move, at, all, but, then, he, realised, it, was, ok, on, monday, i, had, a, strange, request, to, go, and, hold, an, old, pony, for, the, knacker, to, shoot, the, owner’s, just, didn’t, want, to, be, around, it, was, a, lovely, morning, so, i, led, her, out, for, a, bite, of, grass, before, he, arrived, she, could, barely, manage, to, breathe, and, swallow, at, the, same, time, i, can’t, believe, how, the, tumours, have, taken, hold, of, her, since, the, turn, of, the, year, mr, a, couldn’t, tell, his, wife, the, diagnosis, initially, because, she, hadn’t, got, over, losing, the, few, pedigree, sheep, they, had, it’s, taking, some, people, a, long, time, to, get, over, the, loss, i, think, it’s, easier, to, get, over, losing, an, animal, if, you, have, more, than, one, it, helps, to, keep, you, focussed, on, the, living, rather, than, the, dead, and, farmers, haven’t, been, able, to, get, restarted, when, they, were, ready, to, because, of, all, the, c, d, requirements, anyway, the, knacker, man, told, some, good, tales, there’s, been, some, nutters, about, shooting, animals, some, even, had, their, guns, taken, off, them, poor, lad, was, given, a, day’s, notice, at, the, knackey, and, was, part, of, a, slaughter, team, after, that, so, he, was, only, paid, his, normal, wage, which, the, boss, collected, at, the, defra, rate, for, them, all, it, was, good, talking, to, him, probably, because, i, don’t, really, know, him, i, didn’t, feel, that, i, would, upset, him, because, he, wasn’t, like, a, client, who, had, lost, animals, sometimes, it’s, hard, to, know, what, to, say, if, people, get, upset, sometimes, it’s, enough, to, listen, one, of, the, most, awkward, situations, i, found, myself, in, was, talking, to, a, farmer, who, lost, no, stock, but, he, was, so, depressed, he, started, crying, the, cows, i, had, gone, to, see, should, have, gone, last, year, then, we, wouldn’t, have, had, these, problems, he, also, has, been, unable, to, sell, sheep, so, the, farm, was, completely, overstocked, overgrazed, and, had, little, silage, left, i, couldn’t, understand, why, he, was, still, overstocking, when, he, could, have, sold, sheep, and, cattle, for, restocking, or, for, slaughter, quite, easily, in, the, last, few, months, maybe, he, just, couldn’t, face, the, hassle, of, getting, licences, or, maybe, he’s, just, too, far, down, to, think, straight, i, usually, mention, that, sort, of, thing, to, b, and, w, because, i, think, it’s, important, that, everyone, in, the, practice, knows, what’s, happening, not, just, with, out, patients, but, also, with, our, clients, diary, 4, i, had, the, honour, of, completing, the, final, final, visit, today, and, it, was, one, of, my, neighbours, in, soulby, no, more, surveillance, visits, poor, lol, couldn’t, find, his, defra, paperwork, and, while, he, was, looking, through, his, files, he, found, copies, of, his, valuation, report, with, all, his, old, cows, on, i, think, it, brought, it, all, back, he’s, trying, hard, to, move, on, i, could, understand, him, being, bitter, since, his, whole, very, good, milking, herd, was, taken, as, a, dc, i, think, he, may, have, survived, because, the, infection, was, half, a, mile, away, from, his, cows, but, the, ip, land, joined, i, watched, them, load, all, his, cows, into, coal, wagons, on, s, saturday, afternoon, in, fact, it, was, midnight, when, the, last, de, tox, wagon, left, how, can, they, be, clean, if, i, can’t, even, get, my, wellies, clean, in, the, dark, how, he’s, worrying, about, his, new, cows, coming, from, holland, he, thinks, it’s, a, long, way, for, them, to, travel, but, he, can’t, wait, for, them, to, arrive, unlike, his, wife, who, thinks, that, all, this, restocking, is, going, too, fast, i, felt, apprehensive, too, about, a, fortnight, ago, but, the, feeling, is, subsiding, the, day, to, day, normality, of, work, is, returning, sheep, are, permitted, to, visit, the, surgery, for, treatment, so, we, have, had, a, much, more, normal, march, than, we’d, had, last, year, even, though, there, are, still, thousands, of, sheep, missing, from, the, practice, farmers, are, still, bringing, in, lambs, the, value, of, stock, is, obviously, not, their, prime, concern, where, there’s, life, there’s, hope, we, wouldn’t, see, ewes, or, lambs, at, all, if, the, cost, of, treatment, versus, the, animal’s, value, was, weighed, i, was, worried, that, we, would, have, a, flare, up, around, lambing, time, there’s, a, chance, that, some, of, the, fell, sheep, were, exposed, to, fmd, and, there’s, a, risk, of, virus, recrudescence, at, times, of, stress, so, i, was, thinking, that, if, we, made, it, through, lambing, then, we’d, definitely, be, ok, the, weather, has, cheered, me, up, this, week, everybody, smiles, more, when, it’s, sunny, its, tempting, to, think, my, days, at, home, are, holidays, when, the, weathers, so, nice, diary, 5, i, forgot, about, april, fools, day, for, the, first, time, ever, we, were, so, busy, at, work, and, it, was, more, of, a, bank, holiday, than, anything, else, i, do, resent, working, bank, holidays, but, monday, is, my, day, to, be, on, call, b, did, offer, to, do, some, of, the, day, but, he, had, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, a, lambing, at, 1.30, am, and, another, call, at, 6, am, so, he’d, be, knackered, enough, and, they, pay, me, for, a, day’s, work, so, its, only, fair, that, i, give, a, days, work, when, the, phone, rang, early, tuesday, and, i, felt, as, if, i’d, only, been, in, bed, 2, hours, i, was, regretting, not, passing, on, the, night, duty, a, belgian, blue, calving, caesarian, mentally, checked, my, kit, in, the, car, while, driving, to, ks, definitely, caesarean, they, shouldn’t, breed, from, these, cows, until, they’re, more, mature, we’re, getting, loads, of, bother, with, the, new, stock, never, mind, its, proper, veterinary, work, anyway, the, heifer, was, a, right, bag, started, off, lying, down, so, i, doped, her, but, she, got, up, after, we, got, the, calf, out, and, then, tried, to, lye, down, on, the, wound, peritonitis, to, follow, no, doubt, i, warned, the, farmer, and, we, were, all, very, calm, about, it, maybe, none, of, us, were, really, awake, so, that, made, partner, late, for, work, as, he, was, left, holding, the, baby, and, i, was, well, late, setting, off, to, see, my, sister, sister, sister, didn’t, mind, and, partner, s, bosses, said, it, was, ok, but, i, still, felt, guilty, had, a, great, time, at, sister’s, did, a, bit, of, touristy, stuff, and, found, a, really, nice, book, for, mam’s, birthday, by, mrs, herdie, who, used, to, holiday, near, home, mam, has, a, watercolour, by, her, but, this, book, is, all, wildflowers, other, sister, phoned, to, say, horse, is, worse, i, think, sister, and, i, both, wanted, to, go, to, yorkshire, when, we, heard, how, upset, she, was, sisters, are, so, close, being, twins, but, i, can, understand, what, sister, s, going, through, with, a, horse, on, death’s, door, she, didn’t, want, us, to, go, she, said, so, we, drank, too, much, red, wine, instead, and, watched, the, start, of, papillon, good, film, i, was, too, knackered, though, my, stamina, gives, out, a, lot, sooner, under, the, influence, of, alcohol, mam’s, birthday, was, a, queer, day, it’s, rare, that, i, get, the, chance, to, spend, time, with, any, of, my, siblings, at, home, and, we, had, a, lovely, day, apart, from, the, fact, that, we, were, all, waiting, to, hear, what, was, going, to, happen, with, sister, she, phoned, to, say, he’d, been, put, down, bladder, tumour, i, think, it, must, be, pretty, rare, she, still, said, we, shouldn’t, go, down, sister, could, have, easily, gone, and, mam, because, lynxes, on, school, hols, jammy, teacher, i, stayed, on, till, quite, late, because, both, my, brother, and, stepfather, wanted, to, see, son, he, was, so, excited, to, see, them, sometimes, he, just, makes, us, all, laugh, i, had, a, depressing, start, to, the, day, back, at, work, just, over, a, month, ago, i, amputated, a, dog’s, leg, the, leg, was, fractured, over, 6, months, ago, appeared, to, heal, and, then, suddenly, worsen, we, suspected, a, bone, infection, but, she, didn’t, respond, to, treatment, so, i, x, rayed, her, again, and, it, looked, like, a, bone, tumour, she, did, well, after, the, operation, until, last, week, when, she, developed, a, hard, knobbly, swelling, near, her, shoulder, and, her, lungs, were, infiltrated, i, felt, so, sad, for, her, and, the, family, she, was, a, lovely, placid, and, very, brave, dog, and, it, is, just, so, unfair, i, don’t, want, to, give, up, on, these, cases, and, i, feel, that, euthanasia, is, a, poor, treatment, in, this, case, i, so, wanted, her, to, have, a, couple, more, years, i, never, would, have, put, her, or, the, family, through, a, ghastly, op, like, amputation, if, i, had, known, that, she, would, get, so, little, benefit, the, farmer’s, son, who, worked, the, dog, until, she, retired, was, conspicuous, by, his, absence, he’s, rebuilding, the, milking, parlour, ready, to, restock, so, his, sister, did, the, honours, and, came, to, help, me, had, to, switch, to, party, mode, son’s, 2nd, birthday, the, sandpit, was, a, roaring, success, as, was, the, trike, and, cake, from, grandma, and, granddad, we, had, a, super, relaxing, day, mostly, outdoors, this, weather, makes, life, a, lot, easier, i, couldn’t, have, coped, with, all, those, little, boys, inside, escaped, to, the, horses, at, asby, to, take, water, it’s, so, peaceful, up, there, i’ve, really, missed, being, able, to, go, up, there, this, last, year, there’s, still, yellow, tape, on, my, gate, and, i, don’t, even, have, livestock, i, wonder, who, they, defra, thought, the, field, belongs, to, should, get, out, riding, this, next, week, with, a, bit, of, luck, and, a, bit, of, spare, time, i, think, i’ll, have, to, shelve, the, plans, to, show, the, arabs, i, haven’t, got, started, soon, enough, diary, 6, our, new, vet, started, this, week, bright, young, enthusiastic, and, full, of, new, ideas, i, feel, very, out, of, touch, i, didn’t, go, on, any, cpd, courses, last, year, for, most, of, the, year, i, felt, as, if, we, were, unclean, and, i, was, so, tired, with, working, such, long, days, it, seemed, too, much, hard, work, to, organise, extra, childcare, etc, to, allow, me, to, go, away, for, more, than, a, day, i, feel, out, of, touch, generally, though, and, a, lot, of, it, has, to, do, with, working, part, time, big, day, on, wednesday, son’s, 1st, morning, at, biggins, nursery, i, think, my, new, hobby, is, worrying, am, i, doing, the, right, thing, setting, off, on, new, extra, and, expensive, childcare, arrangements, i, think, i, feel, guilty, because, it’s, for, my, benefit, not, for, extra, work, it’s, now, going, to, cost, me, an, extra, 7.50, to, ride, my, horse, on, a, wednesday, but, i, am, starting, to, break, horse, in, as, well, and, i, can’t, handle, a, 4, year, old, horse, with, a, 2, year, old, boy, around, anyway, the, nursery, seemed, a, big, hit, and, i, had, my, first, ride, out, on, ashby, fell, i, actually, went, over, the, track, to, the, dowly, tree, instead, of, on, the, road, she, the, horse, was, quite, anxious, leading, the, other, two, and, a, bit, excited, to, be, out, in, the, open, space, of, the, fell, so, was, i, there, seems, to, be, just, one, lot, of, fell, sheep, on, there, they, must, be, h’s, i, think, nobody, else, has, started, to, heft, sheep, up, there, yet, the, dowly, tree, will, be, looking, sad, and, lonely, for, a, bit, longer, i, have, missed, being, up, on, that, fell, so, much, margaret, little, asking, if, we’re, going, to, the, village, hall, quiz, on, friday, probably, not, because, we’re, going, out, for, a, meal, for, partner, s, birthday, felt, guilty, about, not, supporting, village, activities, and, started, justifying, myself, to, her, i, hate, it, though, when, people, use, fmd, to, make, you, feel, bad, she, kept, saying, how, few, does, there, were, last, year, how, nice, it, is, for, all, the, village, to, get, together, etc, all, true, but, i, can’t, get, babysitters, and, nights, off, to, do, everything, and, partner, is, way, more, important, than, the, village, quiz, he, put, up, with, such, a, lot, of, shite, last, year, and, never, complained, far, too, tolerant, we, had, a, lovely, meal, on, the, friday, night, son, slept, out, at, t’s, for, the, first, time, in, ages, but, i, couldn’t, have, a, lie, in, because, of, the, judge’s, course, for, the, arab, horse, society, i, really, enjoyed, it, it, was, arranged, for, last, year, but, had, to, be, postponed, due, to, fmd, it, was, worth, waiting, for, and, i, couldn’t, have, gone, last, year, even, if, it, had, been, on, went, to, see, sister, and, sister’s, boyfriend, on, sunday, seemed, to, spend, all, day, being, fed, she’s, like, mam, son, took, a, real, shine, to, sister’s, boyfriend, which, entertained, us, all, she, seems, to, be, coping, ok, with, horse, s, demise, martin, has, cleaned, up, one, of, his, shoes, and, mounted, it, with, a, plaque, he’s, very, thoughtful, diary, 7, i, have, decided, that, i, am, happy, on, dry, days, when, i, can, ride, or, work, my, horses, son, and, i, can, get, outside, to, play, and, then, he’s, happier, and, people, who, come, into, work, are, more, smiley, on, good, days, too, son, and, i, went, to, a, birthday, party, this, week, he, had, a, brilliant, time, but, i, felt, very, out, of, place, everybody, else, was, immaculately, dressed, and, made, up, while, son, and, i, had, to, rush, back, from, having, a, bonfire, to, burn, all, the, old, hay, in, musgrave, field, to, quickly, wash, and, change, i’d, rather, have, carried, on, tidying, up, the, field, it’s, still, a, real, mess, and, at, least, i, have, the, grass, seed, now, it, had, better, grow, the, price, it, was, i, was, really, pleased, with, horse, on, wednesday, he’s, coming, on, quite, nicely, with, his, lunging, now, he, seems, to, be, quite, amenable, dental, appointment, on, friday, i, hope, my, dentist, never, retires, i, don’t, think, they, make, dentists, that, are, more, interested, in, people, and, their, teeth, than, money, any, more, i, always, have, a, good, chat, to, him, so, we, carried, on, our, discussion, about, my, working, conditions, comparing, them, to, his, sons, etc, he’s, a, vet, too, he, was, quite, surprised, when, i, told, him, about, the, partnership, talks, last, time, i, had, a, good, heart, to, heart, it, was, after, the, threatened, redundancy, it’s, no, wonder, i, feel, confused, about, the, future, at, times, nearly, 2, years, ago, when, i, was, on, maternity, leave, they, thought, they, might, have, to, make, me, redundant, now, they, want, to, release, a, bit, of, capital, and, take, things, easier, they, want, me, to, buy, in, this, time, last, year, i, didn’t, know, if, partner, or, i, would, have, a, job, now, i, have, to, decide, to, commit, myself, to, at, least, 20, more, years, as, a, vet, went, out, with, girls, from, work, to, a, 40th, didn’t, really, want, to, go, but, of, course, we, had, a, great, time, once, we, got, there, i, think, i, have, got, out, of, the, habit, of, evenings, out, still, can’t, get, used, to, the, freedom, the, mobile, phone, gives, us, and, spend, all, the, time, checking, that, there’s, enough, signal, battery, etc, had, a, hell, of, a, hangover, too, much, draught, coke, hell, it’s, worse, than, cider, diary, 8, the, shit, is, hitting, the, fan, we’re, having, problems, with, some, imported, dutch, heifers, we, were, waiting, for, this, especially, on, this, particular, farm, the, management’s, not, the, best, and, the, father, takes, more, advice, from, his, feed, merchant, than, us, vets, there, is, obviously, a, viral, infection, going, through, the, heifers, and, farmer, b, presumed, they, were, already, vaccinated, no, documentation, they, are, also, showing, signs, of, gastro, intestinal, upset, which, could, be, management, oh, hell, why, did, he, buy, 80, first, calvers, nobody, would, willingly, put, themselves, under, that, stress, new, vet, is, interested, but, b, and, w, are, obviously, trying, to, keep, their, distance, they’ve, been, embroiled, in, herd, problems, on, this, farm, before, i, am, now, obviously, the, senior, vet, in, charge, of, this, problem, and, i’m, not, even, at, work, every, day, it’s, too, much, for, new, vet, to, cope, with, and, the, farmer, will, get, pissed, off, soon, and, i, bet, it’s, us, that, catch, the, flak, cheered, myself, up, with, 1, hours, of, r, r, with, the, horses, on, wednesday, lovely, day, rode, down, onto, the, common, but, it, was, hard, work, as, the, other, two, horses, were, shouting, for, daisy, all, the, time, i, was, out, on, her, horse, decided, that, he, would, be, bobbly, when, i, worked, him, but, i’m, getting, confident, that, i, know, how, his, mind, works, we, had, a, bit, of, a, stand, off, but, i, made, sure, it, didn’t, turn, into, a, battle, and, he, did, as, he, was, asked, in, the, end, so, we, finished, on, a, good, note, i, think, it, will, be, quite, satisfying, bringing, him, on, myself, even, though, its, going, to, take, months, at, this, rate, some, people, work, on, young, horses, twice, a, day, he’s, lucky, if, he, gets, trained, twice, a, week, work, is, really, settling, down, now, the, lambing, time, rush, has, passed, and, we’re, catching, up, on, our, tb, testing, for, defra, it’s, a, bit, more, taxing, having, to, do, such, young, animals, in, the, restocked, herds, but, most, people, are, fairly, well, organised, we’re, not, going, to, get, some, of, the, herds, done, before, turn, out, i, wonder, if, defra, have, any, recommendations, for, catching, wild, limousin, heifers, in, the, middle, of, a, field, probably, not, they, don’t, think, that, far, ahead, diary, 9, i, hate, mondays, again, had, supper, at, 11.45, pm, there, was, a, problem, with, my, mobile, when, i, was, on, call, i, hate, mobiles, as, well, and, i, went, to, calve, a, cow, one, and, a, half, hours, after, the, first, call, came, in, i, was, so, mad, firstly, because, we, don’t, make, our, clients, wait, that, long, for, an, emergency, to, become, a, disaster, and, second, because, ws, wife, has, no, idea, about, passing, jobs, on, she, should, have, got, another, vet, to, go, since, i, was, obviously, busy, but, she, just, passed, the, message, on, to, new, vet, to, let, her, sort, it, out, and, w’s, wife, gets, paid, for, doing, the, phones, anyway, all’s, well, live, cow, and, a, tremendous, bull, calf, and, one, of, the, easiest, caesareans, i, have, done, in, ages, b, and, w, seem, to, forget, that, it, is, their, business, and, reputation, at, stake, ultimately, the, buck, stops, with, them, both, of, them, seem, to, have, had, enough, of, business, management, and, hassle, to, last, a, lifetime, last, year, has, done, a, lot, of, damage, to, a, lot, of, people, i, know, i, am, a, lot, less, tolerant, than, i, used, to, be, this, week, started, badly, and, improved, farrier, came, and, trimmed, all, 3, horses, bollocked, me, because, they, hadn’t, been, seen, for, over, a, year, i, did, tidy, them, a, bit, myself, though, had, a, lovely, afternoon, at, rheged, with, mam, we, started, going, when, fmd, was, on, because, it, was, sort, of, neutral, non, agricultural, ground, we, sat, and, chatted, while, son, played, in, the, soft, play, centre, everybody, happy, unfortunately, i, went, down, with, the, worst, dose, of, food, poisoning, i, had, ever, had, i, was, up, all, night, went, into, work, late, i, wouldn’t, have, gone, at, all, except, i, had, a, 2nd, tb, to, test, to, do, on, a, restocked, farm, and, couldn’t, bear, to, start, the, whole, thing, again, i, recovered, as, the, afternoon, went, on, and, even, managed, to, dehorn, 10, cows, the, thought, of, b, sending, fragile, young, new, vet, to, help, spurred, me, on, a, bit, i, was, knackered, when, i, finished, took, me, another, 2, days, to, recover, horse, doing, well, bridle, and, saddle, on, now, looking, grown, up, i’m, quite, proud, of, him, he, was, so, chilled, out, today, i, tried, long, reining, him, that, confused, him, but, he, was, very, sensible, norleen, and, i, didn’t, go, to, the, 1st, date, at, the, rochdale, show, i, still, didn’t, feel, right, and, partner, was, going, to, fit, the, new, fuel, pump, to, my, car, but, then, he, started, to, feel, ill, too, what, a, waste, of, a, saturday, off, made, it, to, the, show, on, sunday, pretty, good, ridden, classes, and, all, the, senior, in, hand, classes, we, were, laughing, because, we’re, so, out, of, practice, there, are, two, years, worth, of, young, stock, that, we’ve, never, seen, due, to, babies, in, 2000, and, fmd, in, 2001, we, felt, really, out, of, touch, there, are, a, few, imported, stallions, and, mares, that, we, haven’t, seen, before, too, we, had, a, brilliant, day, diary, 10, what’s, worse, than, working, on, call, on, mondays, yes, working, bank, holidays, we, hoped, to, shut, at, 12, ha, ha, i, got, home, for, lunch, at, 2pm, b, kindly, took, the, phones, for, a, couple, of, hours, in, the, afternoon, not, long, enough, to, go, anywhere, and, i, was, back, out, working, by, tea, time, my, car, failed, its, mot, because, the, back, brake, callipers, were, all, gunged, up, the, mechanic, says, it’s, disinfectant, that, does, it, bloody, defra, i, bet, there’s, no, chance, of, compensation, for, that, it, wouldn’t, be, so, bad, if, it, was, a, practice, car, but, now, that, i’m, part, time, i, have, to, paddle, my, own, canoe, all, the, local, garage, owners, warned, us, last, year, that, these, things, would, happen, what, could, we, do, we, felt, obliged, to, drive, into, all, the, voluntary, disinfectant, sites, it, doesn’t, look, good, if, the, local, vets, aren’t, disinfecting, my, beautiful, old, audi, god, knows, what, other, horrors, are, lurking, where, the, fam, has, spilled, in, my, boot, etc, hell, it, makes, me, mad, all, the, destruction, physical, and, mental, and, we, had, so, little, to, say, in, any, of, it, well, my, car, spent, the, rest, of, the, week, in, the, garage, so, i, used, borrowed, wheels, went, to, do, a, wee, talk, at, stainsmore, pre, school, in, partner, s, transit, van, very, professional, the, children, didn’t, care, they, just, wanted, to, meet, my, dog, son, missed, a, birthday, party, on, the, saturday, because, i, was, still, at, work, more, guilt, not, that, he, knows, he, missed, it, lovely, day, on, sunday, with, my, horse, went, for, a, three, hour, ride, over, in, county, durham, we, trailed, round, arable, fields, and, nice, lanes, all, very, different, from, here, other, horse, was, an, absolute, saint, and, did, very, well, to, have, no, shoes, on, she, really, did, us, proud, diary, 11, got, my, car, back, that, cheered, me, up, bad, news, about, the, imported, heifers, two, more, have, died, at, least, the, pm, exams, and, sampling, are, free, because, it’s, a, restocked, herd, farmer, getting, angry, now, at, dutch, farmers, but, taking, it, out, on, new, vet, very, unfair, she’s, spent, hours, checking, over, his, cattle, and, taking, samples, didn’t, get, my, usual, r, r, on, wed, absolutely, piddling, down, started, sorting, out, a, few, jobs, that, i, have, been, avoiding, the, sort, i, used, to, do, on, wet, sundays, now, will, become, wet, wednesday, jobs, called, in, at, work, for, coffee, and, ended, up, with, a, call, for, the, afternoon, very, interesting, job, too, went, to, sedate, two, horses, for, the, dentist, it, was, absolutely, fascinating, son, has, another, 2nd, cousin, this, week, the, family, is, really, sprouting, had, a, tough, calving, thursday, night, torsion, of, the, uterus, i, can, do, these, now, i, used, to, absolutely, dread, them, unfortunately, she’d, been, on, too, long, and, the, calf, was, born, dead, heifer, fine, though, i, hate, going, to, that, farm, the, farmer, is, a, right, old, perverted, slime, ball, and, i’ll, dance, on, his, grave, started, with, a, real, head, cold, h, crap, went, to, see, mam, and, stewart, son, on, top, form, it’s, brilliant, seeing, him, interact, with, my, family, he, has, really, strengthened, the, bonds, in, our, family, son, fevered, at, night, starting, with, the, same, cold, i, presume, no, sleep, for, me, partner, never, seems, to, hear, all, the, commotion, still, felt, ill, on, saturday, sister, and, sister, s, birthday, at, least, i, remembered, to, post, their, cards, in, plenty, of, time, this, year, went, shopping, for, wallpaper, on, sunday, to, cheer, me, up, partner, went, off, pest, controlling, with, his, dogs, they, went, up, through, tubby’s, wood, they, found, nothing, but, at, least, the, dogs, had, a, good, ratch, he, says, he, only, now, feels, ok, about, walking, across, fields, i, didn’t, even, realise, that, he, still, felt, that, he, couldn’t, go, round, all, his, old, haunts, we, must, talk, more, diary, 19, tb, test, cancelled, on, monday, and, thursday, this, week, because, the, farmer, can’t, cope, with, the, extra, hassle, he’s, a, bit, of, a, woman, at, the, best, of, times, but, he’s, been, even, worse, since, fmd, w, was, very, understanding, he, seems, to, have, the, farmers, measure, b, didn’t, seem, that, understanding, very, upset, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, had, to, put, down, my, own, terrier, after, he, took, off, and, chased, the, neighbour’s, sheep, for, the, second, time, i, can’t, understand, why, he, went, so, strange, he, used, to, be, fine, with, stock, i, had, a, miserable, afternoon, waiting, for, partner, to, come, home, to, bury, him, i’d, had, such, a, good, morning, with, the, horses, too, dizzy, and, horse, were, both, going, well, i, felt, better, once, partner, came, home, he, said, i’d, done, the, right, thing, but, i, felt, as, though, i’d, failed, somehow, because, it, should, never, have, happened, in, the, first, place, maybe, it’s, because, he, had, nothing, to, do, last, year, no, interesting, walks, no, rabbiting, etc, i, don’t, know, diary, 20, brilliant, time, tues, wed, went, to, my, sisters, with, mam, and, son, it’s, much, easier, to, keep, in, touch, with, my, family, post, fmd, i, hardly, went, anywhere, last, year, we, went, shopping, to, edinburgh, mam’s, looking, for, an, outfit, for, my, brother’s, wedding, unsuccessfully, so, far, i’ve, just, realised, that, i, haven’t, seen, brother, and, wife, on, their, farm, since, fmd, broke, out, we, must, go, soon, it’s, a, brilliant, place, for, recharging, batteries, and, they, are, the, best, bit, of, my, step, family, we, didn’t, go, to, the, cumberland, show, with, the, horses, i, haven’t, got, back, into, the, swing, of, things, yet, i, think, it, was, a, bit, of, a, washout, without, the, farming, side, and, it, rained, i, offered, to, be, the, biosecurity, officer, for, our, local, show, so, that, they, could, get, things, up, and, running, properly, they, had, money, and, trophies, donated, last, year, for, new, cattle, classes, and, there, would, be, real, interest, in, fat, cattle, classes, and, young, handler, classes, now, defra, the, bastards, managed, to, put, the, committee, off, diary, 21, sprayed, weeds, in, field, only, depressing, day, this, week, it’s, never, going, to, recover, properly, the, landlord, arrived, when, we’d, just, finished, the, first, half, and, said, he’d, decided, to, reseed, it, in, august, after, much, discussion, i, persuaded, him, it, would, be, a, waste, of, time, and, money, to, put, horses, back, on, a, newly, seeded, field, over, winter, now, i’m, worried, about, what, happens, in, spring, will, we, be, terminated, or, just, moved, to, another, field, i, wish, i’d, moved, the, horses, at, the, usual, time, 1st, april, then, we, wouldn’t, have, been, caught, up, among, ips, and, dcs, something, will, sort, out, it, always, does, dairy, 22, excellent, week, off, to, malvern, with, friends, for, the, national, arabian, horse, show, son, went, off, to, grannies, for, the, holiday, i, had, a, marvellous, time, for, three, days, watching, the, most, beautiful, horses, and, came, back, absolutely, shattered, diary, 23, few, probs, at, work, with, new, assistant, she’s, a, bit, whiney, she’s, always, bending, the, ear, of, the, nearest, receptionist, and, they, are, sick, b, has, offered, her, a, 12, month, contract, but, whether, or, not, she’ll, accept, it, is, another, matter, from, what, i, can, gather, she’s, going, to, end, up, with, better, working, conditions, than, me, w’s, not, too, happy, about, it, all, but, neither, of, them, are, willing, to, grasp, the, nettle, they’ve, both, backed, off, since, last, year, they, can’t, wait, to, get, off, home, and, i, can’t, step, in, since, they’ve, changed, their, minds, about, my, partnership, and, i’m, only, part, time, good, weekend, lowther, on, saturday, didn’t, see, many, of, the, usual, faces, the, only, thing, that, spoiled, it, was, the, mud, we, brought, more, than, our, fair, share, home, with, son, and, the, pushchair, no, biosecurity, pressure, washer, anywhere, diary, 24, the, assistant, on, holiday, for, 2, weeks, things, seem, more, like, old, times, the, cages, aren’t, full, of, animals, on, drips, i’m, working, extra, days, and, enjoying, it, it’s, tiring, but, good, highlight, of, the, week, on, thursday, brough, show, there, weren’t, many, farmers, there, but, loads, of, horses, and, ponies, instead, of, sheep, much, talk, of, defra, regulations, none, complimentary, it, just, wasn’t, the, same, without, the, sheep, it, felt, flat, i, wonder, what, the, gimmer, lamb, sales, will, be, like, diary, 25, knackered, don’t, think, i, could, cope, with, full, time, work, any, more, new, vet, still, on, holiday, felt, guilty, about, son, being, farmed, out, all, week, i, managed, to, work, myself, up, about, our, charity, horse, show, on, saturday, i, tried, to, hand, over, the, organisation, to, three, other, folk, and, still, ended, up, sorting, out, all, the, insurance, and, rosettes, and, they, changed, the, date, so, i, had, less, time, to, organise, and, it, wasn’t, advertised, it, was, the, worst, show, we’ve, ever, had, it, takes, as, much, time, to, organise, it, for, the, few, as, it, does, for, the, many, i, felt, so, disappointed, i, thought, we, would, have, a, real, good, turnout, this, time, after, having, to, cancel, last, year, oh, well, there’s, always, next, year, i’ll, need, to, make, sure, they, don’t, change, the, date, again, and, at, least, i, might, be, able, to, take, the, horses, next, time, decided, to, cheer, myself, up, by, taking, other, horse, over, to, school, her, round, the, jumps, on, the, sunday, but, i, couldn’t, catch, her, she, must, have, known, so, that, just, put, the, tin, hat, on, the, weekend, diary, 26, two, trotting, meetings, this, week, i, landed, both, of, them, and, both, nights, on, call, another, bank, holiday, with, no, time, off, and, i, had, to, take, son, to, both, because, partner, was, grouse, beating, both, meetings, were, quite, relaxed, but, there, was, one, nasty, crash, at, appleby, had, a, really, nice, day, out, at, chatsworth, game, fair, with, helen, and, neil, it’s, the, first, time, we’ve, managed, to, visit, them, and, it, took, hours, to, get, there, we, were, invited, last, year, but, the, advert, said, they, didn’t, want, any, cumbrians, social, outcasts, as, if, we, didn’t, feel, like, the, armpit, of, british, agriculture, as, it, was, i, really, enjoyed, our, day, out, i, felt, as, if, we’d, had, a, weekend, away, not, just, a, day, we’ll, have, to, think, of, some, more, trips, it’s, too, easy, just, to, stay, at, home, we, always, have, plenty, to, do, dairy, 27, it’s, started, again, defra, have, found, a, new, way, to, cock, up, our, lives, they, have, now, complicated, life, with, exemptions, from, the, 20, day, standstill, including, new, stuff, about, isolation, units, the, farmers, have, all, been, notified, by, post, some, haven’t, read, it, some, have, read, it, and, don’t, understand, it, farmers, have, to, isolate, new, stock, bought, via, auctions, etc, from, any, contact, with, other, stock, by, 50, m, outside, or, they, can, go, on, standstill, but, their, neighbours, can, move, stock, from, the, next, door, field, without, a, problem, it’s, mad, i, don’t, understand, where, they, are, coming, from, well, i, do, sort, of, but, as, usual, it’s, badly, thought, out, and, we, have, to, sell, this, idea, to, the, farmers, how, will, it, be, policed, will, it, matter, would, it, stop, another, massive, outbreak, it, doesn’t, take, much, to, wind, everyone, up, again, it’s, not, helped, at, work, by, b, defending, the, defra, line, and, w, dissing, it, what, will, the, clients, think, diary, 28, crap, week, puncture, on, thursday, during, lunch, hour, struggled, to, get, locking, nuts, off, felt, feckless, god, i, have, so, little, patience, these, days, and, i, missed, beva, congress, couldn’t, sort, out, childminding, etc, and, the, best, days, were, friday, and, saturday, there, was, no, way, i, could, go, i, was, really, disappointed, nothing, to, do, with, fmd, though, i, don’t, feel, as, if, i, get, much, encouragement, from, work, they, are, ok, about, paying, for, cpd, courses, but, they, don’t, seem, to, make, it, easy, to, swap, weekends, etc, they’re, not, bothered, themselves, so, i, suppose, they, don’t, understand, all, the, different, things, you, get, from, cpd, diary, 29, worked, extra, so, new, vet, could, go, to, sheep, meeting, at, malvern, pissed, off, it, is, not, easy, to, do, this, job, with, a, husband, and, a, family, to, consider, and, i, suppose, the, timing, stinks, since, i, missed, my, equine, course, last, week, the, week, improved, considerably, by, thursday, we, went, to, guilford, for, an, arab, horse, convention, nothing, to, do, with, work, but, very, enjoyable, i’ve, been, waiting, more, than, 10, years, for, this, i, hope, i, live, long, enough, to, go, to, the, next, one, we, talked, to, some, men, on, the, train, unheard, of, in, surrey, apparently, about, cumbria, farming, fmd, and, foxhunting, once, we, reassured, them, that, newcastle, was, not, in, cumbria, we, had, an, interesting, crack, i, hardly, ever, meet, anyone, that, is, not, connected, with, farming, and, the, countryside, they, really, have, no, idea, what, it’s, like, i, don’t, know, anything, about, it, either, which, is, what, their, job, is, i, end, up, feeling, so, frustrated, that, agriculture, and, therefore, large, animal, practice, is, in, such, a, precarious, position, it, seems, to, me, to, be, such, a, basic, fundamental, part, of, life, compared, to, computers, and, yet, the, emphasis, is, not, on, basic, stuff, anymore, surely, we, need, things, like, agriculture, and, basic, manufacturing, to, underpin, everything, else, no, wonder, nobody, was, bothered, about, us, suffering, anxiety, fear, confusion, last, year, when, we, were, in, the, throes, of, fmd, and, the, penrith, spur, was, certainly, under, reported, they, wouldn’t, have, had, so, many, marches, in, london, pre, fmd, diary, 30, quite, week, still, tired, from, last, week, loads, of, photos, to, develop, again, it, was, great, saw, horses, i’d, never, seen, before, and, got, 2, great, videos, of, long, dead, horses, that, appear, in, my, horses, pedigrees, son, was, a, bit, off, with, me, when, i, picked, him, up, monday, a, bit, unsettled, with, being, away, i, suppose, oh, this, job, just, interferes, with, a, social, life, missed, another, wedding, this, week, on, call, again, diary, 31, took, a, horse, to, penrith, vets, for, an, x, ray, they, have, a, super, new, hospital, just, out, of, town, seems, really, well, set, up, they, have, a, really, good, attitude, to, work, and, clients, i, think, we, need, a, shake, up, at, work, maybe, new, vet, s, way, of, working, isn’t, too, bad, neil, said, they, were, million, in, the, red, at, the, height, of, fmd, they, must, have, been, so, worried, none, of, us, knew, what, we’d, be, left, with, we’ve, definitely, got, a, lot, of, routine, work, because, we’ve, lost, such, a, lot, of, dairy, farms, it’s, never, going, to, be, the, same, again, and, i’m, not, good, at, accepting, change, diary, 32, sad, week, one, of, our, farmer’s, sons, was, killed, in, an, rta, on, the, a66, he, had, only, been, married, two, years, and, was, a, real, canny, lad, it, shocked, everyone, and, has, certainly, made, me, take, stock, they, have, restocked, with, fancy, cattle, from, down, south, and, these, cattle, may, have, contacted, cattle, with, a, variant, virus, from, the, usa, so, they, were, doing, a, whole, herd, test, you, could, blame, this, on, fmd, if, they, hadn’t, lost, their, cattle, they, wouldn’t, have, restocked, and, they, wouldn’t, be, testing, the, cattle, or, it, wouldn’t, have, happened, if, they’d, stopped, for, an, extra, cup, of, tea, a, client, brought, me, a, copy, of, the, cumbria, enquiry, that, didn’t, half, stir, up, some, old, feelings, all, the, things, i, was, so, angry, about, last, year, were, summed, up, in, one, phrase, i, read, slack, organisation, the, poor, woman, who, brought, the, report, has, spent, over, 1000, treating, her, dog, after, it, suffered, chemical, burns, from, fmd, disinfectant, on, a, road, map, it, now, reacts, to, phenolic, compounds, including, sheep, dip, and, fresh, tar, they’re, moving, to, scotland, i, hope, the, dog, has, a, better, life, there, diary, 33, funny, old, week, everyone, still, shell, shocked, about, farmer’s, son, s, death, no, explanation, as, to, how, the, lorry, crashed, into, his, tractor, yet, you, begin, to, wonder, how, any, family, can, cope, with, that, sort, of, trauma, b, and, w, went, to, the, huge, funeral, they, said, his, parents, were, amazing, they, do, have, a, strong, faith, but, i, can’t, see, that, being, enough, i, went, to, the, graveyard, the, next, day, to, see, the, flowers, and, ended, up, in, tears, it, was, the, messages, on, the, cards, especially, the, ones, from, his, parents, and, brother, and, sister, i, felt, so, sad, for, them, all, went, for, a, wee, walk, with, tracey, she, knows, him, quite, well, and, we, talked, a, lot, trying, to, make, sense, of, it, all, then, blow, me, on, the, thursday, his, father, and, brother, were, part, of, a, syndicate, at, the, tup, sales, that, paid, over, 100,000, for, a, swaledale, tup, i, couldn’t, believe, they’d, even, gone, to, the, auction, never, mind, doing, something, like, that, it, doesn’t, seem, right, to, me, the, others, could, have, bought, the, tup, for, them, i, think, that’s, awfully, strange, i, had, another, upset, farmer’s, wife, this, week, i, went, to, see, a, downer, cow, she’d, got, stuck, in, the, cubicles, we, had, to, carry, her, to, a, straw, box, using, the, loader, tractor, and, the, wife, got, really, upset, seeing, the, cow, swinging, on, the, front, of, the, tractor, i, felt, a, bit, guilty, really, because, i, didn’t, think, i, just, didn’t, connect, the, fmd, slaughter, with, an, injured, cow, but, then, i, didn’t, see, all, that, they, saw, when, their, herd, went, down, diary, 34, great, week, my, brother’s, wedding, son, was, a, page, boy, in, a, kilt, and, he, was, quite, well, behaved, apart, from, the, second, lot, of, photos, he, was, well, tired, and, hungry, by, then, i, love, being, home, with, my, brother, and, sisters, and, their, partners, and, it’s, great, the, way, they, all, have, so, much, time, for, son, we, always, laugh, so, much, at, the, clan, gatherings, i’m, sure, it’s, very, therapeutic, the, amount, of, alcohol, consumed, by, all, at, the, wedding, is, definitely, not, therapeutic, we, set, off, on, our, holiday, maybe, our, first, family, holiday, the, day, after, in, the, rain, but, it, turned, out, ok, later, such, a, lot, of, good, stuff, in, one, week, diary, 35, had, a, lovely, day, it, all, worked, out, well, we, may, try, four, or, five, days, away, next, year, now, that, we’ve, got, started, again, it’s, years, since, we, had, a, proper, holiday, i, usually, miss, all, the, animals, when, i’m, away, but, not, this, time, i, think, son, has, more, than, filled, that, gap, had, bad, news, on, wednesday, partner, s, van, failed, its, mot, no, transport, no, money, for, a, new, motor, mild, panic, slight, depression, then, the, gradual, return, to, my, it, will, all, work, out, somehow, attitude, and, it, did, partner, s, mum, and, dad, helped, us, out, and, i, had, to, relinquish, my, little, buy, a, new, trailer, fund, had, a, disaster, on, sunday, morning, caesarean, on, an, uncooperative, cow, she, got, up, halfway, through, the, op, and, pushed, her, rumen, out, onto, the, very, dirty, floor, and, she, started, to, haemorrhage, she, died, four, hours, later, they, ended, up, with, an, exceptional, bull, calf, but, a, dead, pedigree, belgian, blue, cow, i, hate, when, things, die, on, restocked, farms, i, think, they, were, quite, philosophical, about, it, but, i, went, over, and, over, the, whole, thing, in, my, head, b, just, said, if, they’re, going, to, die, it’s, best, they, die, soon, less, time, to, worry, and, everyone, gets, over, it, quicker, too, i, think, he, may, be, right, he’s, definitely, easier, to, talk, to, these, days, he’s, like, a, different, person, now, that, jan’s, left, diary, 36, busy, week, testing, a, restocked, herd, monday, thursday, which, had, travelled, all, of, 5, miles, to, their, new, home, a, bit, of, a, waste, of, time, but, it, was, a, nice, day, to, be, out, really, good, turnout, at, the, village, bonfire, it’s, a, new, tradition, started, in, 2001, and, it, was, the, first, village, get, together, after, fmd, at, the, end, of, the, week, i, headed, south, to, cheshire, and, the, salisbury, plain, with, my, friend, ann, and, her, horse, to, compete, in, the, marathon, what, an, awful, journey, we, had, the, rain, poured, the, traffic, crawled, i’m, glad, i, don’t, have, to, use, the, m6, on, a, daily, basis, i, really, enjoyed, my, weekend, away, but, we, had, to, pull, the, horse, out, at, the, half, way, point, she, was, so, hyped, that, we, couldn’t, get, her, heart, rate, down, so, she, wasn’t, allowed, to, continue, i, felt, really, disappointed, i, was, sure, that, she, had, a, good, chance, well, she, would, have, if, they, had, a, vet, check, halfway, through, diary, 37, a, bit, of, an, anticlimax, this, week, after, all, the, build, up, to, the, marathon, it, would, have, been, so, different, if, she’d, completed, the, course, we, had, a, better, journey, north, except, for, a, puncture, not, handy, when, you, have, a, horse, trailer, on, i, drove, most, of, the, way, back, to, ann’s, saw, all, her, horses, and, then, drove, home, another, 2, hours, oh, i, was, so, pleased, to, get, home, it, was, a, good, experience, though, i, don’t, think, either, of, us, would, trail, a, horse, all, the, way, to, salisbury, plain, for, a, two, hour, race, again, there, were, fmd, cases, near, ann, in, cheshire, that, didn’t, seem, to, catch, hold, like, they, did, in, cumbria, maybe, its, because, there, are, bigger, farms, and, more, arable, land, i, went, to, see, her, in, july, 2001, and, she, pointed, out, various, fields, that, had, been, cleared, of, stock, half, of, them, didn’t, even, have, gates, on, there, was, no, disinfectant, or, precautions, visible, and, it, was, really, starting, to, wipe, out, our, practice, at, home, it, was, unbelievable, we, were, sitting, in, cumbria, thinking, that, agriculture, was, doomed, and, everything, in, cheshire, was, carrying, on, as, normal, it, was, a, rude, awakening, for, me, diary, 38, more, tb, testing, all, day, job, testing, stock, that, wouldn’t, normally, be, tested, but, they’re, restocked, they, have, come, from, cheshire, though, so, that, does, increase, the, risk, had, a, shocking, migraine, all, day, wednesday, went, to, bed, as, soon, as, i’d, dropped, son, off, at, biggins, and, didn’t, wake, up, until, 5pm, 2, hours, after, i, should, have, collected, him, and, i, still, felt, awful, it, was, terrible, driving, in, the, dark, and, i, had, to, stop, three, times, on, the, way, home, i, went, back, to, bed, until, 9pm, and, then, was, fine, i, haven’t, had, a, migraine, for, ages, i, was, back, on, top, form, the, next, day, though, we, did, the, tb, readings, on, 172, cattle, before, lunch, cooking, with, gas, diary, 39, fed, up, with, all, this, testing, and, we, may, be, doing, this, for, the, next, 4, 5, months, sick, of, new, vet, moaning, at, work, i, don’t, know, what, it, would, take, to, make, her, happy, i, think, this, week, has, nearly, all, been, a, waste, of, time, i, haven’t, made, best, use, of, my, free, time, and, i, haven’t, been, on, top, of, my, job, at, work, diary, 40, i, was, dreading, this, week, because, there, were, so, many, things, to, do, i, think, i, avoid, adding, extra, to, my, schedule, but, this, week, i, had, 3, days, away, and, a, night, out, to, cope, with, i, really, don’t, like, the, thought, of, shopping, but, managed, to, do, some, christmas, present, locating, on, friday, spent, wednesday, with, b, which, was, better, than, i, expected, on, a, national, scrapie, plan, training, day, which, was, worse, than, i, expected, bloody, defra, they, don’t, have, to, do, or, say, much, to, raise, my, hackles, here, we, are, selecting, for, a, resistant, genotype, and, they, are, spending, all, their, time, injecting, bse, into, sheep’s, brains, to, challenge, them, how, would, that, ever, happen, naturally, nearly, missed, my, night, out, because, of, work, it, was, 10, pm, before, i, got, there, but, at, least, i, didn’t, miss, the, dancing, it, turned, into, a, really, good, night, nearly, everyone, from, work, was, there, and, j, the, ex, receptionist, we, always, have, a, good, laugh, ended, up, working, most, of, the, morning, don’t, know, if, w, was, hung, over, or, just, idle, but, he’ll, have, to, pay, me, for, the, hours, i, don’t, work, extra, out, of, the, goodness, of, my, heart, now, i, have, all, my, own, overheads, to, fund, new, vet, s, the, star, for, avoiding, extra, or, dirty, work, then, it, usually, falls, to, me, she, says, she, wants, more, large, animal, work, and, then, does, her, best, to, avoid, it, diary, 41, tired, this, week, son, came, back, from, mavis’s, full, of, cold, improved, a, bit, and, then, woke, up, screaming, on, tuesday, night, it, was, a, very, long, night, and, partner, wasn’t, even, here, t, enjoy, share, it, as, he’d, left, to, fly, to, tampa, at, 5am, that, morning, god, i, don’t, fancy, being, a, single, mum, he, soon, started, to, improve, after, 24hrs, on, antibiotics, ear, and, chest, infection, i’ve, never, seen, him, in, such, pain, of, course, he, was, nearly, better, by, the, time, partner, got, back, i, really, struggled, on, my, own, and, had, to, take, a, day, off, on, thursday, but, still, had, to, go, and, do, a, second, tb, test, otherwise, i, would, have, had, to, start, all, over, again, we, didn’t, have, time, to, test, them, twice, and, it’s, a, restocked, herd, so, we, had, to, do, them, all, it’s, really, hard, trying, to, do, the, best, for, everyone, diary, 42, pretty, good, week, until, the, weekend, had, a, good, night, out, for, tracey’s, birthday, and, i, was, really, chuffed, she, invited, son, too, he, was, well, behaved, too, nut, unfortunately, now, thinks, he, can, go, to, the, pub, so, we, have, to, go, out, to, meetings, to, avoid, a, tantrum, i, don’t, really, think, i, have, suffered, many, after, effects, from, fmd, except, a, lower, anger, threshold, and, a, loss, of, faith, in, the, powers, that, be, i’m, much, more, worried, about, some, of, our, client’s, mental, health, i, know, there, are, several, who, have, suffered, severe, depression, and, they, are, not, all, farmers, that, were, culled, out, the, sleepless, nights, were, back, with, a, vengeance, son, started, with, chickenpox, at, the, weekend, and, nobody, had, any, sleep, diary, 43, absolutely, shattered, somebody, else’s, chickenpox, is, nearly, as, bad, as, your, own, i, don’t, think, i, have, had, a, full, nights, sleep, for, over, a, fortnight, i, still, had, a, lovely, time, at, christmas, though, i, was, sure, that, partner, and, son, would, be, pleased, with, their, presents, son, suddenly, brightened, dup, on, christmas, eve, on, the, way, to, mam’s, and, never, broke, stride, after, that, he, was, son, top, form, i, was, so, tired, that, i, fell, asleep, on, saturday, evening, and, missed, the, village, hall, christmas, party, the, highlight, of, the, village, social, calendar, diary, 44, the, threat, of, tb, rears, its, ugly, head, maybe, tb, is, the, new, fmd, went, to, do, a, private, tb, test, for, a, farmer, who, has, restocked, and, passed, his, restocking, checks, unfortunately, he, bought, 3, heifers, in, november, and, the, original, farm, has, since, gone, down, with, tb, he, isolated, the, heifers, as, soon, as, he, heard, and, waited, for, defra, they, didn’t, come, so, we, did, i, hoped, for, the, best, and, expected, the, worst, one, of, the, heifers, reacted, i, didn’t, know, what, to, do, or, say, the, farmer’s, wife, was, really, upset, she, wished, they, hadn’t, gone, back, into, farming, b, the, boss, has, phoned, defra, that, morning, regarding, these, heifers, only, to, be, told, that, youngstock, don’t, pose, much, of, a, risk, they, don’t, seem, to, have, much, idea, at, all, and, don’t, have, a, clue, about, getting, on, with, the, job, they’ve, had, three, weeks, to, track, down, the, calves, out, of, the, cows, that, were, reactors, they, seem, to, let, us, down, just, when, we, need, them, most, oh, they, make, me, boil, and, we, are, going, to, have, to, cope, with, the, aftermath, again, diary, 45, felt, a, bit, flat, and, tired, this, week, the, test, i, had, this, week, was, hard, work, trying, to, catch, cows, in, cubicles, is, not, fun, we, were, all, covered, in, muck, at, the, end, of, it, and, the, second, day, was, worse, because, he, had, about, 14, to, rectal, after, the, test, wednesday, my, day, of, respite, was, taken, up, looking, after, tracey, in, bed, with, cold, she’s, really, down, still, and, i, can’t, seem, to, do, anything, to, make, her, feel, better, i, know, she’ll, come, out, of, it, eventually, but, it’s, hard, not, being, able, to, help, i, just, didn’t, feel, as, if, i, had, any, time, to, myself, this, week, and, i, really, missed, out, if, i, start, working, wednesdays, i’m, going, to, miss, it, every, week, i’ll, have, to, have, another, plan, it’s, a, bit, better, at, the, weekend, but, i, think, we, all, need, some, better, weather, and, i, miss, doing, stuff, with, the, horses, diary, 46, oh, i’m, mad, again, with, defra, i, had, to, go, back, to, the, herd, with, the, reactor, and, test, every, single, bovine, on, the, place, except, the, two, remaining, heifers, from, the, infected, herd, i, don’t, understand, why, they, can’t, just, take, out, those, heifers, too, the, poor, farmer, and, his, wife, will, be, on, tender, hooks, until, the, end, of, march, at, the, earliest, if, they, hadn’t, asked, for, a, private, test, goodness, knows, when, defra, would, have, got, there, while, i, was, testing, defra, phoned, the, farmers, wife, to, confirm, that, the, slaughtered, heifer, had, visible, lesions, so, that, puts, paid, to, the, theory, that, youngstock, weren’t, a, danger, hope, this, news, makes, them, get, a, finger, out, had, a, lovely, day, with, mam, and, son, on, tuesday, we, sat, and, talked, for, over, an, hour, in, the, car, park, everything, tested, clear, at, the, check, test, so, far, so, good, bad, day, on, thursday, the, behaviour, course, i, was, enrolled, on, has, been, cancelled, no, explanation, just, a, cheque, returned, to, the, practice, with, a, wee, note, i, was, so, disappointed, even, though, it, was, going, to, be, a, lot, of, extra, work, over, the, next, 10, months, and, extra, hassle, and, extra, childminding, i, think, i, could, have, coped, then, at, lunchtime, i, bent, my, car, door, after, stopping, to, help, somebody, stuck, on, an, icy, patch, i, haven’t, got, all, the, bits, sorted, that, were, knackered, by, fmd, disinfecting, yet, and, there’s, more, repairs, and, i, have, to, pay, for, it, myself, now, that, i, don’t, have, a, practice, car, i, was, well, fed, up, dairy, 47, busy, week, tb, testing, again, started, working, odd, wednesdays, this, week, so, spent, all, day, wednesday, up, the, back, end, of, suckler, cows, very, dangerous, taking, bloods, for, brucellosis, and, then, blood, sampling, swaledales, for, scrapie, testing, we, have, so, many, tests, still, to, do, but, not, many, dreadfully, out, of, date, and, i, think, we’ve, done, quite, a, lot, of, the, restocking, tests, but, its, all, quite, mind, numbing, stuff, not, much, clinical, acumen, required, for, getting, blood, out, of, cows, just, quick, reactions, to, dodge, shit, and, flying, feet, very, late, finished, monday, by, the, time, i, had, all, my, paperwork, done, a, a, college, friend, landed, tuesday, en, route, to, leeds, for, a, herd, health, meeting, 6, hours, driving, for, a, meeting, we, talked, a, bit, about, fmd, she, worked, as, a, tvi, towards, the, end, of, the, outbreak, they, have, a, lot, more, trouble, with, tb, up, in, aberdeenshire, once, it, gets, into, a, herd, they, struggle, to, get, rid, of, it, again, i, hope, it, doesn’t, get, to, be, a, huge, problem, round, here, collected, a, fair, few, bruises, on, thursday, pregnant, heifers, to, dehorn, they, should, have, been, done, in, 2001, but, of, course, the, routine, work, was, put, off, i, don’t, know, what, the, excuse, was, leaving, them, al, through, 2002, but, they, were, massive, anyway, it, saved, me, going, to, the, gym, on, wednesday, night, diary, 48, i, have, just, handed, in, the, latest, batch, of, diaries, and, started, a, new, session, i, have, been, thinking, that, f, m, doesn’t, really, affect, me, much, anymore, our, work, has, changed, because, of, the, restocking, that, has, taken, place, since, with, all, the, new, disease, problems, that, have, been, bought, in, as, additional, extras, and, the, extra, tb, testing, etc, but, mentally, i, am, not, aware, of, even, thinking, about, the, events, of, 2001, that, often, i, still, feel, upset, if, someone, tells, me, about, their, own, particular, experiences, which, are, often, heart, rending, but, probably, no, more, than, if, they, were, discussing, another, devastating, disease, problem, i, still, have, little, tolerance, for, the, workings, of, defra, even, though, they, are, providing, us, with, lots, of, bread, and, butter, work, diary, 51, i’m, sick, of, doing, caesareans, on, cows, who, encouraged, all, the, bloody, beef, farmers, to, restock, with, belgian, blues, i’m, not, sure, that, we, should, be, continuing, to, allow, animals, to, breed, that, can’t, reproduce, naturally, it, doesn’t, seem, right, that, we, should, almost, expect, a, caesarean, the, day, that, a, new, cow, is, put, in, calf, we, used, to, have, occasional, troubles, before, and, not, all, caesareans, are, on, belgian, blues, but, now, we, do, at, least, one, caesarean, every, week, b, did, two, in, one, day, and, they, are, bloody, hard, work, diary, 52, i, always, think, of, the, 23rd, feb, as, being, the, day, that, i, realised, we, might, be, in, the, shit, in, 2001, it, wouldn’t, have, passed, unnoticed, round, here, several, people, mentioned, the, date, in, the, following, week, yet, it, wasn’t, until, the, 4th, april, that, f, m, came, into, our, practice, loads, of, our, farmers, lost, a, lot, of, seep, early, on, though, because, they, were, wintering, away, on, dairy, farms, further, down, the, eden, valley, this, used, to, just, involve, the, hoggs, but, now, they, are, encouraged, to, leave, the, fells, almost, empty, and, are, paid, to, remove, even, pregnant, ewes, to, lower, ground, it, seems, ludicrous, that, on, certain, farms, the, fell, sheep, only, spend, summertime, on, the, fells, the, rest, of, the, time, they, are, in, bye, land, for, tupping, or, lambing, and, then, are, wintered, in, sheep, sheds, or, on, dairy, farms, sometimes, quite, far, away, from, home, i, did, get, quite, upset, when, i, read, the, stories, in, the, book, this, time, i, think, i, had, more, empathy, for, the, tourism, businesses, affected, they, must, have, been, so, frustrated, and, probably, ended, up, much, worse, off, that, the, affected, farmers, in, our, area, the, farmers, who, survived, are, the, ones, in, general, who, are, struggling, for, survival, now, and, their, farms, have, had, no, capital, investment, at, all, in, fact, some, of, the, survivors, are, still, very, bitter, about, the, whole, episode, its, so, sad, what, this, has, done, to, some, people, diary, 55, check, tb, test, at, campbells, went, well, finished, in, good, time, running, into, trouble, because, the, other, cows, taken, in, for, winter, are, calving, and, they, have, no, room, however, they, have, found, someone, to, take, and, slaughter, all, the, big, bullocks, they, are, going, to, be, moved, under, licence, direct, to, a, slaughter, house, so, at, least, they, will, have, some, income, the, first, this, year, everything, tested, clear, including, the, 2, heifers, brought, in, from, the, farm, that, had, the, reactor, so, they, are, feeling, a, little, bit, more, confident, diary, 56, bloody, defra, cocked, up, again, with, c’s, test, had, to, go, back, to, test, 11, baby, calves, how, cruel, had, to, go, back, to, h’s, as, well, to, test, one, inconclusive, reactor, all, of, them, were, ok, diary, 60, i, think, the, lambing, time, rush, is, settling, down, again, of, course, there, aren’t, quite, as, many, fell, sheep, about, as, usual, and, probably, won’t, be, again, if, the, payments, are, de, coupled, numbers, won’t, be, as, profitable, as, acres]
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1964, gender, f, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, week, beginning, 4th, march, 02, monday, 4th, march, we, decided, we, now, need, more, staff, a, new, vet, and, a, part, time, receptionist, this, could, take, us, back, up, to, our, previous, staffing, level, pre, fm, bar, a, vet, but, this, was, probably, going, to, be, all, the, recruitments, we, would, make, this, year, it’s, a, good, sign, as, things, begin, to, get, back, to, normal, work, is, increasing, quite, a, lot, now, most, of, our, farmers, have, restocked, although, a, lot, of, them, and, us, are, still, concerned, about, the, future, tuesday, 5th, march, a, difficult, day, today, with, licences, two, of, our, farmers, needed, sole, occupancy, authentitys, soa, and, there, were, queries, with, their, land, unless, some, of, their, fields, could, be, redefined, they, were, worried, their, stock, would, suffer, during, the, fm, these, worries, have, shown, how, much, they, care, about, their, stock, and, find, it, very, frustrating, when, they, don’t, understand, why, we, can’t, move, them, even, to, the, point, of, anger, and, tears, by, the, end, of, the, day, thankfully, they, were, resolved, with, compromise, on, both, sides, and, a, lot, of, phone, calls, wednesday, 6th, march, i, decided, to, sort, out, all, the, paperwork, and, guidelines, we, had, received, from, defra, over, the, past, twelve, months, it, was, quite, a, pile, it, was, interesting, looking, back, and, very, sad, it, makes, you, realise, just, how, deep, the, feelings, went, and, although, it, sounds, silly, it’s, surprising, how, quickly, those, feelings, can, return, over, the, smallest, things, anyway, having, done, that, it, did, feel, good, to, box, them, up, and, put, them, away, we, got, taken, out, for, lunch, with, our, ptizer, rep, and, it, was, nice, just, to, talk, about, usual, things, drug, competition, how, much, we, were, going, to, sell, thursday, 7th, march, very, busy, day, everyone, has, been, flat, out, all, day, started, at, 7am, this, morning, got, finished, sort, of, by, 7.30pm, very, tired, hope, we, get, a, new, vet, soon, we, also, had, a, suspect, bse, case, today, informed, defra, more, problems, with, soa, but, we, got, them, started, one, bit, of, good, news, i, managed, to, get, a, new, receptionist, for, 2, days, a, week, so, i, just, need, one, for, the, other, 3, friday, 8th, march, quite, a, good, day, no, major, hassles, today, and, still, getting, busier, had, a, staff, meeting, to, arrange, an, open, day, for, national, pet, week, in, may, and, sorted, out, a, few, other, bits, and, bobs, had, a, good, chat, with, the, staff, who, have, all, been, very, busy, this, week, and, decided, that, it, is, much, better, to, this, time, last, year, when, we, were, all, very, depressed, emotionally, drained, laying, off, staff, uncertain, of, the, future, at, least, now, we, are, doing, what, we, are, meant, to, do, saturday, 9th, march, went, shopping, first, thing, with, k, had, a, good, time, even, though, i’m, not, a, good, shopper, we, went, to, the, farmers, market, i, saw, heather, who, works, at, the, auction, and, she, said, it, had, been, quite, emotional, having, sales, again, and, the, hustle, and, bustle, but, they, were, all, happy, to, see, people, they, hadn’t, seen, for, sometime, met, my, mum, in, the, afternoon, in, the, snow, at, killington, lake, it, was, good, and, the, driving, was, interesting, sunday, 10th, march, mothers, day, husband, and, daughter, were, out, for, the, day, so, i, had, a, lovely, peaceful, day, doing, not, a, lot, daughter, got, me, a, funny, card, and, a, little, hedgehog, model, for, my, collection, in, the, evening, i, collected, a, vet, student, from, london, who, is, staying, with, us, for, 3, weeks, so, we, will, have, to, behave, she, seems, nice, and, settled, into, our, mad, house, easily, mr, w, called, in, to, let, us, know, his, cows, had, arrived, safely, week, beginning, 11th, march, 02, monday, 11th, march, what, a, busy, day, but, a, total, change, to, this, time, last, year, it, was, the, day, our, first, client, was, confirmed, with, f, m, i, helped, another, vet, do, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, that, was, fun, they, are, farmers, that, have, moved, farm, and, restocked, very, positive, one, of, our, new, receptionists, started, but, i, didn’t, get, much, chance, to, see, her, due, to, the, caesar, barbara, looked, after, her, well, and, she, seemed, to, enjoy, it, there, were, lots, of, calls, in, just, like, the, old, days, but, we, really, need, another, vet, the, adverts, in, on, thursday, so, fingers, crossed, tuesday, another, busy, day, and, another, caesar, the, calf, was, dead, unfortunately, the, cow, with, query, bse, was, taken, away, for, tests, which, was, sad, my, highlight, of, my, day, was, the, farm, across, from, us, turned, some, of, his, cows, out, again, i, call, it, my, kitchen, window, view, normally, i, can, see, sheep, in, the, fields, at, the, back, and, the, cows, across, the, road, the, sheep, came, back, a, couple, of, months, ago, and, the, cows, but, i, haven’t, actually, been, able, to, see, them, so, it, was, very, special, never, really, stopped, today, and, we, did, dog, training, classes, at, night, so, i, collected, daughter, from, her, yfc, meeting, and, got, fish, and, chips, and, we, all, went, to, bed, our, poor, vet, student, who, is, staying, with, us, is, exhausted, she’s, been, able, to, see, and, do, so, much, wednesday, today, was, a, little, more, controlled, and, went, more, according, to, plan, but, was, still, a, long, day, as, we, had, a, dog, in, about, 6.30pm, that, had, eaten, a, ball, and, hadn’t, passed, it, so, we, had, to, operate, to, remove, it, anyway, finished, at, 9.00pm, had, tea, and, went, to, bed, daughter, heard, she, had, got, 2, weeks, work, experience, at, norbrook, pharmaceutical, so, very, pleased, about, that, thursday, had, the, morning, off, the, last, few, days, had, been, rather, hectic, a, girl, who, had, done, work, experience, with, us, a, couple, of, years, ago, called, round, out, of, the, blue, she, was, still, keen, to, train, as, a, vet, nurse, and, wanted, to, write, to, the, practices, in, the, area, and, needed, advice, anyway, i, told, her, about, our, vacancy, here, and, well, the, long, and, the, short, is, she, starts, on, the, 2nd, april, receptionist, staff, now, sorted, just, need, a, vet, i, wish, it, was, as, easy, friday, husband, was, reading, a, tt, test, at, a, farm, and, found, a, reactor, pre, f, m, cumbria, was, tb, free, but, with, all, the, new, stock, coming, into, the, area, it, is, inevitable, that, this, will, not, be, the, case, there, have, already, been, two, other, cases, in, the, county, i, dropped, off, the, isolation, notice, to, the, farmer, and, as, they, are, he, seemed, okay, and, still, very, positive, i, have, always, admired, them, for, their, courage, and, stamina, as, he, said, they, love, farming, and, you, have, to, expect, things, like, this, managed, to, spend, the, afternoon, with, one, of, our, new, receptionists, she, is, doing, really, well, and, settling, in, time, she, will, grasp, it, all, in, no, time, saturday, ran, daughter, and, her, friend, into, town, and, sorted, out, the, garage, that, was, an, achievement, the, dog, that, swallowed, the, ball, wasn’t, eating, so, i, went, to, get, it, something, tasty, it’s, going, home, later, so, it, should, be, a, lot, happier, daughter, s, still, in, town, so, i, took, vet, student, to, see, hadrian’s, wall, she’s, from, america, so, was, very, keen, to, see, it, she, really, enjoyed, it, and, so, did, i, i, hadn’t, been, for, a, couple, of, years, just, had, a, nice, quiet, evening, in, sunday, my, sister, and, her, daughter, came, for, the, day, my, niece, is, two, and, a, half, years, so, need, i, say, more, we, were, busy, playing, all, day, week, beginning, monday, 18th, march, 02, monday, 18th, march, it's, looking, fairly, quiet, at, work, this, week, but, you, never, know, mr, w, farmer, came, in, he, was, letting, us, know, his, restocking, plans, and, was, one, of, the, farmers, querying, his, compensation, i, never, liked, that, as, they, were, compulsory, purchased, and, have, not, received, any, compensation, as, such, although, some, got, better, money, than, others, so, maybe, it, was, all, taken, into, account, anyway, he, missed, the, query, deadline, by, two, hours, so, defra, are, refusing, to, look, at, his, case, as, he, does, appear, to, have, lost, out, as, his, brother, with, the, same, breeding, of, cows, and, related, went, down, on, the, same, down, got, an, average, 300, more, per, cow, anyway, we, tried, to, look, to, the, future, and, he, was, looking, forward, to, getting, stock, back, we, had, another, tb, reactor, today, in, some, french, cattle, me, and, our, receptionist, were, chatting, and, decided, things, were, really, getting, back, to, normal, although, with, the, added, paperwork, daughter, was, very, upset, when, she, came, home, from, school, as, she, had, been, getting, bullied, by, a, girl, in, her, year, so, we, chatted, about, that, and, i, wrote, to, her, teacher, to, see, if, she, could, find, out, more, tuesday, daughter, went, to, school, fairly, happy, i, just, told, her, to, hand, her, letter, in, and, try, and, avoid, the, girl, i, was, going, milk, recording, tonight, which, i, really, enjoy, it's, great, to, be, among, the, animals, and, talk, to, the, farmers, we, only, have, one, farmer, milk, recording, fully, at, present, there, were, 12, the, farm, i, went, to, is, a, big, dairy, herd, and, is, now, looking, to, expanding, so, that, was, good, news, bad, news, is, that, means, i'll, have, to, get, up, earlier, in, the, mornings, for, the, recording, never, mind, daughter, had, got, on, okay, at, school, and, the, teacher, was, really, good, with, her, so, she's, feeling, happier, she, is, a, good, kid, and, although, hormonal, at, times, she, does, put, up, with, a, lot, during, the, fmd, we, were, unable, to, really, go, anywhere, or, do, anything, although, we, did, try, to, keep, her, routine, we, worked, longer, hours, and, were, more, stressed, but, she, never, complained, and, helped, a, lot, went, dog, training, after, milk, recording, so, it, was, a, long, day, wednesday, early, morning, start, today, 5am, to, go, milk, recording, but, i, always, get, a, lovely, breakfast, we, also, got, invited, to, a, party, at, the, farm, in, may, so, that's, something, to, look, forward, to, and, its, fancy, dress, so, that, will, be, fun, we, have, to, dress, up, as, children's, characters, we, then, attended, a, careers, convention, at, the, sands, centre, until, 7, pm, so, another, very, long, day, very, tired, we, saw, a, lot, of, children, who, were, interested, in, pursuing, veterinary, work, which, is, always, encouraging, i, enjoy, doing, the, careers, days, it's, interesting, to, see, the, next, workforce, they, seem, to, grow, up, so, fast, thursday, my, claim, to, fame, today, was, seeing, the, princess, royal, i, passed, her, at, a, junction, and, thought, i, was, seeing, things, i, bored, everyone, with, that, story, we, had, a, lovely, staff, lunch, meeting, we, all, helped, cook, and, sat, and, chatted, about, the, future, we, had, no, replies, from, the, advert, for, a, vet, so, we, decided, to, try, another, veterinary, magazine, so, fingers, crossed, in, the, afternoon, i, managed, to, get, very, well, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, which, is, a, rarity, as, i, normally, end, up, going, somewhere, or, sorting, something, out, so, i, was, very, pleased, especially, as, the, year, end, is, approaching, friday, discussed, a, few, ideas, with, our, nurse, regarding, the, small, animal, side, and, the, possibility, of, getting, some, new, equipment, i, shall, have, to, do, some, adding, up, husband, was, at, a, vet, meeting, locally, for, all, the, vets, in, the, area, on, thursday, night, and, there, were, 3, other, practices, looking, for, vets, and, had, been, doing, for, some, time, without, any, luck, at, all, this, is, worrying, as, our, case, loads, increase, again, it, puts, a, strain, on, the, vets, so, fingers, crossed, our, advert, is, in, tomorrow, in, the, afternoon, i, called, to, see, one, of, our, evening, receptionist, who, is, on, maternity, leave, at, present, it, was, good, to, see, her, and, her, new, addition, so, i, was, filling, her, in, on, the, news, and, gossip, hopefully, she, will, be, back, to, work, the, second, week, in, april, although, the, birth, was, a, caesarean, so, i, have, told, her, to, see, how, she, is, feeling, so, we, will, discuss, it, again, soon, as, this, is, her, fourth, child, but, she, copes, really, well, and, is, looking, really, healthy, saturday, it, snowed, i, went, to, meet, my, mum, at, killington, as, we, were, having, her, dog, while, she, went, on, holiday, and, nearly, got, stuck, in, the, snow, during, foot, and, mouth, daughter, had, counted, the, stock, in, the, field, between, carlisle, and, penrith, on, the, m6, anyway, i, did, it, again, today, last, year, we, counted, 2, this, year, we, counted, 12, big, difference, sunday, went, for, a, walk, around, a, local, wood, for, the, first, time, in, over, a, year, it, was, amazing, how, overgrown, it, had, become, the, paths, were, still, visible, but, in, places, only, just, met, up, with, a, friend's, daughter, to, finalise, arrangements, for, her, father's, surprise, meal, out, next, friday, for, his, 50th, birthday, week, beginning, monday, 25th, march, 02, monday, 25th, march, another, very, busy, day, today, still, no, answer, to, the, advert, for, a, new, vet, husband, spoke, to, another, vet, in, the, area, and, they, had, had, the, same, response, nothing, it, is, good, to, be, busy, again, our, new, receptionist, is, doing, well, and, learning, fast, so, that's, taking, the, pressure, off, me, and, other, receptioinist, completed, the, claim, form, for, business, link, grant, which, helped, a, lot, and, enabled, us, to, do, things, and, advertise, when, we, wouldn't, have, been, able, to, tuesday, starting, to, prepare, for, the, end, of, our, financial, year, i, always, dread, this, but, it, has, to, be, done, it, will, be, nice, to, end, another, chapter, the, practice, suffered, badly, last, year, and, it, was, very, worrying, we, lost, 3, vets, and, two, lay, staff, but, everyone, is, feeling, the, same, i, have, spoken, to, a, few, farmers, today, and, the, opinion, is, well, it, is, a, lot, better, than, this, time, last, year, it, has, been, interesting, to, see, how, the, effect, of, having, new, stock, does, throw, them, we, are, getting, called, out, a, lot, more, which, is, good, for, us, we, are, doing, a, lot, more, lambings, and, lambing, is, set, to, go, on, until, may, june, time, this, year, we, are, very, busy, testing, at, the, moment, but, it, gives, us, the, opportunity, to, see, the, new, animals, and, discuss, plans, with, the, farmers, the, relationship, which, was, built, during, the, f, m, is, now, definitely, benefiting, a, lot, have, said, how, helpful, it, was, and, feel, a, lot, closer, the, family, not, business, relationship, is, good, wednesday, i, had, a, day, off, today, which, was, good, i, managed, to, catch, up, on, a, few, things, which, i, just, hadn't, had, time, to, do, with, being, so, busy, i, got, a, lot, organised, for, the, holiday, at, the, week, end, which, we, are, all, looking, forward, to, but, we, can't, all, get, away, together, mainly, due, to, no, new, vet, and, our, financial, year, but, at, least, we, will, all, get, a, bit, of, a, break, daughter, got, her, report, today, and, has, done, very, well, we, are, so, proud, of, her, so, fingers, crossed, for, her, gcses, thursday, i, spoke, to, mrs, w, today, who, has, been, very, much, in, action, since, they, got, f, m, and, even, got, in, touch, with, politician, etc, to, help, give, farmers, that, voice, she, mentioned, the, public, inquiry, and, like, a, lot, of, people, feels, that, maybe, rather, than, having, a, finger, pointing, blaming, session, and, we, all, have, our, ideas, on, that, she, felt, that, maybe, trying, to, prevent, it, happening, again, would, be, a, better, idea, i, personally, have, begun, to, realize, recently, just, how, much, and, how, deep, the, feelings, run, i, think, i, am, more, emotional, now, than, when, we, were, in, the, thick, of, it, friday, spent, all, day, knuckling, down, to, the, end, of, year, but, got, a, lot, done, husband, daughter, and, vet, student, went, out, for, the, day, it, is, husband, s, first, real, day, off, since, october, and, it, did, him, good, we, all, went, out, in, the, evening, to, celebrate, a, friend's, birthday, it, was, really, good, saturday, holiday, again, today, husband, daughter, my, sister, and, her, daughter, have, gone, away, today, to, the, cottage, near, newton, stewart, we, have, rented, for, a, week, the, weather, is, great, so, they, should, have, a, lovely, time, this, could, be, our, only, holiday, this, year, husband, s, back, on, monday, then, i, go, on, wednesday, confusing, isn't, it, never, mind, at, least, we, will, all, get, away, for, a, few, days, sunday, end, of, year, day, stocktaking, counting, sunny, outside, boring, but, never, mind, it's, done, our, vet, student, went, home, today, she, had, really, enjoyed, herself, and, we, had, enjoyed, having, her, she, bought, us, all, some, lovely, gifts, it, will, be, nice, to, be, on, our, own, again, but, i, will, still, miss, her, week, beginning, monday, 1st, april, 02, monday, 1st, april, i, had, a, lovely, day, my, day, husband, and, daughter, still, away, played, in, the, garden, went, for, a, walk, read, some, of, my, book, lovely, husband, came, back, at, tea, time, so, we, went, out, for, a, meal, perfect, tuesday, went, to, help, another, vet, vet, tt, test, at, one, of, our, farms, he, had, restocked, and, was, very, positive, about, the, future, it, was, a, lovely, day, and, great, to, be, amongst, cows, again, wednesday, sunday, hols, great, i, didn't, realise, just, how, much, i, needed, it, the, weather, was, great, warm, sunny, very, relaxing, all, charged, up, again, week, beginning, monday, 8th, april, 02, monday, 8th, april, back, to, work, today, i, had, quite, a, lot, of, catching, up, to, do, and, couldn't, really, get, into, it, never, mind, it, will, all, still, be, there, tomorrow, hope, we, can, get, away, again, this, year, even, for, a, few, days, tuesday, queen, mum's, funeral, today, it, was, very, quiet, we, gave, the, girls, time, off, to, watch, the, funeral, it, was, a, nice, funeral, if, you, can, have, one, and, they, commented, on, the, poem, which, was, read, about, being, thankful, for, the, life, and, not, being, sorry, i, must, get, it, our, nurse, suggested, about, giving, it, to, clients, when, they, have, their, pets, put, to, sleep, nice, idea, wednesday, back, into, it, now, i, had, 2, very, difficult, soa, to, complete, farmers, are, slowly, getting, the, idea, but, find, all, the, paperwork, hard, but, it's, a, good, chance, for, them, to, call, in, for, a, chat, and, coffee, i, so, seem, to, spend, an, awful, lot, of, time, doing, that, now, but, it's, always, good, to, see, how, they, are, coping, thursday, the, large, animal, work, has, been, rapidly, increasing, and, it, has, been, putting, extra, pressure, on, all, the, staff, we, do, really, need, another, vet, but, another, advert, and, still, no, response, at, all, but, they, all, work, very, hard, and, we, do, manage, to, get, through, the, work, we, chatted, to, the, staff, and, tried, to, reassure, them, about, the, future, but, how, can, you, when, if, we, can't, get, another, vet, we, simply, can't, provide, the, service, our, clients, need, it, is, very, worrying, and, we, are, not, sure, of, the, solution, or, the, future, i, think, after, that, paragraph, i, need, a, we, can, do, it, kick, friday, our, new, receptionists, are, settling, in, well, and, i, did, some, work, with, them, today, which, was, good, they, are, both, very, enthusiastic, a, few, years, ago, a, i, taught, nvq, in, animal, care, so, one, of, our, receptionists, is, keen, to, do, this, so, i, organised, some, work, for, her, to, do, enjoyed, that, castrated, a, colt, in, the, afternoon, sad, i, know, but, i, enjoyed, that, saturday, went, shopping, with, daughter, in, the, morning, to, buy, her, some, new, clothes, we, had, a, good, time, then, started, the, sewing, for, the, yfc, field, day, we, had, to, make, shorts, and, t, shirt, for, a, sport, event, well, i, haven't, really, done, sewing, from, a, pattern, for, years, so, let's, just, say, it, was, fun, sunday, went, to, newcastle, for, the, day, via, some, fields, we, had, to, check, for, a, client's, soa, had, a, lovely, time, and, saw, the, blinking, or, winking, i'm, not, sure, which, one, it, is, it, was, nice, to, have, a, day, all, together, week, beginning, monday, 15th, april, 02, monday, 15th, april, very, busy, again, i, did, 175, miles, today, just, dropping, things, off, for, farmers, and, vets, and, trips, to, the, lab, i, also, found, a, new, supplier, of, paper, towels, which, will, save, us, a, lot, of, money, see, so, easy, pleased, it, was, very, tiring, but, i, do, like, being, out, and, about, and, i, even, managed, two, cups, of, coffee, on, farms, before, fmd, i, felt, that, the, relationship, between, vets, and, farmers, was, changing, but, our, relationship, during, fmd, did, change, for, the, better, i, feel, good, about, that, but, not, the, way, it, happened, me, and, daughter, had, a, girls, night, in, as, husband, was, away, that, was, fun, tuesday, 16th, april, husband, away, at, bcva, he, is, new, on, the, committee, and, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, there, is, only, him, and, another, vet, in, scotland, from, the, north, invited, onto, the, committee, so, they, are, putting, together, some, suggestions, to, put, to, the, government, re, fmd, poor, another, vet, was, very, busy, again, we, need, a, vet, wednesday, 17th, april, i, went, to, see, an, elderly, client, of, ours, this, morning, who, has, an, old, dog, she, is, going, into, hospital, and, won't, go, as, she, is, worried, about, the, dog, i, offered, to, have, kelly, the, dog, while, she, was, in, hospital, and, told, her, if, i, found, out, she, cancelled, it, i, would, be, cross, i, enjoy, talking, to, her, for, her, 87, years, she, is, very, fit, and, funny, at, lunchtime, we, all, attacked, the, bayer, rep, for, free, goodies, for, our, open, day, he, was, very, co, operative, and, got, away, without, a, scratch, we, didn't, have, an, open, day, last, year, so, it, should, be, fun, back, into, a, routine, thursday, 18th, april, i, bottomed, my, paperwork, this, morning, no, interference, no, phone, calls, no, soa, very, productive, me, and, husband, went, to, see, the, finical, advisor, at, the, bank, in, the, afternoon, it, was, good, but, we, can't, retire, this, year, never, mind, he, gave, us, some, good, ideas, so, fingers, crossed, we, might, just, be, able, to, retire, one, day, friday, 19th, april, very, busy, we, need, a, vet, repetitive, isn't, it, we, were, looking, back, in, the, visit, book, to, this, time, last, year, this, year, we, had, 21, calls, which, is, a, practise, record, last, year, we, had, 1, there, is, a, lot, of, general, well, this, time, last, year, in, some, ways, it, all, seems, very, unbelievable, but, in, other, ways, it, still, very, sad, and, emotional, i, think, more, emotional, now, than, when, it, was, actually, happening, when, you, see, farmer’s, eyes, filling, up, talking, about, it, i, used, to, worry, about, upsetting, them, but, i, feel, it, is, good, to, talk, and, it, also, helps, me, i, don't, know, if, that’s, right, but, it, seems, to, work, saturday, 20th, and, sunday, 21st, april, huge, sewing, for, yfc, field, day, i, also, found, out, today, that, there, is, also, baking, and, flower, arranging, oh, joy, week, beginning, monday, 22nd, april, 02, monday, 22nd, april, good, day, today, i've, been, to, see, my, new, girls, the, cows, over, the, road, from, us, it, was, the, one, we, could, see, from, the, practice, it, was, an, awful, day, they, had, lasted, until, june, anyway, it, was, good, to, see, the, new, girls, and, i, think, i, amused, the, farmer, we, had, a, great, time, i've, never, enjoyed, helping, tt, test, more, on, a, high, tuesday, 23rd, april, driving, around, today, i've, been, trying, to, listen, to, what, the, euro, inquiry, people, have, been, up, to, not, a, lot, from, what, i, hear, i, was, talking, to, an, old, farmer, in, the, afternoon, and, he, wasn't, impressed, either, and, we, agreed, that, it, was, all, very, well, having, these, inquires, but, were, they, going, to, help, i, suppose, only, time, will, tell, but, i, still, feel, that, unless, something, is, done, about, the, cause, then, the, chances, are, it, will, happen, again, and, to, what, extent, and, what, has, been, learnt, and, what, will, be, different, next, time, because, the, one, thing, that, must, be, prevented, is, the, effects, on, people, nobody, really, got, that, i, always, remember, the, samaritans, advert, nobody, seemed, to, care, probably, no, paperwork, can, you, tell, i've, had, a, particularly, bad, day, with, the, soa, and, the, good, news, is, they, want, to, keep, them, permanently, great, wednesday, 24th, april, i, went, to, see, mrs, b, again, today, and, she, had, heard, from, the, hospital, again, she, was, going, in, next, tuesday, so, i, arranged, at, collect, k, on, monday, afternoon, i'm, pleased, she's, having, her, op, i, have, also, been, in, touch, with, one, of, her, daughters, in, devon, so, hopefully, everything, should, go, well, now, good, news, we, have, heard, of, a, vet, at, defra, who, is, looking, for, a, job, husband, phoned, her, and, she, is, coming, on, saturday, afternoon, so, fingers, crossed, thursday, 25th, april, my, cows, got, the, tt, reading, this, morning, and, they, are, all, okay, we, have, heard, of, a, farm, in, welton, who, had, to, have, some, killed, as, they, had, 7, reactors, and, they, will, need, tested, there, has, been, quite, a, few, reactors, in, the, country, after, restocking, but, with, all, the, new, stock, coming, into, the, county, from, all, over, the, country, it, was, bound, to, happen, friday, 26th, april, sorted, out, the, open, day, next, saturday, got, everything, sorted, what, we, need, who's, getting, it, etc, me, and, receptionist, went, to, smuts, fancy, dress, and, decided, budget, wouldn't, go, to, costumes, so, we, got, some, face, paint, and, masks, me, and, daughter, and, her, friend, and, mum, went, to, see, westlife, ant, newcastle, it, was, great, fun, saturday, 27th, april, shopping, washing, and, sewing, i, know, how, to, show, myself, a, good, time, we, all, went, to, another, vet, s, at, night, for, a, bbq, it, was, great, fun, cold, but, fun, we, have, been, so, lucky, with, another, vet, she, is, so, nice, and, enthusiastic, we, interviewed, a, vet, today, from, defra, but, she, is, a, little, uncertain, what, she, wants, to, do, but, she, seems, nice, and, we, told, her, what, we, needed, so, fingers, crossed, sunday, 28th, april, finished, my, sewing, week, beginning, monday, 29th, april, monday, the, inquiry, begins, for, what, good, it, will, do, i, find, i, have, very, mixed, feelings, part, of, me, thinks, what's, the, point, and, another, is, expecting, something, but, quite, what, i, don't, yet, someone, to, blame, a, solution, an, ability, to, turn, back, the, clock, a, lesson, to, learn, or, an, end, the, last, i, know, won't, happen, for, a, while, and, the, repercussion, will, probably, be, felt, for, a, few, years, yet, tuesday, 30th, april, sorry, ill, in, bed, today, with, the, cold, from, hell, wednesday, 1st, may, much, better, today, and, we, heard, from, the, vet, we, interviewed, on, saturday, and, she, has, accepted, our, offer, and, can, start, on, the, 27th, may, yippee, holidays, and, easing, of, the, pressure, on, husband, and, another, vet, i, am, still, finding, the, saying, well, this, time, last, year, mrs, r, phoned, and, mentioned, the, saying, as, it, was, a, year, ago, today, that, their, cattle, were, killed, but, she, was, phoning, with, good, news, they, had, their, first, calf, born, healthy, and, well, and, she, wanted, to, tell, us, lovely, thursday, 2nd, may, its, official, soa, are, here, to, stay, oh, joy, so, we, contacted, all, our, farmers, who, had, not, yet, got, one, who, we, thought, might, need, one, so, lots, of, chatting, and, catching, up, so, quite, nice, open, day, is, on, saturday, and, there, still, seems, to, be, an, awful, lot, to, organise, but, we, have, been, busy, all, day, and, things, are, looking, better, and, slightly, more, organised, i, haven't, seen, or, heard, much, of, this, enquiry, but, when, you, do, hear, some, i, think, we, really, went, through, that, weird, friday, 3rd, may, open, day, panic, that’s, all, i've, done, today, but, it, is, all, coming, together, and, it, will, be, fine, hopefully, we, have, had, quite, a, good, response, about, people, coming, and, people, checking, when, it, is, and, what's, happening, so, fingers, crossed, must, go, and, bake, my, buns, saturday, 4th, may, open, day, it, went, really, well, we, started, at, 2, p.m, and, there, was, a, steady, stream, of, people, all, enjoying, themselves, hopefully, it, stayed, fine, the, whole, time, thankfully, i, even, got, my, face, painted, by, another, vet, our, vet, we, managed, to, raise, 96.71, for, the, pat, dogs, and, 27.35, for, national, pet, week, not, too, bad, for, 2, hours, the, staff, came, round, for, tea, later, which, was, nice, and, we, had, a, jolly, time, sunday, 5th, may, gardened, all, day, till, i, dropped, loved, it, i, grew, quite, fond, of, the, garden, last, year, as, it, was, another, little, escape, week, beginning, monday, 6th, may, monday, 6th, may, bank, holiday, we, had, a, lovely, family, day, out, which, have, been, very, rare, so, it, was, surprising, that, we, all, got, on, nearly, it, still, feels, strange, being, able, to, go, to, places, not, only, as, a, family, but, also, the, fact, that, for, so, long, we, didn't, really, go, anywhere, tuesday, 7th, may, very, busy, i, have, been, doing, my, hollering, as, receptionist, calls, it, what, i, have, actually, been, doing, is, dropping, off, drugs, and, chatting, i, call, it, customer, relations, i, still, feel, funny, going, onto, farms, i, have, been, to, the, gate, for, months, just, momentarily, i, feel, can, i, its, hard, to, explain, it, still, feels, normal, to, drop, things, in, the, bucket, or, bin, rather, than, driving, onto, the, farm, but, its, good, and, the, coffee, with, proper, milk, is, brill, wednesday, 8th, may, mr, g, has, got, some, cows, he, was, one, we, thought, wouldn't, restock, as, although, both, his, sons, are, on, the, farm, neither, are, interested, in, cows, one, has, horses, and, the, other, has, everything, else, from, turkeys, dogs, wallabies, monkeys, pheasants, etc, a, real, menagerie, daddy, g, is, 66, and, couldn't, decide, weather, to, get, more, cows, or, not, it, was, a, bit, of, dad, says, yes, sons, say, no, anyway, dad, won, to, begin, with, i, was, on, the, sons, side, but, when, he, came, in, beaming, and, laughing, and, full, of, joy, how, could, you, disagree, with, him, before, they, got, fmd, he, had, called, into, the, practise, and, was, having, a, coffee, and, was, very, upset, his, friend, had, phoned, him, that, morning, to, say, he, had, fmd, mr, g, just, broke, down, and, sobbed, it, was, one, of, my, worst, experiences, i, found, it, so, hard, not, to, join, him, but, to, be, strong, and, console, him, for, him, of, the, old, gentlemen, showed, the, depth, of, feeling, and, despair, that, was, around, i, have, a, lump, now, remembering, it, anyway, in, comparison, if, getting, a, few, cows, to, milk, can, make, such, a, big, difference, and, be, so, happy, so, what, thursday, 9th, may, went, to, a, meeting, in, preston, with, cl, a, vet, from, brampton, on, the, marsh, report, which, is, regarding, vets, the, privilege, to, dispense, drugs, anyway, firstly, we, got, lost, very, lost, and, then, on, arriving, at, the, meeting, eventually, it, was, all, doom, gloom, and, depressing, just, when, you, thought, things, were, getting, on, tract, bam, more, changes, more, paperwork, we, will, have, to, wait, and, see, just, how, it, effects, us, but, effect, us, it, will, friday, 10th, may, i, had, a, half, day, off, today, and, did, fun, things, like, washing, shopping, and, sorting, bits, and, pieces, but, i, couldn't, be, a, housewife, all, the, time, i, ended, up, leaving, the, cooking, and, washing, and, took, the, dog, out, instead, much, more, fun, saturday, 11th, may, took, daughter, out, to, the, young, farmers, field, day, it, was, brill, i, was, only, going, to, stay, an, hour, anyway, i, stayed, all, day, everyone, was, there, some, i, hadn't, seen, for, ages, i, had, only, spoke, to, them, and, some, new, faces, it, was, great, to, see, them, all, together, i, do, feel, farmers, and, their, families, are, very, special, people, they, have, a, wonderful, sense, of, fun, they, are, very, solid, they, are, very, close, mind, when, you, talk, to, them, you, find, they, are, all, related, they, are, also, very, proud, of, what, they, do, its, sad, the, public, do, not, see, them, this, way, gone, are, the, days, when, the, farmer, was, the, hero, who, worked, all, hours, to, feed, the, nation, well, it, was, a, wonderful, day, week, beginning, monday, 13th, may, monday, very, busy, milk, recorded, this, afternoon, it, was, good, fun, they, are, preparing, for, their, party, on, saturday, night, it, is, a, fancy, dress, party, me, and, husband, are, going, but, i, can't, say, what, as, yet, j, mentioned, that, a, friend, of, theirs, was, still, not, speaking, to, them, because, j, never, lost, his, cows, and, yet, j, said, he, had, tries, to, explain, how, hard, it, was, for, them, waiting, his, friend, had, accepted, the, invite, to, the, party, so, here’s, hopefully, to, friendship, it, show's, how, feelings, can, so, easily, run, away, and, be, blown, into, something, very, silly, we, are, all, on, the, same, side, after, all, i, see, a, lot, of, changes, in, a, lot, of, people, either, bitterness, resentment, jealousy, and, emotionally, drained, in, the, whole, situation, tuesday, 14th, may, early, morning, milk, recording, got, my, outfit, sorted, for, the, fancy, dress, party, on, saturday, me, and, friend, went, to, try, it, on, it, was, good, fun, wednesday, 15th, may, i, have, done, tons, of, backwards, and, forwarding, today, so, i've, been, hearing, about, the, inquiry, a, bit, today, i, have, decided, i, am, going, to, the, one, in, carlisle, out, of, interest, and, curiosity, i, still, feel, what, is, it, all, for, so, i, may, find, out, at, the, meeting, i, am, still, waiting, for, the, day, fmd, is, not, mentioned, or, i, have, some, dealing, regarding, it, thursday, 16th, may, i, spoke, to, a, young, couple, who, farm, and, they, were, enquiring, about, the, changes, in, buying, drugs, it, caught, me, off, guard, as, we, knew, it, would, happen, but, not, when, i, arranged, to, meet, with, them, and, chat, to, see, what, they, wanted, and, i, think, i, will, go, from, there, people, are, farming, in, different, ways, than, they, used, to, pre, fmd, weather, it, is, a, result, of, fmd, or, not, i, don't, know, but, there, are, going, to, be, a, lot, of, changes, heading, our, way, friday, 17th, may, accountant, day, today, what, a, joy, no, he, is, brilliant, he, has, helped, so, much, over, the, years, and, last, year, he, was, brilliant, he, did, have, one, consolation, we, wouldn't, have, to, pay, too, much, tax, this, year, anyway, spoke, to, a, rep, in, the, afternoon, we, have, had, all, the, usual, offers, that, we, get, every, year, but, this, year, they, look, good, as, if, we, buy, more, this, year, than, last, year, we, can, get, more, off, that, should, be, easy, saturday, 18th, may, party, night, i, am, cruella, deville, and, husband, is, bob, the, builder, it, was, great, seeing, people, we, hadn't, seen, for, ages, if, and, when, you, could, recognise, them, it, was, a, really, good, do, we, met, a, client, of, ours, and, she, is, very, anti, everything, re, fmd, i, feel, she, is, really, suffering, and, very, bitter, she, was, little, bo, peep, who, had, lost, her, sheep, and, didn't, know, where, to, find, them, but, mr, blair, can, she, preached, all, night, to, anyone, she, could, i, feel, sorry, for, her, as, people, were, avoiding, her, sad, sunday, 19th, may, recovered, week, beginning, monday, 20th, may, 02, monday, a, new, cattle, fertility, programme, has, now, become, available, to, vets, and, farmers, two, of, the, people, who, work, came, along, to, see, us, and, discuss, the, advantages, we, already, had, a, few, farmers, keen, in, having, the, program, installed, we, discussed, the, program, later, with, a, few, farmers, and, they, were, very, keen, recognising, that, they, are, going, to, need, a, program, like, this, that, can, help, them, keep, a, tighter, control, on, their, herds, fertility, and, health, which, would, enable, them, to, remain, in, business, as, most, of, them, are, realising, they, are, now, running, a, company, not, a, family, concern, so, it’s, quite, exciting, another, step, forward, hopefully, tuesday, 21st, may, very, busy, today, everyone, stretched, it, will, make, life, so, much, easier, when, our, new, vet, anne, starts, next, week, i, got, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, and, also, managed, to, catch, up, on, some, others, bits, that, needed, done, even, got, all, the, soa, defra, paperwork, sorted, miracle, wednesday, 22nd, may, went, to, see, two, of, our, farmers, today, to, discuss, the, interherd, cattle, health, and, fertility, computer, program, it, was, good, to, chat, a, listen, to, their, plans, hopes, and, dreams, and, their, concerns, a, lot, of, farmers, are, still, very, unsure, of, the, future, and, quite, honestly, are, keeping, their, options, open, definitely, gave, me, some, pause, for, thought, and, a, few, concerns, thursday, 23rd, may, quiet, day, today, mr, w, one, of, our, farmers, came, today, and, we, had, a, chat, he, was, also, worried, about, the, future, i, hope, some, good, positive, news, comes, soon, friday, 24th, may, friend, is, having, a, few, weeks, off, as, our, new, vet, is, starting, on, monday, she, came, to, us, 6, months, 10, years, ago, and, she, has, helped, us, out, ever, since, and, so, during, fmd, she, offered, to, help, it, was, great, to, have, her, and, she, worked, all, hours, as, there, was, only, her, and, husband, for, 5, months, so, she, is, having, some, well, deserved, time, off, and, will, come, back, part, time, when, we, need, her, i'll, miss, her, but, she, says, she's, a, lot, of, housework, to, catch, up, on, saturday, 25th, and, sunday, 26th, may, my, sister, and, niece, came, to, stay, for, the, weekend, we, had, a, nice, time, just, pottering, here, and, there, week, beginning, monday, 27h, may, monday, new, vet, started, she, was, very, nervous, but, very, keen, she, had, spent, 10, months, working, for, defra, and, was, relieved, to, be, finished, with, it, she, had, mainly, been, involved, with, re, stocking, anyway, she, managed, very, well, and, hopefully, will, settle, well, tuesday, 28th, may, we, booked, a, holiday, today, our, 1st, holiday, for, about, 2.5, years, so, we, are, all, very, excited, we, are, going, on, a, barge, near, chester, so, hopefully, the, weather, will, be, good, it, will, be, nice, to, go, away, together, especially, after, last, year, i, think, we, all, need, it, you, do, get, used, to, staying, at, home, but, with, all, the, trouble, and, upset, last, year, it, will, be, nice, can't, wait, wednesday, 29th, may, had, a, lovely, day, ended, up, doing, lots, of, visiting, around, the, farms, dropping, drugs, off, and, seeing, another, farm, regarding, the, interherd, program, i, went, to, a, large, dairy, farm, and, they, are, a, young, couple, who, are, keen, and, enthusiastic, about, their, future, so, it, was, very, positive, and, encouraging, it, does, give, you, a, lift, and, helps, put, things, back, on, track, thursday, 30th, may, we, had, a, farmers, coffee, morning, not, planned, they, appeared, at, once, so, it, was, quite, nice, its, quite, interesting, when, you, hear, them, together, there, were, two, elderly, and, one, younger, one, and, their, opinions, hopes, thoughts, and, experiences, were, very, different, friday, 31st, may, another, mega, paperwork, day, exciting, played, in, the, garden, this, afternoon, and, walked, the, dog, saturday, 1st, and, sunday, 2nd, june, had, a, weekend, off, together, we, went, visiting, and, walking, very, nice, week, beginning, 3rd, june, monday, my, sister, and, her, daughter, came, to, visit, we, went, into, carlisle, but, nothing, very, exciting, the, weather, was, very, disappointing, for, all, the, organised, events, we, went, to, a, couple, and, got, wet, daughter, and, niece, got, some, jubilee, mugs, at, one, of, them, wednesday, i, ended, up, helping, our, new, vet, and, new, nurse, to, operate, so, that, was, good, i, don’t, get, much, chance, to, help, in, the, op, room, these, days, so, i, enjoyed, it, thoroughly, new, vet, is, doing, very, well, she’s, only, been, qualified, 3, years, and, up, to, now, has, not, done, much, small, animal, so, i, was, worried, she, would, not, like, it, but, she, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, thoroughly, and, has, settled, in, really, well, it, seems, like, she, has, been, here, for, ages, thursday, we, had, our, first, work, experience, from, a, school, for, 2, years, she, was, very, interested, in, the, fmd, and, said, they, had, done, a, bit, on, it, at, school, so, i, went, through, a, few, of, the, details, and, we, discussed, the, human, side, which, she, hadn’t, really, been, discussed, at, school, to, finish, i, had, 4, soa, to, do, as, well, such, joy, friday, i, foolishly, decided, to, decorate, the, surgery, and, op, room, you, know, when, you, think, you, have, a, good, idea, then, realise, you, have, bitten, off, more, than, you, can, chew, well, by, sunday, night, i, was, dead, i, got, it, all, done, and, it, did, look, better, as, nothing, had, been, done, last, year, but, boy, was, i, tired, week, beginning, 10th, june, monday, our, new, interherd, disc, arrived, so, i, went, and, installed, it, on, two, farms, they, were, very, keen, to, get, started, so, it's, quite, exciting, they, both, have, young, sons, who, are, keen, to, farm, also, so, that, helps, sometimes, i, fee, if, we, can, just, get, through, this, and, then, other, times, i, feel, what's, the, point, but, down, the, middle, of, the, road, we, have, to, try, and, make, it, work, and, fight, to, make, it, work, tuesday, 11th, june, quite, busy, today, but, daughter, had, her, brace, taken, off, today, so, we, had, two, visits, to, the, hospital, she, looks, different, without, her, brace, now, wednesday, 12th, june, had, a, day, off, today, peaceful, thursday, 13th, june, nmr, came, to, see, us, to, discuss, how, they, can, work, with, us, the, interherd, and, the, farmer, it, was, interesting, and, competitively, priced, so, that, is, now, another, service, we, can, offer, to, our, farmers, which, can, only, help, long, term, i, went, to, see, another, farmer, to, enter, the, interherd, there, is, a, lot, of, interest, we, are, trying, to, maintain, a, close, contact, with, our, farmers, to, enable, us, to, meet, their, needs, as, things, progress, in, the, near, future, there, are, going, to, be, a, lot, of, changes, regarding, the, dispensing, of, drugs, which, could, alter, the, way, we, work, this, should, be, finalised, by, january, 2003, but, until, then, we, are, not, sure, just, how, they, will, affect, us, friday, 14th, saturday, 15th, and, sunday, 16th, june, husband, birthday, so, i, have, organised, a, surprise, weekend, away, for, him, we, had, a, wonderful, time, and, thankfully, the, weather, was, good, week, beginning, 17th, june, monday, very, quiet, almost, like, last, year, but, thankfully, not, for, the, same, reason, they, are, all, busy, silaging, normality, is, returning, but, they, are, still, finding, it, difficult, with, new, herds, not, really, knowing, their, new, cows, yet, or, how, they, react, one, farmer, said, it, was, like, a, new, car, you, have, to, drive, it, a, good, few, miles, before, you, are, at, ease, and, the, seat, is, comfy, well, that’s, one, way, of, putting, it, tuesday, i, went, to, see, mr, j, to, discuss, our, new, interherd, program, a, computer, program, that, they, can, keep, records, of, all, their, herds, records, and, we, can, do, analysis, on, them, it’s, quite, exciting, and, interesting, and, shows, farming, is, heading, to, the, computer, age, and, the, farmers, are, learning, another, new, skill, not, sure, they, are, all, comfy, with, after, i, had, shown, mr, j, the, program, and, how, to, use, it, he, was, keen, but, said, that, for, now, he, would, maybe, go, and, cut, down, a, few, thistles, weds, thursday, very, quiet, did, some, catching, up, on, paperwork, then, went, for, a, walk, and, played, outside, in, the, garden, friday, query, fmd, in, pigs, the, effect, it, had, was, very, strange, part, was, horror, worry, and, another, strange, one, was, of, expecting, it, although, you, did, get, on, with, everything, and, it’s, all, sorting, out, and, normality, is, returning, it’s, as, if, you, are, waiting, for, it, to, appear, again, i, went, back, to, watching, the, news, listening, to, the, radio, waiting, fingers, crossed, sad, day, sat, sun, quiet, weekend, husband, was, working, no, results, on, the, pigs, yet, the, bush, telegraph, is, working, again, we, have, had, quite, a, number, of, worried, farmers, on, the, phone, but, no, results, as, yet, week, beginning, 24th, june, monday, breakthrough, no, fmd, talk, at, all, today, i, suddenly, realised, in, the, evening, all, is, getting, back, to, normal, and, everyone, is, coming, to, terms, with, the, paperwork, farming, does, what, it, always, has, recently, fallen, from, one, disaster, to, another, but, they, are, very, proud, of, their, trade, but, do, now, feel, let, down, by, both, the, government, and, the, public, who, for, whatever, reason, don’t, seem, to, have, the, same, respect, for, farmers, as, they, used, to, but, this, just, may, be, due, to, how, we, all, are, and, work, these, days, tuesday, pigs, given, the, all, clear, everyone, breathes, a, sigh, of, relief, it, has, a, very, chilling, effect, but, again, shows, we, are, still, clear, of, the, disease, for, now, weds, over, the, last, few, days, we, have, had, 6, dairy, herds, with, very, strange, mastitis, husband, has, been, out, to, visit, them, with, a, vet, from, vla, penrith, but, they, as, yet, have, not, established, a, cause, samples, show, nothing, and, usual, treatments, don’t, work, so, it, is, a, case, of, new, herds, new, problems, thursday, day, off, and, friday, sat, sun, had, my, niece, we, had, a, lovely, time, but, very, exhausting, week, beginning, 1st, july, monday, we, have, invested, the, new, interherd, computer, programme, mon, thurs, this, week, i, have, been, out, and, about, visiting, farmers, loading, and, explaining, the, new, programme, some, of, which, i, haven't, been, too, far, over, a, year, it's, good, to, see, them, and, chat, fmd, of, course, is, always, still, at, the, top, of, the, list, followed, by, the, milk, price, and, all, the, regulations, it's, so, amazing, and, sorrowful, to, see, how, deep, the, emotions, run, the, stories, and, feelings, they, have, are, still, very, strong, but, all, are, very, emotional, they, are, very, resilient, but, do, still, have, these, deep, feelings, you, wonder, how, the, effects, will, come, out, but, it, will, take, time, friday, i, did, a, soa, for, the, first, time, in, ages, i, had, to, look, back, as, to, how, to, fill, it, in, they, are, going, to, review, these, shortly, so, watch, this, space, all, the, regulations, are, up, for, review, in, about, november, so, we, will, see, what, they, come, up, with, sunday, we, have, a, vet, student, alison, for, two, weeks, staying, with, us, she, came, to, northumberland, during, fmd, so, was, interested, to, know, what, had, happened, and, where, everything, was, at, the, more, you, go, through, it, the, easier, it, becomes, she, had, been, involved, in, the, culling, and, had, found, it, very, hard, she, did, it, for, 1, month, and, was, glad, to, leave, week, beginning, 8th, july, monday, tuesday, i, went, milk, recording, the, farm, i, go, to, did, not, get, fmd, and, they, were, saying, how, hard, it, had, been, for, them, and, to, some, extent, they, did, have, as, hard, a, time, as, people, with, fmd, just, in, different, ways, they, had, to, do, the, checking, for, longer, the, farmer, said, he, used, to, dread, going, into, the, sheds, in, a, morning, as, he, dreaded, what, he, might, find, also, washing, the, milk, takers, not, being, able, to, visit, friends, and, family, all, the, regulations, re, moving, stock, just, the, not, knowing, they, said, it, put, quite, a, strain, on, them, all, one, of, the, ways, they, coped, was, they, built, a, tennis, court, and, played, a, lot, of, other, games, and, as, a, family, this, brought, them, closer, weds, interherd, day, we, held, a, meeting, today, to, invite, all, the, farmers, interested, in, using, the, programme, the, people, who, wrote, the, programme, came, along, to, talk, to, the, farmers, it, was, very, good, and, the, farmers, seemed, to, enjoy, themselves, they, have, all, found, they, are, needing, this, sort, of, programme, as, with, the, new, herds, they, are, unsure, of, how, their, fertilities, are, thurs, fri, visited, mr, w, and, mr, j, re, interherd, got, a, proper, cup, of, coffee, and, proper, milk, that's, what, i, missed, about, last, year, and, one, of, the, reasons, i, go, to, visit, them, sat, sun, very, busy, small, animal, operated, and, nursed, all, week, end, i, was, shattered, poor, me, week, beginning, 15th, july, monday, visited, farmer, re, interherd, programme, they, are, very, positive, about, the, future, and, have, a, son, who, is, very, keen, i, can, see, a, difference, in, their, attitude, over, the, past, few, months, when, i, first, started, going, they, were, unsure, they, had, done, the, right, thing, and, had, seriously, debated, getting, any, stock, back, if, they, could, cope, with, the, changes, and, the, regulations, and, paperwork, but, as, he, said, he, just, loves, farming, not, that, he, doesn't, know, anything, else, he, just, loves, farming, and, now, they, have, progressed, and, working, together, within, the, family, they, have, a, good, system, and, appear, to, be, enjoying, themselves, the, farm, has, been, in, the, family, for, generations, so, financially, they, can, manage, i, hope, they, make, it, they, are, lovely, people, and, a, real, inspiration, the, report, on, fmd, and, the, recommendations, is, to, be, published, soon, but, from, what, we, have, heard, so, far, it, doesn't, say, anything, we, didn't, already, know, and, the, recommendations, are, a, little, sketchy, to, say, the, least, they, need, a, good, sensible, positive, protocol, for, any, future, outbreak, and, at, present, if, it, all, flared, up, again, tomorrow, it, would, be, the, same, mess, what, have, we, learnt, hopefully, time, will, tell, tuesday, sad, news, today, one, of, our, clients, who, didn't, get, fmd, has, decided, to, give, up, he, is, on, a, tenanted, farm, the, owners, are, not, keen, on, any, expansion, or, even, repairing, old, buildings, to, remain, competitive, he, sees, he, needs, more, cows, but, can't, build, any, more, sheds, so, in, his, words, he, has, decided, that, there, is, maybe, more, to, life, he, is, in, his, mid, forties, so, he, is, going, to, sell, up, and, try, something, new, very, brave, but, sad, i, think, this, will, not, be, the, first, of, our, clients, to, do, this, everyone, asks, about, the, future, and, at, the, moment, nothing, and, nobody, is, certain, can, the, smaller, farmers, keep, up, will, the, bigger, ones, get, bigger, what, new, regulations, and, paperwork, will, be, brought, in, only, time, will, tell, weds, husband, has, been, away, at, the, br, cattle, vet, ass, bcva, committee, meeting, he, has, been, on, the, committee, for, about, 18, months, now, he, enjoys, it, and, it, is, another, feather, in, his, cap, anyway, he, gave, a, talk, on, the, problems, post, fmd, and, on, the, problems, farmers, were, and, had, experienced, he, also, gave, a, talk, on, some, of, the, mastitis, cases, that, had, appeared, in, new, herds, we, have, had, some, very, strange, mastitis, cases, this, year, anyway, there, was, a, competition, for, the, best, talk, and, husband, won, i, was, very, proud, of, him, none, of, the, other, vets, there, had, ever, seen, anything, like, it, but, some, had, found, more, bad, mastitis, in, cows, this, year, so, whether, it’s, the, change, of, area, weather, or, housing, we, shall, see, thursday, i, had, a, visiting, day, today, good, fun, i, went, t, see, the, farmers, who, have, the, interherd, so, i, had, lots, of, coffee, with, proper, milk, yummy, it's, also, interesting, to, hear, all, the, different, stories, and, feelings, hopes, and, worries, there, are, so, many, most, are, ready, for, the, challenge, ahead, but, unfortunately, some, aren't, nobody, knows, how, or, when, things, will, change, but, over, the, next, couple, of, years, they, will, some, good, some, not, so, good, byee, i'm, off, on, my, hols, now, yippee, holiday, week, beginning, 22nd, july, week, beginning, monday, 29th, july, tuesday, back, to, work, the, staff, have, coped, really, well, no, falling, out, no, problems, it's, the, first, time, in, nearly, two, years, we, have, left, them, so, it, was, a, bit, worrying, but, they, are, a, great, bunch, we, are, very, lucky, i, feel, so, relaxed, and, it, was, great, fun, seeing, through, all, my, paperwork, not, i, had, a, bit, of, a, lazy, day, but, good, weds, poor, mr, g, is, having, a, terrible, time, with, defra, when, we, did, his, restocking, tt, test, he, had, a, reactor, so, the, cow, was, slaughtered, but, no, lesions, were, found, the, herd, had, to, be, tested, again, 60, days, later, and, another, reactor, was, found, and, slaughtered, anyway, he, was, due, another, test, in, 60, days, and, this, was, arranged, for, 9.00am, 9.00am, came, and, went, and, at, 10.00am, he, phoned, to, see, what, was, happening, they, had, forgotten, they, could, come, out, at, 1pm, no, good, the, last, two, times, they, had, tested, it, had, taken, 6, hours, to, test, the, cows, and, they, still, needed, milked, which, would, mean, a, very, late, finish, mr, graves, explained, this, and, was, told, not, to, complain, he, had, bought, the, cows, into, the, country, with, tb, and, he, would, have, to, do, it, when, they, said, they, know, how, to, get, people, on, their, side, don't, they, anyway, a, heated, discussion, had, pursued, and, eventually, sense, was, seen, the, test, was, rearranged, for, another, day, at, 9.00am, so, fingers, crossed, thursday, we, got, money, through, today, from, the, fmd, recovery, fund, it, has, been, very, useful, and, enabled, us, to, do, things, we, wouldn't, normally, be, able, to, do, we, had, our, vans, sign, written, we, got, a, laptop, computer, which, had, been, great, for, the, interherd, programme, we, got, pens, and, pads, to, give, out, husband, was, able, to, hold, meetings, with, our, farmers, pre, stocking, to, advise, them, what, to, look, for, etc, so, it, has, been, extremely, useful, it, was, nice, to, be, given, the, money, some, people, say, it, would, have, been, spent, elsewhere, but, it, helped, us, immensely, and, we, feel, we, have, spent, it, wisely, fri, had, a, paperwork, catch, up, day, today, it, has, been, quiet, recently, due, to, holidays, and, harvesting, but, thankfully, not, like, last, year, we, looked, back, again, and, today, last, year, we, had, no, calls, and, today, we, had, four, so, although, quiet, not, that, bad, week, beginning, monday, 5th, august, monday, very, quiet, tuesday, very, quiet, weds, very, quiet, thursday, daughter, got, her, first, job, fri, took, daughter, to, my, sisters, for, the, week, end, sat, quiet, week, end, sun, gardening, going, on, holiday, again, next, week, yippee, sorry, it’s, been, very, quiet, this, week, as, mentioned, before, this, is, usual, as, everyone, is, on, holiday, and, the, farmers, are, harvesting, i, have, caught, up, and, have, been, enjoying, a, few, days, just, poddling, going, out, with, daughter, shopping, food, it’s, nice, to, have, some, catch, up, time, on, thursday, daughter, got, a, job, her, first, proper, job, well, nearly, at, the, travel, inn, at, the, bottom, of, our, road, she, is, so, excited, and, already, planning, what, she, is, going, to, spend, her, hard, earned, cash, on, on, friday, i, took, daughter, to, my, sisters, in, lancashire, for, the, week, end, i, came, back, on, friday, night, and, we, decided, to, meet, up, at, husband, s, mum, and, dad’s, caravan, near, whitby, on, monday, for, a, week, so, another, holiday, i, don’t, know, you, have, one, and, then, another, anyway, it, should, be, good, fun, holiday, week, beginning, monday, 12thth, august, week, beginning, monday, 19thth, august, monday, visited, mr, a, today, to, load, interherd, onto, his, computer, he, has, definitely, decided, to, sell, up, he, is, hoping, by, early, next, year, this, has, all, been, very, sudden, but, his, son, is, no, longer, interested, and, as, mr, a, said, who, can, blame, him, with, all, the, new, regulations, and, paperwork, a, lot, are, finding, it, hard, tuesday, we, had, an, environment, agency, visit, this, morning, to, check, how, and, where, we, dispose, of, our, waste, in, practice, thankfully, we, are, doing, everything, properly, but, this, visit, took, two, and, a, half, hours, and, lots, of, form, filling, in, it, is, they, that, check, these, things, but, the, extent, in, questionable, mr, g, called, in, the, afternoon, he, is, having, problems, with, his, cows, they, keep, going, off, colour, we, have, so, many, new, herds, that, started, of, doing, well, happy, and, settling, in, fine, then, about, 3, 4, months, after, they, arrived, they, start, being, ill, have, mastitis, off, colour, not, eating, not, milking, properly, a, wide, variety, it’s, very, strange, the, vets, don’t, really, know, what’s, happening, we, have, a, few, on, regular, blood, sampling, trying, to, find, any, changes, weds, me, and, husband, went, to, the, accountant, to, see, just, how, bad, financially, we, really, had, done, last, year, and, oh, what, a, surprise, it, was, bad, in, fact, we, nearly, qualified, for, children’s, tax, relief, the, main, thing, is, we, survived, in, a, fashion, hopefully, it, will, be, better, next, year, thursday, i, visited, two, farmers, today, on, the, interherd, they, are, finding, it, brilliant, they, have, both, recently, had, farm, assurance, visits, and, interherd, had, helped, them, enormously, and, helped, them, reach, the, standards, they, both, appreciate, how, much, easier, it, is, for, them, and, less, paperwork, heaven, it’s, so, good, to, find, something, to, help, them, fri, i, have, been, phoning, our, main, drug, company’s, reps, inviting, them, to, our, open, evening, all, very, keen, i, think, they, just, enjoy, the, crack, week, beginning, monday, 26th, august, very, quiet, this, week, on, both, large, and, small, animal, it, must, be, the, last, holiday, rush, before, going, back, to, school, we, managed, to, do, some, catching, up, and, decided, a, four, day, week, would, be, nice, i, did, quite, a, bit, of, playing, on, interherd, so, that, when, i, visited, farmers, about, it, i, knew, what, they, want, to, see, and, where, to, find, it, most, of, them, are, interested, in, the, medicines, book, as, this, keeps, excellent, stock, records, from, when, the, drug, product, is, born, where, it, has, gone, and, batch, numbers, and, expiry, dates, these, are, all, the, information, they, need, to, produce, when, they, get, inspected, and, doing, it, manually, can, be, very, time, consuming, week, beginning, 2nd, september, monday, 2nd, september, irs, 9.30, garst, milk, rec, tuesday, garst, milk, rec, dog, course, weds, daughter, back, to, school, exporting, is, back, thursday, exporting, fri, change, date, of, open, evening, gb, way, now, 15, 10, 02, exporting, sat, off, sister, and, niece, sun, off, monday, every, 2, years, we, are, checked, by, our, radiographer, advisor, to, ensure, everything, is, well, and, we, are, doing, everything, right, they, check, the, x, ray, machine, our, records, and, our, monitoring, records, we, passed, in, the, afternoon, i, went, milk, recording, it, was, very, warm, and, very, flyie, but, good, fun, they, are, thinking, of, getting, a, new, parlour, twice, as, big, as, mr, g, feels, in, the, future, milk, will, have, to, be, produced, by, quantity, not, quality, but, it, is, difficult, and, expensive, decision, to, make, for, him, we, shall, see, tue, early, morning, milk, recording, this, morning, but, i, got, a, lovely, breakfast, with, proper, milk, i, got, to, check, the, large, animal, when, i, got, back, we, also, started, our, new, puppy, training, course, in, the, evening, that, went, very, well, it, is, a, more, 1, to, 1, basis, our, nurse, runs, it, i, go, along, and, help, with, moral, support, it, was, good, fun, but, i, had, a, very, long, day, and, went, to, bed, when, i, got, back, weds, daughter, went, back, to, school, today, i’ll, miss, her, following, me, round, helping, out, and, her, mum, can, you, take, me, we, may, have, some, exporting, of, sheep, on, friday, there, is, a, pedigree, texel, sheep, sale, at, h, h, borderway, it, is, the, first, exporting, we, have, done, in, about, 20, months, as, you, can, guess, the, paper, work, has, tripled, there, has, been, numerous, phone, calls, to, ad, from, defra, trying, to, make, sense, of, it, but, i, must, say, people, up, here, are, not, good, at, clarifying, what, they, have, written, now, there’s, a, surprise, thursday, i, have, spent, the, whole, day, either, reading, new, expert, regulations, or, running, backwards, and, forwards, for, new, paperwork, what, we, have, to, complete, and, what, they, should, bring, well, it, could, be, fun, friday, well, full, really, isn’t, the, word, i, would, use, we, needed, more, paperwork, they, needed, more, paperwork, it, took, most, of, the, day, and, we, only, had, 3, sheep, to, send, draining, the, one, good, thing, was, seeing, everyone, at, the, auction, some, new, faces, and, some, have, gone, week, beginning, 9th, september, monday, t's, 7th, birthday, we, have, another, vet, student, studying, at, the, moment, for, 2, weeks, we, have, had, five, this, year, so, far, and, another, before, christmas, but, she, won't, stay, in, the, house, as, she, is, from, carlisle, it, is, nice, to, have, them, and, it, makes, us, behave, but, i, won't, have, as, many, next, year, they, have, all, been, interested, in, the, fmd, and, some, had, a, chance, to, help, out, which, was, an, eye, opener, for, them, i, spoke, to, student, about, it, all, how, it, affected, everyone, what, happened, and, what, didn't, now, talking, about, almost, a, year, from, the, last, case, i, don't, find, it, as, hard, and, i, think, i, can, hide, how, emotional, it, was, but, at, the, time, i, wasn't, i, was, more, angry, i, feel, now, fmd, or, the, aftermath, has, sadly, become, everyday, life, i, don't, rush, for, news, on, it, or, yearn, information, i, think, because, directly, or, indirectly, we, live, with, it, everyday, it, all, has, really, become, part, of, our, lives, it, is, very, difficult, to, put, into, words, or, explain, i, also, went, to, visit, one, of, my, interherd, farmers, in, lancaster, they, are, very, pleased, with, it, and, are, coping, well, mrs, m, was, crushed, by, the, pet, cow, a, month, ago, and, was, very, lucky, she, had, two, broken, legs, cuts, and, bruises, needless, to, say, the, cow, has, gone, to, greener, pastures, they, are, very, resilient, and, are, planning, for, the, future, and, it, is, nice, to, be, a, part, of, their, planning, i, also, get, proper, milky, coffee, see, so, easy, pleased, milk, recorded, tonight, at, mr, g's, so, early, morning, tomorrow, i'm, still, trying, to, persuade, them, into, interherd, so, finger, crossed, tuesday, early, morning, milk, recording, failed, on, the, interherd, due, to, a, cow, breaking, a, leg, i, have, never, actually, experienced, it, happening, before, i, generally, hear, farmers, needing, a, slaughter, cert, or, a, cow, put, down, to, see, it, and, the, family's, reaction, i, was, humbled, i, think, is, the, word, it, was, an, accident, that, can, happen, but, the, look, on, their, faces, was, such, deep, sorrow, the, father, even, places, his, head, in, his, hands, at, breakfast, we, all, talked, about, it, she, was, only, a, heifer, getting, ready, to, be, served, for, the, let, time, she, was, a, difficult, birth, they, had, all, helped, well, bred, and, she, was, jet, black, with, a, huge, white, spot, on, her, side, so, no, prizes, for, guessing, the, name, but, as, the, farmer, said, you, can't, look, after, them, feed, them, care, for, them, day, in, day, out, without, caring, about, them, or, why, would, you, do, it, in, the, afternoon, i, attended, a, course, on, management, employment, law, customer, service, at, barnard, castle, it, went, on, till, 9, pm, with, dinner, after, so, i, decided, to, stay, over, very, spoilt, good, course, excellent, food, lovely, hotel, wednesday, came, back, from, my, course, leisurely, and, stopped, at, penrith, for, a, bit, of, shopping, very, pleasant, i'm, not, a, good, shopper, but, it, was, nice, i, had, to, get, back, for, 11, am, as, we, were, having, a, new, credit, card, machine, fitted, he, duly, arrived, well, what, an, obnoxious, man, he, was, moaning, because, we, had, a, switchboard, he, had, to, dial, 9, this, was, wrong, that, was, wrong, and, then, was, he, not, going, to, get, offered, a, coffee, to, which, he, was, told, not, without, the, special, word, he, was, a, bit, aghast, and, said, please, i, swear, if, i, had, not, just, come, from, a, course, explaining, customer, service, i, would, have, murdered, him, god, bless, courses, and, of, course, credit, card, machine, men, in, the, afternoon, i, was, visited, by, the, rspca, advertising, company, did, we, want, an, advert, in, their, leaflet, anyway, it, was, 640, for, quarter, of, a, page, for, 2, years, so, i, said, we, couldn't, afford, it, it, suddenly, dropped, to, 410, i, was, a, little, suspect, so, i, got, receptionist, to, quietly, check, if, the, company, were, connected, to, the, rspca, anyway, while, i, was, waiting, i, said, it, was, still, a, little, bit, more, than, we, could, afford, what, with, fmd, see, it, is, useful, and, true, he, then, said, he, could, do, it, for, 210, by, which, time, she, had, confirmed, they, were, with, the, rspca, so, i, said, yes, thank, you, bargain, or, rip, off, thursday, i, tried, to, get, my, head, round, isolation, units, and, tried, to, explain, to, a, farmer, about, them, i, think, we, got, there, eventually, when, husband, got, back, i, got, him, to, explain, in, simple, english, and, it, all, made, a, lot, more, sense, they, will, be, handy, for, people, selling, and, buying, stock, but, have, as, always, the, guidelines, must, have, been, written, by, someone, who, has, never, seen, a, farm, or, fields, friday, caught, up, on, paperwork, and, trolleyed, about, busy, doing, not, a, lot, i, think, the, term, is, anyway, it, was, good, week, beginning, 16th, september, this, week, has, been, appraisal, week, for, the, staff, we, didn't, do, any, last, year, so, i, thought, we, had, better, get, back, into, the, swing, of, things, i, quite, enjoy, the, appraisals, it's, a, great, opportunity, to, have, a, real, good, sort, out, get, new, ideas, and, try, and, recognise, any, potential, problems, we, started, doing, appraisals, at, bout, 4, years, ago, and, to, start, off, with, everyone, was, petrified, and, worried, but, it, was, nice, to, see, them, actually, excited, and, enjoyed, it, it, is, quite, time, consuming, but, very, worthwhile, so, not, much, out, and, about, this, week, week, beginning, 23rd, september, monday, another, suspect, case, the, main, difference, about, this, was, as, with, other, ones, i, felt, cold, sick, scared, this, one, was, better, i, felt, it, was, not, going, to, be, positive, whether, it's, a, case, of, there, have, been, a, few, now, not, positive, and, this, is, just, another, one, or, confident, that, it, no, way, could, be, positive, i, definitely, wasn't, as, worried, i, don't, know, if, that, is, being, blasé, can't, spell, sorry, but, definitely, different, tuesday, just, nicely, busy, today, just, enough, to, keep, everyone, busy, husband, and, other, vet, are, away, this, week, so, that, just, leaves, new, vet, and, other, vet, so, it, was, a, little, worrying, if, it, got, busy, it, was, the, last, of, our, dog, training, courses, tonight, they, all, passed, their, tests, well, and, were, very, pleased, with, the, progress, they, had, made, it, was, the, first, 4, week, course, we, had, run, and, feedback, was, very, positive, our, head, nurse, had, put, in, an, awful, lot, of, work, fir, it, so, i, was, very, pleased, for, her, as, well, the, next, one, is, planned, for, november, weds, experts, are, going, to, start, again, at, h, h, tomorrow, and, friday, it, will, be, the, first, ones, we, have, done, for, about, 18, months, surprisingly, the, paperwork, for, our, side, has, not, changed, much, but, the, irish, paperwork, is, horrendous, anyway, after, several, phone, calls, to, derfa, and, dard, and, various, farmers, who, are, wishing, to, sell, at, the, sale, i, think, we, have, it, sorted, we, will, see, tomorrow, thursday, and, friday, i've, put, these, into, one, as, that, is, how, it, felt, after, being, so, confident, that, we, had, everything, in, place, to, be, able, to, export, the, sheep, first, thing, thursday, morning, dard, like, irish, defra, changed, the, regulations, and, paperwork, such, joy, as, you, can, imagine, this, sent, everyone, in, a, state, of, frenzy, and, another, buzby, full, of, phone, calls, we, didn't, have, the, paperwork, sorted, when, people, had, bought, sheep, and, were, wanting, to, leave, now, some, tempers, are, reaching, fever, pitch, well, we, did, manage, to, export, them, away, on, thursday, night, 3, hours, late, so, they, had, to, book, different, ferries, all, done, and, dusted, by, friday, we, were, busy, congratulating, ourselves, on, achieving, the, impossible, and, how, we, all, had, worked, hard, to, accomplish, it, and, now, had, several, more, names, on, our, christmas, card, list, yes, you, guessed, we, had, a, phone, call, from, well, let, me, say, one, not, happy, chappy, after, having, no, sleep, catching, a, late, ferry, waiting, for, the, paperwork, to, arrive, at, larne, port, all, the, sheep, were, impounded, dard, had, added, one, more, form, to, their, list, of, requirements, and, had, forgotten, to, send, them, through, or, mention, them, hours, of, phone, calls, and, faxing, later, i, am, very, pleased, to, say, that, the, sheep, were, released, and, free, to, go, week, beginning, 7th, october, monday, 7th, october, i, made, some, trial, arrangements, for, our, open, evening, next, tuesday, all’s, ready, now, they, are, a, good, night, out, and, we, all, enjoy, it, we, haven’t, had, one, for, a, few, years, so, it, should, be, good, tuesday, for, a, while, now, we’ve, been, wondering, if, the, practice, should, invest, in, a, house, for, an, assistant, we, have, had, a, response, to, the, advert, for, our, new, vet, so, we, thought, we, would, go, house, hunting, anyway, it, wasn’t, as, much, fun, as, i, first, thought, to, start, with, obviously, they, are, quite, a, price, and, it, really, isn’t, that, easy, so, we, looked, at, one, cardboard, box, for, 70,000, and, apparently, it, went, for, 82k, frightening, well, we, can, keep, on, looking, we, have, a, vet, coming, for, an, interview, on, saturday, so, fingers, crossed, i’m, off, tomorrow, and, away, at, bvna, congress, over, the, weekend, so, i’m, looking, forward, to, that, week, beginning, 14th, october, monday, 14th, october, we, had, a, really, good, time, at, the, bvna, british, veterinary, nurse, assistant, congress, we, did, loads, of, lectures, a, learned, a, few, new, things, got, loads, of, freebies, from, the, trade, stands, and, ordered, a, new, vaporiser, for, the, anaesthetic, machine, which, uses, less, isoflo, oxygen, we, also, had, a, good, halloween, ball, stayed, up, too, late, we, got, back, on, sunday, evening, after, 3, days, of, congress, and, i, was, just, settling, down, and, filling, in, husband, and, daughter, on, what, we, had, done, when, another, vet, came, in, wanting, a, hand, with, a, caesarean, on, a, dog, ah, well, nothing, like, getting, back, into, it, today, anyway, feeling, very, tired, we, had, to, start, getting, ready, for, open, evening, tomorrow, night, for, the, farmers, so, there, was, a, lot, of, sorting, out, and, tidying, up, to, do, as, we, open, the, house, up, as, well, we, haven’t, had, one, for, a, couple, of, years, so, it, was, quite, exciting, i, really, enjoy, them, it’s, great, to, have, the, farmers, round, it’s, mainly, a, nosh, and, natter, night, but, this, year, some, of, the, drug, companies, paid, for, it, they, have, their, stands, in, various, parts, of, the, house, and, surgery, and, normally, everyone, has, a, good, time, tuesday, open, evening, day, very, busy, tidying, up, and, moving, things, around, everyone, helped, it’s, good, the, staff, are, so, excited, about, it, as, well, they, have, all, mucked, in, and, as, usual, did, us, proud, the, evening, itself, was, brilliant, it, was, so, nice, to, see, them, all, enjoying, themselves, and, there, is, nothing, farmers, like, better, than, a, good, natter, food, and, beer, quite, a, few, said, they, had, missed, the, open, evening, last, year, due, to, fmd, as, far, as, pr, goes, definitely, worth, it, wednesday, just, clearing, up, and, sorting, out, all, the, staff, said, they, had, had, good, feedback, so, well, done, to, everyone, thursday, back, to, it, now, got, new, interherd, update, so, i, spent, quite, a, lot, of, the, day, seeing, what, new, buttons, it, had, it’s, very, clever, interherd, is, sold, by, nmr, now, and, they, are, helping, us, sell, it, to, the, farmers, whose, life, and, paperwork, hope, to, make, easier, the, man, in, charge, at, nmr, is, coming, to, see, us, next, week, to, explain, how, the, milk, recording, side, all, ties, in, between, nmr, and, interherd, friday, today, was, one, of, those, when, you, rush, round, all, day, but, you, feel, unsure, of, what, you, have, actually, done, very, busy, on, both, large, and, small, side, it’s, very, tiring, but, i, do, prefer, it, when, we’re, busy, week, beginning, 21st, october, monday, 21st, october, monday, to, wednesday, off, thursday, had, a, meeting, with, id, from, nmr, re, interherd, they, are, going, to, give, us, cheap, milk, recording, prices, to, help, promote, nmr, and, interherd, they, have, also, released, a, version, of, interherd, for, farmers, and, we, were, given, the, first, one, in, the, country, to, trial, and, see, what, they, thought, it, was, very, encouraging, as, nmr, in, the, past, years, have, gained, themselves, a, slightly, unpopular, feel, especially, in, cumbria, but, they, now, seem, to, see, this, and, are, trying, very, hard, and, are, committed, to, improving, it, they, did, a, survey, and, now, with, area, herd, size, etc, the, majority, of, dairy, herds, are, in, cumbria, even, post, fmd, so, fingers, crossed, friday, a, good, day, today, husband, was, away, at, a, bcva, council, meeting, br, cattle, vets, ass, and, normally, it, goes, mad, don’t, know, why, anyway, it, didn’t, today, everyone, was, busy, but, not, madly, the, large, animal, side, is, very, up, and, down, at, present, but, it, is, now, tt, and, blood, testing, season, there, are, quite, a, lot, of, restocked, herds, to, do, as, they, are, having, to, be, done, every, year, as, opposed, to, 4, yearly, we, also, have, to, test, everything, it, is, very, time, consuming, and, if, they, have, a, tt, test, then, it, is, a, two, day, job, so, for, both, the, farmer, and, us, it, is, two, days, of, the, week, when, you, can’t, do, anything, else, week, beginning, 28th, october, monday, 28th, october, we, have, been, asked, by, newton, rigg, college, if, we, would, be, interested, in, teaching, the, animal, care, courses, at, the, college, so, me, and, vicky, went, along, it, was, quite, interesting, and, we, thought, if, we, could, do, it, together, it, would, work, so, we, said, we, would, think, about, it, and, let, them, know, went, milk, recording, in, the, afternoon, i, do, enjoy, playing, and, the, crack, tuesday, milk, recorded, again, and, discussed, interherd, with, them, so, we, are, going, to, use, them, as, the, pilot, for, the, nmr, interherd, job, so, that, will, be, interesting, regarding, the, newton, rigg, offer, we, won’t, be, able, to, do, it, as, our, part, time, nurse, is, leaving, us, she, has, been, offered, a, place, at, dalston, vets, she, will, be, able, to, train, as, a, vet, nurse, there, as, we, don’t, do, that, in, our, practice, so, that, will, leave, us, short, staffed, it, is, sad, but, everything, happens, for, a, reason, so, we, are, now, vet, and, nurse, hunting, so, more, advertising, and, interviewing, weds, we, are, sponsoring, a, class, at, the, northern, expo, holstein, friesian, shows, we, have, a, stand, and, a, good, natter, i, took, some, photos, of, a, few, cows, and, some, freebies, it, was, a, good, night, barbara, came, with, me, and, she, presented, the, prize, for, our, class, the, standard, of, cattle, was, amazing, and, it, was, a, really, good, show, thursday, out, of, the, photos, i, took, for, the, northern, expo, i, decided, to, make, a, photo, album, so, i, went, round, a, few, other, farms, photographing, it, was, good, fun, and, nice, to, see, that, we, do, have, some, very, good, stock, friday, got, a, phone, call, today, from, my, sister, she, has, sold, her, house, in, lancaster, and, is, moving, up, near, us, so, that’s, very, exciting, otherwise, a, quiet, day, today, week, beginning, 4th, november, monday, 4th, november, i, went, to, show, mr, j, the, new, interherd, farmers, version, he, was, very, interested, and, thought, it, would, save, a, lot, of, paperwork, and, time, they, all, say, that, the, paperwork, since, fmd, has, increased, immensely, along, with, the, regulations, tuesday, we, have, decided, to, have, a, tv, in, the, waiting, room, to, advertise, products, services, staff, etc, the, man, from, channel, 6, came, and, took, information, so, it, should, arrive, next, week, so, it, will, be, interesting, to, see, how, it, works, weds, we, went, to, the, bank, today, to, see, the, financial, advisor, as, this, is, a, free, service, and, very, useful, we, have, decided, to, buy, a, house, for, my, sister, to, live, in, when, she, moves, up, and, it, will, be, an, investment, as, well, a, bit, of, security, just, in, case, as, last, year, we, discovered, just, how, quick, things, can, change, we, went, for, just, over, 3, months, with, not, a, lot, of, money, coming, in, and, still, wages, to, pay, so, we, are, now, house, hunting, week, beginning, 11th, november, monday, 11th, november, one, of, our, vets, has, recently, started, her, dbr, dip, in, bovine, reproduction, course, at, liverpool, as, part, of, her, studies, she, is, looking, at, the, cows, milk, quality, pre, and, post, calving, to, see, if, any, effects, are, relevant, to, their, overall, performance, and, milk, production, and, health, so, we, collect, milk, samples, from, certain, cows, twice, a, week, over, the, period, of, lactation, and, she, is, going, to, test, them, so, watch, this, space, we, have, been, very, lucky, with, another, vet, her, enthusiasm, is, boundless, and, she, has, become, a, very, important, member, of, our, team, i, have, persuaded, mr, j, of, b, farm, to, milk, record, with, us, so, that's, more, early, morning, jaunts, the, interherd, and, nmr, trial, is, nearly, ready, so, hopefully, by, middle, of, december, everything, should, be, set, up, and, running, hopefully, tuesday, two, farmers, are, milk, reading, today, so, i, had, a, nice, little, trolly, about, i, treated, myself, to, some, of, mr, r's, ice, cream, very, nice, well, you, have, to, support, them, their, new, shop, on, the, farm, is, doing, very, well, i, loaded, my, first, farmer, version, interherd, onto, mr, w's, computer, he, is, very, impressed, and, very, keen, and, thankfully, it, all, worked, well, wednesday, we, have, computer, bugs, not, good, so, i, have, spent, most, of, the, day, on, the, phone, talking, to, the, debugging, man, thursday, still, got, bugs, we've, had, to, run, a, bug, fixer, disc, through, all, seven, computers, it, takes, ages, pee'd, off, fed, up, going, back, to, pen, and, paper, friday, i, must, have, sounded, fed, up, as, the, lovely, little, man, came, to, fix, all, the, computers, he, had, to, use, 3, different, discs, due, to, all, the, different, bugs, had, a, meeting, to, discuss, the, nmr, milk, recording, and, we, have, quite, a, lot, of, farmers, interested, mainly, because, we, have, got, a, good, price, for, nmr, so, fingers, crossed, the, bugs, are, fixed, yipeee, week, beginning, 18th, november, monday, 18th, november, due, to, our, junior, nurse, leaving, i, have, been, interviewing, all, week, we, have, had, a, lot, of, enquiries, i, decided, to, invite, any, possibles, to, come, and, play, for, the, morning, to, see, what, they, thought, and, how, they, got, on, with, the, staff, there, is, one, that, has, potential, and, sounds, very, nice, but, she, can't, make, it, until, next, monday, there, was, one, that, wrote, a, really, good, letter, but, when, she, came, in, well, she, was, sweet, but, not, really, suitable, on, friday, nurse, left, we, had, a, little, party, i, hope, she, copes, okay, she, bought, me, a, lovely, cow, ornament, to, say, thank, you, it, was, lovely, week, beginning, 25th, november, monday, 25th, november, ellen, came, for, her, interview, very, good, she, is, keen, had, experience, happy, with, the, hours, so, she, is, coming, back, tomorrow, afternoon, for, a, play, we, all, went, out, for, our, vet, who, is, leaving, on, friday, to, be, a, chalet, maid, in, a, french, ski, resort, till, april, it, will, be, very, sad, to, see, her, leave, unfortunately, still, no, joy, on, the, new, vet, front, but, we, are, going, to, leave, it, till, the, new, year, and, try, then, other, vet, is, going, to, cover, but, unfortunately, it, means, husband, s, on, duty, more, it's, a, bit, reminiscent, of, fmd, but, we'll, manage, tuesday, wednesday, feeling, very, sorry, for, myself, got, a, bad, cold, i, got, sent, to, my, room, because, everyone, was, fed, up, of, me, sneezing, all, over, them, honestly, i, was, only, shanning, thursday, much, better, today, i, sorted, a, whole, load, of, interherd, data, out, and, had, a, good, play, with, it, heard, about, nestle's, cancelling, contracts, next, year, from, one, of, our, farmers, he, felt, a, little, unsure, quite, how, it, would, affect, them, and, that, they, were, being, dealt, another, kick, in, the, teeth, it's, quite, amazing, how, many, i, have, heard, questioning, why, they, went, back, into, farming, we, are, feeling, the, effects, we, didn't, seem, to, be, called, out, as, often, or, they, don't, want, the, cows, treated, as, its, extra, expense, at, the, end, of, fmd, they, said, over, the, next, couple, of, years, there, would, be, changes, in, the, way, farmers, and, how, many, farmers, worked, it's, frightening, to, see, it, actually, starting, to, happen, and, seeing, the, effects, on, our, business, everyone, agrees, the, whole, industry, has, changed, for, the, worst, and, is, not, the, same, and, there, is, no, pleasure, now, after, all, that, a, total, contrast, me, and, daughter, went, christmas, shopping, and, had, a, lovely, time, we, met, husband, after, surgery, and, went, for, a, pizza, lovely, night, friday, everyone's, talking, about, nestle's, now, and, quite, a, few, are, angry, some, aren't, surprised, and, others, just, seem, to, resign, themselves, to, it, we, had, a, lunch, party, for, leaving, vet, today, it, was, good, we, gave, her, pressies, although, she, has, only, been, here, a, few, months, she, will, be, greatly, missed, by, everyone, you, never, know, she, may, come, back, one, day, good, news, i, offered, ellen, the, nurse's, job, and, she's, accepted, i, think, she, will, do, very, well, week, beginning, 2nd, december, monday, 2nd, december, spent, all, morning, trolling, around, the, countryside, collecting, another, vet, s, milk, samples, for, her, dbr, it, was, a, lovely, morning, chatted, to, a, few, farmers, a, lot, were, still, talking, about, nestles, tuesday, had, a, meeting, to, clarify, the, start, of, the, nmr, milk, recording, gave, her, all, the, information, she, needed, to, set, up, the, herds, it's, great, to, be, able, to, offer, the, farmers, a, good, cheaper, deal, staff, xmas, party, it, was, good, everyone, seemed, to, have, a, good, time, wednesday, day, off, shopping, what, joy, thursday, had, an, interherd, disaster, today, i, couldn't, get, it, load, what, normally, takes, 15, minutes, instead, took, 2, and, a, half, hours, anyway, we, succeeded, eventually, they, have, just, bought, some, in, calf, heifers, so, he, was, keen, to, keep, up, to, date, records, and, information, we, only, have, one, more, farmer, to, restock, now, and, then, that's, everyone, it, will, probably, work, out, at, about, 15, drop, in, work, etc, while, waiting, for, interherd, to, load, they, were, telling, me, that, they, had, been, approached, asking, them, if, they, wanted, to, appeal, against, the, amount, of, money, they, had, received, for, the, cattle, they, said, they, wouldn't, as, they, felt, they, had, already, been, overpaid, not, all, farmers, are, money, grabbers, apparently, friday, daughter, starts, her, mock, exams, now, for, the, next, fortnight, i, have, been, waiting, for, the, moods, to, start, but, as, yet, all, is, quiet, long, may, it, last, she, is, very, calm, about, it, and, has, actually, been, revising, quite, hard, she, has, the, ability, all, she, has, to, do, is, concentrate, work, wise, i've, done, not, a, lot, it's, one, of, the, perks, i've, wandered, around, just, playing, doing, nice, jobs, quite, a, change, week, beginning, 9th, december, monday, 9th, december, daughter, s, 16th, birthday, scary, even, worse, she, can, learn, to, drive, next, year, never, mind, enjoy, the, safety, we, went, out, for, lunch, and, did, some, shopping, it, was, good, i, don’t, normally, like, shopping, but, we, both, enjoyed, it, came, back, to, mayhem, a, client, small, animal, had, been, in, complaining, about, his, bill, and, had, caused, a, stink, anyway, i, phoned, him, and, once, we, had, gone, through, everything, he, seemed, happy, hopefully, he, had, either, misunderstood, or, hadn’t, had, things, explained, to, him, although, difficult, it, is, better, people, say, something, rather, than, stewing, over, it, and, making, it, into, something, it’s, not, the, small, animal, does, seem, to, have, more, problems, that, way, than, the, large, animal, i, suppose, the, large, animal, is, also, a, business, but, it, doesn’t, stop, them, caring, i, don’t, think, they, could, do, what, they, do, and, work, the, hours, they, work, if, they, didn’t, care, sometimes, they, get, a, hard, press, but, i, think, it’s, the, few, that, get, the, publicity, unfortunately, i, like, it, when, farmers, phone, to, say, they, have, a, sick, cow, and, we, ask, what, it’s, doing, and, quite, often, the, reply, is, she’s, just, not, herself, need, you, say, anymore, tuesday, i’m, going, out, to, play, milk, recording, with, a, new, person, via, interherd, he, is, one, of, our, clients, he, is, quite, a, character, old, fashioned, and, yet, in, his, thirties, it, was, good, he, is, very, passionate, about, farming, and, its, survival, he, has, a, lot, of, ideas, he, wants, to, try, with, different, cows, he, has, just, bought, some, jerseys, hence, he, wants, to, record, to, see, if, there, are, benefits, we, milked, 60, cows, in, 2, hours, at, my, other, farm, we, milk, 190, in, that, time, it’s, good, to, see, both, ways, weds, early, morning, milk, recording, good, fun, a, lot, more, relaxed, than, my, other, farm, went, to, hairdressers, straight, after, smelling, of, cows, with, pooh, in, my, hair, it’s, a, good, job, i, know, her, well, and, she, didn’t, complain, too, much, the, rest, of, the, day, was, quite, pleasant, a, bit, of, paperwork, and, a, skive, sorry, can’t, spell, to, the, lab, thursday, friday, wow, i, think, we, had, our, christmas, rush, they, should, all, be, shopping, it, has, been, very, busy, i, do, prefer, it, although, a, sit, down, now, and, then, would, be, good, me, and, nurse, had, a, good, time, on, friday, afternoon, i, helped, her, bath, and, groom, a, dog, it, was, so, naughty, nicely, we, were, both, sweating, buckets, and, soaked, to, the, skin, by, the, end, but, we, had, a, good, laugh, week, beginning, 16th, december, monday, 16th, december, with, daughter, s, mock, exams, she, has, needed, runs, to, and, from, school, at, various, times, so, mum’s, taxi, has, been, on, overtime, she, has, been, very, calm, about, it, so, we, shall, see, thursday, was, eventful, as, i, now, have, an, expectant, nurse, and, vet, watch, where, you, sit, unfortunately, there, is, a, worry, for, both, of, them, our, nurse, evening, receptionist, is, worried, she, may, be, losing, hers, and, has, had, several, tests, and, is, obviously, worried, she, is, going, in, for, a, scan, on, tuesday, so, fingers, crossed, vet, is, also, pregnant, they, have, been, trying, for, a, while, but, has, something, with, a, long, name, wrong, with, her, which, causes, her, to, miscarriage, so, she, is, pleased, worried, excited, scared, and, only, 4, weeks, so, no, lambing, for, her, she, is, quite, happy, continuing, with, all, other, work, for, now, i, hope, everything, is, ok, with, them, both, it, can, be, difficult, working, with, animals, and, being, pregnant, but, as, long, as, they, are, careful, they, should, be, ok, week, beginning, 23rd, december, monday, 23rd, december, so, much, for, getting, quiet, for, christmas, we, have, had, our, busiest, time, for, a, few, years, which, is, good, we, are, going, to, try, advertising, in, the, new, year, for, a, new, vet, especially, now, another, vet, is, expecting, it, will, all, depend, how, she, does, we, may, even, need, two, as, even, when, another, vet, is, on, duty, now, husband, has, to, be, on, standby, in, case, of, any, lambings, we, have, a, couple, of, farmers, starting, anytime, milk, recording, tonight, as, well, but, we, now, do, it, with, nmr, well, not, literally, so, i, only, need, record, once, so, not, too, bad, and, worked, in, will, with, xmas, round, the, corner, and, no, mince, pies, made, yet, tuesday, nurse, phoned, they, are, being, positive, at, the, moment, her, hormone, levels, have, increased, and, she, has, not, bled, anymore, it, doesn’t, stop, them, worrying, though, surgery, was, busy, but, we, did, finish, by, 1.30pm, my, sister, and, niece, arrived, all, set, off, we, go, christmas, was, ace, very, relaxing, good, fun, loads, of, pressies, didn’t, have, time, to, eat, too, busy, playing, and, it, was, so, warm, friday, back, to, work, a, very, busy, day, lots, of, calls, and, surgery, appointments, even, some, operations, receptionist, was, off, so, i, was, in, charge, i, enjoyed, it, finding, out, what, everyone, got, for, christmas, week, beginning, 30th, december, monday, 30th, december, busy, day, only, me, and, receptionist, in, thought, it, would, be, quiet, wrong, never, mind, we, coped, tuesday, nurse, has, lost, her, baby, or, is, losing, it, they, can’t, see, anything, on, the, scan, just, an, empty, sac, so, she, is, going, for, a, don’t, know, what, they, call, it, but, you, can, take, some, tablets, that, clear, everything, away, she, is, obviously, so, upset, what, do, you, say, she’s, going, to, drop, her, other, two, off, while, she, goes, in, it, is, so, sad, thursday, 2nd, january, everybody’s, back, again, full, crew, no, one, knowing, what, day, it, is, i, could, get, used, to, the, split, weeks, but, at, the, moment, i, need, it, stuck, to, my, head, quite, busy, as, well, which, is, good, trying, to, arrange, tt, test, but, farmers, are, never, keen, on, them, you, have, to, threaten, them, with, defra, coming, to, do, it, that, works, friday, went, blood, sampling, sheep, for, scrapie, with, husband, all, day, it, was, a, beautiful, day, very, cold, but, we, had, fun, only, we, were, stood, next, to, a, stream, women, torture, cold, air, and, running, water, i, had, to, nip, back, to, the, van, for, various, things, by, the, time, we, finished, i, was, frozen, the, test, was, part, of, the, national, scrapie, plan, which, is, to, sample, sheep, for, scrapie, so, if, or, when, they, find, bse, in, sheep, these, ones, will, or, should, be, okay, as, there, is, a, plan, to, slaughter, the, national, herd, if, bse, is, found, but, as, the, farmer, said, they, have, already, had, human, g, pigs, for, years, as, the, indians, eat, sheep, brains, and, before, the, removal, of, bone, meal, and, very, dubious, scabby, sheep, and, they, have, not, had, a, problem, so, we, will, wait, and, see, week, beginning, 6th, january, 2003, mon, 6th, january, 2003, our, new, nurse, started, today, she, managed, very, well, and, didn’t, seem, too, confused, when, she, went, home, she, has, worked, in, kennels, before, she, is, very, keen, fingers, crossed, another, vet, is, doing, her, dbr, and, for, part, of, this, she, has, to, do, a, study, she, has, decided, to, look, at, progesterone, and, other, levels, in, cows, post, calving, for, 6, weeks, to, see, what, happens, so, we, collect, a, sample, from, each, new, calved, cow, and, split, it, into, 3, smaller, pots, and, freeze, awaiting, testing, in, holland, very, exciting, but, quite, boring, the, results, should, be, interesting, though, hopefully, tuesday, you, forget, all, the, explaining, you, have, to, do, when, somebody, new, starts, so, me, and, nurse, have, written, a, step, by, step, guide, to, c, well, sort, of, it’s, all, the, little, things, we, haven’t, had, a, new, nurse, for, a, while, so, hopefully, the, book, can, be, used, for, other, new, people, it, took, a, bit, of, doing, but, we, were, pleased, with, it, in, the, end, i, spoke, to, mr, g, re, having, interherd, at, the, farm, all, i, have, to, do, now, is, get, round, to, see, him, he, is, very, hard, to, pin, down, but, we’ll, try, weds, new, nurse, liked, her, new, book, she, is, doing, very, well, and, it’s, nice, for, us, too, i, always, find, it, quite, refreshing, when, someone, is, genuinely, enthusiastic, with, us, all, being, close, and, having, their, own, areas, it’s, good, to, show, someone, else, but, can, be, scary, when, you, see, just, how, much, they, all, do, thursday, milk, pot, day, again, today, the, good, thing, is, going, to, pick, up, the, samples, as, you, get, a, natter, so, monday, and, thursday, the, samples, are, collected, split, and, frozen, it’s, quite, time, consuming, and, i’ve, just, realised, i, didn’t, ask, another, vet, how, long, she, was, doing, it, for, friday, we, have, decided, to, try, and, get, the, accounts, up, to, date, to, see, how, things, are, going, bar, not, being, able, to, find, a, vet, so, it’s, one, of, those, jobs, you, always, mean, to, keep, on, top, of, but, never, quite, manage, because, it’s, not, much, fun, interruptions, queries, and, assistance, were, very, welcome, but, i, got, a, good, start, week, beginning, 13th, january, monday, 13th, jan, a, has, started, working, with, us, again, just, two, days, a, week, this, will, help, a, lot, and, help, take, the, pressure, off, for, surgery, times, etc, i, got, to, spend, the, day, helping, with, tt, testing, it, was, good, fun, and, it, stayed, fine, it, was, a, good, day, tuesday, i, had, a, milk, recording, day, today, 3, in, total, we, have, started, using, nmr, now, so, it, was, all, new, paperwork, etc, this, is, going, to, be, cheaper, for, the, farmers, and, works, with, the, interherd, programme, anyway, it, all, went, well, and, everybody’s, samples, got, away, weds, milk, recorded, again, at, one, of, the, three, farms, first, thing, everytime, i, go, he, has, a, new, plan, as, to, how, to, make, some, money, this, month, it, is, he, is, going, to, produce, a, new, breed, of, cow, a, jersey, x, mri, so, we, will, see, how, that, goes, thursday, and, friday, just, catching, up, on, paperwork, me, and, nurse, did, some, training, with, the, new, nurse, she, is, settling, in, really, well, and, very, keen, week, beginning, 20th, january, monday, 20th, january, weds, decorated, our, bedroom, it, looks, brill, it, was, in, desperate, need, of, it, i, like, decorating, it’s, good, and, messy, thursday, i, went, on, my, brucellosis, testing, training, course, at, the, vlc, it, was, good, fun, this, means, that, after, i, have, now, tested, 150, cattle, i, get, a, licence, which, will, enable, me, to, blood, test, this, in, turn, will, hopefully, free, up, a, vet, it, will, also, give, defra, a, bank, of, blood, tester, for, any, future, outbreak, crafty, they, used, to, charge, about, 800, for, this, course, miraculously, it’s, now, free, clever, friday, we, have, had, a, reply, to, our, advert, hoorah, well, actually, two, they, are, both, foreign, one, is, in, germany, and, the, other, s, africa, so, we, are, waiting, for, their, cvs, fingers, crossed, defra, have, now, changed, the, 20, day, standstill, to, 6, days, the, general, opinion, seemed, to, be, so, it, would, be, interesting, to, actually, find, out, if, and, how, well, all, the, regulations, are, actually, working, not, well, i, feel, would, be, the, answer, week, beginning, 27th, january, mon, weds, very, busy, i, seem, to, have, spent, a, lot, of, it, in, my, car, dropping, off, tooing, and, froing, which, was, nice, but, i, do, lose, touch, with, the, happenings, at, the, surgery, and, on, tuesday, things, had, obviously, got, fraught, so, i, sorted, those, out, and, smoothed, the, creases, we, are, very, lucky, to, have, such, dedicated, staff, due, to, vet, shortage, and, another, vet, s, pregnancy, it, does, add, extra, pressure, to, everyone, none, of, the, incidents, were, very, serious, and, easily, sorted, thursday, i, went, with, my, sister, to, take, niece, to, the, hospital, as, since, she, was, born, she, has, had, a, lump, on, the, side, of, her, head, above, her, eye, so, they, xrayed, it, that, was, fun, persuading, her, to, lie, still, i, stayed, overnight, and, came, back, friday, week, beginning, 3rd, february, monday, 3rd, feb, i, did, my, first, blood, sample, on, a, live, cow, today, as, it, was, an, abortion, enquiry, and, due, to, another, vet, s, pregnancy, she, is, not, doing, them, ad, i, need, the, practice, it, was, good, fun, and, i, hit, the, 2nd, time, so, i, was, very, pleased, only, another, 145, to, go, before, i, get, my, licence, tuesday, i, completed, the, accounts, today, to, go, to, the, accountants, it, was, great, fun, i, hope, they, come, up, with, good, news, but, the, future, is, worrying, a, backlash, from, the, farmers, not, being, confident, weds, i, can’t, remember, if, i, told, you, vet, was, expecting, anyway, she, went, for, her, first, scan, today, and, so, far, so, good, it, is, very, worrying, as, she, has, a, problem, where, she, produces, duff, eggs, and, miscarriages, she, wants, to, carry, on, as, normal, as, possible, for, now, but, no, sheep, or, abortions, etc, i, hop, it, works, this, time, as, this, is, her, 4th, attempt, thursday, and, friday, very, nice, everything, worked, well, no, mad, rushes, time, to, catch, up, we, discussed, reducing, some, of, the, farm, drugs, as, they, are, able, to, buy, the, over, the, internet, with, a, prescription, all, the, laws, and, rules, will, more, than, likely, be, changing, at, the, beginning, of, march, due, to, a, report, done, for, the, govt, regarding, drugs, and, animal, use, it, will, make, a, difference, to, how, we, operate, as, if, they, remove, the, vet, surgeon’s, right, to, prescribe, drugs, i.e, vets, can, only, write, prescriptions, and, not, dispense, drugs, it, could, alter, things, completely, one, way, or, another, if, farmers, require, the, service, they, are, going, to, have, to, pay, for, it, up, to, now, it, has, always, been, that, a, reasonable, mark, up, is, put, on, the, drugs, this, is, normally, 50, and, this, will, keep, professional, fees, down, if, vets, are, not, getting, the, money, made, on, drugs, and, therefore, has, to, put, his, fees, up, although, the, farmer, may, be, buying, his, drugs, cheaper, via, the, internet, will, he, actually, save, that, much, i, wonder, so, anyway, we, have, been, getting, more, and, more, pressure, from, a, number, of, our, farmers, to, compete, with, the, internet, prices, so, we, have, selected, a, few, products, and, it, they, pay, at, the, time, they, can, get, about, 20, off, the, price, so, watch, this, space, and, we, will, see, what, happens, week, beginning, 10th, february, monday, 10th, feb, the, week, to, sum, up, a, blur, with, both, sad, and, very, funny, memories, to, start, receptionist, was, on, holiday, and, it, always, seems, to, happen, as, soon, as, someone, is, off, we, get, very, very, busy, when, everyone, is, in, it, ticks, along, nicely, mostly, i, do, enjoy, it, when, it’s, busy, but, we, worked, 3, 13, hour, days, not, food, but, everyone, worked, really, hard, they, are, excellent, staff, on, a, sad, note, vet, went, for, her, 11, week, scan, on, tuesday, and, the, baby, had, died, she, was, distraught, she, has, a, condition, that, causes, this, and, this, was, her, 4th, miscarriage, it’s, so, sad, i, called, to, see, her, and, she, just, hugged, me, and, cried, what, do, you, say, she, had, to, have, some, tablets, to, clear, away, the, placenta, etc, she, was, gutted, as, this, is, the, longest, she, had, ever, been, pregnant, and, she, thought, she’s, cracked, it, it’s, just, so, sad, my, funny, tale, for, the, week, on, a, completely, different, note, but, helped, immensely, was, other, vet, on, thursday, we, were, all, very, very, busy, and, a, farmer, called, in, i, was, very, behind, they, still, had, ops, to, do, and, this, farmer, settled, herself, down, for, a, big, chat, normally, if, i, say, i, have, a, lot, on, she, departs, but, no, not, today, it, was, obviously, my, turn, vet, came, over, from, the, op, room, and, i, know, it, was, naughty, but, i, wrote, on, a, card, can, i, have, some, help, i.e, to, free, myself, well, instead, of, reading, the, note, quietly, oh, no, she, read, it, out, at, the, top, of, her, voice, and, added, what, do, you, need, help, for, after, i, had, crawled, out, of, the, hole, that, had, opened, up, in, the, earth, to, swallow, me, i, pointed, to, the, message, book, to, try, and, hide, my, predicament, while, she, said, again, loudly, so, what, do, you, want, help, for, well, i, gave, up, and, decided, to, just, fall, into, the, hole, got, rid, of, vet, back, to, the, op, room, and, continued, alone, with, my, predicament, after, the, farmer, had, gone, who, thankfully, seemed, oblivious, to, what, had, happened, i, went, in, search, of, vet, to, kill, her, anyway, it, cheered, us, all, up, they, do, say, laughter, is, the, best, medicine, but, i, can, think, of, better, ways, week, beginning, 17th, february, monday, 17th, feb, vet, who, lost, baby, came, back, to, work, she, is, very, upset, and, weepy, everyone, has, been, lovely, with, her, hopefully, it, is, just, time, and, tlc, we, are, very, busy, again, and, have, had, an, enquiry, from, a, farmer, who, is, thinking, of, changing, vets, which, is, really, good, news, that, is, three, new, farmers, in, total, now, if, only, we, had, enough, vets, four, practices, around, carlisle, have, advertised, recently, and, none, of, the, positions, have, been, filled, it’s, quite, worrying, tuesday, i, took, vet, who, lost, baby, home, again, today, she, is, not, well, and, in, a, lot, of, pain, so, she’s, gone, back, to, bed, i, hope, she’s, feeling, better, soon, usual, day, otherwise, weds, vet, is, a, lot, better, today, apparently, they, think, it, may, be, the, cocodamol, she, was, taking, she, was, a, lot, happier, a, little, drained, but, ok, mr, w, came, in, today, his, cows, are, arriving, on, friday, hopefully, this, will, be, our, last, farm, to, restock, he, has, had, a, lot, of, alterations, done, to, the, farm, and, a, new, parlour, so, it’s, quite, exciting, thursday, we, did, some, sheep, exports, for, slaughter, from, longtown, today, the, first, of, that, sort, of, thing, since, fmd, it, was, of, course, a, bit, of, a, faf, as, they, now, have, to, be, retagged, and, checked, so, it, takes, a, little, longer, in, the, afternoon, i, had, a, meeting, with, sr, from, university, of, reading, she, is, planning, to, do, research, regarding, the, interherd, programme, and, she, had, picked, 3, vet, practices, to, see, how, the, programme, helps, the, vets, and, the, farmers, work, better, together, and, the, improvements, it, makes, to, the, farmers, record, keeping, so, she, is, going, to, meet, 3, of, our, farmers, who, use, interherd, and, interview, them, and, give, them, free, training, so, that, should, please, them, fri, day, off, me, and, daughter, went, to, newcastle, shopping, i’m, not, a, good, shopper, but, i, did, behave, and, we, had, a, good, day, mr, w’s, cows, arrived, all, fit, and, healthy, so, that, is, us, complete, now, ass, we, were, if, not, better, sad, news, though, we, heard, one, of, our, farmers, dropped, down, dead, suddenly, it, was, very, sad, as, we, had, seen, him, in, the, morning, and, he, was, his, normal, self, so, it, was, quite, a, shock, his, family, must, be, devastated, mind, if, there’s, a, good, way, to, go, that’s, it, week, beginning, 24th, february, monday, 24th, feb, another, vet, a, lot, better, today, almost, back, to, her, normal, cheery, self, she, is, a, lot, more, positive, we, took, the, bull, by, the, horns, so, to, speak, and, reduced, the, prices, of, some, drugs, we, will, have, to, wait, until, the, 10th, march, before, we, find, out, what, the, government, is, going, to, do, regarding, the, selling, of, drugs, but, the, farmers, are, very, pleased, tuesday, i, got, another, phone, call, from, mr, c, and, he, said, he, would, like, to, change, vets, to, us, so, good, news, husband, spoke, to, his, old, vet, and, explained, why, etc, it, is, very, difficult, and, i, think, that, in, the, future, there, may, be, more, changing, of, vets, where, as, in, the, past, it, never, happened, but, even, farmers, appreciate, competition, now, it, again, is, worrying, milk, recorded, at, mr, g, tonight, it’s, always, good, crack, as, they, say, weds, milk, recorded, early, morning, and, then, showed, them, the, interherd, programme, they, are, going, to, try, it, i, think, in, the, afternoon, i, went, with, other, vet, to, vet, a, horse, for, purchase, it, can, be, tricky, sometimes, and, two, pairs, of, eyes, are, better, than, one, as, it, turned, out, the, horse, was, lame, so, we, couldn’t, vet, it, so, we, will, have, to, go, back, another, day, thursday, normal, day, did, some, more, sheep, exports, in, the, afternoon, they, have, a, very, efficient, system, at, longtown, so, it, makes, it, a, lot, easier, fri, i, went, to, farmer, s, funeral, this, morning, it, was, very, sad, i, don’t, like, funerals, well, i, don’t, suppose, anyone, does, but, it, stayed, fine, and, he, had, a, good, send, off, in, the, afternoon, i, got, an, opportunity, to, do, some, more, blood, sampling, just, 15, so, it, was, good, it’s, getting, used, to, handling, everything, and, forgetting, you’re, at, the, end, that, shits, and, kicks, no, broken, limbs, and, i, got, blood, week, beginning, 3rd, march, mon, 3rd, march, i, went, to, help, a, tt, test, in, the, morning, just, taking, numbers, we, now, have, 4, farms, on, restrictions, due, to, tb, reactors, but, up, to, now, on, the, cows, taken, for, further, tests, no, lesions, have, been, fund, we, now, get, to, do, the, repeat, 60, day, test, on, the, farms, now, as, defra, can’t, keep, up, sounds, familiar, we, saw, the, accountant, in, the, afternoon, we, had, sent, 9, months, of, accounts, to, him, as, we, need, to, see, how, the, practice, was, now, doing, anyway, it, was, not, as, bad, as, we, thought, but, the, income, is, down, but, is, slowly, growing, the, main, problem, is, farmers, won’t, call, out, for, sick, cows, now, they, will, leave, it, longer, or, try, to, treat, them, themselves, mainly, due, to, them, watching, their, spending, mr, w, had, a, problem, with, his, interherd, he, needed, to, run, his, extensification, figures, and, they, didn’t, add, up, so, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, trying, to, figure, out, why, i, think, i, know, why, it, was, how, he, set, it, up, initially, so, it, may, need, his, entry, dates, changed, tues, went, tt, testing, again, this, morning, it, was, a, lovely, morning, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, sorting, mr, w’s, problem, out, and, it, worked, he, was, chuffed, the, good, is, i, think, i, now, understand, extensifications, weds, caught, up, on, some, paperwork, in, the, morning, i, helped, new, nurse, with, a, dog, grooming, in, the, afternoon, which, was, fun, she, is, doing, really, well, and, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, we, both, ended, up, soaked, thanks, to, the, dog, but, it, looked, loads, better, when, it, went, home, good, news, we, get, a, new, vet, from, south, africa, starting, 1.4.03, he, worked, over, here, during, fmd, and, met, someone, and, their, relationship, has, lasted, hence, he, wants, a, job, in, carlisle, so, bingo, here, comes, a, holiday, thursday, friday, very, busy, in, the, practice, everyone, kept, going, we, have, a, great, team, and, they, really, come, into, their, own, when, it’s, busy, i, love, the, way, everyone, pulls, together, they, are, very, dedicated, week, beginning, 10th, march, monday, quiet, day, for, a, monday, but, the, weather, has, been, nice, so, they, are, all, out, playing, but, we, had, quite, a, few, lambings, to, do, that’s, one, thing, that, has, changed, since, fmd, prior, to, fmd, we, hardly, used, to, do, any, lambings, for, farmers, but, since, we, now, do, far, more, last, year, we, put, it, down, to, them, having, new, stock, but, it, seems, to, be, the, same, this, year, tuesday, today, is, milk, recording, day, i, have, 3, recordings, today, they, all, need, boxes, and, paperwork, i, don’t, have, to, help, at, any, of, the, milkings, though, which, is, good, as, they, are, quite, a, way, from, each, other, but, a, nice, day, for, a, drive, weds, thurs, fri, the, end, of, our, weeks, seem, to, be, busier, than, the, beginnings, at, the, moment, it, has, been, non, stop, one, disadvantage, when, it, is, so, busy, is, you, don’t, have, the, time, to, chat, as, often, i, took, some, drugs, to, a, farm, our, last, one, to, restock, as, he, was, having, alterations, done, it, was, amazing, to, see, the, transformations, he, had, made, to, the, farm, all, geared, to, one, person, being, able, to, do, more, alone, with, more, cows, interesting, week, beginning, 17th, march, mon, tuesday, i, went, with, another, vet, to, mr, c’s, for, his, tt, and, blood, test, another, vet, did, the, tt, and, i, did, the, blood, as, part, of, my, lay, blood, tester’s, licence, i, needed, to, do, 150, which, i, managed, it, was, good, fun, and, the, weather, was, great, we, had, to, spread, it, over, 2, days, due, to, the, amount, of, cattle, it, was, really, good, practice, for, me, and, i, think, i’ve, cracked, it, now, there, are, talks, about, giving, tt, testing, to, lay, people, but, quite, how, and, when, is, anyone’s, guess, weds, more, blood, testing, today, i’ve, really, cracked, it, now, only, i’ve, discovered, muscles, in, my, arms, i, didn’t, know, i, had, i, enjoy, the, blood, testing, sad, isn’t, it, thursday, i, had, a, morning, with, alco, waste, management, sorting, out, all, the, clinical, waste, regulations, and, they, need, more, detail, of, what, actually, goes, in, our, waste, we, always, provided, a, free, service, to, farmers, for, disposing, of, sharps, and, old, drug, and, empty, drugs, etc, but, we, are, going, to, have, to, start, charging, now, it, is, now, 100, dearer, a, month, than, it, was, fri, me, and, husband, spent, the, morning, looking, at, fees, income, etc, and, seeing, where, we, can, increase, fees, to, help, cover, if, we, lose, the, right, to, dispense, drugs, to, farmers, which, we, still, haven’t, heard, about, to, continue, as, we, are, we, will, have, to, make, the, difference, up, it’s, just, how, week, beginning, 24th, march, monday, doing, the, paperwork, for, a, tt, test, it, was, a, beautiful, day, i, do, enjoy, doing, this, especially, when, the, weather’s, good, and, they, are, very, nice, farmers, i, also, get, to, spend, the, day, with, husband, which, makes, a, change, although, we, work, together, we, don’t, often, get, to, see, much, of, each, other, tuesday, busy, day, spent, most, of, it, making, sure, everything, got, done, and, helping, out, weds, i, went, to, the, careers, convention, at, the, sands, centre, it, was, very, busy, and, we, had, a, lot, of, interest, but, a, long, day, before, going, someone, phoned, to, say, there, was, a, collie, dog, running, around, on, the, roundabout, so, me, and, new, nurse, went, to, see, if, we, could, catch, it, well, it, didn’t, want, caught, but, i, was, really, worried, it, got, onto, the, motorway, so, we, phoned, the, police, and, the, dog, warden, who, incidentally, couldn’t, come, until, 9am, as, he, didn’t, start, til, then, so, i, had, to, politely, explain, that, he, would, have, to, be, the, police, dog, handler, wasn’t, much, help, but, at, least, he, stopped, the, traffic, bless, him, the, dog, warden, did, appear, 5, minutes, later, and, it, was, only, 8.30, am, so, we, managed, to, get, the, dog, off, the, roundabout, and, catch, it, everyone, safe, thankfully, thurs, fri, busy, days, new, vet, from, south, africa, phoned, so, he’s, coming, to, see, us, on, monday, to, pick, up, his, vehicle, and, meet, everyone, he, sounds, pleasant, so, we, will, see, my, joke, at, the, moment, when, people, ask, where, we, found, him, is, that, we, got, him, off, the, internet, it, is, a, little, worrying, not, having, met, him, first, but, it, should, work, watch, this, space, week, beginning, 31st, march, monday, we, have, had, l, staying, for, two, weeks, she’s, a, vet, student, from, london, and, stayed, with, us, about, this, tine, last, year, it, was, interesting, to, go, over, the, changes, from, a, year, ago, last, time, she, was, here, people, were, restocking, and, there, was, an, element, of, wariness, so, it, was, interesting, to, fill, her, in, on, how, things, are, now, one, thing, she, mentioned, was, noticing, the, stock, in, the, fields, was, nice, as, there, were, only, a, few, still, last, year, talking, over, things, is, still, hard, sometimes, although, it, seems, a, long, time, ago, the, feelings, and, emotions, are, still, deep, certain, parts, can, still, hit, a, raw, nerve, there, seems, to, be, a, mere, anger, at, the, moment, generally, people, and, farmers, are, wanting, to, know, why, they, still, have, restrictions, what, is, going, to, happen, about, shows, and, sales, etc, and, will, normality, ever, return, unfortunately, i, think, not, not, in, the, way, they, want, it, to, tuesday, our, new, vet, started, today, we, got, on, very, well, it, has, taken, us, so, long, to, find, a, vet, and, if, the, work, and, testing, carries, on, increasing, we, are, going, to, need, another, one, wednesday, very, busy, day, husband, s, gone, to, talk, at, a, bcva, conference, and, agm, so, poor, new, vet, has, been, thrown, in, at, the, deep, end, it, has, been, very, busy, but, he, seems, to, be, coping, well, the, clients, were, very, impressed, so, far, so, long, may, it, last, it, is, good, to, have, new, staff, with, new, ideas, i, quite, enjoy, it, and, he, is, definitely, a, big, hit, with, the, female, clients, it, really, does, make, you, embarrassed, to, be, female, when, they, go, into, the, consulting, room, you, count, to, 4, and, then, comes, the, girlie, giggle, quite, funny, thursday, sad, day, today, my, sister, had, been, confirmed, as, having, cervical, cancer, no, more, on, that, for, now, friday, had, another, interherd, sale, today, one, thing, fmd, has, forced, on, farmers, is, the, need, for, efficient, records, and, interherd, is, brilliant, at, that, it’s, so, clever, one, of, our, farmers, who, has, had, it, for, a, while, and, has, 120, milking, cows, now, does, all, his, daily, records, in, 5, 10, minutes, can’t, be, bad, week, beginning, 7th, april, monday, busy, day, new, vet, is, settling, in, really, well, and, coping, fine, if, we, carry, on, at, this, rate, we, will, need, another, vet, a, lot, of, it, depends, on, how, much, more, testing, we, are, going, to, get, and, what, happens, with, commission, report, into, dispensing, drugs, tuesday, sr, came, today, from, uni, of, reading, who, own, the, interherd, program, we, went, round, some, of, the, farmers, that, used, it, and, helped, sort, out, any, queries, it, was, a, good, day, i, learnt, a, lot, and, the, farmers, found, it, useful, too, she, said, she, would, come, again, later, in, the, year, so, i, think, we, might, try, and, organise, for, them, all, to, come, to, the, practise, for, a, chat, wednesday, did, some, interherd, training, with, one, of, the, farmers, wives, we, said, just, an, hour, as, she, wasn’t, fully, computer, literate, anyway, 4, hours, later, she, had, well, and, truly, got, the, hang, of, it, she, was, very, keen, and, i, really, enjoyed, it, thursday, friday, they, blur, into, one, as, it, has, been, so, busy, everyone, has, been, flat, out, we, are, going, to, start, the, vet, advertising, again, and, another, nurse, receptionist, week, beginning, 14th, april, monday, got, caught, up, today, sorted, out, all, the, queries, quite, pleased, with, my, self, tuesday, went, to, a, local, nursery, to, talk, about, vets, to, 3, year, olds, i, was, quite, dreading, it, but, thankfully, it, was, great, they, were, really, good, i, took, some, dressing, up, clothes, and, x, ray, instruments, and, teddy, bears, and, they, operated, and, had, a, really, good, time, one, of, them, asked, me, if, all, the, cows, and, sheep, were, better, and, did, they, still, have, funny, feet, and, mouths, week, beginning, 21st, april, tuesday, wednesday, quite, busy, days, and, a, lot, to, catch, up, on, we, all, went, away, with, sister, and, niece, this, weekend, to, husband, s, mum, and, dads, caravan, we, had, a, great, time, sister, s, biopsy, off, rest, of, week, week, beginning, 28th, april, monday, three, farmers, milk, recording, today, and, tomorrow, so, busy, dropping, pets, and, paperwork, off, advertised, for, a, vet, today, fingers, crossed, off, for, two, weeks, helping, sister, to, move, interviewed, a, nurse, receptionist, she, is, perfect, and, experienced, she, wrote, a, letter, in, as, her, husbands, job, had, brought, them, to, the, area, so, she, starts, 12th, may, i, wish, it, was, as, easy, finding, a, vet, week, beginning, 12th, may, monday, our, new, girlie, started, today, she, is, very, keen, and, capable, she, has, done, really, well, even, with, the, computer, system, that, she, was, dreading, tuesday, busy, day, also, 2x, milk, recordings, so, a, bit, of, hollering, about, i, was, thinking, it, is, about, a, year, we, have, had, now, of, normal, work, everyone, new, appears, to, be, getting, on, with, it, as, the, saying, goes, everyone, bears, a, scar, and, has, a, story, to, tell, and, realise, it, is, not, the, same, but, how, could, it, be, weds, fri, quite, busy, but, capable, at, work, daughter, got, the, job, for, the, training, in, her, m, apprentice, course, so, she, is, over, the, moon, it’s, all, a, new, learning, curve, you, suddenly, realise, she, is, growing, up, getting, a, job, and, leaving, school, unfortunately, this, morning, daughter, has, decided, she, doesn’t, want, to, leave, full, time, education, yet, and, is, worried, about, the, job, she, is, wanting, to, do, a, business, course, at, a, college, so, all, change, again, we, have, had, bid, discussions, and, are, going, to, go, down, to, connexions, next, week, sat, yf, young, farmers, field, day, today, i, love, these, days, it, is, amazing, the, effort, and, enjoyment, that, makes, it, such, a, good, day, there, is, also, such, a, high, standard, in, all, the, classes, i, admire, the, enthusiasm, of, the, young, farmers, and, just, hope, they, can, survive, somehow, week, beginning, 19th, may, monday, we, have, found, the, course, daughter, wants, to, do, at, college, thanks, to, connexions, the, bad, news, is, it, is, not, done, locally, she, could, do, a, local, course, but, it, would, be, wasted, time, to, some, extent, big, discussions, most, of, the, week, we, have, found, they, do, the, course, in, blackburn, and, preston, my, sister, and, mum, live, down, there, and, are, more, than, happy, for, her, to, move, in, i, just, don’t, know, if, i, am, ready, to, let, her, go, but, i’ll, have, to, be, a, big, girl, about, it, we, have, sent, application, forms, off, so, will, have, to, wait, and, see, now, and, try, and, get, used, to, it, weds, really, good, evening, at, penrith, re, the, discussion, it, was, so, good, to, talk, to, the, other, diarists, and, realise, and, be, able, to, relate, so, closely, to, what, they, said, it, was, poignant, to, see, what, other, people, had, written, and, interesting, to, see, what, you, had, done, so, far, with, the, data, collected, it, would, be, brilliant, to, hand, to, any, future, study, or, enquiry, as, it, is, proof, surely, not, all, these, people, could, be, wrong, and, to, have, so, many, diarists, start, and, finish, is, amazing, i’m, sure, it, can, be, used, for, so, many, different, topics, amazing, i, am, personally, very, proud, to, have, been, a, part, of, it, and, although, sometimes, i, have, wondered, if, what, i, was, writing, was, any, use, i, can, see, now, how, it, comes, together, than, you, all, for, the, opportunity, shame, not, in, better, circumstances, it, has, helped, me, more, than, i, originally, realised, but, thinking, back, it, was, all, unbelievable, and, not, something, i, would, like, to, repeat, i, am, ever, the, optimist, or, so, i’m, told, and, do, believe, or, hope, things, and, farming, can, recover, not, fully, but, enough, to, be, able, to, show, other, people, what, a, wonderful, life, it, is, hard, but, special, week, beginning, 26th, may, never, stopped, on, tuesday, after, bank, holiday, so, busy, new, vet, is, settling, in, now, but, his, girlfriend, can’t, find, a, job, so, that’s, a, bit, worrying, he, may, leave, sooner, than, expected, oh, no, not, advertising, again, the, rest, of, the, week, was, uneventful, really, ticked, along, nicely, we, met, up, with, some, friends, on, wednesday, evening, who, holiday, in, the, lakes, each, year, so, it, was, nice, to, see, them, again, we, had, a, good, evening, we, were, also, out, on, thursday, night, with, a, drug, rep, very, nice, meal, and, they, have, offered, to, pay, for, husband, bri, catt, vet, ass, meeting, in, amsterdam, in, october, so, that, was, very, nice, business, link, have, also, offered, to, help, us, get, a, consultant, in, to, see, if, they, have, any, ideas, for, improving, maybe, they, can, find, vets, too, all, in, all, quite, an, exciting, week, week, beginning, 2nd, june, the, exams, have, started, everyone, warns, to, beware, but, daughter, is, very, laid, back, about, it, all, too, much, i, feel, but, as, long, as, she, does, her, best, i, went, to, the, accountants, to, look, at, the, books, for, the, end, of, year, so, far, not, quite, finished, yet, and, thankfully, we, won’t, be, needing, income, support, this, year, it, is, so, much, better, more, regulation, but, nothing, we, can’t, cope, with, honest, week, beginning, 9th, june, daughter, had, an, interview, at, blackburn, college, it, wasn’t, a, very, nice, place, but, then, i’m, not, going, preston, is, on, the, 25th, so, she, will, decide, after, that, niece, had, her, c.t, scan, for, her, head, that, was, eventful, and, lisa, and, her, naughty, jelly, babies, zapped, all, went, well, but, she, was, a, bit, sore, after, week, beginning, 23rd, june, monday, went, tt, testing, with, another, vet, today, it, was, a, retest, due, to, them, having, a, reactor, it, was, a, good, day, they, are, nice, people, there, is, a, father, and, 2, sons, during, fmd, i, had, a, phone, call, one, night, and, this, was, just, someone, crying, on, the, end, of, it, i, didn’t, know, what, to, say, and, i, wasn’t, sure, who, it, was, but, i, just, spoke, about, mainly, silly, things, i, can’t, really, remember, what, but, didn’t, get, much, of, a, response, just, yes, and, no’s, and, i, thought, i, recognised, the, voice, as, being, the, father, we, were, with, today, anyway, during, lunch, which, we, had, at, the, farm, we, were, chatting, and, of, course, got, into, fmd, and, he, thanked, me, it, took, aback, but, he, said, he, had, appreciated, me, waffling, on, it, was, the, night, of, the, day, his, cows, had, been, shot, and, he, had, phoned, to, let, us, know, but, he, said, he, just, broke, down, and, couldn’t, say, anything, anyway, he, laughed, because, he, said, he, was, going, to, hang, up, but, he, couldn’t, get, word, in, edgeways, because, i, was, wittering, but, he, said, he, did, feel, a, bit, better, after, so, we, had, a, good, heart, to, heart, tuesday, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, and, sorted, some, bits, and, pieces, out, weds, took, daughter, to, preston, college, for, an, interview, it, was, good, and, seems, a, nice, place, i, can’t, believe, she, will, be, leaving, home, at, the, end, of, august, very, scary, i’m, really, going, to, have, to, be, a, big, girl, about, it, thursday, we, went, to, visit, business, link, to, discuss, some, more, things, and, they, are, hopefully, going, to, help, us, pay, a, firm, of, consultants, to, help, us, out, to, see, how, we, can, improve, and, move, the, practice, on, so, that’s, exciting, fri, went, milk, recording, first, thing, so, that, was, good, fun, after, recording, i, had, to, collect, one, of, our, elderly, clients, and, her, dog, that, was, coming, for, an, operation, the, lady, is, 92, and, her, and, the, dog, are, very, close, so, she, wanted, to, stay, with, her, until, she, was, sedated, so, she, was, pleased, she, could, come, with, her, the, girls, all, laugh, at, me, because, i, have, quite, a, few, little, old, ladies, who, we, visit, and, keep, a, check, on, their, pets, week, beginning, 30th, june, not, a, lot, of, excitement, at, all, this, week, we, have, been, kept, going, and, i, caught, up, on, paperwork, we, are, going, to, my, sister’s, this, week, end, to, start, sorting, her, spare, bedroom, for, daughter, week, beginning, 7th, july, mon, spent, the, morning, explaining, to, our, newest, girlie, about, interherd, and, how, to, work, it, this, will, enable, her, to, help, me, on, the, data, entry, side, we, also, had, a, little, trip, out, around, some, of, the, farms, that, record, with, us, to, give, her, an, idea, of, where, they, are, tuesday, went, exporting, sheep, today, they, all, had, to, be, retagged, it, was, quite, warm, not, much, fun, i’ll, maybe, get, new, girl, to, do, exporting, weds, 2, milk, recordings, today, so, quite, busy, with, bottles, and, sheets, and, things, and, they, are, both, in, the, opposite, direction, to, each, other, never, mind, it, was, a, nice, day, for, driving, about, thursday, we, have, got, a, new, vet, to, replace, vet, from, sa, she, seems, very, lovely, she, is, going, to, start, on, 4.08.03, we, used, an, agency, and, it, has, proved, worthwhile, we, worked, out, that, rather, than, paying, for, endless, adverts, we, would, give, it, a, go, and, it, seems, to, have, worked, so, that’s, exciting, fri, we, went, car, hunting, today, as, if, we, all, go, out, at, the, week, end, it, becomes, a, bit, crushed, and, sometimes, we, end, up, taking, two, vehicles, so, we, have, really, splashed, out, rightly, or, wrongly, and, bought, a, new, crv, truck, it’s, very, posh, so, we, get, that, on, 21.07.03, week, beginning, 14th, july, monday, person, from, the, interherd, office, came, up, to, see, us, and, we, visited, a, few, of, our, farmers, that, are, on, interherd, between, them, and, nmr, they, have, really, tried, with, providing, quality, and, cost, effective, equipment, that, is, helpful, to, the, farmers, you, can, now, use, interherd, in, some, milking, parlours, which, is, really, useful, tues, we, went, to, see, a, horse, with, a, cough, and, after, treating, the, pony, we, were, chatting, and, they, have, converted, a, small, barn, into, a, camping, hostel, their, farm, is, along, hadrian’s, wall, and, since, having, foot, and, mouth, and, doing, the, barn, up, they, have, nearly, covered, their, costs, they, still, have, a, few, stock, but, not, as, many, mr, i, was, saying, how, his, father, used, to, milk, about, 25, cows, and, be, able, to, make, a, good, living, from, that, it’s, amazing, the, difference, weds, we, got, a, new, payroll, package, today, so, i, spent, most, of, my, day, trying, to, understand, it, i, was, very, bog, eyed, by, the, end, but, i, think, i, understand, it, and, it, seems, to, work, well, and, should, be, a, lot, easier, and, quicker, thursday, busy, day, there, were, lots, of, ops, and, farm, calls, a, couple, of, farmers, have, been, asking, about, prescriptions, as, soon, they, will, be, able, to, get, their, drugs, from, anywhere, a, lot, have, said, they, appreciate, they, have, to, pay, for, the, service, one, way, or, another, and, are, happy, to, carry, on, as, they, have, been, doing, we, will, lose, money, to, some, extent, but, how, much, remains, to, be, seen, and, we, will, have, to, cope, friday, off, went, to, see, westlife, with, daughter]
## 4 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1963, gender, m, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, saturday, 9th, march, 2002, an, old, african, proverb, states, the, best, time, to, plant, a, tree, was, 20, years, ago, the, next, best, time, is, now, i, should, have, started, this, diary, over, a, year, ago, to, keep, track, of, changes, in, the, unrolling, of, the, fmd, epidemic, and, my, feelings, towards, it, today, is, probably, a, good, day, to, start, the, diary, as, i, was, about, to, sit, down, after, a, really, bad, week, to, write, some, comments, for, the, lessons, learned, inquiry, and, thought, i, should, check, the, web, site, for, an, update, i, found, out, to, my, considerable, annoyance, that, the, inquiry, was, coming, to, cumbria, to, meet, with, defra, and, hold, the, open, meeting, on, tuesday, night, and, if, you, wanted, a, ticket, to, attend, then, you, had, to, apply, by, a, week, ago, the, overall, impression, is, that, the, govt, do, not, want, to, learn, lessons, i, was, looking, after, kids, as, wife, was, on, counselling, course, and, i, was, on, call, sat, morn, the, vets, were, busy, so, i, ended, up, taking, children, into, vets, with, me, they, watched, videos, in, the, waiting, room, while, i, sorted, out, and, consulted, coming, down, with, cold, after, spending, friday, tb, testing, on, restocking, farm, but, at, least, i, managed, to, avoid, getting, kicked, and, crushed, the, farm, hand, who, is, one, of, the, hard, lads, of, wigton, refused, to, get, in, with, the, fat, bulls, to, test, them, after, getting, floored, by, a, kick, if, the, f, ministry, want, them, f, tested, they, can, f, coming, and, etc, etc, i, am, putting, in, a, letter, to, say, why, they, were, not, tested, to, see, response, didn’t, get, finished, on, farm, till, 5.45, pm, having, started, with, a, caesarean, at, 5, 30am.must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, the, farming, economy, is, bizarre, at, the, moment, he, has, silage, in, heaps, all, over, the, farm, so, instead, of, feeding, straw, which, is, incredibly, expensive, 70, ton, he, is, feeding, the, better, quality, silage, and, the, calves, are, all, too, big, there, are, 30, to, calve, so, a, few, nights, work, there, where, ever, i, go, on, farms, the, stories, that, farmers, are, wanting, to, get, off, their, chest, about, the, maff, incompetence, and, inconsistency, is, bewildering, there, is, a, lot, of, anger, out, there, i, went, to, do, the, restocking, sentinel, visit, for, mg, l, fm, he, is, usually, the, most, laid, back, of, guys, but, he, told, them, he, was, bringing, his, cattle, on, and, he, would, see, them, in, court, why, are, we, doing, sentinel, visits, to, a, farm, that, had, fmd, 11, months, ago, the, virus, only, lives, a, month, sunday, mothering, sunday, kids, had, all, got, presents, and, cards, for, mum, they, brought, them, all, in, with, a, breakfast, tray, very, cute, but, pear, juice, all, over, the, carpet, tim, and, i, spent, sat, night, baking, a, chocolate, cake, for, her, which, meant, i, hadn’t, got, lunch, never, mind, church, was, ps, speaking, on, characters, walking, with, god, and, talking, about, abraham, setting, off, with, out, knowing, where, he, is, going, maybe, i, should, follow, suit, with, large, animal, vetting, being, reduced, to, tb, testing, and, caesareans, the, evening, service, was, really, lively, with, hp, from, austria, about, turning, every, hour, over, to, god, now, that, is, what, i, should, do, g, r, called, around, sun, afternoon, he, is, pessimistic, about, fertiliser, sales, there, is, that, much, land, and, grass, around, and, the, govt, grants, for, extensification, new, regulations, on, nitrates, is, giving, him, a, headache, though, as, he, points, out, it, is, not, fertiliser, that, cause, the, problems, as, they, are, used, by, grass, but, by, phosphates, and, slurry, organics, lough, neigh, has, real, problems, with, algal, blooms, and, they, are, blaming, fertiliser, but, so, has, bassenthwaite, but, there, is, not, any, fertiliser, spread, on, the, fells, so, is, it, really, agriculture, monday, read, test, and, was, very, glad, it, was, clear, as, the, farm, of, origin, of, one, of, batches, has, gone, down, with, tb, more, testing, after, lunch, organic, farm, they, have, just, had, their, first, pay, check, 23p, per, litre, they, were, promised, 36p, when, they, started, to, convert, 2, years, ago, who, would, be, in, agriculture, desperately, behind, in, admin, with, vets, and, home, but, at, least, the, clinical, work, pays, tuesday, caught, up, on, a, lot, of, admin, as, back, to, 6, vets, for, day, 2, cows, aborting, on, restocking, farm, more, disease, rota, still, for, 5vets, yuk, the, evening, open, meeting, poorly, attendee, due, to, poor, publicity, i, am, only, local, practitioner, i, phoned, around, no, one, had, been, invited, or, had, seen, advance, publicity, and, we, all, feel, that, they, are, not, interested, and, that, they, will, not, listen, some, moving, testimony, and, the, bullying, culture, came, through, and, the, frustration, and, anger, that, comes, from, dealing, with, a, faceless, bureaucracy, distant, in, london, 11, million, animals, 2000, farms, in, cumbria, businesses, wrecked, lives, wrecked, a, crisis, turned, into, a, disaster, by, bureaucratic, incompetence, and, political, considerations, i, am, pleased, i, went, i, feel, that, it, is, like, a, sense, of, closure, the, funeral, so, to, speak, the, end, and, i, spoke, with, wife, when, i, got, back, i, feel, i, can, lay, the, past, down, and, look, to, the, future, weds, day, off, k, a, for, lunch, and, sort, out, finances, etc, and, write, diary, everyone, is, saying, about, this, time, last, year, and, glad, that, fmd, is, finished, went, to, see, grease, the, school, production, it, was, very, well, done, brought, back, memories, of, 6th, form, thurs, 300, pages, of, a4, waiting, for, me, in, my, in, tray, courtesy, of, defra, are, they, mindless, or, what, rang, to, speak, to, ah, but, only, got, hold, of, n, and, told, her, it, was, out, of, order, i, should, get, my, blood, pressure, measured, as, some, one, says, defra, stupid, idiots, so, much, for, closure, i, feel, very, frustrated, if, this, is, the, future, of, farm, practice, anal, glands, here, we, come, who, said, a, vets, life, ain’t, glamorous, managed, to, calm, down, and, get, the, next, 2, weeks, of, testing, organised, it, is, a, good, job, that, we, are, organising, it, as, trying, to, get, folk, on, the, phone, is, n’t, easy, workload, picking, up, and, managed, to, persuade, gg, to, advertise, even, if, only, at, tvi, hq, all, of, the, local, practices, who, have, advertised, have, had, very, few, if, any, responses, we, are, busy, but, with, defra, work, spent, time, singing, grease, songs, much, to, nurses, amusement, did, restocking, visit, at, lynedraw, they, gave, me, a, look, around, it, is, amazingly, clean, because, even, after, pressure, washing, the, spiders, usually, make, a, come, back, but, the, buildings, are, sterile, and, no, cobwebs, or, insect, life, which, usually, abounds, even, in, empty, buildings, weird, there, will, be, a, lot, of, flies, next, year, news, that, pi, has, headship, of, nelson, thom, and, so, we, can, expect, the, discipline, to, improve, again, friday, curry, and, quiz, at, the, boys, school, very, cosmopolitan, for, cumbria, it, was, good, fun, and, the, kids, enjoyed, it, but, we, were, useless, on, the, photos, for, which, you, definitely, need, a, tv, spent, time, chatting, to, local, gp, who, which, was, interesting, they, have, a, place, for, their, son, at, nelson, thom, but, he, isn’t, keen, saturday, 16th, march, working, this, w, e, and, on, call, friday, night, so, had, an, early, start, with, a, caser, on, ewe, a, lambing, hurray, things, are, getting, back, to, normal, even, if, it, is, a, dutch, beltex, the, farmer, is, really, fed, up, and, wants, ah, to, be, sacked, as, he, threatened, to, kill, all, his, recently, imported, dutch, sheep, as, the, paper, work, was, not, right, they, had, come, and, blood, sampled, them, and, then, sent, the, results, to, his, brother, who, is, still, under, form, a, and, then, refused, him, permission, to, move, any, of, the, sheep, off, because, he, shouldn’t, have, any, because, he, was, on, form, a, and, what, were, the, blood, results, for, defra, would, be, a, joke, if, it, wasn’t, so, serious, oh, and, after, my, complaint, about, them, deluging, us, with, paper, yes, you, guessed, it, they, sent, another, 7, x, 20, sheets, of, a4, idiots, aw, is, in, a, tiz, and, so, had, to, get, help, in, sat, morning, which, was, a, shame, but, hey, ho, she, is, not, coping, with, the, post, fmd, constant, changing, of, the, goal, posts, went, to, susan, ian’s, for, another, curry, and, had, a, really, good, time, and, have, decided, to, phase, out, house, group, which, was, coming, hopefully, low, moor, will, set, up, a, 3rd, house, group, for, wigton, hebron, is, going, to, change, to, new, outlook, groups, sun, never, managed, to, get, to, church, as, calls, all, day, beautiful, day, though, the, weather, has, really, picked, up, must, get, garden, sorted, and, seeds, planted, a, came, out, on, call, this, evening, it, is, one, good, point, that, this, job, does, allow, the, kids, to, join, with, me, she, is, really, growing, up, she, wanted, to, go, to, cinema, but, as, wife, was, late, and, weather, good, she, came, back, here, and, they, walked, the, dog, and, wound, up, the, boys, mon, early, morning, call, to, see, a, farmer, who, is, a, scrap, metal, dealer, who, hates, authority, he, therefore, didn’t, want, anyone, on, his, land, during, fmd, and, refused, access, to, maff, and, me, while, i, was, working, there, he, caused, real, problems, and, had, his, gun, removed, by, police, he, was, handled, badly, and, is, a, rogue, the, more, colourful, rumour, was, that, the, real, reason, for, not, allowing, anyone, on, was, the, amount, of, smuggled, cigarettes, was, too, great, to, hide, he, also, runs, a, fishery, shellfish, enterprise, that, is, on, the, beach, at, odd, times, he, was, found, guilty, and, fined, 350, for, his, trouble, but, never, paid, because, he, went, bust, as, everything, is, in, his, wife, and, kids, names, this, is, all, unsubstantiated, rumour, but, quite, amusing, when, push, comes, to, shove, the, ministry, could, do, nothing, with, out, the, cooperation, of, the, farmers, the, vet, students, have, arrived, and, i, feel, a, bit, guilty, about, not, having, them, to, stay, but, i, feel, i, still, need, space, at, the, moment, so, they, are, making, do, with, the, royal, oak, prayer, quad, with, the, lads, which, was, good, i, still, has, not, got, stuff, for, magazine, and, spent, time, praying, tues, the, dates, important, cos, its, my, birthday, 39, today, the, kids, all, brought, presents, in, and, had, breakfast, in, bed, it, was, really, nice, the, number, of, ordinary, calls, to, ill, animals, is, increasing, rapidly, went, to, 2, new, restocking, farms, today, i, think, one, a, day, is, probably, enough, they, were, both, full, of, stories, about, the, ministry, and, wanted, to, unload, to, some, one, who, understood, the, first, was, particularly, upsetting, in, that, i, was, admiring, his, new, parlour, and, set, up, that, he, has, put, in, while, waiting, the, 4, months, he, was, then, talking, about, all, the, animals, getting, slaughtered, and, his, wife, was, fighting, back, tears, she, is, also, very, unsure, about, whether, they, are, doing, the, right, thing, by, investing, in, the, new, parlour, she, is, very, unsure, about, the, future, and, as, they, are, both, reaching, 50, is, it, the, right, thing, to, be, doing, unfortunately, i, think, she, is, right, but, i, couldn’t, say, that, and, made, reassuring, noises, as, they, have, spent, the, money, and, it, is, too, late, now, the, future, for, dairy, is, not, good, the, price, is, going, to, continue, to, be, at, world, prices, which, with, the, current, exchange, rate, is, uneconomic, in, the, uk, the, second, farm, was, sheep, with, drop, and, they, were, grazing, over, the, burial, site, as, they, had, planted, carrots, and, turnips, on, the, surrounding, field, i, couldn’t, listen, to, another, set, of, woes, as, i, was, still, upset, from, the, first, lot, so, kept, conversation, light, and, on, sheep, weds, i, never, realised, that, fmd, is, like, any, other, grief, there, are, anniversaries, to, get, through, and, fears, and, barriers, to, be, put, to, rest, i, was, on, a, farm, to, give, certificates, to, 2, heifers, sold, in, calf, they, were, all, saying, it, was, a, year, to, the, day, that, fmd, hit, the, village, the, ai, fellow, was, there, as, well, and, he, was, talking, about, what, he, had, been, doing, he, was, saying, that, he, thinks, it, will, be, years, before, everybody, returns, to, normal, he, is, revisiting, farms, where, he, was, helping, with, the, slaughter, for, the, ai, and, was, saying, he, had, to, take, a, deep, breath, every, time, he, returns, to, one, of, these, farms, there, was, a, partners, meeting, at, lunchtime, as, usual, aw, turned, up, late, but, finally, decided, to, advertise, to, see, whether, there, are, vets, out, there, who, will, come, to, work, in, fmd, country, it, is, a, bit, frustrating, as, i, foresaw, that, we, would, be, busy, and, we, could, have, nabbed, d, before, longtown, but, gg, ever, cautious, we, went, completely, around, in, circles, trying, different, options, but, as, with, everything, else, the, only, prediction, we, can, make, is, that, we, know, that, we, don’t, know, so, much, depends, on, govt, decisions, on, supply, of, pharmaceuticals, to, farms, and, on, the, future, of, the, svs, state, vet, service, for, who, we, usually, do, 15, of, our, farm, work, for, and, currently, do, 50, for, thursday, tomorrow, i, will, get, a, lunch, break, this, is, my, resolution, have, not, managed, to, stop, for, lunch, this, week, yet, as, farm, calls, keep, coming, in, and, partners, meeting, today, was, geckos, bums, and, goose, bums, rectal, prolapses, variety, is, the, spice, of, life, also, had, much, laughter, over, watching, norman, in, the, bath, jg’s, tortoise, which, has, come, out, of, hibernation, early, and, is, anorexic, much, clunking, and, bumping, 2, lambings, and, cow, caesaer, after, hours, so, busy, on, call, it, was, also, the, last, house, group, so, it, was, end, of, an, era, we, have, been, having, them, in, our, house, for, the, past, 6, years, with, different, folk, and, have, had, god, speak, to, us, and, to, others, through, it, but, it, is, time, to, move, on, friday, started, with, another, caeaser, and, early, morning, start, and, didn’t, get, my, lunch, break, time, to, reconsider, things, again, had, folk, for, dinner, which, had, been, arranged, a, long, time, ago, it, seemed, like, a, good, idea, at, time, and, was, enjoyable, but, after, a, 14, hour, day, yesterday, and, a, 10, hour, one, today, i, was, not, feeling, life, and, soul, of, the, party, one, couple, are, still, trying, to, decide, the, future, of, their, farm, they, are, thought, out, progressive, family, farm, and, yet, they, are, not, convinced, about, what, to, do, he, finds, it, difficult, to, because, there, are, three, generations, to, consider, his, father, would, go, out, and, buy, stock, tomorrow, and, his, son, wants, to, come, home, to, work, but, they, feel, he, should, broaden, his, options, very, difficult, he, was, also, saying, that, he, ha, d, helped, a, neighbour, who, flagged, him, down, as, he, was, going, past, he, wanted, help, to, move, a, cow, that, was, down, the, last, time, he, touched, a, cow, it, was, when, his, own, were, slaughtered, it, knocked, him, off, his, stride, for, the, rest, of, the, day, had, a, good, time, as, when, i, looked, at, time, was, 1, o, clock, sat, 23rd, march, wife, went, on, her, counselling, course, for, day, which, left, me, a, bit, on, edge, this, morning, as, i, was, on, call, sat, am, and, looking, after, 4, kids, but, they, managed, with, out, me, back, sore, and, stiff, as, i’ve, missed, the, gym, but, will, go, back, on, tues, still, managed, to, get, a, bit, done, in, garden, it, was, a, great, spring, day, and, made, me, feel, like, summer, was, coming, went, to, beckfoot, to, beach, in, the, afternoon, with, kids, evening, went, to, bed, early, as, shattered, sun, 24th, back, stiffer, after, gardening, and, went, to, church, davidsons, have, moved, into, thursby, so, will, be, good, to, have, them, around, and, at, school, watched, northbank, beat, stanwix, u12, s, 6, 0, the, boys, played, well, and, passed, the, ball, around, a, lot, son, played, well, too, must, work, less, w, e’s, and, watch, the, boys, play, more, mon, 25th, looking, forward, to, finishing, on, friday, as, another, large, test, today, started, at, 8, 30am, and, finished, at, 6pm, but, at, least, it, meant, i, was, out, the, office, and, did, not, have, to, face, any, of, the, usual, hassle, factors, it, was, good, to, see, as, the, place, is, always, well, run, and, organised, a, real, family, farm, with, three, generations, working, together, but, granddad, at, 75, still, very, much, calling, the, shots, the, craic, was, good, at, lunch, as, their, sister, is, friendly, with, my, wife, so, i, got, custard, with, my, rhubarb, tart, my, wife, doesn’t, like, custard, so, i, never, get, as, i, cannot, be, bothered, to, make, it, for, one, as, the, kids, never, have, it, and, so, are, very, conservative, they, were, asking, my, view, of, the, future, too, as, they, have, sold, bullocks, privately, ie, not, through, the, auction, as, they, are, on, 21, day, stand, still, and, the, price, is, poorer, than, selling, via, the, auction, defra, will, not, allow, any, trade, through, an, auction, if, the, farms, are, on, standstill, why, if, they, are, dead, in24hrs, there, is, minimal, risk, and, they, are, putting, everyone’s, backs, up, tues, 26th, went, for, my, first, visit, to, another, restocked, farm, and, during, the, 4, month, waiting, as, well, as, visit, new, zealand, he, has, made, a, sandstone, plaque, 3ft, by, 4, ft, and, carved, on, the, date, they, went, down, with, fmd, and, the, number, of, cattle, it, is, almost, a, head, stone, type, memorial, the, cow, had, digestive, problems, a, right, displaced, abomasums, rda, probably, due, to, the, transit, and, change, in, diet, weds, 27th, small, animal, day, and, trying, to, get, everything, organised, for, going, away, finalised, advert, in, vet, record, for, new, assistant, lots, of, adverts, but, no, applicants, all, the, local, practices, are, advertising, and, there, are, no, takers, i, hope, it, is, because, there, is, a, shortage, and, not, from, lack, of, confidence, in, the, area, defra, haven’t, paid, us, for, a, lot, of, visits, and, that, needs, sorted, they, have, no, record, of, the, visits, i, e, they, have, lost, the, claim, forms, in, the, mountain, of, paper, work, they, will, only, pay, on, the, originals, as, if, there, are, duplicates, they, will, probably, pay, on, those, as, well, being, that, well, organised, they, are, really, slipping, back, into, their, old, ways, of, paper, chasing, the, frustration, without, and, within, is, palpable, i, should, just, quit, as, i, will, be, a, civil, servant, once, removed, unless, things, change, the, secretary’s, are, both, on, fmd, funded, computer, courses, so, digging, out, the, paper, work, will, have, to, wait, thurs, 28th, demob, happy, just, the, test, to, read, and, i, am, off, for, 10, days, the, test, was, clear, but, very, busy, as, a, locum, came, for, a, look, around, to, see, if, he, would, do, sa, for, several, days, a, week, any, help, i, think, will, be, a, help, good, friday, missed, out, on, church, as, one, of, the, boys, through, a, complete, wobbler, he, is, not, very, well, just, tired, at, end, of, term, i, hope, then, went, walking, with, family, and, friends, i, must, learn, to, shoot, him, down, when, he, says, it, is, a, little, scramble, what, he, means, is, its, too, dangerous, for, kids, but, it, was, fun, and, we, enjoyed, it, the, weather, was, glorious, and, the, fells, were, crowded, tourism, is, back, went, up, over, sharp, edge, to, blencathra, kids, as, well, holiday, sat, 6th, april, came, back, on, the, late, boat, from, belfast, and, arrived, in, to, wigton, late, the, grandparents, were, sad, to, see, us, go, but, i, think, they, had, also, found, us, all, quite, tiring, the, kids, have, enjoyed, playing, squash, so, that, is, something, i, would, like, to, continue, sun, 7th, april, beautiful, frosty, morning, and, went, to, church, where, the, speaker, arrived, much, to, s’s, relief, just, as, he, was, announcing, the, last, song, before, the, sermon, i, think, he, was, wondering, what, he, would, say, instead, of, the, prepared, sermon, went, to, son, s, foot, ball, cup, match, this, is, 10, year, olds, we, are, talking, about, and, the, referee, was, making, several, bad, decisions, including, a, dubious, penalty, against, his, team, northbank, the, crowd, well, about, 30, of, us, which, for, his, team, is, a, big, crowd, was, getting, a, bit, restless, robbie, was, sprinting, down, the, wing, in, front, of, his, dad, and, me, when, he, was, sent, flying, by, one, of, their, team, his, dad, then, shouted, ref, if, you, gave, a, penalty, for, them, for, nothing, you, could, at, least, give, us, a, foul, for, that, at, which, point, the, ref, blew, his, whistle, and, came, across, and, thumped, him, the, whole, thing, was, about, to, descend, in, to, a, brawl, as, i, and, another, parent, were, trying, to, restore, calm, by, telling, everyone, to, walk, away, which, they, did, followed, by, the, northbank, kids, game, abandoned, so, we, await, the, fa’s, report, so, with, that, and, the, carlisle, manager, being, sacked, and, the, knighton’s, trading, insults, with, the, prospective, buyer, for, carlisle, the, future, of, football, in, carlisle, is, not, looking, good, mon, 8th, last, day, off, for, sorting, out, vcf, magazine, and, getting, up, to, date, with, paper, work, etc, did, carrock, fell, where, we, did, not, see, another, walker, it, was, sunny, and, cold, but, beautiful, at, night, went, to, crusaders, area, meeting, where, they, are, trying, to, get, some, one, to, arrange, area, events, for, kids, and, to, support, the, group, structure, there, is, no, one, who, has, the, time, and, no, funding, to, appoint, a, post, to, do, it, so, went, around, in, circles, too, a, large, degree, but, meeting, decided, to, try, and, raise, the, funding, tues, 9th, feel, like, i, should, have, handed, in, notice, after, today, it, was, awful, going, back, the, response, to, the, advert, for, a, new, vet, now, stands, at, 2, students, who, have, yet, to, qualify, i, had, harry, giving, me, grief, over, the, fact, that, defra, promised, him, that, we, would, test, his, cattle, prior, to, turn, out, i, e, end, of, march, but, haven’t, told, us, very, helpful, his, allocation, has, not, even, come, through, they, are, useless, i, was, at, one, farm, that, has, half, restocked, because, the, parlour, is, not, yet, restored, the, heifers, are, calving, and, he, is, milking, into, a, dump, bucket, and, throwing, the, milk, away, he, can’t, get, more, stock, in, because, he, is, waiting, testing, for, brucellosis, as, his, heifers, were, on, the, same, farm, as, the, french, heifer, that, went, down, he, wanted, to, bring, them, direct, to, his, own, farm, they, would, not, let, him, bring, the, heifers, to, his, own, farm, because, the, paper, work, was, not, through, and, they, not, would, allow, multiple, drop, offs, idiots, so, with, high, levels, of, frustration, and, complete, overload, it, has, not, been, a, good, start, back, tomorrow, i, must, see, what, is, hiding, in, my, in, tray, as, i, never, had, a, chance, to, look, today, weds, 10th, quieter, day, and, managed, to, catch, up, with, paper, work, and, have, had, a, lot, of, next, week, mapped, out, so, feel, more, in, control, night, work, seems, to, be, easing, with, fewer, lambings, students, seem, to, be, enjoying, their, time, with, us, even, though, there, is, too, little, time, to, actually, teach, them, but, it, is, a, luxury, to, have, time, to, go, through, cases, with, them, as, we, take, them, on, a, voluntary, basis, and, at, the, moment, lunch, is, a, higher, priority, than, their, education, i’m, a, selfish, brat, thurs, 11th, spoke, too, soon, chaotic, again, managing, workload, with, so, much, fire, brigade, work, is, not, so, easy, fire, brigade, work, is, the, emergency, work, that, needs, seen, urgently, ie, today, if, not, now, son, isn’t, so, well, again, he, tired, easily, again, today, so, must, make, an, appointment, for, him, but, very, vague, signs, fri, 12th, half, day, finish, yo, i, could, really, get, into, a, 3, and, a, half, day, week, the, down, side, is, it, is, because, my, wife, is, going, away, for, the, w, e, so, i, have, to, be, finished, by, 3, 15, for, kids, as, i, want, to, have, the, people, carrier, i, also, have, to, muck, out, my, car, it, is, not, as, bad, since, fmd, another, positive, contribution, that, fmd, has, made, to, my, life, i, actually, feel, morally, obliged, to, keep, my, car, from, being, a, biohazard, ok, i, still, needed, a, wheelie, bin, to, through, all, the, post, it, notes, and, bits, of, cardboard, and, the, excessive, packaging, that, surrounds, any, medical, product, that, seems, to, find, its, way, on, to, the, back, seat, of, my, car, i, always, remember, reading, a, sunday, paper, article, about, what, cars, different, people, drove, and, what, they, had, lying, around, in, the, back, seat, and, what, this, showed, about, their, personality, i’m, sure, that, they, would, have, had, a, field, day, with, my, car, you, use, to, be, able, to, tell, farm, vets, cars, from, a, mile, off, but, they, have, all, gone, clean, and, shiny, sat, 13th, april, a, week, end, off, and, the, thought, of, a, saturday, morning, lie, in, unfortunately, there, is, a, football, tournament, in, carlisle, today, 9am, start, so, up, as, usual, and, get, into, town, but, managed, to, get, to, staples, which, i, have, been, trying, to, do, since, my, birthday, to, spend, my, birthday, money, the, difference, between, men, and, boys, is, the, size, of, their, toys, as, my, wife, frequently, reminds, me, so, i, am, the, proud, owner, of, a, digital, camera, the, question, is, when, will, i, find, time, to, set, it, up, took, back, all, the, library, books, and, made, the, mistake, of, checking, with, the, librarian, who, says, we, also, have, a, talking, book, and, another, junior, fiction, well, i, thought, it, would, have, been, lucky, to, get, them, all, if, they, ever, bring, in, fines, for, kids, we, are, sunk, how, does, my, wife, keep, track, of, them, all, came, home, and, enjoyed, the, good, weather, and, fortunately, the, team, bottomed, out, so, didn’t, get, into, the, next, round, v, asked, as, she, dropped, other, son, off, from, the, football, where, has, wife, gone, as, other, son, has, said, she, was, away, at, gruerly, where, is, that, she, is, away, for, a, girlie, w, e, so, we, had, time, for, a, family, cycle, ride, out, from, kirkbride, to, the, coast, it, was, beautiful, and, we, had, a, really, good, time, came, back, via, wigton, for, supplies, as, we, are, in, desperate, need, of, a, tesco, shop, sunday, 14th, had, an, easy, day, and, cooked, with, a, for, tomorrow, as, my, wife, is, doing, supply, next, week, its, ages, since, i, have, cooked, even, made, scones, church, was, a, video, sermon, which, was, ok, but, different, saw, p, he, s, back, from, nz, so, will, have, to, arrange, to, catch, up, he, was, incredibly, jet, lagged, it, must, be, sunday, cos, everyones, in, church, 36, hrs, travelling, wife, arrived, back, from, her, week, end, away, at, capernwray, having, had, a, week, end, that, sounded, as, if, they, had, all, gone, back, to, their, teenage, years, with, midnight, feasts, and, playing, tricks, on, each, other, she, was, quite, tired, and, pleased, to, have, an, early, night, mon, 15th, the, diary, has, unfortunately, died, at, this, point, and, it, is, 3, weeks, later, and, i, am, going, back, and, filling, in, the, details, as, i, remember, them, it, is, probably, the, bits, that, are, really, important, but, as, there, is, too, much, going, on, the, diary, has, remained, on, my, to, do, list, together, with, my, tax, return, and, a, small, mountain, of, paperwork, the, reasons, are, varied, but, one, of, them, is, that, my, youngest, lost, his, temper, with, the, computer, and, slammed, down, the, mouse, this, broke, the, left, right, bar, so, the, pointer, would, only, go, up, and, down, now, the, practice, manager, who, learnt, his, computing, in, the, dark, ages, of, doss, assures, me, you, do, not, need, a, mouse, to, operate, a, computer, but, as, i, have, enough, problems, trying, to, get, the, stupid, machine, to, do, what, i, want, it, to, with, a, mouse, forget, trying, shortcut, keys, and, arrows, so, a, new, mouse, was, bought, which, the, man, assured, my, wife, you, just, had, to, plug, in, and, hey, presto, it, would, find, a, driver, and, work, blank, screens, consult, hand, book, try, inserting, disk, try, exploring, disk, try, windows, disk, consult, practice, manager, who, as, you, may, have, gathered, is, my, it, guru, he, says, you, may, need, to, install, a, driver, if, it, doesn’t, work, it, will, be, on, the, disk, i, don’t, have, a, mouse, to, use, to, try, to, find, and, install, a, driver, he, assures, me, again, you, don’t, need, a, mouse, i, understand, why, my, youngest, son, lost, his, temper, with, the, stupid, machine, being, the, mature, adult, that, i, can, some, times, be, i, walk, away, to, cool, off, but, don’t, feel, like, trying, again, for, 24, hours, with, a, new, mouse, which, the, man, assured, my, wife, you, just, had, to, plug, in, and, hey, presto, it, would, find, a, driver, and, work, plugged, it, in, it, said, looking, for, driver, installing, driver, and, it, worked, why, why, not, first, time, tuesday, thursday, riding, lights, went, to, see, riding, lights, who, are, a, christian, theatre, group, who, were, performing, at, the, senior, school, at, night, they, were, extremely, funny, and, hard, hitting, and, very, pointed, all, at, the, same, time, it, was, a, magazine, of, sketches, on, all, sorts, of, different, things, modern, interpretations, of, parables, and, bible, stories, sketches, asking, questions, about, society, and, how, we, view, things, very, difficult, to, put, into, words, but, thought, provoking, on, lots, of, levels, sat, 20th, april, to, weds, 24th, april, lost, in, the, mists, of, time, thursday, 25th, starting, the, diary, again, after, having, missed, 10, days, with, too, much, going, on, the, spring, work, is, chaotic, with, a, lot, of, problems, we, are, trying, to, run, the, practice, on, 5, vets, plus, a, part, time, locum, instead, of, 7, full, time, at, this, time, of, year, i, had, said, we, should, have, advertised, and, tried, to, get, some, one, at, xmas, but, the, view, was, that, falling, milk, price, would, mean, less, work, but, the, defra, tasting, is, more, than, making, up, for, those, who, haven’t, restocked, and, those, who, have, gone, out, of, dairy, which, brings, us, the, most, work, but, saying, i, told, you, so, does, not, help, so, i’ll, just, keep, my, big, mouth, shut, as, the, practice, manager, says, the, good, old, days, when, we, new, what, the, rota, was, going, to, be, and, we, were, not, just, making, up, it, up, as, we, went, along, we, have, had, over, a, year, of, crisis, management, now, the, end, must, be, nigh, as, this, is, a, health, survey, apart, from, feeling, pressure, of, work, i, am, have, also, managed, to, catch, ringworm, on, my, leg, a, fungal, infection, from, cows, and, it, is, itchy, and, sore, and, not, responding, to, my, treatment, i, will, have, to, get, gp’s, opinion, friday, 26th, april, remind, me, next, time, not, to, try, to, interview, during, busy, periods, it, is, very, embarrassing, to, turn, up, late, to, the, interview, we, had, a, chaotic, day, but, managed, to, interview, her, she, is, frighteningly, well, prepared, and, had, lists, of, questions, i, hope, we, didn’t, put, her, off, by, being, so, disorganised, i, think, the, sandale, view, will, be, more, influential, as, part, of, the, interview, we, always, take, them, up, to, sandale, viewpoint, to, show, them, the, practice, spread, out, panoramically, beneath, them, well, it, sold, me, the, job, after, finally, getting, finished, i, was, exhausted, but, had, people, to, dinner, so, had, to, stay, awake, and, be, sociable, sat, 27th, april, had, folk, to, dinner, last, night, which, after, working, flat, out, was, probably, not, such, a, clever, idea, didn’t, fall, asleep, but, this, morning, i, feel, like, death, warmed, up, and, we, have, another, interview, this, morning, i, don’t, think, i, can, make, a, good, impression, so, it, is, a, good, job, that, i, am, looking, to, employ, rather, than, be, employed, the, candidate, is, from, a, kirby, stephen, farmers, daughter, and, so, is, at, an, immediate, advantage, she, seems, fine, so, we, will, offer, her, the, job, the, question, is, should, we, offer, them, both, a, job, went, to, bed, feeling, ill, and, with, a, migraine, and, slept, all, afternoon, and, then, in, bed, for, 9pm, sad, or, what, sun, 28th, feel, a, lot, better, for, the, sleep, and, church, was, af, speaking, he, is, always, entertaining, his, opening, slide, was, knighton, in, for, those, of, you, who, do, not, keep, up, with, the, footie, in, carlisle, michael, knighton, is, the, hated, owner, of, carlisle, united, who, is, trying, to, get, the, club, relegated, so, he, can, build, houses, on, the, land, he, is, destroying, the, club, and, it, is, not, popular, anyway, the, second, slide, was, here, for, grace, and, forgiveness, he, went, on, to, say, that, church, should, be, where, the, failures, should, feel, loved, and, welcome, as, we, all, need, god’s, love, and, forgiveness, he, was, really, good, both, entertaining, and, making, real, points, spent, time, in, the, garden, and, playing, footie, with, the, boys, mon, 29th, monday, morning, and, that, sinking, feeling, not, helped, by, my, wife’s, teaching, 3, days, this, week, and, a, trustees, meeting, for, borderline, which, means, additional, pressure, after, running, around, all, morning, and, working, out, the, amount, of, holiday, we, are, all, owed, the, conclusion, is, that, we, will, employ, them, both, i, am, owed, 46, days, holiday, so, if, i, can, take, 2, months, off, that, plus, the, sabbatical, i, am, owed, means, i, could, take, 5, months, off, i, wish, it, were, happening, the, 5, vets, are, owed, over, 200, days, between, us, which, will, be, almost, a, vet, for, a, year, as, this, is, a, health, diary, i, should, mention, my, visit, to, the, doctor, after, a, half, an, hour, wait, past, my, appointment, time, fizzing, knowing, that, i, would, have, to, make, the, time, up, later, in, my, evening, i, finally, saw, the, doc, who, agreed, with, my, diagnosis, and, agreed, with, my, treatment, only, an, occupational, hazard, of, farm, work, ring, worm, he, did, take, scrapings, but, that, is, all, tuesday, testing, next, door, why, do, we, always, end, up, working, in, a, pen, under, the, railway, in, a, middle, of, a, stream, why, they, cannot, build, a, pen, on, dry, land, away, from, the, trains, i, don’t, know, i, suppose, they, have, always, done, it, that, way, but, the, first, you, know, of, a, train, is, the, thunder, as, it, goes, over, your, head, which, startles, the, cows, who, jump, sending, a, muddy, slurry, flying, everywhere, william, is, still, not, wearing, a, helmet, for, the, quad, bike, as, he, drives, around, despite, his, fathers, protests, their, neighbour, the, other, way, is, brain, damaged, after, coming, off, his, weds, 1st, of, may, mayday, the, radio, is, predicting, riots, in, paris, against, or, for, le, pen, anti, globalists, in, london, but, i, feel, a, real, peace, with, the, turning, of, the, month, it, is, funny, how, a, different, month, can, make, you, feel, so, different, april, is, always, the, worst, month, at, work, with, a, lot, of, routine, work, dehorning, and, testing, and, a, lot, of, lambings, and, calvings, and, emergencies, even, though, the, beginning, of, may, is, just, the, same, i, always, feel, we, have, passed, the, peak, and, we, can, cruise, into, summer, the, fact, that, both, have, accepted, the, jobs, and, that, we, will, have, more, cover, helps, though, they, will, not, start, until, summer, thursday, 2nd, may, in, spite, of, all, yesterdays, predictions, there, wasn’t, any, trouble, in, paris, or, london, only, cyclists, causing, traffic, jams, what, is, about, the, media, that, they, have, to, report, the, bad, news, not, the, good, news, i, haven’t, seen, anything, beyond, the, cumberland, news, on, the, farms, restocking, stopped, at, beckfoot, on, my, rounds, and, sat, in, the, sunshine, on, the, beach, for, 10, mins, and, thought, this, is, the, life, though, in, talking, to, one, of, the, neighbours, one, of, the, farmers, is, having, real, problems, getting, motivated, he, had, milking, ayrshires, really, quiet, cows, who, you, could, do, anything, with, their, idea, of, getting, excited, was, turn, out, time, and, moving, into, a, fast, amble, to, the, spring, pastures, he, has, bought, in, really, wild, suckler, limousin, x’s, if, you, look, at, them, the, wrong, way, they, put, their, tails, in, the, air, and, take, off, i, was, there, dehorning, and, we, lost, one, which, jumped, over, a, gate, another, put, its, tail, in, the, air, and, took, off, only, stopping, when, it, came, to, the, block, wall, at, the, end, of, the, yard, unfortunately, it, didn’t, stop, fast, enough, and, crashed, headlong, into, it, it, now, has, a, definite, tilt, to, it, the, wall, isn’t, too, hot, either, i, think, if, i, had, to, look, after, the, likes, of, them, i, wouldn’t, be, too, keen, to, get, out, of, bed, either, friday, 3rd, may, spoke, too, early, about, things, easing, off, 2, bad, calvings, a, caesarean, and, testing, plus, the, usual, ill, animals, but, got, finished, for, 5, 45, and, took, my, wife, out, for, dinner, at, the, cockatoo, in, cockermouth, very, pleasant, but, while, she, wanted, to, go, on, to, socialise, at, 10pm, i, wanted, home, to, bed, sat, 4th, may, off, yippee, took, the, kids, to, nichol, end, and, went, canoeing, on, the, lake, got, absolutely, frozen, but, was, really, good, fun, it, rained, in, spite, of, all, the, good, weather, forecasts, but, with, our, style, of, canoeing, we, are, always, soaked, anyway, had, a, picnic, on, one, of, the, islands, and, had, fun, came, back, and, slept, for, the, afternoon, should, have, taken, the, boys, to, see, the, fa, cup, but, they, were, happy, playing, around, watched, ghandi, on, dvd, at, night, it, is, a, very, moving, film, and, the, ambiguities, and, politics, came, through, to, a, muted, extent, which, was, interesting, it, often, makes, me, wonder, about, how, much, of, govt, policy, is, personality, driven, again, the, inability, of, individuals, to, fight, the, system, came, through, the, front, page, of, the, times, this, morning, was, on, a, toddler, who, had, died, from, post, op, haemorrhage, following, the, use, of, disposable, instruments, in, a, tonsillectomy, large, amounts, of, money, have, been, spent, on, disposable, instruments, that, are, always, inferior, to, good, quality, surgical, kit, several, people, have, died, because, of, their, use, because, no, one, wanted, to, take, the, very, small, theoretical, risk, that, they, may, transfer, nvcjd, the, approach, to, risk, management, and, prioritisation, within, government, and, the, civil, service, is, very, poor, but, to, be, fait, to, them, the, press, is, not, helpful, i, would, like, to, see, prescott, stand, up, and, say, that, he, wants, more, deaths, on, the, railways, but, he, never, will, if, less, money, was, spent, on, safety, on, the, railways, more, trains, at, more, convenient, times, were, run, at, lower, costs, then, there, would, be, fewer, deaths, on, the, roads, but, as, no, one, holds, politicians, responsible, for, deaths, on, the, roads, it, ain’t, gonna, happen, sun, 5th, may, church, was, dn, who, is, brilliant, at, getting, the, kids, involved, son, s, face, lit, up, when, we, were, walking, in, to, church, to, see, him, walking, down, botchergate, with, guitar, in, hand, he, had, a, skin, that, had, been, cast, from, a, snake, and, based, his, songs, with, the, kids, and, his, talks, with, them, on, being, a, new, creation, cor, 5, vs, 17, getting, rid, of, the, old, self, and, hence, the, snake, skin, he, is, brilliant, on, the, guitar, and, a, real, performer, wasted, as, a, tax, inspector, mon, 6th, may, maybe, getting, the, kids, soaked, and, frozen, on, sat, was, not, a, good, idea, as, they, are, all, coming, down, with, colds, now, tim, is, very, chesty, and, was, up, in, the, night, hot, and, wheezy, any, infection, always, goes, for, his, chest, so, helvellyn, will, have, to, wait, for, another, day, so, concreted, posts, and, pressure, washed, the, yard, the, boys, loved, helping, then, demanded, i, play, football, as, payment, ag, was, here, as, his, dad, was, dropping, off, the, caravan, after, being, away, for, the, w, e, p, called, up, from, manchester, en, route, for, thailand, she, is, handing, in, her, notice, and, going, booked, summer, holiday, in, france, and, now, have, to, work, out, what, we, are, doing, on, the, way, there, and, back, tues, 7th, may, went, testing, but, i, really, do, have, the, kids, bug, and, feel, hot, and, feverish, went, to, bed, for, rest, of, day, weds, 8th, didn’t, feel, like, getting, out, of, bed, but, went, to, work, first, was, a, deer, rta, i, was, supposed, to, meet, a, police, car, there, but, no, police, either, car, or, policeman, i, am, glad, it, wasn’t, too, controversial, or, important, so, i, have, taken, all, details, and, hope, that, that, is, the, end, of, it, this, afternoon, was, spent, chasing, stirks, around, a, field, and, abbeytown, we, dehorned, them, they, should, have, been, done, this, time, last, year, but, were, n’t, because, of, fmd, they’re, now, 2, yr, old, which, means, they, were, really, too, big, to, go, around, upsetting, two, went, through, the, dyke, one, way, the, other, went, through, the, other, side, into, some, one’s, garden, and, on, to, the, abbeytown, road, so, it, was, a, bit, of, a, rodeo, it, ended, up, charging, m, who, hurt, his, shoulder, trying, to, escape, he, was, not, happy, as, this, morning, he, got, his, letter, asking, him, to, cut, back, is, milk, production, he, had, jokingly, asked, what, was, i, doing, this, winter, as, all, the, farmers, will, have, given, up, by, christmas, the, long, term, out, look, is, not, good, but, at, least, we, will, have, 2, new, graduates, in, training, to, cope, with, the, upturn, when, if, it, comes, thurs, 9th, day, off, unfortunately, spent, the, morning, shopping, in, carlisle, which, meant, wandering, around, shops, and, trying, to, find, clothes, i, needed, a, my, daughter, as, my, dress, sense, leaves, a, lot, to, be, desired, and, she, keeps, me, right, met, gb, another, carlisle, vet, which, was, good, i, haven’t, seen, him, for, a, bit, had, lunch, out, which, was, nice, though, also, got, all, the, bits, for, the, tennis, net, so, will, be, able, to, get, it, up, the, annoying, bit, was, i, got, a, parking, ticket, which, sent, my, blood, pressure, up, now, i, know, i, often, park, with, out, paying, and, in, the, wrong, places, that, is, just, living, dangerously, but, as, we, were, in, carlisle, and, had, decided, to, go, out, for, lunch, and, for, some, reason, i, was, in, wife, s, car, as, usual, there, was, no, change, in, the, car, well, as, usual, there, was, no, money, at, all, i, only, had, myself, to, blame, i, know, she, never, has, change, in, the, car, i, only, had, enough, for, 2, hours, in, my, pocket, which, to, be, honest, is, in, my, opinion, quite, long, enough, in, carlisle, shops, so, on, the, way, to, lunch, out, i, made, a, special, trip, back, to, the, car, park, armed, with, coins, ready, to, pay, the, city, council, the, extortionate, fee, so, i, could, spend, more, money, in, carlisle, city, shops, the, first, machine, refused, my, coins, i, even, tried, a, 2nd, machine, that, also, refused, to, accept, my, hard, earned, cash, so, i, left, a, note, saying, the, machine, was, not, working, in, the, windscreen, and, yes, you, guessed, it, i, came, back, to, find, a, traffic, warden, giving, me, a, ticket, who, justified, his, action, by, saying, there, w, ere, 4, machines, from, which, i, could, have, bought, a, ticket, grrrrhhh, fri, 10th, finish, of, another, week, with, more, tb, testing, a, lot, of, cows, from, netherlands, mris, meuse, rhine, issel, very, good, beefy, looking, dairy, cows, dual, purpose, why, we, have, to, test, them, i, don’t, know, but, we, have, to, keep, page, st, happy, they, were, all, tested, prior, to, export, from, holland, and, they, want, them, tested, again, the, farmer, is, very, bio, security, conscious, and, has, his, land, all, in, a, single, block, now, bounded, by, roads, or, arable, cultivation, all, the, other, cattle, he, insisted, were, tested, and, he, had, the, results, prior, to, purchase, in, spite, of, all, his, good, sense, he, is, still, going, on, about, the, missing, vials, from, porton, down, and, other, paranoid, conspiracy, theories, on, the, spread, of, fmd, but, a, part, from, cold, flu, feel, as, though, things, are, getting, back, on, track, we, can, look, to, the, next, 12, months, with, confidence, thereafter, depends, on, whether, the, wto, wins, over, the, eu, to, get, rid, of, subsidies, or, whether, maintaining, the, food, supply, within, the, eu, is, seen, as, important, the, one, thing, the, fmd, has, taught, me, is, that, you, never, know, what, will, be, coming, next, i, do, feel, guilty, about, saying, there, should, be, more, train, crashes, after, seeing, the, crash, in, the, news, today, at, potters, bar, sat, 11th, may, working, the, w, e, again, saw, another, calf, with, ccn, caused, by, a, deficiency, of, b1, usually, rare, but, seems, to, be, much, more, prevalent, this, year, due, to, old, grass, on, pastures, don’t, know, had, a, greyhound, client, in, bringing, in, a, greyhound, on, behalf, of, some, one, else, who, has, been, chased, from, the, practice, for, non, payment, so, had, a, stressful, half, hour, negotiating, with, an, irate, idiot, but, he, paid, his, old, bill, and, stumped, up, front, for, the, new, one, and, seemed, placated, treating, the, animals, is, easy, spent, the, afternoon, in, the, garden, and, fixing, up, the, tennis, nat, we, were, given, an, old, second, hand, net, so, i, have, fixed, up, on, the, concrete, and, it, was, good, fun, playing, with, the, kids, the, concrete, is, not, level, and, has, lots, of, loose, stones, so, the, bounce, is, a, bit, erratic, went, to, a, 50th, birthday, party, for, which, i, was, teased, at, work, but, i, maintain, we, are, friends, with, the, children, in, their, 20, s, it, was, a, good, craic, and, the, food, was, brilliant, there, was, one, of, the, partners, from, a, lawyers, from, carlisle, there, complaining, that, he, could, only, have, an, hourly, rate, of, charging, out, at, 185, consequently, he, couldn’t, attract, good, lawyers, to, his, firm, because, the, city, firms, were, offering, far, greater, salaries, and, were, charging, out, their, juniors, at, 200, i, couldn’t, admit, that, our, hourly, rate, is, only, 45, and, that, i, think, that, 45, hour, is, a, lot, of, money, should, have, been, a, 9, to, 5, lawyer, sunday, went, to, church, nl, but, was, still, half, asleep, from, my, late, night, spent, all, afternoon, and, evening, out, on, calls, was, ok, till, the, midnight, call, when, i, decided, that, being, a, lawyer, was, probably, a, much, better, idea, monday, 13th, half, asleep, after, the, w, e, so, took, a, little, while, to, get, going, having, kept, this, week, a, bit, quieter, as, there, should, have, been, a, lot, of, last, minute, dehorning, and, castrating, it, hasn’t, come, in, so, we, really, are, quieter, so, did, some, office, work, but, trying, to, work, out, why, the, two, computer, systems, we, have, do, not, have, the, same, balances, on, their, accounts, with, a, tired, sore, head, is, not, worthwhile, but, it, was, preferable, to, sorting, rotas, so, i, when, came, home, i, sat, and, read, tintin, much, to, my, wife’s, disgust, i, also, looked, at, my, cash, flow, predictions, which, were, totally, out, of, line, i, usually, take, a, pessimistic, view, so, as, err, on, the, side, of, caution, but, they, are, totally, out, fortunately, the, right, way, the, partners, think, it, is, a, waste, of, time, and, effort, to, try, to, predict, how, much, of, the, bills, the, farmers, are, going, to, pay, in, any, month, some, pay, every, month, but, most, pay, every, now, and, again, either, when, they, have, time, or, money, or, when, the, accountant, or, vat, man, needs, the, books, i, suppose, they, are, right, who, cares, so, long, as, they, do, pay, also, finally, caught, up, with, gp, as, ringworm, still, not, getting, better, so, finally, on, antifungals, if, the, farmers, couldn’t, get, hold, of, a, vet, pretty, quickly, to, discuss, what’s, going, on, they, would, give, us, earache, tuesday, 14th, halfway, through, may, and, time, to, get, the, rest, of, the, planting, done, in, the, garden, beautiful, weather, and, feels, like, summer, is, here, gg, had, a, visit, from, trading, standards, over, the, bulls, for, which, he, had, given, a, certificate, of, fitness, to, travel, there, is, now, no, slaughterhouse, within, an, hour’s, drive, of, here, for, cattle, ulverston, is, the, nearest, if, an, animal, is, not, fit, to, be, transported, alive, for, some, reason, e.g, because, it, is, lame, or, blind, etc, then, it, has, to, be, shot, on, the, farm, and, the, carcase, transported, to, the, slaughterhouse, however, under, the, new, meat, hygiene, regulations, of, 2, 3, years, ago, the, carcase, has, to, arrive, within, an, hour, of, being, shot, which, was, fine, while, black, brow, was, operating, the, slaughterhouse, but, since, it, has, closed, there, are, no, options, for, any, animals, to, be, shot, on, the, farm, unless, you, put, it, in, your, own, freezer, for, your, own, consumption, thus, whereas, if, there, were, borderline, cases, before, they, were, shot, on, the, farm, and, the, carcases, transported, now, the, pressure, is, to, get, them, transported, alive, or, the, farmer, loses, the, value, of, the, animal, 500, 600, and, has, to, pay, 75, to, get, them, shot, and, disposed, of, the, sooner, either, carlisle, slaughterhouse, or, black, brow, slaughterhouse, get, working, again, the, better, weds, 15th, day, off, spent, the, morning, catching, up, on, paper, work, feel, better, for, it, but, never, my, favourite, job, but, all, the, bits, and, pieces, are, in, place, for, my, tax, return, just, waiting, for, the, final, few, pieces, of, paper, wrote, a, caustic, letter, to, council, about, the, parking, ticket, but, sent, them, a, cheque, as, not, worth, the, fight, went, to, up, front, art, gallery, for, lunch, some, one, had, made, a, set, of, peat, rings, with, a, golden, bowl, at, the, centre, and, wanted, hundreds, of, pounds, for, their, art, creation, if, you, don’t, ask, you, don’t, get, spent, afternoon, running, the, kids, as, wife, was, taking, a, in, town, for, hair, cut, and, girl, time, last, football, match, for, northbank, and, son, lost, thursday, 16th, the, long, lunch, is, back, there, wasn’t, much, happening, vet, wise, but, still, a, lambing, today, as, the, season, has, dragged, on, one, restocking, farmer, was, in, today, with, a, ewe, to, be, lambed, of, the, 200, sheep, he, is, supposed, to, be, fattening, for, market, 20, have, lambed, the, guy, he, bought, them, from, is, adamant, they, were, never, near, a, tup, someone, needs, to, tell, him, about, the, birds, and, the, bees, there, was, also, a, good, if, slightly, apocryphal, story, from, defra, licensing, when, they, needed, a, licence, to, move, a, bull, the, licensing, department, asked, is, this, bull, going, to, be, used, for, breeding, purposes, yes, is, the, farmers, reply, will, this, animal, be, coming, in, to, contact, with, any, other, animals, friday, 17th, another, tb, test, another, restocking, farm, more, stories, the, best, one, was, the, fact, that, their, cattle, had, lain, for, a, week, in, the, pasture, field, after, being, shot, they, decided, to, plough, it, out, for, barley, in, the, back, end, having, spent, the, summer, pressure, washing, the, farm, buildings, to, a, gleaming, state, of, sterility, where, the, animals, had, lain, there, was, still, obvious, contamination, with, blood, etc, when, they, ploughed, it, but, having, failed, the, buildings, on, specks, of, dirt, defra, were, just, not, interested, in, contaminated, blood, stained, earth, they, had, also, phoned, the, day, before, i, arrived, to, send, some, one, out, to, arrange, tb, testing, the, chaos, in, there, continues, sat, 18th, may, i, am, to, be, best, man, a, friend, was, around, last, night, with, news, about, getting, married, we, have, a, wedding, every, month, for, the, next, 4, months, must, be, something, in, the, water, at, the, moment, unfortunately, it, meant, it, was, a, really, late, night, celebrating, and, i, am, working, the, w, e, again, so, getting, up, for, saturday, morning, surgery, was, a, bit, grim, i, survived, and, so, did, most, of, the, animals, the, worrying, thing, is, i, am, sure, that, drs, are, just, the, same, spent, the, afternoon, playing, football, and, tennis, with, the, kids, in, the, yard, and, mowing, the, grass, the, farmers, are, all, now, silaging, and, the, roads, are, full, of, tractors, flying, around, at, all, times, of, night, and, day, sat, evening, went, with, wife, to, hear, sa, speak, at, kd’s, it, was, good, to, see, him, and, clare, again, we, visited, them, in, bombay, at, the, height, of, fmd, and, it, always, puts, things, back, into, perspective, he, runs, a, mission, hospital, in, thane, an, outskirt, of, bombay, they, have, it, self, funding, by, charging, the, rich, for, luxury, service, a, long, way, behind, the, nhs, and, providing, a, basic, service, foc, for, the, average, indian, he, is, now, talking, about, trying, to, raise, funding, for, building, an, aids, hospice, to, provide, pain, relief, and, dignity, to, those, who, are, dieing, of, aids, because, of, the, stigma, and, cost, and, risk, of, cross, infection, of, both, hiv, and, tb, a, lot, of, aids, patients, are, just, thrown, out, of, their, homes, and, hiv, ve, babies, are, abandoned, as, he, says, there, is, an, epidemic, sweeping, bombay, that, will, leave, a, lot, of, orphans, and, cause, secondary, epidemics, because, of, immuno, suppression, and, it, is, not, really, being, addressed, very, thought, provoking, and, makes, the, millions, wasted, on, fmd, look, very, sick, in, a, global, perspective, sun, missed, church, in, the, morning, as, was, seeing, to, cats, and, dogs, in, the, surgery, and, dripping, calf, in, the, large, animal, bay, spent, most, of, afternoon, on, visits, all, work, and, no, play, is, making, me, a, grumpy, boy, 2, w, es, in, a, row, is, not, good, mon, aw, is, in, worse, mood, than, me, and, at, least, i, have, worked, w, e, she, is, winding, every, one, up, with, her, attitude, it, is, sthg, that, will, have, to, be, addressed, but, will, have, to, be, a, partnership, decision, wife, was, interviewing, fc, tonight, at, christian, viewpoint, in, carlisle, and, came, back, full, of, it, she, is, good, with, people, and, interviewing, she, was, also, challenged, by, what, f, was, saying, about, the, importance, of, treating, people, as, loved, and, valued, by, god, in, some, ways, very, similar, to, s, about, valuing, aids, patients, we, are, all, valued, by, god, tuesday, missed, gym, for, 3rd, week, i, am, going, to, be, getting, really, unfit, i, was, on, duty, and, had, spent, time, talking, with, folk, at, work, valuing, them, but, it, was, nice, as, a, came, out, with, me, and, she, always, likes, being, on, call, with, me, but, i, never, seem, to, know, what’s, going, on, in, her, mind, still, waters, run, deep, weds, dad, phoned, and, has, decided, not, to, come, on, the, w, e, away, this, w, e, it, is, a, family, reunion, but, it, looks, like, it, will, be, just, our, family, and, p’s, but, the, kids, love, meeting, up, with, the, cousins, even, a, who, will, no, doubt, complain, that, there, should, be, some, girl, cousins, she, is, the, only, girl, on, both, wife, s, side, of, the, family, and, mine, it, is, a, bit, worrying, in, that, he, is, losing, confidence, in, doing, anything, outside, his, normal, routine, it, is, at, times, like, this, you, realise, london, is, not, really, very, close, the, other, problem, is, working, so, many, w, es, doesn’t, give, much, time, for, the, travelling, up, and, down, to, see, him, thursday, g, was, away, on, a, course, yesterday, and, came, back, full, of, doom, and, gloom, for, along, time, we, have, relied, on, the, drug, sales, as, a, substantial, part, of, the, business, there, have, been, various, government, reports, that, have, queried, our, monopoly, and, there, is, a, move, to, insist, that, we, provide, prescriptions, for, all, the, drugs, and, then, allow, the, farmers, or, pet, owners, to, buy, the, drugs, from, whatever, source, they, want, internet, pharmacy, or, us, it, means, however, that, the, professional, fees, will, inevitably, have, to, rise, to, compensate, which, means, it, will, be, uneconomic, for, the, farmers, to, use, us, so, they, will, not, in, the, present, economic, climate, which, means, no, job, carlisle, brampton, and, dalston, vets, are, all, starting, to, write, prescriptions, which, means, that, we, are, going, to, have, to, follow, suit, the, farmer, who, rents, my, field, was, silaging, tonight, i, got, back, from, house, group, to, find, a, tractor, follow, me, in, to, start, rowing, up, as, they, had, been, at, it, all, day, i, decided, to, take, the, gates, off, their, hinges, as, it, is, a, narrow, gap, and, at, that, time, of, night, a, clunk, against, the, pillar, is, ok, but, i, don’t, want, to, have, to, replace, my, wooden, gates, they, had, just, started, to, pick, it, up, when, i, went, to, bed, at, 11pm, so, no, idea, what, time, they, finished, friday, g, is, off, ill, help, it, looked, as, though, i, might, miss, out, on, the, w, e, away, as, he, is, working, the, w, e, but, the, fact, it, would, have, meant, 3, w, e’s, in, a, row, and, 6, nights, in, a, row, managed, to, help, persuade, one, of, the, assistants, to, step, in, thankfully, so, i, finished, at, lunch, time, and, slept, to, catch, up, from, the, on, call, until, the, kids, came, home, from, school, and, set, off, for, the, w, e, saturday, 25th, may, dovedale, in, the, derbyshire, peak, district, definitely, should, have, more, w, es, away, and, not, working, we, had, a, great, time, with, the, cousins, stayed, at, a, farmhouse, b, b, it, use, to, be, a, working, farm, but, is, too, high, up, and, to, small, to, sustain, the, dairy, so, they, went, out, of, that, 3, yrs, ago, beef, and, sheep, was, not, making, any, money, so, they, have, concentrated, on, tourism, and, grass, let, the, fields, his, neighbours, are, now, renting, the, land, and, farming, it, beautiful, walk, along, the, valley, and, had, tea, out, relaxed, and, slept, like, a, log, sunday, great, british, summer, makes, you, wonder, why, any, one, would, want, to, go, abroad, wet, and, cold, so, went, to, water, world, and, watched, the, kids, big, and, little, go, flying, around, the, flumes, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, my, brother, and, family, the, boys, would, play, footie, all, day, long, and, be, happy, monday, off, to, catch, my, breath, and, tidy, up, flat, for, tenants, arriving, thursday, spent, day, trying, to, reduce, the, weeds, in, garden, and, went, swimming, at, night, the, boys, still, wanted, to, play, footie, where, do, they, get, their, energy, if, i, could, bottle, it, i, would, make, a, fortune, tuesday, it, felt, like, hard, work, going, back, to, work, after, time, off, i, always, seem, to, be, tired, and, head, achy, it, seems, to, be, hard, work, to, get, going, again, ai, just, don’t, feel, like, doing, anything, including, writing, this, diary, but, the, good, news, is, that, we, have, a, new, booted, bantie, bertie, the, cockerel, and, he, is, now, ensconced, in, his, run, we, are, hoping, to, get, him, some, young, ladies, in, the, not, too, distant, future, he, is, cute, and, a, is, over, the, moon, about, him, weds, getting, going, again, spent, time, talking, with, my, wife, who, as, always, puts, things, back, in, to, line, communication, went, to, do, some, pregnancy, diagnosis, early, this, morning, and, the, farmer, was, complaining, about, the, cost, of, his, vet, bill, and, is, wanting, to, learn, how, to, check, cows, to, see, if, they, are, in, calf, prior, to, drying, off, the, whole, economics, of, dairy, practice, with, milk, at, 13p, per, litre, is, beginning, to, hit, home, to, them, cannot, be, nice, starting, up, again, to, realise, that, you, cannot, make, money, at, doing, it, one, of, the, other, vets, is, in, really, bad, form, this, week, and, is, causing, a, lot, of, friction, and, we, will, have, to, deal, with, it, as, the, staff, are, up, in, arms, at, least, i, am, off, tomorrow, prior, to, working, jubilee, w, e, my, mother, in, law, arrived, which, the, kids, love, complete, with, her, special, treats, for, them, snowballs, went, out, for, dinner, with, mother, in, law, but, too, tired, to, enjoy, it, due, to, early, morning, caesarean, thursday, off, spent, morning, getting, flat, ready, as, we, have, new, tenants, moving, in, and, clearing, up, while, the, girls, went, shopping, dry, weather, but, intermittent, heavy, showers, tackled, the, long, grass, at, front, but, the, grass, got, too, wet, and, clogged, mower, picked, up, kids, and, did, the, fatherly, bit, went, to, bed, early, as, head, achy, and, washed, out, and, caught, up, on, zzzz’s, friday, start, of, the, jubilee, w, e, and, on, duty, for, the, next, 5, days, until, 5pm, weds, evening, work, busy, with, bits, and, pieces, and, farmers, complaining, that, it, is, too, wet, to, silage, one, of, the, vets, had, issued, a, pets, export, certificate, for, a, cat, to, come, back, into, uk, but, had, put, it, down, for, 2, years, not, one, it, is, only, valid, for, 2, years, in, dogs, but, 1, year, in, cats, typical, friday, afternoon, problem, to, sort, out, the, help, line, is, closed, for, training, and, maff, offices, are, closed, for, the, bh, w, e, i, don’t, think, there, is, a, way, around, it, either, but, will, not, be, able, to, sort, it, out, till, weds, day, and, they, are, due, on, ferry, on, tuesday, oops, also, a, bitch’s, owner, came, in, to, ask, if, we, were, open, tues, as, she, is, due, on, that, date, and, will, probably, need, a, caesaer, johnboy, called, in, the, evening, wanting, me, to, go, to, the, loyal, supporters, meeting, at, carlisle, united, as, a, spy, i’m, on, call, so, couldn’t, oblige, thank, goodness, sat, 1st, june, office, staff, were, asking, why, is, there, only, 2, vets, on, the, whole, w, e, and, i, am, beginning, to, feel, the, same, should, have, split, it, up, and, had, more, staff, on, but, at, least, the, others, will, get, a, break, and, come, back, refreshed, but, i, feel, like, i, am, looking, down, the, barrel, of, a, gun, horrendous, calving, on, a, heifer, that, was, in, calf, by, mistake, to, its, father, it, was, supposed, to, have, gone, back, to, its, breeder, but, the, buyer, was, still, tied, up, under, the, twenty, day, rule, the, calf, had, died, and, was, gassed, up, ended, up, by, caesaering, in, spite, of, rotten, calf, 2, hours, hard, work, and, the, heifer, will, at, best, be, very, ill, for, several, days, sun, 2nd, june, a, day, of, football, went, to, church, and, made, a, quick, exit, to, watch, the, football, as, with, everyone, else, was, quite, disappointed, at, hebron, at, night, dm, had, the, goals, and, the, reactions, to, them, on, the, big, screen, which, he, linked, to, romans, 12, therefore, i, urge, you, to, offer, your, bodies, as, living, sacrifices, this, is, your, act, of, spiritual, worship, talking, about, worship, to, god, being, everything, we, do, including, how, we, react, to, how, the, english, football, team, perform, very, clever, and, memorable, way, of, expounding, the, bible, went, straight, on, to, son, s, football, presentations, which, was, quite, fun, there, is, a, real, football, sub, culture, with, the, amateur, football, clubs, in, carlisle, all, vying, for, the, top, spot, the, old, pals, network, and, animosities, seem, to, be, very, prevalent, mon, 3rd, june, busy, night, and, early, start, 2, x, prolapses, why, always, at, a, bh, the, second, one, was, a, wild, limousin, heifer, it, charged, me, and, sent, me, flying, the, only, injury, was, a, sore, fist, where, i, thumped, it, in, the, eye, to, try, and, deflect, it, as, i, was, trying, to, get, it, away, gave, me, a, fright, it, was, a, heifer, that, was, bred, because, he, couldn’t, sell, it, store, last, year, because, of, restrictions, chatted, to, farmer, who, started, getting, up, at, 4, 30, am, during, fmd, because, he, couldn’t, sleep, he, is, still, doing, it, now, he, still, has, not, got, any, sheep, in, because, he, can’t, face, it, he, lost, his, sheep, to, the, cull, but, kept, his, cattle, i, had, started, by, admiring, the, view, he, said, yeah, it, would, be, great, apart, from, the, damn, windmills, he, has, a, brilliant, viewing, looking, out, over, the, solway, and, the, great, orton, site, and, the, windmills, remind, him, and, everyone, else, that, their, flocks, are, in, a, big, pit, he, says, he, can, still, see, them, going, and, feels, guilty, i, didn’t, have, the, heart, to, tell, him, that, of, the, 10,000, blood, samples, taken, at, gt, orton, only, 2, were, positive, a, very, big, mistake, that, has, caused, big, hurt, in, this, area, and, no, one, has, admitted, responsibility, and, no, one, ever, will, tues, 4th, june, watched, some, of, the, jubilee, stuff, on, tv, in, between, calls, amazing, sight, to, see, the, mall, full, of, people, more, than, ever, before, yet, rupert, murdoch, and, his, press, would, have, us, believe, that, the, monarchy, is, finished, we, managed, to, cope, with, just, the, two, of, us, on, call, so, may, be, i, was, right, also, made, a, start, on, byre, remind, me, next, time, we, have, a, dinner, party, on, a, bh, not, to, be, working, it, as, my, poor, wife, had, 4, kids, and, a, dinner, to, prepare, i, was, called, out, to, a, cow, caesar, at, 3, 30, and, then, had, another, call, after, that, fortunately, i, had, taken, tim, so, there, was, one, less, to, fight, but, got, back, to, be, told, that, i, had, to, have, a, bath, before, i, could, help, because, i, smelt, evening, was, really, good, fun, and, hilariously, funny, so, even, i, kept, going, to, the, wrong, side, of, midnight, which, after, an, early, start, was, pretty, good, going, i, will, have, to, get, phil, to, do, his, senator, homes, skit, at, the, wedding, weds, 5th, june, did, not, feel, like, getting, up, this, am, at, all, and, felt, even, less, like, going, into, work, managed, to, extricate, us, from, any, problems, with, the, cat, with, out, its, passport, there, is, no, give, in, the, defra, system, which, is, to, be, expected, richard, had, a, suspect, fmd, calf, on, tuesday, no, wonder, he, was, a, bit, jittery, when, i, spoke, to, him, later, on, even, though, you, know, that, it, probably, isn’t, going, to, be, a, case, and, that, the, farmer, is, panicking, it, still, sets, the, butterflies, flying, it, was, bvd, spent, over, an, hour, and, a, half, this, morning, on, the, phone, sorting, out, what, the, aw, calls, the, rubbish, queries, and, being, helpful, and, friendly, and, sorting, out, licensing, and, drugs, and, repeat, prescriptions, one, was, a, woman, complaining, about, the, neighbouring, practice, which, required, a, bit, of, tact, i, think, the, drs, must, have, been, as, busy, as, us, the, tally, for, the, celebrations, are, 1, off, ill, with, flu, and, bad, back, one, wrist, sprained, from, scooter, racing, at, a, street, party, after, all, the, kids, had, gone, to, bed, and, one, who, spent, the, w, e, visiting, her, boyfriend, in, hospital, she, had, said, that, he, needed, to, go, in, on, friday, but, the, doctors, had, put, him, off, as, it, was, the, w, e, he, was, worse, on, sunday, but, had, waited, till, after, the, football, before, ringing, priorities, priorities, thursday, went, to, house, group, which, was, really, good, and, spent, time, praying, for, the, group, church, area, and, for, world, situation, friends, are, trying, to, work, out, what, to, do, in, india, they, are, teaching, at, a, boarding, school, in, the, south, of, india, and, have, both, their, own, family, and, also, the, school, kids, to, think, about, the, consensus, is, that, the, foreign, office, advice, is, aimed, more, at, the, indian, and, pakistani, govts, than, the, uk, nationals, ian, is, supposed, to, be, visiting, and, has, a, flight, booked, so, is, still, going, at, the, moment, i, really, cant, believe, that, they, would, escalate, the, situation, but, it, will, be, tit, for, tat, and, then, going, to, the, brink, as, neither, will, want, to, break, face, the, ramifications, of, sept, 11th, still, keep, reverberating, around, the, world, as, the, balance, of, power, alters, makes, fmd, look, like, a, picnic, at, least, we, have, stable, govt, that, says, it, abides, by, the, laws, friday, the, secretary, asked, this, morning, what, did, i, want, meaning, tea, or, coffee, and, i, replied, as, i, had, prayed, wisdom, but, with, 2, sugars, we, had, a, difficult, partners, meeting, that, lunch, time, poor, timing, and, priorities, again, as, england, was, playing, i, had, assumed, they, would, lose, but, the, meeting, went, well, and, the, issues, were, discussed, amicably, enough, and, frankly, enough, so, we, all, know, where, we, are, at, and, issues, were, addressed, but, as, james, says, not, only, about, asking, for, wisdom, but, also, putting, it, into, action, at, night, leant, on, the, fence, and, talked, to, the, neighbour, as, the, thistles, i, was, supposed, to, be, cutting, down, carried, on, growing, but, it, was, a, nice, evening, he, works, for, stl, the, christian, book, distributors, he, was, saying, how, the, fire, that, they, had, just, after, he, arrived, at, the, time, seemed, a, disaster, and, caused, chaos, but, it, made, them, make, decisions, that, had, to, be, made, rather, than, continuing, with, the, status, quo, and, in, hind, sight, was, a, very, good, thing, i, wonder, when, we, look, back, whether, the, changes, and, opportunities, of, fmd, will, make, us, appreciate, the, decisions, we, have, all, had, to, make, it, made, me, think, of, the, woman, who, came, in, today, saying, she, was, one, of, the, lucky, ones, who, didn’t, get, fmd, very, much, tongue, in, cheek, as, they, are, much, worse, off, than, those, who, did, she, gave, up, her, job, as, they, couldn’t, sell, the, calves, as, they, were, born, and, so, some, one, had, to, look, after, them, so, she, went, back, home, to, work, on, the, farm, her, job, of, course, has, been, filled, in, the, mean, time, and, she, would, have, made, a, lot, more, money, for, less, hassle, if, she, had, stayed, sat, 8th, june, finished, the, long, period, of, work, and, on, call, on, sat, morning, and, it, came, down, with, heavy, showers, as, we, had, hoped, to, climb, helvellyn, today, it, eased, some, what, at, night, which, was, just, as, well, as, we, were, going, to, a, bbq, it, was, put, on, by, a, s, african, vet, from, defra, who, is, now, working, in, longtown, the, last, time, i, drove, through, to, charlie, and, ruth’s, who, were, hosting, the, bbq, was, when, the, pyres, were, all, burning, it, gave, me, a, funny, feeling, driving, back, up, there, the, food, was, good, and, the, craic, was, good, so, we, had, a, good, time, the, kids, would, have, kept, going, but, they, were, beginning, to, get, high, the, midges, once, you, get, north, of, the, border, are, definitely, worse, we, all, had, lumps, all, over, in, the, morning, sun, 9th, sb, spoke, at, church, on, jesus, healing, the, blind, man, at, pool, of, siloam, he, was, very, easy, to, follow, friends, called, in, and, stayed, for, tea, he, as, usual, blunt, and, controversial, as, ever, he, always, has, a, good, insight, and, dresses, it, up, in, taking, things, to, extremes, he, is, also, very, funny, with, it, so, had, a, good, meal, son, is, as, high, as, a, kite, as, he, is, going, camping, with, the, school, this, week, so, he, has, all, his, kit, ready, to, go, and, would, not, settle, to, go, to, sleep, and, kept, the, other, boys, awake, mon, 10th, pouring, down, in, time, for, the, school, camp, at, borrowdale, never, mind, they’ll, enjoy, it, any, way, 3, farms, have, had, silage, pits, burst, because, the, grass, has, been, put, in, too, wet, if, silage, is, made, when, the, grass, is, too, wet, it, flows, very, slowly, and, cannot, support, its, own, weight, so, it, bursts, the, side, walls, and, will, flow, out, of, the, heap, that, it, has, been, put, in, if, there, is, plenty, of, effluent, coming, off, it, will, usually, escape, from, the, normal, collecting, systems, and, if, it, gets, into, the, becks, it, is, worse, than, slurry, hunters, stream, was, black, with, effluent, and, the, environment, agency, were, out, testing, the, water, quality, so, they, will, be, for, the, high, jump, the, contractors, are, so, far, behind, and, the, grass, is, getting, so, long, and, bulky, that, it, doesn’t, dry, out, as, quickly, so, there, may, well, be, a, few, more, but, at, least, the, farmers, will, have, had, warning, so, it, will, be, their, own, fault, the, school, kids, are, back, for, their, work, experience, week, it, must, be, hard, for, them, to, follow, what, is, going, on, but, they, seem, to, enjoy, them, selves, the, worksheets, definitely, help, to, give, some, structure, and, a, feel, for, what, is, going, on, crusaders, meeting, at, night, pretty, disappointing, response, so, not, a, lot, we, can, do, tues, 11th, june, workload, has, set, in, and, i’m, just, cruising, and, managed, to, get, to, the, gym, while, on, first, so, feel, full, of, energy, why, do, you, feel, full, of, energy, after, expending, some, spent, half, an, hour, on, net, trying, to, get, holiday, organised, but, finding, places, for, 6, is, not, as, easy, the, weather, is, better, for, son, camping, and, should, be, better, until, the, w, e, means, we, will, hopefully, be, quiet, at, work, as, they, all, go, out, into, the, fields, weds, 12th, no, calls, over, night, first, time, since, finishing, with, defra, not, had, a, call, at, night, summer, is, truly, here, there, was, a, call, just, on, half, time, at, 8.15, which, i, did, during, the, break, so, got, to, see, the, second, half, and, england, drew, 0, 0, but, are, through, t, o, the, next, round, caught, up, on, paper, work, and, have, sorted, a, lot, of, things, so, they, are, in, place, for, the, 2, new, vets, thurs, 13th, meeting, with, bank, manager, for, executive, lunch, sandwiches, from, bells, he, asked, how, was, the, new, normality, which, seems, an, excellent, phrase, he, seemed, happy, enough, but, it, is, always, interesting, to, see, how, an, outsider, views, the, information, given, the, problem, is, usually, knowing, the, questions, to, ask, i, think, that, is, probably, he, seemed, happy, enough, but, it, is, always, interesting, to, see, how, an, outsider, views, the, information, given, the, problem, is, usually, knowing, the, questions, to, ask, i, think, that, is, probably, true, of, the, inquiries, into, fmd, unless, you, know, the, questions, you, will, not, get, the, right, answers, went, abseiling, up, at, sandale, with, the, house, group, from, church, and, had, a, bbq, it, would, have, been, nicer, if, the, wind, hadn’t, howled, i, had, gone, prepared, for, british, summer, weather, but, it, was, still, pretty, nippy, it, was, great, fun, fri, read, another, test, that, had, ir, s, for, tb, inconclusive, that, will, have, to, be, retested, in, 60, days, while, i, was, writing, up, the, paper, work, the, farmer’s, wife, was, saying, that, the, kids, were, all, off, school, and, nursery, with, hand, foot, and, mouth, she, had, taken, the, youngest, who, was, ill, with, the, middle, kid, to, the, doctor, the, doctor, had, said, what, it, was, and, the, middle, kid, burst, into, tears, as, he, thought, they, were, going, to, take, her, baby, brother, outside, and, shoot, him, it, is, funny, but, also, very, sad, the, same, farmer, was, really, fed, up, as, the, cows, were, all, supposed, to, be, tb, tested, prior, to, arriving, on, the, farm, he, had, also, let, them, out, into, a, long, 5, acre, field, with, the, water, troughs, at, the, far, end, of, the, field, half, the, cows, had, not, found, the, trough, and, so, were, very, thirsty, by, the, time, they, came, back, at, milking, time, the, idea, that, you, just, go, and, replace, the, cows, just, like, that, is, not, quite, the, case, sat, 15th, june, saturday, morning, spent, it, gardening, the, strawberries, are, coming, and, even, though, the, gooseberries, aren’t, quite, ripe, picked, some, to, start, the, harvest, and, the, one, strawberry, that, was, reddish, then, went, to, visit, friend, and, the, wide, screen, tv, for, the, football, match, no, one, expected, any, more, english, progress, but, the, lads, surprised, me, and, played, a, stormer, so, the, game, against, brazil, will, become, the, match, the, practice, bbq, in, watery, june, sunshine, was, good, fun, but, the, ground, was, too, wet, to, play, silly, games, or, even, footie, the, food, was, excellent, aw, was, notable, by, her, absence, hey, ho, bbq, is, in, need, of, a, revamp, maybe, abseiling, though, i, don’t, think, i, can, see, either, r, or, aw, going, for, it, showed, s, around, flat, and, met, her, parents, remind, me, to, be, wise, with, my, kids, sun, felt, tired, and, ill, and, washed, out, after, slowing, down, and, switching, off, after, a, busy, day, yesterday, and, all, week, watched, the, ireland, match, which, was, very, close, spent, rest, of, day, sleeping, or, just, chilling, out, mon, went, testing, at, k, and, t’d, they, are, really, nice, lads, but, not, too, hot, on, the, academic, front, but, good, fun, they, were, in, good, form, and, hoping, to, get, the, low, down, on, the, new, vets, yes, they, are, young, free, and, single, as, far, as, i, know, i, pity, their, chances, spent, a, lazy, day, in, the, sun, at, a, gentle, pace, so, quite, enjoyed, myself, caught, up, with, the, paperwork, at, night, and, feel, mellow, tuesday, too, many, o’s, one, call, was, cancelled, but, the, other, one, still, wanted, the, call, so, some, one, went, to, the, wrong, o, and, i, had, to, make, a, mad, dash, and, pour, oil, on, the, waters, to, explain, why, we, are, so, late, oops, so, more, testing, and, a, quiet, day, wife, also, had, her, quiet, day, there, was, supposed, to, be, a, group, of, them, going, for, a, retreat, day, but, the, speaker, had, cancelled, so, she, did, it, herself, with, r, and, it, went, very, well, she, was, exhausted, after, giving, out, all, day, met, up, with, lads, at, night, didn’t, get, to, gym, again, as, i, had, to, go, and, calve, a, schistasoma, yuk, weds, tried, again, to, work, out, what, we, are, going, to, do, with, summer, holidays, no, doubt, we, will, get, organised, eventually, came, home, early, for, lunch, and, had, forgotten, that, it, was, coffee, morning, here, so, felt, out, of, place, amongst, so, many, women, skipped, off, early, and, went, for, a, cycle, to, make, up, for, missing, gym, did, first, part, with, a, and, annie, and, then, zipped, around, for, a, bit, which, was, good, thursday, k, and, t, had, an, i, r, again, i, need, a, new, supply, of, little, green, forms, to, put, this, in, context, prior, to, this, year, in, 16, years, in, practice, i, have, had, 4, i, r’s, i, am, doing, that, this, week, so, another, farm, under, restrictions, friday, bad, hair, day, england, lost, och, well, never, mind, such, is, life, richard, drummond’s, report, that, the, svs, was, unprepared, yeah, we, had, all, been, saying, it, but, i, did, not, realise, that, the, svs, had, been, saying, it, 2, years, ago, has, been, picked, up, by, the, audit, office, there, is, a, report, case, of, fmd, in, a, pig, from, leicester, mkt, and, i, had, another, i, r, and, met, with, jm, a, temporary, vet, with, carlisle, svs, on, why, we, had, not, done, the, tests, allocated, mostly, cos, they, aren’t, to, do, he, also, was, very, cynical, about, the, changes, in, defra, and, the, management, ethos, has, not, changed, he, brought, a, message, back, from, them, that, the, test, we, had, sent, back, because, the, guy, is, an, old, recluse, that, is, impossible, to, deal, with, we, had, to, do, as, they, did, not, have, the, resources, what, they, are, responsible, for, ensuring, that, they, are, done, and, sorting, out, the, recalcitrant, had, the, afternoon, off, and, ran, round, after, the, kids, while, wife, did, reports, next, week, must, be, better, sat, 22nd, june, wedding, day, for, d, and, s, yippee, d, and, his, best, man, and, usher, plus, 3, others, arrived, last, night, and, it, was, really, nice, to, have, young, people, around, again, i, have, forgotten, how, much, i, enjoy, young, people, i, must, be, getting, too, old, and, cynical, c, looked, after, our, boys, and, a, went, into, town, it, was, really, nice, s, could, not, stop, smiling, and, it, is, wigton, carnival, day, so, there, were, two, pipe, bands, as, well, which, could, be, heard, drifting, over, the, vows, was, in, his, kilt, i, should, have, got, mine, on, for, the, occasion, the, reception, was, at, tullie, house, which, is, a, really, nice, relaxed, venue, we, were, seated, opposite, friends, so, it, was, really, nice, catching, up, with, them, b, d, are, just, back, from, another, wedding, in, vancouver, and, really, impressed, with, bc, they, are, out, doors, fanatics, so, the, skiing, mountains, and, whistler, really, is, their, thing, barnes, who, was, looking, after, the, kids, at, night, is, going, out, there, for, his, gap, year, to, work, in, a, book, shop, should, be, really, great, for, him, there, was, a, celeidh, in, the, evening, but, i, only, lasted, for, 3, dances, i, was, absolutely, exhausted, i, didn’t, realise, how, tired, i, was, sunday, fortunately, it, was, a, family, service, ie, doesn’t, start, until, 11;00, it, was, lead, by, the, young, adults, group, so, was, really, fresh, and, good, they, also, don’t, take, themselves, too, seriously, but, do, take, jesus, seriously, and, it, was, good, monday, missed, swimming, again, cos, work, was, really, busy, crusaders, meeting, at, night, at, rydal, very, good, met, up, with, some, of, the, leaders, i, haven’t, met, before, folk, who, work, with, young, people, are, always, good, fun, and, have, a, wicked, sense, of, humour, do, you, need, one, to, do, youth, work, or, does, youth, work, give, you, one, tuesday, diary, did, not, get, filled, in, from, here, on, as, on, weds, morning, i, reached, into, back, of, the, car, and, my, back, went, i, tore, muscles, in, it, a, long, time, ago, and, it, often, niggles, but, as, long, as, i, keep, doing, the, exercises, for, stretching, and, building, up, the, muscles, it, is, ok, but, i, have, missed, doing, the, swimming, relevant, any, way, saw, stars, and, in, agony, so, flat, on, my, back, and, stretching, every, 2, hrs, and, sore, saturday, 29th, june, my, back, is, slowly, improving, i, can, move, around, and, type, i, can, do, the, stretching, ok, but, stiff, and, achy, rather, than, spasm, work, must, have, been, bad, for, the, two, left, as, it, was, going, to, be, short, staffed, with, out, me, dropping, out, nothing, i, can, do, about, it, the, new, vet, called, around, to, look, at, the, flat, before, moving, in, a, month’s, time, she, came, with, her, mother, their, farm, was, culled, out, with, fmd, late, on, and, they, had, just, got, the, herd, to, where, they, wanted, the, breeding, her, mum, was, talking, about, it, was, going, through, a, grieving, period, and, how, some, days, it, was, yes, carry, on, and, get, going, again, and, other, days, it, was, why, bother, it, is, just, all, too, much, hassle, it, will, take, a, long, time, for, the, memories, in, the, farming, community, to, fader, and, with, the, acknowledgement, that, it, was, much, better, to, get, the, disease, and, get, it, over, with, the, cooperation, of, farmers, will, be, even, less, they, are, the, 17th, generation, on, the, farm, the, whole, concept, of, bio, security, needs, to, be, looked, at, and, farmer, education, on, how, the, disease, is, spread, the, self, imposed, isolation, of, not, sending, kids, to, school, etc, is, just, stupid, but, to, go, against, the, flow, is, very, difficult, that, as, well, as, the, defra, imposed, ridiculous, rules, they, were, not, allowed, to, leave, the, house, for, 3, months, they, just, view, this, as, a, punishment, imposed, because, they, refused, to, let, the, hefted, flock, be, culled, they, were, right, not, to, the, old, tenants, have, moved, out, of, the, cottage, eddie, and, ruth, seemed, to, really, enjoy, it, as, a, summer, holiday, while, at, work, a, change, is, as, good, as, a, rest, so, they, say, i, have, looked, at, jobs, again, but, nothing, appeals, there, is, a, job, which, i, wouldn’t, mind, doing, as, a, consultancy, but, doubt, anything, will, come, will, have, to, wait, and, continue, to, see, what, happens, went, out, for, a, meal, to, giannis, at, night, as, my, dad, is, up, for, the, w, e, sunday, p, spoke, at, family, focus, at, church, and, was, very, encouraging, he, is, always, a, revelation, as, he, takes, things, as, they, are, not, as, they, should, be, watched, brazil, beat, germany, to, win, the, world, cup, wet, weather, and, kids, out, of, sorts, and, back, still, sore, yuk, monday, drove, for, the, first, time, and, dropped, my, dad, off, in, carlisle, but, it, was, pretty, sore, by, the, time, i, got, back, dad, was, in, good, form, and, he, has, enjoyed, his, time, up, here, but, he, is, getting, older, and, with, being, in, london, we, are, going, to, have, to, visit, on, a, more, regular, basis, went, into, work, and, did, some, paper, work, and, answered, phone, and, felt, better, for, doing, sthg, as, pretty, bored, but, couldn’t, sit, still, or, really, get, going, either, came, home, and, lay, down, again, d, came, around, at, night, called, in, absolutely, hyper, he, and, a, going, to, split, up, which, is, not, so, good, even, if, it, is, not, that, un, expected, the, thing, that, has, brought, to, a, head, is, the, fact, a, is, seeing, some, one, else, who, is, also, married, not, a, good, situation, lads, came, around, at, night, which, was, good, fun, and, we, had, a, good, time, tuesday, i, am, now, the, father, of, a, teenager, a’s, b’day, so, it, was, good, to, see, her, opening, her, presents, this, morning, back, is, easing, a, lot, so, did, small, animal, today, and, i, am, moving, freely, but, still, doing, the, exercises, a’s, birthday, is, also, always, a, time, for, reflection, as, she, was, born, a, year, to, the, day, after, we, arrived, in, cumbria, so, we, have, been, here, 14, years, a, long, time, the, future, is, also, looking, a, bit, uncertain, work, wise, with, more, farmers, complaining, about, the, prices, of, their, milk, and, animals, hence, they, don’t, want, to, pay, their, bills, weds, to, saturday, as, usual, the, diary, gets, missed, when, the, crisis, hits, so, i, am, writing, this, on, the, following, tuesday, and, bringing, the, diary, entries, up, to, date, weds, morning, i, was, driving, through, wigton, having, done, my, first, farm, call, since, doing, my, back, when, there, were, lots, of, flashing, lights, and, an, ambulance, and, an, unmarked, police, car, with, all, its, lights, on, going, through, wigton, they, stopped, at, the, lay, by, in, wigton, high, st, the, traffic, was, slow, but, i, did, not, see, anything, later, on, i, was, coming, back, in, to, wigton, from, another, call, and, the, by, pass, was, closed, the, office, was, full, of, news, that, the, by, pass, had, been, closed, because, of, a, stabbing, and, that, a, welshman, and, a, wigton, woman, had, been, taken, to, hospital, and, a, wigton, man, had, been, arrested, for, attempted, murder, i, got, a, sinking, feeling, as, d, had, been, around, on, monday, saying, about, ali, having, a, boy, friend, i, said, to, wife, but, she, said, surely, not, i, got, back, after, work, and, a, friend, arrived, and, unfortunately, it, was, d, the, story, emerged, over, the, next, few, days, how, he, had, forced, his, wife, at, knife, point, to, take, him, to, where, she, was, meeting, the, boyfriend, and, there, he, attacked, him, the, sort, of, story, you, only, here, about, in, the, papers, and, crime, programmes, so, we, have, had, the, police, taking, statements, and, trying, to, come, to, terms, with, it, he, is, usually, a, mild, almost, submissive, personality, and, he, had, flipped, but, really, weird, they, have, 3, girls, who, are, now, going, to, be, really, mixed, up, having, a, father, who, attempts, to, kill, their, mother, is, not, nice, so, i, missed, the, leaving, party, for, the, locum, who, has, been, working, for, us, for, the, past, few, months, which, by, all, accounts, was, very, good, saturday, 6th, july, still, in, shell, shock, over, d, and, a, i, still, cannot, believe, what, has, happened, went, in, saturday, morning, and, sorted, my, car, and, got, testing, list, up, to, date, there, is, a, lot, in, the, veterinary, press, about, the, future, of, the, lvi, system, and, the, future, of, farm, animal, practice, the, future, is, not, looking, good, the, short, term, is, fine, if, anything, we, will, have, a, huge, amount, of, work, and, we, can, live, off, the, fmd, capital, that, the, farmers, have, but, once, that, begins, to, run, out, they, and, we, will, be, in, serious, difficulties, the, economics, are, against, the, farm, animal, practice, went, out, for, a, brilliant, meal, and, had, a, really, good, evening, at, c’s, her, husband, is, a, detective, sgt, and, had, been, called, out, because, there, was, yet, another, serious, incident, this, time, at, a, night, club, in, cockermouth, there, is, a, 22, year, old, in, newcastle, hospital, with, head, injuries, so, felt, sorry, for, c, as, she, cooked, and, hostessed, with, out, her, better, half, sunday, church, was, good, with, sg, on, the, character, of, god, he, was, quite, funny, with, his, illustrations, of, fatherly, things, from, his, life, espy, as, his, son, is, quite, a, character, met, up, with, dc, who, was, a, defra, vet, from, sa, he, was, in, good, form, and, has, another, locum, set, up, for, when, he, finishes, at, longtown, monday, back, into, full, swing, again, but, not, much, happening, read, the, test, and, felt, a, lot, happier, as, i, didn’t, have, to, leave, the, dreaded, piece, of, green, paper, as, everything, passed, of, the, farms, i, went, on, though, it, was, interesting, to, note, that, the, farmers, are, all, having, problems, with, their, backs, again, while, they, were, pressure, washing, and, not, amongst, stock, they, were, fine, but, going, back, to, pushing, animals, around, the, bad, backs, are, back, the, topic, is, probably, raised, because, of, the, fact, i, have, been, off, with, a, bad, back, du, called, in, as, he, is, replacing, d, on, the, railway, until, they, can, get, something, sorted, on, a, more, permanent, basis, he, stayed, for, 2, years, next, door, while, doing, his, railtrack, training, the, people, at, work, cannot, believe, that, dave, has, done, sthg, like, this, as, he, usually, if, anything, a, submissive, guy, du, had, just, got, the, keys, to, his, new, house, in, manchester, where, he, is, based, now, and, was, not, very, happy, to, be, posted, back, up, to, cumbria, he, hasn’t, even, managed, to, move, in, tuesday, work, very, quiet, and, long, lunches, good, for, getting, other, things, done, but, pretty, boring, looked, at, rota, and, checked, websites, reports, to, be, published, on, 18th, july, spent, time, sorting, out, rotas, and, booking, up, and, reorganising, my, kit, weds, day, off, went, into, carlisle, and, was, bounced, by, my, wife, in, to, getting, my, hair, cut, in, what, i, assume, is, an, expensive, hairdressers, she, was, getting, hers, done, and, dragged, me, in, and, it, was, a, fait, accompli, at, least, i, assume, it, is, expensive, as, she, won’t, tell, me, how, much, it, is, and, she, let, me, go, off, to, tesco’s, and, said, she, would, pay, for, both, wandered, around, book, shop, in, carlisle, and, met, wife, s, mum, off, the, bus, the, vet, student, from, usa, arrived, for, a, couple, of, days, jamie, who, is, not, as, i, assumed, male, but, female, it, is, amazing, how, you, make, assumptions, when, you, read, e, mails, and, take, messages, she, is, in, uk, for, 12, wks, and, friend, has, given, her, our, address, as, his, wife, is, about, to, have, twins, so, he, thought, it, better, not, to, have, more, people, than, really, necessary, in, his, house, there, are, a, few, babies, at, the, moment, got, a, photo, of, e, this, morning, and, friend, called, around, to, say, other, friends, had, had, a, baby, but, he, couldn’t, remember, whether, it, was, a, boy, or, a, girl, learnt, later, it, is, a, boy, thursday, not, a, lot, for, j, to, see, called, in, to, see, friend’s, new, kittens, posh, becks, both, have, cat, flu, he, is, busy, painting, house, and, tidying, up, for, the, wedding, never, seen, his, yard, as, tidy, must, tell, abbi, to, get, a, move, on, and, maybe, he, will, finish, off, some, of, the, building, work, as, well, did, 2, calvings, in, the, afternoon, and, finally, read, through, the, audit, office, report, which, i, downloaded, ages, ago, they, were, pretty, accurate, apart, from, nick, brown, insisting, it, was, all, going, splendidly, well, there, really, must, be, a, better, working, relationship, between, the, ministry, svs, vets, and, the, vets, in, general, practice, and, so, much, better, communication, the, other, point, that, is, never, made, is, that, all, farms, should, have, a, mass, disposal, plan, as, part, of, their, iacs, return, in, order, to, keep, fmd, on, peoples, minds, as, it, is, already, disappearing, as, a, part, of, history, and, history, will, repeat, itself, because, nobody, listens, and, most, of, the, anguish, and, delays, were, in, the, disposal, systems, friday, dropped, j, off, in, wigton, to, catch, the, train, it, is, always, strange, with, having, students, because, they, stay, in, our, house, they, are, very, much, part, of, our, lives, and, then, they, drop, out, of, our, lives, another, former, student, who, is, just, back, from, sa, called, in, and, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, her, she, was, on, her, way, back, to, edinburgh, for, her, 5, year, reunion, he, has, been, qualified, 5, years, and, i, thought, it, was, 2, or, three, one, of, the, vets, was, off, ill, so, it, meant, a, bit, of, a, run, around, today, as, 2, others, were, on, holiday, but, it, was, good, to, be, busy, and, get, some, adrenalin, pumping, saturday, 13th, july, working, saturday, morning, on, days, like, this, i, think, it, is, great, to, be, a, small, animal, vet, the, consults, were, all, straight, forward, and, i, could, chat, to, the, owners, with, out, having, to, stop, and, think, what, to, do, about, the, animals, that, and, 2, owners, were, really, appreciative, of, what, i, was, doing, so, felt, good, i, think, that, is, one, of, the, things, about, working, for, defra, no, one, appreciated, what, you, were, doing, ok, some, appreciated, the, concern, and, effort, and, the, way, you, did, it, but, no, one, really, thought, what, you, were, doing, was, good, like, putting, pets, down, it, is, for, the, best, but, no, one, likes, it, beautiful, day, today, too, the, sun, shining, and, picking, strawberries, and, having, a, bar, b, q, was, really, very, pleasant, my, brother, always, says, the, best, thing, about, nz, where, he, lives, is, that, he, can, plan, to, have, a, barb, in, 2, wks, time, whereas, here, you, have, to, go, with, the, flow, sun, 14th, first, call, so, wandered, around, seeing, ill, cows, several, lots, of, drugs, to, put, out, as, a, lot, for, the, restocking, farms, have, yet, to, get, their, medicine, cabinets, back, up, to, strength, had, a, collie, hit, by, a, tractor, and, its, eye, had, been, knocked, out, of, its, socket, urgh, eyes, give, me, the, creeps, mon, 15th, operating, day, as, we, are, doing, the, anaesthetic, monitoring, so, plenty, of, ops, booked, in, health, and, safety, requires, us, to, check, for, operator, exposure, to, anaesthetic, gases, as, our, new, system, has, a, scavenging, system, and, is, light, years, ahead, of, the, one, we, use, to, have, it, is, a, waste, of, time, but, we, have, to, have, the, checks, done, but, i, wonder, how, many, other, practices, actually, do, we, have, never, been, checked, up, upon, a, police, man, arrived, at, the, front, desk, while, i, was, on, the, phone, the, head, nurse, disappeared, as, soon, as, she, saw, the, marked, police, car, which, struck, me, as, very, suspicious, after, he, had, booked, an, appointment, for, his, dog, and, he, had, left, i, was, curious, to, know, where, she, had, disappeared, to, she, had, gone, to, check, that, the, medicines, cabinet, where, we, keep, the, gun, and, dangerous, drugs, was, in, fact, locked, as, while, we, are, operating, we, keep, it, open, so, as, to, have, easy, access, to, the, emergency, drugs, the, gun, licences, insist, that, it, is, kept, locked, at, all, times, and, immediate, access, to, a, police, officer, coming, to, check, it, must, be, allowed, and, we, never, been, checked, up, upon, yet, farmers, are, all, busy, with, field, work, and, are, not, wanting, to, even, think, about, any, routine, work, so, it, could, be, a, quiet, week, tuesday, 16th, beautiful, weather, and, raspberries, coming, along, nicely, wife, s, mum, is, busy, making, jam, and, mile, high, pies, yum, yum, partners, meeting, at, lunchtime, why, do, they, always, make, me, so, depressed, the, subjects, were, more, of, the, same, how, do, we, cope, with, the, changes, in, the, drug, sales, prices, and, how, do, we, compete, with, irish, drugs, being, brought, in, illegally, we, got, a, little, further, forward, and, will, hopefully, be, able, to, make, a, decision, on, it, by, the, deadline, in, september, we, need, to, look, at, new, ways, of, bringing, in, revenue, streams, but, i, don’t, think, there, is, a, willing, ness, to, look, at, the, radical, so, i, will, have, to, keep, working, away, at, it, weds, 17th, met, up, with, the, lads, last, night, to, pray, but, the, craic, was, good, and, did, more, chat, and, joking, than, praying, t’was, good, i, is, apparently, having, a, good, time, at, the, cs, lewis, convention, but, has, yet, to, open, the, book, stall, he, sells, books, and, specialises, in, antiquarian, and, first, editions, of, c.s, lewis, the, one, thing, about, the, internet, is, that, it, frees, up, communication, and, searching, for, the, really, obscure, sorry, i, the, weather, broke, today, and, the, rain, came, and, with, it, all, the, calls, as, the, farmers, got, all, the, routine, stuff, done, which, was, good, for, the, last, of, the, school, kids, which, have, plagued, us, for, the, past, few, weeks, vet, students, next, but, at, least, they, can, chat, away, with, out, me, having, to, make, all, the, effort, thurs, 18th, went, o, a, farm, today, which, restocked, in, feb, after, doing, its, 4, months, waiting, and, has, yet, to, have, a, tb, test, asked, him, whether, i, should, chase, it, up, but, he, like, everyone, else, should, be, leaving, it, to, october, and, housing, maff, efficiency, rules, we, also, tested, 44, imported, heifers, that, were, supposed, to, be, blood, sampled, within, 7, days, of, calving, but, they, have, been, missed, i, have, no, confidence, in, either, of, the, reports, to, actually, achieve, anything, part, of, me, feels, i, should, try, to, contact, the, media, and, try, to, get, them, to, push, the, agenda, along, but, i, don’t, feel, it, would, achieve, much, apart, from, sticking, my, head, above, the, parapet, which, would, not, do, much, i, have, asked, for, copies, but, none, have, arrived, yet, fri, 19th, demob, happy, i’m, on, holiday, from, 5, 30pm, so, it, will, be, good, to, catch, up, on, all, the, things, i, should, have, done, but, not, done, the, garden, is, a, mess, but, we, are, getting, on, top, of, it, slowly, in, some, ways, i, am, glad, to, be, off, when, the, lli, is, reporting, as, at, least, i, will, not, get, wound, up, so, this, is, me, signing, off, for, the, week, next, diary, will, be, on, sat, week, holiday, week, beginning, saturday, 20th, july, saturday, 27th, july, having, had, a, week, off, i, am, feeling, a, lot, happier, about, life, in, general, we, have, been, to, a, few, of, the, nights, at, the, keswick, convention, it, is, an, amazing, set, up, with, over, 12,000, people, coming, together, over, 3, weeks, in, keswick, and, meeting, up, for, bible, teaching, and, to, worship, god, there, is, a, big, tent, that, is, set, up, on, the, back, of, the, convention, centre, by, the, time, we, arrive, it, is, always, full, and, we, were, not, late, on, the, friday, evening, there, were, people, standing, outside, the, kids, went, to, a, youth, event, on, of, all, things, ezekiel, not, exactly, an, easy, choice, of, bible, book, to, convey, to, 19, 14, yr, olds, but, they, really, enjoyed, the, wacky, games, and, the, way, they, mixed, teaching, and, songs, and, games, activities, they, seemed, to, be, mostly, uni, students, who, seemed, to, get, as, much, fun, out, of, it, as, the, kids, my, brother, and, family, were, up, and, the, cousins, love, getting, together, and, even, a, joined, in, the, football, and, tennis, even, though, her, hand, to, eye, co, ordination, is, not, the, best, she, has, taken, up, running, every, day, so, i, have, been, out, with, her, but, my, back, is, still, not, right, and, i, can, feel, it, at, the, slightest, provocation, must, go, swimming, again, my, brother, also, asked, wife, what, diy, needed, doing, as, he, is, a, real, enthusiast, give, me, gardening, any, time, so, we, made, a, door, for, one, of, the, sheds, which, i, have, been, putting, off, for, the, past, 6, years, as, once, i, start, there, are, another, 5, to, do, he, is, also, a, sailing, fan, so, hired, a, sail, boat, and, went, sailing, which, was, great, fun, the, kids, had, a, canoe, and, we, raced, up, and, down, the, lake, and, the, kids, swapped, around, and, went, to, explore, islands, it, was, really, good, the, weather, helped, it, was, scorching, we, also, went, to, a, wedding, of, one, of, our, close, friends, son, i, decided, i, am, going, to, start, teaching, my, kids, the, etiquette, of, weddings, as, the, groom, could, have, done, a, better, job, it, isn’t, really, his, fault, as, he, is, young, and, has, not, thought, things, out, sun, went, to, the, all, age, service, at, the, tent, at, keswick, there, were, too, many, kids, even, for, me, but, the, mix, of, action, songs, and, asking, kids, things, and, an, action, talk, meant, that, those, leading, it, kept, the, kids, involved, it, was, good, to, see, spent, the, afternoon, on, the, lake, it, was, really, nice, day, mon, yep, it, was, a, real, monday, morning, with, my, in, tray, over, flowing, 2, rota’s, to, sort, and, 2, weeks, of, testing, to, try, to, arrange, the, only, goodish, news, was, that, the, ministry, have, finally, decided, to, put, the, restocking, farms, on, annual, testing, which, means, at, least, we, know, where, we, stand, and, can, plan, it, will, mean, a, lot, of, work, for, us, the, bad, news, was, that, the, oft, investigation, have, sent, us, a, horrific, questionnaire, which, needs, filled, in, and, one, of, my, partners, has, had, a, go, and, not, got, very, far, unfortunately, and, it, needs, to, be, in, by, tomorrow, forget, it, the, 2, new, vets, have, started, and, so, we, are, settling, them, in, and, they, are, picking, up, the, ropes, quite, quickly, which, is, ace, on, call, at, night, out, twice, for, bad, calvings, that’s, the, end, of, my, holiday, f, feeling, good, tuesday, sore, back, from, calvings, and, early, mornings, had, forgotten, i, had, arranged, for, some, one, to, be, with, me, all, day, today, in, a, moment, of, weakness, i, had, acquiesced, to, being, put, up, for, sale, in, a, promise, auction, to, raise, money, for, african, children’s, choir, so, this, was, the, promise, being, redeemed, a, morning, with, the, vet, so, i, put, on, my, best, charming, manner, all, mr, pr, man, and, took, her, on, a, tour, of, the, practice, and, on, call, and, explained, everything, i, was, doing, so, it, was, a, good, thing, we, were, not, busy, spent, the, afternoon, consulting, and, supervising, new, vets, and, showing, them, the, ropes, weds, we, were, suppose, to, be, going, walking, up, helvellyn, but, the, torrential, rain, put, us, off, so, went, into, carlisle, and, did, bits, and, pieces, and, i, took, kids, to, see, stuart, little, 2, which, is, definitely, one, for, the, kids, and, jobbed, around, at, home, but, the, kids, like, it, when, we, just, potter, around, thursday, felt, really, stiff, and, sore, and, decided, again, i, must, go, swimming, more, often, i, just, cannot, seem, to, get, there, that’s, all, must, make, time, i’m, working, this, w, e, and, i, am, then, off, for, 10, days, finishing, with, f’s, wedding, friends, are, up, with, their, kids, and, it, is, really, good, to, see, them, we, don’t, see, them, that, often, but, they, are, the, sort, of, friends, who, you, pick, up, on, as, soon, as, you, meet, them, even, if, you, haven’t, seen, them, for, ages, m, has, left, full, time, teaching, as, he, couldn’t, cope, with, the, pressure, of, all, the, paper, work, and, hassle, he, is, teaching, supply, and, doing, other, things, as, well, he, is, so, creative, and, he, has, made, a, model, of, our, house, just, while, he, was, sitting, chatting, with, us, friday, came, home, at, lunchtime, to, see, the, kitchen, table, covered, in, drawings, and, paintings, m, had, decided, to, have, a, painting, day, so, all, the, kids, were, doing, drawings, and, paintings, he, has, done, a, watercolour, of, our, house, it, is, brilliant, holiday, for, two, weeks, this, is, more, a, reflection, of, what, i, have, been, doing, and, thinking, over, the, summer, as, i, have, not, been, writing, up, the, diary, but, i, want, to, put, down, some, of, the, things, that, i, think, are, important, edited, disclosive, sat, 24th, aug, another, bank, holiday, w, e, to, be, worked, but, at, least, i, am, backing, up, our, new, young, assistant, we, work, a, system, where, the, new, vets, have, a, senior, vet, on, call, at, the, same, time, for, the, first, few, months, so, as, to, give, them, a, hands, on, support, and, mentoring, while, this, sounds, very, good, and, practical, it, is, surprisingly, uncommon, when, i, started, i, was, on, my, own, from, almost, day, one, i, started, in, august, after, getting, married, and, in, the, second, week, of, september, my, boss, headed, off, to, oman, to, do, horse, work, out, there, the, other, large, animal, vet, was, off, on, long, term, sick, and, he, could, only, get, a, small, animal, locum, when, i, look, back, now, that, he, left, me, in, charge, of, the, farm, practice, for, 2, weeks, after, only, being, a, month, qualified, i, shudder, but, at, the, time, i, just, got, on, with, it, sun, 25th, calvings, coming, thick, and, fast, the, good, warm, weather, has, made, the, grass, spring, and, the, cows, are, putting, on, too, much, weight, and, having, problems, j, was, at, a, football, tournament, at, pirelli’s, which, i, missed, but, he, came, back, really, tired, having, played, his, socks, off, did, another, pts, put, to, sleep, dog, visit, with, assistant, vet, it, is, never, the, easiest, of, consults, and, she, did, really, well, she, is, finding, her, feet, i, find, it, hard, helping, people, make, euthanasia, decisions, over, dogs, so, i, feel, quite, strongly, anti, euthanasia, when, it, comes, to, people, mon, 28th, beautiful, day, too, nice, to, work, the, morning, was, busy, but, the, afternoon, was, quiet, so, i, spent, it, lying, in, the, sun, dozing, had, bbq, at, night, at, j’s, and, chatted, to, a, few, folk, who, i, know, but, not, to, speak, to, so, was, interesting, spoke, to, one, of, our, farmers, daughters, who, told, me, her, dad, had, just, had, his, first, calf, since, fmd, and, so, he, was, really, happy, he, had, 2, holdings, which, were, run, as, one, he, managed, to, keep, his, heifers, which, were, on, the, second, holding, probably, because, they, were, the, last, ones, in, the, area, and, these, were, the, ones, that, were, now, calving, he, still, blames, the, pyre, from, a, neighbour, for, spreading, the, virus, to, his, farm, tuesday, 27th, the, problem, with, having, a, day, off, is, that, you, have, problems, stored, up, for, when, you, come, back, today, was, really, hectic, finished, at, 6, 30, after, having, come, back, from, the, belgian, blue, inspections, to, help, out, at, surgery, the, inspections, were, fun, but, it, gave, me, the, creeps, being, in, the, mart, and, inspecting, mouths, as, it, brought, back, bad, memories, the, mart, is, ridiculously, clean, and, the, last, time, i, inspected, mouths, was, for, fmd, after, shooting, a, herd, that, was, a, dangerous, contact, i, was, trying, to, persuade, london, not, to, take, out, the, other, neighbour, as, well, we, got, finished, at, 2am, and, went, in, for, a, cup, of, tea, and, to, recover, and, the, mother, greeted, me, with, the, news, that, d, had, been, next, door, and, was, starting, to, shoot, them, the, other, really, annoying, thing, is, that, the, basic, hygiene, is, not, being, enforced, and, yet, other, rules, are, the, rules, are, made, in, london, by, desk, bound, defra, officials, who, don’t, have, to, implement, them, the, mart, uses, mini, dumper, trucks, to, clean, out, the, pens, after, they, have, been, sold, the, same, trucks, are, then, used, to, put, out, straw, and, sawdust, in, the, freshly, cleansed, and, disinfected, yards, they, are, covered, in, muck, and, are, a, bio, hazard, m, the, owner, of, the, animals, we, were, inspecting, put, on, her, usual, tantrum, display, to, try, and, intimidate, the, secretary, and, inspectors, which, as, i, was, expecting, it, i, found, quite, amusing, but, i, don’t, think, she, or, they, did, had, another, bbq, tonight, with, kids, son, cooked, and, loved, it, so, i, have, found, a, new, bbqer, kids, in, brilliant, form, as, they, are, enjoying, being, around, and, a, has, been, baking, weds, 28th, another, tb, reactor, and, the, corresponding, paper, work, and, licensing, had, a, weird, oddball, case, in, surgery, and, spent, ages, trying, to, take, a, history, of, what, was, going, on, the, dog, is, not, that, unwell, in, itself, but, has, an, intermittent, history, of, different, things, i, look, forward, to, seeing, what, it, turns, out, to, be, or, whether, it, resolves, itself, with, time, vetting, is, always, varied, j, was, at, friend’s, party, after, having, a, football, school, with, blackburn, rovers, this, morning, so, he, was, passed, himself, arranged, to, visit, prisoner, in, prison, on, my, next, day, off, and, went, through, a, multitude, of, meaningless, options, to, end, up, with, a, guy, who, sounded, like, he, came, straight, off, porridge, it, is, amazing, how, intimidating, trying, to, find, your, way, around, a, bureaucracy, can, be, i, am, not, sure, i, want, to, go, but, thurs, 29th, from, feast, to, famine, not, much, work, during, the, day, at, least, al, had, 3, caesareans, last, night, and, was, running, out, of, steam, by, 5, o’clock, this, afternoon, meanwhile, i, did, small, animals, and, tried, to, organise, my, trip, to, london, to, visit, my, dad, found, web, sites, for, chitty, chitty, bang, bang, london, eye, and, madam, tussards, so, should, be, able, to, book, in, advance, if, tickets, are, left, for, the, half, term, week, other, children, are, staying, so, the, house, is, full, of, excited, kids, friday, 30th, busy, day, sorting, out, the, invitations, to, our, open, day, 1st, oct, it, is, just, a, chance, to, get, the, farmers, together, we, promised, one, to, celebrate, the, end, of, fmd, it, is, amazing, going, through, the, list, off, the, computer, how, many, farms, are, not, restocked, the, list, hasn’t, been, updated, since, pre, fmd, as, we, don’t, really, know, how, many, will, restock, so, we, have, been, waiting, for, the, end, of, fmd, to, redo, it, so, there, were, a, few, deaths, sales, and, moved, away, to, take, off, the, list, time, moves, on, sat, 31st, august, last, w, e, of, the, summer, holidays, we, had, a, bbq, at, lunch, time, for, borderline, and, then, i, promised, to, take, the, boys, camping, at, bowscale, tarn, it, was, beautiful, but, really, cold, the, weather, was, ok, sat, but, sunday, was, glorious, the, boys, wakened, at, first, light, so, we, climbed, up, on, to, the, tops, while, the, sun, was, still, rising, and, it, was, one, of, those, magical, moments, wonderful, the, boys, were, so, excited, and, full, of, energy, and, so, happy, to, be, with, their, dad, and, enjoying, life, a, time, to, treasure, sun, after, coming, down, off, the, tops, from, bowscale, tarn, went, to, visit, friends, he, is, a, vet, in, longtown, and, has, just, set, up, his, own, small, animal, practice, in, the, north, of, carlisle, the, twins, who, are, now, 4, weeks, old, were, wonderful, there, is, always, sthg, very, special, about, wee, babies, a, was, in, her, element, with, two, to, mother, mon, good, weather, continuing, and, so, we, are, still, quiet, the, vet, student, has, arrived, went, blood, sampling, sheep, for, maedi, visna, to, a, farmer, who, imports, and, sells, sheep, as, a, bit, of, a, dealer, between, him, and, his, dad, and, his, granddad, they, have, 4, holding, numbers, which, is, making, a, mockery, of, the, licensing, system, he, knows, a, lot, of, the, breeders, and, dealers, and, the, yorkshire, defra, is, even, worse, than, this, one, and, so, the, whole, licensing, system, is, allegedly, being, ignored, there, everyone, in, the, office, was, trying, to, work, out, where, we, are, going, to, go, for, the, xmas, party, as, it, is, now, september, tuesday, it, is, friend’s, last, day, at, work, tomorrow, before, the, wedding, so, the, girls, spent, most, of, the, afternoon, printing, out, posters, and, things, to, decorate, his, car, before, he, goes, tomorrow, evening, the, farmers, are, phoning, in, to, book, tb, tests, for, nov, and, dec, as, they, know, that, we, will, be, busy, which, makes, life, a, lot, easier, for, me, we, have, sent, out, notes, with, the, invitations, to, the, open, day, and, that, has, had, a, good, response, so, we, will, start, to, get, busy, testing, next, week, weds, day, off, spent, the, morning, fixing, the, shower, drainage, which, had, suffered, from, one, too, many, footballs, being, kicked, against, it, the, problem, was, the, broken, part, was, also, a, metric, to, imperial, converter, one, end, was, 40mm, and, the, other, was, 43mm, which, once, i, discovered, that, was, what, i, needed, meant, a, trip, to, carlisle, as, nowhere, in, wigton, had, it, so, it, got, codged, up, with, plenty, of, silicone, the, afternoon, was, spent, going, to, visit, prisoner, he, is, the, friend, who, stabbed, his, wife’s, boyfriend, in, wigton, and, so, he, is, currently, residing, at, her, majesty’s, pleasure, in, durham, prison, it, was, a, very, disheartening, experience, as, with, any, organisation, it, takes, time, to, work, out, where, to, go, and, what, you, need, to, get, through, the, hoops, i, went, from, one, part, of, the, prison, to, another, and, backwards, and, forwards, the, staff, where, very, friendly, and, helpful, but, they, are, all, at, fixed, stations, and, so, you, are, sent, from, one, area, to, another, the, security, although, expected, and, natural, still, comes, as, a, bit, of, a, shock, photographed, in, and, issued, with, a, barcode, to, get, you, in, and, out, and, you, put, all, your, belongings, in, a, locker, before, you, are, allowed, in, of, course, i, did, not, realise, that, you, only, need, the, id, passport, to, get, your, bar, code, so, i, kept, it, to, show, at, the, entrance, where, all, i, needed, was, the, bar, code, so, they, sent, me, back, to, put, it, in, the, locker, prisoner, was, ok, but, he, is, still, finding, it, hard, to, think, about, a, future, that, does, not, include, his, wife, even, though, the, divorce, papers, are, filed, and, he, has, done, some, pretty, nasty, things, to, her, and, the, boyfriend, he, is, pleading, guilty, and, is, expecting, to, go, down, for, a, good, few, years, the, whole, visitors, area, was, charged, with, emotion, with, people, coming, to, see, brothers, husbands, lovers, there, were, lots, of, girls, with, young, children, coming, to, see, their, dads, i, felt, very, sad, for, them, and, for, the, kids, who, are, growing, up, with, out, a, dad, or, the, stigma, of, a, dad, in, jail, his, kids, have, written, but, he, is, realistic, his, wife, is, very, anti, him, and, they, are, unlikely, to, keep, up, with, him, in, the, long, term, as, she, at, best, is, not, going, to, be, supportive, at, worst, is, going, to, try, to, dissuade, them, he, was, quite, upset, about, that, he, is, also, not, able, to, sort, out, his, things, or, see, his, house, before, it, is, sold, he, did, a, lot, of, building, work, etc, on, it, and, has, an, emotional, attachment, to, it, but, there, is, no, real, closure, he, had, emotional, problems, before, all, this, he, is, likely, to, have, even, more, on, his, release, his, car, on, which, there, is, still, a, car, loan, has, been, removed, from, the, pound, but, he, doesn’t, know, where, it, is, drove, back, over, a66, very, thoughtful, and, thankful, for, my, family, and, freedom, until, the, phone, went, to, remind, me, i, was, on, call, and, had, i, forgotten, fortunately, there, were, no, calls, as, it, takes, quite, a, while, to, get, from, barnard, castle, to, wigton, oops, thursday, did, my, first, isolation, pens, inspection, which, is, a, complete, non, sense, the, field, has, to, be, 50, m, from, any, other, livestock, which, in, london, probably, sounds, fine, or, in, scotland, where, there, are, plenty, of, woods, and, other, crops, but, here, in, cumbria, where, the, main, crop, is, grass, and, all, the, fields, are, grazed, at, this, time, of, year, then, it, is, not, so, easy, the, forms, are, horrendous, and, the, boxes, to, be, filled, in, are, greyed, out, to, make, it, easy, for, you, to, know, which, boxes, are, to, be, filled, in, this, obviously, looks, really, good, on, a, computer, screen, in, london, but, on, a, photocopy, writing, in, black, ink, makes, the, whole, thing, illegible, but, that’s, their, problem, when, does, common, sense, come, in, friday, 6th, september, colleague’s, wedding, one, of, the, vets, at, the, practice, was, married, today, at, the, parish, church, in, wigton, the, wedding, was, some, do, he, and, his, family, in, kilts, there, were, over, 200, at, the, wedding, and, reception, at, the, grennhill, hotel, where, bride’s, uncle, is, a, director, the, theme, was, an, english, rode, and, scottish, thistle, the, flowers, were, all, red, roses, in, arrangements, with, thistles, they, were, beautiful, as, was, the, bride, he, quickly, adds, there, was, a, ceilidh, afterwards, and, a, fireworks, display, several, of, the, neighbouring, farmers, complained, to, me, the, next, day, danced, and, talked, the, night, away, till, after, 2, am, getting, up, the, next, day, was, a, bit, of, a, pain, for, morning, surgery, urgh, sat, 7th, september, why, is, it, whenever, you, could, do, with, a, quiet, day, because, of, one, reason, or, another, it, is, always, busiest, managed, to, keep, going, most, of, the, day, with, calvings, and, ill, animals, still, recovering, from, the, late, night, at, wedding, day, was, a, bit, of, a, wash, out, really, sunday, milk, fever, at, 7, am, to, finish, me, off, so, missed, church, but, went, to, hear, sc, at, wigton, in, evening, he, is, head, of, oasis, trust, and, is, very, much, a, radical, but, believes, in, putting, faith, into, action, and, was, very, challenging, isiah, 58, true, fasting, that, god, wants, to, spend, your, self, on, behalf, of, the, poor, in, spirit, wife, went, to, hear, the, new, bishop, of, carlisle, who, was, speaking, at, hebron, he, is, reaching, out, to, all, the, local, churches, and, seems, to, see, outside, the, traditional, denominational, boundaries, which, is, really, encouraging, monday, had, a, crusaders, meeting, in, rydal, crusaders, is, a, youth, group, organisation, and, i, am, on, the, area, planning, group, we, have, had, money, given, in, a, legacy, to, support, some, one, full, time, to, train, leaders, to, organise, area, events, and, w, e, away, and, other, joint, activities, which, should, be, good, it, meant, a, rush, and, a, long, day, so, i, am, still, feeling, knackered, from, the, w, e, tuesday, i, was, almost, speechless, today, the, great, era, of, decentralisation, has, hit, defra, i, wish, i, rang, them, up, because, we, still, have, not, had, confirmation, for, the, appointments, of, our, 2, new, vets, to, enable, them, to, do, defra, work, what, used, to, happen, was, that, they, went, to, a, training, session, and, chat, with, the, dvm, in, carlisle, and, the, appointments, arrived, 2, days, later, guess, what, all, the, paper, work, has, to, be, sent, to, page, st, in, london, now, and, they, have, not, got, it, back, yet, weds, 11, 09, 02, it, is, funny, how, some, anniversaries, effect, you, and, others, do, not, i, had, just, started, back, in, to, the, practice, when, the, hijackers, crashed, into, the, pentagon, and, the, twin, towers, i, was, feeling, at, my, most, bruised, and, battered, having, had, a, major, confrontation, at, defra, and, had, to, work, through, the, psychological, problems, of, being, threatened, and, sidelined, and, yet, wanting, to, keep, my, integrity, by, not, reacting, and, blowing, people, out, of, the, water, the, 9, 11, bombers, made, me, realise, how, fragile, peace, is, and, how, fragile, people, are, and, the, importance, of, not, losing, sight, of, the, important, things, in, life, and, trying, to, keep, things, in, perspective, people, are, more, important, friends, and, family, and, if, i, can’t, fight, the, civil, service, mentality, that, is, their, problem, not, mine, i, remember, seeing, one, of, the, teacher’s, husbands, walking, in, to, the, kids, school, when, i, went, to, pick, them, up, looking, slumped, and, dejected, and, learning, that, their, only, son, was, in, new, york, and, they, could, not, reach, him, 2, days, later, they, heard, he, had, visited, the, twin, towers, the, day, before, and, had, taken, photos, from, the, top, he, was, supposed, be, going, back, into, the, towers, that, morning, but, he, had, got, up, late, and, by, the, time, he, and, his, friends, set, off, the, towers, had, been, hit, the, impact, of, the, number, of, people, who, have, either, been, in, or, visited, the, towers, from, all, over, the, world, does, make, it, a, potent, symbol, with, worldwide, resonance, my, sister, worked, in, them, for, a, while, several, years, ago, the, anniversary, brought, a, lot, back, up, to, the, surface, that, i, thought, was, past, but, was, merely, hidden, thursday, first, on, last, night, and, 2nd, on, tonight, so, started, early, and, finished, late, and, running, out, of, steam, friday, one, of, the, farmer’s, wives, came, in, today, for, some, wormers, for, her, chickens, that, have, gape, worm, she, paid, last, months, bill, in, cash, as, well, as, for, the, wormers, 8.76, inc, vat, she, is, working, away, from, the, farm, 2, days, a, week, her, husband, is, full, time, at, a, job, he, got, after, they, went, down, with, fmd.i, asked, how, her, father, in, law, who, is, 65, was, doing, he, is, lost, and, the, farm, is, too, quit, its, not, right, its, too, quiet, they, still, have, no, animals, back, and, are, grass, letting, its, funny, she, said, whoosh, and, your, life, takes, a, complete, change, you, never, know, what’s, going, to, happen, next, sat, 14th, september, worked, am, and, then, had, rest, of, w, e, off, hooray, sunday, monday, son, s, footie, tuesday, partnership, meeting, at, lunchtime, so, had, a, sore, head, by, the, end, of, the, day, but, a, lot, of, good, decisions, made, so, feel, as, though, we, a, re, moving, forward, weds, off, as, working, the, w, e, so, caught, up, on, paperwork, and, stuff, at, home, and, then, went, into, carlisle, to, go, shopping, for, lots, of, bits, and, pieces, and, a, new, bathroom, thursday, dvm, called, in, to, update, us, waste, of, time, and, i, had, forgotten, what, an, annoying, man, he, is, a, real, career, civil, servant, bureaucrat, who, has, forgotten, what, real, life, is, about, if, he, ever, knew, had, one, of, the, vets, around, for, tea, as, i, was, backing, her, up, spent, the, evening, playing, take, two, and, had, fun, friday, a, very, bad, day, at, the, office, dear, oh, dear, oh, dear, the, day, was, great, to, start, with, headed, down, to, iselgate, to, see, a, lame, bull, to, give, it, a, certificate, they, are, still, suffering, from, both, the, financial, and, emotional, scars, of, fmd, mind, you, they, were, always, odd, she, was, talking, about, the, isolation, that, was, hard, to, break, out, of, and, get, back, in, to, doing, things, again, they, were, also, hoping, to, retire, when, they, were, 50, but, bse, hit, so, they, decided, to, keep, on, and, had, no, income, from, jan, to, october, last, year, mind, you, they, would, only, usually, be, selling, stores, any, way, the, day, was, taking, a, turn, for, the, worse, when, after, sorting, out, umpteen, decisions, for, the, practice, manager, on, organisational, issues, he, said, wasn’t, it, easy, when, you, were, just, being, a, vet, fatal, mistake, as, the, next, dog, to, be, seen, was, an, odd, ball, it, had, woken, up, that, morning, after, being, perfectly, ok, up, til, then, it, had, growled, at, tis, owner, and, he, had, decided, to, leave, it, for, a, while, after, an, hour, or, so, he, went, to, get, it, up, out, of, its, bed, and, it, flew, at, him, and, as, he, put, it, meant, it, so, he, rang, up, and, brought, it, to, the, vets, this, change, of, behaviour, meant, he, had, put, it, in, a, kennel, and, left, it, so, when, i, went, in, to, examine, it, growled, and, flapped, its, ears, at, me, and, bit, at, the, bars, some, dogs, in, pain, or, fear, will, growl, or, let, you, know, that, it, is, not, happy, but, this, one, meant, it, we, had, a, go, at, trying, to, get, it, examined, by, using, the, dog, catcher, and, muzzles, but, it, mean, it, left, it, to, settle, down, over, lunch, but, it, was, worse, finally, got, it, sedated, it, had, a, temp, of, 104, injected, mm, and, so, was, a, case, of, encephalitis, with, rage, so, after, 3, vets, all, looking, at, it, and, umming, and, erring, we, decided, to, get, a, maff, vet, to, have, a, look, just, to, check, that, it, wasn’t, rabies, i, had, forgotten, that, none, of, them, are, clinical, or, able, to, handle, animals, but, it, was, a, bit, of, a, joke, but, as, there, was, no, history, with, it, of, contact, with, abroad, it, has, been, left, alive, for, the, time, being, but, the, stress, of, both, handling, the, dam, thing, and, the, worry, of, is, it, rabid, and, the, consequences, was, some, what, tiring, so, i, am, washed, out, tonight, tomorrow, is, another, day, week, 27, sat, 28th, september, saturday, do, tell, me, there, is, light, at, the, end, of, the, tunnel, because, at, the, moment, i, definitely, feel, there, isn’t, so, i, have, taken, time, off, next, week, to, catch, up, on, all, the, things, that, need, sorted, at, home, we, are, supposed, to, be, putting, in, a, new, bathroom, and, we, need, to, get, the, stuff, ordered, so, the, guy, can, fit, it, you, never, know, it, may, include, doing, a, few, diaries, sunday, my, wife, is, on, a, counselling, course, this, w, e, so, i, ma, on, the, run, around, with, the, kids, yesterday, was, spent, watching, the, boys, plat, football, and, run, here, and, there, with, friends, son, had, 2, friends, to, come, and, camp, last, night, so, he, is, a, little, on, the, tired, side, the, weather, is, warm, and, sunny, a, real, indian, summer, the, autumn, raspberries, that, are, usually, delicious, but, quite, sparse, are, huge, and, plentiful, well, i, definitely, have, a, teen, age, daughter, as, for, the, first, time, i, had, a, phone, call, late, in, the, evening, from, carlisle, asking, her, to, be, picked, up, as, her, lift, home, had, not, worked, out, fortunately, it, was, from, the, church, youth, group, but, it, is, the, sign, of, things, to, come, the, youth, group, took, the, church, service, tonight, so, it, was, really, good, looking, at, our, world, the, pressures, on, young, people, and, how, they, respond, as, christians, and, applying, their, faith, to, their, own, situations, very, challenging, monday, we, have, an, open, night, tomorrow, night, and, it, doesn’t, seem, very, organised, yet, not, my, pigeon, i, have, made, a, resolution, not, to, get, worked, u, about, things, that, are, not, my, responsibility, and, just, leave, them, be, the, 2, new, vets, are, beginning, to, really, pull, their, weight, which, is, great, and, colleague, is, back, from, his, honeymoon, brown, and, jet, lagged, they, spent, time, at, the, beach, and, on, safari, so, had, a, great, time, nurse, has, headed, off, to, the, far, blue, yonder, she, is, one, of, our, nurses, and, has, gone, to, nz, for, a, month, so, it, will, be, strange, with, out, her, other, nurse, is, just, back, from, states, and, another, vet, is, about, to, go, to, the, caribbean, for, 2, weeks, so, i, am, getting, itchy, feet, time, to, travel, at, least, i, should, be, of, to, india, in, the, new, year, tuesday, year, end, oct, 1st, so, stock, taking, which, for, me, includes, mucking, out, my, car, i, thought, it, was, quite, normal, to, take, the, wheelie, bin, to, the, car, and, just, hoy, the, contents, in, until, my, neighbour, saw, one, of, the, rare, occasions, when, it, happens, and, burst, out, laughing, he, found, it, quite, amusing, i, was, a, bit, taken, a, back, at, the, time, but, we, always, assume, what, we, do, is, normal, the, open, day, was, ok, but, wife, was, out, so, had, to, juggle, things, a, bit, i, was, on, call, so, late, finished, and, had, to, fetch, son, from, football, as, his, practice, had, been, shifted, to, tuesdays, with, the, dark, nights, so, i, owe, friend, a, bottle, of, wine, for, turning, up, half, an, hour, late, to, pick, him, up, the, boiler, man, arrived, at, 7pm, to, fix, the, boiler, which, was, blowing, fuses, he, needs, a, lesson, on, time, management, had, several, interesting, conversations, on, fmd, the, most, amusing, one, was, about, tony, blair, arranging, his, bust, up, with, unions, on, the, anniversary, of, the, fmd, out, break, finishing, so, as, to, keep, it, out, the, news, the, same, farmer, said, about, the, govts, response, the, countryside, alliance, march, the, fact, that, they, have, reduced, the, sparsity, factor, in, the, allocation, of, central, funds, to, local, authorities, this, means, that, those, with, a, lower, population, density, and, therefore, a, higher, perceived, cost, of, providing, services, are, going, to, have, this, downgraded, or, in, this, farmer’s, opinion, take, money, from, the, countryside, to, the, town, don’t, march, or, this, govt, will, kick, you, where, it, hurts, in, a, very, subtle, way, the, other, one, was, probably, more, relevant, in, that, in, a, group, discussion, admittedly, fuelled, by, an, intake, of, free, alcohol, several, were, saying, that, this, year, was, harder, to, cope, with, than, last, as, there, was, no, crisis, or, adrenalin, to, keep, them, going, and, that, the, toll, from, last, year, was, beginning, to, tell, on, them, and, their, nerves, two, were, still, under, court, threats, from, trading, standards, defra, for, not, complying, with, regulations, both, will, in, my, opinions, not, result, in, anything, but, they, are, pretty, pissed, off, to, put, it, mildly, there, is, also, a, real, antagonism, to, doing, the, testing, for, ministry, and, we, are, in, the, cross, fire, as, defra, vets, decide, what, is, to, be, done, and, yet, we, are, the, ones, trying, to, arrange, and, get, the, testing, done, while, they, do, not, have, to, pay, us, they, do, have, to, spend, a, fair, chunk, of, time, organising, and, actually, getting, the, job, done, we, are, having, a, real, problem, with, organising, the, testing, on, one, of, the, common, grazings, there, are, 14, farmers, with, animals, on, it, biosecurity, is, a, joke, when, your, animals, are, on, common, grazing, with, 14, others, and, trying, to, get, 2, farmers, to, agree, on, a, date, and, a, method, of, doing, it, they, all, have, different, ideas, and, most, do, not, want, so, and, so, there, co, he, ll, just, wind, the, cattle, up, and, we’ll, never, catch, them, weds, day, off, so, caught, up, on, garden, and, sleep, thursday, i, really, enjoyed, the, crack, today, there, was, just, that, right, amount, of, work, and, banter, to, have, a, good, day, laughter, and, fun, is, infectious, friday, out, for, a, meal, at, night, which, was, great, but, 8, 30, start, tomorrow, sat, am, is, not, going, to, be, good, october, a, young, colleague’s, brother, was, killed, in, an, accident, and, as, m, writes, retrospectively, see, below, there, followed, a, very, difficult, month, in, which, he, was, unable, to, keep, a, diary, saturday, 5th, october, it, is, in, the, smallest, of, things, that, suddenly, life, changes, very, suddenly, and, we, then, look, back, and, see, how, we, were, and, are, not, now, i, had, a, phone, call, at, ten, to, five, from, one, of, the, young, vet’s, father, father, was, asking, to, speak, to, george, or, i, that, in, itself, was, strange, the, receptionist, came, and, found, me, with, a, quizzical, look, saying, he, did, not, want, to, speak, to, young, vet, when, i, answered, the, phone, he, said, that, they, had, bad, news, in, that, her, brother, had, been, killed, in, a, traffic, accident, so, i, had, to, tell, her, the, bad, news, and, then, sort, out, the, consequences, once, she, had, got, over, the, initial, shock, wife, drove, her, to, her, parents, home, in, her, car, the, other, partners, are, away, so, we, are, short, staffed, and, young, vet, will, obviously, not, be, back, for, a, while, it, is, at, times, like, this, that, i, am, always, grateful, that, i, can, go, back, to, god, and, trust, in, him, even, though, i, do, not, understand, anything, i, know, that, i, can, trust, god, jan, 2003, writing, retrospectively, about, october, 2002, there, is, a, month, of, diaries, missing, from, the, death, of, vet’s, brother, onwards, i, always, meant, to, go, back, and, fill, in, the, days, that, i, missed, but, never, made, the, time, or, the, effort, i, found, the, time, very, difficult, so, how, her, parents, and, sister, in, law, coped, i, do, not, know, the, funeral, was, at, kirby, and, i, am, pleased, that, i, went, it, was, very, sad, to, see, some, one, in, the, prime, of, their, life, with, so, much, to, offer, cut, down, in, such, a, random, way, it, was, a, very, cumbrian, farming, gathering, the, red, faced, craggy, farmers, and, yet, there, was, a, friend, of, the, family, who, sang, at, the, wedding, who, was, a, black, american, gospel, singer, the, global, village, or, world, wide, family, of, the, church, take, your, pick, the, death, of, some, one, young, always, makes, you, consider, your, own, mortality, and, makes, you, think, about, what, you, are, doing, will, you, on, your, death, bed, wish, that, you, had, made, different, choices, the, next, month, was, busy, and, stressful, and, probably, a, time, which, would, have, been, useful, for, the, study, to, have, thoughts, and, reactions, to, my, life, when, under, stress, but, i, suppose, to, a, certain, extent, when, we, are, close, to, something, we, go, on, automatic, pilot, and, do, the, urgent, leaving, the, things, on, the, periphery, he, was, killed, while, driving, a, tractor, back, from, where, they, had, been, testing, cattle, for, american, bvd, they, had, bought, in, pedigree, world, class, dairy, cattle, this, included, a, sibling, to, an, embryo, which, had, had, the, american, bvd, so, the, ministry, were, keen, to, make, sure, that, it, was, not, established, within, the, uk, hence, the, reason, for, the, blood, sampling, i, know, you, cannot, look, at, history, and, say, what, if, but, if, the, cattle, had, not, been, culled, there, would, have, been, no, blood, sampling, to, do, and, no, reason, to, be, on, the, road, that, day, at, that, time, linkage, is, not, the, way, to, go, he, may, have, had, to, go, to, feed, stock, or, he, could, have, been, in, an, accident, in, another, way, but, the, ripples, of, actions, continue, to, reverberate, around, at, least, in, my, head, saturday, 12th, october, again, m, is, writing, retrospectively, here, of, his, first, thoughts, after, diagnosing, his, first, fmd, case, these, weeks, were, not, completed, because, of, my, stress, levels, i, have, wanted, to, transcribe, my, first, thoughts, on, fmd, that, were, written, in, a, hotel, in, newcastle, at, 2am, after, diagnosing, my, first, case, to, my, wife, dear, wife, i, don’t, know, why, i, am, writing, this, as, i, hope, to, see, you, tomorrow, but, i, suppose, i, need, to, record, what, i, feel, for, you, and, for, me, besides, sleep, eludes, me, today, was, a, beautiful, day, of, winter, sunshine, warm, sunshine, that, speaks, of, the, spring, that, is, to, come, on, frosted, snow, that, is, clear, and, white, and, pure, a, great, day, to, be, walking, up, in, the, hills, on, a, sunday, afternoon, enjoying, god’s, wonderful, creation, but, this, is, a, fallen, world, the, only, walkers, are, me, the, ministry, man, in, disposable, boiler, suit, and, waterproof, jacket, and, trousers, and, a, farmer, with, a, heavy, heart, we, go, into, each, field, checking, and, inspecting, all, the, pregnant, ewes, herding, them, into, a, corner, to, catch, and, examine, them, feet, ok, mouth, ok, a, smile, the, only, clue, to, the, sadness, on, this, man’s, heart, is, the, slight, acrid, smell, which, wafts, now, and, then, on, the, wind, the, smell, of, his, neighbours, future, burning, on, another, ministry, man’s, pyre, it’s, 2, o’clock, in, the, morning, and, why, am, i, writing, this, because, i, cannot, sleep, the, ministry, man, who, then, examined, the, cows, blisters, in, its, mouth, blisters, on, its, tongue, temp, 105f, i, am, sorry, i, say, it, is, they’ll, all, go, he, manages, to, say, fighting, back, tears, if, the, lab, confirms, it, yes, i, reply, as, a, farm, vet, of, 15, years, experience, i, am, not, allowed, to, say, it, is, foot, and, mouth, disease, only, that, i, suspect, it, an, anonymous, telephone, answerer, in, london, makes, stupid, comments, and, stupid, questions, i, take, my, samples, from, the, cow, i, grab, its, tongue, to, pull, it, out, to, take, a, sample, of, the, skin, from, the, tongue, the, cow’s, tongue, comes, off, in, my, hand, i, try, not, to, be, sick, and, place, the, sample, in, the, bottle, we, go, into, the, farmhouse, he, is, in, tears, she, is, in, tears, i, feel, like, crying, i, wouldn’t, do, your, job, for, all, the, b, tea, in, china, she, says, i, am, a, volunteer, a, tvi, all, big, depts, have, their, jargon, and, i, don’t, speak, it, yet, a, temporary, veterinary, inspector, i, only, started, 3, days, ago, a, clean, vet, who, had, not, been, in, contact, with, the, foot, and, mouth, disease, a, volunteer, from, general, practice, seconded, to, be, used, as, a, pawn, in, the, battle, against, fmd, a, man, from, the, ministry, as, i, leave, a, dirty, vet, having, double, disinfected, with, my, samples, and, a, heavy, heart, i, take, off, the, disposable, boiler, suit, and, put, on, my, shoes, i, am, me, again, not, the, man, from, the, ministry, hey, lad, nobody, would, know, you, from, anyone, else, like, that, says, the, farmer, he, has, seen, me, as, i, am, i, see, him, as, he, is, living, with, his, mother, since, his, father, died, so, as, to, be, on, hand, to, run, the, farm, his, wife, and, her, mother, in, law, trying, to, share, a, house, and, a, kitchen, while, they, convert, a, barn, into, a, house, the, builder, was, told, to, stay, away, a, week, ago, in, case, he, brought, disease, onto, the, farm, tomorrow, he, will, be, told, to, stay, away, as, there, will, be, no, income, for, at, least, 6, months, while, i, filled, in, forms, i, had, never, seen, before, with, initials, and, jargon, i’ve, never, heard, she, phoned, her, sister, to, pick, up, the, prescription, for, anti, depressants, the, doctor, said, she, should, go, on, them, while, the, stress, and, worry, of, foot, and, mouth, was, about, well, it’s, here, he, hasn’t, eaten, and, will, not, sleep, tonight, she, is, anxious, and, will, not, get, any, rest, and, the, man, from, the, ministry, well, its, 2am, and, i, am, writing, this, far, from, home, a, volunteer, a, tvi, a, pawn, in, a, bigger, game, but, after, 5, days, of, being, dirty, and, i, can, rejoin, life, back, to, normal, back, to, my, home, to, my, job, and, my, future, my, farming, couple, 5, days, of, shooting, and, burning, of, disinfectants, and, diggers, six, months, of, quarantine, and, a, future, in, farming, maybe, or, maybe, not, the, stories, abound, of, three, generations, waiting, for, the, men, from, the, ministry, but, grandfather, will, not, see, the, farm, restocked, the, stress, was, too, much, for, his, already, dodgy, heart, the, countryside, is, under, siege, and, pawns, are, being, lost, to, win, a, greater, gain, and, why, are, we, having, to, work, these, long, hours, and, sacrifice, these, pawns, because, some, one, was, so, arrogant, so, stupid, and, so, lazy, that, he, couldn’t, be, bothered, to, heat, the, swill, he, fed, to, his, pigs, he, couldn’t, keep, to, the, rules, that, were, made, so, this, would, not, happen, it, is, not, intensive, vs, extensive, organic, vs, agribusiness, it, is, sheep, vs, goats, and, they, will, be, sorted, saturday, 2nd, november, the, start, of, writing, diaries, again, after, a, break, of, a, few, weeks, i, am, hoping, to, go, back, and, fill, in, as, time, permits, so, this, is, today, and, forward, looking, working, the, w, e, with, young, vet, and, aw, sat, am, she, had, a, calving, this, morning, at, 4am, and, so, is, a, little, on, the, tired, side, so, hope, it, is, quiet, for, rest, of, the, w, e, did, surgery, and, then, spent, the, afternoon, trying, to, fix, the, out, sidelights, the, front, went, 18monhts, ago, which, shows, how, well, i, am, keeping, up, with, the, maintaince, on, this, house, but, the, back, one, went, recently, and, that, is, a, real, pain, as, you, cant, see, your, way, to, the, car, at, night, so, i, am, more, concerned, about, getting, it, fixed, the, old, lights, are, just, rusted, up, and, you, can, no, longer, replace, the, bulbs, so, up, the, ladder, to, re, wire, new, lights, i, went, unfortunately, i, was, on, call, and, yes, i, suppose, i, was, trying, to, do, too, much, but, if, you, don’t, try, you, don’t, succeed, so, i, downed, tools, went, off, to, calve, a, cow, and, then, came, back, to, find, a, neighbour, plus, her, 4, children, in, our, kitchen, so, i, stopped, had, a, cup, of, tea, and, then, headed, back, up, the, ladder, now, wife, maintains, i, should, have, noticed, that, there, were, lights, on, at, this, point, i, would, like, to, point, out, that, i, should, also, notice, when, she, has, moved, furniture, had, her, hair, cut, or, even, spring, cleaned, the, house, as, i, am, often, berated, for, my, lack, of, noticing, these, sorts, of, things, yes, i, should, have, noticed, but, i, didn’t, i, was, focussed, on, what, i, was, trying, to, do, as, usual, so, up, the, ladder, i, went, to, connect, up, the, light, not, knowing, that, wife, had, switched, the, electrics, back, on, and, yes, when, i, was, at, the, top, of, the, ladder, i, grabbed, the, wires, and, then, spent, what, seemed, an, awfully, long, time, trying, to, let, them, go, and, stay, on, the, ladder, as, the, electric, current, was, shocking, me, so, the, light, did, not, get, fixed, as, i, was, not, going, back, up, the, ladder, as, i, was, now, in, shock, ho, hum, sun, finished, the, light, while, every, one, was, out, and, then, picked, up, a, from, a, sleep, over, and, went, to, church, in, wigton, pm, was, speaking, on, the, parable, of, the, 10, bridesmaids, which, was, good, as, i, had, never, understood, it, as, it, is, obviously, related, to, a, cultural, thing, that, happened, at, weddings, in, jesus, day, the, point, being, that, the, wise, ones, who, were, waiting, for, the, return, of, the, bridegroom, had, the, oil, in, their, lamps, and, the, concept, that, this, was, the, holy, spirit, that, meant, they, could, meet, with, the, bridegroom, i, e, christ, i, am, not, sure, that, the, idea, is, entirely, right, since, there, is, that, big, leap, oil, holy, spirit, but, it, was, interesting, i, still, think, it, was, a, cultural, thing, that, was, obvious, to, his, original, listeners, and, we, just, don’t, have, a, clue, ali, and, andy, called, around, in, the, evening, it, was, really, good, to, see, him, again, he, used, to, be, a, vet, here, who, left, several, years, ago, and, it, looks, that, at, long, last, he, is, going, to, look, to, settle, down, he, was, quite, depressing, about, la, vet, practice, though, he, is, now, 100, small, animal, so, he, is, biased, they, are, actively, looking, at, taking, tb, testing, from, the, vets, in, his, area, and, the, vets, are, dropping, the, farm, practice, as, being, uneconomic, so, much, for, the, govt, wanting, more, farm, vets, around, at, least, this, is, a, low, cost, area, so, at, least, we, are, not, competing, with, small, animal, practices, able, to, offer, large, wages, to, assistant, vets, he, is, looking, to, set, up, his, own, or, buy, a, practice, to, settle, into, they, are, obviously, looking, to, get, married, so, that, will, be, another, wedding, to, go, to, we, have, been, invited, to, lb’s, who, is, finally, marrying, p, they, have, been, following, each, other, around, the, world, for, the, last, 2, years, from, disaster, to, disaster, as, they, are, both, in, humanitarian, relief, work, she, was, a, vet, student, here, too, mon, monday, monday, tell, me, why, i, don’t, like, mondays, young, vet, is, exhausted, and, everything, is, catching, up, with, her, so, she, is, going, to, take, the, end, of, the, week, off, the, joiner, finally, arrived, to, put, in, the, windows, and, had, real, problems, writhing, the, old, ones, out, and, so, has, taken, half, the, sand, stone, with, them, so, they, will, have, to, be, reconcreted, which, is, a, builders, job, ie, he, is, not, going, to, do, it, the, bathroom, is, still, in, pieces, 8, days, it, was, supposed, to, take, and, we, are, now, in, the, third, week, work, was, bedlam, so, i, was, queuing, the, ops, up, this, morning, i, hate, operating, all, morning, as, it, is, very, draining, as, i, have, to, concentrate, on, what, i, am, doing, while, the, office, staff, keep, coming, with, more, and, more, queries, urgh, got, another, stupid, letter, from, the, planners, quibbling, about, listed, building, consent, that, i, am, trying, to, get, for, the, windows, that, are, being, fitted, as, i, speak, i, started, the, ball, rolling, in, august, no, wonder, the, country, is, going, to, the, dogs, tuesday, calmed, down, a, bit, having, filled, in, the, visa, forms, for, our, holiday, to, india, the, great, legacy, of, the, british, the, bureaucracy, is, alive, and, well, why, do, they, want, to, know, my, mothers, place, of, birth, and, maiden, name, for, a, 2, week, holiday, civil, servants, missed, the, gym, cos, surgery, went, on, and, on, i, went, to, a, farm, and, was, asked, a, lot, of, questions, about, tb, as, they, had, had, a, reactor, the, ministry, had, been, out, testing, but, hadn’t, bothered, to, tell, us, mushroom, farmers, son, is, in, the, process, of, planning, next, years, football, team, weds, went, to, a, farm, today, and, he, is, complaining, that, he, cannot, get, his, cows, in, his, restocked, herd, back, in, calf, it, seems, to, be, an, ongoing, problem, a, lot, of, those, who, have, restocked, with, whole, herds, are, having, reduced, fertility, in, their, herds, it, would, be, an, interesting, study, to, see, the, figures, compared, to, non, restocked, herds, thursday, counting, the, days, until, i, am, off, work, continues, to, be, too, hectic, vet, who, lost, her, brother, is, off, and, it, makes, the, whole, pack, of, cards, of, having, enough, vets, to, cover, fall, down, i, think, too, i, am, just, very, tired, from, being, too, busy, for, too, long, when, planning, staffing, levels, it, is, usual, to, be, cautious, rather, than, to, have, too, many, vets, around, not, making, any, money, we, thought, we, were, stretching, it, by, employing, the, 2, new, grads, instead, of, the, one, it, is, also, just, being, under, pressure, all, the, time, with, out, a, few, days, to, cruise, it, went, out, to, chris, swifts, for, the, vcf, veterinary, christian, fellowship, which, was, really, good, as, usual, f, was, telling, us, about, the, thanksgiving, service, that, they, had, just, held, at, barnard, castle, she, has, also, just, got, engaged, so, it, may, curb, her, wanderings, she, is, an, explorer, and, mountaineer, she, is, just, back, from, antarctica, and, is, currently, doing, some, research, and, a, phd, at, durham, barnard, castle, practice, seems, well, organised, and, also, flexible, in, that, she, is, only, working, 3, days, a, week, to, spend, 2, days, at, durham, on, the, phd, it, was, really, good, speaking, to, friends, about, vet’s, brother, as, paul, was, with, them, at, the, accident, as, he, was, taking, the, bloods, so, spent, quite, a, while, praying, for, them, and, for, other, things, friday, bad, day, had, a, phone, call, from, the, planners, saying, they, were, not, going, to, allow, double, glazing, and, that, they, want, the, glazing, bars, to, be, 10mm, not, 20mm, why, there, are, no, 10mm, glazing, bars, on, the, spot, the, ministry, london, have, decided, that, they, are, not, going, to, train, lay, tb, testers, and, that, all, the, work, is, going, to, go, out, to, lvi’s, us, so, we, are, now, looking, at, a, lot, of, work, again, carlisle, defra, in, conjunction, with, london, have, decided, that, they, are, going, to, want, all, the, restocked, herds, tested, annually, with, every, animal, tested, not, just, the, adult, breeding, stock, so, from, looking, at, dropping, 1, 2, vets, 10, days, ago, we, are, now, going, to, be, looking, at, employing, extra, staff, if, we, can, get, hold, of, them, how, are, we, supposed, to, be, planning, for, the, future, if, it, is, so, dependent, on, the, whim, of, defra, officials, saturday, 9th, november, went, to, the, school, pta, pub, quiz, last, night, at, the, rugby, club, it, was, good, fun, but, i, was, struggling, both, to, stay, awake, and, to, dredge, up, the, infotainment, trivia, of, the, previous, year, it, is, funny, how, the, questions, chosen, reflected, the, people, who, were, asking, them, what, had, stuck, in, their, memory, or, that, they, had, chosen, nick, and, jane, were, across, from, newcastle, i, stayed, with, them, for, a, few, nights, when, working, for, defra, across, there, when, i, could, not, face, the, faceless, loneliness, of, the, hotel, consequently, was, completely, zonked, sat, morning, just, went, around, the, house, being, grumpy, went, to, watch, son, play, football, they, thrashed, yewdale, in, the, county, cup, it, was, good, to, be, out, in, the, fresh, air, and, came, back, to, sleep, for, a, while, before, heading, out, to, roy, and, christiana’s, en, famille, we, had, to, pick, up, fraser, from, wigton, this, is, their, son, who, has, just, started, seeing, a, girl, in, wigton, he, is, 14, and, so, was, amusingly, embarrassed, we, were, talking, about, leaving, the, kids, at, what, age, do, you, leave, them, on, their, own, and, to, look, after, the, younger, ones, christiana, told, us, about, when, she, left, all, three, boys, for, an, hour, and, a, half, and, the, older, two, had, got, so, fed, up, with, youngest, being, annoying, they, hung, him, by, his, joggers, from, the, post, at, the, bottom, of, the, stairs, the, middle, one, said, in, all, seriousness, that, it, was, his, fault, that, he, had, torn, his, trousers, if, he, hadn’t, tried, to, escape, the, trousers, would, have, been, fine, even, now, he, considers, that, the, wrongdoing, was, the, ripping, of, the, trousers, not, the, fact, that, they, had, hung, him, up, sun, went, to, church, in, morning, and, fittingly, for, remembrance, sunday, it, was, on, repentance, and, gods, love, daniels, prayer, in, daniel, 9, was, very, fitting, some, how, lunch, and, more, football, and, crashed, in, to, bed, exhausted, mon, tim, is, away, for, the, first, time, on, his, own, with, the, school, on, an, outward, bound, week, south, of, keswick, he, was, so, excited, about, going, i, think, wife, was, a, little, put, off, that, he, was, not, thinking, about, missing, home, hey, ho, but, that, is, a, sign, of, secure, roots, i, suppose, met, up, with, a’s, maths, teacher, to, discuss, her, maths, there, has, been, a, lot, of, to, and, froing, between, the, teachers, but, not, much, communication, with, home, so, we, went, to, see, what, they, were, saying, and, have, left, it, as, the, status, quo, which, is, what, it, should, be, first, call, today, was, a, farmer, who, is, just, out, of, hospital, having, had, his, appendix, removed, for, appendicitis, he, had, seen, this, cow, and, said, why, haven’t, you, had, the, vet, to, it, he, is, a, good, stocksman, and, with, him, being, out, of, action, they, had, a, relief, milker, in, who, hadn’t, noticed, it, had, a, twisted, uterus, and, was, trying, to, calve, if, i, had, seen, it, on, friday, i, could, have, sorted, it, out, but, because, it, was, now, to, late, i, had, to, send, it, off, it, is, sad, but, the, agricultural, industry, is, losing, a, lot, of, experience, and, a, lot, of, stocksmanship, and, handling, and, general, expertise, it, is, not, sthg, that, can, be, replaced, we, are, seeing, more, twisted, wombs, because, of, the, transport, and, fighting, amongst, restocked, herds, the, sad, thing, is, that, he, said, to, me, we, should, never, have, restocked, we, should, have, taken, the, money, and, let, it, all, go, it, is, just, too, much, hassle, with, the, paper, work, and, training, cows, they, have, just, housed, the, cattle, and, so, they, are, all, fighting, to, come, in, to, the, parlour, to, get, milked, and, just, making, life, difficult, there, is, a, real, disillusionment, around, at, the, moment, but, there, are, also, those, who, are, gearing, up, to, milk, more, and, more, cows, to, stay, still, 300, tuesday, the, great, european, market, combined, with, defra’s, inflexibility, is, causing, a, few, problems, the, dutch, heifers, that, have, been, imported, to, replace, some, of, the, fmd, losses, have, a, unique, identifier, number, which, is, on, their, ear, tag, so, everyone, knows, who, they, are, so, far, so, good, they, also, have, nl, on, them, rather, than, uk, which, means, we, know, they, are, from, holland, the, problem, is, they, have, a, small, check, digit, on, them, at, the, end, this, means, dutch, computers, can, recognise, if, the, ear, tag, is, a, valid, one, or, has, been, misread, the, uk, tags, have, a, check, digit, at, the, front, of, the, number, very, useful, to, help, rule, out, misreadings, or, transcribing, of, the, ear, tags, however, the, defra, computer, doesn’t, recognise, the, numbers, so, we, are, being, asked, to, retest, heifers, because, they, still, have, an, outstanding, record, of, the, ear, tag, numbers, as, untested, because, the, extra, digit, has, or, had, not, been, entered, on, the, uk, system, the, number, of, out, standing, tests, is, dropping, but, we, will, not, be, able, to, keep, up, with, this, level, of, testing, more, allocations, have, arrived, today, managed, to, get, all, the, bits, sorted, so, i, could, leave, at, 5, 30, for, my, few, days, off, the, only, out, standing, thing, is, the, stuff, for, the, accountant, end, of, year, it, was, supposed, to, be, in, by, 18th, of, oct, but, hey, ho, weds, i, have, taken, a, few, days, off, to, try, and, paint, the, windows, and, new, bathroom, we, are, having, put, in, the, planners, phoned, to, query, again, about, the, windows, and, i, told, them, they, were, already, in, so, it, went, down, like, a, lead, balloon, and, they, are, coming, to, tell, me, off, they, also, started, querying, the, other, windows, from, 95, the, problem, with, having, a, few, days, off, is, that, i, get, very, head, achey, and, feel, washed, out, and, ill, once, the, adrenalin, stops, i, seem, to, crash, thursday, met, up, with, charlie, from, longtown, vets, for, lunch, which, was, great, his, practice, in, carlisle, that, he, has, started, is, going, well, it, is, on, the, main, road, out, to, scotland, and, looks, really, good, and, he, is, getting, lots, of, custom, just, by, being, there, he, is, looking, for, a, part, time, vet, to, start, mornings, friday, repainted, the, bathroom, walls, after, discovering, i, had, used, 2, different, shades, of, green, one, was, ming, grey, the, other, ming, blue, i, just, opened, them, one, after, the, other, and, thought, the, difference, was, because, the, one, had, dried, and, the, other, was, still, wet, ooops, the, plumber, is, having, problems, with, the, electrics, and, getting, the, lights, to, work, so, it, was, all, fused, out, i, am, just, glad, we, have, a, shower, as, well, or, we, would, all, be, getting, rather, smelly, by, now, went, to, watch, changing, lanes, at, cinema, a, rather, thoughtful, if, slow, and, unbelievable, set, up, but, nice, escapism, for, an, hour, or, two, saturday, november, 16th, working, again, but, feel, better, for, having, had, a, few, days, off, even, if, the, bathroom, isn’t, finished, getting, to, be, a, bit, of, a, saga, oh, well, never, mind, sat, morning, surgery, was, busy, and, then, several, farm, calls, afterwards, for, the, amount, of, stock, around, and, the, cost, effectiveness, of, veterinary, time, we, are, doing, an, incredible, amount, of, clinical, work, dan, the, sheep, ai, vet, who, locums, for, us, on, occasions, phoned, up, wanting, alison’s, phone, number, she, was, of, course, out, it, being, sat, night, his, technician, is, ill, and, he, has, 250, swales, to, ai, tomorrow, hope, he, finds, some, one, all, the, sheep, ai, and, embryo, technicians, are, very, busy, as, people, try, to, build, up, their, pedigree, herds, and, flocks, by, breeding, for, top, quality, sun, am, busy, with, calls, and, then, painted, doors, in, bathroom, while, son, painted, the, window, very, messy, but, he, enjoyed, it, it, will, give, him, confidence, to, try, again, it, is, patience, and, practice, went, to, church, in, the, evening, rob, whitaker, the, principal, of, capernwray, bible, college, was, preaching, he, is, so, animated, and, relevant, he, was, talking, on, feeding, the, 5000, and, jesus, compassion, and, just, the, circumstances, jesus, was, in, at, the, time, how, he, used, the, disciples, and, then, applying, it, to, us, and, to, the, church, in, general, espy, compassion, very, challenging, went, on, to, meet, up, with, lads, and, spent, time, praying, phil, is, pretty, down, about, not, having, a, job, it, effects, his, self, worth, didn’t, help, that, fraser, had, a, brand, new, merc, sitting, out, side, his, house, mon, hit, the, maelstrom, running, with, an, in, tray, flowing, out, and, still, nothing, together, for, year, end, to, accountant, so, pushed, practice, manager, and, then, started, operating, and, haunting, him, every, 20, mins, in, between, ops, and, keeping, him, on, task, the, problem, is, that, there, are, so, many, other, things, going, on, at, the, moment, that, the, non, urgent, keep, disappearing, in, to, tomorrow, the, new, drugs, discount, system, is, working, and, generating, a, lot, of, interest, and, then, hopefully, will, cut, down, on, the, black, market, with, any, luck, the, increased, turn, over, will, make, up, for, margin, usual, problem, solving, and, smoothing, over, and, 2nd, opinions, to, sort, out, the, 20, day, rule, is, not, stopping, one, of, our, local, cattle, dealers, from, buying, and, selling, he, says, the, paperwork, to, run, 5, holding, numbers, is, horrendous, ken, and, anne, called, around, and, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, they, have, a, lime, spreading, business, and, have, been, really, busy, over, fmd, both, with, lime, for, land, that, is, going, to, be, used, for, barley, and, crops, rather, than, grass, and, with, a, lot, of, stone, for, building, work, and, new, pathways, and, for, lonnings, whereas, farmers, were, happy, to, move, cattle, via, roads, they, are, trying, to, reduce, the, movements, along, roads, and, are, putting, in, tracks, for, the, cows, tuesday, more, tracings, to, check, for, tb, these, are, cattle, bought, from, a, farm, where, tb, has, since, been, confirmed, and, the, paperwork, to, go, with, them, ear, tags, don’t, correlate, so, going, to, be, a, problem, rota, nightmare, at, the, moment, as, everyone, is, organising, their, skiing, trips, so, we, are, going, to, have, 1, 2, vets, off, all, of, jan, and, most, of, feb, took, first, box, load, of, paperwork, to, the, accountant, he, is, an, old, fashioned, up, the, back, stairs, not, a, computer, in, sight, type, of, fella, he, is, a, wily, old, fox, much, more, than, he, looks, as, he, manages, to, keep, the, taxman, happy, and, off, our, backs, which, is, probably, the, most, important, the, financial, year, doesn’t, look, too, bad, but, doesn’t, allow, for, the, number, of, days, of, holiday, carried, over, if, we, had, to, give, the, holiday, pay, or, pay, a, vet, to, cover, for, those, days, it, would, make, them, look, a, lot, less, rosy, got, back, in, time, for, gym, and, then, tuesday, kid, chauffer, work, then, fell, into, bed, and, slept, weds, the, phone, stopped, at, 4, 00pm, and, didn’t, ring, again, until, 9, 30, this, morning, weird, the, work, has, just, stopped, like, a, tap, being, turned, off, so, got, the, rest, of, testing, sorted, sorted, out, the, rest, of, the, stuff, for, the, accountant, tidied, the, office, wrote, up, my, book, and, even, thought, about, mucking, my, car, out, only, got, as, far, as, thinking, about, it, as, coffee, break, arrived, didn’t, earn, much, but, felt, a, lot, better, for, it, skipped, off, early, and, gave, the, bathroom, doors, second, coat, thursday, 21st, november, pay, day, decided, that, if, defra, was, a, business, it, would, be, bust, by, now, we, are, on, a, rollercoaster, trying, to, look, at, the, future, with, them, they, only, make, up, in, a, normal, year, about, 20, of, our, farm, fee, income, but, that, has, been, much, higher, over, the, past, few, years, the, chief, defra, vet, has, been, flying, kites, as, they, say, in, politics, to, see, what, the, reaction, is, or, has, been, doing, as, he, has, been, told, by, whitehall, i, don’t, know, what, the, ins, and, outs, of, it, are, but, the, gist, has, been, they, are, going, to, employ, their, own, vets, to, do, the, testing, as, this, would, be, much, more, efficient, and, cost, effective, when, it, was, pointed, out, this, wasn’t, going, to, be, the, case, we, went, to, they, would, employ, non, vets, to, do, it, as, this, would, be, much, cheaper, there, would, then, not, be, any, farm, animal, vets, in, large, areas, of, the, country, as, it, would, reduce, the, fee, income, even, further, where, the, farm, side, of, vet, businesses, is, marginal, it, would, just, be, given, up, it, would, mean, our, business, in, a, high, stock, area, would, probably, drop, 2, vets, so, london, finally, decided, that, the, status, quo, would, probably, be, best, at, the, same, time, carlisle, in, consultation, with, page, st, decided, that, as, there, is, so, much, tb, being, found, in, the, restocked, farms, that, all, the, restocked, farms, should, be, tested, on, an, annual, basis, and, that, all, animals, not, just, breeding, stock, should, be, tested, this, means, about, a, 25, increase, in, work, load, for, the, next, 2, winters, so, instead, of, dropping, a, vet, we, should, look, to, be, taking, one, on, but, we, cannot, believe, what, is, going, to, happen, next, as, how, can, we, plan, when, such, drastic, changes, are, proposed, in, the, space, of, a, month, friday, had, a, horrendous, night, with, ill, calves, with, pneumonia, in, the, evening, a, calving, at, 1, am, in, silloth, then, a, dog, trying, to, die, at, 5am, so, was, i, ever, pleased, that, it, was, my, half, day, slept, and, played, squash, with, l, j, in, the, afternoon, the, dog, belonged, to, an, old, lady, who, had, no, children, and, it, was, her, husbands, dog, who, had, died, 4, years, previously, she, was, going, to, be, on, her, own, if, it, dies, so, she, was, very, tearful, and, upset, the, dog, is, not, looking, good, as, it, is, 16yr, poodle, type, thing, she, is, isolated, booth, because, she, doesn’t, drive, and, lives, out, at, the, coast, and, because, she, and, her, husband, retired, to, here, and, neither, have, any, family, around, i, felt, for, her, made, me, appreciate, my, family, so, much, more, saturday, 23rd, november, wife, is, away, on, a, course, today, so, for, my, w, e, off, i, am, running, the, kids, and, doing, the, cooking, i, dropped, of, other, son, to, squash, did, some, errands, in, wigton, and, then, watched, the, squash, coaching, they, are, very, patient, and, encouraging, the, total, contrast, was, shown, at, son, s, football, they, are, a, very, good, team, but, i, really, do, not, like, the, attitude, of, most, of, the, coaches, and, teams, in, the, carlisle, teams, i, was, late, to, arrive, and, they, were, already, 4, 0, up, and, this, was, the, second, half, it, was, only, when, i, walked, around, to, where, the, coach, was, did, he, think, about, giving, son, and, the, other, 2, subs, a, game, we, have, had, it, out, with, him, before, that, he, should, give, all, the, kids, a, chance, to, play, or, else, they, find, it, crushing, son, was, really, fed, up, with, the, situation, but, he, does, love, playing, and, is, quite, loyal, the, coach, always, justifies, that, he, has, to, play, his, best, team, which, he, doesn’t, he, plays, his, favourites, friends, sons, but, the, point, is, irrelevant, if, you, are, winning, by, that, margin, then, you, can, afford, to, have, weaker, players, on, the, field, they, went, on, to, win, 10, 0, we, will, have, to, get, a, thursby, team, organised, for, next, year, went, on, to, longtown, poultry, sale, very, interesting, lots, of, rare, birds, and, waterfowl, will, have, to, go, and, buy, next, year, and, get, some, different, types, for, a, to, breed, up, sun, dan, spoke, on, walking, on, water, in, his, own, inimitable, style, he, is, so, refreshing, and, practical, and, honest, made, it, a, call, to, prayer, as, well, didn’t, do, much, in, morning, as, wife, was, on, course, but, finally, managed, to, finish, bathroom, hoorah, mon, decided, that, if, defra, was, a, business, it, would, be, bust, by, now, we, are, on, a, rollercoaster, trying, to, look, at, the, future, with, them, they, only, make, up, in, a, normal, year, about, 20, of, our, farm, fee, income, but, that, has, been, much, higher, over, the, past, few, years, the, chief, defra, vet, has, been, flying, kites, as, they, say, in, politics, to, see, what, the, reaction, is, or, has, been, doing, as, he, has, been, told, by, whitehall, i, don’t, know, what, the, ins, and, outs, of, it, are, but, the, gist, has, been, they, are, going, to, employ, their, own, vets, to, do, the, testing, as, this, would, be, much, more, efficient, and, cost, effective, when, it, was, pointed, out, this, wasn’t, going, to, be, the, case, we, went, to, they, would, employ, non, vets, to, do, it, as, this, would, be, much, cheaper, there, would, then, not, be, any, farm, animal, vets, in, large, areas, of, the, country, as, it, would, reduce, the, fee, income, even, further, where, the, farm, side, of, vet, businesses, is, marginal, it, would, just, be, given, up, it, would, mean, our, business, in, a, high, stock, area, would, probably, drop, 2, vets, so, london, finally, decided, that, the, status, quo, would, probably, be, best, at, the, same, time, carlisle, in, consultation, with, page, st, decided, that, as, there, is, so, much, tb, being, found, in, the, restocked, farms, that, all, the, restocked, farms, should, be, tested, on, an, annual, basis, and, that, all, animals, not, just, breeding, stock, should, be, tested, this, means, about, a, 25, increase, in, work, load, for, the, next, 2, winters, so, instead, of, dropping, a, vet, we, should, look, to, be, taking, one, on, but, we, cannot, believe, what, is, going, to, happen, next, as, how, can, we, plan, when, such, drastic, changes, are, proposed, in, the, space, of, a, month, tuesday, went, to, do, routine, fertility, at, a, farm, today, and, it, was, quite, depressing, in, that, a, neighbour, of, theirs, who, has, started, up, again, has, had, a, really, bad, time, the, problems, of, restocking, on, top, of, bad, hips, he, was, all, gung, ho, to, get, restocked, and, although, he, had, a, sore, leg, he, didn’t, go, to, the, doctors, while, he, had, the, chance, when, he, had, no, stock, as, it, was, only, a, little, sore, but, as, soon, as, he, got, stock, back, and, started, to, do, a, lot, of, physical, work, they, were, very, sore, so, he, went, to, the, dr’s, and, has, 2, hips, which, need, replaced, but, as, he, is, only, 40, they, don’t, want, to, do, it, yet, and, it, would, mean, no, physical, work, for, a, long, period, on, top, of, that, he, has, mastitis, problems, caused, by, taking, his, plant, to, pieces, by, defra, he, has, lost, 8, cows, and, heifers, through, calving, illness, or, injury, so, after, less, than, a, year, he, looks, set, to, give, up, disillusioned, and, a, lot, poorer, the, workload, for, us, is, easing, as, most, cattle, are, now, housed, and, a, lot, of, the, housing, work, is, sorted, i, always, feel, it, is, a, run, down, to, christmas, now, with, all, the, preparations, and, celebrations, and, kids, and, adult, parties, i, was, at, another, farm, today, who, had, meningitis, a, year, ago, and, has, still, not, really, recovered, properly, he, is, still, finding, it, hard, to, get, going, he, lost, all, his, animals, and, all, his, work, during, fmd, and, the, additional, strain, has, meant, he, has, lost, a, lot, of, interest, in, the, farming, side, he, can’t, be, bothered, with, all, the, hassle, and, paper, work, of, farming, sheep, and, cattle, and, so, is, growing, a, lot, of, veg, which, he, and, his, wife, have, always, enjoyed, growing, they, just, retail, at, the, farm, gate, it, doesn’t, make, much, money, but, as, he, says, it, just, keeps, things, turning, over, and, he, and, his, wife, have, time, for, each, other, and, no, hassle, life, is, more, important, than, making, a, living, very, profound, i, am, going, to, go, part, time, i, wish, wednesday, there, seem, to, be, a, lot, of, problems, still, on, restocking, farms, they, are, all, having, problems, with, getting, the, cows, back, in, calf, two, farms, today, complained, that, even, though, they, were, more, than, pleased, with, the, compensation, at, the, time, the, costs, of, restocking, are, much, much, more, it, would, be, interesting, to, do, a, survey, on, the, number, of, breeding, animals, bought, in, and, those, who, have, been, lost, either, through, illness, or, by, failure, to, get, in, calf, the, old, diseases, are, still, causing, the, most, problems, lung, worm, a, disease, i, thought, was, well, under, control, and, well, understood, has, caused, huge, problems, ibr, or, cow, flu, has, caused, so, many, problems, that, we, can, no, longer, get, the, vaccine, as, all, the, stocks, have, been, used, it, was, interesting, today, that, one, of, the, farms, that, is, about, to, start, milking, having, finally, restocked, ordered, vaccine, for, lepto, ibr, and, bvd, almost, as, a, matter, of, course, but, fertility, is, causing, the, most, worries, thursday, feel, a, lot, better, after, an, early, night, apart, from, running, to, and, from, carlisle, after, my, daughter, youth, group, last, night, and, evening, shopping, tonight, son, is, still, trying, to, organise, an, u14, thursby, team, for, next, year, all, he, needs, is, a, coach, the, problem, is, that, it, is, a, big, commitment, i, wish, i, could, do, it, but, i, work, too, many, w, e’s, spent, time, day, dreaming, about, what, to, do, with, the, byre, in, our, yard, it, is, an, old, knackered, building, that, needs, bulldozing, but, wife, s, dad, thinks, we, should, just, look, after, it, and, convert, it, into, sthg, but, what, i, still, think, that, there, is, an, opening, for, herriot, holidays, taking, people, for, a, day, at, the, vets, and, then, a, day, at, the, mart, and, so, on, diversification, is, the, name, of, the, game, friday, had, an, interesting, day, what, with, one, thing, and, another, no, lunch, but, hey, who’s, complaining, one, of, the, nurses, at, work, has, a, chicken, shed, with, her, husband, and, another, farmer, partner, the, fans, and, alarms, all, failed, and, so, the, air, was, not, circulating, the, farmer, was, devastated, it, was, a, horrendous, sight, a, carpet, of, dead, chickens, there, were, 23,000, in, the, shed, and, we, worked, out, there, were, roughly, 2, 3000, left, alive, 20.000, dead, it, brought, back, memories, of, fmd, also, the, logistics, of, disposing, of, 20, tonnes, of, dead, chicken, i, hope, the, insurance, covers, it, out, for, dinner, at, christiana’s, had, a, vet, friend, call, around, at, teatime, he, is, a, meat, hygiene, practice, covering, several, different, meat, plants, they, have, several, vets, covering, all, the, different, plants, he, has, been, asked, to, got, to, harrogate, to, discuss, how, the, different, proposed, regulations, can, be, implemented, a, marked, improvement, on, the, usual, dumping, of, unworkable, ideas, from, defra, hq, saturday, 30th, nov, took, a, while, to, get, going, after, being, out, for, dinner, last, night, though, it, was, very, pleasant, spent, day, doing, odds, and, ends, went, to, watch, son, play, footie, and, bought, an, orchid, from, the, orchid, farm, the, kids, were, making, cards, for, mum, and, wrapping, presents, so, it, was, fun, james, came, down, with, his, kids, so, there, were, 7, running, riot, which, is, really, a, bit, too, many, after, a, late, night, sun, 1st, church, in, the, morning, and, johnboy, called, around, to, see, what, time, the, prayer, meeting, finished, as, he, had, arranged, a, surprise, party, for, wife, s, 40th, so, had, loads, of, folks, in, sunday, night, which, was, great, they, had, all, crept, in, to, the, big, kitchen, and, decorated, it, while, we, were, in, the, front, room, a, and, son, had, been, going, back, and, forth, so, wife, never, noticed, so, it, was, special, the, kids, were, as, high, as, kites, mon, 2nd, wife, is, forty, and, there’s, a, photo, in, the, news, and, star, to, prove, it, the, kids, brought, breakfast, in, bed, and, opened, presents, poor, other, son, after, 3, late, nights, did, not, want, to, go, to, school, i, hope, they, are, all, right, for, gran, wife, s, mum, and, sister, arrived, nannies, from, ireland, to, the, rescue, they, are, going, to, look, after, the, kids, while, we, are, away, for, a, few, days, we, have, had, a, bit, o, banter, about, them, looking, after, the, kids, sister, found, an, advert, for, nannies, from, ireland, which, is, an, au, pair, service, and, sent, of, for, the, info, which, she, forwarded, to, us, she, is, a, character, so, they, have, been, asking, about, working, conditions, and, pay, i, have, been, requesting, police, checks, and, giving, as, good, as, i, get, the, winds, are, pretty, strong, so, they, have, had, a, bad, journey, the, super, ferry, was, cancelled, so, they, have, had, to, come, by, boat, which, takes, much, longer, a, baked, a, cake, and, managed, to, get, 40, candles, on, it, both, wife, and, i, are, looking, forward, to, getting, away, as, usual, work, was, really, busy, and, lots, of, loose, ends, to, tie, up, prior, to, leaving, but, finished, for, 3, days, hoorraaahhh, tues, 3rd, spent, the, day, travelling, up, to, loch, lomond, stopped, off, at, braeside, and, at, gretna, and, bought, some, clothes, and, mooched, around, cameron, house, is, beautiful, with, wonderful, views, and, you, can, just, walk, down, to, the, lake, there, is, a, pool, so, went, for, a, swim, before, dinner, very, civilised, we, had, just, finished, dinner, when, the, waitress, arrived, with, a, cake, with, 4, candles, and, sang, a, rather, wobbly, happy, birthday, sister, had, been, very, keen, that, we, left, the, phone, number, of, cameron, house, even, though, she, had, our, mobile, numbers, now, we, know, why, very, pleasant, surprise, but, we, will, never, eat, any, cake, let, alone, a, whole, one, while, we, were, strolling, around, after, dinner, came, across, the, picture, that, one, of, our, friends, had, used, to, decorate, the, kitchen, with, on, sunday, he, had, come, across, it, somewhere, in, a, book, and, it, looks, vaguely, like, wife, so, he, had, put, it, up, with, lady, wife, underneath, and, here, was, the, original, or, at, least, a, print, of, the, same, picture, weird, weds, after, a, very, lazy, start, a, swim, before, breakfast, full, scottish, we, walked, up, eastern, edge, of, loch, in, sunshine, and, showers, we, were, only, caught, out, in, one, shower, there, was, a, rainbow, down, to, the, loch, edge, a, beautiful, winter, walk, i, have, decided, i, am, going, to, walk, the, west, highland, way, with, the, boys, had, some, fruit, for, lunch, as, cooked, breakfast, on, top, of, dinner, last, night, means, i, don’t, really, need, to, eat, for, a, week, another, swim, thought, about, the, gym, but, i, am, on, holiday, and, felt, wonderfully, relaxed, and, then, dinner, thursday, another, lazy, start, and, swim, before, breakfast, a, walk, along, the, loch, and, the, back, to, glasgow, to, the, burrell, collection, we, just, wandered, around, the, paintings, i, can, sit, and, look, at, the, impressionists, and, keep, seeing, something, new, they, are, very, beautiful, came, back, home, in, time, for, tea, though, did, not, eat, anything, as, too, much, food, made, up, a, ditty, for, the, nannies, nannies, from, ireland, came, to, stay, so, respondent, and, wife, could, go, away, off, the, children, went, to, school, while, respondent, and, wife, swam, in, the, pool, the, nannies, were, left, with, all, the, dust, cleaning, dirt, for, their, daily, crust, their, experienced, gleaned, over, all, the, years, could, not, stop, all, other, son, s, tears, off, to, school, you, must, go, said, a, stern, faced, nanny, lo, the, nannies, go, to, tk, max, forgetting, all, about, the, cats, something, is, sick, on, the, mat, the, nannies, really, don’t, like, that, a, m, l, begs, go, and, fetch, all, the, eggs, on, animals, they’re, not, too, what, did, the, contract, really, mean, keen, they, will, not, give, another, day, until, something, is, done, about, their, pay, so, back, to, ireland, with, this, tale, they, do, go, via, cummersdale, as, their, pay, all, disappears, they, decide, on, new, careers, lois, thinks, of, a, racing, car, ruth, just, of, going, far, so, our, thanks, to, them, are, due, the, nannies, from, ireland, crew, its, now, their, turn, to, go, and, play, till, they’re, called, another, day, edited, to, remove, names, in, verse, friday, bad, hair, day, having, come, back, all, relaxed, and, cheerful, i, was, relaxed, until, i, missed, my, lunch, after, working, all, day, plenty, of, hassle, from, one, thing, and, another, i, was, then, on, call, at, night, and, it, was, very, busy, loch, lomond, and, cameron, house, seem, a, long, long, time, ago, i, am, extremely, fed, up, i, do, not, want, to, calve, another, cow, out, side, office, hours, ever, again, saturday, 7th, december, worked, this, morning, after, a, bad, night, on, call, and, felt, like, death, warmed, up, did, surgery, and, then, sorted, stuff, out, and, did, some, calls, got, finished, at, 1pm, and, went, back, to, bed, went, to, xmas, party, at, white, heather, which, was, good, fun, but, i, was, just, too, knackered, to, enjoy, it, sunday, working, a, few, calls, and, plenty, of, pneumonia, drugs, for, calves, there, is, a, lot, of, pneumonia, about, with, the, east, wind, blowing, it, is, a, wee, bitty, cruel, wind, but, at, least, it, is, dry, not, weather, to, be, working, out, side, it, also, seems, to, be, getting, dark, really, early, i, need, some, sun, on, my, back, 4, weeks, to, go, till, india, had, a, migraine, or, flu, at, night, and, went, to, bed, and, started, throwing, up, i, cannot, burn, the, candle, at, one, end, even, at, the, moment, mon, off, work, ill, but, a, new, vet, student, starting, and, r, is, off, as, well, xmas, shopping, so, thrown, in, at, deep, end, tuesday, went, back, in, and, did, my, bit, working, at, night, but, night, work, easing, off, thank, goodness, plenty, of, high, cell, count, investigations, to, try, and, sort, out, weds, took, kids, swimming, after, work, with, the, vet, student, it, was, good, to, do, some, exercise, and, chill, out, went, to, staples, prior, to, going, to, the, pool, where, as, usual, there, was, no, one, on, the, desk, for, print, cartridges, so, i, went, and, found, one, of, the, girls, chatting, on, the, till, to, get, me, what, i, was, looking, for, as, i, couldn’t, find, an, hp58, what, i, hadn’t, noticed, was, some, one, else, just, standing, at, the, other, end, of, the, long, counter, who, was, then, very, upset, and, aggressive, that, i, had, jumped, the, queue, he, is, obviously, having, a, worse, week, than, me, as, he, could, have, gone, and, got, some, one, from, the, tills, as, easily, as, i, did, but, didn’t, so, why, he, got, so, upset, i, don’t, know, now’t, as, queer, as, folk, other, son, was, very, upset, tonight, when, we, got, back, from, swimming, because, he, had, shaved, one, side, of, his, head, wife, had, cut, the, others, hair, but, his, was, still, short, and, didn’t, need, it, he, wanted, it, done, so, in, the, shower, took, things, into, his, own, hands, and, shaved, off, his, side, burn, but, only, on, one, side, he, did, not, like, getting, laughed, at, either, thursday, christiana, came, to, the, rescue, over, the, hair, other, son, s, and, has, managed, to, make, it, look, not, too, bad, but, it, was, funny, on, call, at, night, but, as, most, nights, seem, double, booked, at, the, moment, went, to, kids, performance, they, are, doing, alice, in, wonderland, very, good, they, can, really, sing, and, perform, the, teachers, do, get, a, lot, out, of, them, tim, was, the, knave, of, hearts, character, actor, and, other, son, was, a, frog, footman, grebbit, grebbit, it, was, good, fun, only, had, a, phone, call, to, put, a, client, at, ease, about, her, cat, so, managed, to, wing, it, friday, out, at, friends, tonight, kids, younger, 2, at, performance, older, 2, are, at, xmas, meal, so, a, bit, of, a, juggling, act, to, get, everyone, at, right, place, at, right, time, missed, out, on, the, cumberland, vet, club, social, which, was, a, shame, but, can, only, be, in, one, place, at, a, time, saturday, 14th, december, had, a, good, meal, out, except, only, started, talking, about, the, publicity, for, as, i, was, wanting, to, go, and, fall, asleep, some, where, i, cannot, take, late, nights, it, is, just, i, am, feeling, too, tired, all, the, time, i, think, that, the, adrenalin, has, run, out, and, i, just, feel, stale, hope, xmas, sorts, it, out, spent, morning, working, did, surgery, and, then, sorted, out, queries, with, gg, for, the, accountant, spent, the, afternoon, writing, cards, and, trying, to, put, together, lists, of, folk, we, should, send, too, a, disaster, got, as, far, as, m, before, running, out, of, cards, and, initiative, went, around, to, s’s, for, nibbles, as, a, house, warming, she, is, some, caterer, her, mother, does, it, as, a, job, so, she, has, helped, so, great, food, could, have, done, with, some, non, vets, to, dilute, down, the, vetiness, sunday, got, up, and, took, kids, to, church, wife, is, doing, a, thing, on, borderline, at, night, so, she, has, to, prepare, that, played, football, and, caught, up, with, a, few, bits, and, pieces, and, did, some, gardening, chatted, to, a, vet, from, chippenham, who, was, complaining, about, the, tb, situation, there, they, have, one, beef, farm, where, when, they, first, discovered, tb, the, farm, took, a, week, to, test, as, there, were, 600, head, there, are, only, 200, left, so, it, only, takes, a, day, the, farmer, has, been, unable, to, but, in, store, cattle, to, feed, and, has, lost, over, 100, to, defra, it, has, been, 2, monthly, testing, for, almost, 2, years, now, and, he, still, has, not, had, a, clear, test, she, was, down, too, just, from, too, much, on, call, monday, got, up, feeling, exhausted, but, even, though, not, very, busy, couldn’t, get, going, the, dairy, farms, are, all, feeling, very, nervous, over, the, nestle, pull, out, farmers, said, to, me, that, they, were, pleased, that, their, sons, are, not, going, to, be, going, into, farming, both, teenagers, one, a’s, year, and, one, a, year, older, both, looking, to, work, in, it, it, used, to, be, a, point, of, sadness, that, the, next, generation, is, not, following, on, but, there, seems, to, be, a, general, air, of, resignation, that, farming, is, not, going, to, be, a, good, career, sad, really, tuesday, 17th, december, spent, the, day, sorting, out, the, remaining, bits, and, pieces, for, the, accountant, we, met, with, him, at, night, which, as, usual, was, the, sorting, out, of, this, and, that, the, finding, of, the, relevant, pieces, of, paper, and, then, what, the, unaccounted, cheques, were, for, we, are, still, making, money, but, only, thanks, to, defra, so, three, cheers, for, mrs, beckett, cynic, it, made, it, a, very, long, day, and, lois, is, off, for, the, week, so, we, are, short, staffed, again, but, last, tests, are, today, as, we, will, not, be, able, to, get, bloods, to, the, labs, because, of, the, christmas, post, i, do, like, this, time, of, year, where, you, hear, from, friends, who, you, have, not, seen, for, ages, and, think, the, same, as, you, did, last, year, i, will, have, to, catch, up, with, them, soon, hey, ho, weds, 18th, there, is, a, lot, of, pneumonia, about, and, the, farmers, are, all, buying, vast, quantities, of, drugs, to, treat, whole, batches, of, calves, and, stirks, the, is, the, usual, mix, but, far, more, than, normal, i, don’t, know, whether, to, be, pleased, that, the, practice, is, doing, well, and, invoicing, a, lot, or, sad, that, there, is, so, much, disease, around, and, we, will, have, a, horrendous, drugs, bill, a, dilemma, i, don’t, think, i, should, explore, thurs, 19th, fri, 20th, kids, went, to, ice, rink, in, carlisle, with, wife, they, have, set, up, an, out, door, rink, which, the, city, council, are, sponsoring, to, attract, people, in, to, the, centre, i, don’t, think, that, they, really, need, to, as, the, place, seems, crowded, enough, as, it, is, son, bashed, his, head, quite, badly, and, other, son, fell, over, and, hurt, his, knee, tim, fell, loads, of, times, and, just, ended, up, wet, and, happy, their, different, characters, are, coming, out, saturday, 21st, december, the, beginning, of, the, christmas, rota, i, feel, as, though, we, are, in, the, run, up, to, christmas, now, i, have, also, made, the, mistake, of, not, buying, all, my, presents, before, now, and, went, into, carlisle, to, go, shopping, it, was, quite, nice, in, some, ways, to, see, the, ice, rink, and, mingle, in, the, crowds, but, an, hour, and, a, half, was, plenty, the, kids, have, decided, that, they, are, going, to, ask, for, money, to, take, to, india, this, year, from, the, aunts, and, uncles, and, so, there, will, be, fewer, presents, to, open, as, christmas, seems, to, be, getting, more, and, more, manic, and, commercialised, i, think, that, it, is, a, very, good, idea, well, done, a, and, son, sunday, 22nd, carols, by, candlelight, it, was, magical, the, church, was, packed, out, and, so, i, ended, up, standing, at, the, back, which, in, some, ways, was, quite, nice, as, you, look, down, the, aisles, to, the, stage, and, there, are, rows, of, candles, and, fairy, lights, down, the, sides, pm, lead, it, and, there, were, different, age, groups, taking, part, he, spoke, on, being, a, christmas, tree, and, how, we, end, up, all, convoluted, by, our, own, wrong, choices, and, how, we, can, have, lots, of, fairy, lights, and, a, star, on, top, and, have, an, image, on, the, outside, that, looks, wonderful, but, what, are, we, like, inside, all, those, things, we, surround, ourselves, with, god, knows, and, he, cares, and, he, loves, us, enough, to, send, a, gift, to, help, us, his, son, immanuel, god, with, us, who, will, take, away, the, sin, of, the, world, i, was, really, quite, moved, by, it, all, this, is, the, real, christmas, mon, 23rd, bump, reality, bites, back, it, is, difficult, to, focus, on, the, important, things, of, life, and, keep, a, perspective, on, life, if, it, keeps, getting, interrupted, by, monday, mornings, but, that, is, where, jesus, should, be, in, the, smelly, cattle, shed, and, in, the, market, place, and, making, a, difference, i, will, have, to, think, that, one, out, while, i, have, time, in, india, the, urgent, as, usual, is, pushing, out, the, important, managed, to, go, swimming, at, foxes, the, first, exercise, i, have, had, for, ages, must, get, back, into, it, maybe, wait, for, the, new, year, resolutions, as, exercise, wet, weather, and, working, over, christmas, don’t, really, go, together, tues, 24th, christmas, eve, working, but, quiet, apart, from, last, minute, panics, as, people, think, that, their, ill, dogs, and, cats, will, not, make, it, over, christmas, with, out, seeing, the, vet, called, in, to, pow, heads, for, the, turkey, they, really, do, have, a, good, butchery, and, poultry, business, going, now, good, to, see, direct, selling, by, farmers, or, cooperatives, is, the, only, way, forward, to, break, the, stranglehold, of, the, supermarkets, wife, is, panicking, about, not, having, enough, food, so, i, am, dispatched, to, buy, more, bread, and, milk, i, think, about, protesting, that, if, there, were, 5000, we, still, would, not, need, a, miracle, but, decide, this, is, one, of, those, occasions, when, it, is, better, to, just, spend, another, 2, quid, for, the, peace, wife, s, parents, arrive, an, hour, later, from, belfast, bringing, 2, loaves, of, bread, and, 5, different, types, of, irish, bread, and, 6, pints, of, milk, and, another, 3, boxes, of, food, i, wonder, about, making, a, joke, about, feeding, the, 5000, plus, inflation, but, decide, that, discretion, is, the, better, part, of, valour, and, just, put, them, in, the, freezer, weds, 25th, kids, started, at, 5, 45, am, and, were, unceremoniously, sent, back, to, bed, but, they, were, allowed, to, bring, their, stockings, in, at, half, past, seven, i, was, on, 2nd, call, so, while, they, all, went, off, to, church, i, spent, an, hour, in, the, surgery, seeing, dogs, one, had, meningitis, and, was, very, near, death’s, door, and, the, owner, was, not, that, worried, the, other, is, just, unwell, and, could, have, waited, but, the, problem, is, you, never, know, got, back, and, made, christmas, dinner, so, wasn’t, all, work, though, i, do, feel, amongst, all, the, commercialism, and, turkey, dinners, the, true, significance, of, immanuel, god, who, is, with, us, is, lost, thursday, 26th, on, first, call, and, lots, of, pneumonia, drugs, to, put, out, and, kept, busy, afternoon, evening, we, had, folk, around, lots, of, different, ages, and, backgrounds, so, was, a, real, mix, and, good, fun, friday, 27th, surgery, reopened, and, was, really, busy, i, am, pleased, that, we, had, put, plenty, of, staff, on, the, rota, it, is, always, a, difficult, balance, to, make, trying, to, work, out, if, there, will, be, enough, staff, to, cover, the, work, no, one, wants, to, work, over, xmas, new, year, but, if, there, are, not, enough, then, it, makes, it, really, awful, for, those, that, are, working, but, if, you, have, people, sitting, around, they, resent, that, too, but, it’s, nice, to, know, i, get, it, right, sometimes, doing, a, rota, always, strikes, me, as, a, no, win, situation, as, it, is, always, a, compromise, between, the, two, extremes, saturday, 28th, december, on, call, friday, night, and, then, i, finished, at, lunchtime, wife, wanted, me, to, go, on, church, walk, but, i, was, knackered, and, we, are, all, going, out, tonight, for, dinner, so, i, went, to, bed, for, a, few, hours, sleep, much, to, my, wife’s, displeasure, having, been, on, call, for, the, whole, period, as, soon, as, i, stop, i, crash, out, as, the, adrenalin, fades, and, i, realise, how, tired, i, am, but, only, mon, am, to, work, then, prepare, for, india, and, hitting, the, beach, it, does, take, its, toll, on, family, life, being, on, call, especially, over, the, christmas, period, the, folk, we, are, going, to, dinner, with, he, is, a, policeman, and, they, have, similar, frictions, sun, 29th, the, service, at, church, tonight, was, memorable, the, last, evening, of, the, year, they, have, people, talking, about, what, god, has, been, doing, in, their, lives, so, it, is, usually, people, who, are, not, eloquent, not, used, to, speaking, up, front, but, who, speak, in, a, very, real, way, about, what, jesus, has, been, working, in, their, lives, over, the, past, year, dp, who, is, 14, who, has, had, bone, cancer, gave, a, very, moving, account, about, how, he, had, nearly, died, how, so, often, we, compare, our, selves, with, those, who, have, more, than, us, whether, in, health, or, other, things, we, should, compare, ourselves, with, those, who, have, less, we, should, appreciate, our, lives, and, thank, god, for, who, and, what, we, are, he, has, had, his, ups, and, downs, but, we, are, to, follow, god’s, guiding, and, his, path, for, us, our, lives, are, in, god’s, hands, we, are, to, pray, and, to, trust, in, him, for, our, future, this, is, a, young, lad, who, has, seen, 4, of, the, friends, he, has, made, in, hospital, die, it, makes, the, trivia, we, fill, our, lives, with, back, in, perspective, mon, 30th, last, half, day, and, lots, of, last, minute, things, to, sort, out, before, i, finish, for, new, year, and, the, 2, weeks, in, india, the, cash, flow, has, gone, to, pot, because, of, the, large, amount, of, pneumonia, drugs, we, have, sold, and, tax, vat, going, out, in, end, of, jan, so, needed, to, make, sure, someone, keeps, an, eye, on, it, while, i, am, away, and, makes, sure, that, it, all, falls, into, place, the, problem, with, going, away, is, that, no, one, keeps, up, with, all, the, admin, type, work, that, i, do, so, my, in, tray, will, be, overflowing, by, the, time, i, get, back, tues, 31st, the, young, people, are, partying, at, our, house, so, we, left, them, to, it, rather, than, cramp, their, style, so, we, had, a, very, pleasant, evening, at, some, farming, friends, we, rang, up, and, called, in, on, spec, they, have, 5, boys, so, we, knew, they, wouldn’t, want, to, get, baby, sitters, for, new, year’s, eve, whereas, we, had, about, 40, they, have, stopped, dairying, but, are, now, worried, about, how, the, new, ruling, will, affect, them, at, the, moment, they, lease, their, quota, which, provides, a, fair, amount, of, income, the, new, german, ruling, will, be, applicable, across, the, whole, eec, that, non, producers, cannot, hold, and, therefore, lease, quota, this, means, they, will, have, to, either, sell, it, in, a, flooded, market, or, go, back, to, dairy, farming, unless, mr, p, can, work, a, way, around, the, new, system, they, are, also, taking, advice, and, looking, at, all, sorts, of, diversification, schemes, some, seem, quite, a, good, idea, others, i, think, are, non, starters, they, already, have, invested, some, of, the, fmd, money, into, setting, up, a, student, house, in, carlisle, the, way, house, prices, are, going, around, here, it, is, probably, a, very, good, investment, not, really, the, way, forward, for, farming, though, the, only, depressing, feature, of, the, evening, was, i, asked, what, they, thought, the, future, of, cattle, vets, was, the, answer, was, none, well, that’s, a, good, start, to, 2003, we, got, home, to, find, the, party, in, full, swing, and, we, left, them, to, it, and, went, to, bed, 1st, jan, 2003, got, up, some, what, late, after, staying, up, for, the, new, years, eve, the, young, people, had, cleared, up, after, the, party, and, we, were, amazed, at, how, well, they, had, done, they, had, set, off, the, dish, washer, and, all, we, had, to, do, was, empty, it, i, was, impressed, the, only, reminder, they, had, been, there, was, when, we, drew, the, curtains, there, were, several, glasses, which, had, been, missed, as, they, were, on, the, window, sill, and, bizarrely, an, odd, sock, the, sock, game, my, daughter, assures, me, was, very, funny, but, what, i, want, to, know, is, who, went, home, with, only, one, sock, on, started, thinking, about, india, a, good, job, my, wife, is, organised, as, we, set, off, tomorrow, 2nd, jan, thursday, travelled, down, to, see, my, brother, and, family, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, again, played, risk, which, was, a, bit, of, a, christmas, tradition, when, we, were, kids, it, was, funny, to, be, playing, with, him, and, both, sets, of, kids, as, i, felt, like, a, kid, again, it, was, really, nice, though, b, won, he, managed, to, wipe, people, out, and, amass, their, risk, cards, he, risked, everything, and, it, went, to, the, last, throw, of, the, dice, so, it, was, quite, exciting, friday, 3rd, jan, travelled, down, to, my, dads, to, have, tea, and, drop, off, some, stuff, before, heading, for, the, airport, i, am, pleased, we, have, had, a, few, days, off, before, flying, as, it, is, a, night, flight, and, i, hate, travelling, when, i, am, already, exhausted, the, weather, was, the, usual, british, winter, of, rain, and, wind, a, friend, of, mine, is, convinced, that, this, is, due, to, global, warming, more, energy, in, the, system, means, more, rain, and, wind, in, which, case, cumbria, is, not, going, to, be, the, place, to, live, as, it, is, already, wet, and, windy, enough, the, next, 2, weeks, recall, x’s, family, holiday, to, india, sat, 4th, january, 2003, i, am, sitting, in, the, nilgiri, hills, in, southern, india, in, shorts, and, t, shirt, enjoying, the, coolness, of, the, high, altitude, it, is, almost, twice, the, height, of, ben, nevis, on, bbc, world, last, night, it, showed, a, reporter, in, london, with, an, umbrella, trying, to, keep, off, the, large, wet, snowflakes, we, are, visiting, friends, who, teach, at, a, christian, school, here, the, contrasts, of, india, always, seem, so, great, the, poverty, and, the, opulence, side, by, side, the, beggars, and, the, road, repairers, at, the, side, of, the, road, in, make, shift, tents, of, plastic, sheeting, and, huts, of, bamboo, leaves, then, the, huge, opulent, houses, wooden, floored, and, air, conditioned, with, their, own, generators, and, the, 4, hotels, with, marbled, floors, and, artificial, streams, and, waterfalls, we, came, on, a, cheap, charter, flight, as, it, was, cheaper, to, come, to, trivandrum, on, a, flight, and, a, package, with, hotel, b, b, than, to, just, buy, the, flights, the, emphasis, though, should, be, on, cheap, it, is, the, first, time, i, have, ever, had, to, pay, for, drinks, on, the, plane, the, air, stewardesses, seemed, to, be, there, for, a, good, time, rather, than, to, look, after, the, passengers, can't, complain, though, as, it, was, cheap, the, only, worry, was, the, re, routing, we, were, originally, supposed, to, be, going, via, united, arab, emirates, but, the, refuelling, was, transferred, to, bahrein, as, we, flew, in, we, were, warned, it, was, a, military, as, well, as, civilian, airport, so, no, photography, was, allowed, the, build, up, of, us, forces, in, the, gulf, must, be, pretty, major, as, even, here, there, were, large, numbers, of, us, air, force, planes, and, massive, sinister, looking, helicopters, it, is, difficult, to, believe, that, they, are, aiming, to, keep, the, peace, by, preparing, for, war, the, papers, here, are, also, full, of, sabre, rattling, between, pakistan, and, india, with, daily, reports, of, skirmishes, in, kashmir, there, is, also, exchanges, of, political, rhetoric, between, the, two, states, how, much, is, actually, for, real, and, how, much, is, sabre, rattling, no, one, knows, the, weekly, telegraph, is, also, reporting, that, iraq, has, shot, down, a, reconnaissance, drone, the, same, sort, that, blew, up, one, of, the, el, quaedi, leaders, in, yemen, the, us, is, obviously, trying, regime, change, by, several, methods, the, us, response, was, to, blow, up, several, command, and, control, facilities, the, war, hasn't, officially, started, yet, but, the, skirmishes, are, going, on, the, cost, the, previous, year, for, the, raf, to, patrol, the, no, fly, zone, was, 22, uk, million, the, last, quarter, was, 10, times, that, so, there, is, money, being, spent, the, priorities, of, govts, is, often, difficult, to, work, out, the, indian, govt, doesn't, have, enough, money, at, the, local, level, to, organise, a, proper, refuse, collection, system, yet, has, money, to, develop, hi, tech, weaponry, the, attitudes, to, rubbish, here, is, very, different, when, we, were, at, the, beach, the, actual, beach, is, combed, by, litter, pickers, but, the, areas, in, between, are, terrible, there, are, 2, smart, 4, hotels, and, the, govt, buildings, where, the, tourism, training, takes, place, the, grounds, are, immaculate, and, the, flowers, and, area, beautiful, but, once, out, side, the, grounds, it, is, a, cross, between, a, rubbish, dump, and, a, building, site, with, piles, of, rubbish, and, sand, and, rubble, we, went, for, a, snorkelling, trip, around, the, coast, to, a, fishing, harbour, where, the, sea, was, calm, and, there, were, plenty, of, rocks, for, the, fish, to, hide, in, and, swim, in, and, out, of, the, boats, were, a, few, bits, of, wood, tied, together, with, string, seriously, there, were, two, central, planks, and, two, edge, planks, and, then, an, aft, piece, of, wood, to, hold, the, aft, part, together, which, was, reinforced, by, cord, the, wood, is, so, light, that, it, floats, with, our, weight, fairly, easily, the, oars, were, split, bamboo, with, no, grips, so, it, made, for, interesting, rowing, or, is, it, paddling, they, are, more, like, large, canadian, canoes, than, boats, very, hawaii, five, o, the, planks, were, roughly, shaped, but, as, we, rode, the, waves, the, water, fountained, up, through, the, holes, in, the, bottom, h, asked, what, wood, they, were, made, of, but, didn't, understand, the, answer, must, be, a, type, of, balsa, we, set, off, from, under, the, light, house, there, was, another, group, going, at, the, same, time, i, think, they, must, have, agreed, to, pay, top, whack, whereas, you, soon, learn, to, try, to, bargain, about, the, price, of, everything, here, they, had, two, helpers, in, the, boat, to, paddle, whereas, we, were, the, economy, class, with, two, paddles, but, only, one, guide, in, our, two, boats, we, took, turns, in, helping, to, paddle, whether, we, made, much, difference, to, the, progression, of, the, boat, i, don, t, know, but, it, was, fun, it, was, a, bit, worrying, that, we, were, heading, for, the, least, scenic, part, of, the, coast, the, other, way, is, beautiful, sandy, beaches, for, miles, there, is, a, wave, powered, generator, at, the, edge, of, the, harbour, a, few, rusty, wrecks, and, bits, of, broken, concrete, but, when, we, arrived, the, snorkelling, was, brilliant, it, was, like, swimming, in, a, tropical, fish, tank, my, favourite, were, small, electric, blue, fish, which, darted, away, as, soon, as, you, came, near, there, were, big, black, and, yellow, striped, tiger, fish, there, were, 2, sorts, one, with, vertical, stripes, and, one, with, horizontal, not, at, all, timid, the, angel, fish, with, their, long, dangling, barbs, were, shy, and, would, only, appear, when, you, kept, still, there, were, some, very, large, spiky, sea, anemones, as, big, as, a, football, loads, of, crabs, and, shoals, of, fish, which, swim, hither, and, thither, some, were, quite, bizarre, there, were, some, that, looked, like, sea, horses, that, had, been, straightened, out, you, almost, could, see, a, jockey, getting, a, saddle, ready, to, put, on, them, for, the, saltwater, derby, the, huge, variety, and, colours, were, just, outstanding, we, spent, a, few, hours, and, then, got, thoroughly, sun, burnt, on, the, way, back, the, boys, had, been, full, of, beans, on, the, way, there, but, were, exhausted, in, the, heat, on, the, way, back, we, spent, today, making, and, flying, kites, on, top, of, a, hill, at, pykara, the, kids, or, was, it, the, dad's, made, kites, and, then, we, tried, to, fly, them, h's, won, his, design, was, copied, from, an, original, no, stick, design, and, managed, to, fly, almost, successfully, my, traditional, kite, shaped, one, flew, once, but, its, aerodynamics, weren't, quite, right, son, s, yellow, square, was, successful, none, however, matched, the, ikea, bought, one, we, played, cricket, and, frisbee, as, the, water, buffalos, wandered, passed, in, the, typical, indian, way, of, having, no, real, boundaries, between, one, thing, and, another, called, in, at, the, vedera's, which, was, very, pleasant, the, garden, was, stunning, as, usual, i, love, driving, through, the, tea, plantations, with, acres, of, terraced, tea, plants, and, through, the, forest, to, get, there, the, hotel, is, an, up, market, indian, rather, than, a, western, which, is, great, for, us, the, décor, lacks, a, little, in, taste, and, design, concrete, floors, and, that, rather, quaint, unfinished, look, spotlessly, clean, and, the, thing, about, india, is, they, love, having, kids, around, and, spend, ages, talking, with, them, and, love, having, them, around, going, out, for, meals, in, uk, with, children, is, always, a, bit, stressful, as, low, blood, sugars, combined, with, the, general, attitude, of, people, to, children, does, not, make, it, a, pleasant, experience, whereas, even, the, hours, wait, for, the, food, here, is, not, stressful, as, the, kids, wander, off, play, games, read, books, etc, son, and, other, son, have, befriended, a, man, at, the, blue, moon, gift, shop, he, has, spent, hours, playing, chess, and, talking, to, them, son, won, a, little, elephant, off, him, by, beating, him, at, chess, son, decided, he, would, buy, josh, the, chess, set, and, kept, bargaining, the, price, down, he, eventually, paid, 350, rupees, for, it, 4.60, the, beach, is, idyllic, with, palm, trees, and, warm, rolling, sea, the, only, problem, is, having, to, get, the, kids, out, of, the, sun, during, the, red, hot, period, between, 12, and, 2, we, do, keep, slapping, on, the, sun, tan, lotion, i, missed, the, widows, peaks, where, my, hair, is, receding, and, have, sun, burnt, red, patches, either, side, of, my, head, the, boys, have, variable, tanning, depending, on, where, the, sun, block, was, washed, off, first, dear, friends, just, a, quick, note, to, say, that, we, are, enjoying, ourselves, so, much, that, we, don't, want, to, come, home, but, we, would, miss, all, our, friends, we, had, a, great, time, at, the, beach, you, know, the, palm, trees, the, warm, rolling, sea, the, sandy, beaches, and, unlike, silloth, 30, degrees, warmth, in, fact, some, days, it, was, to, hot, and, we, had, to, drag, the, boys, out, of, the, sea, or, else, they, would, have, been, really, sun, burnt, we, are, just, back, from, 3, days, at, avalanche, which, is, a, bit, of, an, unfortunate, name, for, a, mountain, out, door, centre, but, as, there, isn't, any, snow, i, don't, think, the, indians, appreciate, the, irony, it, is, up, in, the, mountains, a, jungle, area, where, there, is, very, little, apart, from, a, few, tea, plantations, reservoirs, and, hydroelectric, plants, and, jungle, and, the, wood, men, who, harvest, the, wood, every, 10, years, we, left, a, bus, and, walked, in, to, the, centre, while, a, truck, took, the, bags, food, and, the, lazy, ones, it, is, incredibly, beautiful, with, high, hills, and, lakes, but, there, is, a, drought, at, the, moment, so, the, reservoirs, are, all, very, low, and, everywhere, is, incredibly, dry, and, dusty, thick, red, dust, which, gets, in, to, everything, the, facilities, were, basic, the, water, ran, from, a, stream, to, a, tank, to, the, taps, no, electric, showers, but, fortunately, as, always, in, india, there, was, a, little, man, or, in, fact, 3, who, cooked, for, us, all, a, is, taking, after, wife, their, main, concern, was, not, meeting, any, rats, we, abseiled, down, a, waterfall, walked, and, swam, in, another, well, son, and, other, son, swam, i, am, afraid, it, was, too, cold, for, me, i, will, wait, until, we, go, back, down, to, the, beach, we, all, went, kayaking, and, sat, around, the, campfire, at, night, saturday, 18th, january, 2003, the, end, of, our, indian, holiday, and, escape, from, cumbrian, weather, wife, saw, the, rep, yesterday, and, the, bus, was, arranged, for, 12, 30, for, a, flight, at, 5, 30, this, tour, company, is, something, else, so, we, are, going, to, catch, a, taxi, at, about, 3pm, so, we, are, not, hanging, around, the, airport, for, ages, having, 4, children, and, going, through, the, bureaucracy, of, an, indian, airport, is, bad, enough, with, out, the, additional, hassle, of, waiting, around, for, 3, hours, with, out, reason, the, annoying, part, is, that, so, much, of, it, is, pointless, in, that, they, put, your, bags, through, the, security, x, ray, in, the, main, hall, and, then, give, you, your, bags, back, so, that, if, you, wanted, to, add, stuff, to, your, bag, you, could, you, have, to, go, to, 1, desk, to, check, in, another, to, get, your, seat, another, to, exit, indian, immigration, and, customs, and, then, identify, your, bags, to, get, them, put, on, the, plane, worse, than, defra, so, we, spent, a, last, morning, swimming, on, the, beach, and, then, said, good, bye, to, the, cs, and, gs, wife, had, to, buy, her, material, fro, the, study, we, were, all, quite, sad, coming, away, i, think, we, could, have, all, stayed, and, enjoyed, living, in, india, but, back, to, porridge, sun, 19th, arrived, at, dads, at, 3am, uk, time, after, clearing, customs, flight, was, not, too, crowded, thank, goodness, as, the, space, allocated, for, my, legs, is, not, enough, they, had, as, before, messed, up, their, allocation, of, vegetarian, meals, with, the, height, of, european, ignorance, and, stupidity, they, offered, a, hindu, family, by, us, a, beef, meal, the, stewardesses, should, have, known, better, but, i, just, cringed, with, inward, embarrassment, at, their, thoughtlessness, left, in, t, shirts, and, shorts, arrived, cold, in, jeans, and, fleeces, the, air, conditioning, i, don’t, think, was, working, properly, and, every, one, was, coughing, and, dry, mouthed, as, we, arrived, in, gatwick, drove, back, up, to, cumbria, and, back, to, the, house, it, was, a, strange, sensation, to, be, back, we, had, done, so, much, and, seemed, changed, and, yet, everything, here, was, still, the, same, and, yet, not, really, in, some, ways, it, is, like, after, the, fmd, epidemic, before, and, after, everything, is, the, same, but, nothing, is, the, same, part, of, you, is, trying, to, find, where, you, fit, in, the, new, reality, part, of, you, wants, the, safety, of, the, old, ways, slightly, dislocated, from, your, surroundings, but, the, physical, surroundings, are, the, same, but, i, suppose, you, have, changed, and, the, old, certainties, that, were, not, certain, but, seemed, it, have, made, way, for, new, changeable, ways, that, are, not, certain, and, you, know, that, they, are, not, certain, mon, 20th, i, have, taken, the, day, off, to, recover, the, kids, were, all, up, really, early, because, of, the, jet, lag, and, so, had, no, qualms, about, sending, them, to, school, i, spent, the, day, unpacking, and, sorting, out, with, wife, the, pile, of, post, was, huge, but, seemed, a, lot, more, manageable, by, the, time, i, had, thrown, out, al, the, junk, mail, why, do, i, need, another, 2, credit, cards, any, way, transferred, money, for, tax, bills, and, downloaded, the, emails, there, were, only, 50, so, ploughed, my, way, through, them, when, you, are, away, for, any, length, of, time, it, makes, you, realise, how, much, work, is, required, to, keep, a, household, going, with, all, the, bills, and, stuff, tues, 21st, back, to, work, and, to, face, my, in, tray, still, feeling, a, little, jet, lagged, and, seeing, an, overflowing, in, tray, as, you, arrive, is, a, daunting, feeling, did, some, of, it, and, then, went, out, on, call, it, was, good, to, be, back, on, farm, and, seeing, folk, again, it, always, amazes, me, how, everyone, around, here, knows, everything, so, they, were, all, asking, about, india, and, had, we, had, a, good, time, so, it, was, nice, to, feel, part, of, the, community, as, a, friend, of, mine, once, commented, there, is, only, one, thing, worse, than, being, talked, about, that, is, not, being, talked, about, there, is, still, that, funny, feeling, of, having, been, away, and, having, changed, but, nothing, here, is, any, different, and, yet, thinking, that, it, should, be, though, why, it, should, be, i, don’t, know, weds, 22nd, george, wanted, a, partners, meeting, at, lunch, time, so, we, met, up, and, had, the, usual, decision, making, process, to, be, honest, the, jet, lag, was, still, really, kicking, in, so, i, was, asleep, on, my, feet, it, doesn’t, usually, effect, me, for, this, long, but, both, wife, and, i, are, shattered, by, 8pm, the, kids, are, ok, and, going, to, bed, after, us, the, sign, of, things, to, come, the, whole, pets, travel, scheme, is, causing, problems, it, has, been, presented, as, a, passport, for, pets, but, all, it, really, does, is, allow, re, entry, to, the, uk, from, certain, countries, as, long, as, you, meet, the, conditions, we, have, had, a, few, problems, and, we, do, very, few, so, what, it, must, be, like, for, those, on, the, south, coast, i, dread, to, think, the, problems, are, 2, main, ones, 1, that, there, is, a, 6, month, period, before, you, can, come, back, into, the, uk, after, the, paper, work, is, completed, you, can, go, before, the, 6, months, so, people, who, spend, the, summer, on, a, caravan, site, will, take, their, dog, abroad, but, cannot, come, back, before, the, 6, month, date, there, is, also, a, problem, where, the, forms, have, to, be, renewed, it, has, to, be, done, according, to, the, manufactures, directions, which, vary, from, country, to, country, as, in, france, it, is, a, govt, regulation, that, dogs, are, vaccinated, annually, so, the, vaccine, manufactures, stick, to, that, in, the, uk, dogs, have, to, be, done, every, 2, years, cats, annually, so, you, cannot, have, your, documentation, renewed, in, france, unless, you, vaccinate, annually, whereas, in, the, uk, you, can, renew, it, with, vaccinating, every, 2, years, the, other, problem, is, that, the, paperwork, is, so, complex, that, according, to, defra’s, figures, there, is, a, 18, failure, rate, i.e, 1, in, 6, don’t, make, it, back, in, there, is, also, a, problem, in, that, there, has, been, at, least, one, dog, imported, into, cumbria, with, out, any, paperwork, as, the, owners, thought, all, they, needed, was, a, rabies, vaccination, we, are, dealing, with, it, on, a, weekly, basis, and, are, confused, so, the, poor, punters, don’t, stand, a, chance, thursday, 23rd, there, is, a, real, problem, with, cow, fertility, in, the, restocking, farms, at, the, moment, i, went, to, 1, farm, where, of, the, 10, cows, i, checked, only, one, was, in, calf, which, is, a, little, sad, no, baby, calves, no, milk, production, and, more, losses, for, the, fmd, farmers, the, compensation, is, looking, very, small, the, only, ones, who, benefited, are, those, who, took, the, money, and, got, out, it, is, difficult, trying, to, work, out, why, these, cows, are, having, so, much, of, a, problem, as, usual, i, suspect, there, is, no, simple, answer, the, blood, tests, and, analyses, do, not, help, much, the, cows, have, been, under, a, lot, of, stress, the, movement, into, new, regimes, and, cattle, systems, where, they, have, to, learn, where, to, go, where, the, water, troughs, are, where, the, milking, parlour, is, they, have, had, to, sort, out, the, pecking, order, of, the, cows, which, espy, in, the, larger, units, is, probably, quite, stressful, where, you, add, animals, to, a, herd, there, are, lead, cows, who, know, the, set, up, and, cows, are, very, much, follow, my, leader, in, their, behaviour, patterns, where, there, is, a, complete, cull, and, restocking, there, are, no, lead, cows, so, no, leader, for, the, cows, to, follow, there, has, also, been, a, lot, of, illness, in, the, herds, which, again, will, reduce, fertility, the, other, problem, is, the, poor, quality, silage, because, of, the, bad, weather, the, other, factor, that, keeps, coming, up, in, conversation, is, what, effect, the, topping, of, grass, has, on, silage, grazing, quality, which, would, have, been, an, interesting, study, that, will, never, be, done, now, stress, is, a, generality, of, a, word, but, i, can’t, think, of, a, better, more, specific, way, of, expressing, the, problems, the, stress, of, all, the, changes, has, caused, fertility, problems, the, difficulty, is, in, finding, where, do, you, go, from, here, i, think, a, lot, will, end, up, culling, fairly, large, numbers, 15, 20, because, of, fertility, friday, 24th, one, of, the, defra, tv’s, called, in, on, her, way, back, from, a, test, tb, to, let, us, know, that, there, was, still, an, ir, causing, problems, she, also, said, that, it, looked, like, there, was, going, to, be, a, complete, herd, cull, for, tb, in, the, east, of, the, county, the, farmer, had, restocked, from, three, sources, all, were, down, to, do, as, tracings, as, well, as, to, be, done, under, the, restocking, tb, testing, they, found, 32, reactors, with, lesions, so, they, will, probably, cull, the, whole, herd, it, is, so, depressing, to, think, what, the, farmer, must, be, thinking, and, whether, he, can, face, getting, back, into, farming, again, after, this, further, disaster, does, not, bear, thinking, about, saturday, 25th, january, 2003, linda, b’s, wedding, travelled, down, to, derby, for, wedding, it, was, really, nice, to, see, them, finally, tie, the, knot, as, they, have, been, talking, about, it, for, so, long, they, have, followed, each, other, around, several, continents, so, at, least, that, will, have, seen, each, other, in, different, situations, she, first, came, as, a, student, and, has, worked, for, us, as, a, locum, she, spent, 2, years, at, all, nations, bible, college, in, london, where, she, met, him, so, a, lot, of, their, friends, from, all, nations, were, there, they, have, been, doing, agricultural, relief, work, in, the, worlds, hot, spots, from, kosovo, to, indonesia, from, haiti, to, bolivia, they, are, currently, in, bolivia, working, with, church, groups, she, has, been, setting, up, tb, testing, programme, as, there, is, a, problem, of, human, tb, which, has, been, blamed, on, the, cattle, but, they, have, completed, the, testing, and, it, is, not, the, cattle, it, seems, to, be, nearly, all, human, to, human, spread, so, that, at, least, they, can, make, a, start, on, eradicating, tb, in, humans, by, treating, the, in, contacts, they, went, away, from, the, church, in, a, horse, drawn, carriage, which, was, nice, to, see, spent, quite, a, lot, of, time, catching, up, with, vets, and, their, friends, who, we, have, not, seen, for, ages, sun, 26th, we, were, staying, with, friends, from, carlisle, who, moved, down, to, derbyshire, when, he, started, to, teach, we, went, to, their, church, which, is, a, house, church, and, is, a, little, different, to, put, it, mildly, they, meet, in, a, school, and, it, is, very, informal, with, a, drumming, band, and, a, desire, not, to, be, restricted, by, convention, or, liturgy, so, it, was, a, mixture, of, readings, and, worship, songs, they, do, seem, to, be, reaching, out, to, their, local, community, as, there, were, people, from, all, walks, of, life, there, mon, 27th, back, to, work, and, not, feeling, very, good, had, 2, weeks, in, india, and, no, stomach, bugs, but, a, w, e, in, derby, and, i, have, a, very, runny, tummy, came, home, from, work, early, and, went, to, bed, tues, 28th, off, work, ill, in, bed, being, male, this, involves, dying, noisily, in, a, corner, some, sympathy, i, get, from, my, wife, weds, 29th, not, feeling, good, but, dragged, myself, back, in, as, i, have, had, that, much, time, off, recently, and, i, feel, that, i, have, to, turn, in, but, i, am, off, tomorrow, so, i, can, recover, then, the, only, drawback, is, that, i, will, be, working, the, w, e, the, sheep, seem, to, have, decided, to, start, lambing, or, maybe, decided, not, as, we, seem, to, be, seeing, a, few, if, you, get, what, i, mean, thursday, had, a, good, day, off, and, spent, time, sleeping, and, doing, household, things, even, though, i, hate, diy, it, was, good, to, get, some, jobs, sorted, called, in, at, vets, to, pick, up, stuff, for, court, tomorrow, friday, the, more, i, experience, the, legal, proceedings, the, more, i, feel, that, they, are, a, waste, of, time, what, is, important, is, how, good, your, lawyer, is, the, case, was, all, about, whether, or, not, this, guy, had, starved, his, greyhounds, or, not, he, had, but, as, he, was, on, legal, aid, he, thought, it, might, be, better, to, try, to, keep, his, other, dogs, and, have, fewer, judgements, against, him, he, obviously, knew, his, way, around, the, legal, system, saturday, 1st, feb, 2003, reflections, on, court, case, it, is, one, of, those, really, annoying, things, that, you, can, never, replay, what, has, happened, the, case, yesterday, really, churned, me, up, with, having, to, make, huge, moral, decisions, more, or, less, on, the, spur, of, the, moment, the, complicating, factors, were, that, c, who, was, acting, on, the, defence, was, acting, outside, the, rcvs, guidelines, now, i, could, have, pointed, out, this, to, the, rspca, lawyer, but, as, c, has, already, been, struck, off, once, the, matter, could, well, have, turned, very, badly, for, him, even, though, it, is, his, decision, to, get, involved, and, a, poor, one, then, i, think, that, it, is, not, for, me, to, land, him, in, the, muck, i, could, have, done, so, both, on, the, fact, he, should, not, have, been, speaking, and, also, that, i, could, have, pointed, out, that, his, record, is, tainted, why, he, was, being, an, expert, witness, in, the, first, place, for, some, one, who, is, not, even, their, client, beadsmen, beats, me, i, had, reservations, about, doing, the, legal, work, for, the, rspca, and, at, least, we, do, quite, a, lot, of, work, for, the, local, inspector, so, i, decided, not, to, trash, c, as, a, witness, as, i, thought, that, it, was, not, my, place, to, do, so, and, secondly, the, repercussions, for, local, vet, good, will, would, not, stand, me, in, good, stead, but, i, have, my, doubts, as, to, whether, i, did, the, correct, thing, there, is, no, right, and, wrong, the, dilemmas, are, there, because, you, to, choose, which, horn, you, want, to, get, impaled, on, sun, lambing, seems, to, have, started, with, a, vengeance, spent, most, of, the, morning, at, the, surgery, with, land, rovers, and, trailers, turning, up, one, after, another, with, sheep, lambing, or, having, peri, natal, problems, i, do, like, working, out, of, the, surgery, at, the, w, e, as, there, is, far, less, driving, and, working, is, so, much, easier, and, you, don’t, have, to, keep, getting, changed, in, and, out, of, protective, clothes, so, got, two, vets, work, done, by, just, keeping, on, asking, for, them, to, come, to, the, surgery, the, farmers, don’t, mind, either, as, they, generally, have, to, put, them, in, a, pick, up, to, bring, them, back, to, the, farm, from, the, field, so, it, is, as, easy, to, drive, on, to, the, vets, rather, than, hang, around, waiting, for, them, mon, went, tt, testing, at, p’s, farm, i, used, his, son, a, fair, bit, during, fmd, as, they, went, out, early, on, and, he, always, has, done, a, fair, amount, of, contracting, on, the, various, farms, he, also, has, a, very, happy, go, lucky, style, in, contrast, to, his, dad, who, is, a, bit, of, a, worrier, i, quite, enjoyed, the, banter, and, we, could, just, work, away, as, there, is, no, pressure, too, get, finished, as, the, numbers, are, not, great, tues, went, to, o’s, where, they, are, again, having, problems, getting, the, cows, in, calf, the, levels, of, infertility, in, the, restocking, herds, are, horrendous, the, sad, thing, is, we, seem, to, be, achieving, very, little, in, actually, improving, it, in, spite, of, a, lot, of, investigations, and, spending, money, on, vaccine, and, on, supplements, the, average, loss, must, be, 5, at, least, it, would, be, interesting, to, compare, the, culling, rates, of, the, restocking, farms, and, find, out, what, the, restocking, losses, actually, are, weds, took, the, new, vet, student, with, me, today, and, let, her, do, the, first, lambing, at, r’s, they, like, everyone, else, says, they, are, getting, a, lot, of, lambs, these, were, dead, and, all, tangled, up, and, aborting, so, they, could, not, get, them, out, they, had, quads, last, night, thursday, went, to, s, and, stitched, a, teat, this, is, now, a, fairly, easy, operation, with, the, advent, of, using, open, crushes, and, decent, epidural, anaesthesia, local, is, always, fairly, iffy, as, many, a, dentists, patient, will, testify, to, it, is, very, satisfying, to, fix, something, like, that, friday, spent, the, morning, doing, certs, these, are, otm22, certificates, which, were, brought, in, by, maff, to, compensate, the, farmer, for, cows, that, would, have, been, sold, for, human, consumption, before, the, otm, scheme, banned, them, from, human, consumption, if, an, animal, is, not, fit, to, travel, then, it, can, be, shot, on, the, farm, but, to, get, the, compensation, they, need, a, vet’s, cert, to, say, that, it, is, fit, for, human, consumption, so, it, can, be, burnt, on, the, scheme, if, it, is, not, fit, then, they, have, to, pay, to, have, it, taken, away, so, there, is, a, lot, of, pressure, to, sign, them, the, scheme, is, supposed, to, be, coming, to, an, end, this, summer, but, as, yet, no, markets, exist, for, the, casualty, animals, that, are, fir, for, human, consumption, the, whole, knackery, injured, animals, burying, of, animals, scheme, is, up, for, grabs, and, the, govt, needs, to, get, some, sort, of, scheme, up, and, running, but, the, govt, thinks, maybe, rightly, that, it, is, an, industry, problem, to, get, rid, of, its, own, waste, and, it, is, not, up, to, the, taxpayer, to, get, farmers, waste, problems, sorted, leave, it, up, to, the, industry, market, to, sort, it, there, is, also, a, suggestion, that, as, tb, is, not, an, important, zoonosis, in, the, uk, anymore, then, it, is, a, production, problem, and, it, should, go, the, same, way, as, sheep, scab, and, be, taken, off, the, notifiable, disease, list, and, individual, farms, have, to, ensure, they, meet, whatever, standard, that, the, buyers, want, to, specify, which, is, what, is, happening, to, a, small, extent, in, the, dairy, industry, with, buyers, specifying, farms, must, meet, certain, criteria, saturday, 8th, feb, 2003, wife, is, on, her, course, for, the, w, e, so, i, was, doing, the, run, around, to, squash, and, football, for, sons, mon, 10th, b, is, now, renting, all, the, land, bush, ghyll, head, he, has, taken, it, over, as, a, grass, letting, another, of, the, small, farms, is, disappearing, the, reality, is, it, has, only, ever, been, a, small, holding, but, they, use, to, milk, 20, odd, cows, which, meant, it, got, the, status, of, a, farm, on, our, computer, system, the, uncle, who, use, to, run, it, when, first, arrived, was, a, real, character, he, was, always, telling, you, about, when, farmers, made, money, after, the, war, a, dozen, eggs, was, 10, shilling, none, of, your, 50ps, 10, whole, shillings, you, could, take, a, girl, to, the, cinema, and, the, lyons, café, and, still, have, change, from, a, pound, even, his, free, range, hens, eggs, would, not, buy, a, cinema, ticket, for, one, these, days, he, should, of, taken, her, as, he, ended, up, as, a, bachelor, with, his, nephew, taking, over, the, farm, tuesday, 11th, the, partners, meeting, today, was, trying, to, address, the, fact, that, the, mark, up, on, fees, is, going, to, be, eroded, one, of, the, things, that, barnard, castle, are, doing, is, putting, on, their, bills, but, as, yet, not, charging, for, things, like, telephone, advice, and, out, of, hours, so, we, are, going, to, be, doing, the, same, to, try, to, get, across, the, point, that, we, are, providing, an, all, round, service, that, needs, to, be, paid, for, but, i, still, think, at, the, end, of, the, day, the, economics, will, win, if, you, cannot, provide, a, service, at, a, profit, you, cannot, provide, a, service, so, where, does, that, leave, us, weds, harrison’s, are, having, problems, with, fertility, who, isn’t, the, blood, results, are, showing, low, levels, of, copper, but, i, am, not, convinced, that, is, what, it, is, they, will, have, to, supplement, the, feed, by, adding, more, copper, to, the, feed, the, problem, with, all, these, investigations, is, that, we, are, looking, for, a, simple, answer, when, the, actual, problem, is, multi, factorial, the, cows, may, be, short, in, copper, but, they, are, not, that, low, that, it, is, really, effecting, them, i, often, wonder, with, humans, if, you, blood, sampled, them, for, lots, of, different, minerals, would, we, find, that, a, percentage, of, the, population, is, actually, below, normal, for, some, or, several, minerals, maybe, our, omnivorous, diet, and, the, fact, we, are, not, producing, huge, amounts, of, milk, probably, does, come, in, to, it, we, do, have, a, much, more, varied, diet, most, cows, are, now, on, complete, rations, here, in, the, uk, so, that, if, the, nutritionist, gets, it, slightly, wrong, then, you, will, find, that, the, cows, will, be, short, i, suppose, the, other, thing, that, we, do, always, forget, is, that, they, are, usually, working, off, either, a, single, or, 3, 4, samples, of, silage, so, that, there, will, be, a, spread, of, what, is, actually, in, the, silage, and, the, samples, may, or, may, not, reflect, it, thursday, on, call, tonight, and, busy, which, was, ok, r, was, up, helping, at, wh, house, one, of, his, suckler, calves, had, managed, to, prolapse, its, rectum, but, it, is, as, wild, as, thunder, so, we, were, all, very, careful, about, handling, it, i, had, to, dope, it, any, way, to, operate, but, when, we, put, it, back, it, was, jumping, up, the, walls, which, is, always, a, wee, bit, disconcerting, limousin, stirks, could, be, used, for, the, grand, national, d’s, brother, is, not, very, well, at, all, now, he, has, cancer, and, went, in, for, emergency, surgery, the, day, i, shot, all, the, cows, i, had, a, big, row, with, senior, staff, at, page, st, he, had, been, admitted, to, the, hospital, at, 2am, and, was, to, undergo, emergency, surgery, that, afternoon, i, did, not, want, it, put, on, the, web, site, as, they, were, announcing, them, on, radio, cumbria, i, did, not, want, him, to, be, going, down, for, the, surgery, or, just, coming, out, of, it, and, to, find, out, from, the, radio, that, i, was, shooting, all, his, cows, i, asked, them, to, put, an, embargo, on, it, of, course, the, vets, tried, not, to, let, it, go, out, but, it, did, and, i, was, really, angry, i, wrote, some, strongly, worded, letters, and, never, even, got, a, reply, i, should, have, followed, it, up, and, held, some, one, to, account, but, i, am, afraid, it, all, got, lost, in, the, passing, of, time, at, least, r, is, a, lot, better, he, had, meningitis, around, the, time, of, fmd, he, has, had, bad, heads, and, depression, ever, since, so, it, was, good, that, he, is, back, on, farms, and, has, started, fencing, again, fri, 14th, valentines, it, is, friend, s, birthday, so, we, all, went, around, to, her, house, for, dinner, which, was, really, nice, and, ended, playing, darts, with, the, kids, i, was, pleased, to, get, some, darts, in, the, board, as, it, is, a, long, long, time, since, i, have, played, saturday, 15th, february, 2003, son’s, birthday, my, little, baby, son, is, now, 8, years, old, it, is, hard, to, believe, where, the, time, has, gone, and, all, the, water, that, has, passed, under, the, bridge, went, around, to, friend’s, at, night, and, sat, and, eat, and, put, the, world, to, rights, it, is, good, every, now, and, again, to, wind, down, and, just, enjoy, talking, with, out, having, to, think, as, we, know, them, so, well, you, can, just, come, out, with, stuff, sunday, mon, 17th, spent, the, day, tb, testing, at, dl, where, they, have, had, a, nvl, no, visible, lesions, reactor, taken, colleague, did, the, first, test, and, we, are, not, doing, the, fat, stock, on, farms, that, have, restocked, as, they, will, be, going, for, slaughter, fairly, soon, so, it, is, deemed, pointless, and, really, it, is, so, spent, the, day, putting, big, bullocks, through, the, crush, and, it, is, a, dangerous, work, for, the, men, who, go, in, amongst, them, because, they, are, very, rarely, handled, and, so, don’t, take, to, it, very, well, tuesday, had, an, interesting, lambing, today, and, a, consequence, of, fmd, that, you, forget, about, there, is, an, inherited, genetic, condition, of, suffolk’s, called, dandy, walker, syndrome, causing, hydrocephalus, in, the, lambs, so, both, the, ewe, and, tup, must, carry, the, gene, to, produce, the, deformed, lambs, with, heads, too, large, to, get, through, the, mothers, pelvis, so, it, means, doing, a, caesarean, on, a, ewe, that, can, only, be, used, to, breed, fat, lambs, from, it, has, to, be, put, to, another, breed, next, year, this, years, lambs, are, dead, going, to, die, so, the, economics, are, useless, some, breeders, just, shoot, them, at, this, point, but, he, had, called, us, to, try, to, lamb, it, or, caesaer, it, as, she, was, a, big, ewe, i, eventually, managed, to, lamb, it, he, was, saying, though, that, it, takes, time, to, work, out, whether, the, stock, you, have, bought, will, produce, the, breeding, stock, that, you, want, you, have, to, try, the, different, combinations, that, you, have, to, work, out, which, lines, work, well, together, he, reckons, on, about, 4, 8, years, before, he, will, be, back, to, breeding, decent, suffolk, sheep, in, spite, of, buying, in, good, stock, there, is, more, to, breeding, than, meets, the, eye, wednesday, rb, had, a, stirk, with, mcf, malignant, catarhal, fever, it, is, a, viral, disease, which, is, quite, often, fatal, that, they, catch, from, sheep, but, they, have, really, blue, grey, eyes, from, the, change, in, the, fluid, in, the, eye, and, the, severe, iritis, it, must, be, incredibly, painful, for, them, thursday, dixons, tt2, is, now, clear, so, they, have, to, have, them, all, tested, again, in, 42, days, to, clear, the, farm, of, restrictions, un, fortunately, the, vet, from, the, ministry, said, it, would, be, from, the, day, the, cow, is, taken, not, today, so, the, whole, thing, is, getting, a, bit, complicated, and, jd, is, getting, wound, up, understandably, so, friday, tried, to, sort, out, some, of, the, tracings, that, we, are, supposed, to, be, doing, there, are, a, lot, coming, through, but, the, quality, of, the, info, is, very, poor, tracings, are, where, the, farm, has, sold, animals, and, then, subsequently, gone, down, with, tb, or, other, notifiable, disease, the, defra, paper, chase, is, so, bad, that, ear, tag, nos, are, wrong, or, a, farmer, has, bought, several, from, the, same, source, and, only, 1, 2, are, on, the, paper, work, from, defra, the, thing, seems, to, be, falling, apart, a, bit, went, and, did, a, single, animal, up, at, the, mill, he, usually, buys, in, stores, and, fattens, them, but, as, the, store, trade, has, gone, through, the, roof, he, has, sold, a, lot, of, them, on, to, let, some, one, else, fatten, or, if, heifers, breed, from, them, the, defra, files, have, him, as, a, fattening, unit, finisher, so, that, they, hadn’t, bothered, to, do, tracings, to, him, as, they, would, be, going, for, slaughter, but, of, course, he, had, sold, one, on, that, had, gone, down, with, tb, so, they, wanted, to, know, what, was, happening, with, these, now, saturday, 22nd, february, 2003, saturday, sunday, monday, tuesday, had, a, funny, sensation, to, day, i, suppose, it, was, almost, a, flash, back, in, some, ways, i, went, to, a, farm, who, has, fancy, pedigree, sheep, he, has, rented, land, and, wanted, them, added, to, his, holding, for, the, mv, scheme, so, he, needs, a, vet, inspection, to, say, that, the, fields, are, double, fenced, so, that, the, sheep, do, not, come, in, contact, to, any, others, this, inspection, of, fields, is, pretty, meaningless, as, they, know, what, needs, to, be, done, and, so, they, are, always, up, to, scratch, the, last, time, i, was, doing, it, was, for, fmd, wednesday, thursday, friday, packed, and, got, the, last, few, things, sorted, for, the, vcf, w, e, got, the, posters, printed, and, the, display, boards, together, and, set, off, down, the, motorway, to, pick, up, friend, and, spent, most, of, the, day, travelling, it, was, good, talking, to, him, he, retired, from, practice, just, before, fmd, and, then, spent, the, first, part, of, his, retirement, working, for, defra, on, the, fmd, first, at, preston, and, then, at, settle, it, seems, they, were, better, organised, at, preston, and, he, was, quite, positive, about, the, local, teams, i, sometimes, wonder, if, i, am, sill, too, close, to, it, all, and, to, emotional, to, take, a, clear, headed, look, at, what, it, was, really, like, it, was, good, to, see, friends, at, night, and, get, set, up, for, the, w, e, sat, 1st, march, sun, 2003, vcf, w, e, it, is, difficult, for, me, to, sum, up, the, w, e, as, i, was, so, much, in, it, and, part, of, it, so, i, have, copied, the, report, from, one, of, the, students, who, wrote, a, bit, for, the, vcf, magazine, vcf, triennial, conference, 28th, feb, 2nd, march, 2003, on, a, sunny, weekend, at, the, beginning, of, march, over, 70, vets, vet, students, and, families, bravely, took, time, out, of, their, busy, schedules, and, gathered, expectantly, at, the, hayes, conference, centre, in, derbyshire, for, the, 2003, vcf, conference, we, were, a, mixed, bunch, ranging, in, age, from, 2, months, to, 70, well, nearly, from, many, different, places, denominations, and, walks, of, veterinary, life, but, we, all, had, a, common, goal, in, mind, to, unite, in, our, desire, to, love, and, serve, the, lord, jesus, christ, in, the, vocation, to, which, he, has, called, us, and, to, encourage, one, another, to, be, salt, and, light, in, the, veterinary, world, our, distinguished, speaker, for, the, weekend, was, dr, l, a, consultant, psychiatrist, and, christian, who, drew, from, his, own, experience, to, bring, us, some, thoughtful, insights, on, the, subject, of, god, at, work, he, emphasised, the, fact, that, although, work, is, a, godly, activity, and, that, we, should, view, whatever, we, do, as, if, working, for, the, lord, colossians, 3, 18, it, must, not, be, forgotten, that, a, balance, must, be, achieved, between, work, church, family, life, etc, there, was, also, an, opportunity, to, discuss, how, we, would, respond, as, christians, to, a, variety, of, ethical, decisions, that, commonly, present, themselves, in, veterinary, practice, as, well, as, the, main, talks, there, was, the, opportunity, to, join, a, variety, of, seminars, on, relevant, practical, subjects, bt, a, vet, and, long, serving, missionary, in, thailand, with, omf, led, a, most, interesting, seminar, on, the, joys, and, challenges, of, both, veterinary, and, evangelistic, work, in, a, different, culture, students, and, new, graduates, were, well, provided, for, in, seminars, on, practicing, reality, living, out, one's, faith, in, the, university, or, veterinary, practice, environment, m, c, bravely, stepped, in, at, short, notice, to, lead, a, seminar, on, business, ethics, and, vcf, secretary, generated, some, thought, provoking, discussion, on, a, very, relevant, subject, for, many, singleness, it, was, not, all, work, and, no, play, however, and, we, were, much, obliged, to, the, scottish, students, for, organising, the, saturday, night, ceilidh, much, fun, was, had, by, all, so, we, all, parted, company, on, sunday, feeling, refreshed, and, well, fed, both, physically, and, spiritually, how, encouraging, to, be, reminded, that, you, are, not, the, only, christian, vet, out, there, and, that, there, are, many, others, who, grapple, with, the, same, issues, you, face, the, weekend, was, a, time, of, friendships, rekindled, and, hopefully, new, ones, made, a, time, of, strengthening, and, a, reminder, of, what, is, ultimately, the, most, important, thing, in, our, busy, lives, leading, the, seminar, on, business, ethics, or, rather, winging, it, was, very, stressful, but, very, good, which, was, very, interesting, and, very, challenging, the, questions, about, is, it, right, to, make, a, profit, were, espy, good, to, work, through, but, it, was, incredibly, draining, by, sun, night, i, was, exhausted, drove, back, to, friend’s, for, the, night, he, live, about, 20, mins, off, motorway, and, it, was, coming, through, one, of, the, wee, villages, i, was, flashed, by, a, camera, and, so, will, have, a, fine, and, a, speeding, ticket, to, sort, out, mon, had, a, really, nice, lie, in, and, then, went, for, a, walk, with, friend, around, from, his, house, across, the, fields, it, was, beautiful, then, set, off, for, preston, to, visit, the, friend, who, is, in, prison, the, road, was, closed, on, the, way, to, the, m6, so, took, me, ages, to, find, my, way, to, the, m6, and, then, after, coming, off, at, preston, to, find, the, way, to, the, prisons, the, whole, afternoon, was, very, depressing, there, is, something, very, intimidating, about, having, to, be, processed, for, the, visit, under, security, cameras, and, by, very, polite, but, uncaring, prison, officers, the, being, searched, and, going, past, sniffer, dogs, and, having, to, give, my, finger, prints, which, are, now, on, the, police, computers, prisoner, was, ok, but, fairly, depressed, about, the, outlook, even, now, he, is, worried, about, how, he, is, going, to, cope, when, he, comes, out, the, prison, regime, is, very, oppressive, and, after, being, there, for, an, hour, and, a, half, i, was, glad, to, be, going, it, is, also, a, bizarre, situation, where, you, have, to, sit, there, and, talk, for, that, length, of, time, there, is, also, a, lot, of, stuff, that, he, wants, to, know, about, the, kids, and, you, just, can’t, help, him, most, of, what, we, know, is, hearsay, and, not, first, and, so, difficult, to, sum, up, espy, as, some, of, it, is, not, good, they, are, not, coping, with, the, whole, situation, and, it, is, basically, his, fault, or, his, and, their, mothers, so, he, is, already, feeling, guilty, enough, with, out, giving, him, more, angst, to, cope, with, but, i, was, very, glad, to, be, coming, out, again, into, the, fresh, air, spent, the, evening, at, a’s, parents, evening, challenging, senior, management, and, giving, them, a, hard, time, so, quite, a, day, tuesday, as, usual, the, disasters, after, a, w, e, away, continue, the, new, bathroom, was, totally, flooded, from, a, leaking, pipe, i, felt, like, wringing, his, neck, he, is, the, plumber, the, water, was, flowing, back, through, the, old, kitchen, and, made, a, real, mess, managed, to, get, hold, of, him, after, leaving, more, and, more, urgent, phone, messages, at, all, his, answer, phones, he, has, a, mobile, a, telephone, at, his, flat, where, he, hardly, ever, is, and, at, his, girlfriends, so, the, water, was, off, most, of, the, day, until, he, found, the, leak, and, managed, to, fix, it, again, he, had, to, smash, tiles, and, cut, holes, in, the, wall, to, fix, it, and, the, place, looked, a, mess, but, boy, o, boy, am, i, fed, up, with, that, stupid, bathroom, went, into, work, to, find, no, one, had, done, the, stuff, i, had, left, to, be, done, and, work, was, really, busy, the, speeding, ticket, had, landed, already, why, are, other, govt, depts, not, as, efficient, so, spent, the, whole, day, until, 6pm, running, around, like, a, headless, chicken, and, then, decided, that, stuff, it, i, was, going, to, the, gym, for, the, circuits, class, weds, the, disasters, continued, with, the, washing, machine, giving, up, the, ghost, which, in, a, house, with, 3, boys, and, a, vet, is, a, pretty, serious, problem, i, also, had, an, argument, with, one, of, the, other, partners, saying, that, if, we, did, not, get, another, vet, we, would, have, a, rebellion, or, people, going, off, sick, through, stress, me, being, one, of, them, and, i, have, only, been, back, 2, days, still, haven’t, managed, to, read, all, of, the, stuff, in, my, in, tray, yet, let, alone, deal, with, it, thursday, finally, convinced, senior, colleague, we, needed, some, help, as, the, ministry, got, hold, of, him, and, asked, if, we, could, do, a, tracings, herd, test, urgently, on, one, of, farms, that, has, not, restocked, the, cattle, belong, to, some, one, else, he, then, looked, at, the, book, and, decided, we, could, not, idiot, i, told, him, weeks, ago, last, september, i, think, that, this, would, happen, so, spent, the, day, sorting, out, dc, to, come, in, between, vetting, he, is, not, an, lvi, so, have, had, to, pull, some, wool, and, sweet, talk, them, into, training, him, in, the, baffling, ways, of, defra, but, that, meant, i, still, have, yet, to, reach, the, bottom, of, my, in, tray, may, be, there, is, gold, buried, at, the, bottom, i, think, this, is, one, of, those, days, when, you, look, back, were, probably, quite, decisive, but, accidental, days, this, was, the, first, time, i, really, thought, that, i, was, about, to, be, killed, i, could, see, it, happening, and, there, was, nothing, i, could, have, done, differently, to, prevent, it, i, went, on, a, calving, after, work, about, 8pm, met, up, with, the, farmers, and, one, went, to, get, water, while, the, other, and, i, walked, into, the, box, to, where, the, cow, was, the, cow, gave, me, a, funny, look, and, i, backed, off, to, behind, a, pillar, in, the, pen, oh, its, ok, it’s, a, quiet, cow, she’s, had, 8, calves, he, said, next, time, i, will, listen, to, my, instincts, so, we, went, forward, to, where, she, was, without, warning, or, snorting, or, given, it, a, second, thought, she, charged, caught, me, under, the, ribs, with, her, head, and, threw, me, to, the, ground, before, i, could, react, she, butted, me, again, in, the, head, snorted, kicked, me, and, then, backed, off, as, the, farmer, started, kicking, and, hitting, her, she, then, came, again, bashed, me, into, the, corner, on, my, back, and, kept, coming, as, her, head, flew, at, me, i, grabbed, her, nose, and, swung, myself, around, on, her, nose, kicked, her, with, both, feet, taking, all, my, weight, on, the, one, hand, while, shouting, for, help, from, the, other, guys, one, came, back, with, a, pitchfork, as, i, was, on, the, ground, i, kicked, her, again, as, they, came, with, the, fork, and, let, go, and, scrambled, away, around, the, box, she, still, came, after, me, but, i, got, to, the, gate, past, the, two, brothers, who, thumped, her, again, and, then, backed, off, and, slammed, the, gate, shut, i, lay, in, a, heap, on, a, bale, for, 10, minutes, breathing, heavily, while, they, asked, did, i, need, an, ambulance, or, doctor, i, finally, came, to, enough, to, splash, water, on, my, face, and, think, that, there, must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, it, took, all, 4, brothers, armed, with, sticks, to, get, her, into, a, crush, where, i, then, managed, to, calve, 1, dead, twin, breach, and, 1, live, twin, just, in, her, defence, the, cow, had, been, calving, for, a, while, was, in, pain, and, had, probably, just, got, herself, really, wound, up, but, she, almost, killed, me, i, then, sat, having, strong, tea, for, quarter, of, an, hour, before, summoning, up, the, courage, to, drive, home, with, hind, sight, i, should, have, taken, up, there, offer, of, a, getting, some, one, else, out, to, calve, the, cow, but, the, girl, on, 2nd, was, 5ft, nothing, and, petite, and, didn’t, think, dumping, it, on, her, was, very, fair, the, adrenaline, was, still, flowing, so, i, just, kept, on, b, i, should, however, have, let, one, of, them, drive, me, home, or, probably, to, casualty, but, i, felt, they, would, not, do, anything, at, the, hospital, except, keep, an, eye, on, me, so, i, just, went, home, to, my, own, bed, and, asked, my, wife, to, wake, me, up, every, two, hours, friday, ill, with, head, spinning, every, time, i, sit, down, to, try, and, do, something, my, head, just, goes, around, and, i, feel, really, tired, and, jet, lagged, i, think, i, prefer, india, to, being, beaten, up, by, cows, time, for, a, new, job, slept, all, afternoon, but, had, friends, for, dinner, it, had, been, arrange, months, ago, so, wife, didn’t, cancel, and, i, kept, going, but, drifted, in, and, out, a, wee, bit, saturday, 8th, march, had, a, lie, in, to, 9, o, clock, yo, still, feeling, pretty, sore, but, at, least, my, head, is, one, piece, i, think, showed, flat, to, prospective, tenants, it, is, very, rare, that, we, don’t, have, to, get, up, for, sthg, when, we, are, at, home, either, for, work, or, for, football, squash, or, something, similar, there, is, another, squash, competition, but, they, are, both, later, starts, for, our, boys, which, is, great, took, son, to, football, and, wife, phoned, up, to, say, that, the, cs, were, going, to, watch, the, lord, of, the, rings, did, i, want, to, go, so, went, to, watch, it, and, swapped, younger, kids, with, wife, taking, son, and, their, youngsters, and, i, went, with, the, cs, there, are, times, when, mobile, phones, are, really, useful, to, get, things, arranged, the, film, was, really, good, but, boy, was, i, stiff, after, sitting, down, for, that, length, of, time, my, knee, was, giving, me, real, gyp, spent, evening, at, daubes, but, i, faded, so, wife, drove, home, and, went, to, bed, sunday, 9th, went, to, church, in, morning, and, picked, up, car, friends, came, to, lunch, which, was, really, good, to, see, them, but, as, a, points, out, pointedly, they, do, have, 5, boys, so, there, were, 8, kids, flying, around, but, i, did, enjoy, seeing, them, they, are, still, trying, to, sort, out, their, diversification, plans, and, hope, to, have, several, strings, to, their, bows, as, well, as, farming, there, is, a, teachers, position, at, nelson, thom, so, that, is, probably, the, most, reliable, form, of, income, for, friend, mon, 10th, went, to, work, but, every, time, i, bend, over, or, move, to, fast, my, head, spins, so, just, did, small, animals, i, think, cats, and, dogs, are, a, much, better, idea, but, a, lot, of, sympathy, from, folk, at, work, mr, h, had, been, in, and, obviously, given, a, fairly, graphic, description, of, what, had, happened, that, and, my, face, is, not, the, most, becoming, at, the, moment, tues, 11th, back, to, work, on, the, farms, i, was, at, rs, for, a, fertility, visit, even, though, i, know, his, cows, and, i, am, happy, with, them, i, did, feel, very, nervous, about, going, any, where, near, them, i, have, lost, a, lot, of, confidence, which, although, i, expected, it, i, am, still, a, bit, wound, up, about, it, the, rest, of, day, was, ok, apart, from, several, people, whingeing, about, the, current, paper, work, requirements, for, selling, cattle, mind, you, when, you, see, what, they, need, to, sell, a, few, bullocks, or, a, geld, cow, it, is, probably, easier, to, be, an, asylum, seeker, spent, evening, at, surgery, showing, d, the, ropes, he, is, the, locum, who, is, going, to, be, working, with, us, for, the, next, few, weeks, he, is, going, to, the, ministry, at, newcastle, tomorrow, to, do, his, lvi, training, at, least, that, means, he, can, do, some, of, the, tb, testing, and, at, least, give, us, a, break, from, that, it, is, these, sort, of, things, managing, staff, showing, people, the, ropes, giving, them, back, up, and, debriefing, them, that, latkes, huge, amounts, of, time, and, energy, and, yet, is, never, seen, as, work, or, relevant, by, a, lot, of, people, the, rest, of, the, partnership, and, yet, in, any, small, business, it, is, the, people, that, make, all, the, difference, and, if, they, feel, appreciated, and, supported, and, can, debrief, and, be, reassured, then, it, makes, such, a, difference, to, them, and, happy, staff, can, deal, with, situations, and, people, a, lot, better, and, easier, than, stressed, ones, weds, 12th, next, year, i, am, not, going, it, is, definitely, some, one, else’s, turn, i, speak, of, the, annual, training, day, for, senior, lvis, it, just, drives, me, up, the, wall, the, morning, was, spent, fairly, usefully, talking, about, contingency, planning, for, the, next, fmd, or, exotic, disease, epidemic, the, page, st, planners, seemed, fairly, well, clued, in, and, taking, on, board, a, lot, of, the, ideas, and, problems, that, had, been, seen, in, 2001, the, afternoon, was, then, totally, depressing, tb, is, now, endemic, in, the, south, of, the, county, there, was, a, deer, herd, that, had, animals, dying, and, so, took, them, to, the, vic, lab, at, penrith, to, find, out, why, they, had, these, animals, losing, weight, and, dying, they, had, tb, the, ministry, had, known, that, there, had, been, reactors, all, around, that, area, but, had, never, picked, up, on, the, fact, these, deer, were, here, and, should, have, been, tested, there, were, also, complaints, that, forward, tracings, were, not, being, done, on, some, cattle, to, which, the, vety, officer, giving, the, talk, said, it, was, quite, difficult, to, work, out, where, cattle, had, gone, this, was, met, with, some, incredulity, by, the, local, vets, as, the, paperwork, and, computerised, passport, scheme, surely, means, that, trace, ability, was, one, of, the, big, issues, to, do, with, bse, and, if, it, cannot, be, done, it, means, the, whole, thing, is, a, useless, sham, well, the, answer, is, that, you, can, trace, a, specific, animal, through, markets, and, holdings, but, not, animals, on, and, off, a, holding, so, tracings, are, taking, too, much, time, so, it, is, not, getting, done, so, tb, is, spreading, idiots, the, best, systems, the, best, tools, the, best, ideas, the, best, businesses, have, to, work, through, people, so, next, year, some, one, else, can, go, and, listen, to, the, plans, in, the, sky, this, was, the, meeting, where, we, had, an, excellent, talk, on, fmd, in, feb, 2000, just, a, pity, they, did, not, listen, to, their, own, experts, there, was, also, a, talk, on, the, new, scrapie, scheme, where, the, guy, speaking, knew, less, than, his, audience, why, i, have, to, go, back, to, the, speaker, at, the, vcf, w, e, who, said, that, when, he, came, out, of, medical, school, he, had, spent, 6, years, being, taught, to, be, rational, and, scientific, where, disease, was, discussed, logically, and, a, rational, conclusion, was, sought, he, came, with, the, same, idea, to, the, national, health, service, and, struggled, he, said, we, live, in, a, fallen, world, with, fallen, institutions, and, we, have, to, accept, that, at, times, they, do, not, make, sense, and, that, it, is, not, in, our, power, or, capabilities, to, change, them, where, we, can, we, change, them, where, we, cannot, we, work, within, them, thursday, 13th, day, off, prior, to, working, w, e, went, up, high, pike, with, friend, snowed, lightly, on, tops, but, beautiful, but, a, wee, bit, chilly, spent, the, afternoon, getting, the, stuff, sorted, for, vcf, magazine, and, answering, e, mails, and, putting, the, details, from, the, w, e, in, to, some, sort, of, order, i, was, trying, also, to, put, some, responses, down, for, yesterday, but, feeling, to, angry, to, risk, putting, it, down, on, paper, i, just, hope, the, govt, is, more, in, touch, with, the, armed, forces, on, the, frontline, in, kuwait, than, the, distant, arm, of, govt, in, state, vet, service, in, cumbria, friday, 14th, another, day, another, test, another, dollar, spent, morning, supervising, the, locum, and, trying, to, get, on, top, of, my, in, tray, the, stuff, for, partners, meeting, next, week, to, try, and, get, some, decisions, and, a, w, e, on, call, looms, when, i, feel, even, though, i, have, not, been, in, work, or, worked, too, many, w, e’s, tired, and, jaded, being, beaten, up, by, the, cow, probably, doesn’t, help, saturday, 15th, march, working, the, w, e, on, first, for, the, first, time, in, a, long, time, as, i, have, been, keeping, the, amount, i, am, working, back, i, am, was, way, ahead, in, the, amount, worked, so, it, brings, the, numbers, in, line, i, also, need, a, break, as, feeling, v, tired, and, fed, up, and, with, not, much, prospect, of, rejuvenation, the, morning, was, fairly, busy, but, we, all, finished, by, 12, so, not, that, bad, it, was, funny, as, julie, who, ahs, been, a, receptionist, since, pre, fmd, said, that, she, thought, it, was, really, busy, but, compared, to, the, good, old, days, of, 8, years, ago, you, thought, it, was, a, good, sat, am, if, you, finished, by, 2, so, it, is, surprising, how, things, change, and, you, get, use, to, them, the, weather, is, beautiful, with, clear, skies, and, frosty, spring, mornings, and, dry, the, good, weather, always, makes, you, feel, better, any, way, spent, afternoon, doing, bits, and, pieces, in, garden, and, jobbing, around, sunday, 16th, busy, in, morning, but, it, shows, how, useful, the, new, building, is, ok, i, know, its, 4, years, old, but, things, have, never, been, normal, and, i, still, see, it, as, new, there, were, 2, lambings, and, a, sheep, to, see, and, drugs, to, put, out, and, because, i, was, at, the, surgery, they, just, kept, on, coming, down, to, the, surgery, to, the, large, animal, bay, so, i, did, a, lot, of, work, with, no, driving, and, it, makes, such, a, difference, what, would, have, taken, 3, 4, hours, was, finished, in, an, hour, and, a, half, missed, church, and, did, the, same, at, night, with, more, lambings, the, sheep, are, back, the, afternoon, was, spent, sorting, out, after, boys, they, went, down, to, the, pond, and, because, it, is, all, churned, up, they, got, their, wellies, stuck, in, the, mud, so, they, were, cold, and, wet, and, covered, i, had, to, use, planks, to, walk, out, to, them, so, i, did, not, sink, in, i, made, the, mistake, of, fetching, the, planks, and, the, spades, back, before, sorting, the, boys, so, they, had, trailed, mud, all, around, the, house, grrrrr, but, i, should, have, taken, photos, in, the, midst, of, this, the, new, vet, student, rachael, turned, up, so, i, could, not, give, full, vent, to, my, annoyance, mon, 17th, chaos, at, work, with, loads, of, emergencies, and, testing, so, we, were, all, glad, of, students, and, d, working, more, i, r’s, found, tb, testing, so, it, looks, like, it, will, continue, still, haven’t, found, time, to, put, pen, to, paper, or, type, writer, to, send, a, letter, to, contingency, planning, group, at, defra, but, hopefully, will, get, on, top, of, it, soon, tues, 18th, some, days, i, should, have, stayed, in, bed, a, bad, hair, day, started, off, badly, with, arriving, at, fertility, visit, as, farmer, was, emerging, from, breakfast, having, been, late, as, his, wife, was, milk, recording, and, he, had, to, calve, a, cow, so, had, to, sort, cows, before, checking, to, see, in, calf, a, very, rotten, lambing, rotten, as, in, lambs, were, disintegrating, so, stank, and, then, more, calls, left, for, lunch, at, 12, 45, to, get, half, way, and, the, called, me, back, for, another, lambing, there, were, 1, 30, calls, to, do, and, then, surgery, worked, at, night, and, i, was, fed, up, of, being, on, call, stopping, me, doing, stuff, so, went, to, gym, and, was, bleeped, out, to, speak, to, folk, 4, times, by, now, really, wound, up, so, went, to, house, group, and, sat, down, chatted, and, phone, went, sorted, that, and, then, a, cow, caesarean, this, was, followed, by, 2, more, and, 3, hours, sleep, must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, weds, 19th, feeling, my, age, no, sleep, on, the, night, before, you, 40th, birthday, does, not, do, you, any, good, missed, seeing, kids, in, morning, as, i, was, out, at, caesar, 3, during, night, on, call, the, girls, at, work, had, got, hold, of, loads, of, photos, from, my, wife, so, they, were, all, around, the, practice, well, i, was, a, cute, teenager, worked, through, to, lunch, as, morning, was, busy, and, partners, meeting, then, did, a, 1, 30, and, went, home, for, sleep, opened, presents, with, kids, at, 4, o’clock, and, went, out, to, d’s, for, meal, at, night, was, good, thurs, 20th, really, quiet, as, no, tb, testing, and, lots, of, vets, did, more, lambings, and, caught, up, on, business, side, of, organisation, doing, rota, and, organising, work, reflected, on, partners, meeting, and, tried, to, work, out, whether, i, am, out, of, sync, with, the, rest, of, the, world, and, right, or, out, of, sync, and, wrong, time, will, tell, iraq, war, started, as, predicted, but, seems, to, have, been, an, opportunistic, target, i, e, saddam, himself, rather, than, all, out, assault, weird, but, that, is, politics, i, must, ask, the, history, teachers, about, what, caused, the, failure, of, the, league, of, nations, and, whether, this, is, going, to, be, similar, for, un, fri, 21st, despite, being, on, back, up, went, out, for, a, meal, it, was, the, coffee, morning’s, xmas, bash, that, is, traditionally, now, held, in, new, year, as, there, is, too, much, else, on, during, xmas, period, spent, quite, a, while, talking, to, ms, about, league, of, nations, and, the, un, he, is, fairly, sceptical, about, the, power, and, influence, of, un, which, in, his, view, is, more, often, than, not, used, as, a, fig, leaf, for, us, or, ussr, ambitions, and, is, not, really, the, international, community, he, was, interesting, to, talk, to, about, the, history, of, iraq, played, pictionary, boys, vs, girls, which, was, fun, saturday, 22nd, march, 2003, worked, am, which, was, very, busy, as, it, was, my, 10th, day, i, was, feeling, a, bit, drained, either, that, or, cos, of, out, for, meal, last, night, i, will, let, you, decide, the, beautiful, weather, is, continuing, and, we, went, for, a, lovely, walk, up, above, fellside, the, kids, loved, playing, in, the, streams, and, the, sunshine, which, for, march, is, amazing, came, back, to, find, that, there, was, a, house, full, of, folk, to, celebrate, my, 40th, birthday, which, was, really, nice, though, it, was, a, good, thing, that, the, weather, was, good, so, the, kids, could, play, out, side, as, there, were, lots, of, them, chatted, to, p, who, is, always, full, of, energy, and, enthusiasm, he, is, a, whirlwind, of, ideas, and, concepts, and, philosophy, one, of, the, few, people, who, i, can, sit, and, listen, to, for, hours, and, hours, he, is, intelligent, and, articulate, in, 7, languages, and, yet, always, ready, to, listen, to, anyone, and, hear, what, they, have, to, say, even, if, it, is, poorly, thought, out, and, very, practical, in, his, approach, and, very, un, materialistic, he, is, quite, happy, to, give, books, and, ideas, to, anyone, who, will, read, and, learn, from, them, sunday, 23rd, this, weather, is, amazing, i, still, cannot, get, over, it, with, the, sun, blazing, down, we, went, to, watch, son, play, football, against, silloth, they, won, 2, 0, but, it, was, a, tight, match, but, very, good, to, watch, much, better, than, carlisle, as, one, spectators, put, it, went, on, to, beckfoot, for, a, picnic, in, march, the, beach, was, deserted, and, yet, it, was, warm, enough, for, t, shirts, and, shorts, for, the, boys, i, lay, in, the, sun, and, slept, and, counted, my, many, blessings, came, home, and, planted, seeds, lettuce, courgette, and, sweet, pea, must, plant, leeks, and, pumpkins, if, i, get, a, a, chance, this, week, and, buy, onion, sets, wife, spent, a, while, after, church, talking, to, b, about, low, moor, difficult, mon, 24th, sent, my, letter, to, richard, drummond, who, was, the, rvo, at, harrogate, and, is, now, head, of, service, delivery, it, is, always, a, bit, of, a, conscious, effort, to, take, up, the, cudgels, against, bureaucracy, especially, one, like, the, svs, that, has, in, its, culture, a, tendency, to, attack, those, who, criticise, it, i, hope, that, tomorrow, will, be, quiet, as, i, wish, to, write, another, letter, to, the, contingency, planning, dept, i, also, want, to, look, at, the, updated, contingency, plans, and, make, comments, on, it, but, doing, all, this, does, not, pay, the, bills, and, at, the, moment, when, work, is, so, busy, i, feel, it, is, actually, more, important, to, spend, time, with, the, kids, so, i, will, sign, off, and, go, and, watch, the, great, escape, which, they, bought, me, for, my, birthday, copy, of, letter, to, richard, drummond, who, wrote, the, drummond, report, before, fmd, saying, that, if, there, was, an, outbreak, they, would, not, be, able, to, cope, 21st, march, 2003, mr, r, d, drummond, address, removed, dear, richard, i, am, writing, to, express, my, concern, with, the, current, situation, with, tb, we, last, met, at, the, lvi, meeting, in, cumbria, where, we, had, an, excellent, talk, on, foot, and, mouth, disease, and, about, how, there, was, an, increased, risk, becoming, apparent, this, was, in, feb, 2000, at, the, meeting, this, year, as, well, as, talks, on, contingency, planning, there, was, a, lot, of, discussion, on, the, emergence, of, tb, on, cumbrian, farms, there, were, also, complaints, that, forward, tracings, were, not, being, done, on, some, cattle, to, which, the, vet, officer, giving, the, talk, said, it, was, quite, difficult, and, time, consuming, to, work, out, where, cattle, had, gone, this, was, met, with, some, incredulity, by, the, local, vets, as, the, paperwork, and, computerised, passport, scheme, involved, in, moving, cattle, is, a, huge, burden, on, farmers, trace, ability, was, one, of, the, big, issues, to, do, with, bse, and, if, it, cannot, be, done, it, means, the, whole, paper, exercise, is, a, useless, sham, the, answer, was, given, that, you, can, trace, a, specific, animal, through, markets, and, holdings, but, not, animals, on, and, off, a, holding, so, tracings, are, taking, too, much, time, so, tracings, are, not, getting, done, in, some, divisions, so, tb, is, spreading, whether, this, comes, under, your, remit, as, head, of, service, delivery, i, do, not, know, but, i, would, be, grateful, if, you, could, forward, it, to, the, relevant, department, or, to, the, minister, so, that, a, single, enquiry, to, the, cattle, movements, service, at, workington, will, ensure, a, comprehensive, list, of, movements, on, and, off, a, holding, since, the, previous, test, if, we, cannot, trace, from, herds, with, tuberculosis, reactors, the, ability, to, track, fmd, is, obviously, a, non, starter, thank, you, in, advance, for, your, help, with, this, i, hope, in, 3, years, time, we, will, not, be, contemplating, what, we, should, have, learnt, from, an, lvi, meeting, in, hadrian, house, yours, sincerely, b.v.m, s, m.r.c.v.s, tues, 25th, wife, s, cousin, from, vancouver, arrived, and, it, was, really, nice, to, see, her, again, the, canadians, are, always, so, up, beat, and, down, to, earth, they, have, a, refreshingly, positive, can, do, mentality, she, and, her, daughter, have, been, with, a, school, choir, singing, in, parts, of, europe, and, doing, the, european, tour, they, are, whistle, stopping, the, lakes, tomorrow, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, them, young, vet, who, lost, brother, was, with, them, my, favourite, mother, in, law, she, brought, me, a, set, of, kitchen, knives, for, my, birthday, present, they, are, incredibly, sharp, so, i, don’t, think, that, letting, the, kids, loose, with, them, will, be, a, good, idea, but, at, least, we, can, pitch, some, of, the, old, ones, which, needed, sharpening, every, time, you, used, them, vet, arrived, back, from, skiing, very, sun, burnt, from, the, sunshine, and, wind, she, has, had, a, really, good, time, though, weds, 26th, a, and, left, as, i, arrived, in, to, go, to, yp’s, it, was, funny, to, see, them, very, much, the, young, ladies, going, out, they, live, at, opposite, ends, of, the, world, and, yet, the, fashion, is, the, same, little, hand, bags, and, scarves, as, belts, globalisation, is, not, just, effecting, agriculture, they, had, spent, time, in, keswick, and, around, the, lakes, today, making, use, of, the, gorgeous, summer, weather, in, march, it, really, is, warm, hope, we, are, in, for, a, scorcher, of, a, summer, holidays, thursday, 27th, spent, the, quietist, night, on, call, for, a, long, long, time, nothing, why, is, it, as, soon, as, you, employ, a, locum, as, an, extra, pair, of, hands, the, work, disappears, still, it, will, given, everyone, a, chance, to, have, a, breather, said, good, bye, to, the, canadians, and, mother, in, law, we, are, heading, over, to, ireland, to, see, the, irish, side, of, the, family, at, easter, so, we, will, see, vet, friend, again, soon, but, it, was, funny, saying, goodbye, all, the, same, don’t, know, why, was, doing, a, herd, health, plan, today, for, a, farm, that, has, 50, dairy, cows, he, said, he, did, not, really, know, why, he, is, doing, it, as, he, is, going, to, give, up, and, go, and, milk, for, some, one, else, as, it, is, not, viable, to, make, it, pay, on, that, sort, of, small, scale, friday, 28th, haven’t, got, the, workload, right, at, all, i, think, the, sunshine, has, sent, the, farmers, into, the, fields, to, work, and, the, lambs, and, calves, are, all, arriving, un, aided, in, to, the, sunshine, it, is, amazing, how, the, good, weather, makes, you, feel, so, much, better, so, i, have, booked, in, extra, testing, for, next, week, the, only, slightly, sad, thing, was, talking, to, one, of, the, farmers, who, had, just, started, lambing, i, was, taking, out, rotten, lambs, that, were, aborting, 2, weeks, earlier, it, is, his, first, season, actually, lambing, as, he, only, bought, in, fat, sheep, last, year, he, said, that, it, was, at, this, stage, 2, years, ago, that, they, came, and, took, all, his, sheep, he, should, not, have, let, them, do, it, it, was, wrong, and, he, had, not, put, up, a, fight, he, had, just, gone, along, with, it, he, was, fairly, melancholic, about, it, i, tried, to, point, out, that, every, one, had, done, it, and, it, had, seemed, to, be, best, thing, to, do, at, the, time, i, did, not, think, that, pointing, out, i, had, not, been, convinced, and, argued, against, it, and, that, only, 2, out, of, 10,000, blood, samples, of, live, sheep, slaughtered, had, been, exposed, to, the, virus, would, have, helped, they, were, my, granddads, flock, he, said, now, we, have, all, these, problems, he, says, looking, at, the, dead, lambs, i, have, just, pulled, out, lying, in, a, heap, in, the, corner, of, the, trailer, you, never, forget, something, like, that, lad, he, says, never, there, are, a, lot, of, anniversaries, to, go, through, and, all, the, farmers, are, saying, the, fun, has, gone, out, of, it, saturday, 29th, march, the, beautiful, weather, is, carrying, on, and, wife, and, i, had, a, child, free, vet, student, free, afternoon, the, sun, was, out, and, we, went, down, for, a, walk, along, this, side, of, bassenthwaite, lake, there, were, lots, of, daffodils, out, and, a, light, breeze, off, the, lake, it, was, beautiful, cool, sunny, day, for, walking, and, very, pleasant, we, really, enjoyed, it, son, and, a, are, on, the, young, peoples, church, w, e, at, edinburgh, and, will, arrive, back, exhausted, from, lack, of, sleep, the, js, had, the, boys, for, the, afternoon, so, it, was, good, met, up, with, friends, in, the, evening, and, spent, the, evening, putting, agriculture, to, rights, he, sells, manages, sales, of, fertiliser, for, norsk, hydro, sunday, mothering, sunday, was, a, bit, of, a, disaster, with, out, a, to, organise, the, boys, and, i, hadn’t, had, time, to, get, them, organised, church, was, r, j, on, the, beatitudes, then, met, up, with, cs, and, went, up, bow, scale, fell, son’s, friend, and, son, complained, the, whole, way, they, were, in, really, bad, form, and, i, was, fed, up, with, them, monday, the, work, has, dried, up, completely, which, for, this, time, of, year, is, unheard, of, we, have, employed, a, locum, to, try, and, get, the, testing, done, and, no, work, for, every, one, to, do, embarrassingly, got, it, wrong, usually, at, this, time, of, year, there, is, no, testing, and, the, vets, are, running, around, like, idiots, not, very, good, news, for, us, so, wrote, letters, to, the, head, of, contingency, planning, at, page, st, to, amuse, you, i, have, copied, it, here, name, defra, rm, 803a, 1a, page, st, london, sw1p, 4pq, dear, name, i, am, writing, to, thank, you, for, travelling, north, to, carlisle, to, come, to, speak, to, the, recent, lvi, meeting, at, hadrian, house, carlisle, i, have, also, been, reading, the, defra, contingency, plan, and, a, lot, of, lessons, do, seem, to, have, been, learnt, i, appreciate, this, years, deadline, has, been, passed, to, place, it, before, parliament, but, it, is, a, living, document, my, apologies, but, better, late, than, never, i, would, like, to, make, a, few, comments, as, one, of, the, early, tvi, volunteers, at, carlisle, and, as, a, partner, of, one, of, the, practices, at, the, eye, of, the, storm, 1, the, whole, issue, of, valuation, of, animals, taken, as, a, compulsory, purchase, by, the, state, for, the, benefit, of, the, farming, community, to, eradicate, disease, has, not, been, addressed, one, of, the, initial, problems, slowing, the, slaughter, of, infected, animals, was, the, valuation, my, own, view, then, and, now, is, that, a, simple, standard, valuation, must, be, applied, it, must, be, high, enough, to, be, an, incentive, to, reporting, of, disease, but, too, low, to, make, the, possibility, of, disease, seem, financially, attractive, the, price, for, compulsory, purchase, may, be, set, higher, for, dangerous, contacts, or, less, for, affected, animals, if, there, is, a, simple, standard, value, then, the, diagnosing, vet, counts, the, number, of, bovines, and, shoots, them, the, farmer, knows, in, advance, what, compensation, is, going, to, be, paid, and, individual, animals, of, high, merit, could, be, insured, for, whatever, sum, the, farmer, is, willing, to, pay, premiums, for, this, may, be, an, unpopular, nettle, but, it, needs, to, be, grasped, even, though, i, am, sure, my, clients, would, disapprove, of, it, the, current, tuberculosis, problems, are, again, high, lighting, the, problems, in, this, area, there, should, be, a, standard, procedure, and, valuation, for, all, notifiable, diseases, and, the, values, based, on, the, last, mid, market, rate, there, are, apocryphal, stories, that, the, valuers, are, still, running, the, system, for, their, clients, the, farmers, not, defra, 2, the, second, issue, that, has, not, been, addressed, is, the, tracings, system, with, the, advent, of, the, british, cattle, movement, services, i, was, under, the, impression, that, traceability, was, a, central, part, of, government, policy, it, was, with, some, incredulity, that, in, response, to, questioning, at, the, lvi, meeting, we, were, told, that, bcms, cannot, give, a, list, of, movements, on, or, off, a, holding, so, tracings, for, tb, are, still, being, done, by, a, defra, vet, trawling, through, a, farmers, movement, book, why, if, the, political, will, was, there, at, the, touch, of, a, bottom, the, data, base, should, be, able, to, generate, a, list, of, animals, moved, in, the, past, 6, months, which, markets, they, have, been, through, and, which, holdings, they, have, been, through, if, this, cannot, be, done, for, tb, you, can, forget, trying, to, do, it, for, fmd, or, other, fast, contagious, disease, there, is, still, a, confusion, over, the, database, which, should, be, based, on, holding, numbers, several, farmers, have, multiple, holding, numbers, several, have, a, single, holding, number, and, multiple, sites, high, genetic, merit, animals, may, have, several, owners, a, single, holding, may, have, stock, from, several, different, farms, the, rules, for, cph, numbers, need, to, be, re, evaluated, centrally, if, a, data, base, is, to, be, of, use, it, must, be, actively, managed, and, updated, that, can, only, be, done, at, a, local, level, 3, disposal, i, know, that, this, has, been, looked, at, but, farm, sizes, are, continuing, to, grow, at, an, ever, more, rapid, rate, the, average, size, of, dairy, farms, in, this, area, has, grown, by, 20, cows, since, fmd, this, means, there, will, be, a, bigger, disposal, problem, as, individual, farms, will, have, more, and, more, stock, 4, the, local, office, should, have, stores, to, equip, 20, tvis, at, 24hours, notice, we, touched, on, this, point, at, the, meeting, was, the, need, for, sudden, recruitment, of, tvi, or, other, veterinary, staff, while, the, svs, can, second, small, numbers, of, vets, for, short, term, availability, there, was, a, reluctance, by, some, dvms, to, second, staff, who, may, yet, be, required, in, their, own, areas, local, lvis, can, provide, veterinary, cover, but, the, whole, structure, of, large, animal, practice, is, in, flux, and, it, may, or, may, not, be, possible, to, provide, veterinary, inspections, on, an, allocated, on, a, temporary, or, part, time, basis, the, pay, and, conditions, for, such, assistance, need, addressed, and, agreed, the, other, part, of, this, is, orientation, training, at, the, local, levels, this, by, the, end, of, the, outbreak, at, carlisle, was, quite, impressive, however, has, that, information, been, put, together, centrally, should, there, be, a, central, trainer, who, trains, designated, trainers, for, each, svs, office, decc, similarly, with, lay, blood, samplers, vaccinators, again, local, practices, could, provide, nominated, nurses, lay, staff, for, training, during, the, out, break, here, ai, personnel, were, used, very, effectively, for, blood, sampling, and, other, procedures, is, this, again, something, for, the, local, plan, but, if, the, cost, for, training, ai, staff, in, blood, sampling, was, met, centrally, it, would, encourage, a, register, of, trained, personnel, to, be, maintained, locally, the, cumbria, county, council, inquiry, recommends, the, use, of, its, emergency, centre, as, a, hub, for, multi, agency, response, to, any, disease, out, break, should, there, be, some, joined, up, government, so, that, each, county, council, as, part, of, its, contingency, plan, provides, for, an, admin, back, up, for, any, emergency, civil, disaster, terrorist, incident, and, do, the, local, plans, make, use, of, this, my, main, concern, however, is, that, when, i, asked, at, that, meeting, had, the, two, way, communications, between, page, st, and, carlisle, been, sorted, out, it, was, met, by, nervous, laughter, i, would, like, to, emphasise, that, page, st, did, not, know, what, was, going, on, in, the, field, during, fmd, outbreak, there, was, a, communication, barrier, between, the, vets, in, the, field, and, carlisle, management, and, a, huge, gulf, between, carlisle, and, page, street, i, would, plead, that, this, is, addressed, as, the, culture, identified, by, iain, anderson, still, seems, to, prevail, i, quote, a, culture, predisposed, to, decision, making, by, committee, with, an, associated, fear, of, personal, risk, taking, such, a, climate, does, not, encourage, creative, initiative, it, inhibits, adaptive, behaviour, and, organisational, learning, which, over, time, lowers, the, quality, of, the, decisions, taken, it, seems, to, me, that, a, reappraisal, of, prevailing, attitudes, and, behaviours, within, the, department, would, be, beneficial, it, may, be, outside, your, remit, but, the, northumberland, report, with, its, flow, charts, and, recommendations, actually, lists, lessons, to, be, learned, in, dec, 1969, the, one, about, the, svs, who, fared, so, poorly, in, fmd, 2001, states, we, have, considered, the, recruitment, problem, of, the, state, veterinary, service, the, reasons, maybe, the, low, initial, salary, or, in, part, the, to, the, nature, of, the, duties, within, the, service, we, consider, it, important, for, future, development, that, the, ministry, of, agriculture, should, attract, a, greater, number, of, good, young, graduates, willing, to, make, a, career, in, the, service, at, the, end, of, any, plan, are, the, people, who, are, going, to, implement, it, they, need, well, managed, well, led, and, given, the, resources, to, carry, out, the, task, they, need, to, have, confidence, in, both, the, political, and, civil, service, leadership, there, will, need, to, be, a, risk, management, of, tasks, for, financial, reasons, resource, reasons, and, for, the, wider, rural, economy, this, requires, flexible, decision, makers, who, are, prepared, to, take, risks, and, stick, their, head, above, the, collective, parapet, i, hope, that, this, provides, a, few, more, thoughts, for, you, to, work, on, yours, sincerely, refs, fmd, 2001, lessons, learned, enquiry, forward, by, chairman, iain, anderson, p7, northumberland, report, presented, to, parliament, dec, 69, part, 2, section, 47, she, spoke, at, the, last, lvi, meeting, and, as, usual, the, plans, sound, good, but, where, reality, hits, is, in, the, delivery, tuesday, did, some, small, animal, work, and, more, testing, tues, evening, always, seems, a, rush, went, to, gym, and, then, on, to, n’s, for, the, new, frontiers, church, meeting, which, was, excellent, weds, managed, some, fertility, work, in, the, morning, and, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, bringing, the, practice, database, up, to, date, it, has, been, let, go, since, foot, and, mouth, as, it, tell, us, how, much, stock, each, farm, has, the, numbers, have, been, all, over, the, place, as, people, have, been, restocking, and, changing, the, direction, their, businesses, are, going, some, moving, out, some, moving, up, in, numbers, and, some, going, from, dairy, to, beef, or, sheep, the, most, interesting, thing, was, the, fact, that, a, lot, of, farms, that, had, restocked, with, adult, animals, have, dropped, by, 5, 10, cows, since, they, restocked, as, older, cows, are, lost, or, ill, cows, go, but, there, are, not, the, young, stock, replacements, coming, through, to, replace, them, the, actual, figures, for, dairy, farms, restocking, are, not, yet, entered, in, the, computer, i, was, hoping, to, have, them, but, will, get, them, thursday, did, some, small, animals, and, some, otm22, but, it, still, incredibly, quiet, consequently, i, have, booked, in, a, lot, more, work, for, the, next, few, weeks, so, i, hope, i, don’t, get, it, wrong, the, other, way, set, up, anne, a, vet, student, for, her, project, on, comparing, fertility, pre, and, post, fmd, finished, off, updating, the, database, figures, so, they, will, hopefully, get, entered, over, next, few, days, and, we, can, do, some, comparisons, march, figures, look, ok, but, the, long, term, out, look, is, not, so, good, the, govt, is, doing, a, committee, looking, at, farm, animal, vet, practice, the, lakeland, bva, have, asked, for, comments, efracom, inquiry, into, vets, and, veterinary, services, efracom, is, a, defra, committee, terms, of, reference, are, to, look, at, the, provision, of, farm, veterinary, services, in, england, and, wales, in, particular, it, will, look, at, 1, what, impact, current, levels, of, farm, income, are, having, on, the, usage, of, veterinary, services, and, in, turn, what, effect, any, reduction, in, the, usage, of, such, services, is, having, on, the, number, of, practices, dealing, with, large, animals, 2, what, effect, any, reduction, in, the, usage, of, veterinary, services, and, a, shortage, of, large, animal, vets, is, having, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, the, effectiveness, of, surveillance, for, animal, diseases, 3, whether, the, requirements, placed, on, farmers, by, government, including, those, in, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, are, realisable, in, such, circumstances, and, 4, what, is, the, impact, on, the, work, of, the, state, veterinary, service, comments, by, 12, april, please, the, day, ended, with, the, reading, of, a, tb, test, on, a, farm, that, was, hoping, to, become, clear, after, going, down, when, it, first, restocked, 18months, ago, 1, reactor, and, 1, i, r, on, normal, interpretation, they, will, probably, take, both, on, severe, interpretation, the, government, always, looks, as, though, problems, are, dealt, with, in, isolation, the, defra, vet, who, looks, after, our, practice, is, not, dealing, with, this, case, as, his, daughter, is, married, to, her, brother, the, farming, community, is, very, incestuous, friday, work, desperately, quiet, so, i, organised, more, testing, to, do, i, hope, i, haven’t, over, booked, the, work, defra, vets, at, carlisle, are, still, learning, the, ropes, when, it, come, s, to, tb, as, it, has, been, so, rare, in, this, part, of, the, world, so, a, few, of, the, allocations, have, been, wrong, so, i, am, having, to, go, back, and, do, extra, animals, so, that, set, can, be, signed, off, the, school, held, a, curry, evening, tonight, which, for, a, cumbrian, village, school, is, very, cosmopolitan, there, is, an, extended, family, of, three, pakistani, families, and, they, cooked, though, for, the, children, there, was, also, a, bangers, and, chips, option, it, was, quite, a, nice, time, though, wife, was, on, her, next, level, counselling, course, so, i, ended, up, just, with, kids, but, it, was, good, to, spend, time, with, them, i, have, enjoyed, not, working, many, w, e’s, recently, it, kind, of, gives, you, your, life, back, that, and, not, doing, much, at, work, saturday, 5th, april, 2003, wife, was, at, her, level, 2, course, counselling, so, i, had, the, kids, for, the, w, e, took, son, to, squash, went, into, town, for, some, bits, and, pieces, and, then, i, chatted, to, i, while, we, waited, for, t, and, son, to, finish, then, took, all, the, kids, into, town, we, are, having, a, mothers, day, tomorrow, to, make, up, for, the, fact, l, a, were, away, for, the, w, e, last, week, the, kids, have, bought, presents, and, made, cards, which, was, nice, the, cs, and, friend, came, for, lunch, and, then, spent, a, very, muddy, afternoon, by, the, pond, playing, and, building, dens, and, generally, making, a, mess, and, having, fun, son, even, decided, showers, were, in, order, when, he, came, back, that, shows, you, how, dirty, they, were, as, he, is, mr, allergic, to, water, i, made, a, fondue, for, tea, with, apple, juice, as, the, kids, don’t, like, the, kick, of, the, wine, it, was, a, great, success, and, did, taste, rather, good, even, if, i, do, say, so, myself, sunday, i, went, to, church, on, my, own, as, wife, was, heading, out, again, after, an, early, lunch, the, talk, was, on, god’s, leading, which, is, always, relevant, the, kids, were, great, fun, on, the, way, back, and, full, of, craic, they, had, a, return, trip, to, the, cs, as, they, were, too, late, to, find, a, sky, tv, for, the, match, carlisle, lost, as, usual, but, it, is, not, every, week, they, lose, at, the, millennium, stadium, i, picked, the, kids, up, from, the, cs, and, put, all, their, bikes, on, the, back, of, the, car, went, to, say, good, bye, to, cs, in, the, meantime, three, of, their, boys, were, hiding, in, the, boot, of, the, car, so, they, let, me, drive, out, with, them, before, the, giggles, and, laughter, gave, the, game, away, so, it, caused, much, merriment, all, round, met, up, with, the, lads, sunday, night, felt, really, sorry, for, one, guy, who, is, having, real, problems, getting, access, to, his, 7, year, old, as, his, ex, wife, is, putting, a, lot, of, ve, input, into, the, wee, one, he, can, go, down, the, legal, route, but, will, be, expensive, and, probably, counter, productive, as, she, is, not, wanting, to, negotiate, or, look, at, what, is, best, for, the, wee, girl, it, seems, a, real, mess, monday, in, spite, of, 4, tests, the, work, is, not, there, i, spent, the, day, testing, though, it, is, really, quite, amusing, as, i, know, the, guy’s, sister, quite, well, and, i, always, make, sure, i, tell, her, how, much, the, good, lunch, is, appreciated, so, there, builds, up, a, rivalry, between, them, as, to, who, can, provide, the, vet, with, the, best, food, i, am, afraid, i, consciously, flame, the, rivalry, in, spite, of, it, not, doing, my, waistline, any, good, trying, to, concentrate, after, a, three, course, lunch, on, a, boring, job, is, not, easy, you, just, have, to, think, about, coffee, time, and, more, cakes, and, tray, bakes, all, of, them, distinctly, unhealthy, with, the, aim, of, feeding, out, door, manual, labour, tuesday, had, a, bad, night, as, my, hand, was, caught, in, the, crush, yesterday, by, a, stirk, throwing, its, head, and, it, bent, the, finger, back, it, seemed, ok, but, is, now, throbbing, like, mad, plenty, of, aspirin, and, corticosteroids, did, some, ferty, and, then, saw, another, lda, the, cows, seem, to, be, having, a, real, problem, with, the, feed, this, spring, as, we, have, seen, 3, 4, times, the, normal, number, went, running, with, a, as, my, finger, meant, i, could, not, go, to, gym, to, work, machines, weds, the, speed, cameras, have, arrived, on, the, top, road, and, unfortunately, i, was, going, too, fast, by, the, time, i, saw, it, so, i, will, probably, have, another, 3, points, on, my, licence, they, have, been, building, pads, on, the, side, of, the, road, all, along, the, a595, as, it, has, a, really, bad, record, for, car, accidents, the, numbers, killed, continues, to, go, up, the, speed, cameras, are, in, a, van, which, can, move, around, and, hence, trap, the, speeders, it, is, called, casualty, reduction, unit, a, bit, of, a, pointed, message, even, if, you, did, slow, down, for, them, work, is, slow, again, today, with, no, tb, testing, on, mid, week, days, it, is, my, brother’s, birthday, in, nz, and, he, sent, a, letter, to, say, he, is, going, to, be, a, dad, again, so, the, trip, to, come, across, at, xmas, is, off, he, is, wanting, us, to, all, go, there, hm, maybe, thursday, i, has, had, 2, reactors, and, 4, i, rs, today, so, the, future, is, not, looking, good, for, him, as, it, looks, like, there, will, be, tb, there, he, has, had, real, problems, since, the, herd, restocked, with, lung, worm, energy, problems, in, the, silage, and, atrocious, fertility, he, is, going, to, have, to, go, and, buy, another, 30, odd, replacements, at, 800, to, replace, those, that, he, has, lost, through, ill, health, and, fertility, makes, the, compensation, payments, seem, pretty, small, that’s, 24k, he, has, lost, out, on, already, and, his, own, heifers, are, only, coming, up, to, be, served, work, is, busy, and, i, wonder, if, the, spring, rush, is, coming, i, was, supposed, to, be, at, the, school, parents, evening, but, got, called, out, which, was, pretty, irritating, i, hate, the, fact, that, you, are, just, so, unreliable, when, you, are, on, call, friday, another, tb, testing, day, so, busy, all, together, not, a, good, day, the, competition, report, is, out, and, is, fairly, damning, as, expected, so, the, pressure, on, drug, margins, is, going, to, continue, and, the, old, fashioned, way, of, providing, a, complete, service, will, be, going, out, the, window, we, will, have, to, charge, for, the, out, of, hours, and, on, call, the, telephone, advice, and, try, to, make, it, pay, but, the, whole, economics, of, going, out, to, see, a, single, ill, animal, will, be, gone, the, clinical, skills, of, veterinarians, will, be, gone, all, academic, as, the, cost, for, diagnosing, a, single, animal, in, the, new, era, will, be, too, much, so, the, diagnosis, will, all, be, done, by, post, mortem, of, herd, problems, but, if, you, have, large, herds, the, man, power, will, not, be, there, to, look, after, the, individual, ill, animal, sad, depressing, day, but, i, am, off, for, the, w, e, saturday, 12th, april, 2003, woke, up, early, and, got, up, even, though, it, is, my, day, for, a, lie, in, i, think, i, am, particularly, wound, up, it, all, ways, takes, me, at, least, one, day, to, wind, down, from, work, so, i, am, tired, and, yet, not, feeling, able, to, rest, took, son, to, football, and, other, son, to, buy, anew, bike, he, was, so, excited, it, is, his, birthday, coming, up, and, he, has, out, grown, his, old, one, so, it, will, be, good, for, him, the, kids, spend, ages, flying, around, the, yard, on, bikes, and, up, and, down, the, field, when, the, grass, is, short, they, have, a, real, ball, here, it, is, a, great, place, to, grow, up, as, they, have, so, much, freedom, to, play, and, play, and, play, my, finger, that, was, caught, tb, testing, started, throbbing, again, this, afternoon, so, as, it, had, improved, and, then, got, worse, i, decided, i, had, to, get, it, x, rayed, so, i, spent, the, afternoon, in, casualty, waiting, to, get, x, rayed, and, then, waiting, for, another, hour, before, being, told, it, was, not, broken, a, five, minute, consultation, that, took, me, almost, 2, hours, friends, were, up, for, the, w, e, more, friends, are, at, capernwray, bible, college, for, an, easter, youth, thing, so, they, came, on, up, so, it, was, good, to, catch, up, sunday, cooked, lunch, for, everyone, and, then, went, to, communion, it, was, dire, and, reminded, me, why, i, don’t, usually, bother, spent, the, afternoon, putting, onions, in, and, tidying, in, the, garden, it, is, incredibly, dry, and, warm, amazing, really, the, 6, kids, spent, the, whole, afternoon, messing, around, at, the, pond, and, were, disgusting, with, mud, everywhere, and, trailed, all, up, the, yard, and, wellies, abandoned, everywhere, church, was, dm, speaking, and, then, the, yps, came, back, to, ours, afterwards, mind, you, i, think, i, had, had, enough, kids, for, the, time, being, but, i, was, ok, monday, bad, haircut, day, as, there, is, only, one, day, we, can, test, this, week, i, booked, in, fair, amount, which, would, have, been, tight, but, aw, was, off, ill, so, we, were, too, tight, so, a, few, ops, have, been, put, off, until, tomorrow, d, has, a, s, african, vet, friend, visiting, so, with, him, and, the, vet, student, the, house, is, still, full, i, however, am, knackered, and, not, feeling, sociable, had, a, horrendous, calving, it, is, not, often, i, cannot, calve, a, cow, but, i, am, afraid, after, an, hour, i, gave, up, and, caesared, it, the, calf, was, dead, and, rotten, so, whether, she, will, do, i, don’t, know, i, did, not, want, to, caesarean, but, that, is, life, it, was, either, that, or, the, farmer, pay, 60, to, get, some, one, to, take, it, away, after, i, euthed, it, tuesday, we, are, in, the, period, of, anniversaries, it, is, 2, years, since, the, ls, went, down, i, was, at, a, farm, which, did, not, get, fmd, and, his, uncles, did, he, was, saying, what, a, sad, day, it, was, so, his, uncles, must, be, feeling, it, more, the, beautiful, spring, weather, with, the, grass, growing, in, spite, of, the, frosts, definitely, puts, a, bounce, in, to, your, step, on, days, like, this, i, think, that, it, is, an, excellent, life, wandering, around, the, countryside, and, enjoying, the, scenery, the, farms, the, animals, and, the, farmers, beats, working, in, a, factory, any, way, went, to, the, gym, and, felt, a, lot, better, for, it, exercise, is, a, great, way, of, getting, a, buzz, but, you, have, to, be, not, too, tired, to, a, get, there, and, b, enjoy, it, i, have, gone, often, because, i, feel, i, should, and, just, felt, like, a, steam, roller, had, run, over, me, and, its, taken, a, day, or, two, to, recover, balance, in, all, things, weds, the, commission, report, came, out, today, difficult, to, believe, that, they, will, be, able, to, implement, it, but, having, lived, through, the, fmd, there, were, quite, a, few, things, i, thought, that, they, would, not, be, able, to, implement, but, they, did, we, will, have, to, if, the, minister, decides, and, since, it, is, dti, not, defra, i, think, that, the, implementation, may, be, effective, provide, prescriptions, free, of, charge, provide, our, clients, with, a, list, of, pharmacies, agricultural, suppliers, and, other, vets, and, web, sites, that, will, meet, those, prescriptions, the, cost, of, the, most, commonly, prescribed, medicines, in, the, previous, quarter, the, cross, subsidy, of, professional, fees, by, pharmaceuticals, will, not, be, allowed, and, how, will, the, pharmacist, make, his, money, the, other, comment, which, did, irk, me, some, what, was, that, the, provision, of, 24, hour, cover, does, not, seem, that, onerous, i, do, not, often, swear, but, really, very, depressed, but, daughter, came, on, a, caesaer, with, me, as, i, was, on, call, tonight, it, is, really, nice, working, from, home, and, being, able, to, take, them, with, me, it, is, a, very, healthy, thing, to, do, she, is, growing, up, and, is, very, much, the, young, lady, the, farmers, wife, is, the, dental, receptionist, and, of, course, said, hello, a, she, was, thrown, as, of, course, being, out, of, context, she, could, not, figure, how, the, farmers, wife, knew, who, she, was, thursday, good, friday, it, is, son’s, b’day, today, and, the, day, started, out, great, for, him, i, was, on, duty, and, he, arrived, in, our, bedroom, at, 7am, with, the, other, 2, boys, to, start, on, the, birthday, celebrations, our, family, tradition, is, that, they, have, breakfast, in, bed, in, our, bed, don’t, know, why, but, that, is, what, happens, the, others, all, brought, cards, and, presents, in, the, phone, went, and, it, was, a, lambing, so, tim, decided, he, would, come, and, see, the, lambs, being, born, so, he, was, thrilled, we, opened, the, presents, later, on, which, included, a, new, boiler, suit, which, really, thrilled, him, it, is, amazing, what, kids, think, of, as, their, best, present, i, never, really, like, working, good, friday, i, always, think, one, year, i, will, be, off, and, go, to, one, of, the, contemplative, services, hebron, being, low, church, never, really, does, anything, like, that, which, is, a, real, shame, easter, is, when, i, think, the, cathedrals, old, country, churches, and, the, church, architecture, can, really, be, helpful, in, stopping, and, praying, and, helping, to, consider, what, jesus, did, on, the, cross, finished, work, and, went, up, to, the, friends, they, were, both, home, and, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, played, rounders, and, had, a, barbeque, which, was, really, nice, james, was, in, really, good, form, as, he, was, enjoying, being, back, away, from, london, where, he, has, just, started, work, as, a, high, flying, lawyer, he, is, not, enjoying, london, very, much, he, is, a, hills, and, countryside, lad, his, girlfriend, was, also, there, so, was, quite, a, good, craic, i, didn’t, really, want, to, come, home, but, was, so, knackered, that, it, was, probably, just, as, well, the, kids, were, with, us, and, it, was, not, a, too, late, a, night, saturday, 19th, april, 2004, spent, most, of, the, day, either, catching, up, on, sleep, or, on, the, day, to, day, things, that, seem, to, have, been, put, to, one, side, for, a, while, there, was, also, the, preparations, for, the, service, tomorrow, we, are, taking, the, easter, sunday, morning, service, which, is, one, of, those, night, mare, services, where, everyone, comes, the, age, range, is, from, 0, to, 100, and, everyone, has, different, expectations, i, should, explain, that, the, normal, sunday, services, are, very, different, there, is, the, family, focus, which, is, lively, and, very, informal, aimed, at, those, with, young, children, who, go, to, sunday, school, there, is, then, teaching, for, parents, adults, there, is, always, a, lot, of, noise, children, running, around, babies, crying, and, shakers, and, children’s, songs, the, communion, service, that, follows, is, very, traditional, silence, and, solemnity, rules, all, the, older, generation, go, and, it, is, a, very, different, service, so, we, are, going, to, be, combining, the, two, oil, and, water, a, lot, of, prayer, has, gone, in, to, this, one, sunday, wife, got, up, at, 6, am, to, go, to, the, sunrise, service, at, the, crematorium, she, said, she, needed, some, input, before, the, easter, service, we, are, leading, it, is, a, service, organised, by, st, james, parish, church, but, all, the, carlisle, churches, are, asked, to, take, part, christiana, had, asked, to, go, so, wife, went, with, her, and, it, was, really, good, christ, is, risen, he, is, risen, indeed, the, sermon, was, by, the, archdeacon, from, the, cathedral, who, said, that, being, a, good, anglican, he, wanted, some, liturgy, through, his, sermon, so, every, time, he, said, are, you, dead, the, congregation, had, to, reply, no, alive, in, christ, at, which, point, he, would, sound, a, hooter, the, service, at, hebron, went, very, well, oh, ye, of, little, faith, i, should, pray, more, and, worry, less, i, have, included, our, outline, below, and, i, have, put, in, additional, comments, in, blue, easter, sunday, service, welcome, to, hebron, evangelical, church, this, easter, sunday, morning, when, we, are, celebrating, jesus, is, alive, our, opening, hymn, is, our, declaration, that, jesus, is, alive, he, has, risen, from, the, dead, opening, hymn, we, believe, in, god, the, father, welcome, intro, me, and, welcome, team, this, morning, the, service, is, in, a, different, order, from, usual, we, are, going, to, remember, what, jesus, has, done, for, us, on, the, cross, and, bruce, beattie, one, of, our, elders, is, going, to, help, explain, what, the, bread, and, wine, mean, to, us, as, some, of, the, children, may, not, have, been, here, for, a, communion, service, before, then, after, taking, communion, we, are, going, to, celebrate, jesus, resurrection, with, reading, singing, and, sharing, the, resurrection, is, the, central, part, to, our, faith, who, knows, what, that, long, word, resurrection, means, the, answers, from, the, kids, were, quite, amusing, but, we, got, there, in, the, end, at, the, end, of, the, service, there, will, be, the, offering, an, opportunity, to, give, our, money, as, well, as, ourselves, to, the, living, god, if, during, the, service, the, young, children, get, fed, up, there, is, a, place, at, the, back, where, they, can, do, some, making, things, it, isn’t, easy, to, sit, still, when, you, are, little, or, be, quiet, so, please, don’t, worry, about, the, little, ones, being, a, distraction, i, often, wonder, what, it, was, like, when, jesus, fed, the, 5000plus, crowd, do, you, think, the, children, all, sat, neat, and, quiet, in, rows, i, don’t, think, so, we, are, pleased, to, see, them, and, hear, them, this, is, a, time, of, family, worship, from, the, youngest, to, the, oldest, reading, psalm, 67, i, had, this, up, on, a, power, point, and, we, read, it, together, may, god, be, gracious, to, us, and, bless, us, and, make, his, face, shine, upon, us, that, your, ways, may, be, known, on, earth, your, salvation, among, all, nations, may, the, peoples, praise, you, o, god, may, all, the, peoples, praise, you, may, the, nations, be, glad, and, sing, for, joy, for, you, rule, the, people, justly, and, guide, the, nations, of, the, earth, may, the, peoples, praise, you, o, god, may, all, the, peoples, praise, you, then, the, land, will, yield, its, harvest, and, god, our, god, will, bless, us, god, will, bless, us, and, all, the, ends, of, the, earth, will, fear, him, psalm, 67, prayer, m, as, we, sing, this, next, hymn, it, would, be, good, if, the, children, came, to, sit, at, the, front, so, that, b, can, see, you, all, when, he, talks, to, you, hymn, when, i, survey, the, wondrous, cross, communion, b, b, gave, an, excellent, talk, about, remembering, he, included, a, diary, and, a, kitchen, timer, which, he, set, to, go, of, at, the, carefully, timed, point, in, his, little, bit, he, then, used, smarties, to, go, through, the, easter, story, and, the, different, colours, i, wish, i, had, it, written, down, we, then, had, communion, and, he, had, smarties, for, the, kids, so, that, they, could, remember, about, the, easter, story, while, the, adults, took, communion, and, remembered, christ’s, death, and, resurrection, forgiveness, is, a, wonderful, thing, we, have, just, been, remembering, what, jesus, did, for, us, on, the, cross, he, died, for, us, what, incredible, love, but, thankfully, the, gospel, doesn’t, end, there, son, a, and, cerise, are, going, to, read, on, reading, and, luke, 24, vs, 1, 12, they, did, a, brilliant, dramatic, reading, an, empty, tomb, lets, sing, god’s, not, dead, he, is, alive, sing, it, twice, and, use, the, instruments, at, the, front, to, make, a, joyful, noise, we, want, you, to, have, a, little, taste, of, what, it, was, like, to, be, around, that, day, and, so, let’s, listen, in, to, mary, magdalene, chatting, on, the, phone, to, well, you, listen, and, see, who, she, is, talking, to, wife, did, a, sketch, about, mary, talking, on, the, phone, to, marta, having, met, the, risen, jesus, she, was, very, good, really, gave, the, facts, to, a, contemporary, feel, hymn, led, like, a, lamb, to, the, slaughter, in, the, second, verse, would, children, come, to, help, we, have, verses, to, give, out, to, the, big, people, and, i’d, like, you, to, help, give, them, out, making, sure, all, the, big, people, get, one, for, the, children, who, may, not, be, able, to, read, yet, we, have, some, coloured, stones, to, remind, you, of, a, huge, stone, that, was, rolled, away, when, jesus, rose, from, the, dead, you, can, keep, it, in, your, pocket, or, somewhere, special, to, remind, you, that, jesus, is, alive, and, he, wants, to, be, with, you, where, ever, you, go, a, had, made, up, tiny, scrolls, with, verses, about, the, resurrection, which, the, kids, all, gave, out, it, kept, the, wee, ones, busy, and, also, gave, everyone, a, verse, to, think, about, isn’t, it, wonderful, to, know, that, we, are, singing, he’s, alive, he, has, risen, and, all, over, the, world, the, church, is, singing, the, same, message, in, revelation, we, get, a, little, glimpse, into, what, it, will, be, like, in, heaven, with, a, new, song, being, sung, to, jesus, christ, close, your, eyes, and, listen, to, what, it, says, rev, 5, vs, 9, 11, we, have, the, privilege, in, hebron, of, having, a, few, representatives, of, different, language, people, and, nation, here, this, morning, let, us, listen, to, them, christ, is, risen, in, different, languages, and, prayer, we, then, had, one, family, say, it, in, arabic, another, in, german, there, is, a, philippino, girl, who, said, it, in, her, language, and, some, one, else, in, spanish, it, was, magical, introduce, lord, we, lift, your, name, on, high, sung, at, mizpah, orphanage, with, children, some, of, whom, had, just, heard, the, name, jesus, for, the, first, time, at, christmas, see, picture, we, need, helpers, to, do, the, actions, to, this, song, we, are, thankful, that, jesus, is, alive, and, so, he, speaks, guides, comforts, and, forgives, us, for, all, the, sin, the, mess, we, make, it, is, not, only, the, mary’s, and, the, peters, and, the, thomases, that, have, met, with, the, risen, lord, we, each, have, a, story, to, tell, of, walking, with, the, risen, lord, as, you, listen, to, some, people, here, sharing, a, bit, of, their, story, i, wonder, what, you, would, have, to, share, take, the, opportunity, to, day, to, share, what, god, is, teaching, you, where, he, is, changing, you, don’t, hide, behind, the, weather, or, holidays, share, your, journey, to, encourage, real, fellowship, end, in, prayer, over, top, song, and, offering, this, is, your, opportunity, to, offer, yourself, afresh, to, the, risen, lord, an, old, song, but, a, powerful, one, to, make, this, song, personal, to, you, choose, the, verse, where, you, will, stand, as, a, sign, of, your, offering, to, the, lord, band, will, play, it, through, twice, as, collection, taken, up, and, then, we, sing, it, if, you, want, to, sit, until, last, verse, when, we, sing, take, my, love, then, we, will, all, stand, for, last, verse, take, my, life, this, song, has, lots, of, parts, about, asking, god, to, take, and, use, different, parts, of, our, lives, songs, intellect, strength, money, etc, and, by, asking, people, to, stand, at, the, point, they, wanted, it, really, meant, they, stopped, and, offered, part, of, them, selves, back, to, god, in, response, to, the, resurrection, finish, with, thine, be, the, glory, the, service, went, really, well, people, came, and, said, how, well, it, had, gone, wife, spent, afternoon, packing, and, feeling, washed, out, giving, out, is, tiring, but, the, satisfaction, is, huge, mon, up, early, to, catch, the, boat, to, n, ireland, the, boat, was, not, too, busy, which, was, good, spent, the, boat, ride, filling, in, my, thoughts, on, the, future, of, large, animal, practice, for, the, efracom, enquiry, bought, lord, of, rings, part, 2, the, two, towers, as, i, am, wanting, to, re, read, it, having, seen, the, movie, so, that, is, my, holiday, reading, sorted, out, had, a, chance, when, we, got, there, to, sit, down, with, wife, s, parents, and, talk, through, our, future, which, was, good, as, campbell, usually, disappears, out, but, a, sit, is, a, bank, holiday, he, didn’t, they, were, fairly, up, beat, about, it, which, was, good, so, i, was, pleased, spent, the, evening, with, c, and, the, cousins, which, was, really, good, had, a, barbecue, and, chilled, out, c, was, not, really, surprised, at, the, news, as, agriculture, in, ni, is, going, through, a, bad, time, as, well, it, is, behind, the, uk, and, there, are, a, lot, of, small, uneconomic, family, farms, and, so, a, lot, of, consolidation, is, going, on, and, farmers, selling, up, tuesday, spent, the, morning, playing, squash, with, the, boys, which, w, as, great, fun, spent, the, afternoon, in, the, garden, trying, to, tidy, it, up, went, out, for, dinner, with, our, bridesmaid, who, has, also, just, handed, in, her, notice, or, rather, accepted, a, redundancy, package, it, must, be, catching, it, was, great, to, see, her, and, also, to, be, out, in, belfast, which, is, such, a, cosmopolitan, city, these, days, with, different, languages, cultures, and, nationalities, all, mixing, in, the, downtown, area, a, big, change, weds, went, to, the, new, exhibition, centre, in, the, docks, at, belfast, it, has, a, multiplex, and, a, science, exhibition, as, well, as, shops, and, restaurants, and, so, on, it, was, amazing, the, kids, could, have, spent, all, day, playing, on, the, exhibits, and, it, was, very, well, done, so, that, you, came, away, having, learnt, quite, a, lot, wife, now, believes, i, cannot, do, colours, as, i, am, easily, confused, by, them, there, was, one, exhibit, where, words, in, one, coloured, spelt, the, name, of, another, colour, i.e, the, word, was, spelt, y, e, l, l, o, w, but, it, was, red, in, colour, you, then, had, to, read, the, words, or, say, the, colours, and, i, just, could, not, do, it, my, brain, ended, up, really, confused, bought, flowers, and, stuff, for, the, garden, and, did, the, boxes, for, gran, went, out, to, dinner, at, rp, she, is, a, widow, who, is, wife, s, parents, age, but, is, so, much, fun, she, loves, giving, dinner, parties, and, having, folk, of, all, ages, around, she, gave, me, some, useful, addresses, there, are, lots, of, plans, for, wife, s, parents, golden, wedding, thursday, the, day, of, the, big, photo, shoot, wife, s, brother’s, father, in, law, is, a, photographer, and, while, we, were, all, together, wife, mum, wanted, a, photo, of, all, the, family, together, so, we, spent, an, hour, and, a, half, getting, positioned, and, photographed, 7, kids, and, 7, adults, and, a, very, pernickety, photographer, travel, back, on, the, boat, was, ok, but, came, back, to, find, that, everything, had, fused, and, that, the, phone, was, not, working, so, fixed, the, fuses, which, are, all, trips, thank, goodness, and, got, the, electrics, going, the, phone, could, not, fix, but, did, not, worry, while, we, were, away, there, had, been, a, lightning, strike, on, to, the, phone, line, up, the, road, and, it, had, fried, all, the, cables, one, of, the, neighbours, had, been, in, her, kitchen, and, the, phone, had, exploded, and, jumped, off, the, wall, it, has, left, scorch, marks, down, the, wall, i, am, just, glad, that, there, was, no, one, on, the, phone, at, the, time, the, other, unfortunate, thing, is, that, the, computer, was, attached, and, is, dead, as, a, dodo, friday, back, to, maelstrom, i, was, really, relaxed, going, back, in, to, work, and, it, lasted, for, may, be, half, an, hour, no, one, had, picked, up, on, any, of, my, admin, things, while, i, had, been, away, in, spite, of, asking, people, to, do, so, this, meant, i, had, to, start, and, get, things, organised, for, testing, the, rota, and, nestles, as, well, as, to, try, and, do, some, work, my, in, tray, is, a, mess, but, never, mind, i, also, had, to, complete, the, report, for, efracom, as, the, closing, date, is, today, i, hope, not, by, 5pm, the, report, was, actually, finished, by, 10, 15, and, was, e, mailed, off, i, would, like, to, have, polished, it, a, bit, more, but, the, schedule, today, was, not, conducive, during, the, evening, when, i, was, supposed, to, be, writing, it, i, had, a, casaers, and, a, foal, trying, to, die, at, farm, they, are, not, having, much, luck, as, they, have, had, horrendous, problems, with, restocking, they, are, also, under, tb2, i, enclose, a, copy, of, the, report, to, efracom, the, right, hon, michael, jack, mp, environment, food, and, rural, affairs, chairman, of, the, sub, committee, vets, and, veterinary, services, a, submission, summary, this, is, a, timely, review, of, farm, veterinary, services, i, would, submit, that, the, current, trends, in, veterinary, practice, are, likely, to, accelerate, rapidly, in, response, both, to, present, levels, of, farm, income, and, imminent, changes, in, veterinary, practice, in, this, submission, i, have, briefly, covered, the, following, areas, the, current, provision, of, veterinary, services, and, how, they, are, financed, current, trends, and, their, likely, impact, on, veterinary, services, the, effect, of, the, reduction, in, large, animal, clinicians, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, surveillance, the, feasibility, of, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, the, impact, on, the, svs, the, future, and, possible, outcomes, the, current, provision, of, veterinary, services, and, how, they, are, financed, the, income, for, rural, farm, veterinary, practice, that, provides, the, majority, of, veterinary, services, to, the, agricultural, industry, has, traditionally, come, from, 5, major, areas, clinical, services, examining, and, diagnosing, individual, animals, calvings, lambings, individual, surgery, routine, fertility, dehorning, and, castrating, traditional, on, farm, professional, fee, work, lvi, income, from, defra, maff, in, the, eradication, of, notifiable, disease, tuberculosis, brucellosis, anthrax, etc, many, practices, also, were, involved, with, meat, hygiene, and, inspections, at, abattoirs, the, dispensing, of, pharmaceuticals, the, provision, of, veterinary, advice, on, farm, management, and, welfare, the, majority, of, veterinary, partnerships, are, mixed, practices, a, consideration, must, be, given, to, the, fact, that, small, animal, work, makes, up, a, variable, proportion, of, the, work, and, income, to, veterinary, practice, it, is, my, opinion, that, clinical, farm, animal, practice, the, examining, and, diagnosing, of, individual, animals, is, already, uneconomic, for, both, the, veterinary, surgeon, and, the, farmer, it, is, only, happening, because, of, the, cross, subsidy, of, the, professional, fees, by, other, income, and, because, of, the, good, will, of, most, farmers, to, give, animals, a, chance, as, the, harsh, economics, are, coming, home, to, vets, and, farmers, this, is, rapidly, becoming, with, james, herriot, a, part, of, rural, history, current, trends, and, their, likely, impact, on, veterinary, services, what, are, the, current, trends, within, agriculture, and, veterinary, practice, and, what, effects, will, that, have, both, in, agriculture, and, farm, veterinary, practice, there, are, trends, that, can, be, identified, how, fast, how, far, these, trends, will, go, is, difficult, to, predict, but, my, own, experience, is, that, change, when, it, comes, change, is, often, slow, at, starting, but, then, dramatic, in, its, speed, the, effect, of, decoupling, and, other, eu, decisions, on, agriculture, are, unknown, but, the, current, trends, are, likely, to, continue, in, agriculture, farm, size, has, to, continue, to, grow, as, farms, make, less, and, less, per, animal, they, have, to, spread, costs, over, larger, and, larger, numbers, the, individual, value, of, each, animal, continues, to, drop, in, real, terms, efficiency, and, mechanisation, continues, to, increase, chicken, farms, are, now, routinely, 100,000, animals, plus, since, foot, and, mouth, disease, the, average, dairy, herd, size, has, increased, from, 90, to, 114, an, increase, of, 20, which, talking, to, many, dairy, farmers, is, only, going, to, increase, as, more, herds, are, going, to, be, 300, animals, these, increases, are, usually, with, out, an, increase, in, labour, on, the, farms, this, means, the, care, of, individual, animals, is, likely, to, be, less, important, but, the, care, of, the, overall, heath, of, the, herd, much, more, in, veterinary, practice, the, major, changes, are, likely, to, be, from, the, competition, inquiry, in, to, the, cost, of, pharmaceuticals, the, subsidy, of, professional, fees, by, sales, of, pharmaceuticals, has, been, an, increasing, trend, since, the, late, 60, s, then, professional, fees, were, subsidised, by, the, large, scale, eradication, schemes, by, maff, who, paid, very, good, fees, to, get, the, vets, on, the, farm, and, help, eradicate, the, notifiable, diseases, the, competition, inquiry, is, recommending, that, pharmaceuticals, be, dispensed, by, pharmacies, as, well, and, that, prescriptions, be, provided, free, of, charge, which, private, organisation, is, going, to, provide, a, service, free, of, charge, has, yet, to, be, ascertained, but, the, current, level, of, income, derived, from, pharmaceuticals, is, not, going, to, be, sustained, this, inevitably, means, that, the, cross, subsidy, will, disappear, and, farmers, will, have, to, pay, the, full, cost, of, veterinary, clinical, service, and, it, will, not, be, economic, to, do, so, at, the, same, time, the, costs, of, providing, veterinary, services, continues, to, rise, the, cost, of, veterinary, time, is, continuing, to, rise, students, are, now, graduating, with, debts, of, 15, 20k, because, of, the, loss, of, grants, and, payment, of, tuition, fees, this, means, there, will, need, to, be, a, further, raise, of, 2, 3k, per, annum, to, pay, veterinary, assistants, to, match, the, status, quo, farm, animal, practice, already, pays, assistants, less, than, companion, animal, practices, despite, offering, a, less, favourable, on, call, rota, in, the, short, term, following, fmd, many, practice, principals, worked, additional, on, call, to, make, the, rota, acceptable, to, attract, assistant, vets, where, this, is, viable, in, the, short, term, in, the, long, term, it, is, not, acceptable, as, partners, profit, becomes, commensurate, to, the, salaries, they, have, to, pay, to, veterinary, assistants, they, will, be, aiming, to, increase, charges, for, clinical, work, or, look, to, other, avenues, for, decreasing, costs, increasing, turnover, providing, an, out, of, hours, emergency, cover, is, not, economically, practical, for, vets, except, in, the, big, cities, where, practices, join, together, to, provide, an, emergency, clinic, currently, there, is, an, rcvs, obligation, to, provide, 24hour, cover, but, the, rcvs, is, not, involved, in, the, commercial, pricing, of, services, as, the, value, of, individual, animals, continues, to, drop, in, real, terms, then, the, cost, of, treating, individual, animals, becomes, less, and, less, viable, where, there, is, no, cross, subsidy, for, out, of, hours, work, it, will, become, untenable, as, many, mixed, practices, have, a, dwindling, farm, animal, side, that, is, less, financially, attractive, many, will, decide, to, concentrate, on, the, companion, animal, side, of, the, business, in, a, lot, of, mixed, practices, it, is, a, senior, partner, who, will, do, the, largest, amount, of, the, farm, work, this, means, the, younger, vets, will, not, have, the, case, load, to, become, experienced, and, confident, in, farm, work, there, is, a, cohort, of, practitioners, in, this, situation, heading, towards, retirement, in, the, near, future, will, the, practice, continue, to, be, involved, with, farm, work, as, fewer, practices, become, involved, with, farm, veterinary, services, the, cost, of, travel, to, the, more, distant, farms, has, to, rise, beyond, the, already, accelerated, rate, all, this, means, that, farm, veterinary, practices, will, lose, income, from, clinical, services, and, from, pharmaceutical, sales, they, will, have, to, move, more, towards, the, pig, poultry, model, of, providing, veterinary, advice, and, charging, for, it, vets, have, already, moved, out, of, nutritional, advice, leaving, this, field, to, nutritional, experts, the, reason, for, this, is, that, most, nutritional, advice, is, provided, free, to, the, farmer, by, the, firms, who, then, put, that, cost, into, the, feeds, that, are, sold, to, the, farmers, this, cross, subsidy, of, fees, by, sales, is, apparently, acceptable, where, the, subsidy, of, veterinary, fees, by, pharmaceuticals, is, not, this, model, is, beginning, to, appear, in, other, areas, whereas, vets, provided, most, mastitis, control, the, dairies, who, buy, the, milk, are, now, providing, free, or, subsidised, advice, to, farms, on, cell, counts, and, high, bacterial, counts, including, bacteriology, with, a, variable, back, up, and, quality, of, advice, nmr, and, other, recording, agencies, are, already, offering, fertility, information, on, their, recording, products, and, it, is, a, short, step, to, actually, providing, the, fertility, work, i, believe, that, these, factors, will, contribute, to, a, dramatic, decrease, in, farm, animal, clinicians, in, the, next, 5, years, the, effect, of, the, reduction, in, large, animal, clinicians, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, surveillance, as, the, number, of, clinical, veterinarians, reduces, then, there, will, be, much, less, on, farm, surveillance, this, means, that, outbreaks, of, novel, or, unusual, diseases, is, much, less, likely, to, be, noticed, or, recorded, at, an, early, stage, the, routine, care, for, the, animals, will, be, done, by, stockmen, under, veterinary, guidance, the, guidance, will, probably, be, by, quarterly, or, 6, monthly, or, annual, visits, and, by, herd, health, plans, individual, animals, are, much, more, likely, to, be, treated, ad, hoc, by, the, stockmen, rather, than, by, veterinary, surgeons, the, quality, of, this, treatment, in, some, cases, may, be, adequate, but, in, most, will, be, poor, the, significance, of, symptoms, or, illness, may, not, be, appreciated, diagnosis, and, treatment, seen, as, a, high, cost, and, used, as, a, last, resort, any, outbreak, of, disease, will, be, well, developed, and, losses, occurring, before, veterinary, advice, is, sought, as, herd, sizes, increase, and, labour, decreases, then, the, attention, to, individual, animals, must, reduce, with, a, drop, in, welfare, standards, ill, animals, are, likely, to, be, culled, quicker, as, limited, manpower, becomes, more, important, the, use, of, vets, as, additional, expert, man, power, for, calvings, lambings, will, be, seen, as, too, expensive, the, demands, of, the, system, must, mean, that, high, heath, status, is, important, with, routine, vaccination, and, herd, health, policies, being, put, in, place, defra, seems, to, set, high, regard, to, laboratory, diagnosis, results, as, a, form, of, surveillance, most, of, the, common, problems, are, diagnosed, treated, with, out, the, resort, to, laboratory, aids, fertility, lameness, mastitis, pneumonia, pge, are, rarely, referred, to, the, lab, except, where, treatment, is, not, working, most, samples, are, taken, referred, by, vets, in, practice, fewer, vets, would, mean, fewer, samples, the, lack, of, veterinary, advice, to, ill, pigs, and, ill, sheep, on, farms, at, heddon, on, the, wall, shows, how, the, lack, of, a, clinical, veterinary, service, can, lead, to, in, the, terms, of, delay, and, spread, of, disease, the, local, knowledge, of, the, current, lvi, system, is, an, invaluable, asset, that, is, in, danger, of, being, thrown, away, the, idea, that, a, farm, is, a, box, which, can, be, assigned, a, number, in, page, street, and, dealt, with, as, a, single, entity, is, a, problem, that, has, still, not, been, resolved, the, complexity, of, many, of, the, local, farming, links, through, trade, working, together, machinery, shared, grazing, fell, rights, and, family, ties, cannot, be, reduced, to, a, computer, screen, on, dcs, the, feasibility, of, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, in, my, opinion, they, are, not, i, was, hoping, to, cover, this, more, fully, but, lack, of, time, has, prevented, me, the, impact, on, the, svs, the, impact, on, the, svs, is, likely, to, be, slow, to, be, realised, the, svs, is, not, known, for, its, ability, to, meet, challenges, or, streamline, its, systems, as, the, number, of, vets, involved, in, farm, work, decreases, it, will, have, to, provide, more, of, its, own, resources, to, tackle, tasks, currently, done, by, lvis, the, more, flexible, private, practice, takes, up, the, challenge, of, getting, backlogs, in, testing, done, and, can, respond, to, new, challenges, for, example, the, licensing, brought, in, during, fmd, private, practice, can, fit, the, work, around, other, duties, whereas, if, it, is, going, to, be, done, by, the, svs, it, will, be, more, expensive, to, take, on, vets, to, do, these, tasks, alone, the, svs, was, notoriously, unreliable, in, its, work, allocation, during, fmd, the, record, being, sending, 5, vets, to, the, same, farm, on, the, same, day, has, yet, to, be, beaten, though, i, hope, it, would, be, a, lot, better, in, normal, circumstances, there, are, still, problems, with, the, allocation, system, that, can, only, be, put, right, by, local, knowledge, in, areas, where, there, are, few, farm, animals, there, may, well, not, be, lvis, willing, to, carry, out, the, routine, testing, for, notifiable, disease, who, is, going, to, provide, veterinary, cover, for, these, both, for, clinical, caseload, and, for, the, lvi, work, there, will, not, be, vets, available, to, second, to, defra, for, the, next, fmd, or, exotic, disease, outbreak, the, contingency, plan, confidently, states, that, resources, for, 20, tvis, are, to, be, kept, at, each, centre, in, case, of, an, outbreak, of, notifiable, disease, with, out, addressing, where, these, will, come, from, there, will, not, be, 20, tvi’s, available, at, short, notice, during, march, 2001, the, majority, of, vets, at, the, carlisle, decc, were, lvi’s, the, future, and, possible, outcomes, the, picture, i, have, painted, is, what, in, my, opinion, will, happen, if, the, government, allows, the, situation, to, develop, i, would, hope, that, there, would, be, some, joined, up, government, when, decisions, are, to, be, made, in, response, to, the, competition, inquiry, report, there, are, a, mixture, of, outcomes, that, are, possible, the, numbers, of, vets, in, farm, animal, practice, will, reduce, this, can, be, minimised, by, maintaining, the, cross, subsidy, of, professional, fees, for, providing, clinical, services, either, directly, by, defra, work, in, surveillance, or, other, notifiable, disease, work, and, or, from, pharmaceutical, sales, the, option, of, increasing, fees, is, not, possible, veterinary, services, will, be, provided, by, other, means, e.g, vets, working, for, feed, firms, dairies, manufactures, retailers, to, ensure, a, welfare, surveillance, standard, consultancy, firms, providing, fertility, mastitis, specialised, advice, defra, local, authority, will, have, to, provide, vets, for, notifiable, disease, testing, surveillance, tasks, developing, the, french, model, of, farm, cooperatives, employing, vets, for, their, own, farms, the, pig, poultry, model, of, regular, advisory, visits, but, minimal, involvement, in, the, day, to, day, running, or, with, individual, animals, only, the, first, of, these, provides, for, the, continuation, of, the, successful, lvi, structure, the, other, outcomes, mean, a, loss, of, clinical, veterinary, services, the, loss, of, clinical, services, means, a, drop, in, welfare, standards, and, the, loss, of, on, farm, surveillance, farm, veterinary, services, are, in, a, transitional, time, facing, economic, challenges, changes, in, agriculture, increased, regulation, and, increased, competition, for, the, pharmaceutical, and, services, they, provide, there, will, be, increased, competition, between, practices, as, they, try, to, meet, the, higher, expectations, of, new, veterinary, graduates, starting, their, careers, and, providing, a, cost, effective, service, to, the, rural, community, bvm, s, mrcvs, brief, c, v, currently, a, partner, in, one, of, the, largest, farm, veterinary, practices, in, cumbria, having, spent, 17, years, in, mixed, rural, practice, spent, 6, months, on, secondment, to, maff, at, the, carlisle, decc, during, fmd, sat, 26th, april, 2003, having, worked, last, night, and, done, 2, caesaers, and, a, calving, on, call, on, top, of, a, long, week, i, was, completely, washed, out, did, sat, am, surgery, and, a, call, then, went, home, to, bed, knackered, and, fed, up, and, deciding, i, did, not, want, to, spend, my, life, like, this, sunday, a, busy, day, on, call, but, at, least, the, calls, did, not, stack, up, just, kept, coming, in, ones, and, twos, so, the, stress, levels, were, not, to, bad, but, boyzo, am, i, tired, mon, this, is, the, beginning, of, d’s, last, week, he, has, worked, out, really, well, and, i, hope, that, he, will, be, able, to, work, here, at, the, back, end, to, help, with, the, testing, he, is, easy, going, and, has, a, good, s, african, protestant, work, ethic, always, happy, to, oblige, and, is, good, to, work, with, he, is, a, good, laugh, too, always, teasing, and, playing, silly, jokes, and, has, a, great, sense, of, humour, spent, most, of, the, day, on, catch, up, after, the, week, end, did, some, calls, and, sorted, car, and, drugs, out, and, cleaned, my, kit, the, slippage, of, cleanliness, since, fmd, is, very, noticeable, especially, at, the, w, e’s, but, don’t, tell, defra, went, swimming, at, foxes, well, to, be, honest, sat, in, the, jacuzzi, and, talked, and, then, swam, 2, lengths, i, was, too, tired, to, do, much, really, i, must, start, getting, some, proper, exercise, again, or, my, back, will, suffer, tues, i, am, really, annoyed, at, defra, i, rang, and, asked, what, would, be, needed, to, put, our, vets, on, to, panel, l, which, is, what, is, needed, to, do, the, exports, for, nestle, and, panel, l, can, just, be, added, on, as, it, is, a, simple, export, thing, so, it, would, take, half, an, hour, to, do, it, this, was, last, friday, by, now, it, is, we, have, to, go, for, training, by, svs, it, should, only, take, half, an, hour, to, through, the, forms, why, can, their, yes, not, be, yes, and, their, no, be, no, so, we, have, to, spend, an, afternoon, going, to, carlisle, to, got, through, meaningless, forms, so, that, we, can, fill, in, meaning, less, forms, so, that, nestle, can, get, th, milk, through, customs, i, am, beginning, to, see, why, people, just, smuggle, things, rather, than, get, involved, in, all, this, stupid, bureaucracy, weds, went, on, the, factory, visit, to, nestles, today, to, have, a, look, around, so, that, we, know, the, plant, and, can, give, them, certification, for, the, milk, powder, for, export, the, whole, thing, is, ludicrous, as, dried, milk, powder, is, a, sterile, product, it, has, to, be, or, else, it, goes, off, very, quickly, so, why, we, have, to, certify, that, it, has, been, pasteurised, i, don, not, know, but, hey, its, money, the, size, and, quantity, and, the, huge, amount, of, machinery, and, very, small, number, of, people, required, to, maintain, and, operate, the, plant, was, awesome, we, went, to, the, distribution, warehouse, where, there, was, just, row, upon, row, of, pallets, 3, 7, high, full, of, dried, milk, or, cappuccino, drinks, weird, to, think, mast, of, the, instant, cappuccino, is, made, in, dalston, thursday, went, for, panel, l, training, it, was, as, pointless, as, i, thought, it, would, be, took, the, opportunity, to, go, through, with, defra, admin, staff, some, of, the, queries, and, problems, at, the, moment, we, do, a, lot, of, stuff, for, defra, telling, them, who, has, stock, and, who, does, not, have, stock, to, ensure, their, database, is, relatively, up, to, date, but, it, is, a, headache, as, they, are, working, off, computer, screens, hence, mrs, f, r, of, a, farm, does, not, correlate, at, all, with, mr, e, r, of, the, same, address, the, computer, is, not, into, relationships, so, that, they, are, married, and, live, together, and, own, stock, on, the, same, piece, of, ground, does, not, really, get, off, the, ground, this, evening, was, the, final, partners, meeting, where, i, handed, in, my, notice, the, reasons, for, handing, in, my, notice, are, complex, most, decisions, probably, are, there, are, lots, of, factors, some, trivial, to, the, outsider, but, important, to, me, others, may, be, important, to, others, and, similarly, not, to, me, several, people, have, asked, is, it, a, reaction, to, fmd, the, last, casualty, in, some, ways, it, is, for, all, the, horrendous, experiences, for, all, the, long, hours, and, difficult, ethical, and, to, whom, am, i, responsible, dilemmas, it, taught, me, a, lot, about, myself, to, see, fear, in, the, eyes, of, senior, management, when, challenged, to, be, able, to, organise, a, protest, meeting, of, thirty, vets, with, jim, scudamore, to, do, the, tv, interviews, o, see, the, effect, of, feeding, information, to, journalists, to, be, able, to, break, through, by, fast, talking, and, relying, on, my, wits, to, organise, completely, new, systems, and, manage, projects, that, had, never, been, done, before, to, build, teams, from, international, backgrounds, in, the, face, of, opposition, from, the, hierarchy, to, be, constantly, caught, on, a, tight, rope, between, the, different, groupings, i, learnt, that, i, have, huge, abilities, and, to, go, back, to, normality, is, difficult, the, future, of, farm, animal, practice, is, also, very, unpredictable, there, are, a, lot, of, farms, who, are, yet, to, restock, the, cross, subsidy, of, fees, by, drug, sales, is, going, to, end, and, more, and, more, work, will, be, on, behalf, or, paid, for, by, defra, they, are, at, the, whims, of, the, politicians, and, the, treasury, they, are, also, not, the, easiest, client, to, deal, with, there, is, also, the, problem, of, being, second, in, command, and, dealing, with, the, frustrations, of, the, partnership, we, are, not, united, in, the, way, we, work, or, where, we, see, the, practice, going, this, means, my, schemes, for, diversification, for, improving, income, streams, and, managing, the, bad, debt, will, either, not, happen, or, will, become, part, of, my, workload, which, is, already, over, stretched, add, in, to, this, cock, tail, the, fact, my, wife, is, starting, to, work, and, i, have, been, given, a, really, bad, scare, by, being, tackled, by, a, cow, the, question, is, do, i, want, to, do, this, job, for, the, next, 20, years, the, answer, has, to, be, no, so, the, only, answer, is, to, hand, in, my, resignation, and, start, to, look, for, something, new, as, i, have, a, 6, month, notice, period, ending, on, an, accounting, date, i, have, to, jump, before, i, have, another, job, sorted, out, even, so, the, decision, was, very, hard, and, i, was, really, choked, up, when, i, left, them, to, discuss, the, future, i, could, not, go, home, as, the, kids, would, want, to, know, what, was, going, on, so, i, went, to, js, he, already, knew, i, will, tell, the, kids, on, friday, the, practice, manager, on, monday, and, work, on, tuesday, i, have, said, very, little, of, my, thoughts, in, the, diary, as, i, have, learnt, there, are, somethings, better, left, unwritten, until, the, time, for, the, information, to, be, public, whatever, issues, are, to, do, with, confidentiality, if, you, don’t, think, something, can, be, talked, about, then, do, not, write, it, down, as, you, never, know, who, is, going, to, read, it, a, though, got, her, self, in, to, a, stew, as, i, rang, wife, to, say, i, was, going, to, js, she, then, said, she, would, come, out, she, left, a, bit, too, hurriedly, for, a, who, then, got, it, into, her, head, that, we, had, gone, away, on, holiday, with, out, telling, them, friday, the, whole, day, was, unreal, i, knew, i, was, going, but, no, one, else, does, told, the, kids, at, tea, time, and, i, was, shocked, by, how, upset, they, were, it, has, come, as, a, shock, to, them, tim, especially, loves, coming, out, and, about, around, the, farms, with, me, there, is, also, no, what, i, am, going, to, so, it, is, just, uncertainty, on, 2nd, call, sat, 3rd, may, 2003, work, then, wash, out, i, was, on, second, last, night, and, had, 2, caesars, and, a, calving, what, the, second, caesar, was, at, 4am, so, i, felt, dreadful, all, day, young, vet, had, started, operating, and, got, stuck, so, i, went, to, the, rescue, the, cow, had, horrendous, adhesions, so, nothing, could, be, moved, around, we, spent, an, hour, and, a, half, trying, to, pull, the, calf, out, and, then, stitching, up, the, uterus, in, the, cow, i, felt, i, needed, diving, gear, on, as, i, had, both, arms, in, to, their, full, length, with, vet, beside, me, trying, to, stitch, by, feel, my, arms, were, exhausted, by, the, end, of, it, i, was, like, death, warmed, up, all, day, but, feel, i, have, definitely, made, the, right, decision, sunday, after, a, good, nights, sleep, feeling, better, my, mother, always, use, to, say, that, the, world, looks, very, different, after, a, good, nights, sleep, and, a, cooked, breakfast, i, do, not, need, a, cooked, breakfast, my, stress, levels, have, been, that, high, that, i, have, been, eating, far, too, much, i, am, going, to, go, on, a, diet, the, usual, promise, to, myself, my, weight, is, going, up, fast, so, i, will, have, to, cut, down, and, start, to, exercise, a, lot, more, went, to, see, the, practice, manager, to, tell, him, that, i, have, handed, in, my, notice, i, have, decided, to, see, him, on, his, own, so, that, he, has, a, chance, to, process, it, before, work, on, tuesday, he, is, overweight, and, stressed, and, that, type, to, have, a, heart, attack, so, treat, him, gently, he, is, also, a, good, friend, so, i, should, give, him, some, warning, so, i, spent, an, hour, chatting, it, through, and, talking, which, is, a, good, a, way, as, any, of, spending, a, sunday, afternoon, mon, bank, holiday, another, bank, holiday, working, but, at, least, it, is, fairly, quiet, so, spent, most, of, the, day, working, in, the, garden, the, kids, were, away, in, the, morning, doing, various, things, and, then, met, up, for, lunch, with, friends, which, was, really, nice, they, had, been, down, to, visit, family, in, the, lake, district, they, had, hired, a, couple, of, cottages, for, the, w, e, and, all, met, up, they, are, really, amazing, people, they, are, both, doctors, and, i, went, out, to, visit, them, in, thailand, which, was, brilliant, fun, he, was, working, with, leprosy, and, aids, cases, they, have, come, home, and, are, sharing, a, gp’s, job, between, them, she, is, also, doing, a, diploma, in, diabetes, they, are, also, doing, deputation, work, to, raise, money, for, the, work, of, omf, in, thailand, and, asia, they, have, 4, kids, and, it, was, really, nice, to, see, them, all, again, the, kids, are, similar, ages, i, really, felt, for, them, because, they, have, gone, from, home, schooling, to, schools, in, edinburgh, in, the, big, city, so, they, have, the, double, culture, shock, of, coming, to, the, uk, and, being, schooled, in, a, complete, different, way, they, are, also, very, bright, kids, and, having, had, individual, attention, from, a, very, focussed, mother, they, are, miles, ahead, of, the, rest, of, their, classes, yet, they, do, not, have, the, social, skills, to, adapt, to, the, rough, and, tumble, of, life, in, a, city, comprehensive, mobile, phones, are, not, a, must, have, item, in, rural, thailand, good, to, see, them, all, tuesday, today, i, announced, the, fact, i, was, leaving, to, those, at, work, i, had, thought, about, how, i, should, do, it, and, what, i, was, to, say, it, is, quite, difficult, both, from, an, emotional, point, of, view, and, from, the, fact, that, i, think, that, the, business, in, the, longer, term, will, have, problems, this, has, both, a, direct, relevance, for, the, lay, staff, and, their, jobs, though, there, will, still, be, a, similar, number, needed, as, their, workload, is, likely, to, remain, the, same, and, also, for, the, vets, two, of, whom, may, or, may, not, be, approached, to, buy, into, the, business, there, will, also, in, the, longer, term, be, a, smaller, number, of, vets, needed, but, this, will, probably, be, managed, by, natural, wastage, i, spoke, first, to, the, senior, assistants, and, then, lay, staff, it, was, hard, as, i, have, been, there, for, as, long, as, many, of, them, 15, years, which, is, a, long, time, i, think, also, there, is, an, attitude, that, the, ups, and, downs, seem, to, be, past, for, them, there, was, a, lot, of, upheaval, over, the, move, from, b, v, up, to, s, park, fmd, is, over, and, things, are, suppose, to, be, getting, back, on, to, an, even, keel, and, i, throw, a, spanner, in, the, works, weds, spent, the, evening, phoning, friends, and, relatives, to, let, them, know, that, i, had, handed, in, my, notice, and, sending, off, for, job, details, on, two, jobs, and, applying, for, another, i, am, not, sure, what, i, am, looking, for, so, at, the, moment, i, am, just, sending, off, for, anything, that, seems, interesting, and, waiting, and, seeing, it, seems, an, unreal, situation, in, so, many, ways, i, also, had, to, phone, the, bank, manager, both, to, arrange, our, annual, visit, and, to, tell, him, that, i, was, leaving, again, getting, the, balance, between, moving, on, and, being, positive, with, out, pointing, out, the, dangers, in, the, future, of, large, animal, practice, was, a, difficult, balance, after, the, initial, shock, all, power, to, him, as, a, salesman, banker, he, then, asked, whether, i, would, be, needing, any, banking, requirements, so, at, least, if, i, do, start, up, an, independent, vet, small, business, consultancy, i, will, have, a, bank, account, to, run, it, from, thursday, a, quit, day, as, no, testing, so, tackled, some, of, the, back, log, in, admin, spent, a, lot, of, time, setting, up, the, systems, and, know, how, folder, for, nestle, we, have, taken, over, the, work, for, doing, the, lvi, work, for, the, nestle, factory, at, dalston, as, they, have, fallen, out, with, the, previous, practice, when, we, took, it, on, i, assumed, it, would, be, the, odd, bit, of, work, but, in, fact, it, is, a, huge, amount, of, work, so, it, is, going, to, take, some, sorting, out, i, also, feel, a, bit, off, as, i, have, handed, in, my, notice, and, yet, i, am, setting, all, this, up, and, i, ma, not, going, to, benefit, from, it, at, all, i, suppose, it, comes, back, to, wanting, to, do, what, is, right, and, that, we, should, serve, god, and, not, man, it, is, always, a, useful, measuring, stick, to, use, to, work, out, motivations, and, what, should, be, done, in, a, situation, who, am, i, trying, to, do, this, for, me, the, practice, the, client, or, am, i, doing, what, jesus, would, do, friday, another, bad, hair, day, had, real, problems, trying, to, fit, the, extra, work, into, the, day, and, so, got, a, bit, frayed, around, the, edges, fortunately, next, week, will, probably, be, the, last, thank, goodness, the, practice, that, used, to, do, the, nestle, work, was, on, the, phone, to, me, and, not, very, friendly, hey, ho, went, out, for, a, meal, with, friends, which, was, great, they, are, the, church, youth, leaders, and, are, really, switched, on, but, i, think, need, more, support, and, help, hopefully, once, the, 1st, of, october, hits, i, will, be, able, to, get, more, involved, went, to, the, royal, oak, at, welton, which, just, has, been, re, done, and, is, serving, food, on, a, proper, basis, as, well, as, having, a, pub, part, more, like, a, restaurant, wife, s, food, was, excellent, mine, was, ok, i, had, an, indian, trio, of, samosa, and, 2, bharji, to, start, with, i, am, afraid, i, have, been, spoilt, by, real, indian, food, so, i, should, not, have, bothered, going, for, it, in, a, cumbrian, pub, saturday, may, 10th, saturday, may, 10th, a, day, off, after, too, many, days, working, and, too, much, stress, it, was, really, nice, just, to, be, around, home, doing, the, garden, and, not, really, worrying, what, else, is, going, on, in, the, world, i, needed, some, space, and, i, am, pleased, to, have, got, it, at, long, last, it, is, amazing, how, much, better, the, world, looks, after, a, good, nights, sleep, and, a, some, time, off, in, the, afternoon, the, c, boys, came, around, and, we, took, them, to, see, new, chicks, s, was, there, and, i, did, not, want, to, go, down, the, route, of, explaining, why, i, had, made, the, decision, i, had, to, leave, so, chickened, out, of, telling, her, i, suppose, i, am, happy, with, it, and, i, just, want, to, forget, about, for, the, w, e, so, we, arrived, with, 7, boys, which, is, quite, brave, fortunately, we, could, not, stay, long, as, we, had, to, be, back, to, go, out, to, gianni’s, with, d, he, took, us, out, and, it, was, really, good, fun, the, kids, were, all, in, good, form, came, back, and, watched, the, first, part, of, a, dvd, on, john, grisham’s, book, the, client, he, is, an, excellent, writer, and, although, film, can, never, develop, the, characters, the, same, as, a, book, so, the, film, was, good, but, only, ok, sunday, 11th, church, was, good, this, morning, and, it, was, good, to, be, there, and, spent, ages, chatting, to, folk, but, came, back, to, lunch, with, a, couple, who, stayed, too, long, there, are, some, people, i, find, really, draining, and, she, is, one, it, is, awful, but, i, get, really, wound, up, and, just, want, them, to, go, after, about, 30, minutes, they, came, for, lunch, and, did, not, leave, until, after, tea, so, i, was, almost, going, spare, monday, 12th, i, find, the, silence, around, the, fact, i, am, going, a, bit, unnerving, it, is, a, bit, elephant, and, coffee, table, really, a, lot, of, the, farmers, i, suppose, don’t, yet, know, or, if, they, do, how, to, respond, today’s, frustrations, are, all, with, things, not, working, bt, have, sent, me, a, bill, for, 115, for, fixing, the, line, that, was, struck, by, lightening, i, was, put, through, three, depts, before, i, gave, up, i, may, try, just, not, paying, and, see, if, they, can, register, the, fact, the, bill, is, being, disputed, the, other, frustration, is, the, car, doors, have, gone, again, in, wife, s, car, which, is, incredibly, frustrating, they, have, been, fixed, and, fixed, and, fixed, although, it, is, under, warranty, i, am, getting, to, the, stage, that, i, feel, we, are, being, fobbed, off, tues, 13th, i, went, to, hear, mg, from, the, licc, london, institute, of, contemporary, christianity, speak, at, the, living, word, this, is, a, series, that, happens, every, spring, and, is, organised, by, a, group, of, ministers, and, folk, from, carlisle, he, is, a, very, interesting, speaker, he, is, an, ex, ad, man, and, his, whole, message, is, to, get, the, church, to, look, out, side, of, it, self, he, thinks, that, christianity, in, the, west, has, become, a, leisure, time, activity, and, is, not, impacting, the, rest, of, peoples, lives, there, is, a, concept, of, the, sacred, secular, divide, the, church, does, not, get, involved, in, secular, things, work, culture, the, arts, sport, and, in, some, ways, philosophy, too, whereas, there, should, be, no, divide, christ, is, either, lord, of, all, or, not, at, all, he, also, is, a, very, amusing, speaker, he, was, talking, about, how, technology, is, usually, neutral, but, how, it, is, used, has, very, far, reaching, effects, on, family, work, and, society, he, used, the, microwave, as, an, example, with, a, very, amusing, story, about, how, he, managed, to, save, the, sleep, of, the, whole, of, north, london, by, using, the, new, fangled, microwave, to, heat, his, daughter’s, midnight, bottle, thereby, saving, the, chancellor, huge, sums, in, lost, revenue, with, typical, jewish, hyperbole, he, then, moved, on, to, his, kids, now, teenagers, not, coming, in, for, the, meal, he, has, prepared, but, reheating, it, in, the, microwave, and, how, that, led, to, a, lack, of, communication, and, again, hyperbole, to, his, angst, about, not, understanding, the, younger, generation, as, this, is, a, diary, about, fmd, how, do, i, relate, this, to, my, experience, of, fmd, on, the, simple, level, the, culture, within, defra, needs, to, change, servant, hood, whether, by, civil, servants, or, politicians, has, been, forgotten, truth, will, out, spin, will, fall, computers, should, be, a, tool, of, all, and, master, of, none, organisations, need, to, have, a, human, face, for, people, to, relate, to, whether, it, is, the, brigadier, or, the, cvo, people, are, individuals, created, by, god, and, have, feelings, and, are, not, numbers, or, statistics, the, post, modernist, human, secularism, where, truth, is, relative, where, brown, can, announce, that, everything, is, under, control, can, mislead, parliament, and, people, and, it, is, acceptable, i, actually, strongly, feel, that, the, current, presidential, style, of, where, no, one, can, make, a, decision, with, out, refer, to, their, boss, is, a, poor, model, pain, disaster, illness, and, trouble, are, part, of, the, human, condition, part, of, the, fall, of, evil, in, the, world, enough, philosophy, its, time, for, bed, monday, 17th, may, this, was, the, big, golden, wedding, anniversary, day, it, was, wife, s, parents, golden, wedding, and, her, brothers, and, family, all, came, to, stay, for, the, w, e, the, celebration, meal, was, at, lyzzick, hall, in, keswick, the, big, surprise, for, wife, s, mum, was, that, her, bridesmaid, and, husband, were, coming, over, from, canada, j, picked, them, up, from, the, airport, and, took, them, to, a, b, b, other, friends, were, also, coming, as, a, surprise, rp, started, the, surprises, by, coming, in, dressed, as, a, waitress, she, came, in, and, offered, wife, s, mum, a, drink, and, she, was, really, overcome, the, other, surprises, of, bridesmaid, and, canadians, was, really, nice, to, see, the, younger, parts, of, the, clan, went, off, to, the, climbing, wall, while, the, older, part, went, for, a, look, at, the, lake, in, the, rain, it, was, a, really, nice, day, ended, by, a, firework, display, thanks, to, c, as, he, grew, up, in, belfast, during, the, troubles, and, fireworks, were, banned, he, has, a, real, passion, for, them, now, as, a, big, kid, sunday, went, to, church, with, everyone, a, very, mixed, group, but, they, coped, p, spoke, in, the, morning, meeting, he, was, very, good, he, is, a, publisher, and, was, talking, about, the, church, in, china, as, he, has, just, helped, to, publish, a, book, about, some, of, the, christian, house, church, it, makes, the, materialistic, church, in, the, west, look, very, weak, and, un, spiritual, in, the, evening, mm, spoke, on, the, christian, at, work, which, was, very, good, and, very, funny, he, was, a, bed, sales, man, when, he, was, a, student, and, he, was, very, funny, about, how, he, made, shy, engaged, couples, lie, down, and, try, the, beds, this, really, tickled, other, son, age, 8, much, to, his, gran’s, tut, tutting, the, point, he, was, making, in, between, the, jokes, was, that, he, had, been, told, that, he, was, to, say, that, the, bed, s, would, all, be, delivered, in, 3, 4, weeks, when, in, fact, it, could, be, up, to, 6, weeks, but, the, shop, keeper, thought, this, would, put, people, off, this, meant, that, mm, ended, up, in, bother, with, couples, arriving, back, from, their, honey, moon, to, no, bed, so, he, decided, to, listen, to, god’s, way, and, tell, the, truth, which, he, said, like, most, biblical, teaching, is, obvious, once, it, is, explained, and, tell, people, the, truth, not, what, they, want, to, hear, mon, went, and, read, the, tb, test, for, the, tenant, farmer, there, was, 1, i, r, the, reaction, of, the, farmer, took, me, back, fairly, badly, and, i, was, quite, shocked, at, the, sheer, vehemence, of, his, reaction, fortunately, it, was, mostly, at, defra, he, went, out, early, on, to, the, disease, and, he, therefore, got, much, lower, compensation, than, a, lot, of, the, later, ones, he, had, some, cattle, wintering, at, his, farm, for, some, one, else, who, went, out, later, on, with, fmd, at, his, home, holding, the, difference, in, the, valuations, for, the, same, type, of, cattle, was, horrendous, he, also, has, buildings, that, he, owns, on, a, small, parcel, of, land, the, buildings, were, old, and, knackered, but, usable, a, lot, of, string, and, gates, defra, pulled, them, to, pieces, during, fmd, and, then, offered, him, peanuts, o, reinstate, them, which, meant, he, could, not, get, them, back, into, a, usable, state, so, he, is, not, a, happy, bunny, spent, the, afternoon, castrating, horses, which, is, not, my, favourite, job, if, a, stirk, kicks, you, it, hurts, if, a, horse, kicks, you, it, usually, means, a, trip, in, an, ambulance, you, are, therefore, very, tense, and, ready, to, move, in, awkward, positions, canadians, and, wife, s, parents, headed, off, for, a, trip, around, the, borders, in, our, people, carrier, they, are, coming, back, to, swap, over, cars, at, the, end, of, the, week, wife, has, the, tank, to, run, around, in, for, the, week, tuesday, my, back, is, twinging, from, the, castrating, and, a, calving, yesterday, and, is, really, sore, so, did, paperwork, while, sitting, like, a, ramrod, until, i, gave, up, and, came, back, to, lie, down, did, the, back, exercises, hourly, but, it, just, got, stiffer, and, sorer, weds, spent, morning, reading, in, bed, and, doing, back, exercises, but, cannot, get, it, moving, went, to, see, the, accountant, in, the, afternoon, to, sort, out, the, practicalities, of, going, freelance, and, finishing, at, the, vets, thursday, back, is, a, lot, better, and, starting, to, move, much, more, freely, the, first, negative, comment, on, me, leaving, today, came, from, a, farmer, who, has, decided, that, the, only, way, to, make, money, is, to, go, for, 300, cows, he, has, therefore, planned, all, this, designed, new, parlours, been, to, look, at, other, large, herds, thought, it, all, through, unfortunately, his, costings, are, on, buying, in, dairy, cows, at, 6, 700, per, head, and, just, recently, they, have, gone, to, over, a, thousand, which, means, he, is, out, by, 60k, oops, but, he, said, that, he, thought, i, was, deserting, them, in, a, way, i, suppose, i, am, back, in, to, being, on, call, with, a, vengeance, a, calving, a, caesar, a, prolapsed, uterus, hey, ho, friday, interesting, statistic, on, the, radio, whether, it, is, right, or, wrong, i, do, not, know, in, the, eu, the, average, beef, cow, is, subsidised, to, the, tune, of, 2, per, week, the, average, african, earns, less, than, that, the, canadians, and, wife, s, parents, arrived, back, from, their, trip, around, the, borders, the, good, news, is, they, baby, sat, or, teenage, and, child, minded, while, we, went, out, to, the, lemon, lounge, the, bad, news, is, they, are, to, feed, and, look, after, over, the, w, e, my, brother, and, family, arrive, tomorrow, so, it, will, be, a, bit, crowded, it, was, really, nice, to, be, out, on, our, own, with, relative, peace, around, us, the, noise, from, an, office, party, does, not, impinge, as, it, is, nothing, to, do, with, us, saturday, 31st, may, 2003, a, gardening, day, we, decided, that, we, would, have, to, get, the, place, sorted, out, so, spent, most, of, the, day, in, the, sunshine, pulling, weeds, and, sorting, out, the, garden, it, was, a, beautiful, day, my, back, was, pretty, sore, by, the, end, of, the, day, but, we, got, it, nearly, all, sorted, which, was, good, the, boys, cut, the, lawn, and, a, sat, on, it, and, read, her, book, another, bbq, by, the, end, of, the, day, a, made, the, salads, while, the, boys, cooked, so, it, was, a, family, meal, wife, and, the, older, two, headed, for, tesco’s, while, i, cleared, the, debris, away, sunday, june, 1st, the, sun, is, still, flaming, but, the, seeds, and, seedlings, are, looking, a, bit, sad, and, whithered, in, spite, of, the, watering, i, have, really, enjoyed, the, week, off, but, there, has, been, very, little, on, fmd, met, up, with, friends, at, church, home, visiting, parents, in, the, evening, caught, up, with, the, as, he, is, an, indian, gastro, enterologist, who, worked, at, carlisle, they, now, work, in, bombay, so, it, was, good, to, see, them, they, are, hoping, to, set, up, an, aids, hospice, there, are, currently, over, a, million, people, who, are, hiv, ve, in, bombay, monday, back, to, work, and, quite, busy, so, it, looks, as, if, the, june, quiet, period, is, not, going, to, materialise, with, folk, on, holiday, it, makes, it, seem, busier, any, way, it, took, me, until, 4pm, to, get, to, my, in, tray, which, after, a, week, was, overflowing, as, usual, tuesday, this, is, more, like, june, long, lunch, and, spent, the, morning, trying, to, get, the, accountancy, package, up, to, date, sent, off, another, speculative, e, mail, job, application, a, friend, from, church, who, is, now, studying, physio, therapy, at, glasgow, came, and, insisted, wife, i, went, out, for, a, walk, together, which, was, really, nice, he, is, a, really, nice, young, guy, went, to, beach, at, beckfoot, where, we, were, the, only, ones, walking, the, beach, there, was, one, serious, kiter, i, have, not, seen, such, a, serious, kite, for, a, long, time, it, was, fairly, windy, and, he, had, it, anchored, behind, him, so, as, not, to, be, taking, off, with, it, weds, spent, the, morning, doing, fertilities, and, then, spent, time, sorting, out, issues, with, george, there, was, so, little, work, it, is, boring, for, the, assistants, the, june, quiet, patch, ahs, arrived, the, bills, did, not, go, due, to, a, computer, upgrade, cocking, the, system, up, the, systems, are, now, so, complex, they, are, beyond, any, reasonable, way, of, keeping, tabs, you, have, to, trust, the, experts, who, you, don’t, thursday, day, off, spent, it, writing, out, a, business, proposal, to, try, and, get, work, via, a, consultancy, firm, then, tried, fixing, the, extractor, fan, and, failed, thursby, football, club, is, going, really, well, with, some, more, lads, coming, along, the, standard, is, variable, but, good, fun, friday, tb, testing, again, at, fs, they, had, just, heard, about, me, leaving, and, were, full, of, questions, the, night, was, really, busy, on, first, call, and, had, lots, going, on, wife, was, at, a, retreat, thinking, through, the, future, and, reporting, on, the, last, year, so, i, was, trying, to, juggle, kids, as, well, saturday, 7th, june, 2003, last, night, was, terrible, with, a, dog, to, see, in, the, middle, of, the, night, and, put, down, it, was, only, a, young, dog, but, it, had, leukaemia, and, was, not, responding, to, treatment, it, had, colic, probably, from, the, mesenteric, lymph, nodes, and, was, rolling, around, in, pain, not, nice, for, them, or, me, sat, am, was, busy, too, went, to, one, of, the, organic, farms, to, see, an, ill, cow, post, calving, he, was, saying, that, there, are, three, farmers, all, none, fmd, giving, up, milking, one, is, another, organic, dairy, farm, he, was, promised, a, premium, of, 10p, per, litre, and, his, costings, were, based, on, 28p, per, litre, he, is, getting, a, premium, of, less, than, 0.5p, per, litre, which, takes, it, to, 16p, the, figures, do, not, add, up, so, he, is, giving, up, the, other, 2, are, small, farms, who, cannot, make, it, work, 40, 50, cows, slept, in, the, afternoon, and, went, to, a, party, in, the, evening, bizarrely, as, we, were, walking, in, the, people, whose, dog, i, put, to, sleep, last, night, walked, in, as, well, they, live, next, door, and, had, been, invited, as, well, weird, spent, time, chatting, but, came, to, 10, and, i, was, dead, on, my, feet, sunday, 8th, the, on, call, changes, from, 2nd, back, up, to, 1st, at, 8, 30, am, the, phone, started, at, 8, 35, urghhh, i, am, finding, it, very, hard, to, have, any, enthusiasm, knowing, that, i, ma, leaving, in, a, few, months, one, of, the, farms, i, was, on, has, given, up, dairy, and, were, hoping, to, retire, fmd, year, but, lost, money, because, of, all, the, restrictions, so, they, are, now, hoping, to, finish, this, back, end, may, be, they, were, hoping, to, keep, the, milk, quota, and, lease, it, out, as, a, pension, but, because, of, the, new, rules, they, will, have, to, sell, it, and, the, price, is, low, as, there, are, a, lot, of, non, producers, who, are, in, the, same, boat, it, was, at, its, height, worth, 1, per, litre, a, lot, was, bought, and, sold, in, the, 40, 60p, per, litre, it, is, now, around, the, 10p, mark, funny, world, agriculture, monday, 9th, calving, at, 5am, followed, by, other, calls, so, an, early, start, busy, day, at, work, went, to, a, meeting, for, the, new, crusaders, support, worker, it, is, supposed, to, be, county, wide, but, is, going, to, be, based, around, kendal, as, that, is, where, the, legacy, that, is, providing, a, lot, of, the, money, is, based, so, it, is, less, relevant, tot, this, end, of, cumbria, so, i, have, backed, out, of, the, organisation, committee, as, most, of, the, meetings, will, be, at, rydal, too, far, for, me, we, were, there, tonight, so, did, not, get, back, until, 11, 30, which, after, a, w, e, on, call, is, too, late, for, this, bunny, tuesday, 10th, spent, 45, mins, on, the, phone, trying, to, work, out, what, i, am, going, to, be, doing, in, oct, with, a, guy, from, pfizer, i, then, had, to, spend, the, rest, of, the, evening, sorting, out, the, emails, i, needed, to, send, to, him, weds, 11th, spent, the, morning, having, nursery, visits, where, the, local, infants, schools, come, around, the, vets, and, i, give, my, wee, guided, tour, it, is, quite, fun, and, the, little, things, that, we, do, they, really, love, blowing, up, the, anaesthetic, bag, the, x, ray, quiz, and, listening, to, dog’s, hearts, i, always, take, some, of, son, s, chickens, in, as, well, as, most, kids, are, not, use, to, having, birds, or, handling, them, son, has, spent, so, many, hours, carrying, them, around, they, are, fairly, tame, and, used, to, being, picked, up, i, don’t, know, that, effort, pays, back, in, commercial, terms, but, it, is, fun, football, training, in, the, evening, with, 20, lads, which, was, brilliant, thursday, 12th, on, call, and, exhausted, after, the, excitement, of, the, week, the, phone, went, at, 7pm, from, the, answering, service, to, say, that, a, women, had, rung, and, asked, for, the, pass, word, for, the, alarm, this, of, course, meant, nothing, to, those, answering, the, phone, i, however, put, 2, 2, together, to, work, out, that, the, alarm, at, the, practice, and, gone, off, and, that, the, police, would, be, on, their, way, why, does, this, always, happen, when, you, are, in, the, bath, so, i, jumped, out, the, bath, and, rushed, down, to, find, out, what, was, going, on, there, was, a, police, man, there, who, was, waiting, for, me, to, lead, the, way, in, we, found, a, very, scared, dog, sitting, in, the, prep, room, having, escaped, from, its, kennel, it, then, took, an, hour, to, get, the, alarms, reset, life, is, a, rich, tapestry, friday, 13th, went, to, lawyers, today, to, meet, up, to, go, through, the, dissolution, of, the, partnership, bit, sad, in, a, way, but, another, nail, bashed, in, to, my, leaving, coffin, finished, work, and, spent, evening, playing, football, and, doing, some, coaching, which, was, good, fun, son, was, off, school, today, he, was, full, of, cold, and, just, exhausted, he, just, needed, time, out, really, he, goes, at, everything, at, 110, saturday, 14th, june, 2003, working, am, why, is, it, even, if, you, have, a, few, quiet, days, in, the, week, by, the, time, the, w, e, comes, it, is, busy, again, really, warm, so, sunshine, and, gardening, a, had, decided, she, was, going, to, do, a, changing, rooms, on, the, double, room, in, the, cottage, so, she, and, a, friend, worked, away, all, day, at, it, i, was, very, impressed, by, the, time, we, had, finished, our, barbeque, in, the, evening, it, was, all, back, to, ship, shape, and, was, finished, she, is, some, pup, sunday, went, down, to, whitehaven, to, see, the, tall, ships, in, the, harbour, there, was, only, one, there, which, was, disappointing, but, it, was, good, to, look, around, there, was, a, fair, buzz, about, the, place, and, heaving, with, people, as, the, weather, was, great, there, was, a, display, of, jet, ski’s, which, was, fun, to, watch, so, the, boys, are, now, on, at, me, to, try, and, have, a, go, the, red, arrows, were, brilliant, they, have, a, tremendous, display, and, the, coloured, streams, they, leave, behind, in, the, sky, always, amaze, me, it, is, almost, like, they, are, writing, in, the, sky, monday, finally, decided, the, duck, eggs, were, not, going, to, hatch, so, broke, them, open, to, see, if, they, were, fertile, 1, exploded, it, was, so, rotten, urghh, only, one, had, a, half, formed, egg, in, it, so, i, think, the, eggs, were, the, problem, not, the, incubation, tuesday, testing, some, more, i, r’s, for, tb, though, the, history, is, wrong, so, i, hope, that, they, will, clear, a, new, vet, student, turned, up, in, the, afternoon, she, is, staying, with, us, until, the, w, e, then, with, colleague, the, vets, is, going, to, have, to, find, new, accommodation, for, students, went, to, the, training, evening, for, the, soccer, coaching, it, was, a, form, filling, exercise, and, orientation, so, it, was, boring, but, i, am, on, the, course, which, is, good, at, least, i, well, have, the, piece, of, paper, at, the, end, of, it, weds, footie, training, at, night, only, the, hard, core, turned, up, so, looks, like, we, will, have, a, good, group, of, 14, 15, which, means, we, will, not, have, to, choose, and, disappoint, went, for, a, run, afterwards, as, feeling, in, need, of, exercise, as, not, much, large, animal, work, at, the, moment, means, i, am, sitting, around, on, the, computer, for, a, lot, of, the, day, which, is, sad, must, get, fit, is, a, constant, resolution, spent, the, evening, up, at, sandal, watching, the, sun, go, down, away, from, the, phone, and, chaos, at, home, thursday, i, was, at, work, when, i, had, a, phone, call, from, some, one, who, had, apparently, run, over, son, at, school, never, an, easy, phone, call, to, take, espy, as, she, did, not, know, what, had, happened, fortunately, he, was, ok, he, had, been, walking, backwards, and, had, stepped, into, the, path, of, a, car, which, had, caught, his, heel, the, damage, was, slight, but, it, had, upset, him, the, school, exit, is, appalling, and, needs, sorted, as, busses, cars, and, bikes, all, share, the, same, area, as, the, kids, walking, inevitably, kids, are, jostling, and, messing, around, so, it, is, an, accident, waiting, to, happen, friday, half, day, as, wife, is, starting, her, next, w, e, counselling, course, could, not, really, get, going, as, a, calving, early, this, am, and, a, call, late, last, night, so, having, run, on, adrenalin, for, all, the, week, i, collapse, in, to, a, heap, and, find, it, hard, to, get, going, and, get, motivated, spent, the, afternoon, getting, organised, for, the, visitors, arriving, as, friends, are, coming, and, friend, who, was, our, bridesmaid, is, coming, across, for, the, w, e, saturday, 21st, june, 2003, pay, day, i, don’t, really, know, why, it, always, sticks, in, my, mind, but, at, the, moment, with, the, 1st, of, october, looming, and, the, fact, that, the, 21st, will, not, be, a, pay, day, it, is, becoming, a, bit, scary, spent, morning, on, run, around, and, house, jobs, ferrying, to, and, from, squash, went, to, town, in, pm, with, a, son, having, left, off, the, younger, ones, at, cottinghams, and, spent, a, pleasant, half, hour, in, ottakars, even, they, were, running, low, on, the, book, the, latest, harry, potter, which, i, had, meant, to, order, via, internet, but, had, not, quite, got, around, to, the, statistic, is, that, she, is, expected, to, sell, 6, every, second, over, the, w, e, she, makes, 1, per, book, which, means, 360, per, minute, 21,600, per, hour, not, a, bad, hourly, rate, or, just, over, a, million, quid, for, the, w, e, as, every, other, person, on, the, tills, was, buying, a, copy, i, can, well, believe, it, sun, 22nd, church, in, the, morning, was, joint, communion, and, was, lead, by, the, denton, holm, house, group, the, church, meets, up, in, small, groups, mid, week, to, pray, and, study, bible, and, the, denton, holme, grp, lead, the, service, it, means, you, get, a, refreshingly, different, type, of, service, with, different, people, taking, part, and, leading, it, was, good, followed, by, a, picnic, in, the, park, which, was, ok, but, i, just, wanted, to, fall, asleep, in, the, sunshine, i, am, suffering, from, stopping, syndrome, i, can, keep, going, on, the, adrenalin, but, when, i, stop, thump, i, fall, asleep, and, can, not, get, going, picked, up, liz, from, church, in, the, evening, having, left, youngest, two, at, home, as, wife, was, late, back, from, her, course, thank, goodness, for, mobile, phones, or, rather, at, least, they, manage, to, make, a, complex, life, possible, really, i, should, have, let, her, pick, up, friend, and, missed, church, and, upset, a, by, telling, her, she, couldn’t, go, but, it, all, worked, out, in, the, end, mon, 23rd, friend, arrived, at, some, terrible, hour, she, finally, left, bristol, after, 8pm, after, meaning, to, leave, at, lunchtime, so, as, wife, and, i, were, exhausted, we, did, not, get, up, to, welcome, her, work, is, really, quiet, with, very, little, happening, son, is, in, a, strop, cos, we, will, not, let, him, go, sailing, after, cricket, after, school, as, he, will, be, exhausted, he, takes, after, us, if, there, is, a, possibility, we, try, to, achieve, it, our, own, fault, really, but, it, is, weird, how, you, see, your, own, faults, coming, through, in, your, children, tues, 24th, spent, the, day, talking, to, people, on, the, phone, trying, to, get, funding, for, the, research, project, have, a, few, leads, and, ideas, to, get, together, so, should, be, interesting, to, see, if, it, comes, together, weds, 25th, started, at, 4am, with, a, caesarean, which, was, really, nice, as, that, time, in, the, morning, is, beautiful, it, is, just, a, shame, that, the, rest, of, the, day, is, a, bit, of, a, wash, out, because, of, it, went, at, night, to, the, fa, training, course, which, was, class, room, based, on, a, warm, sunny, evening, and, i, was, struggling, to, stay, with, it, i, have, also, decided, that, i, need, to, get, fit, as, the, practical, day, is, going, to, be, very, long, for, my, unfit, legs, thursday, the, electrician, arrived, to, sort, out, the, electrics, in, the, bathroom, which, are, still, not, right, the, lights, keep, fusing, and, the, fan, will, not, work, i, had, a, look, at, the, wiring, which, is, a, mess, and, decided, i, could, not, follow, it, and, after, my, last, experience, i, decided, i, would, just, pay, him, to, keep, him, in, a, job, i, had, a, very, enjoyable, day, off, played, son, at, squash, and, lost, now, not, only, is, he, better, than, me, at, football, but, squash, a, swell, all, down, hill, from, here, on, in, went, to, church, in, the, evening, as, rw, was, speaking, it, was, interesting, to, hear, him, though, was, more, a, chat, than, a, biblical, exposition, friday, the, email, from, the, verse, of, the, day, seems, to, sum, up, a, years, worth, of, diaries, when, times, are, good, be, happy, but, when, times, are, bad, consider, god, has, made, the, one, as, well, as, the, other, therefore, a, man, cannot, discover, anything, about, his, future, ecclesiastes, 7, 14, new, international, version, the, future, is, uncertain, i, will, leave, my, job, in, a, few, months, time, for, a, new, start, the, pressures, of, fmd, seem, to, be, distant, in, the, warm, summer, weather, and, in, the, quiet, workload, making, me, feel, rested, and, relaxed, the, challenges, both, for, agriculture, the, veterinary, practice, and, for, policymakers, are, still, very, large, there, is, now, a, threat, of, bio, terrorism, to, add, to, the, food, scares, and, the, threat, of, exotic, disease, life, carries, on, we, may, not, learn, from, all, our, mistakes, and, government, depts, are, a, blunt, slow, awkward, machine, but, the, cows, will, still, need, to, be, milked, and, we, will, still, need, food, on, our, table, if, in, 68, you, told, some, one, that, we, had, not, had, an, outbreak, of, fmd, for, 35, years, they, would, have, said, well, done, if, you, had, said, 2, men, were, milking, 300, cows, on, a, cumbrian, farm, and, getting, 7000, litres, per, cow, he, would, never, have, believed, you, there, is, a, time, for, everything, and, a, season, for, every, activity, under, the, heaven, a, time, to, be, born, and, a, time, to, die, a, time, to, plant, and, a, time, to, uproot, a, time, to, kill, and, a, time, to, heal, a, time, to, tear, down, and, a, time, to, build, a, time, to, weep, and, a, time, to, laugh, a, time, to, mourn, and, a, time, to, dance, a, time, to, scatter, stones, and, a, time, to, gather, them, a, time, to, embrace, and, a, time, to, refrain, a, time, to, search, and, a, time, to, give, up, a, time, to, keep, and, a, time, to, throw, away, a, time, to, tear, and, a, time, to, mend, a, time, to, be, silent, and, a, time, to, speak, a, time, to, love, and, a, time, to, hate, a, time, for, war, and, a, time, for, peace]
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paper, diary, has, lots, of, newspaper, cuttings, and, other, related, material, week, beginning, 25th, february, 2002, after, the, snow, which, fell, at, the, weekend, melted, combined, with, the, additional, rainfall, many, of, the, fields, surrounding, the, village, as, well, as, the, roads, were, flooded, usually, this, wouldn't, concern, you, much, however, with, the, burial, site, being, so, close, and, the, number, of, underground, streams, in, the, area, it, does, become, worrying, there, isn't, any, guarantee, that, groundwater, in, the, surrounding, area, won't, become, effected, and, to, what, extent, there, seem, to, be, a, number, of, aspects, to, me, concerning, this, issue, which, remain, unclear, for, example, what, exactly, can, be, carried, in, water, and, how, might, this, effect, people, in, the, area, what, is, being, tested, for, in, the, surrounding, streams, what, exactly, is, classed, as, a, danger, and, if, problems, did, arise, how, would, they, be, monitored, and, resolved, all, these, issues, do, tend, to, make, you, anxious, in, particular, on, monday, when, i, was, out, walking, my, dog, i, noticed, a, couple, of, drains, which, i, passed, looked, as, if, they, were, blocked, and, there, was, a, lot, of, water, around, it, just, makes, you, wonder, how, much, has, come, possibly, from, the, burial, site, and, if, it, is, actually, safe, my, worries, on, monday, about, the, groundwater, were, even, more, emphasised, by, the, statement, i, heard, on, the, border, news, on, tuesday, by, the, environment, agency, this, statement, was, concerning, the, future, safety, of, the, groundwater, in, the, area, around, the, burial, site, the, agency, could, give, no, guarantee, that, the, groundwater, would, not, become, affected, in, the, future, since, then, i, have, heard, no, further, news, about, the, issue, there, may, be, more, information, on, news, reports, i, missed, in, my, opinion, not, enough, information, is, given, to, the, public, about, these, issues, results, of, testing, by, the, environment, agency, are, meant, to, be, available, to, the, public, however, i, have, never, heard, much, about, the, details, i, think, more, effort, should, be, made, to, inform, in, particular, resident, near, burial, sites, as, these, issues, are, bound, to, be, important, to, them, after, hearing, the, news, i, did, become, more, worried, but, at, the, end, of, the, day, there, is, little, we, can, really, do, ourselves, you, find, yourself, having, to, trust, people, or, agencies, you, know, little, about, and, just, hoping, everything, will, be, alright, on, tuesday, also, noticed, a, horrible, smell, outside, so, did, my, fiancé, but, again, you, can't, be, sure, exactly, where, this, is, coming, from, or, what, is, causing, it, on, thursday, with, news, of, possible, foot, and, mouth, case, further, south, near, leeds, i, became, very, worried, that, this, whole, thing, was, going, to, start, all, over, again, my, worries, were, about, the, farmers, and, people, involved, and, how, they, would, be, affected, if, other, cases, could, be, identified, and, in, particular, affecting, my, own, life, if, animals, would, have, to, be, slaughtered, again, in, the, future, where, would, they, be, disposed, of, would, existing, burial, sites, be, reopened, as, opposed, to, finding, suitable, sites, for, new, burial, sites, it, would, seem, easier, to, reopen, burial, sites, but, what, would, this, mean, for, the, future, and, to, what, extent, would, the, health, risks, be, increased, i, was, very, relieved, to, hear, the, testing, of, the, foot, and, mouth, cases, came, back, negative, i, was, relieved, for, the, people, involved, and, also, residents, near, burial, sites, however, this, did, raise, questions, in, my, mind, of, how, this, sort, of, situation, would, be, handled, in, the, future, and, what, consequences, it, might, have, week, 2, 4th, march, on, monday, passed, driving, test, and, now, fiancé, and, myself, are, insured, on, a, small, car, this, opens, up, so, many, opportunities, and, we, have, a, huge, sense, of, freedom, last, summer, we, had, planned, to, go, on, a, camping, holiday, with, our, dog, dog, we, had, al, our, equipment, prepared, but, were, unable, to, go, due, to, the, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, neither, of, us, imagined, how, long, and, widespread, the, outbreak, would, be, and, thought, at, first, it, would, be, over, in, a, few, weeks, now, a, year, later, we, are, able, to, replan, our, holiday, this, is, exciting, as, we, have, waited, so, long, it, is, unbelievable, to, think, how, long, it, has, taken, for, restrictions, on, the, countryside, to, return, to, as, normal, as, can, be, possible, due, to, the, circumstances, for, the, actual, people, directly, involved, in, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, this, must, have, seemed, like, far, longer, on, tuesday, i, had, a, lovely, surprise, when, i, noticed, the, lambs, in, a, field, near, my, house, when, out, walking, my, dog, it, was, lovely, to, see, and, for, a, few, minutes, things, almost, seemed, normal, again, even, though, the, burial, site, is, only, about, a, mile, away, it, is, hidden, from, view, from, the, village, you, never, forget, though, as, soon, as, you, spot, the, windmills, and, remember, the, repeated, pictures, featured, in, the, news, seeing, the, lambs, really, did, lift, my, spirits, and, the, future, after, foot, and, mouth, didn’t, seem, as, bad, as, thought, the, week, before, i, can’t, recall, the, exact, days, but, they, were, towards, the, beginning, of, the, week, on, two, particular, occasions, my, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, terrible, smell, outside, we, aren’t, sure, exactly, what, the, smell, was, just, that, it, was, very, unpleasant, the, only, other, incident, which, i, can, recall, which, stands, out, in, my, mind, this, past, week, is, a, conversation, i, had, with, my, fiancé’s, granddad, we, were, talking, about, how, bad, last, year’s, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, had, been, and, he, recalled, the, outbreak, of, 1967, he, commented, on, how, he, thought, that, outbreak, had, been, far, better, controlled, it, was, better, as, the, animals, were, killed, and, buried, on, the, actual, farms, in, lime, there, was, no, transporting, dead, or, live, animals, like, last, year, he, also, commented, on, the, fact, that, there, were, no, pyres, then, and, that, he, hadn’t, thought, it, a, good, idea, last, year, overall, he, thought, that, last, year’s, outbreak, could, have, been, dealt, with, better, and, that, action, was, taken, far, too, late, to, prevent, the, disease, spreading, week, 3, 11th, march, one, new, thing, i, have, noticed, this, week, is, the, amount, of, birds, there, are, flying, around, especially, black, crows, i, think, it, is, because, i, have, been, driving, and, every, time, i, drive, past, the, fields, at, the, south, end, of, the, village, there, are, large, amounts, of, crows, hustled, together, can, never, remember, it, being, quite, like, that, last, summer, it, makes, you, wonder, why, so, many, are, drawn, to, just, those, fields, as, i, drive, past, in, the, next, few, weeks, i, will, see, if, it, is, still, the, same, on, about, occasions, this, week, fiancé, and, i, have, noticed, a, slight, smell, outside, again, not, as, foul, smelling, but, still, noticeable, on, tuesday, saw, new, series, featured, on, itv, called, rural, lives, i, think, this, is, a, good, idea, as, the, issue, of, foot, and, mouth, is, still, very, painful, to, a, lot, of, people, and, is, not, over, yet, the, effects, are, still, happening, however, on, the, news, and, in, other, media, it, isn’t, often, mentioned, and, doesn’t, get, the, attention, it, deserves, hopefully, through, programmes, like, this, people, will, get, a, better, understanding, of, the, issues, involved, and, what, different, people, went, through, if, an, outbreak, ever, happened, again, all, the, people, involved, would, hopefully, have, a, better, idea, of, how, to, handle, the, actual, crisis, and, a, better, idea, of, people’s, needs, for, example, the, farmers, these, are, long, term, effects, which, can’t, be, ignored, my, mum, came, out, for, a, couple, of, nights, she, loves, coming, out, to, see, us, as, she, lives, in, carlisle, it, is, a, total, change, of, scenery, she, thought, it, was, great, and, enjoyed, taking, my, dog, on, long, walks, which, she, was, unable, to, do, for, a, long, time, we, went, to, see, the, lambs, in, the, lovely, weather, shows, we, are, able, to, start, enjoying, the, countryside, again, especially, coming, up, to, spring, and, summer, we, were, even, able, to, go, to, dalston, with, my, dog, and, wander, about, we, have, been, so, used, to, having, to, stick, t, the, roads, just, in, the, local, area, it, was, lovely, a, nice, change, it, does, tend, to, make, you, more, confident, about, the, coming, year, and, we, are, looking, forward, to, the, summer, week, 4, 18th, march, this, past, week, started, of, with, a, day, out, at, bowness, i, went, with, my, fiancé, and, took, our, dog, dog, it, was, lovely, to, let, her, off, the, lead, to, run, she, really, enjoys, it, and, got, absolutely, filthy, travelling, in, the, car, is, becoming, easier, for, dog, and, she, goes, crazy, when, you, arrive, we, have, only, had, dog, just, over, 2, years, and, for, the, past, year, we, couldn’t, let, her, off, the, lead, to, run, anywhere, we, are, tiring, t, train, her, again, she, listens, to, a, certain, extent, but, we, have, to, keep, an, eye, on, her, cheeky, side, i, remember, wondering, when, the, foot, and, mouth, started, how, we, were, going, to, exercise, dog, as, walking, her, on, the, roads, used, to, be, more, difficult, due, to, the, large, vehicles, travelling, up, and, down, and, also, the, fact, dog, isn’t, the, best, on, the, lead, she, used, to, be, really, energetic, and, a, bit, of, a, handful, however, now, she, has, got, used, to, a, more, relaxed, life, and, at, times, i, think, she, quite, likes, it, it, did, us, all, good, to, have, some, exercise, and, fresh, air, and, it, was, lovely, to, have, a, change, of, scenery, apart, from, on, monday, i, haven’t, really, been, anywhere, else, apart, from, shopping, and, have, been, busy, doing, my, a, level, work, therefore, i, haven’t, really, noticed, anything, different, this, week, and, haven’t, thought, about, foot, and, mouth, as, much, my, overall, view, this, week, has, been, quite, confident, and, there, has, been, no, real, significant, happenings, to, change, my, view, quite, a, good, week, overall, week, 5, 25th, march, firstly, i, received, the, newsletter, sent, out, to, the, standing, panel, it, was, a, relief, to, finally, get, some, information, regarding, the, burial, site, it, was, good, to, have, an, explanation, on, how, things, work, on, the, site, in, terms, that, we, can, understand, it, is, a, relief, to, know, that, everything, so, far, is, still, safe, however, it, is, evident, that, there, is, much, more, work, and, monitoring, to, be, carried, out, in, the, future, even, though, it, is, still, not, possible, to, do, anything, ourselves, our, minds, are, at, least, put, at, rest, by, knowing, something, it, surprises, me, how, long, it, has, taken, for, information, like, this, to, be, made, accessible, to, the, public, i, think, this, newsletter, is, a, very, good, step, forward, as, information, is, reaching, the, public, and, participants, are, also, given, the, opportunity, to, ask, questions, and, put, other, ideas, forward, on, wednesday, my, mum, came, out, again, to, see, us, once, again, we, took, a, walk, to, go, see, the, lambs, in, the, field, near, us, it, was, enjoyable, and, we, had, lovely, weather, it, makes, you, realise, how, much, you, take, for, granted, around, you, without, thinking, twice, my, mum, has, made, me, realise, this, even, more, by, seeing, how, much, she, enjoys, such, a, simple, thing, and, how, special, she, thinks, it, is, sometimes, i, think, when, you, are, surrounded, by, the, country, and, nature, all, the, time, you, forget, how, lucky, you, are, my, mum, and, gran, would, both, love, to, live, somewhere, like, here, the, biggest, surprise, this, week, was, when, i, received, the, parish, magazine, for, the, month, and, found, in, it, the, watchtree, news, this, is, the, first, time, i, have, ever, seen, anything, like, this, from, the, parish, council, i, think, it, is, a, very, good, idea, as, the, information, will, be, accessible, to, everyone, in, the, appropriate, parishes, even, though, it, is, long, overdue, it, is, very, worthwhile, and, i, think, will, be, very, informative, it, covers, a, wide, range, of, issues, the, majority, of, which, i, knew, very, little, about, and, wouldn’t, have, known, for, the, future, for, example, the, maintenance, going, to, be, carried, out, between, the, a595, orton, grange, junction, and, the, site, entrance, at, least, we, now, have, knowledge, of, this, before, it, is, going, to, be, carried, out, as, it, will, affect, other, members, of, our, family, who, live, on, the, orton, grange, junction, who, would, otherwise, have, had, no, idea, some, of, the, information, was, surprising, for, example, the, number, of, tankers, that, leave, the, site, everyday, which, i, didn’t, expect, to, be, so, high, and, which, could, rise, important, issues, are, also, now, being, tackled, such, as, the, bad, state, of, the, local, roads, the, affected, people, are, also, being, encouraged, to, report, these, things, themselves, to, the, appropriate, people, i, think, this, has, been, a, significant, development, and, will, be, very, useful, in, the, aftermath, of, foot, and, mouth, communication, between, the, appropriate, authorities, and, the, public, is, essential, week, 6, 1st, april, unfortunately, it, has, been, all, go, this, week, one, bit, of, work, after, another, i, haven't, had, time, to, focus, on, very, much, else, this, past, week, despite, this, fact, i, have, still, had, quite, a, positive, week, it, is, better, studying, out, here, as, there, are, few, distractions, and, everything, is, lovely, and, peaceful, a, drastic, difference, from, last, year, at, that, time, it, was, difficult, to, concentrate, on, anything, for, too, long, far, too, many, distractions, my, fiancé, however, has, been, up, to, the, burial, site, and, nearby, on, sunday, he, went, for, a, drive, with, a, friend, and, wondered, what, it, looked, like, up, there, we, have, only, ever, seen, it, on, television, reports, but, never, been, up, there, ourselves, in, a, future, diary, when, he, has, time, he, will, write, a, few, words, on, what, he, thought, week, 7, 8th, april, once, again, this, week, has, been, full, of, work, i, haven't, had, much, time, to, do, anything, apart, from, work, on, thursday, i, had, a, break, and, my, mom, came, out, for, a, bbq, for, the, first, time, this, year, we, have, put, out, our, patio, tables, and, chairs, as, the, weather, was, staying, pleasant, we, sat, out, for, a, while, in, the, evening, and, had, our, bbq, it, was, a, lovely, break, for, my, mom, as, there, is, peace, and, quiet, out, here, as, opposed, to, in, town, we, all, really, enjoyed, it, my, mom, and, fiance, both, commented, how, lovely, it, was, to, sit, outside, in, the, nice, weather, without, a, nasty, smell, about, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, haven't, noticed, things, smelling, so, bad, as, on, a, few, occasions, recently, there, has, also, been, a, decrease, in, the, amount, of, birds, in, particular, crows, which, have, been, in, the, fields, to, the, south, of, where, we, are, near, the, crossroads, on, the, couple, of, occasions, during, the, week, when, i, have, been, past, the, fields, there, have, only, been, a, couple, of, birds, flying, around, as, opposed, to, a, whole, field, full, of, crows, at, one, time, it, was, also, lovely, to, hear, the, sheep, especially, as, the, evening, became, darker, in, the, background, you, could, hear, the, sheep, just, in, the, field, next, to, us, and, also, the, lambs, a, few, fields, away, it, was, something, which, we, still, aren't, quite, used, to, but, which, we, appreciate, so, much, more, now, week, 8, 15th, april, i, was, feeling, quite, confident, this, week, until, friday, when, watch, the, news, i, saw, the, report, on, new, bovine, tb, cases, which, are, worrying, even, though, it, is, said, it, wouldn’t, be, as, serious, as, foot, and, mouth, it, is, still, worrying, as, it, has, the, potential, to, destroy, many, more, lives, and, bankrupt, more, farmers, who, have, probably, just, got, over, foot, and, mouth, the, worry, must, be, especially, bad, for, the, farmers, as, it, is, bad, enough, for, the, general, public, especially, after, seeing, the, damage, caused, by, foot, and, mouth, in, such, a, short, space, of, time, it, would, be, absolutely, terrible, if, this, summer, was, anything, like, last, summer, how, long, would, it, take, for, everything, to, get, back, to, normal, then, even, though, foot, and, mouth, is, evidently, far, different, to, bovine, tb, hopefully, things, will, have, been, learned, from, last, year, which, will, prevent, this, from, becoming, a, disaster, too, apart, from, that, other, aspects, of, the, foot, and, mouth, smell, etc, haven’t, been, as, bad, this, past, week, i, haven’t, noticed, any, particular, occasions, when, the, smell, has, been, particularly, bad, or, noticeable, in, addition, on, the, occasions, when, i, have, driven, past, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, there, have, been, hardly, any, crows, near, there, which, is, a, huge, improvement, there, were, a, number, of, seagulls, in, one, field, but, nowhere, near, the, amount, of, crows, there, were, before, there, has, also, been, a, decrease, in, the, amount, of, tankers, going, by, recently, that, i, have, noticed, at, first, i, didn’t, take, much, notice, of, it, but, then, fiancé, s, grandad, mentioned, that, he, had, hardly, seen, any, he, seems, to, notice, them, move, more, than, we, do, as, he, lives, on, the, orton, grange, junction, with, wigton, road, and, they, all, have, to, go, past, there, with, all, these, things, happening, the, presence, of, the, burial, site, nearby, seems, less, obvious, week, 9, 22nd, april, the, last, week, has, been, quite, a, pleasant, week, probably, because, i, have, eventually, finished, my, coursework, and, have, been, able, to, have, a, bit, of, peace, and, quiet, i, think, this, combined, with, periods, of, lovely, weather, have, made, me, feel, quite, good, on, tuesday, when, i, travelled, to, town, and, back, i, went, past, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, to, the, south, of, the, village, which, in, the, past, have, been, full, of, crows, or, seagulls, as, i, have, noticed, on, other, odd, occasions, over, the, past, week, they, appear, to, be, empty, now, i’ll, keep, an, eye, on, how, this, changes, over, the, summer, if, it, does, on, friday, i, noticed, that, there, were, a, number, of, cattle, and, calves, in, the, field, just, opposite, our, house, i, can, stand, and, watch, them, from, my, back, patio, doors, which, is, lovely, with, the, reintroduction, of, the, sheep, and, cattle, in, the, area, it, is, like, everything, is, coming, together, finally, after, the, foot, and, mouth, and, life, is, returning, to, normal, in, some, sense, the, cattle, seem, to, be, the, last, part, needed, for, everything, to, seem, to, be, running, properly, and, the, animals, finally, moving, about, at, last, i, think, this, fact, combine, with, their, being, no, significant, incidents, of, nasty, smells, or, the, rumbling, of, the, tankers, going, by, has, made, things, seem, better, when, talking, to, fiance, s, grandad, he, mentioned, again, that, there, still, haven’t, been, as, many, tankers, going, past, his, house, at, orton, grange, as, there, have, been, this, past, week, there, have, been, hardly, any, reminders, of, the, burial, site, and, the, past, foot, and, mouth, problems, living, in, the, country, has, seemed, quite, normal, after, what, seems, a, long, time, week, 10, 29th, april, all, in, all, this, week, has, been, a, good, week, overall, with, regard, to, the, foot, and, mouth, everything, seems, to, have, quietened, down, and, there, are, hardly, any, visible, reminders, of, the, burial, site, and, foot, and, mouth, around, the, village, as, i, mentioned, last, week, there, still, haven’t, been, any, noticeable, occasions, of, smells, possibly, from, the, burial, site, the, tankers, have, hardly, been, noticeable, around, the, village, and, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, have, still, been, fairly, empty, of, birds, in, particular, crows, this, was, explained, and, backed, up, in, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazines, which, i, received, this, week, it, was, good, to, read, and, very, informative, worth, reading, i, still, think, it, is, a, good, idea, and, is, being, done, well, as, it, discusses, issues, happening, now, and, also, keeps, you, informed, about, action, in, the, future, the, newsletter, mentioned, the, reduction, in, the, amount, of, tankers, which, i, have, noticed, it, also, mentions, that, there, might, be, a, slight, smell, from, the, burial, sited, during, work, but, so, far, i, haven’t, noticed, anything, once, again, it, has, been, lovely, seeing, both, the, sheep, and, the, cows, in, the, surrounding, fields, especially, at, the, moment, when, they, are, with, their, young, on, saturday, on, the, way, down, to, fiance, s, grandad, there, were, road, works, near, the, baldwinholme, bend, in, the, road, this, part, was, in, a, bad, condition, and, is, now, much, better, i, think, the, damage, was, caused, by, the, trucks, etc, used, during, foot, and, mouth, however, i’m, not, sure, week, 11, 6th, may, this, week, has, been, my, 21st, birthday, i’m, growing, up, i, had, a, lovely, day, on, thursday, and, as, a, surprise, i, was, taken, t, the, lake, district, for, the, day, it, was, lovely, and, i, really, enjoyed, it, firstly, we, stopped, off, at, bassenthwaite, lake, for, a, bit, fed, the, ducks, and, had, a, picnic, then, off, to, dodd, wood, for, a, coffee, and, to, see, the, ospreys, it, was, great, to, see, them, and, i, think, we, were, quite, lucky, then, we, had, a, pleasant, walk, around, myre, house, i, was, reminded, of, how, lucky, we, are, in, cumbria, to, have, such, lovely, places, and, i, am, glad, that, we, are, now, able, to, go, to, these, places, again, now, we’ve, got, a, car, we, are, going, to, take, better, advantage, of, cumbria, and, what, it, has, to, offer, once, again, i, realised, how, much, we, take, what, we, have, for, granted, overall, this, has, been, a, good, week, and, reminders, of, foot, and, mouth, and, the, burial, site, have, been, minimal, there, have, been, no, smells, i, have, noticed, and, hardly, any, signs, of, wagons, it, is, still, lovely, to, see, the, sheep, and, cattle, around, the, village, week, 12, 13th, may, on, wednesday, i, met, my, mum, in, town, and, got, the, cumberland, news, off, her, i, was, reading, about, the, county, council, inquiry, at, kendal, i, think, it, is, good, how, the, different, people, involved, in, the, inquiry, are, all, being, honest, about, what, happened, that, is, the, only, way, anything, will, be, improved, in, the, future, if, anything, of, a, similar, nature, should, happen, again, i, really, hope, it, doesn’t, from, reading, the, articles, written, and, what, people, have, said, it, is, clear, what, a, wide, range, of, people, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, affected, and, also, how, badly, when, you, read, of, other, people, who, have, had, family, who, have, been, so, low, it, has, driven, them, to, suicide, you, do, seem, to, feel, a, bit, guilty, as, when, we, complain, it, hasn’t, affected, us, is, such, a, drastic, way, it, brings, the, seriousness, and, the, extent, of, the, crisis, to, people’s, attention, despite, the, terrible, things, which, took, place, during, the, crisis, hopefully, some, good, will, come, out, of, it, for, the, present, and, the, future, on, thursday, fiance, went, to, the, doctor’s, and, was, talking, to, a, farmer, in, the, waiting, room, as, soon, as, fiance, mentioned, he, lived, in, great, orton, the, farmer, asked, straight, away, what, it, was, like, to, live, here, so, near, to, the, burial, site, and, how, he, couldn’t, imagine, what, it, would, have, been, like, it, too, has, been, such, a, long, time, since, anyone, has, said, anything, like, that, to, either, one, of, us, at, the, time, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, people, used, to, ask, questions, and, what, it, was, like, to, live, so, near, it, is, strange, when, farmers, in, particular, feel, sympathy, towards, you, for, living, near, the, burial, site, when, on, the, other, hand, it, is, the, farmers, i, feel, sympathy, for, before, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, a, fair, number, of, people, even, from, carlisle, didn’t, know, where, great, orton, was, but, now, many, do, and, realise, how, close, to, carlisle, it, actually, is, week, 13, 20th, may, i, haven't, really, done, anything, very, exciting, this, past, week, unfortunately, i've, been, revising, again, and, preparing, for, a, presentation, for, my, a, level, which, i, have, to, do, next, week, my, presentation, was, on, turrets, and, watchtowers, which, i, found, a, bit, confusing, at, first, from, the, books, i've, been, using, so, dragged, fiance, to, drive, and, dog, out, past, brampton, to, hadrian's, wall, there, i, found, a, watchtower, and, a, turret, everything, became, much, clearer, on, the, way, back, we, spotted, a, sign, for, a, camping, barn, on, hadrian's, wall, banks, east, we, were, both, very, interested, so, sent, away, for, the, brochure, at, this, point, we, decided, to, reconsider, our, holiday, plans, and, realised, we, didn't, need, to, go, far, afield, like, amsterdam, our, 1st, choice, then, scotland, 2nd, choice, we, hadn't, realised, actually, how, many, places, there, were, so, nearby, which, were, ideal, we, came, to, the, conclusion, a, holiday, in, cumbria, would, be, the, best, choice, as, 1, we, could, take, dog, with, us, 2, we, could, go, by, car, and, 3, it, would, be, a, bit, cheaper, as, fiance, mentioned, it, would, also, be, good, after, everything, to, put, the, money, we, were, spending, back, into, cumbria, we, were, hoping, to, go, next, week, as, it, is, half, term, the, week, after, and, my, exams, after, that, hopefully, we, will, get, something, organised, on, thursday, we, got, the, orton, newsletter, fiance, and, i, were, both, quite, disappointed, when, we, read, that, land, around, this, area, are, being, sold, for, the, building, of, houses, it, is, good, in, a, way, as, people, are, moving, forward, after, f, m, but, we, wish, it, wasn't, in, a, residential, sense, it, is, just, a, pity, so, much, of, the, farming, will, be, lost, 6, houses, at, baldwinholme, 4, in, great, orton, even, though, i, haven't, been, brought, up, with, a, farming, background, from, what, i, have, seen, it, would, be, a, pity, for, us, to, lose, this, part, of, our, countryside, week, 14, 27th, may, on, monday, saw, cb, and, was, pleased, to, hear, the, f, m, standing, panel, project, was, going, well, as, i, think, it’s, worthwhile, and, as, much, as, possible, should, be, learned, for, the, future, on, tuesday, i, attended, the, meeting, for, the, foot, and, mouth, disease, inquiry, at, great, orton, village, hall, at, 7pm, i, was, glad, i, attended, the, meeting, as, people, could, voice, their, opinions, and, try, to, get, information, about, issues, both, about, the, present, and, the, future, my, general, view, of, the, meeting, and, how, it, went, was, that, the, general, feeling, of, the, villagers, etc, was, that, they, were, losing, interest, and, nothing, was, still, being, done, there, were, many, empty, seats, i, estimated, a, total, number, of, 50, 60, people, there, was, a, whole, new, panel, of, faces, even, though, this, was, a, new, inquiry, so, there, were, new, people, on, the, panel, but, between, the, meetings, there, is, no, feel, of, continuity, as, no, one, is, sure, of, what, has, been, said, before, and, there, are, never, the, answers, promised, from, one, meeting, to, another, it, seems, as, if, this, is, a, way, of, avoiding, answers, and, getting, out, of, situations, there, were, new, aspects, which, were, brought, up, which, had, not, yet, been, disclosed, never, at, any, meeting, i, have, attended, such, as, the, fact, the, burial, was, planned, and, used, for, the, burial, of, uninfected, animals, which, is, not, what, we, were, led, to, believe, with, al, the, engineering, on, site, again, this, is, lack, of, communication, and, no, one, is, sure, of, the, facts, defra, also, are, only, guaranteeing, funding, for, this, site, for, the, next, 5, years, and, it, is, worrying, who’s, burden, this, will, become, after, then, a, variety, of, other, issues, were, discussed, health, roads, handling, of, outbreak, vaccination, etc, after, the, meeting, i, was, glad, i, had, been, however, i, felt, rather, angry, by, the, way, in, which, the, questions, are, handled, the, answers, are, often, vague, have, no, supporting, evidence, or, are, dismissed, with, i’ll, have, to, get, back, to, you, on, that, or, i, can’t, comment, in, my, opinion, many, of, the, farmers, villagers, etc, just, want, this, whole, thing, brought, to, an, end, ideally, the, remaining, trenches, filled, in, a, nature, reserve, created, and, maintained, there, were, no, guarantees, of, the, site, not, being, used, again, or, funding, after, the, next, five, years, will, this, ever, be, achieved, on, saturday, morning, fiance, and, i, decided, to, go, away, for, a, short, break, to, somewhere, near, and, where, we, could, take, dog, it, was, a, spontaneous, decision, for, the, jubilee, and, because, it, was, half, term, i, was, not, at, college, we, ended, up, going, to, a, caravan, site, with, dog, for, 4, nights, i, will, update, about, my, holiday, in, the, next, diary, clipping, from, news, and, star, here, story, about, great, orton, public, meeting, and, villagers, request, not, to, have, site, used, again, in, the, event, of, future, emergencies, holiday, week, beginning, monday, 3rd, june, week, 15, 10th, june, i, am, writing, this, a, couple, of, days, early, just, to, tell, you, about, our, holiday, it, was, lovely, in, the, end, we, hadn't, yet, received, the, brochure, on, the, camping, barns, so, on, saturday, we, decided, we, would, like, to, go, away, as, son, as, possible, and, would, like, something, for, the, jubilee, weekend, after, finding, a, caravan, at, caldbeck, not, far, away, relatively, quiet, we, went, by, 5, pm, on, saturday, fiance, dog, and, i, were, there, it, was, a, lovely, caravan, site, lovely, caravan, and, even, a, tv, for, the, world, cup, the, caravan, site, was, surrounded, by, common, land, sheep, lovely, and, quiet, and, a, lot, of, places, to, keep, dog, occupied, we, were, so, surprised, at, how, quiet, the, campsite, was, over, the, jubilee, weekend, but, thought, most, of, the, people, actually, lived, there, it, would, be, lovely, in, the, future, to, have, a, small, caravan, there, to, go, away, to, the, surrounding, places, we, went, to, were, really, busy, for, example, keswick, bassenthwaite, etc, i, was, quite, surprised, but, thought, it, was, great, to, see, cumbria, lively, again, what, a, contrast, to, what, i, would, have, imagined, these, places, to, be, like, a, year, ago, especially, for, the, jubilee, everyone, seemed, to, make, such, an, effort, it, was, lovely, to, see, we, all, had, a, lovely, time, so, relaxing, oi, don't, think, dog, has, ever, walked, so, far, we, were, surprised, that, somewhere, so, close, was, exactly, what, we, wanted, we, were, also, happy, we, could, put, our, money, back, into, cumbria, we, would, definitely, go, back, i, feel, so, much, more, confident, about, the, future, especially, in, cumbria, after, this, week, if, you, didn't, know, about, last, year, f, m, outbreak, in, some, cases, it, would, be, hard, to, tell, i, really, think, cumbria, seems, as, if, it, could, recover, from, this, hopefully, on, saturday, and, sunday, ill, in, bed, week, 16, 17th, june, with, the, combination, of, not, feeling, very, well, at, the, beginning, of, the, week, the, car, not, running, overt, the, week, end, and, dog, being, in, season, i, haven't, really, been, able, to, go, anywhere, this, week, it, has, been, quite, frustrating, but, i, have, had, work, to, do, anyway, i, still, feel, quite, confident, about, the, future, this, week, after, being, on, holiday, this, is, better, than, a, couple, of, weeks, ago, after, the, fmd, inquiry, meeting, when, i, felt, quite, unsure, at, time, of, what, was, going, to, happen, at, gt, orton, i, had, the, f, m, panel, newsletter, and, watchtree, newsletter, with, parish, magazine, i, think, both, of, these, are, good, as, you, are, able, to, gain, information, consistently, about, f, m, in, cumbria, and, in, particular, the, burial, site, this, information, would, be, difficult, to, come, by, otherwise, in, particular, i, enjoyed, reading, about, children, at, milburn, school, with, their, memories, of, the, f, m, outbreak, and, the, effort, they, have, made, researcher, had, spoken, with, respondent, about, possibility, of, monthly, diary, and, she, decided, to, start, straight, away, so, although, middle, of, month, here, follows, monthly, write, up, she, continued, to, record, her, diary, in, this, way, at, times, she, offers, short, daily, entries, drawing, 4, weeks, together, within, an, overall, reflective, piece, these, daily, entries, are, also, recorded, week, 20, 15th, july, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, i, am, looking, forward, to, attending, the, social, evening, in, dalston, i, am, a, bit, nervous, as, am, not, used, to, doing, these, sorts, of, things, but, think, it, will, be, a, good, experience, i, was, also, pleased, when, i, got, the, f, m, panel, newsletter, and, saw, the, article, i, made, notes, for, i, have, never, done, anything, like, this, before, and, was, quite, pleased, about, the, whole, thing, on, the, saturday, of, week, one, fiance, and, i, went, down, to, fiance, s, grandad's, and, noticed, there, were, more, signs, up, for, land, being, for, sale, again, we, both, think, this, is, quite, sad, as, the, area, will, inevitable, be, changing, in, the, near, future, we, wonder, how, much, of, the, land, will, be, reused, for, farming, or, sold, for, new, houses, taking, into, consideration, the, signs, we, have, seen, up, in, the, past, quite, a, bit, of, land, is, going, to, change, over, the, past, weeks, i, have, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, with, our, parish, magazine, i, still, think, this, is, a, good, idea, and, worthwhile, as, you, are, updated, every, so, often, this, will, also, reach, everyone, in, the, village, so, easily, accessible, over, a, period, of, a, few, days, in, week, 2, of, these, 4, weeks, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, a, strange, smell, outside, we, could, smell, it, here, but, not, at, fiance, s, grandad's, which, is, only, 2, miles, away, it, smelt, just, like, a, burning, smell, so, i, am, not, sure, whether, it, had, anything, to, do, with, the, burial, site, or, anything, being, done, up, there, i, just, thought, i, would, mention, it, anyway, last, wednesday, i, rang, up, the, archaeological, support, group, in, carlisle, of, which, i, have, been, a, member, for, the, past, year, and, a, half, i, had, never, been, sent, anything, to, do, with, it, for, along, time, and, wondered, why, it, turns, out, that, last, year, as, soon, as, f, m, hit, cumbria, everything, was, cancelled, and, stopped, this, i, knew, at, the, time, and, there, was, nothing, else, that, could, have, happened, the, thing, i, didn't, realise, was, that, things, have, been, so, badly, affected, that, nothing, has, been, arranged, as, yet, even, so, many, months, after, f, m, broke, out, once, again, this, is, another, example, of, how, things, have, been, affected, still, so, many, months, after, there, is, also, uncertainty, about, the, future, of, this, archaeology, group, as, nothing, has, been, decided, yet, and, it, will, depend, on, how, things, go, this, is, a, pity, and, i, hope, things, pick, up, in, the, future, on, the, first, week, of, these, 4, weeks, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, that, we, were, coughing, a, bit, more, especially, at, night, and, early, in, the, morning, since, then, fiance, has, got, better, and, is, not, coughing, as, much, but, now, i, have, got, a, sore, throat, and, a, cold, i, don't, think, this, is, anything, to, do, with, the, burial, site, or, anything, but, we, were, not, sure, about, the, coughing, and, i, thought, i, would, mention, it, 12th, august, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, i, do, not, feel, quite, as, nervous, now, as, i, did, about, the, evening, at, dalston, village, hall, it, was, a, bit, intimidating, at, first, as, i, was, going, on, the, same, night, as, frontline, workers, and, health, professionals, i, felt, a, bit, out, of, my, depth, when, i, wondered, what, sort, of, stories, they, would, be, telling, compared, to, what, i, had, seen, these, people, would, have, had, to, deal, with, the, situation, first, hand, and, must, have, seen, some, terrible, things, after, a, couple, of, weeks, i, grew, used, to, the, idea, and, didn't, feel, as, bad, it, would, turn, out, to, be, a, good, experience, as, it, turns, out, the, evening, is, now, on, the, 21st, august, and, everyone, is, going, together, things, will, be, a, bit, more, relaxed, for, me, i, think, i, hope, i, will, be, able, to, make, it, the, one, major, event, that, has, made, me, think, over, the, past, couple, of, week, is, fiance, s, auntie, jean, who, has, moved, house, from, orton, grange, 2, miles, away, from, us, into, the, middle, of, town, it, made, me, think, that, i, definitely, wouldn't, like, to, move, back, into, the, middle, of, carlisle, after, living, here, even, though, it, hasn't, been, the, most, pleasant, at, times, here, with, f, m, last, year, and, the, building, of, the, burial, site, i, would, still, miss, everything, about, it, once, again, i, am, reminded, how, lucky, i, am, to, be, surrounded, by, fields, cows, sheep, and, a, horse, in, the, overlooking, field, it, is, also, usually, quiet, and, peaceful, i, can, imagine, quite, different, to, the, middle, of, carlisle, i, think, jean, will, miss, it, quite, a, lot, just, over, a, week, ago, fiance, and, i, were, busy, getting, our, garden, ready, for, the, village, in, bloom, it, was, good, to, see, everyone, making, an, effort, to, everything, looking, nice, everything, felt, a, bit, more, normal, this, year, whereas, last, year, i, think, the, village, in, bloom, was, the, last, thing, on, most, people's, minds, it, made, me, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, perhaps, everything, or, most, things, may, return, to, normal, eventually, week, 24, 12th, august, nothing, extremely, significant, concerning, f, m, has, happened, this, week, i, have, noticed, though, now, when, working, at, village, pub, wellington, even, though, i, only, do, 1, day, it, has, really, become, quite, busy, i, think, business, has, improved, after, they, tried, more, advertising, i, can, remember, back, to, during, the, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, it, was, very, quiet, most, people, stayed, away, and, the, atmosphere, in, the, pub, was, very, depressing, now, over, a, year, later, things, do, seem, to, be, picking, up, again, and, perhaps, returning, more, to, normal, it, is, god, to, see, monday, 19th, august, all, in, all, it, has, been, a, quiet, week, i, haven’t, really, been, out, very, much, and, not, feeling, well, really, i, was, a, bit, disappointed, not, being, able, to, attend, the, social, evening, o, wednesday, as, my, mom, was, unable, to, get, time, off, work, or, change, her, shift, 26th, august, first, of, all, we, were, noticing, problems, with, our, goldfish, when, we, first, got, them, about, two, and, a, half, years, ago, we, had, very, few, problems, with, them, over, the, past, few, months, they, have, been, getting, ill, we, have, tried, all, sorts, different, chemicals, and, still, they, have, all, died, except, one, omar, fiance, s, cousin, who, breeds, fish, came, and, had, a, look, and, was, baffled, the, only, explanation, is, that, the, chemicals, have, been, changed, or, increased, for, example, the, chlorine, which, there, appears, to, be, a, lot, more, of, we, obviously, aren’t, totally, sure, what, the, problem, is, but, thought, we, should, mention, it, anyway, this, week, i, also, noticed, the, banner, opposite, the, village, shop, in, the, village, i, have, enclosed, an, article, about, this, banner, which, appeared, in, the, cumberland, news, this, week, i, think, this, sums, up, the, mood, i, have, noticed, at, the, village, meetings, nothing, has, yet, been, done, to, help, the, villagers, etc, so, what, difference, have, the, promises, made, this, is, the, main, reason, why, i, feel, less, confident, about, the, future, this, week, regarding, foot, and, mouth, as, these, things, are, still, dragging, on, monday, 2nd, september, during, the, first, week, of, these, diaries, nothing, really, significant, happened, regarding, foot, and, mouth, i, did, comment, however, that, when, working, at, the, pub, on, sundays, how, busy, the, pub, was, and, how, business, had, seemed, to, improve, a, lot, from, what, i, had, seen, during, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, the, atmosphere, then, had, been, depressing, this, made, me, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, regarding, foot, and, mouth, as, another, aspect, of, the, foot, and, mouth, had, seemed, to, return, back, to, normal, this, mood, however, did, change, during, the, third, week, of, these, diaries, when, i, felt, less, confident, about, the, future, it, all, began, when, our, goldfish, started, dying, apart, from, oner, we, still, are, not, sure, exactly, what, caused, it, and, are, not, sure, whether, or, not, it, was, because, of, the, water, here, or, something, we, did, there, just, seems, to, be, that, little, bit, of, doubt, in, my, mind, as, you, don’t, feel, totally, sure, about, what, is, happening, in, this, area, still, and, therefore, i, don’t, think, really, trust, the, organisations, dealing, with, these, issues, the, other, thing, that, seemed, to, sum, up, some, of, my, feelings, was, the, banner, which, appeared, opposite, the, village, shop, last, week, i, think, this, shows, the, desperation, and, lengths, some, of, the, people, in, the, village, have, to, go, through, in, order, to, get, noticed, and, heard, it, seems, ridiculous, that, the, same, basic, issues, brought, up, in, the, earlier, meetings, have, still, not, been, dealt, with, it, does, make, you, lose, the, trust, you, had, in, the, organisations, involved, article, enclosed, this, past, week, has, been, a, little, better, however, not, that, good, i, did, receive, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazine, which, is, still, good, to, receive, as, it, updates, you, on, a, number, of, different, aspects, of, the, burial, site, i, also, heard, about, the, article, in, the, newspaper, regarding, this, inquiry, from, cathy, as, well, as, my, mom, who, has, saved, it, for, me, but, as, yet, i, have, not, read, it, i, will, comment, on, this, in, my, next, diary, 9, 15, september, monday, got, free, news, star, last, week, and, found, article, on, f, m, diaries, not, too, bothered, that, it, has, been, printed, myself, tuesday, saw, cathy, said, about, articles, not, too, bothered, myself, but, can, see, why, otherwise, involved, would, be, as, things, are, not, represented, in, the, right, way, and, are, misleading, good, point, though, is, that, it, may, catch, people’s, attention, and, get, the, point, across, that, people, are, still, suffering, got, article, from, cumberland, news, mum, saturday, found, article, in, cumberland, news, regarding, village, in, bloom, won, a, trophy, for, our, special, efforts, in, village, in, aftermath, of, f, m, crisis, mark, andrews, trophy, 16, 22, september, monday, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, burning, smell, when, we, came, back, home, in, the, evening, not, sure, what, it, is, from, reminds, us, of, f, m, crisis, wednesday, road, works, in, village, didn’t, affect, us, too, much, thursday, road, works, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad’s, annoying, at, times, has, taken, such, a, long, time, to, do, reminds, us, of, f, m, crisis, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, burning, smell, again, not, sure, where, from, friday, good, that, watchtree, newsletter, told, us, of, these, road, works, as, wouldn’t, have, known, saturday, these, aspects, aren’t, too, bad, on, their, own, but, the, atmosphere, reminds, you, of, the, f, m, crisis, last, year, 23, 29, september, monday, read, the, diarist, and, also, had, a, look, at, the, inquiry, report, i, was, sent, after, attending, the, village, meeting, tuesday, have, not, had, time, to, read, very, much, of, it, but, i, will, get, round, to, it, and, then, comment, on, it, friday, parish, magazine, and, watchtree, newsletter, still, good, to, be, updated, on, what, is, going, on, 1, roads, and, 2, visiting, the, site, 30, 6th, october, monday, rang, up, to, book, table, at, the, autumn, fayre, being, done, in, village, hall, people, pleased, that, people, in, village, getting, involved, tuesday, water, has, been, quite, bad, especially, on, tuesday, full, of, chlorine, had, to, leave, for, a, while, for, everything, to, evaporate, makes, you, quite, concerned, about, whether, or, not, it, is, safe, to, drink, 6th, october, writing, after, 4, weeks, during, week, i, read, the, articles, regarding, those, f, m, diaries, which, appeared, in, the, cumberland, news, and, the, news, and, star, they, are, enclosed, after, reading, these, and, speaking, to, c, i, myself, wasn’t, too, bothered, or, offended, by, what, was, written, but, could, easily, have, seen, why, other, people, would, have, been, specially, if, they, are, finding, things, really, difficult, i, think, there, is, a, good, side, to, these, articles, as, well, though, as, they, will, have, grabbed, people’s, attention, and, highlighted, the, fact, that, there, are, still, problems, regarding, f, m, this, long, after, the, crisis, even, though, the, articles, were, misleading, they, have, also, done, some, good, when, reading, the, cumberland, news, i, also, found, a, mention, of, great, orton, regarding, the, village, in, bloom, it, turns, out, we, were, awarded, the, mark, andrews, trophy, for, special, efforts, during, the, aftermath, of, f, m, it, would, have, been, nice, to, win, a, better, award, but, at, least, we, were, recognised, for, something, i, was, quite, please, week, 2, was, probably, the, worst, week, i, have, had, during, the, past, month, regarding, f, m, as, the, whole, week, just, seemed, to, remind, me, of, what, it, was, like, during, the, crisis, firstly, there, were, road, works, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad’s, only, 2, miles, away, i, understand, these, had, to, be, carried, out, but, it, made, it, difficult, and, inconvenient, to, get, to, fiance, s, grandad’s, as, you, didn’t, know, which, roads, were, gong, to, be, closed, when, now, that, the, work, has, been, done, everyone, that, i, have, spoken, to, about, it, think, they, will, cause, more, trouble, than, before, as, when, you, pull, out, of, the, lay, bys, it, is, dangerous, as, the, grass, and, verge, have, not, been, smoothed, out, i, think, they, are, alright, if, you, already, know, the, roads, but, i, wouldn’t, be, as, confident, if, i, hadn’t, driven, on, them, before, the, other, aspect, which, made, the, road, works, seem, worse, were, two, instances, when, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, a, burning, smell, monday, and, thursday, we, were, not, sure, where, this, came, from, but, it, still, reminded, us, of, the, crisis, on, week, 3, i, received, a, copy, of, the, f, m, inquiry, and, glad, i, went, to, a, meting, in, the, village, sometimes, it, feels, good, to, be, involved, even, though, in, such, a, small, way, i, also, received, the, diarist, newsletter, and, watchtree, newsletter, which, i, am, still, glad, i, receive, without, the, watchtree, newsletter, i, don’t, think, i, would, have, been, informed, of, the, road, works, being, carried, out, i, am, also, glad, the, site, is, progressing, and, that, people, are, now, being, given, the, opportunity, to, visit, the, site, if, they, wish, on, week, 4, there, was, only, one, major, problem, with, our, water, on, tuesday, the, water, was, that, full, of, chlorine, that, we, had, to, leave, it, for, all, the, chlorine, in, it, to, evaporate, or, boil, it, even, to, give, dog, a, drink, this, is, the, second, time, this, has, happened, and, it, does, concern, you, as, firstly, why, is, this, being, done, and, secondly, is, the, water, safe, to, drink, we, are, not, sure, who, to, contact, about, this, as, last, time, we, contacted, united, utilities, who, said, it, was, just, routine, and, nothing, to, worry, about, week, beginning, 7th, october, not, much, this, week, regarding, fmd, think, i, have, been, too, busy, thinking, about, other, things, week, beginning, 14th, october, monday, relaxing, a, bit, today, as, going, to, be, a, busy, day, tomorrow, and, away, on, wednesday, tuesday, fiance, s, exam, turned, out, to, be, quiet, here, today, which, was, good, for, fiance, s, exam, as, he, did, it, at, home, would, have, been, difficult, last, year, with, pressure, of, f, m, weds, away, on, holiday, it, was, a, bit, of, a, drive, to, what, we, are, used, to, but, we, made, it, lovely, views, on, way, down, and, hawkshead, a, lovely, place, thursday, this, holiday, very, well, suited, for, dog, as, plenty, of, places, to, walk, a, quiet, campsite, and, shops, and, pubs, which, are, suited, for, dogs, things, she, is, not, quite, used, to, friday, lovely, to, be, away, for, a, break, away, from, great, orton, on, the, one, hand, but, then, you, remember, how, nice, it, is, where, we, are, and, how, luck, we, are, on, the, other, hand, sunday, had, a, very, good, week, and, confident, about, the, future, week, beginning, 21st, october, monday, having, quiet, week, as, just, got, back, quite, tired, but, coping, ok, nice, to, be, back, in, a, way, weds, got, watchtree, newsletters, in, parish, magazine, also, article, out, of, news, and, star, i, think, about, renaming, of, site, and, farm, that, used, to, be, there, thursday, watchtree, newsletter, interested, in, the, open, day, think, it’s, a, good, idea, and, will, be, very, interesting, especially, geology, and, fossil, remains, found, on, site, i, think, would, be, beneficial, as, even, though, we, live, in, the, village, and, have, been, to, the, meetings, still, have, little, idea, of, how, the, site, looks, now, and, will, in, the, future, week, beginning, 28th, october, weds, went, to, meet, mom, in, town, the, roads, into, town, were, terrible, mud, on, road, everywhere, and, really, busy, with, trucks, etc, must, be, where, they, are, doing, new, building, hope, it, doesn’t, get, like, this, all, the, time, as, so, much, land, round, here, seems, to, have, been, sold, for, new, construction, sat, mom, has, got, her, own, stall, this, week, end, at, the, craft, fair, in, the, village, hall, 1st, time, she, has, done, this, saw, it, in, parish, newsletter, 2nd, november, writing, after, 4, weeks, this, past, month, has, been, one, of, the, busiest, i, have, had, for, a, long, time, firstly, there, was, fiance, s, final, exam, which, was, quite, stressful, for, him, at, times, revising, and, everything, it, reminded, me, of, how, difficult, it, had, been, when, we, were, doing, our, first, exams, a, year, and, a, half, before, during, f, m, crisis, studying, had, been, very, difficult, then, due, to, constant, interruptions, and, distractions, constant, sound, of, trucks, smells, noise, tension, i’m, so, glad, it, wasn’t, this, bad, this, year, as, these, things, can, be, stressful, enough, shortly, after, fiance, s, exam, fiance, my, mom, and, i, went, for, a, short, break, to, hawkshead, it, was, great, we, all, enjoyed, it, and, dog, especially, everything, was, suited, for, dog, we, took, her, shopping, there, are, benches, and, water, bowls, outside, every, shop, we, went, for, a, bar, meal, and, sat, outside, with, her, and, on, our, last, night, even, too, her, with, us, and, went, for, a, pint, apart, from, these, things, we, also, took, her, on, plenty, of, walks, being, there, made, you, realise, how, lovely, cumbria, is, and, how, people, who, don’t, live, here, are, attracted, to, it, it, is, a, pity, how, cumbria, suffered, during, f, m, crisis, as, it, is, such, a, lovely, place, i, do, hope, that, due, to, the, large, amount, of, attractions, in, cumbria, that, things, will, hopefully, be, back, to, normal, as, can, be, expected, i, was, quite, surprised, at, how, busy, things, were, for, that, time, of, year, it, seems, things, must, be, improving, which, makes, you, confident, i, enjoyed, my, break, but, you, realise, maybe, great, orton, isn’t, such, a, bad, place, to, come, back, to, during, the, past, month, i, have, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, i’m, quite, interested, in, the, open, day, later, on, this, month, i, think, it, will, be, very, interesting, i’m, really, interested, in, the, geology, history, of, the, site, and, also, fossils, found, there, during, this, work, i, don’t, know, much, about, how, the, site, looks, or, how, it, will, be, in, the, future, it, is, amazing, that, you, can, live, so, near, but, still, have, no, idea, of, what, it, is, like, all, i, can, seem, to, remember, are, the, pictures, that, were, shown, on, the, news, months, ago, it, seems, difficult, to, imagine, it, any, different, this, past, week, has, been, very, busy, as, my, mom, is, having, a, stall, for, the, first, time, at, the, craft, fair, in, the, village, hall, i, have, been, helping, her, a, little, bit, and, helped, her, on, the, stall, i, just, sat, with, her, really, she, decided, to, have, a, go, as, she, likes, crafts, and, is, always, making, things, it, was, nice, to, be, involved, in, the, village, and, the, money, from, the, hiring, of, the, stalls, went, to, the, church, which, is, good, it, was, very, quiet, on, saturday, though, and, apparently, that, was, the, worst, it’s, been, for, a, few, years, i, wonder, if, this, is, an, effect, of, the, f, m, however, the, weather, and, other, factors, may, have, contributed, week, beginning, monday, 11th, november, tuesday, fiance, doctors, wednesday, me, dentist, and, in, town, with, mam, missed, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, disappointed, but, got, an, article, from, the, cumberland, news, this, is, included, i, haven’t, spoke, with, anyone, that, went, no, one, has, mentioned, anything, to, me, disappointed, i, missed, it, and, also, because, this, is, probably, one, of, the, only, opportunities, we, will, get, to, know, anything, fiance, and, i, both, agree, it, is, still, like, a, big, secret, no, one, really, allowed, in, and, out, it, doesn’t, feel, like, local, people, are, benefiting, at, all, is, it, anything, to, do, with, us, really, friday, children, in, need, at, the, pub, yesterday, nice, to, see, people, taking, part, again, big, difference, to, during, foot, and, mouth, we, just, made, a, donation, it, was, a, bit, busy, for, us, 1045, raised, sunday, work, at, pub, still, very, busy, the, pub, at, least, it, seems, to, have, recovered, after, f, m, but, from, what, i, have, heard, they, did, suffer, badly, along, with, the, other, businesses, here, week, beginning, 18th, november, tuesday, should, have, been, playing, darts, at, port, carlisle, had, a, break, for, a, week, the, thing, that, is, worrying, about, playing, darts, away, is, the, travelling, some, of, the, country, roads, round, here, are, terrible, is, this, because, of, the, wagons, especially, near, wiggonby, the, road, at, fiance, s, granddad, just, gets, worse, it’s, just, mud, and, less, grass, terrible, is, it, because, of, damage, done, by, wagons, and, a, combination, of, all, the, flooding, in, the, area, now, saturday, fiance, and, i, talking, about, how, the, area, has, changed, we, remembered, back, to, 4, years, ago, when, we, used, to, go, to, the, airfield, burial, site, for, some, peace, even, though, only, rubble, then, really, enjoyed, it, there, we, could, take, the, dog, had, first, driving, lesson, off, fiance, not, again, had, some, fun, and, really, miss, it, at, times, nowhere, round, here, anymore, to, get, peace, can’t, even, enjoy, the, nature, reserve, very, frustrating, week, beginning, monday, 25th, november, monday, keep, realising, when, doing, diaries, that, haven’t, had, a, chance, to, look, at, cumbria, foot, and, mouth, disease, inquiry, report, will, have, to, make, time, for, it, soon, saturday, when, i, was, at, pub, talking, about, new, fence, on, park, for, children, general, mood, is, not, very, pleased, as, it, doesn’t, fit, into, a, country, village, setting, and, nothing, else, done, sunday, can’t, believe, it, is, the, beginning, of, december, everything, is, passing, too, quick, inevitable, 31st, november, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, the, past, 4, weeks, have, been, very, busy, compared, to, what, i, am, used, to, and, at, the, same, time, have, been, quite, frustrating, in, a, few, ways, the, issues, which, have, bothered, fiance, and, i, most, are, mainly, to, do, with, the, onset, of, winter, which, of, course, is, inevitable, but, this, year, they, seem, to, be, worse, than, we, can, previously, remember, since, living, here, in, winter, the, biggest, issue, is, the, state, of, the, roads, in, the, village, and, round, about, it, is, terrible, with, the, amount, of, rain, we, have, had, there, are, puddles, everywhere, and, everything, is, turning, to, mud, the, worst, thing, is, that, it, is, very, difficult, to, walk, or, take, dog, anywhere, which, is, frustrating, you, either, get, absolutely, filthy, or, when, walking, down, the, roads, you, have, to, get, soaked, on, the, sides, of, the, roads, to, avoid, cars, and, going, down, the, lonning, isn’t, really, an, option, as, it, is, really, muddy, and, there, has, been, dumping, we, understand, most, of, this, will, be, due, to, the, weather, but, we, are, sure, some, of, it, on, the, roads, is, due, to, all, the, traffic, there, has, been, especially, at, fiance, s, granddad's, outside, the, front, of, his, gate, and, garden, the, grass, has, gradually, been, stripped, away, and, has, now, turned, to, mud, in, all, the, ears, he, has, lived, there, 50, years, he, has, never, seen, it, as, bad, the, roads, aren’t, like, this, just, nearby, i, have, noticed, other, roads, round, about, are, also, in, a, bad, state, when, i, have, travelled, away, to, other, nearby, village, pubs, when, playing, darts, i, was, disappointed, when, i, missed, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, about, the, watchtree, reserve, as, i, had, to, go, up, town, etc, i, have, not, spoken, to, anyone, i, know, that, attended, the, exhibition, but, wish, there, were, more, opportunities, to, learn, more, about, it, i, did, find, a, newspaper, article, enclosed, about, the, watchtree, it, is, quite, annoying, that, this, won’t, be, open, to, the, public, it, is, understandable, why, this, isn't, possible, but, then, on, the, other, hand, it, is, not, benefiting, anyone, really, who, lives, nearby, fiance, and, i, still, remember, back, to, when, the, airfield, was, still, there, and, it, was, a, lovely, place, to, go, walking, and, to, relax, by, getting, away, from, everything, it, used, to, be, lovely, and, quiet, and, was, also, so, nearby, we, do, actually, quite, miss, it, sometimes, as, there, is, nowhere, else, like, that, round, here, now, even, though, there, have, been, quite, a, few, negative, issues, this, past, month, it, has, also, been, encouraging, when, i, have, been, working, at, the, pub, it, has, been, very, busy, when, i, have, been, there, showing, that, it, must, be, recovering, from, the, effect, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, it, was, also, encouraging, when, there, was, a, night, held, for, children, in, need, when, they, raised, approx, 1045, it, is, good, to, see, people, involved, and, happy, again, one, thing, which, i, did, notice, was, that, the, general, mood, about, the, improvements, made, to, the, park, was, not, very, good, people, were, not, impressed, that, the, new, fence, does, not, look, like, it, belongs, to, the, country, at, all, and, that, that, is, all, that, has, changed, i, have, not, had, time, but, will, go, and, have, a, look, for, myself, december, 2002, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, average, i, haven’t, felt, too, bad, over, christmas, a, little, tired, but, since, i, have, got, a, bit, of, a, cold, and, sore, throat, not, surprising, at, this, time, of, year, average, i, think, it, has, been, all, right, haven’t, been, able, to, walk, very, far, near, village, due, to, weather, and, roads, but, this, isn’t, surprising, at, this, time, of, year, these, past, 4, weeks, have, been, rather, hectic, with, christmas, and, everything, but, i, have, still, had, quite, a, bit, to, write, in, my, diaries, concerning, foot, and, mouth, i, received, the, parish, magazine, for, december, in, which, there, was, a, thank, you, to, all, involved, in, the, craft, fayre, and, there, was, 1, 008, raised, for, st, giles, church, it, was, good, to, be, able, to, contribute, to, something, in, the, village, well, it, was, my, mum, really, but, i, helped, it, is, good, to, see, these, sorts, of, things, happening, here, it’s, good, for, the, village, after, everything, i, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazine, it, is, still, good, to, receive, this, as, it, updates, you, on, everything, and, also, had, information, regarding, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, which, i, missed, i, am, glad, it, was, a, success, and, people, attended, especially, the, school, children, who, were, taken, i, also, received, the, diarist, which, is, good, to, read, it, is, interesting, to, see, what, other, panel, members, are, up, to, and, is, surprising, what, things, can, lead, to, for, example, the, diarist, and, the, samson, tractor, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, have, also, collected, a, couple, of, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, the, first, one, lie, returns, to, watchtree, actually, made, me, feel, better, that, we, were, going, to, get, something, positive, out, of, this, whole, experience, but, the, only, problem, is, that, at, some, moments, in, time, this, won’t, be, enough, for, some, people, involved, as, it, does, not, change, what, happened, and, won’t, make, up, for, what, has, been, lost, i, think, it, just, depends, on, how, you, are, feeling, at, the, time, when, reading, the, articles, the, other, article, village, in, running, for, top, country, award, was, also, quite, pleasing, as, at, least, we, as, a, village, are, being, remembered, and, recognised, for, what, we, went, through, it, is, surprising, that, now, so, long, after, the, actual, foot, and, mouth, crisis, that, we, are, finally, being, recognised, and, so, many, things, are, now, being, written, in, the, paper, over, the, christmas, period, i, have, only, really, had, one, thing, to, complain, about, and, that, is, the, state, of, the, roads, after, the, rain, the, roads, have, been, terrible, to, drive, on, with, the, flooding, and, the, road, sides, turning, into, mud, everything, is, filthy, i, know, this, is, expected, in, winter, out, in, the, country, but, since, i, have, been, here, it, has, never, been, so, bad, especially, at, fiance, s, grandad’s, one, improvement, is, the, signs, which, have, been, put, up, at, the, passing, places, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad, fiance, and, i, both, think, these, are, much, much, better, and, a, lot, safer, we, have, also, spotted, a, couple, of, signs, from, watchtree, which, have, been, up, now, for, a, while, but, are, still, surprising, to, see, now, it, is, time, to, start, everything, again, the, new, year, and, hopefully, this, will, be, a, better, year, for, great, orton, than, the, past, couple, has, been, i, am, glad, it, is, going, to, be, quiet, here, now, for, when, i, start, my, studying, as, opposed, to, the, foot, and, mouth, when, studying, was, very, very, difficult, monday, 27th, january, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, this, week, i, found, an, article, in, the, daily, mail, which, i, thought, was, relevant, it, is, called, boom, and, doom, and, is, about, house, prices, all, over, england, for, 2002, prices, in, north, yorkshire, rose, by, 66, but, in, allerdale, they, only, rose, by, 8, it, did, not, mention, why, this, was, but, some, of, it, must, be, the, result, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, and, the, effect, on, the, area, since, then, this, made, me, think, about, the, effect, on, great, orton, and, how, difficult, it, would, probably, be, to, sell, houses, here, and, if, people, would, really, want, to, move, here, there, are, two, sides, however, as, if, more, property, was, built, in, great, orton, and, the, surrounding, area, things, would, probably, change, and, great, orton, might, lose, some, of, its, farming, background, i, definitely, wouldn't, want, it, to, change, too, much, despite, the, burial, site, i, like, it, just, the, way, it, is, the, great, thing, about, this, week, is, the, weather, for, once, we, have, been, able, to, go, down, the, lonning, with, dog, without, getting, filthy, as, it, is, frosty, it, has, been, great, i, can’t, believe, how, quickly, 2003, is, passing, it, is, february, already, this, past, month, has, been, totally, hectic, with, appointments, arrangement, birthdays, and, the, open, university, it, makes, you, realise, that, whatever, happens, time, goes, on, i, think, this, must, have, been, very, difficult, for, people, directly, involved, in, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, as, life, would, have, had, to, carry, on, despite, whatever, was, going, on, in, their, own, lives, i, think, as, time, has, gone, on, i, have, got, more, used, to, the, idea, of, watchtree, and, accept, it, more, now, i, received, the, watchtree, news, during, the, previous, week, it, is, good, to, hear, that, the, restoration, and, creation, of, the, site, is, finally, complete, overall, i, don’t, think, it, has, taken, as, long, as, i, thought, it, would, for, the, nature, reserve, to, be, established, especially, when, you, compare, it, to, how, long, it, has, taken, for, the, children’s, playground, to, be, improved, nearly, two, years, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, however, it, is, better, late, than, never, i, am, pleased, at, how, the, nature, reserve, sounds, with, al, the, different, species, of, animal, which, had, been, included, or, seen, especially, the, merlin, the, smallest, bird, of, prey, which, was, sited, fiance, and, i, both, find, these, things, very, interesting, it, is, good, that, this, is, happening, so, close, to, us, last, year, we, travelled, to, see, the, osprey, viewpoint, it, was, great, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, have, also, found, a, few, more, articles, two, of, these, are, regarding, the, 20, day, standstill, with, not, been, directly, involved, in, the, farming, side, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, i, am, not, totally, sure, about, all, these, sorts, of, rules, etc, but, think, it, is, good, that, at, least, things, are, trying, to, be, improved, for, the, future, in, case, this, may, happen, again, and, also, as, a, result, of, learning, from, past, events, there, was, also, an, article, showing, watchtree, as, a, finalist, for, the, environmental, project, award, i, definitely, think, that, watchtree, deserves, to, be, considered, for, this, award, as, so, much, has, happened, here, and, at, least, some, good, is, going, to, come, out, of, it, it, would, be, nice, to, get, this, sort, of, award, in, recognition, of, the, hard, work, of, the, people, involved, i, think, this, year, will, hopefully, be, a, better, one, for, cumbria, and, people, may, have, confidence, even, though, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, was, a, tragedy, i, think, cumbria, and, the, people, in, it, are, able, to, recover, from, it, as, people, from, the, newspaper, articles, seem, more, optimistic, and, this, rubs, off, on, you, i, think, this, year, will, be, a, better, one, and, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, at, this, point, monday, 24th, february, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, so, far, these, past, four, weeks, i, have, not, receive, a, watchtree, newsletter, but, there, was, a, small, mention, in, the, parish, magazine, about, he, playground, work, is, underway, and, it, is, hoped, to, be, finished, by, the, summer, it, seems, to, be, taking, a, long, time, to, get, the, playground, sorted, but, at, least, it, will, be, good, for, the, kids, in, the, summer, holidays, it, is, better, late, than, never, there, is, only, one, thing, that, has, bothered, us, over, these, past, weeks, our, fish, whenever, we, change, the, water, the, fish, seem, to, be, ill, and, now, we, have, had, to, add, more, and, more, chemicals, to, reduce, the, amount, of, chlorine, that, seems, to, be, in, the, water, we, did, originally, start, off, with, 13, fish, and, now, only, have, 2, left, it, does, make, you, worry, about, the, state, of, our, water, and, why, more, chemicals, are, possibly, being, added, the, fact, that, the, burial, site, is, so, near, does, make, you, worry, if, that, is, anything, to, do, with, it, over, the, past, four, weeks, i, have, been, very, confident, about, the, future, regarding, foot, and, mouth, with, the, sun, shining, again, and, the, animals, about, it, seems, as, if, nothing, bad, has, happened, here, but, you, know, that, for, some, people, involved, in, the, crisis, the, future, will, never, be, that, easy, or, simple, and, i, do, feel, sympathy, for, them, for, me, it, seems, possible, to, be, able, to, move, on, now, after, the, crisis, and, it, has, been, good, to, see, the, sheep, and, cows, about, and, fiance, has, even, seen, a, couple, of, birds, of, prey, we, are, not, sure, what, they, were, but, think, one, might, have, been, a, merlin, which, was, mentioned, in, a, previous, watchtree, newsletter, as, being, seen, on, site, the, article, called, record, tourism, figures, for, county, was, encouraging, and, shows, that, cumbria, may, be, starting, to, recover, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, i, also, found, another, article, called, fears, over, bovine, tb, time, bomb, i, think, this, is, worrying, and, should, definitely, be, taken, seriously, as, it, would, be, devastating, to, farmers, and, everyone, in, the, county, in, the, past, fortnight, it, has, also, been, my, mam’s, birthday, she, was, really, looking, forward, to, spending, some, time, out, here, and, we, went, to, bowness, for, the, afternoon, with, dog, once, again, you, realise, how, lovely, it, is, out, here, and, how, much, it, should, be, appreciated, overall, in, my, opinion, the, situation, in, cumbria, over, the, past, year, has, definitely, improved, and, will, hopefully, continue, to, do, so, 24th, march, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, these, past, four, weeks, have, been, rather, strange, and, worrying, first, of, all, there, was, the, death, of, simon, harris, a, man, from, the, village, who, you, would, regularly, see, walking, dogs, and, looking, at, the, horses, despite, what, most, of, the, papers, have, said, about, him, to, me, he, was, always, polite, and, possibly, just, a, bit, shy, i, have, enclosed, an, article, about, him, that, was, in, the, paper, shortly, after, his, death, the, headline, is, not, very, nice, but, the, article, does, include, some, of, the, best, comments, about, simon, i, was, quite, shocked, by, the, whole, thing, and, think, it, could, definitely, have, been, handled, better, by, the, papers, the, people, in, the, village, could, also, have, been, a, bit, more, respectful, i, do, not, think, it, was, their, place, to, comment, in, the, way, that, they, did, secondly, the, whole, issue, of, war, with, iraq, is, a, worrying, subject, neither, fiance, or, i, agree, with, what, is, being, done, and, how, it, is, being, carried, out, it, is, a, particularly, worrying, time, for, fiance, s, aunty, as, her, husband, lives, in, kuwait, with, the, rest, of, his, family, she, came, to, england, where, she, is, originally, from, with, her, two, children, during, the, last, gulf, war, she, knows, all, too, well, what, the, danger, are, and, what, is, involved, it, is, a, very, worrying, subject, where, you, feel, totally, helpless, and, at, the, same, time, cannot, get, away, from, it, however, life, still, carries, on, as, harsh, as, it, may, be, i, thought, of, this, when, looking, at, the, past, diaries, i, have, written, and, how, many, have, accumulated, it, is, strange, how, quickly, time, goes, by, and, how, people, are, just, expected, to, cope, and, carry, on, i, thought, in, particular, of, the, people, worst, affected, by, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, how, helpless, they, must, have, felt, and, how, they, coped, life, can, be, a, funny, thing, looking, back, i, think, this, project, has, been, very, worth, while, and, think, it, is, great, that, they, will, be, archived, for, the, future, writing, these, diaries, seems, to, have, become, part, of, my, routine, now, and, i, think, it, will, definitely, be, strange, when, i, no, longer, have, to, write, them, i, have, found, quite, a, few, newspaper, articles, over, the, past, four, weeks, donella, rebuilds, the, cumberland, show, was, encouraging, about, the, future, of, cumbria, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, however, there, are, still, worrying, issues, arising, such, as, in, the, articles, of, mp, calls, for, vaccination, to, keep, f, m, under, control, and, from, uruguay, with, a, threat, which, highlight, issues, of, important, to, the, farming, industry, i, have, also, been, very, busy, over, the, past, few, weeks, as, my, second, assignment, was, due, for, my, university, work, which, was, quite, hectic, i, have, had, a, break, for, the, past, couple, of, days, as, i, have, not, been, very, well, a, bad, cough, sore, throat, and, stomach, and, a, stuffy, nose, i, haven’t, done, too, badly, over, the, winter, months, with, illnesses, so, i, can’t, really, complain, lastly, our, water, hasn’t, been, of, the, best, quality, lately, on, occasions, it, is, white, and, fizzes, not, the, most, appetizing, 21st, april, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, these, past, 4, weeks, have, just, seem, to, fly, by, quite, a, few, good, things, have, happened, and, even, though, i, am, feeling, quite, tired, i, have, had, a, good, month, firstly, fiance, dog, and, i, have, finally, go, t, a, small, space, of, our, own, we, have, got, an, allotment, about, 8, miles, away, and, it, is, surrounded, by, horses, and, fields, it, belongs, to, a, man, who, lives, there, and, owns, all, the, land, roundabout, but, unfortunately, he, is, no, longer, well, enough, to, work, the, land, so, has, let, us, have, it, it, will, need, a, lot, of, work, but, will, be, good, for, us, so, far, we, have, got, potatoes, raspberries, and, rhubarb, growing, dog, even, helps, to, dig, even, though, we, live, in, the, country, on, our, own, block, it, is, not, always, that, easy, to, get, any, peace, we, have, also, had, the, opportunity, to, join, the, cumbria, wildlife, trust, a, leaflet, came, through, our, door, and, we, thought, it, would, be, brilliant, as, we, would, be, kept, up, to, date, with, all, the, latest, goings, on, in, cumbria, learn, a, lot, more, about, the, wildlife, and, also, possibly, get, the, chance, to, do, some, voluntary, work, fiance, and, i, are, really, interested, and, think, it, is, great, we, get, sent, though, a, certain, number, of, magazines, every, year, and, every, month, we, send, a, small, donation, so, we, feel, like, we, are, helping, a, little, bit, as, well, the, article, which, i, found, in, one, of, the, magazines, id, enclosed, on, the, next, page, the, other, thing, which, has, made, my, month, is, knowing, that, we, are, going, to, hawkshead, again, my, mam, fiance, dog, and, i, are, going, for, a, short, break, just, 3, nights, for, my, birthday, we, have, got, it, all, booked, and, are, really, looking, forward, to, it, it, was, great, last, time, especially, for, dog, i, just, hope, she, doesn’t, get, stuck, under, the, bed, in, the, caravan, this, time, as, she, is, a, bit, bigger, now, than, she, was, then, this, past, week, i, have, also, been, in, touch, with, my, dad, in, south, africa, as, it, was, his, birthday, it, turns, out, that, he, may, be, passing, through, carlisle, for, a, couple, of, days, at, the, end, of, next, week, it, would, be, lovely, to, see, him, again, and, i, think, he, will, love, great, orton, and, our, allotment, i, think, he, has, always, liked, the, thought, of, living, in, the, country, and, would, love, to, retire, to, somewhere, nice, and, quiet, things, will, also, have, improved, and, we, have, grown, up, a, bit, since, he, was, last, here, about, 3, years, ago, it, should, be, good, it, is, funny, that, after, living, in, south, africa, for, so, long, he, is, still, drawn, to, the, lifestyle, in, cumbria, lastly, i, have, made, a, note, of, the, final, meeting, for, the, foot, and, mouth, diaries, and, hope, to, be, there, i, bet, it, passes, really, quickly, now, and, will, be, over, before, i, know, it, how, strange, 28th, april, 4th, may, monday, got, 3, articles, from, cumberland, news, april, 25th, 2003, breeders, hit, out, discrimination, fmd, burial, site, celebrates, new, life, and, my, favourite, its, a, dog’s, life, for, rosie, the, lamb, tuesday, saw, c, friday, noticed, the, park, is, coming, on, a, bit, better, for, the, children, it, was, mentioned, in, the, orton, parish, awarded, 25, 000, to, reference, drain, level, and, re, seed, new, play, equipment, will, follow, saturday, some, of, the, children, were, allowed, to, attend, meetings, to, discuss, it, good, to, involve, children, about, time, too, at, least, children, will, be, able, to, play, football, 5th, 11th, may, tuesday, working, really, hard, have, to, get, assignment, posted, off, tomorrow, night, before, we, go, away, on, thursday, hectic, wednesday, service, held, at, watchtree, unable, to, go, but, think, it, was, a, very, good, idea, newspaper, article, enclosed, was, written, before, the, service, thursday, away, to, hawskhead, exciting, friday, my, birthday, had, a, lovely, day, went, shopping, in, the, morning, to, forest, in, the, afternoon, and, for, a, meal, at, night, lovely, sunday, back, from, holiday, already, it, was, lovely, everyone, was, so, friendly, or, perhaps, we, just, noticed, it, more, there, 12th, 18th, may, tuesday, fiance, at, doctors, not, very, well, he, has, got, a, viral, infection, as, well, as, fluid, behind, his, ears, told, to, just, take, it, easy, wednesday, i, have, been, sent, info, to, chose, courses, for, open, university, that, i, would, like, to, do, next, year, and, in, the, future, am, going, to, take, the, environmental, studies, route, hopefully, leading, to, diploma, in, environment, and, development, and, possibly, further, to, ba, bsc, in, environmental, studies, i, did, like, archaeology, but, think, what, i, am, doing, is, a, lot, more, relevant, to, the, future, foot, and, mouth, and, watchtree, made, me, realise, that, friday, got, watchtree, newsletter, this, week, i, will, enclose, it, this, time, as, it, covers, quite, a, few, areas, and, has, a, bit, of, information, there, is, information, about, the, service, held, awards, that, have, been, won, and, also, new, wildlife, which, are, now, present, on, the, site, lapwings, oystercatchers, and, ringed, plovers, 19th, 25th, may, 2003, tuesday, dad, has, come, to, visit, for, a, couple, of, days, from, south, africa, nice, surprise, enjoyed, seeing, him, dad, asking, about, fmd, crisis, he, saw, it, on, tv, over, there, and, how, close, it, was, i, think, he, was, quite, shocked, thursday, i, was, surprised, that, even, though, south, africa, is, so, different, he, would, still, like, to, live, somewhere, in, this, country, makes, you, think, again, how, lucky, you, are, and, what, you, take, for, granted, saturday, article, from, cumberland, news, may, 23, reward, for, post, foot, and, mouth, achievements, 25th, may, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, every, time, i, come, to, write, these, diaries, i, look, back, over, the, past, four, weeks, and, notice, they, are, becoming, more, and, more, busy, the, past, couple, of, weeks, have, been, no, exception, it, is, already, nearly, half, way, through, the, year, i, can’t, believe, it, over, the, past, 4, weeks, i, have, been, on, holiday, turned, 22, and, my, dad, had, popped, over, from, south, africa, for, a, few, days, hectic, but, good, firstly, hawkshead, was, lovely, again, i, wouldn’t, say, anything, different, it, was, great, we, all, had, a, lovely, time, and, i, had, a, really, good, birthday, when, you, are, at, home, in, great, orton, you, forget, how, much, is, really, out, there, in, cumbria, to, do, and, see, we, definitely, think, we, should, take, advantage, of, it, more, often, shortly, after, we, arrived, back, from, hawkshead, my, dad, popped, up, to, carlisle, for, a, couple, of, days, it, was, a, lovely, surprise, and, it, was, good, to, see, him, he, absolutely, loves, it, where, we, are, and, thinks, we, are, very, lucky, even, though, south, africa, is, so, different, he, still, thinks, it, is, lovely, out, here, looking, out, onto, fields, this, did, make, me, realise, how, lucky, we, are, despite, what, happened, due, to, foot, and, mouth, inevitably, sometimes, we, do, take, it, for, granted, my, dad, remembered, watching, about, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, in, south, africa, but, did, not, realise, exactly, how, close, it, was, i, think, he, was, quite, shocked, foot, and, mouth, has, definitely, made, me, more, aware, of, my, surroundings, and, how, everything, works, i, have, definitely, noticed, this, when, i, have, been, doing, my, studying, for, open, university, i, am, now, at, the, point, where, i, can, chose, my, courses, next, year, and, therefore, which, path, i, am, going, to, take, i, have, decided, to, take, courses, leading, to, a, diploma, in, environment, and, development, and, if, everything, goes, to, plan, for, an, environmental, studies, degree, i, am, really, enjoying, what, i, am, doing, at, the, minute, and, think, it, is, definitely, useful, and, relevant, for, the, future, i, did, enjoy, studying, archaeology, but, think, the, environment, and, related, issues, are, more, important, at, the, present, and, in, the, future, on, the, 7th, may, there, was, a, memorial, service, at, watchtree, to, mark, a, two, year, anniversary, from, when, the, last, animal, was, buried, at, the, site, i, think, this, was, a, good, idea, and, it, is, appropriate, to, remember, the, animals, that, were, killed, i, was, unable, to, attend, the, service, but, have, managed, to, get, a, newspaper, article, about, it, and, it, was, also, mentioned, in, the, watchtree, newsletter, i, have, included, this, newsletter, in, with, these, diaries, at, it, contains, quite, a, bit, of, information, on, a, few, different, aspects, i, think, it, is, good, about, the, wildlife, which, is, emerging, on, the, site, the, park, or, play, area, for, children, is, also, coming, on, fairly, well, at, last, it, has, finally, been, reseeded, as, well, as, levelled, it, looks, better, i, have, also, included, 4, newspaper, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, with, my, favourite, being, rosie, the, lamb, i, have, put, this, article, in, as, i, thought, it, was, lovely, 22nd, june, 2004, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, how, strange, it, seems, that, all, this, is, coming, to, an, end, and, really, how, quickly, time, has, passed, in, my, situation, i, would, say, that, time, has, healed, a, few, aspects, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, and, things, don’t, seem, so, bad, 18, months, on, i, enjoyed, the, foot, and, mouth, evening, and, learnt, a, lot, from, it, about, other, people’s, views, and, experiences, i, enjoyed, it, a, lot, more, than, i, thought, i, would, and, thought, that, the, main, themes, found, during, the, research, were, ones, which, i, would, have, agreed, with, one, thing, which, was, said, which, has, made, me, think, was, the, comment, that, these, diaries, would, be, our, type, of, memorial, i, had, never, once, thought, of, this, research, in, that, sort, of, way, but, the, more, i, think, about, it, the, more, i, agree, and, like, the, idea, it, definitely, has, been, worthwhile, being, able, to, contribute, to, something, especially, if, it, may, be, able, to, help, in, some, way, in, the, future, when, compared, to, the, article, that, i, found, in, the, cumberland, news, about, a, man’s, memorial, to, the, animals, that, he, lost, during, foot, and, mouth, i, definitely, think, ours, is, more, fitting, and, will, probably, do, some, good, i, understand, everyone, has, the, right, to, express, their, views, in, their, own, way, but, to, me, this, was, too, loud, and, too, inappropriate, however, each, to, their, own, and, at, the, end, of, the, day, at, least, people, are, trying, to, remember, in, a, good, way, as, opposed, to, sweeping, it, under, the, carpet, the, week, of, the, foot, and, mouth, evening, we, were, without, a, car, and, noticed, how, much, we, relied, on, it, and, took, it, for, granted, especially, out, here, as, there, is, a, very, limited, bus, service, everything, is, sorted, out, now, and, we, are, back, to, normal, with, a, newer, little, car, thank, you, very, much, c, for, the, lift, there, and, back, in, general, the, past, few, months, just, seem, to, have, flown, by, and, in, particular, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, don’t, seem, to, have, time, to, fit, everything, in, and, am, trying, to, get, my, assignments, done, on, time, it, turns, out, to, be, quite, a, bit, more, difficult, than, i, thought, it, is, hard, work, but, will, definitely, be, worth, it, in, th, end, over, the, past, 6, months, even, i, have, learnt, so, much, the, next, special, occasion, which, is, coming, up, is, fiance, s, birthday, 21st, july, we, are, thinking, of, going, back, to, hawkshead, again, for, a, few, days, we, really, like, it, there, and, i’m, sure, will, return, again, and, again, it, just, shows, you, that, you, don’t, need, to, leave, cumbria, to, have, a, good, holiday, well, here, we, are, at, the, end, it, just, makes, me, wonder, what, life, will, be, like, in, 18, months, from, now, will, things, be, any, different, they, probably, will, be, in, some, ways, and, hopefully, will, be, for, the, best, 20th, july, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, it, does, seem, very, strange, to, be, sitting, down, to, write, my, last, lot, of, diaries, it, feels, good, to, have, completed, something, as, worthwhile, as, this, as, well, as, it, hopefully, doing, some, good, in, the, future, concerning, foot, and, mouth, crisis, or, any, other, similar, situation, i, also, find, it, has, helped, me, to, become, a, bit, more, confident, and, aware, of, things, around, me, i, remember, back, to, when, i, attended, my, first, meeting, and, how, nervous, i, was, i, think, i, can, handle, things, like, that, a, bit, better, now, we, have, just, got, back, from, holiday, we, had, a, lovely, time, and, did, so, much, we, went, walking, with, dog, to, many, places, and, they, are, all, free, it, just, shows, you, what, a, good, holiday, you, can, have, in, cumbria, on, a, cheap, budget, you, don’t, need, much, else, the, only, disappointing, thing, is, that, some, of, the, places, fiance, and, i, had, been, to, in, the, past, are, now, closed, as, they, have, been, sold, this, has, not, yet, happened, to, talkin, tarn, and, i, definitely, think, it, should, be, given, to, the, cumbria, wildlife, trust, as, people, would, still, have, access, to, it, fiance, and, i, both, agree, that, the, countryside, is, recovering, and, it, is, great, to, be, able, to, wander, about, again, i, have, collected, a, few, more, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, related, to, foot, and, mouth, it, is, good, to, see, breeders, doing, well, again, and, people, getting, back, into, the, swing, of, things, i, would, just, like, to, thank, everyone, involved, for, involving, me, in, this, project, and, i, wish, them, all, the, best, in, the, future]
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               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being, in, change, of, an, offensive, weapon, a, knife, the, judge, had, acquitted, her, of, the, offences, he, showed, leniency, towards, her, last, year, during, the, fmd, crisis, she, had, returned, to, her, home, to, find, that, her, pet, goat, had, been, killed, by, slaughterers, because, the, animal, was, within, the, 3, km, radius, she, had, gone, berserk, over, this, and, threatened, the, police, officer, and, others, with, the, knife, she, had, to, be, forcibly, restrained, she, was, very, distraught, over, this, killing, even, after, she, had, appeared, in, court, and, had, been, acquitted, of, all, charges, she, showed, great, emotion, not, only, being, freed, but, also, quite, upset, over, the, loss, of, the, goat, perhaps, her, actions, didn’t, happen, to, a, lot, of, other, people, who, had, similar, things, happen, to, them, however, the, loss, of, a, lot, of, pet, animals, and, in, some, cases, needless, slaughter, of, many, farm, animals, still, creates, unhappy, memories, of, 2001, week, 2, tuesday, whilst, walking, the, dog, i, met, a, farmer, from, the, edge, of, the, village, who, has, friends, and, stock, in, close, proximity, to, the, 2, land, fill, sites, he, is, still, very, concerned, about, materials, on, these, sites, the, nearest, site, contained, hundreds, of, carcasses, this, has, been, completed, and, capped, he, is, concerned, about, leachate, from, this, site, and, feels, that, it, doesn’t, matter, how, much, clay, and, soil, were, used, to, contain, this, site, the, effects, of, heavy, rain, is, bound, to, find, a, way, down, and, also, to, drain, it, he, doesn’t, want, to, plough, these, fields, nor, can, he, sell, stock, that, have, grazed, the, same, fields, there, is, pyre, ash, being, tipped, on, the, other, site, again, what, happens, to, the, rainwater, that, runs, off, this, site, also, there, are, concerns, about, the, large, flocks, of, seagulls, that, visit, both, sites, daily, another, concern, is, what, is, happening, to, the, open, cast, coal, site, that, is, situated, almost, due, south, of, gilgarran, village, the, farmer, i, talked, to, today, is, concerned, about, this, huge, site, no, coal, has, been, moved, from, this, site, for, months, there, are, concerns, that, this, site, is, going, to, be, filled, with, waste, will, it, be, from, fmd, sites, we, as, a, village, are, very, concerned, about, rumours, of, land, fill, on, a, huge, scale, friday, noticed, that, there, was, work, being, carried, out, on, the, top, of, the, burial, site, no, villagers, have, commented, on, this, despite, large, yellow, diggers, operating, sunday, work, continuing, on, the, burial, site, cannot, make, out, what, kind, of, work, is, being, done, there, week, 3, monday, work, is, still, going, on, at, the, burial, site, i, still, don’t, know, what, is, going, on, but, the, diggers, involved, are, the, same, as, when, animals, were, being, buried, there, when, animals, were, being, buried, there, last, year, the, smell, coming, from, that, site, was, terrible, to, say, the, least, it, was, not, coming, from, the, dead, animals, as, most, observers, thought, but, from, decomposing, waste, material, that, had, already, been, buried, on, the, site, prior, to, fmd, when, excavators, dug, into, the, soil, to, make, trenches, for, the, dead, animals, they, dug, into, this, decomposing, matter, hence, the, terrible, smell, despite, the, work, that, is, going, on, there, today, no, comments, from, villagers, are, forthcoming, it, seems, to, me, that, now, that, fmd, has, gone, the, general, public, are, not, interested, any, more, unless, they, read, something, in, the, local, papers, written, by, some, enterprising, reporter, week, 4, tuesday, work, is, still, going, on, in, the, former, burial, site, villagers, don’t, seem, to, be, bothered, fmd, is, gone, so, nobody, is, interested, any, more, wednesday, whilst, trying, to, gain, comments, from, villagers, over, the, effects, of, fmd, one, or, two, comments, from, some, individuals, show, concern, about, the, outbreak, last, year, but, don’t, seem, too, concerned, over, any, after, effects, if, any, two, interesting, comments, suggest, that, 1, the, outbreak, was, started, deliberately, by, this, country, in, collusion, with, the, agriculturists, of, the, e.e.c, so, as, to, concentrate, meat, production, in, europe, and, leave, the, uk, to, concentrate, on, arable, farming, 2, the, outbreak, was, started, by, a, terrorist, attack, the, government, would, not, declare, this, because, it, would, cause, widespread, panic, thursday, 23, 25, hours, huge, fire, at, the, site, where, pyre, ash, is, being, tipped, 250,000, used, tyres, caught, fire, arson, is, suspected, fire, fighters, tried, to, contain, the, blaze, but, couldn’t, use, large, amounts, of, water, in, case, water, courses, became, contaminated, friday, 05, 00, fire, still, blazing, at, the, pyre, ash, site, later, in, the, morning, the, fire, was, showing, signs, of, dying, down, apparently, it, was, left, to, burn, itself, out, much, heavy, smoke, pollution, was, evident, drifting, south, west, for, about, nine, miles, reading, the, local, evening, paper, about, the, blaze, there, was, also, a, report, that, villagers, from, disington, 1, miles, from, gilgarran, were, complaining, of, the, foul, smell, from, both, waste, sites, parish, councillors, are, very, concerned, about, this, does, it, coincide, with, work, currently, being, carried, out, on, the, burial, site, the, smell, from, these, sites, plus, the, fact, that, animals, were, buried, on, one, site, and, pyre, ash, plus, the, huge, fire, from, the, other, site, all, happening, this, week, is, causing, concern, in, this, area, but, once, this, hue, and, cry, dies, down, people, will, soon, forget, about, it, all, week, 5, monday, through, to, friday, observed, work, on, top, of, the, burial, site, don’t, know, if, any, work, is, still, going, on, on, the, northern, and, western, sides, friday, local, weekly, paper, carried, the, report, on, the, recent, large, fire, that, occurred, on, the, alco, site, last, week, when, 250,000, tyres, caught, fire, somehow, it, was, intersting, to, read, that, the, fire, brigade, did, not, use, any, water, to, extinguish, the, blaze, in, case, pollution, occurred, in, water, courses, the, fire, was, left, to, burn, itself, out, saturday, burial, site, it, looks, like, there, is, new, soil, being, tipped, on, top, for, some, reason, no, reported, comments, froim, the, parish, council, over, this, despite, very, vociferous, objections, by, them, over, the, use, of, this, and, the, alco, site, in, the, past, sunday, talked, to, our, local, county, councillor, who, lives, in, this, village, he, feels, very, strongly, that, these, two, sites, are, dangerous, he, thinks, that, both, sites, are, a, health, hazard, risk, due, to, obnoxious, odours, and, in, particular, the, large, fire, that, occurred, last, week, which, produced, a, lot, of, polluted, smoke, for, a, distance, of, six, miles, some, people, reckoned, that, the, smell, of, burning, tyres, could, be, smelt, here, in, gilgarran, there, have, been, numerous, fires, on, these, sites, over, the, last, few, years, these, fires, give, rise, to, compaliant, by, people, like, us, but, more, so, from, the, nearer, village, of, distington, 1, miles, west, of, here, the, councillor, suggests, that, there, could, be, more, incidents, of, cancer, cases, in, this, area, in, coming, years, along, with, respiratory, troubles, as, well, as, some, cases, of, bronchitis, related, problems, he, himself, has, recently, suddenly, started, sinusitis, which, he, hasn’t, had, before, all, in, all, he, wasn’t, happy, about, the, situation, on, both, sites, we, don’t, know, what, is, being, tipped, there, all, we, can, do, as, a, community, is, accept, what, we, are, being, told, by, the, site, owners, as, previously, stated, animal, carcasses, were, being, tipped, and, buried, for, about, three, days, before, we, were, told, officially, that, this, was, so, incidentally, the, site, where, animals, are, buried, is, owned, by, cumbria, county, council, this, seems, to, be, totally, against, the, advice, of, county, council, officials, who, look, after, the, environment, and, the, health, of, the, population, as, i’ve, written, before, there, are, going, to, be, bigger, concerns, if, the, opencast, coal, site, to, the, south, of, the, village, becomes, a, landfill, site, for, refuse, from, parts, of, the, county, fifty, miles, away, at, the, moment, there, are, no, suggestions, that, anything, from, the, fmd, outbreak, will, be, dumped, there, having, said, that, however, we, as, villagers, didn’t, know, of, carcasses, being, buried, or, pyre, ash, being, tipped, until, after, it, had, happened, we, await, the, outcome, of, this, coal, site, with, some, trepidation, after, all, no, coal, has, come, from, this, site, for, some, months, it, has, all, the, indication, of, becoming, a, land, fill, site, week, 6, monday, to, wednesday, if, work, is, still, ongoing, at, the, burial, site, it, is, not, visible, from, our, side, of, the, site, i, still, don’t, know, what, is, going, on, there, it, may, all, be, innocent, and, an, improvement, to, the, environment, after, all, this, is, what, the, site, owners, have, to, do, thursday, a, delegation, of, meps, visit, the, north, of, the, county, they, have, come, to, assess, the, situation, for, themselves, and, to, report, back, to, the, european, parliament, no, doubt, they, will, also, report, back, to, their, own, constituents, in, their, own, countries, the, delegation, visit, the, auction, mart, at, longtown, where, the, disease, was, first, noticed, in, this, country, and, also, visited, the, big, burial, site, at, great, orton, where, it, was, estimated, that, half, a, million, carcasses, were, buried, good, coverage, by, the, local, press, radio, and, t.v, gave, anyone, interested, the, views, of, the, delegation, thursday, saturday, the, mep, delegation, agreed, that, the, fmd, situation, had, been, disastrous, we, all, know, that, comments, from, some, tourist, and, agriculture, observers, ranged, from, a, waste, of, time, to, at, least, some, politicians, have, bothered, to, visit, us, our, own, couldn’t, do, that, personally, i, think, that, some, good, came, out, of, this, particularly, when, it, was, reported, that, the, dutch, had, used, vaccination, techniques, when, they, had, a, small, outbreak, many, people, think, that, the, british, government, should, have, had, a, public, inquiry, into, the, outbreak, what, have, they, to, hide, cumbria, is, holding, its, own, inquiry, quite, rightly, so, other, organisations, such, as, lancaster, university, are, holding, research, into, the, outbreak, why, not, the, government, eventually, we, will, know, why, perhaps, not, in, my, lifetime, though, the, minister, and, maff, have, a, lot, to, answer, for, week, 7, thought, it, would, be, of, interest, to, include, copies, of, the, newsletter, that, the, local, authorities, issued, to, every, household, in, the, area, regarding, the, disposal, of, carcasses, and, effluent, it, will, be, of, note, that, there, was, a, fire, last, year, on, the, alco, site, also, involving, tyres, very, similar, to, last, years, only, not, as, big, a, report, on, local, t.v, today, stated, that, the, recent, visit, of, meps, to, the, area, considered, that, vaccination, should, have, been, used, at, the, outset, and, be, should, seriously, considered, should, a, future, outbreak, occur, heard, of, reports, of, an, outbreak, of, t.b, in, cattle, in, other, parts, of, the, country, this, was, reported, to, be, more, serious, than, fmd, should, a, major, outbreak, occur, this, would, lead, to, the, question, of, disposal, should, the, need, arise, as, i’ve, already, reported, in, previous, entries, the, use, of, the, opencast, coal, site, to, the, south, east, of, here, is, causing, concern, in, some, quarters, although, the, site, didn’t, feature, in, the, fmd, crisis, there, is, a, feeling, that, it, is, being, earmarked, for, use, in, the, future, should, the, need, arise, or, even, the, rumour, of, an, incinerator, is, planned, for, there, the, general, feeling, here, and, in, the, surrounding, area, is, that, we, have, had, enough, dumping, of, carcasses, effluent, toxic, chemicals, etc, it, could, be, that, the, authorities, have, seen, that, the, sites, concerned, have, handled, those, substances, before, that, an, extension, of, disposal, sites, in, this, area, would, be, effective, week, 8, nothing, of, any, significance, to, report, this, week, week, 9, now, that, cumbria’s, fmd, inquiry, has, started, a, lot, of, people, i, have, met, this, week, recall, the, happenings, of, a, year, ago, even, more, interesting, is, the, coverage, in, the, local, press, and, t.v, plenty, of, publicity, by, the, media, shows, how, little, the, government, an, maff, in, particular, let, the, farming, and, tourism, industries, of, the, county, down, there, has, been, plenty, of, distressing, stories, by, farmers, not, only, of, infected, animals, being, slaughtered, but, also, the, slaughtering, of, healthy, animals, in, the, 3, km, circle, of, an, outbreak, one, particularly, distressing, point, of, evidence, was, when, a, farmer, described, to, the, panel, the, birth, of, a, calf, five, days, after, it’s, mother, had, been, shot, we, at, the, time, of, the, outbreak, were, hearing, these, stories, on, a, daily, basis, and, still, maff, and, mr, brown, kept, telling, us, that, the, outbreak, was, under, control, all, i, can, say, at, this, point, is, may, heaven, help, us, when, it, all, happens, again, week, 10, work, is, still, going, on, at, the, burial, site, it, looks, like, new, soil, is, being, dumped, on, top, of, the, actual, site, and, dozed, to, level, it, of, and, to, smooth, it, out, on, the, side, all, we, can, do, is, accept, that, the, management, of, the, site, are, making, it, better, for, all, concerned, and, that, they, are, as, concerned, as, we, are, the, much, publicised, cumbrian, fmd, inquiry, team, visited, the, land, fill, site, they, met, local, councillors, who, expressed, their, concern, over, this, site, and, the, alco, site, no, other, report, was, forthcoming, from, the, team, the, inquiry, team, finish, their, evidence, gathering, this, week, one, very, important, statement, was, made, that, the, minister, of, the, environment, should, make, a, statement, over, this, outbreak, and, should, even, make, a, visit, to, these, sites, county, wide, there, has, been, total, silence, from, mrs, beckett’s, department, over, this, request, the, same, silence, is, observed, from, any, government, source, for, that, matter, everyone, asks, the, same, questions, what, have, they, got, to, hide, why, aren’t, they, interested, what, plans, are, being, made, and, what, lessons, have, been, learned, from, last, years, outbreak, a, lot, of, farms, are, restocking, and, in, this, neighbourhood, farm, work, is, going, on, as, before, or, so, it, looks, as, time, goes, on, though, there, seems, to, be, a, smouldering, anger, that, no, one, in, authority, is, as, concerned, as, well, are, week, 11, work, is, still, on, going, at, the, burial, site, no, comments, heard, from, any, of, the, villagers, or, neighbours, this, week, diary, 12, monday, from, my, own, observation, work, is, still, ongoing, at, the, burial, site, more, heavy, plant, has, been, moved, on, to, the, top, of, the, giant, amount, and, it, looks, as, though, more, topsoil, is, being, laid, over, the, mount, perhaps, to, improve, the, site, but, water, may, still, permeate, into, and, through, the, site, we, can, only, believe, the, operators, that, this, is, a, right, thing, to, do, friday, talked, to, 2, it, villagers, about, the, after, effects, of, fmd, one, said, oh, it's, all, over, now, and, forgotten, about, it, doesn't, bother, me, one, bit, the, other, said, it, all, in, the, past, we, just, have, to, forget, about, it, it, seems, that, life, is, returning, to, normal, in, all, aspects, of, village, life, people, don't, think, about, last, year, unless, the, diarist, mentions, that, sunday, a, bad, day, or, weather, wise, this, prolonged, rain, may, halt, work, on, the, burial, site, most, people, are, reluctant, to, talk, about, f, m, d, now, even, if, it, was, one, of, the, worst, economic, and, social, disasters, to, hit, this, country, and, this, county, in, particular, now, that, it, is, over, people's, memories, begin, to, fade, however, some, of, us, are, not, happy, at, having, these, two, disposal, sites, within, a, 1000, metres, of, this, village, fmd, may, be, over, but, these, burial, sites, are, here, for, a, long, time, yet, diary, 13, observed, in, work, on, burial, site, more, heavy, machinery, and, plant, moved, in, and, large, quantities, of, soil, are, being, laid, down, and, smoothed, out, diary, 14, talked, to, some, religious, today, about, the, after, effects, of, fmd, without, exception, they, are, not, interested, it's, all, over, with, an, idle, one, to, be, reminded, about, it, are, the, general, comments, nobody, seems, bothered, that, there, are, hundreds, of, animals, buried, a, 1000, yards, from, his, village, or, the, fact, that, there, is, leachate, and, pyre, ash, buried, in, another, site, looking, at, the, burial, site, and, the, work, that, is, going, on, there, it, does, look, as, though, the, management, there, are, doing, everything, to, make, the, site, safe, diary, 15, i, met, a, smallholder, today, to, whom, i, have, talked, to, in, the, past, about, the, effects, and, after, effects, of, fmd, he, still, not, happy, about, the, burial, site, despite, the, landscaping, and, smoothing, off, of, the, large, quantities, of, topsoil, only, time, will, tell, he, says, he, does, not, have, any, stock, near, to, the, site, but, he, has, sheep, on, the, farmer's, land, since, fmd, finished, though, his, stock, movements, are, still, restricted, by, new, legislation, that, has, come, in, since, the, area, was, declared, free, for, instance, or, if, he, takes, a, sheep, to, auction, he, asked, to, have, nine, pieces, of, paper, for, this, transaction, if, the, price, is, not, right, and, he, has, to, take, the, she, back, to, his, land, he, was, put, them, back, in, the, same, field, that, they, came, from, and, it, cannot, move, them, to, three, weeks, he, then, has, to, obtain, a, licence, to, do, this, he, does, think, that, the, authorities, are, not, going, to, be, as, strict, shortly, this, is, just, one, of, the, precautions, that, have, come, in, to, try, and, combat, any, recurrence, of, fmd, diary, 16, i, met, the, smallholder, who, rents, land, a, from, the, farmer, in, the, village, his, income, from, the, sheep, that, he, a, breeds, has, been, nil, like, many, more, people, in, similar, circumstances, fortunately, for, him, had, he, has, an, income, from, another, source, the, subject, of, compensation, came, up, during, our, conversation, i, personally, do, not, have, any, comment, to, make, about, this, item, as, it, maybe, just, a, rumour, apparently, he, got, it, bee, in, his, bonnet, about, compensation, paid, out, to, people, who, were, not, in, the, agricultural, business, what, seemed, to, upset, him, was, that, he, had, heard, that, some, of, fish, and, chip, shop, owner, in, the, lake, district, had, been, paid, 170, per, month, compensation, for, the, loss, of, trade, he, didn't, mind, too, much, that, hoteliers, and, guest, house, owners, had, claimed, compensation, but, wondered, where, else, would, this, kind, of, money, go, when, he, himself, had, been, paid, nothing, this, is, the, first, time, i've, heard, this, one, diary, 17, attended, the, cumberland, show, at, every, to, be, park, carlisle, we, as, a, family, used, to, attend, this, annual, show, regularly, both, as, spectators, and, competitors, we, have, never, seen, the, show, like, the, one, put, on, this, year, when, will, things, really, get, back, to, normal, many, of, us, think, that, agriculture, is, back, to, pre, fmd, cattle, and, sheep, on, grazing, in, the, fields, lambing, has, reached, new, heights, in, produce, on, some, farms, calves, are, being, born, silage, and, haymaking, is, progressing, when, the, weather, permits, but, there, are, still, restrictions, on, animal, movements, hence, no, sheep, cattle, or, pigs, at, this, year's, show, only, horses, poultry, dogs, and, rabbits, not, many, pieces, of, agricultural, machinery, onshore, either, plenty, of, chartered, accountants, tents, craft, tents, horse, feeds, and, tack, displays, in, the, main, arena, and, bands, not, an, agricultural, show, as, we, knew, it, it, seems, to, be, the, same, at, other, shows, ennerdale, show, is, one, of, our, local, shows, this, year, there, isn't, going, to, be, any, horses, or, sheep, generally, there, are, no, cattle, shown, at, the, show, but, without, sheep, hill, farmers, dominate, the, show, the, there, isn't, going, to, be, much, on, show, at, all, it, was, always, a, good, show, for, equestrian, events, at, many, levels, this, show, was, always, a, must, for, our, family, i, don't, think, that, we, will, be, going, this, year, diary, 18, from, the, golf, course, and, golf, driving, range, i, can, look, out, on, to, the, western, side, of, the, burial, site, i, have, written, in, previous, weeks, about, the, work, there, has, been, going, on, at, this, site, viewing, the, site, are, from, our, village, side, would, hardly, know, what, that, there, ever, was, a, burial, site, hundreds, of, tons, of, topsoil, had, been, laid, and, smoothed, out, to, make, more, or, less, like, a, landscaped, feature, it, looks, really, good, from, the, western, side, though, things, are, little, different, work, is, still, going, on, there, large, amounts, of, soil, have, been, tipped, and, levelled, off, there, are, still, portakabins, there, and, heavy, plant, can, still, be, seen, moving, about, no, doubt, the, western, side, well, look, as, good, as, the, eastern, side, before, long, diary, 19, it, is, announced, that, the, prime, minister, and, his, wife, and, son, of, his, family, at, a, visit, to, cumbria, the, pm, arrives, in, west, cumbria, all, kinds, of, reports, are, written, in, the, local, and, national, press, about, what, he, is, going, to, do, or, not, do, or, what, he, should, be, doing, after, all, he, is, on, holiday, the, pm, did, meet, some, farmers, leaders, the, press, as, usual, stirred, things, up, or, as, to, where, he, should, be, meeting, tourism, officials, say, that, the, trip, was, fantastic, for, tourism, in, the, county, or, person, they, i, can't, see, what, difference, it, made, if, people, want, to, come, cumbria, they, will, come, irrespective, of, whether, the, pm, comes, or, not, diary, 20, after, a, lot, of, protests, it, looks, as, though, it, the, 20, day, restriction, on, cattle, movement, will, be, lifted, perhaps, this, will, now, mean, that, they, could, be, cattle, and, sheep, entries, at, local, agricultural, shows, some, shows, are, going, ahead, with, very, limited, entries, of, livestock, and, some, with, no, animal, entries, at, all, these, shows, have, always, been, very, popular, with, my, family, for, over, 20, years, also, living, with, in, a, farming, community, makes, us, feel, part, of, the, annual, agricultural, scene, diary, 21, i’ve, written, before, regarding, agricultural, shows, and, the, pride, in, which, local, people, take, in, these, shows, although, a, lot, of, shows, have, gone, ahead, this, season, they, have, had, a, reduced, animal, showing, or, in, some, cases, no, animals, at, all, today, i’ve, heard, that, one, show, has, been, cancelled, altogether, this, particular, show, is, one, of, the, most, popular, in, the, area, maybe, because, of, lack, of, entries, or, the, organisers, just, wanted, to, cancel, because, of, the, 3, week, restriction, on, animal, movement, i, don’t, know, perhaps, it, would, be, better, to, cancel, them, than, have, a, depleted, show, diary, 22, spent, a, few, hours, in, the, fells, today, it, was, good, to, be, able, to, wander, the, familiar, paths, and, let, our, dog, run, free, it, was, a, good, boost, to, our, moral, and, perhaps, the, dog’s, too, we, all, missed, being, able, to, do, this, last, year, diary, 23, last, bank, holiday, before, xmas, and, the, last, before, the, schools, go, back, at, the, golf, course, where, i, help, out, part, time, during, the, summer, we, had, lots, of, customers, a, lot, of, them, commented, on, how, enjoyable, it, was, to, be, on, holiday, in, this, area, this, year, compared, to, the, restrictions, that, were, in, place, last, year, maybe, the, holiday, establishments, are, getting, back, to, normal, there, are, no, restrictions, put, on, them, like, there, is, in, place, now, with, farmers, and, agriculture, diary, 26, sorting, through, the, mail, left, whilst, away, on, holiday, and, i, came, across, a, notice, sent, by, the, village, committee, notifying, a, harvest, thanksgiving, festival, to, be, held, next, month, in, the, village, hall, as, we, have, no, church, in, the, village, it, is, being, held, in, some, farm, buildings, in, the, centre, of, the, village, this, will, be, a, splendid, event, the, farm, did, not, have, fmd, but, couldn’t, take, animals, from, one, field, to, another, and, couldn’t, market, them, when, we, consider, the, gloom, that, settled, on, this, farm, and, community, it, is, very, welcome, to, have, this, unique, event, here, in, the, heart, of, the, village, and, the, farmer, and, his, wife, will, be, at, the, centre, of, events, a, lovely, gesture, and, i, hope, it, will, be, well, supported, there, will, be, a, distribution, of, harvest, gifts, afterwards, what, a, change, from, a, year, ago, diary, 27, with, the, aid, of, binoculars, i, have, been, able, to, have, a, closer, look, at, the, burial, site, from, a, westerly, direction, there, are, vents, in, the, shape, of, small, towers, to, extract, gas, from, the, site, there, are, pipes, connecting, these, vents, a, lot, of, work, is, still, going, on, there, however, all, this, takes, place, in, the, western, side, which, is, the, opposite, side, to, where, my, village, is, situated, from, our, side, there, is, nothing, to, suggest, the, amount, of, work, going, on, because, of, this, fmd, is, pushed, further, into, the, backs, of, villager’s, minds, it, is, something, in, the, past, it, has, happened, so, what, people, like, myself, who, talk, to, farmers, and, agriculturalists, do, not, easily, forget, these, events, personally, i, am, still, concerned, about, the, burial, site, when, inquiries, are, made, about, it, all, we, can, do, is, accept, what, we, are, told, it, does, not, look, as, though, every, precaution, is, being, taken, to, alleviate, an, odours, or, contamination, diary, 28, i, had, to, see, the, village, farmer, on, another, matter, and, was, asked, inside, for, coffee, and, a, chat, he, was, able, to, tell, me, of, the, full, implications, of, the, 20, day, rule, he, accepts, that, this, is, a, precaution, to, prevent, another, outbreak, of, fmd, but, there, is, a, lot, of, work, involved, he, told, me, of, an, isolation, area, that, he, has, created, and, also, the, fencing, arrangements, where, his, land, adjoins, the, neighbours, land, i, would, say, that, 95, of, the, public, don’t, know, about, this, even, if, they, have, heard, of, the, 20, day, rule, for, him, he, owns, the, largest, farm, in, the, area, it, is, bad, enough, having, to, do, all, the, physical, work, as, regards, fencing, etc, but, for, anyone, such, as, a, small, holder, it, must, be, a, nightmare, if, he, has, to, bring, animals, back, from, market, that, haven’t, been, sold, friday, my, wife, and, i, played, a, round, of, golf, at, aspatria, this, course, was, badly, restricted, when, fmd, hit, this, area, we, were, reminded, that, there, are, restrictions, on, adjoining, land, there, were, notices, asking, people, who, hit, balls, onto, farm, land, not, to, cross, the, fence, to, retrieve, them, because, of, fmd, precautions, this, was, news, to, us, it, does, make, sense, though, the, farmer, wouldn’t, know, where, players, had, been, walking, prior, to, playing, golf, diary, 29, attended, the, harvest, festival, held, in, the, village, farm, a, large, cattle, shed, had, been, cleaned, and, decorated, for, this, event, chairs, had, been, brought, in, fruit, and, vegetables, were, on, display, for, auctioning, at, the, end, the, place, was, packed, a, lot, of, money, was, raised, and, it, was, a, very, happy, event, well, supported, and, a, big, boost, for, the, farm, and, the, village, i, don’t, think, that, the, general, public, care, much, about, fmd, now, that, is, has, been, a, year, since, the, last, case, was, confirmed, in, cumbria, the, public, may, be, reminded, if, they, read, the, local, newspapers, intently, for, instance, there, was, a, letter, to, the, editor, published, recently, which, referred, to, the, results, of, the, cumbria, inquiry, into, fmd, it, may, have, been, a, farmer, who, wrote, it, i, don’t, know, but, the, writer, certainly, went, to, town, in, the, scathing, comments, on, the, handling, of, fmd, even, caustic, remarks, regarding, the, efforts, since, fmd, of, defra, and, mrs, beckett, i, certainly, wouldn’t, like, to, cross, the, writer, i, also, think, the, farming, community, must, be, holding, it’s, breath, in, case, the, present, restrictions, such, as, they, are, prove, to, be, worthless, then, we, will, all, suffer, again, week, 30, what, a, difference, a, year, makes, despite, some, restrictions, on, public, access, to, agricultural, fields, in, some, areas, of, the, county, it, doesn’t, apply, here, although, most, locals, confine, themselves, to, footpaths, and, bridleways, other, people, seem, to, think, that, all, fields, are, recreation, areas, they, walk, and, run, across, some, of, the, fields, in, close, proximity, to, the, village, regardless, of, the, presence, of, stock, they, exercise, dogs, and, treat, it, as, a, some, kind, of, park, one, farmer, is, well, know, for, being, aggressive, he, used, last, year’s, fmd, outbreak, to, run, people, off, his, land, i, met, a, local, councillor, who, expressed, concerns, regarding, the, proposed, building, of, an, incinerator, to, the, south, of, the, village, on, the, current, open, cast, mining, site, the, two, waste, disposal, sites, to, the, west, and, north, west, of, the, village, have, become, big, issues, in, the, last, 18, months, due, to, the, burial, of, animals, and, the, disposal, of, pyre, ash, and, leachates, it, seems, as, though, we, are, going, to, get, over, this, ghastly, fmd, outbreak, only, to, have, this, scenario, thrust, upon, us, week, 31, met, a, small, holder, who, keeps, sheep, near, to, this, village, he, was, very, scathing, over, the, report, that, the, government, and, defra, don’t, want, to, talk, up, an, offer, from, the, local, authorities, here, to, implement, findings, and, recommendations, from, their, local, inquiry, over, fmd, why, what, has, this, government, who, didn’t, perform, very, well, during, the, outbreak, got, to, hide, and, why, shirk, away, from, the, findings, instead, of, facing, up, to, the, failings, that, we, all, know, about, it, also, seems, that, they, don’t, want, to, make, any, safeguards, and, recommendations, to, avoid, a, further, outbreak, as, a, non, agriculturalist, it, doesn’t, surprise, me, in, the, least, after, all, government, has, failed, other, industries, in, the, country, for, as, long, as, i, can, remember, week, 32, i, am, convinced, that, authorities, in, the, area, must, think, that, the, way, animals, were, buried, here, and, pyre, ash, and, leachate, were, disposed, of, at, another, site, nearby, was, all, done, as, very, successfully, and, that, the, two, sites, handled, everything, professionally, therefore, the, sites, would, be, more, than, capable, of, handling, ash, from, an, incinerator, to, me, this, is, the, legacy, of, fmd, i, am, most, annoyed, over, this, together, with, a, lot, more, of, the, villagers, this, village, no, longer, has, a, representative, on, the, parish, council, both, have, resigned, for, whatever, reason, and, no, one, will, step, forward, to, take, it, one, i, have, said, that, i, would, take, a, set, on, the, parish, council, to, represent, the, village, and, fight, for, our, rights, and, future, quality, of, life, due, to, this, i, have, uncovered, a, pile, of, claims, and, counter, claims, it, seems, that, both, parish, and, district, counsellors, know, what, is, going, on, regarding, the, incinerator, and, that, developers, have, made, concessions, to, some, councillors, also, there, are, claims, that, the, developers, have, offered, money, to, local, landowners, and, farmers, so, that, roads, can, be, put, in, all, these, accusations, have, been, strongly, denied, at, the, same, time, it, is, rumoured, that, some, farmers, have, been, offered, local, fields, nearby, because, of, what, i, have, discovered, in, my, own, investigations, it, would, seem, that, a, lot, of, friendships, gained, over, 20, years, could, come, to, an, end, i, am, fearful, of, what, i, have, uncovered, there, are, also, claims, that, councillors, are, only, in, it, for, what, there, can, get, out, and, are, not, to, be, trusted, i, don’t, want, that, said, of, me, also, by, the, time, all, this, is, sorted, out, i, will, be, 70, 75, i, certainly, don’t, want, to, be, fighting, peoples, battles, at, that, age, however, i, will, support, any, effort, to, stop, the, proposed, development, week, 33, once, again, the, large, farm, in, the, centre, of, the, village, was, the, venue, for, the, annual, guy, fawkes, bonfire, and, fireworks, organisers, had, been, round, the, village, asking, for, donations, to, provide, fireworks, a, tractor, and, trailer, toured, the, areas, picking, up, things, for, the, bonfire, drinks, and, food, were, served, in, a, barn, after, the, fireworks, this, is, another, occasion, when, villagers, and, the, farming, community, come, together, it, is, perhaps, the, only, time, that, the, general, public, of, the, village, think, about, fmd, and, last, years, events, if, only, briefly, the, farmer, remarked, that, is, the, third, time, this, year, that, there, has, been, a, public, function, on, his, farm, the, first, was, the, jubilee, party, in, june, then, on, october, 6th, the, harvest, festival, service, these, events, keep, farming, in, the, public, eye, week, 34, i, haven’t, written, before, about, the, proposed, building, of, an, incinerator, nearby, to, burn, the, counties, waste, if, as, we, all, suspect, the, incinerator, is, built, then, the, odours, plus, the, disposal, of, ash, to, the, fmd, waste, site, is, a, legacy, of, fmd, particularly, regarding, the, nearby, burial, and, disposal, site, week, 35, this, is, week, 35, of, this, project, and, for, most, of, the, 35, weeks, i, have, written, that, i, am, not, confident, of, the, future, there, are, numerous, reasons, for, this, mainly, the, situation, in, the, middle, east, today, i, travelled, to, keswick, to, do, some, xmas, shopping, i, was, given, a, lift, there, by, a, neighbour, who, is, in, his, 30s, he, was, very, upset, about, the, terrorist, situation, not, only, was, he, concerned, about, the, terror, threat, to, the, london, underground, but, the, threat, closer, to, home, as, regards, a, plane, crashing, into, the, nearby, sellafield, complex, we, don’t, know, the, effect, that, this, constant, bad, news, has, on, people, people, who, have, already, got, serious, worries, e.g, families, housing, finance, etc, must, feel, really, depressed, about, it, all, week, 36, near, to, the, next, village, is, a, long, established, farm, of, many, acres, recently, the, farm’s, stock, of, animals, and, machinery, was, sold, off, the, owner, who, had, farmed, for, sixty, years, was, leaving, to, live, with, one, of, his, brothers, he, said, that, he, wouldn’t, know, how, he, would, feel, when, he, left, the, farm, for, the, last, time, this, weekend, the, farmhouse, hasn’t, been, sold, yet, and, now, stands, empty, it’s, a, strange, place, now, where, everything, was, hustle, and, bustle, they, even, had, a, b, b, business, there, is, now, derelict, and, bare, it’s, a, sad, reflection, on, the, agricultural, business, in, the, wake, of, fmd, this, farm, isn’t, the, only, one, in, the, area, that, has, sold, up, some, farm, houses, remain, as, dwellings, but, this, particular, one, which, we, saw, nearly, every, day, is, just, an, other, sad, reminder, of, the, way, farming, has, declined, in, this, rural, area, week, 39, tuesday, boarded, the, train, at, penrith, to, journey, to, crewe, to, see, our, daughter, during, the, journey, i, got, into, conversation, with, a, fellow, passenger, he, noticed, i, had, got, on, the, train, at, penrith, and, perhaps, thought, i, was, connected, with, the, agricultural, industry, the, conversation, drifted, into, the, previous, years, fmd, outbreak, it, is, rather, strange, that, i, live, in, a, very, rural, area, and, fmd, is, rarely, mentioned, now, however, this, fellow, passenger, although, not, from, an, agricultural, background, gave, his, views, on, the, handling, of, the, situation, it, was, no, different, from, the, views, expressed, by, locals, at, the, time, of, the, crisis, it, just, goes, to, show, that, fmd, is, very, much, in, peoples, minds, even, if, they, were, not, connected, to, agriculture, in, any, way, week, 40, friday, now, that, the, mep, have, published, their, critical, report, on, the, fmd, crisis, it, is, interesting, to, read, an, article, published, in, our, local, weekly, paper, from, a, reader, article, entitled, foot, and, mouth, report, included, i, don’t, have, the, knowledge, or, the, data, to, support, this, readers, comments, however, i, have, heard, plenty, of, stories, from, mainly, unreliable, sources, to, confirm, what, he, says, it, makes, interesting, reading, i, think, week, 41, tuesday, no, wonder, my, confidence, in, the, future, has, taken, a, big, plunge, over, the, last, few, months, the, situation, in, iraq, doesn’t, get, any, better, mr, tony, blair’s, message, to, the, armed, forces, of, the, uk, bear, this, out, being, an, ex, serviceman, i, know, what, the, situation, holds, for, our, troops, but, are, we, right, to, follow, the, usa, in, a, war, against, iraq, no, doubt, saddam, hussein, does, pose, a, threat, but, so, does, india, and, pakistan, to, each, other, each, of, these, two, relatively, poor, countries, has, threatened, each, other, as, regards, their, nuclear, arsenals, now, the, loose, cannon, in, the, form, of, north, korea, is, positioning, itself, as, regards, its, position, in, the, nuclear, arms, league, personally, i, think, that, north, korea, poses, a, more, dangerous, threat, than, iraq, it, is, not, a, very, happy, new, year, for, a, lot, of, people, perhaps, it, will, all, be, settled, diplomatically, i, wonder, week, 42, nothing, of, any, importance, to, write, about, due, to, refurbishment, at, home, week, 43, monday, one, of, the, items, on, the, agenda, for, this, months, meeting, of, distington, parish, council, is, a, report, on, the, wood, felling, and, the, implications, of, this, as, i, have, written, in, the, diary, before, there, are, strong, rumours, of, the, proposed, plan, to, fell, woods, build, a, new, road, through, the, felled, site, and, bring, coal, from, the, nearby, opencast, site, to, link, up, with, an, existing, road, then, to, transport, the, coal, to, a, storage, area, on, workington, dock, then, when, the, coal, is, worked, out, to, build, an, incinerator, on, the, coal, site, ash, from, this, development, would, then, be, transported, on, the, new, road, to, be, disposed, of, on, the, waste, disposal, site, that, was, used, for, fmd, pyre, ash, and, leachate, thursday, read, a, report, of, the, aforesaid, meeting, the, owners, have, declared, that, our, worries, are, groundless, in, fact, they, say, that, they, plan, to, eventually, open, the, woodland, to, the, public, the, owners, of, the, woodland, are, the, same, operators, of, the, opencast, coal, site, footpaths, will, be, created, if, a, grant, can, be, obtained, a, wooden, wheeled, ancient, water, mill, will, be, restored, after, the, closed, meeting, the, operations, director, of, the, site, said, that, there, has, been, a, misunderstanding, what, we, are, doing, will, benefit, local, people, he, said, that, a, management, project, for, the, wood, is, being, followed, involving, felling, dead, trees, and, fresh, planting, he, added, the, felling, and, replanting, will, be, done, this, year, after, which, it, will, take, time, to, become, established, we’re, talking, of, a, ten, year, programme, but, it, should, have, long, term, benefits, i, think, our, pr, at, the, start, of, this, wasn’t, very, good, and, in, the, future, we, will, let, the, council, know, of, our, plans, the, council, agreed, to, keep, a, watch, on, the, work, here, in, g, this, statement, differs, greatly, from, what, some, of, us, have, been, told, by, our, village, based, county, councillor, there, has, never, been, any, suggestion, that, the, felled, woods, would, become, a, land, fill, site, but, would, be, felled, to, provide, the, new, road, there, was, nothing, mentioned, at, the, meeting, regarding, the, proposed, incinerator, being, built, the, county, council, that, this, has, ever, been, planned, however, our, representative, is, adamant, that, this, is, not, so, week, 44, tuesday, for, the, first, time, my, property, has, finally, overcome, a, situation, that, was, affected, by, fmd, in, july, 2000, the, electricity, supplier, notified, me, to, say, that, the, trees, in, my, garden, had, grown, so, tall, that, the, topmost, branches, were, in, close, contact, with, an, eleven, thousand, volt, overhead, power, line, and, that, they, should, be, felled, or, severely, pruned, after, some, further, negotiations, it, was, decided, to, prune, to, some, height, that, i, wasn’t, happy, with, although, the, treetops, were, not, actually, touching, the, wires, it, was, considered, a, risk, in, the, forthcoming, months, however, as, time, passed, i, couldn’t, wait, for, the, foresters, to, arrive, so, i, pruned, the, trees, myself, in, january, 2001, the, electric, supplier, suggested, that, the, trees, should, be, pruned, further, a, date, was, agreed, but, the, foresters, didn’t, arrive, time, dragged, on, and, the, trees, grew, back, to, their, original, height, again, the, electric, supplier, suggested, they, be, pruned, or, felled, a, new, date, was, agreed, upon, however, the, foresters, couldn’t, do, the, job, because, the, isolator, switch, was, on, farmland, and, they, couldn’t, get, access, to, it, because, of, fmd, restrictions, and, so, it, dragged, on, despite, visits, by, foresters, and, electric, supplier, reps, the, trees, got, bigger, and, i, was, forbidden, to, touch, them, neighbours, could, hear, crackling, noises, coming, from, the, wires, and, it, became, very, worrying, people, suggested, that, i, should, do, something, about, it, i, took, the, matter, up, directly, with, the, supplier, and, the, foresters, i, was, promised, dates, only, for, them, to, be, cancelled, in, december, 2002, a, date, of, 21st, january, 2003, was, given, this, time, they, came, and, we, agreed, that, two, trees, be, felled, and, another, pruned, after, 30, months, it, finally, happened, thursday, met, a, small, holder, who, has, his, land, on, the, edge, of, this, village, who, told, me, that, the, 20, day, rule, of, animal, restriction, of, animal, movement, was, being, lifted, and, replaced, by, a, 6, day, restriction, this, was, good, news, for, him, and, any, other, farmer, later, that, day, i, met, another, farmer, who, didn’t, know, that, the, restriction, was, being, lifted, you, would, have, thought, that, i, had, told, him, he’d, won, the, lottery, good, news, all, round, for, the, people, friday, listening, to, the, local, radio, today, and, was, surprised, to, hear, a, report, that, the, citizens, advice, bureau, in, a, small, lakeland, town, had, been, receiving, clients, who, were, still, experiencing, hardship, due, to, fmd, it, is, now, 18, months, since, the, last, outbreak, and, the, effects, according, to, the, person, being, interviewed, were, still, being, felt, not, just, by, farmers, and, agriculturists, but, by, guest, houses, hotels, tradesmen, and, in, particular, some, self, employed, debt, seems, to, be, the, biggest, problem, it, seems, as, though, some, people, had, weathered, the, hardships, of, fmd, initially, only, to, find, that, their, plans, had, come, adrift, somehow, afterwards, quite, disturbing, to, hear, that, the, situation, is, still, with, us, in, this, county, to, some, degree, week, 45, these, diaries, were, instituted, to, deal, with, the, after, effects, of, fmd, although, there, were, no, cases, of, fmd, in, this, village, everyone, knew, about, it, particularly, as, nearly, everyone, who, went, to, work, from, here, would, pass, the, main, farm, in, the, village, centre, or, some, of, the, farms, on, the, outskirts, of, the, village, now, that, fmd, is, over, most, people, who, live, here, don’t, seem, to, think, about, it, anymore, the, only, people, affected, are, the, farmers, naturally, this, is, a, strange, village, in, lots, of, ways, only, the, farmer, and, his, immediate, family, are, connected, with, agriculture, the, rest, are, professional, people, or, people, who, work, at, nearby, sellafield, industries, in, workington, and, whitehaven, or, are, retired, there, is, no, church, no, village, pub, no, village, shop, no, village, community, centre, or, meeting, place, only, tradesmen, that, call, are, the, milkman, and, the, solid, fuel, merchant, we, are, left, to, get, on, with, life, in, our, own, way, the, parish, of, distington, to, which, we, belong, have, all, the, facilities, associated, with, a, larger, community, such, as, a, church, pub, and, community, centre, all, of, which, are, two, miles, away, consequently, the, parish, council, meets, there, once, a, month, and, discusses, all, the, problems, of, the, area, including, ours, however, our, representative, on, the, council, has, resigned, and, no, one, has, come, forward, to, represent, us, anything, that, has, been, discussed, at, the, parish, council, is, reported, in, he, local, newspaper, village, pubs, are, a, good, venue, to, discuss, local, issues, and, to, exchange, views, and, mainly, to, gossip, village, tittle, tattle, as, i, call, it, as, we, have, no, pub, the, gossip, is, rife, from, one, source, or, another, with, bits, added, on, or, left, out, as, is, the, choice, of, the, person, concerned, quite, a, lot, of, people, one, meets, are, experts, in, their, own, particular, choice, of, subject, whether, it, is, politics, finance, or, mrs, jones, current, boy, friend, it, is, a, fault, to, take, on, board, all, that, is, gossiped, about, when, one, meets, a, fellow, villager, in, the, country, lanes, whilst, out, walking, the, dog, week, 46, illness, to, a, family, member, week, 47, continued, illness, week, 48, over, the, past, few, weeks, there, has, been, a, lot, of, tree, felling, in, the, nearby, woods, this, has, led, to, a, lot, of, disturbance, to, the, villagers, because, of, the, use, of, large, vehicles, needed, to, remove, the, felled, timber, and, also, the, foresters, vehicles, churning, up, the, grass, verges, and, the, ditches, a, lot, of, concern, was, raised, about, the, necessity, of, all, the, tree, felling, these, concerns, were, raised, in, the, press, and, also, in, the, parish, council, i, have, written, about, these, in, diaries, in, the, last, few, weeks, it, was, reported, in, mid, january, that, all, the, felled, woods, would, be, replanted, this, year, with, footpaths, created, for, the, enjoyment, of, the, local, population, now, all, timber, operations, have, ceased, large, areas, of, woodland, have, been, left, partly, felled, and, a, lot, of, felled, timber, is, left, lying, about, foresters, vehicles, have, gone, and, nothing, is, happening, despite, assurances, from, the, developers, it, looks, as, though, something, drastic, has, happened, village, tittle, tattle, says, that, the, foresters, have, not, been, paid, for, their, work, so, far, and, that, the, developers, have, run, out, of, money, if, this, is, so, what, is, going, to, happen, now, when, felling, started, late, last, year, i, contacted, two, environmental, agencies, regarding, the, threat, to, the, red, squirrels, badgers, and, buzzards, that, occupy, these, woods, i, was, told, that, it, was, only, a, partial, felling, and, they, the, environmental, agencies, were, satisfied, that, any, disturbances, would, be, slight, i, think, that, they, were, told, this, by, the, developers, and, accepted, what, they, were, told, without, a, site, visit, the, developers, have, been, known, to, mislead, groups, in, the, past, including, landowners, farmers, councils, and, individuals, i, personally, am, not, happy, about, this, situation, i, have, always, took, a, keen, interest, in, wildlife, and, feel, that, we, have, been, let, down, by, the, lies, of, developers, and, the, lack, of, serious, interest, from, wildlife, agencies, some, of, which, are, an, offshoot, of, central, government, i, for, one, will, keep, a, close, look, on, the, situation, with, or, without, other, villagers, and, in, particular, local, councillors, week, 49, by, chance, i, met, three, small, holders, all, at, the, same, time, they, were, discussing, farming, by, the, roadside, all, of, them, were, pleased, that, the, 20, day, ruling, was, coming, to, an, end, and, that, their, lives, were, more, or, less, coming, back, to, normal, they, also, expressed, the, opinion, that, the, 20, day, rule, and, the, 6, day, rule, were, only, in, force, to, protect, their, interests, however, they, were, unanimous, in, their, condemnation, over, the, importing, of, foreign, meat, and, meat, products, into, this, country, they, feel, that, foreign, meat, is, not, subjected, to, enough, checks, before, entry, into, the, united, kingdom, week, 51, met, a, farmer, today, who, told, me, that, he’d, seen, a, report, based, on, findings, by, the, eu, and, defra, it, stated, all, the, things, that, everyone, who, is, an, agriculturalist, and, those, who, take, an, interest, in, the, countryside, had, been, saying, about, what, was, wrong, with, the, handlers, of, the, fmd, outbreak, it, just, proves, that, it, doesn’t, take, an, academic, genius, to, know, what, should, have, been, done, at, the, time, everyone, can, be, wiser, after, the, event, but, statements, by, the, nfu, and, individuals, at, the, onset, were, not, heeded, for, example, the, movement, of, animals, should, have, been, halted, sooner, and, the, army, should, have, been, brought, in, much, sooner, now, the, question, of, vaccination, rumbles, on, should, we, or, shouldn’t, we, vaccinate, there, is, a, fear, of, the, outbreak, again, particularly, when, the, findings, of, the, 1960, outbreak, were, not, implemented, since, the, sadness, of, fmd, there, has, been, quite, a, few, instances, of, socialising, at, the, farm, such, as, harvest, festival, jubilee, party, and, almost, any, excuse, for, a, shindig, good, to, see, farmers, enjoying, themselves, week, 52, met, out, local, farmer, who, told, me, that, there, is, to, be, new, legislation, to, dispose, of, fallen, stock, no, longer, can, a, farmer, bury, fallen, stock, on, his, land, but, must, now, provide, an, incinerator, to, dispose, of, dead, animals, this, must, be, a, costly, business, could, dead, animals, not, be, taken, to, a, central, point, and, burned, week, 54, one, thing, about, fmd, was, the, effect, that, it, had, on, the, poaching, fraternity, living, in, a, rural, area, we, expect, this, to, happen, nobody, seems, to, mind, that, a, few, rabbits, and, pheasants, go, missing, what, is, really, alarming, is, the, use, of, dogs, and, high, powered, rifles, to, poach, deer, fmd, put, a, stop, to, all, this, now, a, neighbour, has, told, me, of, poachers, near, to, the, village, using, rifles, and, shooting, deer, the, only, people, benefiting, from, this, are, the, poachers, and, hoteliers, who, receive, these, dead, beasts, and, no, questions, asked, also, the, danger, of, villagers, being, hit, by, stray, rifle, shots, causes, alarm, to, others, week, 55, i, think, that, there, is, a, lot, of, jumping, on, the, band, wagon, now, that, fmd, has, cleared, up, for, instance, i, listened, to, an, interview, on, the, local, radio, station, given, by, a, hotelier, things, weren’t, going, well, in, his, establishment, having, got, over, fmd, and, its, implications, visitors, were, slowly, returning, to, the, area, but, not, in, sufficient, numbers, to, cause, great, joy]
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same stories and complaints over how the crisis was handled some of the episodes recounted must have been told dozens of times over the last year but whoever says it always seems just as keen to say it again perhaps a reflection of how deeply people feel about the events of the last year having said that most of the resentments and rants that i hear on daily farm visits are focused fairly and squarely at defra and not fmd virus farmers seem far more upset at the constriction put on them by defra than they do by the loss of stock now although i know and saw how utterly devastated most were when they were actually diagnosed with the virus and in the week or two following my work in the practice is becoming less and less fmd orientated as time goes on licensing and restocking visits are drawing to a close and we are starting to return to normal vet work my life has been more settled since the end of fmd although there was never a real threat of redundancy there was a great deal of uncertainty as to what form work would take during the outbreak it was never clear whether i would be based at the practice or working as a defra vet from month to month now that it is finished i hope the practice and my work can get back to a routine and at least knowing where ill be based each day even if not which calls are going to come in with regard to fmd the biggest influence it has at the moment and over the last week is acting as a listener to farmers who still talk about it and defra a great deal diary 2 mon shap restocking having to justify visit wed melmerby i went to see a farmer this week to do the first inspection of his sentinel animals that he is restocking his farm in common with many farmers he was unwavering in his conviction that his animals had been deliberately infected and that tony blair or defra were the ultimate culprits the belief is that they want to put farmers out of business this particular farmer made the very valid point that defra co had underestimated the resilience of the farming community i think that this has been very striking considering the strain that they have been under in some cases worse for those who didnt get fmd than for those who did it has been remarkable how little the majority of our clients have changed admittedly we see most of them on a professional basis regarding their animals health and not their own but on the whole they seem to have been very forward thinking about the outbreak many have taken it as a chance to increase the size of herds and to eliminate many other diseases as well as fmd work in the practice has been fairly steady as week the number of fmd calls is decreasing one of the problems with doing restocking licensing and tb calls is that we are on the farm at defras instruction normally it is the farmer who calls us out and this can cause friction anything related to defra will put hackles up 9 times out of 10 it definitely causes stress at times but puts my diplomacy skills into good practice it sometimes feels as though some farmers just need an outlet and i fit the bill after agreeing with everything they say and sympathising it usually smoothes out and ends with a cup of tea but it does feel as though we have to justify what we are doing much more than prior to february 2001 diary 3 this week was the anniversary of the week i went to my first ip and associated slaughter pyre building etc at several times during the week i found myself thinking this time last year i was although obviously not pleasant memories the thoughts did not particularly affect me in a bad way or distract me from work it just took me back to that time when i had time to think i went to see a sick horse near carlisle which is where the ip was and it was interesting to drive past the farm and see animals in the buildings again hopefully the farmer concerned is getting back on track again with respect to daily routine work is getting very busy lambing time is starting to really get going with the inevitable increase in calls although it can be hectic at times its better to be kept busy rather than having it too quiet its also good to actually be doing lambings and other sheep work as its two years since we did any apart from euthanasing sheep last year on monday i went to do a re stocking check on a farm the farmer is convinced he was given fmd deliberately and on arrival i was given his weekly tirade regarding defra tony blair how i must have made thousands of pounds out of it etc etc after sometime of not rising to the bait he calmed down and half an hour later was sweetness and light perhaps he just needs someone to let pressure out to only one session like that a week isnt too bad considering how many farm visits we do diary 4 monday brought another dressing down from the farmer i mentioned last week it was shorter and less passionate this time perhaps hes mellowing a bit i drove up to junction 40 one day with the sun out it reminded me of a similar day a year ago when i could count 15 smoke plumes from pyres on the same bit of road as i said last week anniversary memories like this arent especially difficult for me theyre just there in a lot of ways its quite satisfying thinking about what was happening a year ago and how well things have progressed since then most of our farmers have re stocked work is returning to normal even things like being able to drive onto farms again rather than having to leave the car at the farm entrance makes a big difference work continues to be very busy with the typical seasonal calls to sheep and cattle we have a couple of vet students doing work experience with us which had to stop last march as we couldnt take extras onto farms with us another sign of the continuing return to normality some days it seems as if we have returned to how we were a year ago the most obvious legacy is perhaps the thorough and extensive clothing disinfection between each farm a good habit which is very hard to break diary 5 i had to work on easter monday morning which was fairly uneventful as for the last few weeks there were the usual seasonal calls to sheep and cattle but nothing too stressful on tuesday i did the final blood sampling on the last farm that we have that is still at the sentinel stage of re stocking the farmers seemed fairly mellow today and spared me the usual lecture attempt at argument perhaps its because the end of his restriction is in sight the test went very smoothly and i didnt hear from him until the end of the week when i he was upset probably justifiably that his results still werent back as processing the bloods is not our responsibility all i could do was sympathise and plead ignorance the rest of the week was fairly routine work wise friday was taken up doing a big tuberculin and brucellosis test on a re stocked farm they all have to be done within 3 mths of re stocking although it was a big job it was a well run farm with plenty of help so we got finished within the day and with as few delays as could be expected now that the evenings are lighter its meant that on nights off duty ive been able to get out more its made a very welcome change to be able to bike walk on the fells again this year after all the restrictions of 2001 long may it and the weather continue diary 6 finally finished the last a restocking jobs on monday the farmer was getting very frustrated probably justifiably so at the length of time it was taking the bank holidays etc last week meant to that the labs were closed so that blood samples took longer to process i got the results at 4 45 monday evening and in an attempt to create some goodwill agreed to go to the farm to do a final check that evening on arrival of the usual tirade about defra and vets came my way which was slightly hard to take he then said that he didnt blame me personally which was nice of him i think hope he realises that we can only try to get things going faster and ultimately its out off our hands at least its good to have all the restocking work finished it feels as though the first stage is over in getting back to where we were another sign of returning to usual is the continuing pace of work nights on call are again a time for working rather than the call free nights of summer 2001 this week has brought early morning lambing most days the rest of the time were is as busy as its been for a year the day book is full each day and we all seem to be driving around the county more or less keeping up with the jobs which is a good thing i had the weekend off and was going to go to edinburgh to see some friends but in the end stayed in penrith for some r r diary 7 i had a half day on monday and went to riggindale at the head of haweswater with a friend who had come to stay for a night or two the plan was to see the golden eagles nesting that up to unfortunately they were off on a day trip to another part of the lake district but the weather was good and it made a very pleasant change from work the practice is still going flat out with seasonal work the daily flow of lambing and lambing related sheep problems shows no sign of ebbing there are also increasing numbers of cattle problems probably related to coming towards the spring turn out of cattle that have been inside for 6 7 months the fact that most of them are in new surroundings is almost certainly adding to the problems on the whole of farmers are fairly pragmatic about the difficulties they are having most accept that they were bound to have problems with the restocking and on the whole are pleased just to have stock on again some are very keen to be as efficient as possible whereas others will more readily go along with the old farming mantra that where theres a livestock theres a dead stock not quite what the veterinary profession wants to encourage i was on call at the weekend and had one of the busier few days i can remember again it was mostly seasonal farm work which although it was time consuming is often quite rewarding im still surprised by the number of sheep we are getting called to perhaps its because farmers have spent a lot of money on them to restock with and now feel theyre financially worth calling us for diary 8 made a couple of visits to one of our farmers who restocked over the winter this week hes having a few problems with cows getting ill and generally not settling in very well hes one of the most amenable farmers on our books and never seems to try to blame anyone for his troubles at times its very frustrating not to be able to do more for people like him id like to be able to give every one of his cows a magic injection and say that itll get better but unfortunately thats not how it works weve had a lot of colt castrations to do this week which is normal for this time of year it puts more pressure on us in terms of work as we usually take two vets to each castration considering how busy it is relations in the practice are generally very good it has been stressful at times but on the whole this has been stress related to volume of jobs to do rather than people it has also been a very different and preferable type of stress than this time of the last year at least a lot of work makes us all feel fairly stable rather than the terrible uncertainty of last year weve also taken on an extra vet this spring which would have been unthinkable last year in the middle of the week i did a farm visit with one of the vets from the local veterinary lab to discuss disease control on a re stocked farm most of the work into disease surveillance on a farm was defra funded which went down well with the farmer she at least felt as though she was getting something back after fighting with defra for the last few months it was also encouraging to see someone taking a very positive approach to disease control in the future my cousin and some of his friends came down from glasgow for the weekend to go into the lake district the weather was good on the whole and several people noted how good it was to have the paths open again diary 9 started the week doing a big tuberculin and brucellosis test at a restocked farm there has been a big backlog to clear after testing was stopped during fmd last year so we have to catch up with those farms that didnt get the disease but are due a test as well as testing the restocking farms were all very keen to keep cumbria as a tb free zone but with all the different stock coming in its going to be tricky mondays test was long but okay on the whole the set up was good and the farming family were very pleasant which makes a huge difference to how the day goes all was clear when i went to read the test on thursday a relief for all concerned overall work seems to be quietening down a bit this week compared to the last few we are now just busy rather than always feeling as if were one job behind all the time on wednesday and thursday one of our clients brought in half a dozen shetland ponies to castrate it makes a change to have a large animal that is small enough to be easily physically restrained by one person the continuing good weather made doing an afternoons work with the ponies in the practices field a very pleasant way to spend a few hours i cant help feeling that no rain in april means well get loads later in the summer i was on a second call at the weekend saturday was very busy with small animal jobs which i mainly left to a colleague while i tried to clear up the farm and equine jobs calm was pretty much restored by late afternoon after which i wasnt called until early sunday morning another of our re stocked clients is having considerable trouble with some of his new animals and is becoming increasingly frustrated about it we all try to help with the medical side of it animals but inevitably also get to hear a lot of his other worries too hopefully things will look up soon and hell be able to ride it out ok diary 10 had a day off on bank holiday monday always the good way to start the week i went up to peebles in scotland with some friends to go mountain biking it was surprisingly empty for a weekend and the weather was good and i didnt fall off all in all a good day out tuesday was work as usual i had to do a small tb test on a restocking farm it shouldnt have been a long job but the facilities werent great so it didnt go as slickly as it might have done we all managed to get through in one piece so it could have been worse one of my colleagues went on maternity this week she is part time but does all small animal work now that shes off for the next few months it means that an extra vet is needed each morning to stay in and do small animal operations while its probably not my favourite sort of work it does make a change from being out on farms every morning its also good to get a bit more experience at small procedures as well as doing smaller animals this week has brought several interesting equine cases i had to hospitalise a horse for a few days for fairly intensive treatment which fortunately appears to have made a good recovery there have also been a couple of horse operations at the practice this week theyre generally quite interesting apart from the stress involved with having half a ton of horse asleep on the operating table i had the weekend off and went to edinburgh for a small reunion with friends i was at college with although we do talk about other things conversation inevitably came round to work the effect of fmd and its consequences are still very much in peoples minds friends all asked how it was last year and whether farms have restocked yet etc etc it s stuff which i seem to have said hundreds of times over the last few months but people never seem to tire of asking it and to an extent i dont seem to get bored of answering it diary 11 the week started with a big tb test at a restocking dairy farm there were very good facilities and it subsequently went very smoothly and quickly despite the number of cows involved the farmer seems to be quite positive about the new start and has been spared a lot of the problems that other people have experienced while restocking in terms of disease in the animals everything was clear when i read the test later in the week on wednesday afternoon i had a bit of a change as i went castrate two ponies belonging to my mother she had bought two totally wild fell ponies last autumn they now a bit tamer but not completely used to being handled yet i went with one of our nurses and the senior partner and it all went pretty much to plan work is still busy theres one client in particular who is giving us a lot to do he restocked a few months ago and is obviously having trouble lambing his sheep it got a bit trying when i had to get up to his third lambing of one night but thats what we are there for i suppose hes a nice man and always seems pleased to see us which helps i had the weekend off again and went to glasgow to be best man at my cousins wedding apart from the weather it went very well i think with no unsolvable problems diary 12 started the week with a long visit for dairy fertility work to one of our big dairy farmers its one of the farmers who has been having problems after restocking and a visit that another vet usually does so i felt a bit under pressure its the type of work which is very routine but has the potential to go quite badly wrong on the whole it went fairly well with no major problems i get on pretty well with the farmer which always helps as it makes the time go by quicker small animal work is still quite busy i had two days inside this week doing small animals operations there wasnt anything particularly different or unusual but it still helps to do more of it one of our farmers who managed to miss fmd is very busy with his calving schedule at the moment hes tending to have very big calves and subsequently were doing a lot of caesareans there this week has brought at least half a dozen of which two were in the middle of the night there have been a few vets are looking sleep deprived recently i had the weekend off and went so see a couple of friends in edinburgh we spent one day cycling in peebles and then proceeded to nothing strenuous for the next diary 13 the week started with a big session dehorning cattle its not exactly technical work and is fairly hard work at least it gets me fit we would normally do them at a younger age but quite a few have been missed as we didnt get out onto farms for such routine work last year on the whole most people are fairly well caught up now that theyve re stocked been having routine work done for the last 8 months or so but there are still a few lagging behind i had a call from a farmer who was one of our most consistently and vehemently anti defra people last year i ended up doing a caesarean and had quite a long chat with him conversation ended up coming round to the events of last year and he aired his resentments again it was the first time in several weeks that i had heard this kind of talk whereas a few months ago it would have been a daily occurrence it wasnt particularly aimed at me or the practice in particular but just frustration with the system as a whole i went for a walk up blencathra one evening during the week but the highlight of the week has to be the start of the world cup ive been on duty this w e but managed to see all but the last two minutes of this mornings rather disappointing draw with sweden most farmers are keen to watch the matches too so lets hope not too many calls come in at the wrong time diary 14 i had the bank holiday on monday off which was welcome after a weekend on call i went for a walk in the lakes with a colleague considering it was a bank holiday it wasnt too crowded had to work on bank holiday tuesday though it wasnt especially busy until the evening when i had to do a caesarean on a cow and then go and see a badly cut horse both seem to be doing ok the rest of the week was worked as usual nothing particularly out of the ordinary happened with fairly routine calls perhaps it was because everyone was preoccupied with events in japan and korea or maybe that is just me i was booked in for an 11 am call on friday but managed to persuade the farmer concerned that 930 would be more appropriate said that i or should that be we could watch the second england game we managed to get finished in time and it was well worth it the 1 0 win over argentina put everyone in a good mood for the rest of the day and the weekend i was on first call over the weekend saturday morning was very busy and we didnt get all the calls done until early afternoon after that it was one of the quietest weekends ive had they were a couple of things to do on saturday afternoon evening but sunday had no calls until after lunch almost unheard of i had to check my phone was switched on long may it last diary 15 ive done two days in the practice doing small animals this week more than usual the weather has not been the best so its no bad thing i managed to go out on rounds on wednesday though so i managed to catch the third england match second round here we come i spent most of friday morning operating on two cows at one of our farms they both had a condition where part of the gut displaces in the abdomen and is best repositioned surgically the farmer observed that it was probably linked to fmd last year because of fmd he had to use more silage to keep his cows inside last summer this meant he had less stored over the winter and so had none available to feed this spring summer the lack of silage now is almost certainly implicated in the problems his cows had its very unusual to have two occurring on one farm at same time seeing as he missed getting fmd last year though he thought it was a price worth paying it was actually quite a pleasant way to spend a morning hes from kirkby stephen where i went to school and i didnt have any other jobs waiting so it was quite a relaxed few hours the surgery went ok too i had a half day on friday and drove to valley just beyond alston to meet one of my old flat mates from edinburgh for his stag weekend we stayed in an old barn in middle of nowhere so it wasnt exactly a conventional stag party but very enjoyable all the same we walked to the nearest pub on saturday to see englands exciting next instalment 3 0 thank you very much after that its been a leisurely day and drive back to penrith and ive got another night to get my head back to normal for work tomorrow diary 16 this week has been quite small animal orientated again ive done two mornings in the surgery and more consulting than usual im not meant to be on duty for nights this week but ive had a couple to cover for people whove been on holiday fortunately both nights were fairly quiet im sure the favour will be returned sometime during the day work has been fairly steady were not quite as busy as last week but theres enough to keep us going the practice like most of the country tried to stop briefly while england were losing to brazil its a bit disappointing hopefully farmers and the rest of our clients wont be too depressed about it all it was good while it lasted at the weekend i went down to a place near worcester for the wedding of the friend whose stag weekend it was the last week there were a lot of people from edinburgh there why havent seen for several years and it was great to catch up the weather was very kind and stayed dry diary 18 on monday i went to do a big tuberculosis and brucellosis test at of one our big dairy farms that had restocked few months ago theyve got several hundred cows and it took a lot longer than anticipated i had to go back on tuesday to finish the job off theyre a friendly family so it wasnt really too much of a chore there has been a more obvious change in them since fmd than for most of our clients who had the disease they seem much quieter and less concerned about farming and lifes problems in general now perhaps they think if they can get through 2001 then theres nothing worth getting stressed about in comparison wednesday was spent doing small animal work made a change as on thursday i went back to read the cows results for the tb test all negative on thursday night i drove down to stay with a college friend near birmingham for the start of a long weekend on friday i carried on south to another friend in north devon shes working another vet in an area that was also severely affected by fmd cumbria was so badly hit that is sometimes easy to forget that other places had a bad time too thankfully work in devon is more or less back to normal again i spent the rest of the weekend in south devon where my dad had his 60th birthday we were lucky with the weather and had fine ish conditions to have a barbecue on the beach i was off today monday as well and spent the day driving north too far to go for a weekend diary 19 its been a short working week seeing as i had monday off ive also started a month back on the out of the hours of rota this week it works a month on a month off system so nights and weekends have been and will be a bit busier work has generally been a bit quieter recently this is fairly typical for the time of year mainly because animals are outside and farmers are busy making hay and silage rain permitting weve had two vets off this week so although there have been fewer jobs in we are not left twiddling our thumbs there has been the usual flow of a routine farm work along with horses and small animals but nothing too taxing on the whole i had a night on thursday and went up st sunday crag in the lake district with a couple of friends from brampton it was further than i remembered it being we didnt get down until it was almost dark but apart from being unseasonably cold surprise surprise it was a fine night it was duty this weekend i was on first call on friday night and had it very easy no calls until 12 45pm when another vet and i had to operate on a dog until three am i checked it again at 530 and then had to go to calving at 645 just as that was finished i was called to a badly cut horse then some lame cows and then to the bacon roll shop for breakfast i was only on second call for the rest of the weekend and was fairly quiet this meant i could get on with various mundane things like painting my house tidying the garden etc etc ideal tasks for when i cant do anything else because im on call and the dog did well so it makes the night with no sleep worthwhile diary 20 have had another short week had monday off as i was coming back from a long weekend away work this week has been fairly steady farmers are often busy trying to get silage hay in at the moment so routine of vet work takes a back seat having said that we have been kept at least as busy as we would expect with routine fertility visits and the occasional sick cow etc there been a few of the restocking farms that have had some fairly unusual diseases that didnt obviously fall into the ones we usually recognise or deal with as a lot of them have bought stock in from abroad we have to at least keep in mind the possibility of new problems been brought in weve worked quite closely with the local defra run veterinary investigation centre on a few of these cases but thankfully none have turned out to be anything to be unduly worried about i was on duty this weekend but have fortunately been reasonably quiet the only thing out the ordinary was a horse that had torn its leg up quite badly on some wire but with a bit of time and bandaging it should do okay diary 21 2 vets have been off this week so its been a bit busier for the rest of us again as with last week its been a mixture of routine and the standard a e type work there have been a few tuberculin tests going on still trying to clear the backlog from last year its getting there slowly but a lot of it will have to wait until the autumn winter when the cows are in and the farmers have more time available our new vet who started in april has seemed to settle in very well he had a bit of a bad day earlier in the week when a calving did go quite as planned its very easy to do especially when you feel under pressure as is bound to happen when you start a new job it reminded me of some of the problems i had a few years ago the farm where it happened is quite an understanding type so it wont create any real problems hockey training is starting again which seems a bit premature as the season is still months away at least itll encourage me to do a bit more exercise to get fit for matches the weather has meant i havent been out into the hills as often as i would have liked but hopefully theres still time for it to brighten up a bit had the weekend off so a couple of friends from college he now living york came to stay we went up to the borders for the day on saturday near to where i used to work it doesnt seem to have changed much i still think im better off down here despite last year diary 22 we had a bit of a rush on this week as sometimes seems to happen it can be quiet for couple of weeks and then it suddenly its crazy it may be that a lot of farms have now largely got their crops in and are trying to catch up or perhaps its just the way things go several farms have had ongoing problems this week with visits being required several days running there have also been a large number of horse calls this is probably fairly common for this time of year as they tend to get ridden in the supposedly better weather we tend to go further afield for horses on tuesday i went to kirkby lonsdale area in morning and had to go north of carlisle in the afternoon the miles get racked up or fairly quickly and i get to learn where the various blind spots for phone and radio reception are i was on duty again on the weekend which meant that i was also on for monday wednesday and friday nights they werent too bad apart from friday when i have to go and see a couple of horses being on duty for three week nights tends to limit what i can do apart from work but i managed to meet up with some friends working in brampton one night and go for a walk in the lakes on thursday the weekend was fairly quiet but i was only on second call so i found time to do some decorating in the room in my house which is the current project i lead such a thrilling life diary 23 the calm after the storm after the frantic levels of work we saw last week it has again been a bit more civilised this week weve had time to have coffee and lunch breaks and actually talk to colleagues from time to time i wouldnt want have every week is quiet as this but occasionally its very welcome its quite relaxing to be able to go on a call knowing that there is not another one waiting it also means that if the afternoons are quiet one of us can usually have a half day i got the nod on wednesday and went down to kirkby stephen to see my folks theyve got a smallholding down there with various creatures which usually have some ailment or other its a bit of a busmans holiday going there but it is nice having them close i tend see them every week or two on wednesday i vaccinated a couple of horses and trimmed a few sheeps feet they went through the joys of 48 hourly surveillance inspections last year but somehow managed to come through unscathed their parish was one of the only ones in the kirkby stephen area to do so other weekend i went up to glasgow to see a cousin who was having a leaving party i didnt know many people there but it was good to go and do something completely removed from the usual one of the people i did know came and stayed in penrith on sunday night it was a stunning day we went the lakes which were at their best diary 24 this week was the first of four for me being off the rota which should mean no nights and no weekends on call cant be bad on monday had a small tb test to do it was with a very pleasant farmer and the cows behaved themselves so it wasnt a bad way to spend a morning hes imported a small herd from holland and seems very pleased with them so far it takes a bit time for the f m farmers to get used to their new stock as most of them knew their old ones so well but on the whole people seemed fairly content with their new ones i did small animal ops on tuesday and wednesday as one of the vets who usually do it was on holiday weve got a new nurse starting this week so it was a case of showing her the ropes but she seems to be doing very well one my best school friends got married on friday very typically after a fairly quiet week it suddenly got busy on friday afternoon i managed to get the wedding but had to miss the afternoon reception in order to go and see a horse in appleby thats life i was one of the duty vets at lowther show on saturday i hadnt done it before and had a very good time it was generally fine weather and there were some truly stunning teams of horses in the driving event lots of competitors commented on how good it was to have the show up and running again after last years cancellations the event passed without any major incident for vet wise so it was a pretty calm day for me really diary 25 the weeks been fairly steady i seem to have been doing more horses than anything else i didnt go and see a cow until friday several of them were ongoing cases such as leg wounds that have needed daily dressing changes and the rest a selection of vaccinations lameness and those that arent quite right i quite enjoy the horse side of the job so doing a bit more than usual has been a welcome change i had planned to get to work on my house this month in my free evenings but it doesnt really seem to have worked like that when i know ive got a lot of free time nights tend to get booked up seeing people from home or near by who ive temporarily lost touch with also seeing as summer seems to have found us ive been trying to get into the lakes as much as possible the house can wait till winter this weekend ive been down to wales to see a group of college friends we stayed in a cottage owned by one of the groups parents and played a few rounds of golf i played very badly lost a lot of balls and became very frustrated with it all i think it comes down to lack of talent still it was good to catch up with some people i havent seen since graduation and im sure the golf will be better next year diary 26 ive done more small animal work than anything else this week there had been no disasters all fairly routine stuff one of the small animal vets has been away so i had to cover a bit i didnt actually get out onto a farm until friday morning it gets a bit claustrophobic inside after a while so it was good to get out i was on call at the weekend and also had a college friend to stay it was very quiet most of the time until sunday evening i had swapped duty to be off on the night from 6 00pm at 545 four calls all came in at once at all four corners of the practice so i didnt actually get finished until nearly 8pm thats the way it goes sometimes i suppose i had another half day earlier in the week as it was fairly quiet i took my bike out into the northern lakes for a few hours to blow away the cobwebs from being inside at work diary 27 i had a barbecue party this weekend for people from work and a lot of friends from college there were a lot of people i thought id always keep in touch with the but as time went on i never did so i arranged a weekend a long way in advance for us all to meet up again about 28 people came most of whom i havent seen for least a year or two nobody seems to have changed much and it was great to see them all again the garden and house have both taken a bit of a pounding but i think most of the mess is fairly superficial i went for a walk near howtown today to clear my head after the barbecue last night it was a very good day weather wise which meant that a lot of people had had the same idea as us its been a variable week at work some days been very quiet others flat out ive had an ongoing case of a young horse that had been caught up in wire on monday evening it was well beyond the stage where it could have been stitched when i saw it so itll have to heal slowly by filling the wound in im sure itll be fine but its going to take a long time were starting to get a lot of inquiries about the new rules defra are bringing in to allow farmers to bring animals on to their farms in isolation facilities it should make things less restrictive for the farmer we are going to have to do a lot of inspections its not since restocking checks last winter that weve really had to do this sort of thing but the checks probably wont be as exhaustive as those we had to do last year diary 28 had a fairly quiet week really this been a fairly standard mix of sick cows a couple of lame horses and the continuation of the young horse that wrecked its leg last week which is going okay so its been fairly laid back on the whole with time for a coffee break after most calls we have done the first of the inspections for the new on farm isolation facilities for sheep on the whole farmer compliance has been very good there have been a few whinges about why they have to do it and i can see why as it must be frustrating to suddenly be told how to run stock movements that theyve always done a different way most can see why defra are insisting on it though as its all aimed at reducing the risk of having another situation like we did last year i was off again this weekend one of my old flat mates and his wife came to stay they live in london so came north for a weekend of clean living and fresh air we went for walks around cat bells and high street on saturday and sunday ate drank and were generally fairly unstressed hope it was what they were looking for diary 29 ive had a short week in terms of work at the practice this week as ive been to glasgow for an equine conference from thursday to saturday further education is not compulsory and there is no formal structure for it which is quite controversial in some peoples eyes but the royal college of vets do encourage us to keep up to date there is a quota were asked to fulfil each year and these three days will help me keep on track there were several different courses on each day with one lecture theatre for practitioner based subjects that we could expect to see on a day to day basis and another called advanced clinical sessions on subjects and cases so obscure that youd be lucky to hear of one let alone see one more than once or twice i didnt go to many of those lectures as well as being useful in terms of picking up new information it was also a good chance to catch up with old friends from college lots of people i hadnt seen for a year or two were there and it was good to see them the first three days of the week were okay i went out on tuesday morning to trim some lame cows feet and ended up accidentally trimming some skin from the farmers thumb with my hoof knife all a bit embarrassing and felt very bad but he didnt seem that fazed by it and hes not the type to bear a grudge perhaps i shouldnt try to keep my knife so sharp another of the weeks more interesting events was an irish wolfhound that needed surgery to correct a twisted and distended stomach its fairly common in this type of dog and is a real emergency another vet and i operated on him on tuesday afternoon it took a couple of hours but so far is seems to have been worth it as hes done very well and apparently went home on friday diary 30 i spent most of monday afternoon evening irradiating myself by taking dozens of x rays of a horses legs it was being sold for a lot of money and the insurance company wanted to check all its joints were ok before insuring it it took a lot longer than anticipated as it was difficult to get it positioned absolutely right for each view but we got there in the end we have to be quite careful about exposure to x rays but my x ray badge hasnt shown a high reading yet 2 vets have been off this week one on his honeymoon and one has been away doing ai on sheep its often a bit quieter now but we seem to have been kept going i did a big routine fertility visit to one of our dairy farms on wednesday one of the main things we do on these visits is manual pregnancy diagnosis its not too bad with dairy calves cows as if theyre not in calf they would normally get another chance to do so but with some beef farms or a dairy cow that is persistently not conceiving it sometimes more economic to get rid of the cow of rather than persisting so theres a big incentive for us to get it right or at least not to say a cow isnt in calf when she is luckily they were all quite straightforward this week this was my last before going away to the usa for a fortnight i fly to new york tomorrow to meet up with an old flatmate of mine whos a journalist out there im crossing the atlantic to see him and hes given me directions to his flat rather than meeting me at the airport because im arriving when premiership football is on tv charming diary 31 two weeks in the states cant be bad i flew into new york where i stayed with a friend whos working in manhattan i did a lot of the usual tourist things empire state building boat trip around the island central park etc for its size its a very relaxed place in a lot of ways it feels very safe and although there is loads going on you never seem to get hassled we flew to new orleans for a week supposedly for some sun in the deep south but landed just as a tropical storm hit the mainland everything was closed for two days as bad as uk when it snows once the weather cleared it was fine and we again went about being tourists paddle boat up the mississippi river out on a boat in the louisiana swamps to look at alligators and a bit of new orleans nightlife i had a few more days in new york before flying home diary 32 first week back after america had a good trip but the week has been rather marred by the death of one of the hockey team and a year mate of mine at school in a tractor accident when he was hit by a wagon on the a 66 on thursday i saw him on wednesday night at hockey training he was very stiff having done the great north run with his wife the weekend before i didnt know him very well at school but have got to over the last few years via hockey and he really was a tremendously good person and will be much missed by lots of people in and around kirkby stephen the weekends match was postponed as no one could have thought about playing it all seems very trivial when this sort of thing happens i couldnt have played anyway as im on duty this weekend but fortunately its been fairly quiet so far a calving and 2 caesareans but its getting into calving season so its about par for the course the first half of the week was ok i was even given a half day on tuesday a day and a half after returning from holiday i went for a walk at the bottom end of derwent water and then tried to sleep off some jet lag diary 33 i went to matthews funeral on tuesday how popular he was was reflected in the number of people there we arrived 25 minutes before it was due to start and still had to stand and had to move up as more people tried to fit into the chapel it almost seemed as if all of kirkby had come to a standstill it went on quite a long time so i had the afternoon off and went to see my parents who live near kirkby afterwards we cancelled hockey training on wednesday as it seemed too soon to go on as usual but decided play our scheduled match on saturday both our team and the opposition had two minute silence before the match we ended up drawing 0 0 but it was a very good close game we normally lose to this team and played in a competitive but fair spirit just what was needed for our first match back im actually on duty again this weekend but one my colleagues covered for me for a few hours so i could go to play the cases at work have been fairly steady this week im going to enrol for a further qualification in equine practice in the next week or two im doing a reasonable amount of horse work at the moment but will try to do a bit more over the next few months years it should motivate me to read up on cases more and find slightly more constructive ways to spend evenings on call diary 34 tb testing our biggest beef herd had its post restocking test this week about 600 cattle were to be done theres no way it could be done in one go so we did it over 3 instead originally planned for two but ran out of daylight it all went smoothly on the whole or at least as well as could be expected and everything has been cleared as negative i found out from defra a few weeks ago that there have actually been quite a few tb cases in the county since restocking as wed been clear for years previously to fmd this is obviously a bit of a worry we havent had any cases in our practice but if we cant stamp out these new cases as they are found its only a matter of time before it spreads further afield the more we get in the county also means there will have to be more testing at the moment its begrudgingly accepted by the farmers but if we have to do more i can see them having a sense of humour failure over it ultimately its in their interest for us to check that their herd is free but it is a big time commitment and they dont get paid for it while i spent two days testing the rest of the week had a bit more variety i saw few horses mainly lameness but also one or two with other ailments i have to write a casebook for the equine certificate im doing im on the lookout for suitable cases during my rounds i had the weekend off played hockey in manchester and then went to worcester to see some college friends i had to drive back via ely as the trains are cancelled due to the winds which meant a friend was stranded not a very direct route to cumbria diary 35 the week started on monday morning with another tb test on a restocking farm its not a big farm and was one of the late ones to get fmd its run by a very nice but quite intense family the son has taken re stocking very seriously and has obviously thought of it very much as an opportunity to start from scratch and try to eliminate some of their previous herd problems i have consequently spent quite a bit of time advising him over the various vaccines available and their relative pros and cons thankfully things seem to be paying off so far with few problems in herd one of the things that i noticed during the test was that they made one or two jokes about last year sorry forgotten exactly what they said i thought the fact that they were able to now talk about fmd like that had to be a good sign as i think it would have been highly unlikely a year ago on wednesday afternoon i went up to wigton to vet a horse for a potential buyer there were several minor things wrong with it but overall it seemed ok its always a responsibility vetting horses as someone is either trying to buy it or not on the basis of what i find in this case it took quite a lot of convincing the buyer that the imperfections were not that serious hopefully they wont subsequently turn out to be a problem ive started doing more horse cases recently and on tuesday sent off my application form to be accepted to do further exams in horse practice i have to wait until next year to find out whether ive been accepted and wont sit them until 2005 i was off this weekend and played hockey in manchester unfortunately we didnt win maybe next week saturday evening i went down to kendal to see an old flatmate who lives there diary 36 on tuesday i went to see a horse near carlisle it had developed a swelling on its lower jaw that was fairly painful to touch they were a few possibilities but the most likely was that it had at tooth root abscess i put it on to antibiotics but seeing as it had obviously been going on for a while thought it was worth taking some x rays there was obvious destruction of the tooth visible on the x ray which probably means it needs removing this is a fairly major undertaking on a horse and as it was a valuable creature still in training i thought it best to send to edinburgh vet school to have it done hopefully ill be able to go and see it done in a day or twos time one of the aspects drawbacks not really of being a vet his that one is often asked about animal ailments out of work im sure it happens a lot in other jobs too my mother is very adept at this not that i really mind her elderly terrier that we grew up with has started having one or two problems recently i suggested a few possibilities but thought it best if she went to the local vets to have her looked at the problem was she was so bad tempered the terrier that they couldnt safely blood sample her so she had a day out to penrith so that i could try to take blood from her i managed to more or less intact and fortunately her results seemed more or less in order or at least better than her temper the general work in the practice has been fairly steady this week a few farmers seem to be having quite a few cows calving at the moment which is a bit unseasonal but i suppose a reasonable number tend to calve all year round we havent really got into calf pneumonia season yet but it cant be long before they start to keep us busy it will soon take over from lungworm as the main bovine respiratory problem the weekend was off again brought a victory in a hockey match the start of a winning streak perhaps i went up to edinburgh after the match to see a few friends and for the start of a week off wahey diary 37 its a week off cant be bad i didnt do what i had planned due to an unforeseen change in circumstances but still good as i was in edinburgh last weekend i decided to stay up for few days this was partly to see friends and also because i had referred the horse with a bad tooth that i mentioned last week voluntary work experience during time off dedication or very rash i spent tuesday at the vet school in edinburgh with one of my old tutors the case i had sent up was successfully treated so far by removing the offending tooth it was very interesting to see how he did it as he used a different technique to the one weve used in the practice i spent the rest of the day there with him seeing other cases it felt a bit odd being there not as a student i came home on tuesday evening and went down to kirkby stephen to see my folks on wednesday morning i spent most of the rest of the week either at their house or mine doing things like stocking up on firewood for the winter sorting my house out and making a start on stripping the wallpaper in my hallway i normally go away when i take time off but it was actually very nice to do things at home for change it made for quite a relaxing week on the whole diary 38 back to work it was good to have a week off last week but one of the best things about where i work and what i do is that i never seem to feel reluctant to go back to work i think that must mean i enjoy it on the whole on tuesday i went back to see the horse that had had its tooth removed last week its doing very well and is back in training it was eating very well as soon as the tooth came out its amazing how animals often seem to deal with pain so stoically ill check it again next week and all things being well that should be it on tuesday afternoon i happened to see another slightly unusual case in a horse it had developed a lump on the outside of its cheek which on closer inspection turned out to be a large mass man inside its mouth its probably going to have to be removed and should come in next week for it to be done the rest of the week was the usual mix of more routine cases have been on to more farms this week than i have done for a while we recently took on a new dairy farm near appleby and i went to see a cow there for the first time on a first visit you always hope for something straightforward so that its easy to make a good first impression on this occasion the cow was very sick and wasnt really giving me many clues as to why all i could do was treat it for the symptoms it was showing i saw it twice on friday and again on saturday and by evening it was on the mend i never did reach a conclusive diagnosis but i think the farmer was satisfied by the fact that it had got better in spite of not knowing quite what was wrong i was on duty friday night very quiet and on saturday apart from the cow i mentioned it was fairly easy going today i went down to kirkby stephen to see some old friends staying with my parents two weeks with no tb testing itll change next week diary 39 its been a fairly uneventful week at work there dont seem to have been any particularly on going or notable cases in some ways its not a bad thing as it makes for a fairly stress free time its not that you can really switch off but it does mean that when there are a few fairly straightforward cases to see its possible to spend more time chatting to the farmer owner without having to work too hard finding whats wrong with the patient this weeks most interesting case was a horse with amazingly extensive arthritis in its hind legs considering its age its not a terminal condition but it does have implications as to what it will be possible to use it for in future in situations like that it can be quite difficult to give the client the right outlook they often expect a quick cure especially in a young horse and to tell them that a problem has been present for months if not years and will never completely go away can come as a bit of shock the owner in this case was very sensible and seemed to taking what was said very well the other good thing about this week is that im having a very good run with my duties ive been on for two nights on first call and the phone hasnt gone once very unusual and very welcome this must be tempting fate ive had the weekend off there was a hockey match on saturday when we lost to the league leaders but avoided humiliation the rest of the two days was spent trying to progress with decorating the hallway before friends come to stay over christmas and new year am i not too young to be spending weekends off decorating diary 40 i had a good test of my diplomacy skills this week with an irate farmer i had spent four hours doing a tb test on a very cold day when it should have taken about one and a half hours in my rush to get defrosted in my car afterwards i forgot to shut the gate in the field where i had parked on my return to the surgery i was greeted by the news that he had rung wanting my head on a stick and forbidding me from ever setting foot on his farm again as all his tups had gone walkabout through the gate id left open on advice from the partners at the practice who knew him better i gave him a day to calm down and then wrote a very grovelling letter i was allowed to go back at the end of the week to read the test results which fortunately was all clear i think hes forgiven me one of the more common cow operations we do is to correct a displaced stomach in the two and a half years ive been at the practice weve always done it using one particular technique there are circumstances where another method is indicated and having not seen them for 2 years there were 2 this week they both went well so far another two years before the next i took my last day off for 2002 on thursday and again spent it decorating on thursday night we had our practice christmas meal the two vets on duty managed not to get called out and on the whole i think people werent too hung over on friday last year there was a bit of a debate as to whether we should have a christmas night out as most farmers were either just starting to restock or still cleaning out this year it was much more straightforward on friday night it was the annual night at hesket newmarket organised by the local defra lab for any local vets that want a meal and beers its a good chance to catch up with other vets from neighbouring practices in very informal atmosphere diary 41 ive had a couple of vet students staying with me this week who i knew when i was in my final year at edinburgh theyre doing work experience with us for a week or so its made a pleasant change to have some company for a while i have also acquired two stray kittens in the last week the usual vet procedure of eventually finding an unwanted patient that you cant resist taking yourself they are settling in ok and weve only had to have one or two little discussions about the benefits of using a litter tray rather than the carpet the week at work has been reasonably busy a good thing this week as there have been three students and its a bit dull for them if there is nothing going on we had a horse in for most of the week with a severe respiratory infection its needed fairly intensive care but seems to be on the mend now i may use it as a case to write up as part of the exam im hoping to do in a few years itll have to be a new years resolution to get on with the writing up part of it apart from a horse its been the usual sort of mix a few routine fertility visits to dairy farms a few sick cows and horses etc there been some tb tests this week but ive managed to miss them all must be saving some for me next year i had a lot of people from work here on friday night for pre christmas mulled wine and mince pies im not quite sure the kittens knew what was happening but i think the rest of us enjoyed it ive had the weekend off and went down to see a friend in birmingham who qualified last summer this was her second weekend on call so i went to give moral support being on call isnt stressful anymore but i remember for the first few times its difficult not to be aware of the phone all the time and hoping it doesnt ring there werent many calls and those that did come in she didnt need me for suited me well diary 42 the week of christmas and my first job of the week was to replace a particularly contaminated uterine prolapse in a cow it finally went back in after an hour or so of fairly fruitless efforts very festive this week and next we had fewer vets than usual working each day as we all have a few days off for christmas new year so its sometimes a bit busy during the day its generally worth it for the extra time off i was off on monday night and went to kirkby stephen to see school friends back for the holiday although we dont see each other very often any more people dont really seem to change very much a good friend whose parents farm had f and m have sold up and are going into b b instead i think it was a hard decision but now they seen to be quite relieved to be out of it i was on duty on christmas eve and fortunately didnt have to go out i just had three phone calls between 7 and 9 p m from people saying their dog or cat had been off food for periods varying from three weeks to 10 days christmas eve seemed an odd time to notice this i went home to kirkby stephen for christmas and boxing day and didnt really do very much i had a look at a couple of mums sheep but other than that it was just a case of being lazy and enjoying seasonal food and drink i was on duty this weekend which turned out be fairly busy one of the students who came to stay last week came back to do some on call work which turned out to be very useful a couple of cows to operate on as caesar and a displaced stomach where two pairs of hands are better than one and quite a few small animals to see to diary 43 ive had most of this week off for new year tuesday to friday which is pretty good going seen as i was off for christmas as well monday was fairly quiet with just a few farm calls to do and some small animals rather worryingly weve heard that a local deer farm not one of our customers has gone down with tb apparently with quite a few deer in the herd having it this means that well have to do tb check tests on any of our farms that neighbour the affected premises over new year my cousin her husband and their five children young came to stay it wasnt too hectic on the whole with just the occasional loss of humour a couple of friends from work came round to join us for new year itself ive had to work this weekend part of the deal for getting four days off midweek but its not really been that busy ive only been on second call and have only had to do 2 calls so far an easy return to work after new year excesses diary 44 back to normal quota of vets at work again this week which is good as it seems to have been very busy most of it has been the usual sort of things for the time of year cows starting to get lame after having been inside for a few months and metabolic problems probably related to the poor silage last years summer rain created quite a few farmers have a large amount of 2001 silage left as it wasnt used over winter 2001 2002 as they hadnt restocked on the whole its kept very well and in many cases is better than the crop they made last summer the fall out from the deer herd tb has arrived two neighbouring farms to test this week the first one has come back negative to the relief of all concerned i did the second one on friday and will read it tomorrow monday the farmers there are all very concerned about it which is understandable but hopefully groundless there are lots of questions being asked along the lines of what if some of which i can answer and some not it does remind me a bit of february 2001 when fmd broke out and there were all sorts of queries about the disease its progression etc that none of us really knew about it didnt take long for us to know the answers to most of them ive had this weekend off a hockey fixture list has started again after the christmas break a return to winning ways hopefully to continue diary 45 the week had a bad start the tb test i did last friday produced two reactors and two inconclusive borderline reactors this means that the farm isnt allowed to move at any bovines on or off the farm except directly to slaughter under licence the reactors are taken away for post mortem examination and the inconclusive reactors are isolated for 60 days until the rest of the herd is re tested the farmer was very keen to get the inconclusive animals removed as well quite understandably in my opinion so that they couldnt pose a threat to the rest of his herd apparently defra arent allowed to do this i think largely due to financial reasons while fully appreciating the need to protect taxpayers money considering how much was spent in 2001 i think this a potentially flawed argument perhaps the rules need to be changed but then again im not an epidemiologist and perhaps they dont actually pose a threat the farmer seemed very depressed by it all i think a lot of it is the feeling of having the stigma of being a farm under defra restrictions again he was also very aware of the threat he was to his neighbours and was desperately keen to minimise it its actually quite small while the cows are still indoors but i think people are still very much thinking of how serious it was for neighbours if someone got fmd tb is a very different type of organism and its a question of getting people to understand this which isnt to say its not a very serious problem on the same day another farm in the area not ours was confirmed with tb so its definitely progressing in cumbria depressing all we can do is follow defra instructions on testing and try to keep on top of it one of my colleagues tore a knee ligament last week while skiing he normally does mostly large animal calls seeing as hes now confined to the practice doing small animals ive taken over couple of the farms he does routine fertility visits for it makes a change to spend time on farms i dont visit often although i hear the small animal nurses are quite keen for matt to get back to doing them diary 46 one of our dairy farmers has had a big outbreak of pneumonia in his calves this week ive been to the farm at least once every day this week the tests weve done are usually pretty sensitive but have failed to reveal any of the usual causes treatment seems to have been working in some cases but not in others he hasnt lost any i e none dead but the loss in body weight is very obvious its all been a bit frustrating really hes a very pleasant guy and hasnt said anything but when treatments repeatedly fail to get expected and predicted results i cant help feeling that he must be getting a bit sceptical about it or perhaps im just being paranoid by the end of the week the majority seem to be on the mend but seeing as we havent tracked down the causative agent its hard to know what vaccination to recommend next year there are some more tests that will come back in two weeks which may be more revealing in midweek i did one of the fairly common operations to correct a twisted stomach in a cow surprisingly it was the first time this dairy farmer had had one done and he took some convincing that it was a good idea having persuaded someone to pay for a procedure i always feel under a bit more pressure than usual fortunately it went pretty well and the cow is so far doing well i was on second call this weekend which turned out to be pretty quiet i think we must be in a lull before lambing really kicks in lets enjoy it while it lasts diary 47 after not doing any testing last week it was my turn again this week it wasnt a big one only about 30 cows but it was a bit more risky than usual as it was a herd of beef longhorns and they do have long horns whilst trying to manoeuvre them into a crush to inject their necks with tuberculin we always had to be ready to take evasive action if they made a sudden turn i dont think they ever tried to use their horns aggressively but they were so big that they become dangerous weapons when they were just moving normally as it turned out no one received any injuries and very importantly the test was negative this week also brought my first lambing of the year other people have done a few but this was my first we have a couple of farms who lamb early for the early lamb sales it seems very hard work at this time of year but the early prices do seem to make it worthwhile give it another week or two and a sure theyll start to become more frequent i took friday off as i had to get to london for 4 pm to get on the eurostar to go skiing typically the one day of the year that the country ground to halt was thursday night friday we managed to make it to waterloo station only to find the station in chaos as all eurostars had been cancelled due to snow in france at least its not just britain that cant cope with it after being assured that none would run for 24 hours they suddenly told us to board only 1 hours late very pleasant surprise we ended up arriving in val disere on time with loads of snow and blue skies i tried to spare a thought for whoever was on call at weekend i managed it just diary 48 after the weather almost prevented us from reaching val disere it was very clear for the first few days but then the snow returned for three days we couldnt do much during that time but it did mean that there were fantastic conditions for the last few days we had a group of 29 and completely filled one large chalet there were for once no major skiing injuries within the group and i think a good time was had by all diary 49 back to work this week im never reluctant to go back after a week off and sometimes dare i say it even look forward to it must be a good sign apparently last week was ok at work with no major dramas we still havent found any more tb cases but the screening continues all the time one of the rules for re stocking herds compared to herds that missed fmd is that all bovines over 42 days old have to be tested rather than just the adults last year when there werent many calves around this didnt make much difference but now most farms have at least a years worth of calves in place it doubles the size of most tests often calves wont fit in crushes and are very wild so it can get quite exciting it seems a necessary policy though one of the reactors i found a few weeks ago was a six month old stirk ive had a fairly quiet week ive had a couple of nights on duty which were both quiet theres a horse near carlisle that i think ive mentioned before with a recurrent tooth problem we thought wed finally sorted that but this week she developed a problem with one of the tendons on her foreleg its a bit disappointing for her owner as she only bought the horse recently in order to compete to a very high standard and she seems to permanently off training with one ailment or another i dont think its too serious so hopefully in another week or two shell be back to work ive been off this weekend came second in the weekends hockey match a real case of defeat been snatched from the jaws of victory i went for a walk around the great gable scafell area on sunday afternoon it was amazing how much snow and ice was still left over from winter weather a week or so ago maybe i neednt have bothered going abroad diary 50 i found another positive tb case on friday i did the test on tuesday on a very large beef herd on a restocking farm including calves they must have been just over 400 cattle to do there was one reactor on friday and two inconclusives there is a possibility that it is a false positive the farm has been having big problems with something called at johnes disease which is caused by a similar type of bacterium to the one that causes tb there is a small possibility of a cow carrying johnes disease cross reacting with the tb test injection i actually blood sampled all the adult cows on tuesday to screen the herd for johnes in order to try to start eradicating it from herd itll be interesting to see whether the positive test cow will be positive for johnes ultimately it doesnt really make much difference in the short term the farms been placed under restrictions and the affected cow has been taken off for post mortem one of my colleagues found another positive reactor on a different farm on friday as well thats three farms in the practice now and around 50 60 within cumbria the big worry now this is that the longer it stays around the more likely inevitable it is disease will get into wildlife reservoirs deer and perhaps badgers depending on whether you believe that badgers are an influence or not time will tell but im sure its going to keep us busy for several years if not a lot more i did a test on monday as well on a small farm that ive never been to before at least testing is one way of getting on to small farms who dont often need us this one was all clear the remainder of the week was spent doing more usual work lambings still not quite got into full swing although we are seeing a slow increase in the number of sheep been brought to the surgery diary 51 no tb testing for me this week and no more positive cases in the practice the first case that i found back in january was confirmed as carrying tb this week though although its bad news for the farmer it is quite reassuring to know that the tests and methods we use do detect carrier animals reasonably accurately this week has been fairly busy without ever getting too hectic i operated on a cow on tuesday which for a number of reasons didnt go quite as smoothly as it might have done it subsequently didnt do as well post operatively as we would normally expect the coming week should see an improvement i hope we can never give cast iron guarantees about the outcome of surgery but it is quite rare for this op to fail so fingers crossed for monday i had to see a horse with colic earlier in the week which on my first visit to i was very suspicious that it was going to require surgery to correct the owner wasnt prepared for that happen though so it was a question of trying to manage it medically or euthanizing it it wasnt in undue pain so we gave it a go medically and much to my pleasant surprise over the next few hours and visits he did very well just goes to show we are not all knowing it would have been interesting to know whether it was a surgical condition which somehow righted itself or whether it was a medical case all along which simply appeared as something more serious i had to work for an hour or so on saturday morning doing small animal consultations and then had the rest of the weekend off we came second in a hockey match again and then i went up to edinburgh to catch up with some college friends who havent seen for a while diary 52 this week has really seen the start of the lambing season the sheep every day or every other day that weve been seeing for the last month or so has turned into one every few hours during the day and during the night in some cases its encouraging that farmers are still bringing them in calling us out as many feel that sheep arent worth paying vet fees for this obviously creates a welfare problem in many situations as inappropriate and inadequate treatment is sometimes provided by the farmer having said that i can see why some take the attitude of not spending money on them as prices are often so low the other aspect of lambing time is that nights get very busy on monday i had a ewe caesarean at 2am then a horse that had just foaled at 315 i had an hour or so in bed and then a sick cow at 620 although it can be a bit tiring on the whole cases we see out of hours are not the run of the mill routine things so it does at least make it interesting which isnt always the first thing on my mind when the phone rings at 3am unfortunately the cow i operated on last week failed to improve and i had to re operate on monday this is far from ideal as it carries a much higher risk of infection than first time operation somewhat to my surprise it seems to be doing very well now cows seem to be amazingly resilient if id had abdominal surgery twice in a mucky cow byre im sure i wouldnt cope as well i did the same op on a different farm later in the week which went much better id be getting worried about my technique if two in a row went wrong ive worked saturday morning again supposedly just for an hour but it turned into about two and a half as things kept coming in i went up to edinburgh again after hockey came second again to see someone whos left his job to go around the world for six months diary 54 the beginning of the week saw a visit to a horse which had a chronic episode of laminitis a hoof condition in this horses case it had become very severe and really beyond the point where treatment is feasible euthanasia was the best option for the horse as it was in a lot of pain unfortunately the owner was very reluctant for this and wanted to carry on with treatment this sort of situation does crop up from time to time and is difficult for all concerned in the end i told the owners what i thought the chances of recovery were and let them make their decision which was to continue treatment hopefully ill be proved wrong and the horse will recover but i cant really see it happening i saw another case later in the week which ended up going to liverpool university for surgery it was a small pony that had managed to cut itself very severely on barbed wire horses always find something to injure themselves on there was a risk that it had penetrated a joint so i sent it to liverpool to be flushed as far as i know its doing very well so far the rest of the workload this week has been the usual stuff for the time of year loads of lambing a few tb tests negative generally kept busy on friday i went to edinburgh for a few days course on equine neurology i knew most of the speakers and some delegates from when i was a student there it was good to see people again and i learnt a few things about horses brains and nerves saturday was our last hockey match of the season a draw we didnt win the league by any stretch of the imagination but we werent last either diary 55 another manic spring week goes by ive been on duty this weekend and the two of us on call have done as many calls in the last two days has eight vets would expect to do in two week days in the summer we havent been bored i didnt leave the practice building until lunchtime on saturday as there was a constant flow of small animals to see to and a few sheep brought in with lambing problems i eventually left at 130 p m to go to operate on a cow with a twisted stomach that was meant to be done at 11 am the op went a ok but it was then straight back to the surgery to do a caesarean on a whelping bitch with the help of a student who is seeing practice with us between then and 9 pm it was a variety of sick cows sheep to lamb and a calf with lead poisoning at the far end of ullswater would have been a very nice drive out if it hadnt been for the rush to top things off i had a cow caesarean at 9 pm it was very useful having a student to help all day i think it was a bit of an eye opener for her sunday morning gave me to more caesareans sheep this time variety is the spice of life a cat who had very mysteriously lost a leg overnight perhaps caught in a trap but was in incredibly good health otherwise its amazing what animals can withstand and a good supply of other calls to keep me out of mischief it has actually been quite enjoyable despite being so hectic and i think most of the cases have been quite successful which always helps the rest of the week seems a distant memory but on the whole it was more of the same but at a slower pace i did another small tb test which was negative anyway a night off tonight i need a pint diary 56 monday morning was the 60 day re test for the first herd that i found tb in it was a sunny day and on the whole the test went very smoothly the farmers buildings are getting very overcrowded though as he is under a movement restriction due to the tb first day started well as all the animals were giving negative readings but then came the dreaded reaction to the injections we gave on the first day there were four reactors in total three of which were borderline and the other was very very obvious the frustrating thing is that the obvious one was a borderline reactor last time but defra refused to take it as it isnt in their policy to take inconclusive reactors found on a routine test this means that an animal that is actually infected his left on premises to potentially infect other animals the farmer had tried to point this out two months ago to no avail he is now vindicated in his view not that that is much consolation for the fact that his restrictions are to be continued and he may well probably will in fact now have more carriers which wont be found until the next test in 60 days time the reason for not initially taking inconclusive reactors is to save money by not paying for the animals to be slaughtered that arent actually infected in cases like this it seems to be a real false economy and doesnt win defra friends in the farming community tuesday and wednesday this week were mainly horse jobs a horse with a recurrent tooth problem that ive mentioned before came in for more x rays and finally seems to be doing ok its competing in germany in a week or two so i do hope it stays ok this weekend i went for a walk in the lakes with one of my old flatmates from edinburgh the weather held and was amazingly hot for the time of year almost got sunburnt diary 57 ive had a final year student from edinburgh staying with me this week while shes seeing practice with us final exams are looming and i think the stress levels are rising its very easy to think of all the things you dont know but i think weve more or less managed to convince her that she does know enough not to be a liability when she qualifies she saw an interesting incident on a call we did early in the week id gone to replace a uterine prolapse in a cow which went okay but the farmer then asked me to falsely certify a cow we can give certificates to cows over 30 months of age under the bse scheme for which farmers are compensated this cow had to be put down but wasnt 30 months for another four days he was understandably quite upset about this and let me know its this sort of thing that is a nightmare for anyone but especially someone just starting you want to please the farmer and make a good impression but you also have responsibility to not abuse your ability to use your signature in the end i explained why he couldnt have a certificate and he did calm down im sure vicky will have similar situations before too long diplomatic as well as clinical skills develop very quickly once in practice another interesting case came in on thursday a year old foal needed emergency surgery on a hernia as luck would have it it was our first relatively quiet morning for a few weeks so we had enough vets on hand to do the surgery and anaesthetic the op went well and the horse has gone home this weekend ive been on second call this weekend and things have been busy but not unmanageable i did 2 belgian blue caesareans in the space of six hours on one farm yesterday but since then its just been a reasonable stream of calls rather than the madness of two weekends ago diary 58 following my going up on a course on neurology a few weeks ago a case came up this week its not often that we see neurological cases so its quite a coincidence i think it must have some kind of tumour in its brain causing it to show the various signs it has unfortunately the only way to firmly diagnose this is by post mortem which is how most neurological cases end up and alas i fear this one will too i went to do a fertility check at one of our dairy farms on tuesday the vet he normally has was away and he looked a bit put out when i turned up i think hope i managed not to abort any of his cows and he seemed very cheery by the time i left i suppose its understandable that farmers tend to want continuity with which vet comes work continues to be very busy an indication in the increase in daily workload is that weve had to introduce a specific messages book at work as theres no longer room to write people messages in the day book as it so full with appointments they used to be a few days in the year when both pages of the day book were full the first day of fmd in penrith had one call but this week 4 days have been full its got to be a good sign really and as i think ive said before it does stop us all from getting bored ive had three days off over easter friday sunday and two friends and their two mad dogs have been to stay my cats were not impressed on good friday we went up plaice fell i accidentally brought us down a much more direct route than i intended so we had to while away some time in the garden of the patterdale hotel lifes hard yesterday we left the bank holiday crowds in the lakes and went for a walk in the eden valley didnt see a soul its amazing the difference a few miles can make i suppose it hasnt got the hills and isnt as famous but the scenery is still pretty impressive but lets not tell anyone and then it might stay quiet on bank holidays diary 59 i was on duty on easter monday but it wasnt too hectic in fact it was almost unbelievably quiet there were three of us on duty bracing ourselves for the usual spring onslaught and we only had about two calls each to do all morning weird how it sometimes turns out like that lambing is definitely quietening down now the 5 10 lambings coming in each day is turning into 2 3 its mostly fell sheep lambing now which tend to be easier to lamb so few are in need our farmers assistance its starting to get into the horse castration season weve had the odd one or two over the last few weeks but have had about five this week one of my colleagues who is next up from me in terms of experience and i have started doing them together whereas a few years ago after it would always have been at least one of the partners and one of us we must be improving tb testing seems to have calmed down a bit too as a practice were pretty much up to date with it and as farmers start to turn their cows out theyll become more reluctant to do it with the way its spreading in the county though we have to try to keep up to date with it or it really is going to get out of hand ive had this weekend off it was my sisters birthday yesterday so i went to meet her and my folks for lunch we sat outside and enjoyed the april sun very nice it was too farmers are all wanting rain you dont hear that often in april but the sun suits me fine what are the odds on it bucketing down in june during silage time diary 60 one of our big dairy farms had had a big outbreak of ibr this week one of the main respiratory viruses on the whole it doesnt cause death and is normally containable on this occasion however it seems to have been a virulent strain and has caused a number of deaths and a great deal of lost production in terms of lost milk and calves not thriving towards the end of the week i went and shot three cows which were terminally affected seeing three dead and bleeding cows in the yard obviously reminded the farmer and me of when he had the whole herd shot in the same place for fmd and he had then moved out of sight very quickly i think the worst of the outbreak is over now and all the cows have been vaccinated theres only one vet more junior qualified for less time than me in the practice who started a year or so ago this week we went to do a colt castrate together one surgeon one as anaesthetist for the first time weve both done a lot with other vets but this was the first time weve been let loose as a pair everything went very smoothly so it looks as though our bosss confidence trust wasnt totally misplaced on friday morning i had a big dehorning session for one of our beef farmers its fairly non cerebral type work but is ok for a change every now and then and the farmer is a pretty amenable sort of guy more than could be said for the weather so it was a fairly laid back mornings work i had the afternoon off and drove up to edinburgh where there was a bit of a reunion for recent graduates from the vet college there were a lot of people havent seen for a long time and it was interesting to compare notes on what we were all up to diary 61 after last weekend in edinburgh i had to come back to work on bank holiday monday it was fairly manageable on the whole there were three of us on duty in the morning when the work was steady without ever getting too hectic i was on first call after 1pm when the surgery closed and it remained fairly quiet until the evening when there was a sudden run of calls but they came in one after the other rather than building up too much on tuesday i did the 60 day re test of the second herd of cattle that i had previously found a reactor in its a big herd and it took all day to get it done theyve been a bit unfortunate and brought in several other diseases apart from the suspected tb when they re stocked one of these an enteric condition called johnes disease is a chronic wasting problem and is notoriously difficult to eradicate itll take years of blood testing and careful record keeping to get rid of it its frustrating for them as all the planning for the post fmd period has been disrupted the tb test showed up no reactors this time but 3 cows were inconclusive results and will have to be re tested this is almost certainly as a result of the cows carrying antibodies to avian tb which causes no signs of disease in cows but disrupts the bovine tb test its a good example of why we badly need a more specific method for testing for tb its being worked on at the moment and hopefully well get one one day the senior partner at work is supervising another vet who is doing the same equine qualification that im enrolled for on wednesday he came to spend a day with neil to do some equine anaesthetics they were mainly castrates so i operated while neil went through the anaesthetics with his student it was very useful to hear it all in detail again its all too easy to get into the habit of knowing which drugs work at what dosages and not actually really thinking about why they work or why theyre better than other drugs we could use a useful day but it has made me realise ive got a lot to do over the next few years diary 62 things are still remaining very busy at work lambing has pretty much finished now but the work doesnt seem to be easing the partners have decided we need another vet to help things along a final year student from edinburgh came for an interview this week and it looks as though hell get the job it will mean that the rota will improve and hopefully will not be quite as hectic when he starts following the fantastically dry spring its now too wet for the farmers and they are tearing their hair out about how the first cut of silage is going to be gathered in dry hopefully well get a dry spell again soon to ease their worries i found a potential case to write up for my equine casebook this week its a mare that managed to get caught up in wire and tear a big hole in the shin of her lower leg its too big a defect to stitch so itll have to heal with a lot of bandaging and perhaps some skin grafts it always amazes me how horses managed to give themselves the most horrendous injuries been fields where there really doesnt seem to be any opportunity for it clumsiness perhaps maybe they just enjoy pain i doubt it were doing quite a bit of scanning of mares for pregnancy at the moment its another thing that ive been doing more of this year than in the past its a bit daunting at times but as with a lot of things its really a case of practising it as much as possible by the end of the stud season itll hopefully be fairly straightforward i drove down to oxford on friday evening after work to see my sister cousins friends who live down there it seemed a longish drive but it was well worth it to catch up with them all one of the things about working weekends is that it makes weekends off that much more appreciated diary 63 after a very pleasant weekend off i had a truly delightful first job on monday morning a cow had been losing weight for the last month also the reason i found was that it had a very dead calf inside which i then spent the first hour of the week pulling out bone by bone it was a fairly revolting job but wasnt actually something that i especially resented doing must mean im happy in my work or perhaps just a bit weird i had another fairly grim job later in the week when i was called out at 4 a m to a foaling the foal was stuck half out and was dead by the time i got there i eventually managed to get the foal out and initially the mare seemed ok but deteriorated over the next 48 hours and eventually had to be euthanased thats just the way it goes sometimes a more successful case came later in the week when i saw a foal that was acutely lame it looked at first as though it might have an infected elbow but after taking samples of the joint fluid and some x rays it looked as though it was actually a traumatic injury it stayed it in the hospital for four days during which time it seemed to improve quite a bit its a thoroughbred from a good racing line hopefully with a rest itll make a full recovery and win the grand national in 2008 i had the whole of the bank holiday weekend off six college friends came to stay for a weekend of cumbrian fresh air after a pretty gloomy forecast the weather turned out very well and we all went for a lake district walk each day and had a pretty relaxed time except for my cats four dogs also came to stay which didnt impress the cats who spent the whole time hiding in my room diary 64 this week started with a tb test for a small re stocking herd he had bought some cattle from a farm that subsequently tested positive for tb one of the cattle from that farm had then tested positive on his farm so this weeks test was a 60 day re test it was an all clear this time which was obviously a relief for them seeing as there was a positive on the farm last time they probably have to have another test in 60 days from now before restrictions are lifted this farm isnt very big so being under tb restrictions is awkward but not as crippling as it is the larger farms there is no room for relaxing the rules at the moment though the recent news from ireland that says they think theyve proved a link with badgers makes it even more important to get it out of cumbria before it gets into wildlife although it may well already be too late in between the two testing days this week i seemed to do a lot of horse cases on wednesday i spent most of the day touring around cumbria seeing horses in wigton cockermouth and bassenthwaite it was a sunny day and was a very pleasant way to spend the day great scenery to look at outside when not driving and cases going the way i was hoping not a bad way to work ive been on call this weekend and its been very quiet so far yesterday was steady with a reasonable number of calls but none stacking up ive done 2 cattle caesareans on the same farm this weekend one yesterday morning which seemed like a huge calf until the one i did this morning which was truly a freak it was the biggest calf i or the farmer had seen and is the result of selecting for extreme confirmation in beef breeds it does pose serious welfare issues for the cows as they cannot give birth naturally and have to have fairly major abdominal surgery instead well never persuade farmers of this though as the consumer wants cheaper food and cheaper beef is made through bigger beef calves it does seem tough on the cows though or am i being too cynical diary 65 i thought it was interesting to see how much people still are willing to talk about some of 2001 at the meeting on wednesday night while a lot of the conversation was routed around the subjects you had come up with over the last 18 months it often came back to talk of events and individual experiences during the outbreak itself these stories must have been told on dozens of occasions but people still want to tell them if the right time opportunity comes up myself included there were so many themes that you have all come up with on the electronic tags sheet that it seems impossible to comment on them all some of them seem very relevant to me others not so much trust is a category that comes up under a couple of headings one of the headings it is under is knowledge i think this has been one of the most significant changes since fmd as far as the farmer vet relationship is concerned defra has gone from being eyed with some suspicion to overt distrust and resentment on a whole we dont get too much flack as veterinary gps but when we have to do defra allocated jobs such as tb testing there is sometimes a general feeling of it being another task to try to wear them down being sent by the authorities another regulation that has caused huge resentment is the whole animal movement licensing system it is much easier now and causes fewer problems but a year or so ago it was the source of much stress we had to try to act as intermediary between farmers and defra and keep both sides happy the damage done to the farmer defra trust will take a long time if ever to start to repair hopefully by trying to be more on their side than defra seem to be the trust they have in us has been preserved its been a quietish week at work maybe because theres been a bit of silaging going on so the farmers havent got time for routine work its about time we were a bit quieter the summer lull hasnt materialised at all yet this year in fact were taking on another vet to ease the workload did i mention this last week in the meantime its nice to have time to draw breath and enjoy the sun for a day or two diary 66 this week seems to have gone by a pretty quickly maybe its because im on holiday next week and the thought of it is spurring me on i fly to split tomorrow for a week of sailing on the croatian coast with a college friend and some relatives itll be a change from cumbria one of our big dairy farmers was away in thailand this week the farm was left to be run by his usual workers and his brother and mother despite this he felt he had to take his mobile phone with him and he was rung twice during the week to be asked what should be done with a couple of sick cows i suppose this either demonstrates extreme dedication or an inability to forget about work or both but then again it also shows how committed a lot of farmers are and that its not just a job to them as farms get bigger the concept of all the cows being individually known to the farmer or being his friends becomes increasingly unrealistic but in the majority of cases theyre not just milk making machines and are cared for pretty well its not hard to see why it was so hard for people to lose their herds after being a bit quieter at work last week it suddenly seems to have become very hectic at work again this week there havent been any particularly time consuming jobs just lots of sick cows horse calls and the usual mix of animal ailments its better to be busy than quiet though i think i need a holiday and ill keep my phone switched off diary 67 a week off work to go sailing in croatia easy life after meeting up with the boat and the rest of the group in starigrad we sailed to vis into a fairly direct head wind so it took quite a bit of tacking and was a bit of a rough ride i also very stupidly underdid the sunscreen and managed to burn my back very careless but it got less uncomfortable as the week went on we spent two nights in vis harbour as the others who had already been sailing for a week wanted a rest it used to be a military island and there were definite signs of this around although it is obviously developing a now rapidly growing tourist trade after vis it was off to hvar where we anchored in a small inlet a few miles from the town after a night there we went to hvar town for a look around the castle on the hill was very impressive and the town still feels as though it is relatively unspoilt at the moment the last couple of days were spent making our way slowly back to split we actually spent the last two days in split as there was a strong northerly wind brewing up which would have been a bit rough to be out in my uncle who was the skipper on board has been to croatia for the last three years he said it was very noticeably more busy this year it seems a shame to spoil it with more tourist facilities but we all contributed to them being built by going there hopefully it wont be too dramatically changed diary 68 this week started at 9am monday with a tb test at one of the most basic run down farms we go to it was the first time id been there in three and a half years of working here so they dont make huge use of our veterinary services one of their bullocks was 7 years old when i casually asked about what plans they had for it seeing as he had missed the 30 months cut off time for human consumption i was told it was just kept as a friend for the bull the test was very slow as the cattle handling facilities were not the best on the planet they were very pleasant people to talk to and it soon became apparent that they had very little time for defra nothing unusual there the son was one of the people who had had his firearms confiscated after making threats at the start of fm d they still felt resentful about the way the police became involved and the way they were ultimately given no choice as to who came on to their farm to check their stock fortunately all the cattle were negative for tb so there was no need to further add to their distrust of defra by putting them under more restriction the rest of the week has been fairly steady theres been enough going on to keep us busy without ever being frantic the horse i saw last week with a neurological problem has become a bit worse so has gone to edinburgh vet school to see one of the neurologists up there he seemed fairly confused by it as well which i have to say i found quite reassuring the weekend was a bit on the strenuous side a cousin who is a keen cyclist persuaded me it was a good idea to do a big cumbrian yorkshire bike ride we went from penrith to alston to barnard castle to tan hill refreshments to kirkby stephen to penrith on saturday and then recovered on sunday it seemed like a good idea at the time but i am really feeling it now diary 69 looking back at some of the quotes in the recovery section of the notes from a meeting its noticeable how easy it is to forget or at least not have in ones mind how much it affected a lot people its almost hard to remember how much i was affected by it i know that there were some very unpleasant tasks such as supervising slaughters and day to day work was often very frustrating when we felt people overseeing our work from offices didnt really know what it was like in the field but i feel now that on the whole once work was finished life pretty much went on maybe this isnt actually a true reflection of how it was and its just that some of the detailed memories are fading often things dont seem as bad as they actually were when you look back on them i know plenty of clients colleagues and friends whose lives were completely overtaken by fmd so perhaps mine was more than i remember but i also feel that most of the people who i remember as being heavily affected are now more or less completely over it one of the farms i went to this week lost a son in a road accident about two months after getting fmd i think the farmer was ready to give up everything after that apparently he left the cleaning up of his farm and took no interest in anything time obviously helped him hes been back milking again for that sic last year and a half there are still changes though he seems very much quieter and more laid back now if a cow isnt in calf or things dont go quite right he doesnt seem to get stressed now as he once would have done work has been a bit quieter this week which we would expect at this time of year one of our farms has put some pedigree belgian blue embryos into some limousin cross heifers and theyre starting to calve now they all need caesars as the calves are almost as big as the heifers that produce them the only thing to be said for it is that we can do them at a sensible time of day rather than at two in the morning as we know when theyre due diary 70 one of the five categories you raised at the meetings last month was trauma and one of the subsections on the chart was sounds smells visions sights are probably the most frequent reminder of fmd now there are certain bits of road that have memories for example driving north on the m6 just south of penrith it was possible to count smoke plumes from about 20 pyres at one stage on fine days it always reminds me of it when i drive that stretch one farm has the remains of a pyre that was started to be built but never finished even things like driving across two lines of tar across a road which once held down a disinfectant mat people who didnt live here at the time wouldnt even notice them but it seems quite significant to the rest of us it doesnt really bother me but just is a reminder of what went on at other times it seems odd how quickly things have gone back to normal even something as simple as a road with mud or animal muck on it in 2001 that would have stuck out like a sore thumb and would have warranted urgent action now im used to driving a dirty car i do clean it sometimes and having some roads caked in dirt its difficult to imagine how the farmers kept them clean two years ago but they did obviously there are other reminders people never tire of talking about it but its the day to day visions and places that are most regular work has been a bit quieter this week i did it a caesar on a cow which had a truly ridiculously enormous calf we need to move away from breeding continental beef breeds and go back to nice compact jerseys or aberdeen anguses i also saw an unusual neurological case in a horse its very uncoordinated and has poor balance its the kind of case where brain spinal scan would be useful but those facilities arent really available for horses it will be interesting to see how it goes over the next few days diary 71 the last diary the 18 months seem to have gone by quickly things seem so much back to how they were that its odd to think back to what was going on when we first started writing them i think we were pretty much in the swing of doing restocking checks and doing endless blood sampling of sheep the last restocking checks i did were only 16 months ago it seems far longer although i say things are back to how they were im sure there are actually a lot of differences its just that i dont notice them because im used to how things are now the practice has become a lot busier by october well be up to nine full time and two part time vets pre fmd we were seven full time and two part time some of the increase is equine and small animal but most of it is in farm practice part of this is directly linked to fmd eg more tb testing due to re stocking tests and re stocking having brought tb into the county other factors arent so obvious but are unquestionably fmd related most restocked farmers went back with more stock than they originally had so overall there is greater density of stock around more animals means more sick animals which means more calls for the vet its a shame in some ways to see the small traditional farms being forced out but its hard to see how they can manage as margins get smaller and larger neighbours get more stock and more land fmd was a way out for several of the smaller farms all have been bought up by neighbours with none being sold as single units as ive said in recent weeks this time of year is usually quiet it has become a bit less frantic recently but the traditional summer lull hasnt materialised ive been a vet for four years the last three have been just about as interesting and challenging as they could have been both professionally and socially from the point of view of living in penrith obviously fmd had devastating effects on thousands of people many of whom are my friends on the whole i see very few residual scars it is still talked about but less and less as time goes on more than one farmer has actually said that they think in hindsight it was a very good thing for them im not sure i could ever say that as it brought too much stress and sadness for too many people but if it had happened i think very much with the benefit of hindsight im glad that i had the chance to be involved with it from the start and through the recovery
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about diarist date of birth 1966 gender f occupation group 6 geographic region north cumbria diary 1 monday was the usual long hard grind i accept that i have to put in 10 12 hours and i dont mind doing the work because its not physically or mentally taxing but i do hate not having a lunch break just that little bit of selfish time to site have a cigarette take the dogs down the river see the horses whatever i do resent that fact that w one of the bosses almost always gets a lunch hour b the other boss has gone up tremendously in my opinion for the way that he gets on with the work he starts early finishes late hates derfa paperwork and rarely complains it is definitely grinding them down because they work like that at least 4 days a week it has been a huge advantage this last year being part time at work my days off obviously arent my own as they used to be but i do get away from the phone and the demands of clients some of our clients are very selfish and i hadnt noticed before they seem to think they are the only ones that have hassles with defra i remember saying to one complaining about problems with licensing that he was lucky to have problems with only one licence the first day that movement licenses came out we applied for 26 and received the explanatory notes from defra on how to complete the paperwork 4 days later anyway managed to do three final visits and complete most of the paperwork before 9pm kirkby stephen was buzzing today the auction reopened for a cattle sale the main street was full of shiny farmers with fish and chips and the back lane was full of shiny some new land rovers and trailers trailers mostly new in fact mc told me that as soon as he heard his bloods had come back clear restocking he washed and changed and went to the mart he said it was the first time he had felt clean since the day they were infected he felt ok to go among other farmers he surprised me because he is so easy going he takes all in his stride but he still says fmd is not as terrible as testicular cancer and hes right ad was one of the other final visits he doesnt give a bugger about anything happy to become a flower power farmer he doesnt care much about his sheep as individuals they are just numbers just as well because in the batch he bought from wales the sheep have more legs than teeth i cant see them lasting long pissed off because i missed bryan adams concert in newcastle couldnt finish in time to join the bus the rest of the lassies had a brilliant time and at least tracey benefited from my ticket had to go back in to work the next day to finish my defra reports and fax them off went to playgroup to talk about pets took my dog lurcher and childs rabbit dodgy combination very few of the kids seemed to have pets of their own a lot of them referred to granddads dogs or uncles cat when i left college the pet population was increasing whats going to happen in the next 15 years sister phoned worried about her horse he has haematuria im worried that he has a tumour i feel very far away and helpless when things like this happen even though she only lives in yorkshire im sure i could help her whatever the outcome if we lived closer in fact i think i miss my family more now than i ever have i dont know if its my age or the thought that m is over 60 or that i didnt see them much at all last year or just because i have son now and can understand how mothers families feel i miss sisters but i still dont phone them much i always think theyll be busy i can talk to mam three or four times a week for half an hour at a time without thinking twice she must get fed up hearing me go on and on about work etc but she loves hearing all about every tiny detail of sons antics and achievements will broached the subject of a partnership again i dont know what to think its the obvious thing to do and a few years ago i would have taken his hand off for even 10 or 20 im just not as excited about it as i should be and what would change will i be better off will i be a better vet or will i spend too much time of figures and paperwork will i become more commercially aware do i want to change can i be bothered with the extra hassle they are ok they have a career and a wife im trying to do both sometimes badly diary 2 mondays are shite it starts off busy and gets worse why cant we do time management a bit better it did look as if we might finish around 630 at one stage in the afternoon then i was called out to a calf i didnt really need a visit at 6pm at night w said never mind youll be picking son up anyway the childminder lives on the next door farm he hasnt got a clue if i picked son up he would be at anges for about 8 hours i feel guilty enough that hes away for about 8 hours partner always picks him up about 530 and has to cope which he does well until i get home but its hard work for both of us after a full day at work and partner is usually knackered and ready for peace and quiet when he gets home not a tired hungry wee lad anyway i ended up having a farm tour that night farmer was so proud of his new pedigree belgian blues and his new shed hes been lucky to get most of his commercial stock from his father so he has an idea of their past history hes a nice lad and he was producing some stunning beef calves before he was taken out at least hes young enough to get going again he hasnt said much about loosing his stock so i havent asked i had a chat to his aunt one day and she was very upset and that upsets me i hate when people get emotional like that i start filling up myself i got back to find a sheep caesarean still to do waste of time premature lambs all born alive 3 and all dead before i finished stitching the uterus and to put the tin hat on the day my assistant was the mother who prattled about nothing much all the way through the op she does my head in she is a century away from me in her outlook but i still come away feeling that i am the one who has got it all wrong maybe i should have dinner on the table and shirts ironed etc i dont want to be like her though and i cant even sympathise with her even though they lost all their sheep im sure she must have taken it badly but i dont think she would ever let her feelings show in public something about the way she spoke suggested that she was forcing herself to put a brave face and look forward probably for her own sons sake watched rural lives again on tuesday cr came over well i though i couldnt help but snigger when the slaughter team were discussing one of our clients she made the kids carry away the dead piglets after theyd been slaughtered them team thought that was terrible but i knew the kids they all help on the farm they know that their pigs go to kill the family even started their own little slaughter house and cutting plant before fmd i dont think those kids would be horrified sad maybe we all felt sad over the last year sad for the healthy animals culled more sad for the people caught up in the mess one disease where the cure is worse mostly though i get angry when i hear or talk about fmd i get angry because defra let us all down the politicians got too closely involved nothing happened fast enough we didnt seem to be able to do anything we knew very little and struggled to get reliable information i still get wound up thinking about it all we were marginalised by defra i felt as if it was us and the farmers versus derfa not all three groups versus fmd the rumours that abounded just magnified the feelings we talked at length about fmd defra etc within the practice and with our clients but i could still talk about it all day even now so many things are unresolved i have lost faith in defra especially since they changed their name no a for agriculture now and im glad i have been ignorant of politics for so long there have been few shining lights in the government im heartily sick of authority interfering and regulating stuff thats going along quite nicely let them interfere with stuff thats doing harm bad farmers need a shake up sheep dealers need to think more about animal welfare but the way things are going the good guys that toe the line will end up following all the rules and regulations set up to sort out the bad guys and will they bother diary 3 possibly the best bit of the week was sunday when i eventually after 13 months got back on my horse only 15 minutes but it was nerve wracking i thought she might just throw me off and i was so tense actually we both were i felt as if i had forgotten how to ride i stayed in the field thinking it would be safer but the other two horses were flying about to annoy us im so frustrated that i havent been able to get her fit for the start of the endurance season theres no way wed be able to go to the first ride at ullswater and theres only one other in cumbria this year due to fmd who would have thought that we would still be curtailed by fmd more than a year on the young horse was very interested in saddle and bridle so i put them on him and he was ok at first he was frightened to move at all but then he realised it was ok on monday i had a strange request to go and hold an old pony for the knacker to shoot the owners just didnt want to be around it was a lovely morning so i led her out for a bite of grass before he arrived she could barely manage to breathe and swallow at the same time i cant believe how the tumours have taken hold of her since the turn of the year mr a couldnt tell his wife the diagnosis initially because she hadnt got over losing the few pedigree sheep they had its taking some people a long time to get over the loss i think its easier to get over losing an animal if you have more than one it helps to keep you focussed on the living rather than the dead and farmers havent been able to get restarted when they were ready to because of all the c d requirements anyway the knacker man told some good tales theres been some nutters about shooting animals some even had their guns taken off them poor lad was given a days notice at the knackey and was part of a slaughter team after that so he was only paid his normal wage which the boss collected at the defra rate for them all it was good talking to him probably because i dont really know him i didnt feel that i would upset him because he wasnt like a client who had lost animals sometimes its hard to know what to say if people get upset sometimes its enough to listen one of the most awkward situations i found myself in was talking to a farmer who lost no stock but he was so depressed he started crying the cows i had gone to see should have gone last year then we wouldnt have had these problems he also has been unable to sell sheep so the farm was completely overstocked overgrazed and had little silage left i couldnt understand why he was still overstocking when he could have sold sheep and cattle for restocking or for slaughter quite easily in the last few months maybe he just couldnt face the hassle of getting licences or maybe hes just too far down to think straight i usually mention that sort of thing to b and w because i think its important that everyone in the practice knows whats happening not just with out patients but also with our clients diary 4 i had the honour of completing the final final visit today and it was one of my neighbours in soulby no more surveillance visits poor lol couldnt find his defra paperwork and while he was looking through his files he found copies of his valuation report with all his old cows on i think it brought it all back hes trying hard to move on i could understand him being bitter since his whole very good milking herd was taken as a dc i think he may have survived because the infection was half a mile away from his cows but the ip land joined i watched them load all his cows into coal wagons on s saturday afternoon in fact it was midnight when the last de tox wagon left how can they be clean if i cant even get my wellies clean in the dark how hes worrying about his new cows coming from holland he thinks its a long way for them to travel but he cant wait for them to arrive unlike his wife who thinks that all this restocking is going too fast i felt apprehensive too about a fortnight ago but the feeling is subsiding the day to day normality of work is returning sheep are permitted to visit the surgery for treatment so we have had a much more normal march than wed had last year even though there are still thousands of sheep missing from the practice farmers are still bringing in lambs the value of stock is obviously not their prime concern where theres life theres hope we wouldnt see ewes or lambs at all if the cost of treatment versus the animals value was weighed i was worried that we would have a flare up around lambing time theres a chance that some of the fell sheep were exposed to fmd and theres a risk of virus recrudescence at times of stress so i was thinking that if we made it through lambing then wed definitely be ok the weather has cheered me up this week everybody smiles more when its sunny its tempting to think my days at home are holidays when the weathers so nice diary 5 i forgot about april fools day for the first time ever we were so busy at work and it was more of a bank holiday than anything else i do resent working bank holidays but monday is my day to be on call b did offer to do some of the day but he had a caesarean on a cow a lambing at 130 am and another call at 6 am so hed be knackered enough and they pay me for a days work so its only fair that i give a days work when the phone rang early tuesday and i felt as if id only been in bed 2 hours i was regretting not passing on the night duty a belgian blue calving caesarian mentally checked my kit in the car while driving to ks definitely caesarean they shouldnt breed from these cows until theyre more mature were getting loads of bother with the new stock never mind its proper veterinary work anyway the heifer was a right bag started off lying down so i doped her but she got up after we got the calf out and then tried to lye down on the wound peritonitis to follow no doubt i warned the farmer and we were all very calm about it maybe none of us were really awake so that made partner late for work as he was left holding the baby and i was well late setting off to see my sister sister sister didnt mind and partner s bosses said it was ok but i still felt guilty had a great time at sisters did a bit of touristy stuff and found a really nice book for mams birthday by mrs herdie who used to holiday near home mam has a watercolour by her but this book is all wildflowers other sister phoned to say horse is worse i think sister and i both wanted to go to yorkshire when we heard how upset she was sisters are so close being twins but i can understand what sister s going through with a horse on deaths door she didnt want us to go she said so we drank too much red wine instead and watched the start of papillon good film i was too knackered though my stamina gives out a lot sooner under the influence of alcohol mams birthday was a queer day its rare that i get the chance to spend time with any of my siblings at home and we had a lovely day apart from the fact that we were all waiting to hear what was going to happen with sister she phoned to say hed been put down bladder tumour i think it must be pretty rare she still said we shouldnt go down sister could have easily gone and mam because lynxes on school hols jammy teacher i stayed on till quite late because both my brother and stepfather wanted to see son he was so excited to see them sometimes he just makes us all laugh i had a depressing start to the day back at work just over a month ago i amputated a dogs leg the leg was fractured over 6 months ago appeared to heal and then suddenly worsen we suspected a bone infection but she didnt respond to treatment so i x rayed her again and it looked like a bone tumour she did well after the operation until last week when she developed a hard knobbly swelling near her shoulder and her lungs were infiltrated i felt so sad for her and the family she was a lovely placid and very brave dog and it is just so unfair i dont want to give up on these cases and i feel that euthanasia is a poor treatment in this case i so wanted her to have a couple more years i never would have put her or the family through a ghastly op like amputation if i had known that she would get so little benefit the farmers son who worked the dog until she retired was conspicuous by his absence hes rebuilding the milking parlour ready to restock so his sister did the honours and came to help me had to switch to party mode sons 2nd birthday the sandpit was a roaring success as was the trike and cake from grandma and granddad we had a super relaxing day mostly outdoors this weather makes life a lot easier i couldnt have coped with all those little boys inside escaped to the horses at asby to take water its so peaceful up there ive really missed being able to go up there this last year theres still yellow tape on my gate and i dont even have livestock i wonder who they defra thought the field belongs to should get out riding this next week with a bit of luck and a bit of spare time i think ill have to shelve the plans to show the arabs i havent got started soon enough diary 6 our new vet started this week bright young enthusiastic and full of new ideas i feel very out of touch i didnt go on any cpd courses last year for most of the year i felt as if we were unclean and i was so tired with working such long days it seemed too much hard work to organise extra childcare etc to allow me to go away for more than a day i feel out of touch generally though and a lot of it has to do with working part time big day on wednesday sons 1st morning at biggins nursery i think my new hobby is worrying am i doing the right thing setting off on new extra and expensive childcare arrangements i think i feel guilty because its for my benefit not for extra work its now going to cost me an extra 750 to ride my horse on a wednesday but i am starting to break horse in as well and i cant handle a 4 year old horse with a 2 year old boy around anyway the nursery seemed a big hit and i had my first ride out on ashby fell i actually went over the track to the dowly tree instead of on the road she the horse was quite anxious leading the other two and a bit excited to be out in the open space of the fell so was i there seems to be just one lot of fell sheep on there they must be hs i think nobody else has started to heft sheep up there yet the dowly tree will be looking sad and lonely for a bit longer i have missed being up on that fell so much margaret little asking if were going to the village hall quiz on friday probably not because were going out for a meal for partner s birthday felt guilty about not supporting village activities and started justifying myself to her i hate it though when people use fmd to make you feel bad she kept saying how few does there were last year how nice it is for all the village to get together etc all true but i cant get babysitters and nights off to do everything and partner is way more important than the village quiz he put up with such a lot of shite last year and never complained far too tolerant we had a lovely meal on the friday night son slept out at ts for the first time in ages but i couldnt have a lie in because of the judges course for the arab horse society i really enjoyed it it was arranged for last year but had to be postponed due to fmd it was worth waiting for and i couldnt have gone last year even if it had been on went to see sister and sisters boyfriend on sunday seemed to spend all day being fed shes like mam son took a real shine to sisters boyfriend which entertained us all she seems to be coping ok with horse s demise martin has cleaned up one of his shoes and mounted it with a plaque hes very thoughtful diary 7 i have decided that i am happy on dry days when i can ride or work my horses son and i can get outside to play and then hes happier and people who come into work are more smiley on good days too son and i went to a birthday party this week he had a brilliant time but i felt very out of place everybody else was immaculately dressed and made up while son and i had to rush back from having a bonfire to burn all the old hay in musgrave field to quickly wash and change id rather have carried on tidying up the field its still a real mess and at least i have the grass seed now it had better grow the price it was i was really pleased with horse on wednesday hes coming on quite nicely with his lunging now he seems to be quite amenable dental appointment on friday i hope my dentist never retires i dont think they make dentists that are more interested in people and their teeth than money any more i always have a good chat to him so we carried on our discussion about my working conditions comparing them to his sons etc hes a vet too he was quite surprised when i told him about the partnership talks last time i had a good heart to heart it was after the threatened redundancy its no wonder i feel confused about the future at times nearly 2 years ago when i was on maternity leave they thought they might have to make me redundant now they want to release a bit of capital and take things easier they want me to buy in this time last year i didnt know if partner or i would have a job now i have to decide to commit myself to at least 20 more years as a vet went out with girls from work to a 40th didnt really want to go but of course we had a great time once we got there i think i have got out of the habit of evenings out still cant get used to the freedom the mobile phone gives us and spend all the time checking that theres enough signal battery etc had a hell of a hangover too much draught coke hell its worse than cider diary 8 the shit is hitting the fan were having problems with some imported dutch heifers we were waiting for this especially on this particular farm the managements not the best and the father takes more advice from his feed merchant than us vets there is obviously a viral infection going through the heifers and farmer b presumed they were already vaccinated no documentation they are also showing signs of gastro intestinal upset which could be management oh hell why did he buy 80 first calvers nobody would willingly put themselves under that stress new vet is interested but b and w are obviously trying to keep their distance theyve been embroiled in herd problems on this farm before i am now obviously the senior vet in charge of this problem and im not even at work every day its too much for new vet to cope with and the farmer will get pissed off soon and i bet its us that catch the flak cheered myself up with 1 hours of r r with the horses on wednesday lovely day rode down onto the common but it was hard work as the other two horses were shouting for daisy all the time i was out on her horse decided that he would be bobbly when i worked him but im getting confident that i know how his mind works we had a bit of a stand off but i made sure it didnt turn into a battle and he did as he was asked in the end so we finished on a good note i think it will be quite satisfying bringing him on myself even though its going to take months at this rate some people work on young horses twice a day hes lucky if he gets trained twice a week work is really settling down now the lambing time rush has passed and were catching up on our tb testing for defra its a bit more taxing having to do such young animals in the restocked herds but most people are fairly well organised were not going to get some of the herds done before turn out i wonder if defra have any recommendations for catching wild limousin heifers in the middle of a field probably not they dont think that far ahead diary 9 i hate mondays again had supper at 1145 pm there was a problem with my mobile when i was on call i hate mobiles as well and i went to calve a cow one and a half hours after the first call came in i was so mad firstly because we dont make our clients wait that long for an emergency to become a disaster and second because ws wife has no idea about passing jobs on she should have got another vet to go since i was obviously busy but she just passed the message on to new vet to let her sort it out and ws wife gets paid for doing the phones anyway alls well live cow and a tremendous bull calf and one of the easiest caesareans i have done in ages b and w seem to forget that it is their business and reputation at stake ultimately the buck stops with them both of them seem to have had enough of business management and hassle to last a lifetime last year has done a lot of damage to a lot of people i know i am a lot less tolerant than i used to be this week started badly and improved farrier came and trimmed all 3 horses bollocked me because they hadnt been seen for over a year i did tidy them a bit myself though had a lovely afternoon at rheged with mam we started going when fmd was on because it was sort of neutral non agricultural ground we sat and chatted while son played in the soft play centre everybody happy unfortunately i went down with the worst dose of food poisoning i had ever had i was up all night went into work late i wouldnt have gone at all except i had a 2nd tb to test to do on a restocked farm and couldnt bear to start the whole thing again i recovered as the afternoon went on and even managed to dehorn 10 cows the thought of b sending fragile young new vet to help spurred me on a bit i was knackered when i finished took me another 2 days to recover horse doing well bridle and saddle on now looking grown up im quite proud of him he was so chilled out today i tried long reining him that confused him but he was very sensible norleen and i didnt go to the 1st date at the rochdale show i still didnt feel right and partner was going to fit the new fuel pump to my car but then he started to feel ill too what a waste of a saturday off made it to the show on sunday pretty good ridden classes and all the senior in hand classes we were laughing because were so out of practice there are two years worth of young stock that weve never seen due to babies in 2000 and fmd in 2001 we felt really out of touch there are a few imported stallions and mares that we havent seen before too we had a brilliant day diary 10 whats worse than working on call on mondays yes working bank holidays we hoped to shut at 12 ha ha i got home for lunch at 2pm b kindly took the phones for a couple of hours in the afternoon not long enough to go anywhere and i was back out working by tea time my car failed its mot because the back brake callipers were all gunged up the mechanic says its disinfectant that does it bloody defra i bet theres no chance of compensation for that it wouldnt be so bad if it was a practice car but now that im part time i have to paddle my own canoe all the local garage owners warned us last year that these things would happen what could we do we felt obliged to drive into all the voluntary disinfectant sites it doesnt look good if the local vets arent disinfecting my beautiful old audi god knows what other horrors are lurking where the fam has spilled in my boot etc hell it makes me mad all the destruction physical and mental and we had so little to say in any of it well my car spent the rest of the week in the garage so i used borrowed wheels went to do a wee talk at stainsmore pre school in partner s transit van very professional the children didnt care they just wanted to meet my dog son missed a birthday party on the saturday because i was still at work more guilt not that he knows he missed it lovely day on sunday with my horse went for a three hour ride over in county durham we trailed round arable fields and nice lanes all very different from here other horse was an absolute saint and did very well to have no shoes on she really did us proud diary 11 got my car back that cheered me up bad news about the imported heifers two more have died at least the pm exams and sampling are free because its a restocked herd farmer getting angry now at dutch farmers but taking it out on new vet very unfair shes spent hours checking over his cattle and taking samples didnt get my usual r r on wed absolutely piddling down started sorting out a few jobs that i have been avoiding the sort i used to do on wet sundays now will become wet wednesday jobs called in at work for coffee and ended up with a call for the afternoon very interesting job too went to sedate two horses for the dentist it was absolutely fascinating son has another 2nd cousin this week the family is really sprouting had a tough calving thursday night torsion of the uterus i can do these now i used to absolutely dread them unfortunately shed been on too long and the calf was born dead heifer fine though i hate going to that farm the farmer is a right old perverted slime ball and ill dance on his grave started with a real head cold h crap went to see mam and stewart son on top form its brilliant seeing him interact with my family he has really strengthened the bonds in our family son fevered at night starting with the same cold i presume no sleep for me partner never seems to hear all the commotion still felt ill on saturday sister and sister s birthday at least i remembered to post their cards in plenty of time this year went shopping for wallpaper on sunday to cheer me up partner went off pest controlling with his dogs they went up through tubbys wood they found nothing but at least the dogs had a good ratch he says he only now feels ok about walking across fields i didnt even realise that he still felt that he couldnt go round all his old haunts we must talk more diary 19 tb test cancelled on monday and thursday this week because the farmer cant cope with the extra hassle hes a bit of a woman at the best of times but hes been even worse since fmd w was very understanding he seems to have the farmers measure b didnt seem that understanding very upset on wednesday afternoon i had to put down my own terrier after he took off and chased the neighbours sheep for the second time i cant understand why he went so strange he used to be fine with stock i had a miserable afternoon waiting for partner to come home to bury him id had such a good morning with the horses too dizzy and horse were both going well i felt better once partner came home he said id done the right thing but i felt as though id failed somehow because it should never have happened in the first place maybe its because he had nothing to do last year no interesting walks no rabbiting etc i dont know diary 20 brilliant time tues wed went to my sisters with mam and son its much easier to keep in touch with my family post fmd i hardly went anywhere last year we went shopping to edinburgh mams looking for an outfit for my brothers wedding unsuccessfully so far ive just realised that i havent seen brother and wife on their farm since fmd broke out we must go soon its a brilliant place for recharging batteries and they are the best bit of my step family we didnt go to the cumberland show with the horses i havent got back into the swing of things yet i think it was a bit of a washout without the farming side and it rained i offered to be the biosecurity officer for our local show so that they could get things up and running properly they had money and trophies donated last year for new cattle classes and there would be real interest in fat cattle classes and young handler classes now defra the bastards managed to put the committee off diary 21 sprayed weeds in field only depressing day this week its never going to recover properly the landlord arrived when wed just finished the first half and said hed decided to reseed it in august after much discussion i persuaded him it would be a waste of time and money to put horses back on a newly seeded field over winter now im worried about what happens in spring will we be terminated or just moved to another field i wish id moved the horses at the usual time 1st april then we wouldnt have been caught up among ips and dcs something will sort out it always does dairy 22 excellent week off to malvern with friends for the national arabian horse show son went off to grannies for the holiday i had a marvellous time for three days watching the most beautiful horses and came back absolutely shattered diary 23 few probs at work with new assistant shes a bit whiney shes always bending the ear of the nearest receptionist and they are sick b has offered her a 12 month contract but whether or not shell accept it is another matter from what i can gather shes going to end up with better working conditions than me ws not too happy about it all but neither of them are willing to grasp the nettle theyve both backed off since last year they cant wait to get off home and i cant step in since theyve changed their minds about my partnership and im only part time good weekend lowther on saturday didnt see many of the usual faces the only thing that spoiled it was the mud we brought more than our fair share home with son and the pushchair no biosecurity pressure washer anywhere diary 24 the assistant on holiday for 2 weeks things seem more like old times the cages arent full of animals on drips im working extra days and enjoying it its tiring but good highlight of the week on thursday brough show there werent many farmers there but loads of horses and ponies instead of sheep much talk of defra regulations none complimentary it just wasnt the same without the sheep it felt flat i wonder what the gimmer lamb sales will be like diary 25 knackered dont think i could cope with full time work any more new vet still on holiday felt guilty about son being farmed out all week i managed to work myself up about our charity horse show on saturday i tried to hand over the organisation to three other folk and still ended up sorting out all the insurance and rosettes and they changed the date so i had less time to organise and it wasnt advertised it was the worst show weve ever had it takes as much time to organise it for the few as it does for the many i felt so disappointed i thought we would have a real good turnout this time after having to cancel last year oh well theres always next year ill need to make sure they dont change the date again and at least i might be able to take the horses next time decided to cheer myself up by taking other horse over to school her round the jumps on the sunday but i couldnt catch her she must have known so that just put the tin hat on the weekend diary 26 two trotting meetings this week i landed both of them and both nights on call another bank holiday with no time off and i had to take son to both because partner was grouse beating both meetings were quite relaxed but there was one nasty crash at appleby had a really nice day out at chatsworth game fair with helen and neil its the first time weve managed to visit them and it took hours to get there we were invited last year but the advert said they didnt want any cumbrians social outcasts as if we didnt feel like the armpit of british agriculture as it was i really enjoyed our day out i felt as if wed had a weekend away not just a day well have to think of some more trips its too easy just to stay at home we always have plenty to do dairy 27 its started again defra have found a new way to cock up our lives they have now complicated life with exemptions from the 20 day standstill including new stuff about isolation units the farmers have all been notified by post some havent read it some have read it and dont understand it farmers have to isolate new stock bought via auctions etc from any contact with other stock by 50 m outside or they can go on standstill but their neighbours can move stock from the next door field without a problem its mad i dont understand where they are coming from well i do sort of but as usual its badly thought out and we have to sell this idea to the farmers how will it be policed will it matter would it stop another massive outbreak it doesnt take much to wind everyone up again its not helped at work by b defending the defra line and w dissing it what will the clients think diary 28 crap week puncture on thursday during lunch hour struggled to get locking nuts off felt feckless god i have so little patience these days and i missed beva congress couldnt sort out childminding etc and the best days were friday and saturday there was no way i could go i was really disappointed nothing to do with fmd though i dont feel as if i get much encouragement from work they are ok about paying for cpd courses but they dont seem to make it easy to swap weekends etc theyre not bothered themselves so i suppose they dont understand all the different things you get from cpd diary 29 worked extra so new vet could go to sheep meeting at malvern pissed off it is not easy to do this job with a husband and a family to consider and i suppose the timing stinks since i missed my equine course last week the week improved considerably by thursday we went to guilford for an arab horse convention nothing to do with work but very enjoyable ive been waiting more than 10 years for this i hope i live long enough to go to the next one we talked to some men on the train unheard of in surrey apparently about cumbria farming fmd and foxhunting once we reassured them that newcastle was not in cumbria we had an interesting crack i hardly ever meet anyone that is not connected with farming and the countryside they really have no idea what its like i dont know anything about it either which is what their job is i end up feeling so frustrated that agriculture and therefore large animal practice is in such a precarious position it seems to me to be such a basic fundamental part of life compared to computers and yet the emphasis is not on basic stuff anymore surely we need things like agriculture and basic manufacturing to underpin everything else no wonder nobody was bothered about us suffering anxiety fear confusion last year when we were in the throes of fmd and the penrith spur was certainly under reported they wouldnt have had so many marches in london pre fmd diary 30 quite week still tired from last week loads of photos to develop again it was great saw horses id never seen before and got 2 great videos of long dead horses that appear in my horses pedigrees son was a bit off with me when i picked him up monday a bit unsettled with being away i suppose oh this job just interferes with a social life missed another wedding this week on call again diary 31 took a horse to penrith vets for an x ray they have a super new hospital just out of town seems really well set up they have a really good attitude to work and clients i think we need a shake up at work maybe new vet s way of working isnt too bad neil said they were million in the red at the height of fmd they must have been so worried none of us knew what wed be left with weve definitely got a lot of routine work because weve lost such a lot of dairy farms its never going to be the same again and im not good at accepting change diary 32 sad week one of our farmers sons was killed in an rta on the a66 he had only been married two years and was a real canny lad it shocked everyone and has certainly made me take stock they have restocked with fancy cattle from down south and these cattle may have contacted cattle with a variant virus from the usa so they were doing a whole herd test you could blame this on fmd if they hadnt lost their cattle they wouldnt have restocked and they wouldnt be testing the cattle or it wouldnt have happened if theyd stopped for an extra cup of tea a client brought me a copy of the cumbria enquiry that didnt half stir up some old feelings all the things i was so angry about last year were summed up in one phrase i read slack organisation the poor woman who brought the report has spent over 1000 treating her dog after it suffered chemical burns from fmd disinfectant on a road map it now reacts to phenolic compounds including sheep dip and fresh tar theyre moving to scotland i hope the dog has a better life there diary 33 funny old week everyone still shell shocked about farmers son s death no explanation as to how the lorry crashed into his tractor yet you begin to wonder how any family can cope with that sort of trauma b and w went to the huge funeral they said his parents were amazing they do have a strong faith but i cant see that being enough i went to the graveyard the next day to see the flowers and ended up in tears it was the messages on the cards especially the ones from his parents and brother and sister i felt so sad for them all went for a wee walk with tracey she knows him quite well and we talked a lot trying to make sense of it all then blow me on the thursday his father and brother were part of a syndicate at the tup sales that paid over 100000 for a swaledale tup i couldnt believe theyd even gone to the auction never mind doing something like that it doesnt seem right to me the others could have bought the tup for them i think thats awfully strange i had another upset farmers wife this week i went to see a downer cow shed got stuck in the cubicles we had to carry her to a straw box using the loader tractor and the wife got really upset seeing the cow swinging on the front of the tractor i felt a bit guilty really because i didnt think i just didnt connect the fmd slaughter with an injured cow but then i didnt see all that they saw when their herd went down diary 34 great week my brothers wedding son was a page boy in a kilt and he was quite well behaved apart from the second lot of photos he was well tired and hungry by then i love being home with my brother and sisters and their partners and its great the way they all have so much time for son we always laugh so much at the clan gatherings im sure its very therapeutic the amount of alcohol consumed by all at the wedding is definitely not therapeutic we set off on our holiday maybe our first family holiday the day after in the rain but it turned out ok later such a lot of good stuff in one week diary 35 had a lovely day it all worked out well we may try four or five days away next year now that weve got started again its years since we had a proper holiday i usually miss all the animals when im away but not this time i think son has more than filled that gap had bad news on wednesday partner s van failed its mot no transport no money for a new motor mild panic slight depression then the gradual return to my it will all work out somehow attitude and it did partner s mum and dad helped us out and i had to relinquish my little buy a new trailer fund had a disaster on sunday morning caesarean on an uncooperative cow she got up halfway through the op and pushed her rumen out onto the very dirty floor and she started to haemorrhage she died four hours later they ended up with an exceptional bull calf but a dead pedigree belgian blue cow i hate when things die on restocked farms i think they were quite philosophical about it but i went over and over the whole thing in my head b just said if theyre going to die its best they die soon less time to worry and everyone gets over it quicker too i think he may be right hes definitely easier to talk to these days hes like a different person now that jans left diary 36 busy week testing a restocked herd monday thursday which had travelled all of 5 miles to their new home a bit of a waste of time but it was a nice day to be out really good turnout at the village bonfire its a new tradition started in 2001 and it was the first village get together after fmd at the end of the week i headed south to cheshire and the salisbury plain with my friend ann and her horse to compete in the marathon what an awful journey we had the rain poured the traffic crawled im glad i dont have to use the m6 on a daily basis i really enjoyed my weekend away but we had to pull the horse out at the half way point she was so hyped that we couldnt get her heart rate down so she wasnt allowed to continue i felt really disappointed i was sure that she had a good chance well she would have if they had a vet check halfway through diary 37 a bit of an anticlimax this week after all the build up to the marathon it would have been so different if shed completed the course we had a better journey north except for a puncture not handy when you have a horse trailer on i drove most of the way back to anns saw all her horses and then drove home another 2 hours oh i was so pleased to get home it was a good experience though i dont think either of us would trail a horse all the way to salisbury plain for a two hour race again there were fmd cases near ann in cheshire that didnt seem to catch hold like they did in cumbria maybe its because there are bigger farms and more arable land i went to see her in july 2001 and she pointed out various fields that had been cleared of stock half of them didnt even have gates on there was no disinfectant or precautions visible and it was really starting to wipe out our practice at home it was unbelievable we were sitting in cumbria thinking that agriculture was doomed and everything in cheshire was carrying on as normal it was a rude awakening for me diary 38 more tb testing all day job testing stock that wouldnt normally be tested but theyre restocked they have come from cheshire though so that does increase the risk had a shocking migraine all day wednesday went to bed as soon as id dropped son off at biggins and didnt wake up until 5pm 2 hours after i should have collected him and i still felt awful it was terrible driving in the dark and i had to stop three times on the way home i went back to bed until 9pm and then was fine i havent had a migraine for ages i was back on top form the next day though we did the tb readings on 172 cattle before lunch cooking with gas diary 39 fed up with all this testing and we may be doing this for the next 4 5 months sick of new vet moaning at work i dont know what it would take to make her happy i think this week has nearly all been a waste of time i havent made best use of my free time and i havent been on top of my job at work diary 40 i was dreading this week because there were so many things to do i think i avoid adding extra to my schedule but this week i had 3 days away and a night out to cope with i really dont like the thought of shopping but managed to do some christmas present locating on friday spent wednesday with b which was better than i expected on a national scrapie plan training day which was worse than i expected bloody defra they dont have to do or say much to raise my hackles here we are selecting for a resistant genotype and they are spending all their time injecting bse into sheeps brains to challenge them how would that ever happen naturally nearly missed my night out because of work it was 10 pm before i got there but at least i didnt miss the dancing it turned into a really good night nearly everyone from work was there and j the ex receptionist we always have a good laugh ended up working most of the morning dont know if w was hung over or just idle but hell have to pay me for the hours i dont work extra out of the goodness of my heart now i have all my own overheads to fund new vet s the star for avoiding extra or dirty work then it usually falls to me she says she wants more large animal work and then does her best to avoid it diary 41 tired this week son came back from maviss full of cold improved a bit and then woke up screaming on tuesday night it was a very long night and partner wasnt even here t enjoy share it as hed left to fly to tampa at 5am that morning god i dont fancy being a single mum he soon started to improve after 24hrs on antibiotics ear and chest infection ive never seen him in such pain of course he was nearly better by the time partner got back i really struggled on my own and had to take a day off on thursday but still had to go and do a second tb test otherwise i would have had to start all over again we didnt have time to test them twice and its a restocked herd so we had to do them all its really hard trying to do the best for everyone diary 42 pretty good week until the weekend had a good night out for traceys birthday and i was really chuffed she invited son too he was well behaved too nut unfortunately now thinks he can go to the pub so we have to go out to meetings to avoid a tantrum i dont really think i have suffered many after effects from fmd except a lower anger threshold and a loss of faith in the powers that be im much more worried about some of our clients mental health i know there are several who have suffered severe depression and they are not all farmers that were culled out the sleepless nights were back with a vengeance son started with chickenpox at the weekend and nobody had any sleep diary 43 absolutely shattered somebody elses chickenpox is nearly as bad as your own i dont think i have had a full nights sleep for over a fortnight i still had a lovely time at christmas though i was sure that partner and son would be pleased with their presents son suddenly brightened dup on christmas eve on the way to mams and never broke stride after that he was son top form i was so tired that i fell asleep on saturday evening and missed the village hall christmas party the highlight of the village social calendar diary 44 the threat of tb rears its ugly head maybe tb is the new fmd went to do a private tb test for a farmer who has restocked and passed his restocking checks unfortunately he bought 3 heifers in november and the original farm has since gone down with tb he isolated the heifers as soon as he heard and waited for defra they didnt come so we did i hoped for the best and expected the worst one of the heifers reacted i didnt know what to do or say the farmers wife was really upset she wished they hadnt gone back into farming b the boss has phoned defra that morning regarding these heifers only to be told that youngstock dont pose much of a risk they dont seem to have much idea at all and dont have a clue about getting on with the job theyve had three weeks to track down the calves out of the cows that were reactors they seem to let us down just when we need them most oh they make me boil and we are going to have to cope with the aftermath again diary 45 felt a bit flat and tired this week the test i had this week was hard work trying to catch cows in cubicles is not fun we were all covered in muck at the end of it and the second day was worse because he had about 14 to rectal after the test wednesday my day of respite was taken up looking after tracey in bed with cold shes really down still and i cant seem to do anything to make her feel better i know shell come out of it eventually but its hard not being able to help i just didnt feel as if i had any time to myself this week and i really missed out if i start working wednesdays im going to miss it every week ill have to have another plan its a bit better at the weekend but i think we all need some better weather and i miss doing stuff with the horses diary 46 oh im mad again with defra i had to go back to the herd with the reactor and test every single bovine on the place except the two remaining heifers from the infected herd i dont understand why they cant just take out those heifers too the poor farmer and his wife will be on tender hooks until the end of march at the earliest if they hadnt asked for a private test goodness knows when defra would have got there while i was testing defra phoned the farmers wife to confirm that the slaughtered heifer had visible lesions so that puts paid to the theory that youngstock werent a danger hope this news makes them get a finger out had a lovely day with mam and son on tuesday we sat and talked for over an hour in the car park everything tested clear at the check test so far so good bad day on thursday the behaviour course i was enrolled on has been cancelled no explanation just a cheque returned to the practice with a wee note i was so disappointed even though it was going to be a lot of extra work over the next 10 months and extra hassle and extra childminding i think i could have coped then at lunchtime i bent my car door after stopping to help somebody stuck on an icy patch i havent got all the bits sorted that were knackered by fmd disinfecting yet and theres more repairs and i have to pay for it myself now that i dont have a practice car i was well fed up dairy 47 busy week tb testing again started working odd wednesdays this week so spent all day wednesday up the back end of suckler cows very dangerous taking bloods for brucellosis and then blood sampling swaledales for scrapie testing we have so many tests still to do but not many dreadfully out of date and i think weve done quite a lot of the restocking tests but its all quite mind numbing stuff not much clinical acumen required for getting blood out of cows just quick reactions to dodge shit and flying feet very late finished monday by the time i had all my paperwork done a a college friend landed tuesday en route to leeds for a herd health meeting 6 hours driving for a meeting we talked a bit about fmd she worked as a tvi towards the end of the outbreak they have a lot more trouble with tb up in aberdeenshire once it gets into a herd they struggle to get rid of it again i hope it doesnt get to be a huge problem round here collected a fair few bruises on thursday pregnant heifers to dehorn they should have been done in 2001 but of course the routine work was put off i dont know what the excuse was leaving them al through 2002 but they were massive anyway it saved me going to the gym on wednesday night diary 48 i have just handed in the latest batch of diaries and started a new session i have been thinking that f m doesnt really affect me much anymore our work has changed because of the restocking that has taken place since with all the new disease problems that have been bought in as additional extras and the extra tb testing etc but mentally i am not aware of even thinking about the events of 2001 that often i still feel upset if someone tells me about their own particular experiences which are often heart rending but probably no more than if they were discussing another devastating disease problem i still have little tolerance for the workings of defra even though they are providing us with lots of bread and butter work diary 51 im sick of doing caesareans on cows who encouraged all the bloody beef farmers to restock with belgian blues im not sure that we should be continuing to allow animals to breed that cant reproduce naturally it doesnt seem right that we should almost expect a caesarean the day that a new cow is put in calf we used to have occasional troubles before and not all caesareans are on belgian blues but now we do at least one caesarean every week b did two in one day and they are bloody hard work diary 52 i always think of the 23rd feb as being the day that i realised we might be in the shit in 2001 it wouldnt have passed unnoticed round here several people mentioned the date in the following week yet it wasnt until the 4th april that f m came into our practice loads of our farmers lost a lot of seep early on though because they were wintering away on dairy farms further down the eden valley this used to just involve the hoggs but now they are encouraged to leave the fells almost empty and are paid to remove even pregnant ewes to lower ground it seems ludicrous that on certain farms the fell sheep only spend summertime on the fells the rest of the time they are in bye land for tupping or lambing and then are wintered in sheep sheds or on dairy farms sometimes quite far away from home i did get quite upset when i read the stories in the book this time i think i had more empathy for the tourism businesses affected they must have been so frustrated and probably ended up much worse off that the affected farmers in our area the farmers who survived are the ones in general who are struggling for survival now and their farms have had no capital investment at all in fact some of the survivors are still very bitter about the whole episode its so sad what this has done to some people diary 55 check tb test at campbells went well finished in good time running into trouble because the other cows taken in for winter are calving and they have no room however they have found someone to take and slaughter all the big bullocks they are going to be moved under licence direct to a slaughter house so at least they will have some income the first this year everything tested clear including the 2 heifers brought in from the farm that had the reactor so they are feeling a little bit more confident diary 56 bloody defra cocked up again with cs test had to go back to test 11 baby calves how cruel had to go back to hs as well to test one inconclusive reactor all of them were ok diary 60 i think the lambing time rush is settling down again of course there arent quite as many fell sheep about as usual and probably wont be again if the payments are de coupled numbers wont be as profitable as acres
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           information about diarist date of birth 1964 gender f occupation group 6 geographic region north cumbria week beginning 4th march 02 monday 4th march we decided we now need more staff a new vet and a part time receptionist this could take us back up to our previous staffing level pre fm bar a vet but this was probably going to be all the recruitments we would make this year its a good sign as things begin to get back to normal work is increasing quite a lot now most of our farmers have restocked although a lot of them and us are still concerned about the future tuesday 5th march a difficult day today with licences two of our farmers needed sole occupancy authentitys soa and there were queries with their land unless some of their fields could be redefined they were worried their stock would suffer during the fm these worries have shown how much they care about their stock and find it very frustrating when they dont understand why we cant move them even to the point of anger and tears by the end of the day thankfully they were resolved with compromise on both sides and a lot of phone calls wednesday 6th march i decided to sort out all the paperwork and guidelines we had received from defra over the past twelve months it was quite a pile it was interesting looking back and very sad it makes you realise just how deep the feelings went and although it sounds silly its surprising how quickly those feelings can return over the smallest things anyway having done that it did feel good to box them up and put them away we got taken out for lunch with our ptizer rep and it was nice just to talk about usual things drug competition how much we were going to sell thursday 7th march very busy day everyone has been flat out all day started at 7am this morning got finished sort of by 730pm very tired hope we get a new vet soon we also had a suspect bse case today informed defra more problems with soa but we got them started one bit of good news i managed to get a new receptionist for 2 days a week so i just need one for the other 3 friday 8th march quite a good day no major hassles today and still getting busier had a staff meeting to arrange an open day for national pet week in may and sorted out a few other bits and bobs had a good chat with the staff who have all been very busy this week and decided that it is much better to this time last year when we were all very depressed emotionally drained laying off staff uncertain of the future at least now we are doing what we are meant to do saturday 9th march went shopping first thing with k had a good time even though im not a good shopper we went to the farmers market i saw heather who works at the auction and she said it had been quite emotional having sales again and the hustle and bustle but they were all happy to see people they hadnt seen for sometime met my mum in the afternoon in the snow at killington lake it was good and the driving was interesting sunday 10th march mothers day husband and daughter were out for the day so i had a lovely peaceful day doing not a lot daughter got me a funny card and a little hedgehog model for my collection in the evening i collected a vet student from london who is staying with us for 3 weeks so we will have to behave she seems nice and settled into our mad house easily mr w called in to let us know his cows had arrived safely week beginning 11th march 02 monday 11th march what a busy day but a total change to this time last year it was the day our first client was confirmed with f m i helped another vet do a caesarean on a cow that was fun they are farmers that have moved farm and restocked very positive one of our new receptionists started but i didnt get much chance to see her due to the caesar barbara looked after her well and she seemed to enjoy it there were lots of calls in just like the old days but we really need another vet the adverts in on thursday so fingers crossed tuesday another busy day and another caesar the calf was dead unfortunately the cow with query bse was taken away for tests which was sad my highlight of my day was the farm across from us turned some of his cows out again i call it my kitchen window view normally i can see sheep in the fields at the back and the cows across the road the sheep came back a couple of months ago and the cows but i havent actually been able to see them so it was very special never really stopped today and we did dog training classes at night so i collected daughter from her yfc meeting and got fish and chips and we all went to bed our poor vet student who is staying with us is exhausted shes been able to see and do so much wednesday today was a little more controlled and went more according to plan but was still a long day as we had a dog in about 630pm that had eaten a ball and hadnt passed it so we had to operate to remove it anyway finished at 900pm had tea and went to bed daughter heard she had got 2 weeks work experience at norbrook pharmaceutical so very pleased about that thursday had the morning off the last few days had been rather hectic a girl who had done work experience with us a couple of years ago called round out of the blue she was still keen to train as a vet nurse and wanted to write to the practices in the area and needed advice anyway i told her about our vacancy here and well the long and the short is she starts on the 2nd april receptionist staff now sorted just need a vet i wish it was as easy friday husband was reading a tt test at a farm and found a reactor pre f m cumbria was tb free but with all the new stock coming into the area it is inevitable that this will not be the case there have already been two other cases in the county i dropped off the isolation notice to the farmer and as they are he seemed okay and still very positive i have always admired them for their courage and stamina as he said they love farming and you have to expect things like this managed to spend the afternoon with one of our new receptionists she is doing really well and settling in time she will grasp it all in no time saturday ran daughter and her friend into town and sorted out the garage that was an achievement the dog that swallowed the ball wasnt eating so i went to get it something tasty its going home later so it should be a lot happier daughter s still in town so i took vet student to see hadrians wall shes from america so was very keen to see it she really enjoyed it and so did i i hadnt been for a couple of years just had a nice quiet evening in sunday my sister and her daughter came for the day my niece is two and a half years so need i say more we were busy playing all day week beginning monday 18th march 02 monday 18th march its looking fairly quiet at work this week but you never know mr w farmer came in he was letting us know his restocking plans and was one of the farmers querying his compensation i never liked that as they were compulsory purchased and have not received any compensation as such although some got better money than others so maybe it was all taken into account anyway he missed the query deadline by two hours so defra are refusing to look at his case as he does appear to have lost out as his brother with the same breeding of cows and related went down on the same down got an average 300 more per cow anyway we tried to look to the future and he was looking forward to getting stock back we had another tb reactor today in some french cattle me and our receptionist were chatting and decided things were really getting back to normal although with the added paperwork daughter was very upset when she came home from school as she had been getting bullied by a girl in her year so we chatted about that and i wrote to her teacher to see if she could find out more tuesday daughter went to school fairly happy i just told her to hand her letter in and try and avoid the girl i was going milk recording tonight which i really enjoy its great to be among the animals and talk to the farmers we only have one farmer milk recording fully at present there were 12 the farm i went to is a big dairy herd and is now looking to expanding so that was good news bad news is that means ill have to get up earlier in the mornings for the recording never mind daughter had got on okay at school and the teacher was really good with her so shes feeling happier she is a good kid and although hormonal at times she does put up with a lot during the fmd we were unable to really go anywhere or do anything although we did try to keep her routine we worked longer hours and were more stressed but she never complained and helped a lot went dog training after milk recording so it was a long day wednesday early morning start today 5am to go milk recording but i always get a lovely breakfast we also got invited to a party at the farm in may so thats something to look forward to and its fancy dress so that will be fun we have to dress up as childrens characters we then attended a careers convention at the sands centre until 7 pm so another very long day very tired we saw a lot of children who were interested in pursuing veterinary work which is always encouraging i enjoy doing the careers days its interesting to see the next workforce they seem to grow up so fast thursday my claim to fame today was seeing the princess royal i passed her at a junction and thought i was seeing things i bored everyone with that story we had a lovely staff lunch meeting we all helped cook and sat and chatted about the future we had no replies from the advert for a vet so we decided to try another veterinary magazine so fingers crossed in the afternoon i managed to get very well caught up on my paperwork which is a rarity as i normally end up going somewhere or sorting something out so i was very pleased especially as the year end is approaching friday discussed a few ideas with our nurse regarding the small animal side and the possibility of getting some new equipment i shall have to do some adding up husband was at a vet meeting locally for all the vets in the area on thursday night and there were 3 other practices looking for vets and had been doing for some time without any luck at all this is worrying as our case loads increase again it puts a strain on the vets so fingers crossed our advert is in tomorrow in the afternoon i called to see one of our evening receptionist who is on maternity leave at present it was good to see her and her new addition so i was filling her in on the news and gossip hopefully she will be back to work the second week in april although the birth was a caesarean so i have told her to see how she is feeling so we will discuss it again soon as this is her fourth child but she copes really well and is looking really healthy saturday it snowed i went to meet my mum at killington as we were having her dog while she went on holiday and nearly got stuck in the snow during foot and mouth daughter had counted the stock in the field between carlisle and penrith on the m6 anyway i did it again today last year we counted 2 this year we counted 12 big difference sunday went for a walk around a local wood for the first time in over a year it was amazing how overgrown it had become the paths were still visible but in places only just met up with a friends daughter to finalise arrangements for her fathers surprise meal out next friday for his 50th birthday week beginning monday 25th march 02 monday 25th march another very busy day today still no answer to the advert for a new vet husband spoke to another vet in the area and they had had the same response nothing it is good to be busy again our new receptionist is doing well and learning fast so thats taking the pressure off me and other receptioinist completed the claim form for business link grant which helped a lot and enabled us to do things and advertise when we wouldnt have been able to tuesday starting to prepare for the end of our financial year i always dread this but it has to be done it will be nice to end another chapter the practice suffered badly last year and it was very worrying we lost 3 vets and two lay staff but everyone is feeling the same i have spoken to a few farmers today and the opinion is well it is a lot better than this time last year it has been interesting to see how the effect of having new stock does throw them we are getting called out a lot more which is good for us we are doing a lot more lambings and lambing is set to go on until may june time this year we are very busy testing at the moment but it gives us the opportunity to see the new animals and discuss plans with the farmers the relationship which was built during the f m is now definitely benefiting a lot have said how helpful it was and feel a lot closer the family not business relationship is good wednesday i had a day off today which was good i managed to catch up on a few things which i just hadnt had time to do with being so busy i got a lot organised for the holiday at the week end which we are all looking forward to but we cant all get away together mainly due to no new vet and our financial year but at least we will all get a bit of a break daughter got her report today and has done very well we are so proud of her so fingers crossed for her gcses thursday i spoke to mrs w today who has been very much in action since they got f m and even got in touch with politician etc to help give farmers that voice she mentioned the public inquiry and like a lot of people feels that maybe rather than having a finger pointing blaming session and we all have our ideas on that she felt that maybe trying to prevent it happening again would be a better idea i personally have begun to realize recently just how much and how deep the feelings run i think i am more emotional now than when we were in the thick of it friday spent all day knuckling down to the end of year but got a lot done husband daughter and vet student went out for the day it is husband s first real day off since october and it did him good we all went out in the evening to celebrate a friends birthday it was really good saturday holiday again today husband daughter my sister and her daughter have gone away today to the cottage near newton stewart we have rented for a week the weather is great so they should have a lovely time this could be our only holiday this year husband s back on monday then i go on wednesday confusing isnt it never mind at least we will all get away for a few days sunday end of year day stocktaking counting sunny outside boring but never mind its done our vet student went home today she had really enjoyed herself and we had enjoyed having her she bought us all some lovely gifts it will be nice to be on our own again but i will still miss her week beginning monday 1st april 02 monday 1st april i had a lovely day my day husband and daughter still away played in the garden went for a walk read some of my book lovely husband came back at tea time so we went out for a meal perfect tuesday went to help another vet vet tt test at one of our farms he had restocked and was very positive about the future it was a lovely day and great to be amongst cows again wednesday sunday hols great i didnt realise just how much i needed it the weather was great warm sunny very relaxing all charged up again week beginning monday 8th april 02 monday 8th april back to work today i had quite a lot of catching up to do and couldnt really get into it never mind it will all still be there tomorrow hope we can get away again this year even for a few days tuesday queen mums funeral today it was very quiet we gave the girls time off to watch the funeral it was a nice funeral if you can have one and they commented on the poem which was read about being thankful for the life and not being sorry i must get it our nurse suggested about giving it to clients when they have their pets put to sleep nice idea wednesday back into it now i had 2 very difficult soa to complete farmers are slowly getting the idea but find all the paperwork hard but its a good chance for them to call in for a chat and coffee i so seem to spend an awful lot of time doing that now but its always good to see how they are coping thursday the large animal work has been rapidly increasing and it has been putting extra pressure on all the staff we do really need another vet but another advert and still no response at all but they all work very hard and we do manage to get through the work we chatted to the staff and tried to reassure them about the future but how can you when if we cant get another vet we simply cant provide the service our clients need it is very worrying and we are not sure of the solution or the future i think after that paragraph i need a we can do it kick friday our new receptionists are settling in well and i did some work with them today which was good they are both very enthusiastic a few years ago a i taught nvq in animal care so one of our receptionists is keen to do this so i organised some work for her to do enjoyed that castrated a colt in the afternoon sad i know but i enjoyed that saturday went shopping with daughter in the morning to buy her some new clothes we had a good time then started the sewing for the yfc field day we had to make shorts and t shirt for a sport event well i havent really done sewing from a pattern for years so lets just say it was fun sunday went to newcastle for the day via some fields we had to check for a clients soa had a lovely time and saw the blinking or winking im not sure which one it is it was nice to have a day all together week beginning monday 15th april 02 monday 15th april very busy again i did 175 miles today just dropping things off for farmers and vets and trips to the lab i also found a new supplier of paper towels which will save us a lot of money see so easy pleased it was very tiring but i do like being out and about and i even managed two cups of coffee on farms before fmd i felt that the relationship between vets and farmers was changing but our relationship during fmd did change for the better i feel good about that but not the way it happened me and daughter had a girls night in as husband was away that was fun tuesday 16th april husband away at bcva he is new on the committee and seems to be enjoying it there is only him and another vet in scotland from the north invited onto the committee so they are putting together some suggestions to put to the government re fmd poor another vet was very busy again we need a vet wednesday 17th april i went to see an elderly client of ours this morning who has an old dog she is going into hospital and wont go as she is worried about the dog i offered to have kelly the dog while she was in hospital and told her if i found out she cancelled it i would be cross i enjoy talking to her for her 87 years she is very fit and funny at lunchtime we all attacked the bayer rep for free goodies for our open day he was very co operative and got away without a scratch we didnt have an open day last year so it should be fun back into a routine thursday 18th april i bottomed my paperwork this morning no interference no phone calls no soa very productive me and husband went to see the finical advisor at the bank in the afternoon it was good but we cant retire this year never mind he gave us some good ideas so fingers crossed we might just be able to retire one day friday 19th april very busy we need a vet repetitive isnt it we were looking back in the visit book to this time last year this year we had 21 calls which is a practise record last year we had 1 there is a lot of general well this time last year in some ways it all seems very unbelievable but in other ways it still very sad and emotional i think more emotional now than when it was actually happening when you see farmers eyes filling up talking about it i used to worry about upsetting them but i feel it is good to talk and it also helps me i dont know if thats right but it seems to work saturday 20th and sunday 21st april huge sewing for yfc field day i also found out today that there is also baking and flower arranging oh joy week beginning monday 22nd april 02 monday 22nd april good day today ive been to see my new girls the cows over the road from us it was the one we could see from the practice it was an awful day they had lasted until june anyway it was good to see the new girls and i think i amused the farmer we had a great time ive never enjoyed helping tt test more on a high tuesday 23rd april driving around today ive been trying to listen to what the euro inquiry people have been up to not a lot from what i hear i was talking to an old farmer in the afternoon and he wasnt impressed either and we agreed that it was all very well having these inquires but were they going to help i suppose only time will tell but i still feel that unless something is done about the cause then the chances are it will happen again and to what extent and what has been learnt and what will be different next time because the one thing that must be prevented is the effects on people nobody really got that i always remember the samaritans advert nobody seemed to care probably no paperwork can you tell ive had a particularly bad day with the soa and the good news is they want to keep them permanently great wednesday 24th april i went to see mrs b again today and she had heard from the hospital again she was going in next tuesday so i arranged at collect k on monday afternoon im pleased shes having her op i have also been in touch with one of her daughters in devon so hopefully everything should go well now good news we have heard of a vet at defra who is looking for a job husband phoned her and she is coming on saturday afternoon so fingers crossed thursday 25th april my cows got the tt reading this morning and they are all okay we have heard of a farm in welton who had to have some killed as they had 7 reactors and they will need tested there has been quite a few reactors in the country after restocking but with all the new stock coming into the county from all over the country it was bound to happen friday 26th april sorted out the open day next saturday got everything sorted what we need whos getting it etc me and receptionist went to smuts fancy dress and decided budget wouldnt go to costumes so we got some face paint and masks me and daughter and her friend and mum went to see westlife ant newcastle it was great fun saturday 27th april shopping washing and sewing i know how to show myself a good time we all went to another vet s at night for a bbq it was great fun cold but fun we have been so lucky with another vet she is so nice and enthusiastic we interviewed a vet today from defra but she is a little uncertain what she wants to do but she seems nice and we told her what we needed so fingers crossed sunday 28th april finished my sewing week beginning monday 29th april monday the inquiry begins for what good it will do i find i have very mixed feelings part of me thinks whats the point and another is expecting something but quite what i dont yet someone to blame a solution an ability to turn back the clock a lesson to learn or an end the last i know wont happen for a while and the repercussion will probably be felt for a few years yet tuesday 30th april sorry ill in bed today with the cold from hell wednesday 1st may much better today and we heard from the vet we interviewed on saturday and she has accepted our offer and can start on the 27th may yippee holidays and easing of the pressure on husband and another vet i am still finding the saying well this time last year mrs r phoned and mentioned the saying as it was a year ago today that their cattle were killed but she was phoning with good news they had their first calf born healthy and well and she wanted to tell us lovely thursday 2nd may its official soa are here to stay oh joy so we contacted all our farmers who had not yet got one who we thought might need one so lots of chatting and catching up so quite nice open day is on saturday and there still seems to be an awful lot to organise but we have been busy all day and things are looking better and slightly more organised i havent seen or heard much of this enquiry but when you do hear some i think we really went through that weird friday 3rd may open day panic thats all ive done today but it is all coming together and it will be fine hopefully we have had quite a good response about people coming and people checking when it is and whats happening so fingers crossed must go and bake my buns saturday 4th may open day it went really well we started at 2 pm and there was a steady stream of people all enjoying themselves hopefully it stayed fine the whole time thankfully i even got my face painted by another vet our vet we managed to raise 9671 for the pat dogs and 2735 for national pet week not too bad for 2 hours the staff came round for tea later which was nice and we had a jolly time sunday 5th may gardened all day till i dropped loved it i grew quite fond of the garden last year as it was another little escape week beginning monday 6th may monday 6th may bank holiday we had a lovely family day out which have been very rare so it was surprising that we all got on nearly it still feels strange being able to go to places not only as a family but also the fact that for so long we didnt really go anywhere tuesday 7th may very busy i have been doing my hollering as receptionist calls it what i have actually been doing is dropping off drugs and chatting i call it customer relations i still feel funny going onto farms i have been to the gate for months just momentarily i feel can i its hard to explain it still feels normal to drop things in the bucket or bin rather than driving onto the farm but its good and the coffee with proper milk is brill wednesday 8th may mr g has got some cows he was one we thought wouldnt restock as although both his sons are on the farm neither are interested in cows one has horses and the other has everything else from turkeys dogs wallabies monkeys pheasants etc a real menagerie daddy g is 66 and couldnt decide weather to get more cows or not it was a bit of dad says yes sons say no anyway dad won to begin with i was on the sons side but when he came in beaming and laughing and full of joy how could you disagree with him before they got fmd he had called into the practise and was having a coffee and was very upset his friend had phoned him that morning to say he had fmd mr g just broke down and sobbed it was one of my worst experiences i found it so hard not to join him but to be strong and console him for him of the old gentlemen showed the depth of feeling and despair that was around i have a lump now remembering it anyway in comparison if getting a few cows to milk can make such a big difference and be so happy so what thursday 9th may went to a meeting in preston with cl a vet from brampton on the marsh report which is regarding vets the privilege to dispense drugs anyway firstly we got lost very lost and then on arriving at the meeting eventually it was all doom gloom and depressing just when you thought things were getting on tract bam more changes more paperwork we will have to wait and see just how it effects us but effect us it will friday 10th may i had a half day off today and did fun things like washing shopping and sorting bits and pieces but i couldnt be a housewife all the time i ended up leaving the cooking and washing and took the dog out instead much more fun saturday 11th may took daughter out to the young farmers field day it was brill i was only going to stay an hour anyway i stayed all day everyone was there some i hadnt seen for ages i had only spoke to them and some new faces it was great to see them all together i do feel farmers and their families are very special people they have a wonderful sense of fun they are very solid they are very close mind when you talk to them you find they are all related they are also very proud of what they do its sad the public do not see them this way gone are the days when the farmer was the hero who worked all hours to feed the nation well it was a wonderful day week beginning monday 13th may monday very busy milk recorded this afternoon it was good fun they are preparing for their party on saturday night it is a fancy dress party me and husband are going but i cant say what as yet j mentioned that a friend of theirs was still not speaking to them because j never lost his cows and yet j said he had tries to explain how hard it was for them waiting his friend had accepted the invite to the party so heres hopefully to friendship it shows how feelings can so easily run away and be blown into something very silly we are all on the same side after all i see a lot of changes in a lot of people either bitterness resentment jealousy and emotionally drained in the whole situation tuesday 14th may early morning milk recording got my outfit sorted for the fancy dress party on saturday me and friend went to try it on it was good fun wednesday 15th may i have done tons of backwards and forwarding today so ive been hearing about the inquiry a bit today i have decided i am going to the one in carlisle out of interest and curiosity i still feel what is it all for so i may find out at the meeting i am still waiting for the day fmd is not mentioned or i have some dealing regarding it thursday 16th may i spoke to a young couple who farm and they were enquiring about the changes in buying drugs it caught me off guard as we knew it would happen but not when i arranged to meet with them and chat to see what they wanted and i think i will go from there people are farming in different ways than they used to pre fmd weather it is a result of fmd or not i dont know but there are going to be a lot of changes heading our way friday 17th may accountant day today what a joy no he is brilliant he has helped so much over the years and last year he was brilliant he did have one consolation we wouldnt have to pay too much tax this year anyway spoke to a rep in the afternoon we have had all the usual offers that we get every year but this year they look good as if we buy more this year than last year we can get more off that should be easy saturday 18th may party night i am cruella deville and husband is bob the builder it was great seeing people we hadnt seen for ages if and when you could recognise them it was a really good do we met a client of ours and she is very anti everything re fmd i feel she is really suffering and very bitter she was little bo peep who had lost her sheep and didnt know where to find them but mr blair can she preached all night to anyone she could i feel sorry for her as people were avoiding her sad sunday 19th may recovered week beginning monday 20th may 02 monday a new cattle fertility programme has now become available to vets and farmers two of the people who work came along to see us and discuss the advantages we already had a few farmers keen in having the program installed we discussed the program later with a few farmers and they were very keen recognising that they are going to need a program like this that can help them keep a tighter control on their herds fertility and health which would enable them to remain in business as most of them are realising they are now running a company not a family concern so its quite exciting another step forward hopefully tuesday 21st may very busy today everyone stretched it will make life so much easier when our new vet anne starts next week i got caught up on my paperwork and also managed to catch up on some others bits that needed done even got all the soa defra paperwork sorted miracle wednesday 22nd may went to see two of our farmers today to discuss the interherd cattle health and fertility computer program it was good to chat a listen to their plans hopes and dreams and their concerns a lot of farmers are still very unsure of the future and quite honestly are keeping their options open definitely gave me some pause for thought and a few concerns thursday 23rd may quiet day today mr w one of our farmers came today and we had a chat he was also worried about the future i hope some good positive news comes soon friday 24th may friend is having a few weeks off as our new vet is starting on monday she came to us 6 months 10 years ago and she has helped us out ever since and so during fmd she offered to help it was great to have her and she worked all hours as there was only her and husband for 5 months so she is having some well deserved time off and will come back part time when we need her ill miss her but she says shes a lot of housework to catch up on saturday 25th and sunday 26th may my sister and niece came to stay for the weekend we had a nice time just pottering here and there week beginning monday 27h may monday new vet started she was very nervous but very keen she had spent 10 months working for defra and was relieved to be finished with it she had mainly been involved with re stocking anyway she managed very well and hopefully will settle well tuesday 28th may we booked a holiday today our 1st holiday for about 25 years so we are all very excited we are going on a barge near chester so hopefully the weather will be good it will be nice to go away together especially after last year i think we all need it you do get used to staying at home but with all the trouble and upset last year it will be nice cant wait wednesday 29th may had a lovely day ended up doing lots of visiting around the farms dropping drugs off and seeing another farm regarding the interherd program i went to a large dairy farm and they are a young couple who are keen and enthusiastic about their future so it was very positive and encouraging it does give you a lift and helps put things back on track thursday 30th may we had a farmers coffee morning not planned they appeared at once so it was quite nice its quite interesting when you hear them together there were two elderly and one younger one and their opinions hopes thoughts and experiences were very different friday 31st may another mega paperwork day exciting played in the garden this afternoon and walked the dog saturday 1st and sunday 2nd june had a weekend off together we went visiting and walking very nice week beginning 3rd june monday my sister and her daughter came to visit we went into carlisle but nothing very exciting the weather was very disappointing for all the organised events we went to a couple and got wet daughter and niece got some jubilee mugs at one of them wednesday i ended up helping our new vet and new nurse to operate so that was good i dont get much chance to help in the op room these days so i enjoyed it thoroughly new vet is doing very well shes only been qualified 3 years and up to now has not done much small animal so i was worried she would not like it but she seems to be enjoying it thoroughly and has settled in really well it seems like she has been here for ages thursday we had our first work experience from a school for 2 years she was very interested in the fmd and said they had done a bit on it at school so i went through a few of the details and we discussed the human side which she hadnt really been discussed at school to finish i had 4 soa to do as well such joy friday i foolishly decided to decorate the surgery and op room you know when you think you have a good idea then realise you have bitten off more than you can chew well by sunday night i was dead i got it all done and it did look better as nothing had been done last year but boy was i tired week beginning 10th june monday our new interherd disc arrived so i went and installed it on two farms they were very keen to get started so its quite exciting they both have young sons who are keen to farm also so that helps sometimes i fee if we can just get through this and then other times i feel whats the point but down the middle of the road we have to try and make it work and fight to make it work tuesday 11th june quite busy today but daughter had her brace taken off today so we had two visits to the hospital she looks different without her brace now wednesday 12th june had a day off today peaceful thursday 13th june nmr came to see us to discuss how they can work with us the interherd and the farmer it was interesting and competitively priced so that is now another service we can offer to our farmers which can only help long term i went to see another farmer to enter the interherd there is a lot of interest we are trying to maintain a close contact with our farmers to enable us to meet their needs as things progress in the near future there are going to be a lot of changes regarding the dispensing of drugs which could alter the way we work this should be finalised by january 2003 but until then we are not sure just how they will affect us friday 14th saturday 15th and sunday 16th june husband birthday so i have organised a surprise weekend away for him we had a wonderful time and thankfully the weather was good week beginning 17th june monday very quiet almost like last year but thankfully not for the same reason they are all busy silaging normality is returning but they are still finding it difficult with new herds not really knowing their new cows yet or how they react one farmer said it was like a new car you have to drive it a good few miles before you are at ease and the seat is comfy well thats one way of putting it tuesday i went to see mr j to discuss our new interherd program a computer program that they can keep records of all their herds records and we can do analysis on them its quite exciting and interesting and shows farming is heading to the computer age and the farmers are learning another new skill not sure they are all comfy with after i had shown mr j the program and how to use it he was keen but said that for now he would maybe go and cut down a few thistles weds thursday very quiet did some catching up on paperwork then went for a walk and played outside in the garden friday query fmd in pigs the effect it had was very strange part was horror worry and another strange one was of expecting it although you did get on with everything and its all sorting out and normality is returning its as if you are waiting for it to appear again i went back to watching the news listening to the radio waiting fingers crossed sad day sat sun quiet weekend husband was working no results on the pigs yet the bush telegraph is working again we have had quite a number of worried farmers on the phone but no results as yet week beginning 24th june monday breakthrough no fmd talk at all today i suddenly realised in the evening all is getting back to normal and everyone is coming to terms with the paperwork farming does what it always has recently fallen from one disaster to another but they are very proud of their trade but do now feel let down by both the government and the public who for whatever reason dont seem to have the same respect for farmers as they used to but this just may be due to how we all are and work these days tuesday pigs given the all clear everyone breathes a sigh of relief it has a very chilling effect but again shows we are still clear of the disease for now weds over the last few days we have had 6 dairy herds with very strange mastitis husband has been out to visit them with a vet from vla penrith but they as yet have not established a cause samples show nothing and usual treatments dont work so it is a case of new herds new problems thursday day off and friday sat sun had my niece we had a lovely time but very exhausting week beginning 1st july monday we have invested the new interherd computer programme mon thurs this week i have been out and about visiting farmers loading and explaining the new programme some of which i havent been too far over a year its good to see them and chat fmd of course is always still at the top of the list followed by the milk price and all the regulations its so amazing and sorrowful to see how deep the emotions run the stories and feelings they have are still very strong but all are very emotional they are very resilient but do still have these deep feelings you wonder how the effects will come out but it will take time friday i did a soa for the first time in ages i had to look back as to how to fill it in they are going to review these shortly so watch this space all the regulations are up for review in about november so we will see what they come up with sunday we have a vet student alison for two weeks staying with us she came to northumberland during fmd so was interested to know what had happened and where everything was at the more you go through it the easier it becomes she had been involved in the culling and had found it very hard she did it for 1 month and was glad to leave week beginning 8th july monday tuesday i went milk recording the farm i go to did not get fmd and they were saying how hard it had been for them and to some extent they did have as hard a time as people with fmd just in different ways they had to do the checking for longer the farmer said he used to dread going into the sheds in a morning as he dreaded what he might find also washing the milk takers not being able to visit friends and family all the regulations re moving stock just the not knowing they said it put quite a strain on them all one of the ways they coped was they built a tennis court and played a lot of other games and as a family this brought them closer weds interherd day we held a meeting today to invite all the farmers interested in using the programme the people who wrote the programme came along to talk to the farmers it was very good and the farmers seemed to enjoy themselves they have all found they are needing this sort of programme as with the new herds they are unsure of how their fertilities are thurs fri visited mr w and mr j re interherd got a proper cup of coffee and proper milk thats what i missed about last year and one of the reasons i go to visit them sat sun very busy small animal operated and nursed all week end i was shattered poor me week beginning 15th july monday visited farmer re interherd programme they are very positive about the future and have a son who is very keen i can see a difference in their attitude over the past few months when i first started going they were unsure they had done the right thing and had seriously debated getting any stock back if they could cope with the changes and the regulations and paperwork but as he said he just loves farming not that he doesnt know anything else he just loves farming and now they have progressed and working together within the family they have a good system and appear to be enjoying themselves the farm has been in the family for generations so financially they can manage i hope they make it they are lovely people and a real inspiration the report on fmd and the recommendations is to be published soon but from what we have heard so far it doesnt say anything we didnt already know and the recommendations are a little sketchy to say the least they need a good sensible positive protocol for any future outbreak and at present if it all flared up again tomorrow it would be the same mess what have we learnt hopefully time will tell tuesday sad news today one of our clients who didnt get fmd has decided to give up he is on a tenanted farm the owners are not keen on any expansion or even repairing old buildings to remain competitive he sees he needs more cows but cant build any more sheds so in his words he has decided that there is maybe more to life he is in his mid forties so he is going to sell up and try something new very brave but sad i think this will not be the first of our clients to do this everyone asks about the future and at the moment nothing and nobody is certain can the smaller farmers keep up will the bigger ones get bigger what new regulations and paperwork will be brought in only time will tell weds husband has been away at the br cattle vet ass bcva committee meeting he has been on the committee for about 18 months now he enjoys it and it is another feather in his cap anyway he gave a talk on the problems post fmd and on the problems farmers were and had experienced he also gave a talk on some of the mastitis cases that had appeared in new herds we have had some very strange mastitis cases this year anyway there was a competition for the best talk and husband won i was very proud of him none of the other vets there had ever seen anything like it but some had found more bad mastitis in cows this year so whether its the change of area weather or housing we shall see thursday i had a visiting day today good fun i went t see the farmers who have the interherd so i had lots of coffee with proper milk yummy its also interesting to hear all the different stories and feelings hopes and worries there are so many most are ready for the challenge ahead but unfortunately some arent nobody knows how or when things will change but over the next couple of years they will some good some not so good byee im off on my hols now yippee holiday week beginning 22nd july week beginning monday 29th july tuesday back to work the staff have coped really well no falling out no problems its the first time in nearly two years we have left them so it was a bit worrying but they are a great bunch we are very lucky i feel so relaxed and it was great fun seeing through all my paperwork not i had a bit of a lazy day but good weds poor mr g is having a terrible time with defra when we did his restocking tt test he had a reactor so the cow was slaughtered but no lesions were found the herd had to be tested again 60 days later and another reactor was found and slaughtered anyway he was due another test in 60 days and this was arranged for 900am 900am came and went and at 1000am he phoned to see what was happening they had forgotten they could come out at 1pm no good the last two times they had tested it had taken 6 hours to test the cows and they still needed milked which would mean a very late finish mr graves explained this and was told not to complain he had bought the cows into the country with tb and he would have to do it when they said they know how to get people on their side dont they anyway a heated discussion had pursued and eventually sense was seen the test was rearranged for another day at 900am so fingers crossed thursday we got money through today from the fmd recovery fund it has been very useful and enabled us to do things we wouldnt normally be able to do we had our vans sign written we got a laptop computer which had been great for the interherd programme we got pens and pads to give out husband was able to hold meetings with our farmers pre stocking to advise them what to look for etc so it has been extremely useful it was nice to be given the money some people say it would have been spent elsewhere but it helped us immensely and we feel we have spent it wisely fri had a paperwork catch up day today it has been quiet recently due to holidays and harvesting but thankfully not like last year we looked back again and today last year we had no calls and today we had four so although quiet not that bad week beginning monday 5th august monday very quiet tuesday very quiet weds very quiet thursday daughter got her first job fri took daughter to my sisters for the week end sat quiet week end sun gardening going on holiday again next week yippee sorry its been very quiet this week as mentioned before this is usual as everyone is on holiday and the farmers are harvesting i have caught up and have been enjoying a few days just poddling going out with daughter shopping food its nice to have some catch up time on thursday daughter got a job her first proper job well nearly at the travel inn at the bottom of our road she is so excited and already planning what she is going to spend her hard earned cash on on friday i took daughter to my sisters in lancashire for the week end i came back on friday night and we decided to meet up at husband s mum and dads caravan near whitby on monday for a week so another holiday i dont know you have one and then another anyway it should be good fun holiday week beginning monday 12thth august week beginning monday 19thth august monday visited mr a today to load interherd onto his computer he has definitely decided to sell up he is hoping by early next year this has all been very sudden but his son is no longer interested and as mr a said who can blame him with all the new regulations and paperwork a lot are finding it hard tuesday we had an environment agency visit this morning to check how and where we dispose of our waste in practice thankfully we are doing everything properly but this visit took two and a half hours and lots of form filling in it is they that check these things but the extent in questionable mr g called in the afternoon he is having problems with his cows they keep going off colour we have so many new herds that started of doing well happy and settling in fine then about 3 4 months after they arrived they start being ill have mastitis off colour not eating not milking properly a wide variety its very strange the vets dont really know whats happening we have a few on regular blood sampling trying to find any changes weds me and husband went to the accountant to see just how bad financially we really had done last year and oh what a surprise it was bad in fact we nearly qualified for childrens tax relief the main thing is we survived in a fashion hopefully it will be better next year thursday i visited two farmers today on the interherd they are finding it brilliant they have both recently had farm assurance visits and interherd had helped them enormously and helped them reach the standards they both appreciate how much easier it is for them and less paperwork heaven its so good to find something to help them fri i have been phoning our main drug companys reps inviting them to our open evening all very keen i think they just enjoy the crack week beginning monday 26th august very quiet this week on both large and small animal it must be the last holiday rush before going back to school we managed to do some catching up and decided a four day week would be nice i did quite a bit of playing on interherd so that when i visited farmers about it i knew what they want to see and where to find it most of them are interested in the medicines book as this keeps excellent stock records from when the drug product is born where it has gone and batch numbers and expiry dates these are all the information they need to produce when they get inspected and doing it manually can be very time consuming week beginning 2nd september monday 2nd september irs 930 garst milk rec tuesday garst milk rec dog course weds daughter back to school exporting is back thursday exporting fri change date of open evening gb way now 15 10 02 exporting sat off sister and niece sun off monday every 2 years we are checked by our radiographer advisor to ensure everything is well and we are doing everything right they check the x ray machine our records and our monitoring records we passed in the afternoon i went milk recording it was very warm and very flyie but good fun they are thinking of getting a new parlour twice as big as mr g feels in the future milk will have to be produced by quantity not quality but it is difficult and expensive decision to make for him we shall see tue early morning milk recording this morning but i got a lovely breakfast with proper milk i got to check the large animal when i got back we also started our new puppy training course in the evening that went very well it is a more 1 to 1 basis our nurse runs it i go along and help with moral support it was good fun but i had a very long day and went to bed when i got back weds daughter went back to school today ill miss her following me round helping out and her mum can you take me we may have some exporting of sheep on friday there is a pedigree texel sheep sale at h h borderway it is the first exporting we have done in about 20 months as you can guess the paper work has tripled there has been numerous phone calls to ad from defra trying to make sense of it but i must say people up here are not good at clarifying what they have written now theres a surprise thursday i have spent the whole day either reading new expert regulations or running backwards and forwards for new paperwork what we have to complete and what they should bring well it could be fun friday well full really isnt the word i would use we needed more paperwork they needed more paperwork it took most of the day and we only had 3 sheep to send draining the one good thing was seeing everyone at the auction some new faces and some have gone week beginning 9th september monday ts 7th birthday we have another vet student studying at the moment for 2 weeks we have had five this year so far and another before christmas but she wont stay in the house as she is from carlisle it is nice to have them and it makes us behave but i wont have as many next year they have all been interested in the fmd and some had a chance to help out which was an eye opener for them i spoke to student about it all how it affected everyone what happened and what didnt now talking about almost a year from the last case i dont find it as hard and i think i can hide how emotional it was but at the time i wasnt i was more angry i feel now fmd or the aftermath has sadly become everyday life i dont rush for news on it or yearn information i think because directly or indirectly we live with it everyday it all has really become part of our lives it is very difficult to put into words or explain i also went to visit one of my interherd farmers in lancaster they are very pleased with it and are coping well mrs m was crushed by the pet cow a month ago and was very lucky she had two broken legs cuts and bruises needless to say the cow has gone to greener pastures they are very resilient and are planning for the future and it is nice to be a part of their planning i also get proper milky coffee see so easy pleased milk recorded tonight at mr gs so early morning tomorrow im still trying to persuade them into interherd so finger crossed tuesday early morning milk recording failed on the interherd due to a cow breaking a leg i have never actually experienced it happening before i generally hear farmers needing a slaughter cert or a cow put down to see it and the familys reaction i was humbled i think is the word it was an accident that can happen but the look on their faces was such deep sorrow the father even places his head in his hands at breakfast we all talked about it she was only a heifer getting ready to be served for the let time she was a difficult birth they had all helped well bred and she was jet black with a huge white spot on her side so no prizes for guessing the name but as the farmer said you cant look after them feed them care for them day in day out without caring about them or why would you do it in the afternoon i attended a course on management employment law customer service at barnard castle it went on till 9 pm with dinner after so i decided to stay over very spoilt good course excellent food lovely hotel wednesday came back from my course leisurely and stopped at penrith for a bit of shopping very pleasant im not a good shopper but it was nice i had to get back for 11 am as we were having a new credit card machine fitted he duly arrived well what an obnoxious man he was moaning because we had a switchboard he had to dial 9 this was wrong that was wrong and then was he not going to get offered a coffee to which he was told not without the special word he was a bit aghast and said please i swear if i had not just come from a course explaining customer service i would have murdered him god bless courses and of course credit card machine men in the afternoon i was visited by the rspca advertising company did we want an advert in their leaflet anyway it was 640 for quarter of a page for 2 years so i said we couldnt afford it it suddenly dropped to 410 i was a little suspect so i got receptionist to quietly check if the company were connected to the rspca anyway while i was waiting i said it was still a little bit more than we could afford what with fmd see it is useful and true he then said he could do it for 210 by which time she had confirmed they were with the rspca so i said yes thank you bargain or rip off thursday i tried to get my head round isolation units and tried to explain to a farmer about them i think we got there eventually when husband got back i got him to explain in simple english and it all made a lot more sense they will be handy for people selling and buying stock but have as always the guidelines must have been written by someone who has never seen a farm or fields friday caught up on paperwork and trolleyed about busy doing not a lot i think the term is anyway it was good week beginning 16th september this week has been appraisal week for the staff we didnt do any last year so i thought we had better get back into the swing of things i quite enjoy the appraisals its a great opportunity to have a real good sort out get new ideas and try and recognise any potential problems we started doing appraisals at bout 4 years ago and to start off with everyone was petrified and worried but it was nice to see them actually excited and enjoyed it it is quite time consuming but very worthwhile so not much out and about this week week beginning 23rd september monday another suspect case the main difference about this was as with other ones i felt cold sick scared this one was better i felt it was not going to be positive whether its a case of there have been a few now not positive and this is just another one or confident that it no way could be positive i definitely wasnt as worried i dont know if that is being blasé cant spell sorry but definitely different tuesday just nicely busy today just enough to keep everyone busy husband and other vet are away this week so that just leaves new vet and other vet so it was a little worrying if it got busy it was the last of our dog training courses tonight they all passed their tests well and were very pleased with the progress they had made it was the first 4 week course we had run and feedback was very positive our head nurse had put in an awful lot of work fir it so i was very pleased for her as well the next one is planned for november weds experts are going to start again at h h tomorrow and friday it will be the first ones we have done for about 18 months surprisingly the paperwork for our side has not changed much but the irish paperwork is horrendous anyway after several phone calls to derfa and dard and various farmers who are wishing to sell at the sale i think we have it sorted we will see tomorrow thursday and friday ive put these into one as that is how it felt after being so confident that we had everything in place to be able to export the sheep first thing thursday morning dard like irish defra changed the regulations and paperwork such joy as you can imagine this sent everyone in a state of frenzy and another buzby full of phone calls we didnt have the paperwork sorted when people had bought sheep and were wanting to leave now some tempers are reaching fever pitch well we did manage to export them away on thursday night 3 hours late so they had to book different ferries all done and dusted by friday we were busy congratulating ourselves on achieving the impossible and how we all had worked hard to accomplish it and now had several more names on our christmas card list yes you guessed we had a phone call from well let me say one not happy chappy after having no sleep catching a late ferry waiting for the paperwork to arrive at larne port all the sheep were impounded dard had added one more form to their list of requirements and had forgotten to send them through or mention them hours of phone calls and faxing later i am very pleased to say that the sheep were released and free to go week beginning 7th october monday 7th october i made some trial arrangements for our open evening next tuesday alls ready now they are a good night out and we all enjoy it we havent had one for a few years so it should be good tuesday for a while now weve been wondering if the practice should invest in a house for an assistant we have had a response to the advert for our new vet so we thought we would go house hunting anyway it wasnt as much fun as i first thought to start with obviously they are quite a price and it really isnt that easy so we looked at one cardboard box for 70000 and apparently it went for 82k frightening well we can keep on looking we have a vet coming for an interview on saturday so fingers crossed im off tomorrow and away at bvna congress over the weekend so im looking forward to that week beginning 14th october monday 14th october we had a really good time at the bvna british veterinary nurse assistant congress we did loads of lectures a learned a few new things got loads of freebies from the trade stands and ordered a new vaporiser for the anaesthetic machine which uses less isoflo oxygen we also had a good halloween ball stayed up too late we got back on sunday evening after 3 days of congress and i was just settling down and filling in husband and daughter on what we had done when another vet came in wanting a hand with a caesarean on a dog ah well nothing like getting back into it today anyway feeling very tired we had to start getting ready for open evening tomorrow night for the farmers so there was a lot of sorting out and tidying up to do as we open the house up as well we havent had one for a couple of years so it was quite exciting i really enjoy them its great to have the farmers round its mainly a nosh and natter night but this year some of the drug companies paid for it they have their stands in various parts of the house and surgery and normally everyone has a good time tuesday open evening day very busy tidying up and moving things around everyone helped its good the staff are so excited about it as well they have all mucked in and as usual did us proud the evening itself was brilliant it was so nice to see them all enjoying themselves and there is nothing farmers like better than a good natter food and beer quite a few said they had missed the open evening last year due to fmd as far as pr goes definitely worth it wednesday just clearing up and sorting out all the staff said they had had good feedback so well done to everyone thursday back to it now got new interherd update so i spent quite a lot of the day seeing what new buttons it had its very clever interherd is sold by nmr now and they are helping us sell it to the farmers whose life and paperwork hope to make easier the man in charge at nmr is coming to see us next week to explain how the milk recording side all ties in between nmr and interherd friday today was one of those when you rush round all day but you feel unsure of what you have actually done very busy on both large and small side its very tiring but i do prefer it when were busy week beginning 21st october monday 21st october monday to wednesday off thursday had a meeting with id from nmr re interherd they are going to give us cheap milk recording prices to help promote nmr and interherd they have also released a version of interherd for farmers and we were given the first one in the country to trial and see what they thought it was very encouraging as nmr in the past years have gained themselves a slightly unpopular feel especially in cumbria but they now seem to see this and are trying very hard and are committed to improving it they did a survey and now with area herd size etc the majority of dairy herds are in cumbria even post fmd so fingers crossed friday a good day today husband was away at a bcva council meeting br cattle vets ass and normally it goes mad dont know why anyway it didnt today everyone was busy but not madly the large animal side is very up and down at present but it is now tt and blood testing season there are quite a lot of restocked herds to do as they are having to be done every year as opposed to 4 yearly we also have to test everything it is very time consuming and if they have a tt test then it is a two day job so for both the farmer and us it is two days of the week when you cant do anything else week beginning 28th october monday 28th october we have been asked by newton rigg college if we would be interested in teaching the animal care courses at the college so me and vicky went along it was quite interesting and we thought if we could do it together it would work so we said we would think about it and let them know went milk recording in the afternoon i do enjoy playing and the crack tuesday milk recorded again and discussed interherd with them so we are going to use them as the pilot for the nmr interherd job so that will be interesting regarding the newton rigg offer we wont be able to do it as our part time nurse is leaving us she has been offered a place at dalston vets she will be able to train as a vet nurse there as we dont do that in our practice so that will leave us short staffed it is sad but everything happens for a reason so we are now vet and nurse hunting so more advertising and interviewing weds we are sponsoring a class at the northern expo holstein friesian shows we have a stand and a good natter i took some photos of a few cows and some freebies it was a good night barbara came with me and she presented the prize for our class the standard of cattle was amazing and it was a really good show thursday out of the photos i took for the northern expo i decided to make a photo album so i went round a few other farms photographing it was good fun and nice to see that we do have some very good stock friday got a phone call today from my sister she has sold her house in lancaster and is moving up near us so thats very exciting otherwise a quiet day today week beginning 4th november monday 4th november i went to show mr j the new interherd farmers version he was very interested and thought it would save a lot of paperwork and time they all say that the paperwork since fmd has increased immensely along with the regulations tuesday we have decided to have a tv in the waiting room to advertise products services staff etc the man from channel 6 came and took information so it should arrive next week so it will be interesting to see how it works weds we went to the bank today to see the financial advisor as this is a free service and very useful we have decided to buy a house for my sister to live in when she moves up and it will be an investment as well a bit of security just in case as last year we discovered just how quick things can change we went for just over 3 months with not a lot of money coming in and still wages to pay so we are now house hunting week beginning 11th november monday 11th november one of our vets has recently started her dbr dip in bovine reproduction course at liverpool as part of her studies she is looking at the cows milk quality pre and post calving to see if any effects are relevant to their overall performance and milk production and health so we collect milk samples from certain cows twice a week over the period of lactation and she is going to test them so watch this space we have been very lucky with another vet her enthusiasm is boundless and she has become a very important member of our team i have persuaded mr j of b farm to milk record with us so thats more early morning jaunts the interherd and nmr trial is nearly ready so hopefully by middle of december everything should be set up and running hopefully tuesday two farmers are milk reading today so i had a nice little trolly about i treated myself to some of mr rs ice cream very nice well you have to support them their new shop on the farm is doing very well i loaded my first farmer version interherd onto mr ws computer he is very impressed and very keen and thankfully it all worked well wednesday we have computer bugs not good so i have spent most of the day on the phone talking to the debugging man thursday still got bugs weve had to run a bug fixer disc through all seven computers it takes ages peed off fed up going back to pen and paper friday i must have sounded fed up as the lovely little man came to fix all the computers he had to use 3 different discs due to all the different bugs had a meeting to discuss the nmr milk recording and we have quite a lot of farmers interested mainly because we have got a good price for nmr so fingers crossed the bugs are fixed yipeee week beginning 18th november monday 18th november due to our junior nurse leaving i have been interviewing all week we have had a lot of enquiries i decided to invite any possibles to come and play for the morning to see what they thought and how they got on with the staff there is one that has potential and sounds very nice but she cant make it until next monday there was one that wrote a really good letter but when she came in well she was sweet but not really suitable on friday nurse left we had a little party i hope she copes okay she bought me a lovely cow ornament to say thank you it was lovely week beginning 25th november monday 25th november ellen came for her interview very good she is keen had experience happy with the hours so she is coming back tomorrow afternoon for a play we all went out for our vet who is leaving on friday to be a chalet maid in a french ski resort till april it will be very sad to see her leave unfortunately still no joy on the new vet front but we are going to leave it till the new year and try then other vet is going to cover but unfortunately it means husband s on duty more its a bit reminiscent of fmd but well manage tuesday wednesday feeling very sorry for myself got a bad cold i got sent to my room because everyone was fed up of me sneezing all over them honestly i was only shanning thursday much better today i sorted a whole load of interherd data out and had a good play with it heard about nestles cancelling contracts next year from one of our farmers he felt a little unsure quite how it would affect them and that they were being dealt another kick in the teeth its quite amazing how many i have heard questioning why they went back into farming we are feeling the effects we didnt seem to be called out as often or they dont want the cows treated as its extra expense at the end of fmd they said over the next couple of years there would be changes in the way farmers and how many farmers worked its frightening to see it actually starting to happen and seeing the effects on our business everyone agrees the whole industry has changed for the worst and is not the same and there is no pleasure now after all that a total contrast me and daughter went christmas shopping and had a lovely time we met husband after surgery and went for a pizza lovely night friday everyones talking about nestles now and quite a few are angry some arent surprised and others just seem to resign themselves to it we had a lunch party for leaving vet today it was good we gave her pressies although she has only been here a few months she will be greatly missed by everyone you never know she may come back one day good news i offered ellen the nurses job and shes accepted i think she will do very well week beginning 2nd december monday 2nd december spent all morning trolling around the countryside collecting another vet s milk samples for her dbr it was a lovely morning chatted to a few farmers a lot were still talking about nestles tuesday had a meeting to clarify the start of the nmr milk recording gave her all the information she needed to set up the herds its great to be able to offer the farmers a good cheaper deal staff xmas party it was good everyone seemed to have a good time wednesday day off shopping what joy thursday had an interherd disaster today i couldnt get it load what normally takes 15 minutes instead took 2 and a half hours anyway we succeeded eventually they have just bought some in calf heifers so he was keen to keep up to date records and information we only have one more farmer to restock now and then thats everyone it will probably work out at about 15 drop in work etc while waiting for interherd to load they were telling me that they had been approached asking them if they wanted to appeal against the amount of money they had received for the cattle they said they wouldnt as they felt they had already been overpaid not all farmers are money grabbers apparently friday daughter starts her mock exams now for the next fortnight i have been waiting for the moods to start but as yet all is quiet long may it last she is very calm about it and has actually been revising quite hard she has the ability all she has to do is concentrate work wise ive done not a lot its one of the perks ive wandered around just playing doing nice jobs quite a change week beginning 9th december monday 9th december daughter s 16th birthday scary even worse she can learn to drive next year never mind enjoy the safety we went out for lunch and did some shopping it was good i dont normally like shopping but we both enjoyed it came back to mayhem a client small animal had been in complaining about his bill and had caused a stink anyway i phoned him and once we had gone through everything he seemed happy hopefully he had either misunderstood or hadnt had things explained to him although difficult it is better people say something rather than stewing over it and making it into something its not the small animal does seem to have more problems that way than the large animal i suppose the large animal is also a business but it doesnt stop them caring i dont think they could do what they do and work the hours they work if they didnt care sometimes they get a hard press but i think its the few that get the publicity unfortunately i like it when farmers phone to say they have a sick cow and we ask what its doing and quite often the reply is shes just not herself need you say anymore tuesday im going out to play milk recording with a new person via interherd he is one of our clients he is quite a character old fashioned and yet in his thirties it was good he is very passionate about farming and its survival he has a lot of ideas he wants to try with different cows he has just bought some jerseys hence he wants to record to see if there are benefits we milked 60 cows in 2 hours at my other farm we milk 190 in that time its good to see both ways weds early morning milk recording good fun a lot more relaxed than my other farm went to hairdressers straight after smelling of cows with pooh in my hair its a good job i know her well and she didnt complain too much the rest of the day was quite pleasant a bit of paperwork and a skive sorry cant spell to the lab thursday friday wow i think we had our christmas rush they should all be shopping it has been very busy i do prefer it although a sit down now and then would be good me and nurse had a good time on friday afternoon i helped her bath and groom a dog it was so naughty nicely we were both sweating buckets and soaked to the skin by the end but we had a good laugh week beginning 16th december monday 16th december with daughter s mock exams she has needed runs to and from school at various times so mums taxi has been on overtime she has been very calm about it so we shall see thursday was eventful as i now have an expectant nurse and vet watch where you sit unfortunately there is a worry for both of them our nurse evening receptionist is worried she may be losing hers and has had several tests and is obviously worried she is going in for a scan on tuesday so fingers crossed vet is also pregnant they have been trying for a while but has something with a long name wrong with her which causes her to miscarriage so she is pleased worried excited scared and only 4 weeks so no lambing for her she is quite happy continuing with all other work for now i hope everything is ok with them both it can be difficult working with animals and being pregnant but as long as they are careful they should be ok week beginning 23rd december monday 23rd december so much for getting quiet for christmas we have had our busiest time for a few years which is good we are going to try advertising in the new year for a new vet especially now another vet is expecting it will all depend how she does we may even need two as even when another vet is on duty now husband has to be on standby in case of any lambings we have a couple of farmers starting anytime milk recording tonight as well but we now do it with nmr well not literally so i only need record once so not too bad and worked in will with xmas round the corner and no mince pies made yet tuesday nurse phoned they are being positive at the moment her hormone levels have increased and she has not bled anymore it doesnt stop them worrying though surgery was busy but we did finish by 130pm my sister and niece arrived all set off we go christmas was ace very relaxing good fun loads of pressies didnt have time to eat too busy playing and it was so warm friday back to work a very busy day lots of calls and surgery appointments even some operations receptionist was off so i was in charge i enjoyed it finding out what everyone got for christmas week beginning 30th december monday 30th december busy day only me and receptionist in thought it would be quiet wrong never mind we coped tuesday nurse has lost her baby or is losing it they cant see anything on the scan just an empty sac so she is going for a dont know what they call it but you can take some tablets that clear everything away she is obviously so upset what do you say shes going to drop her other two off while she goes in it is so sad thursday 2nd january everybodys back again full crew no one knowing what day it is i could get used to the split weeks but at the moment i need it stuck to my head quite busy as well which is good trying to arrange tt test but farmers are never keen on them you have to threaten them with defra coming to do it that works friday went blood sampling sheep for scrapie with husband all day it was a beautiful day very cold but we had fun only we were stood next to a stream women torture cold air and running water i had to nip back to the van for various things by the time we finished i was frozen the test was part of the national scrapie plan which is to sample sheep for scrapie so if or when they find bse in sheep these ones will or should be okay as there is a plan to slaughter the national herd if bse is found but as the farmer said they have already had human g pigs for years as the indians eat sheep brains and before the removal of bone meal and very dubious scabby sheep and they have not had a problem so we will wait and see week beginning 6th january 2003 mon 6th january 2003 our new nurse started today she managed very well and didnt seem too confused when she went home she has worked in kennels before she is very keen fingers crossed another vet is doing her dbr and for part of this she has to do a study she has decided to look at progesterone and other levels in cows post calving for 6 weeks to see what happens so we collect a sample from each new calved cow and split it into 3 smaller pots and freeze awaiting testing in holland very exciting but quite boring the results should be interesting though hopefully tuesday you forget all the explaining you have to do when somebody new starts so me and nurse have written a step by step guide to c well sort of its all the little things we havent had a new nurse for a while so hopefully the book can be used for other new people it took a bit of doing but we were pleased with it in the end i spoke to mr g re having interherd at the farm all i have to do now is get round to see him he is very hard to pin down but well try weds new nurse liked her new book she is doing very well and its nice for us too i always find it quite refreshing when someone is genuinely enthusiastic with us all being close and having their own areas its good to show someone else but can be scary when you see just how much they all do thursday milk pot day again today the good thing is going to pick up the samples as you get a natter so monday and thursday the samples are collected split and frozen its quite time consuming and ive just realised i didnt ask another vet how long she was doing it for friday we have decided to try and get the accounts up to date to see how things are going bar not being able to find a vet so its one of those jobs you always mean to keep on top of but never quite manage because its not much fun interruptions queries and assistance were very welcome but i got a good start week beginning 13th january monday 13th jan a has started working with us again just two days a week this will help a lot and help take the pressure off for surgery times etc i got to spend the day helping with tt testing it was good fun and it stayed fine it was a good day tuesday i had a milk recording day today 3 in total we have started using nmr now so it was all new paperwork etc this is going to be cheaper for the farmers and works with the interherd programme anyway it all went well and everybodys samples got away weds milk recorded again at one of the three farms first thing everytime i go he has a new plan as to how to make some money this month it is he is going to produce a new breed of cow a jersey x mri so we will see how that goes thursday and friday just catching up on paperwork me and nurse did some training with the new nurse she is settling in really well and very keen week beginning 20th january monday 20th january weds decorated our bedroom it looks brill it was in desperate need of it i like decorating its good and messy thursday i went on my brucellosis testing training course at the vlc it was good fun this means that after i have now tested 150 cattle i get a licence which will enable me to blood test this in turn will hopefully free up a vet it will also give defra a bank of blood tester for any future outbreak crafty they used to charge about 800 for this course miraculously its now free clever friday we have had a reply to our advert hoorah well actually two they are both foreign one is in germany and the other s africa so we are waiting for their cvs fingers crossed defra have now changed the 20 day standstill to 6 days the general opinion seemed to be so it would be interesting to actually find out if and how well all the regulations are actually working not well i feel would be the answer week beginning 27th january mon weds very busy i seem to have spent a lot of it in my car dropping off tooing and froing which was nice but i do lose touch with the happenings at the surgery and on tuesday things had obviously got fraught so i sorted those out and smoothed the creases we are very lucky to have such dedicated staff due to vet shortage and another vet s pregnancy it does add extra pressure to everyone none of the incidents were very serious and easily sorted thursday i went with my sister to take niece to the hospital as since she was born she has had a lump on the side of her head above her eye so they xrayed it that was fun persuading her to lie still i stayed overnight and came back friday week beginning 3rd february monday 3rd feb i did my first blood sample on a live cow today as it was an abortion enquiry and due to another vet s pregnancy she is not doing them ad i need the practice it was good fun and i hit the 2nd time so i was very pleased only another 145 to go before i get my licence tuesday i completed the accounts today to go to the accountants it was great fun i hope they come up with good news but the future is worrying a backlash from the farmers not being confident weds i cant remember if i told you vet was expecting anyway she went for her first scan today and so far so good it is very worrying as she has a problem where she produces duff eggs and miscarriages she wants to carry on as normal as possible for now but no sheep or abortions etc i hop it works this time as this is her 4th attempt thursday and friday very nice everything worked well no mad rushes time to catch up we discussed reducing some of the farm drugs as they are able to buy the over the internet with a prescription all the laws and rules will more than likely be changing at the beginning of march due to a report done for the govt regarding drugs and animal use it will make a difference to how we operate as if they remove the vet surgeons right to prescribe drugs ie vets can only write prescriptions and not dispense drugs it could alter things completely one way or another if farmers require the service they are going to have to pay for it up to now it has always been that a reasonable mark up is put on the drugs this is normally 50 and this will keep professional fees down if vets are not getting the money made on drugs and therefore has to put his fees up although the farmer may be buying his drugs cheaper via the internet will he actually save that much i wonder so anyway we have been getting more and more pressure from a number of our farmers to compete with the internet prices so we have selected a few products and it they pay at the time they can get about 20 off the price so watch this space and we will see what happens week beginning 10th february monday 10th feb the week to sum up a blur with both sad and very funny memories to start receptionist was on holiday and it always seems to happen as soon as someone is off we get very very busy when everyone is in it ticks along nicely mostly i do enjoy it when its busy but we worked 3 13 hour days not food but everyone worked really hard they are excellent staff on a sad note vet went for her 11 week scan on tuesday and the baby had died she was distraught she has a condition that causes this and this was her 4th miscarriage its so sad i called to see her and she just hugged me and cried what do you say she had to have some tablets to clear away the placenta etc she was gutted as this is the longest she had ever been pregnant and she thought shes cracked it its just so sad my funny tale for the week on a completely different note but helped immensely was other vet on thursday we were all very very busy and a farmer called in i was very behind they still had ops to do and this farmer settled herself down for a big chat normally if i say i have a lot on she departs but no not today it was obviously my turn vet came over from the op room and i know it was naughty but i wrote on a card can i have some help ie to free myself well instead of reading the note quietly oh no she read it out at the top of her voice and added what do you need help for after i had crawled out of the hole that had opened up in the earth to swallow me i pointed to the message book to try and hide my predicament while she said again loudly so what do you want help for well i gave up and decided to just fall into the hole got rid of vet back to the op room and continued alone with my predicament after the farmer had gone who thankfully seemed oblivious to what had happened i went in search of vet to kill her anyway it cheered us all up they do say laughter is the best medicine but i can think of better ways week beginning 17th february monday 17th feb vet who lost baby came back to work she is very upset and weepy everyone has been lovely with her hopefully it is just time and tlc we are very busy again and have had an enquiry from a farmer who is thinking of changing vets which is really good news that is three new farmers in total now if only we had enough vets four practices around carlisle have advertised recently and none of the positions have been filled its quite worrying tuesday i took vet who lost baby home again today she is not well and in a lot of pain so shes gone back to bed i hope shes feeling better soon usual day otherwise weds vet is a lot better today apparently they think it may be the cocodamol she was taking she was a lot happier a little drained but ok mr w came in today his cows are arriving on friday hopefully this will be our last farm to restock he has had a lot of alterations done to the farm and a new parlour so its quite exciting thursday we did some sheep exports for slaughter from longtown today the first of that sort of thing since fmd it was of course a bit of a faf as they now have to be retagged and checked so it takes a little longer in the afternoon i had a meeting with sr from university of reading she is planning to do research regarding the interherd programme and she had picked 3 vet practices to see how the programme helps the vets and the farmers work better together and the improvements it makes to the farmers record keeping so she is going to meet 3 of our farmers who use interherd and interview them and give them free training so that should please them fri day off me and daughter went to newcastle shopping im not a good shopper but i did behave and we had a good day mr ws cows arrived all fit and healthy so that is us complete now ass we were if not better sad news though we heard one of our farmers dropped down dead suddenly it was very sad as we had seen him in the morning and he was his normal self so it was quite a shock his family must be devastated mind if theres a good way to go thats it week beginning 24th february monday 24th feb another vet a lot better today almost back to her normal cheery self she is a lot more positive we took the bull by the horns so to speak and reduced the prices of some drugs we will have to wait until the 10th march before we find out what the government is going to do regarding the selling of drugs but the farmers are very pleased tuesday i got another phone call from mr c and he said he would like to change vets to us so good news husband spoke to his old vet and explained why etc it is very difficult and i think that in the future there may be more changing of vets where as in the past it never happened but even farmers appreciate competition now it again is worrying milk recorded at mr g tonight its always good crack as they say weds milk recorded early morning and then showed them the interherd programme they are going to try it i think in the afternoon i went with other vet to vet a horse for purchase it can be tricky sometimes and two pairs of eyes are better than one as it turned out the horse was lame so we couldnt vet it so we will have to go back another day thursday normal day did some more sheep exports in the afternoon they have a very efficient system at longtown so it makes it a lot easier fri i went to farmer s funeral this morning it was very sad i dont like funerals well i dont suppose anyone does but it stayed fine and he had a good send off in the afternoon i got an opportunity to do some more blood sampling just 15 so it was good its getting used to handling everything and forgetting youre at the end that shits and kicks no broken limbs and i got blood week beginning 3rd march mon 3rd march i went to help a tt test in the morning just taking numbers we now have 4 farms on restrictions due to tb reactors but up to now on the cows taken for further tests no lesions have been fund we now get to do the repeat 60 day test on the farms now as defra cant keep up sounds familiar we saw the accountant in the afternoon we had sent 9 months of accounts to him as we need to see how the practice was now doing anyway it was not as bad as we thought but the income is down but is slowly growing the main problem is farmers wont call out for sick cows now they will leave it longer or try to treat them themselves mainly due to them watching their spending mr w had a problem with his interherd he needed to run his extensification figures and they didnt add up so i spent the rest of the day trying to figure out why i think i know why it was how he set it up initially so it may need his entry dates changed tues went tt testing again this morning it was a lovely morning i spent the rest of the day sorting mr ws problem out and it worked he was chuffed the good is i think i now understand extensifications weds caught up on some paperwork in the morning i helped new nurse with a dog grooming in the afternoon which was fun she is doing really well and seems to be enjoying it we both ended up soaked thanks to the dog but it looked loads better when it went home good news we get a new vet from south africa starting 1403 he worked over here during fmd and met someone and their relationship has lasted hence he wants a job in carlisle so bingo here comes a holiday thursday friday very busy in the practice everyone kept going we have a great team and they really come into their own when its busy i love the way everyone pulls together they are very dedicated week beginning 10th march monday quiet day for a monday but the weather has been nice so they are all out playing but we had quite a few lambings to do thats one thing that has changed since fmd prior to fmd we hardly used to do any lambings for farmers but since we now do far more last year we put it down to them having new stock but it seems to be the same this year tuesday today is milk recording day i have 3 recordings today they all need boxes and paperwork i dont have to help at any of the milkings though which is good as they are quite a way from each other but a nice day for a drive weds thurs fri the end of our weeks seem to be busier than the beginnings at the moment it has been non stop one disadvantage when it is so busy is you dont have the time to chat as often i took some drugs to a farm our last one to restock as he was having alterations done it was amazing to see the transformations he had made to the farm all geared to one person being able to do more alone with more cows interesting week beginning 17th march mon tuesday i went with another vet to mr cs for his tt and blood test another vet did the tt and i did the blood as part of my lay blood testers licence i needed to do 150 which i managed it was good fun and the weather was great we had to spread it over 2 days due to the amount of cattle it was really good practice for me and i think ive cracked it now there are talks about giving tt testing to lay people but quite how and when is anyones guess weds more blood testing today ive really cracked it now only ive discovered muscles in my arms i didnt know i had i enjoy the blood testing sad isnt it thursday i had a morning with alco waste management sorting out all the clinical waste regulations and they need more detail of what actually goes in our waste we always provided a free service to farmers for disposing of sharps and old drug and empty drugs etc but we are going to have to start charging now it is now 100 dearer a month than it was fri me and husband spent the morning looking at fees income etc and seeing where we can increase fees to help cover if we lose the right to dispense drugs to farmers which we still havent heard about to continue as we are we will have to make the difference up its just how week beginning 24th march monday doing the paperwork for a tt test it was a beautiful day i do enjoy doing this especially when the weathers good and they are very nice farmers i also get to spend the day with husband which makes a change although we work together we dont often get to see much of each other tuesday busy day spent most of it making sure everything got done and helping out weds i went to the careers convention at the sands centre it was very busy and we had a lot of interest but a long day before going someone phoned to say there was a collie dog running around on the roundabout so me and new nurse went to see if we could catch it well it didnt want caught but i was really worried it got onto the motorway so we phoned the police and the dog warden who incidentally couldnt come until 9am as he didnt start til then so i had to politely explain that he would have to be the police dog handler wasnt much help but at least he stopped the traffic bless him the dog warden did appear 5 minutes later and it was only 830 am so we managed to get the dog off the roundabout and catch it everyone safe thankfully thurs fri busy days new vet from south africa phoned so hes coming to see us on monday to pick up his vehicle and meet everyone he sounds pleasant so we will see my joke at the moment when people ask where we found him is that we got him off the internet it is a little worrying not having met him first but it should work watch this space week beginning 31st march monday we have had l staying for two weeks shes a vet student from london and stayed with us about this tine last year it was interesting to go over the changes from a year ago last time she was here people were restocking and there was an element of wariness so it was interesting to fill her in on how things are now one thing she mentioned was noticing the stock in the fields was nice as there were only a few still last year talking over things is still hard sometimes although it seems a long time ago the feelings and emotions are still deep certain parts can still hit a raw nerve there seems to be a mere anger at the moment generally people and farmers are wanting to know why they still have restrictions what is going to happen about shows and sales etc and will normality ever return unfortunately i think not not in the way they want it to tuesday our new vet started today we got on very well it has taken us so long to find a vet and if the work and testing carries on increasing we are going to need another one wednesday very busy day husband s gone to talk at a bcva conference and agm so poor new vet has been thrown in at the deep end it has been very busy but he seems to be coping well the clients were very impressed so far so long may it last it is good to have new staff with new ideas i quite enjoy it and he is definitely a big hit with the female clients it really does make you embarrassed to be female when they go into the consulting room you count to 4 and then comes the girlie giggle quite funny thursday sad day today my sister had been confirmed as having cervical cancer no more on that for now friday had another interherd sale today one thing fmd has forced on farmers is the need for efficient records and interherd is brilliant at that its so clever one of our farmers who has had it for a while and has 120 milking cows now does all his daily records in 5 10 minutes cant be bad week beginning 7th april monday busy day new vet is settling in really well and coping fine if we carry on at this rate we will need another vet a lot of it depends on how much more testing we are going to get and what happens with commission report into dispensing drugs tuesday sr came today from uni of reading who own the interherd program we went round some of the farmers that used it and helped sort out any queries it was a good day i learnt a lot and the farmers found it useful too she said she would come again later in the year so i think we might try and organise for them all to come to the practise for a chat wednesday did some interherd training with one of the farmers wives we said just an hour as she wasnt fully computer literate anyway 4 hours later she had well and truly got the hang of it she was very keen and i really enjoyed it thursday friday they blur into one as it has been so busy everyone has been flat out we are going to start the vet advertising again and another nurse receptionist week beginning 14th april monday got caught up today sorted out all the queries quite pleased with my self tuesday went to a local nursery to talk about vets to 3 year olds i was quite dreading it but thankfully it was great they were really good i took some dressing up clothes and x ray instruments and teddy bears and they operated and had a really good time one of them asked me if all the cows and sheep were better and did they still have funny feet and mouths week beginning 21st april tuesday wednesday quite busy days and a lot to catch up on we all went away with sister and niece this weekend to husband s mum and dads caravan we had a great time sister s biopsy off rest of week week beginning 28th april monday three farmers milk recording today and tomorrow so busy dropping pets and paperwork off advertised for a vet today fingers crossed off for two weeks helping sister to move interviewed a nurse receptionist she is perfect and experienced she wrote a letter in as her husbands job had brought them to the area so she starts 12th may i wish it was as easy finding a vet week beginning 12th may monday our new girlie started today she is very keen and capable she has done really well even with the computer system that she was dreading tuesday busy day also 2x milk recordings so a bit of hollering about i was thinking it is about a year we have had now of normal work everyone new appears to be getting on with it as the saying goes everyone bears a scar and has a story to tell and realise it is not the same but how could it be weds fri quite busy but capable at work daughter got the job for the training in her m apprentice course so she is over the moon its all a new learning curve you suddenly realise she is growing up getting a job and leaving school unfortunately this morning daughter has decided she doesnt want to leave full time education yet and is worried about the job she is wanting to do a business course at a college so all change again we have had bid discussions and are going to go down to connexions next week sat yf young farmers field day today i love these days it is amazing the effort and enjoyment that makes it such a good day there is also such a high standard in all the classes i admire the enthusiasm of the young farmers and just hope they can survive somehow week beginning 19th may monday we have found the course daughter wants to do at college thanks to connexions the bad news is it is not done locally she could do a local course but it would be wasted time to some extent big discussions most of the week we have found they do the course in blackburn and preston my sister and mum live down there and are more than happy for her to move in i just dont know if i am ready to let her go but ill have to be a big girl about it we have sent application forms off so will have to wait and see now and try and get used to it weds really good evening at penrith re the discussion it was so good to talk to the other diarists and realise and be able to relate so closely to what they said it was poignant to see what other people had written and interesting to see what you had done so far with the data collected it would be brilliant to hand to any future study or enquiry as it is proof surely not all these people could be wrong and to have so many diarists start and finish is amazing im sure it can be used for so many different topics amazing i am personally very proud to have been a part of it and although sometimes i have wondered if what i was writing was any use i can see now how it comes together than you all for the opportunity shame not in better circumstances it has helped me more than i originally realised but thinking back it was all unbelievable and not something i would like to repeat i am ever the optimist or so im told and do believe or hope things and farming can recover not fully but enough to be able to show other people what a wonderful life it is hard but special week beginning 26th may never stopped on tuesday after bank holiday so busy new vet is settling in now but his girlfriend cant find a job so thats a bit worrying he may leave sooner than expected oh no not advertising again the rest of the week was uneventful really ticked along nicely we met up with some friends on wednesday evening who holiday in the lakes each year so it was nice to see them again we had a good evening we were also out on thursday night with a drug rep very nice meal and they have offered to pay for husband bri catt vet ass meeting in amsterdam in october so that was very nice business link have also offered to help us get a consultant in to see if they have any ideas for improving maybe they can find vets too all in all quite an exciting week week beginning 2nd june the exams have started everyone warns to beware but daughter is very laid back about it all too much i feel but as long as she does her best i went to the accountants to look at the books for the end of year so far not quite finished yet and thankfully we wont be needing income support this year it is so much better more regulation but nothing we cant cope with honest week beginning 9th june daughter had an interview at blackburn college it wasnt a very nice place but then im not going preston is on the 25th so she will decide after that niece had her ct scan for her head that was eventful and lisa and her naughty jelly babies zapped all went well but she was a bit sore after week beginning 23rd june monday went tt testing with another vet today it was a retest due to them having a reactor it was a good day they are nice people there is a father and 2 sons during fmd i had a phone call one night and this was just someone crying on the end of it i didnt know what to say and i wasnt sure who it was but i just spoke about mainly silly things i cant really remember what but didnt get much of a response just yes and nos and i thought i recognised the voice as being the father we were with today anyway during lunch which we had at the farm we were chatting and of course got into fmd and he thanked me it took aback but he said he had appreciated me waffling on it was the night of the day his cows had been shot and he had phoned to let us know but he said he just broke down and couldnt say anything anyway he laughed because he said he was going to hang up but he couldnt get word in edgeways because i was wittering but he said he did feel a bit better after so we had a good heart to heart tuesday caught up on my paperwork and sorted some bits and pieces out weds took daughter to preston college for an interview it was good and seems a nice place i cant believe she will be leaving home at the end of august very scary im really going to have to be a big girl about it thursday we went to visit business link to discuss some more things and they are hopefully going to help us pay a firm of consultants to help us out to see how we can improve and move the practice on so thats exciting fri went milk recording first thing so that was good fun after recording i had to collect one of our elderly clients and her dog that was coming for an operation the lady is 92 and her and the dog are very close so she wanted to stay with her until she was sedated so she was pleased she could come with her the girls all laugh at me because i have quite a few little old ladies who we visit and keep a check on their pets week beginning 30th june not a lot of excitement at all this week we have been kept going and i caught up on paperwork we are going to my sisters this week end to start sorting her spare bedroom for daughter week beginning 7th july mon spent the morning explaining to our newest girlie about interherd and how to work it this will enable her to help me on the data entry side we also had a little trip out around some of the farms that record with us to give her an idea of where they are tuesday went exporting sheep today they all had to be retagged it was quite warm not much fun ill maybe get new girl to do exporting weds 2 milk recordings today so quite busy with bottles and sheets and things and they are both in the opposite direction to each other never mind it was a nice day for driving about thursday we have got a new vet to replace vet from sa she seems very lovely she is going to start on 40803 we used an agency and it has proved worthwhile we worked out that rather than paying for endless adverts we would give it a go and it seems to have worked so thats exciting fri we went car hunting today as if we all go out at the week end it becomes a bit crushed and sometimes we end up taking two vehicles so we have really splashed out rightly or wrongly and bought a new crv truck its very posh so we get that on 210703 week beginning 14th july monday person from the interherd office came up to see us and we visited a few of our farmers that are on interherd between them and nmr they have really tried with providing quality and cost effective equipment that is helpful to the farmers you can now use interherd in some milking parlours which is really useful tues we went to see a horse with a cough and after treating the pony we were chatting and they have converted a small barn into a camping hostel their farm is along hadrians wall and since having foot and mouth and doing the barn up they have nearly covered their costs they still have a few stock but not as many mr i was saying how his father used to milk about 25 cows and be able to make a good living from that its amazing the difference weds we got a new payroll package today so i spent most of my day trying to understand it i was very bog eyed by the end but i think i understand it and it seems to work well and should be a lot easier and quicker thursday busy day there were lots of ops and farm calls a couple of farmers have been asking about prescriptions as soon they will be able to get their drugs from anywhere a lot have said they appreciate they have to pay for the service one way or another and are happy to carry on as they have been doing we will lose money to some extent but how much remains to be seen and we will have to cope friday off went to see westlife with daughter
## 4 information about diarist date of birth 1963 gender m occupation group 6 geographic region north cumbria saturday 9th march 2002 an old african proverb states the best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago the next best time is now i should have started this diary over a year ago to keep track of changes in the unrolling of the fmd epidemic and my feelings towards it today is probably a good day to start the diary as i was about to sit down after a really bad week to write some comments for the lessons learned inquiry and thought i should check the web site for an update i found out to my considerable annoyance that the inquiry was coming to cumbria to meet with defra and hold the open meeting on tuesday night and if you wanted a ticket to attend then you had to apply by a week ago the overall impression is that the govt do not want to learn lessons i was looking after kids as wife was on counselling course and i was on call sat morn the vets were busy so i ended up taking children into vets with me they watched videos in the waiting room while i sorted out and consulted coming down with cold after spending friday tb testing on restocking farm but at least i managed to avoid getting kicked and crushed the farm hand who is one of the hard lads of wigton refused to get in with the fat bulls to test them after getting floored by a kick if the f ministry want them f tested they can f coming and etc etc i am putting in a letter to say why they were not tested to see response didnt get finished on farm till 545 pm having started with a caesarean at 5 30ammust be an easier way to make a living the farming economy is bizarre at the moment he has silage in heaps all over the farm so instead of feeding straw which is incredibly expensive 70 ton he is feeding the better quality silage and the calves are all too big there are 30 to calve so a few nights work there where ever i go on farms the stories that farmers are wanting to get off their chest about the maff incompetence and inconsistency is bewildering there is a lot of anger out there i went to do the restocking sentinel visit for mg l fm he is usually the most laid back of guys but he told them he was bringing his cattle on and he would see them in court why are we doing sentinel visits to a farm that had fmd 11 months ago the virus only lives a month sunday mothering sunday kids had all got presents and cards for mum they brought them all in with a breakfast tray very cute but pear juice all over the carpet tim and i spent sat night baking a chocolate cake for her which meant i hadnt got lunch never mind church was ps speaking on characters walking with god and talking about abraham setting off with out knowing where he is going maybe i should follow suit with large animal vetting being reduced to tb testing and caesareans the evening service was really lively with hp from austria about turning every hour over to god now that is what i should do g r called around sun afternoon he is pessimistic about fertiliser sales there is that much land and grass around and the govt grants for extensification new regulations on nitrates is giving him a headache though as he points out it is not fertiliser that cause the problems as they are used by grass but by phosphates and slurry organics lough neigh has real problems with algal blooms and they are blaming fertiliser but so has bassenthwaite but there is not any fertiliser spread on the fells so is it really agriculture monday read test and was very glad it was clear as the farm of origin of one of batches has gone down with tb more testing after lunch organic farm they have just had their first pay check 23p per litre they were promised 36p when they started to convert 2 years ago who would be in agriculture desperately behind in admin with vets and home but at least the clinical work pays tuesday caught up on a lot of admin as back to 6 vets for day 2 cows aborting on restocking farm more disease rota still for 5vets yuk the evening open meeting poorly attendee due to poor publicity i am only local practitioner i phoned around no one had been invited or had seen advance publicity and we all feel that they are not interested and that they will not listen some moving testimony and the bullying culture came through and the frustration and anger that comes from dealing with a faceless bureaucracy distant in london 11 million animals 2000 farms in cumbria businesses wrecked lives wrecked a crisis turned into a disaster by bureaucratic incompetence and political considerations i am pleased i went i feel that it is like a sense of closure the funeral so to speak the end and i spoke with wife when i got back i feel i can lay the past down and look to the future weds day off k a for lunch and sort out finances etc and write diary everyone is saying about this time last year and glad that fmd is finished went to see grease the school production it was very well done brought back memories of 6th form thurs 300 pages of a4 waiting for me in my in tray courtesy of defra are they mindless or what rang to speak to ah but only got hold of n and told her it was out of order i should get my blood pressure measured as some one says defra stupid idiots so much for closure i feel very frustrated if this is the future of farm practice anal glands here we come who said a vets life aint glamorous managed to calm down and get the next 2 weeks of testing organised it is a good job that we are organising it as trying to get folk on the phone is nt easy workload picking up and managed to persuade gg to advertise even if only at tvi hq all of the local practices who have advertised have had very few if any responses we are busy but with defra work spent time singing grease songs much to nurses amusement did restocking visit at lynedraw they gave me a look around it is amazingly clean because even after pressure washing the spiders usually make a come back but the buildings are sterile and no cobwebs or insect life which usually abounds even in empty buildings weird there will be a lot of flies next year news that pi has headship of nelson thom and so we can expect the discipline to improve again friday curry and quiz at the boys school very cosmopolitan for cumbria it was good fun and the kids enjoyed it but we were useless on the photos for which you definitely need a tv spent time chatting to local gp who which was interesting they have a place for their son at nelson thom but he isnt keen saturday 16th march working this w e and on call friday night so had an early start with a caser on ewe a lambing hurray things are getting back to normal even if it is a dutch beltex the farmer is really fed up and wants ah to be sacked as he threatened to kill all his recently imported dutch sheep as the paper work was not right they had come and blood sampled them and then sent the results to his brother who is still under form a and then refused him permission to move any of the sheep off because he shouldnt have any because he was on form a and what were the blood results for defra would be a joke if it wasnt so serious oh and after my complaint about them deluging us with paper yes you guessed it they sent another 7 x 20 sheets of a4 idiots aw is in a tiz and so had to get help in sat morning which was a shame but hey ho she is not coping with the post fmd constant changing of the goal posts went to susan ians for another curry and had a really good time and have decided to phase out house group which was coming hopefully low moor will set up a 3rd house group for wigton hebron is going to change to new outlook groups sun never managed to get to church as calls all day beautiful day though the weather has really picked up must get garden sorted and seeds planted a came out on call this evening it is one good point that this job does allow the kids to join with me she is really growing up she wanted to go to cinema but as wife was late and weather good she came back here and they walked the dog and wound up the boys mon early morning call to see a farmer who is a scrap metal dealer who hates authority he therefore didnt want anyone on his land during fmd and refused access to maff and me while i was working there he caused real problems and had his gun removed by police he was handled badly and is a rogue the more colourful rumour was that the real reason for not allowing anyone on was the amount of smuggled cigarettes was too great to hide he also runs a fishery shellfish enterprise that is on the beach at odd times he was found guilty and fined 350 for his trouble but never paid because he went bust as everything is in his wife and kids names this is all unsubstantiated rumour but quite amusing when push comes to shove the ministry could do nothing with out the cooperation of the farmers the vet students have arrived and i feel a bit guilty about not having them to stay but i feel i still need space at the moment so they are making do with the royal oak prayer quad with the lads which was good i still has not got stuff for magazine and spent time praying tues the dates important cos its my birthday 39 today the kids all brought presents in and had breakfast in bed it was really nice the number of ordinary calls to ill animals is increasing rapidly went to 2 new restocking farms today i think one a day is probably enough they were both full of stories about the ministry and wanted to unload to some one who understood the first was particularly upsetting in that i was admiring his new parlour and set up that he has put in while waiting the 4 months he was then talking about all the animals getting slaughtered and his wife was fighting back tears she is also very unsure about whether they are doing the right thing by investing in the new parlour she is very unsure about the future and as they are both reaching 50 is it the right thing to be doing unfortunately i think she is right but i couldnt say that and made reassuring noises as they have spent the money and it is too late now the future for dairy is not good the price is going to continue to be at world prices which with the current exchange rate is uneconomic in the uk the second farm was sheep with drop and they were grazing over the burial site as they had planted carrots and turnips on the surrounding field i couldnt listen to another set of woes as i was still upset from the first lot so kept conversation light and on sheep weds i never realised that fmd is like any other grief there are anniversaries to get through and fears and barriers to be put to rest i was on a farm to give certificates to 2 heifers sold in calf they were all saying it was a year to the day that fmd hit the village the ai fellow was there as well and he was talking about what he had been doing he was saying that he thinks it will be years before everybody returns to normal he is revisiting farms where he was helping with the slaughter for the ai and was saying he had to take a deep breath every time he returns to one of these farms there was a partners meeting at lunchtime as usual aw turned up late but finally decided to advertise to see whether there are vets out there who will come to work in fmd country it is a bit frustrating as i foresaw that we would be busy and we could have nabbed d before longtown but gg ever cautious we went completely around in circles trying different options but as with everything else the only prediction we can make is that we know that we dont know so much depends on govt decisions on supply of pharmaceuticals to farms and on the future of the svs state vet service for who we usually do 15 of our farm work for and currently do 50 for thursday tomorrow i will get a lunch break this is my resolution have not managed to stop for lunch this week yet as farm calls keep coming in and partners meeting today was geckos bums and goose bums rectal prolapses variety is the spice of life also had much laughter over watching norman in the bath jgs tortoise which has come out of hibernation early and is anorexic much clunking and bumping 2 lambings and cow caesaer after hours so busy on call it was also the last house group so it was end of an era we have been having them in our house for the past 6 years with different folk and have had god speak to us and to others through it but it is time to move on friday started with another caeaser and early morning start and didnt get my lunch break time to reconsider things again had folk for dinner which had been arranged a long time ago it seemed like a good idea at time and was enjoyable but after a 14 hour day yesterday and a 10 hour one today i was not feeling life and soul of the party one couple are still trying to decide the future of their farm they are thought out progressive family farm and yet they are not convinced about what to do he finds it difficult to because there are three generations to consider his father would go out and buy stock tomorrow and his son wants to come home to work but they feel he should broaden his options very difficult he was also saying that he ha d helped a neighbour who flagged him down as he was going past he wanted help to move a cow that was down the last time he touched a cow it was when his own were slaughtered it knocked him off his stride for the rest of the day had a good time as when i looked at time was 1 o clock sat 23rd march wife went on her counselling course for day which left me a bit on edge this morning as i was on call sat am and looking after 4 kids but they managed with out me back sore and stiff as ive missed the gym but will go back on tues still managed to get a bit done in garden it was a great spring day and made me feel like summer was coming went to beckfoot to beach in the afternoon with kids evening went to bed early as shattered sun 24th back stiffer after gardening and went to church davidsons have moved into thursby so will be good to have them around and at school watched northbank beat stanwix u12 s 6 0 the boys played well and passed the ball around a lot son played well too must work less w es and watch the boys play more mon 25th looking forward to finishing on friday as another large test today started at 8 30am and finished at 6pm but at least it meant i was out the office and did not have to face any of the usual hassle factors it was good to see as the place is always well run and organised a real family farm with three generations working together but granddad at 75 still very much calling the shots the craic was good at lunch as their sister is friendly with my wife so i got custard with my rhubarb tart my wife doesnt like custard so i never get as i cannot be bothered to make it for one as the kids never have it and so are very conservative they were asking my view of the future too as they have sold bullocks privately ie not through the auction as they are on 21 day stand still and the price is poorer than selling via the auction defra will not allow any trade through an auction if the farms are on standstill why if they are dead in24hrs there is minimal risk and they are putting everyones backs up tues 26th went for my first visit to another restocked farm and during the 4 month waiting as well as visit new zealand he has made a sandstone plaque 3ft by 4 ft and carved on the date they went down with fmd and the number of cattle it is almost a head stone type memorial the cow had digestive problems a right displaced abomasums rda probably due to the transit and change in diet weds 27th small animal day and trying to get everything organised for going away finalised advert in vet record for new assistant lots of adverts but no applicants all the local practices are advertising and there are no takers i hope it is because there is a shortage and not from lack of confidence in the area defra havent paid us for a lot of visits and that needs sorted they have no record of the visits i e they have lost the claim forms in the mountain of paper work they will only pay on the originals as if there are duplicates they will probably pay on those as well being that well organised they are really slipping back into their old ways of paper chasing the frustration without and within is palpable i should just quit as i will be a civil servant once removed unless things change the secretarys are both on fmd funded computer courses so digging out the paper work will have to wait thurs 28th demob happy just the test to read and i am off for 10 days the test was clear but very busy as a locum came for a look around to see if he would do sa for several days a week any help i think will be a help good friday missed out on church as one of the boys through a complete wobbler he is not very well just tired at end of term i hope then went walking with family and friends i must learn to shoot him down when he says it is a little scramble what he means is its too dangerous for kids but it was fun and we enjoyed it the weather was glorious and the fells were crowded tourism is back went up over sharp edge to blencathra kids as well holiday sat 6th april came back on the late boat from belfast and arrived in to wigton late the grandparents were sad to see us go but i think they had also found us all quite tiring the kids have enjoyed playing squash so that is something i would like to continue sun 7th april beautiful frosty morning and went to church where the speaker arrived much to ss relief just as he was announcing the last song before the sermon i think he was wondering what he would say instead of the prepared sermon went to son s foot ball cup match this is 10 year olds we are talking about and the referee was making several bad decisions including a dubious penalty against his team northbank the crowd well about 30 of us which for his team is a big crowd was getting a bit restless robbie was sprinting down the wing in front of his dad and me when he was sent flying by one of their team his dad then shouted ref if you gave a penalty for them for nothing you could at least give us a foul for that at which point the ref blew his whistle and came across and thumped him the whole thing was about to descend in to a brawl as i and another parent were trying to restore calm by telling everyone to walk away which they did followed by the northbank kids game abandoned so we await the fas report so with that and the carlisle manager being sacked and the knightons trading insults with the prospective buyer for carlisle the future of football in carlisle is not looking good mon 8th last day off for sorting out vcf magazine and getting up to date with paper work etc did carrock fell where we did not see another walker it was sunny and cold but beautiful at night went to crusaders area meeting where they are trying to get some one to arrange area events for kids and to support the group structure there is no one who has the time and no funding to appoint a post to do it so went around in circles too a large degree but meeting decided to try and raise the funding tues 9th feel like i should have handed in notice after today it was awful going back the response to the advert for a new vet now stands at 2 students who have yet to qualify i had harry giving me grief over the fact that defra promised him that we would test his cattle prior to turn out i e end of march but havent told us very helpful his allocation has not even come through they are useless i was at one farm that has half restocked because the parlour is not yet restored the heifers are calving and he is milking into a dump bucket and throwing the milk away he cant get more stock in because he is waiting testing for brucellosis as his heifers were on the same farm as the french heifer that went down he wanted to bring them direct to his own farm they would not let him bring the heifers to his own farm because the paper work was not through and they not would allow multiple drop offs idiots so with high levels of frustration and complete overload it has not been a good start back tomorrow i must see what is hiding in my in tray as i never had a chance to look today weds 10th quieter day and managed to catch up with paper work and have had a lot of next week mapped out so feel more in control night work seems to be easing with fewer lambings students seem to be enjoying their time with us even though there is too little time to actually teach them but it is a luxury to have time to go through cases with them as we take them on a voluntary basis and at the moment lunch is a higher priority than their education im a selfish brat thurs 11th spoke too soon chaotic again managing workload with so much fire brigade work is not so easy fire brigade work is the emergency work that needs seen urgently ie today if not now son isnt so well again he tired easily again today so must make an appointment for him but very vague signs fri 12th half day finish yo i could really get into a 3 and a half day week the down side is it is because my wife is going away for the w e so i have to be finished by 3 15 for kids as i want to have the people carrier i also have to muck out my car it is not as bad since fmd another positive contribution that fmd has made to my life i actually feel morally obliged to keep my car from being a biohazard ok i still needed a wheelie bin to through all the post it notes and bits of cardboard and the excessive packaging that surrounds any medical product that seems to find its way on to the back seat of my car i always remember reading a sunday paper article about what cars different people drove and what they had lying around in the back seat and what this showed about their personality im sure that they would have had a field day with my car you use to be able to tell farm vets cars from a mile off but they have all gone clean and shiny sat 13th april a week end off and the thought of a saturday morning lie in unfortunately there is a football tournament in carlisle today 9am start so up as usual and get into town but managed to get to staples which i have been trying to do since my birthday to spend my birthday money the difference between men and boys is the size of their toys as my wife frequently reminds me so i am the proud owner of a digital camera the question is when will i find time to set it up took back all the library books and made the mistake of checking with the librarian who says we also have a talking book and another junior fiction well i thought it would have been lucky to get them all if they ever bring in fines for kids we are sunk how does my wife keep track of them all came home and enjoyed the good weather and fortunately the team bottomed out so didnt get into the next round v asked as she dropped other son off from the football where has wife gone as other son has said she was away at gruerly where is that she is away for a girlie w e so we had time for a family cycle ride out from kirkbride to the coast it was beautiful and we had a really good time came back via wigton for supplies as we are in desperate need of a tesco shop sunday 14th had an easy day and cooked with a for tomorrow as my wife is doing supply next week its ages since i have cooked even made scones church was a video sermon which was ok but different saw p he s back from nz so will have to arrange to catch up he was incredibly jet lagged it must be sunday cos everyones in church 36 hrs travelling wife arrived back from her week end away at capernwray having had a week end that sounded as if they had all gone back to their teenage years with midnight feasts and playing tricks on each other she was quite tired and pleased to have an early night mon 15th the diary has unfortunately died at this point and it is 3 weeks later and i am going back and filling in the details as i remember them it is probably the bits that are really important but as there is too much going on the diary has remained on my to do list together with my tax return and a small mountain of paperwork the reasons are varied but one of them is that my youngest lost his temper with the computer and slammed down the mouse this broke the left right bar so the pointer would only go up and down now the practice manager who learnt his computing in the dark ages of doss assures me you do not need a mouse to operate a computer but as i have enough problems trying to get the stupid machine to do what i want it to with a mouse forget trying shortcut keys and arrows so a new mouse was bought which the man assured my wife you just had to plug in and hey presto it would find a driver and work blank screens consult hand book try inserting disk try exploring disk try windows disk consult practice manager who as you may have gathered is my it guru he says you may need to install a driver if it doesnt work it will be on the disk i dont have a mouse to use to try to find and install a driver he assures me again you dont need a mouse i understand why my youngest son lost his temper with the stupid machine being the mature adult that i can some times be i walk away to cool off but dont feel like trying again for 24 hours with a new mouse which the man assured my wife you just had to plug in and hey presto it would find a driver and work plugged it in it said looking for driver installing driver and it worked why why not first time tuesday thursday riding lights went to see riding lights who are a christian theatre group who were performing at the senior school at night they were extremely funny and hard hitting and very pointed all at the same time it was a magazine of sketches on all sorts of different things modern interpretations of parables and bible stories sketches asking questions about society and how we view things very difficult to put into words but thought provoking on lots of levels sat 20th april to weds 24th april lost in the mists of time thursday 25th starting the diary again after having missed 10 days with too much going on the spring work is chaotic with a lot of problems we are trying to run the practice on 5 vets plus a part time locum instead of 7 full time at this time of year i had said we should have advertised and tried to get some one at xmas but the view was that falling milk price would mean less work but the defra tasting is more than making up for those who havent restocked and those who have gone out of dairy which brings us the most work but saying i told you so does not help so ill just keep my big mouth shut as the practice manager says the good old days when we new what the rota was going to be and we were not just making up it up as we went along we have had over a year of crisis management now the end must be nigh as this is a health survey apart from feeling pressure of work i am have also managed to catch ringworm on my leg a fungal infection from cows and it is itchy and sore and not responding to my treatment i will have to get gps opinion friday 26th april remind me next time not to try to interview during busy periods it is very embarrassing to turn up late to the interview we had a chaotic day but managed to interview her she is frighteningly well prepared and had lists of questions i hope we didnt put her off by being so disorganised i think the sandale view will be more influential as part of the interview we always take them up to sandale viewpoint to show them the practice spread out panoramically beneath them well it sold me the job after finally getting finished i was exhausted but had people to dinner so had to stay awake and be sociable sat 27th april had folk to dinner last night which after working flat out was probably not such a clever idea didnt fall asleep but this morning i feel like death warmed up and we have another interview this morning i dont think i can make a good impression so it is a good job that i am looking to employ rather than be employed the candidate is from a kirby stephen farmers daughter and so is at an immediate advantage she seems fine so we will offer her the job the question is should we offer them both a job went to bed feeling ill and with a migraine and slept all afternoon and then in bed for 9pm sad or what sun 28th feel a lot better for the sleep and church was af speaking he is always entertaining his opening slide was knighton in for those of you who do not keep up with the footie in carlisle michael knighton is the hated owner of carlisle united who is trying to get the club relegated so he can build houses on the land he is destroying the club and it is not popular anyway the second slide was here for grace and forgiveness he went on to say that church should be where the failures should feel loved and welcome as we all need gods love and forgiveness he was really good both entertaining and making real points spent time in the garden and playing footie with the boys mon 29th monday morning and that sinking feeling not helped by my wifes teaching 3 days this week and a trustees meeting for borderline which means additional pressure after running around all morning and working out the amount of holiday we are all owed the conclusion is that we will employ them both i am owed 46 days holiday so if i can take 2 months off that plus the sabbatical i am owed means i could take 5 months off i wish it were happening the 5 vets are owed over 200 days between us which will be almost a vet for a year as this is a health diary i should mention my visit to the doctor after a half an hour wait past my appointment time fizzing knowing that i would have to make the time up later in my evening i finally saw the doc who agreed with my diagnosis and agreed with my treatment only an occupational hazard of farm work ring worm he did take scrapings but that is all tuesday testing next door why do we always end up working in a pen under the railway in a middle of a stream why they cannot build a pen on dry land away from the trains i dont know i suppose they have always done it that way but the first you know of a train is the thunder as it goes over your head which startles the cows who jump sending a muddy slurry flying everywhere william is still not wearing a helmet for the quad bike as he drives around despite his fathers protests their neighbour the other way is brain damaged after coming off his weds 1st of may mayday the radio is predicting riots in paris against or for le pen anti globalists in london but i feel a real peace with the turning of the month it is funny how a different month can make you feel so different april is always the worst month at work with a lot of routine work dehorning and testing and a lot of lambings and calvings and emergencies even though the beginning of may is just the same i always feel we have passed the peak and we can cruise into summer the fact that both have accepted the jobs and that we will have more cover helps though they will not start until summer thursday 2nd may in spite of all yesterdays predictions there wasnt any trouble in paris or london only cyclists causing traffic jams what is about the media that they have to report the bad news not the good news i havent seen anything beyond the cumberland news on the farms restocking stopped at beckfoot on my rounds and sat in the sunshine on the beach for 10 mins and thought this is the life though in talking to one of the neighbours one of the farmers is having real problems getting motivated he had milking ayrshires really quiet cows who you could do anything with their idea of getting excited was turn out time and moving into a fast amble to the spring pastures he has bought in really wild suckler limousin xs if you look at them the wrong way they put their tails in the air and take off i was there dehorning and we lost one which jumped over a gate another put its tail in the air and took off only stopping when it came to the block wall at the end of the yard unfortunately it didnt stop fast enough and crashed headlong into it it now has a definite tilt to it the wall isnt too hot either i think if i had to look after the likes of them i wouldnt be too keen to get out of bed either friday 3rd may spoke too early about things easing off 2 bad calvings a caesarean and testing plus the usual ill animals but got finished for 5 45 and took my wife out for dinner at the cockatoo in cockermouth very pleasant but while she wanted to go on to socialise at 10pm i wanted home to bed sat 4th may off yippee took the kids to nichol end and went canoeing on the lake got absolutely frozen but was really good fun it rained in spite of all the good weather forecasts but with our style of canoeing we are always soaked anyway had a picnic on one of the islands and had fun came back and slept for the afternoon should have taken the boys to see the fa cup but they were happy playing around watched ghandi on dvd at night it is a very moving film and the ambiguities and politics came through to a muted extent which was interesting it often makes me wonder about how much of govt policy is personality driven again the inability of individuals to fight the system came through the front page of the times this morning was on a toddler who had died from post op haemorrhage following the use of disposable instruments in a tonsillectomy large amounts of money have been spent on disposable instruments that are always inferior to good quality surgical kit several people have died because of their use because no one wanted to take the very small theoretical risk that they may transfer nvcjd the approach to risk management and prioritisation within government and the civil service is very poor but to be fait to them the press is not helpful i would like to see prescott stand up and say that he wants more deaths on the railways but he never will if less money was spent on safety on the railways more trains at more convenient times were run at lower costs then there would be fewer deaths on the roads but as no one holds politicians responsible for deaths on the roads it aint gonna happen sun 5th may church was dn who is brilliant at getting the kids involved son s face lit up when we were walking in to church to see him walking down botchergate with guitar in hand he had a skin that had been cast from a snake and based his songs with the kids and his talks with them on being a new creation cor 5 vs 17 getting rid of the old self and hence the snake skin he is brilliant on the guitar and a real performer wasted as a tax inspector mon 6th may maybe getting the kids soaked and frozen on sat was not a good idea as they are all coming down with colds now tim is very chesty and was up in the night hot and wheezy any infection always goes for his chest so helvellyn will have to wait for another day so concreted posts and pressure washed the yard the boys loved helping then demanded i play football as payment ag was here as his dad was dropping off the caravan after being away for the w e p called up from manchester en route for thailand she is handing in her notice and going booked summer holiday in france and now have to work out what we are doing on the way there and back tues 7th may went testing but i really do have the kids bug and feel hot and feverish went to bed for rest of day weds 8th didnt feel like getting out of bed but went to work first was a deer rta i was supposed to meet a police car there but no police either car or policeman i am glad it wasnt too controversial or important so i have taken all details and hope that that is the end of it this afternoon was spent chasing stirks around a field and abbeytown we dehorned them they should have been done this time last year but were nt because of fmd theyre now 2 yr old which means they were really too big to go around upsetting two went through the dyke one way the other went through the other side into some ones garden and on to the abbeytown road so it was a bit of a rodeo it ended up charging m who hurt his shoulder trying to escape he was not happy as this morning he got his letter asking him to cut back is milk production he had jokingly asked what was i doing this winter as all the farmers will have given up by christmas the long term out look is not good but at least we will have 2 new graduates in training to cope with the upturn when if it comes thurs 9th day off unfortunately spent the morning shopping in carlisle which meant wandering around shops and trying to find clothes i needed a my daughter as my dress sense leaves a lot to be desired and she keeps me right met gb another carlisle vet which was good i havent seen him for a bit had lunch out which was nice though also got all the bits for the tennis net so will be able to get it up the annoying bit was i got a parking ticket which sent my blood pressure up now i know i often park with out paying and in the wrong places that is just living dangerously but as we were in carlisle and had decided to go out for lunch and for some reason i was in wife s car as usual there was no change in the car well as usual there was no money at all i only had myself to blame i know she never has change in the car i only had enough for 2 hours in my pocket which to be honest is in my opinion quite long enough in carlisle shops so on the way to lunch out i made a special trip back to the car park armed with coins ready to pay the city council the extortionate fee so i could spend more money in carlisle city shops the first machine refused my coins i even tried a 2nd machine that also refused to accept my hard earned cash so i left a note saying the machine was not working in the windscreen and yes you guessed it i came back to find a traffic warden giving me a ticket who justified his action by saying there w ere 4 machines from which i could have bought a ticket grrrrhhh fri 10th finish of another week with more tb testing a lot of cows from netherlands mris meuse rhine issel very good beefy looking dairy cows dual purpose why we have to test them i dont know but we have to keep page st happy they were all tested prior to export from holland and they want them tested again the farmer is very bio security conscious and has his land all in a single block now bounded by roads or arable cultivation all the other cattle he insisted were tested and he had the results prior to purchase in spite of all his good sense he is still going on about the missing vials from porton down and other paranoid conspiracy theories on the spread of fmd but a part from cold flu feel as though things are getting back on track we can look to the next 12 months with confidence thereafter depends on whether the wto wins over the eu to get rid of subsidies or whether maintaining the food supply within the eu is seen as important the one thing the fmd has taught me is that you never know what will be coming next i do feel guilty about saying there should be more train crashes after seeing the crash in the news today at potters bar sat 11th may working the w e again saw another calf with ccn caused by a deficiency of b1 usually rare but seems to be much more prevalent this year due to old grass on pastures dont know had a greyhound client in bringing in a greyhound on behalf of some one else who has been chased from the practice for non payment so had a stressful half hour negotiating with an irate idiot but he paid his old bill and stumped up front for the new one and seemed placated treating the animals is easy spent the afternoon in the garden and fixing up the tennis nat we were given an old second hand net so i have fixed up on the concrete and it was good fun playing with the kids the concrete is not level and has lots of loose stones so the bounce is a bit erratic went to a 50th birthday party for which i was teased at work but i maintain we are friends with the children in their 20 s it was a good craic and the food was brilliant there was one of the partners from a lawyers from carlisle there complaining that he could only have an hourly rate of charging out at 185 consequently he couldnt attract good lawyers to his firm because the city firms were offering far greater salaries and were charging out their juniors at 200 i couldnt admit that our hourly rate is only 45 and that i think that 45 hour is a lot of money should have been a 9 to 5 lawyer sunday went to church nl but was still half asleep from my late night spent all afternoon and evening out on calls was ok till the midnight call when i decided that being a lawyer was probably a much better idea monday 13th half asleep after the w e so took a little while to get going having kept this week a bit quieter as there should have been a lot of last minute dehorning and castrating it hasnt come in so we really are quieter so did some office work but trying to work out why the two computer systems we have do not have the same balances on their accounts with a tired sore head is not worthwhile but it was preferable to sorting rotas so i when came home i sat and read tintin much to my wifes disgust i also looked at my cash flow predictions which were totally out of line i usually take a pessimistic view so as err on the side of caution but they are totally out fortunately the right way the partners think it is a waste of time and effort to try to predict how much of the bills the farmers are going to pay in any month some pay every month but most pay every now and again either when they have time or money or when the accountant or vat man needs the books i suppose they are right who cares so long as they do pay also finally caught up with gp as ringworm still not getting better so finally on antifungals if the farmers couldnt get hold of a vet pretty quickly to discuss whats going on they would give us earache tuesday 14th halfway through may and time to get the rest of the planting done in the garden beautiful weather and feels like summer is here gg had a visit from trading standards over the bulls for which he had given a certificate of fitness to travel there is now no slaughterhouse within an hours drive of here for cattle ulverston is the nearest if an animal is not fit to be transported alive for some reason eg because it is lame or blind etc then it has to be shot on the farm and the carcase transported to the slaughterhouse however under the new meat hygiene regulations of 2 3 years ago the carcase has to arrive within an hour of being shot which was fine while black brow was operating the slaughterhouse but since it has closed there are no options for any animals to be shot on the farm unless you put it in your own freezer for your own consumption thus whereas if there were borderline cases before they were shot on the farm and the carcases transported now the pressure is to get them transported alive or the farmer loses the value of the animal 500 600 and has to pay 75 to get them shot and disposed of the sooner either carlisle slaughterhouse or black brow slaughterhouse get working again the better weds 15th day off spent the morning catching up on paper work feel better for it but never my favourite job but all the bits and pieces are in place for my tax return just waiting for the final few pieces of paper wrote a caustic letter to council about the parking ticket but sent them a cheque as not worth the fight went to up front art gallery for lunch some one had made a set of peat rings with a golden bowl at the centre and wanted hundreds of pounds for their art creation if you dont ask you dont get spent afternoon running the kids as wife was taking a in town for hair cut and girl time last football match for northbank and son lost thursday 16th the long lunch is back there wasnt much happening vet wise but still a lambing today as the season has dragged on one restocking farmer was in today with a ewe to be lambed of the 200 sheep he is supposed to be fattening for market 20 have lambed the guy he bought them from is adamant they were never near a tup someone needs to tell him about the birds and the bees there was also a good if slightly apocryphal story from defra licensing when they needed a licence to move a bull the licensing department asked is this bull going to be used for breeding purposes yes is the farmers reply will this animal be coming in to contact with any other animals friday 17th another tb test another restocking farm more stories the best one was the fact that their cattle had lain for a week in the pasture field after being shot they decided to plough it out for barley in the back end having spent the summer pressure washing the farm buildings to a gleaming state of sterility where the animals had lain there was still obvious contamination with blood etc when they ploughed it but having failed the buildings on specks of dirt defra were just not interested in contaminated blood stained earth they had also phoned the day before i arrived to send some one out to arrange tb testing the chaos in there continues sat 18th may i am to be best man a friend was around last night with news about getting married we have a wedding every month for the next 4 months must be something in the water at the moment unfortunately it meant it was a really late night celebrating and i am working the w e again so getting up for saturday morning surgery was a bit grim i survived and so did most of the animals the worrying thing is i am sure that drs are just the same spent the afternoon playing football and tennis with the kids in the yard and mowing the grass the farmers are all now silaging and the roads are full of tractors flying around at all times of night and day sat evening went with wife to hear sa speak at kds it was good to see him and clare again we visited them in bombay at the height of fmd and it always puts things back into perspective he runs a mission hospital in thane an outskirt of bombay they have it self funding by charging the rich for luxury service a long way behind the nhs and providing a basic service foc for the average indian he is now talking about trying to raise funding for building an aids hospice to provide pain relief and dignity to those who are dieing of aids because of the stigma and cost and risk of cross infection of both hiv and tb a lot of aids patients are just thrown out of their homes and hiv ve babies are abandoned as he says there is an epidemic sweeping bombay that will leave a lot of orphans and cause secondary epidemics because of immuno suppression and it is not really being addressed very thought provoking and makes the millions wasted on fmd look very sick in a global perspective sun missed church in the morning as was seeing to cats and dogs in the surgery and dripping calf in the large animal bay spent most of afternoon on visits all work and no play is making me a grumpy boy 2 w es in a row is not good mon aw is in worse mood than me and at least i have worked w e she is winding every one up with her attitude it is sthg that will have to be addressed but will have to be a partnership decision wife was interviewing fc tonight at christian viewpoint in carlisle and came back full of it she is good with people and interviewing she was also challenged by what f was saying about the importance of treating people as loved and valued by god in some ways very similar to s about valuing aids patients we are all valued by god tuesday missed gym for 3rd week i am going to be getting really unfit i was on duty and had spent time talking with folk at work valuing them but it was nice as a came out with me and she always likes being on call with me but i never seem to know whats going on in her mind still waters run deep weds dad phoned and has decided not to come on the w e away this w e it is a family reunion but it looks like it will be just our family and ps but the kids love meeting up with the cousins even a who will no doubt complain that there should be some girl cousins she is the only girl on both wife s side of the family and mine it is a bit worrying in that he is losing confidence in doing anything outside his normal routine it is at times like this you realise london is not really very close the other problem is working so many w es doesnt give much time for the travelling up and down to see him thursday g was away on a course yesterday and came back full of doom and gloom for along time we have relied on the drug sales as a substantial part of the business there have been various government reports that have queried our monopoly and there is a move to insist that we provide prescriptions for all the drugs and then allow the farmers or pet owners to buy the drugs from whatever source they want internet pharmacy or us it means however that the professional fees will inevitably have to rise to compensate which means it will be uneconomic for the farmers to use us so they will not in the present economic climate which means no job carlisle brampton and dalston vets are all starting to write prescriptions which means that we are going to have to follow suit the farmer who rents my field was silaging tonight i got back from house group to find a tractor follow me in to start rowing up as they had been at it all day i decided to take the gates off their hinges as it is a narrow gap and at that time of night a clunk against the pillar is ok but i dont want to have to replace my wooden gates they had just started to pick it up when i went to bed at 11pm so no idea what time they finished friday g is off ill help it looked as though i might miss out on the w e away as he is working the w e but the fact it would have meant 3 w es in a row and 6 nights in a row managed to help persuade one of the assistants to step in thankfully so i finished at lunch time and slept to catch up from the on call until the kids came home from school and set off for the w e saturday 25th may dovedale in the derbyshire peak district definitely should have more w es away and not working we had a great time with the cousins stayed at a farmhouse b b it use to be a working farm but is too high up and to small to sustain the dairy so they went out of that 3 yrs ago beef and sheep was not making any money so they have concentrated on tourism and grass let the fields his neighbours are now renting the land and farming it beautiful walk along the valley and had tea out relaxed and slept like a log sunday great british summer makes you wonder why any one would want to go abroad wet and cold so went to water world and watched the kids big and little go flying around the flumes it was good to catch up with my brother and family the boys would play footie all day long and be happy monday off to catch my breath and tidy up flat for tenants arriving thursday spent day trying to reduce the weeds in garden and went swimming at night the boys still wanted to play footie where do they get their energy if i could bottle it i would make a fortune tuesday it felt like hard work going back to work after time off i always seem to be tired and head achy it seems to be hard work to get going again ai just dont feel like doing anything including writing this diary but the good news is that we have a new booted bantie bertie the cockerel and he is now ensconced in his run we are hoping to get him some young ladies in the not too distant future he is cute and a is over the moon about him weds getting going again spent time talking with my wife who as always puts things back in to line communication went to do some pregnancy diagnosis early this morning and the farmer was complaining about the cost of his vet bill and is wanting to learn how to check cows to see if they are in calf prior to drying off the whole economics of dairy practice with milk at 13p per litre is beginning to hit home to them cannot be nice starting up again to realise that you cannot make money at doing it one of the other vets is in really bad form this week and is causing a lot of friction and we will have to deal with it as the staff are up in arms at least i am off tomorrow prior to working jubilee w e my mother in law arrived which the kids love complete with her special treats for them snowballs went out for dinner with mother in law but too tired to enjoy it due to early morning caesarean thursday off spent morning getting flat ready as we have new tenants moving in and clearing up while the girls went shopping dry weather but intermittent heavy showers tackled the long grass at front but the grass got too wet and clogged mower picked up kids and did the fatherly bit went to bed early as head achy and washed out and caught up on zzzzs friday start of the jubilee w e and on duty for the next 5 days until 5pm weds evening work busy with bits and pieces and farmers complaining that it is too wet to silage one of the vets had issued a pets export certificate for a cat to come back into uk but had put it down for 2 years not one it is only valid for 2 years in dogs but 1 year in cats typical friday afternoon problem to sort out the help line is closed for training and maff offices are closed for the bh w e i dont think there is a way around it either but will not be able to sort it out till weds day and they are due on ferry on tuesday oops also a bitchs owner came in to ask if we were open tues as she is due on that date and will probably need a caesaer johnboy called in the evening wanting me to go to the loyal supporters meeting at carlisle united as a spy im on call so couldnt oblige thank goodness sat 1st june office staff were asking why is there only 2 vets on the whole w e and i am beginning to feel the same should have split it up and had more staff on but at least the others will get a break and come back refreshed but i feel like i am looking down the barrel of a gun horrendous calving on a heifer that was in calf by mistake to its father it was supposed to have gone back to its breeder but the buyer was still tied up under the twenty day rule the calf had died and was gassed up ended up by caesaering in spite of rotten calf 2 hours hard work and the heifer will at best be very ill for several days sun 2nd june a day of football went to church and made a quick exit to watch the football as with everyone else was quite disappointed at hebron at night dm had the goals and the reactions to them on the big screen which he linked to romans 12 therefore i urge you to offer your bodies as living sacrifices this is your act of spiritual worship talking about worship to god being everything we do including how we react to how the english football team perform very clever and memorable way of expounding the bible went straight on to son s football presentations which was quite fun there is a real football sub culture with the amateur football clubs in carlisle all vying for the top spot the old pals network and animosities seem to be very prevalent mon 3rd june busy night and early start 2 x prolapses why always at a bh the second one was a wild limousin heifer it charged me and sent me flying the only injury was a sore fist where i thumped it in the eye to try and deflect it as i was trying to get it away gave me a fright it was a heifer that was bred because he couldnt sell it store last year because of restrictions chatted to farmer who started getting up at 4 30 am during fmd because he couldnt sleep he is still doing it now he still has not got any sheep in because he cant face it he lost his sheep to the cull but kept his cattle i had started by admiring the view he said yeah it would be great apart from the damn windmills he has a brilliant viewing looking out over the solway and the great orton site and the windmills remind him and everyone else that their flocks are in a big pit he says he can still see them going and feels guilty i didnt have the heart to tell him that of the 10000 blood samples taken at gt orton only 2 were positive a very big mistake that has caused big hurt in this area and no one has admitted responsibility and no one ever will tues 4th june watched some of the jubilee stuff on tv in between calls amazing sight to see the mall full of people more than ever before yet rupert murdoch and his press would have us believe that the monarchy is finished we managed to cope with just the two of us on call so may be i was right also made a start on byre remind me next time we have a dinner party on a bh not to be working it as my poor wife had 4 kids and a dinner to prepare i was called out to a cow caesar at 3 30 and then had another call after that fortunately i had taken tim so there was one less to fight but got back to be told that i had to have a bath before i could help because i smelt evening was really good fun and hilariously funny so even i kept going to the wrong side of midnight which after an early start was pretty good going i will have to get phil to do his senator homes skit at the wedding weds 5th june did not feel like getting up this am at all and felt even less like going into work managed to extricate us from any problems with the cat with out its passport there is no give in the defra system which is to be expected richard had a suspect fmd calf on tuesday no wonder he was a bit jittery when i spoke to him later on even though you know that it probably isnt going to be a case and that the farmer is panicking it still sets the butterflies flying it was bvd spent over an hour and a half this morning on the phone sorting out what the aw calls the rubbish queries and being helpful and friendly and sorting out licensing and drugs and repeat prescriptions one was a woman complaining about the neighbouring practice which required a bit of tact i think the drs must have been as busy as us the tally for the celebrations are 1 off ill with flu and bad back one wrist sprained from scooter racing at a street party after all the kids had gone to bed and one who spent the w e visiting her boyfriend in hospital she had said that he needed to go in on friday but the doctors had put him off as it was the w e he was worse on sunday but had waited till after the football before ringing priorities priorities thursday went to house group which was really good and spent time praying for the group church area and for world situation friends are trying to work out what to do in india they are teaching at a boarding school in the south of india and have both their own family and also the school kids to think about the consensus is that the foreign office advice is aimed more at the indian and pakistani govts than the uk nationals ian is supposed to be visiting and has a flight booked so is still going at the moment i really cant believe that they would escalate the situation but it will be tit for tat and then going to the brink as neither will want to break face the ramifications of sept 11th still keep reverberating around the world as the balance of power alters makes fmd look like a picnic at least we have stable govt that says it abides by the laws friday the secretary asked this morning what did i want meaning tea or coffee and i replied as i had prayed wisdom but with 2 sugars we had a difficult partners meeting that lunch time poor timing and priorities again as england was playing i had assumed they would lose but the meeting went well and the issues were discussed amicably enough and frankly enough so we all know where we are at and issues were addressed but as james says not only about asking for wisdom but also putting it into action at night leant on the fence and talked to the neighbour as the thistles i was supposed to be cutting down carried on growing but it was a nice evening he works for stl the christian book distributors he was saying how the fire that they had just after he arrived at the time seemed a disaster and caused chaos but it made them make decisions that had to be made rather than continuing with the status quo and in hind sight was a very good thing i wonder when we look back whether the changes and opportunities of fmd will make us appreciate the decisions we have all had to make it made me think of the woman who came in today saying she was one of the lucky ones who didnt get fmd very much tongue in cheek as they are much worse off than those who did she gave up her job as they couldnt sell the calves as they were born and so some one had to look after them so she went back home to work on the farm her job of course has been filled in the mean time and she would have made a lot more money for less hassle if she had stayed sat 8th june finished the long period of work and on call on sat morning and it came down with heavy showers as we had hoped to climb helvellyn today it eased some what at night which was just as well as we were going to a bbq it was put on by a s african vet from defra who is now working in longtown the last time i drove through to charlie and ruths who were hosting the bbq was when the pyres were all burning it gave me a funny feeling driving back up there the food was good and the craic was good so we had a good time the kids would have kept going but they were beginning to get high the midges once you get north of the border are definitely worse we all had lumps all over in the morning sun 9th sb spoke at church on jesus healing the blind man at pool of siloam he was very easy to follow friends called in and stayed for tea he as usual blunt and controversial as ever he always has a good insight and dresses it up in taking things to extremes he is also very funny with it so had a good meal son is as high as a kite as he is going camping with the school this week so he has all his kit ready to go and would not settle to go to sleep and kept the other boys awake mon 10th pouring down in time for the school camp at borrowdale never mind theyll enjoy it any way 3 farms have had silage pits burst because the grass has been put in too wet if silage is made when the grass is too wet it flows very slowly and cannot support its own weight so it bursts the side walls and will flow out of the heap that it has been put in if there is plenty of effluent coming off it will usually escape from the normal collecting systems and if it gets into the becks it is worse than slurry hunters stream was black with effluent and the environment agency were out testing the water quality so they will be for the high jump the contractors are so far behind and the grass is getting so long and bulky that it doesnt dry out as quickly so there may well be a few more but at least the farmers will have had warning so it will be their own fault the school kids are back for their work experience week it must be hard for them to follow what is going on but they seem to enjoy them selves the worksheets definitely help to give some structure and a feel for what is going on crusaders meeting at night pretty disappointing response so not a lot we can do tues 11th june workload has set in and im just cruising and managed to get to the gym while on first so feel full of energy why do you feel full of energy after expending some spent half an hour on net trying to get holiday organised but finding places for 6 is not as easy the weather is better for son camping and should be better until the w e means we will hopefully be quiet at work as they all go out into the fields weds 12th no calls over night first time since finishing with defra not had a call at night summer is truly here there was a call just on half time at 815 which i did during the break so got to see the second half and england drew 0 0 but are through t o the next round caught up on paper work and have sorted a lot of things so they are in place for the 2 new vets thurs 13th meeting with bank manager for executive lunch sandwiches from bells he asked how was the new normality which seems an excellent phrase he seemed happy enough but it is always interesting to see how an outsider views the information given the problem is usually knowing the questions to ask i think that is probably he seemed happy enough but it is always interesting to see how an outsider views the information given the problem is usually knowing the questions to ask i think that is probably true of the inquiries into fmd unless you know the questions you will not get the right answers went abseiling up at sandale with the house group from church and had a bbq it would have been nicer if the wind hadnt howled i had gone prepared for british summer weather but it was still pretty nippy it was great fun fri read another test that had ir s for tb inconclusive that will have to be retested in 60 days while i was writing up the paper work the farmers wife was saying that the kids were all off school and nursery with hand foot and mouth she had taken the youngest who was ill with the middle kid to the doctor the doctor had said what it was and the middle kid burst into tears as he thought they were going to take her baby brother outside and shoot him it is funny but also very sad the same farmer was really fed up as the cows were all supposed to be tb tested prior to arriving on the farm he had also let them out into a long 5 acre field with the water troughs at the far end of the field half the cows had not found the trough and so were very thirsty by the time they came back at milking time the idea that you just go and replace the cows just like that is not quite the case sat 15th june saturday morning spent it gardening the strawberries are coming and even though the gooseberries arent quite ripe picked some to start the harvest and the one strawberry that was reddish then went to visit friend and the wide screen tv for the football match no one expected any more english progress but the lads surprised me and played a stormer so the game against brazil will become the match the practice bbq in watery june sunshine was good fun but the ground was too wet to play silly games or even footie the food was excellent aw was notable by her absence hey ho bbq is in need of a revamp maybe abseiling though i dont think i can see either r or aw going for it showed s around flat and met her parents remind me to be wise with my kids sun felt tired and ill and washed out after slowing down and switching off after a busy day yesterday and all week watched the ireland match which was very close spent rest of day sleeping or just chilling out mon went testing at k and td they are really nice lads but not too hot on the academic front but good fun they were in good form and hoping to get the low down on the new vets yes they are young free and single as far as i know i pity their chances spent a lazy day in the sun at a gentle pace so quite enjoyed myself caught up with the paperwork at night and feel mellow tuesday too many os one call was cancelled but the other one still wanted the call so some one went to the wrong o and i had to make a mad dash and pour oil on the waters to explain why we are so late oops so more testing and a quiet day wife also had her quiet day there was supposed to be a group of them going for a retreat day but the speaker had cancelled so she did it herself with r and it went very well she was exhausted after giving out all day met up with lads at night didnt get to gym again as i had to go and calve a schistasoma yuk weds tried again to work out what we are going to do with summer holidays no doubt we will get organised eventually came home early for lunch and had forgotten that it was coffee morning here so felt out of place amongst so many women skipped off early and went for a cycle to make up for missing gym did first part with a and annie and then zipped around for a bit which was good thursday k and t had an i r again i need a new supply of little green forms to put this in context prior to this year in 16 years in practice i have had 4 i rs i am doing that this week so another farm under restrictions friday bad hair day england lost och well never mind such is life richard drummonds report that the svs was unprepared yeah we had all been saying it but i did not realise that the svs had been saying it 2 years ago has been picked up by the audit office there is a report case of fmd in a pig from leicester mkt and i had another i r and met with jm a temporary vet with carlisle svs on why we had not done the tests allocated mostly cos they arent to do he also was very cynical about the changes in defra and the management ethos has not changed he brought a message back from them that the test we had sent back because the guy is an old recluse that is impossible to deal with we had to do as they did not have the resources what they are responsible for ensuring that they are done and sorting out the recalcitrant had the afternoon off and ran round after the kids while wife did reports next week must be better sat 22nd june wedding day for d and s yippee d and his best man and usher plus 3 others arrived last night and it was really nice to have young people around again i have forgotten how much i enjoy young people i must be getting too old and cynical c looked after our boys and a went into town it was really nice s could not stop smiling and it is wigton carnival day so there were two pipe bands as well which could be heard drifting over the vows was in his kilt i should have got mine on for the occasion the reception was at tullie house which is a really nice relaxed venue we were seated opposite friends so it was really nice catching up with them b d are just back from another wedding in vancouver and really impressed with bc they are out doors fanatics so the skiing mountains and whistler really is their thing barnes who was looking after the kids at night is going out there for his gap year to work in a book shop should be really great for him there was a celeidh in the evening but i only lasted for 3 dances i was absolutely exhausted i didnt realise how tired i was sunday fortunately it was a family service ie doesnt start until 1100 it was lead by the young adults group so was really fresh and good they also dont take themselves too seriously but do take jesus seriously and it was good monday missed swimming again cos work was really busy crusaders meeting at night at rydal very good met up with some of the leaders i havent met before folk who work with young people are always good fun and have a wicked sense of humour do you need one to do youth work or does youth work give you one tuesday diary did not get filled in from here on as on weds morning i reached into back of the car and my back went i tore muscles in it a long time ago and it often niggles but as long as i keep doing the exercises for stretching and building up the muscles it is ok but i have missed doing the swimming relevant any way saw stars and in agony so flat on my back and stretching every 2 hrs and sore saturday 29th june my back is slowly improving i can move around and type i can do the stretching ok but stiff and achy rather than spasm work must have been bad for the two left as it was going to be short staffed with out me dropping out nothing i can do about it the new vet called around to look at the flat before moving in a months time she came with her mother their farm was culled out with fmd late on and they had just got the herd to where they wanted the breeding her mum was talking about it was going through a grieving period and how some days it was yes carry on and get going again and other days it was why bother it is just all too much hassle it will take a long time for the memories in the farming community to fader and with the acknowledgement that it was much better to get the disease and get it over with the cooperation of farmers will be even less they are the 17th generation on the farm the whole concept of bio security needs to be looked at and farmer education on how the disease is spread the self imposed isolation of not sending kids to school etc is just stupid but to go against the flow is very difficult that as well as the defra imposed ridiculous rules they were not allowed to leave the house for 3 months they just view this as a punishment imposed because they refused to let the hefted flock be culled they were right not to the old tenants have moved out of the cottage eddie and ruth seemed to really enjoy it as a summer holiday while at work a change is as good as a rest so they say i have looked at jobs again but nothing appeals there is a job which i wouldnt mind doing as a consultancy but doubt anything will come will have to wait and continue to see what happens went out for a meal to giannis at night as my dad is up for the w e sunday p spoke at family focus at church and was very encouraging he is always a revelation as he takes things as they are not as they should be watched brazil beat germany to win the world cup wet weather and kids out of sorts and back still sore yuk monday drove for the first time and dropped my dad off in carlisle but it was pretty sore by the time i got back dad was in good form and he has enjoyed his time up here but he is getting older and with being in london we are going to have to visit on a more regular basis went into work and did some paper work and answered phone and felt better for doing sthg as pretty bored but couldnt sit still or really get going either came home and lay down again d came around at night called in absolutely hyper he and a going to split up which is not so good even if it is not that un expected the thing that has brought to a head is the fact a is seeing some one else who is also married not a good situation lads came around at night which was good fun and we had a good time tuesday i am now the father of a teenager as bday so it was good to see her opening her presents this morning back is easing a lot so did small animal today and i am moving freely but still doing the exercises as birthday is also always a time for reflection as she was born a year to the day after we arrived in cumbria so we have been here 14 years a long time the future is also looking a bit uncertain work wise with more farmers complaining about the prices of their milk and animals hence they dont want to pay their bills weds to saturday as usual the diary gets missed when the crisis hits so i am writing this on the following tuesday and bringing the diary entries up to date weds morning i was driving through wigton having done my first farm call since doing my back when there were lots of flashing lights and an ambulance and an unmarked police car with all its lights on going through wigton they stopped at the lay by in wigton high st the traffic was slow but i did not see anything later on i was coming back in to wigton from another call and the by pass was closed the office was full of news that the by pass had been closed because of a stabbing and that a welshman and a wigton woman had been taken to hospital and a wigton man had been arrested for attempted murder i got a sinking feeling as d had been around on monday saying about ali having a boy friend i said to wife but she said surely not i got back after work and a friend arrived and unfortunately it was d the story emerged over the next few days how he had forced his wife at knife point to take him to where she was meeting the boyfriend and there he attacked him the sort of story you only here about in the papers and crime programmes so we have had the police taking statements and trying to come to terms with it he is usually a mild almost submissive personality and he had flipped but really weird they have 3 girls who are now going to be really mixed up having a father who attempts to kill their mother is not nice so i missed the leaving party for the locum who has been working for us for the past few months which by all accounts was very good saturday 6th july still in shell shock over d and a i still cannot believe what has happened went in saturday morning and sorted my car and got testing list up to date there is a lot in the veterinary press about the future of the lvi system and the future of farm animal practice the future is not looking good the short term is fine if anything we will have a huge amount of work and we can live off the fmd capital that the farmers have but once that begins to run out they and we will be in serious difficulties the economics are against the farm animal practice went out for a brilliant meal and had a really good evening at cs her husband is a detective sgt and had been called out because there was yet another serious incident this time at a night club in cockermouth there is a 22 year old in newcastle hospital with head injuries so felt sorry for c as she cooked and hostessed with out her better half sunday church was good with sg on the character of god he was quite funny with his illustrations of fatherly things from his life espy as his son is quite a character met up with dc who was a defra vet from sa he was in good form and has another locum set up for when he finishes at longtown monday back into full swing again but not much happening read the test and felt a lot happier as i didnt have to leave the dreaded piece of green paper as everything passed of the farms i went on though it was interesting to note that the farmers are all having problems with their backs again while they were pressure washing and not amongst stock they were fine but going back to pushing animals around the bad backs are back the topic is probably raised because of the fact i have been off with a bad back du called in as he is replacing d on the railway until they can get something sorted on a more permanent basis he stayed for 2 years next door while doing his railtrack training the people at work cannot believe that dave has done sthg like this as he usually if anything a submissive guy du had just got the keys to his new house in manchester where he is based now and was not very happy to be posted back up to cumbria he hasnt even managed to move in tuesday work very quiet and long lunches good for getting other things done but pretty boring looked at rota and checked websites reports to be published on 18th july spent time sorting out rotas and booking up and reorganising my kit weds day off went into carlisle and was bounced by my wife in to getting my hair cut in what i assume is an expensive hairdressers she was getting hers done and dragged me in and it was a fait accompli at least i assume it is expensive as she wont tell me how much it is and she let me go off to tescos and said she would pay for both wandered around book shop in carlisle and met wife s mum off the bus the vet student from usa arrived for a couple of days jamie who is not as i assumed male but female it is amazing how you make assumptions when you read e mails and take messages she is in uk for 12 wks and friend has given her our address as his wife is about to have twins so he thought it better not to have more people than really necessary in his house there are a few babies at the moment got a photo of e this morning and friend called around to say other friends had had a baby but he couldnt remember whether it was a boy or a girl learnt later it is a boy thursday not a lot for j to see called in to see friends new kittens posh becks both have cat flu he is busy painting house and tidying up for the wedding never seen his yard as tidy must tell abbi to get a move on and maybe he will finish off some of the building work as well did 2 calvings in the afternoon and finally read through the audit office report which i downloaded ages ago they were pretty accurate apart from nick brown insisting it was all going splendidly well there really must be a better working relationship between the ministry svs vets and the vets in general practice and so much better communication the other point that is never made is that all farms should have a mass disposal plan as part of their iacs return in order to keep fmd on peoples minds as it is already disappearing as a part of history and history will repeat itself because nobody listens and most of the anguish and delays were in the disposal systems friday dropped j off in wigton to catch the train it is always strange with having students because they stay in our house they are very much part of our lives and then they drop out of our lives another former student who is just back from sa called in and it was good to catch up with her she was on her way back to edinburgh for her 5 year reunion he has been qualified 5 years and i thought it was 2 or three one of the vets was off ill so it meant a bit of a run around today as 2 others were on holiday but it was good to be busy and get some adrenalin pumping saturday 13th july working saturday morning on days like this i think it is great to be a small animal vet the consults were all straight forward and i could chat to the owners with out having to stop and think what to do about the animals that and 2 owners were really appreciative of what i was doing so felt good i think that is one of the things about working for defra no one appreciated what you were doing ok some appreciated the concern and effort and the way you did it but no one really thought what you were doing was good like putting pets down it is for the best but no one likes it beautiful day today too the sun shining and picking strawberries and having a bar b q was really very pleasant my brother always says the best thing about nz where he lives is that he can plan to have a barb in 2 wks time whereas here you have to go with the flow sun 14th first call so wandered around seeing ill cows several lots of drugs to put out as a lot for the restocking farms have yet to get their medicine cabinets back up to strength had a collie hit by a tractor and its eye had been knocked out of its socket urgh eyes give me the creeps mon 15th operating day as we are doing the anaesthetic monitoring so plenty of ops booked in health and safety requires us to check for operator exposure to anaesthetic gases as our new system has a scavenging system and is light years ahead of the one we use to have it is a waste of time but we have to have the checks done but i wonder how many other practices actually do we have never been checked up upon a police man arrived at the front desk while i was on the phone the head nurse disappeared as soon as she saw the marked police car which struck me as very suspicious after he had booked an appointment for his dog and he had left i was curious to know where she had disappeared to she had gone to check that the medicines cabinet where we keep the gun and dangerous drugs was in fact locked as while we are operating we keep it open so as to have easy access to the emergency drugs the gun licences insist that it is kept locked at all times and immediate access to a police officer coming to check it must be allowed and we never been checked up upon yet farmers are all busy with field work and are not wanting to even think about any routine work so it could be a quiet week tuesday 16th beautiful weather and raspberries coming along nicely wife s mum is busy making jam and mile high pies yum yum partners meeting at lunchtime why do they always make me so depressed the subjects were more of the same how do we cope with the changes in the drug sales prices and how do we compete with irish drugs being brought in illegally we got a little further forward and will hopefully be able to make a decision on it by the deadline in september we need to look at new ways of bringing in revenue streams but i dont think there is a willing ness to look at the radical so i will have to keep working away at it weds 17th met up with the lads last night to pray but the craic was good and did more chat and joking than praying twas good i is apparently having a good time at the cs lewis convention but has yet to open the book stall he sells books and specialises in antiquarian and first editions of cs lewis the one thing about the internet is that it frees up communication and searching for the really obscure sorry i the weather broke today and the rain came and with it all the calls as the farmers got all the routine stuff done which was good for the last of the school kids which have plagued us for the past few weeks vet students next but at least they can chat away with out me having to make all the effort thurs 18th went o a farm today which restocked in feb after doing its 4 months waiting and has yet to have a tb test asked him whether i should chase it up but he like everyone else should be leaving it to october and housing maff efficiency rules we also tested 44 imported heifers that were supposed to be blood sampled within 7 days of calving but they have been missed i have no confidence in either of the reports to actually achieve anything part of me feels i should try to contact the media and try to get them to push the agenda along but i dont feel it would achieve much apart from sticking my head above the parapet which would not do much i have asked for copies but none have arrived yet fri 19th demob happy im on holiday from 5 30pm so it will be good to catch up on all the things i should have done but not done the garden is a mess but we are getting on top of it slowly in some ways i am glad to be off when the lli is reporting as at least i will not get wound up so this is me signing off for the week next diary will be on sat week holiday week beginning saturday 20th july saturday 27th july having had a week off i am feeling a lot happier about life in general we have been to a few of the nights at the keswick convention it is an amazing set up with over 12000 people coming together over 3 weeks in keswick and meeting up for bible teaching and to worship god there is a big tent that is set up on the back of the convention centre by the time we arrive it is always full and we were not late on the friday evening there were people standing outside the kids went to a youth event on of all things ezekiel not exactly an easy choice of bible book to convey to 19 14 yr olds but they really enjoyed the wacky games and the way they mixed teaching and songs and games activities they seemed to be mostly uni students who seemed to get as much fun out of it as the kids my brother and family were up and the cousins love getting together and even a joined in the football and tennis even though her hand to eye co ordination is not the best she has taken up running every day so i have been out with her but my back is still not right and i can feel it at the slightest provocation must go swimming again my brother also asked wife what diy needed doing as he is a real enthusiast give me gardening any time so we made a door for one of the sheds which i have been putting off for the past 6 years as once i start there are another 5 to do he is also a sailing fan so hired a sail boat and went sailing which was great fun the kids had a canoe and we raced up and down the lake and the kids swapped around and went to explore islands it was really good the weather helped it was scorching we also went to a wedding of one of our close friends son i decided i am going to start teaching my kids the etiquette of weddings as the groom could have done a better job it isnt really his fault as he is young and has not thought things out sun went to the all age service at the tent at keswick there were too many kids even for me but the mix of action songs and asking kids things and an action talk meant that those leading it kept the kids involved it was good to see spent the afternoon on the lake it was really nice day mon yep it was a real monday morning with my in tray over flowing 2 rotas to sort and 2 weeks of testing to try to arrange the only goodish news was that the ministry have finally decided to put the restocking farms on annual testing which means at least we know where we stand and can plan it will mean a lot of work for us the bad news was that the oft investigation have sent us a horrific questionnaire which needs filled in and one of my partners has had a go and not got very far unfortunately and it needs to be in by tomorrow forget it the 2 new vets have started and so we are settling them in and they are picking up the ropes quite quickly which is ace on call at night out twice for bad calvings thats the end of my holiday f feeling good tuesday sore back from calvings and early mornings had forgotten i had arranged for some one to be with me all day today in a moment of weakness i had acquiesced to being put up for sale in a promise auction to raise money for african childrens choir so this was the promise being redeemed a morning with the vet so i put on my best charming manner all mr pr man and took her on a tour of the practice and on call and explained everything i was doing so it was a good thing we were not busy spent the afternoon consulting and supervising new vets and showing them the ropes weds we were suppose to be going walking up helvellyn but the torrential rain put us off so went into carlisle and did bits and pieces and i took kids to see stuart little 2 which is definitely one for the kids and jobbed around at home but the kids like it when we just potter around thursday felt really stiff and sore and decided again i must go swimming more often i just cannot seem to get there thats all must make time im working this w e and i am then off for 10 days finishing with fs wedding friends are up with their kids and it is really good to see them we dont see them that often but they are the sort of friends who you pick up on as soon as you meet them even if you havent seen them for ages m has left full time teaching as he couldnt cope with the pressure of all the paper work and hassle he is teaching supply and doing other things as well he is so creative and he has made a model of our house just while he was sitting chatting with us friday came home at lunchtime to see the kitchen table covered in drawings and paintings m had decided to have a painting day so all the kids were doing drawings and paintings he has done a watercolour of our house it is brilliant holiday for two weeks this is more a reflection of what i have been doing and thinking over the summer as i have not been writing up the diary but i want to put down some of the things that i think are important edited disclosive sat 24th aug another bank holiday w e to be worked but at least i am backing up our new young assistant we work a system where the new vets have a senior vet on call at the same time for the first few months so as to give them a hands on support and mentoring while this sounds very good and practical it is surprisingly uncommon when i started i was on my own from almost day one i started in august after getting married and in the second week of september my boss headed off to oman to do horse work out there the other large animal vet was off on long term sick and he could only get a small animal locum when i look back now that he left me in charge of the farm practice for 2 weeks after only being a month qualified i shudder but at the time i just got on with it sun 25th calvings coming thick and fast the good warm weather has made the grass spring and the cows are putting on too much weight and having problems j was at a football tournament at pirellis which i missed but he came back really tired having played his socks off did another pts put to sleep dog visit with assistant vet it is never the easiest of consults and she did really well she is finding her feet i find it hard helping people make euthanasia decisions over dogs so i feel quite strongly anti euthanasia when it comes to people mon 28th beautiful day too nice to work the morning was busy but the afternoon was quiet so i spent it lying in the sun dozing had bbq at night at js and chatted to a few folk who i know but not to speak to so was interesting spoke to one of our farmers daughters who told me her dad had just had his first calf since fmd and so he was really happy he had 2 holdings which were run as one he managed to keep his heifers which were on the second holding probably because they were the last ones in the area and these were the ones that were now calving he still blames the pyre from a neighbour for spreading the virus to his farm tuesday 27th the problem with having a day off is that you have problems stored up for when you come back today was really hectic finished at 6 30 after having come back from the belgian blue inspections to help out at surgery the inspections were fun but it gave me the creeps being in the mart and inspecting mouths as it brought back bad memories the mart is ridiculously clean and the last time i inspected mouths was for fmd after shooting a herd that was a dangerous contact i was trying to persuade london not to take out the other neighbour as well we got finished at 2am and went in for a cup of tea and to recover and the mother greeted me with the news that d had been next door and was starting to shoot them the other really annoying thing is that the basic hygiene is not being enforced and yet other rules are the rules are made in london by desk bound defra officials who dont have to implement them the mart uses mini dumper trucks to clean out the pens after they have been sold the same trucks are then used to put out straw and sawdust in the freshly cleansed and disinfected yards they are covered in muck and are a bio hazard m the owner of the animals we were inspecting put on her usual tantrum display to try and intimidate the secretary and inspectors which as i was expecting it i found quite amusing but i dont think she or they did had another bbq tonight with kids son cooked and loved it so i have found a new bbqer kids in brilliant form as they are enjoying being around and a has been baking weds 28th another tb reactor and the corresponding paper work and licensing had a weird oddball case in surgery and spent ages trying to take a history of what was going on the dog is not that unwell in itself but has an intermittent history of different things i look forward to seeing what it turns out to be or whether it resolves itself with time vetting is always varied j was at friends party after having a football school with blackburn rovers this morning so he was passed himself arranged to visit prisoner in prison on my next day off and went through a multitude of meaningless options to end up with a guy who sounded like he came straight off porridge it is amazing how intimidating trying to find your way around a bureaucracy can be i am not sure i want to go but thurs 29th from feast to famine not much work during the day at least al had 3 caesareans last night and was running out of steam by 5 oclock this afternoon meanwhile i did small animals and tried to organise my trip to london to visit my dad found web sites for chitty chitty bang bang london eye and madam tussards so should be able to book in advance if tickets are left for the half term week other children are staying so the house is full of excited kids friday 30th busy day sorting out the invitations to our open day 1st oct it is just a chance to get the farmers together we promised one to celebrate the end of fmd it is amazing going through the list off the computer how many farms are not restocked the list hasnt been updated since pre fmd as we dont really know how many will restock so we have been waiting for the end of fmd to redo it so there were a few deaths sales and moved away to take off the list time moves on sat 31st august last w e of the summer holidays we had a bbq at lunch time for borderline and then i promised to take the boys camping at bowscale tarn it was beautiful but really cold the weather was ok sat but sunday was glorious the boys wakened at first light so we climbed up on to the tops while the sun was still rising and it was one of those magical moments wonderful the boys were so excited and full of energy and so happy to be with their dad and enjoying life a time to treasure sun after coming down off the tops from bowscale tarn went to visit friends he is a vet in longtown and has just set up his own small animal practice in the north of carlisle the twins who are now 4 weeks old were wonderful there is always sthg very special about wee babies a was in her element with two to mother mon good weather continuing and so we are still quiet the vet student has arrived went blood sampling sheep for maedi visna to a farmer who imports and sells sheep as a bit of a dealer between him and his dad and his granddad they have 4 holding numbers which is making a mockery of the licensing system he knows a lot of the breeders and dealers and the yorkshire defra is even worse than this one and so the whole licensing system is allegedly being ignored there everyone in the office was trying to work out where we are going to go for the xmas party as it is now september tuesday it is friends last day at work tomorrow before the wedding so the girls spent most of the afternoon printing out posters and things to decorate his car before he goes tomorrow evening the farmers are phoning in to book tb tests for nov and dec as they know that we will be busy which makes life a lot easier for me we have sent out notes with the invitations to the open day and that has had a good response so we will start to get busy testing next week weds day off spent the morning fixing the shower drainage which had suffered from one too many footballs being kicked against it the problem was the broken part was also a metric to imperial converter one end was 40mm and the other was 43mm which once i discovered that was what i needed meant a trip to carlisle as nowhere in wigton had it so it got codged up with plenty of silicone the afternoon was spent going to visit prisoner he is the friend who stabbed his wifes boyfriend in wigton and so he is currently residing at her majestys pleasure in durham prison it was a very disheartening experience as with any organisation it takes time to work out where to go and what you need to get through the hoops i went from one part of the prison to another and backwards and forwards the staff where very friendly and helpful but they are all at fixed stations and so you are sent from one area to another the security although expected and natural still comes as a bit of a shock photographed in and issued with a barcode to get you in and out and you put all your belongings in a locker before you are allowed in of course i did not realise that you only need the id passport to get your bar code so i kept it to show at the entrance where all i needed was the bar code so they sent me back to put it in the locker prisoner was ok but he is still finding it hard to think about a future that does not include his wife even though the divorce papers are filed and he has done some pretty nasty things to her and the boyfriend he is pleading guilty and is expecting to go down for a good few years the whole visitors area was charged with emotion with people coming to see brothers husbands lovers there were lots of girls with young children coming to see their dads i felt very sad for them and for the kids who are growing up with out a dad or the stigma of a dad in jail his kids have written but he is realistic his wife is very anti him and they are unlikely to keep up with him in the long term as she at best is not going to be supportive at worst is going to try to dissuade them he was quite upset about that he is also not able to sort out his things or see his house before it is sold he did a lot of building work etc on it and has an emotional attachment to it but there is no real closure he had emotional problems before all this he is likely to have even more on his release his car on which there is still a car loan has been removed from the pound but he doesnt know where it is drove back over a66 very thoughtful and thankful for my family and freedom until the phone went to remind me i was on call and had i forgotten fortunately there were no calls as it takes quite a while to get from barnard castle to wigton oops thursday did my first isolation pens inspection which is a complete non sense the field has to be 50 m from any other livestock which in london probably sounds fine or in scotland where there are plenty of woods and other crops but here in cumbria where the main crop is grass and all the fields are grazed at this time of year then it is not so easy the forms are horrendous and the boxes to be filled in are greyed out to make it easy for you to know which boxes are to be filled in this obviously looks really good on a computer screen in london but on a photocopy writing in black ink makes the whole thing illegible but thats their problem when does common sense come in friday 6th september colleagues wedding one of the vets at the practice was married today at the parish church in wigton the wedding was some do he and his family in kilts there were over 200 at the wedding and reception at the grennhill hotel where brides uncle is a director the theme was an english rode and scottish thistle the flowers were all red roses in arrangements with thistles they were beautiful as was the bride he quickly adds there was a ceilidh afterwards and a fireworks display several of the neighbouring farmers complained to me the next day danced and talked the night away till after 2 am getting up the next day was a bit of a pain for morning surgery urgh sat 7th september why is it whenever you could do with a quiet day because of one reason or another it is always busiest managed to keep going most of the day with calvings and ill animals still recovering from the late night at wedding day was a bit of a wash out really sunday milk fever at 7 am to finish me off so missed church but went to hear sc at wigton in evening he is head of oasis trust and is very much a radical but believes in putting faith into action and was very challenging isiah 58 true fasting that god wants to spend your self on behalf of the poor in spirit wife went to hear the new bishop of carlisle who was speaking at hebron he is reaching out to all the local churches and seems to see outside the traditional denominational boundaries which is really encouraging monday had a crusaders meeting in rydal crusaders is a youth group organisation and i am on the area planning group we have had money given in a legacy to support some one full time to train leaders to organise area events and w e away and other joint activities which should be good it meant a rush and a long day so i am still feeling knackered from the w e tuesday i was almost speechless today the great era of decentralisation has hit defra i wish i rang them up because we still have not had confirmation for the appointments of our 2 new vets to enable them to do defra work what used to happen was that they went to a training session and chat with the dvm in carlisle and the appointments arrived 2 days later guess what all the paper work has to be sent to page st in london now and they have not got it back yet weds 11 09 02 it is funny how some anniversaries effect you and others do not i had just started back in to the practice when the hijackers crashed into the pentagon and the twin towers i was feeling at my most bruised and battered having had a major confrontation at defra and had to work through the psychological problems of being threatened and sidelined and yet wanting to keep my integrity by not reacting and blowing people out of the water the 9 11 bombers made me realise how fragile peace is and how fragile people are and the importance of not losing sight of the important things in life and trying to keep things in perspective people are more important friends and family and if i cant fight the civil service mentality that is their problem not mine i remember seeing one of the teachers husbands walking in to the kids school when i went to pick them up looking slumped and dejected and learning that their only son was in new york and they could not reach him 2 days later they heard he had visited the twin towers the day before and had taken photos from the top he was supposed be going back into the towers that morning but he had got up late and by the time he and his friends set off the towers had been hit the impact of the number of people who have either been in or visited the towers from all over the world does make it a potent symbol with worldwide resonance my sister worked in them for a while several years ago the anniversary brought a lot back up to the surface that i thought was past but was merely hidden thursday first on last night and 2nd on tonight so started early and finished late and running out of steam friday one of the farmers wives came in today for some wormers for her chickens that have gape worm she paid last months bill in cash as well as for the wormers 876 inc vat she is working away from the farm 2 days a week her husband is full time at a job he got after they went down with fmdi asked how her father in law who is 65 was doing he is lost and the farm is too quit its not right its too quiet they still have no animals back and are grass letting its funny she said whoosh and your life takes a complete change you never know whats going to happen next sat 14th september worked am and then had rest of w e off hooray sunday monday son s footie tuesday partnership meeting at lunchtime so had a sore head by the end of the day but a lot of good decisions made so feel as though we a re moving forward weds off as working the w e so caught up on paperwork and stuff at home and then went into carlisle to go shopping for lots of bits and pieces and a new bathroom thursday dvm called in to update us waste of time and i had forgotten what an annoying man he is a real career civil servant bureaucrat who has forgotten what real life is about if he ever knew had one of the vets around for tea as i was backing her up spent the evening playing take two and had fun friday a very bad day at the office dear oh dear oh dear the day was great to start with headed down to iselgate to see a lame bull to give it a certificate they are still suffering from both the financial and emotional scars of fmd mind you they were always odd she was talking about the isolation that was hard to break out of and get back in to doing things again they were also hoping to retire when they were 50 but bse hit so they decided to keep on and had no income from jan to october last year mind you they would only usually be selling stores any way the day was taking a turn for the worse when after sorting out umpteen decisions for the practice manager on organisational issues he said wasnt it easy when you were just being a vet fatal mistake as the next dog to be seen was an odd ball it had woken up that morning after being perfectly ok up til then it had growled at tis owner and he had decided to leave it for a while after an hour or so he went to get it up out of its bed and it flew at him and as he put it meant it so he rang up and brought it to the vets this change of behaviour meant he had put it in a kennel and left it so when i went in to examine it growled and flapped its ears at me and bit at the bars some dogs in pain or fear will growl or let you know that it is not happy but this one meant it we had a go at trying to get it examined by using the dog catcher and muzzles but it mean it left it to settle down over lunch but it was worse finally got it sedated it had a temp of 104 injected mm and so was a case of encephalitis with rage so after 3 vets all looking at it and umming and erring we decided to get a maff vet to have a look just to check that it wasnt rabies i had forgotten that none of them are clinical or able to handle animals but it was a bit of a joke but as there was no history with it of contact with abroad it has been left alive for the time being but the stress of both handling the dam thing and the worry of is it rabid and the consequences was some what tiring so i am washed out tonight tomorrow is another day week 27 sat 28th september saturday do tell me there is light at the end of the tunnel because at the moment i definitely feel there isnt so i have taken time off next week to catch up on all the things that need sorted at home we are supposed to be putting in a new bathroom and we need to get the stuff ordered so the guy can fit it you never know it may include doing a few diaries sunday my wife is on a counselling course this w e so i ma on the run around with the kids yesterday was spent watching the boys plat football and run here and there with friends son had 2 friends to come and camp last night so he is a little on the tired side the weather is warm and sunny a real indian summer the autumn raspberries that are usually delicious but quite sparse are huge and plentiful well i definitely have a teen age daughter as for the first time i had a phone call late in the evening from carlisle asking her to be picked up as her lift home had not worked out fortunately it was from the church youth group but it is the sign of things to come the youth group took the church service tonight so it was really good looking at our world the pressures on young people and how they respond as christians and applying their faith to their own situations very challenging monday we have an open night tomorrow night and it doesnt seem very organised yet not my pigeon i have made a resolution not to get worked u about things that are not my responsibility and just leave them be the 2 new vets are beginning to really pull their weight which is great and colleague is back from his honeymoon brown and jet lagged they spent time at the beach and on safari so had a great time nurse has headed off to the far blue yonder she is one of our nurses and has gone to nz for a month so it will be strange with out her other nurse is just back from states and another vet is about to go to the caribbean for 2 weeks so i am getting itchy feet time to travel at least i should be of to india in the new year tuesday year end oct 1st so stock taking which for me includes mucking out my car i thought it was quite normal to take the wheelie bin to the car and just hoy the contents in until my neighbour saw one of the rare occasions when it happens and burst out laughing he found it quite amusing i was a bit taken a back at the time but we always assume what we do is normal the open day was ok but wife was out so had to juggle things a bit i was on call so late finished and had to fetch son from football as his practice had been shifted to tuesdays with the dark nights so i owe friend a bottle of wine for turning up half an hour late to pick him up the boiler man arrived at 7pm to fix the boiler which was blowing fuses he needs a lesson on time management had several interesting conversations on fmd the most amusing one was about tony blair arranging his bust up with unions on the anniversary of the fmd out break finishing so as to keep it out the news the same farmer said about the govts response the countryside alliance march the fact that they have reduced the sparsity factor in the allocation of central funds to local authorities this means that those with a lower population density and therefore a higher perceived cost of providing services are going to have this downgraded or in this farmers opinion take money from the countryside to the town dont march or this govt will kick you where it hurts in a very subtle way the other one was probably more relevant in that in a group discussion admittedly fuelled by an intake of free alcohol several were saying that this year was harder to cope with than last as there was no crisis or adrenalin to keep them going and that the toll from last year was beginning to tell on them and their nerves two were still under court threats from trading standards defra for not complying with regulations both will in my opinions not result in anything but they are pretty pissed off to put it mildly there is also a real antagonism to doing the testing for ministry and we are in the cross fire as defra vets decide what is to be done and yet we are the ones trying to arrange and get the testing done while they do not have to pay us they do have to spend a fair chunk of time organising and actually getting the job done we are having a real problem with organising the testing on one of the common grazings there are 14 farmers with animals on it biosecurity is a joke when your animals are on common grazing with 14 others and trying to get 2 farmers to agree on a date and a method of doing it they all have different ideas and most do not want so and so there co he ll just wind the cattle up and well never catch them weds day off so caught up on garden and sleep thursday i really enjoyed the crack today there was just that right amount of work and banter to have a good day laughter and fun is infectious friday out for a meal at night which was great but 8 30 start tomorrow sat am is not going to be good october a young colleagues brother was killed in an accident and as m writes retrospectively see below there followed a very difficult month in which he was unable to keep a diary saturday 5th october it is in the smallest of things that suddenly life changes very suddenly and we then look back and see how we were and are not now i had a phone call at ten to five from one of the young vets father father was asking to speak to george or i that in itself was strange the receptionist came and found me with a quizzical look saying he did not want to speak to young vet when i answered the phone he said that they had bad news in that her brother had been killed in a traffic accident so i had to tell her the bad news and then sort out the consequences once she had got over the initial shock wife drove her to her parents home in her car the other partners are away so we are short staffed and young vet will obviously not be back for a while it is at times like this that i am always grateful that i can go back to god and trust in him even though i do not understand anything i know that i can trust god jan 2003 writing retrospectively about october 2002 there is a month of diaries missing from the death of vets brother onwards i always meant to go back and fill in the days that i missed but never made the time or the effort i found the time very difficult so how her parents and sister in law coped i do not know the funeral was at kirby and i am pleased that i went it was very sad to see some one in the prime of their life with so much to offer cut down in such a random way it was a very cumbrian farming gathering the red faced craggy farmers and yet there was a friend of the family who sang at the wedding who was a black american gospel singer the global village or world wide family of the church take your pick the death of some one young always makes you consider your own mortality and makes you think about what you are doing will you on your death bed wish that you had made different choices the next month was busy and stressful and probably a time which would have been useful for the study to have thoughts and reactions to my life when under stress but i suppose to a certain extent when we are close to something we go on automatic pilot and do the urgent leaving the things on the periphery he was killed while driving a tractor back from where they had been testing cattle for american bvd they had bought in pedigree world class dairy cattle this included a sibling to an embryo which had had the american bvd so the ministry were keen to make sure that it was not established within the uk hence the reason for the blood sampling i know you cannot look at history and say what if but if the cattle had not been culled there would have been no blood sampling to do and no reason to be on the road that day at that time linkage is not the way to go he may have had to go to feed stock or he could have been in an accident in another way but the ripples of actions continue to reverberate around at least in my head saturday 12th october again m is writing retrospectively here of his first thoughts after diagnosing his first fmd case these weeks were not completed because of my stress levels i have wanted to transcribe my first thoughts on fmd that were written in a hotel in newcastle at 2am after diagnosing my first case to my wife dear wife i dont know why i am writing this as i hope to see you tomorrow but i suppose i need to record what i feel for you and for me besides sleep eludes me today was a beautiful day of winter sunshine warm sunshine that speaks of the spring that is to come on frosted snow that is clear and white and pure a great day to be walking up in the hills on a sunday afternoon enjoying gods wonderful creation but this is a fallen world the only walkers are me the ministry man in disposable boiler suit and waterproof jacket and trousers and a farmer with a heavy heart we go into each field checking and inspecting all the pregnant ewes herding them into a corner to catch and examine them feet ok mouth ok a smile the only clue to the sadness on this mans heart is the slight acrid smell which wafts now and then on the wind the smell of his neighbours future burning on another ministry mans pyre its 2 oclock in the morning and why am i writing this because i cannot sleep the ministry man who then examined the cows blisters in its mouth blisters on its tongue temp 105f i am sorry i say it is theyll all go he manages to say fighting back tears if the lab confirms it yes i reply as a farm vet of 15 years experience i am not allowed to say it is foot and mouth disease only that i suspect it an anonymous telephone answerer in london makes stupid comments and stupid questions i take my samples from the cow i grab its tongue to pull it out to take a sample of the skin from the tongue the cows tongue comes off in my hand i try not to be sick and place the sample in the bottle we go into the farmhouse he is in tears she is in tears i feel like crying i wouldnt do your job for all the b tea in china she says i am a volunteer a tvi all big depts have their jargon and i dont speak it yet a temporary veterinary inspector i only started 3 days ago a clean vet who had not been in contact with the foot and mouth disease a volunteer from general practice seconded to be used as a pawn in the battle against fmd a man from the ministry as i leave a dirty vet having double disinfected with my samples and a heavy heart i take off the disposable boiler suit and put on my shoes i am me again not the man from the ministry hey lad nobody would know you from anyone else like that says the farmer he has seen me as i am i see him as he is living with his mother since his father died so as to be on hand to run the farm his wife and her mother in law trying to share a house and a kitchen while they convert a barn into a house the builder was told to stay away a week ago in case he brought disease onto the farm tomorrow he will be told to stay away as there will be no income for at least 6 months while i filled in forms i had never seen before with initials and jargon ive never heard she phoned her sister to pick up the prescription for anti depressants the doctor said she should go on them while the stress and worry of foot and mouth was about well its here he hasnt eaten and will not sleep tonight she is anxious and will not get any rest and the man from the ministry well its 2am and i am writing this far from home a volunteer a tvi a pawn in a bigger game but after 5 days of being dirty and i can rejoin life back to normal back to my home to my job and my future my farming couple 5 days of shooting and burning of disinfectants and diggers six months of quarantine and a future in farming maybe or maybe not the stories abound of three generations waiting for the men from the ministry but grandfather will not see the farm restocked the stress was too much for his already dodgy heart the countryside is under siege and pawns are being lost to win a greater gain and why are we having to work these long hours and sacrifice these pawns because some one was so arrogant so stupid and so lazy that he couldnt be bothered to heat the swill he fed to his pigs he couldnt keep to the rules that were made so this would not happen it is not intensive vs extensive organic vs agribusiness it is sheep vs goats and they will be sorted saturday 2nd november the start of writing diaries again after a break of a few weeks i am hoping to go back and fill in as time permits so this is today and forward looking working the w e with young vet and aw sat am she had a calving this morning at 4am and so is a little on the tired side so hope it is quiet for rest of the w e did surgery and then spent the afternoon trying to fix the out sidelights the front went 18monhts ago which shows how well i am keeping up with the maintaince on this house but the back one went recently and that is a real pain as you cant see your way to the car at night so i am more concerned about getting it fixed the old lights are just rusted up and you can no longer replace the bulbs so up the ladder to re wire new lights i went unfortunately i was on call and yes i suppose i was trying to do too much but if you dont try you dont succeed so i downed tools went off to calve a cow and then came back to find a neighbour plus her 4 children in our kitchen so i stopped had a cup of tea and then headed back up the ladder now wife maintains i should have noticed that there were lights on at this point i would like to point out that i should also notice when she has moved furniture had her hair cut or even spring cleaned the house as i am often berated for my lack of noticing these sorts of things yes i should have noticed but i didnt i was focussed on what i was trying to do as usual so up the ladder i went to connect up the light not knowing that wife had switched the electrics back on and yes when i was at the top of the ladder i grabbed the wires and then spent what seemed an awfully long time trying to let them go and stay on the ladder as the electric current was shocking me so the light did not get fixed as i was not going back up the ladder as i was now in shock ho hum sun finished the light while every one was out and then picked up a from a sleep over and went to church in wigton pm was speaking on the parable of the 10 bridesmaids which was good as i had never understood it as it is obviously related to a cultural thing that happened at weddings in jesus day the point being that the wise ones who were waiting for the return of the bridegroom had the oil in their lamps and the concept that this was the holy spirit that meant they could meet with the bridegroom i e christ i am not sure that the idea is entirely right since there is that big leap oil holy spirit but it was interesting i still think it was a cultural thing that was obvious to his original listeners and we just dont have a clue ali and andy called around in the evening it was really good to see him again he used to be a vet here who left several years ago and it looks that at long last he is going to look to settle down he was quite depressing about la vet practice though he is now 100 small animal so he is biased they are actively looking at taking tb testing from the vets in his area and the vets are dropping the farm practice as being uneconomic so much for the govt wanting more farm vets around at least this is a low cost area so at least we are not competing with small animal practices able to offer large wages to assistant vets he is looking to set up his own or buy a practice to settle into they are obviously looking to get married so that will be another wedding to go to we have been invited to lbs who is finally marrying p they have been following each other around the world for the last 2 years from disaster to disaster as they are both in humanitarian relief work she was a vet student here too mon monday monday tell me why i dont like mondays young vet is exhausted and everything is catching up with her so she is going to take the end of the week off the joiner finally arrived to put in the windows and had real problems writhing the old ones out and so has taken half the sand stone with them so they will have to be reconcreted which is a builders job ie he is not going to do it the bathroom is still in pieces 8 days it was supposed to take and we are now in the third week work was bedlam so i was queuing the ops up this morning i hate operating all morning as it is very draining as i have to concentrate on what i am doing while the office staff keep coming with more and more queries urgh got another stupid letter from the planners quibbling about listed building consent that i am trying to get for the windows that are being fitted as i speak i started the ball rolling in august no wonder the country is going to the dogs tuesday calmed down a bit having filled in the visa forms for our holiday to india the great legacy of the british the bureaucracy is alive and well why do they want to know my mothers place of birth and maiden name for a 2 week holiday civil servants missed the gym cos surgery went on and on i went to a farm and was asked a lot of questions about tb as they had had a reactor the ministry had been out testing but hadnt bothered to tell us mushroom farmers son is in the process of planning next years football team weds went to a farm today and he is complaining that he cannot get his cows in his restocked herd back in calf it seems to be an ongoing problem a lot of those who have restocked with whole herds are having reduced fertility in their herds it would be an interesting study to see the figures compared to non restocked herds thursday counting the days until i am off work continues to be too hectic vet who lost her brother is off and it makes the whole pack of cards of having enough vets to cover fall down i think too i am just very tired from being too busy for too long when planning staffing levels it is usual to be cautious rather than to have too many vets around not making any money we thought we were stretching it by employing the 2 new grads instead of the one it is also just being under pressure all the time with out a few days to cruise it went out to chris swifts for the vcf veterinary christian fellowship which was really good as usual f was telling us about the thanksgiving service that they had just held at barnard castle she has also just got engaged so it may curb her wanderings she is an explorer and mountaineer she is just back from antarctica and is currently doing some research and a phd at durham barnard castle practice seems well organised and also flexible in that she is only working 3 days a week to spend 2 days at durham on the phd it was really good speaking to friends about vets brother as paul was with them at the accident as he was taking the bloods so spent quite a while praying for them and for other things friday bad day had a phone call from the planners saying they were not going to allow double glazing and that they want the glazing bars to be 10mm not 20mm why there are no 10mm glazing bars on the spot the ministry london have decided that they are not going to train lay tb testers and that all the work is going to go out to lvis us so we are now looking at a lot of work again carlisle defra in conjunction with london have decided that they are going to want all the restocked herds tested annually with every animal tested not just the adult breeding stock so from looking at dropping 1 2 vets 10 days ago we are now going to be looking at employing extra staff if we can get hold of them how are we supposed to be planning for the future if it is so dependent on the whim of defra officials saturday 9th november went to the school pta pub quiz last night at the rugby club it was good fun but i was struggling both to stay awake and to dredge up the infotainment trivia of the previous year it is funny how the questions chosen reflected the people who were asking them what had stuck in their memory or that they had chosen nick and jane were across from newcastle i stayed with them for a few nights when working for defra across there when i could not face the faceless loneliness of the hotel consequently was completely zonked sat morning just went around the house being grumpy went to watch son play football they thrashed yewdale in the county cup it was good to be out in the fresh air and came back to sleep for a while before heading out to roy and christianas en famille we had to pick up fraser from wigton this is their son who has just started seeing a girl in wigton he is 14 and so was amusingly embarrassed we were talking about leaving the kids at what age do you leave them on their own and to look after the younger ones christiana told us about when she left all three boys for an hour and a half and the older two had got so fed up with youngest being annoying they hung him by his joggers from the post at the bottom of the stairs the middle one said in all seriousness that it was his fault that he had torn his trousers if he hadnt tried to escape the trousers would have been fine even now he considers that the wrongdoing was the ripping of the trousers not the fact that they had hung him up sun went to church in morning and fittingly for remembrance sunday it was on repentance and gods love daniels prayer in daniel 9 was very fitting some how lunch and more football and crashed in to bed exhausted mon tim is away for the first time on his own with the school on an outward bound week south of keswick he was so excited about going i think wife was a little put off that he was not thinking about missing home hey ho but that is a sign of secure roots i suppose met up with as maths teacher to discuss her maths there has been a lot of to and froing between the teachers but not much communication with home so we went to see what they were saying and have left it as the status quo which is what it should be first call today was a farmer who is just out of hospital having had his appendix removed for appendicitis he had seen this cow and said why havent you had the vet to it he is a good stocksman and with him being out of action they had a relief milker in who hadnt noticed it had a twisted uterus and was trying to calve if i had seen it on friday i could have sorted it out but because it was now to late i had to send it off it is sad but the agricultural industry is losing a lot of experience and a lot of stocksmanship and handling and general expertise it is not sthg that can be replaced we are seeing more twisted wombs because of the transport and fighting amongst restocked herds the sad thing is that he said to me we should never have restocked we should have taken the money and let it all go it is just too much hassle with the paper work and training cows they have just housed the cattle and so they are all fighting to come in to the parlour to get milked and just making life difficult there is a real disillusionment around at the moment but there are also those who are gearing up to milk more and more cows to stay still 300 tuesday the great european market combined with defras inflexibility is causing a few problems the dutch heifers that have been imported to replace some of the fmd losses have a unique identifier number which is on their ear tag so everyone knows who they are so far so good they also have nl on them rather than uk which means we know they are from holland the problem is they have a small check digit on them at the end this means dutch computers can recognise if the ear tag is a valid one or has been misread the uk tags have a check digit at the front of the number very useful to help rule out misreadings or transcribing of the ear tags however the defra computer doesnt recognise the numbers so we are being asked to retest heifers because they still have an outstanding record of the ear tag numbers as untested because the extra digit has or had not been entered on the uk system the number of out standing tests is dropping but we will not be able to keep up with this level of testing more allocations have arrived today managed to get all the bits sorted so i could leave at 5 30 for my few days off the only out standing thing is the stuff for the accountant end of year it was supposed to be in by 18th of oct but hey ho weds i have taken a few days off to try and paint the windows and new bathroom we are having put in the planners phoned to query again about the windows and i told them they were already in so it went down like a lead balloon and they are coming to tell me off they also started querying the other windows from 95 the problem with having a few days off is that i get very head achey and feel washed out and ill once the adrenalin stops i seem to crash thursday met up with charlie from longtown vets for lunch which was great his practice in carlisle that he has started is going well it is on the main road out to scotland and looks really good and he is getting lots of custom just by being there he is looking for a part time vet to start mornings friday repainted the bathroom walls after discovering i had used 2 different shades of green one was ming grey the other ming blue i just opened them one after the other and thought the difference was because the one had dried and the other was still wet ooops the plumber is having problems with the electrics and getting the lights to work so it was all fused out i am just glad we have a shower as well or we would all be getting rather smelly by now went to watch changing lanes at cinema a rather thoughtful if slow and unbelievable set up but nice escapism for an hour or two saturday november 16th working again but feel better for having had a few days off even if the bathroom isnt finished getting to be a bit of a saga oh well never mind sat morning surgery was busy and then several farm calls afterwards for the amount of stock around and the cost effectiveness of veterinary time we are doing an incredible amount of clinical work dan the sheep ai vet who locums for us on occasions phoned up wanting alisons phone number she was of course out it being sat night his technician is ill and he has 250 swales to ai tomorrow hope he finds some one all the sheep ai and embryo technicians are very busy as people try to build up their pedigree herds and flocks by breeding for top quality sun am busy with calls and then painted doors in bathroom while son painted the window very messy but he enjoyed it it will give him confidence to try again it is patience and practice went to church in the evening rob whitaker the principal of capernwray bible college was preaching he is so animated and relevant he was talking on feeding the 5000 and jesus compassion and just the circumstances jesus was in at the time how he used the disciples and then applying it to us and to the church in general espy compassion very challenging went on to meet up with lads and spent time praying phil is pretty down about not having a job it effects his self worth didnt help that fraser had a brand new merc sitting out side his house mon hit the maelstrom running with an in tray flowing out and still nothing together for year end to accountant so pushed practice manager and then started operating and haunting him every 20 mins in between ops and keeping him on task the problem is that there are so many other things going on at the moment that the non urgent keep disappearing in to tomorrow the new drugs discount system is working and generating a lot of interest and then hopefully will cut down on the black market with any luck the increased turn over will make up for margin usual problem solving and smoothing over and 2nd opinions to sort out the 20 day rule is not stopping one of our local cattle dealers from buying and selling he says the paperwork to run 5 holding numbers is horrendous ken and anne called around and it was really good to see them they have a lime spreading business and have been really busy over fmd both with lime for land that is going to be used for barley and crops rather than grass and with a lot of stone for building work and new pathways and for lonnings whereas farmers were happy to move cattle via roads they are trying to reduce the movements along roads and are putting in tracks for the cows tuesday more tracings to check for tb these are cattle bought from a farm where tb has since been confirmed and the paperwork to go with them ear tags dont correlate so going to be a problem rota nightmare at the moment as everyone is organising their skiing trips so we are going to have 1 2 vets off all of jan and most of feb took first box load of paperwork to the accountant he is an old fashioned up the back stairs not a computer in sight type of fella he is a wily old fox much more than he looks as he manages to keep the taxman happy and off our backs which is probably the most important the financial year doesnt look too bad but doesnt allow for the number of days of holiday carried over if we had to give the holiday pay or pay a vet to cover for those days it would make them look a lot less rosy got back in time for gym and then tuesday kid chauffer work then fell into bed and slept weds the phone stopped at 4 00pm and didnt ring again until 9 30 this morning weird the work has just stopped like a tap being turned off so got the rest of testing sorted sorted out the rest of the stuff for the accountant tidied the office wrote up my book and even thought about mucking my car out only got as far as thinking about it as coffee break arrived didnt earn much but felt a lot better for it skipped off early and gave the bathroom doors second coat thursday 21st november pay day decided that if defra was a business it would be bust by now we are on a rollercoaster trying to look at the future with them they only make up in a normal year about 20 of our farm fee income but that has been much higher over the past few years the chief defra vet has been flying kites as they say in politics to see what the reaction is or has been doing as he has been told by whitehall i dont know what the ins and outs of it are but the gist has been they are going to employ their own vets to do the testing as this would be much more efficient and cost effective when it was pointed out this wasnt going to be the case we went to they would employ non vets to do it as this would be much cheaper there would then not be any farm animal vets in large areas of the country as it would reduce the fee income even further where the farm side of vet businesses is marginal it would just be given up it would mean our business in a high stock area would probably drop 2 vets so london finally decided that the status quo would probably be best at the same time carlisle in consultation with page st decided that as there is so much tb being found in the restocked farms that all the restocked farms should be tested on an annual basis and that all animals not just breeding stock should be tested this means about a 25 increase in work load for the next 2 winters so instead of dropping a vet we should look to be taking one on but we cannot believe what is going to happen next as how can we plan when such drastic changes are proposed in the space of a month friday had a horrendous night with ill calves with pneumonia in the evening a calving at 1 am in silloth then a dog trying to die at 5am so was i ever pleased that it was my half day slept and played squash with l j in the afternoon the dog belonged to an old lady who had no children and it was her husbands dog who had died 4 years previously she was going to be on her own if it dies so she was very tearful and upset the dog is not looking good as it is 16yr poodle type thing she is isolated booth because she doesnt drive and lives out at the coast and because she and her husband retired to here and neither have any family around i felt for her made me appreciate my family so much more saturday 23rd november wife is away on a course today so for my w e off i am running the kids and doing the cooking i dropped of other son to squash did some errands in wigton and then watched the squash coaching they are very patient and encouraging the total contrast was shown at son s football they are a very good team but i really do not like the attitude of most of the coaches and teams in the carlisle teams i was late to arrive and they were already 4 0 up and this was the second half it was only when i walked around to where the coach was did he think about giving son and the other 2 subs a game we have had it out with him before that he should give all the kids a chance to play or else they find it crushing son was really fed up with the situation but he does love playing and is quite loyal the coach always justifies that he has to play his best team which he doesnt he plays his favourites friends sons but the point is irrelevant if you are winning by that margin then you can afford to have weaker players on the field they went on to win 10 0 we will have to get a thursby team organised for next year went on to longtown poultry sale very interesting lots of rare birds and waterfowl will have to go and buy next year and get some different types for a to breed up sun dan spoke on walking on water in his own inimitable style he is so refreshing and practical and honest made it a call to prayer as well didnt do much in morning as wife was on course but finally managed to finish bathroom hoorah mon decided that if defra was a business it would be bust by now we are on a rollercoaster trying to look at the future with them they only make up in a normal year about 20 of our farm fee income but that has been much higher over the past few years the chief defra vet has been flying kites as they say in politics to see what the reaction is or has been doing as he has been told by whitehall i dont know what the ins and outs of it are but the gist has been they are going to employ their own vets to do the testing as this would be much more efficient and cost effective when it was pointed out this wasnt going to be the case we went to they would employ non vets to do it as this would be much cheaper there would then not be any farm animal vets in large areas of the country as it would reduce the fee income even further where the farm side of vet businesses is marginal it would just be given up it would mean our business in a high stock area would probably drop 2 vets so london finally decided that the status quo would probably be best at the same time carlisle in consultation with page st decided that as there is so much tb being found in the restocked farms that all the restocked farms should be tested on an annual basis and that all animals not just breeding stock should be tested this means about a 25 increase in work load for the next 2 winters so instead of dropping a vet we should look to be taking one on but we cannot believe what is going to happen next as how can we plan when such drastic changes are proposed in the space of a month tuesday went to do routine fertility at a farm today and it was quite depressing in that a neighbour of theirs who has started up again has had a really bad time the problems of restocking on top of bad hips he was all gung ho to get restocked and although he had a sore leg he didnt go to the doctors while he had the chance when he had no stock as it was only a little sore but as soon as he got stock back and started to do a lot of physical work they were very sore so he went to the drs and has 2 hips which need replaced but as he is only 40 they dont want to do it yet and it would mean no physical work for a long period on top of that he has mastitis problems caused by taking his plant to pieces by defra he has lost 8 cows and heifers through calving illness or injury so after less than a year he looks set to give up disillusioned and a lot poorer the workload for us is easing as most cattle are now housed and a lot of the housing work is sorted i always feel it is a run down to christmas now with all the preparations and celebrations and kids and adult parties i was at another farm today who had meningitis a year ago and has still not really recovered properly he is still finding it hard to get going he lost all his animals and all his work during fmd and the additional strain has meant he has lost a lot of interest in the farming side he cant be bothered with all the hassle and paper work of farming sheep and cattle and so is growing a lot of veg which he and his wife have always enjoyed growing they just retail at the farm gate it doesnt make much money but as he says it just keeps things turning over and he and his wife have time for each other and no hassle life is more important than making a living very profound i am going to go part time i wish wednesday there seem to be a lot of problems still on restocking farms they are all having problems with getting the cows back in calf two farms today complained that even though they were more than pleased with the compensation at the time the costs of restocking are much much more it would be interesting to do a survey on the number of breeding animals bought in and those who have been lost either through illness or by failure to get in calf the old diseases are still causing the most problems lung worm a disease i thought was well under control and well understood has caused huge problems ibr or cow flu has caused so many problems that we can no longer get the vaccine as all the stocks have been used it was interesting today that one of the farms that is about to start milking having finally restocked ordered vaccine for lepto ibr and bvd almost as a matter of course but fertility is causing the most worries thursday feel a lot better after an early night apart from running to and from carlisle after my daughter youth group last night and evening shopping tonight son is still trying to organise an u14 thursby team for next year all he needs is a coach the problem is that it is a big commitment i wish i could do it but i work too many w es spent time day dreaming about what to do with the byre in our yard it is an old knackered building that needs bulldozing but wife s dad thinks we should just look after it and convert it into sthg but what i still think that there is an opening for herriot holidays taking people for a day at the vets and then a day at the mart and so on diversification is the name of the game friday had an interesting day what with one thing and another no lunch but hey whos complaining one of the nurses at work has a chicken shed with her husband and another farmer partner the fans and alarms all failed and so the air was not circulating the farmer was devastated it was a horrendous sight a carpet of dead chickens there were 23000 in the shed and we worked out there were roughly 2 3000 left alive 20000 dead it brought back memories of fmd also the logistics of disposing of 20 tonnes of dead chicken i hope the insurance covers it out for dinner at christianas had a vet friend call around at teatime he is a meat hygiene practice covering several different meat plants they have several vets covering all the different plants he has been asked to got to harrogate to discuss how the different proposed regulations can be implemented a marked improvement on the usual dumping of unworkable ideas from defra hq saturday 30th nov took a while to get going after being out for dinner last night though it was very pleasant spent day doing odds and ends went to watch son play footie and bought an orchid from the orchid farm the kids were making cards for mum and wrapping presents so it was fun james came down with his kids so there were 7 running riot which is really a bit too many after a late night sun 1st church in the morning and johnboy called around to see what time the prayer meeting finished as he had arranged a surprise party for wife s 40th so had loads of folks in sunday night which was great they had all crept in to the big kitchen and decorated it while we were in the front room a and son had been going back and forth so wife never noticed so it was special the kids were as high as kites mon 2nd wife is forty and theres a photo in the news and star to prove it the kids brought breakfast in bed and opened presents poor other son after 3 late nights did not want to go to school i hope they are all right for gran wife s mum and sister arrived nannies from ireland to the rescue they are going to look after the kids while we are away for a few days we have had a bit o banter about them looking after the kids sister found an advert for nannies from ireland which is an au pair service and sent of for the info which she forwarded to us she is a character so they have been asking about working conditions and pay i have been requesting police checks and giving as good as i get the winds are pretty strong so they have had a bad journey the super ferry was cancelled so they have had to come by boat which takes much longer a baked a cake and managed to get 40 candles on it both wife and i are looking forward to getting away as usual work was really busy and lots of loose ends to tie up prior to leaving but finished for 3 days hoorraaahhh tues 3rd spent the day travelling up to loch lomond stopped off at braeside and at gretna and bought some clothes and mooched around cameron house is beautiful with wonderful views and you can just walk down to the lake there is a pool so went for a swim before dinner very civilised we had just finished dinner when the waitress arrived with a cake with 4 candles and sang a rather wobbly happy birthday sister had been very keen that we left the phone number of cameron house even though she had our mobile numbers now we know why very pleasant surprise but we will never eat any cake let alone a whole one while we were strolling around after dinner came across the picture that one of our friends had used to decorate the kitchen with on sunday he had come across it somewhere in a book and it looks vaguely like wife so he had put it up with lady wife underneath and here was the original or at least a print of the same picture weird weds after a very lazy start a swim before breakfast full scottish we walked up eastern edge of loch in sunshine and showers we were only caught out in one shower there was a rainbow down to the loch edge a beautiful winter walk i have decided i am going to walk the west highland way with the boys had some fruit for lunch as cooked breakfast on top of dinner last night means i dont really need to eat for a week another swim thought about the gym but i am on holiday and felt wonderfully relaxed and then dinner thursday another lazy start and swim before breakfast a walk along the loch and the back to glasgow to the burrell collection we just wandered around the paintings i can sit and look at the impressionists and keep seeing something new they are very beautiful came back home in time for tea though did not eat anything as too much food made up a ditty for the nannies nannies from ireland came to stay so respondent and wife could go away off the children went to school while respondent and wife swam in the pool the nannies were left with all the dust cleaning dirt for their daily crust their experienced gleaned over all the years could not stop all other son s tears off to school you must go said a stern faced nanny lo the nannies go to tk max forgetting all about the cats something is sick on the mat the nannies really dont like that a m l begs go and fetch all the eggs on animals theyre not too what did the contract really mean keen they will not give another day until something is done about their pay so back to ireland with this tale they do go via cummersdale as their pay all disappears they decide on new careers lois thinks of a racing car ruth just of going far so our thanks to them are due the nannies from ireland crew its now their turn to go and play till theyre called another day edited to remove names in verse friday bad hair day having come back all relaxed and cheerful i was relaxed until i missed my lunch after working all day plenty of hassle from one thing and another i was then on call at night and it was very busy loch lomond and cameron house seem a long long time ago i am extremely fed up i do not want to calve another cow out side office hours ever again saturday 7th december worked this morning after a bad night on call and felt like death warmed up did surgery and then sorted stuff out and did some calls got finished at 1pm and went back to bed went to xmas party at white heather which was good fun but i was just too knackered to enjoy it sunday working a few calls and plenty of pneumonia drugs for calves there is a lot of pneumonia about with the east wind blowing it is a wee bitty cruel wind but at least it is dry not weather to be working out side it also seems to be getting dark really early i need some sun on my back 4 weeks to go till india had a migraine or flu at night and went to bed and started throwing up i cannot burn the candle at one end even at the moment mon off work ill but a new vet student starting and r is off as well xmas shopping so thrown in at deep end tuesday went back in and did my bit working at night but night work easing off thank goodness plenty of high cell count investigations to try and sort out weds took kids swimming after work with the vet student it was good to do some exercise and chill out went to staples prior to going to the pool where as usual there was no one on the desk for print cartridges so i went and found one of the girls chatting on the till to get me what i was looking for as i couldnt find an hp58 what i hadnt noticed was some one else just standing at the other end of the long counter who was then very upset and aggressive that i had jumped the queue he is obviously having a worse week than me as he could have gone and got some one from the tills as easily as i did but didnt so why he got so upset i dont know nowt as queer as folk other son was very upset tonight when we got back from swimming because he had shaved one side of his head wife had cut the others hair but his was still short and didnt need it he wanted it done so in the shower took things into his own hands and shaved off his side burn but only on one side he did not like getting laughed at either thursday christiana came to the rescue over the hair other son s and has managed to make it look not too bad but it was funny on call at night but as most nights seem double booked at the moment went to kids performance they are doing alice in wonderland very good they can really sing and perform the teachers do get a lot out of them tim was the knave of hearts character actor and other son was a frog footman grebbit grebbit it was good fun only had a phone call to put a client at ease about her cat so managed to wing it friday out at friends tonight kids younger 2 at performance older 2 are at xmas meal so a bit of a juggling act to get everyone at right place at right time missed out on the cumberland vet club social which was a shame but can only be in one place at a time saturday 14th december had a good meal out except only started talking about the publicity for as i was wanting to go and fall asleep some where i cannot take late nights it is just i am feeling too tired all the time i think that the adrenalin has run out and i just feel stale hope xmas sorts it out spent morning working did surgery and then sorted out queries with gg for the accountant spent the afternoon writing cards and trying to put together lists of folk we should send too a disaster got as far as m before running out of cards and initiative went around to ss for nibbles as a house warming she is some caterer her mother does it as a job so she has helped so great food could have done with some non vets to dilute down the vetiness sunday got up and took kids to church wife is doing a thing on borderline at night so she has to prepare that played football and caught up with a few bits and pieces and did some gardening chatted to a vet from chippenham who was complaining about the tb situation there they have one beef farm where when they first discovered tb the farm took a week to test as there were 600 head there are only 200 left so it only takes a day the farmer has been unable to but in store cattle to feed and has lost over 100 to defra it has been 2 monthly testing for almost 2 years now and he still has not had a clear test she was down too just from too much on call monday got up feeling exhausted but even though not very busy couldnt get going the dairy farms are all feeling very nervous over the nestle pull out farmers said to me that they were pleased that their sons are not going to be going into farming both teenagers one as year and one a year older both looking to work in it it used to be a point of sadness that the next generation is not following on but there seems to be a general air of resignation that farming is not going to be a good career sad really tuesday 17th december spent the day sorting out the remaining bits and pieces for the accountant we met with him at night which as usual was the sorting out of this and that the finding of the relevant pieces of paper and then what the unaccounted cheques were for we are still making money but only thanks to defra so three cheers for mrs beckett cynic it made it a very long day and lois is off for the week so we are short staffed again but last tests are today as we will not be able to get bloods to the labs because of the christmas post i do like this time of year where you hear from friends who you have not seen for ages and think the same as you did last year i will have to catch up with them soon hey ho weds 18th there is a lot of pneumonia about and the farmers are all buying vast quantities of drugs to treat whole batches of calves and stirks the is the usual mix but far more than normal i dont know whether to be pleased that the practice is doing well and invoicing a lot or sad that there is so much disease around and we will have a horrendous drugs bill a dilemma i dont think i should explore thurs 19th fri 20th kids went to ice rink in carlisle with wife they have set up an out door rink which the city council are sponsoring to attract people in to the centre i dont think that they really need to as the place seems crowded enough as it is son bashed his head quite badly and other son fell over and hurt his knee tim fell loads of times and just ended up wet and happy their different characters are coming out saturday 21st december the beginning of the christmas rota i feel as though we are in the run up to christmas now i have also made the mistake of not buying all my presents before now and went into carlisle to go shopping it was quite nice in some ways to see the ice rink and mingle in the crowds but an hour and a half was plenty the kids have decided that they are going to ask for money to take to india this year from the aunts and uncles and so there will be fewer presents to open as christmas seems to be getting more and more manic and commercialised i think that it is a very good idea well done a and son sunday 22nd carols by candlelight it was magical the church was packed out and so i ended up standing at the back which in some ways was quite nice as you look down the aisles to the stage and there are rows of candles and fairy lights down the sides pm lead it and there were different age groups taking part he spoke on being a christmas tree and how we end up all convoluted by our own wrong choices and how we can have lots of fairy lights and a star on top and have an image on the outside that looks wonderful but what are we like inside all those things we surround ourselves with god knows and he cares and he loves us enough to send a gift to help us his son immanuel god with us who will take away the sin of the world i was really quite moved by it all this is the real christmas mon 23rd bump reality bites back it is difficult to focus on the important things of life and keep a perspective on life if it keeps getting interrupted by monday mornings but that is where jesus should be in the smelly cattle shed and in the market place and making a difference i will have to think that one out while i have time in india the urgent as usual is pushing out the important managed to go swimming at foxes the first exercise i have had for ages must get back into it maybe wait for the new year resolutions as exercise wet weather and working over christmas dont really go together tues 24th christmas eve working but quiet apart from last minute panics as people think that their ill dogs and cats will not make it over christmas with out seeing the vet called in to pow heads for the turkey they really do have a good butchery and poultry business going now good to see direct selling by farmers or cooperatives is the only way forward to break the stranglehold of the supermarkets wife is panicking about not having enough food so i am dispatched to buy more bread and milk i think about protesting that if there were 5000 we still would not need a miracle but decide this is one of those occasions when it is better to just spend another 2 quid for the peace wife s parents arrive an hour later from belfast bringing 2 loaves of bread and 5 different types of irish bread and 6 pints of milk and another 3 boxes of food i wonder about making a joke about feeding the 5000 plus inflation but decide that discretion is the better part of valour and just put them in the freezer weds 25th kids started at 5 45 am and were unceremoniously sent back to bed but they were allowed to bring their stockings in at half past seven i was on 2nd call so while they all went off to church i spent an hour in the surgery seeing dogs one had meningitis and was very near deaths door and the owner was not that worried the other is just unwell and could have waited but the problem is you never know got back and made christmas dinner so wasnt all work though i do feel amongst all the commercialism and turkey dinners the true significance of immanuel god who is with us is lost thursday 26th on first call and lots of pneumonia drugs to put out and kept busy afternoon evening we had folk around lots of different ages and backgrounds so was a real mix and good fun friday 27th surgery reopened and was really busy i am pleased that we had put plenty of staff on the rota it is always a difficult balance to make trying to work out if there will be enough staff to cover the work no one wants to work over xmas new year but if there are not enough then it makes it really awful for those that are working but if you have people sitting around they resent that too but its nice to know i get it right sometimes doing a rota always strikes me as a no win situation as it is always a compromise between the two extremes saturday 28th december on call friday night and then i finished at lunchtime wife wanted me to go on church walk but i was knackered and we are all going out tonight for dinner so i went to bed for a few hours sleep much to my wifes displeasure having been on call for the whole period as soon as i stop i crash out as the adrenalin fades and i realise how tired i am but only mon am to work then prepare for india and hitting the beach it does take its toll on family life being on call especially over the christmas period the folk we are going to dinner with he is a policeman and they have similar frictions sun 29th the service at church tonight was memorable the last evening of the year they have people talking about what god has been doing in their lives so it is usually people who are not eloquent not used to speaking up front but who speak in a very real way about what jesus has been working in their lives over the past year dp who is 14 who has had bone cancer gave a very moving account about how he had nearly died how so often we compare our selves with those who have more than us whether in health or other things we should compare ourselves with those who have less we should appreciate our lives and thank god for who and what we are he has had his ups and downs but we are to follow gods guiding and his path for us our lives are in gods hands we are to pray and to trust in him for our future this is a young lad who has seen 4 of the friends he has made in hospital die it makes the trivia we fill our lives with back in perspective mon 30th last half day and lots of last minute things to sort out before i finish for new year and the 2 weeks in india the cash flow has gone to pot because of the large amount of pneumonia drugs we have sold and tax vat going out in end of jan so needed to make sure someone keeps an eye on it while i am away and makes sure that it all falls into place the problem with going away is that no one keeps up with all the admin type work that i do so my in tray will be overflowing by the time i get back tues 31st the young people are partying at our house so we left them to it rather than cramp their style so we had a very pleasant evening at some farming friends we rang up and called in on spec they have 5 boys so we knew they wouldnt want to get baby sitters for new years eve whereas we had about 40 they have stopped dairying but are now worried about how the new ruling will affect them at the moment they lease their quota which provides a fair amount of income the new german ruling will be applicable across the whole eec that non producers cannot hold and therefore lease quota this means they will have to either sell it in a flooded market or go back to dairy farming unless mr p can work a way around the new system they are also taking advice and looking at all sorts of diversification schemes some seem quite a good idea others i think are non starters they already have invested some of the fmd money into setting up a student house in carlisle the way house prices are going around here it is probably a very good investment not really the way forward for farming though the only depressing feature of the evening was i asked what they thought the future of cattle vets was the answer was none well thats a good start to 2003 we got home to find the party in full swing and we left them to it and went to bed 1st jan 2003 got up some what late after staying up for the new years eve the young people had cleared up after the party and we were amazed at how well they had done they had set off the dish washer and all we had to do was empty it i was impressed the only reminder they had been there was when we drew the curtains there were several glasses which had been missed as they were on the window sill and bizarrely an odd sock the sock game my daughter assures me was very funny but what i want to know is who went home with only one sock on started thinking about india a good job my wife is organised as we set off tomorrow 2nd jan thursday travelled down to see my brother and family it was really good to see them again played risk which was a bit of a christmas tradition when we were kids it was funny to be playing with him and both sets of kids as i felt like a kid again it was really nice though b won he managed to wipe people out and amass their risk cards he risked everything and it went to the last throw of the dice so it was quite exciting friday 3rd jan travelled down to my dads to have tea and drop off some stuff before heading for the airport i am pleased we have had a few days off before flying as it is a night flight and i hate travelling when i am already exhausted the weather was the usual british winter of rain and wind a friend of mine is convinced that this is due to global warming more energy in the system means more rain and wind in which case cumbria is not going to be the place to live as it is already wet and windy enough the next 2 weeks recall xs family holiday to india sat 4th january 2003 i am sitting in the nilgiri hills in southern india in shorts and t shirt enjoying the coolness of the high altitude it is almost twice the height of ben nevis on bbc world last night it showed a reporter in london with an umbrella trying to keep off the large wet snowflakes we are visiting friends who teach at a christian school here the contrasts of india always seem so great the poverty and the opulence side by side the beggars and the road repairers at the side of the road in make shift tents of plastic sheeting and huts of bamboo leaves then the huge opulent houses wooden floored and air conditioned with their own generators and the 4 hotels with marbled floors and artificial streams and waterfalls we came on a cheap charter flight as it was cheaper to come to trivandrum on a flight and a package with hotel b b than to just buy the flights the emphasis though should be on cheap it is the first time i have ever had to pay for drinks on the plane the air stewardesses seemed to be there for a good time rather than to look after the passengers cant complain though as it was cheap the only worry was the re routing we were originally supposed to be going via united arab emirates but the refuelling was transferred to bahrein as we flew in we were warned it was a military as well as civilian airport so no photography was allowed the build up of us forces in the gulf must be pretty major as even here there were large numbers of us air force planes and massive sinister looking helicopters it is difficult to believe that they are aiming to keep the peace by preparing for war the papers here are also full of sabre rattling between pakistan and india with daily reports of skirmishes in kashmir there is also exchanges of political rhetoric between the two states how much is actually for real and how much is sabre rattling no one knows the weekly telegraph is also reporting that iraq has shot down a reconnaissance drone the same sort that blew up one of the el quaedi leaders in yemen the us is obviously trying regime change by several methods the us response was to blow up several command and control facilities the war hasnt officially started yet but the skirmishes are going on the cost the previous year for the raf to patrol the no fly zone was 22 uk million the last quarter was 10 times that so there is money being spent the priorities of govts is often difficult to work out the indian govt doesnt have enough money at the local level to organise a proper refuse collection system yet has money to develop hi tech weaponry the attitudes to rubbish here is very different when we were at the beach the actual beach is combed by litter pickers but the areas in between are terrible there are 2 smart 4 hotels and the govt buildings where the tourism training takes place the grounds are immaculate and the flowers and area beautiful but once out side the grounds it is a cross between a rubbish dump and a building site with piles of rubbish and sand and rubble we went for a snorkelling trip around the coast to a fishing harbour where the sea was calm and there were plenty of rocks for the fish to hide in and swim in and out of the boats were a few bits of wood tied together with string seriously there were two central planks and two edge planks and then an aft piece of wood to hold the aft part together which was reinforced by cord the wood is so light that it floats with our weight fairly easily the oars were split bamboo with no grips so it made for interesting rowing or is it paddling they are more like large canadian canoes than boats very hawaii five o the planks were roughly shaped but as we rode the waves the water fountained up through the holes in the bottom h asked what wood they were made of but didnt understand the answer must be a type of balsa we set off from under the light house there was another group going at the same time i think they must have agreed to pay top whack whereas you soon learn to try to bargain about the price of everything here they had two helpers in the boat to paddle whereas we were the economy class with two paddles but only one guide in our two boats we took turns in helping to paddle whether we made much difference to the progression of the boat i don t know but it was fun it was a bit worrying that we were heading for the least scenic part of the coast the other way is beautiful sandy beaches for miles there is a wave powered generator at the edge of the harbour a few rusty wrecks and bits of broken concrete but when we arrived the snorkelling was brilliant it was like swimming in a tropical fish tank my favourite were small electric blue fish which darted away as soon as you came near there were big black and yellow striped tiger fish there were 2 sorts one with vertical stripes and one with horizontal not at all timid the angel fish with their long dangling barbs were shy and would only appear when you kept still there were some very large spiky sea anemones as big as a football loads of crabs and shoals of fish which swim hither and thither some were quite bizarre there were some that looked like sea horses that had been straightened out you almost could see a jockey getting a saddle ready to put on them for the saltwater derby the huge variety and colours were just outstanding we spent a few hours and then got thoroughly sun burnt on the way back the boys had been full of beans on the way there but were exhausted in the heat on the way back we spent today making and flying kites on top of a hill at pykara the kids or was it the dads made kites and then we tried to fly them hs won his design was copied from an original no stick design and managed to fly almost successfully my traditional kite shaped one flew once but its aerodynamics werent quite right son s yellow square was successful none however matched the ikea bought one we played cricket and frisbee as the water buffalos wandered passed in the typical indian way of having no real boundaries between one thing and another called in at the vederas which was very pleasant the garden was stunning as usual i love driving through the tea plantations with acres of terraced tea plants and through the forest to get there the hotel is an up market indian rather than a western which is great for us the décor lacks a little in taste and design concrete floors and that rather quaint unfinished look spotlessly clean and the thing about india is they love having kids around and spend ages talking with them and love having them around going out for meals in uk with children is always a bit stressful as low blood sugars combined with the general attitude of people to children does not make it a pleasant experience whereas even the hours wait for the food here is not stressful as the kids wander off play games read books etc son and other son have befriended a man at the blue moon gift shop he has spent hours playing chess and talking to them son won a little elephant off him by beating him at chess son decided he would buy josh the chess set and kept bargaining the price down he eventually paid 350 rupees for it 460 the beach is idyllic with palm trees and warm rolling sea the only problem is having to get the kids out of the sun during the red hot period between 12 and 2 we do keep slapping on the sun tan lotion i missed the widows peaks where my hair is receding and have sun burnt red patches either side of my head the boys have variable tanning depending on where the sun block was washed off first dear friends just a quick note to say that we are enjoying ourselves so much that we dont want to come home but we would miss all our friends we had a great time at the beach you know the palm trees the warm rolling sea the sandy beaches and unlike silloth 30 degrees warmth in fact some days it was to hot and we had to drag the boys out of the sea or else they would have been really sun burnt we are just back from 3 days at avalanche which is a bit of an unfortunate name for a mountain out door centre but as there isnt any snow i dont think the indians appreciate the irony it is up in the mountains a jungle area where there is very little apart from a few tea plantations reservoirs and hydroelectric plants and jungle and the wood men who harvest the wood every 10 years we left a bus and walked in to the centre while a truck took the bags food and the lazy ones it is incredibly beautiful with high hills and lakes but there is a drought at the moment so the reservoirs are all very low and everywhere is incredibly dry and dusty thick red dust which gets in to everything the facilities were basic the water ran from a stream to a tank to the taps no electric showers but fortunately as always in india there was a little man or in fact 3 who cooked for us all a is taking after wife their main concern was not meeting any rats we abseiled down a waterfall walked and swam in another well son and other son swam i am afraid it was too cold for me i will wait until we go back down to the beach we all went kayaking and sat around the campfire at night saturday 18th january 2003 the end of our indian holiday and escape from cumbrian weather wife saw the rep yesterday and the bus was arranged for 12 30 for a flight at 5 30 this tour company is something else so we are going to catch a taxi at about 3pm so we are not hanging around the airport for ages having 4 children and going through the bureaucracy of an indian airport is bad enough with out the additional hassle of waiting around for 3 hours with out reason the annoying part is that so much of it is pointless in that they put your bags through the security x ray in the main hall and then give you your bags back so that if you wanted to add stuff to your bag you could you have to go to 1 desk to check in another to get your seat another to exit indian immigration and customs and then identify your bags to get them put on the plane worse than defra so we spent a last morning swimming on the beach and then said good bye to the cs and gs wife had to buy her material fro the study we were all quite sad coming away i think we could have all stayed and enjoyed living in india but back to porridge sun 19th arrived at dads at 3am uk time after clearing customs flight was not too crowded thank goodness as the space allocated for my legs is not enough they had as before messed up their allocation of vegetarian meals with the height of european ignorance and stupidity they offered a hindu family by us a beef meal the stewardesses should have known better but i just cringed with inward embarrassment at their thoughtlessness left in t shirts and shorts arrived cold in jeans and fleeces the air conditioning i dont think was working properly and every one was coughing and dry mouthed as we arrived in gatwick drove back up to cumbria and back to the house it was a strange sensation to be back we had done so much and seemed changed and yet everything here was still the same and yet not really in some ways it is like after the fmd epidemic before and after everything is the same but nothing is the same part of you is trying to find where you fit in the new reality part of you wants the safety of the old ways slightly dislocated from your surroundings but the physical surroundings are the same but i suppose you have changed and the old certainties that were not certain but seemed it have made way for new changeable ways that are not certain and you know that they are not certain mon 20th i have taken the day off to recover the kids were all up really early because of the jet lag and so had no qualms about sending them to school i spent the day unpacking and sorting out with wife the pile of post was huge but seemed a lot more manageable by the time i had thrown out al the junk mail why do i need another 2 credit cards any way transferred money for tax bills and downloaded the emails there were only 50 so ploughed my way through them when you are away for any length of time it makes you realise how much work is required to keep a household going with all the bills and stuff tues 21st back to work and to face my in tray still feeling a little jet lagged and seeing an overflowing in tray as you arrive is a daunting feeling did some of it and then went out on call it was good to be back on farm and seeing folk again it always amazes me how everyone around here knows everything so they were all asking about india and had we had a good time so it was nice to feel part of the community as a friend of mine once commented there is only one thing worse than being talked about that is not being talked about there is still that funny feeling of having been away and having changed but nothing here is any different and yet thinking that it should be though why it should be i dont know weds 22nd george wanted a partners meeting at lunch time so we met up and had the usual decision making process to be honest the jet lag was still really kicking in so i was asleep on my feet it doesnt usually effect me for this long but both wife and i are shattered by 8pm the kids are ok and going to bed after us the sign of things to come the whole pets travel scheme is causing problems it has been presented as a passport for pets but all it really does is allow re entry to the uk from certain countries as long as you meet the conditions we have had a few problems and we do very few so what it must be like for those on the south coast i dread to think the problems are 2 main ones 1 that there is a 6 month period before you can come back into the uk after the paper work is completed you can go before the 6 months so people who spend the summer on a caravan site will take their dog abroad but cannot come back before the 6 month date there is also a problem where the forms have to be renewed it has to be done according to the manufactures directions which vary from country to country as in france it is a govt regulation that dogs are vaccinated annually so the vaccine manufactures stick to that in the uk dogs have to be done every 2 years cats annually so you cannot have your documentation renewed in france unless you vaccinate annually whereas in the uk you can renew it with vaccinating every 2 years the other problem is that the paperwork is so complex that according to defras figures there is a 18 failure rate ie 1 in 6 dont make it back in there is also a problem in that there has been at least one dog imported into cumbria with out any paperwork as the owners thought all they needed was a rabies vaccination we are dealing with it on a weekly basis and are confused so the poor punters dont stand a chance thursday 23rd there is a real problem with cow fertility in the restocking farms at the moment i went to 1 farm where of the 10 cows i checked only one was in calf which is a little sad no baby calves no milk production and more losses for the fmd farmers the compensation is looking very small the only ones who benefited are those who took the money and got out it is difficult trying to work out why these cows are having so much of a problem as usual i suspect there is no simple answer the blood tests and analyses do not help much the cows have been under a lot of stress the movement into new regimes and cattle systems where they have to learn where to go where the water troughs are where the milking parlour is they have had to sort out the pecking order of the cows which espy in the larger units is probably quite stressful where you add animals to a herd there are lead cows who know the set up and cows are very much follow my leader in their behaviour patterns where there is a complete cull and restocking there are no lead cows so no leader for the cows to follow there has also been a lot of illness in the herds which again will reduce fertility the other problem is the poor quality silage because of the bad weather the other factor that keeps coming up in conversation is what effect the topping of grass has on silage grazing quality which would have been an interesting study that will never be done now stress is a generality of a word but i cant think of a better more specific way of expressing the problems the stress of all the changes has caused fertility problems the difficulty is in finding where do you go from here i think a lot will end up culling fairly large numbers 15 20 because of fertility friday 24th one of the defra tvs called in on her way back from a test tb to let us know that there was still an ir causing problems she also said that it looked like there was going to be a complete herd cull for tb in the east of the county the farmer had restocked from three sources all were down to do as tracings as well as to be done under the restocking tb testing they found 32 reactors with lesions so they will probably cull the whole herd it is so depressing to think what the farmer must be thinking and whether he can face getting back into farming again after this further disaster does not bear thinking about saturday 25th january 2003 linda bs wedding travelled down to derby for wedding it was really nice to see them finally tie the knot as they have been talking about it for so long they have followed each other around several continents so at least that will have seen each other in different situations she first came as a student and has worked for us as a locum she spent 2 years at all nations bible college in london where she met him so a lot of their friends from all nations were there they have been doing agricultural relief work in the worlds hot spots from kosovo to indonesia from haiti to bolivia they are currently in bolivia working with church groups she has been setting up tb testing programme as there is a problem of human tb which has been blamed on the cattle but they have completed the testing and it is not the cattle it seems to be nearly all human to human spread so that at least they can make a start on eradicating tb in humans by treating the in contacts they went away from the church in a horse drawn carriage which was nice to see spent quite a lot of time catching up with vets and their friends who we have not seen for ages sun 26th we were staying with friends from carlisle who moved down to derbyshire when he started to teach we went to their church which is a house church and is a little different to put it mildly they meet in a school and it is very informal with a drumming band and a desire not to be restricted by convention or liturgy so it was a mixture of readings and worship songs they do seem to be reaching out to their local community as there were people from all walks of life there mon 27th back to work and not feeling very good had 2 weeks in india and no stomach bugs but a w e in derby and i have a very runny tummy came home from work early and went to bed tues 28th off work ill in bed being male this involves dying noisily in a corner some sympathy i get from my wife weds 29th not feeling good but dragged myself back in as i have had that much time off recently and i feel that i have to turn in but i am off tomorrow so i can recover then the only drawback is that i will be working the w e the sheep seem to have decided to start lambing or maybe decided not as we seem to be seeing a few if you get what i mean thursday had a good day off and spent time sleeping and doing household things even though i hate diy it was good to get some jobs sorted called in at vets to pick up stuff for court tomorrow friday the more i experience the legal proceedings the more i feel that they are a waste of time what is important is how good your lawyer is the case was all about whether or not this guy had starved his greyhounds or not he had but as he was on legal aid he thought it might be better to try to keep his other dogs and have fewer judgements against him he obviously knew his way around the legal system saturday 1st feb 2003 reflections on court case it is one of those really annoying things that you can never replay what has happened the case yesterday really churned me up with having to make huge moral decisions more or less on the spur of the moment the complicating factors were that c who was acting on the defence was acting outside the rcvs guidelines now i could have pointed out this to the rspca lawyer but as c has already been struck off once the matter could well have turned very badly for him even though it is his decision to get involved and a poor one then i think that it is not for me to land him in the muck i could have done so both on the fact he should not have been speaking and also that i could have pointed out that his record is tainted why he was being an expert witness in the first place for some one who is not even their client beadsmen beats me i had reservations about doing the legal work for the rspca and at least we do quite a lot of work for the local inspector so i decided not to trash c as a witness as i thought that it was not my place to do so and secondly the repercussions for local vet good will would not stand me in good stead but i have my doubts as to whether i did the correct thing there is no right and wrong the dilemmas are there because you to choose which horn you want to get impaled on sun lambing seems to have started with a vengeance spent most of the morning at the surgery with land rovers and trailers turning up one after another with sheep lambing or having peri natal problems i do like working out of the surgery at the w e as there is far less driving and working is so much easier and you dont have to keep getting changed in and out of protective clothes so got two vets work done by just keeping on asking for them to come to the surgery the farmers dont mind either as they generally have to put them in a pick up to bring them back to the farm from the field so it is as easy to drive on to the vets rather than hang around waiting for them mon went tt testing at ps farm i used his son a fair bit during fmd as they went out early on and he always has done a fair amount of contracting on the various farms he also has a very happy go lucky style in contrast to his dad who is a bit of a worrier i quite enjoyed the banter and we could just work away as there is no pressure too get finished as the numbers are not great tues went to os where they are again having problems getting the cows in calf the levels of infertility in the restocking herds are horrendous the sad thing is we seem to be achieving very little in actually improving it in spite of a lot of investigations and spending money on vaccine and on supplements the average loss must be 5 at least it would be interesting to compare the culling rates of the restocking farms and find out what the restocking losses actually are weds took the new vet student with me today and let her do the first lambing at rs they like everyone else says they are getting a lot of lambs these were dead and all tangled up and aborting so they could not get them out they had quads last night thursday went to s and stitched a teat this is now a fairly easy operation with the advent of using open crushes and decent epidural anaesthesia local is always fairly iffy as many a dentists patient will testify to it is very satisfying to fix something like that friday spent the morning doing certs these are otm22 certificates which were brought in by maff to compensate the farmer for cows that would have been sold for human consumption before the otm scheme banned them from human consumption if an animal is not fit to travel then it can be shot on the farm but to get the compensation they need a vets cert to say that it is fit for human consumption so it can be burnt on the scheme if it is not fit then they have to pay to have it taken away so there is a lot of pressure to sign them the scheme is supposed to be coming to an end this summer but as yet no markets exist for the casualty animals that are fir for human consumption the whole knackery injured animals burying of animals scheme is up for grabs and the govt needs to get some sort of scheme up and running but the govt thinks maybe rightly that it is an industry problem to get rid of its own waste and it is not up to the taxpayer to get farmers waste problems sorted leave it up to the industry market to sort it there is also a suggestion that as tb is not an important zoonosis in the uk anymore then it is a production problem and it should go the same way as sheep scab and be taken off the notifiable disease list and individual farms have to ensure they meet whatever standard that the buyers want to specify which is what is happening to a small extent in the dairy industry with buyers specifying farms must meet certain criteria saturday 8th feb 2003 wife is on her course for the w e so i was doing the run around to squash and football for sons mon 10th b is now renting all the land bush ghyll head he has taken it over as a grass letting another of the small farms is disappearing the reality is it has only ever been a small holding but they use to milk 20 odd cows which meant it got the status of a farm on our computer system the uncle who use to run it when first arrived was a real character he was always telling you about when farmers made money after the war a dozen eggs was 10 shilling none of your 50ps 10 whole shillings you could take a girl to the cinema and the lyons café and still have change from a pound even his free range hens eggs would not buy a cinema ticket for one these days he should of taken her as he ended up as a bachelor with his nephew taking over the farm tuesday 11th the partners meeting today was trying to address the fact that the mark up on fees is going to be eroded one of the things that barnard castle are doing is putting on their bills but as yet not charging for things like telephone advice and out of hours so we are going to be doing the same to try to get across the point that we are providing an all round service that needs to be paid for but i still think at the end of the day the economics will win if you cannot provide a service at a profit you cannot provide a service so where does that leave us weds harrisons are having problems with fertility who isnt the blood results are showing low levels of copper but i am not convinced that is what it is they will have to supplement the feed by adding more copper to the feed the problem with all these investigations is that we are looking for a simple answer when the actual problem is multi factorial the cows may be short in copper but they are not that low that it is really effecting them i often wonder with humans if you blood sampled them for lots of different minerals would we find that a percentage of the population is actually below normal for some or several minerals maybe our omnivorous diet and the fact we are not producing huge amounts of milk probably does come in to it we do have a much more varied diet most cows are now on complete rations here in the uk so that if the nutritionist gets it slightly wrong then you will find that the cows will be short i suppose the other thing that we do always forget is that they are usually working off either a single or 3 4 samples of silage so that there will be a spread of what is actually in the silage and the samples may or may not reflect it thursday on call tonight and busy which was ok r was up helping at wh house one of his suckler calves had managed to prolapse its rectum but it is as wild as thunder so we were all very careful about handling it i had to dope it any way to operate but when we put it back it was jumping up the walls which is always a wee bit disconcerting limousin stirks could be used for the grand national ds brother is not very well at all now he has cancer and went in for emergency surgery the day i shot all the cows i had a big row with senior staff at page st he had been admitted to the hospital at 2am and was to undergo emergency surgery that afternoon i did not want it put on the web site as they were announcing them on radio cumbria i did not want him to be going down for the surgery or just coming out of it and to find out from the radio that i was shooting all his cows i asked them to put an embargo on it of course the vets tried not to let it go out but it did and i was really angry i wrote some strongly worded letters and never even got a reply i should have followed it up and held some one to account but i am afraid it all got lost in the passing of time at least r is a lot better he had meningitis around the time of fmd he has had bad heads and depression ever since so it was good that he is back on farms and has started fencing again fri 14th valentines it is friend s birthday so we all went around to her house for dinner which was really nice and ended playing darts with the kids i was pleased to get some darts in the board as it is a long long time since i have played saturday 15th february 2003 sons birthday my little baby son is now 8 years old it is hard to believe where the time has gone and all the water that has passed under the bridge went around to friends at night and sat and eat and put the world to rights it is good every now and again to wind down and just enjoy talking with out having to think as we know them so well you can just come out with stuff sunday mon 17th spent the day tb testing at dl where they have had a nvl no visible lesions reactor taken colleague did the first test and we are not doing the fat stock on farms that have restocked as they will be going for slaughter fairly soon so it is deemed pointless and really it is so spent the day putting big bullocks through the crush and it is a dangerous work for the men who go in amongst them because they are very rarely handled and so dont take to it very well tuesday had an interesting lambing today and a consequence of fmd that you forget about there is an inherited genetic condition of suffolks called dandy walker syndrome causing hydrocephalus in the lambs so both the ewe and tup must carry the gene to produce the deformed lambs with heads too large to get through the mothers pelvis so it means doing a caesarean on a ewe that can only be used to breed fat lambs from it has to be put to another breed next year this years lambs are dead going to die so the economics are useless some breeders just shoot them at this point but he had called us to try to lamb it or caesaer it as she was a big ewe i eventually managed to lamb it he was saying though that it takes time to work out whether the stock you have bought will produce the breeding stock that you want you have to try the different combinations that you have to work out which lines work well together he reckons on about 4 8 years before he will be back to breeding decent suffolk sheep in spite of buying in good stock there is more to breeding than meets the eye wednesday rb had a stirk with mcf malignant catarhal fever it is a viral disease which is quite often fatal that they catch from sheep but they have really blue grey eyes from the change in the fluid in the eye and the severe iritis it must be incredibly painful for them thursday dixons tt2 is now clear so they have to have them all tested again in 42 days to clear the farm of restrictions un fortunately the vet from the ministry said it would be from the day the cow is taken not today so the whole thing is getting a bit complicated and jd is getting wound up understandably so friday tried to sort out some of the tracings that we are supposed to be doing there are a lot coming through but the quality of the info is very poor tracings are where the farm has sold animals and then subsequently gone down with tb or other notifiable disease the defra paper chase is so bad that ear tag nos are wrong or a farmer has bought several from the same source and only 1 2 are on the paper work from defra the thing seems to be falling apart a bit went and did a single animal up at the mill he usually buys in stores and fattens them but as the store trade has gone through the roof he has sold a lot of them on to let some one else fatten or if heifers breed from them the defra files have him as a fattening unit finisher so that they hadnt bothered to do tracings to him as they would be going for slaughter but of course he had sold one on that had gone down with tb so they wanted to know what was happening with these now saturday 22nd february 2003 saturday sunday monday tuesday had a funny sensation to day i suppose it was almost a flash back in some ways i went to a farm who has fancy pedigree sheep he has rented land and wanted them added to his holding for the mv scheme so he needs a vet inspection to say that the fields are double fenced so that the sheep do not come in contact to any others this inspection of fields is pretty meaningless as they know what needs to be done and so they are always up to scratch the last time i was doing it was for fmd wednesday thursday friday packed and got the last few things sorted for the vcf w e got the posters printed and the display boards together and set off down the motorway to pick up friend and spent most of the day travelling it was good talking to him he retired from practice just before fmd and then spent the first part of his retirement working for defra on the fmd first at preston and then at settle it seems they were better organised at preston and he was quite positive about the local teams i sometimes wonder if i am sill too close to it all and to emotional to take a clear headed look at what it was really like it was good to see friends at night and get set up for the w e sat 1st march sun 2003 vcf w e it is difficult for me to sum up the w e as i was so much in it and part of it so i have copied the report from one of the students who wrote a bit for the vcf magazine vcf triennial conference 28th feb 2nd march 2003 on a sunny weekend at the beginning of march over 70 vets vet students and families bravely took time out of their busy schedules and gathered expectantly at the hayes conference centre in derbyshire for the 2003 vcf conference we were a mixed bunch ranging in age from 2 months to 70 well nearly from many different places denominations and walks of veterinary life but we all had a common goal in mind to unite in our desire to love and serve the lord jesus christ in the vocation to which he has called us and to encourage one another to be salt and light in the veterinary world our distinguished speaker for the weekend was dr l a consultant psychiatrist and christian who drew from his own experience to bring us some thoughtful insights on the subject of god at work he emphasised the fact that although work is a godly activity and that we should view whatever we do as if working for the lord colossians 3 18 it must not be forgotten that a balance must be achieved between work church family life etc there was also an opportunity to discuss how we would respond as christians to a variety of ethical decisions that commonly present themselves in veterinary practice as well as the main talks there was the opportunity to join a variety of seminars on relevant practical subjects bt a vet and long serving missionary in thailand with omf led a most interesting seminar on the joys and challenges of both veterinary and evangelistic work in a different culture students and new graduates were well provided for in seminars on practicing reality living out ones faith in the university or veterinary practice environment m c bravely stepped in at short notice to lead a seminar on business ethics and vcf secretary generated some thought provoking discussion on a very relevant subject for many singleness it was not all work and no play however and we were much obliged to the scottish students for organising the saturday night ceilidh much fun was had by all so we all parted company on sunday feeling refreshed and well fed both physically and spiritually how encouraging to be reminded that you are not the only christian vet out there and that there are many others who grapple with the same issues you face the weekend was a time of friendships rekindled and hopefully new ones made a time of strengthening and a reminder of what is ultimately the most important thing in our busy lives leading the seminar on business ethics or rather winging it was very stressful but very good which was very interesting and very challenging the questions about is it right to make a profit were espy good to work through but it was incredibly draining by sun night i was exhausted drove back to friends for the night he live about 20 mins off motorway and it was coming through one of the wee villages i was flashed by a camera and so will have a fine and a speeding ticket to sort out mon had a really nice lie in and then went for a walk with friend around from his house across the fields it was beautiful then set off for preston to visit the friend who is in prison the road was closed on the way to the m6 so took me ages to find my way to the m6 and then after coming off at preston to find the way to the prisons the whole afternoon was very depressing there is something very intimidating about having to be processed for the visit under security cameras and by very polite but uncaring prison officers the being searched and going past sniffer dogs and having to give my finger prints which are now on the police computers prisoner was ok but fairly depressed about the outlook even now he is worried about how he is going to cope when he comes out the prison regime is very oppressive and after being there for an hour and a half i was glad to be going it is also a bizarre situation where you have to sit there and talk for that length of time there is also a lot of stuff that he wants to know about the kids and you just cant help him most of what we know is hearsay and not first and so difficult to sum up espy as some of it is not good they are not coping with the whole situation and it is basically his fault or his and their mothers so he is already feeling guilty enough with out giving him more angst to cope with but i was very glad to be coming out again into the fresh air spent the evening at as parents evening challenging senior management and giving them a hard time so quite a day tuesday as usual the disasters after a w e away continue the new bathroom was totally flooded from a leaking pipe i felt like wringing his neck he is the plumber the water was flowing back through the old kitchen and made a real mess managed to get hold of him after leaving more and more urgent phone messages at all his answer phones he has a mobile a telephone at his flat where he hardly ever is and at his girlfriends so the water was off most of the day until he found the leak and managed to fix it again he had to smash tiles and cut holes in the wall to fix it and the place looked a mess but boy o boy am i fed up with that stupid bathroom went into work to find no one had done the stuff i had left to be done and work was really busy the speeding ticket had landed already why are other govt depts not as efficient so spent the whole day until 6pm running around like a headless chicken and then decided that stuff it i was going to the gym for the circuits class weds the disasters continued with the washing machine giving up the ghost which in a house with 3 boys and a vet is a pretty serious problem i also had an argument with one of the other partners saying that if we did not get another vet we would have a rebellion or people going off sick through stress me being one of them and i have only been back 2 days still havent managed to read all of the stuff in my in tray yet let alone deal with it thursday finally convinced senior colleague we needed some help as the ministry got hold of him and asked if we could do a tracings herd test urgently on one of farms that has not restocked the cattle belong to some one else he then looked at the book and decided we could not idiot i told him weeks ago last september i think that this would happen so spent the day sorting out dc to come in between vetting he is not an lvi so have had to pull some wool and sweet talk them into training him in the baffling ways of defra but that meant i still have yet to reach the bottom of my in tray may be there is gold buried at the bottom i think this is one of those days when you look back were probably quite decisive but accidental days this was the first time i really thought that i was about to be killed i could see it happening and there was nothing i could have done differently to prevent it i went on a calving after work about 8pm met up with the farmers and one went to get water while the other and i walked into the box to where the cow was the cow gave me a funny look and i backed off to behind a pillar in the pen oh its ok its a quiet cow shes had 8 calves he said next time i will listen to my instincts so we went forward to where she was without warning or snorting or given it a second thought she charged caught me under the ribs with her head and threw me to the ground before i could react she butted me again in the head snorted kicked me and then backed off as the farmer started kicking and hitting her she then came again bashed me into the corner on my back and kept coming as her head flew at me i grabbed her nose and swung myself around on her nose kicked her with both feet taking all my weight on the one hand while shouting for help from the other guys one came back with a pitchfork as i was on the ground i kicked her again as they came with the fork and let go and scrambled away around the box she still came after me but i got to the gate past the two brothers who thumped her again and then backed off and slammed the gate shut i lay in a heap on a bale for 10 minutes breathing heavily while they asked did i need an ambulance or doctor i finally came to enough to splash water on my face and think that there must be an easier way to make a living it took all 4 brothers armed with sticks to get her into a crush where i then managed to calve 1 dead twin breach and 1 live twin just in her defence the cow had been calving for a while was in pain and had probably just got herself really wound up but she almost killed me i then sat having strong tea for quarter of an hour before summoning up the courage to drive home with hind sight i should have taken up there offer of a getting some one else out to calve the cow but the girl on 2nd was 5ft nothing and petite and didnt think dumping it on her was very fair the adrenaline was still flowing so i just kept on b i should however have let one of them drive me home or probably to casualty but i felt they would not do anything at the hospital except keep an eye on me so i just went home to my own bed and asked my wife to wake me up every two hours friday ill with head spinning every time i sit down to try and do something my head just goes around and i feel really tired and jet lagged i think i prefer india to being beaten up by cows time for a new job slept all afternoon but had friends for dinner it had been arrange months ago so wife didnt cancel and i kept going but drifted in and out a wee bit saturday 8th march had a lie in to 9 o clock yo still feeling pretty sore but at least my head is one piece i think showed flat to prospective tenants it is very rare that we dont have to get up for sthg when we are at home either for work or for football squash or something similar there is another squash competition but they are both later starts for our boys which is great took son to football and wife phoned up to say that the cs were going to watch the lord of the rings did i want to go so went to watch it and swapped younger kids with wife taking son and their youngsters and i went with the cs there are times when mobile phones are really useful to get things arranged the film was really good but boy was i stiff after sitting down for that length of time my knee was giving me real gyp spent evening at daubes but i faded so wife drove home and went to bed sunday 9th went to church in morning and picked up car friends came to lunch which was really good to see them but as a points out pointedly they do have 5 boys so there were 8 kids flying around but i did enjoy seeing them they are still trying to sort out their diversification plans and hope to have several strings to their bows as well as farming there is a teachers position at nelson thom so that is probably the most reliable form of income for friend mon 10th went to work but every time i bend over or move to fast my head spins so just did small animals i think cats and dogs are a much better idea but a lot of sympathy from folk at work mr h had been in and obviously given a fairly graphic description of what had happened that and my face is not the most becoming at the moment tues 11th back to work on the farms i was at rs for a fertility visit even though i know his cows and i am happy with them i did feel very nervous about going any where near them i have lost a lot of confidence which although i expected it i am still a bit wound up about it the rest of day was ok apart from several people whingeing about the current paper work requirements for selling cattle mind you when you see what they need to sell a few bullocks or a geld cow it is probably easier to be an asylum seeker spent evening at surgery showing d the ropes he is the locum who is going to be working with us for the next few weeks he is going to the ministry at newcastle tomorrow to do his lvi training at least that means he can do some of the tb testing and at least give us a break from that it is these sort of things managing staff showing people the ropes giving them back up and debriefing them that latkes huge amounts of time and energy and yet is never seen as work or relevant by a lot of people the rest of the partnership and yet in any small business it is the people that make all the difference and if they feel appreciated and supported and can debrief and be reassured then it makes such a difference to them and happy staff can deal with situations and people a lot better and easier than stressed ones weds 12th next year i am not going it is definitely some one elses turn i speak of the annual training day for senior lvis it just drives me up the wall the morning was spent fairly usefully talking about contingency planning for the next fmd or exotic disease epidemic the page st planners seemed fairly well clued in and taking on board a lot of the ideas and problems that had been seen in 2001 the afternoon was then totally depressing tb is now endemic in the south of the county there was a deer herd that had animals dying and so took them to the vic lab at penrith to find out why they had these animals losing weight and dying they had tb the ministry had known that there had been reactors all around that area but had never picked up on the fact these deer were here and should have been tested there were also complaints that forward tracings were not being done on some cattle to which the vety officer giving the talk said it was quite difficult to work out where cattle had gone this was met with some incredulity by the local vets as the paperwork and computerised passport scheme surely means that trace ability was one of the big issues to do with bse and if it cannot be done it means the whole thing is a useless sham well the answer is that you can trace a specific animal through markets and holdings but not animals on and off a holding so tracings are taking too much time so it is not getting done so tb is spreading idiots the best systems the best tools the best ideas the best businesses have to work through people so next year some one else can go and listen to the plans in the sky this was the meeting where we had an excellent talk on fmd in feb 2000 just a pity they did not listen to their own experts there was also a talk on the new scrapie scheme where the guy speaking knew less than his audience why i have to go back to the speaker at the vcf w e who said that when he came out of medical school he had spent 6 years being taught to be rational and scientific where disease was discussed logically and a rational conclusion was sought he came with the same idea to the national health service and struggled he said we live in a fallen world with fallen institutions and we have to accept that at times they do not make sense and that it is not in our power or capabilities to change them where we can we change them where we cannot we work within them thursday 13th day off prior to working w e went up high pike with friend snowed lightly on tops but beautiful but a wee bit chilly spent the afternoon getting the stuff sorted for vcf magazine and answering e mails and putting the details from the w e in to some sort of order i was trying also to put some responses down for yesterday but feeling to angry to risk putting it down on paper i just hope the govt is more in touch with the armed forces on the frontline in kuwait than the distant arm of govt in state vet service in cumbria friday 14th another day another test another dollar spent morning supervising the locum and trying to get on top of my in tray the stuff for partners meeting next week to try and get some decisions and a w e on call looms when i feel even though i have not been in work or worked too many w es tired and jaded being beaten up by the cow probably doesnt help saturday 15th march working the w e on first for the first time in a long time as i have been keeping the amount i am working back i am was way ahead in the amount worked so it brings the numbers in line i also need a break as feeling v tired and fed up and with not much prospect of rejuvenation the morning was fairly busy but we all finished by 12 so not that bad it was funny as julie who ahs been a receptionist since pre fmd said that she thought it was really busy but compared to the good old days of 8 years ago you thought it was a good sat am if you finished by 2 so it is surprising how things change and you get use to them the weather is beautiful with clear skies and frosty spring mornings and dry the good weather always makes you feel better any way spent afternoon doing bits and pieces in garden and jobbing around sunday 16th busy in morning but it shows how useful the new building is ok i know its 4 years old but things have never been normal and i still see it as new there were 2 lambings and a sheep to see and drugs to put out and because i was at the surgery they just kept on coming down to the surgery to the large animal bay so i did a lot of work with no driving and it makes such a difference what would have taken 3 4 hours was finished in an hour and a half missed church and did the same at night with more lambings the sheep are back the afternoon was spent sorting out after boys they went down to the pond and because it is all churned up they got their wellies stuck in the mud so they were cold and wet and covered i had to use planks to walk out to them so i did not sink in i made the mistake of fetching the planks and the spades back before sorting the boys so they had trailed mud all around the house grrrrr but i should have taken photos in the midst of this the new vet student rachael turned up so i could not give full vent to my annoyance mon 17th chaos at work with loads of emergencies and testing so we were all glad of students and d working more i rs found tb testing so it looks like it will continue still havent found time to put pen to paper or type writer to send a letter to contingency planning group at defra but hopefully will get on top of it soon tues 18th some days i should have stayed in bed a bad hair day started off badly with arriving at fertility visit as farmer was emerging from breakfast having been late as his wife was milk recording and he had to calve a cow so had to sort cows before checking to see in calf a very rotten lambing rotten as in lambs were disintegrating so stank and then more calls left for lunch at 12 45 to get half way and the called me back for another lambing there were 1 30 calls to do and then surgery worked at night and i was fed up of being on call stopping me doing stuff so went to gym and was bleeped out to speak to folk 4 times by now really wound up so went to house group and sat down chatted and phone went sorted that and then a cow caesarean this was followed by 2 more and 3 hours sleep must be an easier way to make a living weds 19th feeling my age no sleep on the night before you 40th birthday does not do you any good missed seeing kids in morning as i was out at caesar 3 during night on call the girls at work had got hold of loads of photos from my wife so they were all around the practice well i was a cute teenager worked through to lunch as morning was busy and partners meeting then did a 1 30 and went home for sleep opened presents with kids at 4 oclock and went out to ds for meal at night was good thurs 20th really quiet as no tb testing and lots of vets did more lambings and caught up on business side of organisation doing rota and organising work reflected on partners meeting and tried to work out whether i am out of sync with the rest of the world and right or out of sync and wrong time will tell iraq war started as predicted but seems to have been an opportunistic target i e saddam himself rather than all out assault weird but that is politics i must ask the history teachers about what caused the failure of the league of nations and whether this is going to be similar for un fri 21st despite being on back up went out for a meal it was the coffee mornings xmas bash that is traditionally now held in new year as there is too much else on during xmas period spent quite a while talking to ms about league of nations and the un he is fairly sceptical about the power and influence of un which in his view is more often than not used as a fig leaf for us or ussr ambitions and is not really the international community he was interesting to talk to about the history of iraq played pictionary boys vs girls which was fun saturday 22nd march 2003 worked am which was very busy as it was my 10th day i was feeling a bit drained either that or cos of out for meal last night i will let you decide the beautiful weather is continuing and we went for a lovely walk up above fellside the kids loved playing in the streams and the sunshine which for march is amazing came back to find that there was a house full of folk to celebrate my 40th birthday which was really nice though it was a good thing that the weather was good so the kids could play out side as there were lots of them chatted to p who is always full of energy and enthusiasm he is a whirlwind of ideas and concepts and philosophy one of the few people who i can sit and listen to for hours and hours he is intelligent and articulate in 7 languages and yet always ready to listen to anyone and hear what they have to say even if it is poorly thought out and very practical in his approach and very un materialistic he is quite happy to give books and ideas to anyone who will read and learn from them sunday 23rd this weather is amazing i still cannot get over it with the sun blazing down we went to watch son play football against silloth they won 2 0 but it was a tight match but very good to watch much better than carlisle as one spectators put it went on to beckfoot for a picnic in march the beach was deserted and yet it was warm enough for t shirts and shorts for the boys i lay in the sun and slept and counted my many blessings came home and planted seeds lettuce courgette and sweet pea must plant leeks and pumpkins if i get a a chance this week and buy onion sets wife spent a while after church talking to b about low moor difficult mon 24th sent my letter to richard drummond who was the rvo at harrogate and is now head of service delivery it is always a bit of a conscious effort to take up the cudgels against bureaucracy especially one like the svs that has in its culture a tendency to attack those who criticise it i hope that tomorrow will be quiet as i wish to write another letter to the contingency planning dept i also want to look at the updated contingency plans and make comments on it but doing all this does not pay the bills and at the moment when work is so busy i feel it is actually more important to spend time with the kids so i will sign off and go and watch the great escape which they bought me for my birthday copy of letter to richard drummond who wrote the drummond report before fmd saying that if there was an outbreak they would not be able to cope 21st march 2003 mr r d drummond address removed dear richard i am writing to express my concern with the current situation with tb we last met at the lvi meeting in cumbria where we had an excellent talk on foot and mouth disease and about how there was an increased risk becoming apparent this was in feb 2000 at the meeting this year as well as talks on contingency planning there was a lot of discussion on the emergence of tb on cumbrian farms there were also complaints that forward tracings were not being done on some cattle to which the vet officer giving the talk said it was quite difficult and time consuming to work out where cattle had gone this was met with some incredulity by the local vets as the paperwork and computerised passport scheme involved in moving cattle is a huge burden on farmers trace ability was one of the big issues to do with bse and if it cannot be done it means the whole paper exercise is a useless sham the answer was given that you can trace a specific animal through markets and holdings but not animals on and off a holding so tracings are taking too much time so tracings are not getting done in some divisions so tb is spreading whether this comes under your remit as head of service delivery i do not know but i would be grateful if you could forward it to the relevant department or to the minister so that a single enquiry to the cattle movements service at workington will ensure a comprehensive list of movements on and off a holding since the previous test if we cannot trace from herds with tuberculosis reactors the ability to track fmd is obviously a non starter thank you in advance for your help with this i hope in 3 years time we will not be contemplating what we should have learnt from an lvi meeting in hadrian house yours sincerely bvm s mrcvs tues 25th wife s cousin from vancouver arrived and it was really nice to see her again the canadians are always so up beat and down to earth they have a refreshingly positive can do mentality she and her daughter have been with a school choir singing in parts of europe and doing the european tour they are whistle stopping the lakes tomorrow it was good to catch up with them young vet who lost brother was with them my favourite mother in law she brought me a set of kitchen knives for my birthday present they are incredibly sharp so i dont think that letting the kids loose with them will be a good idea but at least we can pitch some of the old ones which needed sharpening every time you used them vet arrived back from skiing very sun burnt from the sunshine and wind she has had a really good time though weds 26th a and left as i arrived in to go to yps it was funny to see them very much the young ladies going out they live at opposite ends of the world and yet the fashion is the same little hand bags and scarves as belts globalisation is not just effecting agriculture they had spent time in keswick and around the lakes today making use of the gorgeous summer weather in march it really is warm hope we are in for a scorcher of a summer holidays thursday 27th spent the quietist night on call for a long long time nothing why is it as soon as you employ a locum as an extra pair of hands the work disappears still it will given everyone a chance to have a breather said good bye to the canadians and mother in law we are heading over to ireland to see the irish side of the family at easter so we will see vet friend again soon but it was funny saying goodbye all the same dont know why was doing a herd health plan today for a farm that has 50 dairy cows he said he did not really know why he is doing it as he is going to give up and go and milk for some one else as it is not viable to make it pay on that sort of small scale friday 28th havent got the workload right at all i think the sunshine has sent the farmers into the fields to work and the lambs and calves are all arriving un aided in to the sunshine it is amazing how the good weather makes you feel so much better so i have booked in extra testing for next week the only slightly sad thing was talking to one of the farmers who had just started lambing i was taking out rotten lambs that were aborting 2 weeks earlier it is his first season actually lambing as he only bought in fat sheep last year he said that it was at this stage 2 years ago that they came and took all his sheep he should not have let them do it it was wrong and he had not put up a fight he had just gone along with it he was fairly melancholic about it i tried to point out that every one had done it and it had seemed to be best thing to do at the time i did not think that pointing out i had not been convinced and argued against it and that only 2 out of 10000 blood samples of live sheep slaughtered had been exposed to the virus would have helped they were my granddads flock he said now we have all these problems he says looking at the dead lambs i have just pulled out lying in a heap in the corner of the trailer you never forget something like that lad he says never there are a lot of anniversaries to go through and all the farmers are saying the fun has gone out of it saturday 29th march the beautiful weather is carrying on and wife and i had a child free vet student free afternoon the sun was out and we went down for a walk along this side of bassenthwaite lake there were lots of daffodils out and a light breeze off the lake it was beautiful cool sunny day for walking and very pleasant we really enjoyed it son and a are on the young peoples church w e at edinburgh and will arrive back exhausted from lack of sleep the js had the boys for the afternoon so it was good met up with friends in the evening and spent the evening putting agriculture to rights he sells manages sales of fertiliser for norsk hydro sunday mothering sunday was a bit of a disaster with out a to organise the boys and i hadnt had time to get them organised church was r j on the beatitudes then met up with cs and went up bow scale fell sons friend and son complained the whole way they were in really bad form and i was fed up with them monday the work has dried up completely which for this time of year is unheard of we have employed a locum to try and get the testing done and no work for every one to do embarrassingly got it wrong usually at this time of year there is no testing and the vets are running around like idiots not very good news for us so wrote letters to the head of contingency planning at page st to amuse you i have copied it here name defra rm 803a 1a page st london sw1p 4pq dear name i am writing to thank you for travelling north to carlisle to come to speak to the recent lvi meeting at hadrian house carlisle i have also been reading the defra contingency plan and a lot of lessons do seem to have been learnt i appreciate this years deadline has been passed to place it before parliament but it is a living document my apologies but better late than never i would like to make a few comments as one of the early tvi volunteers at carlisle and as a partner of one of the practices at the eye of the storm 1 the whole issue of valuation of animals taken as a compulsory purchase by the state for the benefit of the farming community to eradicate disease has not been addressed one of the initial problems slowing the slaughter of infected animals was the valuation my own view then and now is that a simple standard valuation must be applied it must be high enough to be an incentive to reporting of disease but too low to make the possibility of disease seem financially attractive the price for compulsory purchase may be set higher for dangerous contacts or less for affected animals if there is a simple standard value then the diagnosing vet counts the number of bovines and shoots them the farmer knows in advance what compensation is going to be paid and individual animals of high merit could be insured for whatever sum the farmer is willing to pay premiums for this may be an unpopular nettle but it needs to be grasped even though i am sure my clients would disapprove of it the current tuberculosis problems are again high lighting the problems in this area there should be a standard procedure and valuation for all notifiable diseases and the values based on the last mid market rate there are apocryphal stories that the valuers are still running the system for their clients the farmers not defra 2 the second issue that has not been addressed is the tracings system with the advent of the british cattle movement services i was under the impression that traceability was a central part of government policy it was with some incredulity that in response to questioning at the lvi meeting we were told that bcms cannot give a list of movements on or off a holding so tracings for tb are still being done by a defra vet trawling through a farmers movement book why if the political will was there at the touch of a bottom the data base should be able to generate a list of animals moved in the past 6 months which markets they have been through and which holdings they have been through if this cannot be done for tb you can forget trying to do it for fmd or other fast contagious disease there is still a confusion over the database which should be based on holding numbers several farmers have multiple holding numbers several have a single holding number and multiple sites high genetic merit animals may have several owners a single holding may have stock from several different farms the rules for cph numbers need to be re evaluated centrally if a data base is to be of use it must be actively managed and updated that can only be done at a local level 3 disposal i know that this has been looked at but farm sizes are continuing to grow at an ever more rapid rate the average size of dairy farms in this area has grown by 20 cows since fmd this means there will be a bigger disposal problem as individual farms will have more and more stock 4 the local office should have stores to equip 20 tvis at 24hours notice we touched on this point at the meeting was the need for sudden recruitment of tvi or other veterinary staff while the svs can second small numbers of vets for short term availability there was a reluctance by some dvms to second staff who may yet be required in their own areas local lvis can provide veterinary cover but the whole structure of large animal practice is in flux and it may or may not be possible to provide veterinary inspections on an allocated on a temporary or part time basis the pay and conditions for such assistance need addressed and agreed the other part of this is orientation training at the local levels this by the end of the outbreak at carlisle was quite impressive however has that information been put together centrally should there be a central trainer who trains designated trainers for each svs office decc similarly with lay blood samplers vaccinators again local practices could provide nominated nurses lay staff for training during the out break here ai personnel were used very effectively for blood sampling and other procedures is this again something for the local plan but if the cost for training ai staff in blood sampling was met centrally it would encourage a register of trained personnel to be maintained locally the cumbria county council inquiry recommends the use of its emergency centre as a hub for multi agency response to any disease out break should there be some joined up government so that each county council as part of its contingency plan provides for an admin back up for any emergency civil disaster terrorist incident and do the local plans make use of this my main concern however is that when i asked at that meeting had the two way communications between page st and carlisle been sorted out it was met by nervous laughter i would like to emphasise that page st did not know what was going on in the field during fmd outbreak there was a communication barrier between the vets in the field and carlisle management and a huge gulf between carlisle and page street i would plead that this is addressed as the culture identified by iain anderson still seems to prevail i quote a culture predisposed to decision making by committee with an associated fear of personal risk taking such a climate does not encourage creative initiative it inhibits adaptive behaviour and organisational learning which over time lowers the quality of the decisions taken it seems to me that a reappraisal of prevailing attitudes and behaviours within the department would be beneficial it may be outside your remit but the northumberland report with its flow charts and recommendations actually lists lessons to be learned in dec 1969 the one about the svs who fared so poorly in fmd 2001 states we have considered the recruitment problem of the state veterinary service the reasons maybe the low initial salary or in part the to the nature of the duties within the service we consider it important for future development that the ministry of agriculture should attract a greater number of good young graduates willing to make a career in the service at the end of any plan are the people who are going to implement it they need well managed well led and given the resources to carry out the task they need to have confidence in both the political and civil service leadership there will need to be a risk management of tasks for financial reasons resource reasons and for the wider rural economy this requires flexible decision makers who are prepared to take risks and stick their head above the collective parapet i hope that this provides a few more thoughts for you to work on yours sincerely refs fmd 2001 lessons learned enquiry forward by chairman iain anderson p7 northumberland report presented to parliament dec 69 part 2 section 47 she spoke at the last lvi meeting and as usual the plans sound good but where reality hits is in the delivery tuesday did some small animal work and more testing tues evening always seems a rush went to gym and then on to ns for the new frontiers church meeting which was excellent weds managed some fertility work in the morning and spent the rest of the day bringing the practice database up to date it has been let go since foot and mouth as it tell us how much stock each farm has the numbers have been all over the place as people have been restocking and changing the direction their businesses are going some moving out some moving up in numbers and some going from dairy to beef or sheep the most interesting thing was the fact that a lot of farms that had restocked with adult animals have dropped by 5 10 cows since they restocked as older cows are lost or ill cows go but there are not the young stock replacements coming through to replace them the actual figures for dairy farms restocking are not yet entered in the computer i was hoping to have them but will get them thursday did some small animals and some otm22 but it still incredibly quiet consequently i have booked in a lot more work for the next few weeks so i hope i dont get it wrong the other way set up anne a vet student for her project on comparing fertility pre and post fmd finished off updating the database figures so they will hopefully get entered over next few days and we can do some comparisons march figures look ok but the long term out look is not so good the govt is doing a committee looking at farm animal vet practice the lakeland bva have asked for comments efracom inquiry into vets and veterinary services efracom is a defra committee terms of reference are to look at the provision of farm veterinary services in england and wales in particular it will look at 1 what impact current levels of farm income are having on the usage of veterinary services and in turn what effect any reduction in the usage of such services is having on the number of practices dealing with large animals 2 what effect any reduction in the usage of veterinary services and a shortage of large animal vets is having on health and welfare standards and on the effectiveness of surveillance for animal diseases 3 whether the requirements placed on farmers by government including those in the animal health and welfare strategy are realisable in such circumstances and 4 what is the impact on the work of the state veterinary service comments by 12 april please the day ended with the reading of a tb test on a farm that was hoping to become clear after going down when it first restocked 18months ago 1 reactor and 1 i r on normal interpretation they will probably take both on severe interpretation the government always looks as though problems are dealt with in isolation the defra vet who looks after our practice is not dealing with this case as his daughter is married to her brother the farming community is very incestuous friday work desperately quiet so i organised more testing to do i hope i havent over booked the work defra vets at carlisle are still learning the ropes when it come s to tb as it has been so rare in this part of the world so a few of the allocations have been wrong so i am having to go back and do extra animals so that set can be signed off the school held a curry evening tonight which for a cumbrian village school is very cosmopolitan there is an extended family of three pakistani families and they cooked though for the children there was also a bangers and chips option it was quite a nice time though wife was on her next level counselling course so i ended up just with kids but it was good to spend time with them i have enjoyed not working many w es recently it kind of gives you your life back that and not doing much at work saturday 5th april 2003 wife was at her level 2 course counselling so i had the kids for the w e took son to squash went into town for some bits and pieces and then i chatted to i while we waited for t and son to finish then took all the kids into town we are having a mothers day tomorrow to make up for the fact l a were away for the w e last week the kids have bought presents and made cards which was nice the cs and friend came for lunch and then spent a very muddy afternoon by the pond playing and building dens and generally making a mess and having fun son even decided showers were in order when he came back that shows you how dirty they were as he is mr allergic to water i made a fondue for tea with apple juice as the kids dont like the kick of the wine it was a great success and did taste rather good even if i do say so myself sunday i went to church on my own as wife was heading out again after an early lunch the talk was on gods leading which is always relevant the kids were great fun on the way back and full of craic they had a return trip to the cs as they were too late to find a sky tv for the match carlisle lost as usual but it is not every week they lose at the millennium stadium i picked the kids up from the cs and put all their bikes on the back of the car went to say good bye to cs in the meantime three of their boys were hiding in the boot of the car so they let me drive out with them before the giggles and laughter gave the game away so it caused much merriment all round met up with the lads sunday night felt really sorry for one guy who is having real problems getting access to his 7 year old as his ex wife is putting a lot of ve input into the wee one he can go down the legal route but will be expensive and probably counter productive as she is not wanting to negotiate or look at what is best for the wee girl it seems a real mess monday in spite of 4 tests the work is not there i spent the day testing though it is really quite amusing as i know the guys sister quite well and i always make sure i tell her how much the good lunch is appreciated so there builds up a rivalry between them as to who can provide the vet with the best food i am afraid i consciously flame the rivalry in spite of it not doing my waistline any good trying to concentrate after a three course lunch on a boring job is not easy you just have to think about coffee time and more cakes and tray bakes all of them distinctly unhealthy with the aim of feeding out door manual labour tuesday had a bad night as my hand was caught in the crush yesterday by a stirk throwing its head and it bent the finger back it seemed ok but is now throbbing like mad plenty of aspirin and corticosteroids did some ferty and then saw another lda the cows seem to be having a real problem with the feed this spring as we have seen 3 4 times the normal number went running with a as my finger meant i could not go to gym to work machines weds the speed cameras have arrived on the top road and unfortunately i was going too fast by the time i saw it so i will probably have another 3 points on my licence they have been building pads on the side of the road all along the a595 as it has a really bad record for car accidents the numbers killed continues to go up the speed cameras are in a van which can move around and hence trap the speeders it is called casualty reduction unit a bit of a pointed message even if you did slow down for them work is slow again today with no tb testing on mid week days it is my brothers birthday in nz and he sent a letter to say he is going to be a dad again so the trip to come across at xmas is off he is wanting us to all go there hm maybe thursday i has had 2 reactors and 4 i rs today so the future is not looking good for him as it looks like there will be tb there he has had real problems since the herd restocked with lung worm energy problems in the silage and atrocious fertility he is going to have to go and buy another 30 odd replacements at 800 to replace those that he has lost through ill health and fertility makes the compensation payments seem pretty small thats 24k he has lost out on already and his own heifers are only coming up to be served work is busy and i wonder if the spring rush is coming i was supposed to be at the school parents evening but got called out which was pretty irritating i hate the fact that you are just so unreliable when you are on call friday another tb testing day so busy all together not a good day the competition report is out and is fairly damning as expected so the pressure on drug margins is going to continue and the old fashioned way of providing a complete service will be going out the window we will have to charge for the out of hours and on call the telephone advice and try to make it pay but the whole economics of going out to see a single ill animal will be gone the clinical skills of veterinarians will be gone all academic as the cost for diagnosing a single animal in the new era will be too much so the diagnosis will all be done by post mortem of herd problems but if you have large herds the man power will not be there to look after the individual ill animal sad depressing day but i am off for the w e saturday 12th april 2003 woke up early and got up even though it is my day for a lie in i think i am particularly wound up it all ways takes me at least one day to wind down from work so i am tired and yet not feeling able to rest took son to football and other son to buy anew bike he was so excited it is his birthday coming up and he has out grown his old one so it will be good for him the kids spend ages flying around the yard on bikes and up and down the field when the grass is short they have a real ball here it is a great place to grow up as they have so much freedom to play and play and play my finger that was caught tb testing started throbbing again this afternoon so as it had improved and then got worse i decided i had to get it x rayed so i spent the afternoon in casualty waiting to get x rayed and then waiting for another hour before being told it was not broken a five minute consultation that took me almost 2 hours friends were up for the w e more friends are at capernwray bible college for an easter youth thing so they came on up so it was good to catch up sunday cooked lunch for everyone and then went to communion it was dire and reminded me why i dont usually bother spent the afternoon putting onions in and tidying in the garden it is incredibly dry and warm amazing really the 6 kids spent the whole afternoon messing around at the pond and were disgusting with mud everywhere and trailed all up the yard and wellies abandoned everywhere church was dm speaking and then the yps came back to ours afterwards mind you i think i had had enough kids for the time being but i was ok monday bad haircut day as there is only one day we can test this week i booked in fair amount which would have been tight but aw was off ill so we were too tight so a few ops have been put off until tomorrow d has a s african vet friend visiting so with him and the vet student the house is still full i however am knackered and not feeling sociable had a horrendous calving it is not often i cannot calve a cow but i am afraid after an hour i gave up and caesared it the calf was dead and rotten so whether she will do i dont know i did not want to caesarean but that is life it was either that or the farmer pay 60 to get some one to take it away after i euthed it tuesday we are in the period of anniversaries it is 2 years since the ls went down i was at a farm which did not get fmd and his uncles did he was saying what a sad day it was so his uncles must be feeling it more the beautiful spring weather with the grass growing in spite of the frosts definitely puts a bounce in to your step on days like this i think that it is an excellent life wandering around the countryside and enjoying the scenery the farms the animals and the farmers beats working in a factory any way went to the gym and felt a lot better for it exercise is a great way of getting a buzz but you have to be not too tired to a get there and b enjoy it i have gone often because i feel i should and just felt like a steam roller had run over me and its taken a day or two to recover balance in all things weds the commission report came out today difficult to believe that they will be able to implement it but having lived through the fmd there were quite a few things i thought that they would not be able to implement but they did we will have to if the minister decides and since it is dti not defra i think that the implementation may be effective provide prescriptions free of charge provide our clients with a list of pharmacies agricultural suppliers and other vets and web sites that will meet those prescriptions the cost of the most commonly prescribed medicines in the previous quarter the cross subsidy of professional fees by pharmaceuticals will not be allowed and how will the pharmacist make his money the other comment which did irk me some what was that the provision of 24 hour cover does not seem that onerous i do not often swear but really very depressed but daughter came on a caesaer with me as i was on call tonight it is really nice working from home and being able to take them with me it is a very healthy thing to do she is growing up and is very much the young lady the farmers wife is the dental receptionist and of course said hello a she was thrown as of course being out of context she could not figure how the farmers wife knew who she was thursday good friday it is sons bday today and the day started out great for him i was on duty and he arrived in our bedroom at 7am with the other 2 boys to start on the birthday celebrations our family tradition is that they have breakfast in bed in our bed dont know why but that is what happens the others all brought cards and presents in the phone went and it was a lambing so tim decided he would come and see the lambs being born so he was thrilled we opened the presents later on which included a new boiler suit which really thrilled him it is amazing what kids think of as their best present i never really like working good friday i always think one year i will be off and go to one of the contemplative services hebron being low church never really does anything like that which is a real shame easter is when i think the cathedrals old country churches and the church architecture can really be helpful in stopping and praying and helping to consider what jesus did on the cross finished work and went up to the friends they were both home and it was really good to see them played rounders and had a barbeque which was really nice james was in really good form as he was enjoying being back away from london where he has just started work as a high flying lawyer he is not enjoying london very much he is a hills and countryside lad his girlfriend was also there so was quite a good craic i didnt really want to come home but was so knackered that it was probably just as well the kids were with us and it was not a too late a night saturday 19th april 2004 spent most of the day either catching up on sleep or on the day to day things that seem to have been put to one side for a while there was also the preparations for the service tomorrow we are taking the easter sunday morning service which is one of those night mare services where everyone comes the age range is from 0 to 100 and everyone has different expectations i should explain that the normal sunday services are very different there is the family focus which is lively and very informal aimed at those with young children who go to sunday school there is then teaching for parents adults there is always a lot of noise children running around babies crying and shakers and childrens songs the communion service that follows is very traditional silence and solemnity rules all the older generation go and it is a very different service so we are going to be combining the two oil and water a lot of prayer has gone in to this one sunday wife got up at 6 am to go to the sunrise service at the crematorium she said she needed some input before the easter service we are leading it is a service organised by st james parish church but all the carlisle churches are asked to take part christiana had asked to go so wife went with her and it was really good christ is risen he is risen indeed the sermon was by the archdeacon from the cathedral who said that being a good anglican he wanted some liturgy through his sermon so every time he said are you dead the congregation had to reply no alive in christ at which point he would sound a hooter the service at hebron went very well oh ye of little faith i should pray more and worry less i have included our outline below and i have put in additional comments in blue easter sunday service welcome to hebron evangelical church this easter sunday morning when we are celebrating jesus is alive our opening hymn is our declaration that jesus is alive he has risen from the dead opening hymn we believe in god the father welcome intro me and welcome team this morning the service is in a different order from usual we are going to remember what jesus has done for us on the cross and bruce beattie one of our elders is going to help explain what the bread and wine mean to us as some of the children may not have been here for a communion service before then after taking communion we are going to celebrate jesus resurrection with reading singing and sharing the resurrection is the central part to our faith who knows what that long word resurrection means the answers from the kids were quite amusing but we got there in the end at the end of the service there will be the offering an opportunity to give our money as well as ourselves to the living god if during the service the young children get fed up there is a place at the back where they can do some making things it isnt easy to sit still when you are little or be quiet so please dont worry about the little ones being a distraction i often wonder what it was like when jesus fed the 5000plus crowd do you think the children all sat neat and quiet in rows i dont think so we are pleased to see them and hear them this is a time of family worship from the youngest to the oldest reading psalm 67 i had this up on a power point and we read it together may god be gracious to us and bless us and make his face shine upon us that your ways may be known on earth your salvation among all nations may the peoples praise you o god may all the peoples praise you may the nations be glad and sing for joy for you rule the people justly and guide the nations of the earth may the peoples praise you o god may all the peoples praise you then the land will yield its harvest and god our god will bless us god will bless us and all the ends of the earth will fear him psalm 67 prayer m as we sing this next hymn it would be good if the children came to sit at the front so that b can see you all when he talks to you hymn when i survey the wondrous cross communion b b gave an excellent talk about remembering he included a diary and a kitchen timer which he set to go of at the carefully timed point in his little bit he then used smarties to go through the easter story and the different colours i wish i had it written down we then had communion and he had smarties for the kids so that they could remember about the easter story while the adults took communion and remembered christs death and resurrection forgiveness is a wonderful thing we have just been remembering what jesus did for us on the cross he died for us what incredible love but thankfully the gospel doesnt end there son a and cerise are going to read on reading and luke 24 vs 1 12 they did a brilliant dramatic reading an empty tomb lets sing gods not dead he is alive sing it twice and use the instruments at the front to make a joyful noise we want you to have a little taste of what it was like to be around that day and so lets listen in to mary magdalene chatting on the phone to well you listen and see who she is talking to wife did a sketch about mary talking on the phone to marta having met the risen jesus she was very good really gave the facts to a contemporary feel hymn led like a lamb to the slaughter in the second verse would children come to help we have verses to give out to the big people and id like you to help give them out making sure all the big people get one for the children who may not be able to read yet we have some coloured stones to remind you of a huge stone that was rolled away when jesus rose from the dead you can keep it in your pocket or somewhere special to remind you that jesus is alive and he wants to be with you where ever you go a had made up tiny scrolls with verses about the resurrection which the kids all gave out it kept the wee ones busy and also gave everyone a verse to think about isnt it wonderful to know that we are singing hes alive he has risen and all over the world the church is singing the same message in revelation we get a little glimpse into what it will be like in heaven with a new song being sung to jesus christ close your eyes and listen to what it says rev 5 vs 9 11 we have the privilege in hebron of having a few representatives of different language people and nation here this morning let us listen to them christ is risen in different languages and prayer we then had one family say it in arabic another in german there is a philippino girl who said it in her language and some one else in spanish it was magical introduce lord we lift your name on high sung at mizpah orphanage with children some of whom had just heard the name jesus for the first time at christmas see picture we need helpers to do the actions to this song we are thankful that jesus is alive and so he speaks guides comforts and forgives us for all the sin the mess we make it is not only the marys and the peters and the thomases that have met with the risen lord we each have a story to tell of walking with the risen lord as you listen to some people here sharing a bit of their story i wonder what you would have to share take the opportunity to day to share what god is teaching you where he is changing you dont hide behind the weather or holidays share your journey to encourage real fellowship end in prayer over top song and offering this is your opportunity to offer yourself afresh to the risen lord an old song but a powerful one to make this song personal to you choose the verse where you will stand as a sign of your offering to the lord band will play it through twice as collection taken up and then we sing it if you want to sit until last verse when we sing take my love then we will all stand for last verse take my life this song has lots of parts about asking god to take and use different parts of our lives songs intellect strength money etc and by asking people to stand at the point they wanted it really meant they stopped and offered part of them selves back to god in response to the resurrection finish with thine be the glory the service went really well people came and said how well it had gone wife spent afternoon packing and feeling washed out giving out is tiring but the satisfaction is huge mon up early to catch the boat to n ireland the boat was not too busy which was good spent the boat ride filling in my thoughts on the future of large animal practice for the efracom enquiry bought lord of rings part 2 the two towers as i am wanting to re read it having seen the movie so that is my holiday reading sorted out had a chance when we got there to sit down with wife s parents and talk through our future which was good as campbell usually disappears out but a sit is a bank holiday he didnt they were fairly up beat about it which was good so i was pleased spent the evening with c and the cousins which was really good had a barbecue and chilled out c was not really surprised at the news as agriculture in ni is going through a bad time as well it is behind the uk and there are a lot of small uneconomic family farms and so a lot of consolidation is going on and farmers selling up tuesday spent the morning playing squash with the boys which w as great fun spent the afternoon in the garden trying to tidy it up went out for dinner with our bridesmaid who has also just handed in her notice or rather accepted a redundancy package it must be catching it was great to see her and also to be out in belfast which is such a cosmopolitan city these days with different languages cultures and nationalities all mixing in the downtown area a big change weds went to the new exhibition centre in the docks at belfast it has a multiplex and a science exhibition as well as shops and restaurants and so on it was amazing the kids could have spent all day playing on the exhibits and it was very well done so that you came away having learnt quite a lot wife now believes i cannot do colours as i am easily confused by them there was one exhibit where words in one coloured spelt the name of another colour ie the word was spelt y e l l o w but it was red in colour you then had to read the words or say the colours and i just could not do it my brain ended up really confused bought flowers and stuff for the garden and did the boxes for gran went out to dinner at rp she is a widow who is wife s parents age but is so much fun she loves giving dinner parties and having folk of all ages around she gave me some useful addresses there are lots of plans for wife s parents golden wedding thursday the day of the big photo shoot wife s brothers father in law is a photographer and while we were all together wife mum wanted a photo of all the family together so we spent an hour and a half getting positioned and photographed 7 kids and 7 adults and a very pernickety photographer travel back on the boat was ok but came back to find that everything had fused and that the phone was not working so fixed the fuses which are all trips thank goodness and got the electrics going the phone could not fix but did not worry while we were away there had been a lightning strike on to the phone line up the road and it had fried all the cables one of the neighbours had been in her kitchen and the phone had exploded and jumped off the wall it has left scorch marks down the wall i am just glad that there was no one on the phone at the time the other unfortunate thing is that the computer was attached and is dead as a dodo friday back to maelstrom i was really relaxed going back in to work and it lasted for may be half an hour no one had picked up on any of my admin things while i had been away in spite of asking people to do so this meant i had to start and get things organised for testing the rota and nestles as well as to try and do some work my in tray is a mess but never mind i also had to complete the report for efracom as the closing date is today i hope not by 5pm the report was actually finished by 10 15 and was e mailed off i would like to have polished it a bit more but the schedule today was not conducive during the evening when i was supposed to be writing it i had a casaers and a foal trying to die at farm they are not having much luck as they have had horrendous problems with restocking they are also under tb2 i enclose a copy of the report to efracom the right hon michael jack mp environment food and rural affairs chairman of the sub committee vets and veterinary services a submission summary this is a timely review of farm veterinary services i would submit that the current trends in veterinary practice are likely to accelerate rapidly in response both to present levels of farm income and imminent changes in veterinary practice in this submission i have briefly covered the following areas the current provision of veterinary services and how they are financed current trends and their likely impact on veterinary services the effect of the reduction in large animal clinicians on health and welfare standards and on surveillance the feasibility of the animal health and welfare strategy the impact on the svs the future and possible outcomes the current provision of veterinary services and how they are financed the income for rural farm veterinary practice that provides the majority of veterinary services to the agricultural industry has traditionally come from 5 major areas clinical services examining and diagnosing individual animals calvings lambings individual surgery routine fertility dehorning and castrating traditional on farm professional fee work lvi income from defra maff in the eradication of notifiable disease tuberculosis brucellosis anthrax etc many practices also were involved with meat hygiene and inspections at abattoirs the dispensing of pharmaceuticals the provision of veterinary advice on farm management and welfare the majority of veterinary partnerships are mixed practices a consideration must be given to the fact that small animal work makes up a variable proportion of the work and income to veterinary practice it is my opinion that clinical farm animal practice the examining and diagnosing of individual animals is already uneconomic for both the veterinary surgeon and the farmer it is only happening because of the cross subsidy of the professional fees by other income and because of the good will of most farmers to give animals a chance as the harsh economics are coming home to vets and farmers this is rapidly becoming with james herriot a part of rural history current trends and their likely impact on veterinary services what are the current trends within agriculture and veterinary practice and what effects will that have both in agriculture and farm veterinary practice there are trends that can be identified how fast how far these trends will go is difficult to predict but my own experience is that change when it comes change is often slow at starting but then dramatic in its speed the effect of decoupling and other eu decisions on agriculture are unknown but the current trends are likely to continue in agriculture farm size has to continue to grow as farms make less and less per animal they have to spread costs over larger and larger numbers the individual value of each animal continues to drop in real terms efficiency and mechanisation continues to increase chicken farms are now routinely 100000 animals plus since foot and mouth disease the average dairy herd size has increased from 90 to 114 an increase of 20 which talking to many dairy farmers is only going to increase as more herds are going to be 300 animals these increases are usually with out an increase in labour on the farms this means the care of individual animals is likely to be less important but the care of the overall heath of the herd much more in veterinary practice the major changes are likely to be from the competition inquiry in to the cost of pharmaceuticals the subsidy of professional fees by sales of pharmaceuticals has been an increasing trend since the late 60 s then professional fees were subsidised by the large scale eradication schemes by maff who paid very good fees to get the vets on the farm and help eradicate the notifiable diseases the competition inquiry is recommending that pharmaceuticals be dispensed by pharmacies as well and that prescriptions be provided free of charge which private organisation is going to provide a service free of charge has yet to be ascertained but the current level of income derived from pharmaceuticals is not going to be sustained this inevitably means that the cross subsidy will disappear and farmers will have to pay the full cost of veterinary clinical service and it will not be economic to do so at the same time the costs of providing veterinary services continues to rise the cost of veterinary time is continuing to rise students are now graduating with debts of 15 20k because of the loss of grants and payment of tuition fees this means there will need to be a further raise of 2 3k per annum to pay veterinary assistants to match the status quo farm animal practice already pays assistants less than companion animal practices despite offering a less favourable on call rota in the short term following fmd many practice principals worked additional on call to make the rota acceptable to attract assistant vets where this is viable in the short term in the long term it is not acceptable as partners profit becomes commensurate to the salaries they have to pay to veterinary assistants they will be aiming to increase charges for clinical work or look to other avenues for decreasing costs increasing turnover providing an out of hours emergency cover is not economically practical for vets except in the big cities where practices join together to provide an emergency clinic currently there is an rcvs obligation to provide 24hour cover but the rcvs is not involved in the commercial pricing of services as the value of individual animals continues to drop in real terms then the cost of treating individual animals becomes less and less viable where there is no cross subsidy for out of hours work it will become untenable as many mixed practices have a dwindling farm animal side that is less financially attractive many will decide to concentrate on the companion animal side of the business in a lot of mixed practices it is a senior partner who will do the largest amount of the farm work this means the younger vets will not have the case load to become experienced and confident in farm work there is a cohort of practitioners in this situation heading towards retirement in the near future will the practice continue to be involved with farm work as fewer practices become involved with farm veterinary services the cost of travel to the more distant farms has to rise beyond the already accelerated rate all this means that farm veterinary practices will lose income from clinical services and from pharmaceutical sales they will have to move more towards the pig poultry model of providing veterinary advice and charging for it vets have already moved out of nutritional advice leaving this field to nutritional experts the reason for this is that most nutritional advice is provided free to the farmer by the firms who then put that cost into the feeds that are sold to the farmers this cross subsidy of fees by sales is apparently acceptable where the subsidy of veterinary fees by pharmaceuticals is not this model is beginning to appear in other areas whereas vets provided most mastitis control the dairies who buy the milk are now providing free or subsidised advice to farms on cell counts and high bacterial counts including bacteriology with a variable back up and quality of advice nmr and other recording agencies are already offering fertility information on their recording products and it is a short step to actually providing the fertility work i believe that these factors will contribute to a dramatic decrease in farm animal clinicians in the next 5 years the effect of the reduction in large animal clinicians on health and welfare standards and on surveillance as the number of clinical veterinarians reduces then there will be much less on farm surveillance this means that outbreaks of novel or unusual diseases is much less likely to be noticed or recorded at an early stage the routine care for the animals will be done by stockmen under veterinary guidance the guidance will probably be by quarterly or 6 monthly or annual visits and by herd health plans individual animals are much more likely to be treated ad hoc by the stockmen rather than by veterinary surgeons the quality of this treatment in some cases may be adequate but in most will be poor the significance of symptoms or illness may not be appreciated diagnosis and treatment seen as a high cost and used as a last resort any outbreak of disease will be well developed and losses occurring before veterinary advice is sought as herd sizes increase and labour decreases then the attention to individual animals must reduce with a drop in welfare standards ill animals are likely to be culled quicker as limited manpower becomes more important the use of vets as additional expert man power for calvings lambings will be seen as too expensive the demands of the system must mean that high heath status is important with routine vaccination and herd health policies being put in place defra seems to set high regard to laboratory diagnosis results as a form of surveillance most of the common problems are diagnosed treated with out the resort to laboratory aids fertility lameness mastitis pneumonia pge are rarely referred to the lab except where treatment is not working most samples are taken referred by vets in practice fewer vets would mean fewer samples the lack of veterinary advice to ill pigs and ill sheep on farms at heddon on the wall shows how the lack of a clinical veterinary service can lead to in the terms of delay and spread of disease the local knowledge of the current lvi system is an invaluable asset that is in danger of being thrown away the idea that a farm is a box which can be assigned a number in page street and dealt with as a single entity is a problem that has still not been resolved the complexity of many of the local farming links through trade working together machinery shared grazing fell rights and family ties cannot be reduced to a computer screen on dcs the feasibility of the animal health and welfare strategy in my opinion they are not i was hoping to cover this more fully but lack of time has prevented me the impact on the svs the impact on the svs is likely to be slow to be realised the svs is not known for its ability to meet challenges or streamline its systems as the number of vets involved in farm work decreases it will have to provide more of its own resources to tackle tasks currently done by lvis the more flexible private practice takes up the challenge of getting backlogs in testing done and can respond to new challenges for example the licensing brought in during fmd private practice can fit the work around other duties whereas if it is going to be done by the svs it will be more expensive to take on vets to do these tasks alone the svs was notoriously unreliable in its work allocation during fmd the record being sending 5 vets to the same farm on the same day has yet to be beaten though i hope it would be a lot better in normal circumstances there are still problems with the allocation system that can only be put right by local knowledge in areas where there are few farm animals there may well not be lvis willing to carry out the routine testing for notifiable disease who is going to provide veterinary cover for these both for clinical caseload and for the lvi work there will not be vets available to second to defra for the next fmd or exotic disease outbreak the contingency plan confidently states that resources for 20 tvis are to be kept at each centre in case of an outbreak of notifiable disease with out addressing where these will come from there will not be 20 tvis available at short notice during march 2001 the majority of vets at the carlisle decc were lvis the future and possible outcomes the picture i have painted is what in my opinion will happen if the government allows the situation to develop i would hope that there would be some joined up government when decisions are to be made in response to the competition inquiry report there are a mixture of outcomes that are possible the numbers of vets in farm animal practice will reduce this can be minimised by maintaining the cross subsidy of professional fees for providing clinical services either directly by defra work in surveillance or other notifiable disease work and or from pharmaceutical sales the option of increasing fees is not possible veterinary services will be provided by other means eg vets working for feed firms dairies manufactures retailers to ensure a welfare surveillance standard consultancy firms providing fertility mastitis specialised advice defra local authority will have to provide vets for notifiable disease testing surveillance tasks developing the french model of farm cooperatives employing vets for their own farms the pig poultry model of regular advisory visits but minimal involvement in the day to day running or with individual animals only the first of these provides for the continuation of the successful lvi structure the other outcomes mean a loss of clinical veterinary services the loss of clinical services means a drop in welfare standards and the loss of on farm surveillance farm veterinary services are in a transitional time facing economic challenges changes in agriculture increased regulation and increased competition for the pharmaceutical and services they provide there will be increased competition between practices as they try to meet the higher expectations of new veterinary graduates starting their careers and providing a cost effective service to the rural community bvm s mrcvs brief c v currently a partner in one of the largest farm veterinary practices in cumbria having spent 17 years in mixed rural practice spent 6 months on secondment to maff at the carlisle decc during fmd sat 26th april 2003 having worked last night and done 2 caesaers and a calving on call on top of a long week i was completely washed out did sat am surgery and a call then went home to bed knackered and fed up and deciding i did not want to spend my life like this sunday a busy day on call but at least the calls did not stack up just kept coming in ones and twos so the stress levels were not to bad but boyzo am i tired mon this is the beginning of ds last week he has worked out really well and i hope that he will be able to work here at the back end to help with the testing he is easy going and has a good s african protestant work ethic always happy to oblige and is good to work with he is a good laugh too always teasing and playing silly jokes and has a great sense of humour spent most of the day on catch up after the week end did some calls and sorted car and drugs out and cleaned my kit the slippage of cleanliness since fmd is very noticeable especially at the w es but dont tell defra went swimming at foxes well to be honest sat in the jacuzzi and talked and then swam 2 lengths i was too tired to do much really i must start getting some proper exercise again or my back will suffer tues i am really annoyed at defra i rang and asked what would be needed to put our vets on to panel l which is what is needed to do the exports for nestle and panel l can just be added on as it is a simple export thing so it would take half an hour to do it this was last friday by now it is we have to go for training by svs it should only take half an hour to through the forms why can their yes not be yes and their no be no so we have to spend an afternoon going to carlisle to got through meaningless forms so that we can fill in meaning less forms so that nestle can get th milk through customs i am beginning to see why people just smuggle things rather than get involved in all this stupid bureaucracy weds went on the factory visit to nestles today to have a look around so that we know the plant and can give them certification for the milk powder for export the whole thing is ludicrous as dried milk powder is a sterile product it has to be or else it goes off very quickly so why we have to certify that it has been pasteurised i don not know but hey its money the size and quantity and the huge amount of machinery and very small number of people required to maintain and operate the plant was awesome we went to the distribution warehouse where there was just row upon row of pallets 3 7 high full of dried milk or cappuccino drinks weird to think mast of the instant cappuccino is made in dalston thursday went for panel l training it was as pointless as i thought it would be took the opportunity to go through with defra admin staff some of the queries and problems at the moment we do a lot of stuff for defra telling them who has stock and who does not have stock to ensure their database is relatively up to date but it is a headache as they are working off computer screens hence mrs f r of a farm does not correlate at all with mr e r of the same address the computer is not into relationships so that they are married and live together and own stock on the same piece of ground does not really get off the ground this evening was the final partners meeting where i handed in my notice the reasons for handing in my notice are complex most decisions probably are there are lots of factors some trivial to the outsider but important to me others may be important to others and similarly not to me several people have asked is it a reaction to fmd the last casualty in some ways it is for all the horrendous experiences for all the long hours and difficult ethical and to whom am i responsible dilemmas it taught me a lot about myself to see fear in the eyes of senior management when challenged to be able to organise a protest meeting of thirty vets with jim scudamore to do the tv interviews o see the effect of feeding information to journalists to be able to break through by fast talking and relying on my wits to organise completely new systems and manage projects that had never been done before to build teams from international backgrounds in the face of opposition from the hierarchy to be constantly caught on a tight rope between the different groupings i learnt that i have huge abilities and to go back to normality is difficult the future of farm animal practice is also very unpredictable there are a lot of farms who are yet to restock the cross subsidy of fees by drug sales is going to end and more and more work will be on behalf or paid for by defra they are at the whims of the politicians and the treasury they are also not the easiest client to deal with there is also the problem of being second in command and dealing with the frustrations of the partnership we are not united in the way we work or where we see the practice going this means my schemes for diversification for improving income streams and managing the bad debt will either not happen or will become part of my workload which is already over stretched add in to this cock tail the fact my wife is starting to work and i have been given a really bad scare by being tackled by a cow the question is do i want to do this job for the next 20 years the answer has to be no so the only answer is to hand in my resignation and start to look for something new as i have a 6 month notice period ending on an accounting date i have to jump before i have another job sorted out even so the decision was very hard and i was really choked up when i left them to discuss the future i could not go home as the kids would want to know what was going on so i went to js he already knew i will tell the kids on friday the practice manager on monday and work on tuesday i have said very little of my thoughts in the diary as i have learnt there are somethings better left unwritten until the time for the information to be public whatever issues are to do with confidentiality if you dont think something can be talked about then do not write it down as you never know who is going to read it a though got her self in to a stew as i rang wife to say i was going to js she then said she would come out she left a bit too hurriedly for a who then got it into her head that we had gone away on holiday with out telling them friday the whole day was unreal i knew i was going but no one else does told the kids at tea time and i was shocked by how upset they were it has come as a shock to them tim especially loves coming out and about around the farms with me there is also no what i am going to so it is just uncertainty on 2nd call sat 3rd may 2003 work then wash out i was on second last night and had 2 caesars and a calving what the second caesar was at 4am so i felt dreadful all day young vet had started operating and got stuck so i went to the rescue the cow had horrendous adhesions so nothing could be moved around we spent an hour and a half trying to pull the calf out and then stitching up the uterus in the cow i felt i needed diving gear on as i had both arms in to their full length with vet beside me trying to stitch by feel my arms were exhausted by the end of it i was like death warmed up all day but feel i have definitely made the right decision sunday after a good nights sleep feeling better my mother always use to say that the world looks very different after a good nights sleep and a cooked breakfast i do not need a cooked breakfast my stress levels have been that high that i have been eating far too much i am going to go on a diet the usual promise to myself my weight is going up fast so i will have to cut down and start to exercise a lot more went to see the practice manager to tell him that i have handed in my notice i have decided to see him on his own so that he has a chance to process it before work on tuesday he is overweight and stressed and that type to have a heart attack so treat him gently he is also a good friend so i should give him some warning so i spent an hour chatting it through and talking which is a good a way as any of spending a sunday afternoon mon bank holiday another bank holiday working but at least it is fairly quiet so spent most of the day working in the garden the kids were away in the morning doing various things and then met up for lunch with friends which was really nice they had been down to visit family in the lake district they had hired a couple of cottages for the w e and all met up they are really amazing people they are both doctors and i went out to visit them in thailand which was brilliant fun he was working with leprosy and aids cases they have come home and are sharing a gps job between them she is also doing a diploma in diabetes they are also doing deputation work to raise money for the work of omf in thailand and asia they have 4 kids and it was really nice to see them all again the kids are similar ages i really felt for them because they have gone from home schooling to schools in edinburgh in the big city so they have the double culture shock of coming to the uk and being schooled in a complete different way they are also very bright kids and having had individual attention from a very focussed mother they are miles ahead of the rest of their classes yet they do not have the social skills to adapt to the rough and tumble of life in a city comprehensive mobile phones are not a must have item in rural thailand good to see them all tuesday today i announced the fact i was leaving to those at work i had thought about how i should do it and what i was to say it is quite difficult both from an emotional point of view and from the fact that i think that the business in the longer term will have problems this has both a direct relevance for the lay staff and their jobs though there will still be a similar number needed as their workload is likely to remain the same and also for the vets two of whom may or may not be approached to buy into the business there will also in the longer term be a smaller number of vets needed but this will probably be managed by natural wastage i spoke first to the senior assistants and then lay staff it was hard as i have been there for as long as many of them 15 years which is a long time i think also there is an attitude that the ups and downs seem to be past for them there was a lot of upheaval over the move from b v up to s park fmd is over and things are suppose to be getting back on to an even keel and i throw a spanner in the works weds spent the evening phoning friends and relatives to let them know that i had handed in my notice and sending off for job details on two jobs and applying for another i am not sure what i am looking for so at the moment i am just sending off for anything that seems interesting and waiting and seeing it seems an unreal situation in so many ways i also had to phone the bank manager both to arrange our annual visit and to tell him that i was leaving again getting the balance between moving on and being positive with out pointing out the dangers in the future of large animal practice was a difficult balance after the initial shock all power to him as a salesman banker he then asked whether i would be needing any banking requirements so at least if i do start up an independent vet small business consultancy i will have a bank account to run it from thursday a quit day as no testing so tackled some of the back log in admin spent a lot of time setting up the systems and know how folder for nestle we have taken over the work for doing the lvi work for the nestle factory at dalston as they have fallen out with the previous practice when we took it on i assumed it would be the odd bit of work but in fact it is a huge amount of work so it is going to take some sorting out i also feel a bit off as i have handed in my notice and yet i am setting all this up and i ma not going to benefit from it at all i suppose it comes back to wanting to do what is right and that we should serve god and not man it is always a useful measuring stick to use to work out motivations and what should be done in a situation who am i trying to do this for me the practice the client or am i doing what jesus would do friday another bad hair day had real problems trying to fit the extra work into the day and so got a bit frayed around the edges fortunately next week will probably be the last thank goodness the practice that used to do the nestle work was on the phone to me and not very friendly hey ho went out for a meal with friends which was great they are the church youth leaders and are really switched on but i think need more support and help hopefully once the 1st of october hits i will be able to get more involved went to the royal oak at welton which just has been re done and is serving food on a proper basis as well as having a pub part more like a restaurant wife s food was excellent mine was ok i had an indian trio of samosa and 2 bharji to start with i am afraid i have been spoilt by real indian food so i should not have bothered going for it in a cumbrian pub saturday may 10th saturday may 10th a day off after too many days working and too much stress it was really nice just to be around home doing the garden and not really worrying what else is going on in the world i needed some space and i am pleased to have got it at long last it is amazing how much better the world looks after a good nights sleep and a some time off in the afternoon the c boys came around and we took them to see new chicks s was there and i did not want to go down the route of explaining why i had made the decision i had to leave so chickened out of telling her i suppose i am happy with it and i just want to forget about for the w e so we arrived with 7 boys which is quite brave fortunately we could not stay long as we had to be back to go out to giannis with d he took us out and it was really good fun the kids were all in good form came back and watched the first part of a dvd on john grishams book the client he is an excellent writer and although film can never develop the characters the same as a book so the film was good but only ok sunday 11th church was good this morning and it was good to be there and spent ages chatting to folk but came back to lunch with a couple who stayed too long there are some people i find really draining and she is one it is awful but i get really wound up and just want them to go after about 30 minutes they came for lunch and did not leave until after tea so i was almost going spare monday 12th i find the silence around the fact i am going a bit unnerving it is a bit elephant and coffee table really a lot of the farmers i suppose dont yet know or if they do how to respond todays frustrations are all with things not working bt have sent me a bill for 115 for fixing the line that was struck by lightening i was put through three depts before i gave up i may try just not paying and see if they can register the fact the bill is being disputed the other frustration is the car doors have gone again in wife s car which is incredibly frustrating they have been fixed and fixed and fixed although it is under warranty i am getting to the stage that i feel we are being fobbed off tues 13th i went to hear mg from the licc london institute of contemporary christianity speak at the living word this is a series that happens every spring and is organised by a group of ministers and folk from carlisle he is a very interesting speaker he is an ex ad man and his whole message is to get the church to look out side of it self he thinks that christianity in the west has become a leisure time activity and is not impacting the rest of peoples lives there is a concept of the sacred secular divide the church does not get involved in secular things work culture the arts sport and in some ways philosophy too whereas there should be no divide christ is either lord of all or not at all he also is a very amusing speaker he was talking about how technology is usually neutral but how it is used has very far reaching effects on family work and society he used the microwave as an example with a very amusing story about how he managed to save the sleep of the whole of north london by using the new fangled microwave to heat his daughters midnight bottle thereby saving the chancellor huge sums in lost revenue with typical jewish hyperbole he then moved on to his kids now teenagers not coming in for the meal he has prepared but reheating it in the microwave and how that led to a lack of communication and again hyperbole to his angst about not understanding the younger generation as this is a diary about fmd how do i relate this to my experience of fmd on the simple level the culture within defra needs to change servant hood whether by civil servants or politicians has been forgotten truth will out spin will fall computers should be a tool of all and master of none organisations need to have a human face for people to relate to whether it is the brigadier or the cvo people are individuals created by god and have feelings and are not numbers or statistics the post modernist human secularism where truth is relative where brown can announce that everything is under control can mislead parliament and people and it is acceptable i actually strongly feel that the current presidential style of where no one can make a decision with out refer to their boss is a poor model pain disaster illness and trouble are part of the human condition part of the fall of evil in the world enough philosophy its time for bed monday 17th may this was the big golden wedding anniversary day it was wife s parents golden wedding and her brothers and family all came to stay for the w e the celebration meal was at lyzzick hall in keswick the big surprise for wife s mum was that her bridesmaid and husband were coming over from canada j picked them up from the airport and took them to a b b other friends were also coming as a surprise rp started the surprises by coming in dressed as a waitress she came in and offered wife s mum a drink and she was really overcome the other surprises of bridesmaid and canadians was really nice to see the younger parts of the clan went off to the climbing wall while the older part went for a look at the lake in the rain it was a really nice day ended by a firework display thanks to c as he grew up in belfast during the troubles and fireworks were banned he has a real passion for them now as a big kid sunday went to church with everyone a very mixed group but they coped p spoke in the morning meeting he was very good he is a publisher and was talking about the church in china as he has just helped to publish a book about some of the christian house church it makes the materialistic church in the west look very weak and un spiritual in the evening mm spoke on the christian at work which was very good and very funny he was a bed sales man when he was a student and he was very funny about how he made shy engaged couples lie down and try the beds this really tickled other son age 8 much to his grans tut tutting the point he was making in between the jokes was that he had been told that he was to say that the bed s would all be delivered in 3 4 weeks when in fact it could be up to 6 weeks but the shop keeper thought this would put people off this meant that mm ended up in bother with couples arriving back from their honey moon to no bed so he decided to listen to gods way and tell the truth which he said like most biblical teaching is obvious once it is explained and tell people the truth not what they want to hear mon went and read the tb test for the tenant farmer there was 1 i r the reaction of the farmer took me back fairly badly and i was quite shocked at the sheer vehemence of his reaction fortunately it was mostly at defra he went out early on to the disease and he therefore got much lower compensation than a lot of the later ones he had some cattle wintering at his farm for some one else who went out later on with fmd at his home holding the difference in the valuations for the same type of cattle was horrendous he also has buildings that he owns on a small parcel of land the buildings were old and knackered but usable a lot of string and gates defra pulled them to pieces during fmd and then offered him peanuts o reinstate them which meant he could not get them back into a usable state so he is not a happy bunny spent the afternoon castrating horses which is not my favourite job if a stirk kicks you it hurts if a horse kicks you it usually means a trip in an ambulance you are therefore very tense and ready to move in awkward positions canadians and wife s parents headed off for a trip around the borders in our people carrier they are coming back to swap over cars at the end of the week wife has the tank to run around in for the week tuesday my back is twinging from the castrating and a calving yesterday and is really sore so did paperwork while sitting like a ramrod until i gave up and came back to lie down did the back exercises hourly but it just got stiffer and sorer weds spent morning reading in bed and doing back exercises but cannot get it moving went to see the accountant in the afternoon to sort out the practicalities of going freelance and finishing at the vets thursday back is a lot better and starting to move much more freely the first negative comment on me leaving today came from a farmer who has decided that the only way to make money is to go for 300 cows he has therefore planned all this designed new parlours been to look at other large herds thought it all through unfortunately his costings are on buying in dairy cows at 6 700 per head and just recently they have gone to over a thousand which means he is out by 60k oops but he said that he thought i was deserting them in a way i suppose i am back in to being on call with a vengeance a calving a caesar a prolapsed uterus hey ho friday interesting statistic on the radio whether it is right or wrong i do not know in the eu the average beef cow is subsidised to the tune of 2 per week the average african earns less than that the canadians and wife s parents arrived back from their trip around the borders the good news is they baby sat or teenage and child minded while we went out to the lemon lounge the bad news is they are to feed and look after over the w e my brother and family arrive tomorrow so it will be a bit crowded it was really nice to be out on our own with relative peace around us the noise from an office party does not impinge as it is nothing to do with us saturday 31st may 2003 a gardening day we decided that we would have to get the place sorted out so spent most of the day in the sunshine pulling weeds and sorting out the garden it was a beautiful day my back was pretty sore by the end of the day but we got it nearly all sorted which was good the boys cut the lawn and a sat on it and read her book another bbq by the end of the day a made the salads while the boys cooked so it was a family meal wife and the older two headed for tescos while i cleared the debris away sunday june 1st the sun is still flaming but the seeds and seedlings are looking a bit sad and whithered in spite of the watering i have really enjoyed the week off but there has been very little on fmd met up with friends at church home visiting parents in the evening caught up with the as he is an indian gastro enterologist who worked at carlisle they now work in bombay so it was good to see them they are hoping to set up an aids hospice there are currently over a million people who are hiv ve in bombay monday back to work and quite busy so it looks as if the june quiet period is not going to materialise with folk on holiday it makes it seem busier any way it took me until 4pm to get to my in tray which after a week was overflowing as usual tuesday this is more like june long lunch and spent the morning trying to get the accountancy package up to date sent off another speculative e mail job application a friend from church who is now studying physio therapy at glasgow came and insisted wife i went out for a walk together which was really nice he is a really nice young guy went to beach at beckfoot where we were the only ones walking the beach there was one serious kiter i have not seen such a serious kite for a long time it was fairly windy and he had it anchored behind him so as not to be taking off with it weds spent the morning doing fertilities and then spent time sorting out issues with george there was so little work it is boring for the assistants the june quiet patch ahs arrived the bills did not go due to a computer upgrade cocking the system up the systems are now so complex they are beyond any reasonable way of keeping tabs you have to trust the experts who you dont thursday day off spent it writing out a business proposal to try and get work via a consultancy firm then tried fixing the extractor fan and failed thursby football club is going really well with some more lads coming along the standard is variable but good fun friday tb testing again at fs they had just heard about me leaving and were full of questions the night was really busy on first call and had lots going on wife was at a retreat thinking through the future and reporting on the last year so i was trying to juggle kids as well saturday 7th june 2003 last night was terrible with a dog to see in the middle of the night and put down it was only a young dog but it had leukaemia and was not responding to treatment it had colic probably from the mesenteric lymph nodes and was rolling around in pain not nice for them or me sat am was busy too went to one of the organic farms to see an ill cow post calving he was saying that there are three farmers all none fmd giving up milking one is another organic dairy farm he was promised a premium of 10p per litre and his costings were based on 28p per litre he is getting a premium of less than 05p per litre which takes it to 16p the figures do not add up so he is giving up the other 2 are small farms who cannot make it work 40 50 cows slept in the afternoon and went to a party in the evening bizarrely as we were walking in the people whose dog i put to sleep last night walked in as well they live next door and had been invited as well weird spent time chatting but came to 10 and i was dead on my feet sunday 8th the on call changes from 2nd back up to 1st at 8 30 am the phone started at 8 35 urghhh i am finding it very hard to have any enthusiasm knowing that i ma leaving in a few months one of the farms i was on has given up dairy and were hoping to retire fmd year but lost money because of all the restrictions so they are now hoping to finish this back end may be they were hoping to keep the milk quota and lease it out as a pension but because of the new rules they will have to sell it and the price is low as there are a lot of non producers who are in the same boat it was at its height worth 1 per litre a lot was bought and sold in the 40 60p per litre it is now around the 10p mark funny world agriculture monday 9th calving at 5am followed by other calls so an early start busy day at work went to a meeting for the new crusaders support worker it is supposed to be county wide but is going to be based around kendal as that is where the legacy that is providing a lot of the money is based so it is less relevant tot this end of cumbria so i have backed out of the organisation committee as most of the meetings will be at rydal too far for me we were there tonight so did not get back until 11 30 which after a w e on call is too late for this bunny tuesday 10th spent 45 mins on the phone trying to work out what i am going to be doing in oct with a guy from pfizer i then had to spend the rest of the evening sorting out the emails i needed to send to him weds 11th spent the morning having nursery visits where the local infants schools come around the vets and i give my wee guided tour it is quite fun and the little things that we do they really love blowing up the anaesthetic bag the x ray quiz and listening to dogs hearts i always take some of son s chickens in as well as most kids are not use to having birds or handling them son has spent so many hours carrying them around they are fairly tame and used to being picked up i dont know that effort pays back in commercial terms but it is fun football training in the evening with 20 lads which was brilliant thursday 12th on call and exhausted after the excitement of the week the phone went at 7pm from the answering service to say that a women had rung and asked for the pass word for the alarm this of course meant nothing to those answering the phone i however put 2 2 together to work out that the alarm at the practice and gone off and that the police would be on their way why does this always happen when you are in the bath so i jumped out the bath and rushed down to find out what was going on there was a police man there who was waiting for me to lead the way in we found a very scared dog sitting in the prep room having escaped from its kennel it then took an hour to get the alarms reset life is a rich tapestry friday 13th went to lawyers today to meet up to go through the dissolution of the partnership bit sad in a way but another nail bashed in to my leaving coffin finished work and spent evening playing football and doing some coaching which was good fun son was off school today he was full of cold and just exhausted he just needed time out really he goes at everything at 110 saturday 14th june 2003 working am why is it even if you have a few quiet days in the week by the time the w e comes it is busy again really warm so sunshine and gardening a had decided she was going to do a changing rooms on the double room in the cottage so she and a friend worked away all day at it i was very impressed by the time we had finished our barbeque in the evening it was all back to ship shape and was finished she is some pup sunday went down to whitehaven to see the tall ships in the harbour there was only one there which was disappointing but it was good to look around there was a fair buzz about the place and heaving with people as the weather was great there was a display of jet skis which was fun to watch so the boys are now on at me to try and have a go the red arrows were brilliant they have a tremendous display and the coloured streams they leave behind in the sky always amaze me it is almost like they are writing in the sky monday finally decided the duck eggs were not going to hatch so broke them open to see if they were fertile 1 exploded it was so rotten urghh only one had a half formed egg in it so i think the eggs were the problem not the incubation tuesday testing some more i rs for tb though the history is wrong so i hope that they will clear a new vet student turned up in the afternoon she is staying with us until the w e then with colleague the vets is going to have to find new accommodation for students went to the training evening for the soccer coaching it was a form filling exercise and orientation so it was boring but i am on the course which is good at least i well have the piece of paper at the end of it weds footie training at night only the hard core turned up so looks like we will have a good group of 14 15 which means we will not have to choose and disappoint went for a run afterwards as feeling in need of exercise as not much large animal work at the moment means i am sitting around on the computer for a lot of the day which is sad must get fit is a constant resolution spent the evening up at sandal watching the sun go down away from the phone and chaos at home thursday i was at work when i had a phone call from some one who had apparently run over son at school never an easy phone call to take espy as she did not know what had happened fortunately he was ok he had been walking backwards and had stepped into the path of a car which had caught his heel the damage was slight but it had upset him the school exit is appalling and needs sorted as busses cars and bikes all share the same area as the kids walking inevitably kids are jostling and messing around so it is an accident waiting to happen friday half day as wife is starting her next w e counselling course could not really get going as a calving early this am and a call late last night so having run on adrenalin for all the week i collapse in to a heap and find it hard to get going and get motivated spent the afternoon getting organised for the visitors arriving as friends are coming and friend who was our bridesmaid is coming across for the w e saturday 21st june 2003 pay day i dont really know why it always sticks in my mind but at the moment with the 1st of october looming and the fact that the 21st will not be a pay day it is becoming a bit scary spent morning on run around and house jobs ferrying to and from squash went to town in pm with a son having left off the younger ones at cottinghams and spent a pleasant half hour in ottakars even they were running low on the book the latest harry potter which i had meant to order via internet but had not quite got around to the statistic is that she is expected to sell 6 every second over the w e she makes 1 per book which means 360 per minute 21600 per hour not a bad hourly rate or just over a million quid for the w e as every other person on the tills was buying a copy i can well believe it sun 22nd church in the morning was joint communion and was lead by the denton holm house group the church meets up in small groups mid week to pray and study bible and the denton holme grp lead the service it means you get a refreshingly different type of service with different people taking part and leading it was good followed by a picnic in the park which was ok but i just wanted to fall asleep in the sunshine i am suffering from stopping syndrome i can keep going on the adrenalin but when i stop thump i fall asleep and can not get going picked up liz from church in the evening having left youngest two at home as wife was late back from her course thank goodness for mobile phones or rather at least they manage to make a complex life possible really i should have let her pick up friend and missed church and upset a by telling her she couldnt go but it all worked out in the end mon 23rd friend arrived at some terrible hour she finally left bristol after 8pm after meaning to leave at lunchtime so as wife and i were exhausted we did not get up to welcome her work is really quiet with very little happening son is in a strop cos we will not let him go sailing after cricket after school as he will be exhausted he takes after us if there is a possibility we try to achieve it our own fault really but it is weird how you see your own faults coming through in your children tues 24th spent the day talking to people on the phone trying to get funding for the research project have a few leads and ideas to get together so should be interesting to see if it comes together weds 25th started at 4am with a caesarean which was really nice as that time in the morning is beautiful it is just a shame that the rest of the day is a bit of a wash out because of it went at night to the fa training course which was class room based on a warm sunny evening and i was struggling to stay with it i have also decided that i need to get fit as the practical day is going to be very long for my unfit legs thursday the electrician arrived to sort out the electrics in the bathroom which are still not right the lights keep fusing and the fan will not work i had a look at the wiring which is a mess and decided i could not follow it and after my last experience i decided i would just pay him to keep him in a job i had a very enjoyable day off played son at squash and lost now not only is he better than me at football but squash a swell all down hill from here on in went to church in the evening as rw was speaking it was interesting to hear him though was more a chat than a biblical exposition friday the email from the verse of the day seems to sum up a years worth of diaries when times are good be happy but when times are bad consider god has made the one as well as the other therefore a man cannot discover anything about his future ecclesiastes 7 14 new international version the future is uncertain i will leave my job in a few months time for a new start the pressures of fmd seem to be distant in the warm summer weather and in the quiet workload making me feel rested and relaxed the challenges both for agriculture the veterinary practice and for policymakers are still very large there is now a threat of bio terrorism to add to the food scares and the threat of exotic disease life carries on we may not learn from all our mistakes and government depts are a blunt slow awkward machine but the cows will still need to be milked and we will still need food on our table if in 68 you told some one that we had not had an outbreak of fmd for 35 years they would have said well done if you had said 2 men were milking 300 cows on a cumbrian farm and getting 7000 litres per cow he would never have believed you there is a time for everything and a season for every activity under the heaven a time to be born and a time to die a time to plant and a time to uproot a time to kill and a time to heal a time to tear down and a time to build a time to weep and a time to laugh a time to mourn and a time to dance a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them a time to embrace and a time to refrain a time to search and a time to give up a time to keep and a time to throw away a time to tear and a time to mend a time to be silent and a time to speak a time to love and a time to hate a time for war and a time for peace
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       information about diarist date of birth 1981 gender f occupation group 5 geographic region north cumbria paper diary has lots of newspaper cuttings and other related material week beginning 25th february 2002 after the snow which fell at the weekend melted combined with the additional rainfall many of the fields surrounding the village as well as the roads were flooded usually this wouldnt concern you much however with the burial site being so close and the number of underground streams in the area it does become worrying there isnt any guarantee that groundwater in the surrounding area wont become effected and to what extent there seem to be a number of aspects to me concerning this issue which remain unclear for example what exactly can be carried in water and how might this effect people in the area what is being tested for in the surrounding streams what exactly is classed as a danger and if problems did arise how would they be monitored and resolved all these issues do tend to make you anxious in particular on monday when i was out walking my dog i noticed a couple of drains which i passed looked as if they were blocked and there was a lot of water around it just makes you wonder how much has come possibly from the burial site and if it is actually safe my worries on monday about the groundwater were even more emphasised by the statement i heard on the border news on tuesday by the environment agency this statement was concerning the future safety of the groundwater in the area around the burial site the agency could give no guarantee that the groundwater would not become affected in the future since then i have heard no further news about the issue there may be more information on news reports i missed in my opinion not enough information is given to the public about these issues results of testing by the environment agency are meant to be available to the public however i have never heard much about the details i think more effort should be made to inform in particular resident near burial sites as these issues are bound to be important to them after hearing the news i did become more worried but at the end of the day there is little we can really do ourselves you find yourself having to trust people or agencies you know little about and just hoping everything will be alright on tuesday also noticed a horrible smell outside so did my fiancé but again you cant be sure exactly where this is coming from or what is causing it on thursday with news of possible foot and mouth case further south near leeds i became very worried that this whole thing was going to start all over again my worries were about the farmers and people involved and how they would be affected if other cases could be identified and in particular affecting my own life if animals would have to be slaughtered again in the future where would they be disposed of would existing burial sites be reopened as opposed to finding suitable sites for new burial sites it would seem easier to reopen burial sites but what would this mean for the future and to what extent would the health risks be increased i was very relieved to hear the testing of the foot and mouth cases came back negative i was relieved for the people involved and also residents near burial sites however this did raise questions in my mind of how this sort of situation would be handled in the future and what consequences it might have week 2 4th march on monday passed driving test and now fiancé and myself are insured on a small car this opens up so many opportunities and we have a huge sense of freedom last summer we had planned to go on a camping holiday with our dog dog we had al our equipment prepared but were unable to go due to the foot and mouth outbreak neither of us imagined how long and widespread the outbreak would be and thought at first it would be over in a few weeks now a year later we are able to replan our holiday this is exciting as we have waited so long it is unbelievable to think how long it has taken for restrictions on the countryside to return to as normal as can be possible due to the circumstances for the actual people directly involved in the foot and mouth crisis this must have seemed like far longer on tuesday i had a lovely surprise when i noticed the lambs in a field near my house when out walking my dog it was lovely to see and for a few minutes things almost seemed normal again even though the burial site is only about a mile away it is hidden from view from the village you never forget though as soon as you spot the windmills and remember the repeated pictures featured in the news seeing the lambs really did lift my spirits and the future after foot and mouth didnt seem as bad as thought the week before i cant recall the exact days but they were towards the beginning of the week on two particular occasions my fiance and i noticed a terrible smell outside we arent sure exactly what the smell was just that it was very unpleasant the only other incident which i can recall which stands out in my mind this past week is a conversation i had with my fiancés granddad we were talking about how bad last years foot and mouth outbreak had been and he recalled the outbreak of 1967 he commented on how he thought that outbreak had been far better controlled it was better as the animals were killed and buried on the actual farms in lime there was no transporting dead or live animals like last year he also commented on the fact that there were no pyres then and that he hadnt thought it a good idea last year overall he thought that last years outbreak could have been dealt with better and that action was taken far too late to prevent the disease spreading week 3 11th march one new thing i have noticed this week is the amount of birds there are flying around especially black crows i think it is because i have been driving and every time i drive past the fields at the south end of the village there are large amounts of crows hustled together can never remember it being quite like that last summer it makes you wonder why so many are drawn to just those fields as i drive past in the next few weeks i will see if it is still the same on about occasions this week fiancé and i have noticed a slight smell outside again not as foul smelling but still noticeable on tuesday saw new series featured on itv called rural lives i think this is a good idea as the issue of foot and mouth is still very painful to a lot of people and is not over yet the effects are still happening however on the news and in other media it isnt often mentioned and doesnt get the attention it deserves hopefully through programmes like this people will get a better understanding of the issues involved and what different people went through if an outbreak ever happened again all the people involved would hopefully have a better idea of how to handle the actual crisis and a better idea of peoples needs for example the farmers these are long term effects which cant be ignored my mum came out for a couple of nights she loves coming out to see us as she lives in carlisle it is a total change of scenery she thought it was great and enjoyed taking my dog on long walks which she was unable to do for a long time we went to see the lambs in the lovely weather shows we are able to start enjoying the countryside again especially coming up to spring and summer we were even able to go to dalston with my dog and wander about we have been so used to having to stick t the roads just in the local area it was lovely a nice change it does tend to make you more confident about the coming year and we are looking forward to the summer week 4 18th march this past week started of with a day out at bowness i went with my fiancé and took our dog dog it was lovely to let her off the lead to run she really enjoys it and got absolutely filthy travelling in the car is becoming easier for dog and she goes crazy when you arrive we have only had dog just over 2 years and for the past year we couldnt let her off the lead to run anywhere we are tiring t train her again she listens to a certain extent but we have to keep an eye on her cheeky side i remember wondering when the foot and mouth started how we were going to exercise dog as walking her on the roads used to be more difficult due to the large vehicles travelling up and down and also the fact dog isnt the best on the lead she used to be really energetic and a bit of a handful however now she has got used to a more relaxed life and at times i think she quite likes it it did us all good to have some exercise and fresh air and it was lovely to have a change of scenery apart from on monday i havent really been anywhere else apart from shopping and have been busy doing my a level work therefore i havent really noticed anything different this week and havent thought about foot and mouth as much my overall view this week has been quite confident and there has been no real significant happenings to change my view quite a good week overall week 5 25th march firstly i received the newsletter sent out to the standing panel it was a relief to finally get some information regarding the burial site it was good to have an explanation on how things work on the site in terms that we can understand it is a relief to know that everything so far is still safe however it is evident that there is much more work and monitoring to be carried out in the future even though it is still not possible to do anything ourselves our minds are at least put at rest by knowing something it surprises me how long it has taken for information like this to be made accessible to the public i think this newsletter is a very good step forward as information is reaching the public and participants are also given the opportunity to ask questions and put other ideas forward on wednesday my mum came out again to see us once again we took a walk to go see the lambs in the field near us it was enjoyable and we had lovely weather it makes you realise how much you take for granted around you without thinking twice my mum has made me realise this even more by seeing how much she enjoys such a simple thing and how special she thinks it is sometimes i think when you are surrounded by the country and nature all the time you forget how lucky you are my mum and gran would both love to live somewhere like here the biggest surprise this week was when i received the parish magazine for the month and found in it the watchtree news this is the first time i have ever seen anything like this from the parish council i think it is a very good idea as the information will be accessible to everyone in the appropriate parishes even though it is long overdue it is very worthwhile and i think will be very informative it covers a wide range of issues the majority of which i knew very little about and wouldnt have known for the future for example the maintenance going to be carried out between the a595 orton grange junction and the site entrance at least we now have knowledge of this before it is going to be carried out as it will affect other members of our family who live on the orton grange junction who would otherwise have had no idea some of the information was surprising for example the number of tankers that leave the site everyday which i didnt expect to be so high and which could rise important issues are also now being tackled such as the bad state of the local roads the affected people are also being encouraged to report these things themselves to the appropriate people i think this has been a significant development and will be very useful in the aftermath of foot and mouth communication between the appropriate authorities and the public is essential week 6 1st april unfortunately it has been all go this week one bit of work after another i havent had time to focus on very much else this past week despite this fact i have still had quite a positive week it is better studying out here as there are few distractions and everything is lovely and peaceful a drastic difference from last year at that time it was difficult to concentrate on anything for too long far too many distractions my fiancé however has been up to the burial site and nearby on sunday he went for a drive with a friend and wondered what it looked like up there we have only ever seen it on television reports but never been up there ourselves in a future diary when he has time he will write a few words on what he thought week 7 8th april once again this week has been full of work i havent had much time to do anything apart from work on thursday i had a break and my mom came out for a bbq for the first time this year we have put out our patio tables and chairs as the weather was staying pleasant we sat out for a while in the evening and had our bbq it was a lovely break for my mom as there is peace and quiet out here as opposed to in town we all really enjoyed it my mom and fiance both commented how lovely it was to sit outside in the nice weather without a nasty smell about over the past couple of weeks i havent noticed things smelling so bad as on a few occasions recently there has also been a decrease in the amount of birds in particular crows which have been in the fields to the south of where we are near the crossroads on the couple of occasions during the week when i have been past the fields there have only been a couple of birds flying around as opposed to a whole field full of crows at one time it was also lovely to hear the sheep especially as the evening became darker in the background you could hear the sheep just in the field next to us and also the lambs a few fields away it was something which we still arent quite used to but which we appreciate so much more now week 8 15th april i was feeling quite confident this week until friday when watch the news i saw the report on new bovine tb cases which are worrying even though it is said it wouldnt be as serious as foot and mouth it is still worrying as it has the potential to destroy many more lives and bankrupt more farmers who have probably just got over foot and mouth the worry must be especially bad for the farmers as it is bad enough for the general public especially after seeing the damage caused by foot and mouth in such a short space of time it would be absolutely terrible if this summer was anything like last summer how long would it take for everything to get back to normal then even though foot and mouth is evidently far different to bovine tb hopefully things will have been learned from last year which will prevent this from becoming a disaster too apart from that other aspects of the foot and mouth smell etc havent been as bad this past week i havent noticed any particular occasions when the smell has been particularly bad or noticeable in addition on the occasions when i have driven past the fields near the crossroads there have been hardly any crows near there which is a huge improvement there were a number of seagulls in one field but nowhere near the amount of crows there were before there has also been a decrease in the amount of tankers going by recently that i have noticed at first i didnt take much notice of it but then fiancé s grandad mentioned that he had hardly seen any he seems to notice them move more than we do as he lives on the orton grange junction with wigton road and they all have to go past there with all these things happening the presence of the burial site nearby seems less obvious week 9 22nd april the last week has been quite a pleasant week probably because i have eventually finished my coursework and have been able to have a bit of peace and quiet i think this combined with periods of lovely weather have made me feel quite good on tuesday when i travelled to town and back i went past the fields near the crossroads to the south of the village which in the past have been full of crows or seagulls as i have noticed on other odd occasions over the past week they appear to be empty now ill keep an eye on how this changes over the summer if it does on friday i noticed that there were a number of cattle and calves in the field just opposite our house i can stand and watch them from my back patio doors which is lovely with the reintroduction of the sheep and cattle in the area it is like everything is coming together finally after the foot and mouth and life is returning to normal in some sense the cattle seem to be the last part needed for everything to seem to be running properly and the animals finally moving about at last i think this fact combine with their being no significant incidents of nasty smells or the rumbling of the tankers going by has made things seem better when talking to fiance s grandad he mentioned again that there still havent been as many tankers going past his house at orton grange as there have been this past week there have been hardly any reminders of the burial site and the past foot and mouth problems living in the country has seemed quite normal after what seems a long time week 10 29th april all in all this week has been a good week overall with regard to the foot and mouth everything seems to have quietened down and there are hardly any visible reminders of the burial site and foot and mouth around the village as i mentioned last week there still havent been any noticeable occasions of smells possibly from the burial site the tankers have hardly been noticeable around the village and the fields near the crossroads have still been fairly empty of birds in particular crows this was explained and backed up in the watchtree newsletter in the parish magazines which i received this week it was good to read and very informative worth reading i still think it is a good idea and is being done well as it discusses issues happening now and also keeps you informed about action in the future the newsletter mentioned the reduction in the amount of tankers which i have noticed it also mentions that there might be a slight smell from the burial sited during work but so far i havent noticed anything once again it has been lovely seeing both the sheep and the cows in the surrounding fields especially at the moment when they are with their young on saturday on the way down to fiance s grandad there were road works near the baldwinholme bend in the road this part was in a bad condition and is now much better i think the damage was caused by the trucks etc used during foot and mouth however im not sure week 11 6th may this week has been my 21st birthday im growing up i had a lovely day on thursday and as a surprise i was taken t the lake district for the day it was lovely and i really enjoyed it firstly we stopped off at bassenthwaite lake for a bit fed the ducks and had a picnic then off to dodd wood for a coffee and to see the ospreys it was great to see them and i think we were quite lucky then we had a pleasant walk around myre house i was reminded of how lucky we are in cumbria to have such lovely places and i am glad that we are now able to go to these places again now weve got a car we are going to take better advantage of cumbria and what it has to offer once again i realised how much we take what we have for granted overall this has been a good week and reminders of foot and mouth and the burial site have been minimal there have been no smells i have noticed and hardly any signs of wagons it is still lovely to see the sheep and cattle around the village week 12 13th may on wednesday i met my mum in town and got the cumberland news off her i was reading about the county council inquiry at kendal i think it is good how the different people involved in the inquiry are all being honest about what happened that is the only way anything will be improved in the future if anything of a similar nature should happen again i really hope it doesnt from reading the articles written and what people have said it is clear what a wide range of people the foot and mouth crisis affected and also how badly when you read of other people who have had family who have been so low it has driven them to suicide you do seem to feel a bit guilty as when we complain it hasnt affected us is such a drastic way it brings the seriousness and the extent of the crisis to peoples attention despite the terrible things which took place during the crisis hopefully some good will come out of it for the present and the future on thursday fiance went to the doctors and was talking to a farmer in the waiting room as soon as fiance mentioned he lived in great orton the farmer asked straight away what it was like to live here so near to the burial site and how he couldnt imagine what it would have been like it too has been such a long time since anyone has said anything like that to either one of us at the time of the foot and mouth crisis people used to ask questions and what it was like to live so near it is strange when farmers in particular feel sympathy towards you for living near the burial site when on the other hand it is the farmers i feel sympathy for before the foot and mouth crisis a fair number of people even from carlisle didnt know where great orton was but now many do and realise how close to carlisle it actually is week 13 20th may i havent really done anything very exciting this past week unfortunately ive been revising again and preparing for a presentation for my a level which i have to do next week my presentation was on turrets and watchtowers which i found a bit confusing at first from the books ive been using so dragged fiance to drive and dog out past brampton to hadrians wall there i found a watchtower and a turret everything became much clearer on the way back we spotted a sign for a camping barn on hadrians wall banks east we were both very interested so sent away for the brochure at this point we decided to reconsider our holiday plans and realised we didnt need to go far afield like amsterdam our 1st choice then scotland 2nd choice we hadnt realised actually how many places there were so nearby which were ideal we came to the conclusion a holiday in cumbria would be the best choice as 1 we could take dog with us 2 we could go by car and 3 it would be a bit cheaper as fiance mentioned it would also be good after everything to put the money we were spending back into cumbria we were hoping to go next week as it is half term the week after and my exams after that hopefully we will get something organised on thursday we got the orton newsletter fiance and i were both quite disappointed when we read that land around this area are being sold for the building of houses it is good in a way as people are moving forward after f m but we wish it wasnt in a residential sense it is just a pity so much of the farming will be lost 6 houses at baldwinholme 4 in great orton even though i havent been brought up with a farming background from what i have seen it would be a pity for us to lose this part of our countryside week 14 27th may on monday saw cb and was pleased to hear the f m standing panel project was going well as i think its worthwhile and as much as possible should be learned for the future on tuesday i attended the meeting for the foot and mouth disease inquiry at great orton village hall at 7pm i was glad i attended the meeting as people could voice their opinions and try to get information about issues both about the present and the future my general view of the meeting and how it went was that the general feeling of the villagers etc was that they were losing interest and nothing was still being done there were many empty seats i estimated a total number of 50 60 people there was a whole new panel of faces even though this was a new inquiry so there were new people on the panel but between the meetings there is no feel of continuity as no one is sure of what has been said before and there are never the answers promised from one meeting to another it seems as if this is a way of avoiding answers and getting out of situations there were new aspects which were brought up which had not yet been disclosed never at any meeting i have attended such as the fact the burial was planned and used for the burial of uninfected animals which is not what we were led to believe with al the engineering on site again this is lack of communication and no one is sure of the facts defra also are only guaranteeing funding for this site for the next 5 years and it is worrying whos burden this will become after then a variety of other issues were discussed health roads handling of outbreak vaccination etc after the meeting i was glad i had been however i felt rather angry by the way in which the questions are handled the answers are often vague have no supporting evidence or are dismissed with ill have to get back to you on that or i cant comment in my opinion many of the farmers villagers etc just want this whole thing brought to an end ideally the remaining trenches filled in a nature reserve created and maintained there were no guarantees of the site not being used again or funding after the next five years will this ever be achieved on saturday morning fiance and i decided to go away for a short break to somewhere near and where we could take dog it was a spontaneous decision for the jubilee and because it was half term i was not at college we ended up going to a caravan site with dog for 4 nights i will update about my holiday in the next diary clipping from news and star here story about great orton public meeting and villagers request not to have site used again in the event of future emergencies holiday week beginning monday 3rd june week 15 10th june i am writing this a couple of days early just to tell you about our holiday it was lovely in the end we hadnt yet received the brochure on the camping barns so on saturday we decided we would like to go away as son as possible and would like something for the jubilee weekend after finding a caravan at caldbeck not far away relatively quiet we went by 5 pm on saturday fiance dog and i were there it was a lovely caravan site lovely caravan and even a tv for the world cup the caravan site was surrounded by common land sheep lovely and quiet and a lot of places to keep dog occupied we were so surprised at how quiet the campsite was over the jubilee weekend but thought most of the people actually lived there it would be lovely in the future to have a small caravan there to go away to the surrounding places we went to were really busy for example keswick bassenthwaite etc i was quite surprised but thought it was great to see cumbria lively again what a contrast to what i would have imagined these places to be like a year ago especially for the jubilee everyone seemed to make such an effort it was lovely to see we all had a lovely time so relaxing oi dont think dog has ever walked so far we were surprised that somewhere so close was exactly what we wanted we were also happy we could put our money back into cumbria we would definitely go back i feel so much more confident about the future especially in cumbria after this week if you didnt know about last year f m outbreak in some cases it would be hard to tell i really think cumbria seems as if it could recover from this hopefully on saturday and sunday ill in bed week 16 17th june with the combination of not feeling very well at the beginning of the week the car not running overt the week end and dog being in season i havent really been able to go anywhere this week it has been quite frustrating but i have had work to do anyway i still feel quite confident about the future this week after being on holiday this is better than a couple of weeks ago after the fmd inquiry meeting when i felt quite unsure at time of what was going to happen at gt orton i had the f m panel newsletter and watchtree newsletter with parish magazine i think both of these are good as you are able to gain information consistently about f m in cumbria and in particular the burial site this information would be difficult to come by otherwise in particular i enjoyed reading about children at milburn school with their memories of the f m outbreak and the effort they have made researcher had spoken with respondent about possibility of monthly diary and she decided to start straight away so although middle of month here follows monthly write up she continued to record her diary in this way at times she offers short daily entries drawing 4 weeks together within an overall reflective piece these daily entries are also recorded week 20 15th july writing up after 4 weeks i am looking forward to attending the social evening in dalston i am a bit nervous as am not used to doing these sorts of things but think it will be a good experience i was also pleased when i got the f m panel newsletter and saw the article i made notes for i have never done anything like this before and was quite pleased about the whole thing on the saturday of week one fiance and i went down to fiance s grandads and noticed there were more signs up for land being for sale again we both think this is quite sad as the area will inevitable be changing in the near future we wonder how much of the land will be reused for farming or sold for new houses taking into consideration the signs we have seen up in the past quite a bit of land is going to change over the past weeks i have also received the watchtree newsletter with our parish magazine i still think this is a good idea and worthwhile as you are updated every so often this will also reach everyone in the village so easily accessible over a period of a few days in week 2 of these 4 weeks fiance and i both noticed a strange smell outside we could smell it here but not at fiance s grandads which is only 2 miles away it smelt just like a burning smell so i am not sure whether it had anything to do with the burial site or anything being done up there i just thought i would mention it anyway last wednesday i rang up the archaeological support group in carlisle of which i have been a member for the past year and a half i had never been sent anything to do with it for along time and wondered why it turns out that last year as soon as f m hit cumbria everything was cancelled and stopped this i knew at the time and there was nothing else that could have happened the thing i didnt realise was that things have been so badly affected that nothing has been arranged as yet even so many months after f m broke out once again this is another example of how things have been affected still so many months after there is also uncertainty about the future of this archaeology group as nothing has been decided yet and it will depend on how things go this is a pity and i hope things pick up in the future on the first week of these 4 weeks fiance and i both noticed that we were coughing a bit more especially at night and early in the morning since then fiance has got better and is not coughing as much but now i have got a sore throat and a cold i dont think this is anything to do with the burial site or anything but we were not sure about the coughing and i thought i would mention it 12th august writing up after 4 weeks i do not feel quite as nervous now as i did about the evening at dalston village hall it was a bit intimidating at first as i was going on the same night as frontline workers and health professionals i felt a bit out of my depth when i wondered what sort of stories they would be telling compared to what i had seen these people would have had to deal with the situation first hand and must have seen some terrible things after a couple of weeks i grew used to the idea and didnt feel as bad it would turn out to be a good experience as it turns out the evening is now on the 21st august and everyone is going together things will be a bit more relaxed for me i think i hope i will be able to make it the one major event that has made me think over the past couple of week is fiance s auntie jean who has moved house from orton grange 2 miles away from us into the middle of town it made me think that i definitely wouldnt like to move back into the middle of carlisle after living here even though it hasnt been the most pleasant at times here with f m last year and the building of the burial site i would still miss everything about it once again i am reminded how lucky i am to be surrounded by fields cows sheep and a horse in the overlooking field it is also usually quiet and peaceful i can imagine quite different to the middle of carlisle i think jean will miss it quite a lot just over a week ago fiance and i were busy getting our garden ready for the village in bloom it was good to see everyone making an effort to everything looking nice everything felt a bit more normal this year whereas last year i think the village in bloom was the last thing on most peoples minds it made me feel more confident about the future perhaps everything or most things may return to normal eventually week 24 12th august nothing extremely significant concerning f m has happened this week i have noticed though now when working at village pub wellington even though i only do 1 day it has really become quite busy i think business has improved after they tried more advertising i can remember back to during the foot and mouth outbreak it was very quiet most people stayed away and the atmosphere in the pub was very depressing now over a year later things do seem to be picking up again and perhaps returning more to normal it is god to see monday 19th august all in all it has been a quiet week i havent really been out very much and not feeling well really i was a bit disappointed not being able to attend the social evening o wednesday as my mom was unable to get time off work or change her shift 26th august first of all we were noticing problems with our goldfish when we first got them about two and a half years ago we had very few problems with them over the past few months they have been getting ill we have tried all sorts different chemicals and still they have all died except one omar fiance s cousin who breeds fish came and had a look and was baffled the only explanation is that the chemicals have been changed or increased for example the chlorine which there appears to be a lot more of we obviously arent totally sure what the problem is but thought we should mention it anyway this week i also noticed the banner opposite the village shop in the village i have enclosed an article about this banner which appeared in the cumberland news this week i think this sums up the mood i have noticed at the village meetings nothing has yet been done to help the villagers etc so what difference have the promises made this is the main reason why i feel less confident about the future this week regarding foot and mouth as these things are still dragging on monday 2nd september during the first week of these diaries nothing really significant happened regarding foot and mouth i did comment however that when working at the pub on sundays how busy the pub was and how business had seemed to improve a lot from what i had seen during the foot and mouth crisis the atmosphere then had been depressing this made me feel more confident about the future regarding foot and mouth as another aspect of the foot and mouth had seemed to return back to normal this mood however did change during the third week of these diaries when i felt less confident about the future it all began when our goldfish started dying apart from oner we still are not sure exactly what caused it and are not sure whether or not it was because of the water here or something we did there just seems to be that little bit of doubt in my mind as you dont feel totally sure about what is happening in this area still and therefore i dont think really trust the organisations dealing with these issues the other thing that seemed to sum up some of my feelings was the banner which appeared opposite the village shop last week i think this shows the desperation and lengths some of the people in the village have to go through in order to get noticed and heard it seems ridiculous that the same basic issues brought up in the earlier meetings have still not been dealt with it does make you lose the trust you had in the organisations involved article enclosed this past week has been a little better however not that good i did receive the watchtree newsletter in the parish magazine which is still good to receive as it updates you on a number of different aspects of the burial site i also heard about the article in the newspaper regarding this inquiry from cathy as well as my mom who has saved it for me but as yet i have not read it i will comment on this in my next diary 9 15 september monday got free news star last week and found article on f m diaries not too bothered that it has been printed myself tuesday saw cathy said about articles not too bothered myself but can see why otherwise involved would be as things are not represented in the right way and are misleading good point though is that it may catch peoples attention and get the point across that people are still suffering got article from cumberland news mum saturday found article in cumberland news regarding village in bloom won a trophy for our special efforts in village in aftermath of f m crisis mark andrews trophy 16 22 september monday fiance and i noticed a burning smell when we came back home in the evening not sure what it is from reminds us of f m crisis wednesday road works in village didnt affect us too much thursday road works between here and fiance s grandads annoying at times has taken such a long time to do reminds us of f m crisis fiance and i noticed a burning smell again not sure where from friday good that watchtree newsletter told us of these road works as wouldnt have known saturday these aspects arent too bad on their own but the atmosphere reminds you of the f m crisis last year 23 29 september monday read the diarist and also had a look at the inquiry report i was sent after attending the village meeting tuesday have not had time to read very much of it but i will get round to it and then comment on it friday parish magazine and watchtree newsletter still good to be updated on what is going on 1 roads and 2 visiting the site 30 6th october monday rang up to book table at the autumn fayre being done in village hall people pleased that people in village getting involved tuesday water has been quite bad especially on tuesday full of chlorine had to leave for a while for everything to evaporate makes you quite concerned about whether or not it is safe to drink 6th october writing after 4 weeks during week i read the articles regarding those f m diaries which appeared in the cumberland news and the news and star they are enclosed after reading these and speaking to c i myself wasnt too bothered or offended by what was written but could easily have seen why other people would have been specially if they are finding things really difficult i think there is a good side to these articles as well though as they will have grabbed peoples attention and highlighted the fact that there are still problems regarding f m this long after the crisis even though the articles were misleading they have also done some good when reading the cumberland news i also found a mention of great orton regarding the village in bloom it turns out we were awarded the mark andrews trophy for special efforts during the aftermath of f m it would have been nice to win a better award but at least we were recognised for something i was quite please week 2 was probably the worst week i have had during the past month regarding f m as the whole week just seemed to remind me of what it was like during the crisis firstly there were road works between here and fiance s grandads only 2 miles away i understand these had to be carried out but it made it difficult and inconvenient to get to fiance s grandads as you didnt know which roads were gong to be closed when now that the work has been done everyone that i have spoken to about it think they will cause more trouble than before as when you pull out of the lay bys it is dangerous as the grass and verge have not been smoothed out i think they are alright if you already know the roads but i wouldnt be as confident if i hadnt driven on them before the other aspect which made the road works seem worse were two instances when fiance and i both noticed a burning smell monday and thursday we were not sure where this came from but it still reminded us of the crisis on week 3 i received a copy of the f m inquiry and glad i went to a meting in the village sometimes it feels good to be involved even though in such a small way i also received the diarist newsletter and watchtree newsletter which i am still glad i receive without the watchtree newsletter i dont think i would have been informed of the road works being carried out i am also glad the site is progressing and that people are now being given the opportunity to visit the site if they wish on week 4 there was only one major problem with our water on tuesday the water was that full of chlorine that we had to leave it for all the chlorine in it to evaporate or boil it even to give dog a drink this is the second time this has happened and it does concern you as firstly why is this being done and secondly is the water safe to drink we are not sure who to contact about this as last time we contacted united utilities who said it was just routine and nothing to worry about week beginning 7th october not much this week regarding fmd think i have been too busy thinking about other things week beginning 14th october monday relaxing a bit today as going to be a busy day tomorrow and away on wednesday tuesday fiance s exam turned out to be quiet here today which was good for fiance s exam as he did it at home would have been difficult last year with pressure of f m weds away on holiday it was a bit of a drive to what we are used to but we made it lovely views on way down and hawkshead a lovely place thursday this holiday very well suited for dog as plenty of places to walk a quiet campsite and shops and pubs which are suited for dogs things she is not quite used to friday lovely to be away for a break away from great orton on the one hand but then you remember how nice it is where we are and how luck we are on the other hand sunday had a very good week and confident about the future week beginning 21st october monday having quiet week as just got back quite tired but coping ok nice to be back in a way weds got watchtree newsletters in parish magazine also article out of news and star i think about renaming of site and farm that used to be there thursday watchtree newsletter interested in the open day think its a good idea and will be very interesting especially geology and fossil remains found on site i think would be beneficial as even though we live in the village and have been to the meetings still have little idea of how the site looks now and will in the future week beginning 28th october weds went to meet mom in town the roads into town were terrible mud on road everywhere and really busy with trucks etc must be where they are doing new building hope it doesnt get like this all the time as so much land round here seems to have been sold for new construction sat mom has got her own stall this week end at the craft fair in the village hall 1st time she has done this saw it in parish newsletter 2nd november writing after 4 weeks this past month has been one of the busiest i have had for a long time firstly there was fiance s final exam which was quite stressful for him at times revising and everything it reminded me of how difficult it had been when we were doing our first exams a year and a half before during f m crisis studying had been very difficult then due to constant interruptions and distractions constant sound of trucks smells noise tension im so glad it wasnt this bad this year as these things can be stressful enough shortly after fiance s exam fiance my mom and i went for a short break to hawkshead it was great we all enjoyed it and dog especially everything was suited for dog we took her shopping there are benches and water bowls outside every shop we went for a bar meal and sat outside with her and on our last night even too her with us and went for a pint apart from these things we also took her on plenty of walks being there made you realise how lovely cumbria is and how people who dont live here are attracted to it it is a pity how cumbria suffered during f m crisis as it is such a lovely place i do hope that due to the large amount of attractions in cumbria that things will hopefully be back to normal as can be expected i was quite surprised at how busy things were for that time of year it seems things must be improving which makes you confident i enjoyed my break but you realise maybe great orton isnt such a bad place to come back to during the past month i have also received the watchtree newsletter im quite interested in the open day later on this month i think it will be very interesting im really interested in the geology history of the site and also fossils found there during this work i dont know much about how the site looks or how it will be in the future it is amazing that you can live so near but still have no idea of what it is like all i can seem to remember are the pictures that were shown on the news months ago it seems difficult to imagine it any different this past week has been very busy as my mom is having a stall for the first time at the craft fair in the village hall i have been helping her a little bit and helped her on the stall i just sat with her really she decided to have a go as she likes crafts and is always making things it was nice to be involved in the village and the money from the hiring of the stalls went to the church which is good it was very quiet on saturday though and apparently that was the worst its been for a few years i wonder if this is an effect of the f m however the weather and other factors may have contributed week beginning monday 11th november tuesday fiance doctors wednesday me dentist and in town with mam missed the exhibition at the village hall disappointed but got an article from the cumberland news this is included i havent spoke with anyone that went no one has mentioned anything to me disappointed i missed it and also because this is probably one of the only opportunities we will get to know anything fiance and i both agree it is still like a big secret no one really allowed in and out it doesnt feel like local people are benefiting at all is it anything to do with us really friday children in need at the pub yesterday nice to see people taking part again big difference to during foot and mouth we just made a donation it was a bit busy for us 1045 raised sunday work at pub still very busy the pub at least it seems to have recovered after f m but from what i have heard they did suffer badly along with the other businesses here week beginning 18th november tuesday should have been playing darts at port carlisle had a break for a week the thing that is worrying about playing darts away is the travelling some of the country roads round here are terrible is this because of the wagons especially near wiggonby the road at fiance s granddad just gets worse its just mud and less grass terrible is it because of damage done by wagons and a combination of all the flooding in the area now saturday fiance and i talking about how the area has changed we remembered back to 4 years ago when we used to go to the airfield burial site for some peace even though only rubble then really enjoyed it there we could take the dog had first driving lesson off fiance not again had some fun and really miss it at times nowhere round here anymore to get peace cant even enjoy the nature reserve very frustrating week beginning monday 25th november monday keep realising when doing diaries that havent had a chance to look at cumbria foot and mouth disease inquiry report will have to make time for it soon saturday when i was at pub talking about new fence on park for children general mood is not very pleased as it doesnt fit into a country village setting and nothing else done sunday cant believe it is the beginning of december everything is passing too quick inevitable 31st november writing up after 4 weeks the past 4 weeks have been very busy compared to what i am used to and at the same time have been quite frustrating in a few ways the issues which have bothered fiance and i most are mainly to do with the onset of winter which of course is inevitable but this year they seem to be worse than we can previously remember since living here in winter the biggest issue is the state of the roads in the village and round about it is terrible with the amount of rain we have had there are puddles everywhere and everything is turning to mud the worst thing is that it is very difficult to walk or take dog anywhere which is frustrating you either get absolutely filthy or when walking down the roads you have to get soaked on the sides of the roads to avoid cars and going down the lonning isnt really an option as it is really muddy and there has been dumping we understand most of this will be due to the weather but we are sure some of it on the roads is due to all the traffic there has been especially at fiance s granddads outside the front of his gate and garden the grass has gradually been stripped away and has now turned to mud in all the ears he has lived there 50 years he has never seen it as bad the roads arent like this just nearby i have noticed other roads round about are also in a bad state when i have travelled away to other nearby village pubs when playing darts i was disappointed when i missed the exhibition at the village hall about the watchtree reserve as i had to go up town etc i have not spoken to anyone i know that attended the exhibition but wish there were more opportunities to learn more about it i did find a newspaper article enclosed about the watchtree it is quite annoying that this wont be open to the public it is understandable why this isnt possible but then on the other hand it is not benefiting anyone really who lives nearby fiance and i still remember back to when the airfield was still there and it was a lovely place to go walking and to relax by getting away from everything it used to be lovely and quiet and was also so nearby we do actually quite miss it sometimes as there is nowhere else like that round here now even though there have been quite a few negative issues this past month it has also been encouraging when i have been working at the pub it has been very busy when i have been there showing that it must be recovering from the effect of the foot and mouth crisis it was also encouraging when there was a night held for children in need when they raised approx 1045 it is good to see people involved and happy again one thing which i did notice was that the general mood about the improvements made to the park was not very good people were not impressed that the new fence does not look like it belongs to the country at all and that that is all that has changed i have not had time but will go and have a look for myself december 2002 writing up after 4 weeks average i havent felt too bad over christmas a little tired but since i have got a bit of a cold and sore throat not surprising at this time of year average i think it has been all right havent been able to walk very far near village due to weather and roads but this isnt surprising at this time of year these past 4 weeks have been rather hectic with christmas and everything but i have still had quite a bit to write in my diaries concerning foot and mouth i received the parish magazine for december in which there was a thank you to all involved in the craft fayre and there was 1 008 raised for st giles church it was good to be able to contribute to something in the village well it was my mum really but i helped it is good to see these sorts of things happening here its good for the village after everything i also received the watchtree newsletter in the parish magazine it is still good to receive this as it updates you on everything and also had information regarding the exhibition at the village hall which i missed i am glad it was a success and people attended especially the school children who were taken i also received the diarist which is good to read it is interesting to see what other panel members are up to and is surprising what things can lead to for example the diarist and the samson tractor over the past couple of weeks i have also collected a couple of articles from the cumberland news the first one lie returns to watchtree actually made me feel better that we were going to get something positive out of this whole experience but the only problem is that at some moments in time this wont be enough for some people involved as it does not change what happened and wont make up for what has been lost i think it just depends on how you are feeling at the time when reading the articles the other article village in running for top country award was also quite pleasing as at least we as a village are being remembered and recognised for what we went through it is surprising that now so long after the actual foot and mouth crisis that we are finally being recognised and so many things are now being written in the paper over the christmas period i have only really had one thing to complain about and that is the state of the roads after the rain the roads have been terrible to drive on with the flooding and the road sides turning into mud everything is filthy i know this is expected in winter out in the country but since i have been here it has never been so bad especially at fiance s grandads one improvement is the signs which have been put up at the passing places between here and fiance s grandad fiance and i both think these are much much better and a lot safer we have also spotted a couple of signs from watchtree which have been up now for a while but are still surprising to see now it is time to start everything again the new year and hopefully this will be a better year for great orton than the past couple has been i am glad it is going to be quiet here now for when i start my studying as opposed to the foot and mouth when studying was very very difficult monday 27th january writing up after 4 weeks this week i found an article in the daily mail which i thought was relevant it is called boom and doom and is about house prices all over england for 2002 prices in north yorkshire rose by 66 but in allerdale they only rose by 8 it did not mention why this was but some of it must be the result of the foot and mouth crisis and the effect on the area since then this made me think about the effect on great orton and how difficult it would probably be to sell houses here and if people would really want to move here there are two sides however as if more property was built in great orton and the surrounding area things would probably change and great orton might lose some of its farming background i definitely wouldnt want it to change too much despite the burial site i like it just the way it is the great thing about this week is the weather for once we have been able to go down the lonning with dog without getting filthy as it is frosty it has been great i cant believe how quickly 2003 is passing it is february already this past month has been totally hectic with appointments arrangement birthdays and the open university it makes you realise that whatever happens time goes on i think this must have been very difficult for people directly involved in the foot and mouth crisis as life would have had to carry on despite whatever was going on in their own lives i think as time has gone on i have got more used to the idea of watchtree and accept it more now i received the watchtree news during the previous week it is good to hear that the restoration and creation of the site is finally complete overall i dont think it has taken as long as i thought it would for the nature reserve to be established especially when you compare it to how long it has taken for the childrens playground to be improved nearly two years after the foot and mouth crisis however it is better late than never i am pleased at how the nature reserve sounds with al the different species of animal which had been included or seen especially the merlin the smallest bird of prey which was sited fiance and i both find these things very interesting it is good that this is happening so close to us last year we travelled to see the osprey viewpoint it was great over the past couple of weeks i have also found a few more articles two of these are regarding the 20 day standstill with not been directly involved in the farming side of the foot and mouth crisis i am not totally sure about all these sorts of rules etc but think it is good that at least things are trying to be improved for the future in case this may happen again and also as a result of learning from past events there was also an article showing watchtree as a finalist for the environmental project award i definitely think that watchtree deserves to be considered for this award as so much has happened here and at least some good is going to come out of it it would be nice to get this sort of award in recognition of the hard work of the people involved i think this year will hopefully be a better one for cumbria and people may have confidence even though the foot and mouth crisis was a tragedy i think cumbria and the people in it are able to recover from it as people from the newspaper articles seem more optimistic and this rubs off on you i think this year will be a better one and feel more confident about the future at this point monday 24th february writing up after 4 weeks so far these past four weeks i have not receive a watchtree newsletter but there was a small mention in the parish magazine about he playground work is underway and it is hoped to be finished by the summer it seems to be taking a long time to get the playground sorted but at least it will be good for the kids in the summer holidays it is better late than never there is only one thing that has bothered us over these past weeks our fish whenever we change the water the fish seem to be ill and now we have had to add more and more chemicals to reduce the amount of chlorine that seems to be in the water we did originally start off with 13 fish and now only have 2 left it does make you worry about the state of our water and why more chemicals are possibly being added the fact that the burial site is so near does make you worry if that is anything to do with it over the past four weeks i have been very confident about the future regarding foot and mouth with the sun shining again and the animals about it seems as if nothing bad has happened here but you know that for some people involved in the crisis the future will never be that easy or simple and i do feel sympathy for them for me it seems possible to be able to move on now after the crisis and it has been good to see the sheep and cows about and fiance has even seen a couple of birds of prey we are not sure what they were but think one might have been a merlin which was mentioned in a previous watchtree newsletter as being seen on site the article called record tourism figures for county was encouraging and shows that cumbria may be starting to recover after the foot and mouth crisis i also found another article called fears over bovine tb time bomb i think this is worrying and should definitely be taken seriously as it would be devastating to farmers and everyone in the county in the past fortnight it has also been my mams birthday she was really looking forward to spending some time out here and we went to bowness for the afternoon with dog once again you realise how lovely it is out here and how much it should be appreciated overall in my opinion the situation in cumbria over the past year has definitely improved and will hopefully continue to do so 24th march writing up after 4 weeks these past four weeks have been rather strange and worrying first of all there was the death of simon harris a man from the village who you would regularly see walking dogs and looking at the horses despite what most of the papers have said about him to me he was always polite and possibly just a bit shy i have enclosed an article about him that was in the paper shortly after his death the headline is not very nice but the article does include some of the best comments about simon i was quite shocked by the whole thing and think it could definitely have been handled better by the papers the people in the village could also have been a bit more respectful i do not think it was their place to comment in the way that they did secondly the whole issue of war with iraq is a worrying subject neither fiance or i agree with what is being done and how it is being carried out it is a particularly worrying time for fiance s aunty as her husband lives in kuwait with the rest of his family she came to england where she is originally from with her two children during the last gulf war she knows all too well what the danger are and what is involved it is a very worrying subject where you feel totally helpless and at the same time cannot get away from it however life still carries on as harsh as it may be i thought of this when looking at the past diaries i have written and how many have accumulated it is strange how quickly time goes by and how people are just expected to cope and carry on i thought in particular of the people worst affected by the foot and mouth crisis how helpless they must have felt and how they coped life can be a funny thing looking back i think this project has been very worth while and think it is great that they will be archived for the future writing these diaries seems to have become part of my routine now and i think it will definitely be strange when i no longer have to write them i have found quite a few newspaper articles over the past four weeks donella rebuilds the cumberland show was encouraging about the future of cumbria after the foot and mouth crisis however there are still worrying issues arising such as in the articles of mp calls for vaccination to keep f m under control and from uruguay with a threat which highlight issues of important to the farming industry i have also been very busy over the past few weeks as my second assignment was due for my university work which was quite hectic i have had a break for the past couple of days as i have not been very well a bad cough sore throat and stomach and a stuffy nose i havent done too badly over the winter months with illnesses so i cant really complain lastly our water hasnt been of the best quality lately on occasions it is white and fizzes not the most appetizing 21st april writing up after 4 weeks these past 4 weeks have just seem to fly by quite a few good things have happened and even though i am feeling quite tired i have had a good month firstly fiance dog and i have finally go t a small space of our own we have got an allotment about 8 miles away and it is surrounded by horses and fields it belongs to a man who lives there and owns all the land roundabout but unfortunately he is no longer well enough to work the land so has let us have it it will need a lot of work but will be good for us so far we have got potatoes raspberries and rhubarb growing dog even helps to dig even though we live in the country on our own block it is not always that easy to get any peace we have also had the opportunity to join the cumbria wildlife trust a leaflet came through our door and we thought it would be brilliant as we would be kept up to date with all the latest goings on in cumbria learn a lot more about the wildlife and also possibly get the chance to do some voluntary work fiance and i are really interested and think it is great we get sent though a certain number of magazines every year and every month we send a small donation so we feel like we are helping a little bit as well the article which i found in one of the magazines id enclosed on the next page the other thing which has made my month is knowing that we are going to hawkshead again my mam fiance dog and i are going for a short break just 3 nights for my birthday we have got it all booked and are really looking forward to it it was great last time especially for dog i just hope she doesnt get stuck under the bed in the caravan this time as she is a bit bigger now than she was then this past week i have also been in touch with my dad in south africa as it was his birthday it turns out that he may be passing through carlisle for a couple of days at the end of next week it would be lovely to see him again and i think he will love great orton and our allotment i think he has always liked the thought of living in the country and would love to retire to somewhere nice and quiet things will also have improved and we have grown up a bit since he was last here about 3 years ago it should be good it is funny that after living in south africa for so long he is still drawn to the lifestyle in cumbria lastly i have made a note of the final meeting for the foot and mouth diaries and hope to be there i bet it passes really quickly now and will be over before i know it how strange 28th april 4th may monday got 3 articles from cumberland news april 25th 2003 breeders hit out discrimination fmd burial site celebrates new life and my favourite its a dogs life for rosie the lamb tuesday saw c friday noticed the park is coming on a bit better for the children it was mentioned in the orton parish awarded 25 000 to reference drain level and re seed new play equipment will follow saturday some of the children were allowed to attend meetings to discuss it good to involve children about time too at least children will be able to play football 5th 11th may tuesday working really hard have to get assignment posted off tomorrow night before we go away on thursday hectic wednesday service held at watchtree unable to go but think it was a very good idea newspaper article enclosed was written before the service thursday away to hawskhead exciting friday my birthday had a lovely day went shopping in the morning to forest in the afternoon and for a meal at night lovely sunday back from holiday already it was lovely everyone was so friendly or perhaps we just noticed it more there 12th 18th may tuesday fiance at doctors not very well he has got a viral infection as well as fluid behind his ears told to just take it easy wednesday i have been sent info to chose courses for open university that i would like to do next year and in the future am going to take the environmental studies route hopefully leading to diploma in environment and development and possibly further to ba bsc in environmental studies i did like archaeology but think what i am doing is a lot more relevant to the future foot and mouth and watchtree made me realise that friday got watchtree newsletter this week i will enclose it this time as it covers quite a few areas and has a bit of information there is information about the service held awards that have been won and also new wildlife which are now present on the site lapwings oystercatchers and ringed plovers 19th 25th may 2003 tuesday dad has come to visit for a couple of days from south africa nice surprise enjoyed seeing him dad asking about fmd crisis he saw it on tv over there and how close it was i think he was quite shocked thursday i was surprised that even though south africa is so different he would still like to live somewhere in this country makes you think again how lucky you are and what you take for granted saturday article from cumberland news may 23 reward for post foot and mouth achievements 25th may writing up after 4 weeks every time i come to write these diaries i look back over the past four weeks and notice they are becoming more and more busy the past couple of weeks have been no exception it is already nearly half way through the year i cant believe it over the past 4 weeks i have been on holiday turned 22 and my dad had popped over from south africa for a few days hectic but good firstly hawkshead was lovely again i wouldnt say anything different it was great we all had a lovely time and i had a really good birthday when you are at home in great orton you forget how much is really out there in cumbria to do and see we definitely think we should take advantage of it more often shortly after we arrived back from hawkshead my dad popped up to carlisle for a couple of days it was a lovely surprise and it was good to see him he absolutely loves it where we are and thinks we are very lucky even though south africa is so different he still thinks it is lovely out here looking out onto fields this did make me realise how lucky we are despite what happened due to foot and mouth inevitably sometimes we do take it for granted my dad remembered watching about the foot and mouth crisis in south africa but did not realise exactly how close it was i think he was quite shocked foot and mouth has definitely made me more aware of my surroundings and how everything works i have definitely noticed this when i have been doing my studying for open university i am now at the point where i can chose my courses next year and therefore which path i am going to take i have decided to take courses leading to a diploma in environment and development and if everything goes to plan for an environmental studies degree i am really enjoying what i am doing at the minute and think it is definitely useful and relevant for the future i did enjoy studying archaeology but think the environment and related issues are more important at the present and in the future on the 7th may there was a memorial service at watchtree to mark a two year anniversary from when the last animal was buried at the site i think this was a good idea and it is appropriate to remember the animals that were killed i was unable to attend the service but have managed to get a newspaper article about it and it was also mentioned in the watchtree newsletter i have included this newsletter in with these diaries at it contains quite a bit of information on a few different aspects i think it is good about the wildlife which is emerging on the site the park or play area for children is also coming on fairly well at last it has finally been reseeded as well as levelled it looks better i have also included 4 newspaper articles from the cumberland news with my favourite being rosie the lamb i have put this article in as i thought it was lovely 22nd june 2004 writing up after 4 weeks how strange it seems that all this is coming to an end and really how quickly time has passed in my situation i would say that time has healed a few aspects of the foot and mouth crisis and things dont seem so bad 18 months on i enjoyed the foot and mouth evening and learnt a lot from it about other peoples views and experiences i enjoyed it a lot more than i thought i would and thought that the main themes found during the research were ones which i would have agreed with one thing which was said which has made me think was the comment that these diaries would be our type of memorial i had never once thought of this research in that sort of way but the more i think about it the more i agree and like the idea it definitely has been worthwhile being able to contribute to something especially if it may be able to help in some way in the future when compared to the article that i found in the cumberland news about a mans memorial to the animals that he lost during foot and mouth i definitely think ours is more fitting and will probably do some good i understand everyone has the right to express their views in their own way but to me this was too loud and too inappropriate however each to their own and at the end of the day at least people are trying to remember in a good way as opposed to sweeping it under the carpet the week of the foot and mouth evening we were without a car and noticed how much we relied on it and took it for granted especially out here as there is a very limited bus service everything is sorted out now and we are back to normal with a newer little car thank you very much c for the lift there and back in general the past few months just seem to have flown by and in particular the past couple of weeks i dont seem to have time to fit everything in and am trying to get my assignments done on time it turns out to be quite a bit more difficult than i thought it is hard work but will definitely be worth it in th end over the past 6 months even i have learnt so much the next special occasion which is coming up is fiance s birthday 21st july we are thinking of going back to hawkshead again for a few days we really like it there and im sure will return again and again it just shows you that you dont need to leave cumbria to have a good holiday well here we are at the end it just makes me wonder what life will be like in 18 months from now will things be any different they probably will be in some ways and hopefully will be for the best 20th july writing up after 4 weeks it does seem very strange to be sitting down to write my last lot of diaries it feels good to have completed something as worthwhile as this as well as it hopefully doing some good in the future concerning foot and mouth crisis or any other similar situation i also find it has helped me to become a bit more confident and aware of things around me i remember back to when i attended my first meeting and how nervous i was i think i can handle things like that a bit better now we have just got back from holiday we had a lovely time and did so much we went walking with dog to many places and they are all free it just shows you what a good holiday you can have in cumbria on a cheap budget you dont need much else the only disappointing thing is that some of the places fiance and i had been to in the past are now closed as they have been sold this has not yet happened to talkin tarn and i definitely think it should be given to the cumbria wildlife trust as people would still have access to it fiance and i both agree that the countryside is recovering and it is great to be able to wander about again i have collected a few more articles from the cumberland news related to foot and mouth it is good to see breeders doing well again and people getting back into the swing of things i would just like to thank everyone involved for involving me in this project and i wish them all the best in the future
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                                                 information about diarist date of birth 1937 gender m occupation group 5 geographic region north cumbria week 1 monday 11th march 2002 whilst watching the local tv news at 6 pm there was a news item that caused us to reflect back on the events a year ago a young lady had just left a court where she had been found guilty of assaulting a police officer and also being in change of an offensive weapon a knife the judge had acquitted her of the offences he showed leniency towards her last year during the fmd crisis she had returned to her home to find that her pet goat had been killed by slaughterers because the animal was within the 3 km radius she had gone berserk over this and threatened the police officer and others with the knife she had to be forcibly restrained she was very distraught over this killing even after she had appeared in court and had been acquitted of all charges she showed great emotion not only being freed but also quite upset over the loss of the goat perhaps her actions didnt happen to a lot of other people who had similar things happen to them however the loss of a lot of pet animals and in some cases needless slaughter of many farm animals still creates unhappy memories of 2001 week 2 tuesday whilst walking the dog i met a farmer from the edge of the village who has friends and stock in close proximity to the 2 land fill sites he is still very concerned about materials on these sites the nearest site contained hundreds of carcasses this has been completed and capped he is concerned about leachate from this site and feels that it doesnt matter how much clay and soil were used to contain this site the effects of heavy rain is bound to find a way down and also to drain it he doesnt want to plough these fields nor can he sell stock that have grazed the same fields there is pyre ash being tipped on the other site again what happens to the rainwater that runs off this site also there are concerns about the large flocks of seagulls that visit both sites daily another concern is what is happening to the open cast coal site that is situated almost due south of gilgarran village the farmer i talked to today is concerned about this huge site no coal has been moved from this site for months there are concerns that this site is going to be filled with waste will it be from fmd sites we as a village are very concerned about rumours of land fill on a huge scale friday noticed that there was work being carried out on the top of the burial site no villagers have commented on this despite large yellow diggers operating sunday work continuing on the burial site cannot make out what kind of work is being done there week 3 monday work is still going on at the burial site i still dont know what is going on but the diggers involved are the same as when animals were being buried there when animals were being buried there last year the smell coming from that site was terrible to say the least it was not coming from the dead animals as most observers thought but from decomposing waste material that had already been buried on the site prior to fmd when excavators dug into the soil to make trenches for the dead animals they dug into this decomposing matter hence the terrible smell despite the work that is going on there today no comments from villagers are forthcoming it seems to me that now that fmd has gone the general public are not interested any more unless they read something in the local papers written by some enterprising reporter week 4 tuesday work is still going on in the former burial site villagers dont seem to be bothered fmd is gone so nobody is interested any more wednesday whilst trying to gain comments from villagers over the effects of fmd one or two comments from some individuals show concern about the outbreak last year but dont seem too concerned over any after effects if any two interesting comments suggest that 1 the outbreak was started deliberately by this country in collusion with the agriculturists of the eec so as to concentrate meat production in europe and leave the uk to concentrate on arable farming 2 the outbreak was started by a terrorist attack the government would not declare this because it would cause widespread panic thursday 23 25 hours huge fire at the site where pyre ash is being tipped 250000 used tyres caught fire arson is suspected fire fighters tried to contain the blaze but couldnt use large amounts of water in case water courses became contaminated friday 05 00 fire still blazing at the pyre ash site later in the morning the fire was showing signs of dying down apparently it was left to burn itself out much heavy smoke pollution was evident drifting south west for about nine miles reading the local evening paper about the blaze there was also a report that villagers from disington 1 miles from gilgarran were complaining of the foul smell from both waste sites parish councillors are very concerned about this does it coincide with work currently being carried out on the burial site the smell from these sites plus the fact that animals were buried on one site and pyre ash plus the huge fire from the other site all happening this week is causing concern in this area but once this hue and cry dies down people will soon forget about it all week 5 monday through to friday observed work on top of the burial site dont know if any work is still going on on the northern and western sides friday local weekly paper carried the report on the recent large fire that occurred on the alco site last week when 250000 tyres caught fire somehow it was intersting to read that the fire brigade did not use any water to extinguish the blaze in case pollution occurred in water courses the fire was left to burn itself out saturday burial site it looks like there is new soil being tipped on top for some reason no reported comments froim the parish council over this despite very vociferous objections by them over the use of this and the alco site in the past sunday talked to our local county councillor who lives in this village he feels very strongly that these two sites are dangerous he thinks that both sites are a health hazard risk due to obnoxious odours and in particular the large fire that occurred last week which produced a lot of polluted smoke for a distance of six miles some people reckoned that the smell of burning tyres could be smelt here in gilgarran there have been numerous fires on these sites over the last few years these fires give rise to compaliant by people like us but more so from the nearer village of distington 1 miles west of here the councillor suggests that there could be more incidents of cancer cases in this area in coming years along with respiratory troubles as well as some cases of bronchitis related problems he himself has recently suddenly started sinusitis which he hasnt had before all in all he wasnt happy about the situation on both sites we dont know what is being tipped there all we can do as a community is accept what we are being told by the site owners as previously stated animal carcasses were being tipped and buried for about three days before we were told officially that this was so incidentally the site where animals are buried is owned by cumbria county council this seems to be totally against the advice of county council officials who look after the environment and the health of the population as ive written before there are going to be bigger concerns if the opencast coal site to the south of the village becomes a landfill site for refuse from parts of the county fifty miles away at the moment there are no suggestions that anything from the fmd outbreak will be dumped there having said that however we as villagers didnt know of carcasses being buried or pyre ash being tipped until after it had happened we await the outcome of this coal site with some trepidation after all no coal has come from this site for some months it has all the indication of becoming a land fill site week 6 monday to wednesday if work is still ongoing at the burial site it is not visible from our side of the site i still dont know what is going on there it may all be innocent and an improvement to the environment after all this is what the site owners have to do thursday a delegation of meps visit the north of the county they have come to assess the situation for themselves and to report back to the european parliament no doubt they will also report back to their own constituents in their own countries the delegation visit the auction mart at longtown where the disease was first noticed in this country and also visited the big burial site at great orton where it was estimated that half a million carcasses were buried good coverage by the local press radio and tv gave anyone interested the views of the delegation thursday saturday the mep delegation agreed that the fmd situation had been disastrous we all know that comments from some tourist and agriculture observers ranged from a waste of time to at least some politicians have bothered to visit us our own couldnt do that personally i think that some good came out of this particularly when it was reported that the dutch had used vaccination techniques when they had a small outbreak many people think that the british government should have had a public inquiry into the outbreak what have they to hide cumbria is holding its own inquiry quite rightly so other organisations such as lancaster university are holding research into the outbreak why not the government eventually we will know why perhaps not in my lifetime though the minister and maff have a lot to answer for week 7 thought it would be of interest to include copies of the newsletter that the local authorities issued to every household in the area regarding the disposal of carcasses and effluent it will be of note that there was a fire last year on the alco site also involving tyres very similar to last years only not as big a report on local tv today stated that the recent visit of meps to the area considered that vaccination should have been used at the outset and be should seriously considered should a future outbreak occur heard of reports of an outbreak of tb in cattle in other parts of the country this was reported to be more serious than fmd should a major outbreak occur this would lead to the question of disposal should the need arise as ive already reported in previous entries the use of the opencast coal site to the south east of here is causing concern in some quarters although the site didnt feature in the fmd crisis there is a feeling that it is being earmarked for use in the future should the need arise or even the rumour of an incinerator is planned for there the general feeling here and in the surrounding area is that we have had enough dumping of carcasses effluent toxic chemicals etc it could be that the authorities have seen that the sites concerned have handled those substances before that an extension of disposal sites in this area would be effective week 8 nothing of any significance to report this week week 9 now that cumbrias fmd inquiry has started a lot of people i have met this week recall the happenings of a year ago even more interesting is the coverage in the local press and tv plenty of publicity by the media shows how little the government an maff in particular let the farming and tourism industries of the county down there has been plenty of distressing stories by farmers not only of infected animals being slaughtered but also the slaughtering of healthy animals in the 3 km circle of an outbreak one particularly distressing point of evidence was when a farmer described to the panel the birth of a calf five days after its mother had been shot we at the time of the outbreak were hearing these stories on a daily basis and still maff and mr brown kept telling us that the outbreak was under control all i can say at this point is may heaven help us when it all happens again week 10 work is still going on at the burial site it looks like new soil is being dumped on top of the actual site and dozed to level it of and to smooth it out on the side all we can do is accept that the management of the site are making it better for all concerned and that they are as concerned as we are the much publicised cumbrian fmd inquiry team visited the land fill site they met local councillors who expressed their concern over this site and the alco site no other report was forthcoming from the team the inquiry team finish their evidence gathering this week one very important statement was made that the minister of the environment should make a statement over this outbreak and should even make a visit to these sites county wide there has been total silence from mrs becketts department over this request the same silence is observed from any government source for that matter everyone asks the same questions what have they got to hide why arent they interested what plans are being made and what lessons have been learned from last years outbreak a lot of farms are restocking and in this neighbourhood farm work is going on as before or so it looks as time goes on though there seems to be a smouldering anger that no one in authority is as concerned as well are week 11 work is still on going at the burial site no comments heard from any of the villagers or neighbours this week diary 12 monday from my own observation work is still ongoing at the burial site more heavy plant has been moved on to the top of the giant amount and it looks as though more topsoil is being laid over the mount perhaps to improve the site but water may still permeate into and through the site we can only believe the operators that this is a right thing to do friday talked to 2 it villagers about the after effects of fmd one said oh its all over now and forgotten about it doesnt bother me one bit the other said it all in the past we just have to forget about it it seems that life is returning to normal in all aspects of village life people dont think about last year unless the diarist mentions that sunday a bad day or weather wise this prolonged rain may halt work on the burial site most people are reluctant to talk about f m d now even if it was one of the worst economic and social disasters to hit this country and this county in particular now that it is over peoples memories begin to fade however some of us are not happy at having these two disposal sites within a 1000 metres of this village fmd may be over but these burial sites are here for a long time yet diary 13 observed in work on burial site more heavy machinery and plant moved in and large quantities of soil are being laid down and smoothed out diary 14 talked to some religious today about the after effects of fmd without exception they are not interested its all over with an idle one to be reminded about it are the general comments nobody seems bothered that there are hundreds of animals buried a 1000 yards from his village or the fact that there is leachate and pyre ash buried in another site looking at the burial site and the work that is going on there it does look as though the management there are doing everything to make the site safe diary 15 i met a smallholder today to whom i have talked to in the past about the effects and after effects of fmd he still not happy about the burial site despite the landscaping and smoothing off of the large quantities of topsoil only time will tell he says he does not have any stock near to the site but he has sheep on the farmers land since fmd finished though his stock movements are still restricted by new legislation that has come in since the area was declared free for instance or if he takes a sheep to auction he asked to have nine pieces of paper for this transaction if the price is not right and he has to take the she back to his land he was put them back in the same field that they came from and it cannot move them to three weeks he then has to obtain a licence to do this he does think that the authorities are not going to be as strict shortly this is just one of the precautions that have come in to try and combat any recurrence of fmd diary 16 i met the smallholder who rents land a from the farmer in the village his income from the sheep that he a breeds has been nil like many more people in similar circumstances fortunately for him had he has an income from another source the subject of compensation came up during our conversation i personally do not have any comment to make about this item as it maybe just a rumour apparently he got it bee in his bonnet about compensation paid out to people who were not in the agricultural business what seemed to upset him was that he had heard that some of fish and chip shop owner in the lake district had been paid 170 per month compensation for the loss of trade he didnt mind too much that hoteliers and guest house owners had claimed compensation but wondered where else would this kind of money go when he himself had been paid nothing this is the first time ive heard this one diary 17 attended the cumberland show at every to be park carlisle we as a family used to attend this annual show regularly both as spectators and competitors we have never seen the show like the one put on this year when will things really get back to normal many of us think that agriculture is back to pre fmd cattle and sheep on grazing in the fields lambing has reached new heights in produce on some farms calves are being born silage and haymaking is progressing when the weather permits but there are still restrictions on animal movements hence no sheep cattle or pigs at this years show only horses poultry dogs and rabbits not many pieces of agricultural machinery onshore either plenty of chartered accountants tents craft tents horse feeds and tack displays in the main arena and bands not an agricultural show as we knew it it seems to be the same at other shows ennerdale show is one of our local shows this year there isnt going to be any horses or sheep generally there are no cattle shown at the show but without sheep hill farmers dominate the show the there isnt going to be much on show at all it was always a good show for equestrian events at many levels this show was always a must for our family i dont think that we will be going this year diary 18 from the golf course and golf driving range i can look out on to the western side of the burial site i have written in previous weeks about the work there has been going on at this site viewing the site are from our village side would hardly know what that there ever was a burial site hundreds of tons of topsoil had been laid and smoothed out to make more or less like a landscaped feature it looks really good from the western side though things are little different work is still going on there large amounts of soil have been tipped and levelled off there are still portakabins there and heavy plant can still be seen moving about no doubt the western side well look as good as the eastern side before long diary 19 it is announced that the prime minister and his wife and son of his family at a visit to cumbria the pm arrives in west cumbria all kinds of reports are written in the local and national press about what he is going to do or not do or what he should be doing after all he is on holiday the pm did meet some farmers leaders the press as usual stirred things up or as to where he should be meeting tourism officials say that the trip was fantastic for tourism in the county or person they i cant see what difference it made if people want to come cumbria they will come irrespective of whether the pm comes or not diary 20 after a lot of protests it looks as though it the 20 day restriction on cattle movement will be lifted perhaps this will now mean that they could be cattle and sheep entries at local agricultural shows some shows are going ahead with very limited entries of livestock and some with no animal entries at all these shows have always been very popular with my family for over 20 years also living with in a farming community makes us feel part of the annual agricultural scene diary 21 ive written before regarding agricultural shows and the pride in which local people take in these shows although a lot of shows have gone ahead this season they have had a reduced animal showing or in some cases no animals at all today ive heard that one show has been cancelled altogether this particular show is one of the most popular in the area maybe because of lack of entries or the organisers just wanted to cancel because of the 3 week restriction on animal movement i dont know perhaps it would be better to cancel them than have a depleted show diary 22 spent a few hours in the fells today it was good to be able to wander the familiar paths and let our dog run free it was a good boost to our moral and perhaps the dogs too we all missed being able to do this last year diary 23 last bank holiday before xmas and the last before the schools go back at the golf course where i help out part time during the summer we had lots of customers a lot of them commented on how enjoyable it was to be on holiday in this area this year compared to the restrictions that were in place last year maybe the holiday establishments are getting back to normal there are no restrictions put on them like there is in place now with farmers and agriculture diary 26 sorting through the mail left whilst away on holiday and i came across a notice sent by the village committee notifying a harvest thanksgiving festival to be held next month in the village hall as we have no church in the village it is being held in some farm buildings in the centre of the village this will be a splendid event the farm did not have fmd but couldnt take animals from one field to another and couldnt market them when we consider the gloom that settled on this farm and community it is very welcome to have this unique event here in the heart of the village and the farmer and his wife will be at the centre of events a lovely gesture and i hope it will be well supported there will be a distribution of harvest gifts afterwards what a change from a year ago diary 27 with the aid of binoculars i have been able to have a closer look at the burial site from a westerly direction there are vents in the shape of small towers to extract gas from the site there are pipes connecting these vents a lot of work is still going on there however all this takes place in the western side which is the opposite side to where my village is situated from our side there is nothing to suggest the amount of work going on because of this fmd is pushed further into the backs of villagers minds it is something in the past it has happened so what people like myself who talk to farmers and agriculturalists do not easily forget these events personally i am still concerned about the burial site when inquiries are made about it all we can do is accept what we are told it does not look as though every precaution is being taken to alleviate an odours or contamination diary 28 i had to see the village farmer on another matter and was asked inside for coffee and a chat he was able to tell me of the full implications of the 20 day rule he accepts that this is a precaution to prevent another outbreak of fmd but there is a lot of work involved he told me of an isolation area that he has created and also the fencing arrangements where his land adjoins the neighbours land i would say that 95 of the public dont know about this even if they have heard of the 20 day rule for him he owns the largest farm in the area it is bad enough having to do all the physical work as regards fencing etc but for anyone such as a small holder it must be a nightmare if he has to bring animals back from market that havent been sold friday my wife and i played a round of golf at aspatria this course was badly restricted when fmd hit this area we were reminded that there are restrictions on adjoining land there were notices asking people who hit balls onto farm land not to cross the fence to retrieve them because of fmd precautions this was news to us it does make sense though the farmer wouldnt know where players had been walking prior to playing golf diary 29 attended the harvest festival held in the village farm a large cattle shed had been cleaned and decorated for this event chairs had been brought in fruit and vegetables were on display for auctioning at the end the place was packed a lot of money was raised and it was a very happy event well supported and a big boost for the farm and the village i dont think that the general public care much about fmd now that is has been a year since the last case was confirmed in cumbria the public may be reminded if they read the local newspapers intently for instance there was a letter to the editor published recently which referred to the results of the cumbria inquiry into fmd it may have been a farmer who wrote it i dont know but the writer certainly went to town in the scathing comments on the handling of fmd even caustic remarks regarding the efforts since fmd of defra and mrs beckett i certainly wouldnt like to cross the writer i also think the farming community must be holding its breath in case the present restrictions such as they are prove to be worthless then we will all suffer again week 30 what a difference a year makes despite some restrictions on public access to agricultural fields in some areas of the county it doesnt apply here although most locals confine themselves to footpaths and bridleways other people seem to think that all fields are recreation areas they walk and run across some of the fields in close proximity to the village regardless of the presence of stock they exercise dogs and treat it as a some kind of park one farmer is well know for being aggressive he used last years fmd outbreak to run people off his land i met a local councillor who expressed concerns regarding the proposed building of an incinerator to the south of the village on the current open cast mining site the two waste disposal sites to the west and north west of the village have become big issues in the last 18 months due to the burial of animals and the disposal of pyre ash and leachates it seems as though we are going to get over this ghastly fmd outbreak only to have this scenario thrust upon us week 31 met a small holder who keeps sheep near to this village he was very scathing over the report that the government and defra dont want to talk up an offer from the local authorities here to implement findings and recommendations from their local inquiry over fmd why what has this government who didnt perform very well during the outbreak got to hide and why shirk away from the findings instead of facing up to the failings that we all know about it also seems that they dont want to make any safeguards and recommendations to avoid a further outbreak as a non agriculturalist it doesnt surprise me in the least after all government has failed other industries in the country for as long as i can remember week 32 i am convinced that authorities in the area must think that the way animals were buried here and pyre ash and leachate were disposed of at another site nearby was all done as very successfully and that the two sites handled everything professionally therefore the sites would be more than capable of handling ash from an incinerator to me this is the legacy of fmd i am most annoyed over this together with a lot more of the villagers this village no longer has a representative on the parish council both have resigned for whatever reason and no one will step forward to take it one i have said that i would take a set on the parish council to represent the village and fight for our rights and future quality of life due to this i have uncovered a pile of claims and counter claims it seems that both parish and district counsellors know what is going on regarding the incinerator and that developers have made concessions to some councillors also there are claims that the developers have offered money to local landowners and farmers so that roads can be put in all these accusations have been strongly denied at the same time it is rumoured that some farmers have been offered local fields nearby because of what i have discovered in my own investigations it would seem that a lot of friendships gained over 20 years could come to an end i am fearful of what i have uncovered there are also claims that councillors are only in it for what there can get out and are not to be trusted i dont want that said of me also by the time all this is sorted out i will be 70 75 i certainly dont want to be fighting peoples battles at that age however i will support any effort to stop the proposed development week 33 once again the large farm in the centre of the village was the venue for the annual guy fawkes bonfire and fireworks organisers had been round the village asking for donations to provide fireworks a tractor and trailer toured the areas picking up things for the bonfire drinks and food were served in a barn after the fireworks this is another occasion when villagers and the farming community come together it is perhaps the only time that the general public of the village think about fmd and last years events if only briefly the farmer remarked that is the third time this year that there has been a public function on his farm the first was the jubilee party in june then on october 6th the harvest festival service these events keep farming in the public eye week 34 i havent written before about the proposed building of an incinerator nearby to burn the counties waste if as we all suspect the incinerator is built then the odours plus the disposal of ash to the fmd waste site is a legacy of fmd particularly regarding the nearby burial and disposal site week 35 this is week 35 of this project and for most of the 35 weeks i have written that i am not confident of the future there are numerous reasons for this mainly the situation in the middle east today i travelled to keswick to do some xmas shopping i was given a lift there by a neighbour who is in his 30s he was very upset about the terrorist situation not only was he concerned about the terror threat to the london underground but the threat closer to home as regards a plane crashing into the nearby sellafield complex we dont know the effect that this constant bad news has on people people who have already got serious worries eg families housing finance etc must feel really depressed about it all week 36 near to the next village is a long established farm of many acres recently the farms stock of animals and machinery was sold off the owner who had farmed for sixty years was leaving to live with one of his brothers he said that he wouldnt know how he would feel when he left the farm for the last time this weekend the farmhouse hasnt been sold yet and now stands empty its a strange place now where everything was hustle and bustle they even had a b b business there is now derelict and bare its a sad reflection on the agricultural business in the wake of fmd this farm isnt the only one in the area that has sold up some farm houses remain as dwellings but this particular one which we saw nearly every day is just an other sad reminder of the way farming has declined in this rural area week 39 tuesday boarded the train at penrith to journey to crewe to see our daughter during the journey i got into conversation with a fellow passenger he noticed i had got on the train at penrith and perhaps thought i was connected with the agricultural industry the conversation drifted into the previous years fmd outbreak it is rather strange that i live in a very rural area and fmd is rarely mentioned now however this fellow passenger although not from an agricultural background gave his views on the handling of the situation it was no different from the views expressed by locals at the time of the crisis it just goes to show that fmd is very much in peoples minds even if they were not connected to agriculture in any way week 40 friday now that the mep have published their critical report on the fmd crisis it is interesting to read an article published in our local weekly paper from a reader article entitled foot and mouth report included i dont have the knowledge or the data to support this readers comments however i have heard plenty of stories from mainly unreliable sources to confirm what he says it makes interesting reading i think week 41 tuesday no wonder my confidence in the future has taken a big plunge over the last few months the situation in iraq doesnt get any better mr tony blairs message to the armed forces of the uk bear this out being an ex serviceman i know what the situation holds for our troops but are we right to follow the usa in a war against iraq no doubt saddam hussein does pose a threat but so does india and pakistan to each other each of these two relatively poor countries has threatened each other as regards their nuclear arsenals now the loose cannon in the form of north korea is positioning itself as regards its position in the nuclear arms league personally i think that north korea poses a more dangerous threat than iraq it is not a very happy new year for a lot of people perhaps it will all be settled diplomatically i wonder week 42 nothing of any importance to write about due to refurbishment at home week 43 monday one of the items on the agenda for this months meeting of distington parish council is a report on the wood felling and the implications of this as i have written in the diary before there are strong rumours of the proposed plan to fell woods build a new road through the felled site and bring coal from the nearby opencast site to link up with an existing road then to transport the coal to a storage area on workington dock then when the coal is worked out to build an incinerator on the coal site ash from this development would then be transported on the new road to be disposed of on the waste disposal site that was used for fmd pyre ash and leachate thursday read a report of the aforesaid meeting the owners have declared that our worries are groundless in fact they say that they plan to eventually open the woodland to the public the owners of the woodland are the same operators of the opencast coal site footpaths will be created if a grant can be obtained a wooden wheeled ancient water mill will be restored after the closed meeting the operations director of the site said that there has been a misunderstanding what we are doing will benefit local people he said that a management project for the wood is being followed involving felling dead trees and fresh planting he added the felling and replanting will be done this year after which it will take time to become established were talking of a ten year programme but it should have long term benefits i think our pr at the start of this wasnt very good and in the future we will let the council know of our plans the council agreed to keep a watch on the work here in g this statement differs greatly from what some of us have been told by our village based county councillor there has never been any suggestion that the felled woods would become a land fill site but would be felled to provide the new road there was nothing mentioned at the meeting regarding the proposed incinerator being built the county council that this has ever been planned however our representative is adamant that this is not so week 44 tuesday for the first time my property has finally overcome a situation that was affected by fmd in july 2000 the electricity supplier notified me to say that the trees in my garden had grown so tall that the topmost branches were in close contact with an eleven thousand volt overhead power line and that they should be felled or severely pruned after some further negotiations it was decided to prune to some height that i wasnt happy with although the treetops were not actually touching the wires it was considered a risk in the forthcoming months however as time passed i couldnt wait for the foresters to arrive so i pruned the trees myself in january 2001 the electric supplier suggested that the trees should be pruned further a date was agreed but the foresters didnt arrive time dragged on and the trees grew back to their original height again the electric supplier suggested they be pruned or felled a new date was agreed upon however the foresters couldnt do the job because the isolator switch was on farmland and they couldnt get access to it because of fmd restrictions and so it dragged on despite visits by foresters and electric supplier reps the trees got bigger and i was forbidden to touch them neighbours could hear crackling noises coming from the wires and it became very worrying people suggested that i should do something about it i took the matter up directly with the supplier and the foresters i was promised dates only for them to be cancelled in december 2002 a date of 21st january 2003 was given this time they came and we agreed that two trees be felled and another pruned after 30 months it finally happened thursday met a small holder who has his land on the edge of this village who told me that the 20 day rule of animal restriction of animal movement was being lifted and replaced by a 6 day restriction this was good news for him and any other farmer later that day i met another farmer who didnt know that the restriction was being lifted you would have thought that i had told him hed won the lottery good news all round for the people friday listening to the local radio today and was surprised to hear a report that the citizens advice bureau in a small lakeland town had been receiving clients who were still experiencing hardship due to fmd it is now 18 months since the last outbreak and the effects according to the person being interviewed were still being felt not just by farmers and agriculturists but by guest houses hotels tradesmen and in particular some self employed debt seems to be the biggest problem it seems as though some people had weathered the hardships of fmd initially only to find that their plans had come adrift somehow afterwards quite disturbing to hear that the situation is still with us in this county to some degree week 45 these diaries were instituted to deal with the after effects of fmd although there were no cases of fmd in this village everyone knew about it particularly as nearly everyone who went to work from here would pass the main farm in the village centre or some of the farms on the outskirts of the village now that fmd is over most people who live here dont seem to think about it anymore the only people affected are the farmers naturally this is a strange village in lots of ways only the farmer and his immediate family are connected with agriculture the rest are professional people or people who work at nearby sellafield industries in workington and whitehaven or are retired there is no church no village pub no village shop no village community centre or meeting place only tradesmen that call are the milkman and the solid fuel merchant we are left to get on with life in our own way the parish of distington to which we belong have all the facilities associated with a larger community such as a church pub and community centre all of which are two miles away consequently the parish council meets there once a month and discusses all the problems of the area including ours however our representative on the council has resigned and no one has come forward to represent us anything that has been discussed at the parish council is reported in he local newspaper village pubs are a good venue to discuss local issues and to exchange views and mainly to gossip village tittle tattle as i call it as we have no pub the gossip is rife from one source or another with bits added on or left out as is the choice of the person concerned quite a lot of people one meets are experts in their own particular choice of subject whether it is politics finance or mrs jones current boy friend it is a fault to take on board all that is gossiped about when one meets a fellow villager in the country lanes whilst out walking the dog week 46 illness to a family member week 47 continued illness week 48 over the past few weeks there has been a lot of tree felling in the nearby woods this has led to a lot of disturbance to the villagers because of the use of large vehicles needed to remove the felled timber and also the foresters vehicles churning up the grass verges and the ditches a lot of concern was raised about the necessity of all the tree felling these concerns were raised in the press and also in the parish council i have written about these in diaries in the last few weeks it was reported in mid january that all the felled woods would be replanted this year with footpaths created for the enjoyment of the local population now all timber operations have ceased large areas of woodland have been left partly felled and a lot of felled timber is left lying about foresters vehicles have gone and nothing is happening despite assurances from the developers it looks as though something drastic has happened village tittle tattle says that the foresters have not been paid for their work so far and that the developers have run out of money if this is so what is going to happen now when felling started late last year i contacted two environmental agencies regarding the threat to the red squirrels badgers and buzzards that occupy these woods i was told that it was only a partial felling and they the environmental agencies were satisfied that any disturbances would be slight i think that they were told this by the developers and accepted what they were told without a site visit the developers have been known to mislead groups in the past including landowners farmers councils and individuals i personally am not happy about this situation i have always took a keen interest in wildlife and feel that we have been let down by the lies of developers and the lack of serious interest from wildlife agencies some of which are an offshoot of central government i for one will keep a close look on the situation with or without other villagers and in particular local councillors week 49 by chance i met three small holders all at the same time they were discussing farming by the roadside all of them were pleased that the 20 day ruling was coming to an end and that their lives were more or less coming back to normal they also expressed the opinion that the 20 day rule and the 6 day rule were only in force to protect their interests however they were unanimous in their condemnation over the importing of foreign meat and meat products into this country they feel that foreign meat is not subjected to enough checks before entry into the united kingdom week 51 met a farmer today who told me that hed seen a report based on findings by the eu and defra it stated all the things that everyone who is an agriculturalist and those who take an interest in the countryside had been saying about what was wrong with the handlers of the fmd outbreak it just proves that it doesnt take an academic genius to know what should have been done at the time everyone can be wiser after the event but statements by the nfu and individuals at the onset were not heeded for example the movement of animals should have been halted sooner and the army should have been brought in much sooner now the question of vaccination rumbles on should we or shouldnt we vaccinate there is a fear of the outbreak again particularly when the findings of the 1960 outbreak were not implemented since the sadness of fmd there has been quite a few instances of socialising at the farm such as harvest festival jubilee party and almost any excuse for a shindig good to see farmers enjoying themselves week 52 met out local farmer who told me that there is to be new legislation to dispose of fallen stock no longer can a farmer bury fallen stock on his land but must now provide an incinerator to dispose of dead animals this must be a costly business could dead animals not be taken to a central point and burned week 54 one thing about fmd was the effect that it had on the poaching fraternity living in a rural area we expect this to happen nobody seems to mind that a few rabbits and pheasants go missing what is really alarming is the use of dogs and high powered rifles to poach deer fmd put a stop to all this now a neighbour has told me of poachers near to the village using rifles and shooting deer the only people benefiting from this are the poachers and hoteliers who receive these dead beasts and no questions asked also the danger of villagers being hit by stray rifle shots causes alarm to others week 55 i think that there is a lot of jumping on the band wagon now that fmd has cleared up for instance i listened to an interview on the local radio station given by a hotelier things werent going well in his establishment having got over fmd and its implications visitors were slowly returning to the area but not in sufficient numbers to cause great joy
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ry9startedtheweekdoingabigtuberculinandbrucellosistestatarestockedfarmtherehasbeenabigbacklogtoclearaftertestingwasstoppedduringfmdlastyearsowehavetocatchupwiththosefarmsthatdidntgetthediseasebutaredueatestaswellastestingtherestockingfarmswereallverykeentokeepcumbriaasatbfreezonebutwithallthedifferentstockcominginitsgoingtobetrickymondaystestwaslongbutokayonthewholethesetupwasgoodandthefarmingfamilywereverypleasantwhichmakesahugedifferencetohowthedaygoesallwasclearwheniwenttoreadthetestonthursdayareliefforallconcernedoverallworkseemstobequieteningdownabitthisweekcomparedtothelastfewwearenowjustbusyratherthanalwaysfeelingasifwereonejobbehindallthetimeonwednesdayandthursdayoneofourclientsbroughtinhalfadozenshetlandponiestocastrateitmakesachangetohavealargeanimalthatissmallenoughtobeeasilyphysicallyrestrainedbyonepersonthecontinuinggoodweathermadedoinganafternoonsworkwiththeponiesinthepracticesfieldaverypleasantwaytospendafewhoursicanthelpfeelingthatnoraininaprilmeanswellgetloadslaterinthesummeriwasonasecondcallattheweekendsaturdaywasverybusywithsmallanimaljobswhichimainlylefttoacolleaguewhileitriedtoclearupthefarmandequinejobscalmwasprettymuchrestoredbylateafternoonafterwhichiwasntcalleduntilearlysundaymorninganotherofourrestockedclientsishavingconsiderabletroublewithsomeofhisnewanimalsandisbecomingincreasinglyfrustratedaboutitwealltrytohelpwiththemedicalsideofitanimalsbutinevitablyalsogettohearalotofhisotherworriestoohopefullythingswilllookupsoonandhellbeabletorideitoutokdiary10hadadayoffonbankholidaymondayalwaysthegoodwaytostarttheweekiwentuptopeeblesinscotlandwithsomefriendstogomountainbikingitwassurprisinglyemptyforaweekendandtheweatherwasgoodandididntfalloffallinallagooddayouttuesdaywasworkasusualihadtodoasmalltbtestonarestockingfarmitshouldnthavebeenalongjobbutthefacilitieswerentgreatsoitdidntgoasslicklyasitmighthavedoneweallmanagedtogetthroughinonepiecesoitcouldhavebeenworseoneofmycolleagueswentonmaternitythisweeksheisparttimebutdoesallsmallanimalworknowthatshesoffforthenextfewmonthsitmeansthatanextravetisneededeachmorningtostayinanddosmallanimaloperationswhileitsprobablynotmyfavouritesortofworkitdoesmakeachangefrombeingoutonfarmseverymorningitsalsogoodtogetabitmoreexperienceatsmallproceduresaswellasdoingsmalleranimalsthisweekhasbroughtseveralinterestingequinecasesihadtohospitaliseahorseforafewdaysforfairlyintensivetreatmentwhichfortunatelyappearstohavemadeagoodrecoverytherehavealsobeenacoupleofhorseoperationsatthepracticethisweektheyregenerallyquiteinterestingapartfromthestressinvolvedwithhavinghalfatonofhorseasleepontheoperatingtableihadtheweekendoffandwenttoedinburghforasmallreunionwithfriendsiwasatcollegewithalthoughwedotalkaboutotherthingsconversationinevitablycameroundtoworktheeffectoffmdanditsconsequencesarestillverymuchinpeoplesmindsfriendsallaskedhowitwaslastyearandwhetherfarmshaverestockedyetetcetcitsstuffwhichiseemtohavesaidhundredsoftimesoverthelastfewmonthsbutpeopleneverseemtotireofaskingitandtoanextentidontseemtogetboredofansweringitdiary11theweekstartedwithabigtbtestatarestockingdairyfarmtherewereverygoodfacilitiesanditsubsequentlywentverysmoothlyandquicklydespitethenumberofcowsinvolvedthefarmerseemstobequitepositiveaboutthenewstartandhasbeensparedalotoftheproblemsthatotherpeoplehaveexperiencedwhilerestockingintermsofdiseaseintheanimalseverythingwasclearwhenireadthetestlaterintheweekonwednesdayafternoonihadabitofachangeasiwentcastratetwoponiesbelongingtomymothershehadboughttwototallywildfellponieslastautumntheynowabittamerbutnotcompletelyusedtobeinghandledyetiwentwithoneofournursesandtheseniorpartneranditallwentprettymuchtoplanworkisstillbusytheresoneclientinparticularwhoisgivingusalottodoherestockedafewmonthsagoandisobviouslyhavingtroublelambinghissheepitgotabittryingwhenihadtogetuptohisthirdlambingofonenightbutthatswhatwearethereforisupposehesanicemanandalwaysseemspleasedtoseeuswhichhelpsihadtheweekendoffagainandwenttoglasgowtobebestmanatmycousinsweddingapartfromtheweatheritwentverywellithinkwithnounsolvableproblemsdiary12startedtheweekwithalongvisitfordairyfertilityworktooneofourbigdairyfarmersitsoneofthefarmerswhohasbeenhavingproblemsafterrestockingandavisitthatanothervetusuallydoessoifeltabitunderpressureitsthetypeofworkwhichisveryroutinebuthasthepotentialtogoquitebadlywrongonthewholeitwentfairlywellwithnomajorproblemsigetonprettywellwiththefarmerwhichalwayshelpsasitmakesthetimegobyquickersmallanimalworkisstillquitebusyihadtwodaysinsidethisweekdoingsmallanimalsoperationstherewasntanythingparticularlydifferentorunusualbutitstillhelpstodomoreofitoneofourfarmerswhomanagedtomissfmdisverybusywithhiscalvingscheduleatthemomenthestendingtohaveverybigcalvesandsubsequentlyweredoingalotofcaesareanstherethisweekhasbroughtatleasthalfadozenofwhichtwowereinthemiddleofthenighttherehavebeenafewvetsarelookingsleepdeprivedrecentlyihadtheweekendoffandwentsoseeacoupleoffriendsinedinburghwespentonedaycyclinginpeeblesandthenproceededtonothingstrenuousforthenextdiary13theweekstartedwithabigsessiondehorningcattleitsnotexactlytechnicalworkandisfairlyhardworkatleastitgetsmefitwewouldnormallydothematayoungeragebutquiteafewhavebeenmissedaswedidntgetoutontofarmsforsuchroutineworklastyearonthewholemostpeoplearefairlywellcaughtupnowthattheyverestockedbeenhavingroutineworkdoneforthelast8monthsorsobuttherearestillafewlaggingbehindihadacallfromafarmerwhowasoneofourmostconsistentlyandvehementlyantidefrapeoplelastyeariendedupdoingacaesareanandhadquitealongchatwithhimconversationendedupcomingroundtotheeventsoflastyearandheairedhisresentmentsagainitwasthefirsttimeinseveralweeksthatihadheardthiskindoftalkwhereasafewmonthsagoitwouldhavebeenadailyoccurrenceitwasntparticularlyaimedatmeorthepracticeinparticularbutjustfrustrationwiththesystemasawholeiwentforawalkupblencathraoneeveningduringtheweekbutthehighlightoftheweekhastobethestartoftheworldcupivebeenondutythiswebutmanagedtoseeallbutthelasttwominutesofthismorningsratherdisappointingdrawwithswedenmostfarmersarekeentowatchthematchestoosoletshopenottoomanycallscomeinatthewrongtimediary14ihadthebankholidayonmondayoffwhichwaswelcomeafteraweekendoncalliwentforawalkinthelakeswithacolleagueconsideringitwasabankholidayitwasnttoocrowdedhadtoworkonbankholidaytuesdaythoughitwasntespeciallybusyuntiltheeveningwhenihadtodoacaesareanonacowandthengoandseeabadlycuthorsebothseemtobedoingoktherestoftheweekwasworkedasusualnothingparticularlyoutoftheordinaryhappenedwithfairlyroutinecallsperhapsitwasbecauseeveryonewaspreoccupiedwitheventsinjapanandkoreaormaybethatisjustmeiwasbookedinforan11amcallonfridaybutmanagedtopersuadethefarmerconcernedthat930wouldbemoreappropriatesaidthatiorshouldthatbewecouldwatchthesecondenglandgamewemanagedtogetfinishedintimeanditwaswellworthitthe10winoverargentinaputeveryoneinagoodmoodfortherestofthedayandtheweekendiwasonfirstcallovertheweekendsaturdaymorningwasverybusyandwedidntgetallthecallsdoneuntilearlyafternoonafterthatitwasoneofthequietestweekendsivehadtheywereacoupleofthingstodoonsaturdayafternooneveningbutsundayhadnocallsuntilafterlunchalmostunheardofihadtocheckmyphonewasswitchedonlongmayitlastdiary15ivedonetwodaysinthepracticedoingsmallanimalsthisweekmorethanusualtheweatherhasnotbeenthebestsoitsnobadthingimanagedtogooutonroundsonwednesdaythoughsoimanagedtocatchthethirdenglandmatchsecondroundherewecomeispentmostoffridaymorningoperatingontwocowsatoneofourfarmstheybothhadaconditionwherepartofthegutdisplacesintheabdomenandisbestrepositionedsurgicallythefarmerobservedthatitwasprobablylinkedtofmdlastyearbecauseoffmdhehadtousemoresilagetokeephiscowsinsidelastsummerthismeanthehadlessstoredoverthewinterandsohadnoneavailabletofeedthisspringsummerthelackofsilagenowisalmostcertainlyimplicatedintheproblemshiscowshaditsveryunusualtohavetwooccurringononefarmatsametimeseeingashemissedgettingfmdlastyearthoughhethoughtitwasapriceworthpayingitwasactuallyquiteapleasantwaytospendamorninghesfromkirkbystephenwhereiwenttoschoolandididnthaveanyotherjobswaitingsoitwasquitearelaxedfewhoursthesurgerywentoktooihadahalfdayonfridayanddrovetovalleyjustbeyondalstontomeetoneofmyoldflatmatesfromedinburghforhisstagweekendwestayedinanoldbarninmiddleofnowheresoitwasntexactlyaconventionalstagpartybutveryenjoyableallthesamewewalkedtothenearestpubonsaturdaytoseeenglandsexcitingnextinstalment30thankyouverymuchafterthatitsbeenaleisurelydayanddrivebacktopenrithandivegotanothernighttogetmyheadbacktonormalforworktomorrowdiary16thisweekhasbeenquitesmallanimalorientatedagainivedonetwomorningsinthesurgeryandmoreconsultingthanusualimnotmeanttobeondutyfornightsthisweekbutivehadacoupletocoverforpeoplewhovebeenonholidayfortunatelybothnightswerefairlyquietimsurethefavourwillbereturnedsometimeduringthedayworkhasbeenfairlysteadywerenotquiteasbusyaslastweekbuttheresenoughtokeepusgoingthepracticelikemostofthecountrytriedtostopbrieflywhileenglandwerelosingtobrazilitsabitdisappointinghopefullyfarmersandtherestofourclientswontbetoodepressedaboutitallitwasgoodwhileitlastedattheweekendiwentdowntoaplacenearworcesterfortheweddingofthefriendwhosestagweekenditwasthelastweektherewerealotofpeoplefromedinburghtherewhyhaventseenforseveralyearsanditwasgreattocatchuptheweatherwasverykindandstayeddrydiary18onmondayiwenttodoabigtuberculosisandbrucellosistestatofoneourbigdairyfarmsthathadrestockedfewmonthsagotheyvegotseveralhundredcowsandittookalotlongerthananticipatedihadtogobackontuesdaytofinishthejobofftheyreafriendlyfamilysoitwasntreallytoomuchofachoretherehasbeenamoreobviouschangeinthemsincefmdthanformostofourclientswhohadthediseasetheyseemmuchquieterandlessconcernedaboutfarmingandlifesproblemsingeneralnowperhapstheythinkiftheycangetthrough2001thentheresnothingworthgettingstressedaboutincomparisonwednesdaywasspentdoingsmallanimalworkmadeachangeasonthursdayiwentbacktoreadthecowsresultsforthetbtestallnegativeonthursdaynightidrovedowntostaywithacollegefriendnearbirminghamforthestartofalongweekendonfridayicarriedonsouthtoanotherfriendinnorthdevonshesworkinganothervetinanareathatwasalsoseverelyaffectedbyfmdcumbriawassobadlyhitthatissometimeseasytoforgetthatotherplaceshadabadtimetoothankfullyworkindevonismoreorlessbacktonormalagainispenttherestoftheweekendinsouthdevonwheremydadhadhis60thbirthdaywewereluckywiththeweatherandhadfineishconditionstohaveabarbecueonthebeachiwasofftodaymondayaswellandspentthedaydrivingnorthtoofartogoforaweekenddiary19itsbeenashortworkingweekseeingasihadmondayoffivealsostartedamonthbackontheoutofthehoursofrotathisweekitworksamonthonamonthoffsystemsonightsandweekendshavebeenandwillbeabitbusierworkhasgenerallybeenabitquieterrecentlythisisfairlytypicalforthetimeofyearmainlybecauseanimalsareoutsideandfarmersarebusymakinghayandsilagerainpermittingwevehadtwovetsoffthisweeksoalthoughtherehavebeenfewerjobsinwearenotlefttwiddlingourthumbstherehasbeentheusualflowofaroutinefarmworkalongwithhorsesandsmallanimalsbutnothingtootaxingonthewholeihadanightonthursdayandwentupstsundaycraginthelakedistrictwithacoupleoffriendsfrombramptonitwasfurtherthaniremembereditbeingwedidntgetdownuntilitwasalmostdarkbutapartfrombeingunseasonablycoldsurprisesurpriseitwasafinenightitwasdutythisweekendiwasonfirstcallonfridaynightandhaditveryeasynocallsuntil1245pmwhenanothervetandihadtooperateonadoguntilthreeamicheckeditagainat530andthenhadtogotocalvingat645justasthatwasfinishediwascalledtoabadlycuthorsethensomelamecowsandthentothebaconrollshopforbreakfastiwasonlyonsecondcallfortherestoftheweekendandwasfairlyquietthismeanticouldgetonwithvariousmundanethingslikepaintingmyhousetidyingthegardenetcetcidealtasksforwhenicantdoanythingelsebecauseimoncallandthedogdidwellsoitmakesthenightwithnosleepworthwhilediary20havehadanothershortweekhadmondayoffasiwascomingbackfromalongweekendawayworkthisweekhasbeenfairlysteadyfarmersareoftenbusytryingtogetsilagehayinatthemomentsoroutineofvetworktakesabackseathavingsaidthatwehavebeenkeptatleastasbusyaswewouldexpectwithroutinefertilityvisitsandtheoccasionalsickcowetctherebeenafewoftherestockingfarmsthathavehadsomefairlyunusualdiseasesthatdidntobviouslyfallintotheonesweusuallyrecogniseordealwithasalotofthemhaveboughtstockinfromabroadwehavetoatleastkeepinmindthepossibilityofnewproblemsbeenbroughtinweveworkedquitecloselywiththelocaldefrarunveterinaryinvestigationcentreonafewofthesecasesbutthankfullynonehaveturnedouttobeanythingtobeundulyworriedaboutiwasondutythisweekendbuthavefortunatelybeenreasonablyquiettheonlythingouttheordinarywasahorsethathadtornitslegupquitebadlyonsomewirebutwithabitoftimeandbandagingitshoulddookaydiary212vetshavebeenoffthisweeksoitsbeenabitbusierfortherestofusagainaswithlastweekitsbeenamixtureofroutineandthestandardaetypeworktherehavebeenafewtuberculintestsgoingonstilltryingtoclearthebacklogfromlastyearitsgettingthereslowlybutalotofitwillhavetowaituntiltheautumnwinterwhenthecowsareinandthefarmershavemoretimeavailableournewvetwhostartedinaprilhasseemedtosettleinverywellhehadabitofabaddayearlierintheweekwhenacalvingdidgoquiteasplanneditsveryeasytodoespeciallywhenyoufeelunderpressureasisboundtohappenwhenyoustartanewjobitremindedmeofsomeoftheproblemsihadafewyearsagothefarmwhereithappenedisquiteanunderstandingtypesoitwontcreateanyrealproblemshockeytrainingisstartingagainwhichseemsabitprematureastheseasonisstillmonthsawayatleastitllencouragemetodoabitmoreexercisetogetfitformatchestheweatherhasmeantihaventbeenoutintothehillsasoftenasiwouldhavelikedbuthopefullytheresstilltimeforittobrightenupabithadtheweekendoffsoacoupleoffriendsfromcollegehenowlivingyorkcametostaywewentuptothebordersforthedayonsaturdayneartowhereiusedtoworkitdoesntseemtohavechangedmuchistillthinkimbetteroffdownheredespitelastyeardiary22wehadabitofarushonthisweekassometimesseemstohappenitcanbequietforcoupleofweeksandthenitsuddenlyitscrazyitmaybethatalotoffarmshavenowlargelygottheircropsinandaretryingtocatchuporperhapsitsjustthewaythingsgoseveralfarmshavehadongoingproblemsthisweekwithvisitsbeingrequiredseveraldaysrunningtherehavealsobeenalargenumberofhorsecallsthisisprobablyfairlycommonforthistimeofyearastheytendtogetriddeninthesupposedlybetterweatherwetendtogofurtherafieldforhorsesontuesdayiwenttokirkbylonsdaleareainmorningandhadtogonorthofcarlisleintheafternoonthemilesgetrackeduporfairlyquicklyandigettolearnwherethevariousblindspotsforphoneandradioreceptionareiwasondutyagainontheweekendwhichmeantthatiwasalsoonformondaywednesdayandfridaynightstheywerenttoobadapartfromfridaywhenihavetogoandseeacoupleofhorsesbeingondutyforthreeweeknightstendstolimitwhaticandoapartfromworkbutimanagedtomeetupwithsomefriendsworkinginbramptononenightandgoforawalkinthelakesonthursdaytheweekendwasfairlyquietbutiwasonlyonsecondcallsoifoundtimetodosomedecoratingintheroominmyhousewhichisthecurrentprojectileadsuchathrillinglifediary23thecalmafterthestormafterthefranticlevelsofworkwesawlastweekithasagainbeenabitmorecivilisedthisweekwevehadtimetohavecoffeeandlunchbreaksandactuallytalktocolleaguesfromtimetotimeiwouldntwanthaveeveryweekisquietasthisbutoccasionallyitsverywelcomeitsquiterelaxingtobeabletogoonacallknowingthatthereisnotanotheronewaitingitalsomeansthatiftheafternoo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lhistorycurrenttrendsandtheirlikelyimpactonveterinaryserviceswhatarethecurrenttrendswithinagricultureandveterinarypracticeandwhateffectswillthathavebothinagricultureandfarmveterinarypracticetherearetrendsthatcanbeidentifiedhowfasthowfarthesetrendswillgoisdifficulttopredictbutmyownexperienceisthatchangewhenitcomeschangeisoftenslowatstartingbutthendramaticinitsspeedtheeffectofdecouplingandothereudecisionsonagricultureareunknownbutthecurrenttrendsarelikelytocontinueinagriculturefarmsizehastocontinuetogrowasfarmsmakelessandlessperanimaltheyhavetospreadcostsoverlargerandlargernumberstheindividualvalueofeachanimalcontinuestodropinrealtermsefficiencyandmechanisationcontinuestoincreasechickenfarmsarenowroutinely100000animalsplussincefootandmouthdiseasetheaveragedairyherdsizehasincreasedfrom90to114anincreaseof20whichtalkingtomanydairyfarmersisonlygoingtoincreaseasmoreherdsaregoingtobe300animalstheseincreasesareusuallywithoutanincreaseinlabouronthefarmsthismeansthecareofindividualanimalsislikelytobelessimportantbutthecareoftheoverallheathoftheherdmuchmoreinveterinarypracticethemajorchangesarelikelytobefromthecompetitioninquiryintothecostofpharmaceuticalsthesubsidyofprofessionalfeesbysalesofpharmaceuticalshasbeenanincreasingtrendsincethelate60sthenprofessionalfeesweresubsidisedbythelargescaleeradicationschemesbymaffwhopaidverygoodfeestogetthevetsonthefarmandhelperadicatethenotifiablediseasesthecompetitioninquiryisrecommendingthatpharmaceuticalsbedispensedbypharmaciesaswellandthatprescriptionsbeprovidedfreeofchargewhichprivateorganisationisgoingtoprovideaservicefreeofchargehasyettobeascertainedbutthecurrentlevelofincomederivedfrompharmaceuticalsisnotgoingtobesustainedthisinevitablymeansthatthecrosssubsidywilldisappearandfarmerswillhavetopaythefullcostofveterinaryclinicalserviceanditwillnotbeeconomictodosoatthesametimethecostsofprovidingveterinaryservicescontinuestorisethecostofveterinarytimeiscontinuingtorisestudentsarenowgraduatingwithdebtsof1520kbecauseofthelossofgrantsandpaymentoftuitionfeesthismeanstherewillneedtobeafurtherraiseof23kperannumtopayveterinaryassistantstomatchthestatusquofarmanimalpracticealreadypaysassistantslessthancompanionanimalpracticesdespiteofferingalessfavourableoncallrotaintheshorttermfollowingfmdmanypracticeprincipalsworkedadditionaloncalltomaketherotaacceptabletoattractassistantvetswherethisisviableintheshortterminthelongtermitisnotacceptableaspartnersprofitbecomescommensuratetothesalariestheyhavetopaytoveterinaryassistantstheywillbeaimingtoincreasechargesforclinicalworkorlooktootheravenuesfordecreasingcostsincreasingturnoverprovidinganoutofhoursemergencycoverisnoteconomicallypracticalforvetsexceptinthebigcitieswherepracticesjointogethertoprovideanemergencycliniccurrentlythereisanrcvsobligationtoprovide24hourcoverbutthercvsisnotinvolvedinthecommercialpricingofservicesasthevalueofindividualanimalscontinuestodropinrealtermsthenthecostoftreatingindividualanimalsbecomeslessandlessviablewherethereisnocrosssubsidyforoutofhoursworkitwillbecomeuntenableasmanymixedpracticeshaveadwindlingfarmanimalsidethatislessfinanciallyattractivemanywilldecidetoconcentrateonthecompanionanimalsideofthebusinessinalotofmixedpracticesitisaseniorpartnerwhowilldothelargestamountofthefarmworkthismeanstheyoungervetswillnothavethecaseloadtobecomeexperiencedandconfidentinfarmworkthereisacohortofpractitionersinthissituationheadingtowardsretirementinthenearfuturewillthepracticecontinuetobeinvolvedwithfarmworkasfewerpracticesbecomeinvolvedwithfarmveterinaryservicesthecostoftraveltothemoredistantfarmshastorisebeyondthealreadyacceleratedrateallthismeansthatfarmveterinarypracticeswillloseincomefromclinicalservicesandfrompharmaceuticalsalestheywillhavetomovemoretowardsthepigpoultrymodelofprovidingveterinaryadviceandchargingforitvetshavealreadymovedoutofnutritionaladviceleavingthisfieldtonutritionalexpertsthereasonforthisisthatmostnutritionaladviceisprovidedfreetothefarmerbythefirmswhothenputthatcostintothefeedsthataresoldtothefarmersthiscrosssubsidyoffeesbysalesisapparentlyacceptablewherethesubsidyofveterinaryfeesbypharmaceuticalsisnotthismodelisbeginningtoappearinotherareaswhereasvetsprovidedmostmastitiscontrolthedairieswhobuythemilkarenowprovidingfreeorsubsidisedadvicetofarmsoncellcountsandhighbacterialcountsincludingbacteriologywithavariablebackupandqualityofadvicenmrandotherrecordingagenciesarealreadyofferingfertilityinformationontheirrecordingproductsanditisashortsteptoactuallyprovidingthefertilityworkibelievethatthesefactorswillcontributetoadramaticdecreaseinfarmanimalcliniciansinthenext5yearstheeffectofthereductioninlargeanimalcliniciansonhealthandwelfarestandardsandonsurveillanceasthenumberofclinicalveterinariansreducesthentherewillbemuchlessonfarmsurveillancethismeansthatoutbreaksofnovelorunusualdiseasesismuchlesslikelytobenoticedorrecordedatanearlystagetheroutinecarefortheanimalswillbedonebystockmenunderveterinaryguidancetheguidancewillprobablybebyquarterlyor6monthlyorannualvisitsandbyherdhealthplansindividualanimalsaremu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onlyeverseenitontelevisionreportsbutneverbeenupthereourselvesinafuturediarywhenhehastimehewillwriteafewwordsonwhathethoughtweek78thaprilonceagainthisweekhasbeenfullofworkihaventhadmuchtimetodoanythingapartfromworkonthursdayihadabreakandmymomcameoutforabbqforthefirsttimethisyearwehaveputoutourpatiotablesandchairsastheweatherwasstayingpleasantwesatoutforawhileintheeveningandhadourbbqitwasalovelybreakformymomasthereispeaceandquietouthereasopposedtointownweallreallyenjoyeditmymomandfiancebothcommentedhowlovelyitwastositoutsideintheniceweatherwithoutanastysmellaboutoverthepastcoupleofweeksihaventnoticedthingssmellingsobadasonafewoccasionsrecentlytherehasalsobeenadecreaseintheamountofbirdsinparticularcrowswhichhavebeeninthefieldstothesouthofwherewearenearthecrossroadsonthecoupleofoccasionsduringtheweekwhenihavebeenpastthefieldstherehaveonlybeenacoupleofbirdsflyingaroundasopposedtoawholefieldfullofcrowsatonetimeitwasalsolovelytohearthesheepespeciallyastheeveningbecamedarkerinthebackgroundyoucouldhearthesheepjustinthefieldnexttousandalsothelambsafewfieldsawayitwassomethingwhichwestillarentquiteusedtobutwhichweappreciatesomuchmorenowweek815thapriliwasfeelingquiteconfidentthisweekuntilfridaywhenwatchthenewsisawthereportonnewbovinetbcaseswhichareworryingeventhoughitissaiditwouldntbeasseriousasfootandmouthitisstillworryingasithasthepotentialtodestroymanymorelivesandbankruptmorefarmerswhohaveprobablyjustgotoverfootandmouththeworrymustbeespeciallybadforthefarmersasitisbadenoughforthegeneralpublicespeciallyafterseeingthedamagecausedbyfootandmouthinsuchashortspaceoftimeitwouldbeabsolutelyterribleifthissummerwasanythinglikelastsummerhowlongwouldittakeforeverythingtogetbacktonormaltheneventhoughfootandmouthisevidentlyfardifferenttobovinetbhopefullythingswillhavebeenlearnedfromlastyearwhichwillpreventthisfrombecomingadisastertooapartfromthatotheraspectsofthefootandmouthsmelletchaventbeenasbadthispastweekihaventnoticedanyparticularoccasionswhenthesmellhasbeenparticularlybadornoticeableinadditionontheoccasionswhenihavedrivenpastthefieldsnearthecrossroadstherehavebeenhardlyanycrowsneartherewhichisahugeimprovementtherewereanumberofseagullsinonefieldbutnowhereneartheamountofcrowstherewerebeforetherehasalsobeenadecreaseintheamountoftankersgoingbyrecentlythatihavenoticedatfirstididnttakemuchnoticeofitbutthenfiancésgrandadmentionedthathehadhardlyseenanyheseemstonoticethemmovemorethanwedoashelivesontheortongrangejunctionwithwigtonroadandtheyallhavetogopasttherewithallthesethingshappeningthepresenceoftheburialsitenearbyseemslessobviousweek922ndaprilthelastweekhasbeenquiteapleasantweekprobablybecauseihaveeventuallyfinishedmycourseworkandhavebeenabletohaveabitofpeaceandquietithinkthiscombinedwithperiodsoflovelyweatherhavemademefeelquitegoodontuesdaywhenitravelledtotownandbackiwentpastthefieldsnearthecrossroadstothesouthofthevillagewhichinthepasthavebeenfullofcrowsorseagullsasihavenoticedonotheroddoccasionsoverthepastweektheyappeartobeemptynowillkeepaneyeonhowthischangesoverthesummerifitdoesonfridayinoticedthattherewereanumberofcattleandcalvesinthefieldjustoppositeourhouseicanstandandwatchthemfrommybackpatiodoorswhichislovelywiththereintroductionofthesheepandcattleintheareaitislikeeverythingiscomingtogetherfinallyafterthefootandmouthandlifeisreturningtonormalinsomesensethecattleseemtobethelastpartneededforeverythingtoseemtoberunningproperlyandtheanimalsfinallymovingaboutatlastithinkthisfactcombinewiththeirbeingnosignificantincidentsofnastysmellsortherumblingofthetankersgoingbyhasmadethingsseembetterwhentalkingtofiancesgrandadhementionedagainthattherestillhaventbeenasmanytankersgoingpasthishouseatortongrangeastherehavebeenthispastweektherehavebeenhardlyanyremindersoftheburialsiteandthepastfootandmouthproblemslivinginthecountryhasseemedquitenormalafterwhatseemsalongtimeweek1029thaprilallinallthisweekhasbeenagoodweekoverallwithregardtothefootandmoutheverythingseemstohavequieteneddownandtherearehardlyanyvisibleremindersoftheburialsiteandfootandmoutharoundthevillageasimentionedlastweektherestillhaventbeenanynoticeableoccasionsofsmellspossiblyfromtheburialsitethetankershavehardlybeennoticeablearoundthevillageandthefieldsnearthecrossroadshavestillbeenfairlyemptyofbirdsinparticularcrowsthiswasexplainedandbackedupinthewatchtreenewsletterintheparishmagazineswhichireceivedthisweekitwasgoodtoreadandveryinformativeworthreadingistillthinkitisagoodideaandisbeingdonewellasitdiscussesissueshappeningnowandalsokeepsyouinformedaboutactioninthefuturethenewslettermentionedthereductionintheamountoftankerswhichihavenoticeditalsomentionsthattheremightbeaslightsmellfromtheburialsitedduringworkbutsofarihaventnoticedanythingonceagainithasbeenlovelyseeingboththesheepandthecowsinthesurroundingfieldsespeciallyatthemomentwhentheyarewiththeiryoungonsaturdayonthewaydowntofiancesgrandadtherewereroadworksnearthebaldwinholmebendintheroadthispartwasinabadconditionandisnowmuchbetterithinkthedamagewascausedbythetrucksetcusedduringfootandmouthhoweverimnotsureweek116thmaythisweek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informationaboutdiaristdateofbirth1937gendermoccupationgroup5geographicregionnorthcumbriaweek1monday11thmarch2002whilstwatchingthelocaltvnewsat6pmtherewasanewsitemthatcausedustoreflectbackontheeventsayearagoayoungladyhadjustleftacourtwhereshehadbeenfoundguiltyofassaultingapoliceofficerandalsobeinginchangeofanoffensiveweaponaknifethejudgehadacquittedheroftheoffencesheshowedleniencytowardsherlastyearduringthefmdcrisisshehadreturnedtoherhometofindthatherpetgoathadbeenkilledbyslaughterersbecausetheanimalwaswithinthe3kmradiusshehadgoneberserkoverthisandthreatenedthepoliceofficerandotherswiththeknifeshehadtobeforciblyrestrainedshewasverydistraughtoverthiskillingevenaftershehadappearedincourtandhadbeenacquittedofallchargessheshowedgreatemotionnotonlybeingfreedbutalsoquiteupsetoverthelossofthegoatperhapsheractionsdidnthappentoalotofotherpeoplewhohadsimilarthingshappentothemhoweverthelossofalotofpetanimalsandinsomecasesneedlessslaughterofmanyfarmanimalsstillcreatesunhappymemoriesof2001week2tuesdaywhilstwalkingthedogimetafarmerfromtheedgeofthevillagewhohasfriendsandstockincloseproximitytothe2landfillsitesheisstillveryconcernedaboutmaterialsonthesesitesthenearestsitecontainedhundredsofcarcassesthishasbeencompletedandcappedheisconcernedaboutleachatefromthissiteandfeelsthatitdoesntmatterhowmuchclayandsoilwereusedtocontainthissitetheeffectsofheavyrainisboundtofindawaydownandalsotodrainithedoesntwanttoploughthesefieldsnorcanhesellstockthathavegrazedthesamefieldsthereispyreashbeingtippedontheothersiteagainwhathappenstotherainwaterthatrunsoffthissitealsothereareconcernsaboutthelargeflocksofseagullsthatvisitbothsitesdailyanotherconcerniswhatishappeningtotheopencastcoalsitethatissituatedalmostduesouthofgilgarranvillagethefarmeritalkedtotodayisconcernedaboutthishugesitenocoalhasbeenmovedfromthissiteformonthsthereareconcernsthatthissiteisgoingtobefilledwithwastewillitbefromfmdsitesweasavillageareveryconcernedaboutrumoursoflandfillonahugescalefridaynoticedthattherewasworkbeingcarriedoutonthetopoftheburialsitenovillagershavecommentedonthisdespitelargeyellowdiggersoperatingsundayworkcontinuingontheburialsitecannotmakeoutwhatkindofworkisbeingdonethereweek3mondayworkisstillgoingonattheburialsiteistilldontknowwhatisgoingonbutthediggersinvolvedarethesameaswhenanimalswerebeingburiedtherewhenanimalswerebeingburiedtherelastyearthesmellcomingfromthatsitewasterribletosaytheleastitwasnotcomingfromthedeadanimalsasmostobserversthoughtbutfromdecomposingwastematerialthathadalreadybeenburiedonthesitepriortofmdwhenexcavatorsdugintothesoiltomaketrenchesforthedeadanimalstheydugintothisdecomposingmatterhencetheterriblesmelldespitetheworkthatisgoingontheretodaynocommentsfromvillagersareforthcomingitseemstomethatnowthatfmdhasgonethegeneralpublicarenotinterestedanymoreunlesstheyreadsomethinginthelocalpaperswrittenbysomeenterprisingreporterweek4tuesdayworkisstillgoingonintheformerburialsitevillagersdontseemtobebotheredfmdisgonesonobodyisinterestedanymorewednesdaywhilsttryingtogaincommentsfromvillagersovertheeffectsoffmdoneortwocommentsfromsomeindividualsshowconcernabouttheoutbreaklastyearbutdontseemtooconcernedoveranyaftereffectsifanytwointerestingcommentssuggestthat1theoutbreakwasstarteddeliberatelybythiscountryincollusionwiththeagriculturistsoftheeecsoastoconcentratemeatproductionineuropeandleavetheuktoconcentrateonarablefarming2theoutbreakwasstartedbyaterroristattackthegovernmentwouldnotdeclarethisbecauseitwouldcausewidespreadpanicthursday2325hourshugefireatthesitewherepyreashisbeingtipped250000usedtyrescaughtfirearsonissuspectedfirefighterstriedtocontaintheblazebutcouldntuselargeamountsofwaterincasewatercoursesbecamecontaminatedfriday0500firestillblazingatthepyreashsitelaterinthemorningthefirewasshowingsignsofdyingdownapparentlyitwaslefttoburnitselfoutmuchheavysmokepollutionwasevidentdriftingsouthwestforaboutninemilesreadingthelocaleveningpaperabouttheblazetherewasalsoareportthatvillagersfromdisington1milesfromgilgarranwerecomplainingofthefoulsmellfrombothwastesitesparishcouncillorsareveryconcernedaboutthisdoesitcoincidewithworkcurrentlybeingcarriedoutontheburialsitethesmellfromthesesitesplusthefactthatanimalswereburiedononesiteandpyreashplusthehugefirefromtheothersiteallhappeningthisweekiscausingconcerninthisareabutoncethishueandcrydiesdownpeoplewillsoonforgetaboutitallweek5mondaythroughtofridayobservedworkontopoftheburialsitedontknowifanyworkisstillgoingononthenorthernandwesternsidesfridaylocalweeklypapercarriedthereportontherecentlargefirethatoccurredonthealcositelastweekwhen250000tyrescaughtfiresomehowitwasinterstingtoreadthatthefirebrigadedidnotuseanywatertoextinguishtheblazeincasepollutionoccurredinwatercoursesthefirewaslefttoburnitselfoutsaturdayburialsiteitlookslikethereisnewsoilbeingtippedontopforsomereasonnoreportedcommentsfroimtheparishcounciloverthisdespiteveryvociferousobjectionsbythemovertheuseofthisandthealcositeinthepastsundaytalkedtoourlocalcountycouncillorwholivesinthisvillagehefeelsverystronglythatthesetwositesaredangeroushethinksthatbothsitesareahealthhazardriskduetoobnoxiousodoursandinparticularthelargefirethatoccurredlastweekwhichproducedalotofpollutedsmokeforadistanceofsixmilessomepeoplereckonedthatthesmellofburningtyrescouldbesmelthereingilgarrantherehavebeennumerousfiresonthesesitesoverthelastfewyearsthesefiresgiverisetocompaliantbypeoplelikeusbutmoresofromthenearervillageofdistington1mileswestofherethecouncillorsuggeststhattherecouldbemoreincidentsofcancercasesinthisareaincomingyearsalongwithrespiratorytroublesaswellassomecasesofbronchitisrelatedproblemshehimselfhasrecentlysuddenlystartedsinusitiswhichhehasnthadbeforeallinallhewasnthappyaboutthesituationonbothsiteswedontknowwhatisbeingtippedthereallwecandoasacommunityisacceptwhatwearebeingtoldbythesiteownersaspreviouslystatedanimalcarcasseswerebeingtippedandburiedforaboutthreedaysbeforeweweretoldofficiallythatthiswassoincidentallythesitewhereanimalsareburiedisownedbycumbriacountycouncilthisseemstobetotallyagainsttheadviceofcountycouncilofficialswholookaftertheenvironmentandthehealthofthepopulationasivewrittenbeforetherearegoingtobebiggerconcernsiftheopencastcoalsitetothesouthofthevillagebecomesalandfillsiteforrefusefrompartsofthecountyfiftymilesawayatthemomenttherearenosuggestionsthatanythingfromthefmdoutbreakwillbedumpedtherehavingsaidthathoweverweasvillagersdidntknowofcarcassesbeingburiedorpyreashbeingtippeduntilafterithadhappenedweawaittheoutcomeofthiscoalsitewithsometrepidationafterallnocoalhascomefromthissiteforsomemonthsithasalltheindicationofbecomingalandfillsiteweek6mondaytowednesdayifworkisstillongoingattheburialsiteitisnotvisiblefromoursideofthesiteistilldontknowwhatisgoingonthereitmayallbeinnocentandanimprovementtotheenvironmentafterallthisiswhatthesiteownershavetodothursdayadelegationofmepsvisitthenorthofthecountytheyhavecometoassessthesituationforthemselvesandtoreportbacktotheeuropeanparliamentnodoubttheywillalsoreportbacktotheirownconstituentsintheirowncountriesthedelegationvisittheauctionmartatlongtownwherethediseasewasfirstnoticedinthiscountryandalsovisitedthebigburialsiteatgreatortonwhereitwasestimatedthathalfamillioncarcasseswereburiedgoodcoveragebythelocalpressradioandtvgaveanyoneinterestedtheviewsofthedelegationthursdaysaturdaythemepdelegationagreedthatthefmdsituationhadbeendisastrousweallknowthatcommentsfromsometouristandagricultureobserversrangedfromawasteoftimetoatleastsomepoliticianshavebotheredtovisitusourowncouldntdothatpersonallyithinkthatsomegoodcameoutofthisparticularlywhenitwasreportedthatthedutchhadusedvaccinationtechniqueswhentheyhadasmalloutbreakmanypeoplethinkthatthebritishgovernmentshouldhavehadapublicinquiryintotheoutbreakwhathavetheytohidecumbriaisholdingitsowninquiryquiterightlysootherorganisationssuchaslancasteruniversityareholdingresearchintotheoutbreakwhynotthegovernmenteventuallywewillknowwhyperhapsnotinmylifetimethoughtheministerandmaffhavealottoanswerforweek7thoughtitwouldbeofinteresttoincludecopiesofthenewsletterthatthelocalauthoritiesissuedtoeveryhouseholdinthearearegardingthedisposalofcarcassesandeffluentitwillbeofnotethattherewasafirelastyearonthealcositealsoinvolvingtyresverysimilartolastyearsonlynotasbigareportonlocaltvtodaystatedthattherecentvisitofmepstotheareaconsideredthatvaccinationshouldhavebeenusedattheoutsetandbeshouldseriouslyconsideredshouldafutureoutbreakoccurheardofreportsofanoutbreakoftbincattleinotherpartsofthecountrythiswasreportedtobemoreseriousthanfmdshouldamajoroutbreakoccurthiswouldleadtothequestionofdisposalshouldtheneedariseasivealreadyreportedinpreviousentriestheuseoftheopencastcoalsitetothesoutheastofhereiscausingconcerninsomequartersalthoughthesitedidntfeatureinthefmdcrisisthereisafeelingthatitisbeingearmarkedforuseinthefutureshouldtheneedariseoreventherumourofanincineratorisplannedfortherethegeneralfeelinghereandinthesurroundingareaisthatwehavehadenoughdumpingofcarcasseseffluenttoxicchemicalsetcitcouldbethattheauthoritieshaveseenthatthesitesconcernedhavehandledthosesubstancesbeforethatanextensionofdisposalsitesinthisareawouldbeeffectiveweek8nothingofanysignificancetoreportthisweekweek9nowthatcumbriasfmdinquiryhasstartedalotofpeopleihavemetthisweekrecallthehappeningsofayearagoevenmoreinterestingisthecoverageinthelocalpressandtvplentyofpublicitybythemediashowshowlittlethegovernmentanmaffinparticularletthefarmingandtourismindustriesofthecountydowntherehasbeenplentyofdistressingstoriesbyfarmersnotonlyofinfectedanimalsbeingslaughteredbutalsotheslaughteringofhealthyanimalsinthe3kmcircleofanoutbreakoneparticularlydistressingpointofevidencewaswhenafarmerdescribedtothepanelthebirthofacalffivedaysafteritsmotherhadbeenshotweatthetimeoftheoutbreakwerehearingthesestoriesonadailybasisandstillmaffandmrbrownkepttellingusthattheoutbreakwasundercontrolallicansayatthispointismayheavenhelpuswhenitallhappensagainweek10workisstillgoingonattheburialsiteitlookslikenewsoilisbeingdumpedontopoftheactualsiteanddozedtolevelitofandtosmoothitoutonthesideallwecandoisacceptthatthemanagementofthesitearemakingitbetterforallconcernedandthattheyareasconcernedaswearethemuchpublicisedcumbrianfmdinquiryteamvisitedthelandfillsitetheymetlocalcouncillorswhoexpressedtheirconcernoverthissiteandthealcositenootherreportwasforthcomingfromtheteamtheinquiryteamfinishtheirevidencegatheringthisweekoneveryimportantstatementwasmadethattheministeroftheenvironmentshouldmakeastatementoverthisoutbreakandshouldevenmakeavisittothesesitescountywidetherehasbeentotalsilencefrommrsbeckettsdepartmentoverthisrequestthesamesilenceisobservedfromanygovernmentsourceforthatmattereveryoneasksthesamequestionswhathavetheygottohidewhyarenttheyinterestedwhatplansarebeingmadeandwhatlessonshavebeenlearnedfromlastyearsoutbreakalotoffarmsarerestockingandinthisneighbourhoodfarmworkisgoingonasbeforeorsoitlooksastimegoesonthoughthereseemstobeasmoulderingangerthatnooneinauthorityisasconcernedaswellareweek11workisstillongoingattheburialsitenocommentsheardfromanyofthevillagersorneighboursthisweekdiary12mondayfrommyownobservationworkisstillongoingattheburialsitemoreheavyplanthasbeenmovedontothetopofthegiantamountanditlooksasthoughmoretopsoilisbeinglaidoverthemountperhapstoimprovethesitebutwatermaystillpermeateintoandthroughthesitewecanonlybelievetheoperatorsthatthisisarightthingtodofridaytalkedto2itvillagersabouttheaftereffectsoffmdonesaidohitsallovernowandforgottenaboutitdoesntbothermeonebittheothersaiditallinthepastwejusthavetoforgetaboutititseemsthatlifeisreturningtonormalinallaspectsofvillagelifepeopledontthinkaboutlastyearunlessthediaristmentionsthatsundayabaddayorweatherwisethisprolongedrainmayhaltworkontheburialsitemostpeoplearereluctanttotalkaboutfmdnowevenifitwasoneoftheworsteconomicandsocialdisasterstohitthiscountryandthiscountyinparticularnowthatitisoverpeoplesmemoriesbegintofadehoweversomeofusarenothappyathavingthesetwodisposalsiteswithina1000metresofthisvillagefmdmaybeoverbuttheseburialsitesarehereforalongtimeyetdiary13observedinworkonburialsitemoreheavymachineryandplantmovedinandlargequantitiesofsoilarebeinglaiddownandsmoothedoutdiary14talkedtosomereligioustodayabouttheaftereffectsoffmdwithoutexceptiontheyarenotinteresteditsalloverwithanidleonetoberemindedaboutitarethegeneralcommentsnobodyseemsbotheredthattherearehundredsofanimalsburieda1000yardsfromhisvillageorthefactthatthereisleachateandpyreashburiedinanothersitelookingattheburialsiteandtheworkthatisgoingonthereitdoeslookasthoughthemanagementtherearedoingeverythingtomakethesitesafediary15imetasmallholdertodaytowhomihavetalkedtointhepastabouttheeffectsandaftereffectsoffmdhestillnothappyabouttheburialsitedespitethelandscapingandsmoothingoffofthelargequantitiesoftopsoilonlytimewilltellhesayshedoesnothaveanystockneartothesitebuthehassheeponthefarmerslandsincefmdfinishedthoughhisstockmovementsarestillrestrictedbynewlegislationthathascomeinsincetheareawasdeclaredfreeforinstanceorifhetakesasheeptoauctionheaskedtohaveninepiecesofpaperforthistransactionifthepriceisnotrightandhehastotaketheshebacktohislandhewasputthembackinthesamefieldthattheycamefromanditcannotmovethemtothreeweekshethenhastoobtainalicencetodothishedoesthinkthattheauthoritiesarenotgoingtobeasstrictshortlythisisjustoneoftheprecautionsthathavecomeintotryandcombatanyrecurrenceoffmddiary16imetthesmallholderwhorentslandafromthefarmerinthevillagehisincomefromthesheepthatheabreedshasbeennillikemanymorepeopleinsimilarcircumstancesfortunatelyforhimhadhehasanincomefromanothersourcethesubjectofcompensationcameupduringourconversationipersonallydonothaveanycommenttomakeaboutthisitemasitmaybejustarumourapparentlyhegotitbeeinhisbonnetaboutcompensationpaidouttopeoplewhowerenotintheagriculturalbusinesswhatseemedtoupsethimwasthathehadheardthatsomeoffishandchipshopownerinthelakedistricthadbeenpaid170permonthcompensationforthelossoftradehedidntmindtoomuchthathoteliersandguesthouseownershadclaimedcompensationbutwonderedwhereelsewouldthiskindofmoneygowhenhehimselfhadbeenpaidnothingthisisthefirsttimeiveheardthisonediary17attendedthecumberlandshowateverytobeparkcarlisleweasafamilyusedtoattendthisannualshowregularlybothasspectatorsandcompetitorswehaveneverseentheshowliketheoneputonthisyearwhenwillthingsreallygetbacktonormalmanyofusthinkthatagricultureisbacktoprefmdcattleandsheepongrazinginthefieldslambinghasreachednewheightsinproduceonsomefarmscalvesarebeingbornsilageandhaymakingisprogressingwhentheweatherpermitsbuttherearestillrestrictionsonanimalmovementshencenosheepcattleorpigsatthisyearsshowonlyhorsespoultrydogsandrabbitsnotmanypiecesofagriculturalmachineryonshoreeitherplentyofcharteredaccountantstentscrafttentshorsefeedsandtackdisplaysinthemainarenaandbandsnotanagriculturalshowasweknewititseemstobethesameatothershowsennerdaleshowisoneofourlocalshowsthisyearthereisntgoingtobeanyhorsesorsheepgenerallytherearenocattleshownattheshowbutwithoutsheephillfarmersdominatetheshowthethereisntgoingtobemuchonshowatallitwasalwaysagoodshowforequestrianeventsatmanylevelsthisshowwasalwaysamustforourfamilyidontthinkthatwewillbegoingthisyeardiary18fromthegolfcourseandgolfdrivingrangeicanlookoutontothewesternsideoftheburialsiteihavewritteninpreviousweeksabouttheworktherehasbeengoingonatthissiteviewingthesitearefromourvillagesidewouldhardlyknowwhatthatthereeverwasaburialsitehundredsoftonsoftopsoilhadbeenlaidandsmoothedouttomakemoreorlesslikealandscapedfeatureitlooksreallygoodfromthewesternsidethoughthingsarelittledifferentworkisstillgoingontherelargeamountsofsoilhavebeentippedandlevelledofftherearestillportakabinsthereandheavyplantcanstillbeseenmovingaboutnodoubtthewesternsidewelllookasgoodastheeasternsidebeforelongdiary19itisannouncedthattheprimeministerandhiswifeandsonofhisfamilyatavisittocumbriathepmarrivesinwestcumbriaallkindsofreportsarewritteninthelocalandnationalpressaboutwhatheisgoingtodoornotdoorwhatheshouldbedoingafterallheisonholidaythepmdidmeetsomefarmersleadersthepressasusualstirredthingsuporastowhereheshouldbemeetingtourismofficialssaythatthetripwasfantasticfortourisminthecountyorpersontheyicantseewhatdifferenceitmadeifpeoplewanttocomecumbriatheywillcomeirrespectiveofwhetherthepmcomesornotdiary20afteralotofprotestsitlooksasthoughitthe20dayrestrictiononcattlemovementwillbeliftedperhapsthiswillnowmeanthattheycouldbecattleandsheepentriesatlocalagriculturalshowssomeshowsaregoingaheadwithverylimitedentriesoflivestockandsomewithnoanimalentriesatalltheseshowshavealwaysbeenverypopularwithmyfamilyforover20yearsalsolivingwithinafarmingcommunitymakesusfeelpartoftheannualagriculturalscenediary21ivewrittenbeforeregardingagriculturalshowsandtheprideinwhichlocalpeopletakeintheseshowsalthoughalotofshowshavegoneaheadthisseasontheyhavehadareducedanimalshowingorinsomecasesnoanimalsatalltodayiveheardthatoneshowhasbeencancelledaltogetherthisparticularshowisoneofthemostpopularintheareamaybebecauseoflackofentriesortheorganisersjustwantedtocancelbecauseofthe3weekrestrictiononanimalmovementidontknowperhapsitwouldbebettertocancelthemthanhaveadepletedshowdiary22spentafewhoursinthefellstodayitwasgoodtobeabletowanderthefamiliarpathsandletourdogrunfreeitwasagoodboosttoourmoralandperhapsthedogstooweallmissedbeingabletodothislastyeardiary23lastbankholidaybeforexmasandthelastbeforetheschoolsgobackatthegolfcoursewhereihelpoutparttimeduringthesummerwehadlotsofcustomersalotofthemcommentedonhowenjoyableitwastobeonholidayinthisareathisyearcomparedtotherestrictionsthatwereinplacelastyearmaybetheholidayestablishmentsaregettingbacktonormaltherearenorestrictionsputonthemlikethereisinplacenowwithfarmersandagriculturediary26sortingthroughthemailleftwhilstawayonholidayandicameacrossanoticesentbythevillagecommitteenotifyingaharvestthanksgivingfestivaltobeheldnextmonthinthevillagehallaswehavenochurchinthevillageitisbeingheldinsomefarmbuildingsinthecentreofthevillagethiswillbeasplendideventthefarmdidnothavefmdbutcouldnttakeanimalsfromonefieldtoanotherandcouldntmarketthemwhenweconsiderthegloomthatsettledonthisfarmandcommunityitisverywelcometohavethisuniqueeventhereintheheartofthevillageandthefarmerandhiswifewillbeatthecentreofeventsalovelygestureandihopeitwillbewellsupportedtherewillbeadistributionofharvestgiftsafterwardswhatachangefromayearagodiary27withtheaidofbinocularsihavebeenabletohaveacloserlookattheburialsitefromawesterlydirectionthereareventsintheshapeofsmalltowerstoextractgasfromthesitetherearepipesconnectingtheseventsalotofworkisstillgoingontherehoweverallthistakesplaceinthewesternsidewhichistheoppositesidetowheremyvillageissituatedfromoursidethereisnothingtosuggesttheamountofworkgoingonbecauseofthisfmdispushedfurtherintothebacksofvillagersmindsitissomethinginthepastithashappenedsowhatpeoplelikemyselfwhotalktofarmersandagriculturalistsdonoteasilyforgettheseeventspersonallyiamstillconcernedabouttheburialsitewheninquiriesaremadeaboutitallwecandoisacceptwhatwearetolditdoesnotlookasthougheveryprecautionisbeingtakentoalleviateanodoursorcontaminationdiary28ihadtoseethevillagefarmeronanothermatterandwasaskedinsideforcoffeeandachathewasabletotellmeofthefullimplicationsofthe20dayruleheacceptsthatthisisaprecautiontopreventanotheroutbreakoffmdbutthereisalotofworkinvolvedhetoldmeofanisolationareathathehascreatedandalsothefencingarrangementswherehislandadjoinstheneighbourslandiwouldsaythat95ofthepublicdontknowaboutthiseveniftheyhaveheardofthe20dayruleforhimheownsthelargestfarmintheareaitisbadenoughhavingtodoallthephysicalworkasregardsfencingetcbutforanyonesuchasasmallholderitmustbeanightmareifhehastobringanimalsbackfrommarketthathaventbeensoldfridaymywifeandiplayedaroundofgolfataspatriathiscoursewasbadlyrestrictedwhenfmdhitthisareawewereremindedthattherearerestrictionsonadjoininglandtherewerenoticesaskingpeoplewhohitballsontofarmlandnottocrossthefencetoretrievethembecauseoffmdprecautionsthiswasnewstousitdoesmakesensethoughthefarmerwouldntknowwhereplayershadbeenwalkingpriortoplayinggolfdiary29attendedtheharvestfestivalheldinthevillagefarmalargecattleshedhadbeencleanedanddecoratedforthiseventchairshadbeenbroughtinfruitandvegetableswereondisplayforauctioningattheendtheplacewaspackedalotofmoneywasraisedanditwasaveryhappyeventwellsupportedandabigboostforthefarmandthevillageidontthinkthatthegeneralpubliccaremuchaboutfmdnowthatishasbeenayearsincethelastcasewasconfirmedincumbriathepublicmayberemindediftheyreadthelocalnewspapersintentlyforinstancetherewasalettertotheeditorpublishedrecentlywhichreferredtotheresultsofthecumbriainquiryintofmditmayhavebeenafarmerwhowroteitidontknowbutthewritercertainlywenttotowninthescathingcommentsonthehandlingoffmdevencausticremarksregardingtheeffortssincefmdofdefraandmrsbecketticertainlywouldntliketocrossthewriterialsothinkthefarmingcommunitymustbeholdingitsbreathincasethepresentrestrictionssuchastheyareprovetobeworthlessthenwewillallsufferagainweek30whatadifferenceayearmakesdespitesomerestrictionsonpublicaccesstoagriculturalfieldsinsomeareasofthecountyitdoesntapplyherealthoughmostlocalsconfinethemselvestofootpathsandbridlewaysotherpeopleseemtothinkthatallfieldsarerecreationareastheywalkandrunacrosssomeofthefieldsincloseproximitytothevillageregardlessofthepresenceofstocktheyexercisedogsandtreatitasasomekindofparkonefarmeriswellknowforbeingaggressiveheusedlastyearsfmdoutbreaktorunpeopleoffhislandimetalocalcouncillorwhoexpressedconcernsregardingtheproposedbuildingofanincineratortothesouthofthevillageonthecurrentopencastminingsitethetwowastedisposalsitestothewestandnorthwestofthevillagehavebecomebigissuesinthelast18monthsduetotheburialofanimalsandthedisposalofpyreashandleachatesitseemsasthoughwearegoingtogetoverthisghastlyfmdoutbreakonlytohavethisscenariothrustuponusweek31metasmallholderwhokeepssheepneartothisvillagehewasveryscathingoverthereportthatthegovernmentanddefradontwanttotalkupanofferfromthelocalauthoritiesheretoimplementfindingsandrecommendationsfromtheirlocalinquiryoverfmdwhywhathasthisgovernmentwhodidntperformverywellduringtheoutbreakgottohideandwhyshirkawayfromthefindingsinsteadoffacinguptothefailingsthatweallknowaboutitalsoseemsthattheydontwanttomakeanysafeguardsandrecommendationstoavoidafurtheroutbreakasanonagriculturalistitdoesntsurprisemeintheleastafterallgovernmenthasfailedotherindustriesinthecountryforaslongasicanrememberweek32iamconvincedthatauthoritiesintheareamustthinkthatthewayanimalswereburiedhereandpyreashandleachateweredisposedofatanothersitenearbywasalldoneasverysuccessfullyandthatthetwositeshandledeverythingprofessionallythereforethesiteswouldbemorethancapableofhandlingashfromanincineratortomethisisthelegacyoffmdiammostannoyedoverthistogetherwithalotmoreofthevillagersthisvillagenolongerhasarepresentativeontheparishcouncilbothhaveresignedforwhateverreasonandnoonewillstepforwardtotakeitoneihavesaidthatiwouldtakeasetontheparishcounciltorepresentthevillageandfightforourrightsandfuturequalityoflifeduetothisihaveuncoveredapileofclaimsandcounterclaimsitseemsthatbothparishanddistrictcounsellorsknowwhatisgoingonregardingtheincineratorandthatdevelopershavemadeconcessionstosomecouncillorsalsothereareclaimsthatthedevelopershaveofferedmoneytolocallandownersandfarmerssothatroadscanbeputinalltheseaccusationshavebeenstronglydeniedatthesametimeitisrumouredthatsomefarmershavebeenofferedlocalfieldsnearbybecauseofwhatihavediscoveredinmyowninvestigationsitwouldseemthatalotoffriendshipsgainedover20yearscouldcometoanendiamfearfulofwhatihaveuncoveredtherearealsoclaimsthatcouncillorsareonlyinitforwhattherecangetoutandarenottobetrustedidontwantthatsaidofmealsobythetimeallthisissortedoutiwillbe7075icertainlydontwanttobefightingpeoplesbattlesatthatagehoweveriwillsupportanyefforttostoptheproposeddevelopmentweek33onceagainthelargefarminthecentreofthevillagewasthevenuefortheannualguyfawkesbonfireandfireworksorganisershadbeenroundthevillageaskingfordonationstoprovidefireworksatractorandtrailertouredtheareaspickingupthingsforthebonfiredrinksandfoodwereservedinabarnafterthefireworksthisisanotheroccasionwhenvillagersandthefarmingcommunitycometogetheritisperhapstheonlytimethatthegeneralpublicofthevillagethinkaboutfmdandlastyearseventsifonlybrieflythefarmerremarkedthatisthethirdtimethisyearthattherehasbeenapublicfunctiononhisfarmthefirstwasthejubileepartyinjunethenonoctober6ththeharvestfestivalservicetheseeventskeepfarminginthepubliceyeweek34ihaventwrittenbeforeabouttheproposedbuildingofanincineratornearbytoburnthecountieswasteifasweallsuspecttheincineratorisbuiltthentheodoursplusthedisposalofashtothefmdwastesiteisalegacyoffmdparticularlyregardingthenearbyburialanddisposalsiteweek35thisisweek35ofthisprojectandformostofthe35weeksihavewrittenthatiamnotconfidentofthefuturetherearenumerousreasonsforthismainlythesituationinthemiddleeasttodayitravelledtokeswicktodosomexmasshoppingiwasgivenalifttherebyaneighbourwhoisinhis30shewasveryupsetabouttheterroristsituationnotonlywasheconcernedabouttheterrorthreattothelondonundergroundbutthethreatclosertohomeasregardsaplanecrashingintothenearbysellafieldcomplexwedontknowtheeffectthatthisconstantbadnewshasonpeoplepeoplewhohavealreadygotseriousworriesegfamilieshousingfinanceetcmustfeelreallydepressedaboutitallweek36neartothenextvillageisalongestablishedfarmofmanyacresrecentlythefarmsstockofanimalsandmach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armertodaywhotoldmethathedseenareportbasedonfindingsbytheeuanddefraitstatedallthethingsthateveryonewhoisanagriculturalistandthosewhotakeaninterestinthecountrysidehadbeensayingaboutwhatwaswrongwiththehandlersofthefmdoutbreakitjustprovesthatitdoesnttakeanacademicgeniustoknowwhatshouldhavebeendoneatthetimeeveryonecanbewiseraftertheeventbutstatementsbythenfuandindividualsattheonsetwerenotheededforexamplethemovementofanimalsshouldhavebeenhaltedsoonerandthearmyshouldhavebeenbroughtinmuchsoonernowthequestionofvaccinationrumblesonshouldweorshouldntwevaccinatethereisafearoftheoutbreakagainparticularlywhenthefindingsofthe1960outbreakwerenotimplementedsincethesadnessoffmdtherehasbeenquiteafewinstancesofsocialisingatthefarmsuchasharvestfestivaljubileepartyandalmostanyexcuseforashindiggoodtoseefarmersenjoyingthemselvesweek52metoutlocalfarmerwhotoldmethatthereistobenewlegislationtodisposeoffallenstocknolongercanafarmerburyfallenstockonhislandbutmustnowprovideanincineratortodisposeofdeadanimalsthismustbeacostlybusinesscoulddeadanimalsnotbetakentoacentralpointandburnedweek54onethingaboutfmdwastheeffectthatithadonthepoachingfraternitylivinginaruralareaweexpectthistohappennobodyseemstomindthatafewrabbitsandpheasantsgomissingwhatisreallyalarmingistheuseofdogsandhighpoweredriflestopoachdeerfmdputastoptoallthisnowaneighbourhastoldmeofpoachersneartothevillageusingriflesandshootingdeertheonlypeoplebenefitingfromthisarethepoachersandhotelierswhoreceivethesedeadbeastsandnoquestionsaskedalsothedangerofvillagersbeinghitbystrayrifleshotscausesalarmtoothersweek55ithinkthatthereisalotofjumpingonthebandwagonnowthatfmdhasclearedupforinstanceilistenedtoaninterviewonthelocalradiostationgivenbyahotelierthingswerentgoingwellinhisestablishmenthavinggotoverfmdanditsimplicationsvisitorswereslowlyreturningtotheareabutnotinsufficientnumberstocausegreatjoy

Removing Stop Words

Stopwords are typically conjunctions (‘and’, ‘or’), prepositions (‘to’, ‘around’), determiners (‘the’, ‘an’), possessives (’s) and the like. The are REALLY common in all languages, and tend to occur at about the same ratio in all kinds of writing, regardless of who did the writing or what it is about. These words are definitely important for structure as they make all the difference between “Freeze or I’ll shoot!” and “Freeze and I’ll shoot!”.

Buuuut… Many for many text-mining analyses, especially those that take the bag of words approach, these words don’t have a whole lot of meaning in and of themselves. Thus, we want to remove them.

For removing words in R it’s a little awkward, but you can paste together a regex from tm’s stopword list.

stopwords_regex = paste(tm::stopwords('en'), collapse = '\\b|\\b')
stopwords_regex = paste0('\\b', stopwords_regex, '\\b')

foot_mouth_df$no_stop_words <-
  stringr::str_replace_all(foot_mouth_df$no_punct, stopwords_regex, '')

head(foot_mouth_df$no_stop_words)
## [1] "information  diarist date  birth 1975 gender m occupation group 6 geographic region north cumbria diary 1 thursday meeting n lakes friday tb testing  restocking farm usual chat  defra comments  meeting research panel gp 6   north lakes  interesting  surprises  sometimes  people  included never seem  tire    stories  complaints    crisis  handled    episodes recounted must   told dozens  times   last year  whoever says  always seems just  keen  say   perhaps  reflection   deeply people feel   events   last year  said     resentments  rants   hear  daily farm visits  focused fairly  squarely  defra   fmd virus farmers seem far  upset   constriction put    defra      loss  stock now although  know  saw  utterly devastated      actually diagnosed   virus    week  two following  work   practice  becoming less  less fmd orientated  time goes  licensing  restocking visits  drawing   close    starting  return  normal vet work  life    settled since  end  fmd although   never  real threat  redundancy    great deal  uncertainty    form work  take   outbreak   never clear whether    based   practice  working   defra vet  month  month now    finished  hope  practice   work can get back   routine   least knowing  ill  based  day even    calls  going  come   regard  fmd  biggest influence     moment    last week  acting   listener  farmers  still talk    defra  great deal diary 2 mon shap restocking   justify visit wed melmerby  went  see  farmer  week    first inspection   sentinel animals    restocking  farm  common  many farmers   unwavering   conviction   animals   deliberately infected   tony blair  defra   ultimate culprits  belief    want  put farmers   business  particular farmer made   valid point  defra co  underestimated  resilience   farming community  think      striking considering  strain        cases worse    didnt get fmd         remarkable  little  majority   clients  changed admittedly  see      professional basis regarding  animals health        whole  seem     forward thinking   outbreak many  taken    chance  increase  size  herds   eliminate many  diseases  well  fmd work   practice   fairly steady  week  number  fmd calls  decreasing one   problems   restocking licensing  tb calls       farm  defras instruction normally    farmer  calls us    can cause friction anything related  defra will put hackles  9 times   10  definitely causes stress  times  puts  diplomacy skills  good practice  sometimes feels  though  farmers just need  outlet   fit  bill  agreeing  everything  say  sympathising  usually smoothes   ends   cup  tea    feel  though    justify     much   prior  february 2001 diary 3  week   anniversary   week  went   first ip  associated slaughter pyre building etc  several times   week  found  thinking  time last year   although obviously  pleasant memories  thoughts   particularly affect    bad way  distract   work  just took  back   time    time  think  went  see  sick horse near carlisle     ip     interesting  drive past  farm  see animals   buildings  hopefully  farmer concerned  getting back  track   respect  daily routine work  getting  busy lambing time  starting  really get going   inevitable increase  calls although  can  hectic  times  better   kept busy rather     quiet  also good  actually   lambings   sheep work   two years since    apart  euthanasing sheep last year  monday  went    re stocking check   farm  farmer  convinced   given fmd deliberately   arrival   given  weekly tirade regarding defra tony blair   must  made thousands  pounds    etc etc  sometime   rising   bait  calmed   half  hour later  sweetness  light perhaps  just needs someone  let pressure    one session like   week isnt  bad considering  many farm visits   diary 4 monday brought another dressing    farmer  mentioned last week   shorter  less passionate  time perhaps hes mellowing  bit  drove   junction 40 one day   sun   reminded    similar day  year ago    count 15 smoke plumes  pyres    bit  road   said last week anniversary memories like  arent especially difficult   theyre just    lot  ways  quite satisfying thinking    happening  year ago   well things  progressed since     farmers  re stocked work  returning  normal even things like  able  drive onto farms  rather    leave  car   farm entrance makes  big difference work continues    busy   typical seasonal calls  sheep  cattle    couple  vet students  work experience  us    stop last march   couldnt take extras onto farms  us another sign   continuing return  normality  days  seems     returned      year ago   obvious legacy  perhaps  thorough  extensive clothing disinfection   farm  good habit    hard  break diary 5    work  easter monday morning   fairly uneventful    last  weeks    usual seasonal calls  sheep  cattle  nothing  stressful  tuesday    final blood sampling   last farm      still   sentinel stage  re stocking  farmers seemed fairly mellow today  spared   usual lecture attempt  argument perhaps    end   restriction   sight  test went  smoothly   didnt hear     end   week     upset probably justifiably   results still werent back  processing  bloods    responsibility      sympathise  plead ignorance  rest   week  fairly routine work wise friday  taken    big tuberculin  brucellosis test   re stocked farm      done within 3 mths  re stocking although    big job    well run farm  plenty  help   got finished within  day     delays    expected now   evenings  lighter  meant   nights  duty ive  able  get    made   welcome change   able  bike walk   fells   year    restrictions  2001 long may    weather continue diary 6 finally finished  last  restocking jobs  monday  farmer  getting  frustrated probably justifiably    length  time   taking  bank holidays etc last week meant    labs  closed   blood samples took longer  process  got  results  4 45 monday evening    attempt  create  goodwill agreed  go   farm    final check  evening  arrival   usual tirade  defra  vets came  way   slightly hard  take   said   didnt blame  personally   nice    think hope  realises   can  try  get things going faster  ultimately     hands  least  good     restocking work finished  feels  though  first stage    getting back     another sign  returning  usual   continuing pace  work nights  call    time  working rather   call free nights  summer 2001  week  brought early morning lambing  days  rest   time    busy      year  day book  full  day    seem   driving around  county   less keeping    jobs    good thing    weekend    going  go  edinburgh  see  friends    end stayed  penrith   r r diary 7    half day  monday  went  riggindale   head  haweswater   friend   come  stay   night  two  plan   see  golden eagles nesting    unfortunately      day trip  another part   lake district   weather  good   made   pleasant change  work  practice  still going flat   seasonal work  daily flow  lambing  lambing related sheep problems shows  sign  ebbing   also increasing numbers  cattle problems probably related  coming towards  spring turn   cattle    inside  6 7 months  fact       new surroundings  almost certainly adding   problems   whole  farmers  fairly pragmatic   difficulties     accept    bound   problems   restocking    whole  pleased just   stock      keen    efficient  possible whereas others will  readily go along   old farming mantra   theres  livestock theres  dead stock  quite   veterinary profession wants  encourage    call   weekend   one   busier  days  can remember    mostly seasonal farm work  although   time consuming  often quite rewarding im still surprised   number  sheep   getting called  perhaps   farmers  spent  lot  money    restock   now feel theyre financially worth calling us  diary 8 made  couple  visits  one   farmers  restocked   winter  week hes    problems  cows getting ill  generally  settling   well hes one    amenable farmers   books  never seems  try  blame anyone   troubles  times   frustrating    able     people like  id like   able  give every one   cows  magic injection  say  itll get better  unfortunately thats    works weve   lot  colt castrations    week   normal   time  year  puts  pressure  us  terms  work   usually take two vets   castration considering  busy   relations   practice  generally  good    stressful  times    whole    stress related  volume  jobs   rather  people   also    different  preferable type  stress   time   last year  least  lot  work makes us  feel fairly stable rather   terrible uncertainty  last year weve also taken   extra vet  spring     unthinkable last year   middle   week    farm visit  one   vets   local veterinary lab  discuss disease control   re stocked farm    work  disease surveillance   farm  defra funded  went  well   farmer   least felt  though   getting something back  fighting  defra   last  months   also encouraging  see someone taking   positive approach  disease control   future  cousin     friends came   glasgow   weekend  go   lake district  weather  good   whole  several people noted  good      paths open  diary 9 started  week   big tuberculin  brucellosis test   restocked farm     big backlog  clear  testing  stopped  fmd last year     catch    farms  didnt get  disease   due  test  well  testing  restocking farms    keen  keep cumbria   tb free zone     different stock coming   going   tricky mondays test  long  okay   whole  set   good   farming family   pleasant  makes  huge difference    day goes   clear   went  read  test  thursday  relief   concerned overall work seems   quietening   bit  week compared   last    now just busy rather  always feeling    one job behind   time  wednesday  thursday one   clients brought  half  dozen shetland ponies  castrate  makes  change    large animal   small enough   easily physically restrained  one person  continuing good weather made   afternoons work   ponies   practices field   pleasant way  spend   hours  cant help feeling   rain  april means well get loads later   summer     second call   weekend saturday   busy  small animal jobs   mainly left   colleague   tried  clear   farm  equine jobs calm  pretty much restored  late afternoon    wasnt called  early sunday morning another   re stocked clients   considerable trouble     new animals   becoming increasingly frustrated     try  help   medical side   animals  inevitably also get  hear  lot    worries  hopefully things will look  soon  hell  able  ride   ok diary 10   day   bank holiday monday always  good way  start  week  went   peebles  scotland   friends  go mountain biking   surprisingly empty   weekend   weather  good   didnt fall      good day  tuesday  work  usual      small tb test   restocking farm  shouldnt    long job   facilities werent great   didnt go  slickly   might  done   managed  get   one piece      worse one   colleagues went  maternity  week   part time    small animal work now  shes    next  months  means   extra vet  needed  morning  stay    small animal operations   probably   favourite sort  work   make  change     farms every morning  also good  get  bit  experience  small procedures  well   smaller animals  week  brought several interesting equine cases    hospitalise  horse    days  fairly intensive treatment  fortunately appears   made  good recovery   also   couple  horse operations   practice  week theyre generally quite interesting apart   stress involved   half  ton  horse asleep   operating table    weekend   went  edinburgh   small reunion  friends    college  although   talk   things conversation inevitably came round  work  effect  fmd   consequences  still  much  peoples minds friends  asked    last year  whether farms  restocked yet etc etc  s stuff   seem   said hundreds  times   last  months  people never seem  tire  asking     extent  dont seem  get bored  answering  diary 11  week started   big tb test   restocking dairy farm    good facilities   subsequently went  smoothly  quickly despite  number  cows involved  farmer seems   quite positive   new start    spared  lot   problems   people  experienced  restocking  terms  disease   animals everything  clear   read  test later   week  wednesday afternoon    bit   change   went castrate two ponies belonging   mother   bought two totally wild fell ponies last autumn  now  bit tamer   completely used   handled yet  went  one   nurses   senior partner    went pretty much  plan work  still busy theres one client  particular   giving us  lot    restocked   months ago   obviously  trouble lambing  sheep  got  bit trying     get    third lambing  one night  thats       suppose hes  nice man  always seems pleased  see us  helps    weekend    went  glasgow   best man   cousins wedding apart   weather  went  well  think   unsolvable problems diary 12 started  week   long visit  dairy fertility work  one   big dairy farmers  one   farmers     problems  restocking   visit  another vet usually    felt  bit  pressure   type  work    routine    potential  go quite badly wrong   whole  went fairly well   major problems  get  pretty well   farmer  always helps   makes  time go  quicker small animal work  still quite busy   two days inside  week  small animals operations  wasnt anything particularly different  unusual   still helps      one   farmers  managed  miss fmd   busy   calving schedule   moment hes tending    big calves  subsequently    lot  caesareans   week  brought  least half  dozen   two    middle   night      vets  looking sleep deprived recently    weekend   went  see  couple  friends  edinburgh  spent one day cycling  peebles   proceeded  nothing strenuous   next diary 13  week started   big session dehorning cattle   exactly technical work   fairly hard work  least  gets  fit   normally     younger age  quite     missed   didnt get  onto farms   routine work last year   whole  people  fairly well caught  now  theyve re stocked   routine work done   last 8 months      still   lagging behind    call   farmer   one    consistently  vehemently anti defra people last year  ended    caesarean   quite  long chat   conversation ended  coming round   events  last year   aired  resentments     first time  several weeks    heard  kind  talk whereas   months ago      daily occurrence  wasnt particularly aimed     practice  particular  just frustration   system   whole  went   walk  blencathra one evening   week   highlight   week     start   world cup ive   duty  w e  managed  see    last two minutes   mornings rather disappointing draw  sweden  farmers  keen  watch  matches   lets hope   many calls come    wrong time diary 14    bank holiday  monday    welcome   weekend  call  went   walk   lakes   colleague considering    bank holiday  wasnt  crowded   work  bank holiday tuesday though  wasnt especially busy   evening       caesarean   cow   go  see  badly cut horse  seem    ok  rest   week  worked  usual nothing particularly    ordinary happened  fairly routine calls perhaps    everyone  preoccupied  events  japan  korea  maybe   just    booked    11  call  friday  managed  persuade  farmer concerned  930    appropriate said         watch  second england game  managed  get finished  time    well worth   1 0 win  argentina put everyone   good mood   rest   day   weekend    first call   weekend saturday morning   busy   didnt get   calls done  early afternoon     one   quietest weekends ive     couple  things    saturday afternoon evening  sunday   calls   lunch almost unheard     check  phone  switched  long may  last diary 15 ive done two days   practice  small animals  week   usual  weather     best    bad thing  managed  go   rounds  wednesday though   managed  catch  third england match second round   come  spent   friday morning operating  two cows  one   farms     condition  part   gut displaces   abdomen   best repositioned surgically  farmer observed    probably linked  fmd last year   fmd    use  silage  keep  cows inside last summer  meant   less stored   winter    none available  feed  spring summer  lack  silage now  almost certainly implicated   problems  cows    unusual   two occurring  one farm   time seeing   missed getting fmd last year though  thought    price worth paying   actually quite  pleasant way  spend  morning hes  kirkby stephen   went  school   didnt    jobs waiting    quite  relaxed  hours  surgery went ok     half day  friday  drove  valley just beyond alston  meet one   old flat mates  edinburgh   stag weekend  stayed   old barn  middle  nowhere   wasnt exactly  conventional stag party   enjoyable     walked   nearest pub  saturday  see englands exciting next instalment 3 0 thank   much      leisurely day  drive back  penrith  ive got another night  get  head back  normal  work tomorrow diary 16  week   quite small animal orientated  ive done two mornings   surgery   consulting  usual im  meant    duty  nights  week  ive   couple  cover  people whove   holiday fortunately  nights  fairly quiet im sure  favour will  returned sometime   day work   fairly steady   quite  busy  last week  theres enough  keep us going  practice like    country tried  stop briefly  england  losing  brazil   bit disappointing hopefully farmers   rest   clients wont   depressed      good   lasted   weekend  went    place near worcester   wedding   friend whose stag weekend    last week    lot  people  edinburgh   havent seen  several years    great  catch   weather   kind  stayed dry diary 18  monday  went    big tuberculosis  brucellosis test   one  big dairy farms   restocked  months ago theyve got several hundred cows   took  lot longer  anticipated    go back  tuesday  finish  job  theyre  friendly family   wasnt really  much   chore      obvious change   since fmd      clients    disease  seem much quieter  less concerned  farming  lifes problems  general now perhaps  think   can get  2001  theres nothing worth getting stressed   comparison wednesday  spent  small animal work made  change   thursday  went back  read  cows results   tb test  negative  thursday night  drove   stay   college friend near birmingham   start   long weekend  friday  carried  south  another friend  north devon shes working another vet   area   also severely affected  fmd cumbria   badly hit   sometimes easy  forget   places   bad time  thankfully work  devon    less back  normal   spent  rest   weekend  south devon   dad   60th birthday   lucky   weather   fine ish conditions    barbecue   beach    today monday  well  spent  day driving north  far  go   weekend diary 19    short working week seeing    monday  ive also started  month back      hours  rota  week  works  month   month  system  nights  weekends    will   bit busier work  generally   bit quieter recently   fairly typical   time  year mainly  animals  outside  farmers  busy making hay  silage rain permitting weve  two vets   week  although    fewer jobs     left twiddling  thumbs     usual flow   routine farm work along  horses  small animals  nothing  taxing   whole    night  thursday  went  st sunday crag   lake district   couple  friends  brampton      remembered    didnt get     almost dark  apart   unseasonably cold surprise surprise    fine night   duty  weekend    first call  friday night     easy  calls  12 45pm  another vet     operate   dog  three   checked    530     go  calving  645 just    finished   called   badly cut horse   lame cows     bacon roll shop  breakfast     second call   rest   weekend   fairly quiet  meant   get   various mundane things like painting  house tidying  garden etc etc ideal tasks    cant  anything else  im  call   dog  well   makes  night   sleep worthwhile diary 20   another short week  monday     coming back   long weekend away work  week   fairly steady farmers  often busy trying  get silage hay    moment  routine  vet work takes  back seat  said     kept  least  busy    expect  routine fertility visits   occasional sick cow etc       restocking farms     fairly unusual diseases  didnt obviously fall   ones  usually recognise  deal    lot    bought stock   abroad     least keep  mind  possibility  new problems  brought  weve worked quite closely   local defra run veterinary investigation centre      cases  thankfully none  turned    anything   unduly worried     duty  weekend   fortunately  reasonably quiet   thing   ordinary   horse   torn  leg  quite badly   wire    bit  time  bandaging    okay diary 21 2 vets     week     bit busier   rest  us    last week    mixture  routine   standard  e type work      tuberculin tests going  still trying  clear  backlog  last year  getting  slowly   lot   will   wait   autumn winter   cows     farmers   time available  new vet  started  april  seemed  settle   well    bit   bad day earlier   week   calving  go quite  planned   easy   especially   feel  pressure   bound  happen   start  new job  reminded      problems     years ago  farm   happened  quite  understanding type   wont create  real problems hockey training  starting   seems  bit premature   season  still months away  least itll encourage     bit  exercise  get fit  matches  weather  meant  havent     hills  often     liked  hopefully theres still time    brighten   bit   weekend    couple  friends  college  now living york came  stay  went    borders   day  saturday near    used  work  doesnt seem   changed much  still think im better    despite last year diary 22    bit   rush   week  sometimes seems  happen  can  quiet  couple  weeks    suddenly  crazy  may    lot  farms  now largely got  crops    trying  catch   perhaps  just  way things go several farms   ongoing problems  week  visits  required several days running   also   large number  horse calls   probably fairly common   time  year   tend  get ridden   supposedly better weather  tend  go  afield  horses  tuesday  went  kirkby lonsdale area  morning    go north  carlisle   afternoon  miles get racked   fairly quickly   get  learn   various blind spots  phone  radio reception     duty    weekend  meant    also   monday wednesday  friday nights  werent  bad apart  friday     go  see  couple  horses   duty  three week nights tends  limit   can  apart  work   managed  meet    friends working  brampton one night  go   walk   lakes  thursday  weekend  fairly quiet      second call   found time    decorating   room   house    current project  lead   thrilling life diary 23  calm   storm   frantic levels  work  saw last week      bit  civilised  week weve  time   coffee  lunch breaks  actually talk  colleagues  time  time  wouldnt want  every week  quiet    occasionally   welcome  quite relaxing   able  go   call knowing     another one waiting  also means    afternoons  quiet one  us can usually   half day  got  nod  wednesday  went   kirkby stephen  see  folks theyve got  smallholding    various creatures  usually   ailment     bit   busmans holiday going     nice   close  tend see  every week  two  wednesday  vaccinated  couple  horses  trimmed   sheeps feet  went   joys  48 hourly surveillance inspections last year  somehow managed  come  unscathed  parish  one    ones   kirkby stephen area     weekend  went   glasgow  see  cousin     leaving party  didnt know many people     good  go   something completely removed   usual one   people   know came  stayed  penrith  sunday night    stunning day  went  lakes     best diary 24  week   first  four      rota   mean  nights   weekends  call cant  bad  monday   small tb test        pleasant farmer   cows behaved    wasnt  bad way  spend  morning hes imported  small herd  holland  seems  pleased    far  takes  bit time   f m farmers  get used   new stock     knew  old ones  well    whole people seemed fairly content   new ones   small animal ops  tuesday  wednesday  one   vets  usually     holiday weve got  new nurse starting  week     case  showing   ropes   seems     well one  best school friends got married  friday  typically   fairly quiet week  suddenly got busy  friday afternoon  managed  get  wedding    miss  afternoon reception  order  go  see  horse  appleby thats life   one   duty vets  lowther show  saturday  hadnt done       good time   generally fine weather     truly stunning teams  horses   driving event lots  competitors commented   good      show   running   last years cancellations  event passed without  major incident  vet wise     pretty calm day   really diary 25  weeks  fairly steady  seem      horses  anything else  didnt go  see  cow  friday several    ongoing cases   leg wounds   needed daily dressing changes   rest  selection  vaccinations lameness    arent quite right  quite enjoy  horse side   job    bit   usual    welcome change   planned  get  work   house  month   free evenings   doesnt really seem   worked like    know ive got  lot  free time nights tend  get booked  seeing people  home  near   ive temporarily lost touch  also seeing  summer seems   found us ive  trying  get   lakes  much  possible  house can wait till winter  weekend ive    wales  see  group  college friends  stayed   cottage owned  one   groups parents  played   rounds  golf  played  badly lost  lot  balls  became  frustrated     think  comes   lack  talent still   good  catch    people  havent seen since graduation  im sure  golf will  better next year diary 26 ive done  small animal work  anything else  week     disasters  fairly routine stuff one   small animal vets   away     cover  bit  didnt actually get  onto  farm  friday morning  gets  bit claustrophobic inside       good  get     call   weekend  also   college friend  stay    quiet    time  sunday evening   swapped duty      night  6 00pm  545 four calls  came      four corners   practice   didnt actually get finished  nearly 8pm thats  way  goes sometimes  suppose   another half day earlier   week    fairly quiet  took  bike    northern lakes    hours  blow away  cobwebs   inside  work diary 27    barbecue party  weekend  people  work   lot  friends  college    lot  people  thought id always keep  touch     time went   never    arranged  weekend  long way  advance  us   meet    28 people came     havent seen  least  year  two nobody seems   changed much    great  see     garden  house   taken  bit   pounding   think    mess  fairly superficial  went   walk near howtown today  clear  head   barbecue last night     good day weather wise  meant   lot  people     idea  us    variable week  work  days   quiet others flat  ive   ongoing case   young horse    caught   wire  monday evening   well beyond  stage      stitched   saw   itll   heal slowly  filling  wound  im sure itll  fine   going  take  long time  starting  get  lot  inquiries   new rules defra  bringing   allow farmers  bring animals    farms  isolation facilities   make things less restrictive   farmer   going      lot  inspections   since restocking checks last winter  weve really     sort  thing   checks probably wont   exhaustive       last year diary 28   fairly quiet week really    fairly standard mix  sick cows  couple  lame horses   continuation   young horse  wrecked  leg last week   going okay    fairly laid back   whole  time   coffee break   calls   done  first   inspections   new  farm isolation facilities  sheep   whole farmer compliance    good      whinges          can see    must  frustrating  suddenly  told   run stock movements  theyve always done  different way  can see  defra  insisting   though    aimed  reducing  risk   another situation like   last year      weekend one   old flat mates   wife came  stay  live  london  came north   weekend  clean living  fresh air  went  walks around cat bells  high street  saturday  sunday ate drank   generally fairly unstressed hope      looking  diary 29 ive   short week  terms  work   practice  week  ive   glasgow   equine conference  thursday  saturday  education   compulsory     formal structure     quite controversial   peoples eyes   royal college  vets  encourage us  keep   date    quota  asked  fulfil  year   three days will help  keep  track   several different courses   day  one lecture theatre  practitioner based subjects    expect  see   day  day basis  another called advanced clinical sessions  subjects  cases  obscure  youd  lucky  hear  one let alone see one     twice  didnt go  many   lectures  well   useful  terms  picking  new information   also  good chance  catch   old friends  college lots  people  hadnt seen   year  two      good  see   first three days   week  okay  went   tuesday morning  trim  lame cows feet  ended  accidentally trimming  skin   farmers thumb   hoof knife   bit embarrassing  felt  bad   didnt seem  fazed    hes   type  bear  grudge perhaps  shouldnt try  keep  knife  sharp another   weeks  interesting events   irish wolfhound  needed surgery  correct  twisted  distended stomach  fairly common   type  dog    real emergency another vet   operated    tuesday afternoon  took  couple  hours   far  seems    worth   hes done  well  apparently went home  friday diary 30  spent   monday afternoon evening irradiating   taking dozens  x rays   horses legs    sold   lot  money   insurance company wanted  check   joints  ok  insuring   took  lot longer  anticipated    difficult  get  positioned absolutely right   view   got    end     quite careful  exposure  x rays   x ray badge hasnt shown  high reading yet 2 vets     week one   honeymoon  one   away  ai  sheep  often  bit quieter now   seem    kept going    big routine fertility visit  one   dairy farms  wednesday one   main things     visits  manual pregnancy diagnosis    bad  dairy calves cows   theyre   calf   normally get another chance       beef farms   dairy cow   persistently  conceiving  sometimes  economic  get rid   cow  rather  persisting  theres  big incentive  us  get  right   least   say  cow isnt  calf    luckily    quite straightforward  week    last  going away   usa   fortnight  fly  new york tomorrow  meet    old flatmate  mine whos  journalist   im crossing  atlantic  see   hes given  directions   flat rather  meeting    airport  im arriving  premiership football   tv charming diary 31 two weeks   states cant  bad  flew  new york   stayed   friend whos working  manhattan    lot   usual tourist things empire state building boat trip around  island central park etc   size    relaxed place   lot  ways  feels  safe  although   loads going   never seem  get hassled  flew  new orleans   week supposedly   sun   deep south  landed just   tropical storm hit  mainland everything  closed  two days  bad  uk   snows   weather cleared   fine    went   tourists paddle boat   mississippi river    boat   louisiana swamps  look  alligators   bit  new orleans nightlife      days  new york  flying home diary 32 first week back  america   good trip   week   rather marred   death  one   hockey team   year mate  mine  school   tractor accident    hit   wagon    66  thursday  saw   wednesday night  hockey training    stiff  done  great north run   wife  weekend   didnt know   well  school   got    last  years via hockey   really   tremendously good person  will  much missed  lots  people   around kirkby stephen  weekends match  postponed   one   thought  playing   seems  trivial   sort  thing happens  couldnt  played anyway  im  duty  weekend  fortunately   fairly quiet  far  calving  2 caesareans   getting  calving season    par   course  first half   week  ok   even given  half day  tuesday  day   half  returning  holiday  went   walk   bottom end  derwent water   tried  sleep   jet lag diary 33  went  matthews funeral  tuesday  popular    reflected   number  people   arrived 25 minutes    due  start  still   stand    move    people tried  fit   chapel  almost seemed     kirkby  come   standstill  went  quite  long time     afternoon   went  see  parents  live near kirkby afterwards  cancelled hockey training  wednesday   seemed  soon  go   usual  decided play  scheduled match  saturday   team   opposition  two minute silence   match  ended  drawing 0 0      good close game  normally lose   team  played   competitive  fair spirit just   needed   first match back im actually  duty   weekend  one  colleagues covered      hours    go  play  cases  work   fairly steady  week im going  enrol    qualification  equine practice   next week  two im   reasonable amount  horse work   moment  will try    bit    next  months years   motivate   read   cases   find slightly  constructive ways  spend evenings  call diary 34 tb testing  biggest beef herd   post restocking test  week  600 cattle    done theres  way    done  one go      3 instead originally planned  two  ran   daylight   went smoothly   whole   least  well    expected  everything   cleared  negative  found   defra   weeks ago    actually  quite   tb cases   county since restocking  wed  clear  years previously  fmd   obviously  bit   worry  havent   cases   practice    cant stamp   new cases    found    matter  time   spreads  afield    get   county also means  will     testing   moment  begrudgingly accepted   farmers         can see    sense  humour failure   ultimately    interest  us  check   herd  free     big time commitment   dont get paid     spent two days testing  rest   week   bit  variety  saw  horses mainly lameness  also one  two   ailments    write  casebook   equine certificate im  im   lookout  suitable cases   rounds    weekend  played hockey  manchester   went  worcester  see  college friends    drive back via ely   trains  cancelled due   winds  meant  friend  stranded    direct route  cumbria diary 35  week started  monday morning  another tb test   restocking farm    big farm   one   late ones  get fmd  run    nice  quite intense family  son  taken re stocking  seriously   obviously thought    much   opportunity  start  scratch  try  eliminate    previous herd problems   consequently spent quite  bit  time advising    various vaccines available   relative pros  cons thankfully things seem   paying   far   problems  herd one   things   noticed   test    made one  two jokes  last year sorry forgotten exactly   said  thought  fact    able  now talk  fmd like      good sign   think     highly unlikely  year ago  wednesday afternoon  went   wigton  vet  horse   potential buyer   several minor things wrong    overall  seemed ok  always  responsibility vetting horses  someone  either trying  buy      basis    find   case  took quite  lot  convincing  buyer   imperfections    serious hopefully  wont subsequently turn     problem ive started   horse cases recently   tuesday sent   application form   accepted    exams  horse practice    wait  next year  find  whether ive  accepted  wont sit   2005     weekend  played hockey  manchester unfortunately  didnt win maybe next week saturday evening  went   kendal  see  old flatmate  lives  diary 36  tuesday  went  see  horse near carlisle   developed  swelling   lower jaw   fairly painful  touch     possibilities    likely      tooth root abscess  put    antibiotics  seeing    obviously  going     thought   worth taking  x rays   obvious destruction   tooth visible   x ray  probably means  needs removing    fairly major undertaking   horse      valuable creature still  training  thought  best  send  edinburgh vet school    done hopefully ill  able  go  see  done   day  twos time one   aspects drawbacks  really    vet   one  often asked  animal ailments   work im sure  happens  lot   jobs   mother   adept      really mind  elderly terrier   grew    started  one  two problems recently  suggested   possibilities  thought  best   went   local vets    looked   problem     bad tempered  terrier   couldnt safely blood sample      day   penrith     try  take blood    managed    less intact  fortunately  results seemed   less  order   least better   temper  general work   practice   fairly steady  week   farmers seem    quite   cows calving   moment    bit unseasonal   suppose  reasonable number tend  calve  year round  havent really got  calf pneumonia season yet   cant  long   start  keep us busy  will soon take   lungworm   main bovine respiratory problem  weekend    brought  victory   hockey match  start   winning streak perhaps  went   edinburgh   match  see   friends    start   week  wahey diary 37   week  cant  bad  didnt     planned due   unforeseen change  circumstances  still good     edinburgh last weekend  decided  stay    days   partly  see friends  also    referred  horse   bad tooth   mentioned last week voluntary work experience  time  dedication   rash  spent tuesday   vet school  edinburgh  one   old tutors  case   sent   successfully treated  far  removing  offending tooth    interesting  see       used  different technique   one weve used   practice  spent  rest   day    seeing  cases  felt  bit odd      student  came home  tuesday evening  went   kirkby stephen  see  folks  wednesday morning  spent    rest   week either   house  mine  things like stocking   firewood   winter sorting  house   making  start  stripping  wallpaper   hallway  normally go away   take time     actually  nice   things  home  change  made  quite  relaxing week   whole diary 38 back  work   good    week  last week  one   best things    work        never seem  feel reluctant  go back  work  think  must mean  enjoy    whole  tuesday  went back  see  horse     tooth removed last week    well   back  training   eating  well  soon   tooth came   amazing  animals often seem  deal  pain  stoically ill check   next week   things  well      tuesday afternoon  happened  see another slightly unusual case   horse   developed  lump   outside   cheek   closer inspection turned     large mass man inside  mouth  probably going     removed   come  next week     done  rest   week   usual mix   routine cases      farms  week    done     recently took   new dairy farm near appleby   went  see  cow    first time   first visit  always hope  something straightforward    easy  make  good first impression   occasion  cow   sick  wasnt really giving  many clues         treat    symptoms   showing  saw  twice  friday    saturday   evening     mend  never  reach  conclusive diagnosis   think  farmer  satisfied   fact    got better  spite   knowing quite   wrong    duty friday night  quiet   saturday apart   cow  mentioned   fairly easy going today  went   kirkby stephen  see  old friends staying   parents two weeks   tb testing itll change next week diary 39    fairly uneventful week  work  dont seem     particularly  going  notable cases   ways    bad thing   makes   fairly stress free time     can really switch     mean       fairly straightforward cases  see  possible  spend  time chatting   farmer owner without   work  hard finding whats wrong   patient  weeks  interesting case   horse  amazingly extensive arthritis   hind legs considering  age    terminal condition     implications     will  possible  use    future  situations like   can  quite difficult  give  client  right outlook  often expect  quick cure especially   young horse   tell    problem   present  months   years  will never completely go away can come   bit  shock  owner   case   sensible  seemed  taking   said  well   good thing   week   im    good run   duties ive    two nights  first call   phone hasnt gone   unusual   welcome  must  tempting fate ive   weekend     hockey match  saturday   lost   league leaders  avoided humiliation  rest   two days  spent trying  progress  decorating  hallway  friends come  stay  christmas  new year     young   spending weekends  decorating diary 40    good test   diplomacy skills  week   irate farmer   spent four hours   tb test    cold day     taken  one   half hours   rush  get defrosted   car afterwards  forgot  shut  gate   field    parked   return   surgery   greeted   news    rung wanting  head   stick  forbidding   ever setting foot   farm     tups  gone walkabout   gate id left open  advice   partners   practice  knew  better  gave   day  calm    wrote   grovelling letter   allowed  go back   end   week  read  test results  fortunately   clear  think hes forgiven  one    common cow operations     correct  displaced stomach   two   half years ive    practice weve always done  using one particular technique   circumstances  another method  indicated    seen   2 years   2  week   went well  far another two years   next  took  last day   2002  thursday   spent  decorating  thursday night    practice christmas meal  two vets  duty managed   get called     whole  think people werent  hung   friday last year    bit   debate   whether     christmas night    farmers  either just starting  restock  still cleaning   year   much  straightforward  friday night    annual night  hesket newmarket organised   local defra lab   local vets  want  meal  beers   good chance  catch    vets  neighbouring practices   informal atmosphere diary 41 ive   couple  vet students staying    week   knew      final year  edinburgh theyre  work experience  us   week    made  pleasant change    company      also acquired two stray kittens   last week  usual vet procedure  eventually finding  unwanted patient   cant resist taking    settling  ok  weve     one  two little discussions   benefits  using  litter tray rather   carpet  week  work   reasonably busy  good thing  week     three students    bit dull      nothing going     horse      week   severe respiratory infection  needed fairly intensive care  seems     mend now  may use    case  write   part   exam im hoping      years itll     new years resolution  get    writing  part   apart   horse    usual sort  mix   routine fertility visits  dairy farms   sick cows  horses etc    tb tests  week  ive managed  miss   must  saving    next year    lot  people  work   friday night  pre christmas mulled wine  mince pies im  quite sure  kittens knew   happening   think  rest  us enjoyed  ive   weekend   went   see  friend  birmingham  qualified last summer    second weekend  call   went  give moral support   call isnt stressful anymore   remember   first  times  difficult    aware   phone   time  hoping  doesnt ring  werent many calls     come   didnt need   suited  well diary 42  week  christmas   first job   week   replace  particularly contaminated uterine prolapse   cow  finally went back    hour    fairly fruitless efforts  festive  week  next   fewer vets  usual working  day       days   christmas new year   sometimes  bit busy   day  generally worth    extra time      monday night  went  kirkby stephen  see school friends back   holiday although  dont see    often   people dont really seem  change  much  good friend whose parents farm  f  m  sold    going  b b instead  think    hard decision  now  seen   quite relieved         duty  christmas eve  fortunately didnt   go   just  three phone calls  7  9 p m  people saying  dog  cat    food  periods varying  three weeks  10 days christmas eve seemed  odd time  notice   went home  kirkby stephen  christmas  boxing day  didnt really   much    look   couple  mums sheep       just  case   lazy  enjoying seasonal food  drink    duty  weekend  turned   fairly busy one   students  came  stay last week came back     call work  turned     useful  couple  cows  operate   caesar   displaced stomach  two pairs  hands  better  one  quite   small animals  see  diary 43 ive     week   new year tuesday  friday   pretty good going seen      christmas  well monday  fairly quiet  just   farm calls     small animals rather worryingly weve heard   local deer farm  one   customers  gone   tb apparently  quite   deer   herd    means  well    tb check tests     farms  neighbour  affected premises  new year  cousin  husband   five children young came  stay  wasnt  hectic   whole  just  occasional loss  humour  couple  friends  work came round  join us  new year  ive   work  weekend part   deal  getting four days  midweek    really   busy ive    second call       2 calls  far  easy return  work  new year excesses diary 44 back  normal quota  vets  work   week   good   seems     busy       usual sort  things   time  year cows starting  get lame    inside    months  metabolic problems probably related   poor silage last years summer rain created quite   farmers   large amount  2001 silage left   wasnt used  winter 2001 2002   hadnt restocked   whole  kept  well   many cases  better   crop  made last summer  fall    deer herd tb  arrived two neighbouring farms  test  week  first one  come back negative   relief   concerned    second one  friday  will read  tomorrow monday  farmers     concerned     understandable  hopefully groundless   lots  questions  asked along  lines        can answer      remind   bit  february 2001  fmd broke      sorts  queries   disease  progression etc  none  us really knew   didnt take long  us  know  answers     ive   weekend   hockey fixture list  started    christmas break  return  winning ways hopefully  continue diary 45  week   bad start  tb test   last friday produced two reactors  two inconclusive borderline reactors  means   farm isnt allowed  move   bovines     farm except directly  slaughter  licence  reactors  taken away  post mortem examination   inconclusive reactors  isolated  60 days   rest   herd  re tested  farmer   keen  get  inconclusive animals removed  well quite understandably   opinion    couldnt pose  threat   rest   herd apparently defra arent allowed     think largely due  financial reasons  fully appreciating  need  protect taxpayers money considering  much  spent  2001  think   potentially flawed argument perhaps  rules need   changed    im   epidemiologist  perhaps  dont actually pose  threat  farmer seemed  depressed     think  lot     feeling    stigma    farm  defra restrictions    also  aware   threat     neighbours   desperately keen  minimise   actually quite small   cows  still indoors   think people  still  much thinking   serious    neighbours  someone got fmd tb    different type  organism    question  getting people  understand   isnt  say     serious problem    day another farm   area    confirmed  tb   definitely progressing  cumbria depressing   can   follow defra instructions  testing  try  keep  top   one   colleagues tore  knee ligament last week  skiing  normally  mostly large animal calls seeing  hes now confined   practice  small animals ive taken  couple   farms   routine fertility visits   makes  change  spend time  farms  dont visit often although  hear  small animal nurses  quite keen  matt  get back    diary 46 one   dairy farmers    big outbreak  pneumonia   calves  week ive    farm  least  every day  week  tests weve done  usually pretty sensitive   failed  reveal    usual causes treatment seems    working   cases    others  hasnt lost   e none dead   loss  body weight   obvious     bit frustrating really hes   pleasant guy  hasnt said anything   treatments repeatedly fail  get expected  predicted results  cant help feeling   must  getting  bit sceptical    perhaps im just  paranoid   end   week  majority seem     mend  seeing   havent tracked   causative agent  hard  know  vaccination  recommend next year     tests  will come back  two weeks  may   revealing  midweek   one   fairly common operations  correct  twisted stomach   cow surprisingly    first time  dairy farmer   one done   took  convincing     good idea  persuaded someone  pay   procedure  always feel   bit  pressure  usual fortunately  went pretty well   cow   far  well    second call  weekend  turned    pretty quiet  think  must    lull  lambing really kicks  lets enjoy    lasts diary 47     testing last week    turn   week  wasnt  big one   30 cows     bit  risky  usual     herd  beef longhorns     long horns whilst trying  manoeuvre    crush  inject  necks  tuberculin  always    ready  take evasive action   made  sudden turn  dont think  ever tried  use  horns aggressively     big   become dangerous weapons    just moving normally   turned   one received  injuries   importantly  test  negative  week also brought  first lambing   year  people  done       first    couple  farms  lamb early   early lamb sales  seems  hard work   time  year   early prices  seem  make  worthwhile give  another week  two   sure theyll start  become  frequent  took friday      get  london  4 pm  get   eurostar  go skiing typically  one day   year   country ground  halt  thursday night friday  managed  make   waterloo station   find  station  chaos   eurostars   cancelled due  snow  france  least   just britain  cant cope     assured  none  run  24 hours  suddenly told us  board  1 hours late  pleasant surprise  ended  arriving  val disere  time  loads  snow  blue skies  tried  spare  thought  whoever   call  weekend  managed  just diary 48   weather almost prevented us  reaching val disere    clear   first  days    snow returned  three days  couldnt  much   time    mean    fantastic conditions   last  days    group  29  completely filled one large chalet      major skiing injuries within  group   think  good time     diary 49 back  work  week im never reluctant  go back   week   sometimes dare  say  even look forward   must   good sign apparently last week  ok  work   major dramas  still havent found   tb cases   screening continues   time one   rules  re stocking herds compared  herds  missed fmd    bovines  42 days old    tested rather  just  adults last year   werent many calves around  didnt make much difference  now  farms   least  years worth  calves  place  doubles  size   tests often calves wont fit  crushes    wild   can get quite exciting  seems  necessary policy though one   reactors  found   weeks ago   six month old stirk ive   fairly quiet week ive   couple  nights  duty    quiet theres  horse near carlisle   think ive mentioned    recurrent tooth problem  thought wed finally sorted    week  developed  problem  one   tendons   foreleg   bit disappointing   owner    bought  horse recently  order  compete    high standard   seems  permanently  training  one ailment  another  dont think   serious  hopefully  another week  two shell  back  work ive    weekend came second   weekends hockey match  real case  defeat  snatched   jaws  victory  went   walk around  great gable scafell area  sunday afternoon   amazing  much snow  ice  still left   winter weather  week   ago maybe  neednt  bothered going abroad diary 50  found another positive tb case  friday    test  tuesday    large beef herd   restocking farm including calves  must   just  400 cattle     one reactor  friday  two inconclusives    possibility     false positive  farm    big problems  something called  johnes disease   caused   similar type  bacterium   one  causes tb    small possibility   cow carrying johnes disease cross reacting   tb test injection  actually blood sampled   adult cows  tuesday  screen  herd  johnes  order  try  start eradicating   herd itll  interesting  see whether  positive test cow will  positive  johnes ultimately  doesnt really make much difference   short term  farms  placed  restrictions   affected cow   taken   post mortem one   colleagues found another positive reactor   different farm  friday  well thats three farms   practice now  around 50 60 within cumbria  big worry now     longer  stays around   likely inevitable   disease will get  wildlife reservoirs deer  perhaps badgers depending  whether  believe  badgers   influence   time will tell  im sure  going  keep us busy  several years    lot     test  monday  well   small farm  ive never     least testing  one way  getting   small farms  dont often need us  one   clear  remainder   week  spent   usual work lambings still  quite got  full swing although   seeing  slow increase   number  sheep  brought   surgery diary 51  tb testing    week    positive cases   practice  first case   found back  january  confirmed  carrying tb  week though although  bad news   farmer   quite reassuring  know   tests  methods  use  detect carrier animals reasonably accurately  week   fairly busy without ever getting  hectic  operated   cow  tuesday    number  reasons didnt go quite  smoothly   might  done  subsequently didnt   well post operatively    normally expect  coming week  see  improvement  hope  can never give cast iron guarantees   outcome  surgery    quite rare   op  fail  fingers crossed  monday    see  horse  colic earlier   week    first visit     suspicious    going  require surgery  correct  owner wasnt prepared   happen though     question  trying  manage  medically  euthanizing   wasnt  undue pain   gave   go medically  much   pleasant surprise   next  hours  visits    well just goes  show     knowing     interesting  know whether    surgical condition  somehow righted   whether    medical case  along  simply appeared  something  serious    work   hour    saturday morning  small animal consultations     rest   weekend   came second   hockey match     went   edinburgh  catch    college friends  havent seen    diary 52  week  really seen  start   lambing season  sheep every day  every  day  weve  seeing   last month    turned  one every  hours   day    night   cases  encouraging  farmers  still bringing   calling us   many feel  sheep arent worth paying vet fees   obviously creates  welfare problem  many situations  inappropriate  inadequate treatment  sometimes provided   farmer  said   can see   take  attitude   spending money    prices  often  low   aspect  lambing time   nights get  busy  monday    ewe caesarean  2am   horse   just foaled  315    hour    bed    sick cow  620 although  can   bit tiring   whole cases  see   hours    run   mill routine things     least make  interesting  isnt always  first thing   mind   phone rings  3am unfortunately  cow  operated  last week failed  improve     re operate  monday   far  ideal   carries  much higher risk  infection  first time operation somewhat   surprise  seems     well now cows seem   amazingly resilient  id  abdominal surgery twice   mucky cow byre im sure  wouldnt cope  well     op   different farm later   week  went much better id  getting worried   technique  two   row went wrong ive worked saturday morning  supposedly just   hour   turned   two   half  things kept coming   went   edinburgh   hockey came second   see someone whos left  job  go around  world  six months diary 54  beginning   week saw  visit   horse    chronic episode  laminitis  hoof condition   horses case   become  severe  really beyond  point  treatment  feasible euthanasia   best option   horse      lot  pain unfortunately  owner   reluctant    wanted  carry   treatment  sort  situation  crop   time  time   difficult   concerned   end  told  owners   thought  chances  recovery   let  make  decision    continue treatment hopefully ill  proved wrong   horse will recover   cant really see  happening  saw another case later   week  ended  going  liverpool university  surgery    small pony   managed  cut   severely  barbed wire horses always find something  injure      risk    penetrated  joint   sent   liverpool   flushed  far   know    well  far  rest   workload  week    usual stuff   time  year loads  lambing   tb tests negative generally kept busy  friday  went  edinburgh    days course  equine neurology  knew    speakers   delegates      student    good  see people    learnt   things  horses brains  nerves saturday   last hockey match   season  draw  didnt win  league   stretch   imagination   werent last either diary 55 another manic spring week goes  ive   duty  weekend   two  us  call  done  many calls   last two days  eight vets  expect    two week days   summer  havent  bored  didnt leave  practice building  lunchtime  saturday     constant flow  small animals  see     sheep brought   lambing problems  eventually left  130 p m  go  operate   cow   twisted stomach   meant   done  11   op went  ok     straight back   surgery    caesarean   whelping bitch   help   student   seeing practice  us    9 pm    variety  sick cows sheep  lamb   calf  lead poisoning   far end  ullswater      nice drive    hadnt    rush  top things     cow caesarean  9 pm    useful   student  help  day  think    bit   eye opener   sunday morning gave    caesareans sheep  time variety   spice  life  cat    mysteriously lost  leg overnight perhaps caught   trap    incredibly good health otherwise  amazing  animals can withstand   good supply   calls  keep    mischief   actually  quite enjoyable despite   hectic   think    cases   quite successful  always helps  rest   week seems  distant memory    whole          slower pace   another small tb test   negative anyway  night  tonight  need  pint diary 56 monday morning   60 day re test   first herd   found tb     sunny day    whole  test went  smoothly  farmers buildings  getting  overcrowded though      movement restriction due   tb first day started well    animals  giving negative readings   came  dreaded reaction   injections  gave   first day   four reactors  total three    borderline       obvious  frustrating thing    obvious one   borderline reactor last time  defra refused  take    isnt   policy  take inconclusive reactors found   routine test  means   animal   actually infected  left  premises  potentially infect  animals  farmer  tried  point   two months ago   avail   now vindicated   view     much consolation   fact   restrictions    continued   may well probably will  fact now   carriers  wont  found   next test  60 days time  reason   initially taking inconclusive reactors   save money   paying   animals   slaughtered  arent actually infected  cases like   seems    real false economy  doesnt win defra friends   farming community tuesday  wednesday  week  mainly horse jobs  horse   recurrent tooth problem  ive mentioned  came    x rays  finally seems    ok  competing  germany   week  two    hope  stays ok  weekend  went   walk   lakes  one   old flatmates  edinburgh  weather held   amazingly hot   time  year almost got sunburnt diary 57 ive   final year student  edinburgh staying    week  shes seeing practice  us final exams  looming   think  stress levels  rising   easy  think    things  dont know   think weve   less managed  convince     know enough     liability   qualifies  saw  interesting incident   call   early   week id gone  replace  uterine prolapse   cow  went okay   farmer  asked   falsely certify  cow  can give certificates  cows  30 months  age   bse scheme   farmers  compensated  cow    put   wasnt 30 months  another four days   understandably quite upset    let  know   sort  thing    nightmare  anyone  especially someone just starting  want  please  farmer  make  good impression   also  responsibility   abuse  ability  use  signature   end  explained   couldnt   certificate    calm  im sure vicky will  similar situations   long diplomatic  well  clinical skills develop  quickly   practice another interesting case came   thursday  year old foal needed emergency surgery   hernia  luck       first relatively quiet morning    weeks    enough vets  hand    surgery  anaesthetic  op went well   horse  gone home  weekend ive   second call  weekend  things   busy   unmanageable   2 belgian blue caesareans   space  six hours  one farm yesterday  since   just   reasonable stream  calls rather   madness  two weekends ago diary 58 following  going    course  neurology   weeks ago  case came   week   often   see neurological cases   quite  coincidence  think  must   kind  tumour   brain causing   show  various signs   unfortunately   way  firmly diagnose    post mortem     neurological cases end   alas  fear  one will   went    fertility check  one   dairy farms  tuesday  vet  normally   away   looked  bit put    turned   think hope  managed   abort    cows   seemed  cheery   time  left  suppose  understandable  farmers tend  want continuity   vet comes work continues    busy  indication   increase  daily workload   weve   introduce  specific messages book  work  theres  longer room  write people messages   day book    full  appointments  used     days   year   pages   day book  full  first day  fmd  penrith  one call   week 4 days   full  got    good sign really    think ive said    stop us   getting bored ive  three days   easter friday sunday  two friends   two mad dogs    stay  cats   impressed  good friday  went  plaice fell  accidentally brought us   much  direct route   intended      away  time   garden   patterdale hotel lifes hard yesterday  left  bank holiday crowds   lakes  went   walk   eden valley didnt see  soul  amazing  difference   miles can make  suppose  hasnt got  hills  isnt  famous   scenery  still pretty impressive  lets  tell anyone    might stay quiet  bank holidays diary 59    duty  easter monday   wasnt  hectic  fact   almost unbelievably quiet   three  us  duty bracing    usual spring onslaught      two calls     morning weird   sometimes turns  like  lambing  definitely quietening  now  5 10 lambings coming   day  turning  2 3  mostly fell sheep lambing now  tend   easier  lamb     need  farmers assistance  starting  get   horse castration season weve   odd one  two   last  weeks     five  week one   colleagues   next     terms  experience    started   together whereas   years ago    always    least one   partners  one  us  must  improving tb testing seems   calmed   bit    practice  pretty much   date     farmers start  turn  cows  theyll become  reluctant      way  spreading   county though    try  keep   date     really  going  get   hand ive   weekend     sisters birthday yesterday   went  meet    folks  lunch  sat outside  enjoyed  april sun  nice    farmers   wanting rain  dont hear  often  april   sun suits  fine    odds   bucketing   june  silage time diary 60 one   big dairy farms    big outbreak  ibr  week one   main respiratory viruses   whole  doesnt cause death   normally containable   occasion however  seems     virulent strain   caused  number  deaths   great deal  lost production  terms  lost milk  calves  thriving towards  end   week  went  shot three cows   terminally affected seeing three dead  bleeding cows   yard obviously reminded  farmer        whole herd shot    place  fmd     moved   sight  quickly  think  worst   outbreak   now    cows   vaccinated theres  one vet  junior qualified  less time     practice  started  year   ago  week  went    colt castrate together one surgeon one  anaesthetist   first time weve  done  lot   vets     first time weve  let loose   pair everything went  smoothly   looks  though  bosss confidence trust wasnt totally misplaced  friday morning    big dehorning session  one   beef farmers  fairly non cerebral type work   ok   change every now     farmer   pretty amenable sort  guy     said   weather     fairly laid back mornings work    afternoon   drove   edinburgh     bit   reunion  recent graduates   vet college    lot  people havent seen   long time    interesting  compare notes        diary 61  last weekend  edinburgh    come back  work  bank holiday monday   fairly manageable   whole   three  us  duty   morning   work  steady without ever getting  hectic    first call  1pm   surgery closed   remained fairly quiet   evening     sudden run  calls   came  one    rather  building   much  tuesday    60 day re test   second herd  cattle    previously found  reactor    big herd   took  day  get  done theyve   bit unfortunate  brought  several  diseases apart   suspected tb   re stocked one    enteric condition called johnes disease   chronic wasting problem   notoriously difficult  eradicate itll take years  blood testing  careful record keeping  get rid    frustrating      planning   post fmd period   disrupted  tb test showed   reactors  time  3 cows  inconclusive results  will    re tested   almost certainly   result   cows carrying antibodies  avian tb  causes  signs  disease  cows  disrupts  bovine tb test   good example    badly need   specific method  testing  tb   worked    moment  hopefully well get one one day  senior partner  work  supervising another vet      equine qualification  im enrolled   wednesday  came  spend  day  neil    equine anaesthetics   mainly castrates   operated  neil went   anaesthetics   student    useful  hear    detail     easy  get   habit  knowing  drugs work   dosages   actually really thinking    work   theyre better   drugs   use  useful day    made  realise ive got  lot     next  years diary 62 things  still remaining  busy  work lambing  pretty much finished now   work doesnt seem   easing  partners  decided  need another vet  help things along  final year student  edinburgh came   interview  week   looks  though hell get  job  will mean   rota will improve  hopefully will   quite  hectic   starts following  fantastically dry spring  now  wet   farmers    tearing  hair     first cut  silage  going   gathered  dry hopefully well get  dry spell  soon  ease  worries  found  potential case  write    equine casebook  week   mare  managed  get caught   wire  tear  big hole   shin   lower leg   big  defect  stitch  itll   heal   lot  bandaging  perhaps  skin grafts  always amazes   horses managed  give    horrendous injuries  fields   really doesnt seem    opportunity   clumsiness perhaps maybe  just enjoy pain  doubt    quite  bit  scanning  mares  pregnancy   moment  another thing  ive      year    past   bit daunting  times     lot  things  really  case  practising   much  possible   end   stud season itll hopefully  fairly straightforward  drove   oxford  friday evening  work  see  sister cousins friends  live    seemed  longish drive    well worth   catch     one   things  working weekends    makes weekends   much  appreciated diary 63    pleasant weekend     truly delightful first job  monday morning  cow   losing weight   last month also  reason  found       dead calf inside    spent  first hour   week pulling  bone  bone    fairly revolting job  wasnt actually something   especially resented  must mean im happy   work  perhaps just  bit weird   another fairly grim job later   week    called   4  m   foaling  foal  stuck half    dead   time  got   eventually managed  get  foal   initially  mare seemed ok  deteriorated   next 48 hours  eventually    euthanased thats just  way  goes sometimes   successful case came later   week   saw  foal   acutely lame  looked  first  though  might   infected elbow   taking samples   joint fluid   x rays  looked  though   actually  traumatic injury  stayed    hospital  four days   time  seemed  improve quite  bit   thoroughbred   good racing line hopefully   rest itll make  full recovery  win  grand national  2008    whole   bank holiday weekend  six college friends came  stay   weekend  cumbrian fresh air   pretty gloomy forecast  weather turned   well    went   lake district walk  day    pretty relaxed time except   cats four dogs also came  stay  didnt impress  cats  spent  whole time hiding   room diary 64  week started   tb test   small re stocking herd   bought  cattle   farm  subsequently tested positive  tb one   cattle   farm   tested positive   farm   weeks test   60 day re test     clear  time   obviously  relief   seeing     positive   farm last time  probably    another test  60 days  now  restrictions  lifted  farm isnt  big    tb restrictions  awkward    crippling     larger farms    room  relaxing  rules   moment though  recent news  ireland  says  think theyve proved  link  badgers makes  even  important  get    cumbria   gets  wildlife although  may well already   late    two testing days  week  seemed    lot  horse cases  wednesday  spent    day touring around cumbria seeing horses  wigton cockermouth  bassenthwaite    sunny day     pleasant way  spend  day great scenery  look  outside   driving  cases going  way   hoping   bad way  work ive   call  weekend     quiet  far yesterday  steady   reasonable number  calls  none stacking  ive done 2 cattle caesareans    farm  weekend one yesterday morning  seemed like  huge calf   one    morning   truly  freak    biggest calf    farmer  seen    result  selecting  extreme confirmation  beef breeds   pose serious welfare issues   cows    give birth naturally     fairly major abdominal surgery instead well never persuade farmers   though   consumer wants cheaper food  cheaper beef  made  bigger beef calves   seem tough   cows though      cynical diary 65  thought   interesting  see  much people still  willing  talk    2001   meeting  wednesday night   lot   conversation  routed around  subjects   come     last 18 months  often came back  talk  events  individual experiences   outbreak   stories must   told  dozens  occasions  people still want  tell    right time opportunity comes   included    many themes     come     electronic tags sheet   seems impossible  comment       seem  relevant   others   much trust   category  comes    couple  headings one   headings     knowledge  think    one    significant changes since fmd  far   farmer vet relationship  concerned defra  gone   eyed   suspicion  overt distrust  resentment   whole  dont get  much flack  veterinary gps       defra allocated jobs   tb testing   sometimes  general feeling    another task  try  wear    sent   authorities another regulation   caused huge resentment   whole animal movement licensing system   much easier now  causes fewer problems   year   ago    source  much stress    try  act  intermediary  farmers  defra  keep  sides happy  damage done   farmer defra trust will take  long time  ever  start  repair hopefully  trying      side  defra seem    trust    us   preserved    quietish week  work maybe  theres   bit  silaging going    farmers havent got time  routine work   time    bit quieter  summer lull hasnt materialised   yet  year  fact  taking  another vet  ease  workload   mention  last week   meantime  nice   time  draw breath  enjoy  sun   day  two diary 66  week seems   gone   pretty quickly maybe   im  holiday next week   thought    spurring    fly  split tomorrow   week  sailing   croatian coast   college friend   relatives itll   change  cumbria one   big dairy farmers  away  thailand  week  farm  left   run   usual workers   brother  mother despite   felt    take  mobile phone      rung twice   week   asked    done   couple  sick cows  suppose  either demonstrates extreme dedication   inability  forget  work       also shows  committed  lot  farmers      just  job    farms get bigger  concept    cows  individually known   farmer    friends becomes increasingly unrealistic    majority  cases theyre  just milk making machines   cared  pretty well   hard  see     hard  people  lose  herds    bit quieter  work last week  suddenly seems   become  hectic  work   week  havent   particularly time consuming jobs just lots  sick cows horse calls   usual mix  animal ailments  better   busy  quiet though  think  need  holiday  ill keep  phone switched  diary 67  week  work  go sailing  croatia easy life  meeting    boat   rest   group  starigrad  sailed  vis   fairly direct head wind   took quite  bit  tacking    bit   rough ride  also  stupidly underdid  sunscreen  managed  burn  back  careless   got less uncomfortable   week went   spent two nights  vis harbour   others   already  sailing   week wanted  rest  used    military island    definite signs   around although   obviously developing  now rapidly growing tourist trade  vis     hvar   anchored   small inlet   miles   town   night   went  hvar town   look around  castle   hill   impressive   town still feels  though   relatively unspoilt   moment  last couple  days  spent making  way slowly back  split  actually spent  last two days  split     strong northerly wind brewing       bit rough      uncle    skipper  board    croatia   last three years  said    noticeably  busy  year  seems  shame  spoil    tourist facilities    contributed    built  going  hopefully  wont   dramatically changed diary 68  week started  9am monday   tb test  one    basic run  farms  go     first time id    three   half years  working    dont make huge use   veterinary services one   bullocks  7 years old   casually asked   plans     seeing    missed  30 months cut  time  human consumption   told   just kept   friend   bull  test   slow   cattle handling facilities    best   planet    pleasant people  talk    soon became apparent     little time  defra nothing unusual   son  one   people     firearms confiscated  making threats   start  fm d  still felt resentful   way  police became involved   way   ultimately given  choice    came    farm  check  stock fortunately   cattle  negative  tb     need   add   distrust  defra  putting    restriction  rest   week   fairly steady theres  enough going   keep us busy without ever  frantic  horse  saw last week   neurological problem  become  bit worse   gone  edinburgh vet school  see one   neurologists    seemed fairly confused    well     say  found quite reassuring  weekend   bit   strenuous side  cousin    keen cyclist persuaded     good idea    big cumbrian yorkshire bike ride  went  penrith  alston  barnard castle  tan hill refreshments  kirkby stephen  penrith  saturday   recovered  sunday  seemed like  good idea   time    really feeling  now diary 69 looking back     quotes   recovery section   notes   meeting  noticeable  easy    forget   least    ones mind  much  affected  lot people  almost hard  remember  much   affected    know      unpleasant tasks   supervising slaughters  day  day work  often  frustrating   felt people overseeing  work  offices didnt really know    like   field   feel now    whole  work  finished life pretty much went  maybe  isnt actually  true reflection       just     detailed memories  fading often things dont seem  bad   actually    look back    know plenty  clients colleagues  friends whose lives  completely overtaken  fmd  perhaps mine     remember   also feel     people   remember   heavily affected  now   less completely   one   farms  went   week lost  son   road accident  two months  getting fmd  think  farmer  ready  give  everything   apparently  left  cleaning    farm  took  interest  anything time obviously helped  hes  back milking    sic last year   half   still changes though  seems  much quieter   laid back now   cow isnt  calf  things dont go quite right  doesnt seem  get stressed now      done work    bit quieter  week    expect   time  year one   farms  put  pedigree belgian blue embryos   limousin cross heifers  theyre starting  calve now   need caesars   calves  almost  big   heifers  produce    thing   said      can     sensible time  day rather   two   morning   know  theyre due diary 70 one   five categories  raised   meetings last month  trauma  one   subsections   chart  sounds smells visions sights  probably   frequent reminder  fmd now   certain bits  road   memories  example driving north   m6 just south  penrith   possible  count smoke plumes   20 pyres  one stage  fine days  always reminds      drive  stretch one farm   remains   pyre   started   built  never finished even things like driving across two lines  tar across  road   held   disinfectant mat people  didnt live    time wouldnt even notice    seems quite significant   rest  us  doesnt really bother   just   reminder   went    times  seems odd  quickly things  gone back  normal even something  simple   road  mud  animal muck    2001    stuck  like  sore thumb    warranted urgent action now im used  driving  dirty car   clean  sometimes    roads caked  dirt  difficult  imagine   farmers kept  clean two years ago    obviously    reminders people never tire  talking      day  day visions  places    regular work    bit quieter  week     caesar   cow    truly ridiculously enormous calf  need  move away  breeding continental beef breeds  go back  nice compact jerseys  aberdeen anguses  also saw  unusual neurological case   horse   uncoordinated   poor balance   kind  case  brain spinal scan   useful   facilities arent really available  horses  will  interesting  see   goes   next  days diary 71  last diary  18 months seem   gone  quickly things seem  much back       odd  think back    going    first started writing   think   pretty much   swing   restocking checks   endless blood sampling  sheep  last restocking checks     16 months ago  seems far longer although  say things  back     im sure   actually  lot  differences  just   dont notice   im used   things  now  practice  become  lot busier  october well    nine full time  two part time vets pre fmd   seven full time  two part time    increase  equine  small animal       farm practice part    directly linked  fmd eg  tb testing due  re stocking tests  re stocking  brought tb   county  factors arent  obvious   unquestionably fmd related  restocked farmers went back   stock   originally   overall   greater density  stock around  animals means  sick animals  means  calls   vet   shame   ways  see  small traditional farms  forced    hard  see   can manage  margins get smaller  larger neighbours get  stock   land fmd   way   several   smaller farms    bought   neighbours  none  sold  single units  ive said  recent weeks  time  year  usually quiet   become  bit less frantic recently   traditional summer lull hasnt materialised ive   vet  four years  last three   just   interesting  challenging       professionally  socially   point  view  living  penrith obviously fmd  devastating effects  thousands  people many     friends   whole  see   residual scars   still talked   less  less  time goes    one farmer  actually said   think  hindsight     good thing   im  sure   ever say    brought  much stress  sadness   many people     happened  think  much   benefit  hindsight im glad     chance   involved     start    recovery"                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       
## [2] "information  diarist date  birth 1966 gender f occupation group 6 geographic region north cumbria diary 1 monday   usual long hard grind  accept     put  10 12 hours   dont mind   work    physically  mentally taxing    hate    lunch break just  little bit  selfish time  site   cigarette take  dogs   river see  horses whatever   resent  fact  w one   bosses almost always gets  lunch hour b   boss  gone  tremendously   opinion   way   gets    work  starts early finishes late hates derfa paperwork  rarely complains   definitely grinding     work like   least 4 days  week     huge advantage  last year  part time  work  days  obviously arent     used      get away   phone   demands  clients    clients   selfish   hadnt noticed   seem  think     ones   hassles  defra  remember saying  one complaining  problems  licensing    lucky   problems   one licence  first day  movement licenses came   applied  26  received  explanatory notes  defra    complete  paperwork 4 days later anyway managed   three final visits  complete    paperwork  9pm kirkby stephen  buzzing today  auction reopened   cattle sale  main street  full  shiny farmers  fish  chips   back lane  full  shiny  new land rovers  trailers trailers mostly new  fact mc told    soon   heard  bloods  come back clear restocking  washed  changed  went   mart  said    first time   felt clean since  day   infected  felt ok  go among  farmers  surprised      easy going  takes    stride   still says fmd    terrible  testicular cancer  hes right ad  one    final visits  doesnt give  bugger  anything happy  become  flower power farmer  doesnt care much   sheep  individuals   just numbers just  well    batch  bought  wales  sheep   legs  teeth  cant see  lasting long pissed    missed bryan adams concert  newcastle couldnt finish  time  join  bus  rest   lassies   brilliant time   least tracey benefited   ticket   go back   work  next day  finish  defra reports  fax   went  playgroup  talk  pets took  dog lurcher  childs rabbit dodgy combination     kids seemed   pets     lot   referred  granddads dogs  uncles cat   left college  pet population  increasing whats going  happen   next 15 years sister phoned worried   horse   haematuria im worried     tumour  feel  far away  helpless  things like  happen even though   lives  yorkshire im sure   help  whatever  outcome   lived closer  fact  think  miss  family  now   ever   dont know    age   thought  m   60    didnt see  much   last year  just    son now  can understand  mothers families feel  miss sisters   still dont phone  much  always think theyll  busy  can talk  mam three  four times  week  half  hour   time without thinking twice  must get fed  hearing  go     work etc   loves hearing   every tiny detail  sons antics  achievements will broached  subject   partnership   dont know   think   obvious thing      years ago    taken  hand   even 10  20 im just   excited          change will   better  will    better vet  will  spend  much time  figures  paperwork will  become  commercially aware   want  change can   bothered   extra hassle   ok    career   wife im trying    sometimes badly diary 2 mondays  shite  starts  busy  gets worse  cant   time management  bit better   look    might finish around 630  one stage   afternoon    called    calf  didnt really need  visit  6pm  night w said never mind youll  picking son  anyway  childminder lives   next door farm  hasnt got  clue   picked son      anges   8 hours  feel guilty enough  hes away   8 hours partner always picks    530    cope    well   get home   hard work    us   full day  work  partner  usually knackered  ready  peace  quiet   gets home   tired hungry wee lad anyway  ended    farm tour  night farmer   proud   new pedigree belgian blues   new shed hes  lucky  get    commercial stock   father     idea   past history hes  nice lad    producing  stunning beef calves    taken   least hes young enough  get going   hasnt said much  loosing  stock   havent asked    chat   aunt one day     upset   upsets   hate  people get emotional like   start filling    got back  find  sheep caesarean still   waste  time premature lambs  born alive 3   dead   finished stitching  uterus   put  tin hat   day  assistant   mother  prattled  nothing much   way   op    head     century away     outlook   still come away feeling     one   got   wrong maybe    dinner   table  shirts ironed etc  dont want   like  though   cant even sympathise   even though  lost   sheep im sure  must  taken  badly   dont think   ever let  feelings show  public something   way  spoke suggested    forcing   put  brave face  look forward probably    sons sake watched rural lives   tuesday cr came  well  though  couldnt help  snigger   slaughter team  discussing one   clients  made  kids carry away  dead piglets  theyd  slaughtered  team thought   terrible   knew  kids   help   farm  know   pigs go  kill  family even started   little slaughter house  cutting plant  fmd  dont think  kids   horrified sad maybe   felt sad   last year sad   healthy animals culled  sad   people caught    mess one disease   cure  worse mostly though  get angry   hear  talk  fmd  get angry  defra let us    politicians got  closely involved nothing happened fast enough  didnt seem   able   anything  knew  little  struggled  get reliable information  still get wound  thinking      marginalised  defra  felt     us   farmers versus derfa   three groups versus fmd  rumours  abounded just magnified  feelings  talked  length  fmd defra etc within  practice    clients    still talk    day even now  many things  unresolved   lost faith  defra especially since  changed  name    agriculture now  im glad    ignorant  politics   long     shining lights   government im heartily sick  authority interfering  regulating stuff thats going along quite nicely let  interfere  stuff thats  harm bad farmers need  shake  sheep dealers need  think   animal welfare   way things  going  good guys  toe  line will end  following   rules  regulations set   sort   bad guys  will  bother diary 3 possibly  best bit   week  sunday   eventually  13 months got back   horse  15 minutes    nerve wracking  thought  might just throw       tense actually     felt     forgotten   ride  stayed   field thinking    safer    two horses  flying   annoy us im  frustrated   havent  able  get  fit   start   endurance season theres  way wed  able  go   first ride  ullswater  theres  one   cumbria  year due  fmd    thought    still  curtailed  fmd    year   young horse   interested  saddle  bridle   put       ok  first   frightened  move      realised   ok  monday    strange request  go  hold  old pony   knacker  shoot  owners just didnt want   around    lovely morning   led     bite  grass   arrived   barely manage  breathe  swallow    time  cant believe   tumours  taken hold   since  turn   year mr  couldnt tell  wife  diagnosis initially   hadnt got  losing   pedigree sheep    taking  people  long time  get   loss  think  easier  get  losing  animal      one  helps  keep  focussed   living rather   dead  farmers havent  able  get restarted    ready      c d requirements anyway  knacker man told  good tales theres   nutters  shooting animals  even   guns taken   poor lad  given  days notice   knackey   part   slaughter team       paid  normal wage   boss collected   defra rate      good talking   probably   dont really know   didnt feel    upset    wasnt like  client   lost animals sometimes  hard  know   say  people get upset sometimes  enough  listen one    awkward situations  found    talking   farmer  lost  stock     depressed  started crying  cows   gone  see   gone last year   wouldnt    problems  also   unable  sell sheep   farm  completely overstocked overgrazed   little silage left  couldnt understand    still overstocking     sold sheep  cattle  restocking   slaughter quite easily   last  months maybe  just couldnt face  hassle  getting licences  maybe hes just  far   think straight  usually mention  sort  thing  b  w   think  important  everyone   practice knows whats happening  just   patients  also   clients diary 4    honour  completing  final final visit today    one   neighbours  soulby   surveillance visits poor lol couldnt find  defra paperwork     looking   files  found copies   valuation report    old cows   think  brought   back hes trying hard  move    understand   bitter since  whole  good milking herd  taken   dc  think  may  survived   infection  half  mile away   cows   ip land joined  watched  load   cows  coal wagons  s saturday afternoon  fact   midnight   last de tox wagon left  can   clean   cant even get  wellies clean   dark  hes worrying   new cows coming  holland  thinks   long way    travel   cant wait    arrive unlike  wife  thinks    restocking  going  fast  felt apprehensive    fortnight ago   feeling  subsiding  day  day normality  work  returning sheep  permitted  visit  surgery  treatment      much  normal march  wed  last year even though   still thousands  sheep missing   practice farmers  still bringing  lambs  value  stock  obviously   prime concern  theres life theres hope  wouldnt see ewes  lambs     cost  treatment versus  animals value  weighed   worried      flare  around lambing time theres  chance     fell sheep  exposed  fmd  theres  risk  virus recrudescence  times  stress    thinking    made   lambing  wed definitely  ok  weather  cheered    week everybody smiles    sunny  tempting  think  days  home  holidays   weathers  nice diary 5  forgot  april fools day   first time ever    busy  work       bank holiday  anything else   resent working bank holidays  monday   day    call b  offer      day     caesarean   cow  lambing  130   another call  6   hed  knackered enough   pay    days work    fair   give  days work   phone rang early tuesday   felt   id    bed 2 hours   regretting  passing   night duty  belgian blue calving caesarian mentally checked  kit   car  driving  ks definitely caesarean  shouldnt breed   cows  theyre  mature  getting loads  bother   new stock never mind  proper veterinary work anyway  heifer   right bag started  lying    doped    got    got  calf    tried  lye    wound peritonitis  follow  doubt  warned  farmer      calm   maybe none  us  really awake   made partner late  work    left holding  baby    well late setting   see  sister sister sister didnt mind  partner s bosses said   ok   still felt guilty   great time  sisters   bit  touristy stuff  found  really nice book  mams birthday  mrs herdie  used  holiday near home mam   watercolour     book   wildflowers  sister phoned  say horse  worse  think sister    wanted  go  yorkshire   heard  upset   sisters   close  twins   can understand  sister s going    horse  deaths door  didnt want us  go  said   drank  much red wine instead  watched  start  papillon good film    knackered though  stamina gives   lot sooner   influence  alcohol mams birthday   queer day  rare   get  chance  spend time     siblings  home     lovely day apart   fact     waiting  hear   going  happen  sister  phoned  say hed  put  bladder tumour  think  must  pretty rare  still said  shouldnt go  sister   easily gone  mam  lynxes  school hols jammy teacher  stayed  till quite late    brother  stepfather wanted  see son    excited  see  sometimes  just makes us  laugh    depressing start   day back  work just   month ago  amputated  dogs leg  leg  fractured  6 months ago appeared  heal   suddenly worsen  suspected  bone infection   didnt respond  treatment   x rayed     looked like  bone tumour   well   operation  last week   developed  hard knobbly swelling near  shoulder   lungs  infiltrated  felt  sad     family    lovely placid   brave dog    just  unfair  dont want  give    cases   feel  euthanasia   poor treatment   case   wanted     couple  years  never   put    family   ghastly op like amputation    known    get  little benefit  farmers son  worked  dog   retired  conspicuous   absence hes rebuilding  milking parlour ready  restock   sister   honours  came  help    switch  party mode sons 2nd birthday  sandpit   roaring success    trike  cake  grandma  granddad    super relaxing day mostly outdoors  weather makes life  lot easier  couldnt  coped    little boys inside escaped   horses  asby  take water   peaceful   ive really missed  able  go    last year theres still yellow tape   gate   dont even  livestock  wonder   defra thought  field belongs   get  riding  next week   bit  luck   bit  spare time  think ill   shelve  plans  show  arabs  havent got started soon enough diary 6  new vet started  week bright young enthusiastic  full  new ideas  feel    touch  didnt go   cpd courses last year     year  felt     unclean     tired  working  long days  seemed  much hard work  organise extra childcare etc  allow   go away     day  feel   touch generally though   lot       working part time big day  wednesday sons 1st morning  biggins nursery  think  new hobby  worrying     right thing setting   new extra  expensive childcare arrangements  think  feel guilty     benefit   extra work  now going  cost   extra 750  ride  horse   wednesday    starting  break horse   well   cant handle  4 year old horse   2 year old boy around anyway  nursery seemed  big hit     first ride   ashby fell  actually went   track   dowly tree instead    road   horse  quite anxious leading   two   bit excited      open space   fell     seems   just one lot  fell sheep    must  hs  think nobody else  started  heft sheep   yet  dowly tree will  looking sad  lonely   bit longer   missed     fell  much margaret little asking   going   village hall quiz  friday probably    going    meal  partner s birthday felt guilty   supporting village activities  started justifying     hate  though  people use fmd  make  feel bad  kept saying      last year  nice      village  get together etc  true   cant get babysitters  nights    everything  partner  way  important   village quiz  put     lot  shite last year  never complained far  tolerant    lovely meal   friday night son slept   ts   first time  ages   couldnt   lie     judges course   arab horse society  really enjoyed    arranged  last year     postponed due  fmd   worth waiting    couldnt  gone last year even      went  see sister  sisters boyfriend  sunday seemed  spend  day  fed shes like mam son took  real shine  sisters boyfriend  entertained us   seems   coping ok  horse s demise martin  cleaned  one   shoes  mounted    plaque hes  thoughtful diary 7   decided    happy  dry days   can ride  work  horses son   can get outside  play   hes happier  people  come  work   smiley  good days  son   went   birthday party  week    brilliant time   felt    place everybody else  immaculately dressed  made   son     rush back    bonfire  burn   old hay  musgrave field  quickly wash  change id rather  carried  tidying   field  still  real mess   least    grass seed now   better grow  price     really pleased  horse  wednesday hes coming  quite nicely   lunging now  seems   quite amenable dental appointment  friday  hope  dentist never retires  dont think  make dentists    interested  people   teeth  money    always   good chat     carried   discussion   working conditions comparing    sons etc hes  vet    quite surprised   told    partnership talks last time    good heart  heart     threatened redundancy   wonder  feel confused   future  times nearly 2 years ago     maternity leave  thought  might   make  redundant now  want  release  bit  capital  take things easier  want   buy   time last year  didnt know  partner      job now    decide  commit    least 20  years   vet went   girls  work   40th didnt really want  go   course    great time   got   think   got    habit  evenings  still cant get used   freedom  mobile phone gives us  spend   time checking  theres enough signal battery etc   hell   hangover  much draught coke hell  worse  cider diary 8  shit  hitting  fan   problems   imported dutch heifers   waiting   especially   particular farm  managements   best   father takes  advice   feed merchant  us vets   obviously  viral infection going   heifers  farmer b presumed   already vaccinated  documentation   also showing signs  gastro intestinal upset    management oh hell    buy 80 first calvers nobody  willingly put    stress new vet  interested  b  w  obviously trying  keep  distance theyve  embroiled  herd problems   farm    now obviously  senior vet  charge   problem  im  even  work every day   much  new vet  cope    farmer will get pissed  soon   bet  us  catch  flak cheered    1 hours  r r   horses  wednesday lovely day rode  onto  common    hard work    two horses  shouting  daisy   time      horse decided     bobbly   worked   im getting confident   know   mind works    bit   stand    made sure  didnt turn   battle       asked   end   finished   good note  think  will  quite satisfying bringing    even though  going  take months   rate  people work  young horses twice  day hes lucky   gets trained twice  week work  really settling  now  lambing time rush  passed   catching    tb testing  defra   bit  taxing     young animals   restocked herds   people  fairly well organised   going  get    herds done  turn   wonder  defra   recommendations  catching wild limousin heifers   middle   field probably   dont think  far ahead diary 9  hate mondays   supper  1145 pm    problem   mobile     call  hate mobiles  well   went  calve  cow one   half hours   first call came     mad firstly   dont make  clients wait  long   emergency  become  disaster  second  ws wife   idea  passing jobs     got another vet  go since   obviously busy   just passed  message   new vet  let  sort    ws wife gets paid    phones anyway alls well live cow   tremendous bull calf  one   easiest caesareans   done  ages b  w seem  forget     business  reputation  stake ultimately  buck stops      seem    enough  business management  hassle  last  lifetime last year  done  lot  damage   lot  people  know    lot less tolerant   used    week started badly  improved farrier came  trimmed  3 horses bollocked    hadnt  seen    year   tidy   bit  though   lovely afternoon  rheged  mam  started going  fmd      sort  neutral non agricultural ground  sat  chatted  son played   soft play centre everybody happy unfortunately  went    worst dose  food poisoning   ever      night went  work late  wouldnt  gone   except    2nd tb  test     restocked farm  couldnt bear  start  whole thing   recovered   afternoon went   even managed  dehorn 10 cows  thought  b sending fragile young new vet  help spurred    bit   knackered   finished took  another 2 days  recover horse  well bridle  saddle  now looking grown  im quite proud      chilled  today  tried long reining   confused      sensible norleen   didnt go   1st date   rochdale show  still didnt feel right  partner  going  fit  new fuel pump   car    started  feel ill    waste   saturday  made    show  sunday pretty good ridden classes    senior  hand classes   laughing      practice   two years worth  young stock  weve never seen due  babies  2000  fmd  2001  felt really   touch     imported stallions  mares   havent seen      brilliant day diary 10 whats worse  working  call  mondays yes working bank holidays  hoped  shut  12 ha ha  got home  lunch  2pm b kindly took  phones   couple  hours   afternoon  long enough  go anywhere    back  working  tea time  car failed  mot   back brake callipers   gunged   mechanic says  disinfectant    bloody defra  bet theres  chance  compensation    wouldnt   bad     practice car  now  im part time    paddle   canoe   local garage owners warned us last year   things  happen      felt obliged  drive    voluntary disinfectant sites  doesnt look good   local vets arent disinfecting  beautiful old audi god knows   horrors  lurking   fam  spilled   boot etc hell  makes  mad   destruction physical  mental     little  say     well  car spent  rest   week   garage   used borrowed wheels went    wee talk  stainsmore pre school  partner s transit van  professional  children didnt care  just wanted  meet  dog son missed  birthday party   saturday    still  work  guilt    knows  missed  lovely day  sunday   horse went   three hour ride   county durham  trailed round arable fields  nice lanes   different    horse   absolute saint    well    shoes   really  us proud diary 11 got  car back  cheered   bad news   imported heifers two   died  least  pm exams  sampling  free    restocked herd farmer getting angry now  dutch farmers  taking    new vet  unfair shes spent hours checking   cattle  taking samples didnt get  usual r r  wed absolutely piddling  started sorting    jobs     avoiding  sort  used    wet sundays now will become wet wednesday jobs called   work  coffee  ended    call   afternoon  interesting job  went  sedate two horses   dentist   absolutely fascinating son  another 2nd cousin  week  family  really sprouting   tough calving thursday night torsion   uterus  can   now  used  absolutely dread  unfortunately shed    long   calf  born dead heifer fine though  hate going   farm  farmer   right old perverted slime ball  ill dance   grave started   real head cold h crap went  see mam  stewart son  top form  brilliant seeing  interact   family   really strengthened  bonds   family son fevered  night starting    cold  presume  sleep   partner never seems  hear   commotion still felt ill  saturday sister  sister s birthday  least  remembered  post  cards  plenty  time  year went shopping  wallpaper  sunday  cheer   partner went  pest controlling   dogs  went   tubbys wood  found nothing   least  dogs   good ratch  says   now feels ok  walking across fields  didnt even realise   still felt   couldnt go round   old haunts  must talk  diary 19 tb test cancelled  monday  thursday  week   farmer cant cope   extra hassle hes  bit   woman   best  times  hes  even worse since fmd w   understanding  seems    farmers measure b didnt seem  understanding  upset  wednesday afternoon    put    terrier   took   chased  neighbours sheep   second time  cant understand   went  strange  used   fine  stock    miserable afternoon waiting  partner  come home  bury  id    good morning   horses  dizzy  horse   going well  felt better  partner came home  said id done  right thing   felt  though id failed somehow    never  happened   first place maybe     nothing   last year  interesting walks  rabbiting etc  dont know diary 20 brilliant time tues wed went   sisters  mam  son  much easier  keep  touch   family post fmd  hardly went anywhere last year  went shopping  edinburgh mams looking   outfit   brothers wedding unsuccessfully  far ive just realised   havent seen brother  wife   farm since fmd broke   must go soon   brilliant place  recharging batteries     best bit   step family  didnt go   cumberland show   horses  havent got back   swing  things yet  think    bit   washout without  farming side   rained  offered    biosecurity officer   local show     get things   running properly   money  trophies donated last year  new cattle classes     real interest  fat cattle classes  young handler classes now defra  bastards managed  put  committee  diary 21 sprayed weeds  field  depressing day  week  never going  recover properly  landlord arrived  wed just finished  first half  said hed decided  reseed   august  much discussion  persuaded      waste  time  money  put horses back   newly seeded field  winter now im worried   happens  spring will   terminated  just moved  another field  wish id moved  horses   usual time 1st april   wouldnt   caught  among ips  dcs something will sort   always  dairy 22 excellent week   malvern  friends   national arabian horse show son went   grannies   holiday    marvellous time  three days watching   beautiful horses  came back absolutely shattered diary 23  probs  work  new assistant shes  bit whiney shes always bending  ear   nearest receptionist    sick b  offered   12 month contract  whether   shell accept   another matter    can gather shes going  end   better working conditions   ws   happy     neither    willing  grasp  nettle theyve  backed  since last year  cant wait  get  home   cant step  since theyve changed  minds   partnership  im  part time good weekend lowther  saturday didnt see many   usual faces   thing  spoiled    mud  brought    fair share home  son   pushchair  biosecurity pressure washer anywhere diary 24  assistant  holiday  2 weeks things seem  like old times  cages arent full  animals  drips im working extra days  enjoying   tiring  good highlight   week  thursday brough show  werent many farmers   loads  horses  ponies instead  sheep much talk  defra regulations none complimentary  just wasnt   without  sheep  felt flat  wonder   gimmer lamb sales will  like diary 25 knackered dont think   cope  full time work   new vet still  holiday felt guilty  son  farmed   week  managed  work     charity horse show  saturday  tried  hand   organisation  three  folk  still ended  sorting    insurance  rosettes   changed  date    less time  organise   wasnt advertised    worst show weve ever   takes  much time  organise          many  felt  disappointed  thought     real good turnout  time    cancel last year oh well theres always next year ill need  make sure  dont change  date    least  might  able  take  horses next time decided  cheer    taking  horse   school  round  jumps   sunday   couldnt catch   must  known   just put  tin hat   weekend diary 26 two trotting meetings  week  landed      nights  call another bank holiday   time      take son    partner  grouse beating  meetings  quite relaxed    one nasty crash  appleby   really nice day   chatsworth game fair  helen  neil   first time weve managed  visit    took hours  get    invited last year   advert said  didnt want  cumbrians social outcasts    didnt feel like  armpit  british agriculture     really enjoyed  day   felt   wed   weekend away  just  day well   think    trips   easy just  stay  home  always  plenty   dairy 27  started  defra  found  new way  cock   lives   now complicated life  exemptions   20 day standstill including new stuff  isolation units  farmers    notified  post  havent read    read   dont understand  farmers   isolate new stock bought via auctions etc   contact   stock  50 m outside   can go  standstill   neighbours can move stock   next door field without  problem  mad  dont understand    coming  well   sort    usual  badly thought      sell  idea   farmers  will   policed will  matter   stop another massive outbreak  doesnt take much  wind everyone     helped  work  b defending  defra line  w dissing   will  clients think diary 28 crap week puncture  thursday  lunch hour struggled  get locking nuts  felt feckless god    little patience  days   missed beva congress couldnt sort  childminding etc   best days  friday  saturday    way   go   really disappointed nothing    fmd though  dont feel    get much encouragement  work   ok  paying  cpd courses   dont seem  make  easy  swap weekends etc theyre  bothered    suppose  dont understand   different things  get  cpd diary 29 worked extra  new vet  go  sheep meeting  malvern pissed     easy    job   husband   family  consider   suppose  timing stinks since  missed  equine course last week  week improved considerably  thursday  went  guilford   arab horse convention nothing    work   enjoyable ive  waiting   10 years    hope  live long enough  go   next one  talked   men   train unheard   surrey apparently  cumbria farming fmd  foxhunting   reassured   newcastle    cumbria    interesting crack  hardly ever meet anyone    connected  farming   countryside  really   idea   like  dont know anything   either     job   end  feeling  frustrated  agriculture  therefore large animal practice     precarious position  seems       basic fundamental part  life compared  computers  yet  emphasis    basic stuff anymore surely  need things like agriculture  basic manufacturing  underpin everything else  wonder nobody  bothered  us suffering anxiety fear confusion last year      throes  fmd   penrith spur  certainly  reported  wouldnt    many marches  london pre fmd diary 30 quite week still tired  last week loads  photos  develop    great saw horses id never seen   got 2 great videos  long dead horses  appear   horses pedigrees son   bit      picked   monday  bit unsettled   away  suppose oh  job just interferes   social life missed another wedding  week  call  diary 31 took  horse  penrith vets   x ray    super new hospital just   town seems really well set     really good attitude  work  clients  think  need  shake   work maybe new vet s way  working isnt  bad neil said   million   red   height  fmd  must    worried none  us knew  wed  left  weve definitely got  lot  routine work  weve lost   lot  dairy farms  never going       im  good  accepting change diary 32 sad week one   farmers sons  killed   rta   a66     married two years    real canny lad  shocked everyone   certainly made  take stock   restocked  fancy cattle   south   cattle may  contacted cattle   variant virus   usa      whole herd test   blame   fmd   hadnt lost  cattle  wouldnt  restocked   wouldnt  testing  cattle   wouldnt  happened  theyd stopped   extra cup  tea  client brought   copy   cumbria enquiry  didnt half stir   old feelings   things    angry  last year  summed   one phrase  read slack organisation  poor woman  brought  report  spent  1000 treating  dog   suffered chemical burns  fmd disinfectant   road map  now reacts  phenolic compounds including sheep dip  fresh tar theyre moving  scotland  hope  dog   better life  diary 33 funny old week everyone still shell shocked  farmers son s death  explanation     lorry crashed   tractor yet  begin  wonder   family can cope   sort  trauma b  w went   huge funeral  said  parents  amazing     strong faith   cant see   enough  went   graveyard  next day  see  flowers  ended   tears    messages   cards especially  ones   parents  brother  sister  felt  sad    went   wee walk  tracey  knows  quite well   talked  lot trying  make sense     blow    thursday  father  brother  part   syndicate   tup sales  paid  100000   swaledale tup  couldnt believe theyd even gone   auction never mind  something like   doesnt seem right    others   bought  tup    think thats awfully strange   another upset farmers wife  week  went  see  downer cow shed got stuck   cubicles    carry    straw box using  loader tractor   wife got really upset seeing  cow swinging   front   tractor  felt  bit guilty really   didnt think  just didnt connect  fmd slaughter   injured cow    didnt see    saw   herd went  diary 34 great week  brothers wedding son   page boy   kilt    quite well behaved apart   second lot  photos   well tired  hungry    love  home   brother  sisters   partners   great  way     much time  son  always laugh  much   clan gatherings im sure   therapeutic  amount  alcohol consumed     wedding  definitely  therapeutic  set    holiday maybe  first family holiday  day    rain   turned  ok later   lot  good stuff  one week diary 35   lovely day   worked  well  may try four  five days away next year now  weve got started   years since    proper holiday  usually miss   animals  im away    time  think son    filled  gap  bad news  wednesday partner s van failed  mot  transport  money   new motor mild panic slight depression   gradual return    will  work  somehow attitude    partner s mum  dad helped us      relinquish  little buy  new trailer fund   disaster  sunday morning caesarean   uncooperative cow  got  halfway   op  pushed  rumen  onto   dirty floor   started  haemorrhage  died four hours later  ended    exceptional bull calf   dead pedigree belgian blue cow  hate  things die  restocked farms  think   quite philosophical     went     whole thing   head b just said  theyre going  die  best  die soon less time  worry  everyone gets   quicker   think  may  right hes definitely easier  talk   days hes like  different person now  jans left diary 36 busy week testing  restocked herd monday thursday   travelled   5 miles   new home  bit   waste  time     nice day    really good turnout   village bonfire   new tradition started  2001     first village get together  fmd   end   week  headed south  cheshire   salisbury plain   friend ann   horse  compete   marathon   awful journey    rain poured  traffic crawled im glad  dont   use  m6   daily basis  really enjoyed  weekend away     pull  horse    half way point    hyped   couldnt get  heart rate    wasnt allowed  continue  felt really disappointed   sure     good chance well        vet check halfway  diary 37  bit   anticlimax  week    build    marathon      different  shed completed  course    better journey north except   puncture  handy     horse trailer   drove    way back  anns saw   horses   drove home another 2 hours oh    pleased  get home    good experience though  dont think either  us  trail  horse   way  salisbury plain   two hour race    fmd cases near ann  cheshire  didnt seem  catch hold like    cumbria maybe     bigger farms   arable land  went  see   july 2001   pointed  various fields    cleared  stock half   didnt even  gates     disinfectant  precautions visible    really starting  wipe   practice  home   unbelievable   sitting  cumbria thinking  agriculture  doomed  everything  cheshire  carrying   normal    rude awakening   diary 38  tb testing  day job testing stock  wouldnt normally  tested  theyre restocked   come  cheshire though    increase  risk   shocking migraine  day wednesday went  bed  soon  id dropped son   biggins  didnt wake   5pm 2 hours     collected    still felt awful   terrible driving   dark     stop three times   way home  went back  bed  9pm    fine  havent   migraine  ages   back  top form  next day though    tb readings  172 cattle  lunch cooking  gas diary 39 fed     testing   may      next 4 5 months sick  new vet moaning  work  dont know    take  make  happy  think  week  nearly    waste  time  havent made best use   free time   havent   top   job  work diary 40   dreading  week     many things    think  avoid adding extra   schedule   week   3 days away   night   cope   really dont like  thought  shopping  managed    christmas present locating  friday spent wednesday  b   better   expected   national scrapie plan training day   worse   expected bloody defra  dont     say much  raise  hackles    selecting   resistant genotype    spending   time injecting bse  sheeps brains  challenge     ever happen naturally nearly missed  night    work   10 pm   got    least  didnt miss  dancing  turned   really good night nearly everyone  work    j  ex receptionist  always   good laugh ended  working    morning dont know  w  hung   just idle  hell   pay    hours  dont work extra    goodness   heart now      overheads  fund new vet s  star  avoiding extra  dirty work   usually falls    says  wants  large animal work     best  avoid  diary 41 tired  week son came back  maviss full  cold improved  bit   woke  screaming  tuesday night     long night  partner wasnt even  t enjoy share   hed left  fly  tampa  5am  morning god  dont fancy   single mum  soon started  improve  24hrs  antibiotics ear  chest infection ive never seen    pain  course   nearly better   time partner got back  really struggled       take  day   thursday  still   go    second tb test otherwise      start     didnt  time  test  twice    restocked herd         really hard trying    best  everyone diary 42 pretty good week   weekend   good night   traceys birthday    really chuffed  invited son    well behaved  nut unfortunately now thinks  can go   pub     go   meetings  avoid  tantrum  dont really think   suffered many  effects  fmd except  lower anger threshold   loss  faith   powers   im much  worried     clients mental health  know   several   suffered severe depression      farmers   culled   sleepless nights  back   vengeance son started  chickenpox   weekend  nobody   sleep diary 43 absolutely shattered somebody elses chickenpox  nearly  bad     dont think     full nights sleep    fortnight  still   lovely time  christmas though   sure  partner  son   pleased   presents son suddenly brightened dup  christmas eve   way  mams  never broke stride     son top form    tired   fell asleep  saturday evening  missed  village hall christmas party  highlight   village social calendar diary 44  threat  tb rears  ugly head maybe tb   new fmd went    private tb test   farmer   restocked  passed  restocking checks unfortunately  bought 3 heifers  november   original farm  since gone   tb  isolated  heifers  soon   heard  waited  defra  didnt come     hoped   best  expected  worst one   heifers reacted  didnt know     say  farmers wife  really upset  wished  hadnt gone back  farming b  boss  phoned defra  morning regarding  heifers    told  youngstock dont pose much   risk  dont seem   much idea    dont   clue  getting    job theyve  three weeks  track   calves    cows   reactors  seem  let us  just   need   oh  make  boil    going    cope   aftermath  diary 45 felt  bit flat  tired  week  test    week  hard work trying  catch cows  cubicles   fun    covered  muck   end     second day  worse     14  rectal   test wednesday  day  respite  taken  looking  tracey  bed  cold shes really  still   cant seem   anything  make  feel better  know shell come    eventually   hard   able  help  just didnt feel      time    week   really missed    start working wednesdays im going  miss  every week ill    another plan   bit better   weekend   think   need  better weather   miss  stuff   horses diary 46 oh im mad   defra    go back   herd   reactor  test every single bovine   place except  two remaining heifers   infected herd  dont understand   cant just take   heifers   poor farmer   wife will   tender hooks   end  march   earliest   hadnt asked   private test goodness knows  defra   got     testing defra phoned  farmers wife  confirm   slaughtered heifer  visible lesions   puts paid   theory  youngstock werent  danger hope  news makes  get  finger    lovely day  mam  son  tuesday  sat  talked    hour   car park everything tested clear   check test  far  good bad day  thursday  behaviour course   enrolled    cancelled  explanation just  cheque returned   practice   wee note    disappointed even though   going    lot  extra work   next 10 months  extra hassle  extra childminding  think    coped   lunchtime  bent  car door  stopping  help somebody stuck   icy patch  havent got   bits sorted   knackered  fmd disinfecting yet  theres  repairs     pay    now   dont   practice car   well fed  dairy 47 busy week tb testing  started working odd wednesdays  week  spent  day wednesday   back end  suckler cows  dangerous taking bloods  brucellosis   blood sampling swaledales  scrapie testing    many tests still     many dreadfully   date   think weve done quite  lot   restocking tests    quite mind numbing stuff  much clinical acumen required  getting blood   cows just quick reactions  dodge shit  flying feet  late finished monday   time     paperwork done   college friend landed tuesday en route  leeds   herd health meeting 6 hours driving   meeting  talked  bit  fmd  worked   tvi towards  end   outbreak    lot  trouble  tb   aberdeenshire   gets   herd  struggle  get rid     hope  doesnt get    huge problem round  collected  fair  bruises  thursday pregnant heifers  dehorn     done  2001   course  routine work  put   dont know   excuse  leaving  al  2002    massive anyway  saved  going   gym  wednesday night diary 48   just handed   latest batch  diaries  started  new session    thinking  f m doesnt really affect  much anymore  work  changed    restocking   taken place since    new disease problems    bought   additional extras   extra tb testing etc  mentally    aware  even thinking   events  2001  often  still feel upset  someone tells     particular experiences   often heart rending  probably       discussing another devastating disease problem  still  little tolerance   workings  defra even though   providing us  lots  bread  butter work diary 51 im sick   caesareans  cows  encouraged   bloody beef farmers  restock  belgian blues im  sure     continuing  allow animals  breed  cant reproduce naturally  doesnt seem right    almost expect  caesarean  day   new cow  put  calf  used   occasional troubles     caesareans   belgian blues  now    least one caesarean every week b  two  one day    bloody hard work diary 52  always think   23rd feb    day   realised  might    shit  2001  wouldnt  passed unnoticed round  several people mentioned  date   following week yet  wasnt   4th april  f m came   practice loads   farmers lost  lot  seep early  though    wintering away  dairy farms    eden valley  used  just involve  hoggs  now   encouraged  leave  fells almost empty   paid  remove even pregnant ewes  lower ground  seems ludicrous   certain farms  fell sheep  spend summertime   fells  rest   time    bye land  tupping  lambing    wintered  sheep sheds   dairy farms sometimes quite far away  home   get quite upset   read  stories   book  time  think    empathy   tourism businesses affected  must    frustrated  probably ended  much worse    affected farmers   area  farmers  survived   ones  general   struggling  survival now   farms    capital investment    fact    survivors  still  bitter   whole episode   sad    done   people diary 55 check tb test  campbells went well finished  good time running  trouble    cows taken   winter  calving     room however   found someone  take  slaughter   big bullocks   going   moved  licence direct   slaughter house   least  will   income  first  year everything tested clear including  2 heifers brought    farm    reactor    feeling  little bit  confident diary 56 bloody defra cocked    cs test   go back  test 11 baby calves  cruel   go back  hs  well  test one inconclusive reactor     ok diary 60  think  lambing time rush  settling    course  arent 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## [3] "information  diarist date  birth 1964 gender f occupation group 6 geographic region north cumbria week beginning 4th march 02 monday 4th march  decided  now need  staff  new vet   part time receptionist   take us back    previous staffing level pre fm bar  vet    probably going     recruitments   make  year   good sign  things begin  get back  normal work  increasing quite  lot now    farmers  restocked although  lot    us  still concerned   future tuesday 5th march  difficult day today  licences two   farmers needed sole occupancy authentitys soa    queries   land unless    fields   redefined   worried  stock  suffer   fm  worries  shown  much  care   stock  find   frustrating   dont understand   cant move  even   point  anger  tears   end   day thankfully   resolved  compromise   sides   lot  phone calls wednesday 6th march  decided  sort    paperwork  guidelines   received  defra   past twelve months   quite  pile   interesting looking back   sad  makes  realise just  deep  feelings went  although  sounds silly  surprising  quickly  feelings can return   smallest things anyway  done    feel good  box    put  away  got taken   lunch   ptizer rep    nice just  talk  usual things drug competition  much   going  sell thursday 7th march  busy day everyone   flat   day started  7am  morning got finished sort   730pm  tired hope  get  new vet soon  also   suspect bse case today informed defra  problems  soa   got  started one bit  good news  managed  get  new receptionist  2 days  week   just need one    3 friday 8th march quite  good day  major hassles today  still getting busier   staff meeting  arrange  open day  national pet week  may  sorted     bits  bobs   good chat   staff      busy  week  decided    much better   time last year      depressed emotionally drained laying  staff uncertain   future  least now       meant   saturday 9th march went shopping first thing  k   good time even though im   good shopper  went   farmers market  saw heather  works   auction   said    quite emotional  sales    hustle  bustle     happy  see people  hadnt seen  sometime met  mum   afternoon   snow  killington lake   good   driving  interesting sunday 10th march mothers day husband  daughter     day     lovely peaceful day    lot daughter got   funny card   little hedgehog model   collection   evening  collected  vet student  london   staying  us  3 weeks   will   behave  seems nice  settled   mad house easily mr w called   let us know  cows  arrived safely week beginning 11th march 02 monday 11th march   busy day   total change   time last year    day  first client  confirmed  f m  helped another vet   caesarean   cow   fun   farmers   moved farm  restocked  positive one   new receptionists started   didnt get much chance  see  due   caesar barbara looked   well   seemed  enjoy    lots  calls  just like  old days   really need another vet  adverts   thursday  fingers crossed tuesday another busy day  another caesar  calf  dead unfortunately  cow  query bse  taken away  tests   sad  highlight   day   farm across  us turned    cows    call   kitchen window view normally  can see sheep   fields   back   cows across  road  sheep came back  couple  months ago   cows   havent actually  able  see      special never really stopped today    dog training classes  night   collected daughter   yfc meeting  got fish  chips    went  bed  poor vet student   staying  us  exhausted shes  able  see    much wednesday today   little  controlled  went  according  plan   still  long day     dog   630pm   eaten  ball  hadnt passed      operate  remove  anyway finished  900pm  tea  went  bed daughter heard   got 2 weeks work experience  norbrook pharmaceutical   pleased   thursday   morning   last  days   rather hectic  girl   done work experience  us  couple  years ago called round    blue   still keen  train   vet nurse  wanted  write   practices   area  needed advice anyway  told    vacancy   well  long   short   starts   2nd april receptionist 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farmer came    letting us know  restocking plans   one   farmers querying  compensation  never liked     compulsory purchased    received  compensation   although  got better money  others  maybe    taken  account anyway  missed  query deadline  two hours  defra  refusing  look   case    appear   lost    brother    breeding  cows  related went      got  average 300  per cow anyway  tried  look   future    looking forward  getting stock back   another tb reactor today   french cattle    receptionist  chatting  decided things  really getting back  normal although   added paperwork daughter   upset   came home  school     getting bullied   girl   year   chatted     wrote   teacher  see    find   tuesday daughter went  school fairly happy  just told   hand  letter   try  avoid  girl   going milk recording tonight   really enjoy  great   among  animals  talk   farmers    one farmer milk recording fully  present   12  farm  went    big dairy herd   now looking  expanding    good news bad news   means ill   get  earlier   mornings   recording never mind daughter  got  okay  school   teacher  really good    shes feeling happier    good kid  although hormonal  times   put    lot   fmd   unable  really go anywhere   anything although   try  keep  routine  worked longer hours    stressed   never complained  helped  lot went dog training  milk recording     long day wednesday early morning start today 5am  go milk recording   always get  lovely breakfast  also got invited   party   farm  may  thats something  look forward    fancy dress   will  fun    dress   childrens characters   attended  careers convention   sands centre  7 pm  another  long day  tired  saw  lot  children   interested  pursuing veterinary work   always encouraging  enjoy   careers days  interesting  see  next workforce  seem  grow   fast thursday  claim  fame today  seeing  princess royal  passed    junction  thought   seeing things  bored everyone   story    lovely staff lunch meeting   helped cook  sat  chatted   future    replies   advert   vet   decided  try another veterinary magazine  fingers crossed   afternoon  managed  get  well caught    paperwork    rarity   normally end  going somewhere  sorting something      pleased especially   year end  approaching friday discussed   ideas   nurse regarding  small animal side   possibility  getting  new equipment  shall     adding  husband    vet meeting locally    vets   area  thursday night    3  practices looking  vets       time without  luck     worrying   case loads increase   puts  strain   vets  fingers crossed  advert   tomorrow   afternoon  called  see one   evening receptionist    maternity leave  present   good  see    new addition    filling     news  gossip hopefully  will  back  work  second week  april although  birth   caesarean    told   see    feeling   will discuss   soon     fourth child   copes really well   looking really healthy saturday  snowed  went  meet  mum  killington      dog   went  holiday  nearly got stuck   snow  foot  mouth daughter  counted  stock   field  carlisle  penrith   m6 anyway     today last year  counted 2  year  counted 12 big difference sunday went   walk around  local wood   first time    year   amazing  overgrown   become  paths  still visible   places  just met    friends daughter  finalise arrangements   fathers surprise meal  next friday   50th birthday week beginning monday 25th march 02 monday 25th march another  busy day today still  answer   advert   new vet husband spoke  another vet   area       response nothing   good   busy   new receptionist   well  learning fast  thats taking  pressure     receptioinist completed  claim form  business link grant  helped  lot  enabled us   things  advertise   wouldnt   able  tuesday starting  prepare   end   financial year  always dread       done  will  nice  end another chapter  practice suffered badly last year     worrying  lost 3 vets  two lay staff  everyone  feeling     spoken    farmers today   opinion  well    lot better   time last year    interesting  see   effect   new stock  throw    getting called   lot    good  us     lot  lambings  lambing  set  go   may june time  year    busy testing   moment   gives us  opportunity  see  new animals  discuss plans   farmers  relationship   built   f m  now definitely benefiting  lot  said  helpful    feel  lot closer  family  business relationship  good wednesday    day  today   good  managed  catch     things   just hadnt  time      busy  got  lot organised   holiday   week end     looking forward    cant  get away together mainly due   new vet   financial year   least  will  get  bit   break daughter got  report today   done  well    proud    fingers crossed   gcses thursday  spoke  mrs w today     much  action since  got f m  even got  touch  politician etc  help give farmers  voice  mentioned  public inquiry  like  lot  people feels  maybe rather    finger pointing blaming session      ideas    felt  maybe trying  prevent  happening     better idea  personally  begun  realize recently just  much   deep  feelings run  think    emotional now       thick   friday spent  day knuckling    end  year  got  lot done husband daughter  vet student went    day   husband s first real day  since october     good   went    evening  celebrate  friends birthday   really good saturday holiday  today husband daughter  sister   daughter  gone away today   cottage near newton stewart   rented   week  weather  great      lovely time      holiday  year husband s back  monday   go  wednesday confusing isnt  never mind  least  will  get away    days sunday end  year day stocktaking counting sunny outside boring  never mind  done  vet student went home today   really enjoyed     enjoyed    bought us   lovely gifts  will  nice         will still miss  week beginning monday 1st april 02 monday 1st april    lovely day  day husband  daughter still away played   garden went   walk read    book lovely husband came back  tea time   went    meal perfect tuesday went  help another vet vet tt test  one   farms   restocked    positive   future    lovely day  great   amongst cows  wednesday sunday hols great  didnt realise just  much  needed   weather  great warm sunny  relaxing  charged   week beginning monday 8th april 02 monday 8th april back  work today   quite  lot  catching     couldnt really get   never mind  will  still   tomorrow hope  can get away   year even    days tuesday queen mums funeral today    quiet  gave  girls time   watch  funeral    nice funeral   can  one   commented   poem   read   thankful   life    sorry  must get   nurse suggested  giving   clients     pets put  sleep nice idea wednesday back   now   2  difficult soa  complete farmers  slowly getting  idea  find   paperwork hard    good chance    call    chat  coffee   seem  spend  awful lot  time   now   always good  see    coping thursday  large animal work   rapidly increasing     putting extra pressure    staff   really need another vet  another advert  still  response      work  hard    manage  get   work  chatted   staff  tried  reassure    future   can     cant get another vet  simply cant provide  service  clients need    worrying     sure   solution   future  think   paragraph  need   can   kick friday  new receptionists  settling  well     work   today   good     enthusiastic   years ago   taught nvq  animal care  one   receptionists  keen      organised  work     enjoyed  castrated  colt   afternoon sad  know   enjoyed  saturday went shopping  daughter   morning  buy   new clothes    good time  started  sewing   yfc field day    make shorts  t shirt   sport event well  havent really done sewing   pattern  years  lets just say   fun sunday went  newcastle   day via  fields    check   clients soa   lovely time  saw  blinking  winking im  sure  one     nice    day  together week beginning monday 15th april 02 monday 15th april  busy    175 miles today just dropping things   farmers  vets  trips   lab  also found  new supplier  paper towels  will save us  lot  money see  easy pleased    tiring    like       even managed two cups  coffee  farms  fmd  felt   relationship  vets  farmers  changing   relationship  fmd  change   better  feel good      way  happened   daughter   girls night   husband  away   fun tuesday 16th april husband away  bcva   new   committee  seems   enjoying       another vet  scotland   north invited onto  committee    putting together  suggestions  put   government re fmd poor another vet   busy   need  vet wednesday 17th april  went  see  elderly client    morning    old dog   going  hospital  wont go    worried   dog  offered   kelly  dog     hospital  told    found   cancelled     cross  enjoy talking     87 years    fit  funny  lunchtime   attacked  bayer rep  free goodies   open day    co operative  got away without  scratch  didnt   open day last year     fun back   routine thursday 18th april  bottomed  paperwork  morning  interference  phone calls  soa  productive   husband went  see  finical advisor   bank   afternoon   good   cant retire  year never mind  gave us  good ideas  fingers crossed  might just  able  retire one day friday 19th april  busy  need  vet repetitive isnt    looking back   visit book   time last year  year   21 calls    practise record last year   1    lot  general well  time last year   ways   seems  unbelievable    ways  still  sad  emotional  think  emotional now     actually happening   see farmers eyes filling  talking    used  worry  upsetting    feel   good  talk   also helps   dont know  thats right   seems  work saturday 20th  sunday 21st april huge sewing  yfc field day  also found  today    also baking  flower arranging oh joy week beginning monday 22nd april 02 monday 22nd april good day today ive   see  new girls  cows   road  us    one   see   practice    awful day   lasted  june anyway   good  see  new girls   think  amused  farmer    great time ive never enjoyed helping tt test    high tuesday 23rd april driving around today ive  trying  listen    euro inquiry people       lot    hear   talking   old farmer   afternoon   wasnt impressed either   agreed      well   inquires    going  help  suppose  time will tell   still feel  unless something  done   cause   chances   will happen     extent     learnt   will  different next time   one thing  must  prevented   effects  people nobody really got   always remember  samaritans advert nobody seemed  care probably  paperwork can  tell ive   particularly bad day   soa   good news   want  keep  permanently great wednesday 24th april  went  see mrs b  today    heard   hospital    going  next tuesday   arranged  collect k  monday afternoon im pleased shes   op   also   touch  one   daughters  devon  hopefully everything  go well now good news   heard   vet  defra   looking   job husband phoned     coming  saturday afternoon  fingers crossed thursday 25th april  cows got  tt reading  morning     okay   heard   farm  welton      killed    7 reactors   will need tested    quite   reactors   country  restocking     new stock coming   county     country   bound  happen friday 26th april sorted   open day next saturday got everything sorted   need whos getting  etc   receptionist went  smuts fancy dress  decided budget wouldnt go  costumes   got  face paint  masks   daughter   friend  mum went  see westlife ant newcastle   great fun saturday 27th april shopping washing  sewing  know   show   good time   went  another vet s  night   bbq   great fun cold  fun     lucky  another vet    nice  enthusiastic  interviewed  vet today  defra     little uncertain   wants     seems nice   told    needed  fingers crossed sunday 28th april finished  sewing week beginning monday 29th april monday  inquiry begins   good  will   find    mixed feelings part   thinks whats  point  another  expecting something  quite   dont yet someone  blame  solution  ability  turn back  clock  lesson  learn   end  last  know wont happen      repercussion will probably  felt    years yet tuesday 30th april sorry ill  bed today   cold  hell wednesday 1st may much better today   heard   vet  interviewed  saturday    accepted  offer  can start   27th may yippee holidays  easing   pressure  husband  another vet   still finding  saying well  time last year mrs r phoned  mentioned  saying     year ago today   cattle  killed    phoning  good news    first calf born healthy  well   wanted  tell us lovely thursday 2nd may  official soa    stay oh joy   contacted   farmers    yet got one   thought might need one  lots  chatting  catching   quite nice open day   saturday   still seems    awful lot  organise     busy  day  things  looking better  slightly  organised  havent seen  heard much   enquiry     hear   think  really went   weird friday 3rd may open day panic thats  ive done today     coming together   will  fine hopefully    quite  good response  people coming  people checking     whats happening  fingers crossed must go  bake  buns saturday 4th may open day  went really well  started  2 pm     steady stream  people  enjoying  hopefully  stayed fine  whole time thankfully  even got  face painted  another vet  vet  managed  raise 9671   pat dogs  2735  national pet week   bad  2 hours  staff came round  tea later   nice     jolly time sunday 5th may gardened  day till  dropped loved   grew quite fond   garden last year    another little escape week beginning monday 6th may monday 6th may bank holiday    lovely family day      rare    surprising    got  nearly  still feels strange  able  go  places     family  also  fact    long  didnt really go anywhere tuesday 7th may  busy      hollering  receptionist calls     actually    dropping  drugs  chatting  call  customer relations  still feel funny going onto farms      gate  months just momentarily  feel can   hard  explain  still feels normal  drop things   bucket  bin rather  driving onto  farm   good   coffee  proper milk  brill wednesday 8th may mr g  got  cows   one  thought wouldnt restock  although   sons    farm neither  interested  cows one  horses     everything else  turkeys dogs wallabies monkeys pheasants etc  real menagerie daddy g  66  couldnt decide weather  get  cows      bit  dad says yes sons say  anyway dad won  begin      sons side    came  beaming  laughing  full  joy    disagree     got fmd   called   practise     coffee    upset  friend  phoned   morning  say   fmd mr g just broke   sobbed   one   worst experiences  found   hard   join     strong  console      old gentlemen showed  depth  feeling  despair   around    lump now remembering  anyway  comparison  getting   cows  milk can make   big difference    happy   thursday 9th may went   meeting  preston  cl  vet  brampton   marsh report   regarding vets  privilege  dispense drugs anyway firstly  got lost  lost    arriving   meeting eventually    doom gloom  depressing just   thought things  getting  tract bam  changes  paperwork  will   wait  see just   effects us  effect us  will friday 10th may    half day  today   fun things like washing shopping  sorting bits  pieces   couldnt   housewife   time  ended  leaving  cooking  washing  took  dog  instead much  fun saturday 11th may took daughter    young farmers field day   brill    going  stay  hour anyway  stayed  day everyone     hadnt seen  ages    spoke     new faces   great  see   together   feel farmers   families   special people    wonderful sense  fun    solid    close mind   talk    find    related   also  proud      sad  public   see   way gone   days   farmer   hero  worked  hours  feed  nation well    wonderful day week beginning monday 13th may monday  busy milk recorded  afternoon   good fun   preparing   party  saturday night    fancy dress party   husband  going   cant say   yet j mentioned   friend    still  speaking    j never lost  cows  yet j said   tries  explain  hard     waiting  friend  accepted  invite   party  heres hopefully  friendship  shows  feelings can  easily run away   blown  something  silly       side    see  lot  changes   lot  people either bitterness resentment jealousy  emotionally drained   whole situation tuesday 14th may early morning milk recording got  outfit sorted   fancy dress party  saturday   friend went  try     good fun wednesday 15th may   done tons  backwards  forwarding today  ive  hearing   inquiry  bit today   decided   going   one  carlisle   interest  curiosity  still feel        may find    meeting   still waiting   day fmd   mentioned     dealing regarding  thursday 16th may  spoke   young couple  farm    enquiring   changes  buying drugs  caught   guard   knew   happen     arranged  meet    chat  see   wanted   think  will go   people  farming  different ways   used  pre fmd weather    result  fmd    dont know    going    lot  changes heading  way friday 17th may accountant day today   joy    brilliant   helped  much   years  last year   brilliant    one consolation  wouldnt   pay  much tax  year anyway spoke   rep   afternoon      usual offers   get every year   year  look good    buy   year  last year  can get      easy saturday 18th may party night   cruella deville  husband  bob  builder   great seeing people  hadnt seen  ages      recognise     really good   met  client       anti everything re fmd  feel   really suffering   bitter   little bo peep   lost  sheep  didnt know   find   mr blair can  preached  night  anyone    feel sorry    people  avoiding  sad sunday 19th may recovered week beginning monday 20th may 02 monday  new cattle fertility programme  now become available  vets  farmers two   people  work came along  see us  discuss  advantages  already    farmers keen    program installed  discussed  program later    farmers     keen recognising    going  need  program like   can help  keep  tighter control   herds fertility  health   enable   remain  business      realising   now running  company   family concern   quite exciting another step forward hopefully tuesday 21st may  busy today everyone stretched  will make life  much easier   new vet anne starts next week  got caught    paperwork  also managed  catch    others bits  needed done even got   soa defra paperwork sorted miracle wednesday 22nd may went  see two   farmers today  discuss  interherd cattle health  fertility computer program   good  chat  listen   plans hopes  dreams   concerns  lot  farmers  still  unsure   future  quite honestly  keeping  options open definitely gave   pause  thought    concerns thursday 23rd may quiet day today mr w one   farmers came today     chat   also worried   future  hope  good positive news comes soon friday 24th may friend     weeks    new vet  starting  monday  came  us 6 months 10 years ago    helped us  ever since    fmd  offered  help   great      worked  hours       husband  5 months      well deserved time   will come back part time   need  ill miss    says shes  lot  housework  catch   saturday 25th  sunday 26th may  sister  niece came  stay   weekend    nice time just pottering    week beginning monday 27h may monday new vet started    nervous   keen   spent 10 months working  defra   relieved   finished     mainly  involved  re stocking anyway  managed  well  hopefully will settle well tuesday 28th may  booked  holiday today  1st holiday   25 years      excited   going   barge near chester  hopefully  weather will  good  will  nice  go away together especially  last year  think   need    get used  staying  home     trouble  upset last year  will  nice cant wait wednesday 29th may   lovely day ended   lots  visiting around  farms dropping drugs   seeing another farm regarding  interherd program  went   large dairy farm     young couple   keen  enthusiastic   future     positive  encouraging   give   lift  helps put things back  track thursday 30th may    farmers coffee morning  planned  appeared      quite nice  quite interesting   hear  together   two elderly  one younger one   opinions hopes thoughts  experiences   different friday 31st may another mega paperwork day exciting played   garden  afternoon  walked  dog saturday 1st  sunday 2nd june   weekend  together  went visiting  walking  nice week beginning 3rd june monday  sister   daughter came  visit  went  carlisle  nothing  exciting  weather   disappointing    organised events  went   couple  got wet daughter  niece got  jubilee mugs  one   wednesday  ended  helping  new vet  new nurse  operate    good  dont get much chance  help   op room  days   enjoyed  thoroughly new vet    well shes   qualified 3 years    now   done much small animal    worried    like    seems   enjoying  thoroughly   settled  really well  seems like      ages thursday    first work experience   school  2 years    interested   fmd  said   done  bit    school   went      details   discussed  human side   hadnt really  discussed  school  finish   4 soa    well  joy friday  foolishly decided  decorate  surgery  op room  know   think    good idea  realise   bitten     can chew well  sunday night   dead  got   done    look better  nothing   done last year  boy   tired week beginning 10th june monday  new interherd disc arrived   went  installed   two farms    keen  get started   quite exciting    young sons   keen  farm also   helps sometimes  fee   can just get      times  feel whats  point    middle   road    try  make  work  fight  make  work tuesday 11th june quite busy today  daughter   brace taken  today    two visits   hospital  looks different without  brace now wednesday 12th june   day  today peaceful thursday 13th june nmr came  see us  discuss   can work  us  interherd   farmer   interesting  competitively priced    now another service  can offer   farmers  can  help long term  went  see another farmer  enter  interherd    lot  interest   trying  maintain  close contact   farmers  enable us  meet  needs  things progress   near future   going    lot  changes regarding  dispensing  drugs   alter  way  work    finalised  january 2003       sure just   will affect us friday 14th saturday 15th  sunday 16th june husband birthday    organised  surprise weekend away      wonderful time  thankfully  weather  good week beginning 17th june monday  quiet almost like last year  thankfully     reason    busy silaging normality  returning    still finding  difficult  new herds  really knowing  new cows yet    react one farmer said   like  new car    drive   good  miles     ease   seat  comfy well thats one way  putting  tuesday  went  see mr j  discuss  new interherd program  computer program   can keep records    herds records   can  analysis    quite exciting  interesting  shows farming  heading   computer age   farmers  learning another new skill  sure    comfy     shown mr j  program    use    keen  said   now   maybe go  cut    thistles weds thursday  quiet   catching   paperwork  went   walk  played outside   garden friday query fmd  pigs  effect     strange part  horror worry  another strange one   expecting  although   get   everything    sorting   normality  returning      waiting    appear   went back  watching  news listening   radio waiting fingers crossed sad day sat sun quiet weekend husband  working  results   pigs yet  bush telegraph  working     quite  number  worried farmers   phone   results  yet week beginning 24th june monday breakthrough  fmd talk   today  suddenly realised   evening   getting back  normal  everyone  coming  terms   paperwork farming    always  recently fallen  one disaster  another     proud   trade   now feel let     government   public   whatever reason dont seem     respect  farmers   used    just may  due       work  days tuesday pigs given   clear everyone breathes  sigh  relief     chilling effect   shows   still clear   disease  now weds   last  days    6 dairy herds   strange mastitis husband     visit    vet  vla penrith    yet   established  cause samples show nothing  usual treatments dont work     case  new herds new problems thursday day   friday sat sun   niece    lovely time   exhausting week beginning 1st july monday   invested  new interherd computer programme mon thurs  week       visiting farmers loading  explaining  new programme     havent   far   year  good  see   chat fmd  course  always still   top   list followed   milk price    regulations   amazing  sorrowful  see  deep  emotions run  stories  feelings    still  strong     emotional    resilient   still   deep feelings  wonder   effects will come    will take time friday    soa   first time  ages    look back     fill     going  review  shortly  watch  space   regulations    review   november   will see   come   sunday    vet student alison  two weeks staying  us  came  northumberland  fmd   interested  know   happened   everything      go    easier  becomes    involved   culling   found   hard     1 month   glad  leave week beginning 8th july monday tuesday  went milk recording  farm  go    get fmd    saying  hard         extent     hard  time  people  fmd just  different ways      checking  longer  farmer said  used  dread going   sheds   morning   dreaded   might find also washing  milk takers   able  visit friends  family   regulations re moving stock just   knowing  said  put quite  strain    one   ways  coped   built  tennis court  played  lot   games    family  brought  closer weds interherd day  held  meeting today  invite   farmers interested  using  programme  people  wrote  programme came along  talk   farmers    good   farmers seemed  enjoy     found   needing  sort  programme    new herds   unsure    fertilities  thurs fri visited mr w  mr j re interherd got  proper cup  coffee  proper milk thats   missed  last year  one   reasons  go  visit  sat sun  busy small animal operated  nursed  week end   shattered poor  week beginning 15th july monday visited farmer re interherd programme    positive   future    son    keen  can see  difference   attitude   past  months   first started going   unsure   done  right thing   seriously debated getting  stock back    cope   changes   regulations  paperwork    said  just loves farming    doesnt know anything else  just loves farming  now   progressed  working together within  family    good system  appear   enjoying   farm     family  generations  financially  can manage  hope  make    lovely people   real inspiration  report  fmd   recommendations    published soon      heard  far  doesnt say anything  didnt already know   recommendations   little sketchy  say  least  need  good sensible positive protocol   future outbreak   present    flared   tomorrow      mess    learnt hopefully time will tell tuesday sad news today one   clients  didnt get fmd  decided  give      tenanted farm  owners   keen   expansion  even repairing old buildings  remain competitive  sees  needs  cows  cant build   sheds    words   decided    maybe   life     mid forties    going  sell   try something new  brave  sad  think  will    first   clients    everyone asks   future    moment nothing  nobody  certain can  smaller farmers keep  will  bigger ones get bigger  new regulations  paperwork will  brought   time will tell weds husband   away   br cattle vet ass bcva committee meeting      committee   18 months now  enjoys     another feather   cap anyway  gave  talk   problems post fmd    problems farmers    experienced  also gave  talk     mastitis cases   appeared  new herds      strange mastitis cases  year anyway    competition   best talk  husband won    proud   none    vets   ever seen anything like     found  bad mastitis  cows  year  whether   change  area weather  housing  shall see thursday    visiting day today good fun  went t see  farmers    interherd    lots  coffee  proper milk yummy  also interesting  hear   different stories  feelings hopes  worries    many   ready   challenge ahead  unfortunately  arent nobody knows    things will change    next couple  years  will  good    good byee im    hols now yippee holiday week beginning 22nd july week beginning monday 29th july tuesday back  work  staff  coped really well  falling   problems   first time  nearly two years   left      bit worrying     great bunch    lucky  feel  relaxed    great fun seeing    paperwork     bit   lazy day  good weds poor mr g    terrible time  defra     restocking tt test    reactor   cow  slaughtered   lesions  found  herd    tested  60 days later  another reactor  found  slaughtered anyway   due another test  60 days    arranged  900am 900am came  went   1000am  phoned  see   happening   forgotten   come   1pm  good  last two times   tested   taken 6 hours  test  cows   still needed milked   mean   late finish mr graves explained    told   complain   bought  cows   country  tb          said  know   get people   side dont  anyway  heated discussion  pursued  eventually sense  seen  test  rearranged  another day  900am  fingers crossed thursday  got money  today   fmd recovery fund     useful  enabled us   things  wouldnt normally  able      vans sign written  got  laptop computer    great   interherd programme  got pens  pads  give  husband  able  hold meetings   farmers pre stocking  advise    look  etc     extremely useful   nice   given  money  people say     spent elsewhere   helped us immensely   feel   spent  wisely fri   paperwork catch  day today    quiet recently due  holidays  harvesting  thankfully  like last year  looked back   today last year    calls  today   four  although quiet   bad week beginning monday 5th august monday  quiet tuesday  quiet weds  quiet thursday daughter got  first job fri took daughter   sisters   week end sat quiet week end sun gardening going  holiday  next week yippee sorry    quiet  week  mentioned    usual  everyone   holiday   farmers  harvesting   caught     enjoying   days just poddling going   daughter shopping food  nice    catch  time  thursday daughter got  job  first proper job well nearly   travel inn   bottom   road    excited  already planning    going  spend  hard earned cash   friday  took daughter   sisters  lancashire   week end  came back  friday night   decided  meet   husband s mum  dads caravan near whitby  monday   week  another holiday  dont know   one   another anyway    good fun holiday week beginning monday 12thth august week beginning monday 19thth august monday visited mr  today  load interherd onto  computer   definitely decided  sell    hoping  early next year      sudden   son   longer interested   mr  said  can blame     new regulations  paperwork  lot  finding  hard tuesday    environment agency visit  morning  check     dispose   waste  practice thankfully    everything properly   visit took two   half hours  lots  form filling      check  things   extent  questionable mr g called   afternoon    problems   cows  keep going  colour    many new herds  started   well happy  settling  fine   3 4 months   arrived  start  ill  mastitis  colour  eating  milking properly  wide variety   strange  vets dont really know whats happening      regular blood sampling trying  find  changes weds   husband went   accountant  see just  bad financially  really  done last year  oh   surprise   bad  fact  nearly qualified  childrens tax relief  main thing   survived   fashion hopefully  will  better next year thursday  visited two farmers today   interherd   finding  brilliant    recently  farm assurance visits  interherd  helped  enormously  helped  reach  standards   appreciate  much easier      less paperwork heaven   good  find something  help  fri    phoning  main drug companys reps inviting    open evening   keen  think  just enjoy  crack week beginning monday 26th august  quiet  week   large  small animal  must   last holiday rush  going back  school  managed    catching   decided  four day week   nice   quite  bit  playing  interherd     visited farmers    knew   want  see    find      interested   medicines book   keeps excellent stock records    drug product  born    gone  batch numbers  expiry dates     information  need  produce   get inspected    manually can   time consuming week beginning 2nd september monday 2nd september irs 930 garst milk rec tuesday garst milk rec dog course weds daughter back  school exporting  back thursday exporting fri change date  open evening gb way now 15 10 02 exporting sat  sister  niece sun  monday every 2 years   checked   radiographer advisor  ensure everything  well     everything right  check  x ray machine  records   monitoring records  passed   afternoon  went milk recording    warm   flyie  good fun   thinking  getting  new parlour twice  big  mr g feels   future milk will    produced  quantity  quality    difficult  expensive decision  make    shall see tue early morning milk recording  morning   got  lovely breakfast  proper milk  got  check  large animal   got back  also started  new puppy training course   evening  went  well     1  1 basis  nurse runs   go along  help  moral support   good fun      long day  went  bed   got back weds daughter went back  school today ill miss  following  round helping    mum can  take   may   exporting  sheep  friday    pedigree texel sheep sale  h h borderway    first exporting   done   20 months   can guess  paper work  tripled    numerous phone calls  ad  defra trying  make sense     must say people     good  clarifying    written now theres  surprise thursday   spent  whole day either reading new expert regulations  running backwards  forwards  new paperwork     complete     bring well    fun friday well full really isnt  word   use  needed  paperwork  needed  paperwork  took    day     3 sheep  send draining  one good thing  seeing everyone   auction  new faces    gone week beginning 9th september monday ts 7th birthday   another vet student studying   moment  2 weeks    five  year  far  another  christmas   wont stay   house     carlisle   nice      makes us behave   wont   many next year     interested   fmd     chance  help     eye opener    spoke  student      affected everyone  happened   didnt now talking  almost  year   last case  dont find   hard   think  can hide  emotional      time  wasnt    angry  feel now fmd   aftermath  sadly become everyday life  dont rush  news    yearn information  think  directly  indirectly  live   everyday    really become part   lives    difficult  put  words  explain  also went  visit one   interherd farmers  lancaster    pleased     coping well mrs m  crushed   pet cow  month ago    lucky   two broken legs cuts  bruises needless  say  cow  gone  greener pastures    resilient   planning   future    nice    part   planning  also get proper milky coffee see  easy pleased milk recorded tonight  mr gs  early morning tomorrow im still trying  persuade   interherd  finger crossed tuesday early morning milk recording failed   interherd due   cow breaking  leg   never actually experienced  happening   generally hear farmers needing  slaughter cert   cow put   see    familys reaction   humbled  think   word    accident  can happen   look   faces   deep sorrow  father even places  head   hands  breakfast   talked       heifer getting ready   served   let time    difficult birth    helped well bred    jet black   huge white spot   side   prizes  guessing  name    farmer said  cant look   feed  care   day  day  without caring           afternoon  attended  course  management employment law customer service  barnard castle  went  till 9 pm  dinner    decided  stay   spoilt good course excellent food lovely hotel wednesday came back   course leisurely  stopped  penrith   bit  shopping  pleasant im   good shopper    nice    get back  11       new credit card machine fitted  duly arrived well   obnoxious man   moaning     switchboard    dial 9   wrong   wrong      going  get offered  coffee     told  without  special word    bit aghast  said please  swear     just come   course explaining customer service    murdered  god bless courses   course credit card machine men   afternoon   visited   rspca advertising company   want  advert   leaflet anyway   640  quarter   page  2 years   said  couldnt afford   suddenly dropped  410    little suspect   got receptionist  quietly check   company  connected   rspca anyway    waiting  said   still  little bit     afford   fmd see   useful  true   said      210   time   confirmed     rspca   said yes thank  bargain  rip  thursday  tried  get  head round isolation units  tried  explain   farmer    think  got  eventually  husband got back  got   explain  simple english    made  lot  sense  will  handy  people selling  buying stock    always  guidelines must   written  someone   never seen  farm  fields friday caught   paperwork  trolleyed  busy    lot  think  term  anyway   good week beginning 16th september  week   appraisal week   staff  didnt   last year   thought   better get back   swing  things  quite enjoy  appraisals   great opportunity    real good sort  get new ideas  try  recognise  potential problems  started  appraisals  bout 4 years ago   start   everyone  petrified  worried    nice  see  actually excited  enjoyed    quite time consuming   worthwhile   much     week week beginning 23rd september monday another suspect case  main difference       ones  felt cold sick scared  one  better  felt    going   positive whether   case       now  positive    just another one  confident    way   positive  definitely wasnt  worried  dont know     blasé cant spell sorry  definitely different tuesday just nicely busy today just enough  keep everyone busy husband   vet  away  week   just leaves new vet   vet     little worrying   got busy    last   dog training courses tonight   passed  tests well    pleased   progress   made    first 4 week course   run  feedback   positive  head nurse  put   awful lot  work fir      pleased    well  next one  planned  november weds experts  going  start   h h tomorrow  friday  will   first ones   done   18 months surprisingly  paperwork   side   changed much   irish paperwork  horrendous anyway  several phone calls  derfa  dard  various farmers   wishing  sell   sale  think    sorted  will see tomorrow thursday  friday ive put   one      felt    confident    everything  place   able  export  sheep first thing thursday morning dard like irish defra changed  regulations  paperwork  joy   can imagine  sent everyone   state  frenzy  another buzby full  phone calls  didnt   paperwork sorted  people  bought sheep   wanting  leave now  tempers  reaching fever pitch well   manage  export  away  thursday night 3 hours late     book different ferries  done  dusted  friday   busy congratulating   achieving  impossible      worked hard  accomplish   now  several  names   christmas card list yes  guessed    phone call  well let  say one  happy chappy    sleep catching  late ferry waiting   paperwork  arrive  larne port   sheep  impounded dard  added one  form   list  requirements   forgotten  send    mention  hours  phone calls  faxing later    pleased  say   sheep  released  free  go week beginning 7th october monday 7th october  made  trial arrangements   open evening next tuesday alls ready now    good night     enjoy   havent  one    years     good tuesday    now weve  wondering   practice  invest   house   assistant     response   advert   new vet   thought   go house hunting anyway  wasnt  much fun   first thought  start  obviously   quite  price   really isnt  easy   looked  one cardboard box  70000  apparently  went  82k frightening well  can keep  looking    vet coming   interview  saturday  fingers crossed im  tomorrow  away  bvna congress   weekend  im looking forward   week beginning 14th october monday 14th october    really good time   bvna british veterinary nurse assistant congress   loads  lectures  learned   new things got loads  freebies   trade stands  ordered  new vaporiser   anaesthetic machine  uses less isoflo oxygen  also   good halloween ball stayed   late  got back  sunday evening  3 days  congress    just settling   filling  husband  daughter     done  another vet came  wanting  hand   caesarean   dog ah well nothing like getting back   today anyway feeling  tired    start getting ready  open evening tomorrow night   farmers     lot  sorting   tidying      open  house   well  havent  one   couple  years    quite exciting  really enjoy   great    farmers round  mainly  nosh  natter night   year    drug companies paid      stands  various parts   house  surgery  normally everyone   good time tuesday open evening day  busy tidying   moving things around everyone helped  good  staff   excited    well    mucked    usual  us proud  evening   brilliant    nice  see   enjoying     nothing farmers like better   good natter food  beer quite   said   missed  open evening last year due  fmd  far  pr goes definitely worth  wednesday just clearing   sorting    staff said    good feedback  well done  everyone thursday back   now got new interherd update   spent quite  lot   day seeing  new buttons     clever interherd  sold  nmr now    helping us sell    farmers whose life  paperwork hope  make easier  man  charge  nmr  coming  see us next week  explain   milk recording side  ties   nmr  interherd friday today  one     rush round  day   feel unsure     actually done  busy   large  small side   tiring    prefer    busy week beginning 21st october monday 21st october monday  wednesday  thursday   meeting  id  nmr re interherd   going  give us cheap milk recording prices  help promote nmr  interherd   also released  version  interherd  farmers    given  first one   country  trial  see   thought    encouraging  nmr   past years  gained   slightly unpopular feel especially  cumbria   now seem  see    trying  hard   committed  improving     survey  now  area herd size etc  majority  dairy herds   cumbria even post fmd  fingers crossed friday  good day today husband  away   bcva council meeting br cattle vets ass  normally  goes mad dont know  anyway  didnt today everyone  busy   madly  large animal side       present    now tt  blood testing season   quite  lot  restocked herds         done every year  opposed  4 yearly  also   test everything    time consuming      tt test     two day job     farmer  us   two days   week   cant  anything else week beginning 28th october monday 28th october    asked  newton rigg college     interested  teaching  animal care courses   college    vicky went along   quite interesting   thought      together   work   said   think    let  know went milk recording   afternoon   enjoy playing   crack tuesday milk recorded   discussed interherd      going  use    pilot   nmr interherd job   will  interesting regarding  newton rigg offer  wont  able      part time nurse  leaving us    offered  place  dalston vets  will  able  train   vet nurse    dont     practice   will leave us short staffed   sad  everything happens   reason    now vet  nurse hunting   advertising  interviewing weds   sponsoring  class   northern expo holstein friesian shows    stand   good natter  took  photos    cows   freebies    good night barbara came     presented  prize   class  standard  cattle  amazing     really good show thursday    photos  took   northern expo  decided  make  photo album   went round    farms photographing   good fun  nice  see       good stock friday got  phone call today   sister   sold  house  lancaster   moving  near us  thats  exciting otherwise  quiet day today week beginning 4th november monday 4th november  went  show mr j  new interherd farmers version    interested  thought   save  lot  paperwork  time   say   paperwork since fmd  increased immensely along   regulations tuesday   decided    tv   waiting room  advertise products services staff etc  man  channel 6 came  took information    arrive next week   will  interesting  see   works weds  went   bank today  see  financial advisor     free service   useful   decided  buy  house   sister  live    moves    will   investment  well  bit  security just  case  last year  discovered just  quick things can change  went  just  3 months    lot  money coming   still wages  pay    now house hunting week beginning 11th november monday 11th november one   vets  recently started  dbr dip  bovine reproduction course  liverpool  part   studies   looking   cows milk quality pre  post calving  see   effects  relevant   overall performance  milk production  health   collect milk samples  certain cows twice  week   period  lactation    going  test   watch  space     lucky  another vet  enthusiasm  boundless    become   important member   team   persuaded mr j  b farm  milk record  us  thats  early morning jaunts  interherd  nmr trial  nearly ready  hopefully  middle  december everything   set   running hopefully tuesday two farmers  milk reading today     nice little trolly   treated     mr rs ice cream  nice well    support   new shop   farm    well  loaded  first farmer version interherd onto mr ws computer    impressed   keen  thankfully   worked well wednesday   computer bugs  good    spent    day   phone talking   debugging man thursday still got bugs weve   run  bug fixer disc   seven computers  takes ages peed  fed  going back  pen  paper friday  must  sounded fed    lovely little man came  fix   computers    use 3 different discs due    different bugs   meeting  discuss  nmr milk recording    quite  lot  farmers interested mainly    got  good price  nmr  fingers crossed  bugs  fixed yipeee week beginning 18th november monday 18th november due   junior nurse leaving    interviewing  week     lot  enquiries  decided  invite  possibles  come  play   morning  see   thought    got    staff   one   potential  sounds  nice   cant make   next monday   one  wrote  really good letter    came  well   sweet   really suitable  friday nurse left    little party  hope  copes okay  bought   lovely cow ornament  say thank    lovely week beginning 25th november monday 25th november ellen came   interview  good   keen  experience happy   hours    coming back tomorrow afternoon   play   went    vet   leaving  friday    chalet maid   french ski resort till april  will   sad  see  leave unfortunately still  joy   new vet front    going  leave  till  new year  try   vet  going  cover  unfortunately  means husband s  duty    bit reminiscent  fmd  well manage tuesday wednesday feeling  sorry   got  bad cold  got sent   room  everyone  fed    sneezing    honestly    shanning thursday much better today  sorted  whole load  interherd data     good play   heard  nestles cancelling contracts next year  one   farmers  felt  little unsure quite    affect       dealt another kick   teeth  quite amazing  many   heard questioning   went back  farming   feeling  effects  didnt seem   called   often   dont want  cows treated   extra expense   end  fmd  said   next couple  years    changes   way farmers   many farmers worked  frightening  see  actually starting  happen  seeing  effects   business everyone agrees  whole industry  changed   worst          pleasure now     total contrast   daughter went christmas shopping    lovely time  met husband  surgery  went   pizza lovely night friday everyones talking  nestles now  quite    angry  arent surprised  others just seem  resign       lunch party  leaving vet today   good  gave  pressies although        months  will  greatly missed  everyone  never know  may come back one day good news  offered ellen  nurses job  shes accepted  think  will   well week beginning 2nd december monday 2nd december spent  morning trolling around  countryside collecting another vet s milk samples   dbr    lovely morning chatted    farmers  lot  still talking  nestles tuesday   meeting  clarify  start   nmr milk recording gave    information  needed  set   herds  great   able  offer  farmers  good cheaper deal staff xmas party   good everyone seemed    good time wednesday day  shopping  joy thursday   interherd disaster today  couldnt get  load  normally takes 15 minutes instead took 2   half hours anyway  succeeded eventually   just bought   calf heifers    keen  keep   date records  information    one  farmer  restock now   thats everyone  will probably work    15 drop  work etc  waiting  interherd  load   telling      approached asking    wanted  appeal   amount  money   received   cattle  said  wouldnt   felt   already  overpaid   farmers  money grabbers apparently friday daughter starts  mock exams now   next fortnight    waiting   moods  start   yet   quiet long may  last    calm     actually  revising quite hard    ability       concentrate work wise ive done   lot  one   perks ive wandered around just playing  nice jobs quite  change week beginning 9th december monday 9th december daughter s 16th birthday scary even worse  can learn  drive next year never mind enjoy  safety  went   lunch    shopping   good  dont normally like shopping    enjoyed  came back  mayhem  client small animal    complaining   bill   caused  stink anyway  phoned      gone  everything  seemed happy hopefully   either misunderstood  hadnt  things explained   although difficult   better people say something rather  stewing    making   something    small animal  seem    problems  way   large animal  suppose  large animal  also  business   doesnt stop  caring  dont think        work  hours  work   didnt care sometimes  get  hard press   think     get  publicity unfortunately  like   farmers phone  say    sick cow   ask     quite often  reply  shes just   need  say anymore tuesday im going   play milk recording   new person via interherd   one   clients   quite  character old fashioned  yet   thirties   good    passionate  farming   survival    lot  ideas  wants  try  different cows   just bought  jerseys hence  wants  record  see    benefits  milked 60 cows  2 hours    farm  milk 190   time  good  see  ways weds early morning milk recording good fun  lot  relaxed    farm went  hairdressers straight  smelling  cows  pooh   hair   good job  know  well   didnt complain  much  rest   day  quite pleasant  bit  paperwork   skive sorry cant spell   lab thursday friday wow  think    christmas rush     shopping     busy   prefer  although  sit  now     good   nurse   good time  friday afternoon  helped  bath  groom  dog    naughty nicely    sweating buckets  soaked   skin   end     good laugh week beginning 16th december monday 16th december  daughter s mock exams   needed runs    school  various times  mums taxi    overtime     calm     shall see thursday  eventful   now   expectant nurse  vet watch   sit unfortunately    worry      nurse evening receptionist  worried  may  losing     several tests   obviously worried   going    scan  tuesday  fingers crossed vet  also pregnant    trying      something   long name wrong    causes   miscarriage    pleased worried excited scared   4 weeks   lambing     quite happy continuing    work  now  hope everything  ok     can  difficult working  animals   pregnant   long    careful    ok week beginning 23rd december monday 23rd december  much  getting quiet  christmas     busiest time    years   good   going  try advertising   new year   new vet especially now another vet  expecting  will  depend     may even need two  even  another vet   duty now husband     standby  case   lambings    couple  farmers starting anytime milk recording tonight  well   now    nmr well  literally    need record     bad  worked  will  xmas round  corner   mince pies made yet tuesday nurse phoned    positive   moment  hormone levels  increased     bled anymore  doesnt stop  worrying though surgery  busy    finish  130pm  sister  niece arrived  set   go christmas  ace  relaxing good fun loads  pressies didnt  time  eat  busy playing     warm friday back  work   busy day lots  calls  surgery appointments even  operations receptionist       charge  enjoyed  finding   everyone got  christmas week beginning 30th december monday 30th december busy day    receptionist  thought    quiet wrong never mind  coped tuesday nurse  lost  baby   losing   cant see anything   scan just  empty sac    going   dont know   call    can take  tablets  clear everything away   obviously  upset    say shes going  drop   two    goes     sad thursday 2nd january everybodys back  full crew  one knowing  day     get used   split weeks    moment  need  stuck   head quite busy  well   good trying  arrange tt test  farmers  never keen      threaten   defra coming     works friday went blood sampling sheep  scrapie  husband  day    beautiful day  cold    fun    stood next   stream women torture cold air  running water    nip back   van  various things   time  finished   frozen  test  part   national scrapie plan    sample sheep  scrapie      find bse  sheep  ones will    okay     plan  slaughter  national herd  bse  found    farmer said   already  human g pigs  years   indians eat sheep brains    removal  bone meal   dubious scabby sheep       problem   will wait  see week beginning 6th january 2003 mon 6th january 2003  new nurse started today  managed  well  didnt seem  confused   went home   worked  kennels     keen fingers crossed another vet    dbr   part        study   decided  look  progesterone   levels  cows post calving  6 weeks  see  happens   collect  sample   new calved cow  split   3 smaller pots  freeze awaiting testing  holland  exciting  quite boring  results   interesting though hopefully tuesday  forget   explaining      somebody new starts    nurse  written  step  step guide  c well sort     little things  havent   new nurse     hopefully  book can  used   new people  took  bit      pleased     end  spoke  mr g re  interherd   farm      now  get round  see     hard  pin   well try weds new nurse liked  new book     well   nice  us   always find  quite refreshing  someone  genuinely enthusiastic  us   close     areas  good  show someone else  can  scary   see just  much    thursday milk pot day  today  good thing  going  pick   samples   get  natter  monday  thursday  samples  collected split  frozen  quite time consuming  ive just realised  didnt ask another vet  long      friday   decided  try  get  accounts   date  see  things  going bar   able  find  vet   one   jobs  always mean  keep  top   never quite manage    much fun interruptions queries  assistance   welcome   got  good start week beginning 13th january monday 13th jan   started working  us  just two days  week  will help  lot  help take  pressure   surgery times etc  got  spend  day helping  tt testing   good fun   stayed fine    good day tuesday    milk recording day today 3  total   started using nmr now     new paperwork etc   going   cheaper   farmers  works   interherd programme anyway   went well  everybodys samples got away weds milk recorded   one   three farms first thing everytime  go    new plan     make  money  month     going  produce  new breed  cow  jersey x mri   will see   goes thursday  friday just catching   paperwork   nurse   training   new nurse   settling  really well   keen week beginning 20th january monday 20th january weds decorated  bedroom  looks brill    desperate need    like decorating  good  messy thursday  went   brucellosis testing training course   vlc   good fun  means     now tested 150 cattle  get  licence  will enable   blood test   turn will hopefully free   vet  will also give defra  bank  blood tester   future outbreak crafty  used  charge  800   course miraculously  now free clever friday     reply   advert hoorah well actually two    foreign one   germany    s africa    waiting   cvs fingers crossed defra  now changed  20 day standstill  6 days  general opinion seemed       interesting  actually find     well   regulations  actually working  well  feel    answer week beginning 27th january mon weds  busy  seem   spent  lot     car dropping  tooing  froing   nice    lose touch   happenings   surgery   tuesday things  obviously got fraught   sorted    smoothed  creases    lucky    dedicated staff due  vet shortage  another vet s pregnancy   add extra pressure  everyone none   incidents   serious  easily sorted thursday  went   sister  take niece   hospital  since   born     lump   side   head   eye   xrayed    fun persuading   lie still  stayed overnight  came back friday week beginning 3rd february monday 3rd feb    first blood sample   live cow today     abortion enquiry  due  another vet s pregnancy      ad  need  practice   good fun   hit  2nd time     pleased  another 145  go   get  licence tuesday  completed  accounts today  go   accountants   great fun  hope  come   good news   future  worrying  backlash   farmers   confident weds  cant remember   told  vet  expecting anyway  went   first scan today   far  good    worrying     problem   produces duff eggs  miscarriages  wants  carry   normal  possible  now   sheep  abortions etc  hop  works  time     4th attempt thursday  friday  nice everything worked well  mad rushes time  catch   discussed reducing    farm drugs    able  buy    internet   prescription   laws  rules will   likely  changing   beginning  march due   report done   govt regarding drugs  animal use  will make  difference    operate    remove  vet surgeons right  prescribe drugs ie vets can  write prescriptions   dispense drugs   alter things completely one way  another  farmers require  service   going    pay     now   always    reasonable mark   put   drugs   normally 50   will keep professional fees   vets   getting  money made  drugs  therefore   put  fees  although  farmer may  buying  drugs cheaper via  internet will  actually save  much  wonder  anyway    getting    pressure   number   farmers  compete   internet prices    selected   products    pay   time  can get  20   price  watch  space   will see  happens week beginning 10th february monday 10th feb  week  sum   blur   sad   funny memories  start receptionist   holiday   always seems  happen  soon  someone    get   busy  everyone    ticks along nicely mostly   enjoy    busy   worked 3 13 hour days  food  everyone worked really hard   excellent staff   sad note vet went   11 week scan  tuesday   baby  died   distraught    condition  causes      4th miscarriage   sad  called  see    just hugged   cried    say      tablets  clear away  placenta etc   gutted     longest   ever  pregnant   thought shes cracked   just  sad  funny tale   week   completely different note  helped immensely   vet  thursday      busy   farmer called     behind  still  ops     farmer settled     big chat normally   say    lot   departs    today   obviously  turn vet came    op room   know   naughty   wrote   card can    help ie  free  well instead  reading  note quietly oh   read     top   voice  added    need help     crawled    hole   opened    earth  swallow   pointed   message book  try  hide  predicament   said  loudly     want help  well  gave   decided  just fall   hole got rid  vet back   op room  continued alone   predicament   farmer  gone  thankfully seemed oblivious    happened  went  search  vet  kill  anyway  cheered us     say laughter   best medicine   can think  better ways week beginning 17th february monday 17th feb vet  lost baby came back  work    upset  weepy everyone   lovely   hopefully   just time  tlc    busy      enquiry   farmer   thinking  changing vets   really good news   three new farmers  total now     enough vets four practices around carlisle  advertised recently  none   positions   filled  quite worrying tuesday  took vet  lost baby home  today    well    lot  pain  shes gone back  bed  hope shes feeling better soon usual day otherwise weds vet   lot better today apparently  think  may   cocodamol   taking    lot happier  little drained  ok mr w came  today  cows  arriving  friday hopefully  will   last farm  restock     lot  alterations done   farm   new parlour   quite exciting thursday    sheep exports  slaughter  longtown today  first   sort  thing since fmd    course  bit   faf   now    retagged  checked   takes  little longer   afternoon    meeting  sr  university  reading   planning   research regarding  interherd programme    picked 3 vet practices  see   programme helps  vets   farmers work better together   improvements  makes   farmers record keeping    going  meet 3   farmers  use interherd  interview   give  free training    please  fri day    daughter went  newcastle shopping im   good shopper    behave     good day mr ws cows arrived  fit  healthy    us complete now ass     better sad news though  heard one   farmers dropped  dead suddenly    sad    seen    morning     normal self    quite  shock  family must  devastated mind  theres  good way  go thats  week beginning 24th february monday 24th feb another vet  lot better today almost back   normal cheery self    lot  positive  took  bull   horns   speak  reduced  prices   drugs  will   wait   10th march   find    government  going   regarding  selling  drugs   farmers   pleased tuesday  got another phone call  mr c   said   like  change vets  us  good news husband spoke   old vet  explained  etc    difficult   think    future  may   changing  vets     past  never happened  even farmers appreciate competition now    worrying milk recorded  mr g tonight  always good crack   say weds milk recorded early morning   showed   interherd programme   going  try   think   afternoon  went   vet  vet  horse  purchase  can  tricky sometimes  two pairs  eyes  better  one   turned   horse  lame   couldnt vet    will   go back another day thursday normal day    sheep exports   afternoon     efficient system  longtown   makes   lot easier fri  went  farmer s funeral  morning    sad  dont like funerals well  dont suppose anyone    stayed fine     good send    afternoon  got  opportunity     blood sampling just 15    good  getting used  handling everything  forgetting youre   end  shits  kicks  broken limbs   got blood week beginning 3rd march mon 3rd march  went  help  tt test   morning just taking numbers  now  4 farms  restrictions due  tb reactors    now   cows taken   tests  lesions   fund  now get    repeat 60 day test   farms now  defra cant keep  sounds familiar  saw  accountant   afternoon   sent 9 months  accounts     need  see   practice  now  anyway     bad   thought   income     slowly growing  main problem  farmers wont call   sick cows now  will leave  longer  try  treat   mainly due   watching  spending mr w   problem   interherd  needed  run  extensification figures   didnt add    spent  rest   day trying  figure    think  know      set   initially   may need  entry dates changed tues went tt testing   morning    lovely morning  spent  rest   day sorting mr ws problem    worked   chuffed  good   think  now understand extensifications weds caught    paperwork   morning  helped new nurse   dog grooming   afternoon   fun    really well  seems   enjoying    ended  soaked thanks   dog   looked loads better   went home good news  get  new vet  south africa starting 1403  worked    fmd  met someone   relationship  lasted hence  wants  job  carlisle  bingo  comes  holiday thursday friday  busy   practice everyone kept going    great team   really come      busy  love  way everyone pulls together    dedicated week beginning 10th march monday quiet day   monday   weather   nice      playing    quite   lambings   thats one thing   changed since fmd prior  fmd  hardly used    lambings  farmers  since  now  far  last year  put      new stock   seems      year tuesday today  milk recording day   3 recordings today   need boxes  paperwork  dont   help     milkings though   good    quite  way      nice day   drive weds thurs fri  end   weeks seem   busier   beginnings   moment    non stop one disadvantage     busy   dont   time  chat  often  took  drugs   farm  last one  restock     alterations done   amazing  see  transformations   made   farm  geared  one person  able    alone   cows interesting week beginning 17th march mon tuesday  went  another vet  mr cs   tt  blood test another vet   tt     blood  part   lay blood testers licence  needed   150   managed   good fun   weather  great    spread   2 days due   amount  cattle   really good practice     think ive cracked  now   talks  giving tt testing  lay people  quite     anyones guess weds  blood testing today ive really cracked  now  ive discovered muscles   arms  didnt know    enjoy  blood testing sad isnt  thursday    morning  alco waste management sorting    clinical waste regulations   need  detail   actually goes   waste  always provided  free service  farmers  disposing  sharps  old drug  empty drugs etc    going    start charging now   now 100 dearer  month    fri   husband spent  morning looking  fees income etc  seeing   can increase fees  help cover   lose  right  dispense drugs  farmers   still havent heard   continue     will   make  difference   just  week beginning 24th march monday   paperwork   tt test    beautiful day   enjoy   especially   weathers good     nice farmers  also get  spend  day  husband  makes  change although  work together  dont often get  see much    tuesday busy day spent    making sure everything got done  helping  weds  went   careers convention   sands centre    busy     lot  interest   long day  going someone phoned  say    collie dog running around   roundabout    new nurse went  see    catch  well  didnt want caught    really worried  got onto  motorway   phoned  police   dog warden  incidentally couldnt come  9am   didnt start til      politely explain        police dog handler wasnt much help   least  stopped  traffic bless   dog warden  appear 5 minutes later     830    managed  get  dog   roundabout  catch  everyone safe thankfully thurs fri busy days new vet  south africa phoned  hes coming  see us  monday  pick   vehicle  meet everyone  sounds pleasant   will see  joke   moment  people ask   found     got    internet    little worrying   met  first    work watch  space week beginning 31st march monday    l staying  two weeks shes  vet student  london  stayed  us   tine last year   interesting  go   changes   year ago last time    people  restocking     element  wariness    interesting  fill     things  now one thing  mentioned  noticing  stock   fields  nice       still last year talking  things  still hard sometimes although  seems  long time ago  feelings  emotions  still deep certain parts can still hit  raw nerve  seems    mere anger   moment generally people  farmers  wanting  know   still  restrictions   going  happen  shows  sales etc  will normality ever return unfortunately  think     way  want   tuesday  new vet started today  got   well   taken us  long  find  vet    work  testing carries  increasing   going  need another one wednesday  busy day husband s gone  talk   bcva conference  agm  poor new vet   thrown    deep end     busy   seems   coping well  clients   impressed  far  long may  last   good   new staff  new ideas  quite enjoy     definitely  big hit   female clients  really  make  embarrassed   female   go   consulting room  count  4   comes  girlie giggle quite funny thursday sad day today  sister   confirmed   cervical cancer      now friday  another interherd sale today one thing fmd  forced  farmers   need  efficient records  interherd  brilliant     clever one   farmers          120 milking cows now    daily records  5 10 minutes cant  bad week beginning 7th april monday busy day new vet  settling  really well  coping fine   carry    rate  will need another vet  lot   depends   much  testing   going  get   happens  commission report  dispensing drugs tuesday sr came today  uni  reading    interherd program  went round    farmers  used   helped sort   queries    good day  learnt  lot   farmers found  useful   said   come  later   year   think  might try  organise     come   practise   chat wednesday   interherd training  one   farmers wives  said just  hour   wasnt fully computer literate anyway 4 hours later   well  truly got  hang      keen   really enjoyed  thursday friday  blur  one      busy everyone   flat    going  start  vet advertising   another nurse receptionist week beginning 14th april monday got caught  today sorted    queries quite pleased   self tuesday went   local nursery  talk  vets  3 year olds   quite dreading   thankfully   great   really good  took  dressing  clothes  x ray instruments  teddy bears   operated    really good time one   asked     cows  sheep  better    still  funny feet  mouths week beginning 21st april tuesday wednesday quite busy days   lot  catch     went away  sister  niece  weekend  husband s mum  dads caravan    great time sister s biopsy  rest  week week beginning 28th april monday three farmers milk recording today  tomorrow  busy dropping pets  paperwork  advertised   vet today fingers crossed   two weeks helping sister  move interviewed  nurse receptionist   perfect  experienced  wrote  letter    husbands job  brought    area   starts 12th may  wish    easy finding  vet week beginning 12th may monday  new girlie started today    keen  capable   done really well even   computer system    dreading tuesday busy day also 2x milk recordings   bit  hollering    thinking     year    now  normal work everyone new appears   getting      saying goes everyone bears  scar    story  tell  realise           weds fri quite busy  capable  work daughter got  job   training   m apprentice course      moon    new learning curve  suddenly realise   growing  getting  job  leaving school unfortunately  morning daughter  decided  doesnt want  leave full time education yet   worried   job   wanting    business course   college   change     bid discussions   going  go   connexions next week sat yf young farmers field day today  love  days   amazing  effort  enjoyment  makes    good day   also   high standard    classes  admire  enthusiasm   young farmers  just hope  can survive somehow week beginning 19th may monday   found  course daughter wants    college thanks  connexions  bad news     done locally     local course     wasted time   extent big discussions    week   found    course  blackburn  preston  sister  mum live       happy    move   just dont know    ready  let  go  ill     big girl     sent application forms   will   wait  see now  try  get used   weds really good evening  penrith re  discussion    good  talk    diarists  realise   able  relate  closely    said   poignant  see   people  written  interesting  see    done  far   data collected    brilliant  hand   future study  enquiry    proof surely    people   wrong     many diarists start  finish  amazing im sure  can  used   many different topics amazing   personally  proud     part    although sometimes   wondered     writing   use  can see now   comes together      opportunity shame   better circumstances   helped     originally realised  thinking back    unbelievable   something   like  repeat   ever  optimist   im told   believe  hope things  farming can recover  fully  enough   able  show  people   wonderful life   hard  special week beginning 26th may never stopped  tuesday  bank holiday  busy new vet  settling  now   girlfriend cant find  job  thats  bit worrying  may leave sooner  expected oh   advertising   rest   week  uneventful really ticked along nicely  met    friends  wednesday evening  holiday   lakes  year    nice  see      good evening   also   thursday night   drug rep  nice meal    offered  pay  husband bri catt vet ass meeting  amsterdam  october     nice business link  also offered  help us get  consultant   see     ideas  improving maybe  can find vets     quite  exciting week week beginning 2nd june  exams  started everyone warns  beware  daughter   laid back     much  feel   long     best  went   accountants  look   books   end  year  far  quite finished yet  thankfully  wont  needing income support  year    much better  regulation  nothing  cant cope  honest week beginning 9th june daughter   interview  blackburn college  wasnt   nice place   im  going preston    25th   will decide   niece   ct scan   head   eventful  lisa   naughty jelly babies zapped  went well     bit sore  week beginning 23rd june monday went tt testing  another vet today    retest due     reactor    good day   nice people    father  2 sons  fmd    phone call one night    just someone crying   end    didnt know   say   wasnt sure      just spoke  mainly silly things  cant really remember   didnt get much   response just yes  nos   thought  recognised  voice    father    today anyway  lunch      farm   chatting   course got  fmd   thanked   took aback   said   appreciated  waffling     night   day  cows   shot    phoned  let us know   said  just broke   couldnt say anything anyway  laughed   said   going  hang    couldnt get word  edgeways    wittering   said   feel  bit better      good heart  heart tuesday caught    paperwork  sorted  bits  pieces  weds took daughter  preston college   interview   good  seems  nice place  cant believe  will  leaving home   end  august  scary im really going      big girl   thursday  went  visit business link  discuss   things    hopefully going  help us pay  firm  consultants  help us   see   can improve  move  practice   thats exciting fri went milk recording first thing    good fun  recording    collect one   elderly clients   dog   coming   operation  lady  92     dog   close   wanted  stay      sedated    pleased   come    girls  laugh      quite   little old ladies   visit  keep  check   pets week beginning 30th june   lot  excitement    week    kept going   caught   paperwork   going   sisters  week end  start sorting  spare bedroom  daughter week beginning 7th july mon spent  morning explaining   newest girlie  interherd    work   will enable   help    data entry side  also   little trip  around    farms  record  us  give   idea     tuesday went exporting sheep today      retagged   quite warm  much fun ill maybe get new girl   exporting weds 2 milk recordings today  quite busy  bottles  sheets  things       opposite direction    never mind    nice day  driving  thursday   got  new vet  replace vet  sa  seems  lovely   going  start  40803  used  agency    proved worthwhile  worked   rather  paying  endless adverts   give   go   seems   worked  thats exciting fri  went car hunting today     go    week end  becomes  bit crushed  sometimes  end  taking two vehicles    really splashed  rightly  wrongly  bought  new crv truck   posh   get   210703 week beginning 14th july monday person   interherd office came   see us   visited     farmers    interherd    nmr   really tried  providing quality  cost effective equipment   helpful   farmers  can now use interherd   milking parlours   really useful tues  went  see  horse   cough   treating  pony   chatting    converted  small barn   camping hostel  farm  along hadrians wall  since  foot  mouth    barn    nearly covered  costs  still    stock    many mr   saying   father used  milk  25 cows   able  make  good living    amazing  difference weds  got  new payroll package today   spent    day trying  understand     bog eyed   end   think  understand    seems  work well     lot easier  quicker thursday busy day   lots  ops  farm calls  couple  farmers   asking  prescriptions  soon  will  able  get  drugs  anywhere  lot  said  appreciate    pay   service one way  another   happy  carry        will lose money   extent   much remains   seen   will   cope friday  went  see westlife  daughter"                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        
## [4] "information  diarist date  birth 1963 gender m occupation group 6 geographic region north cumbria saturday 9th march 2002  old african proverb states  best time  plant  tree  20 years ago  next best time  now    started  diary   year ago  keep track  changes   unrolling   fmd epidemic   feelings towards  today  probably  good day  start  diary      sit    really bad week  write  comments   lessons learned inquiry  thought   check  web site   update  found    considerable annoyance   inquiry  coming  cumbria  meet  defra  hold  open meeting  tuesday night    wanted  ticket  attend     apply   week ago  overall impression    govt   want  learn lessons   looking  kids  wife   counselling course     call sat morn  vets  busy   ended  taking children  vets    watched videos   waiting room   sorted   consulted coming   cold  spending friday tb testing  restocking farm   least  managed  avoid getting kicked  crushed  farm hand   one   hard lads  wigton refused  get    fat bulls  test   getting floored   kick   f ministry want  f tested  can f coming  etc etc   putting   letter  say     tested  see response didnt get finished  farm till 545 pm  started   caesarean  5 30ammust   easier way  make  living  farming economy  bizarre   moment   silage  heaps    farm  instead  feeding straw   incredibly expensive 70 ton   feeding  better quality silage   calves    big   30  calve    nights work   ever  go  farms  stories  farmers  wanting  get   chest   maff incompetence  inconsistency  bewildering    lot  anger    went    restocking sentinel visit  mg l fm   usually   laid back  guys   told    bringing  cattle     see   court     sentinel visits   farm   fmd 11 months ago  virus  lives  month sunday mothering sunday kids   got presents  cards  mum  brought      breakfast tray  cute  pear juice    carpet tim   spent sat night baking  chocolate cake    meant  hadnt got lunch never mind church  ps speaking  characters walking  god  talking  abraham setting    knowing    going maybe   follow suit  large animal vetting  reduced  tb testing  caesareans  evening service  really lively  hp  austria  turning every hour   god now       g r called around sun afternoon   pessimistic  fertiliser sales    much land  grass around   govt grants  extensification new regulations  nitrates  giving   headache though   points     fertiliser  cause  problems    used  grass   phosphates  slurry organics lough neigh  real problems  algal blooms    blaming fertiliser    bassenthwaite      fertiliser spread   fells    really agriculture monday read test    glad   clear   farm  origin  one  batches  gone   tb  testing  lunch organic farm   just   first pay check 23p per litre   promised 36p   started  convert 2 years ago     agriculture desperately behind  admin  vets  home   least  clinical work pays tuesday caught    lot  admin  back  6 vets  day 2 cows aborting  restocking farm  disease rota still  5vets yuk  evening open meeting poorly attendee due  poor publicity    local practitioner  phoned around  one   invited   seen advance publicity    feel     interested    will  listen  moving testimony   bullying culture came    frustration  anger  comes  dealing   faceless bureaucracy distant  london 11 million animals 2000 farms  cumbria businesses wrecked lives wrecked  crisis turned   disaster  bureaucratic incompetence  political considerations   pleased  went  feel    like  sense  closure  funeral   speak  end   spoke  wife   got back  feel  can lay  past   look   future weds day  k   lunch  sort  finances etc  write diary everyone  saying   time last year  glad  fmd  finished went  see grease  school production    well done brought back memories  6th form thurs 300 pages  a4 waiting      tray courtesy  defra   mindless   rang  speak  ah   got hold  n  told      order   get  blood pressure measured   one says defra stupid idiots  much  closure  feel  frustrated     future  farm practice anal glands   come  said  vets life aint glamorous managed  calm   get  next 2 weeks  testing organised    good job    organising   trying  get folk   phone  nt easy workload picking   managed  persuade gg  advertise even    tvi hq    local practices   advertised       responses   busy   defra work spent time singing grease songs much  nurses amusement  restocking visit  lynedraw  gave   look around   amazingly clean  even  pressure washing  spiders usually make  come back   buildings  sterile   cobwebs  insect life  usually abounds even  empty buildings weird  will   lot  flies next year news  pi  headship  nelson thom    can expect  discipline  improve  friday curry  quiz   boys school  cosmopolitan  cumbria   good fun   kids enjoyed     useless   photos    definitely need  tv spent time chatting  local gp    interesting    place   son  nelson thom   isnt keen saturday 16th march working  w e   call friday night    early start   caser  ewe  lambing hurray things  getting back  normal even     dutch beltex  farmer  really fed   wants ah   sacked   threatened  kill   recently imported dutch sheep   paper work   right   come  blood sampled    sent  results   brother   still  form    refused  permission  move    sheep    shouldnt       form      blood results  defra    joke   wasnt  serious oh    complaint   deluging us  paper yes  guessed   sent another 7 x 20 sheets  a4 idiots aw    tiz     get help  sat morning    shame  hey ho    coping   post fmd constant changing   goal posts went  susan ians  another curry    really good time   decided  phase  house group   coming hopefully low moor will set   3rd house group  wigton hebron  going  change  new outlook groups sun never managed  get  church  calls  day beautiful day though  weather  really picked  must get garden sorted  seeds planted  came   call  evening   one good point   job  allow  kids  join     really growing   wanted  go  cinema   wife  late  weather good  came back    walked  dog  wound   boys mon early morning call  see  farmer    scrap metal dealer  hates authority  therefore didnt want anyone   land  fmd  refused access  maff      working   caused real problems    gun removed  police   handled badly    rogue   colourful rumour    real reason   allowing anyone    amount  smuggled cigarettes   great  hide  also runs  fishery shellfish enterprise     beach  odd times   found guilty  fined 350   trouble  never paid   went bust  everything    wife  kids names    unsubstantiated rumour  quite amusing  push comes  shove  ministry   nothing    cooperation   farmers  vet students  arrived   feel  bit guilty      stay   feel  still need space   moment    making    royal oak prayer quad   lads   good  still   got stuff  magazine  spent time praying tues  dates important cos   birthday 39 today  kids  brought presents    breakfast  bed   really nice  number  ordinary calls  ill animals  increasing rapidly went  2 new restocking farms today  think one  day  probably enough    full  stories   ministry  wanted  unload   one  understood  first  particularly upsetting     admiring  new parlour  set     put   waiting  4 months    talking    animals getting slaughtered   wife  fighting back tears   also  unsure  whether     right thing  investing   new parlour    unsure   future      reaching 50    right thing    unfortunately  think   right   couldnt say   made reassuring noises    spent  money     late now  future  dairy   good  price  going  continue    world prices    current exchange rate  uneconomic   uk  second farm  sheep  drop    grazing   burial site    planted carrots  turnips   surrounding field  couldnt listen  another set  woes    still upset   first lot  kept conversation light   sheep weds  never realised  fmd  like   grief   anniversaries  get   fears  barriers   put  rest     farm  give certificates  2 heifers sold  calf    saying    year   day  fmd hit  village  ai fellow    well    talking         saying   thinks  will  years  everybody returns  normal   revisiting farms    helping   slaughter   ai   saying    take  deep breath every time  returns  one   farms    partners meeting  lunchtime  usual aw turned  late  finally decided  advertise  see whether   vets    will come  work  fmd country    bit frustrating   foresaw     busy     nabbed d  longtown  gg ever cautious  went completely around  circles trying different options    everything else   prediction  can make    know   dont know  much depends  govt decisions  supply  pharmaceuticals  farms    future   svs state vet service    usually  15   farm work   currently  50  thursday tomorrow  will get  lunch break    resolution   managed  stop  lunch  week yet  farm calls keep coming   partners meeting today  geckos bums  goose bums rectal prolapses variety   spice  life also  much laughter  watching norman   bath jgs tortoise   come   hibernation early   anorexic much clunking  bumping 2 lambings  cow caesaer  hours  busy  call   also  last house group    end   era        house   past 6 years  different folk    god speak  us   others      time  move  friday started  another caeaser  early morning start  didnt get  lunch break time  reconsider things   folk  dinner    arranged  long time ago  seemed like  good idea  time   enjoyable    14 hour day yesterday   10 hour one today    feeling life  soul   party one couple  still trying  decide  future   farm   thought  progressive family farm  yet    convinced      finds  difficult     three generations  consider  father  go   buy stock tomorrow   son wants  come home  work   feel   broaden  options  difficult   also saying   ha d helped  neighbour  flagged      going past  wanted help  move  cow     last time  touched  cow       slaughtered  knocked    stride   rest   day   good time    looked  time  1 o clock sat 23rd march wife went   counselling course  day  left   bit  edge  morning     call sat   looking  4 kids   managed    back sore  stiff  ive missed  gym  will go back  tues still managed  get  bit done  garden    great spring day  made  feel like summer  coming went  beckfoot  beach   afternoon  kids evening went  bed early  shattered sun 24th back stiffer  gardening  went  church davidsons  moved  thursby  will  good    around   school watched northbank beat stanwix u12 s 6 0  boys played well  passed  ball around  lot son played well  must work less w es  watch  boys play  mon 25th looking forward  finishing  friday  another large test today started  8 30am  finished  6pm   least  meant     office      face    usual hassle factors   good  see   place  always well run  organised  real family farm  three generations working together  granddad  75 still  much calling  shots  craic  good  lunch   sister  friendly   wife   got custard   rhubarb tart  wife doesnt like custard   never get     bothered  make   one   kids never       conservative   asking  view   future     sold bullocks privately ie    auction     21 day stand still   price  poorer  selling via  auction defra will  allow  trade   auction   farms   standstill     dead in24hrs   minimal risk    putting everyones backs  tues 26th went   first visit  another restocked farm    4 month waiting  well  visit new zealand   made  sandstone plaque 3ft  4 ft  carved   date  went   fmd   number  cattle   almost  head stone type memorial  cow  digestive problems  right displaced abomasums rda probably due   transit  change  diet weds 27th small animal day  trying  get everything organised  going away finalised advert  vet record  new assistant lots  adverts   applicants   local practices  advertising     takers  hope       shortage    lack  confidence   area defra havent paid us   lot  visits   needs sorted    record   visits  e   lost  claim forms   mountain  paper work  will  pay   originals     duplicates  will probably pay    well   well organised   really slipping back   old ways  paper chasing  frustration without  within  palpable   just quit   will   civil servant  removed unless things change  secretarys    fmd funded computer courses  digging   paper work will   wait thurs 28th demob happy just  test  read      10 days  test  clear   busy   locum came   look around  see     sa  several days  week  help  think will   help good friday missed   church  one   boys   complete wobbler     well just tired  end  term  hope  went walking  family  friends  must learn  shoot     says    little scramble   means    dangerous  kids    fun   enjoyed   weather  glorious   fells  crowded tourism  back went   sharp edge  blencathra kids  well holiday sat 6th april came back   late boat  belfast  arrived   wigton late  grandparents  sad  see us go   think   also found us  quite tiring  kids  enjoyed playing squash    something   like  continue sun 7th april beautiful frosty morning  went  church   speaker arrived much  ss relief just    announcing  last song   sermon  think   wondering    say instead   prepared sermon went  son s foot ball cup match   10 year olds   talking    referee  making several bad decisions including  dubious penalty   team northbank  crowd well  30  us  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students   yet  qualify   harry giving  grief   fact  defra promised     test  cattle prior  turn   e end  march  havent told us  helpful  allocation   even come    useless    one farm   half restocked   parlour   yet restored  heifers  calving    milking   dump bucket  throwing  milk away  cant get  stock     waiting testing  brucellosis   heifers     farm   french heifer  went   wanted  bring  direct    farm    let  bring  heifers    farm   paper work        allow multiple drop offs idiots   high levels  frustration  complete overload      good start back tomorrow  must see   hiding    tray   never   chance  look today weds 10th quieter day  managed  catch   paper work     lot  next week mapped   feel   control night work seems   easing  fewer lambings students seem   enjoying  time  us even though    little time  actually teach      luxury   time  go  cases     take    voluntary basis    moment lunch   higher priority   education im  selfish brat thurs 11th spoke  soon chaotic  managing workload   much fire brigade work    easy fire brigade work   emergency work  needs seen urgently ie today   now son isnt  well   tired easily  today  must make  appointment     vague signs fri 12th half day finish yo   really get   3   half day week   side      wife  going away   w e      finished  3 15  kids   want    people carrier  also   muck   car     bad since fmd another positive contribution  fmd  made   life  actually feel morally obliged  keep  car    biohazard ok  still needed  wheelie bin     post  notes  bits  cardboard   excessive packaging  surrounds  medical product  seems  find  way    back seat   car  always remember reading  sunday paper article   cars different people drove     lying around   back seat    showed   personality im sure       field day   car  use   able  tell farm vets cars   mile      gone clean  shiny sat 13th april  week end    thought   saturday morning lie  unfortunately    football tournament  carlisle today 9am start    usual  get  town  managed  get  staples     trying   since  birthday  spend  birthday money  difference  men  boys   size   toys   wife frequently reminds      proud owner   digital camera  question   will  find time  set   took back   library books  made  mistake  checking   librarian  says  also   talking book  another junior fiction well  thought     lucky  get     ever bring  fines  kids   sunk    wife keep track    came home  enjoyed  good weather  fortunately  team bottomed   didnt get   next round v asked   dropped  son    football   wife gone   son  said   away  gruerly      away   girlie w e    time   family cycle ride   kirkbride   coast   beautiful     really good time came back via wigton  supplies     desperate need   tesco shop sunday 14th   easy day  cooked    tomorrow   wife   supply next week  ages since   cooked even made scones church   video sermon   ok  different saw p  s back  nz  will   arrange  catch    incredibly jet lagged  must  sunday cos everyones  church 36 hrs travelling wife arrived back   week end away  capernwray    week end  sounded      gone back   teenage years  midnight feasts  playing tricks      quite tired  pleased    early night mon 15th  diary  unfortunately died   point    3 weeks later    going back  filling   details   remember    probably  bits   really important      much going   diary  remained     list together   tax return   small mountain  paperwork  reasons  varied  one      youngest lost  temper   computer  slammed   mouse  broke  left right bar   pointer   go    now  practice manager  learnt  computing   dark ages  doss assures     need  mouse  operate  computer     enough problems trying  get  stupid machine     want     mouse forget trying shortcut keys  arrows   new mouse  bought   man assured  wife  just   plug   hey presto   find  driver  work blank screens consult hand book try inserting disk try exploring disk try windows disk consult practice manager    may  gathered    guru  says  may need  install  driver   doesnt work  will    disk  dont   mouse  use  try  find  install  driver  assures    dont need  mouse  understand   youngest son lost  temper   stupid machine   mature adult   can  times   walk away  cool   dont feel like trying   24 hours   new mouse   man assured  wife  just   plug   hey presto   find  driver  work plugged    said looking  driver installing driver   worked    first time tuesday thursday riding lights went  see riding lights    christian theatre group   performing   senior school  night   extremely funny  hard hitting   pointed     time    magazine  sketches   sorts  different things modern interpretations  parables  bible stories sketches asking questions  society    view things  difficult  put  words  thought provoking  lots  levels sat 20th april  weds 24th april lost   mists  time thursday 25th starting  diary    missed 10 days   much going   spring work  chaotic   lot  problems   trying  run  practice  5 vets plus  part time locum instead  7 full time   time  year   said    advertised  tried  get  one  xmas   view   falling milk price  mean less work   defra tasting    making     havent restocked     gone   dairy  brings us   work  saying  told     help  ill just keep  big mouth shut   practice manager says  good old days   new   rota  going       just making      went along      year  crisis management now  end must  nigh     health survey apart  feeling pressure  work    also managed  catch ringworm   leg  fungal infection  cows    itchy  sore   responding   treatment  will   get gps opinion friday 26th april remind  next time   try  interview  busy periods    embarrassing  turn  late   interview    chaotic day  managed  interview    frighteningly well prepared   lists  questions  hope  didnt put      disorganised  think  sandale view will   influential  part   interview  always take    sandale viewpoint  show   practice spread  panoramically beneath  well  sold   job  finally getting finished   exhausted   people  dinner    stay awake   sociable sat 27th april  folk  dinner last night   working flat   probably    clever idea didnt fall asleep   morning  feel like death warmed     another interview  morning  dont think  can make  good impression     good job    looking  employ rather   employed  candidate    kirby stephen farmers daughter      immediate advantage  seems fine   will offer   job  question    offer    job went  bed feeling ill    migraine  slept  afternoon    bed  9pm sad   sun 28th feel  lot better   sleep  church  af speaking   always entertaining  opening slide  knighton         keep    footie  carlisle michael knighton   hated owner  carlisle united   trying  get  club relegated   can build houses   land   destroying  club     popular anyway  second slide    grace  forgiveness  went   say  church     failures  feel loved  welcome    need gods love  forgiveness   really good  entertaining  making real points spent time   garden  playing footie   boys mon 29th monday morning   sinking feeling  helped   wifes teaching 3 days  week   trustees meeting  borderline  means additional pressure  running around  morning  working   amount  holiday    owed  conclusion    will employ     owed 46 days holiday    can take 2 months   plus  sabbatical   owed means   take 5 months   wish   happening  5 vets  owed  200 days  us  will  almost  vet   year     health diary   mention  visit   doctor   half  hour wait past  appointment time fizzing knowing      make  time  later   evening  finally saw  doc  agreed   diagnosis  agreed   treatment   occupational hazard  farm work ring worm   take scrapings     tuesday testing next door    always end  working   pen   railway   middle   stream    build  pen  dry land away   trains  dont know  suppose   always done   way   first  know   train   thunder   goes   head  startles  cows  jump sending  muddy slurry flying everywhere william  still  wearing  helmet   quad bike   drives around despite  fathers protests  neighbour   way  brain damaged  coming   weds 1st  may mayday  radio  predicting riots  paris    le pen anti globalists  london   feel  real peace   turning   month   funny   different month can make  feel  different april  always  worst month  work   lot  routine work dehorning  testing   lot  lambings  calvings  emergencies even though  beginning  may  just    always feel   passed  peak   can cruise  summer  fact    accepted  jobs    will   cover helps though  will  start  summer thursday 2nd may  spite   yesterdays predictions  wasnt  trouble  paris  london  cyclists causing traffic jams     media     report  bad news   good news  havent seen anything beyond  cumberland news   farms restocking stopped  beckfoot   rounds  sat   sunshine   beach  10 mins  thought    life though  talking  one   neighbours one   farmers   real problems getting motivated   milking ayrshires really quiet cows     anything   idea  getting excited  turn  time  moving   fast amble   spring pastures   bought  really wild suckler limousin xs   look    wrong way  put  tails   air  take     dehorning   lost one  jumped   gate another put  tail   air  took   stopping   came   block wall   end   yard unfortunately  didnt stop fast enough  crashed headlong    now   definite tilt    wall isnt  hot either  think     look   likes    wouldnt   keen  get   bed either friday 3rd may spoke  early  things easing  2 bad calvings  caesarean  testing plus  usual ill animals  got finished  5 45  took  wife   dinner   cockatoo  cockermouth  pleasant    wanted  go   socialise  10pm  wanted home  bed sat 4th may  yippee took  kids  nichol end  went canoeing   lake got absolutely frozen   really good fun  rained  spite    good weather forecasts    style  canoeing   always soaked anyway   picnic  one   islands   fun came back  slept   afternoon   taken  boys  see  fa cup    happy playing around watched ghandi  dvd  night     moving film   ambiguities  politics came    muted extent   interesting  often makes  wonder   much  govt policy  personality driven   inability  individuals  fight  system came   front page   times  morning    toddler   died  post op haemorrhage following  use  disposable instruments   tonsillectomy large amounts  money   spent  disposable instruments   always inferior  good quality surgical kit several people  died    use   one wanted  take   small theoretical risk   may transfer nvcjd  approach  risk management  prioritisation within government   civil service   poor    fait    press   helpful   like  see prescott stand   say   wants  deaths   railways   never will  less money  spent  safety   railways  trains   convenient times  run  lower costs     fewer deaths   roads    one holds politicians responsible  deaths   roads  aint gonna happen sun 5th may church  dn   brilliant  getting  kids involved son s face lit     walking   church  see  walking  botchergate  guitar  hand    skin    cast   snake  based  songs   kids   talks      new creation cor 5 vs 17 getting rid   old self  hence  snake skin   brilliant   guitar   real performer wasted   tax inspector mon 6th may maybe getting  kids soaked  frozen  sat    good idea     coming   colds now tim   chesty      night hot  wheezy  infection always goes   chest  helvellyn will   wait  another day  concreted posts  pressure washed  yard  boys loved helping  demanded  play football  payment ag     dad  dropping   caravan   away   w e p called   manchester en route  thailand   handing   notice  going booked summer holiday  france  now   work        way   back tues 7th may went testing   really    kids bug  feel hot  feverish went  bed  rest  day weds 8th didnt feel like getting   bed  went  work first   deer rta   supposed  meet  police car    police either car  policeman   glad  wasnt  controversial  important    taken  details  hope     end    afternoon  spent chasing stirks around  field  abbeytown  dehorned      done  time last year   nt   fmd theyre now 2 yr old  means   really  big  go around upsetting two went   dyke one way   went    side   ones garden     abbeytown road     bit   rodeo  ended  charging m  hurt  shoulder trying  escape    happy   morning  got  letter asking   cut back  milk production   jokingly asked      winter    farmers will  given   christmas  long term  look   good   least  will  2 new graduates  training  cope   upturn    comes thurs 9th day  unfortunately spent  morning shopping  carlisle  meant wandering around shops  trying  find clothes  needed   daughter   dress sense leaves  lot   desired   keeps  right met gb another carlisle vet   good  havent seen    bit  lunch    nice though also got   bits   tennis net  will  able  get    annoying bit   got  parking ticket  sent  blood pressure  now  know  often park   paying    wrong places   just living dangerously      carlisle   decided  go   lunch    reason    wife s car  usual    change   car well  usual    money        blame  know  never  change   car    enough  2 hours   pocket    honest    opinion quite long enough  carlisle shops    way  lunch   made  special trip back   car park armed  coins ready  pay  city council  extortionate fee    spend  money  carlisle city shops  first machine refused  coins  even tried  2nd machine  also refused  accept  hard earned cash   left  note saying  machine   working   windscreen  yes  guessed   came back  find  traffic warden giving   ticket  justified  action  saying  w ere 4 machines      bought  ticket grrrrhhh fri 10th finish  another week   tb testing  lot  cows  netherlands mris meuse rhine issel  good beefy looking dairy cows dual purpose     test   dont know     keep page st happy    tested prior  export  holland   want  tested   farmer   bio security conscious    land    single block now bounded  roads  arable cultivation    cattle  insisted  tested     results prior  purchase  spite    good sense   still going    missing vials  porton    paranoid conspiracy theories   spread  fmd   part  cold flu feel  though things  getting back  track  can look   next 12 months  confidence thereafter depends  whether  wto wins   eu  get rid  subsidies  whether maintaining  food supply within  eu  seen  important  one thing  fmd  taught     never know  will  coming next   feel guilty  saying     train crashes  seeing  crash   news today  potters bar sat 11th may working  w e  saw another calf  ccn caused   deficiency  b1 usually rare  seems   much  prevalent  year due  old grass  pastures dont know   greyhound client  bringing   greyhound  behalf   one else    chased   practice  non payment    stressful half hour negotiating   irate idiot   paid  old bill  stumped  front   new one  seemed placated treating  animals  easy spent  afternoon   garden  fixing   tennis nat   given  old second hand net    fixed    concrete    good fun playing   kids  concrete   level   lots  loose stones   bounce   bit erratic went   50th birthday party     teased  work   maintain   friends   children   20 s    good craic   food  brilliant   one   partners   lawyers  carlisle  complaining       hourly rate  charging   185 consequently  couldnt attract good lawyers   firm   city firms  offering far greater salaries   charging   juniors  200  couldnt admit   hourly rate   45    think  45 hour   lot  money     9  5 lawyer sunday went  church nl   still half asleep   late night spent  afternoon  evening   calls  ok till  midnight call   decided    lawyer  probably  much better idea monday 13th half asleep   w e  took  little   get going  kept  week  bit quieter       lot  last minute dehorning  castrating  hasnt come    really  quieter    office work  trying  work    two computer systems        balances   accounts   tired sore head   worthwhile    preferable  sorting rotas    came home  sat  read tintin much   wifes disgust  also looked   cash flow predictions   totally   line  usually take  pessimistic view   err   side  caution    totally  fortunately  right way  partners think    waste  time  effort  try  predict  much   bills  farmers  going  pay   month  pay every month   pay every now   either    time  money    accountant  vat man needs  books  suppose   right  cares  long    pay also finally caught   gp  ringworm still  getting better  finally  antifungals   farmers couldnt get hold   vet pretty quickly  discuss whats going    give us earache tuesday 14th halfway  may  time  get  rest   planting done   garden beautiful weather  feels like summer   gg   visit  trading standards   bulls     given  certificate  fitness  travel   now  slaughterhouse within  hours drive    cattle ulverston   nearest   animal   fit   transported alive   reason eg    lame  blind etc      shot   farm   carcase transported   slaughterhouse however   new meat hygiene regulations  2 3 years ago  carcase   arrive within  hour   shot   fine  black brow  operating  slaughterhouse  since   closed    options   animals   shot   farm unless  put     freezer    consumption thus whereas    borderline cases    shot   farm   carcases transported now  pressure   get  transported alive   farmer loses  value   animal 500 600    pay 75  get  shot  disposed   sooner either carlisle slaughterhouse  black brow slaughterhouse get working   better weds 15th day  spent  morning catching   paper work feel better    never  favourite job    bits  pieces   place   tax return just waiting   final  pieces  paper wrote  caustic letter  council   parking ticket  sent   cheque   worth  fight went   front art gallery  lunch  one  made  set  peat rings   golden bowl   centre  wanted hundreds  pounds   art creation   dont ask  dont get spent afternoon running  kids  wife  taking   town  hair cut  girl time last football match  northbank  son lost thursday 16th  long lunch  back  wasnt much happening vet wise  still  lambing today   season  dragged  one restocking farmer   today   ewe   lambed   200 sheep   supposed   fattening  market 20  lambed  guy  bought    adamant   never near  tup someone needs  tell    birds   bees   also  good  slightly apocryphal story  defra licensing   needed  licence  move  bull  licensing department asked   bull going   used  breeding purposes yes   farmers reply will  animal  coming   contact    animals friday 17th another tb test another restocking farm  stories  best one   fact   cattle  lain   week   pasture field   shot  decided  plough    barley   back end  spent  summer pressure washing  farm buildings   gleaming state  sterility   animals  lain   still obvious contamination  blood etc   ploughed    failed  buildings  specks  dirt defra  just  interested  contaminated blood stained earth   also phoned  day   arrived  send  one   arrange tb testing  chaos   continues sat 18th may     best man  friend  around last night  news  getting married    wedding every month   next 4 months must  something   water   moment unfortunately  meant    really late night celebrating    working  w e   getting   saturday morning surgery   bit grim  survived       animals  worrying thing    sure  drs  just   spent  afternoon playing football  tennis   kids   yard  mowing  grass  farmers   now silaging   roads  full  tractors flying around   times  night  day sat evening went  wife  hear sa speak  kds   good  see   clare   visited   bombay   height  fmd   always puts things back  perspective  runs  mission hospital  thane  outskirt  bombay    self funding  charging  rich  luxury service  long way behind  nhs  providing  basic service foc   average indian   now talking  trying  raise funding  building  aids hospice  provide pain relief  dignity     dieing  aids    stigma  cost  risk  cross infection   hiv  tb  lot  aids patients  just thrown    homes  hiv ve babies  abandoned   says    epidemic sweeping bombay  will leave  lot  orphans  cause secondary epidemics   immuno suppression     really  addressed  thought provoking  makes  millions wasted  fmd look  sick   global perspective sun missed church   morning   seeing  cats  dogs   surgery  dripping calf   large animal bay spent   afternoon  visits  work   play  making   grumpy boy 2 w es   row   good mon aw   worse mood     least   worked w e   winding every one    attitude   sthg  will    addressed  will     partnership decision wife  interviewing fc tonight  christian viewpoint  carlisle  came back full     good  people  interviewing   also challenged   f  saying   importance  treating people  loved  valued  god   ways  similar  s  valuing aids patients    valued  god tuesday missed gym  3rd week   going   getting really unfit    duty   spent time talking  folk  work valuing     nice   came      always likes   call     never seem  know whats going    mind still waters run deep weds dad phoned   decided   come   w e away  w e    family reunion   looks like  will  just  family  ps   kids love meeting    cousins even   will  doubt complain      girl cousins     girl   wife s side   family  mine    bit worrying     losing confidence   anything outside  normal routine    times like   realise london   really  close   problem  working  many w es doesnt give much time   travelling     see  thursday g  away   course yesterday  came back full  doom  gloom  along time   relied   drug sales   substantial part   business    various government reports   queried  monopoly     move  insist   provide prescriptions    drugs   allow  farmers  pet owners  buy  drugs  whatever source  want internet pharmacy  us  means however   professional fees will inevitably   rise  compensate  means  will  uneconomic   farmers  use us   will    present economic climate  means  job carlisle brampton  dalston vets   starting  write prescriptions  means    going    follow suit  farmer  rents  field  silaging tonight  got back  house group  find  tractor follow    start rowing         day  decided  take  gates   hinges     narrow gap    time  night  clunk   pillar  ok   dont want    replace  wooden gates   just started  pick     went  bed  11pm   idea  time  finished friday g   ill help  looked  though  might miss    w e away    working  w e   fact    meant 3 w es   row  6 nights   row managed  help persuade one   assistants  step  thankfully   finished  lunch time  slept  catch     call   kids came home  school  set    w e saturday 25th may dovedale   derbyshire peak district definitely    w es away   working    great time   cousins stayed   farmhouse b b  use    working farm    high    small  sustain  dairy   went    3 yrs ago beef  sheep   making  money    concentrated  tourism  grass let  fields  neighbours  now renting  land  farming  beautiful walk along  valley   tea  relaxed  slept like  log sunday great british summer makes  wonder   one  want  go abroad wet  cold  went  water world  watched  kids big  little go flying around  flumes   good  catch    brother  family  boys  play footie  day long   happy monday   catch  breath  tidy  flat  tenants arriving thursday spent day trying  reduce  weeds  garden  went swimming  night  boys still wanted  play footie    get  energy    bottle    make  fortune tuesday  felt like hard work going back  work  time   always seem   tired  head achy  seems   hard work  get going  ai just dont feel like  anything including writing  diary   good news      new booted bantie bertie  cockerel    now ensconced   run   hoping  get   young ladies     distant future   cute      moon   weds getting going  spent time talking   wife   always puts things back   line communication went    pregnancy diagnosis early  morning   farmer  complaining   cost   vet bill   wanting  learn   check cows  see     calf prior  drying   whole economics  dairy practice  milk  13p per litre  beginning  hit home     nice starting    realise    make money    one    vets   really bad form  week   causing  lot  friction   will   deal     staff    arms  least    tomorrow prior  working jubilee w e  mother  law arrived   kids love complete   special treats   snowballs went   dinner  mother  law   tired  enjoy  due  early morning caesarean thursday  spent morning getting flat ready    new tenants moving   clearing    girls went shopping dry weather  intermittent heavy showers tackled  long grass  front   grass got  wet  clogged mower picked  kids    fatherly bit went  bed early  head achy  washed   caught   zzzzs friday start   jubilee w e   duty   next 5 days  5pm weds evening work busy  bits  pieces  farmers complaining     wet  silage one   vets  issued  pets export certificate   cat  come back  uk   put    2 years  one    valid  2 years  dogs  1 year  cats typical friday afternoon problem  sort   help line  closed  training  maff offices  closed   bh w e  dont think    way around  either  will   able  sort   till weds day    due  ferry  tuesday oops also  bitchs owner came   ask    open tues    due   date  will probably need  caesaer johnboy called   evening wanting   go   loyal supporters meeting  carlisle united   spy im  call  couldnt oblige thank goodness sat 1st june office staff  asking     2 vets   whole w e    beginning  feel     split      staff    least  others will get  break  come back refreshed   feel like   looking   barrel   gun horrendous calving   heifer    calf  mistake   father   supposed   gone back   breeder   buyer  still tied    twenty day rule  calf  died   gassed  ended   caesaering  spite  rotten calf 2 hours hard work   heifer will  best   ill  several days sun 2nd june  day  football went  church  made  quick exit  watch  football   everyone else  quite disappointed  hebron  night dm   goals   reactions     big screen   linked  romans 12 therefore  urge   offer  bodies  living sacrifices    act  spiritual worship talking  worship  god  everything   including   react    english football team perform  clever  memorable way  expounding  bible went straight   son s football presentations   quite fun    real football sub culture   amateur football clubs  carlisle  vying   top spot  old pals network  animosities seem    prevalent mon 3rd june busy night  early start 2 x prolapses  always   bh  second one   wild limousin heifer  charged   sent  flying   injury   sore fist   thumped    eye  try  deflect     trying  get  away gave   fright    heifer   bred   couldnt sell  store last year   restrictions chatted  farmer  started getting   4 30   fmd   couldnt sleep   still   now  still   got  sheep    cant face   lost  sheep   cull  kept  cattle   started  admiring  view  said yeah    great apart   damn windmills    brilliant viewing looking    solway   great orton site   windmills remind   everyone else   flocks    big pit  says  can still see  going  feels guilty  didnt   heart  tell     10000 blood samples taken  gt orton  2  positive   big mistake   caused big hurt   area   one  admitted responsibility   one ever will tues 4th june watched    jubilee stuff  tv   calls amazing sight  see  mall full  people   ever  yet rupert murdoch   press   us believe   monarchy  finished  managed  cope  just  two  us  call  may    right also made  start  byre remind  next time    dinner party   bh    working    poor wife  4 kids   dinner  prepare   called    cow caesar  3 30    another call   fortunately   taken tim    one less  fight  got back   told       bath    help   smelt evening  really good fun  hilariously funny  even  kept going   wrong side  midnight    early start  pretty good going  will   get phil    senator homes skit   wedding weds 5th june   feel like getting       felt even less like going  work managed  extricate us   problems   cat    passport    give   defra system     expected richard   suspect fmd calf  tuesday  wonder    bit jittery   spoke   later  even though  know   probably isnt going    case    farmer  panicking  still sets  butterflies flying   bvd spent   hour   half  morning   phone sorting    aw calls  rubbish queries   helpful  friendly  sorting  licensing  drugs  repeat prescriptions one   woman complaining   neighbouring practice  required  bit  tact  think  drs must    busy  us  tally   celebrations  1  ill  flu  bad back one wrist sprained  scooter racing   street party    kids  gone  bed  one  spent  w e visiting  boyfriend  hospital   said   needed  go   friday   doctors  put       w e   worse  sunday   waited till   football  ringing priorities priorities thursday went  house group   really good  spent time praying   group church area   world situation friends  trying  work      india   teaching   boarding school   south  india      family  also  school kids  think   consensus    foreign office advice  aimed    indian  pakistani govts   uk nationals ian  supposed   visiting    flight booked   still going   moment  really cant believe    escalate  situation   will  tit  tat   going   brink  neither will want  break face  ramifications  sept 11th still keep reverberating around  world   balance  power alters makes fmd look like  picnic  least   stable govt  says  abides   laws friday  secretary asked  morning    want meaning tea  coffee   replied    prayed wisdom   2 sugars    difficult partners meeting  lunch time poor timing  priorities   england  playing   assumed   lose   meeting went well   issues  discussed amicably enough  frankly enough    know      issues  addressed   james says    asking  wisdom  also putting   action  night leant   fence  talked   neighbour   thistles   supposed   cutting  carried  growing     nice evening  works  stl  christian book distributors   saying   fire    just   arrived   time seemed  disaster  caused chaos   made  make decisions     made rather  continuing   status quo   hind sight    good thing  wonder   look back whether  changes  opportunities  fmd will make us appreciate  decisions      make  made  think   woman  came  today saying   one   lucky ones  didnt get fmd  much tongue  cheek    much worse       gave   job   couldnt sell  calves    born    one   look     went back home  work   farm  job  course   filled   mean time     made  lot  money  less hassle    stayed sat 8th june finished  long period  work   call  sat morning   came   heavy showers    hoped  climb helvellyn today  eased    night   just  well    going   bbq   put    s african vet  defra   now working  longtown  last time  drove   charlie  ruths   hosting  bbq    pyres   burning  gave   funny feeling driving back    food  good   craic  good     good time  kids   kept going    beginning  get high  midges   get north   border  definitely worse    lumps     morning sun 9th sb spoke  church  jesus healing  blind man  pool  siloam    easy  follow friends called   stayed  tea   usual blunt  controversial  ever  always   good insight  dresses    taking things  extremes   also  funny      good meal son   high   kite    going camping   school  week      kit ready  go    settle  go  sleep  kept   boys awake mon 10th pouring   time   school camp  borrowdale never mind theyll enjoy   way 3 farms   silage pits burst   grass   put   wet  silage  made   grass   wet  flows  slowly   support   weight   bursts  side walls  will flow    heap     put     plenty  effluent coming   will usually escape   normal collecting systems    gets   becks   worse  slurry hunters stream  black  effluent   environment agency   testing  water quality   will    high jump  contractors   far behind   grass  getting  long  bulky   doesnt dry   quickly   may well       least  farmers will   warning   will    fault  school kids  back   work experience week  must  hard    follow   going    seem  enjoy  selves  worksheets definitely help  give  structure   feel    going  crusaders meeting  night pretty disappointing response    lot  can  tues 11th june workload  set   im just cruising  managed  get   gym   first  feel full  energy    feel full  energy  expending  spent half  hour  net trying  get holiday organised  finding places  6    easy  weather  better  son camping    better   w e means  will hopefully  quiet  work    go    fields weds 12th  calls  night first time since finishing  defra    call  night summer  truly     call just  half time  815      break  got  see  second half  england drew 0 0    t o  next round caught   paper work   sorted  lot  things     place   2 new vets thurs 13th meeting  bank manager  executive lunch sandwiches  bells  asked    new normality  seems  excellent phrase  seemed happy enough    always interesting  see   outsider views  information given  problem  usually knowing  questions  ask  think   probably  seemed happy enough    always interesting  see   outsider views  information given  problem  usually knowing  questions  ask  think   probably true   inquiries  fmd unless  know  questions  will  get  right answers went abseiling   sandale   house group  church    bbq     nicer   wind hadnt howled   gone prepared  british summer weather    still pretty nippy   great fun fri read another test   ir s  tb inconclusive  will    retested  60 days    writing   paper work  farmers wife  saying   kids    school  nursery  hand foot  mouth   taken  youngest   ill   middle kid   doctor  doctor  said      middle kid burst  tears   thought   going  take  baby brother outside  shoot    funny  also  sad   farmer  really fed    cows   supposed   tb tested prior  arriving   farm   also let     long 5 acre field   water troughs   far end   field half  cows   found  trough     thirsty   time  came back  milking time  idea   just go  replace  cows just like    quite  case sat 15th june saturday morning spent  gardening  strawberries  coming  even though  gooseberries arent quite ripe picked   start  harvest   one strawberry   reddish  went  visit friend   wide screen tv   football match  one expected   english progress   lads surprised   played  stormer   game  brazil will become  match  practice bbq  watery june sunshine  good fun   ground   wet  play silly games  even footie  food  excellent aw  notable   absence hey ho bbq   need   revamp maybe abseiling though  dont think  can see either r  aw going   showed s around flat  met  parents remind    wise   kids sun felt tired  ill  washed   slowing   switching    busy day yesterday   week watched  ireland match    close spent rest  day sleeping  just chilling  mon went testing  k  td   really nice lads    hot   academic front  good fun    good form  hoping  get  low    new vets yes   young free  single  far   know  pity  chances spent  lazy day   sun   gentle pace  quite enjoyed  caught    paperwork  night  feel mellow tuesday  many os one call  cancelled    one still wanted  call   one went   wrong o     make  mad dash  pour oil   waters  explain     late oops   testing   quiet day wife also   quiet day   supposed    group   going   retreat day   speaker  cancelled       r   went  well   exhausted  giving   day met   lads  night didnt get  gym      go  calve  schistasoma yuk weds tried   work     going    summer holidays  doubt  will get organised eventually came home early  lunch   forgotten    coffee morning   felt   place amongst  many women skipped  early  went   cycle  make   missing gym  first part    annie   zipped around   bit   good thursday k  t    r   need  new supply  little green forms  put   context prior   year  16 years  practice    4  rs      week  another farm  restrictions friday bad hair day england lost och well never mind   life richard drummonds report   svs  unprepared yeah     saying      realise   svs   saying  2 years ago   picked    audit office    report case  fmd   pig  leicester mkt    another  r  met  jm  temporary vet  carlisle svs      done  tests allocated mostly cos  arent    also   cynical   changes  defra   management ethos   changed  brought  message back     test   sent back   guy   old recluse   impossible  deal            resources    responsible  ensuring    done  sorting   recalcitrant   afternoon   ran round   kids  wife  reports next week must  better sat 22nd june wedding day  d  s yippee d   best man  usher plus 3 others arrived last night    really nice   young people around    forgotten  much  enjoy young people  must  getting  old  cynical c looked   boys   went  town   really nice s   stop smiling    wigton carnival day    two pipe bands  well    heard drifting   vows    kilt    got mine    occasion  reception   tullie house    really nice relaxed venue   seated opposite friends    really nice catching    b d  just back  another wedding  vancouver  really impressed  bc    doors fanatics   skiing mountains  whistler really   thing barnes   looking   kids  night  going     gap year  work   book shop   really great      celeidh   evening    lasted  3 dances   absolutely exhausted  didnt realise  tired   sunday fortunately    family service ie doesnt start  1100   lead   young adults group   really fresh  good  also dont take   seriously   take jesus seriously    good monday missed swimming  cos work  really busy crusaders meeting  night  rydal  good met      leaders  havent met  folk  work  young people  always good fun    wicked sense  humour   need one   youth work   youth work give  one tuesday diary   get filled       weds morning  reached  back   car   back went  tore muscles    long time ago   often niggles   long   keep   exercises  stretching  building   muscles   ok    missed   swimming relevant  way saw stars   agony  flat   back  stretching every 2 hrs  sore saturday 29th june  back  slowly improving  can move around  type  can   stretching ok  stiff  achy rather  spasm work must   bad   two left    going   short staffed    dropping  nothing  can     new vet called around  look   flat  moving   months time  came   mother  farm  culled   fmd late     just got  herd    wanted  breeding  mum  talking    going   grieving period    days   yes carry   get going    days    bother   just   much hassle  will take  long time   memories   farming community  fader    acknowledgement    much better  get  disease  get     cooperation  farmers will  even less    17th generation   farm  whole concept  bio security needs   looked   farmer education    disease  spread  self imposed isolation   sending kids  school etc  just stupid   go   flow   difficult   well   defra imposed ridiculous rules    allowed  leave  house  3 months  just view    punishment imposed   refused  let  hefted flock  culled   right    old tenants  moved    cottage eddie  ruth seemed  really enjoy    summer holiday   work  change   good   rest   say   looked  jobs   nothing appeals    job   wouldnt mind    consultancy  doubt anything will come will   wait  continue  see  happens went    meal  giannis  night   dad     w e sunday p spoke  family focus  church    encouraging   always  revelation   takes things         watched brazil beat germany  win  world cup wet weather  kids   sorts  back still sore yuk monday drove   first time  dropped  dad   carlisle    pretty sore   time  got back dad   good form    enjoyed  time      getting older     london   going    visit    regular basis went  work    paper work  answered phone  felt better   sthg  pretty bored  couldnt sit still  really get going either came home  lay   d came around  night called  absolutely hyper    going  split      good even      un expected  thing   brought   head   fact   seeing  one else   also married   good situation lads came around  night   good fun     good time tuesday   now  father   teenager  bday    good  see  opening  presents  morning back  easing  lot   small animal today    moving freely  still   exercises  birthday  also always  time  reflection    born  year   day   arrived  cumbria      14 years  long time  future  also looking  bit uncertain work wise   farmers complaining   prices   milk  animals hence  dont want  pay  bills weds  saturday  usual  diary gets missed   crisis hits    writing    following tuesday  bringing  diary entries   date weds morning   driving  wigton  done  first farm call since   back    lots  flashing lights   ambulance   unmarked police car    lights  going  wigton  stopped   lay   wigton high st  traffic  slow     see anything later    coming back   wigton  another call    pass  closed  office  full  news    pass   closed    stabbing    welshman   wigton woman   taken  hospital   wigton man   arrested  attempted murder  got  sinking feeling  d   around  monday saying  ali   boy friend  said  wife   said surely   got back  work   friend arrived  unfortunately   d  story emerged   next  days    forced  wife  knife point  take      meeting  boyfriend    attacked   sort  story       papers  crime programmes      police taking statements  trying  come  terms     usually  mild almost submissive personality    flipped  really weird   3 girls   now going   really mixed    father  attempts  kill  mother   nice   missed  leaving party   locum    working  us   past  months    accounts   good saturday 6th july still  shell shock  d    still  believe   happened went  saturday morning  sorted  car  got testing list   date    lot   veterinary press   future   lvi system   future  farm animal practice  future   looking good  short term  fine  anything  will   huge amount  work   can live   fmd capital   farmers     begins  run     will   serious difficulties  economics    farm animal practice went    brilliant meal    really good evening  cs  husband   detective sgt    called     yet another serious incident  time   night club  cockermouth    22 year old  newcastle hospital  head injuries  felt sorry  c   cooked  hostessed    better half sunday church  good  sg   character  god   quite funny   illustrations  fatherly things   life espy   son  quite  character met   dc    defra vet  sa    good form   another locum set     finishes  longtown monday back  full swing    much happening read  test  felt  lot happier   didnt   leave  dreaded piece  green paper  everything passed   farms  went  though   interesting  note   farmers    problems   backs     pressure washing   amongst stock   fine  going back  pushing animals around  bad backs  back  topic  probably raised    fact       bad back du called     replacing d   railway   can get something sorted    permanent basis  stayed  2 years next door    railtrack training  people  work  believe  dave  done sthg like    usually  anything  submissive guy du  just got  keys   new house  manchester    based now     happy   posted back   cumbria  hasnt even managed  move  tuesday work  quiet  long lunches good  getting  things done  pretty boring looked  rota  checked websites reports   published  18th july spent time sorting  rotas  booking   reorganising  kit weds day  went  carlisle   bounced   wife   getting  hair cut    assume   expensive hairdressers   getting  done  dragged       fait accompli  least  assume   expensive   wont tell   much     let  go   tescos  said   pay   wandered around book shop  carlisle  met wife s mum   bus  vet student  usa arrived   couple  days jamie      assumed male  female   amazing   make assumptions   read e mails  take messages    uk  12 wks  friend  given   address   wife     twins   thought  better     people  really necessary   house     babies   moment got  photo  e  morning  friend called around  say  friends    baby   couldnt remember whether    boy   girl learnt later    boy thursday   lot  j  see called   see friends new kittens posh becks   cat flu   busy painting house  tidying    wedding never seen  yard  tidy must tell abbi  get  move   maybe  will finish     building work  well  2 calvings   afternoon  finally read   audit office report   downloaded ages ago   pretty accurate apart  nick brown insisting    going splendidly well  really must   better working relationship   ministry svs vets   vets  general practice   much better communication   point   never made    farms    mass disposal plan  part   iacs return  order  keep fmd  peoples minds    already disappearing   part  history  history will repeat   nobody listens     anguish  delays    disposal systems friday dropped j   wigton  catch  train   always strange   students   stay   house    much part   lives    drop    lives another former student   just back  sa called     good  catch        way back  edinburgh   5 year reunion    qualified 5 years   thought   2  three one   vets   ill   meant  bit   run around today  2 others   holiday    good   busy  get  adrenalin pumping saturday 13th july working saturday morning  days like   think   great    small animal vet  consults   straight forward    chat   owners     stop  think      animals   2 owners  really appreciative       felt good  think   one   things  working  defra  one appreciated     ok  appreciated  concern  effort   way      one really thought      good like putting pets      best   one likes  beautiful day today   sun shining  picking strawberries    bar b q  really  pleasant  brother always says  best thing  nz   lives    can plan    barb  2 wks time whereas     go   flow sun 14th first call  wandered around seeing ill cows several lots  drugs  put    lot   restocking farms  yet  get  medicine cabinets back   strength   collie hit   tractor   eye   knocked    socket urgh eyes give   creeps mon 15th operating day      anaesthetic monitoring  plenty  ops booked  health  safety requires us  check  operator exposure  anaesthetic gases   new system   scavenging system   light years ahead   one  use      waste  time       checks done   wonder  many  practices actually    never  checked  upon  police man arrived   front desk      phone  head nurse disappeared  soon   saw  marked police car  struck    suspicious    booked  appointment   dog    left   curious  know    disappeared    gone  check   medicines cabinet   keep  gun  dangerous drugs   fact locked     operating  keep  open     easy access   emergency drugs  gun licences insist    kept locked   times  immediate access   police officer coming  check  must  allowed   never  checked  upon yet farmers   busy  field work    wanting  even think   routine work      quiet week tuesday 16th beautiful weather  raspberries coming along nicely wife s mum  busy making jam  mile high pies yum yum partners meeting  lunchtime    always make   depressed  subjects         cope   changes   drug sales prices     compete  irish drugs  brought  illegally  got  little  forward  will hopefully  able  make  decision     deadline  september  need  look  new ways  bringing  revenue streams   dont think    willing ness  look   radical   will   keep working away   weds 17th met    lads last night  pray   craic  good    chat  joking  praying twas good   apparently   good time   cs lewis convention   yet  open  book stall  sells books  specialises  antiquarian  first editions  cs lewis  one thing   internet    frees  communication  searching   really obscure sorry   weather broke today   rain came      calls   farmers got   routine stuff done   good   last   school kids   plagued us   past  weeks vet students next   least  can chat away      make   effort thurs 18th went o  farm today  restocked  feb    4 months waiting   yet    tb test asked  whether   chase     like everyone else   leaving   october  housing maff efficiency rules  also tested 44 imported heifers   supposed   blood sampled within 7 days  calving     missed    confidence  either   reports  actually achieve anything part   feels   try  contact  media  try  get   push  agenda along   dont feel   achieve much apart  sticking  head   parapet     much   asked  copies  none  arrived yet fri 19th demob happy im  holiday  5 30pm   will  good  catch     things    done   done  garden   mess    getting  top   slowly   ways   glad      lli  reporting   least  will  get wound      signing    week next diary will   sat week holiday week beginning saturday 20th july saturday 27th july    week    feeling  lot happier  life  general         nights   keswick convention    amazing set    12000 people coming together  3 weeks  keswick  meeting   bible teaching   worship god    big tent   set    back   convention centre   time  arrive   always full     late   friday evening   people standing outside  kids went   youth event    things ezekiel  exactly  easy choice  bible book  convey  19 14 yr olds   really enjoyed  wacky games   way  mixed teaching  songs  games activities  seemed   mostly uni students  seemed  get  much fun      kids  brother  family     cousins love getting together  even  joined   football  tennis even though  hand  eye co ordination    best   taken  running every day          back  still  right   can feel    slightest provocation must go swimming   brother also asked wife  diy needed      real enthusiast give  gardening  time   made  door  one   sheds     putting    past 6 years    start   another 5     also  sailing fan  hired  sail boat  went sailing   great fun  kids   canoe   raced     lake   kids swapped around  went  explore islands   really good  weather helped   scorching  also went   wedding  one   close friends son  decided   going  start teaching  kids  etiquette  weddings   groom   done  better job  isnt really  fault    young    thought things  sun went    age service   tent  keswick    many kids even     mix  action songs  asking kids things   action talk meant   leading  kept  kids involved   good  see spent  afternoon   lake   really nice day mon yep    real monday morning    tray  flowing 2 rotas  sort  2 weeks  testing  try  arrange   goodish news    ministry  finally decided  put  restocking farms  annual testing  means  least  know   stand  can plan  will mean  lot  work  us  bad news    oft investigation  sent us  horrific questionnaire  needs filled   one   partners    go   got  far unfortunately   needs     tomorrow forget   2 new vets  started     settling      picking   ropes quite quickly   ace  call  night  twice  bad calvings thats  end   holiday f feeling good tuesday sore back  calvings  early mornings  forgotten   arranged   one      day today   moment  weakness   acquiesced   put   sale   promise auction  raise money  african childrens choir     promise  redeemed  morning   vet   put   best charming manner  mr pr man  took    tour   practice   call  explained everything        good thing    busy spent  afternoon consulting  supervising new vets  showing   ropes weds   suppose   going walking  helvellyn   torrential rain put us   went  carlisle   bits  pieces   took kids  see stuart little 2   definitely one   kids  jobbed around  home   kids like    just potter around thursday felt really stiff  sore  decided   must go swimming  often  just  seem  get  thats  must make time im working  w e       10 days finishing  fs wedding friends     kids    really good  see   dont see   often     sort  friends   pick    soon   meet  even   havent seen   ages m  left full time teaching   couldnt cope   pressure    paper work  hassle   teaching supply    things  well    creative    made  model   house just    sitting chatting  us friday came home  lunchtime  see  kitchen table covered  drawings  paintings m  decided    painting day    kids   drawings  paintings   done  watercolour   house   brilliant holiday  two weeks     reflection        thinking   summer      writing   diary   want  put     things   think  important edited disclosive sat 24th aug another bank holiday w e   worked   least   backing   new young assistant  work  system   new vets   senior vet  call    time   first  months    give   hands  support  mentoring   sounds  good  practical   surprisingly uncommon   started       almost day one  started  august  getting married    second week  september  boss headed   oman   horse work     large animal vet    long term sick     get  small animal locum   look back now   left   charge   farm practice  2 weeks     month qualified  shudder    time  just got    sun 25th calvings coming thick  fast  good warm weather  made  grass spring   cows  putting   much weight   problems j    football tournament  pirellis   missed   came back really tired  played  socks   another pts put  sleep dog visit  assistant vet   never  easiest  consults    really well   finding  feet  find  hard helping people make euthanasia decisions  dogs   feel quite strongly anti euthanasia   comes  people mon 28th beautiful day  nice  work  morning  busy   afternoon  quiet   spent  lying   sun dozing  bbq  night  js  chatted    folk   know    speak    interesting spoke  one   farmers daughters  told   dad  just   first calf since fmd     really happy   2 holdings   run  one  managed  keep  heifers     second holding probably     last ones   area     ones   now calving  still blames  pyre   neighbour  spreading  virus   farm tuesday 27th  problem    day      problems stored     come back today  really hectic finished  6 30   come back   belgian blue inspections  help   surgery  inspections  fun   gave   creeps    mart  inspecting mouths   brought back bad memories  mart  ridiculously clean   last time  inspected mouths   fmd  shooting  herd    dangerous contact   trying  persuade london   take    neighbour  well  got finished  2am  went    cup  tea   recover   mother greeted    news  d   next door   starting  shoot    really annoying thing    basic hygiene    enforced  yet  rules   rules  made  london  desk bound defra officials  dont   implement   mart uses mini dumper trucks  clean   pens     sold   trucks   used  put  straw  sawdust   freshly cleansed  disinfected yards   covered  muck    bio hazard m  owner   animals   inspecting put   usual tantrum display  try  intimidate  secretary  inspectors     expecting   found quite amusing   dont think      another bbq tonight  kids son cooked  loved     found  new bbqer kids  brilliant form    enjoying  around     baking weds 28th another tb reactor   corresponding paper work  licensing   weird oddball case  surgery  spent ages trying  take  history    going   dog    unwell      intermittent history  different things  look forward  seeing   turns     whether  resolves   time vetting  always varied j   friends party    football school  blackburn rovers  morning    passed  arranged  visit prisoner  prison   next day   went   multitude  meaningless options  end    guy  sounded like  came straight  porridge   amazing  intimidating trying  find  way around  bureaucracy can     sure  want  go  thurs 29th  feast  famine  much work   day  least al  3 caesareans last night   running   steam  5 oclock  afternoon meanwhile   small animals  tried  organise  trip  london  visit  dad found web sites  chitty chitty bang bang london eye  madam tussards    able  book  advance  tickets  left   half term week  children  staying   house  full  excited kids friday 30th busy day sorting   invitations   open day 1st oct   just  chance  get  farmers together  promised one  celebrate  end  fmd   amazing going   list   computer  many farms   restocked  list hasnt  updated since pre fmd   dont really know  many will restock     waiting   end  fmd  redo       deaths sales  moved away  take   list time moves  sat 31st august last w e   summer holidays    bbq  lunch time  borderline    promised  take  boys camping  bowscale tarn   beautiful  really cold  weather  ok sat  sunday  glorious  boys wakened  first light   climbed     tops   sun  still rising    one   magical moments wonderful  boys   excited  full  energy   happy     dad  enjoying life  time  treasure sun  coming    tops  bowscale tarn went  visit friends    vet  longtown   just set    small animal practice   north  carlisle  twins   now 4 weeks old  wonderful   always sthg  special  wee babies     element  two  mother mon good weather continuing     still quiet  vet student  arrived went blood sampling sheep  maedi visna   farmer  imports  sells sheep   bit   dealer     dad   granddad   4 holding numbers   making  mockery   licensing system  knows  lot   breeders  dealers   yorkshire defra  even worse   one    whole licensing system  allegedly  ignored  everyone   office  trying  work     going  go   xmas party    now september tuesday   friends last day  work tomorrow   wedding   girls spent    afternoon printing  posters  things  decorate  car   goes tomorrow evening  farmers  phoning   book tb tests  nov  dec   know   will  busy  makes life  lot easier     sent  notes   invitations   open day      good response   will start  get busy testing next week weds day  spent  morning fixing  shower drainage   suffered  one  many footballs  kicked    problem   broken part  also  metric  imperial converter one end  40mm     43mm    discovered     needed meant  trip  carlisle  nowhere  wigton     got codged   plenty  silicone  afternoon  spent going  visit prisoner    friend  stabbed  wifes boyfriend  wigton     currently residing   majestys pleasure  durham prison     disheartening experience    organisation  takes time  work    go    need  get   hoops  went  one part   prison  another  backwards  forwards  staff   friendly  helpful      fixed stations     sent  one area  another  security although expected  natural still comes   bit   shock photographed   issued   barcode  get       put   belongings   locker    allowed   course    realise    need  id passport  get  bar code   kept   show   entrance    needed   bar code   sent  back  put    locker prisoner  ok    still finding  hard  think   future    include  wife even though  divorce papers  filed    done  pretty nasty things     boyfriend   pleading guilty   expecting  go    good  years  whole visitors area  charged  emotion  people coming  see brothers husbands lovers   lots  girls  young children coming  see  dads  felt  sad      kids   growing     dad   stigma   dad  jail  kids  written    realistic  wife   anti     unlikely  keep      long term    best   going   supportive  worst  going  try  dissuade    quite upset     also  able  sort   things  see  house    sold    lot  building work etc      emotional attachment       real closure   emotional problems      likely   even    release  car     still  car loan   removed   pound   doesnt know    drove back  a66  thoughtful  thankful   family  freedom   phone went  remind     call    forgotten fortunately    calls   takes quite    get  barnard castle  wigton oops thursday   first isolation pens inspection    complete non sense  field    50 m    livestock   london probably sounds fine   scotland    plenty  woods   crops    cumbria   main crop  grass    fields  grazed   time  year      easy  forms  horrendous   boxes   filled   greyed   make  easy    know  boxes    filled   obviously looks really good   computer screen  london    photocopy writing  black ink makes  whole thing illegible  thats  problem   common sense come  friday 6th september colleagues wedding one   vets   practice  married today   parish church  wigton  wedding       family  kilts    200   wedding  reception   grennhill hotel  brides uncle   director  theme   english rode  scottish thistle  flowers   red roses  arrangements  thistles   beautiful    bride  quickly adds    ceilidh afterwards   fireworks display several   neighbouring farmers complained    next day danced  talked  night away till  2  getting   next day   bit   pain  morning surgery urgh sat 7th september    whenever      quiet day   one reason  another   always busiest managed  keep going    day  calvings  ill animals still recovering   late night  wedding day   bit   wash  really sunday milk fever  7   finish    missed church  went  hear sc  wigton  evening   head  oasis trust    much  radical  believes  putting faith  action    challenging isiah 58 true fasting  god wants  spend  self  behalf   poor  spirit wife went  hear  new bishop  carlisle   speaking  hebron   reaching     local churches  seems  see outside  traditional denominational boundaries   really encouraging monday   crusaders meeting  rydal crusaders   youth group organisation      area planning group    money given   legacy  support  one full time  train leaders  organise area events  w e away   joint activities    good  meant  rush   long day    still feeling knackered   w e tuesday   almost speechless today  great era  decentralisation  hit defra  wish  rang     still    confirmation   appointments   2 new vets  enable    defra work  used  happen    went   training session  chat   dvm  carlisle   appointments arrived 2 days later guess    paper work    sent  page st  london now     got  back yet weds 11 09 02   funny   anniversaries effect   others     just started back    practice   hijackers crashed   pentagon   twin towers   feeling    bruised  battered    major confrontation  defra    work   psychological problems   threatened  sidelined  yet wanting  keep  integrity   reacting  blowing people    water  9 11 bombers made  realise  fragile peace    fragile people    importance   losing sight   important things  life  trying  keep things  perspective people   important friends  family    cant fight  civil service mentality    problem  mine  remember seeing one   teachers husbands walking    kids school   went  pick   looking slumped  dejected  learning    son   new york     reach  2 days later  heard   visited  twin towers  day    taken photos   top   supposed  going back   towers  morning    got  late    time    friends set   towers   hit  impact   number  people   either    visited  towers     world  make   potent symbol  worldwide resonance  sister worked      several years ago  anniversary brought  lot back    surface   thought  past   merely hidden thursday first  last night  2nd  tonight  started early  finished late  running   steam friday one   farmers wives came  today   wormers   chickens   gape worm  paid last months bill  cash  well    wormers 876 inc vat   working away   farm 2 days  week  husband  full time   job  got   went   fmdi asked   father  law   65     lost   farm   quit   right   quiet  still   animals back   grass letting  funny  said whoosh   life takes  complete change  never know whats going  happen next sat 14th september worked     rest  w e  hooray sunday monday son s footie tuesday partnership meeting  lunchtime    sore head   end   day   lot  good decisions made  feel  though   re moving forward weds   working  w e  caught   paperwork  stuff  home   went  carlisle  go shopping  lots  bits  pieces   new bathroom thursday dvm called   update us waste  time    forgotten   annoying man    real career civil servant bureaucrat   forgotten  real life     ever knew  one   vets around  tea    backing   spent  evening playing take two   fun friday   bad day   office dear oh dear oh dear  day  great  start  headed   iselgate  see  lame bull  give   certificate   still suffering    financial  emotional scars  fmd mind    always odd   talking   isolation   hard  break    get back    things    also hoping  retire    50  bse hit   decided  keep     income  jan  october last year mind     usually  selling stores  way  day  taking  turn   worse   sorting  umpteen decisions   practice manager  organisational issues  said wasnt  easy    just   vet fatal mistake   next dog   seen   odd ball   woken   morning   perfectly ok  til    growled  tis owner    decided  leave       hour    went  get      bed   flew      put  meant    rang   brought    vets  change  behaviour meant   put    kennel  left     went   examine  growled  flapped  ears    bit   bars  dogs  pain  fear will growl  let  know     happy   one meant     go  trying  get  examined  using  dog catcher  muzzles   mean  left   settle   lunch    worse finally got  sedated    temp  104 injected mm     case  encephalitis  rage   3 vets  looking    umming  erring  decided  get  maff vet    look just  check   wasnt rabies   forgotten  none    clinical  able  handle animals     bit   joke      history    contact  abroad    left alive   time    stress   handling  dam thing   worry    rabid   consequences    tiring    washed  tonight tomorrow  another day week 27 sat 28th september saturday  tell    light   end   tunnel    moment  definitely feel  isnt    taken time  next week  catch     things  need sorted  home   supposed   putting   new bathroom   need  get  stuff ordered   guy can fit   never know  may include    diaries sunday  wife    counselling course  w e   ma   run around   kids yesterday  spent watching  boys plat football  run     friends son  2 friends  come  camp last night     little   tired side  weather  warm  sunny  real indian summer  autumn raspberries   usually delicious  quite sparse  huge  plentiful well  definitely   teen age daughter    first time    phone call late   evening  carlisle asking    picked    lift home   worked  fortunately     church youth group     sign  things  come  youth group took  church service tonight    really good looking   world  pressures  young people    respond  christians  applying  faith    situations  challenging monday    open night tomorrow night   doesnt seem  organised yet   pigeon   made  resolution   get worked u  things     responsibility  just leave    2 new vets  beginning  really pull  weight   great  colleague  back   honeymoon brown  jet lagged  spent time   beach   safari    great time nurse  headed    far blue yonder   one   nurses   gone  nz   month   will  strange     nurse  just back  states  another vet    go   caribbean  2 weeks    getting itchy feet time  travel  least      india   new year tuesday year end oct 1st  stock taking    includes mucking   car  thought   quite normal  take  wheelie bin   car  just hoy  contents    neighbour saw one   rare occasions   happens  burst  laughing  found  quite amusing    bit taken  back   time   always assume     normal  open day  ok  wife      juggle things  bit    call  late finished    fetch son  football   practice   shifted  tuesdays   dark nights   owe friend  bottle  wine  turning  half  hour late  pick    boiler man arrived  7pm  fix  boiler   blowing fuses  needs  lesson  time management  several interesting conversations  fmd   amusing one   tony blair arranging  bust   unions   anniversary   fmd  break finishing    keep    news   farmer said   govts response  countryside alliance march  fact    reduced  sparsity factor   allocation  central funds  local authorities  means     lower population density  therefore  higher perceived cost  providing services  going    downgraded    farmers opinion take money   countryside   town dont march   govt will kick    hurts    subtle way   one  probably  relevant     group discussion admittedly fuelled   intake  free alcohol several  saying   year  harder  cope   last     crisis  adrenalin  keep  going    toll  last year  beginning  tell     nerves two  still  court threats  trading standards defra   complying  regulations  will   opinions  result  anything    pretty pissed   put  mildly   also  real antagonism    testing  ministry      cross fire  defra vets decide     done  yet    ones trying  arrange  get  testing done       pay us     spend  fair chunk  time organising  actually getting  job done     real problem  organising  testing  one   common grazings   14 farmers  animals   biosecurity   joke   animals   common grazing  14 others  trying  get 2 farmers  agree   date   method       different ideas     want     co  ll just wind  cattle   well never catch  weds day   caught   garden  sleep thursday  really enjoyed  crack today   just  right amount  work  banter    good day laughter  fun  infectious friday    meal  night   great  8 30 start tomorrow sat    going   good october  young colleagues brother  killed   accident   m writes retrospectively see   followed   difficult month     unable  keep  diary saturday 5th october     smallest  things  suddenly life changes  suddenly    look back  see       now    phone call  ten  five  one   young vets father father  asking  speak  george       strange  receptionist came  found    quizzical look saying    want  speak  young vet   answered  phone  said    bad news    brother   killed   traffic accident     tell   bad news   sort   consequences    got   initial shock wife drove    parents home   car   partners  away    short staffed  young vet will obviously   back       times like     always grateful   can go back  god  trust   even though    understand anything  know   can trust god jan 2003 writing retrospectively  october 2002    month  diaries missing   death  vets brother onwards  always meant  go back  fill   days   missed  never made  time   effort  found  time  difficult    parents  sister  law coped    know  funeral   kirby    pleased   went    sad  see  one   prime   life   much  offer cut     random way     cumbrian farming gathering  red faced craggy farmers  yet    friend   family  sang   wedding    black american gospel singer  global village  world wide family   church take  pick  death   one young always makes  consider   mortality  makes  think      will    death bed wish    made different choices  next month  busy  stressful  probably  time     useful   study   thoughts  reactions   life   stress   suppose   certain extent    close  something  go  automatic pilot    urgent leaving  things   periphery   killed  driving  tractor back      testing cattle  american bvd   bought  pedigree world class dairy cattle  included  sibling   embryo     american bvd   ministry  keen  make sure     established within  uk hence  reason   blood sampling  know   look  history  say      cattle    culled      blood sampling     reason     road  day   time linkage    way  go  may    go  feed stock        accident  another way   ripples  actions continue  reverberate around  least   head saturday 12th october  m  writing retrospectively    first thoughts  diagnosing  first fmd case  weeks   completed    stress levels   wanted  transcribe  first thoughts  fmd   written   hotel  newcastle  2am  diagnosing  first case   wife dear wife  dont know    writing    hope  see  tomorrow   suppose  need  record   feel      besides sleep eludes  today   beautiful day  winter sunshine warm sunshine  speaks   spring    come  frosted snow   clear  white  pure  great day   walking    hills   sunday afternoon enjoying gods wonderful creation     fallen world   walkers    ministry man  disposable boiler suit  waterproof jacket  trousers   farmer   heavy heart  go   field checking  inspecting   pregnant ewes herding    corner  catch  examine  feet ok mouth ok  smile   clue   sadness   mans heart   slight acrid smell  wafts now     wind  smell   neighbours future burning  another ministry mans pyre  2 oclock   morning     writing     sleep  ministry man   examined  cows blisters   mouth blisters   tongue temp 105f   sorry  say   theyll  go  manages  say fighting back tears   lab confirms  yes  reply   farm vet  15 years experience    allowed  say   foot  mouth disease    suspect   anonymous telephone answerer  london makes stupid comments  stupid questions  take  samples   cow  grab  tongue  pull    take  sample   skin   tongue  cows tongue comes    hand  try    sick  place  sample   bottle  go   farmhouse    tears    tears  feel like crying  wouldnt   job    b tea  china  says    volunteer  tvi  big depts   jargon   dont speak  yet  temporary veterinary inspector   started 3 days ago  clean vet      contact   foot  mouth disease  volunteer  general practice seconded   used   pawn   battle  fmd  man   ministry   leave  dirty vet  double disinfected   samples   heavy heart  take   disposable boiler suit  put   shoes       man   ministry hey lad nobody  know   anyone else like  says  farmer   seen      see     living   mother since  father died      hand  run  farm  wife   mother  law trying  share  house   kitchen   convert  barn   house  builder  told  stay away  week ago  case  brought disease onto  farm tomorrow  will  told  stay away   will   income   least 6 months   filled  forms   never seen   initials  jargon ive never heard  phoned  sister  pick   prescription  anti depressants  doctor said   go     stress  worry  foot  mouth   well    hasnt eaten  will  sleep tonight   anxious  will  get  rest   man   ministry well  2am    writing  far  home  volunteer  tvi  pawn   bigger game   5 days   dirty   can rejoin life back  normal back   home   job   future  farming couple 5 days  shooting  burning  disinfectants  diggers six months  quarantine   future  farming maybe  maybe   stories abound  three generations waiting   men   ministry  grandfather will  see  farm restocked  stress   much   already dodgy heart  countryside   siege  pawns   lost  win  greater gain       work  long hours  sacrifice  pawns   one   arrogant  stupid   lazy   couldnt  bothered  heat  swill  fed   pigs  couldnt keep   rules   made     happen    intensive vs extensive organic vs agribusiness   sheep vs goats   will  sorted saturday 2nd november  start  writing diaries    break    weeks   hoping  go back  fill   time permits    today  forward looking working  w e  young vet  aw sat     calving  morning  4am     little   tired side  hope   quiet  rest   w e  surgery   spent  afternoon trying  fix   sidelights  front went 18monhts ago  shows  well   keeping    maintaince   house   back one went recently     real pain   cant see  way   car  night     concerned  getting  fixed  old lights  just rusted    can  longer replace  bulbs    ladder  re wire new lights  went unfortunately    call  yes  suppose   trying    much    dont try  dont succeed   downed tools went   calve  cow   came back  find  neighbour plus  4 children   kitchen   stopped   cup  tea   headed back   ladder now wife maintains    noticed    lights    point   like  point     also notice    moved furniture   hair cut  even spring cleaned  house    often berated   lack  noticing  sorts  things yes    noticed   didnt   focussed     trying    usual    ladder  went  connect   light  knowing  wife  switched  electrics back   yes      top   ladder  grabbed  wires   spent  seemed  awfully long time trying  let  go  stay   ladder   electric current  shocking    light   get fixed     going back   ladder    now  shock ho hum sun finished  light  every one     picked     sleep   went  church  wigton pm  speaking   parable   10 bridesmaids   good    never understood     obviously related   cultural thing  happened  weddings  jesus day  point    wise ones   waiting   return   bridegroom   oil   lamps   concept     holy spirit  meant   meet   bridegroom  e christ    sure   idea  entirely right since    big leap oil holy spirit    interesting  still think    cultural thing   obvious   original listeners   just dont   clue ali  andy called around   evening   really good  see    used    vet   left several years ago   looks   long last   going  look  settle    quite depressing  la vet practice though   now 100 small animal    biased   actively looking  taking tb testing   vets   area   vets  dropping  farm practice   uneconomic  much   govt wanting  farm vets around  least    low cost area   least    competing  small animal practices able  offer large wages  assistant vets   looking  set     buy  practice  settle    obviously looking  get married   will  another wedding  go     invited  lbs   finally marrying p    following   around  world   last 2 years  disaster  disaster      humanitarian relief work    vet student   mon monday monday tell    dont like mondays young vet  exhausted  everything  catching       going  take  end   week   joiner finally arrived  put   windows   real problems writhing  old ones     taken half  sand stone     will    reconcreted    builders job ie    going     bathroom  still  pieces 8 days   supposed  take    now   third week work  bedlam    queuing  ops   morning  hate operating  morning     draining     concentrate        office staff keep coming     queries urgh got another stupid letter   planners quibbling  listed building consent    trying  get   windows    fitted   speak  started  ball rolling  august  wonder  country  going   dogs tuesday calmed   bit  filled   visa forms   holiday  india  great legacy   british  bureaucracy  alive  well    want  know  mothers place  birth  maiden name   2 week holiday civil servants missed  gym cos surgery went     went   farm   asked  lot  questions  tb      reactor  ministry    testing  hadnt bothered  tell us mushroom farmers son    process  planning next years football team weds went   farm today    complaining    get  cows   restocked herd back  calf  seems    ongoing problem  lot     restocked  whole herds   reduced fertility   herds     interesting study  see  figures compared  non restocked herds thursday counting  days     work continues    hectic vet  lost  brother     makes  whole pack  cards   enough vets  cover fall   think    just  tired    busy   long  planning staffing levels   usual   cautious rather     many vets around  making  money  thought   stretching   employing  2 new grads instead   one   also just   pressure   time     days  cruise  went   chris swifts   vcf veterinary christian fellowship   really good  usual f  telling us   thanksgiving service    just held  barnard castle   also just got engaged   may curb  wanderings    explorer  mountaineer   just back  antarctica   currently   research   phd  durham barnard castle practice seems well organised  also flexible      working 3 days  week  spend 2 days  durham   phd   really good speaking  friends  vets brother  paul      accident    taking  bloods  spent quite   praying      things friday bad day   phone call   planners saying    going  allow double glazing    want  glazing bars   10mm  20mm     10mm glazing bars   spot  ministry london  decided     going  train lay tb testers     work  going  go   lvis us    now looking   lot  work  carlisle defra  conjunction  london  decided    going  want   restocked herds tested annually  every animal tested  just  adult breeding stock   looking  dropping 1 2 vets 10 days ago   now going   looking  employing extra staff   can get hold      supposed   planning   future     dependent   whim  defra officials saturday 9th november went   school pta pub quiz last night   rugby club   good fun    struggling   stay awake   dredge   infotainment trivia   previous year   funny   questions chosen reflected  people   asking    stuck   memory     chosen nick  jane  across  newcastle  stayed      nights  working  defra across      face  faceless loneliness   hotel consequently  completely zonked sat morning just went around  house  grumpy went  watch son play football  thrashed yewdale   county cup   good      fresh air  came back  sleep     heading   roy  christianas en famille    pick  fraser  wigton    son   just started seeing  girl  wigton   14    amusingly embarrassed   talking  leaving  kids   age   leave       look   younger ones christiana told us    left  three boys   hour   half   older two  got  fed   youngest  annoying  hung    joggers   post   bottom   stairs  middle one said   seriousness     fault    torn  trousers   hadnt tried  escape  trousers    fine even now  considers   wrongdoing   ripping   trousers   fact    hung   sun went  church  morning  fittingly  remembrance sunday    repentance  gods love daniels prayer  daniel 9   fitting   lunch   football  crashed   bed exhausted mon tim  away   first time      school   outward bound week south  keswick    excited  going  think wife   little put      thinking  missing home hey ho     sign  secure roots  suppose met    maths teacher  discuss  maths     lot    froing   teachers   much communication  home   went  see    saying   left    status quo       first call today   farmer   just   hospital    appendix removed  appendicitis   seen  cow  said  havent    vet      good stocksman       action    relief milker   hadnt noticed    twisted uterus   trying  calve    seen   friday    sorted       now  late    send     sad   agricultural industry  losing  lot  experience   lot  stocksmanship  handling  general expertise    sthg  can  replaced   seeing  twisted wombs    transport  fighting amongst restocked herds  sad thing    said     never  restocked    taken  money  let   go   just  much hassle   paper work  training cows   just housed  cattle      fighting  come    parlour  get milked  just making life difficult    real disillusionment around   moment    also    gearing   milk    cows  stay still 300 tuesday  great european market combined  defras inflexibility  causing   problems  dutch heifers    imported  replace    fmd losses   unique identifier number     ear tag  everyone knows     far  good  also  nl   rather  uk  means  know    holland  problem     small check digit     end  means dutch computers can recognise   ear tag   valid one    misread  uk tags   check digit   front   number  useful  help rule  misreadings  transcribing   ear tags however  defra computer doesnt recognise  numbers     asked  retest heifers   still   outstanding record   ear tag numbers  untested   extra digit      entered   uk system  number   standing tests  dropping   will   able  keep    level  testing  allocations  arrived today managed  get   bits sorted    leave  5 30    days     standing thing   stuff   accountant end  year   supposed     18th  oct  hey ho weds   taken   days   try  paint  windows  new bathroom    put   planners phoned  query    windows   told    already    went  like  lead balloon    coming  tell    also started querying   windows  95  problem     days     get  head achey  feel washed   ill   adrenalin stops  seem  crash thursday met   charlie  longtown vets  lunch   great  practice  carlisle    started  going well     main road   scotland  looks really good    getting lots  custom just      looking   part time vet  start mornings friday repainted  bathroom walls  discovering   used 2 different shades  green one  ming grey   ming blue  just opened  one     thought  difference    one  dried     still wet ooops  plumber   problems   electrics  getting  lights  work     fused    just glad    shower  well      getting rather smelly  now went  watch changing lanes  cinema  rather thoughtful  slow  unbelievable set   nice escapism   hour  two saturday november 16th working   feel better      days  even   bathroom isnt finished getting    bit   saga oh well never mind sat morning surgery  busy   several farm calls afterwards   amount  stock around   cost effectiveness  veterinary time     incredible amount  clinical work dan  sheep ai vet  locums  us  occasions phoned  wanting alisons phone number    course    sat night  technician  ill    250 swales  ai tomorrow hope  finds  one   sheep ai  embryo technicians   busy  people try  build   pedigree herds  flocks  breeding  top quality sun  busy  calls   painted doors  bathroom  son painted  window  messy   enjoyed   will give  confidence  try    patience  practice went  church   evening rob whitaker  principal  capernwray bible college  preaching    animated  relevant   talking  feeding  5000  jesus compassion  just  circumstances jesus     time   used  disciples   applying   us    church  general espy compassion  challenging went   meet   lads  spent time praying phil  pretty      job  effects  self worth didnt help  fraser   brand new merc sitting  side  house mon hit  maelstrom running    tray flowing   still nothing together  year end  accountant  pushed practice manager   started operating  haunting  every 20 mins   ops  keeping   task  problem      many  things going    moment   non urgent keep disappearing   tomorrow  new drugs discount system  working  generating  lot  interest   hopefully will cut    black market   luck  increased turn  will make   margin usual problem solving  smoothing   2nd opinions  sort   20 day rule   stopping one   local cattle dealers  buying  selling  says  paperwork  run 5 holding numbers  horrendous ken  anne called around    really good  see     lime spreading business    really busy  fmd   lime  land   going   used  barley  crops rather  grass    lot  stone  building work  new pathways   lonnings whereas farmers  happy  move cattle via roads   trying  reduce  movements along roads   putting  tracks   cows tuesday  tracings  check  tb   cattle bought   farm  tb  since  confirmed   paperwork  go   ear tags dont correlate  going    problem rota nightmare   moment  everyone  organising  skiing trips    going   1 2 vets    jan    feb took first box load  paperwork   accountant    old fashioned   back stairs   computer  sight type  fella    wily old fox much    looks   manages  keep  taxman happy    backs   probably   important  financial year doesnt look  bad  doesnt allow   number  days  holiday carried      give  holiday pay  pay  vet  cover   days   make  look  lot less rosy got back  time  gym   tuesday kid chauffer work  fell  bed  slept weds  phone stopped  4 00pm  didnt ring   9 30  morning weird  work  just stopped like  tap  turned   got  rest  testing sorted sorted   rest   stuff   accountant tidied  office wrote   book  even thought  mucking  car   got  far  thinking    coffee break arrived didnt earn much  felt  lot better   skipped  early  gave  bathroom doors second coat thursday 21st november pay day decided   defra   business    bust  now     rollercoaster trying  look   future     make    normal year  20   farm fee income     much higher   past  years  chief defra vet   flying kites   say  politics  see   reaction          told  whitehall  dont know   ins  outs      gist     going  employ   vets    testing     much  efficient  cost effective    pointed   wasnt going    case  went    employ non vets        much cheaper       farm animal vets  large areas   country    reduce  fee income even    farm side  vet businesses  marginal   just  given    mean  business   high stock area  probably drop 2 vets  london finally decided   status quo  probably  best    time carlisle  consultation  page st decided      much tb  found   restocked farms    restocked farms   tested   annual basis    animals  just breeding stock   tested  means   25 increase  work load   next 2 winters  instead  dropping  vet   look   taking one     believe   going  happen next   can  plan   drastic changes  proposed   space   month friday   horrendous night  ill calves  pneumonia   evening  calving  1   silloth   dog trying  die  5am    ever pleased     half day slept  played squash  l j   afternoon  dog belonged   old lady    children     husbands dog   died 4 years previously   going        dies     tearful  upset  dog   looking good    16yr poodle type thing   isolated booth   doesnt drive  lives    coast      husband retired    neither   family around  felt   made  appreciate  family  much  saturday 23rd november wife  away   course today    w e    running  kids    cooking  dropped   son  squash   errands  wigton   watched  squash coaching    patient  encouraging  total contrast  shown  son s football     good team   really   like  attitude     coaches  teams   carlisle teams   late  arrive    already 4 0      second half      walked around    coach    think  giving son    2 subs  game            give   kids  chance  play  else  find  crushing son  really fed    situation    love playing   quite loyal  coach always justifies     play  best team   doesnt  plays  favourites friends sons   point  irrelevant    winning   margin   can afford   weaker players   field  went   win 10 0  will   get  thursby team organised  next year went   longtown poultry sale  interesting lots  rare birds  waterfowl will   go  buy next year  get  different types    breed  sun dan spoke  walking  water    inimitable style    refreshing  practical  honest made   call  prayer  well didnt  much  morning  wife   course  finally managed  finish bathroom hoorah mon decided   defra   business    bust  now     rollercoaster trying  look   future     make    normal year  20   farm fee income     much higher   past  years  chief defra vet   flying kites   say  politics  see   reaction          told  whitehall  dont know   ins  outs      gist     going  employ   vets    testing     much  efficient  cost effective    pointed   wasnt going    case  went    employ non vets        much cheaper       farm animal vets  large areas   country    reduce  fee income even    farm side  vet businesses  marginal   just  given    mean  business   high stock area  probably drop 2 vets  london finally decided   status quo  probably  best    time carlisle  consultation  page st decided      much tb  found   restocked farms    restocked farms   tested   annual basis    animals  just breeding stock   tested  means   25 increase  work load   next 2 winters  instead  dropping  vet   look   taking one     believe   going  happen next   can  plan   drastic changes  proposed   space   month tuesday went   routine fertility   farm today    quite depressing    neighbour     started      really bad time  problems  restocking  top  bad hips    gung ho  get restocked  although    sore leg  didnt go   doctors     chance     stock      little sore   soon   got stock back  started    lot  physical work    sore   went   drs   2 hips  need replaced      40  dont want    yet    mean  physical work   long period  top     mastitis problems caused  taking  plant  pieces  defra   lost 8 cows  heifers  calving illness  injury   less   year  looks set  give  disillusioned   lot poorer  workload  us  easing   cattle  now housed   lot   housing work  sorted  always feel    run   christmas now    preparations  celebrations  kids  adult parties    another farm today   meningitis  year ago   still  really recovered properly   still finding  hard  get going  lost   animals    work  fmd   additional strain  meant   lost  lot  interest   farming side  cant  bothered    hassle  paper work  farming sheep  cattle    growing  lot  veg     wife  always enjoyed growing  just retail   farm gate  doesnt make much money    says  just keeps things turning      wife  time      hassle life   important  making  living  profound   going  go part time  wish wednesday  seem    lot  problems still  restocking farms     problems  getting  cows back  calf two farms today complained  even though     pleased   compensation   time  costs  restocking  much much     interesting    survey   number  breeding animals bought       lost either  illness   failure  get  calf  old diseases  still causing   problems lung worm  disease  thought  well  control  well understood  caused huge problems ibr  cow flu  caused  many problems   can  longer get  vaccine    stocks   used   interesting today  one   farms     start milking  finally restocked ordered vaccine  lepto ibr  bvd almost   matter  course  fertility  causing   worries thursday feel  lot better   early night apart  running    carlisle   daughter youth group last night  evening shopping tonight son  still trying  organise  u14 thursby team  next year   needs   coach  problem      big commitment  wish       work  many w es spent time day dreaming       byre   yard    old knackered building  needs bulldozing  wife s dad thinks   just look    convert   sthg    still think     opening  herriot holidays taking people   day   vets    day   mart    diversification   name   game friday   interesting day   one thing  another  lunch  hey whos complaining one   nurses  work   chicken shed   husband  another farmer partner  fans  alarms  failed    air   circulating  farmer  devastated    horrendous sight  carpet  dead chickens   23000   shed   worked    roughly 2 3000 left alive 20000 dead  brought back memories  fmd also  logistics  disposing  20 tonnes  dead chicken  hope  insurance covers    dinner  christianas   vet friend call around  teatime    meat hygiene practice covering several different meat plants   several vets covering   different plants    asked  got  harrogate  discuss   different proposed regulations can  implemented  marked improvement   usual dumping  unworkable ideas  defra hq saturday 30th nov took    get going     dinner last night though    pleasant spent day  odds  ends went  watch son play footie  bought  orchid   orchid farm  kids  making cards  mum  wrapping presents    fun james came    kids    7 running riot   really  bit  many   late night sun 1st church   morning  johnboy called around  see  time  prayer meeting finished    arranged  surprise party  wife s 40th   loads  folks  sunday night   great    crept    big kitchen  decorated       front room   son   going back  forth  wife never noticed    special  kids   high  kites mon 2nd wife  forty  theres  photo   news  star  prove   kids brought breakfast  bed  opened presents poor  son  3 late nights   want  go  school  hope    right  gran wife s mum  sister arrived nannies  ireland   rescue   going  look   kids    away    days     bit o banter   looking   kids sister found  advert  nannies  ireland    au pair service  sent    info   forwarded  us    character     asking  working conditions  pay    requesting police checks  giving  good   get  winds  pretty strong      bad journey  super ferry  cancelled      come  boat  takes much longer  baked  cake  managed  get 40 candles    wife    looking forward  getting away  usual work  really busy  lots  loose ends  tie  prior  leaving  finished  3 days hoorraaahhh tues 3rd spent  day travelling   loch lomond stopped   braeside   gretna  bought  clothes  mooched around cameron house  beautiful  wonderful views   can just walk    lake    pool  went   swim  dinner  civilised   just finished dinner   waitress arrived   cake  4 candles  sang  rather wobbly happy birthday sister    keen   left  phone number  cameron house even though    mobile numbers now  know   pleasant surprise   will never eat  cake let alone  whole one    strolling around  dinner came across  picture  one   friends  used  decorate  kitchen   sunday   come across  somewhere   book   looks vaguely like wife    put    lady wife underneath     original   least  print    picture weird weds    lazy start  swim  breakfast full scottish  walked  eastern edge  loch  sunshine  showers    caught   one shower    rainbow    loch edge  beautiful winter walk   decided   going  walk  west highland way   boys   fruit  lunch  cooked breakfast  top  dinner last night means  dont really need  eat   week another swim thought   gym     holiday  felt wonderfully relaxed   dinner thursday another lazy start  swim  breakfast  walk along  loch   back  glasgow   burrell collection  just wandered around  paintings  can sit  look   impressionists  keep seeing something new    beautiful came back home  time  tea though   eat anything   much food made   ditty   nannies nannies  ireland came  stay  respondent  wife  go away   children went  school  respondent  wife swam   pool  nannies  left    dust cleaning dirt   daily crust  experienced gleaned    years   stop   son s tears   school  must go said  stern faced nanny lo  nannies go  tk max forgetting    cats something  sick   mat  nannies really dont like   m l begs go  fetch   eggs  animals theyre      contract really mean keen  will  give another day  something  done   pay  back  ireland   tale   go via cummersdale   pay  disappears  decide  new careers lois thinks   racing car ruth just  going far   thanks    due  nannies  ireland crew  now  turn  go  play till theyre called another day edited  remove names  verse friday bad hair day  come back  relaxed  cheerful   relaxed   missed  lunch  working  day plenty  hassle  one thing  another     call  night     busy loch lomond  cameron house seem  long long time ago   extremely fed     want  calve another cow  side office hours ever  saturday 7th december worked  morning   bad night  call  felt like death warmed   surgery   sorted stuff     calls got finished  1pm  went back  bed went  xmas party  white heather   good fun    just  knackered  enjoy  sunday working   calls  plenty  pneumonia drugs  calves    lot  pneumonia    east wind blowing    wee bitty cruel wind   least   dry  weather   working  side  also seems   getting dark really early  need  sun   back 4 weeks  go till india   migraine  flu  night  went  bed  started throwing    burn  candle  one end even   moment mon  work ill   new vet student starting  r    well xmas shopping  thrown   deep end tuesday went back     bit working  night  night work easing  thank goodness plenty  high cell count investigations  try  sort  weds took kids swimming  work   vet student   good    exercise  chill  went  staples prior  going   pool   usual    one   desk  print cartridges   went  found one   girls chatting   till  get     looking    couldnt find  hp58   hadnt noticed   one else just standing    end   long counter     upset  aggressive    jumped  queue   obviously   worse week       gone  got  one   tills  easily     didnt    got  upset  dont know nowt  queer  folk  son   upset tonight   got back  swimming    shaved one side   head wife  cut  others hair    still short  didnt need   wanted  done    shower took things    hands  shaved   side burn    one side    like getting laughed  either thursday christiana came   rescue   hair  son s   managed  make  look   bad    funny  call  night    nights seem double booked   moment went  kids performance    alice  wonderland  good  can really sing  perform  teachers  get  lot    tim   knave  hearts character actor   son   frog footman grebbit grebbit   good fun    phone call  put  client  ease   cat  managed  wing  friday   friends tonight kids younger 2  performance older 2   xmas meal   bit   juggling act  get everyone  right place  right time missed    cumberland vet club social    shame  can    one place   time saturday 14th december   good meal  except  started talking   publicity     wanting  go  fall asleep     take late nights   just   feeling  tired   time  think   adrenalin  run    just feel stale hope xmas sorts   spent morning working  surgery   sorted  queries  gg   accountant spent  afternoon writing cards  trying  put together lists  folk   send   disaster got  far  m  running   cards  initiative went around  ss  nibbles   house warming    caterer  mother     job    helped  great food   done   non vets  dilute   vetiness sunday got   took kids  church wife    thing  borderline  night     prepare  played football  caught     bits  pieces    gardening chatted   vet  chippenham   complaining   tb situation    one beef farm    first discovered tb  farm took  week  test    600 head    200 left    takes  day  farmer   unable    store cattle  feed   lost  100  defra    2 monthly testing  almost 2 years now   still     clear test     just   much  call monday got  feeling exhausted  even though   busy couldnt get going  dairy farms   feeling  nervous   nestle pull  farmers said      pleased   sons   going   going  farming  teenagers one  year  one  year older  looking  work    used    point  sadness   next generation   following    seems    general air  resignation  farming   going    good career sad really tuesday 17th december spent  day sorting   remaining bits  pieces   accountant  met    night   usual   sorting       finding   relevant pieces  paper     unaccounted cheques     still making money   thanks  defra  three cheers  mrs beckett cynic  made    long day  lois     week    short staffed   last tests  today   will   able  get bloods   labs    christmas post   like  time  year   hear  friends     seen  ages  think      last year  will   catch    soon hey ho weds 18th    lot  pneumonia    farmers   buying vast quantities  drugs  treat whole batches  calves  stirks    usual mix  far   normal  dont know whether   pleased   practice   well  invoicing  lot  sad     much disease around   will   horrendous drugs bill  dilemma  dont think   explore thurs 19th fri 20th kids went  ice rink  carlisle  wife   set    door rink   city council  sponsoring  attract people    centre  dont think   really need    place seems crowded enough    son bashed  head quite badly   son fell   hurt  knee tim fell loads  times  just ended  wet  happy  different characters  coming  saturday 21st december  beginning   christmas rota  feel  though     run   christmas now   also made  mistake   buying   presents  now  went  carlisle  go shopping   quite nice   ways  see  ice rink  mingle   crowds   hour   half  plenty  kids  decided    going  ask  money  take  india  year   aunts  uncles    will  fewer presents  open  christmas seems   getting    manic  commercialised  think      good idea well done   son sunday 22nd carols  candlelight   magical  church  packed     ended  standing   back    ways  quite nice   look   aisles   stage    rows  candles  fairy lights   sides pm lead     different age groups taking part  spoke    christmas tree    end   convoluted    wrong choices    can  lots  fairy lights   star  top    image   outside  looks wonderful     like inside   things  surround   god knows   cares   loves us enough  send  gift  help us  son immanuel god  us  will take away  sin   world   really quite moved       real christmas mon 23rd bump reality bites back   difficult  focus   important things  life  keep  perspective  life   keeps getting interrupted  monday mornings     jesus     smelly cattle shed    market place  making  difference  will   think  one     time  india  urgent  usual  pushing   important managed  go swimming  foxes  first exercise     ages must get back   maybe wait   new year resolutions  exercise wet weather  working  christmas dont really go together tues 24th christmas eve working  quiet apart  last minute panics  people think   ill dogs  cats will  make   christmas   seeing  vet called   pow heads   turkey  really    good butchery  poultry business going now good  see direct selling  farmers  cooperatives    way forward  break  stranglehold   supermarkets wife  panicking    enough food    dispatched  buy  bread  milk  think  protesting     5000  still   need  miracle  decide   one   occasions    better  just spend another 2 quid   peace wife s parents arrive  hour later  belfast bringing 2 loaves  bread  5 different types  irish bread  6 pints  milk  another 3 boxes  food  wonder  making  joke  feeding  5000 plus inflation  decide  discretion   better part  valour  just put    freezer weds 25th kids started  5 45    unceremoniously sent back  bed    allowed  bring  stockings   half past seven    2nd call     went   church  spent  hour   surgery seeing dogs one  meningitis    near deaths door   owner    worried    just unwell    waited   problem   never know got back  made christmas dinner  wasnt  work though   feel amongst   commercialism  turkey dinners  true significance  immanuel god    us  lost thursday 26th  first call  lots  pneumonia drugs  put   kept busy afternoon evening   folk around lots  different ages  backgrounds    real mix  good fun friday 27th surgery reopened   really busy   pleased    put plenty  staff   rota   always  difficult balance  make trying  work    will  enough staff  cover  work  one wants  work  xmas new year      enough   makes  really awful     working     people sitting around  resent     nice  know  get  right sometimes   rota always strikes     win situation    always  compromise   two extremes saturday 28th december  call friday night    finished  lunchtime wife wanted   go  church walk    knackered     going  tonight  dinner   went  bed    hours sleep much   wifes displeasure    call   whole period  soon   stop  crash    adrenalin fades   realise  tired     mon   work  prepare  india  hitting  beach   take  toll  family life   call especially   christmas period  folk   going  dinner     policeman    similar frictions sun 29th  service  church tonight  memorable  last evening   year   people talking   god      lives    usually people    eloquent  used  speaking  front   speak    real way   jesus   working   lives   past year dp   14    bone cancer gave   moving account     nearly died   often  compare  selves       us whether  health   things   compare      less   appreciate  lives  thank god           ups  downs     follow gods guiding   path  us  lives   gods hands    pray   trust     future    young lad   seen 4   friends   made  hospital die  makes  trivia  fill  lives  back  perspective mon 30th last half day  lots  last minute things  sort    finish  new year   2 weeks  india  cash flow  gone  pot    large amount  pneumonia drugs   sold  tax vat going   end  jan  needed  make sure someone keeps  eye      away  makes sure    falls  place  problem  going away    one keeps     admin type work       tray will  overflowing   time  get back tues 31st  young people  partying   house   left    rather  cramp  style      pleasant evening   farming friends  rang   called   spec   5 boys   knew  wouldnt want  get baby sitters  new years eve whereas    40   stopped dairying   now worried    new ruling will affect    moment  lease  quota  provides  fair amount  income  new german ruling will  applicable across  whole eec  non producers  hold  therefore lease quota  means  will   either sell    flooded market  go back  dairy farming unless mr p can work  way around  new system   also taking advice  looking   sorts  diversification schemes  seem quite  good idea others  think  non starters  already  invested    fmd money  setting   student house  carlisle  way house prices  going around    probably   good investment  really  way forward  farming though   depressing feature   evening   asked   thought  future  cattle vets   answer  none well thats  good start  2003  got home  find  party  full swing   left     went  bed 1st jan 2003 got    late  staying    new years eve  young people  cleared    party    amazed   well   done   set   dish washer        empty    impressed   reminder        drew  curtains   several glasses    missed      window sill  bizarrely  odd sock  sock game  daughter assures    funny    want  know   went home   one sock  started thinking  india  good job  wife  organised   set  tomorrow 2nd jan thursday travelled   see  brother  family   really good  see   played risk    bit   christmas tradition    kids   funny   playing     sets  kids   felt like  kid    really nice though b won  managed  wipe people   amass  risk cards  risked everything   went   last throw   dice    quite exciting friday 3rd jan travelled    dads   tea  drop   stuff  heading   airport   pleased      days   flying     night flight   hate travelling    already exhausted  weather   usual british winter  rain  wind  friend  mine  convinced    due  global warming  energy   system means  rain  wind   case cumbria   going    place  live    already wet  windy enough  next 2 weeks recall xs family holiday  india sat 4th january 2003   sitting   nilgiri hills  southern india  shorts  t shirt enjoying  coolness   high altitude   almost twice  height  ben nevis  bbc world last night  showed  reporter  london   umbrella trying  keep   large wet snowflakes   visiting friends  teach   christian school   contrasts  india always seem  great  poverty   opulence side  side  beggars   road repairers   side   road  make shift tents  plastic sheeting  huts  bamboo leaves   huge opulent houses wooden floored  air conditioned    generators   4 hotels  marbled floors  artificial streams  waterfalls  came   cheap charter flight    cheaper  come  trivandrum   flight   package  hotel b b   just buy  flights  emphasis though    cheap    first time   ever   pay  drinks   plane  air stewardesses seemed      good time rather   look   passengers cant complain though    cheap   worry   re routing   originally supposed   going via united arab emirates   refuelling  transferred  bahrein   flew    warned    military  well  civilian airport   photography  allowed  build   us forces   gulf must  pretty major  even    large numbers  us air force planes  massive sinister looking helicopters   difficult  believe    aiming  keep  peace  preparing  war  papers   also full  sabre rattling  pakistan  india  daily reports  skirmishes  kashmir   also exchanges  political rhetoric   two states  much  actually  real   much  sabre rattling  one knows  weekly telegraph  also reporting  iraq  shot   reconnaissance drone   sort  blew  one   el quaedi leaders  yemen  us  obviously trying regime change  several methods  us response   blow  several command  control facilities  war hasnt officially started yet   skirmishes  going   cost  previous year   raf  patrol   fly zone  22 uk million  last quarter  10 times     money  spent  priorities  govts  often difficult  work   indian govt doesnt  enough money   local level  organise  proper refuse collection system yet  money  develop hi tech weaponry  attitudes  rubbish    different      beach  actual beach  combed  litter pickers   areas    terrible   2 smart 4 hotels   govt buildings   tourism training takes place  grounds  immaculate   flowers  area beautiful    side  grounds    cross   rubbish dump   building site  piles  rubbish  sand  rubble  went   snorkelling trip around  coast   fishing harbour   sea  calm    plenty  rocks   fish  hide   swim      boats    bits  wood tied together  string seriously   two central planks  two edge planks    aft piece  wood  hold  aft part together   reinforced  cord  wood   light   floats   weight fairly easily  oars  split bamboo   grips   made  interesting rowing    paddling    like large canadian canoes  boats  hawaii five o  planks  roughly shaped    rode  waves  water fountained    holes   bottom h asked  wood   made   didnt understand  answer must   type  balsa  set     light house   another group going    time  think  must  agreed  pay top whack whereas  soon learn  try  bargain   price  everything    two helpers   boat  paddle whereas    economy class  two paddles   one guide   two boats  took turns  helping  paddle whether  made much difference   progression   boat  don t know    fun    bit worrying    heading   least scenic part   coast   way  beautiful sandy beaches  miles    wave powered generator   edge   harbour   rusty wrecks  bits  broken concrete    arrived  snorkelling  brilliant   like swimming   tropical fish tank  favourite  small electric blue fish  darted away  soon   came near   big black  yellow striped tiger fish   2 sorts one  vertical stripes  one  horizontal    timid  angel fish   long dangling barbs  shy    appear   kept still     large spiky sea anemones  big   football loads  crabs  shoals  fish  swim hither  thither   quite bizarre     looked like sea horses    straightened   almost  see  jockey getting  saddle ready  put     saltwater derby  huge variety  colours  just outstanding  spent   hours   got thoroughly sun burnt   way back  boys   full  beans   way    exhausted   heat   way back  spent today making  flying kites  top   hill  pykara  kids     dads made kites    tried  fly  hs won  design  copied   original  stick design  managed  fly almost successfully  traditional kite shaped one flew    aerodynamics werent quite right son s yellow square  successful none however matched  ikea bought one  played cricket  frisbee   water buffalos wandered passed   typical indian way    real boundaries  one thing  another called    vederas    pleasant  garden  stunning  usual  love driving   tea plantations  acres  terraced tea plants    forest  get   hotel    market indian rather   western   great  us  décor lacks  little  taste  design concrete floors   rather quaint unfinished look spotlessly clean   thing  india   love  kids around  spend ages talking    love   around going   meals  uk  children  always  bit stressful  low blood sugars combined   general attitude  people  children   make   pleasant experience whereas even  hours wait   food    stressful   kids wander  play games read books etc son   son  befriended  man   blue moon gift shop   spent hours playing chess  talking   son won  little elephant    beating   chess son decided   buy josh  chess set  kept bargaining  price   eventually paid 350 rupees   460  beach  idyllic  palm trees  warm rolling sea   problem    get  kids    sun   red hot period  12  2   keep slapping   sun tan lotion  missed  widows peaks   hair  receding   sun burnt red patches either side   head  boys  variable tanning depending    sun block  washed  first dear friends just  quick note  say    enjoying   much   dont want  come home    miss   friends    great time   beach  know  palm trees  warm rolling sea  sandy beaches  unlike silloth 30 degrees warmth  fact  days    hot     drag  boys    sea  else     really sun burnt   just back  3 days  avalanche    bit   unfortunate name   mountain  door centre    isnt  snow  dont think  indians appreciate  irony      mountains  jungle area     little apart    tea plantations reservoirs  hydroelectric plants  jungle   wood men  harvest  wood every 10 years  left  bus  walked    centre   truck took  bags food   lazy ones   incredibly beautiful  high hills  lakes     drought   moment   reservoirs    low  everywhere  incredibly dry  dusty thick red dust  gets   everything  facilities  basic  water ran   stream   tank   taps  electric showers  fortunately  always  india    little man   fact 3  cooked  us    taking  wife  main concern   meeting  rats  abseiled   waterfall walked  swam  another well son   son swam   afraid    cold    will wait   go back    beach   went kayaking  sat around  campfire  night saturday 18th january 2003  end   indian holiday  escape  cumbrian weather wife saw  rep yesterday   bus  arranged  12 30   flight  5 30  tour company  something else    going  catch  taxi   3pm     hanging around  airport  ages  4 children  going   bureaucracy   indian airport  bad enough    additional hassle  waiting around  3 hours   reason  annoying part    much    pointless    put  bags   security x ray   main hall   give   bags back     wanted  add stuff   bag      go  1 desk  check  another  get  seat another  exit indian immigration  customs   identify  bags  get  put   plane worse  defra   spent  last morning swimming   beach   said good bye   cs  gs wife   buy  material fro  study    quite sad coming away  think     stayed  enjoyed living  india  back  porridge sun 19th arrived  dads  3am uk time  clearing customs flight    crowded thank goodness   space allocated   legs   enough     messed   allocation  vegetarian meals   height  european ignorance  stupidity  offered  hindu family  us  beef meal  stewardesses   known better   just cringed  inward embarrassment   thoughtlessness left  t shirts  shorts arrived cold  jeans  fleeces  air conditioning  dont think  working properly  every one  coughing  dry mouthed   arrived  gatwick drove back   cumbria  back   house    strange sensation   back   done  much  seemed changed  yet everything   still    yet  really   ways   like   fmd epidemic    everything     nothing    part    trying  find   fit   new reality part   wants  safety   old ways slightly dislocated   surroundings   physical surroundings      suppose   changed   old certainties    certain  seemed   made way  new changeable ways    certain   know     certain mon 20th   taken  day   recover  kids    really early    jet lag     qualms  sending   school  spent  day unpacking  sorting   wife  pile  post  huge  seemed  lot  manageable   time   thrown  al  junk mail    need another 2 credit cards  way transferred money  tax bills  downloaded  emails    50  ploughed  way      away   length  time  makes  realise  much work  required  keep  household going    bills  stuff tues 21st back  work   face   tray still feeling  little jet lagged  seeing  overflowing  tray   arrive   daunting feeling       went   call   good   back  farm  seeing folk   always amazes   everyone around  knows everything     asking  india      good time    nice  feel part   community   friend  mine  commented    one thing worse   talked      talked    still  funny feeling    away   changed  nothing    different  yet thinking     though      dont know weds 22nd george wanted  partners meeting  lunch time   met     usual decision making process   honest  jet lag  still really kicking     asleep   feet  doesnt usually effect    long   wife    shattered  8pm  kids  ok  going  bed  us  sign  things  come  whole pets travel scheme  causing problems    presented   passport  pets    really   allow re entry   uk  certain countries  long   meet  conditions      problems         must  like     south coast  dread  think  problems  2 main ones 1     6 month period   can come back   uk   paper work  completed  can go   6 months  people  spend  summer   caravan site will take  dog abroad   come back   6 month date   also  problem   forms    renewed     done according   manufactures directions  vary  country  country   france    govt regulation  dogs  vaccinated annually   vaccine manufactures stick     uk dogs    done every 2 years cats annually      documentation renewed  france unless  vaccinate annually whereas   uk  can renew   vaccinating every 2 years   problem    paperwork   complex  according  defras figures    18 failure rate ie 1  6 dont make  back    also  problem       least one dog imported  cumbria    paperwork   owners thought   needed   rabies vaccination   dealing     weekly basis   confused   poor punters dont stand  chance thursday 23rd    real problem  cow fertility   restocking farms   moment  went  1 farm    10 cows  checked  one   calf    little sad  baby calves  milk production   losses   fmd farmers  compensation  looking  small   ones  benefited    took  money  got    difficult trying  work    cows    much   problem  usual  suspect    simple answer  blood tests  analyses   help much  cows     lot  stress  movement  new regimes  cattle systems     learn   go   water troughs    milking parlour      sort   pecking order   cows  espy   larger units  probably quite stressful   add animals   herd   lead cows  know  set   cows   much follow  leader   behaviour patterns     complete cull  restocking    lead cows   leader   cows  follow   also   lot  illness   herds   will reduce fertility   problem   poor quality silage    bad weather   factor  keeps coming   conversation   effect  topping  grass   silage grazing quality      interesting study  will never  done now stress   generality   word   cant think   better  specific way  expressing  problems  stress    changes  caused fertility problems  difficulty   finding    go    think  lot will end  culling fairly large numbers 15 20   fertility friday 24th one   defra tvs called    way back   test tb  let us know    still  ir causing problems  also said   looked like   going    complete herd cull  tb   east   county  farmer  restocked  three sources       tracings  well    done   restocking tb testing  found 32 reactors  lesions   will probably cull  whole herd    depressing  think   farmer must  thinking  whether  can face getting back  farming     disaster   bear thinking  saturday 25th january 2003 linda bs wedding travelled   derby  wedding   really nice  see  finally tie  knot     talking     long   followed   around several continents   least  will  seen    different situations  first came   student   worked  us   locum  spent 2 years   nations bible college  london   met    lot   friends   nations       agricultural relief work   worlds hot spots  kosovo  indonesia  haiti  bolivia   currently  bolivia working  church groups    setting  tb testing programme     problem  human tb    blamed   cattle    completed  testing      cattle  seems   nearly  human  human spread    least  can make  start  eradicating tb  humans  treating   contacts  went away   church   horse drawn carriage   nice  see spent quite  lot  time catching   vets   friends     seen  ages sun 26th   staying  friends  carlisle  moved   derbyshire   started  teach  went   church    house church    little different  put  mildly  meet   school     informal   drumming band   desire    restricted  convention  liturgy     mixture  readings  worship songs   seem   reaching    local community    people   walks  life  mon 27th back  work   feeling  good  2 weeks  india   stomach bugs   w e  derby      runny tummy came home  work early  went  bed tues 28th  work ill  bed  male  involves dying noisily   corner  sympathy  get   wife weds 29th  feeling good  dragged  back       much time  recently   feel     turn      tomorrow   can recover    drawback    will  working  w e  sheep seem   decided  start lambing  maybe decided    seem   seeing     get   mean thursday   good day   spent time sleeping   household things even though  hate diy   good  get  jobs sorted called   vets  pick  stuff  court tomorrow friday    experience  legal proceedings    feel     waste  time   important   good  lawyer   case    whether    guy  starved  greyhounds          legal aid  thought  might  better  try  keep   dogs   fewer judgements    obviously knew  way around  legal system saturday 1st feb 2003 reflections  court case   one   really annoying things   can never replay   happened  case yesterday really churned      make huge moral decisions   less   spur   moment  complicating factors   c   acting   defence  acting outside  rcvs guidelines now    pointed     rspca lawyer   c  already  struck    matter  well  turned  badly   even though    decision  get involved   poor one   think        land    muck    done     fact      speaking  also     pointed    record  tainted      expert witness   first place   one    even  client beadsmen beats    reservations    legal work   rspca   least   quite  lot  work   local inspector   decided   trash c   witness   thought      place     secondly  repercussions  local vet good will   stand   good stead     doubts   whether    correct thing    right  wrong  dilemmas      choose  horn  want  get impaled  sun lambing seems   started   vengeance spent    morning   surgery  land rovers  trailers turning  one  another  sheep lambing   peri natal problems   like working    surgery   w e    far less driving  working   much easier   dont   keep getting changed     protective clothes  got two vets work done  just keeping  asking    come   surgery  farmers dont mind either   generally   put    pick   bring  back   farm   field     easy  drive    vets rather  hang around waiting   mon went tt testing  ps farm  used  son  fair bit  fmd   went  early    always  done  fair amount  contracting   various farms  also    happy go lucky style  contrast   dad    bit   worrier  quite enjoyed  banter    just work away     pressure  get finished   numbers   great tues went  os      problems getting  cows  calf  levels  infertility   restocking herds  horrendous  sad thing   seem   achieving  little  actually improving   spite   lot  investigations  spending money  vaccine   supplements  average loss must  5  least    interesting  compare  culling rates   restocking farms  find    restocking losses actually  weds took  new vet student   today  let    first lambing  rs  like everyone else says   getting  lot  lambs   dead   tangled   aborting     get     quads last night thursday went  s  stitched  teat   now  fairly easy operation   advent  using open crushes  decent epidural anaesthesia local  always fairly iffy  many  dentists patient will testify     satisfying  fix something like  friday spent  morning  certs   otm22 certificates   brought   maff  compensate  farmer  cows     sold  human consumption   otm scheme banned   human consumption   animal   fit  travel   can  shot   farm   get  compensation  need  vets cert  say    fit  human consumption   can  burnt   scheme     fit     pay    taken away     lot  pressure  sign   scheme  supposed   coming   end  summer   yet  markets exist   casualty animals   fir  human consumption  whole knackery injured animals burying  animals scheme    grabs   govt needs  get  sort  scheme   running   govt thinks maybe rightly     industry problem  get rid    waste        taxpayer  get farmers waste problems sorted leave     industry market  sort    also  suggestion   tb    important zoonosis   uk anymore     production problem    go   way  sheep scab   taken   notifiable disease list  individual farms   ensure  meet whatever standard   buyers want  specify     happening   small extent   dairy industry  buyers specifying farms must meet certain criteria saturday 8th feb 2003 wife    course   w e      run around  squash  football  sons mon 10th b  now renting   land bush ghyll head   taken     grass letting another   small farms  disappearing  reality     ever   small holding   use  milk 20 odd cows  meant  got  status   farm   computer system  uncle  use  run   first arrived   real character   always telling    farmers made money   war  dozen eggs  10 shilling none   50ps 10 whole shillings   take  girl   cinema   lyons café  still  change   pound even  free range hens eggs   buy  cinema ticket  one  days    taken    ended    bachelor   nephew taking   farm tuesday 11th  partners meeting today  trying  address  fact   mark   fees  going   eroded one   things  barnard castle    putting   bills   yet  charging  things like telephone advice    hours    going       try  get across  point    providing   round service  needs   paid    still think   end   day  economics will win    provide  service   profit   provide  service     leave us weds harrisons   problems  fertility  isnt  blood results  showing low levels  copper     convinced       will   supplement  feed  adding  copper   feed  problem    investigations     looking   simple answer   actual problem  multi factorial  cows may  short  copper      low    really effecting   often wonder  humans   blood sampled   lots  different minerals   find   percentage   population  actually  normal    several minerals maybe  omnivorous diet   fact    producing huge amounts  milk probably  come        much  varied diet  cows  now  complete rations    uk     nutritionist gets  slightly wrong   will find   cows will  short  suppose   thing    always forget     usually working  either  single  3 4 samples  silage    will   spread    actually   silage   samples may  may  reflect  thursday  call tonight  busy   ok r   helping  wh house one   suckler calves  managed  prolapse  rectum     wild  thunder      careful  handling     dope   way  operate    put  back   jumping   walls   always  wee bit disconcerting limousin stirks   used   grand national ds brother    well   now   cancer  went   emergency surgery  day  shot   cows    big row  senior staff  page st    admitted   hospital  2am    undergo emergency surgery  afternoon    want  put   web site    announcing   radio cumbria    want    going    surgery  just coming      find    radio    shooting   cows  asked   put  embargo    course  vets tried   let  go        really angry  wrote  strongly worded letters  never even got  reply    followed    held  one  account    afraid   got lost   passing  time  least r   lot better   meningitis around  time  fmd    bad heads  depression ever since    good    back  farms   started fencing  fri 14th valentines   friend s birthday    went around   house  dinner   really nice  ended playing darts   kids   pleased  get  darts   board     long long time since   played saturday 15th february 2003 sons birthday  little baby son  now 8 years old   hard  believe   time  gone    water   passed   bridge went around  friends  night  sat  eat  put  world  rights   good every now    wind   just enjoy talking     think   know   well  can just come   stuff sunday mon 17th spent  day tb testing  dl      nvl  visible lesions reactor taken colleague   first test       fat stock  farms   restocked   will  going  slaughter fairly soon    deemed pointless  really    spent  day putting big bullocks   crush     dangerous work   men  go  amongst      rarely handled   dont take    well tuesday   interesting lambing today   consequence  fmd   forget     inherited genetic condition  suffolks called dandy walker syndrome causing hydrocephalus   lambs    ewe  tup must carry  gene  produce  deformed lambs  heads  large  get   mothers pelvis   means   caesarean   ewe  can   used  breed fat lambs      put  another breed next year  years lambs  dead going  die   economics  useless  breeders just shoot    point    called us  try  lamb   caesaer      big ewe  eventually managed  lamb    saying though   takes time  work  whether  stock   bought will produce  breeding stock   want    try  different combinations     work   lines work well together  reckons   4 8 years   will  back  breeding decent suffolk sheep  spite  buying  good stock     breeding  meets  eye wednesday rb   stirk  mcf malignant catarhal fever    viral disease   quite often fatal   catch  sheep    really blue grey eyes   change   fluid   eye   severe iritis  must  incredibly painful   thursday dixons tt2  now clear        tested   42 days  clear  farm  restrictions un fortunately  vet   ministry said      day  cow  taken  today   whole thing  getting  bit complicated  jd  getting wound  understandably  friday tried  sort     tracings    supposed       lot coming    quality   info   poor tracings    farm  sold animals   subsequently gone   tb   notifiable disease  defra paper chase   bad  ear tag nos  wrong   farmer  bought several    source   1 2    paper work  defra  thing seems   falling apart  bit went    single animal    mill  usually buys  stores  fattens     store trade  gone   roof   sold  lot     let  one else fatten   heifers breed    defra files     fattening unit finisher    hadnt bothered   tracings       going  slaughter   course   sold one    gone   tb   wanted  know   happening   now saturday 22nd february 2003 saturday sunday monday tuesday   funny sensation  day  suppose   almost  flash back   ways  went   farm   fancy pedigree sheep   rented land  wanted  added   holding   mv scheme   needs  vet inspection  say   fields  double fenced    sheep   come  contact   others  inspection  fields  pretty meaningless   know  needs   done     always   scratch  last time       fmd wednesday thursday friday packed  got  last  things sorted   vcf w e got  posters printed   display boards together  set    motorway  pick  friend  spent    day travelling   good talking    retired  practice just  fmd   spent  first part   retirement working  defra   fmd first  preston    settle  seems   better organised  preston    quite positive   local teams  sometimes wonder    sill  close      emotional  take  clear headed look     really like   good  see friends  night  get set    w e sat 1st march sun 2003 vcf w e   difficult    sum   w e     much    part      copied  report  one   students  wrote  bit   vcf magazine vcf triennial conference 28th feb 2nd march 2003   sunny weekend   beginning  march  70 vets vet students  families bravely took time    busy schedules  gathered expectantly   hayes conference centre  derbyshire   2003 vcf conference    mixed bunch ranging  age  2 months  70 well nearly  many different places denominations  walks  veterinary life      common goal  mind  unite   desire  love  serve  lord jesus christ   vocation     called us   encourage one another   salt  light   veterinary world  distinguished speaker   weekend  dr l  consultant psychiatrist  christian  drew    experience  bring us  thoughtful insights   subject  god  work  emphasised  fact  although work   godly activity     view whatever     working   lord colossians 3 18  must   forgotten   balance must  achieved  work church family life etc   also  opportunity  discuss    respond  christians   variety  ethical decisions  commonly present   veterinary practice  well   main talks    opportunity  join  variety  seminars  relevant practical subjects bt  vet  long serving missionary  thailand  omf led   interesting seminar   joys  challenges   veterinary  evangelistic work   different culture students  new graduates  well provided   seminars  practicing reality living  ones faith   university  veterinary practice environment m c bravely stepped   short notice  lead  seminar  business ethics  vcf secretary generated  thought provoking discussion    relevant subject  many singleness     work   play however    much obliged   scottish students  organising  saturday night ceilidh much fun        parted company  sunday feeling refreshed  well fed  physically  spiritually  encouraging   reminded       christian vet       many others  grapple    issues  face  weekend   time  friendships rekindled  hopefully new ones made  time  strengthening   reminder    ultimately   important thing   busy lives leading  seminar  business ethics  rather winging    stressful   good    interesting   challenging  questions    right  make  profit  espy good  work     incredibly draining  sun night   exhausted drove back  friends   night  live  20 mins  motorway    coming  one   wee villages   flashed   camera   will   fine   speeding ticket  sort  mon   really nice lie    went   walk  friend around   house across  fields   beautiful  set   preston  visit  friend    prison  road  closed   way   m6  took  ages  find  way   m6    coming   preston  find  way   prisons  whole afternoon   depressing   something  intimidating     processed   visit  security cameras    polite  uncaring prison officers   searched  going past sniffer dogs    give  finger prints   now   police computers prisoner  ok  fairly depressed   outlook even now   worried     going  cope   comes   prison regime   oppressive       hour   half   glad   going   also  bizarre situation     sit   talk   length  time   also  lot  stuff   wants  know   kids   just cant help      know  hearsay   first   difficult  sum  espy       good    coping   whole situation    basically  fault     mothers    already feeling guilty enough   giving   angst  cope      glad   coming     fresh air spent  evening   parents evening challenging senior management  giving   hard time  quite  day tuesday  usual  disasters   w e away continue  new bathroom  totally flooded   leaking pipe  felt like wringing  neck    plumber  water  flowing back   old kitchen  made  real mess managed  get hold    leaving    urgent phone messages    answer phones    mobile  telephone   flat   hardly ever     girlfriends   water      day   found  leak  managed  fix      smash tiles  cut holes   wall  fix    place looked  mess  boy o boy   fed    stupid bathroom went  work  find  one  done  stuff   left   done  work  really busy  speeding ticket  landed already    govt depts   efficient  spent  whole day  6pm running around like  headless chicken   decided  stuff    going   gym   circuits class weds  disasters continued   washing machine giving   ghost    house  3 boys   vet   pretty serious problem  also   argument  one    partners saying      get another vet     rebellion  people going  sick  stress   one        back 2 days still havent managed  read    stuff    tray yet let alone deal   thursday finally convinced senior colleague  needed  help   ministry got hold    asked      tracings herd test urgently  one  farms    restocked  cattle belong   one else   looked   book  decided    idiot  told  weeks ago last september  think    happen  spent  day sorting  dc  come   vetting     lvi     pull  wool  sweet talk   training    baffling ways  defra   meant  still  yet  reach  bottom    tray may    gold buried   bottom  think   one   days   look back  probably quite decisive  accidental days    first time  really thought       killed   see  happening    nothing    done differently  prevent   went   calving  work  8pm met    farmers  one went  get water      walked   box    cow   cow gave   funny look   backed   behind  pillar   pen oh  ok   quiet cow shes  8 calves  said next time  will listen   instincts   went forward     without warning  snorting  given   second thought  charged caught    ribs   head  threw    ground    react  butted     head snorted kicked    backed    farmer started kicking  hitting    came  bashed    corner   back  kept coming   head flew    grabbed  nose  swung  around   nose kicked    feet taking   weight   one hand  shouting  help    guys one came back   pitchfork      ground  kicked     came   fork  let go  scrambled away around  box  still came     got   gate past  two brothers  thumped     backed   slammed  gate shut  lay   heap   bale  10 minutes breathing heavily   asked   need  ambulance  doctor  finally came  enough  splash water   face  think   must   easier way  make  living  took  4 brothers armed  sticks  get    crush    managed  calve 1 dead twin breach  1 live twin just   defence  cow   calving      pain   probably just got  really wound    almost killed    sat  strong tea  quarter   hour  summoning   courage  drive home  hind sight    taken   offer   getting  one else   calve  cow   girl  2nd  5ft nothing  petite  didnt think dumping      fair  adrenaline  still flowing   just kept  b   however  let one   drive  home  probably  casualty   felt     anything   hospital except keep  eye     just went home    bed  asked  wife  wake   every two hours friday ill  head spinning every time  sit   try   something  head just goes around   feel really tired  jet lagged  think  prefer india   beaten   cows time   new job slept  afternoon   friends  dinner    arrange months ago  wife didnt cancel   kept going  drifted     wee bit saturday 8th march   lie   9 o clock yo still feeling pretty sore   least  head  one piece  think showed flat  prospective tenants    rare   dont   get   sthg     home either  work   football squash  something similar   another squash competition     later starts   boys   great took son  football  wife phoned   say   cs  going  watch  lord   rings   want  go  went  watch   swapped younger kids  wife taking son   youngsters   went   cs   times  mobile phones  really useful  get things arranged  film  really good  boy   stiff  sitting    length  time  knee  giving  real gyp spent evening  daubes   faded  wife drove home  went  bed sunday 9th went  church  morning  picked  car friends came  lunch   really good  see     points  pointedly    5 boys    8 kids flying around    enjoy seeing    still trying  sort   diversification plans  hope   several strings   bows  well  farming    teachers position  nelson thom    probably   reliable form  income  friend mon 10th went  work  every time  bend   move  fast  head spins  just  small animals  think cats  dogs   much better idea   lot  sympathy  folk  work mr h     obviously given  fairly graphic description    happened    face     becoming   moment tues 11th back  work   farms    rs   fertility visit even though  know  cows    happy     feel  nervous  going   near    lost  lot  confidence  although  expected    still  bit wound     rest  day  ok apart  several people whingeing   current paper work requirements  selling cattle mind    see   need  sell   bullocks   geld cow   probably easier    asylum seeker spent evening  surgery showing d  ropes    locum   going   working  us   next  weeks   going   ministry  newcastle tomorrow    lvi training  least  means  can     tb testing   least give us  break      sort  things managing staff showing people  ropes giving  back   debriefing   latkes huge amounts  time  energy  yet  never seen  work  relevant   lot  people  rest   partnership  yet   small business    people  make   difference    feel appreciated  supported  can debrief   reassured   makes   difference    happy staff can deal  situations  people  lot better  easier  stressed ones weds 12th next year    going   definitely  one elses turn  speak   annual training day  senior lvis  just drives    wall  morning  spent fairly usefully talking  contingency planning   next fmd  exotic disease epidemic  page st planners seemed fairly well clued   taking  board  lot   ideas  problems    seen  2001  afternoon   totally depressing tb  now endemic   south   county    deer herd   animals dying   took    vic lab  penrith  find      animals losing weight  dying   tb  ministry  known     reactors  around  area   never picked    fact  deer       tested   also complaints  forward tracings    done   cattle    vety officer giving  talk said   quite difficult  work   cattle  gone   met   incredulity   local vets   paperwork  computerised passport scheme surely means  trace ability  one   big issues    bse      done  means  whole thing   useless sham well  answer    can trace  specific animal  markets  holdings   animals     holding  tracings  taking  much time     getting done  tb  spreading idiots  best systems  best tools  best ideas  best businesses   work  people  next year  one else can go  listen   plans   sky    meeting     excellent talk  fmd  feb 2000 just  pity    listen    experts   also  talk   new scrapie scheme   guy speaking knew less   audience     go back   speaker   vcf w e  said    came   medical school   spent 6 years  taught   rational  scientific  disease  discussed logically   rational conclusion  sought  came    idea   national health service  struggled  said  live   fallen world  fallen institutions     accept   times    make sense        power  capabilities  change    can  change      work within  thursday 13th day  prior  working w e went  high pike  friend snowed lightly  tops  beautiful   wee bit chilly spent  afternoon getting  stuff sorted  vcf magazine  answering e mails  putting  details   w e    sort  order   trying also  put  responses   yesterday  feeling  angry  risk putting    paper  just hope  govt    touch   armed forces   frontline  kuwait   distant arm  govt  state vet service  cumbria friday 14th another day another test another dollar spent morning supervising  locum  trying  get  top    tray  stuff  partners meeting next week  try  get  decisions   w e  call looms   feel even though      work  worked  many w es tired  jaded  beaten    cow probably doesnt help saturday 15th march working  w e  first   first time   long time     keeping  amount   working back    way ahead   amount worked   brings  numbers  line  also need  break  feeling v tired  fed     much prospect  rejuvenation  morning  fairly busy    finished  12    bad   funny  julie  ahs   receptionist since pre fmd said   thought   really busy  compared   good old days  8 years ago  thought    good sat    finished  2    surprising  things change   get use    weather  beautiful  clear skies  frosty spring mornings  dry  good weather always makes  feel better  way spent afternoon  bits  pieces  garden  jobbing around sunday 16th busy  morning   shows  useful  new building  ok  know  4 years old  things  never  normal   still see   new   2 lambings   sheep  see  drugs  put        surgery  just kept  coming    surgery   large animal bay     lot  work   driving   makes   difference    taken 3 4 hours  finished   hour   half missed church      night   lambings  sheep  back  afternoon  spent sorting   boys  went    pond      churned   got  wellies stuck   mud    cold  wet  covered    use planks  walk        sink   made  mistake  fetching  planks   spades back  sorting  boys    trailed mud  around  house grrrrr     taken photos   midst    new vet student rachael turned      give full vent   annoyance mon 17th chaos  work  loads  emergencies  testing     glad  students  d working   rs found tb testing   looks like  will continue still havent found time  put pen  paper  type writer  send  letter  contingency planning group  defra  hopefully will get  top   soon tues 18th  days    stayed  bed  bad hair day started  badly  arriving  fertility visit  farmer  emerging  breakfast   late   wife  milk recording     calve  cow    sort cows  checking  see  calf   rotten lambing rotten   lambs  disintegrating  stank    calls left  lunch  12 45  get half way   called  back  another lambing   1 30 calls     surgery worked  night    fed     call stopping   stuff  went  gym   bleeped   speak  folk 4 times  now really wound   went  house group  sat  chatted  phone went sorted     cow caesarean   followed  2   3 hours sleep must   easier way  make  living weds 19th feeling  age  sleep   night   40th birthday      good missed seeing kids  morning      caesar 3  night  call  girls  work  got hold  loads  photos   wife     around  practice well    cute teenager worked   lunch  morning  busy  partners meeting    1 30  went home  sleep opened presents  kids  4 oclock  went   ds  meal  night  good thurs 20th really quiet   tb testing  lots  vets   lambings  caught   business side  organisation  rota  organising work reflected  partners meeting  tried  work  whether     sync   rest   world  right    sync  wrong time will tell iraq war started  predicted  seems     opportunistic target  e saddam  rather    assault weird    politics  must ask  history teachers   caused  failure   league  nations  whether   going   similar  un fri 21st despite   back  went    meal    coffee mornings xmas bash   traditionally now held  new year     much else   xmas period spent quite   talking  ms  league  nations   un   fairly sceptical   power  influence  un    view   often   used   fig leaf  us  ussr ambitions    really  international community   interesting  talk    history  iraq played pictionary boys vs girls   fun saturday 22nd march 2003 worked     busy     10th day   feeling  bit drained either   cos    meal last night  will let  decide  beautiful weather  continuing   went   lovely walk   fellside  kids loved playing   streams   sunshine   march  amazing came back  find     house full  folk  celebrate  40th birthday   really nice though    good thing   weather  good   kids  play  side    lots   chatted  p   always full  energy  enthusiasm    whirlwind  ideas  concepts  philosophy one    people   can sit  listen   hours  hours   intelligent  articulate  7 languages  yet always ready  listen  anyone  hear     say even    poorly thought    practical   approach   un materialistic   quite happy  give books  ideas  anyone  will read  learn   sunday 23rd  weather  amazing  still  get     sun blazing   went  watch son play football  silloth  won 2 0     tight match   good  watch much better  carlisle  one spectators put  went   beckfoot   picnic  march  beach  deserted  yet   warm enough  t shirts  shorts   boys  lay   sun  slept  counted  many blessings came home  planted seeds lettuce courgette  sweet pea must plant leeks  pumpkins   get   chance  week  buy onion sets wife spent    church talking  b  low moor difficult mon 24th sent  letter  richard drummond    rvo  harrogate   now head  service delivery   always  bit   conscious effort  take   cudgels  bureaucracy especially one like  svs     culture  tendency  attack   criticise   hope  tomorrow will  quiet   wish  write another letter   contingency planning dept  also want  look   updated contingency plans  make comments         pay  bills    moment  work   busy  feel   actually  important  spend time   kids   will sign   go  watch  great escape   bought    birthday copy  letter  richard drummond  wrote  drummond report  fmd saying      outbreak     able  cope 21st march 2003 mr r d drummond address removed dear richard   writing  express  concern   current situation  tb  last met   lvi meeting  cumbria     excellent talk  foot  mouth disease       increased risk becoming apparent    feb 2000   meeting  year  well  talks  contingency planning    lot  discussion   emergence  tb  cumbrian farms   also complaints  forward tracings    done   cattle    vet officer giving  talk said   quite difficult  time consuming  work   cattle  gone   met   incredulity   local vets   paperwork  computerised passport scheme involved  moving cattle   huge burden  farmers trace ability  one   big issues    bse      done  means  whole paper exercise   useless sham  answer  given   can trace  specific animal  markets  holdings   animals     holding  tracings  taking  much time  tracings   getting done   divisions  tb  spreading whether  comes   remit  head  service delivery    know     grateful    forward    relevant department    minister    single enquiry   cattle movements service  workington will ensure  comprehensive list  movements     holding since  previous test    trace  herds  tuberculosis reactors  ability  track fmd  obviously  non starter thank   advance   help    hope  3 years time  will   contemplating     learnt   lvi meeting  hadrian house  sincerely bvm s mrcvs tues 25th wife s cousin  vancouver arrived    really nice  see    canadians  always   beat    earth    refreshingly positive can  mentality    daughter     school choir singing  parts  europe    european tour   whistle stopping  lakes tomorrow   good  catch    young vet  lost brother     favourite mother  law  brought   set  kitchen knives   birthday present   incredibly sharp   dont think  letting  kids loose   will   good idea   least  can pitch    old ones  needed sharpening every time  used  vet arrived back  skiing  sun burnt   sunshine  wind     really good time though weds 26th   left   arrived   go  yps   funny  see   much  young ladies going   live  opposite ends   world  yet  fashion    little hand bags  scarves  belts globalisation   just effecting agriculture   spent time  keswick  around  lakes today making use   gorgeous summer weather  march  really  warm hope      scorcher   summer holidays thursday 27th spent  quietist night  call   long long time nothing     soon   employ  locum   extra pair  hands  work disappears still  will given everyone  chance    breather said good bye   canadians  mother  law   heading   ireland  see  irish side   family  easter   will see vet friend  soon    funny saying goodbye    dont know     herd health plan today   farm   50 dairy cows  said    really know         going  give   go  milk   one else     viable  make  pay   sort  small scale friday 28th havent got  workload right    think  sunshine  sent  farmers   fields  work   lambs  calves   arriving un aided    sunshine   amazing   good weather makes  feel  much better    booked  extra testing  next week   slightly sad thing  talking  one   farmers   just started lambing   taking  rotten lambs   aborting 2 weeks earlier    first season actually lambing    bought  fat sheep last year  said      stage 2 years ago   came  took   sheep     let      wrong     put   fight   just gone along     fairly melancholic    tried  point   every one  done     seemed   best thing     time    think  pointing      convinced  argued      2   10000 blood samples  live sheep slaughtered   exposed   virus   helped    granddads flock  said now     problems  says looking   dead lambs   just pulled  lying   heap   corner   trailer  never forget something like  lad  says never    lot  anniversaries  go     farmers  saying  fun  gone    saturday 29th march  beautiful weather  carrying   wife     child free vet student free afternoon  sun     went    walk along  side  bassenthwaite lake   lots  daffodils    light breeze   lake   beautiful cool sunny day  walking   pleasant  really enjoyed  son      young peoples church w e  edinburgh  will arrive back exhausted  lack  sleep  js   boys   afternoon    good met   friends   evening  spent  evening putting agriculture  rights  sells manages sales  fertiliser  norsk hydro sunday mothering sunday   bit   disaster     organise  boys   hadnt  time  get  organised church  r j   beatitudes  met   cs  went  bow scale fell sons friend  son complained  whole way    really bad form    fed    monday  work  dried  completely    time  year  unheard    employed  locum  try  get  testing done   work  every one   embarrassingly got  wrong usually   time  year    testing   vets  running around like idiots   good news  us  wrote letters   head  contingency planning  page st  amuse    copied   name defra rm 803a 1a page st london sw1p 4pq dear name   writing  thank   travelling north  carlisle  come  speak   recent lvi meeting  hadrian house carlisle   also  reading  defra contingency plan   lot  lessons  seem    learnt  appreciate  years deadline   passed  place   parliament     living document  apologies  better late  never   like  make   comments  one   early tvi volunteers  carlisle    partner  one   practices   eye   storm 1  whole issue  valuation  animals taken   compulsory purchase   state   benefit   farming community  eradicate disease    addressed one   initial problems slowing  slaughter  infected animals   valuation   view   now    simple standard valuation must  applied  must  high enough    incentive  reporting  disease   low  make  possibility  disease seem financially attractive  price  compulsory purchase may  set higher  dangerous contacts  less  affected animals     simple standard value   diagnosing vet counts  number  bovines  shoots   farmer knows  advance  compensation  going   paid  individual animals  high merit   insured  whatever sum  farmer  willing  pay premiums   may   unpopular nettle   needs   grasped even though   sure  clients  disapprove    current tuberculosis problems   high lighting  problems   area     standard procedure  valuation   notifiable diseases   values based   last mid market rate   apocryphal stories   valuers  still running  system   clients  farmers  defra 2  second issue     addressed   tracings system   advent   british cattle movement services     impression  traceability   central part  government policy     incredulity   response  questioning   lvi meeting   told  bcms  give  list  movements     holding  tracings  tb  still  done   defra vet trawling   farmers movement book    political will     touch   bottom  data base   able  generate  list  animals moved   past 6 months  markets       holdings         done  tb  can forget trying     fmd   fast contagious disease   still  confusion   database    based  holding numbers several farmers  multiple holding numbers several   single holding number  multiple sites high genetic merit animals may  several owners  single holding may  stock  several different farms  rules  cph numbers need   re evaluated centrally   data base     use  must  actively managed  updated  can   done   local level 3 disposal  know     looked   farm sizes  continuing  grow   ever  rapid rate  average size  dairy farms   area  grown  20 cows since fmd  means  will   bigger disposal problem  individual farms will     stock 4  local office   stores  equip 20 tvis  24hours notice  touched   point   meeting   need  sudden recruitment  tvi   veterinary staff   svs can second small numbers  vets  short term availability    reluctance   dvms  second staff  may yet  required    areas local lvis can provide veterinary cover   whole structure  large animal practice   flux   may  may   possible  provide veterinary inspections   allocated   temporary  part time basis  pay  conditions   assistance need addressed  agreed   part    orientation training   local levels    end   outbreak  carlisle  quite impressive however   information  put together centrally     central trainer  trains designated trainers   svs office decc similarly  lay blood samplers vaccinators  local practices  provide nominated nurses lay staff  training    break  ai personnel  used  effectively  blood sampling   procedures    something   local plan    cost  training ai staff  blood sampling  met centrally   encourage  register  trained personnel   maintained locally  cumbria county council inquiry recommends  use   emergency centre   hub  multi agency response   disease  break     joined  government    county council  part   contingency plan provides   admin back    emergency civil disaster terrorist incident    local plans make use    main concern however     asked   meeting   two way communications  page st  carlisle  sorted    met  nervous laughter   like  emphasise  page st   know   going    field  fmd outbreak    communication barrier   vets   field  carlisle management   huge gulf  carlisle  page street   plead    addressed   culture identified  iain anderson still seems  prevail  quote  culture predisposed  decision making  committee   associated fear  personal risk taking   climate   encourage creative initiative  inhibits adaptive behaviour  organisational learning   time lowers  quality   decisions taken  seems     reappraisal  prevailing attitudes  behaviours within  department   beneficial  may  outside  remit   northumberland report   flow charts  recommendations actually lists lessons   learned  dec 1969  one   svs  fared  poorly  fmd 2001 states   considered  recruitment problem   state veterinary service  reasons maybe  low initial salary   part    nature   duties within  service  consider  important  future development   ministry  agriculture  attract  greater number  good young graduates willing  make  career   service   end   plan   people   going  implement   need well managed well led  given  resources  carry   task  need   confidence    political  civil service leadership  will need    risk management  tasks  financial reasons resource reasons    wider rural economy  requires flexible decision makers   prepared  take risks  stick  head   collective parapet  hope   provides    thoughts    work   sincerely refs fmd 2001 lessons learned enquiry forward  chairman iain anderson p7 northumberland report presented  parliament dec 69 part 2 section 47  spoke   last lvi meeting   usual  plans sound good   reality hits    delivery tuesday   small animal work   testing tues evening always seems  rush went  gym     ns   new frontiers church meeting   excellent weds managed  fertility work   morning  spent  rest   day bringing  practice database   date    let go since foot  mouth   tell us  much stock  farm   numbers      place  people   restocking  changing  direction  businesses  going  moving   moving   numbers   going  dairy  beef  sheep   interesting thing   fact   lot  farms   restocked  adult animals  dropped  5 10 cows since  restocked  older cows  lost  ill cows go      young stock replacements coming   replace   actual figures  dairy farms restocking   yet entered   computer   hoping     will get  thursday   small animals   otm22   still incredibly quiet consequently   booked   lot  work   next  weeks   hope  dont get  wrong   way set  anne  vet student   project  comparing fertility pre  post fmd finished  updating  database figures   will hopefully get entered  next  days   can   comparisons march figures look ok   long term  look    good  govt    committee looking  farm animal vet practice  lakeland bva  asked  comments efracom inquiry  vets  veterinary services efracom   defra committee terms  reference   look   provision  farm veterinary services  england  wales  particular  will look  1  impact current levels  farm income     usage  veterinary services   turn  effect  reduction   usage   services     number  practices dealing  large animals 2  effect  reduction   usage  veterinary services   shortage  large animal vets    health  welfare standards    effectiveness  surveillance  animal diseases 3 whether  requirements placed  farmers  government including    animal health  welfare strategy  realisable   circumstances  4    impact   work   state veterinary service comments  12 april please  day ended   reading   tb test   farm   hoping  become clear  going    first restocked 18months ago 1 reactor  1  r  normal interpretation  will probably take   severe interpretation  government always looks  though problems  dealt   isolation  defra vet  looks   practice   dealing   case   daughter  married   brother  farming community   incestuous friday work desperately quiet   organised  testing    hope  havent  booked  work defra vets  carlisle  still learning  ropes   come s  tb      rare   part   world      allocations   wrong      go back   extra animals   set can  signed   school held  curry evening tonight    cumbrian village school   cosmopolitan    extended family  three pakistani families   cooked though   children   also  bangers  chips option   quite  nice time though wife    next level counselling course   ended  just  kids    good  spend time     enjoyed  working many w es recently  kind  gives   life back     much  work saturday 5th april 2003 wife    level 2 course counselling     kids   w e took son  squash went  town   bits  pieces    chatted     waited  t  son  finish  took   kids  town     mothers day tomorrow  make    fact l   away   w e last week  kids  bought presents  made cards   nice  cs  friend came  lunch   spent   muddy afternoon   pond playing  building dens  generally making  mess   fun son even decided showers   order   came back  shows   dirty      mr allergic  water  made  fondue  tea  apple juice   kids dont like  kick   wine    great success   taste rather good even    say   sunday  went  church     wife  heading     early lunch  talk   gods leading   always relevant  kids  great fun   way back  full  craic    return trip   cs     late  find  sky tv   match carlisle lost  usual     every week  lose   millennium stadium  picked  kids    cs  put   bikes   back   car went  say good bye  cs   meantime three   boys  hiding   boot   car   let  drive      giggles  laughter gave  game away   caused much merriment  round met    lads sunday night felt really sorry  one guy    real problems getting access   7 year old   ex wife  putting  lot  ve input   wee one  can go   legal route  will  expensive  probably counter productive     wanting  negotiate  look    best   wee girl  seems  real mess monday  spite  4 tests  work     spent  day testing though   really quite amusing   know  guys sister quite well   always make sure  tell   much  good lunch  appreciated   builds   rivalry      can provide  vet   best food   afraid  consciously flame  rivalry  spite      waistline  good trying  concentrate   three course lunch   boring job   easy  just   think  coffee time   cakes  tray bakes    distinctly unhealthy   aim  feeding  door manual labour tuesday   bad night   hand  caught   crush yesterday   stirk throwing  head   bent  finger back  seemed ok   now throbbing like mad plenty  aspirin  corticosteroids   ferty   saw another lda  cows seem     real problem   feed  spring    seen 3 4 times  normal number went running     finger meant    go  gym  work machines weds  speed cameras  arrived   top road  unfortunately   going  fast   time  saw    will probably  another 3 points   licence    building pads   side   road  along  a595     really bad record  car accidents  numbers killed continues  go   speed cameras    van  can move around  hence trap  speeders   called casualty reduction unit  bit   pointed message even    slow    work  slow  today   tb testing  mid week days    brothers birthday  nz   sent  letter  say   going    dad    trip  come across  xmas     wanting us   go  hm maybe thursday    2 reactors  4  rs today   future   looking good     looks like  will  tb     real problems since  herd restocked  lung worm energy problems   silage  atrocious fertility   going    go  buy another 30 odd replacements  800  replace     lost  ill health  fertility makes  compensation payments seem pretty small thats 24k   lost   already    heifers   coming    served work  busy   wonder   spring rush  coming   supposed     school parents evening  got called    pretty irritating  hate  fact    just  unreliable     call friday another tb testing day  busy  together   good day  competition report     fairly damning  expected   pressure  drug margins  going  continue   old fashioned way  providing  complete service will  going   window  will   charge     hours   call  telephone advice  try  make  pay   whole economics  going   see  single ill animal will  gone  clinical skills  veterinarians will  gone  academic   cost  diagnosing  single animal   new era will   much   diagnosis will   done  post mortem  herd problems     large herds  man power will     look   individual ill animal sad depressing day       w e saturday 12th april 2003 woke  early  got  even though    day   lie   think   particularly wound    ways takes   least one day  wind   work    tired  yet  feeling able  rest took son  football   son  buy anew bike    excited    birthday coming      grown  old one   will  good    kids spend ages flying around  yard  bikes      field   grass  short    real ball     great place  grow      much freedom  play  play  play  finger   caught tb testing started throbbing   afternoon     improved   got worse  decided    get  x rayed   spent  afternoon  casualty waiting  get x rayed   waiting  another hour   told    broken  five minute consultation  took  almost 2 hours friends     w e  friends   capernwray bible college   easter youth thing   came      good  catch  sunday cooked lunch  everyone   went  communion   dire  reminded    dont usually bother spent  afternoon putting onions   tidying   garden   incredibly dry  warm amazing really  6 kids spent  whole afternoon messing around   pond   disgusting  mud everywhere  trailed    yard  wellies abandoned everywhere church  dm speaking    yps came back   afterwards mind   think    enough kids   time     ok monday bad haircut day     one day  can test  week  booked  fair amount     tight  aw   ill     tight    ops   put   tomorrow d   s african vet friend visiting      vet student  house  still full  however  knackered   feeling sociable   horrendous calving    often   calve  cow    afraid   hour  gave   caesared   calf  dead  rotten  whether  will   dont know    want  caesarean    life   either    farmer pay 60  get  one  take  away   euthed  tuesday     period  anniversaries   2 years since  ls went      farm    get fmd   uncles    saying   sad day     uncles must  feeling    beautiful spring weather   grass growing  spite   frosts definitely puts  bounce    step  days like   think     excellent life wandering around  countryside  enjoying  scenery  farms  animals   farmers beats working   factory  way went   gym  felt  lot better   exercise   great way  getting  buzz        tired   get   b enjoy    gone often   feel    just felt like  steam roller  run     taken  day  two  recover balance   things weds  commission report came  today difficult  believe   will  able  implement    lived   fmd   quite   things  thought      able  implement     will     minister decides  since   dti  defra  think   implementation may  effective provide prescriptions free  charge provide  clients   list  pharmacies agricultural suppliers   vets  web sites  will meet  prescriptions  cost    commonly prescribed medicines   previous quarter  cross subsidy  professional fees  pharmaceuticals will   allowed   will  pharmacist make  money   comment   irk       provision  24 hour cover   seem  onerous    often swear  really  depressed  daughter came   caesaer       call tonight   really nice working  home   able  take        healthy thing     growing     much  young lady  farmers wife   dental receptionist   course said hello    thrown   course    context    figure   farmers wife knew    thursday good friday   sons bday today   day started  great      duty   arrived   bedroom  7am    2 boys  start   birthday celebrations  family tradition     breakfast  bed   bed dont know      happens  others  brought cards  presents   phone went     lambing  tim decided   come  see  lambs  born    thrilled  opened  presents later   included  new boiler suit  really thrilled    amazing  kids think    best present  never really like working good friday  always think one year  will    go  one   contemplative services hebron  low church never really  anything like     real shame easter    think  cathedrals old country churches   church architecture can really  helpful  stopping  praying  helping  consider  jesus    cross finished work  went    friends    home    really good  see  played rounders    barbeque   really nice james   really good form    enjoying  back away  london    just started work   high flying lawyer    enjoying london  much    hills  countryside lad  girlfriend  also    quite  good craic  didnt really want  come home    knackered    probably just  well  kids   us       late  night saturday 19th april 2004 spent    day either catching   sleep    day  day things  seem    put  one side      also  preparations   service tomorrow   taking  easter sunday morning service   one   night mare services  everyone comes  age range   0  100  everyone  different expectations   explain   normal sunday services   different    family focus   lively   informal aimed    young children  go  sunday school    teaching  parents adults   always  lot  noise children running around babies crying  shakers  childrens songs  communion service  follows   traditional silence  solemnity rules   older generation go      different service    going   combining  two oil  water  lot  prayer  gone    one sunday wife got   6   go   sunrise service   crematorium  said  needed  input   easter service   leading    service organised  st james parish church    carlisle churches  asked  take part christiana  asked  go  wife went      really good christ  risen   risen indeed  sermon    archdeacon   cathedral  said    good anglican  wanted  liturgy   sermon  every time  said   dead  congregation   reply  alive  christ   point   sound  hooter  service  hebron went  well oh ye  little faith   pray   worry less   included  outline     put  additional comments  blue easter sunday service welcome  hebron evangelical church  easter sunday morning    celebrating jesus  alive  opening hymn   declaration  jesus  alive   risen   dead opening hymn  believe  god  father welcome intro   welcome team  morning  service    different order  usual   going  remember  jesus  done  us   cross  bruce beattie one   elders  going  help explain   bread  wine mean  us     children may       communion service    taking communion   going  celebrate jesus resurrection  reading singing  sharing  resurrection   central part   faith  knows   long word resurrection means  answers   kids  quite amusing   got    end   end   service  will   offering  opportunity  give  money  well     living god    service  young children get fed     place   back   can   making things  isnt easy  sit still    little   quiet  please dont worry   little ones   distraction  often wonder    like  jesus fed  5000plus crowd   think  children  sat neat  quiet  rows  dont think    pleased  see   hear     time  family worship   youngest   oldest reading psalm 67       power point   read  together may god  gracious  us  bless us  make  face shine upon us   ways may  known  earth  salvation among  nations may  peoples praise  o god may   peoples praise  may  nations  glad  sing  joy   rule  people justly  guide  nations   earth may  peoples praise  o god may   peoples praise    land will yield  harvest  god  god will bless us god will bless us    ends   earth will fear  psalm 67 prayer m   sing  next hymn    good   children came  sit   front   b can see     talks   hymn   survey  wondrous cross communion b b gave  excellent talk  remembering  included  diary   kitchen timer   set  go    carefully timed point   little bit   used smarties  go   easter story   different colours  wish    written     communion    smarties   kids     remember   easter story   adults took communion  remembered christs death  resurrection forgiveness   wonderful thing   just  remembering  jesus   us   cross  died  us  incredible love  thankfully  gospel doesnt end  son   cerise  going  read  reading  luke 24 vs 1 12    brilliant dramatic reading  empty tomb lets sing gods  dead   alive sing  twice  use  instruments   front  make  joyful noise  want     little taste     like   around  day   lets listen   mary magdalene chatting   phone  well  listen  see    talking  wife   sketch  mary talking   phone  marta  met  risen jesus    good really gave  facts   contemporary feel hymn led like  lamb   slaughter   second verse  children come  help   verses  give    big people  id like   help give   making sure   big people get one   children  may   able  read yet    coloured stones  remind    huge stone   rolled away  jesus rose   dead  can keep    pocket  somewhere special  remind   jesus  alive   wants      ever  go   made  tiny scrolls  verses   resurrection   kids  gave   kept  wee ones busy  also gave everyone  verse  think  isnt  wonderful  know    singing hes alive   risen     world  church  singing   message  revelation  get  little glimpse    will  like  heaven   new song  sung  jesus christ close  eyes  listen    says rev 5 vs 9 11    privilege  hebron     representatives  different language people  nation   morning let us listen   christ  risen  different languages  prayer    one family say   arabic another  german    philippino girl  said    language   one else  spanish   magical introduce lord  lift  name  high sung  mizpah orphanage  children     just heard  name jesus   first time  christmas see picture  need helpers    actions   song   thankful  jesus  alive    speaks guides comforts  forgives us    sin  mess  make      marys   peters   thomases   met   risen lord     story  tell  walking   risen lord   listen   people  sharing  bit   story  wonder      share take  opportunity  day  share  god  teaching     changing  dont hide behind  weather  holidays share  journey  encourage real fellowship end  prayer  top song  offering    opportunity  offer  afresh   risen lord  old song   powerful one  make  song personal   choose  verse   will stand   sign   offering   lord band will play   twice  collection taken     sing    want  sit  last verse   sing take  love   will  stand  last verse take  life  song  lots  parts  asking god  take  use different parts   lives songs intellect strength money etc   asking people  stand   point  wanted  really meant  stopped  offered part   selves back  god  response   resurrection finish  thine   glory  service went really well people came  said  well   gone wife spent afternoon packing  feeling washed  giving   tiring   satisfaction  huge mon  early  catch  boat  n ireland  boat    busy   good spent  boat ride filling   thoughts   future  large animal practice   efracom enquiry bought lord  rings part 2  two towers    wanting  re read   seen  movie     holiday reading sorted    chance   got   sit   wife s parents  talk   future   good  campbell usually disappears    sit   bank holiday  didnt   fairly  beat     good    pleased spent  evening  c   cousins   really good   barbecue  chilled  c   really surprised   news  agriculture  ni  going   bad time  well   behind  uk     lot  small uneconomic family farms    lot  consolidation  going   farmers selling  tuesday spent  morning playing squash   boys  w  great fun spent  afternoon   garden trying  tidy   went   dinner   bridesmaid   also just handed   notice  rather accepted  redundancy package  must  catching   great  see   also     belfast     cosmopolitan city  days  different languages cultures  nationalities  mixing   downtown area  big change weds went   new exhibition centre   docks  belfast    multiplex   science exhibition  well  shops  restaurants      amazing  kids   spent  day playing   exhibits     well done    came away  learnt quite  lot wife now believes    colours    easily confused     one exhibit  words  one coloured spelt  name  another colour ie  word  spelt y e l l o w    red  colour     read  words  say  colours   just      brain ended  really confused bought flowers  stuff   garden    boxes  gran went   dinner  rp    widow   wife s parents age    much fun  loves giving dinner parties   folk   ages around  gave   useful addresses   lots  plans  wife s parents golden wedding thursday  day   big photo shoot wife s brothers father  law   photographer      together wife mum wanted  photo    family together   spent  hour   half getting positioned  photographed 7 kids  7 adults    pernickety photographer travel back   boat  ok  came back  find  everything  fused    phone   working  fixed  fuses    trips thank goodness  got  electrics going  phone   fix    worry    away     lightning strike    phone line   road    fried   cables one   neighbours     kitchen   phone  exploded  jumped   wall   left scorch marks   wall   just glad     one   phone   time   unfortunate thing    computer  attached   dead   dodo friday back  maelstrom   really relaxed going back   work   lasted  may  half  hour  one  picked      admin things     away  spite  asking people     meant    start  get things organised  testing  rota  nestles  well   try    work   tray   mess  never mind  also   complete  report  efracom   closing date  today  hope   5pm  report  actually finished  10 15   e mailed    like   polished   bit    schedule today   conducive   evening    supposed   writing     casaers   foal trying  die  farm     much luck     horrendous problems  restocking   also  tb2  enclose  copy   report  efracom  right hon michael jack mp environment food  rural affairs chairman   sub committee vets  veterinary services  submission summary    timely review  farm veterinary services   submit   current trends  veterinary practice  likely  accelerate rapidly  response   present levels  farm income  imminent changes  veterinary practice   submission   briefly covered  following areas  current provision  veterinary services     financed current trends   likely impact  veterinary services  effect   reduction  large animal clinicians  health  welfare standards   surveillance  feasibility   animal health  welfare strategy  impact   svs  future  possible outcomes  current provision  veterinary services     financed  income  rural farm veterinary practice  provides  majority  veterinary services   agricultural industry  traditionally come  5 major areas clinical services examining  diagnosing individual animals calvings lambings individual surgery routine fertility dehorning  castrating traditional  farm professional fee work lvi income  defra maff   eradication  notifiable disease tuberculosis brucellosis anthrax etc many practices also  involved  meat hygiene  inspections  abattoirs  dispensing  pharmaceuticals  provision  veterinary advice  farm management  welfare  majority  veterinary partnerships  mixed practices  consideration must  given   fact  small animal work makes   variable proportion   work  income  veterinary practice    opinion  clinical farm animal practice  examining  diagnosing  individual animals  already uneconomic    veterinary surgeon   farmer    happening    cross subsidy   professional fees   income     good will   farmers  give animals  chance   harsh economics  coming home  vets  farmers   rapidly becoming  james herriot  part  rural history current trends   likely impact  veterinary services    current trends within agriculture  veterinary practice   effects will     agriculture  farm veterinary practice   trends  can  identified  fast  far  trends will go  difficult  predict    experience   change   comes change  often slow  starting   dramatic   speed  effect  decoupling   eu decisions  agriculture  unknown   current trends  likely  continue  agriculture farm size   continue  grow  farms make less  less per animal    spread costs  larger  larger numbers  individual value   animal continues  drop  real terms efficiency  mechanisation continues  increase chicken farms  now routinely 100000 animals plus since foot  mouth disease  average dairy herd size  increased  90  114  increase  20  talking  many dairy farmers   going  increase   herds  going   300 animals  increases  usually    increase  labour   farms  means  care  individual animals  likely   less important   care   overall heath   herd much   veterinary practice  major changes  likely     competition inquiry    cost  pharmaceuticals  subsidy  professional fees  sales  pharmaceuticals    increasing trend since  late 60 s  professional fees  subsidised   large scale eradication schemes  maff  paid  good fees  get  vets   farm  help eradicate  notifiable diseases  competition inquiry  recommending  pharmaceuticals  dispensed  pharmacies  well   prescriptions  provided free  charge  private organisation  going  provide  service free  charge  yet   ascertained   current level  income derived  pharmaceuticals   going   sustained  inevitably means   cross subsidy will disappear  farmers will   pay  full cost  veterinary clinical service   will   economic       time  costs  providing veterinary services continues  rise  cost  veterinary time  continuing  rise students  now graduating  debts  15 20k    loss  grants  payment  tuition fees  means  will need     raise  2 3k per annum  pay veterinary assistants  match  status quo farm animal practice already pays assistants less  companion animal practices despite offering  less favourable  call rota   short term following fmd many practice principals worked additional  call  make  rota acceptable  attract assistant vets    viable   short term   long term    acceptable  partners profit becomes commensurate   salaries    pay  veterinary assistants  will  aiming  increase charges  clinical work  look   avenues  decreasing costs increasing turnover providing    hours emergency cover   economically practical  vets except   big cities  practices join together  provide  emergency clinic currently    rcvs obligation  provide 24hour cover   rcvs   involved   commercial pricing  services   value  individual animals continues  drop  real terms   cost  treating individual animals becomes less  less viable     cross subsidy    hours work  will become untenable  many mixed practices   dwindling farm animal side   less financially attractive many will decide  concentrate   companion animal side   business   lot  mixed practices    senior partner  will   largest amount   farm work  means  younger vets will    case load  become experienced  confident  farm work    cohort  practitioners   situation heading towards retirement   near future will  practice continue   involved  farm work  fewer practices become involved  farm veterinary services  cost  travel    distant farms   rise beyond  already accelerated rate   means  farm veterinary practices will lose income  clinical services   pharmaceutical sales  will   move  towards  pig poultry model  providing veterinary advice  charging   vets  already moved   nutritional advice leaving  field  nutritional experts  reason      nutritional advice  provided free   farmer   firms   put  cost   feeds   sold   farmers  cross subsidy  fees  sales  apparently acceptable   subsidy  veterinary fees  pharmaceuticals    model  beginning  appear   areas whereas vets provided  mastitis control  dairies  buy  milk  now providing free  subsidised advice  farms  cell counts  high bacterial counts including bacteriology   variable back   quality  advice nmr   recording agencies  already offering fertility information   recording products     short step  actually providing  fertility work  believe   factors will contribute   dramatic decrease  farm animal clinicians   next 5 years  effect   reduction  large animal clinicians  health  welfare standards   surveillance   number  clinical veterinarians reduces   will  much less  farm surveillance  means  outbreaks  novel  unusual diseases  much less likely   noticed  recorded   early stage  routine care   animals will  done  stockmen  veterinary guidance  guidance will probably   quarterly  6 monthly  annual visits   herd health plans individual animals  much  likely   treated ad hoc   stockmen rather   veterinary surgeons  quality   treatment   cases may  adequate    will  poor  significance  symptoms  illness may   appreciated diagnosis  treatment seen   high cost  used   last resort  outbreak  disease will  well developed  losses occurring  veterinary advice  sought  herd sizes increase  labour decreases   attention  individual animals must reduce   drop  welfare standards ill animals  likely   culled quicker  limited manpower becomes  important  use  vets  additional expert man power  calvings lambings will  seen   expensive  demands   system must mean  high heath status  important  routine vaccination  herd health policies  put  place defra seems  set high regard  laboratory diagnosis results   form  surveillance    common problems  diagnosed treated    resort  laboratory aids fertility lameness mastitis pneumonia pge  rarely referred   lab except  treatment   working  samples  taken referred  vets  practice fewer vets  mean fewer samples  lack  veterinary advice  ill pigs  ill sheep  farms  heddon   wall shows   lack   clinical veterinary service can lead    terms  delay  spread  disease  local knowledge   current lvi system   invaluable asset    danger   thrown away  idea   farm   box  can  assigned  number  page street  dealt    single entity   problem   still   resolved  complexity  many   local farming links  trade working together machinery shared grazing fell rights  family ties   reduced   computer screen  dcs  feasibility   animal health  welfare strategy   opinion      hoping  cover   fully  lack  time  prevented   impact   svs  impact   svs  likely   slow   realised  svs   known   ability  meet challenges  streamline  systems   number  vets involved  farm work decreases  will   provide     resources  tackle tasks currently done  lvis   flexible private practice takes   challenge  getting backlogs  testing done  can respond  new challenges  example  licensing brought   fmd private practice can fit  work around  duties whereas    going   done   svs  will   expensive  take  vets    tasks alone  svs  notoriously unreliable   work allocation  fmd  record  sending 5 vets    farm    day  yet   beaten though  hope     lot better  normal circumstances   still problems   allocation system  can   put right  local knowledge  areas     farm animals  may well   lvis willing  carry   routine testing  notifiable disease   going  provide veterinary cover     clinical caseload    lvi work  will   vets available  second  defra   next fmd  exotic disease outbreak  contingency plan confidently states  resources  20 tvis    kept   centre  case   outbreak  notifiable disease   addressing   will come   will   20 tvis available  short notice  march 2001  majority  vets   carlisle decc  lvis  future  possible outcomes  picture   painted     opinion will happen   government allows  situation  develop   hope      joined  government  decisions    made  response   competition inquiry report    mixture  outcomes   possible  numbers  vets  farm animal practice will reduce  can  minimised  maintaining  cross subsidy  professional fees  providing clinical services either directly  defra work  surveillance   notifiable disease work    pharmaceutical sales  option  increasing fees   possible veterinary services will  provided   means eg vets working  feed firms dairies manufactures retailers  ensure  welfare surveillance standard consultancy firms providing fertility mastitis specialised advice defra local authority will   provide vets  notifiable disease testing surveillance tasks developing  french model  farm cooperatives employing vets    farms  pig poultry model  regular advisory visits  minimal involvement   day  day running   individual animals   first   provides   continuation   successful lvi structure   outcomes mean  loss  clinical veterinary services  loss  clinical services means  drop  welfare standards   loss   farm surveillance farm veterinary services    transitional time facing economic challenges changes  agriculture increased regulation  increased competition   pharmaceutical  services  provide  will  increased competition  practices   try  meet  higher expectations  new veterinary graduates starting  careers  providing  cost effective service   rural community bvm s mrcvs brief c v currently  partner  one   largest farm veterinary practices  cumbria  spent 17 years  mixed rural practice spent 6 months  secondment  maff   carlisle decc  fmd sat 26th april 2003  worked last night  done 2 caesaers   calving  call  top   long week   completely washed   sat  surgery   call  went home  bed knackered  fed   deciding    want  spend  life like  sunday  busy day  call   least  calls   stack  just kept coming  ones  twos   stress levels    bad  boyzo   tired mon    beginning  ds last week   worked  really well   hope   will  able  work    back end  help   testing   easy going    good s african protestant work ethic always happy  oblige   good  work     good laugh  always teasing  playing silly jokes    great sense  humour spent    day  catch    week end   calls  sorted car  drugs   cleaned  kit  slippage  cleanliness since fmd   noticeable especially   w es  dont tell defra went swimming  foxes well   honest sat   jacuzzi  talked   swam 2 lengths    tired   much really  must start getting  proper exercise    back will suffer tues   really annoyed  defra  rang  asked    needed  put  vets   panel l     needed    exports  nestle  panel l can just  added      simple export thing    take half  hour      last friday  now      go  training  svs    take half  hour    forms  can  yes   yes          spend  afternoon going  carlisle  got  meaningless forms    can fill  meaning less forms   nestle can get th milk  customs   beginning  see  people just smuggle things rather  get involved    stupid bureaucracy weds went   factory visit  nestles today    look around    know  plant  can give  certification   milk powder  export  whole thing  ludicrous  dried milk powder   sterile product      else  goes   quickly      certify     pasteurised  don  know  hey  money  size  quantity   huge amount  machinery   small number  people required  maintain  operate  plant  awesome  went   distribution warehouse    just row upon row  pallets 3 7 high full  dried milk  cappuccino drinks weird  think mast   instant cappuccino  made  dalston thursday went  panel l training    pointless   thought    took  opportunity  go   defra admin staff    queries  problems   moment    lot  stuff  defra telling    stock      stock  ensure  database  relatively   date     headache    working  computer screens hence mrs f r   farm   correlate    mr e r    address  computer    relationships     married  live together   stock    piece  ground   really get   ground  evening   final partners meeting   handed   notice  reasons  handing   notice  complex  decisions probably    lots  factors  trivial   outsider  important   others may  important  others  similarly    several people  asked    reaction  fmd  last casualty   ways      horrendous experiences    long hours  difficult ethical      responsible dilemmas  taught   lot    see fear   eyes  senior management  challenged   able  organise  protest meeting  thirty vets  jim scudamore    tv interviews o see  effect  feeding information  journalists   able  break   fast talking  relying   wits  organise completely new systems  manage projects   never  done   build teams  international backgrounds   face  opposition   hierarchy   constantly caught   tight rope   different groupings  learnt    huge abilities   go back  normality  difficult  future  farm animal practice  also  unpredictable    lot  farms   yet  restock  cross subsidy  fees  drug sales  going  end     work will   behalf  paid   defra     whims   politicians   treasury   also   easiest client  deal    also  problem   second  command  dealing   frustrations   partnership    united   way  work    see  practice going  means  schemes  diversification  improving income streams  managing  bad debt will either  happen  will become part   workload   already  stretched add    cock tail  fact  wife  starting  work     given  really bad scare   tackled   cow  question    want    job   next 20 years  answer        answer   hand   resignation  start  look  something new     6 month notice period ending   accounting date    jump    another job sorted  even   decision   hard    really choked    left   discuss  future    go home   kids  want  know   going    went  js  already knew  will tell  kids  friday  practice manager  monday  work  tuesday   said  little   thoughts   diary    learnt   somethings better left unwritten   time   information   public whatever issues     confidentiality   dont think something can  talked     write     never know   going  read   though got  self    stew   rang wife  say   going  js   said   come   left  bit  hurriedly     got    head    gone away  holiday   telling  friday  whole day  unreal  knew   going   one else  told  kids  tea time    shocked   upset     come   shock   tim especially loves coming    around  farms     also     going     just uncertainty  2nd call sat 3rd may 2003 work  wash     second last night   2 caesars   calving   second caesar   4am   felt dreadful  day young vet  started operating  got stuck   went   rescue  cow  horrendous adhesions  nothing   moved around  spent  hour   half trying  pull  calf    stitching   uterus   cow  felt  needed diving gear      arms    full length  vet beside  trying  stitch  feel  arms  exhausted   end     like death warmed   day  feel   definitely made  right decision sunday   good nights sleep feeling better  mother always use  say   world looks  different   good nights sleep   cooked breakfast    need  cooked breakfast  stress levels    high     eating far  much   going  go   diet  usual promise    weight  going  fast   will   cut   start  exercise  lot  went  see  practice manager  tell     handed   notice   decided  see          chance  process   work  tuesday   overweight  stressed   type    heart attack  treat  gently   also  good friend    give   warning   spent  hour chatting    talking    good  way    spending  sunday afternoon mon bank holiday another bank holiday working   least   fairly quiet  spent    day working   garden  kids  away   morning  various things   met   lunch  friends   really nice      visit family   lake district   hired  couple  cottages   w e   met    really amazing people    doctors   went   visit   thailand   brilliant fun   working  leprosy  aids cases   come home   sharing  gps job     also   diploma  diabetes   also  deputation work  raise money   work  omf  thailand  asia   4 kids    really nice  see     kids  similar ages  really felt      gone  home schooling  schools  edinburgh   big city     double culture shock  coming   uk   schooled   complete different way   also  bright kids    individual attention    focussed mother   miles ahead   rest   classes yet      social skills  adapt   rough  tumble  life   city comprehensive mobile phones    must  item  rural thailand good  see   tuesday today  announced  fact   leaving    work   thought            say   quite difficult    emotional point  view    fact   think   business   longer term will  problems     direct relevance   lay staff   jobs though  will still   similar number needed   workload  likely  remain    also   vets two   may  may   approached  buy   business  will also   longer term   smaller number  vets needed   will probably  managed  natural wastage  spoke first   senior assistants   lay staff   hard        long  many   15 years    long time  think also    attitude   ups  downs seem   past      lot  upheaval   move  b v   s park fmd    things  suppose   getting back    even keel   throw  spanner   works weds spent  evening phoning friends  relatives  let  know    handed   notice  sending   job details  two jobs  applying  another    sure    looking     moment   just sending   anything  seems interesting  waiting  seeing  seems  unreal situation   many ways  also   phone  bank manager   arrange  annual visit   tell     leaving  getting  balance  moving    positive   pointing   dangers   future  large animal practice   difficult balance   initial shock  power     salesman banker   asked whether    needing  banking requirements   least    start   independent vet small business consultancy  will   bank account  run   thursday  quit day   testing  tackled    back log  admin spent  lot  time setting   systems  know  folder  nestle   taken   work    lvi work   nestle factory  dalston    fallen    previous practice   took    assumed     odd bit  work   fact    huge amount  work    going  take  sorting   also feel  bit     handed   notice  yet   setting      ma  going  benefit      suppose  comes back  wanting     right     serve god   man   always  useful measuring stick  use  work  motivations     done   situation    trying       practice  client      jesus   friday another bad hair day  real problems trying  fit  extra work   day   got  bit frayed around  edges fortunately next week will probably   last thank goodness  practice  used    nestle work    phone      friendly hey ho went    meal  friends   great    church youth leaders   really switched    think need  support  help hopefully   1st  october hits  will  able  get  involved went   royal oak  welton  just   re done   serving food   proper basis  well    pub part  like  restaurant wife s food  excellent mine  ok    indian trio  samosa  2 bharji  start    afraid    spoilt  real indian food      bothered going     cumbrian pub saturday may 10th saturday may 10th  day    many days working   much stress   really nice just   around home   garden   really worrying  else  going    world  needed  space    pleased   got   long last   amazing  much better  world looks   good nights sleep    time    afternoon  c boys came around   took   see new chicks s       want  go   route  explaining    made  decision    leave  chickened   telling   suppose   happy     just want  forget    w e   arrived  7 boys   quite brave fortunately    stay long      back  go   giannis  d  took us     really good fun  kids    good form came back  watched  first part   dvd  john grishams book  client    excellent writer  although film can never develop  characters     book   film  good   ok sunday 11th church  good  morning    good     spent ages chatting  folk  came back  lunch   couple  stayed  long    people  find really draining    one   awful   get really wound   just want   go   30 minutes  came  lunch    leave   tea    almost going spare monday 12th  find  silence around  fact   going  bit unnerving    bit elephant  coffee table really  lot   farmers  suppose dont yet know       respond todays frustrations    things  working bt  sent   bill  115  fixing  line   struck  lightening   put  three depts   gave   may try just  paying  see   can register  fact  bill   disputed   frustration   car doors  gone   wife s car   incredibly frustrating    fixed  fixed  fixed although    warranty   getting   stage   feel    fobbed  tues 13th  went  hear mg   licc london institute  contemporary christianity speak   living word    series  happens every spring   organised   group  ministers  folk  carlisle     interesting speaker    ex ad man   whole message   get  church  look  side   self  thinks  christianity   west  become  leisure time activity    impacting  rest  peoples lives    concept   sacred secular divide  church   get involved  secular things work culture  arts sport    ways philosophy  whereas     divide christ  either lord        also    amusing speaker   talking   technology  usually neutral     used   far reaching effects  family work  society  used  microwave   example    amusing story    managed  save  sleep   whole  north london  using  new fangled microwave  heat  daughters midnight bottle thereby saving  chancellor huge sums  lost revenue  typical jewish hyperbole   moved    kids now teenagers  coming    meal   prepared  reheating    microwave    led   lack  communication   hyperbole   angst   understanding  younger generation     diary  fmd    relate    experience  fmd   simple level  culture within defra needs  change servant hood whether  civil servants  politicians   forgotten truth will  spin will fall computers    tool    master  none organisations need    human face  people  relate  whether    brigadier   cvo people  individuals created  god   feelings    numbers  statistics  post modernist human secularism  truth  relative  brown can announce  everything   control can mislead parliament  people    acceptable  actually strongly feel   current presidential style    one can make  decision   refer   boss   poor model pain disaster illness  trouble  part   human condition part   fall  evil   world enough philosophy  time  bed monday 17th may    big golden wedding anniversary day   wife s parents golden wedding   brothers  family  came  stay   w e  celebration meal   lyzzick hall  keswick  big surprise  wife s mum    bridesmaid  husband  coming   canada j picked     airport  took    b b  friends  also coming   surprise rp started  surprises  coming  dressed   waitress  came   offered wife s mum  drink    really overcome   surprises  bridesmaid  canadians  really nice  see  younger parts   clan went    climbing wall   older part went   look   lake   rain    really nice day ended   firework display thanks  c   grew   belfast   troubles  fireworks  banned    real passion   now   big kid sunday went  church  everyone   mixed group   coped p spoke   morning meeting    good    publisher   talking   church  china    just helped  publish  book     christian house church  makes  materialistic church   west look  weak  un spiritual   evening mm spoke   christian  work    good   funny    bed sales man     student     funny    made shy engaged couples lie   try  beds  really tickled  son age 8 much   grans tut tutting  point   making    jokes      told     say   bed s    delivered  3 4 weeks   fact      6 weeks   shop keeper thought   put people   meant  mm ended   bother  couples arriving back   honey moon   bed   decided  listen  gods way  tell  truth   said like  biblical teaching  obvious    explained  tell people  truth    want  hear mon went  read  tb test   tenant farmer   1  r  reaction   farmer took  back fairly badly    quite shocked   sheer vehemence   reaction fortunately   mostly  defra  went  early    disease   therefore got much lower compensation   lot   later ones    cattle wintering   farm   one else  went  later   fmd   home holding  difference   valuations    type  cattle  horrendous  also  buildings   owns   small parcel  land  buildings  old  knackered  usable  lot  string  gates defra pulled   pieces  fmd   offered  peanuts o reinstate   meant    get  back   usable state      happy bunny spent  afternoon castrating horses     favourite job   stirk kicks   hurts   horse kicks   usually means  trip   ambulance   therefore  tense  ready  move  awkward positions canadians  wife s parents headed    trip around  borders   people carrier   coming back  swap  cars   end   week wife   tank  run around    week tuesday  back  twinging   castrating   calving yesterday   really sore   paperwork  sitting like  ramrod   gave   came back  lie    back exercises hourly   just got stiffer  sorer weds spent morning reading  bed   back exercises   get  moving went  see  accountant   afternoon  sort   practicalities  going freelance  finishing   vets thursday back   lot better  starting  move much  freely  first negative comment   leaving today came   farmer   decided    way  make money   go  300 cows   therefore planned   designed new parlours   look   large herds thought    unfortunately  costings   buying  dairy cows  6 700 per head  just recently   gone    thousand  means     60k oops   said   thought   deserting    way  suppose   back     call   vengeance  calving  caesar  prolapsed uterus hey ho friday interesting statistic   radio whether   right  wrong    know   eu  average beef cow  subsidised   tune  2 per week  average african earns less    canadians  wife s parents arrived back   trip around  borders  good news   baby sat  teenage  child minded   went    lemon lounge  bad news     feed  look    w e  brother  family arrive tomorrow   will   bit crowded   really nice        relative peace around us  noise   office party   impinge    nothing    us saturday 31st may 2003  gardening day  decided      get  place sorted   spent    day   sunshine pulling weeds  sorting   garden    beautiful day  back  pretty sore   end   day   got  nearly  sorted   good  boys cut  lawn   sat    read  book another bbq   end   day  made  salads   boys cooked     family meal wife   older two headed  tescos   cleared  debris away sunday june 1st  sun  still flaming   seeds  seedlings  looking  bit sad  whithered  spite   watering   really enjoyed  week       little  fmd met   friends  church home visiting parents   evening caught        indian gastro enterologist  worked  carlisle  now work  bombay    good  see    hoping  set   aids hospice   currently   million people   hiv ve  bombay monday back  work  quite busy   looks    june quiet period   going  materialise  folk  holiday  makes  seem busier  way  took   4pm  get    tray    week  overflowing  usual tuesday    like june long lunch  spent  morning trying  get  accountancy package   date sent  another speculative e mail job application  friend  church   now studying physio therapy  glasgow came  insisted wife  went    walk together   really nice    really nice young guy went  beach  beckfoot      ones walking  beach   one serious kiter    seen   serious kite   long time   fairly windy     anchored behind       taking    weds spent  morning  fertilities   spent time sorting  issues  george    little work   boring   assistants  june quiet patch ahs arrived  bills   go due   computer upgrade cocking  system   systems  now  complex   beyond  reasonable way  keeping tabs    trust  experts   dont thursday day  spent  writing   business proposal  try  get work via  consultancy firm  tried fixing  extractor fan  failed thursby football club  going really well    lads coming along  standard  variable  good fun friday tb testing   fs   just heard   leaving   full  questions  night  really busy  first call   lots going  wife    retreat thinking   future  reporting   last year    trying  juggle kids  well saturday 7th june 2003 last night  terrible   dog  see   middle   night  put      young dog    leukaemia    responding  treatment   colic probably   mesenteric lymph nodes   rolling around  pain  nice     sat   busy  went  one   organic farms  see  ill cow post calving   saying    three farmers  none fmd giving  milking one  another organic dairy farm   promised  premium  10p per litre   costings  based  28p per litre   getting  premium  less  05p per litre  takes   16p  figures   add     giving    2  small farms   make  work 40 50 cows slept   afternoon  went   party   evening bizarrely    walking   people whose dog  put  sleep last night walked   well  live next door    invited  well weird spent time chatting  came  10    dead   feet sunday 8th   call changes  2nd back   1st  8 30   phone started  8 35 urghhh   finding   hard    enthusiasm knowing   ma leaving    months one   farms     given  dairy   hoping  retire fmd year  lost money     restrictions    now hoping  finish  back end may    hoping  keep  milk quota  lease     pension     new rules  will   sell    price  low     lot  non producers      boat     height worth 1 per litre  lot  bought  sold   40 60p per litre   now around  10p mark funny world agriculture monday 9th calving  5am followed   calls   early start busy day  work went   meeting   new crusaders support worker   supposed   county wide   going   based around kendal      legacy   providing  lot   money  based    less relevant tot  end  cumbria    backed    organisation committee     meetings will   rydal  far      tonight    get back  11 30    w e  call   late   bunny tuesday 10th spent 45 mins   phone trying  work     going     oct   guy  pfizer     spend  rest   evening sorting   emails  needed  send   weds 11th spent  morning  nursery visits   local infants schools come around  vets   give  wee guided tour   quite fun   little things     really love blowing   anaesthetic bag  x ray quiz  listening  dogs hearts  always take   son s chickens   well   kids   use   birds  handling  son  spent  many hours carrying  around   fairly tame  used   picked   dont know  effort pays back  commercial terms    fun football training   evening  20 lads   brilliant thursday 12th  call  exhausted   excitement   week  phone went  7pm   answering service  say   women  rung  asked   pass word   alarm   course meant nothing   answering  phone  however put 2 2 together  work    alarm   practice  gone     police     way    always happen      bath   jumped   bath  rushed   find    going     police man    waiting    lead  way   found   scared dog sitting   prep room  escaped   kennel   took  hour  get  alarms reset life   rich tapestry friday 13th went  lawyers today  meet   go   dissolution   partnership bit sad   way  another nail bashed    leaving coffin finished work  spent evening playing football    coaching   good fun son   school today   full  cold  just exhausted  just needed time  really  goes  everything  110 saturday 14th june 2003 working     even      quiet days   week   time  w e comes   busy  really warm  sunshine  gardening   decided   going    changing rooms   double room   cottage     friend worked away  day      impressed   time   finished  barbeque   evening    back  ship shape   finished    pup sunday went   whitehaven  see  tall ships   harbour    one    disappointing    good  look around    fair buzz   place  heaving  people   weather  great    display  jet skis   fun  watch   boys  now     try    go  red arrows  brilliant    tremendous display   coloured streams  leave behind   sky always amaze    almost like   writing   sky monday finally decided  duck eggs   going  hatch  broke  open  see    fertile 1 exploded    rotten urghh  one   half formed egg     think  eggs   problem   incubation tuesday testing    rs  tb though  history  wrong   hope   will clear  new vet student turned    afternoon   staying  us   w e   colleague  vets  going    find new accommodation  students went   training evening   soccer coaching    form filling exercise  orientation    boring      course   good  least  well   piece  paper   end   weds footie training  night   hard core turned   looks like  will   good group  14 15  means  will    choose  disappoint went   run afterwards  feeling  need  exercise   much large animal work   moment means   sitting around   computer   lot   day   sad must get fit   constant resolution spent  evening   sandal watching  sun go  away   phone  chaos  home thursday    work     phone call   one   apparently run  son  school never  easy phone call  take espy     know   happened fortunately   ok    walking backwards   stepped   path   car   caught  heel  damage  slight    upset   school exit  appalling  needs sorted  busses cars  bikes  share   area   kids walking inevitably kids  jostling  messing around     accident waiting  happen friday half day  wife  starting  next w e counselling course   really get going   calving early     call late last night   run  adrenalin    week  collapse    heap  find  hard  get going  get motivated spent  afternoon getting organised   visitors arriving  friends  coming  friend    bridesmaid  coming across   w e saturday 21st june 2003 pay day  dont really know   always sticks   mind    moment   1st  october looming   fact   21st will    pay day   becoming  bit scary spent morning  run around  house jobs ferrying    squash went  town  pm   son  left   younger ones  cottinghams  spent  pleasant half hour  ottakars even   running low   book  latest harry potter    meant  order via internet    quite got around   statistic     expected  sell 6 every second   w e  makes 1 per book  means 360 per minute 21600 per hour   bad hourly rate  just   million quid   w e  every  person   tills  buying  copy  can well believe  sun 22nd church   morning  joint communion   lead   denton holm house group  church meets   small groups mid week  pray  study bible   denton holme grp lead  service  means  get  refreshingly different type  service  different people taking part  leading   good followed   picnic   park   ok   just wanted  fall asleep   sunshine   suffering  stopping syndrome  can keep going   adrenalin    stop thump  fall asleep  can  get going picked  liz  church   evening  left youngest two  home  wife  late back   course thank goodness  mobile phones  rather  least  manage  make  complex life possible really    let  pick  friend  missed church  upset   telling   couldnt go    worked    end mon 23rd friend arrived   terrible hour  finally left bristol  8pm  meaning  leave  lunchtime   wife    exhausted    get   welcome  work  really quiet   little happening son    strop cos  will  let  go sailing  cricket  school   will  exhausted  takes  us     possibility  try  achieve    fault really    weird   see   faults coming    children tues 24th spent  day talking  people   phone trying  get funding   research project    leads  ideas  get together    interesting  see   comes together weds 25th started  4am   caesarean   really nice   time   morning  beautiful   just  shame   rest   day   bit   wash     went  night   fa training course   class room based   warm sunny evening    struggling  stay     also decided   need  get fit   practical day  going    long   unfit legs thursday  electrician arrived  sort   electrics   bathroom   still  right  lights keep fusing   fan will  work    look   wiring    mess  decided    follow     last experience  decided   just pay   keep    job     enjoyable day  played son  squash  lost now     better    football  squash  swell   hill     went  church   evening  rw  speaking   interesting  hear  though    chat   biblical exposition friday  email   verse   day seems  sum   years worth  diaries  times  good  happy   times  bad consider god  made  one  well    therefore  man  discover anything   future ecclesiastes 7 14 new international version  future  uncertain  will leave  job    months time   new start  pressures  fmd seem   distant   warm summer weather    quiet workload making  feel rested  relaxed  challenges   agriculture  veterinary practice   policymakers  still  large   now  threat  bio terrorism  add   food scares   threat  exotic disease life carries   may  learn    mistakes  government depts   blunt slow awkward machine   cows will still need   milked   will still need food   table   68  told  one       outbreak  fmd  35 years    said well done    said 2 men  milking 300 cows   cumbrian farm  getting 7000 litres per cow   never  believed     time  everything   season  every activity   heaven  time   born   time  die  time  plant   time  uproot  time  kill   time  heal  time  tear    time  build  time  weep   time  laugh  time  mourn   time  dance  time  scatter stones   time  gather   time  embrace   time  refrain  time  search   time  give   time  keep   time  throw away  time  tear   time  mend  time   silent   time  speak  time  love   time  hate  time  war   time  peace"
## [5] "information  diarist date  birth 1981 gender f occupation group 5 geographic region north cumbria paper diary  lots  newspaper cuttings   related material week beginning 25th february 2002   snow  fell   weekend melted combined   additional rainfall many   fields surrounding  village  well   roads  flooded usually  wouldnt concern  much however   burial site   close   number  underground streams   area   become worrying  isnt  guarantee  groundwater   surrounding area wont become effected    extent  seem    number  aspects   concerning  issue  remain unclear  example  exactly can  carried  water   might  effect people   area    tested    surrounding streams  exactly  classed   danger   problems  arise     monitored  resolved   issues  tend  make  anxious  particular  monday     walking  dog  noticed  couple  drains   passed looked     blocked     lot  water around  just makes  wonder  much  come possibly   burial site     actually safe  worries  monday   groundwater  even  emphasised   statement  heard   border news  tuesday   environment agency  statement  concerning  future safety   groundwater   area around  burial site  agency  give  guarantee   groundwater   become affected   future since    heard   news   issue  may   information  news reports  missed   opinion  enough information  given   public   issues results  testing   environment agency  meant   available   public however   never heard much   details  think  effort   made  inform  particular resident near burial sites   issues  bound   important    hearing  news   become  worried    end   day   little  can really    find    trust people  agencies  know little   just hoping everything will  alright  tuesday also noticed  horrible smell outside    fiancé    cant  sure exactly    coming     causing   thursday  news  possible foot  mouth case  south near leeds  became  worried   whole thing  going  start     worries    farmers  people involved      affected   cases   identified   particular affecting   life  animals     slaughtered    future     disposed   existing burial sites  reopened  opposed  finding suitable sites  new burial sites   seem easier  reopen burial sites     mean   future    extent   health risks  increased    relieved  hear  testing   foot  mouth cases came back negative   relieved   people involved  also residents near burial sites however   raise questions   mind    sort  situation   handled   future   consequences  might  week 2 4th march  monday passed driving test  now fiancé    insured   small car  opens   many opportunities     huge sense  freedom last summer   planned  go   camping holiday   dog dog   al  equipment prepared   unable  go due   foot  mouth outbreak neither  us imagined  long  widespread  outbreak    thought  first        weeks now  year later   able  replan  holiday   exciting    waited  long   unbelievable  think  long   taken  restrictions   countryside  return   normal  can  possible due   circumstances   actual people directly involved   foot  mouth crisis  must  seemed like far longer  tuesday    lovely surprise   noticed  lambs   field near  house   walking  dog   lovely  see     minutes things almost seemed normal  even though  burial site     mile away   hidden  view   village  never forget though  soon   spot  windmills  remember  repeated pictures featured   news seeing  lambs really  lift  spirits   future  foot  mouth didnt seem  bad  thought  week   cant recall  exact days    towards  beginning   week  two particular occasions  fiance   noticed  terrible smell outside  arent sure exactly   smell  just     unpleasant    incident   can recall  stands    mind  past week   conversation     fiancés granddad   talking   bad last years foot  mouth outbreak     recalled  outbreak  1967  commented    thought  outbreak   far better controlled   better   animals  killed  buried   actual farms  lime    transporting dead  live animals like last year  also commented   fact     pyres     hadnt thought   good idea last year overall  thought  last years outbreak    dealt  better   action  taken far  late  prevent  disease spreading week 3 11th march one new thing   noticed  week   amount  birds   flying around especially black crows  think       driving  every time  drive past  fields   south end   village   large amounts  crows hustled together can never remember   quite like  last summer  makes  wonder   many  drawn  just  fields   drive past   next  weeks  will see    still     occasions  week fiancé    noticed  slight smell outside    foul smelling  still noticeable  tuesday saw new series featured  itv called rural lives  think    good idea   issue  foot  mouth  still  painful   lot  people     yet  effects  still happening however   news    media  isnt often mentioned  doesnt get  attention  deserves hopefully  programmes like  people will get  better understanding   issues involved   different people went    outbreak ever happened    people involved  hopefully   better idea    handle  actual crisis   better idea  peoples needs  example  farmers   long term effects  cant  ignored  mum came    couple  nights  loves coming   see us   lives  carlisle    total change  scenery  thought   great  enjoyed taking  dog  long walks    unable     long time  went  see  lambs   lovely weather shows   able  start enjoying  countryside  especially coming   spring  summer   even able  go  dalston   dog  wander      used    stick t  roads just   local area   lovely  nice change   tend  make   confident   coming year    looking forward   summer week 4 18th march  past week started    day   bowness  went   fiancé  took  dog dog   lovely  let    lead  run  really enjoys   got absolutely filthy travelling   car  becoming easier  dog   goes crazy   arrive     dog just  2 years    past year  couldnt let    lead  run anywhere   tiring t train    listens   certain extent     keep  eye   cheeky side  remember wondering   foot  mouth started    going  exercise dog  walking    roads used    difficult due   large vehicles travelling     also  fact dog isnt  best   lead  used   really energetic   bit   handful however now   got used    relaxed life   times  think  quite likes    us  good    exercise  fresh air    lovely    change  scenery apart   monday  havent really  anywhere else apart  shopping    busy    level work therefore  havent really noticed anything different  week  havent thought  foot  mouth  much  overall view  week   quite confident      real significant happenings  change  view quite  good week overall week 5 25th march firstly  received  newsletter sent    standing panel    relief  finally get  information regarding  burial site   good    explanation   things work   site  terms   can understand    relief  know  everything  far  still safe however   evident    much  work  monitoring   carried    future even though   still  possible   anything   minds   least put  rest  knowing something  surprises   long   taken  information like    made accessible   public  think  newsletter    good step forward  information  reaching  public  participants  also given  opportunity  ask questions  put  ideas forward  wednesday  mum came    see us    took  walk  go see  lambs   field near us   enjoyable    lovely weather  makes  realise  much  take  granted around  without thinking twice  mum  made  realise  even   seeing  much  enjoys   simple thing   special  thinks   sometimes  think    surrounded   country  nature   time  forget  lucky    mum  gran   love  live somewhere like   biggest surprise  week    received  parish magazine   month  found    watchtree news    first time   ever seen anything like    parish council  think     good idea   information will  accessible  everyone   appropriate parishes even though   long overdue    worthwhile   think will   informative  covers  wide range  issues  majority    knew  little   wouldnt  known   future  example  maintenance going   carried    a595 orton grange junction   site entrance  least  now  knowledge      going   carried    will affect  members   family  live   orton grange junction   otherwise    idea    information  surprising  example  number  tankers  leave  site everyday   didnt expect    high    rise important issues  also now  tackled    bad state   local roads  affected people  also  encouraged  report  things    appropriate people  think     significant development  will   useful   aftermath  foot  mouth communication   appropriate authorities   public  essential week 6 1st april unfortunately     go  week one bit  work  another  havent  time  focus   much else  past week despite  fact   still  quite  positive week   better studying       distractions  everything  lovely  peaceful  drastic difference  last year   time   difficult  concentrate  anything   long far  many distractions  fiancé however      burial site  nearby  sunday  went   drive   friend  wondered   looked like      ever seen   television reports  never       future diary    time  will write   words    thought week 7 8th april    week   full  work  havent  much time   anything apart  work  thursday    break   mom came    bbq   first time  year   put   patio tables  chairs   weather  staying pleasant  sat       evening    bbq    lovely break   mom    peace  quiet    opposed   town   really enjoyed   mom  fiance  commented  lovely    sit outside   nice weather without  nasty smell    past couple  weeks  havent noticed things smelling  bad     occasions recently   also   decrease   amount  birds  particular crows      fields   south     near  crossroads   couple  occasions   week     past  fields      couple  birds flying around  opposed   whole field full  crows  one time   also lovely  hear  sheep especially   evening became darker   background   hear  sheep just   field next  us  also  lambs   fields away   something   still arent quite used     appreciate  much  now week 8 15th april   feeling quite confident  week  friday  watch  news  saw  report  new bovine tb cases   worrying even though   said  wouldnt   serious  foot  mouth   still worrying     potential  destroy many  lives  bankrupt  farmers   probably just got  foot  mouth  worry must  especially bad   farmers    bad enough   general public especially  seeing  damage caused  foot  mouth    short space  time    absolutely terrible   summer  anything like last summer  long   take  everything  get back  normal  even though foot  mouth  evidently far different  bovine tb hopefully things will   learned  last year  will prevent   becoming  disaster  apart    aspects   foot  mouth smell etc havent   bad  past week  havent noticed  particular occasions   smell   particularly bad  noticeable  addition   occasions    driven past  fields near  crossroads    hardly  crows near     huge improvement    number  seagulls  one field  nowhere near  amount  crows      also   decrease   amount  tankers going  recently    noticed  first  didnt take much notice     fiancé s grandad mentioned    hardly seen   seems  notice  move       lives   orton grange junction  wigton road      go past     things happening  presence   burial site nearby seems less obvious week 9 22nd april  last week   quite  pleasant week probably    eventually finished  coursework    able    bit  peace  quiet  think  combined  periods  lovely weather  made  feel quite good  tuesday   travelled  town  back  went past  fields near  crossroads   south   village    past   full  crows  seagulls    noticed   odd occasions   past week  appear   empty now ill keep  eye    changes   summer     friday  noticed     number  cattle  calves   field just opposite  house  can stand  watch    back patio doors   lovely   reintroduction   sheep  cattle   area   like everything  coming together finally   foot  mouth  life  returning  normal   sense  cattle seem    last part needed  everything  seem   running properly   animals finally moving   last  think  fact combine     significant incidents  nasty smells   rumbling   tankers going   made things seem better  talking  fiance s grandad  mentioned    still havent   many tankers going past  house  orton grange      past week    hardly  reminders   burial site   past foot  mouth problems living   country  seemed quite normal   seems  long time week 10 29th april     week    good week overall  regard   foot  mouth everything seems   quietened     hardly  visible reminders   burial site  foot  mouth around  village   mentioned last week  still havent   noticeable occasions  smells possibly   burial site  tankers  hardly  noticeable around  village   fields near  crossroads  still  fairly empty  birds  particular crows   explained  backed    watchtree newsletter   parish magazines   received  week   good  read   informative worth reading  still think    good idea    done well   discusses issues happening now  also keeps  informed  action   future  newsletter mentioned  reduction   amount  tankers    noticed  also mentions   might   slight smell   burial sited  work   far  havent noticed anything      lovely seeing   sheep   cows   surrounding fields especially   moment      young  saturday   way   fiance s grandad   road works near  baldwinholme bend   road  part    bad condition   now much better  think  damage  caused   trucks etc used  foot  mouth however im  sure week 11 6th may  week    21st birthday im growing     lovely day  thursday    surprise   taken t  lake district   day   lovely   really enjoyed  firstly  stopped   bassenthwaite lake   bit fed  ducks    picnic    dodd wood   coffee   see  ospreys   great  see    think   quite lucky     pleasant walk around myre house   reminded   lucky    cumbria    lovely places    glad    now able  go   places  now weve got  car   going  take better advantage  cumbria      offer    realised  much  take     granted overall     good week  reminders  foot  mouth   burial site   minimal     smells   noticed  hardly  signs  wagons   still lovely  see  sheep  cattle around  village week 12 13th may  wednesday  met  mum  town  got  cumberland news     reading   county council inquiry  kendal  think   good   different people involved   inquiry    honest   happened     way anything will  improved   future  anything   similar nature  happen   really hope  doesnt  reading  articles written   people  said   clear   wide range  people  foot  mouth crisis affected  also  badly   read   people    family     low   driven   suicide   seem  feel  bit guilty    complain  hasnt affected us    drastic way  brings  seriousness   extent   crisis  peoples attention despite  terrible things  took place   crisis hopefully  good will come      present   future  thursday fiance went   doctors   talking   farmer   waiting room  soon  fiance mentioned  lived  great orton  farmer asked straight away    like  live   near   burial site    couldnt imagine      like       long time since anyone  said anything like   either one  us   time   foot  mouth crisis people used  ask questions     like  live  near   strange  farmers  particular feel sympathy towards   living near  burial site     hand    farmers  feel sympathy    foot  mouth crisis  fair number  people even  carlisle didnt know  great orton   now many   realise  close  carlisle  actually  week 13 20th may  havent really done anything  exciting  past week unfortunately ive  revising   preparing   presentation    level      next week  presentation   turrets  watchtowers   found  bit confusing  first   books ive  using  dragged fiance  drive  dog  past brampton  hadrians wall   found  watchtower   turret everything became much clearer   way back  spotted  sign   camping barn  hadrians wall banks east     interested  sent away   brochure   point  decided  reconsider  holiday plans  realised  didnt need  go far afield like amsterdam  1st choice  scotland 2nd choice  hadnt realised actually  many places    nearby   ideal  came   conclusion  holiday  cumbria    best choice  1   take dog  us 2   go  car  3     bit cheaper  fiance mentioned   also  good  everything  put  money   spending back  cumbria   hoping  go next week    half term  week    exams   hopefully  will get something organised  thursday  got  orton newsletter fiance     quite disappointed   read  land around  area   sold   building  houses   good   way  people  moving forward  f m   wish  wasnt   residential sense   just  pity  much   farming will  lost 6 houses  baldwinholme 4  great orton even though  havent  brought    farming background     seen     pity  us  lose  part   countryside week 14 27th may  monday saw cb   pleased  hear  f m standing panel project  going well   think  worthwhile   much  possible   learned   future  tuesday  attended  meeting   foot  mouth disease inquiry  great orton village hall  7pm   glad  attended  meeting  people  voice  opinions  try  get information  issues    present   future  general view   meeting    went    general feeling   villagers etc     losing interest  nothing  still  done   many empty seats  estimated  total number  50 60 people    whole new panel  faces even though    new inquiry    new people   panel    meetings    feel  continuity   one  sure     said     never  answers promised  one meeting  another  seems      way  avoiding answers  getting   situations   new aspects   brought     yet  disclosed never   meeting   attended    fact  burial  planned  used   burial  uninfected animals       led  believe  al  engineering  site    lack  communication   one  sure   facts defra also   guaranteeing funding   site   next 5 years    worrying whos burden  will become    variety   issues  discussed health roads handling  outbreak vaccination etc   meeting   glad    however  felt rather angry   way    questions  handled  answers  often vague   supporting evidence   dismissed  ill   get back       cant comment   opinion many   farmers villagers etc just want  whole thing brought   end ideally  remaining trenches filled   nature reserve created  maintained    guarantees   site   used   funding   next five years will  ever  achieved  saturday morning fiance   decided  go away   short break  somewhere near     take dog    spontaneous decision   jubilee     half term     college  ended  going   caravan site  dog  4 nights  will update   holiday   next diary clipping  news  star  story  great orton public meeting  villagers request    site used    event  future emergencies holiday week beginning monday 3rd june week 15 10th june   writing   couple  days early just  tell    holiday   lovely   end  hadnt yet received  brochure   camping barns   saturday  decided   like  go away  son  possible   like something   jubilee weekend  finding  caravan  caldbeck  far away relatively quiet  went  5 pm  saturday fiance dog        lovely caravan site lovely caravan  even  tv   world cup  caravan site  surrounded  common land sheep lovely  quiet   lot  places  keep dog occupied    surprised   quiet  campsite    jubilee weekend  thought    people actually lived     lovely   future    small caravan   go away   surrounding places  went   really busy  example keswick bassenthwaite etc   quite surprised  thought   great  see cumbria lively    contrast      imagined  places   like  year ago especially   jubilee everyone seemed  make   effort   lovely  see     lovely time  relaxing oi dont think dog  ever walked  far   surprised  somewhere  close  exactly   wanted   also happy   put  money back  cumbria   definitely go back  feel  much  confident   future especially  cumbria   week   didnt know  last year f m outbreak   cases    hard  tell  really think cumbria seems     recover   hopefully  saturday  sunday ill  bed week 16 17th june   combination   feeling  well   beginning   week  car  running overt  week end  dog   season  havent really  able  go anywhere  week    quite frustrating     work   anyway  still feel quite confident   future  week    holiday   better   couple  weeks ago   fmd inquiry meeting   felt quite unsure  time    going  happen  gt orton    f m panel newsletter  watchtree newsletter  parish magazine  think     good    able  gain information consistently  f m  cumbria   particular  burial site  information   difficult  come  otherwise  particular  enjoyed reading  children  milburn school   memories   f m outbreak   effort   made researcher  spoken  respondent  possibility  monthly diary   decided  start straight away  although middle  month  follows monthly write   continued  record  diary   way  times  offers short daily entries drawing 4 weeks together within  overall reflective piece  daily entries  also recorded week 20 15th july writing   4 weeks   looking forward  attending  social evening  dalston    bit nervous    used    sorts  things  think  will   good experience   also pleased   got  f m panel newsletter  saw  article  made notes    never done anything like     quite pleased   whole thing   saturday  week one fiance   went   fiance s grandads  noticed    signs   land   sale    think   quite sad   area will inevitable  changing   near future  wonder  much   land will  reused  farming  sold  new houses taking  consideration  signs   seen    past quite  bit  land  going  change   past weeks   also received  watchtree newsletter   parish magazine  still think    good idea  worthwhile    updated every  often  will also reach everyone   village  easily accessible   period    days  week 2   4 weeks fiance    noticed  strange smell outside   smell      fiance s grandads    2 miles away  smelt just like  burning smell     sure whether   anything     burial site  anything  done    just thought   mention  anyway last wednesday  rang   archaeological support group  carlisle       member   past year   half   never  sent anything      along time  wondered   turns   last year  soon  f m hit cumbria everything  cancelled  stopped   knew   time    nothing else    happened  thing  didnt realise   things    badly affected  nothing   arranged  yet even  many months  f m broke      another example   things   affected still  many months    also uncertainty   future   archaeology group  nothing   decided yet   will depend   things go    pity   hope things pick    future   first week   4 weeks fiance    noticed    coughing  bit  especially  night  early   morning since  fiance  got better    coughing  much  now   got  sore throat   cold  dont think   anything     burial site  anything     sure   coughing   thought   mention  12th august writing   4 weeks    feel quite  nervous now      evening  dalston village hall    bit intimidating  first    going    night  frontline workers  health professionals  felt  bit    depth   wondered  sort  stories    telling compared     seen  people     deal   situation first hand  must  seen  terrible things   couple  weeks  grew used   idea  didnt feel  bad   turn     good experience   turns   evening  now   21st august  everyone  going together things will   bit  relaxed    think  hope  will  able  make   one major event   made  think   past couple  week  fiance s auntie jean   moved house  orton grange 2 miles away  us   middle  town  made  think   definitely wouldnt like  move back   middle  carlisle  living  even though  hasnt    pleasant  times   f m last year   building   burial site   still miss everything       reminded  lucky     surrounded  fields cows sheep   horse   overlooking field   also usually quiet  peaceful  can imagine quite different   middle  carlisle  think jean will miss  quite  lot just   week ago fiance    busy getting  garden ready   village  bloom   good  see everyone making  effort  everything looking nice everything felt  bit  normal  year whereas last year  think  village  bloom   last thing   peoples minds  made  feel  confident   future perhaps everything   things may return  normal eventually week 24 12th august nothing extremely significant concerning f m  happened  week   noticed though now  working  village pub wellington even though    1 day   really become quite busy  think business  improved   tried  advertising  can remember back    foot  mouth outbreak    quiet  people stayed away   atmosphere   pub   depressing now   year later things  seem   picking    perhaps returning   normal   god  see monday 19th august        quiet week  havent really    much   feeling well really    bit disappointed   able  attend  social evening o wednesday   mom  unable  get time  work  change  shift 26th august first     noticing problems   goldfish   first got   two   half years ago     problems     past  months    getting ill   tried  sorts different chemicals  still    died except one omar fiance s cousin  breeds fish came    look   baffled   explanation    chemicals   changed  increased  example  chlorine   appears    lot    obviously arent totally sure   problem   thought   mention  anyway  week  also noticed  banner opposite  village shop   village   enclosed  article   banner  appeared   cumberland news  week  think  sums   mood   noticed   village meetings nothing  yet  done  help  villagers etc   difference   promises made    main reason   feel less confident   future  week regarding foot  mouth   things  still dragging  monday 2nd september   first week   diaries nothing really significant happened regarding foot  mouth   comment however   working   pub  sundays  busy  pub    business  seemed  improve  lot     seen   foot  mouth crisis  atmosphere    depressing  made  feel  confident   future regarding foot  mouth  another aspect   foot  mouth  seemed  return back  normal  mood however  change   third week   diaries   felt less confident   future   began   goldfish started dying apart  oner  still   sure exactly  caused     sure whether        water   something    just seems    little bit  doubt   mind   dont feel totally sure    happening   area still  therefore  dont think really trust  organisations dealing   issues   thing  seemed  sum     feelings   banner  appeared opposite  village shop last week  think  shows  desperation  lengths    people   village   go   order  get noticed  heard  seems ridiculous    basic issues brought    earlier meetings  still   dealt    make  lose  trust     organisations involved article enclosed  past week    little better however   good   receive  watchtree newsletter   parish magazine   still good  receive   updates    number  different aspects   burial site  also heard   article   newspaper regarding  inquiry  cathy  well   mom   saved      yet    read   will comment     next diary 9 15 september monday got free news star last week  found article  f m diaries   bothered     printed  tuesday saw cathy said  articles   bothered   can see  otherwise involved    things   represented   right way   misleading good point though    may catch peoples attention  get  point across  people  still suffering got article  cumberland news mum saturday found article  cumberland news regarding village  bloom won  trophy   special efforts  village  aftermath  f m crisis mark andrews trophy 16 22 september monday fiance   noticed  burning smell   came back home   evening  sure     reminds us  f m crisis wednesday road works  village didnt affect us  much thursday road works    fiance s grandads annoying  times  taken   long time   reminds us  f m crisis fiance   noticed  burning smell   sure   friday good  watchtree newsletter told us   road works  wouldnt  known saturday  aspects arent  bad      atmosphere reminds    f m crisis last year 23 29 september monday read  diarist  also   look   inquiry report   sent  attending  village meeting tuesday    time  read  much     will get round     comment   friday parish magazine  watchtree newsletter still good   updated    going  1 roads  2 visiting  site 30 6th october monday rang   book table   autumn fayre  done  village hall people pleased  people  village getting involved tuesday water   quite bad especially  tuesday full  chlorine   leave     everything  evaporate makes  quite concerned  whether     safe  drink 6th october writing  4 weeks  week  read  articles regarding  f m diaries  appeared   cumberland news   news  star   enclosed  reading   speaking  c   wasnt  bothered  offended    written   easily  seen   people    specially    finding things really difficult  think    good side   articles  well though   will  grabbed peoples attention  highlighted  fact    still problems regarding f m  long   crisis even though  articles  misleading   also done  good  reading  cumberland news  also found  mention  great orton regarding  village  bloom  turns    awarded  mark andrews trophy  special efforts   aftermath  f m     nice  win  better award   least   recognised  something   quite please week 2  probably  worst week      past month regarding f m   whole week just seemed  remind      like   crisis firstly   road works    fiance s grandads  2 miles away  understand     carried    made  difficult  inconvenient  get  fiance s grandads   didnt know  roads  gong   closed  now   work   done everyone    spoken    think  will cause  trouble      pull    lay bys   dangerous   grass  verge    smoothed   think   alright   already know  roads   wouldnt   confident   hadnt driven      aspect  made  road works seem worse  two instances  fiance    noticed  burning smell monday  thursday    sure   came    still reminded us   crisis  week 3  received  copy   f m inquiry  glad  went   meting   village sometimes  feels good   involved even though    small way  also received  diarist newsletter  watchtree newsletter    still glad  receive without  watchtree newsletter  dont think     informed   road works  carried    also glad  site  progressing   people  now  given  opportunity  visit  site   wish  week 4    one major problem   water  tuesday  water   full  chlorine     leave     chlorine    evaporate  boil  even  give dog  drink    second time   happened    concern   firstly     done  secondly   water safe  drink    sure   contact    last time  contacted united utilities  said   just routine  nothing  worry  week beginning 7th october  much  week regarding fmd think     busy thinking   things week beginning 14th october monday relaxing  bit today  going    busy day tomorrow  away  wednesday tuesday fiance s exam turned    quiet  today   good  fiance s exam      home    difficult last year  pressure  f m weds away  holiday    bit   drive     used    made  lovely views  way   hawkshead  lovely place thursday  holiday  well suited  dog  plenty  places  walk  quiet campsite  shops  pubs   suited  dogs things    quite used  friday lovely   away   break away  great orton   one hand    remember  nice        luck      hand sunday    good week  confident   future week beginning 21st october monday  quiet week  just got back quite tired  coping ok nice   back   way weds got watchtree newsletters  parish magazine also article   news  star  think  renaming  site  farm  used    thursday watchtree newsletter interested   open day think   good idea  will   interesting especially geology  fossil remains found  site  think   beneficial  even though  live   village      meetings still  little idea    site looks now  will   future week beginning 28th october weds went  meet mom  town  roads  town  terrible mud  road everywhere  really busy  trucks etc must      new building hope  doesnt get like    time   much land round  seems    sold  new construction sat mom  got   stall  week end   craft fair   village hall 1st time   done  saw   parish newsletter 2nd november writing  4 weeks  past month   one   busiest      long time firstly   fiance s final exam   quite stressful    times revising  everything  reminded    difficult         first exams  year   half   f m crisis studying    difficult  due  constant interruptions  distractions constant sound  trucks smells noise tension im  glad  wasnt  bad  year   things can  stressful enough shortly  fiance s exam fiance  mom   went   short break  hawkshead   great   enjoyed   dog especially everything  suited  dog  took  shopping   benches  water bowls outside every shop  went   bar meal  sat outside      last night even    us  went   pint apart   things  also took   plenty  walks   made  realise  lovely cumbria    people  dont live   attracted      pity  cumbria suffered  f m crisis      lovely place   hope  due   large amount  attractions  cumbria  things will hopefully  back  normal  can  expected   quite surprised   busy things    time  year  seems things must  improving  makes  confident  enjoyed  break   realise maybe great orton isnt   bad place  come back    past month   also received  watchtree newsletter im quite interested   open day later   month  think  will   interesting im really interested   geology history   site  also fossils found    work  dont know much    site looks    will    future   amazing   can live  near  still   idea     like   can seem  remember   pictures   shown   news months ago  seems difficult  imagine   different  past week    busy   mom    stall   first time   craft fair   village hall    helping   little bit  helped    stall  just sat   really  decided    go   likes crafts   always making things   nice   involved   village   money   hiring   stalls went   church   good    quiet  saturday though  apparently    worst      years  wonder     effect   f m however  weather   factors may  contributed week beginning monday 11th november tuesday fiance doctors wednesday  dentist   town  mam missed  exhibition   village hall disappointed  got  article   cumberland news   included  havent spoke  anyone  went  one  mentioned anything   disappointed  missed   also    probably one    opportunities  will get  know anything fiance    agree   still like  big secret  one really allowed     doesnt feel like local people  benefiting     anything    us really friday children  need   pub yesterday nice  see people taking part  big difference   foot  mouth  just made  donation    bit busy  us 1045 raised sunday work  pub still  busy  pub  least  seems   recovered  f m      heard   suffer badly along    businesses  week beginning 18th november tuesday    playing darts  port carlisle   break   week  thing   worrying  playing darts away   travelling    country roads round   terrible      wagons especially near wiggonby  road  fiance s granddad just gets worse  just mud  less grass terrible     damage done  wagons   combination    flooding   area now saturday fiance   talking    area  changed  remembered back  4 years ago   used  go   airfield burial site   peace even though  rubble  really enjoyed     take  dog  first driving lesson  fiance     fun  really miss   times nowhere round  anymore  get peace cant even enjoy  nature reserve  frustrating week beginning monday 25th november monday keep realising   diaries  havent   chance  look  cumbria foot  mouth disease inquiry report will   make time   soon saturday     pub talking  new fence  park  children general mood    pleased   doesnt fit   country village setting  nothing else done sunday cant believe    beginning  december everything  passing  quick inevitable 31st november writing   4 weeks  past 4 weeks    busy compared     used      time   quite frustrating    ways  issues   bothered fiance     mainly     onset  winter   course  inevitable   year  seem   worse   can previously remember since living   winter  biggest issue   state   roads   village  round    terrible   amount  rain      puddles everywhere  everything  turning  mud  worst thing      difficult  walk  take dog anywhere   frustrating  either get absolutely filthy   walking   roads    get soaked   sides   roads  avoid cars  going   lonning isnt really  option    really muddy     dumping  understand    will  due   weather    sure      roads  due    traffic    especially  fiance s granddads outside  front   gate  garden  grass  gradually  stripped away   now turned  mud    ears   lived  50 years   never seen   bad  roads arent like  just nearby   noticed  roads round   also   bad state    travelled away   nearby village pubs  playing darts   disappointed   missed  exhibition   village hall   watchtree reserve     go  town etc    spoken  anyone  know  attended  exhibition  wish    opportunities  learn      find  newspaper article enclosed   watchtree   quite annoying   wont  open   public   understandable   isnt possible      hand    benefiting anyone really  lives nearby fiance   still remember back    airfield  still      lovely place  go walking   relax  getting away  everything  used   lovely  quiet   also  nearby   actually quite miss  sometimes    nowhere else like  round  now even though    quite   negative issues  past month   also  encouraging     working   pub     busy      showing   must  recovering   effect   foot  mouth crisis   also encouraging     night held  children  need   raised approx 1045   good  see people involved  happy  one thing    notice    general mood   improvements made   park    good people   impressed   new fence   look like  belongs   country          changed     time  will go    look   december 2002 writing   4 weeks average  havent felt  bad  christmas  little tired  since   got  bit   cold  sore throat  surprising   time  year average  think     right havent  able  walk  far near village due  weather  roads   isnt surprising   time  year  past 4 weeks   rather hectic  christmas  everything    still  quite  bit  write   diaries concerning foot  mouth  received  parish magazine  december      thank    involved   craft fayre    1 008 raised  st giles church   good   able  contribute  something   village well    mum really   helped   good  see  sorts  things happening   good   village  everything  also received  watchtree newsletter   parish magazine   still good  receive    updates   everything  also  information regarding  exhibition   village hall   missed   glad    success  people attended especially  school children   taken  also received  diarist   good  read   interesting  see   panel members      surprising  things can lead   example  diarist   samson tractor   past couple  weeks   also collected  couple  articles   cumberland news  first one lie returns  watchtree actually made  feel better    going  get something positive    whole experience    problem     moments  time  wont  enough   people involved     change  happened  wont make      lost  think  just depends     feeling   time  reading  articles   article village  running  top country award  also quite pleasing   least    village   remembered  recognised    went    surprising  now  long   actual foot  mouth crisis    finally  recognised   many things  now  written   paper   christmas period    really  one thing  complain      state   roads   rain  roads   terrible  drive    flooding   road sides turning  mud everything  filthy  know   expected  winter    country  since       never   bad especially  fiance s grandads one improvement   signs    put    passing places    fiance s grandad fiance    think   much much better   lot safer   also spotted  couple  signs  watchtree     now      still surprising  see now   time  start everything   new year  hopefully  will   better year  great orton   past couple     glad   going   quiet  now    start  studying  opposed   foot  mouth  studying    difficult monday 27th january writing   4 weeks  week  found  article   daily mail   thought  relevant   called boom  doom    house prices   england  2002 prices  north yorkshire rose  66   allerdale   rose  8    mention        must   result   foot  mouth crisis   effect   area since   made  think   effect  great orton   difficult   probably   sell houses    people  really want  move    two sides however    property  built  great orton   surrounding area things  probably change  great orton might lose    farming background  definitely wouldnt want   change  much despite  burial site  like  just  way    great thing   week   weather      able  go   lonning  dog without getting filthy    frosty    great  cant believe  quickly 2003  passing   february already  past month   totally hectic  appointments arrangement birthdays   open university  makes  realise  whatever happens time goes   think  must    difficult  people directly involved   foot  mouth crisis  life     carry  despite whatever  going     lives  think  time  gone    got  used   idea  watchtree  accept   now  received  watchtree news   previous week   good  hear   restoration  creation   site  finally complete overall  dont think   taken  long   thought     nature reserve   established especially   compare    long   taken   childrens playground   improved nearly two years   foot  mouth crisis however   better late  never   pleased    nature reserve sounds  al  different species  animal    included  seen especially  merlin  smallest bird  prey   sited fiance    find  things  interesting   good    happening  close  us last year  travelled  see  osprey viewpoint   great   past couple  weeks   also found    articles two    regarding  20 day standstill    directly involved   farming side   foot  mouth crisis    totally sure    sorts  rules etc  think   good   least things  trying   improved   future  case  may happen   also   result  learning  past events   also  article showing watchtree   finalist   environmental project award  definitely think  watchtree deserves   considered   award   much  happened    least  good  going  come       nice  get  sort  award  recognition   hard work   people involved  think  year will hopefully   better one  cumbria  people may  confidence even though  foot  mouth crisis   tragedy  think cumbria   people    able  recover    people   newspaper articles seem  optimistic   rubs     think  year will   better one  feel  confident   future   point monday 24th february writing   4 weeks  far  past four weeks    receive  watchtree newsletter     small mention   parish magazine   playground work  underway    hoped   finished   summer  seems   taking  long time  get  playground sorted   least  will  good   kids   summer holidays   better late  never    one thing   bothered us   past weeks  fish whenever  change  water  fish seem   ill  now     add    chemicals  reduce  amount  chlorine  seems     water   originally start   13 fish  now   2 left   make  worry   state   water    chemicals  possibly  added  fact   burial site   near  make  worry    anything       past four weeks     confident   future regarding foot  mouth   sun shining    animals   seems   nothing bad  happened    know    people involved   crisis  future will never   easy  simple    feel sympathy      seems possible   able  move  now   crisis     good  see  sheep  cows   fiance  even seen  couple  birds  prey    sure     think one might    merlin   mentioned   previous watchtree newsletter   seen  site  article called record tourism figures  county  encouraging  shows  cumbria may  starting  recover   foot  mouth crisis  also found another article called fears  bovine tb time bomb  think   worrying   definitely  taken seriously     devastating  farmers  everyone   county   past fortnight   also   mams birthday   really looking forward  spending  time     went  bowness   afternoon  dog    realise  lovely       much    appreciated overall   opinion  situation  cumbria   past year  definitely improved  will hopefully continue    24th march writing   4 weeks  past four weeks   rather strange  worrying first      death  simon harris  man   village    regularly see walking dogs  looking   horses despite     papers  said       always polite  possibly just  bit shy   enclosed  article       paper shortly   death  headline    nice   article  include    best comments  simon   quite shocked   whole thing  think   definitely   handled better   papers  people   village  also    bit  respectful    think    place  comment   way    secondly  whole issue  war  iraq   worrying subject neither fiance   agree     done      carried     particularly worrying time  fiance s aunty   husband lives  kuwait   rest   family  came  england    originally    two children   last gulf war  knows   well   danger     involved     worrying subject   feel totally helpless     time  get away   however life still carries   harsh   may   thought    looking   past diaries   written   many  accumulated   strange  quickly time goes    people  just expected  cope  carry   thought  particular   people worst affected   foot  mouth crisis  helpless  must  felt    coped life can   funny thing looking back  think  project    worth   think   great   will  archived   future writing  diaries seems   become part   routine now   think  will definitely  strange    longer   write    found quite   newspaper articles   past four weeks donella rebuilds  cumberland show  encouraging   future  cumbria   foot  mouth crisis however   still worrying issues arising     articles  mp calls  vaccination  keep f m  control   uruguay   threat  highlight issues  important   farming industry   also   busy   past  weeks   second assignment  due   university work   quite hectic     break   past couple  days       well  bad cough sore throat  stomach   stuffy nose  havent done  badly   winter months  illnesses   cant really complain lastly  water hasnt    best quality lately  occasions   white  fizzes    appetizing 21st april writing   4 weeks  past 4 weeks  just seem  fly  quite   good things  happened  even though   feeling quite tired     good month firstly fiance dog    finally go t  small space      got  allotment  8 miles away    surrounded  horses  fields  belongs   man  lives   owns   land roundabout  unfortunately    longer well enough  work  land   let us    will need  lot  work  will  good  us  far   got potatoes raspberries  rhubarb growing dog even helps  dig even though  live   country    block    always  easy  get  peace   also   opportunity  join  cumbria wildlife trust  leaflet came   door   thought    brilliant     kept   date    latest goings   cumbria learn  lot    wildlife  also possibly get  chance    voluntary work fiance    really interested  think   great  get sent though  certain number  magazines every year  every month  send  small donation   feel like   helping  little bit  well  article   found  one   magazines id enclosed   next page   thing   made  month  knowing    going  hawkshead   mam fiance dog    going   short break just 3 nights   birthday   got   booked   really looking forward     great last time especially  dog  just hope  doesnt get stuck   bed   caravan  time     bit bigger now      past week   also   touch   dad  south africa     birthday  turns    may  passing  carlisle   couple  days   end  next week    lovely  see     think  will love great orton   allotment  think   always liked  thought  living   country   love  retire  somewhere nice  quiet things will also  improved    grown   bit since   last   3 years ago    good   funny   living  south africa   long   still drawn   lifestyle  cumbria lastly   made  note   final meeting   foot  mouth diaries  hope     bet  passes really quickly now  will     know   strange 28th april 4th may monday got 3 articles  cumberland news april 25th 2003 breeders hit  discrimination fmd burial site celebrates new life   favourite   dogs life  rosie  lamb tuesday saw c friday noticed  park  coming   bit better   children   mentioned   orton parish awarded 25 000  reference drain level  re seed new play equipment will follow saturday    children  allowed  attend meetings  discuss  good  involve children  time   least children will  able  play football 5th 11th may tuesday working really hard   get assignment posted  tomorrow night   go away  thursday hectic wednesday service held  watchtree unable  go  think     good idea newspaper article enclosed  written   service thursday away  hawskhead exciting friday  birthday   lovely day went shopping   morning  forest   afternoon    meal  night lovely sunday back  holiday already   lovely everyone   friendly  perhaps  just noticed    12th 18th may tuesday fiance  doctors   well   got  viral infection  well  fluid behind  ears told  just take  easy wednesday    sent info  chose courses  open university    like   next year    future  going  take  environmental studies route hopefully leading  diploma  environment  development  possibly   ba bsc  environmental studies   like archaeology  think       lot  relevant   future foot  mouth  watchtree made  realise  friday got watchtree newsletter  week  will enclose   time   covers quite   areas    bit  information   information   service held awards    won  also new wildlife   now present   site lapwings oystercatchers  ringed plovers 19th 25th may 2003 tuesday dad  come  visit   couple  days  south africa nice surprise enjoyed seeing  dad asking  fmd crisis  saw   tv     close    think   quite shocked thursday   surprised  even though south africa   different   still like  live somewhere   country makes  think   lucky      take  granted saturday article  cumberland news may 23 reward  post foot  mouth achievements 25th may writing   4 weeks every time  come  write  diaries  look back   past four weeks  notice   becoming    busy  past couple  weeks    exception   already nearly half way   year  cant believe    past 4 weeks     holiday turned 22   dad  popped   south africa    days hectic  good firstly hawkshead  lovely   wouldnt say anything different   great     lovely time     really good birthday     home  great orton  forget  much  really    cumbria    see  definitely think   take advantage    often shortly   arrived back  hawkshead  dad popped   carlisle   couple  days    lovely surprise    good  see   absolutely loves      thinks    lucky even though south africa   different  still thinks   lovely   looking  onto fields   make  realise  lucky   despite  happened due  foot  mouth inevitably sometimes   take   granted  dad remembered watching   foot  mouth crisis  south africa    realise exactly  close    think   quite shocked foot  mouth  definitely made   aware   surroundings   everything works   definitely noticed        studying  open university   now   point   can chose  courses next year  therefore  path   going  take   decided  take courses leading   diploma  environment  development   everything goes  plan   environmental studies degree   really enjoying       minute  think   definitely useful  relevant   future   enjoy studying archaeology  think  environment  related issues   important   present    future   7th may    memorial service  watchtree  mark  two year anniversary    last animal  buried   site  think    good idea    appropriate  remember  animals   killed   unable  attend  service   managed  get  newspaper article      also mentioned   watchtree newsletter   included  newsletter    diaries   contains quite  bit  information    different aspects  think   good   wildlife   emerging   site  park  play area  children  also coming  fairly well  last   finally  reseeded  well  levelled  looks better   also included 4 newspaper articles   cumberland news   favourite  rosie  lamb   put  article    thought   lovely 22nd june 2004 writing   4 weeks  strange  seems     coming   end  really  quickly time  passed   situation   say  time  healed   aspects   foot  mouth crisis  things dont seem  bad 18 months   enjoyed  foot  mouth evening  learnt  lot     peoples views  experiences  enjoyed   lot    thought    thought   main themes found   research  ones     agreed  one thing   said   made  think   comment   diaries    type  memorial   never  thought   research   sort  way     think      agree  like  idea  definitely   worthwhile  able  contribute  something especially   may  able  help   way   future  compared   article   found   cumberland news   mans memorial   animals   lost  foot  mouth  definitely think    fitting  will probably   good  understand everyone   right  express  views    way       loud   inappropriate however        end   day  least people  trying  remember   good way  opposed  sweeping    carpet  week   foot  mouth evening   without  car  noticed  much  relied    took   granted especially        limited bus service everything  sorted  now    back  normal   newer little car thank   much c   lift   back  general  past  months just seem   flown    particular  past couple  weeks  dont seem   time  fit everything    trying  get  assignments done  time  turns    quite  bit  difficult   thought   hard work  will definitely  worth   th end   past 6 months even   learnt  much  next special occasion   coming   fiance s birthday 21st july   thinking  going back  hawkshead     days  really like    im sure will return     just shows    dont need  leave cumbria    good holiday well      end  just makes  wonder  life will  like  18 months  now will things   different  probably will    ways  hopefully will    best 20th july writing   4 weeks   seem  strange   sitting   write  last lot  diaries  feels good   completed something  worthwhile    well   hopefully   good   future concerning foot  mouth crisis    similar situation  also find   helped   become  bit  confident  aware  things around   remember back    attended  first meeting   nervous    think  can handle things like   bit better now   just got back  holiday    lovely time    much  went walking  dog  many places     free  just shows    good holiday  can   cumbria   cheap budget  dont need much else   disappointing thing      places fiance        past  now closed     sold    yet happened  talkin tarn   definitely think    given   cumbria wildlife trust  people  still  access   fiance    agree   countryside  recovering    great   able  wander     collected    articles   cumberland news related  foot  mouth   good  see breeders  well   people getting back   swing  things   just like  thank everyone involved  involving    project   wish    best   future"                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  
## [6] "information  diarist date  birth 1937 gender m occupation group 5 geographic region north cumbria week 1 monday 11th march 2002 whilst watching  local tv news  6 pm    news item  caused us  reflect back   events  year ago  young lady  just left  court     found guilty  assaulting  police officer  also   change   offensive weapon  knife  judge  acquitted    offences  showed leniency towards  last year   fmd crisis   returned   home  find   pet goat   killed  slaughterers   animal  within  3 km radius   gone berserk    threatened  police officer  others   knife     forcibly restrained    distraught   killing even    appeared  court    acquitted   charges  showed great emotion    freed  also quite upset   loss   goat perhaps  actions didnt happen   lot   people   similar things happen   however  loss   lot  pet animals    cases needless slaughter  many farm animals still creates unhappy memories  2001 week 2 tuesday whilst walking  dog  met  farmer   edge   village   friends  stock  close proximity   2 land fill sites   still  concerned  materials   sites  nearest site contained hundreds  carcasses    completed  capped   concerned  leachate   site  feels   doesnt matter  much clay  soil  used  contain  site  effects  heavy rain  bound  find  way   also  drain   doesnt want  plough  fields  can  sell stock   grazed   fields   pyre ash  tipped    site   happens   rainwater  runs   site also   concerns   large flocks  seagulls  visit  sites daily another concern    happening   open cast coal site   situated almost due south  gilgarran village  farmer  talked  today  concerned   huge site  coal   moved   site  months   concerns   site  going   filled  waste will    fmd sites    village   concerned  rumours  land fill   huge scale friday noticed    work  carried    top   burial site  villagers  commented   despite large yellow diggers operating sunday work continuing   burial site  make   kind  work   done  week 3 monday work  still going    burial site  still dont know   going    diggers involved      animals   buried   animals   buried  last year  smell coming   site  terrible  say  least    coming   dead animals   observers thought   decomposing waste material   already  buried   site prior  fmd  excavators dug   soil  make trenches   dead animals  dug   decomposing matter hence  terrible smell despite  work   going   today  comments  villagers  forthcoming  seems    now  fmd  gone  general public   interested   unless  read something   local papers written   enterprising reporter week 4 tuesday work  still going    former burial site villagers dont seem   bothered fmd  gone  nobody  interested   wednesday whilst trying  gain comments  villagers   effects  fmd one  two comments   individuals show concern   outbreak last year  dont seem  concerned    effects   two interesting comments suggest  1  outbreak  started deliberately   country  collusion   agriculturists   eec    concentrate meat production  europe  leave  uk  concentrate  arable farming 2  outbreak  started   terrorist attack  government   declare     cause widespread panic thursday 23 25 hours huge fire   site  pyre ash   tipped 250000 used tyres caught fire arson  suspected fire fighters tried  contain  blaze  couldnt use large amounts  water  case water courses became contaminated friday 05 00 fire still blazing   pyre ash site later   morning  fire  showing signs  dying  apparently   left  burn   much heavy smoke pollution  evident drifting south west   nine miles reading  local evening paper   blaze   also  report  villagers  disington 1 miles  gilgarran  complaining   foul smell   waste sites parish councillors   concerned     coincide  work currently  carried    burial site  smell   sites plus  fact  animals  buried  one site  pyre ash plus  huge fire    site  happening  week  causing concern   area    hue  cry dies  people will soon forget    week 5 monday   friday observed work  top   burial site dont know   work  still going    northern  western sides friday local weekly paper carried  report   recent large fire  occurred   alco site last week  250000 tyres caught fire somehow   intersting  read   fire brigade   use  water  extinguish  blaze  case pollution occurred  water courses  fire  left  burn   saturday burial site  looks like   new soil  tipped  top   reason  reported comments froim  parish council   despite  vociferous objections     use     alco site   past sunday talked   local county councillor  lives   village  feels  strongly   two sites  dangerous  thinks   sites   health hazard risk due  obnoxious odours   particular  large fire  occurred last week  produced  lot  polluted smoke   distance  six miles  people reckoned   smell  burning tyres   smelt   gilgarran    numerous fires   sites   last  years  fires give rise  compaliant  people like us      nearer village  distington 1 miles west    councillor suggests      incidents  cancer cases   area  coming years along  respiratory troubles  well   cases  bronchitis related problems    recently suddenly started sinusitis   hasnt       wasnt happy   situation   sites  dont know    tipped    can    community  accept     told   site owners  previously stated animal carcasses   tipped  buried   three days    told officially     incidentally  site  animals  buried  owned  cumbria county council  seems   totally   advice  county council officials  look   environment   health   population  ive written    going   bigger concerns   opencast coal site   south   village becomes  landfill site  refuse  parts   county fifty miles away   moment    suggestions  anything   fmd outbreak will  dumped   said  however   villagers didnt know  carcasses  buried  pyre ash  tipped     happened  await  outcome   coal site   trepidation    coal  come   site   months     indication  becoming  land fill site week 6 monday  wednesday  work  still ongoing   burial site    visible   side   site  still dont know   going    may   innocent   improvement   environment       site owners    thursday  delegation  meps visit  north   county   come  assess  situation     report back   european parliament  doubt  will also report back    constituents    countries  delegation visit  auction mart  longtown   disease  first noticed   country  also visited  big burial site  great orton    estimated  half  million carcasses  buried good coverage   local press radio  tv gave anyone interested  views   delegation thursday saturday  mep delegation agreed   fmd situation   disastrous   know  comments   tourist  agriculture observers ranged   waste  time   least  politicians  bothered  visit us   couldnt   personally  think   good came    particularly    reported   dutch  used vaccination techniques     small outbreak many people think   british government     public inquiry   outbreak     hide cumbria  holding   inquiry quite rightly   organisations   lancaster university  holding research   outbreak    government eventually  will know  perhaps    lifetime though  minister  maff   lot  answer  week 7 thought     interest  include copies   newsletter   local authorities issued  every household   area regarding  disposal  carcasses  effluent  will   note     fire last year   alco site also involving tyres  similar  last years    big  report  local tv today stated   recent visit  meps   area considered  vaccination    used   outset    seriously considered   future outbreak occur heard  reports   outbreak  tb  cattle   parts   country   reported    serious  fmd   major outbreak occur   lead   question  disposal   need arise  ive already reported  previous entries  use   opencast coal site   south east    causing concern   quarters although  site didnt feature   fmd crisis    feeling     earmarked  use   future   need arise  even  rumour   incinerator  planned    general feeling     surrounding area      enough dumping  carcasses effluent toxic chemicals etc      authorities  seen   sites concerned  handled  substances    extension  disposal sites   area   effective week 8 nothing   significance  report  week week 9 now  cumbrias fmd inquiry  started  lot  people   met  week recall  happenings   year ago even  interesting   coverage   local press  tv plenty  publicity   media shows  little  government  maff  particular let  farming  tourism industries   county     plenty  distressing stories  farmers    infected animals  slaughtered  also  slaughtering  healthy animals   3 km circle   outbreak one particularly distressing point  evidence    farmer described   panel  birth   calf five days   mother   shot    time   outbreak  hearing  stories   daily basis  still maff  mr brown kept telling us   outbreak   control   can say   point  may heaven help us    happens  week 10 work  still going    burial site  looks like new soil   dumped  top   actual site  dozed  level     smooth     side   can   accept   management   site  making  better   concerned      concerned     much publicised cumbrian fmd inquiry team visited  land fill site  met local councillors  expressed  concern   site   alco site   report  forthcoming   team  inquiry team finish  evidence gathering  week one  important statement  made   minister   environment  make  statement   outbreak   even make  visit   sites county wide    total silence  mrs becketts department   request   silence  observed   government source   matter everyone asks   questions    got  hide  arent  interested  plans   made   lessons   learned  last years outbreak  lot  farms  restocking    neighbourhood farm work  going       looks  time goes  though  seems    smouldering anger   one  authority   concerned  well  week 11 work  still  going   burial site  comments heard     villagers  neighbours  week diary 12 monday    observation work  still ongoing   burial site  heavy plant   moved    top   giant amount   looks  though  topsoil   laid   mount perhaps  improve  site  water may still permeate     site  can  believe  operators     right thing   friday talked  2  villagers    effects  fmd one said oh    now  forgotten   doesnt bother  one bit   said     past  just   forget    seems  life  returning  normal   aspects  village life people dont think  last year unless  diarist mentions  sunday  bad day  weather wise  prolonged rain may halt work   burial site  people  reluctant  talk  f m d now even    one   worst economic  social disasters  hit  country   county  particular now     peoples memories begin  fade however   us   happy    two disposal sites within  1000 metres   village fmd may     burial sites     long time yet diary 13 observed  work  burial site  heavy machinery  plant moved   large quantities  soil   laid   smoothed  diary 14 talked   religious today    effects  fmd without exception    interested      idle one   reminded     general comments nobody seems bothered    hundreds  animals buried  1000 yards   village   fact    leachate  pyre ash buried  another site looking   burial site   work   going     look  though  management    everything  make  site safe diary 15  met  smallholder today     talked    past   effects   effects  fmd  still  happy   burial site despite  landscaping  smoothing    large quantities  topsoil  time will tell  says      stock near   site    sheep   farmers land since fmd finished though  stock movements  still restricted  new legislation   come  since  area  declared free  instance    takes  sheep  auction  asked   nine pieces  paper   transaction   price   right     take   back   land   put  back    field   came     move   three weeks     obtain  licence      think   authorities   going    strict shortly   just one   precautions   come   try  combat  recurrence  fmd diary 16  met  smallholder  rents land    farmer   village  income   sheep    breeds   nil like many  people  similar circumstances fortunately       income  another source  subject  compensation came    conversation  personally     comment  make   item   maybe just  rumour apparently  got  bee   bonnet  compensation paid   people      agricultural business  seemed  upset      heard    fish  chip shop owner   lake district   paid 170 per month compensation   loss  trade  didnt mind  much  hoteliers  guest house owners  claimed compensation  wondered  else   kind  money go      paid nothing    first time ive heard  one diary 17 attended  cumberland show  every   park carlisle    family used  attend  annual show regularly   spectators  competitors   never seen  show like  one put   year  will things really get back  normal many  us think  agriculture  back  pre fmd cattle  sheep  grazing   fields lambing  reached new heights  produce   farms calves   born silage  haymaking  progressing   weather permits    still restrictions  animal movements hence  sheep cattle  pigs   years show  horses poultry dogs  rabbits  many pieces  agricultural machinery onshore either plenty  chartered accountants tents craft tents horse feeds  tack displays   main arena  bands   agricultural show   knew   seems       shows ennerdale show  one   local shows  year  isnt going    horses  sheep generally    cattle shown   show  without sheep hill farmers dominate  show   isnt going   much  show     always  good show  equestrian events  many levels  show  always  must   family  dont think   will  going  year diary 18   golf course  golf driving range  can look     western side   burial site   written  previous weeks   work    going    site viewing  site    village side  hardly know    ever   burial site hundreds  tons  topsoil   laid  smoothed   make   less like  landscaped feature  looks really good   western side though things  little different work  still going   large amounts  soil   tipped  levelled    still portakabins   heavy plant can still  seen moving   doubt  western side well look  good   eastern side  long diary 19   announced   prime minister   wife  son   family   visit  cumbria  pm arrives  west cumbria  kinds  reports  written   local  national press     going                 holiday  pm  meet  farmers leaders  press  usual stirred things         meeting tourism officials say   trip  fantastic  tourism   county  person   cant see  difference  made  people want  come cumbria  will come irrespective  whether  pm comes   diary 20   lot  protests  looks  though   20 day restriction  cattle movement will  lifted perhaps  will now mean     cattle  sheep entries  local agricultural shows  shows  going ahead   limited entries  livestock     animal entries    shows  always   popular   family   20 years also living    farming community makes us feel part   annual agricultural scene diary 21 ive written  regarding agricultural shows   pride   local people take   shows although  lot  shows  gone ahead  season     reduced animal showing    cases  animals   today ive heard  one show   cancelled altogether  particular show  one    popular   area maybe   lack  entries   organisers just wanted  cancel    3 week restriction  animal movement  dont know perhaps    better  cancel     depleted show diary 22 spent   hours   fells today   good   able  wander  familiar paths  let  dog run free    good boost   moral  perhaps  dogs    missed  able    last year diary 23 last bank holiday  xmas   last   schools go back   golf course   help  part time   summer   lots  customers  lot   commented   enjoyable      holiday   area  year compared   restrictions    place last year maybe  holiday establishments  getting back  normal    restrictions put   like    place now  farmers  agriculture diary 26 sorting   mail left whilst away  holiday   came across  notice sent   village committee notifying  harvest thanksgiving festival   held next month   village hall     church   village    held   farm buildings   centre   village  will   splendid event  farm    fmd  couldnt take animals  one field  another  couldnt market    consider  gloom  settled   farm  community    welcome    unique event    heart   village   farmer   wife will    centre  events  lovely gesture   hope  will  well supported  will   distribution  harvest gifts afterwards   change   year ago diary 27   aid  binoculars    able    closer look   burial site   westerly direction   vents   shape  small towers  extract gas   site   pipes connecting  vents  lot  work  still going   however   takes place   western side    opposite side    village  situated   side   nothing  suggest  amount  work going     fmd  pushed    backs  villagers minds   something   past   happened   people like   talk  farmers  agriculturalists   easily forget  events personally   still concerned   burial site  inquiries  made     can   accept    told    look  though every precaution   taken  alleviate  odours  contamination diary 28    see  village farmer  another matter   asked inside  coffee   chat   able  tell    full implications   20 day rule  accepts     precaution  prevent another outbreak  fmd     lot  work involved  told    isolation area    created  also  fencing arrangements   land adjoins  neighbours land   say  95   public dont know   even    heard   20 day rule    owns  largest farm   area   bad enough      physical work  regards fencing etc   anyone    small holder  must   nightmare     bring animals back  market  havent  sold friday  wife   played  round  golf  aspatria  course  badly restricted  fmd hit  area   reminded    restrictions  adjoining land   notices asking people  hit balls onto farm land   cross  fence  retrieve    fmd precautions   news  us   make sense though  farmer wouldnt know  players   walking prior  playing golf diary 29 attended  harvest festival held   village farm  large cattle shed   cleaned  decorated   event chairs   brought  fruit  vegetables   display  auctioning   end  place  packed  lot  money  raised      happy event well supported   big boost   farm   village  dont think   general public care much  fmd now      year since  last case  confirmed  cumbria  public may  reminded   read  local newspapers intently  instance    letter   editor published recently  referred   results   cumbria inquiry  fmd  may    farmer  wrote   dont know   writer certainly went  town   scathing comments   handling  fmd even caustic remarks regarding  efforts since fmd  defra  mrs beckett  certainly wouldnt like  cross  writer  also think  farming community must  holding  breath  case  present restrictions     prove   worthless   will  suffer  week 30   difference  year makes despite  restrictions  public access  agricultural fields   areas   county  doesnt apply  although  locals confine   footpaths  bridleways  people seem  think   fields  recreation areas  walk  run across    fields  close proximity   village regardless   presence  stock  exercise dogs  treat     kind  park one farmer  well know   aggressive  used last years fmd outbreak  run people   land  met  local councillor  expressed concerns regarding  proposed building   incinerator   south   village   current open cast mining site  two waste disposal sites   west  north west   village  become big issues   last 18 months due   burial  animals   disposal  pyre ash  leachates  seems  though   going  get   ghastly fmd outbreak     scenario thrust upon us week 31 met  small holder  keeps sheep near   village    scathing   report   government  defra dont want  talk   offer   local authorities   implement findings  recommendations   local inquiry  fmd     government  didnt perform  well   outbreak got  hide   shirk away   findings instead  facing    failings    know   also seems   dont want  make  safeguards  recommendations  avoid   outbreak   non agriculturalist  doesnt surprise    least   government  failed  industries   country   long   can remember week 32   convinced  authorities   area must think   way animals  buried   pyre ash  leachate  disposed   another site nearby   done   successfully    two sites handled everything professionally therefore  sites     capable  handling ash   incinerator      legacy  fmd    annoyed   together   lot    villagers  village  longer   representative   parish council   resigned  whatever reason   one will step forward  take  one   said    take  set   parish council  represent  village  fight   rights  future quality  life due     uncovered  pile  claims  counter claims  seems   parish  district counsellors know   going  regarding  incinerator   developers  made concessions   councillors also   claims   developers  offered money  local landowners  farmers   roads can  put    accusations   strongly denied    time   rumoured   farmers   offered local fields nearby      discovered    investigations   seem   lot  friendships gained  20 years  come   end   fearful     uncovered   also claims  councillors        can get       trusted  dont want  said   also   time    sorted   will  70 75  certainly dont want   fighting peoples battles   age however  will support  effort  stop  proposed development week 33    large farm   centre   village   venue   annual guy fawkes bonfire  fireworks organisers   round  village asking  donations  provide fireworks  tractor  trailer toured  areas picking  things   bonfire drinks  food  served   barn   fireworks   another occasion  villagers   farming community come together   perhaps   time   general public   village think  fmd  last years events   briefly  farmer remarked    third time  year      public function   farm  first   jubilee party  june   october 6th  harvest festival service  events keep farming   public eye week 34  havent written    proposed building   incinerator nearby  burn  counties waste     suspect  incinerator  built   odours plus  disposal  ash   fmd waste site   legacy  fmd particularly regarding  nearby burial  disposal site week 35   week 35   project      35 weeks   written     confident   future   numerous reasons   mainly  situation   middle east today  travelled  keswick    xmas shopping   given  lift    neighbour     30s    upset   terrorist situation     concerned   terror threat   london underground   threat closer  home  regards  plane crashing   nearby sellafield complex  dont know  effect   constant bad news   people people   already got serious worries eg families housing finance etc must feel really depressed    week 36 near   next village   long established farm  many acres recently  farms stock  animals  machinery  sold   owner   farmed  sixty years  leaving  live  one   brothers  said   wouldnt know    feel   left  farm   last time  weekend  farmhouse hasnt  sold yet  now stands empty   strange place now  everything  hustle  bustle  even   b b business   now derelict  bare   sad reflection   agricultural business   wake  fmd  farm isnt   one   area   sold   farm houses remain  dwellings   particular one   saw nearly every day  just   sad reminder   way farming  declined   rural area week 39 tuesday boarded  train  penrith  journey  crewe  see  daughter   journey  got  conversation   fellow passenger  noticed   got   train  penrith  perhaps thought   connected   agricultural industry  conversation drifted   previous years fmd outbreak   rather strange   live    rural area  fmd  rarely mentioned now however  fellow passenger although    agricultural background gave  views   handling   situation    different   views expressed  locals   time   crisis  just goes  show  fmd   much  peoples minds even     connected  agriculture   way week 40 friday now   mep  published  critical report   fmd crisis   interesting  read  article published   local weekly paper   reader article entitled foot  mouth report included  dont   knowledge   data  support  readers comments however   heard plenty  stories  mainly unreliable sources  confirm   says  makes interesting reading  think week 41 tuesday  wonder  confidence   future  taken  big plunge   last  months  situation  iraq doesnt get  better mr tony blairs message   armed forces   uk bear     ex serviceman  know   situation holds   troops    right  follow  usa   war  iraq  doubt saddam hussein  pose  threat    india  pakistan       two relatively poor countries  threatened    regards  nuclear arsenals now  loose cannon   form  north korea  positioning   regards  position   nuclear arms league personally  think  north korea poses   dangerous threat  iraq      happy new year   lot  people perhaps  will   settled diplomatically  wonder week 42 nothing   importance  write  due  refurbishment  home week 43 monday one   items   agenda   months meeting  distington parish council   report   wood felling   implications      written   diary    strong rumours   proposed plan  fell woods build  new road   felled site  bring coal   nearby opencast site  link    existing road   transport  coal   storage area  workington dock    coal  worked   build  incinerator   coal site ash   development    transported   new road   disposed    waste disposal site   used  fmd pyre ash  leachate thursday read  report   aforesaid meeting  owners  declared   worries  groundless  fact  say   plan  eventually open  woodland   public  owners   woodland    operators   opencast coal site footpaths will  created   grant can  obtained  wooden wheeled ancient water mill will  restored   closed meeting  operations director   site said      misunderstanding     will benefit local people  said   management project   wood   followed involving felling dead trees  fresh planting  added  felling  replanting will  done  year    will take time  become established  talking   ten year programme     long term benefits  think  pr   start   wasnt  good    future  will let  council know   plans  council agreed  keep  watch   work   g  statement differs greatly     us   told   village based county councillor   never   suggestion   felled woods  become  land fill site    felled  provide  new road   nothing mentioned   meeting regarding  proposed incinerator  built  county council    ever  planned however  representative  adamant      week 44 tuesday   first time  property  finally overcome  situation   affected  fmd  july 2000  electricity supplier notified   say   trees   garden  grown  tall   topmost branches   close contact   eleven thousand volt overhead power line      felled  severely pruned    negotiations   decided  prune   height   wasnt happy  although  treetops   actually touching  wires   considered  risk   forthcoming months however  time passed  couldnt wait   foresters  arrive   pruned  trees   january 2001  electric supplier suggested   trees   pruned   date  agreed   foresters didnt arrive time dragged    trees grew back   original height   electric supplier suggested   pruned  felled  new date  agreed upon however  foresters couldnt   job   isolator switch   farmland   couldnt get access     fmd restrictions    dragged  despite visits  foresters  electric supplier reps  trees got bigger    forbidden  touch  neighbours  hear crackling noises coming   wires   became  worrying people suggested     something    took  matter  directly   supplier   foresters   promised dates      cancelled  december 2002  date  21st january 2003  given  time  came   agreed  two trees  felled  another pruned  30 months  finally happened thursday met  small holder    land   edge   village  told    20 day rule  animal restriction  animal movement   lifted  replaced   6 day restriction   good news      farmer later  day  met another farmer  didnt know   restriction   lifted    thought    told  hed won  lottery good news  round   people friday listening   local radio today   surprised  hear  report   citizens advice bureau   small lakeland town   receiving clients   still experiencing hardship due  fmd   now 18 months since  last outbreak   effects according   person  interviewed  still  felt  just  farmers  agriculturists   guest houses hotels tradesmen   particular  self employed debt seems    biggest problem  seems  though  people  weathered  hardships  fmd initially   find   plans  come adrift somehow afterwards quite disturbing  hear   situation  still  us   county   degree week 45  diaries  instituted  deal    effects  fmd although    cases  fmd   village everyone knew   particularly  nearly everyone  went  work    pass  main farm   village centre     farms   outskirts   village now  fmd    people  live  dont seem  think   anymore   people affected   farmers naturally    strange village  lots  ways   farmer   immediate family  connected  agriculture  rest  professional people  people  work  nearby sellafield industries  workington  whitehaven   retired    church  village pub  village shop  village community centre  meeting place  tradesmen  call   milkman   solid fuel merchant   left  get   life    way  parish  distington    belong    facilities associated   larger community    church pub  community centre     two miles away consequently  parish council meets    month  discusses   problems   area including  however  representative   council  resigned   one  come forward  represent us anything    discussed   parish council  reported   local newspaper village pubs   good venue  discuss local issues   exchange views  mainly  gossip village tittle tattle   call      pub  gossip  rife  one source  another  bits added   left     choice   person concerned quite  lot  people one meets  experts    particular choice  subject whether   politics finance  mrs jones current boy friend    fault  take  board    gossiped   one meets  fellow villager   country lanes whilst  walking  dog week 46 illness   family member week 47 continued illness week 48   past  weeks     lot  tree felling   nearby woods   led   lot  disturbance   villagers    use  large vehicles needed  remove  felled timber  also  foresters vehicles churning   grass verges   ditches  lot  concern  raised   necessity    tree felling  concerns  raised   press  also   parish council   written    diaries   last  weeks   reported  mid january    felled woods   replanted  year  footpaths created   enjoyment   local population now  timber operations  ceased large areas  woodland   left partly felled   lot  felled timber  left lying  foresters vehicles  gone  nothing  happening despite assurances   developers  looks  though something drastic  happened village tittle tattle says   foresters    paid   work  far    developers  run   money       going  happen now  felling started late last year  contacted two environmental agencies regarding  threat   red squirrels badgers  buzzards  occupy  woods   told      partial felling    environmental agencies  satisfied   disturbances   slight  think    told    developers  accepted    told without  site visit  developers   known  mislead groups   past including landowners farmers councils  individuals  personally   happy   situation   always took  keen interest  wildlife  feel     let    lies  developers   lack  serious interest  wildlife agencies      offshoot  central government   one will keep  close look   situation   without  villagers   particular local councillors week 49  chance  met three small holders     time   discussing farming   roadside     pleased   20 day ruling  coming   end    lives    less coming back  normal  also expressed  opinion   20 day rule   6 day rule    force  protect  interests however   unanimous   condemnation   importing  foreign meat  meat products   country  feel  foreign meat   subjected  enough checks  entry   united kingdom week 51 met  farmer today  told   hed seen  report based  findings   eu  defra  stated   things  everyone    agriculturalist    take  interest   countryside   saying    wrong   handlers   fmd outbreak  just proves   doesnt take  academic genius  know     done   time everyone can  wiser   event  statements   nfu  individuals   onset   heeded  example  movement  animals    halted sooner   army    brought  much sooner now  question  vaccination rumbles     shouldnt  vaccinate    fear   outbreak  particularly   findings   1960 outbreak   implemented since  sadness  fmd    quite   instances  socialising   farm   harvest festival jubilee party  almost  excuse   shindig good  see farmers enjoying  week 52 met  local farmer  told       new legislation  dispose  fallen stock  longer can  farmer bury fallen stock   land  must now provide  incinerator  dispose  dead animals  must   costly business  dead animals   taken   central point  burned week 54 one thing  fmd   effect      poaching fraternity living   rural area  expect   happen nobody seems  mind    rabbits  pheasants go missing   really alarming   use  dogs  high powered rifles  poach deer fmd put  stop    now  neighbour  told   poachers near   village using rifles  shooting deer   people benefiting     poachers  hoteliers  receive  dead beasts   questions asked also  danger  villagers  hit  stray rifle shots causes alarm  others week 55  think     lot  jumping   band wagon now  fmd  cleared   instance  listened   interview   local radio station given   hotelier things werent going well   establishment  got  fmd   implications visitors  slowly returning   area    sufficient numbers  cause great joy"

Consolidation

In this section we will look at

  1. stemming
  2. pos tagging
  3. lemmitisation

Stemming

The tm package in R provides the stemDocument() function to stem the document to it’s root.

This function either takes in a character vector and returns a character vector, or takes in a PlainTextDocument and returns a PlainTextDocument

foot_mouth_df$stem_words <- 
  tm::stemDocument(foot_mouth_df$no_stop_words, language = "english")

head(foot_mouth_df)
##          Filename Number
## 1 5407diary02.rtf      0
## 2 5407diary03.rtf      1
## 3 5407diary07.rtf      2
## 4 5407diary08.rtf      3
## 5 5407diary09.rtf      4
## 6 5407diary10.rtf      5
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   \n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1975\nGender: M\nOccupation: Group 6\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\n\nDiary 1         \nThursday Meeting @ N Lakes\nFriday TB testing on restocking farm. Usual chat and DEFRA comments\nThe meeting (research panel gp 6) at the North Lakes was interesting. It surprises me sometimes how people (myself included) never seem to tire of the same stories and complaints over how the crisis was handled. Some of the episodes recounted must have been told dozens of times over the last year but whoever says it always seems just as keen to say it again – Perhaps a reflection of how deeply people feel about the events of the last year. Having said that, most of the resentments and rants that I hear on daily farm visits are focused fairly and squarely at DEFRA and not FMD virus. Farmers seem far more upset at the constriction put on them by DEFRA than they do by the loss of stock now, although I know and saw how utterly devastated most were when they were actually diagnosed with the virus and in the week or two following.\nMy work in the practice is becoming less and less FMD orientated as time goes on. Licensing and restocking visits are drawing to a close and we are starting to return to “normal” vet work. My life has been more settled since the end of FMD. Although there was never a real threat of redundancy there was a great deal of uncertainty as to what form work would take during the outbreak - it was never clear whether I would be based at the practice or working as a DEFRA vet from month to month. Now that it is finished (I hope) the practice and my work can get back to a routine and at least knowing where I’ll be based each day, even if not which calls are going to come in.\nWith regard to FMD the biggest influence it has at the moment and over the last week is acting as a listener to farmers who still talk about it (and DEFRA) a great deal.\n\nDiary 2         \nMon  Shap restocking, having to justify visit\nWed Melmerby\n I went to see a farmer this week to do the first inspection of his sentinel animals that he is restocking his farm. In common with many farmers he was unwavering in his conviction that his animals had been deliberately infected and that Tony Blair or DEFRA were the ultimate culprits. The belief is that they want to put farmers out of business. This particular farmer made the very valid point that DEFRA & co had underestimated the resilience of the farming community. I think that this has been very striking.  Considering the strain that they have been under (in some cases worse for those who didn’t get FMD than for those who did) it has been remarkable how little the majority of our clients have changed. Admittedly we see most of them on a professional basis regarding their animals’ health and not their own, but on the whole they seem to have been very forward thinking about the outbreak. Many have taken it as a chance to increase the size of herds and to eliminate many other diseases as well as FMD.\nWork in the practice has been fairly steady. As week the number of FMD calls is decreasing. One of the problems with doing restocking, licensing and TB calls is that we are on the farm at DEFRA’s instruction. Normally it is the farmer who calls us out and this can cause friction. Anything related to DEFRA will put hackles up 9 times out of 10. It definitely causes stress at times but puts my diplomacy skills into good practice! It sometimes feels as though some farmers just need an outlet and I fit the bill. After agreeing with everything they say and sympathising, it usually smoothes out and ends with a cup of tea, but it does feel as though we have to justify what we are doing much more than prior to February 2001.\n\nDiary 3\nThis week was the anniversary of the week I went to my first IP and associated slaughter, pyre building etc. At several times during the week I found myself thinking “this time last year I was…” Although obviously not pleasant memories the thoughts did not particularly affect me in a bad way or distract me from work, it just took me back to that time when I had time to think. I went to see a sick horse near Carlisle, which is where the IP was, and it was interesting to drive past the farm and see animals in the buildings again. Hopefully the farmer concerned is getting back on track again.\nWith respect to daily routine, work is getting very busy. Lambing time is starting to really get going with the inevitable increase in calls. Although it can be hectic at times it’s better to be kept busy rather than having it too quiet. It’s also good to actually be doing lambings and other sheep work as it’s two years since we did any apart from euthanasing sheep last year.\nOn Monday I went to do a re stocking check on a farm. The farmer is convinced he was given FMD deliberately and on arrival I was given his weekly tirade regarding DEFRA, Tony Blair, how I must have made thousands of pounds out of it etc etc. After sometime of not rising to the bait he calmed down and half an hour later was sweetness and light. Perhaps he just needs someone to let pressure out to. Only one session like that a week isn’t too bad considering how many farm visits we do!\n\nDiary 4\nMonday brought another dressing down from the farmer I mentioned last week. It was shorter and less passionate this time -  perhaps he’s mellowing a bit.\nI drove up to Junction 40 one day with the sun out. It reminded me of a similar day a year ago when I could count 15 smoke plumes from pyres on the same bit of road. As I said last week anniversary memories like this aren’t especially difficult for me, they’re just there. In a lot of ways it’s quite satisfying thinking about what was happening a year ago and how well things have progressed since then. Most of our farmers have re stocked, work is returning to normal. Even things like being able to drive onto farms again rather than having to leave the car at the farm entrance makes a big difference.\nWork continues to be very busy with the typical seasonal calls to sheep and cattle. We have a couple of vet students doing work experience with us which had to stop last March as we couldn’t take extras onto farms with us. Another sign of the continuing return to normality. Some days it seems as if we have returned to how we were a year ago. The most obvious legacy is perhaps the thorough and extensive clothing disinfection between each farm - a good habit which is very hard to break!\n\nDiary 5\nI had to work on Easter Monday morning, which was fairly uneventful. As for the last few weeks there were the usual seasonal calls to sheep and cattle, but nothing too stressful.\nOn Tuesday I did the final blood sampling on the last farm that we have that is still at the sentinel stage of re stocking. The farmers seemed fairly mellow today and spared me the usual lecture/attempt at argument. Perhaps it’s because the end of his restriction is in sight. The test went very smoothly, and I didn’t hear from him until the end of the week, when I (he?) was upset (probably justifiably) that his results still weren’t back. As processing the bloods is not our responsibility all I could do was sympathise and plead ignorance!\nThe rest of the week was fairly routine work-wise. Friday was taken up doing a big tuberculin and brucellosis test on a re stocked farm. They all have to be done within 3 mths of re stocking. Although it was a big job it was a well run farm with plenty of help, so we got finished within the day and with as few delays as could be expected.\nNow that the evenings are lighter it’s meant that on nights off duty I’ve been able to get out more. It’s made a very welcome change to be able to bike/walk on the fells again this year after all the restrictions of 2001. Long may it and the weather continue!\n\nDiary 6\nFinally finished the last a restocking jobs on Monday.\nThe farmer was getting very frustrated (probably justifiably so) at the length of time it was taking - the bank holidays etc last week meant to that the labs were closed so that blood samples took longer to process. I got the results at 4. 45 Monday evening and in an attempt to create some goodwill agreed to go to the farm to do a final check that evening. On arrival of the usual tirade about DEFRA and vet's came my way which was slightly hard to take. He then said that he didn't blame me personally which was nice of him. I think (hope) he realises that we can only try to get things going faster and ultimately it’s out off our hands. At least it's good to have all the restocking work finished. It feels as though the first stage is over in getting back to where we were. Another sign of returning to usual is the continuing pace of work. Nights on call are again a time for working rather than the call free nights of summer 2001. This week has brought early-morning lambing  most days. The rest of the time we’re is as busy as it's been for a year. The day book is full each day and we all seem to be driving around the county more or less keeping up with the jobs! (which is a good thing!) I had the weekend off and was going to go to Edinburgh to see some friends, but in the end stayed in Penrith for some R&R!\n\nDiary 7\nI had a half-day on Monday and went to Riggindale at the head of Haweswater with a friend who had come to stay for a night or two. The plan was to see the golden eagles nesting that up to unfortunately they were off on a day trip to another part of the Lake District. But the weather was good and it made a very pleasant change from work.\nThe practice is still going flat out with seasonal work. The daily flow of lambing and lambing related sheep problems shows no sign of ebbing.  There are also increasing numbers of cattle problems probably related to coming towards the spring turn-out of cattle that have been inside for 6-7 months.  The fact that most of them are in new surroundings is almost certainly adding to the problems. On the whole of farmers are fairly pragmatic about the difficulties they are having. Most accept that they were bound to have problems with the restocking and on the whole are pleased just to have stock on again. Some are very keen to be as efficient as possible whereas others will more readily go along with the old farming mantra that "where there's a livestock there's a dead stock" (Not quite what the veterinary profession wants to encourage!)\nI was on call at the weekend and had one of the busier few days I can remember. Again it was mostly seasonal farm work, which although it was time-consuming is often quite rewarding. I'm still surprised by the number of sheep we are getting called to - perhaps it's because farmers have spent a lot of money on them to restock with and now feel they’re financially worth calling us for.\n\nDiary 8\nMade a couple of visits to one of our farmers who restocked over the winter this week. He's having a few problems with cows getting ill and generally not settling in very well.  He's one of the most amenable farmers on our books and never seems to try to blame anyone for his troubles. At times it's very frustrating not to be able to do more for people like him. I'd like to be able to give every one of his cows a magic injection and say that it'll get better but unfortunately that's not how it works!\nWe've had a lot of colt castrations to do this week, which is normal for this time of year. It puts more pressure on us in terms of work as we usually take two vets to each castration.  Considering how busy it is relations in the practice are generally very good. It has been stressful at times but on the whole this has been stress related to volume of jobs to do rather than people. It has also been a very different (and preferable) type of stress than this time of the last year. At least a lot of work makes us all feel fairly stable rather than the terrible uncertainty of last year. We’ve also taken on an extra vet this spring which would have been unthinkable last year.\nIn the middle of the week I did a farm visit with one of the vets from the local Veterinary Lab to discuss disease control on a re-stocked farm. Most of the work into disease surveillance on a farm was DEFRA funded which went down well with the farmer.  She at least felt as though she was getting something back after fighting with DEFRA for the last few months. It was also encouraging to see someone taking a very positive approach to disease control in the future.\nMy cousin and some of his friends came down from Glasgow for the weekend to go into the Lake District. The weather was good on the whole and several people noted how good it was to have the paths open again.\n\nDiary 9\n  Started the week doing a big tuberculin and brucellosis test at a restocked farm. There has been a big backlog to clear after testing was stopped during FMD last year so we have to catch up with those farms that didn’t get the disease but are due a test as well as testing the restocking farms. We’re all very keen to keep Cumbria as a TB free zone, but with all the different stock coming in it’s going to be tricky. Monday’s test was long but okay on the whole. The set-up was good and the farming family were very pleasant which makes a huge difference to how the day goes! All was clear when I went to read the test on Thursday - a relief for all concerned.\nOverall work seems to be quietening down a bit this week compared to the last few.  We are now just busy rather than always feeling as if were one job behind all the time. On Wednesday and Thursday one of our clients brought in half-a-dozen Shetland ponies to castrate .It makes a change to have a "large animal" that is small enough to be easily physically restrained by one person.  The continuing good weather made doing an afternoon's work with the ponies in the practice’s field a very pleasant way to spend a few hours (I can't help feeling that no rain in April means we'll get loads later in the summer!)\nI was on a second call at the weekend. Saturday was very busy with small animal jobs which I mainly left to a colleague while I tried to clear up the farm and equine jobs.  Calm was pretty much restored by late afternoon, after which I wasn't called until early Sunday morning. Another of our re-stocked clients is having considerable trouble with some of his new animals and is becoming increasingly frustrated about it. We all try to help with the medical side of it (animals) but inevitably also get to hear a lot of his other worries too. Hopefully things will look up soon and he'll be able to ride it out OK.\n\nDiary 10\nHad a day off on Bank Holiday Monday - always the good way to start the week. I went up to Peebles in Scotland with some friends to go mountain biking. It was surprisingly empty for a weekend and the weather was good, and I didn't fall off - all in all, a good day out!\nTuesday was work as usual. I had to do a small TB test on a restocking farm. It shouldn't have been a long job but the facilities weren't great, so it didn’t go as slickly as it might have done. We all managed to get through in one piece so it could have been worse.\nOne of my colleagues went on maternity this week. She is part time but does all small animal work. Now that she's off for the next few months it means that an extra vet is needed each morning to stay in and do small animal operations. While it's probably not my favourite sort of work it does make a change from being out on farms every morning. It's also good to get a bit more experience at small procedures.\nAs well as doing smaller animals this week has brought several interesting equine cases. I had to hospitalise a horse for a few days for fairly intensive treatment which fortunately appears to have made a good recovery. There have also been a couple of horse operations at the practice this week. They’re generally quite interesting apart from the stress involved with having half a ton of horse asleep on the operating table!\nI had the weekend off and went to Edinburgh for a small reunion with friends I was at college with. Although we do talk about other things conversation inevitably came round to work. The effect of FMD and its consequences are still very much in people's minds. Friends all asked how it was last year and whether farms have restocked yet etc etc. It ‘s stuff which I seem to have said hundreds of times over the last few months, but people never seem to tire of asking it, and, to an extent, I don't seem to get bored of answering it. \n\nDiary 11\nThe week started with a big TB test at a restocking dairy farm. There were very good facilities and it subsequently went very smoothly and quickly despite the number of cows involved. The farmer seems to be quite positive about the new start and has been spared a lot of the problems that other people have experienced while restocking in terms of disease in the animals. Everything was clear when I read the test later in the week\nOn Wednesday afternoon I had a bit of a change as I went castrate two ponies belonging to my mother. She had bought two totally wild Fell ponies last autumn. They now a bit tamer, but not completely used to being handled yet. I went with one of our nurses and the senior partner, and it all went pretty much to plan. \nWork is still busy. There's one client in particular who is giving us a lot to do.  He restocked a few months ago and is obviously having trouble lambing his sheep. It got a bit trying when I had to get up to his third lambing of one night, but that's what we are there for I suppose! He's a nice man and always seems pleased to see us, which helps.\nI had the weekend off again and went to Glasgow to be best man at my cousin's wedding. Apart from the weather it went very well (I think) with no unsolvable problems! \n\nDiary 12\nStarted the week with a long visit for dairy fertility work to one of our big dairy farmers. It's one of the farmers who has been having problems after restocking and a visit that another vet usually does, so I felt a bit under pressure. It's the type of work, which is very routine but has the potential to go quite badly wrong. On the whole it went fairly well with no major problems. I get on pretty well with the farmer which always helps as it makes the time go by quicker.\nSmall animal work is still quite busy. I had two days inside this week doing small animals operations.  There wasn't anything particularly different or unusual, but it still helps to do more of it.\nOne of our farmers who managed to miss FMD is very busy with his calving schedule at the moment.  He’s tending to have very big calves, and subsequently we’re doing a lot of Caesareans there. This week has brought at least half-a-dozen, of which two were in the middle of the night - there have been a few vets are looking sleep deprived recently!  I had the weekend off and went so see a couple of friends in Edinburgh. We spent one day cycling in Peebles and then proceeded to nothing strenuous for the next!\n\nDiary 13\nThe week started with a big session dehorning cattle. It’s not exactly technical work and is fairly hard work – at least it gets me fit! We would normally do them at a younger age but quite a few have been missed as we didn’t get out onto farms for such routine work last year.\nOn the whole most people are fairly well caught up now that they’ve re-stocked/been having routine work done for the last 8 months or so, but there are still a few lagging behind.\nI had a call from a farmer who was one of our most consistently and vehemently anti-DEFRA people last year. I ended up doing a Caesarean and had quite a long chat with him. Conversation ended up coming round to the events of last year and he aired his resentments again. It was the first time in several weeks that I had heard this kind of talk, whereas a few months ago it would have been a daily occurrence. It wasn’t particularly aimed at me or the practice in particular but just frustration with the system as a whole.\nI went for a walk up Blencathra one evening during the week, but the highlight of the week has to be the start of the World Cup. I’ve been on duty this w/e but managed to see all but the last two minutes of this morning’s rather disappointing draw with Sweden. Most farmers are keen to watch the matches too, so lets hope not too many calls come in at the wrong time!\n\nDiary 14\nI had the bank holiday on Monday off, which was welcome, after a weekend on call. I went for a walk in the lakes with a colleague. Considering it was a bank holiday it wasn't too crowded. Had to work on Bank Holiday Tuesday though. It wasn't especially busy until the evening when I had to do a Caesarean on a cow and then go and see a badly cut horse. Both seem to be doing OK.\nThe rest of the week was worked as usual. Nothing particularly out of the ordinary happened with fairly routine calls. Perhaps it was because everyone was preoccupied with events in Japan and Korea? Or maybe that is just me. I was booked in for an 11 am call on Friday, but managed to persuade the farmer concerned that 9.30 would be more appropriate, said that I, (or should that be we?) could watch the second England game. We managed to get finished in time and it was well worth it. The 1-0 win over Argentina put everyone in a good mood for the rest of the day and the weekend.\nI was on first call over the weekend. Saturday morning was very busy and we didn’t get all the calls done until early afternoon. After that it was one of the quietest weekends I’ve had. They were a couple of things to do on Saturday afternoon - evening, but Sunday had no calls until after lunch - almost unheard of. I had to check my phone was switched on! Long may it last!\n\nDiary 15\nI’ve done two days in the practice doing small animals this week, more than usual. The weather has not been the best so it's no bad thing. I managed to go out on rounds on Wednesday though, so I managed to catch the third England match. Second round here we come!\nI spent most of Friday morning operating on two cows at one of our farms.  They both had a condition where part of the gut displaces in the abdomen, and is best repositioned surgically. The farmer observed that it was probably linked to FMD last year. Because of FMD he had to use more silage to keep his cows inside last summer. This meant he had less stored over the winter and so had none available to feed this spring/summer. The lack of silage now is almost certainly implicated in the problems his cows had. It's very unusual to have two occurring on one farm at same time. Seeing as he missed getting FMD last year though, he thought it was a price worth paying! It was actually quite a pleasant way to spend a morning - he's from Kirkby Stephen, where I went to school, and I didn't have any other jobs waiting, so it was quite a relaxed few hours. (the surgery went OK too!)\nI had a half-day on Friday and drove to valley just beyond Alston to meet one of my old flat mates from Edinburgh for his stag weekend. We stayed in an old barn in middle of nowhere, so it wasn't exactly a conventional stag party, but very enjoyable all the same. We walked to the nearest pub on Saturday to see England's exciting next instalment 3 - 0. Thank you very much. \nAfter that it's been a leisurely day and drive back to Penrith. And I’ve got another night to get my head back to normal for work tomorrow. \n\nDiary 16 \nThis week has been quite small animal orientated again. I've done two mornings in the surgery and more consulting than usual.\nI'm not meant to be on duty for nights this week but I've had a couple to cover for people who've been on holiday. Fortunately both nights were fairly quiet. I'm sure the favour will be returned sometime! During the day work has been fairly steady. We’re not quite as busy as last week, but there's enough to keep us going.\nThe practice like most of the country, tried to stop briefly while England were losing to Brazil. It's a bit disappointing - hopefully farmers and the rest of our clients won’t be too depressed about it all. It was good while it lasted!\nAt the weekend I went down to a place near Worcester for the wedding of the friend whose stag weekend it was the last week there were a lot of people from Edinburgh there why haven't seen for several years and it was great to catch up. The weather was very kind and stayed dry.\n\nDiary 18\nOn Monday I went to do a big tuberculosis and brucellosis test at of one our big dairy farms that had restocked few months ago. They’ve got several hundred cows and it took a lot longer than anticipated - I had to go back on Tuesday to finish the job off. They’re a friendly family so it wasn't really too much of a chore. There has been a more obvious change in them since FMD than for most of our clients who had the disease. They seem much quieter and less concerned about farming and life's problems in general now. Perhaps they think if they can get through 2001 then there’s nothing worth getting stressed about in comparison! \nWednesday was spent doing small animal work - made a change as on Thursday I went back to read the cows results for the TB test (all negative).\nOn Thursday night I drove down to stay with a college friend near Birmingham for the start of a long weekend. On Friday I carried on south to another friend in north Devon. She's working (another vet) in an area that was also severely affected by FMD. Cumbria was so badly hit that is sometimes easy to forget that other places had a bad time too. Thankfully work in Devon is more or less back to normal again.\nI spent the rest of the weekend in South Devon where my dad had his 60th birthday. We were lucky with the weather and had fine (ish) conditions to have a barbecue on the beach. I was off today (Monday) as well, and spent the day driving north. Too far to go for a weekend!\n\nDiary 19\nIt's been a short working week seeing as I had Monday off. I’ve also started a month back on the out of the hours of rota this week (it works a month on, a month off system) so nights and weekends have been, and will be, a bit busier.\nWork has generally been a bit quieter recently. This is fairly typical for the time of year, mainly because animals are outside and farmers are busy making hay and silage (rain permitting). We've had two vets off this week so although there have been fewer jobs in we are not left twiddling our thumbs. There has been the usual flow of a routine farm work along with horses and small animals, but nothing too taxing on the whole.\n I had a night on Thursday and went up St Sunday crag in the Lake District, with a couple of friends from Brampton.  It was further than I remembered it being - we didn't get down until it was almost dark. But apart from being unseasonably cold (surprise, surprise) it was a fine night.\nIt was duty this weekend. I was on first call on Friday night and had it very easy (no calls) until 12:45pm when another vet and I had to operate on a dog until three am. I checked it again at 5.30 and then had to go to calving at 6.45. Just as that was finished I was called to a badly cut horse, then some lame cows, and then to the bacon roll shop for breakfast!\nI was only on second call for the rest of the weekend and was fairly quiet. This meant I could get on with various mundane things like painting my house, tidying the garden etc etc - ideal tasks for when I can't do anything else because I'm on call. And the dog did well! So it makes the night with no sleep worthwhile\n\nDiary 20\nHave had another short week - had Monday off as I was coming back from a long weekend away. Work this week has been fairly steady. Farmers are often busy trying to get silage/hay in at the moment so routine of vet work takes a back seat. Having said that we have been kept at least as busy as we would expect with routine fertility visits and the occasional sick cow etc. There been a few of the restocking farms that have had some fairly unusual diseases that didn't obviously fall into the ones we usually recognise or deal with. As a lot of them have bought stock in from abroad we have to at least keep in mind the possibility of new problems been brought in. \nWe've worked quite closely with the local DEFRA-run Veterinary Investigation Centre on a few of these cases but thankfully none have turned out to be anything to be unduly worried about.\nI was on duty this weekend but have fortunately been reasonably quiet. The only thing out the ordinary was a horse that had torn its leg up quite badly on some wire, but with a bit of time and bandaging it should do okay.\n\nDiary 21\n2 vets have been off this week so it's been a bit busier for the rest of us. Again as with last week it's been a mixture of routine and the standard A&E type work. There have been a few tuberculin tests going on, still trying to clear the backlog from last year. It's getting there slowly but a lot of it will have to wait until the autumn/winter when the cows are in and the farmers have more time available. Our new vet who started in April has seemed to settle in very well. He had a bit of a bad day earlier in the week when a calving did go quite as planned. It's very easy to do, especially when you feel under pressure as is bound to happen when you start a new job. It reminded me of some of the problems I had a few years ago! The farm where it happened is quite an understanding type so it won't create any real problems.\nHockey training is starting again which seems a bit premature as the season is still months away. At least it'll encourage me to do a bit more exercise to get fit for matches. The weather has meant I haven't been out into the hills as often as I would have liked but hopefully there's still time for it to brighten up a bit!\nHad the weekend off - so a couple of friends from college he now living York came to stay. We went up to the borders for the day on Saturday, near to where I used to work - it doesn't seem to have changed much (I still think I'm better off down here despite last year!) \n\nDiary 22\nWe had a bit of a rush on this week, as sometimes seems to happen. It can be quiet for couple of weeks and then it suddenly it's crazy. It may be that a lot of farms have now largely got their crops in and are trying to catch up, or perhaps it's just the way things go. Several farms have had ongoing problems this week with visits being required several days running. There have also been a large number of horse calls. This is probably fairly common for this time of year as they tend to get ridden in the (supposedly) better weather. We tend to go further afield for horses - on Tuesday I went to Kirkby Lonsdale area in morning and had to go north of Carlisle in the afternoon the miles get racked up or fairly quickly and I get to learn where the\nvarious blind spots for phone and radio reception are!\nI was on duty again on the weekend which meant that I was also on for Monday, Wednesday and Friday nights. They weren't too bad apart from Friday when I have to go and see a couple of horses. Being on duty for three week nights tends to limit what I can do apart from work, but I managed to meet up with some friends working in Brampton one night and go for a walk in the lakes on Thursday. The weekend was fairly quiet, but I was only on second call so I found time to do some decorating in the room in my house which is the current project. (I lead such a thrilling life! ?!)\n\nDiary 23\nThe calm after the storm! After the frantic levels of work we saw last week it has again been a bit more civilised this week. We've had time to have coffee and lunch breaks and actually talk to colleagues from time to time. I wouldn't want have every week is quiet as this, but occasionally it's very welcome. It's quite relaxing to be able to go on a call knowing that there is not another one waiting. It also means that if the afternoons are quiet one of us can usually have a half day. I got the nod on Wednesday and went down to Kirkby Stephen to see my folks. They’ve got a smallholding down there with various creatures which usually have some ailment or other. It's a bit of a busman's holiday going there but it is nice having them close - I tend see them every week or two. On Wednesday I vaccinated a couple of horses and trimmed a few sheep’s feet. They went through the joys of 48 hourly surveillance inspections last year but somehow managed to come through unscathed - their parish was one of the only ones in the Kirkby Stephen area to do so.\nOther weekend I went up to Glasgow to see a cousin who was having a leaving party. I didn't know many people there but it was good to go and do something completely removed from the usual. One of the people I did know came and stayed in Penrith on Sunday night. It was a stunning day - we went the lakes which were at their best.\n\nDiary 24\nThis week was the first of four for me being off the rota, which (should) mean no nights and no weekends on call  - can't be bad!\nOn Monday had a small TB test to do. It was with a very pleasant farmer and the cows behaved themselves so it wasn't a bad way to spend a morning. He's imported a small herd from Holland and seems very pleased with them so far. It takes a bit time for the F & M farmers to get used to their new stock as most of them knew their old ones so well. But on the whole people seemed fairly content with their new ones.\nI did small animal ops on Tuesday and Wednesday as one of the vets who usually do it was on holiday.  We've got a new nurse starting this week so it was a case of showing her the ropes, but she seems to be doing very well.\nOne my best school friends got married on Friday. Very typically, after a fairly quiet week it suddenly got busy on Friday afternoon. I managed to get the wedding but had to miss the afternoon reception in order to go and see a horse in Appleby. That's life.\nI was one of the duty vets at Lowther show on Saturday. I hadn't done it before and had a very good time. It was generally fine weather and there were some truly stunning teams of horses in the driving event. Lots of competitors commented on how good it was to have the show up and running again after last year's cancellations. The event passed without any major incident for vet-wise, so it was a pretty calm day for me really\n\nDiary 25\nThe week's been fairly steady. I seem to have been doing more horses than anything else - I didn't go and see a cow until Friday. Several of them were ongoing cases such as leg wounds that have needed daily dressing changes and the rest a selection of vaccinations, lameness and those that aren't "quite right". I quite enjoy the horse side of the job so doing a bit more than usual has been a welcome change.\nI had planned to get to work on my house this month in my free evenings, but it doesn't really seem to have worked like that. When I know I've got a lot of free time nights tend to get booked up seeing people from home or near by who I’ve temporarily lost touch with. Also seeing as summer seems to have found us I've been trying to get into the lakes as much as possible – the house can wait till winter!\nThis weekend I’ve been down to Wales to see a group of college friends. We stayed in a cottage owned by one of the group's parents and played a few rounds of golf. I played very badly, lost a lot of balls, and became very frustrated with it all. I think it comes down to lack of talent. Still, it was good to catch up with some people I haven't seen since graduation. And I'm sure the golf will be better next year. \n\nDiary 26\nI've done (more) small animal work than anything else this week. There had been no disasters all fairly routine stuff. One of the small animal vets has been away so I had to cover a bit. I didn't actually get out onto a farm until Friday morning. It gets a bit claustrophobic inside after a while so it was good to get out. \nI was on call at the weekend and also had a college friend to stay. It was very quiet most of the time until Sunday evening. I had swapped duty to be off on the night from 6:00pm.  - at 5.45 four calls all came in at once at all four corners of the practice, so I didn't actually get finished until nearly 8pm . That’s the way it goes sometimes I suppose.\nI had another half day earlier in the week as it was fairly quiet. I took my bike out into the northern lakes for a few hours to blow away the cobwebs from being inside at work\n\nDiary 27\nI had a barbecue/party this weekend for people from work and a lot of friends from college. There were a lot of people I thought I'd always keep in touch with the but as time went on I never did, so I arranged a weekend a long way in advance for us all to meet up again. About 28 people came, most of whom I haven't seen for least a year or two. Nobody seems to have changed much and it was great to see them all again. The garden and house have both taken a bit of a pounding but I think most of the mess is fairly superficial!\nI went for a walk near Howtown today to clear my head after the barbecue last night. It was a very good day weather-wise which meant that a lot of people had had the same idea as us.\nIt's been a variable week at work - some days been very quiet, others flat out. I've had an ongoing case of a young horse that had been caught up in wire on Monday evening. It was well beyond the stage where it could have been stitched when I saw it, so it'll have to heal slowly by filling the wound in. I'm sure it'll be fine, but it's going to take a long time.\nWe’re starting to get a lot of inquiries about the new rules DEFRA are bringing in to allow farmers to bring animals on to their farms in isolation facilities. It should make things less restrictive for the farmer. We are going to have to do a lot of inspections. It's not since restocking checks last winter that we’ve really had to do this sort of thing, but the checks probably won't be as exhaustive as those we had to do last year\n\nDiary 28\nHad a fairly quiet week really. This been a fairly standard mix of sick cows, a couple of lame horses and the continuation of the young horse that wrecked its leg last week (which is going okay). So it's been fairly laid-back on the whole, with time for a coffee break after most calls!\nWe have done the first of the inspections for the new on-farm isolation facilities for sheep. On the whole farmer compliance has been very good. There have been a few whinges about why they have to do it, and I can see why as it must be frustrating to suddenly be told how to run stock movements that they've always done a different way. Most can see why DEFRA are insisting on it though as it's all aimed at reducing the risk of having another situation like we did last year.\nI was off again this weekend, one of my old flat mates and his wife came to stay. They live in London so came north for a weekend of clean-living and fresh-air! We went for walks around Cat Bells and High Street on Saturday and Sunday, ate drank and were generally fairly unstressed. Hope it was what they were looking for!\n\nDiary 29\nI've had a short week in terms of work at the practice this week as I've been to Glasgow for an Equine Conference from Thursday to Saturday. Further education is not compulsory and there is no formal structure for it (which is quite controversial in some people's eyes), but the Royal College of vets do encourage us to keep up-to-date. There is a quota we’re asked to fulfil each year and these three days will help me keep on track. There were several different courses on each day, with one lecture theatre for practitioner based subjects that we could expect to see on a day-to-day basis, and another called "advanced clinical sessions" on subjects and cases so obscure that you'd be lucky to hear of one, let alone see one, more than once or twice. (I didn't go to many of those lectures!).\nAs well as being useful in terms of picking up new information it was also a good chance to catch up with old friends from college. Lots of people I hadn't seen for a year or two were there and it was good to see them.\nThe first three days of the week were okay. I went out on Tuesday morning to trim some lame cows feet and ended up accidentally trimming some skin from the farmers thumb with my hoof knife. All a bit embarrassing and felt very bad but he didn't seem that fazed by it and he's not the type to bear a grudge. (perhaps I shouldn’t try to keep my knife so sharp )\nAnother of the week's more interesting events was an Irish Wolfhound that needed surgery to correct a twisted and distended stomach. It's fairly common in this type of dog and is a real emergency. Another vet and I operated on him on Tuesday afternoon. It took a couple of hours but (so far) is seems to have been worth it as he's done very well and apparently went home on Friday.\n\nDiary 30\nI spent most of Monday afternoon/evening irradiating myself by taking dozens of X-rays of a horse’s legs. It was being sold for a lot of money and the insurance company wanted to check all its joints were OK before insuring it. It took a lot longer than anticipated as it was difficult to get it positioned absolutely right for each view but we got there in the end. We have to be quite careful about exposure to X-rays but my X-ray badge hasn't shown a high reading yet!\n2 vets have been off this week (one on his honeymoon and one has been away doing AI on sheep) its often a bit quieter now but we seem to have been kept going. I did a big routine fertility visit to one of our dairy farms on Wednesday. One of the main things we do on these visits is manual pregnancy diagnosis. It's not too bad with dairy calves cows as if they're not in calf they would normally get another chance to do so, but with some beef farms or a dairy cow that is persistently not conceiving , it sometimes more economic to get rid of the cow of rather than persisting. So there's a big incentive for us to get it right, or at least not to say a cow isn't in calf when she is (luckily they were all quite straightforward this week)\nThis was my last before going away to the USA for a fortnight. I fly to New York tomorrow to meet up with an old flatmate of mine who's a journalist out there. I'm crossing the Atlantic to see him and he's given me directions to his flat rather than meeting me at the airport because I'm arriving when Premiership football is on TV. Charming.\n\nDiary 31\nTwo weeks in the States. Can't be bad. I flew into New York where I stayed with a friend who's working in Manhattan. I did a lot of the usual tourist things - Empire State Building, boat trip around the island, Central Park etc. For its size it's a very relaxed place in a lot of ways - it feels very safe and although there is loads going on you never seem to get hassled.\nWe flew to New Orleans for a week, supposedly for some sun in the Deep South, but landed just as a tropical storm hit the mainland. Everything was closed for two days (as bad as UK when it snows). Once the weather cleared it was fine and we again went about being tourists - paddle boat up the Mississippi River, out on a boat in the Louisiana swamps to look at alligators, and a bit of New Orleans nightlife.\nI had a few more days in New York before flying home. \n\nDiary 32\n First week back after America. Had a good trip, but the week has been rather marred by the death of one of the hockey team (and a year-mate of mine at school) in a tractor accident when he was hit by a wagon on the A 66 on Thursday. I saw him on Wednesday night at hockey training. He was very stiff having done the Great North Run with his wife the weekend before. I didn't know him very well at school but have got to over the last few years via hockey and he really was a tremendously good person and will be much missed by lots of people in and around Kirkby Stephen. The weekend's match was postponed as no one could have thought about playing - it all seems very trivial when this sort of thing happens. I couldn't have played anyway as I'm on duty this weekend, but fortunately it's been fairly quiet so far - a calving and 2 Caesareans, but it's getting into calving season so it's about par for the course.\nThe first half of the week was OK. I was even given a half-day on Tuesday - a day and a half after returning from holiday. I went for a walk at the bottom end of Derwent Water, and then tried to sleep off some jet lag.\n\nDiary 33\nI went to Matthew's funeral on Tuesday. How popular he was was reflected in the number of people there. We arrived 25 minutes before it was due to start and still had to stand, and had to move up as more people tried to fit into the chapel. It almost seemed as if all of Kirkby had come to a standstill. It went on quite a long time so I had the afternoon off and went to see my parents (who live near Kirkby) afterwards.\nWe cancelled hockey training on Wednesday as it seemed too soon to go on as usual, but decided play our Scheduled match on Saturday. Both our team and the opposition had two minute silence before the match. We ended up drawing 0 - 0, but it was a very good close game (we normally lose to this team), and played in a competitive but fair spirit. Just what was needed for our first match back. I'm actually on duty again this weekend but one my colleagues covered for me for a few hours so I could go to play.\nThe cases at work have been fairly steady this week. I'm going to enrol for a further qualification in Equine practice in the next week or two. I'm doing a reasonable amount of horse work at the moment, but will try to do a bit more over the next few months/years. It should motivate me to read up on cases more and find slightly more constructive ways to spend evenings on call!\n\nDiary 34\nTB testing! Our biggest beef herd had its post restocking test this week. About 600 cattle were to be done. There’s no way it could be done in one go so we did it over 3 instead (originally planned for two, but ran out of daylight). It all went smoothly on the whole (or at least as well as could be expected), and everything has been cleared as negative. I found out from DEFRA a few weeks ago that there have actually been quite a few TB cases in the county since restocking. As we'd been clear for years previously to FMD this is obviously a bit of a worry. We haven't had any cases in our practice but if we can't stamp out these new cases as they are found it’s only a matter of time before it spreads further afield. The more we get in the county also means there will have to be more testing. At the moment it's begrudgingly accepted by the farmers, but if we have to do more I can see them having a sense of humour failure over it. Ultimately it's in their interest for us to check that their herd is free, but it is a big time commitment and they don't get paid for it.\nWhile I spent two days testing the rest of the week had a bit more variety. I saw few horses, mainly lameness, but also one or two with other ailments. I have to write a casebook for the Equine certificate I'm doing I’m on the lookout for suitable cases during my rounds.\nI had the weekend off - played hockey in Manchester and then went to Worcester to see some college friends. I had to drive back via Ely (!) as the trains are cancelled due to the winds, which meant a friend was stranded. Not a very direct route to Cumbria. \n\nDiary 35\nThe week started on Monday morning with another TB test on a restocking farm. It's not a big farm and was one of the late ones to get FMD. It's run by a very nice but quite intense family. The son has taken re-stocking very seriously and has obviously thought of it very much as an opportunity to start from scratch and try to eliminate some of their previous herd problems. I have consequently spent quite a bit of time advising him over the various vaccines available and their relative pros and cons. Thankfully things seem to be paying off so far with few problems in herd. One of the things that I noticed during the test was that they made one or two jokes about last year (sorry - forgotten exactly what they said). I thought the fact that they were able to now talk about FMD like that had to be a good sign, as I think it would have been highly unlikely a year ago. \nOn Wednesday afternoon I went up to Wigton to vet a horse for a potential buyer. There were several minor things wrong with it but overall it seemed OK. It's always a responsibility vetting horses as someone is either trying to buy it or not on the basis of what I find. In this case it took quite a lot of convincing the buyer that the imperfections were not that serious. (Hopefully they won’t subsequently turn out to be a problem!)\nI've started doing more horse cases recently and on Tuesday sent off my application form to be accepted to do further exams in horse practice. I have to wait until next year to find out whether I've been accepted, and won't sit them until 2005. I was off this weekend and played hockey in Manchester. Unfortunately we didn't win. Maybe next week. Saturday evening I went down to Kendal to see an old flatmate who lives there.\n\nDiary 36\nOn Tuesday I went to see a horse near Carlisle. It had developed a swelling on its lower jaw that was fairly painful to touch. They were a few possibilities but the most likely was that it had at tooth root abscess. I put it on to antibiotics, but seeing as it had obviously been going on for a while, thought it was worth taking some X-rays. There was obvious destruction of the tooth visible on the X-ray, which probably means it needs removing. This is a fairly major undertaking on a horse and as it was a valuable creature still in training I thought it best to send to Edinburgh vet school to have it done. Hopefully I'll be able to go and see it done in a day or two's time.\nOne of the aspects (drawbacks? (not really!)) of being a vet his that one is often asked about animal ailments out of work. (I’m sure it happens a lot in other jobs too.) My mother is very adept at this not that I really mind. Her elderly terrier that we grew up with has started having one or two problems recently. I suggested a few possibilities but thought it best if she went to the local vets to have her looked at. The problem was she was so bad tempered (the terrier) that they couldn’t safely blood sample her, so she had a day out to Penrith so that I could try to take blood from her. I managed to more-or-less intact, and fortunately her results seemed more or less in order (or at least better than her temper).\nThe general work in the practice has been fairly steady this week. A few farmers seem to be having quite a few cows calving at the moment which is a bit unseasonal, but I suppose a reasonable number tend to calve all-year-round. We haven't really got into calf pneumonia season yet but it can't be long before they start to keep us busy. It will soon take over from lungworm as the main bovine respiratory problem.\nThe weekend was off again brought a victory in a hockey match. The start of a winning streak perhaps? I went up to Edinburgh after the match to see a few friends and for the start of a week off. Wahey!\n\nDiary 37\nIt's a week off - can't be bad. I didn't do what I had planned due to an unforeseen change in circumstances, but still good. As I was in Edinburgh last weekend I decided to stay up for few days. This was partly to see friends and also because I had referred the horse with a bad tooth that I mentioned last week. (voluntary work experience during time off - dedication or very rash?). I spent Tuesday at the vet School in Edinburgh with one of my old tutors. The case I had sent up was successfully treated (so far) by removing the offending tooth. It was very interesting to see how he did it as he used a different technique to the one we’ve used in the practice. I spent the rest of the day there with him seeing other cases. It felt a bit odd being there not as a student. I came home on Tuesday evening and went down to Kirkby Stephen to see my folks on Wednesday morning. I spent most of the rest of the week either at their house or mine doing things like stocking up on firewood for the winter, sorting my house out and making a start on stripping the wallpaper in my hallway. I normally go away when I take time off but it was actually very nice to do things at home for change. It made for quite a relaxing week on the whole!\n\n\nDiary 38\nBack to work. It was good to have a week off last week, but one of the best things about where I work and what I do is that I never seem to feel reluctant to go back to work. I think that must mean I enjoy it on the whole!\nOn Tuesday I went back to see the horse that had had its tooth removed last week. It's doing very well and is back in training. It was eating very well as soon as the tooth came out - it's amazing how animals often seem to deal with pain so stoically. I'll check it again next week and, all things being well, that should be it.\nOn Tuesday afternoon I happened to see another slightly unusual case in a horse. It had developed a lump on the outside of its cheek which on closer inspection turned out to be a large mass (man?) inside its mouth. It's probably going to have to be removed and should come in next week for it to be done.\nThe rest of the week was the usual mix of more routine cases. Have been on to more farms this week than I have done for a while. We recently took on a new dairy farm near Appleby and I went to see a cow there for the first time. On a first visit you always hope for something straightforward so that it's easy to make a good first impression. On this occasion the cow was very sick and wasn't really giving me many clues as to why. All I could do was treat it for the symptoms it was showing. I saw it twice on Friday and again on Saturday and by evening it was on the mend. I never did reach a conclusive diagnosis but I think the farmer was satisfied by the fact that it had got better in spite of not knowing quite what was wrong!\nI was on duty Friday night (very quiet) and on Saturday. Apart from the cow I mentioned it was fairly easy going. Today I went down to Kirkby Stephen to see some old friends staying with my parents.\n(two weeks with no TB testing!! (it'll change next week!)).\n\n\nDiary 39\nIt's been a fairly uneventful week at work. There don't seem to have been any particularly on-going or notable cases. In some ways it's not a bad thing as it makes for a fairly stress-free time. It's not that you can really switch off but it does mean that when there are a few fairly straightforward cases to see it's possible to spend more time chatting to the farmer/owner without having to work too hard finding what's wrong with the patient.\nThis week's most interesting case was a horse with amazingly extensive arthritis in its hind legs considering its age. It's not a terminal condition but it does have implications as to what it will be possible to use it for in future. In situations like that it can be quite difficult to give the client the right outlook. They often expect a quick cure, especially in a young horse and to tell them that a problem has been present for months, if not years, and will never completely go away can come as a bit of shock. The owner in this case was very sensible and seemed to taking what was said very well.\nThe other good thing about this week is that I'm having a very good run with my duties - I've been on for two nights on first call and the phone hasn't gone once - very unusual and very welcome! (this must be tempting fate...)\nI've had the weekend off - there was a hockey match on Saturday when we lost to the league leaders but avoided humiliation. The rest of the two days was spent trying to progress with decorating the hallway before friends come to stay over Christmas and New Year. Am I not too young to be spending weekends off decorating??! \n\nDiary 40\nI had a good test of my diplomacy skills this week with an irate farmer. I had spent four hours doing a TB test on a very cold day when it should have taken about one-and-a-half hours. In my rush to get defrosted in my car afterwards I forgot to shut the gate in the field where I had parked. On my return to the surgery I was greeted by the news that he had rung wanting my head on a stick and forbidding me from ever setting foot on his farm again as all his tups had gone walkabout through the gate I'd left open. On advice from the partners at the practice who knew him better I gave him a day to calm down and then wrote a very grovelling letter! I was allowed to go back at the end of the week to read the test results (which fortunately was all clear). I think he's forgiven me.\nOne of the more common cow operations we do is to correct a displaced stomach. In the two and a half years I've been at the practice we’ve always done it using one particular technique. There are circumstances where another method is indicated and having not seen them for 2½   years, there were 2 this week. They both went well (so far). Another two years before the next?\nI took my last day off for 2002 on Thursday and again spent it decorating. On Thursday night we had our Practice Christmas meal. The two vets on duty managed not to get called out and on the whole I think people weren't too hung over on Friday. Last year there was a bit of a debate as to whether we should have a Christmas night out as most farmers were either just starting to restock or still cleaning out. This year it was much more straightforward.\nOn Friday night it was the annual night at Hesket Newmarket organised by the local DEFRA lab for any local vets that want a meal and beers. It's a good chance to catch up with other vets from neighbouring practices in (very) informal atmosphere.\n\nDiary 41\nI've had a couple of vet students staying with me this week who I knew when I was in my final year at Edinburgh. They're doing work experience with us for a week or so. It's made a pleasant change to have some company for a while. I have also acquired two stray kittens in the last week - the usual vet procedure of eventually finding an unwanted patient that you can't resist taking yourself. They are settling in ok and we’ve only had to have one or two little discussions about the benefits of using a litter tray rather than the carpet.\nThe week at work has been reasonably busy - a good thing this week as there have been three students and it's a bit dull for them if there is nothing going on. We had a horse in for most of the week with a severe respiratory infection.  It’s needed fairly intensive care but seems to be on the mend now. I may use it as a case to write up as part of the exam I'm hoping to do in a few years. It'll have to be a New Year's resolution to get on with the writing up part of it.\nApart from a horse it's been the usual sort of mix - a few routine fertility visits to dairy farms, a few sick cows and horses etc. There been some TB tests this week but I've managed to miss them all - must be saving some for me next year.\nI had a lot of people from work here on Friday night for pre-Christmas mulled wine and mince pies. I'm not quite sure the kittens knew what was happening but I think the rest of us enjoyed it!\nI've had the weekend off and went down to see a friend in Birmingham who qualified last summer. This was her second weekend on call so I went to give moral support. Being on call isn't stressful anymore but I remember for the first few times it's difficult not to be aware of the phone all the time and hoping it doesn't ring. There weren't many calls and those that did come in she didn't need me for - suited me well.\n\nDiary 42\nThe week of Christmas and my first job of the week was to replace a particularly contaminated uterine prolapse in a cow. It finally went back in after an hour or so of fairly fruitless efforts. Very festive. This week and next we had fewer vets than usual working each day as we all have a few days off for Christmas/New year so it‘s sometimes a bit busy during the day. It's generally worth it for the extra time off.\nI was off on Monday night and went to Kirkby-Stephen to see school friends back for the holiday. Although we don't see each other very often any more people don't really seem to change very much. A good friend whose parents farm had F and M have sold up and are going into B&B instead. I think it was a hard decision but now they seen to be quite relieved to be out of it.\nI was on duty on Christmas Eve and fortunately didn't have to go out - I just had three phone calls between 7 and 9 p m. from people saying their dog or cat had been off food for periods varying from three weeks to 10 days. Christmas Eve seemed an odd time to notice this.\nI went home to Kirkby Stephen for Christmas and Boxing Day and didn't really do very much. I had a look at a couple of Mum’s sheep but other than that it was just a case of being lazy and enjoying seasonal food and drink.\nI was on duty this weekend, which turned out, be fairly busy. One of the students who came to stay last week came back to do some on-call work which turned out to be very useful. A couple of cows to operate on (as Caesar and a displaced stomach) where two pairs of hands are better than one and quite a few small animals to see to.\n\nDiary 43\nI've had most of this week off for New Year (Tuesday to Friday) which is pretty good going seen as I was off for Christmas as well. Monday was fairly quiet with just a few farm calls to do and some small animals. Rather worryingly we've heard that a local deer farm (not one of our customers) has gone down with TB, apparently with quite a few deer in the herd having it. This means that we'll have to do TB check tests on any of our farms that neighbour the affected premises.\nOver New Year my cousin, her husband and their five (!) children (young) came to stay. It wasn't too hectic on the whole, with just the occasional loss of humour. A couple of friends from work came round to join us for New Year itself.\nI've had to work this weekend (part of the deal for getting four days off midweek) but it's not really been that busy. I've only been on second call and have only had to do 2 calls so far - an easy return to work after New Year excesses!\n\nDiary 44\nBack to normal quota of vets at work again this week, which is good as it seems to have been very busy. Most of it has been the usual sort of things for the time of year - cows starting to get lame after having been inside for a few months and metabolic problems, probably related to the poor silage last year's summer rain created. Quite a few farmers have a large amount of 2001 silage left as it wasn't used over winter 2001/2002 as they hadn't restocked. On the whole it's kept very well and in many cases is better than the crop they made last summer.\nThe fall-out from the deer herd TB has arrived. Two neighbouring farms to test this week. The first one has come back negative to the relief of all concerned. I did the second one on Friday and will read it tomorrow (Monday). The farmers there are all very concerned about it which is understandable but hopefully groundless. There are lots of questions being asked along the lines of "what if….” some of which I can answer and some not. It does remind me a bit of February 2001 when FMD broke out and there were all sorts of queries about the disease, its progression etc that none of  (us?) really knew about. It didn't take long for us to know the answers to most of them.\nI've had this weekend off - a hockey fixture list has started again after the Christmas break. A return to winning ways - hopefully to continue…\n\nDiary 45\nThe week had a bad start - the TB test I did last Friday produced two reactors and two inconclusive (borderline) reactors this means that the farm isn't allowed to move at any bovines on or off the farm except directly to slaughter under licence. The reactors are taken away for post-mortem examination and the inconclusive reactors are isolated for 60 days until the rest of the herd is re-tested. The farmer was very keen to get the inconclusive animals removed as well (quite understandably in my opinion) so that they couldn't pose a threat to the rest of his herd. Apparently DEFRA aren't allowed to do this, I think largely due to financial reasons. While fully appreciating the need to protect taxpayers' money, considering how much was spent in 2001 I think this a potentially flawed argument. Perhaps the rules need to be changed? But then again I'm not an epidemiologist and perhaps they don't actually pose a threat.\nThe farmer seemed very depressed by it all. I think a lot of it is the feeling of having the stigma of being a farm under DEFRA restrictions again. He was also very aware of the threat he was to his neighbours and was desperately keen to minimise it. It's actually quite small while the cows are still indoors but I think people are still very much thinking of how serious it was for neighbours if someone got FMD. TB is a very different type of organism and it’s a question of getting people to understand this (which isn't to say it's not a very serious problem).\nOn the same day another farm in the area (not ours) was confirmed with TB so it's definitely progressing in Cumbria - depressing. All we can do is follow DEFRA instructions on testing and try to keep on top of it.\nOne of my colleagues tore a knee ligament last week while skiing. He normally does mostly large animal calls. Seeing as he's now confined to the practice doing small animals I've taken over couple of the farms he does routine fertility visits for. It makes a change to spend time on farms I don't visit often (although I hear the small animal nurses are quite keen for Matt to get back to doing them!) \n\nDiary 46\nOne of our dairy farmers has had a big outbreak of pneumonia in his calves this week - I've been to the farm at least once every day this week. The tests we've done are usually pretty sensitive but have failed to reveal any of the usual causes. Treatment seems to have been working in some cases but not in others. He hasn't lost any (i e none dead) but the loss in body weight is very obvious. It's all been a bit frustrating really. He's a very pleasant guy and hasn't said anything but when treatments repeatedly fail to get expected (and predicted) results I can't help feeling that he must be getting a bit sceptical about it. Or perhaps I'm just being paranoid! By the end of the week the majority seem to be on the mend but seeing as we haven't tracked down the causative agent it's hard to know what vaccination to recommend next year. There are some more tests that will come back in two weeks which may be more revealing.\nIn midweek I did one of the fairly common operations to correct a twisted stomach in a cow. Surprisingly it was the first time this dairy farmer had had one done and he took some convincing that it was a good idea. Having persuaded someone to pay for a procedure I always feel under a bit more pressure than usual. Fortunately it went pretty well and the cow is, so far, doing well.\nI was on second call this weekend, which turned out to be pretty quiet. I think we must be in a lull before lambing really kicks in - let's enjoy it while it lasts!\n\nDiary 47\nAfter not doing any testing last week it was my turn again this week. It wasn't a big one (only about 30 cows) but it was a bit more risky than usual as it was a herd of Beef Longhorns. And they do have long horns! Whilst trying to manoeuvre them into a crush to inject their necks with tuberculin we always had to be ready to take evasive action if they made a sudden turn. I don't think they ever tried to use their horns aggressively but they were so big that they become dangerous weapons when they were just moving normally. As it turned out no one received any injuries and, very importantly, the test was negative.\nThis week also brought my first lambing of the year. Other people have done a few but this was my first. We have a couple of farms who lamb early for the early lamb sales - it seems very hard work at this time of year - but the early prices do seem to make it worthwhile. Give it another week or two and a sure they’ll start to become more frequent.\nI took Friday off as I had to get to London for 4 pm. to get on the Eurostar to go skiing. Typically the one day of the year that the country ground to halt was Thursday night/Friday. We managed to make it to Waterloo station only to find the station in chaos as all Eurostars had been cancelled due to snow in France (at least it's not just Britain that can’t cope with it!) after being assured that none would run for 24 hours they suddenly told us to board, only 1½  hours late - very pleasant surprise. We ended up arriving in Val d'Isere on time, with loads of snow and blue skies. I tried to spare a thought for whoever was on call at weekend. I managed it (just).\n\nDiary 48\nAfter the weather almost prevented us from reaching Val d’Isere it was very clear for the first few days but then the snow returned for three days. We couldn't do much during that time but it did mean that there were fantastic conditions for the last few days. We had a group of 29 and completely filled one large chalet. There were, for once, no major skiing injuries within the group and I think a good time was had by all. \n\nDiary 49\nBack to work this week. I’m never reluctant to go back after a week off and sometimes, dare I say it, even look forward to it - must be a good sign?\nApparently last week was OK at work with no major dramas. We still haven't found any more TB cases but the screening continues all the time. One of the rules for re-stocking herds compared to herds that missed FMD is that all bovines over 42 days old have to be tested rather than just the adults. Last year when there weren't many calves around this didn't make much difference, but now most farms have at least a year's worth of calves in place it doubles the size of most tests. Often calves won't fit in crushes and are very wild so it can get quite exciting. It seems a necessary policy though - one of the reactors I found a few weeks ago was a six-month old stirk.\nI've had a fairly quiet week. I've had a couple of nights on duty which were both quiet. There's a horse near Carlisle that I think I've mentioned before with a recurrent tooth problem. We thought we'd finally sorted that but this week she developed a problem with one of the tendons on her foreleg. It's a bit disappointing for her owner as she only bought the horse recently in order to compete to a very high standard and she seems to () permanently off training with one ailment or another. I don't think it's too serious so hopefully in another week or two she'll be back to work.\nI've been off this weekend - came second in the weekend’s hockey match. A real case of defeat been snatched from the jaws of victory. I went for a walk around the Great Gable/Scafell area on Sunday afternoon - it was amazing how much snow and ice was still left over from winter weather a week or so ago. Maybe I needn't have bothered going abroad.\n\nDiary 50\nI found another positive TB case on Friday. I did the test on Tuesday on a very large beef herd on a restocking farm. Including calves they must have been just over 400 cattle to do. There was one reactor on Friday and two inconclusives. There is a possibility that it is a false positive - the farm has been having big problems with something called at Johne’s disease which is caused by a similar type of bacterium to the one that causes TB. There is a small possibility of a cow carrying Johne’s disease cross-reacting with the TB test injection. I actually blood sampled all the adult cows on Tuesday to screen the herd for Johne’s in order to try to start eradicating it from herd. It'll be interesting to see whether the positive test cow will be positive for Johne’s. Ultimately it doesn't really make much difference in the short term - the farm’s been placed under restrictions and the affected cow has been taken off for post mortem. One of my colleagues found another positive reactor on a different farm on Friday as well - that's three farms in the practice now and around 50 - 60 within Cumbria. The big worry now this is that the longer it stays around the more likely (inevitable?) it is disease will get into wildlife reservoirs - deer, and perhaps badgers depending on whether you believe that badgers are an influence or not. Time will tell, but I'm sure it's going to keep us busy for several years if not a lot more.\nI did a test on Monday as well on a small farm that I've never been to before - at least testing is one way of getting on to small farms who don't often need us. This one was all clear.\nThe remainder of the week was spent doing more usual work. Lambing’s still not quite got into full swing although we are seeing a slow increase in the number of sheep been brought to the surgery.\n\nDiary 51\nNo TB testing for me this week and no more positive cases in the practice. The first case that I found back in January was confirmed as carrying TB this week though. Although it's bad news for the farmer it is quite reassuring to know that the tests and methods we use do detect carrier animals reasonably accurately.\nThis week has been fairly busy without ever getting too hectic. I operated on a cow on Tuesday which for a number of reasons didn't go quite as smoothly as it might have done. It subsequently didn't do as well post-operatively as we would normally expect. The coming week should see an improvement (I hope). We can never give cast iron guarantees about the outcome of surgery but it is quite rare for this Op to fail, so fingers crossed for Monday. I had to see a horse with colic earlier in the week which on my first visit to I was very suspicious that it was going to require surgery to correct. The owner wasn't prepared for that happen though so it was a question of trying to manage it medically or euthanizing it. It wasn't in undue pain so we gave it a go medically, and much to my (pleasant) surprise over the next few hours and visits he did very well. (just goes to show we are not all-knowing!!!) It would have been interesting to know whether it was a surgical condition which somehow righted itself or whether it was a medical case all along which simply appeared as something more serious. I had to work for an hour or so on Saturday morning doing small animal consultations and then had the rest of the weekend off. We came second in a hockey match again and then I went up to Edinburgh to catch up with some college friends who haven't seen for a while.\n\nDiary 52\nThis week has really seen the start of the lambing season. The sheep every day or every other day that we've been seeing for the last month or so has turned into one every few hours during the day (and during the night in some cases). It’s encouraging that farmers are still bringing them in/calling us out as many feel that sheep aren't worth paying vet fees for. This obviously creates a welfare problem in many situations as inappropriate and inadequate treatment is sometimes provided by the farmer. Having said that I can see why some take the attitude of not spending money on them as prices are often so low.\nThe other aspect of lambing time is that nights get very busy - on Monday I had a ewe caesarean at 2am, then a horse that had just foaled at 3.15.\nI had an hour or so in bed and then a sick cow at 6.20. Although it can be a bit tiring, on the whole cases we see out of hours are not the run-of-the-mill routine things so it does at least make it interesting (which isn't always the first thing on my mind when the phone rings at 3am!)\nUnfortunately the cow I operated on last week failed to improve and I had to re operate on Monday. This is far from ideal as it carries a much higher risk of infection than first-time operation. Somewhat to my surprise it seems to be doing very well now. Cows seem to be amazingly resilient if I'd had abdominal surgery twice in a mucky cow byre I'm sure I wouldn't cope as well.\nI did the same Op on a different farm later in the week which went much better. I’d be getting worried about my technique if two in a row went wrong.\nI've worked Saturday morning again supposedly just for an hour but it turned into about two-and-a-half as things kept coming in. I went up to Edinburgh again after hockey (came second again) to see someone who's left his job to go around the world for six months.\n\nDiary 54\nThe beginning of the week saw a visit to a horse, which had a chronic episode of laminitis (a hoof condition). In this horse's case it had become very severe and really beyond the point where treatment is feasible. Euthanasia was the best option for the horse as it was in a lot of pain. Unfortunately the owner was very reluctant for this and wanted to carry on with treatment. This sort of situation does crop up from time to time and is difficult for all concerned. In the end I told the owners what I thought the chances of recovery were and let them make their decision, which was to continue treatment. Hopefully I'll be proved wrong and the horse will recover, but I can't really see it happening. I saw another case later in the week which ended up going to Liverpool University for surgery. It was a small pony that had managed to cut itself very severely on barbed-wire (horses always find something to injure themselves on). There was a risk that it had penetrated a joint so I sent it to Liverpool to be flushed. As far as I know it's doing very well so far.\nThe rest of the workload this week has been the usual stuff for the time of year. Loads of lambing, a few TB tests (negative!) - generally kept busy.\nOn Friday I went to Edinburgh for a few days course on Equine neurology. I knew most of the speakers (and some delegates) from when I was a student there - it was good to see people again (and I learnt a few things about horses brains and nerves!)\nSaturday was our last hockey match of the season - a draw. We didn't win the league by any stretch of the imagination (but we weren't last either!)\n\nDiary 55\nAnother manic spring week goes by. I've been on duty this weekend and the two of us on call have done as many calls in the last two days has eight vets would expect to do in two week days in the summer. We haven't been bored!\nI didn't leave the practice building until lunchtime on Saturday as there was a constant flow of small animals to see to and a few sheep brought in with lambing problems. I eventually left at 1.30 p m. to go to operate on a cow with a twisted stomach that was meant to be done at 11 am. The Op went a OK but it was then straight back to the surgery to do a caesarean on a whelping bitch with the help of a student who is seeing practice with us. Between then and 9 pm. It was a variety of sick cows, sheep to lamb and a calf with lead poisoning at the far end of Ullswater (would have been a very nice drive out if it hadn't been for the rush!). To top things off I had a cow caesarean at 9 pm.  It was very useful having a student to help all day - I think it was a bit of an eye opener for her!\nSunday morning gave me to more Caesareans (sheep this time - variety is the spice of life), a cat who had very mysteriously lost a leg overnight (perhaps caught in a trap?) but was in incredibly good health otherwise - it's amazing what animals can withstand - and a good supply of other calls to keep me out of mischief. It has actually been quite enjoyable despite being so hectic, and (I think) most of the cases have been quite successful which always helps.\nThe rest of the week seems a distant memory but on the whole it was more of the same, but at a slower pace! I did another small TB test which was negative. Anyway a night off tonight - I need a pint!!\n\nDiary 56\nMonday morning was the 60 day re-test for the first herd that I found TB in. It was a sunny day and on the whole the test went very smoothly. The farmer's buildings are getting very overcrowded though, as he is under a movement restriction due to the TB. First day started well as all the animals were giving negative readings, but then came the dreaded reaction to the injections we gave on the first day. There were four reactors in total; three of which were borderline and the other was very very obvious. The frustrating thing is that the obvious one was a borderline reactor last time but DEFRA refused to take it as it isn't in their policy to take inconclusive reactors found on a routine test. This means that an animal that is actually infected his left on premises to potentially infect other animals. The farmer had tried to point this out two months ago to no avail. He is now vindicated in his view, not that that is much consolation for the fact that his restrictions are to be continued and he may well (probably will in fact) now have more carriers which won't be found until the next Test in 60 days' time. The reason for not initially taking inconclusive reactors is to save money by not paying for the animals to be slaughtered that aren't actually infected. In cases like this it seems to be a real false economy and doesn't win DEFRA \nfriends in the farming community.\nTuesday and Wednesday this week were mainly horse jobs. A horse with a recurrent tooth problem that I've mentioned before came in for more X-rays and finally seems to be doing OK. Its competing in Germany in a week or two so I do hope it stays OK! This weekend I went for a walk in the lakes with one of my old flatmates from Edinburgh. The weather held and was amazingly hot for the time of year - almost got sunburnt.\n\nDiary 57\nI've had a final year student from Edinburgh staying with me this week while she's seeing practice with us. Final exams are looming and I think the stress levels are rising. It's very easy to think of all the things you don't know but I think we've more or less managed to convince her that she does know enough not to be a liability when she qualifies!\nShe saw an interesting incident on a call we did early in the week. I'd gone to replace a uterine prolapse in a cow, which went okay, but the farmer then asked me to falsely certify a cow. We can give certificates to cows over 30 months of age under the BSE scheme, for which farmers are compensated. This cow had to be put down, but wasn't 30 months for another four days. He was understandably "quite upset" about this and let me know! It’s this sort of thing that is a nightmare for anyone but especially someone just starting - you want to please the farmer and make a good impression, but you also have responsibility to not abuse your ability to use your signature. In the end I explained why he couldn't have a certificate and he did calm down. I'm sure Vicky will have similar situations before too long - diplomatic, as well as clinical, skills develop very quickly once in practice!\nAnother interesting case came in on Thursday - a year old foal needed emergency surgery on a hernia. As luck would have it it was our first relatively quiet morning for a few weeks so we had enough vets on hand to do the surgery and anaesthetic. The Op went well and the horse has gone home this weekend.\nI've been on second call this weekend and things have been busy but not unmanageable. I did 2 Belgian Blue Caesareans in the space of six hours on one farm yesterday but since then it's just been a reasonable stream of calls rather than the madness of two weekends ago.\n\nDiary 58\nFollowing my going up on a course on neurology a few weeks ago a case came up this week. It's not often that we see neurological cases so it's quite a coincidence. I think it must have some kind of tumour in its brain causing it to show the various signs it has. Unfortunately the only way to firmly diagnose this is by post mortem, which is how most neurological cases end up and, alas, I fear this one will too.\nI went to do a fertility check at one of our dairy farms on Tuesday. The vet he normally has was away and he looked a bit put out when I turned up. I think (hope) I managed not to abort any of his cows and he seemed very cheery by the time I left. I suppose it's understandable that farmers tend to want continuity with which vet comes. Work continues to be very busy. An indication in the increase in daily workload is that we've had to introduce a specific messages book at work as there's no longer room to write people messages in the day book as it so full with appointments. They used to be a few days in the year when both pages of the day book were full (the first day of FMD in Penrith had one call) but this week 4 days have been full. It's got to be a good sign really and as I think I've said before, it does stop us all from getting bored!\nI've had three days off over Easter (Friday - Sunday) and two friends and their two mad dogs have been to stay (my cats were not impressed). On Good Friday we went up Plaice Fell. I accidentally brought us down a much more direct route than I intended so we had to while away some time in the garden of the Patterdale Hotel. Life's hard! Yesterday we left the bank holiday crowds in the lakes and went for a walk in the Eden Valley - didn't see a soul. It's amazing the difference a few miles can make. I suppose it hasn't got the hills and isn't as famous, but the scenery is still pretty impressive. But let's not tell anyone and then it might stay quiet on bank holidays….\n\nDiary 59\nI was on duty on Easter Monday but it wasn't too hectic - in fact it was almost unbelievably quiet. There were three of us on duty bracing ourselves for the usual spring onslaught and we only had about two calls each to do all morning. Weird how it sometimes turns out like that. Lambing is definitely quietening down now. The 5-10 lambings coming in each day is turning into 2-3. It's mostly fell sheep lambing now which tend to be easier to lamb so few are in need our/farmer’s assistance.\nIt's starting to get into the horse castration season. We've had the odd one or two over the last few weeks but have had about five this week one of my colleagues, who is next up from me in terms of experience, and I have started doing them together whereas a few years ago after it would always have been at least one of the partners and one of us. We must be improving!\nTB testing seems to have calmed down a bit too. As a practice we’re pretty much up to date with it and as farmers start to turn their cows out they'll become more reluctant to do it. With the way it’s spreading in the county though we have to try to keep up-to-date with it or it really is going to get out of hand.\nI've had this weekend off. It was my sister's birthday yesterday so I went to meet her and my folks for lunch. We sat outside and enjoyed the April sun - very nice it was too. Farmers are all wanting rain (you don't hear that often in April) but the sun suits me fine. What are the odds on it bucketing down in June during silage time??!\n\nDiary 60\nOne of our big dairy farms had had a big outbreak of IBR this week, one of the main respiratory viruses. On the whole it doesn’t cause death and is normally containable. On this occasion however it seems to have been a virulent strain and has caused a number of deaths and a great deal of lost production in terms of lost milk and calves not thriving. Towards the end of the week I went and shot three cows which were terminally affected. Seeing three dead and bleeding cows in the yard obviously reminded the farmer (and me) of when he had the whole herd shot in the same place for FMD, and he had then moved out of sight very quickly. I think the worst of the outbreak is over now and all the cows have been vaccinated.\nThere's only one vet more junior/qualified for less time than me in the practice who started a year or so ago. This week we went to do a colt castrate together - one surgeon, one as anaesthetist - for the first time. We've both done a lot with other vets but this was the first time we've been let loose as a pair. Everything went very smoothly so it looks as though our boss's confidence/Trust wasn't totally misplaced. On Friday morning I had a big dehorning session for one of our beef farmers. It's fairly non-cerebral type work but is OK for a change every now and then. And the farmer is a pretty amenable sort of guy (more than could be said for the weather) so it was a fairly laid-back morning's work. I had the afternoon off and drove up to Edinburgh where there was a bit of a reunion for recent graduates from the vet college. There were a lot of people haven't seen for a long time and it was interesting to compare notes on what we were all up to.\n\nDiary 61\nAfter last weekend in Edinburgh I had to come back to work on bank Holiday Monday. It was fairly manageable on the whole. There were three of us on duty in the morning when the work was steady without ever getting too hectic. I was on first call after 1pm when the surgery closed and it remained fairly quiet until the evening when there was a sudden run of calls, but they came in one after the other rather than building up too much.\nOn Tuesday I did the 60 day re-test of the second herd of cattle that I had previously found a reactor in. It’s a big herd and it took all day to get it done. They’ve been a bit unfortunate and brought in several other diseases apart from the suspected TB, when they re-stocked. One of these, an enteric condition called Johnes disease, is a chronic wasting problem and is notoriously difficult to eradicate. It’ll take years  of blood-testing and careful record-keeping to get rid of it.\nIt’s frustrating for them as all the planning for the post-FMD period has been disrupted. The TB test showed up no reactors this time but 3 cows were inconclusive results and will have to be re-tested. This is almost certainly as a result of the cows carrying antibodies to avian TB which causes no signs of disease in cows but disrupts the bovine TB test. It’s a good example of why we badly need a more specific method for testing for TB. It’s being worked on at the moment and hopefully we’ll get one one day.\nThe senior partner at work is supervising another vet who is doing the same equine qualification that I’m enrolled for. On Wednesday he came to spend a day with Neil to do some equine anaesthetics. They were mainly castrates so I operated while Neil went through the anaesthetics with his student. It was very useful to hear it all in detail again – it’s all too easy to get into the habit of knowing which drugs work at what dosages and not actually really thinking about why they work or why they’re better than other drugs we could use. A useful day but it has made me realise I’ve got a lot to do over the next few years!\n\nDiary 62\nThings are still remaining very busy at work, lambing has pretty much finished now but the work doesn't seem to be easing. The partners have decided we need another vet to help things along - a final-year student from Edinburgh came for an interview this week and it looks as though he'll get the job. It will mean that the rota will improve and hopefully will not be quite as hectic when he starts.\nFollowing the fantastically dry spring it's now too wet for the farmers and they are tearing their hair out about how the first cut of silage is going to be gathered in dry. Hopefully we'll get a dry spell again soon to ease their worries.\nI found a potential case to write up for my Equine casebook this week. It's a mare that managed to get caught up in wire and tear a big hole in the shin of her lower leg. It's too big a defect to stitch so it'll have to heal with a lot of bandaging and perhaps some skin grafts. It always amazes me how horses managed to give themselves the most horrendous injuries been fields where there really doesn't seem to be any opportunity for it. Clumsiness perhaps? Maybe they just enjoy pain (I doubt it).\nWe're doing quite a bit of scanning of mares for pregnancy at the moment. It's another thing that I've been doing more of this year than in the past. It's a bit daunting at times but as with a lot of things it's really a case of practising it as much as possible. By the end of the stud season it’ll hopefully be fairly straightforward.\nI drove down to Oxford on Friday evening after work to see my sister/cousins/ friends who live down there. It seemed a longish drive but it was well worth it to catch up with them all. One of the things about working weekends is that it makes weekends off that much more appreciated\n\nDiary 63\nAfter a very pleasant weekend off I had a truly delightful first job on Monday morning. A cow had been losing weight for the last month also - the reason I found was that it had a very dead calf inside which I then spent the first hour of the week pulling out bone by bone. It was a fairly revolting job but wasn't actually something that I especially resented doing. Must mean I'm happy in my work. Or perhaps just a bit weird?\nI had another fairly grim job later in the week when I was called out at 4 a m. to a foaling. The foal was stuck half out and was dead by the time I got there. I eventually managed to get the foal out and initially the mare seemed OK but deteriorated over the next 48 hours and eventually had to be euthanased. That’s just the way it goes sometimes.\nA more successful case came later in the week when I saw a foal that was acutely lame. It looked at first as though it might have an infected elbow but after taking samples of the joint fluid and some X-rays it looked as though it was actually a traumatic injury. It stayed it in the hospital for four days during which time it seemed to improve quite a bit. It's a thoroughbred from a good racing line - hopefully with a rest it’ll make a full recovery and win the Grand National in 2008.\nI had the whole of the Bank Holiday weekend off. Six college friends came to stay for a weekend of Cumbrian fresh-air. After a pretty gloomy forecast the weather turned out very well and we all went for a Lake District walk each day and had a pretty relaxed time. Except for my cats - four dogs also came to stay, which didn't impress the cats who spent the whole time hiding in my room.\n\nDiary 64\nThis week started with a TB test for a small re-stocking herd. He had bought some cattle from a farm that subsequently tested positive for TB. One of the cattle from that farm had then tested positive on his farm so this week's test was a 60 day re-test. It was an all-clear this time which was obviously a relief for them. Seeing as there was a positive on the farm last time they probably have to have another test in 60 days from now before restrictions are lifted. This farm isn't very big so being under TB restrictions is awkward but not as crippling as it is the larger farms. There is no room for relaxing the rules at the moment though. The recent news from Ireland that says they think they've proved a link with badgers makes it even more important to get it out of Cumbria before it gets into wildlife (although it may well already be too late).\nIn between the two testing days this week I seemed to do a lot of horse cases. On Wednesday I spent most of the day touring around Cumbria seeing horses in Wigton, Cockermouth and Bassenthwaite. It was a sunny day and was a very pleasant way to spend the day - great scenery to look at, outside when not driving and cases going the way I was hoping - not a bad way to work!\nI've been on call this weekend and it's been very quiet (so far). Yesterday was steady with a reasonable number of calls but none stacking up. I've done 2 cattle Caesareans on the same farm this weekend - one yesterday morning which seemed like a huge calf until the one I did this morning which was truly a freak. It was the biggest calf I or the farmer had seen and is the result of selecting for extreme confirmation in beef breeds. It does pose serious welfare issues for the cows as they cannot give birth naturally and have to have fairly major abdominal surgery instead. We’ll never persuade farmers of this though as the consumer wants cheaper food and cheaper beef is made through bigger beef calves. It does seem tough on the cows though. Or am I being too cynical?\n\nDiary 65\nI thought it was interesting to see how much people still are willing to talk about some of 2001 at the meeting on Wednesday night. While a lot of the conversation was routed around the subjects you had come up with over the last 18 months, it often came back to talk of events and individual experiences during the outbreak itself. These stories must have been told on dozens of occasions but people still want to tell them if the right time/opportunity comes up (myself included).\nThere were so many themes that you have all come up with on the "electronic tags" sheet that it seems impossible to comment on them all. Some of them seem very relevant to me, others not so much. Trust is a category that comes up under a couple of headings. One of the headings it is under is "knowledge". I think this has been one of the most significant changes since FMD as far as the farmer/vet relationship is concerned. DEFRA has gone from being eyed with some suspicion to overt distrust and resentment. On a whole we don't get too much flack as veterinary GPs but when we have to do DEFRA allocated jobs, such as TB testing, there is sometimes a general feeling of it being another task to try to wear them down being sent by the authorities. Another regulation that has caused huge resentment is the whole animal movement licensing system. It is much easier now and causes fewer problems but a year or so ago it was the source of much stress. We had to try to act as intermediary between farmers and DEFRA and keep both sides happy. The damage done to the farmer/DEFRA Trust will take a long time (if ever) to start to repair. Hopefully, by trying to be more "on their side" than DEFRA seem to be, the trust they have in us has been preserved.\nIt's been a quietish week at work - maybe because there's been a bit of silaging going on so the farmers haven't got time for routine work. It's about time we were a bit quieter. The summer lull hasn't materialised at all yet this year. In fact we’re taking on another vet to ease the workload (did I mention this last week??). In the meantime it's nice to have time to draw breath and enjoy the sun for a day or two!\n\nDiary 66\nThis week seems to have gone by a pretty quickly. Maybe it's because I'm on holiday next week and the thought of it is spurring me on! I fly to Split tomorrow for a week of sailing on the Croatian coast with a college friend and some relatives. It'll be a change from Cumbria!\nOne of our big dairy farmers was away in Thailand this week. The farm was left to be run by his usual workers and his brother and mother. Despite this he felt he had to take his mobile phone with him, and he was rung twice during the week to be asked what should be done with a couple of sick cows. I suppose this either demonstrates extreme dedication or an inability to forget about work. Or both. But then again it also shows how committed a lot of farmers are and that it's not just a job to them. As farms get bigger the concept of all the cows being individually known to the farmer or being his "friends" becomes increasingly unrealistic, but in the majority of cases they’re not just milk making machines and are cared for pretty well. It's not hard to see why it was so hard for people to lose their herds.\nAfter being a bit quieter at work last week it suddenly seems to have become very hectic at work again this week. There haven't been any particularly time-consuming jobs, just lots of sick cows, horse calls and the usual mix of animal ailments. It's better to be busy than quiet though. I think I need a holiday (and I'll keep my phone switched off).\n\nDiary 67\nA week off work to go sailing in Croatia - Easy life. After meeting up with the boat and the rest of the group in Starigrad we sailed to Vis into a fairly direct head wind so it took quite a bit of tacking and was a bit of a rough ride. I also very stupidly underdid the sunscreen and managed to burn my back. Very careless, but it got less uncomfortable as the week went on. We spent two nights in Vis harbour as the others who had already been sailing for a week wanted a rest. It used to be a military island and there were definite signs of this around although it is obviously developing a now rapidly-growing tourist trade. After Vis it was off to Hvar, where we anchored in a small inlet a few miles from the town. After a night there we went to Hvar town for a look around - the castle on the hill was very impressive and the town still feels as though it is relatively unspoilt at the moment.\nThe last couple of days were spent making our way slowly back to Split. We actually spent the last two days in Split as there was a strong northerly wind brewing up which would have been a bit rough to be out in. My uncle who was the skipper on board has been to Croatia for the last three years - he said it was very noticeably more busy this year. It seems a shame to spoil it with more tourist facilities, but we all contributed to them being built by going there. Hopefully it won't be too dramatically changed.\n\nDiary 68\nThis week started at 9am Monday with a TB test at one of the most "basic" (run-down?) farms we go to. It was the first time I'd been there in three and a half years of working here - so they don't make huge use of our veterinary services. One of their bullocks was 7½  years old! When I casually asked about what plans they had for it seeing as he had missed the 30 months cut-off time for human consumption I was told it was just kept as a friend for the bull! The test was very slow as the cattle handling facilities were not the best on the planet. They were very pleasant people to talk to and it soon became apparent that they had very little time for DEFRA (nothing unusual there). The son was one of the people who had had his firearms confiscated after making threats at the start of FM D.  They still felt resentful about the way the police became involved and the way they were ultimately given no choice as to who came on to their farm to check their stock. Fortunately all the cattle were negative for TB so there was no need to further add to their distrust of DEFRA by putting them under more restriction.\nThe rest of the week has been fairly steady. There's been enough going on to keep us busy without ever being frantic. The horse I saw last week with a neurological problem has become a bit worse so has gone to Edinburgh vet school to see one of the neurologists up there (he seemed fairly confused by it as well, which I have to say I found quite reassuring!)\nThe weekend was a bit on the strenuous side - a cousin who is a keen cyclist persuaded me it was a good idea to do a big Cumbrian/Yorkshire bike ride. We went from Penrith to Alston to Barnard Castle, to Tan Hill (refreshments) to Kirkby-Stephen to Penrith on Saturday. And then recovered on Sunday. It seemed like a good idea at the time but I am really feeling it now!\n\nDiary 69\nLooking back at some of the quotes in the "Recovery" section of the notes from a meeting it's noticeable how easy it is to forget (or at least not have in one's mind) how much it affected a lot people. It's almost hard to remember how much I was affected by it - I know that there were some very unpleasant tasks such as supervising slaughters, and day-to-day work was often very frustrating when we felt people overseeing our work from offices didn't really know what it was like in the field, but I feel now that on the whole once work was finished life pretty much went on. Maybe this isn't actually a true reflection of how it was and it's just that some of the detailed memories are fading - often things don't seem as bad as they actually were when you look back on them. I know plenty of clients, colleagues and friends whose lives were completely overtaken by FMD so perhaps mine was more than I remember, but I also feel that most of the people who I remember as being heavily affected are now more-or-less completely over it. \nOne of the farms I went to this week lost a son in a road accident about two months after getting FMD. I think the farmer was ready to give up everything after that. Apparently he left the cleaning up of his farm and took no interest in anything. Time obviously helped him - he's been back milking again for that (sic) last year and a half. There are still changes though - he seems very much quieter and more laid back now. If a cow isn't in calf or things don't go quite right he doesn't seem to get stressed now, as he once would have done. Work has been a bit quieter this week, which we would expect at this time of year. One of our farms has put some pedigree Belgian blue embryos into some Limousin cross heifers and they're starting to calve now - they all need Caesar's as the calves are almost as big as the heifers that produce them. The only thing to be said for it is that we can do them at a sensible time of day rather than at two in the morning as we know when they’re due.\n\nDiary 70\nOne of the five categories you raised at the meetings last month was trauma and one of the subsections on the chart was "sounds/smells/visions". Sights are probably the most frequent reminder of FMD now - there are certain bits of road that have memories, for example driving north on the M6 just south of Penrith it was possible to count smoke plumes from about 20 pyres at one stage. On fine days it always reminds me of it when I drive that stretch. One farm has the remains of a pyre that was started to be built but never finished. Even things like driving across two lines of tar across a road which once held down a disinfectant mat. People who didn't live here at the time wouldn't even notice them but it seems quite significant to the rest of us. It doesn't really bother me, but just is a reminder of what went on. At other times it seems odd how quickly things have gone back to normal. - even something as simple as a road with mud or animal muck on it. In 2001 that would have stuck out like a sore thumb and would have warranted urgent action.  Now I'm used to driving a dirty car (I do clean it sometimes) and having some roads caked in dirt. It's difficult to imagine how the farmers kept them clean two years ago. (But they did). \nObviously there are other reminders (people never tire of talking about it), but it's the day-to-day visions and places that are most regular.\nWork has been a bit quieter this week. I did it a Caesar on a cow which had a truly ridiculously enormous calf. We need to move away from breeding continental beef breeds and go back to nice compact Jersey's or Aberdeen Anguses! I also saw an unusual neurological case in a horse. It's very uncoordinated and has poor balance. It's the kind of case where brain/spinal scan would be useful, but those facilities aren't really available for horses! It will be interesting to see how it goes over the next few days. \n\nDiary 71\nThe last diary! The 18 months seem to have gone by quickly. Things seem so much back to how they were that it's odd to think back to what was going on when we first started writing them. I think we were pretty much in the swing of doing restocking checks and doing endless blood sampling of sheep. The last restocking checks I did were only 16 months ago - it seems far longer. Although I say things are back to how they were I'm sure there are actually a lot of differences, it's just that I don't notice them because I'm used to how things are now. The practice has become a lot busier. By October we’ll be up to nine full-time and two part-time vets. Pre FMD we were seven full-time and two part-time. Some of the increase is Equine and small animal, but most of it is in farm practice. Part of this is directly linked to FMD (eg more TB testing due to re-stocking tests, and re-stocking having brought TB into the county). Other factors aren't so obvious but are unquestionably FMD related - most restocked farmers went back with more stock than they originally had, so overall there is greater density of stock around. More animals means more sick animals which means more calls for the vet. It's a shame in some ways to see the small traditional farms being forced out, but it's hard to see how they can manage as margins get smaller and larger neighbours get more stock and more land. FMD was a way out for several of the smaller farms - all have been bought up by neighbours with none being sold as single units. \nAs I've said in recent weeks, this time of year is usually quiet - it has become a bit less frantic recently but the traditional summer lull hasn't materialised. \nI've been a vet for four years. The last three have been just about as interesting and challenging as they could have been - both professionally and socially from the point of view of living in Penrith. Obviously FMD had devastating effects on thousands of people, many of whom are my friends. On the whole I see very few residual scars - it  is still talked about, but less and less as time goes on. More than one farmer has actually said that they think in hindsight it was a very good thing for them. I'm not sure I could ever say that as it brought too much stress and sadness for too many people, but if it had happened, I think (very much with the benefit of hindsight) I’m glad that I had the chance to be involved with it from the start and through the recovery.\n\n
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1966\nGender: F\nOccupation: Group 6\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\n\n\nDiary 1\nMonday was the usual long hard grind. I accept that I have to put in 10 – 12 hours and I don’t mind doing the work because it’s not physically or mentally taxing but I do hate not having a lunch break, just that little bit of selfish time to site, have a cigarette, take the dogs down the river, see the horses…whatever. I do resent that fact that W (one of the bosses) almost always gets a lunch hour. B (the other boss) has gone up tremendously in my opinion for the way that he gets on with the work. He starts early, finishes late, hates DERFA paperwork and rarely complains. It is definitely grinding them down because they work like that at least 4 days a week. It has been a huge advantage this last year being part-time at work. My days off obviously aren’t my own as they used to be, but I do get away from the phone and the demands of clients. Some of our clients are very selfish and I hadn’t noticed before. They seem to think they are the only ones that have hassles with DEFRA. I remember saying to one (complaining about problems with licensing) that he was lucky to have problems with only one licence. The first day that movement licenses came out we applied for 26 and received the explanatory notes from DEFRA on how to complete the paperwork 4 days later.\nAnyway managed to do three final visits and complete most of the paperwork before 9pm. Kirkby Stephen was buzzing today – the auction reopened for a cattle sale. The main street was full of shiny farmers with fish and chips and the back lane was full of shiny (some new) Land Rovers and trailers (trailers mostly new).\nIn fact MC told me that as soon as he heard his bloods had come back clear (restocking) he washed and changed and went to the mart. He said it was the first time he had felt clean since the day they were infected – he felt ok to go among other farmers. He surprised me because he is so easy going – he takes all in his stride. But he still says FMD is not as terrible as testicular cancer – and he’s right.\nAD was one of the other final visits – he doesn’t give a bugger about anything. Happy to become a flower power farmer – he doesn’t care much about his sheep as individuals, they are just numbers. Just as well because in the batch he bought from Wales the sheep have more legs than teeth – I can’t see them lasting long. Pissed off because I missed Bryan Adams concert in Newcastle – couldn’t finish in time to join the bus. The rest of the lassies had a brilliant time, and at least Tracey benefited from my ticket.\nHad to go back in to work the next day to finish my DEFRA reports and fax them off. Went to playgroup to talk about pets. Took my dog (lurcher) and [child’s] rabbit (dodgy combination). Very few of the kids seemed to have pets of their own. A lot of them referred to Granddad’s dogs or Uncles cat. When I left college the pet population was increasing, what’s going to happen in the next 15 years?\n[Sister] phoned, worried about her horse, he has haematuria. I’m worried that he has a tumour. I feel very far away and helpless when things like this happen even though she only lives in Yorkshire. I’m sure I could help her whatever the outcome if we lived closer. In fact I think I miss my family more now than I ever have. I don’t know if it’s my age, or the thought that M is over 60, or that I didn’t see them much at all last year, or just because I have [son] now and can understand how mothers/families feel. I miss [sisters] but I still don’t phone them much – I always think they’ll be busy. I can talk to Mam three or four times a week for half an hour at a time without thinking twice. She must get fed up hearing me go on and on about work etc, but she loves hearing all about every tiny detail of [son’s] antics and achievements.\nWill broached the subject of a partnership again. I don’t know what to think. It’s the obvious thing to do and a few years ago I would have taken his hand off for even 10 or 20%. I’m just not as excited about it as I should be. And what would change? Will I be better off? Will I be a better vet? Or will I spend too much time of figures and paperwork. Will I become ‘more commercially aware’? Do I want to change? Can I be bothered with the extra hassle? They are ok, they have a career and a wife, I’m trying to do both (sometimes badly).\n\nDiary 2\nMonday’s are shite! It starts off busy and gets worse – why can’t we do time management a bit better. It did look as if we might finish around 6.30 at one stage in the afternoon. Then I was called out to a calf. I didn’t really need a visit at 6pm at night. W said, ‘never mind, you’ll be picking [son] up anyway (the childminder lives on the next door farm) - he hasn’t got a clue! If I picked [son] up he would be at Ange’s for about 8 hours – I feel guilty enough that he’s away for about 8 hours. [Partner] always picks him up about 5.30 and has to cope (which he does well) until I get home. But it’s hard work for both of us after a full day at work, and [partner] is usually knackered and ready for peace and quiet when he gets home – not a tired hungry wee lad.\nAnyway, I ended up having a farm tour that night. [farmer] was so proud of his new pedigree Belgian Blues and his new shed. He’s been lucky to get most of his commercial stock from his father so he has an idea of their past history. He’s a nice lad and he was producing some stunning beef calves before he was taken out, at least he’s young enough to get going again. He hasn’t said much about loosing his stock so I haven’t asked. I had a chat to his aunt one day and she was very upset, and that upsets me. I hate when people get emotional like that, I start filling up myself. \nI got back to find a sheep caesarean still to do. Waste of time. Premature lambs all born alive (3) and all dead before I finished stitching the uterus. And to put the tin hat on the day my assistant was the mother who prattled about nothing much all the way through the op. She does my head in, she is a century away from me in her outlook but I still come away feeling that I am the one who has got it all wrong. Maybe I should have dinner on the table and shirts ironed etc. I don’t want to be like her though and I can’t even sympathise with her even though they lost all their sheep. I’m sure she must have taken it badly but I don’t think she would ever let her feelings show in public – something about the way she spoke suggested that she was forcing herself to put a brave face and look forward – probably for her own son’s sake.\nWatched ‘Rural Lives’ again on Tuesday. CR came over well I though. I couldn’t help but snigger when the slaughter team were discussing one of our clients – she made the kids carry away the dead piglets after they’d been slaughtered – them team thought that was terrible but I knew the kids – they all help on the farm, they know that their pigs go to kill, the family even started their own little slaughter house and cutting plant before FMD. I don’t think those kids would be horrified. Sad maybe. We all felt sad over the last year, sad for the healthy animals culled, more sad for the people caught up in the mess. One disease where the cure is worse! Mostly though I get angry when I hear or talk about FMD. I get angry because DEFRA let us all down, the politicians got too closely involved, nothing happened fast enough. We didn’t seem to be able to do anything. We knew very little and struggled to get reliable information. I still get wound up thinking about it all. We were marginalised by DEFRA. I felt as if it was us and the farmers versus DERFA – not all three groups versus FMD. The rumours that abounded just magnified the feelings. We talked at length about FMD, DEFRA, etc. within the practice and with our clients but I could still talk about it all day even now. So many things are unresolved. I have lost faith in DEFRA, especially since they changed their name, no A for agriculture now; and I’m glad I have been ignorant of politics for so long – there have been few shining lights in the government. I’m heartily sick of authority interfering and regulating stuff that’s going along quite nicely. Let them interfere with stuff that’s doing harm – bad farmers need a shake up, sheep dealers  need to think more about animal welfare but the way things are going the good guys that toe the line will end up following all the rules and regulations set up to sort out the bad guys – and will they bother?\n\nDiary 3\nPossibly the best bit of the week was Sunday when I eventually (after 13 months) got back on my horse. Only 15 minutes but it was nerve wracking. I thought she might just throw me off, and I was so tense (actually we both were) I felt as if I had forgotten how to ride. I stayed in the field thinking it would be safer but the other two horses were flying about to annoy us. I’m so frustrated that I haven’t been able to get her fit for the start of the endurance season. There’s no way we’d be able to go to the first ride at Ullswater, and there’s only one other in Cumbria this year (due to FMD). Who would have thought that we would still be curtailed by FMD more than a year on? \n(The young horse) was very interested in saddle and bridle so I put them on him and he was ok. At first he was frightened to move at all but then he realised it was ok. On Monday I had a strange request to go and hold an old pony for the knacker to shoot. The owner’s just didn’t want to be around. It was a lovely morning so I led her out for a bite of grass before he arrived. She could barely manage to breathe and swallow at the same time. I can’t believe how the tumours have taken hold of her since the turn of the year. Mr A couldn’t tell his wife the diagnosis initially because she hadn’t got over losing the few pedigree sheep they had. It’s taking some people a long time to get over the loss. I think it’s easier to get over losing an animal if you have more than one – it helps to keep you focussed on the living rather than the dead – and farmers haven’t been able to get restarted when they were ready to because of all the C & D requirements. Anyway, the knacker man told some good tales. There’s been some nutters about shooting animals, some even had their guns taken off them. Poor lad was given a day’s notice at the knackey and was part of a slaughter team after that so he was only paid his normal wage which the boss collected at the DEFRA rate for them all, it was good talking to him probably because I don’t really know him. I didn’t feel that I would upset him because he wasn’t like a client who had lost animals. Sometimes it’s hard to know what to say if people get upset; sometimes it’s enough to listen.\nOne of the most awkward situations I found myself in was talking to a farmer who lost no stock but he was so depressed he started crying. The cows I had gone to see ‘should have gone last year, then we wouldn’t have had these problems’. He also has been unable to sell sheep so the farm was completely overstocked, overgrazed and had little silage left.\nI couldn’t understand why he was still overstocking when he could have sold sheep and cattle for restocking or for slaughter quite easily in the last few months. Maybe he just couldn’t face the hassle of getting licences, or maybe he’s just too far down to think straight. I usually mention that sort of thing to B and W because I think it’s important that everyone in the practice knows what’s happening, not just with out patients but also with our clients.\n\nDiary 4\nI had the honour of completing the FINAL final visit today, and it was one of my neighbours in Soulby. No more surveillance visits!! Poor Lol couldn’t find his DEFRA paperwork, and while he was looking through his files he found copies of his valuation report with all his old cows on – I think it brought it all back. He’s trying hard to move on, I could understand him being bitter since his whole (very good) milking herd was taken as a DC. I think he may have survived because the infection was half a mile away from his cows but the IP land joined. I watched them load all his cows into coal wagons on s Saturday afternoon. In fact it was midnight when the last de-tox wagon left. How can they be clean if I can’t even get my wellies clean in the dark?\nHow he’s worrying about his new cows coming from Holland. He thinks it’s a long way for them to travel but he can’t wait for them to arrive – unlike his wife who thinks that all this restocking is going too fast. I felt apprehensive too about a fortnight ago, but the feeling is subsiding. The day to day normality of work is returning. Sheep are permitted to visit the surgery for treatment so we have had a much more normal March than we’d had last year, even though there are still thousands of sheep missing from the practice.\nFarmers are still bringing in lambs. The value of stock is obviously not their prime concern – ‘where there’s life there’s hope’. We wouldn’t see ewes or lambs at all if the cost of treatment versus the animal’s value was weighed. I was worried that we would have a flare up around lambing time. There’s a chance that some of the fell sheep were exposed to FMD – and there’s a risk of virus recrudescence at times of stress, so I was thinking that if we made it through lambing then we’d definitely be ok. The weather has cheered me up this week. Everybody smiles more when it’s sunny. Its tempting to think my days at home are holidays when the weathers so nice!!\n\nDiary 5\nI forgot about April Fools Day for the first time ever. We were so busy at work, and it was more of a Bank Holiday than anything else. I do resent working Bank Holidays – but Monday is my day to be on call. B did offer to do some of the day but he had a caesarean on a cow, a lambing at 1.30 am and another call at 6 am so he’d be knackered enough – and they pay me for a day’s work so its only fair that I give a days work.\nWhen the phone rang early Tuesday and I felt as if I’d only been in bed 2 hours I was regretting not passing on the night duty – a Belgian Blue calving – CAESARIAN mentally checked my kit in the car while driving to KS. Definitely caesarean. They shouldn’t breed from these cows until they’re more mature. We’re getting loads of bother with the new stock – never mind its proper veterinary work. Anyway the heifer was a right bag. Started off lying down so I doped her but she got up after we got the calf out and then tried to lye down on the wound – peritonitis to follow no doubt. I warned the farmer and we were all very calm about it – maybe none of us were really awake!! So that made [partner] late for work as he was left ‘holding the baby’ and I was well late setting off to see my sister [sister]. [sister] didn’t mind and [partner]’s bosses said it was ok but I still felt guilty.\nHad a great time at [sister’s] – did a bit of touristy stuff and found a really nice book for mam’s birthday, by Mrs Herdie who used to holiday near home. Mam has a watercolour by her but this book is all wildflowers. [Other sister] phoned to say [horse] is worse. I think [sister] and I both wanted to go to Yorkshire when we heard how upset she was. [Sisters] are so close (being twins) but I can understand what [sister]’s going through with a horse on death’s door. She didn’t want us to go (she said) so we drank too much red wine instead and watched the start of Papillon (good film). I was too knackered though; my stamina gives out a lot sooner under the influence of alcohol.\nMam’s birthday was a queer day. It’s rare that I get the chance to spend time with any of my siblings at home and we had a lovely day apart from the fact that we were all waiting to hear what was going to happen with [sister]. She phoned to say he’d been put down, bladder tumour. I think it must be pretty rare. She still said we shouldn’t go down. [sister] could have easily gone (and Mam) because Lynxes on school hols (jammy teacher!). I stayed on till quite late because both my brother and stepfather wanted to see [son] – he was so excited to see them, sometimes he just makes us all laugh.\nI had a depressing start to the day back at work – just over a month ago I amputated a dog’s leg. The leg was fractured over 6 months ago, appeared to heal and then suddenly worsen. We suspected a bone infection but she didn’t respond to treatment so I x-rayed her again and it looked like a bone tumour. She did well after the operation until last week when she developed a hard knobbly swelling near her shoulder and her lungs were infiltrated. I felt so sad for her and the family. She was a lovely placid and very brave dog and it is just so unfair. I don’t want to give up on these cases and I feel that euthanasia is a poor treatment in this case, I so wanted her to have a couple more years. I never would have put her or the family through a ghastly op like amputation if I had known that she would get so little benefit. The farmer’s son (who worked the dog until she retired) was conspicuous by his absence – he’s rebuilding the milking parlour ready to restock so his sister did the honours and came to help me.\nHad to switch to party mode – [son’s] 2nd birthday. The sandpit was a roaring success, as was the trike and cake from Grandma and Granddad. We had a super relaxing day (mostly outdoors). This weather makes life a lot easier, I couldn’t have coped with all those little boys inside!\nEscaped to the horses at Asby to take water. It’s so peaceful up there. I’ve really missed being able to go up there this last year – there’s still yellow tape on my gate and I don’t even have livestock! I wonder who they (DEFRA) thought the field belongs to? Should get out riding this next week with a bit of luck and a bit of spare time. I think I’ll have to shelve the plans to show the Arabs, I haven’t got started soon enough.\n\nDiary 6\nOur new vet started this week. Bright, young, enthusiastic and full of new ideas. I feel very out of touch. I didn’t go on any CPD courses last year, for most of the year I felt as if we were unclean, and I was so tired with working such long days it seemed too much hard work to organise extra childcare etc. to allow me to go away for more than a day. I feel out of touch generally though and a lot of it has to do with working part-time.\nBig day on Wednesday, [son’s] 1st morning at Biggins Nursery. I think my new hobby is worrying!! Am I doing the right thing setting off on new (extra and expensive) childcare arrangements? I think I feel guilty because it’s for my benefit, not for extra work. It’s now going to cost me an extra £7.50 to ride my horse on a Wednesday! But I am starting to break [horse] in as well and I can’t handle a 4 year old horse with a 2 year old boy around. Anyway the nursery seemed a big hit and I had my first ride out on Ashby fell. I actually went over the track to the Dowly tree instead of on the road. She (the horse) was quite anxious leading the other two, and a bit excited to be out in the open space of the fell – so was I. There seems to be just one lot of fell sheep on there – they must be H’s I think. Nobody else has started to heft sheep up there yet. The ‘dowly tree’ will be looking sad and lonely for a bit longer.\nI have missed being up on that fell so much. Margaret Little asking if we’re going to the village hall quiz on Friday – probably not because we’re going out for a meal for [partner]’s birthday. Felt guilty about not supporting village activities and started justifying myself to her. I hate it though when people use FMD to make you feel bad. She kept saying how few ‘does’ there were last year, how nice it is for all the village to get together etc. – all true but I can’t get babysitters and nights off to do everything and [partner] is way more important than the village quiz. He put up with such a lot of shite last year and never complained – far too tolerant!\nWe had a lovely meal on the Friday night. [son] slept out at T’s for the first time in ages but I couldn’t have a lie in because of the judge’s course for the Arab Horse Society. I really enjoyed it – it was arranged for last year but had to be postponed due to FMD – it was worth waiting for and I couldn’t have gone last year even if it had been on. Went to see [sister] and [sister’s boyfriend] on Sunday. Seemed to spend all day being fed (she’s like Mam!). [Son] took a real shine to [sister’s boyfriend] which entertained us all. She seems to be coping ok with [horse]’s demise. Martin has cleaned up one of his shoes and mounted it with a plaque – he’s very thoughtful.\n\nDiary 7\nI have decided that I am happy on dry days when I can ride or work my horses, [son] and I can get outside to play and then he’s happier and people who come into work are more smiley on good days too. [son] and I went to a birthday party this week. He had a brilliant time but I felt very out of place. Everybody else was immaculately dressed and made up while [son] and I had to rush back from having a bonfire to burn all the old hay in Musgrave field to quickly wash and change. I’d rather have carried on tidying up the field, it’s still a real mess and at least I have the grass seed now. It had better grow, the price it was!!\nI was really pleased with [horse] on Wednesday. He’s coming on quite nicely with his lunging now, he seems to be quite amenable. Dental appointment on Friday – I hope my dentist never retires – I don’t think they make dentists that are more interested in people and their teeth than money any more. I always have a good chat to him so we carried on our discussion about my working conditions, comparing them to his sons etc. (he’s a vet too). He was quite surprised when I told him about the partnership talks. Last time I had a good heart to heart it was after the threatened redundancy. It’s no wonder I feel confused about the future at times. Nearly 2 years ago when I was on maternity leave they thought they might have to make me redundant. Now they want to release a bit of capital and take things easier they want me to buy in!! This time last year I didn’t know if [partner] or I would have a job!! Now I have to decide to commit myself to at least 20 more years as a vet.\nWent out with girls from work to a 40th. Didn’t really want to go but of course we had a great time once we got there. I think I have got out of the habit of evenings out. Still can’t get used to the freedom the mobile phone gives us, and spend all the time checking that there’s enough signal/battery etc. Had a hell of a hangover – too much draught coke. Hell it’s worse than cider!\n\nDiary 8\nThe shit is hitting the fan. We’re having problems with some imported Dutch heifers. We were waiting for this, especially on this particular farm. The management’s not the best and the father takes more advice from his feed merchant than us vets. There is obviously a viral infection going through the heifers and Farmer B presumed they were already vaccinated (no documentation). They are also showing signs of gastro-intestinal upset which could be management. Oh hell why did he buy 80 first calvers. Nobody would willingly put themselves under that stress. [New vet) is interested but B and W are obviously trying to keep their distance. They’ve been embroiled in herd problems on this farm before.\nI am now obviously the senior vet in charge of this problem and I’m not even at work every day. It’s too much for [new vet] to cope with and the farmer will get pissed off soon and I bet it’s us that catch the flak!\nCheered myself up with 1½ hours of R & R with the horses on Wednesday. Lovely day. Rode down onto the common but it was hard work as the other two horses were shouting for daisy all the time I was out on her. [horse] decided that he would be bobbly when I worked him but I’m getting confident that I know how his mind works.\nWe had a bit of a stand-off but I made sure it didn’t turn into a battle and he did as he was asked in the end, so we finished on a good note. I think it will be quite satisfying bringing him on myself – even though its going to take months at this rate. Some people work on young horses twice a day, he’s lucky if he gets trained twice a week.\nWork is really settling down now. The lambing time rush has passed and we’re catching up on our TB testing for DEFRA. It’s a bit more taxing having to do such young animals in the restocked herds but most people are fairly well organised. We’re not going to get some of the herds done before turn out I wonder if DEFRA have any recommendations for catching wild Limousin heifers in the middle of a field – probably not they don’t think that far ahead.\n\nDiary 9\nI hate Mondays again. Had supper at 11.45 pm. There was a problem with my mobile when I was on call (I hate mobiles as well) and I went to calve a cow one and a half-hours after the first call came in. I was so mad – firstly because we don’t make our clients wait that long for an emergency to become a disaster and second because Ws wife has no idea about passing jobs on – she should have got another vet to go since I was obviously busy but she just passed the message on to [new vet] to let her sort it out – and W’s wife gets paid for doing the phones! Anyway all’s well – live cow and a tremendous bull calf, and one of the easiest caesareans I have done in ages. \nB and W seem to forget that it is their business (and reputation) at stake. Ultimately the buck stops with them. Both of them seem to have had enough of business management and hassle to last a lifetime. Last year has done a lot of damage to a lot of people. I know I am a lot less tolerant than I used to be.\nThis week started badly and improved. Farrier came and trimmed all 3 horses, bollocked me because they hadn’t been seen for over a year (I did tidy them a bit myself though). Had a lovely afternoon at Rheged with Mam. We started going when FMD was on because it was sort of neutral, non-agricultural ground. We sat and chatted while [son] played in the soft play centre – everybody happy. Unfortunately I went down with the worst dose of food poisoning I had ever had, I was up all night. Went into work late – I wouldn’t have gone at all except I had a 2nd TB to test to do on a restocked farm and couldn’t bear to start the whole thing again. I recovered as the afternoon went on and even managed to dehorn 10 cows. The thought of B sending fragile, young [new vet] to help spurred me on a bit. I was knackered when I finished. Took me another 2 days to recover. [horse] doing well, bridle and saddle on now, looking grown up. I’m quite proud of him. He was so chilled out today I tried long reining him – that confused him but he was very sensible.\nNorleen and I didn’t go to the 1st date at the Rochdale show, I still didn’t feel right and [partner] was going to fit the new fuel pump to my car – but then he started to feel ill too. What a waste of a Saturday off.  Made it to the show on Sunday – pretty good ridden classes, and all the senior in hand classes. We were laughing because we’re so out of practice. There are two years worth of young stock that we’ve never seen due to babies in 2000 and FMD in 2001 – we felt really out of touch. There are a few imported stallions and mares that we haven’t seen before too. We had a brilliant day.\n\nDiary 10\nWhat’s worse than working on call on Mondays – yes working Bank Holidays! We hoped to shut at 12 – ha ha! I got home for lunch at 2pm. B kindly took the phones for a couple of hours in the afternoon (not long enough to go anywhere) and I was back out working by tea time.\nMy car failed its MOT because the back brake callipers were all gunged up – the mechanic says it’s disinfectant that does it – bloody DEFRA, I bet there’s no chance of compensation for that. It wouldn’t be so bad if it was a practice car but now that I’m part-time I have to paddle my own canoe. All the local garage owners warned us last year that these things would happen – what could we do? We felt obliged to drive into all the ‘voluntary’ disinfectant sites – it doesn’t look good if the local vets aren’t disinfecting. My beautiful old Audi, God knows what other horrors are lurking where the FAM has spilled in my boot etc. Hell it makes me mad. All the destruction, physical and mental and we had so little to say in any of it.\nWell, my car spent the rest of the week in the garage so I used borrowed wheels. Went to do a wee talk at Stainsmore pre-school in [partner]s transit van – very professional. The children didn’t care; they just wanted to meet my dog! [son] missed a birthday party on the Saturday because I was still at work – more guilt, not that he knows he missed it. Lovely day on Sunday with my horse – went for a three hour ride over in County Durham. We trailed round arable fields and nice lanes – all very different from here. [other horse] was an absolute saint and did very well to have no shoes on. She really did us proud.\n\nDiary 11\nGot my car back – that cheered me up. Bad news about the imported heifers, two more have died. At least the PM exams and sampling are free because it’s a restocked herd. Farmer getting angry now (at Dutch farmers) but taking it out on [new vet]. Very unfair, she’s spent hours checking over his cattle and taking samples.\nDidn’t get my usual R & R on Wed – absolutely piddling down. Started sorting out a few jobs that I have been avoiding, the sort I used to do on wet Sundays – now will become wet Wednesday jobs!! Called in at work for coffee and ended up with a call for the afternoon. Very interesting job too – went to sedate two horses for the dentist – it was absolutely fascinating. \n[son] has another 2nd cousin this week – the family is really sprouting. Had a tough calving Thursday night – torsion of the uterus. I can do these now, I used to absolutely dread them. Unfortunately she’d been on too long and the calf was born dead, heifer fine though. I hate going to that farm, the farmer is a right old perverted slime ball and I’ll’ dance on his grave. Started with a real head cold - –h crap.\nWent to see Mam and Stewart, [son] on top form. It’s brilliant seeing him interact with my family. He has really strengthened the bonds in our family. [son] fevered at night, starting with the same cold I presume – no sleep for me. [partner] never seems to hear all the commotion. Still felt ill on Saturday – [sister] and [sister]s birthday. At least I remembered to post their cards in plenty of time this year. \nWent shopping for wallpaper on Sunday to cheer me up. [partner] went off ‘pest controlling’ with his dogs. They went up through Tubby’s wood. They found nothing but at least the dogs had a good ratch. He says he only now feels ok about walking across fields. I didn’t even realise that he still felt that he couldn’t go round all his old haunts – we must talk more!\n\nDiary 19\nTB test cancelled on Monday and Thursday this week because the farmer can’t cope with the extra hassle. He’s a bit of a woman at the best of times but he’s been even worse since FMD. W was very understanding he seems to have the farmers measure. B didn’t seem that understanding.\nVery upset on Wednesday afternoon. I had to put down my own terrier after he took off and chased the neighbour’s sheep – for the second time. I can’t understand why he went so strange; he used to be fine with stock. I had a miserable afternoon waiting for [partner] to come home to bury him. I’d had such a good morning with the horses too. Dizzy and [horse] were both going well, I felt better once [partner] came home. He said I’d done the right thing but I felt as though I’d failed somehow because it should never have happened in the first place. Maybe it’s because he had nothing to do last year, no interesting walks, no rabbiting etc, I don’t know. \n\nDiary 20\nBrilliant time Tues/Wed. Went to my sisters with Mam and [son], it’s much easier to keep in touch with my family post-FMD. I hardly went anywhere last year. We went shopping to Edinburgh, mam’s looking for an outfit for my brother’s wedding, unsuccessfully so far! I’ve just realised that I haven’t seen [brother and wife?] on their farm since FMD broke out. We must go soon, it’s a brilliant place for recharging batteries and they are the best bit of my step family. We didn’t go to the Cumberland show with the horses. I haven’t got back into the swing of things yet. I think it was a bit of a washout without the farming side, and it rained. I offered to be the biosecurity officer for our local show so that they could get things up and running properly. They had money and trophies donated last year for new cattle classes and there would be real interest in fat cattle classes and young handler classes now. DEFRA (the bastards) managed to put the committee off.\n\nDiary 21\nSprayed weeds in field – only depressing day this week, it’s never going to recover properly. The Landlord arrived when we’d just finished the first half and said he’d decided to reseed it in August!! After much discussion I persuaded him it would be a waste of time and money to put horses back on a newly seeded field over winter. Now I’m worried about what happens in spring. Will we be terminated or just moved to another field? I wish I’d moved the horses at the usual time (1st April) then we wouldn’t have been caught up among IPs and DCs. Something will sort out, it always does.\n\nDairy 22\nExcellent week. Off to Malvern with friends for the National Arabian Horse Show. [son] went off to Grannies for the holiday!! I had a marvellous time for three days watching the most beautiful horses and came back absolutely shattered.\n\nDiary 23\nFew probs at work with new assistant. She’s a bit ‘whiney’[?], she’s always bending the ear of the nearest receptionist and they are sick. B has offered her a 12 month contract – but whether or not she’ll accept it is another matter. From what I can gather she’s going to end up with better working conditions than me. W’s not too happy about it all but neither of them are willing to grasp the nettle. They’ve both backed off since last year, they can’t wait to get off home and I can’t step in since they’ve changed their minds about my partnership, and I’m only part-time. Good weekend, Lowther on Saturday – didn’t see many of the usual faces. The only thing that spoiled it was the mud – we brought more than our fair share home with [son] and the pushchair – no biosecurity pressure washer anywhere!\n\nDiary 24\n (the Assistant) on holiday for 2 weeks, things seem more like old times. The cages aren’t full of animals on drips, I’m working extra days and enjoying it – it’s tiring but good. Highlight of the week on Thursday: Brough Show, there weren’t many farmers there but loads of horses and ponies instead of sheep. Much talk of DEFRA regulations, none complimentary. It just wasn’t the same without the sheep, it felt flat. I wonder what the gimmer lamb sales will be like?\n\nDiary 25\nKnackered – don’t think I could cope with full time work any more!! [new vet] still on holiday. Felt guilty about [son] being farmed out all week. I managed to work myself up about our charity horse show on Saturday. I tried to hand over the organisation to three other folk and still ended up sorting out all the insurance and rosettes, and they changed the date so I had less time to organise, and it wasn’t advertised. \nIt was the worst show we’ve ever had. It takes as much time to organise it for the few as it does for the many! I felt so disappointed. I thought we would have a real good turnout this time after having to cancel last year. Oh well there’s always next year! I’ll need to make sure they don’t change the date again and at least I might be able to take the horses next time. Decided to cheer myself up by taking [other horse] over to school her round the jumps on the Sunday but I couldn’t catch her (she must have known) so that just put the tin hat on the weekend.\n\nDiary 26\nTwo trotting meetings this week. I landed both of them and both nights on call. Another Bank Holiday with no time off and I had to take [son] to both because [partner] was grouse-beating. Both meetings were quite relaxed but there was one nasty crash at Appleby. Had a really nice day out at Chatsworth Game Fair with Helen and Neil. It’s the first time we’ve managed to visit them and it took hours to get there. We were invited last year but the advert said they didn’t want any Cumbrians – social outcasts, as if we didn’t feel like the armpit of British Agriculture as it was. I really enjoyed our day out, I felt as if we’d had a weekend away not just a day. We’ll have to think of some more trips, it’s too easy just to stay at home – we always have plenty to do.\n\nDairy 27\nIt’s started again – DEFRA have found a new way to cock up our lives. They have now complicated life with exemptions from the 20 day standstill including new stuff about isolation units. The farmers have all been notified by post. Some haven’t read it, some have read it and don’t understand it. Farmers have to isolate new stock bought via auctions etc from any contact with other stock by 50 m outside, or they can go on standstill but their neighbours can move stock from the next door field without a problem – it’s mad. I don’t understand where they are coming from. Well I do sort of but as usual it’s badly thought out, and we have to sell this idea to the farmers. How will it be policed? Will it matter? Would it stop another massive outbreak? It doesn’t take much to wind everyone up again. It’s not helped at work by B defending the DEFRA line and W dissing it. What will the clients think?\n\nDiary 28\nCrap week. Puncture on Thursday during lunch hour. Struggled to get locking nuts off – felt feckless. God I have so little patience these days. And I missed BEVA congress – couldn’t sort out childminding etc., and the best days were Friday and Saturday – there was no way I could go. I was really disappointed – nothing to do with FMD though. I don’t feel as if I get much encouragement from work, they are ok about paying for CPD courses but they don’t seem to make it easy to swap weekends etc. They’re not bothered themselves so I suppose they don’t understand all the different things you get from CPD.\n\nDiary 29\nWorked extra so [new vet] could go to sheep meeting at Malvern. Pissed off!! It is not easy to do this job with a husband and a family to consider and I suppose the timing stinks since I missed my equine course last week. The week improved considerably by Thursday – we went to Guilford for an Arab horse convention – nothing to do with work but very enjoyable. I’ve been waiting more than 10 years for this. I hope I live long enough to go to the next one!! We talked to some men on the train (unheard of in Surrey apparently) about Cumbria, farming, FMD and foxhunting. Once we reassured them that Newcastle was not in Cumbria we had an interesting crack!\nI hardly ever meet anyone that is not connected with farming and the countryside they really have no idea what it’s like – I don’t know anything about IT either which is what their job is! I end up feeling so frustrated that agriculture and therefore large animal practice is in such a precarious position, it seems to me to be such a basic fundamental part of life compared to computers and yet the emphasis is not on basic stuff anymore. Surely we need things like agriculture and basic manufacturing to underpin everything else. No wonder nobody was bothered about us suffering anxiety, fear, confusion last year when we were in the throes of FMD and the Penrith Spur was certainly under-reported. They wouldn’t have had so many marches in London pre-FMD.\n\nDiary 30\nQuite week. Still tired from last week – loads of photos to develop again – it was great, saw horses I’d never seen before and got 2 great videos of long dead horses that appear in my horses pedigrees. [son] was a bit off with me when I picked him up Monday – a bit unsettled with being away I suppose. Oh this job just interferes with a social life missed another wedding this week – on call again.\n\nDiary 31\nTook a horse to Penrith vets for an X-ray. They have a super new hospital just out of town. Seems really well set up. They have a really good attitude to work and clients. I think we need a shake up at work. Maybe [new vet]’s way of working isn’t too bad. Neil said they were ½ million in the red at the height of FMD – they must have been so worried. None of us knew what we’d be left with. We’ve definitely got a lot of routine work because we’ve lost such a lot of dairy farms. It’s never going to be the same again and I’m not good at accepting change.\n\nDiary 32\nSad week. One of our farmer’s sons was killed in an RTA on the A66. He had only been married two years and was a real canny lad. It shocked everyone and has certainly made me take stock. They have restocked with fancy cattle from down south, and these cattle may have contacted cattle with a variant virus from the USA so they were doing a whole herd test. You could blame this on FMD – if they hadn’t lost their cattle, they wouldn’t have restocked and they wouldn’t be testing the cattle or it wouldn’t have happened if they’d stopped for an extra cup of tea. A client brought me a copy of the Cumbria Enquiry. That didn’t half stir up some old feelings. All the things I was so angry about last year were summed up in one phrase I read: ‘slack organisation’. The poor woman who brought the report has spent over £1000 treating her dog after it suffered chemical burns from FMD disinfectant on a road map – it now reacts to phenolic compounds including sheep dip and fresh tar. They’re moving to Scotland – I hope the dog has a better life there.\n\nDiary 33\nFunny old week. Everyone still shell-shocked about [farmer’s son]’s death – no explanation as to how the lorry crashed into his tractor yet. You begin to wonder how any family can cope with that sort of trauma. B and W went to the (huge) funeral. They said his parents were amazing – they do have a strong faith but I can’t see that being enough. I went to the graveyard the next day to see the flowers and ended up in tears – it was the messages on the cards especially the ones from his parents and brother and sister, I felt so sad for them all. Went for a wee walk with Tracey, she knows him quite well and we talked a lot, trying to make sense of it all. Then blow me on the Thursday, his father and brother were part of a syndicate at the tup sales that paid over £100,000 for a Swaledale tup – I couldn’t believe they’d even gone to the auction never mind doing something like that, it doesn’t seem right to me. The others could have bought the tup for them, I think that’s awfully strange. I had another upset farmer’s wife this week. I went to see a downer cow; she’d got stuck in the cubicles. We had to carry her to a straw box using the loader tractor and the wife got really upset seeing the cow swinging on the front of the tractor. I felt a bit guilty really because I didn’t think. I just didn’t connect the FMD slaughter with an injured cow, but then I didn’t see all that they saw when their herd went down.\n\nDiary 34\nGreat week. My brother’s wedding, [son] was a page boy in a kilt and he was quite well behaved apart from the second lot of photos – he was well tired and hungry by then! I love being home with my brother and sisters (and their partners) and it’s great the way they all have so much time for [son]. We always laugh so much at the ‘clan gatherings’ I’m sure it’s very therapeutic! The amount of alcohol consumed by all at the wedding is definitely not therapeutic.\nWe set off on our holiday (maybe our first family holiday) the day after, in the rain but it turned out ok later. Such a lot of good stuff in one week.\n\nDiary 35\nHad a lovely day, it all worked out well. We may try four or five days away next year now that we’ve got started again. It’s years since we had a proper holiday, I usually miss all the animals when I’m away but not this time – I think [son] has more than filled that gap. Had bad news on Wednesday, [partner]’s van failed its MOT – no transport, no money for a new motor. Mild panic, slight depression then the gradual return to my ‘it will all work out somehow’ attitude. And it did. [partner]’s Mum and Dad helped us out and I had to relinquish my little ‘buy a new trailer’ fund.\nHad a disaster on Sunday morning, caesarean on an uncooperative cow. She got up halfway through the op and pushed her rumen out onto the (very dirty) floor, and she started to haemorrhage. She died four hours later. They ended up with an exceptional bull calf but a dead pedigree Belgian Blue cow. I hate when things die on restocked farms. I think they were quite philosophical about it but I went over and over the whole thing in my head. B just said ‘if they’re going to die it’s best they die soon – less time to worry and everyone gets over it quicker too’ I think he may be right. He’s definitely easier to talk to these days – he’s like a different person now that Jan’s left.\n\nDiary 36\nBusy week. Testing a restocked herd Monday/Thursday which had travelled all of 5 miles to their new home – a bit of a waste of time but it was a nice day to be out. Really good turnout at the village bonfire. It’s a new tradition, started in 2001 and it was the first village get-together after FMD. At the end of the week I headed South to Cheshire and the Salisbury plain with my friend Ann and her horse to compete in the marathon. What an awful journey we had. The rain poured, the traffic crawled. I’m glad I don’t have to use the M6 on a daily basis. I really enjoyed my weekend away but we had to pull the horse out at the half-way point. She was so hyped that we couldn’t get her heart rate down, so she wasn’t allowed to continue. I felt really disappointed. I was sure that she had a good chance, well she would have if they had a vet check halfway through.\n\nDiary 37\nA bit of an anticlimax this week after all the build-up to the marathon. It would have been so different if she’d completed the course. We had a better journey North except for a puncture – not handy when you have a horse trailer on. I drove most of the way back to Ann’s. Saw all her horses and then drove home, another 2 hours. Oh I was so pleased to get home. It was a good experience though, I don’t think either of us would trail a horse all the way to Salisbury plain for a two hour race again!! There were FMD cases near Ann in Cheshire that didn’t seem to catch hold like they did in Cumbria. Maybe its because there are bigger farms and more arable land.\nI went to see her in July 2001 and she pointed out various fields that had been cleared of stock – half of them didn’t even have gates on, there was no disinfectant or precautions visible and it was really starting to wipe out our practice at home. It was unbelievable. We were sitting in Cumbria thinking that agriculture was doomed, and everything in Cheshire was carrying on as normal. It was a rude awakening for me.\n\nDiary 38\nMore TB testing – all day job testing stock that wouldn’t normally be tested but they’re restocked. They have come from Cheshire though so that does increase the risk. Had a shocking migraine all day Wednesday, went to bed as soon as I’d dropped [son] off at Biggins and didn’t wake up until 5pm – 2 hours after I should have collected him – and I still felt awful. It was terrible driving in the dark and I had to stop three times on the way home. I went back to bed until 9pm and then was fine. I haven’t had a migraine for ages. I was back on top form the next day though. We did the TB readings on 172 cattle before lunch – cooking with gas!\n\nDiary 39\nFed up with all this testing – and we may be doing this for the next 4-5 months. Sick of [new vet] moaning at work, I don’t know what it would take to make her happy. I think this week has nearly all been a waste of time. I haven’t made best use of my free time and I haven’t been on top of my job at work.\n\nDiary 40\nI was dreading this week because there were so many things to do. I think I avoid adding extra to my schedule but this week I had 3 days away and a night out to cope with. I really don’t like the thought of shopping but managed to do some Christmas present locating on Friday. Spent Wednesday with B (which was better than I expected) on a National Scrapie Plan training day (which was worse than I expected). Bloody DEFRA, they don’t have to do or say much to raise my hackles. Here we are selecting for a resistant genotype and they are spending all their time injecting BSE into sheep’s brains to ‘challenge’ them – how would that ever happen naturally?\nNearly missed my night out because of work, It was 10 pm before I got there, but at least I didn’t miss the dancing. It turned into a really good night. Nearly everyone from work was there, and J the ex-receptionist, we always have a good laugh. Ended up working most of the morning – don’t know if W was hung over or just idle, but he’ll have to pay me for the hours. I don’t work extra out of the goodness of my heart now I have all my own overheads to fund. [new vet]’s the star for avoiding extra or dirty work – then it usually falls to me. She says she wants more large animal work and then does her best to avoid it.\n\nDiary 41\nTired this week. [son] came back from Mavis’s full of cold, improved a bit and then woke up screaming on Tuesday night.  It was a very long night and [partner] wasn’t even here t enjoy/share it as he’d left to fly to Tampa at 5am that morning. God, I don’t fancy being a single mum.\nHe soon started to improve after 24hrs on antibiotics – ear and chest infection – I’ve never seen him in such pain. Of course, he was nearly better by the time [partner] got back. I really struggled on my own and had to take a day off on Thursday but still had to go and do a second TB test otherwise I would have had to start all over again – we didn’t have time to test them twice. And it’s a restocked herd so we had to do them all. It’s really hard trying to do the best for everyone.\n\nDiary 42\nPretty good week until the weekend. Had a good night out for Tracey’s birthday, and I was really chuffed she invited [son] too. He was well behaved too nut unfortunately now thinks he can go to ‘the pub’ so we have to go out to meetings to avoid a tantrum. I don’t really think I have suffered many after effects from FMD except a lower anger threshold and a loss of faith in ‘the powers that be’. I’m much more worried about some of our client’s mental health. I know there are several who have suffered severe depression and they are not all farmers that were culled out. The sleepless nights were back with a vengeance – [son] started with chickenpox at the weekend and nobody had any sleep.\n\nDiary 43\nAbsolutely shattered, somebody else’s chickenpox is nearly as bad as your own. I don’t think I have had a full nights sleep for over a fortnight. I still had a lovely time at Christmas though.  I was sure that [partner] and [son] would be pleased with their presents. [son] suddenly brightened dup on Christmas Eve on the way to Mam’s and never broke stride after that. He was son top form. I was so tired that I fell asleep on Saturday evening and missed the village Hall Christmas Party – the highlight of the village social calendar.\n\nDiary 44\nThe threat of TB rears its ugly head; maybe TB is the new FMD. Went to do a private TB test for a farmer who has restocked and passed his restocking checks. Unfortunately he bought 3 heifers in November and the original farm has since gone down with TB.\nHe isolated the heifers as soon as he heard and waited for DEFRA – they didn’t come so we did. I hoped for the best and expected the worst. One of the heifers reacted – I didn’t know what to do or say. The farmer’s wife was really upset, she wished they hadn’t gone back into farming. B the boss has phoned DEFRA that morning regarding these heifers only to be told that youngstock don’t pose much of a risk. They don’t seem to have much idea at all, and don’t have a clue about getting on with the job. They’ve had three weeks to track down the calves out of the cows that were reactors. They seem to let us down just when we need them most! Oh they make me boil and we are going to have to cope with the aftermath again.\n\nDiary 45\nFelt a bit flat and tired this week. The test I had this week was hard work, trying to catch cows in cubicles is not fun. We were all covered in muck at the end of it and the second day was worse because he had about 14 to rectal after the test.\nWednesday, my day of respite was taken up looking after Tracey in bed with cold – she’s really down still and I can’t seem to do anything to make her feel better. I know she’ll come out of it eventually but it’s hard not being able to help.\nI just didn’t feel as if I had any time to myself this week, and I really missed out. If I start working Wednesdays I’m going to miss it every week. I’ll have to have another plan! It’s a bit better at the weekend, but I think we all need some better weather and I miss doing stuff with the horses.\n\nDiary 46\nOh I’m mad again with DEFRA. I had to go back to the herd with the reactor and test every single bovine on the place, except the two remaining heifers from the infected herd. I don’t understand why they can’t just take out those heifers too. The poor farmer and his wife will be on tender hooks until the end of March at the earliest. If they hadn’t asked for a private test goodness knows when DEFRA would have got there.  While I was testing DEFRA phoned the farmers wife to confirm that the slaughtered heifer had visible lesions – so that puts paid to the theory that youngstock weren’t a danger. Hope this news makes them get a finger out. Had a lovely day with Mam and [son] on Tuesday – we sat and talked for over an hour in the car park, everything tested clear at the check test – so far so good.\nBad day on Thursday. The behaviour course I was enrolled on has been cancelled  - no explanation just a cheque returned to the practice with a wee note. I was so disappointed, even though it was going to be a lot of extra work over the next 10 months and extra hassle and extra childminding I think I could have coped. Then at lunchtime I bent my car door after stopping to help somebody stuck on an icy patch – I haven’t got all the bits sorted that were knackered by FMD disinfecting yet and there’s more repairs, and I have to pay for it myself now that I don’t have a practice car – I was well fed up!\n\nDairy 47\nBusy week. TB Testing again. Started working odd Wednesdays this week, so spent all day Wednesday up the back end of suckler cows (very dangerous) taking bloods for brucellosis and then blood sampling Swaledales for scrapie testing.\nWe have so many tests still to do – but not many dreadfully out of date, and I think we’ve done quite a lot of the restocking tests but its all quite mind numbing stuff – not much clinical acumen required for getting blood out of cows – just quick reactions to dodge shit and flying feet. Very late finished Monday by the time I had all my paperwork done. A, a college friend landed Tuesday en-route to Leeds for a herd health meeting – 6 hours driving for a meeting. We talked a bit about FMD – she worked as a TVI towards the end of the outbreak. They have a lot more trouble with TB up in Aberdeenshire – once it gets into a herd they struggle to get rid of it again. I hope it doesn’t get to be a huge problem round here. Collected a fair few bruises on Thursday – pregnant heifers to dehorn – they should have been done in 2001 but of course the routine work was put off. I don’t know what the excuse was leaving them al through 2002 but they were massive. Anyway, it saved me going to the gym on Wednesday night!\n\nDiary 48\nI have just handed in the latest batch of diaries, and started a new ‘session’.  I have been thinking that F&M doesn’t really affect me much anymore.  Our work has changed because of the restocking that has taken place since with all the new disease problems that have been bought in as ‘additional extras’ and the extra TB testing etc. but mentally I am not aware of even thinking about the events of 2001 that often.  I still feel upset if someone tells me about their own particular experiences which are often heart rending but probably no more than if they were discussing another devastating disease problem.  I still have little tolerance for the workings of DEFRA even though they are providing us with lots of ‘bread and butter’ work.\n\nDiary 51\nI’m sick of doing caesareans on cows – who encouraged all the bloody beef farmers to restock with Belgian Blues?  I’m not sure that we should be continuing to allow animals to breed that can’t reproduce naturally.  It doesn’t seem right that we should almost expect a caesarean the day that a new cow is put in calf.  We used to have occasional troubles before, and not all caesareans are on Belgian Blues but now we do at least one caesarean every week, (B did two in one day) and they are bloody hard work!!\n\nDiary 52\nI always think of the 23rd Feb as being the day that I realised we might be in the shit in 2001.  It wouldn’t have passed unnoticed round here – several people mentioned the date in the following week – yet it wasn’t until the 4th April that F&M came into our practice.  Loads of our farmers lost a lot of seep early on though because they were wintering away on dairy farms further down the Eden valley.  This used to just involve the hoggs but now they are encouraged to leave the fells almost empty and are paid to remove even pregnant ewes to lower ground.  It seems ludicrous that, on certain farms, the fell sheep only spend summertime on the fells.  The rest of the time they are in-bye land for tupping or lambing, and then are wintered in sheep sheds or on dairy farms, sometimes quite far away from ‘home’.  I did get quite upset when I read the stories in the book.  This time I think I had more empathy for the ‘tourism’ businesses affected.  They must have been so frustrated, and probably ended up much worse off that the affected farmers.  In our area the farmers who ‘survived’ are the ones (in general) who are struggling for survival now, and their farms have had no capital investment at all.  In fact some of the survivors are still very bitter about the whole episode.  Its so sad what this has done to some people. \n\nDiary 55\nCheck TB test at Campbells, went well finished in good time.  Running into trouble because the other cows taken in for winter are calving and they have no room.  However, they have found someone to take and slaughter all the big bullocks – they are going to be moved, under licence, direct to a slaughter house so at least they will have some income (the first this year!).  Everything tested clear including the 2 heifers brought in from the farm that had the reactor so they are feeling a little bit more confident.\n\nDiary 56\nBloody DEFRA cocked up again with C’s test – had to go back to test 11 baby calves (how cruel?).  Had to go back to H’s as well to test one inconclusive reactor.  All of them were OK\n\nDiary 60\nI think the lambing time rush is settling down again – of course there aren’t quite as many fell sheep about as usual – and probably won’t be again if the payments are de-coupled – numbers won’t be as profitable as acres.\n
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       \n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1964\nGender: F\nOccupation: Group 6\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\n\n\nWeek beginning 4th March 02\n\nMonday 4th March\nWe decided we now need more staff, a new vet and a part time receptionist, this could take us back up to our previous staffing level pre FM, bar a vet.  But this was probably going to be all the recruitments we would make this year.  It’s a good sign As Things begin to get back to normal!!  Work is increasing quite a lot now most of our farmers have restocked, although a lot of them and us are still concerned about the future.\nTuesday 5th March\nA difficult day today with licences, two of our farmers needed Sole Occupancy Authentitys (SOA) and there were queries with their land, unless some of their fields could be redefined, they were worried their stock would suffer.  During the FM these worries have shown how much they care about their stock and find it very frustrating when they don’t understand why we can’t move them, even to the point of anger and tears.  By the end of the day, thankfully they were resolved, with compromise on both sides and a lot of phone calls.\nWednesday 6th March\nI decided to sort out all the paperwork and guidelines we had received from DEFRA over the past twelve months – it was quite a pile!!  It was interesting looking back and very sad, it makes you realise just how deep the feelings went and although it sounds silly it’s surprising how quickly those feelings can return over the smallest things.  Anyway having done that, it did feel good to box them up and put them away.  We got taken out for lunch with our Ptizer rep and it was nice just to talk about usual! Things, drug competition, how much we were going to sell.\nThursday 7th March\nVery busy day, everyone has been flat out all day started at 7am this morning got finished sort of by 7.30pm, very tired.  Hope we get a new vet soon!  We also had a suspect BSE case today.  Informed DEFRA.  More problems with SOA, but we got them started, one bit of good news, I managed to get a new receptionist for 2 days a week so I just need one for the other 3.\n\n\nFriday 8th March\nQuite a good day no major hassles today, and still getting busier.  Had a staff meeting to arrange an open day for National Pet week in May, and sorted out a few other bits and bobs.  Had a good chat with the staff who have all been very busy this week and decided that it is much better to this time last year, when we were all very depressed, emotionally drained, laying off staff, uncertain of the future.  At least now we are doing what we are meant to do.\nSaturday 9th March\nWent shopping first thing with K, had a good time, even though I’m not a good shopper.  We went to the Farmers’ Market, I saw Heather who works at the Auction and she said it had been quite emotional having sales again and the hustle and bustle, but they were all happy to see people they hadn’t seen for sometime.  Met my Mum in the afternoon in the Snow at Killington Lake, it was good and the driving was interesting.\nSunday 10th March\nMothers Day – [husband] and [daughter] were out for the day, so I had a lovely peaceful day doing not a lot.  [daughter] got me a funny card and a little hedgehog model for my collection.  In the evening I collected a vet student from London who is staying with us for 3 weeks.  So we will have to behave.  She seems nice and settled into our mad house easily.  Mr W called in to let us know his cows had arrived safely. \n\n\nWeek beginning 11th March 02\n\nMonday 11th march\nWhat a busy day.  But a total change to this time last year, it was the day our first client was confirmed with f&m.  I helped [another vet] do a caesarean on a cow, that was fun, they are farmers that have moved farm and restocked – very positive.  One of our new receptionists started but I didn’t get much chance to see her due to the Caesar. Barbara looked after her well and she seemed to enjoy it.  There were lots of calls in just like the old days but we really need another vet, the adverts in on Thursday so fingers crossed.  \nTuesday\nAnother busy day and another Caesar, the calf was dead unfortunately.  The cow with query BSE was taken away for tests, which was sad.  My highlight of my day was the farm across from us turned some of his cows out again.  I call it my kitchen window view, normally I can see sheep in the fields at the back and the cows across the road, the sheep came back a couple of months ago and the cows but I haven’t actually been able to see them, so it was very special.  Never really stopped today and we did Dog training classes at night, so I collected [daughter] from her YFC meeting and got fish and chips and we all went to bed.  Our poor vet student who is staying with us is exhausted, she’s been able to see and do so much.\nWednesday\nToday was a little more controlled and went more according to plan, but was still a long day as we had a dog in about 6.30pm that had eaten a ball and hadn’t passed it, so we had to operate to remove it, anyway finished at 9.00pm, had tea and went to bed.  [daughter] heard she had got 2 weeks work experience at Norbrook pharmaceutical so very pleased about that.\n\n\n\nThursday\nHad the morning off, the last few days had been rather hectic.  A girl who had done work experience with us a couple of years ago called round, out of the blue, she was still keen to train as a Vet Nurse and wanted to write to the Practices in the area and needed advice, anyway I told her about our vacancy here and well the long and the short is she starts on the 2nd April – Receptionist staff now sorted, just need a vet, I wish it was as easy.\nFriday\n[husband] was reading a TT test at a farm and found a reactor.  Pre f+m Cumbria was TB free but with all the new stock coming into the area it is inevitable that this will not be the case, there have already been two other cases in the county.  I dropped off the isolation notice to the farmer and as they are, he seemed okay and still very positive.  I have always admired them for their courage and stamina, as he said they love farming and you have to expect things like this.  Managed to spend the afternoon with one of our new receptionists, she is doing really well and settling in time she will grasp it all in no time.\nSaturday\nRan [daughter] and her friend into town and sorted out the garage – that was an achievement.  The dog that swallowed the ball wasn’t eating so I went to get it something tasty, it’s going home later so it should be a lot happier.  [daughter]’s still in town so I took (vet student) to see Hadrian’s wall, she’s from America so was very keen to see it, she really enjoyed it and so did I.  I hadn’t been for a couple of years.  Just had a nice quiet evening in.\nSunday\nMy sister and her daughter came for the day.  My niece is two and a half years so need I say more, we were busy playing all day.\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 18th March 02\n\nMonday 18th March\nIt's looking fairly quiet at work this week but you never know.  Mr W (farmer) came in he was letting us know his restocking plans and was one of the farmers querying his compensation ( I never liked that as they were compulsory purchased and have not received any compensation as such although some got better money than others, so maybe it was all taken into account). Anyway he missed the query deadline by two hours so DEFRA are refusing to look at his case as he does appear to have lost out as his brother with the same breeding of cows and related went down on the same down, got an average £300 more per cow.  Anyway we tried to look to the future and he was looking forward to getting stock back.  We had another TB reactor today in some French cattle.  Me and our receptionist were chatting and decided things were really getting back to normal, although with the added paperwork.  [daughter] was very upset when she came home from school as she had been getting bullied by a girl in her year…., so we chatted about that and I wrote to her teacher to see if she could find out more.\nTuesday\n[daughter] went to school fairly happy.  I just told her to hand her letter in and try and avoid the girl.  I was going milk recording tonight which I really enjoy it's great to be among the animals and talk to the farmers.  We only have one farmer milk recording fully at present, there were 12.  The farm I went to is a big dairy herd and is now \nlooking to expanding so that was good news.  Bad news is that means I'll have to get up earlier in the mornings for the recording - never mind!!  [daughter] had got on okay at school and the teacher was really good with her, so she's feeling happier.  She is a good kid and although hormonal at times she does put up with a lot.  During the FMD. We were unable to really go anywhere or do anything although we did try to keep her routine, we worked longer hours and were more stressed, but she never complained and helped a lot.  Went dog training after milk recording so it was a long day.\nWednesday\nEarly morning start today.  5am to go milk recording but I always get a lovely breakfast. We also got invited to a party at the farm in May so that's something to look forward to and its fancy dress so that will be fun, we have to dress up as children's characters.\nWe then attended a careers' convention at the Sands Centre until 7 pm, so another very long day, very tired. We saw a lot of children who were interested in pursuing veterinary work which is always encouraging.  I enjoy doing the careers days, it's interesting to see the next workforce, they seem to grow up so fast\nThursday\nMy claim to fame today was seeing the Princess Royal; I passed her at a junction and thought I was seeing things.  I bored everyone with that story!  We had a lovely staff lunch meeting, we all helped cook and sat and chatted about the future, we had no replies from the advert for a vet so we decided to try another Veterinary magazine so fingers crossed.  In the afternoon I managed to get very well caught up on my paperwork which is a rarity as I normally end up going somewhere or sorting something out, so I was very pleased especially as the year end is approaching.\nFriday\nDiscussed a few ideas with our Nurse regarding the small animal side and the possibility of getting some new equipment.  I shall have to do some adding up.  [husband] was at a Vet meeting locally for all the vets in the area on Thursday night and there were 3 other practices looking for vets and had been doing for some time without any luck at all, this is worrying as our case loads increase again it puts a strain on the vets, so fingers crossed our advert is in tomorrow.  In the afternoon I called to see one of our evening receptionist who is on maternity leave at present.  It was good to see her and her new addition so I was filling her in on the news and gossip  - hopefully she will be back to work the second week in April although the birth was a caesarean so I have told her to see how she is feeling, so we will discuss it again soon as this is her fourth child but she copes really well and is looking really healthy.\nSaturday\nIt snowed, I went to meet my Mum at Killington as we were having her dog while she went on holiday and nearly got stuck in the snow.  During foot and mouth [daughter] had counted the stock in the field between Carlisle and Penrith on the M6, anyway I did it again today - last year we counted 2 - this year we counted 12 - big difference.\nSunday\nWent for a walk around a local wood for the first time in over a year it was amazing how overgrown it had become, the paths were still visible but in places only just.  Met up with a friend's daughter to finalise arrangements for her father's surprise meal out next Friday for his 50th birthday\n\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 25th March 02\n\nMonday 25th March\nAnother very busy day today.  Still no answer to the advert for a new vet. [husband] spoke to another vet in the area and they had, had the same response - nothing.  It is good to be busy again. Our new receptionist is doing well and learning fast, so that's taking the pressure off me and [other receptioinist].  Completed the claim form for Business Link grant which helped a lot and enabled us to do things and advertise when we wouldn't have been able to.\nTuesday\nStarting to prepare for the end of our financial year.  I always dread this but it has to be done.  It will be nice to end another chapter, the Practice suffered badly last year and it was very worrying. We lost 3 vets and two lay staff.  But everyone is feeling the same. I have spoken to a few farmers today and the opinion is - well it is a lot better than this time last year.  It has been interesting to see how the effect of having new stock does throw them; we are getting called out a lot more which is good for us.  We are doing a lot more lambings and lambing is set to go on until may/June time this year.  We are very busy testing at the moment but it gives us the opportunity to see the new animals and discuss plans with the farmers. The relationship which was built during the f+m is now definitely benefiting, a lot have said how helpful it was and feel a lot closer - the family not business relationship is good.\nWednesday\nI had a day off today which was good.  I managed to catch up on a few things which I just hadn't had time to do with being so busy.  I got a lot organised for the holiday at the week-end which we are all looking forward to, but we can't all get away together, mainly due to no new vet and our financial year but at least we will all get a bit of a break.\n[daughter] got her report today and has done very well, we are so proud of her so fingers crossed for her GCSEs.\nThursday\nI spoke to Mrs W today who has been very much in action since they got f+m and even got in touch with politician etc. to help give farmers that voice.  She mentioned the Public Inquiry and like a lot of people feels that maybe rather than having a finger pointing blaming session and we all have our ideas on that, she felt that maybe trying to prevent it happening again would be a better idea.  I personally have begun to realize recently just how much and how deep the feelings run, I think I am more emotional now than when we were in the thick of it.\nFriday\nSpent all day knuckling down to the end of year - but got a lot done.  [husband], [daughter] and (vet student) went out for the day. It is [husband]'s first real day off since October. And it did him good. We all went out in the evening to celebrate a friend's birthday - it was really good.\nSaturday\nHoliday again today - [husband], [daughter], my sister and her daughter have gone away today to the cottage near Newton Stewart we have rented for a week. The weather is great so they should have a lovely time, this could be our only holiday this year. [husband]'s back on Monday, then I go on Wednesday - confusing isn't it.  Never mind at least we will all get away for a few days.\nSunday\nEnd of year day. Stocktaking, counting.  Sunny outside - boring but never mind it's done.  Our vet student went home today. She had really enjoyed herself and we had enjoyed having her, she bought us all some lovely gifts. It will be nice to be on our own again but I will still miss her.\n\nWeek beginning Monday 1st April 02\n\nMonday 1st April\nI had a lovely day - my day.  [husband] and [daughter] still away - played in the garden. Went for a walk, read some of my book - lovely! [husband] came back at tea-time so we went out for a meal - perfect.\nTuesday\nWent to help [another vet] (vet) TT test at one of our farms.  He had restocked and was very positive about the future, it was a lovely day and great to be amongst cows again.\nWednesday - Sunday\nHOLS!!  Great I didn't realise just how much I needed it, the weather was great, warm, sunny very relaxing.  All charged up again. \n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 8th April 02\n\nMonday 8th April\nBack to work today.  I had quite a lot of catching up to do and couldn't really get into it, never mind it will all still be there tomorrow. Hope we can get away again this year even for a few days.\nTuesday\nQueen Mum's funeral today. It was very quiet. We gave the girls time off to watch the funeral, it was a nice funeral if you can have one and they commented on the poem which was read about being thankful for the life and not being sorry - I must get it.  Our nurse suggested about giving it to clients when they have their pets put to sleep, nice idea.\nWednesday\nBack into it now, I had 2 very difficult SOA to complete. Farmers are slowly getting the idea but find all the paperwork hard, but it's a good chance for them to call in for a chat and coffee.  I so seem to spend an awful lot of time doing that now but it's always good to see how they are coping.\nThursday\nThe large animal work has been rapidly increasing and it has been putting extra pressure on all the staff, we do really need another vet but another advert and still no response at all, but they all work very hard and we do manage to get through the work. We chatted to the staff and tried to reassure them about the future but how can you when if we can't get another vet, we simply can't provide the service our clients need. It is very worrying and we are not sure of the solution or the future.  I think after that paragraph I need a 'we can do it', kick!!\nFriday\nOur new receptionists are settling in well and I did some work with them today which was good, they are both very enthusiastic.  A few years ago a (I?) taught NVQ in Animal Care so one of our receptionists is keen to do this so I organised some work for her to do - enjoyed that.  Castrated a colt in the afternoon sad I know but I enjoyed that!!\n\nSaturday\nWent shopping with [daughter] in the morning to buy her some new clothes, we had a good time.  Then started the sewing for the YFC field day, we had to make shorts and T shirt for a sport event, well I haven't really done sewing from a pattern for years, so let's just say it was fun!!\nSunday\nWent to Newcastle for the day via some fields we had to check for a client's SOA.  Had a lovely time and saw the blinking or winking - I'm not sure which one it is, it was nice to have a day all together.\n\nWeek beginning Monday 15th April 02\n\nMonday 15th April\nVery busy again, I did 175 miles today just dropping things off for farmers and vets and trips to the lab. I also found a new supplier of Paper Towels which will save us a lot of money - see so easy pleased!! It was very tiring but I do like being out and about and I even managed two cups of coffee on farms. Before FMD I felt that the relationship between vets and farmers was changing but our relationship during FMD did change for the better, I feel good about that but not the way it happened. Me and [daughter] had a girls night in as [husband] was away, that was fun.\nTuesday 16th April\n[husband] away at BCVA he is new on the committee and seems to be enjoying it, there is only him and another vet in Scotland from the North invited onto the committee, so they are putting together some suggestions to put to the government re FMD. Poor [another vet] was very busy again. We need a vet !!!\nWednesday 17th April\nI went to see an elderly client of ours this morning who has an old dog. She is going into hospital and won't go as she is worried about the dog. I offered to have Kelly the dog while she was in hospital and told her if I found out she cancelled it I would be cross. I enjoy talking to her, for her 87 years she is very fit and funny.\nAt lunchtime we all attacked the Bayer Rep for free goodies for our open day, he was very co-operative and got away without a scratch! We didn't have an open day last year so it should be fun - back into a routine.\nThursday 18th April\nI bottomed my paperwork this morning, no interference, no phone calls, no SOA, very productive!! Me and [husband] went to see the finical advisor at the bank in the afternoon, it was good but we can't retire this year - never mind - he gave us some good ideas, so fingers crossed we might just be able to retire one day!!\nFriday 19th April\nVery busy - we need a vet repetitive isn't it. We were looking back in the visit book to this time last year - this year we had 21 calls which is a practise record last year we had 1!!. There is a lot of general "well this time last year" in some ways it all seems very unbelievable but in other ways it still very sad and emotional. I think more emotional now than when it was actually happening, when you see farmer’s eyes filling up talking about it. I used to worry about upsetting them, but I feel it is good to talk and it also helps me, I don't know if that’s right but it seems to work.\n\nSaturday 20th and Sunday 21st April\nHuge sewing for YFC field day. I also found out today that there is also baking and flower arranging - oh joy! \n\nWeek beginning Monday 22nd April 02\n\nMonday 22nd April\nGood day today - I've been to see my new girls (the cows over the road from us). It was the one we could see from the practice it was an awful day, they had lasted until June. Anyway it was good to see the new girls and I think I amused the farmer, we had a great time I've never enjoyed helping TT test more - on a high!\nTuesday 23rd April\nDriving around today I've been trying to listen to what the Euro inquiry people have been up to - not a lot from what I hear. I was talking to an old farmer in the afternoon and he wasn't impressed either and we agreed that it was all very well having these inquires, but were they going to help. I suppose only time will tell but I still feel that unless something is done about the cause then the chances are it will happen again, and to what extent and what has been learnt, and what will be different next time because the one thing that must be prevented is the effects on people, nobody really got that. I always remember the Samaritans advert; nobody seemed to care - probably no paperwork! Can you tell I've had a particularly bad day with the SOA, and the good news is they want to keep them permanently! Great. \nWednesday 24th April\nI went to see Mrs B again today and she had heard from the hospital again, she was going in next Tuesday so I arranged at collect K on Monday afternoon. I'm pleased she's having her op, I have also been in touch with one of her daughters in Devon, so hopefully everything should go well now.\nGood news we have heard of a vet at DEFRA who is looking for a job. [husband] phoned her and she is coming on Saturday afternoon so fingers crossed.\nThursday 25th April\nMy cows got the TT reading this morning and they are all okay. We have heard of a farm in Welton who had to have some killed as they had 7 reactors and they will need tested, there has been quite a few reactors in the country after restocking but with all the new stock coming into the county from all over the Country it was bound to happen.\nFriday 26th April \nSorted out the Open Day next Saturday got everything sorted, what we need, who's getting it etc. Me and [receptionist] went to Smuts fancy dress and decided budget wouldn't go to costumes, so we got some face paint and masks, Me and [daughter] and her friend and Mum went to see Westlife ant Newcastle, it was great fun.\nSaturday 27th April\nShopping, washing and sewing, I know how to show myself a good time. We all went to [another vet]'s at night for a BBQ it was great fun, cold but fun. We have been so lucky with [another vet] she is so nice and enthusiastic. We interviewed a vet today from DEFRA but she is a little uncertain what she wants to do, but she seems nice, and we told her what we needed so fingers crossed.\nSunday 28th April\n\tFinished my sewing.\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 29th April\n\nMonday\nThe Inquiry begins, for what good it will do. I find I have very mixed feelings, part of me thinks what's the point and another is expecting something but quite what I don't yet. Someone to blame, a solution, an ability to turn back the clock, a lesson to learn or an end. The last I know won't happen for a while and the repercussion will probably be felt for a few years yet.\nTuesday 30th April\nSorry ill in bed today with the cold from hell.\nWednesday 1st May\nMuch better today and we heard from the Vet we interviewed on Saturday and she has accepted our offer and can start on the 27th May - Yippee - holidays and easing of the pressure on [husband] and [another vet].\nI am still finding the saying "well this time last year". Mrs R phoned and mentioned the saying as it was a year ago today that their cattle were killed but she was phoning with good news - they had their first calf born, healthy and well and she wanted to tell us - lovely.\n Thursday 2nd May\nIts official SOA are here to stay - oh joy - so we contacted all our farmers who had not yet got one who we thought might need one. So lots of chatting and catching up - so quite nice.\nOpen day is on Saturday and there still seems to be an awful lot to organise but we have been busy all day and things are looking better and slightly more organised. I haven't seen or heard much of this enquiry, but when you do hear some I think we really went through that - weird.\nFriday 3rd May\nOpen Day panic, that’s all I've done today, but it is all coming together and it will be fine - hopefully. We have had quite a good response about people coming and people checking when it is and what's happening. So fingers crossed. Must go and bake my buns!!\nSaturday 4th May\nOpen Day\nIt went really well, we started at 2 p.m. and there was a steady stream of people all-enjoying themselves - hopefully. It stayed fine the whole time thankfully; I even got my face painted by [another vet] our vet. We managed to raise £96.71 for the 'Pat Dogs' and £27.35 for National Pet week. Not too bad for 2 hours. The staff came round for tea later which was nice and we had a jolly time.\nSunday 5th May\nGardened all day till I dropped, loved it. I grew quite fond of the garden last year as it was another little escape. \n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 6th May\nMonday 6th May\nBank Holiday - We had a lovely family day out which have been very rare, so it was surprising that we all got on - nearly. It still feels strange being able to go to places, not only as a family but also the fact that for so long we didn't really go anywhere.\n\n\nTuesday 7th May\nVery busy. I have been doing my hollering - as [receptionist] calls it! - what I have actually been doing is dropping off drugs and chatting. I call it customer relations. I still feel funny going onto farms, I have been to the gate for months, just momentarily I feel - can I - its hard to explain - it still feels normal to drop things in the bucket or bin rather than driving onto the farm. But its good and the coffee with proper milk is brill.\nWednesday 8th May\nMr G has got some cows, he was one we thought wouldn't restock as although both his sons are on the farm neither are interested in cows. One has horses and the other has everything else from turkeys, dogs, wallabies, monkeys, pheasants etc a real menagerie. Daddy G is 66 and couldn't decide weather to get more cows or not.  It was a bit of Dad says yes - sons say no. Anyway Dad won. To begin with I was on the sons side, but when he came in beaming and laughing and full of joy how could you disagree with him? Before they got FMD he had called into the practise and was having a coffee and was very upset, his friend had phoned him that morning to say he had FMD. Mr G just broke down and sobbed, it was one of my worst experiences. I found it so hard not to join him, but to be strong and console him, for him of the old gentlemen showed the depth of feeling and despair that was around. I have a lump now remembering it. Anyway in comparison if getting a few cows to milk can make such a big difference and be so happy - so what.\nThursday 9th May\nWent to a meeting in Preston with CL a vet from Brampton on the 'Marsh Report' which is regarding Vets the privilege to dispense drugs. Anyway firstly we got lost, very lost and then on arriving at the meeting eventually - it was all doom, gloom and depressing. Just when you thought things were getting on tract - bam - more changes, more paperwork. We will have to wait and see just how it effects us, but effect us it will.\nFriday 10th May\nI had a half-day off today and did fun things like washing, shopping and sorting bits and pieces - but I couldn't be a housewife all the time. I ended up leaving the cooking and washing and took the dog out instead, much more fun! \nSaturday 11th May\nTook [daughter] out to the Young Farmers Field Day - it was brill - I was only going to stay an hour, anyway I stayed all day. Everyone was there some I hadn't seen for ages. I had only spoke to them and some new faces. It was great to see them all together. I do feel farmers and their families are very special people, they have a wonderful sense of fun, they are very solid, they are very close - mind when you talk to them you find they are all related. They are also very proud of what they do. Its sad the public do not see them this way, gone are the days when the farmer was the hero who worked all hours to feed the nation. Well it was a wonderful day.\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 13th May\n\nMonday\nVery busy - Milk recorded this afternoon. It was good fun, they are preparing for their party on Saturday night it is a fancy dress party, me and [husband] are going but I can't say what as yet!! J mentioned that a friend of theirs was still not speaking to them because J never lost his cows, and yet J said he had tries to explain how hard it was for them waiting. His friend had accepted the invite to the party so here’s hopefully to friendship. It show's how feelings can so easily run away and be blown into something very silly, we are all on the same side after all. I see a lot of changes in a lot of people either bitterness, resentment, jealousy and emotionally drained in the whole situation. \nTuesday 14th May\nEarly morning milk recording. Got my outfit sorted for the fancy dress party on Saturday. Me and [friend?] went to try it on, it was good fun. \nWednesday 15th May\nI have done tons of backwards and forwarding today so I've been hearing about the Inquiry a bit today. I have decided I am going to the one in Carlisle out of interest and curiosity. I still feel what is it all for - so I may find out at the meeting. I am still waiting for the day FMD is not mentioned or I have some dealing regarding it.  \nThursday 16th May\nI spoke to a young couple who farm and they were enquiring about the changes in buying drugs - it caught me off guard as we knew it would happen but not when. I arranged to meet with them and chat to see what they wanted and I think I will go from there. People are farming in different ways than they used to pre FMD, weather it is a result of FMD or not I don't know but there are going to be a lot of changes heading our way.\nFriday 17th May\nAccountant day today - what a joy, no he is brilliant. He has helped so much over the years and last year he was brilliant. He did have one consolation - we wouldn't have to pay too much tax! This year anyway!\nSpoke to a rep in the afternoon, we have had all the usual offers that we get every year but this year they look good as if we buy more this year than last year we can get more off - that should be easy.\nSaturday 18th May\nParty night - I am Cruella Deville and [husband] is Bob the Builder. It was great seeing people we hadn't seen for ages if and when you could recognise them. It was a really good do. We met a client of ours and she is very anti everything re FMD, I feel she is really suffering and very bitter. She was little Bo Peep who had lost her sheep and didn't know where to find them but Mr Blair can, she preached all night to anyone she could. I feel sorry for her as people were avoiding her. Sad.\nSunday 19th May\nRecovered!\n\nWeek beginning Monday 20th May 02\n\nMonday\nA new cattle fertility programme has now become available to Vets and farmers. Two of the people who work came along to see us and discuss the advantages . We already had a few farmers keen in having the program installed. We discussed the program later with a few farmers and they were very keen recognising that they are going to need a program like this that can help them keep a tighter control on their herds fertility and health, which would enable them to remain in business. As most of them are realising, they are now running a company not a family concern. So it’s quite exciting another step forward hopefully.\nTuesday 21st May\nVery busy today everyone stretched, it will make life so much easier when our new vet, Anne, starts next week. I got caught up on my paperwork and also managed to catch up on some others bits that needed done. Even got all the SOA - DEFRA paperwork sorted - miracle.\nWednesday 22nd May\nWent to see two of our farmers today to discuss the Interherd Cattle Health and Fertility computer program. It was good to chat a listen to their plans, hopes and dreams and their concerns. A lot of farmers are still very unsure of the future and quite honestly are keeping their options open. Definitely gave me some pause for thought and a few concerns.\nThursday 23rd May\nQuiet day today. Mr W one of our farmers came today and we had a chat, he was also worried about the future. I hope some good positive news comes soon.\nFriday 24th May\n[friend] is having a few weeks off as our new vet is starting on Monday. [she] came to us 6 months 10 years ago and she has helped us out ever since, and so during FMD she offered to help. It was great to have her and she worked all hours as there was only her and [husband] for 5 months. So she is having some well deserved time off and will come back part time when we need her. I'll miss her but she says she's a lot of housework to catch up on!\nSaturday 25th and Sunday 26th May\nMy sister and niece came to stay for the weekend. We had a nice time just pottering here and there. \n\nWeek beginning Monday 27h May\n\nMonday\nNew vet started. She was very nervous but very keen. She had spent 10 months working for DEFRA and was relieved to be finished with it. She had mainly been involved with re-stocking. Anyway she managed very well and hopefully will settle well. \nTuesday 28th May\nWe booked a holiday today, our 1st holiday for about 2.5 years. So we are all very excited. We are going on a barge near Chester so hopefully the weather will be good. It will be nice to go away together especially after last year. I think we all need it. You do get used to staying at home but with all the trouble and upset last year, it will be nice. Can't wait.\nWednesday 29th May\nHad a lovely day. Ended up doing lots of visiting around the farms dropping drugs off and seeing another farm regarding the Interherd program. I went to a large dairy farm and they are a young couple who are keen and enthusiastic about their future so it was very positive and encouraging. It does give you a lift and helps put things back on track.\nThursday 30th May\nWe had a farmers coffee morning - not planned, they appeared at once so it was quite nice. Its quite interesting when you hear them together, there were two elderly and one younger one, and their opinions, hopes, thoughts and experiences were very different. \n\n\nFriday 31st May\nAnother mega paperwork day - exciting! Played in the garden this afternoon and walked the dog. \nSaturday 1st and Sunday 2nd June\nHad a weekend off together, we went visiting and walking. Very nice.\n\nWeek beginning 3rd June\n\nMonday\n[My sister and her daughter] came to visit.  We went into Carlisle but nothing very exciting.  The weather was very disappointing for all the organised events.  We went to a couple and got wet.  [daughter] and [niece] got some Jubilee mugs at one of them.\nWednesday\nI ended up helping (our new Vet and new Nurse) to operate so that was good.  I don’t get much chance to help in the op room these days so I enjoyed it thoroughly.  [New vet] is doing very well, she’s only been qualified 3 years and up to now has not done much small animal so I was worried she would not like it, but she seems to be enjoying it thoroughly and has settled in really well.  It seems like she has been here for ages.\nThursday\nWe had our first work experience from a school for 2 years.  She was very interested in the FMD and said they had done a bit on it at school so I went through a few of the details and we discussed the human side which she hadn’t really been discussed at school.  To finish I had 4 SOA to do as well – such joy.\nFriday\nI foolishly decided to decorate the surgery and op room.  You know when you think you have a good idea then realise you have bitten off more than you can chew – well by Sunday night I was dead – I got it all done and it did look better as nothing had been done last year but boy was I tired.\n\n\nWeek beginning 10th June\n\nMonday\nOur new Interherd disc arrived so I went and installed it on two farms, they were very keen to get started so it's quite exciting. They both have young sons who are keen to farm also so that helps. Sometimes I fee if we can just get through this and then other times I feel what's the point - but down the middle of the road we have to try and make it work and fight to make it work.   \nTuesday 11th June\nQuite busy today - but [daughter] had her brace taken off today so we had two visits to the hospital. She looks different without her brace now.\nWednesday 12th June\nHad a day off today - peaceful.\nThursday 13th June\nNMR came to see us to discuss how they can work with us, the Interherd and the farmer. It was interesting and competitively priced. So that is now another service we can offer to our farmers which can only help long term. I went to see another farmer to enter the Interherd; there is a lot of interest. We are trying to maintain a close contact with our farmers to enable us to meet their needs as things progress. In the near future there are going to be a lot of changes regarding the dispensing of drugs which could alter the way we work, this should be finalised by January 2003, but until then we are not sure just how they will affect us.\nFriday 14th, Saturday 15th and Sunday 16th June\n[husband] birthday so I have organised a surprise weekend away for him. We had a wonderful time and thankfully the weather was good.\n\n\nWeek beginning 17th June\n\nMonday\nVery quiet almost like last year but thankfully not for the same reason, they are all busy silaging.  Normality is returning.  But they are still finding it difficult with new herds not really knowing their new cows yet or how they react.  One farmer said it was like a new car, ‘you have to drive it a good few miles before you are at ease and the seat is comfy!!’  Well that’s one way of putting it.\nTuesday\nI went to see Mr J to discuss our new Interherd Program – a computer program that they can keep records of all their herds records and we can do analysis on them.  It’s quite exciting and interesting and shows farming is heading to the computer age and the farmers are learning another new skill – not sure they are all comfy with.  After I had shown Mr J the program and how to use it, he was keen but said that for now he would maybe go and cut down a few thistles!!!\nWeds/Thursday\nVery quiet – did some catching up on paperwork, then went for a walk and played outside in the garden.\nFriday\nQuery FMD in pigs.  The effect it had was very strange, part was horror, worry and another strange one was of expecting it.  Although you did get on with everything and it’s all sorting out and normality is returning it’s as if you are waiting for it to appear again.  I went back to watching the news listening to the radio, waiting, fingers crossed.  SAD DAY.\nSat/Sun\nQuiet weekend.  [husband] was working.  No results on the pigs yet.  The bush telegraph is working again.  We have had quite a number of worried farmers on the phone but no results as yet.\n\n\nWeek beginning 24th June\n\nMonday\nBreakthrough no FMD talk at all today.  I suddenly realised in the evening.  All is getting back to normal and everyone is coming to terms with the paperwork.  Farming does what it always has recently fallen from one disaster to another but they are very proud of their trade but do now feel let down by both the government and the public who for whatever reason don’t seem to have the same respect for farmers as they used to but this just may be due to how we all are and work these days.\nTuesday\nPigs given the all clear – everyone breathes a sigh of relief – It has a very chilling effect but again shows we are still clear of the disease – for now!!\nWeds\nOver the last few days we have had 6 dairy herds with very strange mastitis.  [husband] has been out to visit them with a vet from VLA Penrith but they as yet have not established a cause.  Samples show nothing and usual treatments don’t work.  So it is a case of new herds, new problems.\nThursday\nDAY OFF and FRIDAY\nSat/Sun\nHad my niece, we had a lovely time but very exhausting.\n\n\nWeek beginning 1st July\n\nMonday\nWe have invested the new Interherd computer programme.  Mon-Thurs this week I have been out and about visiting farmers loading and explaining the new programme.  Some of which I haven't been too far over a year, it's good to see them and chat FMD of course is always still at the top of the list followed by the milk price and all the regulations.  It's so amazing and sorrowful to see how deep the emotions run.  The stories and feelings they have are still very strong - but all are very emotional.  They are very resilient but do still have these deep feelings - you wonder how the effects will come out, but it will take time.\nFriday\nI did a SOA for the first time in ages.  I had to look back as to how to fill it in.  They are going to review these shortly so watch this space.  All the regulations are up for review in about November so we will see what they come up with.\nSunday\nWe have a vet student Alison for two weeks staying with us.  She came to Northumberland during FMD so was interested to know what had happened and where everything was at.  The more you go through it the easier it becomes.  She had been involved in the culling and had found it very hard; she did it for 1 month and was glad to leave. \n\n\nWeek beginning 8th July\n\nMonday/Tuesday\nI went milk recording, the farm I go to did not get FMD and they were saying how hard it had been for them and to some extent they did have as hard a time as people with FMD, just in different ways they had to do the checking for longer.  The farmer said he used to dread going into the sheds in a morning as he dreaded what he might find.  Also washing the milk takers, not being able to visit friends and family.  All the regulations re moving stock, just the not knowing they said it put quite a strain on them all.  One of the ways they coped was they built a tennis court and played a lot of other games and as a family this brought them closer.\nWeds\nInterherd Day - We held a meeting today to invite all the farmers interested in using the programme, the people who wrote the programme came along to talk to the farmers.  It was very good and the farmers seemed to enjoy themselves.  They have all found they are needing this sort of programme as with the new herds, they are unsure of how their fertilities are.\nThurs/Fri\nVisited Mr W and Mr J re Interherd - got a proper cup of coffee and proper milk, that's what I missed about last year and one of the reasons I go to visit them.\nSat/Sun\nVery busy small animal operated and nursed all week-end.  I was shattered - poor me!!\n\n\nWeek beginning 15th July\n\nMonday\nVisited [farmer] re Interherd programme, they are very positive about the future and have a son who is very keen.  I can see a difference in their attitude over the past few months, when I first started going they were unsure they had done the right thing and had seriously debated getting any stock back, if they could cope with the changes and the regulations and paperwork, but as [he] said 'he just loves farming' not that he doesn't know anything else he just loves farming.  And now they have progressed and working together within the family they have a good system and appear to be enjoying themselves.  The farm has been in the family for generations so financially they can manage.  I hope they make it, they are lovely people and a real inspiration.\nThe report on FMD and the recommendations is to be published soon, but from what we have heard so far it doesn't say anything we didn't already know and the recommendations are a little sketchy to say the least, they need a good sensible positive protocol for any future outbreak and at present if it all flared up again tomorrow, it would be the same mess. What have we learnt - hopefully time will tell.\nTuesday\n Sad news today, one of our clients who didn't get FMD has decided to give up.  He is on a tenanted farm.  The owners are not keen on any expansion or even repairing old buildings, to remain competitive, he sees he needs more cows but can't build any more sheds.  So in his words he has decided that there is maybe 'more to life’, he is in his mid forties, so he is going to sell up and try something new.  Very brave but sad. \nI think this will not be the first of our clients to do this.  Everyone asks about the future and at the moment nothing and nobody is certain.  Can the smaller farmers keep up?  Will the bigger ones get bigger?  What new regulations and paperwork will be brought in?  Only time will tell.\nWeds\n[husband] has been away at the Br Cattle Vet Ass (BCVA) Committee meeting.  He has been on the committee for about 18 months now.  He enjoys it and it is another feather in his cap.  Anyway he gave a talk on the problems post FMD and on the problems farmers were and had experienced.  He also gave a talk on some of the mastitis cases that had appeared in new herds.  We have had some very strange mastitis cases this year.  Anyway there was a competition for the best talk and [husband] won.  I was very proud of him.  None of the other vets there had ever seen anything like it, but some had found more bad mastitis in cows this year so whether it’s the change of area weather or housing, we shall see.\nThursday\nI had a visiting day today - good fun.  I went t see the farmers who have the Interherd so I had lots of coffee with 'proper milk' yummy.  It's also interesting to hear all the different stories and feelings, hopes and worries.  There are so many.  Most are ready for the challenge ahead but unfortunately some aren't.  Nobody knows how or when things will change but over the next couple of years they will, some good, some not so good.\nByee I'm off on my hols now.  Yippee!!\n\n\n\nHOLIDAY Week beginning 22nd July\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 29th July\n\nTuesday\nBack to work, the staff have coped really well, no falling out, no problems.  It's the first time in nearly two years we have left them so it was a bit worrying, but they are a great bunch, we are very lucky.  I feel so relaxed and it was great fun seeing through all my paperwork - NOT.  I had a bit of a lazy day but good.\nWeds\nPoor Mr G is having a terrible time with DEFRA. When we did his restocking TT test he had a reactor, so the cow was slaughtered but no lesions were found.  The herd had to be tested again 60 days later and another reactor was found and slaughtered.  Anyway he was due another test in 60 days and this was arranged for 9.00am.  9.00am came and went and at 10.00am he phoned to see what was happening.  They had forgotten, they could come out at 1pm.  No good, the last two times they had tested it had taken 6 hours to test the cows and they still needed milked which would mean a very late finish.  Mr graves explained this and was told not to complain he had bought the cows into the country with TB and he would have to do it when they said.  They know how to get people on their side don't they.  Anyway a heated discussion had pursued and eventually sense was seen.  The test was rearranged for another day at 9.00am so fingers crossed.\nThursday \nWe got money through today from the FMD recovery fund, it has been very useful and enabled us to do things we wouldn't normally be able to do.  We had our vans sign written, we got a laptop computer which had been great for the interherd programme, we got pens and pads to give out, [husband] was able to hold meetings with our farmers pre stocking to advise them what to look for etc.  So it has been extremely useful. It was nice to be given the money, some people say it would have been spent elsewhere but it helped us immensely and we feel we have spent it wisely. \nFri\nHad a paperwork catch up day today, it has been quiet recently due to holidays and harvesting but thankfully not like last year.  We looked back again and today last year we had no calls and today we had four, so although quiet not that bad.\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 5th August\n\nMonday\nVery quiet\nTuesday\nVery quiet\nWeds\nVery quiet\nThursday \n[daughter] got her first job\nFri\nTook [daughter] to my sisters for the week-end\nSat\nQuiet week-end\nSun\nGardening – Going on holiday again next week YIPPEE!!\n\nSorry it’s been very quiet this week as mentioned before this is usual as everyone is on holiday and the farmers are harvesting.  I have caught up and have been enjoying a few days just poddling, going out with [daughter].  Shopping – food, it’s nice to have some catch up time.\nOn Thursday [daughter] got a job – her first proper job well nearly – at the Travel inn at the bottom of our road, she is so excited and already planning what she is going to spend her hard earned cash on.\nOn Friday I took [daughter] to my sisters in Lancashire for the week-end.  I came back on Friday night and we decided to meet up at [husband]’s Mum and Dad’s caravan near Whitby on Monday for a week so another holiday.  I don’t know you have one and then another, anyway it should be good fun. \n\n HOLIDAY - Week beginning Monday 12thth August \n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 19thth August \n\nMonday\nVisited Mr A today to load Interherd onto his computer. He has definitely decided to sell up – he is hoping by early next year.  This has all been very sudden but his son is no longer interested and as Mr A said ‘who can blame him’.  With all the new regulations and paperwork a lot are finding it hard.\nTuesday \nWe had an Environment Agency visit this morning to check how and where we dispose of our waste in practice.  Thankfully we are doing everything properly but this visit took two and a half hours and lots of form filling in.  It is they that check these things but the extent in questionable!!\nMr G called in the afternoon – he is having problems with his cows, they keep going off colour.  We have so many new herds that started of doing well, happy and settling in fine then about 3-4 months after they arrived they start being ill, have mastitis, off colour, not eating, not milking properly – a wide variety.  It’s very strange; the vets don’t really know what’s happening, we have a few on regular blood sampling trying to find any changes.\nWeds\nMe and [husband] went to the accountant to see just how bad financially we really had done last year – and oh what a surprise it was bad.  In fact we nearly qualified for children’s Tax relief.  The main thing is we survived in a fashion!!  Hopefully it will be better next year!!\nThursday \nI visited two farmers today on the Interherd.  They are finding it brilliant, they have both recently had Farm Assurance visits and Interherd had helped them enormously and helped them reach the standards.  They both appreciate how much easier it is for them and less paperwork – heaven.  It’s so good to find something to help them.\nFri\nI have been phoning our main Drug Company’s Reps inviting them to our Open Evening – all very keen.  I think they just enjoy the crack.\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 26th August  \n\nVery quiet this week on both large and small animal, it must be the last holiday rush before going back to school.  We managed to do some catching up and decided a four day week would be nice!!\nI did quite a bit of playing on Interherd so that when I visited farmers about it I knew what they want to see and where to find it!  Most of them are interested in the medicines book as this keeps excellent stock records from when the drug/product is born, where it has gone and batch numbers and expiry dates.  These are all the information they need to produce when they get inspected and doing it manually can be very time consuming.\n\n\nWeek beginning 2nd September\n\nMonday 2nd September\nIRS 9.30, Garst Milk Rec\nTuesday\nGarst Milk Rec, Dog Course\nWeds\n[daughter] back to school, Exporting is back\nThursday\n Exporting\nFri\nChange date of open evening – GB way – now 15/10/02, Exporting\nSat\nOff [sister and niece].\nSun\nOff\nMonday\nEvery 2 years we are checked by our Radiographer Advisor to ensure everything is well and we are doing everything right.  They check the X-ray machine, our records and our monitoring records – we passed.  In the afternoon I went milk recording, it was very warm and very flyie, but good fun.  They are thinking of getting a new parlour, twice as big as Mr G feels in the future milk will have to be produced by quantity not quality, but it is difficult and expensive decision to make for him – we shall see.\nTue\nEarly morning milk recording this morning but I got a lovely breakfast with proper milk. I got to check the large animal when I got back.  We also started our new puppy-training course in the evening, that went very well, it is a more 1 to 1 basis, our Nurse runs it.  I go along and help with moral support – it was good fun but I had a very long day and went to bed when I got back.\nWeds\n[daughter] went back to school today, I’ll miss her following me round helping out and her ‘Mum can you take me……’.\nWe may have some exporting of sheep on Friday, there is a pedigree Texel sheep sale at H & H Borderway. It is the first exporting we have done in about 20 months.  As you can guess the paper work has tripled, there has been numerous phone calls to ad from DEFRA trying to make sense of it.  But I must say people up here are not good at clarifying what they have written – now there’s a surprise!!\nThursday\n I have spent the whole day either reading new expert regulations or running backwards and forwards for new paperwork, what we have to complete and what they should bring.  Well it could be fun.\nFriday\nWell full really isn’t the word I would use, we needed more paperwork, they needed more paperwork, it took most of the day and we only had 3 sheep to send.  Draining. The one good thing was seeing everyone at the Auction, some new faces and some have gone.\n\n\nWeek beginning 9th September\n\nMonday\nT's 7th birthday. We have another vet student studying at the moment for 2 weeks. We have had five this year so far and another before Christmas but she won't stay in the house as she is from Carlisle.  It is nice to have them and it makes us behave but I won't have as many next year.  They have all been interested in the FMD and some had a chance to help out which was an eye opener for them.  I spoke to [student] about it all, how it affected everyone, what happened and what didn't!!  Now talking about - almost a year from the last case - I don't find it as hard and I think I can hide how emotional it was, but at the time I wasn't. I was more angry.  I feel now FMD or the aftermath has sadly become everyday life, I don't rush for news on it or yearn information, I think because directly or indirectly we live with it everyday, it all has really become part of our lives.  It is very difficult to put into words or explain.\nI also went to visit one of my Interherd farmers in Lancaster; they are very pleased with it and are coping well.  Mrs M was crushed by the pet cow a month ago and was very lucky.  She had two broken legs, cuts and bruises; needless to say the cow has gone to greener pastures.  They are very resilient and are planning for the future and it is nice to be a part of their planning.  I also get proper milky coffee!!!  See so easy pleased.\nMilk recorded tonight at Mr G's so early morning tomorrow.  I'm still trying to persuade them into Interherd so finger crossed.\nTuesday \nEarly morning milk recording failed on the Interherd due to a cow breaking a leg - I have never actually experienced it happening before. I generally hear farmers needing a slaughter cert. Or a cow put down to see it and the family's reaction - I was humbled I think is the word.  It was an accident that can happen but the look on their faces was such deep sorrow - the father even places his head in his hands.  At breakfast we all talked about it, she was only a heifer getting ready to be served for the let time, she was a difficult birth, they had all helped, well bred and she was jet black with a huge white spot on her side so no prizes for guessing the name.  But as the farmer said you can't look after them, feed them, care for them, day in, day out without caring about them or why would you do it.\nIn the afternoon I attended a course on management.  Employment law, customer service at Barnard Castle, it went on till 9 pm with dinner after so I decided to stay over - very spoilt.  Good course, excellent food, lovely hotel.\nWednesday\nCame back from my course leisurely and stopped at Penrith for a bit of shopping - very pleasant. I'm not a good shopper but it was nice. I had to get back for 11 am as \nwe were having a new credit card machine fitted.  He duly arrived - well what an obnoxious man, he was moaning because we had a switchboard, he had to dial 9, this was wrong, that was wrong and then was he not going to get offered a coffee, to which he was told 'not without the special word', he was a bit aghast and said please.  I swear if I had not just come from a course explaining customer service, I would have murdered him!!  God bless courses and of course credit card machine men!!!\nIn the afternoon I was visited by the RSPCA advertising company, did we want an advert in their leaflet?  Anyway it was £640 for quarter of a page for 2 years so I said we couldn't afford it, it suddenly dropped to £410, I was a little suspect so I got [receptionist] to quietly check if the company were connected to the RSPCA. Anyway while I was waiting I said it was still a little bit more than we could afford what with FMD - see it is useful and true - he then said he could do it for £210, by which time [she] had confirmed they were with the RSPCA, so I said yes thank you - Bargain or Rip Off!!\nThursday\nI tried to get my head round isolation units and tried to explain to a farmer about them. I think we got there eventually.  When [husband] got back I got him to explain in simple English and it all made a lot more sense.  They will be handy for people selling and buying stock, but have as always the guidelines must have been written by someone who has never seen a farm or fields!!\nFriday\nCaught up on paperwork and trolleyed about.  Busy doing not a lot - I think the term is.  Anyway it was good.\n\n\nWeek beginning 16th September\n\nThis week has been appraisal week for the staff.  We didn't do any last year so I thought we had better get back into the swing of things.\nI quite enjoy the appraisals - it's a great opportunity to have a real good sort out, get new ideas and try and recognise any potential problems.\nWe started doing appraisals at bout 4 years ago and to start off with everyone was petrified and worried, but it was nice to see them actually excited and enjoyed it.\nIt is quite time consuming but very worthwhile so not much out and about this week\n\n\n\nWeek beginning 23rd September\n\nMonday\nAnother suspect case.  The main difference about this was as with other ones, I felt cold, sick, scared, this one was better.  I felt it was not going to be positive, whether it's a case of there have been a few now - not positive and this is just another one or confident that it no way could be positive.  I definitely wasn't as worried.  I don't know if that is being blasé (can't spell) - sorry.  But definitely  different.\nTuesday\nJust nicely busy today, just enough to keep everyone busy.  [husband] and (other vet) are away this week so that just leaves [new vet] and [other vet].  So it was a little worrying if it got busy.  It was the last of our dog training courses tonight; they all passed their tests well, and were very pleased with the progress they had made.  It was the first 4 week course we had run and feedback was very positive.  Our head nurse had put in an awful lot of work fir it so I was very pleased for her as well.  The next one is planned for November.\nWeds\nExperts are going to start again at H&H tomorrow and Friday.  It will be the first ones we have done for about 18 months. Surprisingly the paperwork for our side has not changed much but the Irish paperwork is horrendous.  Anyway after several phone calls to DERFA and DARD and various farmers who are wishing to sell at the sale I think we have it sorted. We will see tomorrow.\nThursday and Friday\nI've put these into one as that is how it felt.  After being so confident that we had everything in place to be able to export the sheep first thing Thursday morning DARD (like Irish DEFRA) changed the regulations and paperwork - such joy.  As you can imagine this sent everyone in a state of frenzy and another buzby full of phone calls. We didn't have the paperwork sorted when people had bought sheep and were wanting to leave, now some tempers are reaching fever pitch. Well we did manage to export them away on Thursday night - 3 hours late so they had to book different ferries. All done and dusted by Friday.  We were busy congratulating ourselves on achieving the impossible and how we all had worked hard to accomplish it and now had several more names on our Christmas card list - yes you guessed we had a phone call from well let me say one not happy chappy. After having no sleep, catching a late ferry waiting for the paperwork to arrive at Larne port, all the sheep were impounded. DARD had added one more form to their list of requirements and had forgotten to send them through or mention them - hours of phone calls and faxing.  Later I am very pleased to say that the sheep were released and free to go.\n\n\nWeek beginning 7th October\n\nMonday 7th October\nI made some trial arrangements for our Open Evening next Tuesday, all’s ready now.  They are a good night out and we all enjoy it.  We haven’t had one for a few years so it should be good.\nTuesday\nFor a while now we’ve been wondering if the Practice should invest in a house for an Assistant.  We have had a response to the advert for our new vet, so we thought we would go house hunting – anyway it wasn’t as much fun as I first thought, to start with obviously they are quite a price and it really isn’t that easy so we looked at one cardboard box for £70,000 and apparently it went for 82K – frightening.  Well we can keep on looking.  We have a vet coming for an interview on Saturday so fingers crossed.\nI’m off tomorrow and away at BVNA Congress over the weekend so I’m looking forward to that.\n\n\nWeek beginning 14th October\n\nMonday 14th October\nWe had a really good time at the BVNA (British Veterinary Nurse Assistant) Congress, we did loads of lectures a learned a few new things, got loads of freebies from the trade stands and ordered a new vaporiser for the anaesthetic machine which uses less Isoflo/Oxygen.  We also had a good Halloween Ball!!  Stayed up too late.  We got back on Sunday evening after 3 days of Congress and I was just settling down and filling in [husband] and [daughter] on what we had done when [another vet] came in wanting a hand with a caesarean on a dog, ah well nothing like getting back into it!!\nToday anyway feeling very tired we had to start getting ready for Open evening tomorrow night for the farmers.  So there was a lot of sorting out and tidying up to do as we open the house up as well.  We haven’t had one for a couple of years so it was quite exciting.  I really enjoy them, it’s great to have the farmers round, it’s mainly a nosh and natter night, but this year some of the drug companies paid for it, they have their stands in various parts of the house and surgery and normally everyone has a good time.\nTuesday\nOpen Evening Day – very busy.  Tidying up and moving things around.  Everyone helped, it’s good the staff are so excited about it as well, they have all mucked in and as usual did us proud.  The evening itself was brilliant it was so nice to see them all enjoying themselves and there is nothing farmers like better than a good natter, food and beer.  Quite a few said they had missed the Open Evening last year due to FMD.  As far as PR goes, definitely worth it.\nWednesday\nJust clearing up and sorting out.  All the staff said they had had good feedback.  So well done to everyone.\nThursday\nBack to it now, Got new Interherd update so I spent quite a lot of the day seeing what new buttons it had, it’s very clever.  Interherd is sold by NMR now and they are helping us sell it to the farmers whose life and paperwork hope to make easier.  The man in charge at NMR is coming to see us next week to explain how the milk recording side all ties in between NMR and Interherd.\nFriday\nToday was one of those when you rush round all day but you feel unsure of what you have actually done.  Very busy on both large and small side.  It’s very tiring but I do prefer it when we’re busy.\n\nWeek Beginning 21st October\n\nMonday 21st October\nMonday to Wednesday – off\nThursday\nHad a meeting with ID from NMR re Interherd.  They are going to give us cheap milk recording prices to help promote NMR and Interherd, they have also released a version of Interherd for farmers and we were given the first one in the country to trial and see what they thought.  It was very encouraging as NMR in the past years have gained themselves a slightly unpopular feel especially in Cumbria but they now seem to see this and are trying very hard and are committed to improving it.  They did a survey and now with area, herd size etc. the majority of dairy herds are in Cumbria even post FMD.  So fingers crossed.\nFriday\nA good day today.  [husband] was away at a BCVA Council meeting (Br. Cattle Vets Ass) and normally it goes mad, don’t know why.  Anyway it didn’t today, everyone was busy but not madly.  The large animal side is very up and down at present, but it is now TT and Blood testing season.  There are quite a lot of restocked herds to do as they are having to be done every year as opposed to 4 yearly.  We also have to test everything.  It is very time consuming and if they have a TT test then it is a two day job.  So for both the farmer and us, it is two days of the week when you can’t do anything else.\n\n\nWeek Beginning 28th October\n\nMonday 28th October\nWe have been asked by Newton Rigg College if we would be interested in teaching the animal care courses at the college so me and Vicky went along.  It was quite interesting and we thought if we could do it together it would work, so we said we would think about it and let them know.\nWent milk recording in the afternoon.  I do enjoy playing and the crack.\nTuesday\nMilk recorded again and discussed Interherd with them so we are going to use them as the pilot for the NMR/Interherd job, so that will be interesting.  Regarding the Newton Rigg offer we won’t be able to do it as our part time Nurse is leaving us.  She has been offered a place at Dalston Vets.  She will be able to train as a Vet Nurse there as we don’t do that in our Practice, so that will leave us short staffed.  It is sad but everything happens for a reason so we are now Vet and nurse hunting so more advertising and interviewing.\nWeds\nWe are sponsoring a class at the Northern Expo Holstein/Friesian shows.  We have a stand and a good natter.  I took some photos of a few cows and some freebies.  It was a good night, Barbara came with me and she presented the prize for our class.  The standard of cattle was amazing and it was a really good show.\nThursday\nOut of the photos I took for the Northern Expo I decided to make a photo album.  So I went round a few other farms photographing, it was good fun and nice to see that we do have some very good stock\nFriday\nGot a phone call today from my sister, she has sold her house in Lancaster and is moving up near us so that’s very exciting.  Otherwise a quiet day today.  \n\n\nWeek beginning 4th November\n\nMonday 4th November\nI went to show Mr J the new Interherd farmers version.  He was very interested and thought it would save a lot of paperwork and time, they all say that the paperwork since FMD has increased immensely along with the regulations.\nTuesday\nWe have decided to have a TV in the waiting room, to advertise products, services staff etc.  The man from Channel 6 came and took information so it should arrive next week, so it will be interesting to see how it works.\nWeds\nWe went to the bank today to see the financial advisor as this is a free service and very useful.  We have decided to buy a house for my sister to live in when she moves up and it will be an investment as well.  A bit of security just in case, as last year we discovered just how quick things can change, we went for just over 3 months with not a lot of money coming in and still wages to pay.  So we are now house hunting.    \n\n\nWeek beginning 11th November\n\nMonday 11th November\nOne of our vets has recently started her DBR (Dip in Bovine Reproduction) course at Liverpool. As part of her studies she is looking at the cows' milk quality pre and post calving to see if any effects are relevant to their overall performance and milk production and health.\nSo we collect milk samples from certain cows twice a week over the period of lactation and she is going to test them so watch this space - we have been very lucky with [another vet], her enthusiasm is boundless and she has become a very important member of our team.\nI have persuaded Mr J of B farm to milk record with us so that's more early morning jaunts!  The Interherd and NMR trial is nearly ready so hopefully by middle of December everything should be set up and running - hopefully!\nTuesday\n[two farmers] are milk reading today so I had a nice little trolly about.  I treated myself to some of Mr R's ice cream, very nice, well you have to support them, their new shop on the farm is doing very well.\nI loaded my first farmer version Interherd onto Mr W's computer, he is very impressed and very keen and thankfully it all worked well.\nWednesday\nWe have 'computer bugs' not good. So I have spent most of the day on the phone talking to the debugging man.\nThursday\nStill got bugs, we've had to run a bug fixer disc through all seven computers, it takes ages, pee'd off, fed up going back to pen and paper.\nFriday\nI must have sounded fed up as the lovely little man came to fix all the computers, he had to use 3 different discs due to all the different bugs.\nHad a meeting to discuss the NMR milk recording and we have quite a lot of farmers' interested mainly because we have got a good price for NMR so fingers crossed.\nThe bugs are fixed - yipeee.\n\n\nWeek beginning 18th November\n\nMonday 18th November\nDue to our junior Nurse leaving, I have been interviewing all week, we have had a lot of enquiries.  I decided to invite any possibles to come and play for the morning to see what they thought and how they got on with the staff.\nThere is one that has potential and sounds very nice but she can't make it until next Monday.\nThere was one that wrote a really good letter, but when she came in, well she was sweet, but not really suitable.\nOn Friday [nurse] left, we had a little party.  I hope she copes okay.  She bought me a lovely cow ornament to say 'thank you', it was lovely.\n\n\nWeek beginning 25th November\n\nMonday 25th November\nEllen came for her interview, very good.  She is keen, had experience, happy with the hours so she is coming back tomorrow afternoon for a play.\nWe all went out for our vet who is leaving on Friday to be a chalet maid in a French ski resort till April, it will be very sad to see her leave.  Unfortunately still no joy on the new vet front, but we are going to leave it till the New Year and try then. [other vet] is going to cover but unfortunately it means [husband]'s on duty more, it's a bit reminiscent of FMD, but we'll manage.\nTuesday/Wednesday\nFeeling very sorry for myself, got a bad cold, I got sent to my room because everyone was fed up of me sneezing all over them, honestly I was only 'shanning'.\nThursday\nMuch better today.  I sorted a whole load of Interherd data out and had a good play with it.\nHeard about Nestle's cancelling contracts next year from one of our farmers.  He felt a little unsure quite how it would affect them and that they were being dealt another kick in the teeth.  It's quite amazing how many I have heard questioning why they went back into farming.  We are feeling the effects, we didn't seem to be called out as often or they don't want the cows treated as its extra expense.  At the end of FMD they said over the next couple of years there would be changes in the way farmers and how many farmers worked. It's frightening to see it actually starting to happen and seeing the effects on our business.  Everyone agrees the whole industry has changed for the worst and is not the same and there is no pleasure now.\nAfter all that a total contrast, me and [daughter] went Christmas shopping and had a lovely time, we met [husband] after surgery and went for a pizza - lovely night.\nFriday\nEveryone's talking about Nestle's now and quite a few are angry.  Some aren't surprised and others just seem to resign themselves to it.\nWe had a lunch party for [leaving vet] today, it was good.  We gave her pressies. Although she has only been here a few months she will be greatly missed by everyone, you never know, she may come back one day.\nGood news I offered Ellen the nurse's job and she's accepted, I think she will do very well.\n\n\nWeek beginning 2nd December\n\nMonday 2nd December\nSpent all morning trolling around the countryside collecting [another vet]'s milk samples for her DBR, it was a lovely morning. Chatted to a few farmers.  A lot were still talking about Nestles.\nTuesday\nHad a meeting to clarify the start of the NMR milk recording, gave her all the information she needed to set up the herds. It's great to be able to offer the farmers a good cheaper deal.\nStaff Xmas party. It was good; everyone seemed to have a good time.\nWednesday\nDay off shopping - what joy.\nThursday\nHad an Interherd disaster today.  I couldn't get it load what normally takes 15 minutes instead took 2 and a half hours.  Anyway we succeeded eventually. They have just bought some in calf heifers so he was keen to keep up to date records and information.  We only have one more farmer to restock now and then that's everyone, it will probably work out at about 15% drop in work etc.  While waiting for Interherd to load, they were telling me that they had been approached asking them if they wanted to appeal against the amount of money they had received for the cattle, they said they wouldn't as they felt they had already been overpaid, not all farmers are money grabbers apparently.\nFriday\n[daughter] starts her mock exams now for the next fortnight. I have been waiting for the moods to start but as yet all is quiet, long may it last. She is very calm about it and has actually been revising quite hard, she has the ability. All she has to do is concentrate.\nWork wise I've done not a lot, it's one of the perks!!!  I've wandered around just playing doing nice jobs, quite a change. \n\n\nWeek beginning 9th December\n\nMonday 9th December\n[daughter]’s 16th birthday, scary, even worse she can learn to drive next year, never mind enjoy the safety!  We went out for lunch and did some shopping – it was good.  I don’t normally like shopping but we both enjoyed it.\nCame back to mayhem – a client (small animal) had been in complaining about his bill and had caused a stink – anyway I phoned him and once we had gone through everything he seemed happy. Hopefully he had either misunderstood or hadn’t had things explained to him – although difficult it is, better people say something rather than stewing over it and making it into something it’s not.  The small animal does seem to have more problems that way than the large animal.  I suppose the large animal is also a business but it doesn’t stop them caring.  I don’t think they could do what they do and work the hours they work if they didn’t care – sometimes they get a hard press, but I think it’s the few that get the publicity unfortunately.  I like it when farmers phone to say they have a sick cow and we ask what it’s doing and quite often the reply is she’s just not herself – need you say anymore.\nTuesday \nI’m going out to play milk recording with a new person via Interherd, he is one of our clients.  He is quite a character, old fashioned and yet in his thirties.  It was good he is very passionate about farming and its survival.  He has a lot of ideas he wants to try with different cows, he has just bought some Jerseys – hence he wants to record to see if there are benefits.  We milked 60 cows in 2 hours. At my other farm we milk 190 in that time – it’s good to see both ways.\nWeds\nEarly morning milk recording – good fun a lot more relaxed than my other farm.  Went to hairdressers straight after smelling of cows with pooh!! In my hair.  It’s a good job I know her well and she didn’t complain too much!!  The rest of the day was quite pleasant, a bit of paperwork and a skive (sorry can’t spell) to the lab.\nThursday/Friday\nWow, I think we had our Christmas rush, they should all be shopping it has been very busy. I do prefer it although a sit down now and then would be good.  Me and (Nurse) had a good time on Friday afternoon. I helped her bath and groom a dog; it was so naughty – nicely. We were both sweating buckets and soaked to the skin by the end, but we had a good laugh.\n\nWeek beginning 16th December\n\nMonday 16th December\nWith [daughter]’s mock exams she has needed runs to and from school at various times so ‘Mum’s taxi’ has been on overtime. She has been very calm about it – so we shall see.\nThursday was eventful as I now have an expectant Nurse and Vet – watch where you sit. Unfortunately there is a worry for both of them.  Our nurse/Evening receptionist is worried she may be losing hers and has had several tests and is obviously worried. She is going in for a scan on Tuesday so fingers crossed (Vet) is also pregnant – they have been trying for a while but has something with a long name wrong with her which causes her to miscarriage so she is pleased/worried/excited/scared and only 4 weeks so no lambing for her.  She is quite happy continuing with all other work for now.  I hope everything is ok with them both.  It can be difficult working with animals and being pregnant but as long as they are careful, they should be ok.\n\n\nWeek beginning 23rd December\n\nMonday 23rd December\nSo much for getting quiet for Christmas, we have had our busiest time for a few years which is good.  We are going to try advertising in the New year for a new Vet especially now [another vet] is expecting, it will all depend how she does, we may even need two. As even when [another vet] is on duty now, [husband] has to be on standby in case of any lambings, we have a couple of farmers starting anytime. \nMilk recording tonight as well but we now do it with NMR (well not literally) so I only need record once so not too bad and worked in will with Xmas round the corner and no mince pies made yet.\nTuesday\n[nurse] phoned, they are being positive at the moment, her hormone levels have increased and she has not bled anymore, it doesn’t stop them worrying though.\nSurgery was busy but we did finish by 1.30pm. My sister and [niece] arrived all set – off we go.\nChristmas was ace – very relaxing. Good fun, loads of pressies, didn’t have time to eat, too busy playing and it was so warm.\nFriday\nBack to work – a very busy day – lots of calls and surgery appointments, even some operations.  (Receptionist) was off so I was in charge, I enjoyed it, finding out what everyone got for Christmas.\n\n\nWeek beginning 30th December\n\nMonday 30th December\nBusy day, only me and [receptionist] in, thought it would be quiet – wrong.  Never mind, we coped.\nTuesday\n[nurse] has lost her baby or is losing it, they can’t see anything on the scan just an empty sac so she is going for a – don’t know what they call it but you can take some tablets that clear everything away. She is obviously so upset, what do you say.  She’s going to drop her other two off while she goes in – it is so sad.\nThursday 2nd January\nEverybody’s back again full crew, no-one knowing what day it is.  I could get used to the split weeks but at the moment I need it stuck to my head.  Quite busy as well which is good.  Trying to arrange TT test but farmers are never keen on them, you have to threaten them with Defra coming to do it – that works!!!\nFriday\nWent blood sampling sheep for scrapie with [husband] all day.  It was a beautiful day, very cold but we had fun, only we were stood next to a stream – women torture – cold air and running water, I had to nip back to the van for various things!!  By the time we finished I was frozen.\nThe test was part of the National Scrapie Plan which is to sample sheep for scrapie so if or when they find BSE in sheep, these ones will, or should be okay as there is a plan to slaughter the national herd if BSE is found, but as the farmer said they have already had human G. pigs for years as the Indians eat sheep brains and before the removal of bone meal and very dubious scabby sheep and they have not had a problem.  So we will wait and see.\n\n\nWeek beginning 6th January 2003\n\nMon 6th January 2003\nOur new nurse started today.  She managed very well and didn’t seem too confused when she went home.  She has worked in kennels before, she is very keen – fingers crossed.\n[another vet] is doing her DBR and for part of this she has to do a study, she has decided to look at progesterone and other levels in cows post calving for 6 weeks to see what happens.  So we collect a sample from each new calved cow and split it into 3 smaller pots and freeze awaiting testing in Holland.  Very exciting but quite boring, the results should be interesting though – hopefully.\nTuesday\nYou forget all the explaining you have to do when somebody new starts, so me and [nurse] have written a step by step guide to C, well sort of.  It’s all the little things.  We haven’t had a new nurse for a while, so hopefully the book can be used for other new people.  It took a bit of doing but we were pleased with it in the end.\nI spoke to Mr G re having Interherd at the farm.  All I have to do now is get round to see him – he is very hard to pin down, but we’ll try.\nWeds\n[new nurse] liked her new book.  She is doing very well and it’s nice for us too.  I always find it quite refreshing when someone is genuinely enthusiastic.  With us all being close and having their own areas it’s good to show someone else but can be scary when you see just how much they all do.\nThursday\nMilk pot day again today, the good thing is going to pick up the samples as you get a natter.  So Monday and Thursday, the samples are collected, split and frozen – it’s quite time consuming and I’ve just realised I didn’t ask [another vet] how long she was doing it for!!\nFriday\nWe have decided to try and get the Accounts up to date to see how things are going – bar not being able to find a vet.  So it’s one of those jobs you always mean to keep on top of but never quite manage because it’s not much fun.  Interruptions, queries and assistance were very welcome, but I got a good start.\n\n\nWeek beginning 13th January\n\nMonday 13th Jan\nA has started working with us again, just two days a week.  This will help a lot and help take the pressure off for surgery times etc.  I got to spend the day helping with TT testing – it was good fun and it stayed fine.  It was a good day.\nTuesday\nI had a milk recording day today – 3 in total.  We have started using NMR now so it was all new paperwork etc.  This is going to be cheaper for the farmers and works with the Interherd programme.  Anyway it all went well and everybody’s samples got away.\nWeds\nMilk recorded again at one of the three farms first thing.  Everytime I go he has a new plan as to how to make some money.  This month it is he is going to produce a new breed of cow – a jersey X MRI so we will see how that goes.\nThursday and Friday\nJust catching up on paperwork, me and [nurse] did some training with the new nurse.  She is settling in really well and very keen.\n\n\nWeek beginning 20th January\n\nMonday 20th January – Weds\nDecorated our bedroom.  It looks brill, it was in desperate need of it.  I like decorating, it’s good and messy. \nThursday\nI went on my Brucellosis testing training course at the VLC.  It was good fun.  This means that after I have now tested 150 cattle I get a licence which will enable me to blood test – this in turn will hopefully free up a vet.  It will also give DEFRA a bank of blood tester for any future outbreak – crafty.  They used to charge about £800 for this course, miraculously it’s now free – clever.\nFriday\nWe have had a reply to our advert – hoorah!  Well actually two, they are both foreign, one is in Germany and the other S. Africa, so we are waiting for their CVs – fingers crossed.\nDEFRA have now changed the 20 day standstill to 6 days – the general opinion seemed to be – so – it would be interesting to actually find out if and how well all the regulations are actually working, not well I feel would be the answer.\n\n\nWeek beginning 27th January\n\nMon – Weds\nVery busy.  I seem to have spent a lot of it in my car, dropping off, tooing and froing, which was nice but I do lose touch with the happenings at the surgery and on Tuesday, things had obviously got fraught, so I sorted those out and smoothed the creases, we are very lucky to have such dedicated staff.  Due to vet shortage and [another vet]’s pregnancy it does add extra pressure to everyone.  None of the incidents were very serious and easily sorted.\nThursday\nI went with my sister to take [niece] to the hospital as since she was born, she has had a lump on the side of her head above her eye so they Xrayed it.  That was fun persuading her to lie still.  I stayed overnight and came back Friday.\n\n\nWeek beginning 3rd February\n\nMonday 3rd Feb\nI did my first blood sample on a live cow today as it was an abortion enquiry and due to [another vet]’s pregnancy she is not doing them ad I need the practice.  It was good fun and I hit the 2nd time so I was very pleased.  Only another 145 to go before I get my licence.\nTuesday\nI completed the accounts today to go to the accountants, it was great fun.  I hope they come up with good news but the future is worrying – a backlash from the farmers not being confident.\nWeds\nI can’t remember if I told you [vet] was expecting.  Anyway she went for her first scan today and so far so good.  It is very worrying as she has a problem where she produces duff eggs and miscarriages.  She wants to carry on as normal as possible for now, but no sheep or abortions etc.  I hop it works this time as this is her 4th attempt.\nThursday and Friday\nVery nice, everything worked well, no mad rushes, time to catch up.  We discussed reducing some of the farm drugs as they are able to buy the over the internet with a prescription.  All the laws and rules will more than likely be changing at the beginning of March due to a report done for the Govt regarding drugs and animal use.  It will make a difference to how we operate as if they remove the vet surgeon’s right\nto prescribe drugs i.e. vets can only write prescriptions and not dispense drugs – it could alter things completely.  One way or another if farmers require the service, they are going to have to pay for it, up to now it has always been that a reasonable mark up is put on the drugs (this is normally 50%) and this will keep professional fees down.  If vets are not getting the money made on drugs and therefore has to put his fees up, although the farmer may be buying his drugs cheaper via the internet, will he actually save that much – I wonder.\nSo anyway we have been getting more and more pressure from a number of our farmers to compete with the internet prices. So we have selected a few products and it they pay at the time they can get about 20% off the price.  So watch this space and we will see what happens.\n\n\nWeek beginning 10th February\n\nMonday 10th Feb\nThe week\nTo sum up a blur, with both sad and very funny memories.  To start, [receptionist] was on holiday and it always seems to happen as soon as someone is off, we get very, very busy.  When everyone is in it ticks along nicely mostly/  I do enjoy it when it’s busy but we worked 3, 13 hour days – not food but everyone worked really hard, they are excellent staff.\nOn a sad note [vet] went for her 11 week scan on Tuesday and the baby had died, she was distraught.  She has a condition that causes this and this was her 4th miscarriage.  It’s so sad, I called to see her and she just hugged me and cried, what do you say.  She had to have some tablets to clear away the placenta etc. She was gutted as this is the longest she had ever been pregnant and she thought she’s cracked it.  It’s just so sad.\nMy funny tale for the week on a completely different note, but helped immensely, was (other vet) on Thursday.  We were all very, very busy and a farmer called in, I was very behind, they still had ops to do and this farmer settled herself down for a big chat – normally if I say I have a lot on she departs, but no not today it was obviously my turn.  (vet) came over from the op room and I know it was naughty but I wrote on a card ‘Can I have some help’ – i.e. to free myself.  Well instead of reading the note quietly – oh no – she read it out at the top of her voice and added, “what do you need help for?”  After I had crawled out of the hole that had opened up in the earth to swallow me I pointed to the message book to try and hide my predicament while she said again loudly, “so what do you want help for?”.  Well I gave up and decided to just fall into the hole, got rid of [vet] back to the op room and continued alone with my predicament.  After the farmer had gone who thankfully seemed oblivious to what had happened, I went in search of [vet] to kill her.  Anyway it cheered us all up they do say laughter is the best medicine but I can think of better ways. \n\n\nWeek beginning 17th February\n\nMonday 17th Feb\n[vet who lost baby] came back to work, she is very upset and weepy, everyone has been lovely with her.  Hopefully it is just time and TLC.  We are very busy again and have had an enquiry from a farmer who is thinking of changing vets, which is really good news, that is three new farmers in total now if only we had enough vets.  Four practices around Carlisle have advertised recently and none of the positions have been filled – it’s quite worrying.\nTuesday\nI took [vet who lost baby] home again today, she is not well and in a lot of pain, so she’s gone back to bed. I hope she’s feeling better soon.  Usual day otherwise.\nWeds\n[vet] is a lot better today apparently they think it may be the cocodamol she was taking.  She was a lot happier, a little drained, but ok.\nMr W came in today; his cows are arriving on Friday hopefully.  This will be our last farm to restock; he has had a lot of alterations done to the farm and a new parlour, so it’s quite exciting.\nThursday\nWe did some sheep exports for slaughter from Longtown today, the first of that sort of thing since FMD.  It was of course a bit of a faf as they now have to be retagged and checked so it takes a little longer.  In the afternoon I had a meeting with SR from University of reading.  She is planning to do research regarding the Interherd programme and she had picked 3 Vet Practices to see how the programme helps the vets and the farmers work better together and the improvements it makes to the farmers’ record keeping.  So she is going to meet 3 of our farmers who use Interherd and interview them and give them free training so that should please them.\nFri\nDay off, me and [daughter] went to Newcastle shopping – I’m not a good shopper but I did behave and we had a good day.  Mr W’s cows arrived all fit and healthy so that is us complete now – ass we were if not better.\nSad news though, we heard one of our farmers dropped down dead suddenly.  It was very sad, as we had seen him in the morning and he was his normal self so it was quite a shock. His family must be devastated, mind, if there’s a good way to go that’s it.\n\n\nWeek beginning 24th February\n\nMonday 24th Feb\n[another vet] a lot better today almost back to her normal cheery self, she is a lot more positive.  We took the bull by the horns so to speak and reduced the prices of some drugs.  We will have to wait until the 10th March before we find out what the government is going to do regarding the selling of drugs, but the farmers are very pleased.\nTuesday\nI got another phone call from Mr C and he said he would like to change vets to us, so good news.  [husband] spoke to his old vet and explained why etc.  It is very difficult and I think that in the future there may be more changing of vets, where as in the past, it never happened, but even farmers appreciate competition now, it again is worrying.\nMilk recorded at Mr G tonight, it’s always good crack as they say.\nWeds\nMilk recorded early morning and then showed them the Interherd programme.  They are going to try it I think.\nIn the afternoon I went with [other vet] to vet a horse for purchase, it can be tricky sometimes and two pairs of eyes are better than one.  As it turned out the horse was lame so we couldn’t vet it so we will have to go back another day.\nThursday\nNormal day.  Did some more sheep exports in the afternoon, they have a very efficient system at Longtown so it makes it a lot easier.\nFri\nI went to [farmer]’s funeral this morning, it was very sad.  I don’t like funerals, well I don’t suppose anyone does but it stayed fine and he had a good send off.\nIn the afternoon I got an opportunity to do some more blood sampling just 15 so it was good. It’s getting used to handling everything and forgetting you’re at the end that shits and kicks.  No broken limbs and I got blood. \n\n\nWeek beginning 3rd March\n\nMon 3rd March\nI went to help a TT Test in the morning – just taking numbers.  We now have 4 farms on restrictions due to TB reactors but up to now on the cows taken for further tests, no lesions have been fund.  We now get to do the repeat 60 day test on the farms now as DEFRA can’t keep up – sounds familiar!!\nWe saw the accountant in the afternoon. We had sent 9 months of accounts to him as we need to see how the practice was now doing. Anyway it was not as bad as we thought but the income is down but is slowly growing. The main problem is farmers won’t call out for sick cows now, they will leave it longer or try to treat them themselves, mainly due to them watching their spending.\nMr W had a problem with his Interherd, he needed to run his extensification figures and they didn’t add up. So I spent the rest of the day trying to figure out why.  I think I know why it was how he set it up initially so it may need his entry dates changed.\nTues\nWent TT Testing again this morning – it was a lovely morning. I spent the rest of the day sorting Mr W’s problem out and it worked, he was chuffed. The good is, I think, I now understand extensifications.\nWeds\nCaught up on some paperwork in the morning.  I helped [new nurse] with a dog grooming in the afternoon which was fun.  She is doing really well and seems to be enjoying it.  We both ended up soaked thanks to the dog but it looked loads better when it went home.\nGood news – we get a new vet from South Africa starting 1.4.03. He worked over here during FMD and met someone and their relationship has lasted hence he wants a job in Carlisle.  So bingo here comes a holiday.\nThursday/Friday\nVery busy in the Practice – everyone kept going. We have a great team and they really come into their own when it’s busy. I love the way everyone pulls together.  They are very dedicated.\n\n\nWeek beginning 10th March\n\nMonday\nQuiet day for a Monday but the weather has been nice so they are all out playing. But we had quite a few lambings to do.  That’s one thing that has changed since FMD. Prior to FMD we hardly used to do any lambings for farmers but since, we now do far more. Last year we put it down to them having new stock but it seems to be the same this year.\nTuesday\nToday is milk recording day. I have 3 recordings today. They all need boxes and paperwork. I don’t have to help at any of the milkings though which is good as they are quite a way from each other.  But a nice day for a drive.\nWeds/Thurs/Fri\nThe end of our weeks seem to be busier than the beginnings at the moment.  It has been non stop.  One disadvantage when it is so busy is you don’t have the time to chat as often.  I took some drugs to a farm, our last one to restock as he was having alterations done. It was amazing to see the transformations he had made to the farm – all geared to one person being able to do more alone with more cows – interesting.\n\n\nWeek beginning 17th March\n\nMon/Tuesday\nI went with [another vet] to Mr C’s for his TT and blood test.  [another vet] did the TT and I did the blood as part of my lay Blood Tester’s Licence. I needed to do 150 which I managed.  It was good fun and the weather was great.  We had to spread it over 2 days due to the amount of cattle.  It was really good practice for me and I think I’ve cracked it now.  There are talks about giving TT testing to Lay people but quite how and when is anyone’s guess.\nWeds\nMore blood testing today.  I’ve really cracked it now, only I’ve discovered muscles in my arms I didn’t know I had!!  I enjoy the blood testing. Sad isn’t it.\nThursday\nI had a morning with Alco waste management, sorting out all the clinical waste regulations and they need more detail of what actually goes in our waste. We always provided a free service to farmers for disposing of sharps and old drug and empty drugs etc. but we are going to have to start charging now.  It is now £100 dearer a month than it was.\nFri\nMe and [husband] spent the morning looking at fees, income etc. and seeing where we can increase fees to help cover if we lose the right to dispense drugs to farmers – which we still haven’t heard about – to continue as we are we will have to make the difference up – it’s just how.\n\n\nWeek beginning 24th March \n\nMonday\nDoing the paperwork for a TT Test it was a beautiful day.  I do enjoy doing this especially when the weather’s good and they are very nice farmers. I also get to spend the day with [husband] which makes a change – although we work together we don’t often get to see much of each other.\nTuesday\nBusy day – spent most of it making sure everything got done and helping out.\nWeds\nI went to the careers convention at the Sands Centre, it was very busy and we had a lot of interest but a long day.\nBefore going someone phoned to say there was a collie dog running around on the roundabout. So me and [new nurse] went to see if we could catch it, well it didn’t want caught but I was really worried it got onto the motorway.  So we phoned the police and the dog warden who incidentally couldn’t come until 9am as he didn’t start ‘til then, so I had to politely!!! Explain that he would have to be.  The police dog handler wasn’t much help but at least he stopped the traffic – bless him.  The dog warden did appear 5 minutes later and it was only 8.30 am.  So we managed to get the dog off the roundabout and catch it.  Everyone safe thankfully.\nThurs/Fri\nBusy days –new vet [from South Africa] phoned so he’s coming to see us on Monday to pick up his vehicle and meet everyone he sounds pleasant so we will see.  My joke at the moment when people ask where we found him is that we got him off the internet!!  It is a little worrying not having met him first but it should work.  Watch this space.\n\nWeek beginning 31st March \n\nMonday\nWe have had L staying for two weeks. She’s a vet student from London and stayed with us about this tine last year. It was interesting to go over the changes from a year ago. Last time she was here people were restocking and there was an element of wariness.\nSo it was interesting to fill her in on how things are now. One thing she mentioned was noticing the stock in the fields was nice as there were only a few still last year. Talking over things is still hard sometimes although it seems a long time ago the feelings and emotions are still deep. Certain parts can still hit a raw nerve. There seems to be a mere anger at the moment generally. People and farmers are wanting to know why they still have restrictions, what is going to happen about shows and sales etc and will normality ever return. Unfortunately I think not, not in the way they want it to.\nTuesday\nOur new vet started today. We got on very well, it has taken us so long to find a vet and if the work and testing carries on increasing we are going to need another one.\nWednesday\nVery busy day – [husband]’s gone to talk at a BCVA conference and AGM. So poor [new vet] has been thrown in at the deep end. It has been very busy but he seems to be coping well. The clients were very impressed so far, so long may it last. It is good to have new staff with new ideas, I quite enjoy it. And he is definitely a BIG hit with the female clients – it really does make you embarrassed to be female, when they go into the consulting room you count to 4 and then comes the girlie giggle – quite funny!\nThursday\nSad day today – my sister had been confirmed as having cervical cancer. No more on that for now.\nFriday\nHad another Interherd sale today. One thing FMD has forced on farmers is the need for efficient records and Interherd is brilliant at that, it’s so clever. One of our farmers who has had it for a while and has 120 milking cows now does all his daily records in 5 – 10 minutes – can’t be bad.\n\nWeek beginning 7th April \n\nMonday\nBusy day – [new vet] is settling in really well and coping fine. If we carry on at this rate we will need another vet. A lot of it depends on how much more testing we are going to get and what happens with Commission report into dispensing drugs.\nTuesday\nSR came today from Uni. of Reading who own the Interherd Program. We went round some of the farmers that used it and helped sort out any queries. It was a good day, I learnt a lot and the farmers found it useful too. She said she would come again later in the year, so I think we might try and organise for them all to come to the practise for a chat.\nWednesday\nDid some Interherd training with one of the farmers wives, we said just an hour as she wasn’t fully computer literate. Anyway 4 hours later, she had well and truly got the hang of it, she was very keen and I really enjoyed it. \nThursday/Friday\nThey blur into one, as it has been so busy. Everyone has been flat out. We are going to start the vet advertising again, and another nurse/receptionist.\n\n\nWeek beginning 14th April \n\nMonday\nGot caught up today, sorted out all the queries. Quite pleased with my self.\nTuesday\nWent to a local Nursery to talk about vets, to 3 year olds. I was quite dreading it – but thankfully it was great, they were really good. I took some dressing up clothes and x-ray instruments and teddy bears and they operated and had a really good time. One of them asked me if all the cows and sheep were better and did they still have funny feet and mouths!\n\n\nWeek beginning 21st April \n\nTuesday/Wednesday\nQuite busy days and a lot to catch up on. We all went away with [sister and niece]  this weekend to [husband]’s Mum and Dads caravan. We had a great time.\n[sister]’s biopsy \nOff rest of week\n\n\n\n\nWeek beginning 28th April \n\nMonday\nThree farmers milk recording today and tomorrow so busy dropping pets and paperwork off. Advertised for a vet today. Fingers crossed.\n\n\nOff for two weeks helping [sister] to Move\n\nInterviewed a Nurse/Receptionist she is perfect and experienced, she wrote a letter in as her husbands job had brought them to the area, so she starts 12th May – I wish it was as easy finding a vet.\n\n\nWeek beginning 12th May\n\nMonday\nOur new girlie started today, she is very keen and capable, she has done really well even with the computer system that she was dreading.\nTuesday\nBusy day also 2x milk recordings so a bit of hollering about. I was thinking it is about a year we have had now of normal work!!  Everyone new appears to be getting on with it as the saying goes, everyone bears a scar and has a story to tell and realise it is not the same, but how could it be. \nWeds – Fri\nQuite busy but capable at work.  [daughter] got the job for the training in her M. Apprentice course so she is over the moon.  It’s all a new learning curve, you suddenly realise she is growing up, getting a job and leaving school.\nUnfortunately this morning [daughter] has decided she doesn’t want to leave full time education yet and is worried about the job.  She is wanting to do a business course at a college so all change again. We have had bid discussions and are going to go down to Connexions next week.\nSat\nYF (Young Farmers) field day today.  I love these days it is amazing the effort and enjoyment that makes it such a good day.  There is also such a high standard in all the classes.  I admire the enthusiasm of the young farmers and just hope they can survive somehow.\n\nWeek beginning 19th May\n\nMonday \nWe have found the course [daughter] wants to do at College thanks to Connexions. The bad news is it is not done locally, she could do a local course but it would be wasted time to some extent.  \nBig discussions most of the week.  We have found they do the course in Blackburn and Preston, my sister and Mum live down there and are more than happy for her to move in, I just don’t know if I am ready to let her go, but I’ll have to be a big girl about it.\nWe have sent application forms off so will have to wait and see now and try and get used to it.\nWeds\nReally good evening at Penrith re the discussion it was so good to talk to the other diarists and realise and be able to relate so closely to what they said.  It was poignant to see what other people had written and interesting to see what you had done so far with the data collected, it would be brilliant to hand to any future study or enquiry as it is proof surely not all these people could be wrong!!!  And to have so many diarists start and finish is amazing.  I’m sure it can be used for so many different topics – AMAZING. I am personally very proud to have been a part of it, and although sometimes I have wondered if what I was writing was any use. I can see now how it comes together.  Than you all for the opportunity, shame not in better circumstances, it has helped me more than I originally realised but thinking back it was all unbelievable and not something I would like to repeat.  I am ever the optimist or so I’m told and do believe or hope things and farming can recover not fully but enough to be able to show other people what a wonderful life it is, hard but special.\n\nWeek beginning 26th May\n\nNever stopped on Tuesday after bank Holiday so busy.  [new vet] is settling in now, but his girlfriend can’t find a job so that’s a bit worrying, he may leave sooner than expected – oh no not advertising again.  The rest of the week was uneventful really ticked along nicely. We met up with some friends on Wednesday evening who holiday in the Lakes each year so it was nice to see them again, we had a good evening. We were also out on Thursday night with a drug rep, very nice meal and they have offered to pay for [husband] Bri. Catt. Vet. Ass meeting in Amsterdam in October so that was very nice.  Business link have also offered to help us get a Consultant in to see if they have any ideas for improving, maybe they can find vets too!!  All in all quite an exciting week.\n\n\nWeek beginning 2nd June\n  \nThe exams have started, everyone warns to beware but [daughter] is very laid back about it all, too much I feel.  But as long as she does her best.  I went to the accountants to look at the books for the end of year so far not quite finished yet and thankfully we won’t be needing income support this year!!  It is so much better more regulation but nothing we can’t cope with – honest!\n\n\nWeek beginning 9th June\n\n[daughter] had an interview at Blackburn College, it wasn’t a very nice place, but then I’m not going.  Preston is on the 25th so she will decide after that.\n[niece] had her C.T. Scan for her head that was eventful and Lisa and her naughty jelly babies zapped, all went well but she was a bit sore after.\n\n\nWeek beginning 23rd June\n\nMonday\nWent TT testing with [another vet] today it was a retest due to them having a reactor.\nIt was a good day, they are nice people.  There is a father and 2 sons.  During FMD I had a phone call one night and this was just someone crying on the end of it. I didn’t know what to say and I wasn’t sure who it was, but I just spoke about mainly silly things I can’t really remember what but didn’t get much of a response just yes and no’s and I thought I recognised the voice as being the father we were with today – anyway during lunch which we had at the farm we were chatting and of  course got into FMD and he thanked me it took aback but he said he had appreciated me waffling on. It was the night of the day his cows had been shot and he had phoned to let us know but he said he just broke down and couldn’t say anything – anyway he laughed because he said he was going to hang up, but he couldn’t get word in edgeways because I was wittering but he said he did feel a bit better after. So we had a good heart to heart.\nTuesday\nCaught up on my paperwork and sorted some bits and pieces out.\nWeds\nTook [daughter] to Preston College for an interview it was good and seems a nice place.  I can’t believe she will be leaving home at the end of August – very scary I’m really going to have to be a big girl about it!!\nThursday\nWe went to visit Business link to discuss some more things and [they are] hopefully going to help us pay a firm of Consultants to help us out to see how we can improve and  move the Practice on, so that’s exciting.\nFri\nWent milk recording first thing so that was good fun.  After recording I had to collect one of our elderly clients and her dog that was coming for an operation, the lady is 92 and her and the dog are very close so she wanted to stay with her until she was sedated. So she was pleased she could come with her.  The girls all laugh at me because I have quite a few little old ladies who we visit and keep a check on their pets. \n\n\nWeek beginning 30th June\n\nNot a lot of excitement at all this week, we have been kept going and I caught up on paperwork.  We are going to my sister’s this week end to start sorting her spare bedroom for [daughter].\n\n\nWeek beginning 7th July\n\nMon\nSpent the morning explaining to our newest girlie about Interherd and how to work it, this will enable her to help me on the data entry side, we also had a little trip out around some of the farms that record with us to give her an idea of where they are.\nTuesday\nWent exporting sheep today, they all had to be retagged, it was quite warm, not much fun, I’ll maybe get [new girl] to do exporting!!\nWeds\n2 milk recordings today so quite busy with bottles and sheets and things and they are both in the opposite direction to each other. Never mind it was a nice day for driving about.\nThursday\nWe have got a new vet to replace [vet from SA]. She seems very lovely.  She is going to start on 4.08.03. We used an agency and it has proved worthwhile, we worked out that rather than paying for endless adverts we would give it a go and it seems to have worked, so that’s exciting.\nFri\nWe went car hunting today as if we all go out at the week end it becomes a bit crushed and sometimes we end up taking two vehicles. So we have really splashed out rightly or wrongly and bought a new CRV truck, it’s very posh, so we get that on 21.07.03.\n\nWeek beginning 14th July\n\nMonday\n[Person] from the Interherd office came up to see us and we visited a few of our farmers that are on Interherd. Between them and NMR they have really tried with providing quality and cost effective equipment that is helpful to the farmers.  You can now use Interherd in some milking parlours which is really useful.\nTues \nWe went to see a horse with a cough and after treating the pony we were chatting and they have converted a small barn into a camping hostel, their farm is along Hadrian’s Wall and since having foot and mouth and doing the barn up, they have nearly covered their costs. They still have a few stock but not as many.  Mr I was saying how his father used to milk about 25 cows and be able to make a good living from that, it’s amazing the difference.\nWeds\nWe got a new payroll package today so I spent most of my day trying to understand it.  I was very bog eyed by the end, but I think I understand it and it seems to work well and should be a lot easier and quicker.\nThursday\nBusy day. There were lots of ops and farm calls, a couple of farmers have been asking about prescriptions as soon they will be able to get their drugs from anywhere, a lot have said they appreciate they have to pay for the service one way or another and are happy to carry on as they have been doing.  We will lose money to some extent, but how much remains to be seen and we will have to cope.\nFriday\nOff – went to see Westlife with [daughter]. \n
## 4 Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1963\nGender: M\nOccupation: Group 6\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\n\nSaturday 9th March 2002\nAn old African proverb states, "The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The next best time is now."\nI should have started this diary over a year ago to keep track of changes in the unrolling of the FMD epidemic and my feelings towards it. Today is probably a good day to start the diary as I was about to sit down after a really bad week to write some comments for the lessons learned inquiry and thought I should check the web site for an update. I found out to my considerable annoyance that the inquiry was coming to Cumbria to meet with DEFRA and hold the open meeting on Tuesday night, and if you wanted a ticket to attend, then you had to apply by a week ago. The overall impression is that the govt do not want to learn lessons. I was looking after kids as [wife] was on counselling course and I was on call Sat morn. The vets were busy so I ended up taking [children] into vets with me they watched videos in the waiting room while I sorted out and consulted. \nComing down with cold after spending Friday TB testing on restocking farm. But at least I managed to avoid getting kicked and crushed. The farm hand who is one of the hard lads of Wigton refused to get in with the fat bulls to test them after getting floored by a kick. “If the f.** ministry want them F tested they can f coming and etc etc” I am putting in a letter to say why they were not tested to see response.\nDidn’t get finished on farm till 5.45 pm having started with a caesarean at 5:30am.Must be an easier way to make a living. The farming economy is bizarre at the moment . He has silage in heaps all over the farm, so instead of feeding straw which is incredibly expensive @£70 ton he is feeding the better quality silage and the calves are all too big. There are 30 to calve, so a few nights work there….\nWhere ever I go on farms the stories that farmers are wanting to get off their chest about the MAFF incompetence and inconsistency is bewildering. There is a lot of anger out there.\nI went to do the restocking sentinel visit for MG, L Fm. He is usually the most laid back of guys but he told them he was bringing his cattle on and he would see them in court. Why are we doing sentinel visits to a farm that had FMD 11 months ago? The virus only lives a month.\nSunday\nMothering Sunday \nKids had all got presents and cards for Mum, they brought them all in with a breakfast tray very cute, but pear juice all over the carpet. Tim and I spent Sat night baking a chocolate cake for her, which meant I hadn’t got lunch. Never mind.\nChurch was PS speaking on Characters walking with God, and talking about Abraham setting off with out knowing where he is going, maybe I should follow suit, with large animal vetting being reduced to TB testing and caesareans. The evening service was really lively with HP from Austria, about turning every hour over to God, now that is what I should do. \nG & R called around Sun afternoon, he is pessimistic about fertiliser sales. There is that much land and grass around, and the govt grants for extensification. New regulations on nitrates is giving him a headache though as he points out it is not fertiliser that cause the problems, as they are used by grass but by phosphates and slurry/organics . Lough Neigh has real problems with algal blooms and they are blaming fertiliser but so has Bassenthwaite, but there is not any fertiliser spread on the fells so is it really agriculture?\nMonday\nRead test and was very glad it was clear, as the Farm of origin of one of batches has gone down with TB..More testing after lunch. Organic farm ! They have just had their first pay check, 23p per litre, they were promised 36p when they started to convert 2 years ago. Who would be in agriculture?\nDesperately behind in admin with vets and home, but at least the clinical work pays!\nTuesday\nCaught up on a lot of admin as back to 6 vets for day. 2 cows aborting on restocking farm, more disease. Rota still for 5vets Yuk!!\nThe evening open meeting poorly attendee due to poor  publicity. I am only local practitioner. I phoned around no one had been invited or had seen advance publicity and we all feel that they are not interested and that they will not listen.\nSome moving testimony and the bullying culture came through, and the frustration and anger that comes from dealing with a faceless bureaucracy distant in London.\n11 million animals, 2000 farms in Cumbria, businesses wrecked, lives wrecked, a crisis turned into a disaster by bureaucratic incompetence and political considerations.\nI am pleased I went I feel that it is like a sense of closure, the funeral so to speak, the end and I spoke with [wife] when I got back. I feel I can lay the past down and look to the future.\nWeds\nDay Off K&A for lunch and sort out finances etc, (And write diary!!)\nEveryone is saying about this time last year and glad that FMD is finished.\nWent to see Grease the school production, it was very well done, brought back memories of 6th Form\nThurs\n300 pages of A4 waiting for me in my in tray courtesy of DEFRA. Are they mindless or what. Rang to speak to AH, but only got hold of N and told her it was out of order! I should get my blood pressure measured as some one says DEFRA. Stupid idiots.\nSo much for closure, I feel very frustrated. \nIf this is the future of farm practice, Anal glands here we come! Who said a vets life ain’t glamorous)\n\nManaged to calm down and get the next 2 weeks of testing organised. It is a good job that we are organising it as trying to get folk on the phone is n’t easy. Workload picking up and managed to persuade GG to advertise even if only at TVI HQ. (All of the local practices who have advertised have had very few if any responses, we are busy but with DEFRA work).\nSpent time singing Grease songs much to nurses amusement.!! \n Did restocking visit at Lynedraw, they gave me a look around. It is amazingly clean, because even after pressure washing the spiders usually make a come back. But the buildings are sterile, and no cobwebs or insect life, which usually abounds even in empty buildings, weird. There will be a lot of flies next year.\nNews that PI has headship of Nelson Thom and so we can expect the discipline to improve again.\nFriday\nCurry and Quiz at the boys school. Very cosmopolitan for Cumbria. It was good fun and the kids enjoyed it. But we were useless on the photos for which you definitely need a TV. Spent time chatting to local GP who which was interesting. They have a place for their son at Nelson Thom but he isn’t keen!! \n\n\nSaturday 16th March\nWorking this W/e, and on call Friday night so had an early start with a caser on ewe. A LAMBING!! Hurray, things are getting back to normal. Even if it is a Dutch beltex… The farmer is really fed up and wants AH to be sacked as he threatened to kill all his recently imported Dutch sheep, as the paper work was not right. They had come and blood sampled them and then sent the results to his brother who is still under Form A, and then refused him permission to move any of the sheep off because he shouldn’t have any, because he was on Form A, and what were the Blood results for. DEFRA would be a joke if it wasn’t so serious.  Oh and after my complaint about them deluging us with paper, yes you guessed it they sent another 7 x 20 sheets of A4. Idiots!!\nAW is in a tiz and so had to get help in Sat morning which was a shame but hey ho. She is not coping with the post FMD, constant changing of the goal posts.\nWent to Susan & Ian’s for another curry and had a really good time, and have decided to phase out house group which was coming. Hopefully Low moor will set up a 3rd house group for Wigton. Hebron is going to change to new Outlook groups.\nSun\nNever managed to get to church as calls all day, beautiful day though. The weather has really picked up. Must get garden sorted and seeds planted. A came out on call this evening. It is one good point that this job does allow the kids to join with me. \nShe is really growing up. She wanted to go to cinema but as [wife] was late and weather good she came back here and they walked the dog and wound up the boys.\nMon\n Early morning call to see a farmer who is a scrap metal dealer who hates authority. He therefore didn’t want anyone on his land during FMD, and refused access to Maff, and me while I was working there. He caused real problems and had his gun removed by police. He was handled badly and is a rogue. The more colourful rumour was that the real reason for not allowing anyone on was the amount of smuggled cigarettes was too great to hide. He also runs a fishery/ shellfish enterprise that is on the beach at odd times!!??. He was found guilty and fined £350 for his trouble but never paid because he went bust, as everything is in his wife and kids names!! This is all unsubstantiated rumour but quite amusing. When push comes to shove the ministry could do nothing with out the cooperation of the Farmers!\nThe vet students have arrived, and I feel a bit guilty about not having them to stay but I feel I still need space at the moment so they are making do with the Royal Oak.\nPrayer Quad with the lads, which was good. I still has not got stuff for magazine, and spent time praying. \nTues       \nThe dates important cos its my Birthday, 39 today. The kids all brought presents in and had breakfast in Bed it was really nice. The number of ordinary calls to ill animals is increasing rapidly. Went to 2 new restocking farms today. I think one a day is probably enough. They were both full of stories about the ministry and wanted to unload to some one who understood. The first was particularly upsetting in that I was admiring his new parlour and set up that he has put in while waiting the 4 months. He was then talking about all the animals getting slaughtered and his wife was fighting back tears. She is also very unsure about whether they are doing the right thing by investing in the new parlour. She is very unsure about the future and as they are both reaching 50 is it the right thing to be doing? Unfortunately I think she is right, but I couldn’t say that and made reassuring noises as they have spent the money and it is too late now. The future for dairy is not good. The price is going to continue to be at world prices which with the current exchange rate is uneconomic in the UK. The second farm was sheep with drop, and they were grazing over the burial site as they had planted carrots and turnips on the surrounding field. I couldn’t listen to another set of woes, as I was still upset from the first lot so kept conversation light and on sheep.\nWeds\nI never realised that FMD is like any other grief there are anniversaries to get through, and fears and barriers to be put to rest. I was on a farm to give certificates to 2 heifers sold in calf. They were all saying it was a year to the day that FMD hit the village. The AI fellow was there as well, and he was talking about what he had been doing. He was saying that he thinks it will be years before everybody returns to normal. He is revisiting farms where he was helping with the slaughter for the AI, and was saying he had to take a deep breath every time he returns to one of these farms. \nThere was a partners meeting at lunchtime. As usual AW turned up late, but finally decided to advertise to see whether there are Vets out there who will come to work in FMD country. It is a bit frustrating as I foresaw that we would be busy, and we could have nabbed D before Longtown, but GG ever cautious. We went completely around in circles trying different options, but as with everything else the only prediction we can make is that we know that we don’t know. So much depends on govt. decisions on supply of pharmaceuticals to farms, and on the future of the SVS. (State Vet Service) for who we usually do 15% of our farm work for and currently do 50% for.\nThursday.\nTomorrow I will get a lunch break. This is my resolution. Have not managed to stop for lunch this week yet as farm calls keep coming in and partners meeting. Today was Geckos bums and goose bums.(Rectal prolapses). Variety is the spice of life. Also had much laughter over watching Norman in the bath. JG’s tortoise which has come out of hibernation early and is anorexic. Much clunking, and bumping.\n2 lambings and cow caesaer, after hours.    So busy On call. It was also the last house group so it was end of an era. We have been having them in our house for the past 6 years, with different folk and have had god speak to us and to others through it. But it is time to move on.\nFriday \nStarted with another caeaser and early morning start and didn’t get my lunch break! Time to reconsider things again.\nHad folk for dinner, which had been arranged a long time ago, it seemed like a good idea at time and was enjoyable but after a 14-hour day yesterday and a 10-hour one today: I was not feeling life and soul of the party. One couple are still trying to decide the future of their farm. They are thought out progressive family farm, and yet they are not convinced about what to do. He finds it difficult to because there are three generations to consider. His father would go out and buy stock tomorrow, and his son wants to come home to work, but they feel he should broaden his options. Very difficult.\nHe was also saying that he ha d helped a neighbour who flagged him down as he was going past. He wanted help to move a cow that was down. The last time he touched a cow it was when his own were slaughtered. It knocked him off his stride for the rest of the day. \nHad a good time as when I looked at time was 1 O’ Clock\n\n\nSat 23rd March  \n[wife] went on her counselling course for day, which left me a bit on edge this morning, as I was On call Sat am and looking after 4 kids. But they managed with out me. Back sore and stiff as I’ve missed the gym, but will go back on Tues. Still managed to get a bit done in garden, it was a great spring day and made me feel like summer was coming. Went to Beckfoot to beach in the afternoon with kids, evening went to bed early as shattered.\nSun 24th\nBack stiffer after gardening and went to church. Davidsons have moved into Thursby so will be good to have them around and at school.\nWatched Northbank beat Stanwix U12’s 6 –0 , the boys played well and passed the ball around a lot. [son] played well too.\nMust work less w/e’s and watch the boys play more.\nMon 25th\nLooking forward to finishing on Friday as another large test today, started at 8:30am and finished at 6pm but at least it meant I was out the office and did not have to face any of the usual hassle factors. It was good to see as the place is always well run and organised. A real family farm with three generations working together, but Granddad at 75 still very much calling the shots. The craic was good at lunch as their sister is friendly with my wife so I got custard with my rhubarb tart! My wife doesn’t like custard so I never get, as I cannot be bothered to make it for one as the kids never have it and so are very conservative. They were asking my view of the future too as they have sold bullocks privately ie not through the auction as they are on 21 day stand still and the price is poorer than selling via the auction. DEFRA will not allow any trade through an auction if the farms are on standstill. Why? If they are dead in24hrs there is minimal risk and they are putting everyone’s backs up. \n\nTues 26th \nWent for my first visit to another restocked farm and during the 4 month waiting as well as visit New Zealand he has made a sandstone plaque 3ft by 4 ft and carved on the date they went down with FMD and the number of cattle. It is almost a head stone type memorial. \nThe cow had digestive problems a right displaced abomasums ( RDA). Probably due to the transit and change in diet.\nWeds 27th\nSmall animal day and trying to get everything organised for going away. Finalised advert in Vet Record for new assistant. Lots of adverts but no applicants. All the local practices are advertising and there are no takers. I hope it is because there is a shortage and not from lack of confidence in the area. DEFRA haven’t paid us for a lot of visits and that needs sorted. They have no record of the visits i e they have lost the claim forms in the mountain of paper work. They will only pay on the originals  (As if there are duplicates they will probably pay on those as well being that well organised). They are really slipping back into their old ways of paper chasing. The frustration without and within is palpable. I should just quit as I will be a civil servant once removed unless things change. The secretary’s are both on FMD funded computer courses, so digging out the paper work will have to wait.\nThurs 28th \nDemob happy just the test to read and I am off, for 10 days…….\nThe test was clear but very busy as a locum came for a look around to see if he would do SA for several days a week. Any help I think will be a help!!!\nGood Friday\nMissed out on Church as one of the boys through a complete wobbler. He is not very well just tired at end of term. I hope.\nThen went walking with family and [friends]. I must learn to shoot [him] down when he says it is a little scramble what he means is its too dangerous for kids. But it was fun and we enjoyed it. The weather was glorious and the fells were crowded! Tourism is back. Went up over sharp edge to Blencathra, kids as well.\n\n\nHOLIDAY\n\n\nSat 6th April\nCame back on the late boat from Belfast and arrived in to Wigton late. The grandparents were sad to see us go, but I think they had also found us all quite tiring. The kids have enjoyed playing squash so that is something I would like to continue.\nSun 7th April\nBeautiful frosty morning and went to church where the speaker arrived, much to S’s relief just as he was announcing the last song before the sermon! I think he was wondering what he would say instead of the prepared sermon.!!\nWent to [son]’s foot ball cup match, this is 10 year olds we are talking about, and the referee was making several bad decisions including a dubious penalty against his team Northbank. The crowd (well about 30 of us which for his team is a big crowd) was getting a bit restless. Robbie was sprinting down the wing in front of his Dad,         (and me) when he was sent flying by one of their team. His Dad then shouted “Ref if you gave a penalty for them for nothing you could at least give us a foul for that!” At which point the ref blew his whistle and came across and thumped him. The whole thing was about to descend in to a brawl as I and another parent were trying to restore calm by telling everyone to walk away, which they did, followed by the Northbank kids, game abandoned!\nSo we await the FA’s report.\nSo with that and the Carlisle manager being sacked and the Knighton’s trading insults with the prospective buyer for Carlisle the future of football in Carlisle is not looking good.\nMon 8th\nLast day off for sorting out VCF magazine and getting up to date with paper work etc, did Carrock Fell where we did not see another walker. It was sunny and cold but beautiful. At night went to Crusaders area meeting where they are trying to get some one to arrange area events for kids and to support the group structure. There is no one who has the time and no funding to appoint a post to do it, so went around in circles too a large degree, but meeting decided to try and raise the funding. \nTues 9th\nFeel like I should have handed in Notice after today it was awful going back. The response to the advert for a new vet now stands at 2 students who have yet to qualify! I had Harry giving me grief over the fact that DEFRA promised him that we would test his cattle prior to turn out, i e end of March but haven’t told us, very helpful. His allocation has not even come through!! They are useless. I was at one farm that has half restocked because the parlour is not yet restored, the heifers are calving and he is milking into a dump bucket and throwing the milk away. He can’t get more stock in because he is waiting testing for brucellosis as his heifers were on the same farm as the French heifer that went down. He wanted to bring them direct to his own farm they would not let him bring the heifers to his own farm because the paper work was not through, and they not would allow multiple drop offs. IDIOTS. \nSo with high levels of frustration and complete overload, it has not been a good start back. Tomorrow I must see what is hiding in my “in tray”. As I never had a chance to look today\n.Weds 10th\nQuieter day and managed to catch up with paper work and have had a lot of next week mapped out so feel more in control.\nNight work seems to be easing with fewer lambings. \nStudents seem to be enjoying their time with us even though there is too little time to actually teach them, but it is a luxury to have time to go through cases with them as we take them on a voluntary basis and at the moment lunch is a higher priority than their education!! I’m a selfish brat.\nThurs 11th \nSpoke too soon, chaotic again, managing workload with so much fire brigade work is not so easy. (Fire Brigade work is the emergency work that needs seen urgently, ie today if not now!)\n[son] isn’t so well again he tired easily again today, so must make an appointment for him, but very vague signs.\nFri 12th\nHalf day finish, Yo. I could really get into a 3 and a half day week!\nThe down side is it is because my wife is going away for the w/e, so I have to be finished by 3:15 for kids. As I want to have the people carrier I also have to muck out my car. It is not as bad since FMD. Another positive contribution that FMD has made to my life. I actually feel morally obliged to keep my car from being a biohazard. OK I still needed a wheelie bin to through all the post it notes and bits of cardboard and the excessive packaging that surrounds any medical product that seems to find its way on to the back seat of my car. I always remember reading a Sunday paper article about what cars different people drove, and what they had lying around in the back seat, and what this showed about their personality. I’m sure that they would have had a field day with my car!! You use to be able to tell farm vets cars from a mile off but they have all gone clean and shiny.\n\n\nSat 13th April\nA week end off and the thought of a Saturday morning lie in…..\nUnfortunately there is a football tournament in Carlisle today! 9am start so up as usual and get into town. But managed to get to Staples, which I have been trying to do since my Birthday, to spend my birthday money… the difference between men and boys is the size of their toys! As my wife frequently reminds me. \nSo I am the proud owner of a digital camera. \nThe question is when will I find time to set it up? \nTook back all the library books and made the mistake of checking with the librarian who says we also have a talking book and another junior fiction. Well I thought it would have been lucky to get them all. If they ever bring in fines for kids we are sunk. How does my wife keep track of them all?\nCame home and enjoyed the good weather, and fortunately the team bottomed out so didn’t get into the next round. V asked as she dropped [other son] off from the football, where has [wife] gone? As [other son] has said she was away at Gruerly, where is that. She is away for a girlie w/e.!!\nSo we had time for a “family” cycle ride out from  Kirkbride to the coast. It was beautiful, and we had a really good time. Came back via Wigton for supplies as we are in desperate need of a Tesco shop. \nSunday 14th\nHad an easy day and cooked with A for tomorrow as my wife is doing supply next week. Its ages since I have cooked, even made scones. Church was a video sermon which was OK but different. Saw P he ‘s back from NZ so will have to arrange to catch up. He was incredibly jet lagged, it must be Sunday cos everyones in church!! 36 hrs travelling. [wife] arrived back from her week end away at Capernwray, having had a week end that sounded as if they had all gone back to their teenage years with midnight feasts and playing tricks on each other. She was quite tired and pleased to have an early night.\nMon 15th \nThe diary has unfortunately died at this point and it is 3 weeks later and I am going back and filling in the details as I remember them. It is probably the bits that are really important, but as there is too much going on the diary has remained on my to do list!! Together with my tax return and a small mountain of paperwork!!\nThe reasons are varied but one of them is that my youngest lost his temper with the computer and slammed down the mouse. This broke the left-right bar so the pointer would only go up and down!! Now the practice manager who learnt his computing in the dark ages of DOSS, assures me you do not need a mouse to operate a computer. But as I have enough problems trying to get the stupid machine to do what I want it to with a mouse, forget trying shortcut keys and arrows.\n\nSo a new mouse was bought which the man assured my wife you just had to plug in, and hey presto it would find a driver and work. Blank screens, consult hand book, try inserting disk, try exploring disk, try windows disk, consult practice manager, who as you may have gathered is my IT guru. He says you may need to install a driver if it doesn’t work it will be on the disk. I don’t have a mouse to use to try to find and install a driver, he assures me again you don’t need a mouse. I understand why my youngest son lost his temper with the stupid machine. Being the mature adult that I can some times be I walk away to cool off, but don’t feel like trying again for 24 hours with a new mouse which the man assured my wife you just had to plug in, and hey presto it would find a driver and work.\nPlugged it in, it said “looking for driver”, “installing Driver” and it worked. Why?\nWhy not first time?\nTuesday\nThursday\nRiding Lights\nWent to see Riding Lights who are a Christian theatre group who were performing at the senior school at night. They were extremely funny and hard-hitting and very pointed all at the same time. It was a magazine of sketches on all sorts of different things. Modern interpretations of parables, and bible stories. Sketches asking questions about society and how we view things. Very difficult to put into words but thought provoking on lots of levels. \n\n\nSat 20th April to Weds 24th April lost in the mists of time…\nThursday 25th\n Starting the diary again after having missed 10 days with too much going on.\nThe spring work is chaotic with a lot of problems. We are trying to run the practice on 5 vets plus a part time locum instead of 7 full time at this time of year. I had said we should have advertised and tried to get some one at Xmas, but the view was that falling milk price would mean less work, but the DEFRA tasting is more than making up for those who haven’t restocked, and those who have gone out of dairy which brings us the most work.\nBut saying I told you so, does not help, so I’ll just keep my big mouth shut.\n As the practice manager says, the good old days when we new what the Rota was going to be and we were not just making up it up as we went along. We have had over a year of crisis management now. The end must be nigh!! \nAs this is a health survey, apart from feeling pressure of work, I am have also managed to catch ringworm on my leg. A fungal infection from cows and it is itchy and sore and not responding to my treatment. I will have to get GP’s opinion\nFriday 26th April\nRemind me next time, not to try to interview during busy periods. It is very embarrassing to turn up late to the interview!! We had a chaotic day but managed to interview her. She is frighteningly well prepared and had lists of questions. I hope we didn’t put her off by being so disorganised!! I think the Sandale view will be more influential! As part of the interview we always take them up to Sandale viewpoint to show them the practice, spread out panoramically beneath them. Well, it sold me the job!!\nAfter finally getting finished I was exhausted but had people to dinner so had to stay awake and be sociable.\n\n\nSat 27th April\nHad folk to dinner last night, which after working flat out was probably not such a clever idea. Didn’t fall asleep but this morning I feel like death warmed up and we have another interview this morning. I don’t think I can make a good impression so it is a good job that I am looking to employ rather than be employed. The candidate is from a Kirby Stephen farmers daughter, and so is at an immediate advantage. She seems fine so we will offer her the job, the question is should we offer them both a job? Went to bed feeling ill and with a migraine and slept all afternoon and then in bed for 9pm. Sad or what!\nSun 28th\nFeel a lot better for the sleep and church was AF speaking. He is always entertaining. His opening slide was “ Knighton In “. For those of you who do not keep up with the footie in Carlisle, Michael Knighton is the hated owner of Carlisle United who is trying to get the club relegated, so he can build houses on the land. He is destroying the club, and it is NOT popular…\nAnyway the second slide was ..here for grace and forgiveness. He went on to say that church should be where the failures should feel loved and welcome, as we all need God’s love and forgiveness.\nHe was really good, both entertaining and making real points.\nSpent time in the garden and playing footie with the boys.\nMon 29th\nMonday morning and that sinking feeling not helped by my wife’s teaching 3 days this week, and a trustees meeting for Borderline, which means additional pressure.  After running around all morning and working out the amount of holiday we are all owed the conclusion is that we will employ them both. I am owed 46 days holiday, so if I can take 2 months off, that plus the sabbatical I am owed means I could take 5 months off.. I wish it were happening. The 5 vets are owed over 200 days between us, which will be almost a vet for a year!!   As this is a health diary, I should mention my visit to the doctor, after a half an hour wait past my appointment time, fizzing knowing that I would have to make the time up later in my evening, I finally saw the Doc who agreed with my diagnosis, and agreed with my treatment. Only an occupational hazard of farm work. Ring worm!! He did take scrapings but that is all\nTuesday\nTesting next door, why do we always end up working in a pen under the railway in a middle of a stream? Why they cannot build a pen on dry land away from the trains I don’t know. I suppose they have always done it that way. But the first you know of a train is the thunder as it goes over your head which startles the cows who jump, sending a muddy slurry flying everywhere.\nWilliam is still not wearing a helmet for the Quad bike as he drives around, despite his fathers protests. Their neighbour the other way is brain damaged after coming off his..\nWeds 1st of May\nMayday, the radio is predicting riots in Paris, against or for Le Pen, anti globalists in London. But I feel a real peace with the turning of the month. It is funny how a different month can make you feel so different. April is always the worst month at work with a lot of routine  work dehorning and testing, and a lot of lambings and calvings, and emergencies. Even though the beginning of May is just the same I always feel we have passed the peak, and we can cruise into summer. The fact that both have accepted the jobs, and that we will have more cover helps!! Though they will not start until summer.\nThursday 2nd May\nIn spite of all yesterdays predictions there wasn’t any trouble!!! In Paris or London, only cyclists causing traffic jams!! What is about the media that they have to report the bad news not the good news. I haven’t seen anything beyond the Cumberland News on the farms restocking.\n Stopped at Beckfoot on my rounds and sat in the sunshine on the beach for 10 mins and thought, this is the life!! Though in talking to one of the neighbours, one of the farmers is having real problems getting motivated. He had milking Ayrshires, really quiet cows who you could do anything with. Their idea of getting excited was turn out time and moving into a fast amble to the spring pastures. He has bought in really wild suckler limousin X’s.  If you look at them the wrong way, they put their tails in the air and take off. I was there dehorning and we lost one which jumped over a gate. Another put its tail in the air and took off only stopping when it came to the block wall at the end of the yard. Unfortunately it didn’t stop fast enough and crashed headlong into it. It now has a definite tilt to it. The wall isn’t too hot either!! I think if I had to look after the likes of them, I wouldn’t be too keen to get out of bed either.\nFriday 3rd May\nSpoke too early about things easing off.. 2 bad calvings, a caesarean, and testing, plus the usual ill animals. But got finished for 5:45, and took my wife out for dinner at the Cockatoo in Cockermouth. Very pleasant, but while she wanted to go on to socialise at 10pm I wanted home to bed. \n\n\nSat 4th May\nOff Yippee!!\nTook the kids to Nichol End and went canoeing on the Lake got absolutely frozen but was really good fun!! It rained in spite of all the good weather forecasts, but with our style of canoeing we are always soaked anyway.\nHad a picnic on one of the islands, and had fun.\nCame back and slept for the afternoon, should have taken the boys to see the FA Cup but they were happy playing around.\nWatched Ghandi on DVD at night it is a very moving film, and the ambiguities and politics came through, to a muted extent which was interesting. It often makes me wonder about how much of Govt policy is personality driven. Again the inability of individuals to fight the “system” came through. The front page of the Times this morning was on a toddler who had died from post op haemorrhage following the use of disposable instruments in a tonsillectomy. Large amounts of money have been spent on disposable instruments that are always inferior to good quality surgical kit: Several people have died because of their use:\nBecause no-one wanted to take the very small theoretical risk, that they may transfer nvCJD. The approach to risk management and prioritisation within government, and the civil service is very poor. But to be fait to them the press is not helpful. I would like to see Prescott stand up and say that he wants more deaths on the railways, but he never will. If less money was spent on safety on the railways, more trains at more convenient times were run at lower costs, then there would be fewer deaths on the roads. But as no-one holds politicians responsible for deaths on the roads, it ain’t gonna happen. \nSun 5th May\nChurch was DN who is brilliant at getting the kids involved. [son]’s face lit up when we were walking in to church to see him walking down Botchergate with guitar in hand. \nHe had a skin that had been cast from a snake, and based his songs with the kids, and his talks with them on being a new creation. Cor 5 vs. 17  Getting rid of the old self, and hence the snake skin.  \nHe is brilliant on the guitar and a real performer.  Wasted as a tax inspector!!\nMon 6th May\nMaybe getting the kids soaked and frozen on Sat was not a good idea as they are all coming down with colds now! Tim is very chesty and was up in the night hot and wheezy. Any infection always goes for his chest. So Helvellyn will have to wait for another day. So concreted posts and pressure washed the yard. The boys loved “Helping”. Then demanded I play football as payment! AG was here as his Dad was dropping off the caravan after being away for the w/e. P called up from Manchester en route for Thailand. She is handing in her notice and going.  \nBooked summer holiday in France, and now have to work out what we are doing on the way there and back.\nTues 7th May \nWent testing but I really do have the kids bug and feel hot and feverish.\nWent to bed for rest of day\nWeds 8th\nDidn’t feel like getting out of bed but went to work. First was a deer RTA. I was supposed to meet a police car there, but no police, either car or policeman! I am glad it wasn’t too controversial or important! So I have taken all details and hope that that is the end of it.\nThis afternoon was spent chasing stirks around a field and Abbeytown. We dehorned them, they should have been done this time last year, but were n’t because of FMD. They’re now 2 yr old which means they were really too big to go around upsetting. Two went through the dyke one way, the other went through the other side into some one’s garden and on to the Abbeytown road! So it was a bit of a rodeo. It ended up charging M who hurt his shoulder trying to escape! He was not happy as this morning he got his letter asking him to cut back is milk production. He had jokingly asked what was I doing this winter as all the farmers will have given up by Christmas.\nThe long term out look is not good, but at least we will have 2 new graduates in training to cope with the upturn when (If?) it comes. \nThurs 9th\nDay Off\nUnfortunately spent the morning shopping in Carlisle, which meant wandering around shops, and trying to find clothes. I needed A, my daughter as my dress sense leaves a lot to be desired, and she keeps me right. Met GB another Carlisle Vet which was good I haven’t seen him for a bit. Had lunch out which was nice though. Also got all the bits for the tennis net, so will be able to get it up. The annoying bit was I got a parking ticket, which sent my blood pressure up. Now I know I often park with out paying and in the wrong places, that is just living dangerously. But as we were in Carlisle and had decided to go out for lunch, and for some reason I was in [wife]’s car, as usual there was no change in the car, (well as usual there was no money at all.) I only had myself to blame I know she never has change in the car. I only had enough for 2 hours in my pocket. Which to be honest is in my opinion quite long enough in Carlisle shops. So on the way to lunch out, I made a special trip back to the car park, armed with coins ready to pay the city council the extortionate fee so I could spend more money in Carlisle City shops. The first machine refused my coins, I even tried a 2nd machine that also refused to accept my hard earned cash. So I left a note saying the machine was not working in the windscreen. And yes you guessed it, I came back to find a traffic warden giving me a ticket, who justified his action by saying there w ere 4 machines from which I could have bought a ticket. GRRRRHHH!!! \nFri 10th\nFinish of another week with more TB testing. A lot of cows from Netherlands, MRIs (Meuse, Rhine, Issel.) very good beefy looking dairy cows. Dual purpose. Why we have to test them I don’t know but we have to keep Page St happy. They were all tested prior to export from Holland, and they want them tested again. The farmer is very Bio security conscious, and has his land all in a single block now bounded by roads, or arable cultivation. All the other cattle he insisted were tested and he had the results prior to purchase! In spite of all his good sense he is still going on about the missing vials from Porton Down, and other paranoid conspiracy theories on the spread of FMD.\nBut a part from cold/flu, feel as though things are getting back on track. We can look to the next 12 months with confidence. Thereafter depends on whether the WTO wins over the EU to get rid of subsidies, or whether maintaining the food supply within the EU is seen as important. The one thing the FMD has taught me is that you never know what will be coming next.\nI do feel guilty about saying there should be more train crashes after seeing the crash in the news today at Potters Bar.\n\n\nSat 11th May\nWorking the w/e again. \nSaw another calf with CCN, caused by a deficiency of B1. Usually rare but seems to be much more prevalent this year. ? due to old grass on pastures. Don’t know. \nHad a greyhound client in, bringing in a greyhound on behalf of some one else, who has been chased from the practice for non payment, so had a stressful half hour negotiating with an irate idiot. But he paid his old bill, and stumped up front for the new one. And seemed placated, treating the animals is easy.\nSpent the afternoon in the garden and fixing up the tennis nat. We were given an old second hand net so I have fixed up on the concrete and it was good fun playing with the kids. The concrete is not level and has lots of loose stones so the bounce is a bit erratic!!\nWent to a 50th Birthday party, for which I was teased at work, but I maintain we are friends with the children in their 20’s!! It was a good craic and the food was brilliant. There was one of the partners from a lawyers from Carlisle there complaining that he could only have an hourly rate of charging out at £185. Consequently he couldn’t attract good lawyers to his firm because the city firms were offering far greater salaries and were charging out their juniors at £200. I couldn’t admit that our hourly rate is only £45 and that I think that £45/hour is a lot of money. Should have been a 9 to 5 lawyer.\n\n\n\nSunday \nWent to church NL, but was still half asleep from my late night, spent all afternoon and evening out on calls, was OK till the midnight call when I decided that being a lawyer was probably a much better idea.\nMonday 13th\nHalf asleep after the w/e so took a little while to get going. Having kept this week a bit quieter, as there should have been a lot of last minute dehorning and castrating, it hasn’t come in so we really are quieter. So did some office work but trying to work out why the two computer systems we have do not have the same balances on their accounts with a tired sore head is not worthwhile. But it was preferable to sorting Rotas.  So I when came home I sat and read TinTin much to my wife’s disgust. \nI also looked at my cash flow predictions, which were totally out of line. I usually take a pessimistic view so as err on the side of caution but they are totally out. Fortunately the right way!! The partners think it is a waste of time and effort to try to predict how much of the bills the farmers are going to pay in any month, some pay every month, but most pay every now and again, either when they have time, or money, or when the accountant or vat man needs the books. I suppose they are right who cares so long as they do pay.\nAlso finally caught up with GP as ringworm still not getting better, so finally on antifungals.  If the farmers couldn’t get hold of a vet pretty quickly to discuss what’s going on, they would give us earache.\nTuesday 14th\nHalfway through May and time to get the rest of the planting done in the garden. Beautiful weather and feels like summer is here.\nGG had a visit from trading standards over the bulls for which he had given a certificate of Fitness to travel.\nThere is now no slaughterhouse within an hour’s drive of here for cattle. Ulverston is the nearest. If an animal is not fit to be transported alive for some reason e.g. because it is lame or blind etc then it has to be shot on the farm and the carcase transported to the slaughterhouse. However under the new meat hygiene regulations of 2-3 years ago the carcase has to arrive within an hour of being shot. Which was fine while Black Brow was operating the slaughterhouse, but since it has closed, there are no options for any animals to be shot on the farm. (Unless you put it in your own freezer for your own consumption.) Thus whereas if there were borderline cases before, they were shot on the farm, and the carcases transported. Now the pressure is to get them transported alive. Or the farmer loses the value of the animal £500-£600, and has to pay £75 to get them shot and disposed of. The sooner either Carlisle slaughterhouse or Black Brow slaughterhouse get working again, the better.\nWeds 15th\nDay off\nSpent the morning catching up on paper work, feel better for it but never my favourite job.  But all the bits and pieces are in place for my tax return. Just waiting for the final few pieces of paper. Wrote a caustic letter to Council about the parking ticket, but sent them a cheque as not worth the fight.\nWent to Up Front Art Gallery for lunch. Some one had made a set of peat rings with a golden bowl at the centre and wanted hundreds of pounds for their “Art” creation. If you don’t ask you don’t get.\nSpent afternoon running the kids as [wife] was taking A in town for hair cut and girl time.\nLast football match for Northbank and [son], lost!!\nThursday 16th\nThe long lunch is back!!! There wasn’t much happening Vet wise but still a lambing today as the season has dragged on. One restocking farmer was in today with a ewe to be lambed, of the 200 sheep he is supposed to be fattening for market, 20 have lambed. The guy he bought them from is adamant they were never near a tup, someone needs to tell him about the birds and the bees!.\nThere was also a good, if slightly apocryphal story from DEFRA licensing, when they needed a licence to move a bull. The licensing department asked,\n“Is this bull going to be used for breeding purposes?”  Yes is the farmers reply.\n“Will this animal be coming in to contact with any other animals?” ……..  \nFriday 17th\nAnother TB test, another restocking farm, more stories. The best one was the fact that their cattle had lain for a week in the pasture field after being shot. They decided to plough it out for barley in the back end having spent the summer pressure washing the farm buildings to a gleaming state of sterility. \nWhere the animals had lain, there was still obvious contamination with blood etc when they ploughed it. But having failed the buildings on specks of dirt, DEFRA were just not interested in contaminated blood stained earth. They had also phoned the day before I arrived to send some one out to arrange TB testing. The chaos in there continues.\n\n\nSat  18th May\nI am to be best man! A friend was around last night with news about getting married. We have a wedding every month for the next 4 months. Must be something in the water at the moment!!\nUnfortunately it meant it was a really late night celebrating and I am working the w/e again. So getting up for Saturday morning surgery was a bit grim.\nI survived and so did most of the animals, the worrying thing is I am sure that Drs are just the same. Spent the afternoon playing football and tennis with the kids in the yard, and mowing the grass. The farmers are all now silaging and the roads are full of tractors flying around at all times of night and day.\nSat evening went with [wife] to hear SA speak at KD’s. It was good to see him and Clare again. We visited them in Bombay,at the height of FMD and it always puts things back into perspective. He runs a mission hospital in Thane an outskirt of Bombay. They have it self-funding by charging the rich, for luxury (!) service a long way behind the NHS, and providing a basic service FoC  for the average Indian. He is now talking about trying to raise funding for building an AIDS hospice to provide pain relief and dignity to those who are dieing of AIDS. Because of the stigma and cost, and risk of cross infection of both HIV and TB a lot of AIDs patients are just thrown out of their homes, and HIV +ve babies are abandoned.  As he says there is  an epidemic sweeping Bombay that will leave a lot of orphans and cause secondary epidemics because of immuno suppression, and it is not really being addressed.\nVery thought provoking, and makes the £millions wasted on FMD look very sick in a global perspective.\nSun\nMissed church in the morning as was seeing to cats and dogs in the surgery and dripping calf in the large animal bay. Spent most of afternoon on visits. All work and no play is making me a grumpy boy. 2 w/es in a row is not good.\nMon\nAW is in worse mood than me and at least I have worked w/e! She is winding every one up with her attitude. It is sthg that will have to be addressed but will have to be a partnership decision. \n[wife] was interviewing FC tonight at Christian Viewpoint in Carlisle, and came back full of it. She is good with people and interviewing. \nShe was also challenged by what F was saying about the importance of treating people as loved and valued by God. In some ways very similar to S, about valuing AIDs patients. We are all valued by God.\nTuesday\nMissed gym for 3rd week, I am going to be getting really unfit. I was on duty and had spent time talking with folk at work, valuing them!! But it was nice as A came out with me and she always likes being on call with me, but I never seem to know what’s going on in her mind. Still waters run deep.\nWeds\nDad phoned and has decided not to come on the w/e away this w/e. It is a family reunion, but it looks like it will be just our family and P’s. But the kids love meeting up with the cousins. Even A, who will no doubt complain that there should be some girl cousins. She is the only girl on both [wife]’s side of the family and mine. It is a bit worrying in that he is losing confidence in doing anything outside his normal routine. It is at times like this you realise London is not really very close. The other problem is working so many w/es doesn’t give much time for the travelling up and down to see him. \nThursday\nG was away on a course yesterday and came back full of doom and gloom. For along time we have relied on the drug sales as a substantial part of the business. There have been various government reports that have queried our monopoly, and there is a move to insist that we provide prescriptions for all the drugs, and then allow the farmers or pet owners to buy the drugs from whatever source they want: Internet, pharmacy or us. It means however that the Professional fees will inevitably have to rise to compensate. Which means it will be uneconomic for the farmers to use us. So they will not, in the present economic climate, which means no job. Carlisle, Brampton, and Dalston vets are all starting to write prescriptions which means that we are going to have  to follow suit.\nThe farmer who rents my field was silaging tonight. I got back from house group, to find a tractor follow me in to start rowing up. As they had been at it all day I decided to take the gates off their hinges as it is a narrow gap, and at that time of night, a clunk against the pillar is OK, but I don’t want to have to replace my wooden gates!! They had just started to pick it up when I went to bed at 11pm, so no idea what time they finished. \nFriday\nG is off ill, help, it looked as though I might miss out on the w/e away.  As he is working the w/e. But the fact it would have meant 3 w/e’s in a row and 6 nights in a row, managed to help persuade one of the assistants to step in thankfully. So I finished at lunch time and slept to catch up from the On call until the kids came home from school and set off for the w/e.\n\n\nSaturday 25th May\nDovedale in the Derbyshire Peak District\nDefinitely should have more w/es away and not working. We had a great time with the cousins. Stayed at a farmhouse B&B, it use to be a working farm but is too high up, and to small to sustain the dairy, so they went out of that 3 yrs ago. Beef and sheep was not making any money so they have concentrated on Tourism and grass let the fields. His neighbours are now renting the land and farming it. \nBeautiful walk along the valley and had tea out. Relaxed and slept like a log.\nSunday\nGreat British Summer; makes you wonder why any one would want to go abroad!! Wet and cold so went to water world and watched the kids, big and little go flying around the flumes.\nIt was good to catch up with my brother and family. The boys would play footie all day long, and be happy.\nMonday\nOff to catch my breath and tidy up flat for tenants arriving Thursday, spent day trying to reduce the weeds in garden and went swimming at night. The boys still wanted to play footie. Where do they get their energy? If I could bottle it I would make a fortune.\nTuesday\nIt felt like hard work going back to work, after time off I always seem to be tired and head achy. It seems to be hard work to get going again, aI just don’t feel like doing anything, including writing this diary. But the good news is that we have a new booted bantie. Bertie the cockerel and he is now ensconced in his run. We are hoping to get him some young ladies in the not too distant future. He is cute and A is over the moon about him.\nWeds \nGetting going again. Spent time talking with my wife who as always puts things back in to line. Communication!!\nWent to do some pregnancy diagnosis early this morning and the farmer was complaining about the cost of his vet bill and is wanting to learn how to check cows to see if they are in calf prior to drying off. The whole economics of dairy practice with milk at 13p per litre is beginning to hit home to them. Cannot be nice starting up again, to realise that you cannot make money at doing it. One of the other vets is in really bad form this week and is causing a lot of friction and we will have to deal with it as the staff are up in arms. At least I am off tomorrow prior to working jubilee w/e. My mother in law arrived which the kids love complete with her special treats for them snowballs.\nWent out for dinner with mother in law, but too tired to enjoy it due to early morning caesarean. \nThursday\nOff \nSpent morning getting flat ready as we have new tenants moving in and clearing up while the “girls” went shopping. Dry weather but intermittent heavy showers. Tackled the long grass at front but the grass got too wet and clogged mower. \nPicked up kids and did the fatherly bit, went to bed early as head achy and washed out and caught up on zzzz’s\nFriday\nStart of the Jubilee w/e and on duty for the next 5 days until 5pm Weds evening. Work busy with bits and pieces, and farmers complaining that it is too wet to silage. One of the vets had issued a PETS export certificate for a cat to come back into UK but had put it down for 2 years not one. It is only valid for 2 years in dogs but 1 year in cats. Typical Friday afternoon problem to sort out, The Help line is closed for training and MAFF offices are closed for the BH w/e. I don’t think there is a way around it either.  But will not be able to sort it out till Weds day and they are due on Ferry on Tuesday Oops.\nAlso a bitch’s owner came in to ask if we were open Tues as she is due on that date and will probably need a caesaer.\nJohnboy called in the evening wanting me to go to the “loyal” supporters meeting at Carlisle united as a spy. I’m on call so couldn’t oblige thank goodness.\n\n\nSat 1st June\nOffice staff were asking why is there only 2 vets on the whole w/e and I am beginning to feel the same, should have split it up and had more staff on, but at least the others will get a break and come back refreshed. But I feel like I am looking down the barrel of a gun.\nHorrendous calving on a heifer that was in calf by mistake, to its father. It was supposed to have gone back to its breeder but the buyer was still tied up under the twenty-day rule. The calf had died, and was gassed up. Ended up by caesaering in spite of rotten calf.  2 hours hard work and the heifer will at best be very ill for several days.\nSun 2nd June\nA day of football. Went to church and made a quick exit to watch the football, as with everyone else was quite disappointed. At Hebron at night DM had the goals, and the reactions to them on the big screen, which he linked to Romans 12 “ therefore I urge you to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, this is your act of spiritual worship.”  Talking about worship to God being everything we do including how we react to how the English football team perform. Very clever and memorable way of expounding the bible.\nWent straight on to [son]’s football presentations which was quite fun. There is a real football sub culture with the amateur football clubs in Carlisle all vying for the top spot. The old pals network and animosities seem to be very prevalent\nMon 3rd June\nBusy night and early start. 2 x prolapses? Why always at a BH??\nThe second one was a wild limousin heifer it charged me and sent me flying. The only injury was a sore fist where I thumped it in the eye to try and deflect it, as I was trying to get it away. Gave me a fright. It was a ¾ heifer that was bred because he couldn’t sell it store last year because of restrictions.\nChatted to farmer who started getting up at 4:30 am during FMD, because he couldn’t sleep. He is still doing it now!! He still has not got any sheep in because he can’t face it. He lost his sheep to the cull but kept his cattle. I had started by admiring the view. He said yeah it would be great apart from the damn windmills.  He has a brilliant viewing looking out over the Solway, and the Great Orton site and the windmills remind him and everyone else that their flocks are in a big pit. He says he can still see them going and feels guilty. I didn’t have the heart to tell him that of the 10,000 blood samples taken at Gt Orton only 2 were positive. A very big mistake that has caused big hurt in this area, and no one has admitted responsibility, and no one ever will.\nTues 4th June\nWatched some of the jubilee stuff on TV in between calls. Amazing sight to see the Mall full of people more than ever before. Yet Rupert Murdoch and his press would have us believe that the monarchy is finished.\nWe managed to cope with just the two of us on call so may be I was right. Also made a start on byre.\nRemind me next time we have a dinner party on a BH not to be working it. As my poor wife had 4 kids and a dinner to prepare!! I was called out to a cow Caesar at 3:30 and then had another call after that. Fortunately I had taken Tim so there was one less to fight. But got back to be told that I had to have a bath before I could help because I smelt… Evening was really good fun and hilariously funny, so even I kept going to the wrong side of midnight which after an early start was pretty good going. I will have to get Phil to do his Senator homes skit at the wedding. \nWeds 5th June\nDid not feel like getting up this am at all, and felt even less like going into work. Managed to extricate us from any problems with the cat with out its passport, there is no give in the DEFRA system, which is to be expected. Richard had a suspect FMD calf on Tuesday, no wonder he was a bit jittery when I spoke to him later on. Even though you know that it probably isn’t going to be a case and that the farmer is panicking, it still sets the butterflies flying. It was BVD.  Spent over an hour and a half this morning on the phone sorting out what the AW calls “the rubbish”. Queries and being helpful and friendly, and sorting out licensing and drugs, and repeat prescriptions. One was a woman complaining about the neighbouring practice, which required a bit of tact !!!\nI think the Drs must have been as busy as us, the tally for the celebrations are 1 off ill with flu and bad back, one wrist sprained from scooter racing at a street party after all the kids had gone to bed.(!!) And one who spent the w/e visiting her boyfriend in hospital. She had said that he needed to go in on Friday but the doctors had put him off, as it was the w/e. He was worse on Sunday but had waited till after the football before ringing. Priorities, priorities\nThursday\nWent to house group which was really good and spent time praying for the group, church, area and for world situation. [friends] are trying to work out what to do in India. They are teaching at a boarding school in the south of India and have both their own family, and also the school kids to think about. The consensus is that the foreign office advice is aimed more at the Indian and Pakistani govts than the UK Nationals. Ian is supposed to be visiting and has a flight booked so is still going at the moment. I really cant believe that they would escalate the situation, but it will be tit for tat and then going to the brink as neither will want to break face.  The ramifications of Sept 11th still keep reverberating around the world, as the balance of power alters. Makes FMD look like a picnic. At least we have stable govt that says it abides by the laws.\nFriday\nThe secretary asked this morning what did I want, meaning tea or coffee and I replied as I had prayed “wisdom.” But with 2 sugars.\nWe had a difficult partners meeting that lunch time. Poor timing and priorities again as England was playing!! I had assumed they would lose! But the meeting went well and the issues were discussed amicably enough and frankly enough so we all know where we are at, and issues were addressed.\nBut as James says not only about asking for wisdom but also putting it into action.\nAt night leant on the fence and talked to the neighbour as the thistles I was supposed to be cutting down carried on growing, but it was a nice evening. He works for STL, the Christian book distributors, he was saying how the fire that they had just after he arrived at the time seemed a disaster and caused chaos. But it made them make decisions that had to be made rather than continuing with the status quo, and in hind sight was a very good thing. I wonder when we look back whether the changes and opportunities of FMD will make us appreciate the decisions we have all had to make. \nIt made me think of the woman who came in today saying she was one of the “..lucky ones who didn’t get FMD”. Very much tongue in cheek as they are much worse off than those who did. She gave up her job as they couldn’t sell the calves as they were born and so some one had to look after them, so she went back home to work on the farm. Her job of course has been filled in the mean time, and she would have made a lot more money for less hassle if she had stayed.\n\n\nSat 8th June\nFinished the long period of work and On call on Sat morning and it came down with heavy showers as we had hoped to climb Helvellyn today. It eased some what at night which was just as well as we were going to a BBQ. It was put on by a S African vet from DEFRA who is now working in Longtown. The last time I drove through to Charlie and Ruth’s who were hosting the BBQ, was when the pyres were all burning. It gave me a funny feeling driving back up there. \nThe food was good and the craic was good, so we had a good time. The kids would have kept going but they were beginning to get high!! The midges once you get north of the border are definitely worse. We all had lumps all over in the morning.\nSun 9th\nSB spoke at church on Jesus healing the blind man at Pool of Siloam. He was very easy to follow.\n[friends] called in and stayed for tea. [he] as usual blunt and controversial as ever!! He always has a good insight, and dresses it up in taking things to extremes, he is also very funny with it so had a good meal.\n[son] is as high as a kite as he is going camping with the school this week so he has all his kit ready to go and would not settle to go to sleep and kept the other boys awake.\nMon 10th\nPouring down in time for the school camp at Borrowdale. Never mind they’ll enjoy it any way. 3 farms have had silage pits burst because the grass has been put in too wet. If silage is made when the grass is too wet it flows very slowly and cannot support its own weight. So it bursts the side walls and will flow out of the heap that it has been put in. If there is plenty of effluent coming off it will usually escape from the normal collecting systems and if it gets into the becks, it is worse than slurry. Hunters stream was black with effluent and the environment agency were out testing the water quality so they will be for the high jump. The contractors are so far behind, and the grass is getting so long and bulky that it doesn’t dry out as quickly. So there may well be a few more, but at least the farmers will have had warning so it will be their own fault.\nThe school kids are back for their work experience week. It must be hard for them to follow what is going on. But they seem to enjoy them selves. The worksheets definitely help to give some structure and a feel for what is going on.\nCrusaders meeting at night pretty disappointing response so not a lot we can do.\nTues 11th \n June workload has set in and I’m just cruising, and managed to get to the gym while on first so feel full of energy. Why do you feel full of energy after expending some? Spent half an hour on net trying to get holiday organised but finding places for 6 is not as easy. The weather is better for [son] camping and should be better until the w/e. Means we will hopefully be quiet at work as they all go out into the fields. \nWeds 12th\nNo calls over night. First time since finishing with Defra not had a call at night. Summer is truly here. There was a call just on half time at 8.15 which I did during the break so got to see the second half and England drew 0-0, but are through t o the next round. Caught up on paper work and have sorted a lot of things so they are in place for the 2 new vets.\nThurs 13th\nMeeting with Bank Manager for executive lunch.. sandwiches from Bells.\nHe asked how was the “new normality” . Which seems an excellent phrase. He seemed happy enough but it is always interesting to see how an outsider views the information given!! The problem is usually knowing the questions to ask. I think that is probably  He seemed happy enough but it is always interesting to see how an outsider views the information given!! The problem is usually knowing the questions to ask. I think that is probably true of the inquiries into FMD. Unless you know the questions you will not get the right answers.\nWent Abseiling up at Sandale with the house group from church and had a BBQ. It would have been nicer if the wind hadn’t howled. I had gone prepared for British summer weather but it was still pretty nippy. It was great fun.\nFri\nRead another test that had IR s for TB. (Inconclusive) that will have to be retested in 60 days. While I was writing up the paper work the farmer’s wife was saying that the kids were all off school and nursery with Hand foot and mouth. She had taken the youngest who was ill with the middle kid to the doctor. The doctor had said what it was and the middle kid burst into tears as he thought they were going to take her baby brother outside and shoot him!! It is funny but also very sad.\nThe same farmer was really fed up as the cows were all supposed to be TB tested prior to arriving on the farm. He had also let them out into a long 5 acre field with the water troughs at the far end of the field. Half the cows had not found the trough, and so were very thirsty by the time they came back at milking time. The idea that you just go and replace the cows just like that is not quite the case.\n\n\nSat 15th June\nSaturday morning spent it Gardening. The strawberries are coming and even though the gooseberries aren’t quite ripe picked some to start the harvest, and the one strawberry that was reddish!\nThen went to visit [friend] (and the wide screen TV) for THE football match. No one expected any more English progress but the lads surprised me and played a stormer. So the game against Brazil will become THE match.\nThe practice BBQ in watery June sunshine was good fun but the ground was too wet to play silly games or even footie. The food was excellent. AW was notable by her absence. Hey ho. BBQ is in need of a revamp, maybe abseiling though I don’t think I can see either R or AW going for it. Showed S around flat and met her parents. Remind me to be wise with my kids!!\nSun \nFelt tired and ill and washed out after slowing down and switching off after a busy day yesterday, and all week. Watched the Ireland match which was very close. Spent rest of day sleeping or just chilling out.\nMon \nWent testing at K and T’d. They are really nice lads but not too hot on the academic front but good fun. They were in good form and hoping to get the low down on the new vets… Yes they are young, free and single as far as I know! I pity their chances..  Spent a lazy day in the sun at a gentle pace, so quite enjoyed myself. Caught up with the paperwork at night and feel mellow.\nTuesday\nToo many O’s. One call was cancelled but the other one still wanted the call. So some one went to the wrong O and I had to make a mad dash and pour oil on the waters to explain why we are so late. Oops. So more Testing and a Quiet day. [wife] also had her quiet day. There was supposed to be a group of them going for a retreat day, but the speaker had cancelled so she did it herself with R and it went very well. She was exhausted after giving out all day. Met up with lads at night. Didn’t get  to gym again as I had to go and calve a schistasoma. Yuk.\nWeds\nTried again to work out what we are going to do with Summer holidays, no doubt we will get organised eventually. Came home early for lunch and had forgotten that it was coffee morning here so felt out of place amongst so many women! Skipped off early and went for a cycle to make up for missing gym. Did first part with A and Annie  and then zipped around for a bit which was good. \nThursday\nK and T had an I/R again. I need a new supply of little green forms. To put this in context. Prior to this year in 16 years in practice I have had 4 I/R’s, I am doing that this week!! So another farm under restrictions.\nFriday\nBad Hair day!! England lost !! Och well never mind such is life. Richard Drummond’s report that the SVS was unprepared, (yeah we had all been saying it, but I did not realise that the SVS had been saying it 2 years ago) has been picked up by the Audit Office. There is a Report case of FMD in a pig from Leicester Mkt. And I had another I/R. And met with JM a temporary Vet with Carlisle SVS on why we had not done the tests allocated. Mostly cos they aren’t to do!!  He also was very cynical about the changes in DEFRA, and the management ethos, has not changed. \n\tHe brought a message back from them that the test we had sent back because the guy is an old recluse that is impossible to deal with, we had to do as they did not have the resources. What!!??? They are responsible for ensuring that they are done, and sorting out the recalcitrant. \nHad the afternoon off and ran round after the kids while [wife] did reports.\nNext week must be better…\n\n\nSat 22nd June\nWedding day for D and S. Yippee.\nD and his best man and usher plus 3 others arrived last night, and it was really nice to have young people around again. I have forgotten how much I enjoy young people. I must be getting too old and cynical. C looked after our boys and A went into town.  It was really nice S could not stop smiling and it is Wigton carnival day so there were two pipe bands as well. Which could be heard drifting over the vows. was in his kilt, I should have got mine on for the occasion.  The reception was at Tullie house, which is a really nice relaxed venue. We were seated opposite [friends] so it was really nice catching up with them. B&D are just back from another wedding in Vancouver and really impressed with BC. |They are out doors fanatics so the skiing mountains and whistler really is their thing.\nBarnes who was looking after the kids at night is going out there for his gap year to work in a book shop. Should be really great for him.\nThere was a celeidh in the evening but I only lasted for 3 dances. I was absolutely exhausted. I didn’t realise how tired I was.  \nSunday\nFortunately it was a family service ie doesn’t start until 11;00!\nIt was lead by the young adults group. So was really fresh and good. They also don’t take themselves too seriously but do take Jesus seriously and it was good.\nMonday\nMissed swimming again, cos work was really busy.\nCrusaders meeting at night at Rydal very good. Met up with some of the leaders I haven’t met before. Folk who work with young people are always good fun and have a wicked sense of humour. Do you need one to do youth work or does youth work give you one?\nTuesday\nDiary did not get filled in from here on as on Weds Morning I reached into back of the car and my back went. I tore muscles in it a long time ago and it often niggles but as long as I keep doing the exercises for stretching and building up the muscles it is OK but I have missed doing the swimming? Relevant?\nAny way saw stars and in agony so flat on my back and stretching every 2 hrs and sore.\n\n\nSaturday 29th June\nMy back is slowly improving I can move around and type!!\nI can do the stretching OK but stiff and achy, rather than spasm.\nWork must have been bad for the two left as it was going to be short staffed with out me dropping out. Nothing I can do about it. The new vet called around to look at the flat before moving in a month’s time. She came with her mother. Their farm was culled out with FMD late on and they had just got the herd to where they wanted the breeding. Her mum was talking about it was going through a grieving period, and how some days it was yes carry on and get going again, and other days it was why bother? It is just all too much hassle. It will take a long time for the memories in the farming community to fader, and with the acknowledgement that it was much better to get the disease and get it over with, the cooperation of farmers will be even less. They are the 17th generation on the farm!! The whole concept of bio security needs to be looked at and farmer education on how the disease is spread. The self-imposed isolation of not sending kids to school etc is just stupid but to go against the flow is very difficult. That as well as the DEFRA imposed ridiculous rules. They were not allowed to leave the house for 3 months. They just view this as a punishment imposed because they refused to let the hefted flock be culled. (They were right not to.)  \nThe old tenants have moved out of the cottage. Eddie and Ruth seemed to really enjoy it as a summer holiday while at work!! A change is as good as a rest so they say. \nI have looked at jobs again but nothing appeals. There is a job which I wouldn’t mind doing as a consultancy but doubt anything will come. Will have to wait and continue to see what happens.\nWent out for a meal to Giannis at night as my Dad is up. For the w/e. \nSunday\nP spoke at Family Focus at church and was very encouraging he is always a revelation as he takes things as they are, not as they should be!\nWatched Brazil beat Germany to win the world cup. Wet weather and kids out of sorts and back still sore. Yuk..\nMonday\nDrove for the first time and dropped my Dad off in Carlisle but it was pretty sore by the time I got back. Dad was in good form and he has enjoyed his time up here but he is getting older, and with being in London we are going to have to visit on a more regular basis.  Went into work and did some paper work and answered phone and felt better for doing sthg, as pretty bored, but couldn’t sit still or really get going either. Came home and lay down again.\nD came around at night called in absolutely hyper. He and A going to split up which is not so good even if it is not that un expected. The thing that has brought to a head is the fact A is seeing some one else, who is also married, not a good situation.\nLads came around at night, which was good fun, and we had a good time.\nTuesday\nI am now the father of a teenager. A’s b’day so it was good to see her opening her presents this morning. Back is easing a lot so did small animal today and I am moving freely but still doing the exercises. A’s birthday is also always a time for reflection as she was born a year to the day after we arrived in Cumbria. So we have been here 14 years, a long time. The future is also looking a bit uncertain work wise with more farmers complaining about the prices of their milk and animals. Hence they don’t want to pay their bills. \nWeds to Saturday\nAs usual the diary gets missed when the crisis hits, so I am writing this on the following Tuesday and bringing the diary entries up to date. \nWeds morning I was driving through Wigton having done my first farm call since doing my back when there were lots of flashing lights and an ambulance and an unmarked police car with all its lights on going through Wigton. They stopped at the lay by in Wigton high St. The traffic was slow but I did not see anything. Later on I was coming back in to Wigton from another call and the By pass was closed. The office was full of news that the by pass had been closed because of a stabbing and that a Welshman and a Wigton woman had been taken to hospital and a Wigton man had been arrested for attempted murder. I got a sinking feeling as D had been around on Monday saying about Ali having a boy friend. I said to [wife] but she said surely not. I got back after work and a friend arrived and unfortunately it was D. The story emerged over the next few days how he had forced his wife at knife point to take him to where she was meeting the boyfriend and there he attacked him. The sort of story you only here about in the papers and crime programmes. So we have had the police taking statements and trying to come to terms with it. He is usually a mild almost submissive personality and he had flipped but really weird. \nThey have 3 girls who are now going to be really mixed up. Having a father who attempts to kill their mother is not nice.\nSo I missed the leaving party for the locum who has been working for us for the past few months which by all accounts was very good. \n\n\nSaturday 6th July\nStill in shell shock over D and A, I still cannot believe what has happened. Went in Saturday morning and sorted my car and got testing list up to date. There is a lot in the Veterinary press about the future of the LVI system and the future of Farm animal practice. The future is not looking good. The short term is fine, if anything we will have a huge amount of work and we can live off the FMD capital that the farmers have. But once that begins to run out, they and we will be in serious difficulties. The economics are against the farm animal practice.\nWent out for a brilliant meal and had a really good evening at C’s. Her husband is a Detective Sgt and had been called out because there was yet another serious incident. This time at a night club in Cockermouth. There is a 22 year old in Newcastle hospital with head injuries. So felt sorry for C as she cooked and hostessed with out her better half.\nSunday\nChurch was good with SG on the character of God. He was quite funny with his illustrations, of fatherly things from his life. Espy as his son is quite a character. Met up with DC who was a DEFRA vet from SA, he was in good form and has another locum set up for when he finishes at Longtown. \nMonday\nBack into full swing again, but not much happening. Read the test and felt a lot happier as I didn’t have to leave the dreaded piece of green paper as everything passed. Of the farms I went on though it was interesting to note that the farmers are all having problems with their backs again. While they were pressure washing and not amongst stock they were fine but going back to pushing animals around the bad backs are back! The topic is probably raised because of the fact I have been off with a bad back. Du. called in as he is replacing D on the railway until they can get something sorted on a more permanent basis. He stayed for 2 years next door while doing his railtrack training. The people at work cannot believe that Dave has done sthg like this as he usually if anything a submissive guy. \nDu. had just got the keys to his new house in Manchester where he is based now, and was not very happy to be posted back up to Cumbria. He hasn’t even managed to move in!\nTuesday.\nWork very quiet and long lunches. Good for getting other things done but pretty boring. Looked at Rota and checked websites. Reports to be published on 18th July. Spent time sorting out rotas and booking up and reorganising my kit.\nWeds\nDay off. Went into Carlisle and was bounced by my wife in to getting my hair cut in what I assume is an expensive hairdressers. She was getting hers done and dragged me in and it was a fait accompli. At least I assume it is expensive, as she won’t tell me how much it is and she let me go off to Tesco’s and said she would pay for both!! \nWandered around book shop in Carlisle and met [wife]’s mum off the bus. \nThe vet student from USA arrived for a couple of days. Jamie who is not as I assumed male but female! It is amazing how you make assumptions when you read e-mails and take messages. She is in UK for 12 wks and [friend] has given her our address as his wife is about to have twins so he thought it better not to have more people than really necessary in his house. There are a few babies at the moment, got a photo of E  this morning and [friend] called around to say [other friends] had had a baby but he couldn’t remember whether it was a boy or a girl!! (Learnt later it is a boy)\nThursday\nNot a lot for J to see. Called in to see [friend’s] new kittens, Posh & Becks. Both have cat flu. He is busy painting house and tidying up for the wedding. Never seen his yard as tidy. Must tell Abbi to get a move on and maybe he will finish off some of the building work as well!! Did 2 calvings in the afternoon and finally read through the Audit office report which I downloaded ages ago, they were pretty accurate, apart from Nick Brown insisting it was all going splendidly well!! There really must be a better working relationship between the ministry SVS vets and the vets in general practice. And so much better communication. The other point that is never made is that all farms should have a mass disposal plan as part of their IACS return in order to keep FMD on peoples minds, as it is already disappearing as a part of history. And history will repeat itself because nobody listens. And most of the anguish and delays were in the disposal systems. \nFriday\nDropped J off in Wigton to catch the train. It is always strange with having students, because they stay in our house they are very much part of our lives and then they drop out of our lives. Another former student who is just back from SA called in and it was good to catch up with her. She was on her way back to Edinburgh for her 5-year reunion. He has been qualified 5 years and I thought it was 2 or three … \nOne of the vets was off ill so it meant a bit of a run around today, as 2 others were on holiday. but it was good to be busy and get some adrenalin pumping.\n\n\nSaturday 13th July\nWorking Saturday Morning.\nOn days like this I think it is great to be a small animal vet, the Consults were all straight forward and I could chat to the owners with out having to stop and think what to do about the animals. That and 2 owners were really appreciative of what I was doing so felt good. I think that is one of the things about working for DEFRA no one appreciated what you were doing. OK some appreciated the concern and effort, and the way you did it but no one really thought what you were doing was good. Like putting pets down. It is for the best but no one likes it.\nBeautiful day today too, the sun shining and picking strawberries and having a Bar B Q was really very pleasant. My brother always says the best thing about NZ where he lives is that he can plan to have a Barb in 2 wks time, whereas here, you have to go with the flow.\nSun 14th\nFirst call so wandered around seeing ill cows. Several lots of drugs to put out as a lot for the restocking farms have yet to get their medicine cabinets back up to strength.  Had a collie hit by a tractor and its eye had been knocked out of its socket. Urgh!! Eyes give me the creeps.\nMon 15th\nOperating day as we are doing the anaesthetic monitoring so plenty of ops booked in. Health and safety requires us to check for operator exposure to anaesthetic gases. As our new system has a scavenging system and is light years ahead of the one we use to have, it is a waste of time, but we have to have the checks done. But I wonder how many other practices actually do?\nWe have never been checked up upon. \nA police man arrived at the front desk while I was on the phone. The head nurse disappeared as soon as she saw the marked Police car, which struck me as very suspicious. After he had booked an appointment for his dog and he had left. I was curious to know where she had disappeared to. She had gone to check that the medicines cabinet, where we keep the gun, and dangerous drugs, was in fact locked. As while we are operating we keep it open so as to have easy access to the emergency drugs. The Gun licences insist that it is kept locked at all times and immediate access to a police officer coming to check it must be allowed. And we never been checked up upon yet.!!  Farmers are all busy with field work and are not wanting to even think about any routine work so it could be a quiet week.\nTuesday 16th\nBeautiful weather and raspberries coming along nicely.\n[wife]’s Mum is busy making jam and mile high pies. Yum Yum\nPartners meeting at lunchtime, why do they always make me so depressed!? \nThe subjects were more of the same how do we cope with the changes in the drug sales prices and how do we compete with Irish drugs being brought in illegally. We got a little further forward and will hopefully be able to make a decision on it by the deadline in September. We need to look at new ways of bringing in revenue streams but I don’t think there is a willing ness to look at the radical so I will have to keep working away at it. \nWeds 17th\nMet up with the lads last night to pray but the craic was good, and did more chat and joking than praying! T’was good. I is apparently having a good time at the CS Lewis convention, but has yet to open the Book stall\n(He sells books and specialises in Antiquarian and first editions of C.S. Lewis). The one thing about the internet is that it frees up communication and searching for the really obscure. Sorry I)\nThe weather broke today and the rain came and with it all the calls as the farmers got all the routine stuff done. Which was good for the last of the school kids which have plagued us for the past few weeks. Vet students next but at least they can chat away with out me having to make all the effort.\nThurs 18th\nWent o a farm today which restocked in Feb after doing its 4 months waiting and has yet to have a TB test, asked him whether I should chase it up but he like everyone else should be leaving it to October and housing. MAFF efficiency  rules. We also tested 44 imported heifers that were supposed to be blood sampled within 7 days of calving but they have been missed. I have no confidence in either of the reports to actually achieve anything. Part of me feels I should try to contact the media and try to get them to push the agenda along. But I don’t feel it would achieve much apart from sticking my head above the parapet, which would not do much. I have asked for copies but none have arrived yet.\nFri 19th\nDemob happy, I’m on holiday from 5:30pm so it will be good to catch up on all the things I should have done but not done. The garden is a mess but we are getting on top of it slowly. In some ways I am glad to be off when the LLI is reporting as at least I will not get wound up.\nSo this is me signing off for the week, next diary will be on Sat week.\n\n\nHOLIDAY -  Week beginning Saturday 20th July\n\n\nSaturday 27th July\nHaving had a week off, I am feeling a lot happier about life in general. We have been to a few of the nights at the Keswick Convention. It is an amazing set up with over 12,000 people coming together over 3 weeks in Keswick and meeting up for Bible teaching and to worship God. There is a big tent that is set up on the back of the convention centre. By the time we arrive, it is always full, and we were not late. On the Friday evening there were people standing outside. The kids went to a Youth event on of all things Ezekiel, not exactly an easy choice of Bible book to convey to 19-14 yr olds. But they really enjoyed the wacky games and the way they mixed teaching and songs and games/activities. They seemed to be mostly uni students who seemed to get as much fun out of it as the kids. My brother and family were up and the cousins love getting together and even A joined in the football and tennis. Even though her hand to eye co-ordination is not the best.\nShe has taken up running every day so I have been out with her, but my back is still not right and I can feel it at the slightest provocation. Must go swimming again. My brother also asked [wife] what DIY needed doing as he is a real enthusiast. Give me gardening any time. So we made a door for one of the sheds which I have been putting off for the past 6 years. As once I start there are another 5 to do. He is also a sailing fan so hired a sail boat and went sailing which was great fun. The kids had a canoe and we raced up and down the lake. And the kids swapped around and went to explore islands it was really good. The weather helped it was scorching.\nWe also went to a wedding of one of our close friends’ son. I decided I am going to start teaching my kids the etiquette of weddings, as the groom could have done a better job.\nIt isn’t really his fault as he is young and has not thought things out.\nSun\nWent to the All age service at the tent at Keswick. There were too many kids even for me, but the mix of action songs and asking kids things and an action talk meant that those leading it kept the kids involved. It was good to see. Spent the afternoon on the lake it was really nice day.\nMon\nYep it was a real Monday morning with my in tray over flowing. 2 Rota’s to sort and 2 weeks of testing to try to arrange. The only goodish news was that the ministry have finally decided to put the restocking farms on Annual testing which means at least we know where we stand and can plan. It will mean a lot of work for us. The bad news was that the OFT investigation have sent us a horrific questionnaire which needs filled in and one of my partners has had a go and not got very far unfortunately, and it needs to be in by tomorrow.  Forget it.!!\nThe 2 new vets have started and so we are settling them in and they are picking up the ropes quite quickly, which is ace.\nOn call at night, out twice for bad calvings….that’s the end of my holiday f\nfeeling good. \nTuesday\nSore back from calvings and early mornings. Had forgotten I had arranged for some one to be with me all day today. In a moment of weakness I had acquiesced to being put up for sale in a promise auction to raise money for African Children’s Choir. So this was the promise being redeemed. A morning with the vet….So I put on my best charming manner, all Mr PR-Man. And took her on a tour of the practice and on call and explained everything I was doing so it was a good thing we were not busy.\nSpent the afternoon consulting and supervising new vets and showing them the ropes.\n Weds\nWe were suppose to be going walking up Helvellyn but the torrential rain put us off. So went into Carlisle and did bits and pieces, and I took kids to see Stuart Little 2, which is definitely one for the kids. And jobbed around at home, but the kids like it when we just potter around.\nThursday \nFelt really stiff and sore and decided again I must go swimming more often, I just cannot seem to get there, that’s all. Must make time. I’m working this w/e and I am then off for 10 days. Finishing with F’s wedding. [friends?] are up with their kids and it is really good to see them. We don’t see them that often but they are the sort of friends who you pick up on as soon as you meet them even if you haven’t seen them for ages. M has left full time teaching as he couldn’t cope with the pressure of all the paper work and hassle. He is teaching supply and doing other things as well. He is so creative and he has made a model of our house just while he was sitting chatting with us. \nFriday\nCame home at lunchtime to see the kitchen table covered in drawings and paintings. M had decided to have a painting day so all the kids were doing drawings and paintings. He has done a watercolour of our house. It is brilliant. \n\n\nHOLIDAY for two weeks\nThis is more a reflection of what I have been doing and thinking over the summer as I have not been writing up the diary but I want to put down some of the things that I think are important.\n[edited – disclosive]\n\n\n\nSat 24th  Aug \nAnother Bank Holiday w/e to be worked but at least I am backing up our new young assistant. We work a system where the new vets have a senior vet on call at the same time for the first few months so as to give them a hands on support and mentoring. While this sounds very good and practical it is surprisingly uncommon. When I started I was on my own from almost day one. I started in August after getting married, and in the second week of September, my boss headed off to Oman to do horse work out there. The other large animal vet was off on long term sick and he could only get a small animal locum. When I look back now that he left me in charge of the farm practice for 2 weeks after only being a month qualified, I shudder, but at the time I just got on with it. \nSun 25th \nCalvings coming thick and fast. The good warm weather has made the grass spring and the cows are putting on too much weight and having problems.\nJ was at a football tournament at Pirelli’s which I missed, but he came back really tired having played his socks off. Did another PTS (Put to sleep) dog visit with [assistant vet]. It is never the easiest of consults, and she did really well. She is finding her feet. I find it hard helping people make euthanasia decisions over dogs, so I feel quite strongly anti euthanasia when it comes to people.\nMon 28th \nBeautiful day too nice to work. The morning was busy but the afternoon was quiet so I spent it lying in the sun dozing. Had BBQ at night at J’s and chatted to a few folk who I know but not to speak to so was interesting. Spoke to one of our farmers daughters who told me her Dad had just had his first calf since FMD and so he was really happy. He had 2 holdings which were run as one. He managed to keep his heifers which were on the second holding. Probably because they were the last ones in the area, and these were the ones that were now calving. He still blames the pyre from a neighbour for spreading the virus to his farm.\nTuesday 27th\nThe problem with having a day off is that you have problems stored up for when you come back. Today was really hectic…finished at 6-30 after having come back from the Belgian blue inspections to help out at surgery. The inspections were fun, but it gave me the creeps being in the mart and inspecting mouths as it brought back bad memories. The mart is ridiculously clean, and the last time I inspected mouths was for FMD, after shooting a herd that was a dangerous contact. I was trying to persuade London not to take out the other neighbour as well. We got finished at 2am, and went in for a cup of tea and to recover, and the mother greeted me with the news that D had been next door and was starting to shoot them!!\nThe other really annoying thing is that the basic hygiene is not being enforced and yet other rules are. The rules are made in London by desk bound DEFRA officials who don’t have to implement them. The  mart uses mini dumper trucks to clean out the pens after they have been sold. The same trucks are then used to put out straw and sawdust in the freshly cleansed and disinfected yards. They are covered in muck, and are a bio hazard!! \nM the owner of the animals we were inspecting put on her usual tantrum display to try and intimidate the secretary and inspectors, which as I was expecting it I found quite amusing, but I don’t think she or they did!!  \nHad another BBQ tonight with kids. [son] cooked and loved it so I have found a new BBQer!!  Kids in brilliant form as they are enjoying being around and A has been baking.\nWeds 28th\nAnother TB reactor, and the corresponding paper work and licensing!!\nHad a weird oddball case in surgery and spent ages trying to take a history of what was going on. The dog is not that unwell in itself, but has an intermittent history of different things. I look forward to seeing what it turns out to be, or whether it resolves itself with time. Vetting is always varied.\nJ was at [friend’s] party, after having a football school with Blackburn rovers this morning so he was passed himself.\nArranged to visit [prisoner in prison] on my next day off. And went through a multitude of meaningless options to end up with a guy who sounded like he came straight off “Porridge”. It is amazing how intimidating trying to find your way around a bureaucracy can be. I am not sure I want to go but….\nThurs 29th \nFrom feast to famine not much work during the day at least. Al had 3 caesareans last night and was running out of steam by 5 O’clock this afternoon!!\nMeanwhile I did small animals and tried to organise my trip to London to visit my Dad. Found web sites for Chitty Chitty Bang Bang, London Eye and Madam Tussards. So should be able to book in advance if tickets are left for the half term week.\n[other children] are staying so the house is full of excited kids…\nFriday 30th\nBusy day sorting out the invitations to our Open Day, 1st Oct. It is just a chance to get the farmers together. We promised one to celebrate the end of FMD. It is amazing going through the list off the computer how many farms are not restocked. The list hasn’t been updated since pre FMD as we don’t really know how many will restock so we have been waiting for the end of FMD to redo it. So there were a few deaths, sales and ‘moved away’, to take off the list.\nTime moves on.\n\n\nSat 31st August\nLast w/e of the summer holidays. We had a BBQ at lunch time for Borderline, and then I promised to take the boys camping at Bowscale Tarn .It was beautiful but really cold. The weather was OK Sat but Sunday was glorious. The boys wakened at first light. So we climbed up on to the tops while the sun was still rising and it was one of those magical moments. Wonderful.\nThe boys were so excited and full of energy and so happy to be with their Dad and enjoying life. A time to treasure.\nSun \nAfter coming down off the tops from Bowscale Tarn went to visit [friends]. [He] is a vet in Longtown and has just set up his own Small animal practice in the north of Carlisle. The twins who are now 4 weeks old were wonderful. There is always sthg very special about wee babies. A was in her element with two to mother.\nMon\nGood weather continuing and so we are still quiet. The vet student has arrived. Went blood-sampling sheep for Maedi visna to a farmer who imports and sells sheep as a bit of a dealer. Between him and his Dad, and his Granddad they have 4 holding numbers, which is making a mockery of the licensing system. He knows a lot of the breeders and dealers, and the Yorkshire DEFRA is even worse than this one and so the whole licensing system is allegedly being ignored there.\nEveryone in the office was trying to work out where we are going to go for the Xmas party as it is now September.\n\nTuesday\nIt is [friend’s?] last day at work tomorrow before the wedding so the girls spent most of the afternoon printing out posters and things to decorate his car before he goes tomorrow evening. The farmers are phoning in to book Tb tests for Nov and Dec as they know that we will be busy, which makes life a lot easier for me. We have sent out notes with the invitations to the open day and that has had a good response so we will start to get busy testing next week.\nWeds\nDay off. Spent the morning fixing the shower drainage, which had suffered from one too many footballs being kicked against it. The problem was the broken part was also a metric to imperial converter.( One end was 40mm and the other was 43mm) Which once I discovered that was what I needed meant a trip to Carlisle as nowhere in Wigton had it. So it got codged up with plenty of silicone!! \nThe afternoon was spent going to visit [prisoner]. He is the friend who stabbed his wife’s boyfriend in Wigton, and so he is currently residing at Her Majesty’s Pleasure in Durham Prison. It was a very disheartening experience. As with any organisation, it takes time to work out where to go and what you need to get through the hoops. I went from one part of the prison to another and backwards and forwards. The staff where very friendly and helpful, but they are all at fixed stations and so you are sent from one area to another. The security, although expected and natural, still comes as a bit of a shock. Photographed in, and issued with a barcode to get you in and out. And you put all your belongings in a locker before you are allowed in. Of course I did not realise that you only need the ID (Passport) to get your bar code so I kept it to show at the entrance. Where all I needed was the bar code. So they sent me back to put it in the locker. \n[prisoner] was Ok, but he is still finding it hard to think about a future that does not include his wife. Even though the divorce papers are filed, and he has done some pretty nasty things to her and the boyfriend. He is pleading guilty and is expecting to go down for a good few years. \nThe whole visitors area was charged with emotion, with people coming to see brothers, husbands, lovers. There were lots of girls with young children coming to see their Dads. I felt very sad for them and for the kids who are growing up with out a Dad, or the stigma of a Dad in jail. \n[His] kids have written but he is realistic. His wife is very anti him, and they are unlikely to keep up with him in the long term, as she at best, is not going to be supportive, at worst is going to try to dissuade them.\nHe was quite upset about that. He is also not able to sort out his things, or see his house before it is sold. He did a lot of building work etc on it and has an emotional attachment to it. But there is no real closure. He had emotional problems before all this. He is likely to have even more on his release. His car on which there is still a car loan has been removed from the pound but he doesn’t know where it is.\nDrove back over A66 very thoughtful and thankful for my family and freedom. Until the phone went to remind me I was On Call and had I forgotten. Fortunately there were no calls as it takes quite a while to get from Barnard Castle to Wigton. Oops!!\nThursday\nDid my first isolation pens inspection, which is a complete non-sense. The field has to be 50 m from any other livestock. Which in London probably sounds fine. Or in Scotland where there are plenty of woods and other crops, but here in Cumbria where the main crop is grass and all the fields are grazed at this time of year, then it is not so easy. The forms are horrendous, and the boxes to be filled in are greyed out to make it easy for you to know which boxes are to be filled in. This obviously looks really good on a computer screen in London, but on a photocopy, writing in black ink, makes the whole thing illegible. But that’s their problem!!! When does common sense come in.\nFriday 6th September\n[colleague’s] Wedding.\nOne of the vets at the practice was married today at the parish church in Wigton. The wedding was “some do..” He and his family in kilts. There were over 200 at the wedding and reception. At the Grennhill hotel where [bride’s] uncle is a director. The theme was an English rode and Scottish thistle. The flowers were all red roses in arrangements with thistles. They were beautiful. As was the bride, he quickly adds. There was a ceilidh afterwards and a fireworks display. Several of the neighbouring farmers complained to me the next day.\nDanced and talked the night away till after 2 am. Getting up the next day was a bit of a pain for morning surgery, urgh…\n\n\nSat 7th September\nWhy is it whenever you could do with a quiet day because of one reason or another it is always busiest. Managed to keep going most of the day with calvings and ill animals. Still recovering from the late night at wedding.\nDay was a bit of a wash out really.\nSunday.\nMilk fever at 7 am to finish me off so missed church but went to hear SC at Wigton in evening. He is head of Oasis trust and is very much a radical, but believes in putting faith into action and was very challenging. Isiah 58.. True fasting that God wants to spend your self on behalf of the poor in spirit. \n[wife] went to hear the new Bishop of Carlisle who was speaking at Hebron. He is reaching out to all the local churches and seems to see outside the traditional denominational boundaries, which is really encouraging.\nMonday\nHad a crusaders meeting in Rydal. Crusaders is a youth group organisation and I am on the area planning group. We have had money given in a legacy to support some one full time to train leaders, to organise area events and w/e away and other joint activities, which should be good. It meant a rush and a long day so I am still feeling knackered from the w/e.\nTuesday\nI was almost speechless today. The great era of decentralisation has hit DEFRA, I wish… I rang them up because we still have not had confirmation for the appointments of our 2 new vets to enable them to do DEFRA work. What used to happen was that they went to a training session and chat with the DVM in Carlisle and the appointments arrived 2 days later. Guess what all the paper work has to be sent to Page St in London now, and they have not got it back yet.\nWeds  11 09 02\nIt is funny how some anniversaries effect you and others do not. I had just started back in to the practice when the hijackers crashed into the pentagon and the twin towers. I was feeling at my most bruised and battered having had a major confrontation at DEFRA, and had to work through the psychological problems of being threatened and sidelined, and yet wanting to keep my integrity by not reacting and blowing people out of the water. \nThe 9 11 bombers made me realise how fragile peace is, and how fragile people are and the importance of not losing sight of the important things in life and trying to keep things in perspective. People are more important, friends and family… and if I can’t fight the civil service mentality that is their problem not mine. I remember seeing one of the teacher’s husbands walking in to the kids’ school when I went to pick them up. Looking slumped and dejected and learning that their only son was in New York and they could not reach him. 2 days later they heard he had visited the Twin towers the day before and had taken photos from the top. He was supposed be going back into the towers that morning but he had got up late and by the time he and his friends set off the towers had been hit. The impact of the number of people, who have either been in or visited the towers from all over the world, does make it a potent symbol with worldwide resonance. My sister worked in them for a while several years ago.\nThe anniversary brought a lot back up to the surface that I thought was past, but was merely hidden.\nThursday \nFirst on last night and 2nd on tonight so started early and finished late and running out of steam.\nFriday\nOne of the farmer’s wives came in today for some wormers for her chickens that have gape worm. She paid last months bill in cash as well as for the wormers. £8.76 inc VAT. She is working away from the farm 2 days a week, her husband is full time at a job he got after they went down with FMD.I asked how her father in law who is 65 was doing. He is lost and the farm is too quit, its not right its too quiet. They still have no animals back and are grass letting. Its funny she said, whoosh and your life takes a complete change, you never know what’s going to happen next.\n\n\nSat 14th September\nWorked am and then had rest of w/e off hooray.\nSunday\nMonday\n[son]’s footie\nTuesday\nPartnership meeting at lunchtime so had a sore head by the end of the day but a lot of good decisions made. So feel as though we a re moving forward.\nWeds\nOff as working the w/e so caught up on paperwork and stuff at home and then went into Carlisle to go shopping. For lots of bits and pieces. And a new bathroom.\nThursday\nDVM called in to update us. Waste of time and I had forgotten what an annoying man he is a real career civil servant bureaucrat who has forgotten what real life is about. If he ever knew.\nHad one of the vets around for tea as I was backing her up. Spent the evening playing take two and had fun.\nFriday\n---a very bad day at the office dear oh dear oh dear.\nThe day was great to start with headed down to Iselgate to see a lame bull to give it a certificate. They are still suffering from both the financial and emotional scars of FMD. Mind you they were always odd. She was talking about the isolation that was hard to break out of, and get back in to doing things again. They were also hoping to retire when they were 50 but BSE hit, so they decided to keep on and had no income from Jan to October last year. Mind you they would only usually be selling stores any way.\nThe day was taking a turn for the worse when after sorting out umpteen decisions for the practice manager on organisational issues he said “ wasn’t it easy when you were just being a vet???” \nFatal mistake as the next dog to be seen was an odd ball. It had woken up that morning after being perfectly ok up til then. It had growled at tis owner and he had decided to leave it for a while. After an hour or so he went to get it up out of its bed and it flew at him and as he put it meant it. So he rang up and brought it to the vets. This change of behaviour meant he had put it in a kennel and left it. So when I went in to examine it growled and flapped its ears at me and bit at the bars. Some dogs in pain or fear will growl or let you know that it is not happy, but this one meant it. We had a go at trying to get it examined by using the dog catcher and muzzles, but it mean it.\nLeft it to settle down over lunch but it was worse. Finally got it sedated, it had a temp of 104. Injected mm, and so was a case of encephalitis with rage. So after 3 vets all looking at it and umming and erring we decided to get a MAFF vet to have a look just to check that it wasn’t rabies. I had forgotten that none of them are clinical or able to handle animals but it was a bit of a joke. But as there was no history with it, of contact with abroad it has been left alive for the time being.\nBut the stress of both handling the dam thing and the worry of is it rabid and the consequences was some what tiring so I am washed out tonight.\nTomorrow is another day.\n\nWeek 27- Sat 28th September\n\nSaturday.\nDo tell me there is light at the end of the tunnel because at the moment I definitely feel there isn’t. So I have taken time off next week to catch up on all the things that need sorted at home. We are supposed to be putting in a new bathroom and we need to get the stuff ordered so the guy can fit it. You never know it may include doing a few diaries!!\nSunday\nMy wife is on a counselling course this w/e so I ma on the run around with the kids. Yesterday was spent watching the boys plat football and run here and there with friends. [son] had 2 friends to come and camp last night so he is a little on the tired side. The weather is warm and sunny a real Indian summer the autumn raspberries that are usually delicious but quite sparse are huge and plentiful.\nWell I definitely have a teen-age daughter as for the first time I had a phone call late in the evening from Carlisle asking her to be picked up, as her lift home had not worked out. Fortunately it was from the church youth group, but it is the sign of things to come.\nThe youth group took the church service tonight so it was really good. Looking at Our World. The pressures on young people and how they respond as Christians and applying their faith to their own situations. Very challenging.\nMonday\nWe have an Open night tomorrow night and it doesn’t seem very organised yet. Not my pigeon. I have made a resolution not to get worked u about things that are not my responsibility and just leave them be.\nThe 2 new vets are beginning to really pull their weight, which is great, and [colleague] is back from his honeymoon. Brown and jet lagged. They spent time at the beach and on safari so had a great time. [nurse] has headed off to the far blue yonder. She is one of our nurses and has gone to NZ for a month so it will be strange with out her. [other] nurse is just back from states and [another] vet is about to go to the Caribbean for 2 weeks. So I am getting itchy feet. Time to travel. At least I should be of to India in the new year.\nTuesday\nYear end Oct 1st, so stock taking which for me includes mucking out my car. I thought it was quite normal to take the wheelie bin to the car and just hoy the contents in until my neighbour saw one of the rare occasions when it happens and burst out laughing. He found it quite amusing. I was a bit taken a back at the time but we always assume what we do is normal!\nThe open day was OK but [wife] was out so had to juggle things a bit. I was On call so late finished, and had to fetch [son] from football as his practice had been shifted to Tuesdays with the dark nights. So I owe [friend] a bottle of wine for turning up half an hour late to pick him up. The boiler man arrived at 7pm to fix the boiler which was blowing fuses. He needs a lesson on time management. \nHad several interesting conversations on FMD. The most amusing one was about Tony Blair arranging his bust up with unions on the anniversary of the FMD out break finishing so as to keep it out the news. \nThe same farmer said about the govts response the countryside alliance March. The fact that they have reduced the sparsity factor in the allocation of central funds to  local authorities. This means that those with a lower population density and therefore a higher perceived  cost  of providing services are going to have this downgraded. Or in this farmer’s opinion take money from the countryside to the town. Don’t march or this govt will kick you where it hurts in a very subtle way.\nThe other one was probably more relevant in that in a group discussion, admittedly fuelled by an intake of free alcohol. Several were saying that this year was harder to cope with than last as there was no crisis or adrenalin to keep them going. And that the toll from last year was beginning to tell on them and their nerves. Two were still under court threats from Trading Standards /DEFRA for not complying with regulations. Both will in my opinions not result in anything but they are pretty pissed off to put it mildly.\nThere is also a real antagonism to doing the testing for ministry and we are in the cross fire as Defra vets decide what is to be done and yet we are the ones trying to arrange and get the testing done. While they do not have to pay us, they do have to spend a fair chunk of time organising and actually getting the job done. We are having a real problem with organising the testing on one of the common grazings. There are 14 farmers with animals on it. Biosecurity is a joke when your animals are on common grazing with 14 others. And trying to get 2 farmers to agree on a date and a method of doing it. They all have different ideas, and most do not want so and so there co he ‘ll just wind the cattle up, and we’ll never catch them.!!!\nWeds\nDay off  So caught up on garden and sleep.\nThursday\nI really enjoyed the crack today there was just that right amount of work and banter to have a good day. Laughter and fun is infectious..\nFriday\nOut for a meal at night which was great but 8:30 start tomorrow Sat am is not going to be good…\n\n\nOCTOBER – A young colleague’s brother was killed in an accident and as M writes retrospectively (see below), there followed a very difficult month in which he was unable to keep a diary.\n\n\nSaturday 5th October\nIt is in the smallest of things that suddenly life changes very suddenly and we then look back and see how we were and are not now.  I had a phone call at ten to five from one of the young vet’s father. [Father] was asking to speak to George or I. That in itself was strange the receptionist came and found me, with a quizzical look, saying he did not want to speak to [young vet]. When I answered the phone he said that they had bad news in that her brother had been killed in a traffic accident, so I had to tell her the bad news and then sort out the consequences. Once she had got over the initial shock, [wife] drove her to her parents’ home in [her] car.\nThe other partners are away so we are short staffed and [young vet] will obviously not be back for a while.\nIt is at times like this that I am always grateful that I can go back to God and trust in him. Even though I do not understand anything, I know that I can trust God. \n\nJan 2003 (Writing retrospectively about October 2002)\nThere is a month of Diaries missing from the death of [vet’s] brother onwards. I always meant to go back and fill in the days that I missed but never made the time or the effort. I found the time very difficult. So how her parents and sister-in-law coped I do not know. The funeral was at Kirby and I am pleased that I went. It was very sad to see some one in the prime of their life with so much to offer, cut down in such a random way. It was a very Cumbrian farming gathering. The red faced craggy farmers, and yet there was a friend of the family who sang at the wedding who was a black American gospel singer. The global village or world wide family of the church, take your pick.\nThe death of some one young always makes you consider your own mortality and makes you think about what you are doing. Will you on your death bed wish that you had made different choices??\nThe next month was busy and stressful, and probably a time which would have been useful for the study to have thoughts and reactions to my life when under stress, but I suppose to a certain extent when we are close to something we go on automatic pilot and do the urgent leaving the things on the periphery. \nHe was killed while driving a tractor back from where they had been testing cattle for American BVD. They had bought in pedigree world class dairy cattle. This included a sibling to an embryo which had had the American BVD. So the ministry were keen to make sure that it was not established within the UK. Hence the reason for the blood sampling.  I know you cannot look at history and say what if… But if the cattle had not been culled, there would have been no blood sampling to do and no reason to be on the road that day at that time. Linkage is not the way to go. He may have had to go to feed stock or he could have been in an accident in another way. But the ripples of actions continue to reverberate around. \nAt least in my head.\n\nSaturday 12th October (Again M is writing retrospectively here of his first thoughts after diagnosing his first FMD case)\nThese weeks were not completed because of my stress levels!\nI have wanted to transcribe my first thoughts on FMD that were written in a hotel in Newcastle at 2am after diagnosing my first case.\n\nTo My Wife.\n\nDear [wife]\nI don’t know why I am writing this, as I hope to see you tomorrow but I suppose I need to record what I feel, for you, and for me besides, sleep eludes me.\n\nToday was a beautiful day of winter sunshine, warm sunshine that speaks of the spring that is to come, on frosted snow that is clear and white and pure. A great day to be walking up in the hills on a Sunday afternoon, enjoying God’s wonderful creation.\nBut this is a fallen world. The only walkers are me, the ministry man, in disposable boiler suit and waterproof jacket and trousers, and a farmer with a heavy heart. We go into each field checking and inspecting all the pregnant ewes, herding them into a corner to catch and examine them.\nFeet OK, Mouth OK, a smile.\nThe only clue to the sadness on this man’s heart is the slight acrid smell, which wafts, now and then on the wind. The smell of his neighbours future burning on another ministry man’s pyre.\n\nIt’s 2 o’clock in the morning, and why am I writing this? \nBecause I cannot sleep. \nThe ministry man who then examined the cows. Blisters in its mouth, blisters on its tongue, Temp 105F.\n“I am sorry” I say, “It is.”\n“They’ll all go” he manages to say fighting back tears.\n“ If the lab confirms it, yes.” I reply. As a farm vet of 15 years experience I am not allowed to say it is Foot and mouth disease only that I suspect it. An anonymous telephone answerer in London makes stupid comments and stupid questions. \nI take my samples from the cow. I grab its tongue to pull it out to take a sample of the skin from the tongue. The cow’s tongue comes off in my hand. I try not to be sick and place the sample in the bottle.\n\nWe go into the farmhouse.\nHe is in tears.\nShe is in tears.\nI feel like crying.\n\n“ I wouldn’t do your job for all the b… tea in china.” she says.\n\nI am a volunteer, a TVI, all big depts have their jargon, and I don’t speak it yet a temporary veterinary inspector. I only started 3 days ago. A “clean” vet who had not been in contact with the foot and mouth disease.\nA volunteer from general practice, seconded to be used as a pawn in the battle against FMD. A man from the ministry.\n\nAs I leave a “dirty” vet, having double disinfected with my samples and a heavy heart, I take off the disposable boiler suit, and put on my shoes.\n\nI am me again. Not the man from the ministry.\n“Hey lad, nobody would know you from anyone else like that. Says the farmer.\n\nHe has seen me as I am. I see him as he is.\n\nLiving with his mother since his father died, so as to be on hand to run the farm. His wife and her mother in law trying to share a house and a kitchen while they convert a barn into a house.\nThe builder was told to stay away a week ago in case he brought disease onto the farm. Tomorrow he will be told to stay away as there will be no income for at least 6 months.\n\nWhile I filled in forms I had never seen before, with initials and jargon I’ve never heard. She phoned her sister to pick up the prescription for anti depressants. The doctor said she should go on them while the stress and worry of foot and mouth was about. Well it’s here.\nHe hasn’t eaten and will not sleep tonight.\nShe is anxious and will not get any rest.\nAnd the man from the ministry.?\nWell its 2am and I am writing this far from home a volunteer, a TVI, a pawn in a bigger game.\nBut after 5 days of being “dirty” and I can rejoin life. Back to normal, Back to my home, to my job, and my future.\nMy farming couple. 5 days of shooting and burning, of disinfectants and diggers.\nSix months of quarantine and a future in farming, maybe. Or maybe not.\n\nThe stories abound: Of three generations waiting for the men from the ministry. But grandfather will not see the farm restocked. The stress was too much for his already dodgy heart.\nThe countryside is under siege, and pawns are being lost, to win a greater gain?\nAnd why are we having to work these long hours and sacrifice these pawns??\nBecause some one was so arrogant, so stupid and so lazy that he couldn’t be bothered to heat the swill he fed to his pigs. He couldn’t keep to the rules that were made so this would not happen.\n\nIt is not intensive vs. extensive, organic vs. agribusiness, it is sheep vs. goats.\nAnd they will be sorted.\n\n\nSaturday 2nd November \nThe start of writing diaries again after a break of a few weeks, I am hoping to go back and fill in as time permits so this is today and forward looking.\nWorking the w/e with [young vet] and AW sat am. She had a calving this morning at 4am and so is a little on the tired side so hope it is quiet for rest of the w/e.\nDid surgery and then spent the afternoon trying to fix the out sidelights. The front went 18monhts ago, which shows how well I am keeping up with the maintaince on this house!! But the back one went recently and that is a real pain as you cant see your way to the car at night so I am more concerned about getting it fixed. The old lights are just rusted up and you can no longer replace the bulbs so up the ladder to re wire new lights I went. Unfortunately I was on call, and yes I suppose I was trying to do too much, but if you don’t try you don’t succeed. So I downed tools went off to calve a cow, and then came back to find a neighbour plus her 4 children in our kitchen. So I stopped had a cup of tea and then headed back up the ladder. Now [wife] maintains I should have noticed that there were lights on at this point. I would like to point out that I should also notice when she has moved furniture, had her hair cut or even spring cleaned the house. As I am often berated for my lack of noticing these sorts of things, yes I should have noticed but I didn’t. I was focussed on what I was trying to do, as usual. So up the ladder I went, to connect up the light, not knowing that [wife] had switched the electrics back on. And yes when I was at the top of the ladder, I grabbed the wires, and then spent what seemed an awfully long time trying to let them go and stay on the ladder as the electric current was shocking me.  So the light did not get fixed as I was not going back up the ladder as I was now in shock. !!\nHo hum\nSun\nFinished the light while every one was out, and then picked up A from a sleep over and went to Church in Wigton. PM was speaking on the parable of the 10 bridesmaids, which was good, as I had never understood it as it is obviously related to a cultural thing that happened at weddings in Jesus’ day. The point being that the wise ones who were waiting for the return of the bridegroom had the oil in their lamps, and the concept that this was the holy spirit that meant they could meet with the bridegroom, i e Christ. I am not sure that the idea is entirely right since there is that big leap oil=holy spirit, but it was interesting. I still think it was a cultural thing that was obvious to his original listeners and we just don’t have a clue.\nAli and Andy called around in the evening it was really good to see him again. He used to be a vet here who left several years ago and it looks that at long last he is going to look to settle down.  He was quite depressing about LA vet practice though. He is now 100% small animal so he is biased. They are actively looking at taking TB testing from the vets in his area, and the vets are dropping the farm practice as being uneconomic!! So much for the govt wanting more farm vets around. At least this is  a low cost area so at least we are not competing with small animal practices able to offer large wages to assistant vets.\nHe is looking to set up his own or buy a practice to settle into. They are obviously looking to get married so that will be another wedding to go to. We have been invited to LB’s who is finally marrying P. They have been following each other around the world for the last 2 years, from disaster to disaster, as they are both in humanitarian relief work. She was a vet student here too  .\nMon\nMonday, Monday. Tell me why I don’t like Mondays.\n[young vet] is exhausted and everything is catching up with her so she is going to take the end of the week off. The joiner finally arrived to put in the windows and had real problems writhing the old ones out and so has taken half the sand stone with them so they will have to be reconcreted which is a builders job ie he is not going to do it. The bathroom is still in pieces. “8” days it was supposed to take and we are now in the third week.\nWork was bedlam. So I was queuing the ops up this morning. I hate operating all morning as it is very draining as I have to concentrate on what I am doing. While the office staff keep coming with more and more queries. Urgh!!!\nGot another stupid letter from the planners quibbling about listed building consent that I am trying to get for the windows that are being fitted as I speak. I started the ball rolling in August. No wonder the country is going to the dogs!\nTuesday\nCalmed down a bit having filled in the Visa forms for our holiday to India. The great legacy of the British, the bureaucracy is alive and well. Why do they want to know my mothers place of birth and Maiden name for a 2 week holiday? Civil servants! \nMissed the gym cos surgery went on and on. I went to a farm and was asked a lot of questions about TB as they had had a reactor. The ministry had been out testing but hadn’t bothered to tell us. Mushroom farmers..\n[son] is in the process of planning next years football team!!\nWeds\nWent to a farm today and he is complaining that he cannot get his cows in his restocked herd back in calf. It seems to be an ongoing problem. A lot of those who have restocked with whole herds are having reduced fertility in their herds. It would be an interesting study to see the figures compared to non restocked herds.\nThursday. \nCounting the days until I am off. Work continues to be too hectic. [vet] who lost her brother, is off and it makes the whole pack of cards of having enough vets to cover fall down!!\nI think too I am just very tired from being too busy for too long. When planning staffing levels, it is usual to be cautious rather than to have too many vets around not making any money. We thought we were stretching it by employing the 2 new grads instead of the one.\nIt is also just being under pressure all the time with out a few days to cruise it.\nWent out to Chris Swifts for the VCF (Veterinary Christian Fellowship) which was really good as usual. F was telling us about the thanksgiving service that they had just held at Barnard Castle. She has also just got engaged. So it may curb her wanderings. She is an explorer and mountaineer. She is just back from Antarctica, and is currently doing some research and a PhD at Durham. Barnard Castle practice seems well organised and also flexible in that she is only working 3 days a week to spend 2 days at Durham on the PhD.\nIt was really good speaking to [friends] about [vet’s] brother as Paul was with them at the accident as he was taking the bloods.\nSo spent quite a while praying for them and for other things.\nFriday\nBad day. Had a phone call from the planners saying they were not going to allow double-glazing, and that they want the glazing bars to be 10mm not 20mm. Why????? There are no 10mm glazing bars on the spot.\nThe ministry,(London) have decided that they are not going to train lay TB testers and that all the work is going to go out to LVI’s. (Us). So we are now looking at a lot of work again. Carlisle DEFRA in conjunction with London, have decided that they are going to want all the restocked herds tested annually with every animal tested not just the adult breeding stock. So from looking at dropping 1-2 vets 10 days ago, we are now going to be looking at employing extra staff if we can get hold of them. How are we supposed to be planning for the future if it is so dependent on the whim of DEFRA officials.\n\n\nSaturday 9th November\nWent to the School PTA Pub Quiz last night at the Rugby Club. It was good fun, but I was struggling both to stay awake and to dredge up the Infotainment trivia of the previous year. It is funny how the questions chosen reflected the people who were asking them. What had stuck in their memory or that they had chosen. Nick and Jane were across from Newcastle. I stayed with them for a few nights when working for DEFRA across there when I could not face the faceless loneliness of the hotel. \nConsequently was completely zonked Sat morning. Just went around the house being grumpy. \nWent to watch [son] play football, they thrashed Yewdale in the county cup.\nIt was good to be out in the fresh air and came back to sleep for a while before heading out to Roy and Christiana’s en famille. We had to pick up Fraser from Wigton. This is their son who has just started seeing a girl in Wigton. He is 14 and so was amusingly embarrassed.\nWe were talking about leaving the kids; at what age do you leave them on their own and to look after the younger ones. Christiana told us about when she left all three boys for an hour and a half, and the older two had got so fed up with youngest being annoying they hung him by his joggers from the post at the bottom of the stairs. The middle one said in all seriousness, that it was his fault that he had torn his trousers, if he hadn’t tried to escape the trousers would have been fine!! Even now he considers that the wrongdoing was the ripping of the trousers not the fact that they had hung him up!!\nSun\nWent to Church in morning and fittingly for remembrance Sunday it was on repentance and Gods love. Daniels prayer in Daniel 9 was very fitting some how. \nLunch and more football and crashed in to bed exhausted.\nMon \nTim is away for the first time on his own with the school on an outward-bound week south of Keswick. He was so excited about going. I think [wife] was a little put off that he was not thinking about missing home. Hey ho, but that is a sign of secure roots I suppose.\nMet up with A’s Maths teacher to discuss her Maths. There has been a lot of to and froing between the teachers but not much communication with home. So we went to see what they were saying, and have left it as the status quo, which is what it should be.\nFirst call today was a farmer who is just out of hospital having had his appendix removed for appendicitis. He had seen this cow and said why haven’t you had the vet to it. He is a good stocksman, and with him being out of action they had a relief milker in, who hadn’t noticed. It had a twisted uterus and was trying to calve, if I had seen it on Friday I could have sorted it out but because it was now to late I had to send it off. It is sad but the agricultural industry is losing a lot of experience and a lot of stocksmanship and handling and general expertise. It is not sthg that can be replaced. \nWe are seeing more twisted wombs because of the transport and fighting amongst restocked herds. The sad thing is that he said to me. We should never have restocked; we should have taken the money and let it all go. It is just too much hassle with the paper work and training cows. \nThey have just housed the cattle and so they are all fighting to come in to the parlour to get milked, and just making life difficult.\nThere is a real disillusionment around at the moment. But there are also those who are gearing up to milk more and more cows to stay still 300 +\nTuesday\nThe great European market combined with DEFRA’s inflexibility is causing a few problems. The Dutch heifers that have been imported to replace some of the FMD losses have a unique identifier number which is on their ear tag so everyone knows who they are. So far so good. They also have NL on them rather than UK, which means we know they are from Holland. The problem is they have a small check digit on them at the end. This means Dutch computers can recognise if the ear tag is a valid one or has been misread. The UK tags have a check digit at the front of the number. Very useful to help rule out misreadings or transcribing of the ear tags. \nHowever the DEFRA computer doesn’t recognise the numbers so we are being asked to retest heifers, because they still have an outstanding record of the ear tag numbers as untested because the extra digit has or had not been entered on the UK system!!!\nThe number of out standing tests is dropping but we will not be able to keep up with this level of testing, more allocations have arrived today. Managed to get all the bits sorted so I could leave at 5:30 for my few days off. The only out standing thing is the stuff for the accountant end of year. It was supposed to be in by 18th of Oct but hey ho!\nWeds \nI have taken a few days off to try and paint the windows and new bathroom we are having put in. The planners phoned to query again about the windows and I told them they were already in so it went down like a lead balloon and they are coming to tell me off. They also started querying the other windows from 95!\nThe problem with having a few days off is that I get very head achey and feel washed out and ill. Once the adrenalin stops I seem to crash.\nThursday\n Met up with Charlie from Longtown vets for lunch, which was great. His practice in Carlisle that he has started is going well. It is on the main road out to Scotland and looks really good and he is getting lots of custom just by being there.\nHe is looking for a part time vet. To start mornings.\nFriday\nRepainted the bathroom walls after discovering I had used 2 different shades of green. One was Ming grey, the other ming blue. I just opened them one after the other, and thought the difference was because the one had dried and the other was still wet. Ooops.\nThe  plumber is having problems with the electrics and getting the lights to work. So it was all fused out. I am just glad we have a shower as well or we would all be getting rather smelly by now.!!\nWent to watch “Changing lanes” at cinema. A rather thoughtful if slow and unbelievable set up. But nice escapism for an hour or two\n\n\nSaturday November 16th\nWorking Again.\nBut feel better for having had a few days off even if the bathroom isn’t finished. Getting to be a bit of a saga. Oh well never mind. \nSat morning surgery was busy and then several farm calls afterwards.\nFor the amount of stock around and the cost effectiveness of veterinary time we are doing an incredible amount of clinical work.\nDan (The sheep AI vet who locums for us on occasions) phoned up wanting Alison’s phone number. She was of course out, it being Sat night. His technician is ill and he has 250 Swales to AI tomorrow. Hope he finds some one. All the sheep AI and embryo technicians are very busy as people try to build up their pedigree herds and flocks by breeding for top quality.\nSun\nAm busy with calls and then painted doors in bathroom while [son] painted the window. Very messy but he enjoyed it! It will give him confidence to try again. It is patience and practice. \nWent to church in the evening. Rob Whitaker the principal of Capernwray Bible College was preaching. He is so animated and relevant. He was talking on feeding the 5000. And Jesus compassion and just the circumstances Jesus was in at the time. How he used the disciples and then applying it to us, and to the church in general. Espy compassion.\nVery challenging. Went on to meet up with lads and spent time praying. Phil is pretty down about not having a job. It effects his self worth/ didn’t help that Fraser had a brand new Merc sitting out side his house. \nMon\nHit the maelstrom running with an in tray flowing out, and still nothing together for year-end to accountant. So pushed practice manager and then started operating and haunting him every 20 mins in between ops and keeping him on task. The problem is that there are so many other things going on at the moment that the non urgent keep disappearing in to tomorrow. The new drugs discount system is working and generating a lot of interest and then hopefully will cut down on the black market. With any luck the increased turn over will make up for margin. Usual problem solving and smoothing over and 2nd opinions to sort out.  The 20-day rule is not stopping one of our local cattle dealers, from buying and selling. He says the paperwork to run 5 holding numbers is horrendous……\nKen and Anne called around and it was really good to see them. They have a lime spreading business and have been really busy over FMD. Both with lime for land that is going to be used for barley and crops(Rather than grass) and with a lot of stone for building work and new pathways and for lonnings. Whereas farmers were happy to move cattle via roads they are trying to reduce the movements along roads and are putting in tracks for the cows.\nTuesday\nMore tracings to check for TB, (These are cattle bought from a farm where TB has since been confirmed) and the paperwork to go with them. Ear tags don’t correlate so going to be a problem.\nRota nightmare at the moment as everyone is organising their skiing trips, so we are going to have 1-2 vets off all of Jan and most of Feb. \nTook first box load of paperwork to the Accountant. He is an old fashioned up the back stairs, not a computer in sight, type of fella. He is a wily old fox, much more than he looks, as he manages to keep the taxman happy and off our backs, which is probably the most important. \nThe financial year doesn’t look too bad, but doesn’t allow for the number of days of holiday carried over. If we had to give the holiday pay/ or pay a vet to cover for those days it would make them look a lot less rosy.\nGot back in time for gym and then Tuesday kid chauffer work.\nThen fell into bed and slept.\nWeds\nThe phone stopped at 4:00pm and didn’t ring again until 9:30 this morning. Weird. The work has just stopped like a tap being turned off. So got the rest of testing sorted. ; Sorted out the rest of the stuff for the accountant. Tidied the office, wrote up my book, and even thought about mucking my car out. Only got as far as thinking about it as coffee break arrived. Didn’t earn much but felt a lot better for it. \nSkipped off early and gave the bathroom doors second coat.\nThursday 21st November (Pay Day)\nDecided that if DEFRA was a business it would be bust by now. We are on a rollercoaster trying to look at the future with them. They only make up in a normal year about 20% of our   farm fee income but that has been much higher over the past few years. \nThe Chief DEFRA Vet has been flying kites as they say in politics. To see what the reaction is, or has been doing as he has been told by Whitehall (!).\nI don’t know what the ins and outs of it are but the gist has been. \nThey are going to employ their own vets to do the testing as this would be much more efficient and cost effective. When it was pointed out this wasn’t going to be the case we went to…\nThey would employ non-vets to do it. As this would be much cheaper. \nThere would then not be any farm animal vets in large areas of the country, as it would reduce the fee income even further. Where the farm side of vet businesses is marginal it would just be given up. It would mean our business in a high stock area would probably drop 2 vets.\nSo London finally decided that the status quo would probably be best. At the same time Carlisle in consultation with Page St decided that as there is so much TB being found in the restocked farms, that all the restocked farms should be tested on an annual basis. And that all animals, not just breeding stock should be tested. This means about a 25% increase in work load for the next 2 winters. So instead of dropping a vet we should look to be taking one on! But we cannot believe what is going to happen next as how can we plan when such drastic changes are proposed in the space of a month…..\n\nFriday\nHad a horrendous night with ill calves with pneumonia in the evening. A calving at 1 am in Silloth. Then a dog trying to die at 5am, so was I ever pleased that it was my half day. Slept and played squash with L & J in the afternoon.\nThe dog belonged to an old lady who had no children and it was her husbands dog who had died 4 years previously. She was going to be on her own if it dies. So she was very tearful and upset. The dog is not looking good as it is 16yr poodle type thing. She is isolated booth because she doesn’t drive and lives out at the coast. And because she and her husband retired to here, and neither have any family around. I felt for her.\nMade me appreciate my family so much more.\n\n\nSaturday 23rd November\n[wife] is away on a course today so for my w/e off I am running the kids and doing the cooking. \nI dropped of [other son] to squash, did some errands in Wigton and then watched the squash coaching. They are very patient and encouraging. The total contrast was shown at [son]’s football. They are a very good team, but I really do not like the attitude of most of the coaches and teams in the Carlisle teams. I was late to arrive and they were already 4-0 up. And this was the second half. It was only when I walked around to where the coach was, did he think about giving [son], and the other 2 subs a game. We have had it out with him before that he should give all the kids a chance to play, or else they find it crushing. [son] was really fed up with the situation, but he does love playing and is quite loyal. The coach always justifies that he has to play his best team, which he doesn’t, he plays his favourites/friends sons. But the point is irrelevant, if you are winning by that margin, then you can afford to have weaker players on the field. They went on to win 10- 0!!We will have to get a Thursby team organised for next year.\nWent on to Longtown poultry sale very interesting lots of rare birds and waterfowl. Will have to go and buy next year and get some different types for A to breed up.\nSun\nDan spoke on walking on water, in his own inimitable style. He is so refreshing and practical and honest. Made it a call to prayer as well. \nDidn’t do much in morning as [wife] was on course but finally managed to\nFinish bathroom. Hoorah!!!\nMon\nDecided that if DEFRA was a business it would be bust by now. We are on a rollercoaster trying to look at the future with them. They only make up in a normal year about 20% of our   farm fee income but that has been much higher over the past few years. \nThe Chief DEFRA Vet has been flying kites as they say in politics. To see what the reaction is, or has been doing as he has been told by Whitehall (!).\nI don’t know what the ins and outs of it are but the gist has been. \nThey are going to employ their own vets to do the testing as this would be much more efficient and cost effective. When it was pointed out this wasn’t going to be the case we went to…\nThey would employ non-vets to do it. As this would be much cheaper. \nThere would then not be any farm animal vets in large areas of the country, as it would reduce the fee income even further. Where the farm side of vet businesses is marginal it would just be given up. It would mean our business in a high stock area would probably drop 2 vets.\nSo London finally decided that the status quo would probably be best. At the same time Carlisle in consultation with Page St decided that as there is so much TB being found in the restocked farms, that all the restocked farms should be tested on an annual basis. And that all animals, not just breeding stock should be tested. This means about a 25% increase in work load for the next 2 winters. So instead of dropping a vet we should look to be taking one on! But we cannot believe what is going to happen next as how can we plan when such drastic changes are proposed in the space of a month…..\nTuesday\n Went to do routine fertility at a farm today and it was quite depressing in that a neighbour of theirs who has started up again has had a really bad time. The problems of restocking on top of bad hips. He was all gung ho to get restocked and although he had a sore leg he didn’t go to the doctors while he had the chance when he had no stock as it was only a little sore. But as soon as he got stock back and started to do a lot of physical work they were very sore. So he went to the Dr’s and has 2 hips which need replaced but as he is only 40 they don’t want to do it yet and it would mean no physical work for a long period. \nOn top of that he has mastitis problems caused by taking his plant to pieces by DEFRA. He has lost 8 cows and heifers through calving/illness or injury.\nSo after less than a year he looks set to give up disillusioned and a lot poorer.\nThe workload for us is easing as most cattle are now housed and a lot of the housing work is sorted. I always feel it is a run down to Christmas now with all the preparations and celebrations and kids (and adult) parties.!!!\nI was at another farm today who had meningitis a year ago, and has still not really recovered properly. He is still finding it hard to get going. He lost all his animals and all his work during FMD, and the additional strain has meant he has lost a lot of interest in the farming side. He can’t be bothered with all the hassle and paper work of farming sheep and cattle and so is growing a lot of veg which he and his wife have always enjoyed growing. They just retail at the farm gate. It doesn’t make much money but as he says it just keeps things turning over and he and his wife have time for each other and no hassle. Life is more important than making a living. Very profound. I am going to go part time, I wish\nWednesday\nThere seem to be a lot of problems (Still) on restocking farms. They are all having problems with getting the cows back in calf. Two farms today complained that even though they were more than pleased with the compensation at the time, the costs of restocking are much, much more.  It would be interesting to do a survey on the number of breeding animals bought in and those who have been lost either through illness or by failure to get in calf. \nThe old diseases are still causing the most problems. Lung worm, a disease I thought was well under control, and well understood has caused huge problems. IBR or cow flu has caused so many problems that we can no longer get the vaccine, as all the stocks have been used.\nIt was interesting today that one of the farms that is about to start milking having finally restocked ordered vaccine for Lepto, IBR, and BVD almost as a matter of course.\nBut fertility is causing the most worries.\nThursday\nFeel a lot better after an early night, apart from running to and from Carlisle after my daughter. Youth group last night, and evening shopping tonight.\n\n[son] is still trying to organise an U14 Thursby team for next year, all he needs is a coach. The problem is that it is a big commitment. I wish I could do it but I work too many w/e’s.\nSpent time day dreaming about what to do with the byre in our yard. It is an old knackered building that needs bulldozing, but [wife]’s Dad thinks we should just look after it and convert it into sthg. But what? \nI still think that there is an opening for “Herriot holidays” taking people for a day at the vets and then a day at the mart and so on.. Diversification is the name of the game.\nFriday\nHad an interesting day what with one thing and another. No lunch but hey who’s complaining. One of the nurses at work has a chicken shed with her husband and another farmer partner. The fans and alarms all failed and so the air was not circulating. The farmer was devastated. It was a horrendous sight. A carpet of dead chickens. There were 23,000 in the shed and we worked out there were roughly 2-3000 left alive. 20.000 dead. It brought back memories of FMD. Also the logistics of disposing of 20 tonnes of dead chicken. I hope the insurance covers it. Out for dinner at Christiana’s. Had a vet friend call around at teatime. He is a meat hygiene practice covering several different meat plants. They have several vets covering all the different plants. He has been asked to got to Harrogate to discuss how the different proposed regulations can be implemented. A marked improvement on the usual dumping of unworkable ideas from DEFRA HQ.\n\n\nSaturday.30th Nov\nTook a while to get going after being out for dinner last night though it was very pleasant. Spent day doing odds and ends. Went to watch [son] play footie, and bought an Orchid from the orchid farm. The kids were making cards for Mum and wrapping presents so it was fun.. James came down with his kids so there were 7 running riot which is really a bit too many after a late night.\nSun 1st\nChurch in the morning and Johnboy called around to see what time the prayer meeting finished as he had arranged a surprise party for [wife]’s 40th. So had loads of folks in Sunday night which was great. They had all crept in to the big kitchen and decorated it while we were in the front room. A and [son] had been going back and forth so [wife] never noticed. So it was special. The kids were as high as kites.\nMon 2nd\n[wife] is forty and there’s a photo in the news and star to prove it. The kids brought breakfast in bed, and opened presents. Poor [other son] after 3 late nights did not want to go to school I hope they are all right for Gran. [wife]’s Mum and [sister?] arrived. “Nannies from Ireland” to the rescue. They are going to look after the kids while we are away for a few days. We have had a bit o banter about them looking after the kids. [sister] found an advert for “nannies from Ireland” which is an au pair service and sent of for the info which she forwarded to us. She is a character. So they have been asking about working conditions and PAY!! I have been requesting Police checks and giving as good as I get.. The winds are pretty strong so they have had a bad journey. The super ferry was cancelled so they have had to come by boat which takes much longer. A baked a cake and managed to get 40 candles on it!!  \nBoth [wife] and I are looking forward to getting away. As usual work was really busy and lots of loose ends to tie up prior to leaving but finished for 3 days HoORRAAAHHH!\nTues 3rd\nSpent the day travelling up to Loch Lomond, stopped  off at Braeside and at Gretna and bought some clothes and mooched around. Cameron House is beautiful with wonderful views and you can just walk down to the lake. There is a pool so went for a swim before dinner. Very civilised.\nWe had just finished dinner when the waitress arrived with a cake with 4 candles and sang a rather wobbly happy Birthday. [sister?] had been very keen that we left the phone number of Cameron house, even though she had our mobile numbers. Now we know why!! Very pleasant surprise but we will never eat any cake let alone a whole one!!\nWhile we were strolling around after dinner came across the picture that one of our friends had used to decorate the kitchen with on Sunday. He had come across it somewhere in a book, and it looks vaguely like [wife] so he had put it up with Lady [wife] underneath! And here was the original or at least a print of the same picture. Weird.\nWeds\nAfter a very lazy start, a swim before breakfast, (Full Scottish!) . We walked up eastern edge of Loch in sunshine and showers. We were only caught out in one shower. There was a rainbow down to the Loch edge. A beautiful winter walk. I have decided I am going to walk the West Highland Way, with the boys. Had some fruit for lunch as cooked breakfast on top of dinner last night means I don’t really need to eat for a week!! Another swim, thought about the gym but I am on holiday and felt wonderfully relaxed, and then dinner.\nThursday\nAnother lazy start and swim before breakfast, a walk along the Loch, and the back to Glasgow to the Burrell Collection. We just wandered around the paintings. I can sit and look at the impressionists and keep seeing something new. They are very beautiful. Came back home in time for tea, though did not eat anything as too much food. Made up a ditty for the Nannies.\n\nNannies from Ireland came to stay\nSo [respondent] and [wife] could go away\nOff the children went to school \nWhile [respondent]  and [wife] swam in the pool\nThe Nannies were left with all the dust,\nCleaning dirt for their daily crust\nTheir experienced gleaned over all the years\nCould not stop all [other son]’s tears\n“ Off to school you must go\nSaid a stern faced Nanny Lo\nThe nannies go to TK Max\nForgetting all about the cats\nSomething is sick on the mat\nThe nannies really don’t like that\n“A M” L begs\n“Go and fetch all the eggs”\nOn animals they’re not too\nWhat did the contract really mean keen?\nThey will not give another day\nUntil something is done about their pay!\nSo back to Ireland with this tale\nThey do go via Cummersdale.\nAs their pay all disappears\nThey decide on new careers\nLois thinks of a racing car\nRuth just of going far.\nSo our thanks to them are due\nthe Nannies from Ireland crew\nIts now their turn to go and play\nTill they’re called another day. [edited to remove names in verse]\n\nFriday.\nBad hair Day.\nHaving come back all relaxed and cheerful I was relaxed until I missed my lunch.\nAfter working all day, plenty of hassle from one thing and another, I was then On Call at night, and it was very busy. \nLoch Lomond and Cameron House seem a long, long time ago\nI am extremely fed up. \nI do not want to calve another cow out side OFFICE HOURS ever again.\n\n\nSaturday.7th December\nWorked this morning after a bad night “On call” and felt like death warmed up.\nDid surgery and then sorted stuff out, and did some calls got finished at 1pm and went back to bed.\nWent to Xmas party at White Heather which was good fun but I was just too knackered to enjoy it. \nSunday \nWorking a few calls and plenty of pneumonia drugs for calves. There is a lot of pneumonia about with the East wind blowing, it is a wee bitty cruel wind but at least it is dry. Not weather to be working out side. It also seems to be getting dark really early. I need some sun on my back 4 weeks to go till India.\nHad a migraine or flu at night and went to bed, and started throwing up.\nI cannot burn the candle at one end even at the moment.\nMon\nOff work ill. But a new vet student starting and R is off as well Xmas shopping so thrown in at deep end.\nTuesday\nWent back in and did my bit. Working at night but night work easing off Thank goodness. Plenty of high cell count investigations to try and sort out.\nWeds\nTook kids swimming after work with the vet student it was good to do some exercise and chill out. Went to Staples prior to going to the pool where as usual there was no one on the desk for print cartridges. So I went and found one of the girls chatting on the till to get me what I was looking for as I couldn’t find an “HP58”. What I hadn’t noticed was some one else just standing at the other end of the long counter who was then very upset and aggressive that I had jumped the queue. He is obviously having a worse week than me. As he could have gone and got some one from the tills as easily as I did, but didn’t. So why he got so upset I don’t know. “Now’t as queer as folk”\n[other son] was very upset tonight when we got back from swimming because he had shaved one side of his head. [wife] had cut the others hair but his was still short and didn’t need it. He WANTED it done so in the shower took things into his own hands and shaved off his side burn, but only on one side!\nHe did not like getting laughed at either.\nThursday\nChristiana came to the rescue over the hair ([other son]’s) and has managed to make it look not too bad. But it was funny!!\nOn Call at night but as most nights seem double booked at the moment went to kids performance. They are doing Alice in Wonderland. Very good, they can really sing and perform. The teachers do get a lot out of them. Tim was the knave of hearts(Character actor) and [other son] was a frog footman grebbit, grebbit. It was good fun, only had a phone call to put a client at ease about her cat so managed to wing it.\nFriday\nOut at [friends] tonight. Kids younger 2 at performance older 2 are at xmas meal so a bit of a juggling act to get everyone at right place at right time!! Missed out on the Cumberland Vet Club social which was a shame but can only be in one place at a time\n \n\nSaturday 14th December\nHad a good meal out, except only started talking about the publicity for [..] as I was wanting to go and fall asleep some where. I cannot take late nights. It is just I am feeling too tired all the time. I think that the adrenalin has run out and I just feel stale. Hope Xmas sorts it out. Spent morning working. Did surgery and then sorted out queries with GG for the Accountant.\nSpent the afternoon writing cards and trying to put together lists of folk we should send too. A disaster, got as far as M before running out of cards and initiative.\nWent around to S’s for nibbles as a house warming. She is some caterer! Her mother does it as a job so she has helped so great food, could have done with some non-vets to dilute down the vetiness!!!\nSunday\nGot up and took kids to church\n[wife] is doing a thing on Borderline at night so she has to prepare that.\nPlayed football and caught up with a few bits and pieces and did some gardening.\nChatted to a vet from Chippenham who was complaining about the TB situation there. They have one beef farm where when they first discovered TB the farm took a week to test, as there were 600 head. There are only 200 left so it only takes a day. The farmer has been unable to but in store cattle to feed, and has lost over 100 to DEFRA. It has been 2 monthly testing for almost 2 years now and he still has not had a clear test.\nShe was down too, just from too much On Call.\nMonday\nGot up feeling exhausted, but even though not very busy couldn’t get going. \nThe dairy farms are all feeling very nervous over the Nestle pull out. “ farmers said to me that they were pleased that their sons are not going to be going into farming. Both teenagers, one A’s year and one a year older. Both looking to work in IT. It used to be a point of sadness that the next generation is not following on, but there seems to be a general air of resignation that farming is not going to be a good career.\nSad really.\nTuesday 17th December\nSpent the day sorting out the remaining bits and pieces for the Accountant.\nWe met with him at night, which as usual was the sorting out of this and that. The finding of the relevant pieces of paper and then what the unaccounted cheques were for!!\nWe are still making money but only thanks to DEFRA.  So three cheers for Mrs Beckett, cynic.\nIt made it a very long day and Lois is off for the week so we are short staffed again but last tests are today as we will not be able to get bloods to the labs because of the Christmas post. \nI do like this time of year where you hear from friends who you have not seen for ages, and think the same as you did last year, I will have to catch up with them soon. Hey ho.\nWeds 18th   \nThere is a lot of pneumonia about and the farmers are all buying vast quantities of drugs to treat whole batches of calves and stirks. The is the usual mix but far more than normal. I don’t know whether to be pleased that the practice is doing well, and invoicing a lot, or sad that there is so much disease around, and we will have a horrendous drugs bill.!! A dilemma I don’t think I should explore.\nThurs 19th  \nFri 20th\nKids went to ice rink in Carlisle with [wife]. They have set up an out door rink which the city council are sponsoring to attract people in to the centre. I don’t think that they really need to, as the place seems crowded enough as it is!! [son] bashed his head quite badly and [other son] fell over and hurt his knee. Tim fell loads of times and just ended up wet and happy!! Their different characters are coming out.\n\n\n Saturday.21st December\nThe beginning of the Christmas Rota!\nI feel as though we are in the run up to Christmas now. I have also made the mistake of not buying all my presents before now and went into Carlisle to go shopping. It was quite nice in some ways to see the Ice rink and mingle in the crowds…but an hour and a half was plenty!\nThe kids have decided that they are going to ask for money to take to India this year from the Aunts and Uncles and so there will be fewer presents to open. As Christmas seems to be getting more and more manic, and commercialised I think that it is a very good idea. Well done A and [son]\nSunday 22nd\nCarols by candlelight\nIt was magical, the church was packed out and so I ended up standing at the back. Which in some ways was quite nice as you look down the aisles to the stage and there are rows of candles and fairy lights down the sides. PM lead it and there were different age groups taking part. He spoke on being a Christmas tree and how we end up all convoluted by our own wrong choices, and how we can have lots of fairy lights and a star on top, and have an image on the outside  that looks wonderful. But what are we like inside all those things we surround ourselves with. God knows, and he cares, and he loves us enough to send a gift to help us. His son, Immanuel, God with us, who will take away the sin of the world. I was really quite moved by it all. This is the real Christmas.\nMon 23rd\nBUMP!! Reality bites back.\n It is difficult to focus on the important things of life, and keep a perspective on life, if it keeps getting interrupted by Monday Mornings! \nBut that is where Jesus should be, in the smelly cattle shed, and in the market place, and making a difference. I will have to think that one out while I have time in India. \nThe urgent as usual is pushing out the important\nManaged to go swimming at Foxes. The first exercise I have had for ages, must get back into it. Maybe wait for the new year resolutions, as exercise, wet weather and working over Christmas don’t really go together.\nTues 24th\nChristmas eve. Working but quiet apart from last minute panics as people think that their ill dogs and cats will not make it over Christmas with out seeing the vet.\nCalled in to Pow Heads for the turkey, they really do have a good butchery and poultry business going now. Good to see. Direct selling by farmers or Cooperatives is the only way forward to break the stranglehold of the supermarkets.\n[wife] is panicking about not having enough food so I am dispatched to buy more bread and milk. I think about protesting that if there were 5000, we still would not need a miracle but decide this is one of those occasions when it is better to just spend another 2 quid for the peace.\n[wife]’s parents arrive an hour later from Belfast, bringing 2 loaves of bread and 5 different types of Irish bread, and 6 pints of milk, and another 3 boxes of food. I wonder about making a joke about feeding the 5000 plus inflation but decide that discretion is the better part of valour and just put them in the freezer.!!\nWeds 25th\nKids started at 5:45 am and were unceremoniously sent back to bed.\nBut they were allowed to bring their stockings in at half past seven. I was on 2nd call so while they all went off to church I spent an hour in the surgery seeing dogs. One had meningitis and was very near death’s door and the owner was not that worried.  The other is just unwell and could have waited but the problem is you never know. Got back and made Christmas dinner. So wasn’t all work. Though I do feel amongst all the commercialism and turkey dinners, the true significance of Immanuel, God who is with us, is lost. \nThursday 26th \nOn first call and lots of pneumonia drugs to put out and kept busy. Afternoon/ evening we had folk around. Lots of different ages and backgrounds so was a real mix and good fun.\nFriday 27th \nSurgery reopened and was really busy, I am pleased that we had put plenty of staff on the rota. It is always a difficult balance to make. Trying to work out if there will be enough staff to cover the work. No one wants to work over Xmas/New year. But if there are not enough then it makes it really awful for those that are working. But if you have people sitting around they resent that too. But it’s nice to know I get it right sometimes. Doing a rota always strikes me as a no win situation, as it is always a compromise between the two extremes.\n\n\nSaturday 28th December\nOn call Friday night and then I finished at lunchtime. [wife] wanted me to go on church walk but I was knackered and we are all going out tonight for dinner, so I went to bed for a few hours sleep. ( Much to my wife’s displeasure.) Having been On call for the whole period, as soon as I stop, I crash out, as the adrenalin fades and I realise how tired I am. But only Mon am to work then prepare for India, and hitting the beach!\nIt does take its toll on family life being on call, especially over the Christmas period. The folk we are going to dinner with, he is a policeman and they have similar frictions.\nSun 29th \nThe service at church tonight was memorable. The last evening of the year they have people talking about what God has been doing in their lives. So it is usually people who are not eloquent, not used to speaking up front but who speak in a very real way about what Jesus has been working in their lives over the past year. DP who is 14 who has had bone cancer gave a very moving account about how he had nearly died.  How so often we compare our selves with those who have more than us, whether in health or other things. We should compare ourselves with those who have less. We should appreciate our lives, and thank God for who and what we are. He has had his ups and downs, but we are to follow God’s guiding and his path for us. Our lives are in God’s hands. We are to pray and to trust in him for our future. This is a young lad who has seen 4 of the friends he has made in hospital die. It makes the trivia we fill our lives with back in perspective.\nMon 30th\nLast half day and lots of last minute things to sort out before I finish for New Year and the 2 weeks in India. The cash flow has gone to pot because of the large amount of pneumonia drugs we have sold and tax/ vat going out in end of Jan. So needed to make sure someone keeps an eye on it while I am away and makes sure that it all falls into place. The problem with going away is that no one keeps up with all the admin type work that I do, so my In tray will be overflowing by the time I get back…. \nTues 31st \nThe Young people are partying at our house so we left them to it, rather than cramp their style. So we had a very pleasant evening at some farming friends. We rang up and called in on spec. They have 5 boys so we knew they wouldn’t want to get baby sitters for New Year’s Eve. Whereas we had about 40!! They have stopped dairying, but are now worried about how the new ruling will affect them. At the moment they lease their quota which provides a fair amount of income. The new German ruling will be applicable across the whole EEC that non producers cannot hold, and therefore lease quota. This means they will have to either sell it, in a flooded market or go back to dairy farming. Unless Mr P can work a way around the new system. \nThey are also taking advice and looking at all sorts of diversification schemes, some seem quite a good idea, others I think are non starters.\nThey already have invested some of the FMD money into setting up a student house in Carlisle. The way house prices are going around here it is probably a very good investment. Not really the way forward for farming though. \nThe only depressing feature of the evening was I asked what they thought the future of Cattle vets was, the answer was ”none”.\nWell that’s a good start to 2003.\nWe got home to find the party in full swing and we left them to it and went to bed.\n1st Jan 2003.\nGot up some what late after staying up for the New Years Eve. The young people had cleared up after the party and we were amazed at how well they had done. They had set off the dish washer and all we had to do was empty it. I was impressed. The only reminder they had been there was when we drew the curtains there were several glasses which had been missed, as they were on the window sill, and bizarrely an odd sock. The sock game my daughter assures me was very funny, but what I want to know is who went home with only one sock on!!!\nStarted thinking about India, a good job my wife is organised as we set off tomorrow.\n2nd Jan Thursday\nTravelled down to see my brother and family it was really good to see them again. Played RISK which was a bit of a Christmas tradition when we were kids. It was funny to be playing with him and both sets of kids, as I felt like a kid again. It was really nice though.  B won, he managed to wipe people out and amass their RISK cards. He risked everything and it went to the last throw of the dice, so it was quite exciting.\nFriday 3rd  Jan\n  Travelled down to my Dads to have tea and drop off some stuff before heading for the airport. I am pleased we have had a few days off before flying as it is a night flight and I hate travelling when I am already exhausted.\nThe weather was the usual British winter of rain and wind. A friend of mine is convinced that this is due to global warming, more energy in the system means more rain and wind!! In which case Cumbria is not going to be the place to live as it is already wet and windy enough!!\n\n\nThe next 2 weeks recall X’s family holiday to India:\n\n\nSat 4th January 2003\nI am sitting in the Nilgiri hills, in southern India in shorts and T shirt enjoying the coolness of the high altitude. It is almost twice the height of Ben Nevis. On BBC world last night it showed a reporter in London with an umbrella trying to keep off the large wet snowflakes!!\nWe are visiting friends who teach at a Christian School here.\nThe contrasts of India always seem so great. The poverty and the opulence side by side.\nThe beggars and the road repairers at the side of the road in make shift tents of plastic sheeting. And huts of bamboo leaves. Then the huge opulent houses, wooden floored and air conditioned with their own generators and the 4*  hotels with marbled floors and artificial streams and waterfalls.\nWe came on a cheap charter flight as it was cheaper to come  to Trivandrum on a flight and a package with hotel B&B, than to just buy the flights. The emphasis though should be on cheap. It is the first time I have ever had to pay for drinks on the plane! The air stewardesses seemed to be there for a good time rather than to look after the passengers. Can't complain though as it was cheap!\n\nThe only worry was the re routing. We were originally supposed to be going via United Arab emirates but the refuelling was transferred to Bahrein. As we flew in we were warned it was a military as well as civilian airport so no photography was allowed. The build up of US forces in the gulf must be pretty major as even here there were large numbers of US air force planes, and massive sinister looking helicopters. It is difficult to believe that they are aiming to keep the peace by preparing for war.\nThe papers here are also full of sabre rattling between Pakistan and India, with daily reports of skirmishes in Kashmir. There is also exchanges of political rhetoric between the two states. How much is actually for real and how much is sabre rattling no one knows.\nThe weekly Telegraph is also reporting that Iraq has shot down a reconnaissance drone. The same sort that blew up one of the El Quaedi leaders in Yemen. The US is obviously trying " Regime change" by several methods. The US response was to blow up several command and control facilities.  The war hasn't officially started yet but the skirmishes are going on. The cost the previous year for the RAF to patrol the no fly zone was $22 UK million , the last quarter was 10 times that. So there is money being spent.\nThe priorities of Govts is often difficult to work out. The Indian govt doesn't have enough money at the local level to organise a proper refuse collection system. Yet has money to develop hi tech weaponry!\nThe attitudes to rubbish here is very different. When we were at the beach, the actual beach is combed by litter pickers, but the areas in between are terrible. There are 2 smart 4* hotels and the govt buildings where the tourism training takes place. The grounds are immaculate and the flowers and area beautiful but once out side the grounds it is a cross between a rubbish dump and a building site with piles of rubbish and sand and rubble.\nWe went for a snorkelling trip around the coast to a fishing harbour  where the sea was calm and there were plenty of rocks for the fish to hide in, and swim in and out of.\nThe boats were a few bits of wood tied together with string. Seriously.\nThere were two central planks and two edge planks and then an aft piece of wood to hold the aft part together which was reinforced by cord. The  wood is so light that it floats with our weight fairly easily. The oars were split bamboo with no grips, so it made for interesting rowing or is it paddling? They are more like large Canadian canoes than boats. \nVery Hawaii five O. \nThe planks were roughly shaped but as we rode the waves the water fountained up through the holes in the bottom. H asked what wood they were made of but didn't understand the answer, must be a type of balsa.\n We set off  from under the light house, there was another group going at the same time. I think they must have agreed to pay top whack, whereas you\nsoon learn to try to bargain about the price of everything here. They had two helpers in the boat to paddle whereas we were the economy class with two paddles but only one guide in our two boats!! We took turns in helping to paddle, whether we made much difference to the progression of the boat I don 't know; but it was fun. It was a bit worrying that we were heading for the least scenic part of the coast.(The other way is beautiful sandy beaches for miles) \n\nThere is a wave powered generator at the edge of the harbour, a  few rusty wrecks and bits of broken concrete. But when we arrived the snorkelling was brilliant. It was like swimming in a tropical fish tank. My favourite were small electric blue fish which darted away as soon as you came near. There were big black and yellow striped tiger fish. There were 2 sorts one with vertical stripes and one with horizontal. Not at all timid.\nThe angel fish with their long dangling barbs were shy and would only appear when you kept still. There were some very large spiky sea anemones as big as a football. Loads of crabs and shoals of fish which swim hither and thither.\nSome were quite bizarre. There were some that looked like sea horses that had been straightened out. You almost could see a jockey getting a saddle ready to put on them for the Saltwater Derby. The huge variety and colours were just outstanding.\nWe spent a few hours and then got thoroughly sun burnt on the way back. The boys had been full of beans on the way there but were exhausted in the heat on the way back.\nWe spent today making and flying kites on top of a hill at Pykara. The kids(or was it the Dad's ?) made kites and then we tried to fly them. H's won. His design was copied from an original no stick design and managed to fly almost successfully. My traditional kite shaped one flew once but its aerodynamics weren't quite right. [son]'s yellow square was successful. None however matched the Ikea bought one. We played cricket and Frisbee as the water buffalos wandered passed in the typical Indian way of having no real boundaries between one thing and another. Called in at the Vedera's which was very pleasant. The garden was stunning as usual. I love driving through the tea plantations with acres of terraced tea plants and through the forest to get there.\n The hotel is an up market Indian rather than a western. Which is great for us. The décor lacks a little in taste and design. Concrete floors and that rather quaint unfinished look. Spotlessly clean, and the thing about India is they love having kids around and spend ages talking with them and love having them around. Going out for meals in UK with children is always a bit stressful, as low blood sugars combined with the general attitude of people to children does not make it a pleasant experience. Whereas even the hours wait for the food here is not stressful as the kids wander off, play games read books etc. [son] and [other son?] have befriended a man at the Blue Moon gift shop. He has spent hours playing chess and talking to them. [son] won a little elephant off him by beating him at chess. [son] decided he would buy Josh the chess set, and kept bargaining the price down. He eventually paid\n350 rupees for it. $4.60.\nThe beach is idyllic, with palm trees and warm rolling sea. The only problem is having to get the kids out of the sun during the red hot period between 12 and 2 . We do keep slapping on the sun tan lotion. I missed the widows peaks where my hair is receding and have sun burnt red patches either side of my head. The boys have variable tanning, depending on where the sun block was washed off first!\n\nDear [friends]\nJust a quick note to say that we are enjoying ourselves so much that we don't want to come home......But we would miss all our friends!!\nWe had a great time at the beach, you know the palm trees, the warm rolling sea, the sandy beaches and unlike Silloth 30 degrees warmth. In fact some days it was to hot, and we had to drag the boys out of the sea or else they would have been really sun burnt.\nWe are just back from 3 days at Avalanche, which is a bit of an unfortunate name for a mountain out door centre, but as there isn't any snow I don't think the Indians appreciate the irony.\nIt is up in the Mountains, a jungle area where there is very little apart from a few tea plantations, reservoirs and hydroelectric plants, and jungle and the wood men who harvest the wood every 10 years.\nWe left a bus and walked in to the centre, while a truck took the bags, food and the lazy ones. It is incredibly beautiful with high hills and lakes, but there is a drought at the moment so the  reservoirs are all very low. And everywhere is incredibly dry and dusty. Thick red dust, which gets in to everything. The facilities were basic. The water ran from a stream to a tank to the taps!! No electric, showers but fortunately as always in India there was a little man, or in fact 3 who cooked for us all.\nA is taking after [wife], their main concern was not meeting any rats!\nWe abseiled down a waterfall, walked and swam in another...well [son] and [other son] swam. I am afraid it was too cold for me. I will wait until we go back down to the beach. We all went kayaking, and sat around the campfire at night.\n\n\nSaturday.18th January 2003\nThe end of our Indian holiday and escape from Cumbrian weather!\n[wife] saw the rep yesterday and the bus was arranged for 12:30 for a flight at 5:30. This tour company is something else. So we are going to catch a taxi at about 3pm so we are not hanging around the airport for ages. Having 4 children and going through the bureaucracy of an Indian airport is bad enough with out the additional hassle of waiting around for 3 hours with out reason. The annoying part is that so much of it is pointless. In that they put your bags through the security x ray in the main hall  and then give you your bags back so that if you wanted to add stuff to your bag you could!!?? You have to go to 1 desk to check in, another to get your seat, another to exit Indian immigration and customs, and then identify your bags to get them put on the plane…\nWorse than DEFRA!! \nSo we spent a last morning swimming on the beach and then said good bye to the Cs and Gs. [wife] had to buy her material fro the study! \nWe were all quite sad coming away. I think we could have all stayed and enjoyed living in India but back to Porridge…\nSun 19th\nArrived at Dads at 3am UK time after clearing customs. Flight was not too crowded thank goodness as the space allocated for my legs is not enough!!\nThey had as before messed up their allocation of vegetarian meals. With the height of European ignorance and stupidity they offered a Hindu family by us a beef meal. The stewardesses should have known better, but I just cringed with inward embarrassment at their thoughtlessness. \nLeft in T shirts and shorts, arrived cold in jeans and fleeces. The air conditioning I don’t think was working properly and every one was coughing and dry mouthed as we arrived in Gatwick.\nDrove back up to Cumbria and back to the house. It was a strange sensation to be back, we had done so much and seemed changed, and yet everything here was still the same and yet not really. In some ways it is like after the FMD epidemic, before and after, everything is the same but nothing is the same. Part of you is trying to find where you fit in the new reality, part of you wants the safety of the old ways. Slightly dislocated from your surroundings, but the physical surroundings are the same, but I suppose you have changed, and the old certainties, that were not certain but seemed it, have made way for new changeable ways that are not certain and you know that they are not certain.\nMon 20th\nI have taken the day off to recover. The kids were all up really early because of the jet lag, and so had no qualms about sending them to school. \nI spent the day unpacking and sorting out with [wife]. \nThe pile of post was huge but seemed a lot more manageable by the time I had thrown out al the junk mail. Why do I need another 2 credit cards any way.  Transferred money for tax bills and downloaded the emails. There were only 50!! So ploughed my way through them. When you are away for any length of time it makes you realise how much work is required to keep a household going with all the bills and stuff.. \nTues 21st\nBack to work and to face my in tray. Still feeling a little jet lagged and seeing an overflowing In Tray  as you arrive is a daunting feeling. Did some of it and then went out On Call. It was good to be back on farm, and seeing folk again. It always amazes me how everyone around here knows everything. So they were all asking about India and had we had a good time. So it was nice to feel part of the community. As a friend of mine once commented “There is only one thing worse than being talked about, that is not being talked about.”\nThere is still that funny feeling of having been away, and having changed but nothing here is any different and yet thinking that it should be. Though why it should be I don’t know.\nWeds 22nd \nGeorge wanted a partners meeting at lunch time, so we met up and had the usual decision making process. To be honest the jet lag was still really kicking in so I was asleep on my feet. It doesn’t usually effect me for this long but both [wife] and I are shattered by 8pm. The kids are OK and going to bed after us. The sign of things to come.\nThe whole PETS travel scheme is causing problems. It has been presented as a passport for pets, but all it really does is allow re-entry to the UK from certain countries as long as you meet the conditions. We have had a few problems and we do very few. So what it must be like for those on the south coast I dread to think. The problems are 2 main ones. 1.That there is a 6 month period before you can come back into the UK after the paper work is completed. You can go before the 6 months, so people who spend the summer on a caravan site, will take their dog abroad, but cannot come back before the 6 month date. There is also a problem where the forms have to be renewed. It has to be done according to the manufactures directions, which vary from country to country. As in France it is a govt regulation that dogs are vaccinated annually so the vaccine manufactures stick to that. In the UK dogs have to be done every 2 years, cats annually. So you cannot have your documentation renewed in France unless you vaccinate annually. Whereas in the UK you can renew it with vaccinating every 2 years.\nThe other problem is that the paperwork is so complex that according to DEFRA’s figures there is a 18% failure rate. I.e. 1 in 6 don’t make it back in. There is also a problem in that there has been at least one dog imported into Cumbria with out any paperwork as the owners thought all they needed was a rabies vaccination. We are dealing with it on a weekly basis and are confused so the poor punters don’t stand a chance.\nThursday 23rd\nThere is a real problem with cow fertility in the restocking farms at the moment. I went to 1 farm where of the 10 cows I checked only one was in calf. Which is a little sad. No baby calves, no milk production and more losses for the FMD farmers. The compensation is looking very small. The only ones  who benefited are those who took the money and got out.\nIt is difficult trying to work out why these cows are having so much of a problem. As usual I suspect there is no simple answer. The blood tests and analyses do not help much. The cows have been under a lot of stress. The movement into new regimes and cattle systems where they have to learn where to go, where the water troughs are, where the milking parlour is. They have had to sort out the pecking order of the cows, which  espy in the larger units is probably quite stressful. Where you add animals to a herd there are lead cows who know the set up and cows are very much follow my leader in their behaviour patterns. Where there is a complete cull and restocking there are no lead cows so no leader for the cows to follow.\nThere has also been a lot of illness in the herds which again will reduce fertility. The other problem is the poor quality silage because of the bad weather. The other factor that keeps coming up in conversation is what effect the topping of grass has on silage/grazing quality which would have been an interesting study that will never be done now.\nStress is a generality of a word but I can’t think of a better more specific way of expressing the problems. The “stress” of all the changes has caused fertility problems. The difficulty is in finding where do you go from here. I think a lot will end up culling fairly large numbers 15-20% because of fertility.\nFriday 24th \nOne of the DEFRA TV’s called in on her way back from a test(TB) to let us know that there was still an IR causing problems. She also said that it looked like there was going to be a complete herd cull for TB in the east of the county. The farmer had restocked from three sources. All were down to do as tracings as well as to be done under the restocking TB testing. They found 32 reactors with lesions so they will probably cull the whole herd. It is so depressing. To think what the farmer must be thinking and whether he can face getting back into farming again after this further disaster does not bear thinking about.\n\n**\nSaturday 25th January 2003\nLinda B’s wedding!!!\nTravelled down to Derby for wedding. It was really nice to see them finally tie the knot as they have been talking about it for so long. They have followed each other around several continents so at least that will have seen each other in different situations. [she] first came as a student and has worked for us as  a locum. She spent 2 years at All Nations Bible College in London, where she met [him]. So a lot of their friends from All Nations were there. [they]  have been doing agricultural relief work in the worlds hot spots. From Kosovo to Indonesia, from Haiti to Bolivia. They are currently in Bolivia working with church groups. [she] has been setting up Tb testing programme as there is a problem of human TB, which has been blamed on the cattle. But they have completed the testing and it is not the cattle. It seems to be nearly all human to human spread so that at least they can make a start on eradicating TB in humans by treating the in contacts.\nThey went away from the church in a horse drawn carriage which was nice to see. Spent quite a lot of time catching up with vets and their friends who we have not seen for ages.\nSun 26th\nWe were staying with friends from Carlisle who moved down to Derbyshire when he started to teach. We went to their church which is a “house church” and is a little different to put it mildly. They meet in a school, and it is very informal with a drumming band and a desire not to be restricted by convention or liturgy! So it was a mixture of readings and worship songs. They do seem to be reaching out to their local community as there were people from all walks of life there.\nMon 27th \nBack to work and not feeling very good had 2 weeks in India and no stomach bugs but a w/e in Derby and I have a very runny tummy. Came home from work early and went to bed.\nTues 28th\nOff work Ill in bed, being male this involves dying noisily in a corner. Some sympathy I get from my wife!!! \nWeds 29th\nNot feeling good but dragged myself back in as I have had that much time off recently and I feel that I have to turn in. But I am off tomorrow so I can recover then, the only drawback is that I will be working the w/e. The sheep  seem to have decided to start lambing or maybe decided not as we seem to be seeing a few if you get what I mean\nThursday\nHad a good day off and spent time sleeping and doing household things. Even though I hate DIY it was good to get some jobs sorted.\nCalled in at vets to pick up stuff for court tomorrow.\nFriday\nThe more I experience the legal proceedings the more I feel that they are a waste of time. What is important is how good your lawyer is. The case was all about whether or not this guy had starved his greyhounds or not. He had, but as he was on legal aid he thought it might be better to try to keep his other dogs. And have fewer judgements against him. He obviously knew his way around the legal system.\n\n\nSaturday 1st Feb 2003\nReflections on Court case\nIt is one of those really annoying things that you can never replay what has happened.\nThe case yesterday really churned me up with having to make huge moral decisions more or less on the spur of the moment. \nThe complicating factors were that C who was acting on the defence was acting outside the RCVS guidelines. Now I could have pointed out this to the RSPCA lawyer, but as C has already been struck off once the matter could well have turned very badly for him. Even though it is his decision to get involved and a poor one. Then I think that it is not for me to land him in the muck, I could have done so both on the fact he should not have been speaking and also that I could have pointed out that his record is tainted. Why he was being an expert witness in the first place for some one who is not even their client beadsmen (? Beats me)\n. I had reservations about doing the legal work for the RSPCA, and at least we do quite a lot of work for the local inspector.\nSo I decided not to trash C as a witness as I thought that it was not my place to do so, and secondly the repercussions for local vet good will would not stand me in good stead. But I have my doubts as to whether I did the correct thing. There is no right and wrong. The dilemmas are there because you to choose which horn you want to get impaled on.\nSun+\nLambing seems to have started with a vengeance spent most of the morning at the surgery, with land rovers and trailers turning up one after another. With sheep lambing or having peri-natal problems. I do like working out of the surgery at the w/e, as there is far less driving and working is so much easier and you don’t have to keep getting changed in and out of protective clothes.\nSo got two vets work done by just keeping on asking for them to come to the surgery. The farmers don’t mind either as they generally have to put them in a pick up to bring them back to the farm from the field so it is as easy to drive on to the vets rather than hang around waiting for them.\nMon\n Went TT testing at P’s [farm]. I used  his son a fair bit during FMD as they went out early on and he always has done a fair amount of contracting on the various farms. He also has a very happy go lucky style in contrast to his Dad who is a bit of a worrier. I quite enjoyed the banter and we could just work away as there is no pressure too get finished, as the numbers are not great.  \n Tues\n Went to O’s where they are again having problems getting the cows in calf. The levels of infertility in the restocking herds are horrendous. The sad thing is we seem to be achieving very little in actually improving it. In spite of a lot of investigations and spending money on vaccine and on supplements.\nThe average loss must be 5% at least. It would be interesting to compare the culling rates of the restocking farms. And find out what the restocking losses actually are.\nWeds\nTook the new vet student with me today and let her do the first lambing. At R’s. They like everyone else says they are getting a lot of lambs. These were dead and all tangled up and aborting so they could not get them out. They had quads last night.\nThursday\nWent to S and stitched a teat. This is now a fairly easy operation with the advent of using open crushes and decent epidural anaesthesia. Local is always fairly iffy as many a dentists patient will testify to. It is very satisfying to fix something like that.\nFriday\nSpent the morning  doing certs. These are OTM22 certificates which were brought in by MAFF to compensate the farmer for cows that would have been sold for human consumption before the OTM scheme banned them from human consumption. If an animal is not fit to travel then it can be shot on the farm, but to get the compensation they need a vet’s cert to say that it is fit for human consumption, so it can be burnt on the scheme. If it is not fit then they have to pay to have it taken away. So there is a lot of pressure to sign them.\nThe scheme is supposed to be coming to an end this summer but as yet no markets exist for the casualty animals that are fir for human consumption. The whole knackery/ injured animals/ burying of animals scheme is up for grabs and the govt needs to get some sort of scheme up and running. But the govt thinks, maybe rightly that it is an industry problem to get rid of its own waste and it is not up to the taxpayer to get farmers waste problems sorted. Leave it up to the industry/ market to sort it.\nThere is also a suggestion that as TB is not an important zoonosis in the UK anymore then it is a production problem and it should go the same way as sheep scab and be taken off the notifiable disease list and individual farms have to ensure they meet whatever standard that the buyers want to specify. Which is what is happening to a small extent in the dairy industry with buyers specifying farms must meet certain criteria.  \n\n\nSaturday 8th  Feb 2003\n[wife] is on her course for the w/e so I was doing the run around to squash and football for [sons].\nMon 10th\nB is now renting all the land @ Bush Ghyll head. He has taken it over as a grass letting. Another of the small farms is disappearing. The reality is it has only ever been a small holding but they use to milk 20 odd cows which meant it got the status of a farm on our computer system. The Uncle who use to run it when first arrived was a real character. He was always telling you about when farmers made money after the war. A dozen eggs was 10 shilling. None of your 50ps 10 whole shillings. You could take a girl to the cinema and the Lyons Café and still have change from a pound. Even his free range hens eggs would not buy a cinema ticket for one these days. He should of taken her as he ended up as a bachelor with his nephew taking over the farm.\nTuesday 11th\nThe partners meeting today was trying to address the fact that the mark up on fees is going to be eroded. One of the things that Barnard Castle are doing is putting on their bills, but as yet not charging for things like “Telephone advice” and “Out of hours”. So we are going to be doing the same to try to get across the point that we are providing an all round service that needs to be paid for. But I still think at the end of the day the economics will win. If you cannot provide a service at a profit, you cannot provide a service. So where does that leave us??\nWeds\nHarrison’s are having problems with fertility. Who isn’t? The blood results are showing low levels of copper but I am not convinced that is what it is.\nThey will have to supplement the feed by adding more copper to the feed. The problem with all these investigations is that we are looking for a simple answer when the actual problem is multi factorial. The cows may be short in copper but they are not that low that it is really effecting them. I often wonder with humans if you blood sampled them for lots of different minerals would we find that a percentage of the population is actually below normal for some or several minerals? Maybe our omnivorous diet and the fact we are not producing huge amounts of milk probably does come in to it. We do have a much more varied diet. Most cows are now on complete rations here in the UK so that if the Nutritionist gets it slightly wrong then you will find that the cows will be short. I suppose the other thing that we do always forget is that they are usually working off either a single or 3-4 samples of silage so that there will be a spread of what is actually in the silage and the samples may or may not reflect it.\nThursday\nOn call tonight, and busy which was OK. R was up helping at\nWH house. One of his suckler calves had managed to prolapse its rectum. But it is as wild as thunder so we were all very careful about handling it. I had to dope it any way to operate. But when we put it back it was jumping up the walls which is always a wee bit disconcerting. Limousin stirks could be used for the grand national. D’s brother is not very well at all now. He has cancer and went in for emergency surgery the day I shot all the cows. I had a big row with senior staff at Page St. He had been admitted to the hospital at 2am and was to undergo emergency surgery. That afternoon. I did not want it put on the web site as they were announcing them on Radio Cumbria. I did not want him to be going down for the surgery or just coming out of it and to find out from the radio that I was shooting all his cows. I asked them to put an embargo on it. Of course the vets tried not to let it go out but it did and I was really angry. I wrote some strongly worded letters and never even got a reply. I should have followed it up and held some one to account but I am afraid it all got lost in the passing of time.\nAt least R is a lot better; he had meningitis around the time of FMD. He has had bad heads and depression ever since so, it was good that he is back on farms and has started fencing again.\nFri 14th Valentines\n It is [friend]’s Birthday so we all went around to her house for dinner which was really nice and ended playing darts with the kids. I was pleased to get some darts in the board, as it is a long long time since I have played.\n\n\nSaturday 15th February 2003  \n[son’s] birthday. My little baby son is now 8 years old. It is hard to believe where the time has gone and all the water that has passed under the bridge. \nWent around to [friend’s] at night and sat and eat and put the world to rights. It is good every now and again to wind down and just enjoy talking with out having to think as we know them so well you can just come out with stuff.\nSunday\nMon 17th\nSpent the day TB testing at DL where they have had a NVL. (No visible lesions Reactor) taken. [colleague] did the first test and we are not doing the fat stock on farms that have restocked as they will be going for slaughter fairly soon. So it is deemed pointless and really it is. So spent the day putting big bullocks through the crush and it is a dangerous work for the men who go in amongst  them because they are very rarely handled and so don’t take to it very well.\nTuesday\nHad an interesting lambing today. And a consequence of FMD that you forget about. There is an inherited genetic condition of Suffolk’s called Dandy-walker syndrome causing hydrocephalus in the lambs. So both the ewe and tup must carry the gene to produce the deformed lambs with heads too large to get through the mothers pelvis. So it means doing a caesarean on a ewe that can only be used to breed fat lambs from. It has to be put to another breed next year. This years lambs are dead/ going to die. So the economics are useless. Some breeders just shoot them at this point. But he had called us to try to lamb it or caesaer it. As she was a big ewe I eventually managed to lamb it. \nHe was saying though that it takes time to work out whether the stock you have bought will produce the breeding stock that you want. You have to try the different combinations that you have to work out which lines work well together. He reckons on about 4-8 years before he will be back to breeding decent Suffolk sheep in spite of buying in good stock. There is more to breeding than meets the eye.\nWednesday\nRB had a stirk with MCF. Malignant Catarhal Fever. It is a viral disease which is quite often fatal that they catch from sheep. But they have really blue grey eyes from the change in the fluid in the eye and the severe iritis. It must be incredibly painful for them. \nThursday\nDixons TT2 is now clear so they have to have them all tested again in 42 days to clear the farm of restrictions. Un fortunately the vet from the ministry said it would be from the day the cow is taken not today so the whole thing is getting a bit complicated and JD is getting wound up. Understandably so.\nFriday\nTried to sort out some of the Tracings that we are supposed to be doing. There are a lot coming through but the quality of the info is very poor. Tracings are where the farm has sold animals and then subsequently gone down with TB or other notifiable disease. The DEFRA paper chase is so bad that ear tag nos are wrong or a farmer has bought several from the same source and only 1-2 are on the paper work from DEFRA. The thing seems to be falling apart a bit. \nWent and did a single animal up at the mill. He usually buys in stores and fattens them. But As the store trade has gone through the roof he has sold a lot of them on to let some one else fatten or if heifers breed from them. The DEFRA files have him as a fattening unit/ finisher so that they hadn’t bothered to do tracings to him as they would be going for slaughter. But of course he had sold one on that had gone down with TB so they wanted to know what was happening with these now.\n\n\n\nSaturday 22nd February 2003\nSaturday\nSunday\nMonday\nTuesday\nHad a funny sensation to day. I suppose it was almost a flash back in some ways. I went to a farm who has fancy pedigree sheep. He has rented land and wanted them added to his holding for the MV Scheme so he needs a Vet Inspection to say that the fields are double fenced so that the sheep do not come in contact to any others. This inspection of fields is pretty meaningless as they know what needs to be done and so they are always up to scratch. The last time I was doing it was for FMD. \nWednesday\nThursday\nFriday\nPacked and got the last few things sorted for the VCF w/e. Got the posters printed and the display boards together, and set off down the motorway to pick up [friend] and spent most of the day travelling it was good talking to him. He retired from practice just before FMD and then spent the first part of his retirement working for DEFRA on the FMD. First at Preston and then at Settle. It seems they were better organised at Preston and he was quite positive about the local teams. I sometimes wonder if I am sill too close to it all and to emotional to take a clear-headed look at what it was really like. It was good to see [friends] at night and get set up for the w/e.\n\n\nSat 1st March (+ Sun) 2003\n\nVCF w/e\nIt is difficult for me to sum up the w/e as I was so much in it and part of it. \nSo I have copied the report from one of the students who wrote a bit for the VCF Magazine.\nVCF Triennial Conference - 28th Feb-2nd March 2003\n \nOn a sunny weekend at the beginning of March, over 70 vets, vet students and families bravely took time out of their busy schedules and gathered expectantly at The Hayes conference centre in Derbyshire for the 2003 VCF conference. We were a mixed bunch, ranging in age from 2 months to 70 (well, nearly), from many different places, denominations and walks of veterinary life, but we all had a common goal in mind: to unite in our desire to love and serve the Lord Jesus Christ in the vocation to which He has called us and to encourage one another to be "salt and light" in the veterinary world.\n Our distinguished speaker for the weekend was Dr. L, a consultant psychiatrist and Christian who drew from his own experience to bring us some thoughtful insights on the subject of "God at Work". He emphasised the fact that although work is a godly activity and that we should view whatever we do "as if working for the Lord" (Colossians 3:18) it must not be forgotten that a balance must be achieved between work, church, family life etc. There was also an opportunity to discuss how we would respond as Christians to a variety of ethical decisions that commonly present themselves in veterinary practice.\n As well as the main talks there was the opportunity to join a variety of seminars on relevant practical subjects. BT, a vet and long-serving missionary in Thailand with OMF, led a most interesting seminar on the joys and challenges of both veterinary and evangelistic work in a different culture. Students and new graduates were well provided for in seminars on "practicing reality" - living out one's faith in the university or veterinary practice environment. M C bravely stepped in at short notice to lead a seminar on business ethics, and vcf secretary generated some thought-provoking discussion on a very relevant subject for many - singleness. \n It was not all work and no play, however, and we were much obliged to the Scottish students for organising the Saturday night ceilidh. Much fun was had by all.\nSo, we all parted company on Sunday feeling refreshed and well-fed both physically and spiritually. How encouraging to be reminded that you are not the only Christian vet out there, and that there are many others who grapple with the same issues you face. The weekend was a time of friendships rekindled and hopefully new ones made, a time of strengthening and a reminder of what is ultimately the most important thing in our busy lives.\n\n\nLeading the seminar on business ethics, or rather winging it was very stressful but very good. Which was very interesting and very challenging. The questions about is it right to make a profit were espy good to work through, but it was incredibly draining. By Sun night I was exhausted drove back to [friend’s] for the night. He live about 20 mins off motorway and it was coming through one of the wee villages I was flashed by a camera and so will have a fine and a speeding ticket to sort out.\nMon\nHad a really nice lie in and then went for a walk with [friend] around from his house across the fields. It was beautiful. Then set off for Preston to visit the friend who is in prison. The road was closed on the way to the M6 so took me ages to find my way to the M6 and then after coming off at Preston to find the way to the prisons. The whole afternoon was very depressing. There is something very intimidating about having to be “processed” for the visit under security cameras and by very polite but uncaring prison officers. The being searched and going past sniffer dogs, and having to give my finger prints which are now on the police computers. [prisoner] was OK but fairly depressed about the outlook. Even now he is worried about how he is going to cope when he comes out. The prison regime is very oppressive, and after being there for an hour and a half I was glad to be going. It is also a bizarre situation where you have to sit there and talk for that length of time. There is also a lot of stuff that he wants to know about the kids. And you just can’t help him. Most of what we know is hearsay and not first and so difficult to sum up. Espy as some of it is not good. They are not coping with the whole situation, and it is basically his fault, or his and their mothers, so he is already feeling guilty enough with out giving him more angst to cope with. But I was very glad to be coming out again into the fresh air.\nSpent the evening at A’s parents evening challenging senior management and giving them a hard time. So quite a day.\nTuesday\nAs usual the disasters after a w/e away continue the new bathroom was totally flooded from a leaking pipe. I felt like wringing his neck. He is the plumber.  The water was flowing back through the old kitchen and made a real mess.  Managed to get hold of him after leaving more and more urgent phone messages at all his answer phones. He has a mobile, a telephone at his flat where he hardly ever is, and at his girlfriends. So the water was off most of the day until he found the leak and managed to fix it. Again he had to smash tiles and cut holes in the wall to fix it and the place looked a mess. But boy o boy am I fed up with that stupid bathroom. \nWent into work to find no one had done the stuff I had left to be done, and work was really busy. The speeding ticket had landed already, why are other govt depts not as efficient?. So spent the whole day until 6pm running around like a headless chicken and then decided that stuff it: I was going to the gym for the circuits class.\nWeds\nThe disasters continued, with the washing machine giving up the ghost. Which in a house with 3 boys and a vet is a pretty serious problem.\nI also had an argument with one of the other partners saying that if we did not get another vet we would have a rebellion or people going off sick through stress. Me being one of them and I have only been back 2 days. Still haven’t managed to read all of the stuff in my in tray yet let alone deal with it.\nThursday\nFinally convinced [senior colleague?] we needed some help as the Ministry got hold of him and asked if we could do a tracings herd test urgently on one of farms that has not restocked. (The cattle belong to some one else). He then looked at the book and decided we could not. ! Idiot I told him weeks ago, last September I think that this would happen. So spent the day sorting out DC to come. In between vetting. He is not an LVI so have had to pull some wool, and sweet talk them into training him in the baffling ways of DEFRA. But that meant I still have yet to reach the bottom of my in tray. May be there is gold buried at the bottom. \nI think this is one of those days when you look back were probably quite decisive, but accidental days. \nThis was the first time I really thought that I was about to be killed. I could see it happening and there was nothing I could have done differently to prevent it.\nI went on a calving after work about 8pm.\nMet up with the farmers and One went to get water. While the other and I walked into the box to where the cow was. The cow gave me a funny look and I backed off, to behind a pillar in the pen. “ Oh its OK it’s a quiet cow, she’s had 8 calves.” He said. Next time I will listen to my instincts.\nSo we went forward to where she was. Without warning, or snorting or given it a second thought she charged, caught me under the ribs with her head and threw me to the ground. Before I could react she butted me again in the head, snorted kicked me, and then backed off as the farmer started kicking and hitting her. She then came again, bashed me into the corner on my back and kept coming. As her head flew at me I grabbed her nose and swung myself around on her nose. Kicked her with both feet taking all my weight on the one hand while shouting for help from the other guys. One came back with a pitchfork. As I was on the ground I kicked her again. As they came with the fork and let go and scrambled away around the box she still came after me, but I got to the gate past the two brothers who thumped her again and then backed off and slammed the gate shut. I lay in a heap on a bale for 10 minutes breathing heavily, while they asked did I need an ambulance or Doctor. I finally came to enough to splash water on my face and think  that there must be an easier way to make a living!! It took all 4 brothers armed with sticks to get her into a crush where I then managed to calve 1 dead twin breach and 1 live twin (just). In her defence the cow had been calving for a while was in pain and had probably just got herself really wound up. But she almost killed me. I then sat having strong tea for quarter of an hour before summoning up the courage to drive home. With hind sight, I should have taken up there offer of a) Getting some one else out to calve the cow. But the girl on 2nd was 5ft nothing and petite, and didn’t think dumping it on her was very fair. The adrenaline was still flowing so I just kept on. b) I should however have let one of them drive me home or probably to casualty. But I felt they would not do anything at the hospital except keep an eye on me. So I just went home to my own bed and asked my wife to wake me up every two hours.\nFriday\nIll with head spinning. Every time I sit down to try and do something my head just goes around. And I feel really tired and jet lagged.\nI think I prefer India to being beaten up by cows. Time for a new job.\nSlept all afternoon, but had friends for dinner it had been arrange months ago so [wife] didn’t cancel, and I kept going but drifted in and out a wee bit!\n\n\nSaturday 8th March\nHad a lie in to 9 o clock Yo!!! Still feeling pretty sore but at least my head is one piece I think!! Showed flat to prospective tenants.\n It is very rare that we don’t have to get up for sthg when we are  at home either for work or for Football/squash or something similar. There is another squash competition but they are both later starts for our boys, which is great.\nTook [son] to football and [wife] phoned up to say that the Cs were going to watch the Lord of the rings did I want to go. So went to watch it and swapped younger kids with [wife] taking [son] and their youngsters and I went with the Cs. There are times when mobile phones are really useful to get things arranged. \nThe film was really good but boy was I stiff after sitting down for that length of time. My knee was giving me real gyp.\nSpent evening at Daubes but I faded so [wife] drove home and went to bed.\nSunday 9th\nWent to church in morning and picked up car. [friends] came to lunch which was really good to see them. But as A points out pointedly, they do have 5 boys. So there were 8 kids flying around but I did enjoy seeing them. They are still trying to sort out their diversification plans and hope to have several strings to their bows as well as farming. There is a teachers position at Nelson Thom so that is probably the most reliable form of income for [friend].\nMon 10th\nWent to work but every time I bend over or move to fast my head spins, so just did small animals. I think cats and dogs are a much better idea. But a lot of sympathy from folk at work. Mr H had been in and obviously given a fairly graphic description of what had happened.\nThat and my face is not the most becoming at the moment.\nTues 11th \nBack to work on the farms. I was at Rs for a fertility visit. Even though I know his cows and I am happy with them I did feel very nervous about going any where near them. I have lost a lot of confidence which although I expected it I am still a bit wound up about it.\nThe rest of day was OK, apart from several people whingeing about the current paper work requirements for selling cattle. Mind you when you see what they need to sell a few bullocks or a geld cow, it is probably easier to be an asylum seeker.\nSpent evening at Surgery showing D the ropes. He is the locum who is going to be working with us for the next few weeks. He is going to the ministry at Newcastle tomorrow to do his LVI training. At least that means he can do some of the TB testing and at least give us a break from that. It is these sort of things, managing staff, showing people the ropes, giving them back up and debriefing them that latkes huge amounts of time and energy and yet is never seen as “work” or relevant by a lot of people(The rest of the partnership) and yet in any small business it is the people that make all the difference and if they feel appreciated and supported, and can debrief and be reassured then it makes such a difference to them. And happy staff can deal with situations and people a lot better and easier than stressed ones!!\nWeds 12th\nNext year I am NOT going it is definitely some one else’s turn.\nI speak of the annual training (????) day for senior LVIs. It just drives me up the wall. The morning was spent fairly usefully talking about contingency planning for the next FMD or exotic disease epidemic. The Page St planners seemed fairly well clued in and taking on board a lot of the ideas and problems that had been seen in 2001.\nThe afternoon was then totally depressing.\nTB is now endemic in the south of the county, there was a deer herd that had animals dying and so took them to the VIC lab at Penrith to find out why they had these animals losing weight and dying. They had TB. The ministry had known that there had been reactors all around that area but had never picked up on the fact these deer were here and should have been tested.\nThere were also complaints that forward tracings were not being done on some cattle. To which the Vety Officer giving the talk said it was quite difficult to work out where cattle had gone. This was met with some incredulity by the local vets as the paperwork and computerised passport scheme surely means that “trace-ability” was one of the BIG issues to do with BSE, and if it cannot be done it means the whole thing is a useless sham.\nWell the answer is that you can trace a specific animal through markets and holdings but not animals on and off a holding.\nSo tracings are taking too much time.\nSo it is not getting done so TB is spreading.\nIDIOTS\n\nThe best systems, the best tools, the best ideas, the best businesses have to work through people.\nSo next year some one else can go and listen to the plans in the sky.\nThis was the meeting where we had an excellent talk on FMD in Feb 2000. Just a pity they did not listen to their own experts.\nThere was also a talk on the new Scrapie scheme where the guy speaking knew less than his audience???  Why???\nI have to go back to the speaker at the VCF w/e who said that when he came out of Medical school he Had spent 6 years being taught to be rational and scientific, where disease was discussed logically and a rational conclusion was sought. He came with the same idea to the National Health Service and struggled. He said”.. we live in a fallen world with fallen institutions, and we have to accept that at times they do not make sense, and that it is not in our power or capabilities to change them. Where we can we change them where we cannot we work within them” \nThursday 13th\nDay off prior to working w/e. \nWent up high Pike with [friend]. Snowed lightly on tops but beautiful, but a wee bit chilly. \nSpent the afternoon getting the stuff sorted for VCF magazine and answering e-mails and putting the details from the w/e in to some sort of order. I was trying also to put some responses down for yesterday but feeling to angry to risk putting it down on paper. I just hope the govt is more in touch with the armed forces on the frontline in Kuwait, than the distant arm of govt in State Vet Service in Cumbria.\nFriday 14th\nAnother day, another test, another dollar.\nSpent morning supervising the locum and trying to get on top of my in tray. The stuff for partners meeting next week to try and get some decisions. And a w/e on call looms when I feel even though I have not been in work or worked too many w/e’s tired and jaded. Being beaten up by the cow probably doesn’t help.\n\n\nSaturday 15th March\n Working the w/e on first for the first time in a long time as I have been keeping the amount I am working back. I am was way ahead in the amount worked so it brings the numbers in line. \nI also need a break as feeling v. tired and fed up. And with not much prospect of rejuvenation. \nThe morning was fairly busy but we all finished by 12 so not that bad. It was funny as Julie who ahs been a receptionist since pre FMD said that she thought it was really busy, but compared to the good old days of  8 years ago, you thought it was a good Sat am if you finished by 2!! So it is surprising how things change and you get use to them.\nThe weather is beautiful with clear skies and frosty spring mornings and dry! The good weather always makes you feel better any way.\nSpent afternoon doing bits and pieces in garden and jobbing around.\nSunday 16th\nBusy in morning but it shows how useful the new building is OK I know its 4 years old but things have never been normal and I still see it as new. There were 2 lambings and a sheep to see and drugs to put out, and because I was at the surgery they just kept on coming down to the surgery to the large animal bay so I did a lot of “work” with no driving and it makes such a difference. What would have taken 3-4 hours was finished in an hour and a half!!\nMissed church and did the same at night with more lambings the sheep are back.\nThe afternoon was spent sorting out after boys.\nThey went down to the pond and because it is all churned up they got their wellies stuck in the mud. So they were cold and wet and covered!! I had to use planks to walk out to them so I did not sink in. I made the mistake of fetching the planks and the spades back before sorting the boys so they had trailed mud all around the house!!!\nGrrrrr….\nBut I should have taken photos.\nIn the midst of this the new vet student Rachael turned up so I could not give full vent to my annoyance!!\nMon 17th\nChaos at work with loads of emergencies and testing so we were all glad of students and D working. More I/R’s found TB testing so it looks like it will continue.\nStill haven’t found time to put pen to paper or type writer to  send a letter to Contingency planning group at DEFRA. But hopefully will get on top of it soon.\nTues 18th\nSome days I should have stayed in bed. A bad hair day!! \nStarted off badly with arriving at fertility visit as farmer was emerging from breakfast having been late as his wife was milk recording and he had to calve a cow. So had to sort cows before checking to see in calf. A very rotten lambing. Rotten as in lambs were disintegrating so stank and then more calls. Left for lunch at 12:45 to get half way and the called me back for another lambing. There were 1:30 calls to do and then surgery. Worked at night and I was fed up of being On call stopping me doing stuff so went to gym and was bleeped out to speak to folk 4 times. By now really wound up so went to house group and sat down, chatted and phone went. Sorted that and then a cow caesarean. This was followed by 2 more and 3 hours sleep.\nMust be an easier way to make a living.\nWeds 19th\nFeeling my age, no sleep on the night before you 40th birthday does not do you any good. Missed seeing kids in morning as I was out at caesar. 3 during night On Call.\nThe girls at work had got hold of loads of photos (From my wife) so they were all around the practice. Well I was a cute teenager!!!\nWorked through to lunch as morning was busy and partners meeting.\nThen did a 1:30 AND WENT HOME FOR SLEEP.\nOpened presents with kids at 4 o’clock and went out to D’s for meal at night was good.\nThurs 20th\nReally quiet as no TB testing and lots of vets. Did more lambings and caught up on business side of organisation. Doing rota and organising work.\nReflected on partners meeting and tried to work out whether I am out of sync with the rest of the world and right or out of sync and wrong. Time will tell.\nIraq war started as predicted but seems to have been an opportunistic target i e Saddam himself rather than all out assault. Weird but that is politics. I must ask the history teachers about what caused the failure of the League of Nations, and whether this is going to be similar for UN.\nFri 21st\nDespite being on back up went out for a meal. It was the coffee morning’s xmas bash that is traditionally now held in new year as there is too much else on during Xmas period. Spent quite a while talking to MS about League of Nations and the UN. He is fairly sceptical about the power and influence of UN. Which in his view is more often than not used as a fig leaf for US or USSR ambitions, and is not really the “International Community”. He was interesting to talk to about the history of Iraq.\nPlayed pictionary boys vs. girls which was fun.\n\n\n\n\nSaturday 22nd  March 2003\n Worked am which was very busy. As it was my 10th day I was feeling a bit drained. Either that or cos of out for meal last night. I will let you decide!! \nThe beautiful weather is continuing, and we went for a lovely walk up above Fellside. The kids loved playing in the streams and the sunshine, which for March is amazing.\nCame back to find that there was a house full of folk to celebrate my 40th birthday which was really nice. Though it was a good thing that the weather was good so the kids could play out side as there were lots of them. Chatted to P, who is always full of energy and enthusiasm. He is a whirlwind of ideas and concepts and philosophy. One of the few people who I can sit and listen to, for hours and hours. He is intelligent and articulate (In 7 languages), and yet always ready to listen to anyone and hear what they have to say, even if it is poorly thought out. And very practical in his approach, and very un materialistic. He is quite happy to give books and ideas to anyone who will read and learn from them.\nSunday 23rd\nThis weather is amazing I still cannot get over it with the Sun blazing down we went to watch [son] play football against Silloth. They won 2-0 . But it was a tight match but very good to watch. Much better than Carlisle, as one spectators put it. Went on to Beckfoot for a picnic, in March??!! The beach was deserted and yet it was warm enough for T shirts and shorts for the boys. |I lay in the sun and slept and counted my many blessings. Came home and planted seeds, lettuce, courgette and sweet pea. Must plant leeks and pumpkins if I get a a chance this week and buy onion sets.\n[wife] spent a while after church talking to B about Low Moor. Difficult.\nMon 24th\nSent my letter to Richard Drummond, who was the RVO at Harrogate and is now head of service delivery. It is always a bit of a conscious effort to take up the cudgels..    against bureaucracy. Especially one like the SVS that has in its culture a tendency to attack those who criticise it. I hope that tomorrow will be quiet as I wish to write another letter to the contingency planning dept. I also want to look at the updated contingency plans and make comments on it. But doing all this does not pay the bills and at the moment when work is so busy I feel it is actually more important to spend time with the kids. So I will sign off and go and watch the  “Great Escape” which they bought me for my birthday.\nCopy Of letter to Richard Drummond who wrote the Drummond Report before FMD saying that if there was an outbreak they would not be able to cope!!\n\n21st March, 2003\n\nMr R D Drummond\n[address removed]\n\nDear Richard,\n\nI am writing to express my concern with the current situation with TB.\n\nWe last met at the LVI meeting in Cumbria where we had an excellent talk on Foot and Mouth Disease and about how there was an increased risk becoming apparent.  This was in Feb 2000.\n\nAt the meeting this year as well as talks on Contingency planning there was a lot of discussion on the emergence of TB on Cumbrian farms.\n\nThere were also complaints that forward tracings were not being done on some cattle. To which the Vet Officer giving the talk said it was quite difficult and time consuming to work out where cattle had gone. This was met with some incredulity by the local vets as the paperwork and computerised passport scheme involved in moving cattle is a huge burden on farmers.  "Trace-ability" was one of the BIG issues to do with BSE, and if it cannot be done it means the whole paper exercise is a useless sham.\n\nThe answer was given that you can trace a specific animal through markets and holdings but not animals on and off a holding.\nSo tracings are taking too much time.\nSo tracings are not getting done in some divisions.  \nSo TB is spreading.\n\nWhether this comes under your remit as Head of Service Delivery I do not know. \nBut I would be grateful if you could forward it to the relevant department or to the minister so that a single enquiry to the cattle movements service at Workington will ensure a comprehensive list of movements on and off a holding since the previous test. \n\nIf we cannot trace from herds with tuberculosis reactors, the ability to track FMD is obviously a non starter.\n\nThank-you in advance for your help with this.\n\nI hope in 3 years time we will not be contemplating what we should have learnt from an LVI meeting in Hadrian House.\n\nYours Sincerely\nB.V.M.&S. M.R.C.V.S.\n\nTues 25th\n[wife]’s cousin from Vancouver arrived and it was really nice to see her again. The Canadians are always so up beat and down to earth. They have a refreshingly positive can do mentality. She and her daughter have been with a school choir singing in parts of Europe and doing the European tour. They are whistle stopping the lakes tomorrow.    It was good to catch up with them. [young vet who lost brother?] was with them. My favourite mother in law. She brought me a set of kitchen knives for my birthday present . They are incredibly sharp so I don’t think that letting the kids loose with them will be a good idea. But at least we can pitch some of the old ones, which needed sharpening every time you used them.\n[vet] arrived back from skiing very sun burnt from the sunshine and wind. She has had a really good time though.\nWeds 26th\n A  and left as I arrived in to go to YP’s. It was funny to see them very much the young ladies going out. They live at opposite ends of the world and yet the fashion is the same. Little hand bags and scarves as belts!! Globalisation is not just effecting agriculture. They had spent time in Keswick and around the lakes today making use of the gorgeous summer weather. In March?? It really is warm. Hope we are in for a scorcher of a summer holidays.\nThursday 27th\nSpent the quietist night On Call for a long, long time. Nothing !!!\nWhy is it as soon as you employ a locum as  an extra pair of hands the work disappears. Still it will given everyone a chance to have a breather. Said good bye to the Canadians and Mother in law. We are heading over to Ireland to see the Irish side of the family at Easter so we will see [vet friend?] again soon. But it was funny saying goodbye all the same. Don’t know why!\nWas doing a herd health plan today for a farm that has 50 dairy cows. He said he did not really know why he is doing it as he is going to give up and go and milk for some one else as it is not viable to make it pay on that sort of small scale.\nFriday 28th\nHaven’t got the workload right at all. I think the sunshine has sent the farmers into the fields to work and the lambs and calves are all arriving un aided in to the sunshine. It is amazing how the good weather makes you feel so much better. So I have booked in extra testing for next week. \nThe only slightly sad thing was talking to one of the farmers who had just started lambing. I was taking out rotten lambs that were aborting 2 weeks earlier. It is his first season actually lambing as he only bought in fat sheep last year. He said that it was at this stage 2 years ago that they came and took all his sheep. He should not have let them do it. It was wrong and he had not put up a fight. He had just gone along with it. He was fairly melancholic about it. I tried to point out that every one had done it, and it had seemed to be best thing to do at the time. I did not think that pointing out I had not been convinced and argued against it, and that only 2 out of 10,000 blood samples of live sheep slaughtered had been exposed to the virus would have helped. They were my granddads flock, he said. Now we have all these problems he says. Looking at the dead lambs I have just pulled out: lying in a heap in the corner of the trailer. You never forget something like that lad he says never.\nThere are a lot of anniversaries to go through and all the farmers are saying the fun has gone out of it. \n\n\nSaturday 29th   March\n The beautiful weather is carrying on and [wife] and I had a child free, vet student free afternoon. The sun was out and we went down for a walk along this side of Bassenthwaite Lake. There were lots of daffodils out and a light breeze off the lake. It was beautiful, cool sunny day for walking and very pleasant. We really enjoyed it.\n [son] and A are on the Young Peoples church w/e at Edinburgh and will arrive back exhausted from lack of sleep. The Js had the boys for the afternoon so it was good. Met up with [friends] in the evening and spent the evening putting agriculture to rights. He sells/ manages sales of fertiliser for Norsk Hydro.\nSunday\nMothering Sunday was a bit of a disaster with out A to organise the boys and I hadn’t had time to get them organised. Church was R & J on the beatitudes.\nThen met up with Cs and went up Bow Scale Fell. [son’s friend] and [son] complained the whole way. They were in really bad form and I was fed up with them. \nMonday\nThe work has dried up completely which for this time of year is unheard of. We have employed a locum to try and get the testing done and no work for every one to do. Embarrassingly got it wrong. Usually at this time of year there is no testing and the vets are running around like idiots. Not very good news for us . So wrote letters to [the] head of contingency planning at Page St. To amuse you I have copied it here:\n<<\n\n\n\n\n[name]\nDEFRA\nRm 803A\n1A Page St\nLondon\nSW1P 4PQ\n\nDear [name]\n\nI am writing to thank-you for travelling north to Carlisle to come to speak to the recent LVI meeting at Hadrian House, Carlisle.\n\nI have also been reading the DEFRA contingency plan and a lot of lessons do seem to have been learnt. I appreciate this years deadline has been passed to place it before parliament, but it is a “living” document! \nMy apologies but better late than never!!!\n\n I would like to make a few comments as one of the early TVI volunteers at Carlisle, and as a partner of one of the practices at the eye of the storm.\n\n1. The whole issue of valuation of animals taken as a compulsory purchase by the state for the benefit of the farming community to eradicate disease, has not been addressed. One of the initial problems slowing the slaughter of infected animals was the valuation. My own view then and now is that a simple standard valuation must be applied. It must be high enough to be an incentive to reporting  of disease, but too low to make the possibility of disease seem financially attractive. The price for compulsory purchase may be set higher for dangerous contacts or  less for affected  animals. If there is a simple standard value, then the diagnosing vet counts the number of bovines and shoots them. The farmer knows in advance what compensation is going to be paid, and individual animals of high merit could be insured for whatever sum the farmer is willing to pay premiums for. This may be an unpopular nettle but it needs to be grasped, even though I am sure my clients would disapprove of it.\n\tThe current tuberculosis problems are again high lighting the problems in this area. There should be a standard procedure and valuation for all notifiable diseases, and the values based on the last mid market rate. There are apocryphal stories that the valuers are still running the system for their clients the farmers, not DEFRA.\n\n2. The second issue that has not been addressed is the tracings system.\nWith the advent of the British Cattle Movement Services, I was under the impression that “traceability”  was a central part of government policy. It was with some incredulity that in response to questioning at the LVI meeting we were told that BCMS cannot give a list of movements on or off a holding. So tracings for TB are still being done by a DEFRA vet trawling through a farmers movement book. Why? If the political will was there, at the touch of a bottom the data base should be able to generate a list of animals moved in the past 6 months, which markets they have been through, and which holdings they have been through. If this cannot be done for TB, you can forget trying to do it for FMD or other fast contagious disease.\nThere is still a confusion over the database which should be based on holding numbers. Several farmers have multiple holding numbers, several have a single holding number and multiple sites. High genetic merit animals may have several owners, a single holding may have stock from several different farms. The rules for CPH numbers need to be re-evaluated centrally.  If a data base is to be of use it must be actively managed and updated. That can only be done at a local level.\n\n3. Disposal\nI know that this has been looked at, but farm sizes are continuing to grow at an ever more rapid rate. The average size of dairy farms in this area has grown by 20 cows since FMD. This means there will be a bigger disposal problem as individual farms will have more and more stock.\n\n4.” The local office should have stores to equip 20 TVIs at 24hours notice.”\nWe touched on this point at the meeting was the need for sudden recruitment of TVI or other veterinary staff. While the SVS can second small numbers of vets for short term availability, there was a reluctance by some DVMs to second staff who may yet be required in their own areas. Local LVIs can provide veterinary cover but the whole structure of large animal practice is in flux, and it may or may not be possible to provide veterinary inspections on an allocated, on a  temporary or part time basis. The pay and conditions for such assistance need addressed and agreed. The other part of this is orientation/ training at the local levels. This by the end of the outbreak at Carlisle, was quite impressive. However has that information been put together centrally? Should there be a central trainer who trains designated trainers for each SVS office/DECC?\nSimilarly with lay blood samplers/ vaccinators. Again local practices could provide nominated nurses/ lay staff for training. During the out break here AI personnel were used very effectively  for blood sampling and other procedures. Is this again something for the local plan? But if  the cost for training AI staff in blood sampling was met centrally it would encourage  a register of trained personnel to be maintained locally.\n The Cumbria County Council Inquiry recommends the use of  its emergency centre as a hub for multi agency response to any disease out break.  Should there be some joined up government so that each county council as part of its contingency plan provides for an admin back up for any emergency, civil disaster, terrorist incident?? And do the local plans make use of this??\n\nMy main concern, however, is that when I asked at that meeting had the two way communications between Page St and Carlisle been sorted out…..it was met by nervous laughter.\n\nI would like to emphasise that Page St did not know what was going on in the field during FMD outbreak. There was a communication barrier between the vets in the field and Carlisle management, and a huge gulf between Carlisle and Page Street.  \n\nI would plead that this is addressed as the culture identified by Iain Anderson still seems to prevail. I quote  “a culture predisposed to decision making by committee with an associated fear of personal risk taking. Such a climate does not encourage creative initiative. It inhibits adaptive behaviour, and organisational learning which over time lowers the quality of the decisions taken. It seems to me that a reappraisal of prevailing attitudes and behaviours within the Department would be beneficial.” *\n\nIt may be outside your remit but the Northumberland report with its flow charts and recommendations, actually lists lessons to be learned in Dec 1969. The one about the SVS who fared so poorly in FMD 2001 states… “We have considered the recruitment problem of the State Veterinary Service…the reasons maybe the low initial salary or in part the to the nature of the duties within the Service…..We consider it important for future development that the Ministry of Agriculture should attract a greater number of good young graduates willing to make a career in the service.”#\n\nAt the end of any plan are the people who are going to implement it. They need well managed, well led and given the resources to carry out the task. They need to have confidence in both the political and civil service leadership. There will need to be a risk management of tasks for financial reasons, resource reasons and for the wider rural economy. This requires flexible decision makers who are prepared to take risks and stick their head above the collective parapet.\n\n\nI hope that this provides a few more thoughts for you to work on.\n\nYours Sincerely\n\n\nRefs:\n*FMD 2001 Lessons Learned Enquiry. Forward By Chairman Iain Anderson P7.\n#Northumberland Report presented to Parliament Dec 69. Part 2 Section 47.\n>>>\nShe spoke at the last LVI meeting and as usual the plans sound good but where reality hits is in the delivery/.\n\nTuesday \nDid some small animal work and more testing. Tues evening always seems a rush.\nWent to gym and then on to N’s for the New Frontiers church meeting which was excellent. \nWeds\nManaged some fertility work in the morning and spent the rest of the day bringing the practice database up to date. It has been let go since foot and mouth as it tell us how much stock each farm has. The numbers have been all over the place as people have been restocking and changing the direction their businesses are going. Some moving out, some moving up in numbers and some going from dairy to Beef or sheep.\nThe most interesting thing was the fact that a lot of farms that had restocked with adult animals have dropped by 5-10 cows since they restocked as older cows are lost, or ill cows go, but there are not the young stock replacements coming through to replace them.\nThe actual figures for dairy farms restocking are: Not yet entered in the computer. I was hoping to have them but will get them.\nThursday\nDid some small animals and some OTM22 but it still incredibly quiet. Consequently I have booked in a lot more work for the next few weeks. So I hope I don’t get it wrong the other way. Set up Anne a vet student for her project, on comparing fertility pre and post FMD. \nFinished off updating the database figures so they will hopefully get entered over next few days and we can do some comparisons.\nMarch figures look Ok but the long term out look is not so good. The govt is doing a committee looking at Farm animal vet practice. The Lakeland BVA have asked for comments.\n\nEFRACOM Inquiry into vets and veterinary services\n(EFRACOM is a DEFRA committee)\nTerms of reference are to "...look at the provision of farm veterinary\nservices in England and Wales.  In particular it will look at\n1.\twhat impact current levels of farm income are having on the usage of\nveterinary services, and in turn what effect any reduction  in the usage of\nsuch services is having on the number of practices dealing with large\nanimals;\n2.\twhat effect any reduction in the usage of veterinary services and a\nshortage of large animal vets is having on health and welfare standards and\non the effectiveness of surveillance for animal diseases;\n3.\twhether the requirements placed on farmers by Government including those\nin the Animal Health and Welfare Strategy are realisable in such\ncircumstances; and\n4.\twhat is the impact on the work of the State Veterinary Service."\ncomments by 12 April please\n\nThe day ended with the reading of a TB test on a farm that was hoping to become clear after going down when it first restocked 18months ago. 1 reactor and 1 I/R on normal interpretation. They will probably take both on severe interpretation.\nThe government always looks as though problems are dealt with in isolation. \nThe DEFRA vet who looks after our practice is not dealing with this case as his daughter is married to her brother. The farming community is very incestuous.\nFriday\nWork desperately quiet so I organised more testing to do. I hope I haven’t over booked the work. DEFRA vets at Carlisle are still learning the ropes when it come s to TB as it has been so rare in this part of the world. So a few of the allocations have been wrong. So I am having to go back and do extra animals so that set can be signed off.\nThe school held a curry evening tonight which for a Cumbrian village school is very cosmopolitan. There is an extended family of three Pakistani families and they cooked. <Though for the children there  was also a bangers and chips option> It was quite a nice time, though [wife] was on her next level counselling course so I ended up just with kids but it was good to spend time with them. I have enjoyed not working many w/e’s recently; it kind of gives you your life back; that and not doing much at work.\n\n\nSaturday 5th April 2003\n[wife] was at her level 2 course counselling so I had the kids for the w/e. Took [son] to squash. Went into town for some bits and pieces. And then I  chatted to I while we waited for T and [son] to finish.\nThen took all the kids into town. We are having a Mothers Day tomorrow to make up for the fact L & A were away for the w/e last week. The kids have bought presents and made cards which was nice. \nThe Cs and [friend] came for lunch and then spent a very muddy afternoon by the pond playing and building dens and generally making a mess and having fun. [son] even decided showers were in order when he came back. That shows you how dirty they were as he is Mr Allergic to water.\nI made a fondue for tea with apple juice as the kids don’t like the kick of the wine. It was a great success and did taste rather good even if I do say so myself!!\nSunday\n I went to church on my own as [wife] was heading out again after an early lunch. The talk was on God’s leading which is always relevant. The kids were great fun on the way back and full of craic. They had a return trip to the Cs as they were too late to find a sky TV for THE match. Carlisle lost as usual, but it is not every week they lose at the millennium stadium!!\nI picked the kids up from the Cs and put all their bikes on the back of the car. Went to say good bye to Cs. In the meantime three of their boys were hiding in the boot of the car so they let me drive out with them before the giggles and laughter gave the game away. So it caused much merriment all round. \nMet up with the lads Sunday night, felt really sorry for one guy who is having real problems getting access to his 7 year old as his ex wife is putting a lot of –ve input into the wee one. He can go down the legal route but will be expensive and probably counter productive. As she is not wanting to negotiate or look at what is best for the wee girl it seems a real mess.\nMonday\nIn spite of 4 tests the work is not there….\nI spent the day testing though. \nIt is really quite amusing as I know the guy’s sister quite well and I always make sure I tell her how much the good lunch is appreciated. So there builds up a rivalry between them as to who can provide the vet with the best food. I am afraid I consciously flame the rivalry, in spite of it not doing my waistline any good. Trying to concentrate after a three course lunch on a boring job is not easy. You just have to think about coffee time!! And more cakes and tray bakes. All of them distinctly unhealthy with the aim of feeding out door manual labour.\nTuesday\nHad a bad night as my hand was caught in the crush yesterday by a stirk throwing its head and it bent the finger back. It seemed OK but is now throbbing like mad. Plenty of aspirin and corticosteroids.\nDid some ferty and then saw another LDA. The cows seem to be having a real problem with the feed this spring as we have seen 3-4 times the normal number. Went running with A as my finger meant I could not go to gym to work machines.\nWeds\nThe speed cameras have arrived on the top road, and unfortunately I was going too fast by the time I saw it. So I will probably have another 3 points on my licence. They have been building pads on the side of the road all along the A595 as it has a really bad record for car accidents. The numbers killed continues to go up. The speed cameras are in a van, which can move around and hence trap the speeders. It is called Casualty Reduction Unit… a bit of a pointed message even if you did slow down for them!!\nWork is slow again today with no TB testing on mid week days.\nIt is my brother’s birthday in NZ and he sent a letter to say he is going to be a Dad again so the trip to come across at Xmas is off. He is wanting us to all go there. Hm maybe.\nThursday\nI has had 2 reactors and 4 I/rs today so the future is not looking good for him as it looks like there will be TB there. He has had real problems since the herd restocked with lung worm< energy problems in the silage and atrocious fertility.\nHe is going to have to go and buy another 30 odd replacements at £800 to replace those that he has lost through ill health and fertility. Makes the compensation payments seem pretty small. That’s £24K  he has lost out on already and his own heifers are only coming up to be served. \nWork is busy and I wonder if the spring rush is coming. \nI was supposed to be at the school parents evening but got called out. Which was pretty irritating. I hate the fact that you are just so unreliable when you are on call.\nFriday\nAnother TB testing day so busy.\nAll together not a good day. The competition report is out and is fairly damning as expected so the pressure on drug margins is going to continue and the old fashioned way of providing a complete service will be going out the window. We will have to charge for the out of hours and On Call, the telephone advice and try to make it pay. But the whole economics of going out to see a single ill animal will be gone, the clinical skills of veterinarians will be gone. All academic as the cost for diagnosing a single animal in the new era will be too much. So the diagnosis will all be done by post mortem of herd problems. But if you have large herds the man power will not be there to look after the individual ill animal.\nSad depressing day but I am off for the w/e.\n\n\nSaturday 12th April 2003\nWoke up early and got up even though it is my day for a lie in. I think I am particularly wound up. It all ways takes me at least one day to wind down from work. So I am tired and yet not feeling able to rest. Took [son] to football and [other son?] to buy anew bike. He was so excited. It is his birthday coming up and he has out grown his old one so it will be good for him. The kids spend ages flying around the yard on bikes and up and down the field when the grass is short. They have a real ball here it is a great place to grow up, as they have so much freedom to play and play and play.\nMy finger that was caught TB testing started throbbing again this afternoon, so as it had improved and then got worse I decided I had to get it X rayed so I spent the afternoon in casualty, waiting to get x rayed and then waiting for another hour before being told it was not broken. A five minute consultation that took me almost 2 hours.\n[friends] were up for the w/e. [more friends] are at Capernwray Bible college for an Easter Youth thing so they came on up . So it was good to catch up. \nSunday\nCooked lunch for everyone and then went to communion. It was dire and reminded me why I don’t usually bother.\nSpent the afternoon putting onions in and tidying in the garden. It is incredibly dry and warm. Amazing really. The 6 kids spent the whole afternoon messing around at the pond and were disgusting with mud everywhere and trailed all up the yard, and wellies abandoned everywhere.\nChurch was DM speaking and then the YPs came back to ours afterwards. Mind you I think I had had enough kids for the time being but I was ok. \nMonday\nBad haircut day. As there is only one day we can test this week I booked in fair amount, which would have been tight but AW was off ill so we were too tight, so a few ops have been put off until tomorrow. D has a S African vet friend visiting, so with him and the vet student the house is still full. I however am knackered and not feeling sociable. Had a horrendous calving. It is not often I cannot calve a cow but I am afraid after an hour, I gave up and caesared it. The calf was dead, and rotten so whether she will do I don’t know. I did not want to caesarean but that is life. It was either that or the farmer pay £60 to get some one to take it away after I euthed it. \nTuesday\nWe are in the period of anniversaries. It is 2 years since the Ls went down. I was at a farm which did not get FMD, and his uncles did. He was saying what a sad day it was. So his uncles must be feeling it more. The beautiful spring weather with the grass growing in spite of the frosts definitely puts a bounce in to your step. On days like this I think that it is an excellent life. Wandering around the countryside and enjoying the scenery, the farms, the animals and the farmers. Beats working in a factory any way.\nWent to the gym and felt a lot better for it. Exercise is a great way of getting a buzz. But you have to be not too tired to a) get there and b) enjoy it.\nI have gone often because I feel I should and just felt like a steam roller had run over me, and its taken a day or two to recover. Balance in all things!!!\nWeds\nThe Commission report came out today.\nDifficult to believe that they will be able to implement it. \nBut having lived through the FMD. ….There were quite a few things I thought that they would not be able to implement but they did.\nWe will have to :<if the Minister decides. And since it is DTI not DEFRA I think that the implementation may be effective.>\nProvide prescriptions free of charge\nProvide our clients with a list of pharmacies, agricultural suppliers and other vets, and web sites that will meet those prescriptions.\nThe cost of the most commonly prescribed medicines in the previous quarter.\nThe cross subsidy of professional fees by pharmaceuticals will not be allowed. And how will the pharmacist make his money??\n\nThe other comment which did irk me some what was that the provision of 24 hour cover does not seem that onerous……I do not often swear but really.\nVery depressed.\nBut [daughter] came on a caesaer with me as I was On call tonight. It is really nice working from home and being able to take them with me. It is a  very healthy thing to do. She is growing up and is very much the young lady. The farmers wife is the dental receptionist and of course said hello A. She was thrown as of course being out of context she could not figure how the farmers wife knew who she was!!\nThursday\nGood Friday\nIt is [son’s] B’day today and the day started out great for him. I was on duty and he arrived in our bedroom at 7am with the other 2 boys to start on the birthday celebrations. Our family tradition is that they have breakfast in bed in our bed. Don’t know why but that is what happens. The others all brought cards and presents in. The phone went and it was a lambing, so Tim decided he would come and see the lambs being born. So he was thrilled!!\nWe opened the presents later on. Which included a new boiler suit which really thrilled him. It is amazing what kids think of as their best present!!\nI never really like working Good Friday. I always think one year I will be off and go to one of the contemplative services. Hebron being low church never really does anything like that which is a real shame. Easter is when I think the cathedrals, old country churches, and the church architecture can really be helpful in stopping and praying and helping to consider what Jesus did on the cross.\nFinished work and went up to the [friends]. They were both home and it was really good to see them. Played rounders and had a barbeque which was really nice.\nJames was in really good form as he was enjoying being back away from London where he has just started work as a high flying lawyer. He is not enjoying London very much. He is a hills and countryside lad. His girlfriend was also there so was quite a good craic. I didn’t really want to come home but was so knackered that it was probably just as well the kids were with us and it was not a too late a night.\n\n\nSaturday 19th April 2004 \nSpent most of the day either catching up on sleep or on the day to day things that seem to have been put to one side for a while. There was also the preparations for the service tomorrow we are taking the Easter Sunday morning service which is one of those night mare services where everyone comes. The age range is from 0 to 100 and everyone has different expectations. I should explain that the normal Sunday services are very different. There is the “Family focus “ which is lively and very informal aimed at those with young children, who go to Sunday school. There is then teaching for parents/adults. There is always a lot of noise, children running around, babies crying and shakers and children’s songs. The Communion service that follows is very traditional. Silence and solemnity rules.  All the older generation go, and it is a very different service! So we are going to be combining the two. Oil and water? A lot of prayer has gone in to this one!\nSunday\n[wife] got up at 6 am to go to the sunrise service at the crematorium. \nShe said she needed some input before the Easter service we are leading. It is a service organised by St James, parish church but all the Carlisle churches are asked to take part. Christiana had asked to go, so [wife] went with her and it was really good.\nChrist is risen, he is risen indeed.\nThe sermon was by the Archdeacon from the cathedral who said that being a good Anglican he wanted some liturgy through his sermon. So every time he said are you dead the congregation had to reply, No alive in Christ.!! At which point he would sound a hooter!!\nThe service at Hebron went very well…\nOh ye of little faith. I should pray more and worry less.\n\nI have included our outline below and I have put in additional comments\nIn blue.\nEaster Sunday Service\n\nWelcome to Hebron Evangelical church this Easter Sunday morning when we are celebrating Jesus is alive.  Our opening hymn is our declaration that Jesus is alive he has risen from the dead.\n\nOpening Hymn: We believe in God the Father\nWelcome; Intro me and welcome team. \nThis morning the service is in a different order from usual. We are going to remember what Jesus has done for us on the cross and Bruce Beattie, one of our elders is going to help explain what the bread and wine mean to us as some of the children may not have been here for a communion service before .\n\nThen after taking communion we are going to celebrate Jesus’ resurrection … with reading, singing and sharing. The resurrection is the central part to our faith. Who knows what that long word “resurrection” means?? \n\nThe answers from the kids were quite amusing but we got there in the end!!\nAt the end of the service there will be the offering, an opportunity to give our money as well as ourselves to the living God.\n\nIf during the service the young children get fed up there is a place at the back where they can do some making things…It isn’t easy to sit still when you are little or be quiet! So please don’t worry about the little ones being a distraction. I often wonder what it was like when Jesus fed the 5000plus crowd. Do you think the children all sat neat and quiet in rows. I don’t think so!! \nWe are pleased to see them and hear them. This is a time of family worship from the youngest to the oldest. \n\nReading: Psalm 67 \nI had this up on a power point and we read it together.\nMay God be gracious to us and bless us and make His face shine upon us, that your ways may be known on earth, your salvation among all nations.\nMay the peoples praise you, O God; may all the peoples praise You.\nMay the nations be glad and sing for joy, for You rule the people justly and guide the nations of the earth.\nMay the peoples praise you, O God; may all the peoples praise You.\nThen the land will yield its harvest, and God, our God, will bless us. \nGod will bless us, and all the ends of the earth will fear Him.\nPsalm 67\n\n\nPrayer M\nAs we sing this next hymn it would be good if the children came to sit at the front so that B can see you all when he talks to you.\n\n\nHymn:  When I survey the wondrous cross.\n\nCommunion: B \n\nB gave an excellent talk about remembering. He included a diary and a kitchen timer which he set to go of at the carefully timed point in his little bit. He then used Smarties to go through the Easter story and the different colours. I wish I had it written down.\nWe then had communion and he had smarties for the kids so that they could remember about the Easter story while the adults took communion and remembered Christ’s death and resurrection. Forgiveness is a wonderful thing.\nWe have just been remembering what Jesus did for us on the cross. He died for us…what incredible love. But thankfully the gospel doesn’t end there . [son], A and Cerise are going to read on.\n\nReading: [?] and Luke 24 vs. 1-12\n\nThey did a brilliant dramatic reading.\n\nAn empty tomb. Lets sing ”God’s not dead .He is alive”.(sing it twice and use the instruments at the front to make a joyful noise)\n\nWe want you to have a little taste of what it was like to be around that day and so let’s listen in to  Mary Magdalene chatting on the phone to …well you listen and see who she is talking to.\n[wife] did a sketch about Mary talking on the phone to Marta having met the risen Jesus!! She was very good. Really gave the facts to a contemporary feel\n\nHymn : Led like a lamb to the slaughter…\nin the second verse would children come to help. \nWe have verses to give out to the big people and I’d like you to help give them out making sure all the big  people get one . For the children who may not be able to read yet we have some coloured stones to remind you of a huge stone that was rolled away when Jesus rose from the dead. You can keep it in your pocket or somewhere special to remind you that Jesus is alive and He wants to be with you where ever you go.\n\nA had made up tiny scrolls with verses about the resurrection which the kids all gave out. It kept the wee ones busy and also gave everyone a verse to think about.\n\nIsn’t it wonderful to know that we are singing “he’s alive, he has risen” and all over the world the church is singing the same message. In Revelation we get a little glimpse into what it will be like in heaven with a new song being sung to Jesus Christ. Close your eyes and listen to what it says:\n\nRev 5 vs. 9-11 \n\nWe have the privilege in Hebron of having a few representatives of different language, people and nation here this morning. Let us listen to them.\n“Christ is Risen” in different languages and prayer.\n\nWe then had one family say it in Arabic, another in German. There is a Philippino girl who said it in her language and some one else in Spanish. It was magical.\n\nIntroduce \nLord we lift your name on high\nSung at Mizpah orphanage with children some of whom had just heard the name Jesus for the first time at Christmas. See picture.\nWe need helpers to do the actions to this song…\n\n\n\nWe are thankful that Jesus is alive and so He speaks ,guides , comforts and forgives us for all the sin , the mess we make. It is not only the Mary’s and the Peters and the Thomases that have met with the risen Lord…we each have a story to tell of walking with the risen Lord. As you listen to some people here sharing a bit of their story I wonder what you would have to share…take the opportunity to day to share what God is teaching you, where he is changing you…don’t hide behind the weather or holidays…share your journey to encourage real fellowship.\n: \nEnd in prayer over top.\n\n\n\nSong and offering. This is your opportunity to offer yourself afresh to the risen Lord.\nAn old song but a powerful one. To make this song personal to you choose the verse where you will stand as a sign of your offering to the Lord. Band will play it through twice as collection taken up and then we sing it.\nIf you want to sit until last verse when we sing take my love then we will all stand for last verse.\n\nTake my life \n\nThis song has lots of parts about asking God to take and use different parts of our lives. Songs/ intellect/strength/money etc. And by asking people to stand at the point they wanted it really meant they stopped and offered part of them selves back to God in response to the resurrection.\n\nFinish with Thine be the glory.\n\n The service went really well  people came and said how well it had gone.\n\n[wife] spent afternoon packing and feeling washed out!! Giving out is tiring but the satisfaction is huge.\n\nMon\nUp early to catch the boat to N Ireland. The boat was not too busy which was good. Spent the boat ride filling in my thoughts on the future of Large Animal practice for the EFRACOM enquiry\nBought  Lord of rings part 2 The Two Towers as I am wanting to re read it having seen the movie. So that is my holiday reading sorted out.\nHad a chance when we got there to sit down with [wife]’s parents and talk through our future, which was good as Campbell usually disappears out but a sit is a Bank holiday he didn’t. They were fairly up beat about it which was good so I was pleased.\nSpent the evening with C and the cousins which was really good. Had a barbecue and chilled out. C was not really surprised at the news as agriculture in NI is going through a bad time as well, it is behind the UK and there are a lot of small uneconomic family farms and so a lot of consolidation is going on and farmers selling up.\nTuesday\nSpent the morning playing Squash with the boys which w as great fun. Spent the afternoon in the garden trying to tidy it up.\nWent out for dinner with our bridesmaid who has also just handed in her notice/ or rather accepted a redundancy package. It must be catching. It was great to see her and also to be out in Belfast which is such a cosmopolitan city these days with different languages, cultures and nationalities all mixing in the downtown area. A big change.\nWeds\nWent to the new exhibition centre in the docks at Belfast. It has a multiplex and a science exhibition as well as shops and restaurants and so on.\nIt was amazing the kids could have spent all day playing on the exhibits and it was very well done so that you came away having learnt quite a lot.\n[wife] now believes I cannot do colours as I am easily confused by them. There was one  exhibit where words in one coloured spelt the name of another colour i.e. the word was spelt  y-e-l-l-o-w  but it was red in colour. You then had to read the words or say the colours and I just could not do it, my brain ended up really confused.!!\nBought flowers and stuff for the Garden, and did the boxes for Gran\n Went out to dinner at RP she is a widow who is [wife]’s parents age but is so much fun. She loves giving dinner parties and having folk of all ages around. She gave me some useful addresses. There are lots of plans for [wife]’s parents Golden Wedding.\nThursday \nThe day of the big Photo shoot. [wife]’s brother’s father in law is a photographer and while we were all together [wife] mum wanted a photo of all the family together. So  we spent an hour and a half getting positioned and photographed. 7 kids and 7 adults and a very pernickety photographer. \nTravel back on the boat was OK but came back to find that everything had fused and that the phone was  not working . So fixed the fuses which are all trips thank goodness and got the electrics going.\nThe phone could not fix, but did not worry.\nWhile we were away there had been a lightning strike on to the phone line up the road and it had fried all the cables.\nOne of the neighbours had been in her kitchen and the phone had exploded and jumped off the wall. It has left scorch marks down the wall. I am just glad that there was no one on the phone at the time.\nThe other unfortunate thing is that the computer was attached and is dead as a dodo.\nFriday\nBack to maelstrom\nI was really relaxed going back in to work and it lasted for may be half an hour. No one had picked up on any of my admin things while I had been away. In spite of asking people to do so.\nThis meant I had to start and get things organised for Testing, the Rota     \nand Nestles. As well as to try and do some work. My in tray is a mess but never mind.\n I also had to complete the report for EFRACOM, as the closing date is today, I hope not by 5pm!! The report was actually finished by 10:15 and was e-mailed off. I would like to have polished it a bit more but the schedule today was not conducive.\nDuring the evening when I was supposed to be writing it I had a  casaers and a foal trying to die at [farm]. They are not having much luck as they have had horrendous problems with restocking. They are also under TB2.\n\nI enclose a copy of the report to EFRACOM\n\n\n\n\nThe Right Hon. Michael Jack, MP\nEnvironment, Food and Rural Affairs\nChairman of the  Sub Committee ”Vets and Veterinary Services”\n\nA Submission \n\nSummary\nThis is a timely review of farm veterinary services. I would submit that the current trends in veterinary practice are likely to accelerate rapidly in response both to present levels of farm income and imminent changes in veterinary practice.\n\nIn this submission I have briefly covered the following areas:\nThe current provision of veterinary services and how they are financed.\nCurrent trends and their likely impact on veterinary services.\nThe effect of the reduction in large animal clinicians on health and welfare standards and on surveillance.\nThe feasibility of the Animal Health and Welfare Strategy.\nThe impact on the SVS.\nThe future and possible outcomes.\n\n\nThe current provision of veterinary services and how they are financed \n\nThe income for rural farm veterinary practice that provides the majority of veterinary services to the agricultural industry has traditionally come from 5 major areas. \nClinical services.(Examining and diagnosing individual animals, calvings, lambings individual surgery, routine fertility, dehorning and castrating. Traditional “On Farm” Professional Fee work)\nLVI income from DEFRA/MAFF in the eradication of Notifiable Disease: Tuberculosis, Brucellosis, Anthrax, etc. Many practices also were involved with Meat Hygiene and inspections at abattoirs.\n The dispensing of pharmaceuticals.\nThe provision of veterinary advice on farm management and welfare.\nThe majority of veterinary partnerships are mixed practices: a consideration must be given to the fact that small animal work makes up a variable proportion of the work and income to veterinary practice.\n\nIt is my opinion that clinical farm animal practice, the examining and diagnosing of individual animals is already uneconomic for both the veterinary surgeon and the farmer. It is only happening because of the cross subsidy of the professional fees by other income, and because of the good will of most farmers to give animals a chance.\nAs the harsh economics are coming home to vets and farmers this is rapidly becoming; with James Herriot, a part of rural history.\n\n\nCurrent trends and their likely impact on veterinary services\n\nWhat are the current trends within agriculture and veterinary practice and what effects will that have?\n\nBoth in agriculture and farm veterinary practice there are trends that can be identified, how fast, how far these trends will go is difficult to predict, but my own experience is that change when it comes, change is often slow at starting but then dramatic in its speed. The effect of decoupling and other EU decisions on agriculture are unknown but the current trends are likely to continue.\nIn agriculture farm size has to continue to grow. As farms make less and less per animal, they have to spread costs over larger and larger numbers. The individual value of each animal continues to drop in real terms, efficiency and mechanisation continues to increase. Chicken farms are now routinely 100,000 animals plus. Since foot and mouth disease the average dairy herd size has increased from 90 to 114 an increase of 20% which talking to many dairy farmers is only going to increase as more herds are going to be 300+ animals. These increases are usually with out an increase in labour on the farms. This means the care of individual animals is likely to be less important, but the care of the overall heath of the herd much more. \n\nIn veterinary practice  the major changes are likely to be from the Competition Inquiry in to the cost of pharmaceuticals. The subsidy of professional fees by sales of pharmaceuticals has been an increasing trend since the late 60’s. Then professional fees were subsidised by the large-scale eradication schemes by MAFF who paid very good fees to get the vets on the farm and  help eradicate the Notifiable Diseases. \nThe competition inquiry is recommending that pharmaceuticals be dispensed by pharmacies as well and that prescriptions be provided free of charge. Which private organisation is going to provide a service free of charge has yet to be ascertained, but the current level of income derived from pharmaceuticals is not going to be sustained. This inevitably means that the cross subsidy will disappear and farmers will have to pay the full cost of veterinary clinical service, and it will not be economic to do so.\n\nAt the same time the costs of providing veterinary services continues to rise.\nThe cost of veterinary time is continuing to rise. Students are now graduating with debts of £15-20K because of the loss of grants and payment of tuition fees. This means there will need to be a further raise of £2-3K per annum to pay veterinary assistants to match the status quo. Farm animal practice already  pays assistants less than companion animal practices despite offering a less favourable “On Call” rota.\n In the short term following FMD many practice principals worked additional On Call to make the rota acceptable to attract assistant vets. Where this is viable in the short term, in the long term it is not acceptable. As partners profit  becomes commensurate to the salaries they have to pay to veterinary assistants they will be aiming to increase charges for clinical work or look to other avenues for decreasing costs/increasing turnover.\n\n Providing an out of hours emergency cover is not economically practical for vets. (except in the big cities where practices join together to provide an emergency clinic.) Currently there is an RCVS obligation to provide 24hour cover, but the RCVS is not involved in the commercial pricing of services. \nAs the value of individual animals continues to drop in real terms then the cost of treating individual animals becomes less and less viable. Where there is no cross subsidy for out of hours work it will become untenable.\n\nAs many mixed practices have a dwindling farm animal side that is less financially attractive, many will decide to concentrate on the companion animal side of the business.\n\n\nIn a lot of mixed practices, it is a senior partner who will do the largest amount of the farm work. This means the younger vets will not have the case load to become experienced and confident in farm work. There is a cohort of practitioners in this situation heading towards retirement in the near future, will the practice continue to be involved with farm work?\n As fewer practices become involved with farm veterinary services, the cost of travel to the more distant farms has to rise beyond the already accelerated rate.\n\nAll this means that farm veterinary practices will lose income from clinical services and from pharmaceutical sales. They will have to move more towards the pig/ poultry model of providing veterinary advice and charging for it. \n\nVets have already moved out of nutritional advice leaving this field to nutritional experts. The reason for this is that most nutritional advice is provided “free” to the farmer by the firms who then put that cost into the feeds that are sold to the farmers. This cross subsidy of fees by sales is apparently acceptable where the subsidy of veterinary fees by pharmaceuticals is not.\nThis model is beginning to appear in other areas. Whereas vets provided most mastitis control, the dairies who buy the milk are now providing “free” or subsidised advice to farms on cell counts and high bacterial counts. (Including bacteriology with a variable back up and quality of advice)\nNMR and other recording agencies are already offering fertility information on their recording products, and it is a short step to actually providing the fertility work.\n \n\nI believe that these factors will contribute to a dramatic decrease in farm animal clinicians in the next 5 years.\n\n\nThe effect of the reduction in large animal clinicians on health and welfare standards and on surveillance.\n\nAs the number of clinical veterinarians reduces then there will be much less on farm surveillance. \nThis means that outbreaks of novel or unusual diseases is much less likely to be noticed or recorded at an early stage.\n The routine care for the animals will be done by stockmen under veterinary guidance. \nThe guidance will probably be by quarterly  or 6 monthly or annual  visits and by herd health plans.\n Individual animals are much more likely to be treated ad hoc by the stockmen, rather than by veterinary surgeons.  The quality of this treatment in some cases may be adequate but in most will be poor. The significance of symptoms or illness may not be appreciated. Diagnosis and treatment seen as a high cost and used as a last resort. Any outbreak of disease will be well developed and losses occurring before veterinary advice is sought. \n\nAs herd sizes increase and labour decreases, then the attention to individual animals must reduce, with a drop in welfare standards. \nIll animals are likely to be culled quicker, as limited manpower becomes more important. The use of vets as additional expert man power for calvings/ lambings will be seen as too expensive.\n\nThe demands of the system must mean that high heath status is important, with routine vaccination and herd health policies being put in place. \nDEFRA seems to set high regard to laboratory diagnosis results as a form of surveillance. Most of the common problems are diagnosed/treated with out the resort to laboratory aids. Fertility, lameness, mastitis, pneumonia, PGE, are rarely referred to the lab except where treatment is not working.  Most samples are taken/referred by vets in practice. Fewer vets would mean fewer samples.\nThe lack of veterinary advice to ill pigs and ill sheep on farms at Heddon-on–the-Wall shows how the lack of a clinical veterinary service can lead to in the terms of delay and spread of disease.\n The local knowledge of the current LVI system is an invaluable asset that is in danger of being thrown away. The idea that a farm is a box which can be assigned a number in Page Street and dealt with as a single entity is a problem that has still not been resolved. The complexity of many of the local farming links through trade, working together, machinery, shared grazing, fell rights, and family ties cannot be reduced to a computer screen on DCS.  \n\n\nThe feasibility of the Animal Health and Welfare Strategy.\n\nIn  my opinion they are not. I was hoping to cover this more fully but lack of time has prevented me.\n\nThe impact on the SVS.\n \nThe impact on the SVS is likely to be slow to be realised.\nThe SVS  is not known for its ability to meet challenges or streamline its systems.\nAs the number of vets involved in farm work decreases it will have to provide more of its own resources to tackle tasks currently done by LVIs. \nThe more flexible private practice takes up the challenge of getting backlogs in testing done and can respond to new challenges for example the licensing brought in during FMD. Private practice can fit the work around other duties. Whereas if it is going to be done by the SVS it will be more expensive to take on vets to do these tasks alone. \nThe SVS was notoriously unreliable in its work allocation during FMD, the record being sending 5 vets to the same farm on the same day has yet to be beaten!\n Though I hope it would be a lot better in normal circumstances, there are still problems with the allocation system that can only be put right by local knowledge.\n\n In areas where there are few farm animals there may well not be LVIs willing to carry out the routine testing for Notifiable Disease. Who is going to provide veterinary cover for these? Both for clinical caseload and for the LVI work. \n\n There will not be vets available to second to DEFRA for the next FMD or exotic disease outbreak. The contingency plan confidently states that resources for 20 TVIs are to be kept at each centre in case of an outbreak of Notifiable Disease, with out addressing where these will come from. There will not be 20 TVI’s available at short notice.  During March 2001 the majority of vets at the Carlisle DECC were LVI’s.\n\n\nThe future and possible outcomes.\n\nThe picture I have painted is what in my opinion will happen if the government allows the situation to develop.  I would hope that there would be some “joined up government” when decisions are to be made in response to the Competition Inquiry Report. \n\nThere are a mixture of outcomes that are possible:\nThe numbers of vets in farm animal practice will reduce. This can be minimised by maintaining the cross subsidy of professional fees for providing clinical services, either directly by DEFRA work in surveillance or other Notifiable Disease work and/or from pharmaceutical sales. (The option of increasing fees is not possible.)\nVeterinary services will be provided by other means. E.g. Vets working for feed firms/ Dairies/ manufactures/retailers to ensure a welfare/surveillance standard.; Consultancy firms providing fertility/mastitis/specialised advice.\nDEFRA/ Local Authority will have to provide vets for notifiable disease testing/surveillance tasks.\nDeveloping the French model of farm cooperatives employing vets for their own farms.\nThe pig/poultry model of regular advisory visits, but minimal involvement in the day to day running or with individual animals.\n\nOnly the first of these provides for the continuation of the successful LVI structure. The other outcomes mean a loss of clinical veterinary services.\nThe loss of clinical services means a drop in welfare standards and the loss of on farm surveillance.\n\n\nFarm veterinary services are in a transitional time facing economic challenges, changes in agriculture, increased regulation and increased competition for the pharmaceutical and services they provide.  There will be increased competition between practices as they try to meet the higher expectations of new veterinary graduates starting their careers, and providing a cost effective service to the rural community.\n\nBVM&S MRCVS\n\n\nBrief C-V\nCurrently a partner in one of the largest farm veterinary practices in Cumbria having spent 17 years in mixed rural practice. \nSpent 6 months on secondment to MAFF at the Carlisle DECC during FMD.\n\n\n Sat 26th April 2003\nHaving worked last night and done 2 caesaers and a calving on call, on top of a long week I was completely  washed out. Did Sat am surgery and a call then went home to bed . Knackered and fed up and deciding I did not want to spend my life like this.\nSunday\nA busy day On call but at least the calls did not stack up just kept coming in ones and twos so the stress levels were not to bad. But boyzo am I tired.\nMon\nThis is the beginning of D’s last week. He has worked out really well and I hope that he will be able to work here at the back end to help with the testing. He is easy going and has a good S African protestant work ethic, always happy to oblige and is good to work with. He is a good laugh too always teasing and playing silly jokes and has a great sense of humour.\nSpent most of the day on Catch up after the week end. Did some calls, and sorted car and drugs out and cleaned my kit. The slippage of cleanliness since FMD is very noticeable especially at the w/e’s. (But don’t tell DEFRA!!!)\nWent swimming at Foxes. Well to be honest sat in the Jacuzzi and talked. And then swam 2 lengths. I was too tired to do much really.\n I must start getting some proper exercise again or my back will suffer.\nTues \nI am really annoyed at Defra. I rang and asked what would be needed to put our vets on to Panel L which is what is needed to do the exports for Nestle and “Panel L, can just be added on as it is a simple export thing so it would take half an hour to do it.” This was last Friday by now it is we have to go for training by SVS. It should only take half an hour to through the forms….” Why can their yes not be yes, and their no be no???”\nSo we have to spend an afternoon going to Carlisle to got through meaningless forms, so that we can fill in meaning less forms so that Nestle can get th milk through customs. I am beginning to see why people just smuggle things rather than get involved in all this stupid bureaucracy.\nWeds\nWent on the Factory visit to Nestles today to have a look around so that we know the plant and can give them certification for the milk powder for export. The whole thing is ludicrous as dried milk powder is a sterile product. It has to be or else it goes off very quickly so why we have to certify that it has been pasteurised I don not know. But hey its money.\nThe size and quantity and the huge amount of machinery and very small number of people required to maintain and operate the plant was awesome.\nWe went to the distribution warehouse where there was just row upon row of pallets, 3-7 high full of dried milk or cappuccino drinks. Weird to think mast of the instant cappuccino is made in Dalston.\n Thursday\nWent for Panel L Training. It was as pointless as I thought it would be.\nTook the opportunity to go through with DEFRA admin staff some of the queries and problems. At the moment we do a lot of stuff for DEFRA telling them who has stock and who does not have stock to ensure their database is relatively up to date. But it is a headache as they are working off computer screens. Hence Mrs F R of A Farm does not correlate at all with Mr E R of the same address. The computer is not into relationships. So that they are married and live together and own stock on the same piece of ground does not really get off the ground.  \nThis evening was the final Partners meeting where I handed in my notice.\nThe reasons for handing in my notice are complex, most decisions probably are.\nThere are lots of factors some trivial to the outsider but important to me, others may be important to others and similarly not to me. \nSeveral people have asked is it a reaction to FMD. The last casualty. In some ways it is. For all the horrendous experiences, for all the long hours and difficult ethical and to whom am I responsible dilemmas. It taught me a lot about myself. To see fear in the eyes of senior management when challenged, to be able to organise a protest meeting of thirty vets with Jim Scudamore, to do the TV interviews, o see the effect of feeding information to journalists. To be able to break through by fast talking and relying on my wits. To organise completely new systems and manage projects that had never been done before, to build teams from international backgrounds in the face of opposition from the hierarchy, to be constantly caught on a tight rope between the different groupings. I learnt that I have huge abilities, and to go back to normality is difficult. \nThe future of farm animal practice is also very unpredictable. There are a lot of farms who are yet to restock, the cross subsidy of fees by drug sales is going to end, and more and more work will be on behalf or paid for by DEFRA. They are at the whims of the politicians and the treasury. They are also not the easiest client to deal with.\nThere is also the problem of being second in command and dealing with the frustrations of the partnership. We are not united in the way we work, or where we see the practice going. This means my schemes for diversification, for improving income streams, and managing the bad debt, will either not happen or will become part of my workload which is already over stretched.\nAdd in to this cock tail the fact my wife is starting to work, and I have been given a really bad scare by being tackled by a cow. \nThe question is do I want to do this job for the next 20 years the answer has to be no.\nSo the only answer is to hand in my resignation and start to look for something new.\nAs I have a 6 month notice period ending on an accounting date I have to jump before I have another job sorted out.\nEven so the decision was very hard and I was really choked up when I left them to discuss the future. I could not go home as the kids would want to know what was going on so I went to Js. He already knew. I will tell the kids on Friday the practice manager on Monday and work on Tuesday.\nI have said very little of my thoughts in the diary as I have learnt there are somethings better left unwritten until the time for the information to be public. Whatever issues are to do with confidentiality, if you don’t think something can be talked about, then do not write it down, as you never know who is going to read it.\nA though got her self in to a stew as I rang [wife] to say I was going to Js, she then said she would come out. She left a bit too hurriedly for A who then got it into her head that we had gone away on holiday with out telling them!!\nFriday\nThe whole day was “Unreal”. I knew I was going but no one else does.\nTold the Kids at tea time and I was shocked by how upset they were. It has come as a shock to them. Tim especially loves coming out and about around the farms with me. There is also no what I am going to, so it is just uncertainty.\nOn 2nd call\n\n\nSat 3rd May 2003\nWork then wash out. I was on second last night and had 2 Caesars and a calving…What??? The second Caesar was at 4am so I felt dreadful all day. [young vet] had started operating and got stuck so I went to the rescue. The cow had horrendous adhesions, so nothing could be moved around, we spent an hour and a half trying to pull the calf out and then stitching up the uterus in the cow. I felt I needed diving gear on as I had both arms in to their full length with [vet] beside me trying to stitch by feel. My arms were exhausted by the end of it.  I was like death warmed up all day. But feel I have definitely made the right decision.!!!\nSunday\nAfter a good Nights sleep feeling better. My mother always use to say that the world looks very different after a good nights sleep and a cooked breakfast. I DO NOT need a cooked breakfast. My stress levels have been that high that I have been eating far too much. I am going to go on a diet. The usual promise to myself. My weight is going up fast so I will have to cut down and start to exercise a lot more.\nWent to see the practice manager to tell him that I have handed in my notice. I have decided to see him on his own so that he has a chance to process it before work on Tuesday. He is overweight and stressed and that type to have a heart attack so treat him gently. He is also a good friend, so I should give him some warning. So I spent an hour chatting it through and talking which is a good a way as any of spending a Sunday afternoon.\nMon Bank holiday\n Another bank holiday working. But at least it is fairly quiet. So spent most of the day working in the garden. The kids were away in the morning doing various things and then met up for lunch with [friends] which was really nice. They had been down to visit family in the lake district. They had hired a couple of cottages for the w/e and all met up. [they] are really amazing people. They are both doctors and I went out to visit them in Thailand which was brilliant fun. He was working with leprosy and AIDS cases. They have come home and are sharing a GP’s job between them. [she] is also doing a diploma in diabetes. They are also doing deputation work to raise money for the work of OMF in Thailand and Asia. They have 4 kids, and it was really nice to see them all again. The kids are similar ages. I really felt for them because they have gone from home schooling to schools in Edinburgh in the big city. So they have the double culture shock of coming to the UK, and being schooled in a complete different way. They are also very bright kids and having had individual attention from a very focussed mother they are miles ahead of the rest of their classes. Yet they do not have the social skills to adapt to the rough and tumble of life in a city comprehensive. Mobile phones are not a must have item in rural Thailand!!\nGood to see them all.\nTuesday\nToday I announced the fact I was leaving to those at work. I had thought about how I should do it, and what I was to say. It is quite difficult both from an emotional point of view and from the fact that I think that the business in the longer term, will have problems. This has both a direct relevance for the lay staff and their jobs. Though there will still be a similar number needed as their workload is likely to remain the same. And also for the vets. Two of whom may or may not be approached to buy into the business. There will also in the longer term be a smaller number of vets needed but this will probably be managed by natural wastage.\nI spoke first to the senior assistants and then lay staff. It was hard as I have been there for as long as many of them 15 years. Which is a long time. I think also there is an attitude that the ups and downs seem to be past for them. There was a lot of upheaval over the move from B V up to S park, FMD is over, and things are suppose to be getting back on to an even keel. And I throw a spanner in the works.\nWeds\nSpent the evening Phoning friends and relatives to let them know that I had handed in my notice and sending off for job details on two jobs and applying for another. I am not sure what I am looking for so at the moment I am just sending off for anything that seems interesting and waiting and seeing. It seems an unreal situation in so many ways. \nI also had to phone the bank manager both to arrange our annual visit, and to tell him that I was leaving. Again getting the balance between moving on and being positive, with out pointing out the dangers in the future of large animal practice was a difficult balance. After the initial shock, all power to him as a salesman/banker he then asked whether I would be needing any banking requirements!! So at least if I do start up an independent vet/small business consultancy I will have a bank account to run it from.\nThursday\nA quit day as no testing so tackled some of the Back log in admin.\nSpent a lot of time setting up the systems and know how folder for Nestle. We have taken over the work for doing the LVI work for the Nestle factory at Dalston as they have fallen out with the previous practice. When we took it on I assumed it would be the odd bit of work but in fact it is a huge amount of work.\nSo it is going to take some sorting out. I also feel a bit off, as I have handed in my notice and yet I am setting all this up and I ma not going to benefit from it at all.\nI suppose it comes back to wanting to do what is right and that we should serve God and not man. It is always a useful measuring stick to use to work out motivations and what should be done in a situation. Who am I trying to do this for?.me?..the practice?..the client? or am I doing what Jesus would do.??\nFriday\nAnother bad hair day. Had real problems trying to fit the extra work into the day and so got a bit frayed around the edges. Fortunately next week will probably be the last thank goodness. The practice that used to do the nestle work was on the phone to me and not very friendly.\nHey ho.\nWent out for a meal with [friends] which was great. They are the church youth leaders and are really  switched on but I think need more support and help. Hopefully once the 1st of October hits I will be able to get more involved.\nWent to the Royal Oak at Welton which just has-been re done and is serving food on a proper basis as  well as having a pub part. More like a restaurant.\n[wife] ‘s food was excellent. Mine was Ok. I had an Indian trio of samosa, and 2 bharji to start with. I am afraid I have been spoilt by real Indian food so I should not have bothered going for it in a Cumbrian pub!!\n\n\nSaturday May 10th Saturday May 10th\nA day off after too many days working and too much stress.\nIt was really nice just to be around home doing the garden and not really worrying what else is going on in the world. I needed some space and I am pleased to have got it at long last. It is amazing how much better the world looks after a good nights sleep and a some time off.\nIn the afternoon the C boys came around and we took them to see  new chicks. S was there and I did not want to go down the route of explaining why I had made the decision I had to leave so chickened out of telling her.. I suppose I am happy with it and I just want to forget about for the w/e.\nSo we arrived with 7 boys which is quite brave. Fortunately we could not stay long as we had to be back to go out to Gianni’s with D. He took us out and it was really good fun. The kids were all in good form.\nCame back and watched the first part of a DVD on John Grisham’s book “The Client”.\nHe is an excellent writer and although film can never develop the characters the same as a book. So the film was good but only OK.\nSunday 11th\nChurch was good this morning and it was good to be there and spent ages chatting to folk . But came back to lunch with a couple who stayed too long!! There are some people I find really draining, and she is one. It is awful but I get really wound up and just want them to go after about 30 minutes. They came for lunch and did not leave until after tea so I was almost going spare…\nMonday 12th\nI find the silence around the fact I am going a bit unnerving. It is a bit elephant and coffee table really. A lot of the farmers I suppose don’t yet know or if they do how to respond. \nToday’s frustrations are all with things not working. BT have sent me a bill for £115 for fixing the line that was struck by lightening.  I was put through three depts before I gave up. I may try just not paying and see if they can register the fact the bill is being disputed.\nThe other frustration is the car doors have gone again in [wife]’s car which is incredibly frustrating. They have been fixed and fixed and fixed. Although it is under warranty I am getting to the stage that I feel we are being fobbed off.\nTues 13th\nI went to hear MG from the LICC (London Institute of Contemporary Christianity) speak at the Living Word. This is a series that happens every spring and is organised by a group of ministers and folk from Carlisle.\nHe is a very interesting speaker. He is an ex Ad man and his whole message is to get the “church” to look out side of it self. He thinks that Christianity in the west has become a “leisure time ” activity and is not impacting the rest of peoples lives. There is a concept of the sacred secular divide. The church does not get involved in secular things, work, culture, the arts, sport, and in some ways philosophy too. Whereas there should be no divide. Christ is either Lord of all, or not at all.\nHe also is a very amusing speaker. He was talking about how technology is usually neutral, but how it is used has very far reaching effects, on family, work and society. He used the microwave as an example. With a very amusing story about how he managed to save the sleep of the whole of North London by using the new fangled microwave to heat his daughter’s midnight bottle. Thereby saving the chancellor huge sums in lost revenue…with typical Jewish hyperbole.\nHe then moved on to his kids now teenagers, not coming in for the meal he has prepared but reheating it in the microwave, and how that led to a lack of communication, and again hyperbole to his angst about not understanding the younger generation. \nAs this is a diary about FMD how do I relate this to my experience of FMD??\nOn the simple level the culture within DEFRA needs to change.\nServant hood whether by Civil servants or politicians has been forgotten.\nTruth will out. Spin will fall.\nComputers should be a tool of all and master of none.\nOrganisations need to have a human face for people to relate to. Whether it is the Brigadier or the CVO.\nPeople are individuals created by God and have feelings and are not numbers or statistics.\nThe Post modernist human secularism where truth is relative. Where Brown can announce that everything is under control, can mislead Parliament and people and it is acceptable. I actually strongly feel that the current Presidential style of where no one can make a decision with out refer to their boss is a poor model.\nPain, disaster, illness and trouble are part of the human condition. \nPart of the fall. \nOf evil in the world.\nEnough philosophy its time for bed.\n\n\nMonday 17th May\nThis was the big Golden wedding Anniversary Day.\nIt was [wife]’s parents Golden wedding and her brothers and family all came to stay for the w/e. The celebration meal was at Lyzzick Hall in Keswick. The big surprise for [wife]’s Mum was that her bridesmaid and husband were coming over from Canada. J picked them up from the airport and took them to a B&B.\nOther friends were also coming as a surprise. \nRP started the surprises by coming in dressed as a waitress. She came in and offered [wife]’s Mum a drink and she was really overcome. The other surprises of bridesmaid and Canadians was really nice to see. \nThe younger parts of the clan went off to the climbing wall while the older part went for a look at the lake in the rain.\nIt was a really nice day ended by a firework display thanks to C. As he grew up in Belfast during the troubles and fireworks were banned he has a real passion for them now as a big kid!\nSunday\nWent to church with everyone, a very mixed group but they coped!\nP spoke in the morning meeting he was very good. He is a publisher and was talking about the church in China as he has just helped to publish a book about some of the Christian house church.\nIt makes the materialistic church in the west look very weak and un spiritual.\nIn the evening MM spoke on the Christian at work which was very good and very funny. He was a bed sales man when he was a student and he was very funny about how he made shy engaged couples lie down and try the beds. This really tickled [other son] (Age 8) much to his Gran’s tut-tutting!!!\nThe point he was making in between the jokes, was that he  had been told that he was to say that the bed s would all be delivered in 3-4 weeks, when in fact it could be up to 6 weeks but the shop keeper thought this would put people off. This meant that MM ended up in bother with couples arriving back from their honey moon to no bed! So he decided to listen to God’s way and tell the truth, which he said like most biblical teaching is obvious once it is explained, and tell people the truth not what they want to hear.\nMon\nWent and read the TB test for the tenant farmer. There was 1 I/R. The reaction of the farmer took me back fairly badly and I was quite shocked at the sheer vehemence of his reaction, fortunately it was mostly at DEFRA . He went out early on to the disease and he therefore got much lower compensation than a lot of the later ones. He had some cattle wintering at his farm for some one else who went out later on with FMD at his home holding. The difference in the valuations for the same type of cattle was horrendous.\nHe also has buildings that he owns on a small parcel of land. The buildings were old and knackered but usable. (A lot of string and gates.) DEFRA pulled them to pieces during FMD and then offered him peanuts o reinstate them, which meant he could not get them back into a usable state. So he is not a happy bunny.\nSpent the afternoon castrating horses which is not my favourite job. If a stirk kicks you, it hurts. If a horse kicks you, it usually means a trip in an ambulance. You are therefore very tense and ready to move in awkward positions.\nCanadians and [wife]’s parents headed off for a trip around the borders in our people carrier. They are coming back to swap over cars at the end of the week. [wife] has the tank to run around in for the week.\nTuesday\nMy back is twinging from the castrating and a calving yesterday and is really sore. So did paperwork while sitting like a ramrod until I gave up and came back to lie down. Did the back exercises hourly but it just got stiffer and sorer.\nWeds\nSpent morning reading in bed and doing back exercises but cannot get it moving.\nWent to see the accountant in the afternoon to sort out the practicalities of going freelance, and finishing at the vets.\nThursday\nBack is a lot better and starting to move much more freely. The first negative comment on me leaving today came from a farmer who has decided that the only way to make money is to go for 300 cows. He has therefore planned all this, designed new parlours, been to look at other large herds, thought it all through. Unfortunately his costings are on buying in dairy cows at £6-700 per head and just recently they have gone to over a thousand which means he is out by £60K, oops. But he said that he thought I was deserting them. In a way I suppose I am.\nBack in to being On Call with a vengeance. A calving, a caesar, a prolapsed uterus, hey ho.\nFriday\nInteresting statistic on the radio, whether it is right or wrong I do not know. In the EU the average beef cow is subsidised to the tune of $2 per week, the average African earns less than that. \nThe Canadians and [wife] s parents arrived back from their trip around the borders. The good news is they baby sat (or teenage and child minded) while we went out to the Lemon lounge, the bad news is they are to feed and look after over the W/e. My brother and family arrive tomorrow, so it will be a bit crowded.\nIt was really nice to be out on our own with relative peace around us. The noise from an office party does not impinge as it is nothing to do with us.\n\n\nSaturday 31st May 2003\nA gardening day. \nWe decided that we would have to get the place sorted out so spent most of the day in the sunshine pulling weeds and sorting out the garden. It was a beautiful day. My back was pretty sore by the end of the day but we got it nearly all sorted which was good.\nThe boys cut the lawn and A sat on it and read her book.\nAnother BBQ by the end of the day, A made the salads, while the boys cooked so it was a family meal.\n[wife] and the older two headed for Tesco’s while I cleared the debris away.\nSunday June 1st\nThe sun is still flaming but the seeds and seedlings are looking a bit sad and whithered in spite of the watering. \nI have really enjoyed the week off but there has been very little on FMD.\nMet up with [friends] at church, home visiting parents.\n In the evening caught up with the As. He is an Indian gastro enterologist who worked at Carlisle. They now work in Bombay so it was good to see them.\nThey are hoping to set up an AIDS hospice. There are currently over a million people who are HIV +ve in Bombay.\nMonday\nBack to work and quite busy so it looks as if the June quiet period is not going to materialise. With folk on holiday it makes it seem busier any way.\nIt took me until 4pm to get to my in tray which after a week was overflowing as usual.\nTuesday\nThis is more like June. Long lunch and spent the morning trying to get the accountancy package up to date.\nSent off another speculative e mail job application. A friend from church who is now studying physio therapy at Glasgow came and insisted [wife] & I went out for a walk together which was really nice. He is a really nice young guy.\nWent to beach at Beckfoot where we were the only ones walking the beach. There was one serious kiter. I have not seen such a serious kite for a long time. It was fairly windy and he had it anchored behind him so as not to be taking off with it!!\nWeds\nSpent the morning doing fertilities and then spent time sorting out issues with George. There was so little work it is boring for the assistants.  The June quiet patch ahs arrived. The bills did not go due to a computer upgrade cocking the system up. The systems are now so complex they are beyond any reasonable way of keeping tabs, you have to trust the experts who you don’t!!\nThursday\nDay off spent it writing out a business proposal to try and get work via a consultancy firm. Then tried fixing the extractor fan and failed. \nThursby football club is going really well with some more lads coming along. The standard is variable but good fun.\nFriday\nTB testing again at Fs. They had just heard about me leaving and were full of questions. The night was really busy. On first call and had lots going on. [wife] was at a retreat, thinking through the future and reporting on the last year. So I was trying  to juggle kids as well.\n\n\nSaturday 7th June 2003\nLast night was terrible with a dog to see in the middle of the night and put down. It was only a young dog but it had leukaemia and was not responding to treatment. It had colic probably from the mesenteric Lymph nodes and was rolling around in pain. Not nice for them or me.\nSat am was busy too. Went to one of the organic farms to see an ill cow post calving. He was saying that there are three farmers, all none FMD giving up milking. One is another organic dairy farm. He was promised a premium of 10p per litre and his costings were based on 28p per litre. He is getting a premium of less than 0.5p per litre which takes it to 16p. The figures do not add up so he is giving up. The other 2 are small farms who cannot make it work. 40-50 cows.\nSlept in the afternoon and went to a party in the evening. Bizarrely as we were walking in the people whose dog I put to sleep last night walked in as well!! \nThey live next door and had been invited as well.\nWeird.\nSpent time chatting but came to 10 and I was dead on my feet.\nSunday 8th\nThe On call changes from  2nd (Back up) to 1st at 8:30 am. The phone started at 8:35…. Urghhh. I am finding it very hard to have any enthusiasm knowing that I ma leaving in a few months.\nOne of the farms I was on has given up dairy and were hoping to retire FMD year but lost money because of all the restrictions. So they are now hoping to finish this back end, may be. They were hoping to keep the Milk quota and lease it out as a pension but because of the new rules they will have to sell it and the price is low, as there are a lot of non producers who are in the same boat. It was at its height worth £1 per litre, a lot was bought and sold in the 40-60p per litre, it is now around the 10p mark. Funny world agriculture.\nMonday 9th \nCalving at 5am followed by other calls so an early start. Busy day at work \nWent to a meeting for the new Crusaders support worker. It is supposed to be county wide but is going to be based around Kendal, as that is where the legacy that is providing a lot of the money is based so it is less relevant tot this end of Cumbria. So I have backed out of the organisation committee, as most of the meetings will be at Rydal. Too far for me. We were there tonight, so did not get back until 11:30 which after a w/e on call is too late for this bunny.\nTuesday 10th\nSpent 45 mins on the phone trying to work out what I am going to be doing in Oct  with a guy from Pfizer. I then had to spend the rest of the evening sorting out the emails I needed to send to him.\nWeds 11th\nSpent the morning having nursery visits where the local infants schools come around the vets and I give my wee guided tour. It is quite fun and the little things that we do they really love; Blowing up the anaesthetic bag; The X ray quiz and listening to dog’s hearts.\nI always take some of [son]’s chickens in, as well, as most kids are not use to having Birds or handling them. [son] has spent so many hours carrying them around they are fairly tame and used to being picked up.\nI don’t know that effort pays back in commercial terms but it is fun.\nFootball training in the evening with 20 lads which was brilliant.\nThursday 12th\nOn call and exhausted after the excitement of the week. The phone went at 7pm from the answering service to say that a women had rung and asked for the pass word for the alarm. This of course meant nothing to those answering the phone. I however put 2 + 2 together to work out that the alarm at the practice and gone off and that the police would be on their way. Why does this always happen when you are in the bath. So I jumped out the bath and rushed down to find out what was going on. There was a police man there who was waiting for me to lead the way in! We found a very scared dog sitting in the prep room, having escaped from its kennel.!!!\nIt then took an hour to get the alarms reset.\nLife is a rich tapestry.\nFriday 13th\nWent to lawyers today to meet up to go through the dissolution of the partnership. Bit sad in a way, but another nail bashed in to my leaving coffin!\nFinished work and spent evening playing football and doing some coaching, which was good fun. [son] was off school today. He was full of cold and just exhausted. He just needed time out really. He goes at everything at 110%.\n\n\nSaturday 14th June 2003\nWorking am. Why is it even if you have a few quiet days in the week by the time the w/e comes it is busy again?? \nReally warm so sunshine and gardening. A had decided she was going to do a changing rooms on the double room in  the cottage, so she and a friend worked away all day at it. I was very impressed by the time we had finished our barbeque in the evening it was all back to ship shape and was finished. She is some pup.\nSunday \nWent down to Whitehaven to see the tall ships in the harbour. There was only one there which was disappointing but it was good to look around. There was a fair buzz about the place and heaving with people as the weather was great.  There was a display of Jet Ski’s which was fun to watch so the boys are now on at me to try and have a go.\nThe red arrows were brilliant. They have a tremendous display and the coloured streams they leave behind in the sky always amaze me. It is almost like they are writing in the sky.\nMonday\nFinally decided the Duck eggs were not going to hatch so broke them open to see if they were fertile. 1 exploded it was so rotten. Urghh!! Only one had a half formed egg in it. So I think the eggs were the problem not the incubation.\nTuesday\nTesting some more I/R’s for TB. Though the history is wrong, so I hope that they will clear. A new vet student turned up in the afternoon. She is staying with us until the w/e. Then with [colleague]. The vets is going to have to find new accommodation for students. Went to the Training evening for the soccer coaching. It was a form filling exercise and orientation so it was boring. But I am on the course which is good. At least I well have the piece of paper at the end of it.\nWeds\nFootie training at night. Only the hard core turned up, so looks like we will have a good group of 14-15 which means we will not have to choose and disappoint. Went for a run afterwards as feeling in need of exercise as not much large animal work at the moment means I am sitting around on the computer for a lot of the day which is sad. Must get fit is a constant resolution.\nSpent the evening up at Sandal watching the sun go down away from the phone and chaos at home.\nThursday. \nI was at work when I had a phone call from some one who had apparently run over [son] at school. Never an easy phone call to take, espy as she did not know what had happened. Fortunately he was OK.  He had been walking backwards and had stepped into the path of a car which had caught his heel. The damage was slight but it had upset him. \nThe school exit is appalling and needs sorted as busses, cars and bikes all share the same area as the kids walking. Inevitably kids are jostling and messing around so it is an accident waiting to happen.\nFriday\nHalf day as [wife] is starting her next w/e counselling course \nCould not really get going as a calving early this am, and a call late last night.\nSo having run on adrenalin for all the week I collapse in to a heap and find it hard to get going and get motivated. Spent the afternoon getting organised for the visitors arriving as [friends] are coming and [friend] who was our bridesmaid is coming across for the w/e.\n\n\nSaturday 21st June 2003\n Pay day. I don’t really know why it always sticks in my mind but at the moment with the 1st of October looming and the fact that the 21st will not be a pay day it is becoming a bit scary!!\nSpent morning on run around and house jobs, ferrying to and from squash.\nWent to town in pm with A & [son] having left off the younger ones at Cottinghams and spent a pleasant half hour in Ottakars. Even they were running low on THE book. The latest Harry Potter which I had meant to order via internet but had not quite got around to.\nThe statistic is that she is expected to sell 6 every second over the w/e. She makes £1 per book which means £360 per minute,  £21,600 per hour (not a bad hourly rate!) or just over a million quid for the w/e. As every other person on the tills was buying a copy, I can well believe it.\nSun 22nd \nChurch in the morning was joint communion and was lead by the Denton Holm house group. The church meets up in small groups mid week to pray and study bible, and the Denton Holme grp lead the service, it means you get a refreshingly different type of service with different people taking part and leading. It was good. Followed by a picnic in the park which was OK but I just wanted to fall asleep in the sunshine. I am suffering from stopping syndrome. I can keep going on the adrenalin but when I stop, thump, I fall asleep and can not get going.\nPicked up Liz from church in the evening. Having left youngest two at home as [wife] was late back from her course. Thank goodness for mobile phones, or rather at least they manage to make a complex life possible. Really I should have let her pick up [friend] and missed church and upset A by telling her she couldn’t go. But it all worked out in the end.\nMon 23rd\n[friend] arrived at some terrible hour, she finally left Bristol after 8pm after meaning to leave at lunchtime. So as [wife] and I were exhausted we did not get up to welcome her! \nWork is really quiet with very little happening.\n[son] is in a strop cos we will not let him go sailing after cricket after school as he will be exhausted. He takes after  us, if there is a possibility, we try to achieve it. Our own fault really, but it is weird how you see your own faults coming through in your children.\nTues 24th\nSpent the day talking to people on the phone trying to get funding for the research project, have a few leads and ideas to get together, so should be interesting to see if it comes together.\nWeds 25th\nStarted at 4am with a caesarean which was really nice as that time in the morning is beautiful. It is just a shame that the rest of the day is a bit of a wash out because of it. Went at night to the FA training course which was class room based on a warm sunny evening and I was struggling to stay with it. I have also decided that I need to get fit as the practical day is going to be very long for my unfit legs.\nThursday\nThe electrician arrived to sort out the electrics in the bathroom, which are still not right. The lights keep fusing and the fan will not work. I had a look at the wiring which is a mess and decided I could not follow it, and after my last experience I decided I would just pay him to keep him in a job.\nI had a very enjoyable day off, played [son] at squash and lost. Now not only is he better than me at football but squash a swell. All down hill from here on in.\nWent to church in the evening as RW was speaking. It was interesting to hear him, though was more a chat than a biblical exposition.\nFriday.\nThe email from the verse of the day seems to sum up a years worth of diaries\nWhen times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider:\nGod has made the one as well as the other. \nTherefore, a man cannot discover anything about his future.\n\nEcclesiastes 7:14, New International Version\n\nThe future is uncertain, I will leave my job in a few months time for a new start. The pressures of FMD seem to be distant in the warm summer weather and in the quiet workload making me feel rested and relaxed.\nThe challenges both for agriculture, the veterinary practice and for policymakers are still very large. \nThere is now a threat of bio terrorism to add to the food scares and the threat of exotic disease. \nLife carries on, we may not learn from all our mistakes, and government depts are a blunt, slow awkward machine, but the cows will still need to be milked and we will still need food on our table. If in ’68 you told some one that we had not had an outbreak of FMD for 35 years, they would have said “well done”. If you had said 2 men were milking 300 cows on a Cumbrian farm, and getting 7000 litres per cow he would never have believed you.  \n\nThere is a time for everything,\nAnd a season for every activity under the heaven.\n\nA time to be born and a time to die\nA time to plant and a time to uproot\nA time to kill and a time to heal\nA time to tear down and a time to build\nA time to weep and a time to laugh\nA time to mourn and a time to dance\nA time to scatter stones and a time to gather them\nA time to embrace and a time to refrain\nA time to search and a time to give up\nA time to keep and a time to throw away\nA time to tear and a time to mend\n A time to be silent and a time to speak\nA time to love and a time to hate\nA time for war and a time for peace.\n
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1981\nGender: F\nOccupation: Group 5\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\nPaper diary has lots of newspaper cuttings and other related material.\n\nWeek beginning 25th February 2002\nAfter the snow, which fell at the weekend, melted combined with the additional rainfall, many of the fields surrounding the village, as well as the roads, were flooded.  Usually this wouldn't concern you much, however, with the burial site being so close and the number of underground streams in the area, it does become worrying.  There isn't any guarantee that groundwater in the surrounding area won't become effected and to what extent.  There seem to be a number of aspects to me concerning this issue which remain unclear.  For example, what exactly can be carried in water and how might this effect people in the area? ; What is being tested for in the surrounding streams? what exactly is classed as a danger?; and if problems did arise, how would they be monitored and resolved.  All these issues do tend to make you anxious.\nIn particular on Monday, when I was out walking my dog  I noticed a couple of drains which I passed looked as if they were blocked and there was a lot of water around.  It just makes you wonder how much has come possibly from the burial site and if it is actually safe.\nMy worries on Monday about the groundwater were even more emphasised by the statement I heard on the Border News on Tuesday, by the Environment Agency.  This statement was concerning the future safety of the groundwater in the area around the burial site.  The Agency could give no guarantee that the groundwater would not become affected in the future.  Since then I have heard no further news about the issue.  There may be more information on news reports I missed. In my opinion not enough information is given to the public about these issues.  Results of testing by the Environment Agency are meant to be available to the public, however, I have never heard much about the details.  I think more effort should be made to inform, in particular, resident near burial sites as these issues are bound to be important to them.\nAfter hearing the news, I did become more worried but at the end of the day there is little we can really do ourselves.  You find yourself having to trust people or agencies you know little about and just hoping everything will be alright.\nOn Tuesday, also noticed a horrible smell outside, so did my fiancé, but again you can't be sure exactly where this is coming from or what is causing it?\n\nOn Thursday, with news of possible Foot and Mouth case further south near Leeds, I became very worried that this whole thing was going to start all over again!  My worries were about the farmers and people involved and how they would be affected; if other cases could be identified and in particular, affecting my own life, if animals would have to be slaughtered again in the future, where would they be disposed of? Would existing burial sites be reopened as opposed to finding suitable sites for new burial sites.  It would seem easier to reopen burial sites but what would this mean for the future and to what extent would the health risks be increased?\nI was very relieved to hear the testing of the foot and mouth cases came back negative.  I was relieved for the people involved, and also residents near burial sites.  However, this did raise questions in my mind of how this sort of situation would be handled in the future and what consequences it might have? \n\nWeek 2 – 4th March\nOn Monday passed driving test and now fiancé and myself are insured on a small car.  This opens up so many opportunities and we have a huge sense of freedom.  Last summer we had planned to go on a camping holiday with our dog [dog].  We had al our equipment prepared but were unable to go due to the foot and mouth outbreak.  Neither of us imagined how long and widespread the outbreak would be And Thought at first it would be over in a few weeks.  Now a year later we are able to replan our holiday.  This is exciting as we have waited so long.  It is unbelievable to think how long it has taken for restrictions on the countryside to return to as normal as can be possible, due to the circumstances.  For the actual people directly involved in the foot and mouth crisis this must have seemed like far longer!\nOn Tuesday I had a lovely surprise when I noticed the lambs in a field near my house when out walking my dog.  It was lovely to see and for a few minutes things almost seemed normal again.  Even though the burial site is only about a mile away, it is hidden from view from the village, you never forget though as soon as you spot the windmills and remember the repeated pictures featured in the news.\nSeeing the lambs really did lift my spirits and the future after foot and mouth didn’t seem as bad as  thought the week before.\nI can’t recall the exact days but they were towards the beginning of the week.  On two particular occasions my fiance and I noticed a terrible smell outside.  We aren’t sure exactly what the smell was, just that it was very unpleasant!\nThe only other incident which I can recall which stands out in my mind this past week is a conversation I had with my fiancé’s Granddad.  We were talking about how bad last year’s Foot and Mouth outbreak had been and he recalled the outbreak of 1967.  He commented on how he thought that outbreak had been far better controlled.  It was better as the animals were killed and buried on the actual farms in lime.  There was no transporting dead or live animals like last year.  He also commented on the fact that there were no pyres then and that he hadn’t thought it a good idea last year.  Overall he thought that last year’s outbreak could have been dealt with better and that action was taken far too late to prevent the disease spreading.\n\nWeek 3 – 11th March\nOne new thing I have noticed this week is the amount of birds there are flying around, especially black crows.  I think it is because I have been driving and every time I drive past the fields at the south end of the village, there are large amounts of crows hustled together. Can never remember it being quite like that last summer.  It makes you wonder why so many are drawn to just those fields.  As I drive past in the next few weeks I will see if it is still the same.\nOn about occasions this week fiancé and I have noticed a slight smell outside again.  Not as  foul smelling but still noticeable.\nOn Tuesday, saw new series featured on ITV called Rural Lives.  I think this is a good idea as the issue of foot and mouth is still very painful to a lot of people and is not over yet.  The effects are still happening however, on the news and in other media, it isn’t often mentioned and doesn’t get the attention it deserves.\nHopefully through programmes like this people will get a better understanding of the issues involved and what different people went through.\nIf an outbreak ever happened again, all the people involved would hopefully have a better idea of how to handle the actual crisis and a better idea of people’s needs for example, the farmers.  These are long term effects which can’t be ignored.\nMy Mum came out for a couple of nights. She loves coming out to see us as she lives in Carlisle it is a total change of scenery. She thought it was great and enjoyed taking my dog on long walks which she was unable to do for a long time..  We went to see the lambs in the lovely weather – shows we are able to start enjoying the countryside again, especially coming up to Spring and Summer.\nWe were even able to go to Dalston with my dog and wander about.  We have been so used to having to stick t the roads just in the local area.  It was lovely, a nice change!\nIt does tend to make you more confident about the coming year and we are looking forward to the Summer!\n\nWeek 4 – 18th March \nThis past week started of with a day out at Bowness.  I went with my fiancé and took our dog, [dog].  It was lovely to let her off the lead to run, she really enjoys it and got absolutely filthy.  Travelling in the car is becoming easier for [dog] and she goes crazy when you arrive.  We have only had [dog] just over 2 years and for the past year we couldn’t let her off the lead to run anywhere.  We are tiring t train her again, she listens to a certain extent, but we have to keep an eye on her cheeky side.  I remember wondering when the foot and mouth started how we were going to exercise [dog], as walking her on the roads used to be more difficult due to the large vehicles travelling up and down and also the fact [dog] isn’t the best on the lead.  She used to be really energetic  and a bit of a handful, however now she has got  used to a more relaxed life and at times I think she quite likes it.  It did us all good to have some exercise and fresh air and it was lovely to have a change of scenery. \nApart from on Monday, I haven’t really been anywhere else (apart from shopping) and have been busy doing my A-level work.  Therefore I haven’t really noticed anything different this week and haven’t thought about foot and mouth as much.\nMy overall view this week has been quite confident and there has been no real significant happenings to change my view.  Quite a good week overall!\n\n\n\nWeek 5 – 25th March\nFirstly I received the Newsletter sent out to the Standing panel.  It was a relief to finally get some information regarding the burial site.  It was good to have an explanation on how things work on the site in terms that we can understand.  It is a relief to know that everything so far is still safe, however, it is evident that there is much more work and monitoring to be carried out in the future.  Even though it is still not possible to do anything ourselves, our minds are at least put at rest by knowing something.  It surprises me how long it has taken for information like this to be made accessible to the public.  I think this newsletter is a very good step forward as information is reaching the public and participants are also given the opportunity to ask questions and put other ideas forward.\nOn Wednesday, My Mum came out again to see us.  Once again, we took a walk to go see the lambs in the field near us.  It was enjoyable and we had lovely weather!  It makes you realise how much you take for granted around you without thinking twice!  My Mum has made me realise this even more by seeing how much she enjoys such a simple thing and how special she thinks it is!  Sometimes I think when you are surrounded by the country and nature all the time you forget how lucky you are!  My Mum and Gran would both love to live somewhere like here!\nThe biggest surprise this week was when I received the parish magazine for the month and found in it the “Watchtree News”.  This is the first time I have ever seen anything like this from the parish council.  I think it is a very good idea as the information will be accessible to everyone in the appropriate parishes. Even though it is long overdue it is very worthwhile and I think, will be very informative.  It covers a wide range of issues, the majority of which I knew very little about and wouldn’t have known for the future for example, the maintenance going to be carried out between the A595 Orton Grange junction and the site entrance.  At least we now have knowledge of this before it is going to be carried out as it will affect other members of our family who live on the Orton Grange junction, who would otherwise have had no idea.  Some of the information was surprising, for example the number of tankers that leave the site everyday which I didn’t expect to be so high and which could rise.\nImportant issues are also now being tackled such as the bad state of the local roads. The affected people are also being encouraged to report these things themselves to the appropriate people.\nI think this has been a significant development and will be very useful in the aftermath of foot and mouth.  Communication between the appropriate authorities and the public is essential! \n\n\nWeek 6  1st April\nUnfortunately it has been all go this week!  One bit of work after another!  I haven't had time to focus on very much else this past week. Despite this fact, I have still had quite a positive week. It is better studying out here as there are few distractions and everything is lovely and peaceful - a drastic difference from last year.  At that time it was difficult to concentrate on anything for too long!  Far too many distractions!\nMy fiancé however has been up to the burial site and nearby on Sunday. He went for a drive with a friend and wondered what it looked like up there.  We have only ever seen it on television reports, but never been up there ourselves.\nIn a future diary when he has time, he will write a few words on what he thought! \n\n\n\nWeek 7  8th April\nOnce again this week has been full of work!  I haven't had much time to do anything apart from work.  ON Thursday I had a break and my Mom came out for a BBQ.  For the first time this year, we have put out our patio tables and chairs as the weather was staying pleasant.  We sat out for a while in the evening and had our BBQ.  It was a lovely break for my Mom as there is peace and quiet out here as opposed to in town.  We all really enjoyed it!\nMy Mom and [fiance] both commented how lovely it was to sit outside in the nice weather, without a nasty smell about.  Over the past couple of weeks I haven't noticed things smelling so bad as on a few occasions recently.  There has also been a decrease in the amount of birds, in particular crows which have been in the fields to the south of where we are near the crossroads.  On the couple of occasions during the week when I have been past the fields there have only been a couple of birds flying around as opposed to a whole field full of crows at one time.\nIt was also lovely to hear the sheep, especially as the evening became darker.  In the background, you could hear the sheep, just in the field next to us and also the lambs a few fields away.  It was something which we still aren't quite used to, but which we appreciate so much more now!!\n\n\nWeek 8 15th April\nI was feeling quite confident this week until Friday when watch the news. I saw the report on new Bovine TB cases which are worrying.  Even though it is said it wouldn’t be as serious as foot and mouth it is still worrying as it has the potential to destroy many more lives and bankrupt more farmers who have probably just got over foot and mouth!  The worry must be especially bad for the farmers, as it is bad enough for the general public especially after seeing the damage caused by foot and mouth in such a short space of time. It would be absolutely terrible if this summer was anything like last summer.  How long would it take for everything to get back to normal then?\nEven though foot and mouth is evidently far different to Bovine TB hopefully things will have been learned from last year which will prevent this from becoming a disaster too!\nApart from that other aspects of the foot and mouth, smell etc, haven’t been as bad this past week. I haven’t noticed any particular occasions  when the smell has been particularly bad or noticeable.  In addition, on the occasions when I have driven past the fields near the crossroads there have been hardly any crows near there, which is a huge improvement!  There were a number of seagulls in one field but nowhere   near the amount of crows there were before.\nThere has also been a decrease in the amount of tankers going by recently, that I have noticed.  At first I didn’t take much notice of it but then [fiancé]’s Grandad mentioned that he had hardly seen any.  He seems to notice them move more than we do as he lives on the Orton Grange junction with Wigton road  and they all have to go past there!\nWith all these things happening the presence of the burial site nearby seems less obvious!\n\n\nWeek 9 – 22nd April\nThe last week has been quite a pleasant week, probably because I have eventually finished my coursework and have been able to have a bit of peace and quiet!  I think this combined with periods of lovely weather have made me feel quite good.\nOn Tuesday, when I travelled to town and back I went past the fields near the crossroads to the south of the village which in the past have been full of crows or seagulls. As I have noticed on other odd occasions over the past week, they appear to be empty now.  I’ll keep an eye on how this changes over the summer if it does.\nOn Friday, I noticed that there were a number of cattle and calves in the field just opposite our house. I can stand and watch them from my back patio doors which is lovely.  With the reintroduction of the sheep and cattle in the area, it is like everything is coming together finally after the foot and mouth, and life is returning to normal in some sense. The cattle seem to be the last part needed for everything to seem to be running properly and the animals finally moving about at last. \nI think this fact combine with their being no significant incidents of nasty smells or the rumbling of the tankers going by, has made things seem better.\nWhen talking to [fiance]’s Grandad, he mentioned again that there still haven’t been as many tankers going past his house at Orton Grange as there have been.    This past week there have been hardly any reminders of the burial site and the past foot and mouth problems.  Living in the country has seemed quite normal after what seems a long time!\n\nWeek 10  29th April\nAll in all this week has been a good week overall!  With regard to the foot and mouth everything seems to have quietened down and there are hardly any visible reminders of the burial site and foot and mouth around the village.  As I mentioned last week, there still haven’t been any noticeable occasions of smells, possibly from the burial site; the tankers have hardly been noticeable around the village and the fields near the crossroads have still been fairly empty of birds, in particular crows.\nThis was explained and backed up in the Watchtree Newsletter in the parish magazines which I received this week.  It was good to read and very informative – worth reading.  I still think it is a good idea and is being done well as it discusses issues happening now and also keeps you informed about action in the future.  The newsletter mentioned the reduction in the amount of tankers which I have noticed.  It also mentions that there might be a slight smell from the burial sited during work but so far I haven’t noticed anything.  Once again it has been lovely seeing both the sheep and the cows in the surrounding fields especially at the moment when they are with their young.\nOn Saturday on the way down to [fiance]’s Grandad there were road works near the Baldwinholme bend in the road.  This part was in a bad condition and is now much better!  I think the damage was caused by the trucks etc used during foot and mouth.  However I’m not sure!\n\nWeek 11 6th May\nThis week has been my 21st Birthday!  I’m growing up!  I had a lovely day on Thursday and as a surprise I was taken t the Lake District for the day.  It was lovely and I really enjoyed it!  Firstly we stopped off at Bassenthwaite lake for a bit, fed the ducks and had a picnic.  Then off to Dodd Wood for a coffee and to see the Ospreys.  It was great to see them and I think we were quite lucky.  Then we had a pleasant walk around Myre House.\nI was reminded of how lucky we are in Cumbria to have such lovely places and I am glad that we are now able to go to these places again.  Now we’ve got a car we are going to take better advantage of Cumbria and what it has to offer.  Once again I realised how much we take what we have for granted.\nOverall this has been a good week and reminders of foot and mouth and the burial site have been minimal.  There have been no smells I have noticed, and hardly any signs of wagons.  It is still lovely to see the sheep and cattle around the village!\n\nWeek 12 – 13th May\nOn Wednesday I met my Mum in town and got the Cumberland News off her.  I was reading about the County Council Inquiry at Kendal.  I think it is good how the different people involved in the inquiry are all being honest about what happened.  That is the only way anything will be improved in the future if anything of a similar nature should happen again.  I really hope it doesn’t.  From reading the articles written and what people have said, it is clear what a wide range of people the foot and mouth crisis affected and also how badly.  When you read of other people who have had family who have been so low it has driven them to suicide you do seem to feel a bit guilty as when we complain, it hasn’t affected us is such a drastic way.  It brings the seriousness and the extent of the crisis to people’s attention.  Despite the terrible things which took place during the crisis hopefully some good will come out of it for the present and the future.\nOn Thursday [fiance] went to the doctor’s and was talking to a farmer in the waiting room.  As soon as [fiance] mentioned he lived in Great Orton, the farmer asked straight away what it was like to live here so near to the burial site and how he couldn’t imagine what it would have been like.  It too has been such a long time since anyone has said anything like that to either one of us.  At the time of the foot and mouth crisis people used to ask questions and what it was like to live so near.  It is strange when farmers in particular, feel sympathy towards you for living near the burial site, when on the other hand it is the farmers I feel sympathy for.\nBefore the foot and mouth crisis a fair number of people even from Carlisle didn’t know where Great Orton was’ but now many do and realise how close to Carlisle it actually is!  \n\n\n\nWeek 13 - 20th  May\nI haven't really done anything very exciting this past week, unfortunately, I've been revising again and preparing for a presentation for my A-level which I have to do next week.  My presentation was on 'turrets and watchtowers' which I found a bit confusing at first from the books I've been using so dragged [fiance] (to drive) and [dog] out past Brampton to Hadrian's Wall.  There I found a watchtower and a turret - everything became much clearer!  On the way back we spotted a sign for a camping barn on Hadrian's Wall (Banks East).  We were both very interested so sent away for the brochure.  At this point we decided to reconsider our holiday plans, and realised we didn't need to go far afield, like Amsterdam (our 1st choice); then Scotland (2nd choice).  We hadn't realised actually how many places there were so nearby which were ideal.  We came to the conclusion a holiday in Cumbria would be the best choice as 1. We could take [dog] with us; 2 we could go by car and 3 it would be a bit cheaper.  As [fiance] mentioned, it would also be good after everything to put the money we were spending back into Cumbria.\nWe were hoping to go next week as it is half term the week after and my exams after that!  Hopefully we will get something organised!\nOn Thursday we got the Orton newsletter. [fiance] and I were both quite disappointed when we read that land around this area are being sold for the building of houses. It is good in a way as people are moving forward after F&M but we wish it wasn't in a residential sense.  It is just a pity so much of the farming will be lost (6 houses at Baldwinholme, 4 in Great Orton).  Even though I haven't been brought up with a farming background from what I have seen it would be a pity for us to lose this part of our countryside.\n\n\nWeek 14 - 27th  May\nOn Monday saw CB and was pleased to hear the F&M standing panel project was going well as I think it’s worthwhile and as much as possible should be learned for the future.\nOn Tuesday I attended the meeting for the foot and mouth disease inquiry at Great Orton village hall at 7pm.  I was glad I attended the meeting as people could voice their opinions and try to get information about issues, both about the present and the future.  My general view of the meeting and how it went was that the general feeling of the villagers etc. was that they were losing interest and nothing was still being done. There were many empty seats, I estimated a total number of 50-60 people. There was a whole new panel of faces, even though this was a new inquiry so there were new people on  the panel but between the meetings there is no feel of continuity as no-one is sure of what has been said before and there are never the answers promised from one meeting to another.  It seems as if this is a way of avoiding answers and getting out of situations.\nThere were new aspects which were brought up which had not yet been disclosed (never at any meeting I have attended) such as the fact the burial was planned and used for the burial of uninfected animals, which is not what we were led to believe with al the engineering on site – again this is lack of communication and no-one is sure of the facts.  DEFRA also are only guaranteeing funding for this site for the next 5 years and it is worrying who’s burden this will become after then.?\nA variety of other issues were discussed – health, roads, handling of outbreak, vaccination etc.\nAfter the meeting I was glad I had been, however I felt rather angry by the way in which the questions are handled.  The answers are often vague, have no supporting evidence or are dismissed with “I’ll have to get back to you on that” or, “I can’t comment”.\nIn my opinion many of the farmers, villagers etc just want this whole thing brought to an end.  Ideally the remaining trenches filled in, a nature reserve created and maintained.  There were no guarantees of the site not being  used again or funding after the next five years.  Will this ever be achieved?\nOn Saturday morning [fiance] and I decided to go away for a short break to somewhere near and where we could take [dog].  It was a spontaneous decision for the Jubilee and because it was half term, I was not at college.  We ended up going to a caravan site with [dog] for 4 nights!  I will update about my holiday in the next diary!\n\nClipping from News and Star here – story about Great Orton public meeting and villagers’ request not to have site used again in the event of future emergencies. \n\n\nHOLIDAY - Week beginning Monday 3rd June\n\n\nWeek 15  10th June\nI am writing this a couple of days early just to tell you about our holiday!  It was lovely!  In the end we hadn't yet received the brochure on the camping barns so on Saturday we decided we would like to go away as son as possible and would like something for the Jubilee weekend.  After finding a caravan at Caldbeck, not far away, relatively quiet, we went.  By 5 pm on Saturday, [fiance] [dog] and I were there!  It was a lovely caravan site; lovely caravan and even a TV for the World Cup!\nThe caravan site was surrounded by common land sheep - lovely and quiet and a lot of places to keep [dog] occupied. We were so surprised at how quiet the campsite was over the Jubilee weekend but thought most of the people actually lived there.  It would be lovely in the future to have a small caravan there to go away to!\nThe surrounding places we went to were really busy for example Keswick, Bassenthwaite etc.\nI was quite surprised but thought it was great to see Cumbria lively again!  What a contrast to what I would have imagined these places to be like a year ago!  Especially for the Jubilee, everyone seemed to make such an effort - it was lovely to see!\nWe all had a lovely time, so relaxing!  OI don't think [dog] has ever walked so far!\nWe were surprised that somewhere so close was exactly what we wanted!  We were also happy we could put our money back into Cumbria. We would definitely go back!\nI feel so much more confident about the future especially in Cumbria after this week. If you didn't know about last year F&M outbreak in some cases it would be hard to tell! I really think Cumbria seems as if it could recover from this, hopefully.\n\nOn Saturday and Sunday - ill in bed.\n\n\nWeek 16    17th June\nWith the combination of not feeling very well at the beginning of the week; the car not running overt the week-end; and [dog] being in season, I haven't really been able to go anywhere this week. It has been quite frustrating but I have had work to do anyway.  I still feel quite confident about the future this week after being on holiday.  This is better than a couple of weeks ago after the FMD Inquiry meeting when I felt quite unsure at time of what was going to happen at Gt Orton.\nI had the F&M Panel newsletter and 'Watchtree Newsletter' (with Parish Magazine). I think both of these are good as you are able to gain information consistently about F&M in Cumbria, and in particular the burial site.  This information would be difficult to come by otherwise.  In particular I enjoyed reading about children at Milburn School with their memories of the F&M outbreak and the effort they have made.\n\n\nResearcher had spoken with respondent about possibility of monthly diary and she decided to start straight away - so although middle of month, here follows monthly write up.    She continued to record her diary in this way.  At times she offers short daily entries, drawing 4 weeks together within an overall reflective piece.   These daily entries are also recorded . \n\n\nWeek 20    15th  July \n(Writing up after 4 weeks)\nI am looking forward to attending the social evening in Dalston.  I am a bit nervous as am not used to doing these sorts of things but think it will be a good experience.  I was also pleased when I got the F&M panel newsletter and saw the article I made notes for. I have never done anything like this before and was quite pleased about the whole thing! \nOn the Saturday of week one, [fiance] and I went down to [fiance]'s Grandad's and noticed there were more signs up for land being for sale. Again we both think this is quite sad as the area will inevitable be changing in the near future.  We wonder how much of the land will be reused for farming or sold for new houses.  Taking into consideration the signs we have seen up in the past, quite a bit of land is going to change.\nOver the past weeks I have also received the 'Watchtree' newsletter with our parish magazine. I still think this is a good idea and worthwhile as you are updated every so often. This will also reach everyone in the village, so easily accessible.\nOver a period of a few days in week 2 of these 4 weeks, [fiance] and I both noticed a strange smell outside.  We could smell it here but not at [fiance]'s Grandad's which is only 2 miles away. It smelt just like a burning smell, so I am not sure whether it had anything to do with the burial site or anything being done up there.  I just thought I would mention it anyway!\nLast Wednesday I rang up the Archaeological Support group in Carlisle of which I have been a member for the past year and a half.  I had never been sent anything to do with it for along time and wondered why.  It turns out that last year as soon as F&M hit Cumbria, everything was cancelled and stopped. This I knew at the time and there was nothing else that could have happened. The thing I didn't realise was that things have been so badly affected that nothing has been arranged as yet, even so many months after F&M broke out. Once again this is another example of how things have been affected still so many months after.  There is also uncertainty about the future of this archaeology group as nothing has been decided yet and it will depend on how things go.  This is a pity and I hope things pick up in the future!\nOn the first week of these 4 weeks, [fiance] and I both noticed that we were coughing a bit more, especially at night and early in the morning.  Since then [fiance] has got better and is not coughing as much but now I have got a sore throat and a cold.  I don't think this is anything to do with the burial site or anything, but we were not sure about the coughing and I thought I would mention it.\n\n\n12th August - Writing up after 4 weeks\nI do not feel quite as nervous now as I did about the evening at Dalston Village hall.  It was a bit intimidating at first as I was going on the same night as frontline workers and health professionals.  I felt a bit out of my depth when I wondered what sort of stories they would be telling, compared to what I had seen.  These people would have had to deal with the situation first hand and must have seen some terrible things. After a couple of weeks I grew used to the idea and didn't feel as bad, it would turn out to be a good experience. As it turns out the evening is now on the 21st August and everyone is going together, things will be a bit more relaxed for me, I think.  I hope I will be able to make it!\nThe one major event that has made me think over the past couple of week is [fiance]'s Auntie Jean who has moved house from Orton Grange (2 miles away from us) into the middle of town.  It made me think that i definitely wouldn't like to move back into the middle of Carlisle after living here. Even though it hasn't been the most pleasant at times here with F&M last year and the building of the burial site, I would still miss everything about it.  Once again I am reminded how lucky I am to be surrounded by fields, cows, sheep and a horse in the overlooking field.  It is also usually quiet and peaceful - I can imagine quite different to the middle of Carlisle.  I think Jean will miss it quite a lot!\nJust over a week ago, [fiance] and I were busy getting our garden ready for the Village in Bloom. It was good to see everyone making an effort to everything looking nice.  Everything felt a bit more normal this year, whereas last year I think the Village in Bloom was the last thing on most people's minds!  It made me feel more confident about the future!  Perhaps everything or most things may return to normal eventually!\n\nWeek 24   12th August \nNothing extremely significant concerning F&M has happened this week.\nI have noticed, though, now when working at village pub – Wellington – even though I only do 1 day, it has really become quite busy.  I think business has improved after they tried more advertising.  I can remember back to during the Foot and Mouth outbreak – it was very  quiet, most people stayed away and the atmosphere in the pub was very depressing.  Now, over a year later things do seem to be picking up again and perhaps returning more to normal.  It is god to see!\n\n\nMonday 19th August\nAll in all it has been a quiet week, I haven’t really been out very much and not feeling well really.  I was a bit disappointed not being able to attend the social evening o Wednesday as my Mom was unable to get time off work or change her shift.\n\n26th August \nFirst of all we were noticing problems with our goldfish – when we first got them about two and a half years ago we had very few problems with them.  Over the past few months they have been getting ill.  We have tried all sorts (different chemicals) and still they have all died except one.  Omar, [fiance]’s cousin, who breeds fish came and had a look  and was baffled!  The only explanation is that the chemicals have been changed or increased, for example the chlorine which there appears to be a lot more of.  We obviously aren’t totally sure what the problem is but thought we should mention it anyway.\nThis week I also noticed the banner opposite the village shop in the village.  I have enclosed an article about this banner which appeared in the Cumberland News this week.  I think this sums up the mood I have noticed at the village meetings.  Nothing has yet been done to help the villagers etc, so what difference have the promises made?\nThis is the main reason why I feel less confident about the future this week regarding foot and mouth as these things are still dragging on.\n\n\nMonday 2nd September\nDuring the first week of these diaries nothing really significant happened regarding foot and mouth.  I did comment, however, that when working at the pub on Sundays, how busy the pub was and how business had seemed to improve a lot from what I had seen during the foot and mouth crisis. The atmosphere then had been depressing.  This made me feel more confident about the future regarding foot and mouth as another aspect of the foot and mouth had seemed to return back to normal.\nThis mood however did change during the third week of these diaries when I felt less confident about the future.  It all began when our goldfish started dying apart from oner.  We still are not sure exactly what caused it and are not sure whether or not it was because of the water here or something we did.  There just seems to be that little bit of doubt in my mind as you don’t feel totally sure about what is happening  in this area still, and therefore, I don’t think, really trust the organisations dealing with these issues.  The other thing that seemed to sum up some of my feelings was the banner which appeared opposite the village shop last week .  I think this shows the desperation and lengths some of the people in the village have to go through in order to get noticed and heard.  It seems ridiculous  that the same basic issues brought up in the earlier meetings have still not been dealt with.  It does make you lose the trust you had in the organisations involved (article enclosed).\nThis past week has been a little better, however, not that good.  I did receive the Watchtree Newsletter, in the Parish magazine, which is still good to receive as it updates you on a number of different aspects of the burial site.\nI also heard about the article in the newspaper regarding this inquiry from Cathy as well as my Mom who has saved it for me but as yet I have not read it.  I will comment on this in my next diary. \n\n\n9-15 September\nMonday\nGot free News & Star last week and found article on F&M diaries – not too bothered that it has been printed myself.\nTuesday\nSaw Cathy – said about articles – not too bothered myself but can see why otherwise involved would be as things are not represented in the right way and are misleading.  Good point though is that it may catch people’s attention – and get the point across that people are still suffering.  Got article from Cumberland news – Mum.\nSaturday\nFound article in Cumberland News regarding Village in Bloom – won a trophy for our special efforts in village in aftermath of F&M crisis (Mark Andrews trophy).\n\n\n16-22 September\nMonday\n[fiance] and I noticed a burning smell when we came back home in the evening.  Not sure what it is from – reminds us of F&M crisis.\nWednesday\nRoad works in village – didn’t affect us too much.\nThursday\nRoad works between here and [fiance]’s Grandad’s – annoying at times – has taken such a long time to do – reminds us of F&M crisis.  [fiance] and I noticed a burning smell again – not sure where from.\nFriday\nGood that Watchtree Newsletter told us of these road works as wouldn’t have known.\nSaturday\nThese aspects aren’t too bad on their own but the atmosphere reminds you of the F&M crisis last year.\n\n\n23-29 September\nMonday\nRead the Diarist and also had a look at the Inquiry Report I was sent after attending the village meeting.\nTuesday\nHave not had time to read very much of it but I will get round to it and then comment on it.\nFriday\nParish magazine and Watchtree Newsletter – still good to be updated on what is going on – 1. Roads and  2. Visiting the site.\n\n\n30-6th October\nMonday\nRang up to book table at the Autumn Fayre being done in village hall – people pleased that people in village getting involved!\nTuesday\nWater has been quite bad especially on Tuesday – full of chlorine – had to leave for a while for everything to evaporate.  Makes you quite concerned about whether or not it is safe to drink!\n\n\n6th October - Writing after 4 weeks  \nDuring week I  read the articles regarding those F&M diaries which appeared in the Cumberland News and the News and Star (they are enclosed).  After reading these and speaking to C, I myself wasn’t too bothered or offended by what was written but could easily have seen why other people would have been specially if they are finding things really difficult.  I think there is a good side to these articles as well though as they will have grabbed people’s attention and highlighted the fact  that there are still problems regarding F&M this long after the crisis.  Even though the articles were misleading they have also done some good! When reading the Cumberland News I also found a mention of Great Orton regarding the Village in Bloom.  It turns out we were awarded the Mark Andrews trophy for special efforts during the aftermath of F&M.  It would have been nice to win a better award but at least we were recognised for something!  I was quite please!\n\nWeek 2 was probably the worst week I have had during the past month regarding F&M as the whole week just seemed to remind me of what it was like during the crisis!\nFirstly there were road works between here and [fiance]’s Grandad’s (only 2 miles away).  I understand these had to be carried out but it made it difficult and inconvenient to get to [fiance]’s Grandad’s as you didn’t know which roads were gong to be closed when!  Now that the work has been done everyone that I have spoken to about it think they will cause more trouble than before as when you pull out of the lay bys it is dangerous as the grass and verge have not been smoothed out.  I think they are alright if you already know the roads but I wouldn’t be as confident if I hadn’t driven on them before!\nThe other aspect which made the road works seem worse were two instances when [fiance] and I both noticed a burning smell (Monday and Thursday).  We were not sure where this came from but it still reminded us of the crisis.\n\nOn week 3 I received a copy of the F&M Inquiry and glad I went to a meting in the village – sometimes it feels good to be involved even though in such a small way!\nI also received the ‘Diarist’ newsletter and ‘Watchtree’ newsletter which I am still glad I receive.  Without the Watchtree Newsletter I don’t think I would have been informed of the road works being carried out!  I am also glad the site is progressing and that people are now being given the opportunity to visit the site if they wish.\n\nOn week 4 there was only one major problem with our water.  On Tuesday the water was that full of chlorine that we had to leave it for all the chlorine in it to evaporate, or boil it, even to give [dog] a drink!  This is the second time this has happened and it does concern you as firstly why is this being done and secondly is the water safe to drink?  We are not sure who to contact about this as last time we contacted United Utilities who said it was just routine and nothing to worry about! \n\n\nWeek beginning 7th October\nNot much this week regarding FMD – think I have been too busy thinking about other things.\n\n\nWeek beginning 14th October\nMonday\nRelaxing a bit today as going to be a busy day tomorrow and away on Wednesday.\nTuesday\n[fiance]’s exam – turned out to be quiet here today which was good for [fiance]’s exam as he did it at home – would have been difficult last year with pressure of F&M.\nWeds\nAway on holiday!  It was a bit of a drive to what we are used to but we made it!  Lovely views on way down and Hawkshead a lovely place!\nThursday\nThis holiday very well suited for [dog] as plenty of places to walk, a quiet campsite and shops and pubs which are suited for dogs – things she is not quite used to!\nFriday\nLovely to be away for a break away from Great Orton on the one hand but then you remember how nice it is where we are and how luck we are on the other hand.\nSunday\nHad a very good week and confident about the future.\n\n\nWeek beginning 21st October\nMonday\nHaving quiet week as just got back. Quite tired but coping ok – nice to be back in a way!\nWeds\nGot Watchtree Newsletters in Parish magazine.  Also article out of News and Star (I think) – about renaming of site and farm that used to be there!\nThursday\nWatchtree Newsletter – interested in the Open Day – think it’s a good idea and will be very interesting (especially geology and fossil remains found on site).  I think would be beneficial as even though we live in the village and have been to the meetings – still have little idea of how the site looks now and will in the future!\n\n\nWeek beginning 28th October\nWeds\nWent to meet Mom in town.  The roads into town were terrible.  Mud on road everywhere and really busy with trucks etc.  Must be where they are doing new building – hope it doesn’t get like this all the time as so much land round here seems to have been sold for new construction!\n Sat\nMom has got her own stall this week-end at the Craft Fair in the Village hall. 1st time she has done this – saw it in Parish newsletter.\n\n\n2nd November – Writing after 4 weeks\nThis past month has been one of the busiest I have had for a long time!  Firstly there was [fiance]’s final exam – which was quite stressful for him at times, revising and everything!  It reminded me of how difficult it had been when we were doing our first exams a year and a half before, during F&M crisis.  Studying had been very difficult then due to constant interruptions and distractions – constant sound of trucks; smells; noise; tension!  I’m so glad it wasn’t this bad this year as these things can be stressful enough!\nShortly after [fiance]’s exam, [fiance], my Mom and I went for a short break to Hawkshead. It was great!  We all enjoyed it and [dog] especially!  Everything was suited for [dog] – we took her shopping (there are benches and water bowls outside every shop!); we went for a bar meal and sat outside with her! And on our last night even too her with us and went for a pint.  Apart from these things we also took her on plenty of walks!  Being there made you realise how lovely Cumbria is and how people who don’t live here are attracted to it!  It is a pity how Cumbria suffered during F&M crisis as it is such a lovely place!  I do hope that due to the large amount of attractions in Cumbria  that things will hopefully be back to normal as can be expected!  I was quite surprised at how busy things were for that time of year – it seems things must be improving which makes you confident!  I enjoyed my break but you realise maybe Great Orton isn’t such a bad place to come back to!\nDuring the past month I have also received the Watchtree Newsletter.  I’m quite interested in the Open Day later on this month – I think it will be very interesting. I’m really interested in the geology, history of the site and also fossils found there during this work. I don’t know much about how the site looks or how it will be in the future.  It is amazing that you can live so near but  still have no idea of what it is like!  All I can seem to remember are the pictures that were shown on the news months ago – it seems difficult to imagine it any different!\nThis past week has been very busy as my Mom is having a stall for the first time at the Craft fair in the village hall!  I have been helping her a little bit and helped her on the stall (I just sat with her really!).  She decided to have a go as she likes crafts and is always making things!  It was nice to be involved in the village and the money from the hiring of the stalls went to the church which is good!  It was very quiet on Saturday though and apparently that was the worst it’s been for a few years!  I wonder if this is an effect of the F&M, however the weather and other factors may have contributed!\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 11th November\nTuesday\n[fiance] – Doctors\nWednesday\nMe Dentist and in town with Mam.  Missed the Exhibition at the Village Hall, disappointed but got an article from the Cumberland News (this is included).  I haven’t spoke with anyone that went – no-one has mentioned anything to me.  Disappointed I missed it and also because this is probably one of the only opportunities we will get to know anything.\n[fiance] and I both agree it is still like a big secret – no-one really allowed in and out.  It doesn’t feel like local people are benefiting at all!  Is it anything to do with us really?\nFriday\nChildren in Need at the pub yesterday – nice to see people taking part again – big difference to during Foot and Mouth.  We just made a donation, it was a bit busy for us.  £1045 raised!\nSunday\nWork at pub – still very busy the pub – at least it seems to have recovered after F&M, but from what I have heard they did suffer badly, along with the other businesses here!\n\n\nWeek beginning 18th November \t\nTuesday\nShould have been playing darts at Port Carlisle.  Had a break for a week – the thing that is worrying about playing darts away is the travelling – some of the country roads round here are terrible!  Is this  because of the wagons? – especially near Wiggonby!\nThe road at [fiance]’s Granddad just gets worse! It’s just mud and less grass!  Terrible!  Is it because of damage done by wagons and a combination of all the flooding in the area now?\nSaturday\n[fiance] and I talking about how the area has changed!  We remembered back to 4 years ago when we used to go to the airfield/burial site for some peace.  Even though only rubble then, really enjoyed it there.  We could take the dog, had first driving lesson off [fiance] - not again!  Had some fun and really miss it at times.  Nowhere round here anymore to get peace!  Can’t even enjoy the nature reserve – very frustrating!   \n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 25th November\nMonday\nKeep realising when doing diaries that haven’t had a chance to look at Cumbria Foot and Mouth disease inquiry report – will have to make time for it soon!\nSaturday\nWhen I was at pub – talking about new fence on park for children.  General mood is, not very pleased as it doesn’t fit into a country village setting and nothing else done!\nSunday\nCan’t believe it is the beginning of December!  Everything is passing too quick.  Inevitable! \n\n31st November – Writing up after 4 weeks\nThe past 4 weeks have been very busy compared to what I am used to and at the same time have been quite frustrating in a few ways!  The issues which have bothered [fiance] and I most are mainly to do with the onset of winter, which of course is inevitable but this year they seem to be worse than we can previously remember since living here in winter!\n\nThe biggest issue is the state of the roads in the village and round about, it is terrible!  With the amount of rain we have had there are puddles everywhere and everything is turning to mud!  The worst thing is that it is very difficult to walk or take [dog] anywhere which is frustrating.  You either get absolutely filthy or when walking down the roads you have to get soaked on the sides of the roads to avoid cars and going down the lonning isn’t really an option as it is really muddy and there has been dumping.  We understand most of this will be due to the weather but we are sure some of it on the roads is due to all the traffic there has been, especially at [fiance]’s Granddad's.  Outside the front of his gate and garden, the grass has gradually been stripped away and has now turned to mud.  In all the ears he has lived there (50 years) he has never seen it as bad!\nThe roads aren’t like this just nearby, I have noticed other roads round about are also in a bad state when I have travelled away to other nearby village pubs when playing darts.\nI was disappointed when I missed the exhibition, at the Village hall, about the Watchtree Reserve as I had to go up town, etc.  I have not spoken to anyone I know that attended the exhibition, but wish there were more opportunities to learn more about it.  I did find a newspaper article (enclosed) about the Watchtree.  It is quite annoying that this won’t be open to the public.  It is understandable why this isn't possible but then on the other hand it is not benefiting anyone really who lives nearby.\n[fiance] and I still remember back to when the airfield was still there and it was a lovely place to go walking and to relax by getting away from everything. It used to be lovely and quiet and was also so nearby.  We do actually quite miss it sometimes as there is nowhere else like that round here now.\nEven though there have been quite a few negative issues this past month, it has also been encouraging when I have been working at the pub.  It has been very busy when I have been there showing that it must be recovering from the effect of the Foot and Mouth crisis. It was also encouraging when there was a night held for Children in Need when they raised approx. £1045. It is good to see people involved and happy again!  One thing which I did notice was that the general mood about the improvements made to the park was not very good.  People were not impressed that the new fence does not look like it belongs to the country at all and that that is all that has changed.  I have not had time but will go and have a look for myself!\n\n\n December 2002 – Writing up after 4 weeks\nAverage – I haven’t felt too bad over Christmas – a little tired but since I have got a bit of a cold and sore throat – not surprising at this time of year!\nAverage – I think it has been all right, haven’t been able to walk very far near village due to weather and roads – but this isn’t surprising at this time of year!\nThese past 4 weeks have been rather hectic with Christmas and everything but I have still had quite a bit to write in my diaries concerning foot and mouth.\nI received the Parish magazine for December in which there was a thank you to all involved in the Craft Fayre and there was £1 008 raised for St Giles church.  It was good to be able to contribute to something in the village (well it was my Mum really, but I helped!).  It is good to see these sorts of things happening here – it’s good for the village after everything!\nI also received the Watchtree Newsletter in the Parish magazine .  It is still good to receive this as it updates you on everything and also had information regarding the exhibition at the village hall, which I missed..  I am glad it was a success and people attended, especially the school children who were taken!\nI also received the ‘Diarist’ which is good to read.  It is interesting to see what other panel members are up to – and is surprising what things can lead to!  For example the diarist and the Samson tractor!\nOver the past couple of weeks I have also collected  a couple of articles from the Cumberland News.  The first one, ‘Lie returns to Watchtree’ actually made me feel better that we were going to get something positive out of this whole experience – but the only problem is that at some moments in time this won’t be enough for some people involved as it does not change what happened and won’t make up for what has been lost!  I think it just depends on how you are feeling at the time when reading the articles.  The other article , ‘Village in running for top country award’, was also quite pleasing as at least we, as a village, are being remembered and recognised for what we went through.  It is surprising that now so long after the actual Foot and Mouth crisis that we are finally being recognised and so many things are now being written in the paper!\nOver the Christmas period I have only really had one thing to complain about and that is the state of the roads!  After the rain, the roads have been terrible to drive on with the flooding and the road sides turning into mud!  Everything is filthy!  I know this is expected in winter, out in the country but since I have been here it has never been so bad, especially at [fiance]’s Grandad’s!\nOne improvement is the signs which have been put up at the passing places between here and [fiance]’s Grandad.  [fiance] and I both think these are much, much better and a lot safer!  We have also spotted a couple of signs from ‘Watchtree’, which have been up now for a while, but are still surprising to see!\nNow it is time to start everything again the New Year and hopefully this will be a better year for Great Orton than the past couple has been!  I am glad it is going to be quiet here now for when I start my studying, as opposed to the foot and mouth when studying was very, very difficult!\n\n\nMonday 27th January – Writing up after 4 weeks \nThis week I found an article in the Daily mail which I thought was relevant. It is called ‘Boom and Doom’ and is about house prices all over England.  For 2002, prices in North Yorkshire rose by 66% but in Allerdale they only rose by 8%.  It did not mention why this was but some of it must be the result of the Foot and Mouth crisis and the effect on the area since then.  This made me think about the effect on Great Orton and how difficult it would probably be to sell houses here, and if people would really want to move  here. There are two sides however, as if more property was built in Great Orton and the surrounding area, things would probably change and Great Orton might lose some of its farming background.  I definitely wouldn't want it to change too much, despite the burial site, I like it just the way it is!  \nThe great thing about this week is the weather, for once!  We have been able to go down the lonning with [dog] without getting filthy as it is frosty!  It has been great!\n\nI can’t believe how quickly 2003 is passing!  It is February already!  This past month has been totally hectic with appointments; arrangement; birthdays and the Open University!  It makes you realise that whatever happens, time goes on!  I think this must have been very difficult for people directly involved in the Foot and Mouth crisis, as life would have had to carry on despite whatever was going on in their own lives.  I think as time has gone on I have got more used to the idea of ‘Watchtree’ and accept it more now!\nI received the ‘Watchtree News’ during the previous week.  It is good to hear that the restoration and creation of the site is finally complete.  Overall, I don’t think it has taken as long as I thought it would for the nature reserve to be established, especially when you compare it to how long it has taken for the children’s playground to be improved!  Nearly two years after the Foot and Mouth crisis!  However it is better late than never!\nI am pleased at how the nature reserve sounds, with al the different species of animal which had been included or seen, especially the ‘merlin’, the smallest bird of prey, which was sited.  [fiance] and I both find these things very interesting!  It is good that this is happening so close to us!  Last year we travelled to see the Osprey viewpoint, it was great!\nOver the past couple of weeks I have also found a few more articles. Two of these are regarding the ’20 day standstill’. With not been directly involved in the farming side of the foot and mouth crisis, I am not totally sure about all these sorts of rules, etc, but think it is good that at least things are trying to be improved for the future in case this may happen again and also as a result of learning from past events.  There was also an article showing ‘Watchtree’ as a finalist for the ‘Environmental Project Award’.\nI definitely think that ‘Watchtree’ deserves to be considered for this award as so much has happened here and at least some good is going to come out of it!  It would be nice to get this sort of award in recognition of the hard work of the people involved!\nI think this year will hopefully be a better one for Cumbria, and people may have confidence.  Even though the Foot and Mouth crisis was a tragedy, I think Cumbria and the people in it are able to recover from it as people from the newspaper articles, seem more optimistic and this rubs off on you!  I think this year will be a better one and feel more confident about the future at this point! \n\n\nMonday 24th  February – Writing up after 4 weeks \nSo far these past four weeks I have not receive a ‘Watchtree newsletter’ but there was a small mention in the parish magazine about he playground. Work is underway and it is hoped to be finished by the summer.  It seems to be taking a long time to get the playground sorted but at least it will be good for the kids in the summer holidays. It is better late than never!\nThere is only one thing that has bothered us over these past weeks, our fish.  Whenever we change the water, the fish seem to be ill and now we have had to add more and more chemicals to reduce the amount of chlorine that seems to be in the water.  We did originally start off with 13 fish and now only have 2 left. It does make you worry about the state of our water and why more chemicals are possibly being added.  The fact that the burial site is so near, does make you worry if that is anything to do with it.\n\nOver the past four weeks I have been very confident about the future regarding foot and mouth.  With the sun shining again and the animals about – it seems as if nothing bad has happened here.  But you know that for some people involved in the crisis, the future will never be that easy or simple and I do feel sympathy for them.  For me, it seems possible to be able to move on now after the crisis and it has been good to see the sheep and cows about, and [fiance] has even seen a couple of birds of prey!  We are not sure what they were, but think one might have been a Merlin, which was mentioned in a previous ‘Watchtree Newsletter’ as being seen on site.  The article called ‘Record tourism figures for county’ was encouraging and shows that Cumbria may be starting to recover after the Foot and Mouth crisis.\nI also found another article called ‘Fears over bovine TB time bomb’.  I think this is worrying and should definitely be taken seriously, as it would be devastating to farmers and everyone in the county!\nIn the past fortnight it has also been my Mam’s birthday. She was really looking forward to spending some time out here and we went to Bowness for the afternoon with [dog].  Once again, you realise how lovely it is out here and how much it should be appreciated.\nOverall in my opinion the situation in Cumbria over the past year has definitely improved and will hopefully continue to do so!\n\n\n24th March – Writing up after 4 weeks \nThese past four weeks have been rather strange and worrying!  First of all, there was the death of Simon Harris, a man from the village, who you would regularly see walking dogs and looking at the horses.  Despite what most of the papers have said about him, to me he was always polite and possibly just a bit shy.  I have enclosed an article about him that was in the paper shortly after his death.  The headline is not very nice but the article does include some of the best comments about Simon.  I was quite shocked by the whole thing and think it could definitely have been handled better by the papers.  The people in the village could also have been a bit more respectful, I do not think it was their place to comment in the way that they did.\nSecondly the whole issue of war with Iraq is a worrying subject.  Neither [fiance] or I agree with what is being done and how it is being carried out!  It is a particularly worrying time for [fiance]’s Aunty, as her husband lives in Kuwait, with the rest of his family.  She came to England, where she is originally from with her two children during the last Gulf war. She knows all too well what the danger are and what is involved!\nIt is a very worrying subject where you feel totally helpless and at the same time cannot get away from it!  However, life still carries on, as harsh as it may be!  I thought of this when looking at the past diaries I have written and how many have accumulated!  It is strange how quickly time goes by and how people are just expected to cope and carry on.  I thought, in particular, of the people worst affected by the foot and mouth crisis; how helpless they must have felt, and how they coped!  Life can be a funny thing!\nLooking back, I think this project has been very worth while and think it is great that they will be archived for the future.  Writing these diaries seems to have become part of my routine now, and I think it will definitely be strange when I no longer have to write them!\n\nI have found quite a few newspaper articles over the past four weeks. “Donella rebuilds the Cumberland Show” was encouraging about the future of Cumbria after the foot and mouth crisis, however there are still worrying issues arising, such as in the articles of ‘MP calls for vaccination to keep F&M under control”; and, “From Uruguay with a threat”, which highlight issues of important to the farming industry.\nI have also been very busy over the past few weeks, as my second assignment was due for my university work, which was quite hectic!  I have had a break for the past couple of days as I have not been very well, a bad cough, sore throat and stomach and a stuffy nose!  I haven’t done too badly over the winter months with illnesses, so I can’t really complain!  Lastly our water hasn’t been of the best quality lately!  On occasions it is white and fizzes, not the most appetizing!!  \n\n\n21st April  Writing  up after 4 weeks\nThese past 4 weeks have just seem to fly by!  Quite a few good things have happened and even though I am feeling quite tired, I have had a good month!\nFirstly [fiance], [dog] and I have finally go t a small space of our own!  We have got an allotment about 8 miles away and it is surrounded by horses and fields.  It belongs to a man who lives there and owns all the land roundabout, but unfortunately he is no longer well enough to work the land, so has let us have it!  It will need a lot of work but will be good for us!  So far we have got potatoes, raspberries and rhubarb growing!  [dog] even helps to dig! Even though we live in the country, on our own block it is not always that easy to get any peace!\nWe have also had the opportunity to join the ‘Cumbria Wildlife Trust’.  A leaflet came through our door and we thought it would be brilliant as we would be kept up-to-date with all the latest goings on in Cumbria; learn a lot more about the wildlife and also possibly get the chance to do some voluntary work!  [fiance] and I are really interested and think it is great.  We get sent though a certain number of magazines every year and every month we send a small donation so we feel like we are helping a little bit as well!  The article which I found in one of the magazines id enclosed on the next page!\nThe other thing which has made my month is knowing that we are going to Hawkshead again!  My Mam, [fiance], [dog] and I are going for a short break, just 3 nights for my birthday!  We have got it all booked and are really looking forward to it!  It was great last time especially for [dog]!  I just hope she doesn’t get stuck under the bed in the caravan this time, as she is a bit bigger now than she was then!\nThis past week I have also been in touch with my Dad in South Africa as it was his birthday. It turns out that he may be passing through Carlisle for a couple of days at the end of next week. It would be lovely to see him again and I think he will love Great Orton and our allotment.  I think he has always liked the thought of living in the country and would love to retire to somewhere nice and quiet!  Things will also have improved and we have grown up a bit since he was last here, about 3 years ago!  It should be good!  It is funny that after living in South Africa for so long, he is still drawn to the lifestyle in Cumbria!\nLastly, I have made a note of the final meeting for the foot and mouth diaries and hope to be there!  I bet it passes really quickly now and will be over before I know it!  How strange! \n\n28th April – 4th May \nMonday\nGot 3 articles from Cumberland news, April 25th 2003 “Breeders hit out discrimination”, “FMD burial site celebrates new life” and my favourite “its a dog’s life for Rosie the lamb”\nTuesday\nSaw C\nFriday\nNoticed the park is coming on a bit better for the children. It was mentioned in the Orton Parish – awarded £25, 000 to reference, drain, level and re-seed. New play equipment will follow.\nSaturday\nSome of the children were allowed to attend meetings to discuss it. Good to involve children & about time too! At least children will be able to play football.\n\n\n5th – 11th May\nTuesday\nWorking really hard, have to get assignment posted off tomorrow night before we go away on Thursday. Hectic!\nWednesday\nService held at Watchtree – unable to go but think it was a very good idea. Newspaper article enclosed was written before the service.\nThursday\nAway to Hawskhead! Exciting!\nFriday\nMy birthday! Had a lovely day – went shopping in the morning, to forest in the afternoon and for a meal at night. Lovely!\nSunday\nBack from holiday already! It was lovely! Everyone was so friendly or perhaps we just noticed it more there.\n\n\n12th – 18th May\nTuesday\n[fiance] at doctors – not very well, he has got a viral infection as well as fluid behind his ears. Told to just take it easy!\nWednesday\nI have been sent info to chose courses for Open University that I would like to do next year and in the future. Am going to take the “Environmental Studies” route, hopefully leading to “Diploma in Environment and Development” and possibly further to BA/BSc in Environmental Studies. I did like archaeology but think what I am doing is a lot more relevant to the future, Foot and Mouth and Watchtree made me realise that.\nFriday\nGot Watchtree newsletter this week, I will enclose it this time as it covers quite a few areas and has a bit of information. There is information about the service held, awards that have been won and also new wildlife which are now present on the site – Lapwings, Oystercatchers and Ringed Plovers.  \n\n\n19th – 25th May 2003\nTuesday\nDad has come to visit for a couple of days from South Africa. Nice surprise, enjoyed seeing him. Dad asking about FMD crisis (he saw it on TV over there) and how close it was. I think he was quite shocked!\nThursday\nI was surprised that even though South Africa is so different he would still like to live somewhere in this country. Makes you think again how lucky you are and what you take for granted!\nSaturday\nArticle from Cumberland News – May 23 – “Reward for post – foot and mouth achievements”.\n\n\n25th May – Writing up after 4 weeks\nEvery time I come to write these diaries I look back over the past four weeks and notice they are becoming more and more busy, the past couple of weeks have been no exception! It is already nearly half way through the year, I can’t believe it!\n\tOver the past 4 weeks, I have been on holiday, turned 22 and my dad had popped over from South Africa for a few days! Hectic but good! Firstly, Hawkshead was lovely again! I wouldn’t say anything different – it was great! We all had a lovely time and I had a really good birthday! When you are at home in Great Orton you forget how much is really out there in Cumbria to do and see! We definitely think we should take advantage of it more often.\n\tShortly after we arrived back from Hawkshead, my dad popped up to Carlisle for a couple of days. It was a lovely surprise and it was good to see him! He absolutely loves it where we are and thinks we are very lucky – even though South Africa is so different, he still thinks it is lovely out here, looking out onto fields. This did make me realise how lucky we are, despite what happened due to foot and mouth. Inevitably, sometimes we do take it for granted! My dad remembered watching about the foot and mouth crisis in South Africa but did not realise exactly how close it was! I think he was quite shocked!\n\tFoot and mouth has definitely made me more aware of my surroundings and how everything works. I have definitely noticed this when I have been doing my studying for Open University. I am now at the point where I can chose my courses next year and therefore which path I am going to take. I have decided to take courses leading to a Diploma in Environment and Development and if everything goes to plan for an Environmental Studies degree. I am really enjoying what I am doing at the minute, and think it is definitely useful and relevant for the future. I did enjoy studying Archaeology but think the environment and related issues are more important at the present and in the future.\n\tOn the 7th May there was a memorial service at Watchtree to mark a two year anniversary from when the last animal was buried at the site. I think this was a good idea and it is appropriate to remember the animals that were killed. I was unable to attend the service but have managed to get a newspaper article about it and it was also mentioned in the Watchtree Newsletter. I have included this newsletter in with these diaries at it contains quite a bit of information on a few different aspects, I think it is good about the wildlife which is emerging on the site.\n\tThe park or play area for children is also coming on fairly well, at last! It has finally been reseeded as well as levelled, it looks better! I have also included 4 newspaper articles from the Cumberland news, with my favourite being “Rosie the lamb”. I have put this article in as I thought it was lovely.\n\n\n22nd June 2004 – Writing up after 4 weeks \nHow strange it seems that all this is coming to an end, and really how quickly time has passed.  In my situation, I would say that time has healed a few aspects of the foot and mouth crisis and things don’t seem so bad 18 months on!\nI enjoyed the foot and mouth evening and learnt a lot from it about other people’s views and experiences. I enjoyed it a lot more than I thought I would and thought that the main themes found during the research were ones which I would have agreed with! One thing which was said which has made me think was the comment that these diaries would be our type of memorial. I had never once thought of this research in that sort of way, but the more I think about it, the more I agree and like the idea!  It definitely has been worthwhile being able to contribute to something especially if it may be able to help in some way in the future!\nWhen compared to the article that I found in the Cumberland News about a man’s memorial to the animals that he lost during foot and mouth I definitely think ours is more fitting and will probably do some good!  I understand  everyone has the right to express their views in their own way but to me this was too loud and too inappropriate!  However each to their own and at the end of the day at least people are trying to remember in a good way as opposed to ‘sweeping it under the carpet’!\nThe week of the foot and mouth evening we were without a car and noticed how much we relied on it and took it for granted, especially out here as there is a very limited bus service!  Everything is sorted out now and we are back to normal with a newer little car!  Thank you very much C  for the lift there and back!\nIn general the past few months just seem to have flown by and in particular the past couple of weeks!  I don’t seem to have time to fit everything in, and am trying to get my assignments done on time! It turns out to be quite a bit more difficult than I thought!  It is hard work but will definitely be worth it in th end – over the past 6 months even I have learnt so much!\nThe next special occasion which is coming up is [fiance]’s birthday 21st July! We are thinking of going back to Hawkshead again for a few days! We really like it there and I’m sure will return again and again!  It just shows you that you don’t need to leave Cumbria to have a good holiday!\nWell, here we are at the end!  It just makes me wonder what life will be like in 18 months from now!  Will things be any different?  They probably will be in some ways and hopefully will be for the best!\n\n\n20th July – Writing up after 4 weeks\nIt does seem very strange to be sitting down to write my last lot of diaries. It feels good to have completed something as worthwhile as this!  As well as it hopefully doing some good in the future concerning foot and mouth crisis or any other similar situation, I also find it has helped me to become a bit more confident and aware of things around me.  I remember back to when I attended my first meeting and how nervous I was!  I think I can handle things like that a bit better now!\nWe have just got back from holiday!  We had a lovely time and did so much!  We went walking with [dog] to many places and they are all free!  It just shows you what a good holiday you can have in Cumbria on a cheap budget!  You don’t need much else!  The only disappointing thing is that some of the places [fiance] and I had been to in the past are now closed as they have been sold.  This has not yet happened to Talkin Tarn and I definitely think it should be given to the Cumbria Wildlife Trust as people would still have access to it.\n[fiance] and I both agree that the countryside is recovering and it is great to be able to wander about again.\nI have collected a few more articles from the Cumberland News related to Foot and Mouth. It is good to see breeders doing well again and people getting back into the swing of things!\nI would just like to thank everyone involved for involving me in this project and I wish them all the best in the future!\n
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1937\nGender: M\nOccupation: Group 5\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\nWeek 1\nMonday 11th March 2002\nWhilst watching the local TV news at 6 p.m. there was a news item that caused us to reflect back on the events a year ago. A young lady had just left a court where she had been found guilty of assaulting a Police Officer and also being in change of an offensive weapon -–a knife. The judge had acquitted her of the offences, he showed leniency towards her. Last year during the FMD crisis she had returned to her home to find that her pet goat had been killed by slaughterers because the animal was within the 3 km radius. She had gone berserk over this and threatened the Police Officer and others with the knife. She had to be forcibly restrained, she was very distraught over this killing.\nEven after she had appeared in court and had been acquitted of all charges she showed great emotion not only being freed but also quite upset over the loss of the goat. Perhaps her actions didn’t happen to a lot of other people who had similar things happen to them. However, the loss of a lot of pet animals and in some cases, needless slaughter of many farm animals still creates unhappy memories of 2001.\n\n\nWeek 2\nTuesday\nWhilst walking the dog I met a farmer from the edge of the village who has friends and stock in close proximity to the 2 land fill sites.\nHe is still very concerned about materials on these sites. The nearest site contained hundreds of carcasses. This has been completed and capped. He is concerned about leachate from this site and feels that it doesn’t matter how much clay and soil were used to contain this site, the effects of heavy rain is bound to find a way down and also to drain it. He doesn’t want to plough these fields, nor can he sell stock that have grazed the same fields.\nThere is pyre ash being tipped on the other site. Again, what happens to the rainwater that runs off this site? Also there are concerns about the large flocks of seagulls that visit both sites daily.\nAnother concern is what is happening to the open-cast coal site that is situated almost due south of Gilgarran Village. The farmer I talked to today is concerned about this huge site. No coal has been moved from this site for months. There are concerns that this site is going to be filled with waste. Will it be from FMD sites? We, as a village, are very concerned about rumours of land fill on a huge scale. \nFriday\nNoticed that there was work being carried out on the top of the burial site. No villagers have commented on this, despite large yellow diggers operating.\nSunday\nWork continuing on the burial site. Cannot make out what kind of work is being done there\n\n\nWeek 3\nMonday\nWork is still going on at the burial site. I still don’t know what is going on, but the diggers involved are the same as when animals were being buried there. When animals were being buried there last year, the smell coming from that site was terrible to say the least! It was not coming from the dead animals as most observers thought, but from decomposing waste material that had already been buried on the site prior to FMD.\nWhen excavators dug into the soil to make trenches for the dead animals, they dug into this decomposing matter, hence the terrible smell. Despite the work that is going on there today, no comments from villagers are forthcoming. It seems to me that now that FMD has gone, the general public are not interested any more, unless they read something in the local papers written by some enterprising reporter!\n\n\nWeek 4\nTuesday\nWork is still going on in the former burial site. Villagers don’t seem to be bothered. FMD is gone, so nobody is interested any more.\nWednesday\nWhilst trying to gain comments from villagers over the effects of FMD, one or two comments from some individuals show concern about the outbreak last year, but don’t seem too concerned over any after effects, if any!\nTwo interesting comments suggest that (1) the outbreak was started deliberately by ‘this country’ in collusion with the agriculturists of the E.E.C so as to concentrate meat production in Europe and leave the UK to concentrate on arable farming; (2) The outbreak was started by a terrorist attack. The Government would not declare this because it would cause widespread panic.\nThursday 23:25 hours\nHuge fire at the site where pyre ash is being tipped. 250,000 used tyres caught fire. Arson is suspected. Fire fighters tried to contain the blaze, but couldn’t use large amounts of water in case water courses became contaminated.\nFriday 05:00\nFire still blazing at the pyre ash site. Later in the morning the fire was showing signs of dying down, apparently it was left to burn itself out. Much heavy smoke pollution was evident, drifting south west for about nine miles.\nReading the local evening paper about the blaze, there was also a report that villagers from Disington (1¾ miles from Gilgarran) were complaining of the foul smell from both waste sites. Parish councillors are very concerned about this. Does it coincide with work currently being carried out on the burial site?\nThe smell from these sites plus the fact that animals were buried on one site and pyre ash plus the huge fire from the other site all happening this week is causing concern in this area. But once this ‘hue and cry’ dies down, people will soon forget about it all.\n\n\nWeek 5\nMonday through to Friday, observed work on top of the burial site. Don’t know if any work is still going on on the northern and western sides. \nFriday\nLocal weekly paper carried the report on the recent large fire that occurred on the Alco site last week when 250,000 tyres caught fire somehow. It was intersting to read that the fire brigade did not use any water to extinguish the blaze in case pollution occurred in water courses. The fire was left to burn itself out.\nSaturday\nBurial site – it looks like there is new soil being tipped on top for some reason. No reported comments froim the Parish Council over this, despite very vociferous objections by them over the use of this and the Alco site in the past. \nSunday\nTalked to our local County Councillor (who lives in this village). He feels very strongly that these two sites are dangerous. He thinks that both sites are a health hazard risk due to obnoxious odours and in particular, the large fire that occurred last week which produced a lot of polluted smoke for a distance of six miles. Some people reckoned that the smell of burning tyres could be smelt here in Gilgarran. There have been numerous fires on these sites over the last few years. These fires give rise to compaliant by people like us, but more so from the nearer village of Distington (1¾ miles west of here). The councillor suggests that there could be more incidents of cancer cases in this area in coming years along with respiratory troubles as well as some cases of bronchitis related problems. He himself has recently suddenly started sinusitis, which he hasn’t had before. All in all, he wasn’t happy about the situation on both sites. We don’t know what is being tipped there, all we can do as a community is accept what we are being told by the site owners. As previously stated, animal carcasses were being tipped and buried for about three days before we were told officially that this was so.\nIncidentally, the site where animals are buried is owned by Cumbria County Council. This seems to be totally against the advice of County Council officials who look after the environment and the health of the population. As I’ve written before, there are going to be bigger concerns if the opencast coal site to the south of the village becomes a landfill site for refuse from parts of the county fifty miles away. At the moment there are no suggestions that anything from the FMD outbreak will be dumped there. Having said that, however, we as villagers didn’t know of carcasses being buried or pyre ash being tipped until after it had happened. We await the outcome of this coal site with some trepidation, after all, no coal has come from this site for some months. It has all the indication of becoming a land fill site.\n\n\nWeek 6\nMonday to Wednesday, if work is still ongoing at the burial site it is not visible from our side of the site. I still don’t know what is going on there. It may all be innocent and an improvement to the environment, after all, this is what the site owners have to do.\nThursday\nA delegation of MEPs visit the north of the county. They have come to assess the situation for themselves and to report back to the European Parliament. No doubt they will also report back to their own constituents in their own countries. The delegation visit the auction mart at Longtown where the disease was first noticed in this country and also visited the big burial site at Great Orton where it was estimated that half a million carcasses were buried. Good coverage by the local press, radio and T.V. gave anyone interested the views of the delegation.\nThursday – Saturday\nThe MEP delegation agreed that the FMD situation had been disastrous (we all know that!). Comments from some tourist and agriculture observers ranged from a ‘waste of time’ to ‘at least some politicians have bothered to visit us, our own couldn’t do that’ Personally, I think that some good came out of this, particularly when it was reported that the Dutch had used vaccination techniques when they had a small outbreak.\nMany people think that the British Government should have had a public inquiry into the outbreak. What have they to hide? Cumbria is holding its own inquiry – quite rightly so, other organisations such as Lancaster University are holding research into the outbreak. Why not the Government? Eventually we will know why, perhaps not in my lifetime though. The minister and MAFF have a lot to answer for.\n\n\nWeek 7\nThought it would be of interest to include copies of the newsletter that the local authorities issued to every household in the area regarding the disposal of carcasses and effluent. It will be of note that there was a fire last year on the Alco site, also involving tyres. Very similar to last years only not as big. A report on local T.V. today stated that the recent visit of MEPs to the area considered that vaccination should have been used at the outset and be should seriously considered should a future outbreak occur. Heard of reports of an outbreak of T.B. in cattle in other parts of the country. This was reported to be more serious than FMD should a major outbreak occur. This would lead to the question of disposal should the need arise. As I’ve already reported in previous entries, the use of the opencast coal site to the south-east of here is causing concern in some quarters. Although the site didn’t feature in the FMD crisis, there is a feeling that it is being earmarked for use in the future should the need arise or even the rumour of an incinerator is planned for there. The general feeling here and in the surrounding area is that we have had enough dumping of carcasses, effluent, toxic chemicals etc. It could be that the authorities have seen that the sites concerned have handled those substances before, that an extension of disposal sites in this area would be effective.\n\n\nWeek 8\nNothing of any significance to report this week.\n\n\nWeek 9\nNow that Cumbria’s FMD inquiry has started, a lot of people I have met this week recall the happenings of a year ago. Even more interesting is the coverage in the local press and T.V. Plenty of publicity by the media shows how little the Government an MAFF in particular let the farming and tourism industries of the county down. There has been plenty of distressing stories by farmers not only of infected animals being slaughtered but also the slaughtering of healthy animals in the 3 km circle of an outbreak. One particularly distressing point of evidence was when a farmer described to the panel the birth of a calf five days after it’s mother had been shot! We at the time of the outbreak were hearing these stories on a daily basis and still MAFF and Mr. Brown kept telling us that the outbreak was ‘under control’. All I can say at this point is may heaven help us when it all happens again.\n\n\nWeek 10\nWork is still going on at the burial site. It looks like new soil is being dumped on top of the actual site and ‘dozed’ to level it of and to smooth it out on the side. All we can do is accept that the management of the site are making it better for all concerned and that they are as concerned as we are. The much publicised Cumbrian FMD inquiry team visited the land fill site. They met local councillors who expressed their concern over this site and the Alco site. No other report was forthcoming from the team. The inquiry team finish their evidence gathering this week. One very important statement was made that the Minister of the Environment should make a statement over this outbreak and should even make a visit to these sites county-wide. There has been total silence from Mrs Beckett’s department over this request. The same silence is observed from any government source for that matter. Everyone asks the same questions, what have they got to hide? Why aren’t they interested? What plans are being made? And what lessons have been learned from last years outbreak? A lot of farms are restocking and in this neighbourhood, farm work is going on as before, or so it looks. As time goes on though, there seems to be a smouldering anger that no-one in authority is as concerned as well are.\n\n\nWeek 11\nWork is still on going at the burial site. No comments heard from any of the villagers or neighbours this week.\n\n\nDiary 12\nMonday, from my own observation work is still ongoing at the burial site. More heavy plant has been moved on to the top of the giant amount and it looks as though more topsoil is being laid over the Mount. Perhaps to improve the site, but water may still permeate into and through the site. We can only believe the operators that this is a right thing to do.\nFriday, talked to 2 it villagers about the after-effects of FMD. One said oh it's all over now and forgotten about it doesn't bother me one bit. The other said it all in the past we just have to forget about it. It seems that life is returning to normal in all aspects of village life, people don't think about last year unless the diarist mentions that. \n\nSunday, a bad day or weather wise. This prolonged rain may halt work on the burial site. Most people are reluctant to talk about F M D now, even if it was one of the worst economic and social disasters to hit this country and this County in particular. Now that it is over, people's memories begin to fade. However, some of us are not happy at having these two disposal sites within a 1000 metres of this village. FMD may be over but these burial sites are here for a long time yet.\n\n\nDiary 13\nObserved in work on burial site. More heavy machinery and plant moved in and large quantities of soil are being laid down and smoothed out.\n\n\nDiary 14\nTalked to some religious today about the after-effects of FMD. Without exception, they are not interested! It's all over with an idle one to be reminded about it are the general comments. Nobody seems bothered that there are hundreds of animals buried a 1000 yards from his village or the fact that there is leachate and pyre ash buried in another site. Looking at the burial site and the work that is going on there, it does look as though the management there are doing everything to make the site safe.\n\n\nDiary 15\nI met a smallholder today to whom I have talked to in the past about the effects and after-effects of FMD. He still not happy about the burial site despite the landscaping and smoothing off of the large quantities of topsoil, only time will tell he says. He does not have any stock near to the site but he has sheep on the farmer's land. Since FMD finished though his stock movements are still restricted by new legislation that has come in since the area was declared free. For instance, or if he takes a sheep to auction, he asked to have nine pieces of paper for this transaction. If the price is not right and he has to take the she back to his land he was put them back in the same field that they came from and it cannot move them to three weeks. He then has to obtain a licence to do this. He does think that the authorities are not going to be as strict shortly. This is just one of the precautions that have come in to try and combat any recurrence of FMD.\n\n\nDiary 16\nI met the smallholder who rents land a from the farmer in the village. His income from the sheep that he a breeds has been nil, like many more people in similar circumstances. Fortunately for him had he has an income from another source. The subject of compensation came up during our conversation. I personally do not have any comment to make about this item as it maybe just a rumour, apparently he got it bee in his bonnet about compensation paid out to people who were not in the agricultural business. What seemed to upset him was that he had heard that some of fish and chip shop owner in the Lake District had been paid £170 per month compensation for the loss of trade. He didn't mind too much that hoteliers and guest house owners had claimed compensation, but wondered where else would this kind of money go when he himself had been paid nothing. This is the first time I've heard this one!\n\n\nDiary 17\nAttended the Cumberland Show at every to be park Carlisle. We, as a family used to attend this annual show regularly, both as spectators and competitors. We have never seen the show like the one put on this year, when will things really get back to normal? Many of us think that agriculture is back to pre-FMD. Cattle and sheep on grazing in the fields, lambing has reached new heights in produce on some farms. Calves are being born, silage and haymaking is progressing when the weather permits. But there are still restrictions on animal movements. Hence, no sheep cattle or pigs at this year's show only horses, poultry, dogs and rabbits. Not many pieces of agricultural machinery onshore either. Plenty of Chartered Accountants tents, craft tents, Horse feeds and tack, displays in the main arena and bands. Not an agricultural show as we knew it. It seems to be the same at other shows, Ennerdale show is one of our local shows. This year there isn't going to be any horses or sheep. Generally there are no cattle shown at the show, but without sheep (hill farmers dominate the show) the there isn't going to be much on show at all. It was always a good show for equestrian events at many levels. This show was always a must for our family. I don't think that we will be going this year.\n\n\nDiary 18\nFrom the golf course and golf driving range I can look out on to the western side of the burial site. I have written in previous weeks about the work there has been going on at this site. Viewing the site are from our village side, would hardly know what that there ever was a burial site. Hundreds of tons of topsoil had been laid and smoothed out to make more-or-less like a landscaped feature. It looks really good. From the western side though, things are little different. Work is still going on there, large amounts of soil have been tipped and levelled off. There are still Portakabins there and heavy plant can still be seen moving about. No doubt the western side well look as good as the eastern side before long.\n\n\nDiary 19\nIt is announced that the Prime Minister and his wife and son of his family at a visit to Cumbria. The PM arrives in West Cumbria, all kinds of reports are written in the local and national press about what he is going to do or not do or what he should be doing. After all, he is on holiday. The PM did meet some farmers' leaders, the press as usual stirred things up or as to where he should be meeting. Tourism officials say that the trip was fantastic for tourism in the county. Or person they I can't see what difference it made. If people want to come Cumbria, they will come irrespective of whether the PM comes or not.\n\n\nDiary 20\nAfter a lot of protests it looks as though it the 20 day restriction on cattle Movement will be lifted. Perhaps this will now mean that they could be cattle and sheep entries at local agricultural shows. Some shows are going ahead with very limited entries of livestock and some with no animal entries at all. These shows have always been very popular with my family for over 20 years. Also, living with in a farming community makes us feel part of the annual agricultural scene.\n\n\nDiary 21\nI’ve written before regarding agricultural shows and the pride in which local people take in these shows. Although a lot of shows have gone ahead this season, they have had a reduced animal showing or in some cases no animals at all. Today I’ve heard that one show has been cancelled altogether. This particular show is one of the most popular in the area. Maybe because of lack of entries or the organisers just wanted to cancel because of the 3 week restriction on animal movement. I don’t know. Perhaps it would be better to cancel them than have a depleted show.\n\n\nDiary 22\nSpent a few hours in the fells today. It was good to be able to wander the familiar paths and let our dog run free. It was a good boost to our moral and perhaps the dog’s too! We all missed being able to do this last year.\n\n\nDiary 23\nLast Bank Holiday before Xmas and the last before the schools go back. At the golf course where I help out part-time during the summer we had lots of customers. A lot of them commented on how enjoyable it was to be on holiday in this area this year, compared to the restrictions that were in place last year. Maybe the holiday establishments are getting back to normal. There are no restrictions put on them like there is in place now with farmers and agriculture.\n\n\nDiary 26\nSorting through the mail left whilst away on holiday and I came across a notice sent by the village committee notifying a Harvest Thanksgiving festival to be held next month in the village hall. As we have no church in the village, it is being held in some farm buildings in the centre of the village. This will be a splendid event. The farm did not have FMD but couldn’t take animals from one field to another and couldn’t market them. When we consider the gloom that settled on this farm and community, it is very welcome to have this unique event here in the heart of the village and the farmer and his wife will be at the centre of events. A lovely gesture and I hope it will be well supported. There will be a distribution of harvest gifts afterwards, what a change from a year ago!\n\n\nDiary 27\nWith the aid of binoculars I have been able to have a closer look at the burial site from a westerly direction. There are vents in the shape of small towers to extract gas from the site. There are pipes connecting these vents. A lot of work is still going on there. However, all this takes place in the Western side which is the opposite side to where my village is situated. From our side there is nothing to suggest the amount of work going on. Because of this, FMD is pushed further into the backs of villager’s minds. It is something in the past. It has happened, so what? People like myself who talk to farmers and agriculturalists do not easily forget these events. Personally I am still concerned about the burial site. When inquiries are made about it, all we can do is accept what we are told. It does not look as though every precaution is being taken to alleviate an odours or contamination. \n\n\nDiary 28\nI had to see the village farmer on another matter and was asked inside for coffee and a chat. He was able to tell me of the full implications of the ’20 day rule’. He accepts that this is a precaution to prevent another outbreak of FMD, but there is a lot of work involved. He told me of an isolation area that he has created and also the fencing arrangements where his land adjoins the neighbours land. I would say that 95% of the public don’t know about this even if they have heard of the 20 day rule. For him (he owns the largest farm in the area) it is bad enough having to do all the physical work as regards fencing, etc. But for anyone such as a small holder, it must be a nightmare if he has to bring animals back from market that haven’t been sold. \nFriday, my wife and I played a round of golf at Aspatria. This course was badly restricted when FMD hit this area. We were reminded that there are restrictions on adjoining land. There were notices asking people who hit balls onto farm land not to cross the fence to retrieve them because of FMD precautions. This was news to us. It does make sense though. The farmer wouldn’t know where players had been walking prior to playing golf. \n\n\nDiary 29\nAttended the Harvest Festival held in  the village farm, a large cattle shed had been cleaned and decorated for this event, chairs had been brought in, fruit and vegetables were on display for auctioning at the end. The place was packed! A lot of money was raised and it was a very happy event, well supported and a big boost for the farm and the village.\nI don’t think that the general public care much about FMD now that is has been a year since the last case was confirmed in Cumbria. The public may be reminded if they read the local newspapers intently, for instance, there was a letter to the editor published recently which referred to the results of the Cumbria Inquiry into FMD. It may have been a farmer who wrote it, I don’t know, but the writer certainly went to town in the scathing comments on the handling of FMD. Even caustic remarks regarding the efforts since FMD of DEFRA and Mrs Beckett. I certainly wouldn’t like to cross the writer, I also think the farming community must be holding it’s breath in case the present restrictions such as they are, prove to be worthless. Then we will all suffer, again!\n\n\nWeek 30\nWhat a difference a year makes! Despite some restrictions on public access to agricultural fields in some areas of the county, it doesn’t apply here. Although most locals confine themselves to footpaths and bridleways, other people seem to think that all fields are recreation areas. They walk and run across some of the fields in close proximity to the village. Regardless of the presence of stock they exercise dogs and treat it as a some kind of park. One farmer is well know for being aggressive, he used last year’s FMD outbreak to run people off his land.\nI met a local councillor who expressed concerns regarding the proposed building of an incinerator to the south of the village on the current open cast mining site. The two waste disposal sites to the west and north-west of the village have become big issues in the last 18 months due to the burial of animals and the disposal of pyre ash and leachates. It seems as though we are going to get over this ghastly FMD outbreak only to have this scenario thrust upon us.\n\n\nWeek 31\nMet a small-holder who keeps sheep near to this village. He was very scathing over the report that the Government and DEFRA don’t want to talk up an offer from the Local Authorities here to implement findings and recommendations from their local inquiry over FMD. Why? What has this Government, who didn’t perform very well during the outbreak, got to hide and why shirk away from the findings instead of facing up to the failings that we all know about. It also seems that they don’t want to make any safeguards and recommendations to avoid a further outbreak. As a non-agriculturalist, it doesn’t surprise me in the least. After all, Government has failed other industries in the country for as long as I can remember.\n\n\nWeek 32\nI am convinced that authorities in the area must think that the way animals were buried here and pyre ash and leachate were disposed of at another site nearby was all done as very successfully and that the two sites handled everything professionally. Therefore the sites would be more than capable of handling ash from an incinerator. To me, this is the legacy of FMD. I am most annoyed over this, together with a lot more of the villagers. This village no longer has a representative on the parish council, both have resigned for whatever reason and no-one will step forward to take it one. I have said that I would take a set on the parish council to represent the village and fight for our rights and future quality of life. Due to this, I have uncovered a pile of claims and counter-claims. It seems that both parish and district counsellors know what is going on (regarding the incinerator) and that developers have made ‘concessions’ to some councillors. Also there are claims that the developers have offered money to local landowners and farmers so that roads can be put in. All these accusations have been strongly denied. At the same time it is rumoured that some farmers have been offered local fields nearby. Because of what I have discovered in my own investigations, it would seem that a lot of friendships gained over 20 years could come to an end, I am fearful of what I have uncovered. There are also claims that ‘councillors are only in it for what there can get out and are not to be trusted.’ I don’t want that said of me. Also by the time all this is sorted out, I will be 70-75,  I certainly don’t want to be fighting peoples battles at that age. However, I will support any effort to stop the proposed development. \n\n\nWeek 33\nOnce again the large farm in the centre of the village was the venue for the annual Guy Fawkes bonfire and fireworks. Organisers had been round the village asking for donations to provide fireworks. A tractor and trailer toured the areas picking up things for the bonfire. Drinks and food were served in a barn after the fireworks. This is another occasion when villagers and the farming community come together. It is perhaps the only time that the general public of the village think about FMD and last years events, if only briefly. The farmer remarked that is the third time this year that there has been a public function on his farm. The first was the jubilee party in June, then on October 6th the Harvest Festival service. These events keep farming in the public eye.\n\n\nWeek 34\nI haven’t written before about the proposed building of an incinerator nearby to burn the counties waste. If , as we all suspect, the incinerator is built, then the odours plus the disposal of ash (to the FMD waste site) is a legacy of FMD, particularly regarding the nearby burial and disposal site.\n\n\nWeek 35\nThis is week 35 of this project and for most of the 35 weeks I have written that I am not confident of the future. There are numerous reasons for this. Mainly the situation in the Middle East. Today I travelled to Keswick to do some Xmas shopping. I was given a lift there by a neighbour who is in his 30s. He was very upset about the terrorist situation, not only was he concerned about the terror threat to the London Underground, but the threat closer to home as regards a plane crashing into the nearby Sellafield complex. We don’t know the effect that this constant bad news has on people. People who have already got serious worries, e.g., families, housing, finance, etc must feel really depressed about it all.\n\n\nWeek 36\nNear to the next village is a long established farm of many acres. Recently the farm’s stock of animals and machinery was sold off. The owner, who had farmed for sixty years was leaving to live with one of his brothers. He said that he wouldn’t know how he would feel when he left the farm for the last time this weekend. The farmhouse hasn’t been sold yet and now stands empty. It’s a strange place now, where everything was hustle and bustle (they even had a B & B business there) is now derelict and bare. It’s a sad reflection on the agricultural business in the wake of FMD. This farm isn’t the only one in the area that has sold up. Some farm houses remain as dwellings, but this particular one which we saw nearly every day is just an other sad reminder of the way farming has declined in this rural area.\n\n\nWeek 39\nTuesday.  Boarded the train  at Penrith to journey to Crewe to see our daughter.  During the journey I got into conversation with a fellow passenger.  He noticed I had got on the train at Penrith and perhaps thought I was connected with the agricultural industry.  The conversation drifted into the previous years FMD outbreak.  It is rather strange, that I live in a very rural area, and , FMD is rarely mentioned now.  However, this fellow passenger (although not from an agricultural background) gave his views on the handling of the situation.  It was no different from the views expressed by locals at the time of the crisis.  It just goes to show that FMD is very much in peoples minds even if they were not connected to agriculture in any way.\n\n\nWeek 40\nFriday.  Now that the MEP have published their critical report on the FMD crisis, it is interesting to read an article published in our local weekly paper, from a reader … (Article entitled ‘Foot and Mouth Report’ included). \nI don’t have the knowledge or the data to support this readers comments.  However, I have heard plenty of stories from mainly unreliable sources, to confirm what he says.  It makes interesting reading I think.\n\n\nWeek 41\nTuesday.  No wonder my confidence in the future has taken a big plunge over the last few months.  The situation in Iraq doesn’t get any better.  Mr Tony Blair’s message to the Armed Forces of the UK bear this out.  Being an ex-serviceman, I know what the situation holds for our troops.  But, are we right to follow the USA in a war against Iraq?  No doubt Saddam Hussein does pose a threat but so does India and Pakistan to each other.  Each of these two relatively poor countries has threatened each other as regards their nuclear arsenals.  Now, the loose cannon in the form of North Korea is positioning itself as regards its position in the nuclear arms league.  Personally, I think that North Korea poses a more dangerous threat than Iraq.  It is not a very happy New Year for a lot of people.  Perhaps it will all be settled diplomatically.  I wonder.\n\n\nWeek 42\nNothing of any importance to write about due to refurbishment at home.\n\n\nWeek 43\nMonday.  One of the items on the agenda for this months meeting of Distington Parish Council is a report on the wood-felling and the implications of this.  As I have written in the diary before, there are strong rumours of the proposed plan to fell woods, build a new road through the felled site and bring coal from the nearby opencast site to link up with an existing road, then, to transport the coal to a storage area on Workington Dock.  Then, when the coal is worked out, to build an incinerator on the coal site.  Ash from this development would then be transported on the ‘new’ road to be disposed of on the waste disposal site that was used for FMD pyre ash and leachate.\nThursday.  Read a report of the aforesaid meeting.  The owners have declared that our worries are groundless.  In fact, they say that they plan to eventually open the woodland to the public (the owners of the woodland are the same operators of the opencast coal site).  Footpaths will be created if a grant can be obtained.  A wooden wheeled ancient water mill will be restored.  After the closed meeting the operations director of the site said that ‘There has been a misunderstanding.  What we are doing will benefit local people’.  He said that a management project for the wood is being followed involving felling dead trees and fresh planting.  He added: “The felling and replanting will be done this year after which it will take time to become established.  We’re talking of a ten year programme but it should have long-term benefits.  I think our PR at the start of this wasn’t very good and in the future we will let the council know of our plans”.  The council agreed to keep a watch on the work here in G.\nThis statement differs greatly from what some of us have been told by our village-based County Councillor.  There has never been any suggestion that the felled woods would become a land fill site, but would be felled to provide the new road.  There was nothing mentioned at the meeting regarding the proposed incinerator being built.  The County Council … that this has ever been planned.  However, our representative is adamant that this is not so.\n\n\nWeek 44\nTuesday.  For the first time, my property has finally overcome a situation that was affected by FMD.  \nIn July 2000, the electricity supplier notified me to say that the trees in my garden had grown so tall that the topmost branches were in close contact with an eleven thousand volt overhead power line and that they should be felled or severely pruned.  After some further negotiations it was decided to prune to some height that I wasn’t happy with.  Although the treetops were not actually touching the wires, it was considered a risk in the forthcoming months.  However, as time passed I couldn’t wait for the foresters to arrive, so I pruned the trees myself.\nIn January 2001, the electric supplier suggested that the trees should be pruned further.  A date was agreed but the foresters didn’t arrive.  Time dragged on and the trees grew back to their original height.  Again, the electric supplier suggested they be pruned or felled.  A new date was agreed upon.  However, the foresters couldn’t do the job because the isolator switch was on farmland and they couldn’t get access to it because of FMD restrictions.  And so it dragged on!  Despite visits by foresters and electric supplier reps. the trees got bigger and I was forbidden to touch them.  Neighbours could hear crackling noises coming from the wires and it became very worrying.  People suggested that I should ‘do something about it’.  I took the matter up directly with the supplier and the foresters.  I was promised dates only for them to be cancelled.  In December 2002, a date of 21st January 2003 was given.  This time, they came and we agreed that two trees be felled and another pruned.  After 30 months it finally happened. \nThursday.  Met a small holder who has his land on the edge of this village, who told me that the 20 day rule of animal restriction of animal movement was being lifted and replaced by a 6 day restriction.  This was good news for him and any other farmer.  Later that day I met another farmer who didn’t know that the restriction was being lifted.  You would have thought that I had told him he’d won the lottery!  Good news all round for the people.\nFriday.  Listening to the local radio today and was surprised to hear a report that the Citizens Advice Bureau in a small Lakeland town had been receiving clients who were still experiencing hardship due to FMD.  It is now 18 months since the last outbreak and the effects (according to the person being interviewed) were still being felt.  Not just by farmers and agriculturists, but by guest houses, hotels, tradesmen and in particular, some self employed.  Debt seems to be the biggest problem.  It seems as though some people had weathered the hardships of FMD initially only to find that their plans had come adrift somehow afterwards.  Quite disturbing to hear that the situation is still with us in this county to some degree. \n\n\nWeek 45\nThese diaries were instituted to deal with the after effects of FMD.  Although there were no cases of FMD in this village, everyone knew about it, particularly as nearly everyone who went to work from here would pass the main farm in the village centre, or, some of the farms on the outskirts of the village.\nNow that FMD is over, most people who live here don’t seem to think about it anymore.  The only people affected are the farmers, naturally.\nThis is a strange village in lots of ways.  Only the farmer and his immediate family are connected with agriculture.  The rest are professional people or people who work at nearby Sellafield, industries in Workington and Whitehaven, or are retired.  There is no church, no village pub, no village shop, no village community centre or meeting place.  Only tradesmen that call are the milkman and the solid fuel merchant.  We are left to ‘get on with life’ in our own way.  The parish of Distington to which we belong have all the facilities associated with a larger community, such as a church, pub and community centre.  All of which are two miles away.  Consequently, the Parish Council meets there once a month and discusses all the problems of the area including ours.  However, our representative on the council has resigned and no-one has come forward to represent us.  Anything that has been discussed at the Parish Council is reported in he local newspaper.  \nVillage pubs are a good venue to discuss local issues and to exchange views and, mainly, to gossip.  Village ‘tittle tattle’ as I call it!  As we have no pub, the gossip is rife from one source or another with bits added on or left out as is the choice of the person concerned.  Quite a lot of people one meets are ‘experts’ in their own particular choice of subject whether it is politics, finance or Mrs Jones current boy friend.  It is a fault to take on board all that is gossiped about when one meets a fellow villager in the country lanes whilst out walking the dog.\n\n  \nWeek 46\nIllness to a family member.\n\n\nWeek 47\nContinued illness.\n\n\nWeek 48\nOver the past few weeks there has been a lot of tree felling in the nearby woods.  This has led to a lot of disturbance to the villagers because of the use of large vehicles needed to remove the felled timber and also the foresters vehicles churning up the grass verges and the ditches.\nA lot of concern was raised about the necessity of all the tree felling.  These concerns were raised in the press and also in the parish council.  (I have written about these in diaries in the last few weeks).\nIt was reported in mid-January that all the felled woods would be replanted this year, with footpaths created for the enjoyment of the local population.  Now, all timber operations have ceased.  Large areas of woodland have been left partly felled and a lot of felled timber is left lying about.  Foresters vehicles have gone and nothing is happening.  Despite assurances from the developers, it looks as though something drastic has happened.  Village ‘tittle tattle’ says that the foresters have not been paid for their work so far and that the developers have run out of money.  If this is so, what is going to happen now?\nWhen felling started late last year, I contacted two environmental agencies regarding the threat to the red squirrels, badgers and buzzards that occupy these woods.  I was told that it was only a partial felling and they (the environmental agencies) were satisfied that any disturbances would be slight.  I think that they were told this by the developers, and accepted what they were told without a site visit.  The developers have been known to mislead groups in the past, including landowners, farmers, councils and individuals.\nI, personally am not happy about this situation.  I have always took a keen interest in wildlife and feel that we have been let down by the lies of developers and the lack of serious interest from wildlife agencies, some of which are an offshoot of central Government.  I for one will keep a close look on the situation with or without other villagers and in particular, local councillors.\n\n\nWeek 49\nBy chance I met three small holders all at the same time.  They were discussing farming by the roadside.  All of them were pleased that the 20-day ruling was coming to an end and that their lives were more or less coming back to normal.  They also expressed the opinion that the 20-day rule and the 6-day rule were only in force to protect their interests.  However, they were unanimous in their condemnation over the importing of foreign meat and meat products into this country.  They feel that foreign meat is not subjected to enough checks before entry into the United Kingdom.\n\n\nWeek 51\nMet a farmer today who told me that he’d seen a report based on findings by the EU and DEFRA. It stated all the things that everyone who is an agriculturalist and those who take an interest in the countryside had been saying about what was wrong with the handlers of the FMD outbreak. It just proves that it doesn’t take an academic genius to know what should have been done at the time. Everyone can be wiser after the event, but statements by the NFU and individuals at the onset were not heeded. For example, the movement of animals should have been halted sooner and the Army should have been brought in much sooner. Now, the question of vaccination rumbles on. Should we or shouldn’t we vaccinate? There is a fear of the outbreak again, particularly when the findings of the 1960 outbreak were not implemented. \nSince the sadness of FMD, there has been quite a few instances of socialising at the farm, such as harvest festival, jubilee party and almost any excuse for a ‘shindig’, good to see farmers enjoying themselves.\n\nWeek 52\nMet out local farmer who told me that there is to be new legislation to dispose of fallen stock. No longer can a farmer bury fallen stock on his land, but must now provide an incinerator to dispose of dead animals. This must be a costly business, could dead animals not be taken to a central point and burned?\n\n\nWeek 54\nOne thing about FMD was the effect that it had on the poaching fraternity. Living in a rural area, we expect this to happen. Nobody seems to mind that a few rabbits and pheasants go missing. What is really alarming is the use of dogs and high-powered rifles to poach deer. FMD put a stop to all this. Now a neighbour has told me of poachers near to the village using rifles and shooting deer. The only people benefiting from this are the poachers and hoteliers who receive these dead beasts and no questions asked. Also the danger of villagers being hit by stray rifle shots causes alarm to others.\n\n\nWeek 55\nI think that there is a lot of jumping on the band wagon now that FMD has cleared up. For instance, I listened to an interview on the local radio station given by a hotelier. Things weren’t going well in his establishment. Having got over FMD and its implications, visitors were slowly returning to the area, but not in sufficient numbers to cause great joy. \n
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                                                                                                                                                    [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1975, gender, m, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, diary, 1, thursday, meeting, n, lakes, friday, tb, testing, on, restocking, farm, usual, chat, and, defra, comments, the, meeting, research, panel, gp, 6, at, the, north, lakes, was, interesting, it, surprises, me, sometimes, how, people, myself, included, never, seem, to, tire, of, the, same, stories, and, complaints, over, how, the, crisis, was, handled, some, of, the, episodes, recounted, must, have, been, told, dozens, of, times, over, the, last, year, but, whoever, says, it, always, seems, just, as, keen, to, say, it, again, perhaps, a, reflection, of, how, deeply, people, feel, about, the, events, of, the, last, year, having, said, that, most, of, the, resentments, and, rants, that, i, hear, on, daily, farm, visits, are, focused, fairly, and, squarely, at, defra, and, not, fmd, virus, farmers, seem, far, more, upset, at, the, constriction, put, on, them, by, defra, than, they, do, by, the, loss, of, stock, now, although, i, know, and, saw, how, utterly, devastated, most, were, when, they, were, actually, diagnosed, with, the, virus, and, in, the, week, or, two, following, my, work, in, the, practice, is, becoming, less, and, less, fmd, orientated, as, time, goes, on, licensing, and, restocking, visits, are, drawing, to, a, close, and, we, are, starting, to, return, to, normal, vet, work, my, life, has, been, more, settled, since, the, end, of, fmd, although, there, was, never, a, real, threat, of, redundancy, there, was, a, great, deal, of, uncertainty, as, to, what, form, work, would, take, during, the, outbreak, it, was, never, clear, whether, i, would, be, based, at, the, practice, or, working, as, a, defra, vet, from, month, to, month, now, that, it, is, finished, i, hope, the, practice, and, my, work, can, get, back, to, a, routine, and, at, least, knowing, where, i’ll, be, based, each, day, even, if, not, which, calls, are, going, to, come, in, with, regard, to, fmd, the, biggest, influence, it, has, at, the, moment, and, over, the, last, week, is, acting, as, a, listener, to, farmers, who, still, talk, about, it, and, defra, a, great, deal, diary, 2, mon, shap, restocking, having, to, justify, visit, wed, melmerby, i, went, to, see, a, farmer, this, week, to, do, the, first, inspection, of, his, sentinel, animals, that, he, is, restocking, his, farm, in, common, with, many, farmers, he, was, unwavering, in, his, conviction, that, his, animals, had, been, deliberately, infected, and, that, tony, blair, or, defra, were, the, ultimate, culprits, the, belief, is, that, they, want, to, put, farmers, out, of, business, this, particular, farmer, made, the, very, valid, point, that, defra, co, had, underestimated, the, resilience, of, the, farming, community, i, think, that, this, has, been, very, striking, considering, the, strain, that, they, have, been, under, in, some, cases, worse, for, those, who, didn’t, get, fmd, than, for, those, who, did, it, has, been, remarkable, how, little, the, majority, of, our, clients, have, changed, admittedly, we, see, most, of, them, on, a, professional, basis, regarding, their, animals, health, and, not, their, own, but, on, the, whole, they, seem, to, have, been, very, forward, thinking, about, the, outbreak, many, have, taken, it, as, a, chance, to, increase, the, size, of, herds, and, to, eliminate, many, other, diseases, as, well, as, fmd, work, in, the, practice, has, been, fairly, steady, as, week, the, number, of, fmd, calls, is, decreasing, one, of, the, problems, with, doing, restocking, licensing, and, tb, calls, is, that, we, are, on, the, farm, at, defra’s, instruction, normally, it, is, the, farmer, who, calls, us, out, and, this, can, cause, friction, anything, related, to, defra, will, put, hackles, up, 9, times, out, of, 10, it, definitely, causes, stress, at, times, but, puts, my, diplomacy, skills, into, good, practice, it, sometimes, feels, as, though, some, farmers, just, need, an, outlet, and, i, fit, the, bill, after, agreeing, with, everything, they, say, and, sympathising, it, usually, smoothes, out, and, ends, with, a, cup, of, tea, but, it, does, feel, as, though, we, have, to, justify, what, we, are, doing, much, more, than, prior, to, february, 2001, diary, 3, this, week, was, the, anniversary, of, the, week, i, went, to, my, first, ip, and, associated, slaughter, pyre, building, etc, at, several, times, during, the, week, i, found, myself, thinking, this, time, last, year, i, was, although, obviously, not, pleasant, memories, the, thoughts, did, not, particularly, affect, me, in, a, bad, way, or, distract, me, from, work, it, just, took, me, back, to, that, time, when, i, had, time, to, think, i, went, to, see, a, sick, horse, near, carlisle, which, is, where, the, ip, was, and, it, was, interesting, to, drive, past, the, farm, and, see, animals, in, the, buildings, again, hopefully, the, farmer, concerned, is, getting, back, on, track, again, with, respect, to, daily, routine, work, is, getting, very, busy, lambing, time, is, starting, to, really, get, going, with, the, inevitable, increase, in, calls, although, it, can, be, hectic, at, times, it’s, better, to, be, kept, busy, rather, than, having, it, too, quiet, it’s, also, good, to, actually, be, doing, lambings, and, other, sheep, work, as, it’s, two, years, since, we, did, any, apart, from, euthanasing, sheep, last, year, on, monday, i, went, to, do, a, re, stocking, check, on, a, farm, the, farmer, is, convinced, he, was, given, fmd, deliberately, and, on, arrival, i, was, given, his, weekly, tirade, regarding, defra, tony, blair, how, i, must, have, made, thousands, of, pounds, out, of, it, etc, etc, after, sometime, of, not, rising, to, the, bait, he, calmed, down, and, half, an, hour, later, was, sweetness, and, light, perhaps, he, just, needs, someone, to, let, pressure, out, to, only, one, session, like, that, a, week, isn’t, too, bad, considering, how, many, farm, visits, we, do, diary, 4, monday, brought, another, dressing, down, from, the, farmer, i, mentioned, last, week, it, was, shorter, and, less, passionate, this, time, perhaps, he’s, mellowing, a, bit, i, drove, up, to, junction, 40, one, day, with, the, sun, out, it, reminded, me, of, a, similar, day, a, year, ago, when, i, could, count, 15, smoke, plumes, from, pyres, on, the, same, bit, of, road, as, i, said, last, week, anniversary, memories, like, this, aren’t, especially, difficult, for, me, they’re, just, there, in, a, lot, of, ways, it’s, quite, satisfying, thinking, about, what, was, happening, a, year, ago, and, how, well, things, have, progressed, since, then, most, of, our, farmers, have, re, stocked, work, is, returning, to, normal, even, things, like, being, able, to, drive, onto, farms, again, rather, than, having, to, leave, the, car, at, the, farm, entrance, makes, a, big, difference, work, continues, to, be, very, busy, with, the, typical, seasonal, calls, to, sheep, and, cattle, we, have, a, couple, of, vet, students, doing, work, experience, with, us, which, had, to, stop, last, march, as, we, couldn’t, take, extras, onto, farms, with, us, another, sign, of, the, continuing, return, to, normality, some, days, it, seems, as, if, we, have, returned, to, how, we, were, a, year, ago, the, most, obvious, legacy, is, perhaps, the, thorough, and, extensive, clothing, disinfection, between, each, farm, a, good, habit, which, is, very, hard, to, break, diary, 5, i, had, to, work, on, easter, monday, morning, which, was, fairly, uneventful, as, for, the, last, few, weeks, there, were, the, usual, seasonal, calls, to, sheep, and, cattle, but, nothing, too, stressful, on, tuesday, i, did, the, final, blood, sampling, on, the, last, farm, that, we, have, that, is, still, at, the, sentinel, stage, of, re, stocking, the, farmers, seemed, fairly, mellow, today, and, spared, me, the, usual, lecture, attempt, at, argument, perhaps, it’s, because, the, end, of, his, restriction, is, in, sight, the, test, went, very, smoothly, and, i, didn’t, hear, from, him, until, the, end, of, the, week, when, i, he, was, upset, probably, justifiably, that, his, results, still, weren’t, back, as, processing, the, bloods, is, not, our, responsibility, all, i, could, do, was, sympathise, and, plead, ignorance, the, rest, of, the, week, was, fairly, routine, work, wise, friday, was, taken, up, doing, a, big, tuberculin, and, brucellosis, test, on, a, re, stocked, farm, they, all, have, to, be, done, within, 3, mths, of, re, stocking, although, it, was, a, big, job, it, was, a, well, run, farm, with, plenty, of, help, so, we, got, finished, within, the, day, and, with, as, few, delays, as, could, be, expected, now, that, the, evenings, are, lighter, it’s, meant, that, on, nights, off, duty, i’ve, been, able, to, get, out, more, it’s, made, a, very, welcome, change, to, be, able, to, bike, walk, on, the, fells, again, this, year, after, all, the, restrictions, of, 2001, long, may, it, and, the, weather, continue, diary, 6, finally, finished, the, last, a, restocking, jobs, on, monday, the, farmer, was, getting, very, frustrated, probably, justifiably, so, at, the, length, of, time, it, was, taking, the, bank, holidays, etc, last, week, meant, to, that, the, labs, were, closed, so, that, blood, samples, took, longer, to, process, i, got, the, results, at, 4, 45, monday, evening, and, in, an, attempt, to, create, some, goodwill, agreed, to, go, to, the, farm, to, do, a, final, check, that, evening, on, arrival, of, the, usual, tirade, about, defra, and, vet's, came, my, way, which, was, slightly, hard, to, take, he, then, said, that, he, didn't, blame, me, personally, which, was, nice, of, him, i, think, hope, he, realises, that, we, can, only, try, to, get, things, going, faster, and, ultimately, it’s, out, off, our, hands, at, least, it's, good, to, have, all, the, restocking, work, finished, it, feels, as, though, the, first, stage, is, over, in, getting, back, to, where, we, were, another, sign, of, returning, to, usual, is, the, continuing, pace, of, work, nights, on, call, are, again, a, time, for, working, rather, than, the, call, free, nights, of, summer, 2001, this, week, has, brought, early, morning, lambing, most, days, the, rest, of, the, time, we’re, is, as, busy, as, it's, been, for, a, year, the, day, book, is, full, each, day, and, we, all, seem, to, be, driving, around, the, county, more, or, less, keeping, up, with, the, jobs, which, is, a, good, thing, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, was, going, to, go, to, edinburgh, to, see, some, friends, but, in, the, end, stayed, in, penrith, for, some, r, r, diary, 7, i, had, a, half, day, on, monday, and, went, to, riggindale, at, the, head, of, haweswater, with, a, friend, who, had, come, to, stay, for, a, night, or, two, the, plan, was, to, see, the, golden, eagles, nesting, that, up, to, unfortunately, they, were, off, on, a, day, trip, to, another, part, of, the, lake, district, but, the, weather, was, good, and, it, made, a, very, pleasant, change, from, work, the, practice, is, still, going, flat, out, with, seasonal, work, the, daily, flow, of, lambing, and, lambing, related, sheep, problems, shows, no, sign, of, ebbing, there, are, also, increasing, numbers, of, cattle, problems, probably, related, to, coming, towards, the, spring, turn, out, of, cattle, that, have, been, inside, for, 6, 7, months, the, fact, that, most, of, them, are, in, new, surroundings, is, almost, certainly, adding, to, the, problems, on, the, whole, of, farmers, are, fairly, pragmatic, about, the, difficulties, they, are, having, most, accept, that, they, were, bound, to, have, problems, with, the, restocking, and, on, the, whole, are, pleased, just, to, have, stock, on, again, some, are, very, keen, to, be, as, efficient, as, possible, whereas, others, will, more, readily, go, along, with, the, old, farming, mantra, that, where, there's, a, livestock, there's, a, dead, stock, not, quite, what, the, veterinary, profession, wants, to, encourage, i, was, on, call, at, the, weekend, and, had, one, of, the, busier, few, days, i, can, remember, again, it, was, mostly, seasonal, farm, work, which, although, it, was, time, consuming, is, often, quite, rewarding, i'm, still, surprised, by, the, number, of, sheep, we, are, getting, called, to, perhaps, it's, because, farmers, have, spent, a, lot, of, money, on, them, to, restock, with, and, now, feel, they’re, financially, worth, calling, us, for, diary, 8, made, a, couple, of, visits, to, one, of, our, farmers, who, restocked, over, the, winter, this, week, he's, having, a, few, problems, with, cows, getting, ill, and, generally, not, settling, in, very, well, he's, one, of, the, most, amenable, farmers, on, our, books, and, never, seems, to, try, to, blame, anyone, for, his, troubles, at, times, it's, very, frustrating, not, to, be, able, to, do, more, for, people, like, him, i'd, like, to, be, able, to, give, every, one, of, his, cows, a, magic, injection, and, say, that, it'll, get, better, but, unfortunately, that's, not, how, it, works, we've, had, a, lot, of, colt, castrations, to, do, this, week, which, is, normal, for, this, time, of, year, it, puts, more, pressure, on, us, in, terms, of, work, as, we, usually, take, two, vets, to, each, castration, considering, how, busy, it, is, relations, in, the, practice, are, generally, very, good, it, has, been, stressful, at, times, but, on, the, whole, this, has, been, stress, related, to, volume, of, jobs, to, do, rather, than, people, it, has, also, been, a, very, different, and, preferable, type, of, stress, than, this, time, of, the, last, year, at, least, a, lot, of, work, makes, us, all, feel, fairly, stable, rather, than, the, terrible, uncertainty, of, last, year, we’ve, also, taken, on, an, extra, vet, this, spring, which, would, have, been, unthinkable, last, year, in, the, middle, of, the, week, i, did, a, farm, visit, with, one, of, the, vets, from, the, local, veterinary, lab, to, discuss, disease, control, on, a, re, stocked, farm, most, of, the, work, into, disease, surveillance, on, a, farm, was, defra, funded, which, went, down, well, with, the, farmer, she, at, least, felt, as, though, she, was, getting, something, back, after, fighting, with, defra, for, the, last, few, months, it, was, also, encouraging, to, see, someone, taking, a, very, positive, approach, to, disease, control, in, the, future, my, cousin, and, some, of, his, friends, came, down, from, glasgow, for, the, weekend, to, go, into, the, lake, district, the, weather, was, good, on, the, whole, and, several, people, noted, how, good, it, was, to, have, the, paths, open, again, diary, 9, started, the, week, doing, a, big, tuberculin, and, brucellosis, test, at, a, restocked, farm, there, has, been, a, big, backlog, to, clear, after, testing, was, stopped, during, fmd, last, year, so, we, have, to, catch, up, with, those, farms, that, didn’t, get, the, disease, but, are, due, a, test, as, well, as, testing, the, restocking, farms, we’re, all, very, keen, to, keep, cumbria, as, a, tb, free, zone, but, with, all, the, different, stock, coming, in, it’s, going, to, be, tricky, monday’s, test, was, long, but, okay, on, the, whole, the, set, up, was, good, and, the, farming, family, were, very, pleasant, which, makes, a, huge, difference, to, how, the, day, goes, all, was, clear, when, i, went, to, read, the, test, on, thursday, a, relief, for, all, concerned, overall, work, seems, to, be, quietening, down, a, bit, this, week, compared, to, the, last, few, we, are, now, just, busy, rather, than, always, feeling, as, if, were, one, job, behind, all, the, time, on, wednesday, and, thursday, one, of, our, clients, brought, in, half, a, dozen, shetland, ponies, to, castrate, it, makes, a, change, to, have, a, large, animal, that, is, small, enough, to, be, easily, physically, restrained, by, one, person, the, continuing, good, weather, made, doing, an, afternoon's, work, with, the, ponies, in, the, practice’s, field, a, very, pleasant, way, to, spend, a, few, hours, i, can't, help, feeling, that, no, rain, in, april, means, we'll, get, loads, later, in, the, summer, i, was, on, a, second, call, at, the, weekend, saturday, was, very, busy, with, small, animal, jobs, which, i, mainly, left, to, a, colleague, while, i, tried, to, clear, up, the, farm, and, equine, jobs, calm, was, pretty, much, restored, by, late, afternoon, after, which, i, wasn't, called, until, early, sunday, morning, another, of, our, re, stocked, clients, is, having, considerable, trouble, with, some, of, his, new, animals, and, is, becoming, increasingly, frustrated, about, it, we, all, try, to, help, with, the, medical, side, of, it, animals, but, inevitably, also, get, to, hear, a, lot, of, his, other, worries, too, hopefully, things, will, look, up, soon, and, he'll, be, able, to, ride, it, out, ok, diary, 10, had, a, day, off, on, bank, holiday, monday, always, the, good, way, to, start, the, week, i, went, up, to, peebles, in, scotland, with, some, friends, to, go, mountain, biking, it, was, surprisingly, empty, for, a, weekend, and, the, weather, was, good, and, i, didn't, fall, off, all, in, all, a, good, day, out, tuesday, was, work, as, usual, i, had, to, do, a, small, tb, test, on, a, restocking, farm, it, shouldn't, have, been, a, long, job, but, the, facilities, weren't, great, so, it, didn’t, go, as, slickly, as, it, might, have, done, we, all, managed, to, get, through, in, one, piece, so, it, could, have, been, worse, one, of, my, colleagues, went, on, maternity, this, week, she, is, part, time, but, does, all, small, animal, work, now, that, she's, off, for, the, next, few, months, it, means, that, an, extra, vet, is, needed, each, morning, to, stay, in, and, do, small, animal, operations, while, it's, probably, not, my, favourite, sort, of, work, it, does, make, a, change, from, being, out, on, farms, every, morning, it's, also, good, to, get, a, bit, more, experience, at, small, procedures, as, well, as, doing, smaller, animals, this, week, has, brought, several, interesting, equine, cases, i, had, to, hospitalise, a, horse, for, a, few, days, for, fairly, intensive, treatment, which, fortunately, appears, to, have, made, a, good, recovery, there, have, also, been, a, couple, of, horse, operations, at, the, practice, this, week, they’re, generally, quite, interesting, apart, from, the, stress, involved, with, having, half, a, ton, of, horse, asleep, on, the, operating, table, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, to, edinburgh, for, a, small, reunion, with, friends, i, was, at, college, with, although, we, do, talk, about, other, things, conversation, inevitably, came, round, to, work, the, effect, of, fmd, and, its, consequences, are, still, very, much, in, people's, minds, friends, all, asked, how, it, was, last, year, and, whether, farms, have, restocked, yet, etc, etc, it, s, stuff, which, i, seem, to, have, said, hundreds, of, times, over, the, last, few, months, but, people, never, seem, to, tire, of, asking, it, and, to, an, extent, i, don't, seem, to, get, bored, of, answering, it, diary, 11, the, week, started, with, a, big, tb, test, at, a, restocking, dairy, farm, there, were, very, good, facilities, and, it, subsequently, went, very, smoothly, and, quickly, despite, the, number, of, cows, involved, the, farmer, seems, to, be, quite, positive, about, the, new, start, and, has, been, spared, a, lot, of, the, problems, that, other, people, have, experienced, while, restocking, in, terms, of, disease, in, the, animals, everything, was, clear, when, i, read, the, test, later, in, the, week, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, had, a, bit, of, a, change, as, i, went, castrate, two, ponies, belonging, to, my, mother, she, had, bought, two, totally, wild, fell, ponies, last, autumn, they, now, a, bit, tamer, but, not, completely, used, to, being, handled, yet, i, went, with, one, of, our, nurses, and, the, senior, partner, and, it, all, went, pretty, much, to, plan, work, is, still, busy, there's, one, client, in, particular, who, is, giving, us, a, lot, to, do, he, restocked, a, few, months, ago, and, is, obviously, having, trouble, lambing, his, sheep, it, got, a, bit, trying, when, i, had, to, get, up, to, his, third, lambing, of, one, night, but, that's, what, we, are, there, for, i, suppose, he's, a, nice, man, and, always, seems, pleased, to, see, us, which, helps, i, had, the, weekend, off, again, and, went, to, glasgow, to, be, best, man, at, my, cousin's, wedding, apart, from, the, weather, it, went, very, well, i, think, with, no, unsolvable, problems, diary, 12, started, the, week, with, a, long, visit, for, dairy, fertility, work, to, one, of, our, big, dairy, farmers, it's, one, of, the, farmers, who, has, been, having, problems, after, restocking, and, a, visit, that, another, vet, usually, does, so, i, felt, a, bit, under, pressure, it's, the, type, of, work, which, is, very, routine, but, has, the, potential, to, go, quite, badly, wrong, on, the, whole, it, went, fairly, well, with, no, major, problems, i, get, on, pretty, well, with, the, farmer, which, always, helps, as, it, makes, the, time, go, by, quicker, small, animal, work, is, still, quite, busy, i, had, two, days, inside, this, week, doing, small, animals, operations, there, wasn't, anything, particularly, different, or, unusual, but, it, still, helps, to, do, more, of, it, one, of, our, farmers, who, managed, to, miss, fmd, is, very, busy, with, his, calving, schedule, at, the, moment, he’s, tending, to, have, very, big, calves, and, subsequently, we’re, doing, a, lot, of, caesareans, there, this, week, has, brought, at, least, half, a, dozen, of, which, two, were, in, the, middle, of, the, night, there, have, been, a, few, vets, are, looking, sleep, deprived, recently, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, so, see, a, couple, of, friends, in, edinburgh, we, spent, one, day, cycling, in, peebles, and, then, proceeded, to, nothing, strenuous, for, the, next, diary, 13, the, week, started, with, a, big, session, dehorning, cattle, it’s, not, exactly, technical, work, and, is, fairly, hard, work, at, least, it, gets, me, fit, we, would, normally, do, them, at, a, younger, age, but, quite, a, few, have, been, missed, as, we, didn’t, get, out, onto, farms, for, such, routine, work, last, year, on, the, whole, most, people, are, fairly, well, caught, up, now, that, they’ve, re, stocked, been, having, routine, work, done, for, the, last, 8, months, or, so, but, there, are, still, a, few, lagging, behind, i, had, a, call, from, a, farmer, who, was, one, of, our, most, consistently, and, vehemently, anti, defra, people, last, year, i, ended, up, doing, a, caesarean, and, had, quite, a, long, chat, with, him, conversation, ended, up, coming, round, to, the, events, of, last, year, and, he, aired, his, resentments, again, it, was, the, first, time, in, several, weeks, that, i, had, heard, this, kind, of, talk, whereas, a, few, months, ago, it, would, have, been, a, daily, occurrence, it, wasn’t, particularly, aimed, at, me, or, the, practice, in, particular, but, just, frustration, with, the, system, as, a, whole, i, went, for, a, walk, up, blencathra, one, evening, during, the, week, but, the, highlight, of, the, week, has, to, be, the, start, of, the, world, cup, i’ve, been, on, duty, this, w, e, but, managed, to, see, all, but, the, last, two, minutes, of, this, morning’s, rather, disappointing, draw, with, sweden, most, farmers, are, keen, to, watch, the, matches, too, so, lets, hope, not, too, many, calls, come, in, at, the, wrong, time, diary, 14, i, had, the, bank, holiday, on, monday, off, which, was, welcome, after, a, weekend, on, call, i, went, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, with, a, colleague, considering, it, was, a, bank, holiday, it, wasn't, too, crowded, had, to, work, on, bank, holiday, tuesday, though, it, wasn't, especially, busy, until, the, evening, when, i, had, to, do, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, and, then, go, and, see, a, badly, cut, horse, both, seem, to, be, doing, ok, the, rest, of, the, week, was, worked, as, usual, nothing, particularly, out, of, the, ordinary, happened, with, fairly, routine, calls, perhaps, it, was, because, everyone, was, preoccupied, with, events, in, japan, and, korea, or, maybe, that, is, just, me, i, was, booked, in, for, an, 11, am, call, on, friday, but, managed, to, persuade, the, farmer, concerned, that, 9.30, would, be, more, appropriate, said, that, i, or, should, that, be, we, could, watch, the, second, england, game, we, managed, to, get, finished, in, time, and, it, was, well, worth, it, the, 1, 0, win, over, argentina, put, everyone, in, a, good, mood, for, the, rest, of, the, day, and, the, weekend, i, was, on, first, call, over, the, weekend, saturday, morning, was, very, busy, and, we, didn’t, get, all, the, calls, done, until, early, afternoon, after, that, it, was, one, of, the, quietest, weekends, i’ve, had, they, were, a, couple, of, things, to, do, on, saturday, afternoon, evening, but, sunday, had, no, calls, until, after, lunch, almost, unheard, of, i, had, to, check, my, phone, was, switched, on, long, may, it, last, diary, 15, i’ve, done, two, days, in, the, practice, doing, small, animals, this, week, more, than, usual, the, weather, has, not, been, the, best, so, it's, no, bad, thing, i, managed, to, go, out, on, rounds, on, wednesday, though, so, i, managed, to, catch, the, third, england, match, second, round, here, we, come, i, spent, most, of, friday, morning, operating, on, two, cows, at, one, of, our, farms, they, both, had, a, condition, where, part, of, the, gut, displaces, in, the, abdomen, and, is, best, repositioned, surgically, the, farmer, observed, that, it, was, probably, linked, to, fmd, last, year, because, of, fmd, he, had, to, use, more, silage, to, keep, his, cows, inside, last, summer, this, meant, he, had, less, stored, over, the, winter, and, so, had, none, available, to, feed, this, spring, summer, the, lack, of, silage, now, is, almost, certainly, implicated, in, the, problems, his, cows, had, it's, very, unusual, to, have, two, occurring, on, one, farm, at, same, time, seeing, as, he, missed, getting, fmd, last, year, though, he, thought, it, was, a, price, worth, paying, it, was, actually, quite, a, pleasant, way, to, spend, a, morning, he's, from, kirkby, stephen, where, i, went, to, school, and, i, didn't, have, any, other, jobs, waiting, so, it, was, quite, a, relaxed, few, hours, the, surgery, went, ok, too, i, had, a, half, day, on, friday, and, drove, to, valley, just, beyond, alston, to, meet, one, of, my, old, flat, mates, from, edinburgh, for, his, stag, weekend, we, stayed, in, an, old, barn, in, middle, of, nowhere, so, it, wasn't, exactly, a, conventional, stag, party, but, very, enjoyable, all, the, same, we, walked, to, the, nearest, pub, on, saturday, to, see, england's, exciting, next, instalment, 3, 0, thank, you, very, much, after, that, it's, been, a, leisurely, day, and, drive, back, to, penrith, and, i’ve, got, another, night, to, get, my, head, back, to, normal, for, work, tomorrow, diary, 16, this, week, has, been, quite, small, animal, orientated, again, i've, done, two, mornings, in, the, surgery, and, more, consulting, than, usual, i'm, not, meant, to, be, on, duty, for, nights, this, week, but, i've, had, a, couple, to, cover, for, people, who've, been, on, holiday, fortunately, both, nights, were, fairly, quiet, i'm, sure, the, favour, will, be, returned, sometime, during, the, day, work, has, been, fairly, steady, we’re, not, quite, as, busy, as, last, week, but, there's, enough, to, keep, us, going, the, practice, like, most, of, the, country, tried, to, stop, briefly, while, england, were, losing, to, brazil, it's, a, bit, disappointing, hopefully, farmers, and, the, rest, of, our, clients, won’t, be, too, depressed, about, it, all, it, was, good, while, it, lasted, at, the, weekend, i, went, down, to, a, place, near, worcester, for, the, wedding, of, the, friend, whose, stag, weekend, it, was, the, last, week, there, were, a, lot, of, people, from, edinburgh, there, why, haven't, seen, for, several, years, and, it, was, great, to, catch, up, the, weather, was, very, kind, and, stayed, dry, diary, 18, on, monday, i, went, to, do, a, big, tuberculosis, and, brucellosis, test, at, of, one, our, big, dairy, farms, that, had, restocked, few, months, ago, they’ve, got, several, hundred, cows, and, it, took, a, lot, longer, than, anticipated, i, had, to, go, back, on, tuesday, to, finish, the, job, off, they’re, a, friendly, family, so, it, wasn't, really, too, much, of, a, chore, there, has, been, a, more, obvious, change, in, them, since, fmd, than, for, most, of, our, clients, who, had, the, disease, they, seem, much, quieter, and, less, concerned, about, farming, and, life's, problems, in, general, now, perhaps, they, think, if, they, can, get, through, 2001, then, there’s, nothing, worth, getting, stressed, about, in, comparison, wednesday, was, spent, doing, small, animal, work, made, a, change, as, on, thursday, i, went, back, to, read, the, cows, results, for, the, tb, test, all, negative, on, thursday, night, i, drove, down, to, stay, with, a, college, friend, near, birmingham, for, the, start, of, a, long, weekend, on, friday, i, carried, on, south, to, another, friend, in, north, devon, she's, working, another, vet, in, an, area, that, was, also, severely, affected, by, fmd, cumbria, was, so, badly, hit, that, is, sometimes, easy, to, forget, that, other, places, had, a, bad, time, too, thankfully, work, in, devon, is, more, or, less, back, to, normal, again, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, weekend, in, south, devon, where, my, dad, had, his, 60th, birthday, we, were, lucky, with, the, weather, and, had, fine, ish, conditions, to, have, a, barbecue, on, the, beach, i, was, off, today, monday, as, well, and, spent, the, day, driving, north, too, far, to, go, for, a, weekend, diary, 19, it's, been, a, short, working, week, seeing, as, i, had, monday, off, i’ve, also, started, a, month, back, on, the, out, of, the, hours, of, rota, this, week, it, works, a, month, on, a, month, off, system, so, nights, and, weekends, have, been, and, will, be, a, bit, busier, work, has, generally, been, a, bit, quieter, recently, this, is, fairly, typical, for, the, time, of, year, mainly, because, animals, are, outside, and, farmers, are, busy, making, hay, and, silage, rain, permitting, we've, had, two, vets, off, this, week, so, although, there, have, been, fewer, jobs, in, we, are, not, left, twiddling, our, thumbs, there, has, been, the, usual, flow, of, a, routine, farm, work, along, with, horses, and, small, animals, but, nothing, too, taxing, on, the, whole, i, had, a, night, on, thursday, and, went, up, st, sunday, crag, in, the, lake, district, with, a, couple, of, friends, from, brampton, it, was, further, than, i, remembered, it, being, we, didn't, get, down, until, it, was, almost, dark, but, apart, from, being, unseasonably, cold, surprise, surprise, it, was, a, fine, night, it, was, duty, this, weekend, i, was, on, first, call, on, friday, night, and, had, it, very, easy, no, calls, until, 12, 45pm, when, another, vet, and, i, had, to, operate, on, a, dog, until, three, am, i, checked, it, again, at, 5.30, and, then, had, to, go, to, calving, at, 6.45, just, as, that, was, finished, i, was, called, to, a, badly, cut, horse, then, some, lame, cows, and, then, to, the, bacon, roll, shop, for, breakfast, i, was, only, on, second, call, for, the, rest, of, the, weekend, and, was, fairly, quiet, this, meant, i, could, get, on, with, various, mundane, things, like, painting, my, house, tidying, the, garden, etc, etc, ideal, tasks, for, when, i, can't, do, anything, else, because, i'm, on, call, and, the, dog, did, well, so, it, makes, the, night, with, no, sleep, worthwhile, diary, 20, have, had, another, short, week, had, monday, off, as, i, was, coming, back, from, a, long, weekend, away, work, this, week, has, been, fairly, steady, farmers, are, often, busy, trying, to, get, silage, hay, in, at, the, moment, so, routine, of, vet, work, takes, a, back, seat, having, said, that, we, have, been, kept, at, least, as, busy, as, we, would, expect, with, routine, fertility, visits, and, the, occasional, sick, cow, etc, there, been, a, few, of, the, restocking, farms, that, have, had, some, fairly, unusual, diseases, that, didn't, obviously, fall, into, the, ones, we, usually, recognise, or, deal, with, as, a, lot, of, them, have, bought, stock, in, from, abroad, we, have, to, at, least, keep, in, mind, the, possibility, of, new, problems, been, brought, in, we've, worked, quite, closely, with, the, local, defra, run, veterinary, investigation, centre, on, a, few, of, these, cases, but, thankfully, none, have, turned, out, to, be, anything, to, be, unduly, worried, about, i, was, on, duty, this, weekend, but, have, fortunately, been, reasonably, quiet, the, only, thing, out, the, ordinary, was, a, horse, that, had, torn, its, leg, up, quite, badly, on, some, wire, but, with, a, bit, of, time, and, bandaging, it, should, do, okay, diary, 21, 2, vets, have, been, off, this, week, so, it's, been, a, bit, busier, for, the, rest, of, us, again, as, with, last, week, it's, been, a, mixture, of, routine, and, the, standard, a, e, type, work, there, have, been, a, few, tuberculin, tests, going, on, still, trying, to, clear, the, backlog, from, last, year, it's, getting, there, slowly, but, a, lot, of, it, will, have, to, wait, until, the, autumn, winter, when, the, cows, are, in, and, the, farmers, have, more, time, available, our, new, vet, who, started, in, april, has, seemed, to, settle, in, very, well, he, had, a, bit, of, a, bad, day, earlier, in, the, week, when, a, calving, did, go, quite, as, planned, it's, very, easy, to, do, especially, when, you, feel, under, pressure, as, is, bound, to, happen, when, you, start, a, new, job, it, reminded, me, of, some, of, the, problems, i, had, a, few, years, ago, the, farm, where, it, happened, is, quite, an, understanding, type, so, it, won't, create, any, real, problems, hockey, training, is, starting, again, which, seems, a, bit, premature, as, the, season, is, still, months, away, at, least, it'll, encourage, me, to, do, a, bit, more, exercise, to, get, fit, for, matches, the, weather, has, meant, i, haven't, been, out, into, the, hills, as, often, as, i, would, have, liked, but, hopefully, there's, still, time, for, it, to, brighten, up, a, bit, had, the, weekend, off, so, a, couple, of, friends, from, college, he, now, living, york, came, to, stay, we, went, up, to, the, borders, for, the, day, on, saturday, near, to, where, i, used, to, work, it, doesn't, seem, to, have, changed, much, i, still, think, i'm, better, off, down, here, despite, last, year, diary, 22, we, had, a, bit, of, a, rush, on, this, week, as, sometimes, seems, to, happen, it, can, be, quiet, for, couple, of, weeks, and, then, it, suddenly, it's, crazy, it, may, be, that, a, lot, of, farms, have, now, largely, got, their, crops, in, and, are, trying, to, catch, up, or, perhaps, it's, just, the, way, things, go, several, farms, have, had, ongoing, problems, this, week, with, visits, being, required, several, days, running, there, have, also, been, a, large, number, of, horse, calls, this, is, probably, fairly, common, for, this, time, of, year, as, they, tend, to, get, ridden, in, the, supposedly, better, weather, we, tend, to, go, further, afield, for, horses, on, tuesday, i, went, to, kirkby, lonsdale, area, in, morning, and, had, to, go, north, of, carlisle, in, the, afternoon, the, miles, get, racked, up, or, fairly, quickly, and, i, get, to, learn, where, the, various, blind, spots, for, phone, and, radio, reception, are, i, was, on, duty, again, on, the, weekend, which, meant, that, i, was, also, on, for, monday, wednesday, and, friday, nights, they, weren't, too, bad, apart, from, friday, when, i, have, to, go, and, see, a, couple, of, horses, being, on, duty, for, three, week, nights, tends, to, limit, what, i, can, do, apart, from, work, but, i, managed, to, meet, up, with, some, friends, working, in, brampton, one, night, and, go, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, on, thursday, the, weekend, was, fairly, quiet, but, i, was, only, on, second, call, so, i, found, time, to, do, some, decorating, in, the, room, in, my, house, which, is, the, current, project, i, lead, such, a, thrilling, life, diary, 23, the, calm, after, the, storm, after, the, frantic, levels, of, work, we, saw, last, week, it, has, again, been, a, bit, more, civilised, this, week, we've, had, time, to, have, coffee, and, lunch, breaks, and, actually, talk, to, colleagues, from, time, to, time, i, wouldn't, want, have, every, week, is, quiet, as, this, but, occasionally, it's, very, welcome, it's, quite, relaxing, to, be, able, to, go, on, a, call, knowing, that, there, is, not, another, one, waiting, it, also, means, that, if, the, afternoons, are, quiet, one, of, us, can, usually, have, a, half, day, i, got, the, nod, on, wednesday, and, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, my, folks, they’ve, got, a, smallholding, down, there, with, various, creatures, which, usually, have, some, ailment, or, other, it's, a, bit, of, a, busman's, holiday, going, there, but, it, is, nice, having, them, close, i, tend, see, them, every, week, or, two, on, wednesday, i, vaccinated, a, couple, of, horses, and, trimmed, a, few, sheep’s, feet, they, went, through, the, joys, of, 48, hourly, surveillance, inspections, last, year, but, somehow, managed, to, come, through, unscathed, their, parish, was, one, of, the, only, ones, in, the, kirkby, stephen, area, to, do, so, other, weekend, i, went, up, to, glasgow, to, see, a, cousin, who, was, having, a, leaving, party, i, didn't, know, many, people, there, but, it, was, good, to, go, and, do, something, completely, removed, from, the, usual, one, of, the, people, i, did, know, came, and, stayed, in, penrith, on, sunday, night, it, was, a, stunning, day, we, went, the, lakes, which, were, at, their, best, diary, 24, this, week, was, the, first, of, four, for, me, being, off, the, rota, which, should, mean, no, nights, and, no, weekends, on, call, can't, be, bad, on, monday, had, a, small, tb, test, to, do, it, was, with, a, very, pleasant, farmer, and, the, cows, behaved, themselves, so, it, wasn't, a, bad, way, to, spend, a, morning, he's, imported, a, small, herd, from, holland, and, seems, very, pleased, with, them, so, far, it, takes, a, bit, time, for, the, f, m, farmers, to, get, used, to, their, new, stock, as, most, of, them, knew, their, old, ones, so, well, but, on, the, whole, people, seemed, fairly, content, with, their, new, ones, i, did, small, animal, ops, on, tuesday, and, wednesday, as, one, of, the, vets, who, usually, do, it, was, on, holiday, we've, got, a, new, nurse, starting, this, week, so, it, was, a, case, of, showing, her, the, ropes, but, she, seems, to, be, doing, very, well, one, my, best, school, friends, got, married, on, friday, very, typically, after, a, fairly, quiet, week, it, suddenly, got, busy, on, friday, afternoon, i, managed, to, get, the, wedding, but, had, to, miss, the, afternoon, reception, in, order, to, go, and, see, a, horse, in, appleby, that's, life, i, was, one, of, the, duty, vets, at, lowther, show, on, saturday, i, hadn't, done, it, before, and, had, a, very, good, time, it, was, generally, fine, weather, and, there, were, some, truly, stunning, teams, of, horses, in, the, driving, event, lots, of, competitors, commented, on, how, good, it, was, to, have, the, show, up, and, running, again, after, last, year's, cancellations, the, event, passed, without, any, major, incident, for, vet, wise, so, it, was, a, pretty, calm, day, for, me, really, diary, 25, the, week's, been, fairly, steady, i, seem, to, have, been, doing, more, horses, than, anything, else, i, didn't, go, and, see, a, cow, until, friday, several, of, them, were, ongoing, cases, such, as, leg, wounds, that, have, needed, daily, dressing, changes, and, the, rest, a, selection, of, vaccinations, lameness, and, those, that, aren't, quite, right, i, quite, enjoy, the, horse, side, of, the, job, so, doing, a, bit, more, than, usual, has, been, a, welcome, change, i, had, planned, to, get, to, work, on, my, house, this, month, in, my, free, evenings, but, it, doesn't, really, seem, to, have, worked, like, that, when, i, know, i've, got, a, lot, of, free, time, nights, tend, to, get, booked, up, seeing, people, from, home, or, near, by, who, i’ve, temporarily, lost, touch, with, also, seeing, as, summer, seems, to, have, found, us, i've, been, trying, to, get, into, the, lakes, as, much, as, possible, the, house, can, wait, till, winter, this, weekend, i’ve, been, down, to, wales, to, see, a, group, of, college, friends, we, stayed, in, a, cottage, owned, by, one, of, the, group's, parents, and, played, a, few, rounds, of, golf, i, played, very, badly, lost, a, lot, of, balls, and, became, very, frustrated, with, it, all, i, think, it, comes, down, to, lack, of, talent, still, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, some, people, i, haven't, seen, since, graduation, and, i'm, sure, the, golf, will, be, better, next, year, diary, 26, i've, done, more, small, animal, work, than, anything, else, this, week, there, had, been, no, disasters, all, fairly, routine, stuff, one, of, the, small, animal, vets, has, been, away, so, i, had, to, cover, a, bit, i, didn't, actually, get, out, onto, a, farm, until, friday, morning, it, gets, a, bit, claustrophobic, inside, after, a, while, so, it, was, good, to, get, out, i, was, on, call, at, the, weekend, and, also, had, a, college, friend, to, stay, it, was, very, quiet, most, of, the, time, until, sunday, evening, i, had, swapped, duty, to, be, off, on, the, night, from, 6, 00pm, at, 5.45, four, calls, all, came, in, at, once, at, all, four, corners, of, the, practice, so, i, didn't, actually, get, finished, until, nearly, 8pm, that’s, the, way, it, goes, sometimes, i, suppose, i, had, another, half, day, earlier, in, the, week, as, it, was, fairly, quiet, i, took, my, bike, out, into, the, northern, lakes, for, a, few, hours, to, blow, away, the, cobwebs, from, being, inside, at, work, diary, 27, i, had, a, barbecue, party, this, weekend, for, people, from, work, and, a, lot, of, friends, from, college, there, were, a, lot, of, people, i, thought, i'd, always, keep, in, touch, with, the, but, as, time, went, on, i, never, did, so, i, arranged, a, weekend, a, long, way, in, advance, for, us, all, to, meet, up, again, about, 28, people, came, most, of, whom, i, haven't, seen, for, least, a, year, or, two, nobody, seems, to, have, changed, much, and, it, was, great, to, see, them, all, again, the, garden, and, house, have, both, taken, a, bit, of, a, pounding, but, i, think, most, of, the, mess, is, fairly, superficial, i, went, for, a, walk, near, howtown, today, to, clear, my, head, after, the, barbecue, last, night, it, was, a, very, good, day, weather, wise, which, meant, that, a, lot, of, people, had, had, the, same, idea, as, us, it's, been, a, variable, week, at, work, some, days, been, very, quiet, others, flat, out, i've, had, an, ongoing, case, of, a, young, horse, that, had, been, caught, up, in, wire, on, monday, evening, it, was, well, beyond, the, stage, where, it, could, have, been, stitched, when, i, saw, it, so, it'll, have, to, heal, slowly, by, filling, the, wound, in, i'm, sure, it'll, be, fine, but, it's, going, to, take, a, long, time, we’re, starting, to, get, a, lot, of, inquiries, about, the, new, rules, defra, are, bringing, in, to, allow, farmers, to, bring, animals, on, to, their, farms, in, isolation, facilities, it, should, make, things, less, restrictive, for, the, farmer, we, are, going, to, have, to, do, a, lot, of, inspections, it's, not, since, restocking, checks, last, winter, that, we’ve, really, had, to, do, this, sort, of, thing, but, the, checks, probably, won't, be, as, exhaustive, as, those, we, had, to, do, last, year, diary, 28, had, a, fairly, quiet, week, really, this, been, a, fairly, standard, mix, of, sick, cows, a, couple, of, lame, horses, and, the, continuation, of, the, young, horse, that, wrecked, its, leg, last, week, which, is, going, okay, so, it's, been, fairly, laid, back, on, the, whole, with, time, for, a, coffee, break, after, most, calls, we, have, done, the, first, of, the, inspections, for, the, new, on, farm, isolation, facilities, for, sheep, on, the, whole, farmer, compliance, has, been, very, good, there, have, been, a, few, whinges, about, why, they, have, to, do, it, and, i, can, see, why, as, it, must, be, frustrating, to, suddenly, be, told, how, to, run, stock, movements, that, they've, always, done, a, different, way, most, can, see, why, defra, are, insisting, on, it, though, as, it's, all, aimed, at, reducing, the, risk, of, having, another, situation, like, we, did, last, year, i, was, off, again, this, weekend, one, of, my, old, flat, mates, and, his, wife, came, to, stay, they, live, in, london, so, came, north, for, a, weekend, of, clean, living, and, fresh, air, we, went, for, walks, around, cat, bells, and, high, street, on, saturday, and, sunday, ate, drank, and, were, generally, fairly, unstressed, hope, it, was, what, they, were, looking, for, diary, 29, i've, had, a, short, week, in, terms, of, work, at, the, practice, this, week, as, i've, been, to, glasgow, for, an, equine, conference, from, thursday, to, saturday, further, education, is, not, compulsory, and, there, is, no, formal, structure, for, it, which, is, quite, controversial, in, some, people's, eyes, but, the, royal, college, of, vets, do, encourage, us, to, keep, up, to, date, there, is, a, quota, we’re, asked, to, fulfil, each, year, and, these, three, days, will, help, me, keep, on, track, there, were, several, different, courses, on, each, day, with, one, lecture, theatre, for, practitioner, based, subjects, that, we, could, expect, to, see, on, a, day, to, day, basis, and, another, called, advanced, clinical, sessions, on, subjects, and, cases, so, obscure, that, you'd, be, lucky, to, hear, of, one, let, alone, see, one, more, than, once, or, twice, i, didn't, go, to, many, of, those, lectures, as, well, as, being, useful, in, terms, of, picking, up, new, information, it, was, also, a, good, chance, to, catch, up, with, old, friends, from, college, lots, of, people, i, hadn't, seen, for, a, year, or, two, were, there, and, it, was, good, to, see, them, the, first, three, days, of, the, week, were, okay, i, went, out, on, tuesday, morning, to, trim, some, lame, cows, feet, and, ended, up, accidentally, trimming, some, skin, from, the, farmers, thumb, with, my, hoof, knife, all, a, bit, embarrassing, and, felt, very, bad, but, he, didn't, seem, that, fazed, by, it, and, he's, not, the, type, to, bear, a, grudge, perhaps, i, shouldn’t, try, to, keep, my, knife, so, sharp, another, of, the, week's, more, interesting, events, was, an, irish, wolfhound, that, needed, surgery, to, correct, a, twisted, and, distended, stomach, it's, fairly, common, in, this, type, of, dog, and, is, a, real, emergency, another, vet, and, i, operated, on, him, on, tuesday, afternoon, it, took, a, couple, of, hours, but, so, far, is, seems, to, have, been, worth, it, as, he's, done, very, well, and, apparently, went, home, on, friday, diary, 30, i, spent, most, of, monday, afternoon, evening, irradiating, myself, by, taking, dozens, of, x, rays, of, a, horse’s, legs, it, was, being, sold, for, a, lot, of, money, and, the, insurance, company, wanted, to, check, all, its, joints, were, ok, before, insuring, it, it, took, a, lot, longer, than, anticipated, as, it, was, difficult, to, get, it, positioned, absolutely, right, for, each, view, but, we, got, there, in, the, end, we, have, to, be, quite, careful, about, exposure, to, x, rays, but, my, x, ray, badge, hasn't, shown, a, high, reading, yet, 2, vets, have, been, off, this, week, one, on, his, honeymoon, and, one, has, been, away, doing, ai, on, sheep, its, often, a, bit, quieter, now, but, we, seem, to, have, been, kept, going, i, did, a, big, routine, fertility, visit, to, one, of, our, dairy, farms, on, wednesday, one, of, the, main, things, we, do, on, these, visits, is, manual, pregnancy, diagnosis, it's, not, too, bad, with, dairy, calves, cows, as, if, they're, not, in, calf, they, would, normally, get, another, chance, to, do, so, but, with, some, beef, farms, or, a, dairy, cow, that, is, persistently, not, conceiving, it, sometimes, more, economic, to, get, rid, of, the, cow, of, rather, than, persisting, so, there's, a, big, incentive, for, us, to, get, it, right, or, at, least, not, to, say, a, cow, isn't, in, calf, when, she, is, luckily, they, were, all, quite, straightforward, this, week, this, was, my, last, before, going, away, to, the, usa, for, a, fortnight, i, fly, to, new, york, tomorrow, to, meet, up, with, an, old, flatmate, of, mine, who's, a, journalist, out, there, i'm, crossing, the, atlantic, to, see, him, and, he's, given, me, directions, to, his, flat, rather, than, meeting, me, at, the, airport, because, i'm, arriving, when, premiership, football, is, on, tv, charming, diary, 31, two, weeks, in, the, states, can't, be, bad, i, flew, into, new, york, where, i, stayed, with, a, friend, who's, working, in, manhattan, i, did, a, lot, of, the, usual, tourist, things, empire, state, building, boat, trip, around, the, island, central, park, etc, for, its, size, it's, a, very, relaxed, place, in, a, lot, of, ways, it, feels, very, safe, and, although, there, is, loads, going, on, you, never, seem, to, get, hassled, we, flew, to, new, orleans, for, a, week, supposedly, for, some, sun, in, the, deep, south, but, landed, just, as, a, tropical, storm, hit, the, mainland, everything, was, closed, for, two, days, as, bad, as, uk, when, it, snows, once, the, weather, cleared, it, was, fine, and, we, again, went, about, being, tourists, paddle, boat, up, the, mississippi, river, out, on, a, boat, in, the, louisiana, swamps, to, look, at, alligators, and, a, bit, of, new, orleans, nightlife, i, had, a, few, more, days, in, new, york, before, flying, home, diary, 32, first, week, back, after, america, had, a, good, trip, but, the, week, has, been, rather, marred, by, the, death, of, one, of, the, hockey, team, and, a, year, mate, of, mine, at, school, in, a, tractor, accident, when, he, was, hit, by, a, wagon, on, the, a, 66, on, thursday, i, saw, him, on, wednesday, night, at, hockey, training, he, was, very, stiff, having, done, the, great, north, run, with, his, wife, the, weekend, before, i, didn't, know, him, very, well, at, school, but, have, got, to, over, the, last, few, years, via, hockey, and, he, really, was, a, tremendously, good, person, and, will, be, much, missed, by, lots, of, people, in, and, around, kirkby, stephen, the, weekend's, match, was, postponed, as, no, one, could, have, thought, about, playing, it, all, seems, very, trivial, when, this, sort, of, thing, happens, i, couldn't, have, played, anyway, as, i'm, on, duty, this, weekend, but, fortunately, it's, been, fairly, quiet, so, far, a, calving, and, 2, caesareans, but, it's, getting, into, calving, season, so, it's, about, par, for, the, course, the, first, half, of, the, week, was, ok, i, was, even, given, a, half, day, on, tuesday, a, day, and, a, half, after, returning, from, holiday, i, went, for, a, walk, at, the, bottom, end, of, derwent, water, and, then, tried, to, sleep, off, some, jet, lag, diary, 33, i, went, to, matthew's, funeral, on, tuesday, how, popular, he, was, was, reflected, in, the, number, of, people, there, we, arrived, 25, minutes, before, it, was, due, to, start, and, still, had, to, stand, and, had, to, move, up, as, more, people, tried, to, fit, into, the, chapel, it, almost, seemed, as, if, all, of, kirkby, had, come, to, a, standstill, it, went, on, quite, a, long, time, so, i, had, the, afternoon, off, and, went, to, see, my, parents, who, live, near, kirkby, afterwards, we, cancelled, hockey, training, on, wednesday, as, it, seemed, too, soon, to, go, on, as, usual, but, decided, play, our, scheduled, match, on, saturday, both, our, team, and, the, opposition, had, two, minute, silence, before, the, match, we, ended, up, drawing, 0, 0, but, it, was, a, very, good, close, game, we, normally, lose, to, this, team, and, played, in, a, competitive, but, fair, spirit, just, what, was, needed, for, our, first, match, back, i'm, actually, on, duty, again, this, weekend, but, one, my, colleagues, covered, for, me, for, a, few, hours, so, i, could, go, to, play, the, cases, at, work, have, been, fairly, steady, this, week, i'm, going, to, enrol, for, a, further, qualification, in, equine, practice, in, the, next, week, or, two, i'm, doing, a, reasonable, amount, of, horse, work, at, the, moment, but, will, try, to, do, a, bit, more, over, the, next, few, months, years, it, should, motivate, me, to, read, up, on, cases, more, and, find, slightly, more, constructive, ways, to, spend, evenings, on, call, diary, 34, tb, testing, our, biggest, beef, herd, had, its, post, restocking, test, this, week, about, 600, cattle, were, to, be, done, there’s, no, way, it, could, be, done, in, one, go, so, we, did, it, over, 3, instead, originally, planned, for, two, but, ran, out, of, daylight, it, all, went, smoothly, on, the, whole, or, at, least, as, well, as, could, be, expected, and, everything, has, been, cleared, as, negative, i, found, out, from, defra, a, few, weeks, ago, that, there, have, actually, been, quite, a, few, tb, cases, in, the, county, since, restocking, as, we'd, been, clear, for, years, previously, to, fmd, this, is, obviously, a, bit, of, a, worry, we, haven't, had, any, cases, in, our, practice, but, if, we, can't, stamp, out, these, new, cases, as, they, are, found, it’s, only, a, matter, of, time, before, it, spreads, further, afield, the, more, we, get, in, the, county, also, means, there, will, have, to, be, more, testing, at, the, moment, it's, begrudgingly, accepted, by, the, farmers, but, if, we, have, to, do, more, i, can, see, them, having, a, sense, of, humour, failure, over, it, ultimately, it's, in, their, interest, for, us, to, check, that, their, herd, is, free, but, it, is, a, big, time, commitment, and, they, don't, get, paid, for, it, while, i, spent, two, days, testing, the, rest, of, the, week, had, a, bit, more, variety, i, saw, few, horses, mainly, lameness, but, also, one, or, two, with, other, ailments, i, have, to, write, a, casebook, for, the, equine, certificate, i'm, doing, i’m, on, the, lookout, for, suitable, cases, during, my, rounds, i, had, the, weekend, off, played, hockey, in, manchester, and, then, went, to, worcester, to, see, some, college, friends, i, had, to, drive, back, via, ely, as, the, trains, are, cancelled, due, to, the, winds, which, meant, a, friend, was, stranded, not, a, very, direct, route, to, cumbria, diary, 35, the, week, started, on, monday, morning, with, another, tb, test, on, a, restocking, farm, it's, not, a, big, farm, and, was, one, of, the, late, ones, to, get, fmd, it's, run, by, a, very, nice, but, quite, intense, family, the, son, has, taken, re, stocking, very, seriously, and, has, obviously, thought, of, it, very, much, as, an, opportunity, to, start, from, scratch, and, try, to, eliminate, some, of, their, previous, herd, problems, i, have, consequently, spent, quite, a, bit, of, time, advising, him, over, the, various, vaccines, available, and, their, relative, pros, and, cons, thankfully, things, seem, to, be, paying, off, so, far, with, few, problems, in, herd, one, of, the, things, that, i, noticed, during, the, test, was, that, they, made, one, or, two, jokes, about, last, year, sorry, forgotten, exactly, what, they, said, i, thought, the, fact, that, they, were, able, to, now, talk, about, fmd, like, that, had, to, be, a, good, sign, as, i, think, it, would, have, been, highly, unlikely, a, year, ago, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, went, up, to, wigton, to, vet, a, horse, for, a, potential, buyer, there, were, several, minor, things, wrong, with, it, but, overall, it, seemed, ok, it's, always, a, responsibility, vetting, horses, as, someone, is, either, trying, to, buy, it, or, not, on, the, basis, of, what, i, find, in, this, case, it, took, quite, a, lot, of, convincing, the, buyer, that, the, imperfections, were, not, that, serious, hopefully, they, won’t, subsequently, turn, out, to, be, a, problem, i've, started, doing, more, horse, cases, recently, and, on, tuesday, sent, off, my, application, form, to, be, accepted, to, do, further, exams, in, horse, practice, i, have, to, wait, until, next, year, to, find, out, whether, i've, been, accepted, and, won't, sit, them, until, 2005, i, was, off, this, weekend, and, played, hockey, in, manchester, unfortunately, we, didn't, win, maybe, next, week, saturday, evening, i, went, down, to, kendal, to, see, an, old, flatmate, who, lives, there, diary, 36, on, tuesday, i, went, to, see, a, horse, near, carlisle, it, had, developed, a, swelling, on, its, lower, jaw, that, was, fairly, painful, to, touch, they, were, a, few, possibilities, but, the, most, likely, was, that, it, had, at, tooth, root, abscess, i, put, it, on, to, antibiotics, but, seeing, as, it, had, obviously, been, going, on, for, a, while, thought, it, was, worth, taking, some, x, rays, there, was, obvious, destruction, of, the, tooth, visible, on, the, x, ray, which, probably, means, it, needs, removing, this, is, a, fairly, major, undertaking, on, a, horse, and, as, it, was, a, valuable, creature, still, in, training, i, thought, it, best, to, send, to, edinburgh, vet, school, to, have, it, done, hopefully, i'll, be, able, to, go, and, see, it, done, in, a, day, or, two's, time, one, of, the, aspects, drawbacks, not, really, of, being, a, vet, his, that, one, is, often, asked, about, animal, ailments, out, of, work, i’m, sure, it, happens, a, lot, in, other, jobs, too, my, mother, is, very, adept, at, this, not, that, i, really, mind, her, elderly, terrier, that, we, grew, up, with, has, started, having, one, or, two, problems, recently, i, suggested, a, few, possibilities, but, thought, it, best, if, she, went, to, the, local, vets, to, have, her, looked, at, the, problem, was, she, was, so, bad, tempered, the, terrier, that, they, couldn’t, safely, blood, sample, her, so, she, had, a, day, out, to, penrith, so, that, i, could, try, to, take, blood, from, her, i, managed, to, more, or, less, intact, and, fortunately, her, results, seemed, more, or, less, in, order, or, at, least, better, than, her, temper, the, general, work, in, the, practice, has, been, fairly, steady, this, week, a, few, farmers, seem, to, be, having, quite, a, few, cows, calving, at, the, moment, which, is, a, bit, unseasonal, but, i, suppose, a, reasonable, number, tend, to, calve, all, year, round, we, haven't, really, got, into, calf, pneumonia, season, yet, but, it, can't, be, long, before, they, start, to, keep, us, busy, it, will, soon, take, over, from, lungworm, as, the, main, bovine, respiratory, problem, the, weekend, was, off, again, brought, a, victory, in, a, hockey, match, the, start, of, a, winning, streak, perhaps, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, after, the, match, to, see, a, few, friends, and, for, the, start, of, a, week, off, wahey, diary, 37, it's, a, week, off, can't, be, bad, i, didn't, do, what, i, had, planned, due, to, an, unforeseen, change, in, circumstances, but, still, good, as, i, was, in, edinburgh, last, weekend, i, decided, to, stay, up, for, few, days, this, was, partly, to, see, friends, and, also, because, i, had, referred, the, horse, with, a, bad, tooth, that, i, mentioned, last, week, voluntary, work, experience, during, time, off, dedication, or, very, rash, i, spent, tuesday, at, the, vet, school, in, edinburgh, with, one, of, my, old, tutors, the, case, i, had, sent, up, was, successfully, treated, so, far, by, removing, the, offending, tooth, it, was, very, interesting, to, see, how, he, did, it, as, he, used, a, different, technique, to, the, one, we’ve, used, in, the, practice, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, there, with, him, seeing, other, cases, it, felt, a, bit, odd, being, there, not, as, a, student, i, came, home, on, tuesday, evening, and, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, my, folks, on, wednesday, morning, i, spent, most, of, the, rest, of, the, week, either, at, their, house, or, mine, doing, things, like, stocking, up, on, firewood, for, the, winter, sorting, my, house, out, and, making, a, start, on, stripping, the, wallpaper, in, my, hallway, i, normally, go, away, when, i, take, time, off, but, it, was, actually, very, nice, to, do, things, at, home, for, change, it, made, for, quite, a, relaxing, week, on, the, whole, diary, 38, back, to, work, it, was, good, to, have, a, week, off, last, week, but, one, of, the, best, things, about, where, i, work, and, what, i, do, is, that, i, never, seem, to, feel, reluctant, to, go, back, to, work, i, think, that, must, mean, i, enjoy, it, on, the, whole, on, tuesday, i, went, back, to, see, the, horse, that, had, had, its, tooth, removed, last, week, it's, doing, very, well, and, is, back, in, training, it, was, eating, very, well, as, soon, as, the, tooth, came, out, it's, amazing, how, animals, often, seem, to, deal, with, pain, so, stoically, i'll, check, it, again, next, week, and, all, things, being, well, that, should, be, it, on, tuesday, afternoon, i, happened, to, see, another, slightly, unusual, case, in, a, horse, it, had, developed, a, lump, on, the, outside, of, its, cheek, which, on, closer, inspection, turned, out, to, be, a, large, mass, man, inside, its, mouth, it's, probably, going, to, have, to, be, removed, and, should, come, in, next, week, for, it, to, be, done, the, rest, of, the, week, was, the, usual, mix, of, more, routine, cases, have, been, on, to, more, farms, this, week, than, i, have, done, for, a, while, we, recently, took, on, a, new, dairy, farm, near, appleby, and, i, went, to, see, a, cow, there, for, the, first, time, on, a, first, visit, you, always, hope, for, something, straightforward, so, that, it's, easy, to, make, a, good, first, impression, on, this, occasion, the, cow, was, very, sick, and, wasn't, really, giving, me, many, clues, as, to, why, all, i, could, do, was, treat, it, for, the, symptoms, it, was, showing, i, saw, it, twice, on, friday, and, again, on, saturday, and, by, evening, it, was, on, the, mend, i, never, did, reach, a, conclusive, diagnosis, but, i, think, the, farmer, was, satisfied, by, the, fact, that, it, had, got, better, in, spite, of, not, knowing, quite, what, was, wrong, i, was, on, duty, friday, night, very, quiet, and, on, saturday, apart, from, the, cow, i, mentioned, it, was, fairly, easy, going, today, i, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, some, old, friends, staying, with, my, parents, two, weeks, with, no, tb, testing, it'll, change, next, week, diary, 39, it's, been, a, fairly, uneventful, week, at, work, there, don't, seem, to, have, been, any, particularly, on, going, or, notable, cases, in, some, ways, it's, not, a, bad, thing, as, it, makes, for, a, fairly, stress, free, time, it's, not, that, you, can, really, switch, off, but, it, does, mean, that, when, there, are, a, few, fairly, straightforward, cases, to, see, it's, possible, to, spend, more, time, chatting, to, the, farmer, owner, without, having, to, work, too, hard, finding, what's, wrong, with, the, patient, this, week's, most, interesting, case, was, a, horse, with, amazingly, extensive, arthritis, in, its, hind, legs, considering, its, age, it's, not, a, terminal, condition, but, it, does, have, implications, as, to, what, it, will, be, possible, to, use, it, for, in, future, in, situations, like, that, it, can, be, quite, difficult, to, give, the, client, the, right, outlook, they, often, expect, a, quick, cure, especially, in, a, young, horse, and, to, tell, them, that, a, problem, has, been, present, for, months, if, not, years, and, will, never, completely, go, away, can, come, as, a, bit, of, shock, the, owner, in, this, case, was, very, sensible, and, seemed, to, taking, what, was, said, very, well, the, other, good, thing, about, this, week, is, that, i'm, having, a, very, good, run, with, my, duties, i've, been, on, for, two, nights, on, first, call, and, the, phone, hasn't, gone, once, very, unusual, and, very, welcome, this, must, be, tempting, fate, i've, had, the, weekend, off, there, was, a, hockey, match, on, saturday, when, we, lost, to, the, league, leaders, but, avoided, humiliation, the, rest, of, the, two, days, was, spent, trying, to, progress, with, decorating, the, hallway, before, friends, come, to, stay, over, christmas, and, new, year, am, i, not, too, young, to, be, spending, weekends, off, decorating, diary, 40, i, had, a, good, test, of, my, diplomacy, skills, this, week, with, an, irate, farmer, i, had, spent, four, hours, doing, a, tb, test, on, a, very, cold, day, when, it, should, have, taken, about, one, and, a, half, hours, in, my, rush, to, get, defrosted, in, my, car, afterwards, i, forgot, to, shut, the, gate, in, the, field, where, i, had, parked, on, my, return, to, the, surgery, i, was, greeted, by, the, news, that, he, had, rung, wanting, my, head, on, a, stick, and, forbidding, me, from, ever, setting, foot, on, his, farm, again, as, all, his, tups, had, gone, walkabout, through, the, gate, i'd, left, open, on, advice, from, the, partners, at, the, practice, who, knew, him, better, i, gave, him, a, day, to, calm, down, and, then, wrote, a, very, grovelling, letter, i, was, allowed, to, go, back, at, the, end, of, the, week, to, read, the, test, results, which, fortunately, was, all, clear, i, think, he's, forgiven, me, one, of, the, more, common, cow, operations, we, do, is, to, correct, a, displaced, stomach, in, the, two, and, a, half, years, i've, been, at, the, practice, we’ve, always, done, it, using, one, particular, technique, there, are, circumstances, where, another, method, is, indicated, and, having, not, seen, them, for, 2, years, there, were, 2, this, week, they, both, went, well, so, far, another, two, years, before, the, next, i, took, my, last, day, off, for, 2002, on, thursday, and, again, spent, it, decorating, on, thursday, night, we, had, our, practice, christmas, meal, the, two, vets, on, duty, managed, not, to, get, called, out, and, on, the, whole, i, think, people, weren't, too, hung, over, on, friday, last, year, there, was, a, bit, of, a, debate, as, to, whether, we, should, have, a, christmas, night, out, as, most, farmers, were, either, just, starting, to, restock, or, still, cleaning, out, this, year, it, was, much, more, straightforward, on, friday, night, it, was, the, annual, night, at, hesket, newmarket, organised, by, the, local, defra, lab, for, any, local, vets, that, want, a, meal, and, beers, it's, a, good, chance, to, catch, up, with, other, vets, from, neighbouring, practices, in, very, informal, atmosphere, diary, 41, i've, had, a, couple, of, vet, students, staying, with, me, this, week, who, i, knew, when, i, was, in, my, final, year, at, edinburgh, they're, doing, work, experience, with, us, for, a, week, or, so, it's, made, a, pleasant, change, to, have, some, company, for, a, while, i, have, also, acquired, two, stray, kittens, in, the, last, week, the, usual, vet, procedure, of, eventually, finding, an, unwanted, patient, that, you, can't, resist, taking, yourself, they, are, settling, in, ok, and, we’ve, only, had, to, have, one, or, two, little, discussions, about, the, benefits, of, using, a, litter, tray, rather, than, the, carpet, the, week, at, work, has, been, reasonably, busy, a, good, thing, this, week, as, there, have, been, three, students, and, it's, a, bit, dull, for, them, if, there, is, nothing, going, on, we, had, a, horse, in, for, most, of, the, week, with, a, severe, respiratory, infection, it’s, needed, fairly, intensive, care, but, seems, to, be, on, the, mend, now, i, may, use, it, as, a, case, to, write, up, as, part, of, the, exam, i'm, hoping, to, do, in, a, few, years, it'll, have, to, be, a, new, year's, resolution, to, get, on, with, the, writing, up, part, of, it, apart, from, a, horse, it's, been, the, usual, sort, of, mix, a, few, routine, fertility, visits, to, dairy, farms, a, few, sick, cows, and, horses, etc, there, been, some, tb, tests, this, week, but, i've, managed, to, miss, them, all, must, be, saving, some, for, me, next, year, i, had, a, lot, of, people, from, work, here, on, friday, night, for, pre, christmas, mulled, wine, and, mince, pies, i'm, not, quite, sure, the, kittens, knew, what, was, happening, but, i, think, the, rest, of, us, enjoyed, it, i've, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, down, to, see, a, friend, in, birmingham, who, qualified, last, summer, this, was, her, second, weekend, on, call, so, i, went, to, give, moral, support, being, on, call, isn't, stressful, anymore, but, i, remember, for, the, first, few, times, it's, difficult, not, to, be, aware, of, the, phone, all, the, time, and, hoping, it, doesn't, ring, there, weren't, many, calls, and, those, that, did, come, in, she, didn't, need, me, for, suited, me, well, diary, 42, the, week, of, christmas, and, my, first, job, of, the, week, was, to, replace, a, particularly, contaminated, uterine, prolapse, in, a, cow, it, finally, went, back, in, after, an, hour, or, so, of, fairly, fruitless, efforts, very, festive, this, week, and, next, we, had, fewer, vets, than, usual, working, each, day, as, we, all, have, a, few, days, off, for, christmas, new, year, so, it‘s, sometimes, a, bit, busy, during, the, day, it's, generally, worth, it, for, the, extra, time, off, i, was, off, on, monday, night, and, went, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, school, friends, back, for, the, holiday, although, we, don't, see, each, other, very, often, any, more, people, don't, really, seem, to, change, very, much, a, good, friend, whose, parents, farm, had, f, and, m, have, sold, up, and, are, going, into, b, b, instead, i, think, it, was, a, hard, decision, but, now, they, seen, to, be, quite, relieved, to, be, out, of, it, i, was, on, duty, on, christmas, eve, and, fortunately, didn't, have, to, go, out, i, just, had, three, phone, calls, between, 7, and, 9, p, m, from, people, saying, their, dog, or, cat, had, been, off, food, for, periods, varying, from, three, weeks, to, 10, days, christmas, eve, seemed, an, odd, time, to, notice, this, i, went, home, to, kirkby, stephen, for, christmas, and, boxing, day, and, didn't, really, do, very, much, i, had, a, look, at, a, couple, of, mum’s, sheep, but, other, than, that, it, was, just, a, case, of, being, lazy, and, enjoying, seasonal, food, and, drink, i, was, on, duty, this, weekend, which, turned, out, be, fairly, busy, one, of, the, students, who, came, to, stay, last, week, came, back, to, do, some, on, call, work, which, turned, out, to, be, very, useful, a, couple, of, cows, to, operate, on, as, caesar, and, a, displaced, stomach, where, two, pairs, of, hands, are, better, than, one, and, quite, a, few, small, animals, to, see, to, diary, 43, i've, had, most, of, this, week, off, for, new, year, tuesday, to, friday, which, is, pretty, good, going, seen, as, i, was, off, for, christmas, as, well, monday, was, fairly, quiet, with, just, a, few, farm, calls, to, do, and, some, small, animals, rather, worryingly, we've, heard, that, a, local, deer, farm, not, one, of, our, customers, has, gone, down, with, tb, apparently, with, quite, a, few, deer, in, the, herd, having, it, this, means, that, we'll, have, to, do, tb, check, tests, on, any, of, our, farms, that, neighbour, the, affected, premises, over, new, year, my, cousin, her, husband, and, their, five, children, young, came, to, stay, it, wasn't, too, hectic, on, the, whole, with, just, the, occasional, loss, of, humour, a, couple, of, friends, from, work, came, round, to, join, us, for, new, year, itself, i've, had, to, work, this, weekend, part, of, the, deal, for, getting, four, days, off, midweek, but, it's, not, really, been, that, busy, i've, only, been, on, second, call, and, have, only, had, to, do, 2, calls, so, far, an, easy, return, to, work, after, new, year, excesses, diary, 44, back, to, normal, quota, of, vets, at, work, again, this, week, which, is, good, as, it, seems, to, have, been, very, busy, most, of, it, has, been, the, usual, sort, of, things, for, the, time, of, year, cows, starting, to, get, lame, after, having, been, inside, for, a, few, months, and, metabolic, problems, probably, related, to, the, poor, silage, last, year's, summer, rain, created, quite, a, few, farmers, have, a, large, amount, of, 2001, silage, left, as, it, wasn't, used, over, winter, 2001, 2002, as, they, hadn't, restocked, on, the, whole, it's, kept, very, well, and, in, many, cases, is, better, than, the, crop, they, made, last, summer, the, fall, out, from, the, deer, herd, tb, has, arrived, two, neighbouring, farms, to, test, this, week, the, first, one, has, come, back, negative, to, the, relief, of, all, concerned, i, did, the, second, one, on, friday, and, will, read, it, tomorrow, monday, the, farmers, there, are, all, very, concerned, about, it, which, is, understandable, but, hopefully, groundless, there, are, lots, of, questions, being, asked, along, the, lines, of, what, if, some, of, which, i, can, answer, and, some, not, it, does, remind, me, a, bit, of, february, 2001, when, fmd, broke, out, and, there, were, all, sorts, of, queries, about, the, disease, its, progression, etc, that, none, of, us, really, knew, about, it, didn't, take, long, for, us, to, know, the, answers, to, most, of, them, i've, had, this, weekend, off, a, hockey, fixture, list, has, started, again, after, the, christmas, break, a, return, to, winning, ways, hopefully, to, continue, diary, 45, the, week, had, a, bad, start, the, tb, test, i, did, last, friday, produced, two, reactors, and, two, inconclusive, borderline, reactors, this, means, that, the, farm, isn't, allowed, to, move, at, any, bovines, on, or, off, the, farm, except, directly, to, slaughter, under, licence, the, reactors, are, taken, away, for, post, mortem, examination, and, the, inconclusive, reactors, are, isolated, for, 60, days, until, the, rest, of, the, herd, is, re, tested, the, farmer, was, very, keen, to, get, the, inconclusive, animals, removed, as, well, quite, understandably, in, my, opinion, so, that, they, couldn't, pose, a, threat, to, the, rest, of, his, herd, apparently, defra, aren't, allowed, to, do, this, i, think, largely, due, to, financial, reasons, while, fully, appreciating, the, need, to, protect, taxpayers, money, considering, how, much, was, spent, in, 2001, i, think, this, a, potentially, flawed, argument, perhaps, the, rules, need, to, be, changed, but, then, again, i'm, not, an, epidemiologist, and, perhaps, they, don't, actually, pose, a, threat, the, farmer, seemed, very, depressed, by, it, all, i, think, a, lot, of, it, is, the, feeling, of, having, the, stigma, of, being, a, farm, under, defra, restrictions, again, he, was, also, very, aware, of, the, threat, he, was, to, his, neighbours, and, was, desperately, keen, to, minimise, it, it's, actually, quite, small, while, the, cows, are, still, indoors, but, i, think, people, are, still, very, much, thinking, of, how, serious, it, was, for, neighbours, if, someone, got, fmd, tb, is, a, very, different, type, of, organism, and, it’s, a, question, of, getting, people, to, understand, this, which, isn't, to, say, it's, not, a, very, serious, problem, on, the, same, day, another, farm, in, the, area, not, ours, was, confirmed, with, tb, so, it's, definitely, progressing, in, cumbria, depressing, all, we, can, do, is, follow, defra, instructions, on, testing, and, try, to, keep, on, top, of, it, one, of, my, colleagues, tore, a, knee, ligament, last, week, while, skiing, he, normally, does, mostly, large, animal, calls, seeing, as, he's, now, confined, to, the, practice, doing, small, animals, i've, taken, over, couple, of, the, farms, he, does, routine, fertility, visits, for, it, makes, a, change, to, spend, time, on, farms, i, don't, visit, often, although, i, hear, the, small, animal, nurses, are, quite, keen, for, matt, to, get, back, to, doing, them, diary, 46, one, of, our, dairy, farmers, has, had, a, big, outbreak, of, pneumonia, in, his, calves, this, week, i've, been, to, the, farm, at, least, once, every, day, this, week, the, tests, we've, done, are, usually, pretty, sensitive, but, have, failed, to, reveal, any, of, the, usual, causes, treatment, seems, to, have, been, working, in, some, cases, but, not, in, others, he, hasn't, lost, any, i, e, none, dead, but, the, loss, in, body, weight, is, very, obvious, it's, all, been, a, bit, frustrating, really, he's, a, very, pleasant, guy, and, hasn't, said, anything, but, when, treatments, repeatedly, fail, to, get, expected, and, predicted, results, i, can't, help, feeling, that, he, must, be, getting, a, bit, sceptical, about, it, or, perhaps, i'm, just, being, paranoid, by, the, end, of, the, week, the, majority, seem, to, be, on, the, mend, but, seeing, as, we, haven't, tracked, down, the, causative, agent, it's, hard, to, know, what, vaccination, to, recommend, next, year, there, are, some, more, tests, that, will, come, back, in, two, weeks, which, may, be, more, revealing, in, midweek, i, did, one, of, the, fairly, common, operations, to, correct, a, twisted, stomach, in, a, cow, surprisingly, it, was, the, first, time, this, dairy, farmer, had, had, one, done, and, he, took, some, convincing, that, it, was, a, good, idea, having, persuaded, someone, to, pay, for, a, procedure, i, always, feel, under, a, bit, more, pressure, than, usual, fortunately, it, went, pretty, well, and, the, cow, is, so, far, doing, well, i, was, on, second, call, this, weekend, which, turned, out, to, be, pretty, quiet, i, think, we, must, be, in, a, lull, before, lambing, really, kicks, in, let's, enjoy, it, while, it, lasts, diary, 47, after, not, doing, any, testing, last, week, it, was, my, turn, again, this, week, it, wasn't, a, big, one, only, about, 30, cows, but, it, was, a, bit, more, risky, than, usual, as, it, was, a, herd, of, beef, longhorns, and, they, do, have, long, horns, whilst, trying, to, manoeuvre, them, into, a, crush, to, inject, their, necks, with, tuberculin, we, always, had, to, be, ready, to, take, evasive, action, if, they, made, a, sudden, turn, i, don't, think, they, ever, tried, to, use, their, horns, aggressively, but, they, were, so, big, that, they, become, dangerous, weapons, when, they, were, just, moving, normally, as, it, turned, out, no, one, received, any, injuries, and, very, importantly, the, test, was, negative, this, week, also, brought, my, first, lambing, of, the, year, other, people, have, done, a, few, but, this, was, my, first, we, have, a, couple, of, farms, who, lamb, early, for, the, early, lamb, sales, it, seems, very, hard, work, at, this, time, of, year, but, the, early, prices, do, seem, to, make, it, worthwhile, give, it, another, week, or, two, and, a, sure, they’ll, start, to, become, more, frequent, i, took, friday, off, as, i, had, to, get, to, london, for, 4, pm, to, get, on, the, eurostar, to, go, skiing, typically, the, one, day, of, the, year, that, the, country, ground, to, halt, was, thursday, night, friday, we, managed, to, make, it, to, waterloo, station, only, to, find, the, station, in, chaos, as, all, eurostars, had, been, cancelled, due, to, snow, in, france, at, least, it's, not, just, britain, that, can’t, cope, with, it, after, being, assured, that, none, would, run, for, 24, hours, they, suddenly, told, us, to, board, only, 1, hours, late, very, pleasant, surprise, we, ended, up, arriving, in, val, d'isere, on, time, with, loads, of, snow, and, blue, skies, i, tried, to, spare, a, thought, for, whoever, was, on, call, at, weekend, i, managed, it, just, diary, 48, after, the, weather, almost, prevented, us, from, reaching, val, d’isere, it, was, very, clear, for, the, first, few, days, but, then, the, snow, returned, for, three, days, we, couldn't, do, much, during, that, time, but, it, did, mean, that, there, were, fantastic, conditions, for, the, last, few, days, we, had, a, group, of, 29, and, completely, filled, one, large, chalet, there, were, for, once, no, major, skiing, injuries, within, the, group, and, i, think, a, good, time, was, had, by, all, diary, 49, back, to, work, this, week, i’m, never, reluctant, to, go, back, after, a, week, off, and, sometimes, dare, i, say, it, even, look, forward, to, it, must, be, a, good, sign, apparently, last, week, was, ok, at, work, with, no, major, dramas, we, still, haven't, found, any, more, tb, cases, but, the, screening, continues, all, the, time, one, of, the, rules, for, re, stocking, herds, compared, to, herds, that, missed, fmd, is, that, all, bovines, over, 42, days, old, have, to, be, tested, rather, than, just, the, adults, last, year, when, there, weren't, many, calves, around, this, didn't, make, much, difference, but, now, most, farms, have, at, least, a, year's, worth, of, calves, in, place, it, doubles, the, size, of, most, tests, often, calves, won't, fit, in, crushes, and, are, very, wild, so, it, can, get, quite, exciting, it, seems, a, necessary, policy, though, one, of, the, reactors, i, found, a, few, weeks, ago, was, a, six, month, old, stirk, i've, had, a, fairly, quiet, week, i've, had, a, couple, of, nights, on, duty, which, were, both, quiet, there's, a, horse, near, carlisle, that, i, think, i've, mentioned, before, with, a, recurrent, tooth, problem, we, thought, we'd, finally, sorted, that, but, this, week, she, developed, a, problem, with, one, of, the, tendons, on, her, foreleg, it's, a, bit, disappointing, for, her, owner, as, she, only, bought, the, horse, recently, in, order, to, compete, to, a, very, high, standard, and, she, seems, to, permanently, off, training, with, one, ailment, or, another, i, don't, think, it's, too, serious, so, hopefully, in, another, week, or, two, she'll, be, back, to, work, i've, been, off, this, weekend, came, second, in, the, weekend’s, hockey, match, a, real, case, of, defeat, been, snatched, from, the, jaws, of, victory, i, went, for, a, walk, around, the, great, gable, scafell, area, on, sunday, afternoon, it, was, amazing, how, much, snow, and, ice, was, still, left, over, from, winter, weather, a, week, or, so, ago, maybe, i, needn't, have, bothered, going, abroad, diary, 50, i, found, another, positive, tb, case, on, friday, i, did, the, test, on, tuesday, on, a, very, large, beef, herd, on, a, restocking, farm, including, calves, they, must, have, been, just, over, 400, cattle, to, do, there, was, one, reactor, on, friday, and, two, inconclusives, there, is, a, possibility, that, it, is, a, false, positive, the, farm, has, been, having, big, problems, with, something, called, at, johne’s, disease, which, is, caused, by, a, similar, type, of, bacterium, to, the, one, that, causes, tb, there, is, a, small, possibility, of, a, cow, carrying, johne’s, disease, cross, reacting, with, the, tb, test, injection, i, actually, blood, sampled, all, the, adult, cows, on, tuesday, to, screen, the, herd, for, johne’s, in, order, to, try, to, start, eradicating, it, from, herd, it'll, be, interesting, to, see, whether, the, positive, test, cow, will, be, positive, for, johne’s, ultimately, it, doesn't, really, make, much, difference, in, the, short, term, the, farm’s, been, placed, under, restrictions, and, the, affected, cow, has, been, taken, off, for, post, mortem, one, of, my, colleagues, found, another, positive, reactor, on, a, different, farm, on, friday, as, well, that's, three, farms, in, the, practice, now, and, around, 50, 60, within, cumbria, the, big, worry, now, this, is, that, the, longer, it, stays, around, the, more, likely, inevitable, it, is, disease, will, get, into, wildlife, reservoirs, deer, and, perhaps, badgers, depending, on, whether, you, believe, that, badgers, are, an, influence, or, not, time, will, tell, but, i'm, sure, it's, going, to, keep, us, busy, for, several, years, if, not, a, lot, more, i, did, a, test, on, monday, as, well, on, a, small, farm, that, i've, never, been, to, before, at, least, testing, is, one, way, of, getting, on, to, small, farms, who, don't, often, need, us, this, one, was, all, clear, the, remainder, of, the, week, was, spent, doing, more, usual, work, lambing’s, still, not, quite, got, into, full, swing, although, we, are, seeing, a, slow, increase, in, the, number, of, sheep, been, brought, to, the, surgery, diary, 51, no, tb, testing, for, me, this, week, and, no, more, positive, cases, in, the, practice, the, first, case, that, i, found, back, in, january, was, confirmed, as, carrying, tb, this, week, though, although, it's, bad, news, for, the, farmer, it, is, quite, reassuring, to, know, that, the, tests, and, methods, we, use, do, detect, carrier, animals, reasonably, accurately, this, week, has, been, fairly, busy, without, ever, getting, too, hectic, i, operated, on, a, cow, on, tuesday, which, for, a, number, of, reasons, didn't, go, quite, as, smoothly, as, it, might, have, done, it, subsequently, didn't, do, as, well, post, operatively, as, we, would, normally, expect, the, coming, week, should, see, an, improvement, i, hope, we, can, never, give, cast, iron, guarantees, about, the, outcome, of, surgery, but, it, is, quite, rare, for, this, op, to, fail, so, fingers, crossed, for, monday, i, had, to, see, a, horse, with, colic, earlier, in, the, week, which, on, my, first, visit, to, i, was, very, suspicious, that, it, was, going, to, require, surgery, to, correct, the, owner, wasn't, prepared, for, that, happen, though, so, it, was, a, question, of, trying, to, manage, it, medically, or, euthanizing, it, it, wasn't, in, undue, pain, so, we, gave, it, a, go, medically, and, much, to, my, pleasant, surprise, over, the, next, few, hours, and, visits, he, did, very, well, just, goes, to, show, we, are, not, all, knowing, it, would, have, been, interesting, to, know, whether, it, was, a, surgical, condition, which, somehow, righted, itself, or, whether, it, was, a, medical, case, all, along, which, simply, appeared, as, something, more, serious, i, had, to, work, for, an, hour, or, so, on, saturday, morning, doing, small, animal, consultations, and, then, had, the, rest, of, the, weekend, off, we, came, second, in, a, hockey, match, again, and, then, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, to, catch, up, with, some, college, friends, who, haven't, seen, for, a, while, diary, 52, this, week, has, really, seen, the, start, of, the, lambing, season, the, sheep, every, day, or, every, other, day, that, we've, been, seeing, for, the, last, month, or, so, has, turned, into, one, every, few, hours, during, the, day, and, during, the, night, in, some, cases, it’s, encouraging, that, farmers, are, still, bringing, them, in, calling, us, out, as, many, feel, that, sheep, aren't, worth, paying, vet, fees, for, this, obviously, creates, a, welfare, problem, in, many, situations, as, inappropriate, and, inadequate, treatment, is, sometimes, provided, by, the, farmer, having, said, that, i, can, see, why, some, take, the, attitude, of, not, spending, money, on, them, as, prices, are, often, so, low, the, other, aspect, of, lambing, time, is, that, nights, get, very, busy, on, monday, i, had, a, ewe, caesarean, at, 2am, then, a, horse, that, had, just, foaled, at, 3.15, i, had, an, hour, or, so, in, bed, and, then, a, sick, cow, at, 6.20, although, it, can, be, a, bit, tiring, on, the, whole, cases, we, see, out, of, hours, are, not, the, run, of, the, mill, routine, things, so, it, does, at, least, make, it, interesting, which, isn't, always, the, first, thing, on, my, mind, when, the, phone, rings, at, 3am, unfortunately, the, cow, i, operated, on, last, week, failed, to, improve, and, i, had, to, re, operate, on, monday, this, is, far, from, ideal, as, it, carries, a, much, higher, risk, of, infection, than, first, time, operation, somewhat, to, my, surprise, it, seems, to, be, doing, very, well, now, cows, seem, to, be, amazingly, resilient, if, i'd, had, abdominal, surgery, twice, in, a, mucky, cow, byre, i'm, sure, i, wouldn't, cope, as, well, i, did, the, same, op, on, a, different, farm, later, in, the, week, which, went, much, better, i’d, be, getting, worried, about, my, technique, if, two, in, a, row, went, wrong, i've, worked, saturday, morning, again, supposedly, just, for, an, hour, but, it, turned, into, about, two, and, a, half, as, things, kept, coming, in, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, again, after, hockey, came, second, again, to, see, someone, who's, left, his, job, to, go, around, the, world, for, six, months, diary, 54, the, beginning, of, the, week, saw, a, visit, to, a, horse, which, had, a, chronic, episode, of, laminitis, a, hoof, condition, in, this, horse's, case, it, had, become, very, severe, and, really, beyond, the, point, where, treatment, is, feasible, euthanasia, was, the, best, option, for, the, horse, as, it, was, in, a, lot, of, pain, unfortunately, the, owner, was, very, reluctant, for, this, and, wanted, to, carry, on, with, treatment, this, sort, of, situation, does, crop, up, from, time, to, time, and, is, difficult, for, all, concerned, in, the, end, i, told, the, owners, what, i, thought, the, chances, of, recovery, were, and, let, them, make, their, decision, which, was, to, continue, treatment, hopefully, i'll, be, proved, wrong, and, the, horse, will, recover, but, i, can't, really, see, it, happening, i, saw, another, case, later, in, the, week, which, ended, up, going, to, liverpool, university, for, surgery, it, was, a, small, pony, that, had, managed, to, cut, itself, very, severely, on, barbed, wire, horses, always, find, something, to, injure, themselves, on, there, was, a, risk, that, it, had, penetrated, a, joint, so, i, sent, it, to, liverpool, to, be, flushed, as, far, as, i, know, it's, doing, very, well, so, far, the, rest, of, the, workload, this, week, has, been, the, usual, stuff, for, the, time, of, year, loads, of, lambing, a, few, tb, tests, negative, generally, kept, busy, on, friday, i, went, to, edinburgh, for, a, few, days, course, on, equine, neurology, i, knew, most, of, the, speakers, and, some, delegates, from, when, i, was, a, student, there, it, was, good, to, see, people, again, and, i, learnt, a, few, things, about, horses, brains, and, nerves, saturday, was, our, last, hockey, match, of, the, season, a, draw, we, didn't, win, the, league, by, any, stretch, of, the, imagination, but, we, weren't, last, either, diary, 55, another, manic, spring, week, goes, by, i've, been, on, duty, this, weekend, and, the, two, of, us, on, call, have, done, as, many, calls, in, the, last, two, days, has, eight, vets, would, expect, to, do, in, two, week, days, in, the, summer, we, haven't, been, bored, i, didn't, leave, the, practice, building, until, lunchtime, on, saturday, as, there, was, a, constant, flow, of, small, animals, to, see, to, and, a, few, sheep, brought, in, with, lambing, problems, i, eventually, left, at, 1.30, p, m, to, go, to, operate, on, a, cow, with, a, twisted, stomach, that, was, meant, to, be, done, at, 11, am, the, op, went, a, ok, but, it, was, then, straight, back, to, the, surgery, to, do, a, caesarean, on, a, whelping, bitch, with, the, help, of, a, student, who, is, seeing, practice, with, us, between, then, and, 9, pm, it, was, a, variety, of, sick, cows, sheep, to, lamb, and, a, calf, with, lead, poisoning, at, the, far, end, of, ullswater, would, have, been, a, very, nice, drive, out, if, it, hadn't, been, for, the, rush, to, top, things, off, i, had, a, cow, caesarean, at, 9, pm, it, was, very, useful, having, a, student, to, help, all, day, i, think, it, was, a, bit, of, an, eye, opener, for, her, sunday, morning, gave, me, to, more, caesareans, sheep, this, time, variety, is, the, spice, of, life, a, cat, who, had, very, mysteriously, lost, a, leg, overnight, perhaps, caught, in, a, trap, but, was, in, incredibly, good, health, otherwise, it's, amazing, what, animals, can, withstand, and, a, good, supply, of, other, calls, to, keep, me, out, of, mischief, it, has, actually, been, quite, enjoyable, despite, being, so, hectic, and, i, think, most, of, the, cases, have, been, quite, successful, which, always, helps, the, rest, of, the, week, seems, a, distant, memory, but, on, the, whole, it, was, more, of, the, same, but, at, a, slower, pace, i, did, another, small, tb, test, which, was, negative, anyway, a, night, off, tonight, i, need, a, pint, diary, 56, monday, morning, was, the, 60, day, re, test, for, the, first, herd, that, i, found, tb, in, it, was, a, sunny, day, and, on, the, whole, the, test, went, very, smoothly, the, farmer's, buildings, are, getting, very, overcrowded, though, as, he, is, under, a, movement, restriction, due, to, the, tb, first, day, started, well, as, all, the, animals, were, giving, negative, readings, but, then, came, the, dreaded, reaction, to, the, injections, we, gave, on, the, first, day, there, were, four, reactors, in, total, three, of, which, were, borderline, and, the, other, was, very, very, obvious, the, frustrating, thing, is, that, the, obvious, one, was, a, borderline, reactor, last, time, but, defra, refused, to, take, it, as, it, isn't, in, their, policy, to, take, inconclusive, reactors, found, on, a, routine, test, this, means, that, an, animal, that, is, actually, infected, his, left, on, premises, to, potentially, infect, other, animals, the, farmer, had, tried, to, point, this, out, two, months, ago, to, no, avail, he, is, now, vindicated, in, his, view, not, that, that, is, much, consolation, for, the, fact, that, his, restrictions, are, to, be, continued, and, he, may, well, probably, will, in, fact, now, have, more, carriers, which, won't, be, found, until, the, next, test, in, 60, days, time, the, reason, for, not, initially, taking, inconclusive, reactors, is, to, save, money, by, not, paying, for, the, animals, to, be, slaughtered, that, aren't, actually, infected, in, cases, like, this, it, seems, to, be, a, real, false, economy, and, doesn't, win, defra, friends, in, the, farming, community, tuesday, and, wednesday, this, week, were, mainly, horse, jobs, a, horse, with, a, recurrent, tooth, problem, that, i've, mentioned, before, came, in, for, more, x, rays, and, finally, seems, to, be, doing, ok, its, competing, in, germany, in, a, week, or, two, so, i, do, hope, it, stays, ok, this, weekend, i, went, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, with, one, of, my, old, flatmates, from, edinburgh, the, weather, held, and, was, amazingly, hot, for, the, time, of, year, almost, got, sunburnt, diary, 57, i've, had, a, final, year, student, from, edinburgh, staying, with, me, this, week, while, she's, seeing, practice, with, us, final, exams, are, looming, and, i, think, the, stress, levels, are, rising, it's, very, easy, to, think, of, all, the, things, you, don't, know, but, i, think, we've, more, or, less, managed, to, convince, her, that, she, does, know, enough, not, to, be, a, liability, when, she, qualifies, she, saw, an, interesting, incident, on, a, call, we, did, early, in, the, week, i'd, gone, to, replace, a, uterine, prolapse, in, a, cow, which, went, okay, but, the, farmer, then, asked, me, to, falsely, certify, a, cow, we, can, give, certificates, to, cows, over, 30, months, of, age, under, the, bse, scheme, for, which, farmers, are, compensated, this, cow, had, to, be, put, down, but, wasn't, 30, months, for, another, four, days, he, was, understandably, quite, upset, about, this, and, let, me, know, it’s, this, sort, of, thing, that, is, a, nightmare, for, anyone, but, especially, someone, just, starting, you, want, to, please, the, farmer, and, make, a, good, impression, but, you, also, have, responsibility, to, not, abuse, your, ability, to, use, your, signature, in, the, end, i, explained, why, he, couldn't, have, a, certificate, and, he, did, calm, down, i'm, sure, vicky, will, have, similar, situations, before, too, long, diplomatic, as, well, as, clinical, skills, develop, very, quickly, once, in, practice, another, interesting, case, came, in, on, thursday, a, year, old, foal, needed, emergency, surgery, on, a, hernia, as, luck, would, have, it, it, was, our, first, relatively, quiet, morning, for, a, few, weeks, so, we, had, enough, vets, on, hand, to, do, the, surgery, and, anaesthetic, the, op, went, well, and, the, horse, has, gone, home, this, weekend, i've, been, on, second, call, this, weekend, and, things, have, been, busy, but, not, unmanageable, i, did, 2, belgian, blue, caesareans, in, the, space, of, six, hours, on, one, farm, yesterday, but, since, then, it's, just, been, a, reasonable, stream, of, calls, rather, than, the, madness, of, two, weekends, ago, diary, 58, following, my, going, up, on, a, course, on, neurology, a, few, weeks, ago, a, case, came, up, this, week, it's, not, often, that, we, see, neurological, cases, so, it's, quite, a, coincidence, i, think, it, must, have, some, kind, of, tumour, in, its, brain, causing, it, to, show, the, various, signs, it, has, unfortunately, the, only, way, to, firmly, diagnose, this, is, by, post, mortem, which, is, how, most, neurological, cases, end, up, and, alas, i, fear, this, one, will, too, i, went, to, do, a, fertility, check, at, one, of, our, dairy, farms, on, tuesday, the, vet, he, normally, has, was, away, and, he, looked, a, bit, put, out, when, i, turned, up, i, think, hope, i, managed, not, to, abort, any, of, his, cows, and, he, seemed, very, cheery, by, the, time, i, left, i, suppose, it's, understandable, that, farmers, tend, to, want, continuity, with, which, vet, comes, work, continues, to, be, very, busy, an, indication, in, the, increase, in, daily, workload, is, that, we've, had, to, introduce, a, specific, messages, book, at, work, as, there's, no, longer, room, to, write, people, messages, in, the, day, book, as, it, so, full, with, appointments, they, used, to, be, a, few, days, in, the, year, when, both, pages, of, the, day, book, were, full, the, first, day, of, fmd, in, penrith, had, one, call, but, this, week, 4, days, have, been, full, it's, got, to, be, a, good, sign, really, and, as, i, think, i've, said, before, it, does, stop, us, all, from, getting, bored, i've, had, three, days, off, over, easter, friday, sunday, and, two, friends, and, their, two, mad, dogs, have, been, to, stay, my, cats, were, not, impressed, on, good, friday, we, went, up, plaice, fell, i, accidentally, brought, us, down, a, much, more, direct, route, than, i, intended, so, we, had, to, while, away, some, time, in, the, garden, of, the, patterdale, hotel, life's, hard, yesterday, we, left, the, bank, holiday, crowds, in, the, lakes, and, went, for, a, walk, in, the, eden, valley, didn't, see, a, soul, it's, amazing, the, difference, a, few, miles, can, make, i, suppose, it, hasn't, got, the, hills, and, isn't, as, famous, but, the, scenery, is, still, pretty, impressive, but, let's, not, tell, anyone, and, then, it, might, stay, quiet, on, bank, holidays, diary, 59, i, was, on, duty, on, easter, monday, but, it, wasn't, too, hectic, in, fact, it, was, almost, unbelievably, quiet, there, were, three, of, us, on, duty, bracing, ourselves, for, the, usual, spring, onslaught, and, we, only, had, about, two, calls, each, to, do, all, morning, weird, how, it, sometimes, turns, out, like, that, lambing, is, definitely, quietening, down, now, the, 5, 10, lambings, coming, in, each, day, is, turning, into, 2, 3, it's, mostly, fell, sheep, lambing, now, which, tend, to, be, easier, to, lamb, so, few, are, in, need, our, farmer’s, assistance, it's, starting, to, get, into, the, horse, castration, season, we've, had, the, odd, one, or, two, over, the, last, few, weeks, but, have, had, about, five, this, week, one, of, my, colleagues, who, is, next, up, from, me, in, terms, of, experience, and, i, have, started, doing, them, together, whereas, a, few, years, ago, after, it, would, always, have, been, at, least, one, of, the, partners, and, one, of, us, we, must, be, improving, tb, testing, seems, to, have, calmed, down, a, bit, too, as, a, practice, we’re, pretty, much, up, to, date, with, it, and, as, farmers, start, to, turn, their, cows, out, they'll, become, more, reluctant, to, do, it, with, the, way, it’s, spreading, in, the, county, though, we, have, to, try, to, keep, up, to, date, with, it, or, it, really, is, going, to, get, out, of, hand, i've, had, this, weekend, off, it, was, my, sister's, birthday, yesterday, so, i, went, to, meet, her, and, my, folks, for, lunch, we, sat, outside, and, enjoyed, the, april, sun, very, nice, it, was, too, farmers, are, all, wanting, rain, you, don't, hear, that, often, in, april, but, the, sun, suits, me, fine, what, are, the, odds, on, it, bucketing, down, in, june, during, silage, time, diary, 60, one, of, our, big, dairy, farms, had, had, a, big, outbreak, of, ibr, this, week, one, of, the, main, respiratory, viruses, on, the, whole, it, doesn’t, cause, death, and, is, normally, containable, on, this, occasion, however, it, seems, to, have, been, a, virulent, strain, and, has, caused, a, number, of, deaths, and, a, great, deal, of, lost, production, in, terms, of, lost, milk, and, calves, not, thriving, towards, the, end, of, the, week, i, went, and, shot, three, cows, which, were, terminally, affected, seeing, three, dead, and, bleeding, cows, in, the, yard, obviously, reminded, the, farmer, and, me, of, when, he, had, the, whole, herd, shot, in, the, same, place, for, fmd, and, he, had, then, moved, out, of, sight, very, quickly, i, think, the, worst, of, the, outbreak, is, over, now, and, all, the, cows, have, been, vaccinated, there's, only, one, vet, more, junior, qualified, for, less, time, than, me, in, the, practice, who, started, a, year, or, so, ago, this, week, we, went, to, do, a, colt, castrate, together, one, surgeon, one, as, anaesthetist, for, the, first, time, we've, both, done, a, lot, with, other, vets, but, this, was, the, first, time, we've, been, let, loose, as, a, pair, everything, went, very, smoothly, so, it, looks, as, though, our, boss's, confidence, trust, wasn't, totally, misplaced, on, friday, morning, i, had, a, big, dehorning, session, for, one, of, our, beef, farmers, it's, fairly, non, cerebral, type, work, but, is, ok, for, a, change, every, now, and, then, and, the, farmer, is, a, pretty, amenable, sort, of, guy, more, than, could, be, said, for, the, weather, so, it, was, a, fairly, laid, back, morning's, work, i, had, the, afternoon, off, and, drove, up, to, edinburgh, where, there, was, a, bit, of, a, reunion, for, recent, graduates, from, the, vet, college, there, were, a, lot, of, people, haven't, seen, for, a, long, time, and, it, was, interesting, to, compare, notes, on, what, we, were, all, up, to, diary, 61, after, last, weekend, in, edinburgh, i, had, to, come, back, to, work, on, bank, holiday, monday, it, was, fairly, manageable, on, the, whole, there, were, three, of, us, on, duty, in, the, morning, when, the, work, was, steady, without, ever, getting, too, hectic, i, was, on, first, call, after, 1pm, when, the, surgery, closed, and, it, remained, fairly, quiet, until, the, evening, when, there, was, a, sudden, run, of, calls, but, they, came, in, one, after, the, other, rather, than, building, up, too, much, on, tuesday, i, did, the, 60, day, re, test, of, the, second, herd, of, cattle, that, i, had, previously, found, a, reactor, in, it’s, a, big, herd, and, it, took, all, day, to, get, it, done, they’ve, been, a, bit, unfortunate, and, brought, in, several, other, diseases, apart, from, the, suspected, tb, when, they, re, stocked, one, of, these, an, enteric, condition, called, johnes, disease, is, a, chronic, wasting, problem, and, is, notoriously, difficult, to, eradicate, it’ll, take, years, of, blood, testing, and, careful, record, keeping, to, get, rid, of, it, it’s, frustrating, for, them, as, all, the, planning, for, the, post, fmd, period, has, been, disrupted, the, tb, test, showed, up, no, reactors, this, time, but, 3, cows, were, inconclusive, results, and, will, have, to, be, re, tested, this, is, almost, certainly, as, a, result, of, the, cows, carrying, antibodies, to, avian, tb, which, causes, no, signs, of, disease, in, cows, but, disrupts, the, bovine, tb, test, it’s, a, good, example, of, why, we, badly, need, a, more, specific, method, for, testing, for, tb, it’s, being, worked, on, at, the, moment, and, hopefully, we’ll, get, one, one, day, the, senior, partner, at, work, is, supervising, another, vet, who, is, doing, the, same, equine, qualification, that, i’m, enrolled, for, on, wednesday, he, came, to, spend, a, day, with, neil, to, do, some, equine, anaesthetics, they, were, mainly, castrates, so, i, operated, while, neil, went, through, the, anaesthetics, with, his, student, it, was, very, useful, to, hear, it, all, in, detail, again, it’s, all, too, easy, to, get, into, the, habit, of, knowing, which, drugs, work, at, what, dosages, and, not, actually, really, thinking, about, why, they, work, or, why, they’re, better, than, other, drugs, we, could, use, a, useful, day, but, it, has, made, me, realise, i’ve, got, a, lot, to, do, over, the, next, few, years, diary, 62, things, are, still, remaining, very, busy, at, work, lambing, has, pretty, much, finished, now, but, the, work, doesn't, seem, to, be, easing, the, partners, have, decided, we, need, another, vet, to, help, things, along, a, final, year, student, from, edinburgh, came, for, an, interview, this, week, and, it, looks, as, though, he'll, get, the, job, it, will, mean, that, the, rota, will, improve, and, hopefully, will, not, be, quite, as, hectic, when, he, starts, following, the, fantastically, dry, spring, it's, now, too, wet, for, the, farmers, and, they, are, tearing, their, hair, out, about, how, the, first, cut, of, silage, is, going, to, be, gathered, in, dry, hopefully, we'll, get, a, dry, spell, again, soon, to, ease, their, worries, i, found, a, potential, case, to, write, up, for, my, equine, casebook, this, week, it's, a, mare, that, managed, to, get, caught, up, in, wire, and, tear, a, big, hole, in, the, shin, of, her, lower, leg, it's, too, big, a, defect, to, stitch, so, it'll, have, to, heal, with, a, lot, of, bandaging, and, perhaps, some, skin, grafts, it, always, amazes, me, how, horses, managed, to, give, themselves, the, most, horrendous, injuries, been, fields, where, there, really, doesn't, seem, to, be, any, opportunity, for, it, clumsiness, perhaps, maybe, they, just, enjoy, pain, i, doubt, it, we're, doing, quite, a, bit, of, scanning, of, mares, for, pregnancy, at, the, moment, it's, another, thing, that, i've, been, doing, more, of, this, year, than, in, the, past, it's, a, bit, daunting, at, times, but, as, with, a, lot, of, things, it's, really, a, case, of, practising, it, as, much, as, possible, by, the, end, of, the, stud, season, it’ll, hopefully, be, fairly, straightforward, i, drove, down, to, oxford, on, friday, evening, after, work, to, see, my, sister, cousins, friends, who, live, down, there, it, seemed, a, longish, drive, but, it, was, well, worth, it, to, catch, up, with, them, all, one, of, the, things, about, working, weekends, is, that, it, makes, weekends, off, that, much, more, appreciated, diary, 63, after, a, very, pleasant, weekend, off, i, had, a, truly, delightful, first, job, on, monday, morning, a, cow, had, been, losing, weight, for, the, last, month, also, the, reason, i, found, was, that, it, had, a, very, dead, calf, inside, which, i, then, spent, the, first, hour, of, the, week, pulling, out, bone, by, bone, it, was, a, fairly, revolting, job, but, wasn't, actually, something, that, i, especially, resented, doing, must, mean, i'm, happy, in, my, work, or, perhaps, just, a, bit, weird, i, had, another, fairly, grim, job, later, in, the, week, when, i, was, called, out, at, 4, a, m, to, a, foaling, the, foal, was, stuck, half, out, and, was, dead, by, the, time, i, got, there, i, eventually, managed, to, get, the, foal, out, and, initially, the, mare, seemed, ok, but, deteriorated, over, the, next, 48, hours, and, eventually, had, to, be, euthanased, that’s, just, the, way, it, goes, sometimes, a, more, successful, case, came, later, in, the, week, when, i, saw, a, foal, that, was, acutely, lame, it, looked, at, first, as, though, it, might, have, an, infected, elbow, but, after, taking, samples, of, the, joint, fluid, and, some, x, rays, it, looked, as, though, it, was, actually, a, traumatic, injury, it, stayed, it, in, the, hospital, for, four, days, during, which, time, it, seemed, to, improve, quite, a, bit, it's, a, thoroughbred, from, a, good, racing, line, hopefully, with, a, rest, it’ll, make, a, full, recovery, and, win, the, grand, national, in, 2008, i, had, the, whole, of, the, bank, holiday, weekend, off, six, college, friends, came, to, stay, for, a, weekend, of, cumbrian, fresh, air, after, a, pretty, gloomy, forecast, the, weather, turned, out, very, well, and, we, all, went, for, a, lake, district, walk, each, day, and, had, a, pretty, relaxed, time, except, for, my, cats, four, dogs, also, came, to, stay, which, didn't, impress, the, cats, who, spent, the, whole, time, hiding, in, my, room, diary, 64, this, week, started, with, a, tb, test, for, a, small, re, stocking, herd, he, had, bought, some, cattle, from, a, farm, that, subsequently, tested, positive, for, tb, one, of, the, cattle, from, that, farm, had, then, tested, positive, on, his, farm, so, this, week's, test, was, a, 60, day, re, test, it, was, an, all, clear, this, time, which, was, obviously, a, relief, for, them, seeing, as, there, was, a, positive, on, the, farm, last, time, they, probably, have, to, have, another, test, in, 60, days, from, now, before, restrictions, are, lifted, this, farm, isn't, very, big, so, being, under, tb, restrictions, is, awkward, but, not, as, crippling, as, it, is, the, larger, farms, there, is, no, room, for, relaxing, the, rules, at, the, moment, though, the, recent, news, from, ireland, that, says, they, think, they've, proved, a, link, with, badgers, makes, it, even, more, important, to, get, it, out, of, cumbria, before, it, gets, into, wildlife, although, it, may, well, already, be, too, late, in, between, the, two, testing, days, this, week, i, seemed, to, do, a, lot, of, horse, cases, on, wednesday, i, spent, most, of, the, day, touring, around, cumbria, seeing, horses, in, wigton, cockermouth, and, bassenthwaite, it, was, a, sunny, day, and, was, a, very, pleasant, way, to, spend, the, day, great, scenery, to, look, at, outside, when, not, driving, and, cases, going, the, way, i, was, hoping, not, a, bad, way, to, work, i've, been, on, call, this, weekend, and, it's, been, very, quiet, so, far, yesterday, was, steady, with, a, reasonable, number, of, calls, but, none, stacking, up, i've, done, 2, cattle, caesareans, on, the, same, farm, this, weekend, one, yesterday, morning, which, seemed, like, a, huge, calf, until, the, one, i, did, this, morning, which, was, truly, a, freak, it, was, the, biggest, calf, i, or, the, farmer, had, seen, and, is, the, result, of, selecting, for, extreme, confirmation, in, beef, breeds, it, does, pose, serious, welfare, issues, for, the, cows, as, they, cannot, give, birth, naturally, and, have, to, have, fairly, major, abdominal, surgery, instead, we’ll, never, persuade, farmers, of, this, though, as, the, consumer, wants, cheaper, food, and, cheaper, beef, is, made, through, bigger, beef, calves, it, does, seem, tough, on, the, cows, though, or, am, i, being, too, cynical, diary, 65, i, thought, it, was, interesting, to, see, how, much, people, still, are, willing, to, talk, about, some, of, 2001, at, the, meeting, on, wednesday, night, while, a, lot, of, the, conversation, was, routed, around, the, subjects, you, had, come, up, with, over, the, last, 18, months, it, often, came, back, to, talk, of, events, and, individual, experiences, during, the, outbreak, itself, these, stories, must, have, been, told, on, dozens, of, occasions, but, people, still, want, to, tell, them, if, the, right, time, opportunity, comes, up, myself, included, there, were, so, many, themes, that, you, have, all, come, up, with, on, the, electronic, tags, sheet, that, it, seems, impossible, to, comment, on, them, all, some, of, them, seem, very, relevant, to, me, others, not, so, much, trust, is, a, category, that, comes, up, under, a, couple, of, headings, one, of, the, headings, it, is, under, is, knowledge, i, think, this, has, been, one, of, the, most, significant, changes, since, fmd, as, far, as, the, farmer, vet, relationship, is, concerned, defra, has, gone, from, being, eyed, with, some, suspicion, to, overt, distrust, and, resentment, on, a, whole, we, don't, get, too, much, flack, as, veterinary, gps, but, when, we, have, to, do, defra, allocated, jobs, such, as, tb, testing, there, is, sometimes, a, general, feeling, of, it, being, another, task, to, try, to, wear, them, down, being, sent, by, the, authorities, another, regulation, that, has, caused, huge, resentment, is, the, whole, animal, movement, licensing, system, it, is, much, easier, now, and, causes, fewer, problems, but, a, year, or, so, ago, it, was, the, source, of, much, stress, we, had, to, try, to, act, as, intermediary, between, farmers, and, defra, and, keep, both, sides, happy, the, damage, done, to, the, farmer, defra, trust, will, take, a, long, time, if, ever, to, start, to, repair, hopefully, by, trying, to, be, more, on, their, side, than, defra, seem, to, be, the, trust, they, have, in, us, has, been, preserved, it's, been, a, quietish, week, at, work, maybe, because, there's, been, a, bit, of, silaging, going, on, so, the, farmers, haven't, got, time, for, routine, work, it's, about, time, we, were, a, bit, quieter, the, summer, lull, hasn't, materialised, at, all, yet, this, year, in, fact, we’re, taking, on, another, vet, to, ease, the, workload, did, i, mention, this, last, week, in, the, meantime, it's, nice, to, have, time, to, draw, breath, and, enjoy, the, sun, for, a, day, or, two, diary, 66, this, week, seems, to, have, gone, by, a, pretty, quickly, maybe, it's, because, i'm, on, holiday, next, week, and, the, thought, of, it, is, spurring, me, on, i, fly, to, split, tomorrow, for, a, week, of, sailing, on, the, croatian, coast, with, a, college, friend, and, some, relatives, it'll, be, a, change, from, cumbria, one, of, our, big, dairy, farmers, was, away, in, thailand, this, week, the, farm, was, left, to, be, run, by, his, usual, workers, and, his, brother, and, mother, despite, this, he, felt, he, had, to, take, his, mobile, phone, with, him, and, he, was, rung, twice, during, the, week, to, be, asked, what, should, be, done, with, a, couple, of, sick, cows, i, suppose, this, either, demonstrates, extreme, dedication, or, an, inability, to, forget, about, work, or, both, but, then, again, it, also, shows, how, committed, a, lot, of, farmers, are, and, that, it's, not, just, a, job, to, them, as, farms, get, bigger, the, concept, of, all, the, cows, being, individually, known, to, the, farmer, or, being, his, friends, becomes, increasingly, unrealistic, but, in, the, majority, of, cases, they’re, not, just, milk, making, machines, and, are, cared, for, pretty, well, it's, not, hard, to, see, why, it, was, so, hard, for, people, to, lose, their, herds, after, being, a, bit, quieter, at, work, last, week, it, suddenly, seems, to, have, become, very, hectic, at, work, again, this, week, there, haven't, been, any, particularly, time, consuming, jobs, just, lots, of, sick, cows, horse, calls, and, the, usual, mix, of, animal, ailments, it's, better, to, be, busy, than, quiet, though, i, think, i, need, a, holiday, and, i'll, keep, my, phone, switched, off, diary, 67, a, week, off, work, to, go, sailing, in, croatia, easy, life, after, meeting, up, with, the, boat, and, the, rest, of, the, group, in, starigrad, we, sailed, to, vis, into, a, fairly, direct, head, wind, so, it, took, quite, a, bit, of, tacking, and, was, a, bit, of, a, rough, ride, i, also, very, stupidly, underdid, the, sunscreen, and, managed, to, burn, my, back, very, careless, but, it, got, less, uncomfortable, as, the, week, went, on, we, spent, two, nights, in, vis, harbour, as, the, others, who, had, already, been, sailing, for, a, week, wanted, a, rest, it, used, to, be, a, military, island, and, there, were, definite, signs, of, this, around, although, it, is, obviously, developing, a, now, rapidly, growing, tourist, trade, after, vis, it, was, off, to, hvar, where, we, anchored, in, a, small, inlet, a, few, miles, from, the, town, after, a, night, there, we, went, to, hvar, town, for, a, look, around, the, castle, on, the, hill, was, very, impressive, and, the, town, still, feels, as, though, it, is, relatively, unspoilt, at, the, moment, the, last, couple, of, days, were, spent, making, our, way, slowly, back, to, split, we, actually, spent, the, last, two, days, in, split, as, there, was, a, strong, northerly, wind, brewing, up, which, would, have, been, a, bit, rough, to, be, out, in, my, uncle, who, was, the, skipper, on, board, has, been, to, croatia, for, the, last, three, years, he, said, it, was, very, noticeably, more, busy, this, year, it, seems, a, shame, to, spoil, it, with, more, tourist, facilities, but, we, all, contributed, to, them, being, built, by, going, there, hopefully, it, won't, be, too, dramatically, changed, diary, 68, this, week, started, at, 9am, monday, with, a, tb, test, at, one, of, the, most, basic, run, down, farms, we, go, to, it, was, the, first, time, i'd, been, there, in, three, and, a, half, years, of, working, here, so, they, don't, make, huge, use, of, our, veterinary, services, one, of, their, bullocks, was, 7, years, old, when, i, casually, asked, about, what, plans, they, had, for, it, seeing, as, he, had, missed, the, 30, months, cut, off, time, for, human, consumption, i, was, told, it, was, just, kept, as, a, friend, for, the, bull, the, test, was, very, slow, as, the, cattle, handling, facilities, were, not, the, best, on, the, planet, they, were, very, pleasant, people, to, talk, to, and, it, soon, became, apparent, that, they, had, very, little, time, for, defra, nothing, unusual, there, the, son, was, one, of, the, people, who, had, had, his, firearms, confiscated, after, making, threats, at, the, start, of, fm, d, they, still, felt, resentful, about, the, way, the, police, became, involved, and, the, way, they, were, ultimately, given, no, choice, as, to, who, came, on, to, their, farm, to, check, their, stock, fortunately, all, the, cattle, were, negative, for, tb, so, there, was, no, need, to, further, add, to, their, distrust, of, defra, by, putting, them, under, more, restriction, the, rest, of, the, week, has, been, fairly, steady, there's, been, enough, going, on, to, keep, us, busy, without, ever, being, frantic, the, horse, i, saw, last, week, with, a, neurological, problem, has, become, a, bit, worse, so, has, gone, to, edinburgh, vet, school, to, see, one, of, the, neurologists, up, there, he, seemed, fairly, confused, by, it, as, well, which, i, have, to, say, i, found, quite, reassuring, the, weekend, was, a, bit, on, the, strenuous, side, a, cousin, who, is, a, keen, cyclist, persuaded, me, it, was, a, good, idea, to, do, a, big, cumbrian, yorkshire, bike, ride, we, went, from, penrith, to, alston, to, barnard, castle, to, tan, hill, refreshments, to, kirkby, stephen, to, penrith, on, saturday, and, then, recovered, on, sunday, it, seemed, like, a, good, idea, at, the, time, but, i, am, really, feeling, it, now, diary, 69, looking, back, at, some, of, the, quotes, in, the, recovery, section, of, the, notes, from, a, meeting, it's, noticeable, how, easy, it, is, to, forget, or, at, least, not, have, in, one's, mind, how, much, it, affected, a, lot, people, it's, almost, hard, to, remember, how, much, i, was, affected, by, it, i, know, that, there, were, some, very, unpleasant, tasks, such, as, supervising, slaughters, and, day, to, day, work, was, often, very, frustrating, when, we, felt, people, overseeing, our, work, from, offices, didn't, really, know, what, it, was, like, in, the, field, but, i, feel, now, that, on, the, whole, once, work, was, finished, life, pretty, much, went, on, maybe, this, isn't, actually, a, true, reflection, of, how, it, was, and, it's, just, that, some, of, the, detailed, memories, are, fading, often, things, don't, seem, as, bad, as, they, actually, were, when, you, look, back, on, them, i, know, plenty, of, clients, colleagues, and, friends, whose, lives, were, completely, overtaken, by, fmd, so, perhaps, mine, was, more, than, i, remember, but, i, also, feel, that, most, of, the, people, who, i, remember, as, being, heavily, affected, are, now, more, or, less, completely, over, it, one, of, the, farms, i, went, to, this, week, lost, a, son, in, a, road, accident, about, two, months, after, getting, fmd, i, think, the, farmer, was, ready, to, give, up, everything, after, that, apparently, he, left, the, cleaning, up, of, his, farm, and, took, no, interest, in, anything, time, obviously, helped, him, he's, been, back, milking, again, for, that, sic, last, year, and, a, half, there, are, still, changes, though, he, seems, very, much, quieter, and, more, laid, back, now, if, a, cow, isn't, in, calf, or, things, don't, go, quite, right, he, doesn't, seem, to, get, stressed, now, as, he, once, would, have, done, work, has, been, a, bit, quieter, this, week, which, we, would, expect, at, this, time, of, year, one, of, our, farms, has, put, some, pedigree, belgian, blue, embryos, into, some, limousin, cross, heifers, and, they're, starting, to, calve, now, they, all, need, caesar's, as, the, calves, are, almost, as, big, as, the, heifers, that, produce, them, the, only, thing, to, be, said, for, it, is, that, we, can, do, them, at, a, sensible, time, of, day, rather, than, at, two, in, the, morning, as, we, know, when, they’re, due, diary, 70, one, of, the, five, categories, you, raised, at, the, meetings, last, month, was, trauma, and, one, of, the, subsections, on, the, chart, was, sounds, smells, visions, sights, are, probably, the, most, frequent, reminder, of, fmd, now, there, are, certain, bits, of, road, that, have, memories, for, example, driving, north, on, the, m6, just, south, of, penrith, it, was, possible, to, count, smoke, plumes, from, about, 20, pyres, at, one, stage, on, fine, days, it, always, reminds, me, of, it, when, i, drive, that, stretch, one, farm, has, the, remains, of, a, pyre, that, was, started, to, be, built, but, never, finished, even, things, like, driving, across, two, lines, of, tar, across, a, road, which, once, held, down, a, disinfectant, mat, people, who, didn't, live, here, at, the, time, wouldn't, even, notice, them, but, it, seems, quite, significant, to, the, rest, of, us, it, doesn't, really, bother, me, but, just, is, a, reminder, of, what, went, on, at, other, times, it, seems, odd, how, quickly, things, have, gone, back, to, normal, even, something, as, simple, as, a, road, with, mud, or, animal, muck, on, it, in, 2001, that, would, have, stuck, out, like, a, sore, thumb, and, would, have, warranted, urgent, action, now, i'm, used, to, driving, a, dirty, car, i, do, clean, it, sometimes, and, having, some, roads, caked, in, dirt, it's, difficult, to, imagine, how, the, farmers, kept, them, clean, two, years, ago, but, they, did, obviously, there, are, other, reminders, people, never, tire, of, talking, about, it, but, it's, the, day, to, day, visions, and, places, that, are, most, regular, work, has, been, a, bit, quieter, this, week, i, did, it, a, caesar, on, a, cow, which, had, a, truly, ridiculously, enormous, calf, we, need, to, move, away, from, breeding, continental, beef, breeds, and, go, back, to, nice, compact, jersey's, or, aberdeen, anguses, i, also, saw, an, unusual, neurological, case, in, a, horse, it's, very, uncoordinated, and, has, poor, balance, it's, the, kind, of, case, where, brain, spinal, scan, would, be, useful, but, those, facilities, aren't, really, available, for, horses, it, will, be, interesting, to, see, how, it, goes, over, the, next, few, days, diary, 71, the, last, diary, the, 18, months, seem, to, have, gone, by, quickly, things, seem, so, much, back, to, how, they, were, that, it's, odd, to, think, back, to, what, was, going, on, when, we, first, started, writing, them, i, think, we, were, pretty, much, in, the, swing, of, doing, restocking, checks, and, doing, endless, blood, sampling, of, sheep, the, last, restocking, checks, i, did, were, only, 16, months, ago, it, seems, far, longer, although, i, say, things, are, back, to, how, they, were, i'm, sure, there, are, actually, a, lot, of, differences, it's, just, that, i, don't, notice, them, because, i'm, used, to, how, things, are, now, the, practice, has, become, a, lot, busier, by, october, we’ll, be, up, to, nine, full, time, and, two, part, time, vets, pre, fmd, we, were, seven, full, time, and, two, part, time, some, of, the, increase, is, equine, and, small, animal, but, most, of, it, is, in, farm, practice, part, of, this, is, directly, linked, to, fmd, eg, more, tb, testing, due, to, re, stocking, tests, and, re, stocking, having, brought, tb, into, the, county, other, factors, aren't, so, obvious, but, are, unquestionably, fmd, related, most, restocked, farmers, went, back, with, more, stock, than, they, originally, had, so, overall, there, is, greater, density, of, stock, around, more, animals, means, more, sick, animals, which, means, more, calls, for, the, vet, it's, a, shame, in, some, ways, to, see, the, small, traditional, farms, being, forced, out, but, it's, hard, to, see, how, they, can, manage, as, margins, get, smaller, and, larger, neighbours, get, more, stock, and, more, land, fmd, was, a, way, out, for, several, of, the, smaller, farms, all, have, been, bought, up, by, neighbours, with, none, being, sold, as, single, units, as, i've, said, in, recent, weeks, this, time, of, year, is, usually, quiet, it, has, become, a, bit, less, frantic, recently, but, the, traditional, summer, lull, hasn't, materialised, i've, been, a, vet, for, four, years, the, last, three, have, been, just, about, as, interesting, and, challenging, as, they, could, have, been, both, professionally, and, socially, from, the, point, of, view, of, living, in, penrith, obviously, fmd, had, devastating, effects, on, thousands, of, people, many, of, whom, are, my, friends, on, the, whole, i, see, very, few, residual, scars, it, is, still, talked, about, but, less, and, less, as, time, goes, on, more, than, one, farmer, has, actually, said, that, they, think, in, hindsight, it, was, a, very, good, thing, for, them, i'm, not, sure, i, could, ever, say, that, as, it, brought, too, much, stress, and, sadness, for, too, many, people, but, if, it, had, happened, i, think, very, much, with, the, benefit, of, hindsight, i’m, glad, that, i, had, the, chance, to, be, involved, with, it, from, the, start, and, through, the, recovery]
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1966, gender, f, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, diary, 1, monday, was, the, usual, long, hard, grind, i, accept, that, i, have, to, put, in, 10, 12, hours, and, i, don’t, mind, doing, the, work, because, it’s, not, physically, or, mentally, taxing, but, i, do, hate, not, having, a, lunch, break, just, that, little, bit, of, selfish, time, to, site, have, a, cigarette, take, the, dogs, down, the, river, see, the, horses, whatever, i, do, resent, that, fact, that, w, one, of, the, bosses, almost, always, gets, a, lunch, hour, b, the, other, boss, has, gone, up, tremendously, in, my, opinion, for, the, way, that, he, gets, on, with, the, work, he, starts, early, finishes, late, hates, derfa, paperwork, and, rarely, complains, it, is, definitely, grinding, them, down, because, they, work, like, that, at, least, 4, days, a, week, it, has, been, a, huge, advantage, this, last, year, being, part, time, at, work, my, days, off, obviously, aren’t, my, own, as, they, used, to, be, but, i, do, get, away, from, the, phone, and, the, demands, of, clients, some, of, our, clients, are, very, selfish, and, i, hadn’t, noticed, before, they, seem, to, think, they, are, the, only, ones, that, have, hassles, with, defra, i, remember, saying, to, one, complaining, about, problems, with, licensing, that, he, was, lucky, to, have, problems, with, only, one, licence, the, first, day, that, movement, licenses, came, out, we, applied, for, 26, and, received, the, explanatory, notes, from, defra, on, how, to, complete, the, paperwork, 4, days, later, anyway, managed, to, do, three, final, visits, and, complete, most, of, the, paperwork, before, 9pm, kirkby, stephen, was, buzzing, today, the, auction, reopened, for, a, cattle, sale, the, main, street, was, full, of, shiny, farmers, with, fish, and, chips, and, the, back, lane, was, full, of, shiny, some, new, land, rovers, and, trailers, trailers, mostly, new, in, fact, mc, told, me, that, as, soon, as, he, heard, his, bloods, had, come, back, clear, restocking, he, washed, and, changed, and, went, to, the, mart, he, said, it, was, the, first, time, he, had, felt, clean, since, the, day, they, were, infected, he, felt, ok, to, go, among, other, farmers, he, surprised, me, because, he, is, so, easy, going, he, takes, all, in, his, stride, but, he, still, says, fmd, is, not, as, terrible, as, testicular, cancer, and, he’s, right, ad, was, one, of, the, other, final, visits, he, doesn’t, give, a, bugger, about, anything, happy, to, become, a, flower, power, farmer, he, doesn’t, care, much, about, his, sheep, as, individuals, they, are, just, numbers, just, as, well, because, in, the, batch, he, bought, from, wales, the, sheep, have, more, legs, than, teeth, i, can’t, see, them, lasting, long, pissed, off, because, i, missed, bryan, adams, concert, in, newcastle, couldn’t, finish, in, time, to, join, the, bus, the, rest, of, the, lassies, had, a, brilliant, time, and, at, least, tracey, benefited, from, my, ticket, had, to, go, back, in, to, work, the, next, day, to, finish, my, defra, reports, and, fax, them, off, went, to, playgroup, to, talk, about, pets, took, my, dog, lurcher, and, child’s, rabbit, dodgy, combination, very, few, of, the, kids, seemed, to, have, pets, of, their, own, a, lot, of, them, referred, to, granddad’s, dogs, or, uncles, cat, when, i, left, college, the, pet, population, was, increasing, what’s, going, to, happen, in, the, next, 15, years, sister, phoned, worried, about, her, horse, he, has, haematuria, i’m, worried, that, he, has, a, tumour, i, feel, very, far, away, and, helpless, when, things, like, this, happen, even, though, she, only, lives, in, yorkshire, i’m, sure, i, could, help, her, whatever, the, outcome, if, we, lived, closer, in, fact, i, think, i, miss, my, family, more, now, than, i, ever, have, i, don’t, know, if, it’s, my, age, or, the, thought, that, m, is, over, 60, or, that, i, didn’t, see, them, much, at, all, last, year, or, just, because, i, have, son, now, and, can, understand, how, mothers, families, feel, i, miss, sisters, but, i, still, don’t, phone, them, much, i, always, think, they’ll, be, busy, i, can, talk, to, mam, three, or, four, times, a, week, for, half, an, hour, at, a, time, without, thinking, twice, she, must, get, fed, up, hearing, me, go, on, and, on, about, work, etc, but, she, loves, hearing, all, about, every, tiny, detail, of, son’s, antics, and, achievements, will, broached, the, subject, of, a, partnership, again, i, don’t, know, what, to, think, it’s, the, obvious, thing, to, do, and, a, few, years, ago, i, would, have, taken, his, hand, off, for, even, 10, or, 20, i’m, just, not, as, excited, about, it, as, i, should, be, and, what, would, change, will, i, be, better, off, will, i, be, a, better, vet, or, will, i, spend, too, much, time, of, figures, and, paperwork, will, i, become, more, commercially, aware, do, i, want, to, change, can, i, be, bothered, with, the, extra, hassle, they, are, ok, they, have, a, career, and, a, wife, i’m, trying, to, do, both, sometimes, badly, diary, 2, monday’s, are, shite, it, starts, off, busy, and, gets, worse, why, can’t, we, do, time, management, a, bit, better, it, did, look, as, if, we, might, finish, around, 6.30, at, one, stage, in, the, afternoon, then, i, was, called, out, to, a, calf, i, didn’t, really, need, a, visit, at, 6pm, at, night, w, said, never, mind, you’ll, be, picking, son, up, anyway, the, childminder, lives, on, the, next, door, farm, he, hasn’t, got, a, clue, if, i, picked, son, up, he, would, be, at, ange’s, for, about, 8, hours, i, feel, guilty, enough, that, he’s, away, for, about, 8, hours, partner, always, picks, him, up, about, 5.30, and, has, to, cope, which, he, does, well, until, i, get, home, but, it’s, hard, work, for, both, of, us, after, a, full, day, at, work, and, partner, is, usually, knackered, and, ready, for, peace, and, quiet, when, he, gets, home, not, a, tired, hungry, wee, lad, anyway, i, ended, up, having, a, farm, tour, that, night, farmer, was, so, proud, of, his, new, pedigree, belgian, blues, and, his, new, shed, he’s, been, lucky, to, get, most, of, his, commercial, stock, from, his, father, so, he, has, an, idea, of, their, past, history, he’s, a, nice, lad, and, he, was, producing, some, stunning, beef, calves, before, he, was, taken, out, at, least, he’s, young, enough, to, get, going, again, he, hasn’t, said, much, about, loosing, his, stock, so, i, haven’t, asked, i, had, a, chat, to, his, aunt, one, day, and, she, was, very, upset, and, that, upsets, me, i, hate, when, people, get, emotional, like, that, i, start, filling, up, myself, i, got, back, to, find, a, sheep, caesarean, still, to, do, waste, of, time, premature, lambs, all, born, alive, 3, and, all, dead, before, i, finished, stitching, the, uterus, and, to, put, the, tin, hat, on, the, day, my, assistant, was, the, mother, who, prattled, about, nothing, much, all, the, way, through, the, op, she, does, my, head, in, she, is, a, century, away, from, me, in, her, outlook, but, i, still, come, away, feeling, that, i, am, the, one, who, has, got, it, all, wrong, maybe, i, should, have, dinner, on, the, table, and, shirts, ironed, etc, i, don’t, want, to, be, like, her, though, and, i, can’t, even, sympathise, with, her, even, though, they, lost, all, their, sheep, i’m, sure, she, must, have, taken, it, badly, but, i, don’t, think, she, would, ever, let, her, feelings, show, in, public, something, about, the, way, she, spoke, suggested, that, she, was, forcing, herself, to, put, a, brave, face, and, look, forward, probably, for, her, own, son’s, sake, watched, rural, lives, again, on, tuesday, cr, came, over, well, i, though, i, couldn’t, help, but, snigger, when, the, slaughter, team, were, discussing, one, of, our, clients, she, made, the, kids, carry, away, the, dead, piglets, after, they’d, been, slaughtered, them, team, thought, that, was, terrible, but, i, knew, the, kids, they, all, help, on, the, farm, they, know, that, their, pigs, go, to, kill, the, family, even, started, their, own, little, slaughter, house, and, cutting, plant, before, fmd, i, don’t, think, those, kids, would, be, horrified, sad, maybe, we, all, felt, sad, over, the, last, year, sad, for, the, healthy, animals, culled, more, sad, for, the, people, caught, up, in, the, mess, one, disease, where, the, cure, is, worse, mostly, though, i, get, angry, when, i, hear, or, talk, about, fmd, i, get, angry, because, defra, let, us, all, down, the, politicians, got, too, closely, involved, nothing, happened, fast, enough, we, didn’t, seem, to, be, able, to, do, anything, we, knew, very, little, and, struggled, to, get, reliable, information, i, still, get, wound, up, thinking, about, it, all, we, were, marginalised, by, defra, i, felt, as, if, it, was, us, and, the, farmers, versus, derfa, not, all, three, groups, versus, fmd, the, rumours, that, abounded, just, magnified, the, feelings, we, talked, at, length, about, fmd, defra, etc, within, the, practice, and, with, our, clients, but, i, could, still, talk, about, it, all, day, even, now, so, many, things, are, unresolved, i, have, lost, faith, in, defra, especially, since, they, changed, their, name, no, a, for, agriculture, now, and, i’m, glad, i, have, been, ignorant, of, politics, for, so, long, there, have, been, few, shining, lights, in, the, government, i’m, heartily, sick, of, authority, interfering, and, regulating, stuff, that’s, going, along, quite, nicely, let, them, interfere, with, stuff, that’s, doing, harm, bad, farmers, need, a, shake, up, sheep, dealers, need, to, think, more, about, animal, welfare, but, the, way, things, are, going, the, good, guys, that, toe, the, line, will, end, up, following, all, the, rules, and, regulations, set, up, to, sort, out, the, bad, guys, and, will, they, bother, diary, 3, possibly, the, best, bit, of, the, week, was, sunday, when, i, eventually, after, 13, months, got, back, on, my, horse, only, 15, minutes, but, it, was, nerve, wracking, i, thought, she, might, just, throw, me, off, and, i, was, so, tense, actually, we, both, were, i, felt, as, if, i, had, forgotten, how, to, ride, i, stayed, in, the, field, thinking, it, would, be, safer, but, the, other, two, horses, were, flying, about, to, annoy, us, i’m, so, frustrated, that, i, haven’t, been, able, to, get, her, fit, for, the, start, of, the, endurance, season, there’s, no, way, we’d, be, able, to, go, to, the, first, ride, at, ullswater, and, there’s, only, one, other, in, cumbria, this, year, due, to, fmd, who, would, have, thought, that, we, would, still, be, curtailed, by, fmd, more, than, a, year, on, the, young, horse, was, very, interested, in, saddle, and, bridle, so, i, put, them, on, him, and, he, was, ok, at, first, he, was, frightened, to, move, at, all, but, then, he, realised, it, was, ok, on, monday, i, had, a, strange, request, to, go, and, hold, an, old, pony, for, the, knacker, to, shoot, the, owner’s, just, didn’t, want, to, be, around, it, was, a, lovely, morning, so, i, led, her, out, for, a, bite, of, grass, before, he, arrived, she, could, barely, manage, to, breathe, and, swallow, at, the, same, time, i, can’t, believe, how, the, tumours, have, taken, hold, of, her, since, the, turn, of, the, year, mr, a, couldn’t, tell, his, wife, the, diagnosis, initially, because, she, hadn’t, got, over, losing, the, few, pedigree, sheep, they, had, it’s, taking, some, people, a, long, time, to, get, over, the, loss, i, think, it’s, easier, to, get, over, losing, an, animal, if, you, have, more, than, one, it, helps, to, keep, you, focussed, on, the, living, rather, than, the, dead, and, farmers, haven’t, been, able, to, get, restarted, when, they, were, ready, to, because, of, all, the, c, d, requirements, anyway, the, knacker, man, told, some, good, tales, there’s, been, some, nutters, about, shooting, animals, some, even, had, their, guns, taken, off, them, poor, lad, was, given, a, day’s, notice, at, the, knackey, and, was, part, of, a, slaughter, team, after, that, so, he, was, only, paid, his, normal, wage, which, the, boss, collected, at, the, defra, rate, for, them, all, it, was, good, talking, to, him, probably, because, i, don’t, really, know, him, i, didn’t, feel, that, i, would, upset, him, because, he, wasn’t, like, a, client, who, had, lost, animals, sometimes, it’s, hard, to, know, what, to, say, if, people, get, upset, sometimes, it’s, enough, to, listen, one, of, the, most, awkward, situations, i, found, myself, in, was, talking, to, a, farmer, who, lost, no, stock, but, he, was, so, depressed, he, started, crying, the, cows, i, had, gone, to, see, should, have, gone, last, year, then, we, wouldn’t, have, had, these, problems, he, also, has, been, unable, to, sell, sheep, so, the, farm, was, completely, overstocked, overgrazed, and, had, little, silage, left, i, couldn’t, understand, why, he, was, still, overstocking, when, he, could, have, sold, sheep, and, cattle, for, restocking, or, for, slaughter, quite, easily, in, the, last, few, months, maybe, he, just, couldn’t, face, the, hassle, of, getting, licences, or, maybe, he’s, just, too, far, down, to, think, straight, i, usually, mention, that, sort, of, thing, to, b, and, w, because, i, think, it’s, important, that, everyone, in, the, practice, knows, what’s, happening, not, just, with, out, patients, but, also, with, our, clients, diary, 4, i, had, the, honour, of, completing, the, final, final, visit, today, and, it, was, one, of, my, neighbours, in, soulby, no, more, surveillance, visits, poor, lol, couldn’t, find, his, defra, paperwork, and, while, he, was, looking, through, his, files, he, found, copies, of, his, valuation, report, with, all, his, old, cows, on, i, think, it, brought, it, all, back, he’s, trying, hard, to, move, on, i, could, understand, him, being, bitter, since, his, whole, very, good, milking, herd, was, taken, as, a, dc, i, think, he, may, have, survived, because, the, infection, was, half, a, mile, away, from, his, cows, but, the, ip, land, joined, i, watched, them, load, all, his, cows, into, coal, wagons, on, s, saturday, afternoon, in, fact, it, was, midnight, when, the, last, de, tox, wagon, left, how, can, they, be, clean, if, i, can’t, even, get, my, wellies, clean, in, the, dark, how, he’s, worrying, about, his, new, cows, coming, from, holland, he, thinks, it’s, a, long, way, for, them, to, travel, but, he, can’t, wait, for, them, to, arrive, unlike, his, wife, who, thinks, that, all, this, restocking, is, going, too, fast, i, felt, apprehensive, too, about, a, fortnight, ago, but, the, feeling, is, subsiding, the, day, to, day, normality, of, work, is, returning, sheep, are, permitted, to, visit, the, surgery, for, treatment, so, we, have, had, a, much, more, normal, march, than, we’d, had, last, year, even, though, there, are, still, thousands, of, sheep, missing, from, the, practice, farmers, are, still, bringing, in, lambs, the, value, of, stock, is, obviously, not, their, prime, concern, where, there’s, life, there’s, hope, we, wouldn’t, see, ewes, or, lambs, at, all, if, the, cost, of, treatment, versus, the, animal’s, value, was, weighed, i, was, worried, that, we, would, have, a, flare, up, around, lambing, time, there’s, a, chance, that, some, of, the, fell, sheep, were, exposed, to, fmd, and, there’s, a, risk, of, virus, recrudescence, at, times, of, stress, so, i, was, thinking, that, if, we, made, it, through, lambing, then, we’d, definitely, be, ok, the, weather, has, cheered, me, up, this, week, everybody, smiles, more, when, it’s, sunny, its, tempting, to, think, my, days, at, home, are, holidays, when, the, weathers, so, nice, diary, 5, i, forgot, about, april, fools, day, for, the, first, time, ever, we, were, so, busy, at, work, and, it, was, more, of, a, bank, holiday, than, anything, else, i, do, resent, working, bank, holidays, but, monday, is, my, day, to, be, on, call, b, did, offer, to, do, some, of, the, day, but, he, had, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, a, lambing, at, 1.30, am, and, another, call, at, 6, am, so, he’d, be, knackered, enough, and, they, pay, me, for, a, day’s, work, so, its, only, fair, that, i, give, a, days, work, when, the, phone, rang, early, tuesday, and, i, felt, as, if, i’d, only, been, in, bed, 2, hours, i, was, regretting, not, passing, on, the, night, duty, a, belgian, blue, calving, caesarian, mentally, checked, my, kit, in, the, car, while, driving, to, ks, definitely, caesarean, they, shouldn’t, breed, from, these, cows, until, they’re, more, mature, we’re, getting, loads, of, bother, with, the, new, stock, never, mind, its, proper, veterinary, work, anyway, the, heifer, was, a, right, bag, started, off, lying, down, so, i, doped, her, but, she, got, up, after, we, got, the, calf, out, and, then, tried, to, lye, down, on, the, wound, peritonitis, to, follow, no, doubt, i, warned, the, farmer, and, we, were, all, very, calm, about, it, maybe, none, of, us, were, really, awake, so, that, made, partner, late, for, work, as, he, was, left, holding, the, baby, and, i, was, well, late, setting, off, to, see, my, sister, sister, sister, didn’t, mind, and, partner, s, bosses, said, it, was, ok, but, i, still, felt, guilty, had, a, great, time, at, sister’s, did, a, bit, of, touristy, stuff, and, found, a, really, nice, book, for, mam’s, birthday, by, mrs, herdie, who, used, to, holiday, near, home, mam, has, a, watercolour, by, her, but, this, book, is, all, wildflowers, other, sister, phoned, to, say, horse, is, worse, i, think, sister, and, i, both, wanted, to, go, to, yorkshire, when, we, heard, how, upset, she, was, sisters, are, so, close, being, twins, but, i, can, understand, what, sister, s, going, through, with, a, horse, on, death’s, door, she, didn’t, want, us, to, go, she, said, so, we, drank, too, much, red, wine, instead, and, watched, the, start, of, papillon, good, film, i, was, too, knackered, though, my, stamina, gives, out, a, lot, sooner, under, the, influence, of, alcohol, mam’s, birthday, was, a, queer, day, it’s, rare, that, i, get, the, chance, to, spend, time, with, any, of, my, siblings, at, home, and, we, had, a, lovely, day, apart, from, the, fact, that, we, were, all, waiting, to, hear, what, was, going, to, happen, with, sister, she, phoned, to, say, he’d, been, put, down, bladder, tumour, i, think, it, must, be, pretty, rare, she, still, said, we, shouldn’t, go, down, sister, could, have, easily, gone, and, mam, because, lynxes, on, school, hols, jammy, teacher, i, stayed, on, till, quite, late, because, both, my, brother, and, stepfather, wanted, to, see, son, he, was, so, excited, to, see, them, sometimes, he, just, makes, us, all, laugh, i, had, a, depressing, start, to, the, day, back, at, work, just, over, a, month, ago, i, amputated, a, dog’s, leg, the, leg, was, fractured, over, 6, months, ago, appeared, to, heal, and, then, suddenly, worsen, we, suspected, a, bone, infection, but, she, didn’t, respond, to, treatment, so, i, x, rayed, her, again, and, it, looked, like, a, bone, tumour, she, did, well, after, the, operation, until, last, week, when, she, developed, a, hard, knobbly, swelling, near, her, shoulder, and, her, lungs, were, infiltrated, i, felt, so, sad, for, her, and, the, family, she, was, a, lovely, placid, and, very, brave, dog, and, it, is, just, so, unfair, i, don’t, want, to, give, up, on, these, cases, and, i, feel, that, euthanasia, is, a, poor, treatment, in, this, case, i, so, wanted, her, to, have, a, couple, more, years, i, never, would, have, put, her, or, the, family, through, a, ghastly, op, like, amputation, if, i, had, known, that, she, would, get, so, little, benefit, the, farmer’s, son, who, worked, the, dog, until, she, retired, was, conspicuous, by, his, absence, he’s, rebuilding, the, milking, parlour, ready, to, restock, so, his, sister, did, the, honours, and, came, to, help, me, had, to, switch, to, party, mode, son’s, 2nd, birthday, the, sandpit, was, a, roaring, success, as, was, the, trike, and, cake, from, grandma, and, granddad, we, had, a, super, relaxing, day, mostly, outdoors, this, weather, makes, life, a, lot, easier, i, couldn’t, have, coped, with, all, those, little, boys, inside, escaped, to, the, horses, at, asby, to, take, water, it’s, so, peaceful, up, there, i’ve, really, missed, being, able, to, go, up, there, this, last, year, there’s, still, yellow, tape, on, my, gate, and, i, don’t, even, have, livestock, i, wonder, who, they, defra, thought, the, field, belongs, to, should, get, out, riding, this, next, week, with, a, bit, of, luck, and, a, bit, of, spare, time, i, think, i’ll, have, to, shelve, the, plans, to, show, the, arabs, i, haven’t, got, started, soon, enough, diary, 6, our, new, vet, started, this, week, bright, young, enthusiastic, and, full, of, new, ideas, i, feel, very, out, of, touch, i, didn’t, go, on, any, cpd, courses, last, year, for, most, of, the, year, i, felt, as, if, we, were, unclean, and, i, was, so, tired, with, working, such, long, days, it, seemed, too, much, hard, work, to, organise, extra, childcare, etc, to, allow, me, to, go, away, for, more, than, a, day, i, feel, out, of, touch, generally, though, and, a, lot, of, it, has, to, do, with, working, part, time, big, day, on, wednesday, son’s, 1st, morning, at, biggins, nursery, i, think, my, new, hobby, is, worrying, am, i, doing, the, right, thing, setting, off, on, new, extra, and, expensive, childcare, arrangements, i, think, i, feel, guilty, because, it’s, for, my, benefit, not, for, extra, work, it’s, now, going, to, cost, me, an, extra, 7.50, to, ride, my, horse, on, a, wednesday, but, i, am, starting, to, break, horse, in, as, well, and, i, can’t, handle, a, 4, year, old, horse, with, a, 2, year, old, boy, around, anyway, the, nursery, seemed, a, big, hit, and, i, had, my, first, ride, out, on, ashby, fell, i, actually, went, over, the, track, to, the, dowly, tree, instead, of, on, the, road, she, the, horse, was, quite, anxious, leading, the, other, two, and, a, bit, excited, to, be, out, in, the, open, space, of, the, fell, so, was, i, there, seems, to, be, just, one, lot, of, fell, sheep, on, there, they, must, be, h’s, i, think, nobody, else, has, started, to, heft, sheep, up, there, yet, the, dowly, tree, will, be, looking, sad, and, lonely, for, a, bit, longer, i, have, missed, being, up, on, that, fell, so, much, margaret, little, asking, if, we’re, going, to, the, village, hall, quiz, on, friday, probably, not, because, we’re, going, out, for, a, meal, for, partner, s, birthday, felt, guilty, about, not, supporting, village, activities, and, started, justifying, myself, to, her, i, hate, it, though, when, people, use, fmd, to, make, you, feel, bad, she, kept, saying, how, few, does, there, were, last, year, how, nice, it, is, for, all, the, village, to, get, together, etc, all, true, but, i, can’t, get, babysitters, and, nights, off, to, do, everything, and, partner, is, way, more, important, than, the, village, quiz, he, put, up, with, such, a, lot, of, shite, last, year, and, never, complained, far, too, tolerant, we, had, a, lovely, meal, on, the, friday, night, son, slept, out, at, t’s, for, the, first, time, in, ages, but, i, couldn’t, have, a, lie, in, because, of, the, judge’s, course, for, the, arab, horse, society, i, really, enjoyed, it, it, was, arranged, for, last, year, but, had, to, be, postponed, due, to, fmd, it, was, worth, waiting, for, and, i, couldn’t, have, gone, last, year, even, if, it, had, been, on, went, to, see, sister, and, sister’s, boyfriend, on, sunday, seemed, to, spend, all, day, being, fed, she’s, like, mam, son, took, a, real, shine, to, sister’s, boyfriend, which, entertained, us, all, she, seems, to, be, coping, ok, with, horse, s, demise, martin, has, cleaned, up, one, of, his, shoes, and, mounted, it, with, a, plaque, he’s, very, thoughtful, diary, 7, i, have, decided, that, i, am, happy, on, dry, days, when, i, can, ride, or, work, my, horses, son, and, i, can, get, outside, to, play, and, then, he’s, happier, and, people, who, come, into, work, are, more, smiley, on, good, days, too, son, and, i, went, to, a, birthday, party, this, week, he, had, a, brilliant, time, but, i, felt, very, out, of, place, everybody, else, was, immaculately, dressed, and, made, up, while, son, and, i, had, to, rush, back, from, having, a, bonfire, to, burn, all, the, old, hay, in, musgrave, field, to, quickly, wash, and, change, i’d, rather, have, carried, on, tidying, up, the, field, it’s, still, a, real, mess, and, at, least, i, have, the, grass, seed, now, it, had, better, grow, the, price, it, was, i, was, really, pleased, with, horse, on, wednesday, he’s, coming, on, quite, nicely, with, his, lunging, now, he, seems, to, be, quite, amenable, dental, appointment, on, friday, i, hope, my, dentist, never, retires, i, don’t, think, they, make, dentists, that, are, more, interested, in, people, and, their, teeth, than, money, any, more, i, always, have, a, good, chat, to, him, so, we, carried, on, our, discussion, about, my, working, conditions, comparing, them, to, his, sons, etc, he’s, a, vet, too, he, was, quite, surprised, when, i, told, him, about, the, partnership, talks, last, time, i, had, a, good, heart, to, heart, it, was, after, the, threatened, redundancy, it’s, no, wonder, i, feel, confused, about, the, future, at, times, nearly, 2, years, ago, when, i, was, on, maternity, leave, they, thought, they, might, have, to, make, me, redundant, now, they, want, to, release, a, bit, of, capital, and, take, things, easier, they, want, me, to, buy, in, this, time, last, year, i, didn’t, know, if, partner, or, i, would, have, a, job, now, i, have, to, decide, to, commit, myself, to, at, least, 20, more, years, as, a, vet, went, out, with, girls, from, work, to, a, 40th, didn’t, really, want, to, go, but, of, course, we, had, a, great, time, once, we, got, there, i, think, i, have, got, out, of, the, habit, of, evenings, out, still, can’t, get, used, to, the, freedom, the, mobile, phone, gives, us, and, spend, all, the, time, checking, that, there’s, enough, signal, battery, etc, had, a, hell, of, a, hangover, too, much, draught, coke, hell, it’s, worse, than, cider, diary, 8, the, shit, is, hitting, the, fan, we’re, having, problems, with, some, imported, dutch, heifers, we, were, waiting, for, this, especially, on, this, particular, farm, the, management’s, not, the, best, and, the, father, takes, more, advice, from, his, feed, merchant, than, us, vets, there, is, obviously, a, viral, infection, going, through, the, heifers, and, farmer, b, presumed, they, were, already, vaccinated, no, documentation, they, are, also, showing, signs, of, gastro, intestinal, upset, which, could, be, management, oh, hell, why, did, he, buy, 80, first, calvers, nobody, would, willingly, put, themselves, under, that, stress, new, vet, is, interested, but, b, and, w, are, obviously, trying, to, keep, their, distance, they’ve, been, embroiled, in, herd, problems, on, this, farm, before, i, am, now, obviously, the, senior, vet, in, charge, of, this, problem, and, i’m, not, even, at, work, every, day, it’s, too, much, for, new, vet, to, cope, with, and, the, farmer, will, get, pissed, off, soon, and, i, bet, it’s, us, that, catch, the, flak, cheered, myself, up, with, 1, hours, of, r, r, with, the, horses, on, wednesday, lovely, day, rode, down, onto, the, common, but, it, was, hard, work, as, the, other, two, horses, were, shouting, for, daisy, all, the, time, i, was, out, on, her, horse, decided, that, he, would, be, bobbly, when, i, worked, him, but, i’m, getting, confident, that, i, know, how, his, mind, works, we, had, a, bit, of, a, stand, off, but, i, made, sure, it, didn’t, turn, into, a, battle, and, he, did, as, he, was, asked, in, the, end, so, we, finished, on, a, good, note, i, think, it, will, be, quite, satisfying, bringing, him, on, myself, even, though, its, going, to, take, months, at, this, rate, some, people, work, on, young, horses, twice, a, day, he’s, lucky, if, he, gets, trained, twice, a, week, work, is, really, settling, down, now, the, lambing, time, rush, has, passed, and, we’re, catching, up, on, our, tb, testing, for, defra, it’s, a, bit, more, taxing, having, to, do, such, young, animals, in, the, restocked, herds, but, most, people, are, fairly, well, organised, we’re, not, going, to, get, some, of, the, herds, done, before, turn, out, i, wonder, if, defra, have, any, recommendations, for, catching, wild, limousin, heifers, in, the, middle, of, a, field, probably, not, they, don’t, think, that, far, ahead, diary, 9, i, hate, mondays, again, had, supper, at, 11.45, pm, there, was, a, problem, with, my, mobile, when, i, was, on, call, i, hate, mobiles, as, well, and, i, went, to, calve, a, cow, one, and, a, half, hours, after, the, first, call, came, in, i, was, so, mad, firstly, because, we, don’t, make, our, clients, wait, that, long, for, an, emergency, to, become, a, disaster, and, second, because, ws, wife, has, no, idea, about, passing, jobs, on, she, should, have, got, another, vet, to, go, since, i, was, obviously, busy, but, she, just, passed, the, message, on, to, new, vet, to, let, her, sort, it, out, and, w’s, wife, gets, paid, for, doing, the, phones, anyway, all’s, well, live, cow, and, a, tremendous, bull, calf, and, one, of, the, easiest, caesareans, i, have, done, in, ages, b, and, w, seem, to, forget, that, it, is, their, business, and, reputation, at, stake, ultimately, the, buck, stops, with, them, both, of, them, seem, to, have, had, enough, of, business, management, and, hassle, to, last, a, lifetime, last, year, has, done, a, lot, of, damage, to, a, lot, of, people, i, know, i, am, a, lot, less, tolerant, than, i, used, to, be, this, week, started, badly, and, improved, farrier, came, and, trimmed, all, 3, horses, bollocked, me, because, they, hadn’t, been, seen, for, over, a, year, i, did, tidy, them, a, bit, myself, though, had, a, lovely, afternoon, at, rheged, with, mam, we, started, going, when, fmd, was, on, because, it, was, sort, of, neutral, non, agricultural, ground, we, sat, and, chatted, while, son, played, in, the, soft, play, centre, everybody, happy, unfortunately, i, went, down, with, the, worst, dose, of, food, poisoning, i, had, ever, had, i, was, up, all, night, went, into, work, late, i, wouldn’t, have, gone, at, all, except, i, had, a, 2nd, tb, to, test, to, do, on, a, restocked, farm, and, couldn’t, bear, to, start, the, whole, thing, again, i, recovered, as, the, afternoon, went, on, and, even, managed, to, dehorn, 10, cows, the, thought, of, b, sending, fragile, young, new, vet, to, help, spurred, me, on, a, bit, i, was, knackered, when, i, finished, took, me, another, 2, days, to, recover, horse, doing, well, bridle, and, saddle, on, now, looking, grown, up, i’m, quite, proud, of, him, he, was, so, chilled, out, today, i, tried, long, reining, him, that, confused, him, but, he, was, very, sensible, norleen, and, i, didn’t, go, to, the, 1st, date, at, the, rochdale, show, i, still, didn’t, feel, right, and, partner, was, going, to, fit, the, new, fuel, pump, to, my, car, but, then, he, started, to, feel, ill, too, what, a, waste, of, a, saturday, off, made, it, to, the, show, on, sunday, pretty, good, ridden, classes, and, all, the, senior, in, hand, classes, we, were, laughing, because, we’re, so, out, of, practice, there, are, two, years, worth, of, young, stock, that, we’ve, never, seen, due, to, babies, in, 2000, and, fmd, in, 2001, we, felt, really, out, of, touch, there, are, a, few, imported, stallions, and, mares, that, we, haven’t, seen, before, too, we, had, a, brilliant, day, diary, 10, what’s, worse, than, working, on, call, on, mondays, yes, working, bank, holidays, we, hoped, to, shut, at, 12, ha, ha, i, got, home, for, lunch, at, 2pm, b, kindly, took, the, phones, for, a, couple, of, hours, in, the, afternoon, not, long, enough, to, go, anywhere, and, i, was, back, out, working, by, tea, time, my, car, failed, its, mot, because, the, back, brake, callipers, were, all, gunged, up, the, mechanic, says, it’s, disinfectant, that, does, it, bloody, defra, i, bet, there’s, no, chance, of, compensation, for, that, it, wouldn’t, be, so, bad, if, it, was, a, practice, car, but, now, that, i’m, part, time, i, have, to, paddle, my, own, canoe, all, the, local, garage, owners, warned, us, last, year, that, these, things, would, happen, what, could, we, do, we, felt, obliged, to, drive, into, all, the, voluntary, disinfectant, sites, it, doesn’t, look, good, if, the, local, vets, aren’t, disinfecting, my, beautiful, old, audi, god, knows, what, other, horrors, are, lurking, where, the, fam, has, spilled, in, my, boot, etc, hell, it, makes, me, mad, all, the, destruction, physical, and, mental, and, we, had, so, little, to, say, in, any, of, it, well, my, car, spent, the, rest, of, the, week, in, the, garage, so, i, used, borrowed, wheels, went, to, do, a, wee, talk, at, stainsmore, pre, school, in, partner, s, transit, van, very, professional, the, children, didn’t, care, they, just, wanted, to, meet, my, dog, son, missed, a, birthday, party, on, the, saturday, because, i, was, still, at, work, more, guilt, not, that, he, knows, he, missed, it, lovely, day, on, sunday, with, my, horse, went, for, a, three, hour, ride, over, in, county, durham, we, trailed, round, arable, fields, and, nice, lanes, all, very, different, from, here, other, horse, was, an, absolute, saint, and, did, very, well, to, have, no, shoes, on, she, really, did, us, proud, diary, 11, got, my, car, back, that, cheered, me, up, bad, news, about, the, imported, heifers, two, more, have, died, at, least, the, pm, exams, and, sampling, are, free, because, it’s, a, restocked, herd, farmer, getting, angry, now, at, dutch, farmers, but, taking, it, out, on, new, vet, very, unfair, she’s, spent, hours, checking, over, his, cattle, and, taking, samples, didn’t, get, my, usual, r, r, on, wed, absolutely, piddling, down, started, sorting, out, a, few, jobs, that, i, have, been, avoiding, the, sort, i, used, to, do, on, wet, sundays, now, will, become, wet, wednesday, jobs, called, in, at, work, for, coffee, and, ended, up, with, a, call, for, the, afternoon, very, interesting, job, too, went, to, sedate, two, horses, for, the, dentist, it, was, absolutely, fascinating, son, has, another, 2nd, cousin, this, week, the, family, is, really, sprouting, had, a, tough, calving, thursday, night, torsion, of, the, uterus, i, can, do, these, now, i, used, to, absolutely, dread, them, unfortunately, she’d, been, on, too, long, and, the, calf, was, born, dead, heifer, fine, though, i, hate, going, to, that, farm, the, farmer, is, a, right, old, perverted, slime, ball, and, i’ll, dance, on, his, grave, started, with, a, real, head, cold, h, crap, went, to, see, mam, and, stewart, son, on, top, form, it’s, brilliant, seeing, him, interact, with, my, family, he, has, really, strengthened, the, bonds, in, our, family, son, fevered, at, night, starting, with, the, same, cold, i, presume, no, sleep, for, me, partner, never, seems, to, hear, all, the, commotion, still, felt, ill, on, saturday, sister, and, sister, s, birthday, at, least, i, remembered, to, post, their, cards, in, plenty, of, time, this, year, went, shopping, for, wallpaper, on, sunday, to, cheer, me, up, partner, went, off, pest, controlling, with, his, dogs, they, went, up, through, tubby’s, wood, they, found, nothing, but, at, least, the, dogs, had, a, good, ratch, he, says, he, only, now, feels, ok, about, walking, across, fields, i, didn’t, even, realise, that, he, still, felt, that, he, couldn’t, go, round, all, his, old, haunts, we, must, talk, more, diary, 19, tb, test, cancelled, on, monday, and, thursday, this, week, because, the, farmer, can’t, cope, with, the, extra, hassle, he’s, a, bit, of, a, woman, at, the, best, of, times, but, he’s, been, even, worse, since, fmd, w, was, very, understanding, he, seems, to, have, the, farmers, measure, b, didn’t, seem, that, understanding, very, upset, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, had, to, put, down, my, own, terrier, after, he, took, off, and, chased, the, neighbour’s, sheep, for, the, second, time, i, can’t, understand, why, he, went, so, strange, he, used, to, be, fine, with, stock, i, had, a, miserable, afternoon, waiting, for, partner, to, come, home, to, bury, him, i’d, had, such, a, good, morning, with, the, horses, too, dizzy, and, horse, were, both, going, well, i, felt, better, once, partner, came, home, he, said, i’d, done, the, right, thing, but, i, felt, as, though, i’d, failed, somehow, because, it, should, never, have, happened, in, the, first, place, maybe, it’s, because, he, had, nothing, to, do, last, year, no, interesting, walks, no, rabbiting, etc, i, don’t, know, diary, 20, brilliant, time, tues, wed, went, to, my, sisters, with, mam, and, son, it’s, much, easier, to, keep, in, touch, with, my, family, post, fmd, i, hardly, went, anywhere, last, year, we, went, shopping, to, edinburgh, mam’s, looking, for, an, outfit, for, my, brother’s, wedding, unsuccessfully, so, far, i’ve, just, realised, that, i, haven’t, seen, brother, and, wife, on, their, farm, since, fmd, broke, out, we, must, go, soon, it’s, a, brilliant, place, for, recharging, batteries, and, they, are, the, best, bit, of, my, step, family, we, didn’t, go, to, the, cumberland, show, with, the, horses, i, haven’t, got, back, into, the, swing, of, things, yet, i, think, it, was, a, bit, of, a, washout, without, the, farming, side, and, it, rained, i, offered, to, be, the, biosecurity, officer, for, our, local, show, so, that, they, could, get, things, up, and, running, properly, they, had, money, and, trophies, donated, last, year, for, new, cattle, classes, and, there, would, be, real, interest, in, fat, cattle, classes, and, young, handler, classes, now, defra, the, bastards, managed, to, put, the, committee, off, diary, 21, sprayed, weeds, in, field, only, depressing, day, this, week, it’s, never, going, to, recover, properly, the, landlord, arrived, when, we’d, just, finished, the, first, half, and, said, he’d, decided, to, reseed, it, in, august, after, much, discussion, i, persuaded, him, it, would, be, a, waste, of, time, and, money, to, put, horses, back, on, a, newly, seeded, field, over, winter, now, i’m, worried, about, what, happens, in, spring, will, we, be, terminated, or, just, moved, to, another, field, i, wish, i’d, moved, the, horses, at, the, usual, time, 1st, april, then, we, wouldn’t, have, been, caught, up, among, ips, and, dcs, something, will, sort, out, it, always, does, dairy, 22, excellent, week, off, to, malvern, with, friends, for, the, national, arabian, horse, show, son, went, off, to, grannies, for, the, holiday, i, had, a, marvellous, time, for, three, days, watching, the, most, beautiful, horses, and, came, back, absolutely, shattered, diary, 23, few, probs, at, work, with, new, assistant, she’s, a, bit, whiney, she’s, always, bending, the, ear, of, the, nearest, receptionist, and, they, are, sick, b, has, offered, her, a, 12, month, contract, but, whether, or, not, she’ll, accept, it, is, another, matter, from, what, i, can, gather, she’s, going, to, end, up, with, better, working, conditions, than, me, w’s, not, too, happy, about, it, all, but, neither, of, them, are, willing, to, grasp, the, nettle, they’ve, both, backed, off, since, last, year, they, can’t, wait, to, get, off, home, and, i, can’t, step, in, since, they’ve, changed, their, minds, about, my, partnership, and, i’m, only, part, time, good, weekend, lowther, on, saturday, didn’t, see, many, of, the, usual, faces, the, only, thing, that, spoiled, it, was, the, mud, we, brought, more, than, our, fair, share, home, with, son, and, the, pushchair, no, biosecurity, pressure, washer, anywhere, diary, 24, the, assistant, on, holiday, for, 2, weeks, things, seem, more, like, old, times, the, cages, aren’t, full, of, animals, on, drips, i’m, working, extra, days, and, enjoying, it, it’s, tiring, but, good, highlight, of, the, week, on, thursday, brough, show, there, weren’t, many, farmers, there, but, loads, of, horses, and, ponies, instead, of, sheep, much, talk, of, defra, regulations, none, complimentary, it, just, wasn’t, the, same, without, the, sheep, it, felt, flat, i, wonder, what, the, gimmer, lamb, sales, will, be, like, diary, 25, knackered, don’t, think, i, could, cope, with, full, time, work, any, more, new, vet, still, on, holiday, felt, guilty, about, son, being, farmed, out, all, week, i, managed, to, work, myself, up, about, our, charity, horse, show, on, saturday, i, tried, to, hand, over, the, organisation, to, three, other, folk, and, still, ended, up, sorting, out, all, the, insurance, and, rosettes, and, they, changed, the, date, so, i, had, less, time, to, organise, and, it, wasn’t, advertised, it, was, the, worst, show, we’ve, ever, had, it, takes, as, much, time, to, organise, it, for, the, few, as, it, does, for, the, many, i, felt, so, disappointed, i, thought, we, would, have, a, real, good, turnout, this, time, after, having, to, cancel, last, year, oh, well, there’s, always, next, year, i’ll, need, to, make, sure, they, don’t, change, the, date, again, and, at, least, i, might, be, able, to, take, the, horses, next, time, decided, to, cheer, myself, up, by, taking, other, horse, over, to, school, her, round, the, jumps, on, the, sunday, but, i, couldn’t, catch, her, she, must, have, known, so, that, just, put, the, tin, hat, on, the, weekend, diary, 26, two, trotting, meetings, this, week, i, landed, both, of, them, and, both, nights, on, call, another, bank, holiday, with, no, time, off, and, i, had, to, take, son, to, both, because, partner, was, grouse, beating, both, meetings, were, quite, relaxed, but, there, was, one, nasty, crash, at, appleby, had, a, really, nice, day, out, at, chatsworth, game, fair, with, helen, and, neil, it’s, the, first, time, we’ve, managed, to, visit, them, and, it, took, hours, to, get, there, we, were, invited, last, year, but, the, advert, said, they, didn’t, want, any, cumbrians, social, outcasts, as, if, we, didn’t, feel, like, the, armpit, of, british, agriculture, as, it, was, i, really, enjoyed, our, day, out, i, felt, as, if, we’d, had, a, weekend, away, not, just, a, day, we’ll, have, to, think, of, some, more, trips, it’s, too, easy, just, to, stay, at, home, we, always, have, plenty, to, do, dairy, 27, it’s, started, again, defra, have, found, a, new, way, to, cock, up, our, lives, they, have, now, complicated, life, with, exemptions, from, the, 20, day, standstill, including, new, stuff, about, isolation, units, the, farmers, have, all, been, notified, by, post, some, haven’t, read, it, some, have, read, it, and, don’t, understand, it, farmers, have, to, isolate, new, stock, bought, via, auctions, etc, from, any, contact, with, other, stock, by, 50, m, outside, or, they, can, go, on, standstill, but, their, neighbours, can, move, stock, from, the, next, door, field, without, a, problem, it’s, mad, i, don’t, understand, where, they, are, coming, from, well, i, do, sort, of, but, as, usual, it’s, badly, thought, out, and, we, have, to, sell, this, idea, to, the, farmers, how, will, it, be, policed, will, it, matter, would, it, stop, another, massive, outbreak, it, doesn’t, take, much, to, wind, everyone, up, again, it’s, not, helped, at, work, by, b, defending, the, defra, line, and, w, dissing, it, what, will, the, clients, think, diary, 28, crap, week, puncture, on, thursday, during, lunch, hour, struggled, to, get, locking, nuts, off, felt, feckless, god, i, have, so, little, patience, these, days, and, i, missed, beva, congress, couldn’t, sort, out, childminding, etc, and, the, best, days, were, friday, and, saturday, there, was, no, way, i, could, go, i, was, really, disappointed, nothing, to, do, with, fmd, though, i, don’t, feel, as, if, i, get, much, encouragement, from, work, they, are, ok, about, paying, for, cpd, courses, but, they, don’t, seem, to, make, it, easy, to, swap, weekends, etc, they’re, not, bothered, themselves, so, i, suppose, they, don’t, understand, all, the, different, things, you, get, from, cpd, diary, 29, worked, extra, so, new, vet, could, go, to, sheep, meeting, at, malvern, pissed, off, it, is, not, easy, to, do, this, job, with, a, husband, and, a, family, to, consider, and, i, suppose, the, timing, stinks, since, i, missed, my, equine, course, last, week, the, week, improved, considerably, by, thursday, we, went, to, guilford, for, an, arab, horse, convention, nothing, to, do, with, work, but, very, enjoyable, i’ve, been, waiting, more, than, 10, years, for, this, i, hope, i, live, long, enough, to, go, to, the, next, one, we, talked, to, some, men, on, the, train, unheard, of, in, surrey, apparently, about, cumbria, farming, fmd, and, foxhunting, once, we, reassured, them, that, newcastle, was, not, in, cumbria, we, had, an, interesting, crack, i, hardly, ever, meet, anyone, that, is, not, connected, with, farming, and, the, countryside, they, really, have, no, idea, what, it’s, like, i, don’t, know, anything, about, it, either, which, is, what, their, job, is, i, end, up, feeling, so, frustrated, that, agriculture, and, therefore, large, animal, practice, is, in, such, a, precarious, position, it, seems, to, me, to, be, such, a, basic, fundamental, part, of, life, compared, to, computers, and, yet, the, emphasis, is, not, on, basic, stuff, anymore, surely, we, need, things, like, agriculture, and, basic, manufacturing, to, underpin, everything, else, no, wonder, nobody, was, bothered, about, us, suffering, anxiety, fear, confusion, last, year, when, we, were, in, the, throes, of, fmd, and, the, penrith, spur, was, certainly, under, reported, they, wouldn’t, have, had, so, many, marches, in, london, pre, fmd, diary, 30, quite, week, still, tired, from, last, week, loads, of, photos, to, develop, again, it, was, great, saw, horses, i’d, never, seen, before, and, got, 2, great, videos, of, long, dead, horses, that, appear, in, my, horses, pedigrees, son, was, a, bit, off, with, me, when, i, picked, him, up, monday, a, bit, unsettled, with, being, away, i, suppose, oh, this, job, just, interferes, with, a, social, life, missed, another, wedding, this, week, on, call, again, diary, 31, took, a, horse, to, penrith, vets, for, an, x, ray, they, have, a, super, new, hospital, just, out, of, town, seems, really, well, set, up, they, have, a, really, good, attitude, to, work, and, clients, i, think, we, need, a, shake, up, at, work, maybe, new, vet, s, way, of, working, isn’t, too, bad, neil, said, they, were, million, in, the, red, at, the, height, of, fmd, they, must, have, been, so, worried, none, of, us, knew, what, we’d, be, left, with, we’ve, definitely, got, a, lot, of, routine, work, because, we’ve, lost, such, a, lot, of, dairy, farms, it’s, never, going, to, be, the, same, again, and, i’m, not, good, at, accepting, change, diary, 32, sad, week, one, of, our, farmer’s, sons, was, killed, in, an, rta, on, the, a66, he, had, only, been, married, two, years, and, was, a, real, canny, lad, it, shocked, everyone, and, has, certainly, made, me, take, stock, they, have, restocked, with, fancy, cattle, from, down, south, and, these, cattle, may, have, contacted, cattle, with, a, variant, virus, from, the, usa, so, they, were, doing, a, whole, herd, test, you, could, blame, this, on, fmd, if, they, hadn’t, lost, their, cattle, they, wouldn’t, have, restocked, and, they, wouldn’t, be, testing, the, cattle, or, it, wouldn’t, have, happened, if, they’d, stopped, for, an, extra, cup, of, tea, a, client, brought, me, a, copy, of, the, cumbria, enquiry, that, didn’t, half, stir, up, some, old, feelings, all, the, things, i, was, so, angry, about, last, year, were, summed, up, in, one, phrase, i, read, slack, organisation, the, poor, woman, who, brought, the, report, has, spent, over, 1000, treating, her, dog, after, it, suffered, chemical, burns, from, fmd, disinfectant, on, a, road, map, it, now, reacts, to, phenolic, compounds, including, sheep, dip, and, fresh, tar, they’re, moving, to, scotland, i, hope, the, dog, has, a, better, life, there, diary, 33, funny, old, week, everyone, still, shell, shocked, about, farmer’s, son, s, death, no, explanation, as, to, how, the, lorry, crashed, into, his, tractor, yet, you, begin, to, wonder, how, any, family, can, cope, with, that, sort, of, trauma, b, and, w, went, to, the, huge, funeral, they, said, his, parents, were, amazing, they, do, have, a, strong, faith, but, i, can’t, see, that, being, enough, i, went, to, the, graveyard, the, next, day, to, see, the, flowers, and, ended, up, in, tears, it, was, the, messages, on, the, cards, especially, the, ones, from, his, parents, and, brother, and, sister, i, felt, so, sad, for, them, all, went, for, a, wee, walk, with, tracey, she, knows, him, quite, well, and, we, talked, a, lot, trying, to, make, sense, of, it, all, then, blow, me, on, the, thursday, his, father, and, brother, were, part, of, a, syndicate, at, the, tup, sales, that, paid, over, 100,000, for, a, swaledale, tup, i, couldn’t, believe, they’d, even, gone, to, the, auction, never, mind, doing, something, like, that, it, doesn’t, seem, right, to, me, the, others, could, have, bought, the, tup, for, them, i, think, that’s, awfully, strange, i, had, another, upset, farmer’s, wife, this, week, i, went, to, see, a, downer, cow, she’d, got, stuck, in, the, cubicles, we, had, to, carry, her, to, a, straw, box, using, the, loader, tractor, and, the, wife, got, really, upset, seeing, the, cow, swinging, on, the, front, of, the, tractor, i, felt, a, bit, guilty, really, because, i, didn’t, think, i, just, didn’t, connect, the, fmd, slaughter, with, an, injured, cow, but, then, i, didn’t, see, all, that, they, saw, when, their, herd, went, down, diary, 34, great, week, my, brother’s, wedding, son, was, a, page, boy, in, a, kilt, and, he, was, quite, well, behaved, apart, from, the, second, lot, of, photos, he, was, well, tired, and, hungry, by, then, i, love, being, home, with, my, brother, and, sisters, and, their, partners, and, it’s, great, the, way, they, all, have, so, much, time, for, son, we, always, laugh, so, much, at, the, clan, gatherings, i’m, sure, it’s, very, therapeutic, the, amount, of, alcohol, consumed, by, all, at, the, wedding, is, definitely, not, therapeutic, we, set, off, on, our, holiday, maybe, our, first, family, holiday, the, day, after, in, the, rain, but, it, turned, out, ok, later, such, a, lot, of, good, stuff, in, one, week, diary, 35, had, a, lovely, day, it, all, worked, out, well, we, may, try, four, or, five, days, away, next, year, now, that, we’ve, got, started, again, it’s, years, since, we, had, a, proper, holiday, i, usually, miss, all, the, animals, when, i’m, away, but, not, this, time, i, think, son, has, more, than, filled, that, gap, had, bad, news, on, wednesday, partner, s, van, failed, its, mot, no, transport, no, money, for, a, new, motor, mild, panic, slight, depression, then, the, gradual, return, to, my, it, will, all, work, out, somehow, attitude, and, it, did, partner, s, mum, and, dad, helped, us, out, and, i, had, to, relinquish, my, little, buy, a, new, trailer, fund, had, a, disaster, on, sunday, morning, caesarean, on, an, uncooperative, cow, she, got, up, halfway, through, the, op, and, pushed, her, rumen, out, onto, the, very, dirty, floor, and, she, started, to, haemorrhage, she, died, four, hours, later, they, ended, up, with, an, exceptional, bull, calf, but, a, dead, pedigree, belgian, blue, cow, i, hate, when, things, die, on, restocked, farms, i, think, they, were, quite, philosophical, about, it, but, i, went, over, and, over, the, whole, thing, in, my, head, b, just, said, if, they’re, going, to, die, it’s, best, they, die, soon, less, time, to, worry, and, everyone, gets, over, it, quicker, too, i, think, he, may, be, right, he’s, definitely, easier, to, talk, to, these, days, he’s, like, a, different, person, now, that, jan’s, left, diary, 36, busy, week, testing, a, restocked, herd, monday, thursday, which, had, travelled, all, of, 5, miles, to, their, new, home, a, bit, of, a, waste, of, time, but, it, was, a, nice, day, to, be, out, really, good, turnout, at, the, village, bonfire, it’s, a, new, tradition, started, in, 2001, and, it, was, the, first, village, get, together, after, fmd, at, the, end, of, the, week, i, headed, south, to, cheshire, and, the, salisbury, plain, with, my, friend, ann, and, her, horse, to, compete, in, the, marathon, what, an, awful, journey, we, had, the, rain, poured, the, traffic, crawled, i’m, glad, i, don’t, have, to, use, the, m6, on, a, daily, basis, i, really, enjoyed, my, weekend, away, but, we, had, to, pull, the, horse, out, at, the, half, way, point, she, was, so, hyped, that, we, couldn’t, get, her, heart, rate, down, so, she, wasn’t, allowed, to, continue, i, felt, really, disappointed, i, was, sure, that, she, had, a, good, chance, well, she, would, have, if, they, had, a, vet, check, halfway, through, diary, 37, a, bit, of, an, anticlimax, this, week, after, all, the, build, up, to, the, marathon, it, would, have, been, so, different, if, she’d, completed, the, course, we, had, a, better, journey, north, except, for, a, puncture, not, handy, when, you, have, a, horse, trailer, on, i, drove, most, of, the, way, back, to, ann’s, saw, all, her, horses, and, then, drove, home, another, 2, hours, oh, i, was, so, pleased, to, get, home, it, was, a, good, experience, though, i, don’t, think, either, of, us, would, trail, a, horse, all, the, way, to, salisbury, plain, for, a, two, hour, race, again, there, were, fmd, cases, near, ann, in, cheshire, that, didn’t, seem, to, catch, hold, like, they, did, in, cumbria, maybe, its, because, there, are, bigger, farms, and, more, arable, land, i, went, to, see, her, in, july, 2001, and, she, pointed, out, various, fields, that, had, been, cleared, of, stock, half, of, them, didn’t, even, have, gates, on, there, was, no, disinfectant, or, precautions, visible, and, it, was, really, starting, to, wipe, out, our, practice, at, home, it, was, unbelievable, we, were, sitting, in, cumbria, thinking, that, agriculture, was, doomed, and, everything, in, cheshire, was, carrying, on, as, normal, it, was, a, rude, awakening, for, me, diary, 38, more, tb, testing, all, day, job, testing, stock, that, wouldn’t, normally, be, tested, but, they’re, restocked, they, have, come, from, cheshire, though, so, that, does, increase, the, risk, had, a, shocking, migraine, all, day, wednesday, went, to, bed, as, soon, as, i’d, dropped, son, off, at, biggins, and, didn’t, wake, up, until, 5pm, 2, hours, after, i, should, have, collected, him, and, i, still, felt, awful, it, was, terrible, driving, in, the, dark, and, i, had, to, stop, three, times, on, the, way, home, i, went, back, to, bed, until, 9pm, and, then, was, fine, i, haven’t, had, a, migraine, for, ages, i, was, back, on, top, form, the, next, day, though, we, did, the, tb, readings, on, 172, cattle, before, lunch, cooking, with, gas, diary, 39, fed, up, with, all, this, testing, and, we, may, be, doing, this, for, the, next, 4, 5, months, sick, of, new, vet, moaning, at, work, i, don’t, know, what, it, would, take, to, make, her, happy, i, think, this, week, has, nearly, all, been, a, waste, of, time, i, haven’t, made, best, use, of, my, free, time, and, i, haven’t, been, on, top, of, my, job, at, work, diary, 40, i, was, dreading, this, week, because, there, were, so, many, things, to, do, i, think, i, avoid, adding, extra, to, my, schedule, but, this, week, i, had, 3, days, away, and, a, night, out, to, cope, with, i, really, don’t, like, the, thought, of, shopping, but, managed, to, do, some, christmas, present, locating, on, friday, spent, wednesday, with, b, which, was, better, than, i, expected, on, a, national, scrapie, plan, training, day, which, was, worse, than, i, expected, bloody, defra, they, don’t, have, to, do, or, say, much, to, raise, my, hackles, here, we, are, selecting, for, a, resistant, genotype, and, they, are, spending, all, their, time, injecting, bse, into, sheep’s, brains, to, challenge, them, how, would, that, ever, happen, naturally, nearly, missed, my, night, out, because, of, work, it, was, 10, pm, before, i, got, there, but, at, least, i, didn’t, miss, the, dancing, it, turned, into, a, really, good, night, nearly, everyone, from, work, was, there, and, j, the, ex, receptionist, we, always, have, a, good, laugh, ended, up, working, most, of, the, morning, don’t, know, if, w, was, hung, over, or, just, idle, but, he’ll, have, to, pay, me, for, the, hours, i, don’t, work, extra, out, of, the, goodness, of, my, heart, now, i, have, all, my, own, overheads, to, fund, new, vet, s, the, star, for, avoiding, extra, or, dirty, work, then, it, usually, falls, to, me, she, says, she, wants, more, large, animal, work, and, then, does, her, best, to, avoid, it, diary, 41, tired, this, week, son, came, back, from, mavis’s, full, of, cold, improved, a, bit, and, then, woke, up, screaming, on, tuesday, night, it, was, a, very, long, night, and, partner, wasn’t, even, here, t, enjoy, share, it, as, he’d, left, to, fly, to, tampa, at, 5am, that, morning, god, i, don’t, fancy, being, a, single, mum, he, soon, started, to, improve, after, 24hrs, on, antibiotics, ear, and, chest, infection, i’ve, never, seen, him, in, such, pain, of, course, he, was, nearly, better, by, the, time, partner, got, back, i, really, struggled, on, my, own, and, had, to, take, a, day, off, on, thursday, but, still, had, to, go, and, do, a, second, tb, test, otherwise, i, would, have, had, to, start, all, over, again, we, didn’t, have, time, to, test, them, twice, and, it’s, a, restocked, herd, so, we, had, to, do, them, all, it’s, really, hard, trying, to, do, the, best, for, everyone, diary, 42, pretty, good, week, until, the, weekend, had, a, good, night, out, for, tracey’s, birthday, and, i, was, really, chuffed, she, invited, son, too, he, was, well, behaved, too, nut, unfortunately, now, thinks, he, can, go, to, the, pub, so, we, have, to, go, out, to, meetings, to, avoid, a, tantrum, i, don’t, really, think, i, have, suffered, many, after, effects, from, fmd, except, a, lower, anger, threshold, and, a, loss, of, faith, in, the, powers, that, be, i’m, much, more, worried, about, some, of, our, client’s, mental, health, i, know, there, are, several, who, have, suffered, severe, depression, and, they, are, not, all, farmers, that, were, culled, out, the, sleepless, nights, were, back, with, a, vengeance, son, started, with, chickenpox, at, the, weekend, and, nobody, had, any, sleep, diary, 43, absolutely, shattered, somebody, else’s, chickenpox, is, nearly, as, bad, as, your, own, i, don’t, think, i, have, had, a, full, nights, sleep, for, over, a, fortnight, i, still, had, a, lovely, time, at, christmas, though, i, was, sure, that, partner, and, son, would, be, pleased, with, their, presents, son, suddenly, brightened, dup, on, christmas, eve, on, the, way, to, mam’s, and, never, broke, stride, after, that, he, was, son, top, form, i, was, so, tired, that, i, fell, asleep, on, saturday, evening, and, missed, the, village, hall, christmas, party, the, highlight, of, the, village, social, calendar, diary, 44, the, threat, of, tb, rears, its, ugly, head, maybe, tb, is, the, new, fmd, went, to, do, a, private, tb, test, for, a, farmer, who, has, restocked, and, passed, his, restocking, checks, unfortunately, he, bought, 3, heifers, in, november, and, the, original, farm, has, since, gone, down, with, tb, he, isolated, the, heifers, as, soon, as, he, heard, and, waited, for, defra, they, didn’t, come, so, we, did, i, hoped, for, the, best, and, expected, the, worst, one, of, the, heifers, reacted, i, didn’t, know, what, to, do, or, say, the, farmer’s, wife, was, really, upset, she, wished, they, hadn’t, gone, back, into, farming, b, the, boss, has, phoned, defra, that, morning, regarding, these, heifers, only, to, be, told, that, youngstock, don’t, pose, much, of, a, risk, they, don’t, seem, to, have, much, idea, at, all, and, don’t, have, a, clue, about, getting, on, with, the, job, they’ve, had, three, weeks, to, track, down, the, calves, out, of, the, cows, that, were, reactors, they, seem, to, let, us, down, just, when, we, need, them, most, oh, they, make, me, boil, and, we, are, going, to, have, to, cope, with, the, aftermath, again, diary, 45, felt, a, bit, flat, and, tired, this, week, the, test, i, had, this, week, was, hard, work, trying, to, catch, cows, in, cubicles, is, not, fun, we, were, all, covered, in, muck, at, the, end, of, it, and, the, second, day, was, worse, because, he, had, about, 14, to, rectal, after, the, test, wednesday, my, day, of, respite, was, taken, up, looking, after, tracey, in, bed, with, cold, she’s, really, down, still, and, i, can’t, seem, to, do, anything, to, make, her, feel, better, i, know, she’ll, come, out, of, it, eventually, but, it’s, hard, not, being, able, to, help, i, just, didn’t, feel, as, if, i, had, any, time, to, myself, this, week, and, i, really, missed, out, if, i, start, working, wednesdays, i’m, going, to, miss, it, every, week, i’ll, have, to, have, another, plan, it’s, a, bit, better, at, the, weekend, but, i, think, we, all, need, some, better, weather, and, i, miss, doing, stuff, with, the, horses, diary, 46, oh, i’m, mad, again, with, defra, i, had, to, go, back, to, the, herd, with, the, reactor, and, test, every, single, bovine, on, the, place, except, the, two, remaining, heifers, from, the, infected, herd, i, don’t, understand, why, they, can’t, just, take, out, those, heifers, too, the, poor, farmer, and, his, wife, will, be, on, tender, hooks, until, the, end, of, march, at, the, earliest, if, they, hadn’t, asked, for, a, private, test, goodness, knows, when, defra, would, have, got, there, while, i, was, testing, defra, phoned, the, farmers, wife, to, confirm, that, the, slaughtered, heifer, had, visible, lesions, so, that, puts, paid, to, the, theory, that, youngstock, weren’t, a, danger, hope, this, news, makes, them, get, a, finger, out, had, a, lovely, day, with, mam, and, son, on, tuesday, we, sat, and, talked, for, over, an, hour, in, the, car, park, everything, tested, clear, at, the, check, test, so, far, so, good, bad, day, on, thursday, the, behaviour, course, i, was, enrolled, on, has, been, cancelled, no, explanation, just, a, cheque, returned, to, the, practice, with, a, wee, note, i, was, so, disappointed, even, though, it, was, going, to, be, a, lot, of, extra, work, over, the, next, 10, months, and, extra, hassle, and, extra, childminding, i, think, i, could, have, coped, then, at, lunchtime, i, bent, my, car, door, after, stopping, to, help, somebody, stuck, on, an, icy, patch, i, haven’t, got, all, the, bits, sorted, that, were, knackered, by, fmd, disinfecting, yet, and, there’s, more, repairs, and, i, have, to, pay, for, it, myself, now, that, i, don’t, have, a, practice, car, i, was, well, fed, up, dairy, 47, busy, week, tb, testing, again, started, working, odd, wednesdays, this, week, so, spent, all, day, wednesday, up, the, back, end, of, suckler, cows, very, dangerous, taking, bloods, for, brucellosis, and, then, blood, sampling, swaledales, for, scrapie, testing, we, have, so, many, tests, still, to, do, but, not, many, dreadfully, out, of, date, and, i, think, we’ve, done, quite, a, lot, of, the, restocking, tests, but, its, all, quite, mind, numbing, stuff, not, much, clinical, acumen, required, for, getting, blood, out, of, cows, just, quick, reactions, to, dodge, shit, and, flying, feet, very, late, finished, monday, by, the, time, i, had, all, my, paperwork, done, a, a, college, friend, landed, tuesday, en, route, to, leeds, for, a, herd, health, meeting, 6, hours, driving, for, a, meeting, we, talked, a, bit, about, fmd, she, worked, as, a, tvi, towards, the, end, of, the, outbreak, they, have, a, lot, more, trouble, with, tb, up, in, aberdeenshire, once, it, gets, into, a, herd, they, struggle, to, get, rid, of, it, again, i, hope, it, doesn’t, get, to, be, a, huge, problem, round, here, collected, a, fair, few, bruises, on, thursday, pregnant, heifers, to, dehorn, they, should, have, been, done, in, 2001, but, of, course, the, routine, work, was, put, off, i, don’t, know, what, the, excuse, was, leaving, them, al, through, 2002, but, they, were, massive, anyway, it, saved, me, going, to, the, gym, on, wednesday, night, diary, 48, i, have, just, handed, in, the, latest, batch, of, diaries, and, started, a, new, session, i, have, been, thinking, that, f, m, doesn’t, really, affect, me, much, anymore, our, work, has, changed, because, of, the, restocking, that, has, taken, place, since, with, all, the, new, disease, problems, that, have, been, bought, in, as, additional, extras, and, the, extra, tb, testing, etc, but, mentally, i, am, not, aware, of, even, thinking, about, the, events, of, 2001, that, often, i, still, feel, upset, if, someone, tells, me, about, their, own, particular, experiences, which, are, often, heart, rending, but, probably, no, more, than, if, they, were, discussing, another, devastating, disease, problem, i, still, have, little, tolerance, for, the, workings, of, defra, even, though, they, are, providing, us, with, lots, of, bread, and, butter, work, diary, 51, i’m, sick, of, doing, caesareans, on, cows, who, encouraged, all, the, bloody, beef, farmers, to, restock, with, belgian, blues, i’m, not, sure, that, we, should, be, continuing, to, allow, animals, to, breed, that, can’t, reproduce, naturally, it, doesn’t, seem, right, that, we, should, almost, expect, a, caesarean, the, day, that, a, new, cow, is, put, in, calf, we, used, to, have, occasional, troubles, before, and, not, all, caesareans, are, on, belgian, blues, but, now, we, do, at, least, one, caesarean, every, week, b, did, two, in, one, day, and, they, are, bloody, hard, work, diary, 52, i, always, think, of, the, 23rd, feb, as, being, the, day, that, i, realised, we, might, be, in, the, shit, in, 2001, it, wouldn’t, have, passed, unnoticed, round, here, several, people, mentioned, the, date, in, the, following, week, yet, it, wasn’t, until, the, 4th, april, that, f, m, came, into, our, practice, loads, of, our, farmers, lost, a, lot, of, seep, early, on, though, because, they, were, wintering, away, on, dairy, farms, further, down, the, eden, valley, this, used, to, just, involve, the, hoggs, but, now, they, are, encouraged, to, leave, the, fells, almost, empty, and, are, paid, to, remove, even, pregnant, ewes, to, lower, ground, it, seems, ludicrous, that, on, certain, farms, the, fell, sheep, only, spend, summertime, on, the, fells, the, rest, of, the, time, they, are, in, bye, land, for, tupping, or, lambing, and, then, are, wintered, in, sheep, sheds, or, on, dairy, farms, sometimes, quite, far, away, from, home, i, did, get, quite, upset, when, i, read, the, stories, in, the, book, this, time, i, think, i, had, more, empathy, for, the, tourism, businesses, affected, they, must, have, been, so, frustrated, and, probably, ended, up, much, worse, off, that, the, affected, farmers, in, our, area, the, farmers, who, survived, are, the, ones, in, general, who, are, struggling, for, survival, now, and, their, farms, have, had, no, capital, investment, at, all, in, fact, some, of, the, survivors, are, still, very, bitter, about, the, whole, episode, its, so, sad, what, this, has, done, to, some, people, diary, 55, check, tb, test, at, campbells, went, well, finished, in, good, time, running, into, trouble, because, the, other, cows, taken, in, for, winter, are, calving, and, they, have, no, room, however, they, have, found, someone, to, take, and, slaughter, all, the, big, bullocks, they, are, going, to, be, moved, under, licence, direct, to, a, slaughter, house, so, at, least, they, will, have, some, income, the, first, this, year, everything, tested, clear, including, the, 2, heifers, brought, in, from, the, farm, that, had, the, reactor, so, they, are, feeling, a, little, bit, more, confident, diary, 56, bloody, defra, cocked, up, again, with, c’s, test, had, to, go, back, to, test, 11, baby, calves, how, cruel, had, to, go, back, to, h’s, as, well, to, test, one, inconclusive, reactor, all, of, them, were, ok, diary, 60, i, think, the, lambing, time, rush, is, settling, down, again, of, course, there, aren’t, quite, as, many, fell, sheep, about, as, usual, and, probably, won’t, be, again, if, the, payments, are, de, coupled, numbers, won’t, be, as, profitable, as, acres]
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1964, gender, f, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, week, beginning, 4th, march, 02, monday, 4th, march, we, decided, we, now, need, more, staff, a, new, vet, and, a, part, time, receptionist, this, could, take, us, back, up, to, our, previous, staffing, level, pre, fm, bar, a, vet, but, this, was, probably, going, to, be, all, the, recruitments, we, would, make, this, year, it’s, a, good, sign, as, things, begin, to, get, back, to, normal, work, is, increasing, quite, a, lot, now, most, of, our, farmers, have, restocked, although, a, lot, of, them, and, us, are, still, concerned, about, the, future, tuesday, 5th, march, a, difficult, day, today, with, licences, two, of, our, farmers, needed, sole, occupancy, authentitys, soa, and, there, were, queries, with, their, land, unless, some, of, their, fields, could, be, redefined, they, were, worried, their, stock, would, suffer, during, the, fm, these, worries, have, shown, how, much, they, care, about, their, stock, and, find, it, very, frustrating, when, they, don’t, understand, why, we, can’t, move, them, even, to, the, point, of, anger, and, tears, by, the, end, of, the, day, thankfully, they, were, resolved, with, compromise, on, both, sides, and, a, lot, of, phone, calls, wednesday, 6th, march, i, decided, to, sort, out, all, the, paperwork, and, guidelines, we, had, received, from, defra, over, the, past, twelve, months, it, was, quite, a, pile, it, was, interesting, looking, back, and, very, sad, it, makes, you, realise, just, how, deep, the, feelings, went, and, although, it, sounds, silly, it’s, surprising, how, quickly, those, feelings, can, return, over, the, smallest, things, anyway, having, done, that, it, did, feel, good, to, box, them, up, and, put, them, away, we, got, taken, out, for, lunch, with, our, ptizer, rep, and, it, was, nice, just, to, talk, about, usual, things, drug, competition, how, much, we, were, going, to, sell, thursday, 7th, march, very, busy, day, everyone, has, been, flat, out, all, day, started, at, 7am, this, morning, got, finished, sort, of, by, 7.30pm, very, tired, hope, we, get, a, new, vet, soon, we, also, had, a, suspect, bse, case, today, informed, defra, more, problems, with, soa, but, we, got, them, started, one, bit, of, good, news, i, managed, to, get, a, new, receptionist, for, 2, days, a, week, so, i, just, need, one, for, the, other, 3, friday, 8th, march, quite, a, good, day, no, major, hassles, today, and, still, getting, busier, had, a, staff, meeting, to, arrange, an, open, day, for, national, pet, week, in, may, and, sorted, out, a, few, other, bits, and, bobs, had, a, good, chat, with, the, staff, who, have, all, been, very, busy, this, week, and, decided, that, it, is, much, better, to, this, time, last, year, when, we, were, all, very, depressed, emotionally, drained, laying, off, staff, uncertain, of, the, future, at, least, now, we, are, doing, what, we, are, meant, to, do, saturday, 9th, march, went, shopping, first, thing, with, k, had, a, good, time, even, though, i’m, not, a, good, shopper, we, went, to, the, farmers, market, i, saw, heather, who, works, at, the, auction, and, she, said, it, had, been, quite, emotional, having, sales, again, and, the, hustle, and, bustle, but, they, were, all, happy, to, see, people, they, hadn’t, seen, for, sometime, met, my, mum, in, the, afternoon, in, the, snow, at, killington, lake, it, was, good, and, the, driving, was, interesting, sunday, 10th, march, mothers, day, husband, and, daughter, were, out, for, the, day, so, i, had, a, lovely, peaceful, day, doing, not, a, lot, daughter, got, me, a, funny, card, and, a, little, hedgehog, model, for, my, collection, in, the, evening, i, collected, a, vet, student, from, london, who, is, staying, with, us, for, 3, weeks, so, we, will, have, to, behave, she, seems, nice, and, settled, into, our, mad, house, easily, mr, w, called, in, to, let, us, know, his, cows, had, arrived, safely, week, beginning, 11th, march, 02, monday, 11th, march, what, a, busy, day, but, a, total, change, to, this, time, last, year, it, was, the, day, our, first, client, was, confirmed, with, f, m, i, helped, another, vet, do, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, that, was, fun, they, are, farmers, that, have, moved, farm, and, restocked, very, positive, one, of, our, new, receptionists, started, but, i, didn’t, get, much, chance, to, see, her, due, to, the, caesar, barbara, looked, after, her, well, and, she, seemed, to, enjoy, it, there, were, lots, of, calls, in, just, like, the, old, days, but, we, really, need, another, vet, the, adverts, in, on, thursday, so, fingers, crossed, tuesday, another, busy, day, and, another, caesar, the, calf, was, dead, unfortunately, the, cow, with, query, bse, was, taken, away, for, tests, which, was, sad, my, highlight, of, my, day, was, the, farm, across, from, us, turned, some, of, his, cows, out, again, i, call, it, my, kitchen, window, view, normally, i, can, see, sheep, in, the, fields, at, the, back, and, the, cows, across, the, road, the, sheep, came, back, a, couple, of, months, ago, and, the, cows, but, i, haven’t, actually, been, able, to, see, them, so, it, was, very, special, never, really, stopped, today, and, we, did, dog, training, classes, at, night, so, i, collected, daughter, from, her, yfc, meeting, and, got, fish, and, chips, and, we, all, went, to, bed, our, poor, vet, student, who, is, staying, with, us, is, exhausted, she’s, been, able, to, see, and, do, so, much, wednesday, today, was, a, little, more, controlled, and, went, more, according, to, plan, but, was, still, a, long, day, as, we, had, a, dog, in, about, 6.30pm, that, had, eaten, a, ball, and, hadn’t, passed, it, so, we, had, to, operate, to, remove, it, anyway, finished, at, 9.00pm, had, tea, and, went, to, bed, daughter, heard, she, had, got, 2, weeks, work, experience, at, norbrook, pharmaceutical, so, very, pleased, about, that, thursday, had, the, morning, off, the, last, few, days, had, been, rather, hectic, a, girl, who, had, done, work, experience, with, us, a, couple, of, years, ago, called, round, out, of, the, blue, she, was, still, keen, to, train, as, a, vet, nurse, and, wanted, to, write, to, the, practices, in, the, area, and, needed, advice, anyway, i, told, her, about, our, vacancy, here, and, well, the, long, and, the, short, is, she, starts, on, the, 2nd, april, receptionist, staff, now, sorted, just, need, a, vet, i, wish, it, was, as, easy, friday, husband, was, reading, a, tt, test, at, a, farm, and, found, a, reactor, pre, f, m, cumbria, was, tb, free, but, with, all, the, new, stock, coming, into, the, area, it, is, inevitable, that, this, will, not, be, the, case, there, have, already, been, two, other, cases, in, the, county, i, dropped, off, the, isolation, notice, to, the, farmer, and, as, they, are, he, seemed, okay, and, still, very, positive, i, have, always, admired, them, for, their, courage, and, stamina, as, he, said, they, love, farming, and, you, have, to, expect, things, like, this, managed, to, spend, the, afternoon, with, one, of, our, new, receptionists, she, is, doing, really, well, and, settling, in, time, she, will, grasp, it, all, in, no, time, saturday, ran, daughter, and, her, friend, into, town, and, sorted, out, the, garage, that, was, an, achievement, the, dog, that, swallowed, the, ball, wasn’t, eating, so, i, went, to, get, it, something, tasty, it’s, going, home, later, so, it, should, be, a, lot, happier, daughter, s, still, in, town, so, i, took, vet, student, to, see, hadrian’s, wall, she’s, from, america, so, was, very, keen, to, see, it, she, really, enjoyed, it, and, so, did, i, i, hadn’t, been, for, a, couple, of, years, just, had, a, nice, quiet, evening, in, sunday, my, sister, and, her, daughter, came, for, the, day, my, niece, is, two, and, a, half, years, so, need, i, say, more, we, were, busy, playing, all, day, week, beginning, monday, 18th, march, 02, monday, 18th, march, it's, looking, fairly, quiet, at, work, this, week, but, you, never, know, mr, w, farmer, came, in, he, was, letting, us, know, his, restocking, plans, and, was, one, of, the, farmers, querying, his, compensation, i, never, liked, that, as, they, were, compulsory, purchased, and, have, not, received, any, compensation, as, such, although, some, got, better, money, than, others, so, maybe, it, was, all, taken, into, account, anyway, he, missed, the, query, deadline, by, two, hours, so, defra, are, refusing, to, look, at, his, case, as, he, does, appear, to, have, lost, out, as, his, brother, with, the, same, breeding, of, cows, and, related, went, down, on, the, same, down, got, an, average, 300, more, per, cow, anyway, we, tried, to, look, to, the, future, and, he, was, looking, forward, to, getting, stock, back, we, had, another, tb, reactor, today, in, some, french, cattle, me, and, our, receptionist, were, chatting, and, decided, things, were, really, getting, back, to, normal, although, with, the, added, paperwork, daughter, was, very, upset, when, she, came, home, from, school, as, she, had, been, getting, bullied, by, a, girl, in, her, year, so, we, chatted, about, that, and, i, wrote, to, her, teacher, to, see, if, she, could, find, out, more, tuesday, daughter, went, to, school, fairly, happy, i, just, told, her, to, hand, her, letter, in, and, try, and, avoid, the, girl, i, was, going, milk, recording, tonight, which, i, really, enjoy, it's, great, to, be, among, the, animals, and, talk, to, the, farmers, we, only, have, one, farmer, milk, recording, fully, at, present, there, were, 12, the, farm, i, went, to, is, a, big, dairy, herd, and, is, now, looking, to, expanding, so, that, was, good, news, bad, news, is, that, means, i'll, have, to, get, up, earlier, in, the, mornings, for, the, recording, never, mind, daughter, had, got, on, okay, at, school, and, the, teacher, was, really, good, with, her, so, she's, feeling, happier, she, is, a, good, kid, and, although, hormonal, at, times, she, does, put, up, with, a, lot, during, the, fmd, we, were, unable, to, really, go, anywhere, or, do, anything, although, we, did, try, to, keep, her, routine, we, worked, longer, hours, and, were, more, stressed, but, she, never, complained, and, helped, a, lot, went, dog, training, after, milk, recording, so, it, was, a, long, day, wednesday, early, morning, start, today, 5am, to, go, milk, recording, but, i, always, get, a, lovely, breakfast, we, also, got, invited, to, a, party, at, the, farm, in, may, so, that's, something, to, look, forward, to, and, its, fancy, dress, so, that, will, be, fun, we, have, to, dress, up, as, children's, characters, we, then, attended, a, careers, convention, at, the, sands, centre, until, 7, pm, so, another, very, long, day, very, tired, we, saw, a, lot, of, children, who, were, interested, in, pursuing, veterinary, work, which, is, always, encouraging, i, enjoy, doing, the, careers, days, it's, interesting, to, see, the, next, workforce, they, seem, to, grow, up, so, fast, thursday, my, claim, to, fame, today, was, seeing, the, princess, royal, i, passed, her, at, a, junction, and, thought, i, was, seeing, things, i, bored, everyone, with, that, story, we, had, a, lovely, staff, lunch, meeting, we, all, helped, cook, and, sat, and, chatted, about, the, future, we, had, no, replies, from, the, advert, for, a, vet, so, we, decided, to, try, another, veterinary, magazine, so, fingers, crossed, in, the, afternoon, i, managed, to, get, very, well, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, which, is, a, rarity, as, i, normally, end, up, going, somewhere, or, sorting, something, out, so, i, was, very, pleased, especially, as, the, year, end, is, approaching, friday, discussed, a, few, ideas, with, our, nurse, regarding, the, small, animal, side, and, the, possibility, of, getting, some, new, equipment, i, shall, have, to, do, some, adding, up, husband, was, at, a, vet, meeting, locally, for, all, the, vets, in, the, area, on, thursday, night, and, there, were, 3, other, practices, looking, for, vets, and, had, been, doing, for, some, time, without, any, luck, at, all, this, is, worrying, as, our, case, loads, increase, again, it, puts, a, strain, on, the, vets, so, fingers, crossed, our, advert, is, in, tomorrow, in, the, afternoon, i, called, to, see, one, of, our, evening, receptionist, who, is, on, maternity, leave, at, present, it, was, good, to, see, her, and, her, new, addition, so, i, was, filling, her, in, on, the, news, and, gossip, hopefully, she, will, be, back, to, work, the, second, week, in, april, although, the, birth, was, a, caesarean, so, i, have, told, her, to, see, how, she, is, feeling, so, we, will, discuss, it, again, soon, as, this, is, her, fourth, child, but, she, copes, really, well, and, is, looking, really, healthy, saturday, it, snowed, i, went, to, meet, my, mum, at, killington, as, we, were, having, her, dog, while, she, went, on, holiday, and, nearly, got, stuck, in, the, snow, during, foot, and, mouth, daughter, had, counted, the, stock, in, the, field, between, carlisle, and, penrith, on, the, m6, anyway, i, did, it, again, today, last, year, we, counted, 2, this, year, we, counted, 12, big, difference, sunday, went, for, a, walk, around, a, local, wood, for, the, first, time, in, over, a, year, it, was, amazing, how, overgrown, it, had, become, the, paths, were, still, visible, but, in, places, only, just, met, up, with, a, friend's, daughter, to, finalise, arrangements, for, her, father's, surprise, meal, out, next, friday, for, his, 50th, birthday, week, beginning, monday, 25th, march, 02, monday, 25th, march, another, very, busy, day, today, still, no, answer, to, the, advert, for, a, new, vet, husband, spoke, to, another, vet, in, the, area, and, they, had, had, the, same, response, nothing, it, is, good, to, be, busy, again, our, new, receptionist, is, doing, well, and, learning, fast, so, that's, taking, the, pressure, off, me, and, other, receptioinist, completed, the, claim, form, for, business, link, grant, which, helped, a, lot, and, enabled, us, to, do, things, and, advertise, when, we, wouldn't, have, been, able, to, tuesday, starting, to, prepare, for, the, end, of, our, financial, year, i, always, dread, this, but, it, has, to, be, done, it, will, be, nice, to, end, another, chapter, the, practice, suffered, badly, last, year, and, it, was, very, worrying, we, lost, 3, vets, and, two, lay, staff, but, everyone, is, feeling, the, same, i, have, spoken, to, a, few, farmers, today, and, the, opinion, is, well, it, is, a, lot, better, than, this, time, last, year, it, has, been, interesting, to, see, how, the, effect, of, having, new, stock, does, throw, them, we, are, getting, called, out, a, lot, more, which, is, good, for, us, we, are, doing, a, lot, more, lambings, and, lambing, is, set, to, go, on, until, may, june, time, this, year, we, are, very, busy, testing, at, the, moment, but, it, gives, us, the, opportunity, to, see, the, new, animals, and, discuss, plans, with, the, farmers, the, relationship, which, was, built, during, the, f, m, is, now, definitely, benefiting, a, lot, have, said, how, helpful, it, was, and, feel, a, lot, closer, the, family, not, business, relationship, is, good, wednesday, i, had, a, day, off, today, which, was, good, i, managed, to, catch, up, on, a, few, things, which, i, just, hadn't, had, time, to, do, with, being, so, busy, i, got, a, lot, organised, for, the, holiday, at, the, week, end, which, we, are, all, looking, forward, to, but, we, can't, all, get, away, together, mainly, due, to, no, new, vet, and, our, financial, year, but, at, least, we, will, all, get, a, bit, of, a, break, daughter, got, her, report, today, and, has, done, very, well, we, are, so, proud, of, her, so, fingers, crossed, for, her, gcses, thursday, i, spoke, to, mrs, w, today, who, has, been, very, much, in, action, since, they, got, f, m, and, even, got, in, touch, with, politician, etc, to, help, give, farmers, that, voice, she, mentioned, the, public, inquiry, and, like, a, lot, of, people, feels, that, maybe, rather, than, having, a, finger, pointing, blaming, session, and, we, all, have, our, ideas, on, that, she, felt, that, maybe, trying, to, prevent, it, happening, again, would, be, a, better, idea, i, personally, have, begun, to, realize, recently, just, how, much, and, how, deep, the, feelings, run, i, think, i, am, more, emotional, now, than, when, we, were, in, the, thick, of, it, friday, spent, all, day, knuckling, down, to, the, end, of, year, but, got, a, lot, done, husband, daughter, and, vet, student, went, out, for, the, day, it, is, husband, s, first, real, day, off, since, october, and, it, did, him, good, we, all, went, out, in, the, evening, to, celebrate, a, friend's, birthday, it, was, really, good, saturday, holiday, again, today, husband, daughter, my, sister, and, her, daughter, have, gone, away, today, to, the, cottage, near, newton, stewart, we, have, rented, for, a, week, the, weather, is, great, so, they, should, have, a, lovely, time, this, could, be, our, only, holiday, this, year, husband, s, back, on, monday, then, i, go, on, wednesday, confusing, isn't, it, never, mind, at, least, we, will, all, get, away, for, a, few, days, sunday, end, of, year, day, stocktaking, counting, sunny, outside, boring, but, never, mind, it's, done, our, vet, student, went, home, today, she, had, really, enjoyed, herself, and, we, had, enjoyed, having, her, she, bought, us, all, some, lovely, gifts, it, will, be, nice, to, be, on, our, own, again, but, i, will, still, miss, her, week, beginning, monday, 1st, april, 02, monday, 1st, april, i, had, a, lovely, day, my, day, husband, and, daughter, still, away, played, in, the, garden, went, for, a, walk, read, some, of, my, book, lovely, husband, came, back, at, tea, time, so, we, went, out, for, a, meal, perfect, tuesday, went, to, help, another, vet, vet, tt, test, at, one, of, our, farms, he, had, restocked, and, was, very, positive, about, the, future, it, was, a, lovely, day, and, great, to, be, amongst, cows, again, wednesday, sunday, hols, great, i, didn't, realise, just, how, much, i, needed, it, the, weather, was, great, warm, sunny, very, relaxing, all, charged, up, again, week, beginning, monday, 8th, april, 02, monday, 8th, april, back, to, work, today, i, had, quite, a, lot, of, catching, up, to, do, and, couldn't, really, get, into, it, never, mind, it, will, all, still, be, there, tomorrow, hope, we, can, get, away, again, this, year, even, for, a, few, days, tuesday, queen, mum's, funeral, today, it, was, very, quiet, we, gave, the, girls, time, off, to, watch, the, funeral, it, was, a, nice, funeral, if, you, can, have, one, and, they, commented, on, the, poem, which, was, read, about, being, thankful, for, the, life, and, not, being, sorry, i, must, get, it, our, nurse, suggested, about, giving, it, to, clients, when, they, have, their, pets, put, to, sleep, nice, idea, wednesday, back, into, it, now, i, had, 2, very, difficult, soa, to, complete, farmers, are, slowly, getting, the, idea, but, find, all, the, paperwork, hard, but, it's, a, good, chance, for, them, to, call, in, for, a, chat, and, coffee, i, so, seem, to, spend, an, awful, lot, of, time, doing, that, now, but, it's, always, good, to, see, how, they, are, coping, thursday, the, large, animal, work, has, been, rapidly, increasing, and, it, has, been, putting, extra, pressure, on, all, the, staff, we, do, really, need, another, vet, but, another, advert, and, still, no, response, at, all, but, they, all, work, very, hard, and, we, do, manage, to, get, through, the, work, we, chatted, to, the, staff, and, tried, to, reassure, them, about, the, future, but, how, can, you, when, if, we, can't, get, another, vet, we, simply, can't, provide, the, service, our, clients, need, it, is, very, worrying, and, we, are, not, sure, of, the, solution, or, the, future, i, think, after, that, paragraph, i, need, a, we, can, do, it, kick, friday, our, new, receptionists, are, settling, in, well, and, i, did, some, work, with, them, today, which, was, good, they, are, both, very, enthusiastic, a, few, years, ago, a, i, taught, nvq, in, animal, care, so, one, of, our, receptionists, is, keen, to, do, this, so, i, organised, some, work, for, her, to, do, enjoyed, that, castrated, a, colt, in, the, afternoon, sad, i, know, but, i, enjoyed, that, saturday, went, shopping, with, daughter, in, the, morning, to, buy, her, some, new, clothes, we, had, a, good, time, then, started, the, sewing, for, the, yfc, field, day, we, had, to, make, shorts, and, t, shirt, for, a, sport, event, well, i, haven't, really, done, sewing, from, a, pattern, for, years, so, let's, just, say, it, was, fun, sunday, went, to, newcastle, for, the, day, via, some, fields, we, had, to, check, for, a, client's, soa, had, a, lovely, time, and, saw, the, blinking, or, winking, i'm, not, sure, which, one, it, is, it, was, nice, to, have, a, day, all, together, week, beginning, monday, 15th, april, 02, monday, 15th, april, very, busy, again, i, did, 175, miles, today, just, dropping, things, off, for, farmers, and, vets, and, trips, to, the, lab, i, also, found, a, new, supplier, of, paper, towels, which, will, save, us, a, lot, of, money, see, so, easy, pleased, it, was, very, tiring, but, i, do, like, being, out, and, about, and, i, even, managed, two, cups, of, coffee, on, farms, before, fmd, i, felt, that, the, relationship, between, vets, and, farmers, was, changing, but, our, relationship, during, fmd, did, change, for, the, better, i, feel, good, about, that, but, not, the, way, it, happened, me, and, daughter, had, a, girls, night, in, as, husband, was, away, that, was, fun, tuesday, 16th, april, husband, away, at, bcva, he, is, new, on, the, committee, and, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, there, is, only, him, and, another, vet, in, scotland, from, the, north, invited, onto, the, committee, so, they, are, putting, together, some, suggestions, to, put, to, the, government, re, fmd, poor, another, vet, was, very, busy, again, we, need, a, vet, wednesday, 17th, april, i, went, to, see, an, elderly, client, of, ours, this, morning, who, has, an, old, dog, she, is, going, into, hospital, and, won't, go, as, she, is, worried, about, the, dog, i, offered, to, have, kelly, the, dog, while, she, was, in, hospital, and, told, her, if, i, found, out, she, cancelled, it, i, would, be, cross, i, enjoy, talking, to, her, for, her, 87, years, she, is, very, fit, and, funny, at, lunchtime, we, all, attacked, the, bayer, rep, for, free, goodies, for, our, open, day, he, was, very, co, operative, and, got, away, without, a, scratch, we, didn't, have, an, open, day, last, year, so, it, should, be, fun, back, into, a, routine, thursday, 18th, april, i, bottomed, my, paperwork, this, morning, no, interference, no, phone, calls, no, soa, very, productive, me, and, husband, went, to, see, the, finical, advisor, at, the, bank, in, the, afternoon, it, was, good, but, we, can't, retire, this, year, never, mind, he, gave, us, some, good, ideas, so, fingers, crossed, we, might, just, be, able, to, retire, one, day, friday, 19th, april, very, busy, we, need, a, vet, repetitive, isn't, it, we, were, looking, back, in, the, visit, book, to, this, time, last, year, this, year, we, had, 21, calls, which, is, a, practise, record, last, year, we, had, 1, there, is, a, lot, of, general, well, this, time, last, year, in, some, ways, it, all, seems, very, unbelievable, but, in, other, ways, it, still, very, sad, and, emotional, i, think, more, emotional, now, than, when, it, was, actually, happening, when, you, see, farmer’s, eyes, filling, up, talking, about, it, i, used, to, worry, about, upsetting, them, but, i, feel, it, is, good, to, talk, and, it, also, helps, me, i, don't, know, if, that’s, right, but, it, seems, to, work, saturday, 20th, and, sunday, 21st, april, huge, sewing, for, yfc, field, day, i, also, found, out, today, that, there, is, also, baking, and, flower, arranging, oh, joy, week, beginning, monday, 22nd, april, 02, monday, 22nd, april, good, day, today, i've, been, to, see, my, new, girls, the, cows, over, the, road, from, us, it, was, the, one, we, could, see, from, the, practice, it, was, an, awful, day, they, had, lasted, until, june, anyway, it, was, good, to, see, the, new, girls, and, i, think, i, amused, the, farmer, we, had, a, great, time, i've, never, enjoyed, helping, tt, test, more, on, a, high, tuesday, 23rd, april, driving, around, today, i've, been, trying, to, listen, to, what, the, euro, inquiry, people, have, been, up, to, not, a, lot, from, what, i, hear, i, was, talking, to, an, old, farmer, in, the, afternoon, and, he, wasn't, impressed, either, and, we, agreed, that, it, was, all, very, well, having, these, inquires, but, were, they, going, to, help, i, suppose, only, time, will, tell, but, i, still, feel, that, unless, something, is, done, about, the, cause, then, the, chances, are, it, will, happen, again, and, to, what, extent, and, what, has, been, learnt, and, what, will, be, different, next, time, because, the, one, thing, that, must, be, prevented, is, the, effects, on, people, nobody, really, got, that, i, always, remember, the, samaritans, advert, nobody, seemed, to, care, probably, no, paperwork, can, you, tell, i've, had, a, particularly, bad, day, with, the, soa, and, the, good, news, is, they, want, to, keep, them, permanently, great, wednesday, 24th, april, i, went, to, see, mrs, b, again, today, and, she, had, heard, from, the, hospital, again, she, was, going, in, next, tuesday, so, i, arranged, at, collect, k, on, monday, afternoon, i'm, pleased, she's, having, her, op, i, have, also, been, in, touch, with, one, of, her, daughters, in, devon, so, hopefully, everything, should, go, well, now, good, news, we, have, heard, of, a, vet, at, defra, who, is, looking, for, a, job, husband, phoned, her, and, she, is, coming, on, saturday, afternoon, so, fingers, crossed, thursday, 25th, april, my, cows, got, the, tt, reading, this, morning, and, they, are, all, okay, we, have, heard, of, a, farm, in, welton, who, had, to, have, some, killed, as, they, had, 7, reactors, and, they, will, need, tested, there, has, been, quite, a, few, reactors, in, the, country, after, restocking, but, with, all, the, new, stock, coming, into, the, county, from, all, over, the, country, it, was, bound, to, happen, friday, 26th, april, sorted, out, the, open, day, next, saturday, got, everything, sorted, what, we, need, who's, getting, it, etc, me, and, receptionist, went, to, smuts, fancy, dress, and, decided, budget, wouldn't, go, to, costumes, so, we, got, some, face, paint, and, masks, me, and, daughter, and, her, friend, and, mum, went, to, see, westlife, ant, newcastle, it, was, great, fun, saturday, 27th, april, shopping, washing, and, sewing, i, know, how, to, show, myself, a, good, time, we, all, went, to, another, vet, s, at, night, for, a, bbq, it, was, great, fun, cold, but, fun, we, have, been, so, lucky, with, another, vet, she, is, so, nice, and, enthusiastic, we, interviewed, a, vet, today, from, defra, but, she, is, a, little, uncertain, what, she, wants, to, do, but, she, seems, nice, and, we, told, her, what, we, needed, so, fingers, crossed, sunday, 28th, april, finished, my, sewing, week, beginning, monday, 29th, april, monday, the, inquiry, begins, for, what, good, it, will, do, i, find, i, have, very, mixed, feelings, part, of, me, thinks, what's, the, point, and, another, is, expecting, something, but, quite, what, i, don't, yet, someone, to, blame, a, solution, an, ability, to, turn, back, the, clock, a, lesson, to, learn, or, an, end, the, last, i, know, won't, happen, for, a, while, and, the, repercussion, will, probably, be, felt, for, a, few, years, yet, tuesday, 30th, april, sorry, ill, in, bed, today, with, the, cold, from, hell, wednesday, 1st, may, much, better, today, and, we, heard, from, the, vet, we, interviewed, on, saturday, and, she, has, accepted, our, offer, and, can, start, on, the, 27th, may, yippee, holidays, and, easing, of, the, pressure, on, husband, and, another, vet, i, am, still, finding, the, saying, well, this, time, last, year, mrs, r, phoned, and, mentioned, the, saying, as, it, was, a, year, ago, today, that, their, cattle, were, killed, but, she, was, phoning, with, good, news, they, had, their, first, calf, born, healthy, and, well, and, she, wanted, to, tell, us, lovely, thursday, 2nd, may, its, official, soa, are, here, to, stay, oh, joy, so, we, contacted, all, our, farmers, who, had, not, yet, got, one, who, we, thought, might, need, one, so, lots, of, chatting, and, catching, up, so, quite, nice, open, day, is, on, saturday, and, there, still, seems, to, be, an, awful, lot, to, organise, but, we, have, been, busy, all, day, and, things, are, looking, better, and, slightly, more, organised, i, haven't, seen, or, heard, much, of, this, enquiry, but, when, you, do, hear, some, i, think, we, really, went, through, that, weird, friday, 3rd, may, open, day, panic, that’s, all, i've, done, today, but, it, is, all, coming, together, and, it, will, be, fine, hopefully, we, have, had, quite, a, good, response, about, people, coming, and, people, checking, when, it, is, and, what's, happening, so, fingers, crossed, must, go, and, bake, my, buns, saturday, 4th, may, open, day, it, went, really, well, we, started, at, 2, p.m, and, there, was, a, steady, stream, of, people, all, enjoying, themselves, hopefully, it, stayed, fine, the, whole, time, thankfully, i, even, got, my, face, painted, by, another, vet, our, vet, we, managed, to, raise, 96.71, for, the, pat, dogs, and, 27.35, for, national, pet, week, not, too, bad, for, 2, hours, the, staff, came, round, for, tea, later, which, was, nice, and, we, had, a, jolly, time, sunday, 5th, may, gardened, all, day, till, i, dropped, loved, it, i, grew, quite, fond, of, the, garden, last, year, as, it, was, another, little, escape, week, beginning, monday, 6th, may, monday, 6th, may, bank, holiday, we, had, a, lovely, family, day, out, which, have, been, very, rare, so, it, was, surprising, that, we, all, got, on, nearly, it, still, feels, strange, being, able, to, go, to, places, not, only, as, a, family, but, also, the, fact, that, for, so, long, we, didn't, really, go, anywhere, tuesday, 7th, may, very, busy, i, have, been, doing, my, hollering, as, receptionist, calls, it, what, i, have, actually, been, doing, is, dropping, off, drugs, and, chatting, i, call, it, customer, relations, i, still, feel, funny, going, onto, farms, i, have, been, to, the, gate, for, months, just, momentarily, i, feel, can, i, its, hard, to, explain, it, still, feels, normal, to, drop, things, in, the, bucket, or, bin, rather, than, driving, onto, the, farm, but, its, good, and, the, coffee, with, proper, milk, is, brill, wednesday, 8th, may, mr, g, has, got, some, cows, he, was, one, we, thought, wouldn't, restock, as, although, both, his, sons, are, on, the, farm, neither, are, interested, in, cows, one, has, horses, and, the, other, has, everything, else, from, turkeys, dogs, wallabies, monkeys, pheasants, etc, a, real, menagerie, daddy, g, is, 66, and, couldn't, decide, weather, to, get, more, cows, or, not, it, was, a, bit, of, dad, says, yes, sons, say, no, anyway, dad, won, to, begin, with, i, was, on, the, sons, side, but, when, he, came, in, beaming, and, laughing, and, full, of, joy, how, could, you, disagree, with, him, before, they, got, fmd, he, had, called, into, the, practise, and, was, having, a, coffee, and, was, very, upset, his, friend, had, phoned, him, that, morning, to, say, he, had, fmd, mr, g, just, broke, down, and, sobbed, it, was, one, of, my, worst, experiences, i, found, it, so, hard, not, to, join, him, but, to, be, strong, and, console, him, for, him, of, the, old, gentlemen, showed, the, depth, of, feeling, and, despair, that, was, around, i, have, a, lump, now, remembering, it, anyway, in, comparison, if, getting, a, few, cows, to, milk, can, make, such, a, big, difference, and, be, so, happy, so, what, thursday, 9th, may, went, to, a, meeting, in, preston, with, cl, a, vet, from, brampton, on, the, marsh, report, which, is, regarding, vets, the, privilege, to, dispense, drugs, anyway, firstly, we, got, lost, very, lost, and, then, on, arriving, at, the, meeting, eventually, it, was, all, doom, gloom, and, depressing, just, when, you, thought, things, were, getting, on, tract, bam, more, changes, more, paperwork, we, will, have, to, wait, and, see, just, how, it, effects, us, but, effect, us, it, will, friday, 10th, may, i, had, a, half, day, off, today, and, did, fun, things, like, washing, shopping, and, sorting, bits, and, pieces, but, i, couldn't, be, a, housewife, all, the, time, i, ended, up, leaving, the, cooking, and, washing, and, took, the, dog, out, instead, much, more, fun, saturday, 11th, may, took, daughter, out, to, the, young, farmers, field, day, it, was, brill, i, was, only, going, to, stay, an, hour, anyway, i, stayed, all, day, everyone, was, there, some, i, hadn't, seen, for, ages, i, had, only, spoke, to, them, and, some, new, faces, it, was, great, to, see, them, all, together, i, do, feel, farmers, and, their, families, are, very, special, people, they, have, a, wonderful, sense, of, fun, they, are, very, solid, they, are, very, close, mind, when, you, talk, to, them, you, find, they, are, all, related, they, are, also, very, proud, of, what, they, do, its, sad, the, public, do, not, see, them, this, way, gone, are, the, days, when, the, farmer, was, the, hero, who, worked, all, hours, to, feed, the, nation, well, it, was, a, wonderful, day, week, beginning, monday, 13th, may, monday, very, busy, milk, recorded, this, afternoon, it, was, good, fun, they, are, preparing, for, their, party, on, saturday, night, it, is, a, fancy, dress, party, me, and, husband, are, going, but, i, can't, say, what, as, yet, j, mentioned, that, a, friend, of, theirs, was, still, not, speaking, to, them, because, j, never, lost, his, cows, and, yet, j, said, he, had, tries, to, explain, how, hard, it, was, for, them, waiting, his, friend, had, accepted, the, invite, to, the, party, so, here’s, hopefully, to, friendship, it, show's, how, feelings, can, so, easily, run, away, and, be, blown, into, something, very, silly, we, are, all, on, the, same, side, after, all, i, see, a, lot, of, changes, in, a, lot, of, people, either, bitterness, resentment, jealousy, and, emotionally, drained, in, the, whole, situation, tuesday, 14th, may, early, morning, milk, recording, got, my, outfit, sorted, for, the, fancy, dress, party, on, saturday, me, and, friend, went, to, try, it, on, it, was, good, fun, wednesday, 15th, may, i, have, done, tons, of, backwards, and, forwarding, today, so, i've, been, hearing, about, the, inquiry, a, bit, today, i, have, decided, i, am, going, to, the, one, in, carlisle, out, of, interest, and, curiosity, i, still, feel, what, is, it, all, for, so, i, may, find, out, at, the, meeting, i, am, still, waiting, for, the, day, fmd, is, not, mentioned, or, i, have, some, dealing, regarding, it, thursday, 16th, may, i, spoke, to, a, young, couple, who, farm, and, they, were, enquiring, about, the, changes, in, buying, drugs, it, caught, me, off, guard, as, we, knew, it, would, happen, but, not, when, i, arranged, to, meet, with, them, and, chat, to, see, what, they, wanted, and, i, think, i, will, go, from, there, people, are, farming, in, different, ways, than, they, used, to, pre, fmd, weather, it, is, a, result, of, fmd, or, not, i, don't, know, but, there, are, going, to, be, a, lot, of, changes, heading, our, way, friday, 17th, may, accountant, day, today, what, a, joy, no, he, is, brilliant, he, has, helped, so, much, over, the, years, and, last, year, he, was, brilliant, he, did, have, one, consolation, we, wouldn't, have, to, pay, too, much, tax, this, year, anyway, spoke, to, a, rep, in, the, afternoon, we, have, had, all, the, usual, offers, that, we, get, every, year, but, this, year, they, look, good, as, if, we, buy, more, this, year, than, last, year, we, can, get, more, off, that, should, be, easy, saturday, 18th, may, party, night, i, am, cruella, deville, and, husband, is, bob, the, builder, it, was, great, seeing, people, we, hadn't, seen, for, ages, if, and, when, you, could, recognise, them, it, was, a, really, good, do, we, met, a, client, of, ours, and, she, is, very, anti, everything, re, fmd, i, feel, she, is, really, suffering, and, very, bitter, she, was, little, bo, peep, who, had, lost, her, sheep, and, didn't, know, where, to, find, them, but, mr, blair, can, she, preached, all, night, to, anyone, she, could, i, feel, sorry, for, her, as, people, were, avoiding, her, sad, sunday, 19th, may, recovered, week, beginning, monday, 20th, may, 02, monday, a, new, cattle, fertility, programme, has, now, become, available, to, vets, and, farmers, two, of, the, people, who, work, came, along, to, see, us, and, discuss, the, advantages, we, already, had, a, few, farmers, keen, in, having, the, program, installed, we, discussed, the, program, later, with, a, few, farmers, and, they, were, very, keen, recognising, that, they, are, going, to, need, a, program, like, this, that, can, help, them, keep, a, tighter, control, on, their, herds, fertility, and, health, which, would, enable, them, to, remain, in, business, as, most, of, them, are, realising, they, are, now, running, a, company, not, a, family, concern, so, it’s, quite, exciting, another, step, forward, hopefully, tuesday, 21st, may, very, busy, today, everyone, stretched, it, will, make, life, so, much, easier, when, our, new, vet, anne, starts, next, week, i, got, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, and, also, managed, to, catch, up, on, some, others, bits, that, needed, done, even, got, all, the, soa, defra, paperwork, sorted, miracle, wednesday, 22nd, may, went, to, see, two, of, our, farmers, today, to, discuss, the, interherd, cattle, health, and, fertility, computer, program, it, was, good, to, chat, a, listen, to, their, plans, hopes, and, dreams, and, their, concerns, a, lot, of, farmers, are, still, very, unsure, of, the, future, and, quite, honestly, are, keeping, their, options, open, definitely, gave, me, some, pause, for, thought, and, a, few, concerns, thursday, 23rd, may, quiet, day, today, mr, w, one, of, our, farmers, came, today, and, we, had, a, chat, he, was, also, worried, about, the, future, i, hope, some, good, positive, news, comes, soon, friday, 24th, may, friend, is, having, a, few, weeks, off, as, our, new, vet, is, starting, on, monday, she, came, to, us, 6, months, 10, years, ago, and, she, has, helped, us, out, ever, since, and, so, during, fmd, she, offered, to, help, it, was, great, to, have, her, and, she, worked, all, hours, as, there, was, only, her, and, husband, for, 5, months, so, she, is, having, some, well, deserved, time, off, and, will, come, back, part, time, when, we, need, her, i'll, miss, her, but, she, says, she's, a, lot, of, housework, to, catch, up, on, saturday, 25th, and, sunday, 26th, may, my, sister, and, niece, came, to, stay, for, the, weekend, we, had, a, nice, time, just, pottering, here, and, there, week, beginning, monday, 27h, may, monday, new, vet, started, she, was, very, nervous, but, very, keen, she, had, spent, 10, months, working, for, defra, and, was, relieved, to, be, finished, with, it, she, had, mainly, been, involved, with, re, stocking, anyway, she, managed, very, well, and, hopefully, will, settle, well, tuesday, 28th, may, we, booked, a, holiday, today, our, 1st, holiday, for, about, 2.5, years, so, we, are, all, very, excited, we, are, going, on, a, barge, near, chester, so, hopefully, the, weather, will, be, good, it, will, be, nice, to, go, away, together, especially, after, last, year, i, think, we, all, need, it, you, do, get, used, to, staying, at, home, but, with, all, the, trouble, and, upset, last, year, it, will, be, nice, can't, wait, wednesday, 29th, may, had, a, lovely, day, ended, up, doing, lots, of, visiting, around, the, farms, dropping, drugs, off, and, seeing, another, farm, regarding, the, interherd, program, i, went, to, a, large, dairy, farm, and, they, are, a, young, couple, who, are, keen, and, enthusiastic, about, their, future, so, it, was, very, positive, and, encouraging, it, does, give, you, a, lift, and, helps, put, things, back, on, track, thursday, 30th, may, we, had, a, farmers, coffee, morning, not, planned, they, appeared, at, once, so, it, was, quite, nice, its, quite, interesting, when, you, hear, them, together, there, were, two, elderly, and, one, younger, one, and, their, opinions, hopes, thoughts, and, experiences, were, very, different, friday, 31st, may, another, mega, paperwork, day, exciting, played, in, the, garden, this, afternoon, and, walked, the, dog, saturday, 1st, and, sunday, 2nd, june, had, a, weekend, off, together, we, went, visiting, and, walking, very, nice, week, beginning, 3rd, june, monday, my, sister, and, her, daughter, came, to, visit, we, went, into, carlisle, but, nothing, very, exciting, the, weather, was, very, disappointing, for, all, the, organised, events, we, went, to, a, couple, and, got, wet, daughter, and, niece, got, some, jubilee, mugs, at, one, of, them, wednesday, i, ended, up, helping, our, new, vet, and, new, nurse, to, operate, so, that, was, good, i, don’t, get, much, chance, to, help, in, the, op, room, these, days, so, i, enjoyed, it, thoroughly, new, vet, is, doing, very, well, she’s, only, been, qualified, 3, years, and, up, to, now, has, not, done, much, small, animal, so, i, was, worried, she, would, not, like, it, but, she, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, thoroughly, and, has, settled, in, really, well, it, seems, like, she, has, been, here, for, ages, thursday, we, had, our, first, work, experience, from, a, school, for, 2, years, she, was, very, interested, in, the, fmd, and, said, they, had, done, a, bit, on, it, at, school, so, i, went, through, a, few, of, the, details, and, we, discussed, the, human, side, which, she, hadn’t, really, been, discussed, at, school, to, finish, i, had, 4, soa, to, do, as, well, such, joy, friday, i, foolishly, decided, to, decorate, the, surgery, and, op, room, you, know, when, you, think, you, have, a, good, idea, then, realise, you, have, bitten, off, more, than, you, can, chew, well, by, sunday, night, i, was, dead, i, got, it, all, done, and, it, did, look, better, as, nothing, had, been, done, last, year, but, boy, was, i, tired, week, beginning, 10th, june, monday, our, new, interherd, disc, arrived, so, i, went, and, installed, it, on, two, farms, they, were, very, keen, to, get, started, so, it's, quite, exciting, they, both, have, young, sons, who, are, keen, to, farm, also, so, that, helps, sometimes, i, fee, if, we, can, just, get, through, this, and, then, other, times, i, feel, what's, the, point, but, down, the, middle, of, the, road, we, have, to, try, and, make, it, work, and, fight, to, make, it, work, tuesday, 11th, june, quite, busy, today, but, daughter, had, her, brace, taken, off, today, so, we, had, two, visits, to, the, hospital, she, looks, different, without, her, brace, now, wednesday, 12th, june, had, a, day, off, today, peaceful, thursday, 13th, june, nmr, came, to, see, us, to, discuss, how, they, can, work, with, us, the, interherd, and, the, farmer, it, was, interesting, and, competitively, priced, so, that, is, now, another, service, we, can, offer, to, our, farmers, which, can, only, help, long, term, i, went, to, see, another, farmer, to, enter, the, interherd, there, is, a, lot, of, interest, we, are, trying, to, maintain, a, close, contact, with, our, farmers, to, enable, us, to, meet, their, needs, as, things, progress, in, the, near, future, there, are, going, to, be, a, lot, of, changes, regarding, the, dispensing, of, drugs, which, could, alter, the, way, we, work, this, should, be, finalised, by, january, 2003, but, until, then, we, are, not, sure, just, how, they, will, affect, us, friday, 14th, saturday, 15th, and, sunday, 16th, june, husband, birthday, so, i, have, organised, a, surprise, weekend, away, for, him, we, had, a, wonderful, time, and, thankfully, the, weather, was, good, week, beginning, 17th, june, monday, very, quiet, almost, like, last, year, but, thankfully, not, for, the, same, reason, they, are, all, busy, silaging, normality, is, returning, but, they, are, still, finding, it, difficult, with, new, herds, not, really, knowing, their, new, cows, yet, or, how, they, react, one, farmer, said, it, was, like, a, new, car, you, have, to, drive, it, a, good, few, miles, before, you, are, at, ease, and, the, seat, is, comfy, well, that’s, one, way, of, putting, it, tuesday, i, went, to, see, mr, j, to, discuss, our, new, interherd, program, a, computer, program, that, they, can, keep, records, of, all, their, herds, records, and, we, can, do, analysis, on, them, it’s, quite, exciting, and, interesting, and, shows, farming, is, heading, to, the, computer, age, and, the, farmers, are, learning, another, new, skill, not, sure, they, are, all, comfy, with, after, i, had, shown, mr, j, the, program, and, how, to, use, it, he, was, keen, but, said, that, for, now, he, would, maybe, go, and, cut, down, a, few, thistles, weds, thursday, very, quiet, did, some, catching, up, on, paperwork, then, went, for, a, walk, and, played, outside, in, the, garden, friday, query, fmd, in, pigs, the, effect, it, had, was, very, strange, part, was, horror, worry, and, another, strange, one, was, of, expecting, it, although, you, did, get, on, with, everything, and, it’s, all, sorting, out, and, normality, is, returning, it’s, as, if, you, are, waiting, for, it, to, appear, again, i, went, back, to, watching, the, news, listening, to, the, radio, waiting, fingers, crossed, sad, day, sat, sun, quiet, weekend, husband, was, working, no, results, on, the, pigs, yet, the, bush, telegraph, is, working, again, we, have, had, quite, a, number, of, worried, farmers, on, the, phone, but, no, results, as, yet, week, beginning, 24th, june, monday, breakthrough, no, fmd, talk, at, all, today, i, suddenly, realised, in, the, evening, all, is, getting, back, to, normal, and, everyone, is, coming, to, terms, with, the, paperwork, farming, does, what, it, always, has, recently, fallen, from, one, disaster, to, another, but, they, are, very, proud, of, their, trade, but, do, now, feel, let, down, by, both, the, government, and, the, public, who, for, whatever, reason, don’t, seem, to, have, the, same, respect, for, farmers, as, they, used, to, but, this, just, may, be, due, to, how, we, all, are, and, work, these, days, tuesday, pigs, given, the, all, clear, everyone, breathes, a, sigh, of, relief, it, has, a, very, chilling, effect, but, again, shows, we, are, still, clear, of, the, disease, for, now, weds, over, the, last, few, days, we, have, had, 6, dairy, herds, with, very, strange, mastitis, husband, has, been, out, to, visit, them, with, a, vet, from, vla, penrith, but, they, as, yet, have, not, established, a, cause, samples, show, nothing, and, usual, treatments, don’t, work, so, it, is, a, case, of, new, herds, new, problems, thursday, day, off, and, friday, sat, sun, had, my, niece, we, had, a, lovely, time, but, very, exhausting, week, beginning, 1st, july, monday, we, have, invested, the, new, interherd, computer, programme, mon, thurs, this, week, i, have, been, out, and, about, visiting, farmers, loading, and, explaining, the, new, programme, some, of, which, i, haven't, been, too, far, over, a, year, it's, good, to, see, them, and, chat, fmd, of, course, is, always, still, at, the, top, of, the, list, followed, by, the, milk, price, and, all, the, regulations, it's, so, amazing, and, sorrowful, to, see, how, deep, the, emotions, run, the, stories, and, feelings, they, have, are, still, very, strong, but, all, are, very, emotional, they, are, very, resilient, but, do, still, have, these, deep, feelings, you, wonder, how, the, effects, will, come, out, but, it, will, take, time, friday, i, did, a, soa, for, the, first, time, in, ages, i, had, to, look, back, as, to, how, to, fill, it, in, they, are, going, to, review, these, shortly, so, watch, this, space, all, the, regulations, are, up, for, review, in, about, november, so, we, will, see, what, they, come, up, with, sunday, we, have, a, vet, student, alison, for, two, weeks, staying, with, us, she, came, to, northumberland, during, fmd, so, was, interested, to, know, what, had, happened, and, where, everything, was, at, the, more, you, go, through, it, the, easier, it, becomes, she, had, been, involved, in, the, culling, and, had, found, it, very, hard, she, did, it, for, 1, month, and, was, glad, to, leave, week, beginning, 8th, july, monday, tuesday, i, went, milk, recording, the, farm, i, go, to, did, not, get, fmd, and, they, were, saying, how, hard, it, had, been, for, them, and, to, some, extent, they, did, have, as, hard, a, time, as, people, with, fmd, just, in, different, ways, they, had, to, do, the, checking, for, longer, the, farmer, said, he, used, to, dread, going, into, the, sheds, in, a, morning, as, he, dreaded, what, he, might, find, also, washing, the, milk, takers, not, being, able, to, visit, friends, and, family, all, the, regulations, re, moving, stock, just, the, not, knowing, they, said, it, put, quite, a, strain, on, them, all, one, of, the, ways, they, coped, was, they, built, a, tennis, court, and, played, a, lot, of, other, games, and, as, a, family, this, brought, them, closer, weds, interherd, day, we, held, a, meeting, today, to, invite, all, the, farmers, interested, in, using, the, programme, the, people, who, wrote, the, programme, came, along, to, talk, to, the, farmers, it, was, very, good, and, the, farmers, seemed, to, enjoy, themselves, they, have, all, found, they, are, needing, this, sort, of, programme, as, with, the, new, herds, they, are, unsure, of, how, their, fertilities, are, thurs, fri, visited, mr, w, and, mr, j, re, interherd, got, a, proper, cup, of, coffee, and, proper, milk, that's, what, i, missed, about, last, year, and, one, of, the, reasons, i, go, to, visit, them, sat, sun, very, busy, small, animal, operated, and, nursed, all, week, end, i, was, shattered, poor, me, week, beginning, 15th, july, monday, visited, farmer, re, interherd, programme, they, are, very, positive, about, the, future, and, have, a, son, who, is, very, keen, i, can, see, a, difference, in, their, attitude, over, the, past, few, months, when, i, first, started, going, they, were, unsure, they, had, done, the, right, thing, and, had, seriously, debated, getting, any, stock, back, if, they, could, cope, with, the, changes, and, the, regulations, and, paperwork, but, as, he, said, he, just, loves, farming, not, that, he, doesn't, know, anything, else, he, just, loves, farming, and, now, they, have, progressed, and, working, together, within, the, family, they, have, a, good, system, and, appear, to, be, enjoying, themselves, the, farm, has, been, in, the, family, for, generations, so, financially, they, can, manage, i, hope, they, make, it, they, are, lovely, people, and, a, real, inspiration, the, report, on, fmd, and, the, recommendations, is, to, be, published, soon, but, from, what, we, have, heard, so, far, it, doesn't, say, anything, we, didn't, already, know, and, the, recommendations, are, a, little, sketchy, to, say, the, least, they, need, a, good, sensible, positive, protocol, for, any, future, outbreak, and, at, present, if, it, all, flared, up, again, tomorrow, it, would, be, the, same, mess, what, have, we, learnt, hopefully, time, will, tell, tuesday, sad, news, today, one, of, our, clients, who, didn't, get, fmd, has, decided, to, give, up, he, is, on, a, tenanted, farm, the, owners, are, not, keen, on, any, expansion, or, even, repairing, old, buildings, to, remain, competitive, he, sees, he, needs, more, cows, but, can't, build, any, more, sheds, so, in, his, words, he, has, decided, that, there, is, maybe, more, to, life, he, is, in, his, mid, forties, so, he, is, going, to, sell, up, and, try, something, new, very, brave, but, sad, i, think, this, will, not, be, the, first, of, our, clients, to, do, this, everyone, asks, about, the, future, and, at, the, moment, nothing, and, nobody, is, certain, can, the, smaller, farmers, keep, up, will, the, bigger, ones, get, bigger, what, new, regulations, and, paperwork, will, be, brought, in, only, time, will, tell, weds, husband, has, been, away, at, the, br, cattle, vet, ass, bcva, committee, meeting, he, has, been, on, the, committee, for, about, 18, months, now, he, enjoys, it, and, it, is, another, feather, in, his, cap, anyway, he, gave, a, talk, on, the, problems, post, fmd, and, on, the, problems, farmers, were, and, had, experienced, he, also, gave, a, talk, on, some, of, the, mastitis, cases, that, had, appeared, in, new, herds, we, have, had, some, very, strange, mastitis, cases, this, year, anyway, there, was, a, competition, for, the, best, talk, and, husband, won, i, was, very, proud, of, him, none, of, the, other, vets, there, had, ever, seen, anything, like, it, but, some, had, found, more, bad, mastitis, in, cows, this, year, so, whether, it’s, the, change, of, area, weather, or, housing, we, shall, see, thursday, i, had, a, visiting, day, today, good, fun, i, went, t, see, the, farmers, who, have, the, interherd, so, i, had, lots, of, coffee, with, proper, milk, yummy, it's, also, interesting, to, hear, all, the, different, stories, and, feelings, hopes, and, worries, there, are, so, many, most, are, ready, for, the, challenge, ahead, but, unfortunately, some, aren't, nobody, knows, how, or, when, things, will, change, but, over, the, next, couple, of, years, they, will, some, good, some, not, so, good, byee, i'm, off, on, my, hols, now, yippee, holiday, week, beginning, 22nd, july, week, beginning, monday, 29th, july, tuesday, back, to, work, the, staff, have, coped, really, well, no, falling, out, no, problems, it's, the, first, time, in, nearly, two, years, we, have, left, them, so, it, was, a, bit, worrying, but, they, are, a, great, bunch, we, are, very, lucky, i, feel, so, relaxed, and, it, was, great, fun, seeing, through, all, my, paperwork, not, i, had, a, bit, of, a, lazy, day, but, good, weds, poor, mr, g, is, having, a, terrible, time, with, defra, when, we, did, his, restocking, tt, test, he, had, a, reactor, so, the, cow, was, slaughtered, but, no, lesions, were, found, the, herd, had, to, be, tested, again, 60, days, later, and, another, reactor, was, found, and, slaughtered, anyway, he, was, due, another, test, in, 60, days, and, this, was, arranged, for, 9.00am, 9.00am, came, and, went, and, at, 10.00am, he, phoned, to, see, what, was, happening, they, had, forgotten, they, could, come, out, at, 1pm, no, good, the, last, two, times, they, had, tested, it, had, taken, 6, hours, to, test, the, cows, and, they, still, needed, milked, which, would, mean, a, very, late, finish, mr, graves, explained, this, and, was, told, not, to, complain, he, had, bought, the, cows, into, the, country, with, tb, and, he, would, have, to, do, it, when, they, said, they, know, how, to, get, people, on, their, side, don't, they, anyway, a, heated, discussion, had, pursued, and, eventually, sense, was, seen, the, test, was, rearranged, for, another, day, at, 9.00am, so, fingers, crossed, thursday, we, got, money, through, today, from, the, fmd, recovery, fund, it, has, been, very, useful, and, enabled, us, to, do, things, we, wouldn't, normally, be, able, to, do, we, had, our, vans, sign, written, we, got, a, laptop, computer, which, had, been, great, for, the, interherd, programme, we, got, pens, and, pads, to, give, out, husband, was, able, to, hold, meetings, with, our, farmers, pre, stocking, to, advise, them, what, to, look, for, etc, so, it, has, been, extremely, useful, it, was, nice, to, be, given, the, money, some, people, say, it, would, have, been, spent, elsewhere, but, it, helped, us, immensely, and, we, feel, we, have, spent, it, wisely, fri, had, a, paperwork, catch, up, day, today, it, has, been, quiet, recently, due, to, holidays, and, harvesting, but, thankfully, not, like, last, year, we, looked, back, again, and, today, last, year, we, had, no, calls, and, today, we, had, four, so, although, quiet, not, that, bad, week, beginning, monday, 5th, august, monday, very, quiet, tuesday, very, quiet, weds, very, quiet, thursday, daughter, got, her, first, job, fri, took, daughter, to, my, sisters, for, the, week, end, sat, quiet, week, end, sun, gardening, going, on, holiday, again, next, week, yippee, sorry, it’s, been, very, quiet, this, week, as, mentioned, before, this, is, usual, as, everyone, is, on, holiday, and, the, farmers, are, harvesting, i, have, caught, up, and, have, been, enjoying, a, few, days, just, poddling, going, out, with, daughter, shopping, food, it’s, nice, to, have, some, catch, up, time, on, thursday, daughter, got, a, job, her, first, proper, job, well, nearly, at, the, travel, inn, at, the, bottom, of, our, road, she, is, so, excited, and, already, planning, what, she, is, going, to, spend, her, hard, earned, cash, on, on, friday, i, took, daughter, to, my, sisters, in, lancashire, for, the, week, end, i, came, back, on, friday, night, and, we, decided, to, meet, up, at, husband, s, mum, and, dad’s, caravan, near, whitby, on, monday, for, a, week, so, another, holiday, i, don’t, know, you, have, one, and, then, another, anyway, it, should, be, good, fun, holiday, week, beginning, monday, 12thth, august, week, beginning, monday, 19thth, august, monday, visited, mr, a, today, to, load, interherd, onto, his, computer, he, has, definitely, decided, to, sell, up, he, is, hoping, by, early, next, year, this, has, all, been, very, sudden, but, his, son, is, no, longer, interested, and, as, mr, a, said, who, can, blame, him, with, all, the, new, regulations, and, paperwork, a, lot, are, finding, it, hard, tuesday, we, had, an, environment, agency, visit, this, morning, to, check, how, and, where, we, dispose, of, our, waste, in, practice, thankfully, we, are, doing, everything, properly, but, this, visit, took, two, and, a, half, hours, and, lots, of, form, filling, in, it, is, they, that, check, these, things, but, the, extent, in, questionable, mr, g, called, in, the, afternoon, he, is, having, problems, with, his, cows, they, keep, going, off, colour, we, have, so, many, new, herds, that, started, of, doing, well, happy, and, settling, in, fine, then, about, 3, 4, months, after, they, arrived, they, start, being, ill, have, mastitis, off, colour, not, eating, not, milking, properly, a, wide, variety, it’s, very, strange, the, vets, don’t, really, know, what’s, happening, we, have, a, few, on, regular, blood, sampling, trying, to, find, any, changes, weds, me, and, husband, went, to, the, accountant, to, see, just, how, bad, financially, we, really, had, done, last, year, and, oh, what, a, surprise, it, was, bad, in, fact, we, nearly, qualified, for, children’s, tax, relief, the, main, thing, is, we, survived, in, a, fashion, hopefully, it, will, be, better, next, year, thursday, i, visited, two, farmers, today, on, the, interherd, they, are, finding, it, brilliant, they, have, both, recently, had, farm, assurance, visits, and, interherd, had, helped, them, enormously, and, helped, them, reach, the, standards, they, both, appreciate, how, much, easier, it, is, for, them, and, less, paperwork, heaven, it’s, so, good, to, find, something, to, help, them, fri, i, have, been, phoning, our, main, drug, company’s, reps, inviting, them, to, our, open, evening, all, very, keen, i, think, they, just, enjoy, the, crack, week, beginning, monday, 26th, august, very, quiet, this, week, on, both, large, and, small, animal, it, must, be, the, last, holiday, rush, before, going, back, to, school, we, managed, to, do, some, catching, up, and, decided, a, four, day, week, would, be, nice, i, did, quite, a, bit, of, playing, on, interherd, so, that, when, i, visited, farmers, about, it, i, knew, what, they, want, to, see, and, where, to, find, it, most, of, them, are, interested, in, the, medicines, book, as, this, keeps, excellent, stock, records, from, when, the, drug, product, is, born, where, it, has, gone, and, batch, numbers, and, expiry, dates, these, are, all, the, information, they, need, to, produce, when, they, get, inspected, and, doing, it, manually, can, be, very, time, consuming, week, beginning, 2nd, september, monday, 2nd, september, irs, 9.30, garst, milk, rec, tuesday, garst, milk, rec, dog, course, weds, daughter, back, to, school, exporting, is, back, thursday, exporting, fri, change, date, of, open, evening, gb, way, now, 15, 10, 02, exporting, sat, off, sister, and, niece, sun, off, monday, every, 2, years, we, are, checked, by, our, radiographer, advisor, to, ensure, everything, is, well, and, we, are, doing, everything, right, they, check, the, x, ray, machine, our, records, and, our, monitoring, records, we, passed, in, the, afternoon, i, went, milk, recording, it, was, very, warm, and, very, flyie, but, good, fun, they, are, thinking, of, getting, a, new, parlour, twice, as, big, as, mr, g, feels, in, the, future, milk, will, have, to, be, produced, by, quantity, not, quality, but, it, is, difficult, and, expensive, decision, to, make, for, him, we, shall, see, tue, early, morning, milk, recording, this, morning, but, i, got, a, lovely, breakfast, with, proper, milk, i, got, to, check, the, large, animal, when, i, got, back, we, also, started, our, new, puppy, training, course, in, the, evening, that, went, very, well, it, is, a, more, 1, to, 1, basis, our, nurse, runs, it, i, go, along, and, help, with, moral, support, it, was, good, fun, but, i, had, a, very, long, day, and, went, to, bed, when, i, got, back, weds, daughter, went, back, to, school, today, i’ll, miss, her, following, me, round, helping, out, and, her, mum, can, you, take, me, we, may, have, some, exporting, of, sheep, on, friday, there, is, a, pedigree, texel, sheep, sale, at, h, h, borderway, it, is, the, first, exporting, we, have, done, in, about, 20, months, as, you, can, guess, the, paper, work, has, tripled, there, has, been, numerous, phone, calls, to, ad, from, defra, trying, to, make, sense, of, it, but, i, must, say, people, up, here, are, not, good, at, clarifying, what, they, have, written, now, there’s, a, surprise, thursday, i, have, spent, the, whole, day, either, reading, new, expert, regulations, or, running, backwards, and, forwards, for, new, paperwork, what, we, have, to, complete, and, what, they, should, bring, well, it, could, be, fun, friday, well, full, really, isn’t, the, word, i, would, use, we, needed, more, paperwork, they, needed, more, paperwork, it, took, most, of, the, day, and, we, only, had, 3, sheep, to, send, draining, the, one, good, thing, was, seeing, everyone, at, the, auction, some, new, faces, and, some, have, gone, week, beginning, 9th, september, monday, t's, 7th, birthday, we, have, another, vet, student, studying, at, the, moment, for, 2, weeks, we, have, had, five, this, year, so, far, and, another, before, christmas, but, she, won't, stay, in, the, house, as, she, is, from, carlisle, it, is, nice, to, have, them, and, it, makes, us, behave, but, i, won't, have, as, many, next, year, they, have, all, been, interested, in, the, fmd, and, some, had, a, chance, to, help, out, which, was, an, eye, opener, for, them, i, spoke, to, student, about, it, all, how, it, affected, everyone, what, happened, and, what, didn't, now, talking, about, almost, a, year, from, the, last, case, i, don't, find, it, as, hard, and, i, think, i, can, hide, how, emotional, it, was, but, at, the, time, i, wasn't, i, was, more, angry, i, feel, now, fmd, or, the, aftermath, has, sadly, become, everyday, life, i, don't, rush, for, news, on, it, or, yearn, information, i, think, because, directly, or, indirectly, we, live, with, it, everyday, it, all, has, really, become, part, of, our, lives, it, is, very, difficult, to, put, into, words, or, explain, i, also, went, to, visit, one, of, my, interherd, farmers, in, lancaster, they, are, very, pleased, with, it, and, are, coping, well, mrs, m, was, crushed, by, the, pet, cow, a, month, ago, and, was, very, lucky, she, had, two, broken, legs, cuts, and, bruises, needless, to, say, the, cow, has, gone, to, greener, pastures, they, are, very, resilient, and, are, planning, for, the, future, and, it, is, nice, to, be, a, part, of, their, planning, i, also, get, proper, milky, coffee, see, so, easy, pleased, milk, recorded, tonight, at, mr, g's, so, early, morning, tomorrow, i'm, still, trying, to, persuade, them, into, interherd, so, finger, crossed, tuesday, early, morning, milk, recording, failed, on, the, interherd, due, to, a, cow, breaking, a, leg, i, have, never, actually, experienced, it, happening, before, i, generally, hear, farmers, needing, a, slaughter, cert, or, a, cow, put, down, to, see, it, and, the, family's, reaction, i, was, humbled, i, think, is, the, word, it, was, an, accident, that, can, happen, but, the, look, on, their, faces, was, such, deep, sorrow, the, father, even, places, his, head, in, his, hands, at, breakfast, we, all, talked, about, it, she, was, only, a, heifer, getting, ready, to, be, served, for, the, let, time, she, was, a, difficult, birth, they, had, all, helped, well, bred, and, she, was, jet, black, with, a, huge, white, spot, on, her, side, so, no, prizes, for, guessing, the, name, but, as, the, farmer, said, you, can't, look, after, them, feed, them, care, for, them, day, in, day, out, without, caring, about, them, or, why, would, you, do, it, in, the, afternoon, i, attended, a, course, on, management, employment, law, customer, service, at, barnard, castle, it, went, on, till, 9, pm, with, dinner, after, so, i, decided, to, stay, over, very, spoilt, good, course, excellent, food, lovely, hotel, wednesday, came, back, from, my, course, leisurely, and, stopped, at, penrith, for, a, bit, of, shopping, very, pleasant, i'm, not, a, good, shopper, but, it, was, nice, i, had, to, get, back, for, 11, am, as, we, were, having, a, new, credit, card, machine, fitted, he, duly, arrived, well, what, an, obnoxious, man, he, was, moaning, because, we, had, a, switchboard, he, had, to, dial, 9, this, was, wrong, that, was, wrong, and, then, was, he, not, going, to, get, offered, a, coffee, to, which, he, was, told, not, without, the, special, word, he, was, a, bit, aghast, and, said, please, i, swear, if, i, had, not, just, come, from, a, course, explaining, customer, service, i, would, have, murdered, him, god, bless, courses, and, of, course, credit, card, machine, men, in, the, afternoon, i, was, visited, by, the, rspca, advertising, company, did, we, want, an, advert, in, their, leaflet, anyway, it, was, 640, for, quarter, of, a, page, for, 2, years, so, i, said, we, couldn't, afford, it, it, suddenly, dropped, to, 410, i, was, a, little, suspect, so, i, got, receptionist, to, quietly, check, if, the, company, were, connected, to, the, rspca, anyway, while, i, was, waiting, i, said, it, was, still, a, little, bit, more, than, we, could, afford, what, with, fmd, see, it, is, useful, and, true, he, then, said, he, could, do, it, for, 210, by, which, time, she, had, confirmed, they, were, with, the, rspca, so, i, said, yes, thank, you, bargain, or, rip, off, thursday, i, tried, to, get, my, head, round, isolation, units, and, tried, to, explain, to, a, farmer, about, them, i, think, we, got, there, eventually, when, husband, got, back, i, got, him, to, explain, in, simple, english, and, it, all, made, a, lot, more, sense, they, will, be, handy, for, people, selling, and, buying, stock, but, have, as, always, the, guidelines, must, have, been, written, by, someone, who, has, never, seen, a, farm, or, fields, friday, caught, up, on, paperwork, and, trolleyed, about, busy, doing, not, a, lot, i, think, the, term, is, anyway, it, was, good, week, beginning, 16th, september, this, week, has, been, appraisal, week, for, the, staff, we, didn't, do, any, last, year, so, i, thought, we, had, better, get, back, into, the, swing, of, things, i, quite, enjoy, the, appraisals, it's, a, great, opportunity, to, have, a, real, good, sort, out, get, new, ideas, and, try, and, recognise, any, potential, problems, we, started, doing, appraisals, at, bout, 4, years, ago, and, to, start, off, with, everyone, was, petrified, and, worried, but, it, was, nice, to, see, them, actually, excited, and, enjoyed, it, it, is, quite, time, consuming, but, very, worthwhile, so, not, much, out, and, about, this, week, week, beginning, 23rd, september, monday, another, suspect, case, the, main, difference, about, this, was, as, with, other, ones, i, felt, cold, sick, scared, this, one, was, better, i, felt, it, was, not, going, to, be, positive, whether, it's, a, case, of, there, have, been, a, few, now, not, positive, and, this, is, just, another, one, or, confident, that, it, no, way, could, be, positive, i, definitely, wasn't, as, worried, i, don't, know, if, that, is, being, blasé, can't, spell, sorry, but, definitely, different, tuesday, just, nicely, busy, today, just, enough, to, keep, everyone, busy, husband, and, other, vet, are, away, this, week, so, that, just, leaves, new, vet, and, other, vet, so, it, was, a, little, worrying, if, it, got, busy, it, was, the, last, of, our, dog, training, courses, tonight, they, all, passed, their, tests, well, and, were, very, pleased, with, the, progress, they, had, made, it, was, the, first, 4, week, course, we, had, run, and, feedback, was, very, positive, our, head, nurse, had, put, in, an, awful, lot, of, work, fir, it, so, i, was, very, pleased, for, her, as, well, the, next, one, is, planned, for, november, weds, experts, are, going, to, start, again, at, h, h, tomorrow, and, friday, it, will, be, the, first, ones, we, have, done, for, about, 18, months, surprisingly, the, paperwork, for, our, side, has, not, changed, much, but, the, irish, paperwork, is, horrendous, anyway, after, several, phone, calls, to, derfa, and, dard, and, various, farmers, who, are, wishing, to, sell, at, the, sale, i, think, we, have, it, sorted, we, will, see, tomorrow, thursday, and, friday, i've, put, these, into, one, as, that, is, how, it, felt, after, being, so, confident, that, we, had, everything, in, place, to, be, able, to, export, the, sheep, first, thing, thursday, morning, dard, like, irish, defra, changed, the, regulations, and, paperwork, such, joy, as, you, can, imagine, this, sent, everyone, in, a, state, of, frenzy, and, another, buzby, full, of, phone, calls, we, didn't, have, the, paperwork, sorted, when, people, had, bought, sheep, and, were, wanting, to, leave, now, some, tempers, are, reaching, fever, pitch, well, we, did, manage, to, export, them, away, on, thursday, night, 3, hours, late, so, they, had, to, book, different, ferries, all, done, and, dusted, by, friday, we, were, busy, congratulating, ourselves, on, achieving, the, impossible, and, how, we, all, had, worked, hard, to, accomplish, it, and, now, had, several, more, names, on, our, christmas, card, list, yes, you, guessed, we, had, a, phone, call, from, well, let, me, say, one, not, happy, chappy, after, having, no, sleep, catching, a, late, ferry, waiting, for, the, paperwork, to, arrive, at, larne, port, all, the, sheep, were, impounded, dard, had, added, one, more, form, to, their, list, of, requirements, and, had, forgotten, to, send, them, through, or, mention, them, hours, of, phone, calls, and, faxing, later, i, am, very, pleased, to, say, that, the, sheep, were, released, and, free, to, go, week, beginning, 7th, october, monday, 7th, october, i, made, some, trial, arrangements, for, our, open, evening, next, tuesday, all’s, ready, now, they, are, a, good, night, out, and, we, all, enjoy, it, we, haven’t, had, one, for, a, few, years, so, it, should, be, good, tuesday, for, a, while, now, we’ve, been, wondering, if, the, practice, should, invest, in, a, house, for, an, assistant, we, have, had, a, response, to, the, advert, for, our, new, vet, so, we, thought, we, would, go, house, hunting, anyway, it, wasn’t, as, much, fun, as, i, first, thought, to, start, with, obviously, they, are, quite, a, price, and, it, really, isn’t, that, easy, so, we, looked, at, one, cardboard, box, for, 70,000, and, apparently, it, went, for, 82k, frightening, well, we, can, keep, on, looking, we, have, a, vet, coming, for, an, interview, on, saturday, so, fingers, crossed, i’m, off, tomorrow, and, away, at, bvna, congress, over, the, weekend, so, i’m, looking, forward, to, that, week, beginning, 14th, october, monday, 14th, october, we, had, a, really, good, time, at, the, bvna, british, veterinary, nurse, assistant, congress, we, did, loads, of, lectures, a, learned, a, few, new, things, got, loads, of, freebies, from, the, trade, stands, and, ordered, a, new, vaporiser, for, the, anaesthetic, machine, which, uses, less, isoflo, oxygen, we, also, had, a, good, halloween, ball, stayed, up, too, late, we, got, back, on, sunday, evening, after, 3, days, of, congress, and, i, was, just, settling, down, and, filling, in, husband, and, daughter, on, what, we, had, done, when, another, vet, came, in, wanting, a, hand, with, a, caesarean, on, a, dog, ah, well, nothing, like, getting, back, into, it, today, anyway, feeling, very, tired, we, had, to, start, getting, ready, for, open, evening, tomorrow, night, for, the, farmers, so, there, was, a, lot, of, sorting, out, and, tidying, up, to, do, as, we, open, the, house, up, as, well, we, haven’t, had, one, for, a, couple, of, years, so, it, was, quite, exciting, i, really, enjoy, them, it’s, great, to, have, the, farmers, round, it’s, mainly, a, nosh, and, natter, night, but, this, year, some, of, the, drug, companies, paid, for, it, they, have, their, stands, in, various, parts, of, the, house, and, surgery, and, normally, everyone, has, a, good, time, tuesday, open, evening, day, very, busy, tidying, up, and, moving, things, around, everyone, helped, it’s, good, the, staff, are, so, excited, about, it, as, well, they, have, all, mucked, in, and, as, usual, did, us, proud, the, evening, itself, was, brilliant, it, was, so, nice, to, see, them, all, enjoying, themselves, and, there, is, nothing, farmers, like, better, than, a, good, natter, food, and, beer, quite, a, few, said, they, had, missed, the, open, evening, last, year, due, to, fmd, as, far, as, pr, goes, definitely, worth, it, wednesday, just, clearing, up, and, sorting, out, all, the, staff, said, they, had, had, good, feedback, so, well, done, to, everyone, thursday, back, to, it, now, got, new, interherd, update, so, i, spent, quite, a, lot, of, the, day, seeing, what, new, buttons, it, had, it’s, very, clever, interherd, is, sold, by, nmr, now, and, they, are, helping, us, sell, it, to, the, farmers, whose, life, and, paperwork, hope, to, make, easier, the, man, in, charge, at, nmr, is, coming, to, see, us, next, week, to, explain, how, the, milk, recording, side, all, ties, in, between, nmr, and, interherd, friday, today, was, one, of, those, when, you, rush, round, all, day, but, you, feel, unsure, of, what, you, have, actually, done, very, busy, on, both, large, and, small, side, it’s, very, tiring, but, i, do, prefer, it, when, we’re, busy, week, beginning, 21st, october, monday, 21st, october, monday, to, wednesday, off, thursday, had, a, meeting, with, id, from, nmr, re, interherd, they, are, going, to, give, us, cheap, milk, recording, prices, to, help, promote, nmr, and, interherd, they, have, also, released, a, version, of, interherd, for, farmers, and, we, were, given, the, first, one, in, the, country, to, trial, and, see, what, they, thought, it, was, very, encouraging, as, nmr, in, the, past, years, have, gained, themselves, a, slightly, unpopular, feel, especially, in, cumbria, but, they, now, seem, to, see, this, and, are, trying, very, hard, and, are, committed, to, improving, it, they, did, a, survey, and, now, with, area, herd, size, etc, the, majority, of, dairy, herds, are, in, cumbria, even, post, fmd, so, fingers, crossed, friday, a, good, day, today, husband, was, away, at, a, bcva, council, meeting, br, cattle, vets, ass, and, normally, it, goes, mad, don’t, know, why, anyway, it, didn’t, today, everyone, was, busy, but, not, madly, the, large, animal, side, is, very, up, and, down, at, present, but, it, is, now, tt, and, blood, testing, season, there, are, quite, a, lot, of, restocked, herds, to, do, as, they, are, having, to, be, done, every, year, as, opposed, to, 4, yearly, we, also, have, to, test, everything, it, is, very, time, consuming, and, if, they, have, a, tt, test, then, it, is, a, two, day, job, so, for, both, the, farmer, and, us, it, is, two, days, of, the, week, when, you, can’t, do, anything, else, week, beginning, 28th, october, monday, 28th, october, we, have, been, asked, by, newton, rigg, college, if, we, would, be, interested, in, teaching, the, animal, care, courses, at, the, college, so, me, and, vicky, went, along, it, was, quite, interesting, and, we, thought, if, we, could, do, it, together, it, would, work, so, we, said, we, would, think, about, it, and, let, them, know, went, milk, recording, in, the, afternoon, i, do, enjoy, playing, and, the, crack, tuesday, milk, recorded, again, and, discussed, interherd, with, them, so, we, are, going, to, use, them, as, the, pilot, for, the, nmr, interherd, job, so, that, will, be, interesting, regarding, the, newton, rigg, offer, we, won’t, be, able, to, do, it, as, our, part, time, nurse, is, leaving, us, she, has, been, offered, a, place, at, dalston, vets, she, will, be, able, to, train, as, a, vet, nurse, there, as, we, don’t, do, that, in, our, practice, so, that, will, leave, us, short, staffed, it, is, sad, but, everything, happens, for, a, reason, so, we, are, now, vet, and, nurse, hunting, so, more, advertising, and, interviewing, weds, we, are, sponsoring, a, class, at, the, northern, expo, holstein, friesian, shows, we, have, a, stand, and, a, good, natter, i, took, some, photos, of, a, few, cows, and, some, freebies, it, was, a, good, night, barbara, came, with, me, and, she, presented, the, prize, for, our, class, the, standard, of, cattle, was, amazing, and, it, was, a, really, good, show, thursday, out, of, the, photos, i, took, for, the, northern, expo, i, decided, to, make, a, photo, album, so, i, went, round, a, few, other, farms, photographing, it, was, good, fun, and, nice, to, see, that, we, do, have, some, very, good, stock, friday, got, a, phone, call, today, from, my, sister, she, has, sold, her, house, in, lancaster, and, is, moving, up, near, us, so, that’s, very, exciting, otherwise, a, quiet, day, today, week, beginning, 4th, november, monday, 4th, november, i, went, to, show, mr, j, the, new, interherd, farmers, version, he, was, very, interested, and, thought, it, would, save, a, lot, of, paperwork, and, time, they, all, say, that, the, paperwork, since, fmd, has, increased, immensely, along, with, the, regulations, tuesday, we, have, decided, to, have, a, tv, in, the, waiting, room, to, advertise, products, services, staff, etc, the, man, from, channel, 6, came, and, took, information, so, it, should, arrive, next, week, so, it, will, be, interesting, to, see, how, it, works, weds, we, went, to, the, bank, today, to, see, the, financial, advisor, as, this, is, a, free, service, and, very, useful, we, have, decided, to, buy, a, house, for, my, sister, to, live, in, when, she, moves, up, and, it, will, be, an, investment, as, well, a, bit, of, security, just, in, case, as, last, year, we, discovered, just, how, quick, things, can, change, we, went, for, just, over, 3, months, with, not, a, lot, of, money, coming, in, and, still, wages, to, pay, so, we, are, now, house, hunting, week, beginning, 11th, november, monday, 11th, november, one, of, our, vets, has, recently, started, her, dbr, dip, in, bovine, reproduction, course, at, liverpool, as, part, of, her, studies, she, is, looking, at, the, cows, milk, quality, pre, and, post, calving, to, see, if, any, effects, are, relevant, to, their, overall, performance, and, milk, production, and, health, so, we, collect, milk, samples, from, certain, cows, twice, a, week, over, the, period, of, lactation, and, she, is, going, to, test, them, so, watch, this, space, we, have, been, very, lucky, with, another, vet, her, enthusiasm, is, boundless, and, she, has, become, a, very, important, member, of, our, team, i, have, persuaded, mr, j, of, b, farm, to, milk, record, with, us, so, that's, more, early, morning, jaunts, the, interherd, and, nmr, trial, is, nearly, ready, so, hopefully, by, middle, of, december, everything, should, be, set, up, and, running, hopefully, tuesday, two, farmers, are, milk, reading, today, so, i, had, a, nice, little, trolly, about, i, treated, myself, to, some, of, mr, r's, ice, cream, very, nice, well, you, have, to, support, them, their, new, shop, on, the, farm, is, doing, very, well, i, loaded, my, first, farmer, version, interherd, onto, mr, w's, computer, he, is, very, impressed, and, very, keen, and, thankfully, it, all, worked, well, wednesday, we, have, computer, bugs, not, good, so, i, have, spent, most, of, the, day, on, the, phone, talking, to, the, debugging, man, thursday, still, got, bugs, we've, had, to, run, a, bug, fixer, disc, through, all, seven, computers, it, takes, ages, pee'd, off, fed, up, going, back, to, pen, and, paper, friday, i, must, have, sounded, fed, up, as, the, lovely, little, man, came, to, fix, all, the, computers, he, had, to, use, 3, different, discs, due, to, all, the, different, bugs, had, a, meeting, to, discuss, the, nmr, milk, recording, and, we, have, quite, a, lot, of, farmers, interested, mainly, because, we, have, got, a, good, price, for, nmr, so, fingers, crossed, the, bugs, are, fixed, yipeee, week, beginning, 18th, november, monday, 18th, november, due, to, our, junior, nurse, leaving, i, have, been, interviewing, all, week, we, have, had, a, lot, of, enquiries, i, decided, to, invite, any, possibles, to, come, and, play, for, the, morning, to, see, what, they, thought, and, how, they, got, on, with, the, staff, there, is, one, that, has, potential, and, sounds, very, nice, but, she, can't, make, it, until, next, monday, there, was, one, that, wrote, a, really, good, letter, but, when, she, came, in, well, she, was, sweet, but, not, really, suitable, on, friday, nurse, left, we, had, a, little, party, i, hope, she, copes, okay, she, bought, me, a, lovely, cow, ornament, to, say, thank, you, it, was, lovely, week, beginning, 25th, november, monday, 25th, november, ellen, came, for, her, interview, very, good, she, is, keen, had, experience, happy, with, the, hours, so, she, is, coming, back, tomorrow, afternoon, for, a, play, we, all, went, out, for, our, vet, who, is, leaving, on, friday, to, be, a, chalet, maid, in, a, french, ski, resort, till, april, it, will, be, very, sad, to, see, her, leave, unfortunately, still, no, joy, on, the, new, vet, front, but, we, are, going, to, leave, it, till, the, new, year, and, try, then, other, vet, is, going, to, cover, but, unfortunately, it, means, husband, s, on, duty, more, it's, a, bit, reminiscent, of, fmd, but, we'll, manage, tuesday, wednesday, feeling, very, sorry, for, myself, got, a, bad, cold, i, got, sent, to, my, room, because, everyone, was, fed, up, of, me, sneezing, all, over, them, honestly, i, was, only, shanning, thursday, much, better, today, i, sorted, a, whole, load, of, interherd, data, out, and, had, a, good, play, with, it, heard, about, nestle's, cancelling, contracts, next, year, from, one, of, our, farmers, he, felt, a, little, unsure, quite, how, it, would, affect, them, and, that, they, were, being, dealt, another, kick, in, the, teeth, it's, quite, amazing, how, many, i, have, heard, questioning, why, they, went, back, into, farming, we, are, feeling, the, effects, we, didn't, seem, to, be, called, out, as, often, or, they, don't, want, the, cows, treated, as, its, extra, expense, at, the, end, of, fmd, they, said, over, the, next, couple, of, years, there, would, be, changes, in, the, way, farmers, and, how, many, farmers, worked, it's, frightening, to, see, it, actually, starting, to, happen, and, seeing, the, effects, on, our, business, everyone, agrees, the, whole, industry, has, changed, for, the, worst, and, is, not, the, same, and, there, is, no, pleasure, now, after, all, that, a, total, contrast, me, and, daughter, went, christmas, shopping, and, had, a, lovely, time, we, met, husband, after, surgery, and, went, for, a, pizza, lovely, night, friday, everyone's, talking, about, nestle's, now, and, quite, a, few, are, angry, some, aren't, surprised, and, others, just, seem, to, resign, themselves, to, it, we, had, a, lunch, party, for, leaving, vet, today, it, was, good, we, gave, her, pressies, although, she, has, only, been, here, a, few, months, she, will, be, greatly, missed, by, everyone, you, never, know, she, may, come, back, one, day, good, news, i, offered, ellen, the, nurse's, job, and, she's, accepted, i, think, she, will, do, very, well, week, beginning, 2nd, december, monday, 2nd, december, spent, all, morning, trolling, around, the, countryside, collecting, another, vet, s, milk, samples, for, her, dbr, it, was, a, lovely, morning, chatted, to, a, few, farmers, a, lot, were, still, talking, about, nestles, tuesday, had, a, meeting, to, clarify, the, start, of, the, nmr, milk, recording, gave, her, all, the, information, she, needed, to, set, up, the, herds, it's, great, to, be, able, to, offer, the, farmers, a, good, cheaper, deal, staff, xmas, party, it, was, good, everyone, seemed, to, have, a, good, time, wednesday, day, off, shopping, what, joy, thursday, had, an, interherd, disaster, today, i, couldn't, get, it, load, what, normally, takes, 15, minutes, instead, took, 2, and, a, half, hours, anyway, we, succeeded, eventually, they, have, just, bought, some, in, calf, heifers, so, he, was, keen, to, keep, up, to, date, records, and, information, we, only, have, one, more, farmer, to, restock, now, and, then, that's, everyone, it, will, probably, work, out, at, about, 15, drop, in, work, etc, while, waiting, for, interherd, to, load, they, were, telling, me, that, they, had, been, approached, asking, them, if, they, wanted, to, appeal, against, the, amount, of, money, they, had, received, for, the, cattle, they, said, they, wouldn't, as, they, felt, they, had, already, been, overpaid, not, all, farmers, are, money, grabbers, apparently, friday, daughter, starts, her, mock, exams, now, for, the, next, fortnight, i, have, been, waiting, for, the, moods, to, start, but, as, yet, all, is, quiet, long, may, it, last, she, is, very, calm, about, it, and, has, actually, been, revising, quite, hard, she, has, the, ability, all, she, has, to, do, is, concentrate, work, wise, i've, done, not, a, lot, it's, one, of, the, perks, i've, wandered, around, just, playing, doing, nice, jobs, quite, a, change, week, beginning, 9th, december, monday, 9th, december, daughter, s, 16th, birthday, scary, even, worse, she, can, learn, to, drive, next, year, never, mind, enjoy, the, safety, we, went, out, for, lunch, and, did, some, shopping, it, was, good, i, don’t, normally, like, shopping, but, we, both, enjoyed, it, came, back, to, mayhem, a, client, small, animal, had, been, in, complaining, about, his, bill, and, had, caused, a, stink, anyway, i, phoned, him, and, once, we, had, gone, through, everything, he, seemed, happy, hopefully, he, had, either, misunderstood, or, hadn’t, had, things, explained, to, him, although, difficult, it, is, better, people, say, something, rather, than, stewing, over, it, and, making, it, into, something, it’s, not, the, small, animal, does, seem, to, have, more, problems, that, way, than, the, large, animal, i, suppose, the, large, animal, is, also, a, business, but, it, doesn’t, stop, them, caring, i, don’t, think, they, could, do, what, they, do, and, work, the, hours, they, work, if, they, didn’t, care, sometimes, they, get, a, hard, press, but, i, think, it’s, the, few, that, get, the, publicity, unfortunately, i, like, it, when, farmers, phone, to, say, they, have, a, sick, cow, and, we, ask, what, it’s, doing, and, quite, often, the, reply, is, she’s, just, not, herself, need, you, say, anymore, tuesday, i’m, going, out, to, play, milk, recording, with, a, new, person, via, interherd, he, is, one, of, our, clients, he, is, quite, a, character, old, fashioned, and, yet, in, his, thirties, it, was, good, he, is, very, passionate, about, farming, and, its, survival, he, has, a, lot, of, ideas, he, wants, to, try, with, different, cows, he, has, just, bought, some, jerseys, hence, he, wants, to, record, to, see, if, there, are, benefits, we, milked, 60, cows, in, 2, hours, at, my, other, farm, we, milk, 190, in, that, time, it’s, good, to, see, both, ways, weds, early, morning, milk, recording, good, fun, a, lot, more, relaxed, than, my, other, farm, went, to, hairdressers, straight, after, smelling, of, cows, with, pooh, in, my, hair, it’s, a, good, job, i, know, her, well, and, she, didn’t, complain, too, much, the, rest, of, the, day, was, quite, pleasant, a, bit, of, paperwork, and, a, skive, sorry, can’t, spell, to, the, lab, thursday, friday, wow, i, think, we, had, our, christmas, rush, they, should, all, be, shopping, it, has, been, very, busy, i, do, prefer, it, although, a, sit, down, now, and, then, would, be, good, me, and, nurse, had, a, good, time, on, friday, afternoon, i, helped, her, bath, and, groom, a, dog, it, was, so, naughty, nicely, we, were, both, sweating, buckets, and, soaked, to, the, skin, by, the, end, but, we, had, a, good, laugh, week, beginning, 16th, december, monday, 16th, december, with, daughter, s, mock, exams, she, has, needed, runs, to, and, from, school, at, various, times, so, mum’s, taxi, has, been, on, overtime, she, has, been, very, calm, about, it, so, we, shall, see, thursday, was, eventful, as, i, now, have, an, expectant, nurse, and, vet, watch, where, you, sit, unfortunately, there, is, a, worry, for, both, of, them, our, nurse, evening, receptionist, is, worried, she, may, be, losing, hers, and, has, had, several, tests, and, is, obviously, worried, she, is, going, in, for, a, scan, on, tuesday, so, fingers, crossed, vet, is, also, pregnant, they, have, been, trying, for, a, while, but, has, something, with, a, long, name, wrong, with, her, which, causes, her, to, miscarriage, so, she, is, pleased, worried, excited, scared, and, only, 4, weeks, so, no, lambing, for, her, she, is, quite, happy, continuing, with, all, other, work, for, now, i, hope, everything, is, ok, with, them, both, it, can, be, difficult, working, with, animals, and, being, pregnant, but, as, long, as, they, are, careful, they, should, be, ok, week, beginning, 23rd, december, monday, 23rd, december, so, much, for, getting, quiet, for, christmas, we, have, had, our, busiest, time, for, a, few, years, which, is, good, we, are, going, to, try, advertising, in, the, new, year, for, a, new, vet, especially, now, another, vet, is, expecting, it, will, all, depend, how, she, does, we, may, even, need, two, as, even, when, another, vet, is, on, duty, now, husband, has, to, be, on, standby, in, case, of, any, lambings, we, have, a, couple, of, farmers, starting, anytime, milk, recording, tonight, as, well, but, we, now, do, it, with, nmr, well, not, literally, so, i, only, need, record, once, so, not, too, bad, and, worked, in, will, with, xmas, round, the, corner, and, no, mince, pies, made, yet, tuesday, nurse, phoned, they, are, being, positive, at, the, moment, her, hormone, levels, have, increased, and, she, has, not, bled, anymore, it, doesn’t, stop, them, worrying, though, surgery, was, busy, but, we, did, finish, by, 1.30pm, my, sister, and, niece, arrived, all, set, off, we, go, christmas, was, ace, very, relaxing, good, fun, loads, of, pressies, didn’t, have, time, to, eat, too, busy, playing, and, it, was, so, warm, friday, back, to, work, a, very, busy, day, lots, of, calls, and, surgery, appointments, even, some, operations, receptionist, was, off, so, i, was, in, charge, i, enjoyed, it, finding, out, what, everyone, got, for, christmas, week, beginning, 30th, december, monday, 30th, december, busy, day, only, me, and, receptionist, in, thought, it, would, be, quiet, wrong, never, mind, we, coped, tuesday, nurse, has, lost, her, baby, or, is, losing, it, they, can’t, see, anything, on, the, scan, just, an, empty, sac, so, she, is, going, for, a, don’t, know, what, they, call, it, but, you, can, take, some, tablets, that, clear, everything, away, she, is, obviously, so, upset, what, do, you, say, she’s, going, to, drop, her, other, two, off, while, she, goes, in, it, is, so, sad, thursday, 2nd, january, everybody’s, back, again, full, crew, no, one, knowing, what, day, it, is, i, could, get, used, to, the, split, weeks, but, at, the, moment, i, need, it, stuck, to, my, head, quite, busy, as, well, which, is, good, trying, to, arrange, tt, test, but, farmers, are, never, keen, on, them, you, have, to, threaten, them, with, defra, coming, to, do, it, that, works, friday, went, blood, sampling, sheep, for, scrapie, with, husband, all, day, it, was, a, beautiful, day, very, cold, but, we, had, fun, only, we, were, stood, next, to, a, stream, women, torture, cold, air, and, running, water, i, had, to, nip, back, to, the, van, for, various, things, by, the, time, we, finished, i, was, frozen, the, test, was, part, of, the, national, scrapie, plan, which, is, to, sample, sheep, for, scrapie, so, if, or, when, they, find, bse, in, sheep, these, ones, will, or, should, be, okay, as, there, is, a, plan, to, slaughter, the, national, herd, if, bse, is, found, but, as, the, farmer, said, they, have, already, had, human, g, pigs, for, years, as, the, indians, eat, sheep, brains, and, before, the, removal, of, bone, meal, and, very, dubious, scabby, sheep, and, they, have, not, had, a, problem, so, we, will, wait, and, see, week, beginning, 6th, january, 2003, mon, 6th, january, 2003, our, new, nurse, started, today, she, managed, very, well, and, didn’t, seem, too, confused, when, she, went, home, she, has, worked, in, kennels, before, she, is, very, keen, fingers, crossed, another, vet, is, doing, her, dbr, and, for, part, of, this, she, has, to, do, a, study, she, has, decided, to, look, at, progesterone, and, other, levels, in, cows, post, calving, for, 6, weeks, to, see, what, happens, so, we, collect, a, sample, from, each, new, calved, cow, and, split, it, into, 3, smaller, pots, and, freeze, awaiting, testing, in, holland, very, exciting, but, quite, boring, the, results, should, be, interesting, though, hopefully, tuesday, you, forget, all, the, explaining, you, have, to, do, when, somebody, new, starts, so, me, and, nurse, have, written, a, step, by, step, guide, to, c, well, sort, of, it’s, all, the, little, things, we, haven’t, had, a, new, nurse, for, a, while, so, hopefully, the, book, can, be, used, for, other, new, people, it, took, a, bit, of, doing, but, we, were, pleased, with, it, in, the, end, i, spoke, to, mr, g, re, having, interherd, at, the, farm, all, i, have, to, do, now, is, get, round, to, see, him, he, is, very, hard, to, pin, down, but, we’ll, try, weds, new, nurse, liked, her, new, book, she, is, doing, very, well, and, it’s, nice, for, us, too, i, always, find, it, quite, refreshing, when, someone, is, genuinely, enthusiastic, with, us, all, being, close, and, having, their, own, areas, it’s, good, to, show, someone, else, but, can, be, scary, when, you, see, just, how, much, they, all, do, thursday, milk, pot, day, again, today, the, good, thing, is, going, to, pick, up, the, samples, as, you, get, a, natter, so, monday, and, thursday, the, samples, are, collected, split, and, frozen, it’s, quite, time, consuming, and, i’ve, just, realised, i, didn’t, ask, another, vet, how, long, she, was, doing, it, for, friday, we, have, decided, to, try, and, get, the, accounts, up, to, date, to, see, how, things, are, going, bar, not, being, able, to, find, a, vet, so, it’s, one, of, those, jobs, you, always, mean, to, keep, on, top, of, but, never, quite, manage, because, it’s, not, much, fun, interruptions, queries, and, assistance, were, very, welcome, but, i, got, a, good, start, week, beginning, 13th, january, monday, 13th, jan, a, has, started, working, with, us, again, just, two, days, a, week, this, will, help, a, lot, and, help, take, the, pressure, off, for, surgery, times, etc, i, got, to, spend, the, day, helping, with, tt, testing, it, was, good, fun, and, it, stayed, fine, it, was, a, good, day, tuesday, i, had, a, milk, recording, day, today, 3, in, total, we, have, started, using, nmr, now, so, it, was, all, new, paperwork, etc, this, is, going, to, be, cheaper, for, the, farmers, and, works, with, the, interherd, programme, anyway, it, all, went, well, and, everybody’s, samples, got, away, weds, milk, recorded, again, at, one, of, the, three, farms, first, thing, everytime, i, go, he, has, a, new, plan, as, to, how, to, make, some, money, this, month, it, is, he, is, going, to, produce, a, new, breed, of, cow, a, jersey, x, mri, so, we, will, see, how, that, goes, thursday, and, friday, just, catching, up, on, paperwork, me, and, nurse, did, some, training, with, the, new, nurse, she, is, settling, in, really, well, and, very, keen, week, beginning, 20th, january, monday, 20th, january, weds, decorated, our, bedroom, it, looks, brill, it, was, in, desperate, need, of, it, i, like, decorating, it’s, good, and, messy, thursday, i, went, on, my, brucellosis, testing, training, course, at, the, vlc, it, was, good, fun, this, means, that, after, i, have, now, tested, 150, cattle, i, get, a, licence, which, will, enable, me, to, blood, test, this, in, turn, will, hopefully, free, up, a, vet, it, will, also, give, defra, a, bank, of, blood, tester, for, any, future, outbreak, crafty, they, used, to, charge, about, 800, for, this, course, miraculously, it’s, now, free, clever, friday, we, have, had, a, reply, to, our, advert, hoorah, well, actually, two, they, are, both, foreign, one, is, in, germany, and, the, other, s, africa, so, we, are, waiting, for, their, cvs, fingers, crossed, defra, have, now, changed, the, 20, day, standstill, to, 6, days, the, general, opinion, seemed, to, be, so, it, would, be, interesting, to, actually, find, out, if, and, how, well, all, the, regulations, are, actually, working, not, well, i, feel, would, be, the, answer, week, beginning, 27th, january, mon, weds, very, busy, i, seem, to, have, spent, a, lot, of, it, in, my, car, dropping, off, tooing, and, froing, which, was, nice, but, i, do, lose, touch, with, the, happenings, at, the, surgery, and, on, tuesday, things, had, obviously, got, fraught, so, i, sorted, those, out, and, smoothed, the, creases, we, are, very, lucky, to, have, such, dedicated, staff, due, to, vet, shortage, and, another, vet, s, pregnancy, it, does, add, extra, pressure, to, everyone, none, of, the, incidents, were, very, serious, and, easily, sorted, thursday, i, went, with, my, sister, to, take, niece, to, the, hospital, as, since, she, was, born, she, has, had, a, lump, on, the, side, of, her, head, above, her, eye, so, they, xrayed, it, that, was, fun, persuading, her, to, lie, still, i, stayed, overnight, and, came, back, friday, week, beginning, 3rd, february, monday, 3rd, feb, i, did, my, first, blood, sample, on, a, live, cow, today, as, it, was, an, abortion, enquiry, and, due, to, another, vet, s, pregnancy, she, is, not, doing, them, ad, i, need, the, practice, it, was, good, fun, and, i, hit, the, 2nd, time, so, i, was, very, pleased, only, another, 145, to, go, before, i, get, my, licence, tuesday, i, completed, the, accounts, today, to, go, to, the, accountants, it, was, great, fun, i, hope, they, come, up, with, good, news, but, the, future, is, worrying, a, backlash, from, the, farmers, not, being, confident, weds, i, can’t, remember, if, i, told, you, vet, was, expecting, anyway, she, went, for, her, first, scan, today, and, so, far, so, good, it, is, very, worrying, as, she, has, a, problem, where, she, produces, duff, eggs, and, miscarriages, she, wants, to, carry, on, as, normal, as, possible, for, now, but, no, sheep, or, abortions, etc, i, hop, it, works, this, time, as, this, is, her, 4th, attempt, thursday, and, friday, very, nice, everything, worked, well, no, mad, rushes, time, to, catch, up, we, discussed, reducing, some, of, the, farm, drugs, as, they, are, able, to, buy, the, over, the, internet, with, a, prescription, all, the, laws, and, rules, will, more, than, likely, be, changing, at, the, beginning, of, march, due, to, a, report, done, for, the, govt, regarding, drugs, and, animal, use, it, will, make, a, difference, to, how, we, operate, as, if, they, remove, the, vet, surgeon’s, right, to, prescribe, drugs, i.e, vets, can, only, write, prescriptions, and, not, dispense, drugs, it, could, alter, things, completely, one, way, or, another, if, farmers, require, the, service, they, are, going, to, have, to, pay, for, it, up, to, now, it, has, always, been, that, a, reasonable, mark, up, is, put, on, the, drugs, this, is, normally, 50, and, this, will, keep, professional, fees, down, if, vets, are, not, getting, the, money, made, on, drugs, and, therefore, has, to, put, his, fees, up, although, the, farmer, may, be, buying, his, drugs, cheaper, via, the, internet, will, he, actually, save, that, much, i, wonder, so, anyway, we, have, been, getting, more, and, more, pressure, from, a, number, of, our, farmers, to, compete, with, the, internet, prices, so, we, have, selected, a, few, products, and, it, they, pay, at, the, time, they, can, get, about, 20, off, the, price, so, watch, this, space, and, we, will, see, what, happens, week, beginning, 10th, february, monday, 10th, feb, the, week, to, sum, up, a, blur, with, both, sad, and, very, funny, memories, to, start, receptionist, was, on, holiday, and, it, always, seems, to, happen, as, soon, as, someone, is, off, we, get, very, very, busy, when, everyone, is, in, it, ticks, along, nicely, mostly, i, do, enjoy, it, when, it’s, busy, but, we, worked, 3, 13, hour, days, not, food, but, everyone, worked, really, hard, they, are, excellent, staff, on, a, sad, note, vet, went, for, her, 11, week, scan, on, tuesday, and, the, baby, had, died, she, was, distraught, she, has, a, condition, that, causes, this, and, this, was, her, 4th, miscarriage, it’s, so, sad, i, called, to, see, her, and, she, just, hugged, me, and, cried, what, do, you, say, she, had, to, have, some, tablets, to, clear, away, the, placenta, etc, she, was, gutted, as, this, is, the, longest, she, had, ever, been, pregnant, and, she, thought, she’s, cracked, it, it’s, just, so, sad, my, funny, tale, for, the, week, on, a, completely, different, note, but, helped, immensely, was, other, vet, on, thursday, we, were, all, very, very, busy, and, a, farmer, called, in, i, was, very, behind, they, still, had, ops, to, do, and, this, farmer, settled, herself, down, for, a, big, chat, normally, if, i, say, i, have, a, lot, on, she, departs, but, no, not, today, it, was, obviously, my, turn, vet, came, over, from, the, op, room, and, i, know, it, was, naughty, but, i, wrote, on, a, card, can, i, have, some, help, i.e, to, free, myself, well, instead, of, reading, the, note, quietly, oh, no, she, read, it, out, at, the, top, of, her, voice, and, added, what, do, you, need, help, for, after, i, had, crawled, out, of, the, hole, that, had, opened, up, in, the, earth, to, swallow, me, i, pointed, to, the, message, book, to, try, and, hide, my, predicament, while, she, said, again, loudly, so, what, do, you, want, help, for, well, i, gave, up, and, decided, to, just, fall, into, the, hole, got, rid, of, vet, back, to, the, op, room, and, continued, alone, with, my, predicament, after, the, farmer, had, gone, who, thankfully, seemed, oblivious, to, what, had, happened, i, went, in, search, of, vet, to, kill, her, anyway, it, cheered, us, all, up, they, do, say, laughter, is, the, best, medicine, but, i, can, think, of, better, ways, week, beginning, 17th, february, monday, 17th, feb, vet, who, lost, baby, came, back, to, work, she, is, very, upset, and, weepy, everyone, has, been, lovely, with, her, hopefully, it, is, just, time, and, tlc, we, are, very, busy, again, and, have, had, an, enquiry, from, a, farmer, who, is, thinking, of, changing, vets, which, is, really, good, news, that, is, three, new, farmers, in, total, now, if, only, we, had, enough, vets, four, practices, around, carlisle, have, advertised, recently, and, none, of, the, positions, have, been, filled, it’s, quite, worrying, tuesday, i, took, vet, who, lost, baby, home, again, today, she, is, not, well, and, in, a, lot, of, pain, so, she’s, gone, back, to, bed, i, hope, she’s, feeling, better, soon, usual, day, otherwise, weds, vet, is, a, lot, better, today, apparently, they, think, it, may, be, the, cocodamol, she, was, taking, she, was, a, lot, happier, a, little, drained, but, ok, mr, w, came, in, today, his, cows, are, arriving, on, friday, hopefully, this, will, be, our, last, farm, to, restock, he, has, had, a, lot, of, alterations, done, to, the, farm, and, a, new, parlour, so, it’s, quite, exciting, thursday, we, did, some, sheep, exports, for, slaughter, from, longtown, today, the, first, of, that, sort, of, thing, since, fmd, it, was, of, course, a, bit, of, a, faf, as, they, now, have, to, be, retagged, and, checked, so, it, takes, a, little, longer, in, the, afternoon, i, had, a, meeting, with, sr, from, university, of, reading, she, is, planning, to, do, research, regarding, the, interherd, programme, and, she, had, picked, 3, vet, practices, to, see, how, the, programme, helps, the, vets, and, the, farmers, work, better, together, and, the, improvements, it, makes, to, the, farmers, record, keeping, so, she, is, going, to, meet, 3, of, our, farmers, who, use, interherd, and, interview, them, and, give, them, free, training, so, that, should, please, them, fri, day, off, me, and, daughter, went, to, newcastle, shopping, i’m, not, a, good, shopper, but, i, did, behave, and, we, had, a, good, day, mr, w’s, cows, arrived, all, fit, and, healthy, so, that, is, us, complete, now, ass, we, were, if, not, better, sad, news, though, we, heard, one, of, our, farmers, dropped, down, dead, suddenly, it, was, very, sad, as, we, had, seen, him, in, the, morning, and, he, was, his, normal, self, so, it, was, quite, a, shock, his, family, must, be, devastated, mind, if, there’s, a, good, way, to, go, that’s, it, week, beginning, 24th, february, monday, 24th, feb, another, vet, a, lot, better, today, almost, back, to, her, normal, cheery, self, she, is, a, lot, more, positive, we, took, the, bull, by, the, horns, so, to, speak, and, reduced, the, prices, of, some, drugs, we, will, have, to, wait, until, the, 10th, march, before, we, find, out, what, the, government, is, going, to, do, regarding, the, selling, of, drugs, but, the, farmers, are, very, pleased, tuesday, i, got, another, phone, call, from, mr, c, and, he, said, he, would, like, to, change, vets, to, us, so, good, news, husband, spoke, to, his, old, vet, and, explained, why, etc, it, is, very, difficult, and, i, think, that, in, the, future, there, may, be, more, changing, of, vets, where, as, in, the, past, it, never, happened, but, even, farmers, appreciate, competition, now, it, again, is, worrying, milk, recorded, at, mr, g, tonight, it’s, always, good, crack, as, they, say, weds, milk, recorded, early, morning, and, then, showed, them, the, interherd, programme, they, are, going, to, try, it, i, think, in, the, afternoon, i, went, with, other, vet, to, vet, a, horse, for, purchase, it, can, be, tricky, sometimes, and, two, pairs, of, eyes, are, better, than, one, as, it, turned, out, the, horse, was, lame, so, we, couldn’t, vet, it, so, we, will, have, to, go, back, another, day, thursday, normal, day, did, some, more, sheep, exports, in, the, afternoon, they, have, a, very, efficient, system, at, longtown, so, it, makes, it, a, lot, easier, fri, i, went, to, farmer, s, funeral, this, morning, it, was, very, sad, i, don’t, like, funerals, well, i, don’t, suppose, anyone, does, but, it, stayed, fine, and, he, had, a, good, send, off, in, the, afternoon, i, got, an, opportunity, to, do, some, more, blood, sampling, just, 15, so, it, was, good, it’s, getting, used, to, handling, everything, and, forgetting, you’re, at, the, end, that, shits, and, kicks, no, broken, limbs, and, i, got, blood, week, beginning, 3rd, march, mon, 3rd, march, i, went, to, help, a, tt, test, in, the, morning, just, taking, numbers, we, now, have, 4, farms, on, restrictions, due, to, tb, reactors, but, up, to, now, on, the, cows, taken, for, further, tests, no, lesions, have, been, fund, we, now, get, to, do, the, repeat, 60, day, test, on, the, farms, now, as, defra, can’t, keep, up, sounds, familiar, we, saw, the, accountant, in, the, afternoon, we, had, sent, 9, months, of, accounts, to, him, as, we, need, to, see, how, the, practice, was, now, doing, anyway, it, was, not, as, bad, as, we, thought, but, the, income, is, down, but, is, slowly, growing, the, main, problem, is, farmers, won’t, call, out, for, sick, cows, now, they, will, leave, it, longer, or, try, to, treat, them, themselves, mainly, due, to, them, watching, their, spending, mr, w, had, a, problem, with, his, interherd, he, needed, to, run, his, extensification, figures, and, they, didn’t, add, up, so, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, trying, to, figure, out, why, i, think, i, know, why, it, was, how, he, set, it, up, initially, so, it, may, need, his, entry, dates, changed, tues, went, tt, testing, again, this, morning, it, was, a, lovely, morning, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, sorting, mr, w’s, problem, out, and, it, worked, he, was, chuffed, the, good, is, i, think, i, now, understand, extensifications, weds, caught, up, on, some, paperwork, in, the, morning, i, helped, new, nurse, with, a, dog, grooming, in, the, afternoon, which, was, fun, she, is, doing, really, well, and, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, we, both, ended, up, soaked, thanks, to, the, dog, but, it, looked, loads, better, when, it, went, home, good, news, we, get, a, new, vet, from, south, africa, starting, 1.4.03, he, worked, over, here, during, fmd, and, met, someone, and, their, relationship, has, lasted, hence, he, wants, a, job, in, carlisle, so, bingo, here, comes, a, holiday, thursday, friday, very, busy, in, the, practice, everyone, kept, going, we, have, a, great, team, and, they, really, come, into, their, own, when, it’s, busy, i, love, the, way, everyone, pulls, together, they, are, very, dedicated, week, beginning, 10th, march, monday, quiet, day, for, a, monday, but, the, weather, has, been, nice, so, they, are, all, out, playing, but, we, had, quite, a, few, lambings, to, do, that’s, one, thing, that, has, changed, since, fmd, prior, to, fmd, we, hardly, used, to, do, any, lambings, for, farmers, but, since, we, now, do, far, more, last, year, we, put, it, down, to, them, having, new, stock, but, it, seems, to, be, the, same, this, year, tuesday, today, is, milk, recording, day, i, have, 3, recordings, today, they, all, need, boxes, and, paperwork, i, don’t, have, to, help, at, any, of, the, milkings, though, which, is, good, as, they, are, quite, a, way, from, each, other, but, a, nice, day, for, a, drive, weds, thurs, fri, the, end, of, our, weeks, seem, to, be, busier, than, the, beginnings, at, the, moment, it, has, been, non, stop, one, disadvantage, when, it, is, so, busy, is, you, don’t, have, the, time, to, chat, as, often, i, took, some, drugs, to, a, farm, our, last, one, to, restock, as, he, was, having, alterations, done, it, was, amazing, to, see, the, transformations, he, had, made, to, the, farm, all, geared, to, one, person, being, able, to, do, more, alone, with, more, cows, interesting, week, beginning, 17th, march, mon, tuesday, i, went, with, another, vet, to, mr, c’s, for, his, tt, and, blood, test, another, vet, did, the, tt, and, i, did, the, blood, as, part, of, my, lay, blood, tester’s, licence, i, needed, to, do, 150, which, i, managed, it, was, good, fun, and, the, weather, was, great, we, had, to, spread, it, over, 2, days, due, to, the, amount, of, cattle, it, was, really, good, practice, for, me, and, i, think, i’ve, cracked, it, now, there, are, talks, about, giving, tt, testing, to, lay, people, but, quite, how, and, when, is, anyone’s, guess, weds, more, blood, testing, today, i’ve, really, cracked, it, now, only, i’ve, discovered, muscles, in, my, arms, i, didn’t, know, i, had, i, enjoy, the, blood, testing, sad, isn’t, it, thursday, i, had, a, morning, with, alco, waste, management, sorting, out, all, the, clinical, waste, regulations, and, they, need, more, detail, of, what, actually, goes, in, our, waste, we, always, provided, a, free, service, to, farmers, for, disposing, of, sharps, and, old, drug, and, empty, drugs, etc, but, we, are, going, to, have, to, start, charging, now, it, is, now, 100, dearer, a, month, than, it, was, fri, me, and, husband, spent, the, morning, looking, at, fees, income, etc, and, seeing, where, we, can, increase, fees, to, help, cover, if, we, lose, the, right, to, dispense, drugs, to, farmers, which, we, still, haven’t, heard, about, to, continue, as, we, are, we, will, have, to, make, the, difference, up, it’s, just, how, week, beginning, 24th, march, monday, doing, the, paperwork, for, a, tt, test, it, was, a, beautiful, day, i, do, enjoy, doing, this, especially, when, the, weather’s, good, and, they, are, very, nice, farmers, i, also, get, to, spend, the, day, with, husband, which, makes, a, change, although, we, work, together, we, don’t, often, get, to, see, much, of, each, other, tuesday, busy, day, spent, most, of, it, making, sure, everything, got, done, and, helping, out, weds, i, went, to, the, careers, convention, at, the, sands, centre, it, was, very, busy, and, we, had, a, lot, of, interest, but, a, long, day, before, going, someone, phoned, to, say, there, was, a, collie, dog, running, around, on, the, roundabout, so, me, and, new, nurse, went, to, see, if, we, could, catch, it, well, it, didn’t, want, caught, but, i, was, really, worried, it, got, onto, the, motorway, so, we, phoned, the, police, and, the, dog, warden, who, incidentally, couldn’t, come, until, 9am, as, he, didn’t, start, til, then, so, i, had, to, politely, explain, that, he, would, have, to, be, the, police, dog, handler, wasn’t, much, help, but, at, least, he, stopped, the, traffic, bless, him, the, dog, warden, did, appear, 5, minutes, later, and, it, was, only, 8.30, am, so, we, managed, to, get, the, dog, off, the, roundabout, and, catch, it, everyone, safe, thankfully, thurs, fri, busy, days, new, vet, from, south, africa, phoned, so, he’s, coming, to, see, us, on, monday, to, pick, up, his, vehicle, and, meet, everyone, he, sounds, pleasant, so, we, will, see, my, joke, at, the, moment, when, people, ask, where, we, found, him, is, that, we, got, him, off, the, internet, it, is, a, little, worrying, not, having, met, him, first, but, it, should, work, watch, this, space, week, beginning, 31st, march, monday, we, have, had, l, staying, for, two, weeks, she’s, a, vet, student, from, london, and, stayed, with, us, about, this, tine, last, year, it, was, interesting, to, go, over, the, changes, from, a, year, ago, last, time, she, was, here, people, were, restocking, and, there, was, an, element, of, wariness, so, it, was, interesting, to, fill, her, in, on, how, things, are, now, one, thing, she, mentioned, was, noticing, the, stock, in, the, fields, was, nice, as, there, were, only, a, few, still, last, year, talking, over, things, is, still, hard, sometimes, although, it, seems, a, long, time, ago, the, feelings, and, emotions, are, still, deep, certain, parts, can, still, hit, a, raw, nerve, there, seems, to, be, a, mere, anger, at, the, moment, generally, people, and, farmers, are, wanting, to, know, why, they, still, have, restrictions, what, is, going, to, happen, about, shows, and, sales, etc, and, will, normality, ever, return, unfortunately, i, think, not, not, in, the, way, they, want, it, to, tuesday, our, new, vet, started, today, we, got, on, very, well, it, has, taken, us, so, long, to, find, a, vet, and, if, the, work, and, testing, carries, on, increasing, we, are, going, to, need, another, one, wednesday, very, busy, day, husband, s, gone, to, talk, at, a, bcva, conference, and, agm, so, poor, new, vet, has, been, thrown, in, at, the, deep, end, it, has, been, very, busy, but, he, seems, to, be, coping, well, the, clients, were, very, impressed, so, far, so, long, may, it, last, it, is, good, to, have, new, staff, with, new, ideas, i, quite, enjoy, it, and, he, is, definitely, a, big, hit, with, the, female, clients, it, really, does, make, you, embarrassed, to, be, female, when, they, go, into, the, consulting, room, you, count, to, 4, and, then, comes, the, girlie, giggle, quite, funny, thursday, sad, day, today, my, sister, had, been, confirmed, as, having, cervical, cancer, no, more, on, that, for, now, friday, had, another, interherd, sale, today, one, thing, fmd, has, forced, on, farmers, is, the, need, for, efficient, records, and, interherd, is, brilliant, at, that, it’s, so, clever, one, of, our, farmers, who, has, had, it, for, a, while, and, has, 120, milking, cows, now, does, all, his, daily, records, in, 5, 10, minutes, can’t, be, bad, week, beginning, 7th, april, monday, busy, day, new, vet, is, settling, in, really, well, and, coping, fine, if, we, carry, on, at, this, rate, we, will, need, another, vet, a, lot, of, it, depends, on, how, much, more, testing, we, are, going, to, get, and, what, happens, with, commission, report, into, dispensing, drugs, tuesday, sr, came, today, from, uni, of, reading, who, own, the, interherd, program, we, went, round, some, of, the, farmers, that, used, it, and, helped, sort, out, any, queries, it, was, a, good, day, i, learnt, a, lot, and, the, farmers, found, it, useful, too, she, said, she, would, come, again, later, in, the, year, so, i, think, we, might, try, and, organise, for, them, all, to, come, to, the, practise, for, a, chat, wednesday, did, some, interherd, training, with, one, of, the, farmers, wives, we, said, just, an, hour, as, she, wasn’t, fully, computer, literate, anyway, 4, hours, later, she, had, well, and, truly, got, the, hang, of, it, she, was, very, keen, and, i, really, enjoyed, it, thursday, friday, they, blur, into, one, as, it, has, been, so, busy, everyone, has, been, flat, out, we, are, going, to, start, the, vet, advertising, again, and, another, nurse, receptionist, week, beginning, 14th, april, monday, got, caught, up, today, sorted, out, all, the, queries, quite, pleased, with, my, self, tuesday, went, to, a, local, nursery, to, talk, about, vets, to, 3, year, olds, i, was, quite, dreading, it, but, thankfully, it, was, great, they, were, really, good, i, took, some, dressing, up, clothes, and, x, ray, instruments, and, teddy, bears, and, they, operated, and, had, a, really, good, time, one, of, them, asked, me, if, all, the, cows, and, sheep, were, better, and, did, they, still, have, funny, feet, and, mouths, week, beginning, 21st, april, tuesday, wednesday, quite, busy, days, and, a, lot, to, catch, up, on, we, all, went, away, with, sister, and, niece, this, weekend, to, husband, s, mum, and, dads, caravan, we, had, a, great, time, sister, s, biopsy, off, rest, of, week, week, beginning, 28th, april, monday, three, farmers, milk, recording, today, and, tomorrow, so, busy, dropping, pets, and, paperwork, off, advertised, for, a, vet, today, fingers, crossed, off, for, two, weeks, helping, sister, to, move, interviewed, a, nurse, receptionist, she, is, perfect, and, experienced, she, wrote, a, letter, in, as, her, husbands, job, had, brought, them, to, the, area, so, she, starts, 12th, may, i, wish, it, was, as, easy, finding, a, vet, week, beginning, 12th, may, monday, our, new, girlie, started, today, she, is, very, keen, and, capable, she, has, done, really, well, even, with, the, computer, system, that, she, was, dreading, tuesday, busy, day, also, 2x, milk, recordings, so, a, bit, of, hollering, about, i, was, thinking, it, is, about, a, year, we, have, had, now, of, normal, work, everyone, new, appears, to, be, getting, on, with, it, as, the, saying, goes, everyone, bears, a, scar, and, has, a, story, to, tell, and, realise, it, is, not, the, same, but, how, could, it, be, weds, fri, quite, busy, but, capable, at, work, daughter, got, the, job, for, the, training, in, her, m, apprentice, course, so, she, is, over, the, moon, it’s, all, a, new, learning, curve, you, suddenly, realise, she, is, growing, up, getting, a, job, and, leaving, school, unfortunately, this, morning, daughter, has, decided, she, doesn’t, want, to, leave, full, time, education, yet, and, is, worried, about, the, job, she, is, wanting, to, do, a, business, course, at, a, college, so, all, change, again, we, have, had, bid, discussions, and, are, going, to, go, down, to, connexions, next, week, sat, yf, young, farmers, field, day, today, i, love, these, days, it, is, amazing, the, effort, and, enjoyment, that, makes, it, such, a, good, day, there, is, also, such, a, high, standard, in, all, the, classes, i, admire, the, enthusiasm, of, the, young, farmers, and, just, hope, they, can, survive, somehow, week, beginning, 19th, may, monday, we, have, found, the, course, daughter, wants, to, do, at, college, thanks, to, connexions, the, bad, news, is, it, is, not, done, locally, she, could, do, a, local, course, but, it, would, be, wasted, time, to, some, extent, big, discussions, most, of, the, week, we, have, found, they, do, the, course, in, blackburn, and, preston, my, sister, and, mum, live, down, there, and, are, more, than, happy, for, her, to, move, in, i, just, don’t, know, if, i, am, ready, to, let, her, go, but, i’ll, have, to, be, a, big, girl, about, it, we, have, sent, application, forms, off, so, will, have, to, wait, and, see, now, and, try, and, get, used, to, it, weds, really, good, evening, at, penrith, re, the, discussion, it, was, so, good, to, talk, to, the, other, diarists, and, realise, and, be, able, to, relate, so, closely, to, what, they, said, it, was, poignant, to, see, what, other, people, had, written, and, interesting, to, see, what, you, had, done, so, far, with, the, data, collected, it, would, be, brilliant, to, hand, to, any, future, study, or, enquiry, as, it, is, proof, surely, not, all, these, people, could, be, wrong, and, to, have, so, many, diarists, start, and, finish, is, amazing, i’m, sure, it, can, be, used, for, so, many, different, topics, amazing, i, am, personally, very, proud, to, have, been, a, part, of, it, and, although, sometimes, i, have, wondered, if, what, i, was, writing, was, any, use, i, can, see, now, how, it, comes, together, than, you, all, for, the, opportunity, shame, not, in, better, circumstances, it, has, helped, me, more, than, i, originally, realised, but, thinking, back, it, was, all, unbelievable, and, not, something, i, would, like, to, repeat, i, am, ever, the, optimist, or, so, i’m, told, and, do, believe, or, hope, things, and, farming, can, recover, not, fully, but, enough, to, be, able, to, show, other, people, what, a, wonderful, life, it, is, hard, but, special, week, beginning, 26th, may, never, stopped, on, tuesday, after, bank, holiday, so, busy, new, vet, is, settling, in, now, but, his, girlfriend, can’t, find, a, job, so, that’s, a, bit, worrying, he, may, leave, sooner, than, expected, oh, no, not, advertising, again, the, rest, of, the, week, was, uneventful, really, ticked, along, nicely, we, met, up, with, some, friends, on, wednesday, evening, who, holiday, in, the, lakes, each, year, so, it, was, nice, to, see, them, again, we, had, a, good, evening, we, were, also, out, on, thursday, night, with, a, drug, rep, very, nice, meal, and, they, have, offered, to, pay, for, husband, bri, catt, vet, ass, meeting, in, amsterdam, in, october, so, that, was, very, nice, business, link, have, also, offered, to, help, us, get, a, consultant, in, to, see, if, they, have, any, ideas, for, improving, maybe, they, can, find, vets, too, all, in, all, quite, an, exciting, week, week, beginning, 2nd, june, the, exams, have, started, everyone, warns, to, beware, but, daughter, is, very, laid, back, about, it, all, too, much, i, feel, but, as, long, as, she, does, her, best, i, went, to, the, accountants, to, look, at, the, books, for, the, end, of, year, so, far, not, quite, finished, yet, and, thankfully, we, won’t, be, needing, income, support, this, year, it, is, so, much, better, more, regulation, but, nothing, we, can’t, cope, with, honest, week, beginning, 9th, june, daughter, had, an, interview, at, blackburn, college, it, wasn’t, a, very, nice, place, but, then, i’m, not, going, preston, is, on, the, 25th, so, she, will, decide, after, that, niece, had, her, c.t, scan, for, her, head, that, was, eventful, and, lisa, and, her, naughty, jelly, babies, zapped, all, went, well, but, she, was, a, bit, sore, after, week, beginning, 23rd, june, monday, went, tt, testing, with, another, vet, today, it, was, a, retest, due, to, them, having, a, reactor, it, was, a, good, day, they, are, nice, people, there, is, a, father, and, 2, sons, during, fmd, i, had, a, phone, call, one, night, and, this, was, just, someone, crying, on, the, end, of, it, i, didn’t, know, what, to, say, and, i, wasn’t, sure, who, it, was, but, i, just, spoke, about, mainly, silly, things, i, can’t, really, remember, what, but, didn’t, get, much, of, a, response, just, yes, and, no’s, and, i, thought, i, recognised, the, voice, as, being, the, father, we, were, with, today, anyway, during, lunch, which, we, had, at, the, farm, we, were, chatting, and, of, course, got, into, fmd, and, he, thanked, me, it, took, aback, but, he, said, he, had, appreciated, me, waffling, on, it, was, the, night, of, the, day, his, cows, had, been, shot, and, he, had, phoned, to, let, us, know, but, he, said, he, just, broke, down, and, couldn’t, say, anything, anyway, he, laughed, because, he, said, he, was, going, to, hang, up, but, he, couldn’t, get, word, in, edgeways, because, i, was, wittering, but, he, said, he, did, feel, a, bit, better, after, so, we, had, a, good, heart, to, heart, tuesday, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, and, sorted, some, bits, and, pieces, out, weds, took, daughter, to, preston, college, for, an, interview, it, was, good, and, seems, a, nice, place, i, can’t, believe, she, will, be, leaving, home, at, the, end, of, august, very, scary, i’m, really, going, to, have, to, be, a, big, girl, about, it, thursday, we, went, to, visit, business, link, to, discuss, some, more, things, and, they, are, hopefully, going, to, help, us, pay, a, firm, of, consultants, to, help, us, out, to, see, how, we, can, improve, and, move, the, practice, on, so, that’s, exciting, fri, went, milk, recording, first, thing, so, that, was, good, fun, after, recording, i, had, to, collect, one, of, our, elderly, clients, and, her, dog, that, was, coming, for, an, operation, the, lady, is, 92, and, her, and, the, dog, are, very, close, so, she, wanted, to, stay, with, her, until, she, was, sedated, so, she, was, pleased, she, could, come, with, her, the, girls, all, laugh, at, me, because, i, have, quite, a, few, little, old, ladies, who, we, visit, and, keep, a, check, on, their, pets, week, beginning, 30th, june, not, a, lot, of, excitement, at, all, this, week, we, have, been, kept, going, and, i, caught, up, on, paperwork, we, are, going, to, my, sister’s, this, week, end, to, start, sorting, her, spare, bedroom, for, daughter, week, beginning, 7th, july, mon, spent, the, morning, explaining, to, our, newest, girlie, about, interherd, and, how, to, work, it, this, will, enable, her, to, help, me, on, the, data, entry, side, we, also, had, a, little, trip, out, around, some, of, the, farms, that, record, with, us, to, give, her, an, idea, of, where, they, are, tuesday, went, exporting, sheep, today, they, all, had, to, be, retagged, it, was, quite, warm, not, much, fun, i’ll, maybe, get, new, girl, to, do, exporting, weds, 2, milk, recordings, today, so, quite, busy, with, bottles, and, sheets, and, things, and, they, are, both, in, the, opposite, direction, to, each, other, never, mind, it, was, a, nice, day, for, driving, about, thursday, we, have, got, a, new, vet, to, replace, vet, from, sa, she, seems, very, lovely, she, is, going, to, start, on, 4.08.03, we, used, an, agency, and, it, has, proved, worthwhile, we, worked, out, that, rather, than, paying, for, endless, adverts, we, would, give, it, a, go, and, it, seems, to, have, worked, so, that’s, exciting, fri, we, went, car, hunting, today, as, if, we, all, go, out, at, the, week, end, it, becomes, a, bit, crushed, and, sometimes, we, end, up, taking, two, vehicles, so, we, have, really, splashed, out, rightly, or, wrongly, and, bought, a, new, crv, truck, it’s, very, posh, so, we, get, that, on, 21.07.03, week, beginning, 14th, july, monday, person, from, the, interherd, office, came, up, to, see, us, and, we, visited, a, few, of, our, farmers, that, are, on, interherd, between, them, and, nmr, they, have, really, tried, with, providing, quality, and, cost, effective, equipment, that, is, helpful, to, the, farmers, you, can, now, use, interherd, in, some, milking, parlours, which, is, really, useful, tues, we, went, to, see, a, horse, with, a, cough, and, after, treating, the, pony, we, were, chatting, and, they, have, converted, a, small, barn, into, a, camping, hostel, their, farm, is, along, hadrian’s, wall, and, since, having, foot, and, mouth, and, doing, the, barn, up, they, have, nearly, covered, their, costs, they, still, have, a, few, stock, but, not, as, many, mr, i, was, saying, how, his, father, used, to, milk, about, 25, cows, and, be, able, to, make, a, good, living, from, that, it’s, amazing, the, difference, weds, we, got, a, new, payroll, package, today, so, i, spent, most, of, my, day, trying, to, understand, it, i, was, very, bog, eyed, by, the, end, but, i, think, i, understand, it, and, it, seems, to, work, well, and, should, be, a, lot, easier, and, quicker, thursday, busy, day, there, were, lots, of, ops, and, farm, calls, a, couple, of, farmers, have, been, asking, about, prescriptions, as, soon, they, will, be, able, to, get, their, drugs, from, anywhere, a, lot, have, said, they, appreciate, they, have, to, pay, for, the, service, one, way, or, another, and, are, happy, to, carry, on, as, they, have, been, doing, we, will, lose, money, to, some, extent, but, how, much, remains, to, be, seen, and, we, will, have, to, cope, friday, off, went, to, see, westlife, with, daughter]
## 4 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1963, gender, m, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, saturday, 9th, march, 2002, an, old, african, proverb, states, the, best, time, to, plant, a, tree, was, 20, years, ago, the, next, best, time, is, now, i, should, have, started, this, diary, over, a, year, ago, to, keep, track, of, changes, in, the, unrolling, of, the, fmd, epidemic, and, my, feelings, towards, it, today, is, probably, a, good, day, to, start, the, diary, as, i, was, about, to, sit, down, after, a, really, bad, week, to, write, some, comments, for, the, lessons, learned, inquiry, and, thought, i, should, check, the, web, site, for, an, update, i, found, out, to, my, considerable, annoyance, that, the, inquiry, was, coming, to, cumbria, to, meet, with, defra, and, hold, the, open, meeting, on, tuesday, night, and, if, you, wanted, a, ticket, to, attend, then, you, had, to, apply, by, a, week, ago, the, overall, impression, is, that, the, govt, do, not, want, to, learn, lessons, i, was, looking, after, kids, as, wife, was, on, counselling, course, and, i, was, on, call, sat, morn, the, vets, were, busy, so, i, ended, up, taking, children, into, vets, with, me, they, watched, videos, in, the, waiting, room, while, i, sorted, out, and, consulted, coming, down, with, cold, after, spending, friday, tb, testing, on, restocking, farm, but, at, least, i, managed, to, avoid, getting, kicked, and, crushed, the, farm, hand, who, is, one, of, the, hard, lads, of, wigton, refused, to, get, in, with, the, fat, bulls, to, test, them, after, getting, floored, by, a, kick, if, the, f, ministry, want, them, f, tested, they, can, f, coming, and, etc, etc, i, am, putting, in, a, letter, to, say, why, they, were, not, tested, to, see, response, didn’t, get, finished, on, farm, till, 5.45, pm, having, started, with, a, caesarean, at, 5, 30am.must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, the, farming, economy, is, bizarre, at, the, moment, he, has, silage, in, heaps, all, over, the, farm, so, instead, of, feeding, straw, which, is, incredibly, expensive, 70, ton, he, is, feeding, the, better, quality, silage, and, the, calves, are, all, too, big, there, are, 30, to, calve, so, a, few, nights, work, there, where, ever, i, go, on, farms, the, stories, that, farmers, are, wanting, to, get, off, their, chest, about, the, maff, incompetence, and, inconsistency, is, bewildering, there, is, a, lot, of, anger, out, there, i, went, to, do, the, restocking, sentinel, visit, for, mg, l, fm, he, is, usually, the, most, laid, back, of, guys, but, he, told, them, he, was, bringing, his, cattle, on, and, he, would, see, them, in, court, why, are, we, doing, sentinel, visits, to, a, farm, that, had, fmd, 11, months, ago, the, virus, only, lives, a, month, sunday, mothering, sunday, kids, had, all, got, presents, and, cards, for, mum, they, brought, them, all, in, with, a, breakfast, tray, very, cute, but, pear, juice, all, over, the, carpet, tim, and, i, spent, sat, night, baking, a, chocolate, cake, for, her, which, meant, i, hadn’t, got, lunch, never, mind, church, was, ps, speaking, on, characters, walking, with, god, and, talking, about, abraham, setting, off, with, out, knowing, where, he, is, going, maybe, i, should, follow, suit, with, large, animal, vetting, being, reduced, to, tb, testing, and, caesareans, the, evening, service, was, really, lively, with, hp, from, austria, about, turning, every, hour, over, to, god, now, that, is, what, i, should, do, g, r, called, around, sun, afternoon, he, is, pessimistic, about, fertiliser, sales, there, is, that, much, land, and, grass, around, and, the, govt, grants, for, extensification, new, regulations, on, nitrates, is, giving, him, a, headache, though, as, he, points, out, it, is, not, fertiliser, that, cause, the, problems, as, they, are, used, by, grass, but, by, phosphates, and, slurry, organics, lough, neigh, has, real, problems, with, algal, blooms, and, they, are, blaming, fertiliser, but, so, has, bassenthwaite, but, there, is, not, any, fertiliser, spread, on, the, fells, so, is, it, really, agriculture, monday, read, test, and, was, very, glad, it, was, clear, as, the, farm, of, origin, of, one, of, batches, has, gone, down, with, tb, more, testing, after, lunch, organic, farm, they, have, just, had, their, first, pay, check, 23p, per, litre, they, were, promised, 36p, when, they, started, to, convert, 2, years, ago, who, would, be, in, agriculture, desperately, behind, in, admin, with, vets, and, home, but, at, least, the, clinical, work, pays, tuesday, caught, up, on, a, lot, of, admin, as, back, to, 6, vets, for, day, 2, cows, aborting, on, restocking, farm, more, disease, rota, still, for, 5vets, yuk, the, evening, open, meeting, poorly, attendee, due, to, poor, publicity, i, am, only, local, practitioner, i, phoned, around, no, one, had, been, invited, or, had, seen, advance, publicity, and, we, all, feel, that, they, are, not, interested, and, that, they, will, not, listen, some, moving, testimony, and, the, bullying, culture, came, through, and, the, frustration, and, anger, that, comes, from, dealing, with, a, faceless, bureaucracy, distant, in, london, 11, million, animals, 2000, farms, in, cumbria, businesses, wrecked, lives, wrecked, a, crisis, turned, into, a, disaster, by, bureaucratic, incompetence, and, political, considerations, i, am, pleased, i, went, i, feel, that, it, is, like, a, sense, of, closure, the, funeral, so, to, speak, the, end, and, i, spoke, with, wife, when, i, got, back, i, feel, i, can, lay, the, past, down, and, look, to, the, future, weds, day, off, k, a, for, lunch, and, sort, out, finances, etc, and, write, diary, everyone, is, saying, about, this, time, last, year, and, glad, that, fmd, is, finished, went, to, see, grease, the, school, production, it, was, very, well, done, brought, back, memories, of, 6th, form, thurs, 300, pages, of, a4, waiting, for, me, in, my, in, tray, courtesy, of, defra, are, they, mindless, or, what, rang, to, speak, to, ah, but, only, got, hold, of, n, and, told, her, it, was, out, of, order, i, should, get, my, blood, pressure, measured, as, some, one, says, defra, stupid, idiots, so, much, for, closure, i, feel, very, frustrated, if, this, is, the, future, of, farm, practice, anal, glands, here, we, come, who, said, a, vets, life, ain’t, glamorous, managed, to, calm, down, and, get, the, next, 2, weeks, of, testing, organised, it, is, a, good, job, that, we, are, organising, it, as, trying, to, get, folk, on, the, phone, is, n’t, easy, workload, picking, up, and, managed, to, persuade, gg, to, advertise, even, if, only, at, tvi, hq, all, of, the, local, practices, who, have, advertised, have, had, very, few, if, any, responses, we, are, busy, but, with, defra, work, spent, time, singing, grease, songs, much, to, nurses, amusement, did, restocking, visit, at, lynedraw, they, gave, me, a, look, around, it, is, amazingly, clean, because, even, after, pressure, washing, the, spiders, usually, make, a, come, back, but, the, buildings, are, sterile, and, no, cobwebs, or, insect, life, which, usually, abounds, even, in, empty, buildings, weird, there, will, be, a, lot, of, flies, next, year, news, that, pi, has, headship, of, nelson, thom, and, so, we, can, expect, the, discipline, to, improve, again, friday, curry, and, quiz, at, the, boys, school, very, cosmopolitan, for, cumbria, it, was, good, fun, and, the, kids, enjoyed, it, but, we, were, useless, on, the, photos, for, which, you, definitely, need, a, tv, spent, time, chatting, to, local, gp, who, which, was, interesting, they, have, a, place, for, their, son, at, nelson, thom, but, he, isn’t, keen, saturday, 16th, march, working, this, w, e, and, on, call, friday, night, so, had, an, early, start, with, a, caser, on, ewe, a, lambing, hurray, things, are, getting, back, to, normal, even, if, it, is, a, dutch, beltex, the, farmer, is, really, fed, up, and, wants, ah, to, be, sacked, as, he, threatened, to, kill, all, his, recently, imported, dutch, sheep, as, the, paper, work, was, not, right, they, had, come, and, blood, sampled, them, and, then, sent, the, results, to, his, brother, who, is, still, under, form, a, and, then, refused, him, permission, to, move, any, of, the, sheep, off, because, he, shouldn’t, have, any, because, he, was, on, form, a, and, what, were, the, blood, results, for, defra, would, be, a, joke, if, it, wasn’t, so, serious, oh, and, after, my, complaint, about, them, deluging, us, with, paper, yes, you, guessed, it, they, sent, another, 7, x, 20, sheets, of, a4, idiots, aw, is, in, a, tiz, and, so, had, to, get, help, in, sat, morning, which, was, a, shame, but, hey, ho, she, is, not, coping, with, the, post, fmd, constant, changing, of, the, goal, posts, went, to, susan, ian’s, for, another, curry, and, had, a, really, good, time, and, have, decided, to, phase, out, house, group, which, was, coming, hopefully, low, moor, will, set, up, a, 3rd, house, group, for, wigton, hebron, is, going, to, change, to, new, outlook, groups, sun, never, managed, to, get, to, church, as, calls, all, day, beautiful, day, though, the, weather, has, really, picked, up, must, get, garden, sorted, and, seeds, planted, a, came, out, on, call, this, evening, it, is, one, good, point, that, this, job, does, allow, the, kids, to, join, with, me, she, is, really, growing, up, she, wanted, to, go, to, cinema, but, as, wife, was, late, and, weather, good, she, came, back, here, and, they, walked, the, dog, and, wound, up, the, boys, mon, early, morning, call, to, see, a, farmer, who, is, a, scrap, metal, dealer, who, hates, authority, he, therefore, didn’t, want, anyone, on, his, land, during, fmd, and, refused, access, to, maff, and, me, while, i, was, working, there, he, caused, real, problems, and, had, his, gun, removed, by, police, he, was, handled, badly, and, is, a, rogue, the, more, colourful, rumour, was, that, the, real, reason, for, not, allowing, anyone, on, was, the, amount, of, smuggled, cigarettes, was, too, great, to, hide, he, also, runs, a, fishery, shellfish, enterprise, that, is, on, the, beach, at, odd, times, he, was, found, guilty, and, fined, 350, for, his, trouble, but, never, paid, because, he, went, bust, as, everything, is, in, his, wife, and, kids, names, this, is, all, unsubstantiated, rumour, but, quite, amusing, when, push, comes, to, shove, the, ministry, could, do, nothing, with, out, the, cooperation, of, the, farmers, the, vet, students, have, arrived, and, i, feel, a, bit, guilty, about, not, having, them, to, stay, but, i, feel, i, still, need, space, at, the, moment, so, they, are, making, do, with, the, royal, oak, prayer, quad, with, the, lads, which, was, good, i, still, has, not, got, stuff, for, magazine, and, spent, time, praying, tues, the, dates, important, cos, its, my, birthday, 39, today, the, kids, all, brought, presents, in, and, had, breakfast, in, bed, it, was, really, nice, the, number, of, ordinary, calls, to, ill, animals, is, increasing, rapidly, went, to, 2, new, restocking, farms, today, i, think, one, a, day, is, probably, enough, they, were, both, full, of, stories, about, the, ministry, and, wanted, to, unload, to, some, one, who, understood, the, first, was, particularly, upsetting, in, that, i, was, admiring, his, new, parlour, and, set, up, that, he, has, put, in, while, waiting, the, 4, months, he, was, then, talking, about, all, the, animals, getting, slaughtered, and, his, wife, was, fighting, back, tears, she, is, also, very, unsure, about, whether, they, are, doing, the, right, thing, by, investing, in, the, new, parlour, she, is, very, unsure, about, the, future, and, as, they, are, both, reaching, 50, is, it, the, right, thing, to, be, doing, unfortunately, i, think, she, is, right, but, i, couldn’t, say, that, and, made, reassuring, noises, as, they, have, spent, the, money, and, it, is, too, late, now, the, future, for, dairy, is, not, good, the, price, is, going, to, continue, to, be, at, world, prices, which, with, the, current, exchange, rate, is, uneconomic, in, the, uk, the, second, farm, was, sheep, with, drop, and, they, were, grazing, over, the, burial, site, as, they, had, planted, carrots, and, turnips, on, the, surrounding, field, i, couldn’t, listen, to, another, set, of, woes, as, i, was, still, upset, from, the, first, lot, so, kept, conversation, light, and, on, sheep, weds, i, never, realised, that, fmd, is, like, any, other, grief, there, are, anniversaries, to, get, through, and, fears, and, barriers, to, be, put, to, rest, i, was, on, a, farm, to, give, certificates, to, 2, heifers, sold, in, calf, they, were, all, saying, it, was, a, year, to, the, day, that, fmd, hit, the, village, the, ai, fellow, was, there, as, well, and, he, was, talking, about, what, he, had, been, doing, he, was, saying, that, he, thinks, it, will, be, years, before, everybody, returns, to, normal, he, is, revisiting, farms, where, he, was, helping, with, the, slaughter, for, the, ai, and, was, saying, he, had, to, take, a, deep, breath, every, time, he, returns, to, one, of, these, farms, there, was, a, partners, meeting, at, lunchtime, as, usual, aw, turned, up, late, but, finally, decided, to, advertise, to, see, whether, there, are, vets, out, there, who, will, come, to, work, in, fmd, country, it, is, a, bit, frustrating, as, i, foresaw, that, we, would, be, busy, and, we, could, have, nabbed, d, before, longtown, but, gg, ever, cautious, we, went, completely, around, in, circles, trying, different, options, but, as, with, everything, else, the, only, prediction, we, can, make, is, that, we, know, that, we, don’t, know, so, much, depends, on, govt, decisions, on, supply, of, pharmaceuticals, to, farms, and, on, the, future, of, the, svs, state, vet, service, for, who, we, usually, do, 15, of, our, farm, work, for, and, currently, do, 50, for, thursday, tomorrow, i, will, get, a, lunch, break, this, is, my, resolution, have, not, managed, to, stop, for, lunch, this, week, yet, as, farm, calls, keep, coming, in, and, partners, meeting, today, was, geckos, bums, and, goose, bums, rectal, prolapses, variety, is, the, spice, of, life, also, had, much, laughter, over, watching, norman, in, the, bath, jg’s, tortoise, which, has, come, out, of, hibernation, early, and, is, anorexic, much, clunking, and, bumping, 2, lambings, and, cow, caesaer, after, hours, so, busy, on, call, it, was, also, the, last, house, group, so, it, was, end, of, an, era, we, have, been, having, them, in, our, house, for, the, past, 6, years, with, different, folk, and, have, had, god, speak, to, us, and, to, others, through, it, but, it, is, time, to, move, on, friday, started, with, another, caeaser, and, early, morning, start, and, didn’t, get, my, lunch, break, time, to, reconsider, things, again, had, folk, for, dinner, which, had, been, arranged, a, long, time, ago, it, seemed, like, a, good, idea, at, time, and, was, enjoyable, but, after, a, 14, hour, day, yesterday, and, a, 10, hour, one, today, i, was, not, feeling, life, and, soul, of, the, party, one, couple, are, still, trying, to, decide, the, future, of, their, farm, they, are, thought, out, progressive, family, farm, and, yet, they, are, not, convinced, about, what, to, do, he, finds, it, difficult, to, because, there, are, three, generations, to, consider, his, father, would, go, out, and, buy, stock, tomorrow, and, his, son, wants, to, come, home, to, work, but, they, feel, he, should, broaden, his, options, very, difficult, he, was, also, saying, that, he, ha, d, helped, a, neighbour, who, flagged, him, down, as, he, was, going, past, he, wanted, help, to, move, a, cow, that, was, down, the, last, time, he, touched, a, cow, it, was, when, his, own, were, slaughtered, it, knocked, him, off, his, stride, for, the, rest, of, the, day, had, a, good, time, as, when, i, looked, at, time, was, 1, o, clock, sat, 23rd, march, wife, went, on, her, counselling, course, for, day, which, left, me, a, bit, on, edge, this, morning, as, i, was, on, call, sat, am, and, looking, after, 4, kids, but, they, managed, with, out, me, back, sore, and, stiff, as, i’ve, missed, the, gym, but, will, go, back, on, tues, still, managed, to, get, a, bit, done, in, garden, it, was, a, great, spring, day, and, made, me, feel, like, summer, was, coming, went, to, beckfoot, to, beach, in, the, afternoon, with, kids, evening, went, to, bed, early, as, shattered, sun, 24th, back, stiffer, after, gardening, and, went, to, church, davidsons, have, moved, into, thursby, so, will, be, good, to, have, them, around, and, at, school, watched, northbank, beat, stanwix, u12, s, 6, 0, the, boys, played, well, and, passed, the, ball, around, a, lot, son, played, well, too, must, work, less, w, e’s, and, watch, the, boys, play, more, mon, 25th, looking, forward, to, finishing, on, friday, as, another, large, test, today, started, at, 8, 30am, and, finished, at, 6pm, but, at, least, it, meant, i, was, out, the, office, and, did, not, have, to, face, any, of, the, usual, hassle, factors, it, was, good, to, see, as, the, place, is, always, well, run, and, organised, a, real, family, farm, with, three, generations, working, together, but, granddad, at, 75, still, very, much, calling, the, shots, the, craic, was, good, at, lunch, as, their, sister, is, friendly, with, my, wife, so, i, got, custard, with, my, rhubarb, tart, my, wife, doesn’t, like, custard, so, i, never, get, as, i, cannot, be, bothered, to, make, it, for, one, as, the, kids, never, have, it, and, so, are, very, conservative, they, were, asking, my, view, of, the, future, too, as, they, have, sold, bullocks, privately, ie, not, through, the, auction, as, they, are, on, 21, day, stand, still, and, the, price, is, poorer, than, selling, via, the, auction, defra, will, not, allow, any, trade, through, an, auction, if, the, farms, are, on, standstill, why, if, they, are, dead, in24hrs, there, is, minimal, risk, and, they, are, putting, everyone’s, backs, up, tues, 26th, went, for, my, first, visit, to, another, restocked, farm, and, during, the, 4, month, waiting, as, well, as, visit, new, zealand, he, has, made, a, sandstone, plaque, 3ft, by, 4, ft, and, carved, on, the, date, they, went, down, with, fmd, and, the, number, of, cattle, it, is, almost, a, head, stone, type, memorial, the, cow, had, digestive, problems, a, right, displaced, abomasums, rda, probably, due, to, the, transit, and, change, in, diet, weds, 27th, small, animal, day, and, trying, to, get, everything, organised, for, going, away, finalised, advert, in, vet, record, for, new, assistant, lots, of, adverts, but, no, applicants, all, the, local, practices, are, advertising, and, there, are, no, takers, i, hope, it, is, because, there, is, a, shortage, and, not, from, lack, of, confidence, in, the, area, defra, haven’t, paid, us, for, a, lot, of, visits, and, that, needs, sorted, they, have, no, record, of, the, visits, i, e, they, have, lost, the, claim, forms, in, the, mountain, of, paper, work, they, will, only, pay, on, the, originals, as, if, there, are, duplicates, they, will, probably, pay, on, those, as, well, being, that, well, organised, they, are, really, slipping, back, into, their, old, ways, of, paper, chasing, the, frustration, without, and, within, is, palpable, i, should, just, quit, as, i, will, be, a, civil, servant, once, removed, unless, things, change, the, secretary’s, are, both, on, fmd, funded, computer, courses, so, digging, out, the, paper, work, will, have, to, wait, thurs, 28th, demob, happy, just, the, test, to, read, and, i, am, off, for, 10, days, the, test, was, clear, but, very, busy, as, a, locum, came, for, a, look, around, to, see, if, he, would, do, sa, for, several, days, a, week, any, help, i, think, will, be, a, help, good, friday, missed, out, on, church, as, one, of, the, boys, through, a, complete, wobbler, he, is, not, very, well, just, tired, at, end, of, term, i, hope, then, went, walking, with, family, and, friends, i, must, learn, to, shoot, him, down, when, he, says, it, is, a, little, scramble, what, he, means, is, its, too, dangerous, for, kids, but, it, was, fun, and, we, enjoyed, it, the, weather, was, glorious, and, the, fells, were, crowded, tourism, is, back, went, up, over, sharp, edge, to, blencathra, kids, as, well, holiday, sat, 6th, april, came, back, on, the, late, boat, from, belfast, and, arrived, in, to, wigton, late, the, grandparents, were, sad, to, see, us, go, but, i, think, they, had, also, found, us, all, quite, tiring, the, kids, have, enjoyed, playing, squash, so, that, is, something, i, would, like, to, continue, sun, 7th, april, beautiful, frosty, morning, and, went, to, church, where, the, speaker, arrived, much, to, s’s, relief, just, as, he, was, announcing, the, last, song, before, the, sermon, i, think, he, was, wondering, what, he, would, say, instead, of, the, prepared, sermon, went, to, son, s, foot, ball, cup, match, this, is, 10, year, olds, we, are, talking, about, and, the, referee, was, making, several, bad, decisions, including, a, dubious, penalty, against, his, team, northbank, the, crowd, well, about, 30, of, us, which, for, his, team, is, a, big, crowd, was, getting, a, bit, restless, robbie, was, sprinting, down, the, wing, in, front, of, his, dad, and, me, when, he, was, sent, flying, by, one, of, their, team, his, dad, then, shouted, ref, if, you, gave, a, penalty, for, them, for, nothing, you, could, at, least, give, us, a, foul, for, that, at, which, point, the, ref, blew, his, whistle, and, came, across, and, thumped, him, the, whole, thing, was, about, to, descend, in, to, a, brawl, as, i, and, another, parent, were, trying, to, restore, calm, by, telling, everyone, to, walk, away, which, they, did, followed, by, the, northbank, kids, game, abandoned, so, we, await, the, fa’s, report, so, with, that, and, the, carlisle, manager, being, sacked, and, the, knighton’s, trading, insults, with, the, prospective, buyer, for, carlisle, the, future, of, football, in, carlisle, is, not, looking, good, mon, 8th, last, day, off, for, sorting, out, vcf, magazine, and, getting, up, to, date, with, paper, work, etc, did, carrock, fell, where, we, did, not, see, another, walker, it, was, sunny, and, cold, but, beautiful, at, night, went, to, crusaders, area, meeting, where, they, are, trying, to, get, some, one, to, arrange, area, events, for, kids, and, to, support, the, group, structure, there, is, no, one, who, has, the, time, and, no, funding, to, appoint, a, post, to, do, it, so, went, around, in, circles, too, a, large, degree, but, meeting, decided, to, try, and, raise, the, funding, tues, 9th, feel, like, i, should, have, handed, in, notice, after, today, it, was, awful, going, back, the, response, to, the, advert, for, a, new, vet, now, stands, at, 2, students, who, have, yet, to, qualify, i, had, harry, giving, me, grief, over, the, fact, that, defra, promised, him, that, we, would, test, his, cattle, prior, to, turn, out, i, e, end, of, march, but, haven’t, told, us, very, helpful, his, allocation, has, not, even, come, through, they, are, useless, i, was, at, one, farm, that, has, half, restocked, because, the, parlour, is, not, yet, restored, the, heifers, are, calving, and, he, is, milking, into, a, dump, bucket, and, throwing, the, milk, away, he, can’t, get, more, stock, in, because, he, is, waiting, testing, for, brucellosis, as, his, heifers, were, on, the, same, farm, as, the, french, heifer, that, went, down, he, wanted, to, bring, them, direct, to, his, own, farm, they, would, not, let, him, bring, the, heifers, to, his, own, farm, because, the, paper, work, was, not, through, and, they, not, would, allow, multiple, drop, offs, idiots, so, with, high, levels, of, frustration, and, complete, overload, it, has, not, been, a, good, start, back, tomorrow, i, must, see, what, is, hiding, in, my, in, tray, as, i, never, had, a, chance, to, look, today, weds, 10th, quieter, day, and, managed, to, catch, up, with, paper, work, and, have, had, a, lot, of, next, week, mapped, out, so, feel, more, in, control, night, work, seems, to, be, easing, with, fewer, lambings, students, seem, to, be, enjoying, their, time, with, us, even, though, there, is, too, little, time, to, actually, teach, them, but, it, is, a, luxury, to, have, time, to, go, through, cases, with, them, as, we, take, them, on, a, voluntary, basis, and, at, the, moment, lunch, is, a, higher, priority, than, their, education, i’m, a, selfish, brat, thurs, 11th, spoke, too, soon, chaotic, again, managing, workload, with, so, much, fire, brigade, work, is, not, so, easy, fire, brigade, work, is, the, emergency, work, that, needs, seen, urgently, ie, today, if, not, now, son, isn’t, so, well, again, he, tired, easily, again, today, so, must, make, an, appointment, for, him, but, very, vague, signs, fri, 12th, half, day, finish, yo, i, could, really, get, into, a, 3, and, a, half, day, week, the, down, side, is, it, is, because, my, wife, is, going, away, for, the, w, e, so, i, have, to, be, finished, by, 3, 15, for, kids, as, i, want, to, have, the, people, carrier, i, also, have, to, muck, out, my, car, it, is, not, as, bad, since, fmd, another, positive, contribution, that, fmd, has, made, to, my, life, i, actually, feel, morally, obliged, to, keep, my, car, from, being, a, biohazard, ok, i, still, needed, a, wheelie, bin, to, through, all, the, post, it, notes, and, bits, of, cardboard, and, the, excessive, packaging, that, surrounds, any, medical, product, that, seems, to, find, its, way, on, to, the, back, seat, of, my, car, i, always, remember, reading, a, sunday, paper, article, about, what, cars, different, people, drove, and, what, they, had, lying, around, in, the, back, seat, and, what, this, showed, about, their, personality, i’m, sure, that, they, would, have, had, a, field, day, with, my, car, you, use, to, be, able, to, tell, farm, vets, cars, from, a, mile, off, but, they, have, all, gone, clean, and, shiny, sat, 13th, april, a, week, end, off, and, the, thought, of, a, saturday, morning, lie, in, unfortunately, there, is, a, football, tournament, in, carlisle, today, 9am, start, so, up, as, usual, and, get, into, town, but, managed, to, get, to, staples, which, i, have, been, trying, to, do, since, my, birthday, to, spend, my, birthday, money, the, difference, between, men, and, boys, is, the, size, of, their, toys, as, my, wife, frequently, reminds, me, so, i, am, the, proud, owner, of, a, digital, camera, the, question, is, when, will, i, find, time, to, set, it, up, took, back, all, the, library, books, and, made, the, mistake, of, checking, with, the, librarian, who, says, we, also, have, a, talking, book, and, another, junior, fiction, well, i, thought, it, would, have, been, lucky, to, get, them, all, if, they, ever, bring, in, fines, for, kids, we, are, sunk, how, does, my, wife, keep, track, of, them, all, came, home, and, enjoyed, the, good, weather, and, fortunately, the, team, bottomed, out, so, didn’t, get, into, the, next, round, v, asked, as, she, dropped, other, son, off, from, the, football, where, has, wife, gone, as, other, son, has, said, she, was, away, at, gruerly, where, is, that, she, is, away, for, a, girlie, w, e, so, we, had, time, for, a, family, cycle, ride, out, from, kirkbride, to, the, coast, it, was, beautiful, and, we, had, a, really, good, time, came, back, via, wigton, for, supplies, as, we, are, in, desperate, need, of, a, tesco, shop, sunday, 14th, had, an, easy, day, and, cooked, with, a, for, tomorrow, as, my, wife, is, doing, supply, next, week, its, ages, since, i, have, cooked, even, made, scones, church, was, a, video, sermon, which, was, ok, but, different, saw, p, he, s, back, from, nz, so, will, have, to, arrange, to, catch, up, he, was, incredibly, jet, lagged, it, must, be, sunday, cos, everyones, in, church, 36, hrs, travelling, wife, arrived, back, from, her, week, end, away, at, capernwray, having, had, a, week, end, that, sounded, as, if, they, had, all, gone, back, to, their, teenage, years, with, midnight, feasts, and, playing, tricks, on, each, other, she, was, quite, tired, and, pleased, to, have, an, early, night, mon, 15th, the, diary, has, unfortunately, died, at, this, point, and, it, is, 3, weeks, later, and, i, am, going, back, and, filling, in, the, details, as, i, remember, them, it, is, probably, the, bits, that, are, really, important, but, as, there, is, too, much, going, on, the, diary, has, remained, on, my, to, do, list, together, with, my, tax, return, and, a, small, mountain, of, paperwork, the, reasons, are, varied, but, one, of, them, is, that, my, youngest, lost, his, temper, with, the, computer, and, slammed, down, the, mouse, this, broke, the, left, right, bar, so, the, pointer, would, only, go, up, and, down, now, the, practice, manager, who, learnt, his, computing, in, the, dark, ages, of, doss, assures, me, you, do, not, need, a, mouse, to, operate, a, computer, but, as, i, have, enough, problems, trying, to, get, the, stupid, machine, to, do, what, i, want, it, to, with, a, mouse, forget, trying, shortcut, keys, and, arrows, so, a, new, mouse, was, bought, which, the, man, assured, my, wife, you, just, had, to, plug, in, and, hey, presto, it, would, find, a, driver, and, work, blank, screens, consult, hand, book, try, inserting, disk, try, exploring, disk, try, windows, disk, consult, practice, manager, who, as, you, may, have, gathered, is, my, it, guru, he, says, you, may, need, to, install, a, driver, if, it, doesn’t, work, it, will, be, on, the, disk, i, don’t, have, a, mouse, to, use, to, try, to, find, and, install, a, driver, he, assures, me, again, you, don’t, need, a, mouse, i, understand, why, my, youngest, son, lost, his, temper, with, the, stupid, machine, being, the, mature, adult, that, i, can, some, times, be, i, walk, away, to, cool, off, but, don’t, feel, like, trying, again, for, 24, hours, with, a, new, mouse, which, the, man, assured, my, wife, you, just, had, to, plug, in, and, hey, presto, it, would, find, a, driver, and, work, plugged, it, in, it, said, looking, for, driver, installing, driver, and, it, worked, why, why, not, first, time, tuesday, thursday, riding, lights, went, to, see, riding, lights, who, are, a, christian, theatre, group, who, were, performing, at, the, senior, school, at, night, they, were, extremely, funny, and, hard, hitting, and, very, pointed, all, at, the, same, time, it, was, a, magazine, of, sketches, on, all, sorts, of, different, things, modern, interpretations, of, parables, and, bible, stories, sketches, asking, questions, about, society, and, how, we, view, things, very, difficult, to, put, into, words, but, thought, provoking, on, lots, of, levels, sat, 20th, april, to, weds, 24th, april, lost, in, the, mists, of, time, thursday, 25th, starting, the, diary, again, after, having, missed, 10, days, with, too, much, going, on, the, spring, work, is, chaotic, with, a, lot, of, problems, we, are, trying, to, run, the, practice, on, 5, vets, plus, a, part, time, locum, instead, of, 7, full, time, at, this, time, of, year, i, had, said, we, should, have, advertised, and, tried, to, get, some, one, at, xmas, but, the, view, was, that, falling, milk, price, would, mean, less, work, but, the, defra, tasting, is, more, than, making, up, for, those, who, haven’t, restocked, and, those, who, have, gone, out, of, dairy, which, brings, us, the, most, work, but, saying, i, told, you, so, does, not, help, so, i’ll, just, keep, my, big, mouth, shut, as, the, practice, manager, says, the, good, old, days, when, we, new, what, the, rota, was, going, to, be, and, we, were, not, just, making, up, it, up, as, we, went, along, we, have, had, over, a, year, of, crisis, management, now, the, end, must, be, nigh, as, this, is, a, health, survey, apart, from, feeling, pressure, of, work, i, am, have, also, managed, to, catch, ringworm, on, my, leg, a, fungal, infection, from, cows, and, it, is, itchy, and, sore, and, not, responding, to, my, treatment, i, will, have, to, get, gp’s, opinion, friday, 26th, april, remind, me, next, time, not, to, try, to, interview, during, busy, periods, it, is, very, embarrassing, to, turn, up, late, to, the, interview, we, had, a, chaotic, day, but, managed, to, interview, her, she, is, frighteningly, well, prepared, and, had, lists, of, questions, i, hope, we, didn’t, put, her, off, by, being, so, disorganised, i, think, the, sandale, view, will, be, more, influential, as, part, of, the, interview, we, always, take, them, up, to, sandale, viewpoint, to, show, them, the, practice, spread, out, panoramically, beneath, them, well, it, sold, me, the, job, after, finally, getting, finished, i, was, exhausted, but, had, people, to, dinner, so, had, to, stay, awake, and, be, sociable, sat, 27th, april, had, folk, to, dinner, last, night, which, after, working, flat, out, was, probably, not, such, a, clever, idea, didn’t, fall, asleep, but, this, morning, i, feel, like, death, warmed, up, and, we, have, another, interview, this, morning, i, don’t, think, i, can, make, a, good, impression, so, it, is, a, good, job, that, i, am, looking, to, employ, rather, than, be, employed, the, candidate, is, from, a, kirby, stephen, farmers, daughter, and, so, is, at, an, immediate, advantage, she, seems, fine, so, we, will, offer, her, the, job, the, question, is, should, we, offer, them, both, a, job, went, to, bed, feeling, ill, and, with, a, migraine, and, slept, all, afternoon, and, then, in, bed, for, 9pm, sad, or, what, sun, 28th, feel, a, lot, better, for, the, sleep, and, church, was, af, speaking, he, is, always, entertaining, his, opening, slide, was, knighton, in, for, those, of, you, who, do, not, keep, up, with, the, footie, in, carlisle, michael, knighton, is, the, hated, owner, of, carlisle, united, who, is, trying, to, get, the, club, relegated, so, he, can, build, houses, on, the, land, he, is, destroying, the, club, and, it, is, not, popular, anyway, the, second, slide, was, here, for, grace, and, forgiveness, he, went, on, to, say, that, church, should, be, where, the, failures, should, feel, loved, and, welcome, as, we, all, need, god’s, love, and, forgiveness, he, was, really, good, both, entertaining, and, making, real, points, spent, time, in, the, garden, and, playing, footie, with, the, boys, mon, 29th, monday, morning, and, that, sinking, feeling, not, helped, by, my, wife’s, teaching, 3, days, this, week, and, a, trustees, meeting, for, borderline, which, means, additional, pressure, after, running, around, all, morning, and, working, out, the, amount, of, holiday, we, are, all, owed, the, conclusion, is, that, we, will, employ, them, both, i, am, owed, 46, days, holiday, so, if, i, can, take, 2, months, off, that, plus, the, sabbatical, i, am, owed, means, i, could, take, 5, months, off, i, wish, it, were, happening, the, 5, vets, are, owed, over, 200, days, between, us, which, will, be, almost, a, vet, for, a, year, as, this, is, a, health, diary, i, should, mention, my, visit, to, the, doctor, after, a, half, an, hour, wait, past, my, appointment, time, fizzing, knowing, that, i, would, have, to, make, the, time, up, later, in, my, evening, i, finally, saw, the, doc, who, agreed, with, my, diagnosis, and, agreed, with, my, treatment, only, an, occupational, hazard, of, farm, work, ring, worm, he, did, take, scrapings, but, that, is, all, tuesday, testing, next, door, why, do, we, always, end, up, working, in, a, pen, under, the, railway, in, a, middle, of, a, stream, why, they, cannot, build, a, pen, on, dry, land, away, from, the, trains, i, don’t, know, i, suppose, they, have, always, done, it, that, way, but, the, first, you, know, of, a, train, is, the, thunder, as, it, goes, over, your, head, which, startles, the, cows, who, jump, sending, a, muddy, slurry, flying, everywhere, william, is, still, not, wearing, a, helmet, for, the, quad, bike, as, he, drives, around, despite, his, fathers, protests, their, neighbour, the, other, way, is, brain, damaged, after, coming, off, his, weds, 1st, of, may, mayday, the, radio, is, predicting, riots, in, paris, against, or, for, le, pen, anti, globalists, in, london, but, i, feel, a, real, peace, with, the, turning, of, the, month, it, is, funny, how, a, different, month, can, make, you, feel, so, different, april, is, always, the, worst, month, at, work, with, a, lot, of, routine, work, dehorning, and, testing, and, a, lot, of, lambings, and, calvings, and, emergencies, even, though, the, beginning, of, may, is, just, the, same, i, always, feel, we, have, passed, the, peak, and, we, can, cruise, into, summer, the, fact, that, both, have, accepted, the, jobs, and, that, we, will, have, more, cover, helps, though, they, will, not, start, until, summer, thursday, 2nd, may, in, spite, of, all, yesterdays, predictions, there, wasn’t, any, trouble, in, paris, or, london, only, cyclists, causing, traffic, jams, what, is, about, the, media, that, they, have, to, report, the, bad, news, not, the, good, news, i, haven’t, seen, anything, beyond, the, cumberland, news, on, the, farms, restocking, stopped, at, beckfoot, on, my, rounds, and, sat, in, the, sunshine, on, the, beach, for, 10, mins, and, thought, this, is, the, life, though, in, talking, to, one, of, the, neighbours, one, of, the, farmers, is, having, real, problems, getting, motivated, he, had, milking, ayrshires, really, quiet, cows, who, you, could, do, anything, with, their, idea, of, getting, excited, was, turn, out, time, and, moving, into, a, fast, amble, to, the, spring, pastures, he, has, bought, in, really, wild, suckler, limousin, x’s, if, you, look, at, them, the, wrong, way, they, put, their, tails, in, the, air, and, take, off, i, was, there, dehorning, and, we, lost, one, which, jumped, over, a, gate, another, put, its, tail, in, the, air, and, took, off, only, stopping, when, it, came, to, the, block, wall, at, the, end, of, the, yard, unfortunately, it, didn’t, stop, fast, enough, and, crashed, headlong, into, it, it, now, has, a, definite, tilt, to, it, the, wall, isn’t, too, hot, either, i, think, if, i, had, to, look, after, the, likes, of, them, i, wouldn’t, be, too, keen, to, get, out, of, bed, either, friday, 3rd, may, spoke, too, early, about, things, easing, off, 2, bad, calvings, a, caesarean, and, testing, plus, the, usual, ill, animals, but, got, finished, for, 5, 45, and, took, my, wife, out, for, dinner, at, the, cockatoo, in, cockermouth, very, pleasant, but, while, she, wanted, to, go, on, to, socialise, at, 10pm, i, wanted, home, to, bed, sat, 4th, may, off, yippee, took, the, kids, to, nichol, end, and, went, canoeing, on, the, lake, got, absolutely, frozen, but, was, really, good, fun, it, rained, in, spite, of, all, the, good, weather, forecasts, but, with, our, style, of, canoeing, we, are, always, soaked, anyway, had, a, picnic, on, one, of, the, islands, and, had, fun, came, back, and, slept, for, the, afternoon, should, have, taken, the, boys, to, see, the, fa, cup, but, they, were, happy, playing, around, watched, ghandi, on, dvd, at, night, it, is, a, very, moving, film, and, the, ambiguities, and, politics, came, through, to, a, muted, extent, which, was, interesting, it, often, makes, me, wonder, about, how, much, of, govt, policy, is, personality, driven, again, the, inability, of, individuals, to, fight, the, system, came, through, the, front, page, of, the, times, this, morning, was, on, a, toddler, who, had, died, from, post, op, haemorrhage, following, the, use, of, disposable, instruments, in, a, tonsillectomy, large, amounts, of, money, have, been, spent, on, disposable, instruments, that, are, always, inferior, to, good, quality, surgical, kit, several, people, have, died, because, of, their, use, because, no, one, wanted, to, take, the, very, small, theoretical, risk, that, they, may, transfer, nvcjd, the, approach, to, risk, management, and, prioritisation, within, government, and, the, civil, service, is, very, poor, but, to, be, fait, to, them, the, press, is, not, helpful, i, would, like, to, see, prescott, stand, up, and, say, that, he, wants, more, deaths, on, the, railways, but, he, never, will, if, less, money, was, spent, on, safety, on, the, railways, more, trains, at, more, convenient, times, were, run, at, lower, costs, then, there, would, be, fewer, deaths, on, the, roads, but, as, no, one, holds, politicians, responsible, for, deaths, on, the, roads, it, ain’t, gonna, happen, sun, 5th, may, church, was, dn, who, is, brilliant, at, getting, the, kids, involved, son, s, face, lit, up, when, we, were, walking, in, to, church, to, see, him, walking, down, botchergate, with, guitar, in, hand, he, had, a, skin, that, had, been, cast, from, a, snake, and, based, his, songs, with, the, kids, and, his, talks, with, them, on, being, a, new, creation, cor, 5, vs, 17, getting, rid, of, the, old, self, and, hence, the, snake, skin, he, is, brilliant, on, the, guitar, and, a, real, performer, wasted, as, a, tax, inspector, mon, 6th, may, maybe, getting, the, kids, soaked, and, frozen, on, sat, was, not, a, good, idea, as, they, are, all, coming, down, with, colds, now, tim, is, very, chesty, and, was, up, in, the, night, hot, and, wheezy, any, infection, always, goes, for, his, chest, so, helvellyn, will, have, to, wait, for, another, day, so, concreted, posts, and, pressure, washed, the, yard, the, boys, loved, helping, then, demanded, i, play, football, as, payment, ag, was, here, as, his, dad, was, dropping, off, the, caravan, after, being, away, for, the, w, e, p, called, up, from, manchester, en, route, for, thailand, she, is, handing, in, her, notice, and, going, booked, summer, holiday, in, france, and, now, have, to, work, out, what, we, are, doing, on, the, way, there, and, back, tues, 7th, may, went, testing, but, i, really, do, have, the, kids, bug, and, feel, hot, and, feverish, went, to, bed, for, rest, of, day, weds, 8th, didn’t, feel, like, getting, out, of, bed, but, went, to, work, first, was, a, deer, rta, i, was, supposed, to, meet, a, police, car, there, but, no, police, either, car, or, policeman, i, am, glad, it, wasn’t, too, controversial, or, important, so, i, have, taken, all, details, and, hope, that, that, is, the, end, of, it, this, afternoon, was, spent, chasing, stirks, around, a, field, and, abbeytown, we, dehorned, them, they, should, have, been, done, this, time, last, year, but, were, n’t, because, of, fmd, they’re, now, 2, yr, old, which, means, they, were, really, too, big, to, go, around, upsetting, two, went, through, the, dyke, one, way, the, other, went, through, the, other, side, into, some, one’s, garden, and, on, to, the, abbeytown, road, so, it, was, a, bit, of, a, rodeo, it, ended, up, charging, m, who, hurt, his, shoulder, trying, to, escape, he, was, not, happy, as, this, morning, he, got, his, letter, asking, him, to, cut, back, is, milk, production, he, had, jokingly, asked, what, was, i, doing, this, winter, as, all, the, farmers, will, have, given, up, by, christmas, the, long, term, out, look, is, not, good, but, at, least, we, will, have, 2, new, graduates, in, training, to, cope, with, the, upturn, when, if, it, comes, thurs, 9th, day, off, unfortunately, spent, the, morning, shopping, in, carlisle, which, meant, wandering, around, shops, and, trying, to, find, clothes, i, needed, a, my, daughter, as, my, dress, sense, leaves, a, lot, to, be, desired, and, she, keeps, me, right, met, gb, another, carlisle, vet, which, was, good, i, haven’t, seen, him, for, a, bit, had, lunch, out, which, was, nice, though, also, got, all, the, bits, for, the, tennis, net, so, will, be, able, to, get, it, up, the, annoying, bit, was, i, got, a, parking, ticket, which, sent, my, blood, pressure, up, now, i, know, i, often, park, with, out, paying, and, in, the, wrong, places, that, is, just, living, dangerously, but, as, we, were, in, carlisle, and, had, decided, to, go, out, for, lunch, and, for, some, reason, i, was, in, wife, s, car, as, usual, there, was, no, change, in, the, car, well, as, usual, there, was, no, money, at, all, i, only, had, myself, to, blame, i, know, she, never, has, change, in, the, car, i, only, had, enough, for, 2, hours, in, my, pocket, which, to, be, honest, is, in, my, opinion, quite, long, enough, in, carlisle, shops, so, on, the, way, to, lunch, out, i, made, a, special, trip, back, to, the, car, park, armed, with, coins, ready, to, pay, the, city, council, the, extortionate, fee, so, i, could, spend, more, money, in, carlisle, city, shops, the, first, machine, refused, my, coins, i, even, tried, a, 2nd, machine, that, also, refused, to, accept, my, hard, earned, cash, so, i, left, a, note, saying, the, machine, was, not, working, in, the, windscreen, and, yes, you, guessed, it, i, came, back, to, find, a, traffic, warden, giving, me, a, ticket, who, justified, his, action, by, saying, there, w, ere, 4, machines, from, which, i, could, have, bought, a, ticket, grrrrhhh, fri, 10th, finish, of, another, week, with, more, tb, testing, a, lot, of, cows, from, netherlands, mris, meuse, rhine, issel, very, good, beefy, looking, dairy, cows, dual, purpose, why, we, have, to, test, them, i, don’t, know, but, we, have, to, keep, page, st, happy, they, were, all, tested, prior, to, export, from, holland, and, they, want, them, tested, again, the, farmer, is, very, bio, security, conscious, and, has, his, land, all, in, a, single, block, now, bounded, by, roads, or, arable, cultivation, all, the, other, cattle, he, insisted, were, tested, and, he, had, the, results, prior, to, purchase, in, spite, of, all, his, good, sense, he, is, still, going, on, about, the, missing, vials, from, porton, down, and, other, paranoid, conspiracy, theories, on, the, spread, of, fmd, but, a, part, from, cold, flu, feel, as, though, things, are, getting, back, on, track, we, can, look, to, the, next, 12, months, with, confidence, thereafter, depends, on, whether, the, wto, wins, over, the, eu, to, get, rid, of, subsidies, or, whether, maintaining, the, food, supply, within, the, eu, is, seen, as, important, the, one, thing, the, fmd, has, taught, me, is, that, you, never, know, what, will, be, coming, next, i, do, feel, guilty, about, saying, there, should, be, more, train, crashes, after, seeing, the, crash, in, the, news, today, at, potters, bar, sat, 11th, may, working, the, w, e, again, saw, another, calf, with, ccn, caused, by, a, deficiency, of, b1, usually, rare, but, seems, to, be, much, more, prevalent, this, year, due, to, old, grass, on, pastures, don’t, know, had, a, greyhound, client, in, bringing, in, a, greyhound, on, behalf, of, some, one, else, who, has, been, chased, from, the, practice, for, non, payment, so, had, a, stressful, half, hour, negotiating, with, an, irate, idiot, but, he, paid, his, old, bill, and, stumped, up, front, for, the, new, one, and, seemed, placated, treating, the, animals, is, easy, spent, the, afternoon, in, the, garden, and, fixing, up, the, tennis, nat, we, were, given, an, old, second, hand, net, so, i, have, fixed, up, on, the, concrete, and, it, was, good, fun, playing, with, the, kids, the, concrete, is, not, level, and, has, lots, of, loose, stones, so, the, bounce, is, a, bit, erratic, went, to, a, 50th, birthday, party, for, which, i, was, teased, at, work, but, i, maintain, we, are, friends, with, the, children, in, their, 20, s, it, was, a, good, craic, and, the, food, was, brilliant, there, was, one, of, the, partners, from, a, lawyers, from, carlisle, there, complaining, that, he, could, only, have, an, hourly, rate, of, charging, out, at, 185, consequently, he, couldn’t, attract, good, lawyers, to, his, firm, because, the, city, firms, were, offering, far, greater, salaries, and, were, charging, out, their, juniors, at, 200, i, couldn’t, admit, that, our, hourly, rate, is, only, 45, and, that, i, think, that, 45, hour, is, a, lot, of, money, should, have, been, a, 9, to, 5, lawyer, sunday, went, to, church, nl, but, was, still, half, asleep, from, my, late, night, spent, all, afternoon, and, evening, out, on, calls, was, ok, till, the, midnight, call, when, i, decided, that, being, a, lawyer, was, probably, a, much, better, idea, monday, 13th, half, asleep, after, the, w, e, so, took, a, little, while, to, get, going, having, kept, this, week, a, bit, quieter, as, there, should, have, been, a, lot, of, last, minute, dehorning, and, castrating, it, hasn’t, come, in, so, we, really, are, quieter, so, did, some, office, work, but, trying, to, work, out, why, the, two, computer, systems, we, have, do, not, have, the, same, balances, on, their, accounts, with, a, tired, sore, head, is, not, worthwhile, but, it, was, preferable, to, sorting, rotas, so, i, when, came, home, i, sat, and, read, tintin, much, to, my, wife’s, disgust, i, also, looked, at, my, cash, flow, predictions, which, were, totally, out, of, line, i, usually, take, a, pessimistic, view, so, as, err, on, the, side, of, caution, but, they, are, totally, out, fortunately, the, right, way, the, partners, think, it, is, a, waste, of, time, and, effort, to, try, to, predict, how, much, of, the, bills, the, farmers, are, going, to, pay, in, any, month, some, pay, every, month, but, most, pay, every, now, and, again, either, when, they, have, time, or, money, or, when, the, accountant, or, vat, man, needs, the, books, i, suppose, they, are, right, who, cares, so, long, as, they, do, pay, also, finally, caught, up, with, gp, as, ringworm, still, not, getting, better, so, finally, on, antifungals, if, the, farmers, couldn’t, get, hold, of, a, vet, pretty, quickly, to, discuss, what’s, going, on, they, would, give, us, earache, tuesday, 14th, halfway, through, may, and, time, to, get, the, rest, of, the, planting, done, in, the, garden, beautiful, weather, and, feels, like, summer, is, here, gg, had, a, visit, from, trading, standards, over, the, bulls, for, which, he, had, given, a, certificate, of, fitness, to, travel, there, is, now, no, slaughterhouse, within, an, hour’s, drive, of, here, for, cattle, ulverston, is, the, nearest, if, an, animal, is, not, fit, to, be, transported, alive, for, some, reason, e.g, because, it, is, lame, or, blind, etc, then, it, has, to, be, shot, on, the, farm, and, the, carcase, transported, to, the, slaughterhouse, however, under, the, new, meat, hygiene, regulations, of, 2, 3, years, ago, the, carcase, has, to, arrive, within, an, hour, of, being, shot, which, was, fine, while, black, brow, was, operating, the, slaughterhouse, but, since, it, has, closed, there, are, no, options, for, any, animals, to, be, shot, on, the, farm, unless, you, put, it, in, your, own, freezer, for, your, own, consumption, thus, whereas, if, there, were, borderline, cases, before, they, were, shot, on, the, farm, and, the, carcases, transported, now, the, pressure, is, to, get, them, transported, alive, or, the, farmer, loses, the, value, of, the, animal, 500, 600, and, has, to, pay, 75, to, get, them, shot, and, disposed, of, the, sooner, either, carlisle, slaughterhouse, or, black, brow, slaughterhouse, get, working, again, the, better, weds, 15th, day, off, spent, the, morning, catching, up, on, paper, work, feel, better, for, it, but, never, my, favourite, job, but, all, the, bits, and, pieces, are, in, place, for, my, tax, return, just, waiting, for, the, final, few, pieces, of, paper, wrote, a, caustic, letter, to, council, about, the, parking, ticket, but, sent, them, a, cheque, as, not, worth, the, fight, went, to, up, front, art, gallery, for, lunch, some, one, had, made, a, set, of, peat, rings, with, a, golden, bowl, at, the, centre, and, wanted, hundreds, of, pounds, for, their, art, creation, if, you, don’t, ask, you, don’t, get, spent, afternoon, running, the, kids, as, wife, was, taking, a, in, town, for, hair, cut, and, girl, time, last, football, match, for, northbank, and, son, lost, thursday, 16th, the, long, lunch, is, back, there, wasn’t, much, happening, vet, wise, but, still, a, lambing, today, as, the, season, has, dragged, on, one, restocking, farmer, was, in, today, with, a, ewe, to, be, lambed, of, the, 200, sheep, he, is, supposed, to, be, fattening, for, market, 20, have, lambed, the, guy, he, bought, them, from, is, adamant, they, were, never, near, a, tup, someone, needs, to, tell, him, about, the, birds, and, the, bees, there, was, also, a, good, if, slightly, apocryphal, story, from, defra, licensing, when, they, needed, a, licence, to, move, a, bull, the, licensing, department, asked, is, this, bull, going, to, be, used, for, breeding, purposes, yes, is, the, farmers, reply, will, this, animal, be, coming, in, to, contact, with, any, other, animals, friday, 17th, another, tb, test, another, restocking, farm, more, stories, the, best, one, was, the, fact, that, their, cattle, had, lain, for, a, week, in, the, pasture, field, after, being, shot, they, decided, to, plough, it, out, for, barley, in, the, back, end, having, spent, the, summer, pressure, washing, the, farm, buildings, to, a, gleaming, state, of, sterility, where, the, animals, had, lain, there, was, still, obvious, contamination, with, blood, etc, when, they, ploughed, it, but, having, failed, the, buildings, on, specks, of, dirt, defra, were, just, not, interested, in, contaminated, blood, stained, earth, they, had, also, phoned, the, day, before, i, arrived, to, send, some, one, out, to, arrange, tb, testing, the, chaos, in, there, continues, sat, 18th, may, i, am, to, be, best, man, a, friend, was, around, last, night, with, news, about, getting, married, we, have, a, wedding, every, month, for, the, next, 4, months, must, be, something, in, the, water, at, the, moment, unfortunately, it, meant, it, was, a, really, late, night, celebrating, and, i, am, working, the, w, e, again, so, getting, up, for, saturday, morning, surgery, was, a, bit, grim, i, survived, and, so, did, most, of, the, animals, the, worrying, thing, is, i, am, sure, that, drs, are, just, the, same, spent, the, afternoon, playing, football, and, tennis, with, the, kids, in, the, yard, and, mowing, the, grass, the, farmers, are, all, now, silaging, and, the, roads, are, full, of, tractors, flying, around, at, all, times, of, night, and, day, sat, evening, went, with, wife, to, hear, sa, speak, at, kd’s, it, was, good, to, see, him, and, clare, again, we, visited, them, in, bombay, at, the, height, of, fmd, and, it, always, puts, things, back, into, perspective, he, runs, a, mission, hospital, in, thane, an, outskirt, of, bombay, they, have, it, self, funding, by, charging, the, rich, for, luxury, service, a, long, way, behind, the, nhs, and, providing, a, basic, service, foc, for, the, average, indian, he, is, now, talking, about, trying, to, raise, funding, for, building, an, aids, hospice, to, provide, pain, relief, and, dignity, to, those, who, are, dieing, of, aids, because, of, the, stigma, and, cost, and, risk, of, cross, infection, of, both, hiv, and, tb, a, lot, of, aids, patients, are, just, thrown, out, of, their, homes, and, hiv, ve, babies, are, abandoned, as, he, says, there, is, an, epidemic, sweeping, bombay, that, will, leave, a, lot, of, orphans, and, cause, secondary, epidemics, because, of, immuno, suppression, and, it, is, not, really, being, addressed, very, thought, provoking, and, makes, the, millions, wasted, on, fmd, look, very, sick, in, a, global, perspective, sun, missed, church, in, the, morning, as, was, seeing, to, cats, and, dogs, in, the, surgery, and, dripping, calf, in, the, large, animal, bay, spent, most, of, afternoon, on, visits, all, work, and, no, play, is, making, me, a, grumpy, boy, 2, w, es, in, a, row, is, not, good, mon, aw, is, in, worse, mood, than, me, and, at, least, i, have, worked, w, e, she, is, winding, every, one, up, with, her, attitude, it, is, sthg, that, will, have, to, be, addressed, but, will, have, to, be, a, partnership, decision, wife, was, interviewing, fc, tonight, at, christian, viewpoint, in, carlisle, and, came, back, full, of, it, she, is, good, with, people, and, interviewing, she, was, also, challenged, by, what, f, was, saying, about, the, importance, of, treating, people, as, loved, and, valued, by, god, in, some, ways, very, similar, to, s, about, valuing, aids, patients, we, are, all, valued, by, god, tuesday, missed, gym, for, 3rd, week, i, am, going, to, be, getting, really, unfit, i, was, on, duty, and, had, spent, time, talking, with, folk, at, work, valuing, them, but, it, was, nice, as, a, came, out, with, me, and, she, always, likes, being, on, call, with, me, but, i, never, seem, to, know, what’s, going, on, in, her, mind, still, waters, run, deep, weds, dad, phoned, and, has, decided, not, to, come, on, the, w, e, away, this, w, e, it, is, a, family, reunion, but, it, looks, like, it, will, be, just, our, family, and, p’s, but, the, kids, love, meeting, up, with, the, cousins, even, a, who, will, no, doubt, complain, that, there, should, be, some, girl, cousins, she, is, the, only, girl, on, both, wife, s, side, of, the, family, and, mine, it, is, a, bit, worrying, in, that, he, is, losing, confidence, in, doing, anything, outside, his, normal, routine, it, is, at, times, like, this, you, realise, london, is, not, really, very, close, the, other, problem, is, working, so, many, w, es, doesn’t, give, much, time, for, the, travelling, up, and, down, to, see, him, thursday, g, was, away, on, a, course, yesterday, and, came, back, full, of, doom, and, gloom, for, along, time, we, have, relied, on, the, drug, sales, as, a, substantial, part, of, the, business, there, have, been, various, government, reports, that, have, queried, our, monopoly, and, there, is, a, move, to, insist, that, we, provide, prescriptions, for, all, the, drugs, and, then, allow, the, farmers, or, pet, owners, to, buy, the, drugs, from, whatever, source, they, want, internet, pharmacy, or, us, it, means, however, that, the, professional, fees, will, inevitably, have, to, rise, to, compensate, which, means, it, will, be, uneconomic, for, the, farmers, to, use, us, so, they, will, not, in, the, present, economic, climate, which, means, no, job, carlisle, brampton, and, dalston, vets, are, all, starting, to, write, prescriptions, which, means, that, we, are, going, to, have, to, follow, suit, the, farmer, who, rents, my, field, was, silaging, tonight, i, got, back, from, house, group, to, find, a, tractor, follow, me, in, to, start, rowing, up, as, they, had, been, at, it, all, day, i, decided, to, take, the, gates, off, their, hinges, as, it, is, a, narrow, gap, and, at, that, time, of, night, a, clunk, against, the, pillar, is, ok, but, i, don’t, want, to, have, to, replace, my, wooden, gates, they, had, just, started, to, pick, it, up, when, i, went, to, bed, at, 11pm, so, no, idea, what, time, they, finished, friday, g, is, off, ill, help, it, looked, as, though, i, might, miss, out, on, the, w, e, away, as, he, is, working, the, w, e, but, the, fact, it, would, have, meant, 3, w, e’s, in, a, row, and, 6, nights, in, a, row, managed, to, help, persuade, one, of, the, assistants, to, step, in, thankfully, so, i, finished, at, lunch, time, and, slept, to, catch, up, from, the, on, call, until, the, kids, came, home, from, school, and, set, off, for, the, w, e, saturday, 25th, may, dovedale, in, the, derbyshire, peak, district, definitely, should, have, more, w, es, away, and, not, working, we, had, a, great, time, with, the, cousins, stayed, at, a, farmhouse, b, b, it, use, to, be, a, working, farm, but, is, too, high, up, and, to, small, to, sustain, the, dairy, so, they, went, out, of, that, 3, yrs, ago, beef, and, sheep, was, not, making, any, money, so, they, have, concentrated, on, tourism, and, grass, let, the, fields, his, neighbours, are, now, renting, the, land, and, farming, it, beautiful, walk, along, the, valley, and, had, tea, out, relaxed, and, slept, like, a, log, sunday, great, british, summer, makes, you, wonder, why, any, one, would, want, to, go, abroad, wet, and, cold, so, went, to, water, world, and, watched, the, kids, big, and, little, go, flying, around, the, flumes, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, my, brother, and, family, the, boys, would, play, footie, all, day, long, and, be, happy, monday, off, to, catch, my, breath, and, tidy, up, flat, for, tenants, arriving, thursday, spent, day, trying, to, reduce, the, weeds, in, garden, and, went, swimming, at, night, the, boys, still, wanted, to, play, footie, where, do, they, get, their, energy, if, i, could, bottle, it, i, would, make, a, fortune, tuesday, it, felt, like, hard, work, going, back, to, work, after, time, off, i, always, seem, to, be, tired, and, head, achy, it, seems, to, be, hard, work, to, get, going, again, ai, just, don’t, feel, like, doing, anything, including, writing, this, diary, but, the, good, news, is, that, we, have, a, new, booted, bantie, bertie, the, cockerel, and, he, is, now, ensconced, in, his, run, we, are, hoping, to, get, him, some, young, ladies, in, the, not, too, distant, future, he, is, cute, and, a, is, over, the, moon, about, him, weds, getting, going, again, spent, time, talking, with, my, wife, who, as, always, puts, things, back, in, to, line, communication, went, to, do, some, pregnancy, diagnosis, early, this, morning, and, the, farmer, was, complaining, about, the, cost, of, his, vet, bill, and, is, wanting, to, learn, how, to, check, cows, to, see, if, they, are, in, calf, prior, to, drying, off, the, whole, economics, of, dairy, practice, with, milk, at, 13p, per, litre, is, beginning, to, hit, home, to, them, cannot, be, nice, starting, up, again, to, realise, that, you, cannot, make, money, at, doing, it, one, of, the, other, vets, is, in, really, bad, form, this, week, and, is, causing, a, lot, of, friction, and, we, will, have, to, deal, with, it, as, the, staff, are, up, in, arms, at, least, i, am, off, tomorrow, prior, to, working, jubilee, w, e, my, mother, in, law, arrived, which, the, kids, love, complete, with, her, special, treats, for, them, snowballs, went, out, for, dinner, with, mother, in, law, but, too, tired, to, enjoy, it, due, to, early, morning, caesarean, thursday, off, spent, morning, getting, flat, ready, as, we, have, new, tenants, moving, in, and, clearing, up, while, the, girls, went, shopping, dry, weather, but, intermittent, heavy, showers, tackled, the, long, grass, at, front, but, the, grass, got, too, wet, and, clogged, mower, picked, up, kids, and, did, the, fatherly, bit, went, to, bed, early, as, head, achy, and, washed, out, and, caught, up, on, zzzz’s, friday, start, of, the, jubilee, w, e, and, on, duty, for, the, next, 5, days, until, 5pm, weds, evening, work, busy, with, bits, and, pieces, and, farmers, complaining, that, it, is, too, wet, to, silage, one, of, the, vets, had, issued, a, pets, export, certificate, for, a, cat, to, come, back, into, uk, but, had, put, it, down, for, 2, years, not, one, it, is, only, valid, for, 2, years, in, dogs, but, 1, year, in, cats, typical, friday, afternoon, problem, to, sort, out, the, help, line, is, closed, for, training, and, maff, offices, are, closed, for, the, bh, w, e, i, don’t, think, there, is, a, way, around, it, either, but, will, not, be, able, to, sort, it, out, till, weds, day, and, they, are, due, on, ferry, on, tuesday, oops, also, a, bitch’s, owner, came, in, to, ask, if, we, were, open, tues, as, she, is, due, on, that, date, and, will, probably, need, a, caesaer, johnboy, called, in, the, evening, wanting, me, to, go, to, the, loyal, supporters, meeting, at, carlisle, united, as, a, spy, i’m, on, call, so, couldn’t, oblige, thank, goodness, sat, 1st, june, office, staff, were, asking, why, is, there, only, 2, vets, on, the, whole, w, e, and, i, am, beginning, to, feel, the, same, should, have, split, it, up, and, had, more, staff, on, but, at, least, the, others, will, get, a, break, and, come, back, refreshed, but, i, feel, like, i, am, looking, down, the, barrel, of, a, gun, horrendous, calving, on, a, heifer, that, was, in, calf, by, mistake, to, its, father, it, was, supposed, to, have, gone, back, to, its, breeder, but, the, buyer, was, still, tied, up, under, the, twenty, day, rule, the, calf, had, died, and, was, gassed, up, ended, up, by, caesaering, in, spite, of, rotten, calf, 2, hours, hard, work, and, the, heifer, will, at, best, be, very, ill, for, several, days, sun, 2nd, june, a, day, of, football, went, to, church, and, made, a, quick, exit, to, watch, the, football, as, with, everyone, else, was, quite, disappointed, at, hebron, at, night, dm, had, the, goals, and, the, reactions, to, them, on, the, big, screen, which, he, linked, to, romans, 12, therefore, i, urge, you, to, offer, your, bodies, as, living, sacrifices, this, is, your, act, of, spiritual, worship, talking, about, worship, to, god, being, everything, we, do, including, how, we, react, to, how, the, english, football, team, perform, very, clever, and, memorable, way, of, expounding, the, bible, went, straight, on, to, son, s, football, presentations, which, was, quite, fun, there, is, a, real, football, sub, culture, with, the, amateur, football, clubs, in, carlisle, all, vying, for, the, top, spot, the, old, pals, network, and, animosities, seem, to, be, very, prevalent, mon, 3rd, june, busy, night, and, early, start, 2, x, prolapses, why, always, at, a, bh, the, second, one, was, a, wild, limousin, heifer, it, charged, me, and, sent, me, flying, the, only, injury, was, a, sore, fist, where, i, thumped, it, in, the, eye, to, try, and, deflect, it, as, i, was, trying, to, get, it, away, gave, me, a, fright, it, was, a, heifer, that, was, bred, because, he, couldn’t, sell, it, store, last, year, because, of, restrictions, chatted, to, farmer, who, started, getting, up, at, 4, 30, am, during, fmd, because, he, couldn’t, sleep, he, is, still, doing, it, now, he, still, has, not, got, any, sheep, in, because, he, can’t, face, it, he, lost, his, sheep, to, the, cull, but, kept, his, cattle, i, had, started, by, admiring, the, view, he, said, yeah, it, would, be, great, apart, from, the, damn, windmills, he, has, a, brilliant, viewing, looking, out, over, the, solway, and, the, great, orton, site, and, the, windmills, remind, him, and, everyone, else, that, their, flocks, are, in, a, big, pit, he, says, he, can, still, see, them, going, and, feels, guilty, i, didn’t, have, the, heart, to, tell, him, that, of, the, 10,000, blood, samples, taken, at, gt, orton, only, 2, were, positive, a, very, big, mistake, that, has, caused, big, hurt, in, this, area, and, no, one, has, admitted, responsibility, and, no, one, ever, will, tues, 4th, june, watched, some, of, the, jubilee, stuff, on, tv, in, between, calls, amazing, sight, to, see, the, mall, full, of, people, more, than, ever, before, yet, rupert, murdoch, and, his, press, would, have, us, believe, that, the, monarchy, is, finished, we, managed, to, cope, with, just, the, two, of, us, on, call, so, may, be, i, was, right, also, made, a, start, on, byre, remind, me, next, time, we, have, a, dinner, party, on, a, bh, not, to, be, working, it, as, my, poor, wife, had, 4, kids, and, a, dinner, to, prepare, i, was, called, out, to, a, cow, caesar, at, 3, 30, and, then, had, another, call, after, that, fortunately, i, had, taken, tim, so, there, was, one, less, to, fight, but, got, back, to, be, told, that, i, had, to, have, a, bath, before, i, could, help, because, i, smelt, evening, was, really, good, fun, and, hilariously, funny, so, even, i, kept, going, to, the, wrong, side, of, midnight, which, after, an, early, start, was, pretty, good, going, i, will, have, to, get, phil, to, do, his, senator, homes, skit, at, the, wedding, weds, 5th, june, did, not, feel, like, getting, up, this, am, at, all, and, felt, even, less, like, going, into, work, managed, to, extricate, us, from, any, problems, with, the, cat, with, out, its, passport, there, is, no, give, in, the, defra, system, which, is, to, be, expected, richard, had, a, suspect, fmd, calf, on, tuesday, no, wonder, he, was, a, bit, jittery, when, i, spoke, to, him, later, on, even, though, you, know, that, it, probably, isn’t, going, to, be, a, case, and, that, the, farmer, is, panicking, it, still, sets, the, butterflies, flying, it, was, bvd, spent, over, an, hour, and, a, half, this, morning, on, the, phone, sorting, out, what, the, aw, calls, the, rubbish, queries, and, being, helpful, and, friendly, and, sorting, out, licensing, and, drugs, and, repeat, prescriptions, one, was, a, woman, complaining, about, the, neighbouring, practice, which, required, a, bit, of, tact, i, think, the, drs, must, have, been, as, busy, as, us, the, tally, for, the, celebrations, are, 1, off, ill, with, flu, and, bad, back, one, wrist, sprained, from, scooter, racing, at, a, street, party, after, all, the, kids, had, gone, to, bed, and, one, who, spent, the, w, e, visiting, her, boyfriend, in, hospital, she, had, said, that, he, needed, to, go, in, on, friday, but, the, doctors, had, put, him, off, as, it, was, the, w, e, he, was, worse, on, sunday, but, had, waited, till, after, the, football, before, ringing, priorities, priorities, thursday, went, to, house, group, which, was, really, good, and, spent, time, praying, for, the, group, church, area, and, for, world, situation, friends, are, trying, to, work, out, what, to, do, in, india, they, are, teaching, at, a, boarding, school, in, the, south, of, india, and, have, both, their, own, family, and, also, the, school, kids, to, think, about, the, consensus, is, that, the, foreign, office, advice, is, aimed, more, at, the, indian, and, pakistani, govts, than, the, uk, nationals, ian, is, supposed, to, be, visiting, and, has, a, flight, booked, so, is, still, going, at, the, moment, i, really, cant, believe, that, they, would, escalate, the, situation, but, it, will, be, tit, for, tat, and, then, going, to, the, brink, as, neither, will, want, to, break, face, the, ramifications, of, sept, 11th, still, keep, reverberating, around, the, world, as, the, balance, of, power, alters, makes, fmd, look, like, a, picnic, at, least, we, have, stable, govt, that, says, it, abides, by, the, laws, friday, the, secretary, asked, this, morning, what, did, i, want, meaning, tea, or, coffee, and, i, replied, as, i, had, prayed, wisdom, but, with, 2, sugars, we, had, a, difficult, partners, meeting, that, lunch, time, poor, timing, and, priorities, again, as, england, was, playing, i, had, assumed, they, would, lose, but, the, meeting, went, well, and, the, issues, were, discussed, amicably, enough, and, frankly, enough, so, we, all, know, where, we, are, at, and, issues, were, addressed, but, as, james, says, not, only, about, asking, for, wisdom, but, also, putting, it, into, action, at, night, leant, on, the, fence, and, talked, to, the, neighbour, as, the, thistles, i, was, supposed, to, be, cutting, down, carried, on, growing, but, it, was, a, nice, evening, he, works, for, stl, the, christian, book, distributors, he, was, saying, how, the, fire, that, they, had, just, after, he, arrived, at, the, time, seemed, a, disaster, and, caused, chaos, but, it, made, them, make, decisions, that, had, to, be, made, rather, than, continuing, with, the, status, quo, and, in, hind, sight, was, a, very, good, thing, i, wonder, when, we, look, back, whether, the, changes, and, opportunities, of, fmd, will, make, us, appreciate, the, decisions, we, have, all, had, to, make, it, made, me, think, of, the, woman, who, came, in, today, saying, she, was, one, of, the, lucky, ones, who, didn’t, get, fmd, very, much, tongue, in, cheek, as, they, are, much, worse, off, than, those, who, did, she, gave, up, her, job, as, they, couldn’t, sell, the, calves, as, they, were, born, and, so, some, one, had, to, look, after, them, so, she, went, back, home, to, work, on, the, farm, her, job, of, course, has, been, filled, in, the, mean, time, and, she, would, have, made, a, lot, more, money, for, less, hassle, if, she, had, stayed, sat, 8th, june, finished, the, long, period, of, work, and, on, call, on, sat, morning, and, it, came, down, with, heavy, showers, as, we, had, hoped, to, climb, helvellyn, today, it, eased, some, what, at, night, which, was, just, as, well, as, we, were, going, to, a, bbq, it, was, put, on, by, a, s, african, vet, from, defra, who, is, now, working, in, longtown, the, last, time, i, drove, through, to, charlie, and, ruth’s, who, were, hosting, the, bbq, was, when, the, pyres, were, all, burning, it, gave, me, a, funny, feeling, driving, back, up, there, the, food, was, good, and, the, craic, was, good, so, we, had, a, good, time, the, kids, would, have, kept, going, but, they, were, beginning, to, get, high, the, midges, once, you, get, north, of, the, border, are, definitely, worse, we, all, had, lumps, all, over, in, the, morning, sun, 9th, sb, spoke, at, church, on, jesus, healing, the, blind, man, at, pool, of, siloam, he, was, very, easy, to, follow, friends, called, in, and, stayed, for, tea, he, as, usual, blunt, and, controversial, as, ever, he, always, has, a, good, insight, and, dresses, it, up, in, taking, things, to, extremes, he, is, also, very, funny, with, it, so, had, a, good, meal, son, is, as, high, as, a, kite, as, he, is, going, camping, with, the, school, this, week, so, he, has, all, his, kit, ready, to, go, and, would, not, settle, to, go, to, sleep, and, kept, the, other, boys, awake, mon, 10th, pouring, down, in, time, for, the, school, camp, at, borrowdale, never, mind, they’ll, enjoy, it, any, way, 3, farms, have, had, silage, pits, burst, because, the, grass, has, been, put, in, too, wet, if, silage, is, made, when, the, grass, is, too, wet, it, flows, very, slowly, and, cannot, support, its, own, weight, so, it, bursts, the, side, walls, and, will, flow, out, of, the, heap, that, it, has, been, put, in, if, there, is, plenty, of, effluent, coming, off, it, will, usually, escape, from, the, normal, collecting, systems, and, if, it, gets, into, the, becks, it, is, worse, than, slurry, hunters, stream, was, black, with, effluent, and, the, environment, agency, were, out, testing, the, water, quality, so, they, will, be, for, the, high, jump, the, contractors, are, so, far, behind, and, the, grass, is, getting, so, long, and, bulky, that, it, doesn’t, dry, out, as, quickly, so, there, may, well, be, a, few, more, but, at, least, the, farmers, will, have, had, warning, so, it, will, be, their, own, fault, the, school, kids, are, back, for, their, work, experience, week, it, must, be, hard, for, them, to, follow, what, is, going, on, but, they, seem, to, enjoy, them, selves, the, worksheets, definitely, help, to, give, some, structure, and, a, feel, for, what, is, going, on, crusaders, meeting, at, night, pretty, disappointing, response, so, not, a, lot, we, can, do, tues, 11th, june, workload, has, set, in, and, i’m, just, cruising, and, managed, to, get, to, the, gym, while, on, first, so, feel, full, of, energy, why, do, you, feel, full, of, energy, after, expending, some, spent, half, an, hour, on, net, trying, to, get, holiday, organised, but, finding, places, for, 6, is, not, as, easy, the, weather, is, better, for, son, camping, and, should, be, better, until, the, w, e, means, we, will, hopefully, be, quiet, at, work, as, they, all, go, out, into, the, fields, weds, 12th, no, calls, over, night, first, time, since, finishing, with, defra, not, had, a, call, at, night, summer, is, truly, here, there, was, a, call, just, on, half, time, at, 8.15, which, i, did, during, the, break, so, got, to, see, the, second, half, and, england, drew, 0, 0, but, are, through, t, o, the, next, round, caught, up, on, paper, work, and, have, sorted, a, lot, of, things, so, they, are, in, place, for, the, 2, new, vets, thurs, 13th, meeting, with, bank, manager, for, executive, lunch, sandwiches, from, bells, he, asked, how, was, the, new, normality, which, seems, an, excellent, phrase, he, seemed, happy, enough, but, it, is, always, interesting, to, see, how, an, outsider, views, the, information, given, the, problem, is, usually, knowing, the, questions, to, ask, i, think, that, is, probably, he, seemed, happy, enough, but, it, is, always, interesting, to, see, how, an, outsider, views, the, information, given, the, problem, is, usually, knowing, the, questions, to, ask, i, think, that, is, probably, true, of, the, inquiries, into, fmd, unless, you, know, the, questions, you, will, not, get, the, right, answers, went, abseiling, up, at, sandale, with, the, house, group, from, church, and, had, a, bbq, it, would, have, been, nicer, if, the, wind, hadn’t, howled, i, had, gone, prepared, for, british, summer, weather, but, it, was, still, pretty, nippy, it, was, great, fun, fri, read, another, test, that, had, ir, s, for, tb, inconclusive, that, will, have, to, be, retested, in, 60, days, while, i, was, writing, up, the, paper, work, the, farmer’s, wife, was, saying, that, the, kids, were, all, off, school, and, nursery, with, hand, foot, and, mouth, she, had, taken, the, youngest, who, was, ill, with, the, middle, kid, to, the, doctor, the, doctor, had, said, what, it, was, and, the, middle, kid, burst, into, tears, as, he, thought, they, were, going, to, take, her, baby, brother, outside, and, shoot, him, it, is, funny, but, also, very, sad, the, same, farmer, was, really, fed, up, as, the, cows, were, all, supposed, to, be, tb, tested, prior, to, arriving, on, the, farm, he, had, also, let, them, out, into, a, long, 5, acre, field, with, the, water, troughs, at, the, far, end, of, the, field, half, the, cows, had, not, found, the, trough, and, so, were, very, thirsty, by, the, time, they, came, back, at, milking, time, the, idea, that, you, just, go, and, replace, the, cows, just, like, that, is, not, quite, the, case, sat, 15th, june, saturday, morning, spent, it, gardening, the, strawberries, are, coming, and, even, though, the, gooseberries, aren’t, quite, ripe, picked, some, to, start, the, harvest, and, the, one, strawberry, that, was, reddish, then, went, to, visit, friend, and, the, wide, screen, tv, for, the, football, match, no, one, expected, any, more, english, progress, but, the, lads, surprised, me, and, played, a, stormer, so, the, game, against, brazil, will, become, the, match, the, practice, bbq, in, watery, june, sunshine, was, good, fun, but, the, ground, was, too, wet, to, play, silly, games, or, even, footie, the, food, was, excellent, aw, was, notable, by, her, absence, hey, ho, bbq, is, in, need, of, a, revamp, maybe, abseiling, though, i, don’t, think, i, can, see, either, r, or, aw, going, for, it, showed, s, around, flat, and, met, her, parents, remind, me, to, be, wise, with, my, kids, sun, felt, tired, and, ill, and, washed, out, after, slowing, down, and, switching, off, after, a, busy, day, yesterday, and, all, week, watched, the, ireland, match, which, was, very, close, spent, rest, of, day, sleeping, or, just, chilling, out, mon, went, testing, at, k, and, t’d, they, are, really, nice, lads, but, not, too, hot, on, the, academic, front, but, good, fun, they, were, in, good, form, and, hoping, to, get, the, low, down, on, the, new, vets, yes, they, are, young, free, and, single, as, far, as, i, know, i, pity, their, chances, spent, a, lazy, day, in, the, sun, at, a, gentle, pace, so, quite, enjoyed, myself, caught, up, with, the, paperwork, at, night, and, feel, mellow, tuesday, too, many, o’s, one, call, was, cancelled, but, the, other, one, still, wanted, the, call, so, some, one, went, to, the, wrong, o, and, i, had, to, make, a, mad, dash, and, pour, oil, on, the, waters, to, explain, why, we, are, so, late, oops, so, more, testing, and, a, quiet, day, wife, also, had, her, quiet, day, there, was, supposed, to, be, a, group, of, them, going, for, a, retreat, day, but, the, speaker, had, cancelled, so, she, did, it, herself, with, r, and, it, went, very, well, she, was, exhausted, after, giving, out, all, day, met, up, with, lads, at, night, didn’t, get, to, gym, again, as, i, had, to, go, and, calve, a, schistasoma, yuk, weds, tried, again, to, work, out, what, we, are, going, to, do, with, summer, holidays, no, doubt, we, will, get, organised, eventually, came, home, early, for, lunch, and, had, forgotten, that, it, was, coffee, morning, here, so, felt, out, of, place, amongst, so, many, women, skipped, off, early, and, went, for, a, cycle, to, make, up, for, missing, gym, did, first, part, with, a, and, annie, and, then, zipped, around, for, a, bit, which, was, good, thursday, k, and, t, had, an, i, r, again, i, need, a, new, supply, of, little, green, forms, to, put, this, in, context, prior, to, this, year, in, 16, years, in, practice, i, have, had, 4, i, r’s, i, am, doing, that, this, week, so, another, farm, under, restrictions, friday, bad, hair, day, england, lost, och, well, never, mind, such, is, life, richard, drummond’s, report, that, the, svs, was, unprepared, yeah, we, had, all, been, saying, it, but, i, did, not, realise, that, the, svs, had, been, saying, it, 2, years, ago, has, been, picked, up, by, the, audit, office, there, is, a, report, case, of, fmd, in, a, pig, from, leicester, mkt, and, i, had, another, i, r, and, met, with, jm, a, temporary, vet, with, carlisle, svs, on, why, we, had, not, done, the, tests, allocated, mostly, cos, they, aren’t, to, do, he, also, was, very, cynical, about, the, changes, in, defra, and, the, management, ethos, has, not, changed, he, brought, a, message, back, from, them, that, the, test, we, had, sent, back, because, the, guy, is, an, old, recluse, that, is, impossible, to, deal, with, we, had, to, do, as, they, did, not, have, the, resources, what, they, are, responsible, for, ensuring, that, they, are, done, and, sorting, out, the, recalcitrant, had, the, afternoon, off, and, ran, round, after, the, kids, while, wife, did, reports, next, week, must, be, better, sat, 22nd, june, wedding, day, for, d, and, s, yippee, d, and, his, best, man, and, usher, plus, 3, others, arrived, last, night, and, it, was, really, nice, to, have, young, people, around, again, i, have, forgotten, how, much, i, enjoy, young, people, i, must, be, getting, too, old, and, cynical, c, looked, after, our, boys, and, a, went, into, town, it, was, really, nice, s, could, not, stop, smiling, and, it, is, wigton, carnival, day, so, there, were, two, pipe, bands, as, well, which, could, be, heard, drifting, over, the, vows, was, in, his, kilt, i, should, have, got, mine, on, for, the, occasion, the, reception, was, at, tullie, house, which, is, a, really, nice, relaxed, venue, we, were, seated, opposite, friends, so, it, was, really, nice, catching, up, with, them, b, d, are, just, back, from, another, wedding, in, vancouver, and, really, impressed, with, bc, they, are, out, doors, fanatics, so, the, skiing, mountains, and, whistler, really, is, their, thing, barnes, who, was, looking, after, the, kids, at, night, is, going, out, there, for, his, gap, year, to, work, in, a, book, shop, should, be, really, great, for, him, there, was, a, celeidh, in, the, evening, but, i, only, lasted, for, 3, dances, i, was, absolutely, exhausted, i, didn’t, realise, how, tired, i, was, sunday, fortunately, it, was, a, family, service, ie, doesn’t, start, until, 11;00, it, was, lead, by, the, young, adults, group, so, was, really, fresh, and, good, they, also, don’t, take, themselves, too, seriously, but, do, take, jesus, seriously, and, it, was, good, monday, missed, swimming, again, cos, work, was, really, busy, crusaders, meeting, at, night, at, rydal, very, good, met, up, with, some, of, the, leaders, i, haven’t, met, before, folk, who, work, with, young, people, are, always, good, fun, and, have, a, wicked, sense, of, humour, do, you, need, one, to, do, youth, work, or, does, youth, work, give, you, one, tuesday, diary, did, not, get, filled, in, from, here, on, as, on, weds, morning, i, reached, into, back, of, the, car, and, my, back, went, i, tore, muscles, in, it, a, long, time, ago, and, it, often, niggles, but, as, long, as, i, keep, doing, the, exercises, for, stretching, and, building, up, the, muscles, it, is, ok, but, i, have, missed, doing, the, swimming, relevant, any, way, saw, stars, and, in, agony, so, flat, on, my, back, and, stretching, every, 2, hrs, and, sore, saturday, 29th, june, my, back, is, slowly, improving, i, can, move, around, and, type, i, can, do, the, stretching, ok, but, stiff, and, achy, rather, than, spasm, work, must, have, been, bad, for, the, two, left, as, it, was, going, to, be, short, staffed, with, out, me, dropping, out, nothing, i, can, do, about, it, the, new, vet, called, around, to, look, at, the, flat, before, moving, in, a, month’s, time, she, came, with, her, mother, their, farm, was, culled, out, with, fmd, late, on, and, they, had, just, got, the, herd, to, where, they, wanted, the, breeding, her, mum, was, talking, about, it, was, going, through, a, grieving, period, and, how, some, days, it, was, yes, carry, on, and, get, going, again, and, other, days, it, was, why, bother, it, is, just, all, too, much, hassle, it, will, take, a, long, time, for, the, memories, in, the, farming, community, to, fader, and, with, the, acknowledgement, that, it, was, much, better, to, get, the, disease, and, get, it, over, with, the, cooperation, of, farmers, will, be, even, less, they, are, the, 17th, generation, on, the, farm, the, whole, concept, of, bio, security, needs, to, be, looked, at, and, farmer, education, on, how, the, disease, is, spread, the, self, imposed, isolation, of, not, sending, kids, to, school, etc, is, just, stupid, but, to, go, against, the, flow, is, very, difficult, that, as, well, as, the, defra, imposed, ridiculous, rules, they, were, not, allowed, to, leave, the, house, for, 3, months, they, just, view, this, as, a, punishment, imposed, because, they, refused, to, let, the, hefted, flock, be, culled, they, were, right, not, to, the, old, tenants, have, moved, out, of, the, cottage, eddie, and, ruth, seemed, to, really, enjoy, it, as, a, summer, holiday, while, at, work, a, change, is, as, good, as, a, rest, so, they, say, i, have, looked, at, jobs, again, but, nothing, appeals, there, is, a, job, which, i, wouldn’t, mind, doing, as, a, consultancy, but, doubt, anything, will, come, will, have, to, wait, and, continue, to, see, what, happens, went, out, for, a, meal, to, giannis, at, night, as, my, dad, is, up, for, the, w, e, sunday, p, spoke, at, family, focus, at, church, and, was, very, encouraging, he, is, always, a, revelation, as, he, takes, things, as, they, are, not, as, they, should, be, watched, brazil, beat, germany, to, win, the, world, cup, wet, weather, and, kids, out, of, sorts, and, back, still, sore, yuk, monday, drove, for, the, first, time, and, dropped, my, dad, off, in, carlisle, but, it, was, pretty, sore, by, the, time, i, got, back, dad, was, in, good, form, and, he, has, enjoyed, his, time, up, here, but, he, is, getting, older, and, with, being, in, london, we, are, going, to, have, to, visit, on, a, more, regular, basis, went, into, work, and, did, some, paper, work, and, answered, phone, and, felt, better, for, doing, sthg, as, pretty, bored, but, couldn’t, sit, still, or, really, get, going, either, came, home, and, lay, down, again, d, came, around, at, night, called, in, absolutely, hyper, he, and, a, going, to, split, up, which, is, not, so, good, even, if, it, is, not, that, un, expected, the, thing, that, has, brought, to, a, head, is, the, fact, a, is, seeing, some, one, else, who, is, also, married, not, a, good, situation, lads, came, around, at, night, which, was, good, fun, and, we, had, a, good, time, tuesday, i, am, now, the, father, of, a, teenager, a’s, b’day, so, it, was, good, to, see, her, opening, her, presents, this, morning, back, is, easing, a, lot, so, did, small, animal, today, and, i, am, moving, freely, but, still, doing, the, exercises, a’s, birthday, is, also, always, a, time, for, reflection, as, she, was, born, a, year, to, the, day, after, we, arrived, in, cumbria, so, we, have, been, here, 14, years, a, long, time, the, future, is, also, looking, a, bit, uncertain, work, wise, with, more, farmers, complaining, about, the, prices, of, their, milk, and, animals, hence, they, don’t, want, to, pay, their, bills, weds, to, saturday, as, usual, the, diary, gets, missed, when, the, crisis, hits, so, i, am, writing, this, on, the, following, tuesday, and, bringing, the, diary, entries, up, to, date, weds, morning, i, was, driving, through, wigton, having, done, my, first, farm, call, since, doing, my, back, when, there, were, lots, of, flashing, lights, and, an, ambulance, and, an, unmarked, police, car, with, all, its, lights, on, going, through, wigton, they, stopped, at, the, lay, by, in, wigton, high, st, the, traffic, was, slow, but, i, did, not, see, anything, later, on, i, was, coming, back, in, to, wigton, from, another, call, and, the, by, pass, was, closed, the, office, was, full, of, news, that, the, by, pass, had, been, closed, because, of, a, stabbing, and, that, a, welshman, and, a, wigton, woman, had, been, taken, to, hospital, and, a, wigton, man, had, been, arrested, for, attempted, murder, i, got, a, sinking, feeling, as, d, had, been, around, on, monday, saying, about, ali, having, a, boy, friend, i, said, to, wife, but, she, said, surely, not, i, got, back, after, work, and, a, friend, arrived, and, unfortunately, it, was, d, the, story, emerged, over, the, next, few, days, how, he, had, forced, his, wife, at, knife, point, to, take, him, to, where, she, was, meeting, the, boyfriend, and, there, he, attacked, him, the, sort, of, story, you, only, here, about, in, the, papers, and, crime, programmes, so, we, have, had, the, police, taking, statements, and, trying, to, come, to, terms, with, it, he, is, usually, a, mild, almost, submissive, personality, and, he, had, flipped, but, really, weird, they, have, 3, girls, who, are, now, going, to, be, really, mixed, up, having, a, father, who, attempts, to, kill, their, mother, is, not, nice, so, i, missed, the, leaving, party, for, the, locum, who, has, been, working, for, us, for, the, past, few, months, which, by, all, accounts, was, very, good, saturday, 6th, july, still, in, shell, shock, over, d, and, a, i, still, cannot, believe, what, has, happened, went, in, saturday, morning, and, sorted, my, car, and, got, testing, list, up, to, date, there, is, a, lot, in, the, veterinary, press, about, the, future, of, the, lvi, system, and, the, future, of, farm, animal, practice, the, future, is, not, looking, good, the, short, term, is, fine, if, anything, we, will, have, a, huge, amount, of, work, and, we, can, live, off, the, fmd, capital, that, the, farmers, have, but, once, that, begins, to, run, out, they, and, we, will, be, in, serious, difficulties, the, economics, are, against, the, farm, animal, practice, went, out, for, a, brilliant, meal, and, had, a, really, good, evening, at, c’s, her, husband, is, a, detective, sgt, and, had, been, called, out, because, there, was, yet, another, serious, incident, this, time, at, a, night, club, in, cockermouth, there, is, a, 22, year, old, in, newcastle, hospital, with, head, injuries, so, felt, sorry, for, c, as, she, cooked, and, hostessed, with, out, her, better, half, sunday, church, was, good, with, sg, on, the, character, of, god, he, was, quite, funny, with, his, illustrations, of, fatherly, things, from, his, life, espy, as, his, son, is, quite, a, character, met, up, with, dc, who, was, a, defra, vet, from, sa, he, was, in, good, form, and, has, another, locum, set, up, for, when, he, finishes, at, longtown, monday, back, into, full, swing, again, but, not, much, happening, read, the, test, and, felt, a, lot, happier, as, i, didn’t, have, to, leave, the, dreaded, piece, of, green, paper, as, everything, passed, of, the, farms, i, went, on, though, it, was, interesting, to, note, that, the, farmers, are, all, having, problems, with, their, backs, again, while, they, were, pressure, washing, and, not, amongst, stock, they, were, fine, but, going, back, to, pushing, animals, around, the, bad, backs, are, back, the, topic, is, probably, raised, because, of, the, fact, i, have, been, off, with, a, bad, back, du, called, in, as, he, is, replacing, d, on, the, railway, until, they, can, get, something, sorted, on, a, more, permanent, basis, he, stayed, for, 2, years, next, door, while, doing, his, railtrack, training, the, people, at, work, cannot, believe, that, dave, has, done, sthg, like, this, as, he, usually, if, anything, a, submissive, guy, du, had, just, got, the, keys, to, his, new, house, in, manchester, where, he, is, based, now, and, was, not, very, happy, to, be, posted, back, up, to, cumbria, he, hasn’t, even, managed, to, move, in, tuesday, work, very, quiet, and, long, lunches, good, for, getting, other, things, done, but, pretty, boring, looked, at, rota, and, checked, websites, reports, to, be, published, on, 18th, july, spent, time, sorting, out, rotas, and, booking, up, and, reorganising, my, kit, weds, day, off, went, into, carlisle, and, was, bounced, by, my, wife, in, to, getting, my, hair, cut, in, what, i, assume, is, an, expensive, hairdressers, she, was, getting, hers, done, and, dragged, me, in, and, it, was, a, fait, accompli, at, least, i, assume, it, is, expensive, as, she, won’t, tell, me, how, much, it, is, and, she, let, me, go, off, to, tesco’s, and, said, she, would, pay, for, both, wandered, around, book, shop, in, carlisle, and, met, wife, s, mum, off, the, bus, the, vet, student, from, usa, arrived, for, a, couple, of, days, jamie, who, is, not, as, i, assumed, male, but, female, it, is, amazing, how, you, make, assumptions, when, you, read, e, mails, and, take, messages, she, is, in, uk, for, 12, wks, and, friend, has, given, her, our, address, as, his, wife, is, about, to, have, twins, so, he, thought, it, better, not, to, have, more, people, than, really, necessary, in, his, house, there, are, a, few, babies, at, the, moment, got, a, photo, of, e, this, morning, and, friend, called, around, to, say, other, friends, had, had, a, baby, but, he, couldn’t, remember, whether, it, was, a, boy, or, a, girl, learnt, later, it, is, a, boy, thursday, not, a, lot, for, j, to, see, called, in, to, see, friend’s, new, kittens, posh, becks, both, have, cat, flu, he, is, busy, painting, house, and, tidying, up, for, the, wedding, never, seen, his, yard, as, tidy, must, tell, abbi, to, get, a, move, on, and, maybe, he, will, finish, off, some, of, the, building, work, as, well, did, 2, calvings, in, the, afternoon, and, finally, read, through, the, audit, office, report, which, i, downloaded, ages, ago, they, were, pretty, accurate, apart, from, nick, brown, insisting, it, was, all, going, splendidly, well, there, really, must, be, a, better, working, relationship, between, the, ministry, svs, vets, and, the, vets, in, general, practice, and, so, much, better, communication, the, other, point, that, is, never, made, is, that, all, farms, should, have, a, mass, disposal, plan, as, part, of, their, iacs, return, in, order, to, keep, fmd, on, peoples, minds, as, it, is, already, disappearing, as, a, part, of, history, and, history, will, repeat, itself, because, nobody, listens, and, most, of, the, anguish, and, delays, were, in, the, disposal, systems, friday, dropped, j, off, in, wigton, to, catch, the, train, it, is, always, strange, with, having, students, because, they, stay, in, our, house, they, are, very, much, part, of, our, lives, and, then, they, drop, out, of, our, lives, another, former, student, who, is, just, back, from, sa, called, in, and, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, her, she, was, on, her, way, back, to, edinburgh, for, her, 5, year, reunion, he, has, been, qualified, 5, years, and, i, thought, it, was, 2, or, three, one, of, the, vets, was, off, ill, so, it, meant, a, bit, of, a, run, around, today, as, 2, others, were, on, holiday, but, it, was, good, to, be, busy, and, get, some, adrenalin, pumping, saturday, 13th, july, working, saturday, morning, on, days, like, this, i, think, it, is, great, to, be, a, small, animal, vet, the, consults, were, all, straight, forward, and, i, could, chat, to, the, owners, with, out, having, to, stop, and, think, what, to, do, about, the, animals, that, and, 2, owners, were, really, appreciative, of, what, i, was, doing, so, felt, good, i, think, that, is, one, of, the, things, about, working, for, defra, no, one, appreciated, what, you, were, doing, ok, some, appreciated, the, concern, and, effort, and, the, way, you, did, it, but, no, one, really, thought, what, you, were, doing, was, good, like, putting, pets, down, it, is, for, the, best, but, no, one, likes, it, beautiful, day, today, too, the, sun, shining, and, picking, strawberries, and, having, a, bar, b, q, was, really, very, pleasant, my, brother, always, says, the, best, thing, about, nz, where, he, lives, is, that, he, can, plan, to, have, a, barb, in, 2, wks, time, whereas, here, you, have, to, go, with, the, flow, sun, 14th, first, call, so, wandered, around, seeing, ill, cows, several, lots, of, drugs, to, put, out, as, a, lot, for, the, restocking, farms, have, yet, to, get, their, medicine, cabinets, back, up, to, strength, had, a, collie, hit, by, a, tractor, and, its, eye, had, been, knocked, out, of, its, socket, urgh, eyes, give, me, the, creeps, mon, 15th, operating, day, as, we, are, doing, the, anaesthetic, monitoring, so, plenty, of, ops, booked, in, health, and, safety, requires, us, to, check, for, operator, exposure, to, anaesthetic, gases, as, our, new, system, has, a, scavenging, system, and, is, light, years, ahead, of, the, one, we, use, to, have, it, is, a, waste, of, time, but, we, have, to, have, the, checks, done, but, i, wonder, how, many, other, practices, actually, do, we, have, never, been, checked, up, upon, a, police, man, arrived, at, the, front, desk, while, i, was, on, the, phone, the, head, nurse, disappeared, as, soon, as, she, saw, the, marked, police, car, which, struck, me, as, very, suspicious, after, he, had, booked, an, appointment, for, his, dog, and, he, had, left, i, was, curious, to, know, where, she, had, disappeared, to, she, had, gone, to, check, that, the, medicines, cabinet, where, we, keep, the, gun, and, dangerous, drugs, was, in, fact, locked, as, while, we, are, operating, we, keep, it, open, so, as, to, have, easy, access, to, the, emergency, drugs, the, gun, licences, insist, that, it, is, kept, locked, at, all, times, and, immediate, access, to, a, police, officer, coming, to, check, it, must, be, allowed, and, we, never, been, checked, up, upon, yet, farmers, are, all, busy, with, field, work, and, are, not, wanting, to, even, think, about, any, routine, work, so, it, could, be, a, quiet, week, tuesday, 16th, beautiful, weather, and, raspberries, coming, along, nicely, wife, s, mum, is, busy, making, jam, and, mile, high, pies, yum, yum, partners, meeting, at, lunchtime, why, do, they, always, make, me, so, depressed, the, subjects, were, more, of, the, same, how, do, we, cope, with, the, changes, in, the, drug, sales, prices, and, how, do, we, compete, with, irish, drugs, being, brought, in, illegally, we, got, a, little, further, forward, and, will, hopefully, be, able, to, make, a, decision, on, it, by, the, deadline, in, september, we, need, to, look, at, new, ways, of, bringing, in, revenue, streams, but, i, don’t, think, there, is, a, willing, ness, to, look, at, the, radical, so, i, will, have, to, keep, working, away, at, it, weds, 17th, met, up, with, the, lads, last, night, to, pray, but, the, craic, was, good, and, did, more, chat, and, joking, than, praying, t’was, good, i, is, apparently, having, a, good, time, at, the, cs, lewis, convention, but, has, yet, to, open, the, book, stall, he, sells, books, and, specialises, in, antiquarian, and, first, editions, of, c.s, lewis, the, one, thing, about, the, internet, is, that, it, frees, up, communication, and, searching, for, the, really, obscure, sorry, i, the, weather, broke, today, and, the, rain, came, and, with, it, all, the, calls, as, the, farmers, got, all, the, routine, stuff, done, which, was, good, for, the, last, of, the, school, kids, which, have, plagued, us, for, the, past, few, weeks, vet, students, next, but, at, least, they, can, chat, away, with, out, me, having, to, make, all, the, effort, thurs, 18th, went, o, a, farm, today, which, restocked, in, feb, after, doing, its, 4, months, waiting, and, has, yet, to, have, a, tb, test, asked, him, whether, i, should, chase, it, up, but, he, like, everyone, else, should, be, leaving, it, to, october, and, housing, maff, efficiency, rules, we, also, tested, 44, imported, heifers, that, were, supposed, to, be, blood, sampled, within, 7, days, of, calving, but, they, have, been, missed, i, have, no, confidence, in, either, of, the, reports, to, actually, achieve, anything, part, of, me, feels, i, should, try, to, contact, the, media, and, try, to, get, them, to, push, the, agenda, along, but, i, don’t, feel, it, would, achieve, much, apart, from, sticking, my, head, above, the, parapet, which, would, not, do, much, i, have, asked, for, copies, but, none, have, arrived, yet, fri, 19th, demob, happy, i’m, on, holiday, from, 5, 30pm, so, it, will, be, good, to, catch, up, on, all, the, things, i, should, have, done, but, not, done, the, garden, is, a, mess, but, we, are, getting, on, top, of, it, slowly, in, some, ways, i, am, glad, to, be, off, when, the, lli, is, reporting, as, at, least, i, will, not, get, wound, up, so, this, is, me, signing, off, for, the, week, next, diary, will, be, on, sat, week, holiday, week, beginning, saturday, 20th, july, saturday, 27th, july, having, had, a, week, off, i, am, feeling, a, lot, happier, about, life, in, general, we, have, been, to, a, few, of, the, nights, at, the, keswick, convention, it, is, an, amazing, set, up, with, over, 12,000, people, coming, together, over, 3, weeks, in, keswick, and, meeting, up, for, bible, teaching, and, to, worship, god, there, is, a, big, tent, that, is, set, up, on, the, back, of, the, convention, centre, by, the, time, we, arrive, it, is, always, full, and, we, were, not, late, on, the, friday, evening, there, were, people, standing, outside, the, kids, went, to, a, youth, event, on, of, all, things, ezekiel, not, exactly, an, easy, choice, of, bible, book, to, convey, to, 19, 14, yr, olds, but, they, really, enjoyed, the, wacky, games, and, the, way, they, mixed, teaching, and, songs, and, games, activities, they, seemed, to, be, mostly, uni, students, who, seemed, to, get, as, much, fun, out, of, it, as, the, kids, my, brother, and, family, were, up, and, the, cousins, love, getting, together, and, even, a, joined, in, the, football, and, tennis, even, though, her, hand, to, eye, co, ordination, is, not, the, best, she, has, taken, up, running, every, day, so, i, have, been, out, with, her, but, my, back, is, still, not, right, and, i, can, feel, it, at, the, slightest, provocation, must, go, swimming, again, my, brother, also, asked, wife, what, diy, needed, doing, as, he, is, a, real, enthusiast, give, me, gardening, any, time, so, we, made, a, door, for, one, of, the, sheds, which, i, have, been, putting, off, for, the, past, 6, years, as, once, i, start, there, are, another, 5, to, do, he, is, also, a, sailing, fan, so, hired, a, sail, boat, and, went, sailing, which, was, great, fun, the, kids, had, a, canoe, and, we, raced, up, and, down, the, lake, and, the, kids, swapped, around, and, went, to, explore, islands, it, was, really, good, the, weather, helped, it, was, scorching, we, also, went, to, a, wedding, of, one, of, our, close, friends, son, i, decided, i, am, going, to, start, teaching, my, kids, the, etiquette, of, weddings, as, the, groom, could, have, done, a, better, job, it, isn’t, really, his, fault, as, he, is, young, and, has, not, thought, things, out, sun, went, to, the, all, age, service, at, the, tent, at, keswick, there, were, too, many, kids, even, for, me, but, the, mix, of, action, songs, and, asking, kids, things, and, an, action, talk, meant, that, those, leading, it, kept, the, kids, involved, it, was, good, to, see, spent, the, afternoon, on, the, lake, it, was, really, nice, day, mon, yep, it, was, a, real, monday, morning, with, my, in, tray, over, flowing, 2, rota’s, to, sort, and, 2, weeks, of, testing, to, try, to, arrange, the, only, goodish, news, was, that, the, ministry, have, finally, decided, to, put, the, restocking, farms, on, annual, testing, which, means, at, least, we, know, where, we, stand, and, can, plan, it, will, mean, a, lot, of, work, for, us, the, bad, news, was, that, the, oft, investigation, have, sent, us, a, horrific, questionnaire, which, needs, filled, in, and, one, of, my, partners, has, had, a, go, and, not, got, very, far, unfortunately, and, it, needs, to, be, in, by, tomorrow, forget, it, the, 2, new, vets, have, started, and, so, we, are, settling, them, in, and, they, are, picking, up, the, ropes, quite, quickly, which, is, ace, on, call, at, night, out, twice, for, bad, calvings, that’s, the, end, of, my, holiday, f, feeling, good, tuesday, sore, back, from, calvings, and, early, mornings, had, forgotten, i, had, arranged, for, some, one, to, be, with, me, all, day, today, in, a, moment, of, weakness, i, had, acquiesced, to, being, put, up, for, sale, in, a, promise, auction, to, raise, money, for, african, children’s, choir, so, this, was, the, promise, being, redeemed, a, morning, with, the, vet, so, i, put, on, my, best, charming, manner, all, mr, pr, man, and, took, her, on, a, tour, of, the, practice, and, on, call, and, explained, everything, i, was, doing, so, it, was, a, good, thing, we, were, not, busy, spent, the, afternoon, consulting, and, supervising, new, vets, and, showing, them, the, ropes, weds, we, were, suppose, to, be, going, walking, up, helvellyn, but, the, torrential, rain, put, us, off, so, went, into, carlisle, and, did, bits, and, pieces, and, i, took, kids, to, see, stuart, little, 2, which, is, definitely, one, for, the, kids, and, jobbed, around, at, home, but, the, kids, like, it, when, we, just, potter, around, thursday, felt, really, stiff, and, sore, and, decided, again, i, must, go, swimming, more, often, i, just, cannot, seem, to, get, there, that’s, all, must, make, time, i’m, working, this, w, e, and, i, am, then, off, for, 10, days, finishing, with, f’s, wedding, friends, are, up, with, their, kids, and, it, is, really, good, to, see, them, we, don’t, see, them, that, often, but, they, are, the, sort, of, friends, who, you, pick, up, on, as, soon, as, you, meet, them, even, if, you, haven’t, seen, them, for, ages, m, has, left, full, time, teaching, as, he, couldn’t, cope, with, the, pressure, of, all, the, paper, work, and, hassle, he, is, teaching, supply, and, doing, other, things, as, well, he, is, so, creative, and, he, has, made, a, model, of, our, house, just, while, he, was, sitting, chatting, with, us, friday, came, home, at, lunchtime, to, see, the, kitchen, table, covered, in, drawings, and, paintings, m, had, decided, to, have, a, painting, day, so, all, the, kids, were, doing, drawings, and, paintings, he, has, done, a, watercolour, of, our, house, it, is, brilliant, holiday, for, two, weeks, this, is, more, a, reflection, of, what, i, have, been, doing, and, thinking, over, the, summer, as, i, have, not, been, writing, up, the, diary, but, i, want, to, put, down, some, of, the, things, that, i, think, are, important, edited, disclosive, sat, 24th, aug, another, bank, holiday, w, e, to, be, worked, but, at, least, i, am, backing, up, our, new, young, assistant, we, work, a, system, where, the, new, vets, have, a, senior, vet, on, call, at, the, same, time, for, the, first, few, months, so, as, to, give, them, a, hands, on, support, and, mentoring, while, this, sounds, very, good, and, practical, it, is, surprisingly, uncommon, when, i, started, i, was, on, my, own, from, almost, day, one, i, started, in, august, after, getting, married, and, in, the, second, week, of, september, my, boss, headed, off, to, oman, to, do, horse, work, out, there, the, other, large, animal, vet, was, off, on, long, term, sick, and, he, could, only, get, a, small, animal, locum, when, i, look, back, now, that, he, left, me, in, charge, of, the, farm, practice, for, 2, weeks, after, only, being, a, month, qualified, i, shudder, but, at, the, time, i, just, got, on, with, it, sun, 25th, calvings, coming, thick, and, fast, the, good, warm, weather, has, made, the, grass, spring, and, the, cows, are, putting, on, too, much, weight, and, having, problems, j, was, at, a, football, tournament, at, pirelli’s, which, i, missed, but, he, came, back, really, tired, having, played, his, socks, off, did, another, pts, put, to, sleep, dog, visit, with, assistant, vet, it, is, never, the, easiest, of, consults, and, she, did, really, well, she, is, finding, her, feet, i, find, it, hard, helping, people, make, euthanasia, decisions, over, dogs, so, i, feel, quite, strongly, anti, euthanasia, when, it, comes, to, people, mon, 28th, beautiful, day, too, nice, to, work, the, morning, was, busy, but, the, afternoon, was, quiet, so, i, spent, it, lying, in, the, sun, dozing, had, bbq, at, night, at, j’s, and, chatted, to, a, few, folk, who, i, know, but, not, to, speak, to, so, was, interesting, spoke, to, one, of, our, farmers, daughters, who, told, me, her, dad, had, just, had, his, first, calf, since, fmd, and, so, he, was, really, happy, he, had, 2, holdings, which, were, run, as, one, he, managed, to, keep, his, heifers, which, were, on, the, second, holding, probably, because, they, were, the, last, ones, in, the, area, and, these, were, the, ones, that, were, now, calving, he, still, blames, the, pyre, from, a, neighbour, for, spreading, the, virus, to, his, farm, tuesday, 27th, the, problem, with, having, a, day, off, is, that, you, have, problems, stored, up, for, when, you, come, back, today, was, really, hectic, finished, at, 6, 30, after, having, come, back, from, the, belgian, blue, inspections, to, help, out, at, surgery, the, inspections, were, fun, but, it, gave, me, the, creeps, being, in, the, mart, and, inspecting, mouths, as, it, brought, back, bad, memories, the, mart, is, ridiculously, clean, and, the, last, time, i, inspected, mouths, was, for, fmd, after, shooting, a, herd, that, was, a, dangerous, contact, i, was, trying, to, persuade, london, not, to, take, out, the, other, neighbour, as, well, we, got, finished, at, 2am, and, went, in, for, a, cup, of, tea, and, to, recover, and, the, mother, greeted, me, with, the, news, that, d, had, been, next, door, and, was, starting, to, shoot, them, the, other, really, annoying, thing, is, that, the, basic, hygiene, is, not, being, enforced, and, yet, other, rules, are, the, rules, are, made, in, london, by, desk, bound, defra, officials, who, don’t, have, to, implement, them, the, mart, uses, mini, dumper, trucks, to, clean, out, the, pens, after, they, have, been, sold, the, same, trucks, are, then, used, to, put, out, straw, and, sawdust, in, the, freshly, cleansed, and, disinfected, yards, they, are, covered, in, muck, and, are, a, bio, hazard, m, the, owner, of, the, animals, we, were, inspecting, put, on, her, usual, tantrum, display, to, try, and, intimidate, the, secretary, and, inspectors, which, as, i, was, expecting, it, i, found, quite, amusing, but, i, don’t, think, she, or, they, did, had, another, bbq, tonight, with, kids, son, cooked, and, loved, it, so, i, have, found, a, new, bbqer, kids, in, brilliant, form, as, they, are, enjoying, being, around, and, a, has, been, baking, weds, 28th, another, tb, reactor, and, the, corresponding, paper, work, and, licensing, had, a, weird, oddball, case, in, surgery, and, spent, ages, trying, to, take, a, history, of, what, was, going, on, the, dog, is, not, that, unwell, in, itself, but, has, an, intermittent, history, of, different, things, i, look, forward, to, seeing, what, it, turns, out, to, be, or, whether, it, resolves, itself, with, time, vetting, is, always, varied, j, was, at, friend’s, party, after, having, a, football, school, with, blackburn, rovers, this, morning, so, he, was, passed, himself, arranged, to, visit, prisoner, in, prison, on, my, next, day, off, and, went, through, a, multitude, of, meaningless, options, to, end, up, with, a, guy, who, sounded, like, he, came, straight, off, porridge, it, is, amazing, how, intimidating, trying, to, find, your, way, around, a, bureaucracy, can, be, i, am, not, sure, i, want, to, go, but, thurs, 29th, from, feast, to, famine, not, much, work, during, the, day, at, least, al, had, 3, caesareans, last, night, and, was, running, out, of, steam, by, 5, o’clock, this, afternoon, meanwhile, i, did, small, animals, and, tried, to, organise, my, trip, to, london, to, visit, my, dad, found, web, sites, for, chitty, chitty, bang, bang, london, eye, and, madam, tussards, so, should, be, able, to, book, in, advance, if, tickets, are, left, for, the, half, term, week, other, children, are, staying, so, the, house, is, full, of, excited, kids, friday, 30th, busy, day, sorting, out, the, invitations, to, our, open, day, 1st, oct, it, is, just, a, chance, to, get, the, farmers, together, we, promised, one, to, celebrate, the, end, of, fmd, it, is, amazing, going, through, the, list, off, the, computer, how, many, farms, are, not, restocked, the, list, hasn’t, been, updated, since, pre, fmd, as, we, don’t, really, know, how, many, will, restock, so, we, have, been, waiting, for, the, end, of, fmd, to, redo, it, so, there, were, a, few, deaths, sales, and, moved, away, to, take, off, the, list, time, moves, on, sat, 31st, august, last, w, e, of, the, summer, holidays, we, had, a, bbq, at, lunch, time, for, borderline, and, then, i, promised, to, take, the, boys, camping, at, bowscale, tarn, it, was, beautiful, but, really, cold, the, weather, was, ok, sat, but, sunday, was, glorious, the, boys, wakened, at, first, light, so, we, climbed, up, on, to, the, tops, while, the, sun, was, still, rising, and, it, was, one, of, those, magical, moments, wonderful, the, boys, were, so, excited, and, full, of, energy, and, so, happy, to, be, with, their, dad, and, enjoying, life, a, time, to, treasure, sun, after, coming, down, off, the, tops, from, bowscale, tarn, went, to, visit, friends, he, is, a, vet, in, longtown, and, has, just, set, up, his, own, small, animal, practice, in, the, north, of, carlisle, the, twins, who, are, now, 4, weeks, old, were, wonderful, there, is, always, sthg, very, special, about, wee, babies, a, was, in, her, element, with, two, to, mother, mon, good, weather, continuing, and, so, we, are, still, quiet, the, vet, student, has, arrived, went, blood, sampling, sheep, for, maedi, visna, to, a, farmer, who, imports, and, sells, sheep, as, a, bit, of, a, dealer, between, him, and, his, dad, and, his, granddad, they, have, 4, holding, numbers, which, is, making, a, mockery, of, the, licensing, system, he, knows, a, lot, of, the, breeders, and, dealers, and, the, yorkshire, defra, is, even, worse, than, this, one, and, so, the, whole, licensing, system, is, allegedly, being, ignored, there, everyone, in, the, office, was, trying, to, work, out, where, we, are, going, to, go, for, the, xmas, party, as, it, is, now, september, tuesday, it, is, friend’s, last, day, at, work, tomorrow, before, the, wedding, so, the, girls, spent, most, of, the, afternoon, printing, out, posters, and, things, to, decorate, his, car, before, he, goes, tomorrow, evening, the, farmers, are, phoning, in, to, book, tb, tests, for, nov, and, dec, as, they, know, that, we, will, be, busy, which, makes, life, a, lot, easier, for, me, we, have, sent, out, notes, with, the, invitations, to, the, open, day, and, that, has, had, a, good, response, so, we, will, start, to, get, busy, testing, next, week, weds, day, off, spent, the, morning, fixing, the, shower, drainage, which, had, suffered, from, one, too, many, footballs, being, kicked, against, it, the, problem, was, the, broken, part, was, also, a, metric, to, imperial, converter, one, end, was, 40mm, and, the, other, was, 43mm, which, once, i, discovered, that, was, what, i, needed, meant, a, trip, to, carlisle, as, nowhere, in, wigton, had, it, so, it, got, codged, up, with, plenty, of, silicone, the, afternoon, was, spent, going, to, visit, prisoner, he, is, the, friend, who, stabbed, his, wife’s, boyfriend, in, wigton, and, so, he, is, currently, residing, at, her, majesty’s, pleasure, in, durham, prison, it, was, a, very, disheartening, experience, as, with, any, organisation, it, takes, time, to, work, out, where, to, go, and, what, you, need, to, get, through, the, hoops, i, went, from, one, part, of, the, prison, to, another, and, backwards, and, forwards, the, staff, where, very, friendly, and, helpful, but, they, are, all, at, fixed, stations, and, so, you, are, sent, from, one, area, to, another, the, security, although, expected, and, natural, still, comes, as, a, bit, of, a, shock, photographed, in, and, issued, with, a, barcode, to, get, you, in, and, out, and, you, put, all, your, belongings, in, a, locker, before, you, are, allowed, in, of, course, i, did, not, realise, that, you, only, need, the, id, passport, to, get, your, bar, code, so, i, kept, it, to, show, at, the, entrance, where, all, i, needed, was, the, bar, code, so, they, sent, me, back, to, put, it, in, the, locker, prisoner, was, ok, but, he, is, still, finding, it, hard, to, think, about, a, future, that, does, not, include, his, wife, even, though, the, divorce, papers, are, filed, and, he, has, done, some, pretty, nasty, things, to, her, and, the, boyfriend, he, is, pleading, guilty, and, is, expecting, to, go, down, for, a, good, few, years, the, whole, visitors, area, was, charged, with, emotion, with, people, coming, to, see, brothers, husbands, lovers, there, were, lots, of, girls, with, young, children, coming, to, see, their, dads, i, felt, very, sad, for, them, and, for, the, kids, who, are, growing, up, with, out, a, dad, or, the, stigma, of, a, dad, in, jail, his, kids, have, written, but, he, is, realistic, his, wife, is, very, anti, him, and, they, are, unlikely, to, keep, up, with, him, in, the, long, term, as, she, at, best, is, not, going, to, be, supportive, at, worst, is, going, to, try, to, dissuade, them, he, was, quite, upset, about, that, he, is, also, not, able, to, sort, out, his, things, or, see, his, house, before, it, is, sold, he, did, a, lot, of, building, work, etc, on, it, and, has, an, emotional, attachment, to, it, but, there, is, no, real, closure, he, had, emotional, problems, before, all, this, he, is, likely, to, have, even, more, on, his, release, his, car, on, which, there, is, still, a, car, loan, has, been, removed, from, the, pound, but, he, doesn’t, know, where, it, is, drove, back, over, a66, very, thoughtful, and, thankful, for, my, family, and, freedom, until, the, phone, went, to, remind, me, i, was, on, call, and, had, i, forgotten, fortunately, there, were, no, calls, as, it, takes, quite, a, while, to, get, from, barnard, castle, to, wigton, oops, thursday, did, my, first, isolation, pens, inspection, which, is, a, complete, non, sense, the, field, has, to, be, 50, m, from, any, other, livestock, which, in, london, probably, sounds, fine, or, in, scotland, where, there, are, plenty, of, woods, and, other, crops, but, here, in, cumbria, where, the, main, crop, is, grass, and, all, the, fields, are, grazed, at, this, time, of, year, then, it, is, not, so, easy, the, forms, are, horrendous, and, the, boxes, to, be, filled, in, are, greyed, out, to, make, it, easy, for, you, to, know, which, boxes, are, to, be, filled, in, this, obviously, looks, really, good, on, a, computer, screen, in, london, but, on, a, photocopy, writing, in, black, ink, makes, the, whole, thing, illegible, but, that’s, their, problem, when, does, common, sense, come, in, friday, 6th, september, colleague’s, wedding, one, of, the, vets, at, the, practice, was, married, today, at, the, parish, church, in, wigton, the, wedding, was, some, do, he, and, his, family, in, kilts, there, were, over, 200, at, the, wedding, and, reception, at, the, grennhill, hotel, where, bride’s, uncle, is, a, director, the, theme, was, an, english, rode, and, scottish, thistle, the, flowers, were, all, red, roses, in, arrangements, with, thistles, they, were, beautiful, as, was, the, bride, he, quickly, adds, there, was, a, ceilidh, afterwards, and, a, fireworks, display, several, of, the, neighbouring, farmers, complained, to, me, the, next, day, danced, and, talked, the, night, away, till, after, 2, am, getting, up, the, next, day, was, a, bit, of, a, pain, for, morning, surgery, urgh, sat, 7th, september, why, is, it, whenever, you, could, do, with, a, quiet, day, because, of, one, reason, or, another, it, is, always, busiest, managed, to, keep, going, most, of, the, day, with, calvings, and, ill, animals, still, recovering, from, the, late, night, at, wedding, day, was, a, bit, of, a, wash, out, really, sunday, milk, fever, at, 7, am, to, finish, me, off, so, missed, church, but, went, to, hear, sc, at, wigton, in, evening, he, is, head, of, oasis, trust, and, is, very, much, a, radical, but, believes, in, putting, faith, into, action, and, was, very, challenging, isiah, 58, true, fasting, that, god, wants, to, spend, your, self, on, behalf, of, the, poor, in, spirit, wife, went, to, hear, the, new, bishop, of, carlisle, who, was, speaking, at, hebron, he, is, reaching, out, to, all, the, local, churches, and, seems, to, see, outside, the, traditional, denominational, boundaries, which, is, really, encouraging, monday, had, a, crusaders, meeting, in, rydal, crusaders, is, a, youth, group, organisation, and, i, am, on, the, area, planning, group, we, have, had, money, given, in, a, legacy, to, support, some, one, full, time, to, train, leaders, to, organise, area, events, and, w, e, away, and, other, joint, activities, which, should, be, good, it, meant, a, rush, and, a, long, day, so, i, am, still, feeling, knackered, from, the, w, e, tuesday, i, was, almost, speechless, today, the, great, era, of, decentralisation, has, hit, defra, i, wish, i, rang, them, up, because, we, still, have, not, had, confirmation, for, the, appointments, of, our, 2, new, vets, to, enable, them, to, do, defra, work, what, used, to, happen, was, that, they, went, to, a, training, session, and, chat, with, the, dvm, in, carlisle, and, the, appointments, arrived, 2, days, later, guess, what, all, the, paper, work, has, to, be, sent, to, page, st, in, london, now, and, they, have, not, got, it, back, yet, weds, 11, 09, 02, it, is, funny, how, some, anniversaries, effect, you, and, others, do, not, i, had, just, started, back, in, to, the, practice, when, the, hijackers, crashed, into, the, pentagon, and, the, twin, towers, i, was, feeling, at, my, most, bruised, and, battered, having, had, a, major, confrontation, at, defra, and, had, to, work, through, the, psychological, problems, of, being, threatened, and, sidelined, and, yet, wanting, to, keep, my, integrity, by, not, reacting, and, blowing, people, out, of, the, water, the, 9, 11, bombers, made, me, realise, how, fragile, peace, is, and, how, fragile, people, are, and, the, importance, of, not, losing, sight, of, the, important, things, in, life, and, trying, to, keep, things, in, perspective, people, are, more, important, friends, and, family, and, if, i, can’t, fight, the, civil, service, mentality, that, is, their, problem, not, mine, i, remember, seeing, one, of, the, teacher’s, husbands, walking, in, to, the, kids, school, when, i, went, to, pick, them, up, looking, slumped, and, dejected, and, learning, that, their, only, son, was, in, new, york, and, they, could, not, reach, him, 2, days, later, they, heard, he, had, visited, the, twin, towers, the, day, before, and, had, taken, photos, from, the, top, he, was, supposed, be, going, back, into, the, towers, that, morning, but, he, had, got, up, late, and, by, the, time, he, and, his, friends, set, off, the, towers, had, been, hit, the, impact, of, the, number, of, people, who, have, either, been, in, or, visited, the, towers, from, all, over, the, world, does, make, it, a, potent, symbol, with, worldwide, resonance, my, sister, worked, in, them, for, a, while, several, years, ago, the, anniversary, brought, a, lot, back, up, to, the, surface, that, i, thought, was, past, but, was, merely, hidden, thursday, first, on, last, night, and, 2nd, on, tonight, so, started, early, and, finished, late, and, running, out, of, steam, friday, one, of, the, farmer’s, wives, came, in, today, for, some, wormers, for, her, chickens, that, have, gape, worm, she, paid, last, months, bill, in, cash, as, well, as, for, the, wormers, 8.76, inc, vat, she, is, working, away, from, the, farm, 2, days, a, week, her, husband, is, full, time, at, a, job, he, got, after, they, went, down, with, fmd.i, asked, how, her, father, in, law, who, is, 65, was, doing, he, is, lost, and, the, farm, is, too, quit, its, not, right, its, too, quiet, they, still, have, no, animals, back, and, are, grass, letting, its, funny, she, said, whoosh, and, your, life, takes, a, complete, change, you, never, know, what’s, going, to, happen, next, sat, 14th, september, worked, am, and, then, had, rest, of, w, e, off, hooray, sunday, monday, son, s, footie, tuesday, partnership, meeting, at, lunchtime, so, had, a, sore, head, by, the, end, of, the, day, but, a, lot, of, good, decisions, made, so, feel, as, though, we, a, re, moving, forward, weds, off, as, working, the, w, e, so, caught, up, on, paperwork, and, stuff, at, home, and, then, went, into, carlisle, to, go, shopping, for, lots, of, bits, and, pieces, and, a, new, bathroom, thursday, dvm, called, in, to, update, us, waste, of, time, and, i, had, forgotten, what, an, annoying, man, he, is, a, real, career, civil, servant, bureaucrat, who, has, forgotten, what, real, life, is, about, if, he, ever, knew, had, one, of, the, vets, around, for, tea, as, i, was, backing, her, up, spent, the, evening, playing, take, two, and, had, fun, friday, a, very, bad, day, at, the, office, dear, oh, dear, oh, dear, the, day, was, great, to, start, with, headed, down, to, iselgate, to, see, a, lame, bull, to, give, it, a, certificate, they, are, still, suffering, from, both, the, financial, and, emotional, scars, of, fmd, mind, you, they, were, always, odd, she, was, talking, about, the, isolation, that, was, hard, to, break, out, of, and, get, back, in, to, doing, things, again, they, were, also, hoping, to, retire, when, they, were, 50, but, bse, hit, so, they, decided, to, keep, on, and, had, no, income, from, jan, to, october, last, year, mind, you, they, would, only, usually, be, selling, stores, any, way, the, day, was, taking, a, turn, for, the, worse, when, after, sorting, out, umpteen, decisions, for, the, practice, manager, on, organisational, issues, he, said, wasn’t, it, easy, when, you, were, just, being, a, vet, fatal, mistake, as, the, next, dog, to, be, seen, was, an, odd, ball, it, had, woken, up, that, morning, after, being, perfectly, ok, up, til, then, it, had, growled, at, tis, owner, and, he, had, decided, to, leave, it, for, a, while, after, an, hour, or, so, he, went, to, get, it, up, out, of, its, bed, and, it, flew, at, him, and, as, he, put, it, meant, it, so, he, rang, up, and, brought, it, to, the, vets, this, change, of, behaviour, meant, he, had, put, it, in, a, kennel, and, left, it, so, when, i, went, in, to, examine, it, growled, and, flapped, its, ears, at, me, and, bit, at, the, bars, some, dogs, in, pain, or, fear, will, growl, or, let, you, know, that, it, is, not, happy, but, this, one, meant, it, we, had, a, go, at, trying, to, get, it, examined, by, using, the, dog, catcher, and, muzzles, but, it, mean, it, left, it, to, settle, down, over, lunch, but, it, was, worse, finally, got, it, sedated, it, had, a, temp, of, 104, injected, mm, and, so, was, a, case, of, encephalitis, with, rage, so, after, 3, vets, all, looking, at, it, and, umming, and, erring, we, decided, to, get, a, maff, vet, to, have, a, look, just, to, check, that, it, wasn’t, rabies, i, had, forgotten, that, none, of, them, are, clinical, or, able, to, handle, animals, but, it, was, a, bit, of, a, joke, but, as, there, was, no, history, with, it, of, contact, with, abroad, it, has, been, left, alive, for, the, time, being, but, the, stress, of, both, handling, the, dam, thing, and, the, worry, of, is, it, rabid, and, the, consequences, was, some, what, tiring, so, i, am, washed, out, tonight, tomorrow, is, another, day, week, 27, sat, 28th, september, saturday, do, tell, me, there, is, light, at, the, end, of, the, tunnel, because, at, the, moment, i, definitely, feel, there, isn’t, so, i, have, taken, time, off, next, week, to, catch, up, on, all, the, things, that, need, sorted, at, home, we, are, supposed, to, be, putting, in, a, new, bathroom, and, we, need, to, get, the, stuff, ordered, so, the, guy, can, fit, it, you, never, know, it, may, include, doing, a, few, diaries, sunday, my, wife, is, on, a, counselling, course, this, w, e, so, i, ma, on, the, run, around, with, the, kids, yesterday, was, spent, watching, the, boys, plat, football, and, run, here, and, there, with, friends, son, had, 2, friends, to, come, and, camp, last, night, so, he, is, a, little, on, the, tired, side, the, weather, is, warm, and, sunny, a, real, indian, summer, the, autumn, raspberries, that, are, usually, delicious, but, quite, sparse, are, huge, and, plentiful, well, i, definitely, have, a, teen, age, daughter, as, for, the, first, time, i, had, a, phone, call, late, in, the, evening, from, carlisle, asking, her, to, be, picked, up, as, her, lift, home, had, not, worked, out, fortunately, it, was, from, the, church, youth, group, but, it, is, the, sign, of, things, to, come, the, youth, group, took, the, church, service, tonight, so, it, was, really, good, looking, at, our, world, the, pressures, on, young, people, and, how, they, respond, as, christians, and, applying, their, faith, to, their, own, situations, very, challenging, monday, we, have, an, open, night, tomorrow, night, and, it, doesn’t, seem, very, organised, yet, not, my, pigeon, i, have, made, a, resolution, not, to, get, worked, u, about, things, that, are, not, my, responsibility, and, just, leave, them, be, the, 2, new, vets, are, beginning, to, really, pull, their, weight, which, is, great, and, colleague, is, back, from, his, honeymoon, brown, and, jet, lagged, they, spent, time, at, the, beach, and, on, safari, so, had, a, great, time, nurse, has, headed, off, to, the, far, blue, yonder, she, is, one, of, our, nurses, and, has, gone, to, nz, for, a, month, so, it, will, be, strange, with, out, her, other, nurse, is, just, back, from, states, and, another, vet, is, about, to, go, to, the, caribbean, for, 2, weeks, so, i, am, getting, itchy, feet, time, to, travel, at, least, i, should, be, of, to, india, in, the, new, year, tuesday, year, end, oct, 1st, so, stock, taking, which, for, me, includes, mucking, out, my, car, i, thought, it, was, quite, normal, to, take, the, wheelie, bin, to, the, car, and, just, hoy, the, contents, in, until, my, neighbour, saw, one, of, the, rare, occasions, when, it, happens, and, burst, out, laughing, he, found, it, quite, amusing, i, was, a, bit, taken, a, back, at, the, time, but, we, always, assume, what, we, do, is, normal, the, open, day, was, ok, but, wife, was, out, so, had, to, juggle, things, a, bit, i, was, on, call, so, late, finished, and, had, to, fetch, son, from, football, as, his, practice, had, been, shifted, to, tuesdays, with, the, dark, nights, so, i, owe, friend, a, bottle, of, wine, for, turning, up, half, an, hour, late, to, pick, him, up, the, boiler, man, arrived, at, 7pm, to, fix, the, boiler, which, was, blowing, fuses, he, needs, a, lesson, on, time, management, had, several, interesting, conversations, on, fmd, the, most, amusing, one, was, about, tony, blair, arranging, his, bust, up, with, unions, on, the, anniversary, of, the, fmd, out, break, finishing, so, as, to, keep, it, out, the, news, the, same, farmer, said, about, the, govts, response, the, countryside, alliance, march, the, fact, that, they, have, reduced, the, sparsity, factor, in, the, allocation, of, central, funds, to, local, authorities, this, means, that, those, with, a, lower, population, density, and, therefore, a, higher, perceived, cost, of, providing, services, are, going, to, have, this, downgraded, or, in, this, farmer’s, opinion, take, money, from, the, countryside, to, the, town, don’t, march, or, this, govt, will, kick, you, where, it, hurts, in, a, very, subtle, way, the, other, one, was, probably, more, relevant, in, that, in, a, group, discussion, admittedly, fuelled, by, an, intake, of, free, alcohol, several, were, saying, that, this, year, was, harder, to, cope, with, than, last, as, there, was, no, crisis, or, adrenalin, to, keep, them, going, and, that, the, toll, from, last, year, was, beginning, to, tell, on, them, and, their, nerves, two, were, still, under, court, threats, from, trading, standards, defra, for, not, complying, with, regulations, both, will, in, my, opinions, not, result, in, anything, but, they, are, pretty, pissed, off, to, put, it, mildly, there, is, also, a, real, antagonism, to, doing, the, testing, for, ministry, and, we, are, in, the, cross, fire, as, defra, vets, decide, what, is, to, be, done, and, yet, we, are, the, ones, trying, to, arrange, and, get, the, testing, done, while, they, do, not, have, to, pay, us, they, do, have, to, spend, a, fair, chunk, of, time, organising, and, actually, getting, the, job, done, we, are, having, a, real, problem, with, organising, the, testing, on, one, of, the, common, grazings, there, are, 14, farmers, with, animals, on, it, biosecurity, is, a, joke, when, your, animals, are, on, common, grazing, with, 14, others, and, trying, to, get, 2, farmers, to, agree, on, a, date, and, a, method, of, doing, it, they, all, have, different, ideas, and, most, do, not, want, so, and, so, there, co, he, ll, just, wind, the, cattle, up, and, we’ll, never, catch, them, weds, day, off, so, caught, up, on, garden, and, sleep, thursday, i, really, enjoyed, the, crack, today, there, was, just, that, right, amount, of, work, and, banter, to, have, a, good, day, laughter, and, fun, is, infectious, friday, out, for, a, meal, at, night, which, was, great, but, 8, 30, start, tomorrow, sat, am, is, not, going, to, be, good, october, a, young, colleague’s, brother, was, killed, in, an, accident, and, as, m, writes, retrospectively, see, below, there, followed, a, very, difficult, month, in, which, he, was, unable, to, keep, a, diary, saturday, 5th, october, it, is, in, the, smallest, of, things, that, suddenly, life, changes, very, suddenly, and, we, then, look, back, and, see, how, we, were, and, are, not, now, i, had, a, phone, call, at, ten, to, five, from, one, of, the, young, vet’s, father, father, was, asking, to, speak, to, george, or, i, that, in, itself, was, strange, the, receptionist, came, and, found, me, with, a, quizzical, look, saying, he, did, not, want, to, speak, to, young, vet, when, i, answered, the, phone, he, said, that, they, had, bad, news, in, that, her, brother, had, been, killed, in, a, traffic, accident, so, i, had, to, tell, her, the, bad, news, and, then, sort, out, the, consequences, once, she, had, got, over, the, initial, shock, wife, drove, her, to, her, parents, home, in, her, car, the, other, partners, are, away, so, we, are, short, staffed, and, young, vet, will, obviously, not, be, back, for, a, while, it, is, at, times, like, this, that, i, am, always, grateful, that, i, can, go, back, to, god, and, trust, in, him, even, though, i, do, not, understand, anything, i, know, that, i, can, trust, god, jan, 2003, writing, retrospectively, about, october, 2002, there, is, a, month, of, diaries, missing, from, the, death, of, vet’s, brother, onwards, i, always, meant, to, go, back, and, fill, in, the, days, that, i, missed, but, never, made, the, time, or, the, effort, i, found, the, time, very, difficult, so, how, her, parents, and, sister, in, law, coped, i, do, not, know, the, funeral, was, at, kirby, and, i, am, pleased, that, i, went, it, was, very, sad, to, see, some, one, in, the, prime, of, their, life, with, so, much, to, offer, cut, down, in, such, a, random, way, it, was, a, very, cumbrian, farming, gathering, the, red, faced, craggy, farmers, and, yet, there, was, a, friend, of, the, family, who, sang, at, the, wedding, who, was, a, black, american, gospel, singer, the, global, village, or, world, wide, family, of, the, church, take, your, pick, the, death, of, some, one, young, always, makes, you, consider, your, own, mortality, and, makes, you, think, about, what, you, are, doing, will, you, on, your, death, bed, wish, that, you, had, made, different, choices, the, next, month, was, busy, and, stressful, and, probably, a, time, which, would, have, been, useful, for, the, study, to, have, thoughts, and, reactions, to, my, life, when, under, stress, but, i, suppose, to, a, certain, extent, when, we, are, close, to, something, we, go, on, automatic, pilot, and, do, the, urgent, leaving, the, things, on, the, periphery, he, was, killed, while, driving, a, tractor, back, from, where, they, had, been, testing, cattle, for, american, bvd, they, had, bought, in, pedigree, world, class, dairy, cattle, this, included, a, sibling, to, an, embryo, which, had, had, the, american, bvd, so, the, ministry, were, keen, to, make, sure, that, it, was, not, established, within, the, uk, hence, the, reason, for, the, blood, sampling, i, know, you, cannot, look, at, history, and, say, what, if, but, if, the, cattle, had, not, been, culled, there, would, have, been, no, blood, sampling, to, do, and, no, reason, to, be, on, the, road, that, day, at, that, time, linkage, is, not, the, way, to, go, he, may, have, had, to, go, to, feed, stock, or, he, could, have, been, in, an, accident, in, another, way, but, the, ripples, of, actions, continue, to, reverberate, around, at, least, in, my, head, saturday, 12th, october, again, m, is, writing, retrospectively, here, of, his, first, thoughts, after, diagnosing, his, first, fmd, case, these, weeks, were, not, completed, because, of, my, stress, levels, i, have, wanted, to, transcribe, my, first, thoughts, on, fmd, that, were, written, in, a, hotel, in, newcastle, at, 2am, after, diagnosing, my, first, case, to, my, wife, dear, wife, i, don’t, know, why, i, am, writing, this, as, i, hope, to, see, you, tomorrow, but, i, suppose, i, need, to, record, what, i, feel, for, you, and, for, me, besides, sleep, eludes, me, today, was, a, beautiful, day, of, winter, sunshine, warm, sunshine, that, speaks, of, the, spring, that, is, to, come, on, frosted, snow, that, is, clear, and, white, and, pure, a, great, day, to, be, walking, up, in, the, hills, on, a, sunday, afternoon, enjoying, god’s, wonderful, creation, but, this, is, a, fallen, world, the, only, walkers, are, me, the, ministry, man, in, disposable, boiler, suit, and, waterproof, jacket, and, trousers, and, a, farmer, with, a, heavy, heart, we, go, into, each, field, checking, and, inspecting, all, the, pregnant, ewes, herding, them, into, a, corner, to, catch, and, examine, them, feet, ok, mouth, ok, a, smile, the, only, clue, to, the, sadness, on, this, man’s, heart, is, the, slight, acrid, smell, which, wafts, now, and, then, on, the, wind, the, smell, of, his, neighbours, future, burning, on, another, ministry, man’s, pyre, it’s, 2, o’clock, in, the, morning, and, why, am, i, writing, this, because, i, cannot, sleep, the, ministry, man, who, then, examined, the, cows, blisters, in, its, mouth, blisters, on, its, tongue, temp, 105f, i, am, sorry, i, say, it, is, they’ll, all, go, he, manages, to, say, fighting, back, tears, if, the, lab, confirms, it, yes, i, reply, as, a, farm, vet, of, 15, years, experience, i, am, not, allowed, to, say, it, is, foot, and, mouth, disease, only, that, i, suspect, it, an, anonymous, telephone, answerer, in, london, makes, stupid, comments, and, stupid, questions, i, take, my, samples, from, the, cow, i, grab, its, tongue, to, pull, it, out, to, take, a, sample, of, the, skin, from, the, tongue, the, cow’s, tongue, comes, off, in, my, hand, i, try, not, to, be, sick, and, place, the, sample, in, the, bottle, we, go, into, the, farmhouse, he, is, in, tears, she, is, in, tears, i, feel, like, crying, i, wouldn’t, do, your, job, for, all, the, b, tea, in, china, she, says, i, am, a, volunteer, a, tvi, all, big, depts, have, their, jargon, and, i, don’t, speak, it, yet, a, temporary, veterinary, inspector, i, only, started, 3, days, ago, a, clean, vet, who, had, not, been, in, contact, with, the, foot, and, mouth, disease, a, volunteer, from, general, practice, seconded, to, be, used, as, a, pawn, in, the, battle, against, fmd, a, man, from, the, ministry, as, i, leave, a, dirty, vet, having, double, disinfected, with, my, samples, and, a, heavy, heart, i, take, off, the, disposable, boiler, suit, and, put, on, my, shoes, i, am, me, again, not, the, man, from, the, ministry, hey, lad, nobody, would, know, you, from, anyone, else, like, that, says, the, farmer, he, has, seen, me, as, i, am, i, see, him, as, he, is, living, with, his, mother, since, his, father, died, so, as, to, be, on, hand, to, run, the, farm, his, wife, and, her, mother, in, law, trying, to, share, a, house, and, a, kitchen, while, they, convert, a, barn, into, a, house, the, builder, was, told, to, stay, away, a, week, ago, in, case, he, brought, disease, onto, the, farm, tomorrow, he, will, be, told, to, stay, away, as, there, will, be, no, income, for, at, least, 6, months, while, i, filled, in, forms, i, had, never, seen, before, with, initials, and, jargon, i’ve, never, heard, she, phoned, her, sister, to, pick, up, the, prescription, for, anti, depressants, the, doctor, said, she, should, go, on, them, while, the, stress, and, worry, of, foot, and, mouth, was, about, well, it’s, here, he, hasn’t, eaten, and, will, not, sleep, tonight, she, is, anxious, and, will, not, get, any, rest, and, the, man, from, the, ministry, well, its, 2am, and, i, am, writing, this, far, from, home, a, volunteer, a, tvi, a, pawn, in, a, bigger, game, but, after, 5, days, of, being, dirty, and, i, can, rejoin, life, back, to, normal, back, to, my, home, to, my, job, and, my, future, my, farming, couple, 5, days, of, shooting, and, burning, of, disinfectants, and, diggers, six, months, of, quarantine, and, a, future, in, farming, maybe, or, maybe, not, the, stories, abound, of, three, generations, waiting, for, the, men, from, the, ministry, but, grandfather, will, not, see, the, farm, restocked, the, stress, was, too, much, for, his, already, dodgy, heart, the, countryside, is, under, siege, and, pawns, are, being, lost, to, win, a, greater, gain, and, why, are, we, having, to, work, these, long, hours, and, sacrifice, these, pawns, because, some, one, was, so, arrogant, so, stupid, and, so, lazy, that, he, couldn’t, be, bothered, to, heat, the, swill, he, fed, to, his, pigs, he, couldn’t, keep, to, the, rules, that, were, made, so, this, would, not, happen, it, is, not, intensive, vs, extensive, organic, vs, agribusiness, it, is, sheep, vs, goats, and, they, will, be, sorted, saturday, 2nd, november, the, start, of, writing, diaries, again, after, a, break, of, a, few, weeks, i, am, hoping, to, go, back, and, fill, in, as, time, permits, so, this, is, today, and, forward, looking, working, the, w, e, with, young, vet, and, aw, sat, am, she, had, a, calving, this, morning, at, 4am, and, so, is, a, little, on, the, tired, side, so, hope, it, is, quiet, for, rest, of, the, w, e, did, surgery, and, then, spent, the, afternoon, trying, to, fix, the, out, sidelights, the, front, went, 18monhts, ago, which, shows, how, well, i, am, keeping, up, with, the, maintaince, on, this, house, but, the, back, one, went, recently, and, that, is, a, real, pain, as, you, cant, see, your, way, to, the, car, at, night, so, i, am, more, concerned, about, getting, it, fixed, the, old, lights, are, just, rusted, up, and, you, can, no, longer, replace, the, bulbs, so, up, the, ladder, to, re, wire, new, lights, i, went, unfortunately, i, was, on, call, and, yes, i, suppose, i, was, trying, to, do, too, much, but, if, you, don’t, try, you, don’t, succeed, so, i, downed, tools, went, off, to, calve, a, cow, and, then, came, back, to, find, a, neighbour, plus, her, 4, children, in, our, kitchen, so, i, stopped, had, a, cup, of, tea, and, then, headed, back, up, the, ladder, now, wife, maintains, i, should, have, noticed, that, there, were, lights, on, at, this, point, i, would, like, to, point, out, that, i, should, also, notice, when, she, has, moved, furniture, had, her, hair, cut, or, even, spring, cleaned, the, house, as, i, am, often, berated, for, my, lack, of, noticing, these, sorts, of, things, yes, i, should, have, noticed, but, i, didn’t, i, was, focussed, on, what, i, was, trying, to, do, as, usual, so, up, the, ladder, i, went, to, connect, up, the, light, not, knowing, that, wife, had, switched, the, electrics, back, on, and, yes, when, i, was, at, the, top, of, the, ladder, i, grabbed, the, wires, and, then, spent, what, seemed, an, awfully, long, time, trying, to, let, them, go, and, stay, on, the, ladder, as, the, electric, current, was, shocking, me, so, the, light, did, not, get, fixed, as, i, was, not, going, back, up, the, ladder, as, i, was, now, in, shock, ho, hum, sun, finished, the, light, while, every, one, was, out, and, then, picked, up, a, from, a, sleep, over, and, went, to, church, in, wigton, pm, was, speaking, on, the, parable, of, the, 10, bridesmaids, which, was, good, as, i, had, never, understood, it, as, it, is, obviously, related, to, a, cultural, thing, that, happened, at, weddings, in, jesus, day, the, point, being, that, the, wise, ones, who, were, waiting, for, the, return, of, the, bridegroom, had, the, oil, in, their, lamps, and, the, concept, that, this, was, the, holy, spirit, that, meant, they, could, meet, with, the, bridegroom, i, e, christ, i, am, not, sure, that, the, idea, is, entirely, right, since, there, is, that, big, leap, oil, holy, spirit, but, it, was, interesting, i, still, think, it, was, a, cultural, thing, that, was, obvious, to, his, original, listeners, and, we, just, don’t, have, a, clue, ali, and, andy, called, around, in, the, evening, it, was, really, good, to, see, him, again, he, used, to, be, a, vet, here, who, left, several, years, ago, and, it, looks, that, at, long, last, he, is, going, to, look, to, settle, down, he, was, quite, depressing, about, la, vet, practice, though, he, is, now, 100, small, animal, so, he, is, biased, they, are, actively, looking, at, taking, tb, testing, from, the, vets, in, his, area, and, the, vets, are, dropping, the, farm, practice, as, being, uneconomic, so, much, for, the, govt, wanting, more, farm, vets, around, at, least, this, is, a, low, cost, area, so, at, least, we, are, not, competing, with, small, animal, practices, able, to, offer, large, wages, to, assistant, vets, he, is, looking, to, set, up, his, own, or, buy, a, practice, to, settle, into, they, are, obviously, looking, to, get, married, so, that, will, be, another, wedding, to, go, to, we, have, been, invited, to, lb’s, who, is, finally, marrying, p, they, have, been, following, each, other, around, the, world, for, the, last, 2, years, from, disaster, to, disaster, as, they, are, both, in, humanitarian, relief, work, she, was, a, vet, student, here, too, mon, monday, monday, tell, me, why, i, don’t, like, mondays, young, vet, is, exhausted, and, everything, is, catching, up, with, her, so, she, is, going, to, take, the, end, of, the, week, off, the, joiner, finally, arrived, to, put, in, the, windows, and, had, real, problems, writhing, the, old, ones, out, and, so, has, taken, half, the, sand, stone, with, them, so, they, will, have, to, be, reconcreted, which, is, a, builders, job, ie, he, is, not, going, to, do, it, the, bathroom, is, still, in, pieces, 8, days, it, was, supposed, to, take, and, we, are, now, in, the, third, week, work, was, bedlam, so, i, was, queuing, the, ops, up, this, morning, i, hate, operating, all, morning, as, it, is, very, draining, as, i, have, to, concentrate, on, what, i, am, doing, while, the, office, staff, keep, coming, with, more, and, more, queries, urgh, got, another, stupid, letter, from, the, planners, quibbling, about, listed, building, consent, that, i, am, trying, to, get, for, the, windows, that, are, being, fitted, as, i, speak, i, started, the, ball, rolling, in, august, no, wonder, the, country, is, going, to, the, dogs, tuesday, calmed, down, a, bit, having, filled, in, the, visa, forms, for, our, holiday, to, india, the, great, legacy, of, the, british, the, bureaucracy, is, alive, and, well, why, do, they, want, to, know, my, mothers, place, of, birth, and, maiden, name, for, a, 2, week, holiday, civil, servants, missed, the, gym, cos, surgery, went, on, and, on, i, went, to, a, farm, and, was, asked, a, lot, of, questions, about, tb, as, they, had, had, a, reactor, the, ministry, had, been, out, testing, but, hadn’t, bothered, to, tell, us, mushroom, farmers, son, is, in, the, process, of, planning, next, years, football, team, weds, went, to, a, farm, today, and, he, is, complaining, that, he, cannot, get, his, cows, in, his, restocked, herd, back, in, calf, it, seems, to, be, an, ongoing, problem, a, lot, of, those, who, have, restocked, with, whole, herds, are, having, reduced, fertility, in, their, herds, it, would, be, an, interesting, study, to, see, the, figures, compared, to, non, restocked, herds, thursday, counting, the, days, until, i, am, off, work, continues, to, be, too, hectic, vet, who, lost, her, brother, is, off, and, it, makes, the, whole, pack, of, cards, of, having, enough, vets, to, cover, fall, down, i, think, too, i, am, just, very, tired, from, being, too, busy, for, too, long, when, planning, staffing, levels, it, is, usual, to, be, cautious, rather, than, to, have, too, many, vets, around, not, making, any, money, we, thought, we, were, stretching, it, by, employing, the, 2, new, grads, instead, of, the, one, it, is, also, just, being, under, pressure, all, the, time, with, out, a, few, days, to, cruise, it, went, out, to, chris, swifts, for, the, vcf, veterinary, christian, fellowship, which, was, really, good, as, usual, f, was, telling, us, about, the, thanksgiving, service, that, they, had, just, held, at, barnard, castle, she, has, also, just, got, engaged, so, it, may, curb, her, wanderings, she, is, an, explorer, and, mountaineer, she, is, just, back, from, antarctica, and, is, currently, doing, some, research, and, a, phd, at, durham, barnard, castle, practice, seems, well, organised, and, also, flexible, in, that, she, is, only, working, 3, days, a, week, to, spend, 2, days, at, durham, on, the, phd, it, was, really, good, speaking, to, friends, about, vet’s, brother, as, paul, was, with, them, at, the, accident, as, he, was, taking, the, bloods, so, spent, quite, a, while, praying, for, them, and, for, other, things, friday, bad, day, had, a, phone, call, from, the, planners, saying, they, were, not, going, to, allow, double, glazing, and, that, they, want, the, glazing, bars, to, be, 10mm, not, 20mm, why, there, are, no, 10mm, glazing, bars, on, the, spot, the, ministry, london, have, decided, that, they, are, not, going, to, train, lay, tb, testers, and, that, all, the, work, is, going, to, go, out, to, lvi’s, us, so, we, are, now, looking, at, a, lot, of, work, again, carlisle, defra, in, conjunction, with, london, have, decided, that, they, are, going, to, want, all, the, restocked, herds, tested, annually, with, every, animal, tested, not, just, the, adult, breeding, stock, so, from, looking, at, dropping, 1, 2, vets, 10, days, ago, we, are, now, going, to, be, looking, at, employing, extra, staff, if, we, can, get, hold, of, them, how, are, we, supposed, to, be, planning, for, the, future, if, it, is, so, dependent, on, the, whim, of, defra, officials, saturday, 9th, november, went, to, the, school, pta, pub, quiz, last, night, at, the, rugby, club, it, was, good, fun, but, i, was, struggling, both, to, stay, awake, and, to, dredge, up, the, infotainment, trivia, of, the, previous, year, it, is, funny, how, the, questions, chosen, reflected, the, people, who, were, asking, them, what, had, stuck, in, their, memory, or, that, they, had, chosen, nick, and, jane, were, across, from, newcastle, i, stayed, with, them, for, a, few, nights, when, working, for, defra, across, there, when, i, could, not, face, the, faceless, loneliness, of, the, hotel, consequently, was, completely, zonked, sat, morning, just, went, around, the, house, being, grumpy, went, to, watch, son, play, football, they, thrashed, yewdale, in, the, county, cup, it, was, good, to, be, out, in, the, fresh, air, and, came, back, to, sleep, for, a, while, before, heading, out, to, roy, and, christiana’s, en, famille, we, had, to, pick, up, fraser, from, wigton, this, is, their, son, who, has, just, started, seeing, a, girl, in, wigton, he, is, 14, and, so, was, amusingly, embarrassed, we, were, talking, about, leaving, the, kids, at, what, age, do, you, leave, them, on, their, own, and, to, look, after, the, younger, ones, christiana, told, us, about, when, she, left, all, three, boys, for, an, hour, and, a, half, and, the, older, two, had, got, so, fed, up, with, youngest, being, annoying, they, hung, him, by, his, joggers, from, the, post, at, the, bottom, of, the, stairs, the, middle, one, said, in, all, seriousness, that, it, was, his, fault, that, he, had, torn, his, trousers, if, he, hadn’t, tried, to, escape, the, trousers, would, have, been, fine, even, now, he, considers, that, the, wrongdoing, was, the, ripping, of, the, trousers, not, the, fact, that, they, had, hung, him, up, sun, went, to, church, in, morning, and, fittingly, for, remembrance, sunday, it, was, on, repentance, and, gods, love, daniels, prayer, in, daniel, 9, was, very, fitting, some, how, lunch, and, more, football, and, crashed, in, to, bed, exhausted, mon, tim, is, away, for, the, first, time, on, his, own, with, the, school, on, an, outward, bound, week, south, of, keswick, he, was, so, excited, about, going, i, think, wife, was, a, little, put, off, that, he, was, not, thinking, about, missing, home, hey, ho, but, that, is, a, sign, of, secure, roots, i, suppose, met, up, with, a’s, maths, teacher, to, discuss, her, maths, there, has, been, a, lot, of, to, and, froing, between, the, teachers, but, not, much, communication, with, home, so, we, went, to, see, what, they, were, saying, and, have, left, it, as, the, status, quo, which, is, what, it, should, be, first, call, today, was, a, farmer, who, is, just, out, of, hospital, having, had, his, appendix, removed, for, appendicitis, he, had, seen, this, cow, and, said, why, haven’t, you, had, the, vet, to, it, he, is, a, good, stocksman, and, with, him, being, out, of, action, they, had, a, relief, milker, in, who, hadn’t, noticed, it, had, a, twisted, uterus, and, was, trying, to, calve, if, i, had, seen, it, on, friday, i, could, have, sorted, it, out, but, because, it, was, now, to, late, i, had, to, send, it, off, it, is, sad, but, the, agricultural, industry, is, losing, a, lot, of, experience, and, a, lot, of, stocksmanship, and, handling, and, general, expertise, it, is, not, sthg, that, can, be, replaced, we, are, seeing, more, twisted, wombs, because, of, the, transport, and, fighting, amongst, restocked, herds, the, sad, thing, is, that, he, said, to, me, we, should, never, have, restocked, we, should, have, taken, the, money, and, let, it, all, go, it, is, just, too, much, hassle, with, the, paper, work, and, training, cows, they, have, just, housed, the, cattle, and, so, they, are, all, fighting, to, come, in, to, the, parlour, to, get, milked, and, just, making, life, difficult, there, is, a, real, disillusionment, around, at, the, moment, but, there, are, also, those, who, are, gearing, up, to, milk, more, and, more, cows, to, stay, still, 300, tuesday, the, great, european, market, combined, with, defra’s, inflexibility, is, causing, a, few, problems, the, dutch, heifers, that, have, been, imported, to, replace, some, of, the, fmd, losses, have, a, unique, identifier, number, which, is, on, their, ear, tag, so, everyone, knows, who, they, are, so, far, so, good, they, also, have, nl, on, them, rather, than, uk, which, means, we, know, they, are, from, holland, the, problem, is, they, have, a, small, check, digit, on, them, at, the, end, this, means, dutch, computers, can, recognise, if, the, ear, tag, is, a, valid, one, or, has, been, misread, the, uk, tags, have, a, check, digit, at, the, front, of, the, number, very, useful, to, help, rule, out, misreadings, or, transcribing, of, the, ear, tags, however, the, defra, computer, doesn’t, recognise, the, numbers, so, we, are, being, asked, to, retest, heifers, because, they, still, have, an, outstanding, record, of, the, ear, tag, numbers, as, untested, because, the, extra, digit, has, or, had, not, been, entered, on, the, uk, system, the, number, of, out, standing, tests, is, dropping, but, we, will, not, be, able, to, keep, up, with, this, level, of, testing, more, allocations, have, arrived, today, managed, to, get, all, the, bits, sorted, so, i, could, leave, at, 5, 30, for, my, few, days, off, the, only, out, standing, thing, is, the, stuff, for, the, accountant, end, of, year, it, was, supposed, to, be, in, by, 18th, of, oct, but, hey, ho, weds, i, have, taken, a, few, days, off, to, try, and, paint, the, windows, and, new, bathroom, we, are, having, put, in, the, planners, phoned, to, query, again, about, the, windows, and, i, told, them, they, were, already, in, so, it, went, down, like, a, lead, balloon, and, they, are, coming, to, tell, me, off, they, also, started, querying, the, other, windows, from, 95, the, problem, with, having, a, few, days, off, is, that, i, get, very, head, achey, and, feel, washed, out, and, ill, once, the, adrenalin, stops, i, seem, to, crash, thursday, met, up, with, charlie, from, longtown, vets, for, lunch, which, was, great, his, practice, in, carlisle, that, he, has, started, is, going, well, it, is, on, the, main, road, out, to, scotland, and, looks, really, good, and, he, is, getting, lots, of, custom, just, by, being, there, he, is, looking, for, a, part, time, vet, to, start, mornings, friday, repainted, the, bathroom, walls, after, discovering, i, had, used, 2, different, shades, of, green, one, was, ming, grey, the, other, ming, blue, i, just, opened, them, one, after, the, other, and, thought, the, difference, was, because, the, one, had, dried, and, the, other, was, still, wet, ooops, the, plumber, is, having, problems, with, the, electrics, and, getting, the, lights, to, work, so, it, was, all, fused, out, i, am, just, glad, we, have, a, shower, as, well, or, we, would, all, be, getting, rather, smelly, by, now, went, to, watch, changing, lanes, at, cinema, a, rather, thoughtful, if, slow, and, unbelievable, set, up, but, nice, escapism, for, an, hour, or, two, saturday, november, 16th, working, again, but, feel, better, for, having, had, a, few, days, off, even, if, the, bathroom, isn’t, finished, getting, to, be, a, bit, of, a, saga, oh, well, never, mind, sat, morning, surgery, was, busy, and, then, several, farm, calls, afterwards, for, the, amount, of, stock, around, and, the, cost, effectiveness, of, veterinary, time, we, are, doing, an, incredible, amount, of, clinical, work, dan, the, sheep, ai, vet, who, locums, for, us, on, occasions, phoned, up, wanting, alison’s, phone, number, she, was, of, course, out, it, being, sat, night, his, technician, is, ill, and, he, has, 250, swales, to, ai, tomorrow, hope, he, finds, some, one, all, the, sheep, ai, and, embryo, technicians, are, very, busy, as, people, try, to, build, up, their, pedigree, herds, and, flocks, by, breeding, for, top, quality, sun, am, busy, with, calls, and, then, painted, doors, in, bathroom, while, son, painted, the, window, very, messy, but, he, enjoyed, it, it, will, give, him, confidence, to, try, again, it, is, patience, and, practice, went, to, church, in, the, evening, rob, whitaker, the, principal, of, capernwray, bible, college, was, preaching, he, is, so, animated, and, relevant, he, was, talking, on, feeding, the, 5000, and, jesus, compassion, and, just, the, circumstances, jesus, was, in, at, the, time, how, he, used, the, disciples, and, then, applying, it, to, us, and, to, the, church, in, general, espy, compassion, very, challenging, went, on, to, meet, up, with, lads, and, spent, time, praying, phil, is, pretty, down, about, not, having, a, job, it, effects, his, self, worth, didn’t, help, that, fraser, had, a, brand, new, merc, sitting, out, side, his, house, mon, hit, the, maelstrom, running, with, an, in, tray, flowing, out, and, still, nothing, together, for, year, end, to, accountant, so, pushed, practice, manager, and, then, started, operating, and, haunting, him, every, 20, mins, in, between, ops, and, keeping, him, on, task, the, problem, is, that, there, are, so, many, other, things, going, on, at, the, moment, that, the, non, urgent, keep, disappearing, in, to, tomorrow, the, new, drugs, discount, system, is, working, and, generating, a, lot, of, interest, and, then, hopefully, will, cut, down, on, the, black, market, with, any, luck, the, increased, turn, over, will, make, up, for, margin, usual, problem, solving, and, smoothing, over, and, 2nd, opinions, to, sort, out, the, 20, day, rule, is, not, stopping, one, of, our, local, cattle, dealers, from, buying, and, selling, he, says, the, paperwork, to, run, 5, holding, numbers, is, horrendous, ken, and, anne, called, around, and, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, they, have, a, lime, spreading, business, and, have, been, really, busy, over, fmd, both, with, lime, for, land, that, is, going, to, be, used, for, barley, and, crops, rather, than, grass, and, with, a, lot, of, stone, for, building, work, and, new, pathways, and, for, lonnings, whereas, farmers, were, happy, to, move, cattle, via, roads, they, are, trying, to, reduce, the, movements, along, roads, and, are, putting, in, tracks, for, the, cows, tuesday, more, tracings, to, check, for, tb, these, are, cattle, bought, from, a, farm, where, tb, has, since, been, confirmed, and, the, paperwork, to, go, with, them, ear, tags, don’t, correlate, so, going, to, be, a, problem, rota, nightmare, at, the, moment, as, everyone, is, organising, their, skiing, trips, so, we, are, going, to, have, 1, 2, vets, off, all, of, jan, and, most, of, feb, took, first, box, load, of, paperwork, to, the, accountant, he, is, an, old, fashioned, up, the, back, stairs, not, a, computer, in, sight, type, of, fella, he, is, a, wily, old, fox, much, more, than, he, looks, as, he, manages, to, keep, the, taxman, happy, and, off, our, backs, which, is, probably, the, most, important, the, financial, year, doesn’t, look, too, bad, but, doesn’t, allow, for, the, number, of, days, of, holiday, carried, over, if, we, had, to, give, the, holiday, pay, or, pay, a, vet, to, cover, for, those, days, it, would, make, them, look, a, lot, less, rosy, got, back, in, time, for, gym, and, then, tuesday, kid, chauffer, work, then, fell, into, bed, and, slept, weds, the, phone, stopped, at, 4, 00pm, and, didn’t, ring, again, until, 9, 30, this, morning, weird, the, work, has, just, stopped, like, a, tap, being, turned, off, so, got, the, rest, of, testing, sorted, sorted, out, the, rest, of, the, stuff, for, the, accountant, tidied, the, office, wrote, up, my, book, and, even, thought, about, mucking, my, car, out, only, got, as, far, as, thinking, about, it, as, coffee, break, arrived, didn’t, earn, much, but, felt, a, lot, better, for, it, skipped, off, early, and, gave, the, bathroom, doors, second, coat, thursday, 21st, november, pay, day, decided, that, if, defra, was, a, business, it, would, be, bust, by, now, we, are, on, a, rollercoaster, trying, to, look, at, the, future, with, them, they, only, make, up, in, a, normal, year, about, 20, of, our, farm, fee, income, but, that, has, been, much, higher, over, the, past, few, years, the, chief, defra, vet, has, been, flying, kites, as, they, say, in, politics, to, see, what, the, reaction, is, or, has, been, doing, as, he, has, been, told, by, whitehall, i, don’t, know, what, the, ins, and, outs, of, it, are, but, the, gist, has, been, they, are, going, to, employ, their, own, vets, to, do, the, testing, as, this, would, be, much, more, efficient, and, cost, effective, when, it, was, pointed, out, this, wasn’t, going, to, be, the, case, we, went, to, they, would, employ, non, vets, to, do, it, as, this, would, be, much, cheaper, there, would, then, not, be, any, farm, animal, vets, in, large, areas, of, the, country, as, it, would, reduce, the, fee, income, even, further, where, the, farm, side, of, vet, businesses, is, marginal, it, would, just, be, given, up, it, would, mean, our, business, in, a, high, stock, area, would, probably, drop, 2, vets, so, london, finally, decided, that, the, status, quo, would, probably, be, best, at, the, same, time, carlisle, in, consultation, with, page, st, decided, that, as, there, is, so, much, tb, being, found, in, the, restocked, farms, that, all, the, restocked, farms, should, be, tested, on, an, annual, basis, and, that, all, animals, not, just, breeding, stock, should, be, tested, this, means, about, a, 25, increase, in, work, load, for, the, next, 2, winters, so, instead, of, dropping, a, vet, we, should, look, to, be, taking, one, on, but, we, cannot, believe, what, is, going, to, happen, next, as, how, can, we, plan, when, such, drastic, changes, are, proposed, in, the, space, of, a, month, friday, had, a, horrendous, night, with, ill, calves, with, pneumonia, in, the, evening, a, calving, at, 1, am, in, silloth, then, a, dog, trying, to, die, at, 5am, so, was, i, ever, pleased, that, it, was, my, half, day, slept, and, played, squash, with, l, j, in, the, afternoon, the, dog, belonged, to, an, old, lady, who, had, no, children, and, it, was, her, husbands, dog, who, had, died, 4, years, previously, she, was, going, to, be, on, her, own, if, it, dies, so, she, was, very, tearful, and, upset, the, dog, is, not, looking, good, as, it, is, 16yr, poodle, type, thing, she, is, isolated, booth, because, she, doesn’t, drive, and, lives, out, at, the, coast, and, because, she, and, her, husband, retired, to, here, and, neither, have, any, family, around, i, felt, for, her, made, me, appreciate, my, family, so, much, more, saturday, 23rd, november, wife, is, away, on, a, course, today, so, for, my, w, e, off, i, am, running, the, kids, and, doing, the, cooking, i, dropped, of, other, son, to, squash, did, some, errands, in, wigton, and, then, watched, the, squash, coaching, they, are, very, patient, and, encouraging, the, total, contrast, was, shown, at, son, s, football, they, are, a, very, good, team, but, i, really, do, not, like, the, attitude, of, most, of, the, coaches, and, teams, in, the, carlisle, teams, i, was, late, to, arrive, and, they, were, already, 4, 0, up, and, this, was, the, second, half, it, was, only, when, i, walked, around, to, where, the, coach, was, did, he, think, about, giving, son, and, the, other, 2, subs, a, game, we, have, had, it, out, with, him, before, that, he, should, give, all, the, kids, a, chance, to, play, or, else, they, find, it, crushing, son, was, really, fed, up, with, the, situation, but, he, does, love, playing, and, is, quite, loyal, the, coach, always, justifies, that, he, has, to, play, his, best, team, which, he, doesn’t, he, plays, his, favourites, friends, sons, but, the, point, is, irrelevant, if, you, are, winning, by, that, margin, then, you, can, afford, to, have, weaker, players, on, the, field, they, went, on, to, win, 10, 0, we, will, have, to, get, a, thursby, team, organised, for, next, year, went, on, to, longtown, poultry, sale, very, interesting, lots, of, rare, birds, and, waterfowl, will, have, to, go, and, buy, next, year, and, get, some, different, types, for, a, to, breed, up, sun, dan, spoke, on, walking, on, water, in, his, own, inimitable, style, he, is, so, refreshing, and, practical, and, honest, made, it, a, call, to, prayer, as, well, didn’t, do, much, in, morning, as, wife, was, on, course, but, finally, managed, to, finish, bathroom, hoorah, mon, decided, that, if, defra, was, a, business, it, would, be, bust, by, now, we, are, on, a, rollercoaster, trying, to, look, at, the, future, with, them, they, only, make, up, in, a, normal, year, about, 20, of, our, farm, fee, income, but, that, has, been, much, higher, over, the, past, few, years, the, chief, defra, vet, has, been, flying, kites, as, they, say, in, politics, to, see, what, the, reaction, is, or, has, been, doing, as, he, has, been, told, by, whitehall, i, don’t, know, what, the, ins, and, outs, of, it, are, but, the, gist, has, been, they, are, going, to, employ, their, own, vets, to, do, the, testing, as, this, would, be, much, more, efficient, and, cost, effective, when, it, was, pointed, out, this, wasn’t, going, to, be, the, case, we, went, to, they, would, employ, non, vets, to, do, it, as, this, would, be, much, cheaper, there, would, then, not, be, any, farm, animal, vets, in, large, areas, of, the, country, as, it, would, reduce, the, fee, income, even, further, where, the, farm, side, of, vet, businesses, is, marginal, it, would, just, be, given, up, it, would, mean, our, business, in, a, high, stock, area, would, probably, drop, 2, vets, so, london, finally, decided, that, the, status, quo, would, probably, be, best, at, the, same, time, carlisle, in, consultation, with, page, st, decided, that, as, there, is, so, much, tb, being, found, in, the, restocked, farms, that, all, the, restocked, farms, should, be, tested, on, an, annual, basis, and, that, all, animals, not, just, breeding, stock, should, be, tested, this, means, about, a, 25, increase, in, work, load, for, the, next, 2, winters, so, instead, of, dropping, a, vet, we, should, look, to, be, taking, one, on, but, we, cannot, believe, what, is, going, to, happen, next, as, how, can, we, plan, when, such, drastic, changes, are, proposed, in, the, space, of, a, month, tuesday, went, to, do, routine, fertility, at, a, farm, today, and, it, was, quite, depressing, in, that, a, neighbour, of, theirs, who, has, started, up, again, has, had, a, really, bad, time, the, problems, of, restocking, on, top, of, bad, hips, he, was, all, gung, ho, to, get, restocked, and, although, he, had, a, sore, leg, he, didn’t, go, to, the, doctors, while, he, had, the, chance, when, he, had, no, stock, as, it, was, only, a, little, sore, but, as, soon, as, he, got, stock, back, and, started, to, do, a, lot, of, physical, work, they, were, very, sore, so, he, went, to, the, dr’s, and, has, 2, hips, which, need, replaced, but, as, he, is, only, 40, they, don’t, want, to, do, it, yet, and, it, would, mean, no, physical, work, for, a, long, period, on, top, of, that, he, has, mastitis, problems, caused, by, taking, his, plant, to, pieces, by, defra, he, has, lost, 8, cows, and, heifers, through, calving, illness, or, injury, so, after, less, than, a, year, he, looks, set, to, give, up, disillusioned, and, a, lot, poorer, the, workload, for, us, is, easing, as, most, cattle, are, now, housed, and, a, lot, of, the, housing, work, is, sorted, i, always, feel, it, is, a, run, down, to, christmas, now, with, all, the, preparations, and, celebrations, and, kids, and, adult, parties, i, was, at, another, farm, today, who, had, meningitis, a, year, ago, and, has, still, not, really, recovered, properly, he, is, still, finding, it, hard, to, get, going, he, lost, all, his, animals, and, all, his, work, during, fmd, and, the, additional, strain, has, meant, he, has, lost, a, lot, of, interest, in, the, farming, side, he, can’t, be, bothered, with, all, the, hassle, and, paper, work, of, farming, sheep, and, cattle, and, so, is, growing, a, lot, of, veg, which, he, and, his, wife, have, always, enjoyed, growing, they, just, retail, at, the, farm, gate, it, doesn’t, make, much, money, but, as, he, says, it, just, keeps, things, turning, over, and, he, and, his, wife, have, time, for, each, other, and, no, hassle, life, is, more, important, than, making, a, living, very, profound, i, am, going, to, go, part, time, i, wish, wednesday, there, seem, to, be, a, lot, of, problems, still, on, restocking, farms, they, are, all, having, problems, with, getting, the, cows, back, in, calf, two, farms, today, complained, that, even, though, they, were, more, than, pleased, with, the, compensation, at, the, time, the, costs, of, restocking, are, much, much, more, it, would, be, interesting, to, do, a, survey, on, the, number, of, breeding, animals, bought, in, and, those, who, have, been, lost, either, through, illness, or, by, failure, to, get, in, calf, the, old, diseases, are, still, causing, the, most, problems, lung, worm, a, disease, i, thought, was, well, under, control, and, well, understood, has, caused, huge, problems, ibr, or, cow, flu, has, caused, so, many, problems, that, we, can, no, longer, get, the, vaccine, as, all, the, stocks, have, been, used, it, was, interesting, today, that, one, of, the, farms, that, is, about, to, start, milking, having, finally, restocked, ordered, vaccine, for, lepto, ibr, and, bvd, almost, as, a, matter, of, course, but, fertility, is, causing, the, most, worries, thursday, feel, a, lot, better, after, an, early, night, apart, from, running, to, and, from, carlisle, after, my, daughter, youth, group, last, night, and, evening, shopping, tonight, son, is, still, trying, to, organise, an, u14, thursby, team, for, next, year, all, he, needs, is, a, coach, the, problem, is, that, it, is, a, big, commitment, i, wish, i, could, do, it, but, i, work, too, many, w, e’s, spent, time, day, dreaming, about, what, to, do, with, the, byre, in, our, yard, it, is, an, old, knackered, building, that, needs, bulldozing, but, wife, s, dad, thinks, we, should, just, look, after, it, and, convert, it, into, sthg, but, what, i, still, think, that, there, is, an, opening, for, herriot, holidays, taking, people, for, a, day, at, the, vets, and, then, a, day, at, the, mart, and, so, on, diversification, is, the, name, of, the, game, friday, had, an, interesting, day, what, with, one, thing, and, another, no, lunch, but, hey, who’s, complaining, one, of, the, nurses, at, work, has, a, chicken, shed, with, her, husband, and, another, farmer, partner, the, fans, and, alarms, all, failed, and, so, the, air, was, not, circulating, the, farmer, was, devastated, it, was, a, horrendous, sight, a, carpet, of, dead, chickens, there, were, 23,000, in, the, shed, and, we, worked, out, there, were, roughly, 2, 3000, left, alive, 20.000, dead, it, brought, back, memories, of, fmd, also, the, logistics, of, disposing, of, 20, tonnes, of, dead, chicken, i, hope, the, insurance, covers, it, out, for, dinner, at, christiana’s, had, a, vet, friend, call, around, at, teatime, he, is, a, meat, hygiene, practice, covering, several, different, meat, plants, they, have, several, vets, covering, all, the, different, plants, he, has, been, asked, to, got, to, harrogate, to, discuss, how, the, different, proposed, regulations, can, be, implemented, a, marked, improvement, on, the, usual, dumping, of, unworkable, ideas, from, defra, hq, saturday, 30th, nov, took, a, while, to, get, going, after, being, out, for, dinner, last, night, though, it, was, very, pleasant, spent, day, doing, odds, and, ends, went, to, watch, son, play, footie, and, bought, an, orchid, from, the, orchid, farm, the, kids, were, making, cards, for, mum, and, wrapping, presents, so, it, was, fun, james, came, down, with, his, kids, so, there, were, 7, running, riot, which, is, really, a, bit, too, many, after, a, late, night, sun, 1st, church, in, the, morning, and, johnboy, called, around, to, see, what, time, the, prayer, meeting, finished, as, he, had, arranged, a, surprise, party, for, wife, s, 40th, so, had, loads, of, folks, in, sunday, night, which, was, great, they, had, all, crept, in, to, the, big, kitchen, and, decorated, it, while, we, were, in, the, front, room, a, and, son, had, been, going, back, and, forth, so, wife, never, noticed, so, it, was, special, the, kids, were, as, high, as, kites, mon, 2nd, wife, is, forty, and, there’s, a, photo, in, the, news, and, star, to, prove, it, the, kids, brought, breakfast, in, bed, and, opened, presents, poor, other, son, after, 3, late, nights, did, not, want, to, go, to, school, i, hope, they, are, all, right, for, gran, wife, s, mum, and, sister, arrived, nannies, from, ireland, to, the, rescue, they, are, going, to, look, after, the, kids, while, we, are, away, for, a, few, days, we, have, had, a, bit, o, banter, about, them, looking, after, the, kids, sister, found, an, advert, for, nannies, from, ireland, which, is, an, au, pair, service, and, sent, of, for, the, info, which, she, forwarded, to, us, she, is, a, character, so, they, have, been, asking, about, working, conditions, and, pay, i, have, been, requesting, police, checks, and, giving, as, good, as, i, get, the, winds, are, pretty, strong, so, they, have, had, a, bad, journey, the, super, ferry, was, cancelled, so, they, have, had, to, come, by, boat, which, takes, much, longer, a, baked, a, cake, and, managed, to, get, 40, candles, on, it, both, wife, and, i, are, looking, forward, to, getting, away, as, usual, work, was, really, busy, and, lots, of, loose, ends, to, tie, up, prior, to, leaving, but, finished, for, 3, days, hoorraaahhh, tues, 3rd, spent, the, day, travelling, up, to, loch, lomond, stopped, off, at, braeside, and, at, gretna, and, bought, some, clothes, and, mooched, around, cameron, house, is, beautiful, with, wonderful, views, and, you, can, just, walk, down, to, the, lake, there, is, a, pool, so, went, for, a, swim, before, dinner, very, civilised, we, had, just, finished, dinner, when, the, waitress, arrived, with, a, cake, with, 4, candles, and, sang, a, rather, wobbly, happy, birthday, sister, had, been, very, keen, that, we, left, the, phone, number, of, cameron, house, even, though, she, had, our, mobile, numbers, now, we, know, why, very, pleasant, surprise, but, we, will, never, eat, any, cake, let, alone, a, whole, one, while, we, were, strolling, around, after, dinner, came, across, the, picture, that, one, of, our, friends, had, used, to, decorate, the, kitchen, with, on, sunday, he, had, come, across, it, somewhere, in, a, book, and, it, looks, vaguely, like, wife, so, he, had, put, it, up, with, lady, wife, underneath, and, here, was, the, original, or, at, least, a, print, of, the, same, picture, weird, weds, after, a, very, lazy, start, a, swim, before, breakfast, full, scottish, we, walked, up, eastern, edge, of, loch, in, sunshine, and, showers, we, were, only, caught, out, in, one, shower, there, was, a, rainbow, down, to, the, loch, edge, a, beautiful, winter, walk, i, have, decided, i, am, going, to, walk, the, west, highland, way, with, the, boys, had, some, fruit, for, lunch, as, cooked, breakfast, on, top, of, dinner, last, night, means, i, don’t, really, need, to, eat, for, a, week, another, swim, thought, about, the, gym, but, i, am, on, holiday, and, felt, wonderfully, relaxed, and, then, dinner, thursday, another, lazy, start, and, swim, before, breakfast, a, walk, along, the, loch, and, the, back, to, glasgow, to, the, burrell, collection, we, just, wandered, around, the, paintings, i, can, sit, and, look, at, the, impressionists, and, keep, seeing, something, new, they, are, very, beautiful, came, back, home, in, time, for, tea, though, did, not, eat, anything, as, too, much, food, made, up, a, ditty, for, the, nannies, nannies, from, ireland, came, to, stay, so, respondent, and, wife, could, go, away, off, the, children, went, to, school, while, respondent, and, wife, swam, in, the, pool, the, nannies, were, left, with, all, the, dust, cleaning, dirt, for, their, daily, crust, their, experienced, gleaned, over, all, the, years, could, not, stop, all, other, son, s, tears, off, to, school, you, must, go, said, a, stern, faced, nanny, lo, the, nannies, go, to, tk, max, forgetting, all, about, the, cats, something, is, sick, on, the, mat, the, nannies, really, don’t, like, that, a, m, l, begs, go, and, fetch, all, the, eggs, on, animals, they’re, not, too, what, did, the, contract, really, mean, keen, they, will, not, give, another, day, until, something, is, done, about, their, pay, so, back, to, ireland, with, this, tale, they, do, go, via, cummersdale, as, their, pay, all, disappears, they, decide, on, new, careers, lois, thinks, of, a, racing, car, ruth, just, of, going, far, so, our, thanks, to, them, are, due, the, nannies, from, ireland, crew, its, now, their, turn, to, go, and, play, till, they’re, called, another, day, edited, to, remove, names, in, verse, friday, bad, hair, day, having, come, back, all, relaxed, and, cheerful, i, was, relaxed, until, i, missed, my, lunch, after, working, all, day, plenty, of, hassle, from, one, thing, and, another, i, was, then, on, call, at, night, and, it, was, very, busy, loch, lomond, and, cameron, house, seem, a, long, long, time, ago, i, am, extremely, fed, up, i, do, not, want, to, calve, another, cow, out, side, office, hours, ever, again, saturday, 7th, december, worked, this, morning, after, a, bad, night, on, call, and, felt, like, death, warmed, up, did, surgery, and, then, sorted, stuff, out, and, did, some, calls, got, finished, at, 1pm, and, went, back, to, bed, went, to, xmas, party, at, white, heather, which, was, good, fun, but, i, was, just, too, knackered, to, enjoy, it, sunday, working, a, few, calls, and, plenty, of, pneumonia, drugs, for, calves, there, is, a, lot, of, pneumonia, about, with, the, east, wind, blowing, it, is, a, wee, bitty, cruel, wind, but, at, least, it, is, dry, not, weather, to, be, working, out, side, it, also, seems, to, be, getting, dark, really, early, i, need, some, sun, on, my, back, 4, weeks, to, go, till, india, had, a, migraine, or, flu, at, night, and, went, to, bed, and, started, throwing, up, i, cannot, burn, the, candle, at, one, end, even, at, the, moment, mon, off, work, ill, but, a, new, vet, student, starting, and, r, is, off, as, well, xmas, shopping, so, thrown, in, at, deep, end, tuesday, went, back, in, and, did, my, bit, working, at, night, but, night, work, easing, off, thank, goodness, plenty, of, high, cell, count, investigations, to, try, and, sort, out, weds, took, kids, swimming, after, work, with, the, vet, student, it, was, good, to, do, some, exercise, and, chill, out, went, to, staples, prior, to, going, to, the, pool, where, as, usual, there, was, no, one, on, the, desk, for, print, cartridges, so, i, went, and, found, one, of, the, girls, chatting, on, the, till, to, get, me, what, i, was, looking, for, as, i, couldn’t, find, an, hp58, what, i, hadn’t, noticed, was, some, one, else, just, standing, at, the, other, end, of, the, long, counter, who, was, then, very, upset, and, aggressive, that, i, had, jumped, the, queue, he, is, obviously, having, a, worse, week, than, me, as, he, could, have, gone, and, got, some, one, from, the, tills, as, easily, as, i, did, but, didn’t, so, why, he, got, so, upset, i, don’t, know, now’t, as, queer, as, folk, other, son, was, very, upset, tonight, when, we, got, back, from, swimming, because, he, had, shaved, one, side, of, his, head, wife, had, cut, the, others, hair, but, his, was, still, short, and, didn’t, need, it, he, wanted, it, done, so, in, the, shower, took, things, into, his, own, hands, and, shaved, off, his, side, burn, but, only, on, one, side, he, did, not, like, getting, laughed, at, either, thursday, christiana, came, to, the, rescue, over, the, hair, other, son, s, and, has, managed, to, make, it, look, not, too, bad, but, it, was, funny, on, call, at, night, but, as, most, nights, seem, double, booked, at, the, moment, went, to, kids, performance, they, are, doing, alice, in, wonderland, very, good, they, can, really, sing, and, perform, the, teachers, do, get, a, lot, out, of, them, tim, was, the, knave, of, hearts, character, actor, and, other, son, was, a, frog, footman, grebbit, grebbit, it, was, good, fun, only, had, a, phone, call, to, put, a, client, at, ease, about, her, cat, so, managed, to, wing, it, friday, out, at, friends, tonight, kids, younger, 2, at, performance, older, 2, are, at, xmas, meal, so, a, bit, of, a, juggling, act, to, get, everyone, at, right, place, at, right, time, missed, out, on, the, cumberland, vet, club, social, which, was, a, shame, but, can, only, be, in, one, place, at, a, time, saturday, 14th, december, had, a, good, meal, out, except, only, started, talking, about, the, publicity, for, as, i, was, wanting, to, go, and, fall, asleep, some, where, i, cannot, take, late, nights, it, is, just, i, am, feeling, too, tired, all, the, time, i, think, that, the, adrenalin, has, run, out, and, i, just, feel, stale, hope, xmas, sorts, it, out, spent, morning, working, did, surgery, and, then, sorted, out, queries, with, gg, for, the, accountant, spent, the, afternoon, writing, cards, and, trying, to, put, together, lists, of, folk, we, should, send, too, a, disaster, got, as, far, as, m, before, running, out, of, cards, and, initiative, went, around, to, s’s, for, nibbles, as, a, house, warming, she, is, some, caterer, her, mother, does, it, as, a, job, so, she, has, helped, so, great, food, could, have, done, with, some, non, vets, to, dilute, down, the, vetiness, sunday, got, up, and, took, kids, to, church, wife, is, doing, a, thing, on, borderline, at, night, so, she, has, to, prepare, that, played, football, and, caught, up, with, a, few, bits, and, pieces, and, did, some, gardening, chatted, to, a, vet, from, chippenham, who, was, complaining, about, the, tb, situation, there, they, have, one, beef, farm, where, when, they, first, discovered, tb, the, farm, took, a, week, to, test, as, there, were, 600, head, there, are, only, 200, left, so, it, only, takes, a, day, the, farmer, has, been, unable, to, but, in, store, cattle, to, feed, and, has, lost, over, 100, to, defra, it, has, been, 2, monthly, testing, for, almost, 2, years, now, and, he, still, has, not, had, a, clear, test, she, was, down, too, just, from, too, much, on, call, monday, got, up, feeling, exhausted, but, even, though, not, very, busy, couldn’t, get, going, the, dairy, farms, are, all, feeling, very, nervous, over, the, nestle, pull, out, farmers, said, to, me, that, they, were, pleased, that, their, sons, are, not, going, to, be, going, into, farming, both, teenagers, one, a’s, year, and, one, a, year, older, both, looking, to, work, in, it, it, used, to, be, a, point, of, sadness, that, the, next, generation, is, not, following, on, but, there, seems, to, be, a, general, air, of, resignation, that, farming, is, not, going, to, be, a, good, career, sad, really, tuesday, 17th, december, spent, the, day, sorting, out, the, remaining, bits, and, pieces, for, the, accountant, we, met, with, him, at, night, which, as, usual, was, the, sorting, out, of, this, and, that, the, finding, of, the, relevant, pieces, of, paper, and, then, what, the, unaccounted, cheques, were, for, we, are, still, making, money, but, only, thanks, to, defra, so, three, cheers, for, mrs, beckett, cynic, it, made, it, a, very, long, day, and, lois, is, off, for, the, week, so, we, are, short, staffed, again, but, last, tests, are, today, as, we, will, not, be, able, to, get, bloods, to, the, labs, because, of, the, christmas, post, i, do, like, this, time, of, year, where, you, hear, from, friends, who, you, have, not, seen, for, ages, and, think, the, same, as, you, did, last, year, i, will, have, to, catch, up, with, them, soon, hey, ho, weds, 18th, there, is, a, lot, of, pneumonia, about, and, the, farmers, are, all, buying, vast, quantities, of, drugs, to, treat, whole, batches, of, calves, and, stirks, the, is, the, usual, mix, but, far, more, than, normal, i, don’t, know, whether, to, be, pleased, that, the, practice, is, doing, well, and, invoicing, a, lot, or, sad, that, there, is, so, much, disease, around, and, we, will, have, a, horrendous, drugs, bill, a, dilemma, i, don’t, think, i, should, explore, thurs, 19th, fri, 20th, kids, went, to, ice, rink, in, carlisle, with, wife, they, have, set, up, an, out, door, rink, which, the, city, council, are, sponsoring, to, attract, people, in, to, the, centre, i, don’t, think, that, they, really, need, to, as, the, place, seems, crowded, enough, as, it, is, son, bashed, his, head, quite, badly, and, other, son, fell, over, and, hurt, his, knee, tim, fell, loads, of, times, and, just, ended, up, wet, and, happy, their, different, characters, are, coming, out, saturday, 21st, december, the, beginning, of, the, christmas, rota, i, feel, as, though, we, are, in, the, run, up, to, christmas, now, i, have, also, made, the, mistake, of, not, buying, all, my, presents, before, now, and, went, into, carlisle, to, go, shopping, it, was, quite, nice, in, some, ways, to, see, the, ice, rink, and, mingle, in, the, crowds, but, an, hour, and, a, half, was, plenty, the, kids, have, decided, that, they, are, going, to, ask, for, money, to, take, to, india, this, year, from, the, aunts, and, uncles, and, so, there, will, be, fewer, presents, to, open, as, christmas, seems, to, be, getting, more, and, more, manic, and, commercialised, i, think, that, it, is, a, very, good, idea, well, done, a, and, son, sunday, 22nd, carols, by, candlelight, it, was, magical, the, church, was, packed, out, and, so, i, ended, up, standing, at, the, back, which, in, some, ways, was, quite, nice, as, you, look, down, the, aisles, to, the, stage, and, there, are, rows, of, candles, and, fairy, lights, down, the, sides, pm, lead, it, and, there, were, different, age, groups, taking, part, he, spoke, on, being, a, christmas, tree, and, how, we, end, up, all, convoluted, by, our, own, wrong, choices, and, how, we, can, have, lots, of, fairy, lights, and, a, star, on, top, and, have, an, image, on, the, outside, that, looks, wonderful, but, what, are, we, like, inside, all, those, things, we, surround, ourselves, with, god, knows, and, he, cares, and, he, loves, us, enough, to, send, a, gift, to, help, us, his, son, immanuel, god, with, us, who, will, take, away, the, sin, of, the, world, i, was, really, quite, moved, by, it, all, this, is, the, real, christmas, mon, 23rd, bump, reality, bites, back, it, is, difficult, to, focus, on, the, important, things, of, life, and, keep, a, perspective, on, life, if, it, keeps, getting, interrupted, by, monday, mornings, but, that, is, where, jesus, should, be, in, the, smelly, cattle, shed, and, in, the, market, place, and, making, a, difference, i, will, have, to, think, that, one, out, while, i, have, time, in, india, the, urgent, as, usual, is, pushing, out, the, important, managed, to, go, swimming, at, foxes, the, first, exercise, i, have, had, for, ages, must, get, back, into, it, maybe, wait, for, the, new, year, resolutions, as, exercise, wet, weather, and, working, over, christmas, don’t, really, go, together, tues, 24th, christmas, eve, working, but, quiet, apart, from, last, minute, panics, as, people, think, that, their, ill, dogs, and, cats, will, not, make, it, over, christmas, with, out, seeing, the, vet, called, in, to, pow, heads, for, the, turkey, they, really, do, have, a, good, butchery, and, poultry, business, going, now, good, to, see, direct, selling, by, farmers, or, cooperatives, is, the, only, way, forward, to, break, the, stranglehold, of, the, supermarkets, wife, is, panicking, about, not, having, enough, food, so, i, am, dispatched, to, buy, more, bread, and, milk, i, think, about, protesting, that, if, there, were, 5000, we, still, would, not, need, a, miracle, but, decide, this, is, one, of, those, occasions, when, it, is, better, to, just, spend, another, 2, quid, for, the, peace, wife, s, parents, arrive, an, hour, later, from, belfast, bringing, 2, loaves, of, bread, and, 5, different, types, of, irish, bread, and, 6, pints, of, milk, and, another, 3, boxes, of, food, i, wonder, about, making, a, joke, about, feeding, the, 5000, plus, inflation, but, decide, that, discretion, is, the, better, part, of, valour, and, just, put, them, in, the, freezer, weds, 25th, kids, started, at, 5, 45, am, and, were, unceremoniously, sent, back, to, bed, but, they, were, allowed, to, bring, their, stockings, in, at, half, past, seven, i, was, on, 2nd, call, so, while, they, all, went, off, to, church, i, spent, an, hour, in, the, surgery, seeing, dogs, one, had, meningitis, and, was, very, near, death’s, door, and, the, owner, was, not, that, worried, the, other, is, just, unwell, and, could, have, waited, but, the, problem, is, you, never, know, got, back, and, made, christmas, dinner, so, wasn’t, all, work, though, i, do, feel, amongst, all, the, commercialism, and, turkey, dinners, the, true, significance, of, immanuel, god, who, is, with, us, is, lost, thursday, 26th, on, first, call, and, lots, of, pneumonia, drugs, to, put, out, and, kept, busy, afternoon, evening, we, had, folk, around, lots, of, different, ages, and, backgrounds, so, was, a, real, mix, and, good, fun, friday, 27th, surgery, reopened, and, was, really, busy, i, am, pleased, that, we, had, put, plenty, of, staff, on, the, rota, it, is, always, a, difficult, balance, to, make, trying, to, work, out, if, there, will, be, enough, staff, to, cover, the, work, no, one, wants, to, work, over, xmas, new, year, but, if, there, are, not, enough, then, it, makes, it, really, awful, for, those, that, are, working, but, if, you, have, people, sitting, around, they, resent, that, too, but, it’s, nice, to, know, i, get, it, right, sometimes, doing, a, rota, always, strikes, me, as, a, no, win, situation, as, it, is, always, a, compromise, between, the, two, extremes, saturday, 28th, december, on, call, friday, night, and, then, i, finished, at, lunchtime, wife, wanted, me, to, go, on, church, walk, but, i, was, knackered, and, we, are, all, going, out, tonight, for, dinner, so, i, went, to, bed, for, a, few, hours, sleep, much, to, my, wife’s, displeasure, having, been, on, call, for, the, whole, period, as, soon, as, i, stop, i, crash, out, as, the, adrenalin, fades, and, i, realise, how, tired, i, am, but, only, mon, am, to, work, then, prepare, for, india, and, hitting, the, beach, it, does, take, its, toll, on, family, life, being, on, call, especially, over, the, christmas, period, the, folk, we, are, going, to, dinner, with, he, is, a, policeman, and, they, have, similar, frictions, sun, 29th, the, service, at, church, tonight, was, memorable, the, last, evening, of, the, year, they, have, people, talking, about, what, god, has, been, doing, in, their, lives, so, it, is, usually, people, who, are, not, eloquent, not, used, to, speaking, up, front, but, who, speak, in, a, very, real, way, about, what, jesus, has, been, working, in, their, lives, over, the, past, year, dp, who, is, 14, who, has, had, bone, cancer, gave, a, very, moving, account, about, how, he, had, nearly, died, how, so, often, we, compare, our, selves, with, those, who, have, more, than, us, whether, in, health, or, other, things, we, should, compare, ourselves, with, those, who, have, less, we, should, appreciate, our, lives, and, thank, god, for, who, and, what, we, are, he, has, had, his, ups, and, downs, but, we, are, to, follow, god’s, guiding, and, his, path, for, us, our, lives, are, in, god’s, hands, we, are, to, pray, and, to, trust, in, him, for, our, future, this, is, a, young, lad, who, has, seen, 4, of, the, friends, he, has, made, in, hospital, die, it, makes, the, trivia, we, fill, our, lives, with, back, in, perspective, mon, 30th, last, half, day, and, lots, of, last, minute, things, to, sort, out, before, i, finish, for, new, year, and, the, 2, weeks, in, india, the, cash, flow, has, gone, to, pot, because, of, the, large, amount, of, pneumonia, drugs, we, have, sold, and, tax, vat, going, out, in, end, of, jan, so, needed, to, make, sure, someone, keeps, an, eye, on, it, while, i, am, away, and, makes, sure, that, it, all, falls, into, place, the, problem, with, going, away, is, that, no, one, keeps, up, with, all, the, admin, type, work, that, i, do, so, my, in, tray, will, be, overflowing, by, the, time, i, get, back, tues, 31st, the, young, people, are, partying, at, our, house, so, we, left, them, to, it, rather, than, cramp, their, style, so, we, had, a, very, pleasant, evening, at, some, farming, friends, we, rang, up, and, called, in, on, spec, they, have, 5, boys, so, we, knew, they, wouldn’t, want, to, get, baby, sitters, for, new, year’s, eve, whereas, we, had, about, 40, they, have, stopped, dairying, but, are, now, worried, about, how, the, new, ruling, will, affect, them, at, the, moment, they, lease, their, quota, which, provides, a, fair, amount, of, income, the, new, german, ruling, will, be, applicable, across, the, whole, eec, that, non, producers, cannot, hold, and, therefore, lease, quota, this, means, they, will, have, to, either, sell, it, in, a, flooded, market, or, go, back, to, dairy, farming, unless, mr, p, can, work, a, way, around, the, new, system, they, are, also, taking, advice, and, looking, at, all, sorts, of, diversification, schemes, some, seem, quite, a, good, idea, others, i, think, are, non, starters, they, already, have, invested, some, of, the, fmd, money, into, setting, up, a, student, house, in, carlisle, the, way, house, prices, are, going, around, here, it, is, probably, a, very, good, investment, not, really, the, way, forward, for, farming, though, the, only, depressing, feature, of, the, evening, was, i, asked, what, they, thought, the, future, of, cattle, vets, was, the, answer, was, none, well, that’s, a, good, start, to, 2003, we, got, home, to, find, the, party, in, full, swing, and, we, left, them, to, it, and, went, to, bed, 1st, jan, 2003, got, up, some, what, late, after, staying, up, for, the, new, years, eve, the, young, people, had, cleared, up, after, the, party, and, we, were, amazed, at, how, well, they, had, done, they, had, set, off, the, dish, washer, and, all, we, had, to, do, was, empty, it, i, was, impressed, the, only, reminder, they, had, been, there, was, when, we, drew, the, curtains, there, were, several, glasses, which, had, been, missed, as, they, were, on, the, window, sill, and, bizarrely, an, odd, sock, the, sock, game, my, daughter, assures, me, was, very, funny, but, what, i, want, to, know, is, who, went, home, with, only, one, sock, on, started, thinking, about, india, a, good, job, my, wife, is, organised, as, we, set, off, tomorrow, 2nd, jan, thursday, travelled, down, to, see, my, brother, and, family, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, again, played, risk, which, was, a, bit, of, a, christmas, tradition, when, we, were, kids, it, was, funny, to, be, playing, with, him, and, both, sets, of, kids, as, i, felt, like, a, kid, again, it, was, really, nice, though, b, won, he, managed, to, wipe, people, out, and, amass, their, risk, cards, he, risked, everything, and, it, went, to, the, last, throw, of, the, dice, so, it, was, quite, exciting, friday, 3rd, jan, travelled, down, to, my, dads, to, have, tea, and, drop, off, some, stuff, before, heading, for, the, airport, i, am, pleased, we, have, had, a, few, days, off, before, flying, as, it, is, a, night, flight, and, i, hate, travelling, when, i, am, already, exhausted, the, weather, was, the, usual, british, winter, of, rain, and, wind, a, friend, of, mine, is, convinced, that, this, is, due, to, global, warming, more, energy, in, the, system, means, more, rain, and, wind, in, which, case, cumbria, is, not, going, to, be, the, place, to, live, as, it, is, already, wet, and, windy, enough, the, next, 2, weeks, recall, x’s, family, holiday, to, india, sat, 4th, january, 2003, i, am, sitting, in, the, nilgiri, hills, in, southern, india, in, shorts, and, t, shirt, enjoying, the, coolness, of, the, high, altitude, it, is, almost, twice, the, height, of, ben, nevis, on, bbc, world, last, night, it, showed, a, reporter, in, london, with, an, umbrella, trying, to, keep, off, the, large, wet, snowflakes, we, are, visiting, friends, who, teach, at, a, christian, school, here, the, contrasts, of, india, always, seem, so, great, the, poverty, and, the, opulence, side, by, side, the, beggars, and, the, road, repairers, at, the, side, of, the, road, in, make, shift, tents, of, plastic, sheeting, and, huts, of, bamboo, leaves, then, the, huge, opulent, houses, wooden, floored, and, air, conditioned, with, their, own, generators, and, the, 4, hotels, with, marbled, floors, and, artificial, streams, and, waterfalls, we, came, on, a, cheap, charter, flight, as, it, was, cheaper, to, come, to, trivandrum, on, a, flight, and, a, package, with, hotel, b, b, than, to, just, buy, the, flights, the, emphasis, though, should, be, on, cheap, it, is, the, first, time, i, have, ever, had, to, pay, for, drinks, on, the, plane, the, air, stewardesses, seemed, to, be, there, for, a, good, time, rather, than, to, look, after, the, passengers, can't, complain, though, as, it, was, cheap, the, only, worry, was, the, re, routing, we, were, originally, supposed, to, be, going, via, united, arab, emirates, but, the, refuelling, was, transferred, to, bahrein, as, we, flew, in, we, were, warned, it, was, a, military, as, well, as, civilian, airport, so, no, photography, was, allowed, the, build, up, of, us, forces, in, the, gulf, must, be, pretty, major, as, even, here, there, were, large, numbers, of, us, air, force, planes, and, massive, sinister, looking, helicopters, it, is, difficult, to, believe, that, they, are, aiming, to, keep, the, peace, by, preparing, for, war, the, papers, here, are, also, full, of, sabre, rattling, between, pakistan, and, india, with, daily, reports, of, skirmishes, in, kashmir, there, is, also, exchanges, of, political, rhetoric, between, the, two, states, how, much, is, actually, for, real, and, how, much, is, sabre, rattling, no, one, knows, the, weekly, telegraph, is, also, reporting, that, iraq, has, shot, down, a, reconnaissance, drone, the, same, sort, that, blew, up, one, of, the, el, quaedi, leaders, in, yemen, the, us, is, obviously, trying, regime, change, by, several, methods, the, us, response, was, to, blow, up, several, command, and, control, facilities, the, war, hasn't, officially, started, yet, but, the, skirmishes, are, going, on, the, cost, the, previous, year, for, the, raf, to, patrol, the, no, fly, zone, was, 22, uk, million, the, last, quarter, was, 10, times, that, so, there, is, money, being, spent, the, priorities, of, govts, is, often, difficult, to, work, out, the, indian, govt, doesn't, have, enough, money, at, the, local, level, to, organise, a, proper, refuse, collection, system, yet, has, money, to, develop, hi, tech, weaponry, the, attitudes, to, rubbish, here, is, very, different, when, we, were, at, the, beach, the, actual, beach, is, combed, by, litter, pickers, but, the, areas, in, between, are, terrible, there, are, 2, smart, 4, hotels, and, the, govt, buildings, where, the, tourism, training, takes, place, the, grounds, are, immaculate, and, the, flowers, and, area, beautiful, but, once, out, side, the, grounds, it, is, a, cross, between, a, rubbish, dump, and, a, building, site, with, piles, of, rubbish, and, sand, and, rubble, we, went, for, a, snorkelling, trip, around, the, coast, to, a, fishing, harbour, where, the, sea, was, calm, and, there, were, plenty, of, rocks, for, the, fish, to, hide, in, and, swim, in, and, out, of, the, boats, were, a, few, bits, of, wood, tied, together, with, string, seriously, there, were, two, central, planks, and, two, edge, planks, and, then, an, aft, piece, of, wood, to, hold, the, aft, part, together, which, was, reinforced, by, cord, the, wood, is, so, light, that, it, floats, with, our, weight, fairly, easily, the, oars, were, split, bamboo, with, no, grips, so, it, made, for, interesting, rowing, or, is, it, paddling, they, are, more, like, large, canadian, canoes, than, boats, very, hawaii, five, o, the, planks, were, roughly, shaped, but, as, we, rode, the, waves, the, water, fountained, up, through, the, holes, in, the, bottom, h, asked, what, wood, they, were, made, of, but, didn't, understand, the, answer, must, be, a, type, of, balsa, we, set, off, from, under, the, light, house, there, was, another, group, going, at, the, same, time, i, think, they, must, have, agreed, to, pay, top, whack, whereas, you, soon, learn, to, try, to, bargain, about, the, price, of, everything, here, they, had, two, helpers, in, the, boat, to, paddle, whereas, we, were, the, economy, class, with, two, paddles, but, only, one, guide, in, our, two, boats, we, took, turns, in, helping, to, paddle, whether, we, made, much, difference, to, the, progression, of, the, boat, i, don, t, know, but, it, was, fun, it, was, a, bit, worrying, that, we, were, heading, for, the, least, scenic, part, of, the, coast, the, other, way, is, beautiful, sandy, beaches, for, miles, there, is, a, wave, powered, generator, at, the, edge, of, the, harbour, a, few, rusty, wrecks, and, bits, of, broken, concrete, but, when, we, arrived, the, snorkelling, was, brilliant, it, was, like, swimming, in, a, tropical, fish, tank, my, favourite, were, small, electric, blue, fish, which, darted, away, as, soon, as, you, came, near, there, were, big, black, and, yellow, striped, tiger, fish, there, were, 2, sorts, one, with, vertical, stripes, and, one, with, horizontal, not, at, all, timid, the, angel, fish, with, their, long, dangling, barbs, were, shy, and, would, only, appear, when, you, kept, still, there, were, some, very, large, spiky, sea, anemones, as, big, as, a, football, loads, of, crabs, and, shoals, of, fish, which, swim, hither, and, thither, some, were, quite, bizarre, there, were, some, that, looked, like, sea, horses, that, had, been, straightened, out, you, almost, could, see, a, jockey, getting, a, saddle, ready, to, put, on, them, for, the, saltwater, derby, the, huge, variety, and, colours, were, just, outstanding, we, spent, a, few, hours, and, then, got, thoroughly, sun, burnt, on, the, way, back, the, boys, had, been, full, of, beans, on, the, way, there, but, were, exhausted, in, the, heat, on, the, way, back, we, spent, today, making, and, flying, kites, on, top, of, a, hill, at, pykara, the, kids, or, was, it, the, dad's, made, kites, and, then, we, tried, to, fly, them, h's, won, his, design, was, copied, from, an, original, no, stick, design, and, managed, to, fly, almost, successfully, my, traditional, kite, shaped, one, flew, once, but, its, aerodynamics, weren't, quite, right, son, s, yellow, square, was, successful, none, however, matched, the, ikea, bought, one, we, played, cricket, and, frisbee, as, the, water, buffalos, wandered, passed, in, the, typical, indian, way, of, having, no, real, boundaries, between, one, thing, and, another, called, in, at, the, vedera's, which, was, very, pleasant, the, garden, was, stunning, as, usual, i, love, driving, through, the, tea, plantations, with, acres, of, terraced, tea, plants, and, through, the, forest, to, get, there, the, hotel, is, an, up, market, indian, rather, than, a, western, which, is, great, for, us, the, décor, lacks, a, little, in, taste, and, design, concrete, floors, and, that, rather, quaint, unfinished, look, spotlessly, clean, and, the, thing, about, india, is, they, love, having, kids, around, and, spend, ages, talking, with, them, and, love, having, them, around, going, out, for, meals, in, uk, with, children, is, always, a, bit, stressful, as, low, blood, sugars, combined, with, the, general, attitude, of, people, to, children, does, not, make, it, a, pleasant, experience, whereas, even, the, hours, wait, for, the, food, here, is, not, stressful, as, the, kids, wander, off, play, games, read, books, etc, son, and, other, son, have, befriended, a, man, at, the, blue, moon, gift, shop, he, has, spent, hours, playing, chess, and, talking, to, them, son, won, a, little, elephant, off, him, by, beating, him, at, chess, son, decided, he, would, buy, josh, the, chess, set, and, kept, bargaining, the, price, down, he, eventually, paid, 350, rupees, for, it, 4.60, the, beach, is, idyllic, with, palm, trees, and, warm, rolling, sea, the, only, problem, is, having, to, get, the, kids, out, of, the, sun, during, the, red, hot, period, between, 12, and, 2, we, do, keep, slapping, on, the, sun, tan, lotion, i, missed, the, widows, peaks, where, my, hair, is, receding, and, have, sun, burnt, red, patches, either, side, of, my, head, the, boys, have, variable, tanning, depending, on, where, the, sun, block, was, washed, off, first, dear, friends, just, a, quick, note, to, say, that, we, are, enjoying, ourselves, so, much, that, we, don't, want, to, come, home, but, we, would, miss, all, our, friends, we, had, a, great, time, at, the, beach, you, know, the, palm, trees, the, warm, rolling, sea, the, sandy, beaches, and, unlike, silloth, 30, degrees, warmth, in, fact, some, days, it, was, to, hot, and, we, had, to, drag, the, boys, out, of, the, sea, or, else, they, would, have, been, really, sun, burnt, we, are, just, back, from, 3, days, at, avalanche, which, is, a, bit, of, an, unfortunate, name, for, a, mountain, out, door, centre, but, as, there, isn't, any, snow, i, don't, think, the, indians, appreciate, the, irony, it, is, up, in, the, mountains, a, jungle, area, where, there, is, very, little, apart, from, a, few, tea, plantations, reservoirs, and, hydroelectric, plants, and, jungle, and, the, wood, men, who, harvest, the, wood, every, 10, years, we, left, a, bus, and, walked, in, to, the, centre, while, a, truck, took, the, bags, food, and, the, lazy, ones, it, is, incredibly, beautiful, with, high, hills, and, lakes, but, there, is, a, drought, at, the, moment, so, the, reservoirs, are, all, very, low, and, everywhere, is, incredibly, dry, and, dusty, thick, red, dust, which, gets, in, to, everything, the, facilities, were, basic, the, water, ran, from, a, stream, to, a, tank, to, the, taps, no, electric, showers, but, fortunately, as, always, in, india, there, was, a, little, man, or, in, fact, 3, who, cooked, for, us, all, a, is, taking, after, wife, their, main, concern, was, not, meeting, any, rats, we, abseiled, down, a, waterfall, walked, and, swam, in, another, well, son, and, other, son, swam, i, am, afraid, it, was, too, cold, for, me, i, will, wait, until, we, go, back, down, to, the, beach, we, all, went, kayaking, and, sat, around, the, campfire, at, night, saturday, 18th, january, 2003, the, end, of, our, indian, holiday, and, escape, from, cumbrian, weather, wife, saw, the, rep, yesterday, and, the, bus, was, arranged, for, 12, 30, for, a, flight, at, 5, 30, this, tour, company, is, something, else, so, we, are, going, to, catch, a, taxi, at, about, 3pm, so, we, are, not, hanging, around, the, airport, for, ages, having, 4, children, and, going, through, the, bureaucracy, of, an, indian, airport, is, bad, enough, with, out, the, additional, hassle, of, waiting, around, for, 3, hours, with, out, reason, the, annoying, part, is, that, so, much, of, it, is, pointless, in, that, they, put, your, bags, through, the, security, x, ray, in, the, main, hall, and, then, give, you, your, bags, back, so, that, if, you, wanted, to, add, stuff, to, your, bag, you, could, you, have, to, go, to, 1, desk, to, check, in, another, to, get, your, seat, another, to, exit, indian, immigration, and, customs, and, then, identify, your, bags, to, get, them, put, on, the, plane, worse, than, defra, so, we, spent, a, last, morning, swimming, on, the, beach, and, then, said, good, bye, to, the, cs, and, gs, wife, had, to, buy, her, material, fro, the, study, we, were, all, quite, sad, coming, away, i, think, we, could, have, all, stayed, and, enjoyed, living, in, india, but, back, to, porridge, sun, 19th, arrived, at, dads, at, 3am, uk, time, after, clearing, customs, flight, was, not, too, crowded, thank, goodness, as, the, space, allocated, for, my, legs, is, not, enough, they, had, as, before, messed, up, their, allocation, of, vegetarian, meals, with, the, height, of, european, ignorance, and, stupidity, they, offered, a, hindu, family, by, us, a, beef, meal, the, stewardesses, should, have, known, better, but, i, just, cringed, with, inward, embarrassment, at, their, thoughtlessness, left, in, t, shirts, and, shorts, arrived, cold, in, jeans, and, fleeces, the, air, conditioning, i, don’t, think, was, working, properly, and, every, one, was, coughing, and, dry, mouthed, as, we, arrived, in, gatwick, drove, back, up, to, cumbria, and, back, to, the, house, it, was, a, strange, sensation, to, be, back, we, had, done, so, much, and, seemed, changed, and, yet, everything, here, was, still, the, same, and, yet, not, really, in, some, ways, it, is, like, after, the, fmd, epidemic, before, and, after, everything, is, the, same, but, nothing, is, the, same, part, of, you, is, trying, to, find, where, you, fit, in, the, new, reality, part, of, you, wants, the, safety, of, the, old, ways, slightly, dislocated, from, your, surroundings, but, the, physical, surroundings, are, the, same, but, i, suppose, you, have, changed, and, the, old, certainties, that, were, not, certain, but, seemed, it, have, made, way, for, new, changeable, ways, that, are, not, certain, and, you, know, that, they, are, not, certain, mon, 20th, i, have, taken, the, day, off, to, recover, the, kids, were, all, up, really, early, because, of, the, jet, lag, and, so, had, no, qualms, about, sending, them, to, school, i, spent, the, day, unpacking, and, sorting, out, with, wife, the, pile, of, post, was, huge, but, seemed, a, lot, more, manageable, by, the, time, i, had, thrown, out, al, the, junk, mail, why, do, i, need, another, 2, credit, cards, any, way, transferred, money, for, tax, bills, and, downloaded, the, emails, there, were, only, 50, so, ploughed, my, way, through, them, when, you, are, away, for, any, length, of, time, it, makes, you, realise, how, much, work, is, required, to, keep, a, household, going, with, all, the, bills, and, stuff, tues, 21st, back, to, work, and, to, face, my, in, tray, still, feeling, a, little, jet, lagged, and, seeing, an, overflowing, in, tray, as, you, arrive, is, a, daunting, feeling, did, some, of, it, and, then, went, out, on, call, it, was, good, to, be, back, on, farm, and, seeing, folk, again, it, always, amazes, me, how, everyone, around, here, knows, everything, so, they, were, all, asking, about, india, and, had, we, had, a, good, time, so, it, was, nice, to, feel, part, of, the, community, as, a, friend, of, mine, once, commented, there, is, only, one, thing, worse, than, being, talked, about, that, is, not, being, talked, about, there, is, still, that, funny, feeling, of, having, been, away, and, having, changed, but, nothing, here, is, any, different, and, yet, thinking, that, it, should, be, though, why, it, should, be, i, don’t, know, weds, 22nd, george, wanted, a, partners, meeting, at, lunch, time, so, we, met, up, and, had, the, usual, decision, making, process, to, be, honest, the, jet, lag, was, still, really, kicking, in, so, i, was, asleep, on, my, feet, it, doesn’t, usually, effect, me, for, this, long, but, both, wife, and, i, are, shattered, by, 8pm, the, kids, are, ok, and, going, to, bed, after, us, the, sign, of, things, to, come, the, whole, pets, travel, scheme, is, causing, problems, it, has, been, presented, as, a, passport, for, pets, but, all, it, really, does, is, allow, re, entry, to, the, uk, from, certain, countries, as, long, as, you, meet, the, conditions, we, have, had, a, few, problems, and, we, do, very, few, so, what, it, must, be, like, for, those, on, the, south, coast, i, dread, to, think, the, problems, are, 2, main, ones, 1, that, there, is, a, 6, month, period, before, you, can, come, back, into, the, uk, after, the, paper, work, is, completed, you, can, go, before, the, 6, months, so, people, who, spend, the, summer, on, a, caravan, site, will, take, their, dog, abroad, but, cannot, come, back, before, the, 6, month, date, there, is, also, a, problem, where, the, forms, have, to, be, renewed, it, has, to, be, done, according, to, the, manufactures, directions, which, vary, from, country, to, country, as, in, france, it, is, a, govt, regulation, that, dogs, are, vaccinated, annually, so, the, vaccine, manufactures, stick, to, that, in, the, uk, dogs, have, to, be, done, every, 2, years, cats, annually, so, you, cannot, have, your, documentation, renewed, in, france, unless, you, vaccinate, annually, whereas, in, the, uk, you, can, renew, it, with, vaccinating, every, 2, years, the, other, problem, is, that, the, paperwork, is, so, complex, that, according, to, defra’s, figures, there, is, a, 18, failure, rate, i.e, 1, in, 6, don’t, make, it, back, in, there, is, also, a, problem, in, that, there, has, been, at, least, one, dog, imported, into, cumbria, with, out, any, paperwork, as, the, owners, thought, all, they, needed, was, a, rabies, vaccination, we, are, dealing, with, it, on, a, weekly, basis, and, are, confused, so, the, poor, punters, don’t, stand, a, chance, thursday, 23rd, there, is, a, real, problem, with, cow, fertility, in, the, restocking, farms, at, the, moment, i, went, to, 1, farm, where, of, the, 10, cows, i, checked, only, one, was, in, calf, which, is, a, little, sad, no, baby, calves, no, milk, production, and, more, losses, for, the, fmd, farmers, the, compensation, is, looking, very, small, the, only, ones, who, benefited, are, those, who, took, the, money, and, got, out, it, is, difficult, trying, to, work, out, why, these, cows, are, having, so, much, of, a, problem, as, usual, i, suspect, there, is, no, simple, answer, the, blood, tests, and, analyses, do, not, help, much, the, cows, have, been, under, a, lot, of, stress, the, movement, into, new, regimes, and, cattle, systems, where, they, have, to, learn, where, to, go, where, the, water, troughs, are, where, the, milking, parlour, is, they, have, had, to, sort, out, the, pecking, order, of, the, cows, which, espy, in, the, larger, units, is, probably, quite, stressful, where, you, add, animals, to, a, herd, there, are, lead, cows, who, know, the, set, up, and, cows, are, very, much, follow, my, leader, in, their, behaviour, patterns, where, there, is, a, complete, cull, and, restocking, there, are, no, lead, cows, so, no, leader, for, the, cows, to, follow, there, has, also, been, a, lot, of, illness, in, the, herds, which, again, will, reduce, fertility, the, other, problem, is, the, poor, quality, silage, because, of, the, bad, weather, the, other, factor, that, keeps, coming, up, in, conversation, is, what, effect, the, topping, of, grass, has, on, silage, grazing, quality, which, would, have, been, an, interesting, study, that, will, never, be, done, now, stress, is, a, generality, of, a, word, but, i, can’t, think, of, a, better, more, specific, way, of, expressing, the, problems, the, stress, of, all, the, changes, has, caused, fertility, problems, the, difficulty, is, in, finding, where, do, you, go, from, here, i, think, a, lot, will, end, up, culling, fairly, large, numbers, 15, 20, because, of, fertility, friday, 24th, one, of, the, defra, tv’s, called, in, on, her, way, back, from, a, test, tb, to, let, us, know, that, there, was, still, an, ir, causing, problems, she, also, said, that, it, looked, like, there, was, going, to, be, a, complete, herd, cull, for, tb, in, the, east, of, the, county, the, farmer, had, restocked, from, three, sources, all, were, down, to, do, as, tracings, as, well, as, to, be, done, under, the, restocking, tb, testing, they, found, 32, reactors, with, lesions, so, they, will, probably, cull, the, whole, herd, it, is, so, depressing, to, think, what, the, farmer, must, be, thinking, and, whether, he, can, face, getting, back, into, farming, again, after, this, further, disaster, does, not, bear, thinking, about, saturday, 25th, january, 2003, linda, b’s, wedding, travelled, down, to, derby, for, wedding, it, was, really, nice, to, see, them, finally, tie, the, knot, as, they, have, been, talking, about, it, for, so, long, they, have, followed, each, other, around, several, continents, so, at, least, that, will, have, seen, each, other, in, different, situations, she, first, came, as, a, student, and, has, worked, for, us, as, a, locum, she, spent, 2, years, at, all, nations, bible, college, in, london, where, she, met, him, so, a, lot, of, their, friends, from, all, nations, were, there, they, have, been, doing, agricultural, relief, work, in, the, worlds, hot, spots, from, kosovo, to, indonesia, from, haiti, to, bolivia, they, are, currently, in, bolivia, working, with, church, groups, she, has, been, setting, up, tb, testing, programme, as, there, is, a, problem, of, human, tb, which, has, been, blamed, on, the, cattle, but, they, have, completed, the, testing, and, it, is, not, the, cattle, it, seems, to, be, nearly, all, human, to, human, spread, so, that, at, least, they, can, make, a, start, on, eradicating, tb, in, humans, by, treating, the, in, contacts, they, went, away, from, the, church, in, a, horse, drawn, carriage, which, was, nice, to, see, spent, quite, a, lot, of, time, catching, up, with, vets, and, their, friends, who, we, have, not, seen, for, ages, sun, 26th, we, were, staying, with, friends, from, carlisle, who, moved, down, to, derbyshire, when, he, started, to, teach, we, went, to, their, church, which, is, a, house, church, and, is, a, little, different, to, put, it, mildly, they, meet, in, a, school, and, it, is, very, informal, with, a, drumming, band, and, a, desire, not, to, be, restricted, by, convention, or, liturgy, so, it, was, a, mixture, of, readings, and, worship, songs, they, do, seem, to, be, reaching, out, to, their, local, community, as, there, were, people, from, all, walks, of, life, there, mon, 27th, back, to, work, and, not, feeling, very, good, had, 2, weeks, in, india, and, no, stomach, bugs, but, a, w, e, in, derby, and, i, have, a, very, runny, tummy, came, home, from, work, early, and, went, to, bed, tues, 28th, off, work, ill, in, bed, being, male, this, involves, dying, noisily, in, a, corner, some, sympathy, i, get, from, my, wife, weds, 29th, not, feeling, good, but, dragged, myself, back, in, as, i, have, had, that, much, time, off, recently, and, i, feel, that, i, have, to, turn, in, but, i, am, off, tomorrow, so, i, can, recover, then, the, only, drawback, is, that, i, will, be, working, the, w, e, the, sheep, seem, to, have, decided, to, start, lambing, or, maybe, decided, not, as, we, seem, to, be, seeing, a, few, if, you, get, what, i, mean, thursday, had, a, good, day, off, and, spent, time, sleeping, and, doing, household, things, even, though, i, hate, diy, it, was, good, to, get, some, jobs, sorted, called, in, at, vets, to, pick, up, stuff, for, court, tomorrow, friday, the, more, i, experience, the, legal, proceedings, the, more, i, feel, that, they, are, a, waste, of, time, what, is, important, is, how, good, your, lawyer, is, the, case, was, all, about, whether, or, not, this, guy, had, starved, his, greyhounds, or, not, he, had, but, as, he, was, on, legal, aid, he, thought, it, might, be, better, to, try, to, keep, his, other, dogs, and, have, fewer, judgements, against, him, he, obviously, knew, his, way, around, the, legal, system, saturday, 1st, feb, 2003, reflections, on, court, case, it, is, one, of, those, really, annoying, things, that, you, can, never, replay, what, has, happened, the, case, yesterday, really, churned, me, up, with, having, to, make, huge, moral, decisions, more, or, less, on, the, spur, of, the, moment, the, complicating, factors, were, that, c, who, was, acting, on, the, defence, was, acting, outside, the, rcvs, guidelines, now, i, could, have, pointed, out, this, to, the, rspca, lawyer, but, as, c, has, already, been, struck, off, once, the, matter, could, well, have, turned, very, badly, for, him, even, though, it, is, his, decision, to, get, involved, and, a, poor, one, then, i, think, that, it, is, not, for, me, to, land, him, in, the, muck, i, could, have, done, so, both, on, the, fact, he, should, not, have, been, speaking, and, also, that, i, could, have, pointed, out, that, his, record, is, tainted, why, he, was, being, an, expert, witness, in, the, first, place, for, some, one, who, is, not, even, their, client, beadsmen, beats, me, i, had, reservations, about, doing, the, legal, work, for, the, rspca, and, at, least, we, do, quite, a, lot, of, work, for, the, local, inspector, so, i, decided, not, to, trash, c, as, a, witness, as, i, thought, that, it, was, not, my, place, to, do, so, and, secondly, the, repercussions, for, local, vet, good, will, would, not, stand, me, in, good, stead, but, i, have, my, doubts, as, to, whether, i, did, the, correct, thing, there, is, no, right, and, wrong, the, dilemmas, are, there, because, you, to, choose, which, horn, you, want, to, get, impaled, on, sun, lambing, seems, to, have, started, with, a, vengeance, spent, most, of, the, morning, at, the, surgery, with, land, rovers, and, trailers, turning, up, one, after, another, with, sheep, lambing, or, having, peri, natal, problems, i, do, like, working, out, of, the, surgery, at, the, w, e, as, there, is, far, less, driving, and, working, is, so, much, easier, and, you, don’t, have, to, keep, getting, changed, in, and, out, of, protective, clothes, so, got, two, vets, work, done, by, just, keeping, on, asking, for, them, to, come, to, the, surgery, the, farmers, don’t, mind, either, as, they, generally, have, to, put, them, in, a, pick, up, to, bring, them, back, to, the, farm, from, the, field, so, it, is, as, easy, to, drive, on, to, the, vets, rather, than, hang, around, waiting, for, them, mon, went, tt, testing, at, p’s, farm, i, used, his, son, a, fair, bit, during, fmd, as, they, went, out, early, on, and, he, always, has, done, a, fair, amount, of, contracting, on, the, various, farms, he, also, has, a, very, happy, go, lucky, style, in, contrast, to, his, dad, who, is, a, bit, of, a, worrier, i, quite, enjoyed, the, banter, and, we, could, just, work, away, as, there, is, no, pressure, too, get, finished, as, the, numbers, are, not, great, tues, went, to, o’s, where, they, are, again, having, problems, getting, the, cows, in, calf, the, levels, of, infertility, in, the, restocking, herds, are, horrendous, the, sad, thing, is, we, seem, to, be, achieving, very, little, in, actually, improving, it, in, spite, of, a, lot, of, investigations, and, spending, money, on, vaccine, and, on, supplements, the, average, loss, must, be, 5, at, least, it, would, be, interesting, to, compare, the, culling, rates, of, the, restocking, farms, and, find, out, what, the, restocking, losses, actually, are, weds, took, the, new, vet, student, with, me, today, and, let, her, do, the, first, lambing, at, r’s, they, like, everyone, else, says, they, are, getting, a, lot, of, lambs, these, were, dead, and, all, tangled, up, and, aborting, so, they, could, not, get, them, out, they, had, quads, last, night, thursday, went, to, s, and, stitched, a, teat, this, is, now, a, fairly, easy, operation, with, the, advent, of, using, open, crushes, and, decent, epidural, anaesthesia, local, is, always, fairly, iffy, as, many, a, dentists, patient, will, testify, to, it, is, very, satisfying, to, fix, something, like, that, friday, spent, the, morning, doing, certs, these, are, otm22, certificates, which, were, brought, in, by, maff, to, compensate, the, farmer, for, cows, that, would, have, been, sold, for, human, consumption, before, the, otm, scheme, banned, them, from, human, consumption, if, an, animal, is, not, fit, to, travel, then, it, can, be, shot, on, the, farm, but, to, get, the, compensation, they, need, a, vet’s, cert, to, say, that, it, is, fit, for, human, consumption, so, it, can, be, burnt, on, the, scheme, if, it, is, not, fit, then, they, have, to, pay, to, have, it, taken, away, so, there, is, a, lot, of, pressure, to, sign, them, the, scheme, is, supposed, to, be, coming, to, an, end, this, summer, but, as, yet, no, markets, exist, for, the, casualty, animals, that, are, fir, for, human, consumption, the, whole, knackery, injured, animals, burying, of, animals, scheme, is, up, for, grabs, and, the, govt, needs, to, get, some, sort, of, scheme, up, and, running, but, the, govt, thinks, maybe, rightly, that, it, is, an, industry, problem, to, get, rid, of, its, own, waste, and, it, is, not, up, to, the, taxpayer, to, get, farmers, waste, problems, sorted, leave, it, up, to, the, industry, market, to, sort, it, there, is, also, a, suggestion, that, as, tb, is, not, an, important, zoonosis, in, the, uk, anymore, then, it, is, a, production, problem, and, it, should, go, the, same, way, as, sheep, scab, and, be, taken, off, the, notifiable, disease, list, and, individual, farms, have, to, ensure, they, meet, whatever, standard, that, the, buyers, want, to, specify, which, is, what, is, happening, to, a, small, extent, in, the, dairy, industry, with, buyers, specifying, farms, must, meet, certain, criteria, saturday, 8th, feb, 2003, wife, is, on, her, course, for, the, w, e, so, i, was, doing, the, run, around, to, squash, and, football, for, sons, mon, 10th, b, is, now, renting, all, the, land, bush, ghyll, head, he, has, taken, it, over, as, a, grass, letting, another, of, the, small, farms, is, disappearing, the, reality, is, it, has, only, ever, been, a, small, holding, but, they, use, to, milk, 20, odd, cows, which, meant, it, got, the, status, of, a, farm, on, our, computer, system, the, uncle, who, use, to, run, it, when, first, arrived, was, a, real, character, he, was, always, telling, you, about, when, farmers, made, money, after, the, war, a, dozen, eggs, was, 10, shilling, none, of, your, 50ps, 10, whole, shillings, you, could, take, a, girl, to, the, cinema, and, the, lyons, café, and, still, have, change, from, a, pound, even, his, free, range, hens, eggs, would, not, buy, a, cinema, ticket, for, one, these, days, he, should, of, taken, her, as, he, ended, up, as, a, bachelor, with, his, nephew, taking, over, the, farm, tuesday, 11th, the, partners, meeting, today, was, trying, to, address, the, fact, that, the, mark, up, on, fees, is, going, to, be, eroded, one, of, the, things, that, barnard, castle, are, doing, is, putting, on, their, bills, but, as, yet, not, charging, for, things, like, telephone, advice, and, out, of, hours, so, we, are, going, to, be, doing, the, same, to, try, to, get, across, the, point, that, we, are, providing, an, all, round, service, that, needs, to, be, paid, for, but, i, still, think, at, the, end, of, the, day, the, economics, will, win, if, you, cannot, provide, a, service, at, a, profit, you, cannot, provide, a, service, so, where, does, that, leave, us, weds, harrison’s, are, having, problems, with, fertility, who, isn’t, the, blood, results, are, showing, low, levels, of, copper, but, i, am, not, convinced, that, is, what, it, is, they, will, have, to, supplement, the, feed, by, adding, more, copper, to, the, feed, the, problem, with, all, these, investigations, is, that, we, are, looking, for, a, simple, answer, when, the, actual, problem, is, multi, factorial, the, cows, may, be, short, in, copper, but, they, are, not, that, low, that, it, is, really, effecting, them, i, often, wonder, with, humans, if, you, blood, sampled, them, for, lots, of, different, minerals, would, we, find, that, a, percentage, of, the, population, is, actually, below, normal, for, some, or, several, minerals, maybe, our, omnivorous, diet, and, the, fact, we, are, not, producing, huge, amounts, of, milk, probably, does, come, in, to, it, we, do, have, a, much, more, varied, diet, most, cows, are, now, on, complete, rations, here, in, the, uk, so, that, if, the, nutritionist, gets, it, slightly, wrong, then, you, will, find, that, the, cows, will, be, short, i, suppose, the, other, thing, that, we, do, always, forget, is, that, they, are, usually, working, off, either, a, single, or, 3, 4, samples, of, silage, so, that, there, will, be, a, spread, of, what, is, actually, in, the, silage, and, the, samples, may, or, may, not, reflect, it, thursday, on, call, tonight, and, busy, which, was, ok, r, was, up, helping, at, wh, house, one, of, his, suckler, calves, had, managed, to, prolapse, its, rectum, but, it, is, as, wild, as, thunder, so, we, were, all, very, careful, about, handling, it, i, had, to, dope, it, any, way, to, operate, but, when, we, put, it, back, it, was, jumping, up, the, walls, which, is, always, a, wee, bit, disconcerting, limousin, stirks, could, be, used, for, the, grand, national, d’s, brother, is, not, very, well, at, all, now, he, has, cancer, and, went, in, for, emergency, surgery, the, day, i, shot, all, the, cows, i, had, a, big, row, with, senior, staff, at, page, st, he, had, been, admitted, to, the, hospital, at, 2am, and, was, to, undergo, emergency, surgery, that, afternoon, i, did, not, want, it, put, on, the, web, site, as, they, were, announcing, them, on, radio, cumbria, i, did, not, want, him, to, be, going, down, for, the, surgery, or, just, coming, out, of, it, and, to, find, out, from, the, radio, that, i, was, shooting, all, his, cows, i, asked, them, to, put, an, embargo, on, it, of, course, the, vets, tried, not, to, let, it, go, out, but, it, did, and, i, was, really, angry, i, wrote, some, strongly, worded, letters, and, never, even, got, a, reply, i, should, have, followed, it, up, and, held, some, one, to, account, but, i, am, afraid, it, all, got, lost, in, the, passing, of, time, at, least, r, is, a, lot, better, he, had, meningitis, around, the, time, of, fmd, he, has, had, bad, heads, and, depression, ever, since, so, it, was, good, that, he, is, back, on, farms, and, has, started, fencing, again, fri, 14th, valentines, it, is, friend, s, birthday, so, we, all, went, around, to, her, house, for, dinner, which, was, really, nice, and, ended, playing, darts, with, the, kids, i, was, pleased, to, get, some, darts, in, the, board, as, it, is, a, long, long, time, since, i, have, played, saturday, 15th, february, 2003, son’s, birthday, my, little, baby, son, is, now, 8, years, old, it, is, hard, to, believe, where, the, time, has, gone, and, all, the, water, that, has, passed, under, the, bridge, went, around, to, friend’s, at, night, and, sat, and, eat, and, put, the, world, to, rights, it, is, good, every, now, and, again, to, wind, down, and, just, enjoy, talking, with, out, having, to, think, as, we, know, them, so, well, you, can, just, come, out, with, stuff, sunday, mon, 17th, spent, the, day, tb, testing, at, dl, where, they, have, had, a, nvl, no, visible, lesions, reactor, taken, colleague, did, the, first, test, and, we, are, not, doing, the, fat, stock, on, farms, that, have, restocked, as, they, will, be, going, for, slaughter, fairly, soon, so, it, is, deemed, pointless, and, really, it, is, so, spent, the, day, putting, big, bullocks, through, the, crush, and, it, is, a, dangerous, work, for, the, men, who, go, in, amongst, them, because, they, are, very, rarely, handled, and, so, don’t, take, to, it, very, well, tuesday, had, an, interesting, lambing, today, and, a, consequence, of, fmd, that, you, forget, about, there, is, an, inherited, genetic, condition, of, suffolk’s, called, dandy, walker, syndrome, causing, hydrocephalus, in, the, lambs, so, both, the, ewe, and, tup, must, carry, the, gene, to, produce, the, deformed, lambs, with, heads, too, large, to, get, through, the, mothers, pelvis, so, it, means, doing, a, caesarean, on, a, ewe, that, can, only, be, used, to, breed, fat, lambs, from, it, has, to, be, put, to, another, breed, next, year, this, years, lambs, are, dead, going, to, die, so, the, economics, are, useless, some, breeders, just, shoot, them, at, this, point, but, he, had, called, us, to, try, to, lamb, it, or, caesaer, it, as, she, was, a, big, ewe, i, eventually, managed, to, lamb, it, he, was, saying, though, that, it, takes, time, to, work, out, whether, the, stock, you, have, bought, will, produce, the, breeding, stock, that, you, want, you, have, to, try, the, different, combinations, that, you, have, to, work, out, which, lines, work, well, together, he, reckons, on, about, 4, 8, years, before, he, will, be, back, to, breeding, decent, suffolk, sheep, in, spite, of, buying, in, good, stock, there, is, more, to, breeding, than, meets, the, eye, wednesday, rb, had, a, stirk, with, mcf, malignant, catarhal, fever, it, is, a, viral, disease, which, is, quite, often, fatal, that, they, catch, from, sheep, but, they, have, really, blue, grey, eyes, from, the, change, in, the, fluid, in, the, eye, and, the, severe, iritis, it, must, be, incredibly, painful, for, them, thursday, dixons, tt2, is, now, clear, so, they, have, to, have, them, all, tested, again, in, 42, days, to, clear, the, farm, of, restrictions, un, fortunately, the, vet, from, the, ministry, said, it, would, be, from, the, day, the, cow, is, taken, not, today, so, the, whole, thing, is, getting, a, bit, complicated, and, jd, is, getting, wound, up, understandably, so, friday, tried, to, sort, out, some, of, the, tracings, that, we, are, supposed, to, be, doing, there, are, a, lot, coming, through, but, the, quality, of, the, info, is, very, poor, tracings, are, where, the, farm, has, sold, animals, and, then, subsequently, gone, down, with, tb, or, other, notifiable, disease, the, defra, paper, chase, is, so, bad, that, ear, tag, nos, are, wrong, or, a, farmer, has, bought, several, from, the, same, source, and, only, 1, 2, are, on, the, paper, work, from, defra, the, thing, seems, to, be, falling, apart, a, bit, went, and, did, a, single, animal, up, at, the, mill, he, usually, buys, in, stores, and, fattens, them, but, as, the, store, trade, has, gone, through, the, roof, he, has, sold, a, lot, of, them, on, to, let, some, one, else, fatten, or, if, heifers, breed, from, them, the, defra, files, have, him, as, a, fattening, unit, finisher, so, that, they, hadn’t, bothered, to, do, tracings, to, him, as, they, would, be, going, for, slaughter, but, of, course, he, had, sold, one, on, that, had, gone, down, with, tb, so, they, wanted, to, know, what, was, happening, with, these, now, saturday, 22nd, february, 2003, saturday, sunday, monday, tuesday, had, a, funny, sensation, to, day, i, suppose, it, was, almost, a, flash, back, in, some, ways, i, went, to, a, farm, who, has, fancy, pedigree, sheep, he, has, rented, land, and, wanted, them, added, to, his, holding, for, the, mv, scheme, so, he, needs, a, vet, inspection, to, say, that, the, fields, are, double, fenced, so, that, the, sheep, do, not, come, in, contact, to, any, others, this, inspection, of, fields, is, pretty, meaningless, as, they, know, what, needs, to, be, done, and, so, they, are, always, up, to, scratch, the, last, time, i, was, doing, it, was, for, fmd, wednesday, thursday, friday, packed, and, got, the, last, few, things, sorted, for, the, vcf, w, e, got, the, posters, printed, and, the, display, boards, together, and, set, off, down, the, motorway, to, pick, up, friend, and, spent, most, of, the, day, travelling, it, was, good, talking, to, him, he, retired, from, practice, just, before, fmd, and, then, spent, the, first, part, of, his, retirement, working, for, defra, on, the, fmd, first, at, preston, and, then, at, settle, it, seems, they, were, better, organised, at, preston, and, he, was, quite, positive, about, the, local, teams, i, sometimes, wonder, if, i, am, sill, too, close, to, it, all, and, to, emotional, to, take, a, clear, headed, look, at, what, it, was, really, like, it, was, good, to, see, friends, at, night, and, get, set, up, for, the, w, e, sat, 1st, march, sun, 2003, vcf, w, e, it, is, difficult, for, me, to, sum, up, the, w, e, as, i, was, so, much, in, it, and, part, of, it, so, i, have, copied, the, report, from, one, of, the, students, who, wrote, a, bit, for, the, vcf, magazine, vcf, triennial, conference, 28th, feb, 2nd, march, 2003, on, a, sunny, weekend, at, the, beginning, of, march, over, 70, vets, vet, students, and, families, bravely, took, time, out, of, their, busy, schedules, and, gathered, expectantly, at, the, hayes, conference, centre, in, derbyshire, for, the, 2003, vcf, conference, we, were, a, mixed, bunch, ranging, in, age, from, 2, months, to, 70, well, nearly, from, many, different, places, denominations, and, walks, of, veterinary, life, but, we, all, had, a, common, goal, in, mind, to, unite, in, our, desire, to, love, and, serve, the, lord, jesus, christ, in, the, vocation, to, which, he, has, called, us, and, to, encourage, one, another, to, be, salt, and, light, in, the, veterinary, world, our, distinguished, speaker, for, the, weekend, was, dr, l, a, consultant, psychiatrist, and, christian, who, drew, from, his, own, experience, to, bring, us, some, thoughtful, insights, on, the, subject, of, god, at, work, he, emphasised, the, fact, that, although, work, is, a, godly, activity, and, that, we, should, view, whatever, we, do, as, if, working, for, the, lord, colossians, 3, 18, it, must, not, be, forgotten, that, a, balance, must, be, achieved, between, work, church, family, life, etc, there, was, also, an, opportunity, to, discuss, how, we, would, respond, as, christians, to, a, variety, of, ethical, decisions, that, commonly, present, themselves, in, veterinary, practice, as, well, as, the, main, talks, there, was, the, opportunity, to, join, a, variety, of, seminars, on, relevant, practical, subjects, bt, a, vet, and, long, serving, missionary, in, thailand, with, omf, led, a, most, interesting, seminar, on, the, joys, and, challenges, of, both, veterinary, and, evangelistic, work, in, a, different, culture, students, and, new, graduates, were, well, provided, for, in, seminars, on, practicing, reality, living, out, one's, faith, in, the, university, or, veterinary, practice, environment, m, c, bravely, stepped, in, at, short, notice, to, lead, a, seminar, on, business, ethics, and, vcf, secretary, generated, some, thought, provoking, discussion, on, a, very, relevant, subject, for, many, singleness, it, was, not, all, work, and, no, play, however, and, we, were, much, obliged, to, the, scottish, students, for, organising, the, saturday, night, ceilidh, much, fun, was, had, by, all, so, we, all, parted, company, on, sunday, feeling, refreshed, and, well, fed, both, physically, and, spiritually, how, encouraging, to, be, reminded, that, you, are, not, the, only, christian, vet, out, there, and, that, there, are, many, others, who, grapple, with, the, same, issues, you, face, the, weekend, was, a, time, of, friendships, rekindled, and, hopefully, new, ones, made, a, time, of, strengthening, and, a, reminder, of, what, is, ultimately, the, most, important, thing, in, our, busy, lives, leading, the, seminar, on, business, ethics, or, rather, winging, it, was, very, stressful, but, very, good, which, was, very, interesting, and, very, challenging, the, questions, about, is, it, right, to, make, a, profit, were, espy, good, to, work, through, but, it, was, incredibly, draining, by, sun, night, i, was, exhausted, drove, back, to, friend’s, for, the, night, he, live, about, 20, mins, off, motorway, and, it, was, coming, through, one, of, the, wee, villages, i, was, flashed, by, a, camera, and, so, will, have, a, fine, and, a, speeding, ticket, to, sort, out, mon, had, a, really, nice, lie, in, and, then, went, for, a, walk, with, friend, around, from, his, house, across, the, fields, it, was, beautiful, then, set, off, for, preston, to, visit, the, friend, who, is, in, prison, the, road, was, closed, on, the, way, to, the, m6, so, took, me, ages, to, find, my, way, to, the, m6, and, then, after, coming, off, at, preston, to, find, the, way, to, the, prisons, the, whole, afternoon, was, very, depressing, there, is, something, very, intimidating, about, having, to, be, processed, for, the, visit, under, security, cameras, and, by, very, polite, but, uncaring, prison, officers, the, being, searched, and, going, past, sniffer, dogs, and, having, to, give, my, finger, prints, which, are, now, on, the, police, computers, prisoner, was, ok, but, fairly, depressed, about, the, outlook, even, now, he, is, worried, about, how, he, is, going, to, cope, when, he, comes, out, the, prison, regime, is, very, oppressive, and, after, being, there, for, an, hour, and, a, half, i, was, glad, to, be, going, it, is, also, a, bizarre, situation, where, you, have, to, sit, there, and, talk, for, that, length, of, time, there, is, also, a, lot, of, stuff, that, he, wants, to, know, about, the, kids, and, you, just, can’t, help, him, most, of, what, we, know, is, hearsay, and, not, first, and, so, difficult, to, sum, up, espy, as, some, of, it, is, not, good, they, are, not, coping, with, the, whole, situation, and, it, is, basically, his, fault, or, his, and, their, mothers, so, he, is, already, feeling, guilty, enough, with, out, giving, him, more, angst, to, cope, with, but, i, was, very, glad, to, be, coming, out, again, into, the, fresh, air, spent, the, evening, at, a’s, parents, evening, challenging, senior, management, and, giving, them, a, hard, time, so, quite, a, day, tuesday, as, usual, the, disasters, after, a, w, e, away, continue, the, new, bathroom, was, totally, flooded, from, a, leaking, pipe, i, felt, like, wringing, his, neck, he, is, the, plumber, the, water, was, flowing, back, through, the, old, kitchen, and, made, a, real, mess, managed, to, get, hold, of, him, after, leaving, more, and, more, urgent, phone, messages, at, all, his, answer, phones, he, has, a, mobile, a, telephone, at, his, flat, where, he, hardly, ever, is, and, at, his, girlfriends, so, the, water, was, off, most, of, the, day, until, he, found, the, leak, and, managed, to, fix, it, again, he, had, to, smash, tiles, and, cut, holes, in, the, wall, to, fix, it, and, the, place, looked, a, mess, but, boy, o, boy, am, i, fed, up, with, that, stupid, bathroom, went, into, work, to, find, no, one, had, done, the, stuff, i, had, left, to, be, done, and, work, was, really, busy, the, speeding, ticket, had, landed, already, why, are, other, govt, depts, not, as, efficient, so, spent, the, whole, day, until, 6pm, running, around, like, a, headless, chicken, and, then, decided, that, stuff, it, i, was, going, to, the, gym, for, the, circuits, class, weds, the, disasters, continued, with, the, washing, machine, giving, up, the, ghost, which, in, a, house, with, 3, boys, and, a, vet, is, a, pretty, serious, problem, i, also, had, an, argument, with, one, of, the, other, partners, saying, that, if, we, did, not, get, another, vet, we, would, have, a, rebellion, or, people, going, off, sick, through, stress, me, being, one, of, them, and, i, have, only, been, back, 2, days, still, haven’t, managed, to, read, all, of, the, stuff, in, my, in, tray, yet, let, alone, deal, with, it, thursday, finally, convinced, senior, colleague, we, needed, some, help, as, the, ministry, got, hold, of, him, and, asked, if, we, could, do, a, tracings, herd, test, urgently, on, one, of, farms, that, has, not, restocked, the, cattle, belong, to, some, one, else, he, then, looked, at, the, book, and, decided, we, could, not, idiot, i, told, him, weeks, ago, last, september, i, think, that, this, would, happen, so, spent, the, day, sorting, out, dc, to, come, in, between, vetting, he, is, not, an, lvi, so, have, had, to, pull, some, wool, and, sweet, talk, them, into, training, him, in, the, baffling, ways, of, defra, but, that, meant, i, still, have, yet, to, reach, the, bottom, of, my, in, tray, may, be, there, is, gold, buried, at, the, bottom, i, think, this, is, one, of, those, days, when, you, look, back, were, probably, quite, decisive, but, accidental, days, this, was, the, first, time, i, really, thought, that, i, was, about, to, be, killed, i, could, see, it, happening, and, there, was, nothing, i, could, have, done, differently, to, prevent, it, i, went, on, a, calving, after, work, about, 8pm, met, up, with, the, farmers, and, one, went, to, get, water, while, the, other, and, i, walked, into, the, box, to, where, the, cow, was, the, cow, gave, me, a, funny, look, and, i, backed, off, to, behind, a, pillar, in, the, pen, oh, its, ok, it’s, a, quiet, cow, she’s, had, 8, calves, he, said, next, time, i, will, listen, to, my, instincts, so, we, went, forward, to, where, she, was, without, warning, or, snorting, or, given, it, a, second, thought, she, charged, caught, me, under, the, ribs, with, her, head, and, threw, me, to, the, ground, before, i, could, react, she, butted, me, again, in, the, head, snorted, kicked, me, and, then, backed, off, as, the, farmer, started, kicking, and, hitting, her, she, then, came, again, bashed, me, into, the, corner, on, my, back, and, kept, coming, as, her, head, flew, at, me, i, grabbed, her, nose, and, swung, myself, around, on, her, nose, kicked, her, with, both, feet, taking, all, my, weight, on, the, one, hand, while, shouting, for, help, from, the, other, guys, one, came, back, with, a, pitchfork, as, i, was, on, the, ground, i, kicked, her, again, as, they, came, with, the, fork, and, let, go, and, scrambled, away, around, the, box, she, still, came, after, me, but, i, got, to, the, gate, past, the, two, brothers, who, thumped, her, again, and, then, backed, off, and, slammed, the, gate, shut, i, lay, in, a, heap, on, a, bale, for, 10, minutes, breathing, heavily, while, they, asked, did, i, need, an, ambulance, or, doctor, i, finally, came, to, enough, to, splash, water, on, my, face, and, think, that, there, must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, it, took, all, 4, brothers, armed, with, sticks, to, get, her, into, a, crush, where, i, then, managed, to, calve, 1, dead, twin, breach, and, 1, live, twin, just, in, her, defence, the, cow, had, been, calving, for, a, while, was, in, pain, and, had, probably, just, got, herself, really, wound, up, but, she, almost, killed, me, i, then, sat, having, strong, tea, for, quarter, of, an, hour, before, summoning, up, the, courage, to, drive, home, with, hind, sight, i, should, have, taken, up, there, offer, of, a, getting, some, one, else, out, to, calve, the, cow, but, the, girl, on, 2nd, was, 5ft, nothing, and, petite, and, didn’t, think, dumping, it, on, her, was, very, fair, the, adrenaline, was, still, flowing, so, i, just, kept, on, b, i, should, however, have, let, one, of, them, drive, me, home, or, probably, to, casualty, but, i, felt, they, would, not, do, anything, at, the, hospital, except, keep, an, eye, on, me, so, i, just, went, home, to, my, own, bed, and, asked, my, wife, to, wake, me, up, every, two, hours, friday, ill, with, head, spinning, every, time, i, sit, down, to, try, and, do, something, my, head, just, goes, around, and, i, feel, really, tired, and, jet, lagged, i, think, i, prefer, india, to, being, beaten, up, by, cows, time, for, a, new, job, slept, all, afternoon, but, had, friends, for, dinner, it, had, been, arrange, months, ago, so, wife, didn’t, cancel, and, i, kept, going, but, drifted, in, and, out, a, wee, bit, saturday, 8th, march, had, a, lie, in, to, 9, o, clock, yo, still, feeling, pretty, sore, but, at, least, my, head, is, one, piece, i, think, showed, flat, to, prospective, tenants, it, is, very, rare, that, we, don’t, have, to, get, up, for, sthg, when, we, are, at, home, either, for, work, or, for, football, squash, or, something, similar, there, is, another, squash, competition, but, they, are, both, later, starts, for, our, boys, which, is, great, took, son, to, football, and, wife, phoned, up, to, say, that, the, cs, were, going, to, watch, the, lord, of, the, rings, did, i, want, to, go, so, went, to, watch, it, and, swapped, younger, kids, with, wife, taking, son, and, their, youngsters, and, i, went, with, the, cs, there, are, times, when, mobile, phones, are, really, useful, to, get, things, arranged, the, film, was, really, good, but, boy, was, i, stiff, after, sitting, down, for, that, length, of, time, my, knee, was, giving, me, real, gyp, spent, evening, at, daubes, but, i, faded, so, wife, drove, home, and, went, to, bed, sunday, 9th, went, to, church, in, morning, and, picked, up, car, friends, came, to, lunch, which, was, really, good, to, see, them, but, as, a, points, out, pointedly, they, do, have, 5, boys, so, there, were, 8, kids, flying, around, but, i, did, enjoy, seeing, them, they, are, still, trying, to, sort, out, their, diversification, plans, and, hope, to, have, several, strings, to, their, bows, as, well, as, farming, there, is, a, teachers, position, at, nelson, thom, so, that, is, probably, the, most, reliable, form, of, income, for, friend, mon, 10th, went, to, work, but, every, time, i, bend, over, or, move, to, fast, my, head, spins, so, just, did, small, animals, i, think, cats, and, dogs, are, a, much, better, idea, but, a, lot, of, sympathy, from, folk, at, work, mr, h, had, been, in, and, obviously, given, a, fairly, graphic, description, of, what, had, happened, that, and, my, face, is, not, the, most, becoming, at, the, moment, tues, 11th, back, to, work, on, the, farms, i, was, at, rs, for, a, fertility, visit, even, though, i, know, his, cows, and, i, am, happy, with, them, i, did, feel, very, nervous, about, going, any, where, near, them, i, have, lost, a, lot, of, confidence, which, although, i, expected, it, i, am, still, a, bit, wound, up, about, it, the, rest, of, day, was, ok, apart, from, several, people, whingeing, about, the, current, paper, work, requirements, for, selling, cattle, mind, you, when, you, see, what, they, need, to, sell, a, few, bullocks, or, a, geld, cow, it, is, probably, easier, to, be, an, asylum, seeker, spent, evening, at, surgery, showing, d, the, ropes, he, is, the, locum, who, is, going, to, be, working, with, us, for, the, next, few, weeks, he, is, going, to, the, ministry, at, newcastle, tomorrow, to, do, his, lvi, training, at, least, that, means, he, can, do, some, of, the, tb, testing, and, at, least, give, us, a, break, from, that, it, is, these, sort, of, things, managing, staff, showing, people, the, ropes, giving, them, back, up, and, debriefing, them, that, latkes, huge, amounts, of, time, and, energy, and, yet, is, never, seen, as, work, or, relevant, by, a, lot, of, people, the, rest, of, the, partnership, and, yet, in, any, small, business, it, is, the, people, that, make, all, the, difference, and, if, they, feel, appreciated, and, supported, and, can, debrief, and, be, reassured, then, it, makes, such, a, difference, to, them, and, happy, staff, can, deal, with, situations, and, people, a, lot, better, and, easier, than, stressed, ones, weds, 12th, next, year, i, am, not, going, it, is, definitely, some, one, else’s, turn, i, speak, of, the, annual, training, day, for, senior, lvis, it, just, drives, me, up, the, wall, the, morning, was, spent, fairly, usefully, talking, about, contingency, planning, for, the, next, fmd, or, exotic, disease, epidemic, the, page, st, planners, seemed, fairly, well, clued, in, and, taking, on, board, a, lot, of, the, ideas, and, problems, that, had, been, seen, in, 2001, the, afternoon, was, then, totally, depressing, tb, is, now, endemic, in, the, south, of, the, county, there, was, a, deer, herd, that, had, animals, dying, and, so, took, them, to, the, vic, lab, at, penrith, to, find, out, why, they, had, these, animals, losing, weight, and, dying, they, had, tb, the, ministry, had, known, that, there, had, been, reactors, all, around, that, area, but, had, never, picked, up, on, the, fact, these, deer, were, here, and, should, have, been, tested, there, were, also, complaints, that, forward, tracings, were, not, being, done, on, some, cattle, to, which, the, vety, officer, giving, the, talk, said, it, was, quite, difficult, to, work, out, where, cattle, had, gone, this, was, met, with, some, incredulity, by, the, local, vets, as, the, paperwork, and, computerised, passport, scheme, surely, means, that, trace, ability, was, one, of, the, big, issues, to, do, with, bse, and, if, it, cannot, be, done, it, means, the, whole, thing, is, a, useless, sham, well, the, answer, is, that, you, can, trace, a, specific, animal, through, markets, and, holdings, but, not, animals, on, and, off, a, holding, so, tracings, are, taking, too, much, time, so, it, is, not, getting, done, so, tb, is, spreading, idiots, the, best, systems, the, best, tools, the, best, ideas, the, best, businesses, have, to, work, through, people, so, next, year, some, one, else, can, go, and, listen, to, the, plans, in, the, sky, this, was, the, meeting, where, we, had, an, excellent, talk, on, fmd, in, feb, 2000, just, a, pity, they, did, not, listen, to, their, own, experts, there, was, also, a, talk, on, the, new, scrapie, scheme, where, the, guy, speaking, knew, less, than, his, audience, why, i, have, to, go, back, to, the, speaker, at, the, vcf, w, e, who, said, that, when, he, came, out, of, medical, school, he, had, spent, 6, years, being, taught, to, be, rational, and, scientific, where, disease, was, discussed, logically, and, a, rational, conclusion, was, sought, he, came, with, the, same, idea, to, the, national, health, service, and, struggled, he, said, we, live, in, a, fallen, world, with, fallen, institutions, and, we, have, to, accept, that, at, times, they, do, not, make, sense, and, that, it, is, not, in, our, power, or, capabilities, to, change, them, where, we, can, we, change, them, where, we, cannot, we, work, within, them, thursday, 13th, day, off, prior, to, working, w, e, went, up, high, pike, with, friend, snowed, lightly, on, tops, but, beautiful, but, a, wee, bit, chilly, spent, the, afternoon, getting, the, stuff, sorted, for, vcf, magazine, and, answering, e, mails, and, putting, the, details, from, the, w, e, in, to, some, sort, of, order, i, was, trying, also, to, put, some, responses, down, for, yesterday, but, feeling, to, angry, to, risk, putting, it, down, on, paper, i, just, hope, the, govt, is, more, in, touch, with, the, armed, forces, on, the, frontline, in, kuwait, than, the, distant, arm, of, govt, in, state, vet, service, in, cumbria, friday, 14th, another, day, another, test, another, dollar, spent, morning, supervising, the, locum, and, trying, to, get, on, top, of, my, in, tray, the, stuff, for, partners, meeting, next, week, to, try, and, get, some, decisions, and, a, w, e, on, call, looms, when, i, feel, even, though, i, have, not, been, in, work, or, worked, too, many, w, e’s, tired, and, jaded, being, beaten, up, by, the, cow, probably, doesn’t, help, saturday, 15th, march, working, the, w, e, on, first, for, the, first, time, in, a, long, time, as, i, have, been, keeping, the, amount, i, am, working, back, i, am, was, way, ahead, in, the, amount, worked, so, it, brings, the, numbers, in, line, i, also, need, a, break, as, feeling, v, tired, and, fed, up, and, with, not, much, prospect, of, rejuvenation, the, morning, was, fairly, busy, but, we, all, finished, by, 12, so, not, that, bad, it, was, funny, as, julie, who, ahs, been, a, receptionist, since, pre, fmd, said, that, she, thought, it, was, really, busy, but, compared, to, the, good, old, days, of, 8, years, ago, you, thought, it, was, a, good, sat, am, if, you, finished, by, 2, so, it, is, surprising, how, things, change, and, you, get, use, to, them, the, weather, is, beautiful, with, clear, skies, and, frosty, spring, mornings, and, dry, the, good, weather, always, makes, you, feel, better, any, way, spent, afternoon, doing, bits, and, pieces, in, garden, and, jobbing, around, sunday, 16th, busy, in, morning, but, it, shows, how, useful, the, new, building, is, ok, i, know, its, 4, years, old, but, things, have, never, been, normal, and, i, still, see, it, as, new, there, were, 2, lambings, and, a, sheep, to, see, and, drugs, to, put, out, and, because, i, was, at, the, surgery, they, just, kept, on, coming, down, to, the, surgery, to, the, large, animal, bay, so, i, did, a, lot, of, work, with, no, driving, and, it, makes, such, a, difference, what, would, have, taken, 3, 4, hours, was, finished, in, an, hour, and, a, half, missed, church, and, did, the, same, at, night, with, more, lambings, the, sheep, are, back, the, afternoon, was, spent, sorting, out, after, boys, they, went, down, to, the, pond, and, because, it, is, all, churned, up, they, got, their, wellies, stuck, in, the, mud, so, they, were, cold, and, wet, and, covered, i, had, to, use, planks, to, walk, out, to, them, so, i, did, not, sink, in, i, made, the, mistake, of, fetching, the, planks, and, the, spades, back, before, sorting, the, boys, so, they, had, trailed, mud, all, around, the, house, grrrrr, but, i, should, have, taken, photos, in, the, midst, of, this, the, new, vet, student, rachael, turned, up, so, i, could, not, give, full, vent, to, my, annoyance, mon, 17th, chaos, at, work, with, loads, of, emergencies, and, testing, so, we, were, all, glad, of, students, and, d, working, more, i, r’s, found, tb, testing, so, it, looks, like, it, will, continue, still, haven’t, found, time, to, put, pen, to, paper, or, type, writer, to, send, a, letter, to, contingency, planning, group, at, defra, but, hopefully, will, get, on, top, of, it, soon, tues, 18th, some, days, i, should, have, stayed, in, bed, a, bad, hair, day, started, off, badly, with, arriving, at, fertility, visit, as, farmer, was, emerging, from, breakfast, having, been, late, as, his, wife, was, milk, recording, and, he, had, to, calve, a, cow, so, had, to, sort, cows, before, checking, to, see, in, calf, a, very, rotten, lambing, rotten, as, in, lambs, were, disintegrating, so, stank, and, then, more, calls, left, for, lunch, at, 12, 45, to, get, half, way, and, the, called, me, back, for, another, lambing, there, were, 1, 30, calls, to, do, and, then, surgery, worked, at, night, and, i, was, fed, up, of, being, on, call, stopping, me, doing, stuff, so, went, to, gym, and, was, bleeped, out, to, speak, to, folk, 4, times, by, now, really, wound, up, so, went, to, house, group, and, sat, down, chatted, and, phone, went, sorted, that, and, then, a, cow, caesarean, this, was, followed, by, 2, more, and, 3, hours, sleep, must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, weds, 19th, feeling, my, age, no, sleep, on, the, night, before, you, 40th, birthday, does, not, do, you, any, good, missed, seeing, kids, in, morning, as, i, was, out, at, caesar, 3, during, night, on, call, the, girls, at, work, had, got, hold, of, loads, of, photos, from, my, wife, so, they, were, all, around, the, practice, well, i, was, a, cute, teenager, worked, through, to, lunch, as, morning, was, busy, and, partners, meeting, then, did, a, 1, 30, and, went, home, for, sleep, opened, presents, with, kids, at, 4, o’clock, and, went, out, to, d’s, for, meal, at, night, was, good, thurs, 20th, really, quiet, as, no, tb, testing, and, lots, of, vets, did, more, lambings, and, caught, up, on, business, side, of, organisation, doing, rota, and, organising, work, reflected, on, partners, meeting, and, tried, to, work, out, whether, i, am, out, of, sync, with, the, rest, of, the, world, and, right, or, out, of, sync, and, wrong, time, will, tell, iraq, war, started, as, predicted, but, seems, to, have, been, an, opportunistic, target, i, e, saddam, himself, rather, than, all, out, assault, weird, but, that, is, politics, i, must, ask, the, history, teachers, about, what, caused, the, failure, of, the, league, of, nations, and, whether, this, is, going, to, be, similar, for, un, fri, 21st, despite, being, on, back, up, went, out, for, a, meal, it, was, the, coffee, morning’s, xmas, bash, that, is, traditionally, now, held, in, new, year, as, there, is, too, much, else, on, during, xmas, period, spent, quite, a, while, talking, to, ms, about, league, of, nations, and, the, un, he, is, fairly, sceptical, about, the, power, and, influence, of, un, which, in, his, view, is, more, often, than, not, used, as, a, fig, leaf, for, us, or, ussr, ambitions, and, is, not, really, the, international, community, he, was, interesting, to, talk, to, about, the, history, of, iraq, played, pictionary, boys, vs, girls, which, was, fun, saturday, 22nd, march, 2003, worked, am, which, was, very, busy, as, it, was, my, 10th, day, i, was, feeling, a, bit, drained, either, that, or, cos, of, out, for, meal, last, night, i, will, let, you, decide, the, beautiful, weather, is, continuing, and, we, went, for, a, lovely, walk, up, above, fellside, the, kids, loved, playing, in, the, streams, and, the, sunshine, which, for, march, is, amazing, came, back, to, find, that, there, was, a, house, full, of, folk, to, celebrate, my, 40th, birthday, which, was, really, nice, though, it, was, a, good, thing, that, the, weather, was, good, so, the, kids, could, play, out, side, as, there, were, lots, of, them, chatted, to, p, who, is, always, full, of, energy, and, enthusiasm, he, is, a, whirlwind, of, ideas, and, concepts, and, philosophy, one, of, the, few, people, who, i, can, sit, and, listen, to, for, hours, and, hours, he, is, intelligent, and, articulate, in, 7, languages, and, yet, always, ready, to, listen, to, anyone, and, hear, what, they, have, to, say, even, if, it, is, poorly, thought, out, and, very, practical, in, his, approach, and, very, un, materialistic, he, is, quite, happy, to, give, books, and, ideas, to, anyone, who, will, read, and, learn, from, them, sunday, 23rd, this, weather, is, amazing, i, still, cannot, get, over, it, with, the, sun, blazing, down, we, went, to, watch, son, play, football, against, silloth, they, won, 2, 0, but, it, was, a, tight, match, but, very, good, to, watch, much, better, than, carlisle, as, one, spectators, put, it, went, on, to, beckfoot, for, a, picnic, in, march, the, beach, was, deserted, and, yet, it, was, warm, enough, for, t, shirts, and, shorts, for, the, boys, i, lay, in, the, sun, and, slept, and, counted, my, many, blessings, came, home, and, planted, seeds, lettuce, courgette, and, sweet, pea, must, plant, leeks, and, pumpkins, if, i, get, a, a, chance, this, week, and, buy, onion, sets, wife, spent, a, while, after, church, talking, to, b, about, low, moor, difficult, mon, 24th, sent, my, letter, to, richard, drummond, who, was, the, rvo, at, harrogate, and, is, now, head, of, service, delivery, it, is, always, a, bit, of, a, conscious, effort, to, take, up, the, cudgels, against, bureaucracy, especially, one, like, the, svs, that, has, in, its, culture, a, tendency, to, attack, those, who, criticise, it, i, hope, that, tomorrow, will, be, quiet, as, i, wish, to, write, another, letter, to, the, contingency, planning, dept, i, also, want, to, look, at, the, updated, contingency, plans, and, make, comments, on, it, but, doing, all, this, does, not, pay, the, bills, and, at, the, moment, when, work, is, so, busy, i, feel, it, is, actually, more, important, to, spend, time, with, the, kids, so, i, will, sign, off, and, go, and, watch, the, great, escape, which, they, bought, me, for, my, birthday, copy, of, letter, to, richard, drummond, who, wrote, the, drummond, report, before, fmd, saying, that, if, there, was, an, outbreak, they, would, not, be, able, to, cope, 21st, march, 2003, mr, r, d, drummond, address, removed, dear, richard, i, am, writing, to, express, my, concern, with, the, current, situation, with, tb, we, last, met, at, the, lvi, meeting, in, cumbria, where, we, had, an, excellent, talk, on, foot, and, mouth, disease, and, about, how, there, was, an, increased, risk, becoming, apparent, this, was, in, feb, 2000, at, the, meeting, this, year, as, well, as, talks, on, contingency, planning, there, was, a, lot, of, discussion, on, the, emergence, of, tb, on, cumbrian, farms, there, were, also, complaints, that, forward, tracings, were, not, being, done, on, some, cattle, to, which, the, vet, officer, giving, the, talk, said, it, was, quite, difficult, and, time, consuming, to, work, out, where, cattle, had, gone, this, was, met, with, some, incredulity, by, the, local, vets, as, the, paperwork, and, computerised, passport, scheme, involved, in, moving, cattle, is, a, huge, burden, on, farmers, trace, ability, was, one, of, the, big, issues, to, do, with, bse, and, if, it, cannot, be, done, it, means, the, whole, paper, exercise, is, a, useless, sham, the, answer, was, given, that, you, can, trace, a, specific, animal, through, markets, and, holdings, but, not, animals, on, and, off, a, holding, so, tracings, are, taking, too, much, time, so, tracings, are, not, getting, done, in, some, divisions, so, tb, is, spreading, whether, this, comes, under, your, remit, as, head, of, service, delivery, i, do, not, know, but, i, would, be, grateful, if, you, could, forward, it, to, the, relevant, department, or, to, the, minister, so, that, a, single, enquiry, to, the, cattle, movements, service, at, workington, will, ensure, a, comprehensive, list, of, movements, on, and, off, a, holding, since, the, previous, test, if, we, cannot, trace, from, herds, with, tuberculosis, reactors, the, ability, to, track, fmd, is, obviously, a, non, starter, thank, you, in, advance, for, your, help, with, this, i, hope, in, 3, years, time, we, will, not, be, contemplating, what, we, should, have, learnt, from, an, lvi, meeting, in, hadrian, house, yours, sincerely, b.v.m, s, m.r.c.v.s, tues, 25th, wife, s, cousin, from, vancouver, arrived, and, it, was, really, nice, to, see, her, again, the, canadians, are, always, so, up, beat, and, down, to, earth, they, have, a, refreshingly, positive, can, do, mentality, she, and, her, daughter, have, been, with, a, school, choir, singing, in, parts, of, europe, and, doing, the, european, tour, they, are, whistle, stopping, the, lakes, tomorrow, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, them, young, vet, who, lost, brother, was, with, them, my, favourite, mother, in, law, she, brought, me, a, set, of, kitchen, knives, for, my, birthday, present, they, are, incredibly, sharp, so, i, don’t, think, that, letting, the, kids, loose, with, them, will, be, a, good, idea, but, at, least, we, can, pitch, some, of, the, old, ones, which, needed, sharpening, every, time, you, used, them, vet, arrived, back, from, skiing, very, sun, burnt, from, the, sunshine, and, wind, she, has, had, a, really, good, time, though, weds, 26th, a, and, left, as, i, arrived, in, to, go, to, yp’s, it, was, funny, to, see, them, very, much, the, young, ladies, going, out, they, live, at, opposite, ends, of, the, world, and, yet, the, fashion, is, the, same, little, hand, bags, and, scarves, as, belts, globalisation, is, not, just, effecting, agriculture, they, had, spent, time, in, keswick, and, around, the, lakes, today, making, use, of, the, gorgeous, summer, weather, in, march, it, really, is, warm, hope, we, are, in, for, a, scorcher, of, a, summer, holidays, thursday, 27th, spent, the, quietist, night, on, call, for, a, long, long, time, nothing, why, is, it, as, soon, as, you, employ, a, locum, as, an, extra, pair, of, hands, the, work, disappears, still, it, will, given, everyone, a, chance, to, have, a, breather, said, good, bye, to, the, canadians, and, mother, in, law, we, are, heading, over, to, ireland, to, see, the, irish, side, of, the, family, at, easter, so, we, will, see, vet, friend, again, soon, but, it, was, funny, saying, goodbye, all, the, same, don’t, know, why, was, doing, a, herd, health, plan, today, for, a, farm, that, has, 50, dairy, cows, he, said, he, did, not, really, know, why, he, is, doing, it, as, he, is, going, to, give, up, and, go, and, milk, for, some, one, else, as, it, is, not, viable, to, make, it, pay, on, that, sort, of, small, scale, friday, 28th, haven’t, got, the, workload, right, at, all, i, think, the, sunshine, has, sent, the, farmers, into, the, fields, to, work, and, the, lambs, and, calves, are, all, arriving, un, aided, in, to, the, sunshine, it, is, amazing, how, the, good, weather, makes, you, feel, so, much, better, so, i, have, booked, in, extra, testing, for, next, week, the, only, slightly, sad, thing, was, talking, to, one, of, the, farmers, who, had, just, started, lambing, i, was, taking, out, rotten, lambs, that, were, aborting, 2, weeks, earlier, it, is, his, first, season, actually, lambing, as, he, only, bought, in, fat, sheep, last, year, he, said, that, it, was, at, this, stage, 2, years, ago, that, they, came, and, took, all, his, sheep, he, should, not, have, let, them, do, it, it, was, wrong, and, he, had, not, put, up, a, fight, he, had, just, gone, along, with, it, he, was, fairly, melancholic, about, it, i, tried, to, point, out, that, every, one, had, done, it, and, it, had, seemed, to, be, best, thing, to, do, at, the, time, i, did, not, think, that, pointing, out, i, had, not, been, convinced, and, argued, against, it, and, that, only, 2, out, of, 10,000, blood, samples, of, live, sheep, slaughtered, had, been, exposed, to, the, virus, would, have, helped, they, were, my, granddads, flock, he, said, now, we, have, all, these, problems, he, says, looking, at, the, dead, lambs, i, have, just, pulled, out, lying, in, a, heap, in, the, corner, of, the, trailer, you, never, forget, something, like, that, lad, he, says, never, there, are, a, lot, of, anniversaries, to, go, through, and, all, the, farmers, are, saying, the, fun, has, gone, out, of, it, saturday, 29th, march, the, beautiful, weather, is, carrying, on, and, wife, and, i, had, a, child, free, vet, student, free, afternoon, the, sun, was, out, and, we, went, down, for, a, walk, along, this, side, of, bassenthwaite, lake, there, were, lots, of, daffodils, out, and, a, light, breeze, off, the, lake, it, was, beautiful, cool, sunny, day, for, walking, and, very, pleasant, we, really, enjoyed, it, son, and, a, are, on, the, young, peoples, church, w, e, at, edinburgh, and, will, arrive, back, exhausted, from, lack, of, sleep, the, js, had, the, boys, for, the, afternoon, so, it, was, good, met, up, with, friends, in, the, evening, and, spent, the, evening, putting, agriculture, to, rights, he, sells, manages, sales, of, fertiliser, for, norsk, hydro, sunday, mothering, sunday, was, a, bit, of, a, disaster, with, out, a, to, organise, the, boys, and, i, hadn’t, had, time, to, get, them, organised, church, was, r, j, on, the, beatitudes, then, met, up, with, cs, and, went, up, bow, scale, fell, son’s, friend, and, son, complained, the, whole, way, they, were, in, really, bad, form, and, i, was, fed, up, with, them, monday, the, work, has, dried, up, completely, which, for, this, time, of, year, is, unheard, of, we, have, employed, a, locum, to, try, and, get, the, testing, done, and, no, work, for, every, one, to, do, embarrassingly, got, it, wrong, usually, at, this, time, of, year, there, is, no, testing, and, the, vets, are, running, around, like, idiots, not, very, good, news, for, us, so, wrote, letters, to, the, head, of, contingency, planning, at, page, st, to, amuse, you, i, have, copied, it, here, name, defra, rm, 803a, 1a, page, st, london, sw1p, 4pq, dear, name, i, am, writing, to, thank, you, for, travelling, north, to, carlisle, to, come, to, speak, to, the, recent, lvi, meeting, at, hadrian, house, carlisle, i, have, also, been, reading, the, defra, contingency, plan, and, a, lot, of, lessons, do, seem, to, have, been, learnt, i, appreciate, this, years, deadline, has, been, passed, to, place, it, before, parliament, but, it, is, a, living, document, my, apologies, but, better, late, than, never, i, would, like, to, make, a, few, comments, as, one, of, the, early, tvi, volunteers, at, carlisle, and, as, a, partner, of, one, of, the, practices, at, the, eye, of, the, storm, 1, the, whole, issue, of, valuation, of, animals, taken, as, a, compulsory, purchase, by, the, state, for, the, benefit, of, the, farming, community, to, eradicate, disease, has, not, been, addressed, one, of, the, initial, problems, slowing, the, slaughter, of, infected, animals, was, the, valuation, my, own, view, then, and, now, is, that, a, simple, standard, valuation, must, be, applied, it, must, be, high, enough, to, be, an, incentive, to, reporting, of, disease, but, too, low, to, make, the, possibility, of, disease, seem, financially, attractive, the, price, for, compulsory, purchase, may, be, set, higher, for, dangerous, contacts, or, less, for, affected, animals, if, there, is, a, simple, standard, value, then, the, diagnosing, vet, counts, the, number, of, bovines, and, shoots, them, the, farmer, knows, in, advance, what, compensation, is, going, to, be, paid, and, individual, animals, of, high, merit, could, be, insured, for, whatever, sum, the, farmer, is, willing, to, pay, premiums, for, this, may, be, an, unpopular, nettle, but, it, needs, to, be, grasped, even, though, i, am, sure, my, clients, would, disapprove, of, it, the, current, tuberculosis, problems, are, again, high, lighting, the, problems, in, this, area, there, should, be, a, standard, procedure, and, valuation, for, all, notifiable, diseases, and, the, values, based, on, the, last, mid, market, rate, there, are, apocryphal, stories, that, the, valuers, are, still, running, the, system, for, their, clients, the, farmers, not, defra, 2, the, second, issue, that, has, not, been, addressed, is, the, tracings, system, with, the, advent, of, the, british, cattle, movement, services, i, was, under, the, impression, that, traceability, was, a, central, part, of, government, policy, it, was, with, some, incredulity, that, in, response, to, questioning, at, the, lvi, meeting, we, were, told, that, bcms, cannot, give, a, list, of, movements, on, or, off, a, holding, so, tracings, for, tb, are, still, being, done, by, a, defra, vet, trawling, through, a, farmers, movement, book, why, if, the, political, will, was, there, at, the, touch, of, a, bottom, the, data, base, should, be, able, to, generate, a, list, of, animals, moved, in, the, past, 6, months, which, markets, they, have, been, through, and, which, holdings, they, have, been, through, if, this, cannot, be, done, for, tb, you, can, forget, trying, to, do, it, for, fmd, or, other, fast, contagious, disease, there, is, still, a, confusion, over, the, database, which, should, be, based, on, holding, numbers, several, farmers, have, multiple, holding, numbers, several, have, a, single, holding, number, and, multiple, sites, high, genetic, merit, animals, may, have, several, owners, a, single, holding, may, have, stock, from, several, different, farms, the, rules, for, cph, numbers, need, to, be, re, evaluated, centrally, if, a, data, base, is, to, be, of, use, it, must, be, actively, managed, and, updated, that, can, only, be, done, at, a, local, level, 3, disposal, i, know, that, this, has, been, looked, at, but, farm, sizes, are, continuing, to, grow, at, an, ever, more, rapid, rate, the, average, size, of, dairy, farms, in, this, area, has, grown, by, 20, cows, since, fmd, this, means, there, will, be, a, bigger, disposal, problem, as, individual, farms, will, have, more, and, more, stock, 4, the, local, office, should, have, stores, to, equip, 20, tvis, at, 24hours, notice, we, touched, on, this, point, at, the, meeting, was, the, need, for, sudden, recruitment, of, tvi, or, other, veterinary, staff, while, the, svs, can, second, small, numbers, of, vets, for, short, term, availability, there, was, a, reluctance, by, some, dvms, to, second, staff, who, may, yet, be, required, in, their, own, areas, local, lvis, can, provide, veterinary, cover, but, the, whole, structure, of, large, animal, practice, is, in, flux, and, it, may, or, may, not, be, possible, to, provide, veterinary, inspections, on, an, allocated, on, a, temporary, or, part, time, basis, the, pay, and, conditions, for, such, assistance, need, addressed, and, agreed, the, other, part, of, this, is, orientation, training, at, the, local, levels, this, by, the, end, of, the, outbreak, at, carlisle, was, quite, impressive, however, has, that, information, been, put, together, centrally, should, there, be, a, central, trainer, who, trains, designated, trainers, for, each, svs, office, decc, similarly, with, lay, blood, samplers, vaccinators, again, local, practices, could, provide, nominated, nurses, lay, staff, for, training, during, the, out, break, here, ai, personnel, were, used, very, effectively, for, blood, sampling, and, other, procedures, is, this, again, something, for, the, local, plan, but, if, the, cost, for, training, ai, staff, in, blood, sampling, was, met, centrally, it, would, encourage, a, register, of, trained, personnel, to, be, maintained, locally, the, cumbria, county, council, inquiry, recommends, the, use, of, its, emergency, centre, as, a, hub, for, multi, agency, response, to, any, disease, out, break, should, there, be, some, joined, up, government, so, that, each, county, council, as, part, of, its, contingency, plan, provides, for, an, admin, back, up, for, any, emergency, civil, disaster, terrorist, incident, and, do, the, local, plans, make, use, of, this, my, main, concern, however, is, that, when, i, asked, at, that, meeting, had, the, two, way, communications, between, page, st, and, carlisle, been, sorted, out, it, was, met, by, nervous, laughter, i, would, like, to, emphasise, that, page, st, did, not, know, what, was, going, on, in, the, field, during, fmd, outbreak, there, was, a, communication, barrier, between, the, vets, in, the, field, and, carlisle, management, and, a, huge, gulf, between, carlisle, and, page, street, i, would, plead, that, this, is, addressed, as, the, culture, identified, by, iain, anderson, still, seems, to, prevail, i, quote, a, culture, predisposed, to, decision, making, by, committee, with, an, associated, fear, of, personal, risk, taking, such, a, climate, does, not, encourage, creative, initiative, it, inhibits, adaptive, behaviour, and, organisational, learning, which, over, time, lowers, the, quality, of, the, decisions, taken, it, seems, to, me, that, a, reappraisal, of, prevailing, attitudes, and, behaviours, within, the, department, would, be, beneficial, it, may, be, outside, your, remit, but, the, northumberland, report, with, its, flow, charts, and, recommendations, actually, lists, lessons, to, be, learned, in, dec, 1969, the, one, about, the, svs, who, fared, so, poorly, in, fmd, 2001, states, we, have, considered, the, recruitment, problem, of, the, state, veterinary, service, the, reasons, maybe, the, low, initial, salary, or, in, part, the, to, the, nature, of, the, duties, within, the, service, we, consider, it, important, for, future, development, that, the, ministry, of, agriculture, should, attract, a, greater, number, of, good, young, graduates, willing, to, make, a, career, in, the, service, at, the, end, of, any, plan, are, the, people, who, are, going, to, implement, it, they, need, well, managed, well, led, and, given, the, resources, to, carry, out, the, task, they, need, to, have, confidence, in, both, the, political, and, civil, service, leadership, there, will, need, to, be, a, risk, management, of, tasks, for, financial, reasons, resource, reasons, and, for, the, wider, rural, economy, this, requires, flexible, decision, makers, who, are, prepared, to, take, risks, and, stick, their, head, above, the, collective, parapet, i, hope, that, this, provides, a, few, more, thoughts, for, you, to, work, on, yours, sincerely, refs, fmd, 2001, lessons, learned, enquiry, forward, by, chairman, iain, anderson, p7, northumberland, report, presented, to, parliament, dec, 69, part, 2, section, 47, she, spoke, at, the, last, lvi, meeting, and, as, usual, the, plans, sound, good, but, where, reality, hits, is, in, the, delivery, tuesday, did, some, small, animal, work, and, more, testing, tues, evening, always, seems, a, rush, went, to, gym, and, then, on, to, n’s, for, the, new, frontiers, church, meeting, which, was, excellent, weds, managed, some, fertility, work, in, the, morning, and, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, bringing, the, practice, database, up, to, date, it, has, been, let, go, since, foot, and, mouth, as, it, tell, us, how, much, stock, each, farm, has, the, numbers, have, been, all, over, the, place, as, people, have, been, restocking, and, changing, the, direction, their, businesses, are, going, some, moving, out, some, moving, up, in, numbers, and, some, going, from, dairy, to, beef, or, sheep, the, most, interesting, thing, was, the, fact, that, a, lot, of, farms, that, had, restocked, with, adult, animals, have, dropped, by, 5, 10, cows, since, they, restocked, as, older, cows, are, lost, or, ill, cows, go, but, there, are, not, the, young, stock, replacements, coming, through, to, replace, them, the, actual, figures, for, dairy, farms, restocking, are, not, yet, entered, in, the, computer, i, was, hoping, to, have, them, but, will, get, them, thursday, did, some, small, animals, and, some, otm22, but, it, still, incredibly, quiet, consequently, i, have, booked, in, a, lot, more, work, for, the, next, few, weeks, so, i, hope, i, don’t, get, it, wrong, the, other, way, set, up, anne, a, vet, student, for, her, project, on, comparing, fertility, pre, and, post, fmd, finished, off, updating, the, database, figures, so, they, will, hopefully, get, entered, over, next, few, days, and, we, can, do, some, comparisons, march, figures, look, ok, but, the, long, term, out, look, is, not, so, good, the, govt, is, doing, a, committee, looking, at, farm, animal, vet, practice, the, lakeland, bva, have, asked, for, comments, efracom, inquiry, into, vets, and, veterinary, services, efracom, is, a, defra, committee, terms, of, reference, are, to, look, at, the, provision, of, farm, veterinary, services, in, england, and, wales, in, particular, it, will, look, at, 1, what, impact, current, levels, of, farm, income, are, having, on, the, usage, of, veterinary, services, and, in, turn, what, effect, any, reduction, in, the, usage, of, such, services, is, having, on, the, number, of, practices, dealing, with, large, animals, 2, what, effect, any, reduction, in, the, usage, of, veterinary, services, and, a, shortage, of, large, animal, vets, is, having, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, the, effectiveness, of, surveillance, for, animal, diseases, 3, whether, the, requirements, placed, on, farmers, by, government, including, those, in, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, are, realisable, in, such, circumstances, and, 4, what, is, the, impact, on, the, work, of, the, state, veterinary, service, comments, by, 12, april, please, the, day, ended, with, the, reading, of, a, tb, test, on, a, farm, that, was, hoping, to, become, clear, after, going, down, when, it, first, restocked, 18months, ago, 1, reactor, and, 1, i, r, on, normal, interpretation, they, will, probably, take, both, on, severe, interpretation, the, government, always, looks, as, though, problems, are, dealt, with, in, isolation, the, defra, vet, who, looks, after, our, practice, is, not, dealing, with, this, case, as, his, daughter, is, married, to, her, brother, the, farming, community, is, very, incestuous, friday, work, desperately, quiet, so, i, organised, more, testing, to, do, i, hope, i, haven’t, over, booked, the, work, defra, vets, at, carlisle, are, still, learning, the, ropes, when, it, come, s, to, tb, as, it, has, been, so, rare, in, this, part, of, the, world, so, a, few, of, the, allocations, have, been, wrong, so, i, am, having, to, go, back, and, do, extra, animals, so, that, set, can, be, signed, off, the, school, held, a, curry, evening, tonight, which, for, a, cumbrian, village, school, is, very, cosmopolitan, there, is, an, extended, family, of, three, pakistani, families, and, they, cooked, though, for, the, children, there, was, also, a, bangers, and, chips, option, it, was, quite, a, nice, time, though, wife, was, on, her, next, level, counselling, course, so, i, ended, up, just, with, kids, but, it, was, good, to, spend, time, with, them, i, have, enjoyed, not, working, many, w, e’s, recently, it, kind, of, gives, you, your, life, back, that, and, not, doing, much, at, work, saturday, 5th, april, 2003, wife, was, at, her, level, 2, course, counselling, so, i, had, the, kids, for, the, w, e, took, son, to, squash, went, into, town, for, some, bits, and, pieces, and, then, i, chatted, to, i, while, we, waited, for, t, and, son, to, finish, then, took, all, the, kids, into, town, we, are, having, a, mothers, day, tomorrow, to, make, up, for, the, fact, l, a, were, away, for, the, w, e, last, week, the, kids, have, bought, presents, and, made, cards, which, was, nice, the, cs, and, friend, came, for, lunch, and, then, spent, a, very, muddy, afternoon, by, the, pond, playing, and, building, dens, and, generally, making, a, mess, and, having, fun, son, even, decided, showers, were, in, order, when, he, came, back, that, shows, you, how, dirty, they, were, as, he, is, mr, allergic, to, water, i, made, a, fondue, for, tea, with, apple, juice, as, the, kids, don’t, like, the, kick, of, the, wine, it, was, a, great, success, and, did, taste, rather, good, even, if, i, do, say, so, myself, sunday, i, went, to, church, on, my, own, as, wife, was, heading, out, again, after, an, early, lunch, the, talk, was, on, god’s, leading, which, is, always, relevant, the, kids, were, great, fun, on, the, way, back, and, full, of, craic, they, had, a, return, trip, to, the, cs, as, they, were, too, late, to, find, a, sky, tv, for, the, match, carlisle, lost, as, usual, but, it, is, not, every, week, they, lose, at, the, millennium, stadium, i, picked, the, kids, up, from, the, cs, and, put, all, their, bikes, on, the, back, of, the, car, went, to, say, good, bye, to, cs, in, the, meantime, three, of, their, boys, were, hiding, in, the, boot, of, the, car, so, they, let, me, drive, out, with, them, before, the, giggles, and, laughter, gave, the, game, away, so, it, caused, much, merriment, all, round, met, up, with, the, lads, sunday, night, felt, really, sorry, for, one, guy, who, is, having, real, problems, getting, access, to, his, 7, year, old, as, his, ex, wife, is, putting, a, lot, of, ve, input, into, the, wee, one, he, can, go, down, the, legal, route, but, will, be, expensive, and, probably, counter, productive, as, she, is, not, wanting, to, negotiate, or, look, at, what, is, best, for, the, wee, girl, it, seems, a, real, mess, monday, in, spite, of, 4, tests, the, work, is, not, there, i, spent, the, day, testing, though, it, is, really, quite, amusing, as, i, know, the, guy’s, sister, quite, well, and, i, always, make, sure, i, tell, her, how, much, the, good, lunch, is, appreciated, so, there, builds, up, a, rivalry, between, them, as, to, who, can, provide, the, vet, with, the, best, food, i, am, afraid, i, consciously, flame, the, rivalry, in, spite, of, it, not, doing, my, waistline, any, good, trying, to, concentrate, after, a, three, course, lunch, on, a, boring, job, is, not, easy, you, just, have, to, think, about, coffee, time, and, more, cakes, and, tray, bakes, all, of, them, distinctly, unhealthy, with, the, aim, of, feeding, out, door, manual, labour, tuesday, had, a, bad, night, as, my, hand, was, caught, in, the, crush, yesterday, by, a, stirk, throwing, its, head, and, it, bent, the, finger, back, it, seemed, ok, but, is, now, throbbing, like, mad, plenty, of, aspirin, and, corticosteroids, did, some, ferty, and, then, saw, another, lda, the, cows, seem, to, be, having, a, real, problem, with, the, feed, this, spring, as, we, have, seen, 3, 4, times, the, normal, number, went, running, with, a, as, my, finger, meant, i, could, not, go, to, gym, to, work, machines, weds, the, speed, cameras, have, arrived, on, the, top, road, and, unfortunately, i, was, going, too, fast, by, the, time, i, saw, it, so, i, will, probably, have, another, 3, points, on, my, licence, they, have, been, building, pads, on, the, side, of, the, road, all, along, the, a595, as, it, has, a, really, bad, record, for, car, accidents, the, numbers, killed, continues, to, go, up, the, speed, cameras, are, in, a, van, which, can, move, around, and, hence, trap, the, speeders, it, is, called, casualty, reduction, unit, a, bit, of, a, pointed, message, even, if, you, did, slow, down, for, them, work, is, slow, again, today, with, no, tb, testing, on, mid, week, days, it, is, my, brother’s, birthday, in, nz, and, he, sent, a, letter, to, say, he, is, going, to, be, a, dad, again, so, the, trip, to, come, across, at, xmas, is, off, he, is, wanting, us, to, all, go, there, hm, maybe, thursday, i, has, had, 2, reactors, and, 4, i, rs, today, so, the, future, is, not, looking, good, for, him, as, it, looks, like, there, will, be, tb, there, he, has, had, real, problems, since, the, herd, restocked, with, lung, worm, energy, problems, in, the, silage, and, atrocious, fertility, he, is, going, to, have, to, go, and, buy, another, 30, odd, replacements, at, 800, to, replace, those, that, he, has, lost, through, ill, health, and, fertility, makes, the, compensation, payments, seem, pretty, small, that’s, 24k, he, has, lost, out, on, already, and, his, own, heifers, are, only, coming, up, to, be, served, work, is, busy, and, i, wonder, if, the, spring, rush, is, coming, i, was, supposed, to, be, at, the, school, parents, evening, but, got, called, out, which, was, pretty, irritating, i, hate, the, fact, that, you, are, just, so, unreliable, when, you, are, on, call, friday, another, tb, testing, day, so, busy, all, together, not, a, good, day, the, competition, report, is, out, and, is, fairly, damning, as, expected, so, the, pressure, on, drug, margins, is, going, to, continue, and, the, old, fashioned, way, of, providing, a, complete, service, will, be, going, out, the, window, we, will, have, to, charge, for, the, out, of, hours, and, on, call, the, telephone, advice, and, try, to, make, it, pay, but, the, whole, economics, of, going, out, to, see, a, single, ill, animal, will, be, gone, the, clinical, skills, of, veterinarians, will, be, gone, all, academic, as, the, cost, for, diagnosing, a, single, animal, in, the, new, era, will, be, too, much, so, the, diagnosis, will, all, be, done, by, post, mortem, of, herd, problems, but, if, you, have, large, herds, the, man, power, will, not, be, there, to, look, after, the, individual, ill, animal, sad, depressing, day, but, i, am, off, for, the, w, e, saturday, 12th, april, 2003, woke, up, early, and, got, up, even, though, it, is, my, day, for, a, lie, in, i, think, i, am, particularly, wound, up, it, all, ways, takes, me, at, least, one, day, to, wind, down, from, work, so, i, am, tired, and, yet, not, feeling, able, to, rest, took, son, to, football, and, other, son, to, buy, anew, bike, he, was, so, excited, it, is, his, birthday, coming, up, and, he, has, out, grown, his, old, one, so, it, will, be, good, for, him, the, kids, spend, ages, flying, around, the, yard, on, bikes, and, up, and, down, the, field, when, the, grass, is, short, they, have, a, real, ball, here, it, is, a, great, place, to, grow, up, as, they, have, so, much, freedom, to, play, and, play, and, play, my, finger, that, was, caught, tb, testing, started, throbbing, again, this, afternoon, so, as, it, had, improved, and, then, got, worse, i, decided, i, had, to, get, it, x, rayed, so, i, spent, the, afternoon, in, casualty, waiting, to, get, x, rayed, and, then, waiting, for, another, hour, before, being, told, it, was, not, broken, a, five, minute, consultation, that, took, me, almost, 2, hours, friends, were, up, for, the, w, e, more, friends, are, at, capernwray, bible, college, for, an, easter, youth, thing, so, they, came, on, up, so, it, was, good, to, catch, up, sunday, cooked, lunch, for, everyone, and, then, went, to, communion, it, was, dire, and, reminded, me, why, i, don’t, usually, bother, spent, the, afternoon, putting, onions, in, and, tidying, in, the, garden, it, is, incredibly, dry, and, warm, amazing, really, the, 6, kids, spent, the, whole, afternoon, messing, around, at, the, pond, and, were, disgusting, with, mud, everywhere, and, trailed, all, up, the, yard, and, wellies, abandoned, everywhere, church, was, dm, speaking, and, then, the, yps, came, back, to, ours, afterwards, mind, you, i, think, i, had, had, enough, kids, for, the, time, being, but, i, was, ok, monday, bad, haircut, day, as, there, is, only, one, day, we, can, test, this, week, i, booked, in, fair, amount, which, would, have, been, tight, but, aw, was, off, ill, so, we, were, too, tight, so, a, few, ops, have, been, put, off, until, tomorrow, d, has, a, s, african, vet, friend, visiting, so, with, him, and, the, vet, student, the, house, is, still, full, i, however, am, knackered, and, not, feeling, sociable, had, a, horrendous, calving, it, is, not, often, i, cannot, calve, a, cow, but, i, am, afraid, after, an, hour, i, gave, up, and, caesared, it, the, calf, was, dead, and, rotten, so, whether, she, will, do, i, don’t, know, i, did, not, want, to, caesarean, but, that, is, life, it, was, either, that, or, the, farmer, pay, 60, to, get, some, one, to, take, it, away, after, i, euthed, it, tuesday, we, are, in, the, period, of, anniversaries, it, is, 2, years, since, the, ls, went, down, i, was, at, a, farm, which, did, not, get, fmd, and, his, uncles, did, he, was, saying, what, a, sad, day, it, was, so, his, uncles, must, be, feeling, it, more, the, beautiful, spring, weather, with, the, grass, growing, in, spite, of, the, frosts, definitely, puts, a, bounce, in, to, your, step, on, days, like, this, i, think, that, it, is, an, excellent, life, wandering, around, the, countryside, and, enjoying, the, scenery, the, farms, the, animals, and, the, farmers, beats, working, in, a, factory, any, way, went, to, the, gym, and, felt, a, lot, better, for, it, exercise, is, a, great, way, of, getting, a, buzz, but, you, have, to, be, not, too, tired, to, a, get, there, and, b, enjoy, it, i, have, gone, often, because, i, feel, i, should, and, just, felt, like, a, steam, roller, had, run, over, me, and, its, taken, a, day, or, two, to, recover, balance, in, all, things, weds, the, commission, report, came, out, today, difficult, to, believe, that, they, will, be, able, to, implement, it, but, having, lived, through, the, fmd, there, were, quite, a, few, things, i, thought, that, they, would, not, be, able, to, implement, but, they, did, we, will, have, to, if, the, minister, decides, and, since, it, is, dti, not, defra, i, think, that, the, implementation, may, be, effective, provide, prescriptions, free, of, charge, provide, our, clients, with, a, list, of, pharmacies, agricultural, suppliers, and, other, vets, and, web, sites, that, will, meet, those, prescriptions, the, cost, of, the, most, commonly, prescribed, medicines, in, the, previous, quarter, the, cross, subsidy, of, professional, fees, by, pharmaceuticals, will, not, be, allowed, and, how, will, the, pharmacist, make, his, money, the, other, comment, which, did, irk, me, some, what, was, that, the, provision, of, 24, hour, cover, does, not, seem, that, onerous, i, do, not, often, swear, but, really, very, depressed, but, daughter, came, on, a, caesaer, with, me, as, i, was, on, call, tonight, it, is, really, nice, working, from, home, and, being, able, to, take, them, with, me, it, is, a, very, healthy, thing, to, do, she, is, growing, up, and, is, very, much, the, young, lady, the, farmers, wife, is, the, dental, receptionist, and, of, course, said, hello, a, she, was, thrown, as, of, course, being, out, of, context, she, could, not, figure, how, the, farmers, wife, knew, who, she, was, thursday, good, friday, it, is, son’s, b’day, today, and, the, day, started, out, great, for, him, i, was, on, duty, and, he, arrived, in, our, bedroom, at, 7am, with, the, other, 2, boys, to, start, on, the, birthday, celebrations, our, family, tradition, is, that, they, have, breakfast, in, bed, in, our, bed, don’t, know, why, but, that, is, what, happens, the, others, all, brought, cards, and, presents, in, the, phone, went, and, it, was, a, lambing, so, tim, decided, he, would, come, and, see, the, lambs, being, born, so, he, was, thrilled, we, opened, the, presents, later, on, which, included, a, new, boiler, suit, which, really, thrilled, him, it, is, amazing, what, kids, think, of, as, their, best, present, i, never, really, like, working, good, friday, i, always, think, one, year, i, will, be, off, and, go, to, one, of, the, contemplative, services, hebron, being, low, church, never, really, does, anything, like, that, which, is, a, real, shame, easter, is, when, i, think, the, cathedrals, old, country, churches, and, the, church, architecture, can, really, be, helpful, in, stopping, and, praying, and, helping, to, consider, what, jesus, did, on, the, cross, finished, work, and, went, up, to, the, friends, they, were, both, home, and, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, played, rounders, and, had, a, barbeque, which, was, really, nice, james, was, in, really, good, form, as, he, was, enjoying, being, back, away, from, london, where, he, has, just, started, work, as, a, high, flying, lawyer, he, is, not, enjoying, london, very, much, he, is, a, hills, and, countryside, lad, his, girlfriend, was, also, there, so, was, quite, a, good, craic, i, didn’t, really, want, to, come, home, but, was, so, knackered, that, it, was, probably, just, as, well, the, kids, were, with, us, and, it, was, not, a, too, late, a, night, saturday, 19th, april, 2004, spent, most, of, the, day, either, catching, up, on, sleep, or, on, the, day, to, day, things, that, seem, to, have, been, put, to, one, side, for, a, while, there, was, also, the, preparations, for, the, service, tomorrow, we, are, taking, the, easter, sunday, morning, service, which, is, one, of, those, night, mare, services, where, everyone, comes, the, age, range, is, from, 0, to, 100, and, everyone, has, different, expectations, i, should, explain, that, the, normal, sunday, services, are, very, different, there, is, the, family, focus, which, is, lively, and, very, informal, aimed, at, those, with, young, children, who, go, to, sunday, school, there, is, then, teaching, for, parents, adults, there, is, always, a, lot, of, noise, children, running, around, babies, crying, and, shakers, and, children’s, songs, the, communion, service, that, follows, is, very, traditional, silence, and, solemnity, rules, all, the, older, generation, go, and, it, is, a, very, different, service, so, we, are, going, to, be, combining, the, two, oil, and, water, a, lot, of, prayer, has, gone, in, to, this, one, sunday, wife, got, up, at, 6, am, to, go, to, the, sunrise, service, at, the, crematorium, she, said, she, needed, some, input, before, the, easter, service, we, are, leading, it, is, a, service, organised, by, st, james, parish, church, but, all, the, carlisle, churches, are, asked, to, take, part, christiana, had, asked, to, go, so, wife, went, with, her, and, it, was, really, good, christ, is, risen, he, is, risen, indeed, the, sermon, was, by, the, archdeacon, from, the, cathedral, who, said, that, being, a, good, anglican, he, wanted, some, liturgy, through, his, sermon, so, every, time, he, said, are, you, dead, the, congregation, had, to, reply, no, alive, in, christ, at, which, point, he, would, sound, a, hooter, the, service, at, hebron, went, very, well, oh, ye, of, little, faith, i, should, pray, more, and, worry, less, i, have, included, our, outline, below, and, i, have, put, in, additional, comments, in, blue, easter, sunday, service, welcome, to, hebron, evangelical, church, this, easter, sunday, morning, when, we, are, celebrating, jesus, is, alive, our, opening, hymn, is, our, declaration, that, jesus, is, alive, he, has, risen, from, the, dead, opening, hymn, we, believe, in, god, the, father, welcome, intro, me, and, welcome, team, this, morning, the, service, is, in, a, different, order, from, usual, we, are, going, to, remember, what, jesus, has, done, for, us, on, the, cross, and, bruce, beattie, one, of, our, elders, is, going, to, help, explain, what, the, bread, and, wine, mean, to, us, as, some, of, the, children, may, not, have, been, here, for, a, communion, service, before, then, after, taking, communion, we, are, going, to, celebrate, jesus, resurrection, with, reading, singing, and, sharing, the, resurrection, is, the, central, part, to, our, faith, who, knows, what, that, long, word, resurrection, means, the, answers, from, the, kids, were, quite, amusing, but, we, got, there, in, the, end, at, the, end, of, the, service, there, will, be, the, offering, an, opportunity, to, give, our, money, as, well, as, ourselves, to, the, living, god, if, during, the, service, the, young, children, get, fed, up, there, is, a, place, at, the, back, where, they, can, do, some, making, things, it, isn’t, easy, to, sit, still, when, you, are, little, or, be, quiet, so, please, don’t, worry, about, the, little, ones, being, a, distraction, i, often, wonder, what, it, was, like, when, jesus, fed, the, 5000plus, crowd, do, you, think, the, children, all, sat, neat, and, quiet, in, rows, i, don’t, think, so, we, are, pleased, to, see, them, and, hear, them, this, is, a, time, of, family, worship, from, the, youngest, to, the, oldest, reading, psalm, 67, i, had, this, up, on, a, power, point, and, we, read, it, together, may, god, be, gracious, to, us, and, bless, us, and, make, his, face, shine, upon, us, that, your, ways, may, be, known, on, earth, your, salvation, among, all, nations, may, the, peoples, praise, you, o, god, may, all, the, peoples, praise, you, may, the, nations, be, glad, and, sing, for, joy, for, you, rule, the, people, justly, and, guide, the, nations, of, the, earth, may, the, peoples, praise, you, o, god, may, all, the, peoples, praise, you, then, the, land, will, yield, its, harvest, and, god, our, god, will, bless, us, god, will, bless, us, and, all, the, ends, of, the, earth, will, fear, him, psalm, 67, prayer, m, as, we, sing, this, next, hymn, it, would, be, good, if, the, children, came, to, sit, at, the, front, so, that, b, can, see, you, all, when, he, talks, to, you, hymn, when, i, survey, the, wondrous, cross, communion, b, b, gave, an, excellent, talk, about, remembering, he, included, a, diary, and, a, kitchen, timer, which, he, set, to, go, of, at, the, carefully, timed, point, in, his, little, bit, he, then, used, smarties, to, go, through, the, easter, story, and, the, different, colours, i, wish, i, had, it, written, down, we, then, had, communion, and, he, had, smarties, for, the, kids, so, that, they, could, remember, about, the, easter, story, while, the, adults, took, communion, and, remembered, christ’s, death, and, resurrection, forgiveness, is, a, wonderful, thing, we, have, just, been, remembering, what, jesus, did, for, us, on, the, cross, he, died, for, us, what, incredible, love, but, thankfully, the, gospel, doesn’t, end, there, son, a, and, cerise, are, going, to, read, on, reading, and, luke, 24, vs, 1, 12, they, did, a, brilliant, dramatic, reading, an, empty, tomb, lets, sing, god’s, not, dead, he, is, alive, sing, it, twice, and, use, the, instruments, at, the, front, to, make, a, joyful, noise, we, want, you, to, have, a, little, taste, of, what, it, was, like, to, be, around, that, day, and, so, let’s, listen, in, to, mary, magdalene, chatting, on, the, phone, to, well, you, listen, and, see, who, she, is, talking, to, wife, did, a, sketch, about, mary, talking, on, the, phone, to, marta, having, met, the, risen, jesus, she, was, very, good, really, gave, the, facts, to, a, contemporary, feel, hymn, led, like, a, lamb, to, the, slaughter, in, the, second, verse, would, children, come, to, help, we, have, verses, to, give, out, to, the, big, people, and, i’d, like, you, to, help, give, them, out, making, sure, all, the, big, people, get, one, for, the, children, who, may, not, be, able, to, read, yet, we, have, some, coloured, stones, to, remind, you, of, a, huge, stone, that, was, rolled, away, when, jesus, rose, from, the, dead, you, can, keep, it, in, your, pocket, or, somewhere, special, to, remind, you, that, jesus, is, alive, and, he, wants, to, be, with, you, where, ever, you, go, a, had, made, up, tiny, scrolls, with, verses, about, the, resurrection, which, the, kids, all, gave, out, it, kept, the, wee, ones, busy, and, also, gave, everyone, a, verse, to, think, about, isn’t, it, wonderful, to, know, that, we, are, singing, he’s, alive, he, has, risen, and, all, over, the, world, the, church, is, singing, the, same, message, in, revelation, we, get, a, little, glimpse, into, what, it, will, be, like, in, heaven, with, a, new, song, being, sung, to, jesus, christ, close, your, eyes, and, listen, to, what, it, says, rev, 5, vs, 9, 11, we, have, the, privilege, in, hebron, of, having, a, few, representatives, of, different, language, people, and, nation, here, this, morning, let, us, listen, to, them, christ, is, risen, in, different, languages, and, prayer, we, then, had, one, family, say, it, in, arabic, another, in, german, there, is, a, philippino, girl, who, said, it, in, her, language, and, some, one, else, in, spanish, it, was, magical, introduce, lord, we, lift, your, name, on, high, sung, at, mizpah, orphanage, with, children, some, of, whom, had, just, heard, the, name, jesus, for, the, first, time, at, christmas, see, picture, we, need, helpers, to, do, the, actions, to, this, song, we, are, thankful, that, jesus, is, alive, and, so, he, speaks, guides, comforts, and, forgives, us, for, all, the, sin, the, mess, we, make, it, is, not, only, the, mary’s, and, the, peters, and, the, thomases, that, have, met, with, the, risen, lord, we, each, have, a, story, to, tell, of, walking, with, the, risen, lord, as, you, listen, to, some, people, here, sharing, a, bit, of, their, story, i, wonder, what, you, would, have, to, share, take, the, opportunity, to, day, to, share, what, god, is, teaching, you, where, he, is, changing, you, don’t, hide, behind, the, weather, or, holidays, share, your, journey, to, encourage, real, fellowship, end, in, prayer, over, top, song, and, offering, this, is, your, opportunity, to, offer, yourself, afresh, to, the, risen, lord, an, old, song, but, a, powerful, one, to, make, this, song, personal, to, you, choose, the, verse, where, you, will, stand, as, a, sign, of, your, offering, to, the, lord, band, will, play, it, through, twice, as, collection, taken, up, and, then, we, sing, it, if, you, want, to, sit, until, last, verse, when, we, sing, take, my, love, then, we, will, all, stand, for, last, verse, take, my, life, this, song, has, lots, of, parts, about, asking, god, to, take, and, use, different, parts, of, our, lives, songs, intellect, strength, money, etc, and, by, asking, people, to, stand, at, the, point, they, wanted, it, really, meant, they, stopped, and, offered, part, of, them, selves, back, to, god, in, response, to, the, resurrection, finish, with, thine, be, the, glory, the, service, went, really, well, people, came, and, said, how, well, it, had, gone, wife, spent, afternoon, packing, and, feeling, washed, out, giving, out, is, tiring, but, the, satisfaction, is, huge, mon, up, early, to, catch, the, boat, to, n, ireland, the, boat, was, not, too, busy, which, was, good, spent, the, boat, ride, filling, in, my, thoughts, on, the, future, of, large, animal, practice, for, the, efracom, enquiry, bought, lord, of, rings, part, 2, the, two, towers, as, i, am, wanting, to, re, read, it, having, seen, the, movie, so, that, is, my, holiday, reading, sorted, out, had, a, chance, when, we, got, there, to, sit, down, with, wife, s, parents, and, talk, through, our, future, which, was, good, as, campbell, usually, disappears, out, but, a, sit, is, a, bank, holiday, he, didn’t, they, were, fairly, up, beat, about, it, which, was, good, so, i, was, pleased, spent, the, evening, with, c, and, the, cousins, which, was, really, good, had, a, barbecue, and, chilled, out, c, was, not, really, surprised, at, the, news, as, agriculture, in, ni, is, going, through, a, bad, time, as, well, it, is, behind, the, uk, and, there, are, a, lot, of, small, uneconomic, family, farms, and, so, a, lot, of, consolidation, is, going, on, and, farmers, selling, up, tuesday, spent, the, morning, playing, squash, with, the, boys, which, w, as, great, fun, spent, the, afternoon, in, the, garden, trying, to, tidy, it, up, went, out, for, dinner, with, our, bridesmaid, who, has, also, just, handed, in, her, notice, or, rather, accepted, a, redundancy, package, it, must, be, catching, it, was, great, to, see, her, and, also, to, be, out, in, belfast, which, is, such, a, cosmopolitan, city, these, days, with, different, languages, cultures, and, nationalities, all, mixing, in, the, downtown, area, a, big, change, weds, went, to, the, new, exhibition, centre, in, the, docks, at, belfast, it, has, a, multiplex, and, a, science, exhibition, as, well, as, shops, and, restaurants, and, so, on, it, was, amazing, the, kids, could, have, spent, all, day, playing, on, the, exhibits, and, it, was, very, well, done, so, that, you, came, away, having, learnt, quite, a, lot, wife, now, believes, i, cannot, do, colours, as, i, am, easily, confused, by, them, there, was, one, exhibit, where, words, in, one, coloured, spelt, the, name, of, another, colour, i.e, the, word, was, spelt, y, e, l, l, o, w, but, it, was, red, in, colour, you, then, had, to, read, the, words, or, say, the, colours, and, i, just, could, not, do, it, my, brain, ended, up, really, confused, bought, flowers, and, stuff, for, the, garden, and, did, the, boxes, for, gran, went, out, to, dinner, at, rp, she, is, a, widow, who, is, wife, s, parents, age, but, is, so, much, fun, she, loves, giving, dinner, parties, and, having, folk, of, all, ages, around, she, gave, me, some, useful, addresses, there, are, lots, of, plans, for, wife, s, parents, golden, wedding, thursday, the, day, of, the, big, photo, shoot, wife, s, brother’s, father, in, law, is, a, photographer, and, while, we, were, all, together, wife, mum, wanted, a, photo, of, all, the, family, together, so, we, spent, an, hour, and, a, half, getting, positioned, and, photographed, 7, kids, and, 7, adults, and, a, very, pernickety, photographer, travel, back, on, the, boat, was, ok, but, came, back, to, find, that, everything, had, fused, and, that, the, phone, was, not, working, so, fixed, the, fuses, which, are, all, trips, thank, goodness, and, got, the, electrics, going, the, phone, could, not, fix, but, did, not, worry, while, we, were, away, there, had, been, a, lightning, strike, on, to, the, phone, line, up, the, road, and, it, had, fried, all, the, cables, one, of, the, neighbours, had, been, in, her, kitchen, and, the, phone, had, exploded, and, jumped, off, the, wall, it, has, left, scorch, marks, down, the, wall, i, am, just, glad, that, there, was, no, one, on, the, phone, at, the, time, the, other, unfortunate, thing, is, that, the, computer, was, attached, and, is, dead, as, a, dodo, friday, back, to, maelstrom, i, was, really, relaxed, going, back, in, to, work, and, it, lasted, for, may, be, half, an, hour, no, one, had, picked, up, on, any, of, my, admin, things, while, i, had, been, away, in, spite, of, asking, people, to, do, so, this, meant, i, had, to, start, and, get, things, organised, for, testing, the, rota, and, nestles, as, well, as, to, try, and, do, some, work, my, in, tray, is, a, mess, but, never, mind, i, also, had, to, complete, the, report, for, efracom, as, the, closing, date, is, today, i, hope, not, by, 5pm, the, report, was, actually, finished, by, 10, 15, and, was, e, mailed, off, i, would, like, to, have, polished, it, a, bit, more, but, the, schedule, today, was, not, conducive, during, the, evening, when, i, was, supposed, to, be, writing, it, i, had, a, casaers, and, a, foal, trying, to, die, at, farm, they, are, not, having, much, luck, as, they, have, had, horrendous, problems, with, restocking, they, are, also, under, tb2, i, enclose, a, copy, of, the, report, to, efracom, the, right, hon, michael, jack, mp, environment, food, and, rural, affairs, chairman, of, the, sub, committee, vets, and, veterinary, services, a, submission, summary, this, is, a, timely, review, of, farm, veterinary, services, i, would, submit, that, the, current, trends, in, veterinary, practice, are, likely, to, accelerate, rapidly, in, response, both, to, present, levels, of, farm, income, and, imminent, changes, in, veterinary, practice, in, this, submission, i, have, briefly, covered, the, following, areas, the, current, provision, of, veterinary, services, and, how, they, are, financed, current, trends, and, their, likely, impact, on, veterinary, services, the, effect, of, the, reduction, in, large, animal, clinicians, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, surveillance, the, feasibility, of, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, the, impact, on, the, svs, the, future, and, possible, outcomes, the, current, provision, of, veterinary, services, and, how, they, are, financed, the, income, for, rural, farm, veterinary, practice, that, provides, the, majority, of, veterinary, services, to, the, agricultural, industry, has, traditionally, come, from, 5, major, areas, clinical, services, examining, and, diagnosing, individual, animals, calvings, lambings, individual, surgery, routine, fertility, dehorning, and, castrating, traditional, on, farm, professional, fee, work, lvi, income, from, defra, maff, in, the, eradication, of, notifiable, disease, tuberculosis, brucellosis, anthrax, etc, many, practices, also, were, involved, with, meat, hygiene, and, inspections, at, abattoirs, the, dispensing, of, pharmaceuticals, the, provision, of, veterinary, advice, on, farm, management, and, welfare, the, majority, of, veterinary, partnerships, are, mixed, practices, a, consideration, must, be, given, to, the, fact, that, small, animal, work, makes, up, a, variable, proportion, of, the, work, and, income, to, veterinary, practice, it, is, my, opinion, that, clinical, farm, animal, practice, the, examining, and, diagnosing, of, individual, animals, is, already, uneconomic, for, both, the, veterinary, surgeon, and, the, farmer, it, is, only, happening, because, of, the, cross, subsidy, of, the, professional, fees, by, other, income, and, because, of, the, good, will, of, most, farmers, to, give, animals, a, chance, as, the, harsh, economics, are, coming, home, to, vets, and, farmers, this, is, rapidly, becoming, with, james, herriot, a, part, of, rural, history, current, trends, and, their, likely, impact, on, veterinary, services, what, are, the, current, trends, within, agriculture, and, veterinary, practice, and, what, effects, will, that, have, both, in, agriculture, and, farm, veterinary, practice, there, are, trends, that, can, be, identified, how, fast, how, far, these, trends, will, go, is, difficult, to, predict, but, my, own, experience, is, that, change, when, it, comes, change, is, often, slow, at, starting, but, then, dramatic, in, its, speed, the, effect, of, decoupling, and, other, eu, decisions, on, agriculture, are, unknown, but, the, current, trends, are, likely, to, continue, in, agriculture, farm, size, has, to, continue, to, grow, as, farms, make, less, and, less, per, animal, they, have, to, spread, costs, over, larger, and, larger, numbers, the, individual, value, of, each, animal, continues, to, drop, in, real, terms, efficiency, and, mechanisation, continues, to, increase, chicken, farms, are, now, routinely, 100,000, animals, plus, since, foot, and, mouth, disease, the, average, dairy, herd, size, has, increased, from, 90, to, 114, an, increase, of, 20, which, talking, to, many, dairy, farmers, is, only, going, to, increase, as, more, herds, are, going, to, be, 300, animals, these, increases, are, usually, with, out, an, increase, in, labour, on, the, farms, this, means, the, care, of, individual, animals, is, likely, to, be, less, important, but, the, care, of, the, overall, heath, of, the, herd, much, more, in, veterinary, practice, the, major, changes, are, likely, to, be, from, the, competition, inquiry, in, to, the, cost, of, pharmaceuticals, the, subsidy, of, professional, fees, by, sales, of, pharmaceuticals, has, been, an, increasing, trend, since, the, late, 60, s, then, professional, fees, were, subsidised, by, the, large, scale, eradication, schemes, by, maff, who, paid, very, good, fees, to, get, the, vets, on, the, farm, and, help, eradicate, the, notifiable, diseases, the, competition, inquiry, is, recommending, that, pharmaceuticals, be, dispensed, by, pharmacies, as, well, and, that, prescriptions, be, provided, free, of, charge, which, private, organisation, is, going, to, provide, a, service, free, of, charge, has, yet, to, be, ascertained, but, the, current, level, of, income, derived, from, pharmaceuticals, is, not, going, to, be, sustained, this, inevitably, means, that, the, cross, subsidy, will, disappear, and, farmers, will, have, to, pay, the, full, cost, of, veterinary, clinical, service, and, it, will, not, be, economic, to, do, so, at, the, same, time, the, costs, of, providing, veterinary, services, continues, to, rise, the, cost, of, veterinary, time, is, continuing, to, rise, students, are, now, graduating, with, debts, of, 15, 20k, because, of, the, loss, of, grants, and, payment, of, tuition, fees, this, means, there, will, need, to, be, a, further, raise, of, 2, 3k, per, annum, to, pay, veterinary, assistants, to, match, the, status, quo, farm, animal, practice, already, pays, assistants, less, than, companion, animal, practices, despite, offering, a, less, favourable, on, call, rota, in, the, short, term, following, fmd, many, practice, principals, worked, additional, on, call, to, make, the, rota, acceptable, to, attract, assistant, vets, where, this, is, viable, in, the, short, term, in, the, long, term, it, is, not, acceptable, as, partners, profit, becomes, commensurate, to, the, salaries, they, have, to, pay, to, veterinary, assistants, they, will, be, aiming, to, increase, charges, for, clinical, work, or, look, to, other, avenues, for, decreasing, costs, increasing, turnover, providing, an, out, of, hours, emergency, cover, is, not, economically, practical, for, vets, except, in, the, big, cities, where, practices, join, together, to, provide, an, emergency, clinic, currently, there, is, an, rcvs, obligation, to, provide, 24hour, cover, but, the, rcvs, is, not, involved, in, the, commercial, pricing, of, services, as, the, value, of, individual, animals, continues, to, drop, in, real, terms, then, the, cost, of, treating, individual, animals, becomes, less, and, less, viable, where, there, is, no, cross, subsidy, for, out, of, hours, work, it, will, become, untenable, as, many, mixed, practices, have, a, dwindling, farm, animal, side, that, is, less, financially, attractive, many, will, decide, to, concentrate, on, the, companion, animal, side, of, the, business, in, a, lot, of, mixed, practices, it, is, a, senior, partner, who, will, do, the, largest, amount, of, the, farm, work, this, means, the, younger, vets, will, not, have, the, case, load, to, become, experienced, and, confident, in, farm, work, there, is, a, cohort, of, practitioners, in, this, situation, heading, towards, retirement, in, the, near, future, will, the, practice, continue, to, be, involved, with, farm, work, as, fewer, practices, become, involved, with, farm, veterinary, services, the, cost, of, travel, to, the, more, distant, farms, has, to, rise, beyond, the, already, accelerated, rate, all, this, means, that, farm, veterinary, practices, will, lose, income, from, clinical, services, and, from, pharmaceutical, sales, they, will, have, to, move, more, towards, the, pig, poultry, model, of, providing, veterinary, advice, and, charging, for, it, vets, have, already, moved, out, of, nutritional, advice, leaving, this, field, to, nutritional, experts, the, reason, for, this, is, that, most, nutritional, advice, is, provided, free, to, the, farmer, by, the, firms, who, then, put, that, cost, into, the, feeds, that, are, sold, to, the, farmers, this, cross, subsidy, of, fees, by, sales, is, apparently, acceptable, where, the, subsidy, of, veterinary, fees, by, pharmaceuticals, is, not, this, model, is, beginning, to, appear, in, other, areas, whereas, vets, provided, most, mastitis, control, the, dairies, who, buy, the, milk, are, now, providing, free, or, subsidised, advice, to, farms, on, cell, counts, and, high, bacterial, counts, including, bacteriology, with, a, variable, back, up, and, quality, of, advice, nmr, and, other, recording, agencies, are, already, offering, fertility, information, on, their, recording, products, and, it, is, a, short, step, to, actually, providing, the, fertility, work, i, believe, that, these, factors, will, contribute, to, a, dramatic, decrease, in, farm, animal, clinicians, in, the, next, 5, years, the, effect, of, the, reduction, in, large, animal, clinicians, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, surveillance, as, the, number, of, clinical, veterinarians, reduces, then, there, will, be, much, less, on, farm, surveillance, this, means, that, outbreaks, of, novel, or, unusual, diseases, is, much, less, likely, to, be, noticed, or, recorded, at, an, early, stage, the, routine, care, for, the, animals, will, be, done, by, stockmen, under, veterinary, guidance, the, guidance, will, probably, be, by, quarterly, or, 6, monthly, or, annual, visits, and, by, herd, health, plans, individual, animals, are, much, more, likely, to, be, treated, ad, hoc, by, the, stockmen, rather, than, by, veterinary, surgeons, the, quality, of, this, treatment, in, some, cases, may, be, adequate, but, in, most, will, be, poor, the, significance, of, symptoms, or, illness, may, not, be, appreciated, diagnosis, and, treatment, seen, as, a, high, cost, and, used, as, a, last, resort, any, outbreak, of, disease, will, be, well, developed, and, losses, occurring, before, veterinary, advice, is, sought, as, herd, sizes, increase, and, labour, decreases, then, the, attention, to, individual, animals, must, reduce, with, a, drop, in, welfare, standards, ill, animals, are, likely, to, be, culled, quicker, as, limited, manpower, becomes, more, important, the, use, of, vets, as, additional, expert, man, power, for, calvings, lambings, will, be, seen, as, too, expensive, the, demands, of, the, system, must, mean, that, high, heath, status, is, important, with, routine, vaccination, and, herd, health, policies, being, put, in, place, defra, seems, to, set, high, regard, to, laboratory, diagnosis, results, as, a, form, of, surveillance, most, of, the, common, problems, are, diagnosed, treated, with, out, the, resort, to, laboratory, aids, fertility, lameness, mastitis, pneumonia, pge, are, rarely, referred, to, the, lab, except, where, treatment, is, not, working, most, samples, are, taken, referred, by, vets, in, practice, fewer, vets, would, mean, fewer, samples, the, lack, of, veterinary, advice, to, ill, pigs, and, ill, sheep, on, farms, at, heddon, on, the, wall, shows, how, the, lack, of, a, clinical, veterinary, service, can, lead, to, in, the, terms, of, delay, and, spread, of, disease, the, local, knowledge, of, the, current, lvi, system, is, an, invaluable, asset, that, is, in, danger, of, being, thrown, away, the, idea, that, a, farm, is, a, box, which, can, be, assigned, a, number, in, page, street, and, dealt, with, as, a, single, entity, is, a, problem, that, has, still, not, been, resolved, the, complexity, of, many, of, the, local, farming, links, through, trade, working, together, machinery, shared, grazing, fell, rights, and, family, ties, cannot, be, reduced, to, a, computer, screen, on, dcs, the, feasibility, of, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, in, my, opinion, they, are, not, i, was, hoping, to, cover, this, more, fully, but, lack, of, time, has, prevented, me, the, impact, on, the, svs, the, impact, on, the, svs, is, likely, to, be, slow, to, be, realised, the, svs, is, not, known, for, its, ability, to, meet, challenges, or, streamline, its, systems, as, the, number, of, vets, involved, in, farm, work, decreases, it, will, have, to, provide, more, of, its, own, resources, to, tackle, tasks, currently, done, by, lvis, the, more, flexible, private, practice, takes, up, the, challenge, of, getting, backlogs, in, testing, done, and, can, respond, to, new, challenges, for, example, the, licensing, brought, in, during, fmd, private, practice, can, fit, the, work, around, other, duties, whereas, if, it, is, going, to, be, done, by, the, svs, it, will, be, more, expensive, to, take, on, vets, to, do, these, tasks, alone, the, svs, was, notoriously, unreliable, in, its, work, allocation, during, fmd, the, record, being, sending, 5, vets, to, the, same, farm, on, the, same, day, has, yet, to, be, beaten, though, i, hope, it, would, be, a, lot, better, in, normal, circumstances, there, are, still, problems, with, the, allocation, system, that, can, only, be, put, right, by, local, knowledge, in, areas, where, there, are, few, farm, animals, there, may, well, not, be, lvis, willing, to, carry, out, the, routine, testing, for, notifiable, disease, who, is, going, to, provide, veterinary, cover, for, these, both, for, clinical, caseload, and, for, the, lvi, work, there, will, not, be, vets, available, to, second, to, defra, for, the, next, fmd, or, exotic, disease, outbreak, the, contingency, plan, confidently, states, that, resources, for, 20, tvis, are, to, be, kept, at, each, centre, in, case, of, an, outbreak, of, notifiable, disease, with, out, addressing, where, these, will, come, from, there, will, not, be, 20, tvi’s, available, at, short, notice, during, march, 2001, the, majority, of, vets, at, the, carlisle, decc, were, lvi’s, the, future, and, possible, outcomes, the, picture, i, have, painted, is, what, in, my, opinion, will, happen, if, the, government, allows, the, situation, to, develop, i, would, hope, that, there, would, be, some, joined, up, government, when, decisions, are, to, be, made, in, response, to, the, competition, inquiry, report, there, are, a, mixture, of, outcomes, that, are, possible, the, numbers, of, vets, in, farm, animal, practice, will, reduce, this, can, be, minimised, by, maintaining, the, cross, subsidy, of, professional, fees, for, providing, clinical, services, either, directly, by, defra, work, in, surveillance, or, other, notifiable, disease, work, and, or, from, pharmaceutical, sales, the, option, of, increasing, fees, is, not, possible, veterinary, services, will, be, provided, by, other, means, e.g, vets, working, for, feed, firms, dairies, manufactures, retailers, to, ensure, a, welfare, surveillance, standard, consultancy, firms, providing, fertility, mastitis, specialised, advice, defra, local, authority, will, have, to, provide, vets, for, notifiable, disease, testing, surveillance, tasks, developing, the, french, model, of, farm, cooperatives, employing, vets, for, their, own, farms, the, pig, poultry, model, of, regular, advisory, visits, but, minimal, involvement, in, the, day, to, day, running, or, with, individual, animals, only, the, first, of, these, provides, for, the, continuation, of, the, successful, lvi, structure, the, other, outcomes, mean, a, loss, of, clinical, veterinary, services, the, loss, of, clinical, services, means, a, drop, in, welfare, standards, and, the, loss, of, on, farm, surveillance, farm, veterinary, services, are, in, a, transitional, time, facing, economic, challenges, changes, in, agriculture, increased, regulation, and, increased, competition, for, the, pharmaceutical, and, services, they, provide, there, will, be, increased, competition, between, practices, as, they, try, to, meet, the, higher, expectations, of, new, veterinary, graduates, starting, their, careers, and, providing, a, cost, effective, service, to, the, rural, community, bvm, s, mrcvs, brief, c, v, currently, a, partner, in, one, of, the, largest, farm, veterinary, practices, in, cumbria, having, spent, 17, years, in, mixed, rural, practice, spent, 6, months, on, secondment, to, maff, at, the, carlisle, decc, during, fmd, sat, 26th, april, 2003, having, worked, last, night, and, done, 2, caesaers, and, a, calving, on, call, on, top, of, a, long, week, i, was, completely, washed, out, did, sat, am, surgery, and, a, call, then, went, home, to, bed, knackered, and, fed, up, and, deciding, i, did, not, want, to, spend, my, life, like, this, sunday, a, busy, day, on, call, but, at, least, the, calls, did, not, stack, up, just, kept, coming, in, ones, and, twos, so, the, stress, levels, were, not, to, bad, but, boyzo, am, i, tired, mon, this, is, the, beginning, of, d’s, last, week, he, has, worked, out, really, well, and, i, hope, that, he, will, be, able, to, work, here, at, the, back, end, to, help, with, the, testing, he, is, easy, going, and, has, a, good, s, african, protestant, work, ethic, always, happy, to, oblige, and, is, good, to, work, with, he, is, a, good, laugh, too, always, teasing, and, playing, silly, jokes, and, has, a, great, sense, of, humour, spent, most, of, the, day, on, catch, up, after, the, week, end, did, some, calls, and, sorted, car, and, drugs, out, and, cleaned, my, kit, the, slippage, of, cleanliness, since, fmd, is, very, noticeable, especially, at, the, w, e’s, but, don’t, tell, defra, went, swimming, at, foxes, well, to, be, honest, sat, in, the, jacuzzi, and, talked, and, then, swam, 2, lengths, i, was, too, tired, to, do, much, really, i, must, start, getting, some, proper, exercise, again, or, my, back, will, suffer, tues, i, am, really, annoyed, at, defra, i, rang, and, asked, what, would, be, needed, to, put, our, vets, on, to, panel, l, which, is, what, is, needed, to, do, the, exports, for, nestle, and, panel, l, can, just, be, added, on, as, it, is, a, simple, export, thing, so, it, would, take, half, an, hour, to, do, it, this, was, last, friday, by, now, it, is, we, have, to, go, for, training, by, svs, it, should, only, take, half, an, hour, to, through, the, forms, why, can, their, yes, not, be, yes, and, their, no, be, no, so, we, have, to, spend, an, afternoon, going, to, carlisle, to, got, through, meaningless, forms, so, that, we, can, fill, in, meaning, less, forms, so, that, nestle, can, get, th, milk, through, customs, i, am, beginning, to, see, why, people, just, smuggle, things, rather, than, get, involved, in, all, this, stupid, bureaucracy, weds, went, on, the, factory, visit, to, nestles, today, to, have, a, look, around, so, that, we, know, the, plant, and, can, give, them, certification, for, the, milk, powder, for, export, the, whole, thing, is, ludicrous, as, dried, milk, powder, is, a, sterile, product, it, has, to, be, or, else, it, goes, off, very, quickly, so, why, we, have, to, certify, that, it, has, been, pasteurised, i, don, not, know, but, hey, its, money, the, size, and, quantity, and, the, huge, amount, of, machinery, and, very, small, number, of, people, required, to, maintain, and, operate, the, plant, was, awesome, we, went, to, the, distribution, warehouse, where, there, was, just, row, upon, row, of, pallets, 3, 7, high, full, of, dried, milk, or, cappuccino, drinks, weird, to, think, mast, of, the, instant, cappuccino, is, made, in, dalston, thursday, went, for, panel, l, training, it, was, as, pointless, as, i, thought, it, would, be, took, the, opportunity, to, go, through, with, defra, admin, staff, some, of, the, queries, and, problems, at, the, moment, we, do, a, lot, of, stuff, for, defra, telling, them, who, has, stock, and, who, does, not, have, stock, to, ensure, their, database, is, relatively, up, to, date, but, it, is, a, headache, as, they, are, working, off, computer, screens, hence, mrs, f, r, of, a, farm, does, not, correlate, at, all, with, mr, e, r, of, the, same, address, the, computer, is, not, into, relationships, so, that, they, are, married, and, live, together, and, own, stock, on, the, same, piece, of, ground, does, not, really, get, off, the, ground, this, evening, was, the, final, partners, meeting, where, i, handed, in, my, notice, the, reasons, for, handing, in, my, notice, are, complex, most, decisions, probably, are, there, are, lots, of, factors, some, trivial, to, the, outsider, but, important, to, me, others, may, be, important, to, others, and, similarly, not, to, me, several, people, have, asked, is, it, a, reaction, to, fmd, the, last, casualty, in, some, ways, it, is, for, all, the, horrendous, experiences, for, all, the, long, hours, and, difficult, ethical, and, to, whom, am, i, responsible, dilemmas, it, taught, me, a, lot, about, myself, to, see, fear, in, the, eyes, of, senior, management, when, challenged, to, be, able, to, organise, a, protest, meeting, of, thirty, vets, with, jim, scudamore, to, do, the, tv, interviews, o, see, the, effect, of, feeding, information, to, journalists, to, be, able, to, break, through, by, fast, talking, and, relying, on, my, wits, to, organise, completely, new, systems, and, manage, projects, that, had, never, been, done, before, to, build, teams, from, international, backgrounds, in, the, face, of, opposition, from, the, hierarchy, to, be, constantly, caught, on, a, tight, rope, between, the, different, groupings, i, learnt, that, i, have, huge, abilities, and, to, go, back, to, normality, is, difficult, the, future, of, farm, animal, practice, is, also, very, unpredictable, there, are, a, lot, of, farms, who, are, yet, to, restock, the, cross, subsidy, of, fees, by, drug, sales, is, going, to, end, and, more, and, more, work, will, be, on, behalf, or, paid, for, by, defra, they, are, at, the, whims, of, the, politicians, and, the, treasury, they, are, also, not, the, easiest, client, to, deal, with, there, is, also, the, problem, of, being, second, in, command, and, dealing, with, the, frustrations, of, the, partnership, we, are, not, united, in, the, way, we, work, or, where, we, see, the, practice, going, this, means, my, schemes, for, diversification, for, improving, income, streams, and, managing, the, bad, debt, will, either, not, happen, or, will, become, part, of, my, workload, which, is, already, over, stretched, add, in, to, this, cock, tail, the, fact, my, wife, is, starting, to, work, and, i, have, been, given, a, really, bad, scare, by, being, tackled, by, a, cow, the, question, is, do, i, want, to, do, this, job, for, the, next, 20, years, the, answer, has, to, be, no, so, the, only, answer, is, to, hand, in, my, resignation, and, start, to, look, for, something, new, as, i, have, a, 6, month, notice, period, ending, on, an, accounting, date, i, have, to, jump, before, i, have, another, job, sorted, out, even, so, the, decision, was, very, hard, and, i, was, really, choked, up, when, i, left, them, to, discuss, the, future, i, could, not, go, home, as, the, kids, would, want, to, know, what, was, going, on, so, i, went, to, js, he, already, knew, i, will, tell, the, kids, on, friday, the, practice, manager, on, monday, and, work, on, tuesday, i, have, said, very, little, of, my, thoughts, in, the, diary, as, i, have, learnt, there, are, somethings, better, left, unwritten, until, the, time, for, the, information, to, be, public, whatever, issues, are, to, do, with, confidentiality, if, you, don’t, think, something, can, be, talked, about, then, do, not, write, it, down, as, you, never, know, who, is, going, to, read, it, a, though, got, her, self, in, to, a, stew, as, i, rang, wife, to, say, i, was, going, to, js, she, then, said, she, would, come, out, she, left, a, bit, too, hurriedly, for, a, who, then, got, it, into, her, head, that, we, had, gone, away, on, holiday, with, out, telling, them, friday, the, whole, day, was, unreal, i, knew, i, was, going, but, no, one, else, does, told, the, kids, at, tea, time, and, i, was, shocked, by, how, upset, they, were, it, has, come, as, a, shock, to, them, tim, especially, loves, coming, out, and, about, around, the, farms, with, me, there, is, also, no, what, i, am, going, to, so, it, is, just, uncertainty, on, 2nd, call, sat, 3rd, may, 2003, work, then, wash, out, i, was, on, second, last, night, and, had, 2, caesars, and, a, calving, what, the, second, caesar, was, at, 4am, so, i, felt, dreadful, all, day, young, vet, had, started, operating, and, got, stuck, so, i, went, to, the, rescue, the, cow, had, horrendous, adhesions, so, nothing, could, be, moved, around, we, spent, an, hour, and, a, half, trying, to, pull, the, calf, out, and, then, stitching, up, the, uterus, in, the, cow, i, felt, i, needed, diving, gear, on, as, i, had, both, arms, in, to, their, full, length, with, vet, beside, me, trying, to, stitch, by, feel, my, arms, were, exhausted, by, the, end, of, it, i, was, like, death, warmed, up, all, day, but, feel, i, have, definitely, made, the, right, decision, sunday, after, a, good, nights, sleep, feeling, better, my, mother, always, use, to, say, that, the, world, looks, very, different, after, a, good, nights, sleep, and, a, cooked, breakfast, i, do, not, need, a, cooked, breakfast, my, stress, levels, have, been, that, high, that, i, have, been, eating, far, too, much, i, am, going, to, go, on, a, diet, the, usual, promise, to, myself, my, weight, is, going, up, fast, so, i, will, have, to, cut, down, and, start, to, exercise, a, lot, more, went, to, see, the, practice, manager, to, tell, him, that, i, have, handed, in, my, notice, i, have, decided, to, see, him, on, his, own, so, that, he, has, a, chance, to, process, it, before, work, on, tuesday, he, is, overweight, and, stressed, and, that, type, to, have, a, heart, attack, so, treat, him, gently, he, is, also, a, good, friend, so, i, should, give, him, some, warning, so, i, spent, an, hour, chatting, it, through, and, talking, which, is, a, good, a, way, as, any, of, spending, a, sunday, afternoon, mon, bank, holiday, another, bank, holiday, working, but, at, least, it, is, fairly, quiet, so, spent, most, of, the, day, working, in, the, garden, the, kids, were, away, in, the, morning, doing, various, things, and, then, met, up, for, lunch, with, friends, which, was, really, nice, they, had, been, down, to, visit, family, in, the, lake, district, they, had, hired, a, couple, of, cottages, for, the, w, e, and, all, met, up, they, are, really, amazing, people, they, are, both, doctors, and, i, went, out, to, visit, them, in, thailand, which, was, brilliant, fun, he, was, working, with, leprosy, and, aids, cases, they, have, come, home, and, are, sharing, a, gp’s, job, between, them, she, is, also, doing, a, diploma, in, diabetes, they, are, also, doing, deputation, work, to, raise, money, for, the, work, of, omf, in, thailand, and, asia, they, have, 4, kids, and, it, was, really, nice, to, see, them, all, again, the, kids, are, similar, ages, i, really, felt, for, them, because, they, have, gone, from, home, schooling, to, schools, in, edinburgh, in, the, big, city, so, they, have, the, double, culture, shock, of, coming, to, the, uk, and, being, schooled, in, a, complete, different, way, they, are, also, very, bright, kids, and, having, had, individual, attention, from, a, very, focussed, mother, they, are, miles, ahead, of, the, rest, of, their, classes, yet, they, do, not, have, the, social, skills, to, adapt, to, the, rough, and, tumble, of, life, in, a, city, comprehensive, mobile, phones, are, not, a, must, have, item, in, rural, thailand, good, to, see, them, all, tuesday, today, i, announced, the, fact, i, was, leaving, to, those, at, work, i, had, thought, about, how, i, should, do, it, and, what, i, was, to, say, it, is, quite, difficult, both, from, an, emotional, point, of, view, and, from, the, fact, that, i, think, that, the, business, in, the, longer, term, will, have, problems, this, has, both, a, direct, relevance, for, the, lay, staff, and, their, jobs, though, there, will, still, be, a, similar, number, needed, as, their, workload, is, likely, to, remain, the, same, and, also, for, the, vets, two, of, whom, may, or, may, not, be, approached, to, buy, into, the, business, there, will, also, in, the, longer, term, be, a, smaller, number, of, vets, needed, but, this, will, probably, be, managed, by, natural, wastage, i, spoke, first, to, the, senior, assistants, and, then, lay, staff, it, was, hard, as, i, have, been, there, for, as, long, as, many, of, them, 15, years, which, is, a, long, time, i, think, also, there, is, an, attitude, that, the, ups, and, downs, seem, to, be, past, for, them, there, was, a, lot, of, upheaval, over, the, move, from, b, v, up, to, s, park, fmd, is, over, and, things, are, suppose, to, be, getting, back, on, to, an, even, keel, and, i, throw, a, spanner, in, the, works, weds, spent, the, evening, phoning, friends, and, relatives, to, let, them, know, that, i, had, handed, in, my, notice, and, sending, off, for, job, details, on, two, jobs, and, applying, for, another, i, am, not, sure, what, i, am, looking, for, so, at, the, moment, i, am, just, sending, off, for, anything, that, seems, interesting, and, waiting, and, seeing, it, seems, an, unreal, situation, in, so, many, ways, i, also, had, to, phone, the, bank, manager, both, to, arrange, our, annual, visit, and, to, tell, him, that, i, was, leaving, again, getting, the, balance, between, moving, on, and, being, positive, with, out, pointing, out, the, dangers, in, the, future, of, large, animal, practice, was, a, difficult, balance, after, the, initial, shock, all, power, to, him, as, a, salesman, banker, he, then, asked, whether, i, would, be, needing, any, banking, requirements, so, at, least, if, i, do, start, up, an, independent, vet, small, business, consultancy, i, will, have, a, bank, account, to, run, it, from, thursday, a, quit, day, as, no, testing, so, tackled, some, of, the, back, log, in, admin, spent, a, lot, of, time, setting, up, the, systems, and, know, how, folder, for, nestle, we, have, taken, over, the, work, for, doing, the, lvi, work, for, the, nestle, factory, at, dalston, as, they, have, fallen, out, with, the, previous, practice, when, we, took, it, on, i, assumed, it, would, be, the, odd, bit, of, work, but, in, fact, it, is, a, huge, amount, of, work, so, it, is, going, to, take, some, sorting, out, i, also, feel, a, bit, off, as, i, have, handed, in, my, notice, and, yet, i, am, setting, all, this, up, and, i, ma, not, going, to, benefit, from, it, at, all, i, suppose, it, comes, back, to, wanting, to, do, what, is, right, and, that, we, should, serve, god, and, not, man, it, is, always, a, useful, measuring, stick, to, use, to, work, out, motivations, and, what, should, be, done, in, a, situation, who, am, i, trying, to, do, this, for, me, the, practice, the, client, or, am, i, doing, what, jesus, would, do, friday, another, bad, hair, day, had, real, problems, trying, to, fit, the, extra, work, into, the, day, and, so, got, a, bit, frayed, around, the, edges, fortunately, next, week, will, probably, be, the, last, thank, goodness, the, practice, that, used, to, do, the, nestle, work, was, on, the, phone, to, me, and, not, very, friendly, hey, ho, went, out, for, a, meal, with, friends, which, was, great, they, are, the, church, youth, leaders, and, are, really, switched, on, but, i, think, need, more, support, and, help, hopefully, once, the, 1st, of, october, hits, i, will, be, able, to, get, more, involved, went, to, the, royal, oak, at, welton, which, just, has, been, re, done, and, is, serving, food, on, a, proper, basis, as, well, as, having, a, pub, part, more, like, a, restaurant, wife, s, food, was, excellent, mine, was, ok, i, had, an, indian, trio, of, samosa, and, 2, bharji, to, start, with, i, am, afraid, i, have, been, spoilt, by, real, indian, food, so, i, should, not, have, bothered, going, for, it, in, a, cumbrian, pub, saturday, may, 10th, saturday, may, 10th, a, day, off, after, too, many, days, working, and, too, much, stress, it, was, really, nice, just, to, be, around, home, doing, the, garden, and, not, really, worrying, what, else, is, going, on, in, the, world, i, needed, some, space, and, i, am, pleased, to, have, got, it, at, long, last, it, is, amazing, how, much, better, the, world, looks, after, a, good, nights, sleep, and, a, some, time, off, in, the, afternoon, the, c, boys, came, around, and, we, took, them, to, see, new, chicks, s, was, there, and, i, did, not, want, to, go, down, the, route, of, explaining, why, i, had, made, the, decision, i, had, to, leave, so, chickened, out, of, telling, her, i, suppose, i, am, happy, with, it, and, i, just, want, to, forget, about, for, the, w, e, so, we, arrived, with, 7, boys, which, is, quite, brave, fortunately, we, could, not, stay, long, as, we, had, to, be, back, to, go, out, to, gianni’s, with, d, he, took, us, out, and, it, was, really, good, fun, the, kids, were, all, in, good, form, came, back, and, watched, the, first, part, of, a, dvd, on, john, grisham’s, book, the, client, he, is, an, excellent, writer, and, although, film, can, never, develop, the, characters, the, same, as, a, book, so, the, film, was, good, but, only, ok, sunday, 11th, church, was, good, this, morning, and, it, was, good, to, be, there, and, spent, ages, chatting, to, folk, but, came, back, to, lunch, with, a, couple, who, stayed, too, long, there, are, some, people, i, find, really, draining, and, she, is, one, it, is, awful, but, i, get, really, wound, up, and, just, want, them, to, go, after, about, 30, minutes, they, came, for, lunch, and, did, not, leave, until, after, tea, so, i, was, almost, going, spare, monday, 12th, i, find, the, silence, around, the, fact, i, am, going, a, bit, unnerving, it, is, a, bit, elephant, and, coffee, table, really, a, lot, of, the, farmers, i, suppose, don’t, yet, know, or, if, they, do, how, to, respond, today’s, frustrations, are, all, with, things, not, working, bt, have, sent, me, a, bill, for, 115, for, fixing, the, line, that, was, struck, by, lightening, i, was, put, through, three, depts, before, i, gave, up, i, may, try, just, not, paying, and, see, if, they, can, register, the, fact, the, bill, is, being, disputed, the, other, frustration, is, the, car, doors, have, gone, again, in, wife, s, car, which, is, incredibly, frustrating, they, have, been, fixed, and, fixed, and, fixed, although, it, is, under, warranty, i, am, getting, to, the, stage, that, i, feel, we, are, being, fobbed, off, tues, 13th, i, went, to, hear, mg, from, the, licc, london, institute, of, contemporary, christianity, speak, at, the, living, word, this, is, a, series, that, happens, every, spring, and, is, organised, by, a, group, of, ministers, and, folk, from, carlisle, he, is, a, very, interesting, speaker, he, is, an, ex, ad, man, and, his, whole, message, is, to, get, the, church, to, look, out, side, of, it, self, he, thinks, that, christianity, in, the, west, has, become, a, leisure, time, activity, and, is, not, impacting, the, rest, of, peoples, lives, there, is, a, concept, of, the, sacred, secular, divide, the, church, does, not, get, involved, in, secular, things, work, culture, the, arts, sport, and, in, some, ways, philosophy, too, whereas, there, should, be, no, divide, christ, is, either, lord, of, all, or, not, at, all, he, also, is, a, very, amusing, speaker, he, was, talking, about, how, technology, is, usually, neutral, but, how, it, is, used, has, very, far, reaching, effects, on, family, work, and, society, he, used, the, microwave, as, an, example, with, a, very, amusing, story, about, how, he, managed, to, save, the, sleep, of, the, whole, of, north, london, by, using, the, new, fangled, microwave, to, heat, his, daughter’s, midnight, bottle, thereby, saving, the, chancellor, huge, sums, in, lost, revenue, with, typical, jewish, hyperbole, he, then, moved, on, to, his, kids, now, teenagers, not, coming, in, for, the, meal, he, has, prepared, but, reheating, it, in, the, microwave, and, how, that, led, to, a, lack, of, communication, and, again, hyperbole, to, his, angst, about, not, understanding, the, younger, generation, as, this, is, a, diary, about, fmd, how, do, i, relate, this, to, my, experience, of, fmd, on, the, simple, level, the, culture, within, defra, needs, to, change, servant, hood, whether, by, civil, servants, or, politicians, has, been, forgotten, truth, will, out, spin, will, fall, computers, should, be, a, tool, of, all, and, master, of, none, organisations, need, to, have, a, human, face, for, people, to, relate, to, whether, it, is, the, brigadier, or, the, cvo, people, are, individuals, created, by, god, and, have, feelings, and, are, not, numbers, or, statistics, the, post, modernist, human, secularism, where, truth, is, relative, where, brown, can, announce, that, everything, is, under, control, can, mislead, parliament, and, people, and, it, is, acceptable, i, actually, strongly, feel, that, the, current, presidential, style, of, where, no, one, can, make, a, decision, with, out, refer, to, their, boss, is, a, poor, model, pain, disaster, illness, and, trouble, are, part, of, the, human, condition, part, of, the, fall, of, evil, in, the, world, enough, philosophy, its, time, for, bed, monday, 17th, may, this, was, the, big, golden, wedding, anniversary, day, it, was, wife, s, parents, golden, wedding, and, her, brothers, and, family, all, came, to, stay, for, the, w, e, the, celebration, meal, was, at, lyzzick, hall, in, keswick, the, big, surprise, for, wife, s, mum, was, that, her, bridesmaid, and, husband, were, coming, over, from, canada, j, picked, them, up, from, the, airport, and, took, them, to, a, b, b, other, friends, were, also, coming, as, a, surprise, rp, started, the, surprises, by, coming, in, dressed, as, a, waitress, she, came, in, and, offered, wife, s, mum, a, drink, and, she, was, really, overcome, the, other, surprises, of, bridesmaid, and, canadians, was, really, nice, to, see, the, younger, parts, of, the, clan, went, off, to, the, climbing, wall, while, the, older, part, went, for, a, look, at, the, lake, in, the, rain, it, was, a, really, nice, day, ended, by, a, firework, display, thanks, to, c, as, he, grew, up, in, belfast, during, the, troubles, and, fireworks, were, banned, he, has, a, real, passion, for, them, now, as, a, big, kid, sunday, went, to, church, with, everyone, a, very, mixed, group, but, they, coped, p, spoke, in, the, morning, meeting, he, was, very, good, he, is, a, publisher, and, was, talking, about, the, church, in, china, as, he, has, just, helped, to, publish, a, book, about, some, of, the, christian, house, church, it, makes, the, materialistic, church, in, the, west, look, very, weak, and, un, spiritual, in, the, evening, mm, spoke, on, the, christian, at, work, which, was, very, good, and, very, funny, he, was, a, bed, sales, man, when, he, was, a, student, and, he, was, very, funny, about, how, he, made, shy, engaged, couples, lie, down, and, try, the, beds, this, really, tickled, other, son, age, 8, much, to, his, gran’s, tut, tutting, the, point, he, was, making, in, between, the, jokes, was, that, he, had, been, told, that, he, was, to, say, that, the, bed, s, would, all, be, delivered, in, 3, 4, weeks, when, in, fact, it, could, be, up, to, 6, weeks, but, the, shop, keeper, thought, this, would, put, people, off, this, meant, that, mm, ended, up, in, bother, with, couples, arriving, back, from, their, honey, moon, to, no, bed, so, he, decided, to, listen, to, god’s, way, and, tell, the, truth, which, he, said, like, most, biblical, teaching, is, obvious, once, it, is, explained, and, tell, people, the, truth, not, what, they, want, to, hear, mon, went, and, read, the, tb, test, for, the, tenant, farmer, there, was, 1, i, r, the, reaction, of, the, farmer, took, me, back, fairly, badly, and, i, was, quite, shocked, at, the, sheer, vehemence, of, his, reaction, fortunately, it, was, mostly, at, defra, he, went, out, early, on, to, the, disease, and, he, therefore, got, much, lower, compensation, than, a, lot, of, the, later, ones, he, had, some, cattle, wintering, at, his, farm, for, some, one, else, who, went, out, later, on, with, fmd, at, his, home, holding, the, difference, in, the, valuations, for, the, same, type, of, cattle, was, horrendous, he, also, has, buildings, that, he, owns, on, a, small, parcel, of, land, the, buildings, were, old, and, knackered, but, usable, a, lot, of, string, and, gates, defra, pulled, them, to, pieces, during, fmd, and, then, offered, him, peanuts, o, reinstate, them, which, meant, he, could, not, get, them, back, into, a, usable, state, so, he, is, not, a, happy, bunny, spent, the, afternoon, castrating, horses, which, is, not, my, favourite, job, if, a, stirk, kicks, you, it, hurts, if, a, horse, kicks, you, it, usually, means, a, trip, in, an, ambulance, you, are, therefore, very, tense, and, ready, to, move, in, awkward, positions, canadians, and, wife, s, parents, headed, off, for, a, trip, around, the, borders, in, our, people, carrier, they, are, coming, back, to, swap, over, cars, at, the, end, of, the, week, wife, has, the, tank, to, run, around, in, for, the, week, tuesday, my, back, is, twinging, from, the, castrating, and, a, calving, yesterday, and, is, really, sore, so, did, paperwork, while, sitting, like, a, ramrod, until, i, gave, up, and, came, back, to, lie, down, did, the, back, exercises, hourly, but, it, just, got, stiffer, and, sorer, weds, spent, morning, reading, in, bed, and, doing, back, exercises, but, cannot, get, it, moving, went, to, see, the, accountant, in, the, afternoon, to, sort, out, the, practicalities, of, going, freelance, and, finishing, at, the, vets, thursday, back, is, a, lot, better, and, starting, to, move, much, more, freely, the, first, negative, comment, on, me, leaving, today, came, from, a, farmer, who, has, decided, that, the, only, way, to, make, money, is, to, go, for, 300, cows, he, has, therefore, planned, all, this, designed, new, parlours, been, to, look, at, other, large, herds, thought, it, all, through, unfortunately, his, costings, are, on, buying, in, dairy, cows, at, 6, 700, per, head, and, just, recently, they, have, gone, to, over, a, thousand, which, means, he, is, out, by, 60k, oops, but, he, said, that, he, thought, i, was, deserting, them, in, a, way, i, suppose, i, am, back, in, to, being, on, call, with, a, vengeance, a, calving, a, caesar, a, prolapsed, uterus, hey, ho, friday, interesting, statistic, on, the, radio, whether, it, is, right, or, wrong, i, do, not, know, in, the, eu, the, average, beef, cow, is, subsidised, to, the, tune, of, 2, per, week, the, average, african, earns, less, than, that, the, canadians, and, wife, s, parents, arrived, back, from, their, trip, around, the, borders, the, good, news, is, they, baby, sat, or, teenage, and, child, minded, while, we, went, out, to, the, lemon, lounge, the, bad, news, is, they, are, to, feed, and, look, after, over, the, w, e, my, brother, and, family, arrive, tomorrow, so, it, will, be, a, bit, crowded, it, was, really, nice, to, be, out, on, our, own, with, relative, peace, around, us, the, noise, from, an, office, party, does, not, impinge, as, it, is, nothing, to, do, with, us, saturday, 31st, may, 2003, a, gardening, day, we, decided, that, we, would, have, to, get, the, place, sorted, out, so, spent, most, of, the, day, in, the, sunshine, pulling, weeds, and, sorting, out, the, garden, it, was, a, beautiful, day, my, back, was, pretty, sore, by, the, end, of, the, day, but, we, got, it, nearly, all, sorted, which, was, good, the, boys, cut, the, lawn, and, a, sat, on, it, and, read, her, book, another, bbq, by, the, end, of, the, day, a, made, the, salads, while, the, boys, cooked, so, it, was, a, family, meal, wife, and, the, older, two, headed, for, tesco’s, while, i, cleared, the, debris, away, sunday, june, 1st, the, sun, is, still, flaming, but, the, seeds, and, seedlings, are, looking, a, bit, sad, and, whithered, in, spite, of, the, watering, i, have, really, enjoyed, the, week, off, but, there, has, been, very, little, on, fmd, met, up, with, friends, at, church, home, visiting, parents, in, the, evening, caught, up, with, the, as, he, is, an, indian, gastro, enterologist, who, worked, at, carlisle, they, now, work, in, bombay, so, it, was, good, to, see, them, they, are, hoping, to, set, up, an, aids, hospice, there, are, currently, over, a, million, people, who, are, hiv, ve, in, bombay, monday, back, to, work, and, quite, busy, so, it, looks, as, if, the, june, quiet, period, is, not, going, to, materialise, with, folk, on, holiday, it, makes, it, seem, busier, any, way, it, took, me, until, 4pm, to, get, to, my, in, tray, which, after, a, week, was, overflowing, as, usual, tuesday, this, is, more, like, june, long, lunch, and, spent, the, morning, trying, to, get, the, accountancy, package, up, to, date, sent, off, another, speculative, e, mail, job, application, a, friend, from, church, who, is, now, studying, physio, therapy, at, glasgow, came, and, insisted, wife, i, went, out, for, a, walk, together, which, was, really, nice, he, is, a, really, nice, young, guy, went, to, beach, at, beckfoot, where, we, were, the, only, ones, walking, the, beach, there, was, one, serious, kiter, i, have, not, seen, such, a, serious, kite, for, a, long, time, it, was, fairly, windy, and, he, had, it, anchored, behind, him, so, as, not, to, be, taking, off, with, it, weds, spent, the, morning, doing, fertilities, and, then, spent, time, sorting, out, issues, with, george, there, was, so, little, work, it, is, boring, for, the, assistants, the, june, quiet, patch, ahs, arrived, the, bills, did, not, go, due, to, a, computer, upgrade, cocking, the, system, up, the, systems, are, now, so, complex, they, are, beyond, any, reasonable, way, of, keeping, tabs, you, have, to, trust, the, experts, who, you, don’t, thursday, day, off, spent, it, writing, out, a, business, proposal, to, try, and, get, work, via, a, consultancy, firm, then, tried, fixing, the, extractor, fan, and, failed, thursby, football, club, is, going, really, well, with, some, more, lads, coming, along, the, standard, is, variable, but, good, fun, friday, tb, testing, again, at, fs, they, had, just, heard, about, me, leaving, and, were, full, of, questions, the, night, was, really, busy, on, first, call, and, had, lots, going, on, wife, was, at, a, retreat, thinking, through, the, future, and, reporting, on, the, last, year, so, i, was, trying, to, juggle, kids, as, well, saturday, 7th, june, 2003, last, night, was, terrible, with, a, dog, to, see, in, the, middle, of, the, night, and, put, down, it, was, only, a, young, dog, but, it, had, leukaemia, and, was, not, responding, to, treatment, it, had, colic, probably, from, the, mesenteric, lymph, nodes, and, was, rolling, around, in, pain, not, nice, for, them, or, me, sat, am, was, busy, too, went, to, one, of, the, organic, farms, to, see, an, ill, cow, post, calving, he, was, saying, that, there, are, three, farmers, all, none, fmd, giving, up, milking, one, is, another, organic, dairy, farm, he, was, promised, a, premium, of, 10p, per, litre, and, his, costings, were, based, on, 28p, per, litre, he, is, getting, a, premium, of, less, than, 0.5p, per, litre, which, takes, it, to, 16p, the, figures, do, not, add, up, so, he, is, giving, up, the, other, 2, are, small, farms, who, cannot, make, it, work, 40, 50, cows, slept, in, the, afternoon, and, went, to, a, party, in, the, evening, bizarrely, as, we, were, walking, in, the, people, whose, dog, i, put, to, sleep, last, night, walked, in, as, well, they, live, next, door, and, had, been, invited, as, well, weird, spent, time, chatting, but, came, to, 10, and, i, was, dead, on, my, feet, sunday, 8th, the, on, call, changes, from, 2nd, back, up, to, 1st, at, 8, 30, am, the, phone, started, at, 8, 35, urghhh, i, am, finding, it, very, hard, to, have, any, enthusiasm, knowing, that, i, ma, leaving, in, a, few, months, one, of, the, farms, i, was, on, has, given, up, dairy, and, were, hoping, to, retire, fmd, year, but, lost, money, because, of, all, the, restrictions, so, they, are, now, hoping, to, finish, this, back, end, may, be, they, were, hoping, to, keep, the, milk, quota, and, lease, it, out, as, a, pension, but, because, of, the, new, rules, they, will, have, to, sell, it, and, the, price, is, low, as, there, are, a, lot, of, non, producers, who, are, in, the, same, boat, it, was, at, its, height, worth, 1, per, litre, a, lot, was, bought, and, sold, in, the, 40, 60p, per, litre, it, is, now, around, the, 10p, mark, funny, world, agriculture, monday, 9th, calving, at, 5am, followed, by, other, calls, so, an, early, start, busy, day, at, work, went, to, a, meeting, for, the, new, crusaders, support, worker, it, is, supposed, to, be, county, wide, but, is, going, to, be, based, around, kendal, as, that, is, where, the, legacy, that, is, providing, a, lot, of, the, money, is, based, so, it, is, less, relevant, tot, this, end, of, cumbria, so, i, have, backed, out, of, the, organisation, committee, as, most, of, the, meetings, will, be, at, rydal, too, far, for, me, we, were, there, tonight, so, did, not, get, back, until, 11, 30, which, after, a, w, e, on, call, is, too, late, for, this, bunny, tuesday, 10th, spent, 45, mins, on, the, phone, trying, to, work, out, what, i, am, going, to, be, doing, in, oct, with, a, guy, from, pfizer, i, then, had, to, spend, the, rest, of, the, evening, sorting, out, the, emails, i, needed, to, send, to, him, weds, 11th, spent, the, morning, having, nursery, visits, where, the, local, infants, schools, come, around, the, vets, and, i, give, my, wee, guided, tour, it, is, quite, fun, and, the, little, things, that, we, do, they, really, love, blowing, up, the, anaesthetic, bag, the, x, ray, quiz, and, listening, to, dog’s, hearts, i, always, take, some, of, son, s, chickens, in, as, well, as, most, kids, are, not, use, to, having, birds, or, handling, them, son, has, spent, so, many, hours, carrying, them, around, they, are, fairly, tame, and, used, to, being, picked, up, i, don’t, know, that, effort, pays, back, in, commercial, terms, but, it, is, fun, football, training, in, the, evening, with, 20, lads, which, was, brilliant, thursday, 12th, on, call, and, exhausted, after, the, excitement, of, the, week, the, phone, went, at, 7pm, from, the, answering, service, to, say, that, a, women, had, rung, and, asked, for, the, pass, word, for, the, alarm, this, of, course, meant, nothing, to, those, answering, the, phone, i, however, put, 2, 2, together, to, work, out, that, the, alarm, at, the, practice, and, gone, off, and, that, the, police, would, be, on, their, way, why, does, this, always, happen, when, you, are, in, the, bath, so, i, jumped, out, the, bath, and, rushed, down, to, find, out, what, was, going, on, there, was, a, police, man, there, who, was, waiting, for, me, to, lead, the, way, in, we, found, a, very, scared, dog, sitting, in, the, prep, room, having, escaped, from, its, kennel, it, then, took, an, hour, to, get, the, alarms, reset, life, is, a, rich, tapestry, friday, 13th, went, to, lawyers, today, to, meet, up, to, go, through, the, dissolution, of, the, partnership, bit, sad, in, a, way, but, another, nail, bashed, in, to, my, leaving, coffin, finished, work, and, spent, evening, playing, football, and, doing, some, coaching, which, was, good, fun, son, was, off, school, today, he, was, full, of, cold, and, just, exhausted, he, just, needed, time, out, really, he, goes, at, everything, at, 110, saturday, 14th, june, 2003, working, am, why, is, it, even, if, you, have, a, few, quiet, days, in, the, week, by, the, time, the, w, e, comes, it, is, busy, again, really, warm, so, sunshine, and, gardening, a, had, decided, she, was, going, to, do, a, changing, rooms, on, the, double, room, in, the, cottage, so, she, and, a, friend, worked, away, all, day, at, it, i, was, very, impressed, by, the, time, we, had, finished, our, barbeque, in, the, evening, it, was, all, back, to, ship, shape, and, was, finished, she, is, some, pup, sunday, went, down, to, whitehaven, to, see, the, tall, ships, in, the, harbour, there, was, only, one, there, which, was, disappointing, but, it, was, good, to, look, around, there, was, a, fair, buzz, about, the, place, and, heaving, with, people, as, the, weather, was, great, there, was, a, display, of, jet, ski’s, which, was, fun, to, watch, so, the, boys, are, now, on, at, me, to, try, and, have, a, go, the, red, arrows, were, brilliant, they, have, a, tremendous, display, and, the, coloured, streams, they, leave, behind, in, the, sky, always, amaze, me, it, is, almost, like, they, are, writing, in, the, sky, monday, finally, decided, the, duck, eggs, were, not, going, to, hatch, so, broke, them, open, to, see, if, they, were, fertile, 1, exploded, it, was, so, rotten, urghh, only, one, had, a, half, formed, egg, in, it, so, i, think, the, eggs, were, the, problem, not, the, incubation, tuesday, testing, some, more, i, r’s, for, tb, though, the, history, is, wrong, so, i, hope, that, they, will, clear, a, new, vet, student, turned, up, in, the, afternoon, she, is, staying, with, us, until, the, w, e, then, with, colleague, the, vets, is, going, to, have, to, find, new, accommodation, for, students, went, to, the, training, evening, for, the, soccer, coaching, it, was, a, form, filling, exercise, and, orientation, so, it, was, boring, but, i, am, on, the, course, which, is, good, at, least, i, well, have, the, piece, of, paper, at, the, end, of, it, weds, footie, training, at, night, only, the, hard, core, turned, up, so, looks, like, we, will, have, a, good, group, of, 14, 15, which, means, we, will, not, have, to, choose, and, disappoint, went, for, a, run, afterwards, as, feeling, in, need, of, exercise, as, not, much, large, animal, work, at, the, moment, means, i, am, sitting, around, on, the, computer, for, a, lot, of, the, day, which, is, sad, must, get, fit, is, a, constant, resolution, spent, the, evening, up, at, sandal, watching, the, sun, go, down, away, from, the, phone, and, chaos, at, home, thursday, i, was, at, work, when, i, had, a, phone, call, from, some, one, who, had, apparently, run, over, son, at, school, never, an, easy, phone, call, to, take, espy, as, she, did, not, know, what, had, happened, fortunately, he, was, ok, he, had, been, walking, backwards, and, had, stepped, into, the, path, of, a, car, which, had, caught, his, heel, the, damage, was, slight, but, it, had, upset, him, the, school, exit, is, appalling, and, needs, sorted, as, busses, cars, and, bikes, all, share, the, same, area, as, the, kids, walking, inevitably, kids, are, jostling, and, messing, around, so, it, is, an, accident, waiting, to, happen, friday, half, day, as, wife, is, starting, her, next, w, e, counselling, course, could, not, really, get, going, as, a, calving, early, this, am, and, a, call, late, last, night, so, having, run, on, adrenalin, for, all, the, week, i, collapse, in, to, a, heap, and, find, it, hard, to, get, going, and, get, motivated, spent, the, afternoon, getting, organised, for, the, visitors, arriving, as, friends, are, coming, and, friend, who, was, our, bridesmaid, is, coming, across, for, the, w, e, saturday, 21st, june, 2003, pay, day, i, don’t, really, know, why, it, always, sticks, in, my, mind, but, at, the, moment, with, the, 1st, of, october, looming, and, the, fact, that, the, 21st, will, not, be, a, pay, day, it, is, becoming, a, bit, scary, spent, morning, on, run, around, and, house, jobs, ferrying, to, and, from, squash, went, to, town, in, pm, with, a, son, having, left, off, the, younger, ones, at, cottinghams, and, spent, a, pleasant, half, hour, in, ottakars, even, they, were, running, low, on, the, book, the, latest, harry, potter, which, i, had, meant, to, order, via, internet, but, had, not, quite, got, around, to, the, statistic, is, that, she, is, expected, to, sell, 6, every, second, over, the, w, e, she, makes, 1, per, book, which, means, 360, per, minute, 21,600, per, hour, not, a, bad, hourly, rate, or, just, over, a, million, quid, for, the, w, e, as, every, other, person, on, the, tills, was, buying, a, copy, i, can, well, believe, it, sun, 22nd, church, in, the, morning, was, joint, communion, and, was, lead, by, the, denton, holm, house, group, the, church, meets, up, in, small, groups, mid, week, to, pray, and, study, bible, and, the, denton, holme, grp, lead, the, service, it, means, you, get, a, refreshingly, different, type, of, service, with, different, people, taking, part, and, leading, it, was, good, followed, by, a, picnic, in, the, park, which, was, ok, but, i, just, wanted, to, fall, asleep, in, the, sunshine, i, am, suffering, from, stopping, syndrome, i, can, keep, going, on, the, adrenalin, but, when, i, stop, thump, i, fall, asleep, and, can, not, get, going, picked, up, liz, from, church, in, the, evening, having, left, youngest, two, at, home, as, wife, was, late, back, from, her, course, thank, goodness, for, mobile, phones, or, rather, at, least, they, manage, to, make, a, complex, life, possible, really, i, should, have, let, her, pick, up, friend, and, missed, church, and, upset, a, by, telling, her, she, couldn’t, go, but, it, all, worked, out, in, the, end, mon, 23rd, friend, arrived, at, some, terrible, hour, she, finally, left, bristol, after, 8pm, after, meaning, to, leave, at, lunchtime, so, as, wife, and, i, were, exhausted, we, did, not, get, up, to, welcome, her, work, is, really, quiet, with, very, little, happening, son, is, in, a, strop, cos, we, will, not, let, him, go, sailing, after, cricket, after, school, as, he, will, be, exhausted, he, takes, after, us, if, there, is, a, possibility, we, try, to, achieve, it, our, own, fault, really, but, it, is, weird, how, you, see, your, own, faults, coming, through, in, your, children, tues, 24th, spent, the, day, talking, to, people, on, the, phone, trying, to, get, funding, for, the, research, project, have, a, few, leads, and, ideas, to, get, together, so, should, be, interesting, to, see, if, it, comes, together, weds, 25th, started, at, 4am, with, a, caesarean, which, was, really, nice, as, that, time, in, the, morning, is, beautiful, it, is, just, a, shame, that, the, rest, of, the, day, is, a, bit, of, a, wash, out, because, of, it, went, at, night, to, the, fa, training, course, which, was, class, room, based, on, a, warm, sunny, evening, and, i, was, struggling, to, stay, with, it, i, have, also, decided, that, i, need, to, get, fit, as, the, practical, day, is, going, to, be, very, long, for, my, unfit, legs, thursday, the, electrician, arrived, to, sort, out, the, electrics, in, the, bathroom, which, are, still, not, right, the, lights, keep, fusing, and, the, fan, will, not, work, i, had, a, look, at, the, wiring, which, is, a, mess, and, decided, i, could, not, follow, it, and, after, my, last, experience, i, decided, i, would, just, pay, him, to, keep, him, in, a, job, i, had, a, very, enjoyable, day, off, played, son, at, squash, and, lost, now, not, only, is, he, better, than, me, at, football, but, squash, a, swell, all, down, hill, from, here, on, in, went, to, church, in, the, evening, as, rw, was, speaking, it, was, interesting, to, hear, him, though, was, more, a, chat, than, a, biblical, exposition, friday, the, email, from, the, verse, of, the, day, seems, to, sum, up, a, years, worth, of, diaries, when, times, are, good, be, happy, but, when, times, are, bad, consider, god, has, made, the, one, as, well, as, the, other, therefore, a, man, cannot, discover, anything, about, his, future, ecclesiastes, 7, 14, new, international, version, the, future, is, uncertain, i, will, leave, my, job, in, a, few, months, time, for, a, new, start, the, pressures, of, fmd, seem, to, be, distant, in, the, warm, summer, weather, and, in, the, quiet, workload, making, me, feel, rested, and, relaxed, the, challenges, both, for, agriculture, the, veterinary, practice, and, for, policymakers, are, still, very, large, there, is, now, a, threat, of, bio, terrorism, to, add, to, the, food, scares, and, the, threat, of, exotic, disease, life, carries, on, we, may, not, learn, from, all, our, mistakes, and, government, depts, are, a, blunt, slow, awkward, machine, but, the, cows, will, still, need, to, be, milked, and, we, will, still, need, food, on, our, table, if, in, 68, you, told, some, one, that, we, had, not, had, an, outbreak, of, fmd, for, 35, years, they, would, have, said, well, done, if, you, had, said, 2, men, were, milking, 300, cows, on, a, cumbrian, farm, and, getting, 7000, litres, per, cow, he, would, never, have, believed, you, there, is, a, time, for, everything, and, a, season, for, every, activity, under, the, heaven, a, time, to, be, born, and, a, time, to, die, a, time, to, plant, and, a, time, to, uproot, a, time, to, kill, and, a, time, to, heal, a, time, to, tear, down, and, a, time, to, build, a, time, to, weep, and, a, time, to, laugh, a, time, to, mourn, and, a, time, to, dance, a, time, to, scatter, stones, and, a, time, to, gather, them, a, time, to, embrace, and, a, time, to, refrain, a, time, to, search, and, a, time, to, give, up, a, time, to, keep, and, a, time, to, throw, away, a, time, to, tear, and, a, time, to, mend, a, time, to, be, silent, and, a, time, to, speak, a, time, to, love, and, a, time, to, hate, a, time, for, war, and, a, time, for, peace]
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paper, diary, has, lots, of, newspaper, cuttings, and, other, related, material, week, beginning, 25th, february, 2002, after, the, snow, which, fell, at, the, weekend, melted, combined, with, the, additional, rainfall, many, of, the, fields, surrounding, the, village, as, well, as, the, roads, were, flooded, usually, this, wouldn't, concern, you, much, however, with, the, burial, site, being, so, close, and, the, number, of, underground, streams, in, the, area, it, does, become, worrying, there, isn't, any, guarantee, that, groundwater, in, the, surrounding, area, won't, become, effected, and, to, what, extent, there, seem, to, be, a, number, of, aspects, to, me, concerning, this, issue, which, remain, unclear, for, example, what, exactly, can, be, carried, in, water, and, how, might, this, effect, people, in, the, area, what, is, being, tested, for, in, the, surrounding, streams, what, exactly, is, classed, as, a, danger, and, if, problems, did, arise, how, would, they, be, monitored, and, resolved, all, these, issues, do, tend, to, make, you, anxious, in, particular, on, monday, when, i, was, out, walking, my, dog, i, noticed, a, couple, of, drains, which, i, passed, looked, as, if, they, were, blocked, and, there, was, a, lot, of, water, around, it, just, makes, you, wonder, how, much, has, come, possibly, from, the, burial, site, and, if, it, is, actually, safe, my, worries, on, monday, about, the, groundwater, were, even, more, emphasised, by, the, statement, i, heard, on, the, border, news, on, tuesday, by, the, environment, agency, this, statement, was, concerning, the, future, safety, of, the, groundwater, in, the, area, around, the, burial, site, the, agency, could, give, no, guarantee, that, the, groundwater, would, not, become, affected, in, the, future, since, then, i, have, heard, no, further, news, about, the, issue, there, may, be, more, information, on, news, reports, i, missed, in, my, opinion, not, enough, information, is, given, to, the, public, about, these, issues, results, of, testing, by, the, environment, agency, are, meant, to, be, available, to, the, public, however, i, have, never, heard, much, about, the, details, i, think, more, effort, should, be, made, to, inform, in, particular, resident, near, burial, sites, as, these, issues, are, bound, to, be, important, to, them, after, hearing, the, news, i, did, become, more, worried, but, at, the, end, of, the, day, there, is, little, we, can, really, do, ourselves, you, find, yourself, having, to, trust, people, or, agencies, you, know, little, about, and, just, hoping, everything, will, be, alright, on, tuesday, also, noticed, a, horrible, smell, outside, so, did, my, fiancé, but, again, you, can't, be, sure, exactly, where, this, is, coming, from, or, what, is, causing, it, on, thursday, with, news, of, possible, foot, and, mouth, case, further, south, near, leeds, i, became, very, worried, that, this, whole, thing, was, going, to, start, all, over, again, my, worries, were, about, the, farmers, and, people, involved, and, how, they, would, be, affected, if, other, cases, could, be, identified, and, in, particular, affecting, my, own, life, if, animals, would, have, to, be, slaughtered, again, in, the, future, where, would, they, be, disposed, of, would, existing, burial, sites, be, reopened, as, opposed, to, finding, suitable, sites, for, new, burial, sites, it, would, seem, easier, to, reopen, burial, sites, but, what, would, this, mean, for, the, future, and, to, what, extent, would, the, health, risks, be, increased, i, was, very, relieved, to, hear, the, testing, of, the, foot, and, mouth, cases, came, back, negative, i, was, relieved, for, the, people, involved, and, also, residents, near, burial, sites, however, this, did, raise, questions, in, my, mind, of, how, this, sort, of, situation, would, be, handled, in, the, future, and, what, consequences, it, might, have, week, 2, 4th, march, on, monday, passed, driving, test, and, now, fiancé, and, myself, are, insured, on, a, small, car, this, opens, up, so, many, opportunities, and, we, have, a, huge, sense, of, freedom, last, summer, we, had, planned, to, go, on, a, camping, holiday, with, our, dog, dog, we, had, al, our, equipment, prepared, but, were, unable, to, go, due, to, the, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, neither, of, us, imagined, how, long, and, widespread, the, outbreak, would, be, and, thought, at, first, it, would, be, over, in, a, few, weeks, now, a, year, later, we, are, able, to, replan, our, holiday, this, is, exciting, as, we, have, waited, so, long, it, is, unbelievable, to, think, how, long, it, has, taken, for, restrictions, on, the, countryside, to, return, to, as, normal, as, can, be, possible, due, to, the, circumstances, for, the, actual, people, directly, involved, in, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, this, must, have, seemed, like, far, longer, on, tuesday, i, had, a, lovely, surprise, when, i, noticed, the, lambs, in, a, field, near, my, house, when, out, walking, my, dog, it, was, lovely, to, see, and, for, a, few, minutes, things, almost, seemed, normal, again, even, though, the, burial, site, is, only, about, a, mile, away, it, is, hidden, from, view, from, the, village, you, never, forget, though, as, soon, as, you, spot, the, windmills, and, remember, the, repeated, pictures, featured, in, the, news, seeing, the, lambs, really, did, lift, my, spirits, and, the, future, after, foot, and, mouth, didn’t, seem, as, bad, as, thought, the, week, before, i, can’t, recall, the, exact, days, but, they, were, towards, the, beginning, of, the, week, on, two, particular, occasions, my, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, terrible, smell, outside, we, aren’t, sure, exactly, what, the, smell, was, just, that, it, was, very, unpleasant, the, only, other, incident, which, i, can, recall, which, stands, out, in, my, mind, this, past, week, is, a, conversation, i, had, with, my, fiancé’s, granddad, we, were, talking, about, how, bad, last, year’s, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, had, been, and, he, recalled, the, outbreak, of, 1967, he, commented, on, how, he, thought, that, outbreak, had, been, far, better, controlled, it, was, better, as, the, animals, were, killed, and, buried, on, the, actual, farms, in, lime, there, was, no, transporting, dead, or, live, animals, like, last, year, he, also, commented, on, the, fact, that, there, were, no, pyres, then, and, that, he, hadn’t, thought, it, a, good, idea, last, year, overall, he, thought, that, last, year’s, outbreak, could, have, been, dealt, with, better, and, that, action, was, taken, far, too, late, to, prevent, the, disease, spreading, week, 3, 11th, march, one, new, thing, i, have, noticed, this, week, is, the, amount, of, birds, there, are, flying, around, especially, black, crows, i, think, it, is, because, i, have, been, driving, and, every, time, i, drive, past, the, fields, at, the, south, end, of, the, village, there, are, large, amounts, of, crows, hustled, together, can, never, remember, it, being, quite, like, that, last, summer, it, makes, you, wonder, why, so, many, are, drawn, to, just, those, fields, as, i, drive, past, in, the, next, few, weeks, i, will, see, if, it, is, still, the, same, on, about, occasions, this, week, fiancé, and, i, have, noticed, a, slight, smell, outside, again, not, as, foul, smelling, but, still, noticeable, on, tuesday, saw, new, series, featured, on, itv, called, rural, lives, i, think, this, is, a, good, idea, as, the, issue, of, foot, and, mouth, is, still, very, painful, to, a, lot, of, people, and, is, not, over, yet, the, effects, are, still, happening, however, on, the, news, and, in, other, media, it, isn’t, often, mentioned, and, doesn’t, get, the, attention, it, deserves, hopefully, through, programmes, like, this, people, will, get, a, better, understanding, of, the, issues, involved, and, what, different, people, went, through, if, an, outbreak, ever, happened, again, all, the, people, involved, would, hopefully, have, a, better, idea, of, how, to, handle, the, actual, crisis, and, a, better, idea, of, people’s, needs, for, example, the, farmers, these, are, long, term, effects, which, can’t, be, ignored, my, mum, came, out, for, a, couple, of, nights, she, loves, coming, out, to, see, us, as, she, lives, in, carlisle, it, is, a, total, change, of, scenery, she, thought, it, was, great, and, enjoyed, taking, my, dog, on, long, walks, which, she, was, unable, to, do, for, a, long, time, we, went, to, see, the, lambs, in, the, lovely, weather, shows, we, are, able, to, start, enjoying, the, countryside, again, especially, coming, up, to, spring, and, summer, we, were, even, able, to, go, to, dalston, with, my, dog, and, wander, about, we, have, been, so, used, to, having, to, stick, t, the, roads, just, in, the, local, area, it, was, lovely, a, nice, change, it, does, tend, to, make, you, more, confident, about, the, coming, year, and, we, are, looking, forward, to, the, summer, week, 4, 18th, march, this, past, week, started, of, with, a, day, out, at, bowness, i, went, with, my, fiancé, and, took, our, dog, dog, it, was, lovely, to, let, her, off, the, lead, to, run, she, really, enjoys, it, and, got, absolutely, filthy, travelling, in, the, car, is, becoming, easier, for, dog, and, she, goes, crazy, when, you, arrive, we, have, only, had, dog, just, over, 2, years, and, for, the, past, year, we, couldn’t, let, her, off, the, lead, to, run, anywhere, we, are, tiring, t, train, her, again, she, listens, to, a, certain, extent, but, we, have, to, keep, an, eye, on, her, cheeky, side, i, remember, wondering, when, the, foot, and, mouth, started, how, we, were, going, to, exercise, dog, as, walking, her, on, the, roads, used, to, be, more, difficult, due, to, the, large, vehicles, travelling, up, and, down, and, also, the, fact, dog, isn’t, the, best, on, the, lead, she, used, to, be, really, energetic, and, a, bit, of, a, handful, however, now, she, has, got, used, to, a, more, relaxed, life, and, at, times, i, think, she, quite, likes, it, it, did, us, all, good, to, have, some, exercise, and, fresh, air, and, it, was, lovely, to, have, a, change, of, scenery, apart, from, on, monday, i, haven’t, really, been, anywhere, else, apart, from, shopping, and, have, been, busy, doing, my, a, level, work, therefore, i, haven’t, really, noticed, anything, different, this, week, and, haven’t, thought, about, foot, and, mouth, as, much, my, overall, view, this, week, has, been, quite, confident, and, there, has, been, no, real, significant, happenings, to, change, my, view, quite, a, good, week, overall, week, 5, 25th, march, firstly, i, received, the, newsletter, sent, out, to, the, standing, panel, it, was, a, relief, to, finally, get, some, information, regarding, the, burial, site, it, was, good, to, have, an, explanation, on, how, things, work, on, the, site, in, terms, that, we, can, understand, it, is, a, relief, to, know, that, everything, so, far, is, still, safe, however, it, is, evident, that, there, is, much, more, work, and, monitoring, to, be, carried, out, in, the, future, even, though, it, is, still, not, possible, to, do, anything, ourselves, our, minds, are, at, least, put, at, rest, by, knowing, something, it, surprises, me, how, long, it, has, taken, for, information, like, this, to, be, made, accessible, to, the, public, i, think, this, newsletter, is, a, very, good, step, forward, as, information, is, reaching, the, public, and, participants, are, also, given, the, opportunity, to, ask, questions, and, put, other, ideas, forward, on, wednesday, my, mum, came, out, again, to, see, us, once, again, we, took, a, walk, to, go, see, the, lambs, in, the, field, near, us, it, was, enjoyable, and, we, had, lovely, weather, it, makes, you, realise, how, much, you, take, for, granted, around, you, without, thinking, twice, my, mum, has, made, me, realise, this, even, more, by, seeing, how, much, she, enjoys, such, a, simple, thing, and, how, special, she, thinks, it, is, sometimes, i, think, when, you, are, surrounded, by, the, country, and, nature, all, the, time, you, forget, how, lucky, you, are, my, mum, and, gran, would, both, love, to, live, somewhere, like, here, the, biggest, surprise, this, week, was, when, i, received, the, parish, magazine, for, the, month, and, found, in, it, the, watchtree, news, this, is, the, first, time, i, have, ever, seen, anything, like, this, from, the, parish, council, i, think, it, is, a, very, good, idea, as, the, information, will, be, accessible, to, everyone, in, the, appropriate, parishes, even, though, it, is, long, overdue, it, is, very, worthwhile, and, i, think, will, be, very, informative, it, covers, a, wide, range, of, issues, the, majority, of, which, i, knew, very, little, about, and, wouldn’t, have, known, for, the, future, for, example, the, maintenance, going, to, be, carried, out, between, the, a595, orton, grange, junction, and, the, site, entrance, at, least, we, now, have, knowledge, of, this, before, it, is, going, to, be, carried, out, as, it, will, affect, other, members, of, our, family, who, live, on, the, orton, grange, junction, who, would, otherwise, have, had, no, idea, some, of, the, information, was, surprising, for, example, the, number, of, tankers, that, leave, the, site, everyday, which, i, didn’t, expect, to, be, so, high, and, which, could, rise, important, issues, are, also, now, being, tackled, such, as, the, bad, state, of, the, local, roads, the, affected, people, are, also, being, encouraged, to, report, these, things, themselves, to, the, appropriate, people, i, think, this, has, been, a, significant, development, and, will, be, very, useful, in, the, aftermath, of, foot, and, mouth, communication, between, the, appropriate, authorities, and, the, public, is, essential, week, 6, 1st, april, unfortunately, it, has, been, all, go, this, week, one, bit, of, work, after, another, i, haven't, had, time, to, focus, on, very, much, else, this, past, week, despite, this, fact, i, have, still, had, quite, a, positive, week, it, is, better, studying, out, here, as, there, are, few, distractions, and, everything, is, lovely, and, peaceful, a, drastic, difference, from, last, year, at, that, time, it, was, difficult, to, concentrate, on, anything, for, too, long, far, too, many, distractions, my, fiancé, however, has, been, up, to, the, burial, site, and, nearby, on, sunday, he, went, for, a, drive, with, a, friend, and, wondered, what, it, looked, like, up, there, we, have, only, ever, seen, it, on, television, reports, but, never, been, up, there, ourselves, in, a, future, diary, when, he, has, time, he, will, write, a, few, words, on, what, he, thought, week, 7, 8th, april, once, again, this, week, has, been, full, of, work, i, haven't, had, much, time, to, do, anything, apart, from, work, on, thursday, i, had, a, break, and, my, mom, came, out, for, a, bbq, for, the, first, time, this, year, we, have, put, out, our, patio, tables, and, chairs, as, the, weather, was, staying, pleasant, we, sat, out, for, a, while, in, the, evening, and, had, our, bbq, it, was, a, lovely, break, for, my, mom, as, there, is, peace, and, quiet, out, here, as, opposed, to, in, town, we, all, really, enjoyed, it, my, mom, and, fiance, both, commented, how, lovely, it, was, to, sit, outside, in, the, nice, weather, without, a, nasty, smell, about, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, haven't, noticed, things, smelling, so, bad, as, on, a, few, occasions, recently, there, has, also, been, a, decrease, in, the, amount, of, birds, in, particular, crows, which, have, been, in, the, fields, to, the, south, of, where, we, are, near, the, crossroads, on, the, couple, of, occasions, during, the, week, when, i, have, been, past, the, fields, there, have, only, been, a, couple, of, birds, flying, around, as, opposed, to, a, whole, field, full, of, crows, at, one, time, it, was, also, lovely, to, hear, the, sheep, especially, as, the, evening, became, darker, in, the, background, you, could, hear, the, sheep, just, in, the, field, next, to, us, and, also, the, lambs, a, few, fields, away, it, was, something, which, we, still, aren't, quite, used, to, but, which, we, appreciate, so, much, more, now, week, 8, 15th, april, i, was, feeling, quite, confident, this, week, until, friday, when, watch, the, news, i, saw, the, report, on, new, bovine, tb, cases, which, are, worrying, even, though, it, is, said, it, wouldn’t, be, as, serious, as, foot, and, mouth, it, is, still, worrying, as, it, has, the, potential, to, destroy, many, more, lives, and, bankrupt, more, farmers, who, have, probably, just, got, over, foot, and, mouth, the, worry, must, be, especially, bad, for, the, farmers, as, it, is, bad, enough, for, the, general, public, especially, after, seeing, the, damage, caused, by, foot, and, mouth, in, such, a, short, space, of, time, it, would, be, absolutely, terrible, if, this, summer, was, anything, like, last, summer, how, long, would, it, take, for, everything, to, get, back, to, normal, then, even, though, foot, and, mouth, is, evidently, far, different, to, bovine, tb, hopefully, things, will, have, been, learned, from, last, year, which, will, prevent, this, from, becoming, a, disaster, too, apart, from, that, other, aspects, of, the, foot, and, mouth, smell, etc, haven’t, been, as, bad, this, past, week, i, haven’t, noticed, any, particular, occasions, when, the, smell, has, been, particularly, bad, or, noticeable, in, addition, on, the, occasions, when, i, have, driven, past, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, there, have, been, hardly, any, crows, near, there, which, is, a, huge, improvement, there, were, a, number, of, seagulls, in, one, field, but, nowhere, near, the, amount, of, crows, there, were, before, there, has, also, been, a, decrease, in, the, amount, of, tankers, going, by, recently, that, i, have, noticed, at, first, i, didn’t, take, much, notice, of, it, but, then, fiancé, s, grandad, mentioned, that, he, had, hardly, seen, any, he, seems, to, notice, them, move, more, than, we, do, as, he, lives, on, the, orton, grange, junction, with, wigton, road, and, they, all, have, to, go, past, there, with, all, these, things, happening, the, presence, of, the, burial, site, nearby, seems, less, obvious, week, 9, 22nd, april, the, last, week, has, been, quite, a, pleasant, week, probably, because, i, have, eventually, finished, my, coursework, and, have, been, able, to, have, a, bit, of, peace, and, quiet, i, think, this, combined, with, periods, of, lovely, weather, have, made, me, feel, quite, good, on, tuesday, when, i, travelled, to, town, and, back, i, went, past, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, to, the, south, of, the, village, which, in, the, past, have, been, full, of, crows, or, seagulls, as, i, have, noticed, on, other, odd, occasions, over, the, past, week, they, appear, to, be, empty, now, i’ll, keep, an, eye, on, how, this, changes, over, the, summer, if, it, does, on, friday, i, noticed, that, there, were, a, number, of, cattle, and, calves, in, the, field, just, opposite, our, house, i, can, stand, and, watch, them, from, my, back, patio, doors, which, is, lovely, with, the, reintroduction, of, the, sheep, and, cattle, in, the, area, it, is, like, everything, is, coming, together, finally, after, the, foot, and, mouth, and, life, is, returning, to, normal, in, some, sense, the, cattle, seem, to, be, the, last, part, needed, for, everything, to, seem, to, be, running, properly, and, the, animals, finally, moving, about, at, last, i, think, this, fact, combine, with, their, being, no, significant, incidents, of, nasty, smells, or, the, rumbling, of, the, tankers, going, by, has, made, things, seem, better, when, talking, to, fiance, s, grandad, he, mentioned, again, that, there, still, haven’t, been, as, many, tankers, going, past, his, house, at, orton, grange, as, there, have, been, this, past, week, there, have, been, hardly, any, reminders, of, the, burial, site, and, the, past, foot, and, mouth, problems, living, in, the, country, has, seemed, quite, normal, after, what, seems, a, long, time, week, 10, 29th, april, all, in, all, this, week, has, been, a, good, week, overall, with, regard, to, the, foot, and, mouth, everything, seems, to, have, quietened, down, and, there, are, hardly, any, visible, reminders, of, the, burial, site, and, foot, and, mouth, around, the, village, as, i, mentioned, last, week, there, still, haven’t, been, any, noticeable, occasions, of, smells, possibly, from, the, burial, site, the, tankers, have, hardly, been, noticeable, around, the, village, and, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, have, still, been, fairly, empty, of, birds, in, particular, crows, this, was, explained, and, backed, up, in, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazines, which, i, received, this, week, it, was, good, to, read, and, very, informative, worth, reading, i, still, think, it, is, a, good, idea, and, is, being, done, well, as, it, discusses, issues, happening, now, and, also, keeps, you, informed, about, action, in, the, future, the, newsletter, mentioned, the, reduction, in, the, amount, of, tankers, which, i, have, noticed, it, also, mentions, that, there, might, be, a, slight, smell, from, the, burial, sited, during, work, but, so, far, i, haven’t, noticed, anything, once, again, it, has, been, lovely, seeing, both, the, sheep, and, the, cows, in, the, surrounding, fields, especially, at, the, moment, when, they, are, with, their, young, on, saturday, on, the, way, down, to, fiance, s, grandad, there, were, road, works, near, the, baldwinholme, bend, in, the, road, this, part, was, in, a, bad, condition, and, is, now, much, better, i, think, the, damage, was, caused, by, the, trucks, etc, used, during, foot, and, mouth, however, i’m, not, sure, week, 11, 6th, may, this, week, has, been, my, 21st, birthday, i’m, growing, up, i, had, a, lovely, day, on, thursday, and, as, a, surprise, i, was, taken, t, the, lake, district, for, the, day, it, was, lovely, and, i, really, enjoyed, it, firstly, we, stopped, off, at, bassenthwaite, lake, for, a, bit, fed, the, ducks, and, had, a, picnic, then, off, to, dodd, wood, for, a, coffee, and, to, see, the, ospreys, it, was, great, to, see, them, and, i, think, we, were, quite, lucky, then, we, had, a, pleasant, walk, around, myre, house, i, was, reminded, of, how, lucky, we, are, in, cumbria, to, have, such, lovely, places, and, i, am, glad, that, we, are, now, able, to, go, to, these, places, again, now, we’ve, got, a, car, we, are, going, to, take, better, advantage, of, cumbria, and, what, it, has, to, offer, once, again, i, realised, how, much, we, take, what, we, have, for, granted, overall, this, has, been, a, good, week, and, reminders, of, foot, and, mouth, and, the, burial, site, have, been, minimal, there, have, been, no, smells, i, have, noticed, and, hardly, any, signs, of, wagons, it, is, still, lovely, to, see, the, sheep, and, cattle, around, the, village, week, 12, 13th, may, on, wednesday, i, met, my, mum, in, town, and, got, the, cumberland, news, off, her, i, was, reading, about, the, county, council, inquiry, at, kendal, i, think, it, is, good, how, the, different, people, involved, in, the, inquiry, are, all, being, honest, about, what, happened, that, is, the, only, way, anything, will, be, improved, in, the, future, if, anything, of, a, similar, nature, should, happen, again, i, really, hope, it, doesn’t, from, reading, the, articles, written, and, what, people, have, said, it, is, clear, what, a, wide, range, of, people, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, affected, and, also, how, badly, when, you, read, of, other, people, who, have, had, family, who, have, been, so, low, it, has, driven, them, to, suicide, you, do, seem, to, feel, a, bit, guilty, as, when, we, complain, it, hasn’t, affected, us, is, such, a, drastic, way, it, brings, the, seriousness, and, the, extent, of, the, crisis, to, people’s, attention, despite, the, terrible, things, which, took, place, during, the, crisis, hopefully, some, good, will, come, out, of, it, for, the, present, and, the, future, on, thursday, fiance, went, to, the, doctor’s, and, was, talking, to, a, farmer, in, the, waiting, room, as, soon, as, fiance, mentioned, he, lived, in, great, orton, the, farmer, asked, straight, away, what, it, was, like, to, live, here, so, near, to, the, burial, site, and, how, he, couldn’t, imagine, what, it, would, have, been, like, it, too, has, been, such, a, long, time, since, anyone, has, said, anything, like, that, to, either, one, of, us, at, the, time, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, people, used, to, ask, questions, and, what, it, was, like, to, live, so, near, it, is, strange, when, farmers, in, particular, feel, sympathy, towards, you, for, living, near, the, burial, site, when, on, the, other, hand, it, is, the, farmers, i, feel, sympathy, for, before, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, a, fair, number, of, people, even, from, carlisle, didn’t, know, where, great, orton, was, but, now, many, do, and, realise, how, close, to, carlisle, it, actually, is, week, 13, 20th, may, i, haven't, really, done, anything, very, exciting, this, past, week, unfortunately, i've, been, revising, again, and, preparing, for, a, presentation, for, my, a, level, which, i, have, to, do, next, week, my, presentation, was, on, turrets, and, watchtowers, which, i, found, a, bit, confusing, at, first, from, the, books, i've, been, using, so, dragged, fiance, to, drive, and, dog, out, past, brampton, to, hadrian's, wall, there, i, found, a, watchtower, and, a, turret, everything, became, much, clearer, on, the, way, back, we, spotted, a, sign, for, a, camping, barn, on, hadrian's, wall, banks, east, we, were, both, very, interested, so, sent, away, for, the, brochure, at, this, point, we, decided, to, reconsider, our, holiday, plans, and, realised, we, didn't, need, to, go, far, afield, like, amsterdam, our, 1st, choice, then, scotland, 2nd, choice, we, hadn't, realised, actually, how, many, places, there, were, so, nearby, which, were, ideal, we, came, to, the, conclusion, a, holiday, in, cumbria, would, be, the, best, choice, as, 1, we, could, take, dog, with, us, 2, we, could, go, by, car, and, 3, it, would, be, a, bit, cheaper, as, fiance, mentioned, it, would, also, be, good, after, everything, to, put, the, money, we, were, spending, back, into, cumbria, we, were, hoping, to, go, next, week, as, it, is, half, term, the, week, after, and, my, exams, after, that, hopefully, we, will, get, something, organised, on, thursday, we, got, the, orton, newsletter, fiance, and, i, were, both, quite, disappointed, when, we, read, that, land, around, this, area, are, being, sold, for, the, building, of, houses, it, is, good, in, a, way, as, people, are, moving, forward, after, f, m, but, we, wish, it, wasn't, in, a, residential, sense, it, is, just, a, pity, so, much, of, the, farming, will, be, lost, 6, houses, at, baldwinholme, 4, in, great, orton, even, though, i, haven't, been, brought, up, with, a, farming, background, from, what, i, have, seen, it, would, be, a, pity, for, us, to, lose, this, part, of, our, countryside, week, 14, 27th, may, on, monday, saw, cb, and, was, pleased, to, hear, the, f, m, standing, panel, project, was, going, well, as, i, think, it’s, worthwhile, and, as, much, as, possible, should, be, learned, for, the, future, on, tuesday, i, attended, the, meeting, for, the, foot, and, mouth, disease, inquiry, at, great, orton, village, hall, at, 7pm, i, was, glad, i, attended, the, meeting, as, people, could, voice, their, opinions, and, try, to, get, information, about, issues, both, about, the, present, and, the, future, my, general, view, of, the, meeting, and, how, it, went, was, that, the, general, feeling, of, the, villagers, etc, was, that, they, were, losing, interest, and, nothing, was, still, being, done, there, were, many, empty, seats, i, estimated, a, total, number, of, 50, 60, people, there, was, a, whole, new, panel, of, faces, even, though, this, was, a, new, inquiry, so, there, were, new, people, on, the, panel, but, between, the, meetings, there, is, no, feel, of, continuity, as, no, one, is, sure, of, what, has, been, said, before, and, there, are, never, the, answers, promised, from, one, meeting, to, another, it, seems, as, if, this, is, a, way, of, avoiding, answers, and, getting, out, of, situations, there, were, new, aspects, which, were, brought, up, which, had, not, yet, been, disclosed, never, at, any, meeting, i, have, attended, such, as, the, fact, the, burial, was, planned, and, used, for, the, burial, of, uninfected, animals, which, is, not, what, we, were, led, to, believe, with, al, the, engineering, on, site, again, this, is, lack, of, communication, and, no, one, is, sure, of, the, facts, defra, also, are, only, guaranteeing, funding, for, this, site, for, the, next, 5, years, and, it, is, worrying, who’s, burden, this, will, become, after, then, a, variety, of, other, issues, were, discussed, health, roads, handling, of, outbreak, vaccination, etc, after, the, meeting, i, was, glad, i, had, been, however, i, felt, rather, angry, by, the, way, in, which, the, questions, are, handled, the, answers, are, often, vague, have, no, supporting, evidence, or, are, dismissed, with, i’ll, have, to, get, back, to, you, on, that, or, i, can’t, comment, in, my, opinion, many, of, the, farmers, villagers, etc, just, want, this, whole, thing, brought, to, an, end, ideally, the, remaining, trenches, filled, in, a, nature, reserve, created, and, maintained, there, were, no, guarantees, of, the, site, not, being, used, again, or, funding, after, the, next, five, years, will, this, ever, be, achieved, on, saturday, morning, fiance, and, i, decided, to, go, away, for, a, short, break, to, somewhere, near, and, where, we, could, take, dog, it, was, a, spontaneous, decision, for, the, jubilee, and, because, it, was, half, term, i, was, not, at, college, we, ended, up, going, to, a, caravan, site, with, dog, for, 4, nights, i, will, update, about, my, holiday, in, the, next, diary, clipping, from, news, and, star, here, story, about, great, orton, public, meeting, and, villagers, request, not, to, have, site, used, again, in, the, event, of, future, emergencies, holiday, week, beginning, monday, 3rd, june, week, 15, 10th, june, i, am, writing, this, a, couple, of, days, early, just, to, tell, you, about, our, holiday, it, was, lovely, in, the, end, we, hadn't, yet, received, the, brochure, on, the, camping, barns, so, on, saturday, we, decided, we, would, like, to, go, away, as, son, as, possible, and, would, like, something, for, the, jubilee, weekend, after, finding, a, caravan, at, caldbeck, not, far, away, relatively, quiet, we, went, by, 5, pm, on, saturday, fiance, dog, and, i, were, there, it, was, a, lovely, caravan, site, lovely, caravan, and, even, a, tv, for, the, world, cup, the, caravan, site, was, surrounded, by, common, land, sheep, lovely, and, quiet, and, a, lot, of, places, to, keep, dog, occupied, we, were, so, surprised, at, how, quiet, the, campsite, was, over, the, jubilee, weekend, but, thought, most, of, the, people, actually, lived, there, it, would, be, lovely, in, the, future, to, have, a, small, caravan, there, to, go, away, to, the, surrounding, places, we, went, to, were, really, busy, for, example, keswick, bassenthwaite, etc, i, was, quite, surprised, but, thought, it, was, great, to, see, cumbria, lively, again, what, a, contrast, to, what, i, would, have, imagined, these, places, to, be, like, a, year, ago, especially, for, the, jubilee, everyone, seemed, to, make, such, an, effort, it, was, lovely, to, see, we, all, had, a, lovely, time, so, relaxing, oi, don't, think, dog, has, ever, walked, so, far, we, were, surprised, that, somewhere, so, close, was, exactly, what, we, wanted, we, were, also, happy, we, could, put, our, money, back, into, cumbria, we, would, definitely, go, back, i, feel, so, much, more, confident, about, the, future, especially, in, cumbria, after, this, week, if, you, didn't, know, about, last, year, f, m, outbreak, in, some, cases, it, would, be, hard, to, tell, i, really, think, cumbria, seems, as, if, it, could, recover, from, this, hopefully, on, saturday, and, sunday, ill, in, bed, week, 16, 17th, june, with, the, combination, of, not, feeling, very, well, at, the, beginning, of, the, week, the, car, not, running, overt, the, week, end, and, dog, being, in, season, i, haven't, really, been, able, to, go, anywhere, this, week, it, has, been, quite, frustrating, but, i, have, had, work, to, do, anyway, i, still, feel, quite, confident, about, the, future, this, week, after, being, on, holiday, this, is, better, than, a, couple, of, weeks, ago, after, the, fmd, inquiry, meeting, when, i, felt, quite, unsure, at, time, of, what, was, going, to, happen, at, gt, orton, i, had, the, f, m, panel, newsletter, and, watchtree, newsletter, with, parish, magazine, i, think, both, of, these, are, good, as, you, are, able, to, gain, information, consistently, about, f, m, in, cumbria, and, in, particular, the, burial, site, this, information, would, be, difficult, to, come, by, otherwise, in, particular, i, enjoyed, reading, about, children, at, milburn, school, with, their, memories, of, the, f, m, outbreak, and, the, effort, they, have, made, researcher, had, spoken, with, respondent, about, possibility, of, monthly, diary, and, she, decided, to, start, straight, away, so, although, middle, of, month, here, follows, monthly, write, up, she, continued, to, record, her, diary, in, this, way, at, times, she, offers, short, daily, entries, drawing, 4, weeks, together, within, an, overall, reflective, piece, these, daily, entries, are, also, recorded, week, 20, 15th, july, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, i, am, looking, forward, to, attending, the, social, evening, in, dalston, i, am, a, bit, nervous, as, am, not, used, to, doing, these, sorts, of, things, but, think, it, will, be, a, good, experience, i, was, also, pleased, when, i, got, the, f, m, panel, newsletter, and, saw, the, article, i, made, notes, for, i, have, never, done, anything, like, this, before, and, was, quite, pleased, about, the, whole, thing, on, the, saturday, of, week, one, fiance, and, i, went, down, to, fiance, s, grandad's, and, noticed, there, were, more, signs, up, for, land, being, for, sale, again, we, both, think, this, is, quite, sad, as, the, area, will, inevitable, be, changing, in, the, near, future, we, wonder, how, much, of, the, land, will, be, reused, for, farming, or, sold, for, new, houses, taking, into, consideration, the, signs, we, have, seen, up, in, the, past, quite, a, bit, of, land, is, going, to, change, over, the, past, weeks, i, have, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, with, our, parish, magazine, i, still, think, this, is, a, good, idea, and, worthwhile, as, you, are, updated, every, so, often, this, will, also, reach, everyone, in, the, village, so, easily, accessible, over, a, period, of, a, few, days, in, week, 2, of, these, 4, weeks, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, a, strange, smell, outside, we, could, smell, it, here, but, not, at, fiance, s, grandad's, which, is, only, 2, miles, away, it, smelt, just, like, a, burning, smell, so, i, am, not, sure, whether, it, had, anything, to, do, with, the, burial, site, or, anything, being, done, up, there, i, just, thought, i, would, mention, it, anyway, last, wednesday, i, rang, up, the, archaeological, support, group, in, carlisle, of, which, i, have, been, a, member, for, the, past, year, and, a, half, i, had, never, been, sent, anything, to, do, with, it, for, along, time, and, wondered, why, it, turns, out, that, last, year, as, soon, as, f, m, hit, cumbria, everything, was, cancelled, and, stopped, this, i, knew, at, the, time, and, there, was, nothing, else, that, could, have, happened, the, thing, i, didn't, realise, was, that, things, have, been, so, badly, affected, that, nothing, has, been, arranged, as, yet, even, so, many, months, after, f, m, broke, out, once, again, this, is, another, example, of, how, things, have, been, affected, still, so, many, months, after, there, is, also, uncertainty, about, the, future, of, this, archaeology, group, as, nothing, has, been, decided, yet, and, it, will, depend, on, how, things, go, this, is, a, pity, and, i, hope, things, pick, up, in, the, future, on, the, first, week, of, these, 4, weeks, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, that, we, were, coughing, a, bit, more, especially, at, night, and, early, in, the, morning, since, then, fiance, has, got, better, and, is, not, coughing, as, much, but, now, i, have, got, a, sore, throat, and, a, cold, i, don't, think, this, is, anything, to, do, with, the, burial, site, or, anything, but, we, were, not, sure, about, the, coughing, and, i, thought, i, would, mention, it, 12th, august, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, i, do, not, feel, quite, as, nervous, now, as, i, did, about, the, evening, at, dalston, village, hall, it, was, a, bit, intimidating, at, first, as, i, was, going, on, the, same, night, as, frontline, workers, and, health, professionals, i, felt, a, bit, out, of, my, depth, when, i, wondered, what, sort, of, stories, they, would, be, telling, compared, to, what, i, had, seen, these, people, would, have, had, to, deal, with, the, situation, first, hand, and, must, have, seen, some, terrible, things, after, a, couple, of, weeks, i, grew, used, to, the, idea, and, didn't, feel, as, bad, it, would, turn, out, to, be, a, good, experience, as, it, turns, out, the, evening, is, now, on, the, 21st, august, and, everyone, is, going, together, things, will, be, a, bit, more, relaxed, for, me, i, think, i, hope, i, will, be, able, to, make, it, the, one, major, event, that, has, made, me, think, over, the, past, couple, of, week, is, fiance, s, auntie, jean, who, has, moved, house, from, orton, grange, 2, miles, away, from, us, into, the, middle, of, town, it, made, me, think, that, i, definitely, wouldn't, like, to, move, back, into, the, middle, of, carlisle, after, living, here, even, though, it, hasn't, been, the, most, pleasant, at, times, here, with, f, m, last, year, and, the, building, of, the, burial, site, i, would, still, miss, everything, about, it, once, again, i, am, reminded, how, lucky, i, am, to, be, surrounded, by, fields, cows, sheep, and, a, horse, in, the, overlooking, field, it, is, also, usually, quiet, and, peaceful, i, can, imagine, quite, different, to, the, middle, of, carlisle, i, think, jean, will, miss, it, quite, a, lot, just, over, a, week, ago, fiance, and, i, were, busy, getting, our, garden, ready, for, the, village, in, bloom, it, was, good, to, see, everyone, making, an, effort, to, everything, looking, nice, everything, felt, a, bit, more, normal, this, year, whereas, last, year, i, think, the, village, in, bloom, was, the, last, thing, on, most, people's, minds, it, made, me, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, perhaps, everything, or, most, things, may, return, to, normal, eventually, week, 24, 12th, august, nothing, extremely, significant, concerning, f, m, has, happened, this, week, i, have, noticed, though, now, when, working, at, village, pub, wellington, even, though, i, only, do, 1, day, it, has, really, become, quite, busy, i, think, business, has, improved, after, they, tried, more, advertising, i, can, remember, back, to, during, the, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, it, was, very, quiet, most, people, stayed, away, and, the, atmosphere, in, the, pub, was, very, depressing, now, over, a, year, later, things, do, seem, to, be, picking, up, again, and, perhaps, returning, more, to, normal, it, is, god, to, see, monday, 19th, august, all, in, all, it, has, been, a, quiet, week, i, haven’t, really, been, out, very, much, and, not, feeling, well, really, i, was, a, bit, disappointed, not, being, able, to, attend, the, social, evening, o, wednesday, as, my, mom, was, unable, to, get, time, off, work, or, change, her, shift, 26th, august, first, of, all, we, were, noticing, problems, with, our, goldfish, when, we, first, got, them, about, two, and, a, half, years, ago, we, had, very, few, problems, with, them, over, the, past, few, months, they, have, been, getting, ill, we, have, tried, all, sorts, different, chemicals, and, still, they, have, all, died, except, one, omar, fiance, s, cousin, who, breeds, fish, came, and, had, a, look, and, was, baffled, the, only, explanation, is, that, the, chemicals, have, been, changed, or, increased, for, example, the, chlorine, which, there, appears, to, be, a, lot, more, of, we, obviously, aren’t, totally, sure, what, the, problem, is, but, thought, we, should, mention, it, anyway, this, week, i, also, noticed, the, banner, opposite, the, village, shop, in, the, village, i, have, enclosed, an, article, about, this, banner, which, appeared, in, the, cumberland, news, this, week, i, think, this, sums, up, the, mood, i, have, noticed, at, the, village, meetings, nothing, has, yet, been, done, to, help, the, villagers, etc, so, what, difference, have, the, promises, made, this, is, the, main, reason, why, i, feel, less, confident, about, the, future, this, week, regarding, foot, and, mouth, as, these, things, are, still, dragging, on, monday, 2nd, september, during, the, first, week, of, these, diaries, nothing, really, significant, happened, regarding, foot, and, mouth, i, did, comment, however, that, when, working, at, the, pub, on, sundays, how, busy, the, pub, was, and, how, business, had, seemed, to, improve, a, lot, from, what, i, had, seen, during, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, the, atmosphere, then, had, been, depressing, this, made, me, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, regarding, foot, and, mouth, as, another, aspect, of, the, foot, and, mouth, had, seemed, to, return, back, to, normal, this, mood, however, did, change, during, the, third, week, of, these, diaries, when, i, felt, less, confident, about, the, future, it, all, began, when, our, goldfish, started, dying, apart, from, oner, we, still, are, not, sure, exactly, what, caused, it, and, are, not, sure, whether, or, not, it, was, because, of, the, water, here, or, something, we, did, there, just, seems, to, be, that, little, bit, of, doubt, in, my, mind, as, you, don’t, feel, totally, sure, about, what, is, happening, in, this, area, still, and, therefore, i, don’t, think, really, trust, the, organisations, dealing, with, these, issues, the, other, thing, that, seemed, to, sum, up, some, of, my, feelings, was, the, banner, which, appeared, opposite, the, village, shop, last, week, i, think, this, shows, the, desperation, and, lengths, some, of, the, people, in, the, village, have, to, go, through, in, order, to, get, noticed, and, heard, it, seems, ridiculous, that, the, same, basic, issues, brought, up, in, the, earlier, meetings, have, still, not, been, dealt, with, it, does, make, you, lose, the, trust, you, had, in, the, organisations, involved, article, enclosed, this, past, week, has, been, a, little, better, however, not, that, good, i, did, receive, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazine, which, is, still, good, to, receive, as, it, updates, you, on, a, number, of, different, aspects, of, the, burial, site, i, also, heard, about, the, article, in, the, newspaper, regarding, this, inquiry, from, cathy, as, well, as, my, mom, who, has, saved, it, for, me, but, as, yet, i, have, not, read, it, i, will, comment, on, this, in, my, next, diary, 9, 15, september, monday, got, free, news, star, last, week, and, found, article, on, f, m, diaries, not, too, bothered, that, it, has, been, printed, myself, tuesday, saw, cathy, said, about, articles, not, too, bothered, myself, but, can, see, why, otherwise, involved, would, be, as, things, are, not, represented, in, the, right, way, and, are, misleading, good, point, though, is, that, it, may, catch, people’s, attention, and, get, the, point, across, that, people, are, still, suffering, got, article, from, cumberland, news, mum, saturday, found, article, in, cumberland, news, regarding, village, in, bloom, won, a, trophy, for, our, special, efforts, in, village, in, aftermath, of, f, m, crisis, mark, andrews, trophy, 16, 22, september, monday, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, burning, smell, when, we, came, back, home, in, the, evening, not, sure, what, it, is, from, reminds, us, of, f, m, crisis, wednesday, road, works, in, village, didn’t, affect, us, too, much, thursday, road, works, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad’s, annoying, at, times, has, taken, such, a, long, time, to, do, reminds, us, of, f, m, crisis, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, burning, smell, again, not, sure, where, from, friday, good, that, watchtree, newsletter, told, us, of, these, road, works, as, wouldn’t, have, known, saturday, these, aspects, aren’t, too, bad, on, their, own, but, the, atmosphere, reminds, you, of, the, f, m, crisis, last, year, 23, 29, september, monday, read, the, diarist, and, also, had, a, look, at, the, inquiry, report, i, was, sent, after, attending, the, village, meeting, tuesday, have, not, had, time, to, read, very, much, of, it, but, i, will, get, round, to, it, and, then, comment, on, it, friday, parish, magazine, and, watchtree, newsletter, still, good, to, be, updated, on, what, is, going, on, 1, roads, and, 2, visiting, the, site, 30, 6th, october, monday, rang, up, to, book, table, at, the, autumn, fayre, being, done, in, village, hall, people, pleased, that, people, in, village, getting, involved, tuesday, water, has, been, quite, bad, especially, on, tuesday, full, of, chlorine, had, to, leave, for, a, while, for, everything, to, evaporate, makes, you, quite, concerned, about, whether, or, not, it, is, safe, to, drink, 6th, october, writing, after, 4, weeks, during, week, i, read, the, articles, regarding, those, f, m, diaries, which, appeared, in, the, cumberland, news, and, the, news, and, star, they, are, enclosed, after, reading, these, and, speaking, to, c, i, myself, wasn’t, too, bothered, or, offended, by, what, was, written, but, could, easily, have, seen, why, other, people, would, have, been, specially, if, they, are, finding, things, really, difficult, i, think, there, is, a, good, side, to, these, articles, as, well, though, as, they, will, have, grabbed, people’s, attention, and, highlighted, the, fact, that, there, are, still, problems, regarding, f, m, this, long, after, the, crisis, even, though, the, articles, were, misleading, they, have, also, done, some, good, when, reading, the, cumberland, news, i, also, found, a, mention, of, great, orton, regarding, the, village, in, bloom, it, turns, out, we, were, awarded, the, mark, andrews, trophy, for, special, efforts, during, the, aftermath, of, f, m, it, would, have, been, nice, to, win, a, better, award, but, at, least, we, were, recognised, for, something, i, was, quite, please, week, 2, was, probably, the, worst, week, i, have, had, during, the, past, month, regarding, f, m, as, the, whole, week, just, seemed, to, remind, me, of, what, it, was, like, during, the, crisis, firstly, there, were, road, works, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad’s, only, 2, miles, away, i, understand, these, had, to, be, carried, out, but, it, made, it, difficult, and, inconvenient, to, get, to, fiance, s, grandad’s, as, you, didn’t, know, which, roads, were, gong, to, be, closed, when, now, that, the, work, has, been, done, everyone, that, i, have, spoken, to, about, it, think, they, will, cause, more, trouble, than, before, as, when, you, pull, out, of, the, lay, bys, it, is, dangerous, as, the, grass, and, verge, have, not, been, smoothed, out, i, think, they, are, alright, if, you, already, know, the, roads, but, i, wouldn’t, be, as, confident, if, i, hadn’t, driven, on, them, before, the, other, aspect, which, made, the, road, works, seem, worse, were, two, instances, when, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, a, burning, smell, monday, and, thursday, we, were, not, sure, where, this, came, from, but, it, still, reminded, us, of, the, crisis, on, week, 3, i, received, a, copy, of, the, f, m, inquiry, and, glad, i, went, to, a, meting, in, the, village, sometimes, it, feels, good, to, be, involved, even, though, in, such, a, small, way, i, also, received, the, diarist, newsletter, and, watchtree, newsletter, which, i, am, still, glad, i, receive, without, the, watchtree, newsletter, i, don’t, think, i, would, have, been, informed, of, the, road, works, being, carried, out, i, am, also, glad, the, site, is, progressing, and, that, people, are, now, being, given, the, opportunity, to, visit, the, site, if, they, wish, on, week, 4, there, was, only, one, major, problem, with, our, water, on, tuesday, the, water, was, that, full, of, chlorine, that, we, had, to, leave, it, for, all, the, chlorine, in, it, to, evaporate, or, boil, it, even, to, give, dog, a, drink, this, is, the, second, time, this, has, happened, and, it, does, concern, you, as, firstly, why, is, this, being, done, and, secondly, is, the, water, safe, to, drink, we, are, not, sure, who, to, contact, about, this, as, last, time, we, contacted, united, utilities, who, said, it, was, just, routine, and, nothing, to, worry, about, week, beginning, 7th, october, not, much, this, week, regarding, fmd, think, i, have, been, too, busy, thinking, about, other, things, week, beginning, 14th, october, monday, relaxing, a, bit, today, as, going, to, be, a, busy, day, tomorrow, and, away, on, wednesday, tuesday, fiance, s, exam, turned, out, to, be, quiet, here, today, which, was, good, for, fiance, s, exam, as, he, did, it, at, home, would, have, been, difficult, last, year, with, pressure, of, f, m, weds, away, on, holiday, it, was, a, bit, of, a, drive, to, what, we, are, used, to, but, we, made, it, lovely, views, on, way, down, and, hawkshead, a, lovely, place, thursday, this, holiday, very, well, suited, for, dog, as, plenty, of, places, to, walk, a, quiet, campsite, and, shops, and, pubs, which, are, suited, for, dogs, things, she, is, not, quite, used, to, friday, lovely, to, be, away, for, a, break, away, from, great, orton, on, the, one, hand, but, then, you, remember, how, nice, it, is, where, we, are, and, how, luck, we, are, on, the, other, hand, sunday, had, a, very, good, week, and, confident, about, the, future, week, beginning, 21st, october, monday, having, quiet, week, as, just, got, back, quite, tired, but, coping, ok, nice, to, be, back, in, a, way, weds, got, watchtree, newsletters, in, parish, magazine, also, article, out, of, news, and, star, i, think, about, renaming, of, site, and, farm, that, used, to, be, there, thursday, watchtree, newsletter, interested, in, the, open, day, think, it’s, a, good, idea, and, will, be, very, interesting, especially, geology, and, fossil, remains, found, on, site, i, think, would, be, beneficial, as, even, though, we, live, in, the, village, and, have, been, to, the, meetings, still, have, little, idea, of, how, the, site, looks, now, and, will, in, the, future, week, beginning, 28th, october, weds, went, to, meet, mom, in, town, the, roads, into, town, were, terrible, mud, on, road, everywhere, and, really, busy, with, trucks, etc, must, be, where, they, are, doing, new, building, hope, it, doesn’t, get, like, this, all, the, time, as, so, much, land, round, here, seems, to, have, been, sold, for, new, construction, sat, mom, has, got, her, own, stall, this, week, end, at, the, craft, fair, in, the, village, hall, 1st, time, she, has, done, this, saw, it, in, parish, newsletter, 2nd, november, writing, after, 4, weeks, this, past, month, has, been, one, of, the, busiest, i, have, had, for, a, long, time, firstly, there, was, fiance, s, final, exam, which, was, quite, stressful, for, him, at, times, revising, and, everything, it, reminded, me, of, how, difficult, it, had, been, when, we, were, doing, our, first, exams, a, year, and, a, half, before, during, f, m, crisis, studying, had, been, very, difficult, then, due, to, constant, interruptions, and, distractions, constant, sound, of, trucks, smells, noise, tension, i’m, so, glad, it, wasn’t, this, bad, this, year, as, these, things, can, be, stressful, enough, shortly, after, fiance, s, exam, fiance, my, mom, and, i, went, for, a, short, break, to, hawkshead, it, was, great, we, all, enjoyed, it, and, dog, especially, everything, was, suited, for, dog, we, took, her, shopping, there, are, benches, and, water, bowls, outside, every, shop, we, went, for, a, bar, meal, and, sat, outside, with, her, and, on, our, last, night, even, too, her, with, us, and, went, for, a, pint, apart, from, these, things, we, also, took, her, on, plenty, of, walks, being, there, made, you, realise, how, lovely, cumbria, is, and, how, people, who, don’t, live, here, are, attracted, to, it, it, is, a, pity, how, cumbria, suffered, during, f, m, crisis, as, it, is, such, a, lovely, place, i, do, hope, that, due, to, the, large, amount, of, attractions, in, cumbria, that, things, will, hopefully, be, back, to, normal, as, can, be, expected, i, was, quite, surprised, at, how, busy, things, were, for, that, time, of, year, it, seems, things, must, be, improving, which, makes, you, confident, i, enjoyed, my, break, but, you, realise, maybe, great, orton, isn’t, such, a, bad, place, to, come, back, to, during, the, past, month, i, have, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, i’m, quite, interested, in, the, open, day, later, on, this, month, i, think, it, will, be, very, interesting, i’m, really, interested, in, the, geology, history, of, the, site, and, also, fossils, found, there, during, this, work, i, don’t, know, much, about, how, the, site, looks, or, how, it, will, be, in, the, future, it, is, amazing, that, you, can, live, so, near, but, still, have, no, idea, of, what, it, is, like, all, i, can, seem, to, remember, are, the, pictures, that, were, shown, on, the, news, months, ago, it, seems, difficult, to, imagine, it, any, different, this, past, week, has, been, very, busy, as, my, mom, is, having, a, stall, for, the, first, time, at, the, craft, fair, in, the, village, hall, i, have, been, helping, her, a, little, bit, and, helped, her, on, the, stall, i, just, sat, with, her, really, she, decided, to, have, a, go, as, she, likes, crafts, and, is, always, making, things, it, was, nice, to, be, involved, in, the, village, and, the, money, from, the, hiring, of, the, stalls, went, to, the, church, which, is, good, it, was, very, quiet, on, saturday, though, and, apparently, that, was, the, worst, it’s, been, for, a, few, years, i, wonder, if, this, is, an, effect, of, the, f, m, however, the, weather, and, other, factors, may, have, contributed, week, beginning, monday, 11th, november, tuesday, fiance, doctors, wednesday, me, dentist, and, in, town, with, mam, missed, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, disappointed, but, got, an, article, from, the, cumberland, news, this, is, included, i, haven’t, spoke, with, anyone, that, went, no, one, has, mentioned, anything, to, me, disappointed, i, missed, it, and, also, because, this, is, probably, one, of, the, only, opportunities, we, will, get, to, know, anything, fiance, and, i, both, agree, it, is, still, like, a, big, secret, no, one, really, allowed, in, and, out, it, doesn’t, feel, like, local, people, are, benefiting, at, all, is, it, anything, to, do, with, us, really, friday, children, in, need, at, the, pub, yesterday, nice, to, see, people, taking, part, again, big, difference, to, during, foot, and, mouth, we, just, made, a, donation, it, was, a, bit, busy, for, us, 1045, raised, sunday, work, at, pub, still, very, busy, the, pub, at, least, it, seems, to, have, recovered, after, f, m, but, from, what, i, have, heard, they, did, suffer, badly, along, with, the, other, businesses, here, week, beginning, 18th, november, tuesday, should, have, been, playing, darts, at, port, carlisle, had, a, break, for, a, week, the, thing, that, is, worrying, about, playing, darts, away, is, the, travelling, some, of, the, country, roads, round, here, are, terrible, is, this, because, of, the, wagons, especially, near, wiggonby, the, road, at, fiance, s, granddad, just, gets, worse, it’s, just, mud, and, less, grass, terrible, is, it, because, of, damage, done, by, wagons, and, a, combination, of, all, the, flooding, in, the, area, now, saturday, fiance, and, i, talking, about, how, the, area, has, changed, we, remembered, back, to, 4, years, ago, when, we, used, to, go, to, the, airfield, burial, site, for, some, peace, even, though, only, rubble, then, really, enjoyed, it, there, we, could, take, the, dog, had, first, driving, lesson, off, fiance, not, again, had, some, fun, and, really, miss, it, at, times, nowhere, round, here, anymore, to, get, peace, can’t, even, enjoy, the, nature, reserve, very, frustrating, week, beginning, monday, 25th, november, monday, keep, realising, when, doing, diaries, that, haven’t, had, a, chance, to, look, at, cumbria, foot, and, mouth, disease, inquiry, report, will, have, to, make, time, for, it, soon, saturday, when, i, was, at, pub, talking, about, new, fence, on, park, for, children, general, mood, is, not, very, pleased, as, it, doesn’t, fit, into, a, country, village, setting, and, nothing, else, done, sunday, can’t, believe, it, is, the, beginning, of, december, everything, is, passing, too, quick, inevitable, 31st, november, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, the, past, 4, weeks, have, been, very, busy, compared, to, what, i, am, used, to, and, at, the, same, time, have, been, quite, frustrating, in, a, few, ways, the, issues, which, have, bothered, fiance, and, i, most, are, mainly, to, do, with, the, onset, of, winter, which, of, course, is, inevitable, but, this, year, they, seem, to, be, worse, than, we, can, previously, remember, since, living, here, in, winter, the, biggest, issue, is, the, state, of, the, roads, in, the, village, and, round, about, it, is, terrible, with, the, amount, of, rain, we, have, had, there, are, puddles, everywhere, and, everything, is, turning, to, mud, the, worst, thing, is, that, it, is, very, difficult, to, walk, or, take, dog, anywhere, which, is, frustrating, you, either, get, absolutely, filthy, or, when, walking, down, the, roads, you, have, to, get, soaked, on, the, sides, of, the, roads, to, avoid, cars, and, going, down, the, lonning, isn’t, really, an, option, as, it, is, really, muddy, and, there, has, been, dumping, we, understand, most, of, this, will, be, due, to, the, weather, but, we, are, sure, some, of, it, on, the, roads, is, due, to, all, the, traffic, there, has, been, especially, at, fiance, s, granddad's, outside, the, front, of, his, gate, and, garden, the, grass, has, gradually, been, stripped, away, and, has, now, turned, to, mud, in, all, the, ears, he, has, lived, there, 50, years, he, has, never, seen, it, as, bad, the, roads, aren’t, like, this, just, nearby, i, have, noticed, other, roads, round, about, are, also, in, a, bad, state, when, i, have, travelled, away, to, other, nearby, village, pubs, when, playing, darts, i, was, disappointed, when, i, missed, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, about, the, watchtree, reserve, as, i, had, to, go, up, town, etc, i, have, not, spoken, to, anyone, i, know, that, attended, the, exhibition, but, wish, there, were, more, opportunities, to, learn, more, about, it, i, did, find, a, newspaper, article, enclosed, about, the, watchtree, it, is, quite, annoying, that, this, won’t, be, open, to, the, public, it, is, understandable, why, this, isn't, possible, but, then, on, the, other, hand, it, is, not, benefiting, anyone, really, who, lives, nearby, fiance, and, i, still, remember, back, to, when, the, airfield, was, still, there, and, it, was, a, lovely, place, to, go, walking, and, to, relax, by, getting, away, from, everything, it, used, to, be, lovely, and, quiet, and, was, also, so, nearby, we, do, actually, quite, miss, it, sometimes, as, there, is, nowhere, else, like, that, round, here, now, even, though, there, have, been, quite, a, few, negative, issues, this, past, month, it, has, also, been, encouraging, when, i, have, been, working, at, the, pub, it, has, been, very, busy, when, i, have, been, there, showing, that, it, must, be, recovering, from, the, effect, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, it, was, also, encouraging, when, there, was, a, night, held, for, children, in, need, when, they, raised, approx, 1045, it, is, good, to, see, people, involved, and, happy, again, one, thing, which, i, did, notice, was, that, the, general, mood, about, the, improvements, made, to, the, park, was, not, very, good, people, were, not, impressed, that, the, new, fence, does, not, look, like, it, belongs, to, the, country, at, all, and, that, that, is, all, that, has, changed, i, have, not, had, time, but, will, go, and, have, a, look, for, myself, december, 2002, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, average, i, haven’t, felt, too, bad, over, christmas, a, little, tired, but, since, i, have, got, a, bit, of, a, cold, and, sore, throat, not, surprising, at, this, time, of, year, average, i, think, it, has, been, all, right, haven’t, been, able, to, walk, very, far, near, village, due, to, weather, and, roads, but, this, isn’t, surprising, at, this, time, of, year, these, past, 4, weeks, have, been, rather, hectic, with, christmas, and, everything, but, i, have, still, had, quite, a, bit, to, write, in, my, diaries, concerning, foot, and, mouth, i, received, the, parish, magazine, for, december, in, which, there, was, a, thank, you, to, all, involved, in, the, craft, fayre, and, there, was, 1, 008, raised, for, st, giles, church, it, was, good, to, be, able, to, contribute, to, something, in, the, village, well, it, was, my, mum, really, but, i, helped, it, is, good, to, see, these, sorts, of, things, happening, here, it’s, good, for, the, village, after, everything, i, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazine, it, is, still, good, to, receive, this, as, it, updates, you, on, everything, and, also, had, information, regarding, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, which, i, missed, i, am, glad, it, was, a, success, and, people, attended, especially, the, school, children, who, were, taken, i, also, received, the, diarist, which, is, good, to, read, it, is, interesting, to, see, what, other, panel, members, are, up, to, and, is, surprising, what, things, can, lead, to, for, example, the, diarist, and, the, samson, tractor, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, have, also, collected, a, couple, of, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, the, first, one, lie, returns, to, watchtree, actually, made, me, feel, better, that, we, were, going, to, get, something, positive, out, of, this, whole, experience, but, the, only, problem, is, that, at, some, moments, in, time, this, won’t, be, enough, for, some, people, involved, as, it, does, not, change, what, happened, and, won’t, make, up, for, what, has, been, lost, i, think, it, just, depends, on, how, you, are, feeling, at, the, time, when, reading, the, articles, the, other, article, village, in, running, for, top, country, award, was, also, quite, pleasing, as, at, least, we, as, a, village, are, being, remembered, and, recognised, for, what, we, went, through, it, is, surprising, that, now, so, long, after, the, actual, foot, and, mouth, crisis, that, we, are, finally, being, recognised, and, so, many, things, are, now, being, written, in, the, paper, over, the, christmas, period, i, have, only, really, had, one, thing, to, complain, about, and, that, is, the, state, of, the, roads, after, the, rain, the, roads, have, been, terrible, to, drive, on, with, the, flooding, and, the, road, sides, turning, into, mud, everything, is, filthy, i, know, this, is, expected, in, winter, out, in, the, country, but, since, i, have, been, here, it, has, never, been, so, bad, especially, at, fiance, s, grandad’s, one, improvement, is, the, signs, which, have, been, put, up, at, the, passing, places, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad, fiance, and, i, both, think, these, are, much, much, better, and, a, lot, safer, we, have, also, spotted, a, couple, of, signs, from, watchtree, which, have, been, up, now, for, a, while, but, are, still, surprising, to, see, now, it, is, time, to, start, everything, again, the, new, year, and, hopefully, this, will, be, a, better, year, for, great, orton, than, the, past, couple, has, been, i, am, glad, it, is, going, to, be, quiet, here, now, for, when, i, start, my, studying, as, opposed, to, the, foot, and, mouth, when, studying, was, very, very, difficult, monday, 27th, january, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, this, week, i, found, an, article, in, the, daily, mail, which, i, thought, was, relevant, it, is, called, boom, and, doom, and, is, about, house, prices, all, over, england, for, 2002, prices, in, north, yorkshire, rose, by, 66, but, in, allerdale, they, only, rose, by, 8, it, did, not, mention, why, this, was, but, some, of, it, must, be, the, result, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, and, the, effect, on, the, area, since, then, this, made, me, think, about, the, effect, on, great, orton, and, how, difficult, it, would, probably, be, to, sell, houses, here, and, if, people, would, really, want, to, move, here, there, are, two, sides, however, as, if, more, property, was, built, in, great, orton, and, the, surrounding, area, things, would, probably, change, and, great, orton, might, lose, some, of, its, farming, background, i, definitely, wouldn't, want, it, to, change, too, much, despite, the, burial, site, i, like, it, just, the, way, it, is, the, great, thing, about, this, week, is, the, weather, for, once, we, have, been, able, to, go, down, the, lonning, with, dog, without, getting, filthy, as, it, is, frosty, it, has, been, great, i, can’t, believe, how, quickly, 2003, is, passing, it, is, february, already, this, past, month, has, been, totally, hectic, with, appointments, arrangement, birthdays, and, the, open, university, it, makes, you, realise, that, whatever, happens, time, goes, on, i, think, this, must, have, been, very, difficult, for, people, directly, involved, in, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, as, life, would, have, had, to, carry, on, despite, whatever, was, going, on, in, their, own, lives, i, think, as, time, has, gone, on, i, have, got, more, used, to, the, idea, of, watchtree, and, accept, it, more, now, i, received, the, watchtree, news, during, the, previous, week, it, is, good, to, hear, that, the, restoration, and, creation, of, the, site, is, finally, complete, overall, i, don’t, think, it, has, taken, as, long, as, i, thought, it, would, for, the, nature, reserve, to, be, established, especially, when, you, compare, it, to, how, long, it, has, taken, for, the, children’s, playground, to, be, improved, nearly, two, years, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, however, it, is, better, late, than, never, i, am, pleased, at, how, the, nature, reserve, sounds, with, al, the, different, species, of, animal, which, had, been, included, or, seen, especially, the, merlin, the, smallest, bird, of, prey, which, was, sited, fiance, and, i, both, find, these, things, very, interesting, it, is, good, that, this, is, happening, so, close, to, us, last, year, we, travelled, to, see, the, osprey, viewpoint, it, was, great, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, have, also, found, a, few, more, articles, two, of, these, are, regarding, the, 20, day, standstill, with, not, been, directly, involved, in, the, farming, side, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, i, am, not, totally, sure, about, all, these, sorts, of, rules, etc, but, think, it, is, good, that, at, least, things, are, trying, to, be, improved, for, the, future, in, case, this, may, happen, again, and, also, as, a, result, of, learning, from, past, events, there, was, also, an, article, showing, watchtree, as, a, finalist, for, the, environmental, project, award, i, definitely, think, that, watchtree, deserves, to, be, considered, for, this, award, as, so, much, has, happened, here, and, at, least, some, good, is, going, to, come, out, of, it, it, would, be, nice, to, get, this, sort, of, award, in, recognition, of, the, hard, work, of, the, people, involved, i, think, this, year, will, hopefully, be, a, better, one, for, cumbria, and, people, may, have, confidence, even, though, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, was, a, tragedy, i, think, cumbria, and, the, people, in, it, are, able, to, recover, from, it, as, people, from, the, newspaper, articles, seem, more, optimistic, and, this, rubs, off, on, you, i, think, this, year, will, be, a, better, one, and, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, at, this, point, monday, 24th, february, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, so, far, these, past, four, weeks, i, have, not, receive, a, watchtree, newsletter, but, there, was, a, small, mention, in, the, parish, magazine, about, he, playground, work, is, underway, and, it, is, hoped, to, be, finished, by, the, summer, it, seems, to, be, taking, a, long, time, to, get, the, playground, sorted, but, at, least, it, will, be, good, for, the, kids, in, the, summer, holidays, it, is, better, late, than, never, there, is, only, one, thing, that, has, bothered, us, over, these, past, weeks, our, fish, whenever, we, change, the, water, the, fish, seem, to, be, ill, and, now, we, have, had, to, add, more, and, more, chemicals, to, reduce, the, amount, of, chlorine, that, seems, to, be, in, the, water, we, did, originally, start, off, with, 13, fish, and, now, only, have, 2, left, it, does, make, you, worry, about, the, state, of, our, water, and, why, more, chemicals, are, possibly, being, added, the, fact, that, the, burial, site, is, so, near, does, make, you, worry, if, that, is, anything, to, do, with, it, over, the, past, four, weeks, i, have, been, very, confident, about, the, future, regarding, foot, and, mouth, with, the, sun, shining, again, and, the, animals, about, it, seems, as, if, nothing, bad, has, happened, here, but, you, know, that, for, some, people, involved, in, the, crisis, the, future, will, never, be, that, easy, or, simple, and, i, do, feel, sympathy, for, them, for, me, it, seems, possible, to, be, able, to, move, on, now, after, the, crisis, and, it, has, been, good, to, see, the, sheep, and, cows, about, and, fiance, has, even, seen, a, couple, of, birds, of, prey, we, are, not, sure, what, they, were, but, think, one, might, have, been, a, merlin, which, was, mentioned, in, a, previous, watchtree, newsletter, as, being, seen, on, site, the, article, called, record, tourism, figures, for, county, was, encouraging, and, shows, that, cumbria, may, be, starting, to, recover, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, i, also, found, another, article, called, fears, over, bovine, tb, time, bomb, i, think, this, is, worrying, and, should, definitely, be, taken, seriously, as, it, would, be, devastating, to, farmers, and, everyone, in, the, county, in, the, past, fortnight, it, has, also, been, my, mam’s, birthday, she, was, really, looking, forward, to, spending, some, time, out, here, and, we, went, to, bowness, for, the, afternoon, with, dog, once, again, you, realise, how, lovely, it, is, out, here, and, how, much, it, should, be, appreciated, overall, in, my, opinion, the, situation, in, cumbria, over, the, past, year, has, definitely, improved, and, will, hopefully, continue, to, do, so, 24th, march, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, these, past, four, weeks, have, been, rather, strange, and, worrying, first, of, all, there, was, the, death, of, simon, harris, a, man, from, the, village, who, you, would, regularly, see, walking, dogs, and, looking, at, the, horses, despite, what, most, of, the, papers, have, said, about, him, to, me, he, was, always, polite, and, possibly, just, a, bit, shy, i, have, enclosed, an, article, about, him, that, was, in, the, paper, shortly, after, his, death, the, headline, is, not, very, nice, but, the, article, does, include, some, of, the, best, comments, about, simon, i, was, quite, shocked, by, the, whole, thing, and, think, it, could, definitely, have, been, handled, better, by, the, papers, the, people, in, the, village, could, also, have, been, a, bit, more, respectful, i, do, not, think, it, was, their, place, to, comment, in, the, way, that, they, did, secondly, the, whole, issue, of, war, with, iraq, is, a, worrying, subject, neither, fiance, or, i, agree, with, what, is, being, done, and, how, it, is, being, carried, out, it, is, a, particularly, worrying, time, for, fiance, s, aunty, as, her, husband, lives, in, kuwait, with, the, rest, of, his, family, she, came, to, england, where, she, is, originally, from, with, her, two, children, during, the, last, gulf, war, she, knows, all, too, well, what, the, danger, are, and, what, is, involved, it, is, a, very, worrying, subject, where, you, feel, totally, helpless, and, at, the, same, time, cannot, get, away, from, it, however, life, still, carries, on, as, harsh, as, it, may, be, i, thought, of, this, when, looking, at, the, past, diaries, i, have, written, and, how, many, have, accumulated, it, is, strange, how, quickly, time, goes, by, and, how, people, are, just, expected, to, cope, and, carry, on, i, thought, in, particular, of, the, people, worst, affected, by, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, how, helpless, they, must, have, felt, and, how, they, coped, life, can, be, a, funny, thing, looking, back, i, think, this, project, has, been, very, worth, while, and, think, it, is, great, that, they, will, be, archived, for, the, future, writing, these, diaries, seems, to, have, become, part, of, my, routine, now, and, i, think, it, will, definitely, be, strange, when, i, no, longer, have, to, write, them, i, have, found, quite, a, few, newspaper, articles, over, the, past, four, weeks, donella, rebuilds, the, cumberland, show, was, encouraging, about, the, future, of, cumbria, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, however, there, are, still, worrying, issues, arising, such, as, in, the, articles, of, mp, calls, for, vaccination, to, keep, f, m, under, control, and, from, uruguay, with, a, threat, which, highlight, issues, of, important, to, the, farming, industry, i, have, also, been, very, busy, over, the, past, few, weeks, as, my, second, assignment, was, due, for, my, university, work, which, was, quite, hectic, i, have, had, a, break, for, the, past, couple, of, days, as, i, have, not, been, very, well, a, bad, cough, sore, throat, and, stomach, and, a, stuffy, nose, i, haven’t, done, too, badly, over, the, winter, months, with, illnesses, so, i, can’t, really, complain, lastly, our, water, hasn’t, been, of, the, best, quality, lately, on, occasions, it, is, white, and, fizzes, not, the, most, appetizing, 21st, april, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, these, past, 4, weeks, have, just, seem, to, fly, by, quite, a, few, good, things, have, happened, and, even, though, i, am, feeling, quite, tired, i, have, had, a, good, month, firstly, fiance, dog, and, i, have, finally, go, t, a, small, space, of, our, own, we, have, got, an, allotment, about, 8, miles, away, and, it, is, surrounded, by, horses, and, fields, it, belongs, to, a, man, who, lives, there, and, owns, all, the, land, roundabout, but, unfortunately, he, is, no, longer, well, enough, to, work, the, land, so, has, let, us, have, it, it, will, need, a, lot, of, work, but, will, be, good, for, us, so, far, we, have, got, potatoes, raspberries, and, rhubarb, growing, dog, even, helps, to, dig, even, though, we, live, in, the, country, on, our, own, block, it, is, not, always, that, easy, to, get, any, peace, we, have, also, had, the, opportunity, to, join, the, cumbria, wildlife, trust, a, leaflet, came, through, our, door, and, we, thought, it, would, be, brilliant, as, we, would, be, kept, up, to, date, with, all, the, latest, goings, on, in, cumbria, learn, a, lot, more, about, the, wildlife, and, also, possibly, get, the, chance, to, do, some, voluntary, work, fiance, and, i, are, really, interested, and, think, it, is, great, we, get, sent, though, a, certain, number, of, magazines, every, year, and, every, month, we, send, a, small, donation, so, we, feel, like, we, are, helping, a, little, bit, as, well, the, article, which, i, found, in, one, of, the, magazines, id, enclosed, on, the, next, page, the, other, thing, which, has, made, my, month, is, knowing, that, we, are, going, to, hawkshead, again, my, mam, fiance, dog, and, i, are, going, for, a, short, break, just, 3, nights, for, my, birthday, we, have, got, it, all, booked, and, are, really, looking, forward, to, it, it, was, great, last, time, especially, for, dog, i, just, hope, she, doesn’t, get, stuck, under, the, bed, in, the, caravan, this, time, as, she, is, a, bit, bigger, now, than, she, was, then, this, past, week, i, have, also, been, in, touch, with, my, dad, in, south, africa, as, it, was, his, birthday, it, turns, out, that, he, may, be, passing, through, carlisle, for, a, couple, of, days, at, the, end, of, next, week, it, would, be, lovely, to, see, him, again, and, i, think, he, will, love, great, orton, and, our, allotment, i, think, he, has, always, liked, the, thought, of, living, in, the, country, and, would, love, to, retire, to, somewhere, nice, and, quiet, things, will, also, have, improved, and, we, have, grown, up, a, bit, since, he, was, last, here, about, 3, years, ago, it, should, be, good, it, is, funny, that, after, living, in, south, africa, for, so, long, he, is, still, drawn, to, the, lifestyle, in, cumbria, lastly, i, have, made, a, note, of, the, final, meeting, for, the, foot, and, mouth, diaries, and, hope, to, be, there, i, bet, it, passes, really, quickly, now, and, will, be, over, before, i, know, it, how, strange, 28th, april, 4th, may, monday, got, 3, articles, from, cumberland, news, april, 25th, 2003, breeders, hit, out, discrimination, fmd, burial, site, celebrates, new, life, and, my, favourite, its, a, dog’s, life, for, rosie, the, lamb, tuesday, saw, c, friday, noticed, the, park, is, coming, on, a, bit, better, for, the, children, it, was, mentioned, in, the, orton, parish, awarded, 25, 000, to, reference, drain, level, and, re, seed, new, play, equipment, will, follow, saturday, some, of, the, children, were, allowed, to, attend, meetings, to, discuss, it, good, to, involve, children, about, time, too, at, least, children, will, be, able, to, play, football, 5th, 11th, may, tuesday, working, really, hard, have, to, get, assignment, posted, off, tomorrow, night, before, we, go, away, on, thursday, hectic, wednesday, service, held, at, watchtree, unable, to, go, but, think, it, was, a, very, good, idea, newspaper, article, enclosed, was, written, before, the, service, thursday, away, to, hawskhead, exciting, friday, my, birthday, had, a, lovely, day, went, shopping, in, the, morning, to, forest, in, the, afternoon, and, for, a, meal, at, night, lovely, sunday, back, from, holiday, already, it, was, lovely, everyone, was, so, friendly, or, perhaps, we, just, noticed, it, more, there, 12th, 18th, may, tuesday, fiance, at, doctors, not, very, well, he, has, got, a, viral, infection, as, well, as, fluid, behind, his, ears, told, to, just, take, it, easy, wednesday, i, have, been, sent, info, to, chose, courses, for, open, university, that, i, would, like, to, do, next, year, and, in, the, future, am, going, to, take, the, environmental, studies, route, hopefully, leading, to, diploma, in, environment, and, development, and, possibly, further, to, ba, bsc, in, environmental, studies, i, did, like, archaeology, but, think, what, i, am, doing, is, a, lot, more, relevant, to, the, future, foot, and, mouth, and, watchtree, made, me, realise, that, friday, got, watchtree, newsletter, this, week, i, will, enclose, it, this, time, as, it, covers, quite, a, few, areas, and, has, a, bit, of, information, there, is, information, about, the, service, held, awards, that, have, been, won, and, also, new, wildlife, which, are, now, present, on, the, site, lapwings, oystercatchers, and, ringed, plovers, 19th, 25th, may, 2003, tuesday, dad, has, come, to, visit, for, a, couple, of, days, from, south, africa, nice, surprise, enjoyed, seeing, him, dad, asking, about, fmd, crisis, he, saw, it, on, tv, over, there, and, how, close, it, was, i, think, he, was, quite, shocked, thursday, i, was, surprised, that, even, though, south, africa, is, so, different, he, would, still, like, to, live, somewhere, in, this, country, makes, you, think, again, how, lucky, you, are, and, what, you, take, for, granted, saturday, article, from, cumberland, news, may, 23, reward, for, post, foot, and, mouth, achievements, 25th, may, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, every, time, i, come, to, write, these, diaries, i, look, back, over, the, past, four, weeks, and, notice, they, are, becoming, more, and, more, busy, the, past, couple, of, weeks, have, been, no, exception, it, is, already, nearly, half, way, through, the, year, i, can’t, believe, it, over, the, past, 4, weeks, i, have, been, on, holiday, turned, 22, and, my, dad, had, popped, over, from, south, africa, for, a, few, days, hectic, but, good, firstly, hawkshead, was, lovely, again, i, wouldn’t, say, anything, different, it, was, great, we, all, had, a, lovely, time, and, i, had, a, really, good, birthday, when, you, are, at, home, in, great, orton, you, forget, how, much, is, really, out, there, in, cumbria, to, do, and, see, we, definitely, think, we, should, take, advantage, of, it, more, often, shortly, after, we, arrived, back, from, hawkshead, my, dad, popped, up, to, carlisle, for, a, couple, of, days, it, was, a, lovely, surprise, and, it, was, good, to, see, him, he, absolutely, loves, it, where, we, are, and, thinks, we, are, very, lucky, even, though, south, africa, is, so, different, he, still, thinks, it, is, lovely, out, here, looking, out, onto, fields, this, did, make, me, realise, how, lucky, we, are, despite, what, happened, due, to, foot, and, mouth, inevitably, sometimes, we, do, take, it, for, granted, my, dad, remembered, watching, about, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, in, south, africa, but, did, not, realise, exactly, how, close, it, was, i, think, he, was, quite, shocked, foot, and, mouth, has, definitely, made, me, more, aware, of, my, surroundings, and, how, everything, works, i, have, definitely, noticed, this, when, i, have, been, doing, my, studying, for, open, university, i, am, now, at, the, point, where, i, can, chose, my, courses, next, year, and, therefore, which, path, i, am, going, to, take, i, have, decided, to, take, courses, leading, to, a, diploma, in, environment, and, development, and, if, everything, goes, to, plan, for, an, environmental, studies, degree, i, am, really, enjoying, what, i, am, doing, at, the, minute, and, think, it, is, definitely, useful, and, relevant, for, the, future, i, did, enjoy, studying, archaeology, but, think, the, environment, and, related, issues, are, more, important, at, the, present, and, in, the, future, on, the, 7th, may, there, was, a, memorial, service, at, watchtree, to, mark, a, two, year, anniversary, from, when, the, last, animal, was, buried, at, the, site, i, think, this, was, a, good, idea, and, it, is, appropriate, to, remember, the, animals, that, were, killed, i, was, unable, to, attend, the, service, but, have, managed, to, get, a, newspaper, article, about, it, and, it, was, also, mentioned, in, the, watchtree, newsletter, i, have, included, this, newsletter, in, with, these, diaries, at, it, contains, quite, a, bit, of, information, on, a, few, different, aspects, i, think, it, is, good, about, the, wildlife, which, is, emerging, on, the, site, the, park, or, play, area, for, children, is, also, coming, on, fairly, well, at, last, it, has, finally, been, reseeded, as, well, as, levelled, it, looks, better, i, have, also, included, 4, newspaper, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, with, my, favourite, being, rosie, the, lamb, i, have, put, this, article, in, as, i, thought, it, was, lovely, 22nd, june, 2004, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, how, strange, it, seems, that, all, this, is, coming, to, an, end, and, really, how, quickly, time, has, passed, in, my, situation, i, would, say, that, time, has, healed, a, few, aspects, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, and, things, don’t, seem, so, bad, 18, months, on, i, enjoyed, the, foot, and, mouth, evening, and, learnt, a, lot, from, it, about, other, people’s, views, and, experiences, i, enjoyed, it, a, lot, more, than, i, thought, i, would, and, thought, that, the, main, themes, found, during, the, research, were, ones, which, i, would, have, agreed, with, one, thing, which, was, said, which, has, made, me, think, was, the, comment, that, these, diaries, would, be, our, type, of, memorial, i, had, never, once, thought, of, this, research, in, that, sort, of, way, but, the, more, i, think, about, it, the, more, i, agree, and, like, the, idea, it, definitely, has, been, worthwhile, being, able, to, contribute, to, something, especially, if, it, may, be, able, to, help, in, some, way, in, the, future, when, compared, to, the, article, that, i, found, in, the, cumberland, news, about, a, man’s, memorial, to, the, animals, that, he, lost, during, foot, and, mouth, i, definitely, think, ours, is, more, fitting, and, will, probably, do, some, good, i, understand, everyone, has, the, right, to, express, their, views, in, their, own, way, but, to, me, this, was, too, loud, and, too, inappropriate, however, each, to, their, own, and, at, the, end, of, the, day, at, least, people, are, trying, to, remember, in, a, good, way, as, opposed, to, sweeping, it, under, the, carpet, the, week, of, the, foot, and, mouth, evening, we, were, without, a, car, and, noticed, how, much, we, relied, on, it, and, took, it, for, granted, especially, out, here, as, there, is, a, very, limited, bus, service, everything, is, sorted, out, now, and, we, are, back, to, normal, with, a, newer, little, car, thank, you, very, much, c, for, the, lift, there, and, back, in, general, the, past, few, months, just, seem, to, have, flown, by, and, in, particular, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, don’t, seem, to, have, time, to, fit, everything, in, and, am, trying, to, get, my, assignments, done, on, time, it, turns, out, to, be, quite, a, bit, more, difficult, than, i, thought, it, is, hard, work, but, will, definitely, be, worth, it, in, th, end, over, the, past, 6, months, even, i, have, learnt, so, much, the, next, special, occasion, which, is, coming, up, is, fiance, s, birthday, 21st, july, we, are, thinking, of, going, back, to, hawkshead, again, for, a, few, days, we, really, like, it, there, and, i’m, sure, will, return, again, and, again, it, just, shows, you, that, you, don’t, need, to, leave, cumbria, to, have, a, good, holiday, well, here, we, are, at, the, end, it, just, makes, me, wonder, what, life, will, be, like, in, 18, months, from, now, will, things, be, any, different, they, probably, will, be, in, some, ways, and, hopefully, will, be, for, the, best, 20th, july, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, it, does, seem, very, strange, to, be, sitting, down, to, write, my, last, lot, of, diaries, it, feels, good, to, have, completed, something, as, worthwhile, as, this, as, well, as, it, hopefully, doing, some, good, in, the, future, concerning, foot, and, mouth, crisis, or, any, other, similar, situation, i, also, find, it, has, helped, me, to, become, a, bit, more, confident, and, aware, of, things, around, me, i, remember, back, to, when, i, attended, my, first, meeting, and, how, nervous, i, was, i, think, i, can, handle, things, like, that, a, bit, better, now, we, have, just, got, back, from, holiday, we, had, a, lovely, time, and, did, so, much, we, went, walking, with, dog, to, many, places, and, they, are, all, free, it, just, shows, you, what, a, good, holiday, you, can, have, in, cumbria, on, a, cheap, budget, you, don’t, need, much, else, the, only, disappointing, thing, is, that, some, of, the, places, fiance, and, i, had, been, to, in, the, past, are, now, closed, as, they, have, been, sold, this, has, not, yet, happened, to, talkin, tarn, and, i, definitely, think, it, should, be, given, to, the, cumbria, wildlife, trust, as, people, would, still, have, access, to, it, fiance, and, i, both, agree, that, the, countryside, is, recovering, and, it, is, great, to, be, able, to, wander, about, again, i, have, collected, a, few, more, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, related, to, foot, and, mouth, it, is, good, to, see, breeders, doing, well, again, and, people, getting, back, into, the, swing, of, things, i, would, just, like, to, thank, everyone, involved, for, involving, me, in, this, project, and, i, wish, them, all, the, best, in, the, future]
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               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being, in, change, of, an, offensive, weapon, a, knife, the, judge, had, acquitted, her, of, the, offences, he, showed, leniency, towards, her, last, year, during, the, fmd, crisis, she, had, returned, to, her, home, to, find, that, her, pet, goat, had, been, killed, by, slaughterers, because, the, animal, was, within, the, 3, km, radius, she, had, gone, berserk, over, this, and, threatened, the, police, officer, and, others, with, the, knife, she, had, to, be, forcibly, restrained, she, was, very, distraught, over, this, killing, even, after, she, had, appeared, in, court, and, had, been, acquitted, of, all, charges, she, showed, great, emotion, not, only, being, freed, but, also, quite, upset, over, the, loss, of, the, goat, perhaps, her, actions, didn’t, happen, to, a, lot, of, other, people, who, had, similar, things, happen, to, them, however, the, loss, of, a, lot, of, pet, animals, and, in, some, cases, needless, slaughter, of, many, farm, animals, still, creates, unhappy, memories, of, 2001, week, 2, tuesday, whilst, walking, the, dog, i, met, a, farmer, from, the, edge, of, the, village, who, has, friends, and, stock, in, close, proximity, to, the, 2, land, fill, sites, he, is, still, very, concerned, about, materials, on, these, sites, the, nearest, site, contained, hundreds, of, carcasses, this, has, been, completed, and, capped, he, is, concerned, about, leachate, from, this, site, and, feels, that, it, doesn’t, matter, how, much, clay, and, soil, were, used, to, contain, this, site, the, effects, of, heavy, rain, is, bound, to, find, a, way, down, and, also, to, drain, it, he, doesn’t, want, to, plough, these, fields, nor, can, he, sell, stock, that, have, grazed, the, same, fields, there, is, pyre, ash, being, tipped, on, the, other, site, again, what, happens, to, the, rainwater, that, runs, off, this, site, also, there, are, concerns, about, the, large, flocks, of, seagulls, that, visit, both, sites, daily, another, concern, is, what, is, happening, to, the, open, cast, coal, site, that, is, situated, almost, due, south, of, gilgarran, village, the, farmer, i, talked, to, today, is, concerned, about, this, huge, site, no, coal, has, been, moved, from, this, site, for, months, there, are, concerns, that, this, site, is, going, to, be, filled, with, waste, will, it, be, from, fmd, sites, we, as, a, village, are, very, concerned, about, rumours, of, land, fill, on, a, huge, scale, friday, noticed, that, there, was, work, being, carried, out, on, the, top, of, the, burial, site, no, villagers, have, commented, on, this, despite, large, yellow, diggers, operating, sunday, work, continuing, on, the, burial, site, cannot, make, out, what, kind, of, work, is, being, done, there, week, 3, monday, work, is, still, going, on, at, the, burial, site, i, still, don’t, know, what, is, going, on, but, the, diggers, involved, are, the, same, as, when, animals, were, being, buried, there, when, animals, were, being, buried, there, last, year, the, smell, coming, from, that, site, was, terrible, to, say, the, least, it, was, not, coming, from, the, dead, animals, as, most, observers, thought, but, from, decomposing, waste, material, that, had, already, been, buried, on, the, site, prior, to, fmd, when, excavators, dug, into, the, soil, to, make, trenches, for, the, dead, animals, they, dug, into, this, decomposing, matter, hence, the, terrible, smell, despite, the, work, that, is, going, on, there, today, no, comments, from, villagers, are, forthcoming, it, seems, to, me, that, now, that, fmd, has, gone, the, general, public, are, not, interested, any, more, unless, they, read, something, in, the, local, papers, written, by, some, enterprising, reporter, week, 4, tuesday, work, is, still, going, on, in, the, former, burial, site, villagers, don’t, seem, to, be, bothered, fmd, is, gone, so, nobody, is, interested, any, more, wednesday, whilst, trying, to, gain, comments, from, villagers, over, the, effects, of, fmd, one, or, two, comments, from, some, individuals, show, concern, about, the, outbreak, last, year, but, don’t, seem, too, concerned, over, any, after, effects, if, any, two, interesting, comments, suggest, that, 1, the, outbreak, was, started, deliberately, by, this, country, in, collusion, with, the, agriculturists, of, the, e.e.c, so, as, to, concentrate, meat, production, in, europe, and, leave, the, uk, to, concentrate, on, arable, farming, 2, the, outbreak, was, started, by, a, terrorist, attack, the, government, would, not, declare, this, because, it, would, cause, widespread, panic, thursday, 23, 25, hours, huge, fire, at, the, site, where, pyre, ash, is, being, tipped, 250,000, used, tyres, caught, fire, arson, is, suspected, fire, fighters, tried, to, contain, the, blaze, but, couldn’t, use, large, amounts, of, water, in, case, water, courses, became, contaminated, friday, 05, 00, fire, still, blazing, at, the, pyre, ash, site, later, in, the, morning, the, fire, was, showing, signs, of, dying, down, apparently, it, was, left, to, burn, itself, out, much, heavy, smoke, pollution, was, evident, drifting, south, west, for, about, nine, miles, reading, the, local, evening, paper, about, the, blaze, there, was, also, a, report, that, villagers, from, disington, 1, miles, from, gilgarran, were, complaining, of, the, foul, smell, from, both, waste, sites, parish, councillors, are, very, concerned, about, this, does, it, coincide, with, work, currently, being, carried, out, on, the, burial, site, the, smell, from, these, sites, plus, the, fact, that, animals, were, buried, on, one, site, and, pyre, ash, plus, the, huge, fire, from, the, other, site, all, happening, this, week, is, causing, concern, in, this, area, but, once, this, hue, and, cry, dies, down, people, will, soon, forget, about, it, all, week, 5, monday, through, to, friday, observed, work, on, top, of, the, burial, site, don’t, know, if, any, work, is, still, going, on, on, the, northern, and, western, sides, friday, local, weekly, paper, carried, the, report, on, the, recent, large, fire, that, occurred, on, the, alco, site, last, week, when, 250,000, tyres, caught, fire, somehow, it, was, intersting, to, read, that, the, fire, brigade, did, not, use, any, water, to, extinguish, the, blaze, in, case, pollution, occurred, in, water, courses, the, fire, was, left, to, burn, itself, out, saturday, burial, site, it, looks, like, there, is, new, soil, being, tipped, on, top, for, some, reason, no, reported, comments, froim, the, parish, council, over, this, despite, very, vociferous, objections, by, them, over, the, use, of, this, and, the, alco, site, in, the, past, sunday, talked, to, our, local, county, councillor, who, lives, in, this, village, he, feels, very, strongly, that, these, two, sites, are, dangerous, he, thinks, that, both, sites, are, a, health, hazard, risk, due, to, obnoxious, odours, and, in, particular, the, large, fire, that, occurred, last, week, which, produced, a, lot, of, polluted, smoke, for, a, distance, of, six, miles, some, people, reckoned, that, the, smell, of, burning, tyres, could, be, smelt, here, in, gilgarran, there, have, been, numerous, fires, on, these, sites, over, the, last, few, years, these, fires, give, rise, to, compaliant, by, people, like, us, but, more, so, from, the, nearer, village, of, distington, 1, miles, west, of, here, the, councillor, suggests, that, there, could, be, more, incidents, of, cancer, cases, in, this, area, in, coming, years, along, with, respiratory, troubles, as, well, as, some, cases, of, bronchitis, related, problems, he, himself, has, recently, suddenly, started, sinusitis, which, he, hasn’t, had, before, all, in, all, he, wasn’t, happy, about, the, situation, on, both, sites, we, don’t, know, what, is, being, tipped, there, all, we, can, do, as, a, community, is, accept, what, we, are, being, told, by, the, site, owners, as, previously, stated, animal, carcasses, were, being, tipped, and, buried, for, about, three, days, before, we, were, told, officially, that, this, was, so, incidentally, the, site, where, animals, are, buried, is, owned, by, cumbria, county, council, this, seems, to, be, totally, against, the, advice, of, county, council, officials, who, look, after, the, environment, and, the, health, of, the, population, as, i’ve, written, before, there, are, going, to, be, bigger, concerns, if, the, opencast, coal, site, to, the, south, of, the, village, becomes, a, landfill, site, for, refuse, from, parts, of, the, county, fifty, miles, away, at, the, moment, there, are, no, suggestions, that, anything, from, the, fmd, outbreak, will, be, dumped, there, having, said, that, however, we, as, villagers, didn’t, know, of, carcasses, being, buried, or, pyre, ash, being, tipped, until, after, it, had, happened, we, await, the, outcome, of, this, coal, site, with, some, trepidation, after, all, no, coal, has, come, from, this, site, for, some, months, it, has, all, the, indication, of, becoming, a, land, fill, site, week, 6, monday, to, wednesday, if, work, is, still, ongoing, at, the, burial, site, it, is, not, visible, from, our, side, of, the, site, i, still, don’t, know, what, is, going, on, there, it, may, all, be, innocent, and, an, improvement, to, the, environment, after, all, this, is, what, the, site, owners, have, to, do, thursday, a, delegation, of, meps, visit, the, north, of, the, county, they, have, come, to, assess, the, situation, for, themselves, and, to, report, back, to, the, european, parliament, no, doubt, they, will, also, report, back, to, their, own, constituents, in, their, own, countries, the, delegation, visit, the, auction, mart, at, longtown, where, the, disease, was, first, noticed, in, this, country, and, also, visited, the, big, burial, site, at, great, orton, where, it, was, estimated, that, half, a, million, carcasses, were, buried, good, coverage, by, the, local, press, radio, and, t.v, gave, anyone, interested, the, views, of, the, delegation, thursday, saturday, the, mep, delegation, agreed, that, the, fmd, situation, had, been, disastrous, we, all, know, that, comments, from, some, tourist, and, agriculture, observers, ranged, from, a, waste, of, time, to, at, least, some, politicians, have, bothered, to, visit, us, our, own, couldn’t, do, that, personally, i, think, that, some, good, came, out, of, this, particularly, when, it, was, reported, that, the, dutch, had, used, vaccination, techniques, when, they, had, a, small, outbreak, many, people, think, that, the, british, government, should, have, had, a, public, inquiry, into, the, outbreak, what, have, they, to, hide, cumbria, is, holding, its, own, inquiry, quite, rightly, so, other, organisations, such, as, lancaster, university, are, holding, research, into, the, outbreak, why, not, the, government, eventually, we, will, know, why, perhaps, not, in, my, lifetime, though, the, minister, and, maff, have, a, lot, to, answer, for, week, 7, thought, it, would, be, of, interest, to, include, copies, of, the, newsletter, that, the, local, authorities, issued, to, every, household, in, the, area, regarding, the, disposal, of, carcasses, and, effluent, it, will, be, of, note, that, there, was, a, fire, last, year, on, the, alco, site, also, involving, tyres, very, similar, to, last, years, only, not, as, big, a, report, on, local, t.v, today, stated, that, the, recent, visit, of, meps, to, the, area, considered, that, vaccination, should, have, been, used, at, the, outset, and, be, should, seriously, considered, should, a, future, outbreak, occur, heard, of, reports, of, an, outbreak, of, t.b, in, cattle, in, other, parts, of, the, country, this, was, reported, to, be, more, serious, than, fmd, should, a, major, outbreak, occur, this, would, lead, to, the, question, of, disposal, should, the, need, arise, as, i’ve, already, reported, in, previous, entries, the, use, of, the, opencast, coal, site, to, the, south, east, of, here, is, causing, concern, in, some, quarters, although, the, site, didn’t, feature, in, the, fmd, crisis, there, is, a, feeling, that, it, is, being, earmarked, for, use, in, the, future, should, the, need, arise, or, even, the, rumour, of, an, incinerator, is, planned, for, there, the, general, feeling, here, and, in, the, surrounding, area, is, that, we, have, had, enough, dumping, of, carcasses, effluent, toxic, chemicals, etc, it, could, be, that, the, authorities, have, seen, that, the, sites, concerned, have, handled, those, substances, before, that, an, extension, of, disposal, sites, in, this, area, would, be, effective, week, 8, nothing, of, any, significance, to, report, this, week, week, 9, now, that, cumbria’s, fmd, inquiry, has, started, a, lot, of, people, i, have, met, this, week, recall, the, happenings, of, a, year, ago, even, more, interesting, is, the, coverage, in, the, local, press, and, t.v, plenty, of, publicity, by, the, media, shows, how, little, the, government, an, maff, in, particular, let, the, farming, and, tourism, industries, of, the, county, down, there, has, been, plenty, of, distressing, stories, by, farmers, not, only, of, infected, animals, being, slaughtered, but, also, the, slaughtering, of, healthy, animals, in, the, 3, km, circle, of, an, outbreak, one, particularly, distressing, point, of, evidence, was, when, a, farmer, described, to, the, panel, the, birth, of, a, calf, five, days, after, it’s, mother, had, been, shot, we, at, the, time, of, the, outbreak, were, hearing, these, stories, on, a, daily, basis, and, still, maff, and, mr, brown, kept, telling, us, that, the, outbreak, was, under, control, all, i, can, say, at, this, point, is, may, heaven, help, us, when, it, all, happens, again, week, 10, work, is, still, going, on, at, the, burial, site, it, looks, like, new, soil, is, being, dumped, on, top, of, the, actual, site, and, dozed, to, level, it, of, and, to, smooth, it, out, on, the, side, all, we, can, do, is, accept, that, the, management, of, the, site, are, making, it, better, for, all, concerned, and, that, they, are, as, concerned, as, we, are, the, much, publicised, cumbrian, fmd, inquiry, team, visited, the, land, fill, site, they, met, local, councillors, who, expressed, their, concern, over, this, site, and, the, alco, site, no, other, report, was, forthcoming, from, the, team, the, inquiry, team, finish, their, evidence, gathering, this, week, one, very, important, statement, was, made, that, the, minister, of, the, environment, should, make, a, statement, over, this, outbreak, and, should, even, make, a, visit, to, these, sites, county, wide, there, has, been, total, silence, from, mrs, beckett’s, department, over, this, request, the, same, silence, is, observed, from, any, government, source, for, that, matter, everyone, asks, the, same, questions, what, have, they, got, to, hide, why, aren’t, they, interested, what, plans, are, being, made, and, what, lessons, have, been, learned, from, last, years, outbreak, a, lot, of, farms, are, restocking, and, in, this, neighbourhood, farm, work, is, going, on, as, before, or, so, it, looks, as, time, goes, on, though, there, seems, to, be, a, smouldering, anger, that, no, one, in, authority, is, as, concerned, as, well, are, week, 11, work, is, still, on, going, at, the, burial, site, no, comments, heard, from, any, of, the, villagers, or, neighbours, this, week, diary, 12, monday, from, my, own, observation, work, is, still, ongoing, at, the, burial, site, more, heavy, plant, has, been, moved, on, to, the, top, of, the, giant, amount, and, it, looks, as, though, more, topsoil, is, being, laid, over, the, mount, perhaps, to, improve, the, site, but, water, may, still, permeate, into, and, through, the, site, we, can, only, believe, the, operators, that, this, is, a, right, thing, to, do, friday, talked, to, 2, it, villagers, about, the, after, effects, of, fmd, one, said, oh, it's, all, over, now, and, forgotten, about, it, doesn't, bother, me, one, bit, the, other, said, it, all, in, the, past, we, just, have, to, forget, about, it, it, seems, that, life, is, returning, to, normal, in, all, aspects, of, village, life, people, don't, think, about, last, year, unless, the, diarist, mentions, that, sunday, a, bad, day, or, weather, wise, this, prolonged, rain, may, halt, work, on, the, burial, site, most, people, are, reluctant, to, talk, about, f, m, d, now, even, if, it, was, one, of, the, worst, economic, and, social, disasters, to, hit, this, country, and, this, county, in, particular, now, that, it, is, over, people's, memories, begin, to, fade, however, some, of, us, are, not, happy, at, having, these, two, disposal, sites, within, a, 1000, metres, of, this, village, fmd, may, be, over, but, these, burial, sites, are, here, for, a, long, time, yet, diary, 13, observed, in, work, on, burial, site, more, heavy, machinery, and, plant, moved, in, and, large, quantities, of, soil, are, being, laid, down, and, smoothed, out, diary, 14, talked, to, some, religious, today, about, the, after, effects, of, fmd, without, exception, they, are, not, interested, it's, all, over, with, an, idle, one, to, be, reminded, about, it, are, the, general, comments, nobody, seems, bothered, that, there, are, hundreds, of, animals, buried, a, 1000, yards, from, his, village, or, the, fact, that, there, is, leachate, and, pyre, ash, buried, in, another, site, looking, at, the, burial, site, and, the, work, that, is, going, on, there, it, does, look, as, though, the, management, there, are, doing, everything, to, make, the, site, safe, diary, 15, i, met, a, smallholder, today, to, whom, i, have, talked, to, in, the, past, about, the, effects, and, after, effects, of, fmd, he, still, not, happy, about, the, burial, site, despite, the, landscaping, and, smoothing, off, of, the, large, quantities, of, topsoil, only, time, will, tell, he, says, he, does, not, have, any, stock, near, to, the, site, but, he, has, sheep, on, the, farmer's, land, since, fmd, finished, though, his, stock, movements, are, still, restricted, by, new, legislation, that, has, come, in, since, the, area, was, declared, free, for, instance, or, if, he, takes, a, sheep, to, auction, he, asked, to, have, nine, pieces, of, paper, for, this, transaction, if, the, price, is, not, right, and, he, has, to, take, the, she, back, to, his, land, he, was, put, them, back, in, the, same, field, that, they, came, from, and, it, cannot, move, them, to, three, weeks, he, then, has, to, obtain, a, licence, to, do, this, he, does, think, that, the, authorities, are, not, going, to, be, as, strict, shortly, this, is, just, one, of, the, precautions, that, have, come, in, to, try, and, combat, any, recurrence, of, fmd, diary, 16, i, met, the, smallholder, who, rents, land, a, from, the, farmer, in, the, village, his, income, from, the, sheep, that, he, a, breeds, has, been, nil, like, many, more, people, in, similar, circumstances, fortunately, for, him, had, he, has, an, income, from, another, source, the, subject, of, compensation, came, up, during, our, conversation, i, personally, do, not, have, any, comment, to, make, about, this, item, as, it, maybe, just, a, rumour, apparently, he, got, it, bee, in, his, bonnet, about, compensation, paid, out, to, people, who, were, not, in, the, agricultural, business, what, seemed, to, upset, him, was, that, he, had, heard, that, some, of, fish, and, chip, shop, owner, in, the, lake, district, had, been, paid, 170, per, month, compensation, for, the, loss, of, trade, he, didn't, mind, too, much, that, hoteliers, and, guest, house, owners, had, claimed, compensation, but, wondered, where, else, would, this, kind, of, money, go, when, he, himself, had, been, paid, nothing, this, is, the, first, time, i've, heard, this, one, diary, 17, attended, the, cumberland, show, at, every, to, be, park, carlisle, we, as, a, family, used, to, attend, this, annual, show, regularly, both, as, spectators, and, competitors, we, have, never, seen, the, show, like, the, one, put, on, this, year, when, will, things, really, get, back, to, normal, many, of, us, think, that, agriculture, is, back, to, pre, fmd, cattle, and, sheep, on, grazing, in, the, fields, lambing, has, reached, new, heights, in, produce, on, some, farms, calves, are, being, born, silage, and, haymaking, is, progressing, when, the, weather, permits, but, there, are, still, restrictions, on, animal, movements, hence, no, sheep, cattle, or, pigs, at, this, year's, show, only, horses, poultry, dogs, and, rabbits, not, many, pieces, of, agricultural, machinery, onshore, either, plenty, of, chartered, accountants, tents, craft, tents, horse, feeds, and, tack, displays, in, the, main, arena, and, bands, not, an, agricultural, show, as, we, knew, it, it, seems, to, be, the, same, at, other, shows, ennerdale, show, is, one, of, our, local, shows, this, year, there, isn't, going, to, be, any, horses, or, sheep, generally, there, are, no, cattle, shown, at, the, show, but, without, sheep, hill, farmers, dominate, the, show, the, there, isn't, going, to, be, much, on, show, at, all, it, was, always, a, good, show, for, equestrian, events, at, many, levels, this, show, was, always, a, must, for, our, family, i, don't, think, that, we, will, be, going, this, year, diary, 18, from, the, golf, course, and, golf, driving, range, i, can, look, out, on, to, the, western, side, of, the, burial, site, i, have, written, in, previous, weeks, about, the, work, there, has, been, going, on, at, this, site, viewing, the, site, are, from, our, village, side, would, hardly, know, what, that, there, ever, was, a, burial, site, hundreds, of, tons, of, topsoil, had, been, laid, and, smoothed, out, to, make, more, or, less, like, a, landscaped, feature, it, looks, really, good, from, the, western, side, though, things, are, little, different, work, is, still, going, on, there, large, amounts, of, soil, have, been, tipped, and, levelled, off, there, are, still, portakabins, there, and, heavy, plant, can, still, be, seen, moving, about, no, doubt, the, western, side, well, look, as, good, as, the, eastern, side, before, long, diary, 19, it, is, announced, that, the, prime, minister, and, his, wife, and, son, of, his, family, at, a, visit, to, cumbria, the, pm, arrives, in, west, cumbria, all, kinds, of, reports, are, written, in, the, local, and, national, press, about, what, he, is, going, to, do, or, not, do, or, what, he, should, be, doing, after, all, he, is, on, holiday, the, pm, did, meet, some, farmers, leaders, the, press, as, usual, stirred, things, up, or, as, to, where, he, should, be, meeting, tourism, officials, say, that, the, trip, was, fantastic, for, tourism, in, the, county, or, person, they, i, can't, see, what, difference, it, made, if, people, want, to, come, cumbria, they, will, come, irrespective, of, whether, the, pm, comes, or, not, diary, 20, after, a, lot, of, protests, it, looks, as, though, it, the, 20, day, restriction, on, cattle, movement, will, be, lifted, perhaps, this, will, now, mean, that, they, could, be, cattle, and, sheep, entries, at, local, agricultural, shows, some, shows, are, going, ahead, with, very, limited, entries, of, livestock, and, some, with, no, animal, entries, at, all, these, shows, have, always, been, very, popular, with, my, family, for, over, 20, years, also, living, with, in, a, farming, community, makes, us, feel, part, of, the, annual, agricultural, scene, diary, 21, i’ve, written, before, regarding, agricultural, shows, and, the, pride, in, which, local, people, take, in, these, shows, although, a, lot, of, shows, have, gone, ahead, this, season, they, have, had, a, reduced, animal, showing, or, in, some, cases, no, animals, at, all, today, i’ve, heard, that, one, show, has, been, cancelled, altogether, this, particular, show, is, one, of, the, most, popular, in, the, area, maybe, because, of, lack, of, entries, or, the, organisers, just, wanted, to, cancel, because, of, the, 3, week, restriction, on, animal, movement, i, don’t, know, perhaps, it, would, be, better, to, cancel, them, than, have, a, depleted, show, diary, 22, spent, a, few, hours, in, the, fells, today, it, was, good, to, be, able, to, wander, the, familiar, paths, and, let, our, dog, run, free, it, was, a, good, boost, to, our, moral, and, perhaps, the, dog’s, too, we, all, missed, being, able, to, do, this, last, year, diary, 23, last, bank, holiday, before, xmas, and, the, last, before, the, schools, go, back, at, the, golf, course, where, i, help, out, part, time, during, the, summer, we, had, lots, of, customers, a, lot, of, them, commented, on, how, enjoyable, it, was, to, be, on, holiday, in, this, area, this, year, compared, to, the, restrictions, that, were, in, place, last, year, maybe, the, holiday, establishments, are, getting, back, to, normal, there, are, no, restrictions, put, on, them, like, there, is, in, place, now, with, farmers, and, agriculture, diary, 26, sorting, through, the, mail, left, whilst, away, on, holiday, and, i, came, across, a, notice, sent, by, the, village, committee, notifying, a, harvest, thanksgiving, festival, to, be, held, next, month, in, the, village, hall, as, we, have, no, church, in, the, village, it, is, being, held, in, some, farm, buildings, in, the, centre, of, the, village, this, will, be, a, splendid, event, the, farm, did, not, have, fmd, but, couldn’t, take, animals, from, one, field, to, another, and, couldn’t, market, them, when, we, consider, the, gloom, that, settled, on, this, farm, and, community, it, is, very, welcome, to, have, this, unique, event, here, in, the, heart, of, the, village, and, the, farmer, and, his, wife, will, be, at, the, centre, of, events, a, lovely, gesture, and, i, hope, it, will, be, well, supported, there, will, be, a, distribution, of, harvest, gifts, afterwards, what, a, change, from, a, year, ago, diary, 27, with, the, aid, of, binoculars, i, have, been, able, to, have, a, closer, look, at, the, burial, site, from, a, westerly, direction, there, are, vents, in, the, shape, of, small, towers, to, extract, gas, from, the, site, there, are, pipes, connecting, these, vents, a, lot, of, work, is, still, going, on, there, however, all, this, takes, place, in, the, western, side, which, is, the, opposite, side, to, where, my, village, is, situated, from, our, side, there, is, nothing, to, suggest, the, amount, of, work, going, on, because, of, this, fmd, is, pushed, further, into, the, backs, of, villager’s, minds, it, is, something, in, the, past, it, has, happened, so, what, people, like, myself, who, talk, to, farmers, and, agriculturalists, do, not, easily, forget, these, events, personally, i, am, still, concerned, about, the, burial, site, when, inquiries, are, made, about, it, all, we, can, do, is, accept, what, we, are, told, it, does, not, look, as, though, every, precaution, is, being, taken, to, alleviate, an, odours, or, contamination, diary, 28, i, had, to, see, the, village, farmer, on, another, matter, and, was, asked, inside, for, coffee, and, a, chat, he, was, able, to, tell, me, of, the, full, implications, of, the, 20, day, rule, he, accepts, that, this, is, a, precaution, to, prevent, another, outbreak, of, fmd, but, there, is, a, lot, of, work, involved, he, told, me, of, an, isolation, area, that, he, has, created, and, also, the, fencing, arrangements, where, his, land, adjoins, the, neighbours, land, i, would, say, that, 95, of, the, public, don’t, know, about, this, even, if, they, have, heard, of, the, 20, day, rule, for, him, he, owns, the, largest, farm, in, the, area, it, is, bad, enough, having, to, do, all, the, physical, work, as, regards, fencing, etc, but, for, anyone, such, as, a, small, holder, it, must, be, a, nightmare, if, he, has, to, bring, animals, back, from, market, that, haven’t, been, sold, friday, my, wife, and, i, played, a, round, of, golf, at, aspatria, this, course, was, badly, restricted, when, fmd, hit, this, area, we, were, reminded, that, there, are, restrictions, on, adjoining, land, there, were, notices, asking, people, who, hit, balls, onto, farm, land, not, to, cross, the, fence, to, retrieve, them, because, of, fmd, precautions, this, was, news, to, us, it, does, make, sense, though, the, farmer, wouldn’t, know, where, players, had, been, walking, prior, to, playing, golf, diary, 29, attended, the, harvest, festival, held, in, the, village, farm, a, large, cattle, shed, had, been, cleaned, and, decorated, for, this, event, chairs, had, been, brought, in, fruit, and, vegetables, were, on, display, for, auctioning, at, the, end, the, place, was, packed, a, lot, of, money, was, raised, and, it, was, a, very, happy, event, well, supported, and, a, big, boost, for, the, farm, and, the, village, i, don’t, think, that, the, general, public, care, much, about, fmd, now, that, is, has, been, a, year, since, the, last, case, was, confirmed, in, cumbria, the, public, may, be, reminded, if, they, read, the, local, newspapers, intently, for, instance, there, was, a, letter, to, the, editor, published, recently, which, referred, to, the, results, of, the, cumbria, inquiry, into, fmd, it, may, have, been, a, farmer, who, wrote, it, i, don’t, know, but, the, writer, certainly, went, to, town, in, the, scathing, comments, on, the, handling, of, fmd, even, caustic, remarks, regarding, the, efforts, since, fmd, of, defra, and, mrs, beckett, i, certainly, wouldn’t, like, to, cross, the, writer, i, also, think, the, farming, community, must, be, holding, it’s, breath, in, case, the, present, restrictions, such, as, they, are, prove, to, be, worthless, then, we, will, all, suffer, again, week, 30, what, a, difference, a, year, makes, despite, some, restrictions, on, public, access, to, agricultural, fields, in, some, areas, of, the, county, it, doesn’t, apply, here, although, most, locals, confine, themselves, to, footpaths, and, bridleways, other, people, seem, to, think, that, all, fields, are, recreation, areas, they, walk, and, run, across, some, of, the, fields, in, close, proximity, to, the, village, regardless, of, the, presence, of, stock, they, exercise, dogs, and, treat, it, as, a, some, kind, of, park, one, farmer, is, well, know, for, being, aggressive, he, used, last, year’s, fmd, outbreak, to, run, people, off, his, land, i, met, a, local, councillor, who, expressed, concerns, regarding, the, proposed, building, of, an, incinerator, to, the, south, of, the, village, on, the, current, open, cast, mining, site, the, two, waste, disposal, sites, to, the, west, and, north, west, of, the, village, have, become, big, issues, in, the, last, 18, months, due, to, the, burial, of, animals, and, the, disposal, of, pyre, ash, and, leachates, it, seems, as, though, we, are, going, to, get, over, this, ghastly, fmd, outbreak, only, to, have, this, scenario, thrust, upon, us, week, 31, met, a, small, holder, who, keeps, sheep, near, to, this, village, he, was, very, scathing, over, the, report, that, the, government, and, defra, don’t, want, to, talk, up, an, offer, from, the, local, authorities, here, to, implement, findings, and, recommendations, from, their, local, inquiry, over, fmd, why, what, has, this, government, who, didn’t, perform, very, well, during, the, outbreak, got, to, hide, and, why, shirk, away, from, the, findings, instead, of, facing, up, to, the, failings, that, we, all, know, about, it, also, seems, that, they, don’t, want, to, make, any, safeguards, and, recommendations, to, avoid, a, further, outbreak, as, a, non, agriculturalist, it, doesn’t, surprise, me, in, the, least, after, all, government, has, failed, other, industries, in, the, country, for, as, long, as, i, can, remember, week, 32, i, am, convinced, that, authorities, in, the, area, must, think, that, the, way, animals, were, buried, here, and, pyre, ash, and, leachate, were, disposed, of, at, another, site, nearby, was, all, done, as, very, successfully, and, that, the, two, sites, handled, everything, professionally, therefore, the, sites, would, be, more, than, capable, of, handling, ash, from, an, incinerator, to, me, this, is, the, legacy, of, fmd, i, am, most, annoyed, over, this, together, with, a, lot, more, of, the, villagers, this, village, no, longer, has, a, representative, on, the, parish, council, both, have, resigned, for, whatever, reason, and, no, one, will, step, forward, to, take, it, one, i, have, said, that, i, would, take, a, set, on, the, parish, council, to, represent, the, village, and, fight, for, our, rights, and, future, quality, of, life, due, to, this, i, have, uncovered, a, pile, of, claims, and, counter, claims, it, seems, that, both, parish, and, district, counsellors, know, what, is, going, on, regarding, the, incinerator, and, that, developers, have, made, concessions, to, some, councillors, also, there, are, claims, that, the, developers, have, offered, money, to, local, landowners, and, farmers, so, that, roads, can, be, put, in, all, these, accusations, have, been, strongly, denied, at, the, same, time, it, is, rumoured, that, some, farmers, have, been, offered, local, fields, nearby, because, of, what, i, have, discovered, in, my, own, investigations, it, would, seem, that, a, lot, of, friendships, gained, over, 20, years, could, come, to, an, end, i, am, fearful, of, what, i, have, uncovered, there, are, also, claims, that, councillors, are, only, in, it, for, what, there, can, get, out, and, are, not, to, be, trusted, i, don’t, want, that, said, of, me, also, by, the, time, all, this, is, sorted, out, i, will, be, 70, 75, i, certainly, don’t, want, to, be, fighting, peoples, battles, at, that, age, however, i, will, support, any, effort, to, stop, the, proposed, development, week, 33, once, again, the, large, farm, in, the, centre, of, the, village, was, the, venue, for, the, annual, guy, fawkes, bonfire, and, fireworks, organisers, had, been, round, the, village, asking, for, donations, to, provide, fireworks, a, tractor, and, trailer, toured, the, areas, picking, up, things, for, the, bonfire, drinks, and, food, were, served, in, a, barn, after, the, fireworks, this, is, another, occasion, when, villagers, and, the, farming, community, come, together, it, is, perhaps, the, only, time, that, the, general, public, of, the, village, think, about, fmd, and, last, years, events, if, only, briefly, the, farmer, remarked, that, is, the, third, time, this, year, that, there, has, been, a, public, function, on, his, farm, the, first, was, the, jubilee, party, in, june, then, on, october, 6th, the, harvest, festival, service, these, events, keep, farming, in, the, public, eye, week, 34, i, haven’t, written, before, about, the, proposed, building, of, an, incinerator, nearby, to, burn, the, counties, waste, if, as, we, all, suspect, the, incinerator, is, built, then, the, odours, plus, the, disposal, of, ash, to, the, fmd, waste, site, is, a, legacy, of, fmd, particularly, regarding, the, nearby, burial, and, disposal, site, week, 35, this, is, week, 35, of, this, project, and, for, most, of, the, 35, weeks, i, have, written, that, i, am, not, confident, of, the, future, there, are, numerous, reasons, for, this, mainly, the, situation, in, the, middle, east, today, i, travelled, to, keswick, to, do, some, xmas, shopping, i, was, given, a, lift, there, by, a, neighbour, who, is, in, his, 30s, he, was, very, upset, about, the, terrorist, situation, not, only, was, he, concerned, about, the, terror, threat, to, the, london, underground, but, the, threat, closer, to, home, as, regards, a, plane, crashing, into, the, nearby, sellafield, complex, we, don’t, know, the, effect, that, this, constant, bad, news, has, on, people, people, who, have, already, got, serious, worries, e.g, families, housing, finance, etc, must, feel, really, depressed, about, it, all, week, 36, near, to, the, next, village, is, a, long, established, farm, of, many, acres, recently, the, farm’s, stock, of, animals, and, machinery, was, sold, off, the, owner, who, had, farmed, for, sixty, years, was, leaving, to, live, with, one, of, his, brothers, he, said, that, he, wouldn’t, know, how, he, would, feel, when, he, left, the, farm, for, the, last, time, this, weekend, the, farmhouse, hasn’t, been, sold, yet, and, now, stands, empty, it’s, a, strange, place, now, where, everything, was, hustle, and, bustle, they, even, had, a, b, b, business, there, is, now, derelict, and, bare, it’s, a, sad, reflection, on, the, agricultural, business, in, the, wake, of, fmd, this, farm, isn’t, the, only, one, in, the, area, that, has, sold, up, some, farm, houses, remain, as, dwellings, but, this, particular, one, which, we, saw, nearly, every, day, is, just, an, other, sad, reminder, of, the, way, farming, has, declined, in, this, rural, area, week, 39, tuesday, boarded, the, train, at, penrith, to, journey, to, crewe, to, see, our, daughter, during, the, journey, i, got, into, conversation, with, a, fellow, passenger, he, noticed, i, had, got, on, the, train, at, penrith, and, perhaps, thought, i, was, connected, with, the, agricultural, industry, the, conversation, drifted, into, the, previous, years, fmd, outbreak, it, is, rather, strange, that, i, live, in, a, very, rural, area, and, fmd, is, rarely, mentioned, now, however, this, fellow, passenger, although, not, from, an, agricultural, background, gave, his, views, on, the, handling, of, the, situation, it, was, no, different, from, the, views, expressed, by, locals, at, the, time, of, the, crisis, it, just, goes, to, show, that, fmd, is, very, much, in, peoples, minds, even, if, they, were, not, connected, to, agriculture, in, any, way, week, 40, friday, now, that, the, mep, have, published, their, critical, report, on, the, fmd, crisis, it, is, interesting, to, read, an, article, published, in, our, local, weekly, paper, from, a, reader, article, entitled, foot, and, mouth, report, included, i, don’t, have, the, knowledge, or, the, data, to, support, this, readers, comments, however, i, have, heard, plenty, of, stories, from, mainly, unreliable, sources, to, confirm, what, he, says, it, makes, interesting, reading, i, think, week, 41, tuesday, no, wonder, my, confidence, in, the, future, has, taken, a, big, plunge, over, the, last, few, months, the, situation, in, iraq, doesn’t, get, any, better, mr, tony, blair’s, message, to, the, armed, forces, of, the, uk, bear, this, out, being, an, ex, serviceman, i, know, what, the, situation, holds, for, our, troops, but, are, we, right, to, follow, the, usa, in, a, war, against, iraq, no, doubt, saddam, hussein, does, pose, a, threat, but, so, does, india, and, pakistan, to, each, other, each, of, these, two, relatively, poor, countries, has, threatened, each, other, as, regards, their, nuclear, arsenals, now, the, loose, cannon, in, the, form, of, north, korea, is, positioning, itself, as, regards, its, position, in, the, nuclear, arms, league, personally, i, think, that, north, korea, poses, a, more, dangerous, threat, than, iraq, it, is, not, a, very, happy, new, year, for, a, lot, of, people, perhaps, it, will, all, be, settled, diplomatically, i, wonder, week, 42, nothing, of, any, importance, to, write, about, due, to, refurbishment, at, home, week, 43, monday, one, of, the, items, on, the, agenda, for, this, months, meeting, of, distington, parish, council, is, a, report, on, the, wood, felling, and, the, implications, of, this, as, i, have, written, in, the, diary, before, there, are, strong, rumours, of, the, proposed, plan, to, fell, woods, build, a, new, road, through, the, felled, site, and, bring, coal, from, the, nearby, opencast, site, to, link, up, with, an, existing, road, then, to, transport, the, coal, to, a, storage, area, on, workington, dock, then, when, the, coal, is, worked, out, to, build, an, incinerator, on, the, coal, site, ash, from, this, development, would, then, be, transported, on, the, new, road, to, be, disposed, of, on, the, waste, disposal, site, that, was, used, for, fmd, pyre, ash, and, leachate, thursday, read, a, report, of, the, aforesaid, meeting, the, owners, have, declared, that, our, worries, are, groundless, in, fact, they, say, that, they, plan, to, eventually, open, the, woodland, to, the, public, the, owners, of, the, woodland, are, the, same, operators, of, the, opencast, coal, site, footpaths, will, be, created, if, a, grant, can, be, obtained, a, wooden, wheeled, ancient, water, mill, will, be, restored, after, the, closed, meeting, the, operations, director, of, the, site, said, that, there, has, been, a, misunderstanding, what, we, are, doing, will, benefit, local, people, he, said, that, a, management, project, for, the, wood, is, being, followed, involving, felling, dead, trees, and, fresh, planting, he, added, the, felling, and, replanting, will, be, done, this, year, after, which, it, will, take, time, to, become, established, we’re, talking, of, a, ten, year, programme, but, it, should, have, long, term, benefits, i, think, our, pr, at, the, start, of, this, wasn’t, very, good, and, in, the, future, we, will, let, the, council, know, of, our, plans, the, council, agreed, to, keep, a, watch, on, the, work, here, in, g, this, statement, differs, greatly, from, what, some, of, us, have, been, told, by, our, village, based, county, councillor, there, has, never, been, any, suggestion, that, the, felled, woods, would, become, a, land, fill, site, but, would, be, felled, to, provide, the, new, road, there, was, nothing, mentioned, at, the, meeting, regarding, the, proposed, incinerator, being, built, the, county, council, that, this, has, ever, been, planned, however, our, representative, is, adamant, that, this, is, not, so, week, 44, tuesday, for, the, first, time, my, property, has, finally, overcome, a, situation, that, was, affected, by, fmd, in, july, 2000, the, electricity, supplier, notified, me, to, say, that, the, trees, in, my, garden, had, grown, so, tall, that, the, topmost, branches, were, in, close, contact, with, an, eleven, thousand, volt, overhead, power, line, and, that, they, should, be, felled, or, severely, pruned, after, some, further, negotiations, it, was, decided, to, prune, to, some, height, that, i, wasn’t, happy, with, although, the, treetops, were, not, actually, touching, the, wires, it, was, considered, a, risk, in, the, forthcoming, months, however, as, time, passed, i, couldn’t, wait, for, the, foresters, to, arrive, so, i, pruned, the, trees, myself, in, january, 2001, the, electric, supplier, suggested, that, the, trees, should, be, pruned, further, a, date, was, agreed, but, the, foresters, didn’t, arrive, time, dragged, on, and, the, trees, grew, back, to, their, original, height, again, the, electric, supplier, suggested, they, be, pruned, or, felled, a, new, date, was, agreed, upon, however, the, foresters, couldn’t, do, the, job, because, the, isolator, switch, was, on, farmland, and, they, couldn’t, get, access, to, it, because, of, fmd, restrictions, and, so, it, dragged, on, despite, visits, by, foresters, and, electric, supplier, reps, the, trees, got, bigger, and, i, was, forbidden, to, touch, them, neighbours, could, hear, crackling, noises, coming, from, the, wires, and, it, became, very, worrying, people, suggested, that, i, should, do, something, about, it, i, took, the, matter, up, directly, with, the, supplier, and, the, foresters, i, was, promised, dates, only, for, them, to, be, cancelled, in, december, 2002, a, date, of, 21st, january, 2003, was, given, this, time, they, came, and, we, agreed, that, two, trees, be, felled, and, another, pruned, after, 30, months, it, finally, happened, thursday, met, a, small, holder, who, has, his, land, on, the, edge, of, this, village, who, told, me, that, the, 20, day, rule, of, animal, restriction, of, animal, movement, was, being, lifted, and, replaced, by, a, 6, day, restriction, this, was, good, news, for, him, and, any, other, farmer, later, that, day, i, met, another, farmer, who, didn’t, know, that, the, restriction, was, being, lifted, you, would, have, thought, that, i, had, told, him, he’d, won, the, lottery, good, news, all, round, for, the, people, friday, listening, to, the, local, radio, today, and, was, surprised, to, hear, a, report, that, the, citizens, advice, bureau, in, a, small, lakeland, town, had, been, receiving, clients, who, were, still, experiencing, hardship, due, to, fmd, it, is, now, 18, months, since, the, last, outbreak, and, the, effects, according, to, the, person, being, interviewed, were, still, being, felt, not, just, by, farmers, and, agriculturists, but, by, guest, houses, hotels, tradesmen, and, in, particular, some, self, employed, debt, seems, to, be, the, biggest, problem, it, seems, as, though, some, people, had, weathered, the, hardships, of, fmd, initially, only, to, find, that, their, plans, had, come, adrift, somehow, afterwards, quite, disturbing, to, hear, that, the, situation, is, still, with, us, in, this, county, to, some, degree, week, 45, these, diaries, were, instituted, to, deal, with, the, after, effects, of, fmd, although, there, were, no, cases, of, fmd, in, this, village, everyone, knew, about, it, particularly, as, nearly, everyone, who, went, to, work, from, here, would, pass, the, main, farm, in, the, village, centre, or, some, of, the, farms, on, the, outskirts, of, the, village, now, that, fmd, is, over, most, people, who, live, here, don’t, seem, to, think, about, it, anymore, the, only, people, affected, are, the, farmers, naturally, this, is, a, strange, village, in, lots, of, ways, only, the, farmer, and, his, immediate, family, are, connected, with, agriculture, the, rest, are, professional, people, or, people, who, work, at, nearby, sellafield, industries, in, workington, and, whitehaven, or, are, retired, there, is, no, church, no, village, pub, no, village, shop, no, village, community, centre, or, meeting, place, only, tradesmen, that, call, are, the, milkman, and, the, solid, fuel, merchant, we, are, left, to, get, on, with, life, in, our, own, way, the, parish, of, distington, to, which, we, belong, have, all, the, facilities, associated, with, a, larger, community, such, as, a, church, pub, and, community, centre, all, of, which, are, two, miles, away, consequently, the, parish, council, meets, there, once, a, month, and, discusses, all, the, problems, of, the, area, including, ours, however, our, representative, on, the, council, has, resigned, and, no, one, has, come, forward, to, represent, us, anything, that, has, been, discussed, at, the, parish, council, is, reported, in, he, local, newspaper, village, pubs, are, a, good, venue, to, discuss, local, issues, and, to, exchange, views, and, mainly, to, gossip, village, tittle, tattle, as, i, call, it, as, we, have, no, pub, the, gossip, is, rife, from, one, source, or, another, with, bits, added, on, or, left, out, as, is, the, choice, of, the, person, concerned, quite, a, lot, of, people, one, meets, are, experts, in, their, own, particular, choice, of, subject, whether, it, is, politics, finance, or, mrs, jones, current, boy, friend, it, is, a, fault, to, take, on, board, all, that, is, gossiped, about, when, one, meets, a, fellow, villager, in, the, country, lanes, whilst, out, walking, the, dog, week, 46, illness, to, a, family, member, week, 47, continued, illness, week, 48, over, the, past, few, weeks, there, has, been, a, lot, of, tree, felling, in, the, nearby, woods, this, has, led, to, a, lot, of, disturbance, to, the, villagers, because, of, the, use, of, large, vehicles, needed, to, remove, the, felled, timber, and, also, the, foresters, vehicles, churning, up, the, grass, verges, and, the, ditches, a, lot, of, concern, was, raised, about, the, necessity, of, all, the, tree, felling, these, concerns, were, raised, in, the, press, and, also, in, the, parish, council, i, have, written, about, these, in, diaries, in, the, last, few, weeks, it, was, reported, in, mid, january, that, all, the, felled, woods, would, be, replanted, this, year, with, footpaths, created, for, the, enjoyment, of, the, local, population, now, all, timber, operations, have, ceased, large, areas, of, woodland, have, been, left, partly, felled, and, a, lot, of, felled, timber, is, left, lying, about, foresters, vehicles, have, gone, and, nothing, is, happening, despite, assurances, from, the, developers, it, looks, as, though, something, drastic, has, happened, village, tittle, tattle, says, that, the, foresters, have, not, been, paid, for, their, work, so, far, and, that, the, developers, have, run, out, of, money, if, this, is, so, what, is, going, to, happen, now, when, felling, started, late, last, year, i, contacted, two, environmental, agencies, regarding, the, threat, to, the, red, squirrels, badgers, and, buzzards, that, occupy, these, woods, i, was, told, that, it, was, only, a, partial, felling, and, they, the, environmental, agencies, were, satisfied, that, any, disturbances, would, be, slight, i, think, that, they, were, told, this, by, the, developers, and, accepted, what, they, were, told, without, a, site, visit, the, developers, have, been, known, to, mislead, groups, in, the, past, including, landowners, farmers, councils, and, individuals, i, personally, am, not, happy, about, this, situation, i, have, always, took, a, keen, interest, in, wildlife, and, feel, that, we, have, been, let, down, by, the, lies, of, developers, and, the, lack, of, serious, interest, from, wildlife, agencies, some, of, which, are, an, offshoot, of, central, government, i, for, one, will, keep, a, close, look, on, the, situation, with, or, without, other, villagers, and, in, particular, local, councillors, week, 49, by, chance, i, met, three, small, holders, all, at, the, same, time, they, were, discussing, farming, by, the, roadside, all, of, them, were, pleased, that, the, 20, day, ruling, was, coming, to, an, end, and, that, their, lives, were, more, or, less, coming, back, to, normal, they, also, expressed, the, opinion, that, the, 20, day, rule, and, the, 6, day, rule, were, only, in, force, to, protect, their, interests, however, they, were, unanimous, in, their, condemnation, over, the, importing, of, foreign, meat, and, meat, products, into, this, country, they, feel, that, foreign, meat, is, not, subjected, to, enough, checks, before, entry, into, the, united, kingdom, week, 51, met, a, farmer, today, who, told, me, that, he’d, seen, a, report, based, on, findings, by, the, eu, and, defra, it, stated, all, the, things, that, everyone, who, is, an, agriculturalist, and, those, who, take, an, interest, in, the, countryside, had, been, saying, about, what, was, wrong, with, the, handlers, of, the, fmd, outbreak, it, just, proves, that, it, doesn’t, take, an, academic, genius, to, know, what, should, have, been, done, at, the, time, everyone, can, be, wiser, after, the, event, but, statements, by, the, nfu, and, individuals, at, the, onset, were, not, heeded, for, example, the, movement, of, animals, should, have, been, halted, sooner, and, the, army, should, have, been, brought, in, much, sooner, now, the, question, of, vaccination, rumbles, on, should, we, or, shouldn’t, we, vaccinate, there, is, a, fear, of, the, outbreak, again, particularly, when, the, findings, of, the, 1960, outbreak, were, not, implemented, since, the, sadness, of, fmd, there, has, been, quite, a, few, instances, of, socialising, at, the, farm, such, as, harvest, festival, jubilee, party, and, almost, any, excuse, for, a, shindig, good, to, see, farmers, enjoying, themselves, week, 52, met, out, local, farmer, who, told, me, that, there, is, to, be, new, legislation, to, dispose, of, fallen, stock, no, longer, can, a, farmer, bury, fallen, stock, on, his, land, but, must, now, provide, an, incinerator, to, dispose, of, dead, animals, this, must, be, a, costly, business, could, dead, animals, not, be, taken, to, a, central, point, and, burned, week, 54, one, thing, about, fmd, was, the, effect, that, it, had, on, the, poaching, fraternity, living, in, a, rural, area, we, expect, this, to, happen, nobody, seems, to, mind, that, a, few, rabbits, and, pheasants, go, missing, what, is, really, alarming, is, the, use, of, dogs, and, high, powered, rifles, to, poach, deer, fmd, put, a, stop, to, all, this, now, a, neighbour, has, told, me, of, poachers, near, to, the, village, using, rifles, and, shooting, deer, the, only, people, benefiting, from, this, are, the, poachers, and, hoteliers, who, receive, these, dead, beasts, and, no, questions, asked, also, the, danger, of, villagers, being, hit, by, stray, rifle, shots, causes, alarm, to, others, week, 55, i, think, that, there, is, a, lot, of, jumping, on, the, band, wagon, now, that, fmd, has, cleared, up, for, instance, i, listened, to, an, interview, on, the, local, radio, station, given, by, a, hotelier, things, weren’t, going, well, in, his, establishment, having, got, over, fmd, and, its, implications, visitors, were, slowly, returning, to, the, area, but, not, in, sufficient, numbers, to, cause, great, joy]
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                                                                                                                                                    [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1975, gender, m, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, diary, 1, thursday, meeting, n, lakes, friday, tb, testing, on, restocking, farm, usual, chat, and, defra, comments, the, meeting, research, panel, gp, 6, at, the, north, lakes, was, interesting, it, surprises, me, sometimes, how, people, myself, included, never, seem, to, tire, of, the, same, stories, and, complaints, over, how, the, crisis, was, handled, some, of, the, episodes, recounted, must, have, been, told, dozens, of, times, over, the, last, year, but, whoever, says, it, always, seems, just, as, keen, to, say, it, again, perhaps, a, reflection, of, how, deeply, people, feel, about, the, events, of, the, last, year, having, said, that, most, of, the, resentments, and, rants, that, i, hear, on, daily, farm, visits, are, focused, fairly, and, squarely, at, defra, and, not, fmd, virus, farmers, seem, far, more, upset, at, the, constriction, put, on, them, by, defra, than, they, do, by, the, loss, of, stock, now, although, i, know, and, saw, how, utterly, devastated, most, were, when, they, were, actually, diagnosed, with, the, virus, and, in, the, week, or, two, following, my, work, in, the, practice, is, becoming, less, and, less, fmd, orientated, as, time, goes, on, licensing, and, restocking, visits, are, drawing, to, a, close, and, we, are, starting, to, return, to, normal, vet, work, my, life, has, been, more, settled, since, the, end, of, fmd, although, there, was, never, a, real, threat, of, redundancy, there, was, a, great, deal, of, uncertainty, as, to, what, form, work, would, take, during, the, outbreak, it, was, never, clear, whether, i, would, be, based, at, the, practice, or, working, as, a, defra, vet, from, month, to, month, now, that, it, is, finished, i, hope, the, practice, and, my, work, can, get, back, to, a, routine, and, at, least, knowing, where, i’ll, be, based, each, day, even, if, not, which, calls, are, going, to, come, in, with, regard, to, fmd, the, biggest, influence, it, has, at, the, moment, and, over, the, last, week, is, acting, as, a, listener, to, farmers, who, still, talk, about, it, and, defra, a, great, deal, diary, 2, mon, shap, restocking, having, to, justify, visit, wed, melmerby, i, went, to, see, a, farmer, this, week, to, do, the, first, inspection, of, his, sentinel, animals, that, he, is, restocking, his, farm, in, common, with, many, farmers, he, was, unwavering, in, his, conviction, that, his, animals, had, been, deliberately, infected, and, that, tony, blair, or, defra, were, the, ultimate, culprits, the, belief, is, that, they, want, to, put, farmers, out, of, business, this, particular, farmer, made, the, very, valid, point, that, defra, co, had, underestimated, the, resilience, of, the, farming, community, i, think, that, this, has, been, very, striking, considering, the, strain, that, they, have, been, under, in, some, cases, worse, for, those, who, didn’t, get, fmd, than, for, those, who, did, it, has, been, remarkable, how, little, the, majority, of, our, clients, have, changed, admittedly, we, see, most, of, them, on, a, professional, basis, regarding, their, animals, health, and, not, their, own, but, on, the, whole, they, seem, to, have, been, very, forward, thinking, about, the, outbreak, many, have, taken, it, as, a, chance, to, increase, the, size, of, herds, and, to, eliminate, many, other, diseases, as, well, as, fmd, work, in, the, practice, has, been, fairly, steady, as, week, the, number, of, fmd, calls, is, decreasing, one, of, the, problems, with, doing, restocking, licensing, and, tb, calls, is, that, we, are, on, the, farm, at, defra’s, instruction, normally, it, is, the, farmer, who, calls, us, out, and, this, can, cause, friction, anything, related, to, defra, will, put, hackles, up, 9, times, out, of, 10, it, definitely, causes, stress, at, times, but, puts, my, diplomacy, skills, into, good, practice, it, sometimes, feels, as, though, some, farmers, just, need, an, outlet, and, i, fit, the, bill, after, agreeing, with, everything, they, say, and, sympathising, it, usually, smoothes, out, and, ends, with, a, cup, of, tea, but, it, does, feel, as, though, we, have, to, justify, what, we, are, doing, much, more, than, prior, to, february, 2001, diary, 3, this, week, was, the, anniversary, of, the, week, i, went, to, my, first, ip, and, associated, slaughter, pyre, building, etc, at, several, times, during, the, week, i, found, myself, thinking, this, time, last, year, i, was, although, obviously, not, pleasant, memories, the, thoughts, did, not, particularly, affect, me, in, a, bad, way, or, distract, me, from, work, it, just, took, me, back, to, that, time, when, i, had, time, to, think, i, went, to, see, a, sick, horse, near, carlisle, which, is, where, the, ip, was, and, it, was, interesting, to, drive, past, the, farm, and, see, animals, in, the, buildings, again, hopefully, the, farmer, concerned, is, getting, back, on, track, again, with, respect, to, daily, routine, work, is, getting, very, busy, lambing, time, is, starting, to, really, get, going, with, the, inevitable, increase, in, calls, although, it, can, be, hectic, at, times, it’s, better, to, be, kept, busy, rather, than, having, it, too, quiet, it’s, also, good, to, actually, be, doing, lambings, and, other, sheep, work, as, it’s, two, years, since, we, did, any, apart, from, euthanasing, sheep, last, year, on, monday, i, went, to, do, a, re, stocking, check, on, a, farm, the, farmer, is, convinced, he, was, given, fmd, deliberately, and, on, arrival, i, was, given, his, weekly, tirade, regarding, defra, tony, blair, how, i, must, have, made, thousands, of, pounds, out, of, it, etc, etc, after, sometime, of, not, rising, to, the, bait, he, calmed, down, and, half, an, hour, later, was, sweetness, and, light, perhaps, he, just, needs, someone, to, let, pressure, out, to, only, one, session, like, that, a, week, isn’t, too, bad, considering, how, many, farm, visits, we, do, diary, 4, monday, brought, another, dressing, down, from, the, farmer, i, mentioned, last, week, it, was, shorter, and, less, passionate, this, time, perhaps, he’s, mellowing, a, bit, i, drove, up, to, junction, 40, one, day, with, the, sun, out, it, reminded, me, of, a, similar, day, a, year, ago, when, i, could, count, 15, smoke, plumes, from, pyres, on, the, same, bit, of, road, as, i, said, last, week, anniversary, memories, like, this, aren’t, especially, difficult, for, me, they’re, just, there, in, a, lot, of, ways, it’s, quite, satisfying, thinking, about, what, was, happening, a, year, ago, and, how, well, things, have, progressed, since, then, most, of, our, farmers, have, re, stocked, work, is, returning, to, normal, even, things, like, being, able, to, drive, onto, farms, again, rather, than, having, to, leave, the, car, at, the, farm, entrance, makes, a, big, difference, work, continues, to, be, very, busy, with, the, typical, seasonal, calls, to, sheep, and, cattle, we, have, a, couple, of, vet, students, doing, work, experience, with, us, which, had, to, stop, last, march, as, we, couldn’t, take, extras, onto, farms, with, us, another, sign, of, the, continuing, return, to, normality, some, days, it, seems, as, if, we, have, returned, to, how, we, were, a, year, ago, the, most, obvious, legacy, is, perhaps, the, thorough, and, extensive, clothing, disinfection, between, each, farm, a, good, habit, which, is, very, hard, to, break, diary, 5, i, had, to, work, on, easter, monday, morning, which, was, fairly, uneventful, as, for, the, last, few, weeks, there, were, the, usual, seasonal, calls, to, sheep, and, cattle, but, nothing, too, stressful, on, tuesday, i, did, the, final, blood, sampling, on, the, last, farm, that, we, have, that, is, still, at, the, sentinel, stage, of, re, stocking, the, farmers, seemed, fairly, mellow, today, and, spared, me, the, usual, lecture, attempt, at, argument, perhaps, it’s, because, the, end, of, his, restriction, is, in, sight, the, test, went, very, smoothly, and, i, didn’t, hear, from, him, until, the, end, of, the, week, when, i, he, was, upset, probably, justifiably, that, his, results, still, weren’t, back, as, processing, the, bloods, is, not, our, responsibility, all, i, could, do, was, sympathise, and, plead, ignorance, the, rest, of, the, week, was, fairly, routine, work, wise, friday, was, taken, up, doing, a, big, tuberculin, and, brucellosis, test, on, a, re, stocked, farm, they, all, have, to, be, done, within, 3, mths, of, re, stocking, although, it, was, a, big, job, it, was, a, well, run, farm, with, plenty, of, help, so, we, got, finished, within, the, day, and, with, as, few, delays, as, could, be, expected, now, that, the, evenings, are, lighter, it’s, meant, that, on, nights, off, duty, i’ve, been, able, to, get, out, more, it’s, made, a, very, welcome, change, to, be, able, to, bike, walk, on, the, fells, again, this, year, after, all, the, restrictions, of, 2001, long, may, it, and, the, weather, continue, diary, 6, finally, finished, the, last, a, restocking, jobs, on, monday, the, farmer, was, getting, very, frustrated, probably, justifiably, so, at, the, length, of, time, it, was, taking, the, bank, holidays, etc, last, week, meant, to, that, the, labs, were, closed, so, that, blood, samples, took, longer, to, process, i, got, the, results, at, 4, 45, monday, evening, and, in, an, attempt, to, create, some, goodwill, agreed, to, go, to, the, farm, to, do, a, final, check, that, evening, on, arrival, of, the, usual, tirade, about, defra, and, vet's, came, my, way, which, was, slightly, hard, to, take, he, then, said, that, he, didn't, blame, me, personally, which, was, nice, of, him, i, think, hope, he, realises, that, we, can, only, try, to, get, things, going, faster, and, ultimately, it’s, out, off, our, hands, at, least, it's, good, to, have, all, the, restocking, work, finished, it, feels, as, though, the, first, stage, is, over, in, getting, back, to, where, we, were, another, sign, of, returning, to, usual, is, the, continuing, pace, of, work, nights, on, call, are, again, a, time, for, working, rather, than, the, call, free, nights, of, summer, 2001, this, week, has, brought, early, morning, lambing, most, days, the, rest, of, the, time, we’re, is, as, busy, as, it's, been, for, a, year, the, day, book, is, full, each, day, and, we, all, seem, to, be, driving, around, the, county, more, or, less, keeping, up, with, the, jobs, which, is, a, good, thing, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, was, going, to, go, to, edinburgh, to, see, some, friends, but, in, the, end, stayed, in, penrith, for, some, r, r, diary, 7, i, had, a, half, day, on, monday, and, went, to, riggindale, at, the, head, of, haweswater, with, a, friend, who, had, come, to, stay, for, a, night, or, two, the, plan, was, to, see, the, golden, eagles, nesting, that, up, to, unfortunately, they, were, off, on, a, day, trip, to, another, part, of, the, lake, district, but, the, weather, was, good, and, it, made, a, very, pleasant, change, from, work, the, practice, is, still, going, flat, out, with, seasonal, work, the, daily, flow, of, lambing, and, lambing, related, sheep, problems, shows, no, sign, of, ebbing, there, are, also, increasing, numbers, of, cattle, problems, probably, related, to, coming, towards, the, spring, turn, out, of, cattle, that, have, been, inside, for, 6, 7, months, the, fact, that, most, of, them, are, in, new, surroundings, is, almost, certainly, adding, to, the, problems, on, the, whole, of, farmers, are, fairly, pragmatic, about, the, difficulties, they, are, having, most, accept, that, they, were, bound, to, have, problems, with, the, restocking, and, on, the, whole, are, pleased, just, to, have, stock, on, again, some, are, very, keen, to, be, as, efficient, as, possible, whereas, others, will, more, readily, go, along, with, the, old, farming, mantra, that, where, there's, a, livestock, there's, a, dead, stock, not, quite, what, the, veterinary, profession, wants, to, encourage, i, was, on, call, at, the, weekend, and, had, one, of, the, busier, few, days, i, can, remember, again, it, was, mostly, seasonal, farm, work, which, although, it, was, time, consuming, is, often, quite, rewarding, i'm, still, surprised, by, the, number, of, sheep, we, are, getting, called, to, perhaps, it's, because, farmers, have, spent, a, lot, of, money, on, them, to, restock, with, and, now, feel, they’re, financially, worth, calling, us, for, diary, 8, made, a, couple, of, visits, to, one, of, our, farmers, who, restocked, over, the, winter, this, week, he's, having, a, few, problems, with, cows, getting, ill, and, generally, not, settling, in, very, well, he's, one, of, the, most, amenable, farmers, on, our, books, and, never, seems, to, try, to, blame, anyone, for, his, troubles, at, times, it's, very, frustrating, not, to, be, able, to, do, more, for, people, like, him, i'd, like, to, be, able, to, give, every, one, of, his, cows, a, magic, injection, and, say, that, it'll, get, better, but, unfortunately, that's, not, how, it, works, we've, had, a, lot, of, colt, castrations, to, do, this, week, which, is, normal, for, this, time, of, year, it, puts, more, pressure, on, us, in, terms, of, work, as, we, usually, take, two, vets, to, each, castration, considering, how, busy, it, is, relations, in, the, practice, are, generally, very, good, it, has, been, stressful, at, times, but, on, the, whole, this, has, been, stress, related, to, volume, of, jobs, to, do, rather, than, people, it, has, also, been, a, very, different, and, preferable, type, of, stress, than, this, time, of, the, last, year, at, least, a, lot, of, work, makes, us, all, feel, fairly, stable, rather, than, the, terrible, uncertainty, of, last, year, we’ve, also, taken, on, an, extra, vet, this, spring, which, would, have, been, unthinkable, last, year, in, the, middle, of, the, week, i, did, a, farm, visit, with, one, of, the, vets, from, the, local, veterinary, lab, to, discuss, disease, control, on, a, re, stocked, farm, most, of, the, work, into, disease, surveillance, on, a, farm, was, defra, funded, which, went, down, well, with, the, farmer, she, at, least, felt, as, though, she, was, getting, something, back, after, fighting, with, defra, for, the, last, few, months, it, was, also, encouraging, to, see, someone, taking, a, very, positive, approach, to, disease, control, in, the, future, my, cousin, and, some, of, his, friends, came, down, from, glasgow, for, the, weekend, to, go, into, the, lake, district, the, weather, was, good, on, the, whole, and, several, people, noted, how, good, it, was, to, have, the, paths, open, again, diary, 9, started, the, week, doing, a, big, tuberculin, and, brucellosis, test, at, a, restocked, farm, there, has, been, a, big, backlog, to, clear, after, testing, was, stopped, during, fmd, last, year, so, we, have, to, catch, up, with, those, farms, that, didn’t, get, the, disease, but, are, due, a, test, as, well, as, testing, the, restocking, farms, we’re, all, very, keen, to, keep, cumbria, as, a, tb, free, zone, but, with, all, the, different, stock, coming, in, it’s, going, to, be, tricky, monday’s, test, was, long, but, okay, on, the, whole, the, set, up, was, good, and, the, farming, family, were, very, pleasant, which, makes, a, huge, difference, to, how, the, day, goes, all, was, clear, when, i, went, to, read, the, test, on, thursday, a, relief, for, all, concerned, overall, work, seems, to, be, quietening, down, a, bit, this, week, compared, to, the, last, few, we, are, now, just, busy, rather, than, always, feeling, as, if, were, one, job, behind, all, the, time, on, wednesday, and, thursday, one, of, our, clients, brought, in, half, a, dozen, shetland, ponies, to, castrate, it, makes, a, change, to, have, a, large, animal, that, is, small, enough, to, be, easily, physically, restrained, by, one, person, the, continuing, good, weather, made, doing, an, afternoon's, work, with, the, ponies, in, the, practice’s, field, a, very, pleasant, way, to, spend, a, few, hours, i, can't, help, feeling, that, no, rain, in, april, means, we'll, get, loads, later, in, the, summer, i, was, on, a, second, call, at, the, weekend, saturday, was, very, busy, with, small, animal, jobs, which, i, mainly, left, to, a, colleague, while, i, tried, to, clear, up, the, farm, and, equine, jobs, calm, was, pretty, much, restored, by, late, afternoon, after, which, i, wasn't, called, until, early, sunday, morning, another, of, our, re, stocked, clients, is, having, considerable, trouble, with, some, of, his, new, animals, and, is, becoming, increasingly, frustrated, about, it, we, all, try, to, help, with, the, medical, side, of, it, animals, but, inevitably, also, get, to, hear, a, lot, of, his, other, worries, too, hopefully, things, will, look, up, soon, and, he'll, be, able, to, ride, it, out, ok, diary, 10, had, a, day, off, on, bank, holiday, monday, always, the, good, way, to, start, the, week, i, went, up, to, peebles, in, scotland, with, some, friends, to, go, mountain, biking, it, was, surprisingly, empty, for, a, weekend, and, the, weather, was, good, and, i, didn't, fall, off, all, in, all, a, good, day, out, tuesday, was, work, as, usual, i, had, to, do, a, small, tb, test, on, a, restocking, farm, it, shouldn't, have, been, a, long, job, but, the, facilities, weren't, great, so, it, didn’t, go, as, slickly, as, it, might, have, done, we, all, managed, to, get, through, in, one, piece, so, it, could, have, been, worse, one, of, my, colleagues, went, on, maternity, this, week, she, is, part, time, but, does, all, small, animal, work, now, that, she's, off, for, the, next, few, months, it, means, that, an, extra, vet, is, needed, each, morning, to, stay, in, and, do, small, animal, operations, while, it's, probably, not, my, favourite, sort, of, work, it, does, make, a, change, from, being, out, on, farms, every, morning, it's, also, good, to, get, a, bit, more, experience, at, small, procedures, as, well, as, doing, smaller, animals, this, week, has, brought, several, interesting, equine, cases, i, had, to, hospitalise, a, horse, for, a, few, days, for, fairly, intensive, treatment, which, fortunately, appears, to, have, made, a, good, recovery, there, have, also, been, a, couple, of, horse, operations, at, the, practice, this, week, they’re, generally, quite, interesting, apart, from, the, stress, involved, with, having, half, a, ton, of, horse, asleep, on, the, operating, table, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, to, edinburgh, for, a, small, reunion, with, friends, i, was, at, college, with, although, we, do, talk, about, other, things, conversation, inevitably, came, round, to, work, the, effect, of, fmd, and, its, consequences, are, still, very, much, in, people's, minds, friends, all, asked, how, it, was, last, year, and, whether, farms, have, restocked, yet, etc, etc, it, s, stuff, which, i, seem, to, have, said, hundreds, of, times, over, the, last, few, months, but, people, never, seem, to, tire, of, asking, it, and, to, an, extent, i, don't, seem, to, get, bored, of, answering, it, diary, 11, the, week, started, with, a, big, tb, test, at, a, restocking, dairy, farm, there, were, very, good, facilities, and, it, subsequently, went, very, smoothly, and, quickly, despite, the, number, of, cows, involved, the, farmer, seems, to, be, quite, positive, about, the, new, start, and, has, been, spared, a, lot, of, the, problems, that, other, people, have, experienced, while, restocking, in, terms, of, disease, in, the, animals, everything, was, clear, when, i, read, the, test, later, in, the, week, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, had, a, bit, of, a, change, as, i, went, castrate, two, ponies, belonging, to, my, mother, she, had, bought, two, totally, wild, fell, ponies, last, autumn, they, now, a, bit, tamer, but, not, completely, used, to, being, handled, yet, i, went, with, one, of, our, nurses, and, the, senior, partner, and, it, all, went, pretty, much, to, plan, work, is, still, busy, there's, one, client, in, particular, who, is, giving, us, a, lot, to, do, he, restocked, a, few, months, ago, and, is, obviously, having, trouble, lambing, his, sheep, it, got, a, bit, trying, when, i, had, to, get, up, to, his, third, lambing, of, one, night, but, that's, what, we, are, there, for, i, suppose, he's, a, nice, man, and, always, seems, pleased, to, see, us, which, helps, i, had, the, weekend, off, again, and, went, to, glasgow, to, be, best, man, at, my, cousin's, wedding, apart, from, the, weather, it, went, very, well, i, think, with, no, unsolvable, problems, diary, 12, started, the, week, with, a, long, visit, for, dairy, fertility, work, to, one, of, our, big, dairy, farmers, it's, one, of, the, farmers, who, has, been, having, problems, after, restocking, and, a, visit, that, another, vet, usually, does, so, i, felt, a, bit, under, pressure, it's, the, type, of, work, which, is, very, routine, but, has, the, potential, to, go, quite, badly, wrong, on, the, whole, it, went, fairly, well, with, no, major, problems, i, get, on, pretty, well, with, the, farmer, which, always, helps, as, it, makes, the, time, go, by, quicker, small, animal, work, is, still, quite, busy, i, had, two, days, inside, this, week, doing, small, animals, operations, there, wasn't, anything, particularly, different, or, unusual, but, it, still, helps, to, do, more, of, it, one, of, our, farmers, who, managed, to, miss, fmd, is, very, busy, with, his, calving, schedule, at, the, moment, he’s, tending, to, have, very, big, calves, and, subsequently, we’re, doing, a, lot, of, caesareans, there, this, week, has, brought, at, least, half, a, dozen, of, which, two, were, in, the, middle, of, the, night, there, have, been, a, few, vets, are, looking, sleep, deprived, recently, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, so, see, a, couple, of, friends, in, edinburgh, we, spent, one, day, cycling, in, peebles, and, then, proceeded, to, nothing, strenuous, for, the, next, diary, 13, the, week, started, with, a, big, session, dehorning, cattle, it’s, not, exactly, technical, work, and, is, fairly, hard, work, at, least, it, gets, me, fit, we, would, normally, do, them, at, a, younger, age, but, quite, a, few, have, been, missed, as, we, didn’t, get, out, onto, farms, for, such, routine, work, last, year, on, the, whole, most, people, are, fairly, well, caught, up, now, that, they’ve, re, stocked, been, having, routine, work, done, for, the, last, 8, months, or, so, but, there, are, still, a, few, lagging, behind, i, had, a, call, from, a, farmer, who, was, one, of, our, most, consistently, and, vehemently, anti, defra, people, last, year, i, ended, up, doing, a, caesarean, and, had, quite, a, long, chat, with, him, conversation, ended, up, coming, round, to, the, events, of, last, year, and, he, aired, his, resentments, again, it, was, the, first, time, in, several, weeks, that, i, had, heard, this, kind, of, talk, whereas, a, few, months, ago, it, would, have, been, a, daily, occurrence, it, wasn’t, particularly, aimed, at, me, or, the, practice, in, particular, but, just, frustration, with, the, system, as, a, whole, i, went, for, a, walk, up, blencathra, one, evening, during, the, week, but, the, highlight, of, the, week, has, to, be, the, start, of, the, world, cup, i’ve, been, on, duty, this, w, e, but, managed, to, see, all, but, the, last, two, minutes, of, this, morning’s, rather, disappointing, draw, with, sweden, most, farmers, are, keen, to, watch, the, matches, too, so, lets, hope, not, too, many, calls, come, in, at, the, wrong, time, diary, 14, i, had, the, bank, holiday, on, monday, off, which, was, welcome, after, a, weekend, on, call, i, went, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, with, a, colleague, considering, it, was, a, bank, holiday, it, wasn't, too, crowded, had, to, work, on, bank, holiday, tuesday, though, it, wasn't, especially, busy, until, the, evening, when, i, had, to, do, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, and, then, go, and, see, a, badly, cut, horse, both, seem, to, be, doing, ok, the, rest, of, the, week, was, worked, as, usual, nothing, particularly, out, of, the, ordinary, happened, with, fairly, routine, calls, perhaps, it, was, because, everyone, was, preoccupied, with, events, in, japan, and, korea, or, maybe, that, is, just, me, i, was, booked, in, for, an, 11, am, call, on, friday, but, managed, to, persuade, the, farmer, concerned, that, 9.30, would, be, more, appropriate, said, that, i, or, should, that, be, we, could, watch, the, second, england, game, we, managed, to, get, finished, in, time, and, it, was, well, worth, it, the, 1, 0, win, over, argentina, put, everyone, in, a, good, mood, for, the, rest, of, the, day, and, the, weekend, i, was, on, first, call, over, the, weekend, saturday, morning, was, very, busy, and, we, didn’t, get, all, the, calls, done, until, early, afternoon, after, that, it, was, one, of, the, quietest, weekends, i’ve, had, they, were, a, couple, of, things, to, do, on, saturday, afternoon, evening, but, sunday, had, no, calls, until, after, lunch, almost, unheard, of, i, had, to, check, my, phone, was, switched, on, long, may, it, last, diary, 15, i’ve, done, two, days, in, the, practice, doing, small, animals, this, week, more, than, usual, the, weather, has, not, been, the, best, so, it's, no, bad, thing, i, managed, to, go, out, on, rounds, on, wednesday, though, so, i, managed, to, catch, the, third, england, match, second, round, here, we, come, i, spent, most, of, friday, morning, operating, on, two, cows, at, one, of, our, farms, they, both, had, a, condition, where, part, of, the, gut, displaces, in, the, abdomen, and, is, best, repositioned, surgically, the, farmer, observed, that, it, was, probably, linked, to, fmd, last, year, because, of, fmd, he, had, to, use, more, silage, to, keep, his, cows, inside, last, summer, this, meant, he, had, less, stored, over, the, winter, and, so, had, none, available, to, feed, this, spring, summer, the, lack, of, silage, now, is, almost, certainly, implicated, in, the, problems, his, cows, had, it's, very, unusual, to, have, two, occurring, on, one, farm, at, same, time, seeing, as, he, missed, getting, fmd, last, year, though, he, thought, it, was, a, price, worth, paying, it, was, actually, quite, a, pleasant, way, to, spend, a, morning, he's, from, kirkby, stephen, where, i, went, to, school, and, i, didn't, have, any, other, jobs, waiting, so, it, was, quite, a, relaxed, few, hours, the, surgery, went, ok, too, i, had, a, half, day, on, friday, and, drove, to, valley, just, beyond, alston, to, meet, one, of, my, old, flat, mates, from, edinburgh, for, his, stag, weekend, we, stayed, in, an, old, barn, in, middle, of, nowhere, so, it, wasn't, exactly, a, conventional, stag, party, but, very, enjoyable, all, the, same, we, walked, to, the, nearest, pub, on, saturday, to, see, england's, exciting, next, instalment, 3, 0, thank, you, very, much, after, that, it's, been, a, leisurely, day, and, drive, back, to, penrith, and, i’ve, got, another, night, to, get, my, head, back, to, normal, for, work, tomorrow, diary, 16, this, week, has, been, quite, small, animal, orientated, again, i've, done, two, mornings, in, the, surgery, and, more, consulting, than, usual, i'm, not, meant, to, be, on, duty, for, nights, this, week, but, i've, had, a, couple, to, cover, for, people, who've, been, on, holiday, fortunately, both, nights, were, fairly, quiet, i'm, sure, the, favour, will, be, returned, sometime, during, the, day, work, has, been, fairly, steady, we’re, not, quite, as, busy, as, last, week, but, there's, enough, to, keep, us, going, the, practice, like, most, of, the, country, tried, to, stop, briefly, while, england, were, losing, to, brazil, it's, a, bit, disappointing, hopefully, farmers, and, the, rest, of, our, clients, won’t, be, too, depressed, about, it, all, it, was, good, while, it, lasted, at, the, weekend, i, went, down, to, a, place, near, worcester, for, the, wedding, of, the, friend, whose, stag, weekend, it, was, the, last, week, there, were, a, lot, of, people, from, edinburgh, there, why, haven't, seen, for, several, years, and, it, was, great, to, catch, up, the, weather, was, very, kind, and, stayed, dry, diary, 18, on, monday, i, went, to, do, a, big, tuberculosis, and, brucellosis, test, at, of, one, our, big, dairy, farms, that, had, restocked, few, months, ago, they’ve, got, several, hundred, cows, and, it, took, a, lot, longer, than, anticipated, i, had, to, go, back, on, tuesday, to, finish, the, job, off, they’re, a, friendly, family, so, it, wasn't, really, too, much, of, a, chore, there, has, been, a, more, obvious, change, in, them, since, fmd, than, for, most, of, our, clients, who, had, the, disease, they, seem, much, quieter, and, less, concerned, about, farming, and, life's, problems, in, general, now, perhaps, they, think, if, they, can, get, through, 2001, then, there’s, nothing, worth, getting, stressed, about, in, comparison, wednesday, was, spent, doing, small, animal, work, made, a, change, as, on, thursday, i, went, back, to, read, the, cows, results, for, the, tb, test, all, negative, on, thursday, night, i, drove, down, to, stay, with, a, college, friend, near, birmingham, for, the, start, of, a, long, weekend, on, friday, i, carried, on, south, to, another, friend, in, north, devon, she's, working, another, vet, in, an, area, that, was, also, severely, affected, by, fmd, cumbria, was, so, badly, hit, that, is, sometimes, easy, to, forget, that, other, places, had, a, bad, time, too, thankfully, work, in, devon, is, more, or, less, back, to, normal, again, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, weekend, in, south, devon, where, my, dad, had, his, 60th, birthday, we, were, lucky, with, the, weather, and, had, fine, ish, conditions, to, have, a, barbecue, on, the, beach, i, was, off, today, monday, as, well, and, spent, the, day, driving, north, too, far, to, go, for, a, weekend, diary, 19, it's, been, a, short, working, week, seeing, as, i, had, monday, off, i’ve, also, started, a, month, back, on, the, out, of, the, hours, of, rota, this, week, it, works, a, month, on, a, month, off, system, so, nights, and, weekends, have, been, and, will, be, a, bit, busier, work, has, generally, been, a, bit, quieter, recently, this, is, fairly, typical, for, the, time, of, year, mainly, because, animals, are, outside, and, farmers, are, busy, making, hay, and, silage, rain, permitting, we've, had, two, vets, off, this, week, so, although, there, have, been, fewer, jobs, in, we, are, not, left, twiddling, our, thumbs, there, has, been, the, usual, flow, of, a, routine, farm, work, along, with, horses, and, small, animals, but, nothing, too, taxing, on, the, whole, i, had, a, night, on, thursday, and, went, up, st, sunday, crag, in, the, lake, district, with, a, couple, of, friends, from, brampton, it, was, further, than, i, remembered, it, being, we, didn't, get, down, until, it, was, almost, dark, but, apart, from, being, unseasonably, cold, surprise, surprise, it, was, a, fine, night, it, was, duty, this, weekend, i, was, on, first, call, on, friday, night, and, had, it, very, easy, no, calls, until, 12, 45pm, when, another, vet, and, i, had, to, operate, on, a, dog, until, three, am, i, checked, it, again, at, 5.30, and, then, had, to, go, to, calving, at, 6.45, just, as, that, was, finished, i, was, called, to, a, badly, cut, horse, then, some, lame, cows, and, then, to, the, bacon, roll, shop, for, breakfast, i, was, only, on, second, call, for, the, rest, of, the, weekend, and, was, fairly, quiet, this, meant, i, could, get, on, with, various, mundane, things, like, painting, my, house, tidying, the, garden, etc, etc, ideal, tasks, for, when, i, can't, do, anything, else, because, i'm, on, call, and, the, dog, did, well, so, it, makes, the, night, with, no, sleep, worthwhile, diary, 20, have, had, another, short, week, had, monday, off, as, i, was, coming, back, from, a, long, weekend, away, work, this, week, has, been, fairly, steady, farmers, are, often, busy, trying, to, get, silage, hay, in, at, the, moment, so, routine, of, vet, work, takes, a, back, seat, having, said, that, we, have, been, kept, at, least, as, busy, as, we, would, expect, with, routine, fertility, visits, and, the, occasional, sick, cow, etc, there, been, a, few, of, the, restocking, farms, that, have, had, some, fairly, unusual, diseases, that, didn't, obviously, fall, into, the, ones, we, usually, recognise, or, deal, with, as, a, lot, of, them, have, bought, stock, in, from, abroad, we, have, to, at, least, keep, in, mind, the, possibility, of, new, problems, been, brought, in, we've, worked, quite, closely, with, the, local, defra, run, veterinary, investigation, centre, on, a, few, of, these, cases, but, thankfully, none, have, turned, out, to, be, anything, to, be, unduly, worried, about, i, was, on, duty, this, weekend, but, have, fortunately, been, reasonably, quiet, the, only, thing, out, the, ordinary, was, a, horse, that, had, torn, its, leg, up, quite, badly, on, some, wire, but, with, a, bit, of, time, and, bandaging, it, should, do, okay, diary, 21, 2, vets, have, been, off, this, week, so, it's, been, a, bit, busier, for, the, rest, of, us, again, as, with, last, week, it's, been, a, mixture, of, routine, and, the, standard, a, e, type, work, there, have, been, a, few, tuberculin, tests, going, on, still, trying, to, clear, the, backlog, from, last, year, it's, getting, there, slowly, but, a, lot, of, it, will, have, to, wait, until, the, autumn, winter, when, the, cows, are, in, and, the, farmers, have, more, time, available, our, new, vet, who, started, in, april, has, seemed, to, settle, in, very, well, he, had, a, bit, of, a, bad, day, earlier, in, the, week, when, a, calving, did, go, quite, as, planned, it's, very, easy, to, do, especially, when, you, feel, under, pressure, as, is, bound, to, happen, when, you, start, a, new, job, it, reminded, me, of, some, of, the, problems, i, had, a, few, years, ago, the, farm, where, it, happened, is, quite, an, understanding, type, so, it, won't, create, any, real, problems, hockey, training, is, starting, again, which, seems, a, bit, premature, as, the, season, is, still, months, away, at, least, it'll, encourage, me, to, do, a, bit, more, exercise, to, get, fit, for, matches, the, weather, has, meant, i, haven't, been, out, into, the, hills, as, often, as, i, would, have, liked, but, hopefully, there's, still, time, for, it, to, brighten, up, a, bit, had, the, weekend, off, so, a, couple, of, friends, from, college, he, now, living, york, came, to, stay, we, went, up, to, the, borders, for, the, day, on, saturday, near, to, where, i, used, to, work, it, doesn't, seem, to, have, changed, much, i, still, think, i'm, better, off, down, here, despite, last, year, diary, 22, we, had, a, bit, of, a, rush, on, this, week, as, sometimes, seems, to, happen, it, can, be, quiet, for, couple, of, weeks, and, then, it, suddenly, it's, crazy, it, may, be, that, a, lot, of, farms, have, now, largely, got, their, crops, in, and, are, trying, to, catch, up, or, perhaps, it's, just, the, way, things, go, several, farms, have, had, ongoing, problems, this, week, with, visits, being, required, several, days, running, there, have, also, been, a, large, number, of, horse, calls, this, is, probably, fairly, common, for, this, time, of, year, as, they, tend, to, get, ridden, in, the, supposedly, better, weather, we, tend, to, go, further, afield, for, horses, on, tuesday, i, went, to, kirkby, lonsdale, area, in, morning, and, had, to, go, north, of, carlisle, in, the, afternoon, the, miles, get, racked, up, or, fairly, quickly, and, i, get, to, learn, where, the, various, blind, spots, for, phone, and, radio, reception, are, i, was, on, duty, again, on, the, weekend, which, meant, that, i, was, also, on, for, monday, wednesday, and, friday, nights, they, weren't, too, bad, apart, from, friday, when, i, have, to, go, and, see, a, couple, of, horses, being, on, duty, for, three, week, nights, tends, to, limit, what, i, can, do, apart, from, work, but, i, managed, to, meet, up, with, some, friends, working, in, brampton, one, night, and, go, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, on, thursday, the, weekend, was, fairly, quiet, but, i, was, only, on, second, call, so, i, found, time, to, do, some, decorating, in, the, room, in, my, house, which, is, the, current, project, i, lead, such, a, thrilling, life, diary, 23, the, calm, after, the, storm, after, the, frantic, levels, of, work, we, saw, last, week, it, has, again, been, a, bit, more, civilised, this, week, we've, had, time, to, have, coffee, and, lunch, breaks, and, actually, talk, to, colleagues, from, time, to, time, i, wouldn't, want, have, every, week, is, quiet, as, this, but, occasionally, it's, very, welcome, it's, quite, relaxing, to, be, able, to, go, on, a, call, knowing, that, there, is, not, another, one, waiting, it, also, means, that, if, the, afternoons, are, quiet, one, of, us, can, usually, have, a, half, day, i, got, the, nod, on, wednesday, and, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, my, folks, they’ve, got, a, smallholding, down, there, with, various, creatures, which, usually, have, some, ailment, or, other, it's, a, bit, of, a, busman's, holiday, going, there, but, it, is, nice, having, them, close, i, tend, see, them, every, week, or, two, on, wednesday, i, vaccinated, a, couple, of, horses, and, trimmed, a, few, sheep’s, feet, they, went, through, the, joys, of, 48, hourly, surveillance, inspections, last, year, but, somehow, managed, to, come, through, unscathed, their, parish, was, one, of, the, only, ones, in, the, kirkby, stephen, area, to, do, so, other, weekend, i, went, up, to, glasgow, to, see, a, cousin, who, was, having, a, leaving, party, i, didn't, know, many, people, there, but, it, was, good, to, go, and, do, something, completely, removed, from, the, usual, one, of, the, people, i, did, know, came, and, stayed, in, penrith, on, sunday, night, it, was, a, stunning, day, we, went, the, lakes, which, were, at, their, best, diary, 24, this, week, was, the, first, of, four, for, me, being, off, the, rota, which, should, mean, no, nights, and, no, weekends, on, call, can't, be, bad, on, monday, had, a, small, tb, test, to, do, it, was, with, a, very, pleasant, farmer, and, the, cows, behaved, themselves, so, it, wasn't, a, bad, way, to, spend, a, morning, he's, imported, a, small, herd, from, holland, and, seems, very, pleased, with, them, so, far, it, takes, a, bit, time, for, the, f, m, farmers, to, get, used, to, their, new, stock, as, most, of, them, knew, their, old, ones, so, well, but, on, the, whole, people, seemed, fairly, content, with, their, new, ones, i, did, small, animal, ops, on, tuesday, and, wednesday, as, one, of, the, vets, who, usually, do, it, was, on, holiday, we've, got, a, new, nurse, starting, this, week, so, it, was, a, case, of, showing, her, the, ropes, but, she, seems, to, be, doing, very, well, one, my, best, school, friends, got, married, on, friday, very, typically, after, a, fairly, quiet, week, it, suddenly, got, busy, on, friday, afternoon, i, managed, to, get, the, wedding, but, had, to, miss, the, afternoon, reception, in, order, to, go, and, see, a, horse, in, appleby, that's, life, i, was, one, of, the, duty, vets, at, lowther, show, on, saturday, i, hadn't, done, it, before, and, had, a, very, good, time, it, was, generally, fine, weather, and, there, were, some, truly, stunning, teams, of, horses, in, the, driving, event, lots, of, competitors, commented, on, how, good, it, was, to, have, the, show, up, and, running, again, after, last, year's, cancellations, the, event, passed, without, any, major, incident, for, vet, wise, so, it, was, a, pretty, calm, day, for, me, really, diary, 25, the, week's, been, fairly, steady, i, seem, to, have, been, doing, more, horses, than, anything, else, i, didn't, go, and, see, a, cow, until, friday, several, of, them, were, ongoing, cases, such, as, leg, wounds, that, have, needed, daily, dressing, changes, and, the, rest, a, selection, of, vaccinations, lameness, and, those, that, aren't, quite, right, i, quite, enjoy, the, horse, side, of, the, job, so, doing, a, bit, more, than, usual, has, been, a, welcome, change, i, had, planned, to, get, to, work, on, my, house, this, month, in, my, free, evenings, but, it, doesn't, really, seem, to, have, worked, like, that, when, i, know, i've, got, a, lot, of, free, time, nights, tend, to, get, booked, up, seeing, people, from, home, or, near, by, who, i’ve, temporarily, lost, touch, with, also, seeing, as, summer, seems, to, have, found, us, i've, been, trying, to, get, into, the, lakes, as, much, as, possible, the, house, can, wait, till, winter, this, weekend, i’ve, been, down, to, wales, to, see, a, group, of, college, friends, we, stayed, in, a, cottage, owned, by, one, of, the, group's, parents, and, played, a, few, rounds, of, golf, i, played, very, badly, lost, a, lot, of, balls, and, became, very, frustrated, with, it, all, i, think, it, comes, down, to, lack, of, talent, still, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, some, people, i, haven't, seen, since, graduation, and, i'm, sure, the, golf, will, be, better, next, year, diary, 26, i've, done, more, small, animal, work, than, anything, else, this, week, there, had, been, no, disasters, all, fairly, routine, stuff, one, of, the, small, animal, vets, has, been, away, so, i, had, to, cover, a, bit, i, didn't, actually, get, out, onto, a, farm, until, friday, morning, it, gets, a, bit, claustrophobic, inside, after, a, while, so, it, was, good, to, get, out, i, was, on, call, at, the, weekend, and, also, had, a, college, friend, to, stay, it, was, very, quiet, most, of, the, time, until, sunday, evening, i, had, swapped, duty, to, be, off, on, the, night, from, 6, 00pm, at, 5.45, four, calls, all, came, in, at, once, at, all, four, corners, of, the, practice, so, i, didn't, actually, get, finished, until, nearly, 8pm, that’s, the, way, it, goes, sometimes, i, suppose, i, had, another, half, day, earlier, in, the, week, as, it, was, fairly, quiet, i, took, my, bike, out, into, the, northern, lakes, for, a, few, hours, to, blow, away, the, cobwebs, from, being, inside, at, work, diary, 27, i, had, a, barbecue, party, this, weekend, for, people, from, work, and, a, lot, of, friends, from, college, there, were, a, lot, of, people, i, thought, i'd, always, keep, in, touch, with, the, but, as, time, went, on, i, never, did, so, i, arranged, a, weekend, a, long, way, in, advance, for, us, all, to, meet, up, again, about, 28, people, came, most, of, whom, i, haven't, seen, for, least, a, year, or, two, nobody, seems, to, have, changed, much, and, it, was, great, to, see, them, all, again, the, garden, and, house, have, both, taken, a, bit, of, a, pounding, but, i, think, most, of, the, mess, is, fairly, superficial, i, went, for, a, walk, near, howtown, today, to, clear, my, head, after, the, barbecue, last, night, it, was, a, very, good, day, weather, wise, which, meant, that, a, lot, of, people, had, had, the, same, idea, as, us, it's, been, a, variable, week, at, work, some, days, been, very, quiet, others, flat, out, i've, had, an, ongoing, case, of, a, young, horse, that, had, been, caught, up, in, wire, on, monday, evening, it, was, well, beyond, the, stage, where, it, could, have, been, stitched, when, i, saw, it, so, it'll, have, to, heal, slowly, by, filling, the, wound, in, i'm, sure, it'll, be, fine, but, it's, going, to, take, a, long, time, we’re, starting, to, get, a, lot, of, inquiries, about, the, new, rules, defra, are, bringing, in, to, allow, farmers, to, bring, animals, on, to, their, farms, in, isolation, facilities, it, should, make, things, less, restrictive, for, the, farmer, we, are, going, to, have, to, do, a, lot, of, inspections, it's, not, since, restocking, checks, last, winter, that, we’ve, really, had, to, do, this, sort, of, thing, but, the, checks, probably, won't, be, as, exhaustive, as, those, we, had, to, do, last, year, diary, 28, had, a, fairly, quiet, week, really, this, been, a, fairly, standard, mix, of, sick, cows, a, couple, of, lame, horses, and, the, continuation, of, the, young, horse, that, wrecked, its, leg, last, week, which, is, going, okay, so, it's, been, fairly, laid, back, on, the, whole, with, time, for, a, coffee, break, after, most, calls, we, have, done, the, first, of, the, inspections, for, the, new, on, farm, isolation, facilities, for, sheep, on, the, whole, farmer, compliance, has, been, very, good, there, have, been, a, few, whinges, about, why, they, have, to, do, it, and, i, can, see, why, as, it, must, be, frustrating, to, suddenly, be, told, how, to, run, stock, movements, that, they've, always, done, a, different, way, most, can, see, why, defra, are, insisting, on, it, though, as, it's, all, aimed, at, reducing, the, risk, of, having, another, situation, like, we, did, last, year, i, was, off, again, this, weekend, one, of, my, old, flat, mates, and, his, wife, came, to, stay, they, live, in, london, so, came, north, for, a, weekend, of, clean, living, and, fresh, air, we, went, for, walks, around, cat, bells, and, high, street, on, saturday, and, sunday, ate, drank, and, were, generally, fairly, unstressed, hope, it, was, what, they, were, looking, for, diary, 29, i've, had, a, short, week, in, terms, of, work, at, the, practice, this, week, as, i've, been, to, glasgow, for, an, equine, conference, from, thursday, to, saturday, further, education, is, not, compulsory, and, there, is, no, formal, structure, for, it, which, is, quite, controversial, in, some, people's, eyes, but, the, royal, college, of, vets, do, encourage, us, to, keep, up, to, date, there, is, a, quota, we’re, asked, to, fulfil, each, year, and, these, three, days, will, help, me, keep, on, track, there, were, several, different, courses, on, each, day, with, one, lecture, theatre, for, practitioner, based, subjects, that, we, could, expect, to, see, on, a, day, to, day, basis, and, another, called, advanced, clinical, sessions, on, subjects, and, cases, so, obscure, that, you'd, be, lucky, to, hear, of, one, let, alone, see, one, more, than, once, or, twice, i, didn't, go, to, many, of, those, lectures, as, well, as, being, useful, in, terms, of, picking, up, new, information, it, was, also, a, good, chance, to, catch, up, with, old, friends, from, college, lots, of, people, i, hadn't, seen, for, a, year, or, two, were, there, and, it, was, good, to, see, them, the, first, three, days, of, the, week, were, okay, i, went, out, on, tuesday, morning, to, trim, some, lame, cows, feet, and, ended, up, accidentally, trimming, some, skin, from, the, farmers, thumb, with, my, hoof, knife, all, a, bit, embarrassing, and, felt, very, bad, but, he, didn't, seem, that, fazed, by, it, and, he's, not, the, type, to, bear, a, grudge, perhaps, i, shouldn’t, try, to, keep, my, knife, so, sharp, another, of, the, week's, more, interesting, events, was, an, irish, wolfhound, that, needed, surgery, to, correct, a, twisted, and, distended, stomach, it's, fairly, common, in, this, type, of, dog, and, is, a, real, emergency, another, vet, and, i, operated, on, him, on, tuesday, afternoon, it, took, a, couple, of, hours, but, so, far, is, seems, to, have, been, worth, it, as, he's, done, very, well, and, apparently, went, home, on, friday, diary, 30, i, spent, most, of, monday, afternoon, evening, irradiating, myself, by, taking, dozens, of, x, rays, of, a, horse’s, legs, it, was, being, sold, for, a, lot, of, money, and, the, insurance, company, wanted, to, check, all, its, joints, were, ok, before, insuring, it, it, took, a, lot, longer, than, anticipated, as, it, was, difficult, to, get, it, positioned, absolutely, right, for, each, view, but, we, got, there, in, the, end, we, have, to, be, quite, careful, about, exposure, to, x, rays, but, my, x, ray, badge, hasn't, shown, a, high, reading, yet, 2, vets, have, been, off, this, week, one, on, his, honeymoon, and, one, has, been, away, doing, ai, on, sheep, its, often, a, bit, quieter, now, but, we, seem, to, have, been, kept, going, i, did, a, big, routine, fertility, visit, to, one, of, our, dairy, farms, on, wednesday, one, of, the, main, things, we, do, on, these, visits, is, manual, pregnancy, diagnosis, it's, not, too, bad, with, dairy, calves, cows, as, if, they're, not, in, calf, they, would, normally, get, another, chance, to, do, so, but, with, some, beef, farms, or, a, dairy, cow, that, is, persistently, not, conceiving, it, sometimes, more, economic, to, get, rid, of, the, cow, of, rather, than, persisting, so, there's, a, big, incentive, for, us, to, get, it, right, or, at, least, not, to, say, a, cow, isn't, in, calf, when, she, is, luckily, they, were, all, quite, straightforward, this, week, this, was, my, last, before, going, away, to, the, usa, for, a, fortnight, i, fly, to, new, york, tomorrow, to, meet, up, with, an, old, flatmate, of, mine, who's, a, journalist, out, there, i'm, crossing, the, atlantic, to, see, him, and, he's, given, me, directions, to, his, flat, rather, than, meeting, me, at, the, airport, because, i'm, arriving, when, premiership, football, is, on, tv, charming, diary, 31, two, weeks, in, the, states, can't, be, bad, i, flew, into, new, york, where, i, stayed, with, a, friend, who's, working, in, manhattan, i, did, a, lot, of, the, usual, tourist, things, empire, state, building, boat, trip, around, the, island, central, park, etc, for, its, size, it's, a, very, relaxed, place, in, a, lot, of, ways, it, feels, very, safe, and, although, there, is, loads, going, on, you, never, seem, to, get, hassled, we, flew, to, new, orleans, for, a, week, supposedly, for, some, sun, in, the, deep, south, but, landed, just, as, a, tropical, storm, hit, the, mainland, everything, was, closed, for, two, days, as, bad, as, uk, when, it, snows, once, the, weather, cleared, it, was, fine, and, we, again, went, about, being, tourists, paddle, boat, up, the, mississippi, river, out, on, a, boat, in, the, louisiana, swamps, to, look, at, alligators, and, a, bit, of, new, orleans, nightlife, i, had, a, few, more, days, in, new, york, before, flying, home, diary, 32, first, week, back, after, america, had, a, good, trip, but, the, week, has, been, rather, marred, by, the, death, of, one, of, the, hockey, team, and, a, year, mate, of, mine, at, school, in, a, tractor, accident, when, he, was, hit, by, a, wagon, on, the, a, 66, on, thursday, i, saw, him, on, wednesday, night, at, hockey, training, he, was, very, stiff, having, done, the, great, north, run, with, his, wife, the, weekend, before, i, didn't, know, him, very, well, at, school, but, have, got, to, over, the, last, few, years, via, hockey, and, he, really, was, a, tremendously, good, person, and, will, be, much, missed, by, lots, of, people, in, and, around, kirkby, stephen, the, weekend's, match, was, postponed, as, no, one, could, have, thought, about, playing, it, all, seems, very, trivial, when, this, sort, of, thing, happens, i, couldn't, have, played, anyway, as, i'm, on, duty, this, weekend, but, fortunately, it's, been, fairly, quiet, so, far, a, calving, and, 2, caesareans, but, it's, getting, into, calving, season, so, it's, about, par, for, the, course, the, first, half, of, the, week, was, ok, i, was, even, given, a, half, day, on, tuesday, a, day, and, a, half, after, returning, from, holiday, i, went, for, a, walk, at, the, bottom, end, of, derwent, water, and, then, tried, to, sleep, off, some, jet, lag, diary, 33, i, went, to, matthew's, funeral, on, tuesday, how, popular, he, was, was, reflected, in, the, number, of, people, there, we, arrived, 25, minutes, before, it, was, due, to, start, and, still, had, to, stand, and, had, to, move, up, as, more, people, tried, to, fit, into, the, chapel, it, almost, seemed, as, if, all, of, kirkby, had, come, to, a, standstill, it, went, on, quite, a, long, time, so, i, had, the, afternoon, off, and, went, to, see, my, parents, who, live, near, kirkby, afterwards, we, cancelled, hockey, training, on, wednesday, as, it, seemed, too, soon, to, go, on, as, usual, but, decided, play, our, scheduled, match, on, saturday, both, our, team, and, the, opposition, had, two, minute, silence, before, the, match, we, ended, up, drawing, 0, 0, but, it, was, a, very, good, close, game, we, normally, lose, to, this, team, and, played, in, a, competitive, but, fair, spirit, just, what, was, needed, for, our, first, match, back, i'm, actually, on, duty, again, this, weekend, but, one, my, colleagues, covered, for, me, for, a, few, hours, so, i, could, go, to, play, the, cases, at, work, have, been, fairly, steady, this, week, i'm, going, to, enrol, for, a, further, qualification, in, equine, practice, in, the, next, week, or, two, i'm, doing, a, reasonable, amount, of, horse, work, at, the, moment, but, will, try, to, do, a, bit, more, over, the, next, few, months, years, it, should, motivate, me, to, read, up, on, cases, more, and, find, slightly, more, constructive, ways, to, spend, evenings, on, call, diary, 34, tb, testing, our, biggest, beef, herd, had, its, post, restocking, test, this, week, about, 600, cattle, were, to, be, done, there’s, no, way, it, could, be, done, in, one, go, so, we, did, it, over, 3, instead, originally, planned, for, two, but, ran, out, of, daylight, it, all, went, smoothly, on, the, whole, or, at, least, as, well, as, could, be, expected, and, everything, has, been, cleared, as, negative, i, found, out, from, defra, a, few, weeks, ago, that, there, have, actually, been, quite, a, few, tb, cases, in, the, county, since, restocking, as, we'd, been, clear, for, years, previously, to, fmd, this, is, obviously, a, bit, of, a, worry, we, haven't, had, any, cases, in, our, practice, but, if, we, can't, stamp, out, these, new, cases, as, they, are, found, it’s, only, a, matter, of, time, before, it, spreads, further, afield, the, more, we, get, in, the, county, also, means, there, will, have, to, be, more, testing, at, the, moment, it's, begrudgingly, accepted, by, the, farmers, but, if, we, have, to, do, more, i, can, see, them, having, a, sense, of, humour, failure, over, it, ultimately, it's, in, their, interest, for, us, to, check, that, their, herd, is, free, but, it, is, a, big, time, commitment, and, they, don't, get, paid, for, it, while, i, spent, two, days, testing, the, rest, of, the, week, had, a, bit, more, variety, i, saw, few, horses, mainly, lameness, but, also, one, or, two, with, other, ailments, i, have, to, write, a, casebook, for, the, equine, certificate, i'm, doing, i’m, on, the, lookout, for, suitable, cases, during, my, rounds, i, had, the, weekend, off, played, hockey, in, manchester, and, then, went, to, worcester, to, see, some, college, friends, i, had, to, drive, back, via, ely, as, the, trains, are, cancelled, due, to, the, winds, which, meant, a, friend, was, stranded, not, a, very, direct, route, to, cumbria, diary, 35, the, week, started, on, monday, morning, with, another, tb, test, on, a, restocking, farm, it's, not, a, big, farm, and, was, one, of, the, late, ones, to, get, fmd, it's, run, by, a, very, nice, but, quite, intense, family, the, son, has, taken, re, stocking, very, seriously, and, has, obviously, thought, of, it, very, much, as, an, opportunity, to, start, from, scratch, and, try, to, eliminate, some, of, their, previous, herd, problems, i, have, consequently, spent, quite, a, bit, of, time, advising, him, over, the, various, vaccines, available, and, their, relative, pros, and, cons, thankfully, things, seem, to, be, paying, off, so, far, with, few, problems, in, herd, one, of, the, things, that, i, noticed, during, the, test, was, that, they, made, one, or, two, jokes, about, last, year, sorry, forgotten, exactly, what, they, said, i, thought, the, fact, that, they, were, able, to, now, talk, about, fmd, like, that, had, to, be, a, good, sign, as, i, think, it, would, have, been, highly, unlikely, a, year, ago, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, went, up, to, wigton, to, vet, a, horse, for, a, potential, buyer, there, were, several, minor, things, wrong, with, it, but, overall, it, seemed, ok, it's, always, a, responsibility, vetting, horses, as, someone, is, either, trying, to, buy, it, or, not, on, the, basis, of, what, i, find, in, this, case, it, took, quite, a, lot, of, convincing, the, buyer, that, the, imperfections, were, not, that, serious, hopefully, they, won’t, subsequently, turn, out, to, be, a, problem, i've, started, doing, more, horse, cases, recently, and, on, tuesday, sent, off, my, application, form, to, be, accepted, to, do, further, exams, in, horse, practice, i, have, to, wait, until, next, year, to, find, out, whether, i've, been, accepted, and, won't, sit, them, until, 2005, i, was, off, this, weekend, and, played, hockey, in, manchester, unfortunately, we, didn't, win, maybe, next, week, saturday, evening, i, went, down, to, kendal, to, see, an, old, flatmate, who, lives, there, diary, 36, on, tuesday, i, went, to, see, a, horse, near, carlisle, it, had, developed, a, swelling, on, its, lower, jaw, that, was, fairly, painful, to, touch, they, were, a, few, possibilities, but, the, most, likely, was, that, it, had, at, tooth, root, abscess, i, put, it, on, to, antibiotics, but, seeing, as, it, had, obviously, been, going, on, for, a, while, thought, it, was, worth, taking, some, x, rays, there, was, obvious, destruction, of, the, tooth, visible, on, the, x, ray, which, probably, means, it, needs, removing, this, is, a, fairly, major, undertaking, on, a, horse, and, as, it, was, a, valuable, creature, still, in, training, i, thought, it, best, to, send, to, edinburgh, vet, school, to, have, it, done, hopefully, i'll, be, able, to, go, and, see, it, done, in, a, day, or, two's, time, one, of, the, aspects, drawbacks, not, really, of, being, a, vet, his, that, one, is, often, asked, about, animal, ailments, out, of, work, i’m, sure, it, happens, a, lot, in, other, jobs, too, my, mother, is, very, adept, at, this, not, that, i, really, mind, her, elderly, terrier, that, we, grew, up, with, has, started, having, one, or, two, problems, recently, i, suggested, a, few, possibilities, but, thought, it, best, if, she, went, to, the, local, vets, to, have, her, looked, at, the, problem, was, she, was, so, bad, tempered, the, terrier, that, they, couldn’t, safely, blood, sample, her, so, she, had, a, day, out, to, penrith, so, that, i, could, try, to, take, blood, from, her, i, managed, to, more, or, less, intact, and, fortunately, her, results, seemed, more, or, less, in, order, or, at, least, better, than, her, temper, the, general, work, in, the, practice, has, been, fairly, steady, this, week, a, few, farmers, seem, to, be, having, quite, a, few, cows, calving, at, the, moment, which, is, a, bit, unseasonal, but, i, suppose, a, reasonable, number, tend, to, calve, all, year, round, we, haven't, really, got, into, calf, pneumonia, season, yet, but, it, can't, be, long, before, they, start, to, keep, us, busy, it, will, soon, take, over, from, lungworm, as, the, main, bovine, respiratory, problem, the, weekend, was, off, again, brought, a, victory, in, a, hockey, match, the, start, of, a, winning, streak, perhaps, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, after, the, match, to, see, a, few, friends, and, for, the, start, of, a, week, off, wahey, diary, 37, it's, a, week, off, can't, be, bad, i, didn't, do, what, i, had, planned, due, to, an, unforeseen, change, in, circumstances, but, still, good, as, i, was, in, edinburgh, last, weekend, i, decided, to, stay, up, for, few, days, this, was, partly, to, see, friends, and, also, because, i, had, referred, the, horse, with, a, bad, tooth, that, i, mentioned, last, week, voluntary, work, experience, during, time, off, dedication, or, very, rash, i, spent, tuesday, at, the, vet, school, in, edinburgh, with, one, of, my, old, tutors, the, case, i, had, sent, up, was, successfully, treated, so, far, by, removing, the, offending, tooth, it, was, very, interesting, to, see, how, he, did, it, as, he, used, a, different, technique, to, the, one, we’ve, used, in, the, practice, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, there, with, him, seeing, other, cases, it, felt, a, bit, odd, being, there, not, as, a, student, i, came, home, on, tuesday, evening, and, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, my, folks, on, wednesday, morning, i, spent, most, of, the, rest, of, the, week, either, at, their, house, or, mine, doing, things, like, stocking, up, on, firewood, for, the, winter, sorting, my, house, out, and, making, a, start, on, stripping, the, wallpaper, in, my, hallway, i, normally, go, away, when, i, take, time, off, but, it, was, actually, very, nice, to, do, things, at, home, for, change, it, made, for, quite, a, relaxing, week, on, the, whole, diary, 38, back, to, work, it, was, good, to, have, a, week, off, last, week, but, one, of, the, best, things, about, where, i, work, and, what, i, do, is, that, i, never, seem, to, feel, reluctant, to, go, back, to, work, i, think, that, must, mean, i, enjoy, it, on, the, whole, on, tuesday, i, went, back, to, see, the, horse, that, had, had, its, tooth, removed, last, week, it's, doing, very, well, and, is, back, in, training, it, was, eating, very, well, as, soon, as, the, tooth, came, out, it's, amazing, how, animals, often, seem, to, deal, with, pain, so, stoically, i'll, check, it, again, next, week, and, all, things, being, well, that, should, be, it, on, tuesday, afternoon, i, happened, to, see, another, slightly, unusual, case, in, a, horse, it, had, developed, a, lump, on, the, outside, of, its, cheek, which, on, closer, inspection, turned, out, to, be, a, large, mass, man, inside, its, mouth, it's, probably, going, to, have, to, be, removed, and, should, come, in, next, week, for, it, to, be, done, the, rest, of, the, week, was, the, usual, mix, of, more, routine, cases, have, been, on, to, more, farms, this, week, than, i, have, done, for, a, while, we, recently, took, on, a, new, dairy, farm, near, appleby, and, i, went, to, see, a, cow, there, for, the, first, time, on, a, first, visit, you, always, hope, for, something, straightforward, so, that, it's, easy, to, make, a, good, first, impression, on, this, occasion, the, cow, was, very, sick, and, wasn't, really, giving, me, many, clues, as, to, why, all, i, could, do, was, treat, it, for, the, symptoms, it, was, showing, i, saw, it, twice, on, friday, and, again, on, saturday, and, by, evening, it, was, on, the, mend, i, never, did, reach, a, conclusive, diagnosis, but, i, think, the, farmer, was, satisfied, by, the, fact, that, it, had, got, better, in, spite, of, not, knowing, quite, what, was, wrong, i, was, on, duty, friday, night, very, quiet, and, on, saturday, apart, from, the, cow, i, mentioned, it, was, fairly, easy, going, today, i, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, some, old, friends, staying, with, my, parents, two, weeks, with, no, tb, testing, it'll, change, next, week, diary, 39, it's, been, a, fairly, uneventful, week, at, work, there, don't, seem, to, have, been, any, particularly, on, going, or, notable, cases, in, some, ways, it's, not, a, bad, thing, as, it, makes, for, a, fairly, stress, free, time, it's, not, that, you, can, really, switch, off, but, it, does, mean, that, when, there, are, a, few, fairly, straightforward, cases, to, see, it's, possible, to, spend, more, time, chatting, to, the, farmer, owner, without, having, to, work, too, hard, finding, what's, wrong, with, the, patient, this, week's, most, interesting, case, was, a, horse, with, amazingly, extensive, arthritis, in, its, hind, legs, considering, its, age, it's, not, a, terminal, condition, but, it, does, have, implications, as, to, what, it, will, be, possible, to, use, it, for, in, future, in, situations, like, that, it, can, be, quite, difficult, to, give, the, client, the, right, outlook, they, often, expect, a, quick, cure, especially, in, a, young, horse, and, to, tell, them, that, a, problem, has, been, present, for, months, if, not, years, and, will, never, completely, go, away, can, come, as, a, bit, of, shock, the, owner, in, this, case, was, very, sensible, and, seemed, to, taking, what, was, said, very, well, the, other, good, thing, about, this, week, is, that, i'm, having, a, very, good, run, with, my, duties, i've, been, on, for, two, nights, on, first, call, and, the, phone, hasn't, gone, once, very, unusual, and, very, welcome, this, must, be, tempting, fate, i've, had, the, weekend, off, there, was, a, hockey, match, on, saturday, when, we, lost, to, the, league, leaders, but, avoided, humiliation, the, rest, of, the, two, days, was, spent, trying, to, progress, with, decorating, the, hallway, before, friends, come, to, stay, over, christmas, and, new, year, am, i, not, too, young, to, be, spending, weekends, off, decorating, diary, 40, i, had, a, good, test, of, my, diplomacy, skills, this, week, with, an, irate, farmer, i, had, spent, four, hours, doing, a, tb, test, on, a, very, cold, day, when, it, should, have, taken, about, one, and, a, half, hours, in, my, rush, to, get, defrosted, in, my, car, afterwards, i, forgot, to, shut, the, gate, in, the, field, where, i, had, parked, on, my, return, to, the, surgery, i, was, greeted, by, the, news, that, he, had, rung, wanting, my, head, on, a, stick, and, forbidding, me, from, ever, setting, foot, on, his, farm, again, as, all, his, tups, had, gone, walkabout, through, the, gate, i'd, left, open, on, advice, from, the, partners, at, the, practice, who, knew, him, better, i, gave, him, a, day, to, calm, down, and, then, wrote, a, very, grovelling, letter, i, was, allowed, to, go, back, at, the, end, of, the, week, to, read, the, test, results, which, fortunately, was, all, clear, i, think, he's, forgiven, me, one, of, the, more, common, cow, operations, we, do, is, to, correct, a, displaced, stomach, in, the, two, and, a, half, years, i've, been, at, the, practice, we’ve, always, done, it, using, one, particular, technique, there, are, circumstances, where, another, method, is, indicated, and, having, not, seen, them, for, 2, years, there, were, 2, this, week, they, both, went, well, so, far, another, two, years, before, the, next, i, took, my, last, day, off, for, 2002, on, thursday, and, again, spent, it, decorating, on, thursday, night, we, had, our, practice, christmas, meal, the, two, vets, on, duty, managed, not, to, get, called, out, and, on, the, whole, i, think, people, weren't, too, hung, over, on, friday, last, year, there, was, a, bit, of, a, debate, as, to, whether, we, should, have, a, christmas, night, out, as, most, farmers, were, either, just, starting, to, restock, or, still, cleaning, out, this, year, it, was, much, more, straightforward, on, friday, night, it, was, the, annual, night, at, hesket, newmarket, organised, by, the, local, defra, lab, for, any, local, vets, that, want, a, meal, and, beers, it's, a, good, chance, to, catch, up, with, other, vets, from, neighbouring, practices, in, very, informal, atmosphere, diary, 41, i've, had, a, couple, of, vet, students, staying, with, me, this, week, who, i, knew, when, i, was, in, my, final, year, at, edinburgh, they're, doing, work, experience, with, us, for, a, week, or, so, it's, made, a, pleasant, change, to, have, some, company, for, a, while, i, have, also, acquired, two, stray, kittens, in, the, last, week, the, usual, vet, procedure, of, eventually, finding, an, unwanted, patient, that, you, can't, resist, taking, yourself, they, are, settling, in, ok, and, we’ve, only, had, to, have, one, or, two, little, discussions, about, the, benefits, of, using, a, litter, tray, rather, than, the, carpet, the, week, at, work, has, been, reasonably, busy, a, good, thing, this, week, as, there, have, been, three, students, and, it's, a, bit, dull, for, them, if, there, is, nothing, going, on, we, had, a, horse, in, for, most, of, the, week, with, a, severe, respiratory, infection, it’s, needed, fairly, intensive, care, but, seems, to, be, on, the, mend, now, i, may, use, it, as, a, case, to, write, up, as, part, of, the, exam, i'm, hoping, to, do, in, a, few, years, it'll, have, to, be, a, new, year's, resolution, to, get, on, with, the, writing, up, part, of, it, apart, from, a, horse, it's, been, the, usual, sort, of, mix, a, few, routine, fertility, visits, to, dairy, farms, a, few, sick, cows, and, horses, etc, there, been, some, tb, tests, this, week, but, i've, managed, to, miss, them, all, must, be, saving, some, for, me, next, year, i, had, a, lot, of, people, from, work, here, on, friday, night, for, pre, christmas, mulled, wine, and, mince, pies, i'm, not, quite, sure, the, kittens, knew, what, was, happening, but, i, think, the, rest, of, us, enjoyed, it, i've, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, down, to, see, a, friend, in, birmingham, who, qualified, last, summer, this, was, her, second, weekend, on, call, so, i, went, to, give, moral, support, being, on, call, isn't, stressful, anymore, but, i, remember, for, the, first, few, times, it's, difficult, not, to, be, aware, of, the, phone, all, the, time, and, hoping, it, doesn't, ring, there, weren't, many, calls, and, those, that, did, come, in, she, didn't, need, me, for, suited, me, well, diary, 42, the, week, of, christmas, and, my, first, job, of, the, week, was, to, replace, a, particularly, contaminated, uterine, prolapse, in, a, cow, it, finally, went, back, in, after, an, hour, or, so, of, fairly, fruitless, efforts, very, festive, this, week, and, next, we, had, fewer, vets, than, usual, working, each, day, as, we, all, have, a, few, days, off, for, christmas, new, year, so, it‘s, sometimes, a, bit, busy, during, the, day, it's, generally, worth, it, for, the, extra, time, off, i, was, off, on, monday, night, and, went, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, school, friends, back, for, the, holiday, although, we, don't, see, each, other, very, often, any, more, people, don't, really, seem, to, change, very, much, a, good, friend, whose, parents, farm, had, f, and, m, have, sold, up, and, are, going, into, b, b, instead, i, think, it, was, a, hard, decision, but, now, they, seen, to, be, quite, relieved, to, be, out, of, it, i, was, on, duty, on, christmas, eve, and, fortunately, didn't, have, to, go, out, i, just, had, three, phone, calls, between, 7, and, 9, p, m, from, people, saying, their, dog, or, cat, had, been, off, food, for, periods, varying, from, three, weeks, to, 10, days, christmas, eve, seemed, an, odd, time, to, notice, this, i, went, home, to, kirkby, stephen, for, christmas, and, boxing, day, and, didn't, really, do, very, much, i, had, a, look, at, a, couple, of, mum’s, sheep, but, other, than, that, it, was, just, a, case, of, being, lazy, and, enjoying, seasonal, food, and, drink, i, was, on, duty, this, weekend, which, turned, out, be, fairly, busy, one, of, the, students, who, came, to, stay, last, week, came, back, to, do, some, on, call, work, which, turned, out, to, be, very, useful, a, couple, of, cows, to, operate, on, as, caesar, and, a, displaced, stomach, where, two, pairs, of, hands, are, better, than, one, and, quite, a, few, small, animals, to, see, to, diary, 43, i've, had, most, of, this, week, off, for, new, year, tuesday, to, friday, which, is, pretty, good, going, seen, as, i, was, off, for, christmas, as, well, monday, was, fairly, quiet, with, just, a, few, farm, calls, to, do, and, some, small, animals, rather, worryingly, we've, heard, that, a, local, deer, farm, not, one, of, our, customers, has, gone, down, with, tb, apparently, with, quite, a, few, deer, in, the, herd, having, it, this, means, that, we'll, have, to, do, tb, check, tests, on, any, of, our, farms, that, neighbour, the, affected, premises, over, new, year, my, cousin, her, husband, and, their, five, children, young, came, to, stay, it, wasn't, too, hectic, on, the, whole, with, just, the, occasional, loss, of, humour, a, couple, of, friends, from, work, came, round, to, join, us, for, new, year, itself, i've, had, to, work, this, weekend, part, of, the, deal, for, getting, four, days, off, midweek, but, it's, not, really, been, that, busy, i've, only, been, on, second, call, and, have, only, had, to, do, 2, calls, so, far, an, easy, return, to, work, after, new, year, excesses, diary, 44, back, to, normal, quota, of, vets, at, work, again, this, week, which, is, good, as, it, seems, to, have, been, very, busy, most, of, it, has, been, the, usual, sort, of, things, for, the, time, of, year, cows, starting, to, get, lame, after, having, been, inside, for, a, few, months, and, metabolic, problems, probably, related, to, the, poor, silage, last, year's, summer, rain, created, quite, a, few, farmers, have, a, large, amount, of, 2001, silage, left, as, it, wasn't, used, over, winter, 2001, 2002, as, they, hadn't, restocked, on, the, whole, it's, kept, very, well, and, in, many, cases, is, better, than, the, crop, they, made, last, summer, the, fall, out, from, the, deer, herd, tb, has, arrived, two, neighbouring, farms, to, test, this, week, the, first, one, has, come, back, negative, to, the, relief, of, all, concerned, i, did, the, second, one, on, friday, and, will, read, it, tomorrow, monday, the, farmers, there, are, all, very, concerned, about, it, which, is, understandable, but, hopefully, groundless, there, are, lots, of, questions, being, asked, along, the, lines, of, what, if, some, of, which, i, can, answer, and, some, not, it, does, remind, me, a, bit, of, february, 2001, when, fmd, broke, out, and, there, were, all, sorts, of, queries, about, the, disease, its, progression, etc, that, none, of, us, really, knew, about, it, didn't, take, long, for, us, to, know, the, answers, to, most, of, them, i've, had, this, weekend, off, a, hockey, fixture, list, has, started, again, after, the, christmas, break, a, return, to, winning, ways, hopefully, to, continue, diary, 45, the, week, had, a, bad, start, the, tb, test, i, did, last, friday, produced, two, reactors, and, two, inconclusive, borderline, reactors, this, means, that, the, farm, isn't, allowed, to, move, at, any, bovines, on, or, off, the, farm, except, directly, to, slaughter, under, licence, the, reactors, are, taken, away, for, post, mortem, examination, and, the, inconclusive, reactors, are, isolated, for, 60, days, until, the, rest, of, the, herd, is, re, tested, the, farmer, was, very, keen, to, get, the, inconclusive, animals, removed, as, well, quite, understandably, in, my, opinion, so, that, they, couldn't, pose, a, threat, to, the, rest, of, his, herd, apparently, defra, aren't, allowed, to, do, this, i, think, largely, due, to, financial, reasons, while, fully, appreciating, the, need, to, protect, taxpayers, money, considering, how, much, was, spent, in, 2001, i, think, this, a, potentially, flawed, argument, perhaps, the, rules, need, to, be, changed, but, then, again, i'm, not, an, epidemiologist, and, perhaps, they, don't, actually, pose, a, threat, the, farmer, seemed, very, depressed, by, it, all, i, think, a, lot, of, it, is, the, feeling, of, having, the, stigma, of, being, a, farm, under, defra, restrictions, again, he, was, also, very, aware, of, the, threat, he, was, to, his, neighbours, and, was, desperately, keen, to, minimise, it, it's, actually, quite, small, while, the, cows, are, still, indoors, but, i, think, people, are, still, very, much, thinking, of, how, serious, it, was, for, neighbours, if, someone, got, fmd, tb, is, a, very, different, type, of, organism, and, it’s, a, question, of, getting, people, to, understand, this, which, isn't, to, say, it's, not, a, very, serious, problem, on, the, same, day, another, farm, in, the, area, not, ours, was, confirmed, with, tb, so, it's, definitely, progressing, in, cumbria, depressing, all, we, can, do, is, follow, defra, instructions, on, testing, and, try, to, keep, on, top, of, it, one, of, my, colleagues, tore, a, knee, ligament, last, week, while, skiing, he, normally, does, mostly, large, animal, calls, seeing, as, he's, now, confined, to, the, practice, doing, small, animals, i've, taken, over, couple, of, the, farms, he, does, routine, fertility, visits, for, it, makes, a, change, to, spend, time, on, farms, i, don't, visit, often, although, i, hear, the, small, animal, nurses, are, quite, keen, for, matt, to, get, back, to, doing, them, diary, 46, one, of, our, dairy, farmers, has, had, a, big, outbreak, of, pneumonia, in, his, calves, this, week, i've, been, to, the, farm, at, least, once, every, day, this, week, the, tests, we've, done, are, usually, pretty, sensitive, but, have, failed, to, reveal, any, of, the, usual, causes, treatment, seems, to, have, been, working, in, some, cases, but, not, in, others, he, hasn't, lost, any, i, e, none, dead, but, the, loss, in, body, weight, is, very, obvious, it's, all, been, a, bit, frustrating, really, he's, a, very, pleasant, guy, and, hasn't, said, anything, but, when, treatments, repeatedly, fail, to, get, expected, and, predicted, results, i, can't, help, feeling, that, he, must, be, getting, a, bit, sceptical, about, it, or, perhaps, i'm, just, being, paranoid, by, the, end, of, the, week, the, majority, seem, to, be, on, the, mend, but, seeing, as, we, haven't, tracked, down, the, causative, agent, it's, hard, to, know, what, vaccination, to, recommend, next, year, there, are, some, more, tests, that, will, come, back, in, two, weeks, which, may, be, more, revealing, in, midweek, i, did, one, of, the, fairly, common, operations, to, correct, a, twisted, stomach, in, a, cow, surprisingly, it, was, the, first, time, this, dairy, farmer, had, had, one, done, and, he, took, some, convincing, that, it, was, a, good, idea, having, persuaded, someone, to, pay, for, a, procedure, i, always, feel, under, a, bit, more, pressure, than, usual, fortunately, it, went, pretty, well, and, the, cow, is, so, far, doing, well, i, was, on, second, call, this, weekend, which, turned, out, to, be, pretty, quiet, i, think, we, must, be, in, a, lull, before, lambing, really, kicks, in, let's, enjoy, it, while, it, lasts, diary, 47, after, not, doing, any, testing, last, week, it, was, my, turn, again, this, week, it, wasn't, a, big, one, only, about, 30, cows, but, it, was, a, bit, more, risky, than, usual, as, it, was, a, herd, of, beef, longhorns, and, they, do, have, long, horns, whilst, trying, to, manoeuvre, them, into, a, crush, to, inject, their, necks, with, tuberculin, we, always, had, to, be, ready, to, take, evasive, action, if, they, made, a, sudden, turn, i, don't, think, they, ever, tried, to, use, their, horns, aggressively, but, they, were, so, big, that, they, become, dangerous, weapons, when, they, were, just, moving, normally, as, it, turned, out, no, one, received, any, injuries, and, very, importantly, the, test, was, negative, this, week, also, brought, my, first, lambing, of, the, year, other, people, have, done, a, few, but, this, was, my, first, we, have, a, couple, of, farms, who, lamb, early, for, the, early, lamb, sales, it, seems, very, hard, work, at, this, time, of, year, but, the, early, prices, do, seem, to, make, it, worthwhile, give, it, another, week, or, two, and, a, sure, they’ll, start, to, become, more, frequent, i, took, friday, off, as, i, had, to, get, to, london, for, 4, pm, to, get, on, the, eurostar, to, go, skiing, typically, the, one, day, of, the, year, that, the, country, ground, to, halt, was, thursday, night, friday, we, managed, to, make, it, to, waterloo, station, only, to, find, the, station, in, chaos, as, all, eurostars, had, been, cancelled, due, to, snow, in, france, at, least, it's, not, just, britain, that, can’t, cope, with, it, after, being, assured, that, none, would, run, for, 24, hours, they, suddenly, told, us, to, board, only, 1, hours, late, very, pleasant, surprise, we, ended, up, arriving, in, val, d'isere, on, time, with, loads, of, snow, and, blue, skies, i, tried, to, spare, a, thought, for, whoever, was, on, call, at, weekend, i, managed, it, just, diary, 48, after, the, weather, almost, prevented, us, from, reaching, val, d’isere, it, was, very, clear, for, the, first, few, days, but, then, the, snow, returned, for, three, days, we, couldn't, do, much, during, that, time, but, it, did, mean, that, there, were, fantastic, conditions, for, the, last, few, days, we, had, a, group, of, 29, and, completely, filled, one, large, chalet, there, were, for, once, no, major, skiing, injuries, within, the, group, and, i, think, a, good, time, was, had, by, all, diary, 49, back, to, work, this, week, i’m, never, reluctant, to, go, back, after, a, week, off, and, sometimes, dare, i, say, it, even, look, forward, to, it, must, be, a, good, sign, apparently, last, week, was, ok, at, work, with, no, major, dramas, we, still, haven't, found, any, more, tb, cases, but, the, screening, continues, all, the, time, one, of, the, rules, for, re, stocking, herds, compared, to, herds, that, missed, fmd, is, that, all, bovines, over, 42, days, old, have, to, be, tested, rather, than, just, the, adults, last, year, when, there, weren't, many, calves, around, this, didn't, make, much, difference, but, now, most, farms, have, at, least, a, year's, worth, of, calves, in, place, it, doubles, the, size, of, most, tests, often, calves, won't, fit, in, crushes, and, are, very, wild, so, it, can, get, quite, exciting, it, seems, a, necessary, policy, though, one, of, the, reactors, i, found, a, few, weeks, ago, was, a, six, month, old, stirk, i've, had, a, fairly, quiet, week, i've, had, a, couple, of, nights, on, duty, which, were, both, quiet, there's, a, horse, near, carlisle, that, i, think, i've, mentioned, before, with, a, recurrent, tooth, problem, we, thought, we'd, finally, sorted, that, but, this, week, she, developed, a, problem, with, one, of, the, tendons, on, her, foreleg, it's, a, bit, disappointing, for, her, owner, as, she, only, bought, the, horse, recently, in, order, to, compete, to, a, very, high, standard, and, she, seems, to, permanently, off, training, with, one, ailment, or, another, i, don't, think, it's, too, serious, so, hopefully, in, another, week, or, two, she'll, be, back, to, work, i've, been, off, this, weekend, came, second, in, the, weekend’s, hockey, match, a, real, case, of, defeat, been, snatched, from, the, jaws, of, victory, i, went, for, a, walk, around, the, great, gable, scafell, area, on, sunday, afternoon, it, was, amazing, how, much, snow, and, ice, was, still, left, over, from, winter, weather, a, week, or, so, ago, maybe, i, needn't, have, bothered, going, abroad, diary, 50, i, found, another, positive, tb, case, on, friday, i, did, the, test, on, tuesday, on, a, very, large, beef, herd, on, a, restocking, farm, including, calves, they, must, have, been, just, over, 400, cattle, to, do, there, was, one, reactor, on, friday, and, two, inconclusives, there, is, a, possibility, that, it, is, a, false, positive, the, farm, has, been, having, big, problems, with, something, called, at, johne’s, disease, which, is, caused, by, a, similar, type, of, bacterium, to, the, one, that, causes, tb, there, is, a, small, possibility, of, a, cow, carrying, johne’s, disease, cross, reacting, with, the, tb, test, injection, i, actually, blood, sampled, all, the, adult, cows, on, tuesday, to, screen, the, herd, for, johne’s, in, order, to, try, to, start, eradicating, it, from, herd, it'll, be, interesting, to, see, whether, the, positive, test, cow, will, be, positive, for, johne’s, ultimately, it, doesn't, really, make, much, difference, in, the, short, term, the, farm’s, been, placed, under, restrictions, and, the, affected, cow, has, been, taken, off, for, post, mortem, one, of, my, colleagues, found, another, positive, reactor, on, a, different, farm, on, friday, as, well, that's, three, farms, in, the, practice, now, and, around, 50, 60, within, cumbria, the, big, worry, now, this, is, that, the, longer, it, stays, around, the, more, likely, inevitable, it, is, disease, will, get, into, wildlife, reservoirs, deer, and, perhaps, badgers, depending, on, whether, you, believe, that, badgers, are, an, influence, or, not, time, will, tell, but, i'm, sure, it's, going, to, keep, us, busy, for, several, years, if, not, a, lot, more, i, did, a, test, on, monday, as, well, on, a, small, farm, that, i've, never, been, to, before, at, least, testing, is, one, way, of, getting, on, to, small, farms, who, don't, often, need, us, this, one, was, all, clear, the, remainder, of, the, week, was, spent, doing, more, usual, work, lambing’s, still, not, quite, got, into, full, swing, although, we, are, seeing, a, slow, increase, in, the, number, of, sheep, been, brought, to, the, surgery, diary, 51, no, tb, testing, for, me, this, week, and, no, more, positive, cases, in, the, practice, the, first, case, that, i, found, back, in, january, was, confirmed, as, carrying, tb, this, week, though, although, it's, bad, news, for, the, farmer, it, is, quite, reassuring, to, know, that, the, tests, and, methods, we, use, do, detect, carrier, animals, reasonably, accurately, this, week, has, been, fairly, busy, without, ever, getting, too, hectic, i, operated, on, a, cow, on, tuesday, which, for, a, number, of, reasons, didn't, go, quite, as, smoothly, as, it, might, have, done, it, subsequently, didn't, do, as, well, post, operatively, as, we, would, normally, expect, the, coming, week, should, see, an, improvement, i, hope, we, can, never, give, cast, iron, guarantees, about, the, outcome, of, surgery, but, it, is, quite, rare, for, this, op, to, fail, so, fingers, crossed, for, monday, i, had, to, see, a, horse, with, colic, earlier, in, the, week, which, on, my, first, visit, to, i, was, very, suspicious, that, it, was, going, to, require, surgery, to, correct, the, owner, wasn't, prepared, for, that, happen, though, so, it, was, a, question, of, trying, to, manage, it, medically, or, euthanizing, it, it, wasn't, in, undue, pain, so, we, gave, it, a, go, medically, and, much, to, my, pleasant, surprise, over, the, next, few, hours, and, visits, he, did, very, well, just, goes, to, show, we, are, not, all, knowing, it, would, have, been, interesting, to, know, whether, it, was, a, surgical, condition, which, somehow, righted, itself, or, whether, it, was, a, medical, case, all, along, which, simply, appeared, as, something, more, serious, i, had, to, work, for, an, hour, or, so, on, saturday, morning, doing, small, animal, consultations, and, then, had, the, rest, of, the, weekend, off, we, came, second, in, a, hockey, match, again, and, then, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, to, catch, up, with, some, college, friends, who, haven't, seen, for, a, while, diary, 52, this, week, has, really, seen, the, start, of, the, lambing, season, the, sheep, every, day, or, every, other, day, that, we've, been, seeing, for, the, last, month, or, so, has, turned, into, one, every, few, hours, during, the, day, and, during, the, night, in, some, cases, it’s, encouraging, that, farmers, are, still, bringing, them, in, calling, us, out, as, many, feel, that, sheep, aren't, worth, paying, vet, fees, for, this, obviously, creates, a, welfare, problem, in, many, situations, as, inappropriate, and, inadequate, treatment, is, sometimes, provided, by, the, farmer, having, said, that, i, can, see, why, some, take, the, attitude, of, not, spending, money, on, them, as, prices, are, often, so, low, the, other, aspect, of, lambing, time, is, that, nights, get, very, busy, on, monday, i, had, a, ewe, caesarean, at, 2am, then, a, horse, that, had, just, foaled, at, 3.15, i, had, an, hour, or, so, in, bed, and, then, a, sick, cow, at, 6.20, although, it, can, be, a, bit, tiring, on, the, whole, cases, we, see, out, of, hours, are, not, the, run, of, the, mill, routine, things, so, it, does, at, least, make, it, interesting, which, isn't, always, the, first, thing, on, my, mind, when, the, phone, rings, at, 3am, unfortunately, the, cow, i, operated, on, last, week, failed, to, improve, and, i, had, to, re, operate, on, monday, this, is, far, from, ideal, as, it, carries, a, much, higher, risk, of, infection, than, first, time, operation, somewhat, to, my, surprise, it, seems, to, be, doing, very, well, now, cows, seem, to, be, amazingly, resilient, if, i'd, had, abdominal, surgery, twice, in, a, mucky, cow, byre, i'm, sure, i, wouldn't, cope, as, well, i, did, the, same, op, on, a, different, farm, later, in, the, week, which, went, much, better, i’d, be, getting, worried, about, my, technique, if, two, in, a, row, went, wrong, i've, worked, saturday, morning, again, supposedly, just, for, an, hour, but, it, turned, into, about, two, and, a, half, as, things, kept, coming, in, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, again, after, hockey, came, second, again, to, see, someone, who's, left, his, job, to, go, around, the, world, for, six, months, diary, 54, the, beginning, of, the, week, saw, a, visit, to, a, horse, which, had, a, chronic, episode, of, laminitis, a, hoof, condition, in, this, horse's, case, it, had, become, very, severe, and, really, beyond, the, point, where, treatment, is, feasible, euthanasia, was, the, best, option, for, the, horse, as, it, was, in, a, lot, of, pain, unfortunately, the, owner, was, very, reluctant, for, this, and, wanted, to, carry, on, with, treatment, this, sort, of, situation, does, crop, up, from, time, to, time, and, is, difficult, for, all, concerned, in, the, end, i, told, the, owners, what, i, thought, the, chances, of, recovery, were, and, let, them, make, their, decision, which, was, to, continue, treatment, hopefully, i'll, be, proved, wrong, and, the, horse, will, recover, but, i, can't, really, see, it, happening, i, saw, another, case, later, in, the, week, which, ended, up, going, to, liverpool, university, for, surgery, it, was, a, small, pony, that, had, managed, to, cut, itself, very, severely, on, barbed, wire, horses, always, find, something, to, injure, themselves, on, there, was, a, risk, that, it, had, penetrated, a, joint, so, i, sent, it, to, liverpool, to, be, flushed, as, far, as, i, know, it's, doing, very, well, so, far, the, rest, of, the, workload, this, week, has, been, the, usual, stuff, for, the, time, of, year, loads, of, lambing, a, few, tb, tests, negative, generally, kept, busy, on, friday, i, went, to, edinburgh, for, a, few, days, course, on, equine, neurology, i, knew, most, of, the, speakers, and, some, delegates, from, when, i, was, a, student, there, it, was, good, to, see, people, again, and, i, learnt, a, few, things, about, horses, brains, and, nerves, saturday, was, our, last, hockey, match, of, the, season, a, draw, we, didn't, win, the, league, by, any, stretch, of, the, imagination, but, we, weren't, last, either, diary, 55, another, manic, spring, week, goes, by, i've, been, on, duty, this, weekend, and, the, two, of, us, on, call, have, done, as, many, calls, in, the, last, two, days, has, eight, vets, would, expect, to, do, in, two, week, days, in, the, summer, we, haven't, been, bored, i, didn't, leave, the, practice, building, until, lunchtime, on, saturday, as, there, was, a, constant, flow, of, small, animals, to, see, to, and, a, few, sheep, brought, in, with, lambing, problems, i, eventually, left, at, 1.30, p, m, to, go, to, operate, on, a, cow, with, a, twisted, stomach, that, was, meant, to, be, done, at, 11, am, the, op, went, a, ok, but, it, was, then, straight, back, to, the, surgery, to, do, a, caesarean, on, a, whelping, bitch, with, the, help, of, a, student, who, is, seeing, practice, with, us, between, then, and, 9, pm, it, was, a, variety, of, sick, cows, sheep, to, lamb, and, a, calf, with, lead, poisoning, at, the, far, end, of, ullswater, would, have, been, a, very, nice, drive, out, if, it, hadn't, been, for, the, rush, to, top, things, off, i, had, a, cow, caesarean, at, 9, pm, it, was, very, useful, having, a, student, to, help, all, day, i, think, it, was, a, bit, of, an, eye, opener, for, her, sunday, morning, gave, me, to, more, caesareans, sheep, this, time, variety, is, the, spice, of, life, a, cat, who, had, very, mysteriously, lost, a, leg, overnight, perhaps, caught, in, a, trap, but, was, in, incredibly, good, health, otherwise, it's, amazing, what, animals, can, withstand, and, a, good, supply, of, other, calls, to, keep, me, out, of, mischief, it, has, actually, been, quite, enjoyable, despite, being, so, hectic, and, i, think, most, of, the, cases, have, been, quite, successful, which, always, helps, the, rest, of, the, week, seems, a, distant, memory, but, on, the, whole, it, was, more, of, the, same, but, at, a, slower, pace, i, did, another, small, tb, test, which, was, negative, anyway, a, night, off, tonight, i, need, a, pint, diary, 56, monday, morning, was, the, 60, day, re, test, for, the, first, herd, that, i, found, tb, in, it, was, a, sunny, day, and, on, the, whole, the, test, went, very, smoothly, the, farmer's, buildings, are, getting, very, overcrowded, though, as, he, is, under, a, movement, restriction, due, to, the, tb, first, day, started, well, as, all, the, animals, were, giving, negative, readings, but, then, came, the, dreaded, reaction, to, the, injections, we, gave, on, the, first, day, there, were, four, reactors, in, total, three, of, which, were, borderline, and, the, other, was, very, very, obvious, the, frustrating, thing, is, that, the, obvious, one, was, a, borderline, reactor, last, time, but, defra, refused, to, take, it, as, it, isn't, in, their, policy, to, take, inconclusive, reactors, found, on, a, routine, test, this, means, that, an, animal, that, is, actually, infected, his, left, on, premises, to, potentially, infect, other, animals, the, farmer, had, tried, to, point, this, out, two, months, ago, to, no, avail, he, is, now, vindicated, in, his, view, not, that, that, is, much, consolation, for, the, fact, that, his, restrictions, are, to, be, continued, and, he, may, well, probably, will, in, fact, now, have, more, carriers, which, won't, be, found, until, the, next, test, in, 60, days, time, the, reason, for, not, initially, taking, inconclusive, reactors, is, to, save, money, by, not, paying, for, the, animals, to, be, slaughtered, that, aren't, actually, infected, in, cases, like, this, it, seems, to, be, a, real, false, economy, and, doesn't, win, defra, friends, in, the, farming, community, tuesday, and, wednesday, this, week, were, mainly, horse, jobs, a, horse, with, a, recurrent, tooth, problem, that, i've, mentioned, before, came, in, for, more, x, rays, and, finally, seems, to, be, doing, ok, its, competing, in, germany, in, a, week, or, two, so, i, do, hope, it, stays, ok, this, weekend, i, went, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, with, one, of, my, old, flatmates, from, edinburgh, the, weather, held, and, was, amazingly, hot, for, the, time, of, year, almost, got, sunburnt, diary, 57, i've, had, a, final, year, student, from, edinburgh, staying, with, me, this, week, while, she's, seeing, practice, with, us, final, exams, are, looming, and, i, think, the, stress, levels, are, rising, it's, very, easy, to, think, of, all, the, things, you, don't, know, but, i, think, we've, more, or, less, managed, to, convince, her, that, she, does, know, enough, not, to, be, a, liability, when, she, qualifies, she, saw, an, interesting, incident, on, a, call, we, did, early, in, the, week, i'd, gone, to, replace, a, uterine, prolapse, in, a, cow, which, went, okay, but, the, farmer, then, asked, me, to, falsely, certify, a, cow, we, can, give, certificates, to, cows, over, 30, months, of, age, under, the, bse, scheme, for, which, farmers, are, compensated, this, cow, had, to, be, put, down, but, wasn't, 30, months, for, another, four, days, he, was, understandably, quite, upset, about, this, and, let, me, know, it’s, this, sort, of, thing, that, is, a, nightmare, for, anyone, but, especially, someone, just, starting, you, want, to, please, the, farmer, and, make, a, good, impression, but, you, also, have, responsibility, to, not, abuse, your, ability, to, use, your, signature, in, the, end, i, explained, why, he, couldn't, have, a, certificate, and, he, did, calm, down, i'm, sure, vicky, will, have, similar, situations, before, too, long, diplomatic, as, well, as, clinical, skills, develop, very, quickly, once, in, practice, another, interesting, case, came, in, on, thursday, a, year, old, foal, needed, emergency, surgery, on, a, hernia, as, luck, would, have, it, it, was, our, first, relatively, quiet, morning, for, a, few, weeks, so, we, had, enough, vets, on, hand, to, do, the, surgery, and, anaesthetic, the, op, went, well, and, the, horse, has, gone, home, this, weekend, i've, been, on, second, call, this, weekend, and, things, have, been, busy, but, not, unmanageable, i, did, 2, belgian, blue, caesareans, in, the, space, of, six, hours, on, one, farm, yesterday, but, since, then, it's, just, been, a, reasonable, stream, of, calls, rather, than, the, madness, of, two, weekends, ago, diary, 58, following, my, going, up, on, a, course, on, neurology, a, few, weeks, ago, a, case, came, up, this, week, it's, not, often, that, we, see, neurological, cases, so, it's, quite, a, coincidence, i, think, it, must, have, some, kind, of, tumour, in, its, brain, causing, it, to, show, the, various, signs, it, has, unfortunately, the, only, way, to, firmly, diagnose, this, is, by, post, mortem, which, is, how, most, neurological, cases, end, up, and, alas, i, fear, this, one, will, too, i, went, to, do, a, fertility, check, at, one, of, our, dairy, farms, on, tuesday, the, vet, he, normally, has, was, away, and, he, looked, a, bit, put, out, when, i, turned, up, i, think, hope, i, managed, not, to, abort, any, of, his, cows, and, he, seemed, very, cheery, by, the, time, i, left, i, suppose, it's, understandable, that, farmers, tend, to, want, continuity, with, which, vet, comes, work, continues, to, be, very, busy, an, indication, in, the, increase, in, daily, workload, is, that, we've, had, to, introduce, a, specific, messages, book, at, work, as, there's, no, longer, room, to, write, people, messages, in, the, day, book, as, it, so, full, with, appointments, they, used, to, be, a, few, days, in, the, year, when, both, pages, of, the, day, book, were, full, the, first, day, of, fmd, in, penrith, had, one, call, but, this, week, 4, days, have, been, full, it's, got, to, be, a, good, sign, really, and, as, i, think, i've, said, before, it, does, stop, us, all, from, getting, bored, i've, had, three, days, off, over, easter, friday, sunday, and, two, friends, and, their, two, mad, dogs, have, been, to, stay, my, cats, were, not, impressed, on, good, friday, we, went, up, plaice, fell, i, accidentally, brought, us, down, a, much, more, direct, route, than, i, intended, so, we, had, to, while, away, some, time, in, the, garden, of, the, patterdale, hotel, life's, hard, yesterday, we, left, the, bank, holiday, crowds, in, the, lakes, and, went, for, a, walk, in, the, eden, valley, didn't, see, a, soul, it's, amazing, the, difference, a, few, miles, can, make, i, suppose, it, hasn't, got, the, hills, and, isn't, as, famous, but, the, scenery, is, still, pretty, impressive, but, let's, not, tell, anyone, and, then, it, might, stay, quiet, on, bank, holidays, diary, 59, i, was, on, duty, on, easter, monday, but, it, wasn't, too, hectic, in, fact, it, was, almost, unbelievably, quiet, there, were, three, of, us, on, duty, bracing, ourselves, for, the, usual, spring, onslaught, and, we, only, had, about, two, calls, each, to, do, all, morning, weird, how, it, sometimes, turns, out, like, that, lambing, is, definitely, quietening, down, now, the, 5, 10, lambings, coming, in, each, day, is, turning, into, 2, 3, it's, mostly, fell, sheep, lambing, now, which, tend, to, be, easier, to, lamb, so, few, are, in, need, our, farmer’s, assistance, it's, starting, to, get, into, the, horse, castration, season, we've, had, the, odd, one, or, two, over, the, last, few, weeks, but, have, had, about, five, this, week, one, of, my, colleagues, who, is, next, up, from, me, in, terms, of, experience, and, i, have, started, doing, them, together, whereas, a, few, years, ago, after, it, would, always, have, been, at, least, one, of, the, partners, and, one, of, us, we, must, be, improving, tb, testing, seems, to, have, calmed, down, a, bit, too, as, a, practice, we’re, pretty, much, up, to, date, with, it, and, as, farmers, start, to, turn, their, cows, out, they'll, become, more, reluctant, to, do, it, with, the, way, it’s, spreading, in, the, county, though, we, have, to, try, to, keep, up, to, date, with, it, or, it, really, is, going, to, get, out, of, hand, i've, had, this, weekend, off, it, was, my, sister's, birthday, yesterday, so, i, went, to, meet, her, and, my, folks, for, lunch, we, sat, outside, and, enjoyed, the, april, sun, very, nice, it, was, too, farmers, are, all, wanting, rain, you, don't, hear, that, often, in, april, but, the, sun, suits, me, fine, what, are, the, odds, on, it, bucketing, down, in, june, during, silage, time, diary, 60, one, of, our, big, dairy, farms, had, had, a, big, outbreak, of, ibr, this, week, one, of, the, main, respiratory, viruses, on, the, whole, it, doesn’t, cause, death, and, is, normally, containable, on, this, occasion, however, it, seems, to, have, been, a, virulent, strain, and, has, caused, a, number, of, deaths, and, a, great, deal, of, lost, production, in, terms, of, lost, milk, and, calves, not, thriving, towards, the, end, of, the, week, i, went, and, shot, three, cows, which, were, terminally, affected, seeing, three, dead, and, bleeding, cows, in, the, yard, obviously, reminded, the, farmer, and, me, of, when, he, had, the, whole, herd, shot, in, the, same, place, for, fmd, and, he, had, then, moved, out, of, sight, very, quickly, i, think, the, worst, of, the, outbreak, is, over, now, and, all, the, cows, have, been, vaccinated, there's, only, one, vet, more, junior, qualified, for, less, time, than, me, in, the, practice, who, started, a, year, or, so, ago, this, week, we, went, to, do, a, colt, castrate, together, one, surgeon, one, as, anaesthetist, for, the, first, time, we've, both, done, a, lot, with, other, vets, but, this, was, the, first, time, we've, been, let, loose, as, a, pair, everything, went, very, smoothly, so, it, looks, as, though, our, boss's, confidence, trust, wasn't, totally, misplaced, on, friday, morning, i, had, a, big, dehorning, session, for, one, of, our, beef, farmers, it's, fairly, non, cerebral, type, work, but, is, ok, for, a, change, every, now, and, then, and, the, farmer, is, a, pretty, amenable, sort, of, guy, more, than, could, be, said, for, the, weather, so, it, was, a, fairly, laid, back, morning's, work, i, had, the, afternoon, off, and, drove, up, to, edinburgh, where, there, was, a, bit, of, a, reunion, for, recent, graduates, from, the, vet, college, there, were, a, lot, of, people, haven't, seen, for, a, long, time, and, it, was, interesting, to, compare, notes, on, what, we, were, all, up, to, diary, 61, after, last, weekend, in, edinburgh, i, had, to, come, back, to, work, on, bank, holiday, monday, it, was, fairly, manageable, on, the, whole, there, were, three, of, us, on, duty, in, the, morning, when, the, work, was, steady, without, ever, getting, too, hectic, i, was, on, first, call, after, 1pm, when, the, surgery, closed, and, it, remained, fairly, quiet, until, the, evening, when, there, was, a, sudden, run, of, calls, but, they, came, in, one, after, the, other, rather, than, building, up, too, much, on, tuesday, i, did, the, 60, day, re, test, of, the, second, herd, of, cattle, that, i, had, previously, found, a, reactor, in, it’s, a, big, herd, and, it, took, all, day, to, get, it, done, they’ve, been, a, bit, unfortunate, and, brought, in, several, other, diseases, apart, from, the, suspected, tb, when, they, re, stocked, one, of, these, an, enteric, condition, called, johnes, disease, is, a, chronic, wasting, problem, and, is, notoriously, difficult, to, eradicate, it’ll, take, years, of, blood, testing, and, careful, record, keeping, to, get, rid, of, it, it’s, frustrating, for, them, as, all, the, planning, for, the, post, fmd, period, has, been, disrupted, the, tb, test, showed, up, no, reactors, this, time, but, 3, cows, were, inconclusive, results, and, will, have, to, be, re, tested, this, is, almost, certainly, as, a, result, of, the, cows, carrying, antibodies, to, avian, tb, which, causes, no, signs, of, disease, in, cows, but, disrupts, the, bovine, tb, test, it’s, a, good, example, of, why, we, badly, need, a, more, specific, method, for, testing, for, tb, it’s, being, worked, on, at, the, moment, and, hopefully, we’ll, get, one, one, day, the, senior, partner, at, work, is, supervising, another, vet, who, is, doing, the, same, equine, qualification, that, i’m, enrolled, for, on, wednesday, he, came, to, spend, a, day, with, neil, to, do, some, equine, anaesthetics, they, were, mainly, castrates, so, i, operated, while, neil, went, through, the, anaesthetics, with, his, student, it, was, very, useful, to, hear, it, all, in, detail, again, it’s, all, too, easy, to, get, into, the, habit, of, knowing, which, drugs, work, at, what, dosages, and, not, actually, really, thinking, about, why, they, work, or, why, they’re, better, than, other, drugs, we, could, use, a, useful, day, but, it, has, made, me, realise, i’ve, got, a, lot, to, do, over, the, next, few, years, diary, 62, things, are, still, remaining, very, busy, at, work, lambing, has, pretty, much, finished, now, but, the, work, doesn't, seem, to, be, easing, the, partners, have, decided, we, need, another, vet, to, help, things, along, a, final, year, student, from, edinburgh, came, for, an, interview, this, week, and, it, looks, as, though, he'll, get, the, job, it, will, mean, that, the, rota, will, improve, and, hopefully, will, not, be, quite, as, hectic, when, he, starts, following, the, fantastically, dry, spring, it's, now, too, wet, for, the, farmers, and, they, are, tearing, their, hair, out, about, how, the, first, cut, of, silage, is, going, to, be, gathered, in, dry, hopefully, we'll, get, a, dry, spell, again, soon, to, ease, their, worries, i, found, a, potential, case, to, write, up, for, my, equine, casebook, this, week, it's, a, mare, that, managed, to, get, caught, up, in, wire, and, tear, a, big, hole, in, the, shin, of, her, lower, leg, it's, too, big, a, defect, to, stitch, so, it'll, have, to, heal, with, a, lot, of, bandaging, and, perhaps, some, skin, grafts, it, always, amazes, me, how, horses, managed, to, give, themselves, the, most, horrendous, injuries, been, fields, where, there, really, doesn't, seem, to, be, any, opportunity, for, it, clumsiness, perhaps, maybe, they, just, enjoy, pain, i, doubt, it, we're, doing, quite, a, bit, of, scanning, of, mares, for, pregnancy, at, the, moment, it's, another, thing, that, i've, been, doing, more, of, this, year, than, in, the, past, it's, a, bit, daunting, at, times, but, as, with, a, lot, of, things, it's, really, a, case, of, practising, it, as, much, as, possible, by, the, end, of, the, stud, season, it’ll, hopefully, be, fairly, straightforward, i, drove, down, to, oxford, on, friday, evening, after, work, to, see, my, sister, cousins, friends, who, live, down, there, it, seemed, a, longish, drive, but, it, was, well, worth, it, to, catch, up, with, them, all, one, of, the, things, about, working, weekends, is, that, it, makes, weekends, off, that, much, more, appreciated, diary, 63, after, a, very, pleasant, weekend, off, i, had, a, truly, delightful, first, job, on, monday, morning, a, cow, had, been, losing, weight, for, the, last, month, also, the, reason, i, found, was, that, it, had, a, very, dead, calf, inside, which, i, then, spent, the, first, hour, of, the, week, pulling, out, bone, by, bone, it, was, a, fairly, revolting, job, but, wasn't, actually, something, that, i, especially, resented, doing, must, mean, i'm, happy, in, my, work, or, perhaps, just, a, bit, weird, i, had, another, fairly, grim, job, later, in, the, week, when, i, was, called, out, at, 4, a, m, to, a, foaling, the, foal, was, stuck, half, out, and, was, dead, by, the, time, i, got, there, i, eventually, managed, to, get, the, foal, out, and, initially, the, mare, seemed, ok, but, deteriorated, over, the, next, 48, hours, and, eventually, had, to, be, euthanased, that’s, just, the, way, it, goes, sometimes, a, more, successful, case, came, later, in, the, week, when, i, saw, a, foal, that, was, acutely, lame, it, looked, at, first, as, though, it, might, have, an, infected, elbow, but, after, taking, samples, of, the, joint, fluid, and, some, x, rays, it, looked, as, though, it, was, actually, a, traumatic, injury, it, stayed, it, in, the, hospital, for, four, days, during, which, time, it, seemed, to, improve, quite, a, bit, it's, a, thoroughbred, from, a, good, racing, line, hopefully, with, a, rest, it’ll, make, a, full, recovery, and, win, the, grand, national, in, 2008, i, had, the, whole, of, the, bank, holiday, weekend, off, six, college, friends, came, to, stay, for, a, weekend, of, cumbrian, fresh, air, after, a, pretty, gloomy, forecast, the, weather, turned, out, very, well, and, we, all, went, for, a, lake, district, walk, each, day, and, had, a, pretty, relaxed, time, except, for, my, cats, four, dogs, also, came, to, stay, which, didn't, impress, the, cats, who, spent, the, whole, time, hiding, in, my, room, diary, 64, this, week, started, with, a, tb, test, for, a, small, re, stocking, herd, he, had, bought, some, cattle, from, a, farm, that, subsequently, tested, positive, for, tb, one, of, the, cattle, from, that, farm, had, then, tested, positive, on, his, farm, so, this, week's, test, was, a, 60, day, re, test, it, was, an, all, clear, this, time, which, was, obviously, a, relief, for, them, seeing, as, there, was, a, positive, on, the, farm, last, time, they, probably, have, to, have, another, test, in, 60, days, from, now, before, restrictions, are, lifted, this, farm, isn't, very, big, so, being, under, tb, restrictions, is, awkward, but, not, as, crippling, as, it, is, the, larger, farms, there, is, no, room, for, relaxing, the, rules, at, the, moment, though, the, recent, news, from, ireland, that, says, they, think, they've, proved, a, link, with, badgers, makes, it, even, more, important, to, get, it, out, of, cumbria, before, it, gets, into, wildlife, although, it, may, well, already, be, too, late, in, between, the, two, testing, days, this, week, i, seemed, to, do, a, lot, of, horse, cases, on, wednesday, i, spent, most, of, the, day, touring, around, cumbria, seeing, horses, in, wigton, cockermouth, and, bassenthwaite, it, was, a, sunny, day, and, was, a, very, pleasant, way, to, spend, the, day, great, scenery, to, look, at, outside, when, not, driving, and, cases, going, the, way, i, was, hoping, not, a, bad, way, to, work, i've, been, on, call, this, weekend, and, it's, been, very, quiet, so, far, yesterday, was, steady, with, a, reasonable, number, of, calls, but, none, stacking, up, i've, done, 2, cattle, caesareans, on, the, same, farm, this, weekend, one, yesterday, morning, which, seemed, like, a, huge, calf, until, the, one, i, did, this, morning, which, was, truly, a, freak, it, was, the, biggest, calf, i, or, the, farmer, had, seen, and, is, the, result, of, selecting, for, extreme, confirmation, in, beef, breeds, it, does, pose, serious, welfare, issues, for, the, cows, as, they, cannot, give, birth, naturally, and, have, to, have, fairly, major, abdominal, surgery, instead, we’ll, never, persuade, farmers, of, this, though, as, the, consumer, wants, cheaper, food, and, cheaper, beef, is, made, through, bigger, beef, calves, it, does, seem, tough, on, the, cows, though, or, am, i, being, too, cynical, diary, 65, i, thought, it, was, interesting, to, see, how, much, people, still, are, willing, to, talk, about, some, of, 2001, at, the, meeting, on, wednesday, night, while, a, lot, of, the, conversation, was, routed, around, the, subjects, you, had, come, up, with, over, the, last, 18, months, it, often, came, back, to, talk, of, events, and, individual, experiences, during, the, outbreak, itself, these, stories, must, have, been, told, on, dozens, of, occasions, but, people, still, want, to, tell, them, if, the, right, time, opportunity, comes, up, myself, included, there, were, so, many, themes, that, you, have, all, come, up, with, on, the, electronic, tags, sheet, that, it, seems, impossible, to, comment, on, them, all, some, of, them, seem, very, relevant, to, me, others, not, so, much, trust, is, a, category, that, comes, up, under, a, couple, of, headings, one, of, the, headings, it, is, under, is, knowledge, i, think, this, has, been, one, of, the, most, significant, changes, since, fmd, as, far, as, the, farmer, vet, relationship, is, concerned, defra, has, gone, from, being, eyed, with, some, suspicion, to, overt, distrust, and, resentment, on, a, whole, we, don't, get, too, much, flack, as, veterinary, gps, but, when, we, have, to, do, defra, allocated, jobs, such, as, tb, testing, there, is, sometimes, a, general, feeling, of, it, being, another, task, to, try, to, wear, them, down, being, sent, by, the, authorities, another, regulation, that, has, caused, huge, resentment, is, the, whole, animal, movement, licensing, system, it, is, much, easier, now, and, causes, fewer, problems, but, a, year, or, so, ago, it, was, the, source, of, much, stress, we, had, to, try, to, act, as, intermediary, between, farmers, and, defra, and, keep, both, sides, happy, the, damage, done, to, the, farmer, defra, trust, will, take, a, long, time, if, ever, to, start, to, repair, hopefully, by, trying, to, be, more, on, their, side, than, defra, seem, to, be, the, trust, they, have, in, us, has, been, preserved, it's, been, a, quietish, week, at, work, maybe, because, there's, been, a, bit, of, silaging, going, on, so, the, farmers, haven't, got, time, for, routine, work, it's, about, time, we, were, a, bit, quieter, the, summer, lull, hasn't, materialised, at, all, yet, this, year, in, fact, we’re, taking, on, another, vet, to, ease, the, workload, did, i, mention, this, last, week, in, the, meantime, it's, nice, to, have, time, to, draw, breath, and, enjoy, the, sun, for, a, day, or, two, diary, 66, this, week, seems, to, have, gone, by, a, pretty, quickly, maybe, it's, because, i'm, on, holiday, next, week, and, the, thought, of, it, is, spurring, me, on, i, fly, to, split, tomorrow, for, a, week, of, sailing, on, the, croatian, coast, with, a, college, friend, and, some, relatives, it'll, be, a, change, from, cumbria, one, of, our, big, dairy, farmers, was, away, in, thailand, this, week, the, farm, was, left, to, be, run, by, his, usual, workers, and, his, brother, and, mother, despite, this, he, felt, he, had, to, take, his, mobile, phone, with, him, and, he, was, rung, twice, during, the, week, to, be, asked, what, should, be, done, with, a, couple, of, sick, cows, i, suppose, this, either, demonstrates, extreme, dedication, or, an, inability, to, forget, about, work, or, both, but, then, again, it, also, shows, how, committed, a, lot, of, farmers, are, and, that, it's, not, just, a, job, to, them, as, farms, get, bigger, the, concept, of, all, the, cows, being, individually, known, to, the, farmer, or, being, his, friends, becomes, increasingly, unrealistic, but, in, the, majority, of, cases, they’re, not, just, milk, making, machines, and, are, cared, for, pretty, well, it's, not, hard, to, see, why, it, was, so, hard, for, people, to, lose, their, herds, after, being, a, bit, quieter, at, work, last, week, it, suddenly, seems, to, have, become, very, hectic, at, work, again, this, week, there, haven't, been, any, particularly, time, consuming, jobs, just, lots, of, sick, cows, horse, calls, and, the, usual, mix, of, animal, ailments, it's, better, to, be, busy, than, quiet, though, i, think, i, need, a, holiday, and, i'll, keep, my, phone, switched, off, diary, 67, a, week, off, work, to, go, sailing, in, croatia, easy, life, after, meeting, up, with, the, boat, and, the, rest, of, the, group, in, starigrad, we, sailed, to, vis, into, a, fairly, direct, head, wind, so, it, took, quite, a, bit, of, tacking, and, was, a, bit, of, a, rough, ride, i, also, very, stupidly, underdid, the, sunscreen, and, managed, to, burn, my, back, very, careless, but, it, got, less, uncomfortable, as, the, week, went, on, we, spent, two, nights, in, vis, harbour, as, the, others, who, had, already, been, sailing, for, a, week, wanted, a, rest, it, used, to, be, a, military, island, and, there, were, definite, signs, of, this, around, although, it, is, obviously, developing, a, now, rapidly, growing, tourist, trade, after, vis, it, was, off, to, hvar, where, we, anchored, in, a, small, inlet, a, few, miles, from, the, town, after, a, night, there, we, went, to, hvar, town, for, a, look, around, the, castle, on, the, hill, was, very, impressive, and, the, town, still, feels, as, though, it, is, relatively, unspoilt, at, the, moment, the, last, couple, of, days, were, spent, making, our, way, slowly, back, to, split, we, actually, spent, the, last, two, days, in, split, as, there, was, a, strong, northerly, wind, brewing, up, which, would, have, been, a, bit, rough, to, be, out, in, my, uncle, who, was, the, skipper, on, board, has, been, to, croatia, for, the, last, three, years, he, said, it, was, very, noticeably, more, busy, this, year, it, seems, a, shame, to, spoil, it, with, more, tourist, facilities, but, we, all, contributed, to, them, being, built, by, going, there, hopefully, it, won't, be, too, dramatically, changed, diary, 68, this, week, started, at, 9am, monday, with, a, tb, test, at, one, of, the, most, basic, run, down, farms, we, go, to, it, was, the, first, time, i'd, been, there, in, three, and, a, half, years, of, working, here, so, they, don't, make, huge, use, of, our, veterinary, services, one, of, their, bullocks, was, 7, years, old, when, i, casually, asked, about, what, plans, they, had, for, it, seeing, as, he, had, missed, the, 30, months, cut, off, time, for, human, consumption, i, was, told, it, was, just, kept, as, a, friend, for, the, bull, the, test, was, very, slow, as, the, cattle, handling, facilities, were, not, the, best, on, the, planet, they, were, very, pleasant, people, to, talk, to, and, it, soon, became, apparent, that, they, had, very, little, time, for, defra, nothing, unusual, there, the, son, was, one, of, the, people, who, had, had, his, firearms, confiscated, after, making, threats, at, the, start, of, fm, d, they, still, felt, resentful, about, the, way, the, police, became, involved, and, the, way, they, were, ultimately, given, no, choice, as, to, who, came, on, to, their, farm, to, check, their, stock, fortunately, all, the, cattle, were, negative, for, tb, so, there, was, no, need, to, further, add, to, their, distrust, of, defra, by, putting, them, under, more, restriction, the, rest, of, the, week, has, been, fairly, steady, there's, been, enough, going, on, to, keep, us, busy, without, ever, being, frantic, the, horse, i, saw, last, week, with, a, neurological, problem, has, become, a, bit, worse, so, has, gone, to, edinburgh, vet, school, to, see, one, of, the, neurologists, up, there, he, seemed, fairly, confused, by, it, as, well, which, i, have, to, say, i, found, quite, reassuring, the, weekend, was, a, bit, on, the, strenuous, side, a, cousin, who, is, a, keen, cyclist, persuaded, me, it, was, a, good, idea, to, do, a, big, cumbrian, yorkshire, bike, ride, we, went, from, penrith, to, alston, to, barnard, castle, to, tan, hill, refreshments, to, kirkby, stephen, to, penrith, on, saturday, and, then, recovered, on, sunday, it, seemed, like, a, good, idea, at, the, time, but, i, am, really, feeling, it, now, diary, 69, looking, back, at, some, of, the, quotes, in, the, recovery, section, of, the, notes, from, a, meeting, it's, noticeable, how, easy, it, is, to, forget, or, at, least, not, have, in, one's, mind, how, much, it, affected, a, lot, people, it's, almost, hard, to, remember, how, much, i, was, affected, by, it, i, know, that, there, were, some, very, unpleasant, tasks, such, as, supervising, slaughters, and, day, to, day, work, was, often, very, frustrating, when, we, felt, people, overseeing, our, work, from, offices, didn't, really, know, what, it, was, like, in, the, field, but, i, feel, now, that, on, the, whole, once, work, was, finished, life, pretty, much, went, on, maybe, this, isn't, actually, a, true, reflection, of, how, it, was, and, it's, just, that, some, of, the, detailed, memories, are, fading, often, things, don't, seem, as, bad, as, they, actually, were, when, you, look, back, on, them, i, know, plenty, of, clients, colleagues, and, friends, whose, lives, were, completely, overtaken, by, fmd, so, perhaps, mine, was, more, than, i, remember, but, i, also, feel, that, most, of, the, people, who, i, remember, as, being, heavily, affected, are, now, more, or, less, completely, over, it, one, of, the, farms, i, went, to, this, week, lost, a, son, in, a, road, accident, about, two, months, after, getting, fmd, i, think, the, farmer, was, ready, to, give, up, everything, after, that, apparently, he, left, the, cleaning, up, of, his, farm, and, took, no, interest, in, anything, time, obviously, helped, him, he's, been, back, milking, again, for, that, sic, last, year, and, a, half, there, are, still, changes, though, he, seems, very, much, quieter, and, more, laid, back, now, if, a, cow, isn't, in, calf, or, things, don't, go, quite, right, he, doesn't, seem, to, get, stressed, now, as, he, once, would, have, done, work, has, been, a, bit, quieter, this, week, which, we, would, expect, at, this, time, of, year, one, of, our, farms, has, put, some, pedigree, belgian, blue, embryos, into, some, limousin, cross, heifers, and, they're, starting, to, calve, now, they, all, need, caesar's, as, the, calves, are, almost, as, big, as, the, heifers, that, produce, them, the, only, thing, to, be, said, for, it, is, that, we, can, do, them, at, a, sensible, time, of, day, rather, than, at, two, in, the, morning, as, we, know, when, they’re, due, diary, 70, one, of, the, five, categories, you, raised, at, the, meetings, last, month, was, trauma, and, one, of, the, subsections, on, the, chart, was, sounds, smells, visions, sights, are, probably, the, most, frequent, reminder, of, fmd, now, there, are, certain, bits, of, road, that, have, memories, for, example, driving, north, on, the, m6, just, south, of, penrith, it, was, possible, to, count, smoke, plumes, from, about, 20, pyres, at, one, stage, on, fine, days, it, always, reminds, me, of, it, when, i, drive, that, stretch, one, farm, has, the, remains, of, a, pyre, that, was, started, to, be, built, but, never, finished, even, things, like, driving, across, two, lines, of, tar, across, a, road, which, once, held, down, a, disinfectant, mat, people, who, didn't, live, here, at, the, time, wouldn't, even, notice, them, but, it, seems, quite, significant, to, the, rest, of, us, it, doesn't, really, bother, me, but, just, is, a, reminder, of, what, went, on, at, other, times, it, seems, odd, how, quickly, things, have, gone, back, to, normal, even, something, as, simple, as, a, road, with, mud, or, animal, muck, on, it, in, 2001, that, would, have, stuck, out, like, a, sore, thumb, and, would, have, warranted, urgent, action, now, i'm, used, to, driving, a, dirty, car, i, do, clean, it, sometimes, and, having, some, roads, caked, in, dirt, it's, difficult, to, imagine, how, the, farmers, kept, them, clean, two, years, ago, but, they, did, obviously, there, are, other, reminders, people, never, tire, of, talking, about, it, but, it's, the, day, to, day, visions, and, places, that, are, most, regular, work, has, been, a, bit, quieter, this, week, i, did, it, a, caesar, on, a, cow, which, had, a, truly, ridiculously, enormous, calf, we, need, to, move, away, from, breeding, continental, beef, breeds, and, go, back, to, nice, compact, jersey's, or, aberdeen, anguses, i, also, saw, an, unusual, neurological, case, in, a, horse, it's, very, uncoordinated, and, has, poor, balance, it's, the, kind, of, case, where, brain, spinal, scan, would, be, useful, but, those, facilities, aren't, really, available, for, horses, it, will, be, interesting, to, see, how, it, goes, over, the, next, few, days, diary, 71, the, last, diary, the, 18, months, seem, to, have, gone, by, quickly, things, seem, so, much, back, to, how, they, were, that, it's, odd, to, think, back, to, what, was, going, on, when, we, first, started, writing, them, i, think, we, were, pretty, much, in, the, swing, of, doing, restocking, checks, and, doing, endless, blood, sampling, of, sheep, the, last, restocking, checks, i, did, were, only, 16, months, ago, it, seems, far, longer, although, i, say, things, are, back, to, how, they, were, i'm, sure, there, are, actually, a, lot, of, differences, it's, just, that, i, don't, notice, them, because, i'm, used, to, how, things, are, now, the, practice, has, become, a, lot, busier, by, october, we’ll, be, up, to, nine, full, time, and, two, part, time, vets, pre, fmd, we, were, seven, full, time, and, two, part, time, some, of, the, increase, is, equine, and, small, animal, but, most, of, it, is, in, farm, practice, part, of, this, is, directly, linked, to, fmd, eg, more, tb, testing, due, to, re, stocking, tests, and, re, stocking, having, brought, tb, into, the, county, other, factors, aren't, so, obvious, but, are, unquestionably, fmd, related, most, restocked, farmers, went, back, with, more, stock, than, they, originally, had, so, overall, there, is, greater, density, of, stock, around, more, animals, means, more, sick, animals, which, means, more, calls, for, the, vet, it's, a, shame, in, some, ways, to, see, the, small, traditional, farms, being, forced, out, but, it's, hard, to, see, how, they, can, manage, as, margins, get, smaller, and, larger, neighbours, get, more, stock, and, more, land, fmd, was, a, way, out, for, several, of, the, smaller, farms, all, have, been, bought, up, by, neighbours, with, none, being, sold, as, single, units, as, i've, said, in, recent, weeks, this, time, of, year, is, usually, quiet, it, has, become, a, bit, less, frantic, recently, but, the, traditional, summer, lull, hasn't, materialised, i've, been, a, vet, for, four, years, the, last, three, have, been, just, about, as, interesting, and, challenging, as, they, could, have, been, both, professionally, and, socially, from, the, point, of, view, of, living, in, penrith, obviously, fmd, had, devastating, effects, on, thousands, of, people, many, of, whom, are, my, friends, on, the, whole, i, see, very, few, residual, scars, it, is, still, talked, about, but, less, and, less, as, time, goes, on, more, than, one, farmer, has, actually, said, that, they, think, in, hindsight, it, was, a, very, good, thing, for, them, i'm, not, sure, i, could, ever, say, that, as, it, brought, too, much, stress, and, sadness, for, too, many, people, but, if, it, had, happened, i, think, very, much, with, the, benefit, of, hindsight, i’m, glad, that, i, had, the, chance, to, be, involved, with, it, from, the, start, and, through, the, recovery]
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1966, gender, f, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, diary, 1, monday, was, the, usual, long, hard, grind, i, accept, that, i, have, to, put, in, 10, 12, hours, and, i, don’t, mind, doing, the, work, because, it’s, not, physically, or, mentally, taxing, but, i, do, hate, not, having, a, lunch, break, just, that, little, bit, of, selfish, time, to, site, have, a, cigarette, take, the, dogs, down, the, river, see, the, horses, whatever, i, do, resent, that, fact, that, w, one, of, the, bosses, almost, always, gets, a, lunch, hour, b, the, other, boss, has, gone, up, tremendously, in, my, opinion, for, the, way, that, he, gets, on, with, the, work, he, starts, early, finishes, late, hates, derfa, paperwork, and, rarely, complains, it, is, definitely, grinding, them, down, because, they, work, like, that, at, least, 4, days, a, week, it, has, been, a, huge, advantage, this, last, year, being, part, time, at, work, my, days, off, obviously, aren’t, my, own, as, they, used, to, be, but, i, do, get, away, from, the, phone, and, the, demands, of, clients, some, of, our, clients, are, very, selfish, and, i, hadn’t, noticed, before, they, seem, to, think, they, are, the, only, ones, that, have, hassles, with, defra, i, remember, saying, to, one, complaining, about, problems, with, licensing, that, he, was, lucky, to, have, problems, with, only, one, licence, the, first, day, that, movement, licenses, came, out, we, applied, for, 26, and, received, the, explanatory, notes, from, defra, on, how, to, complete, the, paperwork, 4, days, later, anyway, managed, to, do, three, final, visits, and, complete, most, of, the, paperwork, before, 9pm, kirkby, stephen, was, buzzing, today, the, auction, reopened, for, a, cattle, sale, the, main, street, was, full, of, shiny, farmers, with, fish, and, chips, and, the, back, lane, was, full, of, shiny, some, new, land, rovers, and, trailers, trailers, mostly, new, in, fact, mc, told, me, that, as, soon, as, he, heard, his, bloods, had, come, back, clear, restocking, he, washed, and, changed, and, went, to, the, mart, he, said, it, was, the, first, time, he, had, felt, clean, since, the, day, they, were, infected, he, felt, ok, to, go, among, other, farmers, he, surprised, me, because, he, is, so, easy, going, he, takes, all, in, his, stride, but, he, still, says, fmd, is, not, as, terrible, as, testicular, cancer, and, he’s, right, ad, was, one, of, the, other, final, visits, he, doesn’t, give, a, bugger, about, anything, happy, to, become, a, flower, power, farmer, he, doesn’t, care, much, about, his, sheep, as, individuals, they, are, just, numbers, just, as, well, because, in, the, batch, he, bought, from, wales, the, sheep, have, more, legs, than, teeth, i, can’t, see, them, lasting, long, pissed, off, because, i, missed, bryan, adams, concert, in, newcastle, couldn’t, finish, in, time, to, join, the, bus, the, rest, of, the, lassies, had, a, brilliant, time, and, at, least, tracey, benefited, from, my, ticket, had, to, go, back, in, to, work, the, next, day, to, finish, my, defra, reports, and, fax, them, off, went, to, playgroup, to, talk, about, pets, took, my, dog, lurcher, and, child’s, rabbit, dodgy, combination, very, few, of, the, kids, seemed, to, have, pets, of, their, own, a, lot, of, them, referred, to, granddad’s, dogs, or, uncles, cat, when, i, left, college, the, pet, population, was, increasing, what’s, going, to, happen, in, the, next, 15, years, sister, phoned, worried, about, her, horse, he, has, haematuria, i’m, worried, that, he, has, a, tumour, i, feel, very, far, away, and, helpless, when, things, like, this, happen, even, though, she, only, lives, in, yorkshire, i’m, sure, i, could, help, her, whatever, the, outcome, if, we, lived, closer, in, fact, i, think, i, miss, my, family, more, now, than, i, ever, have, i, don’t, know, if, it’s, my, age, or, the, thought, that, m, is, over, 60, or, that, i, didn’t, see, them, much, at, all, last, year, or, just, because, i, have, son, now, and, can, understand, how, mothers, families, feel, i, miss, sisters, but, i, still, don’t, phone, them, much, i, always, think, they’ll, be, busy, i, can, talk, to, mam, three, or, four, times, a, week, for, half, an, hour, at, a, time, without, thinking, twice, she, must, get, fed, up, hearing, me, go, on, and, on, about, work, etc, but, she, loves, hearing, all, about, every, tiny, detail, of, son’s, antics, and, achievements, will, broached, the, subject, of, a, partnership, again, i, don’t, know, what, to, think, it’s, the, obvious, thing, to, do, and, a, few, years, ago, i, would, have, taken, his, hand, off, for, even, 10, or, 20, i’m, just, not, as, excited, about, it, as, i, should, be, and, what, would, change, will, i, be, better, off, will, i, be, a, better, vet, or, will, i, spend, too, much, time, of, figures, and, paperwork, will, i, become, more, commercially, aware, do, i, want, to, change, can, i, be, bothered, with, the, extra, hassle, they, are, ok, they, have, a, career, and, a, wife, i’m, trying, to, do, both, sometimes, badly, diary, 2, monday’s, are, shite, it, starts, off, busy, and, gets, worse, why, can’t, we, do, time, management, a, bit, better, it, did, look, as, if, we, might, finish, around, 6.30, at, one, stage, in, the, afternoon, then, i, was, called, out, to, a, calf, i, didn’t, really, need, a, visit, at, 6pm, at, night, w, said, never, mind, you’ll, be, picking, son, up, anyway, the, childminder, lives, on, the, next, door, farm, he, hasn’t, got, a, clue, if, i, picked, son, up, he, would, be, at, ange’s, for, about, 8, hours, i, feel, guilty, enough, that, he’s, away, for, about, 8, hours, partner, always, picks, him, up, about, 5.30, and, has, to, cope, which, he, does, well, until, i, get, home, but, it’s, hard, work, for, both, of, us, after, a, full, day, at, work, and, partner, is, usually, knackered, and, ready, for, peace, and, quiet, when, he, gets, home, not, a, tired, hungry, wee, lad, anyway, i, ended, up, having, a, farm, tour, that, night, farmer, was, so, proud, of, his, new, pedigree, belgian, blues, and, his, new, shed, he’s, been, lucky, to, get, most, of, his, commercial, stock, from, his, father, so, he, has, an, idea, of, their, past, history, he’s, a, nice, lad, and, he, was, producing, some, stunning, beef, calves, before, he, was, taken, out, at, least, he’s, young, enough, to, get, going, again, he, hasn’t, said, much, about, loosing, his, stock, so, i, haven’t, asked, i, had, a, chat, to, his, aunt, one, day, and, she, was, very, upset, and, that, upsets, me, i, hate, when, people, get, emotional, like, that, i, start, filling, up, myself, i, got, back, to, find, a, sheep, caesarean, still, to, do, waste, of, time, premature, lambs, all, born, alive, 3, and, all, dead, before, i, finished, stitching, the, uterus, and, to, put, the, tin, hat, on, the, day, my, assistant, was, the, mother, who, prattled, about, nothing, much, all, the, way, through, the, op, she, does, my, head, in, she, is, a, century, away, from, me, in, her, outlook, but, i, still, come, away, feeling, that, i, am, the, one, who, has, got, it, all, wrong, maybe, i, should, have, dinner, on, the, table, and, shirts, ironed, etc, i, don’t, want, to, be, like, her, though, and, i, can’t, even, sympathise, with, her, even, though, they, lost, all, their, sheep, i’m, sure, she, must, have, taken, it, badly, but, i, don’t, think, she, would, ever, let, her, feelings, show, in, public, something, about, the, way, she, spoke, suggested, that, she, was, forcing, herself, to, put, a, brave, face, and, look, forward, probably, for, her, own, son’s, sake, watched, rural, lives, again, on, tuesday, cr, came, over, well, i, though, i, couldn’t, help, but, snigger, when, the, slaughter, team, were, discussing, one, of, our, clients, she, made, the, kids, carry, away, the, dead, piglets, after, they’d, been, slaughtered, them, team, thought, that, was, terrible, but, i, knew, the, kids, they, all, help, on, the, farm, they, know, that, their, pigs, go, to, kill, the, family, even, started, their, own, little, slaughter, house, and, cutting, plant, before, fmd, i, don’t, think, those, kids, would, be, horrified, sad, maybe, we, all, felt, sad, over, the, last, year, sad, for, the, healthy, animals, culled, more, sad, for, the, people, caught, up, in, the, mess, one, disease, where, the, cure, is, worse, mostly, though, i, get, angry, when, i, hear, or, talk, about, fmd, i, get, angry, because, defra, let, us, all, down, the, politicians, got, too, closely, involved, nothing, happened, fast, enough, we, didn’t, seem, to, be, able, to, do, anything, we, knew, very, little, and, struggled, to, get, reliable, information, i, still, get, wound, up, thinking, about, it, all, we, were, marginalised, by, defra, i, felt, as, if, it, was, us, and, the, farmers, versus, derfa, not, all, three, groups, versus, fmd, the, rumours, that, abounded, just, magnified, the, feelings, we, talked, at, length, about, fmd, defra, etc, within, the, practice, and, with, our, clients, but, i, could, still, talk, about, it, all, day, even, now, so, many, things, are, unresolved, i, have, lost, faith, in, defra, especially, since, they, changed, their, name, no, a, for, agriculture, now, and, i’m, glad, i, have, been, ignorant, of, politics, for, so, long, there, have, been, few, shining, lights, in, the, government, i’m, heartily, sick, of, authority, interfering, and, regulating, stuff, that’s, going, along, quite, nicely, let, them, interfere, with, stuff, that’s, doing, harm, bad, farmers, need, a, shake, up, sheep, dealers, need, to, think, more, about, animal, welfare, but, the, way, things, are, going, the, good, guys, that, toe, the, line, will, end, up, following, all, the, rules, and, regulations, set, up, to, sort, out, the, bad, guys, and, will, they, bother, diary, 3, possibly, the, best, bit, of, the, week, was, sunday, when, i, eventually, after, 13, months, got, back, on, my, horse, only, 15, minutes, but, it, was, nerve, wracking, i, thought, she, might, just, throw, me, off, and, i, was, so, tense, actually, we, both, were, i, felt, as, if, i, had, forgotten, how, to, ride, i, stayed, in, the, field, thinking, it, would, be, safer, but, the, other, two, horses, were, flying, about, to, annoy, us, i’m, so, frustrated, that, i, haven’t, been, able, to, get, her, fit, for, the, start, of, the, endurance, season, there’s, no, way, we’d, be, able, to, go, to, the, first, ride, at, ullswater, and, there’s, only, one, other, in, cumbria, this, year, due, to, fmd, who, would, have, thought, that, we, would, still, be, curtailed, by, fmd, more, than, a, year, on, the, young, horse, was, very, interested, in, saddle, and, bridle, so, i, put, them, on, him, and, he, was, ok, at, first, he, was, frightened, to, move, at, all, but, then, he, realised, it, was, ok, on, monday, i, had, a, strange, request, to, go, and, hold, an, old, pony, for, the, knacker, to, shoot, the, owner’s, just, didn’t, want, to, be, around, it, was, a, lovely, morning, so, i, led, her, out, for, a, bite, of, grass, before, he, arrived, she, could, barely, manage, to, breathe, and, swallow, at, the, same, time, i, can’t, believe, how, the, tumours, have, taken, hold, of, her, since, the, turn, of, the, year, mr, a, couldn’t, tell, his, wife, the, diagnosis, initially, because, she, hadn’t, got, over, losing, the, few, pedigree, sheep, they, had, it’s, taking, some, people, a, long, time, to, get, over, the, loss, i, think, it’s, easier, to, get, over, losing, an, animal, if, you, have, more, than, one, it, helps, to, keep, you, focussed, on, the, living, rather, than, the, dead, and, farmers, haven’t, been, able, to, get, restarted, when, they, were, ready, to, because, of, all, the, c, d, requirements, anyway, the, knacker, man, told, some, good, tales, there’s, been, some, nutters, about, shooting, animals, some, even, had, their, guns, taken, off, them, poor, lad, was, given, a, day’s, notice, at, the, knackey, and, was, part, of, a, slaughter, team, after, that, so, he, was, only, paid, his, normal, wage, which, the, boss, collected, at, the, defra, rate, for, them, all, it, was, good, talking, to, him, probably, because, i, don’t, really, know, him, i, didn’t, feel, that, i, would, upset, him, because, he, wasn’t, like, a, client, who, had, lost, animals, sometimes, it’s, hard, to, know, what, to, say, if, people, get, upset, sometimes, it’s, enough, to, listen, one, of, the, most, awkward, situations, i, found, myself, in, was, talking, to, a, farmer, who, lost, no, stock, but, he, was, so, depressed, he, started, crying, the, cows, i, had, gone, to, see, should, have, gone, last, year, then, we, wouldn’t, have, had, these, problems, he, also, has, been, unable, to, sell, sheep, so, the, farm, was, completely, overstocked, overgrazed, and, had, little, silage, left, i, couldn’t, understand, why, he, was, still, overstocking, when, he, could, have, sold, sheep, and, cattle, for, restocking, or, for, slaughter, quite, easily, in, the, last, few, months, maybe, he, just, couldn’t, face, the, hassle, of, getting, licences, or, maybe, he’s, just, too, far, down, to, think, straight, i, usually, mention, that, sort, of, thing, to, b, and, w, because, i, think, it’s, important, that, everyone, in, the, practice, knows, what’s, happening, not, just, with, out, patients, but, also, with, our, clients, diary, 4, i, had, the, honour, of, completing, the, final, final, visit, today, and, it, was, one, of, my, neighbours, in, soulby, no, more, surveillance, visits, poor, lol, couldn’t, find, his, defra, paperwork, and, while, he, was, looking, through, his, files, he, found, copies, of, his, valuation, report, with, all, his, old, cows, on, i, think, it, brought, it, all, back, he’s, trying, hard, to, move, on, i, could, understand, him, being, bitter, since, his, whole, very, good, milking, herd, was, taken, as, a, dc, i, think, he, may, have, survived, because, the, infection, was, half, a, mile, away, from, his, cows, but, the, ip, land, joined, i, watched, them, load, all, his, cows, into, coal, wagons, on, s, saturday, afternoon, in, fact, it, was, midnight, when, the, last, de, tox, wagon, left, how, can, they, be, clean, if, i, can’t, even, get, my, wellies, clean, in, the, dark, how, he’s, worrying, about, his, new, cows, coming, from, holland, he, thinks, it’s, a, long, way, for, them, to, travel, but, he, can’t, wait, for, them, to, arrive, unlike, his, wife, who, thinks, that, all, this, restocking, is, going, too, fast, i, felt, apprehensive, too, about, a, fortnight, ago, but, the, feeling, is, subsiding, the, day, to, day, normality, of, work, is, returning, sheep, are, permitted, to, visit, the, surgery, for, treatment, so, we, have, had, a, much, more, normal, march, than, we’d, had, last, year, even, though, there, are, still, thousands, of, sheep, missing, from, the, practice, farmers, are, still, bringing, in, lambs, the, value, of, stock, is, obviously, not, their, prime, concern, where, there’s, life, there’s, hope, we, wouldn’t, see, ewes, or, lambs, at, all, if, the, cost, of, treatment, versus, the, animal’s, value, was, weighed, i, was, worried, that, we, would, have, a, flare, up, around, lambing, time, there’s, a, chance, that, some, of, the, fell, sheep, were, exposed, to, fmd, and, there’s, a, risk, of, virus, recrudescence, at, times, of, stress, so, i, was, thinking, that, if, we, made, it, through, lambing, then, we’d, definitely, be, ok, the, weather, has, cheered, me, up, this, week, everybody, smiles, more, when, it’s, sunny, its, tempting, to, think, my, days, at, home, are, holidays, when, the, weathers, so, nice, diary, 5, i, forgot, about, april, fools, day, for, the, first, time, ever, we, were, so, busy, at, work, and, it, was, more, of, a, bank, holiday, than, anything, else, i, do, resent, working, bank, holidays, but, monday, is, my, day, to, be, on, call, b, did, offer, to, do, some, of, the, day, but, he, had, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, a, lambing, at, 1.30, am, and, another, call, at, 6, am, so, he’d, be, knackered, enough, and, they, pay, me, for, a, day’s, work, so, its, only, fair, that, i, give, a, days, work, when, the, phone, rang, early, tuesday, and, i, felt, as, if, i’d, only, been, in, bed, 2, hours, i, was, regretting, not, passing, on, the, night, duty, a, belgian, blue, calving, caesarian, mentally, checked, my, kit, in, the, car, while, driving, to, ks, definitely, caesarean, they, shouldn’t, breed, from, these, cows, until, they’re, more, mature, we’re, getting, loads, of, bother, with, the, new, stock, never, mind, its, proper, veterinary, work, anyway, the, heifer, was, a, right, bag, started, off, lying, down, so, i, doped, her, but, she, got, up, after, we, got, the, calf, out, and, then, tried, to, lye, down, on, the, wound, peritonitis, to, follow, no, doubt, i, warned, the, farmer, and, we, were, all, very, calm, about, it, maybe, none, of, us, were, really, awake, so, that, made, partner, late, for, work, as, he, was, left, holding, the, baby, and, i, was, well, late, setting, off, to, see, my, sister, sister, sister, didn’t, mind, and, partner, s, bosses, said, it, was, ok, but, i, still, felt, guilty, had, a, great, time, at, sister’s, did, a, bit, of, touristy, stuff, and, found, a, really, nice, book, for, mam’s, birthday, by, mrs, herdie, who, used, to, holiday, near, home, mam, has, a, watercolour, by, her, but, this, book, is, all, wildflowers, other, sister, phoned, to, say, horse, is, worse, i, think, sister, and, i, both, wanted, to, go, to, yorkshire, when, we, heard, how, upset, she, was, sisters, are, so, close, being, twins, but, i, can, understand, what, sister, s, going, through, with, a, horse, on, death’s, door, she, didn’t, want, us, to, go, she, said, so, we, drank, too, much, red, wine, instead, and, watched, the, start, of, papillon, good, film, i, was, too, knackered, though, my, stamina, gives, out, a, lot, sooner, under, the, influence, of, alcohol, mam’s, birthday, was, a, queer, day, it’s, rare, that, i, get, the, chance, to, spend, time, with, any, of, my, siblings, at, home, and, we, had, a, lovely, day, apart, from, the, fact, that, we, were, all, waiting, to, hear, what, was, going, to, happen, with, sister, she, phoned, to, say, he’d, been, put, down, bladder, tumour, i, think, it, must, be, pretty, rare, she, still, said, we, shouldn’t, go, down, sister, could, have, easily, gone, and, mam, because, lynxes, on, school, hols, jammy, teacher, i, stayed, on, till, quite, late, because, both, my, brother, and, stepfather, wanted, to, see, son, he, was, so, excited, to, see, them, sometimes, he, just, makes, us, all, laugh, i, had, a, depressing, start, to, the, day, back, at, work, just, over, a, month, ago, i, amputated, a, dog’s, leg, the, leg, was, fractured, over, 6, months, ago, appeared, to, heal, and, then, suddenly, worsen, we, suspected, a, bone, infection, but, she, didn’t, respond, to, treatment, so, i, x, rayed, her, again, and, it, looked, like, a, bone, tumour, she, did, well, after, the, operation, until, last, week, when, she, developed, a, hard, knobbly, swelling, near, her, shoulder, and, her, lungs, were, infiltrated, i, felt, so, sad, for, her, and, the, family, she, was, a, lovely, placid, and, very, brave, dog, and, it, is, just, so, unfair, i, don’t, want, to, give, up, on, these, cases, and, i, feel, that, euthanasia, is, a, poor, treatment, in, this, case, i, so, wanted, her, to, have, a, couple, more, years, i, never, would, have, put, her, or, the, family, through, a, ghastly, op, like, amputation, if, i, had, known, that, she, would, get, so, little, benefit, the, farmer’s, son, who, worked, the, dog, until, she, retired, was, conspicuous, by, his, absence, he’s, rebuilding, the, milking, parlour, ready, to, restock, so, his, sister, did, the, honours, and, came, to, help, me, had, to, switch, to, party, mode, son’s, 2nd, birthday, the, sandpit, was, a, roaring, success, as, was, the, trike, and, cake, from, grandma, and, granddad, we, had, a, super, relaxing, day, mostly, outdoors, this, weather, makes, life, a, lot, easier, i, couldn’t, have, coped, with, all, those, little, boys, inside, escaped, to, the, horses, at, asby, to, take, water, it’s, so, peaceful, up, there, i’ve, really, missed, being, able, to, go, up, there, this, last, year, there’s, still, yellow, tape, on, my, gate, and, i, don’t, even, have, livestock, i, wonder, who, they, defra, thought, the, field, belongs, to, should, get, out, riding, this, next, week, with, a, bit, of, luck, and, a, bit, of, spare, time, i, think, i’ll, have, to, shelve, the, plans, to, show, the, arabs, i, haven’t, got, started, soon, enough, diary, 6, our, new, vet, started, this, week, bright, young, enthusiastic, and, full, of, new, ideas, i, feel, very, out, of, touch, i, didn’t, go, on, any, cpd, courses, last, year, for, most, of, the, year, i, felt, as, if, we, were, unclean, and, i, was, so, tired, with, working, such, long, days, it, seemed, too, much, hard, work, to, organise, extra, childcare, etc, to, allow, me, to, go, away, for, more, than, a, day, i, feel, out, of, touch, generally, though, and, a, lot, of, it, has, to, do, with, working, part, time, big, day, on, wednesday, son’s, 1st, morning, at, biggins, nursery, i, think, my, new, hobby, is, worrying, am, i, doing, the, right, thing, setting, off, on, new, extra, and, expensive, childcare, arrangements, i, think, i, feel, guilty, because, it’s, for, my, benefit, not, for, extra, work, it’s, now, going, to, cost, me, an, extra, 7.50, to, ride, my, horse, on, a, wednesday, but, i, am, starting, to, break, horse, in, as, well, and, i, can’t, handle, a, 4, year, old, horse, with, a, 2, year, old, boy, around, anyway, the, nursery, seemed, a, big, hit, and, i, had, my, first, ride, out, on, ashby, fell, i, actually, went, over, the, track, to, the, dowly, tree, instead, of, on, the, road, she, the, horse, was, quite, anxious, leading, the, other, two, and, a, bit, excited, to, be, out, in, the, open, space, of, the, fell, so, was, i, there, seems, to, be, just, one, lot, of, fell, sheep, on, there, they, must, be, h’s, i, think, nobody, else, has, started, to, heft, sheep, up, there, yet, the, dowly, tree, will, be, looking, sad, and, lonely, for, a, bit, longer, i, have, missed, being, up, on, that, fell, so, much, margaret, little, asking, if, we’re, going, to, the, village, hall, quiz, on, friday, probably, not, because, we’re, going, out, for, a, meal, for, partner, s, birthday, felt, guilty, about, not, supporting, village, activities, and, started, justifying, myself, to, her, i, hate, it, though, when, people, use, fmd, to, make, you, feel, bad, she, kept, saying, how, few, does, there, were, last, year, how, nice, it, is, for, all, the, village, to, get, together, etc, all, true, but, i, can’t, get, babysitters, and, nights, off, to, do, everything, and, partner, is, way, more, important, than, the, village, quiz, he, put, up, with, such, a, lot, of, shite, last, year, and, never, complained, far, too, tolerant, we, had, a, lovely, meal, on, the, friday, night, son, slept, out, at, t’s, for, the, first, time, in, ages, but, i, couldn’t, have, a, lie, in, because, of, the, judge’s, course, for, the, arab, horse, society, i, really, enjoyed, it, it, was, arranged, for, last, year, but, had, to, be, postponed, due, to, fmd, it, was, worth, waiting, for, and, i, couldn’t, have, gone, last, year, even, if, it, had, been, on, went, to, see, sister, and, sister’s, boyfriend, on, sunday, seemed, to, spend, all, day, being, fed, she’s, like, mam, son, took, a, real, shine, to, sister’s, boyfriend, which, entertained, us, all, she, seems, to, be, coping, ok, with, horse, s, demise, martin, has, cleaned, up, one, of, his, shoes, and, mounted, it, with, a, plaque, he’s, very, thoughtful, diary, 7, i, have, decided, that, i, am, happy, on, dry, days, when, i, can, ride, or, work, my, horses, son, and, i, can, get, outside, to, play, and, then, he’s, happier, and, people, who, come, into, work, are, more, smiley, on, good, days, too, son, and, i, went, to, a, birthday, party, this, week, he, had, a, brilliant, time, but, i, felt, very, out, of, place, everybody, else, was, immaculately, dressed, and, made, up, while, son, and, i, had, to, rush, back, from, having, a, bonfire, to, burn, all, the, old, hay, in, musgrave, field, to, quickly, wash, and, change, i’d, rather, have, carried, on, tidying, up, the, field, it’s, still, a, real, mess, and, at, least, i, have, the, grass, seed, now, it, had, better, grow, the, price, it, was, i, was, really, pleased, with, horse, on, wednesday, he’s, coming, on, quite, nicely, with, his, lunging, now, he, seems, to, be, quite, amenable, dental, appointment, on, friday, i, hope, my, dentist, never, retires, i, don’t, think, they, make, dentists, that, are, more, interested, in, people, and, their, teeth, than, money, any, more, i, always, have, a, good, chat, to, him, so, we, carried, on, our, discussion, about, my, working, conditions, comparing, them, to, his, sons, etc, he’s, a, vet, too, he, was, quite, surprised, when, i, told, him, about, the, partnership, talks, last, time, i, had, a, good, heart, to, heart, it, was, after, the, threatened, redundancy, it’s, no, wonder, i, feel, confused, about, the, future, at, times, nearly, 2, years, ago, when, i, was, on, maternity, leave, they, thought, they, might, have, to, make, me, redundant, now, they, want, to, release, a, bit, of, capital, and, take, things, easier, they, want, me, to, buy, in, this, time, last, year, i, didn’t, know, if, partner, or, i, would, have, a, job, now, i, have, to, decide, to, commit, myself, to, at, least, 20, more, years, as, a, vet, went, out, with, girls, from, work, to, a, 40th, didn’t, really, want, to, go, but, of, course, we, had, a, great, time, once, we, got, there, i, think, i, have, got, out, of, the, habit, of, evenings, out, still, can’t, get, used, to, the, freedom, the, mobile, phone, gives, us, and, spend, all, the, time, checking, that, there’s, enough, signal, battery, etc, had, a, hell, of, a, hangover, too, much, draught, coke, hell, it’s, worse, than, cider, diary, 8, the, shit, is, hitting, the, fan, we’re, having, problems, with, some, imported, dutch, heifers, we, were, waiting, for, this, especially, on, this, particular, farm, the, management’s, not, the, best, and, the, father, takes, more, advice, from, his, feed, merchant, than, us, vets, there, is, obviously, a, viral, infection, going, through, the, heifers, and, farmer, b, presumed, they, were, already, vaccinated, no, documentation, they, are, also, showing, signs, of, gastro, intestinal, upset, which, could, be, management, oh, hell, why, did, he, buy, 80, first, calvers, nobody, would, willingly, put, themselves, under, that, stress, new, vet, is, interested, but, b, and, w, are, obviously, trying, to, keep, their, distance, they’ve, been, embroiled, in, herd, problems, on, this, farm, before, i, am, now, obviously, the, senior, vet, in, charge, of, this, problem, and, i’m, not, even, at, work, every, day, it’s, too, much, for, new, vet, to, cope, with, and, the, farmer, will, get, pissed, off, soon, and, i, bet, it’s, us, that, catch, the, flak, cheered, myself, up, with, 1, hours, of, r, r, with, the, horses, on, wednesday, lovely, day, rode, down, onto, the, common, but, it, was, hard, work, as, the, other, two, horses, were, shouting, for, daisy, all, the, time, i, was, out, on, her, horse, decided, that, he, would, be, bobbly, when, i, worked, him, but, i’m, getting, confident, that, i, know, how, his, mind, works, we, had, a, bit, of, a, stand, off, but, i, made, sure, it, didn’t, turn, into, a, battle, and, he, did, as, he, was, asked, in, the, end, so, we, finished, on, a, good, note, i, think, it, will, be, quite, satisfying, bringing, him, on, myself, even, though, its, going, to, take, months, at, this, rate, some, people, work, on, young, horses, twice, a, day, he’s, lucky, if, he, gets, trained, twice, a, week, work, is, really, settling, down, now, the, lambing, time, rush, has, passed, and, we’re, catching, up, on, our, tb, testing, for, defra, it’s, a, bit, more, taxing, having, to, do, such, young, animals, in, the, restocked, herds, but, most, people, are, fairly, well, organised, we’re, not, going, to, get, some, of, the, herds, done, before, turn, out, i, wonder, if, defra, have, any, recommendations, for, catching, wild, limousin, heifers, in, the, middle, of, a, field, probably, not, they, don’t, think, that, far, ahead, diary, 9, i, hate, mondays, again, had, supper, at, 11.45, pm, there, was, a, problem, with, my, mobile, when, i, was, on, call, i, hate, mobiles, as, well, and, i, went, to, calve, a, cow, one, and, a, half, hours, after, the, first, call, came, in, i, was, so, mad, firstly, because, we, don’t, make, our, clients, wait, that, long, for, an, emergency, to, become, a, disaster, and, second, because, ws, wife, has, no, idea, about, passing, jobs, on, she, should, have, got, another, vet, to, go, since, i, was, obviously, busy, but, she, just, passed, the, message, on, to, new, vet, to, let, her, sort, it, out, and, w’s, wife, gets, paid, for, doing, the, phones, anyway, all’s, well, live, cow, and, a, tremendous, bull, calf, and, one, of, the, easiest, caesareans, i, have, done, in, ages, b, and, w, seem, to, forget, that, it, is, their, business, and, reputation, at, stake, ultimately, the, buck, stops, with, them, both, of, them, seem, to, have, had, enough, of, business, management, and, hassle, to, last, a, lifetime, last, year, has, done, a, lot, of, damage, to, a, lot, of, people, i, know, i, am, a, lot, less, tolerant, than, i, used, to, be, this, week, started, badly, and, improved, farrier, came, and, trimmed, all, 3, horses, bollocked, me, because, they, hadn’t, been, seen, for, over, a, year, i, did, tidy, them, a, bit, myself, though, had, a, lovely, afternoon, at, rheged, with, mam, we, started, going, when, fmd, was, on, because, it, was, sort, of, neutral, non, agricultural, ground, we, sat, and, chatted, while, son, played, in, the, soft, play, centre, everybody, happy, unfortunately, i, went, down, with, the, worst, dose, of, food, poisoning, i, had, ever, had, i, was, up, all, night, went, into, work, late, i, wouldn’t, have, gone, at, all, except, i, had, a, 2nd, tb, to, test, to, do, on, a, restocked, farm, and, couldn’t, bear, to, start, the, whole, thing, again, i, recovered, as, the, afternoon, went, on, and, even, managed, to, dehorn, 10, cows, the, thought, of, b, sending, fragile, young, new, vet, to, help, spurred, me, on, a, bit, i, was, knackered, when, i, finished, took, me, another, 2, days, to, recover, horse, doing, well, bridle, and, saddle, on, now, looking, grown, up, i’m, quite, proud, of, him, he, was, so, chilled, out, today, i, tried, long, reining, him, that, confused, him, but, he, was, very, sensible, norleen, and, i, didn’t, go, to, the, 1st, date, at, the, rochdale, show, i, still, didn’t, feel, right, and, partner, was, going, to, fit, the, new, fuel, pump, to, my, car, but, then, he, started, to, feel, ill, too, what, a, waste, of, a, saturday, off, made, it, to, the, show, on, sunday, pretty, good, ridden, classes, and, all, the, senior, in, hand, classes, we, were, laughing, because, we’re, so, out, of, practice, there, are, two, years, worth, of, young, stock, that, we’ve, never, seen, due, to, babies, in, 2000, and, fmd, in, 2001, we, felt, really, out, of, touch, there, are, a, few, imported, stallions, and, mares, that, we, haven’t, seen, before, too, we, had, a, brilliant, day, diary, 10, what’s, worse, than, working, on, call, on, mondays, yes, working, bank, holidays, we, hoped, to, shut, at, 12, ha, ha, i, got, home, for, lunch, at, 2pm, b, kindly, took, the, phones, for, a, couple, of, hours, in, the, afternoon, not, long, enough, to, go, anywhere, and, i, was, back, out, working, by, tea, time, my, car, failed, its, mot, because, the, back, brake, callipers, were, all, gunged, up, the, mechanic, says, it’s, disinfectant, that, does, it, bloody, defra, i, bet, there’s, no, chance, of, compensation, for, that, it, wouldn’t, be, so, bad, if, it, was, a, practice, car, but, now, that, i’m, part, time, i, have, to, paddle, my, own, canoe, all, the, local, garage, owners, warned, us, last, year, that, these, things, would, happen, what, could, we, do, we, felt, obliged, to, drive, into, all, the, voluntary, disinfectant, sites, it, doesn’t, look, good, if, the, local, vets, aren’t, disinfecting, my, beautiful, old, audi, god, knows, what, other, horrors, are, lurking, where, the, fam, has, spilled, in, my, boot, etc, hell, it, makes, me, mad, all, the, destruction, physical, and, mental, and, we, had, so, little, to, say, in, any, of, it, well, my, car, spent, the, rest, of, the, week, in, the, garage, so, i, used, borrowed, wheels, went, to, do, a, wee, talk, at, stainsmore, pre, school, in, partner, s, transit, van, very, professional, the, children, didn’t, care, they, just, wanted, to, meet, my, dog, son, missed, a, birthday, party, on, the, saturday, because, i, was, still, at, work, more, guilt, not, that, he, knows, he, missed, it, lovely, day, on, sunday, with, my, horse, went, for, a, three, hour, ride, over, in, county, durham, we, trailed, round, arable, fields, and, nice, lanes, all, very, different, from, here, other, horse, was, an, absolute, saint, and, did, very, well, to, have, no, shoes, on, she, really, did, us, proud, diary, 11, got, my, car, back, that, cheered, me, up, bad, news, about, the, imported, heifers, two, more, have, died, at, least, the, pm, exams, and, sampling, are, free, because, it’s, a, restocked, herd, farmer, getting, angry, now, at, dutch, farmers, but, taking, it, out, on, new, vet, very, unfair, she’s, spent, hours, checking, over, his, cattle, and, taking, samples, didn’t, get, my, usual, r, r, on, wed, absolutely, piddling, down, started, sorting, out, a, few, jobs, that, i, have, been, avoiding, the, sort, i, used, to, do, on, wet, sundays, now, will, become, wet, wednesday, jobs, called, in, at, work, for, coffee, and, ended, up, with, a, call, for, the, afternoon, very, interesting, job, too, went, to, sedate, two, horses, for, the, dentist, it, was, absolutely, fascinating, son, has, another, 2nd, cousin, this, week, the, family, is, really, sprouting, had, a, tough, calving, thursday, night, torsion, of, the, uterus, i, can, do, these, now, i, used, to, absolutely, dread, them, unfortunately, she’d, been, on, too, long, and, the, calf, was, born, dead, heifer, fine, though, i, hate, going, to, that, farm, the, farmer, is, a, right, old, perverted, slime, ball, and, i’ll, dance, on, his, grave, started, with, a, real, head, cold, h, crap, went, to, see, mam, and, stewart, son, on, top, form, it’s, brilliant, seeing, him, interact, with, my, family, he, has, really, strengthened, the, bonds, in, our, family, son, fevered, at, night, starting, with, the, same, cold, i, presume, no, sleep, for, me, partner, never, seems, to, hear, all, the, commotion, still, felt, ill, on, saturday, sister, and, sister, s, birthday, at, least, i, remembered, to, post, their, cards, in, plenty, of, time, this, year, went, shopping, for, wallpaper, on, sunday, to, cheer, me, up, partner, went, off, pest, controlling, with, his, dogs, they, went, up, through, tubby’s, wood, they, found, nothing, but, at, least, the, dogs, had, a, good, ratch, he, says, he, only, now, feels, ok, about, walking, across, fields, i, didn’t, even, realise, that, he, still, felt, that, he, couldn’t, go, round, all, his, old, haunts, we, must, talk, more, diary, 19, tb, test, cancelled, on, monday, and, thursday, this, week, because, the, farmer, can’t, cope, with, the, extra, hassle, he’s, a, bit, of, a, woman, at, the, best, of, times, but, he’s, been, even, worse, since, fmd, w, was, very, understanding, he, seems, to, have, the, farmers, measure, b, didn’t, seem, that, understanding, very, upset, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, had, to, put, down, my, own, terrier, after, he, took, off, and, chased, the, neighbour’s, sheep, for, the, second, time, i, can’t, understand, why, he, went, so, strange, he, used, to, be, fine, with, stock, i, had, a, miserable, afternoon, waiting, for, partner, to, come, home, to, bury, him, i’d, had, such, a, good, morning, with, the, horses, too, dizzy, and, horse, were, both, going, well, i, felt, better, once, partner, came, home, he, said, i’d, done, the, right, thing, but, i, felt, as, though, i’d, failed, somehow, because, it, should, never, have, happened, in, the, first, place, maybe, it’s, because, he, had, nothing, to, do, last, year, no, interesting, walks, no, rabbiting, etc, i, don’t, know, diary, 20, brilliant, time, tues, wed, went, to, my, sisters, with, mam, and, son, it’s, much, easier, to, keep, in, touch, with, my, family, post, fmd, i, hardly, went, anywhere, last, year, we, went, shopping, to, edinburgh, mam’s, looking, for, an, outfit, for, my, brother’s, wedding, unsuccessfully, so, far, i’ve, just, realised, that, i, haven’t, seen, brother, and, wife, on, their, farm, since, fmd, broke, out, we, must, go, soon, it’s, a, brilliant, place, for, recharging, batteries, and, they, are, the, best, bit, of, my, step, family, we, didn’t, go, to, the, cumberland, show, with, the, horses, i, haven’t, got, back, into, the, swing, of, things, yet, i, think, it, was, a, bit, of, a, washout, without, the, farming, side, and, it, rained, i, offered, to, be, the, biosecurity, officer, for, our, local, show, so, that, they, could, get, things, up, and, running, properly, they, had, money, and, trophies, donated, last, year, for, new, cattle, classes, and, there, would, be, real, interest, in, fat, cattle, classes, and, young, handler, classes, now, defra, the, bastards, managed, to, put, the, committee, off, diary, 21, sprayed, weeds, in, field, only, depressing, day, this, week, it’s, never, going, to, recover, properly, the, landlord, arrived, when, we’d, just, finished, the, first, half, and, said, he’d, decided, to, reseed, it, in, august, after, much, discussion, i, persuaded, him, it, would, be, a, waste, of, time, and, money, to, put, horses, back, on, a, newly, seeded, field, over, winter, now, i’m, worried, about, what, happens, in, spring, will, we, be, terminated, or, just, moved, to, another, field, i, wish, i’d, moved, the, horses, at, the, usual, time, 1st, april, then, we, wouldn’t, have, been, caught, up, among, ips, and, dcs, something, will, sort, out, it, always, does, dairy, 22, excellent, week, off, to, malvern, with, friends, for, the, national, arabian, horse, show, son, went, off, to, grannies, for, the, holiday, i, had, a, marvellous, time, for, three, days, watching, the, most, beautiful, horses, and, came, back, absolutely, shattered, diary, 23, few, probs, at, work, with, new, assistant, she’s, a, bit, whiney, she’s, always, bending, the, ear, of, the, nearest, receptionist, and, they, are, sick, b, has, offered, her, a, 12, month, contract, but, whether, or, not, she’ll, accept, it, is, another, matter, from, what, i, can, gather, she’s, going, to, end, up, with, better, working, conditions, than, me, w’s, not, too, happy, about, it, all, but, neither, of, them, are, willing, to, grasp, the, nettle, they’ve, both, backed, off, since, last, year, they, can’t, wait, to, get, off, home, and, i, can’t, step, in, since, they’ve, changed, their, minds, about, my, partnership, and, i’m, only, part, time, good, weekend, lowther, on, saturday, didn’t, see, many, of, the, usual, faces, the, only, thing, that, spoiled, it, was, the, mud, we, brought, more, than, our, fair, share, home, with, son, and, the, pushchair, no, biosecurity, pressure, washer, anywhere, diary, 24, the, assistant, on, holiday, for, 2, weeks, things, seem, more, like, old, times, the, cages, aren’t, full, of, animals, on, drips, i’m, working, extra, days, and, enjoying, it, it’s, tiring, but, good, highlight, of, the, week, on, thursday, brough, show, there, weren’t, many, farmers, there, but, loads, of, horses, and, ponies, instead, of, sheep, much, talk, of, defra, regulations, none, complimentary, it, just, wasn’t, the, same, without, the, sheep, it, felt, flat, i, wonder, what, the, gimmer, lamb, sales, will, be, like, diary, 25, knackered, don’t, think, i, could, cope, with, full, time, work, any, more, new, vet, still, on, holiday, felt, guilty, about, son, being, farmed, out, all, week, i, managed, to, work, myself, up, about, our, charity, horse, show, on, saturday, i, tried, to, hand, over, the, organisation, to, three, other, folk, and, still, ended, up, sorting, out, all, the, insurance, and, rosettes, and, they, changed, the, date, so, i, had, less, time, to, organise, and, it, wasn’t, advertised, it, was, the, worst, show, we’ve, ever, had, it, takes, as, much, time, to, organise, it, for, the, few, as, it, does, for, the, many, i, felt, so, disappointed, i, thought, we, would, have, a, real, good, turnout, this, time, after, having, to, cancel, last, year, oh, well, there’s, always, next, year, i’ll, need, to, make, sure, they, don’t, change, the, date, again, and, at, least, i, might, be, able, to, take, the, horses, next, time, decided, to, cheer, myself, up, by, taking, other, horse, over, to, school, her, round, the, jumps, on, the, sunday, but, i, couldn’t, catch, her, she, must, have, known, so, that, just, put, the, tin, hat, on, the, weekend, diary, 26, two, trotting, meetings, this, week, i, landed, both, of, them, and, both, nights, on, call, another, bank, holiday, with, no, time, off, and, i, had, to, take, son, to, both, because, partner, was, grouse, beating, both, meetings, were, quite, relaxed, but, there, was, one, nasty, crash, at, appleby, had, a, really, nice, day, out, at, chatsworth, game, fair, with, helen, and, neil, it’s, the, first, time, we’ve, managed, to, visit, them, and, it, took, hours, to, get, there, we, were, invited, last, year, but, the, advert, said, they, didn’t, want, any, cumbrians, social, outcasts, as, if, we, didn’t, feel, like, the, armpit, of, british, agriculture, as, it, was, i, really, enjoyed, our, day, out, i, felt, as, if, we’d, had, a, weekend, away, not, just, a, day, we’ll, have, to, think, of, some, more, trips, it’s, too, easy, just, to, stay, at, home, we, always, have, plenty, to, do, dairy, 27, it’s, started, again, defra, have, found, a, new, way, to, cock, up, our, lives, they, have, now, complicated, life, with, exemptions, from, the, 20, day, standstill, including, new, stuff, about, isolation, units, the, farmers, have, all, been, notified, by, post, some, haven’t, read, it, some, have, read, it, and, don’t, understand, it, farmers, have, to, isolate, new, stock, bought, via, auctions, etc, from, any, contact, with, other, stock, by, 50, m, outside, or, they, can, go, on, standstill, but, their, neighbours, can, move, stock, from, the, next, door, field, without, a, problem, it’s, mad, i, don’t, understand, where, they, are, coming, from, well, i, do, sort, of, but, as, usual, it’s, badly, thought, out, and, we, have, to, sell, this, idea, to, the, farmers, how, will, it, be, policed, will, it, matter, would, it, stop, another, massive, outbreak, it, doesn’t, take, much, to, wind, everyone, up, again, it’s, not, helped, at, work, by, b, defending, the, defra, line, and, w, dissing, it, what, will, the, clients, think, diary, 28, crap, week, puncture, on, thursday, during, lunch, hour, struggled, to, get, locking, nuts, off, felt, feckless, god, i, have, so, little, patience, these, days, and, i, missed, beva, congress, couldn’t, sort, out, childminding, etc, and, the, best, days, were, friday, and, saturday, there, was, no, way, i, could, go, i, was, really, disappointed, nothing, to, do, with, fmd, though, i, don’t, feel, as, if, i, get, much, encouragement, from, work, they, are, ok, about, paying, for, cpd, courses, but, they, don’t, seem, to, make, it, easy, to, swap, weekends, etc, they’re, not, bothered, themselves, so, i, suppose, they, don’t, understand, all, the, different, things, you, get, from, cpd, diary, 29, worked, extra, so, new, vet, could, go, to, sheep, meeting, at, malvern, pissed, off, it, is, not, easy, to, do, this, job, with, a, husband, and, a, family, to, consider, and, i, suppose, the, timing, stinks, since, i, missed, my, equine, course, last, week, the, week, improved, considerably, by, thursday, we, went, to, guilford, for, an, arab, horse, convention, nothing, to, do, with, work, but, very, enjoyable, i’ve, been, waiting, more, than, 10, years, for, this, i, hope, i, live, long, enough, to, go, to, the, next, one, we, talked, to, some, men, on, the, train, unheard, of, in, surrey, apparently, about, cumbria, farming, fmd, and, foxhunting, once, we, reassured, them, that, newcastle, was, not, in, cumbria, we, had, an, interesting, crack, i, hardly, ever, meet, anyone, that, is, not, connected, with, farming, and, the, countryside, they, really, have, no, idea, what, it’s, like, i, don’t, know, anything, about, it, either, which, is, what, their, job, is, i, end, up, feeling, so, frustrated, that, agriculture, and, therefore, large, animal, practice, is, in, such, a, precarious, position, it, seems, to, me, to, be, such, a, basic, fundamental, part, of, life, compared, to, computers, and, yet, the, emphasis, is, not, on, basic, stuff, anymore, surely, we, need, things, like, agriculture, and, basic, manufacturing, to, underpin, everything, else, no, wonder, nobody, was, bothered, about, us, suffering, anxiety, fear, confusion, last, year, when, we, were, in, the, throes, of, fmd, and, the, penrith, spur, was, certainly, under, reported, they, wouldn’t, have, had, so, many, marches, in, london, pre, fmd, diary, 30, quite, week, still, tired, from, last, week, loads, of, photos, to, develop, again, it, was, great, saw, horses, i’d, never, seen, before, and, got, 2, great, videos, of, long, dead, horses, that, appear, in, my, horses, pedigrees, son, was, a, bit, off, with, me, when, i, picked, him, up, monday, a, bit, unsettled, with, being, away, i, suppose, oh, this, job, just, interferes, with, a, social, life, missed, another, wedding, this, week, on, call, again, diary, 31, took, a, horse, to, penrith, vets, for, an, x, ray, they, have, a, super, new, hospital, just, out, of, town, seems, really, well, set, up, they, have, a, really, good, attitude, to, work, and, clients, i, think, we, need, a, shake, up, at, work, maybe, new, vet, s, way, of, working, isn’t, too, bad, neil, said, they, were, million, in, the, red, at, the, height, of, fmd, they, must, have, been, so, worried, none, of, us, knew, what, we’d, be, left, with, we’ve, definitely, got, a, lot, of, routine, work, because, we’ve, lost, such, a, lot, of, dairy, farms, it’s, never, going, to, be, the, same, again, and, i’m, not, good, at, accepting, change, diary, 32, sad, week, one, of, our, farmer’s, sons, was, killed, in, an, rta, on, the, a66, he, had, only, been, married, two, years, and, was, a, real, canny, lad, it, shocked, everyone, and, has, certainly, made, me, take, stock, they, have, restocked, with, fancy, cattle, from, down, south, and, these, cattle, may, have, contacted, cattle, with, a, variant, virus, from, the, usa, so, they, were, doing, a, whole, herd, test, you, could, blame, this, on, fmd, if, they, hadn’t, lost, their, cattle, they, wouldn’t, have, restocked, and, they, wouldn’t, be, testing, the, cattle, or, it, wouldn’t, have, happened, if, they’d, stopped, for, an, extra, cup, of, tea, a, client, brought, me, a, copy, of, the, cumbria, enquiry, that, didn’t, half, stir, up, some, old, feelings, all, the, things, i, was, so, angry, about, last, year, were, summed, up, in, one, phrase, i, read, slack, organisation, the, poor, woman, who, brought, the, report, has, spent, over, 1000, treating, her, dog, after, it, suffered, chemical, burns, from, fmd, disinfectant, on, a, road, map, it, now, reacts, to, phenolic, compounds, including, sheep, dip, and, fresh, tar, they’re, moving, to, scotland, i, hope, the, dog, has, a, better, life, there, diary, 33, funny, old, week, everyone, still, shell, shocked, about, farmer’s, son, s, death, no, explanation, as, to, how, the, lorry, crashed, into, his, tractor, yet, you, begin, to, wonder, how, any, family, can, cope, with, that, sort, of, trauma, b, and, w, went, to, the, huge, funeral, they, said, his, parents, were, amazing, they, do, have, a, strong, faith, but, i, can’t, see, that, being, enough, i, went, to, the, graveyard, the, next, day, to, see, the, flowers, and, ended, up, in, tears, it, was, the, messages, on, the, cards, especially, the, ones, from, his, parents, and, brother, and, sister, i, felt, so, sad, for, them, all, went, for, a, wee, walk, with, tracey, she, knows, him, quite, well, and, we, talked, a, lot, trying, to, make, sense, of, it, all, then, blow, me, on, the, thursday, his, father, and, brother, were, part, of, a, syndicate, at, the, tup, sales, that, paid, over, 100,000, for, a, swaledale, tup, i, couldn’t, believe, they’d, even, gone, to, the, auction, never, mind, doing, something, like, that, it, doesn’t, seem, right, to, me, the, others, could, have, bought, the, tup, for, them, i, think, that’s, awfully, strange, i, had, another, upset, farmer’s, wife, this, week, i, went, to, see, a, downer, cow, she’d, got, stuck, in, the, cubicles, we, had, to, carry, her, to, a, straw, box, using, the, loader, tractor, and, the, wife, got, really, upset, seeing, the, cow, swinging, on, the, front, of, the, tractor, i, felt, a, bit, guilty, really, because, i, didn’t, think, i, just, didn’t, connect, the, fmd, slaughter, with, an, injured, cow, but, then, i, didn’t, see, all, that, they, saw, when, their, herd, went, down, diary, 34, great, week, my, brother’s, wedding, son, was, a, page, boy, in, a, kilt, and, he, was, quite, well, behaved, apart, from, the, second, lot, of, photos, he, was, well, tired, and, hungry, by, then, i, love, being, home, with, my, brother, and, sisters, and, their, partners, and, it’s, great, the, way, they, all, have, so, much, time, for, son, we, always, laugh, so, much, at, the, clan, gatherings, i’m, sure, it’s, very, therapeutic, the, amount, of, alcohol, consumed, by, all, at, the, wedding, is, definitely, not, therapeutic, we, set, off, on, our, holiday, maybe, our, first, family, holiday, the, day, after, in, the, rain, but, it, turned, out, ok, later, such, a, lot, of, good, stuff, in, one, week, diary, 35, had, a, lovely, day, it, all, worked, out, well, we, may, try, four, or, five, days, away, next, year, now, that, we’ve, got, started, again, it’s, years, since, we, had, a, proper, holiday, i, usually, miss, all, the, animals, when, i’m, away, but, not, this, time, i, think, son, has, more, than, filled, that, gap, had, bad, news, on, wednesday, partner, s, van, failed, its, mot, no, transport, no, money, for, a, new, motor, mild, panic, slight, depression, then, the, gradual, return, to, my, it, will, all, work, out, somehow, attitude, and, it, did, partner, s, mum, and, dad, helped, us, out, and, i, had, to, relinquish, my, little, buy, a, new, trailer, fund, had, a, disaster, on, sunday, morning, caesarean, on, an, uncooperative, cow, she, got, up, halfway, through, the, op, and, pushed, her, rumen, out, onto, the, very, dirty, floor, and, she, started, to, haemorrhage, she, died, four, hours, later, they, ended, up, with, an, exceptional, bull, calf, but, a, dead, pedigree, belgian, blue, cow, i, hate, when, things, die, on, restocked, farms, i, think, they, were, quite, philosophical, about, it, but, i, went, over, and, over, the, whole, thing, in, my, head, b, just, said, if, they’re, going, to, die, it’s, best, they, die, soon, less, time, to, worry, and, everyone, gets, over, it, quicker, too, i, think, he, may, be, right, he’s, definitely, easier, to, talk, to, these, days, he’s, like, a, different, person, now, that, jan’s, left, diary, 36, busy, week, testing, a, restocked, herd, monday, thursday, which, had, travelled, all, of, 5, miles, to, their, new, home, a, bit, of, a, waste, of, time, but, it, was, a, nice, day, to, be, out, really, good, turnout, at, the, village, bonfire, it’s, a, new, tradition, started, in, 2001, and, it, was, the, first, village, get, together, after, fmd, at, the, end, of, the, week, i, headed, south, to, cheshire, and, the, salisbury, plain, with, my, friend, ann, and, her, horse, to, compete, in, the, marathon, what, an, awful, journey, we, had, the, rain, poured, the, traffic, crawled, i’m, glad, i, don’t, have, to, use, the, m6, on, a, daily, basis, i, really, enjoyed, my, weekend, away, but, we, had, to, pull, the, horse, out, at, the, half, way, point, she, was, so, hyped, that, we, couldn’t, get, her, heart, rate, down, so, she, wasn’t, allowed, to, continue, i, felt, really, disappointed, i, was, sure, that, she, had, a, good, chance, well, she, would, have, if, they, had, a, vet, check, halfway, through, diary, 37, a, bit, of, an, anticlimax, this, week, after, all, the, build, up, to, the, marathon, it, would, have, been, so, different, if, she’d, completed, the, course, we, had, a, better, journey, north, except, for, a, puncture, not, handy, when, you, have, a, horse, trailer, on, i, drove, most, of, the, way, back, to, ann’s, saw, all, her, horses, and, then, drove, home, another, 2, hours, oh, i, was, so, pleased, to, get, home, it, was, a, good, experience, though, i, don’t, think, either, of, us, would, trail, a, horse, all, the, way, to, salisbury, plain, for, a, two, hour, race, again, there, were, fmd, cases, near, ann, in, cheshire, that, didn’t, seem, to, catch, hold, like, they, did, in, cumbria, maybe, its, because, there, are, bigger, farms, and, more, arable, land, i, went, to, see, her, in, july, 2001, and, she, pointed, out, various, fields, that, had, been, cleared, of, stock, half, of, them, didn’t, even, have, gates, on, there, was, no, disinfectant, or, precautions, visible, and, it, was, really, starting, to, wipe, out, our, practice, at, home, it, was, unbelievable, we, were, sitting, in, cumbria, thinking, that, agriculture, was, doomed, and, everything, in, cheshire, was, carrying, on, as, normal, it, was, a, rude, awakening, for, me, diary, 38, more, tb, testing, all, day, job, testing, stock, that, wouldn’t, normally, be, tested, but, they’re, restocked, they, have, come, from, cheshire, though, so, that, does, increase, the, risk, had, a, shocking, migraine, all, day, wednesday, went, to, bed, as, soon, as, i’d, dropped, son, off, at, biggins, and, didn’t, wake, up, until, 5pm, 2, hours, after, i, should, have, collected, him, and, i, still, felt, awful, it, was, terrible, driving, in, the, dark, and, i, had, to, stop, three, times, on, the, way, home, i, went, back, to, bed, until, 9pm, and, then, was, fine, i, haven’t, had, a, migraine, for, ages, i, was, back, on, top, form, the, next, day, though, we, did, the, tb, readings, on, 172, cattle, before, lunch, cooking, with, gas, diary, 39, fed, up, with, all, this, testing, and, we, may, be, doing, this, for, the, next, 4, 5, months, sick, of, new, vet, moaning, at, work, i, don’t, know, what, it, would, take, to, make, her, happy, i, think, this, week, has, nearly, all, been, a, waste, of, time, i, haven’t, made, best, use, of, my, free, time, and, i, haven’t, been, on, top, of, my, job, at, work, diary, 40, i, was, dreading, this, week, because, there, were, so, many, things, to, do, i, think, i, avoid, adding, extra, to, my, schedule, but, this, week, i, had, 3, days, away, and, a, night, out, to, cope, with, i, really, don’t, like, the, thought, of, shopping, but, managed, to, do, some, christmas, present, locating, on, friday, spent, wednesday, with, b, which, was, better, than, i, expected, on, a, national, scrapie, plan, training, day, which, was, worse, than, i, expected, bloody, defra, they, don’t, have, to, do, or, say, much, to, raise, my, hackles, here, we, are, selecting, for, a, resistant, genotype, and, they, are, spending, all, their, time, injecting, bse, into, sheep’s, brains, to, challenge, them, how, would, that, ever, happen, naturally, nearly, missed, my, night, out, because, of, work, it, was, 10, pm, before, i, got, there, but, at, least, i, didn’t, miss, the, dancing, it, turned, into, a, really, good, night, nearly, everyone, from, work, was, there, and, j, the, ex, receptionist, we, always, have, a, good, laugh, ended, up, working, most, of, the, morning, don’t, know, if, w, was, hung, over, or, just, idle, but, he’ll, have, to, pay, me, for, the, hours, i, don’t, work, extra, out, of, the, goodness, of, my, heart, now, i, have, all, my, own, overheads, to, fund, new, vet, s, the, star, for, avoiding, extra, or, dirty, work, then, it, usually, falls, to, me, she, says, she, wants, more, large, animal, work, and, then, does, her, best, to, avoid, it, diary, 41, tired, this, week, son, came, back, from, mavis’s, full, of, cold, improved, a, bit, and, then, woke, up, screaming, on, tuesday, night, it, was, a, very, long, night, and, partner, wasn’t, even, here, t, enjoy, share, it, as, he’d, left, to, fly, to, tampa, at, 5am, that, morning, god, i, don’t, fancy, being, a, single, mum, he, soon, started, to, improve, after, 24hrs, on, antibiotics, ear, and, chest, infection, i’ve, never, seen, him, in, such, pain, of, course, he, was, nearly, better, by, the, time, partner, got, back, i, really, struggled, on, my, own, and, had, to, take, a, day, off, on, thursday, but, still, had, to, go, and, do, a, second, tb, test, otherwise, i, would, have, had, to, start, all, over, again, we, didn’t, have, time, to, test, them, twice, and, it’s, a, restocked, herd, so, we, had, to, do, them, all, it’s, really, hard, trying, to, do, the, best, for, everyone, diary, 42, pretty, good, week, until, the, weekend, had, a, good, night, out, for, tracey’s, birthday, and, i, was, really, chuffed, she, invited, son, too, he, was, well, behaved, too, nut, unfortunately, now, thinks, he, can, go, to, the, pub, so, we, have, to, go, out, to, meetings, to, avoid, a, tantrum, i, don’t, really, think, i, have, suffered, many, after, effects, from, fmd, except, a, lower, anger, threshold, and, a, loss, of, faith, in, the, powers, that, be, i’m, much, more, worried, about, some, of, our, client’s, mental, health, i, know, there, are, several, who, have, suffered, severe, depression, and, they, are, not, all, farmers, that, were, culled, out, the, sleepless, nights, were, back, with, a, vengeance, son, started, with, chickenpox, at, the, weekend, and, nobody, had, any, sleep, diary, 43, absolutely, shattered, somebody, else’s, chickenpox, is, nearly, as, bad, as, your, own, i, don’t, think, i, have, had, a, full, nights, sleep, for, over, a, fortnight, i, still, had, a, lovely, time, at, christmas, though, i, was, sure, that, partner, and, son, would, be, pleased, with, their, presents, son, suddenly, brightened, dup, on, christmas, eve, on, the, way, to, mam’s, and, never, broke, stride, after, that, he, was, son, top, form, i, was, so, tired, that, i, fell, asleep, on, saturday, evening, and, missed, the, village, hall, christmas, party, the, highlight, of, the, village, social, calendar, diary, 44, the, threat, of, tb, rears, its, ugly, head, maybe, tb, is, the, new, fmd, went, to, do, a, private, tb, test, for, a, farmer, who, has, restocked, and, passed, his, restocking, checks, unfortunately, he, bought, 3, heifers, in, november, and, the, original, farm, has, since, gone, down, with, tb, he, isolated, the, heifers, as, soon, as, he, heard, and, waited, for, defra, they, didn’t, come, so, we, did, i, hoped, for, the, best, and, expected, the, worst, one, of, the, heifers, reacted, i, didn’t, know, what, to, do, or, say, the, farmer’s, wife, was, really, upset, she, wished, they, hadn’t, gone, back, into, farming, b, the, boss, has, phoned, defra, that, morning, regarding, these, heifers, only, to, be, told, that, youngstock, don’t, pose, much, of, a, risk, they, don’t, seem, to, have, much, idea, at, all, and, don’t, have, a, clue, about, getting, on, with, the, job, they’ve, had, three, weeks, to, track, down, the, calves, out, of, the, cows, that, were, reactors, they, seem, to, let, us, down, just, when, we, need, them, most, oh, they, make, me, boil, and, we, are, going, to, have, to, cope, with, the, aftermath, again, diary, 45, felt, a, bit, flat, and, tired, this, week, the, test, i, had, this, week, was, hard, work, trying, to, catch, cows, in, cubicles, is, not, fun, we, were, all, covered, in, muck, at, the, end, of, it, and, the, second, day, was, worse, because, he, had, about, 14, to, rectal, after, the, test, wednesday, my, day, of, respite, was, taken, up, looking, after, tracey, in, bed, with, cold, she’s, really, down, still, and, i, can’t, seem, to, do, anything, to, make, her, feel, better, i, know, she’ll, come, out, of, it, eventually, but, it’s, hard, not, being, able, to, help, i, just, didn’t, feel, as, if, i, had, any, time, to, myself, this, week, and, i, really, missed, out, if, i, start, working, wednesdays, i’m, going, to, miss, it, every, week, i’ll, have, to, have, another, plan, it’s, a, bit, better, at, the, weekend, but, i, think, we, all, need, some, better, weather, and, i, miss, doing, stuff, with, the, horses, diary, 46, oh, i’m, mad, again, with, defra, i, had, to, go, back, to, the, herd, with, the, reactor, and, test, every, single, bovine, on, the, place, except, the, two, remaining, heifers, from, the, infected, herd, i, don’t, understand, why, they, can’t, just, take, out, those, heifers, too, the, poor, farmer, and, his, wife, will, be, on, tender, hooks, until, the, end, of, march, at, the, earliest, if, they, hadn’t, asked, for, a, private, test, goodness, knows, when, defra, would, have, got, there, while, i, was, testing, defra, phoned, the, farmers, wife, to, confirm, that, the, slaughtered, heifer, had, visible, lesions, so, that, puts, paid, to, the, theory, that, youngstock, weren’t, a, danger, hope, this, news, makes, them, get, a, finger, out, had, a, lovely, day, with, mam, and, son, on, tuesday, we, sat, and, talked, for, over, an, hour, in, the, car, park, everything, tested, clear, at, the, check, test, so, far, so, good, bad, day, on, thursday, the, behaviour, course, i, was, enrolled, on, has, been, cancelled, no, explanation, just, a, cheque, returned, to, the, practice, with, a, wee, note, i, was, so, disappointed, even, though, it, was, going, to, be, a, lot, of, extra, work, over, the, next, 10, months, and, extra, hassle, and, extra, childminding, i, think, i, could, have, coped, then, at, lunchtime, i, bent, my, car, door, after, stopping, to, help, somebody, stuck, on, an, icy, patch, i, haven’t, got, all, the, bits, sorted, that, were, knackered, by, fmd, disinfecting, yet, and, there’s, more, repairs, and, i, have, to, pay, for, it, myself, now, that, i, don’t, have, a, practice, car, i, was, well, fed, up, dairy, 47, busy, week, tb, testing, again, started, working, odd, wednesdays, this, week, so, spent, all, day, wednesday, up, the, back, end, of, suckler, cows, very, dangerous, taking, bloods, for, brucellosis, and, then, blood, sampling, swaledales, for, scrapie, testing, we, have, so, many, tests, still, to, do, but, not, many, dreadfully, out, of, date, and, i, think, we’ve, done, quite, a, lot, of, the, restocking, tests, but, its, all, quite, mind, numbing, stuff, not, much, clinical, acumen, required, for, getting, blood, out, of, cows, just, quick, reactions, to, dodge, shit, and, flying, feet, very, late, finished, monday, by, the, time, i, had, all, my, paperwork, done, a, a, college, friend, landed, tuesday, en, route, to, leeds, for, a, herd, health, meeting, 6, hours, driving, for, a, meeting, we, talked, a, bit, about, fmd, she, worked, as, a, tvi, towards, the, end, of, the, outbreak, they, have, a, lot, more, trouble, with, tb, up, in, aberdeenshire, once, it, gets, into, a, herd, they, struggle, to, get, rid, of, it, again, i, hope, it, doesn’t, get, to, be, a, huge, problem, round, here, collected, a, fair, few, bruises, on, thursday, pregnant, heifers, to, dehorn, they, should, have, been, done, in, 2001, but, of, course, the, routine, work, was, put, off, i, don’t, know, what, the, excuse, was, leaving, them, al, through, 2002, but, they, were, massive, anyway, it, saved, me, going, to, the, gym, on, wednesday, night, diary, 48, i, have, just, handed, in, the, latest, batch, of, diaries, and, started, a, new, session, i, have, been, thinking, that, f, m, doesn’t, really, affect, me, much, anymore, our, work, has, changed, because, of, the, restocking, that, has, taken, place, since, with, all, the, new, disease, problems, that, have, been, bought, in, as, additional, extras, and, the, extra, tb, testing, etc, but, mentally, i, am, not, aware, of, even, thinking, about, the, events, of, 2001, that, often, i, still, feel, upset, if, someone, tells, me, about, their, own, particular, experiences, which, are, often, heart, rending, but, probably, no, more, than, if, they, were, discussing, another, devastating, disease, problem, i, still, have, little, tolerance, for, the, workings, of, defra, even, though, they, are, providing, us, with, lots, of, bread, and, butter, work, diary, 51, i’m, sick, of, doing, caesareans, on, cows, who, encouraged, all, the, bloody, beef, farmers, to, restock, with, belgian, blues, i’m, not, sure, that, we, should, be, continuing, to, allow, animals, to, breed, that, can’t, reproduce, naturally, it, doesn’t, seem, right, that, we, should, almost, expect, a, caesarean, the, day, that, a, new, cow, is, put, in, calf, we, used, to, have, occasional, troubles, before, and, not, all, caesareans, are, on, belgian, blues, but, now, we, do, at, least, one, caesarean, every, week, b, did, two, in, one, day, and, they, are, bloody, hard, work, diary, 52, i, always, think, of, the, 23rd, feb, as, being, the, day, that, i, realised, we, might, be, in, the, shit, in, 2001, it, wouldn’t, have, passed, unnoticed, round, here, several, people, mentioned, the, date, in, the, following, week, yet, it, wasn’t, until, the, 4th, april, that, f, m, came, into, our, practice, loads, of, our, farmers, lost, a, lot, of, seep, early, on, though, because, they, were, wintering, away, on, dairy, farms, further, down, the, eden, valley, this, used, to, just, involve, the, hoggs, but, now, they, are, encouraged, to, leave, the, fells, almost, empty, and, are, paid, to, remove, even, pregnant, ewes, to, lower, ground, it, seems, ludicrous, that, on, certain, farms, the, fell, sheep, only, spend, summertime, on, the, fells, the, rest, of, the, time, they, are, in, bye, land, for, tupping, or, lambing, and, then, are, wintered, in, sheep, sheds, or, on, dairy, farms, sometimes, quite, far, away, from, home, i, did, get, quite, upset, when, i, read, the, stories, in, the, book, this, time, i, think, i, had, more, empathy, for, the, tourism, businesses, affected, they, must, have, been, so, frustrated, and, probably, ended, up, much, worse, off, that, the, affected, farmers, in, our, area, the, farmers, who, survived, are, the, ones, in, general, who, are, struggling, for, survival, now, and, their, farms, have, had, no, capital, investment, at, all, in, fact, some, of, the, survivors, are, still, very, bitter, about, the, whole, episode, its, so, sad, what, this, has, done, to, some, people, diary, 55, check, tb, test, at, campbells, went, well, finished, in, good, time, running, into, trouble, because, the, other, cows, taken, in, for, winter, are, calving, and, they, have, no, room, however, they, have, found, someone, to, take, and, slaughter, all, the, big, bullocks, they, are, going, to, be, moved, under, licence, direct, to, a, slaughter, house, so, at, least, they, will, have, some, income, the, first, this, year, everything, tested, clear, including, the, 2, heifers, brought, in, from, the, farm, that, had, the, reactor, so, they, are, feeling, a, little, bit, more, confident, diary, 56, bloody, defra, cocked, up, again, with, c’s, test, had, to, go, back, to, test, 11, baby, calves, how, cruel, had, to, go, back, to, h’s, as, well, to, test, one, inconclusive, reactor, all, of, them, were, ok, diary, 60, i, think, the, lambing, time, rush, is, settling, down, again, of, course, there, aren’t, quite, as, many, fell, sheep, about, as, usual, and, probably, won’t, be, again, if, the, payments, are, de, coupled, numbers, won’t, be, as, profitable, as, acres]
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1964, gender, f, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, week, beginning, 4th, march, 02, monday, 4th, march, we, decided, we, now, need, more, staff, a, new, vet, and, a, part, time, receptionist, this, could, take, us, back, up, to, our, previous, staffing, level, pre, fm, bar, a, vet, but, this, was, probably, going, to, be, all, the, recruitments, we, would, make, this, year, it’s, a, good, sign, as, things, begin, to, get, back, to, normal, work, is, increasing, quite, a, lot, now, most, of, our, farmers, have, restocked, although, a, lot, of, them, and, us, are, still, concerned, about, the, future, tuesday, 5th, march, a, difficult, day, today, with, licences, two, of, our, farmers, needed, sole, occupancy, authentitys, soa, and, there, were, queries, with, their, land, unless, some, of, their, fields, could, be, redefined, they, were, worried, their, stock, would, suffer, during, the, fm, these, worries, have, shown, how, much, they, care, about, their, stock, and, find, it, very, frustrating, when, they, don’t, understand, why, we, can’t, move, them, even, to, the, point, of, anger, and, tears, by, the, end, of, the, day, thankfully, they, were, resolved, with, compromise, on, both, sides, and, a, lot, of, phone, calls, wednesday, 6th, march, i, decided, to, sort, out, all, the, paperwork, and, guidelines, we, had, received, from, defra, over, the, past, twelve, months, it, was, quite, a, pile, it, was, interesting, looking, back, and, very, sad, it, makes, you, realise, just, how, deep, the, feelings, went, and, although, it, sounds, silly, it’s, surprising, how, quickly, those, feelings, can, return, over, the, smallest, things, anyway, having, done, that, it, did, feel, good, to, box, them, up, and, put, them, away, we, got, taken, out, for, lunch, with, our, ptizer, rep, and, it, was, nice, just, to, talk, about, usual, things, drug, competition, how, much, we, were, going, to, sell, thursday, 7th, march, very, busy, day, everyone, has, been, flat, out, all, day, started, at, 7am, this, morning, got, finished, sort, of, by, 7.30pm, very, tired, hope, we, get, a, new, vet, soon, we, also, had, a, suspect, bse, case, today, informed, defra, more, problems, with, soa, but, we, got, them, started, one, bit, of, good, news, i, managed, to, get, a, new, receptionist, for, 2, days, a, week, so, i, just, need, one, for, the, other, 3, friday, 8th, march, quite, a, good, day, no, major, hassles, today, and, still, getting, busier, had, a, staff, meeting, to, arrange, an, open, day, for, national, pet, week, in, may, and, sorted, out, a, few, other, bits, and, bobs, had, a, good, chat, with, the, staff, who, have, all, been, very, busy, this, week, and, decided, that, it, is, much, better, to, this, time, last, year, when, we, were, all, very, depressed, emotionally, drained, laying, off, staff, uncertain, of, the, future, at, least, now, we, are, doing, what, we, are, meant, to, do, saturday, 9th, march, went, shopping, first, thing, with, k, had, a, good, time, even, though, i’m, not, a, good, shopper, we, went, to, the, farmers, market, i, saw, heather, who, works, at, the, auction, and, she, said, it, had, been, quite, emotional, having, sales, again, and, the, hustle, and, bustle, but, they, were, all, happy, to, see, people, they, hadn’t, seen, for, sometime, met, my, mum, in, the, afternoon, in, the, snow, at, killington, lake, it, was, good, and, the, driving, was, interesting, sunday, 10th, march, mothers, day, husband, and, daughter, were, out, for, the, day, so, i, had, a, lovely, peaceful, day, doing, not, a, lot, daughter, got, me, a, funny, card, and, a, little, hedgehog, model, for, my, collection, in, the, evening, i, collected, a, vet, student, from, london, who, is, staying, with, us, for, 3, weeks, so, we, will, have, to, behave, she, seems, nice, and, settled, into, our, mad, house, easily, mr, w, called, in, to, let, us, know, his, cows, had, arrived, safely, week, beginning, 11th, march, 02, monday, 11th, march, what, a, busy, day, but, a, total, change, to, this, time, last, year, it, was, the, day, our, first, client, was, confirmed, with, f, m, i, helped, another, vet, do, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, that, was, fun, they, are, farmers, that, have, moved, farm, and, restocked, very, positive, one, of, our, new, receptionists, started, but, i, didn’t, get, much, chance, to, see, her, due, to, the, caesar, barbara, looked, after, her, well, and, she, seemed, to, enjoy, it, there, were, lots, of, calls, in, just, like, the, old, days, but, we, really, need, another, vet, the, adverts, in, on, thursday, so, fingers, crossed, tuesday, another, busy, day, and, another, caesar, the, calf, was, dead, unfortunately, the, cow, with, query, bse, was, taken, away, for, tests, which, was, sad, my, highlight, of, my, day, was, the, farm, across, from, us, turned, some, of, his, cows, out, again, i, call, it, my, kitchen, window, view, normally, i, can, see, sheep, in, the, fields, at, the, back, and, the, cows, across, the, road, the, sheep, came, back, a, couple, of, months, ago, and, the, cows, but, i, haven’t, actually, been, able, to, see, them, so, it, was, very, special, never, really, stopped, today, and, we, did, dog, training, classes, at, night, so, i, collected, daughter, from, her, yfc, meeting, and, got, fish, and, chips, and, we, all, went, to, bed, our, poor, vet, student, who, is, staying, with, us, is, exhausted, she’s, been, able, to, see, and, do, so, much, wednesday, today, was, a, little, more, controlled, and, went, more, according, to, plan, but, was, still, a, long, day, as, we, had, a, dog, in, about, 6.30pm, that, had, eaten, a, ball, and, hadn’t, passed, it, so, we, had, to, operate, to, remove, it, anyway, finished, at, 9.00pm, had, tea, and, went, to, bed, daughter, heard, she, had, got, 2, weeks, work, experience, at, norbrook, pharmaceutical, so, very, pleased, about, that, thursday, had, the, morning, off, the, last, few, days, had, been, rather, hectic, a, girl, who, had, done, work, experience, with, us, a, couple, of, years, ago, called, round, out, of, the, blue, she, was, still, keen, to, train, as, a, vet, nurse, and, wanted, to, write, to, the, practices, in, the, area, and, needed, advice, anyway, i, told, her, about, our, vacancy, here, and, well, the, long, and, the, short, is, she, starts, on, the, 2nd, april, receptionist, staff, now, sorted, just, need, a, vet, i, wish, it, was, as, easy, friday, husband, was, reading, a, tt, test, at, a, farm, and, found, a, reactor, pre, f, m, cumbria, was, tb, free, but, with, all, the, new, stock, coming, into, the, area, it, is, inevitable, that, this, will, not, be, the, case, there, have, already, been, two, other, cases, in, the, county, i, dropped, off, the, isolation, notice, to, the, farmer, and, as, they, are, he, seemed, okay, and, still, very, positive, i, have, always, admired, them, for, their, courage, and, stamina, as, he, said, they, love, farming, and, you, have, to, expect, things, like, this, managed, to, spend, the, afternoon, with, one, of, our, new, receptionists, she, is, doing, really, well, and, settling, in, time, she, will, grasp, it, all, in, no, time, saturday, ran, daughter, and, her, friend, into, town, and, sorted, out, the, garage, that, was, an, achievement, the, dog, that, swallowed, the, ball, wasn’t, eating, so, i, went, to, get, it, something, tasty, it’s, going, home, later, so, it, should, be, a, lot, happier, daughter, s, still, in, town, so, i, took, vet, student, to, see, hadrian’s, wall, she’s, from, america, so, was, very, keen, to, see, it, she, really, enjoyed, it, and, so, did, i, i, hadn’t, been, for, a, couple, of, years, just, had, a, nice, quiet, evening, in, sunday, my, sister, and, her, daughter, came, for, the, day, my, niece, is, two, and, a, half, years, so, need, i, say, more, we, were, busy, playing, all, day, week, beginning, monday, 18th, march, 02, monday, 18th, march, it's, looking, fairly, quiet, at, work, this, week, but, you, never, know, mr, w, farmer, came, in, he, was, letting, us, know, his, restocking, plans, and, was, one, of, the, farmers, querying, his, compensation, i, never, liked, that, as, they, were, compulsory, purchased, and, have, not, received, any, compensation, as, such, although, some, got, better, money, than, others, so, maybe, it, was, all, taken, into, account, anyway, he, missed, the, query, deadline, by, two, hours, so, defra, are, refusing, to, look, at, his, case, as, he, does, appear, to, have, lost, out, as, his, brother, with, the, same, breeding, of, cows, and, related, went, down, on, the, same, down, got, an, average, 300, more, per, cow, anyway, we, tried, to, look, to, the, future, and, he, was, looking, forward, to, getting, stock, back, we, had, another, tb, reactor, today, in, some, french, cattle, me, and, our, receptionist, were, chatting, and, decided, things, were, really, getting, back, to, normal, although, with, the, added, paperwork, daughter, was, very, upset, when, she, came, home, from, school, as, she, had, been, getting, bullied, by, a, girl, in, her, year, so, we, chatted, about, that, and, i, wrote, to, her, teacher, to, see, if, she, could, find, out, more, tuesday, daughter, went, to, school, fairly, happy, i, just, told, her, to, hand, her, letter, in, and, try, and, avoid, the, girl, i, was, going, milk, recording, tonight, which, i, really, enjoy, it's, great, to, be, among, the, animals, and, talk, to, the, farmers, we, only, have, one, farmer, milk, recording, fully, at, present, there, were, 12, the, farm, i, went, to, is, a, big, dairy, herd, and, is, now, looking, to, expanding, so, that, was, good, news, bad, news, is, that, means, i'll, have, to, get, up, earlier, in, the, mornings, for, the, recording, never, mind, daughter, had, got, on, okay, at, school, and, the, teacher, was, really, good, with, her, so, she's, feeling, happier, she, is, a, good, kid, and, although, hormonal, at, times, she, does, put, up, with, a, lot, during, the, fmd, we, were, unable, to, really, go, anywhere, or, do, anything, although, we, did, try, to, keep, her, routine, we, worked, longer, hours, and, were, more, stressed, but, she, never, complained, and, helped, a, lot, went, dog, training, after, milk, recording, so, it, was, a, long, day, wednesday, early, morning, start, today, 5am, to, go, milk, recording, but, i, always, get, a, lovely, breakfast, we, also, got, invited, to, a, party, at, the, farm, in, may, so, that's, something, to, look, forward, to, and, its, fancy, dress, so, that, will, be, fun, we, have, to, dress, up, as, children's, characters, we, then, attended, a, careers, convention, at, the, sands, centre, until, 7, pm, so, another, very, long, day, very, tired, we, saw, a, lot, of, children, who, were, interested, in, pursuing, veterinary, work, which, is, always, encouraging, i, enjoy, doing, the, careers, days, it's, interesting, to, see, the, next, workforce, they, seem, to, grow, up, so, fast, thursday, my, claim, to, fame, today, was, seeing, the, princess, royal, i, passed, her, at, a, junction, and, thought, i, was, seeing, things, i, bored, everyone, with, that, story, we, had, a, lovely, staff, lunch, meeting, we, all, helped, cook, and, sat, and, chatted, about, the, future, we, had, no, replies, from, the, advert, for, a, vet, so, we, decided, to, try, another, veterinary, magazine, so, fingers, crossed, in, the, afternoon, i, managed, to, get, very, well, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, which, is, a, rarity, as, i, normally, end, up, going, somewhere, or, sorting, something, out, so, i, was, very, pleased, especially, as, the, year, end, is, approaching, friday, discussed, a, few, ideas, with, our, nurse, regarding, the, small, animal, side, and, the, possibility, of, getting, some, new, equipment, i, shall, have, to, do, some, adding, up, husband, was, at, a, vet, meeting, locally, for, all, the, vets, in, the, area, on, thursday, night, and, there, were, 3, other, practices, looking, for, vets, and, had, been, doing, for, some, time, without, any, luck, at, all, this, is, worrying, as, our, case, loads, increase, again, it, puts, a, strain, on, the, vets, so, fingers, crossed, our, advert, is, in, tomorrow, in, the, afternoon, i, called, to, see, one, of, our, evening, receptionist, who, is, on, maternity, leave, at, present, it, was, good, to, see, her, and, her, new, addition, so, i, was, filling, her, in, on, the, news, and, gossip, hopefully, she, will, be, back, to, work, the, second, week, in, april, although, the, birth, was, a, caesarean, so, i, have, told, her, to, see, how, she, is, feeling, so, we, will, discuss, it, again, soon, as, this, is, her, fourth, child, but, she, copes, really, well, and, is, looking, really, healthy, saturday, it, snowed, i, went, to, meet, my, mum, at, killington, as, we, were, having, her, dog, while, she, went, on, holiday, and, nearly, got, stuck, in, the, snow, during, foot, and, mouth, daughter, had, counted, the, stock, in, the, field, between, carlisle, and, penrith, on, the, m6, anyway, i, did, it, again, today, last, year, we, counted, 2, this, year, we, counted, 12, big, difference, sunday, went, for, a, walk, around, a, local, wood, for, the, first, time, in, over, a, year, it, was, amazing, how, overgrown, it, had, become, the, paths, were, still, visible, but, in, places, only, just, met, up, with, a, friend's, daughter, to, finalise, arrangements, for, her, father's, surprise, meal, out, next, friday, for, his, 50th, birthday, week, beginning, monday, 25th, march, 02, monday, 25th, march, another, very, busy, day, today, still, no, answer, to, the, advert, for, a, new, vet, husband, spoke, to, another, vet, in, the, area, and, they, had, had, the, same, response, nothing, it, is, good, to, be, busy, again, our, new, receptionist, is, doing, well, and, learning, fast, so, that's, taking, the, pressure, off, me, and, other, receptioinist, completed, the, claim, form, for, business, link, grant, which, helped, a, lot, and, enabled, us, to, do, things, and, advertise, when, we, wouldn't, have, been, able, to, tuesday, starting, to, prepare, for, the, end, of, our, financial, year, i, always, dread, this, but, it, has, to, be, done, it, will, be, nice, to, end, another, chapter, the, practice, suffered, badly, last, year, and, it, was, very, worrying, we, lost, 3, vets, and, two, lay, staff, but, everyone, is, feeling, the, same, i, have, spoken, to, a, few, farmers, today, and, the, opinion, is, well, it, is, a, lot, better, than, this, time, last, year, it, has, been, interesting, to, see, how, the, effect, of, having, new, stock, does, throw, them, we, are, getting, called, out, a, lot, more, which, is, good, for, us, we, are, doing, a, lot, more, lambings, and, lambing, is, set, to, go, on, until, may, june, time, this, year, we, are, very, busy, testing, at, the, moment, but, it, gives, us, the, opportunity, to, see, the, new, animals, and, discuss, plans, with, the, farmers, the, relationship, which, was, built, during, the, f, m, is, now, definitely, benefiting, a, lot, have, said, how, helpful, it, was, and, feel, a, lot, closer, the, family, not, business, relationship, is, good, wednesday, i, had, a, day, off, today, which, was, good, i, managed, to, catch, up, on, a, few, things, which, i, just, hadn't, had, time, to, do, with, being, so, busy, i, got, a, lot, organised, for, the, holiday, at, the, week, end, which, we, are, all, looking, forward, to, but, we, can't, all, get, away, together, mainly, due, to, no, new, vet, and, our, financial, year, but, at, least, we, will, all, get, a, bit, of, a, break, daughter, got, her, report, today, and, has, done, very, well, we, are, so, proud, of, her, so, fingers, crossed, for, her, gcses, thursday, i, spoke, to, mrs, w, today, who, has, been, very, much, in, action, since, they, got, f, m, and, even, got, in, touch, with, politician, etc, to, help, give, farmers, that, voice, she, mentioned, the, public, inquiry, and, like, a, lot, of, people, feels, that, maybe, rather, than, having, a, finger, pointing, blaming, session, and, we, all, have, our, ideas, on, that, she, felt, that, maybe, trying, to, prevent, it, happening, again, would, be, a, better, idea, i, personally, have, begun, to, realize, recently, just, how, much, and, how, deep, the, feelings, run, i, think, i, am, more, emotional, now, than, when, we, were, in, the, thick, of, it, friday, spent, all, day, knuckling, down, to, the, end, of, year, but, got, a, lot, done, husband, daughter, and, vet, student, went, out, for, the, day, it, is, husband, s, first, real, day, off, since, october, and, it, did, him, good, we, all, went, out, in, the, evening, to, celebrate, a, friend's, birthday, it, was, really, good, saturday, holiday, again, today, husband, daughter, my, sister, and, her, daughter, have, gone, away, today, to, the, cottage, near, newton, stewart, we, have, rented, for, a, week, the, weather, is, great, so, they, should, have, a, lovely, time, this, could, be, our, only, holiday, this, year, husband, s, back, on, monday, then, i, go, on, wednesday, confusing, isn't, it, never, mind, at, least, we, will, all, get, away, for, a, few, days, sunday, end, of, year, day, stocktaking, counting, sunny, outside, boring, but, never, mind, it's, done, our, vet, student, went, home, today, she, had, really, enjoyed, herself, and, we, had, enjoyed, having, her, she, bought, us, all, some, lovely, gifts, it, will, be, nice, to, be, on, our, own, again, but, i, will, still, miss, her, week, beginning, monday, 1st, april, 02, monday, 1st, april, i, had, a, lovely, day, my, day, husband, and, daughter, still, away, played, in, the, garden, went, for, a, walk, read, some, of, my, book, lovely, husband, came, back, at, tea, time, so, we, went, out, for, a, meal, perfect, tuesday, went, to, help, another, vet, vet, tt, test, at, one, of, our, farms, he, had, restocked, and, was, very, positive, about, the, future, it, was, a, lovely, day, and, great, to, be, amongst, cows, again, wednesday, sunday, hols, great, i, didn't, realise, just, how, much, i, needed, it, the, weather, was, great, warm, sunny, very, relaxing, all, charged, up, again, week, beginning, monday, 8th, april, 02, monday, 8th, april, back, to, work, today, i, had, quite, a, lot, of, catching, up, to, do, and, couldn't, really, get, into, it, never, mind, it, will, all, still, be, there, tomorrow, hope, we, can, get, away, again, this, year, even, for, a, few, days, tuesday, queen, mum's, funeral, today, it, was, very, quiet, we, gave, the, girls, time, off, to, watch, the, funeral, it, was, a, nice, funeral, if, you, can, have, one, and, they, commented, on, the, poem, which, was, read, about, being, thankful, for, the, life, and, not, being, sorry, i, must, get, it, our, nurse, suggested, about, giving, it, to, clients, when, they, have, their, pets, put, to, sleep, nice, idea, wednesday, back, into, it, now, i, had, 2, very, difficult, soa, to, complete, farmers, are, slowly, getting, the, idea, but, find, all, the, paperwork, hard, but, it's, a, good, chance, for, them, to, call, in, for, a, chat, and, coffee, i, so, seem, to, spend, an, awful, lot, of, time, doing, that, now, but, it's, always, good, to, see, how, they, are, coping, thursday, the, large, animal, work, has, been, rapidly, increasing, and, it, has, been, putting, extra, pressure, on, all, the, staff, we, do, really, need, another, vet, but, another, advert, and, still, no, response, at, all, but, they, all, work, very, hard, and, we, do, manage, to, get, through, the, work, we, chatted, to, the, staff, and, tried, to, reassure, them, about, the, future, but, how, can, you, when, if, we, can't, get, another, vet, we, simply, can't, provide, the, service, our, clients, need, it, is, very, worrying, and, we, are, not, sure, of, the, solution, or, the, future, i, think, after, that, paragraph, i, need, a, we, can, do, it, kick, friday, our, new, receptionists, are, settling, in, well, and, i, did, some, work, with, them, today, which, was, good, they, are, both, very, enthusiastic, a, few, years, ago, a, i, taught, nvq, in, animal, care, so, one, of, our, receptionists, is, keen, to, do, this, so, i, organised, some, work, for, her, to, do, enjoyed, that, castrated, a, colt, in, the, afternoon, sad, i, know, but, i, enjoyed, that, saturday, went, shopping, with, daughter, in, the, morning, to, buy, her, some, new, clothes, we, had, a, good, time, then, started, the, sewing, for, the, yfc, field, day, we, had, to, make, shorts, and, t, shirt, for, a, sport, event, well, i, haven't, really, done, sewing, from, a, pattern, for, years, so, let's, just, say, it, was, fun, sunday, went, to, newcastle, for, the, day, via, some, fields, we, had, to, check, for, a, client's, soa, had, a, lovely, time, and, saw, the, blinking, or, winking, i'm, not, sure, which, one, it, is, it, was, nice, to, have, a, day, all, together, week, beginning, monday, 15th, april, 02, monday, 15th, april, very, busy, again, i, did, 175, miles, today, just, dropping, things, off, for, farmers, and, vets, and, trips, to, the, lab, i, also, found, a, new, supplier, of, paper, towels, which, will, save, us, a, lot, of, money, see, so, easy, pleased, it, was, very, tiring, but, i, do, like, being, out, and, about, and, i, even, managed, two, cups, of, coffee, on, farms, before, fmd, i, felt, that, the, relationship, between, vets, and, farmers, was, changing, but, our, relationship, during, fmd, did, change, for, the, better, i, feel, good, about, that, but, not, the, way, it, happened, me, and, daughter, had, a, girls, night, in, as, husband, was, away, that, was, fun, tuesday, 16th, april, husband, away, at, bcva, he, is, new, on, the, committee, and, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, there, is, only, him, and, another, vet, in, scotland, from, the, north, invited, onto, the, committee, so, they, are, putting, together, some, suggestions, to, put, to, the, government, re, fmd, poor, another, vet, was, very, busy, again, we, need, a, vet, wednesday, 17th, april, i, went, to, see, an, elderly, client, of, ours, this, morning, who, has, an, old, dog, she, is, going, into, hospital, and, won't, go, as, she, is, worried, about, the, dog, i, offered, to, have, kelly, the, dog, while, she, was, in, hospital, and, told, her, if, i, found, out, she, cancelled, it, i, would, be, cross, i, enjoy, talking, to, her, for, her, 87, years, she, is, very, fit, and, funny, at, lunchtime, we, all, attacked, the, bayer, rep, for, free, goodies, for, our, open, day, he, was, very, co, operative, and, got, away, without, a, scratch, we, didn't, have, an, open, day, last, year, so, it, should, be, fun, back, into, a, routine, thursday, 18th, april, i, bottomed, my, paperwork, this, morning, no, interference, no, phone, calls, no, soa, very, productive, me, and, husband, went, to, see, the, finical, advisor, at, the, bank, in, the, afternoon, it, was, good, but, we, can't, retire, this, year, never, mind, he, gave, us, some, good, ideas, so, fingers, crossed, we, might, just, be, able, to, retire, one, day, friday, 19th, april, very, busy, we, need, a, vet, repetitive, isn't, it, we, were, looking, back, in, the, visit, book, to, this, time, last, year, this, year, we, had, 21, calls, which, is, a, practise, record, last, year, we, had, 1, there, is, a, lot, of, general, well, this, time, last, year, in, some, ways, it, all, seems, very, unbelievable, but, in, other, ways, it, still, very, sad, and, emotional, i, think, more, emotional, now, than, when, it, was, actually, happening, when, you, see, farmer’s, eyes, filling, up, talking, about, it, i, used, to, worry, about, upsetting, them, but, i, feel, it, is, good, to, talk, and, it, also, helps, me, i, don't, know, if, that’s, right, but, it, seems, to, work, saturday, 20th, and, sunday, 21st, april, huge, sewing, for, yfc, field, day, i, also, found, out, today, that, there, is, also, baking, and, flower, arranging, oh, joy, week, beginning, monday, 22nd, april, 02, monday, 22nd, april, good, day, today, i've, been, to, see, my, new, girls, the, cows, over, the, road, from, us, it, was, the, one, we, could, see, from, the, practice, it, was, an, awful, day, they, had, lasted, until, june, anyway, it, was, good, to, see, the, new, girls, and, i, think, i, amused, the, farmer, we, had, a, great, time, i've, never, enjoyed, helping, tt, test, more, on, a, high, tuesday, 23rd, april, driving, around, today, i've, been, trying, to, listen, to, what, the, euro, inquiry, people, have, been, up, to, not, a, lot, from, what, i, hear, i, was, talking, to, an, old, farmer, in, the, afternoon, and, he, wasn't, impressed, either, and, we, agreed, that, it, was, all, very, well, having, these, inquires, but, were, they, going, to, help, i, suppose, only, time, will, tell, but, i, still, feel, that, unless, something, is, done, about, the, cause, then, the, chances, are, it, will, happen, again, and, to, what, extent, and, what, has, been, learnt, and, what, will, be, different, next, time, because, the, one, thing, that, must, be, prevented, is, the, effects, on, people, nobody, really, got, that, i, always, remember, the, samaritans, advert, nobody, seemed, to, care, probably, no, paperwork, can, you, tell, i've, had, a, particularly, bad, day, with, the, soa, and, the, good, news, is, they, want, to, keep, them, permanently, great, wednesday, 24th, april, i, went, to, see, mrs, b, again, today, and, she, had, heard, from, the, hospital, again, she, was, going, in, next, tuesday, so, i, arranged, at, collect, k, on, monday, afternoon, i'm, pleased, she's, having, her, op, i, have, also, been, in, touch, with, one, of, her, daughters, in, devon, so, hopefully, everything, should, go, well, now, good, news, we, have, heard, of, a, vet, at, defra, who, is, looking, for, a, job, husband, phoned, her, and, she, is, coming, on, saturday, afternoon, so, fingers, crossed, thursday, 25th, april, my, cows, got, the, tt, reading, this, morning, and, they, are, all, okay, we, have, heard, of, a, farm, in, welton, who, had, to, have, some, killed, as, they, had, 7, reactors, and, they, will, need, tested, there, has, been, quite, a, few, reactors, in, the, country, after, restocking, but, with, all, the, new, stock, coming, into, the, county, from, all, over, the, country, it, was, bound, to, happen, friday, 26th, april, sorted, out, the, open, day, next, saturday, got, everything, sorted, what, we, need, who's, getting, it, etc, me, and, receptionist, went, to, smuts, fancy, dress, and, decided, budget, wouldn't, go, to, costumes, so, we, got, some, face, paint, and, masks, me, and, daughter, and, her, friend, and, mum, went, to, see, westlife, ant, newcastle, it, was, great, fun, saturday, 27th, april, shopping, washing, and, sewing, i, know, how, to, show, myself, a, good, time, we, all, went, to, another, vet, s, at, night, for, a, bbq, it, was, great, fun, cold, but, fun, we, have, been, so, lucky, with, another, vet, she, is, so, nice, and, enthusiastic, we, interviewed, a, vet, today, from, defra, but, she, is, a, little, uncertain, what, she, wants, to, do, but, she, seems, nice, and, we, told, her, what, we, needed, so, fingers, crossed, sunday, 28th, april, finished, my, sewing, week, beginning, monday, 29th, april, monday, the, inquiry, begins, for, what, good, it, will, do, i, find, i, have, very, mixed, feelings, part, of, me, thinks, what's, the, point, and, another, is, expecting, something, but, quite, what, i, don't, yet, someone, to, blame, a, solution, an, ability, to, turn, back, the, clock, a, lesson, to, learn, or, an, end, the, last, i, know, won't, happen, for, a, while, and, the, repercussion, will, probably, be, felt, for, a, few, years, yet, tuesday, 30th, april, sorry, ill, in, bed, today, with, the, cold, from, hell, wednesday, 1st, may, much, better, today, and, we, heard, from, the, vet, we, interviewed, on, saturday, and, she, has, accepted, our, offer, and, can, start, on, the, 27th, may, yippee, holidays, and, easing, of, the, pressure, on, husband, and, another, vet, i, am, still, finding, the, saying, well, this, time, last, year, mrs, r, phoned, and, mentioned, the, saying, as, it, was, a, year, ago, today, that, their, cattle, were, killed, but, she, was, phoning, with, good, news, they, had, their, first, calf, born, healthy, and, well, and, she, wanted, to, tell, us, lovely, thursday, 2nd, may, its, official, soa, are, here, to, stay, oh, joy, so, we, contacted, all, our, farmers, who, had, not, yet, got, one, who, we, thought, might, need, one, so, lots, of, chatting, and, catching, up, so, quite, nice, open, day, is, on, saturday, and, there, still, seems, to, be, an, awful, lot, to, organise, but, we, have, been, busy, all, day, and, things, are, looking, better, and, slightly, more, organised, i, haven't, seen, or, heard, much, of, this, enquiry, but, when, you, do, hear, some, i, think, we, really, went, through, that, weird, friday, 3rd, may, open, day, panic, that’s, all, i've, done, today, but, it, is, all, coming, together, and, it, will, be, fine, hopefully, we, have, had, quite, a, good, response, about, people, coming, and, people, checking, when, it, is, and, what's, happening, so, fingers, crossed, must, go, and, bake, my, buns, saturday, 4th, may, open, day, it, went, really, well, we, started, at, 2, p.m, and, there, was, a, steady, stream, of, people, all, enjoying, themselves, hopefully, it, stayed, fine, the, whole, time, thankfully, i, even, got, my, face, painted, by, another, vet, our, vet, we, managed, to, raise, 96.71, for, the, pat, dogs, and, 27.35, for, national, pet, week, not, too, bad, for, 2, hours, the, staff, came, round, for, tea, later, which, was, nice, and, we, had, a, jolly, time, sunday, 5th, may, gardened, all, day, till, i, dropped, loved, it, i, grew, quite, fond, of, the, garden, last, year, as, it, was, another, little, escape, week, beginning, monday, 6th, may, monday, 6th, may, bank, holiday, we, had, a, lovely, family, day, out, which, have, been, very, rare, so, it, was, surprising, that, we, all, got, on, nearly, it, still, feels, strange, being, able, to, go, to, places, not, only, as, a, family, but, also, the, fact, that, for, so, long, we, didn't, really, go, anywhere, tuesday, 7th, may, very, busy, i, have, been, doing, my, hollering, as, receptionist, calls, it, what, i, have, actually, been, doing, is, dropping, off, drugs, and, chatting, i, call, it, customer, relations, i, still, feel, funny, going, onto, farms, i, have, been, to, the, gate, for, months, just, momentarily, i, feel, can, i, its, hard, to, explain, it, still, feels, normal, to, drop, things, in, the, bucket, or, bin, rather, than, driving, onto, the, farm, but, its, good, and, the, coffee, with, proper, milk, is, brill, wednesday, 8th, may, mr, g, has, got, some, cows, he, was, one, we, thought, wouldn't, restock, as, although, both, his, sons, are, on, the, farm, neither, are, interested, in, cows, one, has, horses, and, the, other, has, everything, else, from, turkeys, dogs, wallabies, monkeys, pheasants, etc, a, real, menagerie, daddy, g, is, 66, and, couldn't, decide, weather, to, get, more, cows, or, not, it, was, a, bit, of, dad, says, yes, sons, say, no, anyway, dad, won, to, begin, with, i, was, on, the, sons, side, but, when, he, came, in, beaming, and, laughing, and, full, of, joy, how, could, you, disagree, with, him, before, they, got, fmd, he, had, called, into, the, practise, and, was, having, a, coffee, and, was, very, upset, his, friend, had, phoned, him, that, morning, to, say, he, had, fmd, mr, g, just, broke, down, and, sobbed, it, was, one, of, my, worst, experiences, i, found, it, so, hard, not, to, join, him, but, to, be, strong, and, console, him, for, him, of, the, old, gentlemen, showed, the, depth, of, feeling, and, despair, that, was, around, i, have, a, lump, now, remembering, it, anyway, in, comparison, if, getting, a, few, cows, to, milk, can, make, such, a, big, difference, and, be, so, happy, so, what, thursday, 9th, may, went, to, a, meeting, in, preston, with, cl, a, vet, from, brampton, on, the, marsh, report, which, is, regarding, vets, the, privilege, to, dispense, drugs, anyway, firstly, we, got, lost, very, lost, and, then, on, arriving, at, the, meeting, eventually, it, was, all, doom, gloom, and, depressing, just, when, you, thought, things, were, getting, on, tract, bam, more, changes, more, paperwork, we, will, have, to, wait, and, see, just, how, it, effects, us, but, effect, us, it, will, friday, 10th, may, i, had, a, half, day, off, today, and, did, fun, things, like, washing, shopping, and, sorting, bits, and, pieces, but, i, couldn't, be, a, housewife, all, the, time, i, ended, up, leaving, the, cooking, and, washing, and, took, the, dog, out, instead, much, more, fun, saturday, 11th, may, took, daughter, out, to, the, young, farmers, field, day, it, was, brill, i, was, only, going, to, stay, an, hour, anyway, i, stayed, all, day, everyone, was, there, some, i, hadn't, seen, for, ages, i, had, only, spoke, to, them, and, some, new, faces, it, was, great, to, see, them, all, together, i, do, feel, farmers, and, their, families, are, very, special, people, they, have, a, wonderful, sense, of, fun, they, are, very, solid, they, are, very, close, mind, when, you, talk, to, them, you, find, they, are, all, related, they, are, also, very, proud, of, what, they, do, its, sad, the, public, do, not, see, them, this, way, gone, are, the, days, when, the, farmer, was, the, hero, who, worked, all, hours, to, feed, the, nation, well, it, was, a, wonderful, day, week, beginning, monday, 13th, may, monday, very, busy, milk, recorded, this, afternoon, it, was, good, fun, they, are, preparing, for, their, party, on, saturday, night, it, is, a, fancy, dress, party, me, and, husband, are, going, but, i, can't, say, what, as, yet, j, mentioned, that, a, friend, of, theirs, was, still, not, speaking, to, them, because, j, never, lost, his, cows, and, yet, j, said, he, had, tries, to, explain, how, hard, it, was, for, them, waiting, his, friend, had, accepted, the, invite, to, the, party, so, here’s, hopefully, to, friendship, it, show's, how, feelings, can, so, easily, run, away, and, be, blown, into, something, very, silly, we, are, all, on, the, same, side, after, all, i, see, a, lot, of, changes, in, a, lot, of, people, either, bitterness, resentment, jealousy, and, emotionally, drained, in, the, whole, situation, tuesday, 14th, may, early, morning, milk, recording, got, my, outfit, sorted, for, the, fancy, dress, party, on, saturday, me, and, friend, went, to, try, it, on, it, was, good, fun, wednesday, 15th, may, i, have, done, tons, of, backwards, and, forwarding, today, so, i've, been, hearing, about, the, inquiry, a, bit, today, i, have, decided, i, am, going, to, the, one, in, carlisle, out, of, interest, and, curiosity, i, still, feel, what, is, it, all, for, so, i, may, find, out, at, the, meeting, i, am, still, waiting, for, the, day, fmd, is, not, mentioned, or, i, have, some, dealing, regarding, it, thursday, 16th, may, i, spoke, to, a, young, couple, who, farm, and, they, were, enquiring, about, the, changes, in, buying, drugs, it, caught, me, off, guard, as, we, knew, it, would, happen, but, not, when, i, arranged, to, meet, with, them, and, chat, to, see, what, they, wanted, and, i, think, i, will, go, from, there, people, are, farming, in, different, ways, than, they, used, to, pre, fmd, weather, it, is, a, result, of, fmd, or, not, i, don't, know, but, there, are, going, to, be, a, lot, of, changes, heading, our, way, friday, 17th, may, accountant, day, today, what, a, joy, no, he, is, brilliant, he, has, helped, so, much, over, the, years, and, last, year, he, was, brilliant, he, did, have, one, consolation, we, wouldn't, have, to, pay, too, much, tax, this, year, anyway, spoke, to, a, rep, in, the, afternoon, we, have, had, all, the, usual, offers, that, we, get, every, year, but, this, year, they, look, good, as, if, we, buy, more, this, year, than, last, year, we, can, get, more, off, that, should, be, easy, saturday, 18th, may, party, night, i, am, cruella, deville, and, husband, is, bob, the, builder, it, was, great, seeing, people, we, hadn't, seen, for, ages, if, and, when, you, could, recognise, them, it, was, a, really, good, do, we, met, a, client, of, ours, and, she, is, very, anti, everything, re, fmd, i, feel, she, is, really, suffering, and, very, bitter, she, was, little, bo, peep, who, had, lost, her, sheep, and, didn't, know, where, to, find, them, but, mr, blair, can, she, preached, all, night, to, anyone, she, could, i, feel, sorry, for, her, as, people, were, avoiding, her, sad, sunday, 19th, may, recovered, week, beginning, monday, 20th, may, 02, monday, a, new, cattle, fertility, programme, has, now, become, available, to, vets, and, farmers, two, of, the, people, who, work, came, along, to, see, us, and, discuss, the, advantages, we, already, had, a, few, farmers, keen, in, having, the, program, installed, we, discussed, the, program, later, with, a, few, farmers, and, they, were, very, keen, recognising, that, they, are, going, to, need, a, program, like, this, that, can, help, them, keep, a, tighter, control, on, their, herds, fertility, and, health, which, would, enable, them, to, remain, in, business, as, most, of, them, are, realising, they, are, now, running, a, company, not, a, family, concern, so, it’s, quite, exciting, another, step, forward, hopefully, tuesday, 21st, may, very, busy, today, everyone, stretched, it, will, make, life, so, much, easier, when, our, new, vet, anne, starts, next, week, i, got, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, and, also, managed, to, catch, up, on, some, others, bits, that, needed, done, even, got, all, the, soa, defra, paperwork, sorted, miracle, wednesday, 22nd, may, went, to, see, two, of, our, farmers, today, to, discuss, the, interherd, cattle, health, and, fertility, computer, program, it, was, good, to, chat, a, listen, to, their, plans, hopes, and, dreams, and, their, concerns, a, lot, of, farmers, are, still, very, unsure, of, the, future, and, quite, honestly, are, keeping, their, options, open, definitely, gave, me, some, pause, for, thought, and, a, few, concerns, thursday, 23rd, may, quiet, day, today, mr, w, one, of, our, farmers, came, today, and, we, had, a, chat, he, was, also, worried, about, the, future, i, hope, some, good, positive, news, comes, soon, friday, 24th, may, friend, is, having, a, few, weeks, off, as, our, new, vet, is, starting, on, monday, she, came, to, us, 6, months, 10, years, ago, and, she, has, helped, us, out, ever, since, and, so, during, fmd, she, offered, to, help, it, was, great, to, have, her, and, she, worked, all, hours, as, there, was, only, her, and, husband, for, 5, months, so, she, is, having, some, well, deserved, time, off, and, will, come, back, part, time, when, we, need, her, i'll, miss, her, but, she, says, she's, a, lot, of, housework, to, catch, up, on, saturday, 25th, and, sunday, 26th, may, my, sister, and, niece, came, to, stay, for, the, weekend, we, had, a, nice, time, just, pottering, here, and, there, week, beginning, monday, 27h, may, monday, new, vet, started, she, was, very, nervous, but, very, keen, she, had, spent, 10, months, working, for, defra, and, was, relieved, to, be, finished, with, it, she, had, mainly, been, involved, with, re, stocking, anyway, she, managed, very, well, and, hopefully, will, settle, well, tuesday, 28th, may, we, booked, a, holiday, today, our, 1st, holiday, for, about, 2.5, years, so, we, are, all, very, excited, we, are, going, on, a, barge, near, chester, so, hopefully, the, weather, will, be, good, it, will, be, nice, to, go, away, together, especially, after, last, year, i, think, we, all, need, it, you, do, get, used, to, staying, at, home, but, with, all, the, trouble, and, upset, last, year, it, will, be, nice, can't, wait, wednesday, 29th, may, had, a, lovely, day, ended, up, doing, lots, of, visiting, around, the, farms, dropping, drugs, off, and, seeing, another, farm, regarding, the, interherd, program, i, went, to, a, large, dairy, farm, and, they, are, a, young, couple, who, are, keen, and, enthusiastic, about, their, future, so, it, was, very, positive, and, encouraging, it, does, give, you, a, lift, and, helps, put, things, back, on, track, thursday, 30th, may, we, had, a, farmers, coffee, morning, not, planned, they, appeared, at, once, so, it, was, quite, nice, its, quite, interesting, when, you, hear, them, together, there, were, two, elderly, and, one, younger, one, and, their, opinions, hopes, thoughts, and, experiences, were, very, different, friday, 31st, may, another, mega, paperwork, day, exciting, played, in, the, garden, this, afternoon, and, walked, the, dog, saturday, 1st, and, sunday, 2nd, june, had, a, weekend, off, together, we, went, visiting, and, walking, very, nice, week, beginning, 3rd, june, monday, my, sister, and, her, daughter, came, to, visit, we, went, into, carlisle, but, nothing, very, exciting, the, weather, was, very, disappointing, for, all, the, organised, events, we, went, to, a, couple, and, got, wet, daughter, and, niece, got, some, jubilee, mugs, at, one, of, them, wednesday, i, ended, up, helping, our, new, vet, and, new, nurse, to, operate, so, that, was, good, i, don’t, get, much, chance, to, help, in, the, op, room, these, days, so, i, enjoyed, it, thoroughly, new, vet, is, doing, very, well, she’s, only, been, qualified, 3, years, and, up, to, now, has, not, done, much, small, animal, so, i, was, worried, she, would, not, like, it, but, she, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, thoroughly, and, has, settled, in, really, well, it, seems, like, she, has, been, here, for, ages, thursday, we, had, our, first, work, experience, from, a, school, for, 2, years, she, was, very, interested, in, the, fmd, and, said, they, had, done, a, bit, on, it, at, school, so, i, went, through, a, few, of, the, details, and, we, discussed, the, human, side, which, she, hadn’t, really, been, discussed, at, school, to, finish, i, had, 4, soa, to, do, as, well, such, joy, friday, i, foolishly, decided, to, decorate, the, surgery, and, op, room, you, know, when, you, think, you, have, a, good, idea, then, realise, you, have, bitten, off, more, than, you, can, chew, well, by, sunday, night, i, was, dead, i, got, it, all, done, and, it, did, look, better, as, nothing, had, been, done, last, year, but, boy, was, i, tired, week, beginning, 10th, june, monday, our, new, interherd, disc, arrived, so, i, went, and, installed, it, on, two, farms, they, were, very, keen, to, get, started, so, it's, quite, exciting, they, both, have, young, sons, who, are, keen, to, farm, also, so, that, helps, sometimes, i, fee, if, we, can, just, get, through, this, and, then, other, times, i, feel, what's, the, point, but, down, the, middle, of, the, road, we, have, to, try, and, make, it, work, and, fight, to, make, it, work, tuesday, 11th, june, quite, busy, today, but, daughter, had, her, brace, taken, off, today, so, we, had, two, visits, to, the, hospital, she, looks, different, without, her, brace, now, wednesday, 12th, june, had, a, day, off, today, peaceful, thursday, 13th, june, nmr, came, to, see, us, to, discuss, how, they, can, work, with, us, the, interherd, and, the, farmer, it, was, interesting, and, competitively, priced, so, that, is, now, another, service, we, can, offer, to, our, farmers, which, can, only, help, long, term, i, went, to, see, another, farmer, to, enter, the, interherd, there, is, a, lot, of, interest, we, are, trying, to, maintain, a, close, contact, with, our, farmers, to, enable, us, to, meet, their, needs, as, things, progress, in, the, near, future, there, are, going, to, be, a, lot, of, changes, regarding, the, dispensing, of, drugs, which, could, alter, the, way, we, work, this, should, be, finalised, by, january, 2003, but, until, then, we, are, not, sure, just, how, they, will, affect, us, friday, 14th, saturday, 15th, and, sunday, 16th, june, husband, birthday, so, i, have, organised, a, surprise, weekend, away, for, him, we, had, a, wonderful, time, and, thankfully, the, weather, was, good, week, beginning, 17th, june, monday, very, quiet, almost, like, last, year, but, thankfully, not, for, the, same, reason, they, are, all, busy, silaging, normality, is, returning, but, they, are, still, finding, it, difficult, with, new, herds, not, really, knowing, their, new, cows, yet, or, how, they, react, one, farmer, said, it, was, like, a, new, car, you, have, to, drive, it, a, good, few, miles, before, you, are, at, ease, and, the, seat, is, comfy, well, that’s, one, way, of, putting, it, tuesday, i, went, to, see, mr, j, to, discuss, our, new, interherd, program, a, computer, program, that, they, can, keep, records, of, all, their, herds, records, and, we, can, do, analysis, on, them, it’s, quite, exciting, and, interesting, and, shows, farming, is, heading, to, the, computer, age, and, the, farmers, are, learning, another, new, skill, not, sure, they, are, all, comfy, with, after, i, had, shown, mr, j, the, program, and, how, to, use, it, he, was, keen, but, said, that, for, now, he, would, maybe, go, and, cut, down, a, few, thistles, weds, thursday, very, quiet, did, some, catching, up, on, paperwork, then, went, for, a, walk, and, played, outside, in, the, garden, friday, query, fmd, in, pigs, the, effect, it, had, was, very, strange, part, was, horror, worry, and, another, strange, one, was, of, expecting, it, although, you, did, get, on, with, everything, and, it’s, all, sorting, out, and, normality, is, returning, it’s, as, if, you, are, waiting, for, it, to, appear, again, i, went, back, to, watching, the, news, listening, to, the, radio, waiting, fingers, crossed, sad, day, sat, sun, quiet, weekend, husband, was, working, no, results, on, the, pigs, yet, the, bush, telegraph, is, working, again, we, have, had, quite, a, number, of, worried, farmers, on, the, phone, but, no, results, as, yet, week, beginning, 24th, june, monday, breakthrough, no, fmd, talk, at, all, today, i, suddenly, realised, in, the, evening, all, is, getting, back, to, normal, and, everyone, is, coming, to, terms, with, the, paperwork, farming, does, what, it, always, has, recently, fallen, from, one, disaster, to, another, but, they, are, very, proud, of, their, trade, but, do, now, feel, let, down, by, both, the, government, and, the, public, who, for, whatever, reason, don’t, seem, to, have, the, same, respect, for, farmers, as, they, used, to, but, this, just, may, be, due, to, how, we, all, are, and, work, these, days, tuesday, pigs, given, the, all, clear, everyone, breathes, a, sigh, of, relief, it, has, a, very, chilling, effect, but, again, shows, we, are, still, clear, of, the, disease, for, now, weds, over, the, last, few, days, we, have, had, 6, dairy, herds, with, very, strange, mastitis, husband, has, been, out, to, visit, them, with, a, vet, from, vla, penrith, but, they, as, yet, have, not, established, a, cause, samples, show, nothing, and, usual, treatments, don’t, work, so, it, is, a, case, of, new, herds, new, problems, thursday, day, off, and, friday, sat, sun, had, my, niece, we, had, a, lovely, time, but, very, exhausting, week, beginning, 1st, july, monday, we, have, invested, the, new, interherd, computer, programme, mon, thurs, this, week, i, have, been, out, and, about, visiting, farmers, loading, and, explaining, the, new, programme, some, of, which, i, haven't, been, too, far, over, a, year, it's, good, to, see, them, and, chat, fmd, of, course, is, always, still, at, the, top, of, the, list, followed, by, the, milk, price, and, all, the, regulations, it's, so, amazing, and, sorrowful, to, see, how, deep, the, emotions, run, the, stories, and, feelings, they, have, are, still, very, strong, but, all, are, very, emotional, they, are, very, resilient, but, do, still, have, these, deep, feelings, you, wonder, how, the, effects, will, come, out, but, it, will, take, time, friday, i, did, a, soa, for, the, first, time, in, ages, i, had, to, look, back, as, to, how, to, fill, it, in, they, are, going, to, review, these, shortly, so, watch, this, space, all, the, regulations, are, up, for, review, in, about, november, so, we, will, see, what, they, come, up, with, sunday, we, have, a, vet, student, alison, for, two, weeks, staying, with, us, she, came, to, northumberland, during, fmd, so, was, interested, to, know, what, had, happened, and, where, everything, was, at, the, more, you, go, through, it, the, easier, it, becomes, she, had, been, involved, in, the, culling, and, had, found, it, very, hard, she, did, it, for, 1, month, and, was, glad, to, leave, week, beginning, 8th, july, monday, tuesday, i, went, milk, recording, the, farm, i, go, to, did, not, get, fmd, and, they, were, saying, how, hard, it, had, been, for, them, and, to, some, extent, they, did, have, as, hard, a, time, as, people, with, fmd, just, in, different, ways, they, had, to, do, the, checking, for, longer, the, farmer, said, he, used, to, dread, going, into, the, sheds, in, a, morning, as, he, dreaded, what, he, might, find, also, washing, the, milk, takers, not, being, able, to, visit, friends, and, family, all, the, regulations, re, moving, stock, just, the, not, knowing, they, said, it, put, quite, a, strain, on, them, all, one, of, the, ways, they, coped, was, they, built, a, tennis, court, and, played, a, lot, of, other, games, and, as, a, family, this, brought, them, closer, weds, interherd, day, we, held, a, meeting, today, to, invite, all, the, farmers, interested, in, using, the, programme, the, people, who, wrote, the, programme, came, along, to, talk, to, the, farmers, it, was, very, good, and, the, farmers, seemed, to, enjoy, themselves, they, have, all, found, they, are, needing, this, sort, of, programme, as, with, the, new, herds, they, are, unsure, of, how, their, fertilities, are, thurs, fri, visited, mr, w, and, mr, j, re, interherd, got, a, proper, cup, of, coffee, and, proper, milk, that's, what, i, missed, about, last, year, and, one, of, the, reasons, i, go, to, visit, them, sat, sun, very, busy, small, animal, operated, and, nursed, all, week, end, i, was, shattered, poor, me, week, beginning, 15th, july, monday, visited, farmer, re, interherd, programme, they, are, very, positive, about, the, future, and, have, a, son, who, is, very, keen, i, can, see, a, difference, in, their, attitude, over, the, past, few, months, when, i, first, started, going, they, were, unsure, they, had, done, the, right, thing, and, had, seriously, debated, getting, any, stock, back, if, they, could, cope, with, the, changes, and, the, regulations, and, paperwork, but, as, he, said, he, just, loves, farming, not, that, he, doesn't, know, anything, else, he, just, loves, farming, and, now, they, have, progressed, and, working, together, within, the, family, they, have, a, good, system, and, appear, to, be, enjoying, themselves, the, farm, has, been, in, the, family, for, generations, so, financially, they, can, manage, i, hope, they, make, it, they, are, lovely, people, and, a, real, inspiration, the, report, on, fmd, and, the, recommendations, is, to, be, published, soon, but, from, what, we, have, heard, so, far, it, doesn't, say, anything, we, didn't, already, know, and, the, recommendations, are, a, little, sketchy, to, say, the, least, they, need, a, good, sensible, positive, protocol, for, any, future, outbreak, and, at, present, if, it, all, flared, up, again, tomorrow, it, would, be, the, same, mess, what, have, we, learnt, hopefully, time, will, tell, tuesday, sad, news, today, one, of, our, clients, who, didn't, get, fmd, has, decided, to, give, up, he, is, on, a, tenanted, farm, the, owners, are, not, keen, on, any, expansion, or, even, repairing, old, buildings, to, remain, competitive, he, sees, he, needs, more, cows, but, can't, build, any, more, sheds, so, in, his, words, he, has, decided, that, there, is, maybe, more, to, life, he, is, in, his, mid, forties, so, he, is, going, to, sell, up, and, try, something, new, very, brave, but, sad, i, think, this, will, not, be, the, first, of, our, clients, to, do, this, everyone, asks, about, the, future, and, at, the, moment, nothing, and, nobody, is, certain, can, the, smaller, farmers, keep, up, will, the, bigger, ones, get, bigger, what, new, regulations, and, paperwork, will, be, brought, in, only, time, will, tell, weds, husband, has, been, away, at, the, br, cattle, vet, ass, bcva, committee, meeting, he, has, been, on, the, committee, for, about, 18, months, now, he, enjoys, it, and, it, is, another, feather, in, his, cap, anyway, he, gave, a, talk, on, the, problems, post, fmd, and, on, the, problems, farmers, were, and, had, experienced, he, also, gave, a, talk, on, some, of, the, mastitis, cases, that, had, appeared, in, new, herds, we, have, had, some, very, strange, mastitis, cases, this, year, anyway, there, was, a, competition, for, the, best, talk, and, husband, won, i, was, very, proud, of, him, none, of, the, other, vets, there, had, ever, seen, anything, like, it, but, some, had, found, more, bad, mastitis, in, cows, this, year, so, whether, it’s, the, change, of, area, weather, or, housing, we, shall, see, thursday, i, had, a, visiting, day, today, good, fun, i, went, t, see, the, farmers, who, have, the, interherd, so, i, had, lots, of, coffee, with, proper, milk, yummy, it's, also, interesting, to, hear, all, the, different, stories, and, feelings, hopes, and, worries, there, are, so, many, most, are, ready, for, the, challenge, ahead, but, unfortunately, some, aren't, nobody, knows, how, or, when, things, will, change, but, over, the, next, couple, of, years, they, will, some, good, some, not, so, good, byee, i'm, off, on, my, hols, now, yippee, holiday, week, beginning, 22nd, july, week, beginning, monday, 29th, july, tuesday, back, to, work, the, staff, have, coped, really, well, no, falling, out, no, problems, it's, the, first, time, in, nearly, two, years, we, have, left, them, so, it, was, a, bit, worrying, but, they, are, a, great, bunch, we, are, very, lucky, i, feel, so, relaxed, and, it, was, great, fun, seeing, through, all, my, paperwork, not, i, had, a, bit, of, a, lazy, day, but, good, weds, poor, mr, g, is, having, a, terrible, time, with, defra, when, we, did, his, restocking, tt, test, he, had, a, reactor, so, the, cow, was, slaughtered, but, no, lesions, were, found, the, herd, had, to, be, tested, again, 60, days, later, and, another, reactor, was, found, and, slaughtered, anyway, he, was, due, another, test, in, 60, days, and, this, was, arranged, for, 9.00am, 9.00am, came, and, went, and, at, 10.00am, he, phoned, to, see, what, was, happening, they, had, forgotten, they, could, come, out, at, 1pm, no, good, the, last, two, times, they, had, tested, it, had, taken, 6, hours, to, test, the, cows, and, they, still, needed, milked, which, would, mean, a, very, late, finish, mr, graves, explained, this, and, was, told, not, to, complain, he, had, bought, the, cows, into, the, country, with, tb, and, he, would, have, to, do, it, when, they, said, they, know, how, to, get, people, on, their, side, don't, they, anyway, a, heated, discussion, had, pursued, and, eventually, sense, was, seen, the, test, was, rearranged, for, another, day, at, 9.00am, so, fingers, crossed, thursday, we, got, money, through, today, from, the, fmd, recovery, fund, it, has, been, very, useful, and, enabled, us, to, do, things, we, wouldn't, normally, be, able, to, do, we, had, our, vans, sign, written, we, got, a, laptop, computer, which, had, been, great, for, the, interherd, programme, we, got, pens, and, pads, to, give, out, husband, was, able, to, hold, meetings, with, our, farmers, pre, stocking, to, advise, them, what, to, look, for, etc, so, it, has, been, extremely, useful, it, was, nice, to, be, given, the, money, some, people, say, it, would, have, been, spent, elsewhere, but, it, helped, us, immensely, and, we, feel, we, have, spent, it, wisely, fri, had, a, paperwork, catch, up, day, today, it, has, been, quiet, recently, due, to, holidays, and, harvesting, but, thankfully, not, like, last, year, we, looked, back, again, and, today, last, year, we, had, no, calls, and, today, we, had, four, so, although, quiet, not, that, bad, week, beginning, monday, 5th, august, monday, very, quiet, tuesday, very, quiet, weds, very, quiet, thursday, daughter, got, her, first, job, fri, took, daughter, to, my, sisters, for, the, week, end, sat, quiet, week, end, sun, gardening, going, on, holiday, again, next, week, yippee, sorry, it’s, been, very, quiet, this, week, as, mentioned, before, this, is, usual, as, everyone, is, on, holiday, and, the, farmers, are, harvesting, i, have, caught, up, and, have, been, enjoying, a, few, days, just, poddling, going, out, with, daughter, shopping, food, it’s, nice, to, have, some, catch, up, time, on, thursday, daughter, got, a, job, her, first, proper, job, well, nearly, at, the, travel, inn, at, the, bottom, of, our, road, she, is, so, excited, and, already, planning, what, she, is, going, to, spend, her, hard, earned, cash, on, on, friday, i, took, daughter, to, my, sisters, in, lancashire, for, the, week, end, i, came, back, on, friday, night, and, we, decided, to, meet, up, at, husband, s, mum, and, dad’s, caravan, near, whitby, on, monday, for, a, week, so, another, holiday, i, don’t, know, you, have, one, and, then, another, anyway, it, should, be, good, fun, holiday, week, beginning, monday, 12thth, august, week, beginning, monday, 19thth, august, monday, visited, mr, a, today, to, load, interherd, onto, his, computer, he, has, definitely, decided, to, sell, up, he, is, hoping, by, early, next, year, this, has, all, been, very, sudden, but, his, son, is, no, longer, interested, and, as, mr, a, said, who, can, blame, him, with, all, the, new, regulations, and, paperwork, a, lot, are, finding, it, hard, tuesday, we, had, an, environment, agency, visit, this, morning, to, check, how, and, where, we, dispose, of, our, waste, in, practice, thankfully, we, are, doing, everything, properly, but, this, visit, took, two, and, a, half, hours, and, lots, of, form, filling, in, it, is, they, that, check, these, things, but, the, extent, in, questionable, mr, g, called, in, the, afternoon, he, is, having, problems, with, his, cows, they, keep, going, off, colour, we, have, so, many, new, herds, that, started, of, doing, well, happy, and, settling, in, fine, then, about, 3, 4, months, after, they, arrived, they, start, being, ill, have, mastitis, off, colour, not, eating, not, milking, properly, a, wide, variety, it’s, very, strange, the, vets, don’t, really, know, what’s, happening, we, have, a, few, on, regular, blood, sampling, trying, to, find, any, changes, weds, me, and, husband, went, to, the, accountant, to, see, just, how, bad, financially, we, really, had, done, last, year, and, oh, what, a, surprise, it, was, bad, in, fact, we, nearly, qualified, for, children’s, tax, relief, the, main, thing, is, we, survived, in, a, fashion, hopefully, it, will, be, better, next, year, thursday, i, visited, two, farmers, today, on, the, interherd, they, are, finding, it, brilliant, they, have, both, recently, had, farm, assurance, visits, and, interherd, had, helped, them, enormously, and, helped, them, reach, the, standards, they, both, appreciate, how, much, easier, it, is, for, them, and, less, paperwork, heaven, it’s, so, good, to, find, something, to, help, them, fri, i, have, been, phoning, our, main, drug, company’s, reps, inviting, them, to, our, open, evening, all, very, keen, i, think, they, just, enjoy, the, crack, week, beginning, monday, 26th, august, very, quiet, this, week, on, both, large, and, small, animal, it, must, be, the, last, holiday, rush, before, going, back, to, school, we, managed, to, do, some, catching, up, and, decided, a, four, day, week, would, be, nice, i, did, quite, a, bit, of, playing, on, interherd, so, that, when, i, visited, farmers, about, it, i, knew, what, they, want, to, see, and, where, to, find, it, most, of, them, are, interested, in, the, medicines, book, as, this, keeps, excellent, stock, records, from, when, the, drug, product, is, born, where, it, has, gone, and, batch, numbers, and, expiry, dates, these, are, all, the, information, they, need, to, produce, when, they, get, inspected, and, doing, it, manually, can, be, very, time, consuming, week, beginning, 2nd, september, monday, 2nd, september, irs, 9.30, garst, milk, rec, tuesday, garst, milk, rec, dog, course, weds, daughter, back, to, school, exporting, is, back, thursday, exporting, fri, change, date, of, open, evening, gb, way, now, 15, 10, 02, exporting, sat, off, sister, and, niece, sun, off, monday, every, 2, years, we, are, checked, by, our, radiographer, advisor, to, ensure, everything, is, well, and, we, are, doing, everything, right, they, check, the, x, ray, machine, our, records, and, our, monitoring, records, we, passed, in, the, afternoon, i, went, milk, recording, it, was, very, warm, and, very, flyie, but, good, fun, they, are, thinking, of, getting, a, new, parlour, twice, as, big, as, mr, g, feels, in, the, future, milk, will, have, to, be, produced, by, quantity, not, quality, but, it, is, difficult, and, expensive, decision, to, make, for, him, we, shall, see, tue, early, morning, milk, recording, this, morning, but, i, got, a, lovely, breakfast, with, proper, milk, i, got, to, check, the, large, animal, when, i, got, back, we, also, started, our, new, puppy, training, course, in, the, evening, that, went, very, well, it, is, a, more, 1, to, 1, basis, our, nurse, runs, it, i, go, along, and, help, with, moral, support, it, was, good, fun, but, i, had, a, very, long, day, and, went, to, bed, when, i, got, back, weds, daughter, went, back, to, school, today, i’ll, miss, her, following, me, round, helping, out, and, her, mum, can, you, take, me, we, may, have, some, exporting, of, sheep, on, friday, there, is, a, pedigree, texel, sheep, sale, at, h, h, borderway, it, is, the, first, exporting, we, have, done, in, about, 20, months, as, you, can, guess, the, paper, work, has, tripled, there, has, been, numerous, phone, calls, to, ad, from, defra, trying, to, make, sense, of, it, but, i, must, say, people, up, here, are, not, good, at, clarifying, what, they, have, written, now, there’s, a, surprise, thursday, i, have, spent, the, whole, day, either, reading, new, expert, regulations, or, running, backwards, and, forwards, for, new, paperwork, what, we, have, to, complete, and, what, they, should, bring, well, it, could, be, fun, friday, well, full, really, isn’t, the, word, i, would, use, we, needed, more, paperwork, they, needed, more, paperwork, it, took, most, of, the, day, and, we, only, had, 3, sheep, to, send, draining, the, one, good, thing, was, seeing, everyone, at, the, auction, some, new, faces, and, some, have, gone, week, beginning, 9th, september, monday, t's, 7th, birthday, we, have, another, vet, student, studying, at, the, moment, for, 2, weeks, we, have, had, five, this, year, so, far, and, another, before, christmas, but, she, won't, stay, in, the, house, as, she, is, from, carlisle, it, is, nice, to, have, them, and, it, makes, us, behave, but, i, won't, have, as, many, next, year, they, have, all, been, interested, in, the, fmd, and, some, had, a, chance, to, help, out, which, was, an, eye, opener, for, them, i, spoke, to, student, about, it, all, how, it, affected, everyone, what, happened, and, what, didn't, now, talking, about, almost, a, year, from, the, last, case, i, don't, find, it, as, hard, and, i, think, i, can, hide, how, emotional, it, was, but, at, the, time, i, wasn't, i, was, more, angry, i, feel, now, fmd, or, the, aftermath, has, sadly, become, everyday, life, i, don't, rush, for, news, on, it, or, yearn, information, i, think, because, directly, or, indirectly, we, live, with, it, everyday, it, all, has, really, become, part, of, our, lives, it, is, very, difficult, to, put, into, words, or, explain, i, also, went, to, visit, one, of, my, interherd, farmers, in, lancaster, they, are, very, pleased, with, it, and, are, coping, well, mrs, m, was, crushed, by, the, pet, cow, a, month, ago, and, was, very, lucky, she, had, two, broken, legs, cuts, and, bruises, needless, to, say, the, cow, has, gone, to, greener, pastures, they, are, very, resilient, and, are, planning, for, the, future, and, it, is, nice, to, be, a, part, of, their, planning, i, also, get, proper, milky, coffee, see, so, easy, pleased, milk, recorded, tonight, at, mr, g's, so, early, morning, tomorrow, i'm, still, trying, to, persuade, them, into, interherd, so, finger, crossed, tuesday, early, morning, milk, recording, failed, on, the, interherd, due, to, a, cow, breaking, a, leg, i, have, never, actually, experienced, it, happening, before, i, generally, hear, farmers, needing, a, slaughter, cert, or, a, cow, put, down, to, see, it, and, the, family's, reaction, i, was, humbled, i, think, is, the, word, it, was, an, accident, that, can, happen, but, the, look, on, their, faces, was, such, deep, sorrow, the, father, even, places, his, head, in, his, hands, at, breakfast, we, all, talked, about, it, she, was, only, a, heifer, getting, ready, to, be, served, for, the, let, time, she, was, a, difficult, birth, they, had, all, helped, well, bred, and, she, was, jet, black, with, a, huge, white, spot, on, her, side, so, no, prizes, for, guessing, the, name, but, as, the, farmer, said, you, can't, look, after, them, feed, them, care, for, them, day, in, day, out, without, caring, about, them, or, why, would, you, do, it, in, the, afternoon, i, attended, a, course, on, management, employment, law, customer, service, at, barnard, castle, it, went, on, till, 9, pm, with, dinner, after, so, i, decided, to, stay, over, very, spoilt, good, course, excellent, food, lovely, hotel, wednesday, came, back, from, my, course, leisurely, and, stopped, at, penrith, for, a, bit, of, shopping, very, pleasant, i'm, not, a, good, shopper, but, it, was, nice, i, had, to, get, back, for, 11, am, as, we, were, having, a, new, credit, card, machine, fitted, he, duly, arrived, well, what, an, obnoxious, man, he, was, moaning, because, we, had, a, switchboard, he, had, to, dial, 9, this, was, wrong, that, was, wrong, and, then, was, he, not, going, to, get, offered, a, coffee, to, which, he, was, told, not, without, the, special, word, he, was, a, bit, aghast, and, said, please, i, swear, if, i, had, not, just, come, from, a, course, explaining, customer, service, i, would, have, murdered, him, god, bless, courses, and, of, course, credit, card, machine, men, in, the, afternoon, i, was, visited, by, the, rspca, advertising, company, did, we, want, an, advert, in, their, leaflet, anyway, it, was, 640, for, quarter, of, a, page, for, 2, years, so, i, said, we, couldn't, afford, it, it, suddenly, dropped, to, 410, i, was, a, little, suspect, so, i, got, receptionist, to, quietly, check, if, the, company, were, connected, to, the, rspca, anyway, while, i, was, waiting, i, said, it, was, still, a, little, bit, more, than, we, could, afford, what, with, fmd, see, it, is, useful, and, true, he, then, said, he, could, do, it, for, 210, by, which, time, she, had, confirmed, they, were, with, the, rspca, so, i, said, yes, thank, you, bargain, or, rip, off, thursday, i, tried, to, get, my, head, round, isolation, units, and, tried, to, explain, to, a, farmer, about, them, i, think, we, got, there, eventually, when, husband, got, back, i, got, him, to, explain, in, simple, english, and, it, all, made, a, lot, more, sense, they, will, be, handy, for, people, selling, and, buying, stock, but, have, as, always, the, guidelines, must, have, been, written, by, someone, who, has, never, seen, a, farm, or, fields, friday, caught, up, on, paperwork, and, trolleyed, about, busy, doing, not, a, lot, i, think, the, term, is, anyway, it, was, good, week, beginning, 16th, september, this, week, has, been, appraisal, week, for, the, staff, we, didn't, do, any, last, year, so, i, thought, we, had, better, get, back, into, the, swing, of, things, i, quite, enjoy, the, appraisals, it's, a, great, opportunity, to, have, a, real, good, sort, out, get, new, ideas, and, try, and, recognise, any, potential, problems, we, started, doing, appraisals, at, bout, 4, years, ago, and, to, start, off, with, everyone, was, petrified, and, worried, but, it, was, nice, to, see, them, actually, excited, and, enjoyed, it, it, is, quite, time, consuming, but, very, worthwhile, so, not, much, out, and, about, this, week, week, beginning, 23rd, september, monday, another, suspect, case, the, main, difference, about, this, was, as, with, other, ones, i, felt, cold, sick, scared, this, one, was, better, i, felt, it, was, not, going, to, be, positive, whether, it's, a, case, of, there, have, been, a, few, now, not, positive, and, this, is, just, another, one, or, confident, that, it, no, way, could, be, positive, i, definitely, wasn't, as, worried, i, don't, know, if, that, is, being, blasé, can't, spell, sorry, but, definitely, different, tuesday, just, nicely, busy, today, just, enough, to, keep, everyone, busy, husband, and, other, vet, are, away, this, week, so, that, just, leaves, new, vet, and, other, vet, so, it, was, a, little, worrying, if, it, got, busy, it, was, the, last, of, our, dog, training, courses, tonight, they, all, passed, their, tests, well, and, were, very, pleased, with, the, progress, they, had, made, it, was, the, first, 4, week, course, we, had, run, and, feedback, was, very, positive, our, head, nurse, had, put, in, an, awful, lot, of, work, fir, it, so, i, was, very, pleased, for, her, as, well, the, next, one, is, planned, for, november, weds, experts, are, going, to, start, again, at, h, h, tomorrow, and, friday, it, will, be, the, first, ones, we, have, done, for, about, 18, months, surprisingly, the, paperwork, for, our, side, has, not, changed, much, but, the, irish, paperwork, is, horrendous, anyway, after, several, phone, calls, to, derfa, and, dard, and, various, farmers, who, are, wishing, to, sell, at, the, sale, i, think, we, have, it, sorted, we, will, see, tomorrow, thursday, and, friday, i've, put, these, into, one, as, that, is, how, it, felt, after, being, so, confident, that, we, had, everything, in, place, to, be, able, to, export, the, sheep, first, thing, thursday, morning, dard, like, irish, defra, changed, the, regulations, and, paperwork, such, joy, as, you, can, imagine, this, sent, everyone, in, a, state, of, frenzy, and, another, buzby, full, of, phone, calls, we, didn't, have, the, paperwork, sorted, when, people, had, bought, sheep, and, were, wanting, to, leave, now, some, tempers, are, reaching, fever, pitch, well, we, did, manage, to, export, them, away, on, thursday, night, 3, hours, late, so, they, had, to, book, different, ferries, all, done, and, dusted, by, friday, we, were, busy, congratulating, ourselves, on, achieving, the, impossible, and, how, we, all, had, worked, hard, to, accomplish, it, and, now, had, several, more, names, on, our, christmas, card, list, yes, you, guessed, we, had, a, phone, call, from, well, let, me, say, one, not, happy, chappy, after, having, no, sleep, catching, a, late, ferry, waiting, for, the, paperwork, to, arrive, at, larne, port, all, the, sheep, were, impounded, dard, had, added, one, more, form, to, their, list, of, requirements, and, had, forgotten, to, send, them, through, or, mention, them, hours, of, phone, calls, and, faxing, later, i, am, very, pleased, to, say, that, the, sheep, were, released, and, free, to, go, week, beginning, 7th, october, monday, 7th, october, i, made, some, trial, arrangements, for, our, open, evening, next, tuesday, all’s, ready, now, they, are, a, good, night, out, and, we, all, enjoy, it, we, haven’t, had, one, for, a, few, years, so, it, should, be, good, tuesday, for, a, while, now, we’ve, been, wondering, if, the, practice, should, invest, in, a, house, for, an, assistant, we, have, had, a, response, to, the, advert, for, our, new, vet, so, we, thought, we, would, go, house, hunting, anyway, it, wasn’t, as, much, fun, as, i, first, thought, to, start, with, obviously, they, are, quite, a, price, and, it, really, isn’t, that, easy, so, we, looked, at, one, cardboard, box, for, 70,000, and, apparently, it, went, for, 82k, frightening, well, we, can, keep, on, looking, we, have, a, vet, coming, for, an, interview, on, saturday, so, fingers, crossed, i’m, off, tomorrow, and, away, at, bvna, congress, over, the, weekend, so, i’m, looking, forward, to, that, week, beginning, 14th, october, monday, 14th, october, we, had, a, really, good, time, at, the, bvna, british, veterinary, nurse, assistant, congress, we, did, loads, of, lectures, a, learned, a, few, new, things, got, loads, of, freebies, from, the, trade, stands, and, ordered, a, new, vaporiser, for, the, anaesthetic, machine, which, uses, less, isoflo, oxygen, we, also, had, a, good, halloween, ball, stayed, up, too, late, we, got, back, on, sunday, evening, after, 3, days, of, congress, and, i, was, just, settling, down, and, filling, in, husband, and, daughter, on, what, we, had, done, when, another, vet, came, in, wanting, a, hand, with, a, caesarean, on, a, dog, ah, well, nothing, like, getting, back, into, it, today, anyway, feeling, very, tired, we, had, to, start, getting, ready, for, open, evening, tomorrow, night, for, the, farmers, so, there, was, a, lot, of, sorting, out, and, tidying, up, to, do, as, we, open, the, house, up, as, well, we, haven’t, had, one, for, a, couple, of, years, so, it, was, quite, exciting, i, really, enjoy, them, it’s, great, to, have, the, farmers, round, it’s, mainly, a, nosh, and, natter, night, but, this, year, some, of, the, drug, companies, paid, for, it, they, have, their, stands, in, various, parts, of, the, house, and, surgery, and, normally, everyone, has, a, good, time, tuesday, open, evening, day, very, busy, tidying, up, and, moving, things, around, everyone, helped, it’s, good, the, staff, are, so, excited, about, it, as, well, they, have, all, mucked, in, and, as, usual, did, us, proud, the, evening, itself, was, brilliant, it, was, so, nice, to, see, them, all, enjoying, themselves, and, there, is, nothing, farmers, like, better, than, a, good, natter, food, and, beer, quite, a, few, said, they, had, missed, the, open, evening, last, year, due, to, fmd, as, far, as, pr, goes, definitely, worth, it, wednesday, just, clearing, up, and, sorting, out, all, the, staff, said, they, had, had, good, feedback, so, well, done, to, everyone, thursday, back, to, it, now, got, new, interherd, update, so, i, spent, quite, a, lot, of, the, day, seeing, what, new, buttons, it, had, it’s, very, clever, interherd, is, sold, by, nmr, now, and, they, are, helping, us, sell, it, to, the, farmers, whose, life, and, paperwork, hope, to, make, easier, the, man, in, charge, at, nmr, is, coming, to, see, us, next, week, to, explain, how, the, milk, recording, side, all, ties, in, between, nmr, and, interherd, friday, today, was, one, of, those, when, you, rush, round, all, day, but, you, feel, unsure, of, what, you, have, actually, done, very, busy, on, both, large, and, small, side, it’s, very, tiring, but, i, do, prefer, it, when, we’re, busy, week, beginning, 21st, october, monday, 21st, october, monday, to, wednesday, off, thursday, had, a, meeting, with, id, from, nmr, re, interherd, they, are, going, to, give, us, cheap, milk, recording, prices, to, help, promote, nmr, and, interherd, they, have, also, released, a, version, of, interherd, for, farmers, and, we, were, given, the, first, one, in, the, country, to, trial, and, see, what, they, thought, it, was, very, encouraging, as, nmr, in, the, past, years, have, gained, themselves, a, slightly, unpopular, feel, especially, in, cumbria, but, they, now, seem, to, see, this, and, are, trying, very, hard, and, are, committed, to, improving, it, they, did, a, survey, and, now, with, area, herd, size, etc, the, majority, of, dairy, herds, are, in, cumbria, even, post, fmd, so, fingers, crossed, friday, a, good, day, today, husband, was, away, at, a, bcva, council, meeting, br, cattle, vets, ass, and, normally, it, goes, mad, don’t, know, why, anyway, it, didn’t, today, everyone, was, busy, but, not, madly, the, large, animal, side, is, very, up, and, down, at, present, but, it, is, now, tt, and, blood, testing, season, there, are, quite, a, lot, of, restocked, herds, to, do, as, they, are, having, to, be, done, every, year, as, opposed, to, 4, yearly, we, also, have, to, test, everything, it, is, very, time, consuming, and, if, they, have, a, tt, test, then, it, is, a, two, day, job, so, for, both, the, farmer, and, us, it, is, two, days, of, the, week, when, you, can’t, do, anything, else, week, beginning, 28th, october, monday, 28th, october, we, have, been, asked, by, newton, rigg, college, if, we, would, be, interested, in, teaching, the, animal, care, courses, at, the, college, so, me, and, vicky, went, along, it, was, quite, interesting, and, we, thought, if, we, could, do, it, together, it, would, work, so, we, said, we, would, think, about, it, and, let, them, know, went, milk, recording, in, the, afternoon, i, do, enjoy, playing, and, the, crack, tuesday, milk, recorded, again, and, discussed, interherd, with, them, so, we, are, going, to, use, them, as, the, pilot, for, the, nmr, interherd, job, so, that, will, be, interesting, regarding, the, newton, rigg, offer, we, won’t, be, able, to, do, it, as, our, part, time, nurse, is, leaving, us, she, has, been, offered, a, place, at, dalston, vets, she, will, be, able, to, train, as, a, vet, nurse, there, as, we, don’t, do, that, in, our, practice, so, that, will, leave, us, short, staffed, it, is, sad, but, everything, happens, for, a, reason, so, we, are, now, vet, and, nurse, hunting, so, more, advertising, and, interviewing, weds, we, are, sponsoring, a, class, at, the, northern, expo, holstein, friesian, shows, we, have, a, stand, and, a, good, natter, i, took, some, photos, of, a, few, cows, and, some, freebies, it, was, a, good, night, barbara, came, with, me, and, she, presented, the, prize, for, our, class, the, standard, of, cattle, was, amazing, and, it, was, a, really, good, show, thursday, out, of, the, photos, i, took, for, the, northern, expo, i, decided, to, make, a, photo, album, so, i, went, round, a, few, other, farms, photographing, it, was, good, fun, and, nice, to, see, that, we, do, have, some, very, good, stock, friday, got, a, phone, call, today, from, my, sister, she, has, sold, her, house, in, lancaster, and, is, moving, up, near, us, so, that’s, very, exciting, otherwise, a, quiet, day, today, week, beginning, 4th, november, monday, 4th, november, i, went, to, show, mr, j, the, new, interherd, farmers, version, he, was, very, interested, and, thought, it, would, save, a, lot, of, paperwork, and, time, they, all, say, that, the, paperwork, since, fmd, has, increased, immensely, along, with, the, regulations, tuesday, we, have, decided, to, have, a, tv, in, the, waiting, room, to, advertise, products, services, staff, etc, the, man, from, channel, 6, came, and, took, information, so, it, should, arrive, next, week, so, it, will, be, interesting, to, see, how, it, works, weds, we, went, to, the, bank, today, to, see, the, financial, advisor, as, this, is, a, free, service, and, very, useful, we, have, decided, to, buy, a, house, for, my, sister, to, live, in, when, she, moves, up, and, it, will, be, an, investment, as, well, a, bit, of, security, just, in, case, as, last, year, we, discovered, just, how, quick, things, can, change, we, went, for, just, over, 3, months, with, not, a, lot, of, money, coming, in, and, still, wages, to, pay, so, we, are, now, house, hunting, week, beginning, 11th, november, monday, 11th, november, one, of, our, vets, has, recently, started, her, dbr, dip, in, bovine, reproduction, course, at, liverpool, as, part, of, her, studies, she, is, looking, at, the, cows, milk, quality, pre, and, post, calving, to, see, if, any, effects, are, relevant, to, their, overall, performance, and, milk, production, and, health, so, we, collect, milk, samples, from, certain, cows, twice, a, week, over, the, period, of, lactation, and, she, is, going, to, test, them, so, watch, this, space, we, have, been, very, lucky, with, another, vet, her, enthusiasm, is, boundless, and, she, has, become, a, very, important, member, of, our, team, i, have, persuaded, mr, j, of, b, farm, to, milk, record, with, us, so, that's, more, early, morning, jaunts, the, interherd, and, nmr, trial, is, nearly, ready, so, hopefully, by, middle, of, december, everything, should, be, set, up, and, running, hopefully, tuesday, two, farmers, are, milk, reading, today, so, i, had, a, nice, little, trolly, about, i, treated, myself, to, some, of, mr, r's, ice, cream, very, nice, well, you, have, to, support, them, their, new, shop, on, the, farm, is, doing, very, well, i, loaded, my, first, farmer, version, interherd, onto, mr, w's, computer, he, is, very, impressed, and, very, keen, and, thankfully, it, all, worked, well, wednesday, we, have, computer, bugs, not, good, so, i, have, spent, most, of, the, day, on, the, phone, talking, to, the, debugging, man, thursday, still, got, bugs, we've, had, to, run, a, bug, fixer, disc, through, all, seven, computers, it, takes, ages, pee'd, off, fed, up, going, back, to, pen, and, paper, friday, i, must, have, sounded, fed, up, as, the, lovely, little, man, came, to, fix, all, the, computers, he, had, to, use, 3, different, discs, due, to, all, the, different, bugs, had, a, meeting, to, discuss, the, nmr, milk, recording, and, we, have, quite, a, lot, of, farmers, interested, mainly, because, we, have, got, a, good, price, for, nmr, so, fingers, crossed, the, bugs, are, fixed, yipeee, week, beginning, 18th, november, monday, 18th, november, due, to, our, junior, nurse, leaving, i, have, been, interviewing, all, week, we, have, had, a, lot, of, enquiries, i, decided, to, invite, any, possibles, to, come, and, play, for, the, morning, to, see, what, they, thought, and, how, they, got, on, with, the, staff, there, is, one, that, has, potential, and, sounds, very, nice, but, she, can't, make, it, until, next, monday, there, was, one, that, wrote, a, really, good, letter, but, when, she, came, in, well, she, was, sweet, but, not, really, suitable, on, friday, nurse, left, we, had, a, little, party, i, hope, she, copes, okay, she, bought, me, a, lovely, cow, ornament, to, say, thank, you, it, was, lovely, week, beginning, 25th, november, monday, 25th, november, ellen, came, for, her, interview, very, good, she, is, keen, had, experience, happy, with, the, hours, so, she, is, coming, back, tomorrow, afternoon, for, a, play, we, all, went, out, for, our, vet, who, is, leaving, on, friday, to, be, a, chalet, maid, in, a, french, ski, resort, till, april, it, will, be, very, sad, to, see, her, leave, unfortunately, still, no, joy, on, the, new, vet, front, but, we, are, going, to, leave, it, till, the, new, year, and, try, then, other, vet, is, going, to, cover, but, unfortunately, it, means, husband, s, on, duty, more, it's, a, bit, reminiscent, of, fmd, but, we'll, manage, tuesday, wednesday, feeling, very, sorry, for, myself, got, a, bad, cold, i, got, sent, to, my, room, because, everyone, was, fed, up, of, me, sneezing, all, over, them, honestly, i, was, only, shanning, thursday, much, better, today, i, sorted, a, whole, load, of, interherd, data, out, and, had, a, good, play, with, it, heard, about, nestle's, cancelling, contracts, next, year, from, one, of, our, farmers, he, felt, a, little, unsure, quite, how, it, would, affect, them, and, that, they, were, being, dealt, another, kick, in, the, teeth, it's, quite, amazing, how, many, i, have, heard, questioning, why, they, went, back, into, farming, we, are, feeling, the, effects, we, didn't, seem, to, be, called, out, as, often, or, they, don't, want, the, cows, treated, as, its, extra, expense, at, the, end, of, fmd, they, said, over, the, next, couple, of, years, there, would, be, changes, in, the, way, farmers, and, how, many, farmers, worked, it's, frightening, to, see, it, actually, starting, to, happen, and, seeing, the, effects, on, our, business, everyone, agrees, the, whole, industry, has, changed, for, the, worst, and, is, not, the, same, and, there, is, no, pleasure, now, after, all, that, a, total, contrast, me, and, daughter, went, christmas, shopping, and, had, a, lovely, time, we, met, husband, after, surgery, and, went, for, a, pizza, lovely, night, friday, everyone's, talking, about, nestle's, now, and, quite, a, few, are, angry, some, aren't, surprised, and, others, just, seem, to, resign, themselves, to, it, we, had, a, lunch, party, for, leaving, vet, today, it, was, good, we, gave, her, pressies, although, she, has, only, been, here, a, few, months, she, will, be, greatly, missed, by, everyone, you, never, know, she, may, come, back, one, day, good, news, i, offered, ellen, the, nurse's, job, and, she's, accepted, i, think, she, will, do, very, well, week, beginning, 2nd, december, monday, 2nd, december, spent, all, morning, trolling, around, the, countryside, collecting, another, vet, s, milk, samples, for, her, dbr, it, was, a, lovely, morning, chatted, to, a, few, farmers, a, lot, were, still, talking, about, nestles, tuesday, had, a, meeting, to, clarify, the, start, of, the, nmr, milk, recording, gave, her, all, the, information, she, needed, to, set, up, the, herds, it's, great, to, be, able, to, offer, the, farmers, a, good, cheaper, deal, staff, xmas, party, it, was, good, everyone, seemed, to, have, a, good, time, wednesday, day, off, shopping, what, joy, thursday, had, an, interherd, disaster, today, i, couldn't, get, it, load, what, normally, takes, 15, minutes, instead, took, 2, and, a, half, hours, anyway, we, succeeded, eventually, they, have, just, bought, some, in, calf, heifers, so, he, was, keen, to, keep, up, to, date, records, and, information, we, only, have, one, more, farmer, to, restock, now, and, then, that's, everyone, it, will, probably, work, out, at, about, 15, drop, in, work, etc, while, waiting, for, interherd, to, load, they, were, telling, me, that, they, had, been, approached, asking, them, if, they, wanted, to, appeal, against, the, amount, of, money, they, had, received, for, the, cattle, they, said, they, wouldn't, as, they, felt, they, had, already, been, overpaid, not, all, farmers, are, money, grabbers, apparently, friday, daughter, starts, her, mock, exams, now, for, the, next, fortnight, i, have, been, waiting, for, the, moods, to, start, but, as, yet, all, is, quiet, long, may, it, last, she, is, very, calm, about, it, and, has, actually, been, revising, quite, hard, she, has, the, ability, all, she, has, to, do, is, concentrate, work, wise, i've, done, not, a, lot, it's, one, of, the, perks, i've, wandered, around, just, playing, doing, nice, jobs, quite, a, change, week, beginning, 9th, december, monday, 9th, december, daughter, s, 16th, birthday, scary, even, worse, she, can, learn, to, drive, next, year, never, mind, enjoy, the, safety, we, went, out, for, lunch, and, did, some, shopping, it, was, good, i, don’t, normally, like, shopping, but, we, both, enjoyed, it, came, back, to, mayhem, a, client, small, animal, had, been, in, complaining, about, his, bill, and, had, caused, a, stink, anyway, i, phoned, him, and, once, we, had, gone, through, everything, he, seemed, happy, hopefully, he, had, either, misunderstood, or, hadn’t, had, things, explained, to, him, although, difficult, it, is, better, people, say, something, rather, than, stewing, over, it, and, making, it, into, something, it’s, not, the, small, animal, does, seem, to, have, more, problems, that, way, than, the, large, animal, i, suppose, the, large, animal, is, also, a, business, but, it, doesn’t, stop, them, caring, i, don’t, think, they, could, do, what, they, do, and, work, the, hours, they, work, if, they, didn’t, care, sometimes, they, get, a, hard, press, but, i, think, it’s, the, few, that, get, the, publicity, unfortunately, i, like, it, when, farmers, phone, to, say, they, have, a, sick, cow, and, we, ask, what, it’s, doing, and, quite, often, the, reply, is, she’s, just, not, herself, need, you, say, anymore, tuesday, i’m, going, out, to, play, milk, recording, with, a, new, person, via, interherd, he, is, one, of, our, clients, he, is, quite, a, character, old, fashioned, and, yet, in, his, thirties, it, was, good, he, is, very, passionate, about, farming, and, its, survival, he, has, a, lot, of, ideas, he, wants, to, try, with, different, cows, he, has, just, bought, some, jerseys, hence, he, wants, to, record, to, see, if, there, are, benefits, we, milked, 60, cows, in, 2, hours, at, my, other, farm, we, milk, 190, in, that, time, it’s, good, to, see, both, ways, weds, early, morning, milk, recording, good, fun, a, lot, more, relaxed, than, my, other, farm, went, to, hairdressers, straight, after, smelling, of, cows, with, pooh, in, my, hair, it’s, a, good, job, i, know, her, well, and, she, didn’t, complain, too, much, the, rest, of, the, day, was, quite, pleasant, a, bit, of, paperwork, and, a, skive, sorry, can’t, spell, to, the, lab, thursday, friday, wow, i, think, we, had, our, christmas, rush, they, should, all, be, shopping, it, has, been, very, busy, i, do, prefer, it, although, a, sit, down, now, and, then, would, be, good, me, and, nurse, had, a, good, time, on, friday, afternoon, i, helped, her, bath, and, groom, a, dog, it, was, so, naughty, nicely, we, were, both, sweating, buckets, and, soaked, to, the, skin, by, the, end, but, we, had, a, good, laugh, week, beginning, 16th, december, monday, 16th, december, with, daughter, s, mock, exams, she, has, needed, runs, to, and, from, school, at, various, times, so, mum’s, taxi, has, been, on, overtime, she, has, been, very, calm, about, it, so, we, shall, see, thursday, was, eventful, as, i, now, have, an, expectant, nurse, and, vet, watch, where, you, sit, unfortunately, there, is, a, worry, for, both, of, them, our, nurse, evening, receptionist, is, worried, she, may, be, losing, hers, and, has, had, several, tests, and, is, obviously, worried, she, is, going, in, for, a, scan, on, tuesday, so, fingers, crossed, vet, is, also, pregnant, they, have, been, trying, for, a, while, but, has, something, with, a, long, name, wrong, with, her, which, causes, her, to, miscarriage, so, she, is, pleased, worried, excited, scared, and, only, 4, weeks, so, no, lambing, for, her, she, is, quite, happy, continuing, with, all, other, work, for, now, i, hope, everything, is, ok, with, them, both, it, can, be, difficult, working, with, animals, and, being, pregnant, but, as, long, as, they, are, careful, they, should, be, ok, week, beginning, 23rd, december, monday, 23rd, december, so, much, for, getting, quiet, for, christmas, we, have, had, our, busiest, time, for, a, few, years, which, is, good, we, are, going, to, try, advertising, in, the, new, year, for, a, new, vet, especially, now, another, vet, is, expecting, it, will, all, depend, how, she, does, we, may, even, need, two, as, even, when, another, vet, is, on, duty, now, husband, has, to, be, on, standby, in, case, of, any, lambings, we, have, a, couple, of, farmers, starting, anytime, milk, recording, tonight, as, well, but, we, now, do, it, with, nmr, well, not, literally, so, i, only, need, record, once, so, not, too, bad, and, worked, in, will, with, xmas, round, the, corner, and, no, mince, pies, made, yet, tuesday, nurse, phoned, they, are, being, positive, at, the, moment, her, hormone, levels, have, increased, and, she, has, not, bled, anymore, it, doesn’t, stop, them, worrying, though, surgery, was, busy, but, we, did, finish, by, 1.30pm, my, sister, and, niece, arrived, all, set, off, we, go, christmas, was, ace, very, relaxing, good, fun, loads, of, pressies, didn’t, have, time, to, eat, too, busy, playing, and, it, was, so, warm, friday, back, to, work, a, very, busy, day, lots, of, calls, and, surgery, appointments, even, some, operations, receptionist, was, off, so, i, was, in, charge, i, enjoyed, it, finding, out, what, everyone, got, for, christmas, week, beginning, 30th, december, monday, 30th, december, busy, day, only, me, and, receptionist, in, thought, it, would, be, quiet, wrong, never, mind, we, coped, tuesday, nurse, has, lost, her, baby, or, is, losing, it, they, can’t, see, anything, on, the, scan, just, an, empty, sac, so, she, is, going, for, a, don’t, know, what, they, call, it, but, you, can, take, some, tablets, that, clear, everything, away, she, is, obviously, so, upset, what, do, you, say, she’s, going, to, drop, her, other, two, off, while, she, goes, in, it, is, so, sad, thursday, 2nd, january, everybody’s, back, again, full, crew, no, one, knowing, what, day, it, is, i, could, get, used, to, the, split, weeks, but, at, the, moment, i, need, it, stuck, to, my, head, quite, busy, as, well, which, is, good, trying, to, arrange, tt, test, but, farmers, are, never, keen, on, them, you, have, to, threaten, them, with, defra, coming, to, do, it, that, works, friday, went, blood, sampling, sheep, for, scrapie, with, husband, all, day, it, was, a, beautiful, day, very, cold, but, we, had, fun, only, we, were, stood, next, to, a, stream, women, torture, cold, air, and, running, water, i, had, to, nip, back, to, the, van, for, various, things, by, the, time, we, finished, i, was, frozen, the, test, was, part, of, the, national, scrapie, plan, which, is, to, sample, sheep, for, scrapie, so, if, or, when, they, find, bse, in, sheep, these, ones, will, or, should, be, okay, as, there, is, a, plan, to, slaughter, the, national, herd, if, bse, is, found, but, as, the, farmer, said, they, have, already, had, human, g, pigs, for, years, as, the, indians, eat, sheep, brains, and, before, the, removal, of, bone, meal, and, very, dubious, scabby, sheep, and, they, have, not, had, a, problem, so, we, will, wait, and, see, week, beginning, 6th, january, 2003, mon, 6th, january, 2003, our, new, nurse, started, today, she, managed, very, well, and, didn’t, seem, too, confused, when, she, went, home, she, has, worked, in, kennels, before, she, is, very, keen, fingers, crossed, another, vet, is, doing, her, dbr, and, for, part, of, this, she, has, to, do, a, study, she, has, decided, to, look, at, progesterone, and, other, levels, in, cows, post, calving, for, 6, weeks, to, see, what, happens, so, we, collect, a, sample, from, each, new, calved, cow, and, split, it, into, 3, smaller, pots, and, freeze, awaiting, testing, in, holland, very, exciting, but, quite, boring, the, results, should, be, interesting, though, hopefully, tuesday, you, forget, all, the, explaining, you, have, to, do, when, somebody, new, starts, so, me, and, nurse, have, written, a, step, by, step, guide, to, c, well, sort, of, it’s, all, the, little, things, we, haven’t, had, a, new, nurse, for, a, while, so, hopefully, the, book, can, be, used, for, other, new, people, it, took, a, bit, of, doing, but, we, were, pleased, with, it, in, the, end, i, spoke, to, mr, g, re, having, interherd, at, the, farm, all, i, have, to, do, now, is, get, round, to, see, him, he, is, very, hard, to, pin, down, but, we’ll, try, weds, new, nurse, liked, her, new, book, she, is, doing, very, well, and, it’s, nice, for, us, too, i, always, find, it, quite, refreshing, when, someone, is, genuinely, enthusiastic, with, us, all, being, close, and, having, their, own, areas, it’s, good, to, show, someone, else, but, can, be, scary, when, you, see, just, how, much, they, all, do, thursday, milk, pot, day, again, today, the, good, thing, is, going, to, pick, up, the, samples, as, you, get, a, natter, so, monday, and, thursday, the, samples, are, collected, split, and, frozen, it’s, quite, time, consuming, and, i’ve, just, realised, i, didn’t, ask, another, vet, how, long, she, was, doing, it, for, friday, we, have, decided, to, try, and, get, the, accounts, up, to, date, to, see, how, things, are, going, bar, not, being, able, to, find, a, vet, so, it’s, one, of, those, jobs, you, always, mean, to, keep, on, top, of, but, never, quite, manage, because, it’s, not, much, fun, interruptions, queries, and, assistance, were, very, welcome, but, i, got, a, good, start, week, beginning, 13th, january, monday, 13th, jan, a, has, started, working, with, us, again, just, two, days, a, week, this, will, help, a, lot, and, help, take, the, pressure, off, for, surgery, times, etc, i, got, to, spend, the, day, helping, with, tt, testing, it, was, good, fun, and, it, stayed, fine, it, was, a, good, day, tuesday, i, had, a, milk, recording, day, today, 3, in, total, we, have, started, using, nmr, now, so, it, was, all, new, paperwork, etc, this, is, going, to, be, cheaper, for, the, farmers, and, works, with, the, interherd, programme, anyway, it, all, went, well, and, everybody’s, samples, got, away, weds, milk, recorded, again, at, one, of, the, three, farms, first, thing, everytime, i, go, he, has, a, new, plan, as, to, how, to, make, some, money, this, month, it, is, he, is, going, to, produce, a, new, breed, of, cow, a, jersey, x, mri, so, we, will, see, how, that, goes, thursday, and, friday, just, catching, up, on, paperwork, me, and, nurse, did, some, training, with, the, new, nurse, she, is, settling, in, really, well, and, very, keen, week, beginning, 20th, january, monday, 20th, january, weds, decorated, our, bedroom, it, looks, brill, it, was, in, desperate, need, of, it, i, like, decorating, it’s, good, and, messy, thursday, i, went, on, my, brucellosis, testing, training, course, at, the, vlc, it, was, good, fun, this, means, that, after, i, have, now, tested, 150, cattle, i, get, a, licence, which, will, enable, me, to, blood, test, this, in, turn, will, hopefully, free, up, a, vet, it, will, also, give, defra, a, bank, of, blood, tester, for, any, future, outbreak, crafty, they, used, to, charge, about, 800, for, this, course, miraculously, it’s, now, free, clever, friday, we, have, had, a, reply, to, our, advert, hoorah, well, actually, two, they, are, both, foreign, one, is, in, germany, and, the, other, s, africa, so, we, are, waiting, for, their, cvs, fingers, crossed, defra, have, now, changed, the, 20, day, standstill, to, 6, days, the, general, opinion, seemed, to, be, so, it, would, be, interesting, to, actually, find, out, if, and, how, well, all, the, regulations, are, actually, working, not, well, i, feel, would, be, the, answer, week, beginning, 27th, january, mon, weds, very, busy, i, seem, to, have, spent, a, lot, of, it, in, my, car, dropping, off, tooing, and, froing, which, was, nice, but, i, do, lose, touch, with, the, happenings, at, the, surgery, and, on, tuesday, things, had, obviously, got, fraught, so, i, sorted, those, out, and, smoothed, the, creases, we, are, very, lucky, to, have, such, dedicated, staff, due, to, vet, shortage, and, another, vet, s, pregnancy, it, does, add, extra, pressure, to, everyone, none, of, the, incidents, were, very, serious, and, easily, sorted, thursday, i, went, with, my, sister, to, take, niece, to, the, hospital, as, since, she, was, born, she, has, had, a, lump, on, the, side, of, her, head, above, her, eye, so, they, xrayed, it, that, was, fun, persuading, her, to, lie, still, i, stayed, overnight, and, came, back, friday, week, beginning, 3rd, february, monday, 3rd, feb, i, did, my, first, blood, sample, on, a, live, cow, today, as, it, was, an, abortion, enquiry, and, due, to, another, vet, s, pregnancy, she, is, not, doing, them, ad, i, need, the, practice, it, was, good, fun, and, i, hit, the, 2nd, time, so, i, was, very, pleased, only, another, 145, to, go, before, i, get, my, licence, tuesday, i, completed, the, accounts, today, to, go, to, the, accountants, it, was, great, fun, i, hope, they, come, up, with, good, news, but, the, future, is, worrying, a, backlash, from, the, farmers, not, being, confident, weds, i, can’t, remember, if, i, told, you, vet, was, expecting, anyway, she, went, for, her, first, scan, today, and, so, far, so, good, it, is, very, worrying, as, she, has, a, problem, where, she, produces, duff, eggs, and, miscarriages, she, wants, to, carry, on, as, normal, as, possible, for, now, but, no, sheep, or, abortions, etc, i, hop, it, works, this, time, as, this, is, her, 4th, attempt, thursday, and, friday, very, nice, everything, worked, well, no, mad, rushes, time, to, catch, up, we, discussed, reducing, some, of, the, farm, drugs, as, they, are, able, to, buy, the, over, the, internet, with, a, prescription, all, the, laws, and, rules, will, more, than, likely, be, changing, at, the, beginning, of, march, due, to, a, report, done, for, the, govt, regarding, drugs, and, animal, use, it, will, make, a, difference, to, how, we, operate, as, if, they, remove, the, vet, surgeon’s, right, to, prescribe, drugs, i.e, vets, can, only, write, prescriptions, and, not, dispense, drugs, it, could, alter, things, completely, one, way, or, another, if, farmers, require, the, service, they, are, going, to, have, to, pay, for, it, up, to, now, it, has, always, been, that, a, reasonable, mark, up, is, put, on, the, drugs, this, is, normally, 50, and, this, will, keep, professional, fees, down, if, vets, are, not, getting, the, money, made, on, drugs, and, therefore, has, to, put, his, fees, up, although, the, farmer, may, be, buying, his, drugs, cheaper, via, the, internet, will, he, actually, save, that, much, i, wonder, so, anyway, we, have, been, getting, more, and, more, pressure, from, a, number, of, our, farmers, to, compete, with, the, internet, prices, so, we, have, selected, a, few, products, and, it, they, pay, at, the, time, they, can, get, about, 20, off, the, price, so, watch, this, space, and, we, will, see, what, happens, week, beginning, 10th, february, monday, 10th, feb, the, week, to, sum, up, a, blur, with, both, sad, and, very, funny, memories, to, start, receptionist, was, on, holiday, and, it, always, seems, to, happen, as, soon, as, someone, is, off, we, get, very, very, busy, when, everyone, is, in, it, ticks, along, nicely, mostly, i, do, enjoy, it, when, it’s, busy, but, we, worked, 3, 13, hour, days, not, food, but, everyone, worked, really, hard, they, are, excellent, staff, on, a, sad, note, vet, went, for, her, 11, week, scan, on, tuesday, and, the, baby, had, died, she, was, distraught, she, has, a, condition, that, causes, this, and, this, was, her, 4th, miscarriage, it’s, so, sad, i, called, to, see, her, and, she, just, hugged, me, and, cried, what, do, you, say, she, had, to, have, some, tablets, to, clear, away, the, placenta, etc, she, was, gutted, as, this, is, the, longest, she, had, ever, been, pregnant, and, she, thought, she’s, cracked, it, it’s, just, so, sad, my, funny, tale, for, the, week, on, a, completely, different, note, but, helped, immensely, was, other, vet, on, thursday, we, were, all, very, very, busy, and, a, farmer, called, in, i, was, very, behind, they, still, had, ops, to, do, and, this, farmer, settled, herself, down, for, a, big, chat, normally, if, i, say, i, have, a, lot, on, she, departs, but, no, not, today, it, was, obviously, my, turn, vet, came, over, from, the, op, room, and, i, know, it, was, naughty, but, i, wrote, on, a, card, can, i, have, some, help, i.e, to, free, myself, well, instead, of, reading, the, note, quietly, oh, no, she, read, it, out, at, the, top, of, her, voice, and, added, what, do, you, need, help, for, after, i, had, crawled, out, of, the, hole, that, had, opened, up, in, the, earth, to, swallow, me, i, pointed, to, the, message, book, to, try, and, hide, my, predicament, while, she, said, again, loudly, so, what, do, you, want, help, for, well, i, gave, up, and, decided, to, just, fall, into, the, hole, got, rid, of, vet, back, to, the, op, room, and, continued, alone, with, my, predicament, after, the, farmer, had, gone, who, thankfully, seemed, oblivious, to, what, had, happened, i, went, in, search, of, vet, to, kill, her, anyway, it, cheered, us, all, up, they, do, say, laughter, is, the, best, medicine, but, i, can, think, of, better, ways, week, beginning, 17th, february, monday, 17th, feb, vet, who, lost, baby, came, back, to, work, she, is, very, upset, and, weepy, everyone, has, been, lovely, with, her, hopefully, it, is, just, time, and, tlc, we, are, very, busy, again, and, have, had, an, enquiry, from, a, farmer, who, is, thinking, of, changing, vets, which, is, really, good, news, that, is, three, new, farmers, in, total, now, if, only, we, had, enough, vets, four, practices, around, carlisle, have, advertised, recently, and, none, of, the, positions, have, been, filled, it’s, quite, worrying, tuesday, i, took, vet, who, lost, baby, home, again, today, she, is, not, well, and, in, a, lot, of, pain, so, she’s, gone, back, to, bed, i, hope, she’s, feeling, better, soon, usual, day, otherwise, weds, vet, is, a, lot, better, today, apparently, they, think, it, may, be, the, cocodamol, she, was, taking, she, was, a, lot, happier, a, little, drained, but, ok, mr, w, came, in, today, his, cows, are, arriving, on, friday, hopefully, this, will, be, our, last, farm, to, restock, he, has, had, a, lot, of, alterations, done, to, the, farm, and, a, new, parlour, so, it’s, quite, exciting, thursday, we, did, some, sheep, exports, for, slaughter, from, longtown, today, the, first, of, that, sort, of, thing, since, fmd, it, was, of, course, a, bit, of, a, faf, as, they, now, have, to, be, retagged, and, checked, so, it, takes, a, little, longer, in, the, afternoon, i, had, a, meeting, with, sr, from, university, of, reading, she, is, planning, to, do, research, regarding, the, interherd, programme, and, she, had, picked, 3, vet, practices, to, see, how, the, programme, helps, the, vets, and, the, farmers, work, better, together, and, the, improvements, it, makes, to, the, farmers, record, keeping, so, she, is, going, to, meet, 3, of, our, farmers, who, use, interherd, and, interview, them, and, give, them, free, training, so, that, should, please, them, fri, day, off, me, and, daughter, went, to, newcastle, shopping, i’m, not, a, good, shopper, but, i, did, behave, and, we, had, a, good, day, mr, w’s, cows, arrived, all, fit, and, healthy, so, that, is, us, complete, now, ass, we, were, if, not, better, sad, news, though, we, heard, one, of, our, farmers, dropped, down, dead, suddenly, it, was, very, sad, as, we, had, seen, him, in, the, morning, and, he, was, his, normal, self, so, it, was, quite, a, shock, his, family, must, be, devastated, mind, if, there’s, a, good, way, to, go, that’s, it, week, beginning, 24th, february, monday, 24th, feb, another, vet, a, lot, better, today, almost, back, to, her, normal, cheery, self, she, is, a, lot, more, positive, we, took, the, bull, by, the, horns, so, to, speak, and, reduced, the, prices, of, some, drugs, we, will, have, to, wait, until, the, 10th, march, before, we, find, out, what, the, government, is, going, to, do, regarding, the, selling, of, drugs, but, the, farmers, are, very, pleased, tuesday, i, got, another, phone, call, from, mr, c, and, he, said, he, would, like, to, change, vets, to, us, so, good, news, husband, spoke, to, his, old, vet, and, explained, why, etc, it, is, very, difficult, and, i, think, that, in, the, future, there, may, be, more, changing, of, vets, where, as, in, the, past, it, never, happened, but, even, farmers, appreciate, competition, now, it, again, is, worrying, milk, recorded, at, mr, g, tonight, it’s, always, good, crack, as, they, say, weds, milk, recorded, early, morning, and, then, showed, them, the, interherd, programme, they, are, going, to, try, it, i, think, in, the, afternoon, i, went, with, other, vet, to, vet, a, horse, for, purchase, it, can, be, tricky, sometimes, and, two, pairs, of, eyes, are, better, than, one, as, it, turned, out, the, horse, was, lame, so, we, couldn’t, vet, it, so, we, will, have, to, go, back, another, day, thursday, normal, day, did, some, more, sheep, exports, in, the, afternoon, they, have, a, very, efficient, system, at, longtown, so, it, makes, it, a, lot, easier, fri, i, went, to, farmer, s, funeral, this, morning, it, was, very, sad, i, don’t, like, funerals, well, i, don’t, suppose, anyone, does, but, it, stayed, fine, and, he, had, a, good, send, off, in, the, afternoon, i, got, an, opportunity, to, do, some, more, blood, sampling, just, 15, so, it, was, good, it’s, getting, used, to, handling, everything, and, forgetting, you’re, at, the, end, that, shits, and, kicks, no, broken, limbs, and, i, got, blood, week, beginning, 3rd, march, mon, 3rd, march, i, went, to, help, a, tt, test, in, the, morning, just, taking, numbers, we, now, have, 4, farms, on, restrictions, due, to, tb, reactors, but, up, to, now, on, the, cows, taken, for, further, tests, no, lesions, have, been, fund, we, now, get, to, do, the, repeat, 60, day, test, on, the, farms, now, as, defra, can’t, keep, up, sounds, familiar, we, saw, the, accountant, in, the, afternoon, we, had, sent, 9, months, of, accounts, to, him, as, we, need, to, see, how, the, practice, was, now, doing, anyway, it, was, not, as, bad, as, we, thought, but, the, income, is, down, but, is, slowly, growing, the, main, problem, is, farmers, won’t, call, out, for, sick, cows, now, they, will, leave, it, longer, or, try, to, treat, them, themselves, mainly, due, to, them, watching, their, spending, mr, w, had, a, problem, with, his, interherd, he, needed, to, run, his, extensification, figures, and, they, didn’t, add, up, so, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, trying, to, figure, out, why, i, think, i, know, why, it, was, how, he, set, it, up, initially, so, it, may, need, his, entry, dates, changed, tues, went, tt, testing, again, this, morning, it, was, a, lovely, morning, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, sorting, mr, w’s, problem, out, and, it, worked, he, was, chuffed, the, good, is, i, think, i, now, understand, extensifications, weds, caught, up, on, some, paperwork, in, the, morning, i, helped, new, nurse, with, a, dog, grooming, in, the, afternoon, which, was, fun, she, is, doing, really, well, and, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, we, both, ended, up, soaked, thanks, to, the, dog, but, it, looked, loads, better, when, it, went, home, good, news, we, get, a, new, vet, from, south, africa, starting, 1.4.03, he, worked, over, here, during, fmd, and, met, someone, and, their, relationship, has, lasted, hence, he, wants, a, job, in, carlisle, so, bingo, here, comes, a, holiday, thursday, friday, very, busy, in, the, practice, everyone, kept, going, we, have, a, great, team, and, they, really, come, into, their, own, when, it’s, busy, i, love, the, way, everyone, pulls, together, they, are, very, dedicated, week, beginning, 10th, march, monday, quiet, day, for, a, monday, but, the, weather, has, been, nice, so, they, are, all, out, playing, but, we, had, quite, a, few, lambings, to, do, that’s, one, thing, that, has, changed, since, fmd, prior, to, fmd, we, hardly, used, to, do, any, lambings, for, farmers, but, since, we, now, do, far, more, last, year, we, put, it, down, to, them, having, new, stock, but, it, seems, to, be, the, same, this, year, tuesday, today, is, milk, recording, day, i, have, 3, recordings, today, they, all, need, boxes, and, paperwork, i, don’t, have, to, help, at, any, of, the, milkings, though, which, is, good, as, they, are, quite, a, way, from, each, other, but, a, nice, day, for, a, drive, weds, thurs, fri, the, end, of, our, weeks, seem, to, be, busier, than, the, beginnings, at, the, moment, it, has, been, non, stop, one, disadvantage, when, it, is, so, busy, is, you, don’t, have, the, time, to, chat, as, often, i, took, some, drugs, to, a, farm, our, last, one, to, restock, as, he, was, having, alterations, done, it, was, amazing, to, see, the, transformations, he, had, made, to, the, farm, all, geared, to, one, person, being, able, to, do, more, alone, with, more, cows, interesting, week, beginning, 17th, march, mon, tuesday, i, went, with, another, vet, to, mr, c’s, for, his, tt, and, blood, test, another, vet, did, the, tt, and, i, did, the, blood, as, part, of, my, lay, blood, tester’s, licence, i, needed, to, do, 150, which, i, managed, it, was, good, fun, and, the, weather, was, great, we, had, to, spread, it, over, 2, days, due, to, the, amount, of, cattle, it, was, really, good, practice, for, me, and, i, think, i’ve, cracked, it, now, there, are, talks, about, giving, tt, testing, to, lay, people, but, quite, how, and, when, is, anyone’s, guess, weds, more, blood, testing, today, i’ve, really, cracked, it, now, only, i’ve, discovered, muscles, in, my, arms, i, didn’t, know, i, had, i, enjoy, the, blood, testing, sad, isn’t, it, thursday, i, had, a, morning, with, alco, waste, management, sorting, out, all, the, clinical, waste, regulations, and, they, need, more, detail, of, what, actually, goes, in, our, waste, we, always, provided, a, free, service, to, farmers, for, disposing, of, sharps, and, old, drug, and, empty, drugs, etc, but, we, are, going, to, have, to, start, charging, now, it, is, now, 100, dearer, a, month, than, it, was, fri, me, and, husband, spent, the, morning, looking, at, fees, income, etc, and, seeing, where, we, can, increase, fees, to, help, cover, if, we, lose, the, right, to, dispense, drugs, to, farmers, which, we, still, haven’t, heard, about, to, continue, as, we, are, we, will, have, to, make, the, difference, up, it’s, just, how, week, beginning, 24th, march, monday, doing, the, paperwork, for, a, tt, test, it, was, a, beautiful, day, i, do, enjoy, doing, this, especially, when, the, weather’s, good, and, they, are, very, nice, farmers, i, also, get, to, spend, the, day, with, husband, which, makes, a, change, although, we, work, together, we, don’t, often, get, to, see, much, of, each, other, tuesday, busy, day, spent, most, of, it, making, sure, everything, got, done, and, helping, out, weds, i, went, to, the, careers, convention, at, the, sands, centre, it, was, very, busy, and, we, had, a, lot, of, interest, but, a, long, day, before, going, someone, phoned, to, say, there, was, a, collie, dog, running, around, on, the, roundabout, so, me, and, new, nurse, went, to, see, if, we, could, catch, it, well, it, didn’t, want, caught, but, i, was, really, worried, it, got, onto, the, motorway, so, we, phoned, the, police, and, the, dog, warden, who, incidentally, couldn’t, come, until, 9am, as, he, didn’t, start, til, then, so, i, had, to, politely, explain, that, he, would, have, to, be, the, police, dog, handler, wasn’t, much, help, but, at, least, he, stopped, the, traffic, bless, him, the, dog, warden, did, appear, 5, minutes, later, and, it, was, only, 8.30, am, so, we, managed, to, get, the, dog, off, the, roundabout, and, catch, it, everyone, safe, thankfully, thurs, fri, busy, days, new, vet, from, south, africa, phoned, so, he’s, coming, to, see, us, on, monday, to, pick, up, his, vehicle, and, meet, everyone, he, sounds, pleasant, so, we, will, see, my, joke, at, the, moment, when, people, ask, where, we, found, him, is, that, we, got, him, off, the, internet, it, is, a, little, worrying, not, having, met, him, first, but, it, should, work, watch, this, space, week, beginning, 31st, march, monday, we, have, had, l, staying, for, two, weeks, she’s, a, vet, student, from, london, and, stayed, with, us, about, this, tine, last, year, it, was, interesting, to, go, over, the, changes, from, a, year, ago, last, time, she, was, here, people, were, restocking, and, there, was, an, element, of, wariness, so, it, was, interesting, to, fill, her, in, on, how, things, are, now, one, thing, she, mentioned, was, noticing, the, stock, in, the, fields, was, nice, as, there, were, only, a, few, still, last, year, talking, over, things, is, still, hard, sometimes, although, it, seems, a, long, time, ago, the, feelings, and, emotions, are, still, deep, certain, parts, can, still, hit, a, raw, nerve, there, seems, to, be, a, mere, anger, at, the, moment, generally, people, and, farmers, are, wanting, to, know, why, they, still, have, restrictions, what, is, going, to, happen, about, shows, and, sales, etc, and, will, normality, ever, return, unfortunately, i, think, not, not, in, the, way, they, want, it, to, tuesday, our, new, vet, started, today, we, got, on, very, well, it, has, taken, us, so, long, to, find, a, vet, and, if, the, work, and, testing, carries, on, increasing, we, are, going, to, need, another, one, wednesday, very, busy, day, husband, s, gone, to, talk, at, a, bcva, conference, and, agm, so, poor, new, vet, has, been, thrown, in, at, the, deep, end, it, has, been, very, busy, but, he, seems, to, be, coping, well, the, clients, were, very, impressed, so, far, so, long, may, it, last, it, is, good, to, have, new, staff, with, new, ideas, i, quite, enjoy, it, and, he, is, definitely, a, big, hit, with, the, female, clients, it, really, does, make, you, embarrassed, to, be, female, when, they, go, into, the, consulting, room, you, count, to, 4, and, then, comes, the, girlie, giggle, quite, funny, thursday, sad, day, today, my, sister, had, been, confirmed, as, having, cervical, cancer, no, more, on, that, for, now, friday, had, another, interherd, sale, today, one, thing, fmd, has, forced, on, farmers, is, the, need, for, efficient, records, and, interherd, is, brilliant, at, that, it’s, so, clever, one, of, our, farmers, who, has, had, it, for, a, while, and, has, 120, milking, cows, now, does, all, his, daily, records, in, 5, 10, minutes, can’t, be, bad, week, beginning, 7th, april, monday, busy, day, new, vet, is, settling, in, really, well, and, coping, fine, if, we, carry, on, at, this, rate, we, will, need, another, vet, a, lot, of, it, depends, on, how, much, more, testing, we, are, going, to, get, and, what, happens, with, commission, report, into, dispensing, drugs, tuesday, sr, came, today, from, uni, of, reading, who, own, the, interherd, program, we, went, round, some, of, the, farmers, that, used, it, and, helped, sort, out, any, queries, it, was, a, good, day, i, learnt, a, lot, and, the, farmers, found, it, useful, too, she, said, she, would, come, again, later, in, the, year, so, i, think, we, might, try, and, organise, for, them, all, to, come, to, the, practise, for, a, chat, wednesday, did, some, interherd, training, with, one, of, the, farmers, wives, we, said, just, an, hour, as, she, wasn’t, fully, computer, literate, anyway, 4, hours, later, she, had, well, and, truly, got, the, hang, of, it, she, was, very, keen, and, i, really, enjoyed, it, thursday, friday, they, blur, into, one, as, it, has, been, so, busy, everyone, has, been, flat, out, we, are, going, to, start, the, vet, advertising, again, and, another, nurse, receptionist, week, beginning, 14th, april, monday, got, caught, up, today, sorted, out, all, the, queries, quite, pleased, with, my, self, tuesday, went, to, a, local, nursery, to, talk, about, vets, to, 3, year, olds, i, was, quite, dreading, it, but, thankfully, it, was, great, they, were, really, good, i, took, some, dressing, up, clothes, and, x, ray, instruments, and, teddy, bears, and, they, operated, and, had, a, really, good, time, one, of, them, asked, me, if, all, the, cows, and, sheep, were, better, and, did, they, still, have, funny, feet, and, mouths, week, beginning, 21st, april, tuesday, wednesday, quite, busy, days, and, a, lot, to, catch, up, on, we, all, went, away, with, sister, and, niece, this, weekend, to, husband, s, mum, and, dads, caravan, we, had, a, great, time, sister, s, biopsy, off, rest, of, week, week, beginning, 28th, april, monday, three, farmers, milk, recording, today, and, tomorrow, so, busy, dropping, pets, and, paperwork, off, advertised, for, a, vet, today, fingers, crossed, off, for, two, weeks, helping, sister, to, move, interviewed, a, nurse, receptionist, she, is, perfect, and, experienced, she, wrote, a, letter, in, as, her, husbands, job, had, brought, them, to, the, area, so, she, starts, 12th, may, i, wish, it, was, as, easy, finding, a, vet, week, beginning, 12th, may, monday, our, new, girlie, started, today, she, is, very, keen, and, capable, she, has, done, really, well, even, with, the, computer, system, that, she, was, dreading, tuesday, busy, day, also, 2x, milk, recordings, so, a, bit, of, hollering, about, i, was, thinking, it, is, about, a, year, we, have, had, now, of, normal, work, everyone, new, appears, to, be, getting, on, with, it, as, the, saying, goes, everyone, bears, a, scar, and, has, a, story, to, tell, and, realise, it, is, not, the, same, but, how, could, it, be, weds, fri, quite, busy, but, capable, at, work, daughter, got, the, job, for, the, training, in, her, m, apprentice, course, so, she, is, over, the, moon, it’s, all, a, new, learning, curve, you, suddenly, realise, she, is, growing, up, getting, a, job, and, leaving, school, unfortunately, this, morning, daughter, has, decided, she, doesn’t, want, to, leave, full, time, education, yet, and, is, worried, about, the, job, she, is, wanting, to, do, a, business, course, at, a, college, so, all, change, again, we, have, had, bid, discussions, and, are, going, to, go, down, to, connexions, next, week, sat, yf, young, farmers, field, day, today, i, love, these, days, it, is, amazing, the, effort, and, enjoyment, that, makes, it, such, a, good, day, there, is, also, such, a, high, standard, in, all, the, classes, i, admire, the, enthusiasm, of, the, young, farmers, and, just, hope, they, can, survive, somehow, week, beginning, 19th, may, monday, we, have, found, the, course, daughter, wants, to, do, at, college, thanks, to, connexions, the, bad, news, is, it, is, not, done, locally, she, could, do, a, local, course, but, it, would, be, wasted, time, to, some, extent, big, discussions, most, of, the, week, we, have, found, they, do, the, course, in, blackburn, and, preston, my, sister, and, mum, live, down, there, and, are, more, than, happy, for, her, to, move, in, i, just, don’t, know, if, i, am, ready, to, let, her, go, but, i’ll, have, to, be, a, big, girl, about, it, we, have, sent, application, forms, off, so, will, have, to, wait, and, see, now, and, try, and, get, used, to, it, weds, really, good, evening, at, penrith, re, the, discussion, it, was, so, good, to, talk, to, the, other, diarists, and, realise, and, be, able, to, relate, so, closely, to, what, they, said, it, was, poignant, to, see, what, other, people, had, written, and, interesting, to, see, what, you, had, done, so, far, with, the, data, collected, it, would, be, brilliant, to, hand, to, any, future, study, or, enquiry, as, it, is, proof, surely, not, all, these, people, could, be, wrong, and, to, have, so, many, diarists, start, and, finish, is, amazing, i’m, sure, it, can, be, used, for, so, many, different, topics, amazing, i, am, personally, very, proud, to, have, been, a, part, of, it, and, although, sometimes, i, have, wondered, if, what, i, was, writing, was, any, use, i, can, see, now, how, it, comes, together, than, you, all, for, the, opportunity, shame, not, in, better, circumstances, it, has, helped, me, more, than, i, originally, realised, but, thinking, back, it, was, all, unbelievable, and, not, something, i, would, like, to, repeat, i, am, ever, the, optimist, or, so, i’m, told, and, do, believe, or, hope, things, and, farming, can, recover, not, fully, but, enough, to, be, able, to, show, other, people, what, a, wonderful, life, it, is, hard, but, special, week, beginning, 26th, may, never, stopped, on, tuesday, after, bank, holiday, so, busy, new, vet, is, settling, in, now, but, his, girlfriend, can’t, find, a, job, so, that’s, a, bit, worrying, he, may, leave, sooner, than, expected, oh, no, not, advertising, again, the, rest, of, the, week, was, uneventful, really, ticked, along, nicely, we, met, up, with, some, friends, on, wednesday, evening, who, holiday, in, the, lakes, each, year, so, it, was, nice, to, see, them, again, we, had, a, good, evening, we, were, also, out, on, thursday, night, with, a, drug, rep, very, nice, meal, and, they, have, offered, to, pay, for, husband, bri, catt, vet, ass, meeting, in, amsterdam, in, october, so, that, was, very, nice, business, link, have, also, offered, to, help, us, get, a, consultant, in, to, see, if, they, have, any, ideas, for, improving, maybe, they, can, find, vets, too, all, in, all, quite, an, exciting, week, week, beginning, 2nd, june, the, exams, have, started, everyone, warns, to, beware, but, daughter, is, very, laid, back, about, it, all, too, much, i, feel, but, as, long, as, she, does, her, best, i, went, to, the, accountants, to, look, at, the, books, for, the, end, of, year, so, far, not, quite, finished, yet, and, thankfully, we, won’t, be, needing, income, support, this, year, it, is, so, much, better, more, regulation, but, nothing, we, can’t, cope, with, honest, week, beginning, 9th, june, daughter, had, an, interview, at, blackburn, college, it, wasn’t, a, very, nice, place, but, then, i’m, not, going, preston, is, on, the, 25th, so, she, will, decide, after, that, niece, had, her, c.t, scan, for, her, head, that, was, eventful, and, lisa, and, her, naughty, jelly, babies, zapped, all, went, well, but, she, was, a, bit, sore, after, week, beginning, 23rd, june, monday, went, tt, testing, with, another, vet, today, it, was, a, retest, due, to, them, having, a, reactor, it, was, a, good, day, they, are, nice, people, there, is, a, father, and, 2, sons, during, fmd, i, had, a, phone, call, one, night, and, this, was, just, someone, crying, on, the, end, of, it, i, didn’t, know, what, to, say, and, i, wasn’t, sure, who, it, was, but, i, just, spoke, about, mainly, silly, things, i, can’t, really, remember, what, but, didn’t, get, much, of, a, response, just, yes, and, no’s, and, i, thought, i, recognised, the, voice, as, being, the, father, we, were, with, today, anyway, during, lunch, which, we, had, at, the, farm, we, were, chatting, and, of, course, got, into, fmd, and, he, thanked, me, it, took, aback, but, he, said, he, had, appreciated, me, waffling, on, it, was, the, night, of, the, day, his, cows, had, been, shot, and, he, had, phoned, to, let, us, know, but, he, said, he, just, broke, down, and, couldn’t, say, anything, anyway, he, laughed, because, he, said, he, was, going, to, hang, up, but, he, couldn’t, get, word, in, edgeways, because, i, was, wittering, but, he, said, he, did, feel, a, bit, better, after, so, we, had, a, good, heart, to, heart, tuesday, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, and, sorted, some, bits, and, pieces, out, weds, took, daughter, to, preston, college, for, an, interview, it, was, good, and, seems, a, nice, place, i, can’t, believe, she, will, be, leaving, home, at, the, end, of, august, very, scary, i’m, really, going, to, have, to, be, a, big, girl, about, it, thursday, we, went, to, visit, business, link, to, discuss, some, more, things, and, they, are, hopefully, going, to, help, us, pay, a, firm, of, consultants, to, help, us, out, to, see, how, we, can, improve, and, move, the, practice, on, so, that’s, exciting, fri, went, milk, recording, first, thing, so, that, was, good, fun, after, recording, i, had, to, collect, one, of, our, elderly, clients, and, her, dog, that, was, coming, for, an, operation, the, lady, is, 92, and, her, and, the, dog, are, very, close, so, she, wanted, to, stay, with, her, until, she, was, sedated, so, she, was, pleased, she, could, come, with, her, the, girls, all, laugh, at, me, because, i, have, quite, a, few, little, old, ladies, who, we, visit, and, keep, a, check, on, their, pets, week, beginning, 30th, june, not, a, lot, of, excitement, at, all, this, week, we, have, been, kept, going, and, i, caught, up, on, paperwork, we, are, going, to, my, sister’s, this, week, end, to, start, sorting, her, spare, bedroom, for, daughter, week, beginning, 7th, july, mon, spent, the, morning, explaining, to, our, newest, girlie, about, interherd, and, how, to, work, it, this, will, enable, her, to, help, me, on, the, data, entry, side, we, also, had, a, little, trip, out, around, some, of, the, farms, that, record, with, us, to, give, her, an, idea, of, where, they, are, tuesday, went, exporting, sheep, today, they, all, had, to, be, retagged, it, was, quite, warm, not, much, fun, i’ll, maybe, get, new, girl, to, do, exporting, weds, 2, milk, recordings, today, so, quite, busy, with, bottles, and, sheets, and, things, and, they, are, both, in, the, opposite, direction, to, each, other, never, mind, it, was, a, nice, day, for, driving, about, thursday, we, have, got, a, new, vet, to, replace, vet, from, sa, she, seems, very, lovely, she, is, going, to, start, on, 4.08.03, we, used, an, agency, and, it, has, proved, worthwhile, we, worked, out, that, rather, than, paying, for, endless, adverts, we, would, give, it, a, go, and, it, seems, to, have, worked, so, that’s, exciting, fri, we, went, car, hunting, today, as, if, we, all, go, out, at, the, week, end, it, becomes, a, bit, crushed, and, sometimes, we, end, up, taking, two, vehicles, so, we, have, really, splashed, out, rightly, or, wrongly, and, bought, a, new, crv, truck, it’s, very, posh, so, we, get, that, on, 21.07.03, week, beginning, 14th, july, monday, person, from, the, interherd, office, came, up, to, see, us, and, we, visited, a, few, of, our, farmers, that, are, on, interherd, between, them, and, nmr, they, have, really, tried, with, providing, quality, and, cost, effective, equipment, that, is, helpful, to, the, farmers, you, can, now, use, interherd, in, some, milking, parlours, which, is, really, useful, tues, we, went, to, see, a, horse, with, a, cough, and, after, treating, the, pony, we, were, chatting, and, they, have, converted, a, small, barn, into, a, camping, hostel, their, farm, is, along, hadrian’s, wall, and, since, having, foot, and, mouth, and, doing, the, barn, up, they, have, nearly, covered, their, costs, they, still, have, a, few, stock, but, not, as, many, mr, i, was, saying, how, his, father, used, to, milk, about, 25, cows, and, be, able, to, make, a, good, living, from, that, it’s, amazing, the, difference, weds, we, got, a, new, payroll, package, today, so, i, spent, most, of, my, day, trying, to, understand, it, i, was, very, bog, eyed, by, the, end, but, i, think, i, understand, it, and, it, seems, to, work, well, and, should, be, a, lot, easier, and, quicker, thursday, busy, day, there, were, lots, of, ops, and, farm, calls, a, couple, of, farmers, have, been, asking, about, prescriptions, as, soon, they, will, be, able, to, get, their, drugs, from, anywhere, a, lot, have, said, they, appreciate, they, have, to, pay, for, the, service, one, way, or, another, and, are, happy, to, carry, on, as, they, have, been, doing, we, will, lose, money, to, some, extent, but, how, much, remains, to, be, seen, and, we, will, have, to, cope, friday, off, went, to, see, westlife, with, daughter]
## 4 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1963, gender, m, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, saturday, 9th, march, 2002, an, old, african, proverb, states, the, best, time, to, plant, a, tree, was, 20, years, ago, the, next, best, time, is, now, i, should, have, started, this, diary, over, a, year, ago, to, keep, track, of, changes, in, the, unrolling, of, the, fmd, epidemic, and, my, feelings, towards, it, today, is, probably, a, good, day, to, start, the, diary, as, i, was, about, to, sit, down, after, a, really, bad, week, to, write, some, comments, for, the, lessons, learned, inquiry, and, thought, i, should, check, the, web, site, for, an, update, i, found, out, to, my, considerable, annoyance, that, the, inquiry, was, coming, to, cumbria, to, meet, with, defra, and, hold, the, open, meeting, on, tuesday, night, and, if, you, wanted, a, ticket, to, attend, then, you, had, to, apply, by, a, week, ago, the, overall, impression, is, that, the, govt, do, not, want, to, learn, lessons, i, was, looking, after, kids, as, wife, was, on, counselling, course, and, i, was, on, call, sat, morn, the, vets, were, busy, so, i, ended, up, taking, children, into, vets, with, me, they, watched, videos, in, the, waiting, room, while, i, sorted, out, and, consulted, coming, down, with, cold, after, spending, friday, tb, testing, on, restocking, farm, but, at, least, i, managed, to, avoid, getting, kicked, and, crushed, the, farm, hand, who, is, one, of, the, hard, lads, of, wigton, refused, to, get, in, with, the, fat, bulls, to, test, them, after, getting, floored, by, a, kick, if, the, f, ministry, want, them, f, tested, they, can, f, coming, and, etc, etc, i, am, putting, in, a, letter, to, say, why, they, were, not, tested, to, see, response, didn’t, get, finished, on, farm, till, 5.45, pm, having, started, with, a, caesarean, at, 5, 30am.must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, the, farming, economy, is, bizarre, at, the, moment, he, has, silage, in, heaps, all, over, the, farm, so, instead, of, feeding, straw, which, is, incredibly, expensive, 70, ton, he, is, feeding, the, better, quality, silage, and, the, calves, are, all, too, big, there, are, 30, to, calve, so, a, few, nights, work, there, where, ever, i, go, on, farms, the, stories, that, farmers, are, wanting, to, get, off, their, chest, about, the, maff, incompetence, and, inconsistency, is, bewildering, there, is, a, lot, of, anger, out, there, i, went, to, do, the, restocking, sentinel, visit, for, mg, l, fm, he, is, usually, the, most, laid, back, of, guys, but, he, told, them, he, was, bringing, his, cattle, on, and, he, would, see, them, in, court, why, are, we, doing, sentinel, visits, to, a, farm, that, had, fmd, 11, months, ago, the, virus, only, lives, a, month, sunday, mothering, sunday, kids, had, all, got, presents, and, cards, for, mum, they, brought, them, all, in, with, a, breakfast, tray, very, cute, but, pear, juice, all, over, the, carpet, tim, and, i, spent, sat, night, baking, a, chocolate, cake, for, her, which, meant, i, hadn’t, got, lunch, never, mind, church, was, ps, speaking, on, characters, walking, with, god, and, talking, about, abraham, setting, off, with, out, knowing, where, he, is, going, maybe, i, should, follow, suit, with, large, animal, vetting, being, reduced, to, tb, testing, and, caesareans, the, evening, service, was, really, lively, with, hp, from, austria, about, turning, every, hour, over, to, god, now, that, is, what, i, should, do, g, r, called, around, sun, afternoon, he, is, pessimistic, about, fertiliser, sales, there, is, that, much, land, and, grass, around, and, the, govt, grants, for, extensification, new, regulations, on, nitrates, is, giving, him, a, headache, though, as, he, points, out, it, is, not, fertiliser, that, cause, the, problems, as, they, are, used, by, grass, but, by, phosphates, and, slurry, organics, lough, neigh, has, real, problems, with, algal, blooms, and, they, are, blaming, fertiliser, but, so, has, bassenthwaite, but, there, is, not, any, fertiliser, spread, on, the, fells, so, is, it, really, agriculture, monday, read, test, and, was, very, glad, it, was, clear, as, the, farm, of, origin, of, one, of, batches, has, gone, down, with, tb, more, testing, after, lunch, organic, farm, they, have, just, had, their, first, pay, check, 23p, per, litre, they, were, promised, 36p, when, they, started, to, convert, 2, years, ago, who, would, be, in, agriculture, desperately, behind, in, admin, with, vets, and, home, but, at, least, the, clinical, work, pays, tuesday, caught, up, on, a, lot, of, admin, as, back, to, 6, vets, for, day, 2, cows, aborting, on, restocking, farm, more, disease, rota, still, for, 5vets, yuk, the, evening, open, meeting, poorly, attendee, due, to, poor, publicity, i, am, only, local, practitioner, i, phoned, around, no, one, had, been, invited, or, had, seen, advance, publicity, and, we, all, feel, that, they, are, not, interested, and, that, they, will, not, listen, some, moving, testimony, and, the, bullying, culture, came, through, and, the, frustration, and, anger, that, comes, from, dealing, with, a, faceless, bureaucracy, distant, in, london, 11, million, animals, 2000, farms, in, cumbria, businesses, wrecked, lives, wrecked, a, crisis, turned, into, a, disaster, by, bureaucratic, incompetence, and, political, considerations, i, am, pleased, i, went, i, feel, that, it, is, like, a, sense, of, closure, the, funeral, so, to, speak, the, end, and, i, spoke, with, wife, when, i, got, back, i, feel, i, can, lay, the, past, down, and, look, to, the, future, weds, day, off, k, a, for, lunch, and, sort, out, finances, etc, and, write, diary, everyone, is, saying, about, this, time, last, year, and, glad, that, fmd, is, finished, went, to, see, grease, the, school, production, it, was, very, well, done, brought, back, memories, of, 6th, form, thurs, 300, pages, of, a4, waiting, for, me, in, my, in, tray, courtesy, of, defra, are, they, mindless, or, what, rang, to, speak, to, ah, but, only, got, hold, of, n, and, told, her, it, was, out, of, order, i, should, get, my, blood, pressure, measured, as, some, one, says, defra, stupid, idiots, so, much, for, closure, i, feel, very, frustrated, if, this, is, the, future, of, farm, practice, anal, glands, here, we, come, who, said, a, vets, life, ain’t, glamorous, managed, to, calm, down, and, get, the, next, 2, weeks, of, testing, organised, it, is, a, good, job, that, we, are, organising, it, as, trying, to, get, folk, on, the, phone, is, n’t, easy, workload, picking, up, and, managed, to, persuade, gg, to, advertise, even, if, only, at, tvi, hq, all, of, the, local, practices, who, have, advertised, have, had, very, few, if, any, responses, we, are, busy, but, with, defra, work, spent, time, singing, grease, songs, much, to, nurses, amusement, did, restocking, visit, at, lynedraw, they, gave, me, a, look, around, it, is, amazingly, clean, because, even, after, pressure, washing, the, spiders, usually, make, a, come, back, but, the, buildings, are, sterile, and, no, cobwebs, or, insect, life, which, usually, abounds, even, in, empty, buildings, weird, there, will, be, a, lot, of, flies, next, year, news, that, pi, has, headship, of, nelson, thom, and, so, we, can, expect, the, discipline, to, improve, again, friday, curry, and, quiz, at, the, boys, school, very, cosmopolitan, for, cumbria, it, was, good, fun, and, the, kids, enjoyed, it, but, we, were, useless, on, the, photos, for, which, you, definitely, need, a, tv, spent, time, chatting, to, local, gp, who, which, was, interesting, they, have, a, place, for, their, son, at, nelson, thom, but, he, isn’t, keen, saturday, 16th, march, working, this, w, e, and, on, call, friday, night, so, had, an, early, start, with, a, caser, on, ewe, a, lambing, hurray, things, are, getting, back, to, normal, even, if, it, is, a, dutch, beltex, the, farmer, is, really, fed, up, and, wants, ah, to, be, sacked, as, he, threatened, to, kill, all, his, recently, imported, dutch, sheep, as, the, paper, work, was, not, right, they, had, come, and, blood, sampled, them, and, then, sent, the, results, to, his, brother, who, is, still, under, form, a, and, then, refused, him, permission, to, move, any, of, the, sheep, off, because, he, shouldn’t, have, any, because, he, was, on, form, a, and, what, were, the, blood, results, for, defra, would, be, a, joke, if, it, wasn’t, so, serious, oh, and, after, my, complaint, about, them, deluging, us, with, paper, yes, you, guessed, it, they, sent, another, 7, x, 20, sheets, of, a4, idiots, aw, is, in, a, tiz, and, so, had, to, get, help, in, sat, morning, which, was, a, shame, but, hey, ho, she, is, not, coping, with, the, post, fmd, constant, changing, of, the, goal, posts, went, to, susan, ian’s, for, another, curry, and, had, a, really, good, time, and, have, decided, to, phase, out, house, group, which, was, coming, hopefully, low, moor, will, set, up, a, 3rd, house, group, for, wigton, hebron, is, going, to, change, to, new, outlook, groups, sun, never, managed, to, get, to, church, as, calls, all, day, beautiful, day, though, the, weather, has, really, picked, up, must, get, garden, sorted, and, seeds, planted, a, came, out, on, call, this, evening, it, is, one, good, point, that, this, job, does, allow, the, kids, to, join, with, me, she, is, really, growing, up, she, wanted, to, go, to, cinema, but, as, wife, was, late, and, weather, good, she, came, back, here, and, they, walked, the, dog, and, wound, up, the, boys, mon, early, morning, call, to, see, a, farmer, who, is, a, scrap, metal, dealer, who, hates, authority, he, therefore, didn’t, want, anyone, on, his, land, during, fmd, and, refused, access, to, maff, and, me, while, i, was, working, there, he, caused, real, problems, and, had, his, gun, removed, by, police, he, was, handled, badly, and, is, a, rogue, the, more, colourful, rumour, was, that, the, real, reason, for, not, allowing, anyone, on, was, the, amount, of, smuggled, cigarettes, was, too, great, to, hide, he, also, runs, a, fishery, shellfish, enterprise, that, is, on, the, beach, at, odd, times, he, was, found, guilty, and, fined, 350, for, his, trouble, but, never, paid, because, he, went, bust, as, everything, is, in, his, wife, and, kids, names, this, is, all, unsubstantiated, rumour, but, quite, amusing, when, push, comes, to, shove, the, ministry, could, do, nothing, with, out, the, cooperation, of, the, farmers, the, vet, students, have, arrived, and, i, feel, a, bit, guilty, about, not, having, them, to, stay, but, i, feel, i, still, need, space, at, the, moment, so, they, are, making, do, with, the, royal, oak, prayer, quad, with, the, lads, which, was, good, i, still, has, not, got, stuff, for, magazine, and, spent, time, praying, tues, the, dates, important, cos, its, my, birthday, 39, today, the, kids, all, brought, presents, in, and, had, breakfast, in, bed, it, was, really, nice, the, number, of, ordinary, calls, to, ill, animals, is, increasing, rapidly, went, to, 2, new, restocking, farms, today, i, think, one, a, day, is, probably, enough, they, were, both, full, of, stories, about, the, ministry, and, wanted, to, unload, to, some, one, who, understood, the, first, was, particularly, upsetting, in, that, i, was, admiring, his, new, parlour, and, set, up, that, he, has, put, in, while, waiting, the, 4, months, he, was, then, talking, about, all, the, animals, getting, slaughtered, and, his, wife, was, fighting, back, tears, she, is, also, very, unsure, about, whether, they, are, doing, the, right, thing, by, investing, in, the, new, parlour, she, is, very, unsure, about, the, future, and, as, they, are, both, reaching, 50, is, it, the, right, thing, to, be, doing, unfortunately, i, think, she, is, right, but, i, couldn’t, say, that, and, made, reassuring, noises, as, they, have, spent, the, money, and, it, is, too, late, now, the, future, for, dairy, is, not, good, the, price, is, going, to, continue, to, be, at, world, prices, which, with, the, current, exchange, rate, is, uneconomic, in, the, uk, the, second, farm, was, sheep, with, drop, and, they, were, grazing, over, the, burial, site, as, they, had, planted, carrots, and, turnips, on, the, surrounding, field, i, couldn’t, listen, to, another, set, of, woes, as, i, was, still, upset, from, the, first, lot, so, kept, conversation, light, and, on, sheep, weds, i, never, realised, that, fmd, is, like, any, other, grief, there, are, anniversaries, to, get, through, and, fears, and, barriers, to, be, put, to, rest, i, was, on, a, farm, to, give, certificates, to, 2, heifers, sold, in, calf, they, were, all, saying, it, was, a, year, to, the, day, that, fmd, hit, the, village, the, ai, fellow, was, there, as, well, and, he, was, talking, about, what, he, had, been, doing, he, was, saying, that, he, thinks, it, will, be, years, before, everybody, returns, to, normal, he, is, revisiting, farms, where, he, was, helping, with, the, slaughter, for, the, ai, and, was, saying, he, had, to, take, a, deep, breath, every, time, he, returns, to, one, of, these, farms, there, was, a, partners, meeting, at, lunchtime, as, usual, aw, turned, up, late, but, finally, decided, to, advertise, to, see, whether, there, are, vets, out, there, who, will, come, to, work, in, fmd, country, it, is, a, bit, frustrating, as, i, foresaw, that, we, would, be, busy, and, we, could, have, nabbed, d, before, longtown, but, gg, ever, cautious, we, went, completely, around, in, circles, trying, different, options, but, as, with, everything, else, the, only, prediction, we, can, make, is, that, we, know, that, we, don’t, know, so, much, depends, on, govt, decisions, on, supply, of, pharmaceuticals, to, farms, and, on, the, future, of, the, svs, state, vet, service, for, who, we, usually, do, 15, of, our, farm, work, for, and, currently, do, 50, for, thursday, tomorrow, i, will, get, a, lunch, break, this, is, my, resolution, have, not, managed, to, stop, for, lunch, this, week, yet, as, farm, calls, keep, coming, in, and, partners, meeting, today, was, geckos, bums, and, goose, bums, rectal, prolapses, variety, is, the, spice, of, life, also, had, much, laughter, over, watching, norman, in, the, bath, jg’s, tortoise, which, has, come, out, of, hibernation, early, and, is, anorexic, much, clunking, and, bumping, 2, lambings, and, cow, caesaer, after, hours, so, busy, on, call, it, was, also, the, last, house, group, so, it, was, end, of, an, era, we, have, been, having, them, in, our, house, for, the, past, 6, years, with, different, folk, and, have, had, god, speak, to, us, and, to, others, through, it, but, it, is, time, to, move, on, friday, started, with, another, caeaser, and, early, morning, start, and, didn’t, get, my, lunch, break, time, to, reconsider, things, again, had, folk, for, dinner, which, had, been, arranged, a, long, time, ago, it, seemed, like, a, good, idea, at, time, and, was, enjoyable, but, after, a, 14, hour, day, yesterday, and, a, 10, hour, one, today, i, was, not, feeling, life, and, soul, of, the, party, one, couple, are, still, trying, to, decide, the, future, of, their, farm, they, are, thought, out, progressive, family, farm, and, yet, they, are, not, convinced, about, what, to, do, he, finds, it, difficult, to, because, there, are, three, generations, to, consider, his, father, would, go, out, and, buy, stock, tomorrow, and, his, son, wants, to, come, home, to, work, but, they, feel, he, should, broaden, his, options, very, difficult, he, was, also, saying, that, he, ha, d, helped, a, neighbour, who, flagged, him, down, as, he, was, going, past, he, wanted, help, to, move, a, cow, that, was, down, the, last, time, he, touched, a, cow, it, was, when, his, own, were, slaughtered, it, knocked, him, off, his, stride, for, the, rest, of, the, day, had, a, good, time, as, when, i, looked, at, time, was, 1, o, clock, sat, 23rd, march, wife, went, on, her, counselling, course, for, day, which, left, me, a, bit, on, edge, this, morning, as, i, was, on, call, sat, am, and, looking, after, 4, kids, but, they, managed, with, out, me, back, sore, and, stiff, as, i’ve, missed, the, gym, but, will, go, back, on, tues, still, managed, to, get, a, bit, done, in, garden, it, was, a, great, spring, day, and, made, me, feel, like, summer, was, coming, went, to, beckfoot, to, beach, in, the, afternoon, with, kids, evening, went, to, bed, early, as, shattered, sun, 24th, back, stiffer, after, gardening, and, went, to, church, davidsons, have, moved, into, thursby, so, will, be, good, to, have, them, around, and, at, school, watched, northbank, beat, stanwix, u12, s, 6, 0, the, boys, played, well, and, passed, the, ball, around, a, lot, son, played, well, too, must, work, less, w, e’s, and, watch, the, boys, play, more, mon, 25th, looking, forward, to, finishing, on, friday, as, another, large, test, today, started, at, 8, 30am, and, finished, at, 6pm, but, at, least, it, meant, i, was, out, the, office, and, did, not, have, to, face, any, of, the, usual, hassle, factors, it, was, good, to, see, as, the, place, is, always, well, run, and, organised, a, real, family, farm, with, three, generations, working, together, but, granddad, at, 75, still, very, much, calling, the, shots, the, craic, was, good, at, lunch, as, their, sister, is, friendly, with, my, wife, so, i, got, custard, with, my, rhubarb, tart, my, wife, doesn’t, like, custard, so, i, never, get, as, i, cannot, be, bothered, to, make, it, for, one, as, the, kids, never, have, it, and, so, are, very, conservative, they, were, asking, my, view, of, the, future, too, as, they, have, sold, bullocks, privately, ie, not, through, the, auction, as, they, are, on, 21, day, stand, still, and, the, price, is, poorer, than, selling, via, the, auction, defra, will, not, allow, any, trade, through, an, auction, if, the, farms, are, on, standstill, why, if, they, are, dead, in24hrs, there, is, minimal, risk, and, they, are, putting, everyone’s, backs, up, tues, 26th, went, for, my, first, visit, to, another, restocked, farm, and, during, the, 4, month, waiting, as, well, as, visit, new, zealand, he, has, made, a, sandstone, plaque, 3ft, by, 4, ft, and, carved, on, the, date, they, went, down, with, fmd, and, the, number, of, cattle, it, is, almost, a, head, stone, type, memorial, the, cow, had, digestive, problems, a, right, displaced, abomasums, rda, probably, due, to, the, transit, and, change, in, diet, weds, 27th, small, animal, day, and, trying, to, get, everything, organised, for, going, away, finalised, advert, in, vet, record, for, new, assistant, lots, of, adverts, but, no, applicants, all, the, local, practices, are, advertising, and, there, are, no, takers, i, hope, it, is, because, there, is, a, shortage, and, not, from, lack, of, confidence, in, the, area, defra, haven’t, paid, us, for, a, lot, of, visits, and, that, needs, sorted, they, have, no, record, of, the, visits, i, e, they, have, lost, the, claim, forms, in, the, mountain, of, paper, work, they, will, only, pay, on, the, originals, as, if, there, are, duplicates, they, will, probably, pay, on, those, as, well, being, that, well, organised, they, are, really, slipping, back, into, their, old, ways, of, paper, chasing, the, frustration, without, and, within, is, palpable, i, should, just, quit, as, i, will, be, a, civil, servant, once, removed, unless, things, change, the, secretary’s, are, both, on, fmd, funded, computer, courses, so, digging, out, the, paper, work, will, have, to, wait, thurs, 28th, demob, happy, just, the, test, to, read, and, i, am, off, for, 10, days, the, test, was, clear, but, very, busy, as, a, locum, came, for, a, look, around, to, see, if, he, would, do, sa, for, several, days, a, week, any, help, i, think, will, be, a, help, good, friday, missed, out, on, church, as, one, of, the, boys, through, a, complete, wobbler, he, is, not, very, well, just, tired, at, end, of, term, i, hope, then, went, walking, with, family, and, friends, i, must, learn, to, shoot, him, down, when, he, says, it, is, a, little, scramble, what, he, means, is, its, too, dangerous, for, kids, but, it, was, fun, and, we, enjoyed, it, the, weather, was, glorious, and, the, fells, were, crowded, tourism, is, back, went, up, over, sharp, edge, to, blencathra, kids, as, well, holiday, sat, 6th, april, came, back, on, the, late, boat, from, belfast, and, arrived, in, to, wigton, late, the, grandparents, were, sad, to, see, us, go, but, i, think, they, had, also, found, us, all, quite, tiring, the, kids, have, enjoyed, playing, squash, so, that, is, something, i, would, like, to, continue, sun, 7th, april, beautiful, frosty, morning, and, went, to, church, where, the, speaker, arrived, much, to, s’s, relief, just, as, he, was, announcing, the, last, song, before, the, sermon, i, think, he, was, wondering, what, he, would, say, instead, of, the, prepared, sermon, went, to, son, s, foot, ball, cup, match, this, is, 10, year, olds, we, are, talking, about, and, the, referee, was, making, several, bad, decisions, including, a, dubious, penalty, against, his, team, northbank, the, crowd, well, about, 30, of, us, which, for, his, team, is, a, big, crowd, was, getting, a, bit, restless, robbie, was, sprinting, down, the, wing, in, front, of, his, dad, and, me, when, he, was, sent, flying, by, one, of, their, team, his, dad, then, shouted, ref, if, you, gave, a, penalty, for, them, for, nothing, you, could, at, least, give, us, a, foul, for, that, at, which, point, the, ref, blew, his, whistle, and, came, across, and, thumped, him, the, whole, thing, was, about, to, descend, in, to, a, brawl, as, i, and, another, parent, were, trying, to, restore, calm, by, telling, everyone, to, walk, away, which, they, did, followed, by, the, northbank, kids, game, abandoned, so, we, await, the, fa’s, report, so, with, that, and, the, carlisle, manager, being, sacked, and, the, knighton’s, trading, insults, with, the, prospective, buyer, for, carlisle, the, future, of, football, in, carlisle, is, not, looking, good, mon, 8th, last, day, off, for, sorting, out, vcf, magazine, and, getting, up, to, date, with, paper, work, etc, did, carrock, fell, where, we, did, not, see, another, walker, it, was, sunny, and, cold, but, beautiful, at, night, went, to, crusaders, area, meeting, where, they, are, trying, to, get, some, one, to, arrange, area, events, for, kids, and, to, support, the, group, structure, there, is, no, one, who, has, the, time, and, no, funding, to, appoint, a, post, to, do, it, so, went, around, in, circles, too, a, large, degree, but, meeting, decided, to, try, and, raise, the, funding, tues, 9th, feel, like, i, should, have, handed, in, notice, after, today, it, was, awful, going, back, the, response, to, the, advert, for, a, new, vet, now, stands, at, 2, students, who, have, yet, to, qualify, i, had, harry, giving, me, grief, over, the, fact, that, defra, promised, him, that, we, would, test, his, cattle, prior, to, turn, out, i, e, end, of, march, but, haven’t, told, us, very, helpful, his, allocation, has, not, even, come, through, they, are, useless, i, was, at, one, farm, that, has, half, restocked, because, the, parlour, is, not, yet, restored, the, heifers, are, calving, and, he, is, milking, into, a, dump, bucket, and, throwing, the, milk, away, he, can’t, get, more, stock, in, because, he, is, waiting, testing, for, brucellosis, as, his, heifers, were, on, the, same, farm, as, the, french, heifer, that, went, down, he, wanted, to, bring, them, direct, to, his, own, farm, they, would, not, let, him, bring, the, heifers, to, his, own, farm, because, the, paper, work, was, not, through, and, they, not, would, allow, multiple, drop, offs, idiots, so, with, high, levels, of, frustration, and, complete, overload, it, has, not, been, a, good, start, back, tomorrow, i, must, see, what, is, hiding, in, my, in, tray, as, i, never, had, a, chance, to, look, today, weds, 10th, quieter, day, and, managed, to, catch, up, with, paper, work, and, have, had, a, lot, of, next, week, mapped, out, so, feel, more, in, control, night, work, seems, to, be, easing, with, fewer, lambings, students, seem, to, be, enjoying, their, time, with, us, even, though, there, is, too, little, time, to, actually, teach, them, but, it, is, a, luxury, to, have, time, to, go, through, cases, with, them, as, we, take, them, on, a, voluntary, basis, and, at, the, moment, lunch, is, a, higher, priority, than, their, education, i’m, a, selfish, brat, thurs, 11th, spoke, too, soon, chaotic, again, managing, workload, with, so, much, fire, brigade, work, is, not, so, easy, fire, brigade, work, is, the, emergency, work, that, needs, seen, urgently, ie, today, if, not, now, son, isn’t, so, well, again, he, tired, easily, again, today, so, must, make, an, appointment, for, him, but, very, vague, signs, fri, 12th, half, day, finish, yo, i, could, really, get, into, a, 3, and, a, half, day, week, the, down, side, is, it, is, because, my, wife, is, going, away, for, the, w, e, so, i, have, to, be, finished, by, 3, 15, for, kids, as, i, want, to, have, the, people, carrier, i, also, have, to, muck, out, my, car, it, is, not, as, bad, since, fmd, another, positive, contribution, that, fmd, has, made, to, my, life, i, actually, feel, morally, obliged, to, keep, my, car, from, being, a, biohazard, ok, i, still, needed, a, wheelie, bin, to, through, all, the, post, it, notes, and, bits, of, cardboard, and, the, excessive, packaging, that, surrounds, any, medical, product, that, seems, to, find, its, way, on, to, the, back, seat, of, my, car, i, always, remember, reading, a, sunday, paper, article, about, what, cars, different, people, drove, and, what, they, had, lying, around, in, the, back, seat, and, what, this, showed, about, their, personality, i’m, sure, that, they, would, have, had, a, field, day, with, my, car, you, use, to, be, able, to, tell, farm, vets, cars, from, a, mile, off, but, they, have, all, gone, clean, and, shiny, sat, 13th, april, a, week, end, off, and, the, thought, of, a, saturday, morning, lie, in, unfortunately, there, is, a, football, tournament, in, carlisle, today, 9am, start, so, up, as, usual, and, get, into, town, but, managed, to, get, to, staples, which, i, have, been, trying, to, do, since, my, birthday, to, spend, my, birthday, money, the, difference, between, men, and, boys, is, the, size, of, their, toys, as, my, wife, frequently, reminds, me, so, i, am, the, proud, owner, of, a, digital, camera, the, question, is, when, will, i, find, time, to, set, it, up, took, back, all, the, library, books, and, made, the, mistake, of, checking, with, the, librarian, who, says, we, also, have, a, talking, book, and, another, junior, fiction, well, i, thought, it, would, have, been, lucky, to, get, them, all, if, they, ever, bring, in, fines, for, kids, we, are, sunk, how, does, my, wife, keep, track, of, them, all, came, home, and, enjoyed, the, good, weather, and, fortunately, the, team, bottomed, out, so, didn’t, get, into, the, next, round, v, asked, as, she, dropped, other, son, off, from, the, football, where, has, wife, gone, as, other, son, has, said, she, was, away, at, gruerly, where, is, that, she, is, away, for, a, girlie, w, e, so, we, had, time, for, a, family, cycle, ride, out, from, kirkbride, to, the, coast, it, was, beautiful, and, we, had, a, really, good, time, came, back, via, wigton, for, supplies, as, we, are, in, desperate, need, of, a, tesco, shop, sunday, 14th, had, an, easy, day, and, cooked, with, a, for, tomorrow, as, my, wife, is, doing, supply, next, week, its, ages, since, i, have, cooked, even, made, scones, church, was, a, video, sermon, which, was, ok, but, different, saw, p, he, s, back, from, nz, so, will, have, to, arrange, to, catch, up, he, was, incredibly, jet, lagged, it, must, be, sunday, cos, everyones, in, church, 36, hrs, travelling, wife, arrived, back, from, her, week, end, away, at, capernwray, having, had, a, week, end, that, sounded, as, if, they, had, all, gone, back, to, their, teenage, years, with, midnight, feasts, and, playing, tricks, on, each, other, she, was, quite, tired, and, pleased, to, have, an, early, night, mon, 15th, the, diary, has, unfortunately, died, at, this, point, and, it, is, 3, weeks, later, and, i, am, going, back, and, filling, in, the, details, as, i, remember, them, it, is, probably, the, bits, that, are, really, important, but, as, there, is, too, much, going, on, the, diary, has, remained, on, my, to, do, list, together, with, my, tax, return, and, a, small, mountain, of, paperwork, the, reasons, are, varied, but, one, of, them, is, that, my, youngest, lost, his, temper, with, the, computer, and, slammed, down, the, mouse, this, broke, the, left, right, bar, so, the, pointer, would, only, go, up, and, down, now, the, practice, manager, who, learnt, his, computing, in, the, dark, ages, of, doss, assures, me, you, do, not, need, a, mouse, to, operate, a, computer, but, as, i, have, enough, problems, trying, to, get, the, stupid, machine, to, do, what, i, want, it, to, with, a, mouse, forget, trying, shortcut, keys, and, arrows, so, a, new, mouse, was, bought, which, the, man, assured, my, wife, you, just, had, to, plug, in, and, hey, presto, it, would, find, a, driver, and, work, blank, screens, consult, hand, book, try, inserting, disk, try, exploring, disk, try, windows, disk, consult, practice, manager, who, as, you, may, have, gathered, is, my, it, guru, he, says, you, may, need, to, install, a, driver, if, it, doesn’t, work, it, will, be, on, the, disk, i, don’t, have, a, mouse, to, use, to, try, to, find, and, install, a, driver, he, assures, me, again, you, don’t, need, a, mouse, i, understand, why, my, youngest, son, lost, his, temper, with, the, stupid, machine, being, the, mature, adult, that, i, can, some, times, be, i, walk, away, to, cool, off, but, don’t, feel, like, trying, again, for, 24, hours, with, a, new, mouse, which, the, man, assured, my, wife, you, just, had, to, plug, in, and, hey, presto, it, would, find, a, driver, and, work, plugged, it, in, it, said, looking, for, driver, installing, driver, and, it, worked, why, why, not, first, time, tuesday, thursday, riding, lights, went, to, see, riding, lights, who, are, a, christian, theatre, group, who, were, performing, at, the, senior, school, at, night, they, were, extremely, funny, and, hard, hitting, and, very, pointed, all, at, the, same, time, it, was, a, magazine, of, sketches, on, all, sorts, of, different, things, modern, interpretations, of, parables, and, bible, stories, sketches, asking, questions, about, society, and, how, we, view, things, very, difficult, to, put, into, words, but, thought, provoking, on, lots, of, levels, sat, 20th, april, to, weds, 24th, april, lost, in, the, mists, of, time, thursday, 25th, starting, the, diary, again, after, having, missed, 10, days, with, too, much, going, on, the, spring, work, is, chaotic, with, a, lot, of, problems, we, are, trying, to, run, the, practice, on, 5, vets, plus, a, part, time, locum, instead, of, 7, full, time, at, this, time, of, year, i, had, said, we, should, have, advertised, and, tried, to, get, some, one, at, xmas, but, the, view, was, that, falling, milk, price, would, mean, less, work, but, the, defra, tasting, is, more, than, making, up, for, those, who, haven’t, restocked, and, those, who, have, gone, out, of, dairy, which, brings, us, the, most, work, but, saying, i, told, you, so, does, not, help, so, i’ll, just, keep, my, big, mouth, shut, as, the, practice, manager, says, the, good, old, days, when, we, new, what, the, rota, was, going, to, be, and, we, were, not, just, making, up, it, up, as, we, went, along, we, have, had, over, a, year, of, crisis, management, now, the, end, must, be, nigh, as, this, is, a, health, survey, apart, from, feeling, pressure, of, work, i, am, have, also, managed, to, catch, ringworm, on, my, leg, a, fungal, infection, from, cows, and, it, is, itchy, and, sore, and, not, responding, to, my, treatment, i, will, have, to, get, gp’s, opinion, friday, 26th, april, remind, me, next, time, not, to, try, to, interview, during, busy, periods, it, is, very, embarrassing, to, turn, up, late, to, the, interview, we, had, a, chaotic, day, but, managed, to, interview, her, she, is, frighteningly, well, prepared, and, had, lists, of, questions, i, hope, we, didn’t, put, her, off, by, being, so, disorganised, i, think, the, sandale, view, will, be, more, influential, as, part, of, the, interview, we, always, take, them, up, to, sandale, viewpoint, to, show, them, the, practice, spread, out, panoramically, beneath, them, well, it, sold, me, the, job, after, finally, getting, finished, i, was, exhausted, but, had, people, to, dinner, so, had, to, stay, awake, and, be, sociable, sat, 27th, april, had, folk, to, dinner, last, night, which, after, working, flat, out, was, probably, not, such, a, clever, idea, didn’t, fall, asleep, but, this, morning, i, feel, like, death, warmed, up, and, we, have, another, interview, this, morning, i, don’t, think, i, can, make, a, good, impression, so, it, is, a, good, job, that, i, am, looking, to, employ, rather, than, be, employed, the, candidate, is, from, a, kirby, stephen, farmers, daughter, and, so, is, at, an, immediate, advantage, she, seems, fine, so, we, will, offer, her, the, job, the, question, is, should, we, offer, them, both, a, job, went, to, bed, feeling, ill, and, with, a, migraine, and, slept, all, afternoon, and, then, in, bed, for, 9pm, sad, or, what, sun, 28th, feel, a, lot, better, for, the, sleep, and, church, was, af, speaking, he, is, always, entertaining, his, opening, slide, was, knighton, in, for, those, of, you, who, do, not, keep, up, with, the, footie, in, carlisle, michael, knighton, is, the, hated, owner, of, carlisle, united, who, is, trying, to, get, the, club, relegated, so, he, can, build, houses, on, the, land, he, is, destroying, the, club, and, it, is, not, popular, anyway, the, second, slide, was, here, for, grace, and, forgiveness, he, went, on, to, say, that, church, should, be, where, the, failures, should, feel, loved, and, welcome, as, we, all, need, god’s, love, and, forgiveness, he, was, really, good, both, entertaining, and, making, real, points, spent, time, in, the, garden, and, playing, footie, with, the, boys, mon, 29th, monday, morning, and, that, sinking, feeling, not, helped, by, my, wife’s, teaching, 3, days, this, week, and, a, trustees, meeting, for, borderline, which, means, additional, pressure, after, running, around, all, morning, and, working, out, the, amount, of, holiday, we, are, all, owed, the, conclusion, is, that, we, will, employ, them, both, i, am, owed, 46, days, holiday, so, if, i, can, take, 2, months, off, that, plus, the, sabbatical, i, am, owed, means, i, could, take, 5, months, off, i, wish, it, were, happening, the, 5, vets, are, owed, over, 200, days, between, us, which, will, be, almost, a, vet, for, a, year, as, this, is, a, health, diary, i, should, mention, my, visit, to, the, doctor, after, a, half, an, hour, wait, past, my, appointment, time, fizzing, knowing, that, i, would, have, to, make, the, time, up, later, in, my, evening, i, finally, saw, the, doc, who, agreed, with, my, diagnosis, and, agreed, with, my, treatment, only, an, occupational, hazard, of, farm, work, ring, worm, he, did, take, scrapings, but, that, is, all, tuesday, testing, next, door, why, do, we, always, end, up, working, in, a, pen, under, the, railway, in, a, middle, of, a, stream, why, they, cannot, build, a, pen, on, dry, land, away, from, the, trains, i, don’t, know, i, suppose, they, have, always, done, it, that, way, but, the, first, you, know, of, a, train, is, the, thunder, as, it, goes, over, your, head, which, startles, the, cows, who, jump, sending, a, muddy, slurry, flying, everywhere, william, is, still, not, wearing, a, helmet, for, the, quad, bike, as, he, drives, around, despite, his, fathers, protests, their, neighbour, the, other, way, is, brain, damaged, after, coming, off, his, weds, 1st, of, may, mayday, the, radio, is, predicting, riots, in, paris, against, or, for, le, pen, anti, globalists, in, london, but, i, feel, a, real, peace, with, the, turning, of, the, month, it, is, funny, how, a, different, month, can, make, you, feel, so, different, april, is, always, the, worst, month, at, work, with, a, lot, of, routine, work, dehorning, and, testing, and, a, lot, of, lambings, and, calvings, and, emergencies, even, though, the, beginning, of, may, is, just, the, same, i, always, feel, we, have, passed, the, peak, and, we, can, cruise, into, summer, the, fact, that, both, have, accepted, the, jobs, and, that, we, will, have, more, cover, helps, though, they, will, not, start, until, summer, thursday, 2nd, may, in, spite, of, all, yesterdays, predictions, there, wasn’t, any, trouble, in, paris, or, london, only, cyclists, causing, traffic, jams, what, is, about, the, media, that, they, have, to, report, the, bad, news, not, the, good, news, i, haven’t, seen, anything, beyond, the, cumberland, news, on, the, farms, restocking, stopped, at, beckfoot, on, my, rounds, and, sat, in, the, sunshine, on, the, beach, for, 10, mins, and, thought, this, is, the, life, though, in, talking, to, one, of, the, neighbours, one, of, the, farmers, is, having, real, problems, getting, motivated, he, had, milking, ayrshires, really, quiet, cows, who, you, could, do, anything, with, their, idea, of, getting, excited, was, turn, out, time, and, moving, into, a, fast, amble, to, the, spring, pastures, he, has, bought, in, really, wild, suckler, limousin, x’s, if, you, look, at, them, the, wrong, way, they, put, their, tails, in, the, air, and, take, off, i, was, there, dehorning, and, we, lost, one, which, jumped, over, a, gate, another, put, its, tail, in, the, air, and, took, off, only, stopping, when, it, came, to, the, block, wall, at, the, end, of, the, yard, unfortunately, it, didn’t, stop, fast, enough, and, crashed, headlong, into, it, it, now, has, a, definite, tilt, to, it, the, wall, isn’t, too, hot, either, i, think, if, i, had, to, look, after, the, likes, of, them, i, wouldn’t, be, too, keen, to, get, out, of, bed, either, friday, 3rd, may, spoke, too, early, about, things, easing, off, 2, bad, calvings, a, caesarean, and, testing, plus, the, usual, ill, animals, but, got, finished, for, 5, 45, and, took, my, wife, out, for, dinner, at, the, cockatoo, in, cockermouth, very, pleasant, but, while, she, wanted, to, go, on, to, socialise, at, 10pm, i, wanted, home, to, bed, sat, 4th, may, off, yippee, took, the, kids, to, nichol, end, and, went, canoeing, on, the, lake, got, absolutely, frozen, but, was, really, good, fun, it, rained, in, spite, of, all, the, good, weather, forecasts, but, with, our, style, of, canoeing, we, are, always, soaked, anyway, had, a, picnic, on, one, of, the, islands, and, had, fun, came, back, and, slept, for, the, afternoon, should, have, taken, the, boys, to, see, the, fa, cup, but, they, were, happy, playing, around, watched, ghandi, on, dvd, at, night, it, is, a, very, moving, film, and, the, ambiguities, and, politics, came, through, to, a, muted, extent, which, was, interesting, it, often, makes, me, wonder, about, how, much, of, govt, policy, is, personality, driven, again, the, inability, of, individuals, to, fight, the, system, came, through, the, front, page, of, the, times, this, morning, was, on, a, toddler, who, had, died, from, post, op, haemorrhage, following, the, use, of, disposable, instruments, in, a, tonsillectomy, large, amounts, of, money, have, been, spent, on, disposable, instruments, that, are, always, inferior, to, good, quality, surgical, kit, several, people, have, died, because, of, their, use, because, no, one, wanted, to, take, the, very, small, theoretical, risk, that, they, may, transfer, nvcjd, the, approach, to, risk, management, and, prioritisation, within, government, and, the, civil, service, is, very, poor, but, to, be, fait, to, them, the, press, is, not, helpful, i, would, like, to, see, prescott, stand, up, and, say, that, he, wants, more, deaths, on, the, railways, but, he, never, will, if, less, money, was, spent, on, safety, on, the, railways, more, trains, at, more, convenient, times, were, run, at, lower, costs, then, there, would, be, fewer, deaths, on, the, roads, but, as, no, one, holds, politicians, responsible, for, deaths, on, the, roads, it, ain’t, gonna, happen, sun, 5th, may, church, was, dn, who, is, brilliant, at, getting, the, kids, involved, son, s, face, lit, up, when, we, were, walking, in, to, church, to, see, him, walking, down, botchergate, with, guitar, in, hand, he, had, a, skin, that, had, been, cast, from, a, snake, and, based, his, songs, with, the, kids, and, his, talks, with, them, on, being, a, new, creation, cor, 5, vs, 17, getting, rid, of, the, old, self, and, hence, the, snake, skin, he, is, brilliant, on, the, guitar, and, a, real, performer, wasted, as, a, tax, inspector, mon, 6th, may, maybe, getting, the, kids, soaked, and, frozen, on, sat, was, not, a, good, idea, as, they, are, all, coming, down, with, colds, now, tim, is, very, chesty, and, was, up, in, the, night, hot, and, wheezy, any, infection, always, goes, for, his, chest, so, helvellyn, will, have, to, wait, for, another, day, so, concreted, posts, and, pressure, washed, the, yard, the, boys, loved, helping, then, demanded, i, play, football, as, payment, ag, was, here, as, his, dad, was, dropping, off, the, caravan, after, being, away, for, the, w, e, p, called, up, from, manchester, en, route, for, thailand, she, is, handing, in, her, notice, and, going, booked, summer, holiday, in, france, and, now, have, to, work, out, what, we, are, doing, on, the, way, there, and, back, tues, 7th, may, went, testing, but, i, really, do, have, the, kids, bug, and, feel, hot, and, feverish, went, to, bed, for, rest, of, day, weds, 8th, didn’t, feel, like, getting, out, of, bed, but, went, to, work, first, was, a, deer, rta, i, was, supposed, to, meet, a, police, car, there, but, no, police, either, car, or, policeman, i, am, glad, it, wasn’t, too, controversial, or, important, so, i, have, taken, all, details, and, hope, that, that, is, the, end, of, it, this, afternoon, was, spent, chasing, stirks, around, a, field, and, abbeytown, we, dehorned, them, they, should, have, been, done, this, time, last, year, but, were, n’t, because, of, fmd, they’re, now, 2, yr, old, which, means, they, were, really, too, big, to, go, around, upsetting, two, went, through, the, dyke, one, way, the, other, went, through, the, other, side, into, some, one’s, garden, and, on, to, the, abbeytown, road, so, it, was, a, bit, of, a, rodeo, it, ended, up, charging, m, who, hurt, his, shoulder, trying, to, escape, he, was, not, happy, as, this, morning, he, got, his, letter, asking, him, to, cut, back, is, milk, production, he, had, jokingly, asked, what, was, i, doing, this, winter, as, all, the, farmers, will, have, given, up, by, christmas, the, long, term, out, look, is, not, good, but, at, least, we, will, have, 2, new, graduates, in, training, to, cope, with, the, upturn, when, if, it, comes, thurs, 9th, day, off, unfortunately, spent, the, morning, shopping, in, carlisle, which, meant, wandering, around, shops, and, trying, to, find, clothes, i, needed, a, my, daughter, as, my, dress, sense, leaves, a, lot, to, be, desired, and, she, keeps, me, right, met, gb, another, carlisle, vet, which, was, good, i, haven’t, seen, him, for, a, bit, had, lunch, out, which, was, nice, though, also, got, all, the, bits, for, the, tennis, net, so, will, be, able, to, get, it, up, the, annoying, bit, was, i, got, a, parking, ticket, which, sent, my, blood, pressure, up, now, i, know, i, often, park, with, out, paying, and, in, the, wrong, places, that, is, just, living, dangerously, but, as, we, were, in, carlisle, and, had, decided, to, go, out, for, lunch, and, for, some, reason, i, was, in, wife, s, car, as, usual, there, was, no, change, in, the, car, well, as, usual, there, was, no, money, at, all, i, only, had, myself, to, blame, i, know, she, never, has, change, in, the, car, i, only, had, enough, for, 2, hours, in, my, pocket, which, to, be, honest, is, in, my, opinion, quite, long, enough, in, carlisle, shops, so, on, the, way, to, lunch, out, i, made, a, special, trip, back, to, the, car, park, armed, with, coins, ready, to, pay, the, city, council, the, extortionate, fee, so, i, could, spend, more, money, in, carlisle, city, shops, the, first, machine, refused, my, coins, i, even, tried, a, 2nd, machine, that, also, refused, to, accept, my, hard, earned, cash, so, i, left, a, note, saying, the, machine, was, not, working, in, the, windscreen, and, yes, you, guessed, it, i, came, back, to, find, a, traffic, warden, giving, me, a, ticket, who, justified, his, action, by, saying, there, w, ere, 4, machines, from, which, i, could, have, bought, a, ticket, grrrrhhh, fri, 10th, finish, of, another, week, with, more, tb, testing, a, lot, of, cows, from, netherlands, mris, meuse, rhine, issel, very, good, beefy, looking, dairy, cows, dual, purpose, why, we, have, to, test, them, i, don’t, know, but, we, have, to, keep, page, st, happy, they, were, all, tested, prior, to, export, from, holland, and, they, want, them, tested, again, the, farmer, is, very, bio, security, conscious, and, has, his, land, all, in, a, single, block, now, bounded, by, roads, or, arable, cultivation, all, the, other, cattle, he, insisted, were, tested, and, he, had, the, results, prior, to, purchase, in, spite, of, all, his, good, sense, he, is, still, going, on, about, the, missing, vials, from, porton, down, and, other, paranoid, conspiracy, theories, on, the, spread, of, fmd, but, a, part, from, cold, flu, feel, as, though, things, are, getting, back, on, track, we, can, look, to, the, next, 12, months, with, confidence, thereafter, depends, on, whether, the, wto, wins, over, the, eu, to, get, rid, of, subsidies, or, whether, maintaining, the, food, supply, within, the, eu, is, seen, as, important, the, one, thing, the, fmd, has, taught, me, is, that, you, never, know, what, will, be, coming, next, i, do, feel, guilty, about, saying, there, should, be, more, train, crashes, after, seeing, the, crash, in, the, news, today, at, potters, bar, sat, 11th, may, working, the, w, e, again, saw, another, calf, with, ccn, caused, by, a, deficiency, of, b1, usually, rare, but, seems, to, be, much, more, prevalent, this, year, due, to, old, grass, on, pastures, don’t, know, had, a, greyhound, client, in, bringing, in, a, greyhound, on, behalf, of, some, one, else, who, has, been, chased, from, the, practice, for, non, payment, so, had, a, stressful, half, hour, negotiating, with, an, irate, idiot, but, he, paid, his, old, bill, and, stumped, up, front, for, the, new, one, and, seemed, placated, treating, the, animals, is, easy, spent, the, afternoon, in, the, garden, and, fixing, up, the, tennis, nat, we, were, given, an, old, second, hand, net, so, i, have, fixed, up, on, the, concrete, and, it, was, good, fun, playing, with, the, kids, the, concrete, is, not, level, and, has, lots, of, loose, stones, so, the, bounce, is, a, bit, erratic, went, to, a, 50th, birthday, party, for, which, i, was, teased, at, work, but, i, maintain, we, are, friends, with, the, children, in, their, 20, s, it, was, a, good, craic, and, the, food, was, brilliant, there, was, one, of, the, partners, from, a, lawyers, from, carlisle, there, complaining, that, he, could, only, have, an, hourly, rate, of, charging, out, at, 185, consequently, he, couldn’t, attract, good, lawyers, to, his, firm, because, the, city, firms, were, offering, far, greater, salaries, and, were, charging, out, their, juniors, at, 200, i, couldn’t, admit, that, our, hourly, rate, is, only, 45, and, that, i, think, that, 45, hour, is, a, lot, of, money, should, have, been, a, 9, to, 5, lawyer, sunday, went, to, church, nl, but, was, still, half, asleep, from, my, late, night, spent, all, afternoon, and, evening, out, on, calls, was, ok, till, the, midnight, call, when, i, decided, that, being, a, lawyer, was, probably, a, much, better, idea, monday, 13th, half, asleep, after, the, w, e, so, took, a, little, while, to, get, going, having, kept, this, week, a, bit, quieter, as, there, should, have, been, a, lot, of, last, minute, dehorning, and, castrating, it, hasn’t, come, in, so, we, really, are, quieter, so, did, some, office, work, but, trying, to, work, out, why, the, two, computer, systems, we, have, do, not, have, the, same, balances, on, their, accounts, with, a, tired, sore, head, is, not, worthwhile, but, it, was, preferable, to, sorting, rotas, so, i, when, came, home, i, sat, and, read, tintin, much, to, my, wife’s, disgust, i, also, looked, at, my, cash, flow, predictions, which, were, totally, out, of, line, i, usually, take, a, pessimistic, view, so, as, err, on, the, side, of, caution, but, they, are, totally, out, fortunately, the, right, way, the, partners, think, it, is, a, waste, of, time, and, effort, to, try, to, predict, how, much, of, the, bills, the, farmers, are, going, to, pay, in, any, month, some, pay, every, month, but, most, pay, every, now, and, again, either, when, they, have, time, or, money, or, when, the, accountant, or, vat, man, needs, the, books, i, suppose, they, are, right, who, cares, so, long, as, they, do, pay, also, finally, caught, up, with, gp, as, ringworm, still, not, getting, better, so, finally, on, antifungals, if, the, farmers, couldn’t, get, hold, of, a, vet, pretty, quickly, to, discuss, what’s, going, on, they, would, give, us, earache, tuesday, 14th, halfway, through, may, and, time, to, get, the, rest, of, the, planting, done, in, the, garden, beautiful, weather, and, feels, like, summer, is, here, gg, had, a, visit, from, trading, standards, over, the, bulls, for, which, he, had, given, a, certificate, of, fitness, to, travel, there, is, now, no, slaughterhouse, within, an, hour’s, drive, of, here, for, cattle, ulverston, is, the, nearest, if, an, animal, is, not, fit, to, be, transported, alive, for, some, reason, e.g, because, it, is, lame, or, blind, etc, then, it, has, to, be, shot, on, the, farm, and, the, carcase, transported, to, the, slaughterhouse, however, under, the, new, meat, hygiene, regulations, of, 2, 3, years, ago, the, carcase, has, to, arrive, within, an, hour, of, being, shot, which, was, fine, while, black, brow, was, operating, the, slaughterhouse, but, since, it, has, closed, there, are, no, options, for, any, animals, to, be, shot, on, the, farm, unless, you, put, it, in, your, own, freezer, for, your, own, consumption, thus, whereas, if, there, were, borderline, cases, before, they, were, shot, on, the, farm, and, the, carcases, transported, now, the, pressure, is, to, get, them, transported, alive, or, the, farmer, loses, the, value, of, the, animal, 500, 600, and, has, to, pay, 75, to, get, them, shot, and, disposed, of, the, sooner, either, carlisle, slaughterhouse, or, black, brow, slaughterhouse, get, working, again, the, better, weds, 15th, day, off, spent, the, morning, catching, up, on, paper, work, feel, better, for, it, but, never, my, favourite, job, but, all, the, bits, and, pieces, are, in, place, for, my, tax, return, just, waiting, for, the, final, few, pieces, of, paper, wrote, a, caustic, letter, to, council, about, the, parking, ticket, but, sent, them, a, cheque, as, not, worth, the, fight, went, to, up, front, art, gallery, for, lunch, some, one, had, made, a, set, of, peat, rings, with, a, golden, bowl, at, the, centre, and, wanted, hundreds, of, pounds, for, their, art, creation, if, you, don’t, ask, you, don’t, get, spent, afternoon, running, the, kids, as, wife, was, taking, a, in, town, for, hair, cut, and, girl, time, last, football, match, for, northbank, and, son, lost, thursday, 16th, the, long, lunch, is, back, there, wasn’t, much, happening, vet, wise, but, still, a, lambing, today, as, the, season, has, dragged, on, one, restocking, farmer, was, in, today, with, a, ewe, to, be, lambed, of, the, 200, sheep, he, is, supposed, to, be, fattening, for, market, 20, have, lambed, the, guy, he, bought, them, from, is, adamant, they, were, never, near, a, tup, someone, needs, to, tell, him, about, the, birds, and, the, bees, there, was, also, a, good, if, slightly, apocryphal, story, from, defra, licensing, when, they, needed, a, licence, to, move, a, bull, the, licensing, department, asked, is, this, bull, going, to, be, used, for, breeding, purposes, yes, is, the, farmers, reply, will, this, animal, be, coming, in, to, contact, with, any, other, animals, friday, 17th, another, tb, test, another, restocking, farm, more, stories, the, best, one, was, the, fact, that, their, cattle, had, lain, for, a, week, in, the, pasture, field, after, being, shot, they, decided, to, plough, it, out, for, barley, in, the, back, end, having, spent, the, summer, pressure, washing, the, farm, buildings, to, a, gleaming, state, of, sterility, where, the, animals, had, lain, there, was, still, obvious, contamination, with, blood, etc, when, they, ploughed, it, but, having, failed, the, buildings, on, specks, of, dirt, defra, were, just, not, interested, in, contaminated, blood, stained, earth, they, had, also, phoned, the, day, before, i, arrived, to, send, some, one, out, to, arrange, tb, testing, the, chaos, in, there, continues, sat, 18th, may, i, am, to, be, best, man, a, friend, was, around, last, night, with, news, about, getting, married, we, have, a, wedding, every, month, for, the, next, 4, months, must, be, something, in, the, water, at, the, moment, unfortunately, it, meant, it, was, a, really, late, night, celebrating, and, i, am, working, the, w, e, again, so, getting, up, for, saturday, morning, surgery, was, a, bit, grim, i, survived, and, so, did, most, of, the, animals, the, worrying, thing, is, i, am, sure, that, drs, are, just, the, same, spent, the, afternoon, playing, football, and, tennis, with, the, kids, in, the, yard, and, mowing, the, grass, the, farmers, are, all, now, silaging, and, the, roads, are, full, of, tractors, flying, around, at, all, times, of, night, and, day, sat, evening, went, with, wife, to, hear, sa, speak, at, kd’s, it, was, good, to, see, him, and, clare, again, we, visited, them, in, bombay, at, the, height, of, fmd, and, it, always, puts, things, back, into, perspective, he, runs, a, mission, hospital, in, thane, an, outskirt, of, bombay, they, have, it, self, funding, by, charging, the, rich, for, luxury, service, a, long, way, behind, the, nhs, and, providing, a, basic, service, foc, for, the, average, indian, he, is, now, talking, about, trying, to, raise, funding, for, building, an, aids, hospice, to, provide, pain, relief, and, dignity, to, those, who, are, dieing, of, aids, because, of, the, stigma, and, cost, and, risk, of, cross, infection, of, both, hiv, and, tb, a, lot, of, aids, patients, are, just, thrown, out, of, their, homes, and, hiv, ve, babies, are, abandoned, as, he, says, there, is, an, epidemic, sweeping, bombay, that, will, leave, a, lot, of, orphans, and, cause, secondary, epidemics, because, of, immuno, suppression, and, it, is, not, really, being, addressed, very, thought, provoking, and, makes, the, millions, wasted, on, fmd, look, very, sick, in, a, global, perspective, sun, missed, church, in, the, morning, as, was, seeing, to, cats, and, dogs, in, the, surgery, and, dripping, calf, in, the, large, animal, bay, spent, most, of, afternoon, on, visits, all, work, and, no, play, is, making, me, a, grumpy, boy, 2, w, es, in, a, row, is, not, good, mon, aw, is, in, worse, mood, than, me, and, at, least, i, have, worked, w, e, she, is, winding, every, one, up, with, her, attitude, it, is, sthg, that, will, have, to, be, addressed, but, will, have, to, be, a, partnership, decision, wife, was, interviewing, fc, tonight, at, christian, viewpoint, in, carlisle, and, came, back, full, of, it, she, is, good, with, people, and, interviewing, she, was, also, challenged, by, what, f, was, saying, about, the, importance, of, treating, people, as, loved, and, valued, by, god, in, some, ways, very, similar, to, s, about, valuing, aids, patients, we, are, all, valued, by, god, tuesday, missed, gym, for, 3rd, week, i, am, going, to, be, getting, really, unfit, i, was, on, duty, and, had, spent, time, talking, with, folk, at, work, valuing, them, but, it, was, nice, as, a, came, out, with, me, and, she, always, likes, being, on, call, with, me, but, i, never, seem, to, know, what’s, going, on, in, her, mind, still, waters, run, deep, weds, dad, phoned, and, has, decided, not, to, come, on, the, w, e, away, this, w, e, it, is, a, family, reunion, but, it, looks, like, it, will, be, just, our, family, and, p’s, but, the, kids, love, meeting, up, with, the, cousins, even, a, who, will, no, doubt, complain, that, there, should, be, some, girl, cousins, she, is, the, only, girl, on, both, wife, s, side, of, the, family, and, mine, it, is, a, bit, worrying, in, that, he, is, losing, confidence, in, doing, anything, outside, his, normal, routine, it, is, at, times, like, this, you, realise, london, is, not, really, very, close, the, other, problem, is, working, so, many, w, es, doesn’t, give, much, time, for, the, travelling, up, and, down, to, see, him, thursday, g, was, away, on, a, course, yesterday, and, came, back, full, of, doom, and, gloom, for, along, time, we, have, relied, on, the, drug, sales, as, a, substantial, part, of, the, business, there, have, been, various, government, reports, that, have, queried, our, monopoly, and, there, is, a, move, to, insist, that, we, provide, prescriptions, for, all, the, drugs, and, then, allow, the, farmers, or, pet, owners, to, buy, the, drugs, from, whatever, source, they, want, internet, pharmacy, or, us, it, means, however, that, the, professional, fees, will, inevitably, have, to, rise, to, compensate, which, means, it, will, be, uneconomic, for, the, farmers, to, use, us, so, they, will, not, in, the, present, economic, climate, which, means, no, job, carlisle, brampton, and, dalston, vets, are, all, starting, to, write, prescriptions, which, means, that, we, are, going, to, have, to, follow, suit, the, farmer, who, rents, my, field, was, silaging, tonight, i, got, back, from, house, group, to, find, a, tractor, follow, me, in, to, start, rowing, up, as, they, had, been, at, it, all, day, i, decided, to, take, the, gates, off, their, hinges, as, it, is, a, narrow, gap, and, at, that, time, of, night, a, clunk, against, the, pillar, is, ok, but, i, don’t, want, to, have, to, replace, my, wooden, gates, they, had, just, started, to, pick, it, up, when, i, went, to, bed, at, 11pm, so, no, idea, what, time, they, finished, friday, g, is, off, ill, help, it, looked, as, though, i, might, miss, out, on, the, w, e, away, as, he, is, working, the, w, e, but, the, fact, it, would, have, meant, 3, w, e’s, in, a, row, and, 6, nights, in, a, row, managed, to, help, persuade, one, of, the, assistants, to, step, in, thankfully, so, i, finished, at, lunch, time, and, slept, to, catch, up, from, the, on, call, until, the, kids, came, home, from, school, and, set, off, for, the, w, e, saturday, 25th, may, dovedale, in, the, derbyshire, peak, district, definitely, should, have, more, w, es, away, and, not, working, we, had, a, great, time, with, the, cousins, stayed, at, a, farmhouse, b, b, it, use, to, be, a, working, farm, but, is, too, high, up, and, to, small, to, sustain, the, dairy, so, they, went, out, of, that, 3, yrs, ago, beef, and, sheep, was, not, making, any, money, so, they, have, concentrated, on, tourism, and, grass, let, the, fields, his, neighbours, are, now, renting, the, land, and, farming, it, beautiful, walk, along, the, valley, and, had, tea, out, relaxed, and, slept, like, a, log, sunday, great, british, summer, makes, you, wonder, why, any, one, would, want, to, go, abroad, wet, and, cold, so, went, to, water, world, and, watched, the, kids, big, and, little, go, flying, around, the, flumes, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, my, brother, and, family, the, boys, would, play, footie, all, day, long, and, be, happy, monday, off, to, catch, my, breath, and, tidy, up, flat, for, tenants, arriving, thursday, spent, day, trying, to, reduce, the, weeds, in, garden, and, went, swimming, at, night, the, boys, still, wanted, to, play, footie, where, do, they, get, their, energy, if, i, could, bottle, it, i, would, make, a, fortune, tuesday, it, felt, like, hard, work, going, back, to, work, after, time, off, i, always, seem, to, be, tired, and, head, achy, it, seems, to, be, hard, work, to, get, going, again, ai, just, don’t, feel, like, doing, anything, including, writing, this, diary, but, the, good, news, is, that, we, have, a, new, booted, bantie, bertie, the, cockerel, and, he, is, now, ensconced, in, his, run, we, are, hoping, to, get, him, some, young, ladies, in, the, not, too, distant, future, he, is, cute, and, a, is, over, the, moon, about, him, weds, getting, going, again, spent, time, talking, with, my, wife, who, as, always, puts, things, back, in, to, line, communication, went, to, do, some, pregnancy, diagnosis, early, this, morning, and, the, farmer, was, complaining, about, the, cost, of, his, vet, bill, and, is, wanting, to, learn, how, to, check, cows, to, see, if, they, are, in, calf, prior, to, drying, off, the, whole, economics, of, dairy, practice, with, milk, at, 13p, per, litre, is, beginning, to, hit, home, to, them, cannot, be, nice, starting, up, again, to, realise, that, you, cannot, make, money, at, doing, it, one, of, the, other, vets, is, in, really, bad, form, this, week, and, is, causing, a, lot, of, friction, and, we, will, have, to, deal, with, it, as, the, staff, are, up, in, arms, at, least, i, am, off, tomorrow, prior, to, working, jubilee, w, e, my, mother, in, law, arrived, which, the, kids, love, complete, with, her, special, treats, for, them, snowballs, went, out, for, dinner, with, mother, in, law, but, too, tired, to, enjoy, it, due, to, early, morning, caesarean, thursday, off, spent, morning, getting, flat, ready, as, we, have, new, tenants, moving, in, and, clearing, up, while, the, girls, went, shopping, dry, weather, but, intermittent, heavy, showers, tackled, the, long, grass, at, front, but, the, grass, got, too, wet, and, clogged, mower, picked, up, kids, and, did, the, fatherly, bit, went, to, bed, early, as, head, achy, and, washed, out, and, caught, up, on, zzzz’s, friday, start, of, the, jubilee, w, e, and, on, duty, for, the, next, 5, days, until, 5pm, weds, evening, work, busy, with, bits, and, pieces, and, farmers, complaining, that, it, is, too, wet, to, silage, one, of, the, vets, had, issued, a, pets, export, certificate, for, a, cat, to, come, back, into, uk, but, had, put, it, down, for, 2, years, not, one, it, is, only, valid, for, 2, years, in, dogs, but, 1, year, in, cats, typical, friday, afternoon, problem, to, sort, out, the, help, line, is, closed, for, training, and, maff, offices, are, closed, for, the, bh, w, e, i, don’t, think, there, is, a, way, around, it, either, but, will, not, be, able, to, sort, it, out, till, weds, day, and, they, are, due, on, ferry, on, tuesday, oops, also, a, bitch’s, owner, came, in, to, ask, if, we, were, open, tues, as, she, is, due, on, that, date, and, will, probably, need, a, caesaer, johnboy, called, in, the, evening, wanting, me, to, go, to, the, loyal, supporters, meeting, at, carlisle, united, as, a, spy, i’m, on, call, so, couldn’t, oblige, thank, goodness, sat, 1st, june, office, staff, were, asking, why, is, there, only, 2, vets, on, the, whole, w, e, and, i, am, beginning, to, feel, the, same, should, have, split, it, up, and, had, more, staff, on, but, at, least, the, others, will, get, a, break, and, come, back, refreshed, but, i, feel, like, i, am, looking, down, the, barrel, of, a, gun, horrendous, calving, on, a, heifer, that, was, in, calf, by, mistake, to, its, father, it, was, supposed, to, have, gone, back, to, its, breeder, but, the, buyer, was, still, tied, up, under, the, twenty, day, rule, the, calf, had, died, and, was, gassed, up, ended, up, by, caesaering, in, spite, of, rotten, calf, 2, hours, hard, work, and, the, heifer, will, at, best, be, very, ill, for, several, days, sun, 2nd, june, a, day, of, football, went, to, church, and, made, a, quick, exit, to, watch, the, football, as, with, everyone, else, was, quite, disappointed, at, hebron, at, night, dm, had, the, goals, and, the, reactions, to, them, on, the, big, screen, which, he, linked, to, romans, 12, therefore, i, urge, you, to, offer, your, bodies, as, living, sacrifices, this, is, your, act, of, spiritual, worship, talking, about, worship, to, god, being, everything, we, do, including, how, we, react, to, how, the, english, football, team, perform, very, clever, and, memorable, way, of, expounding, the, bible, went, straight, on, to, son, s, football, presentations, which, was, quite, fun, there, is, a, real, football, sub, culture, with, the, amateur, football, clubs, in, carlisle, all, vying, for, the, top, spot, the, old, pals, network, and, animosities, seem, to, be, very, prevalent, mon, 3rd, june, busy, night, and, early, start, 2, x, prolapses, why, always, at, a, bh, the, second, one, was, a, wild, limousin, heifer, it, charged, me, and, sent, me, flying, the, only, injury, was, a, sore, fist, where, i, thumped, it, in, the, eye, to, try, and, deflect, it, as, i, was, trying, to, get, it, away, gave, me, a, fright, it, was, a, heifer, that, was, bred, because, he, couldn’t, sell, it, store, last, year, because, of, restrictions, chatted, to, farmer, who, started, getting, up, at, 4, 30, am, during, fmd, because, he, couldn’t, sleep, he, is, still, doing, it, now, he, still, has, not, got, any, sheep, in, because, he, can’t, face, it, he, lost, his, sheep, to, the, cull, but, kept, his, cattle, i, had, started, by, admiring, the, view, he, said, yeah, it, would, be, great, apart, from, the, damn, windmills, he, has, a, brilliant, viewing, looking, out, over, the, solway, and, the, great, orton, site, and, the, windmills, remind, him, and, everyone, else, that, their, flocks, are, in, a, big, pit, he, says, he, can, still, see, them, going, and, feels, guilty, i, didn’t, have, the, heart, to, tell, him, that, of, the, 10,000, blood, samples, taken, at, gt, orton, only, 2, were, positive, a, very, big, mistake, that, has, caused, big, hurt, in, this, area, and, no, one, has, admitted, responsibility, and, no, one, ever, will, tues, 4th, june, watched, some, of, the, jubilee, stuff, on, tv, in, between, calls, amazing, sight, to, see, the, mall, full, of, people, more, than, ever, before, yet, rupert, murdoch, and, his, press, would, have, us, believe, that, the, monarchy, is, finished, we, managed, to, cope, with, just, the, two, of, us, on, call, so, may, be, i, was, right, also, made, a, start, on, byre, remind, me, next, time, we, have, a, dinner, party, on, a, bh, not, to, be, working, it, as, my, poor, wife, had, 4, kids, and, a, dinner, to, prepare, i, was, called, out, to, a, cow, caesar, at, 3, 30, and, then, had, another, call, after, that, fortunately, i, had, taken, tim, so, there, was, one, less, to, fight, but, got, back, to, be, told, that, i, had, to, have, a, bath, before, i, could, help, because, i, smelt, evening, was, really, good, fun, and, hilariously, funny, so, even, i, kept, going, to, the, wrong, side, of, midnight, which, after, an, early, start, was, pretty, good, going, i, will, have, to, get, phil, to, do, his, senator, homes, skit, at, the, wedding, weds, 5th, june, did, not, feel, like, getting, up, this, am, at, all, and, felt, even, less, like, going, into, work, managed, to, extricate, us, from, any, problems, with, the, cat, with, out, its, passport, there, is, no, give, in, the, defra, system, which, is, to, be, expected, richard, had, a, suspect, fmd, calf, on, tuesday, no, wonder, he, was, a, bit, jittery, when, i, spoke, to, him, later, on, even, though, you, know, that, it, probably, isn’t, going, to, be, a, case, and, that, the, farmer, is, panicking, it, still, sets, the, butterflies, flying, it, was, bvd, spent, over, an, hour, and, a, half, this, morning, on, the, phone, sorting, out, what, the, aw, calls, the, rubbish, queries, and, being, helpful, and, friendly, and, sorting, out, licensing, and, drugs, and, repeat, prescriptions, one, was, a, woman, complaining, about, the, neighbouring, practice, which, required, a, bit, of, tact, i, think, the, drs, must, have, been, as, busy, as, us, the, tally, for, the, celebrations, are, 1, off, ill, with, flu, and, bad, back, one, wrist, sprained, from, scooter, racing, at, a, street, party, after, all, the, kids, had, gone, to, bed, and, one, who, spent, the, w, e, visiting, her, boyfriend, in, hospital, she, had, said, that, he, needed, to, go, in, on, friday, but, the, doctors, had, put, him, off, as, it, was, the, w, e, he, was, worse, on, sunday, but, had, waited, till, after, the, football, before, ringing, priorities, priorities, thursday, went, to, house, group, which, was, really, good, and, spent, time, praying, for, the, group, church, area, and, for, world, situation, friends, are, trying, to, work, out, what, to, do, in, india, they, are, teaching, at, a, boarding, school, in, the, south, of, india, and, have, both, their, own, family, and, also, the, school, kids, to, think, about, the, consensus, is, that, the, foreign, office, advice, is, aimed, more, at, the, indian, and, pakistani, govts, than, the, uk, nationals, ian, is, supposed, to, be, visiting, and, has, a, flight, booked, so, is, still, going, at, the, moment, i, really, cant, believe, that, they, would, escalate, the, situation, but, it, will, be, tit, for, tat, and, then, going, to, the, brink, as, neither, will, want, to, break, face, the, ramifications, of, sept, 11th, still, keep, reverberating, around, the, world, as, the, balance, of, power, alters, makes, fmd, look, like, a, picnic, at, least, we, have, stable, govt, that, says, it, abides, by, the, laws, friday, the, secretary, asked, this, morning, what, did, i, want, meaning, tea, or, coffee, and, i, replied, as, i, had, prayed, wisdom, but, with, 2, sugars, we, had, a, difficult, partners, meeting, that, lunch, time, poor, timing, and, priorities, again, as, england, was, playing, i, had, assumed, they, would, lose, but, the, meeting, went, well, and, the, issues, were, discussed, amicably, enough, and, frankly, enough, so, we, all, know, where, we, are, at, and, issues, were, addressed, but, as, james, says, not, only, about, asking, for, wisdom, but, also, putting, it, into, action, at, night, leant, on, the, fence, and, talked, to, the, neighbour, as, the, thistles, i, was, supposed, to, be, cutting, down, carried, on, growing, but, it, was, a, nice, evening, he, works, for, stl, the, christian, book, distributors, he, was, saying, how, the, fire, that, they, had, just, after, he, arrived, at, the, time, seemed, a, disaster, and, caused, chaos, but, it, made, them, make, decisions, that, had, to, be, made, rather, than, continuing, with, the, status, quo, and, in, hind, sight, was, a, very, good, thing, i, wonder, when, we, look, back, whether, the, changes, and, opportunities, of, fmd, will, make, us, appreciate, the, decisions, we, have, all, had, to, make, it, made, me, think, of, the, woman, who, came, in, today, saying, she, was, one, of, the, lucky, ones, who, didn’t, get, fmd, very, much, tongue, in, cheek, as, they, are, much, worse, off, than, those, who, did, she, gave, up, her, job, as, they, couldn’t, sell, the, calves, as, they, were, born, and, so, some, one, had, to, look, after, them, so, she, went, back, home, to, work, on, the, farm, her, job, of, course, has, been, filled, in, the, mean, time, and, she, would, have, made, a, lot, more, money, for, less, hassle, if, she, had, stayed, sat, 8th, june, finished, the, long, period, of, work, and, on, call, on, sat, morning, and, it, came, down, with, heavy, showers, as, we, had, hoped, to, climb, helvellyn, today, it, eased, some, what, at, night, which, was, just, as, well, as, we, were, going, to, a, bbq, it, was, put, on, by, a, s, african, vet, from, defra, who, is, now, working, in, longtown, the, last, time, i, drove, through, to, charlie, and, ruth’s, who, were, hosting, the, bbq, was, when, the, pyres, were, all, burning, it, gave, me, a, funny, feeling, driving, back, up, there, the, food, was, good, and, the, craic, was, good, so, we, had, a, good, time, the, kids, would, have, kept, going, but, they, were, beginning, to, get, high, the, midges, once, you, get, north, of, the, border, are, definitely, worse, we, all, had, lumps, all, over, in, the, morning, sun, 9th, sb, spoke, at, church, on, jesus, healing, the, blind, man, at, pool, of, siloam, he, was, very, easy, to, follow, friends, called, in, and, stayed, for, tea, he, as, usual, blunt, and, controversial, as, ever, he, always, has, a, good, insight, and, dresses, it, up, in, taking, things, to, extremes, he, is, also, very, funny, with, it, so, had, a, good, meal, son, is, as, high, as, a, kite, as, he, is, going, camping, with, the, school, this, week, so, he, has, all, his, kit, ready, to, go, and, would, not, settle, to, go, to, sleep, and, kept, the, other, boys, awake, mon, 10th, pouring, down, in, time, for, the, school, camp, at, borrowdale, never, mind, they’ll, enjoy, it, any, way, 3, farms, have, had, silage, pits, burst, because, the, grass, has, been, put, in, too, wet, if, silage, is, made, when, the, grass, is, too, wet, it, flows, very, slowly, and, cannot, support, its, own, weight, so, it, bursts, the, side, walls, and, will, flow, out, of, the, heap, that, it, has, been, put, in, if, there, is, plenty, of, effluent, coming, off, it, will, usually, escape, from, the, normal, collecting, systems, and, if, it, gets, into, the, becks, it, is, worse, than, slurry, hunters, stream, was, black, with, effluent, and, the, environment, agency, were, out, testing, the, water, quality, so, they, will, be, for, the, high, jump, the, contractors, are, so, far, behind, and, the, grass, is, getting, so, long, and, bulky, that, it, doesn’t, dry, out, as, quickly, so, there, may, well, be, a, few, more, but, at, least, the, farmers, will, have, had, warning, so, it, will, be, their, own, fault, the, school, kids, are, back, for, their, work, experience, week, it, must, be, hard, for, them, to, follow, what, is, going, on, but, they, seem, to, enjoy, them, selves, the, worksheets, definitely, help, to, give, some, structure, and, a, feel, for, what, is, going, on, crusaders, meeting, at, night, pretty, disappointing, response, so, not, a, lot, we, can, do, tues, 11th, june, workload, has, set, in, and, i’m, just, cruising, and, managed, to, get, to, the, gym, while, on, first, so, feel, full, of, energy, why, do, you, feel, full, of, energy, after, expending, some, spent, half, an, hour, on, net, trying, to, get, holiday, organised, but, finding, places, for, 6, is, not, as, easy, the, weather, is, better, for, son, camping, and, should, be, better, until, the, w, e, means, we, will, hopefully, be, quiet, at, work, as, they, all, go, out, into, the, fields, weds, 12th, no, calls, over, night, first, time, since, finishing, with, defra, not, had, a, call, at, night, summer, is, truly, here, there, was, a, call, just, on, half, time, at, 8.15, which, i, did, during, the, break, so, got, to, see, the, second, half, and, england, drew, 0, 0, but, are, through, t, o, the, next, round, caught, up, on, paper, work, and, have, sorted, a, lot, of, things, so, they, are, in, place, for, the, 2, new, vets, thurs, 13th, meeting, with, bank, manager, for, executive, lunch, sandwiches, from, bells, he, asked, how, was, the, new, normality, which, seems, an, excellent, phrase, he, seemed, happy, enough, but, it, is, always, interesting, to, see, how, an, outsider, views, the, information, given, the, problem, is, usually, knowing, the, questions, to, ask, i, think, that, is, probably, he, seemed, happy, enough, but, it, is, always, interesting, to, see, how, an, outsider, views, the, information, given, the, problem, is, usually, knowing, the, questions, to, ask, i, think, that, is, probably, true, of, the, inquiries, into, fmd, unless, you, know, the, questions, you, will, not, get, the, right, answers, went, abseiling, up, at, sandale, with, the, house, group, from, church, and, had, a, bbq, it, would, have, been, nicer, if, the, wind, hadn’t, howled, i, had, gone, prepared, for, british, summer, weather, but, it, was, still, pretty, nippy, it, was, great, fun, fri, read, another, test, that, had, ir, s, for, tb, inconclusive, that, will, have, to, be, retested, in, 60, days, while, i, was, writing, up, the, paper, work, the, farmer’s, wife, was, saying, that, the, kids, were, all, off, school, and, nursery, with, hand, foot, and, mouth, she, had, taken, the, youngest, who, was, ill, with, the, middle, kid, to, the, doctor, the, doctor, had, said, what, it, was, and, the, middle, kid, burst, into, tears, as, he, thought, they, were, going, to, take, her, baby, brother, outside, and, shoot, him, it, is, funny, but, also, very, sad, the, same, farmer, was, really, fed, up, as, the, cows, were, all, supposed, to, be, tb, tested, prior, to, arriving, on, the, farm, he, had, also, let, them, out, into, a, long, 5, acre, field, with, the, water, troughs, at, the, far, end, of, the, field, half, the, cows, had, not, found, the, trough, and, so, were, very, thirsty, by, the, time, they, came, back, at, milking, time, the, idea, that, you, just, go, and, replace, the, cows, just, like, that, is, not, quite, the, case, sat, 15th, june, saturday, morning, spent, it, gardening, the, strawberries, are, coming, and, even, though, the, gooseberries, aren’t, quite, ripe, picked, some, to, start, the, harvest, and, the, one, strawberry, that, was, reddish, then, went, to, visit, friend, and, the, wide, screen, tv, for, the, football, match, no, one, expected, any, more, english, progress, but, the, lads, surprised, me, and, played, a, stormer, so, the, game, against, brazil, will, become, the, match, the, practice, bbq, in, watery, june, sunshine, was, good, fun, but, the, ground, was, too, wet, to, play, silly, games, or, even, footie, the, food, was, excellent, aw, was, notable, by, her, absence, hey, ho, bbq, is, in, need, of, a, revamp, maybe, abseiling, though, i, don’t, think, i, can, see, either, r, or, aw, going, for, it, showed, s, around, flat, and, met, her, parents, remind, me, to, be, wise, with, my, kids, sun, felt, tired, and, ill, and, washed, out, after, slowing, down, and, switching, off, after, a, busy, day, yesterday, and, all, week, watched, the, ireland, match, which, was, very, close, spent, rest, of, day, sleeping, or, just, chilling, out, mon, went, testing, at, k, and, t’d, they, are, really, nice, lads, but, not, too, hot, on, the, academic, front, but, good, fun, they, were, in, good, form, and, hoping, to, get, the, low, down, on, the, new, vets, yes, they, are, young, free, and, single, as, far, as, i, know, i, pity, their, chances, spent, a, lazy, day, in, the, sun, at, a, gentle, pace, so, quite, enjoyed, myself, caught, up, with, the, paperwork, at, night, and, feel, mellow, tuesday, too, many, o’s, one, call, was, cancelled, but, the, other, one, still, wanted, the, call, so, some, one, went, to, the, wrong, o, and, i, had, to, make, a, mad, dash, and, pour, oil, on, the, waters, to, explain, why, we, are, so, late, oops, so, more, testing, and, a, quiet, day, wife, also, had, her, quiet, day, there, was, supposed, to, be, a, group, of, them, going, for, a, retreat, day, but, the, speaker, had, cancelled, so, she, did, it, herself, with, r, and, it, went, very, well, she, was, exhausted, after, giving, out, all, day, met, up, with, lads, at, night, didn’t, get, to, gym, again, as, i, had, to, go, and, calve, a, schistasoma, yuk, weds, tried, again, to, work, out, what, we, are, going, to, do, with, summer, holidays, no, doubt, we, will, get, organised, eventually, came, home, early, for, lunch, and, had, forgotten, that, it, was, coffee, morning, here, so, felt, out, of, place, amongst, so, many, women, skipped, off, early, and, went, for, a, cycle, to, make, up, for, missing, gym, did, first, part, with, a, and, annie, and, then, zipped, around, for, a, bit, which, was, good, thursday, k, and, t, had, an, i, r, again, i, need, a, new, supply, of, little, green, forms, to, put, this, in, context, prior, to, this, year, in, 16, years, in, practice, i, have, had, 4, i, r’s, i, am, doing, that, this, week, so, another, farm, under, restrictions, friday, bad, hair, day, england, lost, och, well, never, mind, such, is, life, richard, drummond’s, report, that, the, svs, was, unprepared, yeah, we, had, all, been, saying, it, but, i, did, not, realise, that, the, svs, had, been, saying, it, 2, years, ago, has, been, picked, up, by, the, audit, office, there, is, a, report, case, of, fmd, in, a, pig, from, leicester, mkt, and, i, had, another, i, r, and, met, with, jm, a, temporary, vet, with, carlisle, svs, on, why, we, had, not, done, the, tests, allocated, mostly, cos, they, aren’t, to, do, he, also, was, very, cynical, about, the, changes, in, defra, and, the, management, ethos, has, not, changed, he, brought, a, message, back, from, them, that, the, test, we, had, sent, back, because, the, guy, is, an, old, recluse, that, is, impossible, to, deal, with, we, had, to, do, as, they, did, not, have, the, resources, what, they, are, responsible, for, ensuring, that, they, are, done, and, sorting, out, the, recalcitrant, had, the, afternoon, off, and, ran, round, after, the, kids, while, wife, did, reports, next, week, must, be, better, sat, 22nd, june, wedding, day, for, d, and, s, yippee, d, and, his, best, man, and, usher, plus, 3, others, arrived, last, night, and, it, was, really, nice, to, have, young, people, around, again, i, have, forgotten, how, much, i, enjoy, young, people, i, must, be, getting, too, old, and, cynical, c, looked, after, our, boys, and, a, went, into, town, it, was, really, nice, s, could, not, stop, smiling, and, it, is, wigton, carnival, day, so, there, were, two, pipe, bands, as, well, which, could, be, heard, drifting, over, the, vows, was, in, his, kilt, i, should, have, got, mine, on, for, the, occasion, the, reception, was, at, tullie, house, which, is, a, really, nice, relaxed, venue, we, were, seated, opposite, friends, so, it, was, really, nice, catching, up, with, them, b, d, are, just, back, from, another, wedding, in, vancouver, and, really, impressed, with, bc, they, are, out, doors, fanatics, so, the, skiing, mountains, and, whistler, really, is, their, thing, barnes, who, was, looking, after, the, kids, at, night, is, going, out, there, for, his, gap, year, to, work, in, a, book, shop, should, be, really, great, for, him, there, was, a, celeidh, in, the, evening, but, i, only, lasted, for, 3, dances, i, was, absolutely, exhausted, i, didn’t, realise, how, tired, i, was, sunday, fortunately, it, was, a, family, service, ie, doesn’t, start, until, 11;00, it, was, lead, by, the, young, adults, group, so, was, really, fresh, and, good, they, also, don’t, take, themselves, too, seriously, but, do, take, jesus, seriously, and, it, was, good, monday, missed, swimming, again, cos, work, was, really, busy, crusaders, meeting, at, night, at, rydal, very, good, met, up, with, some, of, the, leaders, i, haven’t, met, before, folk, who, work, with, young, people, are, always, good, fun, and, have, a, wicked, sense, of, humour, do, you, need, one, to, do, youth, work, or, does, youth, work, give, you, one, tuesday, diary, did, not, get, filled, in, from, here, on, as, on, weds, morning, i, reached, into, back, of, the, car, and, my, back, went, i, tore, muscles, in, it, a, long, time, ago, and, it, often, niggles, but, as, long, as, i, keep, doing, the, exercises, for, stretching, and, building, up, the, muscles, it, is, ok, but, i, have, missed, doing, the, swimming, relevant, any, way, saw, stars, and, in, agony, so, flat, on, my, back, and, stretching, every, 2, hrs, and, sore, saturday, 29th, june, my, back, is, slowly, improving, i, can, move, around, and, type, i, can, do, the, stretching, ok, but, stiff, and, achy, rather, than, spasm, work, must, have, been, bad, for, the, two, left, as, it, was, going, to, be, short, staffed, with, out, me, dropping, out, nothing, i, can, do, about, it, the, new, vet, called, around, to, look, at, the, flat, before, moving, in, a, month’s, time, she, came, with, her, mother, their, farm, was, culled, out, with, fmd, late, on, and, they, had, just, got, the, herd, to, where, they, wanted, the, breeding, her, mum, was, talking, about, it, was, going, through, a, grieving, period, and, how, some, days, it, was, yes, carry, on, and, get, going, again, and, other, days, it, was, why, bother, it, is, just, all, too, much, hassle, it, will, take, a, long, time, for, the, memories, in, the, farming, community, to, fader, and, with, the, acknowledgement, that, it, was, much, better, to, get, the, disease, and, get, it, over, with, the, cooperation, of, farmers, will, be, even, less, they, are, the, 17th, generation, on, the, farm, the, whole, concept, of, bio, security, needs, to, be, looked, at, and, farmer, education, on, how, the, disease, is, spread, the, self, imposed, isolation, of, not, sending, kids, to, school, etc, is, just, stupid, but, to, go, against, the, flow, is, very, difficult, that, as, well, as, the, defra, imposed, ridiculous, rules, they, were, not, allowed, to, leave, the, house, for, 3, months, they, just, view, this, as, a, punishment, imposed, because, they, refused, to, let, the, hefted, flock, be, culled, they, were, right, not, to, the, old, tenants, have, moved, out, of, the, cottage, eddie, and, ruth, seemed, to, really, enjoy, it, as, a, summer, holiday, while, at, work, a, change, is, as, good, as, a, rest, so, they, say, i, have, looked, at, jobs, again, but, nothing, appeals, there, is, a, job, which, i, wouldn’t, mind, doing, as, a, consultancy, but, doubt, anything, will, come, will, have, to, wait, and, continue, to, see, what, happens, went, out, for, a, meal, to, giannis, at, night, as, my, dad, is, up, for, the, w, e, sunday, p, spoke, at, family, focus, at, church, and, was, very, encouraging, he, is, always, a, revelation, as, he, takes, things, as, they, are, not, as, they, should, be, watched, brazil, beat, germany, to, win, the, world, cup, wet, weather, and, kids, out, of, sorts, and, back, still, sore, yuk, monday, drove, for, the, first, time, and, dropped, my, dad, off, in, carlisle, but, it, was, pretty, sore, by, the, time, i, got, back, dad, was, in, good, form, and, he, has, enjoyed, his, time, up, here, but, he, is, getting, older, and, with, being, in, london, we, are, going, to, have, to, visit, on, a, more, regular, basis, went, into, work, and, did, some, paper, work, and, answered, phone, and, felt, better, for, doing, sthg, as, pretty, bored, but, couldn’t, sit, still, or, really, get, going, either, came, home, and, lay, down, again, d, came, around, at, night, called, in, absolutely, hyper, he, and, a, going, to, split, up, which, is, not, so, good, even, if, it, is, not, that, un, expected, the, thing, that, has, brought, to, a, head, is, the, fact, a, is, seeing, some, one, else, who, is, also, married, not, a, good, situation, lads, came, around, at, night, which, was, good, fun, and, we, had, a, good, time, tuesday, i, am, now, the, father, of, a, teenager, a’s, b’day, so, it, was, good, to, see, her, opening, her, presents, this, morning, back, is, easing, a, lot, so, did, small, animal, today, and, i, am, moving, freely, but, still, doing, the, exercises, a’s, birthday, is, also, always, a, time, for, reflection, as, she, was, born, a, year, to, the, day, after, we, arrived, in, cumbria, so, we, have, been, here, 14, years, a, long, time, the, future, is, also, looking, a, bit, uncertain, work, wise, with, more, farmers, complaining, about, the, prices, of, their, milk, and, animals, hence, they, don’t, want, to, pay, their, bills, weds, to, saturday, as, usual, the, diary, gets, missed, when, the, crisis, hits, so, i, am, writing, this, on, the, following, tuesday, and, bringing, the, diary, entries, up, to, date, weds, morning, i, was, driving, through, wigton, having, done, my, first, farm, call, since, doing, my, back, when, there, were, lots, of, flashing, lights, and, an, ambulance, and, an, unmarked, police, car, with, all, its, lights, on, going, through, wigton, they, stopped, at, the, lay, by, in, wigton, high, st, the, traffic, was, slow, but, i, did, not, see, anything, later, on, i, was, coming, back, in, to, wigton, from, another, call, and, the, by, pass, was, closed, the, office, was, full, of, news, that, the, by, pass, had, been, closed, because, of, a, stabbing, and, that, a, welshman, and, a, wigton, woman, had, been, taken, to, hospital, and, a, wigton, man, had, been, arrested, for, attempted, murder, i, got, a, sinking, feeling, as, d, had, been, around, on, monday, saying, about, ali, having, a, boy, friend, i, said, to, wife, but, she, said, surely, not, i, got, back, after, work, and, a, friend, arrived, and, unfortunately, it, was, d, the, story, emerged, over, the, next, few, days, how, he, had, forced, his, wife, at, knife, point, to, take, him, to, where, she, was, meeting, the, boyfriend, and, there, he, attacked, him, the, sort, of, story, you, only, here, about, in, the, papers, and, crime, programmes, so, we, have, had, the, police, taking, statements, and, trying, to, come, to, terms, with, it, he, is, usually, a, mild, almost, submissive, personality, and, he, had, flipped, but, really, weird, they, have, 3, girls, who, are, now, going, to, be, really, mixed, up, having, a, father, who, attempts, to, kill, their, mother, is, not, nice, so, i, missed, the, leaving, party, for, the, locum, who, has, been, working, for, us, for, the, past, few, months, which, by, all, accounts, was, very, good, saturday, 6th, july, still, in, shell, shock, over, d, and, a, i, still, cannot, believe, what, has, happened, went, in, saturday, morning, and, sorted, my, car, and, got, testing, list, up, to, date, there, is, a, lot, in, the, veterinary, press, about, the, future, of, the, lvi, system, and, the, future, of, farm, animal, practice, the, future, is, not, looking, good, the, short, term, is, fine, if, anything, we, will, have, a, huge, amount, of, work, and, we, can, live, off, the, fmd, capital, that, the, farmers, have, but, once, that, begins, to, run, out, they, and, we, will, be, in, serious, difficulties, the, economics, are, against, the, farm, animal, practice, went, out, for, a, brilliant, meal, and, had, a, really, good, evening, at, c’s, her, husband, is, a, detective, sgt, and, had, been, called, out, because, there, was, yet, another, serious, incident, this, time, at, a, night, club, in, cockermouth, there, is, a, 22, year, old, in, newcastle, hospital, with, head, injuries, so, felt, sorry, for, c, as, she, cooked, and, hostessed, with, out, her, better, half, sunday, church, was, good, with, sg, on, the, character, of, god, he, was, quite, funny, with, his, illustrations, of, fatherly, things, from, his, life, espy, as, his, son, is, quite, a, character, met, up, with, dc, who, was, a, defra, vet, from, sa, he, was, in, good, form, and, has, another, locum, set, up, for, when, he, finishes, at, longtown, monday, back, into, full, swing, again, but, not, much, happening, read, the, test, and, felt, a, lot, happier, as, i, didn’t, have, to, leave, the, dreaded, piece, of, green, paper, as, everything, passed, of, the, farms, i, went, on, though, it, was, interesting, to, note, that, the, farmers, are, all, having, problems, with, their, backs, again, while, they, were, pressure, washing, and, not, amongst, stock, they, were, fine, but, going, back, to, pushing, animals, around, the, bad, backs, are, back, the, topic, is, probably, raised, because, of, the, fact, i, have, been, off, with, a, bad, back, du, called, in, as, he, is, replacing, d, on, the, railway, until, they, can, get, something, sorted, on, a, more, permanent, basis, he, stayed, for, 2, years, next, door, while, doing, his, railtrack, training, the, people, at, work, cannot, believe, that, dave, has, done, sthg, like, this, as, he, usually, if, anything, a, submissive, guy, du, had, just, got, the, keys, to, his, new, house, in, manchester, where, he, is, based, now, and, was, not, very, happy, to, be, posted, back, up, to, cumbria, he, hasn’t, even, managed, to, move, in, tuesday, work, very, quiet, and, long, lunches, good, for, getting, other, things, done, but, pretty, boring, looked, at, rota, and, checked, websites, reports, to, be, published, on, 18th, july, spent, time, sorting, out, rotas, and, booking, up, and, reorganising, my, kit, weds, day, off, went, into, carlisle, and, was, bounced, by, my, wife, in, to, getting, my, hair, cut, in, what, i, assume, is, an, expensive, hairdressers, she, was, getting, hers, done, and, dragged, me, in, and, it, was, a, fait, accompli, at, least, i, assume, it, is, expensive, as, she, won’t, tell, me, how, much, it, is, and, she, let, me, go, off, to, tesco’s, and, said, she, would, pay, for, both, wandered, around, book, shop, in, carlisle, and, met, wife, s, mum, off, the, bus, the, vet, student, from, usa, arrived, for, a, couple, of, days, jamie, who, is, not, as, i, assumed, male, but, female, it, is, amazing, how, you, make, assumptions, when, you, read, e, mails, and, take, messages, she, is, in, uk, for, 12, wks, and, friend, has, given, her, our, address, as, his, wife, is, about, to, have, twins, so, he, thought, it, better, not, to, have, more, people, than, really, necessary, in, his, house, there, are, a, few, babies, at, the, moment, got, a, photo, of, e, this, morning, and, friend, called, around, to, say, other, friends, had, had, a, baby, but, he, couldn’t, remember, whether, it, was, a, boy, or, a, girl, learnt, later, it, is, a, boy, thursday, not, a, lot, for, j, to, see, called, in, to, see, friend’s, new, kittens, posh, becks, both, have, cat, flu, he, is, busy, painting, house, and, tidying, up, for, the, wedding, never, seen, his, yard, as, tidy, must, tell, abbi, to, get, a, move, on, and, maybe, he, will, finish, off, some, of, the, building, work, as, well, did, 2, calvings, in, the, afternoon, and, finally, read, through, the, audit, office, report, which, i, downloaded, ages, ago, they, were, pretty, accurate, apart, from, nick, brown, insisting, it, was, all, going, splendidly, well, there, really, must, be, a, better, working, relationship, between, the, ministry, svs, vets, and, the, vets, in, general, practice, and, so, much, better, communication, the, other, point, that, is, never, made, is, that, all, farms, should, have, a, mass, disposal, plan, as, part, of, their, iacs, return, in, order, to, keep, fmd, on, peoples, minds, as, it, is, already, disappearing, as, a, part, of, history, and, history, will, repeat, itself, because, nobody, listens, and, most, of, the, anguish, and, delays, were, in, the, disposal, systems, friday, dropped, j, off, in, wigton, to, catch, the, train, it, is, always, strange, with, having, students, because, they, stay, in, our, house, they, are, very, much, part, of, our, lives, and, then, they, drop, out, of, our, lives, another, former, student, who, is, just, back, from, sa, called, in, and, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, her, she, was, on, her, way, back, to, edinburgh, for, her, 5, year, reunion, he, has, been, qualified, 5, years, and, i, thought, it, was, 2, or, three, one, of, the, vets, was, off, ill, so, it, meant, a, bit, of, a, run, around, today, as, 2, others, were, on, holiday, but, it, was, good, to, be, busy, and, get, some, adrenalin, pumping, saturday, 13th, july, working, saturday, morning, on, days, like, this, i, think, it, is, great, to, be, a, small, animal, vet, the, consults, were, all, straight, forward, and, i, could, chat, to, the, owners, with, out, having, to, stop, and, think, what, to, do, about, the, animals, that, and, 2, owners, were, really, appreciative, of, what, i, was, doing, so, felt, good, i, think, that, is, one, of, the, things, about, working, for, defra, no, one, appreciated, what, you, were, doing, ok, some, appreciated, the, concern, and, effort, and, the, way, you, did, it, but, no, one, really, thought, what, you, were, doing, was, good, like, putting, pets, down, it, is, for, the, best, but, no, one, likes, it, beautiful, day, today, too, the, sun, shining, and, picking, strawberries, and, having, a, bar, b, q, was, really, very, pleasant, my, brother, always, says, the, best, thing, about, nz, where, he, lives, is, that, he, can, plan, to, have, a, barb, in, 2, wks, time, whereas, here, you, have, to, go, with, the, flow, sun, 14th, first, call, so, wandered, around, seeing, ill, cows, several, lots, of, drugs, to, put, out, as, a, lot, for, the, restocking, farms, have, yet, to, get, their, medicine, cabinets, back, up, to, strength, had, a, collie, hit, by, a, tractor, and, its, eye, had, been, knocked, out, of, its, socket, urgh, eyes, give, me, the, creeps, mon, 15th, operating, day, as, we, are, doing, the, anaesthetic, monitoring, so, plenty, of, ops, booked, in, health, and, safety, requires, us, to, check, for, operator, exposure, to, anaesthetic, gases, as, our, new, system, has, a, scavenging, system, and, is, light, years, ahead, of, the, one, we, use, to, have, it, is, a, waste, of, time, but, we, have, to, have, the, checks, done, but, i, wonder, how, many, other, practices, actually, do, we, have, never, been, checked, up, upon, a, police, man, arrived, at, the, front, desk, while, i, was, on, the, phone, the, head, nurse, disappeared, as, soon, as, she, saw, the, marked, police, car, which, struck, me, as, very, suspicious, after, he, had, booked, an, appointment, for, his, dog, and, he, had, left, i, was, curious, to, know, where, she, had, disappeared, to, she, had, gone, to, check, that, the, medicines, cabinet, where, we, keep, the, gun, and, dangerous, drugs, was, in, fact, locked, as, while, we, are, operating, we, keep, it, open, so, as, to, have, easy, access, to, the, emergency, drugs, the, gun, licences, insist, that, it, is, kept, locked, at, all, times, and, immediate, access, to, a, police, officer, coming, to, check, it, must, be, allowed, and, we, never, been, checked, up, upon, yet, farmers, are, all, busy, with, field, work, and, are, not, wanting, to, even, think, about, any, routine, work, so, it, could, be, a, quiet, week, tuesday, 16th, beautiful, weather, and, raspberries, coming, along, nicely, wife, s, mum, is, busy, making, jam, and, mile, high, pies, yum, yum, partners, meeting, at, lunchtime, why, do, they, always, make, me, so, depressed, the, subjects, were, more, of, the, same, how, do, we, cope, with, the, changes, in, the, drug, sales, prices, and, how, do, we, compete, with, irish, drugs, being, brought, in, illegally, we, got, a, little, further, forward, and, will, hopefully, be, able, to, make, a, decision, on, it, by, the, deadline, in, september, we, need, to, look, at, new, ways, of, bringing, in, revenue, streams, but, i, don’t, think, there, is, a, willing, ness, to, look, at, the, radical, so, i, will, have, to, keep, working, away, at, it, weds, 17th, met, up, with, the, lads, last, night, to, pray, but, the, craic, was, good, and, did, more, chat, and, joking, than, praying, t’was, good, i, is, apparently, having, a, good, time, at, the, cs, lewis, convention, but, has, yet, to, open, the, book, stall, he, sells, books, and, specialises, in, antiquarian, and, first, editions, of, c.s, lewis, the, one, thing, about, the, internet, is, that, it, frees, up, communication, and, searching, for, the, really, obscure, sorry, i, the, weather, broke, today, and, the, rain, came, and, with, it, all, the, calls, as, the, farmers, got, all, the, routine, stuff, done, which, was, good, for, the, last, of, the, school, kids, which, have, plagued, us, for, the, past, few, weeks, vet, students, next, but, at, least, they, can, chat, away, with, out, me, having, to, make, all, the, effort, thurs, 18th, went, o, a, farm, today, which, restocked, in, feb, after, doing, its, 4, months, waiting, and, has, yet, to, have, a, tb, test, asked, him, whether, i, should, chase, it, up, but, he, like, everyone, else, should, be, leaving, it, to, october, and, housing, maff, efficiency, rules, we, also, tested, 44, imported, heifers, that, were, supposed, to, be, blood, sampled, within, 7, days, of, calving, but, they, have, been, missed, i, have, no, confidence, in, either, of, the, reports, to, actually, achieve, anything, part, of, me, feels, i, should, try, to, contact, the, media, and, try, to, get, them, to, push, the, agenda, along, but, i, don’t, feel, it, would, achieve, much, apart, from, sticking, my, head, above, the, parapet, which, would, not, do, much, i, have, asked, for, copies, but, none, have, arrived, yet, fri, 19th, demob, happy, i’m, on, holiday, from, 5, 30pm, so, it, will, be, good, to, catch, up, on, all, the, things, i, should, have, done, but, not, done, the, garden, is, a, mess, but, we, are, getting, on, top, of, it, slowly, in, some, ways, i, am, glad, to, be, off, when, the, lli, is, reporting, as, at, least, i, will, not, get, wound, up, so, this, is, me, signing, off, for, the, week, next, diary, will, be, on, sat, week, holiday, week, beginning, saturday, 20th, july, saturday, 27th, july, having, had, a, week, off, i, am, feeling, a, lot, happier, about, life, in, general, we, have, been, to, a, few, of, the, nights, at, the, keswick, convention, it, is, an, amazing, set, up, with, over, 12,000, people, coming, together, over, 3, weeks, in, keswick, and, meeting, up, for, bible, teaching, and, to, worship, god, there, is, a, big, tent, that, is, set, up, on, the, back, of, the, convention, centre, by, the, time, we, arrive, it, is, always, full, and, we, were, not, late, on, the, friday, evening, there, were, people, standing, outside, the, kids, went, to, a, youth, event, on, of, all, things, ezekiel, not, exactly, an, easy, choice, of, bible, book, to, convey, to, 19, 14, yr, olds, but, they, really, enjoyed, the, wacky, games, and, the, way, they, mixed, teaching, and, songs, and, games, activities, they, seemed, to, be, mostly, uni, students, who, seemed, to, get, as, much, fun, out, of, it, as, the, kids, my, brother, and, family, were, up, and, the, cousins, love, getting, together, and, even, a, joined, in, the, football, and, tennis, even, though, her, hand, to, eye, co, ordination, is, not, the, best, she, has, taken, up, running, every, day, so, i, have, been, out, with, her, but, my, back, is, still, not, right, and, i, can, feel, it, at, the, slightest, provocation, must, go, swimming, again, my, brother, also, asked, wife, what, diy, needed, doing, as, he, is, a, real, enthusiast, give, me, gardening, any, time, so, we, made, a, door, for, one, of, the, sheds, which, i, have, been, putting, off, for, the, past, 6, years, as, once, i, start, there, are, another, 5, to, do, he, is, also, a, sailing, fan, so, hired, a, sail, boat, and, went, sailing, which, was, great, fun, the, kids, had, a, canoe, and, we, raced, up, and, down, the, lake, and, the, kids, swapped, around, and, went, to, explore, islands, it, was, really, good, the, weather, helped, it, was, scorching, we, also, went, to, a, wedding, of, one, of, our, close, friends, son, i, decided, i, am, going, to, start, teaching, my, kids, the, etiquette, of, weddings, as, the, groom, could, have, done, a, better, job, it, isn’t, really, his, fault, as, he, is, young, and, has, not, thought, things, out, sun, went, to, the, all, age, service, at, the, tent, at, keswick, there, were, too, many, kids, even, for, me, but, the, mix, of, action, songs, and, asking, kids, things, and, an, action, talk, meant, that, those, leading, it, kept, the, kids, involved, it, was, good, to, see, spent, the, afternoon, on, the, lake, it, was, really, nice, day, mon, yep, it, was, a, real, monday, morning, with, my, in, tray, over, flowing, 2, rota’s, to, sort, and, 2, weeks, of, testing, to, try, to, arrange, the, only, goodish, news, was, that, the, ministry, have, finally, decided, to, put, the, restocking, farms, on, annual, testing, which, means, at, least, we, know, where, we, stand, and, can, plan, it, will, mean, a, lot, of, work, for, us, the, bad, news, was, that, the, oft, investigation, have, sent, us, a, horrific, questionnaire, which, needs, filled, in, and, one, of, my, partners, has, had, a, go, and, not, got, very, far, unfortunately, and, it, needs, to, be, in, by, tomorrow, forget, it, the, 2, new, vets, have, started, and, so, we, are, settling, them, in, and, they, are, picking, up, the, ropes, quite, quickly, which, is, ace, on, call, at, night, out, twice, for, bad, calvings, that’s, the, end, of, my, holiday, f, feeling, good, tuesday, sore, back, from, calvings, and, early, mornings, had, forgotten, i, had, arranged, for, some, one, to, be, with, me, all, day, today, in, a, moment, of, weakness, i, had, acquiesced, to, being, put, up, for, sale, in, a, promise, auction, to, raise, money, for, african, children’s, choir, so, this, was, the, promise, being, redeemed, a, morning, with, the, vet, so, i, put, on, my, best, charming, manner, all, mr, pr, man, and, took, her, on, a, tour, of, the, practice, and, on, call, and, explained, everything, i, was, doing, so, it, was, a, good, thing, we, were, not, busy, spent, the, afternoon, consulting, and, supervising, new, vets, and, showing, them, the, ropes, weds, we, were, suppose, to, be, going, walking, up, helvellyn, but, the, torrential, rain, put, us, off, so, went, into, carlisle, and, did, bits, and, pieces, and, i, took, kids, to, see, stuart, little, 2, which, is, definitely, one, for, the, kids, and, jobbed, around, at, home, but, the, kids, like, it, when, we, just, potter, around, thursday, felt, really, stiff, and, sore, and, decided, again, i, must, go, swimming, more, often, i, just, cannot, seem, to, get, there, that’s, all, must, make, time, i’m, working, this, w, e, and, i, am, then, off, for, 10, days, finishing, with, f’s, wedding, friends, are, up, with, their, kids, and, it, is, really, good, to, see, them, we, don’t, see, them, that, often, but, they, are, the, sort, of, friends, who, you, pick, up, on, as, soon, as, you, meet, them, even, if, you, haven’t, seen, them, for, ages, m, has, left, full, time, teaching, as, he, couldn’t, cope, with, the, pressure, of, all, the, paper, work, and, hassle, he, is, teaching, supply, and, doing, other, things, as, well, he, is, so, creative, and, he, has, made, a, model, of, our, house, just, while, he, was, sitting, chatting, with, us, friday, came, home, at, lunchtime, to, see, the, kitchen, table, covered, in, drawings, and, paintings, m, had, decided, to, have, a, painting, day, so, all, the, kids, were, doing, drawings, and, paintings, he, has, done, a, watercolour, of, our, house, it, is, brilliant, holiday, for, two, weeks, this, is, more, a, reflection, of, what, i, have, been, doing, and, thinking, over, the, summer, as, i, have, not, been, writing, up, the, diary, but, i, want, to, put, down, some, of, the, things, that, i, think, are, important, edited, disclosive, sat, 24th, aug, another, bank, holiday, w, e, to, be, worked, but, at, least, i, am, backing, up, our, new, young, assistant, we, work, a, system, where, the, new, vets, have, a, senior, vet, on, call, at, the, same, time, for, the, first, few, months, so, as, to, give, them, a, hands, on, support, and, mentoring, while, this, sounds, very, good, and, practical, it, is, surprisingly, uncommon, when, i, started, i, was, on, my, own, from, almost, day, one, i, started, in, august, after, getting, married, and, in, the, second, week, of, september, my, boss, headed, off, to, oman, to, do, horse, work, out, there, the, other, large, animal, vet, was, off, on, long, term, sick, and, he, could, only, get, a, small, animal, locum, when, i, look, back, now, that, he, left, me, in, charge, of, the, farm, practice, for, 2, weeks, after, only, being, a, month, qualified, i, shudder, but, at, the, time, i, just, got, on, with, it, sun, 25th, calvings, coming, thick, and, fast, the, good, warm, weather, has, made, the, grass, spring, and, the, cows, are, putting, on, too, much, weight, and, having, problems, j, was, at, a, football, tournament, at, pirelli’s, which, i, missed, but, he, came, back, really, tired, having, played, his, socks, off, did, another, pts, put, to, sleep, dog, visit, with, assistant, vet, it, is, never, the, easiest, of, consults, and, she, did, really, well, she, is, finding, her, feet, i, find, it, hard, helping, people, make, euthanasia, decisions, over, dogs, so, i, feel, quite, strongly, anti, euthanasia, when, it, comes, to, people, mon, 28th, beautiful, day, too, nice, to, work, the, morning, was, busy, but, the, afternoon, was, quiet, so, i, spent, it, lying, in, the, sun, dozing, had, bbq, at, night, at, j’s, and, chatted, to, a, few, folk, who, i, know, but, not, to, speak, to, so, was, interesting, spoke, to, one, of, our, farmers, daughters, who, told, me, her, dad, had, just, had, his, first, calf, since, fmd, and, so, he, was, really, happy, he, had, 2, holdings, which, were, run, as, one, he, managed, to, keep, his, heifers, which, were, on, the, second, holding, probably, because, they, were, the, last, ones, in, the, area, and, these, were, the, ones, that, were, now, calving, he, still, blames, the, pyre, from, a, neighbour, for, spreading, the, virus, to, his, farm, tuesday, 27th, the, problem, with, having, a, day, off, is, that, you, have, problems, stored, up, for, when, you, come, back, today, was, really, hectic, finished, at, 6, 30, after, having, come, back, from, the, belgian, blue, inspections, to, help, out, at, surgery, the, inspections, were, fun, but, it, gave, me, the, creeps, being, in, the, mart, and, inspecting, mouths, as, it, brought, back, bad, memories, the, mart, is, ridiculously, clean, and, the, last, time, i, inspected, mouths, was, for, fmd, after, shooting, a, herd, that, was, a, dangerous, contact, i, was, trying, to, persuade, london, not, to, take, out, the, other, neighbour, as, well, we, got, finished, at, 2am, and, went, in, for, a, cup, of, tea, and, to, recover, and, the, mother, greeted, me, with, the, news, that, d, had, been, next, door, and, was, starting, to, shoot, them, the, other, really, annoying, thing, is, that, the, basic, hygiene, is, not, being, enforced, and, yet, other, rules, are, the, rules, are, made, in, london, by, desk, bound, defra, officials, who, don’t, have, to, implement, them, the, mart, uses, mini, dumper, trucks, to, clean, out, the, pens, after, they, have, been, sold, the, same, trucks, are, then, used, to, put, out, straw, and, sawdust, in, the, freshly, cleansed, and, disinfected, yards, they, are, covered, in, muck, and, are, a, bio, hazard, m, the, owner, of, the, animals, we, were, inspecting, put, on, her, usual, tantrum, display, to, try, and, intimidate, the, secretary, and, inspectors, which, as, i, was, expecting, it, i, found, quite, amusing, but, i, don’t, think, she, or, they, did, had, another, bbq, tonight, with, kids, son, cooked, and, loved, it, so, i, have, found, a, new, bbqer, kids, in, brilliant, form, as, they, are, enjoying, being, around, and, a, has, been, baking, weds, 28th, another, tb, reactor, and, the, corresponding, paper, work, and, licensing, had, a, weird, oddball, case, in, surgery, and, spent, ages, trying, to, take, a, history, of, what, was, going, on, the, dog, is, not, that, unwell, in, itself, but, has, an, intermittent, history, of, different, things, i, look, forward, to, seeing, what, it, turns, out, to, be, or, whether, it, resolves, itself, with, time, vetting, is, always, varied, j, was, at, friend’s, party, after, having, a, football, school, with, blackburn, rovers, this, morning, so, he, was, passed, himself, arranged, to, visit, prisoner, in, prison, on, my, next, day, off, and, went, through, a, multitude, of, meaningless, options, to, end, up, with, a, guy, who, sounded, like, he, came, straight, off, porridge, it, is, amazing, how, intimidating, trying, to, find, your, way, around, a, bureaucracy, can, be, i, am, not, sure, i, want, to, go, but, thurs, 29th, from, feast, to, famine, not, much, work, during, the, day, at, least, al, had, 3, caesareans, last, night, and, was, running, out, of, steam, by, 5, o’clock, this, afternoon, meanwhile, i, did, small, animals, and, tried, to, organise, my, trip, to, london, to, visit, my, dad, found, web, sites, for, chitty, chitty, bang, bang, london, eye, and, madam, tussards, so, should, be, able, to, book, in, advance, if, tickets, are, left, for, the, half, term, week, other, children, are, staying, so, the, house, is, full, of, excited, kids, friday, 30th, busy, day, sorting, out, the, invitations, to, our, open, day, 1st, oct, it, is, just, a, chance, to, get, the, farmers, together, we, promised, one, to, celebrate, the, end, of, fmd, it, is, amazing, going, through, the, list, off, the, computer, how, many, farms, are, not, restocked, the, list, hasn’t, been, updated, since, pre, fmd, as, we, don’t, really, know, how, many, will, restock, so, we, have, been, waiting, for, the, end, of, fmd, to, redo, it, so, there, were, a, few, deaths, sales, and, moved, away, to, take, off, the, list, time, moves, on, sat, 31st, august, last, w, e, of, the, summer, holidays, we, had, a, bbq, at, lunch, time, for, borderline, and, then, i, promised, to, take, the, boys, camping, at, bowscale, tarn, it, was, beautiful, but, really, cold, the, weather, was, ok, sat, but, sunday, was, glorious, the, boys, wakened, at, first, light, so, we, climbed, up, on, to, the, tops, while, the, sun, was, still, rising, and, it, was, one, of, those, magical, moments, wonderful, the, boys, were, so, excited, and, full, of, energy, and, so, happy, to, be, with, their, dad, and, enjoying, life, a, time, to, treasure, sun, after, coming, down, off, the, tops, from, bowscale, tarn, went, to, visit, friends, he, is, a, vet, in, longtown, and, has, just, set, up, his, own, small, animal, practice, in, the, north, of, carlisle, the, twins, who, are, now, 4, weeks, old, were, wonderful, there, is, always, sthg, very, special, about, wee, babies, a, was, in, her, element, with, two, to, mother, mon, good, weather, continuing, and, so, we, are, still, quiet, the, vet, student, has, arrived, went, blood, sampling, sheep, for, maedi, visna, to, a, farmer, who, imports, and, sells, sheep, as, a, bit, of, a, dealer, between, him, and, his, dad, and, his, granddad, they, have, 4, holding, numbers, which, is, making, a, mockery, of, the, licensing, system, he, knows, a, lot, of, the, breeders, and, dealers, and, the, yorkshire, defra, is, even, worse, than, this, one, and, so, the, whole, licensing, system, is, allegedly, being, ignored, there, everyone, in, the, office, was, trying, to, work, out, where, we, are, going, to, go, for, the, xmas, party, as, it, is, now, september, tuesday, it, is, friend’s, last, day, at, work, tomorrow, before, the, wedding, so, the, girls, spent, most, of, the, afternoon, printing, out, posters, and, things, to, decorate, his, car, before, he, goes, tomorrow, evening, the, farmers, are, phoning, in, to, book, tb, tests, for, nov, and, dec, as, they, know, that, we, will, be, busy, which, makes, life, a, lot, easier, for, me, we, have, sent, out, notes, with, the, invitations, to, the, open, day, and, that, has, had, a, good, response, so, we, will, start, to, get, busy, testing, next, week, weds, day, off, spent, the, morning, fixing, the, shower, drainage, which, had, suffered, from, one, too, many, footballs, being, kicked, against, it, the, problem, was, the, broken, part, was, also, a, metric, to, imperial, converter, one, end, was, 40mm, and, the, other, was, 43mm, which, once, i, discovered, that, was, what, i, needed, meant, a, trip, to, carlisle, as, nowhere, in, wigton, had, it, so, it, got, codged, up, with, plenty, of, silicone, the, afternoon, was, spent, going, to, visit, prisoner, he, is, the, friend, who, stabbed, his, wife’s, boyfriend, in, wigton, and, so, he, is, currently, residing, at, her, majesty’s, pleasure, in, durham, prison, it, was, a, very, disheartening, experience, as, with, any, organisation, it, takes, time, to, work, out, where, to, go, and, what, you, need, to, get, through, the, hoops, i, went, from, one, part, of, the, prison, to, another, and, backwards, and, forwards, the, staff, where, very, friendly, and, helpful, but, they, are, all, at, fixed, stations, and, so, you, are, sent, from, one, area, to, another, the, security, although, expected, and, natural, still, comes, as, a, bit, of, a, shock, photographed, in, and, issued, with, a, barcode, to, get, you, in, and, out, and, you, put, all, your, belongings, in, a, locker, before, you, are, allowed, in, of, course, i, did, not, realise, that, you, only, need, the, id, passport, to, get, your, bar, code, so, i, kept, it, to, show, at, the, entrance, where, all, i, needed, was, the, bar, code, so, they, sent, me, back, to, put, it, in, the, locker, prisoner, was, ok, but, he, is, still, finding, it, hard, to, think, about, a, future, that, does, not, include, his, wife, even, though, the, divorce, papers, are, filed, and, he, has, done, some, pretty, nasty, things, to, her, and, the, boyfriend, he, is, pleading, guilty, and, is, expecting, to, go, down, for, a, good, few, years, the, whole, visitors, area, was, charged, with, emotion, with, people, coming, to, see, brothers, husbands, lovers, there, were, lots, of, girls, with, young, children, coming, to, see, their, dads, i, felt, very, sad, for, them, and, for, the, kids, who, are, growing, up, with, out, a, dad, or, the, stigma, of, a, dad, in, jail, his, kids, have, written, but, he, is, realistic, his, wife, is, very, anti, him, and, they, are, unlikely, to, keep, up, with, him, in, the, long, term, as, she, at, best, is, not, going, to, be, supportive, at, worst, is, going, to, try, to, dissuade, them, he, was, quite, upset, about, that, he, is, also, not, able, to, sort, out, his, things, or, see, his, house, before, it, is, sold, he, did, a, lot, of, building, work, etc, on, it, and, has, an, emotional, attachment, to, it, but, there, is, no, real, closure, he, had, emotional, problems, before, all, this, he, is, likely, to, have, even, more, on, his, release, his, car, on, which, there, is, still, a, car, loan, has, been, removed, from, the, pound, but, he, doesn’t, know, where, it, is, drove, back, over, a66, very, thoughtful, and, thankful, for, my, family, and, freedom, until, the, phone, went, to, remind, me, i, was, on, call, and, had, i, forgotten, fortunately, there, were, no, calls, as, it, takes, quite, a, while, to, get, from, barnard, castle, to, wigton, oops, thursday, did, my, first, isolation, pens, inspection, which, is, a, complete, non, sense, the, field, has, to, be, 50, m, from, any, other, livestock, which, in, london, probably, sounds, fine, or, in, scotland, where, there, are, plenty, of, woods, and, other, crops, but, here, in, cumbria, where, the, main, crop, is, grass, and, all, the, fields, are, grazed, at, this, time, of, year, then, it, is, not, so, easy, the, forms, are, horrendous, and, the, boxes, to, be, filled, in, are, greyed, out, to, make, it, easy, for, you, to, know, which, boxes, are, to, be, filled, in, this, obviously, looks, really, good, on, a, computer, screen, in, london, but, on, a, photocopy, writing, in, black, ink, makes, the, whole, thing, illegible, but, that’s, their, problem, when, does, common, sense, come, in, friday, 6th, september, colleague’s, wedding, one, of, the, vets, at, the, practice, was, married, today, at, the, parish, church, in, wigton, the, wedding, was, some, do, he, and, his, family, in, kilts, there, were, over, 200, at, the, wedding, and, reception, at, the, grennhill, hotel, where, bride’s, uncle, is, a, director, the, theme, was, an, english, rode, and, scottish, thistle, the, flowers, were, all, red, roses, in, arrangements, with, thistles, they, were, beautiful, as, was, the, bride, he, quickly, adds, there, was, a, ceilidh, afterwards, and, a, fireworks, display, several, of, the, neighbouring, farmers, complained, to, me, the, next, day, danced, and, talked, the, night, away, till, after, 2, am, getting, up, the, next, day, was, a, bit, of, a, pain, for, morning, surgery, urgh, sat, 7th, september, why, is, it, whenever, you, could, do, with, a, quiet, day, because, of, one, reason, or, another, it, is, always, busiest, managed, to, keep, going, most, of, the, day, with, calvings, and, ill, animals, still, recovering, from, the, late, night, at, wedding, day, was, a, bit, of, a, wash, out, really, sunday, milk, fever, at, 7, am, to, finish, me, off, so, missed, church, but, went, to, hear, sc, at, wigton, in, evening, he, is, head, of, oasis, trust, and, is, very, much, a, radical, but, believes, in, putting, faith, into, action, and, was, very, challenging, isiah, 58, true, fasting, that, god, wants, to, spend, your, self, on, behalf, of, the, poor, in, spirit, wife, went, to, hear, the, new, bishop, of, carlisle, who, was, speaking, at, hebron, he, is, reaching, out, to, all, the, local, churches, and, seems, to, see, outside, the, traditional, denominational, boundaries, which, is, really, encouraging, monday, had, a, crusaders, meeting, in, rydal, crusaders, is, a, youth, group, organisation, and, i, am, on, the, area, planning, group, we, have, had, money, given, in, a, legacy, to, support, some, one, full, time, to, train, leaders, to, organise, area, events, and, w, e, away, and, other, joint, activities, which, should, be, good, it, meant, a, rush, and, a, long, day, so, i, am, still, feeling, knackered, from, the, w, e, tuesday, i, was, almost, speechless, today, the, great, era, of, decentralisation, has, hit, defra, i, wish, i, rang, them, up, because, we, still, have, not, had, confirmation, for, the, appointments, of, our, 2, new, vets, to, enable, them, to, do, defra, work, what, used, to, happen, was, that, they, went, to, a, training, session, and, chat, with, the, dvm, in, carlisle, and, the, appointments, arrived, 2, days, later, guess, what, all, the, paper, work, has, to, be, sent, to, page, st, in, london, now, and, they, have, not, got, it, back, yet, weds, 11, 09, 02, it, is, funny, how, some, anniversaries, effect, you, and, others, do, not, i, had, just, started, back, in, to, the, practice, when, the, hijackers, crashed, into, the, pentagon, and, the, twin, towers, i, was, feeling, at, my, most, bruised, and, battered, having, had, a, major, confrontation, at, defra, and, had, to, work, through, the, psychological, problems, of, being, threatened, and, sidelined, and, yet, wanting, to, keep, my, integrity, by, not, reacting, and, blowing, people, out, of, the, water, the, 9, 11, bombers, made, me, realise, how, fragile, peace, is, and, how, fragile, people, are, and, the, importance, of, not, losing, sight, of, the, important, things, in, life, and, trying, to, keep, things, in, perspective, people, are, more, important, friends, and, family, and, if, i, can’t, fight, the, civil, service, mentality, that, is, their, problem, not, mine, i, remember, seeing, one, of, the, teacher’s, husbands, walking, in, to, the, kids, school, when, i, went, to, pick, them, up, looking, slumped, and, dejected, and, learning, that, their, only, son, was, in, new, york, and, they, could, not, reach, him, 2, days, later, they, heard, he, had, visited, the, twin, towers, the, day, before, and, had, taken, photos, from, the, top, he, was, supposed, be, going, back, into, the, towers, that, morning, but, he, had, got, up, late, and, by, the, time, he, and, his, friends, set, off, the, towers, had, been, hit, the, impact, of, the, number, of, people, who, have, either, been, in, or, visited, the, towers, from, all, over, the, world, does, make, it, a, potent, symbol, with, worldwide, resonance, my, sister, worked, in, them, for, a, while, several, years, ago, the, anniversary, brought, a, lot, back, up, to, the, surface, that, i, thought, was, past, but, was, merely, hidden, thursday, first, on, last, night, and, 2nd, on, tonight, so, started, early, and, finished, late, and, running, out, of, steam, friday, one, of, the, farmer’s, wives, came, in, today, for, some, wormers, for, her, chickens, that, have, gape, worm, she, paid, last, months, bill, in, cash, as, well, as, for, the, wormers, 8.76, inc, vat, she, is, working, away, from, the, farm, 2, days, a, week, her, husband, is, full, time, at, a, job, he, got, after, they, went, down, with, fmd.i, asked, how, her, father, in, law, who, is, 65, was, doing, he, is, lost, and, the, farm, is, too, quit, its, not, right, its, too, quiet, they, still, have, no, animals, back, and, are, grass, letting, its, funny, she, said, whoosh, and, your, life, takes, a, complete, change, you, never, know, what’s, going, to, happen, next, sat, 14th, september, worked, am, and, then, had, rest, of, w, e, off, hooray, sunday, monday, son, s, footie, tuesday, partnership, meeting, at, lunchtime, so, had, a, sore, head, by, the, end, of, the, day, but, a, lot, of, good, decisions, made, so, feel, as, though, we, a, re, moving, forward, weds, off, as, working, the, w, e, so, caught, up, on, paperwork, and, stuff, at, home, and, then, went, into, carlisle, to, go, shopping, for, lots, of, bits, and, pieces, and, a, new, bathroom, thursday, dvm, called, in, to, update, us, waste, of, time, and, i, had, forgotten, what, an, annoying, man, he, is, a, real, career, civil, servant, bureaucrat, who, has, forgotten, what, real, life, is, about, if, he, ever, knew, had, one, of, the, vets, around, for, tea, as, i, was, backing, her, up, spent, the, evening, playing, take, two, and, had, fun, friday, a, very, bad, day, at, the, office, dear, oh, dear, oh, dear, the, day, was, great, to, start, with, headed, down, to, iselgate, to, see, a, lame, bull, to, give, it, a, certificate, they, are, still, suffering, from, both, the, financial, and, emotional, scars, of, fmd, mind, you, they, were, always, odd, she, was, talking, about, the, isolation, that, was, hard, to, break, out, of, and, get, back, in, to, doing, things, again, they, were, also, hoping, to, retire, when, they, were, 50, but, bse, hit, so, they, decided, to, keep, on, and, had, no, income, from, jan, to, october, last, year, mind, you, they, would, only, usually, be, selling, stores, any, way, the, day, was, taking, a, turn, for, the, worse, when, after, sorting, out, umpteen, decisions, for, the, practice, manager, on, organisational, issues, he, said, wasn’t, it, easy, when, you, were, just, being, a, vet, fatal, mistake, as, the, next, dog, to, be, seen, was, an, odd, ball, it, had, woken, up, that, morning, after, being, perfectly, ok, up, til, then, it, had, growled, at, tis, owner, and, he, had, decided, to, leave, it, for, a, while, after, an, hour, or, so, he, went, to, get, it, up, out, of, its, bed, and, it, flew, at, him, and, as, he, put, it, meant, it, so, he, rang, up, and, brought, it, to, the, vets, this, change, of, behaviour, meant, he, had, put, it, in, a, kennel, and, left, it, so, when, i, went, in, to, examine, it, growled, and, flapped, its, ears, at, me, and, bit, at, the, bars, some, dogs, in, pain, or, fear, will, growl, or, let, you, know, that, it, is, not, happy, but, this, one, meant, it, we, had, a, go, at, trying, to, get, it, examined, by, using, the, dog, catcher, and, muzzles, but, it, mean, it, left, it, to, settle, down, over, lunch, but, it, was, worse, finally, got, it, sedated, it, had, a, temp, of, 104, injected, mm, and, so, was, a, case, of, encephalitis, with, rage, so, after, 3, vets, all, looking, at, it, and, umming, and, erring, we, decided, to, get, a, maff, vet, to, have, a, look, just, to, check, that, it, wasn’t, rabies, i, had, forgotten, that, none, of, them, are, clinical, or, able, to, handle, animals, but, it, was, a, bit, of, a, joke, but, as, there, was, no, history, with, it, of, contact, with, abroad, it, has, been, left, alive, for, the, time, being, but, the, stress, of, both, handling, the, dam, thing, and, the, worry, of, is, it, rabid, and, the, consequences, was, some, what, tiring, so, i, am, washed, out, tonight, tomorrow, is, another, day, week, 27, sat, 28th, september, saturday, do, tell, me, there, is, light, at, the, end, of, the, tunnel, because, at, the, moment, i, definitely, feel, there, isn’t, so, i, have, taken, time, off, next, week, to, catch, up, on, all, the, things, that, need, sorted, at, home, we, are, supposed, to, be, putting, in, a, new, bathroom, and, we, need, to, get, the, stuff, ordered, so, the, guy, can, fit, it, you, never, know, it, may, include, doing, a, few, diaries, sunday, my, wife, is, on, a, counselling, course, this, w, e, so, i, ma, on, the, run, around, with, the, kids, yesterday, was, spent, watching, the, boys, plat, football, and, run, here, and, there, with, friends, son, had, 2, friends, to, come, and, camp, last, night, so, he, is, a, little, on, the, tired, side, the, weather, is, warm, and, sunny, a, real, indian, summer, the, autumn, raspberries, that, are, usually, delicious, but, quite, sparse, are, huge, and, plentiful, well, i, definitely, have, a, teen, age, daughter, as, for, the, first, time, i, had, a, phone, call, late, in, the, evening, from, carlisle, asking, her, to, be, picked, up, as, her, lift, home, had, not, worked, out, fortunately, it, was, from, the, church, youth, group, but, it, is, the, sign, of, things, to, come, the, youth, group, took, the, church, service, tonight, so, it, was, really, good, looking, at, our, world, the, pressures, on, young, people, and, how, they, respond, as, christians, and, applying, their, faith, to, their, own, situations, very, challenging, monday, we, have, an, open, night, tomorrow, night, and, it, doesn’t, seem, very, organised, yet, not, my, pigeon, i, have, made, a, resolution, not, to, get, worked, u, about, things, that, are, not, my, responsibility, and, just, leave, them, be, the, 2, new, vets, are, beginning, to, really, pull, their, weight, which, is, great, and, colleague, is, back, from, his, honeymoon, brown, and, jet, lagged, they, spent, time, at, the, beach, and, on, safari, so, had, a, great, time, nurse, has, headed, off, to, the, far, blue, yonder, she, is, one, of, our, nurses, and, has, gone, to, nz, for, a, month, so, it, will, be, strange, with, out, her, other, nurse, is, just, back, from, states, and, another, vet, is, about, to, go, to, the, caribbean, for, 2, weeks, so, i, am, getting, itchy, feet, time, to, travel, at, least, i, should, be, of, to, india, in, the, new, year, tuesday, year, end, oct, 1st, so, stock, taking, which, for, me, includes, mucking, out, my, car, i, thought, it, was, quite, normal, to, take, the, wheelie, bin, to, the, car, and, just, hoy, the, contents, in, until, my, neighbour, saw, one, of, the, rare, occasions, when, it, happens, and, burst, out, laughing, he, found, it, quite, amusing, i, was, a, bit, taken, a, back, at, the, time, but, we, always, assume, what, we, do, is, normal, the, open, day, was, ok, but, wife, was, out, so, had, to, juggle, things, a, bit, i, was, on, call, so, late, finished, and, had, to, fetch, son, from, football, as, his, practice, had, been, shifted, to, tuesdays, with, the, dark, nights, so, i, owe, friend, a, bottle, of, wine, for, turning, up, half, an, hour, late, to, pick, him, up, the, boiler, man, arrived, at, 7pm, to, fix, the, boiler, which, was, blowing, fuses, he, needs, a, lesson, on, time, management, had, several, interesting, conversations, on, fmd, the, most, amusing, one, was, about, tony, blair, arranging, his, bust, up, with, unions, on, the, anniversary, of, the, fmd, out, break, finishing, so, as, to, keep, it, out, the, news, the, same, farmer, said, about, the, govts, response, the, countryside, alliance, march, the, fact, that, they, have, reduced, the, sparsity, factor, in, the, allocation, of, central, funds, to, local, authorities, this, means, that, those, with, a, lower, population, density, and, therefore, a, higher, perceived, cost, of, providing, services, are, going, to, have, this, downgraded, or, in, this, farmer’s, opinion, take, money, from, the, countryside, to, the, town, don’t, march, or, this, govt, will, kick, you, where, it, hurts, in, a, very, subtle, way, the, other, one, was, probably, more, relevant, in, that, in, a, group, discussion, admittedly, fuelled, by, an, intake, of, free, alcohol, several, were, saying, that, this, year, was, harder, to, cope, with, than, last, as, there, was, no, crisis, or, adrenalin, to, keep, them, going, and, that, the, toll, from, last, year, was, beginning, to, tell, on, them, and, their, nerves, two, were, still, under, court, threats, from, trading, standards, defra, for, not, complying, with, regulations, both, will, in, my, opinions, not, result, in, anything, but, they, are, pretty, pissed, off, to, put, it, mildly, there, is, also, a, real, antagonism, to, doing, the, testing, for, ministry, and, we, are, in, the, cross, fire, as, defra, vets, decide, what, is, to, be, done, and, yet, we, are, the, ones, trying, to, arrange, and, get, the, testing, done, while, they, do, not, have, to, pay, us, they, do, have, to, spend, a, fair, chunk, of, time, organising, and, actually, getting, the, job, done, we, are, having, a, real, problem, with, organising, the, testing, on, one, of, the, common, grazings, there, are, 14, farmers, with, animals, on, it, biosecurity, is, a, joke, when, your, animals, are, on, common, grazing, with, 14, others, and, trying, to, get, 2, farmers, to, agree, on, a, date, and, a, method, of, doing, it, they, all, have, different, ideas, and, most, do, not, want, so, and, so, there, co, he, ll, just, wind, the, cattle, up, and, we’ll, never, catch, them, weds, day, off, so, caught, up, on, garden, and, sleep, thursday, i, really, enjoyed, the, crack, today, there, was, just, that, right, amount, of, work, and, banter, to, have, a, good, day, laughter, and, fun, is, infectious, friday, out, for, a, meal, at, night, which, was, great, but, 8, 30, start, tomorrow, sat, am, is, not, going, to, be, good, october, a, young, colleague’s, brother, was, killed, in, an, accident, and, as, m, writes, retrospectively, see, below, there, followed, a, very, difficult, month, in, which, he, was, unable, to, keep, a, diary, saturday, 5th, october, it, is, in, the, smallest, of, things, that, suddenly, life, changes, very, suddenly, and, we, then, look, back, and, see, how, we, were, and, are, not, now, i, had, a, phone, call, at, ten, to, five, from, one, of, the, young, vet’s, father, father, was, asking, to, speak, to, george, or, i, that, in, itself, was, strange, the, receptionist, came, and, found, me, with, a, quizzical, look, saying, he, did, not, want, to, speak, to, young, vet, when, i, answered, the, phone, he, said, that, they, had, bad, news, in, that, her, brother, had, been, killed, in, a, traffic, accident, so, i, had, to, tell, her, the, bad, news, and, then, sort, out, the, consequences, once, she, had, got, over, the, initial, shock, wife, drove, her, to, her, parents, home, in, her, car, the, other, partners, are, away, so, we, are, short, staffed, and, young, vet, will, obviously, not, be, back, for, a, while, it, is, at, times, like, this, that, i, am, always, grateful, that, i, can, go, back, to, god, and, trust, in, him, even, though, i, do, not, understand, anything, i, know, that, i, can, trust, god, jan, 2003, writing, retrospectively, about, october, 2002, there, is, a, month, of, diaries, missing, from, the, death, of, vet’s, brother, onwards, i, always, meant, to, go, back, and, fill, in, the, days, that, i, missed, but, never, made, the, time, or, the, effort, i, found, the, time, very, difficult, so, how, her, parents, and, sister, in, law, coped, i, do, not, know, the, funeral, was, at, kirby, and, i, am, pleased, that, i, went, it, was, very, sad, to, see, some, one, in, the, prime, of, their, life, with, so, much, to, offer, cut, down, in, such, a, random, way, it, was, a, very, cumbrian, farming, gathering, the, red, faced, craggy, farmers, and, yet, there, was, a, friend, of, the, family, who, sang, at, the, wedding, who, was, a, black, american, gospel, singer, the, global, village, or, world, wide, family, of, the, church, take, your, pick, the, death, of, some, one, young, always, makes, you, consider, your, own, mortality, and, makes, you, think, about, what, you, are, doing, will, you, on, your, death, bed, wish, that, you, had, made, different, choices, the, next, month, was, busy, and, stressful, and, probably, a, time, which, would, have, been, useful, for, the, study, to, have, thoughts, and, reactions, to, my, life, when, under, stress, but, i, suppose, to, a, certain, extent, when, we, are, close, to, something, we, go, on, automatic, pilot, and, do, the, urgent, leaving, the, things, on, the, periphery, he, was, killed, while, driving, a, tractor, back, from, where, they, had, been, testing, cattle, for, american, bvd, they, had, bought, in, pedigree, world, class, dairy, cattle, this, included, a, sibling, to, an, embryo, which, had, had, the, american, bvd, so, the, ministry, were, keen, to, make, sure, that, it, was, not, established, within, the, uk, hence, the, reason, for, the, blood, sampling, i, know, you, cannot, look, at, history, and, say, what, if, but, if, the, cattle, had, not, been, culled, there, would, have, been, no, blood, sampling, to, do, and, no, reason, to, be, on, the, road, that, day, at, that, time, linkage, is, not, the, way, to, go, he, may, have, had, to, go, to, feed, stock, or, he, could, have, been, in, an, accident, in, another, way, but, the, ripples, of, actions, continue, to, reverberate, around, at, least, in, my, head, saturday, 12th, october, again, m, is, writing, retrospectively, here, of, his, first, thoughts, after, diagnosing, his, first, fmd, case, these, weeks, were, not, completed, because, of, my, stress, levels, i, have, wanted, to, transcribe, my, first, thoughts, on, fmd, that, were, written, in, a, hotel, in, newcastle, at, 2am, after, diagnosing, my, first, case, to, my, wife, dear, wife, i, don’t, know, why, i, am, writing, this, as, i, hope, to, see, you, tomorrow, but, i, suppose, i, need, to, record, what, i, feel, for, you, and, for, me, besides, sleep, eludes, me, today, was, a, beautiful, day, of, winter, sunshine, warm, sunshine, that, speaks, of, the, spring, that, is, to, come, on, frosted, snow, that, is, clear, and, white, and, pure, a, great, day, to, be, walking, up, in, the, hills, on, a, sunday, afternoon, enjoying, god’s, wonderful, creation, but, this, is, a, fallen, world, the, only, walkers, are, me, the, ministry, man, in, disposable, boiler, suit, and, waterproof, jacket, and, trousers, and, a, farmer, with, a, heavy, heart, we, go, into, each, field, checking, and, inspecting, all, the, pregnant, ewes, herding, them, into, a, corner, to, catch, and, examine, them, feet, ok, mouth, ok, a, smile, the, only, clue, to, the, sadness, on, this, man’s, heart, is, the, slight, acrid, smell, which, wafts, now, and, then, on, the, wind, the, smell, of, his, neighbours, future, burning, on, another, ministry, man’s, pyre, it’s, 2, o’clock, in, the, morning, and, why, am, i, writing, this, because, i, cannot, sleep, the, ministry, man, who, then, examined, the, cows, blisters, in, its, mouth, blisters, on, its, tongue, temp, 105f, i, am, sorry, i, say, it, is, they’ll, all, go, he, manages, to, say, fighting, back, tears, if, the, lab, confirms, it, yes, i, reply, as, a, farm, vet, of, 15, years, experience, i, am, not, allowed, to, say, it, is, foot, and, mouth, disease, only, that, i, suspect, it, an, anonymous, telephone, answerer, in, london, makes, stupid, comments, and, stupid, questions, i, take, my, samples, from, the, cow, i, grab, its, tongue, to, pull, it, out, to, take, a, sample, of, the, skin, from, the, tongue, the, cow’s, tongue, comes, off, in, my, hand, i, try, not, to, be, sick, and, place, the, sample, in, the, bottle, we, go, into, the, farmhouse, he, is, in, tears, she, is, in, tears, i, feel, like, crying, i, wouldn’t, do, your, job, for, all, the, b, tea, in, china, she, says, i, am, a, volunteer, a, tvi, all, big, depts, have, their, jargon, and, i, don’t, speak, it, yet, a, temporary, veterinary, inspector, i, only, started, 3, days, ago, a, clean, vet, who, had, not, been, in, contact, with, the, foot, and, mouth, disease, a, volunteer, from, general, practice, seconded, to, be, used, as, a, pawn, in, the, battle, against, fmd, a, man, from, the, ministry, as, i, leave, a, dirty, vet, having, double, disinfected, with, my, samples, and, a, heavy, heart, i, take, off, the, disposable, boiler, suit, and, put, on, my, shoes, i, am, me, again, not, the, man, from, the, ministry, hey, lad, nobody, would, know, you, from, anyone, else, like, that, says, the, farmer, he, has, seen, me, as, i, am, i, see, him, as, he, is, living, with, his, mother, since, his, father, died, so, as, to, be, on, hand, to, run, the, farm, his, wife, and, her, mother, in, law, trying, to, share, a, house, and, a, kitchen, while, they, convert, a, barn, into, a, house, the, builder, was, told, to, stay, away, a, week, ago, in, case, he, brought, disease, onto, the, farm, tomorrow, he, will, be, told, to, stay, away, as, there, will, be, no, income, for, at, least, 6, months, while, i, filled, in, forms, i, had, never, seen, before, with, initials, and, jargon, i’ve, never, heard, she, phoned, her, sister, to, pick, up, the, prescription, for, anti, depressants, the, doctor, said, she, should, go, on, them, while, the, stress, and, worry, of, foot, and, mouth, was, about, well, it’s, here, he, hasn’t, eaten, and, will, not, sleep, tonight, she, is, anxious, and, will, not, get, any, rest, and, the, man, from, the, ministry, well, its, 2am, and, i, am, writing, this, far, from, home, a, volunteer, a, tvi, a, pawn, in, a, bigger, game, but, after, 5, days, of, being, dirty, and, i, can, rejoin, life, back, to, normal, back, to, my, home, to, my, job, and, my, future, my, farming, couple, 5, days, of, shooting, and, burning, of, disinfectants, and, diggers, six, months, of, quarantine, and, a, future, in, farming, maybe, or, maybe, not, the, stories, abound, of, three, generations, waiting, for, the, men, from, the, ministry, but, grandfather, will, not, see, the, farm, restocked, the, stress, was, too, much, for, his, already, dodgy, heart, the, countryside, is, under, siege, and, pawns, are, being, lost, to, win, a, greater, gain, and, why, are, we, having, to, work, these, long, hours, and, sacrifice, these, pawns, because, some, one, was, so, arrogant, so, stupid, and, so, lazy, that, he, couldn’t, be, bothered, to, heat, the, swill, he, fed, to, his, pigs, he, couldn’t, keep, to, the, rules, that, were, made, so, this, would, not, happen, it, is, not, intensive, vs, extensive, organic, vs, agribusiness, it, is, sheep, vs, goats, and, they, will, be, sorted, saturday, 2nd, november, the, start, of, writing, diaries, again, after, a, break, of, a, few, weeks, i, am, hoping, to, go, back, and, fill, in, as, time, permits, so, this, is, today, and, forward, looking, working, the, w, e, with, young, vet, and, aw, sat, am, she, had, a, calving, this, morning, at, 4am, and, so, is, a, little, on, the, tired, side, so, hope, it, is, quiet, for, rest, of, the, w, e, did, surgery, and, then, spent, the, afternoon, trying, to, fix, the, out, sidelights, the, front, went, 18monhts, ago, which, shows, how, well, i, am, keeping, up, with, the, maintaince, on, this, house, but, the, back, one, went, recently, and, that, is, a, real, pain, as, you, cant, see, your, way, to, the, car, at, night, so, i, am, more, concerned, about, getting, it, fixed, the, old, lights, are, just, rusted, up, and, you, can, no, longer, replace, the, bulbs, so, up, the, ladder, to, re, wire, new, lights, i, went, unfortunately, i, was, on, call, and, yes, i, suppose, i, was, trying, to, do, too, much, but, if, you, don’t, try, you, don’t, succeed, so, i, downed, tools, went, off, to, calve, a, cow, and, then, came, back, to, find, a, neighbour, plus, her, 4, children, in, our, kitchen, so, i, stopped, had, a, cup, of, tea, and, then, headed, back, up, the, ladder, now, wife, maintains, i, should, have, noticed, that, there, were, lights, on, at, this, point, i, would, like, to, point, out, that, i, should, also, notice, when, she, has, moved, furniture, had, her, hair, cut, or, even, spring, cleaned, the, house, as, i, am, often, berated, for, my, lack, of, noticing, these, sorts, of, things, yes, i, should, have, noticed, but, i, didn’t, i, was, focussed, on, what, i, was, trying, to, do, as, usual, so, up, the, ladder, i, went, to, connect, up, the, light, not, knowing, that, wife, had, switched, the, electrics, back, on, and, yes, when, i, was, at, the, top, of, the, ladder, i, grabbed, the, wires, and, then, spent, what, seemed, an, awfully, long, time, trying, to, let, them, go, and, stay, on, the, ladder, as, the, electric, current, was, shocking, me, so, the, light, did, not, get, fixed, as, i, was, not, going, back, up, the, ladder, as, i, was, now, in, shock, ho, hum, sun, finished, the, light, while, every, one, was, out, and, then, picked, up, a, from, a, sleep, over, and, went, to, church, in, wigton, pm, was, speaking, on, the, parable, of, the, 10, bridesmaids, which, was, good, as, i, had, never, understood, it, as, it, is, obviously, related, to, a, cultural, thing, that, happened, at, weddings, in, jesus, day, the, point, being, that, the, wise, ones, who, were, waiting, for, the, return, of, the, bridegroom, had, the, oil, in, their, lamps, and, the, concept, that, this, was, the, holy, spirit, that, meant, they, could, meet, with, the, bridegroom, i, e, christ, i, am, not, sure, that, the, idea, is, entirely, right, since, there, is, that, big, leap, oil, holy, spirit, but, it, was, interesting, i, still, think, it, was, a, cultural, thing, that, was, obvious, to, his, original, listeners, and, we, just, don’t, have, a, clue, ali, and, andy, called, around, in, the, evening, it, was, really, good, to, see, him, again, he, used, to, be, a, vet, here, who, left, several, years, ago, and, it, looks, that, at, long, last, he, is, going, to, look, to, settle, down, he, was, quite, depressing, about, la, vet, practice, though, he, is, now, 100, small, animal, so, he, is, biased, they, are, actively, looking, at, taking, tb, testing, from, the, vets, in, his, area, and, the, vets, are, dropping, the, farm, practice, as, being, uneconomic, so, much, for, the, govt, wanting, more, farm, vets, around, at, least, this, is, a, low, cost, area, so, at, least, we, are, not, competing, with, small, animal, practices, able, to, offer, large, wages, to, assistant, vets, he, is, looking, to, set, up, his, own, or, buy, a, practice, to, settle, into, they, are, obviously, looking, to, get, married, so, that, will, be, another, wedding, to, go, to, we, have, been, invited, to, lb’s, who, is, finally, marrying, p, they, have, been, following, each, other, around, the, world, for, the, last, 2, years, from, disaster, to, disaster, as, they, are, both, in, humanitarian, relief, work, she, was, a, vet, student, here, too, mon, monday, monday, tell, me, why, i, don’t, like, mondays, young, vet, is, exhausted, and, everything, is, catching, up, with, her, so, she, is, going, to, take, the, end, of, the, week, off, the, joiner, finally, arrived, to, put, in, the, windows, and, had, real, problems, writhing, the, old, ones, out, and, so, has, taken, half, the, sand, stone, with, them, so, they, will, have, to, be, reconcreted, which, is, a, builders, job, ie, he, is, not, going, to, do, it, the, bathroom, is, still, in, pieces, 8, days, it, was, supposed, to, take, and, we, are, now, in, the, third, week, work, was, bedlam, so, i, was, queuing, the, ops, up, this, morning, i, hate, operating, all, morning, as, it, is, very, draining, as, i, have, to, concentrate, on, what, i, am, doing, while, the, office, staff, keep, coming, with, more, and, more, queries, urgh, got, another, stupid, letter, from, the, planners, quibbling, about, listed, building, consent, that, i, am, trying, to, get, for, the, windows, that, are, being, fitted, as, i, speak, i, started, the, ball, rolling, in, august, no, wonder, the, country, is, going, to, the, dogs, tuesday, calmed, down, a, bit, having, filled, in, the, visa, forms, for, our, holiday, to, india, the, great, legacy, of, the, british, the, bureaucracy, is, alive, and, well, why, do, they, want, to, know, my, mothers, place, of, birth, and, maiden, name, for, a, 2, week, holiday, civil, servants, missed, the, gym, cos, surgery, went, on, and, on, i, went, to, a, farm, and, was, asked, a, lot, of, questions, about, tb, as, they, had, had, a, reactor, the, ministry, had, been, out, testing, but, hadn’t, bothered, to, tell, us, mushroom, farmers, son, is, in, the, process, of, planning, next, years, football, team, weds, went, to, a, farm, today, and, he, is, complaining, that, he, cannot, get, his, cows, in, his, restocked, herd, back, in, calf, it, seems, to, be, an, ongoing, problem, a, lot, of, those, who, have, restocked, with, whole, herds, are, having, reduced, fertility, in, their, herds, it, would, be, an, interesting, study, to, see, the, figures, compared, to, non, restocked, herds, thursday, counting, the, days, until, i, am, off, work, continues, to, be, too, hectic, vet, who, lost, her, brother, is, off, and, it, makes, the, whole, pack, of, cards, of, having, enough, vets, to, cover, fall, down, i, think, too, i, am, just, very, tired, from, being, too, busy, for, too, long, when, planning, staffing, levels, it, is, usual, to, be, cautious, rather, than, to, have, too, many, vets, around, not, making, any, money, we, thought, we, were, stretching, it, by, employing, the, 2, new, grads, instead, of, the, one, it, is, also, just, being, under, pressure, all, the, time, with, out, a, few, days, to, cruise, it, went, out, to, chris, swifts, for, the, vcf, veterinary, christian, fellowship, which, was, really, good, as, usual, f, was, telling, us, about, the, thanksgiving, service, that, they, had, just, held, at, barnard, castle, she, has, also, just, got, engaged, so, it, may, curb, her, wanderings, she, is, an, explorer, and, mountaineer, she, is, just, back, from, antarctica, and, is, currently, doing, some, research, and, a, phd, at, durham, barnard, castle, practice, seems, well, organised, and, also, flexible, in, that, she, is, only, working, 3, days, a, week, to, spend, 2, days, at, durham, on, the, phd, it, was, really, good, speaking, to, friends, about, vet’s, brother, as, paul, was, with, them, at, the, accident, as, he, was, taking, the, bloods, so, spent, quite, a, while, praying, for, them, and, for, other, things, friday, bad, day, had, a, phone, call, from, the, planners, saying, they, were, not, going, to, allow, double, glazing, and, that, they, want, the, glazing, bars, to, be, 10mm, not, 20mm, why, there, are, no, 10mm, glazing, bars, on, the, spot, the, ministry, london, have, decided, that, they, are, not, going, to, train, lay, tb, testers, and, that, all, the, work, is, going, to, go, out, to, lvi’s, us, so, we, are, now, looking, at, a, lot, of, work, again, carlisle, defra, in, conjunction, with, london, have, decided, that, they, are, going, to, want, all, the, restocked, herds, tested, annually, with, every, animal, tested, not, just, the, adult, breeding, stock, so, from, looking, at, dropping, 1, 2, vets, 10, days, ago, we, are, now, going, to, be, looking, at, employing, extra, staff, if, we, can, get, hold, of, them, how, are, we, supposed, to, be, planning, for, the, future, if, it, is, so, dependent, on, the, whim, of, defra, officials, saturday, 9th, november, went, to, the, school, pta, pub, quiz, last, night, at, the, rugby, club, it, was, good, fun, but, i, was, struggling, both, to, stay, awake, and, to, dredge, up, the, infotainment, trivia, of, the, previous, year, it, is, funny, how, the, questions, chosen, reflected, the, people, who, were, asking, them, what, had, stuck, in, their, memory, or, that, they, had, chosen, nick, and, jane, were, across, from, newcastle, i, stayed, with, them, for, a, few, nights, when, working, for, defra, across, there, when, i, could, not, face, the, faceless, loneliness, of, the, hotel, consequently, was, completely, zonked, sat, morning, just, went, around, the, house, being, grumpy, went, to, watch, son, play, football, they, thrashed, yewdale, in, the, county, cup, it, was, good, to, be, out, in, the, fresh, air, and, came, back, to, sleep, for, a, while, before, heading, out, to, roy, and, christiana’s, en, famille, we, had, to, pick, up, fraser, from, wigton, this, is, their, son, who, has, just, started, seeing, a, girl, in, wigton, he, is, 14, and, so, was, amusingly, embarrassed, we, were, talking, about, leaving, the, kids, at, what, age, do, you, leave, them, on, their, own, and, to, look, after, the, younger, ones, christiana, told, us, about, when, she, left, all, three, boys, for, an, hour, and, a, half, and, the, older, two, had, got, so, fed, up, with, youngest, being, annoying, they, hung, him, by, his, joggers, from, the, post, at, the, bottom, of, the, stairs, the, middle, one, said, in, all, seriousness, that, it, was, his, fault, that, he, had, torn, his, trousers, if, he, hadn’t, tried, to, escape, the, trousers, would, have, been, fine, even, now, he, considers, that, the, wrongdoing, was, the, ripping, of, the, trousers, not, the, fact, that, they, had, hung, him, up, sun, went, to, church, in, morning, and, fittingly, for, remembrance, sunday, it, was, on, repentance, and, gods, love, daniels, prayer, in, daniel, 9, was, very, fitting, some, how, lunch, and, more, football, and, crashed, in, to, bed, exhausted, mon, tim, is, away, for, the, first, time, on, his, own, with, the, school, on, an, outward, bound, week, south, of, keswick, he, was, so, excited, about, going, i, think, wife, was, a, little, put, off, that, he, was, not, thinking, about, missing, home, hey, ho, but, that, is, a, sign, of, secure, roots, i, suppose, met, up, with, a’s, maths, teacher, to, discuss, her, maths, there, has, been, a, lot, of, to, and, froing, between, the, teachers, but, not, much, communication, with, home, so, we, went, to, see, what, they, were, saying, and, have, left, it, as, the, status, quo, which, is, what, it, should, be, first, call, today, was, a, farmer, who, is, just, out, of, hospital, having, had, his, appendix, removed, for, appendicitis, he, had, seen, this, cow, and, said, why, haven’t, you, had, the, vet, to, it, he, is, a, good, stocksman, and, with, him, being, out, of, action, they, had, a, relief, milker, in, who, hadn’t, noticed, it, had, a, twisted, uterus, and, was, trying, to, calve, if, i, had, seen, it, on, friday, i, could, have, sorted, it, out, but, because, it, was, now, to, late, i, had, to, send, it, off, it, is, sad, but, the, agricultural, industry, is, losing, a, lot, of, experience, and, a, lot, of, stocksmanship, and, handling, and, general, expertise, it, is, not, sthg, that, can, be, replaced, we, are, seeing, more, twisted, wombs, because, of, the, transport, and, fighting, amongst, restocked, herds, the, sad, thing, is, that, he, said, to, me, we, should, never, have, restocked, we, should, have, taken, the, money, and, let, it, all, go, it, is, just, too, much, hassle, with, the, paper, work, and, training, cows, they, have, just, housed, the, cattle, and, so, they, are, all, fighting, to, come, in, to, the, parlour, to, get, milked, and, just, making, life, difficult, there, is, a, real, disillusionment, around, at, the, moment, but, there, are, also, those, who, are, gearing, up, to, milk, more, and, more, cows, to, stay, still, 300, tuesday, the, great, european, market, combined, with, defra’s, inflexibility, is, causing, a, few, problems, the, dutch, heifers, that, have, been, imported, to, replace, some, of, the, fmd, losses, have, a, unique, identifier, number, which, is, on, their, ear, tag, so, everyone, knows, who, they, are, so, far, so, good, they, also, have, nl, on, them, rather, than, uk, which, means, we, know, they, are, from, holland, the, problem, is, they, have, a, small, check, digit, on, them, at, the, end, this, means, dutch, computers, can, recognise, if, the, ear, tag, is, a, valid, one, or, has, been, misread, the, uk, tags, have, a, check, digit, at, the, front, of, the, number, very, useful, to, help, rule, out, misreadings, or, transcribing, of, the, ear, tags, however, the, defra, computer, doesn’t, recognise, the, numbers, so, we, are, being, asked, to, retest, heifers, because, they, still, have, an, outstanding, record, of, the, ear, tag, numbers, as, untested, because, the, extra, digit, has, or, had, not, been, entered, on, the, uk, system, the, number, of, out, standing, tests, is, dropping, but, we, will, not, be, able, to, keep, up, with, this, level, of, testing, more, allocations, have, arrived, today, managed, to, get, all, the, bits, sorted, so, i, could, leave, at, 5, 30, for, my, few, days, off, the, only, out, standing, thing, is, the, stuff, for, the, accountant, end, of, year, it, was, supposed, to, be, in, by, 18th, of, oct, but, hey, ho, weds, i, have, taken, a, few, days, off, to, try, and, paint, the, windows, and, new, bathroom, we, are, having, put, in, the, planners, phoned, to, query, again, about, the, windows, and, i, told, them, they, were, already, in, so, it, went, down, like, a, lead, balloon, and, they, are, coming, to, tell, me, off, they, also, started, querying, the, other, windows, from, 95, the, problem, with, having, a, few, days, off, is, that, i, get, very, head, achey, and, feel, washed, out, and, ill, once, the, adrenalin, stops, i, seem, to, crash, thursday, met, up, with, charlie, from, longtown, vets, for, lunch, which, was, great, his, practice, in, carlisle, that, he, has, started, is, going, well, it, is, on, the, main, road, out, to, scotland, and, looks, really, good, and, he, is, getting, lots, of, custom, just, by, being, there, he, is, looking, for, a, part, time, vet, to, start, mornings, friday, repainted, the, bathroom, walls, after, discovering, i, had, used, 2, different, shades, of, green, one, was, ming, grey, the, other, ming, blue, i, just, opened, them, one, after, the, other, and, thought, the, difference, was, because, the, one, had, dried, and, the, other, was, still, wet, ooops, the, plumber, is, having, problems, with, the, electrics, and, getting, the, lights, to, work, so, it, was, all, fused, out, i, am, just, glad, we, have, a, shower, as, well, or, we, would, all, be, getting, rather, smelly, by, now, went, to, watch, changing, lanes, at, cinema, a, rather, thoughtful, if, slow, and, unbelievable, set, up, but, nice, escapism, for, an, hour, or, two, saturday, november, 16th, working, again, but, feel, better, for, having, had, a, few, days, off, even, if, the, bathroom, isn’t, finished, getting, to, be, a, bit, of, a, saga, oh, well, never, mind, sat, morning, surgery, was, busy, and, then, several, farm, calls, afterwards, for, the, amount, of, stock, around, and, the, cost, effectiveness, of, veterinary, time, we, are, doing, an, incredible, amount, of, clinical, work, dan, the, sheep, ai, vet, who, locums, for, us, on, occasions, phoned, up, wanting, alison’s, phone, number, she, was, of, course, out, it, being, sat, night, his, technician, is, ill, and, he, has, 250, swales, to, ai, tomorrow, hope, he, finds, some, one, all, the, sheep, ai, and, embryo, technicians, are, very, busy, as, people, try, to, build, up, their, pedigree, herds, and, flocks, by, breeding, for, top, quality, sun, am, busy, with, calls, and, then, painted, doors, in, bathroom, while, son, painted, the, window, very, messy, but, he, enjoyed, it, it, will, give, him, confidence, to, try, again, it, is, patience, and, practice, went, to, church, in, the, evening, rob, whitaker, the, principal, of, capernwray, bible, college, was, preaching, he, is, so, animated, and, relevant, he, was, talking, on, feeding, the, 5000, and, jesus, compassion, and, just, the, circumstances, jesus, was, in, at, the, time, how, he, used, the, disciples, and, then, applying, it, to, us, and, to, the, church, in, general, espy, compassion, very, challenging, went, on, to, meet, up, with, lads, and, spent, time, praying, phil, is, pretty, down, about, not, having, a, job, it, effects, his, self, worth, didn’t, help, that, fraser, had, a, brand, new, merc, sitting, out, side, his, house, mon, hit, the, maelstrom, running, with, an, in, tray, flowing, out, and, still, nothing, together, for, year, end, to, accountant, so, pushed, practice, manager, and, then, started, operating, and, haunting, him, every, 20, mins, in, between, ops, and, keeping, him, on, task, the, problem, is, that, there, are, so, many, other, things, going, on, at, the, moment, that, the, non, urgent, keep, disappearing, in, to, tomorrow, the, new, drugs, discount, system, is, working, and, generating, a, lot, of, interest, and, then, hopefully, will, cut, down, on, the, black, market, with, any, luck, the, increased, turn, over, will, make, up, for, margin, usual, problem, solving, and, smoothing, over, and, 2nd, opinions, to, sort, out, the, 20, day, rule, is, not, stopping, one, of, our, local, cattle, dealers, from, buying, and, selling, he, says, the, paperwork, to, run, 5, holding, numbers, is, horrendous, ken, and, anne, called, around, and, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, they, have, a, lime, spreading, business, and, have, been, really, busy, over, fmd, both, with, lime, for, land, that, is, going, to, be, used, for, barley, and, crops, rather, than, grass, and, with, a, lot, of, stone, for, building, work, and, new, pathways, and, for, lonnings, whereas, farmers, were, happy, to, move, cattle, via, roads, they, are, trying, to, reduce, the, movements, along, roads, and, are, putting, in, tracks, for, the, cows, tuesday, more, tracings, to, check, for, tb, these, are, cattle, bought, from, a, farm, where, tb, has, since, been, confirmed, and, the, paperwork, to, go, with, them, ear, tags, don’t, correlate, so, going, to, be, a, problem, rota, nightmare, at, the, moment, as, everyone, is, organising, their, skiing, trips, so, we, are, going, to, have, 1, 2, vets, off, all, of, jan, and, most, of, feb, took, first, box, load, of, paperwork, to, the, accountant, he, is, an, old, fashioned, up, the, back, stairs, not, a, computer, in, sight, type, of, fella, he, is, a, wily, old, fox, much, more, than, he, looks, as, he, manages, to, keep, the, taxman, happy, and, off, our, backs, which, is, probably, the, most, important, the, financial, year, doesn’t, look, too, bad, but, doesn’t, allow, for, the, number, of, days, of, holiday, carried, over, if, we, had, to, give, the, holiday, pay, or, pay, a, vet, to, cover, for, those, days, it, would, make, them, look, a, lot, less, rosy, got, back, in, time, for, gym, and, then, tuesday, kid, chauffer, work, then, fell, into, bed, and, slept, weds, the, phone, stopped, at, 4, 00pm, and, didn’t, ring, again, until, 9, 30, this, morning, weird, the, work, has, just, stopped, like, a, tap, being, turned, off, so, got, the, rest, of, testing, sorted, sorted, out, the, rest, of, the, stuff, for, the, accountant, tidied, the, office, wrote, up, my, book, and, even, thought, about, mucking, my, car, out, only, got, as, far, as, thinking, about, it, as, coffee, break, arrived, didn’t, earn, much, but, felt, a, lot, better, for, it, skipped, off, early, and, gave, the, bathroom, doors, second, coat, thursday, 21st, november, pay, day, decided, that, if, defra, was, a, business, it, would, be, bust, by, now, we, are, on, a, rollercoaster, trying, to, look, at, the, future, with, them, they, only, make, up, in, a, normal, year, about, 20, of, our, farm, fee, income, but, that, has, been, much, higher, over, the, past, few, years, the, chief, defra, vet, has, been, flying, kites, as, they, say, in, politics, to, see, what, the, reaction, is, or, has, been, doing, as, he, has, been, told, by, whitehall, i, don’t, know, what, the, ins, and, outs, of, it, are, but, the, gist, has, been, they, are, going, to, employ, their, own, vets, to, do, the, testing, as, this, would, be, much, more, efficient, and, cost, effective, when, it, was, pointed, out, this, wasn’t, going, to, be, the, case, we, went, to, they, would, employ, non, vets, to, do, it, as, this, would, be, much, cheaper, there, would, then, not, be, any, farm, animal, vets, in, large, areas, of, the, country, as, it, would, reduce, the, fee, income, even, further, where, the, farm, side, of, vet, businesses, is, marginal, it, would, just, be, given, up, it, would, mean, our, business, in, a, high, stock, area, would, probably, drop, 2, vets, so, london, finally, decided, that, the, status, quo, would, probably, be, best, at, the, same, time, carlisle, in, consultation, with, page, st, decided, that, as, there, is, so, much, tb, being, found, in, the, restocked, farms, that, all, the, restocked, farms, should, be, tested, on, an, annual, basis, and, that, all, animals, not, just, breeding, stock, should, be, tested, this, means, about, a, 25, increase, in, work, load, for, the, next, 2, winters, so, instead, of, dropping, a, vet, we, should, look, to, be, taking, one, on, but, we, cannot, believe, what, is, going, to, happen, next, as, how, can, we, plan, when, such, drastic, changes, are, proposed, in, the, space, of, a, month, friday, had, a, horrendous, night, with, ill, calves, with, pneumonia, in, the, evening, a, calving, at, 1, am, in, silloth, then, a, dog, trying, to, die, at, 5am, so, was, i, ever, pleased, that, it, was, my, half, day, slept, and, played, squash, with, l, j, in, the, afternoon, the, dog, belonged, to, an, old, lady, who, had, no, children, and, it, was, her, husbands, dog, who, had, died, 4, years, previously, she, was, going, to, be, on, her, own, if, it, dies, so, she, was, very, tearful, and, upset, the, dog, is, not, looking, good, as, it, is, 16yr, poodle, type, thing, she, is, isolated, booth, because, she, doesn’t, drive, and, lives, out, at, the, coast, and, because, she, and, her, husband, retired, to, here, and, neither, have, any, family, around, i, felt, for, her, made, me, appreciate, my, family, so, much, more, saturday, 23rd, november, wife, is, away, on, a, course, today, so, for, my, w, e, off, i, am, running, the, kids, and, doing, the, cooking, i, dropped, of, other, son, to, squash, did, some, errands, in, wigton, and, then, watched, the, squash, coaching, they, are, very, patient, and, encouraging, the, total, contrast, was, shown, at, son, s, football, they, are, a, very, good, team, but, i, really, do, not, like, the, attitude, of, most, of, the, coaches, and, teams, in, the, carlisle, teams, i, was, late, to, arrive, and, they, were, already, 4, 0, up, and, this, was, the, second, half, it, was, only, when, i, walked, around, to, where, the, coach, was, did, he, think, about, giving, son, and, the, other, 2, subs, a, game, we, have, had, it, out, with, him, before, that, he, should, give, all, the, kids, a, chance, to, play, or, else, they, find, it, crushing, son, was, really, fed, up, with, the, situation, but, he, does, love, playing, and, is, quite, loyal, the, coach, always, justifies, that, he, has, to, play, his, best, team, which, he, doesn’t, he, plays, his, favourites, friends, sons, but, the, point, is, irrelevant, if, you, are, winning, by, that, margin, then, you, can, afford, to, have, weaker, players, on, the, field, they, went, on, to, win, 10, 0, we, will, have, to, get, a, thursby, team, organised, for, next, year, went, on, to, longtown, poultry, sale, very, interesting, lots, of, rare, birds, and, waterfowl, will, have, to, go, and, buy, next, year, and, get, some, different, types, for, a, to, breed, up, sun, dan, spoke, on, walking, on, water, in, his, own, inimitable, style, he, is, so, refreshing, and, practical, and, honest, made, it, a, call, to, prayer, as, well, didn’t, do, much, in, morning, as, wife, was, on, course, but, finally, managed, to, finish, bathroom, hoorah, mon, decided, that, if, defra, was, a, business, it, would, be, bust, by, now, we, are, on, a, rollercoaster, trying, to, look, at, the, future, with, them, they, only, make, up, in, a, normal, year, about, 20, of, our, farm, fee, income, but, that, has, been, much, higher, over, the, past, few, years, the, chief, defra, vet, has, been, flying, kites, as, they, say, in, politics, to, see, what, the, reaction, is, or, has, been, doing, as, he, has, been, told, by, whitehall, i, don’t, know, what, the, ins, and, outs, of, it, are, but, the, gist, has, been, they, are, going, to, employ, their, own, vets, to, do, the, testing, as, this, would, be, much, more, efficient, and, cost, effective, when, it, was, pointed, out, this, wasn’t, going, to, be, the, case, we, went, to, they, would, employ, non, vets, to, do, it, as, this, would, be, much, cheaper, there, would, then, not, be, any, farm, animal, vets, in, large, areas, of, the, country, as, it, would, reduce, the, fee, income, even, further, where, the, farm, side, of, vet, businesses, is, marginal, it, would, just, be, given, up, it, would, mean, our, business, in, a, high, stock, area, would, probably, drop, 2, vets, so, london, finally, decided, that, the, status, quo, would, probably, be, best, at, the, same, time, carlisle, in, consultation, with, page, st, decided, that, as, there, is, so, much, tb, being, found, in, the, restocked, farms, that, all, the, restocked, farms, should, be, tested, on, an, annual, basis, and, that, all, animals, not, just, breeding, stock, should, be, tested, this, means, about, a, 25, increase, in, work, load, for, the, next, 2, winters, so, instead, of, dropping, a, vet, we, should, look, to, be, taking, one, on, but, we, cannot, believe, what, is, going, to, happen, next, as, how, can, we, plan, when, such, drastic, changes, are, proposed, in, the, space, of, a, month, tuesday, went, to, do, routine, fertility, at, a, farm, today, and, it, was, quite, depressing, in, that, a, neighbour, of, theirs, who, has, started, up, again, has, had, a, really, bad, time, the, problems, of, restocking, on, top, of, bad, hips, he, was, all, gung, ho, to, get, restocked, and, although, he, had, a, sore, leg, he, didn’t, go, to, the, doctors, while, he, had, the, chance, when, he, had, no, stock, as, it, was, only, a, little, sore, but, as, soon, as, he, got, stock, back, and, started, to, do, a, lot, of, physical, work, they, were, very, sore, so, he, went, to, the, dr’s, and, has, 2, hips, which, need, replaced, but, as, he, is, only, 40, they, don’t, want, to, do, it, yet, and, it, would, mean, no, physical, work, for, a, long, period, on, top, of, that, he, has, mastitis, problems, caused, by, taking, his, plant, to, pieces, by, defra, he, has, lost, 8, cows, and, heifers, through, calving, illness, or, injury, so, after, less, than, a, year, he, looks, set, to, give, up, disillusioned, and, a, lot, poorer, the, workload, for, us, is, easing, as, most, cattle, are, now, housed, and, a, lot, of, the, housing, work, is, sorted, i, always, feel, it, is, a, run, down, to, christmas, now, with, all, the, preparations, and, celebrations, and, kids, and, adult, parties, i, was, at, another, farm, today, who, had, meningitis, a, year, ago, and, has, still, not, really, recovered, properly, he, is, still, finding, it, hard, to, get, going, he, lost, all, his, animals, and, all, his, work, during, fmd, and, the, additional, strain, has, meant, he, has, lost, a, lot, of, interest, in, the, farming, side, he, can’t, be, bothered, with, all, the, hassle, and, paper, work, of, farming, sheep, and, cattle, and, so, is, growing, a, lot, of, veg, which, he, and, his, wife, have, always, enjoyed, growing, they, just, retail, at, the, farm, gate, it, doesn’t, make, much, money, but, as, he, says, it, just, keeps, things, turning, over, and, he, and, his, wife, have, time, for, each, other, and, no, hassle, life, is, more, important, than, making, a, living, very, profound, i, am, going, to, go, part, time, i, wish, wednesday, there, seem, to, be, a, lot, of, problems, still, on, restocking, farms, they, are, all, having, problems, with, getting, the, cows, back, in, calf, two, farms, today, complained, that, even, though, they, were, more, than, pleased, with, the, compensation, at, the, time, the, costs, of, restocking, are, much, much, more, it, would, be, interesting, to, do, a, survey, on, the, number, of, breeding, animals, bought, in, and, those, who, have, been, lost, either, through, illness, or, by, failure, to, get, in, calf, the, old, diseases, are, still, causing, the, most, problems, lung, worm, a, disease, i, thought, was, well, under, control, and, well, understood, has, caused, huge, problems, ibr, or, cow, flu, has, caused, so, many, problems, that, we, can, no, longer, get, the, vaccine, as, all, the, stocks, have, been, used, it, was, interesting, today, that, one, of, the, farms, that, is, about, to, start, milking, having, finally, restocked, ordered, vaccine, for, lepto, ibr, and, bvd, almost, as, a, matter, of, course, but, fertility, is, causing, the, most, worries, thursday, feel, a, lot, better, after, an, early, night, apart, from, running, to, and, from, carlisle, after, my, daughter, youth, group, last, night, and, evening, shopping, tonight, son, is, still, trying, to, organise, an, u14, thursby, team, for, next, year, all, he, needs, is, a, coach, the, problem, is, that, it, is, a, big, commitment, i, wish, i, could, do, it, but, i, work, too, many, w, e’s, spent, time, day, dreaming, about, what, to, do, with, the, byre, in, our, yard, it, is, an, old, knackered, building, that, needs, bulldozing, but, wife, s, dad, thinks, we, should, just, look, after, it, and, convert, it, into, sthg, but, what, i, still, think, that, there, is, an, opening, for, herriot, holidays, taking, people, for, a, day, at, the, vets, and, then, a, day, at, the, mart, and, so, on, diversification, is, the, name, of, the, game, friday, had, an, interesting, day, what, with, one, thing, and, another, no, lunch, but, hey, who’s, complaining, one, of, the, nurses, at, work, has, a, chicken, shed, with, her, husband, and, another, farmer, partner, the, fans, and, alarms, all, failed, and, so, the, air, was, not, circulating, the, farmer, was, devastated, it, was, a, horrendous, sight, a, carpet, of, dead, chickens, there, were, 23,000, in, the, shed, and, we, worked, out, there, were, roughly, 2, 3000, left, alive, 20.000, dead, it, brought, back, memories, of, fmd, also, the, logistics, of, disposing, of, 20, tonnes, of, dead, chicken, i, hope, the, insurance, covers, it, out, for, dinner, at, christiana’s, had, a, vet, friend, call, around, at, teatime, he, is, a, meat, hygiene, practice, covering, several, different, meat, plants, they, have, several, vets, covering, all, the, different, plants, he, has, been, asked, to, got, to, harrogate, to, discuss, how, the, different, proposed, regulations, can, be, implemented, a, marked, improvement, on, the, usual, dumping, of, unworkable, ideas, from, defra, hq, saturday, 30th, nov, took, a, while, to, get, going, after, being, out, for, dinner, last, night, though, it, was, very, pleasant, spent, day, doing, odds, and, ends, went, to, watch, son, play, footie, and, bought, an, orchid, from, the, orchid, farm, the, kids, were, making, cards, for, mum, and, wrapping, presents, so, it, was, fun, james, came, down, with, his, kids, so, there, were, 7, running, riot, which, is, really, a, bit, too, many, after, a, late, night, sun, 1st, church, in, the, morning, and, johnboy, called, around, to, see, what, time, the, prayer, meeting, finished, as, he, had, arranged, a, surprise, party, for, wife, s, 40th, so, had, loads, of, folks, in, sunday, night, which, was, great, they, had, all, crept, in, to, the, big, kitchen, and, decorated, it, while, we, were, in, the, front, room, a, and, son, had, been, going, back, and, forth, so, wife, never, noticed, so, it, was, special, the, kids, were, as, high, as, kites, mon, 2nd, wife, is, forty, and, there’s, a, photo, in, the, news, and, star, to, prove, it, the, kids, brought, breakfast, in, bed, and, opened, presents, poor, other, son, after, 3, late, nights, did, not, want, to, go, to, school, i, hope, they, are, all, right, for, gran, wife, s, mum, and, sister, arrived, nannies, from, ireland, to, the, rescue, they, are, going, to, look, after, the, kids, while, we, are, away, for, a, few, days, we, have, had, a, bit, o, banter, about, them, looking, after, the, kids, sister, found, an, advert, for, nannies, from, ireland, which, is, an, au, pair, service, and, sent, of, for, the, info, which, she, forwarded, to, us, she, is, a, character, so, they, have, been, asking, about, working, conditions, and, pay, i, have, been, requesting, police, checks, and, giving, as, good, as, i, get, the, winds, are, pretty, strong, so, they, have, had, a, bad, journey, the, super, ferry, was, cancelled, so, they, have, had, to, come, by, boat, which, takes, much, longer, a, baked, a, cake, and, managed, to, get, 40, candles, on, it, both, wife, and, i, are, looking, forward, to, getting, away, as, usual, work, was, really, busy, and, lots, of, loose, ends, to, tie, up, prior, to, leaving, but, finished, for, 3, days, hoorraaahhh, tues, 3rd, spent, the, day, travelling, up, to, loch, lomond, stopped, off, at, braeside, and, at, gretna, and, bought, some, clothes, and, mooched, around, cameron, house, is, beautiful, with, wonderful, views, and, you, can, just, walk, down, to, the, lake, there, is, a, pool, so, went, for, a, swim, before, dinner, very, civilised, we, had, just, finished, dinner, when, the, waitress, arrived, with, a, cake, with, 4, candles, and, sang, a, rather, wobbly, happy, birthday, sister, had, been, very, keen, that, we, left, the, phone, number, of, cameron, house, even, though, she, had, our, mobile, numbers, now, we, know, why, very, pleasant, surprise, but, we, will, never, eat, any, cake, let, alone, a, whole, one, while, we, were, strolling, around, after, dinner, came, across, the, picture, that, one, of, our, friends, had, used, to, decorate, the, kitchen, with, on, sunday, he, had, come, across, it, somewhere, in, a, book, and, it, looks, vaguely, like, wife, so, he, had, put, it, up, with, lady, wife, underneath, and, here, was, the, original, or, at, least, a, print, of, the, same, picture, weird, weds, after, a, very, lazy, start, a, swim, before, breakfast, full, scottish, we, walked, up, eastern, edge, of, loch, in, sunshine, and, showers, we, were, only, caught, out, in, one, shower, there, was, a, rainbow, down, to, the, loch, edge, a, beautiful, winter, walk, i, have, decided, i, am, going, to, walk, the, west, highland, way, with, the, boys, had, some, fruit, for, lunch, as, cooked, breakfast, on, top, of, dinner, last, night, means, i, don’t, really, need, to, eat, for, a, week, another, swim, thought, about, the, gym, but, i, am, on, holiday, and, felt, wonderfully, relaxed, and, then, dinner, thursday, another, lazy, start, and, swim, before, breakfast, a, walk, along, the, loch, and, the, back, to, glasgow, to, the, burrell, collection, we, just, wandered, around, the, paintings, i, can, sit, and, look, at, the, impressionists, and, keep, seeing, something, new, they, are, very, beautiful, came, back, home, in, time, for, tea, though, did, not, eat, anything, as, too, much, food, made, up, a, ditty, for, the, nannies, nannies, from, ireland, came, to, stay, so, respondent, and, wife, could, go, away, off, the, children, went, to, school, while, respondent, and, wife, swam, in, the, pool, the, nannies, were, left, with, all, the, dust, cleaning, dirt, for, their, daily, crust, their, experienced, gleaned, over, all, the, years, could, not, stop, all, other, son, s, tears, off, to, school, you, must, go, said, a, stern, faced, nanny, lo, the, nannies, go, to, tk, max, forgetting, all, about, the, cats, something, is, sick, on, the, mat, the, nannies, really, don’t, like, that, a, m, l, begs, go, and, fetch, all, the, eggs, on, animals, they’re, not, too, what, did, the, contract, really, mean, keen, they, will, not, give, another, day, until, something, is, done, about, their, pay, so, back, to, ireland, with, this, tale, they, do, go, via, cummersdale, as, their, pay, all, disappears, they, decide, on, new, careers, lois, thinks, of, a, racing, car, ruth, just, of, going, far, so, our, thanks, to, them, are, due, the, nannies, from, ireland, crew, its, now, their, turn, to, go, and, play, till, they’re, called, another, day, edited, to, remove, names, in, verse, friday, bad, hair, day, having, come, back, all, relaxed, and, cheerful, i, was, relaxed, until, i, missed, my, lunch, after, working, all, day, plenty, of, hassle, from, one, thing, and, another, i, was, then, on, call, at, night, and, it, was, very, busy, loch, lomond, and, cameron, house, seem, a, long, long, time, ago, i, am, extremely, fed, up, i, do, not, want, to, calve, another, cow, out, side, office, hours, ever, again, saturday, 7th, december, worked, this, morning, after, a, bad, night, on, call, and, felt, like, death, warmed, up, did, surgery, and, then, sorted, stuff, out, and, did, some, calls, got, finished, at, 1pm, and, went, back, to, bed, went, to, xmas, party, at, white, heather, which, was, good, fun, but, i, was, just, too, knackered, to, enjoy, it, sunday, working, a, few, calls, and, plenty, of, pneumonia, drugs, for, calves, there, is, a, lot, of, pneumonia, about, with, the, east, wind, blowing, it, is, a, wee, bitty, cruel, wind, but, at, least, it, is, dry, not, weather, to, be, working, out, side, it, also, seems, to, be, getting, dark, really, early, i, need, some, sun, on, my, back, 4, weeks, to, go, till, india, had, a, migraine, or, flu, at, night, and, went, to, bed, and, started, throwing, up, i, cannot, burn, the, candle, at, one, end, even, at, the, moment, mon, off, work, ill, but, a, new, vet, student, starting, and, r, is, off, as, well, xmas, shopping, so, thrown, in, at, deep, end, tuesday, went, back, in, and, did, my, bit, working, at, night, but, night, work, easing, off, thank, goodness, plenty, of, high, cell, count, investigations, to, try, and, sort, out, weds, took, kids, swimming, after, work, with, the, vet, student, it, was, good, to, do, some, exercise, and, chill, out, went, to, staples, prior, to, going, to, the, pool, where, as, usual, there, was, no, one, on, the, desk, for, print, cartridges, so, i, went, and, found, one, of, the, girls, chatting, on, the, till, to, get, me, what, i, was, looking, for, as, i, couldn’t, find, an, hp58, what, i, hadn’t, noticed, was, some, one, else, just, standing, at, the, other, end, of, the, long, counter, who, was, then, very, upset, and, aggressive, that, i, had, jumped, the, queue, he, is, obviously, having, a, worse, week, than, me, as, he, could, have, gone, and, got, some, one, from, the, tills, as, easily, as, i, did, but, didn’t, so, why, he, got, so, upset, i, don’t, know, now’t, as, queer, as, folk, other, son, was, very, upset, tonight, when, we, got, back, from, swimming, because, he, had, shaved, one, side, of, his, head, wife, had, cut, the, others, hair, but, his, was, still, short, and, didn’t, need, it, he, wanted, it, done, so, in, the, shower, took, things, into, his, own, hands, and, shaved, off, his, side, burn, but, only, on, one, side, he, did, not, like, getting, laughed, at, either, thursday, christiana, came, to, the, rescue, over, the, hair, other, son, s, and, has, managed, to, make, it, look, not, too, bad, but, it, was, funny, on, call, at, night, but, as, most, nights, seem, double, booked, at, the, moment, went, to, kids, performance, they, are, doing, alice, in, wonderland, very, good, they, can, really, sing, and, perform, the, teachers, do, get, a, lot, out, of, them, tim, was, the, knave, of, hearts, character, actor, and, other, son, was, a, frog, footman, grebbit, grebbit, it, was, good, fun, only, had, a, phone, call, to, put, a, client, at, ease, about, her, cat, so, managed, to, wing, it, friday, out, at, friends, tonight, kids, younger, 2, at, performance, older, 2, are, at, xmas, meal, so, a, bit, of, a, juggling, act, to, get, everyone, at, right, place, at, right, time, missed, out, on, the, cumberland, vet, club, social, which, was, a, shame, but, can, only, be, in, one, place, at, a, time, saturday, 14th, december, had, a, good, meal, out, except, only, started, talking, about, the, publicity, for, as, i, was, wanting, to, go, and, fall, asleep, some, where, i, cannot, take, late, nights, it, is, just, i, am, feeling, too, tired, all, the, time, i, think, that, the, adrenalin, has, run, out, and, i, just, feel, stale, hope, xmas, sorts, it, out, spent, morning, working, did, surgery, and, then, sorted, out, queries, with, gg, for, the, accountant, spent, the, afternoon, writing, cards, and, trying, to, put, together, lists, of, folk, we, should, send, too, a, disaster, got, as, far, as, m, before, running, out, of, cards, and, initiative, went, around, to, s’s, for, nibbles, as, a, house, warming, she, is, some, caterer, her, mother, does, it, as, a, job, so, she, has, helped, so, great, food, could, have, done, with, some, non, vets, to, dilute, down, the, vetiness, sunday, got, up, and, took, kids, to, church, wife, is, doing, a, thing, on, borderline, at, night, so, she, has, to, prepare, that, played, football, and, caught, up, with, a, few, bits, and, pieces, and, did, some, gardening, chatted, to, a, vet, from, chippenham, who, was, complaining, about, the, tb, situation, there, they, have, one, beef, farm, where, when, they, first, discovered, tb, the, farm, took, a, week, to, test, as, there, were, 600, head, there, are, only, 200, left, so, it, only, takes, a, day, the, farmer, has, been, unable, to, but, in, store, cattle, to, feed, and, has, lost, over, 100, to, defra, it, has, been, 2, monthly, testing, for, almost, 2, years, now, and, he, still, has, not, had, a, clear, test, she, was, down, too, just, from, too, much, on, call, monday, got, up, feeling, exhausted, but, even, though, not, very, busy, couldn’t, get, going, the, dairy, farms, are, all, feeling, very, nervous, over, the, nestle, pull, out, farmers, said, to, me, that, they, were, pleased, that, their, sons, are, not, going, to, be, going, into, farming, both, teenagers, one, a’s, year, and, one, a, year, older, both, looking, to, work, in, it, it, used, to, be, a, point, of, sadness, that, the, next, generation, is, not, following, on, but, there, seems, to, be, a, general, air, of, resignation, that, farming, is, not, going, to, be, a, good, career, sad, really, tuesday, 17th, december, spent, the, day, sorting, out, the, remaining, bits, and, pieces, for, the, accountant, we, met, with, him, at, night, which, as, usual, was, the, sorting, out, of, this, and, that, the, finding, of, the, relevant, pieces, of, paper, and, then, what, the, unaccounted, cheques, were, for, we, are, still, making, money, but, only, thanks, to, defra, so, three, cheers, for, mrs, beckett, cynic, it, made, it, a, very, long, day, and, lois, is, off, for, the, week, so, we, are, short, staffed, again, but, last, tests, are, today, as, we, will, not, be, able, to, get, bloods, to, the, labs, because, of, the, christmas, post, i, do, like, this, time, of, year, where, you, hear, from, friends, who, you, have, not, seen, for, ages, and, think, the, same, as, you, did, last, year, i, will, have, to, catch, up, with, them, soon, hey, ho, weds, 18th, there, is, a, lot, of, pneumonia, about, and, the, farmers, are, all, buying, vast, quantities, of, drugs, to, treat, whole, batches, of, calves, and, stirks, the, is, the, usual, mix, but, far, more, than, normal, i, don’t, know, whether, to, be, pleased, that, the, practice, is, doing, well, and, invoicing, a, lot, or, sad, that, there, is, so, much, disease, around, and, we, will, have, a, horrendous, drugs, bill, a, dilemma, i, don’t, think, i, should, explore, thurs, 19th, fri, 20th, kids, went, to, ice, rink, in, carlisle, with, wife, they, have, set, up, an, out, door, rink, which, the, city, council, are, sponsoring, to, attract, people, in, to, the, centre, i, don’t, think, that, they, really, need, to, as, the, place, seems, crowded, enough, as, it, is, son, bashed, his, head, quite, badly, and, other, son, fell, over, and, hurt, his, knee, tim, fell, loads, of, times, and, just, ended, up, wet, and, happy, their, different, characters, are, coming, out, saturday, 21st, december, the, beginning, of, the, christmas, rota, i, feel, as, though, we, are, in, the, run, up, to, christmas, now, i, have, also, made, the, mistake, of, not, buying, all, my, presents, before, now, and, went, into, carlisle, to, go, shopping, it, was, quite, nice, in, some, ways, to, see, the, ice, rink, and, mingle, in, the, crowds, but, an, hour, and, a, half, was, plenty, the, kids, have, decided, that, they, are, going, to, ask, for, money, to, take, to, india, this, year, from, the, aunts, and, uncles, and, so, there, will, be, fewer, presents, to, open, as, christmas, seems, to, be, getting, more, and, more, manic, and, commercialised, i, think, that, it, is, a, very, good, idea, well, done, a, and, son, sunday, 22nd, carols, by, candlelight, it, was, magical, the, church, was, packed, out, and, so, i, ended, up, standing, at, the, back, which, in, some, ways, was, quite, nice, as, you, look, down, the, aisles, to, the, stage, and, there, are, rows, of, candles, and, fairy, lights, down, the, sides, pm, lead, it, and, there, were, different, age, groups, taking, part, he, spoke, on, being, a, christmas, tree, and, how, we, end, up, all, convoluted, by, our, own, wrong, choices, and, how, we, can, have, lots, of, fairy, lights, and, a, star, on, top, and, have, an, image, on, the, outside, that, looks, wonderful, but, what, are, we, like, inside, all, those, things, we, surround, ourselves, with, god, knows, and, he, cares, and, he, loves, us, enough, to, send, a, gift, to, help, us, his, son, immanuel, god, with, us, who, will, take, away, the, sin, of, the, world, i, was, really, quite, moved, by, it, all, this, is, the, real, christmas, mon, 23rd, bump, reality, bites, back, it, is, difficult, to, focus, on, the, important, things, of, life, and, keep, a, perspective, on, life, if, it, keeps, getting, interrupted, by, monday, mornings, but, that, is, where, jesus, should, be, in, the, smelly, cattle, shed, and, in, the, market, place, and, making, a, difference, i, will, have, to, think, that, one, out, while, i, have, time, in, india, the, urgent, as, usual, is, pushing, out, the, important, managed, to, go, swimming, at, foxes, the, first, exercise, i, have, had, for, ages, must, get, back, into, it, maybe, wait, for, the, new, year, resolutions, as, exercise, wet, weather, and, working, over, christmas, don’t, really, go, together, tues, 24th, christmas, eve, working, but, quiet, apart, from, last, minute, panics, as, people, think, that, their, ill, dogs, and, cats, will, not, make, it, over, christmas, with, out, seeing, the, vet, called, in, to, pow, heads, for, the, turkey, they, really, do, have, a, good, butchery, and, poultry, business, going, now, good, to, see, direct, selling, by, farmers, or, cooperatives, is, the, only, way, forward, to, break, the, stranglehold, of, the, supermarkets, wife, is, panicking, about, not, having, enough, food, so, i, am, dispatched, to, buy, more, bread, and, milk, i, think, about, protesting, that, if, there, were, 5000, we, still, would, not, need, a, miracle, but, decide, this, is, one, of, those, occasions, when, it, is, better, to, just, spend, another, 2, quid, for, the, peace, wife, s, parents, arrive, an, hour, later, from, belfast, bringing, 2, loaves, of, bread, and, 5, different, types, of, irish, bread, and, 6, pints, of, milk, and, another, 3, boxes, of, food, i, wonder, about, making, a, joke, about, feeding, the, 5000, plus, inflation, but, decide, that, discretion, is, the, better, part, of, valour, and, just, put, them, in, the, freezer, weds, 25th, kids, started, at, 5, 45, am, and, were, unceremoniously, sent, back, to, bed, but, they, were, allowed, to, bring, their, stockings, in, at, half, past, seven, i, was, on, 2nd, call, so, while, they, all, went, off, to, church, i, spent, an, hour, in, the, surgery, seeing, dogs, one, had, meningitis, and, was, very, near, death’s, door, and, the, owner, was, not, that, worried, the, other, is, just, unwell, and, could, have, waited, but, the, problem, is, you, never, know, got, back, and, made, christmas, dinner, so, wasn’t, all, work, though, i, do, feel, amongst, all, the, commercialism, and, turkey, dinners, the, true, significance, of, immanuel, god, who, is, with, us, is, lost, thursday, 26th, on, first, call, and, lots, of, pneumonia, drugs, to, put, out, and, kept, busy, afternoon, evening, we, had, folk, around, lots, of, different, ages, and, backgrounds, so, was, a, real, mix, and, good, fun, friday, 27th, surgery, reopened, and, was, really, busy, i, am, pleased, that, we, had, put, plenty, of, staff, on, the, rota, it, is, always, a, difficult, balance, to, make, trying, to, work, out, if, there, will, be, enough, staff, to, cover, the, work, no, one, wants, to, work, over, xmas, new, year, but, if, there, are, not, enough, then, it, makes, it, really, awful, for, those, that, are, working, but, if, you, have, people, sitting, around, they, resent, that, too, but, it’s, nice, to, know, i, get, it, right, sometimes, doing, a, rota, always, strikes, me, as, a, no, win, situation, as, it, is, always, a, compromise, between, the, two, extremes, saturday, 28th, december, on, call, friday, night, and, then, i, finished, at, lunchtime, wife, wanted, me, to, go, on, church, walk, but, i, was, knackered, and, we, are, all, going, out, tonight, for, dinner, so, i, went, to, bed, for, a, few, hours, sleep, much, to, my, wife’s, displeasure, having, been, on, call, for, the, whole, period, as, soon, as, i, stop, i, crash, out, as, the, adrenalin, fades, and, i, realise, how, tired, i, am, but, only, mon, am, to, work, then, prepare, for, india, and, hitting, the, beach, it, does, take, its, toll, on, family, life, being, on, call, especially, over, the, christmas, period, the, folk, we, are, going, to, dinner, with, he, is, a, policeman, and, they, have, similar, frictions, sun, 29th, the, service, at, church, tonight, was, memorable, the, last, evening, of, the, year, they, have, people, talking, about, what, god, has, been, doing, in, their, lives, so, it, is, usually, people, who, are, not, eloquent, not, used, to, speaking, up, front, but, who, speak, in, a, very, real, way, about, what, jesus, has, been, working, in, their, lives, over, the, past, year, dp, who, is, 14, who, has, had, bone, cancer, gave, a, very, moving, account, about, how, he, had, nearly, died, how, so, often, we, compare, our, selves, with, those, who, have, more, than, us, whether, in, health, or, other, things, we, should, compare, ourselves, with, those, who, have, less, we, should, appreciate, our, lives, and, thank, god, for, who, and, what, we, are, he, has, had, his, ups, and, downs, but, we, are, to, follow, god’s, guiding, and, his, path, for, us, our, lives, are, in, god’s, hands, we, are, to, pray, and, to, trust, in, him, for, our, future, this, is, a, young, lad, who, has, seen, 4, of, the, friends, he, has, made, in, hospital, die, it, makes, the, trivia, we, fill, our, lives, with, back, in, perspective, mon, 30th, last, half, day, and, lots, of, last, minute, things, to, sort, out, before, i, finish, for, new, year, and, the, 2, weeks, in, india, the, cash, flow, has, gone, to, pot, because, of, the, large, amount, of, pneumonia, drugs, we, have, sold, and, tax, vat, going, out, in, end, of, jan, so, needed, to, make, sure, someone, keeps, an, eye, on, it, while, i, am, away, and, makes, sure, that, it, all, falls, into, place, the, problem, with, going, away, is, that, no, one, keeps, up, with, all, the, admin, type, work, that, i, do, so, my, in, tray, will, be, overflowing, by, the, time, i, get, back, tues, 31st, the, young, people, are, partying, at, our, house, so, we, left, them, to, it, rather, than, cramp, their, style, so, we, had, a, very, pleasant, evening, at, some, farming, friends, we, rang, up, and, called, in, on, spec, they, have, 5, boys, so, we, knew, they, wouldn’t, want, to, get, baby, sitters, for, new, year’s, eve, whereas, we, had, about, 40, they, have, stopped, dairying, but, are, now, worried, about, how, the, new, ruling, will, affect, them, at, the, moment, they, lease, their, quota, which, provides, a, fair, amount, of, income, the, new, german, ruling, will, be, applicable, across, the, whole, eec, that, non, producers, cannot, hold, and, therefore, lease, quota, this, means, they, will, have, to, either, sell, it, in, a, flooded, market, or, go, back, to, dairy, farming, unless, mr, p, can, work, a, way, around, the, new, system, they, are, also, taking, advice, and, looking, at, all, sorts, of, diversification, schemes, some, seem, quite, a, good, idea, others, i, think, are, non, starters, they, already, have, invested, some, of, the, fmd, money, into, setting, up, a, student, house, in, carlisle, the, way, house, prices, are, going, around, here, it, is, probably, a, very, good, investment, not, really, the, way, forward, for, farming, though, the, only, depressing, feature, of, the, evening, was, i, asked, what, they, thought, the, future, of, cattle, vets, was, the, answer, was, none, well, that’s, a, good, start, to, 2003, we, got, home, to, find, the, party, in, full, swing, and, we, left, them, to, it, and, went, to, bed, 1st, jan, 2003, got, up, some, what, late, after, staying, up, for, the, new, years, eve, the, young, people, had, cleared, up, after, the, party, and, we, were, amazed, at, how, well, they, had, done, they, had, set, off, the, dish, washer, and, all, we, had, to, do, was, empty, it, i, was, impressed, the, only, reminder, they, had, been, there, was, when, we, drew, the, curtains, there, were, several, glasses, which, had, been, missed, as, they, were, on, the, window, sill, and, bizarrely, an, odd, sock, the, sock, game, my, daughter, assures, me, was, very, funny, but, what, i, want, to, know, is, who, went, home, with, only, one, sock, on, started, thinking, about, india, a, good, job, my, wife, is, organised, as, we, set, off, tomorrow, 2nd, jan, thursday, travelled, down, to, see, my, brother, and, family, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, again, played, risk, which, was, a, bit, of, a, christmas, tradition, when, we, were, kids, it, was, funny, to, be, playing, with, him, and, both, sets, of, kids, as, i, felt, like, a, kid, again, it, was, really, nice, though, b, won, he, managed, to, wipe, people, out, and, amass, their, risk, cards, he, risked, everything, and, it, went, to, the, last, throw, of, the, dice, so, it, was, quite, exciting, friday, 3rd, jan, travelled, down, to, my, dads, to, have, tea, and, drop, off, some, stuff, before, heading, for, the, airport, i, am, pleased, we, have, had, a, few, days, off, before, flying, as, it, is, a, night, flight, and, i, hate, travelling, when, i, am, already, exhausted, the, weather, was, the, usual, british, winter, of, rain, and, wind, a, friend, of, mine, is, convinced, that, this, is, due, to, global, warming, more, energy, in, the, system, means, more, rain, and, wind, in, which, case, cumbria, is, not, going, to, be, the, place, to, live, as, it, is, already, wet, and, windy, enough, the, next, 2, weeks, recall, x’s, family, holiday, to, india, sat, 4th, january, 2003, i, am, sitting, in, the, nilgiri, hills, in, southern, india, in, shorts, and, t, shirt, enjoying, the, coolness, of, the, high, altitude, it, is, almost, twice, the, height, of, ben, nevis, on, bbc, world, last, night, it, showed, a, reporter, in, london, with, an, umbrella, trying, to, keep, off, the, large, wet, snowflakes, we, are, visiting, friends, who, teach, at, a, christian, school, here, the, contrasts, of, india, always, seem, so, great, the, poverty, and, the, opulence, side, by, side, the, beggars, and, the, road, repairers, at, the, side, of, the, road, in, make, shift, tents, of, plastic, sheeting, and, huts, of, bamboo, leaves, then, the, huge, opulent, houses, wooden, floored, and, air, conditioned, with, their, own, generators, and, the, 4, hotels, with, marbled, floors, and, artificial, streams, and, waterfalls, we, came, on, a, cheap, charter, flight, as, it, was, cheaper, to, come, to, trivandrum, on, a, flight, and, a, package, with, hotel, b, b, than, to, just, buy, the, flights, the, emphasis, though, should, be, on, cheap, it, is, the, first, time, i, have, ever, had, to, pay, for, drinks, on, the, plane, the, air, stewardesses, seemed, to, be, there, for, a, good, time, rather, than, to, look, after, the, passengers, can't, complain, though, as, it, was, cheap, the, only, worry, was, the, re, routing, we, were, originally, supposed, to, be, going, via, united, arab, emirates, but, the, refuelling, was, transferred, to, bahrein, as, we, flew, in, we, were, warned, it, was, a, military, as, well, as, civilian, airport, so, no, photography, was, allowed, the, build, up, of, us, forces, in, the, gulf, must, be, pretty, major, as, even, here, there, were, large, numbers, of, us, air, force, planes, and, massive, sinister, looking, helicopters, it, is, difficult, to, believe, that, they, are, aiming, to, keep, the, peace, by, preparing, for, war, the, papers, here, are, also, full, of, sabre, rattling, between, pakistan, and, india, with, daily, reports, of, skirmishes, in, kashmir, there, is, also, exchanges, of, political, rhetoric, between, the, two, states, how, much, is, actually, for, real, and, how, much, is, sabre, rattling, no, one, knows, the, weekly, telegraph, is, also, reporting, that, iraq, has, shot, down, a, reconnaissance, drone, the, same, sort, that, blew, up, one, of, the, el, quaedi, leaders, in, yemen, the, us, is, obviously, trying, regime, change, by, several, methods, the, us, response, was, to, blow, up, several, command, and, control, facilities, the, war, hasn't, officially, started, yet, but, the, skirmishes, are, going, on, the, cost, the, previous, year, for, the, raf, to, patrol, the, no, fly, zone, was, 22, uk, million, the, last, quarter, was, 10, times, that, so, there, is, money, being, spent, the, priorities, of, govts, is, often, difficult, to, work, out, the, indian, govt, doesn't, have, enough, money, at, the, local, level, to, organise, a, proper, refuse, collection, system, yet, has, money, to, develop, hi, tech, weaponry, the, attitudes, to, rubbish, here, is, very, different, when, we, were, at, the, beach, the, actual, beach, is, combed, by, litter, pickers, but, the, areas, in, between, are, terrible, there, are, 2, smart, 4, hotels, and, the, govt, buildings, where, the, tourism, training, takes, place, the, grounds, are, immaculate, and, the, flowers, and, area, beautiful, but, once, out, side, the, grounds, it, is, a, cross, between, a, rubbish, dump, and, a, building, site, with, piles, of, rubbish, and, sand, and, rubble, we, went, for, a, snorkelling, trip, around, the, coast, to, a, fishing, harbour, where, the, sea, was, calm, and, there, were, plenty, of, rocks, for, the, fish, to, hide, in, and, swim, in, and, out, of, the, boats, were, a, few, bits, of, wood, tied, together, with, string, seriously, there, were, two, central, planks, and, two, edge, planks, and, then, an, aft, piece, of, wood, to, hold, the, aft, part, together, which, was, reinforced, by, cord, the, wood, is, so, light, that, it, floats, with, our, weight, fairly, easily, the, oars, were, split, bamboo, with, no, grips, so, it, made, for, interesting, rowing, or, is, it, paddling, they, are, more, like, large, canadian, canoes, than, boats, very, hawaii, five, o, the, planks, were, roughly, shaped, but, as, we, rode, the, waves, the, water, fountained, up, through, the, holes, in, the, bottom, h, asked, what, wood, they, were, made, of, but, didn't, understand, the, answer, must, be, a, type, of, balsa, we, set, off, from, under, the, light, house, there, was, another, group, going, at, the, same, time, i, think, they, must, have, agreed, to, pay, top, whack, whereas, you, soon, learn, to, try, to, bargain, about, the, price, of, everything, here, they, had, two, helpers, in, the, boat, to, paddle, whereas, we, were, the, economy, class, with, two, paddles, but, only, one, guide, in, our, two, boats, we, took, turns, in, helping, to, paddle, whether, we, made, much, difference, to, the, progression, of, the, boat, i, don, t, know, but, it, was, fun, it, was, a, bit, worrying, that, we, were, heading, for, the, least, scenic, part, of, the, coast, the, other, way, is, beautiful, sandy, beaches, for, miles, there, is, a, wave, powered, generator, at, the, edge, of, the, harbour, a, few, rusty, wrecks, and, bits, of, broken, concrete, but, when, we, arrived, the, snorkelling, was, brilliant, it, was, like, swimming, in, a, tropical, fish, tank, my, favourite, were, small, electric, blue, fish, which, darted, away, as, soon, as, you, came, near, there, were, big, black, and, yellow, striped, tiger, fish, there, were, 2, sorts, one, with, vertical, stripes, and, one, with, horizontal, not, at, all, timid, the, angel, fish, with, their, long, dangling, barbs, were, shy, and, would, only, appear, when, you, kept, still, there, were, some, very, large, spiky, sea, anemones, as, big, as, a, football, loads, of, crabs, and, shoals, of, fish, which, swim, hither, and, thither, some, were, quite, bizarre, there, were, some, that, looked, like, sea, horses, that, had, been, straightened, out, you, almost, could, see, a, jockey, getting, a, saddle, ready, to, put, on, them, for, the, saltwater, derby, the, huge, variety, and, colours, were, just, outstanding, we, spent, a, few, hours, and, then, got, thoroughly, sun, burnt, on, the, way, back, the, boys, had, been, full, of, beans, on, the, way, there, but, were, exhausted, in, the, heat, on, the, way, back, we, spent, today, making, and, flying, kites, on, top, of, a, hill, at, pykara, the, kids, or, was, it, the, dad's, made, kites, and, then, we, tried, to, fly, them, h's, won, his, design, was, copied, from, an, original, no, stick, design, and, managed, to, fly, almost, successfully, my, traditional, kite, shaped, one, flew, once, but, its, aerodynamics, weren't, quite, right, son, s, yellow, square, was, successful, none, however, matched, the, ikea, bought, one, we, played, cricket, and, frisbee, as, the, water, buffalos, wandered, passed, in, the, typical, indian, way, of, having, no, real, boundaries, between, one, thing, and, another, called, in, at, the, vedera's, which, was, very, pleasant, the, garden, was, stunning, as, usual, i, love, driving, through, the, tea, plantations, with, acres, of, terraced, tea, plants, and, through, the, forest, to, get, there, the, hotel, is, an, up, market, indian, rather, than, a, western, which, is, great, for, us, the, décor, lacks, a, little, in, taste, and, design, concrete, floors, and, that, rather, quaint, unfinished, look, spotlessly, clean, and, the, thing, about, india, is, they, love, having, kids, around, and, spend, ages, talking, with, them, and, love, having, them, around, going, out, for, meals, in, uk, with, children, is, always, a, bit, stressful, as, low, blood, sugars, combined, with, the, general, attitude, of, people, to, children, does, not, make, it, a, pleasant, experience, whereas, even, the, hours, wait, for, the, food, here, is, not, stressful, as, the, kids, wander, off, play, games, read, books, etc, son, and, other, son, have, befriended, a, man, at, the, blue, moon, gift, shop, he, has, spent, hours, playing, chess, and, talking, to, them, son, won, a, little, elephant, off, him, by, beating, him, at, chess, son, decided, he, would, buy, josh, the, chess, set, and, kept, bargaining, the, price, down, he, eventually, paid, 350, rupees, for, it, 4.60, the, beach, is, idyllic, with, palm, trees, and, warm, rolling, sea, the, only, problem, is, having, to, get, the, kids, out, of, the, sun, during, the, red, hot, period, between, 12, and, 2, we, do, keep, slapping, on, the, sun, tan, lotion, i, missed, the, widows, peaks, where, my, hair, is, receding, and, have, sun, burnt, red, patches, either, side, of, my, head, the, boys, have, variable, tanning, depending, on, where, the, sun, block, was, washed, off, first, dear, friends, just, a, quick, note, to, say, that, we, are, enjoying, ourselves, so, much, that, we, don't, want, to, come, home, but, we, would, miss, all, our, friends, we, had, a, great, time, at, the, beach, you, know, the, palm, trees, the, warm, rolling, sea, the, sandy, beaches, and, unlike, silloth, 30, degrees, warmth, in, fact, some, days, it, was, to, hot, and, we, had, to, drag, the, boys, out, of, the, sea, or, else, they, would, have, been, really, sun, burnt, we, are, just, back, from, 3, days, at, avalanche, which, is, a, bit, of, an, unfortunate, name, for, a, mountain, out, door, centre, but, as, there, isn't, any, snow, i, don't, think, the, indians, appreciate, the, irony, it, is, up, in, the, mountains, a, jungle, area, where, there, is, very, little, apart, from, a, few, tea, plantations, reservoirs, and, hydroelectric, plants, and, jungle, and, the, wood, men, who, harvest, the, wood, every, 10, years, we, left, a, bus, and, walked, in, to, the, centre, while, a, truck, took, the, bags, food, and, the, lazy, ones, it, is, incredibly, beautiful, with, high, hills, and, lakes, but, there, is, a, drought, at, the, moment, so, the, reservoirs, are, all, very, low, and, everywhere, is, incredibly, dry, and, dusty, thick, red, dust, which, gets, in, to, everything, the, facilities, were, basic, the, water, ran, from, a, stream, to, a, tank, to, the, taps, no, electric, showers, but, fortunately, as, always, in, india, there, was, a, little, man, or, in, fact, 3, who, cooked, for, us, all, a, is, taking, after, wife, their, main, concern, was, not, meeting, any, rats, we, abseiled, down, a, waterfall, walked, and, swam, in, another, well, son, and, other, son, swam, i, am, afraid, it, was, too, cold, for, me, i, will, wait, until, we, go, back, down, to, the, beach, we, all, went, kayaking, and, sat, around, the, campfire, at, night, saturday, 18th, january, 2003, the, end, of, our, indian, holiday, and, escape, from, cumbrian, weather, wife, saw, the, rep, yesterday, and, the, bus, was, arranged, for, 12, 30, for, a, flight, at, 5, 30, this, tour, company, is, something, else, so, we, are, going, to, catch, a, taxi, at, about, 3pm, so, we, are, not, hanging, around, the, airport, for, ages, having, 4, children, and, going, through, the, bureaucracy, of, an, indian, airport, is, bad, enough, with, out, the, additional, hassle, of, waiting, around, for, 3, hours, with, out, reason, the, annoying, part, is, that, so, much, of, it, is, pointless, in, that, they, put, your, bags, through, the, security, x, ray, in, the, main, hall, and, then, give, you, your, bags, back, so, that, if, you, wanted, to, add, stuff, to, your, bag, you, could, you, have, to, go, to, 1, desk, to, check, in, another, to, get, your, seat, another, to, exit, indian, immigration, and, customs, and, then, identify, your, bags, to, get, them, put, on, the, plane, worse, than, defra, so, we, spent, a, last, morning, swimming, on, the, beach, and, then, said, good, bye, to, the, cs, and, gs, wife, had, to, buy, her, material, fro, the, study, we, were, all, quite, sad, coming, away, i, think, we, could, have, all, stayed, and, enjoyed, living, in, india, but, back, to, porridge, sun, 19th, arrived, at, dads, at, 3am, uk, time, after, clearing, customs, flight, was, not, too, crowded, thank, goodness, as, the, space, allocated, for, my, legs, is, not, enough, they, had, as, before, messed, up, their, allocation, of, vegetarian, meals, with, the, height, of, european, ignorance, and, stupidity, they, offered, a, hindu, family, by, us, a, beef, meal, the, stewardesses, should, have, known, better, but, i, just, cringed, with, inward, embarrassment, at, their, thoughtlessness, left, in, t, shirts, and, shorts, arrived, cold, in, jeans, and, fleeces, the, air, conditioning, i, don’t, think, was, working, properly, and, every, one, was, coughing, and, dry, mouthed, as, we, arrived, in, gatwick, drove, back, up, to, cumbria, and, back, to, the, house, it, was, a, strange, sensation, to, be, back, we, had, done, so, much, and, seemed, changed, and, yet, everything, here, was, still, the, same, and, yet, not, really, in, some, ways, it, is, like, after, the, fmd, epidemic, before, and, after, everything, is, the, same, but, nothing, is, the, same, part, of, you, is, trying, to, find, where, you, fit, in, the, new, reality, part, of, you, wants, the, safety, of, the, old, ways, slightly, dislocated, from, your, surroundings, but, the, physical, surroundings, are, the, same, but, i, suppose, you, have, changed, and, the, old, certainties, that, were, not, certain, but, seemed, it, have, made, way, for, new, changeable, ways, that, are, not, certain, and, you, know, that, they, are, not, certain, mon, 20th, i, have, taken, the, day, off, to, recover, the, kids, were, all, up, really, early, because, of, the, jet, lag, and, so, had, no, qualms, about, sending, them, to, school, i, spent, the, day, unpacking, and, sorting, out, with, wife, the, pile, of, post, was, huge, but, seemed, a, lot, more, manageable, by, the, time, i, had, thrown, out, al, the, junk, mail, why, do, i, need, another, 2, credit, cards, any, way, transferred, money, for, tax, bills, and, downloaded, the, emails, there, were, only, 50, so, ploughed, my, way, through, them, when, you, are, away, for, any, length, of, time, it, makes, you, realise, how, much, work, is, required, to, keep, a, household, going, with, all, the, bills, and, stuff, tues, 21st, back, to, work, and, to, face, my, in, tray, still, feeling, a, little, jet, lagged, and, seeing, an, overflowing, in, tray, as, you, arrive, is, a, daunting, feeling, did, some, of, it, and, then, went, out, on, call, it, was, good, to, be, back, on, farm, and, seeing, folk, again, it, always, amazes, me, how, everyone, around, here, knows, everything, so, they, were, all, asking, about, india, and, had, we, had, a, good, time, so, it, was, nice, to, feel, part, of, the, community, as, a, friend, of, mine, once, commented, there, is, only, one, thing, worse, than, being, talked, about, that, is, not, being, talked, about, there, is, still, that, funny, feeling, of, having, been, away, and, having, changed, but, nothing, here, is, any, different, and, yet, thinking, that, it, should, be, though, why, it, should, be, i, don’t, know, weds, 22nd, george, wanted, a, partners, meeting, at, lunch, time, so, we, met, up, and, had, the, usual, decision, making, process, to, be, honest, the, jet, lag, was, still, really, kicking, in, so, i, was, asleep, on, my, feet, it, doesn’t, usually, effect, me, for, this, long, but, both, wife, and, i, are, shattered, by, 8pm, the, kids, are, ok, and, going, to, bed, after, us, the, sign, of, things, to, come, the, whole, pets, travel, scheme, is, causing, problems, it, has, been, presented, as, a, passport, for, pets, but, all, it, really, does, is, allow, re, entry, to, the, uk, from, certain, countries, as, long, as, you, meet, the, conditions, we, have, had, a, few, problems, and, we, do, very, few, so, what, it, must, be, like, for, those, on, the, south, coast, i, dread, to, think, the, problems, are, 2, main, ones, 1, that, there, is, a, 6, month, period, before, you, can, come, back, into, the, uk, after, the, paper, work, is, completed, you, can, go, before, the, 6, months, so, people, who, spend, the, summer, on, a, caravan, site, will, take, their, dog, abroad, but, cannot, come, back, before, the, 6, month, date, there, is, also, a, problem, where, the, forms, have, to, be, renewed, it, has, to, be, done, according, to, the, manufactures, directions, which, vary, from, country, to, country, as, in, france, it, is, a, govt, regulation, that, dogs, are, vaccinated, annually, so, the, vaccine, manufactures, stick, to, that, in, the, uk, dogs, have, to, be, done, every, 2, years, cats, annually, so, you, cannot, have, your, documentation, renewed, in, france, unless, you, vaccinate, annually, whereas, in, the, uk, you, can, renew, it, with, vaccinating, every, 2, years, the, other, problem, is, that, the, paperwork, is, so, complex, that, according, to, defra’s, figures, there, is, a, 18, failure, rate, i.e, 1, in, 6, don’t, make, it, back, in, there, is, also, a, problem, in, that, there, has, been, at, least, one, dog, imported, into, cumbria, with, out, any, paperwork, as, the, owners, thought, all, they, needed, was, a, rabies, vaccination, we, are, dealing, with, it, on, a, weekly, basis, and, are, confused, so, the, poor, punters, don’t, stand, a, chance, thursday, 23rd, there, is, a, real, problem, with, cow, fertility, in, the, restocking, farms, at, the, moment, i, went, to, 1, farm, where, of, the, 10, cows, i, checked, only, one, was, in, calf, which, is, a, little, sad, no, baby, calves, no, milk, production, and, more, losses, for, the, fmd, farmers, the, compensation, is, looking, very, small, the, only, ones, who, benefited, are, those, who, took, the, money, and, got, out, it, is, difficult, trying, to, work, out, why, these, cows, are, having, so, much, of, a, problem, as, usual, i, suspect, there, is, no, simple, answer, the, blood, tests, and, analyses, do, not, help, much, the, cows, have, been, under, a, lot, of, stress, the, movement, into, new, regimes, and, cattle, systems, where, they, have, to, learn, where, to, go, where, the, water, troughs, are, where, the, milking, parlour, is, they, have, had, to, sort, out, the, pecking, order, of, the, cows, which, espy, in, the, larger, units, is, probably, quite, stressful, where, you, add, animals, to, a, herd, there, are, lead, cows, who, know, the, set, up, and, cows, are, very, much, follow, my, leader, in, their, behaviour, patterns, where, there, is, a, complete, cull, and, restocking, there, are, no, lead, cows, so, no, leader, for, the, cows, to, follow, there, has, also, been, a, lot, of, illness, in, the, herds, which, again, will, reduce, fertility, the, other, problem, is, the, poor, quality, silage, because, of, the, bad, weather, the, other, factor, that, keeps, coming, up, in, conversation, is, what, effect, the, topping, of, grass, has, on, silage, grazing, quality, which, would, have, been, an, interesting, study, that, will, never, be, done, now, stress, is, a, generality, of, a, word, but, i, can’t, think, of, a, better, more, specific, way, of, expressing, the, problems, the, stress, of, all, the, changes, has, caused, fertility, problems, the, difficulty, is, in, finding, where, do, you, go, from, here, i, think, a, lot, will, end, up, culling, fairly, large, numbers, 15, 20, because, of, fertility, friday, 24th, one, of, the, defra, tv’s, called, in, on, her, way, back, from, a, test, tb, to, let, us, know, that, there, was, still, an, ir, causing, problems, she, also, said, that, it, looked, like, there, was, going, to, be, a, complete, herd, cull, for, tb, in, the, east, of, the, county, the, farmer, had, restocked, from, three, sources, all, were, down, to, do, as, tracings, as, well, as, to, be, done, under, the, restocking, tb, testing, they, found, 32, reactors, with, lesions, so, they, will, probably, cull, the, whole, herd, it, is, so, depressing, to, think, what, the, farmer, must, be, thinking, and, whether, he, can, face, getting, back, into, farming, again, after, this, further, disaster, does, not, bear, thinking, about, saturday, 25th, january, 2003, linda, b’s, wedding, travelled, down, to, derby, for, wedding, it, was, really, nice, to, see, them, finally, tie, the, knot, as, they, have, been, talking, about, it, for, so, long, they, have, followed, each, other, around, several, continents, so, at, least, that, will, have, seen, each, other, in, different, situations, she, first, came, as, a, student, and, has, worked, for, us, as, a, locum, she, spent, 2, years, at, all, nations, bible, college, in, london, where, she, met, him, so, a, lot, of, their, friends, from, all, nations, were, there, they, have, been, doing, agricultural, relief, work, in, the, worlds, hot, spots, from, kosovo, to, indonesia, from, haiti, to, bolivia, they, are, currently, in, bolivia, working, with, church, groups, she, has, been, setting, up, tb, testing, programme, as, there, is, a, problem, of, human, tb, which, has, been, blamed, on, the, cattle, but, they, have, completed, the, testing, and, it, is, not, the, cattle, it, seems, to, be, nearly, all, human, to, human, spread, so, that, at, least, they, can, make, a, start, on, eradicating, tb, in, humans, by, treating, the, in, contacts, they, went, away, from, the, church, in, a, horse, drawn, carriage, which, was, nice, to, see, spent, quite, a, lot, of, time, catching, up, with, vets, and, their, friends, who, we, have, not, seen, for, ages, sun, 26th, we, were, staying, with, friends, from, carlisle, who, moved, down, to, derbyshire, when, he, started, to, teach, we, went, to, their, church, which, is, a, house, church, and, is, a, little, different, to, put, it, mildly, they, meet, in, a, school, and, it, is, very, informal, with, a, drumming, band, and, a, desire, not, to, be, restricted, by, convention, or, liturgy, so, it, was, a, mixture, of, readings, and, worship, songs, they, do, seem, to, be, reaching, out, to, their, local, community, as, there, were, people, from, all, walks, of, life, there, mon, 27th, back, to, work, and, not, feeling, very, good, had, 2, weeks, in, india, and, no, stomach, bugs, but, a, w, e, in, derby, and, i, have, a, very, runny, tummy, came, home, from, work, early, and, went, to, bed, tues, 28th, off, work, ill, in, bed, being, male, this, involves, dying, noisily, in, a, corner, some, sympathy, i, get, from, my, wife, weds, 29th, not, feeling, good, but, dragged, myself, back, in, as, i, have, had, that, much, time, off, recently, and, i, feel, that, i, have, to, turn, in, but, i, am, off, tomorrow, so, i, can, recover, then, the, only, drawback, is, that, i, will, be, working, the, w, e, the, sheep, seem, to, have, decided, to, start, lambing, or, maybe, decided, not, as, we, seem, to, be, seeing, a, few, if, you, get, what, i, mean, thursday, had, a, good, day, off, and, spent, time, sleeping, and, doing, household, things, even, though, i, hate, diy, it, was, good, to, get, some, jobs, sorted, called, in, at, vets, to, pick, up, stuff, for, court, tomorrow, friday, the, more, i, experience, the, legal, proceedings, the, more, i, feel, that, they, are, a, waste, of, time, what, is, important, is, how, good, your, lawyer, is, the, case, was, all, about, whether, or, not, this, guy, had, starved, his, greyhounds, or, not, he, had, but, as, he, was, on, legal, aid, he, thought, it, might, be, better, to, try, to, keep, his, other, dogs, and, have, fewer, judgements, against, him, he, obviously, knew, his, way, around, the, legal, system, saturday, 1st, feb, 2003, reflections, on, court, case, it, is, one, of, those, really, annoying, things, that, you, can, never, replay, what, has, happened, the, case, yesterday, really, churned, me, up, with, having, to, make, huge, moral, decisions, more, or, less, on, the, spur, of, the, moment, the, complicating, factors, were, that, c, who, was, acting, on, the, defence, was, acting, outside, the, rcvs, guidelines, now, i, could, have, pointed, out, this, to, the, rspca, lawyer, but, as, c, has, already, been, struck, off, once, the, matter, could, well, have, turned, very, badly, for, him, even, though, it, is, his, decision, to, get, involved, and, a, poor, one, then, i, think, that, it, is, not, for, me, to, land, him, in, the, muck, i, could, have, done, so, both, on, the, fact, he, should, not, have, been, speaking, and, also, that, i, could, have, pointed, out, that, his, record, is, tainted, why, he, was, being, an, expert, witness, in, the, first, place, for, some, one, who, is, not, even, their, client, beadsmen, beats, me, i, had, reservations, about, doing, the, legal, work, for, the, rspca, and, at, least, we, do, quite, a, lot, of, work, for, the, local, inspector, so, i, decided, not, to, trash, c, as, a, witness, as, i, thought, that, it, was, not, my, place, to, do, so, and, secondly, the, repercussions, for, local, vet, good, will, would, not, stand, me, in, good, stead, but, i, have, my, doubts, as, to, whether, i, did, the, correct, thing, there, is, no, right, and, wrong, the, dilemmas, are, there, because, you, to, choose, which, horn, you, want, to, get, impaled, on, sun, lambing, seems, to, have, started, with, a, vengeance, spent, most, of, the, morning, at, the, surgery, with, land, rovers, and, trailers, turning, up, one, after, another, with, sheep, lambing, or, having, peri, natal, problems, i, do, like, working, out, of, the, surgery, at, the, w, e, as, there, is, far, less, driving, and, working, is, so, much, easier, and, you, don’t, have, to, keep, getting, changed, in, and, out, of, protective, clothes, so, got, two, vets, work, done, by, just, keeping, on, asking, for, them, to, come, to, the, surgery, the, farmers, don’t, mind, either, as, they, generally, have, to, put, them, in, a, pick, up, to, bring, them, back, to, the, farm, from, the, field, so, it, is, as, easy, to, drive, on, to, the, vets, rather, than, hang, around, waiting, for, them, mon, went, tt, testing, at, p’s, farm, i, used, his, son, a, fair, bit, during, fmd, as, they, went, out, early, on, and, he, always, has, done, a, fair, amount, of, contracting, on, the, various, farms, he, also, has, a, very, happy, go, lucky, style, in, contrast, to, his, dad, who, is, a, bit, of, a, worrier, i, quite, enjoyed, the, banter, and, we, could, just, work, away, as, there, is, no, pressure, too, get, finished, as, the, numbers, are, not, great, tues, went, to, o’s, where, they, are, again, having, problems, getting, the, cows, in, calf, the, levels, of, infertility, in, the, restocking, herds, are, horrendous, the, sad, thing, is, we, seem, to, be, achieving, very, little, in, actually, improving, it, in, spite, of, a, lot, of, investigations, and, spending, money, on, vaccine, and, on, supplements, the, average, loss, must, be, 5, at, least, it, would, be, interesting, to, compare, the, culling, rates, of, the, restocking, farms, and, find, out, what, the, restocking, losses, actually, are, weds, took, the, new, vet, student, with, me, today, and, let, her, do, the, first, lambing, at, r’s, they, like, everyone, else, says, they, are, getting, a, lot, of, lambs, these, were, dead, and, all, tangled, up, and, aborting, so, they, could, not, get, them, out, they, had, quads, last, night, thursday, went, to, s, and, stitched, a, teat, this, is, now, a, fairly, easy, operation, with, the, advent, of, using, open, crushes, and, decent, epidural, anaesthesia, local, is, always, fairly, iffy, as, many, a, dentists, patient, will, testify, to, it, is, very, satisfying, to, fix, something, like, that, friday, spent, the, morning, doing, certs, these, are, otm22, certificates, which, were, brought, in, by, maff, to, compensate, the, farmer, for, cows, that, would, have, been, sold, for, human, consumption, before, the, otm, scheme, banned, them, from, human, consumption, if, an, animal, is, not, fit, to, travel, then, it, can, be, shot, on, the, farm, but, to, get, the, compensation, they, need, a, vet’s, cert, to, say, that, it, is, fit, for, human, consumption, so, it, can, be, burnt, on, the, scheme, if, it, is, not, fit, then, they, have, to, pay, to, have, it, taken, away, so, there, is, a, lot, of, pressure, to, sign, them, the, scheme, is, supposed, to, be, coming, to, an, end, this, summer, but, as, yet, no, markets, exist, for, the, casualty, animals, that, are, fir, for, human, consumption, the, whole, knackery, injured, animals, burying, of, animals, scheme, is, up, for, grabs, and, the, govt, needs, to, get, some, sort, of, scheme, up, and, running, but, the, govt, thinks, maybe, rightly, that, it, is, an, industry, problem, to, get, rid, of, its, own, waste, and, it, is, not, up, to, the, taxpayer, to, get, farmers, waste, problems, sorted, leave, it, up, to, the, industry, market, to, sort, it, there, is, also, a, suggestion, that, as, tb, is, not, an, important, zoonosis, in, the, uk, anymore, then, it, is, a, production, problem, and, it, should, go, the, same, way, as, sheep, scab, and, be, taken, off, the, notifiable, disease, list, and, individual, farms, have, to, ensure, they, meet, whatever, standard, that, the, buyers, want, to, specify, which, is, what, is, happening, to, a, small, extent, in, the, dairy, industry, with, buyers, specifying, farms, must, meet, certain, criteria, saturday, 8th, feb, 2003, wife, is, on, her, course, for, the, w, e, so, i, was, doing, the, run, around, to, squash, and, football, for, sons, mon, 10th, b, is, now, renting, all, the, land, bush, ghyll, head, he, has, taken, it, over, as, a, grass, letting, another, of, the, small, farms, is, disappearing, the, reality, is, it, has, only, ever, been, a, small, holding, but, they, use, to, milk, 20, odd, cows, which, meant, it, got, the, status, of, a, farm, on, our, computer, system, the, uncle, who, use, to, run, it, when, first, arrived, was, a, real, character, he, was, always, telling, you, about, when, farmers, made, money, after, the, war, a, dozen, eggs, was, 10, shilling, none, of, your, 50ps, 10, whole, shillings, you, could, take, a, girl, to, the, cinema, and, the, lyons, café, and, still, have, change, from, a, pound, even, his, free, range, hens, eggs, would, not, buy, a, cinema, ticket, for, one, these, days, he, should, of, taken, her, as, he, ended, up, as, a, bachelor, with, his, nephew, taking, over, the, farm, tuesday, 11th, the, partners, meeting, today, was, trying, to, address, the, fact, that, the, mark, up, on, fees, is, going, to, be, eroded, one, of, the, things, that, barnard, castle, are, doing, is, putting, on, their, bills, but, as, yet, not, charging, for, things, like, telephone, advice, and, out, of, hours, so, we, are, going, to, be, doing, the, same, to, try, to, get, across, the, point, that, we, are, providing, an, all, round, service, that, needs, to, be, paid, for, but, i, still, think, at, the, end, of, the, day, the, economics, will, win, if, you, cannot, provide, a, service, at, a, profit, you, cannot, provide, a, service, so, where, does, that, leave, us, weds, harrison’s, are, having, problems, with, fertility, who, isn’t, the, blood, results, are, showing, low, levels, of, copper, but, i, am, not, convinced, that, is, what, it, is, they, will, have, to, supplement, the, feed, by, adding, more, copper, to, the, feed, the, problem, with, all, these, investigations, is, that, we, are, looking, for, a, simple, answer, when, the, actual, problem, is, multi, factorial, the, cows, may, be, short, in, copper, but, they, are, not, that, low, that, it, is, really, effecting, them, i, often, wonder, with, humans, if, you, blood, sampled, them, for, lots, of, different, minerals, would, we, find, that, a, percentage, of, the, population, is, actually, below, normal, for, some, or, several, minerals, maybe, our, omnivorous, diet, and, the, fact, we, are, not, producing, huge, amounts, of, milk, probably, does, come, in, to, it, we, do, have, a, much, more, varied, diet, most, cows, are, now, on, complete, rations, here, in, the, uk, so, that, if, the, nutritionist, gets, it, slightly, wrong, then, you, will, find, that, the, cows, will, be, short, i, suppose, the, other, thing, that, we, do, always, forget, is, that, they, are, usually, working, off, either, a, single, or, 3, 4, samples, of, silage, so, that, there, will, be, a, spread, of, what, is, actually, in, the, silage, and, the, samples, may, or, may, not, reflect, it, thursday, on, call, tonight, and, busy, which, was, ok, r, was, up, helping, at, wh, house, one, of, his, suckler, calves, had, managed, to, prolapse, its, rectum, but, it, is, as, wild, as, thunder, so, we, were, all, very, careful, about, handling, it, i, had, to, dope, it, any, way, to, operate, but, when, we, put, it, back, it, was, jumping, up, the, walls, which, is, always, a, wee, bit, disconcerting, limousin, stirks, could, be, used, for, the, grand, national, d’s, brother, is, not, very, well, at, all, now, he, has, cancer, and, went, in, for, emergency, surgery, the, day, i, shot, all, the, cows, i, had, a, big, row, with, senior, staff, at, page, st, he, had, been, admitted, to, the, hospital, at, 2am, and, was, to, undergo, emergency, surgery, that, afternoon, i, did, not, want, it, put, on, the, web, site, as, they, were, announcing, them, on, radio, cumbria, i, did, not, want, him, to, be, going, down, for, the, surgery, or, just, coming, out, of, it, and, to, find, out, from, the, radio, that, i, was, shooting, all, his, cows, i, asked, them, to, put, an, embargo, on, it, of, course, the, vets, tried, not, to, let, it, go, out, but, it, did, and, i, was, really, angry, i, wrote, some, strongly, worded, letters, and, never, even, got, a, reply, i, should, have, followed, it, up, and, held, some, one, to, account, but, i, am, afraid, it, all, got, lost, in, the, passing, of, time, at, least, r, is, a, lot, better, he, had, meningitis, around, the, time, of, fmd, he, has, had, bad, heads, and, depression, ever, since, so, it, was, good, that, he, is, back, on, farms, and, has, started, fencing, again, fri, 14th, valentines, it, is, friend, s, birthday, so, we, all, went, around, to, her, house, for, dinner, which, was, really, nice, and, ended, playing, darts, with, the, kids, i, was, pleased, to, get, some, darts, in, the, board, as, it, is, a, long, long, time, since, i, have, played, saturday, 15th, february, 2003, son’s, birthday, my, little, baby, son, is, now, 8, years, old, it, is, hard, to, believe, where, the, time, has, gone, and, all, the, water, that, has, passed, under, the, bridge, went, around, to, friend’s, at, night, and, sat, and, eat, and, put, the, world, to, rights, it, is, good, every, now, and, again, to, wind, down, and, just, enjoy, talking, with, out, having, to, think, as, we, know, them, so, well, you, can, just, come, out, with, stuff, sunday, mon, 17th, spent, the, day, tb, testing, at, dl, where, they, have, had, a, nvl, no, visible, lesions, reactor, taken, colleague, did, the, first, test, and, we, are, not, doing, the, fat, stock, on, farms, that, have, restocked, as, they, will, be, going, for, slaughter, fairly, soon, so, it, is, deemed, pointless, and, really, it, is, so, spent, the, day, putting, big, bullocks, through, the, crush, and, it, is, a, dangerous, work, for, the, men, who, go, in, amongst, them, because, they, are, very, rarely, handled, and, so, don’t, take, to, it, very, well, tuesday, had, an, interesting, lambing, today, and, a, consequence, of, fmd, that, you, forget, about, there, is, an, inherited, genetic, condition, of, suffolk’s, called, dandy, walker, syndrome, causing, hydrocephalus, in, the, lambs, so, both, the, ewe, and, tup, must, carry, the, gene, to, produce, the, deformed, lambs, with, heads, too, large, to, get, through, the, mothers, pelvis, so, it, means, doing, a, caesarean, on, a, ewe, that, can, only, be, used, to, breed, fat, lambs, from, it, has, to, be, put, to, another, breed, next, year, this, years, lambs, are, dead, going, to, die, so, the, economics, are, useless, some, breeders, just, shoot, them, at, this, point, but, he, had, called, us, to, try, to, lamb, it, or, caesaer, it, as, she, was, a, big, ewe, i, eventually, managed, to, lamb, it, he, was, saying, though, that, it, takes, time, to, work, out, whether, the, stock, you, have, bought, will, produce, the, breeding, stock, that, you, want, you, have, to, try, the, different, combinations, that, you, have, to, work, out, which, lines, work, well, together, he, reckons, on, about, 4, 8, years, before, he, will, be, back, to, breeding, decent, suffolk, sheep, in, spite, of, buying, in, good, stock, there, is, more, to, breeding, than, meets, the, eye, wednesday, rb, had, a, stirk, with, mcf, malignant, catarhal, fever, it, is, a, viral, disease, which, is, quite, often, fatal, that, they, catch, from, sheep, but, they, have, really, blue, grey, eyes, from, the, change, in, the, fluid, in, the, eye, and, the, severe, iritis, it, must, be, incredibly, painful, for, them, thursday, dixons, tt2, is, now, clear, so, they, have, to, have, them, all, tested, again, in, 42, days, to, clear, the, farm, of, restrictions, un, fortunately, the, vet, from, the, ministry, said, it, would, be, from, the, day, the, cow, is, taken, not, today, so, the, whole, thing, is, getting, a, bit, complicated, and, jd, is, getting, wound, up, understandably, so, friday, tried, to, sort, out, some, of, the, tracings, that, we, are, supposed, to, be, doing, there, are, a, lot, coming, through, but, the, quality, of, the, info, is, very, poor, tracings, are, where, the, farm, has, sold, animals, and, then, subsequently, gone, down, with, tb, or, other, notifiable, disease, the, defra, paper, chase, is, so, bad, that, ear, tag, nos, are, wrong, or, a, farmer, has, bought, several, from, the, same, source, and, only, 1, 2, are, on, the, paper, work, from, defra, the, thing, seems, to, be, falling, apart, a, bit, went, and, did, a, single, animal, up, at, the, mill, he, usually, buys, in, stores, and, fattens, them, but, as, the, store, trade, has, gone, through, the, roof, he, has, sold, a, lot, of, them, on, to, let, some, one, else, fatten, or, if, heifers, breed, from, them, the, defra, files, have, him, as, a, fattening, unit, finisher, so, that, they, hadn’t, bothered, to, do, tracings, to, him, as, they, would, be, going, for, slaughter, but, of, course, he, had, sold, one, on, that, had, gone, down, with, tb, so, they, wanted, to, know, what, was, happening, with, these, now, saturday, 22nd, february, 2003, saturday, sunday, monday, tuesday, had, a, funny, sensation, to, day, i, suppose, it, was, almost, a, flash, back, in, some, ways, i, went, to, a, farm, who, has, fancy, pedigree, sheep, he, has, rented, land, and, wanted, them, added, to, his, holding, for, the, mv, scheme, so, he, needs, a, vet, inspection, to, say, that, the, fields, are, double, fenced, so, that, the, sheep, do, not, come, in, contact, to, any, others, this, inspection, of, fields, is, pretty, meaningless, as, they, know, what, needs, to, be, done, and, so, they, are, always, up, to, scratch, the, last, time, i, was, doing, it, was, for, fmd, wednesday, thursday, friday, packed, and, got, the, last, few, things, sorted, for, the, vcf, w, e, got, the, posters, printed, and, the, display, boards, together, and, set, off, down, the, motorway, to, pick, up, friend, and, spent, most, of, the, day, travelling, it, was, good, talking, to, him, he, retired, from, practice, just, before, fmd, and, then, spent, the, first, part, of, his, retirement, working, for, defra, on, the, fmd, first, at, preston, and, then, at, settle, it, seems, they, were, better, organised, at, preston, and, he, was, quite, positive, about, the, local, teams, i, sometimes, wonder, if, i, am, sill, too, close, to, it, all, and, to, emotional, to, take, a, clear, headed, look, at, what, it, was, really, like, it, was, good, to, see, friends, at, night, and, get, set, up, for, the, w, e, sat, 1st, march, sun, 2003, vcf, w, e, it, is, difficult, for, me, to, sum, up, the, w, e, as, i, was, so, much, in, it, and, part, of, it, so, i, have, copied, the, report, from, one, of, the, students, who, wrote, a, bit, for, the, vcf, magazine, vcf, triennial, conference, 28th, feb, 2nd, march, 2003, on, a, sunny, weekend, at, the, beginning, of, march, over, 70, vets, vet, students, and, families, bravely, took, time, out, of, their, busy, schedules, and, gathered, expectantly, at, the, hayes, conference, centre, in, derbyshire, for, the, 2003, vcf, conference, we, were, a, mixed, bunch, ranging, in, age, from, 2, months, to, 70, well, nearly, from, many, different, places, denominations, and, walks, of, veterinary, life, but, we, all, had, a, common, goal, in, mind, to, unite, in, our, desire, to, love, and, serve, the, lord, jesus, christ, in, the, vocation, to, which, he, has, called, us, and, to, encourage, one, another, to, be, salt, and, light, in, the, veterinary, world, our, distinguished, speaker, for, the, weekend, was, dr, l, a, consultant, psychiatrist, and, christian, who, drew, from, his, own, experience, to, bring, us, some, thoughtful, insights, on, the, subject, of, god, at, work, he, emphasised, the, fact, that, although, work, is, a, godly, activity, and, that, we, should, view, whatever, we, do, as, if, working, for, the, lord, colossians, 3, 18, it, must, not, be, forgotten, that, a, balance, must, be, achieved, between, work, church, family, life, etc, there, was, also, an, opportunity, to, discuss, how, we, would, respond, as, christians, to, a, variety, of, ethical, decisions, that, commonly, present, themselves, in, veterinary, practice, as, well, as, the, main, talks, there, was, the, opportunity, to, join, a, variety, of, seminars, on, relevant, practical, subjects, bt, a, vet, and, long, serving, missionary, in, thailand, with, omf, led, a, most, interesting, seminar, on, the, joys, and, challenges, of, both, veterinary, and, evangelistic, work, in, a, different, culture, students, and, new, graduates, were, well, provided, for, in, seminars, on, practicing, reality, living, out, one's, faith, in, the, university, or, veterinary, practice, environment, m, c, bravely, stepped, in, at, short, notice, to, lead, a, seminar, on, business, ethics, and, vcf, secretary, generated, some, thought, provoking, discussion, on, a, very, relevant, subject, for, many, singleness, it, was, not, all, work, and, no, play, however, and, we, were, much, obliged, to, the, scottish, students, for, organising, the, saturday, night, ceilidh, much, fun, was, had, by, all, so, we, all, parted, company, on, sunday, feeling, refreshed, and, well, fed, both, physically, and, spiritually, how, encouraging, to, be, reminded, that, you, are, not, the, only, christian, vet, out, there, and, that, there, are, many, others, who, grapple, with, the, same, issues, you, face, the, weekend, was, a, time, of, friendships, rekindled, and, hopefully, new, ones, made, a, time, of, strengthening, and, a, reminder, of, what, is, ultimately, the, most, important, thing, in, our, busy, lives, leading, the, seminar, on, business, ethics, or, rather, winging, it, was, very, stressful, but, very, good, which, was, very, interesting, and, very, challenging, the, questions, about, is, it, right, to, make, a, profit, were, espy, good, to, work, through, but, it, was, incredibly, draining, by, sun, night, i, was, exhausted, drove, back, to, friend’s, for, the, night, he, live, about, 20, mins, off, motorway, and, it, was, coming, through, one, of, the, wee, villages, i, was, flashed, by, a, camera, and, so, will, have, a, fine, and, a, speeding, ticket, to, sort, out, mon, had, a, really, nice, lie, in, and, then, went, for, a, walk, with, friend, around, from, his, house, across, the, fields, it, was, beautiful, then, set, off, for, preston, to, visit, the, friend, who, is, in, prison, the, road, was, closed, on, the, way, to, the, m6, so, took, me, ages, to, find, my, way, to, the, m6, and, then, after, coming, off, at, preston, to, find, the, way, to, the, prisons, the, whole, afternoon, was, very, depressing, there, is, something, very, intimidating, about, having, to, be, processed, for, the, visit, under, security, cameras, and, by, very, polite, but, uncaring, prison, officers, the, being, searched, and, going, past, sniffer, dogs, and, having, to, give, my, finger, prints, which, are, now, on, the, police, computers, prisoner, was, ok, but, fairly, depressed, about, the, outlook, even, now, he, is, worried, about, how, he, is, going, to, cope, when, he, comes, out, the, prison, regime, is, very, oppressive, and, after, being, there, for, an, hour, and, a, half, i, was, glad, to, be, going, it, is, also, a, bizarre, situation, where, you, have, to, sit, there, and, talk, for, that, length, of, time, there, is, also, a, lot, of, stuff, that, he, wants, to, know, about, the, kids, and, you, just, can’t, help, him, most, of, what, we, know, is, hearsay, and, not, first, and, so, difficult, to, sum, up, espy, as, some, of, it, is, not, good, they, are, not, coping, with, the, whole, situation, and, it, is, basically, his, fault, or, his, and, their, mothers, so, he, is, already, feeling, guilty, enough, with, out, giving, him, more, angst, to, cope, with, but, i, was, very, glad, to, be, coming, out, again, into, the, fresh, air, spent, the, evening, at, a’s, parents, evening, challenging, senior, management, and, giving, them, a, hard, time, so, quite, a, day, tuesday, as, usual, the, disasters, after, a, w, e, away, continue, the, new, bathroom, was, totally, flooded, from, a, leaking, pipe, i, felt, like, wringing, his, neck, he, is, the, plumber, the, water, was, flowing, back, through, the, old, kitchen, and, made, a, real, mess, managed, to, get, hold, of, him, after, leaving, more, and, more, urgent, phone, messages, at, all, his, answer, phones, he, has, a, mobile, a, telephone, at, his, flat, where, he, hardly, ever, is, and, at, his, girlfriends, so, the, water, was, off, most, of, the, day, until, he, found, the, leak, and, managed, to, fix, it, again, he, had, to, smash, tiles, and, cut, holes, in, the, wall, to, fix, it, and, the, place, looked, a, mess, but, boy, o, boy, am, i, fed, up, with, that, stupid, bathroom, went, into, work, to, find, no, one, had, done, the, stuff, i, had, left, to, be, done, and, work, was, really, busy, the, speeding, ticket, had, landed, already, why, are, other, govt, depts, not, as, efficient, so, spent, the, whole, day, until, 6pm, running, around, like, a, headless, chicken, and, then, decided, that, stuff, it, i, was, going, to, the, gym, for, the, circuits, class, weds, the, disasters, continued, with, the, washing, machine, giving, up, the, ghost, which, in, a, house, with, 3, boys, and, a, vet, is, a, pretty, serious, problem, i, also, had, an, argument, with, one, of, the, other, partners, saying, that, if, we, did, not, get, another, vet, we, would, have, a, rebellion, or, people, going, off, sick, through, stress, me, being, one, of, them, and, i, have, only, been, back, 2, days, still, haven’t, managed, to, read, all, of, the, stuff, in, my, in, tray, yet, let, alone, deal, with, it, thursday, finally, convinced, senior, colleague, we, needed, some, help, as, the, ministry, got, hold, of, him, and, asked, if, we, could, do, a, tracings, herd, test, urgently, on, one, of, farms, that, has, not, restocked, the, cattle, belong, to, some, one, else, he, then, looked, at, the, book, and, decided, we, could, not, idiot, i, told, him, weeks, ago, last, september, i, think, that, this, would, happen, so, spent, the, day, sorting, out, dc, to, come, in, between, vetting, he, is, not, an, lvi, so, have, had, to, pull, some, wool, and, sweet, talk, them, into, training, him, in, the, baffling, ways, of, defra, but, that, meant, i, still, have, yet, to, reach, the, bottom, of, my, in, tray, may, be, there, is, gold, buried, at, the, bottom, i, think, this, is, one, of, those, days, when, you, look, back, were, probably, quite, decisive, but, accidental, days, this, was, the, first, time, i, really, thought, that, i, was, about, to, be, killed, i, could, see, it, happening, and, there, was, nothing, i, could, have, done, differently, to, prevent, it, i, went, on, a, calving, after, work, about, 8pm, met, up, with, the, farmers, and, one, went, to, get, water, while, the, other, and, i, walked, into, the, box, to, where, the, cow, was, the, cow, gave, me, a, funny, look, and, i, backed, off, to, behind, a, pillar, in, the, pen, oh, its, ok, it’s, a, quiet, cow, she’s, had, 8, calves, he, said, next, time, i, will, listen, to, my, instincts, so, we, went, forward, to, where, she, was, without, warning, or, snorting, or, given, it, a, second, thought, she, charged, caught, me, under, the, ribs, with, her, head, and, threw, me, to, the, ground, before, i, could, react, she, butted, me, again, in, the, head, snorted, kicked, me, and, then, backed, off, as, the, farmer, started, kicking, and, hitting, her, she, then, came, again, bashed, me, into, the, corner, on, my, back, and, kept, coming, as, her, head, flew, at, me, i, grabbed, her, nose, and, swung, myself, around, on, her, nose, kicked, her, with, both, feet, taking, all, my, weight, on, the, one, hand, while, shouting, for, help, from, the, other, guys, one, came, back, with, a, pitchfork, as, i, was, on, the, ground, i, kicked, her, again, as, they, came, with, the, fork, and, let, go, and, scrambled, away, around, the, box, she, still, came, after, me, but, i, got, to, the, gate, past, the, two, brothers, who, thumped, her, again, and, then, backed, off, and, slammed, the, gate, shut, i, lay, in, a, heap, on, a, bale, for, 10, minutes, breathing, heavily, while, they, asked, did, i, need, an, ambulance, or, doctor, i, finally, came, to, enough, to, splash, water, on, my, face, and, think, that, there, must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, it, took, all, 4, brothers, armed, with, sticks, to, get, her, into, a, crush, where, i, then, managed, to, calve, 1, dead, twin, breach, and, 1, live, twin, just, in, her, defence, the, cow, had, been, calving, for, a, while, was, in, pain, and, had, probably, just, got, herself, really, wound, up, but, she, almost, killed, me, i, then, sat, having, strong, tea, for, quarter, of, an, hour, before, summoning, up, the, courage, to, drive, home, with, hind, sight, i, should, have, taken, up, there, offer, of, a, getting, some, one, else, out, to, calve, the, cow, but, the, girl, on, 2nd, was, 5ft, nothing, and, petite, and, didn’t, think, dumping, it, on, her, was, very, fair, the, adrenaline, was, still, flowing, so, i, just, kept, on, b, i, should, however, have, let, one, of, them, drive, me, home, or, probably, to, casualty, but, i, felt, they, would, not, do, anything, at, the, hospital, except, keep, an, eye, on, me, so, i, just, went, home, to, my, own, bed, and, asked, my, wife, to, wake, me, up, every, two, hours, friday, ill, with, head, spinning, every, time, i, sit, down, to, try, and, do, something, my, head, just, goes, around, and, i, feel, really, tired, and, jet, lagged, i, think, i, prefer, india, to, being, beaten, up, by, cows, time, for, a, new, job, slept, all, afternoon, but, had, friends, for, dinner, it, had, been, arrange, months, ago, so, wife, didn’t, cancel, and, i, kept, going, but, drifted, in, and, out, a, wee, bit, saturday, 8th, march, had, a, lie, in, to, 9, o, clock, yo, still, feeling, pretty, sore, but, at, least, my, head, is, one, piece, i, think, showed, flat, to, prospective, tenants, it, is, very, rare, that, we, don’t, have, to, get, up, for, sthg, when, we, are, at, home, either, for, work, or, for, football, squash, or, something, similar, there, is, another, squash, competition, but, they, are, both, later, starts, for, our, boys, which, is, great, took, son, to, football, and, wife, phoned, up, to, say, that, the, cs, were, going, to, watch, the, lord, of, the, rings, did, i, want, to, go, so, went, to, watch, it, and, swapped, younger, kids, with, wife, taking, son, and, their, youngsters, and, i, went, with, the, cs, there, are, times, when, mobile, phones, are, really, useful, to, get, things, arranged, the, film, was, really, good, but, boy, was, i, stiff, after, sitting, down, for, that, length, of, time, my, knee, was, giving, me, real, gyp, spent, evening, at, daubes, but, i, faded, so, wife, drove, home, and, went, to, bed, sunday, 9th, went, to, church, in, morning, and, picked, up, car, friends, came, to, lunch, which, was, really, good, to, see, them, but, as, a, points, out, pointedly, they, do, have, 5, boys, so, there, were, 8, kids, flying, around, but, i, did, enjoy, seeing, them, they, are, still, trying, to, sort, out, their, diversification, plans, and, hope, to, have, several, strings, to, their, bows, as, well, as, farming, there, is, a, teachers, position, at, nelson, thom, so, that, is, probably, the, most, reliable, form, of, income, for, friend, mon, 10th, went, to, work, but, every, time, i, bend, over, or, move, to, fast, my, head, spins, so, just, did, small, animals, i, think, cats, and, dogs, are, a, much, better, idea, but, a, lot, of, sympathy, from, folk, at, work, mr, h, had, been, in, and, obviously, given, a, fairly, graphic, description, of, what, had, happened, that, and, my, face, is, not, the, most, becoming, at, the, moment, tues, 11th, back, to, work, on, the, farms, i, was, at, rs, for, a, fertility, visit, even, though, i, know, his, cows, and, i, am, happy, with, them, i, did, feel, very, nervous, about, going, any, where, near, them, i, have, lost, a, lot, of, confidence, which, although, i, expected, it, i, am, still, a, bit, wound, up, about, it, the, rest, of, day, was, ok, apart, from, several, people, whingeing, about, the, current, paper, work, requirements, for, selling, cattle, mind, you, when, you, see, what, they, need, to, sell, a, few, bullocks, or, a, geld, cow, it, is, probably, easier, to, be, an, asylum, seeker, spent, evening, at, surgery, showing, d, the, ropes, he, is, the, locum, who, is, going, to, be, working, with, us, for, the, next, few, weeks, he, is, going, to, the, ministry, at, newcastle, tomorrow, to, do, his, lvi, training, at, least, that, means, he, can, do, some, of, the, tb, testing, and, at, least, give, us, a, break, from, that, it, is, these, sort, of, things, managing, staff, showing, people, the, ropes, giving, them, back, up, and, debriefing, them, that, latkes, huge, amounts, of, time, and, energy, and, yet, is, never, seen, as, work, or, relevant, by, a, lot, of, people, the, rest, of, the, partnership, and, yet, in, any, small, business, it, is, the, people, that, make, all, the, difference, and, if, they, feel, appreciated, and, supported, and, can, debrief, and, be, reassured, then, it, makes, such, a, difference, to, them, and, happy, staff, can, deal, with, situations, and, people, a, lot, better, and, easier, than, stressed, ones, weds, 12th, next, year, i, am, not, going, it, is, definitely, some, one, else’s, turn, i, speak, of, the, annual, training, day, for, senior, lvis, it, just, drives, me, up, the, wall, the, morning, was, spent, fairly, usefully, talking, about, contingency, planning, for, the, next, fmd, or, exotic, disease, epidemic, the, page, st, planners, seemed, fairly, well, clued, in, and, taking, on, board, a, lot, of, the, ideas, and, problems, that, had, been, seen, in, 2001, the, afternoon, was, then, totally, depressing, tb, is, now, endemic, in, the, south, of, the, county, there, was, a, deer, herd, that, had, animals, dying, and, so, took, them, to, the, vic, lab, at, penrith, to, find, out, why, they, had, these, animals, losing, weight, and, dying, they, had, tb, the, ministry, had, known, that, there, had, been, reactors, all, around, that, area, but, had, never, picked, up, on, the, fact, these, deer, were, here, and, should, have, been, tested, there, were, also, complaints, that, forward, tracings, were, not, being, done, on, some, cattle, to, which, the, vety, officer, giving, the, talk, said, it, was, quite, difficult, to, work, out, where, cattle, had, gone, this, was, met, with, some, incredulity, by, the, local, vets, as, the, paperwork, and, computerised, passport, scheme, surely, means, that, trace, ability, was, one, of, the, big, issues, to, do, with, bse, and, if, it, cannot, be, done, it, means, the, whole, thing, is, a, useless, sham, well, the, answer, is, that, you, can, trace, a, specific, animal, through, markets, and, holdings, but, not, animals, on, and, off, a, holding, so, tracings, are, taking, too, much, time, so, it, is, not, getting, done, so, tb, is, spreading, idiots, the, best, systems, the, best, tools, the, best, ideas, the, best, businesses, have, to, work, through, people, so, next, year, some, one, else, can, go, and, listen, to, the, plans, in, the, sky, this, was, the, meeting, where, we, had, an, excellent, talk, on, fmd, in, feb, 2000, just, a, pity, they, did, not, listen, to, their, own, experts, there, was, also, a, talk, on, the, new, scrapie, scheme, where, the, guy, speaking, knew, less, than, his, audience, why, i, have, to, go, back, to, the, speaker, at, the, vcf, w, e, who, said, that, when, he, came, out, of, medical, school, he, had, spent, 6, years, being, taught, to, be, rational, and, scientific, where, disease, was, discussed, logically, and, a, rational, conclusion, was, sought, he, came, with, the, same, idea, to, the, national, health, service, and, struggled, he, said, we, live, in, a, fallen, world, with, fallen, institutions, and, we, have, to, accept, that, at, times, they, do, not, make, sense, and, that, it, is, not, in, our, power, or, capabilities, to, change, them, where, we, can, we, change, them, where, we, cannot, we, work, within, them, thursday, 13th, day, off, prior, to, working, w, e, went, up, high, pike, with, friend, snowed, lightly, on, tops, but, beautiful, but, a, wee, bit, chilly, spent, the, afternoon, getting, the, stuff, sorted, for, vcf, magazine, and, answering, e, mails, and, putting, the, details, from, the, w, e, in, to, some, sort, of, order, i, was, trying, also, to, put, some, responses, down, for, yesterday, but, feeling, to, angry, to, risk, putting, it, down, on, paper, i, just, hope, the, govt, is, more, in, touch, with, the, armed, forces, on, the, frontline, in, kuwait, than, the, distant, arm, of, govt, in, state, vet, service, in, cumbria, friday, 14th, another, day, another, test, another, dollar, spent, morning, supervising, the, locum, and, trying, to, get, on, top, of, my, in, tray, the, stuff, for, partners, meeting, next, week, to, try, and, get, some, decisions, and, a, w, e, on, call, looms, when, i, feel, even, though, i, have, not, been, in, work, or, worked, too, many, w, e’s, tired, and, jaded, being, beaten, up, by, the, cow, probably, doesn’t, help, saturday, 15th, march, working, the, w, e, on, first, for, the, first, time, in, a, long, time, as, i, have, been, keeping, the, amount, i, am, working, back, i, am, was, way, ahead, in, the, amount, worked, so, it, brings, the, numbers, in, line, i, also, need, a, break, as, feeling, v, tired, and, fed, up, and, with, not, much, prospect, of, rejuvenation, the, morning, was, fairly, busy, but, we, all, finished, by, 12, so, not, that, bad, it, was, funny, as, julie, who, ahs, been, a, receptionist, since, pre, fmd, said, that, she, thought, it, was, really, busy, but, compared, to, the, good, old, days, of, 8, years, ago, you, thought, it, was, a, good, sat, am, if, you, finished, by, 2, so, it, is, surprising, how, things, change, and, you, get, use, to, them, the, weather, is, beautiful, with, clear, skies, and, frosty, spring, mornings, and, dry, the, good, weather, always, makes, you, feel, better, any, way, spent, afternoon, doing, bits, and, pieces, in, garden, and, jobbing, around, sunday, 16th, busy, in, morning, but, it, shows, how, useful, the, new, building, is, ok, i, know, its, 4, years, old, but, things, have, never, been, normal, and, i, still, see, it, as, new, there, were, 2, lambings, and, a, sheep, to, see, and, drugs, to, put, out, and, because, i, was, at, the, surgery, they, just, kept, on, coming, down, to, the, surgery, to, the, large, animal, bay, so, i, did, a, lot, of, work, with, no, driving, and, it, makes, such, a, difference, what, would, have, taken, 3, 4, hours, was, finished, in, an, hour, and, a, half, missed, church, and, did, the, same, at, night, with, more, lambings, the, sheep, are, back, the, afternoon, was, spent, sorting, out, after, boys, they, went, down, to, the, pond, and, because, it, is, all, churned, up, they, got, their, wellies, stuck, in, the, mud, so, they, were, cold, and, wet, and, covered, i, had, to, use, planks, to, walk, out, to, them, so, i, did, not, sink, in, i, made, the, mistake, of, fetching, the, planks, and, the, spades, back, before, sorting, the, boys, so, they, had, trailed, mud, all, around, the, house, grrrrr, but, i, should, have, taken, photos, in, the, midst, of, this, the, new, vet, student, rachael, turned, up, so, i, could, not, give, full, vent, to, my, annoyance, mon, 17th, chaos, at, work, with, loads, of, emergencies, and, testing, so, we, were, all, glad, of, students, and, d, working, more, i, r’s, found, tb, testing, so, it, looks, like, it, will, continue, still, haven’t, found, time, to, put, pen, to, paper, or, type, writer, to, send, a, letter, to, contingency, planning, group, at, defra, but, hopefully, will, get, on, top, of, it, soon, tues, 18th, some, days, i, should, have, stayed, in, bed, a, bad, hair, day, started, off, badly, with, arriving, at, fertility, visit, as, farmer, was, emerging, from, breakfast, having, been, late, as, his, wife, was, milk, recording, and, he, had, to, calve, a, cow, so, had, to, sort, cows, before, checking, to, see, in, calf, a, very, rotten, lambing, rotten, as, in, lambs, were, disintegrating, so, stank, and, then, more, calls, left, for, lunch, at, 12, 45, to, get, half, way, and, the, called, me, back, for, another, lambing, there, were, 1, 30, calls, to, do, and, then, surgery, worked, at, night, and, i, was, fed, up, of, being, on, call, stopping, me, doing, stuff, so, went, to, gym, and, was, bleeped, out, to, speak, to, folk, 4, times, by, now, really, wound, up, so, went, to, house, group, and, sat, down, chatted, and, phone, went, sorted, that, and, then, a, cow, caesarean, this, was, followed, by, 2, more, and, 3, hours, sleep, must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, weds, 19th, feeling, my, age, no, sleep, on, the, night, before, you, 40th, birthday, does, not, do, you, any, good, missed, seeing, kids, in, morning, as, i, was, out, at, caesar, 3, during, night, on, call, the, girls, at, work, had, got, hold, of, loads, of, photos, from, my, wife, so, they, were, all, around, the, practice, well, i, was, a, cute, teenager, worked, through, to, lunch, as, morning, was, busy, and, partners, meeting, then, did, a, 1, 30, and, went, home, for, sleep, opened, presents, with, kids, at, 4, o’clock, and, went, out, to, d’s, for, meal, at, night, was, good, thurs, 20th, really, quiet, as, no, tb, testing, and, lots, of, vets, did, more, lambings, and, caught, up, on, business, side, of, organisation, doing, rota, and, organising, work, reflected, on, partners, meeting, and, tried, to, work, out, whether, i, am, out, of, sync, with, the, rest, of, the, world, and, right, or, out, of, sync, and, wrong, time, will, tell, iraq, war, started, as, predicted, but, seems, to, have, been, an, opportunistic, target, i, e, saddam, himself, rather, than, all, out, assault, weird, but, that, is, politics, i, must, ask, the, history, teachers, about, what, caused, the, failure, of, the, league, of, nations, and, whether, this, is, going, to, be, similar, for, un, fri, 21st, despite, being, on, back, up, went, out, for, a, meal, it, was, the, coffee, morning’s, xmas, bash, that, is, traditionally, now, held, in, new, year, as, there, is, too, much, else, on, during, xmas, period, spent, quite, a, while, talking, to, ms, about, league, of, nations, and, the, un, he, is, fairly, sceptical, about, the, power, and, influence, of, un, which, in, his, view, is, more, often, than, not, used, as, a, fig, leaf, for, us, or, ussr, ambitions, and, is, not, really, the, international, community, he, was, interesting, to, talk, to, about, the, history, of, iraq, played, pictionary, boys, vs, girls, which, was, fun, saturday, 22nd, march, 2003, worked, am, which, was, very, busy, as, it, was, my, 10th, day, i, was, feeling, a, bit, drained, either, that, or, cos, of, out, for, meal, last, night, i, will, let, you, decide, the, beautiful, weather, is, continuing, and, we, went, for, a, lovely, walk, up, above, fellside, the, kids, loved, playing, in, the, streams, and, the, sunshine, which, for, march, is, amazing, came, back, to, find, that, there, was, a, house, full, of, folk, to, celebrate, my, 40th, birthday, which, was, really, nice, though, it, was, a, good, thing, that, the, weather, was, good, so, the, kids, could, play, out, side, as, there, were, lots, of, them, chatted, to, p, who, is, always, full, of, energy, and, enthusiasm, he, is, a, whirlwind, of, ideas, and, concepts, and, philosophy, one, of, the, few, people, who, i, can, sit, and, listen, to, for, hours, and, hours, he, is, intelligent, and, articulate, in, 7, languages, and, yet, always, ready, to, listen, to, anyone, and, hear, what, they, have, to, say, even, if, it, is, poorly, thought, out, and, very, practical, in, his, approach, and, very, un, materialistic, he, is, quite, happy, to, give, books, and, ideas, to, anyone, who, will, read, and, learn, from, them, sunday, 23rd, this, weather, is, amazing, i, still, cannot, get, over, it, with, the, sun, blazing, down, we, went, to, watch, son, play, football, against, silloth, they, won, 2, 0, but, it, was, a, tight, match, but, very, good, to, watch, much, better, than, carlisle, as, one, spectators, put, it, went, on, to, beckfoot, for, a, picnic, in, march, the, beach, was, deserted, and, yet, it, was, warm, enough, for, t, shirts, and, shorts, for, the, boys, i, lay, in, the, sun, and, slept, and, counted, my, many, blessings, came, home, and, planted, seeds, lettuce, courgette, and, sweet, pea, must, plant, leeks, and, pumpkins, if, i, get, a, a, chance, this, week, and, buy, onion, sets, wife, spent, a, while, after, church, talking, to, b, about, low, moor, difficult, mon, 24th, sent, my, letter, to, richard, drummond, who, was, the, rvo, at, harrogate, and, is, now, head, of, service, delivery, it, is, always, a, bit, of, a, conscious, effort, to, take, up, the, cudgels, against, bureaucracy, especially, one, like, the, svs, that, has, in, its, culture, a, tendency, to, attack, those, who, criticise, it, i, hope, that, tomorrow, will, be, quiet, as, i, wish, to, write, another, letter, to, the, contingency, planning, dept, i, also, want, to, look, at, the, updated, contingency, plans, and, make, comments, on, it, but, doing, all, this, does, not, pay, the, bills, and, at, the, moment, when, work, is, so, busy, i, feel, it, is, actually, more, important, to, spend, time, with, the, kids, so, i, will, sign, off, and, go, and, watch, the, great, escape, which, they, bought, me, for, my, birthday, copy, of, letter, to, richard, drummond, who, wrote, the, drummond, report, before, fmd, saying, that, if, there, was, an, outbreak, they, would, not, be, able, to, cope, 21st, march, 2003, mr, r, d, drummond, address, removed, dear, richard, i, am, writing, to, express, my, concern, with, the, current, situation, with, tb, we, last, met, at, the, lvi, meeting, in, cumbria, where, we, had, an, excellent, talk, on, foot, and, mouth, disease, and, about, how, there, was, an, increased, risk, becoming, apparent, this, was, in, feb, 2000, at, the, meeting, this, year, as, well, as, talks, on, contingency, planning, there, was, a, lot, of, discussion, on, the, emergence, of, tb, on, cumbrian, farms, there, were, also, complaints, that, forward, tracings, were, not, being, done, on, some, cattle, to, which, the, vet, officer, giving, the, talk, said, it, was, quite, difficult, and, time, consuming, to, work, out, where, cattle, had, gone, this, was, met, with, some, incredulity, by, the, local, vets, as, the, paperwork, and, computerised, passport, scheme, involved, in, moving, cattle, is, a, huge, burden, on, farmers, trace, ability, was, one, of, the, big, issues, to, do, with, bse, and, if, it, cannot, be, done, it, means, the, whole, paper, exercise, is, a, useless, sham, the, answer, was, given, that, you, can, trace, a, specific, animal, through, markets, and, holdings, but, not, animals, on, and, off, a, holding, so, tracings, are, taking, too, much, time, so, tracings, are, not, getting, done, in, some, divisions, so, tb, is, spreading, whether, this, comes, under, your, remit, as, head, of, service, delivery, i, do, not, know, but, i, would, be, grateful, if, you, could, forward, it, to, the, relevant, department, or, to, the, minister, so, that, a, single, enquiry, to, the, cattle, movements, service, at, workington, will, ensure, a, comprehensive, list, of, movements, on, and, off, a, holding, since, the, previous, test, if, we, cannot, trace, from, herds, with, tuberculosis, reactors, the, ability, to, track, fmd, is, obviously, a, non, starter, thank, you, in, advance, for, your, help, with, this, i, hope, in, 3, years, time, we, will, not, be, contemplating, what, we, should, have, learnt, from, an, lvi, meeting, in, hadrian, house, yours, sincerely, b.v.m, s, m.r.c.v.s, tues, 25th, wife, s, cousin, from, vancouver, arrived, and, it, was, really, nice, to, see, her, again, the, canadians, are, always, so, up, beat, and, down, to, earth, they, have, a, refreshingly, positive, can, do, mentality, she, and, her, daughter, have, been, with, a, school, choir, singing, in, parts, of, europe, and, doing, the, european, tour, they, are, whistle, stopping, the, lakes, tomorrow, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, them, young, vet, who, lost, brother, was, with, them, my, favourite, mother, in, law, she, brought, me, a, set, of, kitchen, knives, for, my, birthday, present, they, are, incredibly, sharp, so, i, don’t, think, that, letting, the, kids, loose, with, them, will, be, a, good, idea, but, at, least, we, can, pitch, some, of, the, old, ones, which, needed, sharpening, every, time, you, used, them, vet, arrived, back, from, skiing, very, sun, burnt, from, the, sunshine, and, wind, she, has, had, a, really, good, time, though, weds, 26th, a, and, left, as, i, arrived, in, to, go, to, yp’s, it, was, funny, to, see, them, very, much, the, young, ladies, going, out, they, live, at, opposite, ends, of, the, world, and, yet, the, fashion, is, the, same, little, hand, bags, and, scarves, as, belts, globalisation, is, not, just, effecting, agriculture, they, had, spent, time, in, keswick, and, around, the, lakes, today, making, use, of, the, gorgeous, summer, weather, in, march, it, really, is, warm, hope, we, are, in, for, a, scorcher, of, a, summer, holidays, thursday, 27th, spent, the, quietist, night, on, call, for, a, long, long, time, nothing, why, is, it, as, soon, as, you, employ, a, locum, as, an, extra, pair, of, hands, the, work, disappears, still, it, will, given, everyone, a, chance, to, have, a, breather, said, good, bye, to, the, canadians, and, mother, in, law, we, are, heading, over, to, ireland, to, see, the, irish, side, of, the, family, at, easter, so, we, will, see, vet, friend, again, soon, but, it, was, funny, saying, goodbye, all, the, same, don’t, know, why, was, doing, a, herd, health, plan, today, for, a, farm, that, has, 50, dairy, cows, he, said, he, did, not, really, know, why, he, is, doing, it, as, he, is, going, to, give, up, and, go, and, milk, for, some, one, else, as, it, is, not, viable, to, make, it, pay, on, that, sort, of, small, scale, friday, 28th, haven’t, got, the, workload, right, at, all, i, think, the, sunshine, has, sent, the, farmers, into, the, fields, to, work, and, the, lambs, and, calves, are, all, arriving, un, aided, in, to, the, sunshine, it, is, amazing, how, the, good, weather, makes, you, feel, so, much, better, so, i, have, booked, in, extra, testing, for, next, week, the, only, slightly, sad, thing, was, talking, to, one, of, the, farmers, who, had, just, started, lambing, i, was, taking, out, rotten, lambs, that, were, aborting, 2, weeks, earlier, it, is, his, first, season, actually, lambing, as, he, only, bought, in, fat, sheep, last, year, he, said, that, it, was, at, this, stage, 2, years, ago, that, they, came, and, took, all, his, sheep, he, should, not, have, let, them, do, it, it, was, wrong, and, he, had, not, put, up, a, fight, he, had, just, gone, along, with, it, he, was, fairly, melancholic, about, it, i, tried, to, point, out, that, every, one, had, done, it, and, it, had, seemed, to, be, best, thing, to, do, at, the, time, i, did, not, think, that, pointing, out, i, had, not, been, convinced, and, argued, against, it, and, that, only, 2, out, of, 10,000, blood, samples, of, live, sheep, slaughtered, had, been, exposed, to, the, virus, would, have, helped, they, were, my, granddads, flock, he, said, now, we, have, all, these, problems, he, says, looking, at, the, dead, lambs, i, have, just, pulled, out, lying, in, a, heap, in, the, corner, of, the, trailer, you, never, forget, something, like, that, lad, he, says, never, there, are, a, lot, of, anniversaries, to, go, through, and, all, the, farmers, are, saying, the, fun, has, gone, out, of, it, saturday, 29th, march, the, beautiful, weather, is, carrying, on, and, wife, and, i, had, a, child, free, vet, student, free, afternoon, the, sun, was, out, and, we, went, down, for, a, walk, along, this, side, of, bassenthwaite, lake, there, were, lots, of, daffodils, out, and, a, light, breeze, off, the, lake, it, was, beautiful, cool, sunny, day, for, walking, and, very, pleasant, we, really, enjoyed, it, son, and, a, are, on, the, young, peoples, church, w, e, at, edinburgh, and, will, arrive, back, exhausted, from, lack, of, sleep, the, js, had, the, boys, for, the, afternoon, so, it, was, good, met, up, with, friends, in, the, evening, and, spent, the, evening, putting, agriculture, to, rights, he, sells, manages, sales, of, fertiliser, for, norsk, hydro, sunday, mothering, sunday, was, a, bit, of, a, disaster, with, out, a, to, organise, the, boys, and, i, hadn’t, had, time, to, get, them, organised, church, was, r, j, on, the, beatitudes, then, met, up, with, cs, and, went, up, bow, scale, fell, son’s, friend, and, son, complained, the, whole, way, they, were, in, really, bad, form, and, i, was, fed, up, with, them, monday, the, work, has, dried, up, completely, which, for, this, time, of, year, is, unheard, of, we, have, employed, a, locum, to, try, and, get, the, testing, done, and, no, work, for, every, one, to, do, embarrassingly, got, it, wrong, usually, at, this, time, of, year, there, is, no, testing, and, the, vets, are, running, around, like, idiots, not, very, good, news, for, us, so, wrote, letters, to, the, head, of, contingency, planning, at, page, st, to, amuse, you, i, have, copied, it, here, name, defra, rm, 803a, 1a, page, st, london, sw1p, 4pq, dear, name, i, am, writing, to, thank, you, for, travelling, north, to, carlisle, to, come, to, speak, to, the, recent, lvi, meeting, at, hadrian, house, carlisle, i, have, also, been, reading, the, defra, contingency, plan, and, a, lot, of, lessons, do, seem, to, have, been, learnt, i, appreciate, this, years, deadline, has, been, passed, to, place, it, before, parliament, but, it, is, a, living, document, my, apologies, but, better, late, than, never, i, would, like, to, make, a, few, comments, as, one, of, the, early, tvi, volunteers, at, carlisle, and, as, a, partner, of, one, of, the, practices, at, the, eye, of, the, storm, 1, the, whole, issue, of, valuation, of, animals, taken, as, a, compulsory, purchase, by, the, state, for, the, benefit, of, the, farming, community, to, eradicate, disease, has, not, been, addressed, one, of, the, initial, problems, slowing, the, slaughter, of, infected, animals, was, the, valuation, my, own, view, then, and, now, is, that, a, simple, standard, valuation, must, be, applied, it, must, be, high, enough, to, be, an, incentive, to, reporting, of, disease, but, too, low, to, make, the, possibility, of, disease, seem, financially, attractive, the, price, for, compulsory, purchase, may, be, set, higher, for, dangerous, contacts, or, less, for, affected, animals, if, there, is, a, simple, standard, value, then, the, diagnosing, vet, counts, the, number, of, bovines, and, shoots, them, the, farmer, knows, in, advance, what, compensation, is, going, to, be, paid, and, individual, animals, of, high, merit, could, be, insured, for, whatever, sum, the, farmer, is, willing, to, pay, premiums, for, this, may, be, an, unpopular, nettle, but, it, needs, to, be, grasped, even, though, i, am, sure, my, clients, would, disapprove, of, it, the, current, tuberculosis, problems, are, again, high, lighting, the, problems, in, this, area, there, should, be, a, standard, procedure, and, valuation, for, all, notifiable, diseases, and, the, values, based, on, the, last, mid, market, rate, there, are, apocryphal, stories, that, the, valuers, are, still, running, the, system, for, their, clients, the, farmers, not, defra, 2, the, second, issue, that, has, not, been, addressed, is, the, tracings, system, with, the, advent, of, the, british, cattle, movement, services, i, was, under, the, impression, that, traceability, was, a, central, part, of, government, policy, it, was, with, some, incredulity, that, in, response, to, questioning, at, the, lvi, meeting, we, were, told, that, bcms, cannot, give, a, list, of, movements, on, or, off, a, holding, so, tracings, for, tb, are, still, being, done, by, a, defra, vet, trawling, through, a, farmers, movement, book, why, if, the, political, will, was, there, at, the, touch, of, a, bottom, the, data, base, should, be, able, to, generate, a, list, of, animals, moved, in, the, past, 6, months, which, markets, they, have, been, through, and, which, holdings, they, have, been, through, if, this, cannot, be, done, for, tb, you, can, forget, trying, to, do, it, for, fmd, or, other, fast, contagious, disease, there, is, still, a, confusion, over, the, database, which, should, be, based, on, holding, numbers, several, farmers, have, multiple, holding, numbers, several, have, a, single, holding, number, and, multiple, sites, high, genetic, merit, animals, may, have, several, owners, a, single, holding, may, have, stock, from, several, different, farms, the, rules, for, cph, numbers, need, to, be, re, evaluated, centrally, if, a, data, base, is, to, be, of, use, it, must, be, actively, managed, and, updated, that, can, only, be, done, at, a, local, level, 3, disposal, i, know, that, this, has, been, looked, at, but, farm, sizes, are, continuing, to, grow, at, an, ever, more, rapid, rate, the, average, size, of, dairy, farms, in, this, area, has, grown, by, 20, cows, since, fmd, this, means, there, will, be, a, bigger, disposal, problem, as, individual, farms, will, have, more, and, more, stock, 4, the, local, office, should, have, stores, to, equip, 20, tvis, at, 24hours, notice, we, touched, on, this, point, at, the, meeting, was, the, need, for, sudden, recruitment, of, tvi, or, other, veterinary, staff, while, the, svs, can, second, small, numbers, of, vets, for, short, term, availability, there, was, a, reluctance, by, some, dvms, to, second, staff, who, may, yet, be, required, in, their, own, areas, local, lvis, can, provide, veterinary, cover, but, the, whole, structure, of, large, animal, practice, is, in, flux, and, it, may, or, may, not, be, possible, to, provide, veterinary, inspections, on, an, allocated, on, a, temporary, or, part, time, basis, the, pay, and, conditions, for, such, assistance, need, addressed, and, agreed, the, other, part, of, this, is, orientation, training, at, the, local, levels, this, by, the, end, of, the, outbreak, at, carlisle, was, quite, impressive, however, has, that, information, been, put, together, centrally, should, there, be, a, central, trainer, who, trains, designated, trainers, for, each, svs, office, decc, similarly, with, lay, blood, samplers, vaccinators, again, local, practices, could, provide, nominated, nurses, lay, staff, for, training, during, the, out, break, here, ai, personnel, were, used, very, effectively, for, blood, sampling, and, other, procedures, is, this, again, something, for, the, local, plan, but, if, the, cost, for, training, ai, staff, in, blood, sampling, was, met, centrally, it, would, encourage, a, register, of, trained, personnel, to, be, maintained, locally, the, cumbria, county, council, inquiry, recommends, the, use, of, its, emergency, centre, as, a, hub, for, multi, agency, response, to, any, disease, out, break, should, there, be, some, joined, up, government, so, that, each, county, council, as, part, of, its, contingency, plan, provides, for, an, admin, back, up, for, any, emergency, civil, disaster, terrorist, incident, and, do, the, local, plans, make, use, of, this, my, main, concern, however, is, that, when, i, asked, at, that, meeting, had, the, two, way, communications, between, page, st, and, carlisle, been, sorted, out, it, was, met, by, nervous, laughter, i, would, like, to, emphasise, that, page, st, did, not, know, what, was, going, on, in, the, field, during, fmd, outbreak, there, was, a, communication, barrier, between, the, vets, in, the, field, and, carlisle, management, and, a, huge, gulf, between, carlisle, and, page, street, i, would, plead, that, this, is, addressed, as, the, culture, identified, by, iain, anderson, still, seems, to, prevail, i, quote, a, culture, predisposed, to, decision, making, by, committee, with, an, associated, fear, of, personal, risk, taking, such, a, climate, does, not, encourage, creative, initiative, it, inhibits, adaptive, behaviour, and, organisational, learning, which, over, time, lowers, the, quality, of, the, decisions, taken, it, seems, to, me, that, a, reappraisal, of, prevailing, attitudes, and, behaviours, within, the, department, would, be, beneficial, it, may, be, outside, your, remit, but, the, northumberland, report, with, its, flow, charts, and, recommendations, actually, lists, lessons, to, be, learned, in, dec, 1969, the, one, about, the, svs, who, fared, so, poorly, in, fmd, 2001, states, we, have, considered, the, recruitment, problem, of, the, state, veterinary, service, the, reasons, maybe, the, low, initial, salary, or, in, part, the, to, the, nature, of, the, duties, within, the, service, we, consider, it, important, for, future, development, that, the, ministry, of, agriculture, should, attract, a, greater, number, of, good, young, graduates, willing, to, make, a, career, in, the, service, at, the, end, of, any, plan, are, the, people, who, are, going, to, implement, it, they, need, well, managed, well, led, and, given, the, resources, to, carry, out, the, task, they, need, to, have, confidence, in, both, the, political, and, civil, service, leadership, there, will, need, to, be, a, risk, management, of, tasks, for, financial, reasons, resource, reasons, and, for, the, wider, rural, economy, this, requires, flexible, decision, makers, who, are, prepared, to, take, risks, and, stick, their, head, above, the, collective, parapet, i, hope, that, this, provides, a, few, more, thoughts, for, you, to, work, on, yours, sincerely, refs, fmd, 2001, lessons, learned, enquiry, forward, by, chairman, iain, anderson, p7, northumberland, report, presented, to, parliament, dec, 69, part, 2, section, 47, she, spoke, at, the, last, lvi, meeting, and, as, usual, the, plans, sound, good, but, where, reality, hits, is, in, the, delivery, tuesday, did, some, small, animal, work, and, more, testing, tues, evening, always, seems, a, rush, went, to, gym, and, then, on, to, n’s, for, the, new, frontiers, church, meeting, which, was, excellent, weds, managed, some, fertility, work, in, the, morning, and, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, bringing, the, practice, database, up, to, date, it, has, been, let, go, since, foot, and, mouth, as, it, tell, us, how, much, stock, each, farm, has, the, numbers, have, been, all, over, the, place, as, people, have, been, restocking, and, changing, the, direction, their, businesses, are, going, some, moving, out, some, moving, up, in, numbers, and, some, going, from, dairy, to, beef, or, sheep, the, most, interesting, thing, was, the, fact, that, a, lot, of, farms, that, had, restocked, with, adult, animals, have, dropped, by, 5, 10, cows, since, they, restocked, as, older, cows, are, lost, or, ill, cows, go, but, there, are, not, the, young, stock, replacements, coming, through, to, replace, them, the, actual, figures, for, dairy, farms, restocking, are, not, yet, entered, in, the, computer, i, was, hoping, to, have, them, but, will, get, them, thursday, did, some, small, animals, and, some, otm22, but, it, still, incredibly, quiet, consequently, i, have, booked, in, a, lot, more, work, for, the, next, few, weeks, so, i, hope, i, don’t, get, it, wrong, the, other, way, set, up, anne, a, vet, student, for, her, project, on, comparing, fertility, pre, and, post, fmd, finished, off, updating, the, database, figures, so, they, will, hopefully, get, entered, over, next, few, days, and, we, can, do, some, comparisons, march, figures, look, ok, but, the, long, term, out, look, is, not, so, good, the, govt, is, doing, a, committee, looking, at, farm, animal, vet, practice, the, lakeland, bva, have, asked, for, comments, efracom, inquiry, into, vets, and, veterinary, services, efracom, is, a, defra, committee, terms, of, reference, are, to, look, at, the, provision, of, farm, veterinary, services, in, england, and, wales, in, particular, it, will, look, at, 1, what, impact, current, levels, of, farm, income, are, having, on, the, usage, of, veterinary, services, and, in, turn, what, effect, any, reduction, in, the, usage, of, such, services, is, having, on, the, number, of, practices, dealing, with, large, animals, 2, what, effect, any, reduction, in, the, usage, of, veterinary, services, and, a, shortage, of, large, animal, vets, is, having, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, the, effectiveness, of, surveillance, for, animal, diseases, 3, whether, the, requirements, placed, on, farmers, by, government, including, those, in, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, are, realisable, in, such, circumstances, and, 4, what, is, the, impact, on, the, work, of, the, state, veterinary, service, comments, by, 12, april, please, the, day, ended, with, the, reading, of, a, tb, test, on, a, farm, that, was, hoping, to, become, clear, after, going, down, when, it, first, restocked, 18months, ago, 1, reactor, and, 1, i, r, on, normal, interpretation, they, will, probably, take, both, on, severe, interpretation, the, government, always, looks, as, though, problems, are, dealt, with, in, isolation, the, defra, vet, who, looks, after, our, practice, is, not, dealing, with, this, case, as, his, daughter, is, married, to, her, brother, the, farming, community, is, very, incestuous, friday, work, desperately, quiet, so, i, organised, more, testing, to, do, i, hope, i, haven’t, over, booked, the, work, defra, vets, at, carlisle, are, still, learning, the, ropes, when, it, come, s, to, tb, as, it, has, been, so, rare, in, this, part, of, the, world, so, a, few, of, the, allocations, have, been, wrong, so, i, am, having, to, go, back, and, do, extra, animals, so, that, set, can, be, signed, off, the, school, held, a, curry, evening, tonight, which, for, a, cumbrian, village, school, is, very, cosmopolitan, there, is, an, extended, family, of, three, pakistani, families, and, they, cooked, though, for, the, children, there, was, also, a, bangers, and, chips, option, it, was, quite, a, nice, time, though, wife, was, on, her, next, level, counselling, course, so, i, ended, up, just, with, kids, but, it, was, good, to, spend, time, with, them, i, have, enjoyed, not, working, many, w, e’s, recently, it, kind, of, gives, you, your, life, back, that, and, not, doing, much, at, work, saturday, 5th, april, 2003, wife, was, at, her, level, 2, course, counselling, so, i, had, the, kids, for, the, w, e, took, son, to, squash, went, into, town, for, some, bits, and, pieces, and, then, i, chatted, to, i, while, we, waited, for, t, and, son, to, finish, then, took, all, the, kids, into, town, we, are, having, a, mothers, day, tomorrow, to, make, up, for, the, fact, l, a, were, away, for, the, w, e, last, week, the, kids, have, bought, presents, and, made, cards, which, was, nice, the, cs, and, friend, came, for, lunch, and, then, spent, a, very, muddy, afternoon, by, the, pond, playing, and, building, dens, and, generally, making, a, mess, and, having, fun, son, even, decided, showers, were, in, order, when, he, came, back, that, shows, you, how, dirty, they, were, as, he, is, mr, allergic, to, water, i, made, a, fondue, for, tea, with, apple, juice, as, the, kids, don’t, like, the, kick, of, the, wine, it, was, a, great, success, and, did, taste, rather, good, even, if, i, do, say, so, myself, sunday, i, went, to, church, on, my, own, as, wife, was, heading, out, again, after, an, early, lunch, the, talk, was, on, god’s, leading, which, is, always, relevant, the, kids, were, great, fun, on, the, way, back, and, full, of, craic, they, had, a, return, trip, to, the, cs, as, they, were, too, late, to, find, a, sky, tv, for, the, match, carlisle, lost, as, usual, but, it, is, not, every, week, they, lose, at, the, millennium, stadium, i, picked, the, kids, up, from, the, cs, and, put, all, their, bikes, on, the, back, of, the, car, went, to, say, good, bye, to, cs, in, the, meantime, three, of, their, boys, were, hiding, in, the, boot, of, the, car, so, they, let, me, drive, out, with, them, before, the, giggles, and, laughter, gave, the, game, away, so, it, caused, much, merriment, all, round, met, up, with, the, lads, sunday, night, felt, really, sorry, for, one, guy, who, is, having, real, problems, getting, access, to, his, 7, year, old, as, his, ex, wife, is, putting, a, lot, of, ve, input, into, the, wee, one, he, can, go, down, the, legal, route, but, will, be, expensive, and, probably, counter, productive, as, she, is, not, wanting, to, negotiate, or, look, at, what, is, best, for, the, wee, girl, it, seems, a, real, mess, monday, in, spite, of, 4, tests, the, work, is, not, there, i, spent, the, day, testing, though, it, is, really, quite, amusing, as, i, know, the, guy’s, sister, quite, well, and, i, always, make, sure, i, tell, her, how, much, the, good, lunch, is, appreciated, so, there, builds, up, a, rivalry, between, them, as, to, who, can, provide, the, vet, with, the, best, food, i, am, afraid, i, consciously, flame, the, rivalry, in, spite, of, it, not, doing, my, waistline, any, good, trying, to, concentrate, after, a, three, course, lunch, on, a, boring, job, is, not, easy, you, just, have, to, think, about, coffee, time, and, more, cakes, and, tray, bakes, all, of, them, distinctly, unhealthy, with, the, aim, of, feeding, out, door, manual, labour, tuesday, had, a, bad, night, as, my, hand, was, caught, in, the, crush, yesterday, by, a, stirk, throwing, its, head, and, it, bent, the, finger, back, it, seemed, ok, but, is, now, throbbing, like, mad, plenty, of, aspirin, and, corticosteroids, did, some, ferty, and, then, saw, another, lda, the, cows, seem, to, be, having, a, real, problem, with, the, feed, this, spring, as, we, have, seen, 3, 4, times, the, normal, number, went, running, with, a, as, my, finger, meant, i, could, not, go, to, gym, to, work, machines, weds, the, speed, cameras, have, arrived, on, the, top, road, and, unfortunately, i, was, going, too, fast, by, the, time, i, saw, it, so, i, will, probably, have, another, 3, points, on, my, licence, they, have, been, building, pads, on, the, side, of, the, road, all, along, the, a595, as, it, has, a, really, bad, record, for, car, accidents, the, numbers, killed, continues, to, go, up, the, speed, cameras, are, in, a, van, which, can, move, around, and, hence, trap, the, speeders, it, is, called, casualty, reduction, unit, a, bit, of, a, pointed, message, even, if, you, did, slow, down, for, them, work, is, slow, again, today, with, no, tb, testing, on, mid, week, days, it, is, my, brother’s, birthday, in, nz, and, he, sent, a, letter, to, say, he, is, going, to, be, a, dad, again, so, the, trip, to, come, across, at, xmas, is, off, he, is, wanting, us, to, all, go, there, hm, maybe, thursday, i, has, had, 2, reactors, and, 4, i, rs, today, so, the, future, is, not, looking, good, for, him, as, it, looks, like, there, will, be, tb, there, he, has, had, real, problems, since, the, herd, restocked, with, lung, worm, energy, problems, in, the, silage, and, atrocious, fertility, he, is, going, to, have, to, go, and, buy, another, 30, odd, replacements, at, 800, to, replace, those, that, he, has, lost, through, ill, health, and, fertility, makes, the, compensation, payments, seem, pretty, small, that’s, 24k, he, has, lost, out, on, already, and, his, own, heifers, are, only, coming, up, to, be, served, work, is, busy, and, i, wonder, if, the, spring, rush, is, coming, i, was, supposed, to, be, at, the, school, parents, evening, but, got, called, out, which, was, pretty, irritating, i, hate, the, fact, that, you, are, just, so, unreliable, when, you, are, on, call, friday, another, tb, testing, day, so, busy, all, together, not, a, good, day, the, competition, report, is, out, and, is, fairly, damning, as, expected, so, the, pressure, on, drug, margins, is, going, to, continue, and, the, old, fashioned, way, of, providing, a, complete, service, will, be, going, out, the, window, we, will, have, to, charge, for, the, out, of, hours, and, on, call, the, telephone, advice, and, try, to, make, it, pay, but, the, whole, economics, of, going, out, to, see, a, single, ill, animal, will, be, gone, the, clinical, skills, of, veterinarians, will, be, gone, all, academic, as, the, cost, for, diagnosing, a, single, animal, in, the, new, era, will, be, too, much, so, the, diagnosis, will, all, be, done, by, post, mortem, of, herd, problems, but, if, you, have, large, herds, the, man, power, will, not, be, there, to, look, after, the, individual, ill, animal, sad, depressing, day, but, i, am, off, for, the, w, e, saturday, 12th, april, 2003, woke, up, early, and, got, up, even, though, it, is, my, day, for, a, lie, in, i, think, i, am, particularly, wound, up, it, all, ways, takes, me, at, least, one, day, to, wind, down, from, work, so, i, am, tired, and, yet, not, feeling, able, to, rest, took, son, to, football, and, other, son, to, buy, anew, bike, he, was, so, excited, it, is, his, birthday, coming, up, and, he, has, out, grown, his, old, one, so, it, will, be, good, for, him, the, kids, spend, ages, flying, around, the, yard, on, bikes, and, up, and, down, the, field, when, the, grass, is, short, they, have, a, real, ball, here, it, is, a, great, place, to, grow, up, as, they, have, so, much, freedom, to, play, and, play, and, play, my, finger, that, was, caught, tb, testing, started, throbbing, again, this, afternoon, so, as, it, had, improved, and, then, got, worse, i, decided, i, had, to, get, it, x, rayed, so, i, spent, the, afternoon, in, casualty, waiting, to, get, x, rayed, and, then, waiting, for, another, hour, before, being, told, it, was, not, broken, a, five, minute, consultation, that, took, me, almost, 2, hours, friends, were, up, for, the, w, e, more, friends, are, at, capernwray, bible, college, for, an, easter, youth, thing, so, they, came, on, up, so, it, was, good, to, catch, up, sunday, cooked, lunch, for, everyone, and, then, went, to, communion, it, was, dire, and, reminded, me, why, i, don’t, usually, bother, spent, the, afternoon, putting, onions, in, and, tidying, in, the, garden, it, is, incredibly, dry, and, warm, amazing, really, the, 6, kids, spent, the, whole, afternoon, messing, around, at, the, pond, and, were, disgusting, with, mud, everywhere, and, trailed, all, up, the, yard, and, wellies, abandoned, everywhere, church, was, dm, speaking, and, then, the, yps, came, back, to, ours, afterwards, mind, you, i, think, i, had, had, enough, kids, for, the, time, being, but, i, was, ok, monday, bad, haircut, day, as, there, is, only, one, day, we, can, test, this, week, i, booked, in, fair, amount, which, would, have, been, tight, but, aw, was, off, ill, so, we, were, too, tight, so, a, few, ops, have, been, put, off, until, tomorrow, d, has, a, s, african, vet, friend, visiting, so, with, him, and, the, vet, student, the, house, is, still, full, i, however, am, knackered, and, not, feeling, sociable, had, a, horrendous, calving, it, is, not, often, i, cannot, calve, a, cow, but, i, am, afraid, after, an, hour, i, gave, up, and, caesared, it, the, calf, was, dead, and, rotten, so, whether, she, will, do, i, don’t, know, i, did, not, want, to, caesarean, but, that, is, life, it, was, either, that, or, the, farmer, pay, 60, to, get, some, one, to, take, it, away, after, i, euthed, it, tuesday, we, are, in, the, period, of, anniversaries, it, is, 2, years, since, the, ls, went, down, i, was, at, a, farm, which, did, not, get, fmd, and, his, uncles, did, he, was, saying, what, a, sad, day, it, was, so, his, uncles, must, be, feeling, it, more, the, beautiful, spring, weather, with, the, grass, growing, in, spite, of, the, frosts, definitely, puts, a, bounce, in, to, your, step, on, days, like, this, i, think, that, it, is, an, excellent, life, wandering, around, the, countryside, and, enjoying, the, scenery, the, farms, the, animals, and, the, farmers, beats, working, in, a, factory, any, way, went, to, the, gym, and, felt, a, lot, better, for, it, exercise, is, a, great, way, of, getting, a, buzz, but, you, have, to, be, not, too, tired, to, a, get, there, and, b, enjoy, it, i, have, gone, often, because, i, feel, i, should, and, just, felt, like, a, steam, roller, had, run, over, me, and, its, taken, a, day, or, two, to, recover, balance, in, all, things, weds, the, commission, report, came, out, today, difficult, to, believe, that, they, will, be, able, to, implement, it, but, having, lived, through, the, fmd, there, were, quite, a, few, things, i, thought, that, they, would, not, be, able, to, implement, but, they, did, we, will, have, to, if, the, minister, decides, and, since, it, is, dti, not, defra, i, think, that, the, implementation, may, be, effective, provide, prescriptions, free, of, charge, provide, our, clients, with, a, list, of, pharmacies, agricultural, suppliers, and, other, vets, and, web, sites, that, will, meet, those, prescriptions, the, cost, of, the, most, commonly, prescribed, medicines, in, the, previous, quarter, the, cross, subsidy, of, professional, fees, by, pharmaceuticals, will, not, be, allowed, and, how, will, the, pharmacist, make, his, money, the, other, comment, which, did, irk, me, some, what, was, that, the, provision, of, 24, hour, cover, does, not, seem, that, onerous, i, do, not, often, swear, but, really, very, depressed, but, daughter, came, on, a, caesaer, with, me, as, i, was, on, call, tonight, it, is, really, nice, working, from, home, and, being, able, to, take, them, with, me, it, is, a, very, healthy, thing, to, do, she, is, growing, up, and, is, very, much, the, young, lady, the, farmers, wife, is, the, dental, receptionist, and, of, course, said, hello, a, she, was, thrown, as, of, course, being, out, of, context, she, could, not, figure, how, the, farmers, wife, knew, who, she, was, thursday, good, friday, it, is, son’s, b’day, today, and, the, day, started, out, great, for, him, i, was, on, duty, and, he, arrived, in, our, bedroom, at, 7am, with, the, other, 2, boys, to, start, on, the, birthday, celebrations, our, family, tradition, is, that, they, have, breakfast, in, bed, in, our, bed, don’t, know, why, but, that, is, what, happens, the, others, all, brought, cards, and, presents, in, the, phone, went, and, it, was, a, lambing, so, tim, decided, he, would, come, and, see, the, lambs, being, born, so, he, was, thrilled, we, opened, the, presents, later, on, which, included, a, new, boiler, suit, which, really, thrilled, him, it, is, amazing, what, kids, think, of, as, their, best, present, i, never, really, like, working, good, friday, i, always, think, one, year, i, will, be, off, and, go, to, one, of, the, contemplative, services, hebron, being, low, church, never, really, does, anything, like, that, which, is, a, real, shame, easter, is, when, i, think, the, cathedrals, old, country, churches, and, the, church, architecture, can, really, be, helpful, in, stopping, and, praying, and, helping, to, consider, what, jesus, did, on, the, cross, finished, work, and, went, up, to, the, friends, they, were, both, home, and, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, played, rounders, and, had, a, barbeque, which, was, really, nice, james, was, in, really, good, form, as, he, was, enjoying, being, back, away, from, london, where, he, has, just, started, work, as, a, high, flying, lawyer, he, is, not, enjoying, london, very, much, he, is, a, hills, and, countryside, lad, his, girlfriend, was, also, there, so, was, quite, a, good, craic, i, didn’t, really, want, to, come, home, but, was, so, knackered, that, it, was, probably, just, as, well, the, kids, were, with, us, and, it, was, not, a, too, late, a, night, saturday, 19th, april, 2004, spent, most, of, the, day, either, catching, up, on, sleep, or, on, the, day, to, day, things, that, seem, to, have, been, put, to, one, side, for, a, while, there, was, also, the, preparations, for, the, service, tomorrow, we, are, taking, the, easter, sunday, morning, service, which, is, one, of, those, night, mare, services, where, everyone, comes, the, age, range, is, from, 0, to, 100, and, everyone, has, different, expectations, i, should, explain, that, the, normal, sunday, services, are, very, different, there, is, the, family, focus, which, is, lively, and, very, informal, aimed, at, those, with, young, children, who, go, to, sunday, school, there, is, then, teaching, for, parents, adults, there, is, always, a, lot, of, noise, children, running, around, babies, crying, and, shakers, and, children’s, songs, the, communion, service, that, follows, is, very, traditional, silence, and, solemnity, rules, all, the, older, generation, go, and, it, is, a, very, different, service, so, we, are, going, to, be, combining, the, two, oil, and, water, a, lot, of, prayer, has, gone, in, to, this, one, sunday, wife, got, up, at, 6, am, to, go, to, the, sunrise, service, at, the, crematorium, she, said, she, needed, some, input, before, the, easter, service, we, are, leading, it, is, a, service, organised, by, st, james, parish, church, but, all, the, carlisle, churches, are, asked, to, take, part, christiana, had, asked, to, go, so, wife, went, with, her, and, it, was, really, good, christ, is, risen, he, is, risen, indeed, the, sermon, was, by, the, archdeacon, from, the, cathedral, who, said, that, being, a, good, anglican, he, wanted, some, liturgy, through, his, sermon, so, every, time, he, said, are, you, dead, the, congregation, had, to, reply, no, alive, in, christ, at, which, point, he, would, sound, a, hooter, the, service, at, hebron, went, very, well, oh, ye, of, little, faith, i, should, pray, more, and, worry, less, i, have, included, our, outline, below, and, i, have, put, in, additional, comments, in, blue, easter, sunday, service, welcome, to, hebron, evangelical, church, this, easter, sunday, morning, when, we, are, celebrating, jesus, is, alive, our, opening, hymn, is, our, declaration, that, jesus, is, alive, he, has, risen, from, the, dead, opening, hymn, we, believe, in, god, the, father, welcome, intro, me, and, welcome, team, this, morning, the, service, is, in, a, different, order, from, usual, we, are, going, to, remember, what, jesus, has, done, for, us, on, the, cross, and, bruce, beattie, one, of, our, elders, is, going, to, help, explain, what, the, bread, and, wine, mean, to, us, as, some, of, the, children, may, not, have, been, here, for, a, communion, service, before, then, after, taking, communion, we, are, going, to, celebrate, jesus, resurrection, with, reading, singing, and, sharing, the, resurrection, is, the, central, part, to, our, faith, who, knows, what, that, long, word, resurrection, means, the, answers, from, the, kids, were, quite, amusing, but, we, got, there, in, the, end, at, the, end, of, the, service, there, will, be, the, offering, an, opportunity, to, give, our, money, as, well, as, ourselves, to, the, living, god, if, during, the, service, the, young, children, get, fed, up, there, is, a, place, at, the, back, where, they, can, do, some, making, things, it, isn’t, easy, to, sit, still, when, you, are, little, or, be, quiet, so, please, don’t, worry, about, the, little, ones, being, a, distraction, i, often, wonder, what, it, was, like, when, jesus, fed, the, 5000plus, crowd, do, you, think, the, children, all, sat, neat, and, quiet, in, rows, i, don’t, think, so, we, are, pleased, to, see, them, and, hear, them, this, is, a, time, of, family, worship, from, the, youngest, to, the, oldest, reading, psalm, 67, i, had, this, up, on, a, power, point, and, we, read, it, together, may, god, be, gracious, to, us, and, bless, us, and, make, his, face, shine, upon, us, that, your, ways, may, be, known, on, earth, your, salvation, among, all, nations, may, the, peoples, praise, you, o, god, may, all, the, peoples, praise, you, may, the, nations, be, glad, and, sing, for, joy, for, you, rule, the, people, justly, and, guide, the, nations, of, the, earth, may, the, peoples, praise, you, o, god, may, all, the, peoples, praise, you, then, the, land, will, yield, its, harvest, and, god, our, god, will, bless, us, god, will, bless, us, and, all, the, ends, of, the, earth, will, fear, him, psalm, 67, prayer, m, as, we, sing, this, next, hymn, it, would, be, good, if, the, children, came, to, sit, at, the, front, so, that, b, can, see, you, all, when, he, talks, to, you, hymn, when, i, survey, the, wondrous, cross, communion, b, b, gave, an, excellent, talk, about, remembering, he, included, a, diary, and, a, kitchen, timer, which, he, set, to, go, of, at, the, carefully, timed, point, in, his, little, bit, he, then, used, smarties, to, go, through, the, easter, story, and, the, different, colours, i, wish, i, had, it, written, down, we, then, had, communion, and, he, had, smarties, for, the, kids, so, that, they, could, remember, about, the, easter, story, while, the, adults, took, communion, and, remembered, christ’s, death, and, resurrection, forgiveness, is, a, wonderful, thing, we, have, just, been, remembering, what, jesus, did, for, us, on, the, cross, he, died, for, us, what, incredible, love, but, thankfully, the, gospel, doesn’t, end, there, son, a, and, cerise, are, going, to, read, on, reading, and, luke, 24, vs, 1, 12, they, did, a, brilliant, dramatic, reading, an, empty, tomb, lets, sing, god’s, not, dead, he, is, alive, sing, it, twice, and, use, the, instruments, at, the, front, to, make, a, joyful, noise, we, want, you, to, have, a, little, taste, of, what, it, was, like, to, be, around, that, day, and, so, let’s, listen, in, to, mary, magdalene, chatting, on, the, phone, to, well, you, listen, and, see, who, she, is, talking, to, wife, did, a, sketch, about, mary, talking, on, the, phone, to, marta, having, met, the, risen, jesus, she, was, very, good, really, gave, the, facts, to, a, contemporary, feel, hymn, led, like, a, lamb, to, the, slaughter, in, the, second, verse, would, children, come, to, help, we, have, verses, to, give, out, to, the, big, people, and, i’d, like, you, to, help, give, them, out, making, sure, all, the, big, people, get, one, for, the, children, who, may, not, be, able, to, read, yet, we, have, some, coloured, stones, to, remind, you, of, a, huge, stone, that, was, rolled, away, when, jesus, rose, from, the, dead, you, can, keep, it, in, your, pocket, or, somewhere, special, to, remind, you, that, jesus, is, alive, and, he, wants, to, be, with, you, where, ever, you, go, a, had, made, up, tiny, scrolls, with, verses, about, the, resurrection, which, the, kids, all, gave, out, it, kept, the, wee, ones, busy, and, also, gave, everyone, a, verse, to, think, about, isn’t, it, wonderful, to, know, that, we, are, singing, he’s, alive, he, has, risen, and, all, over, the, world, the, church, is, singing, the, same, message, in, revelation, we, get, a, little, glimpse, into, what, it, will, be, like, in, heaven, with, a, new, song, being, sung, to, jesus, christ, close, your, eyes, and, listen, to, what, it, says, rev, 5, vs, 9, 11, we, have, the, privilege, in, hebron, of, having, a, few, representatives, of, different, language, people, and, nation, here, this, morning, let, us, listen, to, them, christ, is, risen, in, different, languages, and, prayer, we, then, had, one, family, say, it, in, arabic, another, in, german, there, is, a, philippino, girl, who, said, it, in, her, language, and, some, one, else, in, spanish, it, was, magical, introduce, lord, we, lift, your, name, on, high, sung, at, mizpah, orphanage, with, children, some, of, whom, had, just, heard, the, name, jesus, for, the, first, time, at, christmas, see, picture, we, need, helpers, to, do, the, actions, to, this, song, we, are, thankful, that, jesus, is, alive, and, so, he, speaks, guides, comforts, and, forgives, us, for, all, the, sin, the, mess, we, make, it, is, not, only, the, mary’s, and, the, peters, and, the, thomases, that, have, met, with, the, risen, lord, we, each, have, a, story, to, tell, of, walking, with, the, risen, lord, as, you, listen, to, some, people, here, sharing, a, bit, of, their, story, i, wonder, what, you, would, have, to, share, take, the, opportunity, to, day, to, share, what, god, is, teaching, you, where, he, is, changing, you, don’t, hide, behind, the, weather, or, holidays, share, your, journey, to, encourage, real, fellowship, end, in, prayer, over, top, song, and, offering, this, is, your, opportunity, to, offer, yourself, afresh, to, the, risen, lord, an, old, song, but, a, powerful, one, to, make, this, song, personal, to, you, choose, the, verse, where, you, will, stand, as, a, sign, of, your, offering, to, the, lord, band, will, play, it, through, twice, as, collection, taken, up, and, then, we, sing, it, if, you, want, to, sit, until, last, verse, when, we, sing, take, my, love, then, we, will, all, stand, for, last, verse, take, my, life, this, song, has, lots, of, parts, about, asking, god, to, take, and, use, different, parts, of, our, lives, songs, intellect, strength, money, etc, and, by, asking, people, to, stand, at, the, point, they, wanted, it, really, meant, they, stopped, and, offered, part, of, them, selves, back, to, god, in, response, to, the, resurrection, finish, with, thine, be, the, glory, the, service, went, really, well, people, came, and, said, how, well, it, had, gone, wife, spent, afternoon, packing, and, feeling, washed, out, giving, out, is, tiring, but, the, satisfaction, is, huge, mon, up, early, to, catch, the, boat, to, n, ireland, the, boat, was, not, too, busy, which, was, good, spent, the, boat, ride, filling, in, my, thoughts, on, the, future, of, large, animal, practice, for, the, efracom, enquiry, bought, lord, of, rings, part, 2, the, two, towers, as, i, am, wanting, to, re, read, it, having, seen, the, movie, so, that, is, my, holiday, reading, sorted, out, had, a, chance, when, we, got, there, to, sit, down, with, wife, s, parents, and, talk, through, our, future, which, was, good, as, campbell, usually, disappears, out, but, a, sit, is, a, bank, holiday, he, didn’t, they, were, fairly, up, beat, about, it, which, was, good, so, i, was, pleased, spent, the, evening, with, c, and, the, cousins, which, was, really, good, had, a, barbecue, and, chilled, out, c, was, not, really, surprised, at, the, news, as, agriculture, in, ni, is, going, through, a, bad, time, as, well, it, is, behind, the, uk, and, there, are, a, lot, of, small, uneconomic, family, farms, and, so, a, lot, of, consolidation, is, going, on, and, farmers, selling, up, tuesday, spent, the, morning, playing, squash, with, the, boys, which, w, as, great, fun, spent, the, afternoon, in, the, garden, trying, to, tidy, it, up, went, out, for, dinner, with, our, bridesmaid, who, has, also, just, handed, in, her, notice, or, rather, accepted, a, redundancy, package, it, must, be, catching, it, was, great, to, see, her, and, also, to, be, out, in, belfast, which, is, such, a, cosmopolitan, city, these, days, with, different, languages, cultures, and, nationalities, all, mixing, in, the, downtown, area, a, big, change, weds, went, to, the, new, exhibition, centre, in, the, docks, at, belfast, it, has, a, multiplex, and, a, science, exhibition, as, well, as, shops, and, restaurants, and, so, on, it, was, amazing, the, kids, could, have, spent, all, day, playing, on, the, exhibits, and, it, was, very, well, done, so, that, you, came, away, having, learnt, quite, a, lot, wife, now, believes, i, cannot, do, colours, as, i, am, easily, confused, by, them, there, was, one, exhibit, where, words, in, one, coloured, spelt, the, name, of, another, colour, i.e, the, word, was, spelt, y, e, l, l, o, w, but, it, was, red, in, colour, you, then, had, to, read, the, words, or, say, the, colours, and, i, just, could, not, do, it, my, brain, ended, up, really, confused, bought, flowers, and, stuff, for, the, garden, and, did, the, boxes, for, gran, went, out, to, dinner, at, rp, she, is, a, widow, who, is, wife, s, parents, age, but, is, so, much, fun, she, loves, giving, dinner, parties, and, having, folk, of, all, ages, around, she, gave, me, some, useful, addresses, there, are, lots, of, plans, for, wife, s, parents, golden, wedding, thursday, the, day, of, the, big, photo, shoot, wife, s, brother’s, father, in, law, is, a, photographer, and, while, we, were, all, together, wife, mum, wanted, a, photo, of, all, the, family, together, so, we, spent, an, hour, and, a, half, getting, positioned, and, photographed, 7, kids, and, 7, adults, and, a, very, pernickety, photographer, travel, back, on, the, boat, was, ok, but, came, back, to, find, that, everything, had, fused, and, that, the, phone, was, not, working, so, fixed, the, fuses, which, are, all, trips, thank, goodness, and, got, the, electrics, going, the, phone, could, not, fix, but, did, not, worry, while, we, were, away, there, had, been, a, lightning, strike, on, to, the, phone, line, up, the, road, and, it, had, fried, all, the, cables, one, of, the, neighbours, had, been, in, her, kitchen, and, the, phone, had, exploded, and, jumped, off, the, wall, it, has, left, scorch, marks, down, the, wall, i, am, just, glad, that, there, was, no, one, on, the, phone, at, the, time, the, other, unfortunate, thing, is, that, the, computer, was, attached, and, is, dead, as, a, dodo, friday, back, to, maelstrom, i, was, really, relaxed, going, back, in, to, work, and, it, lasted, for, may, be, half, an, hour, no, one, had, picked, up, on, any, of, my, admin, things, while, i, had, been, away, in, spite, of, asking, people, to, do, so, this, meant, i, had, to, start, and, get, things, organised, for, testing, the, rota, and, nestles, as, well, as, to, try, and, do, some, work, my, in, tray, is, a, mess, but, never, mind, i, also, had, to, complete, the, report, for, efracom, as, the, closing, date, is, today, i, hope, not, by, 5pm, the, report, was, actually, finished, by, 10, 15, and, was, e, mailed, off, i, would, like, to, have, polished, it, a, bit, more, but, the, schedule, today, was, not, conducive, during, the, evening, when, i, was, supposed, to, be, writing, it, i, had, a, casaers, and, a, foal, trying, to, die, at, farm, they, are, not, having, much, luck, as, they, have, had, horrendous, problems, with, restocking, they, are, also, under, tb2, i, enclose, a, copy, of, the, report, to, efracom, the, right, hon, michael, jack, mp, environment, food, and, rural, affairs, chairman, of, the, sub, committee, vets, and, veterinary, services, a, submission, summary, this, is, a, timely, review, of, farm, veterinary, services, i, would, submit, that, the, current, trends, in, veterinary, practice, are, likely, to, accelerate, rapidly, in, response, both, to, present, levels, of, farm, income, and, imminent, changes, in, veterinary, practice, in, this, submission, i, have, briefly, covered, the, following, areas, the, current, provision, of, veterinary, services, and, how, they, are, financed, current, trends, and, their, likely, impact, on, veterinary, services, the, effect, of, the, reduction, in, large, animal, clinicians, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, surveillance, the, feasibility, of, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, the, impact, on, the, svs, the, future, and, possible, outcomes, the, current, provision, of, veterinary, services, and, how, they, are, financed, the, income, for, rural, farm, veterinary, practice, that, provides, the, majority, of, veterinary, services, to, the, agricultural, industry, has, traditionally, come, from, 5, major, areas, clinical, services, examining, and, diagnosing, individual, animals, calvings, lambings, individual, surgery, routine, fertility, dehorning, and, castrating, traditional, on, farm, professional, fee, work, lvi, income, from, defra, maff, in, the, eradication, of, notifiable, disease, tuberculosis, brucellosis, anthrax, etc, many, practices, also, were, involved, with, meat, hygiene, and, inspections, at, abattoirs, the, dispensing, of, pharmaceuticals, the, provision, of, veterinary, advice, on, farm, management, and, welfare, the, majority, of, veterinary, partnerships, are, mixed, practices, a, consideration, must, be, given, to, the, fact, that, small, animal, work, makes, up, a, variable, proportion, of, the, work, and, income, to, veterinary, practice, it, is, my, opinion, that, clinical, farm, animal, practice, the, examining, and, diagnosing, of, individual, animals, is, already, uneconomic, for, both, the, veterinary, surgeon, and, the, farmer, it, is, only, happening, because, of, the, cross, subsidy, of, the, professional, fees, by, other, income, and, because, of, the, good, will, of, most, farmers, to, give, animals, a, chance, as, the, harsh, economics, are, coming, home, to, vets, and, farmers, this, is, rapidly, becoming, with, james, herriot, a, part, of, rural, history, current, trends, and, their, likely, impact, on, veterinary, services, what, are, the, current, trends, within, agriculture, and, veterinary, practice, and, what, effects, will, that, have, both, in, agriculture, and, farm, veterinary, practice, there, are, trends, that, can, be, identified, how, fast, how, far, these, trends, will, go, is, difficult, to, predict, but, my, own, experience, is, that, change, when, it, comes, change, is, often, slow, at, starting, but, then, dramatic, in, its, speed, the, effect, of, decoupling, and, other, eu, decisions, on, agriculture, are, unknown, but, the, current, trends, are, likely, to, continue, in, agriculture, farm, size, has, to, continue, to, grow, as, farms, make, less, and, less, per, animal, they, have, to, spread, costs, over, larger, and, larger, numbers, the, individual, value, of, each, animal, continues, to, drop, in, real, terms, efficiency, and, mechanisation, continues, to, increase, chicken, farms, are, now, routinely, 100,000, animals, plus, since, foot, and, mouth, disease, the, average, dairy, herd, size, has, increased, from, 90, to, 114, an, increase, of, 20, which, talking, to, many, dairy, farmers, is, only, going, to, increase, as, more, herds, are, going, to, be, 300, animals, these, increases, are, usually, with, out, an, increase, in, labour, on, the, farms, this, means, the, care, of, individual, animals, is, likely, to, be, less, important, but, the, care, of, the, overall, heath, of, the, herd, much, more, in, veterinary, practice, the, major, changes, are, likely, to, be, from, the, competition, inquiry, in, to, the, cost, of, pharmaceuticals, the, subsidy, of, professional, fees, by, sales, of, pharmaceuticals, has, been, an, increasing, trend, since, the, late, 60, s, then, professional, fees, were, subsidised, by, the, large, scale, eradication, schemes, by, maff, who, paid, very, good, fees, to, get, the, vets, on, the, farm, and, help, eradicate, the, notifiable, diseases, the, competition, inquiry, is, recommending, that, pharmaceuticals, be, dispensed, by, pharmacies, as, well, and, that, prescriptions, be, provided, free, of, charge, which, private, organisation, is, going, to, provide, a, service, free, of, charge, has, yet, to, be, ascertained, but, the, current, level, of, income, derived, from, pharmaceuticals, is, not, going, to, be, sustained, this, inevitably, means, that, the, cross, subsidy, will, disappear, and, farmers, will, have, to, pay, the, full, cost, of, veterinary, clinical, service, and, it, will, not, be, economic, to, do, so, at, the, same, time, the, costs, of, providing, veterinary, services, continues, to, rise, the, cost, of, veterinary, time, is, continuing, to, rise, students, are, now, graduating, with, debts, of, 15, 20k, because, of, the, loss, of, grants, and, payment, of, tuition, fees, this, means, there, will, need, to, be, a, further, raise, of, 2, 3k, per, annum, to, pay, veterinary, assistants, to, match, the, status, quo, farm, animal, practice, already, pays, assistants, less, than, companion, animal, practices, despite, offering, a, less, favourable, on, call, rota, in, the, short, term, following, fmd, many, practice, principals, worked, additional, on, call, to, make, the, rota, acceptable, to, attract, assistant, vets, where, this, is, viable, in, the, short, term, in, the, long, term, it, is, not, acceptable, as, partners, profit, becomes, commensurate, to, the, salaries, they, have, to, pay, to, veterinary, assistants, they, will, be, aiming, to, increase, charges, for, clinical, work, or, look, to, other, avenues, for, decreasing, costs, increasing, turnover, providing, an, out, of, hours, emergency, cover, is, not, economically, practical, for, vets, except, in, the, big, cities, where, practices, join, together, to, provide, an, emergency, clinic, currently, there, is, an, rcvs, obligation, to, provide, 24hour, cover, but, the, rcvs, is, not, involved, in, the, commercial, pricing, of, services, as, the, value, of, individual, animals, continues, to, drop, in, real, terms, then, the, cost, of, treating, individual, animals, becomes, less, and, less, viable, where, there, is, no, cross, subsidy, for, out, of, hours, work, it, will, become, untenable, as, many, mixed, practices, have, a, dwindling, farm, animal, side, that, is, less, financially, attractive, many, will, decide, to, concentrate, on, the, companion, animal, side, of, the, business, in, a, lot, of, mixed, practices, it, is, a, senior, partner, who, will, do, the, largest, amount, of, the, farm, work, this, means, the, younger, vets, will, not, have, the, case, load, to, become, experienced, and, confident, in, farm, work, there, is, a, cohort, of, practitioners, in, this, situation, heading, towards, retirement, in, the, near, future, will, the, practice, continue, to, be, involved, with, farm, work, as, fewer, practices, become, involved, with, farm, veterinary, services, the, cost, of, travel, to, the, more, distant, farms, has, to, rise, beyond, the, already, accelerated, rate, all, this, means, that, farm, veterinary, practices, will, lose, income, from, clinical, services, and, from, pharmaceutical, sales, they, will, have, to, move, more, towards, the, pig, poultry, model, of, providing, veterinary, advice, and, charging, for, it, vets, have, already, moved, out, of, nutritional, advice, leaving, this, field, to, nutritional, experts, the, reason, for, this, is, that, most, nutritional, advice, is, provided, free, to, the, farmer, by, the, firms, who, then, put, that, cost, into, the, feeds, that, are, sold, to, the, farmers, this, cross, subsidy, of, fees, by, sales, is, apparently, acceptable, where, the, subsidy, of, veterinary, fees, by, pharmaceuticals, is, not, this, model, is, beginning, to, appear, in, other, areas, whereas, vets, provided, most, mastitis, control, the, dairies, who, buy, the, milk, are, now, providing, free, or, subsidised, advice, to, farms, on, cell, counts, and, high, bacterial, counts, including, bacteriology, with, a, variable, back, up, and, quality, of, advice, nmr, and, other, recording, agencies, are, already, offering, fertility, information, on, their, recording, products, and, it, is, a, short, step, to, actually, providing, the, fertility, work, i, believe, that, these, factors, will, contribute, to, a, dramatic, decrease, in, farm, animal, clinicians, in, the, next, 5, years, the, effect, of, the, reduction, in, large, animal, clinicians, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, surveillance, as, the, number, of, clinical, veterinarians, reduces, then, there, will, be, much, less, on, farm, surveillance, this, means, that, outbreaks, of, novel, or, unusual, diseases, is, much, less, likely, to, be, noticed, or, recorded, at, an, early, stage, the, routine, care, for, the, animals, will, be, done, by, stockmen, under, veterinary, guidance, the, guidance, will, probably, be, by, quarterly, or, 6, monthly, or, annual, visits, and, by, herd, health, plans, individual, animals, are, much, more, likely, to, be, treated, ad, hoc, by, the, stockmen, rather, than, by, veterinary, surgeons, the, quality, of, this, treatment, in, some, cases, may, be, adequate, but, in, most, will, be, poor, the, significance, of, symptoms, or, illness, may, not, be, appreciated, diagnosis, and, treatment, seen, as, a, high, cost, and, used, as, a, last, resort, any, outbreak, of, disease, will, be, well, developed, and, losses, occurring, before, veterinary, advice, is, sought, as, herd, sizes, increase, and, labour, decreases, then, the, attention, to, individual, animals, must, reduce, with, a, drop, in, welfare, standards, ill, animals, are, likely, to, be, culled, quicker, as, limited, manpower, becomes, more, important, the, use, of, vets, as, additional, expert, man, power, for, calvings, lambings, will, be, seen, as, too, expensive, the, demands, of, the, system, must, mean, that, high, heath, status, is, important, with, routine, vaccination, and, herd, health, policies, being, put, in, place, defra, seems, to, set, high, regard, to, laboratory, diagnosis, results, as, a, form, of, surveillance, most, of, the, common, problems, are, diagnosed, treated, with, out, the, resort, to, laboratory, aids, fertility, lameness, mastitis, pneumonia, pge, are, rarely, referred, to, the, lab, except, where, treatment, is, not, working, most, samples, are, taken, referred, by, vets, in, practice, fewer, vets, would, mean, fewer, samples, the, lack, of, veterinary, advice, to, ill, pigs, and, ill, sheep, on, farms, at, heddon, on, the, wall, shows, how, the, lack, of, a, clinical, veterinary, service, can, lead, to, in, the, terms, of, delay, and, spread, of, disease, the, local, knowledge, of, the, current, lvi, system, is, an, invaluable, asset, that, is, in, danger, of, being, thrown, away, the, idea, that, a, farm, is, a, box, which, can, be, assigned, a, number, in, page, street, and, dealt, with, as, a, single, entity, is, a, problem, that, has, still, not, been, resolved, the, complexity, of, many, of, the, local, farming, links, through, trade, working, together, machinery, shared, grazing, fell, rights, and, family, ties, cannot, be, reduced, to, a, computer, screen, on, dcs, the, feasibility, of, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, in, my, opinion, they, are, not, i, was, hoping, to, cover, this, more, fully, but, lack, of, time, has, prevented, me, the, impact, on, the, svs, the, impact, on, the, svs, is, likely, to, be, slow, to, be, realised, the, svs, is, not, known, for, its, ability, to, meet, challenges, or, streamline, its, systems, as, the, number, of, vets, involved, in, farm, work, decreases, it, will, have, to, provide, more, of, its, own, resources, to, tackle, tasks, currently, done, by, lvis, the, more, flexible, private, practice, takes, up, the, challenge, of, getting, backlogs, in, testing, done, and, can, respond, to, new, challenges, for, example, the, licensing, brought, in, during, fmd, private, practice, can, fit, the, work, around, other, duties, whereas, if, it, is, going, to, be, done, by, the, svs, it, will, be, more, expensive, to, take, on, vets, to, do, these, tasks, alone, the, svs, was, notoriously, unreliable, in, its, work, allocation, during, fmd, the, record, being, sending, 5, vets, to, the, same, farm, on, the, same, day, has, yet, to, be, beaten, though, i, hope, it, would, be, a, lot, better, in, normal, circumstances, there, are, still, problems, with, the, allocation, system, that, can, only, be, put, right, by, local, knowledge, in, areas, where, there, are, few, farm, animals, there, may, well, not, be, lvis, willing, to, carry, out, the, routine, testing, for, notifiable, disease, who, is, going, to, provide, veterinary, cover, for, these, both, for, clinical, caseload, and, for, the, lvi, work, there, will, not, be, vets, available, to, second, to, defra, for, the, next, fmd, or, exotic, disease, outbreak, the, contingency, plan, confidently, states, that, resources, for, 20, tvis, are, to, be, kept, at, each, centre, in, case, of, an, outbreak, of, notifiable, disease, with, out, addressing, where, these, will, come, from, there, will, not, be, 20, tvi’s, available, at, short, notice, during, march, 2001, the, majority, of, vets, at, the, carlisle, decc, were, lvi’s, the, future, and, possible, outcomes, the, picture, i, have, painted, is, what, in, my, opinion, will, happen, if, the, government, allows, the, situation, to, develop, i, would, hope, that, there, would, be, some, joined, up, government, when, decisions, are, to, be, made, in, response, to, the, competition, inquiry, report, there, are, a, mixture, of, outcomes, that, are, possible, the, numbers, of, vets, in, farm, animal, practice, will, reduce, this, can, be, minimised, by, maintaining, the, cross, subsidy, of, professional, fees, for, providing, clinical, services, either, directly, by, defra, work, in, surveillance, or, other, notifiable, disease, work, and, or, from, pharmaceutical, sales, the, option, of, increasing, fees, is, not, possible, veterinary, services, will, be, provided, by, other, means, e.g, vets, working, for, feed, firms, dairies, manufactures, retailers, to, ensure, a, welfare, surveillance, standard, consultancy, firms, providing, fertility, mastitis, specialised, advice, defra, local, authority, will, have, to, provide, vets, for, notifiable, disease, testing, surveillance, tasks, developing, the, french, model, of, farm, cooperatives, employing, vets, for, their, own, farms, the, pig, poultry, model, of, regular, advisory, visits, but, minimal, involvement, in, the, day, to, day, running, or, with, individual, animals, only, the, first, of, these, provides, for, the, continuation, of, the, successful, lvi, structure, the, other, outcomes, mean, a, loss, of, clinical, veterinary, services, the, loss, of, clinical, services, means, a, drop, in, welfare, standards, and, the, loss, of, on, farm, surveillance, farm, veterinary, services, are, in, a, transitional, time, facing, economic, challenges, changes, in, agriculture, increased, regulation, and, increased, competition, for, the, pharmaceutical, and, services, they, provide, there, will, be, increased, competition, between, practices, as, they, try, to, meet, the, higher, expectations, of, new, veterinary, graduates, starting, their, careers, and, providing, a, cost, effective, service, to, the, rural, community, bvm, s, mrcvs, brief, c, v, currently, a, partner, in, one, of, the, largest, farm, veterinary, practices, in, cumbria, having, spent, 17, years, in, mixed, rural, practice, spent, 6, months, on, secondment, to, maff, at, the, carlisle, decc, during, fmd, sat, 26th, april, 2003, having, worked, last, night, and, done, 2, caesaers, and, a, calving, on, call, on, top, of, a, long, week, i, was, completely, washed, out, did, sat, am, surgery, and, a, call, then, went, home, to, bed, knackered, and, fed, up, and, deciding, i, did, not, want, to, spend, my, life, like, this, sunday, a, busy, day, on, call, but, at, least, the, calls, did, not, stack, up, just, kept, coming, in, ones, and, twos, so, the, stress, levels, were, not, to, bad, but, boyzo, am, i, tired, mon, this, is, the, beginning, of, d’s, last, week, he, has, worked, out, really, well, and, i, hope, that, he, will, be, able, to, work, here, at, the, back, end, to, help, with, the, testing, he, is, easy, going, and, has, a, good, s, african, protestant, work, ethic, always, happy, to, oblige, and, is, good, to, work, with, he, is, a, good, laugh, too, always, teasing, and, playing, silly, jokes, and, has, a, great, sense, of, humour, spent, most, of, the, day, on, catch, up, after, the, week, end, did, some, calls, and, sorted, car, and, drugs, out, and, cleaned, my, kit, the, slippage, of, cleanliness, since, fmd, is, very, noticeable, especially, at, the, w, e’s, but, don’t, tell, defra, went, swimming, at, foxes, well, to, be, honest, sat, in, the, jacuzzi, and, talked, and, then, swam, 2, lengths, i, was, too, tired, to, do, much, really, i, must, start, getting, some, proper, exercise, again, or, my, back, will, suffer, tues, i, am, really, annoyed, at, defra, i, rang, and, asked, what, would, be, needed, to, put, our, vets, on, to, panel, l, which, is, what, is, needed, to, do, the, exports, for, nestle, and, panel, l, can, just, be, added, on, as, it, is, a, simple, export, thing, so, it, would, take, half, an, hour, to, do, it, this, was, last, friday, by, now, it, is, we, have, to, go, for, training, by, svs, it, should, only, take, half, an, hour, to, through, the, forms, why, can, their, yes, not, be, yes, and, their, no, be, no, so, we, have, to, spend, an, afternoon, going, to, carlisle, to, got, through, meaningless, forms, so, that, we, can, fill, in, meaning, less, forms, so, that, nestle, can, get, th, milk, through, customs, i, am, beginning, to, see, why, people, just, smuggle, things, rather, than, get, involved, in, all, this, stupid, bureaucracy, weds, went, on, the, factory, visit, to, nestles, today, to, have, a, look, around, so, that, we, know, the, plant, and, can, give, them, certification, for, the, milk, powder, for, export, the, whole, thing, is, ludicrous, as, dried, milk, powder, is, a, sterile, product, it, has, to, be, or, else, it, goes, off, very, quickly, so, why, we, have, to, certify, that, it, has, been, pasteurised, i, don, not, know, but, hey, its, money, the, size, and, quantity, and, the, huge, amount, of, machinery, and, very, small, number, of, people, required, to, maintain, and, operate, the, plant, was, awesome, we, went, to, the, distribution, warehouse, where, there, was, just, row, upon, row, of, pallets, 3, 7, high, full, of, dried, milk, or, cappuccino, drinks, weird, to, think, mast, of, the, instant, cappuccino, is, made, in, dalston, thursday, went, for, panel, l, training, it, was, as, pointless, as, i, thought, it, would, be, took, the, opportunity, to, go, through, with, defra, admin, staff, some, of, the, queries, and, problems, at, the, moment, we, do, a, lot, of, stuff, for, defra, telling, them, who, has, stock, and, who, does, not, have, stock, to, ensure, their, database, is, relatively, up, to, date, but, it, is, a, headache, as, they, are, working, off, computer, screens, hence, mrs, f, r, of, a, farm, does, not, correlate, at, all, with, mr, e, r, of, the, same, address, the, computer, is, not, into, relationships, so, that, they, are, married, and, live, together, and, own, stock, on, the, same, piece, of, ground, does, not, really, get, off, the, ground, this, evening, was, the, final, partners, meeting, where, i, handed, in, my, notice, the, reasons, for, handing, in, my, notice, are, complex, most, decisions, probably, are, there, are, lots, of, factors, some, trivial, to, the, outsider, but, important, to, me, others, may, be, important, to, others, and, similarly, not, to, me, several, people, have, asked, is, it, a, reaction, to, fmd, the, last, casualty, in, some, ways, it, is, for, all, the, horrendous, experiences, for, all, the, long, hours, and, difficult, ethical, and, to, whom, am, i, responsible, dilemmas, it, taught, me, a, lot, about, myself, to, see, fear, in, the, eyes, of, senior, management, when, challenged, to, be, able, to, organise, a, protest, meeting, of, thirty, vets, with, jim, scudamore, to, do, the, tv, interviews, o, see, the, effect, of, feeding, information, to, journalists, to, be, able, to, break, through, by, fast, talking, and, relying, on, my, wits, to, organise, completely, new, systems, and, manage, projects, that, had, never, been, done, before, to, build, teams, from, international, backgrounds, in, the, face, of, opposition, from, the, hierarchy, to, be, constantly, caught, on, a, tight, rope, between, the, different, groupings, i, learnt, that, i, have, huge, abilities, and, to, go, back, to, normality, is, difficult, the, future, of, farm, animal, practice, is, also, very, unpredictable, there, are, a, lot, of, farms, who, are, yet, to, restock, the, cross, subsidy, of, fees, by, drug, sales, is, going, to, end, and, more, and, more, work, will, be, on, behalf, or, paid, for, by, defra, they, are, at, the, whims, of, the, politicians, and, the, treasury, they, are, also, not, the, easiest, client, to, deal, with, there, is, also, the, problem, of, being, second, in, command, and, dealing, with, the, frustrations, of, the, partnership, we, are, not, united, in, the, way, we, work, or, where, we, see, the, practice, going, this, means, my, schemes, for, diversification, for, improving, income, streams, and, managing, the, bad, debt, will, either, not, happen, or, will, become, part, of, my, workload, which, is, already, over, stretched, add, in, to, this, cock, tail, the, fact, my, wife, is, starting, to, work, and, i, have, been, given, a, really, bad, scare, by, being, tackled, by, a, cow, the, question, is, do, i, want, to, do, this, job, for, the, next, 20, years, the, answer, has, to, be, no, so, the, only, answer, is, to, hand, in, my, resignation, and, start, to, look, for, something, new, as, i, have, a, 6, month, notice, period, ending, on, an, accounting, date, i, have, to, jump, before, i, have, another, job, sorted, out, even, so, the, decision, was, very, hard, and, i, was, really, choked, up, when, i, left, them, to, discuss, the, future, i, could, not, go, home, as, the, kids, would, want, to, know, what, was, going, on, so, i, went, to, js, he, already, knew, i, will, tell, the, kids, on, friday, the, practice, manager, on, monday, and, work, on, tuesday, i, have, said, very, little, of, my, thoughts, in, the, diary, as, i, have, learnt, there, are, somethings, better, left, unwritten, until, the, time, for, the, information, to, be, public, whatever, issues, are, to, do, with, confidentiality, if, you, don’t, think, something, can, be, talked, about, then, do, not, write, it, down, as, you, never, know, who, is, going, to, read, it, a, though, got, her, self, in, to, a, stew, as, i, rang, wife, to, say, i, was, going, to, js, she, then, said, she, would, come, out, she, left, a, bit, too, hurriedly, for, a, who, then, got, it, into, her, head, that, we, had, gone, away, on, holiday, with, out, telling, them, friday, the, whole, day, was, unreal, i, knew, i, was, going, but, no, one, else, does, told, the, kids, at, tea, time, and, i, was, shocked, by, how, upset, they, were, it, has, come, as, a, shock, to, them, tim, especially, loves, coming, out, and, about, around, the, farms, with, me, there, is, also, no, what, i, am, going, to, so, it, is, just, uncertainty, on, 2nd, call, sat, 3rd, may, 2003, work, then, wash, out, i, was, on, second, last, night, and, had, 2, caesars, and, a, calving, what, the, second, caesar, was, at, 4am, so, i, felt, dreadful, all, day, young, vet, had, started, operating, and, got, stuck, so, i, went, to, the, rescue, the, cow, had, horrendous, adhesions, so, nothing, could, be, moved, around, we, spent, an, hour, and, a, half, trying, to, pull, the, calf, out, and, then, stitching, up, the, uterus, in, the, cow, i, felt, i, needed, diving, gear, on, as, i, had, both, arms, in, to, their, full, length, with, vet, beside, me, trying, to, stitch, by, feel, my, arms, were, exhausted, by, the, end, of, it, i, was, like, death, warmed, up, all, day, but, feel, i, have, definitely, made, the, right, decision, sunday, after, a, good, nights, sleep, feeling, better, my, mother, always, use, to, say, that, the, world, looks, very, different, after, a, good, nights, sleep, and, a, cooked, breakfast, i, do, not, need, a, cooked, breakfast, my, stress, levels, have, been, that, high, that, i, have, been, eating, far, too, much, i, am, going, to, go, on, a, diet, the, usual, promise, to, myself, my, weight, is, going, up, fast, so, i, will, have, to, cut, down, and, start, to, exercise, a, lot, more, went, to, see, the, practice, manager, to, tell, him, that, i, have, handed, in, my, notice, i, have, decided, to, see, him, on, his, own, so, that, he, has, a, chance, to, process, it, before, work, on, tuesday, he, is, overweight, and, stressed, and, that, type, to, have, a, heart, attack, so, treat, him, gently, he, is, also, a, good, friend, so, i, should, give, him, some, warning, so, i, spent, an, hour, chatting, it, through, and, talking, which, is, a, good, a, way, as, any, of, spending, a, sunday, afternoon, mon, bank, holiday, another, bank, holiday, working, but, at, least, it, is, fairly, quiet, so, spent, most, of, the, day, working, in, the, garden, the, kids, were, away, in, the, morning, doing, various, things, and, then, met, up, for, lunch, with, friends, which, was, really, nice, they, had, been, down, to, visit, family, in, the, lake, district, they, had, hired, a, couple, of, cottages, for, the, w, e, and, all, met, up, they, are, really, amazing, people, they, are, both, doctors, and, i, went, out, to, visit, them, in, thailand, which, was, brilliant, fun, he, was, working, with, leprosy, and, aids, cases, they, have, come, home, and, are, sharing, a, gp’s, job, between, them, she, is, also, doing, a, diploma, in, diabetes, they, are, also, doing, deputation, work, to, raise, money, for, the, work, of, omf, in, thailand, and, asia, they, have, 4, kids, and, it, was, really, nice, to, see, them, all, again, the, kids, are, similar, ages, i, really, felt, for, them, because, they, have, gone, from, home, schooling, to, schools, in, edinburgh, in, the, big, city, so, they, have, the, double, culture, shock, of, coming, to, the, uk, and, being, schooled, in, a, complete, different, way, they, are, also, very, bright, kids, and, having, had, individual, attention, from, a, very, focussed, mother, they, are, miles, ahead, of, the, rest, of, their, classes, yet, they, do, not, have, the, social, skills, to, adapt, to, the, rough, and, tumble, of, life, in, a, city, comprehensive, mobile, phones, are, not, a, must, have, item, in, rural, thailand, good, to, see, them, all, tuesday, today, i, announced, the, fact, i, was, leaving, to, those, at, work, i, had, thought, about, how, i, should, do, it, and, what, i, was, to, say, it, is, quite, difficult, both, from, an, emotional, point, of, view, and, from, the, fact, that, i, think, that, the, business, in, the, longer, term, will, have, problems, this, has, both, a, direct, relevance, for, the, lay, staff, and, their, jobs, though, there, will, still, be, a, similar, number, needed, as, their, workload, is, likely, to, remain, the, same, and, also, for, the, vets, two, of, whom, may, or, may, not, be, approached, to, buy, into, the, business, there, will, also, in, the, longer, term, be, a, smaller, number, of, vets, needed, but, this, will, probably, be, managed, by, natural, wastage, i, spoke, first, to, the, senior, assistants, and, then, lay, staff, it, was, hard, as, i, have, been, there, for, as, long, as, many, of, them, 15, years, which, is, a, long, time, i, think, also, there, is, an, attitude, that, the, ups, and, downs, seem, to, be, past, for, them, there, was, a, lot, of, upheaval, over, the, move, from, b, v, up, to, s, park, fmd, is, over, and, things, are, suppose, to, be, getting, back, on, to, an, even, keel, and, i, throw, a, spanner, in, the, works, weds, spent, the, evening, phoning, friends, and, relatives, to, let, them, know, that, i, had, handed, in, my, notice, and, sending, off, for, job, details, on, two, jobs, and, applying, for, another, i, am, not, sure, what, i, am, looking, for, so, at, the, moment, i, am, just, sending, off, for, anything, that, seems, interesting, and, waiting, and, seeing, it, seems, an, unreal, situation, in, so, many, ways, i, also, had, to, phone, the, bank, manager, both, to, arrange, our, annual, visit, and, to, tell, him, that, i, was, leaving, again, getting, the, balance, between, moving, on, and, being, positive, with, out, pointing, out, the, dangers, in, the, future, of, large, animal, practice, was, a, difficult, balance, after, the, initial, shock, all, power, to, him, as, a, salesman, banker, he, then, asked, whether, i, would, be, needing, any, banking, requirements, so, at, least, if, i, do, start, up, an, independent, vet, small, business, consultancy, i, will, have, a, bank, account, to, run, it, from, thursday, a, quit, day, as, no, testing, so, tackled, some, of, the, back, log, in, admin, spent, a, lot, of, time, setting, up, the, systems, and, know, how, folder, for, nestle, we, have, taken, over, the, work, for, doing, the, lvi, work, for, the, nestle, factory, at, dalston, as, they, have, fallen, out, with, the, previous, practice, when, we, took, it, on, i, assumed, it, would, be, the, odd, bit, of, work, but, in, fact, it, is, a, huge, amount, of, work, so, it, is, going, to, take, some, sorting, out, i, also, feel, a, bit, off, as, i, have, handed, in, my, notice, and, yet, i, am, setting, all, this, up, and, i, ma, not, going, to, benefit, from, it, at, all, i, suppose, it, comes, back, to, wanting, to, do, what, is, right, and, that, we, should, serve, god, and, not, man, it, is, always, a, useful, measuring, stick, to, use, to, work, out, motivations, and, what, should, be, done, in, a, situation, who, am, i, trying, to, do, this, for, me, the, practice, the, client, or, am, i, doing, what, jesus, would, do, friday, another, bad, hair, day, had, real, problems, trying, to, fit, the, extra, work, into, the, day, and, so, got, a, bit, frayed, around, the, edges, fortunately, next, week, will, probably, be, the, last, thank, goodness, the, practice, that, used, to, do, the, nestle, work, was, on, the, phone, to, me, and, not, very, friendly, hey, ho, went, out, for, a, meal, with, friends, which, was, great, they, are, the, church, youth, leaders, and, are, really, switched, on, but, i, think, need, more, support, and, help, hopefully, once, the, 1st, of, october, hits, i, will, be, able, to, get, more, involved, went, to, the, royal, oak, at, welton, which, just, has, been, re, done, and, is, serving, food, on, a, proper, basis, as, well, as, having, a, pub, part, more, like, a, restaurant, wife, s, food, was, excellent, mine, was, ok, i, had, an, indian, trio, of, samosa, and, 2, bharji, to, start, with, i, am, afraid, i, have, been, spoilt, by, real, indian, food, so, i, should, not, have, bothered, going, for, it, in, a, cumbrian, pub, saturday, may, 10th, saturday, may, 10th, a, day, off, after, too, many, days, working, and, too, much, stress, it, was, really, nice, just, to, be, around, home, doing, the, garden, and, not, really, worrying, what, else, is, going, on, in, the, world, i, needed, some, space, and, i, am, pleased, to, have, got, it, at, long, last, it, is, amazing, how, much, better, the, world, looks, after, a, good, nights, sleep, and, a, some, time, off, in, the, afternoon, the, c, boys, came, around, and, we, took, them, to, see, new, chicks, s, was, there, and, i, did, not, want, to, go, down, the, route, of, explaining, why, i, had, made, the, decision, i, had, to, leave, so, chickened, out, of, telling, her, i, suppose, i, am, happy, with, it, and, i, just, want, to, forget, about, for, the, w, e, so, we, arrived, with, 7, boys, which, is, quite, brave, fortunately, we, could, not, stay, long, as, we, had, to, be, back, to, go, out, to, gianni’s, with, d, he, took, us, out, and, it, was, really, good, fun, the, kids, were, all, in, good, form, came, back, and, watched, the, first, part, of, a, dvd, on, john, grisham’s, book, the, client, he, is, an, excellent, writer, and, although, film, can, never, develop, the, characters, the, same, as, a, book, so, the, film, was, good, but, only, ok, sunday, 11th, church, was, good, this, morning, and, it, was, good, to, be, there, and, spent, ages, chatting, to, folk, but, came, back, to, lunch, with, a, couple, who, stayed, too, long, there, are, some, people, i, find, really, draining, and, she, is, one, it, is, awful, but, i, get, really, wound, up, and, just, want, them, to, go, after, about, 30, minutes, they, came, for, lunch, and, did, not, leave, until, after, tea, so, i, was, almost, going, spare, monday, 12th, i, find, the, silence, around, the, fact, i, am, going, a, bit, unnerving, it, is, a, bit, elephant, and, coffee, table, really, a, lot, of, the, farmers, i, suppose, don’t, yet, know, or, if, they, do, how, to, respond, today’s, frustrations, are, all, with, things, not, working, bt, have, sent, me, a, bill, for, 115, for, fixing, the, line, that, was, struck, by, lightening, i, was, put, through, three, depts, before, i, gave, up, i, may, try, just, not, paying, and, see, if, they, can, register, the, fact, the, bill, is, being, disputed, the, other, frustration, is, the, car, doors, have, gone, again, in, wife, s, car, which, is, incredibly, frustrating, they, have, been, fixed, and, fixed, and, fixed, although, it, is, under, warranty, i, am, getting, to, the, stage, that, i, feel, we, are, being, fobbed, off, tues, 13th, i, went, to, hear, mg, from, the, licc, london, institute, of, contemporary, christianity, speak, at, the, living, word, this, is, a, series, that, happens, every, spring, and, is, organised, by, a, group, of, ministers, and, folk, from, carlisle, he, is, a, very, interesting, speaker, he, is, an, ex, ad, man, and, his, whole, message, is, to, get, the, church, to, look, out, side, of, it, self, he, thinks, that, christianity, in, the, west, has, become, a, leisure, time, activity, and, is, not, impacting, the, rest, of, peoples, lives, there, is, a, concept, of, the, sacred, secular, divide, the, church, does, not, get, involved, in, secular, things, work, culture, the, arts, sport, and, in, some, ways, philosophy, too, whereas, there, should, be, no, divide, christ, is, either, lord, of, all, or, not, at, all, he, also, is, a, very, amusing, speaker, he, was, talking, about, how, technology, is, usually, neutral, but, how, it, is, used, has, very, far, reaching, effects, on, family, work, and, society, he, used, the, microwave, as, an, example, with, a, very, amusing, story, about, how, he, managed, to, save, the, sleep, of, the, whole, of, north, london, by, using, the, new, fangled, microwave, to, heat, his, daughter’s, midnight, bottle, thereby, saving, the, chancellor, huge, sums, in, lost, revenue, with, typical, jewish, hyperbole, he, then, moved, on, to, his, kids, now, teenagers, not, coming, in, for, the, meal, he, has, prepared, but, reheating, it, in, the, microwave, and, how, that, led, to, a, lack, of, communication, and, again, hyperbole, to, his, angst, about, not, understanding, the, younger, generation, as, this, is, a, diary, about, fmd, how, do, i, relate, this, to, my, experience, of, fmd, on, the, simple, level, the, culture, within, defra, needs, to, change, servant, hood, whether, by, civil, servants, or, politicians, has, been, forgotten, truth, will, out, spin, will, fall, computers, should, be, a, tool, of, all, and, master, of, none, organisations, need, to, have, a, human, face, for, people, to, relate, to, whether, it, is, the, brigadier, or, the, cvo, people, are, individuals, created, by, god, and, have, feelings, and, are, not, numbers, or, statistics, the, post, modernist, human, secularism, where, truth, is, relative, where, brown, can, announce, that, everything, is, under, control, can, mislead, parliament, and, people, and, it, is, acceptable, i, actually, strongly, feel, that, the, current, presidential, style, of, where, no, one, can, make, a, decision, with, out, refer, to, their, boss, is, a, poor, model, pain, disaster, illness, and, trouble, are, part, of, the, human, condition, part, of, the, fall, of, evil, in, the, world, enough, philosophy, its, time, for, bed, monday, 17th, may, this, was, the, big, golden, wedding, anniversary, day, it, was, wife, s, parents, golden, wedding, and, her, brothers, and, family, all, came, to, stay, for, the, w, e, the, celebration, meal, was, at, lyzzick, hall, in, keswick, the, big, surprise, for, wife, s, mum, was, that, her, bridesmaid, and, husband, were, coming, over, from, canada, j, picked, them, up, from, the, airport, and, took, them, to, a, b, b, other, friends, were, also, coming, as, a, surprise, rp, started, the, surprises, by, coming, in, dressed, as, a, waitress, she, came, in, and, offered, wife, s, mum, a, drink, and, she, was, really, overcome, the, other, surprises, of, bridesmaid, and, canadians, was, really, nice, to, see, the, younger, parts, of, the, clan, went, off, to, the, climbing, wall, while, the, older, part, went, for, a, look, at, the, lake, in, the, rain, it, was, a, really, nice, day, ended, by, a, firework, display, thanks, to, c, as, he, grew, up, in, belfast, during, the, troubles, and, fireworks, were, banned, he, has, a, real, passion, for, them, now, as, a, big, kid, sunday, went, to, church, with, everyone, a, very, mixed, group, but, they, coped, p, spoke, in, the, morning, meeting, he, was, very, good, he, is, a, publisher, and, was, talking, about, the, church, in, china, as, he, has, just, helped, to, publish, a, book, about, some, of, the, christian, house, church, it, makes, the, materialistic, church, in, the, west, look, very, weak, and, un, spiritual, in, the, evening, mm, spoke, on, the, christian, at, work, which, was, very, good, and, very, funny, he, was, a, bed, sales, man, when, he, was, a, student, and, he, was, very, funny, about, how, he, made, shy, engaged, couples, lie, down, and, try, the, beds, this, really, tickled, other, son, age, 8, much, to, his, gran’s, tut, tutting, the, point, he, was, making, in, between, the, jokes, was, that, he, had, been, told, that, he, was, to, say, that, the, bed, s, would, all, be, delivered, in, 3, 4, weeks, when, in, fact, it, could, be, up, to, 6, weeks, but, the, shop, keeper, thought, this, would, put, people, off, this, meant, that, mm, ended, up, in, bother, with, couples, arriving, back, from, their, honey, moon, to, no, bed, so, he, decided, to, listen, to, god’s, way, and, tell, the, truth, which, he, said, like, most, biblical, teaching, is, obvious, once, it, is, explained, and, tell, people, the, truth, not, what, they, want, to, hear, mon, went, and, read, the, tb, test, for, the, tenant, farmer, there, was, 1, i, r, the, reaction, of, the, farmer, took, me, back, fairly, badly, and, i, was, quite, shocked, at, the, sheer, vehemence, of, his, reaction, fortunately, it, was, mostly, at, defra, he, went, out, early, on, to, the, disease, and, he, therefore, got, much, lower, compensation, than, a, lot, of, the, later, ones, he, had, some, cattle, wintering, at, his, farm, for, some, one, else, who, went, out, later, on, with, fmd, at, his, home, holding, the, difference, in, the, valuations, for, the, same, type, of, cattle, was, horrendous, he, also, has, buildings, that, he, owns, on, a, small, parcel, of, land, the, buildings, were, old, and, knackered, but, usable, a, lot, of, string, and, gates, defra, pulled, them, to, pieces, during, fmd, and, then, offered, him, peanuts, o, reinstate, them, which, meant, he, could, not, get, them, back, into, a, usable, state, so, he, is, not, a, happy, bunny, spent, the, afternoon, castrating, horses, which, is, not, my, favourite, job, if, a, stirk, kicks, you, it, hurts, if, a, horse, kicks, you, it, usually, means, a, trip, in, an, ambulance, you, are, therefore, very, tense, and, ready, to, move, in, awkward, positions, canadians, and, wife, s, parents, headed, off, for, a, trip, around, the, borders, in, our, people, carrier, they, are, coming, back, to, swap, over, cars, at, the, end, of, the, week, wife, has, the, tank, to, run, around, in, for, the, week, tuesday, my, back, is, twinging, from, the, castrating, and, a, calving, yesterday, and, is, really, sore, so, did, paperwork, while, sitting, like, a, ramrod, until, i, gave, up, and, came, back, to, lie, down, did, the, back, exercises, hourly, but, it, just, got, stiffer, and, sorer, weds, spent, morning, reading, in, bed, and, doing, back, exercises, but, cannot, get, it, moving, went, to, see, the, accountant, in, the, afternoon, to, sort, out, the, practicalities, of, going, freelance, and, finishing, at, the, vets, thursday, back, is, a, lot, better, and, starting, to, move, much, more, freely, the, first, negative, comment, on, me, leaving, today, came, from, a, farmer, who, has, decided, that, the, only, way, to, make, money, is, to, go, for, 300, cows, he, has, therefore, planned, all, this, designed, new, parlours, been, to, look, at, other, large, herds, thought, it, all, through, unfortunately, his, costings, are, on, buying, in, dairy, cows, at, 6, 700, per, head, and, just, recently, they, have, gone, to, over, a, thousand, which, means, he, is, out, by, 60k, oops, but, he, said, that, he, thought, i, was, deserting, them, in, a, way, i, suppose, i, am, back, in, to, being, on, call, with, a, vengeance, a, calving, a, caesar, a, prolapsed, uterus, hey, ho, friday, interesting, statistic, on, the, radio, whether, it, is, right, or, wrong, i, do, not, know, in, the, eu, the, average, beef, cow, is, subsidised, to, the, tune, of, 2, per, week, the, average, african, earns, less, than, that, the, canadians, and, wife, s, parents, arrived, back, from, their, trip, around, the, borders, the, good, news, is, they, baby, sat, or, teenage, and, child, minded, while, we, went, out, to, the, lemon, lounge, the, bad, news, is, they, are, to, feed, and, look, after, over, the, w, e, my, brother, and, family, arrive, tomorrow, so, it, will, be, a, bit, crowded, it, was, really, nice, to, be, out, on, our, own, with, relative, peace, around, us, the, noise, from, an, office, party, does, not, impinge, as, it, is, nothing, to, do, with, us, saturday, 31st, may, 2003, a, gardening, day, we, decided, that, we, would, have, to, get, the, place, sorted, out, so, spent, most, of, the, day, in, the, sunshine, pulling, weeds, and, sorting, out, the, garden, it, was, a, beautiful, day, my, back, was, pretty, sore, by, the, end, of, the, day, but, we, got, it, nearly, all, sorted, which, was, good, the, boys, cut, the, lawn, and, a, sat, on, it, and, read, her, book, another, bbq, by, the, end, of, the, day, a, made, the, salads, while, the, boys, cooked, so, it, was, a, family, meal, wife, and, the, older, two, headed, for, tesco’s, while, i, cleared, the, debris, away, sunday, june, 1st, the, sun, is, still, flaming, but, the, seeds, and, seedlings, are, looking, a, bit, sad, and, whithered, in, spite, of, the, watering, i, have, really, enjoyed, the, week, off, but, there, has, been, very, little, on, fmd, met, up, with, friends, at, church, home, visiting, parents, in, the, evening, caught, up, with, the, as, he, is, an, indian, gastro, enterologist, who, worked, at, carlisle, they, now, work, in, bombay, so, it, was, good, to, see, them, they, are, hoping, to, set, up, an, aids, hospice, there, are, currently, over, a, million, people, who, are, hiv, ve, in, bombay, monday, back, to, work, and, quite, busy, so, it, looks, as, if, the, june, quiet, period, is, not, going, to, materialise, with, folk, on, holiday, it, makes, it, seem, busier, any, way, it, took, me, until, 4pm, to, get, to, my, in, tray, which, after, a, week, was, overflowing, as, usual, tuesday, this, is, more, like, june, long, lunch, and, spent, the, morning, trying, to, get, the, accountancy, package, up, to, date, sent, off, another, speculative, e, mail, job, application, a, friend, from, church, who, is, now, studying, physio, therapy, at, glasgow, came, and, insisted, wife, i, went, out, for, a, walk, together, which, was, really, nice, he, is, a, really, nice, young, guy, went, to, beach, at, beckfoot, where, we, were, the, only, ones, walking, the, beach, there, was, one, serious, kiter, i, have, not, seen, such, a, serious, kite, for, a, long, time, it, was, fairly, windy, and, he, had, it, anchored, behind, him, so, as, not, to, be, taking, off, with, it, weds, spent, the, morning, doing, fertilities, and, then, spent, time, sorting, out, issues, with, george, there, was, so, little, work, it, is, boring, for, the, assistants, the, june, quiet, patch, ahs, arrived, the, bills, did, not, go, due, to, a, computer, upgrade, cocking, the, system, up, the, systems, are, now, so, complex, they, are, beyond, any, reasonable, way, of, keeping, tabs, you, have, to, trust, the, experts, who, you, don’t, thursday, day, off, spent, it, writing, out, a, business, proposal, to, try, and, get, work, via, a, consultancy, firm, then, tried, fixing, the, extractor, fan, and, failed, thursby, football, club, is, going, really, well, with, some, more, lads, coming, along, the, standard, is, variable, but, good, fun, friday, tb, testing, again, at, fs, they, had, just, heard, about, me, leaving, and, were, full, of, questions, the, night, was, really, busy, on, first, call, and, had, lots, going, on, wife, was, at, a, retreat, thinking, through, the, future, and, reporting, on, the, last, year, so, i, was, trying, to, juggle, kids, as, well, saturday, 7th, june, 2003, last, night, was, terrible, with, a, dog, to, see, in, the, middle, of, the, night, and, put, down, it, was, only, a, young, dog, but, it, had, leukaemia, and, was, not, responding, to, treatment, it, had, colic, probably, from, the, mesenteric, lymph, nodes, and, was, rolling, around, in, pain, not, nice, for, them, or, me, sat, am, was, busy, too, went, to, one, of, the, organic, farms, to, see, an, ill, cow, post, calving, he, was, saying, that, there, are, three, farmers, all, none, fmd, giving, up, milking, one, is, another, organic, dairy, farm, he, was, promised, a, premium, of, 10p, per, litre, and, his, costings, were, based, on, 28p, per, litre, he, is, getting, a, premium, of, less, than, 0.5p, per, litre, which, takes, it, to, 16p, the, figures, do, not, add, up, so, he, is, giving, up, the, other, 2, are, small, farms, who, cannot, make, it, work, 40, 50, cows, slept, in, the, afternoon, and, went, to, a, party, in, the, evening, bizarrely, as, we, were, walking, in, the, people, whose, dog, i, put, to, sleep, last, night, walked, in, as, well, they, live, next, door, and, had, been, invited, as, well, weird, spent, time, chatting, but, came, to, 10, and, i, was, dead, on, my, feet, sunday, 8th, the, on, call, changes, from, 2nd, back, up, to, 1st, at, 8, 30, am, the, phone, started, at, 8, 35, urghhh, i, am, finding, it, very, hard, to, have, any, enthusiasm, knowing, that, i, ma, leaving, in, a, few, months, one, of, the, farms, i, was, on, has, given, up, dairy, and, were, hoping, to, retire, fmd, year, but, lost, money, because, of, all, the, restrictions, so, they, are, now, hoping, to, finish, this, back, end, may, be, they, were, hoping, to, keep, the, milk, quota, and, lease, it, out, as, a, pension, but, because, of, the, new, rules, they, will, have, to, sell, it, and, the, price, is, low, as, there, are, a, lot, of, non, producers, who, are, in, the, same, boat, it, was, at, its, height, worth, 1, per, litre, a, lot, was, bought, and, sold, in, the, 40, 60p, per, litre, it, is, now, around, the, 10p, mark, funny, world, agriculture, monday, 9th, calving, at, 5am, followed, by, other, calls, so, an, early, start, busy, day, at, work, went, to, a, meeting, for, the, new, crusaders, support, worker, it, is, supposed, to, be, county, wide, but, is, going, to, be, based, around, kendal, as, that, is, where, the, legacy, that, is, providing, a, lot, of, the, money, is, based, so, it, is, less, relevant, tot, this, end, of, cumbria, so, i, have, backed, out, of, the, organisation, committee, as, most, of, the, meetings, will, be, at, rydal, too, far, for, me, we, were, there, tonight, so, did, not, get, back, until, 11, 30, which, after, a, w, e, on, call, is, too, late, for, this, bunny, tuesday, 10th, spent, 45, mins, on, the, phone, trying, to, work, out, what, i, am, going, to, be, doing, in, oct, with, a, guy, from, pfizer, i, then, had, to, spend, the, rest, of, the, evening, sorting, out, the, emails, i, needed, to, send, to, him, weds, 11th, spent, the, morning, having, nursery, visits, where, the, local, infants, schools, come, around, the, vets, and, i, give, my, wee, guided, tour, it, is, quite, fun, and, the, little, things, that, we, do, they, really, love, blowing, up, the, anaesthetic, bag, the, x, ray, quiz, and, listening, to, dog’s, hearts, i, always, take, some, of, son, s, chickens, in, as, well, as, most, kids, are, not, use, to, having, birds, or, handling, them, son, has, spent, so, many, hours, carrying, them, around, they, are, fairly, tame, and, used, to, being, picked, up, i, don’t, know, that, effort, pays, back, in, commercial, terms, but, it, is, fun, football, training, in, the, evening, with, 20, lads, which, was, brilliant, thursday, 12th, on, call, and, exhausted, after, the, excitement, of, the, week, the, phone, went, at, 7pm, from, the, answering, service, to, say, that, a, women, had, rung, and, asked, for, the, pass, word, for, the, alarm, this, of, course, meant, nothing, to, those, answering, the, phone, i, however, put, 2, 2, together, to, work, out, that, the, alarm, at, the, practice, and, gone, off, and, that, the, police, would, be, on, their, way, why, does, this, always, happen, when, you, are, in, the, bath, so, i, jumped, out, the, bath, and, rushed, down, to, find, out, what, was, going, on, there, was, a, police, man, there, who, was, waiting, for, me, to, lead, the, way, in, we, found, a, very, scared, dog, sitting, in, the, prep, room, having, escaped, from, its, kennel, it, then, took, an, hour, to, get, the, alarms, reset, life, is, a, rich, tapestry, friday, 13th, went, to, lawyers, today, to, meet, up, to, go, through, the, dissolution, of, the, partnership, bit, sad, in, a, way, but, another, nail, bashed, in, to, my, leaving, coffin, finished, work, and, spent, evening, playing, football, and, doing, some, coaching, which, was, good, fun, son, was, off, school, today, he, was, full, of, cold, and, just, exhausted, he, just, needed, time, out, really, he, goes, at, everything, at, 110, saturday, 14th, june, 2003, working, am, why, is, it, even, if, you, have, a, few, quiet, days, in, the, week, by, the, time, the, w, e, comes, it, is, busy, again, really, warm, so, sunshine, and, gardening, a, had, decided, she, was, going, to, do, a, changing, rooms, on, the, double, room, in, the, cottage, so, she, and, a, friend, worked, away, all, day, at, it, i, was, very, impressed, by, the, time, we, had, finished, our, barbeque, in, the, evening, it, was, all, back, to, ship, shape, and, was, finished, she, is, some, pup, sunday, went, down, to, whitehaven, to, see, the, tall, ships, in, the, harbour, there, was, only, one, there, which, was, disappointing, but, it, was, good, to, look, around, there, was, a, fair, buzz, about, the, place, and, heaving, with, people, as, the, weather, was, great, there, was, a, display, of, jet, ski’s, which, was, fun, to, watch, so, the, boys, are, now, on, at, me, to, try, and, have, a, go, the, red, arrows, were, brilliant, they, have, a, tremendous, display, and, the, coloured, streams, they, leave, behind, in, the, sky, always, amaze, me, it, is, almost, like, they, are, writing, in, the, sky, monday, finally, decided, the, duck, eggs, were, not, going, to, hatch, so, broke, them, open, to, see, if, they, were, fertile, 1, exploded, it, was, so, rotten, urghh, only, one, had, a, half, formed, egg, in, it, so, i, think, the, eggs, were, the, problem, not, the, incubation, tuesday, testing, some, more, i, r’s, for, tb, though, the, history, is, wrong, so, i, hope, that, they, will, clear, a, new, vet, student, turned, up, in, the, afternoon, she, is, staying, with, us, until, the, w, e, then, with, colleague, the, vets, is, going, to, have, to, find, new, accommodation, for, students, went, to, the, training, evening, for, the, soccer, coaching, it, was, a, form, filling, exercise, and, orientation, so, it, was, boring, but, i, am, on, the, course, which, is, good, at, least, i, well, have, the, piece, of, paper, at, the, end, of, it, weds, footie, training, at, night, only, the, hard, core, turned, up, so, looks, like, we, will, have, a, good, group, of, 14, 15, which, means, we, will, not, have, to, choose, and, disappoint, went, for, a, run, afterwards, as, feeling, in, need, of, exercise, as, not, much, large, animal, work, at, the, moment, means, i, am, sitting, around, on, the, computer, for, a, lot, of, the, day, which, is, sad, must, get, fit, is, a, constant, resolution, spent, the, evening, up, at, sandal, watching, the, sun, go, down, away, from, the, phone, and, chaos, at, home, thursday, i, was, at, work, when, i, had, a, phone, call, from, some, one, who, had, apparently, run, over, son, at, school, never, an, easy, phone, call, to, take, espy, as, she, did, not, know, what, had, happened, fortunately, he, was, ok, he, had, been, walking, backwards, and, had, stepped, into, the, path, of, a, car, which, had, caught, his, heel, the, damage, was, slight, but, it, had, upset, him, the, school, exit, is, appalling, and, needs, sorted, as, busses, cars, and, bikes, all, share, the, same, area, as, the, kids, walking, inevitably, kids, are, jostling, and, messing, around, so, it, is, an, accident, waiting, to, happen, friday, half, day, as, wife, is, starting, her, next, w, e, counselling, course, could, not, really, get, going, as, a, calving, early, this, am, and, a, call, late, last, night, so, having, run, on, adrenalin, for, all, the, week, i, collapse, in, to, a, heap, and, find, it, hard, to, get, going, and, get, motivated, spent, the, afternoon, getting, organised, for, the, visitors, arriving, as, friends, are, coming, and, friend, who, was, our, bridesmaid, is, coming, across, for, the, w, e, saturday, 21st, june, 2003, pay, day, i, don’t, really, know, why, it, always, sticks, in, my, mind, but, at, the, moment, with, the, 1st, of, october, looming, and, the, fact, that, the, 21st, will, not, be, a, pay, day, it, is, becoming, a, bit, scary, spent, morning, on, run, around, and, house, jobs, ferrying, to, and, from, squash, went, to, town, in, pm, with, a, son, having, left, off, the, younger, ones, at, cottinghams, and, spent, a, pleasant, half, hour, in, ottakars, even, they, were, running, low, on, the, book, the, latest, harry, potter, which, i, had, meant, to, order, via, internet, but, had, not, quite, got, around, to, the, statistic, is, that, she, is, expected, to, sell, 6, every, second, over, the, w, e, she, makes, 1, per, book, which, means, 360, per, minute, 21,600, per, hour, not, a, bad, hourly, rate, or, just, over, a, million, quid, for, the, w, e, as, every, other, person, on, the, tills, was, buying, a, copy, i, can, well, believe, it, sun, 22nd, church, in, the, morning, was, joint, communion, and, was, lead, by, the, denton, holm, house, group, the, church, meets, up, in, small, groups, mid, week, to, pray, and, study, bible, and, the, denton, holme, grp, lead, the, service, it, means, you, get, a, refreshingly, different, type, of, service, with, different, people, taking, part, and, leading, it, was, good, followed, by, a, picnic, in, the, park, which, was, ok, but, i, just, wanted, to, fall, asleep, in, the, sunshine, i, am, suffering, from, stopping, syndrome, i, can, keep, going, on, the, adrenalin, but, when, i, stop, thump, i, fall, asleep, and, can, not, get, going, picked, up, liz, from, church, in, the, evening, having, left, youngest, two, at, home, as, wife, was, late, back, from, her, course, thank, goodness, for, mobile, phones, or, rather, at, least, they, manage, to, make, a, complex, life, possible, really, i, should, have, let, her, pick, up, friend, and, missed, church, and, upset, a, by, telling, her, she, couldn’t, go, but, it, all, worked, out, in, the, end, mon, 23rd, friend, arrived, at, some, terrible, hour, she, finally, left, bristol, after, 8pm, after, meaning, to, leave, at, lunchtime, so, as, wife, and, i, were, exhausted, we, did, not, get, up, to, welcome, her, work, is, really, quiet, with, very, little, happening, son, is, in, a, strop, cos, we, will, not, let, him, go, sailing, after, cricket, after, school, as, he, will, be, exhausted, he, takes, after, us, if, there, is, a, possibility, we, try, to, achieve, it, our, own, fault, really, but, it, is, weird, how, you, see, your, own, faults, coming, through, in, your, children, tues, 24th, spent, the, day, talking, to, people, on, the, phone, trying, to, get, funding, for, the, research, project, have, a, few, leads, and, ideas, to, get, together, so, should, be, interesting, to, see, if, it, comes, together, weds, 25th, started, at, 4am, with, a, caesarean, which, was, really, nice, as, that, time, in, the, morning, is, beautiful, it, is, just, a, shame, that, the, rest, of, the, day, is, a, bit, of, a, wash, out, because, of, it, went, at, night, to, the, fa, training, course, which, was, class, room, based, on, a, warm, sunny, evening, and, i, was, struggling, to, stay, with, it, i, have, also, decided, that, i, need, to, get, fit, as, the, practical, day, is, going, to, be, very, long, for, my, unfit, legs, thursday, the, electrician, arrived, to, sort, out, the, electrics, in, the, bathroom, which, are, still, not, right, the, lights, keep, fusing, and, the, fan, will, not, work, i, had, a, look, at, the, wiring, which, is, a, mess, and, decided, i, could, not, follow, it, and, after, my, last, experience, i, decided, i, would, just, pay, him, to, keep, him, in, a, job, i, had, a, very, enjoyable, day, off, played, son, at, squash, and, lost, now, not, only, is, he, better, than, me, at, football, but, squash, a, swell, all, down, hill, from, here, on, in, went, to, church, in, the, evening, as, rw, was, speaking, it, was, interesting, to, hear, him, though, was, more, a, chat, than, a, biblical, exposition, friday, the, email, from, the, verse, of, the, day, seems, to, sum, up, a, years, worth, of, diaries, when, times, are, good, be, happy, but, when, times, are, bad, consider, god, has, made, the, one, as, well, as, the, other, therefore, a, man, cannot, discover, anything, about, his, future, ecclesiastes, 7, 14, new, international, version, the, future, is, uncertain, i, will, leave, my, job, in, a, few, months, time, for, a, new, start, the, pressures, of, fmd, seem, to, be, distant, in, the, warm, summer, weather, and, in, the, quiet, workload, making, me, feel, rested, and, relaxed, the, challenges, both, for, agriculture, the, veterinary, practice, and, for, policymakers, are, still, very, large, there, is, now, a, threat, of, bio, terrorism, to, add, to, the, food, scares, and, the, threat, of, exotic, disease, life, carries, on, we, may, not, learn, from, all, our, mistakes, and, government, depts, are, a, blunt, slow, awkward, machine, but, the, cows, will, still, need, to, be, milked, and, we, will, still, need, food, on, our, table, if, in, 68, you, told, some, one, that, we, had, not, had, an, outbreak, of, fmd, for, 35, years, they, would, have, said, well, done, if, you, had, said, 2, men, were, milking, 300, cows, on, a, cumbrian, farm, and, getting, 7000, litres, per, cow, he, would, never, have, believed, you, there, is, a, time, for, everything, and, a, season, for, every, activity, under, the, heaven, a, time, to, be, born, and, a, time, to, die, a, time, to, plant, and, a, time, to, uproot, a, time, to, kill, and, a, time, to, heal, a, time, to, tear, down, and, a, time, to, build, a, time, to, weep, and, a, time, to, laugh, a, time, to, mourn, and, a, time, to, dance, a, time, to, scatter, stones, and, a, time, to, gather, them, a, time, to, embrace, and, a, time, to, refrain, a, time, to, search, and, a, time, to, give, up, a, time, to, keep, and, a, time, to, throw, away, a, time, to, tear, and, a, time, to, mend, a, time, to, be, silent, and, a, time, to, speak, a, time, to, love, and, a, time, to, hate, a, time, for, war, and, a, time, for, peace]
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1981, gender, f, occupation, group, 5, geographic, region, north, cumbria, paper, diary, has, lots, of, newspaper, cuttings, and, other, related, material, week, beginning, 25th, february, 2002, after, the, snow, which, fell, at, the, weekend, melted, combined, with, the, additional, rainfall, many, of, the, fields, surrounding, the, village, as, well, as, the, roads, were, flooded, usually, this, wouldn't, concern, you, much, however, with, the, burial, site, being, so, close, and, the, number, of, underground, streams, in, the, area, it, does, become, worrying, there, isn't, any, guarantee, that, groundwater, in, the, surrounding, area, won't, become, effected, and, to, what, extent, there, seem, to, be, a, number, of, aspects, to, me, concerning, this, issue, which, remain, unclear, for, example, what, exactly, can, be, carried, in, water, and, how, might, this, effect, people, in, the, area, what, is, being, tested, for, in, the, surrounding, streams, what, exactly, is, classed, as, a, danger, and, if, problems, did, arise, how, would, they, be, monitored, and, resolved, all, these, issues, do, tend, to, make, you, anxious, in, particular, on, monday, when, i, was, out, walking, my, dog, i, noticed, a, couple, of, drains, which, i, passed, looked, as, if, they, were, blocked, and, there, was, a, lot, of, water, around, it, just, makes, you, wonder, how, much, has, come, possibly, from, the, burial, site, and, if, it, is, actually, safe, my, worries, on, monday, about, the, groundwater, were, even, more, emphasised, by, the, statement, i, heard, on, the, border, news, on, tuesday, by, the, environment, agency, this, statement, was, concerning, the, future, safety, of, the, groundwater, in, the, area, around, the, burial, site, the, agency, could, give, no, guarantee, that, the, groundwater, would, not, become, affected, in, the, future, since, then, i, have, heard, no, further, news, about, the, issue, there, may, be, more, information, on, news, reports, i, missed, in, my, opinion, not, enough, information, is, given, to, the, public, about, these, issues, results, of, testing, by, the, environment, agency, are, meant, to, be, available, to, the, public, however, i, have, never, heard, much, about, the, details, i, think, more, effort, should, be, made, to, inform, in, particular, resident, near, burial, sites, as, these, issues, are, bound, to, be, important, to, them, after, hearing, the, news, i, did, become, more, worried, but, at, the, end, of, the, day, there, is, little, we, can, really, do, ourselves, you, find, yourself, having, to, trust, people, or, agencies, you, know, little, about, and, just, hoping, everything, will, be, alright, on, tuesday, also, noticed, a, horrible, smell, outside, so, did, my, fiancé, but, again, you, can't, be, sure, exactly, where, this, is, coming, from, or, what, is, causing, it, on, thursday, with, news, of, possible, foot, and, mouth, case, further, south, near, leeds, i, became, very, worried, that, this, whole, thing, was, going, to, start, all, over, again, my, worries, were, about, the, farmers, and, people, involved, and, how, they, would, be, affected, if, other, cases, could, be, identified, and, in, particular, affecting, my, own, life, if, animals, would, have, to, be, slaughtered, again, in, the, future, where, would, they, be, disposed, of, would, existing, burial, sites, be, reopened, as, opposed, to, finding, suitable, sites, for, new, burial, sites, it, would, seem, easier, to, reopen, burial, sites, but, what, would, this, mean, for, the, future, and, to, what, extent, would, the, health, risks, be, increased, i, was, very, relieved, to, hear, the, testing, of, the, foot, and, mouth, cases, came, back, negative, i, was, relieved, for, the, people, involved, and, also, residents, near, burial, sites, however, this, did, raise, questions, in, my, mind, of, how, this, sort, of, situation, would, be, handled, in, the, future, and, what, consequences, it, might, have, week, 2, 4th, march, on, monday, passed, driving, test, and, now, fiancé, and, myself, are, insured, on, a, small, car, this, opens, up, so, many, opportunities, and, we, have, a, huge, sense, of, freedom, last, summer, we, had, planned, to, go, on, a, camping, holiday, with, our, dog, dog, we, had, al, our, equipment, prepared, but, were, unable, to, go, due, to, the, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, neither, of, us, imagined, how, long, and, widespread, the, outbreak, would, be, and, thought, at, first, it, would, be, over, in, a, few, weeks, now, a, year, later, we, are, able, to, replan, our, holiday, this, is, exciting, as, we, have, waited, so, long, it, is, unbelievable, to, think, how, long, it, has, taken, for, restrictions, on, the, countryside, to, return, to, as, normal, as, can, be, possible, due, to, the, circumstances, for, the, actual, people, directly, involved, in, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, this, must, have, seemed, like, far, longer, on, tuesday, i, had, a, lovely, surprise, when, i, noticed, the, lambs, in, a, field, near, my, house, when, out, walking, my, dog, it, was, lovely, to, see, and, for, a, few, minutes, things, almost, seemed, normal, again, even, though, the, burial, site, is, only, about, a, mile, away, it, is, hidden, from, view, from, the, village, you, never, forget, though, as, soon, as, you, spot, the, windmills, and, remember, the, repeated, pictures, featured, in, the, news, seeing, the, lambs, really, did, lift, my, spirits, and, the, future, after, foot, and, mouth, didn’t, seem, as, bad, as, thought, the, week, before, i, can’t, recall, the, exact, days, but, they, were, towards, the, beginning, of, the, week, on, two, particular, occasions, my, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, terrible, smell, outside, we, aren’t, sure, exactly, what, the, smell, was, just, that, it, was, very, unpleasant, the, only, other, incident, which, i, can, recall, which, stands, out, in, my, mind, this, past, week, is, a, conversation, i, had, with, my, fiancé’s, granddad, we, were, talking, about, how, bad, last, year’s, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, had, been, and, he, recalled, the, outbreak, of, 1967, he, commented, on, how, he, thought, that, outbreak, had, been, far, better, controlled, it, was, better, as, the, animals, were, killed, and, buried, on, the, actual, farms, in, lime, there, was, no, transporting, dead, or, live, animals, like, last, year, he, also, commented, on, the, fact, that, there, were, no, pyres, then, and, that, he, hadn’t, thought, it, a, good, idea, last, year, overall, he, thought, that, last, year’s, outbreak, could, have, been, dealt, with, better, and, that, action, was, taken, far, too, late, to, prevent, the, disease, spreading, week, 3, 11th, march, one, new, thing, i, have, noticed, this, week, is, the, amount, of, birds, there, are, flying, around, especially, black, crows, i, think, it, is, because, i, have, been, driving, and, every, time, i, drive, past, the, fields, at, the, south, end, of, the, village, there, are, large, amounts, of, crows, hustled, together, can, never, remember, it, being, quite, like, that, last, summer, it, makes, you, wonder, why, so, many, are, drawn, to, just, those, fields, as, i, drive, past, in, the, next, few, weeks, i, will, see, if, it, is, still, the, same, on, about, occasions, this, week, fiancé, and, i, have, noticed, a, slight, smell, outside, again, not, as, foul, smelling, but, still, noticeable, on, tuesday, saw, new, series, featured, on, itv, called, rural, lives, i, think, this, is, a, good, idea, as, the, issue, of, foot, and, mouth, is, still, very, painful, to, a, lot, of, people, and, is, not, over, yet, the, effects, are, still, happening, however, on, the, news, and, in, other, media, it, isn’t, often, mentioned, and, doesn’t, get, the, attention, it, deserves, hopefully, through, programmes, like, this, people, will, get, a, better, understanding, of, the, issues, involved, and, what, different, people, went, through, if, an, outbreak, ever, happened, again, all, the, people, involved, would, hopefully, have, a, better, idea, of, how, to, handle, the, actual, crisis, and, a, better, idea, of, people’s, needs, for, example, the, farmers, these, are, long, term, effects, which, can’t, be, ignored, my, mum, came, out, for, a, couple, of, nights, she, loves, coming, out, to, see, us, as, she, lives, in, carlisle, it, is, a, total, change, of, scenery, she, thought, it, was, great, and, enjoyed, taking, my, dog, on, long, walks, which, she, was, unable, to, do, for, a, long, time, we, went, to, see, the, lambs, in, the, lovely, weather, shows, we, are, able, to, start, enjoying, the, countryside, again, especially, coming, up, to, spring, and, summer, we, were, even, able, to, go, to, dalston, with, my, dog, and, wander, about, we, have, been, so, used, to, having, to, stick, t, the, roads, just, in, the, local, area, it, was, lovely, a, nice, change, it, does, tend, to, make, you, more, confident, about, the, coming, year, and, we, are, looking, forward, to, the, summer, week, 4, 18th, march, this, past, week, started, of, with, a, day, out, at, bowness, i, went, with, my, fiancé, and, took, our, dog, dog, it, was, lovely, to, let, her, off, the, lead, to, run, she, really, enjoys, it, and, got, absolutely, filthy, travelling, in, the, car, is, becoming, easier, for, dog, and, she, goes, crazy, when, you, arrive, we, have, only, had, dog, just, over, 2, years, and, for, the, past, year, we, couldn’t, let, her, off, the, lead, to, run, anywhere, we, are, tiring, t, train, her, again, she, listens, to, a, certain, extent, but, we, have, to, keep, an, eye, on, her, cheeky, side, i, remember, wondering, when, the, foot, and, mouth, started, how, we, were, going, to, exercise, dog, as, walking, her, on, the, roads, used, to, be, more, difficult, due, to, the, large, vehicles, travelling, up, and, down, and, also, the, fact, dog, isn’t, the, best, on, the, lead, she, used, to, be, really, energetic, and, a, bit, of, a, handful, however, now, she, has, got, used, to, a, more, relaxed, life, and, at, times, i, think, she, quite, likes, it, it, did, us, all, good, to, have, some, exercise, and, fresh, air, and, it, was, lovely, to, have, a, change, of, scenery, apart, from, on, monday, i, haven’t, really, been, anywhere, else, apart, from, shopping, and, have, been, busy, doing, my, a, level, work, therefore, i, haven’t, really, noticed, anything, different, this, week, and, haven’t, thought, about, foot, and, mouth, as, much, my, overall, view, this, week, has, been, quite, confident, and, there, has, been, no, real, significant, happenings, to, change, my, view, quite, a, good, week, overall, week, 5, 25th, march, firstly, i, received, the, newsletter, sent, out, to, the, standing, panel, it, was, a, relief, to, finally, get, some, information, regarding, the, burial, site, it, was, good, to, have, an, explanation, on, how, things, work, on, the, site, in, terms, that, we, can, understand, it, is, a, relief, to, know, that, everything, so, far, is, still, safe, however, it, is, evident, that, there, is, much, more, work, and, monitoring, to, be, carried, out, in, the, future, even, though, it, is, still, not, possible, to, do, anything, ourselves, our, minds, are, at, least, put, at, rest, by, knowing, something, it, surprises, me, how, long, it, has, taken, for, information, like, this, to, be, made, accessible, to, the, public, i, think, this, newsletter, is, a, very, good, step, forward, as, information, is, reaching, the, public, and, participants, are, also, given, the, opportunity, to, ask, questions, and, put, other, ideas, forward, on, wednesday, my, mum, came, out, again, to, see, us, once, again, we, took, a, walk, to, go, see, the, lambs, in, the, field, near, us, it, was, enjoyable, and, we, had, lovely, weather, it, makes, you, realise, how, much, you, take, for, granted, around, you, without, thinking, twice, my, mum, has, made, me, realise, this, even, more, by, seeing, how, much, she, enjoys, such, a, simple, thing, and, how, special, she, thinks, it, is, sometimes, i, think, when, you, are, surrounded, by, the, country, and, nature, all, the, time, you, forget, how, lucky, you, are, my, mum, and, gran, would, both, love, to, live, somewhere, like, here, the, biggest, surprise, this, week, was, when, i, received, the, parish, magazine, for, the, month, and, found, in, it, the, watchtree, news, this, is, the, first, time, i, have, ever, seen, anything, like, this, from, the, parish, council, i, think, it, is, a, very, good, idea, as, the, information, will, be, accessible, to, everyone, in, the, appropriate, parishes, even, though, it, is, long, overdue, it, is, very, worthwhile, and, i, think, will, be, very, informative, it, covers, a, wide, range, of, issues, the, majority, of, which, i, knew, very, little, about, and, wouldn’t, have, known, for, the, future, for, example, the, maintenance, going, to, be, carried, out, between, the, a595, orton, grange, junction, and, the, site, entrance, at, least, we, now, have, knowledge, of, this, before, it, is, going, to, be, carried, out, as, it, will, affect, other, members, of, our, family, who, live, on, the, orton, grange, junction, who, would, otherwise, have, had, no, idea, some, of, the, information, was, surprising, for, example, the, number, of, tankers, that, leave, the, site, everyday, which, i, didn’t, expect, to, be, so, high, and, which, could, rise, important, issues, are, also, now, being, tackled, such, as, the, bad, state, of, the, local, roads, the, affected, people, are, also, being, encouraged, to, report, these, things, themselves, to, the, appropriate, people, i, think, this, has, been, a, significant, development, and, will, be, very, useful, in, the, aftermath, of, foot, and, mouth, communication, between, the, appropriate, authorities, and, the, public, is, essential, week, 6, 1st, april, unfortunately, it, has, been, all, go, this, week, one, bit, of, work, after, another, i, haven't, had, time, to, focus, on, very, much, else, this, past, week, despite, this, fact, i, have, still, had, quite, a, positive, week, it, is, better, studying, out, here, as, there, are, few, distractions, and, everything, is, lovely, and, peaceful, a, drastic, difference, from, last, year, at, that, time, it, was, difficult, to, concentrate, on, anything, for, too, long, far, too, many, distractions, my, fiancé, however, has, been, up, to, the, burial, site, and, nearby, on, sunday, he, went, for, a, drive, with, a, friend, and, wondered, what, it, looked, like, up, there, we, have, only, ever, seen, it, on, television, reports, but, never, been, up, there, ourselves, in, a, future, diary, when, he, has, time, he, will, write, a, few, words, on, what, he, thought, week, 7, 8th, april, once, again, this, week, has, been, full, of, work, i, haven't, had, much, time, to, do, anything, apart, from, work, on, thursday, i, had, a, break, and, my, mom, came, out, for, a, bbq, for, the, first, time, this, year, we, have, put, out, our, patio, tables, and, chairs, as, the, weather, was, staying, pleasant, we, sat, out, for, a, while, in, the, evening, and, had, our, bbq, it, was, a, lovely, break, for, my, mom, as, there, is, peace, and, quiet, out, here, as, opposed, to, in, town, we, all, really, enjoyed, it, my, mom, and, fiance, both, commented, how, lovely, it, was, to, sit, outside, in, the, nice, weather, without, a, nasty, smell, about, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, haven't, noticed, things, smelling, so, bad, as, on, a, few, occasions, recently, there, has, also, been, a, decrease, in, the, amount, of, birds, in, particular, crows, which, have, been, in, the, fields, to, the, south, of, where, we, are, near, the, crossroads, on, the, couple, of, occasions, during, the, week, when, i, have, been, past, the, fields, there, have, only, been, a, couple, of, birds, flying, around, as, opposed, to, a, whole, field, full, of, crows, at, one, time, it, was, also, lovely, to, hear, the, sheep, especially, as, the, evening, became, darker, in, the, background, you, could, hear, the, sheep, just, in, the, field, next, to, us, and, also, the, lambs, a, few, fields, away, it, was, something, which, we, still, aren't, quite, used, to, but, which, we, appreciate, so, much, more, now, week, 8, 15th, april, i, was, feeling, quite, confident, this, week, until, friday, when, watch, the, news, i, saw, the, report, on, new, bovine, tb, cases, which, are, worrying, even, though, it, is, said, it, wouldn’t, be, as, serious, as, foot, and, mouth, it, is, still, worrying, as, it, has, the, potential, to, destroy, many, more, lives, and, bankrupt, more, farmers, who, have, probably, just, got, over, foot, and, mouth, the, worry, must, be, especially, bad, for, the, farmers, as, it, is, bad, enough, for, the, general, public, especially, after, seeing, the, damage, caused, by, foot, and, mouth, in, such, a, short, space, of, time, it, would, be, absolutely, terrible, if, this, summer, was, anything, like, last, summer, how, long, would, it, take, for, everything, to, get, back, to, normal, then, even, though, foot, and, mouth, is, evidently, far, different, to, bovine, tb, hopefully, things, will, have, been, learned, from, last, year, which, will, prevent, this, from, becoming, a, disaster, too, apart, from, that, other, aspects, of, the, foot, and, mouth, smell, etc, haven’t, been, as, bad, this, past, week, i, haven’t, noticed, any, particular, occasions, when, the, smell, has, been, particularly, bad, or, noticeable, in, addition, on, the, occasions, when, i, have, driven, past, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, there, have, been, hardly, any, crows, near, there, which, is, a, huge, improvement, there, were, a, number, of, seagulls, in, one, field, but, nowhere, near, the, amount, of, crows, there, were, before, there, has, also, been, a, decrease, in, the, amount, of, tankers, going, by, recently, that, i, have, noticed, at, first, i, didn’t, take, much, notice, of, it, but, then, fiancé, s, grandad, mentioned, that, he, had, hardly, seen, any, he, seems, to, notice, them, move, more, than, we, do, as, he, lives, on, the, orton, grange, junction, with, wigton, road, and, they, all, have, to, go, past, there, with, all, these, things, happening, the, presence, of, the, burial, site, nearby, seems, less, obvious, week, 9, 22nd, april, the, last, week, has, been, quite, a, pleasant, week, probably, because, i, have, eventually, finished, my, coursework, and, have, been, able, to, have, a, bit, of, peace, and, quiet, i, think, this, combined, with, periods, of, lovely, weather, have, made, me, feel, quite, good, on, tuesday, when, i, travelled, to, town, and, back, i, went, past, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, to, the, south, of, the, village, which, in, the, past, have, been, full, of, crows, or, seagulls, as, i, have, noticed, on, other, odd, occasions, over, the, past, week, they, appear, to, be, empty, now, i’ll, keep, an, eye, on, how, this, changes, over, the, summer, if, it, does, on, friday, i, noticed, that, there, were, a, number, of, cattle, and, calves, in, the, field, just, opposite, our, house, i, can, stand, and, watch, them, from, my, back, patio, doors, which, is, lovely, with, the, reintroduction, of, the, sheep, and, cattle, in, the, area, it, is, like, everything, is, coming, together, finally, after, the, foot, and, mouth, and, life, is, returning, to, normal, in, some, sense, the, cattle, seem, to, be, the, last, part, needed, for, everything, to, seem, to, be, running, properly, and, the, animals, finally, moving, about, at, last, i, think, this, fact, combine, with, their, being, no, significant, incidents, of, nasty, smells, or, the, rumbling, of, the, tankers, going, by, has, made, things, seem, better, when, talking, to, fiance, s, grandad, he, mentioned, again, that, there, still, haven’t, been, as, many, tankers, going, past, his, house, at, orton, grange, as, there, have, been, this, past, week, there, have, been, hardly, any, reminders, of, the, burial, site, and, the, past, foot, and, mouth, problems, living, in, the, country, has, seemed, quite, normal, after, what, seems, a, long, time, week, 10, 29th, april, all, in, all, this, week, has, been, a, good, week, overall, with, regard, to, the, foot, and, mouth, everything, seems, to, have, quietened, down, and, there, are, hardly, any, visible, reminders, of, the, burial, site, and, foot, and, mouth, around, the, village, as, i, mentioned, last, week, there, still, haven’t, been, any, noticeable, occasions, of, smells, possibly, from, the, burial, site, the, tankers, have, hardly, been, noticeable, around, the, village, and, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, have, still, been, fairly, empty, of, birds, in, particular, crows, this, was, explained, and, backed, up, in, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazines, which, i, received, this, week, it, was, good, to, read, and, very, informative, worth, reading, i, still, think, it, is, a, good, idea, and, is, being, done, well, as, it, discusses, issues, happening, now, and, also, keeps, you, informed, about, action, in, the, future, the, newsletter, mentioned, the, reduction, in, the, amount, of, tankers, which, i, have, noticed, it, also, mentions, that, there, might, be, a, slight, smell, from, the, burial, sited, during, work, but, so, far, i, haven’t, noticed, anything, once, again, it, has, been, lovely, seeing, both, the, sheep, and, the, cows, in, the, surrounding, fields, especially, at, the, moment, when, they, are, with, their, young, on, saturday, on, the, way, down, to, fiance, s, grandad, there, were, road, works, near, the, baldwinholme, bend, in, the, road, this, part, was, in, a, bad, condition, and, is, now, much, better, i, think, the, damage, was, caused, by, the, trucks, etc, used, during, foot, and, mouth, however, i’m, not, sure, week, 11, 6th, may, this, week, has, been, my, 21st, birthday, i’m, growing, up, i, had, a, lovely, day, on, thursday, and, as, a, surprise, i, was, taken, t, the, lake, district, for, the, day, it, was, lovely, and, i, really, enjoyed, it, firstly, we, stopped, off, at, bassenthwaite, lake, for, a, bit, fed, the, ducks, and, had, a, picnic, then, off, to, dodd, wood, for, a, coffee, and, to, see, the, ospreys, it, was, great, to, see, them, and, i, think, we, were, quite, lucky, then, we, had, a, pleasant, walk, around, myre, house, i, was, reminded, of, how, lucky, we, are, in, cumbria, to, have, such, lovely, places, and, i, am, glad, that, we, are, now, able, to, go, to, these, places, again, now, we’ve, got, a, car, we, are, going, to, take, better, advantage, of, cumbria, and, what, it, has, to, offer, once, again, i, realised, how, much, we, take, what, we, have, for, granted, overall, this, has, been, a, good, week, and, reminders, of, foot, and, mouth, and, the, burial, site, have, been, minimal, there, have, been, no, smells, i, have, noticed, and, hardly, any, signs, of, wagons, it, is, still, lovely, to, see, the, sheep, and, cattle, around, the, village, week, 12, 13th, may, on, wednesday, i, met, my, mum, in, town, and, got, the, cumberland, news, off, her, i, was, reading, about, the, county, council, inquiry, at, kendal, i, think, it, is, good, how, the, different, people, involved, in, the, inquiry, are, all, being, honest, about, what, happened, that, is, the, only, way, anything, will, be, improved, in, the, future, if, anything, of, a, similar, nature, should, happen, again, i, really, hope, it, doesn’t, from, reading, the, articles, written, and, what, people, have, said, it, is, clear, what, a, wide, range, of, people, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, affected, and, also, how, badly, when, you, read, of, other, people, who, have, had, family, who, have, been, so, low, it, has, driven, them, to, suicide, you, do, seem, to, feel, a, bit, guilty, as, when, we, complain, it, hasn’t, affected, us, is, such, a, drastic, way, it, brings, the, seriousness, and, the, extent, of, the, crisis, to, people’s, attention, despite, the, terrible, things, which, took, place, during, the, crisis, hopefully, some, good, will, come, out, of, it, for, the, present, and, the, future, on, thursday, fiance, went, to, the, doctor’s, and, was, talking, to, a, farmer, in, the, waiting, room, as, soon, as, fiance, mentioned, he, lived, in, great, orton, the, farmer, asked, straight, away, what, it, was, like, to, live, here, so, near, to, the, burial, site, and, how, he, couldn’t, imagine, what, it, would, have, been, like, it, too, has, been, such, a, long, time, since, anyone, has, said, anything, like, that, to, either, one, of, us, at, the, time, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, people, used, to, ask, questions, and, what, it, was, like, to, live, so, near, it, is, strange, when, farmers, in, particular, feel, sympathy, towards, you, for, living, near, the, burial, site, when, on, the, other, hand, it, is, the, farmers, i, feel, sympathy, for, before, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, a, fair, number, of, people, even, from, carlisle, didn’t, know, where, great, orton, was, but, now, many, do, and, realise, how, close, to, carlisle, it, actually, is, week, 13, 20th, may, i, haven't, really, done, anything, very, exciting, this, past, week, unfortunately, i've, been, revising, again, and, preparing, for, a, presentation, for, my, a, level, which, i, have, to, do, next, week, my, presentation, was, on, turrets, and, watchtowers, which, i, found, a, bit, confusing, at, first, from, the, books, i've, been, using, so, dragged, fiance, to, drive, and, dog, out, past, brampton, to, hadrian's, wall, there, i, found, a, watchtower, and, a, turret, everything, became, much, clearer, on, the, way, back, we, spotted, a, sign, for, a, camping, barn, on, hadrian's, wall, banks, east, we, were, both, very, interested, so, sent, away, for, the, brochure, at, this, point, we, decided, to, reconsider, our, holiday, plans, and, realised, we, didn't, need, to, go, far, afield, like, amsterdam, our, 1st, choice, then, scotland, 2nd, choice, we, hadn't, realised, actually, how, many, places, there, were, so, nearby, which, were, ideal, we, came, to, the, conclusion, a, holiday, in, cumbria, would, be, the, best, choice, as, 1, we, could, take, dog, with, us, 2, we, could, go, by, car, and, 3, it, would, be, a, bit, cheaper, as, fiance, mentioned, it, would, also, be, good, after, everything, to, put, the, money, we, were, spending, back, into, cumbria, we, were, hoping, to, go, next, week, as, it, is, half, term, the, week, after, and, my, exams, after, that, hopefully, we, will, get, something, organised, on, thursday, we, got, the, orton, newsletter, fiance, and, i, were, both, quite, disappointed, when, we, read, that, land, around, this, area, are, being, sold, for, the, building, of, houses, it, is, good, in, a, way, as, people, are, moving, forward, after, f, m, but, we, wish, it, wasn't, in, a, residential, sense, it, is, just, a, pity, so, much, of, the, farming, will, be, lost, 6, houses, at, baldwinholme, 4, in, great, orton, even, though, i, haven't, been, brought, up, with, a, farming, background, from, what, i, have, seen, it, would, be, a, pity, for, us, to, lose, this, part, of, our, countryside, week, 14, 27th, may, on, monday, saw, cb, and, was, pleased, to, hear, the, f, m, standing, panel, project, was, going, well, as, i, think, it’s, worthwhile, and, as, much, as, possible, should, be, learned, for, the, future, on, tuesday, i, attended, the, meeting, for, the, foot, and, mouth, disease, inquiry, at, great, orton, village, hall, at, 7pm, i, was, glad, i, attended, the, meeting, as, people, could, voice, their, opinions, and, try, to, get, information, about, issues, both, about, the, present, and, the, future, my, general, view, of, the, meeting, and, how, it, went, was, that, the, general, feeling, of, the, villagers, etc, was, that, they, were, losing, interest, and, nothing, was, still, being, done, there, were, many, empty, seats, i, estimated, a, total, number, of, 50, 60, people, there, was, a, whole, new, panel, of, faces, even, though, this, was, a, new, inquiry, so, there, were, new, people, on, the, panel, but, between, the, meetings, there, is, no, feel, of, continuity, as, no, one, is, sure, of, what, has, been, said, before, and, there, are, never, the, answers, promised, from, one, meeting, to, another, it, seems, as, if, this, is, a, way, of, avoiding, answers, and, getting, out, of, situations, there, were, new, aspects, which, were, brought, up, which, had, not, yet, been, disclosed, never, at, any, meeting, i, have, attended, such, as, the, fact, the, burial, was, planned, and, used, for, the, burial, of, uninfected, animals, which, is, not, what, we, were, led, to, believe, with, al, the, engineering, on, site, again, this, is, lack, of, communication, and, no, one, is, sure, of, the, facts, defra, also, are, only, guaranteeing, funding, for, this, site, for, the, next, 5, years, and, it, is, worrying, who’s, burden, this, will, become, after, then, a, variety, of, other, issues, were, discussed, health, roads, handling, of, outbreak, vaccination, etc, after, the, meeting, i, was, glad, i, had, been, however, i, felt, rather, angry, by, the, way, in, which, the, questions, are, handled, the, answers, are, often, vague, have, no, supporting, evidence, or, are, dismissed, with, i’ll, have, to, get, back, to, you, on, that, or, i, can’t, comment, in, my, opinion, many, of, the, farmers, villagers, etc, just, want, this, whole, thing, brought, to, an, end, ideally, the, remaining, trenches, filled, in, a, nature, reserve, created, and, maintained, there, were, no, guarantees, of, the, site, not, being, used, again, or, funding, after, the, next, five, years, will, this, ever, be, achieved, on, saturday, morning, fiance, and, i, decided, to, go, away, for, a, short, break, to, somewhere, near, and, where, we, could, take, dog, it, was, a, spontaneous, decision, for, the, jubilee, and, because, it, was, half, term, i, was, not, at, college, we, ended, up, going, to, a, caravan, site, with, dog, for, 4, nights, i, will, update, about, my, holiday, in, the, next, diary, clipping, from, news, and, star, here, story, about, great, orton, public, meeting, and, villagers, request, not, to, have, site, used, again, in, the, event, of, future, emergencies, holiday, week, beginning, monday, 3rd, june, week, 15, 10th, june, i, am, writing, this, a, couple, of, days, early, just, to, tell, you, about, our, holiday, it, was, lovely, in, the, end, we, hadn't, yet, received, the, brochure, on, the, camping, barns, so, on, saturday, we, decided, we, would, like, to, go, away, as, son, as, possible, and, would, like, something, for, the, jubilee, weekend, after, finding, a, caravan, at, caldbeck, not, far, away, relatively, quiet, we, went, by, 5, pm, on, saturday, fiance, dog, and, i, were, there, it, was, a, lovely, caravan, site, lovely, caravan, and, even, a, tv, for, the, world, cup, the, caravan, site, was, surrounded, by, common, land, sheep, lovely, and, quiet, and, a, lot, of, places, to, keep, dog, occupied, we, were, so, surprised, at, how, quiet, the, campsite, was, over, the, jubilee, weekend, but, thought, most, of, the, people, actually, lived, there, it, would, be, lovely, in, the, future, to, have, a, small, caravan, there, to, go, away, to, the, surrounding, places, we, went, to, were, really, busy, for, example, keswick, bassenthwaite, etc, i, was, quite, surprised, but, thought, it, was, great, to, see, cumbria, lively, again, what, a, contrast, to, what, i, would, have, imagined, these, places, to, be, like, a, year, ago, especially, for, the, jubilee, everyone, seemed, to, make, such, an, effort, it, was, lovely, to, see, we, all, had, a, lovely, time, so, relaxing, oi, don't, think, dog, has, ever, walked, so, far, we, were, surprised, that, somewhere, so, close, was, exactly, what, we, wanted, we, were, also, happy, we, could, put, our, money, back, into, cumbria, we, would, definitely, go, back, i, feel, so, much, more, confident, about, the, future, especially, in, cumbria, after, this, week, if, you, didn't, know, about, last, year, f, m, outbreak, in, some, cases, it, would, be, hard, to, tell, i, really, think, cumbria, seems, as, if, it, could, recover, from, this, hopefully, on, saturday, and, sunday, ill, in, bed, week, 16, 17th, june, with, the, combination, of, not, feeling, very, well, at, the, beginning, of, the, week, the, car, not, running, overt, the, week, end, and, dog, being, in, season, i, haven't, really, been, able, to, go, anywhere, this, week, it, has, been, quite, frustrating, but, i, have, had, work, to, do, anyway, i, still, feel, quite, confident, about, the, future, this, week, after, being, on, holiday, this, is, better, than, a, couple, of, weeks, ago, after, the, fmd, inquiry, meeting, when, i, felt, quite, unsure, at, time, of, what, was, going, to, happen, at, gt, orton, i, had, the, f, m, panel, newsletter, and, watchtree, newsletter, with, parish, magazine, i, think, both, of, these, are, good, as, you, are, able, to, gain, information, consistently, about, f, m, in, cumbria, and, in, particular, the, burial, site, this, information, would, be, difficult, to, come, by, otherwise, in, particular, i, enjoyed, reading, about, children, at, milburn, school, with, their, memories, of, the, f, m, outbreak, and, the, effort, they, have, made, researcher, had, spoken, with, respondent, about, possibility, of, monthly, diary, and, she, decided, to, start, straight, away, so, although, middle, of, month, here, follows, monthly, write, up, she, continued, to, record, her, diary, in, this, way, at, times, she, offers, short, daily, entries, drawing, 4, weeks, together, within, an, overall, reflective, piece, these, daily, entries, are, also, recorded, week, 20, 15th, july, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, i, am, looking, forward, to, attending, the, social, evening, in, dalston, i, am, a, bit, nervous, as, am, not, used, to, doing, these, sorts, of, things, but, think, it, will, be, a, good, experience, i, was, also, pleased, when, i, got, the, f, m, panel, newsletter, and, saw, the, article, i, made, notes, for, i, have, never, done, anything, like, this, before, and, was, quite, pleased, about, the, whole, thing, on, the, saturday, of, week, one, fiance, and, i, went, down, to, fiance, s, grandad's, and, noticed, there, were, more, signs, up, for, land, being, for, sale, again, we, both, think, this, is, quite, sad, as, the, area, will, inevitable, be, changing, in, the, near, future, we, wonder, how, much, of, the, land, will, be, reused, for, farming, or, sold, for, new, houses, taking, into, consideration, the, signs, we, have, seen, up, in, the, past, quite, a, bit, of, land, is, going, to, change, over, the, past, weeks, i, have, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, with, our, parish, magazine, i, still, think, this, is, a, good, idea, and, worthwhile, as, you, are, updated, every, so, often, this, will, also, reach, everyone, in, the, village, so, easily, accessible, over, a, period, of, a, few, days, in, week, 2, of, these, 4, weeks, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, a, strange, smell, outside, we, could, smell, it, here, but, not, at, fiance, s, grandad's, which, is, only, 2, miles, away, it, smelt, just, like, a, burning, smell, so, i, am, not, sure, whether, it, had, anything, to, do, with, the, burial, site, or, anything, being, done, up, there, i, just, thought, i, would, mention, it, anyway, last, wednesday, i, rang, up, the, archaeological, support, group, in, carlisle, of, which, i, have, been, a, member, for, the, past, year, and, a, half, i, had, never, been, sent, anything, to, do, with, it, for, along, time, and, wondered, why, it, turns, out, that, last, year, as, soon, as, f, m, hit, cumbria, everything, was, cancelled, and, stopped, this, i, knew, at, the, time, and, there, was, nothing, else, that, could, have, happened, the, thing, i, didn't, realise, was, that, things, have, been, so, badly, affected, that, nothing, has, been, arranged, as, yet, even, so, many, months, after, f, m, broke, out, once, again, this, is, another, example, of, how, things, have, been, affected, still, so, many, months, after, there, is, also, uncertainty, about, the, future, of, this, archaeology, group, as, nothing, has, been, decided, yet, and, it, will, depend, on, how, things, go, this, is, a, pity, and, i, hope, things, pick, up, in, the, future, on, the, first, week, of, these, 4, weeks, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, that, we, were, coughing, a, bit, more, especially, at, night, and, early, in, the, morning, since, then, fiance, has, got, better, and, is, not, coughing, as, much, but, now, i, have, got, a, sore, throat, and, a, cold, i, don't, think, this, is, anything, to, do, with, the, burial, site, or, anything, but, we, were, not, sure, about, the, coughing, and, i, thought, i, would, mention, it, 12th, august, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, i, do, not, feel, quite, as, nervous, now, as, i, did, about, the, evening, at, dalston, village, hall, it, was, a, bit, intimidating, at, first, as, i, was, going, on, the, same, night, as, frontline, workers, and, health, professionals, i, felt, a, bit, out, of, my, depth, when, i, wondered, what, sort, of, stories, they, would, be, telling, compared, to, what, i, had, seen, these, people, would, have, had, to, deal, with, the, situation, first, hand, and, must, have, seen, some, terrible, things, after, a, couple, of, weeks, i, grew, used, to, the, idea, and, didn't, feel, as, bad, it, would, turn, out, to, be, a, good, experience, as, it, turns, out, the, evening, is, now, on, the, 21st, august, and, everyone, is, going, together, things, will, be, a, bit, more, relaxed, for, me, i, think, i, hope, i, will, be, able, to, make, it, the, one, major, event, that, has, made, me, think, over, the, past, couple, of, week, is, fiance, s, auntie, jean, who, has, moved, house, from, orton, grange, 2, miles, away, from, us, into, the, middle, of, town, it, made, me, think, that, i, definitely, wouldn't, like, to, move, back, into, the, middle, of, carlisle, after, living, here, even, though, it, hasn't, been, the, most, pleasant, at, times, here, with, f, m, last, year, and, the, building, of, the, burial, site, i, would, still, miss, everything, about, it, once, again, i, am, reminded, how, lucky, i, am, to, be, surrounded, by, fields, cows, sheep, and, a, horse, in, the, overlooking, field, it, is, also, usually, quiet, and, peaceful, i, can, imagine, quite, different, to, the, middle, of, carlisle, i, think, jean, will, miss, it, quite, a, lot, just, over, a, week, ago, fiance, and, i, were, busy, getting, our, garden, ready, for, the, village, in, bloom, it, was, good, to, see, everyone, making, an, effort, to, everything, looking, nice, everything, felt, a, bit, more, normal, this, year, whereas, last, year, i, think, the, village, in, bloom, was, the, last, thing, on, most, people's, minds, it, made, me, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, perhaps, everything, or, most, things, may, return, to, normal, eventually, week, 24, 12th, august, nothing, extremely, significant, concerning, f, m, has, happened, this, week, i, have, noticed, though, now, when, working, at, village, pub, wellington, even, though, i, only, do, 1, day, it, has, really, become, quite, busy, i, think, business, has, improved, after, they, tried, more, advertising, i, can, remember, back, to, during, the, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, it, was, very, quiet, most, people, stayed, away, and, the, atmosphere, in, the, pub, was, very, depressing, now, over, a, year, later, things, do, seem, to, be, picking, up, again, and, perhaps, returning, more, to, normal, it, is, god, to, see, monday, 19th, august, all, in, all, it, has, been, a, quiet, week, i, haven’t, really, been, out, very, much, and, not, feeling, well, really, i, was, a, bit, disappointed, not, being, able, to, attend, the, social, evening, o, wednesday, as, my, mom, was, unable, to, get, time, off, work, or, change, her, shift, 26th, august, first, of, all, we, were, noticing, problems, with, our, goldfish, when, we, first, got, them, about, two, and, a, half, years, ago, we, had, very, few, problems, with, them, over, the, past, few, months, they, have, been, getting, ill, we, have, tried, all, sorts, different, chemicals, and, still, they, have, all, died, except, one, omar, fiance, s, cousin, who, breeds, fish, came, and, had, a, look, and, was, baffled, the, only, explanation, is, that, the, chemicals, have, been, changed, or, increased, for, example, the, chlorine, which, there, appears, to, be, a, lot, more, of, we, obviously, aren’t, totally, sure, what, the, problem, is, but, thought, we, should, mention, it, anyway, this, week, i, also, noticed, the, banner, opposite, the, village, shop, in, the, village, i, have, enclosed, an, article, about, this, banner, which, appeared, in, the, cumberland, news, this, week, i, think, this, sums, up, the, mood, i, have, noticed, at, the, village, meetings, nothing, has, yet, been, done, to, help, the, villagers, etc, so, what, difference, have, the, promises, made, this, is, the, main, reason, why, i, feel, less, confident, about, the, future, this, week, regarding, foot, and, mouth, as, these, things, are, still, dragging, on, monday, 2nd, september, during, the, first, week, of, these, diaries, nothing, really, significant, happened, regarding, foot, and, mouth, i, did, comment, however, that, when, working, at, the, pub, on, sundays, how, busy, the, pub, was, and, how, business, had, seemed, to, improve, a, lot, from, what, i, had, seen, during, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, the, atmosphere, then, had, been, depressing, this, made, me, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, regarding, foot, and, mouth, as, another, aspect, of, the, foot, and, mouth, had, seemed, to, return, back, to, normal, this, mood, however, did, change, during, the, third, week, of, these, diaries, when, i, felt, less, confident, about, the, future, it, all, began, when, our, goldfish, started, dying, apart, from, oner, we, still, are, not, sure, exactly, what, caused, it, and, are, not, sure, whether, or, not, it, was, because, of, the, water, here, or, something, we, did, there, just, seems, to, be, that, little, bit, of, doubt, in, my, mind, as, you, don’t, feel, totally, sure, about, what, is, happening, in, this, area, still, and, therefore, i, don’t, think, really, trust, the, organisations, dealing, with, these, issues, the, other, thing, that, seemed, to, sum, up, some, of, my, feelings, was, the, banner, which, appeared, opposite, the, village, shop, last, week, i, think, this, shows, the, desperation, and, lengths, some, of, the, people, in, the, village, have, to, go, through, in, order, to, get, noticed, and, heard, it, seems, ridiculous, that, the, same, basic, issues, brought, up, in, the, earlier, meetings, have, still, not, been, dealt, with, it, does, make, you, lose, the, trust, you, had, in, the, organisations, involved, article, enclosed, this, past, week, has, been, a, little, better, however, not, that, good, i, did, receive, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazine, which, is, still, good, to, receive, as, it, updates, you, on, a, number, of, different, aspects, of, the, burial, site, i, also, heard, about, the, article, in, the, newspaper, regarding, this, inquiry, from, cathy, as, well, as, my, mom, who, has, saved, it, for, me, but, as, yet, i, have, not, read, it, i, will, comment, on, this, in, my, next, diary, 9, 15, september, monday, got, free, news, star, last, week, and, found, article, on, f, m, diaries, not, too, bothered, that, it, has, been, printed, myself, tuesday, saw, cathy, said, about, articles, not, too, bothered, myself, but, can, see, why, otherwise, involved, would, be, as, things, are, not, represented, in, the, right, way, and, are, misleading, good, point, though, is, that, it, may, catch, people’s, attention, and, get, the, point, across, that, people, are, still, suffering, got, article, from, cumberland, news, mum, saturday, found, article, in, cumberland, news, regarding, village, in, bloom, won, a, trophy, for, our, special, efforts, in, village, in, aftermath, of, f, m, crisis, mark, andrews, trophy, 16, 22, september, monday, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, burning, smell, when, we, came, back, home, in, the, evening, not, sure, what, it, is, from, reminds, us, of, f, m, crisis, wednesday, road, works, in, village, didn’t, affect, us, too, much, thursday, road, works, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad’s, annoying, at, times, has, taken, such, a, long, time, to, do, reminds, us, of, f, m, crisis, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, burning, smell, again, not, sure, where, from, friday, good, that, watchtree, newsletter, told, us, of, these, road, works, as, wouldn’t, have, known, saturday, these, aspects, aren’t, too, bad, on, their, own, but, the, atmosphere, reminds, you, of, the, f, m, crisis, last, year, 23, 29, september, monday, read, the, diarist, and, also, had, a, look, at, the, inquiry, report, i, was, sent, after, attending, the, village, meeting, tuesday, have, not, had, time, to, read, very, much, of, it, but, i, will, get, round, to, it, and, then, comment, on, it, friday, parish, magazine, and, watchtree, newsletter, still, good, to, be, updated, on, what, is, going, on, 1, roads, and, 2, visiting, the, site, 30, 6th, october, monday, rang, up, to, book, table, at, the, autumn, fayre, being, done, in, village, hall, people, pleased, that, people, in, village, getting, involved, tuesday, water, has, been, quite, bad, especially, on, tuesday, full, of, chlorine, had, to, leave, for, a, while, for, everything, to, evaporate, makes, you, quite, concerned, about, whether, or, not, it, is, safe, to, drink, 6th, october, writing, after, 4, weeks, during, week, i, read, the, articles, regarding, those, f, m, diaries, which, appeared, in, the, cumberland, news, and, the, news, and, star, they, are, enclosed, after, reading, these, and, speaking, to, c, i, myself, wasn’t, too, bothered, or, offended, by, what, was, written, but, could, easily, have, seen, why, other, people, would, have, been, specially, if, they, are, finding, things, really, difficult, i, think, there, is, a, good, side, to, these, articles, as, well, though, as, they, will, have, grabbed, people’s, attention, and, highlighted, the, fact, that, there, are, still, problems, regarding, f, m, this, long, after, the, crisis, even, though, the, articles, were, misleading, they, have, also, done, some, good, when, reading, the, cumberland, news, i, also, found, a, mention, of, great, orton, regarding, the, village, in, bloom, it, turns, out, we, were, awarded, the, mark, andrews, trophy, for, special, efforts, during, the, aftermath, of, f, m, it, would, have, been, nice, to, win, a, better, award, but, at, least, we, were, recognised, for, something, i, was, quite, please, week, 2, was, probably, the, worst, week, i, have, had, during, the, past, month, regarding, f, m, as, the, whole, week, just, seemed, to, remind, me, of, what, it, was, like, during, the, crisis, firstly, there, were, road, works, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad’s, only, 2, miles, away, i, understand, these, had, to, be, carried, out, but, it, made, it, difficult, and, inconvenient, to, get, to, fiance, s, grandad’s, as, you, didn’t, know, which, roads, were, gong, to, be, closed, when, now, that, the, work, has, been, done, everyone, that, i, have, spoken, to, about, it, think, they, will, cause, more, trouble, than, before, as, when, you, pull, out, of, the, lay, bys, it, is, dangerous, as, the, grass, and, verge, have, not, been, smoothed, out, i, think, they, are, alright, if, you, already, know, the, roads, but, i, wouldn’t, be, as, confident, if, i, hadn’t, driven, on, them, before, the, other, aspect, which, made, the, road, works, seem, worse, were, two, instances, when, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, a, burning, smell, monday, and, thursday, we, were, not, sure, where, this, came, from, but, it, still, reminded, us, of, the, crisis, on, week, 3, i, received, a, copy, of, the, f, m, inquiry, and, glad, i, went, to, a, meting, in, the, village, sometimes, it, feels, good, to, be, involved, even, though, in, such, a, small, way, i, also, received, the, diarist, newsletter, and, watchtree, newsletter, which, i, am, still, glad, i, receive, without, the, watchtree, newsletter, i, don’t, think, i, would, have, been, informed, of, the, road, works, being, carried, out, i, am, also, glad, the, site, is, progressing, and, that, people, are, now, being, given, the, opportunity, to, visit, the, site, if, they, wish, on, week, 4, there, was, only, one, major, problem, with, our, water, on, tuesday, the, water, was, that, full, of, chlorine, that, we, had, to, leave, it, for, all, the, chlorine, in, it, to, evaporate, or, boil, it, even, to, give, dog, a, drink, this, is, the, second, time, this, has, happened, and, it, does, concern, you, as, firstly, why, is, this, being, done, and, secondly, is, the, water, safe, to, drink, we, are, not, sure, who, to, contact, about, this, as, last, time, we, contacted, united, utilities, who, said, it, was, just, routine, and, nothing, to, worry, about, week, beginning, 7th, october, not, much, this, week, regarding, fmd, think, i, have, been, too, busy, thinking, about, other, things, week, beginning, 14th, october, monday, relaxing, a, bit, today, as, going, to, be, a, busy, day, tomorrow, and, away, on, wednesday, tuesday, fiance, s, exam, turned, out, to, be, quiet, here, today, which, was, good, for, fiance, s, exam, as, he, did, it, at, home, would, have, been, difficult, last, year, with, pressure, of, f, m, weds, away, on, holiday, it, was, a, bit, of, a, drive, to, what, we, are, used, to, but, we, made, it, lovely, views, on, way, down, and, hawkshead, a, lovely, place, thursday, this, holiday, very, well, suited, for, dog, as, plenty, of, places, to, walk, a, quiet, campsite, and, shops, and, pubs, which, are, suited, for, dogs, things, she, is, not, quite, used, to, friday, lovely, to, be, away, for, a, break, away, from, great, orton, on, the, one, hand, but, then, you, remember, how, nice, it, is, where, we, are, and, how, luck, we, are, on, the, other, hand, sunday, had, a, very, good, week, and, confident, about, the, future, week, beginning, 21st, october, monday, having, quiet, week, as, just, got, back, quite, tired, but, coping, ok, nice, to, be, back, in, a, way, weds, got, watchtree, newsletters, in, parish, magazine, also, article, out, of, news, and, star, i, think, about, renaming, of, site, and, farm, that, used, to, be, there, thursday, watchtree, newsletter, interested, in, the, open, day, think, it’s, a, good, idea, and, will, be, very, interesting, especially, geology, and, fossil, remains, found, on, site, i, think, would, be, beneficial, as, even, though, we, live, in, the, village, and, have, been, to, the, meetings, still, have, little, idea, of, how, the, site, looks, now, and, will, in, the, future, week, beginning, 28th, october, weds, went, to, meet, mom, in, town, the, roads, into, town, were, terrible, mud, on, road, everywhere, and, really, busy, with, trucks, etc, must, be, where, they, are, doing, new, building, hope, it, doesn’t, get, like, this, all, the, time, as, so, much, land, round, here, seems, to, have, been, sold, for, new, construction, sat, mom, has, got, her, own, stall, this, week, end, at, the, craft, fair, in, the, village, hall, 1st, time, she, has, done, this, saw, it, in, parish, newsletter, 2nd, november, writing, after, 4, weeks, this, past, month, has, been, one, of, the, busiest, i, have, had, for, a, long, time, firstly, there, was, fiance, s, final, exam, which, was, quite, stressful, for, him, at, times, revising, and, everything, it, reminded, me, of, how, difficult, it, had, been, when, we, were, doing, our, first, exams, a, year, and, a, half, before, during, f, m, crisis, studying, had, been, very, difficult, then, due, to, constant, interruptions, and, distractions, constant, sound, of, trucks, smells, noise, tension, i’m, so, glad, it, wasn’t, this, bad, this, year, as, these, things, can, be, stressful, enough, shortly, after, fiance, s, exam, fiance, my, mom, and, i, went, for, a, short, break, to, hawkshead, it, was, great, we, all, enjoyed, it, and, dog, especially, everything, was, suited, for, dog, we, took, her, shopping, there, are, benches, and, water, bowls, outside, every, shop, we, went, for, a, bar, meal, and, sat, outside, with, her, and, on, our, last, night, even, too, her, with, us, and, went, for, a, pint, apart, from, these, things, we, also, took, her, on, plenty, of, walks, being, there, made, you, realise, how, lovely, cumbria, is, and, how, people, who, don’t, live, here, are, attracted, to, it, it, is, a, pity, how, cumbria, suffered, during, f, m, crisis, as, it, is, such, a, lovely, place, i, do, hope, that, due, to, the, large, amount, of, attractions, in, cumbria, that, things, will, hopefully, be, back, to, normal, as, can, be, expected, i, was, quite, surprised, at, how, busy, things, were, for, that, time, of, year, it, seems, things, must, be, improving, which, makes, you, confident, i, enjoyed, my, break, but, you, realise, maybe, great, orton, isn’t, such, a, bad, place, to, come, back, to, during, the, past, month, i, have, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, i’m, quite, interested, in, the, open, day, later, on, this, month, i, think, it, will, be, very, interesting, i’m, really, interested, in, the, geology, history, of, the, site, and, also, fossils, found, there, during, this, work, i, don’t, know, much, about, how, the, site, looks, or, how, it, will, be, in, the, future, it, is, amazing, that, you, can, live, so, near, but, still, have, no, idea, of, what, it, is, like, all, i, can, seem, to, remember, are, the, pictures, that, were, shown, on, the, news, months, ago, it, seems, difficult, to, imagine, it, any, different, this, past, week, has, been, very, busy, as, my, mom, is, having, a, stall, for, the, first, time, at, the, craft, fair, in, the, village, hall, i, have, been, helping, her, a, little, bit, and, helped, her, on, the, stall, i, just, sat, with, her, really, she, decided, to, have, a, go, as, she, likes, crafts, and, is, always, making, things, it, was, nice, to, be, involved, in, the, village, and, the, money, from, the, hiring, of, the, stalls, went, to, the, church, which, is, good, it, was, very, quiet, on, saturday, though, and, apparently, that, was, the, worst, it’s, been, for, a, few, years, i, wonder, if, this, is, an, effect, of, the, f, m, however, the, weather, and, other, factors, may, have, contributed, week, beginning, monday, 11th, november, tuesday, fiance, doctors, wednesday, me, dentist, and, in, town, with, mam, missed, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, disappointed, but, got, an, article, from, the, cumberland, news, this, is, included, i, haven’t, spoke, with, anyone, that, went, no, one, has, mentioned, anything, to, me, disappointed, i, missed, it, and, also, because, this, is, probably, one, of, the, only, opportunities, we, will, get, to, know, anything, fiance, and, i, both, agree, it, is, still, like, a, big, secret, no, one, really, allowed, in, and, out, it, doesn’t, feel, like, local, people, are, benefiting, at, all, is, it, anything, to, do, with, us, really, friday, children, in, need, at, the, pub, yesterday, nice, to, see, people, taking, part, again, big, difference, to, during, foot, and, mouth, we, just, made, a, donation, it, was, a, bit, busy, for, us, 1045, raised, sunday, work, at, pub, still, very, busy, the, pub, at, least, it, seems, to, have, recovered, after, f, m, but, from, what, i, have, heard, they, did, suffer, badly, along, with, the, other, businesses, here, week, beginning, 18th, november, tuesday, should, have, been, playing, darts, at, port, carlisle, had, a, break, for, a, week, the, thing, that, is, worrying, about, playing, darts, away, is, the, travelling, some, of, the, country, roads, round, here, are, terrible, is, this, because, of, the, wagons, especially, near, wiggonby, the, road, at, fiance, s, granddad, just, gets, worse, it’s, just, mud, and, less, grass, terrible, is, it, because, of, damage, done, by, wagons, and, a, combination, of, all, the, flooding, in, the, area, now, saturday, fiance, and, i, talking, about, how, the, area, has, changed, we, remembered, back, to, 4, years, ago, when, we, used, to, go, to, the, airfield, burial, site, for, some, peace, even, though, only, rubble, then, really, enjoyed, it, there, we, could, take, the, dog, had, first, driving, lesson, off, fiance, not, again, had, some, fun, and, really, miss, it, at, times, nowhere, round, here, anymore, to, get, peace, can’t, even, enjoy, the, nature, reserve, very, frustrating, week, beginning, monday, 25th, november, monday, keep, realising, when, doing, diaries, that, haven’t, had, a, chance, to, look, at, cumbria, foot, and, mouth, disease, inquiry, report, will, have, to, make, time, for, it, soon, saturday, when, i, was, at, pub, talking, about, new, fence, on, park, for, children, general, mood, is, not, very, pleased, as, it, doesn’t, fit, into, a, country, village, setting, and, nothing, else, done, sunday, can’t, believe, it, is, the, beginning, of, december, everything, is, passing, too, quick, inevitable, 31st, november, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, the, past, 4, weeks, have, been, very, busy, compared, to, what, i, am, used, to, and, at, the, same, time, have, been, quite, frustrating, in, a, few, ways, the, issues, which, have, bothered, fiance, and, i, most, are, mainly, to, do, with, the, onset, of, winter, which, of, course, is, inevitable, but, this, year, they, seem, to, be, worse, than, we, can, previously, remember, since, living, here, in, winter, the, biggest, issue, is, the, state, of, the, roads, in, the, village, and, round, about, it, is, terrible, with, the, amount, of, rain, we, have, had, there, are, puddles, everywhere, and, everything, is, turning, to, mud, the, worst, thing, is, that, it, is, very, difficult, to, walk, or, take, dog, anywhere, which, is, frustrating, you, either, get, absolutely, filthy, or, when, walking, down, the, roads, you, have, to, get, soaked, on, the, sides, of, the, roads, to, avoid, cars, and, going, down, the, lonning, isn’t, really, an, option, as, it, is, really, muddy, and, there, has, been, dumping, we, understand, most, of, this, will, be, due, to, the, weather, but, we, are, sure, some, of, it, on, the, roads, is, due, to, all, the, traffic, there, has, been, especially, at, fiance, s, granddad's, outside, the, front, of, his, gate, and, garden, the, grass, has, gradually, been, stripped, away, and, has, now, turned, to, mud, in, all, the, ears, he, has, lived, there, 50, years, he, has, never, seen, it, as, bad, the, roads, aren’t, like, this, just, nearby, i, have, noticed, other, roads, round, about, are, also, in, a, bad, state, when, i, have, travelled, away, to, other, nearby, village, pubs, when, playing, darts, i, was, disappointed, when, i, missed, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, about, the, watchtree, reserve, as, i, had, to, go, up, town, etc, i, have, not, spoken, to, anyone, i, know, that, attended, the, exhibition, but, wish, there, were, more, opportunities, to, learn, more, about, it, i, did, find, a, newspaper, article, enclosed, about, the, watchtree, it, is, quite, annoying, that, this, won’t, be, open, to, the, public, it, is, understandable, why, this, isn't, possible, but, then, on, the, other, hand, it, is, not, benefiting, anyone, really, who, lives, nearby, fiance, and, i, still, remember, back, to, when, the, airfield, was, still, there, and, it, was, a, lovely, place, to, go, walking, and, to, relax, by, getting, away, from, everything, it, used, to, be, lovely, and, quiet, and, was, also, so, nearby, we, do, actually, quite, miss, it, sometimes, as, there, is, nowhere, else, like, that, round, here, now, even, though, there, have, been, quite, a, few, negative, issues, this, past, month, it, has, also, been, encouraging, when, i, have, been, working, at, the, pub, it, has, been, very, busy, when, i, have, been, there, showing, that, it, must, be, recovering, from, the, effect, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, it, was, also, encouraging, when, there, was, a, night, held, for, children, in, need, when, they, raised, approx, 1045, it, is, good, to, see, people, involved, and, happy, again, one, thing, which, i, did, notice, was, that, the, general, mood, about, the, improvements, made, to, the, park, was, not, very, good, people, were, not, impressed, that, the, new, fence, does, not, look, like, it, belongs, to, the, country, at, all, and, that, that, is, all, that, has, changed, i, have, not, had, time, but, will, go, and, have, a, look, for, myself, december, 2002, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, average, i, haven’t, felt, too, bad, over, christmas, a, little, tired, but, since, i, have, got, a, bit, of, a, cold, and, sore, throat, not, surprising, at, this, time, of, year, average, i, think, it, has, been, all, right, haven’t, been, able, to, walk, very, far, near, village, due, to, weather, and, roads, but, this, isn’t, surprising, at, this, time, of, year, these, past, 4, weeks, have, been, rather, hectic, with, christmas, and, everything, but, i, have, still, had, quite, a, bit, to, write, in, my, diaries, concerning, foot, and, mouth, i, received, the, parish, magazine, for, december, in, which, there, was, a, thank, you, to, all, involved, in, the, craft, fayre, and, there, was, 1, 008, raised, for, st, giles, church, it, was, good, to, be, able, to, contribute, to, something, in, the, village, well, it, was, my, mum, really, but, i, helped, it, is, good, to, see, these, sorts, of, things, happening, here, it’s, good, for, the, village, after, everything, i, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazine, it, is, still, good, to, receive, this, as, it, updates, you, on, everything, and, also, had, information, regarding, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, which, i, missed, i, am, glad, it, was, a, success, and, people, attended, especially, the, school, children, who, were, taken, i, also, received, the, diarist, which, is, good, to, read, it, is, interesting, to, see, what, other, panel, members, are, up, to, and, is, surprising, what, things, can, lead, to, for, example, the, diarist, and, the, samson, tractor, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, have, also, collected, a, couple, of, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, the, first, one, lie, returns, to, watchtree, actually, made, me, feel, better, that, we, were, going, to, get, something, positive, out, of, this, whole, experience, but, the, only, problem, is, that, at, some, moments, in, time, this, won’t, be, enough, for, some, people, involved, as, it, does, not, change, what, happened, and, won’t, make, up, for, what, has, been, lost, i, think, it, just, depends, on, how, you, are, feeling, at, the, time, when, reading, the, articles, the, other, article, village, in, running, for, top, country, award, was, also, quite, pleasing, as, at, least, we, as, a, village, are, being, remembered, and, recognised, for, what, we, went, through, it, is, surprising, that, now, so, long, after, the, actual, foot, and, mouth, crisis, that, we, are, finally, being, recognised, and, so, many, things, are, now, being, written, in, the, paper, over, the, christmas, period, i, have, only, really, had, one, thing, to, complain, about, and, that, is, the, state, of, the, roads, after, the, rain, the, roads, have, been, terrible, to, drive, on, with, the, flooding, and, the, road, sides, turning, into, mud, everything, is, filthy, i, know, this, is, expected, in, winter, out, in, the, country, but, since, i, have, been, here, it, has, never, been, so, bad, especially, at, fiance, s, grandad’s, one, improvement, is, the, signs, which, have, been, put, up, at, the, passing, places, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad, fiance, and, i, both, think, these, are, much, much, better, and, a, lot, safer, we, have, also, spotted, a, couple, of, signs, from, watchtree, which, have, been, up, now, for, a, while, but, are, still, surprising, to, see, now, it, is, time, to, start, everything, again, the, new, year, and, hopefully, this, will, be, a, better, year, for, great, orton, than, the, past, couple, has, been, i, am, glad, it, is, going, to, be, quiet, here, now, for, when, i, start, my, studying, as, opposed, to, the, foot, and, mouth, when, studying, was, very, very, difficult, monday, 27th, january, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, this, week, i, found, an, article, in, the, daily, mail, which, i, thought, was, relevant, it, is, called, boom, and, doom, and, is, about, house, prices, all, over, england, for, 2002, prices, in, north, yorkshire, rose, by, 66, but, in, allerdale, they, only, rose, by, 8, it, did, not, mention, why, this, was, but, some, of, it, must, be, the, result, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, and, the, effect, on, the, area, since, then, this, made, me, think, about, the, effect, on, great, orton, and, how, difficult, it, would, probably, be, to, sell, houses, here, and, if, people, would, really, want, to, move, here, there, are, two, sides, however, as, if, more, property, was, built, in, great, orton, and, the, surrounding, area, things, would, probably, change, and, great, orton, might, lose, some, of, its, farming, background, i, definitely, wouldn't, want, it, to, change, too, much, despite, the, burial, site, i, like, it, just, the, way, it, is, the, great, thing, about, this, week, is, the, weather, for, once, we, have, been, able, to, go, down, the, lonning, with, dog, without, getting, filthy, as, it, is, frosty, it, has, been, great, i, can’t, believe, how, quickly, 2003, is, passing, it, is, february, already, this, past, month, has, been, totally, hectic, with, appointments, arrangement, birthdays, and, the, open, university, it, makes, you, realise, that, whatever, happens, time, goes, on, i, think, this, must, have, been, very, difficult, for, people, directly, involved, in, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, as, life, would, have, had, to, carry, on, despite, whatever, was, going, on, in, their, own, lives, i, think, as, time, has, gone, on, i, have, got, more, used, to, the, idea, of, watchtree, and, accept, it, more, now, i, received, the, watchtree, news, during, the, previous, week, it, is, good, to, hear, that, the, restoration, and, creation, of, the, site, is, finally, complete, overall, i, don’t, think, it, has, taken, as, long, as, i, thought, it, would, for, the, nature, reserve, to, be, established, especially, when, you, compare, it, to, how, long, it, has, taken, for, the, children’s, playground, to, be, improved, nearly, two, years, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, however, it, is, better, late, than, never, i, am, pleased, at, how, the, nature, reserve, sounds, with, al, the, different, species, of, animal, which, had, been, included, or, seen, especially, the, merlin, the, smallest, bird, of, prey, which, was, sited, fiance, and, i, both, find, these, things, very, interesting, it, is, good, that, this, is, happening, so, close, to, us, last, year, we, travelled, to, see, the, osprey, viewpoint, it, was, great, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, have, also, found, a, few, more, articles, two, of, these, are, regarding, the, 20, day, standstill, with, not, been, directly, involved, in, the, farming, side, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, i, am, not, totally, sure, about, all, these, sorts, of, rules, etc, but, think, it, is, good, that, at, least, things, are, trying, to, be, improved, for, the, future, in, case, this, may, happen, again, and, also, as, a, result, of, learning, from, past, events, there, was, also, an, article, showing, watchtree, as, a, finalist, for, the, environmental, project, award, i, definitely, think, that, watchtree, deserves, to, be, considered, for, this, award, as, so, much, has, happened, here, and, at, least, some, good, is, going, to, come, out, of, it, it, would, be, nice, to, get, this, sort, of, award, in, recognition, of, the, hard, work, of, the, people, involved, i, think, this, year, will, hopefully, be, a, better, one, for, cumbria, and, people, may, have, confidence, even, though, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, was, a, tragedy, i, think, cumbria, and, the, people, in, it, are, able, to, recover, from, it, as, people, from, the, newspaper, articles, seem, more, optimistic, and, this, rubs, off, on, you, i, think, this, year, will, be, a, better, one, and, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, at, this, point, monday, 24th, february, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, so, far, these, past, four, weeks, i, have, not, receive, a, watchtree, newsletter, but, there, was, a, small, mention, in, the, parish, magazine, about, he, playground, work, is, underway, and, it, is, hoped, to, be, finished, by, the, summer, it, seems, to, be, taking, a, long, time, to, get, the, playground, sorted, but, at, least, it, will, be, good, for, the, kids, in, the, summer, holidays, it, is, better, late, than, never, there, is, only, one, thing, that, has, bothered, us, over, these, past, weeks, our, fish, whenever, we, change, the, water, the, fish, seem, to, be, ill, and, now, we, have, had, to, add, more, and, more, chemicals, to, reduce, the, amount, of, chlorine, that, seems, to, be, in, the, water, we, did, originally, start, off, with, 13, fish, and, now, only, have, 2, left, it, does, make, you, worry, about, the, state, of, our, water, and, why, more, chemicals, are, possibly, being, added, the, fact, that, the, burial, site, is, so, near, does, make, you, worry, if, that, is, anything, to, do, with, it, over, the, past, four, weeks, i, have, been, very, confident, about, the, future, regarding, foot, and, mouth, with, the, sun, shining, again, and, the, animals, about, it, seems, as, if, nothing, bad, has, happened, here, but, you, know, that, for, some, people, involved, in, the, crisis, the, future, will, never, be, that, easy, or, simple, and, i, do, feel, sympathy, for, them, for, me, it, seems, possible, to, be, able, to, move, on, now, after, the, crisis, and, it, has, been, good, to, see, the, sheep, and, cows, about, and, fiance, has, even, seen, a, couple, of, birds, of, prey, we, are, not, sure, what, they, were, but, think, one, might, have, been, a, merlin, which, was, mentioned, in, a, previous, watchtree, newsletter, as, being, seen, on, site, the, article, called, record, tourism, figures, for, county, was, encouraging, and, shows, that, cumbria, may, be, starting, to, recover, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, i, also, found, another, article, called, fears, over, bovine, tb, time, bomb, i, think, this, is, worrying, and, should, definitely, be, taken, seriously, as, it, would, be, devastating, to, farmers, and, everyone, in, the, county, in, the, past, fortnight, it, has, also, been, my, mam’s, birthday, she, was, really, looking, forward, to, spending, some, time, out, here, and, we, went, to, bowness, for, the, afternoon, with, dog, once, again, you, realise, how, lovely, it, is, out, here, and, how, much, it, should, be, appreciated, overall, in, my, opinion, the, situation, in, cumbria, over, the, past, year, has, definitely, improved, and, will, hopefully, continue, to, do, so, 24th, march, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, these, past, four, weeks, have, been, rather, strange, and, worrying, first, of, all, there, was, the, death, of, simon, harris, a, man, from, the, village, who, you, would, regularly, see, walking, dogs, and, looking, at, the, horses, despite, what, most, of, the, papers, have, said, about, him, to, me, he, was, always, polite, and, possibly, just, a, bit, shy, i, have, enclosed, an, article, about, him, that, was, in, the, paper, shortly, after, his, death, the, headline, is, not, very, nice, but, the, article, does, include, some, of, the, best, comments, about, simon, i, was, quite, shocked, by, the, whole, thing, and, think, it, could, definitely, have, been, handled, better, by, the, papers, the, people, in, the, village, could, also, have, been, a, bit, more, respectful, i, do, not, think, it, was, their, place, to, comment, in, the, way, that, they, did, secondly, the, whole, issue, of, war, with, iraq, is, a, worrying, subject, neither, fiance, or, i, agree, with, what, is, being, done, and, how, it, is, being, carried, out, it, is, a, particularly, worrying, time, for, fiance, s, aunty, as, her, husband, lives, in, kuwait, with, the, rest, of, his, family, she, came, to, england, where, she, is, originally, from, with, her, two, children, during, the, last, gulf, war, she, knows, all, too, well, what, the, danger, are, and, what, is, involved, it, is, a, very, worrying, subject, where, you, feel, totally, helpless, and, at, the, same, time, cannot, get, away, from, it, however, life, still, carries, on, as, harsh, as, it, may, be, i, thought, of, this, when, looking, at, the, past, diaries, i, have, written, and, how, many, have, accumulated, it, is, strange, how, quickly, time, goes, by, and, how, people, are, just, expected, to, cope, and, carry, on, i, thought, in, particular, of, the, people, worst, affected, by, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, how, helpless, they, must, have, felt, and, how, they, coped, life, can, be, a, funny, thing, looking, back, i, think, this, project, has, been, very, worth, while, and, think, it, is, great, that, they, will, be, archived, for, the, future, writing, these, diaries, seems, to, have, become, part, of, my, routine, now, and, i, think, it, will, definitely, be, strange, when, i, no, longer, have, to, write, them, i, have, found, quite, a, few, newspaper, articles, over, the, past, four, weeks, donella, rebuilds, the, cumberland, show, was, encouraging, about, the, future, of, cumbria, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, however, there, are, still, worrying, issues, arising, such, as, in, the, articles, of, mp, calls, for, vaccination, to, keep, f, m, under, control, and, from, uruguay, with, a, threat, which, highlight, issues, of, important, to, the, farming, industry, i, have, also, been, very, busy, over, the, past, few, weeks, as, my, second, assignment, was, due, for, my, university, work, which, was, quite, hectic, i, have, had, a, break, for, the, past, couple, of, days, as, i, have, not, been, very, well, a, bad, cough, sore, throat, and, stomach, and, a, stuffy, nose, i, haven’t, done, too, badly, over, the, winter, months, with, illnesses, so, i, can’t, really, complain, lastly, our, water, hasn’t, been, of, the, best, quality, lately, on, occasions, it, is, white, and, fizzes, not, the, most, appetizing, 21st, april, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, these, past, 4, weeks, have, just, seem, to, fly, by, quite, a, few, good, things, have, happened, and, even, though, i, am, feeling, quite, tired, i, have, had, a, good, month, firstly, fiance, dog, and, i, have, finally, go, t, a, small, space, of, our, own, we, have, got, an, allotment, about, 8, miles, away, and, it, is, surrounded, by, horses, and, fields, it, belongs, to, a, man, who, lives, there, and, owns, all, the, land, roundabout, but, unfortunately, he, is, no, longer, well, enough, to, work, the, land, so, has, let, us, have, it, it, will, need, a, lot, of, work, but, will, be, good, for, us, so, far, we, have, got, potatoes, raspberries, and, rhubarb, growing, dog, even, helps, to, dig, even, though, we, live, in, the, country, on, our, own, block, it, is, not, always, that, easy, to, get, any, peace, we, have, also, had, the, opportunity, to, join, the, cumbria, wildlife, trust, a, leaflet, came, through, our, door, and, we, thought, it, would, be, brilliant, as, we, would, be, kept, up, to, date, with, all, the, latest, goings, on, in, cumbria, learn, a, lot, more, about, the, wildlife, and, also, possibly, get, the, chance, to, do, some, voluntary, work, fiance, and, i, are, really, interested, and, think, it, is, great, we, get, sent, though, a, certain, number, of, magazines, every, year, and, every, month, we, send, a, small, donation, so, we, feel, like, we, are, helping, a, little, bit, as, well, the, article, which, i, found, in, one, of, the, magazines, id, enclosed, on, the, next, page, the, other, thing, which, has, made, my, month, is, knowing, that, we, are, going, to, hawkshead, again, my, mam, fiance, dog, and, i, are, going, for, a, short, break, just, 3, nights, for, my, birthday, we, have, got, it, all, booked, and, are, really, looking, forward, to, it, it, was, great, last, time, especially, for, dog, i, just, hope, she, doesn’t, get, stuck, under, the, bed, in, the, caravan, this, time, as, she, is, a, bit, bigger, now, than, she, was, then, this, past, week, i, have, also, been, in, touch, with, my, dad, in, south, africa, as, it, was, his, birthday, it, turns, out, that, he, may, be, passing, through, carlisle, for, a, couple, of, days, at, the, end, of, next, week, it, would, be, lovely, to, see, him, again, and, i, think, he, will, love, great, orton, and, our, allotment, i, think, he, has, always, liked, the, thought, of, living, in, the, country, and, would, love, to, retire, to, somewhere, nice, and, quiet, things, will, also, have, improved, and, we, have, grown, up, a, bit, since, he, was, last, here, about, 3, years, ago, it, should, be, good, it, is, funny, that, after, living, in, south, africa, for, so, long, he, is, still, drawn, to, the, lifestyle, in, cumbria, lastly, i, have, made, a, note, of, the, final, meeting, for, the, foot, and, mouth, diaries, and, hope, to, be, there, i, bet, it, passes, really, quickly, now, and, will, be, over, before, i, know, it, how, strange, 28th, april, 4th, may, monday, got, 3, articles, from, cumberland, news, april, 25th, 2003, breeders, hit, out, discrimination, fmd, burial, site, celebrates, new, life, and, my, favourite, its, a, dog’s, life, for, rosie, the, lamb, tuesday, saw, c, friday, noticed, the, park, is, coming, on, a, bit, better, for, the, children, it, was, mentioned, in, the, orton, parish, awarded, 25, 000, to, reference, drain, level, and, re, seed, new, play, equipment, will, follow, saturday, some, of, the, children, were, allowed, to, attend, meetings, to, discuss, it, good, to, involve, children, about, time, too, at, least, children, will, be, able, to, play, football, 5th, 11th, may, tuesday, working, really, hard, have, to, get, assignment, posted, off, tomorrow, night, before, we, go, away, on, thursday, hectic, wednesday, service, held, at, watchtree, unable, to, go, but, think, it, was, a, very, good, idea, newspaper, article, enclosed, was, written, before, the, service, thursday, away, to, hawskhead, exciting, friday, my, birthday, had, a, lovely, day, went, shopping, in, the, morning, to, forest, in, the, afternoon, and, for, a, meal, at, night, lovely, sunday, back, from, holiday, already, it, was, lovely, everyone, was, so, friendly, or, perhaps, we, just, noticed, it, more, there, 12th, 18th, may, tuesday, fiance, at, doctors, not, very, well, he, has, got, a, viral, infection, as, well, as, fluid, behind, his, ears, told, to, just, take, it, easy, wednesday, i, have, been, sent, info, to, chose, courses, for, open, university, that, i, would, like, to, do, next, year, and, in, the, future, am, going, to, take, the, environmental, studies, route, hopefully, leading, to, diploma, in, environment, and, development, and, possibly, further, to, ba, bsc, in, environmental, studies, i, did, like, archaeology, but, think, what, i, am, doing, is, a, lot, more, relevant, to, the, future, foot, and, mouth, and, watchtree, made, me, realise, that, friday, got, watchtree, newsletter, this, week, i, will, enclose, it, this, time, as, it, covers, quite, a, few, areas, and, has, a, bit, of, information, there, is, information, about, the, service, held, awards, that, have, been, won, and, also, new, wildlife, which, are, now, present, on, the, site, lapwings, oystercatchers, and, ringed, plovers, 19th, 25th, may, 2003, tuesday, dad, has, come, to, visit, for, a, couple, of, days, from, south, africa, nice, surprise, enjoyed, seeing, him, dad, asking, about, fmd, crisis, he, saw, it, on, tv, over, there, and, how, close, it, was, i, think, he, was, quite, shocked, thursday, i, was, surprised, that, even, though, south, africa, is, so, different, he, would, still, like, to, live, somewhere, in, this, country, makes, you, think, again, how, lucky, you, are, and, what, you, take, for, granted, saturday, article, from, cumberland, news, may, 23, reward, for, post, foot, and, mouth, achievements, 25th, may, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, every, time, i, come, to, write, these, diaries, i, look, back, over, the, past, four, weeks, and, notice, they, are, becoming, more, and, more, busy, the, past, couple, of, weeks, have, been, no, exception, it, is, already, nearly, half, way, through, the, year, i, can’t, believe, it, over, the, past, 4, weeks, i, have, been, on, holiday, turned, 22, and, my, dad, had, popped, over, from, south, africa, for, a, few, days, hectic, but, good, firstly, hawkshead, was, lovely, again, i, wouldn’t, say, anything, different, it, was, great, we, all, had, a, lovely, time, and, i, had, a, really, good, birthday, when, you, are, at, home, in, great, orton, you, forget, how, much, is, really, out, there, in, cumbria, to, do, and, see, we, definitely, think, we, should, take, advantage, of, it, more, often, shortly, after, we, arrived, back, from, hawkshead, my, dad, popped, up, to, carlisle, for, a, couple, of, days, it, was, a, lovely, surprise, and, it, was, good, to, see, him, he, absolutely, loves, it, where, we, are, and, thinks, we, are, very, lucky, even, though, south, africa, is, so, different, he, still, thinks, it, is, lovely, out, here, looking, out, onto, fields, this, did, make, me, realise, how, lucky, we, are, despite, what, happened, due, to, foot, and, mouth, inevitably, sometimes, we, do, take, it, for, granted, my, dad, remembered, watching, about, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, in, south, africa, but, did, not, realise, exactly, how, close, it, was, i, think, he, was, quite, shocked, foot, and, mouth, has, definitely, made, me, more, aware, of, my, surroundings, and, how, everything, works, i, have, definitely, noticed, this, when, i, have, been, doing, my, studying, for, open, university, i, am, now, at, the, point, where, i, can, chose, my, courses, next, year, and, therefore, which, path, i, am, going, to, take, i, have, decided, to, take, courses, leading, to, a, diploma, in, environment, and, development, and, if, everything, goes, to, plan, for, an, environmental, studies, degree, i, am, really, enjoying, what, i, am, doing, at, the, minute, and, think, it, is, definitely, useful, and, relevant, for, the, future, i, did, enjoy, studying, archaeology, but, think, the, environment, and, related, issues, are, more, important, at, the, present, and, in, the, future, on, the, 7th, may, there, was, a, memorial, service, at, watchtree, to, mark, a, two, year, anniversary, from, when, the, last, animal, was, buried, at, the, site, i, think, this, was, a, good, idea, and, it, is, appropriate, to, remember, the, animals, that, were, killed, i, was, unable, to, attend, the, service, but, have, managed, to, get, a, newspaper, article, about, it, and, it, was, also, mentioned, in, the, watchtree, newsletter, i, have, included, this, newsletter, in, with, these, diaries, at, it, contains, quite, a, bit, of, information, on, a, few, different, aspects, i, think, it, is, good, about, the, wildlife, which, is, emerging, on, the, site, the, park, or, play, area, for, children, is, also, coming, on, fairly, well, at, last, it, has, finally, been, reseeded, as, well, as, levelled, it, looks, better, i, have, also, included, 4, newspaper, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, with, my, favourite, being, rosie, the, lamb, i, have, put, this, article, in, as, i, thought, it, was, lovely, 22nd, june, 2004, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, how, strange, it, seems, that, all, this, is, coming, to, an, end, and, really, how, quickly, time, has, passed, in, my, situation, i, would, say, that, time, has, healed, a, few, aspects, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, and, things, don’t, seem, so, bad, 18, months, on, i, enjoyed, the, foot, and, mouth, evening, and, learnt, a, lot, from, it, about, other, people’s, views, and, experiences, i, enjoyed, it, a, lot, more, than, i, thought, i, would, and, thought, that, the, main, themes, found, during, the, research, were, ones, which, i, would, have, agreed, with, one, thing, which, was, said, which, has, made, me, think, was, the, comment, that, these, diaries, would, be, our, type, of, memorial, i, had, never, once, thought, of, this, research, in, that, sort, of, way, but, the, more, i, think, about, it, the, more, i, agree, and, like, the, idea, it, definitely, has, been, worthwhile, being, able, to, contribute, to, something, especially, if, it, may, be, able, to, help, in, some, way, in, the, future, when, compared, to, the, article, that, i, found, in, the, cumberland, news, about, a, man’s, memorial, to, the, animals, that, he, lost, during, foot, and, mouth, i, definitely, think, ours, is, more, fitting, and, will, probably, do, some, good, i, understand, everyone, has, the, right, to, express, their, views, in, their, own, way, but, to, me, this, was, too, loud, and, too, inappropriate, however, each, to, their, own, and, at, the, end, of, the, day, at, least, people, are, trying, to, remember, in, a, good, way, as, opposed, to, sweeping, it, under, the, carpet, the, week, of, the, foot, and, mouth, evening, we, were, without, a, car, and, noticed, how, much, we, relied, on, it, and, took, it, for, granted, especially, out, here, as, there, is, a, very, limited, bus, service, everything, is, sorted, out, now, and, we, are, back, to, normal, with, a, newer, little, car, thank, you, very, much, c, for, the, lift, there, and, back, in, general, the, past, few, months, just, seem, to, have, flown, by, and, in, particular, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, don’t, seem, to, have, time, to, fit, everything, in, and, am, trying, to, get, my, assignments, done, on, time, it, turns, out, to, be, quite, a, bit, more, difficult, than, i, thought, it, is, hard, work, but, will, definitely, be, worth, it, in, th, end, over, the, past, 6, months, even, i, have, learnt, so, much, the, next, special, occasion, which, is, coming, up, is, fiance, s, birthday, 21st, july, we, are, thinking, of, going, back, to, hawkshead, again, for, a, few, days, we, really, like, it, there, and, i’m, sure, will, return, again, and, again, it, just, shows, you, that, you, don’t, need, to, leave, cumbria, to, have, a, good, holiday, well, here, we, are, at, the, end, it, just, makes, me, wonder, what, life, will, be, like, in, 18, months, from, now, will, things, be, any, different, they, probably, will, be, in, some, ways, and, hopefully, will, be, for, the, best, 20th, july, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, it, does, seem, very, strange, to, be, sitting, down, to, write, my, last, lot, of, diaries, it, feels, good, to, have, completed, something, as, worthwhile, as, this, as, well, as, it, hopefully, doing, some, good, in, the, future, concerning, foot, and, mouth, crisis, or, any, other, similar, situation, i, also, find, it, has, helped, me, to, become, a, bit, more, confident, and, aware, of, things, around, me, i, remember, back, to, when, i, attended, my, first, meeting, and, how, nervous, i, was, i, think, i, can, handle, things, like, that, a, bit, better, now, we, have, just, got, back, from, holiday, we, had, a, lovely, time, and, did, so, much, we, went, walking, with, dog, to, many, places, and, they, are, all, free, it, just, shows, you, what, a, good, holiday, you, can, have, in, cumbria, on, a, cheap, budget, you, don’t, need, much, else, the, only, disappointing, thing, is, that, some, of, the, places, fiance, and, i, had, been, to, in, the, past, are, now, closed, as, they, have, been, sold, this, has, not, yet, happened, to, talkin, tarn, and, i, definitely, think, it, should, be, given, to, the, cumbria, wildlife, trust, as, people, would, still, have, access, to, it, fiance, and, i, both, agree, that, the, countryside, is, recovering, and, it, is, great, to, be, able, to, wander, about, again, i, have, collected, a, few, more, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, related, to, foot, and, mouth, it, is, good, to, see, breeders, doing, well, again, and, people, getting, back, into, the, swing, of, things, i, would, just, like, to, thank, everyone, involved, for, involving, me, in, this, project, and, i, wish, them, all, the, best, in, the, future]
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being, in, change, of, an, offensive, weapon, a, knife, the, judge, had, acquitted, her, of, the, offences, he, showed, leniency, towards, her, last, year, during, the, fmd, crisis, she, had, returned, to, her, home, to, find, that, her, pet, goat, had, been, killed, by, slaughterers, because, the, animal, was, within, the, 3, km, radius, she, had, gone, berserk, over, this, and, threatened, the, police, officer, and, others, with, the, knife, she, had, to, be, forcibly, restrained, she, was, very, distraught, over, this, killing, even, after, she, had, appeared, in, court, and, had, been, acquitted, of, all, charges, she, showed, great, emotion, not, only, being, freed, but, also, quite, upset, over, the, loss, of, the, goat, perhaps, her, actions, didn’t, happen, to, a, lot, of, other, people, who, had, similar, things, happen, to, them, however, the, loss, of, a, lot, of, pet, animals, and, in, some, cases, needless, slaughter, of, many, farm, animals, still, creates, unhappy, memories, of, 2001, week, 2, tuesday, whilst, walking, the, dog, i, met, a, farmer, from, the, edge, of, the, village, who, has, friends, and, stock, in, close, proximity, to, the, 2, land, fill, sites, he, is, still, very, concerned, about, materials, on, these, sites, the, nearest, site, contained, hundreds, of, carcasses, this, has, been, completed, and, capped, he, is, concerned, about, leachate, from, this, site, and, feels, that, it, doesn’t, matter, how, much, clay, and, soil, were, used, to, contain, this, site, the, effects, of, heavy, rain, is, bound, to, find, a, way, down, and, also, to, drain, it, he, doesn’t, want, to, plough, these, fields, nor, can, he, sell, stock, that, have, grazed, the, same, fields, there, is, pyre, ash, being, tipped, on, the, other, site, again, what, happens, to, the, rainwater, that, runs, off, this, site, also, there, are, concerns, about, the, large, flocks, of, seagulls, that, visit, both, sites, daily, another, concern, is, what, is, happening, to, the, open, cast, coal, site, that, is, situated, almost, due, south, of, gilgarran, village, the, farmer, i, talked, to, today, is, concerned, about, this, huge, site, no, coal, has, been, moved, from, this, site, for, months, there, are, concerns, that, this, site, is, going, to, be, filled, with, waste, will, it, be, from, fmd, sites, we, as, a, village, are, very, concerned, about, rumours, of, land, fill, on, a, huge, scale, friday, noticed, that, there, was, work, being, carried, out, on, the, top, of, the, burial, site, no, villagers, have, commented, on, this, despite, large, yellow, diggers, operating, sunday, work, continuing, on, the, burial, site, cannot, make, out, what, kind, of, work, is, being, done, there, week, 3, monday, work, is, still, going, on, at, the, burial, site, i, still, don’t, know, what, is, going, on, but, the, diggers, involved, are, the, same, as, when, animals, were, being, buried, there, when, animals, were, being, buried, there, last, year, the, smell, coming, from, that, site, was, terrible, to, say, the, least, it, was, not, coming, from, the, dead, animals, as, most, observers, thought, but, from, decomposing, waste, material, that, had, already, been, buried, on, the, site, prior, to, fmd, when, excavators, dug, into, the, soil, to, make, trenches, for, the, dead, animals, they, dug, into, this, decomposing, matter, hence, the, terrible, smell, despite, the, work, that, is, going, on, there, today, no, comments, from, villagers, are, forthcoming, it, seems, to, me, that, now, that, fmd, has, gone, the, general, public, are, not, interested, any, more, unless, they, read, something, in, the, local, papers, written, by, some, enterprising, reporter, week, 4, tuesday, work, is, still, going, on, in, the, former, burial, site, villagers, don’t, seem, to, be, bothered, fmd, is, gone, so, nobody, is, interested, any, more, wednesday, whilst, trying, to, gain, comments, from, villagers, over, the, effects, of, fmd, one, or, two, comments, from, some, individuals, show, concern, about, the, outbreak, last, year, but, don’t, seem, too, concerned, over, any, after, effects, if, any, two, interesting, comments, suggest, that, 1, the, outbreak, was, started, deliberately, by, this, country, in, collusion, with, the, agriculturists, of, the, e.e.c, so, as, to, concentrate, meat, production, in, europe, and, leave, the, uk, to, concentrate, on, arable, farming, 2, the, outbreak, was, started, by, a, terrorist, attack, the, government, would, not, declare, this, because, it, would, cause, widespread, panic, thursday, 23, 25, hours, huge, fire, at, the, site, where, pyre, ash, is, being, tipped, 250,000, used, tyres, caught, fire, arson, is, suspected, fire, fighters, tried, to, contain, the, blaze, but, couldn’t, use, large, amounts, of, water, in, case, water, courses, became, contaminated, friday, 05, 00, fire, still, blazing, at, the, pyre, ash, site, later, in, the, morning, the, fire, was, showing, signs, of, dying, down, apparently, it, was, left, to, burn, itself, out, much, heavy, smoke, pollution, was, evident, drifting, south, west, for, about, nine, miles, reading, the, local, evening, paper, about, the, blaze, there, was, also, a, report, that, villagers, from, disington, 1, miles, from, gilgarran, were, complaining, of, the, foul, smell, from, both, waste, sites, parish, councillors, are, very, concerned, about, this, does, it, coincide, with, work, currently, being, carried, out, on, the, burial, site, the, smell, from, these, sites, plus, the, fact, that, animals, were, buried, on, one, site, and, pyre, ash, plus, the, huge, fire, from, the, other, site, all, happening, this, week, is, causing, concern, in, this, area, but, once, this, hue, and, cry, dies, down, people, will, soon, forget, about, it, all, week, 5, monday, through, to, friday, observed, work, on, top, of, the, burial, site, don’t, know, if, any, work, is, still, going, on, on, the, northern, and, western, sides, friday, local, weekly, paper, carried, the, report, on, the, recent, large, fire, that, occurred, on, the, alco, site, last, week, when, 250,000, tyres, caught, fire, somehow, it, was, intersting, to, read, that, the, fire, brigade, did, not, use, any, water, to, extinguish, the, blaze, in, case, pollution, occurred, in, water, courses, the, fire, was, left, to, burn, itself, out, saturday, burial, site, it, looks, like, there, is, new, soil, being, tipped, on, top, for, some, reason, no, reported, comments, froim, the, parish, council, over, this, despite, very, vociferous, objections, by, them, over, the, use, of, this, and, the, alco, site, in, the, past, sunday, talked, to, our, local, county, councillor, who, lives, in, this, village, he, feels, very, strongly, that, these, two, sites, are, dangerous, he, thinks, that, both, sites, are, a, health, hazard, risk, due, to, obnoxious, odours, and, in, particular, the, large, fire, that, occurred, last, week, which, produced, a, lot, of, polluted, smoke, for, a, distance, of, six, miles, some, people, reckoned, that, the, smell, of, burning, tyres, could, be, smelt, here, in, gilgarran, there, have, been, numerous, fires, on, these, sites, over, the, last, few, years, these, fires, give, rise, to, compaliant, by, people, like, us, but, more, so, from, the, nearer, village, of, distington, 1, miles, west, of, here, the, councillor, suggests, that, there, could, be, more, incidents, of, cancer, cases, in, this, area, in, coming, years, along, with, respiratory, troubles, as, well, as, some, cases, of, bronchitis, related, problems, he, himself, has, recently, suddenly, started, sinusitis, which, he, hasn’t, had, before, all, in, all, he, wasn’t, happy, about, the, situation, on, both, sites, we, don’t, know, what, is, being, tipped, there, all, we, can, do, as, a, community, is, accept, what, we, are, being, told, by, the, site, owners, as, previously, stated, animal, carcasses, were, being, tipped, and, buried, for, about, three, days, before, we, were, told, officially, that, this, was, so, incidentally, the, site, where, animals, are, buried, is, owned, by, cumbria, county, council, this, seems, to, be, totally, against, the, advice, of, county, council, officials, who, look, after, the, environment, and, the, health, of, the, population, as, i’ve, written, before, there, are, going, to, be, bigger, concerns, if, the, opencast, coal, site, to, the, south, of, the, village, becomes, a, landfill, site, for, refuse, from, parts, of, the, county, fifty, miles, away, at, the, moment, there, are, no, suggestions, that, anything, from, the, fmd, outbreak, will, be, dumped, there, having, said, that, however, we, as, villagers, didn’t, know, of, carcasses, being, buried, or, pyre, ash, being, tipped, until, after, it, had, happened, we, await, the, outcome, of, this, coal, site, with, some, trepidation, after, all, no, coal, has, come, from, this, site, for, some, months, it, has, all, the, indication, of, becoming, a, land, fill, site, week, 6, monday, to, wednesday, if, work, is, still, ongoing, at, the, burial, site, it, is, not, visible, from, our, side, of, the, site, i, still, don’t, know, what, is, going, on, there, it, may, all, be, innocent, and, an, improvement, to, the, environment, after, all, this, is, what, the, site, owners, have, to, do, thursday, a, delegation, of, meps, visit, the, north, of, the, county, they, have, come, to, assess, the, situation, for, themselves, and, to, report, back, to, the, european, parliament, no, doubt, they, will, also, report, back, to, their, own, constituents, in, their, own, countries, the, delegation, visit, the, auction, mart, at, longtown, where, the, disease, was, first, noticed, in, this, country, and, also, visited, the, big, burial, site, at, great, orton, where, it, was, estimated, that, half, a, million, carcasses, were, buried, good, coverage, by, the, local, press, radio, and, t.v, gave, anyone, interested, the, views, of, the, delegation, thursday, saturday, the, mep, delegation, agreed, that, the, fmd, situation, had, been, disastrous, we, all, know, that, comments, from, some, tourist, and, agriculture, observers, ranged, from, a, waste, of, time, to, at, least, some, politicians, have, bothered, to, visit, us, our, own, couldn’t, do, that, personally, i, think, that, some, good, came, out, of, this, particularly, when, it, was, reported, that, the, dutch, had, used, vaccination, techniques, when, they, had, a, small, outbreak, many, people, think, that, the, british, government, should, have, had, a, public, inquiry, into, the, outbreak, what, have, they, to, hide, cumbria, is, holding, its, own, inquiry, quite, rightly, so, other, organisations, such, as, lancaster, university, are, holding, research, into, the, outbreak, why, not, the, government, eventually, we, will, know, why, perhaps, not, in, my, lifetime, though, the, minister, and, maff, have, a, lot, to, answer, for, week, 7, thought, it, would, be, of, interest, to, include, copies, of, the, newsletter, that, the, local, authorities, issued, to, every, household, in, the, area, regarding, the, disposal, of, carcasses, and, effluent, it, will, be, of, note, that, there, was, a, fire, last, year, on, the, alco, site, also, involving, tyres, very, similar, to, last, years, only, not, as, big, a, report, on, local, t.v, today, stated, that, the, recent, visit, of, meps, to, the, area, considered, that, vaccination, should, have, been, used, at, the, outset, and, be, should, seriously, considered, should, a, future, outbreak, occur, heard, of, reports, of, an, outbreak, of, t.b, in, cattle, in, other, parts, of, the, country, this, was, reported, to, be, more, serious, than, fmd, should, a, major, outbreak, occur, this, would, lead, to, the, question, of, disposal, should, the, need, arise, as, i’ve, already, reported, in, previous, entries, the, use, of, the, opencast, coal, site, to, the, south, east, of, here, is, causing, concern, in, some, quarters, although, the, site, didn’t, feature, in, the, fmd, crisis, there, is, a, feeling, that, it, is, being, earmarked, for, use, in, the, future, should, the, need, arise, or, even, the, rumour, of, an, incinerator, is, planned, for, there, the, general, feeling, here, and, in, the, surrounding, area, is, that, we, have, had, enough, dumping, of, carcasses, effluent, toxic, chemicals, etc, it, could, be, that, the, authorities, have, seen, that, the, sites, concerned, have, handled, those, substances, before, that, an, extension, of, disposal, sites, in, this, area, would, be, effective, week, 8, nothing, of, any, significance, to, report, this, week, week, 9, now, that, cumbria’s, fmd, inquiry, has, started, a, lot, of, people, i, have, met, this, week, recall, the, happenings, of, a, year, ago, even, more, interesting, is, the, coverage, in, the, local, press, and, t.v, plenty, of, publicity, by, the, media, shows, how, little, the, government, an, maff, in, particular, let, the, farming, and, tourism, industries, of, the, county, down, there, has, been, plenty, of, distressing, stories, by, farmers, not, only, of, infected, animals, being, slaughtered, but, also, the, slaughtering, of, healthy, animals, in, the, 3, km, circle, of, an, outbreak, one, particularly, distressing, point, of, evidence, was, when, a, farmer, described, to, the, panel, the, birth, of, a, calf, five, days, after, it’s, mother, had, been, shot, we, at, the, time, of, the, outbreak, were, hearing, these, stories, on, a, daily, basis, and, still, maff, and, mr, brown, kept, telling, us, that, the, outbreak, was, under, control, all, i, can, say, at, this, point, is, may, heaven, help, us, when, it, all, happens, again, week, 10, work, is, still, going, on, at, the, burial, site, it, looks, like, new, soil, is, being, dumped, on, top, of, the, actual, site, and, dozed, to, level, it, of, and, to, smooth, it, out, on, the, side, all, we, can, do, is, accept, that, the, management, of, the, site, are, making, it, better, for, all, concerned, and, that, they, are, as, concerned, as, we, are, the, much, publicised, cumbrian, fmd, inquiry, team, visited, the, land, fill, site, they, met, local, councillors, who, expressed, their, concern, over, this, site, and, the, alco, site, no, other, report, was, forthcoming, from, the, team, the, inquiry, team, finish, their, evidence, gathering, this, week, one, very, important, statement, was, made, that, the, minister, of, the, environment, should, make, a, statement, over, this, outbreak, and, should, even, make, a, visit, to, these, sites, county, wide, there, has, been, total, silence, from, mrs, beckett’s, department, over, this, request, the, same, silence, is, observed, from, any, government, source, for, that, matter, everyone, asks, the, same, questions, what, have, they, got, to, hide, why, aren’t, they, interested, what, plans, are, being, made, and, what, lessons, have, been, learned, from, last, years, outbreak, a, lot, of, farms, are, restocking, and, in, this, neighbourhood, farm, work, is, going, on, as, before, or, so, it, looks, as, time, goes, on, though, there, seems, to, be, a, smouldering, anger, that, no, one, in, authority, is, as, concerned, as, well, are, week, 11, work, is, still, on, going, at, the, burial, site, no, comments, heard, from, any, of, the, villagers, or, neighbours, this, week, diary, 12, monday, from, my, own, observation, work, is, still, ongoing, at, the, burial, site, more, heavy, plant, has, been, moved, on, to, the, top, of, the, giant, amount, and, it, looks, as, though, more, topsoil, is, being, laid, over, the, mount, perhaps, to, improve, the, site, but, water, may, still, permeate, into, and, through, the, site, we, can, only, believe, the, operators, that, this, is, a, right, thing, to, do, friday, talked, to, 2, it, villagers, about, the, after, effects, of, fmd, one, said, oh, it's, all, over, now, and, forgotten, about, it, doesn't, bother, me, one, bit, the, other, said, it, all, in, the, past, we, just, have, to, forget, about, it, it, seems, that, life, is, returning, to, normal, in, all, aspects, of, village, life, people, don't, think, about, last, year, unless, the, diarist, mentions, that, sunday, a, bad, day, or, weather, wise, this, prolonged, rain, may, halt, work, on, the, burial, site, most, people, are, reluctant, to, talk, about, f, m, d, now, even, if, it, was, one, of, the, worst, economic, and, social, disasters, to, hit, this, country, and, this, county, in, particular, now, that, it, is, over, people's, memories, begin, to, fade, however, some, of, us, are, not, happy, at, having, these, two, disposal, sites, within, a, 1000, metres, of, this, village, fmd, may, be, over, but, these, burial, sites, are, here, for, a, long, time, yet, diary, 13, observed, in, work, on, burial, site, more, heavy, machinery, and, plant, moved, in, and, large, quantities, of, soil, are, being, laid, down, and, smoothed, out, diary, 14, talked, to, some, religious, today, about, the, after, effects, of, fmd, without, exception, they, are, not, interested, it's, all, over, with, an, idle, one, to, be, reminded, about, it, are, the, general, comments, nobody, seems, bothered, that, there, are, hundreds, of, animals, buried, a, 1000, yards, from, his, village, or, the, fact, that, there, is, leachate, and, pyre, ash, buried, in, another, site, looking, at, the, burial, site, and, the, work, that, is, going, on, there, it, does, look, as, though, the, management, there, are, doing, everything, to, make, the, site, safe, diary, 15, i, met, a, smallholder, today, to, whom, i, have, talked, to, in, the, past, about, the, effects, and, after, effects, of, fmd, he, still, not, happy, about, the, burial, site, despite, the, landscaping, and, smoothing, off, of, the, large, quantities, of, topsoil, only, time, will, tell, he, says, he, does, not, have, any, stock, near, to, the, site, but, he, has, sheep, on, the, farmer's, land, since, fmd, finished, though, his, stock, movements, are, still, restricted, by, new, legislation, that, has, come, in, since, the, area, was, declared, free, for, instance, or, if, he, takes, a, sheep, to, auction, he, asked, to, have, nine, pieces, of, paper, for, this, transaction, if, the, price, is, not, right, and, he, has, to, take, the, she, back, to, his, land, he, was, put, them, back, in, the, same, field, that, they, came, from, and, it, cannot, move, them, to, three, weeks, he, then, has, to, obtain, a, licence, to, do, this, he, does, think, that, the, authorities, are, not, going, to, be, as, strict, shortly, this, is, just, one, of, the, precautions, that, have, come, in, to, try, and, combat, any, recurrence, of, fmd, diary, 16, i, met, the, smallholder, who, rents, land, a, from, the, farmer, in, the, village, his, income, from, the, sheep, that, he, a, breeds, has, been, nil, like, many, more, people, in, similar, circumstances, fortunately, for, him, had, he, has, an, income, from, another, source, the, subject, of, compensation, came, up, during, our, conversation, i, personally, do, not, have, any, comment, to, make, about, this, item, as, it, maybe, just, a, rumour, apparently, he, got, it, bee, in, his, bonnet, about, compensation, paid, out, to, people, who, were, not, in, the, agricultural, business, what, seemed, to, upset, him, was, that, he, had, heard, that, some, of, fish, and, chip, shop, owner, in, the, lake, district, had, been, paid, 170, per, month, compensation, for, the, loss, of, trade, he, didn't, mind, too, much, that, hoteliers, and, guest, house, owners, had, claimed, compensation, but, wondered, where, else, would, this, kind, of, money, go, when, he, himself, had, been, paid, nothing, this, is, the, first, time, i've, heard, this, one, diary, 17, attended, the, cumberland, show, at, every, to, be, park, carlisle, we, as, a, family, used, to, attend, this, annual, show, regularly, both, as, spectators, and, competitors, we, have, never, seen, the, show, like, the, one, put, on, this, year, when, will, things, really, get, back, to, normal, many, of, us, think, that, agriculture, is, back, to, pre, fmd, cattle, and, sheep, on, grazing, in, the, fields, lambing, has, reached, new, heights, in, produce, on, some, farms, calves, are, being, born, silage, and, haymaking, is, progressing, when, the, weather, permits, but, there, are, still, restrictions, on, animal, movements, hence, no, sheep, cattle, or, pigs, at, this, year's, show, only, horses, poultry, dogs, and, rabbits, not, many, pieces, of, agricultural, machinery, onshore, either, plenty, of, chartered, accountants, tents, craft, tents, horse, feeds, and, tack, displays, in, the, main, arena, and, bands, not, an, agricultural, show, as, we, knew, it, it, seems, to, be, the, same, at, other, shows, ennerdale, show, is, one, of, our, local, shows, this, year, there, isn't, going, to, be, any, horses, or, sheep, generally, there, are, no, cattle, shown, at, the, show, but, without, sheep, hill, farmers, dominate, the, show, the, there, isn't, going, to, be, much, on, show, at, all, it, was, always, a, good, show, for, equestrian, events, at, many, levels, this, show, was, always, a, must, for, our, family, i, don't, think, that, we, will, be, going, this, year, diary, 18, from, the, golf, course, and, golf, driving, range, i, can, look, out, on, to, the, western, side, of, the, burial, site, i, have, written, in, previous, weeks, about, the, work, there, has, been, going, on, at, this, site, viewing, the, site, are, from, our, village, side, would, hardly, know, what, that, there, ever, was, a, burial, site, hundreds, of, tons, of, topsoil, had, been, laid, and, smoothed, out, to, make, more, or, less, like, a, landscaped, feature, it, looks, really, good, from, the, western, side, though, things, are, little, different, work, is, still, going, on, there, large, amounts, of, soil, have, been, tipped, and, levelled, off, there, are, still, portakabins, there, and, heavy, plant, can, still, be, seen, moving, about, no, doubt, the, western, side, well, look, as, good, as, the, eastern, side, before, long, diary, 19, it, is, announced, that, the, prime, minister, and, his, wife, and, son, of, his, family, at, a, visit, to, cumbria, the, pm, arrives, in, west, cumbria, all, kinds, of, reports, are, written, in, the, local, and, national, press, about, what, he, is, going, to, do, or, not, do, or, what, he, should, be, doing, after, all, he, is, on, holiday, the, pm, did, meet, some, farmers, leaders, the, press, as, usual, stirred, things, up, or, as, to, where, he, should, be, meeting, tourism, officials, say, that, the, trip, was, fantastic, for, tourism, in, the, county, or, person, they, i, can't, see, what, difference, it, made, if, people, want, to, come, cumbria, they, will, come, irrespective, of, whether, the, pm, comes, or, not, diary, 20, after, a, lot, of, protests, it, looks, as, though, it, the, 20, day, restriction, on, cattle, movement, will, be, lifted, perhaps, this, will, now, mean, that, they, could, be, cattle, and, sheep, entries, at, local, agricultural, shows, some, shows, are, going, ahead, with, very, limited, entries, of, livestock, and, some, with, no, animal, entries, at, all, these, shows, have, always, been, very, popular, with, my, family, for, over, 20, years, also, living, with, in, a, farming, community, makes, us, feel, part, of, the, annual, agricultural, scene, diary, 21, i’ve, written, before, regarding, agricultural, shows, and, the, pride, in, which, local, people, take, in, these, shows, although, a, lot, of, shows, have, gone, ahead, this, season, they, have, had, a, reduced, animal, showing, or, in, some, cases, no, animals, at, all, today, i’ve, heard, that, one, show, has, been, cancelled, altogether, this, particular, show, is, one, of, the, most, popular, in, the, area, maybe, because, of, lack, of, entries, or, the, organisers, just, wanted, to, cancel, because, of, the, 3, week, restriction, on, animal, movement, i, don’t, know, perhaps, it, would, be, better, to, cancel, them, than, have, a, depleted, show, diary, 22, spent, a, few, hours, in, the, fells, today, it, was, good, to, be, able, to, wander, the, familiar, paths, and, let, our, dog, run, free, it, was, a, good, boost, to, our, moral, and, perhaps, the, dog’s, too, we, all, missed, being, able, to, do, this, last, year, diary, 23, last, bank, holiday, before, xmas, and, the, last, before, the, schools, go, back, at, the, golf, course, where, i, help, out, part, time, during, the, summer, we, had, lots, of, customers, a, lot, of, them, commented, on, how, enjoyable, it, was, to, be, on, holiday, in, this, area, this, year, compared, to, the, restrictions, that, were, in, place, last, year, maybe, the, holiday, establishments, are, getting, back, to, normal, there, are, no, restrictions, put, on, them, like, there, is, in, place, now, with, farmers, and, agriculture, diary, 26, sorting, through, the, mail, left, whilst, away, on, holiday, and, i, came, across, a, notice, sent, by, the, village, committee, notifying, a, harvest, thanksgiving, festival, to, be, held, next, month, in, the, village, hall, as, we, have, no, church, in, the, village, it, is, being, held, in, some, farm, buildings, in, the, centre, of, the, village, this, will, be, a, splendid, event, the, farm, did, not, have, fmd, but, couldn’t, take, animals, from, one, field, to, another, and, couldn’t, market, them, when, we, consider, the, gloom, that, settled, on, this, farm, and, community, it, is, very, welcome, to, have, this, unique, event, here, in, the, heart, of, the, village, and, the, farmer, and, his, wife, will, be, at, the, centre, of, events, a, lovely, gesture, and, i, hope, it, will, be, well, supported, there, will, be, a, distribution, of, harvest, gifts, afterwards, what, a, change, from, a, year, ago, diary, 27, with, the, aid, of, binoculars, i, have, been, able, to, have, a, closer, look, at, the, burial, site, from, a, westerly, direction, there, are, vents, in, the, shape, of, small, towers, to, extract, gas, from, the, site, there, are, pipes, connecting, these, vents, a, lot, of, work, is, still, going, on, there, however, all, this, takes, place, in, the, western, side, which, is, the, opposite, side, to, where, my, village, is, situated, from, our, side, there, is, nothing, to, suggest, the, amount, of, work, going, on, because, of, this, fmd, is, pushed, further, into, the, backs, of, villager’s, minds, it, is, something, in, the, past, it, has, happened, so, what, people, like, myself, who, talk, to, farmers, and, agriculturalists, do, not, easily, forget, these, events, personally, i, am, still, concerned, about, the, burial, site, when, inquiries, are, made, about, it, all, we, can, do, is, accept, what, we, are, told, it, does, not, look, as, though, every, precaution, is, being, taken, to, alleviate, an, odours, or, contamination, diary, 28, i, had, to, see, the, village, farmer, on, another, matter, and, was, asked, inside, for, coffee, and, a, chat, he, was, able, to, tell, me, of, the, full, implications, of, the, 20, day, rule, he, accepts, that, this, is, a, precaution, to, prevent, another, outbreak, of, fmd, but, there, is, a, lot, of, work, involved, he, told, me, of, an, isolation, area, that, he, has, created, and, also, the, fencing, arrangements, where, his, land, adjoins, the, neighbours, land, i, would, say, that, 95, of, the, public, don’t, know, about, this, even, if, they, have, heard, of, the, 20, day, rule, for, him, he, owns, the, largest, farm, in, the, area, it, is, bad, enough, having, to, do, all, the, physical, work, as, regards, fencing, etc, but, for, anyone, such, as, a, small, holder, it, must, be, a, nightmare, if, he, has, to, bring, animals, back, from, market, that, haven’t, been, sold, friday, my, wife, and, i, played, a, round, of, golf, at, aspatria, this, course, was, badly, restricted, when, fmd, hit, this, area, we, were, reminded, that, there, are, restrictions, on, adjoining, land, there, were, notices, asking, people, who, hit, balls, onto, farm, land, not, to, cross, the, fence, to, retrieve, them, because, of, fmd, precautions, this, was, news, to, us, it, does, make, sense, though, the, farmer, wouldn’t, know, where, players, had, been, walking, prior, to, playing, golf, diary, 29, attended, the, harvest, festival, held, in, the, village, farm, a, large, cattle, shed, had, been, cleaned, and, decorated, for, this, event, chairs, had, been, brought, in, fruit, and, vegetables, were, on, display, for, auctioning, at, the, end, the, place, was, packed, a, lot, of, money, was, raised, and, it, was, a, very, happy, event, well, supported, and, a, big, boost, for, the, farm, and, the, village, i, don’t, think, that, the, general, public, care, much, about, fmd, now, that, is, has, been, a, year, since, the, last, case, was, confirmed, in, cumbria, the, public, may, be, reminded, if, they, read, the, local, newspapers, intently, for, instance, there, was, a, letter, to, the, editor, published, recently, which, referred, to, the, results, of, the, cumbria, inquiry, into, fmd, it, may, have, been, a, farmer, who, wrote, it, i, don’t, know, but, the, writer, certainly, went, to, town, in, the, scathing, comments, on, the, handling, of, fmd, even, caustic, remarks, regarding, the, efforts, since, fmd, of, defra, and, mrs, beckett, i, certainly, wouldn’t, like, to, cross, the, writer, i, also, think, the, farming, community, must, be, holding, it’s, breath, in, case, the, present, restrictions, such, as, they, are, prove, to, be, worthless, then, we, will, all, suffer, again, week, 30, what, a, difference, a, year, makes, despite, some, restrictions, on, public, access, to, agricultural, fields, in, some, areas, of, the, county, it, doesn’t, apply, here, although, most, locals, confine, themselves, to, footpaths, and, bridleways, other, people, seem, to, think, that, all, fields, are, recreation, areas, they, walk, and, run, across, some, of, the, fields, in, close, proximity, to, the, village, regardless, of, the, presence, of, stock, they, exercise, dogs, and, treat, it, as, a, some, kind, of, park, one, farmer, is, well, know, for, being, aggressive, he, used, last, year’s, fmd, outbreak, to, run, people, off, his, land, i, met, a, local, councillor, who, expressed, concerns, regarding, the, proposed, building, of, an, incinerator, to, the, south, of, the, village, on, the, current, open, cast, mining, site, the, two, waste, disposal, sites, to, the, west, and, north, west, of, the, village, have, become, big, issues, in, the, last, 18, months, due, to, the, burial, of, animals, and, the, disposal, of, pyre, ash, and, leachates, it, seems, as, though, we, are, going, to, get, over, this, ghastly, fmd, outbreak, only, to, have, this, scenario, thrust, upon, us, week, 31, met, a, small, holder, who, keeps, sheep, near, to, this, village, he, was, very, scathing, over, the, report, that, the, government, and, defra, don’t, want, to, talk, up, an, offer, from, the, local, authorities, here, to, implement, findings, and, recommendations, from, their, local, inquiry, over, fmd, why, what, has, this, government, who, didn’t, perform, very, well, during, the, outbreak, got, to, hide, and, why, shirk, away, from, the, findings, instead, of, facing, up, to, the, failings, that, we, all, know, about, it, also, seems, that, they, don’t, want, to, make, any, safeguards, and, recommendations, to, avoid, a, further, outbreak, as, a, non, agriculturalist, it, doesn’t, surprise, me, in, the, least, after, all, government, has, failed, other, industries, in, the, country, for, as, long, as, i, can, remember, week, 32, i, am, convinced, that, authorities, in, the, area, must, think, that, the, way, animals, were, buried, here, and, pyre, ash, and, leachate, were, disposed, of, at, another, site, nearby, was, all, done, as, very, successfully, and, that, the, two, sites, handled, everything, professionally, therefore, the, sites, would, be, more, than, capable, of, handling, ash, from, an, incinerator, to, me, this, is, the, legacy, of, fmd, i, am, most, annoyed, over, this, together, with, a, lot, more, of, the, villagers, this, village, no, longer, has, a, representative, on, the, parish, council, both, have, resigned, for, whatever, reason, and, no, one, will, step, forward, to, take, it, one, i, have, said, that, i, would, take, a, set, on, the, parish, council, to, represent, the, village, and, fight, for, our, rights, and, future, quality, of, life, due, to, this, i, have, uncovered, a, pile, of, claims, and, counter, claims, it, seems, that, both, parish, and, district, counsellors, know, what, is, going, on, regarding, the, incinerator, and, that, developers, have, made, concessions, to, some, councillors, also, there, are, claims, that, the, developers, have, offered, money, to, local, landowners, and, farmers, so, that, roads, can, be, put, in, all, these, accusations, have, been, strongly, denied, at, the, same, time, it, is, rumoured, that, some, farmers, have, been, offered, local, fields, nearby, because, of, what, i, have, discovered, in, my, own, investigations, it, would, seem, that, a, lot, of, friendships, gained, over, 20, years, could, come, to, an, end, i, am, fearful, of, what, i, have, uncovered, there, are, also, claims, that, councillors, are, only, in, it, for, what, there, can, get, out, and, are, not, to, be, trusted, i, don’t, want, that, said, of, me, also, by, the, time, all, this, is, sorted, out, i, will, be, 70, 75, i, certainly, don’t, want, to, be, fighting, peoples, battles, at, that, age, however, i, will, support, any, effort, to, stop, the, proposed, development, week, 33, once, again, the, large, farm, in, the, centre, of, the, village, was, the, venue, for, the, annual, guy, fawkes, bonfire, and, fireworks, organisers, had, been, round, the, village, asking, for, donations, to, provide, fireworks, a, tractor, and, trailer, toured, the, areas, picking, up, things, for, the, bonfire, drinks, and, food, were, served, in, a, barn, after, the, fireworks, this, is, another, occasion, when, villagers, and, the, farming, community, come, together, it, is, perhaps, the, only, time, that, the, general, public, of, the, village, think, about, fmd, and, last, years, events, if, only, briefly, the, farmer, remarked, that, is, the, third, time, this, year, that, there, has, been, a, public, function, on, his, farm, the, first, was, the, jubilee, party, in, june, then, on, october, 6th, the, harvest, festival, service, these, events, keep, farming, in, the, public, eye, week, 34, i, haven’t, written, before, about, the, proposed, building, of, an, incinerator, nearby, to, burn, the, counties, waste, if, as, we, all, suspect, the, incinerator, is, built, then, the, odours, plus, the, disposal, of, ash, to, the, fmd, waste, site, is, a, legacy, of, fmd, particularly, regarding, the, nearby, burial, and, disposal, site, week, 35, this, is, week, 35, of, this, project, and, for, most, of, the, 35, weeks, i, have, written, that, i, am, not, confident, of, the, future, there, are, numerous, reasons, for, this, mainly, the, situation, in, the, middle, east, today, i, travelled, to, keswick, to, do, some, xmas, shopping, i, was, given, a, lift, there, by, a, neighbour, who, is, in, his, 30s, he, was, very, upset, about, the, terrorist, situation, not, only, was, he, concerned, about, the, terror, threat, to, the, london, underground, but, the, threat, closer, to, home, as, regards, a, plane, crashing, into, the, nearby, sellafield, complex, we, don’t, know, the, effect, that, this, constant, bad, news, has, on, people, people, who, have, already, got, serious, worries, e.g, families, housing, finance, etc, must, feel, really, depressed, about, it, all, week, 36, near, to, the, next, village, is, a, long, established, farm, of, many, acres, recently, the, farm’s, stock, of, animals, and, machinery, was, sold, off, the, owner, who, had, farmed, for, sixty, years, was, leaving, to, live, with, one, of, his, brothers, he, said, that, he, wouldn’t, know, how, he, would, feel, when, he, left, the, farm, for, the, last, time, this, weekend, the, farmhouse, hasn’t, been, sold, yet, and, now, stands, empty, it’s, a, strange, place, now, where, everything, was, hustle, and, bustle, they, even, had, a, b, b, business, there, is, now, derelict, and, bare, it’s, a, sad, reflection, on, the, agricultural, business, in, the, wake, of, fmd, this, farm, isn’t, the, only, one, in, the, area, that, has, sold, up, some, farm, houses, remain, as, dwellings, but, this, particular, one, which, we, saw, nearly, every, day, is, just, an, other, sad, reminder, of, the, way, farming, has, declined, in, this, rural, area, week, 39, tuesday, boarded, the, train, at, penrith, to, journey, to, crewe, to, see, our, daughter, during, the, journey, i, got, into, conversation, with, a, fellow, passenger, he, noticed, i, had, got, on, the, train, at, penrith, and, perhaps, thought, i, was, connected, with, the, agricultural, industry, the, conversation, drifted, into, the, previous, years, fmd, outbreak, it, is, rather, strange, that, i, live, in, a, very, rural, area, and, fmd, is, rarely, mentioned, now, however, this, fellow, passenger, although, not, from, an, agricultural, background, gave, his, views, on, the, handling, of, the, situation, it, was, no, different, from, the, views, expressed, by, locals, at, the, time, of, the, crisis, it, just, goes, to, show, that, fmd, is, very, much, in, peoples, minds, even, if, they, were, not, connected, to, agriculture, in, any, way, week, 40, friday, now, that, the, mep, have, published, their, critical, report, on, the, fmd, crisis, it, is, interesting, to, read, an, article, published, in, our, local, weekly, paper, from, a, reader, article, entitled, foot, and, mouth, report, included, i, don’t, have, the, knowledge, or, the, data, to, support, this, readers, comments, however, i, have, heard, plenty, of, stories, from, mainly, unreliable, sources, to, confirm, what, he, says, it, makes, interesting, reading, i, think, week, 41, tuesday, no, wonder, my, confidence, in, the, future, has, taken, a, big, plunge, over, the, last, few, months, the, situation, in, iraq, doesn’t, get, any, better, mr, tony, blair’s, message, to, the, armed, forces, of, the, uk, bear, this, out, being, an, ex, serviceman, i, know, what, the, situation, holds, for, our, troops, but, are, we, right, to, follow, the, usa, in, a, war, against, iraq, no, doubt, saddam, hussein, does, pose, a, threat, but, so, does, india, and, pakistan, to, each, other, each, of, these, two, relatively, poor, countries, has, threatened, each, other, as, regards, their, nuclear, arsenals, now, the, loose, cannon, in, the, form, of, north, korea, is, positioning, itself, as, regards, its, position, in, the, nuclear, arms, league, personally, i, think, that, north, korea, poses, a, more, dangerous, threat, than, iraq, it, is, not, a, very, happy, new, year, for, a, lot, of, people, perhaps, it, will, all, be, settled, diplomatically, i, wonder, week, 42, nothing, of, any, importance, to, write, about, due, to, refurbishment, at, home, week, 43, monday, one, of, the, items, on, the, agenda, for, this, months, meeting, of, distington, parish, council, is, a, report, on, the, wood, felling, and, the, implications, of, this, as, i, have, written, in, the, diary, before, there, are, strong, rumours, of, the, proposed, plan, to, fell, woods, build, a, new, road, through, the, felled, site, and, bring, coal, from, the, nearby, opencast, site, to, link, up, with, an, existing, road, then, to, transport, the, coal, to, a, storage, area, on, workington, dock, then, when, the, coal, is, worked, out, to, build, an, incinerator, on, the, coal, site, ash, from, this, development, would, then, be, transported, on, the, new, road, to, be, disposed, of, on, the, waste, disposal, site, that, was, used, for, fmd, pyre, ash, and, leachate, thursday, read, a, report, of, the, aforesaid, meeting, the, owners, have, declared, that, our, worries, are, groundless, in, fact, they, say, that, they, plan, to, eventually, open, the, woodland, to, the, public, the, owners, of, the, woodland, are, the, same, operators, of, the, opencast, coal, site, footpaths, will, be, created, if, a, grant, can, be, obtained, a, wooden, wheeled, ancient, water, mill, will, be, restored, after, the, closed, meeting, the, operations, director, of, the, site, said, that, there, has, been, a, misunderstanding, what, we, are, doing, will, benefit, local, people, he, said, that, a, management, project, for, the, wood, is, being, followed, involving, felling, dead, trees, and, fresh, planting, he, added, the, felling, and, replanting, will, be, done, this, year, after, which, it, will, take, time, to, become, established, we’re, talking, of, a, ten, year, programme, but, it, should, have, long, term, benefits, i, think, our, pr, at, the, start, of, this, wasn’t, very, good, and, in, the, future, we, will, let, the, council, know, of, our, plans, the, council, agreed, to, keep, a, watch, on, the, work, here, in, g, this, statement, differs, greatly, from, what, some, of, us, have, been, told, by, our, village, based, county, councillor, there, has, never, been, any, suggestion, that, the, felled, woods, would, become, a, land, fill, site, but, would, be, felled, to, provide, the, new, road, there, was, nothing, mentioned, at, the, meeting, regarding, the, proposed, incinerator, being, built, the, county, council, that, this, has, ever, been, planned, however, our, representative, is, adamant, that, this, is, not, so, week, 44, tuesday, for, the, first, time, my, property, has, finally, overcome, a, situation, that, was, affected, by, fmd, in, july, 2000, the, electricity, supplier, notified, me, to, say, that, the, trees, in, my, garden, had, grown, so, tall, that, the, topmost, branches, were, in, close, contact, with, an, eleven, thousand, volt, overhead, power, line, and, that, they, should, be, felled, or, severely, pruned, after, some, further, negotiations, it, was, decided, to, prune, to, some, height, that, i, wasn’t, happy, with, although, the, treetops, were, not, actually, touching, the, wires, it, was, considered, a, risk, in, the, forthcoming, months, however, as, time, passed, i, couldn’t, wait, for, the, foresters, to, arrive, so, i, pruned, the, trees, myself, in, january, 2001, the, electric, supplier, suggested, that, the, trees, should, be, pruned, further, a, date, was, agreed, but, the, foresters, didn’t, arrive, time, dragged, on, and, the, trees, grew, back, to, their, original, height, again, the, electric, supplier, suggested, they, be, pruned, or, felled, a, new, date, was, agreed, upon, however, the, foresters, couldn’t, do, the, job, because, the, isolator, switch, was, on, farmland, and, they, couldn’t, get, access, to, it, because, of, fmd, restrictions, and, so, it, dragged, on, despite, visits, by, foresters, and, electric, supplier, reps, the, trees, got, bigger, and, i, was, forbidden, to, touch, them, neighbours, could, hear, crackling, noises, coming, from, the, wires, and, it, became, very, worrying, people, suggested, that, i, should, do, something, about, it, i, took, the, matter, up, directly, with, the, supplier, and, the, foresters, i, was, promised, dates, only, for, them, to, be, cancelled, in, december, 2002, a, date, of, 21st, january, 2003, was, given, this, time, they, came, and, we, agreed, that, two, trees, be, felled, and, another, pruned, after, 30, months, it, finally, happened, thursday, met, a, small, holder, who, has, his, land, on, the, edge, of, this, village, who, told, me, that, the, 20, day, rule, of, animal, restriction, of, animal, movement, was, being, lifted, and, replaced, by, a, 6, day, restriction, this, was, good, news, for, him, and, any, other, farmer, later, that, day, i, met, another, farmer, who, didn’t, know, that, the, restriction, was, being, lifted, you, would, have, thought, that, i, had, told, him, he’d, won, the, lottery, good, news, all, round, for, the, people, friday, listening, to, the, local, radio, today, and, was, surprised, to, hear, a, report, that, the, citizens, advice, bureau, in, a, small, lakeland, town, had, been, receiving, clients, who, were, still, experiencing, hardship, due, to, fmd, it, is, now, 18, months, since, the, last, outbreak, and, the, effects, according, to, the, person, being, interviewed, were, still, being, felt, not, just, by, farmers, and, agriculturists, but, by, guest, houses, hotels, tradesmen, and, in, particular, some, self, employed, debt, seems, to, be, the, biggest, problem, it, seems, as, though, some, people, had, weathered, the, hardships, of, fmd, initially, only, to, find, that, their, plans, had, come, adrift, somehow, afterwards, quite, disturbing, to, hear, that, the, situation, is, still, with, us, in, this, county, to, some, degree, week, 45, these, diaries, were, instituted, to, deal, with, the, after, effects, of, fmd, although, there, were, no, cases, of, fmd, in, this, village, everyone, knew, about, it, particularly, as, nearly, everyone, who, went, to, work, from, here, would, pass, the, main, farm, in, the, village, centre, or, some, of, the, farms, on, the, outskirts, of, the, village, now, that, fmd, is, over, most, people, who, live, here, don’t, seem, to, think, about, it, anymore, the, only, people, affected, are, the, farmers, naturally, this, is, a, strange, village, in, lots, of, ways, only, the, farmer, and, his, immediate, family, are, connected, with, agriculture, the, rest, are, professional, people, or, people, who, work, at, nearby, sellafield, industries, in, workington, and, whitehaven, or, are, retired, there, is, no, church, no, village, pub, no, village, shop, no, village, community, centre, or, meeting, place, only, tradesmen, that, call, are, the, milkman, and, the, solid, fuel, merchant, we, are, left, to, get, on, with, life, in, our, own, way, the, parish, of, distington, to, which, we, belong, have, all, the, facilities, associated, with, a, larger, community, such, as, a, church, pub, and, community, centre, all, of, which, are, two, miles, away, consequently, the, parish, council, meets, there, once, a, month, and, discusses, all, the, problems, of, the, area, including, ours, however, our, representative, on, the, council, has, resigned, and, no, one, has, come, forward, to, represent, us, anything, that, has, been, discussed, at, the, parish, council, is, reported, in, he, local, newspaper, village, pubs, are, a, good, venue, to, discuss, local, issues, and, to, exchange, views, and, mainly, to, gossip, village, tittle, tattle, as, i, call, it, as, we, have, no, pub, the, gossip, is, rife, from, one, source, or, another, with, bits, added, on, or, left, out, as, is, the, choice, of, the, person, concerned, quite, a, lot, of, people, one, meets, are, experts, in, their, own, particular, choice, of, subject, whether, it, is, politics, finance, or, mrs, jones, current, boy, friend, it, is, a, fault, to, take, on, board, all, that, is, gossiped, about, when, one, meets, a, fellow, villager, in, the, country, lanes, whilst, out, walking, the, dog, week, 46, illness, to, a, family, member, week, 47, continued, illness, week, 48, over, the, past, few, weeks, there, has, been, a, lot, of, tree, felling, in, the, nearby, woods, this, has, led, to, a, lot, of, disturbance, to, the, villagers, because, of, the, use, of, large, vehicles, needed, to, remove, the, felled, timber, and, also, the, foresters, vehicles, churning, up, the, grass, verges, and, the, ditches, a, lot, of, concern, was, raised, about, the, necessity, of, all, the, tree, felling, these, concerns, were, raised, in, the, press, and, also, in, the, parish, council, i, have, written, about, these, in, diaries, in, the, last, few, weeks, it, was, reported, in, mid, january, that, all, the, felled, woods, would, be, replanted, this, year, with, footpaths, created, for, the, enjoyment, of, the, local, population, now, all, timber, operations, have, ceased, large, areas, of, woodland, have, been, left, partly, felled, and, a, lot, of, felled, timber, is, left, lying, about, foresters, vehicles, have, gone, and, nothing, is, happening, despite, assurances, from, the, developers, it, looks, as, though, something, drastic, has, happened, village, tittle, tattle, says, that, the, foresters, have, not, been, paid, for, their, work, so, far, and, that, the, developers, have, run, out, of, money, if, this, is, so, what, is, going, to, happen, now, when, felling, started, late, last, year, i, contacted, two, environmental, agencies, regarding, the, threat, to, the, red, squirrels, badgers, and, buzzards, that, occupy, these, woods, i, was, told, that, it, was, only, a, partial, felling, and, they, the, environmental, agencies, were, satisfied, that, any, disturbances, would, be, slight, i, think, that, they, were, told, this, by, the, developers, and, accepted, what, they, were, told, without, a, site, visit, the, developers, have, been, known, to, mislead, groups, in, the, past, including, landowners, farmers, councils, and, individuals, i, personally, am, not, happy, about, this, situation, i, have, always, took, a, keen, interest, in, wildlife, and, feel, that, we, have, been, let, down, by, the, lies, of, developers, and, the, lack, of, serious, interest, from, wildlife, agencies, some, of, which, are, an, offshoot, of, central, government, i, for, one, will, keep, a, close, look, on, the, situation, with, or, without, other, villagers, and, in, particular, local, councillors, week, 49, by, chance, i, met, three, small, holders, all, at, the, same, time, they, were, discussing, farming, by, the, roadside, all, of, them, were, pleased, that, the, 20, day, ruling, was, coming, to, an, end, and, that, their, lives, were, more, or, less, coming, back, to, normal, they, also, expressed, the, opinion, that, the, 20, day, rule, and, the, 6, day, rule, were, only, in, force, to, protect, their, interests, however, they, were, unanimous, in, their, condemnation, over, the, importing, of, foreign, meat, and, meat, products, into, this, country, they, feel, that, foreign, meat, is, not, subjected, to, enough, checks, before, entry, into, the, united, kingdom, week, 51, met, a, farmer, today, who, told, me, that, he’d, seen, a, report, based, on, findings, by, the, eu, and, defra, it, stated, all, the, things, that, everyone, who, is, an, agriculturalist, and, those, who, take, an, interest, in, the, countryside, had, been, saying, about, what, was, wrong, with, the, handlers, of, the, fmd, outbreak, it, just, proves, that, it, doesn’t, take, an, academic, genius, to, know, what, should, have, been, done, at, the, time, everyone, can, be, wiser, after, the, event, but, statements, by, the, nfu, and, individuals, at, the, onset, were, not, heeded, for, example, the, movement, of, animals, should, have, been, halted, sooner, and, the, army, should, have, been, brought, in, much, sooner, now, the, question, of, vaccination, rumbles, on, should, we, or, shouldn’t, we, vaccinate, there, is, a, fear, of, the, outbreak, again, particularly, when, the, findings, of, the, 1960, outbreak, were, not, implemented, since, the, sadness, of, fmd, there, has, been, quite, a, few, instances, of, socialising, at, the, farm, such, as, harvest, festival, jubilee, party, and, almost, any, excuse, for, a, shindig, good, to, see, farmers, enjoying, themselves, week, 52, met, out, local, farmer, who, told, me, that, there, is, to, be, new, legislation, to, dispose, of, fallen, stock, no, longer, can, a, farmer, bury, fallen, stock, on, his, land, but, must, now, provide, an, incinerator, to, dispose, of, dead, animals, this, must, be, a, costly, business, could, dead, animals, not, be, taken, to, a, central, point, and, burned, week, 54, one, thing, about, fmd, was, the, effect, that, it, had, on, the, poaching, fraternity, living, in, a, rural, area, we, expect, this, to, happen, nobody, seems, to, mind, that, a, few, rabbits, and, pheasants, go, missing, what, is, really, alarming, is, the, use, of, dogs, and, high, powered, rifles, to, poach, deer, fmd, put, a, stop, to, all, this, now, a, neighbour, has, told, me, of, poachers, near, to, the, village, using, rifles, and, shooting, deer, the, only, people, benefiting, from, this, are, the, poachers, and, hoteliers, who, receive, these, dead, beasts, and, no, questions, asked, also, the, danger, of, villagers, being, hit, by, stray, rifle, shots, causes, alarm, to, others, week, 55, i, think, that, there, is, a, lot, of, jumping, on, the, band, wagon, now, that, fmd, has, cleared, up, for, instance, i, listened, to, an, interview, on, the, local, radio, station, given, by, a, hotelier, things, weren’t, going, well, in, his, establishment, having, got, over, fmd, and, its, implications, visitors, were, slowly, returning, to, the, area, but, not, in, sufficient, numbers, to, cause, great, joy]
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same stories and complaints over how the crisis was handled some of the episodes recounted must have been told dozens of times over the last year but whoever says it always seems just as keen to say it again perhaps a reflection of how deeply people feel about the events of the last year having said that most of the resentments and rants that i hear on daily farm visits are focused fairly and squarely at defra and not fmd virus farmers seem far more upset at the constriction put on them by defra than they do by the loss of stock now although i know and saw how utterly devastated most were when they were actually diagnosed with the virus and in the week or two following my work in the practice is becoming less and less fmd orientated as time goes on licensing and restocking visits are drawing to a close and we are starting to return to normal vet work my life has been more settled since the end of fmd although there was never a real threat of redundancy there was a great deal of uncertainty as to what form work would take during the outbreak it was never clear whether i would be based at the practice or working as a defra vet from month to month now that it is finished i hope the practice and my work can get back to a routine and at least knowing where ill be based each day even if not which calls are going to come in with regard to fmd the biggest influence it has at the moment and over the last week is acting as a listener to farmers who still talk about it and defra a great deal diary 2 mon shap restocking having to justify visit wed melmerby i went to see a farmer this week to do the first inspection of his sentinel animals that he is restocking his farm in common with many farmers he was unwavering in his conviction that his animals had been deliberately infected and that tony blair or defra were the ultimate culprits the belief is that they want to put farmers out of business this particular farmer made the very valid point that defra co had underestimated the resilience of the farming community i think that this has been very striking considering the strain that they have been under in some cases worse for those who didnt get fmd than for those who did it has been remarkable how little the majority of our clients have changed admittedly we see most of them on a professional basis regarding their animals health and not their own but on the whole they seem to have been very forward thinking about the outbreak many have taken it as a chance to increase the size of herds and to eliminate many other diseases as well as fmd work in the practice has been fairly steady as week the number of fmd calls is decreasing one of the problems with doing restocking licensing and tb calls is that we are on the farm at defras instruction normally it is the farmer who calls us out and this can cause friction anything related to defra will put hackles up 9 times out of 10 it definitely causes stress at times but puts my diplomacy skills into good practice it sometimes feels as though some farmers just need an outlet and i fit the bill after agreeing with everything they say and sympathising it usually smoothes out and ends with a cup of tea but it does feel as though we have to justify what we are doing much more than prior to february 2001 diary 3 this week was the anniversary of the week i went to my first ip and associated slaughter pyre building etc at several times during the week i found myself thinking this time last year i was although obviously not pleasant memories the thoughts did not particularly affect me in a bad way or distract me from work it just took me back to that time when i had time to think i went to see a sick horse near carlisle which is where the ip was and it was interesting to drive past the farm and see animals in the buildings again hopefully the farmer concerned is getting back on track again with respect to daily routine work is getting very busy lambing time is starting to really get going with the inevitable increase in calls although it can be hectic at times its better to be kept busy rather than having it too quiet its also good to actually be doing lambings and other sheep work as its two years since we did any apart from euthanasing sheep last year on monday i went to do a re stocking check on a farm the farmer is convinced he was given fmd deliberately and on arrival i was given his weekly tirade regarding defra tony blair how i must have made thousands of pounds out of it etc etc after sometime of not rising to the bait he calmed down and half an hour later was sweetness and light perhaps he just needs someone to let pressure out to only one session like that a week isnt too bad considering how many farm visits we do diary 4 monday brought another dressing down from the farmer i mentioned last week it was shorter and less passionate this time perhaps hes mellowing a bit i drove up to junction 40 one day with the sun out it reminded me of a similar day a year ago when i could count 15 smoke plumes from pyres on the same bit of road as i said last week anniversary memories like this arent especially difficult for me theyre just there in a lot of ways its quite satisfying thinking about what was happening a year ago and how well things have progressed since then most of our farmers have re stocked work is returning to normal even things like being able to drive onto farms again rather than having to leave the car at the farm entrance makes a big difference work continues to be very busy with the typical seasonal calls to sheep and cattle we have a couple of vet students doing work experience with us which had to stop last march as we couldnt take extras onto farms with us another sign of the continuing return to normality some days it seems as if we have returned to how we were a year ago the most obvious legacy is perhaps the thorough and extensive clothing disinfection between each farm a good habit which is very hard to break diary 5 i had to work on easter monday morning which was fairly uneventful as for the last few weeks there were the usual seasonal calls to sheep and cattle but nothing too stressful on tuesday i did the final blood sampling on the last farm that we have that is still at the sentinel stage of re stocking the farmers seemed fairly mellow today and spared me the usual lecture attempt at argument perhaps its because the end of his restriction is in sight the test went very smoothly and i didnt hear from him until the end of the week when i he was upset probably justifiably that his results still werent back as processing the bloods is not our responsibility all i could do was sympathise and plead ignorance the rest of the week was fairly routine work wise friday was taken up doing a big tuberculin and brucellosis test on a re stocked farm they all have to be done within 3 mths of re stocking although it was a big job it was a well run farm with plenty of help so we got finished within the day and with as few delays as could be expected now that the evenings are lighter its meant that on nights off duty ive been able to get out more its made a very welcome change to be able to bike walk on the fells again this year after all the restrictions of 2001 long may it and the weather continue diary 6 finally finished the last a restocking jobs on monday the farmer was getting very frustrated probably justifiably so at the length of time it was taking the bank holidays etc last week meant to that the labs were closed so that blood samples took longer to process i got the results at 4 45 monday evening and in an attempt to create some goodwill agreed to go to the farm to do a final check that evening on arrival of the usual tirade about defra and vets came my way which was slightly hard to take he then said that he didnt blame me personally which was nice of him i think hope he realises that we can only try to get things going faster and ultimately its out off our hands at least its good to have all the restocking work finished it feels as though the first stage is over in getting back to where we were another sign of returning to usual is the continuing pace of work nights on call are again a time for working rather than the call free nights of summer 2001 this week has brought early morning lambing most days the rest of the time were is as busy as its been for a year the day book is full each day and we all seem to be driving around the county more or less keeping up with the jobs which is a good thing i had the weekend off and was going to go to edinburgh to see some friends but in the end stayed in penrith for some r r diary 7 i had a half day on monday and went to riggindale at the head of haweswater with a friend who had come to stay for a night or two the plan was to see the golden eagles nesting that up to unfortunately they were off on a day trip to another part of the lake district but the weather was good and it made a very pleasant change from work the practice is still going flat out with seasonal work the daily flow of lambing and lambing related sheep problems shows no sign of ebbing there are also increasing numbers of cattle problems probably related to coming towards the spring turn out of cattle that have been inside for 6 7 months the fact that most of them are in new surroundings is almost certainly adding to the problems on the whole of farmers are fairly pragmatic about the difficulties they are having most accept that they were bound to have problems with the restocking and on the whole are pleased just to have stock on again some are very keen to be as efficient as possible whereas others will more readily go along with the old farming mantra that where theres a livestock theres a dead stock not quite what the veterinary profession wants to encourage i was on call at the weekend and had one of the busier few days i can remember again it was mostly seasonal farm work which although it was time consuming is often quite rewarding im still surprised by the number of sheep we are getting called to perhaps its because farmers have spent a lot of money on them to restock with and now feel theyre financially worth calling us for diary 8 made a couple of visits to one of our farmers who restocked over the winter this week hes having a few problems with cows getting ill and generally not settling in very well hes one of the most amenable farmers on our books and never seems to try to blame anyone for his troubles at times its very frustrating not to be able to do more for people like him id like to be able to give every one of his cows a magic injection and say that itll get better but unfortunately thats not how it works weve had a lot of colt castrations to do this week which is normal for this time of year it puts more pressure on us in terms of work as we usually take two vets to each castration considering how busy it is relations in the practice are generally very good it has been stressful at times but on the whole this has been stress related to volume of jobs to do rather than people it has also been a very different and preferable type of stress than this time of the last year at least a lot of work makes us all feel fairly stable rather than the terrible uncertainty of last year weve also taken on an extra vet this spring which would have been unthinkable last year in the middle of the week i did a farm visit with one of the vets from the local veterinary lab to discuss disease control on a re stocked farm most of the work into disease surveillance on a farm was defra funded which went down well with the farmer she at least felt as though she was getting something back after fighting with defra for the last few months it was also encouraging to see someone taking a very positive approach to disease control in the future my cousin and some of his friends came down from glasgow for the weekend to go into the lake district the weather was good on the whole and several people noted how good it was to have the paths open again diary 9 started the week doing a big tuberculin and brucellosis test at a restocked farm there has been a big backlog to clear after testing was stopped during fmd last year so we have to catch up with those farms that didnt get the disease but are due a test as well as testing the restocking farms were all very keen to keep cumbria as a tb free zone but with all the different stock coming in its going to be tricky mondays test was long but okay on the whole the set up was good and the farming family were very pleasant which makes a huge difference to how the day goes all was clear when i went to read the test on thursday a relief for all concerned overall work seems to be quietening down a bit this week compared to the last few we are now just busy rather than always feeling as if were one job behind all the time on wednesday and thursday one of our clients brought in half a dozen shetland ponies to castrate it makes a change to have a large animal that is small enough to be easily physically restrained by one person the continuing good weather made doing an afternoons work with the ponies in the practices field a very pleasant way to spend a few hours i cant help feeling that no rain in april means well get loads later in the summer i was on a second call at the weekend saturday was very busy with small animal jobs which i mainly left to a colleague while i tried to clear up the farm and equine jobs calm was pretty much restored by late afternoon after which i wasnt called until early sunday morning another of our re stocked clients is having considerable trouble with some of his new animals and is becoming increasingly frustrated about it we all try to help with the medical side of it animals but inevitably also get to hear a lot of his other worries too hopefully things will look up soon and hell be able to ride it out ok diary 10 had a day off on bank holiday monday always the good way to start the week i went up to peebles in scotland with some friends to go mountain biking it was surprisingly empty for a weekend and the weather was good and i didnt fall off all in all a good day out tuesday was work as usual i had to do a small tb test on a restocking farm it shouldnt have been a long job but the facilities werent great so it didnt go as slickly as it might have done we all managed to get through in one piece so it could have been worse one of my colleagues went on maternity this week she is part time but does all small animal work now that shes off for the next few months it means that an extra vet is needed each morning to stay in and do small animal operations while its probably not my favourite sort of work it does make a change from being out on farms every morning its also good to get a bit more experience at small procedures as well as doing smaller animals this week has brought several interesting equine cases i had to hospitalise a horse for a few days for fairly intensive treatment which fortunately appears to have made a good recovery there have also been a couple of horse operations at the practice this week theyre generally quite interesting apart from the stress involved with having half a ton of horse asleep on the operating table i had the weekend off and went to edinburgh for a small reunion with friends i was at college with although we do talk about other things conversation inevitably came round to work the effect of fmd and its consequences are still very much in peoples minds friends all asked how it was last year and whether farms have restocked yet etc etc it s stuff which i seem to have said hundreds of times over the last few months but people never seem to tire of asking it and to an extent i dont seem to get bored of answering it diary 11 the week started with a big tb test at a restocking dairy farm there were very good facilities and it subsequently went very smoothly and quickly despite the number of cows involved the farmer seems to be quite positive about the new start and has been spared a lot of the problems that other people have experienced while restocking in terms of disease in the animals everything was clear when i read the test later in the week on wednesday afternoon i had a bit of a change as i went castrate two ponies belonging to my mother she had bought two totally wild fell ponies last autumn they now a bit tamer but not completely used to being handled yet i went with one of our nurses and the senior partner and it all went pretty much to plan work is still busy theres one client in particular who is giving us a lot to do he restocked a few months ago and is obviously having trouble lambing his sheep it got a bit trying when i had to get up to his third lambing of one night but thats what we are there for i suppose hes a nice man and always seems pleased to see us which helps i had the weekend off again and went to glasgow to be best man at my cousins wedding apart from the weather it went very well i think with no unsolvable problems diary 12 started the week with a long visit for dairy fertility work to one of our big dairy farmers its one of the farmers who has been having problems after restocking and a visit that another vet usually does so i felt a bit under pressure its the type of work which is very routine but has the potential to go quite badly wrong on the whole it went fairly well with no major problems i get on pretty well with the farmer which always helps as it makes the time go by quicker small animal work is still quite busy i had two days inside this week doing small animals operations there wasnt anything particularly different or unusual but it still helps to do more of it one of our farmers who managed to miss fmd is very busy with his calving schedule at the moment hes tending to have very big calves and subsequently were doing a lot of caesareans there this week has brought at least half a dozen of which two were in the middle of the night there have been a few vets are looking sleep deprived recently i had the weekend off and went so see a couple of friends in edinburgh we spent one day cycling in peebles and then proceeded to nothing strenuous for the next diary 13 the week started with a big session dehorning cattle its not exactly technical work and is fairly hard work at least it gets me fit we would normally do them at a younger age but quite a few have been missed as we didnt get out onto farms for such routine work last year on the whole most people are fairly well caught up now that theyve re stocked been having routine work done for the last 8 months or so but there are still a few lagging behind i had a call from a farmer who was one of our most consistently and vehemently anti defra people last year i ended up doing a caesarean and had quite a long chat with him conversation ended up coming round to the events of last year and he aired his resentments again it was the first time in several weeks that i had heard this kind of talk whereas a few months ago it would have been a daily occurrence it wasnt particularly aimed at me or the practice in particular but just frustration with the system as a whole i went for a walk up blencathra one evening during the week but the highlight of the week has to be the start of the world cup ive been on duty this w e but managed to see all but the last two minutes of this mornings rather disappointing draw with sweden most farmers are keen to watch the matches too so lets hope not too many calls come in at the wrong time diary 14 i had the bank holiday on monday off which was welcome after a weekend on call i went for a walk in the lakes with a colleague considering it was a bank holiday it wasnt too crowded had to work on bank holiday tuesday though it wasnt especially busy until the evening when i had to do a caesarean on a cow and then go and see a badly cut horse both seem to be doing ok the rest of the week was worked as usual nothing particularly out of the ordinary happened with fairly routine calls perhaps it was because everyone was preoccupied with events in japan and korea or maybe that is just me i was booked in for an 11 am call on friday but managed to persuade the farmer concerned that 930 would be more appropriate said that i or should that be we could watch the second england game we managed to get finished in time and it was well worth it the 1 0 win over argentina put everyone in a good mood for the rest of the day and the weekend i was on first call over the weekend saturday morning was very busy and we didnt get all the calls done until early afternoon after that it was one of the quietest weekends ive had they were a couple of things to do on saturday afternoon evening but sunday had no calls until after lunch almost unheard of i had to check my phone was switched on long may it last diary 15 ive done two days in the practice doing small animals this week more than usual the weather has not been the best so its no bad thing i managed to go out on rounds on wednesday though so i managed to catch the third england match second round here we come i spent most of friday morning operating on two cows at one of our farms they both had a condition where part of the gut displaces in the abdomen and is best repositioned surgically the farmer observed that it was probably linked to fmd last year because of fmd he had to use more silage to keep his cows inside last summer this meant he had less stored over the winter and so had none available to feed this spring summer the lack of silage now is almost certainly implicated in the problems his cows had its very unusual to have two occurring on one farm at same time seeing as he missed getting fmd last year though he thought it was a price worth paying it was actually quite a pleasant way to spend a morning hes from kirkby stephen where i went to school and i didnt have any other jobs waiting so it was quite a relaxed few hours the surgery went ok too i had a half day on friday and drove to valley just beyond alston to meet one of my old flat mates from edinburgh for his stag weekend we stayed in an old barn in middle of nowhere so it wasnt exactly a conventional stag party but very enjoyable all the same we walked to the nearest pub on saturday to see englands exciting next instalment 3 0 thank you very much after that its been a leisurely day and drive back to penrith and ive got another night to get my head back to normal for work tomorrow diary 16 this week has been quite small animal orientated again ive done two mornings in the surgery and more consulting than usual im not meant to be on duty for nights this week but ive had a couple to cover for people whove been on holiday fortunately both nights were fairly quiet im sure the favour will be returned sometime during the day work has been fairly steady were not quite as busy as last week but theres enough to keep us going the practice like most of the country tried to stop briefly while england were losing to brazil its a bit disappointing hopefully farmers and the rest of our clients wont be too depressed about it all it was good while it lasted at the weekend i went down to a place near worcester for the wedding of the friend whose stag weekend it was the last week there were a lot of people from edinburgh there why havent seen for several years and it was great to catch up the weather was very kind and stayed dry diary 18 on monday i went to do a big tuberculosis and brucellosis test at of one our big dairy farms that had restocked few months ago theyve got several hundred cows and it took a lot longer than anticipated i had to go back on tuesday to finish the job off theyre a friendly family so it wasnt really too much of a chore there has been a more obvious change in them since fmd than for most of our clients who had the disease they seem much quieter and less concerned about farming and lifes problems in general now perhaps they think if they can get through 2001 then theres nothing worth getting stressed about in comparison wednesday was spent doing small animal work made a change as on thursday i went back to read the cows results for the tb test all negative on thursday night i drove down to stay with a college friend near birmingham for the start of a long weekend on friday i carried on south to another friend in north devon shes working another vet in an area that was also severely affected by fmd cumbria was so badly hit that is sometimes easy to forget that other places had a bad time too thankfully work in devon is more or less back to normal again i spent the rest of the weekend in south devon where my dad had his 60th birthday we were lucky with the weather and had fine ish conditions to have a barbecue on the beach i was off today monday as well and spent the day driving north too far to go for a weekend diary 19 its been a short working week seeing as i had monday off ive also started a month back on the out of the hours of rota this week it works a month on a month off system so nights and weekends have been and will be a bit busier work has generally been a bit quieter recently this is fairly typical for the time of year mainly because animals are outside and farmers are busy making hay and silage rain permitting weve had two vets off this week so although there have been fewer jobs in we are not left twiddling our thumbs there has been the usual flow of a routine farm work along with horses and small animals but nothing too taxing on the whole i had a night on thursday and went up st sunday crag in the lake district with a couple of friends from brampton it was further than i remembered it being we didnt get down until it was almost dark but apart from being unseasonably cold surprise surprise it was a fine night it was duty this weekend i was on first call on friday night and had it very easy no calls until 12 45pm when another vet and i had to operate on a dog until three am i checked it again at 530 and then had to go to calving at 645 just as that was finished i was called to a badly cut horse then some lame cows and then to the bacon roll shop for breakfast i was only on second call for the rest of the weekend and was fairly quiet this meant i could get on with various mundane things like painting my house tidying the garden etc etc ideal tasks for when i cant do anything else because im on call and the dog did well so it makes the night with no sleep worthwhile diary 20 have had another short week had monday off as i was coming back from a long weekend away work this week has been fairly steady farmers are often busy trying to get silage hay in at the moment so routine of vet work takes a back seat having said that we have been kept at least as busy as we would expect with routine fertility visits and the occasional sick cow etc there been a few of the restocking farms that have had some fairly unusual diseases that didnt obviously fall into the ones we usually recognise or deal with as a lot of them have bought stock in from abroad we have to at least keep in mind the possibility of new problems been brought in weve worked quite closely with the local defra run veterinary investigation centre on a few of these cases but thankfully none have turned out to be anything to be unduly worried about i was on duty this weekend but have fortunately been reasonably quiet the only thing out the ordinary was a horse that had torn its leg up quite badly on some wire but with a bit of time and bandaging it should do okay diary 21 2 vets have been off this week so its been a bit busier for the rest of us again as with last week its been a mixture of routine and the standard a e type work there have been a few tuberculin tests going on still trying to clear the backlog from last year its getting there slowly but a lot of it will have to wait until the autumn winter when the cows are in and the farmers have more time available our new vet who started in april has seemed to settle in very well he had a bit of a bad day earlier in the week when a calving did go quite as planned its very easy to do especially when you feel under pressure as is bound to happen when you start a new job it reminded me of some of the problems i had a few years ago the farm where it happened is quite an understanding type so it wont create any real problems hockey training is starting again which seems a bit premature as the season is still months away at least itll encourage me to do a bit more exercise to get fit for matches the weather has meant i havent been out into the hills as often as i would have liked but hopefully theres still time for it to brighten up a bit had the weekend off so a couple of friends from college he now living york came to stay we went up to the borders for the day on saturday near to where i used to work it doesnt seem to have changed much i still think im better off down here despite last year diary 22 we had a bit of a rush on this week as sometimes seems to happen it can be quiet for couple of weeks and then it suddenly its crazy it may be that a lot of farms have now largely got their crops in and are trying to catch up or perhaps its just the way things go several farms have had ongoing problems this week with visits being required several days running there have also been a large number of horse calls this is probably fairly common for this time of year as they tend to get ridden in the supposedly better weather we tend to go further afield for horses on tuesday i went to kirkby lonsdale area in morning and had to go north of carlisle in the afternoon the miles get racked up or fairly quickly and i get to learn where the various blind spots for phone and radio reception are i was on duty again on the weekend which meant that i was also on for monday wednesday and friday nights they werent too bad apart from friday when i have to go and see a couple of horses being on duty for three week nights tends to limit what i can do apart from work but i managed to meet up with some friends working in brampton one night and go for a walk in the lakes on thursday the weekend was fairly quiet but i was only on second call so i found time to do some decorating in the room in my house which is the current project i lead such a thrilling life diary 23 the calm after the storm after the frantic levels of work we saw last week it has again been a bit more civilised this week weve had time to have coffee and lunch breaks and actually talk to colleagues from time to time i wouldnt want have every week is quiet as this but occasionally its very welcome its quite relaxing to be able to go on a call knowing that there is not another one waiting it also means that if the afternoons are quiet one of us can usually have a half day i got the nod on wednesday and went down to kirkby stephen to see my folks theyve got a smallholding down there with various creatures which usually have some ailment or other its a bit of a busmans holiday going there but it is nice having them close i tend see them every week or two on wednesday i vaccinated a couple of horses and trimmed a few sheeps feet they went through the joys of 48 hourly surveillance inspections last year but somehow managed to come through unscathed their parish was one of the only ones in the kirkby stephen area to do so other weekend i went up to glasgow to see a cousin who was having a leaving party i didnt know many people there but it was good to go and do something completely removed from the usual one of the people i did know came and stayed in penrith on sunday night it was a stunning day we went the lakes which were at their best diary 24 this week was the first of four for me being off the rota which should mean no nights and no weekends on call cant be bad on monday had a small tb test to do it was with a very pleasant farmer and the cows behaved themselves so it wasnt a bad way to spend a morning hes imported a small herd from holland and seems very pleased with them so far it takes a bit time for the f m farmers to get used to their new stock as most of them knew their old ones so well but on the whole people seemed fairly content with their new ones i did small animal ops on tuesday and wednesday as one of the vets who usually do it was on holiday weve got a new nurse starting this week so it was a case of showing her the ropes but she seems to be doing very well one my best school friends got married on friday very typically after a fairly quiet week it suddenly got busy on friday afternoon i managed to get the wedding but had to miss the afternoon reception in order to go and see a horse in appleby thats life i was one of the duty vets at lowther show on saturday i hadnt done it before and had a very good time it was generally fine weather and there were some truly stunning teams of horses in the driving event lots of competitors commented on how good it was to have the show up and running again after last years cancellations the event passed without any major incident for vet wise so it was a pretty calm day for me really diary 25 the weeks been fairly steady i seem to have been doing more horses than anything else i didnt go and see a cow until friday several of them were ongoing cases such as leg wounds that have needed daily dressing changes and the rest a selection of vaccinations lameness and those that arent quite right i quite enjoy the horse side of the job so doing a bit more than usual has been a welcome change i had planned to get to work on my house this month in my free evenings but it doesnt really seem to have worked like that when i know ive got a lot of free time nights tend to get booked up seeing people from home or near by who ive temporarily lost touch with also seeing as summer seems to have found us ive been trying to get into the lakes as much as possible the house can wait till winter this weekend ive been down to wales to see a group of college friends we stayed in a cottage owned by one of the groups parents and played a few rounds of golf i played very badly lost a lot of balls and became very frustrated with it all i think it comes down to lack of talent still it was good to catch up with some people i havent seen since graduation and im sure the golf will be better next year diary 26 ive done more small animal work than anything else this week there had been no disasters all fairly routine stuff one of the small animal vets has been away so i had to cover a bit i didnt actually get out onto a farm until friday morning it gets a bit claustrophobic inside after a while so it was good to get out i was on call at the weekend and also had a college friend to stay it was very quiet most of the time until sunday evening i had swapped duty to be off on the night from 6 00pm at 545 four calls all came in at once at all four corners of the practice so i didnt actually get finished until nearly 8pm thats the way it goes sometimes i suppose i had another half day earlier in the week as it was fairly quiet i took my bike out into the northern lakes for a few hours to blow away the cobwebs from being inside at work diary 27 i had a barbecue party this weekend for people from work and a lot of friends from college there were a lot of people i thought id always keep in touch with the but as time went on i never did so i arranged a weekend a long way in advance for us all to meet up again about 28 people came most of whom i havent seen for least a year or two nobody seems to have changed much and it was great to see them all again the garden and house have both taken a bit of a pounding but i think most of the mess is fairly superficial i went for a walk near howtown today to clear my head after the barbecue last night it was a very good day weather wise which meant that a lot of people had had the same idea as us its been a variable week at work some days been very quiet others flat out ive had an ongoing case of a young horse that had been caught up in wire on monday evening it was well beyond the stage where it could have been stitched when i saw it so itll have to heal slowly by filling the wound in im sure itll be fine but its going to take a long time were starting to get a lot of inquiries about the new rules defra are bringing in to allow farmers to bring animals on to their farms in isolation facilities it should make things less restrictive for the farmer we are going to have to do a lot of inspections its not since restocking checks last winter that weve really had to do this sort of thing but the checks probably wont be as exhaustive as those we had to do last year diary 28 had a fairly quiet week really this been a fairly standard mix of sick cows a couple of lame horses and the continuation of the young horse that wrecked its leg last week which is going okay so its been fairly laid back on the whole with time for a coffee break after most calls we have done the first of the inspections for the new on farm isolation facilities for sheep on the whole farmer compliance has been very good there have been a few whinges about why they have to do it and i can see why as it must be frustrating to suddenly be told how to run stock movements that theyve always done a different way most can see why defra are insisting on it though as its all aimed at reducing the risk of having another situation like we did last year i was off again this weekend one of my old flat mates and his wife came to stay they live in london so came north for a weekend of clean living and fresh air we went for walks around cat bells and high street on saturday and sunday ate drank and were generally fairly unstressed hope it was what they were looking for diary 29 ive had a short week in terms of work at the practice this week as ive been to glasgow for an equine conference from thursday to saturday further education is not compulsory and there is no formal structure for it which is quite controversial in some peoples eyes but the royal college of vets do encourage us to keep up to date there is a quota were asked to fulfil each year and these three days will help me keep on track there were several different courses on each day with one lecture theatre for practitioner based subjects that we could expect to see on a day to day basis and another called advanced clinical sessions on subjects and cases so obscure that youd be lucky to hear of one let alone see one more than once or twice i didnt go to many of those lectures as well as being useful in terms of picking up new information it was also a good chance to catch up with old friends from college lots of people i hadnt seen for a year or two were there and it was good to see them the first three days of the week were okay i went out on tuesday morning to trim some lame cows feet and ended up accidentally trimming some skin from the farmers thumb with my hoof knife all a bit embarrassing and felt very bad but he didnt seem that fazed by it and hes not the type to bear a grudge perhaps i shouldnt try to keep my knife so sharp another of the weeks more interesting events was an irish wolfhound that needed surgery to correct a twisted and distended stomach its fairly common in this type of dog and is a real emergency another vet and i operated on him on tuesday afternoon it took a couple of hours but so far is seems to have been worth it as hes done very well and apparently went home on friday diary 30 i spent most of monday afternoon evening irradiating myself by taking dozens of x rays of a horses legs it was being sold for a lot of money and the insurance company wanted to check all its joints were ok before insuring it it took a lot longer than anticipated as it was difficult to get it positioned absolutely right for each view but we got there in the end we have to be quite careful about exposure to x rays but my x ray badge hasnt shown a high reading yet 2 vets have been off this week one on his honeymoon and one has been away doing ai on sheep its often a bit quieter now but we seem to have been kept going i did a big routine fertility visit to one of our dairy farms on wednesday one of the main things we do on these visits is manual pregnancy diagnosis its not too bad with dairy calves cows as if theyre not in calf they would normally get another chance to do so but with some beef farms or a dairy cow that is persistently not conceiving it sometimes more economic to get rid of the cow of rather than persisting so theres a big incentive for us to get it right or at least not to say a cow isnt in calf when she is luckily they were all quite straightforward this week this was my last before going away to the usa for a fortnight i fly to new york tomorrow to meet up with an old flatmate of mine whos a journalist out there im crossing the atlantic to see him and hes given me directions to his flat rather than meeting me at the airport because im arriving when premiership football is on tv charming diary 31 two weeks in the states cant be bad i flew into new york where i stayed with a friend whos working in manhattan i did a lot of the usual tourist things empire state building boat trip around the island central park etc for its size its a very relaxed place in a lot of ways it feels very safe and although there is loads going on you never seem to get hassled we flew to new orleans for a week supposedly for some sun in the deep south but landed just as a tropical storm hit the mainland everything was closed for two days as bad as uk when it snows once the weather cleared it was fine and we again went about being tourists paddle boat up the mississippi river out on a boat in the louisiana swamps to look at alligators and a bit of new orleans nightlife i had a few more days in new york before flying home diary 32 first week back after america had a good trip but the week has been rather marred by the death of one of the hockey team and a year mate of mine at school in a tractor accident when he was hit by a wagon on the a 66 on thursday i saw him on wednesday night at hockey training he was very stiff having done the great north run with his wife the weekend before i didnt know him very well at school but have got to over the last few years via hockey and he really was a tremendously good person and will be much missed by lots of people in and around kirkby stephen the weekends match was postponed as no one could have thought about playing it all seems very trivial when this sort of thing happens i couldnt have played anyway as im on duty this weekend but fortunately its been fairly quiet so far a calving and 2 caesareans but its getting into calving season so its about par for the course the first half of the week was ok i was even given a half day on tuesday a day and a half after returning from holiday i went for a walk at the bottom end of derwent water and then tried to sleep off some jet lag diary 33 i went to matthews funeral on tuesday how popular he was was reflected in the number of people there we arrived 25 minutes before it was due to start and still had to stand and had to move up as more people tried to fit into the chapel it almost seemed as if all of kirkby had come to a standstill it went on quite a long time so i had the afternoon off and went to see my parents who live near kirkby afterwards we cancelled hockey training on wednesday as it seemed too soon to go on as usual but decided play our scheduled match on saturday both our team and the opposition had two minute silence before the match we ended up drawing 0 0 but it was a very good close game we normally lose to this team and played in a competitive but fair spirit just what was needed for our first match back im actually on duty again this weekend but one my colleagues covered for me for a few hours so i could go to play the cases at work have been fairly steady this week im going to enrol for a further qualification in equine practice in the next week or two im doing a reasonable amount of horse work at the moment but will try to do a bit more over the next few months years it should motivate me to read up on cases more and find slightly more constructive ways to spend evenings on call diary 34 tb testing our biggest beef herd had its post restocking test this week about 600 cattle were to be done theres no way it could be done in one go so we did it over 3 instead originally planned for two but ran out of daylight it all went smoothly on the whole or at least as well as could be expected and everything has been cleared as negative i found out from defra a few weeks ago that there have actually been quite a few tb cases in the county since restocking as wed been clear for years previously to fmd this is obviously a bit of a worry we havent had any cases in our practice but if we cant stamp out these new cases as they are found its only a matter of time before it spreads further afield the more we get in the county also means there will have to be more testing at the moment its begrudgingly accepted by the farmers but if we have to do more i can see them having a sense of humour failure over it ultimately its in their interest for us to check that their herd is free but it is a big time commitment and they dont get paid for it while i spent two days testing the rest of the week had a bit more variety i saw few horses mainly lameness but also one or two with other ailments i have to write a casebook for the equine certificate im doing im on the lookout for suitable cases during my rounds i had the weekend off played hockey in manchester and then went to worcester to see some college friends i had to drive back via ely as the trains are cancelled due to the winds which meant a friend was stranded not a very direct route to cumbria diary 35 the week started on monday morning with another tb test on a restocking farm its not a big farm and was one of the late ones to get fmd its run by a very nice but quite intense family the son has taken re stocking very seriously and has obviously thought of it very much as an opportunity to start from scratch and try to eliminate some of their previous herd problems i have consequently spent quite a bit of time advising him over the various vaccines available and their relative pros and cons thankfully things seem to be paying off so far with few problems in herd one of the things that i noticed during the test was that they made one or two jokes about last year sorry forgotten exactly what they said i thought the fact that they were able to now talk about fmd like that had to be a good sign as i think it would have been highly unlikely a year ago on wednesday afternoon i went up to wigton to vet a horse for a potential buyer there were several minor things wrong with it but overall it seemed ok its always a responsibility vetting horses as someone is either trying to buy it or not on the basis of what i find in this case it took quite a lot of convincing the buyer that the imperfections were not that serious hopefully they wont subsequently turn out to be a problem ive started doing more horse cases recently and on tuesday sent off my application form to be accepted to do further exams in horse practice i have to wait until next year to find out whether ive been accepted and wont sit them until 2005 i was off this weekend and played hockey in manchester unfortunately we didnt win maybe next week saturday evening i went down to kendal to see an old flatmate who lives there diary 36 on tuesday i went to see a horse near carlisle it had developed a swelling on its lower jaw that was fairly painful to touch they were a few possibilities but the most likely was that it had at tooth root abscess i put it on to antibiotics but seeing as it had obviously been going on for a while thought it was worth taking some x rays there was obvious destruction of the tooth visible on the x ray which probably means it needs removing this is a fairly major undertaking on a horse and as it was a valuable creature still in training i thought it best to send to edinburgh vet school to have it done hopefully ill be able to go and see it done in a day or twos time one of the aspects drawbacks not really of being a vet his that one is often asked about animal ailments out of work im sure it happens a lot in other jobs too my mother is very adept at this not that i really mind her elderly terrier that we grew up with has started having one or two problems recently i suggested a few possibilities but thought it best if she went to the local vets to have her looked at the problem was she was so bad tempered the terrier that they couldnt safely blood sample her so she had a day out to penrith so that i could try to take blood from her i managed to more or less intact and fortunately her results seemed more or less in order or at least better than her temper the general work in the practice has been fairly steady this week a few farmers seem to be having quite a few cows calving at the moment which is a bit unseasonal but i suppose a reasonable number tend to calve all year round we havent really got into calf pneumonia season yet but it cant be long before they start to keep us busy it will soon take over from lungworm as the main bovine respiratory problem the weekend was off again brought a victory in a hockey match the start of a winning streak perhaps i went up to edinburgh after the match to see a few friends and for the start of a week off wahey diary 37 its a week off cant be bad i didnt do what i had planned due to an unforeseen change in circumstances but still good as i was in edinburgh last weekend i decided to stay up for few days this was partly to see friends and also because i had referred the horse with a bad tooth that i mentioned last week voluntary work experience during time off dedication or very rash i spent tuesday at the vet school in edinburgh with one of my old tutors the case i had sent up was successfully treated so far by removing the offending tooth it was very interesting to see how he did it as he used a different technique to the one weve used in the practice i spent the rest of the day there with him seeing other cases it felt a bit odd being there not as a student i came home on tuesday evening and went down to kirkby stephen to see my folks on wednesday morning i spent most of the rest of the week either at their house or mine doing things like stocking up on firewood for the winter sorting my house out and making a start on stripping the wallpaper in my hallway i normally go away when i take time off but it was actually very nice to do things at home for change it made for quite a relaxing week on the whole diary 38 back to work it was good to have a week off last week but one of the best things about where i work and what i do is that i never seem to feel reluctant to go back to work i think that must mean i enjoy it on the whole on tuesday i went back to see the horse that had had its tooth removed last week its doing very well and is back in training it was eating very well as soon as the tooth came out its amazing how animals often seem to deal with pain so stoically ill check it again next week and all things being well that should be it on tuesday afternoon i happened to see another slightly unusual case in a horse it had developed a lump on the outside of its cheek which on closer inspection turned out to be a large mass man inside its mouth its probably going to have to be removed and should come in next week for it to be done the rest of the week was the usual mix of more routine cases have been on to more farms this week than i have done for a while we recently took on a new dairy farm near appleby and i went to see a cow there for the first time on a first visit you always hope for something straightforward so that its easy to make a good first impression on this occasion the cow was very sick and wasnt really giving me many clues as to why all i could do was treat it for the symptoms it was showing i saw it twice on friday and again on saturday and by evening it was on the mend i never did reach a conclusive diagnosis but i think the farmer was satisfied by the fact that it had got better in spite of not knowing quite what was wrong i was on duty friday night very quiet and on saturday apart from the cow i mentioned it was fairly easy going today i went down to kirkby stephen to see some old friends staying with my parents two weeks with no tb testing itll change next week diary 39 its been a fairly uneventful week at work there dont seem to have been any particularly on going or notable cases in some ways its not a bad thing as it makes for a fairly stress free time its not that you can really switch off but it does mean that when there are a few fairly straightforward cases to see its possible to spend more time chatting to the farmer owner without having to work too hard finding whats wrong with the patient this weeks most interesting case was a horse with amazingly extensive arthritis in its hind legs considering its age its not a terminal condition but it does have implications as to what it will be possible to use it for in future in situations like that it can be quite difficult to give the client the right outlook they often expect a quick cure especially in a young horse and to tell them that a problem has been present for months if not years and will never completely go away can come as a bit of shock the owner in this case was very sensible and seemed to taking what was said very well the other good thing about this week is that im having a very good run with my duties ive been on for two nights on first call and the phone hasnt gone once very unusual and very welcome this must be tempting fate ive had the weekend off there was a hockey match on saturday when we lost to the league leaders but avoided humiliation the rest of the two days was spent trying to progress with decorating the hallway before friends come to stay over christmas and new year am i not too young to be spending weekends off decorating diary 40 i had a good test of my diplomacy skills this week with an irate farmer i had spent four hours doing a tb test on a very cold day when it should have taken about one and a half hours in my rush to get defrosted in my car afterwards i forgot to shut the gate in the field where i had parked on my return to the surgery i was greeted by the news that he had rung wanting my head on a stick and forbidding me from ever setting foot on his farm again as all his tups had gone walkabout through the gate id left open on advice from the partners at the practice who knew him better i gave him a day to calm down and then wrote a very grovelling letter i was allowed to go back at the end of the week to read the test results which fortunately was all clear i think hes forgiven me one of the more common cow operations we do is to correct a displaced stomach in the two and a half years ive been at the practice weve always done it using one particular technique there are circumstances where another method is indicated and having not seen them for 2 years there were 2 this week they both went well so far another two years before the next i took my last day off for 2002 on thursday and again spent it decorating on thursday night we had our practice christmas meal the two vets on duty managed not to get called out and on the whole i think people werent too hung over on friday last year there was a bit of a debate as to whether we should have a christmas night out as most farmers were either just starting to restock or still cleaning out this year it was much more straightforward on friday night it was the annual night at hesket newmarket organised by the local defra lab for any local vets that want a meal and beers its a good chance to catch up with other vets from neighbouring practices in very informal atmosphere diary 41 ive had a couple of vet students staying with me this week who i knew when i was in my final year at edinburgh theyre doing work experience with us for a week or so its made a pleasant change to have some company for a while i have also acquired two stray kittens in the last week the usual vet procedure of eventually finding an unwanted patient that you cant resist taking yourself they are settling in ok and weve only had to have one or two little discussions about the benefits of using a litter tray rather than the carpet the week at work has been reasonably busy a good thing this week as there have been three students and its a bit dull for them if there is nothing going on we had a horse in for most of the week with a severe respiratory infection its needed fairly intensive care but seems to be on the mend now i may use it as a case to write up as part of the exam im hoping to do in a few years itll have to be a new years resolution to get on with the writing up part of it apart from a horse its been the usual sort of mix a few routine fertility visits to dairy farms a few sick cows and horses etc there been some tb tests this week but ive managed to miss them all must be saving some for me next year i had a lot of people from work here on friday night for pre christmas mulled wine and mince pies im not quite sure the kittens knew what was happening but i think the rest of us enjoyed it ive had the weekend off and went down to see a friend in birmingham who qualified last summer this was her second weekend on call so i went to give moral support being on call isnt stressful anymore but i remember for the first few times its difficult not to be aware of the phone all the time and hoping it doesnt ring there werent many calls and those that did come in she didnt need me for suited me well diary 42 the week of christmas and my first job of the week was to replace a particularly contaminated uterine prolapse in a cow it finally went back in after an hour or so of fairly fruitless efforts very festive this week and next we had fewer vets than usual working each day as we all have a few days off for christmas new year so its sometimes a bit busy during the day its generally worth it for the extra time off i was off on monday night and went to kirkby stephen to see school friends back for the holiday although we dont see each other very often any more people dont really seem to change very much a good friend whose parents farm had f and m have sold up and are going into b b instead i think it was a hard decision but now they seen to be quite relieved to be out of it i was on duty on christmas eve and fortunately didnt have to go out i just had three phone calls between 7 and 9 p m from people saying their dog or cat had been off food for periods varying from three weeks to 10 days christmas eve seemed an odd time to notice this i went home to kirkby stephen for christmas and boxing day and didnt really do very much i had a look at a couple of mums sheep but other than that it was just a case of being lazy and enjoying seasonal food and drink i was on duty this weekend which turned out be fairly busy one of the students who came to stay last week came back to do some on call work which turned out to be very useful a couple of cows to operate on as caesar and a displaced stomach where two pairs of hands are better than one and quite a few small animals to see to diary 43 ive had most of this week off for new year tuesday to friday which is pretty good going seen as i was off for christmas as well monday was fairly quiet with just a few farm calls to do and some small animals rather worryingly weve heard that a local deer farm not one of our customers has gone down with tb apparently with quite a few deer in the herd having it this means that well have to do tb check tests on any of our farms that neighbour the affected premises over new year my cousin her husband and their five children young came to stay it wasnt too hectic on the whole with just the occasional loss of humour a couple of friends from work came round to join us for new year itself ive had to work this weekend part of the deal for getting four days off midweek but its not really been that busy ive only been on second call and have only had to do 2 calls so far an easy return to work after new year excesses diary 44 back to normal quota of vets at work again this week which is good as it seems to have been very busy most of it has been the usual sort of things for the time of year cows starting to get lame after having been inside for a few months and metabolic problems probably related to the poor silage last years summer rain created quite a few farmers have a large amount of 2001 silage left as it wasnt used over winter 2001 2002 as they hadnt restocked on the whole its kept very well and in many cases is better than the crop they made last summer the fall out from the deer herd tb has arrived two neighbouring farms to test this week the first one has come back negative to the relief of all concerned i did the second one on friday and will read it tomorrow monday the farmers there are all very concerned about it which is understandable but hopefully groundless there are lots of questions being asked along the lines of what if some of which i can answer and some not it does remind me a bit of february 2001 when fmd broke out and there were all sorts of queries about the disease its progression etc that none of us really knew about it didnt take long for us to know the answers to most of them ive had this weekend off a hockey fixture list has started again after the christmas break a return to winning ways hopefully to continue diary 45 the week had a bad start the tb test i did last friday produced two reactors and two inconclusive borderline reactors this means that the farm isnt allowed to move at any bovines on or off the farm except directly to slaughter under licence the reactors are taken away for post mortem examination and the inconclusive reactors are isolated for 60 days until the rest of the herd is re tested the farmer was very keen to get the inconclusive animals removed as well quite understandably in my opinion so that they couldnt pose a threat to the rest of his herd apparently defra arent allowed to do this i think largely due to financial reasons while fully appreciating the need to protect taxpayers money considering how much was spent in 2001 i think this a potentially flawed argument perhaps the rules need to be changed but then again im not an epidemiologist and perhaps they dont actually pose a threat the farmer seemed very depressed by it all i think a lot of it is the feeling of having the stigma of being a farm under defra restrictions again he was also very aware of the threat he was to his neighbours and was desperately keen to minimise it its actually quite small while the cows are still indoors but i think people are still very much thinking of how serious it was for neighbours if someone got fmd tb is a very different type of organism and its a question of getting people to understand this which isnt to say its not a very serious problem on the same day another farm in the area not ours was confirmed with tb so its definitely progressing in cumbria depressing all we can do is follow defra instructions on testing and try to keep on top of it one of my colleagues tore a knee ligament last week while skiing he normally does mostly large animal calls seeing as hes now confined to the practice doing small animals ive taken over couple of the farms he does routine fertility visits for it makes a change to spend time on farms i dont visit often although i hear the small animal nurses are quite keen for matt to get back to doing them diary 46 one of our dairy farmers has had a big outbreak of pneumonia in his calves this week ive been to the farm at least once every day this week the tests weve done are usually pretty sensitive but have failed to reveal any of the usual causes treatment seems to have been working in some cases but not in others he hasnt lost any i e none dead but the loss in body weight is very obvious its all been a bit frustrating really hes a very pleasant guy and hasnt said anything but when treatments repeatedly fail to get expected and predicted results i cant help feeling that he must be getting a bit sceptical about it or perhaps im just being paranoid by the end of the week the majority seem to be on the mend but seeing as we havent tracked down the causative agent its hard to know what vaccination to recommend next year there are some more tests that will come back in two weeks which may be more revealing in midweek i did one of the fairly common operations to correct a twisted stomach in a cow surprisingly it was the first time this dairy farmer had had one done and he took some convincing that it was a good idea having persuaded someone to pay for a procedure i always feel under a bit more pressure than usual fortunately it went pretty well and the cow is so far doing well i was on second call this weekend which turned out to be pretty quiet i think we must be in a lull before lambing really kicks in lets enjoy it while it lasts diary 47 after not doing any testing last week it was my turn again this week it wasnt a big one only about 30 cows but it was a bit more risky than usual as it was a herd of beef longhorns and they do have long horns whilst trying to manoeuvre them into a crush to inject their necks with tuberculin we always had to be ready to take evasive action if they made a sudden turn i dont think they ever tried to use their horns aggressively but they were so big that they become dangerous weapons when they were just moving normally as it turned out no one received any injuries and very importantly the test was negative this week also brought my first lambing of the year other people have done a few but this was my first we have a couple of farms who lamb early for the early lamb sales it seems very hard work at this time of year but the early prices do seem to make it worthwhile give it another week or two and a sure theyll start to become more frequent i took friday off as i had to get to london for 4 pm to get on the eurostar to go skiing typically the one day of the year that the country ground to halt was thursday night friday we managed to make it to waterloo station only to find the station in chaos as all eurostars had been cancelled due to snow in france at least its not just britain that cant cope with it after being assured that none would run for 24 hours they suddenly told us to board only 1 hours late very pleasant surprise we ended up arriving in val disere on time with loads of snow and blue skies i tried to spare a thought for whoever was on call at weekend i managed it just diary 48 after the weather almost prevented us from reaching val disere it was very clear for the first few days but then the snow returned for three days we couldnt do much during that time but it did mean that there were fantastic conditions for the last few days we had a group of 29 and completely filled one large chalet there were for once no major skiing injuries within the group and i think a good time was had by all diary 49 back to work this week im never reluctant to go back after a week off and sometimes dare i say it even look forward to it must be a good sign apparently last week was ok at work with no major dramas we still havent found any more tb cases but the screening continues all the time one of the rules for re stocking herds compared to herds that missed fmd is that all bovines over 42 days old have to be tested rather than just the adults last year when there werent many calves around this didnt make much difference but now most farms have at least a years worth of calves in place it doubles the size of most tests often calves wont fit in crushes and are very wild so it can get quite exciting it seems a necessary policy though one of the reactors i found a few weeks ago was a six month old stirk ive had a fairly quiet week ive had a couple of nights on duty which were both quiet theres a horse near carlisle that i think ive mentioned before with a recurrent tooth problem we thought wed finally sorted that but this week she developed a problem with one of the tendons on her foreleg its a bit disappointing for her owner as she only bought the horse recently in order to compete to a very high standard and she seems to permanently off training with one ailment or another i dont think its too serious so hopefully in another week or two shell be back to work ive been off this weekend came second in the weekends hockey match a real case of defeat been snatched from the jaws of victory i went for a walk around the great gable scafell area on sunday afternoon it was amazing how much snow and ice was still left over from winter weather a week or so ago maybe i neednt have bothered going abroad diary 50 i found another positive tb case on friday i did the test on tuesday on a very large beef herd on a restocking farm including calves they must have been just over 400 cattle to do there was one reactor on friday and two inconclusives there is a possibility that it is a false positive the farm has been having big problems with something called at johnes disease which is caused by a similar type of bacterium to the one that causes tb there is a small possibility of a cow carrying johnes disease cross reacting with the tb test injection i actually blood sampled all the adult cows on tuesday to screen the herd for johnes in order to try to start eradicating it from herd itll be interesting to see whether the positive test cow will be positive for johnes ultimately it doesnt really make much difference in the short term the farms been placed under restrictions and the affected cow has been taken off for post mortem one of my colleagues found another positive reactor on a different farm on friday as well thats three farms in the practice now and around 50 60 within cumbria the big worry now this is that the longer it stays around the more likely inevitable it is disease will get into wildlife reservoirs deer and perhaps badgers depending on whether you believe that badgers are an influence or not time will tell but im sure its going to keep us busy for several years if not a lot more i did a test on monday as well on a small farm that ive never been to before at least testing is one way of getting on to small farms who dont often need us this one was all clear the remainder of the week was spent doing more usual work lambings still not quite got into full swing although we are seeing a slow increase in the number of sheep been brought to the surgery diary 51 no tb testing for me this week and no more positive cases in the practice the first case that i found back in january was confirmed as carrying tb this week though although its bad news for the farmer it is quite reassuring to know that the tests and methods we use do detect carrier animals reasonably accurately this week has been fairly busy without ever getting too hectic i operated on a cow on tuesday which for a number of reasons didnt go quite as smoothly as it might have done it subsequently didnt do as well post operatively as we would normally expect the coming week should see an improvement i hope we can never give cast iron guarantees about the outcome of surgery but it is quite rare for this op to fail so fingers crossed for monday i had to see a horse with colic earlier in the week which on my first visit to i was very suspicious that it was going to require surgery to correct the owner wasnt prepared for that happen though so it was a question of trying to manage it medically or euthanizing it it wasnt in undue pain so we gave it a go medically and much to my pleasant surprise over the next few hours and visits he did very well just goes to show we are not all knowing it would have been interesting to know whether it was a surgical condition which somehow righted itself or whether it was a medical case all along which simply appeared as something more serious i had to work for an hour or so on saturday morning doing small animal consultations and then had the rest of the weekend off we came second in a hockey match again and then i went up to edinburgh to catch up with some college friends who havent seen for a while diary 52 this week has really seen the start of the lambing season the sheep every day or every other day that weve been seeing for the last month or so has turned into one every few hours during the day and during the night in some cases its encouraging that farmers are still bringing them in calling us out as many feel that sheep arent worth paying vet fees for this obviously creates a welfare problem in many situations as inappropriate and inadequate treatment is sometimes provided by the farmer having said that i can see why some take the attitude of not spending money on them as prices are often so low the other aspect of lambing time is that nights get very busy on monday i had a ewe caesarean at 2am then a horse that had just foaled at 315 i had an hour or so in bed and then a sick cow at 620 although it can be a bit tiring on the whole cases we see out of hours are not the run of the mill routine things so it does at least make it interesting which isnt always the first thing on my mind when the phone rings at 3am unfortunately the cow i operated on last week failed to improve and i had to re operate on monday this is far from ideal as it carries a much higher risk of infection than first time operation somewhat to my surprise it seems to be doing very well now cows seem to be amazingly resilient if id had abdominal surgery twice in a mucky cow byre im sure i wouldnt cope as well i did the same op on a different farm later in the week which went much better id be getting worried about my technique if two in a row went wrong ive worked saturday morning again supposedly just for an hour but it turned into about two and a half as things kept coming in i went up to edinburgh again after hockey came second again to see someone whos left his job to go around the world for six months diary 54 the beginning of the week saw a visit to a horse which had a chronic episode of laminitis a hoof condition in this horses case it had become very severe and really beyond the point where treatment is feasible euthanasia was the best option for the horse as it was in a lot of pain unfortunately the owner was very reluctant for this and wanted to carry on with treatment this sort of situation does crop up from time to time and is difficult for all concerned in the end i told the owners what i thought the chances of recovery were and let them make their decision which was to continue treatment hopefully ill be proved wrong and the horse will recover but i cant really see it happening i saw another case later in the week which ended up going to liverpool university for surgery it was a small pony that had managed to cut itself very severely on barbed wire horses always find something to injure themselves on there was a risk that it had penetrated a joint so i sent it to liverpool to be flushed as far as i know its doing very well so far the rest of the workload this week has been the usual stuff for the time of year loads of lambing a few tb tests negative generally kept busy on friday i went to edinburgh for a few days course on equine neurology i knew most of the speakers and some delegates from when i was a student there it was good to see people again and i learnt a few things about horses brains and nerves saturday was our last hockey match of the season a draw we didnt win the league by any stretch of the imagination but we werent last either diary 55 another manic spring week goes by ive been on duty this weekend and the two of us on call have done as many calls in the last two days has eight vets would expect to do in two week days in the summer we havent been bored i didnt leave the practice building until lunchtime on saturday as there was a constant flow of small animals to see to and a few sheep brought in with lambing problems i eventually left at 130 p m to go to operate on a cow with a twisted stomach that was meant to be done at 11 am the op went a ok but it was then straight back to the surgery to do a caesarean on a whelping bitch with the help of a student who is seeing practice with us between then and 9 pm it was a variety of sick cows sheep to lamb and a calf with lead poisoning at the far end of ullswater would have been a very nice drive out if it hadnt been for the rush to top things off i had a cow caesarean at 9 pm it was very useful having a student to help all day i think it was a bit of an eye opener for her sunday morning gave me to more caesareans sheep this time variety is the spice of life a cat who had very mysteriously lost a leg overnight perhaps caught in a trap but was in incredibly good health otherwise its amazing what animals can withstand and a good supply of other calls to keep me out of mischief it has actually been quite enjoyable despite being so hectic and i think most of the cases have been quite successful which always helps the rest of the week seems a distant memory but on the whole it was more of the same but at a slower pace i did another small tb test which was negative anyway a night off tonight i need a pint diary 56 monday morning was the 60 day re test for the first herd that i found tb in it was a sunny day and on the whole the test went very smoothly the farmers buildings are getting very overcrowded though as he is under a movement restriction due to the tb first day started well as all the animals were giving negative readings but then came the dreaded reaction to the injections we gave on the first day there were four reactors in total three of which were borderline and the other was very very obvious the frustrating thing is that the obvious one was a borderline reactor last time but defra refused to take it as it isnt in their policy to take inconclusive reactors found on a routine test this means that an animal that is actually infected his left on premises to potentially infect other animals the farmer had tried to point this out two months ago to no avail he is now vindicated in his view not that that is much consolation for the fact that his restrictions are to be continued and he may well probably will in fact now have more carriers which wont be found until the next test in 60 days time the reason for not initially taking inconclusive reactors is to save money by not paying for the animals to be slaughtered that arent actually infected in cases like this it seems to be a real false economy and doesnt win defra friends in the farming community tuesday and wednesday this week were mainly horse jobs a horse with a recurrent tooth problem that ive mentioned before came in for more x rays and finally seems to be doing ok its competing in germany in a week or two so i do hope it stays ok this weekend i went for a walk in the lakes with one of my old flatmates from edinburgh the weather held and was amazingly hot for the time of year almost got sunburnt diary 57 ive had a final year student from edinburgh staying with me this week while shes seeing practice with us final exams are looming and i think the stress levels are rising its very easy to think of all the things you dont know but i think weve more or less managed to convince her that she does know enough not to be a liability when she qualifies she saw an interesting incident on a call we did early in the week id gone to replace a uterine prolapse in a cow which went okay but the farmer then asked me to falsely certify a cow we can give certificates to cows over 30 months of age under the bse scheme for which farmers are compensated this cow had to be put down but wasnt 30 months for another four days he was understandably quite upset about this and let me know its this sort of thing that is a nightmare for anyone but especially someone just starting you want to please the farmer and make a good impression but you also have responsibility to not abuse your ability to use your signature in the end i explained why he couldnt have a certificate and he did calm down im sure vicky will have similar situations before too long diplomatic as well as clinical skills develop very quickly once in practice another interesting case came in on thursday a year old foal needed emergency surgery on a hernia as luck would have it it was our first relatively quiet morning for a few weeks so we had enough vets on hand to do the surgery and anaesthetic the op went well and the horse has gone home this weekend ive been on second call this weekend and things have been busy but not unmanageable i did 2 belgian blue caesareans in the space of six hours on one farm yesterday but since then its just been a reasonable stream of calls rather than the madness of two weekends ago diary 58 following my going up on a course on neurology a few weeks ago a case came up this week its not often that we see neurological cases so its quite a coincidence i think it must have some kind of tumour in its brain causing it to show the various signs it has unfortunately the only way to firmly diagnose this is by post mortem which is how most neurological cases end up and alas i fear this one will too i went to do a fertility check at one of our dairy farms on tuesday the vet he normally has was away and he looked a bit put out when i turned up i think hope i managed not to abort any of his cows and he seemed very cheery by the time i left i suppose its understandable that farmers tend to want continuity with which vet comes work continues to be very busy an indication in the increase in daily workload is that weve had to introduce a specific messages book at work as theres no longer room to write people messages in the day book as it so full with appointments they used to be a few days in the year when both pages of the day book were full the first day of fmd in penrith had one call but this week 4 days have been full its got to be a good sign really and as i think ive said before it does stop us all from getting bored ive had three days off over easter friday sunday and two friends and their two mad dogs have been to stay my cats were not impressed on good friday we went up plaice fell i accidentally brought us down a much more direct route than i intended so we had to while away some time in the garden of the patterdale hotel lifes hard yesterday we left the bank holiday crowds in the lakes and went for a walk in the eden valley didnt see a soul its amazing the difference a few miles can make i suppose it hasnt got the hills and isnt as famous but the scenery is still pretty impressive but lets not tell anyone and then it might stay quiet on bank holidays diary 59 i was on duty on easter monday but it wasnt too hectic in fact it was almost unbelievably quiet there were three of us on duty bracing ourselves for the usual spring onslaught and we only had about two calls each to do all morning weird how it sometimes turns out like that lambing is definitely quietening down now the 5 10 lambings coming in each day is turning into 2 3 its mostly fell sheep lambing now which tend to be easier to lamb so few are in need our farmers assistance its starting to get into the horse castration season weve had the odd one or two over the last few weeks but have had about five this week one of my colleagues who is next up from me in terms of experience and i have started doing them together whereas a few years ago after it would always have been at least one of the partners and one of us we must be improving tb testing seems to have calmed down a bit too as a practice were pretty much up to date with it and as farmers start to turn their cows out theyll become more reluctant to do it with the way its spreading in the county though we have to try to keep up to date with it or it really is going to get out of hand ive had this weekend off it was my sisters birthday yesterday so i went to meet her and my folks for lunch we sat outside and enjoyed the april sun very nice it was too farmers are all wanting rain you dont hear that often in april but the sun suits me fine what are the odds on it bucketing down in june during silage time diary 60 one of our big dairy farms had had a big outbreak of ibr this week one of the main respiratory viruses on the whole it doesnt cause death and is normally containable on this occasion however it seems to have been a virulent strain and has caused a number of deaths and a great deal of lost production in terms of lost milk and calves not thriving towards the end of the week i went and shot three cows which were terminally affected seeing three dead and bleeding cows in the yard obviously reminded the farmer and me of when he had the whole herd shot in the same place for fmd and he had then moved out of sight very quickly i think the worst of the outbreak is over now and all the cows have been vaccinated theres only one vet more junior qualified for less time than me in the practice who started a year or so ago this week we went to do a colt castrate together one surgeon one as anaesthetist for the first time weve both done a lot with other vets but this was the first time weve been let loose as a pair everything went very smoothly so it looks as though our bosss confidence trust wasnt totally misplaced on friday morning i had a big dehorning session for one of our beef farmers its fairly non cerebral type work but is ok for a change every now and then and the farmer is a pretty amenable sort of guy more than could be said for the weather so it was a fairly laid back mornings work i had the afternoon off and drove up to edinburgh where there was a bit of a reunion for recent graduates from the vet college there were a lot of people havent seen for a long time and it was interesting to compare notes on what we were all up to diary 61 after last weekend in edinburgh i had to come back to work on bank holiday monday it was fairly manageable on the whole there were three of us on duty in the morning when the work was steady without ever getting too hectic i was on first call after 1pm when the surgery closed and it remained fairly quiet until the evening when there was a sudden run of calls but they came in one after the other rather than building up too much on tuesday i did the 60 day re test of the second herd of cattle that i had previously found a reactor in its a big herd and it took all day to get it done theyve been a bit unfortunate and brought in several other diseases apart from the suspected tb when they re stocked one of these an enteric condition called johnes disease is a chronic wasting problem and is notoriously difficult to eradicate itll take years of blood testing and careful record keeping to get rid of it its frustrating for them as all the planning for the post fmd period has been disrupted the tb test showed up no reactors this time but 3 cows were inconclusive results and will have to be re tested this is almost certainly as a result of the cows carrying antibodies to avian tb which causes no signs of disease in cows but disrupts the bovine tb test its a good example of why we badly need a more specific method for testing for tb its being worked on at the moment and hopefully well get one one day the senior partner at work is supervising another vet who is doing the same equine qualification that im enrolled for on wednesday he came to spend a day with neil to do some equine anaesthetics they were mainly castrates so i operated while neil went through the anaesthetics with his student it was very useful to hear it all in detail again its all too easy to get into the habit of knowing which drugs work at what dosages and not actually really thinking about why they work or why theyre better than other drugs we could use a useful day but it has made me realise ive got a lot to do over the next few years diary 62 things are still remaining very busy at work lambing has pretty much finished now but the work doesnt seem to be easing the partners have decided we need another vet to help things along a final year student from edinburgh came for an interview this week and it looks as though hell get the job it will mean that the rota will improve and hopefully will not be quite as hectic when he starts following the fantastically dry spring its now too wet for the farmers and they are tearing their hair out about how the first cut of silage is going to be gathered in dry hopefully well get a dry spell again soon to ease their worries i found a potential case to write up for my equine casebook this week its a mare that managed to get caught up in wire and tear a big hole in the shin of her lower leg its too big a defect to stitch so itll have to heal with a lot of bandaging and perhaps some skin grafts it always amazes me how horses managed to give themselves the most horrendous injuries been fields where there really doesnt seem to be any opportunity for it clumsiness perhaps maybe they just enjoy pain i doubt it were doing quite a bit of scanning of mares for pregnancy at the moment its another thing that ive been doing more of this year than in the past its a bit daunting at times but as with a lot of things its really a case of practising it as much as possible by the end of the stud season itll hopefully be fairly straightforward i drove down to oxford on friday evening after work to see my sister cousins friends who live down there it seemed a longish drive but it was well worth it to catch up with them all one of the things about working weekends is that it makes weekends off that much more appreciated diary 63 after a very pleasant weekend off i had a truly delightful first job on monday morning a cow had been losing weight for the last month also the reason i found was that it had a very dead calf inside which i then spent the first hour of the week pulling out bone by bone it was a fairly revolting job but wasnt actually something that i especially resented doing must mean im happy in my work or perhaps just a bit weird i had another fairly grim job later in the week when i was called out at 4 a m to a foaling the foal was stuck half out and was dead by the time i got there i eventually managed to get the foal out and initially the mare seemed ok but deteriorated over the next 48 hours and eventually had to be euthanased thats just the way it goes sometimes a more successful case came later in the week when i saw a foal that was acutely lame it looked at first as though it might have an infected elbow but after taking samples of the joint fluid and some x rays it looked as though it was actually a traumatic injury it stayed it in the hospital for four days during which time it seemed to improve quite a bit its a thoroughbred from a good racing line hopefully with a rest itll make a full recovery and win the grand national in 2008 i had the whole of the bank holiday weekend off six college friends came to stay for a weekend of cumbrian fresh air after a pretty gloomy forecast the weather turned out very well and we all went for a lake district walk each day and had a pretty relaxed time except for my cats four dogs also came to stay which didnt impress the cats who spent the whole time hiding in my room diary 64 this week started with a tb test for a small re stocking herd he had bought some cattle from a farm that subsequently tested positive for tb one of the cattle from that farm had then tested positive on his farm so this weeks test was a 60 day re test it was an all clear this time which was obviously a relief for them seeing as there was a positive on the farm last time they probably have to have another test in 60 days from now before restrictions are lifted this farm isnt very big so being under tb restrictions is awkward but not as crippling as it is the larger farms there is no room for relaxing the rules at the moment though the recent news from ireland that says they think theyve proved a link with badgers makes it even more important to get it out of cumbria before it gets into wildlife although it may well already be too late in between the two testing days this week i seemed to do a lot of horse cases on wednesday i spent most of the day touring around cumbria seeing horses in wigton cockermouth and bassenthwaite it was a sunny day and was a very pleasant way to spend the day great scenery to look at outside when not driving and cases going the way i was hoping not a bad way to work ive been on call this weekend and its been very quiet so far yesterday was steady with a reasonable number of calls but none stacking up ive done 2 cattle caesareans on the same farm this weekend one yesterday morning which seemed like a huge calf until the one i did this morning which was truly a freak it was the biggest calf i or the farmer had seen and is the result of selecting for extreme confirmation in beef breeds it does pose serious welfare issues for the cows as they cannot give birth naturally and have to have fairly major abdominal surgery instead well never persuade farmers of this though as the consumer wants cheaper food and cheaper beef is made through bigger beef calves it does seem tough on the cows though or am i being too cynical diary 65 i thought it was interesting to see how much people still are willing to talk about some of 2001 at the meeting on wednesday night while a lot of the conversation was routed around the subjects you had come up with over the last 18 months it often came back to talk of events and individual experiences during the outbreak itself these stories must have been told on dozens of occasions but people still want to tell them if the right time opportunity comes up myself included there were so many themes that you have all come up with on the electronic tags sheet that it seems impossible to comment on them all some of them seem very relevant to me others not so much trust is a category that comes up under a couple of headings one of the headings it is under is knowledge i think this has been one of the most significant changes since fmd as far as the farmer vet relationship is concerned defra has gone from being eyed with some suspicion to overt distrust and resentment on a whole we dont get too much flack as veterinary gps but when we have to do defra allocated jobs such as tb testing there is sometimes a general feeling of it being another task to try to wear them down being sent by the authorities another regulation that has caused huge resentment is the whole animal movement licensing system it is much easier now and causes fewer problems but a year or so ago it was the source of much stress we had to try to act as intermediary between farmers and defra and keep both sides happy the damage done to the farmer defra trust will take a long time if ever to start to repair hopefully by trying to be more on their side than defra seem to be the trust they have in us has been preserved its been a quietish week at work maybe because theres been a bit of silaging going on so the farmers havent got time for routine work its about time we were a bit quieter the summer lull hasnt materialised at all yet this year in fact were taking on another vet to ease the workload did i mention this last week in the meantime its nice to have time to draw breath and enjoy the sun for a day or two diary 66 this week seems to have gone by a pretty quickly maybe its because im on holiday next week and the thought of it is spurring me on i fly to split tomorrow for a week of sailing on the croatian coast with a college friend and some relatives itll be a change from cumbria one of our big dairy farmers was away in thailand this week the farm was left to be run by his usual workers and his brother and mother despite this he felt he had to take his mobile phone with him and he was rung twice during the week to be asked what should be done with a couple of sick cows i suppose this either demonstrates extreme dedication or an inability to forget about work or both but then again it also shows how committed a lot of farmers are and that its not just a job to them as farms get bigger the concept of all the cows being individually known to the farmer or being his friends becomes increasingly unrealistic but in the majority of cases theyre not just milk making machines and are cared for pretty well its not hard to see why it was so hard for people to lose their herds after being a bit quieter at work last week it suddenly seems to have become very hectic at work again this week there havent been any particularly time consuming jobs just lots of sick cows horse calls and the usual mix of animal ailments its better to be busy than quiet though i think i need a holiday and ill keep my phone switched off diary 67 a week off work to go sailing in croatia easy life after meeting up with the boat and the rest of the group in starigrad we sailed to vis into a fairly direct head wind so it took quite a bit of tacking and was a bit of a rough ride i also very stupidly underdid the sunscreen and managed to burn my back very careless but it got less uncomfortable as the week went on we spent two nights in vis harbour as the others who had already been sailing for a week wanted a rest it used to be a military island and there were definite signs of this around although it is obviously developing a now rapidly growing tourist trade after vis it was off to hvar where we anchored in a small inlet a few miles from the town after a night there we went to hvar town for a look around the castle on the hill was very impressive and the town still feels as though it is relatively unspoilt at the moment the last couple of days were spent making our way slowly back to split we actually spent the last two days in split as there was a strong northerly wind brewing up which would have been a bit rough to be out in my uncle who was the skipper on board has been to croatia for the last three years he said it was very noticeably more busy this year it seems a shame to spoil it with more tourist facilities but we all contributed to them being built by going there hopefully it wont be too dramatically changed diary 68 this week started at 9am monday with a tb test at one of the most basic run down farms we go to it was the first time id been there in three and a half years of working here so they dont make huge use of our veterinary services one of their bullocks was 7 years old when i casually asked about what plans they had for it seeing as he had missed the 30 months cut off time for human consumption i was told it was just kept as a friend for the bull the test was very slow as the cattle handling facilities were not the best on the planet they were very pleasant people to talk to and it soon became apparent that they had very little time for defra nothing unusual there the son was one of the people who had had his firearms confiscated after making threats at the start of fm d they still felt resentful about the way the police became involved and the way they were ultimately given no choice as to who came on to their farm to check their stock fortunately all the cattle were negative for tb so there was no need to further add to their distrust of defra by putting them under more restriction the rest of the week has been fairly steady theres been enough going on to keep us busy without ever being frantic the horse i saw last week with a neurological problem has become a bit worse so has gone to edinburgh vet school to see one of the neurologists up there he seemed fairly confused by it as well which i have to say i found quite reassuring the weekend was a bit on the strenuous side a cousin who is a keen cyclist persuaded me it was a good idea to do a big cumbrian yorkshire bike ride we went from penrith to alston to barnard castle to tan hill refreshments to kirkby stephen to penrith on saturday and then recovered on sunday it seemed like a good idea at the time but i am really feeling it now diary 69 looking back at some of the quotes in the recovery section of the notes from a meeting its noticeable how easy it is to forget or at least not have in ones mind how much it affected a lot people its almost hard to remember how much i was affected by it i know that there were some very unpleasant tasks such as supervising slaughters and day to day work was often very frustrating when we felt people overseeing our work from offices didnt really know what it was like in the field but i feel now that on the whole once work was finished life pretty much went on maybe this isnt actually a true reflection of how it was and its just that some of the detailed memories are fading often things dont seem as bad as they actually were when you look back on them i know plenty of clients colleagues and friends whose lives were completely overtaken by fmd so perhaps mine was more than i remember but i also feel that most of the people who i remember as being heavily affected are now more or less completely over it one of the farms i went to this week lost a son in a road accident about two months after getting fmd i think the farmer was ready to give up everything after that apparently he left the cleaning up of his farm and took no interest in anything time obviously helped him hes been back milking again for that sic last year and a half there are still changes though he seems very much quieter and more laid back now if a cow isnt in calf or things dont go quite right he doesnt seem to get stressed now as he once would have done work has been a bit quieter this week which we would expect at this time of year one of our farms has put some pedigree belgian blue embryos into some limousin cross heifers and theyre starting to calve now they all need caesars as the calves are almost as big as the heifers that produce them the only thing to be said for it is that we can do them at a sensible time of day rather than at two in the morning as we know when theyre due diary 70 one of the five categories you raised at the meetings last month was trauma and one of the subsections on the chart was sounds smells visions sights are probably the most frequent reminder of fmd now there are certain bits of road that have memories for example driving north on the m6 just south of penrith it was possible to count smoke plumes from about 20 pyres at one stage on fine days it always reminds me of it when i drive that stretch one farm has the remains of a pyre that was started to be built but never finished even things like driving across two lines of tar across a road which once held down a disinfectant mat people who didnt live here at the time wouldnt even notice them but it seems quite significant to the rest of us it doesnt really bother me but just is a reminder of what went on at other times it seems odd how quickly things have gone back to normal even something as simple as a road with mud or animal muck on it in 2001 that would have stuck out like a sore thumb and would have warranted urgent action now im used to driving a dirty car i do clean it sometimes and having some roads caked in dirt its difficult to imagine how the farmers kept them clean two years ago but they did obviously there are other reminders people never tire of talking about it but its the day to day visions and places that are most regular work has been a bit quieter this week i did it a caesar on a cow which had a truly ridiculously enormous calf we need to move away from breeding continental beef breeds and go back to nice compact jerseys or aberdeen anguses i also saw an unusual neurological case in a horse its very uncoordinated and has poor balance its the kind of case where brain spinal scan would be useful but those facilities arent really available for horses it will be interesting to see how it goes over the next few days diary 71 the last diary the 18 months seem to have gone by quickly things seem so much back to how they were that its odd to think back to what was going on when we first started writing them i think we were pretty much in the swing of doing restocking checks and doing endless blood sampling of sheep the last restocking checks i did were only 16 months ago it seems far longer although i say things are back to how they were im sure there are actually a lot of differences its just that i dont notice them because im used to how things are now the practice has become a lot busier by october well be up to nine full time and two part time vets pre fmd we were seven full time and two part time some of the increase is equine and small animal but most of it is in farm practice part of this is directly linked to fmd eg more tb testing due to re stocking tests and re stocking having brought tb into the county other factors arent so obvious but are unquestionably fmd related most restocked farmers went back with more stock than they originally had so overall there is greater density of stock around more animals means more sick animals which means more calls for the vet its a shame in some ways to see the small traditional farms being forced out but its hard to see how they can manage as margins get smaller and larger neighbours get more stock and more land fmd was a way out for several of the smaller farms all have been bought up by neighbours with none being sold as single units as ive said in recent weeks this time of year is usually quiet it has become a bit less frantic recently but the traditional summer lull hasnt materialised ive been a vet for four years the last three have been just about as interesting and challenging as they could have been both professionally and socially from the point of view of living in penrith obviously fmd had devastating effects on thousands of people many of whom are my friends on the whole i see very few residual scars it is still talked about but less and less as time goes on more than one farmer has actually said that they think in hindsight it was a very good thing for them im not sure i could ever say that as it brought too much stress and sadness for too many people but if it had happened i think very much with the benefit of hindsight im glad that i had the chance to be involved with it from the start and through the recovery
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about diarist date of birth 1966 gender f occupation group 6 geographic region north cumbria diary 1 monday was the usual long hard grind i accept that i have to put in 10 12 hours and i dont mind doing the work because its not physically or mentally taxing but i do hate not having a lunch break just that little bit of selfish time to site have a cigarette take the dogs down the river see the horses whatever i do resent that fact that w one of the bosses almost always gets a lunch hour b the other boss has gone up tremendously in my opinion for the way that he gets on with the work he starts early finishes late hates derfa paperwork and rarely complains it is definitely grinding them down because they work like that at least 4 days a week it has been a huge advantage this last year being part time at work my days off obviously arent my own as they used to be but i do get away from the phone and the demands of clients some of our clients are very selfish and i hadnt noticed before they seem to think they are the only ones that have hassles with defra i remember saying to one complaining about problems with licensing that he was lucky to have problems with only one licence the first day that movement licenses came out we applied for 26 and received the explanatory notes from defra on how to complete the paperwork 4 days later anyway managed to do three final visits and complete most of the paperwork before 9pm kirkby stephen was buzzing today the auction reopened for a cattle sale the main street was full of shiny farmers with fish and chips and the back lane was full of shiny some new land rovers and trailers trailers mostly new in fact mc told me that as soon as he heard his bloods had come back clear restocking he washed and changed and went to the mart he said it was the first time he had felt clean since the day they were infected he felt ok to go among other farmers he surprised me because he is so easy going he takes all in his stride but he still says fmd is not as terrible as testicular cancer and hes right ad was one of the other final visits he doesnt give a bugger about anything happy to become a flower power farmer he doesnt care much about his sheep as individuals they are just numbers just as well because in the batch he bought from wales the sheep have more legs than teeth i cant see them lasting long pissed off because i missed bryan adams concert in newcastle couldnt finish in time to join the bus the rest of the lassies had a brilliant time and at least tracey benefited from my ticket had to go back in to work the next day to finish my defra reports and fax them off went to playgroup to talk about pets took my dog lurcher and childs rabbit dodgy combination very few of the kids seemed to have pets of their own a lot of them referred to granddads dogs or uncles cat when i left college the pet population was increasing whats going to happen in the next 15 years sister phoned worried about her horse he has haematuria im worried that he has a tumour i feel very far away and helpless when things like this happen even though she only lives in yorkshire im sure i could help her whatever the outcome if we lived closer in fact i think i miss my family more now than i ever have i dont know if its my age or the thought that m is over 60 or that i didnt see them much at all last year or just because i have son now and can understand how mothers families feel i miss sisters but i still dont phone them much i always think theyll be busy i can talk to mam three or four times a week for half an hour at a time without thinking twice she must get fed up hearing me go on and on about work etc but she loves hearing all about every tiny detail of sons antics and achievements will broached the subject of a partnership again i dont know what to think its the obvious thing to do and a few years ago i would have taken his hand off for even 10 or 20 im just not as excited about it as i should be and what would change will i be better off will i be a better vet or will i spend too much time of figures and paperwork will i become more commercially aware do i want to change can i be bothered with the extra hassle they are ok they have a career and a wife im trying to do both sometimes badly diary 2 mondays are shite it starts off busy and gets worse why cant we do time management a bit better it did look as if we might finish around 630 at one stage in the afternoon then i was called out to a calf i didnt really need a visit at 6pm at night w said never mind youll be picking son up anyway the childminder lives on the next door farm he hasnt got a clue if i picked son up he would be at anges for about 8 hours i feel guilty enough that hes away for about 8 hours partner always picks him up about 530 and has to cope which he does well until i get home but its hard work for both of us after a full day at work and partner is usually knackered and ready for peace and quiet when he gets home not a tired hungry wee lad anyway i ended up having a farm tour that night farmer was so proud of his new pedigree belgian blues and his new shed hes been lucky to get most of his commercial stock from his father so he has an idea of their past history hes a nice lad and he was producing some stunning beef calves before he was taken out at least hes young enough to get going again he hasnt said much about loosing his stock so i havent asked i had a chat to his aunt one day and she was very upset and that upsets me i hate when people get emotional like that i start filling up myself i got back to find a sheep caesarean still to do waste of time premature lambs all born alive 3 and all dead before i finished stitching the uterus and to put the tin hat on the day my assistant was the mother who prattled about nothing much all the way through the op she does my head in she is a century away from me in her outlook but i still come away feeling that i am the one who has got it all wrong maybe i should have dinner on the table and shirts ironed etc i dont want to be like her though and i cant even sympathise with her even though they lost all their sheep im sure she must have taken it badly but i dont think she would ever let her feelings show in public something about the way she spoke suggested that she was forcing herself to put a brave face and look forward probably for her own sons sake watched rural lives again on tuesday cr came over well i though i couldnt help but snigger when the slaughter team were discussing one of our clients she made the kids carry away the dead piglets after theyd been slaughtered them team thought that was terrible but i knew the kids they all help on the farm they know that their pigs go to kill the family even started their own little slaughter house and cutting plant before fmd i dont think those kids would be horrified sad maybe we all felt sad over the last year sad for the healthy animals culled more sad for the people caught up in the mess one disease where the cure is worse mostly though i get angry when i hear or talk about fmd i get angry because defra let us all down the politicians got too closely involved nothing happened fast enough we didnt seem to be able to do anything we knew very little and struggled to get reliable information i still get wound up thinking about it all we were marginalised by defra i felt as if it was us and the farmers versus derfa not all three groups versus fmd the rumours that abounded just magnified the feelings we talked at length about fmd defra etc within the practice and with our clients but i could still talk about it all day even now so many things are unresolved i have lost faith in defra especially since they changed their name no a for agriculture now and im glad i have been ignorant of politics for so long there have been few shining lights in the government im heartily sick of authority interfering and regulating stuff thats going along quite nicely let them interfere with stuff thats doing harm bad farmers need a shake up sheep dealers need to think more about animal welfare but the way things are going the good guys that toe the line will end up following all the rules and regulations set up to sort out the bad guys and will they bother diary 3 possibly the best bit of the week was sunday when i eventually after 13 months got back on my horse only 15 minutes but it was nerve wracking i thought she might just throw me off and i was so tense actually we both were i felt as if i had forgotten how to ride i stayed in the field thinking it would be safer but the other two horses were flying about to annoy us im so frustrated that i havent been able to get her fit for the start of the endurance season theres no way wed be able to go to the first ride at ullswater and theres only one other in cumbria this year due to fmd who would have thought that we would still be curtailed by fmd more than a year on the young horse was very interested in saddle and bridle so i put them on him and he was ok at first he was frightened to move at all but then he realised it was ok on monday i had a strange request to go and hold an old pony for the knacker to shoot the owners just didnt want to be around it was a lovely morning so i led her out for a bite of grass before he arrived she could barely manage to breathe and swallow at the same time i cant believe how the tumours have taken hold of her since the turn of the year mr a couldnt tell his wife the diagnosis initially because she hadnt got over losing the few pedigree sheep they had its taking some people a long time to get over the loss i think its easier to get over losing an animal if you have more than one it helps to keep you focussed on the living rather than the dead and farmers havent been able to get restarted when they were ready to because of all the c d requirements anyway the knacker man told some good tales theres been some nutters about shooting animals some even had their guns taken off them poor lad was given a days notice at the knackey and was part of a slaughter team after that so he was only paid his normal wage which the boss collected at the defra rate for them all it was good talking to him probably because i dont really know him i didnt feel that i would upset him because he wasnt like a client who had lost animals sometimes its hard to know what to say if people get upset sometimes its enough to listen one of the most awkward situations i found myself in was talking to a farmer who lost no stock but he was so depressed he started crying the cows i had gone to see should have gone last year then we wouldnt have had these problems he also has been unable to sell sheep so the farm was completely overstocked overgrazed and had little silage left i couldnt understand why he was still overstocking when he could have sold sheep and cattle for restocking or for slaughter quite easily in the last few months maybe he just couldnt face the hassle of getting licences or maybe hes just too far down to think straight i usually mention that sort of thing to b and w because i think its important that everyone in the practice knows whats happening not just with out patients but also with our clients diary 4 i had the honour of completing the final final visit today and it was one of my neighbours in soulby no more surveillance visits poor lol couldnt find his defra paperwork and while he was looking through his files he found copies of his valuation report with all his old cows on i think it brought it all back hes trying hard to move on i could understand him being bitter since his whole very good milking herd was taken as a dc i think he may have survived because the infection was half a mile away from his cows but the ip land joined i watched them load all his cows into coal wagons on s saturday afternoon in fact it was midnight when the last de tox wagon left how can they be clean if i cant even get my wellies clean in the dark how hes worrying about his new cows coming from holland he thinks its a long way for them to travel but he cant wait for them to arrive unlike his wife who thinks that all this restocking is going too fast i felt apprehensive too about a fortnight ago but the feeling is subsiding the day to day normality of work is returning sheep are permitted to visit the surgery for treatment so we have had a much more normal march than wed had last year even though there are still thousands of sheep missing from the practice farmers are still bringing in lambs the value of stock is obviously not their prime concern where theres life theres hope we wouldnt see ewes or lambs at all if the cost of treatment versus the animals value was weighed i was worried that we would have a flare up around lambing time theres a chance that some of the fell sheep were exposed to fmd and theres a risk of virus recrudescence at times of stress so i was thinking that if we made it through lambing then wed definitely be ok the weather has cheered me up this week everybody smiles more when its sunny its tempting to think my days at home are holidays when the weathers so nice diary 5 i forgot about april fools day for the first time ever we were so busy at work and it was more of a bank holiday than anything else i do resent working bank holidays but monday is my day to be on call b did offer to do some of the day but he had a caesarean on a cow a lambing at 130 am and another call at 6 am so hed be knackered enough and they pay me for a days work so its only fair that i give a days work when the phone rang early tuesday and i felt as if id only been in bed 2 hours i was regretting not passing on the night duty a belgian blue calving caesarian mentally checked my kit in the car while driving to ks definitely caesarean they shouldnt breed from these cows until theyre more mature were getting loads of bother with the new stock never mind its proper veterinary work anyway the heifer was a right bag started off lying down so i doped her but she got up after we got the calf out and then tried to lye down on the wound peritonitis to follow no doubt i warned the farmer and we were all very calm about it maybe none of us were really awake so that made partner late for work as he was left holding the baby and i was well late setting off to see my sister sister sister didnt mind and partner s bosses said it was ok but i still felt guilty had a great time at sisters did a bit of touristy stuff and found a really nice book for mams birthday by mrs herdie who used to holiday near home mam has a watercolour by her but this book is all wildflowers other sister phoned to say horse is worse i think sister and i both wanted to go to yorkshire when we heard how upset she was sisters are so close being twins but i can understand what sister s going through with a horse on deaths door she didnt want us to go she said so we drank too much red wine instead and watched the start of papillon good film i was too knackered though my stamina gives out a lot sooner under the influence of alcohol mams birthday was a queer day its rare that i get the chance to spend time with any of my siblings at home and we had a lovely day apart from the fact that we were all waiting to hear what was going to happen with sister she phoned to say hed been put down bladder tumour i think it must be pretty rare she still said we shouldnt go down sister could have easily gone and mam because lynxes on school hols jammy teacher i stayed on till quite late because both my brother and stepfather wanted to see son he was so excited to see them sometimes he just makes us all laugh i had a depressing start to the day back at work just over a month ago i amputated a dogs leg the leg was fractured over 6 months ago appeared to heal and then suddenly worsen we suspected a bone infection but she didnt respond to treatment so i x rayed her again and it looked like a bone tumour she did well after the operation until last week when she developed a hard knobbly swelling near her shoulder and her lungs were infiltrated i felt so sad for her and the family she was a lovely placid and very brave dog and it is just so unfair i dont want to give up on these cases and i feel that euthanasia is a poor treatment in this case i so wanted her to have a couple more years i never would have put her or the family through a ghastly op like amputation if i had known that she would get so little benefit the farmers son who worked the dog until she retired was conspicuous by his absence hes rebuilding the milking parlour ready to restock so his sister did the honours and came to help me had to switch to party mode sons 2nd birthday the sandpit was a roaring success as was the trike and cake from grandma and granddad we had a super relaxing day mostly outdoors this weather makes life a lot easier i couldnt have coped with all those little boys inside escaped to the horses at asby to take water its so peaceful up there ive really missed being able to go up there this last year theres still yellow tape on my gate and i dont even have livestock i wonder who they defra thought the field belongs to should get out riding this next week with a bit of luck and a bit of spare time i think ill have to shelve the plans to show the arabs i havent got started soon enough diary 6 our new vet started this week bright young enthusiastic and full of new ideas i feel very out of touch i didnt go on any cpd courses last year for most of the year i felt as if we were unclean and i was so tired with working such long days it seemed too much hard work to organise extra childcare etc to allow me to go away for more than a day i feel out of touch generally though and a lot of it has to do with working part time big day on wednesday sons 1st morning at biggins nursery i think my new hobby is worrying am i doing the right thing setting off on new extra and expensive childcare arrangements i think i feel guilty because its for my benefit not for extra work its now going to cost me an extra 750 to ride my horse on a wednesday but i am starting to break horse in as well and i cant handle a 4 year old horse with a 2 year old boy around anyway the nursery seemed a big hit and i had my first ride out on ashby fell i actually went over the track to the dowly tree instead of on the road she the horse was quite anxious leading the other two and a bit excited to be out in the open space of the fell so was i there seems to be just one lot of fell sheep on there they must be hs i think nobody else has started to heft sheep up there yet the dowly tree will be looking sad and lonely for a bit longer i have missed being up on that fell so much margaret little asking if were going to the village hall quiz on friday probably not because were going out for a meal for partner s birthday felt guilty about not supporting village activities and started justifying myself to her i hate it though when people use fmd to make you feel bad she kept saying how few does there were last year how nice it is for all the village to get together etc all true but i cant get babysitters and nights off to do everything and partner is way more important than the village quiz he put up with such a lot of shite last year and never complained far too tolerant we had a lovely meal on the friday night son slept out at ts for the first time in ages but i couldnt have a lie in because of the judges course for the arab horse society i really enjoyed it it was arranged for last year but had to be postponed due to fmd it was worth waiting for and i couldnt have gone last year even if it had been on went to see sister and sisters boyfriend on sunday seemed to spend all day being fed shes like mam son took a real shine to sisters boyfriend which entertained us all she seems to be coping ok with horse s demise martin has cleaned up one of his shoes and mounted it with a plaque hes very thoughtful diary 7 i have decided that i am happy on dry days when i can ride or work my horses son and i can get outside to play and then hes happier and people who come into work are more smiley on good days too son and i went to a birthday party this week he had a brilliant time but i felt very out of place everybody else was immaculately dressed and made up while son and i had to rush back from having a bonfire to burn all the old hay in musgrave field to quickly wash and change id rather have carried on tidying up the field its still a real mess and at least i have the grass seed now it had better grow the price it was i was really pleased with horse on wednesday hes coming on quite nicely with his lunging now he seems to be quite amenable dental appointment on friday i hope my dentist never retires i dont think they make dentists that are more interested in people and their teeth than money any more i always have a good chat to him so we carried on our discussion about my working conditions comparing them to his sons etc hes a vet too he was quite surprised when i told him about the partnership talks last time i had a good heart to heart it was after the threatened redundancy its no wonder i feel confused about the future at times nearly 2 years ago when i was on maternity leave they thought they might have to make me redundant now they want to release a bit of capital and take things easier they want me to buy in this time last year i didnt know if partner or i would have a job now i have to decide to commit myself to at least 20 more years as a vet went out with girls from work to a 40th didnt really want to go but of course we had a great time once we got there i think i have got out of the habit of evenings out still cant get used to the freedom the mobile phone gives us and spend all the time checking that theres enough signal battery etc had a hell of a hangover too much draught coke hell its worse than cider diary 8 the shit is hitting the fan were having problems with some imported dutch heifers we were waiting for this especially on this particular farm the managements not the best and the father takes more advice from his feed merchant than us vets there is obviously a viral infection going through the heifers and farmer b presumed they were already vaccinated no documentation they are also showing signs of gastro intestinal upset which could be management oh hell why did he buy 80 first calvers nobody would willingly put themselves under that stress new vet is interested but b and w are obviously trying to keep their distance theyve been embroiled in herd problems on this farm before i am now obviously the senior vet in charge of this problem and im not even at work every day its too much for new vet to cope with and the farmer will get pissed off soon and i bet its us that catch the flak cheered myself up with 1 hours of r r with the horses on wednesday lovely day rode down onto the common but it was hard work as the other two horses were shouting for daisy all the time i was out on her horse decided that he would be bobbly when i worked him but im getting confident that i know how his mind works we had a bit of a stand off but i made sure it didnt turn into a battle and he did as he was asked in the end so we finished on a good note i think it will be quite satisfying bringing him on myself even though its going to take months at this rate some people work on young horses twice a day hes lucky if he gets trained twice a week work is really settling down now the lambing time rush has passed and were catching up on our tb testing for defra its a bit more taxing having to do such young animals in the restocked herds but most people are fairly well organised were not going to get some of the herds done before turn out i wonder if defra have any recommendations for catching wild limousin heifers in the middle of a field probably not they dont think that far ahead diary 9 i hate mondays again had supper at 1145 pm there was a problem with my mobile when i was on call i hate mobiles as well and i went to calve a cow one and a half hours after the first call came in i was so mad firstly because we dont make our clients wait that long for an emergency to become a disaster and second because ws wife has no idea about passing jobs on she should have got another vet to go since i was obviously busy but she just passed the message on to new vet to let her sort it out and ws wife gets paid for doing the phones anyway alls well live cow and a tremendous bull calf and one of the easiest caesareans i have done in ages b and w seem to forget that it is their business and reputation at stake ultimately the buck stops with them both of them seem to have had enough of business management and hassle to last a lifetime last year has done a lot of damage to a lot of people i know i am a lot less tolerant than i used to be this week started badly and improved farrier came and trimmed all 3 horses bollocked me because they hadnt been seen for over a year i did tidy them a bit myself though had a lovely afternoon at rheged with mam we started going when fmd was on because it was sort of neutral non agricultural ground we sat and chatted while son played in the soft play centre everybody happy unfortunately i went down with the worst dose of food poisoning i had ever had i was up all night went into work late i wouldnt have gone at all except i had a 2nd tb to test to do on a restocked farm and couldnt bear to start the whole thing again i recovered as the afternoon went on and even managed to dehorn 10 cows the thought of b sending fragile young new vet to help spurred me on a bit i was knackered when i finished took me another 2 days to recover horse doing well bridle and saddle on now looking grown up im quite proud of him he was so chilled out today i tried long reining him that confused him but he was very sensible norleen and i didnt go to the 1st date at the rochdale show i still didnt feel right and partner was going to fit the new fuel pump to my car but then he started to feel ill too what a waste of a saturday off made it to the show on sunday pretty good ridden classes and all the senior in hand classes we were laughing because were so out of practice there are two years worth of young stock that weve never seen due to babies in 2000 and fmd in 2001 we felt really out of touch there are a few imported stallions and mares that we havent seen before too we had a brilliant day diary 10 whats worse than working on call on mondays yes working bank holidays we hoped to shut at 12 ha ha i got home for lunch at 2pm b kindly took the phones for a couple of hours in the afternoon not long enough to go anywhere and i was back out working by tea time my car failed its mot because the back brake callipers were all gunged up the mechanic says its disinfectant that does it bloody defra i bet theres no chance of compensation for that it wouldnt be so bad if it was a practice car but now that im part time i have to paddle my own canoe all the local garage owners warned us last year that these things would happen what could we do we felt obliged to drive into all the voluntary disinfectant sites it doesnt look good if the local vets arent disinfecting my beautiful old audi god knows what other horrors are lurking where the fam has spilled in my boot etc hell it makes me mad all the destruction physical and mental and we had so little to say in any of it well my car spent the rest of the week in the garage so i used borrowed wheels went to do a wee talk at stainsmore pre school in partner s transit van very professional the children didnt care they just wanted to meet my dog son missed a birthday party on the saturday because i was still at work more guilt not that he knows he missed it lovely day on sunday with my horse went for a three hour ride over in county durham we trailed round arable fields and nice lanes all very different from here other horse was an absolute saint and did very well to have no shoes on she really did us proud diary 11 got my car back that cheered me up bad news about the imported heifers two more have died at least the pm exams and sampling are free because its a restocked herd farmer getting angry now at dutch farmers but taking it out on new vet very unfair shes spent hours checking over his cattle and taking samples didnt get my usual r r on wed absolutely piddling down started sorting out a few jobs that i have been avoiding the sort i used to do on wet sundays now will become wet wednesday jobs called in at work for coffee and ended up with a call for the afternoon very interesting job too went to sedate two horses for the dentist it was absolutely fascinating son has another 2nd cousin this week the family is really sprouting had a tough calving thursday night torsion of the uterus i can do these now i used to absolutely dread them unfortunately shed been on too long and the calf was born dead heifer fine though i hate going to that farm the farmer is a right old perverted slime ball and ill dance on his grave started with a real head cold h crap went to see mam and stewart son on top form its brilliant seeing him interact with my family he has really strengthened the bonds in our family son fevered at night starting with the same cold i presume no sleep for me partner never seems to hear all the commotion still felt ill on saturday sister and sister s birthday at least i remembered to post their cards in plenty of time this year went shopping for wallpaper on sunday to cheer me up partner went off pest controlling with his dogs they went up through tubbys wood they found nothing but at least the dogs had a good ratch he says he only now feels ok about walking across fields i didnt even realise that he still felt that he couldnt go round all his old haunts we must talk more diary 19 tb test cancelled on monday and thursday this week because the farmer cant cope with the extra hassle hes a bit of a woman at the best of times but hes been even worse since fmd w was very understanding he seems to have the farmers measure b didnt seem that understanding very upset on wednesday afternoon i had to put down my own terrier after he took off and chased the neighbours sheep for the second time i cant understand why he went so strange he used to be fine with stock i had a miserable afternoon waiting for partner to come home to bury him id had such a good morning with the horses too dizzy and horse were both going well i felt better once partner came home he said id done the right thing but i felt as though id failed somehow because it should never have happened in the first place maybe its because he had nothing to do last year no interesting walks no rabbiting etc i dont know diary 20 brilliant time tues wed went to my sisters with mam and son its much easier to keep in touch with my family post fmd i hardly went anywhere last year we went shopping to edinburgh mams looking for an outfit for my brothers wedding unsuccessfully so far ive just realised that i havent seen brother and wife on their farm since fmd broke out we must go soon its a brilliant place for recharging batteries and they are the best bit of my step family we didnt go to the cumberland show with the horses i havent got back into the swing of things yet i think it was a bit of a washout without the farming side and it rained i offered to be the biosecurity officer for our local show so that they could get things up and running properly they had money and trophies donated last year for new cattle classes and there would be real interest in fat cattle classes and young handler classes now defra the bastards managed to put the committee off diary 21 sprayed weeds in field only depressing day this week its never going to recover properly the landlord arrived when wed just finished the first half and said hed decided to reseed it in august after much discussion i persuaded him it would be a waste of time and money to put horses back on a newly seeded field over winter now im worried about what happens in spring will we be terminated or just moved to another field i wish id moved the horses at the usual time 1st april then we wouldnt have been caught up among ips and dcs something will sort out it always does dairy 22 excellent week off to malvern with friends for the national arabian horse show son went off to grannies for the holiday i had a marvellous time for three days watching the most beautiful horses and came back absolutely shattered diary 23 few probs at work with new assistant shes a bit whiney shes always bending the ear of the nearest receptionist and they are sick b has offered her a 12 month contract but whether or not shell accept it is another matter from what i can gather shes going to end up with better working conditions than me ws not too happy about it all but neither of them are willing to grasp the nettle theyve both backed off since last year they cant wait to get off home and i cant step in since theyve changed their minds about my partnership and im only part time good weekend lowther on saturday didnt see many of the usual faces the only thing that spoiled it was the mud we brought more than our fair share home with son and the pushchair no biosecurity pressure washer anywhere diary 24 the assistant on holiday for 2 weeks things seem more like old times the cages arent full of animals on drips im working extra days and enjoying it its tiring but good highlight of the week on thursday brough show there werent many farmers there but loads of horses and ponies instead of sheep much talk of defra regulations none complimentary it just wasnt the same without the sheep it felt flat i wonder what the gimmer lamb sales will be like diary 25 knackered dont think i could cope with full time work any more new vet still on holiday felt guilty about son being farmed out all week i managed to work myself up about our charity horse show on saturday i tried to hand over the organisation to three other folk and still ended up sorting out all the insurance and rosettes and they changed the date so i had less time to organise and it wasnt advertised it was the worst show weve ever had it takes as much time to organise it for the few as it does for the many i felt so disappointed i thought we would have a real good turnout this time after having to cancel last year oh well theres always next year ill need to make sure they dont change the date again and at least i might be able to take the horses next time decided to cheer myself up by taking other horse over to school her round the jumps on the sunday but i couldnt catch her she must have known so that just put the tin hat on the weekend diary 26 two trotting meetings this week i landed both of them and both nights on call another bank holiday with no time off and i had to take son to both because partner was grouse beating both meetings were quite relaxed but there was one nasty crash at appleby had a really nice day out at chatsworth game fair with helen and neil its the first time weve managed to visit them and it took hours to get there we were invited last year but the advert said they didnt want any cumbrians social outcasts as if we didnt feel like the armpit of british agriculture as it was i really enjoyed our day out i felt as if wed had a weekend away not just a day well have to think of some more trips its too easy just to stay at home we always have plenty to do dairy 27 its started again defra have found a new way to cock up our lives they have now complicated life with exemptions from the 20 day standstill including new stuff about isolation units the farmers have all been notified by post some havent read it some have read it and dont understand it farmers have to isolate new stock bought via auctions etc from any contact with other stock by 50 m outside or they can go on standstill but their neighbours can move stock from the next door field without a problem its mad i dont understand where they are coming from well i do sort of but as usual its badly thought out and we have to sell this idea to the farmers how will it be policed will it matter would it stop another massive outbreak it doesnt take much to wind everyone up again its not helped at work by b defending the defra line and w dissing it what will the clients think diary 28 crap week puncture on thursday during lunch hour struggled to get locking nuts off felt feckless god i have so little patience these days and i missed beva congress couldnt sort out childminding etc and the best days were friday and saturday there was no way i could go i was really disappointed nothing to do with fmd though i dont feel as if i get much encouragement from work they are ok about paying for cpd courses but they dont seem to make it easy to swap weekends etc theyre not bothered themselves so i suppose they dont understand all the different things you get from cpd diary 29 worked extra so new vet could go to sheep meeting at malvern pissed off it is not easy to do this job with a husband and a family to consider and i suppose the timing stinks since i missed my equine course last week the week improved considerably by thursday we went to guilford for an arab horse convention nothing to do with work but very enjoyable ive been waiting more than 10 years for this i hope i live long enough to go to the next one we talked to some men on the train unheard of in surrey apparently about cumbria farming fmd and foxhunting once we reassured them that newcastle was not in cumbria we had an interesting crack i hardly ever meet anyone that is not connected with farming and the countryside they really have no idea what its like i dont know anything about it either which is what their job is i end up feeling so frustrated that agriculture and therefore large animal practice is in such a precarious position it seems to me to be such a basic fundamental part of life compared to computers and yet the emphasis is not on basic stuff anymore surely we need things like agriculture and basic manufacturing to underpin everything else no wonder nobody was bothered about us suffering anxiety fear confusion last year when we were in the throes of fmd and the penrith spur was certainly under reported they wouldnt have had so many marches in london pre fmd diary 30 quite week still tired from last week loads of photos to develop again it was great saw horses id never seen before and got 2 great videos of long dead horses that appear in my horses pedigrees son was a bit off with me when i picked him up monday a bit unsettled with being away i suppose oh this job just interferes with a social life missed another wedding this week on call again diary 31 took a horse to penrith vets for an x ray they have a super new hospital just out of town seems really well set up they have a really good attitude to work and clients i think we need a shake up at work maybe new vet s way of working isnt too bad neil said they were million in the red at the height of fmd they must have been so worried none of us knew what wed be left with weve definitely got a lot of routine work because weve lost such a lot of dairy farms its never going to be the same again and im not good at accepting change diary 32 sad week one of our farmers sons was killed in an rta on the a66 he had only been married two years and was a real canny lad it shocked everyone and has certainly made me take stock they have restocked with fancy cattle from down south and these cattle may have contacted cattle with a variant virus from the usa so they were doing a whole herd test you could blame this on fmd if they hadnt lost their cattle they wouldnt have restocked and they wouldnt be testing the cattle or it wouldnt have happened if theyd stopped for an extra cup of tea a client brought me a copy of the cumbria enquiry that didnt half stir up some old feelings all the things i was so angry about last year were summed up in one phrase i read slack organisation the poor woman who brought the report has spent over 1000 treating her dog after it suffered chemical burns from fmd disinfectant on a road map it now reacts to phenolic compounds including sheep dip and fresh tar theyre moving to scotland i hope the dog has a better life there diary 33 funny old week everyone still shell shocked about farmers son s death no explanation as to how the lorry crashed into his tractor yet you begin to wonder how any family can cope with that sort of trauma b and w went to the huge funeral they said his parents were amazing they do have a strong faith but i cant see that being enough i went to the graveyard the next day to see the flowers and ended up in tears it was the messages on the cards especially the ones from his parents and brother and sister i felt so sad for them all went for a wee walk with tracey she knows him quite well and we talked a lot trying to make sense of it all then blow me on the thursday his father and brother were part of a syndicate at the tup sales that paid over 100000 for a swaledale tup i couldnt believe theyd even gone to the auction never mind doing something like that it doesnt seem right to me the others could have bought the tup for them i think thats awfully strange i had another upset farmers wife this week i went to see a downer cow shed got stuck in the cubicles we had to carry her to a straw box using the loader tractor and the wife got really upset seeing the cow swinging on the front of the tractor i felt a bit guilty really because i didnt think i just didnt connect the fmd slaughter with an injured cow but then i didnt see all that they saw when their herd went down diary 34 great week my brothers wedding son was a page boy in a kilt and he was quite well behaved apart from the second lot of photos he was well tired and hungry by then i love being home with my brother and sisters and their partners and its great the way they all have so much time for son we always laugh so much at the clan gatherings im sure its very therapeutic the amount of alcohol consumed by all at the wedding is definitely not therapeutic we set off on our holiday maybe our first family holiday the day after in the rain but it turned out ok later such a lot of good stuff in one week diary 35 had a lovely day it all worked out well we may try four or five days away next year now that weve got started again its years since we had a proper holiday i usually miss all the animals when im away but not this time i think son has more than filled that gap had bad news on wednesday partner s van failed its mot no transport no money for a new motor mild panic slight depression then the gradual return to my it will all work out somehow attitude and it did partner s mum and dad helped us out and i had to relinquish my little buy a new trailer fund had a disaster on sunday morning caesarean on an uncooperative cow she got up halfway through the op and pushed her rumen out onto the very dirty floor and she started to haemorrhage she died four hours later they ended up with an exceptional bull calf but a dead pedigree belgian blue cow i hate when things die on restocked farms i think they were quite philosophical about it but i went over and over the whole thing in my head b just said if theyre going to die its best they die soon less time to worry and everyone gets over it quicker too i think he may be right hes definitely easier to talk to these days hes like a different person now that jans left diary 36 busy week testing a restocked herd monday thursday which had travelled all of 5 miles to their new home a bit of a waste of time but it was a nice day to be out really good turnout at the village bonfire its a new tradition started in 2001 and it was the first village get together after fmd at the end of the week i headed south to cheshire and the salisbury plain with my friend ann and her horse to compete in the marathon what an awful journey we had the rain poured the traffic crawled im glad i dont have to use the m6 on a daily basis i really enjoyed my weekend away but we had to pull the horse out at the half way point she was so hyped that we couldnt get her heart rate down so she wasnt allowed to continue i felt really disappointed i was sure that she had a good chance well she would have if they had a vet check halfway through diary 37 a bit of an anticlimax this week after all the build up to the marathon it would have been so different if shed completed the course we had a better journey north except for a puncture not handy when you have a horse trailer on i drove most of the way back to anns saw all her horses and then drove home another 2 hours oh i was so pleased to get home it was a good experience though i dont think either of us would trail a horse all the way to salisbury plain for a two hour race again there were fmd cases near ann in cheshire that didnt seem to catch hold like they did in cumbria maybe its because there are bigger farms and more arable land i went to see her in july 2001 and she pointed out various fields that had been cleared of stock half of them didnt even have gates on there was no disinfectant or precautions visible and it was really starting to wipe out our practice at home it was unbelievable we were sitting in cumbria thinking that agriculture was doomed and everything in cheshire was carrying on as normal it was a rude awakening for me diary 38 more tb testing all day job testing stock that wouldnt normally be tested but theyre restocked they have come from cheshire though so that does increase the risk had a shocking migraine all day wednesday went to bed as soon as id dropped son off at biggins and didnt wake up until 5pm 2 hours after i should have collected him and i still felt awful it was terrible driving in the dark and i had to stop three times on the way home i went back to bed until 9pm and then was fine i havent had a migraine for ages i was back on top form the next day though we did the tb readings on 172 cattle before lunch cooking with gas diary 39 fed up with all this testing and we may be doing this for the next 4 5 months sick of new vet moaning at work i dont know what it would take to make her happy i think this week has nearly all been a waste of time i havent made best use of my free time and i havent been on top of my job at work diary 40 i was dreading this week because there were so many things to do i think i avoid adding extra to my schedule but this week i had 3 days away and a night out to cope with i really dont like the thought of shopping but managed to do some christmas present locating on friday spent wednesday with b which was better than i expected on a national scrapie plan training day which was worse than i expected bloody defra they dont have to do or say much to raise my hackles here we are selecting for a resistant genotype and they are spending all their time injecting bse into sheeps brains to challenge them how would that ever happen naturally nearly missed my night out because of work it was 10 pm before i got there but at least i didnt miss the dancing it turned into a really good night nearly everyone from work was there and j the ex receptionist we always have a good laugh ended up working most of the morning dont know if w was hung over or just idle but hell have to pay me for the hours i dont work extra out of the goodness of my heart now i have all my own overheads to fund new vet s the star for avoiding extra or dirty work then it usually falls to me she says she wants more large animal work and then does her best to avoid it diary 41 tired this week son came back from maviss full of cold improved a bit and then woke up screaming on tuesday night it was a very long night and partner wasnt even here t enjoy share it as hed left to fly to tampa at 5am that morning god i dont fancy being a single mum he soon started to improve after 24hrs on antibiotics ear and chest infection ive never seen him in such pain of course he was nearly better by the time partner got back i really struggled on my own and had to take a day off on thursday but still had to go and do a second tb test otherwise i would have had to start all over again we didnt have time to test them twice and its a restocked herd so we had to do them all its really hard trying to do the best for everyone diary 42 pretty good week until the weekend had a good night out for traceys birthday and i was really chuffed she invited son too he was well behaved too nut unfortunately now thinks he can go to the pub so we have to go out to meetings to avoid a tantrum i dont really think i have suffered many after effects from fmd except a lower anger threshold and a loss of faith in the powers that be im much more worried about some of our clients mental health i know there are several who have suffered severe depression and they are not all farmers that were culled out the sleepless nights were back with a vengeance son started with chickenpox at the weekend and nobody had any sleep diary 43 absolutely shattered somebody elses chickenpox is nearly as bad as your own i dont think i have had a full nights sleep for over a fortnight i still had a lovely time at christmas though i was sure that partner and son would be pleased with their presents son suddenly brightened dup on christmas eve on the way to mams and never broke stride after that he was son top form i was so tired that i fell asleep on saturday evening and missed the village hall christmas party the highlight of the village social calendar diary 44 the threat of tb rears its ugly head maybe tb is the new fmd went to do a private tb test for a farmer who has restocked and passed his restocking checks unfortunately he bought 3 heifers in november and the original farm has since gone down with tb he isolated the heifers as soon as he heard and waited for defra they didnt come so we did i hoped for the best and expected the worst one of the heifers reacted i didnt know what to do or say the farmers wife was really upset she wished they hadnt gone back into farming b the boss has phoned defra that morning regarding these heifers only to be told that youngstock dont pose much of a risk they dont seem to have much idea at all and dont have a clue about getting on with the job theyve had three weeks to track down the calves out of the cows that were reactors they seem to let us down just when we need them most oh they make me boil and we are going to have to cope with the aftermath again diary 45 felt a bit flat and tired this week the test i had this week was hard work trying to catch cows in cubicles is not fun we were all covered in muck at the end of it and the second day was worse because he had about 14 to rectal after the test wednesday my day of respite was taken up looking after tracey in bed with cold shes really down still and i cant seem to do anything to make her feel better i know shell come out of it eventually but its hard not being able to help i just didnt feel as if i had any time to myself this week and i really missed out if i start working wednesdays im going to miss it every week ill have to have another plan its a bit better at the weekend but i think we all need some better weather and i miss doing stuff with the horses diary 46 oh im mad again with defra i had to go back to the herd with the reactor and test every single bovine on the place except the two remaining heifers from the infected herd i dont understand why they cant just take out those heifers too the poor farmer and his wife will be on tender hooks until the end of march at the earliest if they hadnt asked for a private test goodness knows when defra would have got there while i was testing defra phoned the farmers wife to confirm that the slaughtered heifer had visible lesions so that puts paid to the theory that youngstock werent a danger hope this news makes them get a finger out had a lovely day with mam and son on tuesday we sat and talked for over an hour in the car park everything tested clear at the check test so far so good bad day on thursday the behaviour course i was enrolled on has been cancelled no explanation just a cheque returned to the practice with a wee note i was so disappointed even though it was going to be a lot of extra work over the next 10 months and extra hassle and extra childminding i think i could have coped then at lunchtime i bent my car door after stopping to help somebody stuck on an icy patch i havent got all the bits sorted that were knackered by fmd disinfecting yet and theres more repairs and i have to pay for it myself now that i dont have a practice car i was well fed up dairy 47 busy week tb testing again started working odd wednesdays this week so spent all day wednesday up the back end of suckler cows very dangerous taking bloods for brucellosis and then blood sampling swaledales for scrapie testing we have so many tests still to do but not many dreadfully out of date and i think weve done quite a lot of the restocking tests but its all quite mind numbing stuff not much clinical acumen required for getting blood out of cows just quick reactions to dodge shit and flying feet very late finished monday by the time i had all my paperwork done a a college friend landed tuesday en route to leeds for a herd health meeting 6 hours driving for a meeting we talked a bit about fmd she worked as a tvi towards the end of the outbreak they have a lot more trouble with tb up in aberdeenshire once it gets into a herd they struggle to get rid of it again i hope it doesnt get to be a huge problem round here collected a fair few bruises on thursday pregnant heifers to dehorn they should have been done in 2001 but of course the routine work was put off i dont know what the excuse was leaving them al through 2002 but they were massive anyway it saved me going to the gym on wednesday night diary 48 i have just handed in the latest batch of diaries and started a new session i have been thinking that f m doesnt really affect me much anymore our work has changed because of the restocking that has taken place since with all the new disease problems that have been bought in as additional extras and the extra tb testing etc but mentally i am not aware of even thinking about the events of 2001 that often i still feel upset if someone tells me about their own particular experiences which are often heart rending but probably no more than if they were discussing another devastating disease problem i still have little tolerance for the workings of defra even though they are providing us with lots of bread and butter work diary 51 im sick of doing caesareans on cows who encouraged all the bloody beef farmers to restock with belgian blues im not sure that we should be continuing to allow animals to breed that cant reproduce naturally it doesnt seem right that we should almost expect a caesarean the day that a new cow is put in calf we used to have occasional troubles before and not all caesareans are on belgian blues but now we do at least one caesarean every week b did two in one day and they are bloody hard work diary 52 i always think of the 23rd feb as being the day that i realised we might be in the shit in 2001 it wouldnt have passed unnoticed round here several people mentioned the date in the following week yet it wasnt until the 4th april that f m came into our practice loads of our farmers lost a lot of seep early on though because they were wintering away on dairy farms further down the eden valley this used to just involve the hoggs but now they are encouraged to leave the fells almost empty and are paid to remove even pregnant ewes to lower ground it seems ludicrous that on certain farms the fell sheep only spend summertime on the fells the rest of the time they are in bye land for tupping or lambing and then are wintered in sheep sheds or on dairy farms sometimes quite far away from home i did get quite upset when i read the stories in the book this time i think i had more empathy for the tourism businesses affected they must have been so frustrated and probably ended up much worse off that the affected farmers in our area the farmers who survived are the ones in general who are struggling for survival now and their farms have had no capital investment at all in fact some of the survivors are still very bitter about the whole episode its so sad what this has done to some people diary 55 check tb test at campbells went well finished in good time running into trouble because the other cows taken in for winter are calving and they have no room however they have found someone to take and slaughter all the big bullocks they are going to be moved under licence direct to a slaughter house so at least they will have some income the first this year everything tested clear including the 2 heifers brought in from the farm that had the reactor so they are feeling a little bit more confident diary 56 bloody defra cocked up again with cs test had to go back to test 11 baby calves how cruel had to go back to hs as well to test one inconclusive reactor all of them were ok diary 60 i think the lambing time rush is settling down again of course there arent quite as many fell sheep about as usual and probably wont be again if the payments are de coupled numbers wont be as profitable as acres
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           information about diarist date of birth 1964 gender f occupation group 6 geographic region north cumbria week beginning 4th march 02 monday 4th march we decided we now need more staff a new vet and a part time receptionist this could take us back up to our previous staffing level pre fm bar a vet but this was probably going to be all the recruitments we would make this year its a good sign as things begin to get back to normal work is increasing quite a lot now most of our farmers have restocked although a lot of them and us are still concerned about the future tuesday 5th march a difficult day today with licences two of our farmers needed sole occupancy authentitys soa and there were queries with their land unless some of their fields could be redefined they were worried their stock would suffer during the fm these worries have shown how much they care about their stock and find it very frustrating when they dont understand why we cant move them even to the point of anger and tears by the end of the day thankfully they were resolved with compromise on both sides and a lot of phone calls wednesday 6th march i decided to sort out all the paperwork and guidelines we had received from defra over the past twelve months it was quite a pile it was interesting looking back and very sad it makes you realise just how deep the feelings went and although it sounds silly its surprising how quickly those feelings can return over the smallest things anyway having done that it did feel good to box them up and put them away we got taken out for lunch with our ptizer rep and it was nice just to talk about usual things drug competition how much we were going to sell thursday 7th march very busy day everyone has been flat out all day started at 7am this morning got finished sort of by 730pm very tired hope we get a new vet soon we also had a suspect bse case today informed defra more problems with soa but we got them started one bit of good news i managed to get a new receptionist for 2 days a week so i just need one for the other 3 friday 8th march quite a good day no major hassles today and still getting busier had a staff meeting to arrange an open day for national pet week in may and sorted out a few other bits and bobs had a good chat with the staff who have all been very busy this week and decided that it is much better to this time last year when we were all very depressed emotionally drained laying off staff uncertain of the future at least now we are doing what we are meant to do saturday 9th march went shopping first thing with k had a good time even though im not a good shopper we went to the farmers market i saw heather who works at the auction and she said it had been quite emotional having sales again and the hustle and bustle but they were all happy to see people they hadnt seen for sometime met my mum in the afternoon in the snow at killington lake it was good and the driving was interesting sunday 10th march mothers day husband and daughter were out for the day so i had a lovely peaceful day doing not a lot daughter got me a funny card and a little hedgehog model for my collection in the evening i collected a vet student from london who is staying with us for 3 weeks so we will have to behave she seems nice and settled into our mad house easily mr w called in to let us know his cows had arrived safely week beginning 11th march 02 monday 11th march what a busy day but a total change to this time last year it was the day our first client was confirmed with f m i helped another vet do a caesarean on a cow that was fun they are farmers that have moved farm and restocked very positive one of our new receptionists started but i didnt get much chance to see her due to the caesar barbara looked after her well and she seemed to enjoy it there were lots of calls in just like the old days but we really need another vet the adverts in on thursday so fingers crossed tuesday another busy day and another caesar the calf was dead unfortunately the cow with query bse was taken away for tests which was sad my highlight of my day was the farm across from us turned some of his cows out again i call it my kitchen window view normally i can see sheep in the fields at the back and the cows across the road the sheep came back a couple of months ago and the cows but i havent actually been able to see them so it was very special never really stopped today and we did dog training classes at night so i collected daughter from her yfc meeting and got fish and chips and we all went to bed our poor vet student who is staying with us is exhausted shes been able to see and do so much wednesday today was a little more controlled and went more according to plan but was still a long day as we had a dog in about 630pm that had eaten a ball and hadnt passed it so we had to operate to remove it anyway finished at 900pm had tea and went to bed daughter heard she had got 2 weeks work experience at norbrook pharmaceutical so very pleased about that thursday had the morning off the last few days had been rather hectic a girl who had done work experience with us a couple of years ago called round out of the blue she was still keen to train as a vet nurse and wanted to write to the practices in the area and needed advice anyway i told her about our vacancy here and well the long and the short is she starts on the 2nd april receptionist staff now sorted just need a vet i wish it was as easy friday husband was reading a tt test at a farm and found a reactor pre f m cumbria was tb free but with all the new stock coming into the area it is inevitable that this will not be the case there have already been two other cases in the county i dropped off the isolation notice to the farmer and as they are he seemed okay and still very positive i have always admired them for their courage and stamina as he said they love farming and you have to expect things like this managed to spend the afternoon with one of our new receptionists she is doing really well and settling in time she will grasp it all in no time saturday ran daughter and her friend into town and sorted out the garage that was an achievement the dog that swallowed the ball wasnt eating so i went to get it something tasty its going home later so it should be a lot happier daughter s still in town so i took vet student to see hadrians wall shes from america so was very keen to see it she really enjoyed it and so did i i hadnt been for a couple of years just had a nice quiet evening in sunday my sister and her daughter came for the day my niece is two and a half years so need i say more we were busy playing all day week beginning monday 18th march 02 monday 18th march its looking fairly quiet at work this week but you never know mr w farmer came in he was letting us know his restocking plans and was one of the farmers querying his compensation i never liked that as they were compulsory purchased and have not received any compensation as such although some got better money than others so maybe it was all taken into account anyway he missed the query deadline by two hours so defra are refusing to look at his case as he does appear to have lost out as his brother with the same breeding of cows and related went down on the same down got an average 300 more per cow anyway we tried to look to the future and he was looking forward to getting stock back we had another tb reactor today in some french cattle me and our receptionist were chatting and decided things were really getting back to normal although with the added paperwork daughter was very upset when she came home from school as she had been getting bullied by a girl in her year so we chatted about that and i wrote to her teacher to see if she could find out more tuesday daughter went to school fairly happy i just told her to hand her letter in and try and avoid the girl i was going milk recording tonight which i really enjoy its great to be among the animals and talk to the farmers we only have one farmer milk recording fully at present there were 12 the farm i went to is a big dairy herd and is now looking to expanding so that was good news bad news is that means ill have to get up earlier in the mornings for the recording never mind daughter had got on okay at school and the teacher was really good with her so shes feeling happier she is a good kid and although hormonal at times she does put up with a lot during the fmd we were unable to really go anywhere or do anything although we did try to keep her routine we worked longer hours and were more stressed but she never complained and helped a lot went dog training after milk recording so it was a long day wednesday early morning start today 5am to go milk recording but i always get a lovely breakfast we also got invited to a party at the farm in may so thats something to look forward to and its fancy dress so that will be fun we have to dress up as childrens characters we then attended a careers convention at the sands centre until 7 pm so another very long day very tired we saw a lot of children who were interested in pursuing veterinary work which is always encouraging i enjoy doing the careers days its interesting to see the next workforce they seem to grow up so fast thursday my claim to fame today was seeing the princess royal i passed her at a junction and thought i was seeing things i bored everyone with that story we had a lovely staff lunch meeting we all helped cook and sat and chatted about the future we had no replies from the advert for a vet so we decided to try another veterinary magazine so fingers crossed in the afternoon i managed to get very well caught up on my paperwork which is a rarity as i normally end up going somewhere or sorting something out so i was very pleased especially as the year end is approaching friday discussed a few ideas with our nurse regarding the small animal side and the possibility of getting some new equipment i shall have to do some adding up husband was at a vet meeting locally for all the vets in the area on thursday night and there were 3 other practices looking for vets and had been doing for some time without any luck at all this is worrying as our case loads increase again it puts a strain on the vets so fingers crossed our advert is in tomorrow in the afternoon i called to see one of our evening receptionist who is on maternity leave at present it was good to see her and her new addition so i was filling her in on the news and gossip hopefully she will be back to work the second week in april although the birth was a caesarean so i have told her to see how she is feeling so we will discuss it again soon as this is her fourth child but she copes really well and is looking really healthy saturday it snowed i went to meet my mum at killington as we were having her dog while she went on holiday and nearly got stuck in the snow during foot and mouth daughter had counted the stock in the field between carlisle and penrith on the m6 anyway i did it again today last year we counted 2 this year we counted 12 big difference sunday went for a walk around a local wood for the first time in over a year it was amazing how overgrown it had become the paths were still visible but in places only just met up with a friends daughter to finalise arrangements for her fathers surprise meal out next friday for his 50th birthday week beginning monday 25th march 02 monday 25th march another very busy day today still no answer to the advert for a new vet husband spoke to another vet in the area and they had had the same response nothing it is good to be busy again our new receptionist is doing well and learning fast so thats taking the pressure off me and other receptioinist completed the claim form for business link grant which helped a lot and enabled us to do things and advertise when we wouldnt have been able to tuesday starting to prepare for the end of our financial year i always dread this but it has to be done it will be nice to end another chapter the practice suffered badly last year and it was very worrying we lost 3 vets and two lay staff but everyone is feeling the same i have spoken to a few farmers today and the opinion is well it is a lot better than this time last year it has been interesting to see how the effect of having new stock does throw them we are getting called out a lot more which is good for us we are doing a lot more lambings and lambing is set to go on until may june time this year we are very busy testing at the moment but it gives us the opportunity to see the new animals and discuss plans with the farmers the relationship which was built during the f m is now definitely benefiting a lot have said how helpful it was and feel a lot closer the family not business relationship is good wednesday i had a day off today which was good i managed to catch up on a few things which i just hadnt had time to do with being so busy i got a lot organised for the holiday at the week end which we are all looking forward to but we cant all get away together mainly due to no new vet and our financial year but at least we will all get a bit of a break daughter got her report today and has done very well we are so proud of her so fingers crossed for her gcses thursday i spoke to mrs w today who has been very much in action since they got f m and even got in touch with politician etc to help give farmers that voice she mentioned the public inquiry and like a lot of people feels that maybe rather than having a finger pointing blaming session and we all have our ideas on that she felt that maybe trying to prevent it happening again would be a better idea i personally have begun to realize recently just how much and how deep the feelings run i think i am more emotional now than when we were in the thick of it friday spent all day knuckling down to the end of year but got a lot done husband daughter and vet student went out for the day it is husband s first real day off since october and it did him good we all went out in the evening to celebrate a friends birthday it was really good saturday holiday again today husband daughter my sister and her daughter have gone away today to the cottage near newton stewart we have rented for a week the weather is great so they should have a lovely time this could be our only holiday this year husband s back on monday then i go on wednesday confusing isnt it never mind at least we will all get away for a few days sunday end of year day stocktaking counting sunny outside boring but never mind its done our vet student went home today she had really enjoyed herself and we had enjoyed having her she bought us all some lovely gifts it will be nice to be on our own again but i will still miss her week beginning monday 1st april 02 monday 1st april i had a lovely day my day husband and daughter still away played in the garden went for a walk read some of my book lovely husband came back at tea time so we went out for a meal perfect tuesday went to help another vet vet tt test at one of our farms he had restocked and was very positive about the future it was a lovely day and great to be amongst cows again wednesday sunday hols great i didnt realise just how much i needed it the weather was great warm sunny very relaxing all charged up again week beginning monday 8th april 02 monday 8th april back to work today i had quite a lot of catching up to do and couldnt really get into it never mind it will all still be there tomorrow hope we can get away again this year even for a few days tuesday queen mums funeral today it was very quiet we gave the girls time off to watch the funeral it was a nice funeral if you can have one and they commented on the poem which was read about being thankful for the life and not being sorry i must get it our nurse suggested about giving it to clients when they have their pets put to sleep nice idea wednesday back into it now i had 2 very difficult soa to complete farmers are slowly getting the idea but find all the paperwork hard but its a good chance for them to call in for a chat and coffee i so seem to spend an awful lot of time doing that now but its always good to see how they are coping thursday the large animal work has been rapidly increasing and it has been putting extra pressure on all the staff we do really need another vet but another advert and still no response at all but they all work very hard and we do manage to get through the work we chatted to the staff and tried to reassure them about the future but how can you when if we cant get another vet we simply cant provide the service our clients need it is very worrying and we are not sure of the solution or the future i think after that paragraph i need a we can do it kick friday our new receptionists are settling in well and i did some work with them today which was good they are both very enthusiastic a few years ago a i taught nvq in animal care so one of our receptionists is keen to do this so i organised some work for her to do enjoyed that castrated a colt in the afternoon sad i know but i enjoyed that saturday went shopping with daughter in the morning to buy her some new clothes we had a good time then started the sewing for the yfc field day we had to make shorts and t shirt for a sport event well i havent really done sewing from a pattern for years so lets just say it was fun sunday went to newcastle for the day via some fields we had to check for a clients soa had a lovely time and saw the blinking or winking im not sure which one it is it was nice to have a day all together week beginning monday 15th april 02 monday 15th april very busy again i did 175 miles today just dropping things off for farmers and vets and trips to the lab i also found a new supplier of paper towels which will save us a lot of money see so easy pleased it was very tiring but i do like being out and about and i even managed two cups of coffee on farms before fmd i felt that the relationship between vets and farmers was changing but our relationship during fmd did change for the better i feel good about that but not the way it happened me and daughter had a girls night in as husband was away that was fun tuesday 16th april husband away at bcva he is new on the committee and seems to be enjoying it there is only him and another vet in scotland from the north invited onto the committee so they are putting together some suggestions to put to the government re fmd poor another vet was very busy again we need a vet wednesday 17th april i went to see an elderly client of ours this morning who has an old dog she is going into hospital and wont go as she is worried about the dog i offered to have kelly the dog while she was in hospital and told her if i found out she cancelled it i would be cross i enjoy talking to her for her 87 years she is very fit and funny at lunchtime we all attacked the bayer rep for free goodies for our open day he was very co operative and got away without a scratch we didnt have an open day last year so it should be fun back into a routine thursday 18th april i bottomed my paperwork this morning no interference no phone calls no soa very productive me and husband went to see the finical advisor at the bank in the afternoon it was good but we cant retire this year never mind he gave us some good ideas so fingers crossed we might just be able to retire one day friday 19th april very busy we need a vet repetitive isnt it we were looking back in the visit book to this time last year this year we had 21 calls which is a practise record last year we had 1 there is a lot of general well this time last year in some ways it all seems very unbelievable but in other ways it still very sad and emotional i think more emotional now than when it was actually happening when you see farmers eyes filling up talking about it i used to worry about upsetting them but i feel it is good to talk and it also helps me i dont know if thats right but it seems to work saturday 20th and sunday 21st april huge sewing for yfc field day i also found out today that there is also baking and flower arranging oh joy week beginning monday 22nd april 02 monday 22nd april good day today ive been to see my new girls the cows over the road from us it was the one we could see from the practice it was an awful day they had lasted until june anyway it was good to see the new girls and i think i amused the farmer we had a great time ive never enjoyed helping tt test more on a high tuesday 23rd april driving around today ive been trying to listen to what the euro inquiry people have been up to not a lot from what i hear i was talking to an old farmer in the afternoon and he wasnt impressed either and we agreed that it was all very well having these inquires but were they going to help i suppose only time will tell but i still feel that unless something is done about the cause then the chances are it will happen again and to what extent and what has been learnt and what will be different next time because the one thing that must be prevented is the effects on people nobody really got that i always remember the samaritans advert nobody seemed to care probably no paperwork can you tell ive had a particularly bad day with the soa and the good news is they want to keep them permanently great wednesday 24th april i went to see mrs b again today and she had heard from the hospital again she was going in next tuesday so i arranged at collect k on monday afternoon im pleased shes having her op i have also been in touch with one of her daughters in devon so hopefully everything should go well now good news we have heard of a vet at defra who is looking for a job husband phoned her and she is coming on saturday afternoon so fingers crossed thursday 25th april my cows got the tt reading this morning and they are all okay we have heard of a farm in welton who had to have some killed as they had 7 reactors and they will need tested there has been quite a few reactors in the country after restocking but with all the new stock coming into the county from all over the country it was bound to happen friday 26th april sorted out the open day next saturday got everything sorted what we need whos getting it etc me and receptionist went to smuts fancy dress and decided budget wouldnt go to costumes so we got some face paint and masks me and daughter and her friend and mum went to see westlife ant newcastle it was great fun saturday 27th april shopping washing and sewing i know how to show myself a good time we all went to another vet s at night for a bbq it was great fun cold but fun we have been so lucky with another vet she is so nice and enthusiastic we interviewed a vet today from defra but she is a little uncertain what she wants to do but she seems nice and we told her what we needed so fingers crossed sunday 28th april finished my sewing week beginning monday 29th april monday the inquiry begins for what good it will do i find i have very mixed feelings part of me thinks whats the point and another is expecting something but quite what i dont yet someone to blame a solution an ability to turn back the clock a lesson to learn or an end the last i know wont happen for a while and the repercussion will probably be felt for a few years yet tuesday 30th april sorry ill in bed today with the cold from hell wednesday 1st may much better today and we heard from the vet we interviewed on saturday and she has accepted our offer and can start on the 27th may yippee holidays and easing of the pressure on husband and another vet i am still finding the saying well this time last year mrs r phoned and mentioned the saying as it was a year ago today that their cattle were killed but she was phoning with good news they had their first calf born healthy and well and she wanted to tell us lovely thursday 2nd may its official soa are here to stay oh joy so we contacted all our farmers who had not yet got one who we thought might need one so lots of chatting and catching up so quite nice open day is on saturday and there still seems to be an awful lot to organise but we have been busy all day and things are looking better and slightly more organised i havent seen or heard much of this enquiry but when you do hear some i think we really went through that weird friday 3rd may open day panic thats all ive done today but it is all coming together and it will be fine hopefully we have had quite a good response about people coming and people checking when it is and whats happening so fingers crossed must go and bake my buns saturday 4th may open day it went really well we started at 2 pm and there was a steady stream of people all enjoying themselves hopefully it stayed fine the whole time thankfully i even got my face painted by another vet our vet we managed to raise 9671 for the pat dogs and 2735 for national pet week not too bad for 2 hours the staff came round for tea later which was nice and we had a jolly time sunday 5th may gardened all day till i dropped loved it i grew quite fond of the garden last year as it was another little escape week beginning monday 6th may monday 6th may bank holiday we had a lovely family day out which have been very rare so it was surprising that we all got on nearly it still feels strange being able to go to places not only as a family but also the fact that for so long we didnt really go anywhere tuesday 7th may very busy i have been doing my hollering as receptionist calls it what i have actually been doing is dropping off drugs and chatting i call it customer relations i still feel funny going onto farms i have been to the gate for months just momentarily i feel can i its hard to explain it still feels normal to drop things in the bucket or bin rather than driving onto the farm but its good and the coffee with proper milk is brill wednesday 8th may mr g has got some cows he was one we thought wouldnt restock as although both his sons are on the farm neither are interested in cows one has horses and the other has everything else from turkeys dogs wallabies monkeys pheasants etc a real menagerie daddy g is 66 and couldnt decide weather to get more cows or not it was a bit of dad says yes sons say no anyway dad won to begin with i was on the sons side but when he came in beaming and laughing and full of joy how could you disagree with him before they got fmd he had called into the practise and was having a coffee and was very upset his friend had phoned him that morning to say he had fmd mr g just broke down and sobbed it was one of my worst experiences i found it so hard not to join him but to be strong and console him for him of the old gentlemen showed the depth of feeling and despair that was around i have a lump now remembering it anyway in comparison if getting a few cows to milk can make such a big difference and be so happy so what thursday 9th may went to a meeting in preston with cl a vet from brampton on the marsh report which is regarding vets the privilege to dispense drugs anyway firstly we got lost very lost and then on arriving at the meeting eventually it was all doom gloom and depressing just when you thought things were getting on tract bam more changes more paperwork we will have to wait and see just how it effects us but effect us it will friday 10th may i had a half day off today and did fun things like washing shopping and sorting bits and pieces but i couldnt be a housewife all the time i ended up leaving the cooking and washing and took the dog out instead much more fun saturday 11th may took daughter out to the young farmers field day it was brill i was only going to stay an hour anyway i stayed all day everyone was there some i hadnt seen for ages i had only spoke to them and some new faces it was great to see them all together i do feel farmers and their families are very special people they have a wonderful sense of fun they are very solid they are very close mind when you talk to them you find they are all related they are also very proud of what they do its sad the public do not see them this way gone are the days when the farmer was the hero who worked all hours to feed the nation well it was a wonderful day week beginning monday 13th may monday very busy milk recorded this afternoon it was good fun they are preparing for their party on saturday night it is a fancy dress party me and husband are going but i cant say what as yet j mentioned that a friend of theirs was still not speaking to them because j never lost his cows and yet j said he had tries to explain how hard it was for them waiting his friend had accepted the invite to the party so heres hopefully to friendship it shows how feelings can so easily run away and be blown into something very silly we are all on the same side after all i see a lot of changes in a lot of people either bitterness resentment jealousy and emotionally drained in the whole situation tuesday 14th may early morning milk recording got my outfit sorted for the fancy dress party on saturday me and friend went to try it on it was good fun wednesday 15th may i have done tons of backwards and forwarding today so ive been hearing about the inquiry a bit today i have decided i am going to the one in carlisle out of interest and curiosity i still feel what is it all for so i may find out at the meeting i am still waiting for the day fmd is not mentioned or i have some dealing regarding it thursday 16th may i spoke to a young couple who farm and they were enquiring about the changes in buying drugs it caught me off guard as we knew it would happen but not when i arranged to meet with them and chat to see what they wanted and i think i will go from there people are farming in different ways than they used to pre fmd weather it is a result of fmd or not i dont know but there are going to be a lot of changes heading our way friday 17th may accountant day today what a joy no he is brilliant he has helped so much over the years and last year he was brilliant he did have one consolation we wouldnt have to pay too much tax this year anyway spoke to a rep in the afternoon we have had all the usual offers that we get every year but this year they look good as if we buy more this year than last year we can get more off that should be easy saturday 18th may party night i am cruella deville and husband is bob the builder it was great seeing people we hadnt seen for ages if and when you could recognise them it was a really good do we met a client of ours and she is very anti everything re fmd i feel she is really suffering and very bitter she was little bo peep who had lost her sheep and didnt know where to find them but mr blair can she preached all night to anyone she could i feel sorry for her as people were avoiding her sad sunday 19th may recovered week beginning monday 20th may 02 monday a new cattle fertility programme has now become available to vets and farmers two of the people who work came along to see us and discuss the advantages we already had a few farmers keen in having the program installed we discussed the program later with a few farmers and they were very keen recognising that they are going to need a program like this that can help them keep a tighter control on their herds fertility and health which would enable them to remain in business as most of them are realising they are now running a company not a family concern so its quite exciting another step forward hopefully tuesday 21st may very busy today everyone stretched it will make life so much easier when our new vet anne starts next week i got caught up on my paperwork and also managed to catch up on some others bits that needed done even got all the soa defra paperwork sorted miracle wednesday 22nd may went to see two of our farmers today to discuss the interherd cattle health and fertility computer program it was good to chat a listen to their plans hopes and dreams and their concerns a lot of farmers are still very unsure of the future and quite honestly are keeping their options open definitely gave me some pause for thought and a few concerns thursday 23rd may quiet day today mr w one of our farmers came today and we had a chat he was also worried about the future i hope some good positive news comes soon friday 24th may friend is having a few weeks off as our new vet is starting on monday she came to us 6 months 10 years ago and she has helped us out ever since and so during fmd she offered to help it was great to have her and she worked all hours as there was only her and husband for 5 months so she is having some well deserved time off and will come back part time when we need her ill miss her but she says shes a lot of housework to catch up on saturday 25th and sunday 26th may my sister and niece came to stay for the weekend we had a nice time just pottering here and there week beginning monday 27h may monday new vet started she was very nervous but very keen she had spent 10 months working for defra and was relieved to be finished with it she had mainly been involved with re stocking anyway she managed very well and hopefully will settle well tuesday 28th may we booked a holiday today our 1st holiday for about 25 years so we are all very excited we are going on a barge near chester so hopefully the weather will be good it will be nice to go away together especially after last year i think we all need it you do get used to staying at home but with all the trouble and upset last year it will be nice cant wait wednesday 29th may had a lovely day ended up doing lots of visiting around the farms dropping drugs off and seeing another farm regarding the interherd program i went to a large dairy farm and they are a young couple who are keen and enthusiastic about their future so it was very positive and encouraging it does give you a lift and helps put things back on track thursday 30th may we had a farmers coffee morning not planned they appeared at once so it was quite nice its quite interesting when you hear them together there were two elderly and one younger one and their opinions hopes thoughts and experiences were very different friday 31st may another mega paperwork day exciting played in the garden this afternoon and walked the dog saturday 1st and sunday 2nd june had a weekend off together we went visiting and walking very nice week beginning 3rd june monday my sister and her daughter came to visit we went into carlisle but nothing very exciting the weather was very disappointing for all the organised events we went to a couple and got wet daughter and niece got some jubilee mugs at one of them wednesday i ended up helping our new vet and new nurse to operate so that was good i dont get much chance to help in the op room these days so i enjoyed it thoroughly new vet is doing very well shes only been qualified 3 years and up to now has not done much small animal so i was worried she would not like it but she seems to be enjoying it thoroughly and has settled in really well it seems like she has been here for ages thursday we had our first work experience from a school for 2 years she was very interested in the fmd and said they had done a bit on it at school so i went through a few of the details and we discussed the human side which she hadnt really been discussed at school to finish i had 4 soa to do as well such joy friday i foolishly decided to decorate the surgery and op room you know when you think you have a good idea then realise you have bitten off more than you can chew well by sunday night i was dead i got it all done and it did look better as nothing had been done last year but boy was i tired week beginning 10th june monday our new interherd disc arrived so i went and installed it on two farms they were very keen to get started so its quite exciting they both have young sons who are keen to farm also so that helps sometimes i fee if we can just get through this and then other times i feel whats the point but down the middle of the road we have to try and make it work and fight to make it work tuesday 11th june quite busy today but daughter had her brace taken off today so we had two visits to the hospital she looks different without her brace now wednesday 12th june had a day off today peaceful thursday 13th june nmr came to see us to discuss how they can work with us the interherd and the farmer it was interesting and competitively priced so that is now another service we can offer to our farmers which can only help long term i went to see another farmer to enter the interherd there is a lot of interest we are trying to maintain a close contact with our farmers to enable us to meet their needs as things progress in the near future there are going to be a lot of changes regarding the dispensing of drugs which could alter the way we work this should be finalised by january 2003 but until then we are not sure just how they will affect us friday 14th saturday 15th and sunday 16th june husband birthday so i have organised a surprise weekend away for him we had a wonderful time and thankfully the weather was good week beginning 17th june monday very quiet almost like last year but thankfully not for the same reason they are all busy silaging normality is returning but they are still finding it difficult with new herds not really knowing their new cows yet or how they react one farmer said it was like a new car you have to drive it a good few miles before you are at ease and the seat is comfy well thats one way of putting it tuesday i went to see mr j to discuss our new interherd program a computer program that they can keep records of all their herds records and we can do analysis on them its quite exciting and interesting and shows farming is heading to the computer age and the farmers are learning another new skill not sure they are all comfy with after i had shown mr j the program and how to use it he was keen but said that for now he would maybe go and cut down a few thistles weds thursday very quiet did some catching up on paperwork then went for a walk and played outside in the garden friday query fmd in pigs the effect it had was very strange part was horror worry and another strange one was of expecting it although you did get on with everything and its all sorting out and normality is returning its as if you are waiting for it to appear again i went back to watching the news listening to the radio waiting fingers crossed sad day sat sun quiet weekend husband was working no results on the pigs yet the bush telegraph is working again we have had quite a number of worried farmers on the phone but no results as yet week beginning 24th june monday breakthrough no fmd talk at all today i suddenly realised in the evening all is getting back to normal and everyone is coming to terms with the paperwork farming does what it always has recently fallen from one disaster to another but they are very proud of their trade but do now feel let down by both the government and the public who for whatever reason dont seem to have the same respect for farmers as they used to but this just may be due to how we all are and work these days tuesday pigs given the all clear everyone breathes a sigh of relief it has a very chilling effect but again shows we are still clear of the disease for now weds over the last few days we have had 6 dairy herds with very strange mastitis husband has been out to visit them with a vet from vla penrith but they as yet have not established a cause samples show nothing and usual treatments dont work so it is a case of new herds new problems thursday day off and friday sat sun had my niece we had a lovely time but very exhausting week beginning 1st july monday we have invested the new interherd computer programme mon thurs this week i have been out and about visiting farmers loading and explaining the new programme some of which i havent been too far over a year its good to see them and chat fmd of course is always still at the top of the list followed by the milk price and all the regulations its so amazing and sorrowful to see how deep the emotions run the stories and feelings they have are still very strong but all are very emotional they are very resilient but do still have these deep feelings you wonder how the effects will come out but it will take time friday i did a soa for the first time in ages i had to look back as to how to fill it in they are going to review these shortly so watch this space all the regulations are up for review in about november so we will see what they come up with sunday we have a vet student alison for two weeks staying with us she came to northumberland during fmd so was interested to know what had happened and where everything was at the more you go through it the easier it becomes she had been involved in the culling and had found it very hard she did it for 1 month and was glad to leave week beginning 8th july monday tuesday i went milk recording the farm i go to did not get fmd and they were saying how hard it had been for them and to some extent they did have as hard a time as people with fmd just in different ways they had to do the checking for longer the farmer said he used to dread going into the sheds in a morning as he dreaded what he might find also washing the milk takers not being able to visit friends and family all the regulations re moving stock just the not knowing they said it put quite a strain on them all one of the ways they coped was they built a tennis court and played a lot of other games and as a family this brought them closer weds interherd day we held a meeting today to invite all the farmers interested in using the programme the people who wrote the programme came along to talk to the farmers it was very good and the farmers seemed to enjoy themselves they have all found they are needing this sort of programme as with the new herds they are unsure of how their fertilities are thurs fri visited mr w and mr j re interherd got a proper cup of coffee and proper milk thats what i missed about last year and one of the reasons i go to visit them sat sun very busy small animal operated and nursed all week end i was shattered poor me week beginning 15th july monday visited farmer re interherd programme they are very positive about the future and have a son who is very keen i can see a difference in their attitude over the past few months when i first started going they were unsure they had done the right thing and had seriously debated getting any stock back if they could cope with the changes and the regulations and paperwork but as he said he just loves farming not that he doesnt know anything else he just loves farming and now they have progressed and working together within the family they have a good system and appear to be enjoying themselves the farm has been in the family for generations so financially they can manage i hope they make it they are lovely people and a real inspiration the report on fmd and the recommendations is to be published soon but from what we have heard so far it doesnt say anything we didnt already know and the recommendations are a little sketchy to say the least they need a good sensible positive protocol for any future outbreak and at present if it all flared up again tomorrow it would be the same mess what have we learnt hopefully time will tell tuesday sad news today one of our clients who didnt get fmd has decided to give up he is on a tenanted farm the owners are not keen on any expansion or even repairing old buildings to remain competitive he sees he needs more cows but cant build any more sheds so in his words he has decided that there is maybe more to life he is in his mid forties so he is going to sell up and try something new very brave but sad i think this will not be the first of our clients to do this everyone asks about the future and at the moment nothing and nobody is certain can the smaller farmers keep up will the bigger ones get bigger what new regulations and paperwork will be brought in only time will tell weds husband has been away at the br cattle vet ass bcva committee meeting he has been on the committee for about 18 months now he enjoys it and it is another feather in his cap anyway he gave a talk on the problems post fmd and on the problems farmers were and had experienced he also gave a talk on some of the mastitis cases that had appeared in new herds we have had some very strange mastitis cases this year anyway there was a competition for the best talk and husband won i was very proud of him none of the other vets there had ever seen anything like it but some had found more bad mastitis in cows this year so whether its the change of area weather or housing we shall see thursday i had a visiting day today good fun i went t see the farmers who have the interherd so i had lots of coffee with proper milk yummy its also interesting to hear all the different stories and feelings hopes and worries there are so many most are ready for the challenge ahead but unfortunately some arent nobody knows how or when things will change but over the next couple of years they will some good some not so good byee im off on my hols now yippee holiday week beginning 22nd july week beginning monday 29th july tuesday back to work the staff have coped really well no falling out no problems its the first time in nearly two years we have left them so it was a bit worrying but they are a great bunch we are very lucky i feel so relaxed and it was great fun seeing through all my paperwork not i had a bit of a lazy day but good weds poor mr g is having a terrible time with defra when we did his restocking tt test he had a reactor so the cow was slaughtered but no lesions were found the herd had to be tested again 60 days later and another reactor was found and slaughtered anyway he was due another test in 60 days and this was arranged for 900am 900am came and went and at 1000am he phoned to see what was happening they had forgotten they could come out at 1pm no good the last two times they had tested it had taken 6 hours to test the cows and they still needed milked which would mean a very late finish mr graves explained this and was told not to complain he had bought the cows into the country with tb and he would have to do it when they said they know how to get people on their side dont they anyway a heated discussion had pursued and eventually sense was seen the test was rearranged for another day at 900am so fingers crossed thursday we got money through today from the fmd recovery fund it has been very useful and enabled us to do things we wouldnt normally be able to do we had our vans sign written we got a laptop computer which had been great for the interherd programme we got pens and pads to give out husband was able to hold meetings with our farmers pre stocking to advise them what to look for etc so it has been extremely useful it was nice to be given the money some people say it would have been spent elsewhere but it helped us immensely and we feel we have spent it wisely fri had a paperwork catch up day today it has been quiet recently due to holidays and harvesting but thankfully not like last year we looked back again and today last year we had no calls and today we had four so although quiet not that bad week beginning monday 5th august monday very quiet tuesday very quiet weds very quiet thursday daughter got her first job fri took daughter to my sisters for the week end sat quiet week end sun gardening going on holiday again next week yippee sorry its been very quiet this week as mentioned before this is usual as everyone is on holiday and the farmers are harvesting i have caught up and have been enjoying a few days just poddling going out with daughter shopping food its nice to have some catch up time on thursday daughter got a job her first proper job well nearly at the travel inn at the bottom of our road she is so excited and already planning what she is going to spend her hard earned cash on on friday i took daughter to my sisters in lancashire for the week end i came back on friday night and we decided to meet up at husband s mum and dads caravan near whitby on monday for a week so another holiday i dont know you have one and then another anyway it should be good fun holiday week beginning monday 12thth august week beginning monday 19thth august monday visited mr a today to load interherd onto his computer he has definitely decided to sell up he is hoping by early next year this has all been very sudden but his son is no longer interested and as mr a said who can blame him with all the new regulations and paperwork a lot are finding it hard tuesday we had an environment agency visit this morning to check how and where we dispose of our waste in practice thankfully we are doing everything properly but this visit took two and a half hours and lots of form filling in it is they that check these things but the extent in questionable mr g called in the afternoon he is having problems with his cows they keep going off colour we have so many new herds that started of doing well happy and settling in fine then about 3 4 months after they arrived they start being ill have mastitis off colour not eating not milking properly a wide variety its very strange the vets dont really know whats happening we have a few on regular blood sampling trying to find any changes weds me and husband went to the accountant to see just how bad financially we really had done last year and oh what a surprise it was bad in fact we nearly qualified for childrens tax relief the main thing is we survived in a fashion hopefully it will be better next year thursday i visited two farmers today on the interherd they are finding it brilliant they have both recently had farm assurance visits and interherd had helped them enormously and helped them reach the standards they both appreciate how much easier it is for them and less paperwork heaven its so good to find something to help them fri i have been phoning our main drug companys reps inviting them to our open evening all very keen i think they just enjoy the crack week beginning monday 26th august very quiet this week on both large and small animal it must be the last holiday rush before going back to school we managed to do some catching up and decided a four day week would be nice i did quite a bit of playing on interherd so that when i visited farmers about it i knew what they want to see and where to find it most of them are interested in the medicines book as this keeps excellent stock records from when the drug product is born where it has gone and batch numbers and expiry dates these are all the information they need to produce when they get inspected and doing it manually can be very time consuming week beginning 2nd september monday 2nd september irs 930 garst milk rec tuesday garst milk rec dog course weds daughter back to school exporting is back thursday exporting fri change date of open evening gb way now 15 10 02 exporting sat off sister and niece sun off monday every 2 years we are checked by our radiographer advisor to ensure everything is well and we are doing everything right they check the x ray machine our records and our monitoring records we passed in the afternoon i went milk recording it was very warm and very flyie but good fun they are thinking of getting a new parlour twice as big as mr g feels in the future milk will have to be produced by quantity not quality but it is difficult and expensive decision to make for him we shall see tue early morning milk recording this morning but i got a lovely breakfast with proper milk i got to check the large animal when i got back we also started our new puppy training course in the evening that went very well it is a more 1 to 1 basis our nurse runs it i go along and help with moral support it was good fun but i had a very long day and went to bed when i got back weds daughter went back to school today ill miss her following me round helping out and her mum can you take me we may have some exporting of sheep on friday there is a pedigree texel sheep sale at h h borderway it is the first exporting we have done in about 20 months as you can guess the paper work has tripled there has been numerous phone calls to ad from defra trying to make sense of it but i must say people up here are not good at clarifying what they have written now theres a surprise thursday i have spent the whole day either reading new expert regulations or running backwards and forwards for new paperwork what we have to complete and what they should bring well it could be fun friday well full really isnt the word i would use we needed more paperwork they needed more paperwork it took most of the day and we only had 3 sheep to send draining the one good thing was seeing everyone at the auction some new faces and some have gone week beginning 9th september monday ts 7th birthday we have another vet student studying at the moment for 2 weeks we have had five this year so far and another before christmas but she wont stay in the house as she is from carlisle it is nice to have them and it makes us behave but i wont have as many next year they have all been interested in the fmd and some had a chance to help out which was an eye opener for them i spoke to student about it all how it affected everyone what happened and what didnt now talking about almost a year from the last case i dont find it as hard and i think i can hide how emotional it was but at the time i wasnt i was more angry i feel now fmd or the aftermath has sadly become everyday life i dont rush for news on it or yearn information i think because directly or indirectly we live with it everyday it all has really become part of our lives it is very difficult to put into words or explain i also went to visit one of my interherd farmers in lancaster they are very pleased with it and are coping well mrs m was crushed by the pet cow a month ago and was very lucky she had two broken legs cuts and bruises needless to say the cow has gone to greener pastures they are very resilient and are planning for the future and it is nice to be a part of their planning i also get proper milky coffee see so easy pleased milk recorded tonight at mr gs so early morning tomorrow im still trying to persuade them into interherd so finger crossed tuesday early morning milk recording failed on the interherd due to a cow breaking a leg i have never actually experienced it happening before i generally hear farmers needing a slaughter cert or a cow put down to see it and the familys reaction i was humbled i think is the word it was an accident that can happen but the look on their faces was such deep sorrow the father even places his head in his hands at breakfast we all talked about it she was only a heifer getting ready to be served for the let time she was a difficult birth they had all helped well bred and she was jet black with a huge white spot on her side so no prizes for guessing the name but as the farmer said you cant look after them feed them care for them day in day out without caring about them or why would you do it in the afternoon i attended a course on management employment law customer service at barnard castle it went on till 9 pm with dinner after so i decided to stay over very spoilt good course excellent food lovely hotel wednesday came back from my course leisurely and stopped at penrith for a bit of shopping very pleasant im not a good shopper but it was nice i had to get back for 11 am as we were having a new credit card machine fitted he duly arrived well what an obnoxious man he was moaning because we had a switchboard he had to dial 9 this was wrong that was wrong and then was he not going to get offered a coffee to which he was told not without the special word he was a bit aghast and said please i swear if i had not just come from a course explaining customer service i would have murdered him god bless courses and of course credit card machine men in the afternoon i was visited by the rspca advertising company did we want an advert in their leaflet anyway it was 640 for quarter of a page for 2 years so i said we couldnt afford it it suddenly dropped to 410 i was a little suspect so i got receptionist to quietly check if the company were connected to the rspca anyway while i was waiting i said it was still a little bit more than we could afford what with fmd see it is useful and true he then said he could do it for 210 by which time she had confirmed they were with the rspca so i said yes thank you bargain or rip off thursday i tried to get my head round isolation units and tried to explain to a farmer about them i think we got there eventually when husband got back i got him to explain in simple english and it all made a lot more sense they will be handy for people selling and buying stock but have as always the guidelines must have been written by someone who has never seen a farm or fields friday caught up on paperwork and trolleyed about busy doing not a lot i think the term is anyway it was good week beginning 16th september this week has been appraisal week for the staff we didnt do any last year so i thought we had better get back into the swing of things i quite enjoy the appraisals its a great opportunity to have a real good sort out get new ideas and try and recognise any potential problems we started doing appraisals at bout 4 years ago and to start off with everyone was petrified and worried but it was nice to see them actually excited and enjoyed it it is quite time consuming but very worthwhile so not much out and about this week week beginning 23rd september monday another suspect case the main difference about this was as with other ones i felt cold sick scared this one was better i felt it was not going to be positive whether its a case of there have been a few now not positive and this is just another one or confident that it no way could be positive i definitely wasnt as worried i dont know if that is being blasé cant spell sorry but definitely different tuesday just nicely busy today just enough to keep everyone busy husband and other vet are away this week so that just leaves new vet and other vet so it was a little worrying if it got busy it was the last of our dog training courses tonight they all passed their tests well and were very pleased with the progress they had made it was the first 4 week course we had run and feedback was very positive our head nurse had put in an awful lot of work fir it so i was very pleased for her as well the next one is planned for november weds experts are going to start again at h h tomorrow and friday it will be the first ones we have done for about 18 months surprisingly the paperwork for our side has not changed much but the irish paperwork is horrendous anyway after several phone calls to derfa and dard and various farmers who are wishing to sell at the sale i think we have it sorted we will see tomorrow thursday and friday ive put these into one as that is how it felt after being so confident that we had everything in place to be able to export the sheep first thing thursday morning dard like irish defra changed the regulations and paperwork such joy as you can imagine this sent everyone in a state of frenzy and another buzby full of phone calls we didnt have the paperwork sorted when people had bought sheep and were wanting to leave now some tempers are reaching fever pitch well we did manage to export them away on thursday night 3 hours late so they had to book different ferries all done and dusted by friday we were busy congratulating ourselves on achieving the impossible and how we all had worked hard to accomplish it and now had several more names on our christmas card list yes you guessed we had a phone call from well let me say one not happy chappy after having no sleep catching a late ferry waiting for the paperwork to arrive at larne port all the sheep were impounded dard had added one more form to their list of requirements and had forgotten to send them through or mention them hours of phone calls and faxing later i am very pleased to say that the sheep were released and free to go week beginning 7th october monday 7th october i made some trial arrangements for our open evening next tuesday alls ready now they are a good night out and we all enjoy it we havent had one for a few years so it should be good tuesday for a while now weve been wondering if the practice should invest in a house for an assistant we have had a response to the advert for our new vet so we thought we would go house hunting anyway it wasnt as much fun as i first thought to start with obviously they are quite a price and it really isnt that easy so we looked at one cardboard box for 70000 and apparently it went for 82k frightening well we can keep on looking we have a vet coming for an interview on saturday so fingers crossed im off tomorrow and away at bvna congress over the weekend so im looking forward to that week beginning 14th october monday 14th october we had a really good time at the bvna british veterinary nurse assistant congress we did loads of lectures a learned a few new things got loads of freebies from the trade stands and ordered a new vaporiser for the anaesthetic machine which uses less isoflo oxygen we also had a good halloween ball stayed up too late we got back on sunday evening after 3 days of congress and i was just settling down and filling in husband and daughter on what we had done when another vet came in wanting a hand with a caesarean on a dog ah well nothing like getting back into it today anyway feeling very tired we had to start getting ready for open evening tomorrow night for the farmers so there was a lot of sorting out and tidying up to do as we open the house up as well we havent had one for a couple of years so it was quite exciting i really enjoy them its great to have the farmers round its mainly a nosh and natter night but this year some of the drug companies paid for it they have their stands in various parts of the house and surgery and normally everyone has a good time tuesday open evening day very busy tidying up and moving things around everyone helped its good the staff are so excited about it as well they have all mucked in and as usual did us proud the evening itself was brilliant it was so nice to see them all enjoying themselves and there is nothing farmers like better than a good natter food and beer quite a few said they had missed the open evening last year due to fmd as far as pr goes definitely worth it wednesday just clearing up and sorting out all the staff said they had had good feedback so well done to everyone thursday back to it now got new interherd update so i spent quite a lot of the day seeing what new buttons it had its very clever interherd is sold by nmr now and they are helping us sell it to the farmers whose life and paperwork hope to make easier the man in charge at nmr is coming to see us next week to explain how the milk recording side all ties in between nmr and interherd friday today was one of those when you rush round all day but you feel unsure of what you have actually done very busy on both large and small side its very tiring but i do prefer it when were busy week beginning 21st october monday 21st october monday to wednesday off thursday had a meeting with id from nmr re interherd they are going to give us cheap milk recording prices to help promote nmr and interherd they have also released a version of interherd for farmers and we were given the first one in the country to trial and see what they thought it was very encouraging as nmr in the past years have gained themselves a slightly unpopular feel especially in cumbria but they now seem to see this and are trying very hard and are committed to improving it they did a survey and now with area herd size etc the majority of dairy herds are in cumbria even post fmd so fingers crossed friday a good day today husband was away at a bcva council meeting br cattle vets ass and normally it goes mad dont know why anyway it didnt today everyone was busy but not madly the large animal side is very up and down at present but it is now tt and blood testing season there are quite a lot of restocked herds to do as they are having to be done every year as opposed to 4 yearly we also have to test everything it is very time consuming and if they have a tt test then it is a two day job so for both the farmer and us it is two days of the week when you cant do anything else week beginning 28th october monday 28th october we have been asked by newton rigg college if we would be interested in teaching the animal care courses at the college so me and vicky went along it was quite interesting and we thought if we could do it together it would work so we said we would think about it and let them know went milk recording in the afternoon i do enjoy playing and the crack tuesday milk recorded again and discussed interherd with them so we are going to use them as the pilot for the nmr interherd job so that will be interesting regarding the newton rigg offer we wont be able to do it as our part time nurse is leaving us she has been offered a place at dalston vets she will be able to train as a vet nurse there as we dont do that in our practice so that will leave us short staffed it is sad but everything happens for a reason so we are now vet and nurse hunting so more advertising and interviewing weds we are sponsoring a class at the northern expo holstein friesian shows we have a stand and a good natter i took some photos of a few cows and some freebies it was a good night barbara came with me and she presented the prize for our class the standard of cattle was amazing and it was a really good show thursday out of the photos i took for the northern expo i decided to make a photo album so i went round a few other farms photographing it was good fun and nice to see that we do have some very good stock friday got a phone call today from my sister she has sold her house in lancaster and is moving up near us so thats very exciting otherwise a quiet day today week beginning 4th november monday 4th november i went to show mr j the new interherd farmers version he was very interested and thought it would save a lot of paperwork and time they all say that the paperwork since fmd has increased immensely along with the regulations tuesday we have decided to have a tv in the waiting room to advertise products services staff etc the man from channel 6 came and took information so it should arrive next week so it will be interesting to see how it works weds we went to the bank today to see the financial advisor as this is a free service and very useful we have decided to buy a house for my sister to live in when she moves up and it will be an investment as well a bit of security just in case as last year we discovered just how quick things can change we went for just over 3 months with not a lot of money coming in and still wages to pay so we are now house hunting week beginning 11th november monday 11th november one of our vets has recently started her dbr dip in bovine reproduction course at liverpool as part of her studies she is looking at the cows milk quality pre and post calving to see if any effects are relevant to their overall performance and milk production and health so we collect milk samples from certain cows twice a week over the period of lactation and she is going to test them so watch this space we have been very lucky with another vet her enthusiasm is boundless and she has become a very important member of our team i have persuaded mr j of b farm to milk record with us so thats more early morning jaunts the interherd and nmr trial is nearly ready so hopefully by middle of december everything should be set up and running hopefully tuesday two farmers are milk reading today so i had a nice little trolly about i treated myself to some of mr rs ice cream very nice well you have to support them their new shop on the farm is doing very well i loaded my first farmer version interherd onto mr ws computer he is very impressed and very keen and thankfully it all worked well wednesday we have computer bugs not good so i have spent most of the day on the phone talking to the debugging man thursday still got bugs weve had to run a bug fixer disc through all seven computers it takes ages peed off fed up going back to pen and paper friday i must have sounded fed up as the lovely little man came to fix all the computers he had to use 3 different discs due to all the different bugs had a meeting to discuss the nmr milk recording and we have quite a lot of farmers interested mainly because we have got a good price for nmr so fingers crossed the bugs are fixed yipeee week beginning 18th november monday 18th november due to our junior nurse leaving i have been interviewing all week we have had a lot of enquiries i decided to invite any possibles to come and play for the morning to see what they thought and how they got on with the staff there is one that has potential and sounds very nice but she cant make it until next monday there was one that wrote a really good letter but when she came in well she was sweet but not really suitable on friday nurse left we had a little party i hope she copes okay she bought me a lovely cow ornament to say thank you it was lovely week beginning 25th november monday 25th november ellen came for her interview very good she is keen had experience happy with the hours so she is coming back tomorrow afternoon for a play we all went out for our vet who is leaving on friday to be a chalet maid in a french ski resort till april it will be very sad to see her leave unfortunately still no joy on the new vet front but we are going to leave it till the new year and try then other vet is going to cover but unfortunately it means husband s on duty more its a bit reminiscent of fmd but well manage tuesday wednesday feeling very sorry for myself got a bad cold i got sent to my room because everyone was fed up of me sneezing all over them honestly i was only shanning thursday much better today i sorted a whole load of interherd data out and had a good play with it heard about nestles cancelling contracts next year from one of our farmers he felt a little unsure quite how it would affect them and that they were being dealt another kick in the teeth its quite amazing how many i have heard questioning why they went back into farming we are feeling the effects we didnt seem to be called out as often or they dont want the cows treated as its extra expense at the end of fmd they said over the next couple of years there would be changes in the way farmers and how many farmers worked its frightening to see it actually starting to happen and seeing the effects on our business everyone agrees the whole industry has changed for the worst and is not the same and there is no pleasure now after all that a total contrast me and daughter went christmas shopping and had a lovely time we met husband after surgery and went for a pizza lovely night friday everyones talking about nestles now and quite a few are angry some arent surprised and others just seem to resign themselves to it we had a lunch party for leaving vet today it was good we gave her pressies although she has only been here a few months she will be greatly missed by everyone you never know she may come back one day good news i offered ellen the nurses job and shes accepted i think she will do very well week beginning 2nd december monday 2nd december spent all morning trolling around the countryside collecting another vet s milk samples for her dbr it was a lovely morning chatted to a few farmers a lot were still talking about nestles tuesday had a meeting to clarify the start of the nmr milk recording gave her all the information she needed to set up the herds its great to be able to offer the farmers a good cheaper deal staff xmas party it was good everyone seemed to have a good time wednesday day off shopping what joy thursday had an interherd disaster today i couldnt get it load what normally takes 15 minutes instead took 2 and a half hours anyway we succeeded eventually they have just bought some in calf heifers so he was keen to keep up to date records and information we only have one more farmer to restock now and then thats everyone it will probably work out at about 15 drop in work etc while waiting for interherd to load they were telling me that they had been approached asking them if they wanted to appeal against the amount of money they had received for the cattle they said they wouldnt as they felt they had already been overpaid not all farmers are money grabbers apparently friday daughter starts her mock exams now for the next fortnight i have been waiting for the moods to start but as yet all is quiet long may it last she is very calm about it and has actually been revising quite hard she has the ability all she has to do is concentrate work wise ive done not a lot its one of the perks ive wandered around just playing doing nice jobs quite a change week beginning 9th december monday 9th december daughter s 16th birthday scary even worse she can learn to drive next year never mind enjoy the safety we went out for lunch and did some shopping it was good i dont normally like shopping but we both enjoyed it came back to mayhem a client small animal had been in complaining about his bill and had caused a stink anyway i phoned him and once we had gone through everything he seemed happy hopefully he had either misunderstood or hadnt had things explained to him although difficult it is better people say something rather than stewing over it and making it into something its not the small animal does seem to have more problems that way than the large animal i suppose the large animal is also a business but it doesnt stop them caring i dont think they could do what they do and work the hours they work if they didnt care sometimes they get a hard press but i think its the few that get the publicity unfortunately i like it when farmers phone to say they have a sick cow and we ask what its doing and quite often the reply is shes just not herself need you say anymore tuesday im going out to play milk recording with a new person via interherd he is one of our clients he is quite a character old fashioned and yet in his thirties it was good he is very passionate about farming and its survival he has a lot of ideas he wants to try with different cows he has just bought some jerseys hence he wants to record to see if there are benefits we milked 60 cows in 2 hours at my other farm we milk 190 in that time its good to see both ways weds early morning milk recording good fun a lot more relaxed than my other farm went to hairdressers straight after smelling of cows with pooh in my hair its a good job i know her well and she didnt complain too much the rest of the day was quite pleasant a bit of paperwork and a skive sorry cant spell to the lab thursday friday wow i think we had our christmas rush they should all be shopping it has been very busy i do prefer it although a sit down now and then would be good me and nurse had a good time on friday afternoon i helped her bath and groom a dog it was so naughty nicely we were both sweating buckets and soaked to the skin by the end but we had a good laugh week beginning 16th december monday 16th december with daughter s mock exams she has needed runs to and from school at various times so mums taxi has been on overtime she has been very calm about it so we shall see thursday was eventful as i now have an expectant nurse and vet watch where you sit unfortunately there is a worry for both of them our nurse evening receptionist is worried she may be losing hers and has had several tests and is obviously worried she is going in for a scan on tuesday so fingers crossed vet is also pregnant they have been trying for a while but has something with a long name wrong with her which causes her to miscarriage so she is pleased worried excited scared and only 4 weeks so no lambing for her she is quite happy continuing with all other work for now i hope everything is ok with them both it can be difficult working with animals and being pregnant but as long as they are careful they should be ok week beginning 23rd december monday 23rd december so much for getting quiet for christmas we have had our busiest time for a few years which is good we are going to try advertising in the new year for a new vet especially now another vet is expecting it will all depend how she does we may even need two as even when another vet is on duty now husband has to be on standby in case of any lambings we have a couple of farmers starting anytime milk recording tonight as well but we now do it with nmr well not literally so i only need record once so not too bad and worked in will with xmas round the corner and no mince pies made yet tuesday nurse phoned they are being positive at the moment her hormone levels have increased and she has not bled anymore it doesnt stop them worrying though surgery was busy but we did finish by 130pm my sister and niece arrived all set off we go christmas was ace very relaxing good fun loads of pressies didnt have time to eat too busy playing and it was so warm friday back to work a very busy day lots of calls and surgery appointments even some operations receptionist was off so i was in charge i enjoyed it finding out what everyone got for christmas week beginning 30th december monday 30th december busy day only me and receptionist in thought it would be quiet wrong never mind we coped tuesday nurse has lost her baby or is losing it they cant see anything on the scan just an empty sac so she is going for a dont know what they call it but you can take some tablets that clear everything away she is obviously so upset what do you say shes going to drop her other two off while she goes in it is so sad thursday 2nd january everybodys back again full crew no one knowing what day it is i could get used to the split weeks but at the moment i need it stuck to my head quite busy as well which is good trying to arrange tt test but farmers are never keen on them you have to threaten them with defra coming to do it that works friday went blood sampling sheep for scrapie with husband all day it was a beautiful day very cold but we had fun only we were stood next to a stream women torture cold air and running water i had to nip back to the van for various things by the time we finished i was frozen the test was part of the national scrapie plan which is to sample sheep for scrapie so if or when they find bse in sheep these ones will or should be okay as there is a plan to slaughter the national herd if bse is found but as the farmer said they have already had human g pigs for years as the indians eat sheep brains and before the removal of bone meal and very dubious scabby sheep and they have not had a problem so we will wait and see week beginning 6th january 2003 mon 6th january 2003 our new nurse started today she managed very well and didnt seem too confused when she went home she has worked in kennels before she is very keen fingers crossed another vet is doing her dbr and for part of this she has to do a study she has decided to look at progesterone and other levels in cows post calving for 6 weeks to see what happens so we collect a sample from each new calved cow and split it into 3 smaller pots and freeze awaiting testing in holland very exciting but quite boring the results should be interesting though hopefully tuesday you forget all the explaining you have to do when somebody new starts so me and nurse have written a step by step guide to c well sort of its all the little things we havent had a new nurse for a while so hopefully the book can be used for other new people it took a bit of doing but we were pleased with it in the end i spoke to mr g re having interherd at the farm all i have to do now is get round to see him he is very hard to pin down but well try weds new nurse liked her new book she is doing very well and its nice for us too i always find it quite refreshing when someone is genuinely enthusiastic with us all being close and having their own areas its good to show someone else but can be scary when you see just how much they all do thursday milk pot day again today the good thing is going to pick up the samples as you get a natter so monday and thursday the samples are collected split and frozen its quite time consuming and ive just realised i didnt ask another vet how long she was doing it for friday we have decided to try and get the accounts up to date to see how things are going bar not being able to find a vet so its one of those jobs you always mean to keep on top of but never quite manage because its not much fun interruptions queries and assistance were very welcome but i got a good start week beginning 13th january monday 13th jan a has started working with us again just two days a week this will help a lot and help take the pressure off for surgery times etc i got to spend the day helping with tt testing it was good fun and it stayed fine it was a good day tuesday i had a milk recording day today 3 in total we have started using nmr now so it was all new paperwork etc this is going to be cheaper for the farmers and works with the interherd programme anyway it all went well and everybodys samples got away weds milk recorded again at one of the three farms first thing everytime i go he has a new plan as to how to make some money this month it is he is going to produce a new breed of cow a jersey x mri so we will see how that goes thursday and friday just catching up on paperwork me and nurse did some training with the new nurse she is settling in really well and very keen week beginning 20th january monday 20th january weds decorated our bedroom it looks brill it was in desperate need of it i like decorating its good and messy thursday i went on my brucellosis testing training course at the vlc it was good fun this means that after i have now tested 150 cattle i get a licence which will enable me to blood test this in turn will hopefully free up a vet it will also give defra a bank of blood tester for any future outbreak crafty they used to charge about 800 for this course miraculously its now free clever friday we have had a reply to our advert hoorah well actually two they are both foreign one is in germany and the other s africa so we are waiting for their cvs fingers crossed defra have now changed the 20 day standstill to 6 days the general opinion seemed to be so it would be interesting to actually find out if and how well all the regulations are actually working not well i feel would be the answer week beginning 27th january mon weds very busy i seem to have spent a lot of it in my car dropping off tooing and froing which was nice but i do lose touch with the happenings at the surgery and on tuesday things had obviously got fraught so i sorted those out and smoothed the creases we are very lucky to have such dedicated staff due to vet shortage and another vet s pregnancy it does add extra pressure to everyone none of the incidents were very serious and easily sorted thursday i went with my sister to take niece to the hospital as since she was born she has had a lump on the side of her head above her eye so they xrayed it that was fun persuading her to lie still i stayed overnight and came back friday week beginning 3rd february monday 3rd feb i did my first blood sample on a live cow today as it was an abortion enquiry and due to another vet s pregnancy she is not doing them ad i need the practice it was good fun and i hit the 2nd time so i was very pleased only another 145 to go before i get my licence tuesday i completed the accounts today to go to the accountants it was great fun i hope they come up with good news but the future is worrying a backlash from the farmers not being confident weds i cant remember if i told you vet was expecting anyway she went for her first scan today and so far so good it is very worrying as she has a problem where she produces duff eggs and miscarriages she wants to carry on as normal as possible for now but no sheep or abortions etc i hop it works this time as this is her 4th attempt thursday and friday very nice everything worked well no mad rushes time to catch up we discussed reducing some of the farm drugs as they are able to buy the over the internet with a prescription all the laws and rules will more than likely be changing at the beginning of march due to a report done for the govt regarding drugs and animal use it will make a difference to how we operate as if they remove the vet surgeons right to prescribe drugs ie vets can only write prescriptions and not dispense drugs it could alter things completely one way or another if farmers require the service they are going to have to pay for it up to now it has always been that a reasonable mark up is put on the drugs this is normally 50 and this will keep professional fees down if vets are not getting the money made on drugs and therefore has to put his fees up although the farmer may be buying his drugs cheaper via the internet will he actually save that much i wonder so anyway we have been getting more and more pressure from a number of our farmers to compete with the internet prices so we have selected a few products and it they pay at the time they can get about 20 off the price so watch this space and we will see what happens week beginning 10th february monday 10th feb the week to sum up a blur with both sad and very funny memories to start receptionist was on holiday and it always seems to happen as soon as someone is off we get very very busy when everyone is in it ticks along nicely mostly i do enjoy it when its busy but we worked 3 13 hour days not food but everyone worked really hard they are excellent staff on a sad note vet went for her 11 week scan on tuesday and the baby had died she was distraught she has a condition that causes this and this was her 4th miscarriage its so sad i called to see her and she just hugged me and cried what do you say she had to have some tablets to clear away the placenta etc she was gutted as this is the longest she had ever been pregnant and she thought shes cracked it its just so sad my funny tale for the week on a completely different note but helped immensely was other vet on thursday we were all very very busy and a farmer called in i was very behind they still had ops to do and this farmer settled herself down for a big chat normally if i say i have a lot on she departs but no not today it was obviously my turn vet came over from the op room and i know it was naughty but i wrote on a card can i have some help ie to free myself well instead of reading the note quietly oh no she read it out at the top of her voice and added what do you need help for after i had crawled out of the hole that had opened up in the earth to swallow me i pointed to the message book to try and hide my predicament while she said again loudly so what do you want help for well i gave up and decided to just fall into the hole got rid of vet back to the op room and continued alone with my predicament after the farmer had gone who thankfully seemed oblivious to what had happened i went in search of vet to kill her anyway it cheered us all up they do say laughter is the best medicine but i can think of better ways week beginning 17th february monday 17th feb vet who lost baby came back to work she is very upset and weepy everyone has been lovely with her hopefully it is just time and tlc we are very busy again and have had an enquiry from a farmer who is thinking of changing vets which is really good news that is three new farmers in total now if only we had enough vets four practices around carlisle have advertised recently and none of the positions have been filled its quite worrying tuesday i took vet who lost baby home again today she is not well and in a lot of pain so shes gone back to bed i hope shes feeling better soon usual day otherwise weds vet is a lot better today apparently they think it may be the cocodamol she was taking she was a lot happier a little drained but ok mr w came in today his cows are arriving on friday hopefully this will be our last farm to restock he has had a lot of alterations done to the farm and a new parlour so its quite exciting thursday we did some sheep exports for slaughter from longtown today the first of that sort of thing since fmd it was of course a bit of a faf as they now have to be retagged and checked so it takes a little longer in the afternoon i had a meeting with sr from university of reading she is planning to do research regarding the interherd programme and she had picked 3 vet practices to see how the programme helps the vets and the farmers work better together and the improvements it makes to the farmers record keeping so she is going to meet 3 of our farmers who use interherd and interview them and give them free training so that should please them fri day off me and daughter went to newcastle shopping im not a good shopper but i did behave and we had a good day mr ws cows arrived all fit and healthy so that is us complete now ass we were if not better sad news though we heard one of our farmers dropped down dead suddenly it was very sad as we had seen him in the morning and he was his normal self so it was quite a shock his family must be devastated mind if theres a good way to go thats it week beginning 24th february monday 24th feb another vet a lot better today almost back to her normal cheery self she is a lot more positive we took the bull by the horns so to speak and reduced the prices of some drugs we will have to wait until the 10th march before we find out what the government is going to do regarding the selling of drugs but the farmers are very pleased tuesday i got another phone call from mr c and he said he would like to change vets to us so good news husband spoke to his old vet and explained why etc it is very difficult and i think that in the future there may be more changing of vets where as in the past it never happened but even farmers appreciate competition now it again is worrying milk recorded at mr g tonight its always good crack as they say weds milk recorded early morning and then showed them the interherd programme they are going to try it i think in the afternoon i went with other vet to vet a horse for purchase it can be tricky sometimes and two pairs of eyes are better than one as it turned out the horse was lame so we couldnt vet it so we will have to go back another day thursday normal day did some more sheep exports in the afternoon they have a very efficient system at longtown so it makes it a lot easier fri i went to farmer s funeral this morning it was very sad i dont like funerals well i dont suppose anyone does but it stayed fine and he had a good send off in the afternoon i got an opportunity to do some more blood sampling just 15 so it was good its getting used to handling everything and forgetting youre at the end that shits and kicks no broken limbs and i got blood week beginning 3rd march mon 3rd march i went to help a tt test in the morning just taking numbers we now have 4 farms on restrictions due to tb reactors but up to now on the cows taken for further tests no lesions have been fund we now get to do the repeat 60 day test on the farms now as defra cant keep up sounds familiar we saw the accountant in the afternoon we had sent 9 months of accounts to him as we need to see how the practice was now doing anyway it was not as bad as we thought but the income is down but is slowly growing the main problem is farmers wont call out for sick cows now they will leave it longer or try to treat them themselves mainly due to them watching their spending mr w had a problem with his interherd he needed to run his extensification figures and they didnt add up so i spent the rest of the day trying to figure out why i think i know why it was how he set it up initially so it may need his entry dates changed tues went tt testing again this morning it was a lovely morning i spent the rest of the day sorting mr ws problem out and it worked he was chuffed the good is i think i now understand extensifications weds caught up on some paperwork in the morning i helped new nurse with a dog grooming in the afternoon which was fun she is doing really well and seems to be enjoying it we both ended up soaked thanks to the dog but it looked loads better when it went home good news we get a new vet from south africa starting 1403 he worked over here during fmd and met someone and their relationship has lasted hence he wants a job in carlisle so bingo here comes a holiday thursday friday very busy in the practice everyone kept going we have a great team and they really come into their own when its busy i love the way everyone pulls together they are very dedicated week beginning 10th march monday quiet day for a monday but the weather has been nice so they are all out playing but we had quite a few lambings to do thats one thing that has changed since fmd prior to fmd we hardly used to do any lambings for farmers but since we now do far more last year we put it down to them having new stock but it seems to be the same this year tuesday today is milk recording day i have 3 recordings today they all need boxes and paperwork i dont have to help at any of the milkings though which is good as they are quite a way from each other but a nice day for a drive weds thurs fri the end of our weeks seem to be busier than the beginnings at the moment it has been non stop one disadvantage when it is so busy is you dont have the time to chat as often i took some drugs to a farm our last one to restock as he was having alterations done it was amazing to see the transformations he had made to the farm all geared to one person being able to do more alone with more cows interesting week beginning 17th march mon tuesday i went with another vet to mr cs for his tt and blood test another vet did the tt and i did the blood as part of my lay blood testers licence i needed to do 150 which i managed it was good fun and the weather was great we had to spread it over 2 days due to the amount of cattle it was really good practice for me and i think ive cracked it now there are talks about giving tt testing to lay people but quite how and when is anyones guess weds more blood testing today ive really cracked it now only ive discovered muscles in my arms i didnt know i had i enjoy the blood testing sad isnt it thursday i had a morning with alco waste management sorting out all the clinical waste regulations and they need more detail of what actually goes in our waste we always provided a free service to farmers for disposing of sharps and old drug and empty drugs etc but we are going to have to start charging now it is now 100 dearer a month than it was fri me and husband spent the morning looking at fees income etc and seeing where we can increase fees to help cover if we lose the right to dispense drugs to farmers which we still havent heard about to continue as we are we will have to make the difference up its just how week beginning 24th march monday doing the paperwork for a tt test it was a beautiful day i do enjoy doing this especially when the weathers good and they are very nice farmers i also get to spend the day with husband which makes a change although we work together we dont often get to see much of each other tuesday busy day spent most of it making sure everything got done and helping out weds i went to the careers convention at the sands centre it was very busy and we had a lot of interest but a long day before going someone phoned to say there was a collie dog running around on the roundabout so me and new nurse went to see if we could catch it well it didnt want caught but i was really worried it got onto the motorway so we phoned the police and the dog warden who incidentally couldnt come until 9am as he didnt start til then so i had to politely explain that he would have to be the police dog handler wasnt much help but at least he stopped the traffic bless him the dog warden did appear 5 minutes later and it was only 830 am so we managed to get the dog off the roundabout and catch it everyone safe thankfully thurs fri busy days new vet from south africa phoned so hes coming to see us on monday to pick up his vehicle and meet everyone he sounds pleasant so we will see my joke at the moment when people ask where we found him is that we got him off the internet it is a little worrying not having met him first but it should work watch this space week beginning 31st march monday we have had l staying for two weeks shes a vet student from london and stayed with us about this tine last year it was interesting to go over the changes from a year ago last time she was here people were restocking and there was an element of wariness so it was interesting to fill her in on how things are now one thing she mentioned was noticing the stock in the fields was nice as there were only a few still last year talking over things is still hard sometimes although it seems a long time ago the feelings and emotions are still deep certain parts can still hit a raw nerve there seems to be a mere anger at the moment generally people and farmers are wanting to know why they still have restrictions what is going to happen about shows and sales etc and will normality ever return unfortunately i think not not in the way they want it to tuesday our new vet started today we got on very well it has taken us so long to find a vet and if the work and testing carries on increasing we are going to need another one wednesday very busy day husband s gone to talk at a bcva conference and agm so poor new vet has been thrown in at the deep end it has been very busy but he seems to be coping well the clients were very impressed so far so long may it last it is good to have new staff with new ideas i quite enjoy it and he is definitely a big hit with the female clients it really does make you embarrassed to be female when they go into the consulting room you count to 4 and then comes the girlie giggle quite funny thursday sad day today my sister had been confirmed as having cervical cancer no more on that for now friday had another interherd sale today one thing fmd has forced on farmers is the need for efficient records and interherd is brilliant at that its so clever one of our farmers who has had it for a while and has 120 milking cows now does all his daily records in 5 10 minutes cant be bad week beginning 7th april monday busy day new vet is settling in really well and coping fine if we carry on at this rate we will need another vet a lot of it depends on how much more testing we are going to get and what happens with commission report into dispensing drugs tuesday sr came today from uni of reading who own the interherd program we went round some of the farmers that used it and helped sort out any queries it was a good day i learnt a lot and the farmers found it useful too she said she would come again later in the year so i think we might try and organise for them all to come to the practise for a chat wednesday did some interherd training with one of the farmers wives we said just an hour as she wasnt fully computer literate anyway 4 hours later she had well and truly got the hang of it she was very keen and i really enjoyed it thursday friday they blur into one as it has been so busy everyone has been flat out we are going to start the vet advertising again and another nurse receptionist week beginning 14th april monday got caught up today sorted out all the queries quite pleased with my self tuesday went to a local nursery to talk about vets to 3 year olds i was quite dreading it but thankfully it was great they were really good i took some dressing up clothes and x ray instruments and teddy bears and they operated and had a really good time one of them asked me if all the cows and sheep were better and did they still have funny feet and mouths week beginning 21st april tuesday wednesday quite busy days and a lot to catch up on we all went away with sister and niece this weekend to husband s mum and dads caravan we had a great time sister s biopsy off rest of week week beginning 28th april monday three farmers milk recording today and tomorrow so busy dropping pets and paperwork off advertised for a vet today fingers crossed off for two weeks helping sister to move interviewed a nurse receptionist she is perfect and experienced she wrote a letter in as her husbands job had brought them to the area so she starts 12th may i wish it was as easy finding a vet week beginning 12th may monday our new girlie started today she is very keen and capable she has done really well even with the computer system that she was dreading tuesday busy day also 2x milk recordings so a bit of hollering about i was thinking it is about a year we have had now of normal work everyone new appears to be getting on with it as the saying goes everyone bears a scar and has a story to tell and realise it is not the same but how could it be weds fri quite busy but capable at work daughter got the job for the training in her m apprentice course so she is over the moon its all a new learning curve you suddenly realise she is growing up getting a job and leaving school unfortunately this morning daughter has decided she doesnt want to leave full time education yet and is worried about the job she is wanting to do a business course at a college so all change again we have had bid discussions and are going to go down to connexions next week sat yf young farmers field day today i love these days it is amazing the effort and enjoyment that makes it such a good day there is also such a high standard in all the classes i admire the enthusiasm of the young farmers and just hope they can survive somehow week beginning 19th may monday we have found the course daughter wants to do at college thanks to connexions the bad news is it is not done locally she could do a local course but it would be wasted time to some extent big discussions most of the week we have found they do the course in blackburn and preston my sister and mum live down there and are more than happy for her to move in i just dont know if i am ready to let her go but ill have to be a big girl about it we have sent application forms off so will have to wait and see now and try and get used to it weds really good evening at penrith re the discussion it was so good to talk to the other diarists and realise and be able to relate so closely to what they said it was poignant to see what other people had written and interesting to see what you had done so far with the data collected it would be brilliant to hand to any future study or enquiry as it is proof surely not all these people could be wrong and to have so many diarists start and finish is amazing im sure it can be used for so many different topics amazing i am personally very proud to have been a part of it and although sometimes i have wondered if what i was writing was any use i can see now how it comes together than you all for the opportunity shame not in better circumstances it has helped me more than i originally realised but thinking back it was all unbelievable and not something i would like to repeat i am ever the optimist or so im told and do believe or hope things and farming can recover not fully but enough to be able to show other people what a wonderful life it is hard but special week beginning 26th may never stopped on tuesday after bank holiday so busy new vet is settling in now but his girlfriend cant find a job so thats a bit worrying he may leave sooner than expected oh no not advertising again the rest of the week was uneventful really ticked along nicely we met up with some friends on wednesday evening who holiday in the lakes each year so it was nice to see them again we had a good evening we were also out on thursday night with a drug rep very nice meal and they have offered to pay for husband bri catt vet ass meeting in amsterdam in october so that was very nice business link have also offered to help us get a consultant in to see if they have any ideas for improving maybe they can find vets too all in all quite an exciting week week beginning 2nd june the exams have started everyone warns to beware but daughter is very laid back about it all too much i feel but as long as she does her best i went to the accountants to look at the books for the end of year so far not quite finished yet and thankfully we wont be needing income support this year it is so much better more regulation but nothing we cant cope with honest week beginning 9th june daughter had an interview at blackburn college it wasnt a very nice place but then im not going preston is on the 25th so she will decide after that niece had her ct scan for her head that was eventful and lisa and her naughty jelly babies zapped all went well but she was a bit sore after week beginning 23rd june monday went tt testing with another vet today it was a retest due to them having a reactor it was a good day they are nice people there is a father and 2 sons during fmd i had a phone call one night and this was just someone crying on the end of it i didnt know what to say and i wasnt sure who it was but i just spoke about mainly silly things i cant really remember what but didnt get much of a response just yes and nos and i thought i recognised the voice as being the father we were with today anyway during lunch which we had at the farm we were chatting and of course got into fmd and he thanked me it took aback but he said he had appreciated me waffling on it was the night of the day his cows had been shot and he had phoned to let us know but he said he just broke down and couldnt say anything anyway he laughed because he said he was going to hang up but he couldnt get word in edgeways because i was wittering but he said he did feel a bit better after so we had a good heart to heart tuesday caught up on my paperwork and sorted some bits and pieces out weds took daughter to preston college for an interview it was good and seems a nice place i cant believe she will be leaving home at the end of august very scary im really going to have to be a big girl about it thursday we went to visit business link to discuss some more things and they are hopefully going to help us pay a firm of consultants to help us out to see how we can improve and move the practice on so thats exciting fri went milk recording first thing so that was good fun after recording i had to collect one of our elderly clients and her dog that was coming for an operation the lady is 92 and her and the dog are very close so she wanted to stay with her until she was sedated so she was pleased she could come with her the girls all laugh at me because i have quite a few little old ladies who we visit and keep a check on their pets week beginning 30th june not a lot of excitement at all this week we have been kept going and i caught up on paperwork we are going to my sisters this week end to start sorting her spare bedroom for daughter week beginning 7th july mon spent the morning explaining to our newest girlie about interherd and how to work it this will enable her to help me on the data entry side we also had a little trip out around some of the farms that record with us to give her an idea of where they are tuesday went exporting sheep today they all had to be retagged it was quite warm not much fun ill maybe get new girl to do exporting weds 2 milk recordings today so quite busy with bottles and sheets and things and they are both in the opposite direction to each other never mind it was a nice day for driving about thursday we have got a new vet to replace vet from sa she seems very lovely she is going to start on 40803 we used an agency and it has proved worthwhile we worked out that rather than paying for endless adverts we would give it a go and it seems to have worked so thats exciting fri we went car hunting today as if we all go out at the week end it becomes a bit crushed and sometimes we end up taking two vehicles so we have really splashed out rightly or wrongly and bought a new crv truck its very posh so we get that on 210703 week beginning 14th july monday person from the interherd office came up to see us and we visited a few of our farmers that are on interherd between them and nmr they have really tried with providing quality and cost effective equipment that is helpful to the farmers you can now use interherd in some milking parlours which is really useful tues we went to see a horse with a cough and after treating the pony we were chatting and they have converted a small barn into a camping hostel their farm is along hadrians wall and since having foot and mouth and doing the barn up they have nearly covered their costs they still have a few stock but not as many mr i was saying how his father used to milk about 25 cows and be able to make a good living from that its amazing the difference weds we got a new payroll package today so i spent most of my day trying to understand it i was very bog eyed by the end but i think i understand it and it seems to work well and should be a lot easier and quicker thursday busy day there were lots of ops and farm calls a couple of farmers have been asking about prescriptions as soon they will be able to get their drugs from anywhere a lot have said they appreciate they have to pay for the service one way or another and are happy to carry on as they have been doing we will lose money to some extent but how much remains to be seen and we will have to cope friday off went to see westlife with daughter
## 4 information about diarist date of birth 1963 gender m occupation group 6 geographic region north cumbria saturday 9th march 2002 an old african proverb states the best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago the next best time is now i should have started this diary over a year ago to keep track of changes in the unrolling of the fmd epidemic and my feelings towards it today is probably a good day to start the diary as i was about to sit down after a really bad week to write some comments for the lessons learned inquiry and thought i should check the web site for an update i found out to my considerable annoyance that the inquiry was coming to cumbria to meet with defra and hold the open meeting on tuesday night and if you wanted a ticket to attend then you had to apply by a week ago the overall impression is that the govt do not want to learn lessons i was looking after kids as wife was on counselling course and i was on call sat morn the vets were busy so i ended up taking children into vets with me they watched videos in the waiting room while i sorted out and consulted coming down with cold after spending friday tb testing on restocking farm but at least i managed to avoid getting kicked and crushed the farm hand who is one of the hard lads of wigton refused to get in with the fat bulls to test them after getting floored by a kick if the f ministry want them f tested they can f coming and etc etc i am putting in a letter to say why they were not tested to see response didnt get finished on farm till 545 pm having started with a caesarean at 5 30ammust be an easier way to make a living the farming economy is bizarre at the moment he has silage in heaps all over the farm so instead of feeding straw which is incredibly expensive 70 ton he is feeding the better quality silage and the calves are all too big there are 30 to calve so a few nights work there where ever i go on farms the stories that farmers are wanting to get off their chest about the maff incompetence and inconsistency is bewildering there is a lot of anger out there i went to do the restocking sentinel visit for mg l fm he is usually the most laid back of guys but he told them he was bringing his cattle on and he would see them in court why are we doing sentinel visits to a farm that had fmd 11 months ago the virus only lives a month sunday mothering sunday kids had all got presents and cards for mum they brought them all in with a breakfast tray very cute but pear juice all over the carpet tim and i spent sat night baking a chocolate cake for her which meant i hadnt got lunch never mind church was ps speaking on characters walking with god and talking about abraham setting off with out knowing where he is going maybe i should follow suit with large animal vetting being reduced to tb testing and caesareans the evening service was really lively with hp from austria about turning every hour over to god now that is what i should do g r called around sun afternoon he is pessimistic about fertiliser sales there is that much land and grass around and the govt grants for extensification new regulations on nitrates is giving him a headache though as he points out it is not fertiliser that cause the problems as they are used by grass but by phosphates and slurry organics lough neigh has real problems with algal blooms and they are blaming fertiliser but so has bassenthwaite but there is not any fertiliser spread on the fells so is it really agriculture monday read test and was very glad it was clear as the farm of origin of one of batches has gone down with tb more testing after lunch organic farm they have just had their first pay check 23p per litre they were promised 36p when they started to convert 2 years ago who would be in agriculture desperately behind in admin with vets and home but at least the clinical work pays tuesday caught up on a lot of admin as back to 6 vets for day 2 cows aborting on restocking farm more disease rota still for 5vets yuk the evening open meeting poorly attendee due to poor publicity i am only local practitioner i phoned around no one had been invited or had seen advance publicity and we all feel that they are not interested and that they will not listen some moving testimony and the bullying culture came through and the frustration and anger that comes from dealing with a faceless bureaucracy distant in london 11 million animals 2000 farms in cumbria businesses wrecked lives wrecked a crisis turned into a disaster by bureaucratic incompetence and political considerations i am pleased i went i feel that it is like a sense of closure the funeral so to speak the end and i spoke with wife when i got back i feel i can lay the past down and look to the future weds day off k a for lunch and sort out finances etc and write diary everyone is saying about this time last year and glad that fmd is finished went to see grease the school production it was very well done brought back memories of 6th form thurs 300 pages of a4 waiting for me in my in tray courtesy of defra are they mindless or what rang to speak to ah but only got hold of n and told her it was out of order i should get my blood pressure measured as some one says defra stupid idiots so much for closure i feel very frustrated if this is the future of farm practice anal glands here we come who said a vets life aint glamorous managed to calm down and get the next 2 weeks of testing organised it is a good job that we are organising it as trying to get folk on the phone is nt easy workload picking up and managed to persuade gg to advertise even if only at tvi hq all of the local practices who have advertised have had very few if any responses we are busy but with defra work spent time singing grease songs much to nurses amusement did restocking visit at lynedraw they gave me a look around it is amazingly clean because even after pressure washing the spiders usually make a come back but the buildings are sterile and no cobwebs or insect life which usually abounds even in empty buildings weird there will be a lot of flies next year news that pi has headship of nelson thom and so we can expect the discipline to improve again friday curry and quiz at the boys school very cosmopolitan for cumbria it was good fun and the kids enjoyed it but we were useless on the photos for which you definitely need a tv spent time chatting to local gp who which was interesting they have a place for their son at nelson thom but he isnt keen saturday 16th march working this w e and on call friday night so had an early start with a caser on ewe a lambing hurray things are getting back to normal even if it is a dutch beltex the farmer is really fed up and wants ah to be sacked as he threatened to kill all his recently imported dutch sheep as the paper work was not right they had come and blood sampled them and then sent the results to his brother who is still under form a and then refused him permission to move any of the sheep off because he shouldnt have any because he was on form a and what were the blood results for defra would be a joke if it wasnt so serious oh and after my complaint about them deluging us with paper yes you guessed it they sent another 7 x 20 sheets of a4 idiots aw is in a tiz and so had to get help in sat morning which was a shame but hey ho she is not coping with the post fmd constant changing of the goal posts went to susan ians for another curry and had a really good time and have decided to phase out house group which was coming hopefully low moor will set up a 3rd house group for wigton hebron is going to change to new outlook groups sun never managed to get to church as calls all day beautiful day though the weather has really picked up must get garden sorted and seeds planted a came out on call this evening it is one good point that this job does allow the kids to join with me she is really growing up she wanted to go to cinema but as wife was late and weather good she came back here and they walked the dog and wound up the boys mon early morning call to see a farmer who is a scrap metal dealer who hates authority he therefore didnt want anyone on his land during fmd and refused access to maff and me while i was working there he caused real problems and had his gun removed by police he was handled badly and is a rogue the more colourful rumour was that the real reason for not allowing anyone on was the amount of smuggled cigarettes was too great to hide he also runs a fishery shellfish enterprise that is on the beach at odd times he was found guilty and fined 350 for his trouble but never paid because he went bust as everything is in his wife and kids names this is all unsubstantiated rumour but quite amusing when push comes to shove the ministry could do nothing with out the cooperation of the farmers the vet students have arrived and i feel a bit guilty about not having them to stay but i feel i still need space at the moment so they are making do with the royal oak prayer quad with the lads which was good i still has not got stuff for magazine and spent time praying tues the dates important cos its my birthday 39 today the kids all brought presents in and had breakfast in bed it was really nice the number of ordinary calls to ill animals is increasing rapidly went to 2 new restocking farms today i think one a day is probably enough they were both full of stories about the ministry and wanted to unload to some one who understood the first was particularly upsetting in that i was admiring his new parlour and set up that he has put in while waiting the 4 months he was then talking about all the animals getting slaughtered and his wife was fighting back tears she is also very unsure about whether they are doing the right thing by investing in the new parlour she is very unsure about the future and as they are both reaching 50 is it the right thing to be doing unfortunately i think she is right but i couldnt say that and made reassuring noises as they have spent the money and it is too late now the future for dairy is not good the price is going to continue to be at world prices which with the current exchange rate is uneconomic in the uk the second farm was sheep with drop and they were grazing over the burial site as they had planted carrots and turnips on the surrounding field i couldnt listen to another set of woes as i was still upset from the first lot so kept conversation light and on sheep weds i never realised that fmd is like any other grief there are anniversaries to get through and fears and barriers to be put to rest i was on a farm to give certificates to 2 heifers sold in calf they were all saying it was a year to the day that fmd hit the village the ai fellow was there as well and he was talking about what he had been doing he was saying that he thinks it will be years before everybody returns to normal he is revisiting farms where he was helping with the slaughter for the ai and was saying he had to take a deep breath every time he returns to one of these farms there was a partners meeting at lunchtime as usual aw turned up late but finally decided to advertise to see whether there are vets out there who will come to work in fmd country it is a bit frustrating as i foresaw that we would be busy and we could have nabbed d before longtown but gg ever cautious we went completely around in circles trying different options but as with everything else the only prediction we can make is that we know that we dont know so much depends on govt decisions on supply of pharmaceuticals to farms and on the future of the svs state vet service for who we usually do 15 of our farm work for and currently do 50 for thursday tomorrow i will get a lunch break this is my resolution have not managed to stop for lunch this week yet as farm calls keep coming in and partners meeting today was geckos bums and goose bums rectal prolapses variety is the spice of life also had much laughter over watching norman in the bath jgs tortoise which has come out of hibernation early and is anorexic much clunking and bumping 2 lambings and cow caesaer after hours so busy on call it was also the last house group so it was end of an era we have been having them in our house for the past 6 years with different folk and have had god speak to us and to others through it but it is time to move on friday started with another caeaser and early morning start and didnt get my lunch break time to reconsider things again had folk for dinner which had been arranged a long time ago it seemed like a good idea at time and was enjoyable but after a 14 hour day yesterday and a 10 hour one today i was not feeling life and soul of the party one couple are still trying to decide the future of their farm they are thought out progressive family farm and yet they are not convinced about what to do he finds it difficult to because there are three generations to consider his father would go out and buy stock tomorrow and his son wants to come home to work but they feel he should broaden his options very difficult he was also saying that he ha d helped a neighbour who flagged him down as he was going past he wanted help to move a cow that was down the last time he touched a cow it was when his own were slaughtered it knocked him off his stride for the rest of the day had a good time as when i looked at time was 1 o clock sat 23rd march wife went on her counselling course for day which left me a bit on edge this morning as i was on call sat am and looking after 4 kids but they managed with out me back sore and stiff as ive missed the gym but will go back on tues still managed to get a bit done in garden it was a great spring day and made me feel like summer was coming went to beckfoot to beach in the afternoon with kids evening went to bed early as shattered sun 24th back stiffer after gardening and went to church davidsons have moved into thursby so will be good to have them around and at school watched northbank beat stanwix u12 s 6 0 the boys played well and passed the ball around a lot son played well too must work less w es and watch the boys play more mon 25th looking forward to finishing on friday as another large test today started at 8 30am and finished at 6pm but at least it meant i was out the office and did not have to face any of the usual hassle factors it was good to see as the place is always well run and organised a real family farm with three generations working together but granddad at 75 still very much calling the shots the craic was good at lunch as their sister is friendly with my wife so i got custard with my rhubarb tart my wife doesnt like custard so i never get as i cannot be bothered to make it for one as the kids never have it and so are very conservative they were asking my view of the future too as they have sold bullocks privately ie not through the auction as they are on 21 day stand still and the price is poorer than selling via the auction defra will not allow any trade through an auction if the farms are on standstill why if they are dead in24hrs there is minimal risk and they are putting everyones backs up tues 26th went for my first visit to another restocked farm and during the 4 month waiting as well as visit new zealand he has made a sandstone plaque 3ft by 4 ft and carved on the date they went down with fmd and the number of cattle it is almost a head stone type memorial the cow had digestive problems a right displaced abomasums rda probably due to the transit and change in diet weds 27th small animal day and trying to get everything organised for going away finalised advert in vet record for new assistant lots of adverts but no applicants all the local practices are advertising and there are no takers i hope it is because there is a shortage and not from lack of confidence in the area defra havent paid us for a lot of visits and that needs sorted they have no record of the visits i e they have lost the claim forms in the mountain of paper work they will only pay on the originals as if there are duplicates they will probably pay on those as well being that well organised they are really slipping back into their old ways of paper chasing the frustration without and within is palpable i should just quit as i will be a civil servant once removed unless things change the secretarys are both on fmd funded computer courses so digging out the paper work will have to wait thurs 28th demob happy just the test to read and i am off for 10 days the test was clear but very busy as a locum came for a look around to see if he would do sa for several days a week any help i think will be a help good friday missed out on church as one of the boys through a complete wobbler he is not very well just tired at end of term i hope then went walking with family and friends i must learn to shoot him down when he says it is a little scramble what he means is its too dangerous for kids but it was fun and we enjoyed it the weather was glorious and the fells were crowded tourism is back went up over sharp edge to blencathra kids as well holiday sat 6th april came back on the late boat from belfast and arrived in to wigton late the grandparents were sad to see us go but i think they had also found us all quite tiring the kids have enjoyed playing squash so that is something i would like to continue sun 7th april beautiful frosty morning and went to church where the speaker arrived much to ss relief just as he was announcing the last song before the sermon i think he was wondering what he would say instead of the prepared sermon went to son s foot ball cup match this is 10 year olds we are talking about and the referee was making several bad decisions including a dubious penalty against his team northbank the crowd well about 30 of us which for his team is a big crowd was getting a bit restless robbie was sprinting down the wing in front of his dad and me when he was sent flying by one of their team his dad then shouted ref if you gave a penalty for them for nothing you could at least give us a foul for that at which point the ref blew his whistle and came across and thumped him the whole thing was about to descend in to a brawl as i and another parent were trying to restore calm by telling everyone to walk away which they did followed by the northbank kids game abandoned so we await the fas report so with that and the carlisle manager being sacked and the knightons trading insults with the prospective buyer for carlisle the future of football in carlisle is not looking good mon 8th last day off for sorting out vcf magazine and getting up to date with paper work etc did carrock fell where we did not see another walker it was sunny and cold but beautiful at night went to crusaders area meeting where they are trying to get some one to arrange area events for kids and to support the group structure there is no one who has the time and no funding to appoint a post to do it so went around in circles too a large degree but meeting decided to try and raise the funding tues 9th feel like i should have handed in notice after today it was awful going back the response to the advert for a new vet now stands at 2 students who have yet to qualify i had harry giving me grief over the fact that defra promised him that we would test his cattle prior to turn out i e end of march but havent told us very helpful his allocation has not even come through they are useless i was at one farm that has half restocked because the parlour is not yet restored the heifers are calving and he is milking into a dump bucket and throwing the milk away he cant get more stock in because he is waiting testing for brucellosis as his heifers were on the same farm as the french heifer that went down he wanted to bring them direct to his own farm they would not let him bring the heifers to his own farm because the paper work was not through and they not would allow multiple drop offs idiots so with high levels of frustration and complete overload it has not been a good start back tomorrow i must see what is hiding in my in tray as i never had a chance to look today weds 10th quieter day and managed to catch up with paper work and have had a lot of next week mapped out so feel more in control night work seems to be easing with fewer lambings students seem to be enjoying their time with us even though there is too little time to actually teach them but it is a luxury to have time to go through cases with them as we take them on a voluntary basis and at the moment lunch is a higher priority than their education im a selfish brat thurs 11th spoke too soon chaotic again managing workload with so much fire brigade work is not so easy fire brigade work is the emergency work that needs seen urgently ie today if not now son isnt so well again he tired easily again today so must make an appointment for him but very vague signs fri 12th half day finish yo i could really get into a 3 and a half day week the down side is it is because my wife is going away for the w e so i have to be finished by 3 15 for kids as i want to have the people carrier i also have to muck out my car it is not as bad since fmd another positive contribution that fmd has made to my life i actually feel morally obliged to keep my car from being a biohazard ok i still needed a wheelie bin to through all the post it notes and bits of cardboard and the excessive packaging that surrounds any medical product that seems to find its way on to the back seat of my car i always remember reading a sunday paper article about what cars different people drove and what they had lying around in the back seat and what this showed about their personality im sure that they would have had a field day with my car you use to be able to tell farm vets cars from a mile off but they have all gone clean and shiny sat 13th april a week end off and the thought of a saturday morning lie in unfortunately there is a football tournament in carlisle today 9am start so up as usual and get into town but managed to get to staples which i have been trying to do since my birthday to spend my birthday money the difference between men and boys is the size of their toys as my wife frequently reminds me so i am the proud owner of a digital camera the question is when will i find time to set it up took back all the library books and made the mistake of checking with the librarian who says we also have a talking book and another junior fiction well i thought it would have been lucky to get them all if they ever bring in fines for kids we are sunk how does my wife keep track of them all came home and enjoyed the good weather and fortunately the team bottomed out so didnt get into the next round v asked as she dropped other son off from the football where has wife gone as other son has said she was away at gruerly where is that she is away for a girlie w e so we had time for a family cycle ride out from kirkbride to the coast it was beautiful and we had a really good time came back via wigton for supplies as we are in desperate need of a tesco shop sunday 14th had an easy day and cooked with a for tomorrow as my wife is doing supply next week its ages since i have cooked even made scones church was a video sermon which was ok but different saw p he s back from nz so will have to arrange to catch up he was incredibly jet lagged it must be sunday cos everyones in church 36 hrs travelling wife arrived back from her week end away at capernwray having had a week end that sounded as if they had all gone back to their teenage years with midnight feasts and playing tricks on each other she was quite tired and pleased to have an early night mon 15th the diary has unfortunately died at this point and it is 3 weeks later and i am going back and filling in the details as i remember them it is probably the bits that are really important but as there is too much going on the diary has remained on my to do list together with my tax return and a small mountain of paperwork the reasons are varied but one of them is that my youngest lost his temper with the computer and slammed down the mouse this broke the left right bar so the pointer would only go up and down now the practice manager who learnt his computing in the dark ages of doss assures me you do not need a mouse to operate a computer but as i have enough problems trying to get the stupid machine to do what i want it to with a mouse forget trying shortcut keys and arrows so a new mouse was bought which the man assured my wife you just had to plug in and hey presto it would find a driver and work blank screens consult hand book try inserting disk try exploring disk try windows disk consult practice manager who as you may have gathered is my it guru he says you may need to install a driver if it doesnt work it will be on the disk i dont have a mouse to use to try to find and install a driver he assures me again you dont need a mouse i understand why my youngest son lost his temper with the stupid machine being the mature adult that i can some times be i walk away to cool off but dont feel like trying again for 24 hours with a new mouse which the man assured my wife you just had to plug in and hey presto it would find a driver and work plugged it in it said looking for driver installing driver and it worked why why not first time tuesday thursday riding lights went to see riding lights who are a christian theatre group who were performing at the senior school at night they were extremely funny and hard hitting and very pointed all at the same time it was a magazine of sketches on all sorts of different things modern interpretations of parables and bible stories sketches asking questions about society and how we view things very difficult to put into words but thought provoking on lots of levels sat 20th april to weds 24th april lost in the mists of time thursday 25th starting the diary again after having missed 10 days with too much going on the spring work is chaotic with a lot of problems we are trying to run the practice on 5 vets plus a part time locum instead of 7 full time at this time of year i had said we should have advertised and tried to get some one at xmas but the view was that falling milk price would mean less work but the defra tasting is more than making up for those who havent restocked and those who have gone out of dairy which brings us the most work but saying i told you so does not help so ill just keep my big mouth shut as the practice manager says the good old days when we new what the rota was going to be and we were not just making up it up as we went along we have had over a year of crisis management now the end must be nigh as this is a health survey apart from feeling pressure of work i am have also managed to catch ringworm on my leg a fungal infection from cows and it is itchy and sore and not responding to my treatment i will have to get gps opinion friday 26th april remind me next time not to try to interview during busy periods it is very embarrassing to turn up late to the interview we had a chaotic day but managed to interview her she is frighteningly well prepared and had lists of questions i hope we didnt put her off by being so disorganised i think the sandale view will be more influential as part of the interview we always take them up to sandale viewpoint to show them the practice spread out panoramically beneath them well it sold me the job after finally getting finished i was exhausted but had people to dinner so had to stay awake and be sociable sat 27th april had folk to dinner last night which after working flat out was probably not such a clever idea didnt fall asleep but this morning i feel like death warmed up and we have another interview this morning i dont think i can make a good impression so it is a good job that i am looking to employ rather than be employed the candidate is from a kirby stephen farmers daughter and so is at an immediate advantage she seems fine so we will offer her the job the question is should we offer them both a job went to bed feeling ill and with a migraine and slept all afternoon and then in bed for 9pm sad or what sun 28th feel a lot better for the sleep and church was af speaking he is always entertaining his opening slide was knighton in for those of you who do not keep up with the footie in carlisle michael knighton is the hated owner of carlisle united who is trying to get the club relegated so he can build houses on the land he is destroying the club and it is not popular anyway the second slide was here for grace and forgiveness he went on to say that church should be where the failures should feel loved and welcome as we all need gods love and forgiveness he was really good both entertaining and making real points spent time in the garden and playing footie with the boys mon 29th monday morning and that sinking feeling not helped by my wifes teaching 3 days this week and a trustees meeting for borderline which means additional pressure after running around all morning and working out the amount of holiday we are all owed the conclusion is that we will employ them both i am owed 46 days holiday so if i can take 2 months off that plus the sabbatical i am owed means i could take 5 months off i wish it were happening the 5 vets are owed over 200 days between us which will be almost a vet for a year as this is a health diary i should mention my visit to the doctor after a half an hour wait past my appointment time fizzing knowing that i would have to make the time up later in my evening i finally saw the doc who agreed with my diagnosis and agreed with my treatment only an occupational hazard of farm work ring worm he did take scrapings but that is all tuesday testing next door why do we always end up working in a pen under the railway in a middle of a stream why they cannot build a pen on dry land away from the trains i dont know i suppose they have always done it that way but the first you know of a train is the thunder as it goes over your head which startles the cows who jump sending a muddy slurry flying everywhere william is still not wearing a helmet for the quad bike as he drives around despite his fathers protests their neighbour the other way is brain damaged after coming off his weds 1st of may mayday the radio is predicting riots in paris against or for le pen anti globalists in london but i feel a real peace with the turning of the month it is funny how a different month can make you feel so different april is always the worst month at work with a lot of routine work dehorning and testing and a lot of lambings and calvings and emergencies even though the beginning of may is just the same i always feel we have passed the peak and we can cruise into summer the fact that both have accepted the jobs and that we will have more cover helps though they will not start until summer thursday 2nd may in spite of all yesterdays predictions there wasnt any trouble in paris or london only cyclists causing traffic jams what is about the media that they have to report the bad news not the good news i havent seen anything beyond the cumberland news on the farms restocking stopped at beckfoot on my rounds and sat in the sunshine on the beach for 10 mins and thought this is the life though in talking to one of the neighbours one of the farmers is having real problems getting motivated he had milking ayrshires really quiet cows who you could do anything with their idea of getting excited was turn out time and moving into a fast amble to the spring pastures he has bought in really wild suckler limousin xs if you look at them the wrong way they put their tails in the air and take off i was there dehorning and we lost one which jumped over a gate another put its tail in the air and took off only stopping when it came to the block wall at the end of the yard unfortunately it didnt stop fast enough and crashed headlong into it it now has a definite tilt to it the wall isnt too hot either i think if i had to look after the likes of them i wouldnt be too keen to get out of bed either friday 3rd may spoke too early about things easing off 2 bad calvings a caesarean and testing plus the usual ill animals but got finished for 5 45 and took my wife out for dinner at the cockatoo in cockermouth very pleasant but while she wanted to go on to socialise at 10pm i wanted home to bed sat 4th may off yippee took the kids to nichol end and went canoeing on the lake got absolutely frozen but was really good fun it rained in spite of all the good weather forecasts but with our style of canoeing we are always soaked anyway had a picnic on one of the islands and had fun came back and slept for the afternoon should have taken the boys to see the fa cup but they were happy playing around watched ghandi on dvd at night it is a very moving film and the ambiguities and politics came through to a muted extent which was interesting it often makes me wonder about how much of govt policy is personality driven again the inability of individuals to fight the system came through the front page of the times this morning was on a toddler who had died from post op haemorrhage following the use of disposable instruments in a tonsillectomy large amounts of money have been spent on disposable instruments that are always inferior to good quality surgical kit several people have died because of their use because no one wanted to take the very small theoretical risk that they may transfer nvcjd the approach to risk management and prioritisation within government and the civil service is very poor but to be fait to them the press is not helpful i would like to see prescott stand up and say that he wants more deaths on the railways but he never will if less money was spent on safety on the railways more trains at more convenient times were run at lower costs then there would be fewer deaths on the roads but as no one holds politicians responsible for deaths on the roads it aint gonna happen sun 5th may church was dn who is brilliant at getting the kids involved son s face lit up when we were walking in to church to see him walking down botchergate with guitar in hand he had a skin that had been cast from a snake and based his songs with the kids and his talks with them on being a new creation cor 5 vs 17 getting rid of the old self and hence the snake skin he is brilliant on the guitar and a real performer wasted as a tax inspector mon 6th may maybe getting the kids soaked and frozen on sat was not a good idea as they are all coming down with colds now tim is very chesty and was up in the night hot and wheezy any infection always goes for his chest so helvellyn will have to wait for another day so concreted posts and pressure washed the yard the boys loved helping then demanded i play football as payment ag was here as his dad was dropping off the caravan after being away for the w e p called up from manchester en route for thailand she is handing in her notice and going booked summer holiday in france and now have to work out what we are doing on the way there and back tues 7th may went testing but i really do have the kids bug and feel hot and feverish went to bed for rest of day weds 8th didnt feel like getting out of bed but went to work first was a deer rta i was supposed to meet a police car there but no police either car or policeman i am glad it wasnt too controversial or important so i have taken all details and hope that that is the end of it this afternoon was spent chasing stirks around a field and abbeytown we dehorned them they should have been done this time last year but were nt because of fmd theyre now 2 yr old which means they were really too big to go around upsetting two went through the dyke one way the other went through the other side into some ones garden and on to the abbeytown road so it was a bit of a rodeo it ended up charging m who hurt his shoulder trying to escape he was not happy as this morning he got his letter asking him to cut back is milk production he had jokingly asked what was i doing this winter as all the farmers will have given up by christmas the long term out look is not good but at least we will have 2 new graduates in training to cope with the upturn when if it comes thurs 9th day off unfortunately spent the morning shopping in carlisle which meant wandering around shops and trying to find clothes i needed a my daughter as my dress sense leaves a lot to be desired and she keeps me right met gb another carlisle vet which was good i havent seen him for a bit had lunch out which was nice though also got all the bits for the tennis net so will be able to get it up the annoying bit was i got a parking ticket which sent my blood pressure up now i know i often park with out paying and in the wrong places that is just living dangerously but as we were in carlisle and had decided to go out for lunch and for some reason i was in wife s car as usual there was no change in the car well as usual there was no money at all i only had myself to blame i know she never has change in the car i only had enough for 2 hours in my pocket which to be honest is in my opinion quite long enough in carlisle shops so on the way to lunch out i made a special trip back to the car park armed with coins ready to pay the city council the extortionate fee so i could spend more money in carlisle city shops the first machine refused my coins i even tried a 2nd machine that also refused to accept my hard earned cash so i left a note saying the machine was not working in the windscreen and yes you guessed it i came back to find a traffic warden giving me a ticket who justified his action by saying there w ere 4 machines from which i could have bought a ticket grrrrhhh fri 10th finish of another week with more tb testing a lot of cows from netherlands mris meuse rhine issel very good beefy looking dairy cows dual purpose why we have to test them i dont know but we have to keep page st happy they were all tested prior to export from holland and they want them tested again the farmer is very bio security conscious and has his land all in a single block now bounded by roads or arable cultivation all the other cattle he insisted were tested and he had the results prior to purchase in spite of all his good sense he is still going on about the missing vials from porton down and other paranoid conspiracy theories on the spread of fmd but a part from cold flu feel as though things are getting back on track we can look to the next 12 months with confidence thereafter depends on whether the wto wins over the eu to get rid of subsidies or whether maintaining the food supply within the eu is seen as important the one thing the fmd has taught me is that you never know what will be coming next i do feel guilty about saying there should be more train crashes after seeing the crash in the news today at potters bar sat 11th may working the w e again saw another calf with ccn caused by a deficiency of b1 usually rare but seems to be much more prevalent this year due to old grass on pastures dont know had a greyhound client in bringing in a greyhound on behalf of some one else who has been chased from the practice for non payment so had a stressful half hour negotiating with an irate idiot but he paid his old bill and stumped up front for the new one and seemed placated treating the animals is easy spent the afternoon in the garden and fixing up the tennis nat we were given an old second hand net so i have fixed up on the concrete and it was good fun playing with the kids the concrete is not level and has lots of loose stones so the bounce is a bit erratic went to a 50th birthday party for which i was teased at work but i maintain we are friends with the children in their 20 s it was a good craic and the food was brilliant there was one of the partners from a lawyers from carlisle there complaining that he could only have an hourly rate of charging out at 185 consequently he couldnt attract good lawyers to his firm because the city firms were offering far greater salaries and were charging out their juniors at 200 i couldnt admit that our hourly rate is only 45 and that i think that 45 hour is a lot of money should have been a 9 to 5 lawyer sunday went to church nl but was still half asleep from my late night spent all afternoon and evening out on calls was ok till the midnight call when i decided that being a lawyer was probably a much better idea monday 13th half asleep after the w e so took a little while to get going having kept this week a bit quieter as there should have been a lot of last minute dehorning and castrating it hasnt come in so we really are quieter so did some office work but trying to work out why the two computer systems we have do not have the same balances on their accounts with a tired sore head is not worthwhile but it was preferable to sorting rotas so i when came home i sat and read tintin much to my wifes disgust i also looked at my cash flow predictions which were totally out of line i usually take a pessimistic view so as err on the side of caution but they are totally out fortunately the right way the partners think it is a waste of time and effort to try to predict how much of the bills the farmers are going to pay in any month some pay every month but most pay every now and again either when they have time or money or when the accountant or vat man needs the books i suppose they are right who cares so long as they do pay also finally caught up with gp as ringworm still not getting better so finally on antifungals if the farmers couldnt get hold of a vet pretty quickly to discuss whats going on they would give us earache tuesday 14th halfway through may and time to get the rest of the planting done in the garden beautiful weather and feels like summer is here gg had a visit from trading standards over the bulls for which he had given a certificate of fitness to travel there is now no slaughterhouse within an hours drive of here for cattle ulverston is the nearest if an animal is not fit to be transported alive for some reason eg because it is lame or blind etc then it has to be shot on the farm and the carcase transported to the slaughterhouse however under the new meat hygiene regulations of 2 3 years ago the carcase has to arrive within an hour of being shot which was fine while black brow was operating the slaughterhouse but since it has closed there are no options for any animals to be shot on the farm unless you put it in your own freezer for your own consumption thus whereas if there were borderline cases before they were shot on the farm and the carcases transported now the pressure is to get them transported alive or the farmer loses the value of the animal 500 600 and has to pay 75 to get them shot and disposed of the sooner either carlisle slaughterhouse or black brow slaughterhouse get working again the better weds 15th day off spent the morning catching up on paper work feel better for it but never my favourite job but all the bits and pieces are in place for my tax return just waiting for the final few pieces of paper wrote a caustic letter to council about the parking ticket but sent them a cheque as not worth the fight went to up front art gallery for lunch some one had made a set of peat rings with a golden bowl at the centre and wanted hundreds of pounds for their art creation if you dont ask you dont get spent afternoon running the kids as wife was taking a in town for hair cut and girl time last football match for northbank and son lost thursday 16th the long lunch is back there wasnt much happening vet wise but still a lambing today as the season has dragged on one restocking farmer was in today with a ewe to be lambed of the 200 sheep he is supposed to be fattening for market 20 have lambed the guy he bought them from is adamant they were never near a tup someone needs to tell him about the birds and the bees there was also a good if slightly apocryphal story from defra licensing when they needed a licence to move a bull the licensing department asked is this bull going to be used for breeding purposes yes is the farmers reply will this animal be coming in to contact with any other animals friday 17th another tb test another restocking farm more stories the best one was the fact that their cattle had lain for a week in the pasture field after being shot they decided to plough it out for barley in the back end having spent the summer pressure washing the farm buildings to a gleaming state of sterility where the animals had lain there was still obvious contamination with blood etc when they ploughed it but having failed the buildings on specks of dirt defra were just not interested in contaminated blood stained earth they had also phoned the day before i arrived to send some one out to arrange tb testing the chaos in there continues sat 18th may i am to be best man a friend was around last night with news about getting married we have a wedding every month for the next 4 months must be something in the water at the moment unfortunately it meant it was a really late night celebrating and i am working the w e again so getting up for saturday morning surgery was a bit grim i survived and so did most of the animals the worrying thing is i am sure that drs are just the same spent the afternoon playing football and tennis with the kids in the yard and mowing the grass the farmers are all now silaging and the roads are full of tractors flying around at all times of night and day sat evening went with wife to hear sa speak at kds it was good to see him and clare again we visited them in bombay at the height of fmd and it always puts things back into perspective he runs a mission hospital in thane an outskirt of bombay they have it self funding by charging the rich for luxury service a long way behind the nhs and providing a basic service foc for the average indian he is now talking about trying to raise funding for building an aids hospice to provide pain relief and dignity to those who are dieing of aids because of the stigma and cost and risk of cross infection of both hiv and tb a lot of aids patients are just thrown out of their homes and hiv ve babies are abandoned as he says there is an epidemic sweeping bombay that will leave a lot of orphans and cause secondary epidemics because of immuno suppression and it is not really being addressed very thought provoking and makes the millions wasted on fmd look very sick in a global perspective sun missed church in the morning as was seeing to cats and dogs in the surgery and dripping calf in the large animal bay spent most of afternoon on visits all work and no play is making me a grumpy boy 2 w es in a row is not good mon aw is in worse mood than me and at least i have worked w e she is winding every one up with her attitude it is sthg that will have to be addressed but will have to be a partnership decision wife was interviewing fc tonight at christian viewpoint in carlisle and came back full of it she is good with people and interviewing she was also challenged by what f was saying about the importance of treating people as loved and valued by god in some ways very similar to s about valuing aids patients we are all valued by god tuesday missed gym for 3rd week i am going to be getting really unfit i was on duty and had spent time talking with folk at work valuing them but it was nice as a came out with me and she always likes being on call with me but i never seem to know whats going on in her mind still waters run deep weds dad phoned and has decided not to come on the w e away this w e it is a family reunion but it looks like it will be just our family and ps but the kids love meeting up with the cousins even a who will no doubt complain that there should be some girl cousins she is the only girl on both wife s side of the family and mine it is a bit worrying in that he is losing confidence in doing anything outside his normal routine it is at times like this you realise london is not really very close the other problem is working so many w es doesnt give much time for the travelling up and down to see him thursday g was away on a course yesterday and came back full of doom and gloom for along time we have relied on the drug sales as a substantial part of the business there have been various government reports that have queried our monopoly and there is a move to insist that we provide prescriptions for all the drugs and then allow the farmers or pet owners to buy the drugs from whatever source they want internet pharmacy or us it means however that the professional fees will inevitably have to rise to compensate which means it will be uneconomic for the farmers to use us so they will not in the present economic climate which means no job carlisle brampton and dalston vets are all starting to write prescriptions which means that we are going to have to follow suit the farmer who rents my field was silaging tonight i got back from house group to find a tractor follow me in to start rowing up as they had been at it all day i decided to take the gates off their hinges as it is a narrow gap and at that time of night a clunk against the pillar is ok but i dont want to have to replace my wooden gates they had just started to pick it up when i went to bed at 11pm so no idea what time they finished friday g is off ill help it looked as though i might miss out on the w e away as he is working the w e but the fact it would have meant 3 w es in a row and 6 nights in a row managed to help persuade one of the assistants to step in thankfully so i finished at lunch time and slept to catch up from the on call until the kids came home from school and set off for the w e saturday 25th may dovedale in the derbyshire peak district definitely should have more w es away and not working we had a great time with the cousins stayed at a farmhouse b b it use to be a working farm but is too high up and to small to sustain the dairy so they went out of that 3 yrs ago beef and sheep was not making any money so they have concentrated on tourism and grass let the fields his neighbours are now renting the land and farming it beautiful walk along the valley and had tea out relaxed and slept like a log sunday great british summer makes you wonder why any one would want to go abroad wet and cold so went to water world and watched the kids big and little go flying around the flumes it was good to catch up with my brother and family the boys would play footie all day long and be happy monday off to catch my breath and tidy up flat for tenants arriving thursday spent day trying to reduce the weeds in garden and went swimming at night the boys still wanted to play footie where do they get their energy if i could bottle it i would make a fortune tuesday it felt like hard work going back to work after time off i always seem to be tired and head achy it seems to be hard work to get going again ai just dont feel like doing anything including writing this diary but the good news is that we have a new booted bantie bertie the cockerel and he is now ensconced in his run we are hoping to get him some young ladies in the not too distant future he is cute and a is over the moon about him weds getting going again spent time talking with my wife who as always puts things back in to line communication went to do some pregnancy diagnosis early this morning and the farmer was complaining about the cost of his vet bill and is wanting to learn how to check cows to see if they are in calf prior to drying off the whole economics of dairy practice with milk at 13p per litre is beginning to hit home to them cannot be nice starting up again to realise that you cannot make money at doing it one of the other vets is in really bad form this week and is causing a lot of friction and we will have to deal with it as the staff are up in arms at least i am off tomorrow prior to working jubilee w e my mother in law arrived which the kids love complete with her special treats for them snowballs went out for dinner with mother in law but too tired to enjoy it due to early morning caesarean thursday off spent morning getting flat ready as we have new tenants moving in and clearing up while the girls went shopping dry weather but intermittent heavy showers tackled the long grass at front but the grass got too wet and clogged mower picked up kids and did the fatherly bit went to bed early as head achy and washed out and caught up on zzzzs friday start of the jubilee w e and on duty for the next 5 days until 5pm weds evening work busy with bits and pieces and farmers complaining that it is too wet to silage one of the vets had issued a pets export certificate for a cat to come back into uk but had put it down for 2 years not one it is only valid for 2 years in dogs but 1 year in cats typical friday afternoon problem to sort out the help line is closed for training and maff offices are closed for the bh w e i dont think there is a way around it either but will not be able to sort it out till weds day and they are due on ferry on tuesday oops also a bitchs owner came in to ask if we were open tues as she is due on that date and will probably need a caesaer johnboy called in the evening wanting me to go to the loyal supporters meeting at carlisle united as a spy im on call so couldnt oblige thank goodness sat 1st june office staff were asking why is there only 2 vets on the whole w e and i am beginning to feel the same should have split it up and had more staff on but at least the others will get a break and come back refreshed but i feel like i am looking down the barrel of a gun horrendous calving on a heifer that was in calf by mistake to its father it was supposed to have gone back to its breeder but the buyer was still tied up under the twenty day rule the calf had died and was gassed up ended up by caesaering in spite of rotten calf 2 hours hard work and the heifer will at best be very ill for several days sun 2nd june a day of football went to church and made a quick exit to watch the football as with everyone else was quite disappointed at hebron at night dm had the goals and the reactions to them on the big screen which he linked to romans 12 therefore i urge you to offer your bodies as living sacrifices this is your act of spiritual worship talking about worship to god being everything we do including how we react to how the english football team perform very clever and memorable way of expounding the bible went straight on to son s football presentations which was quite fun there is a real football sub culture with the amateur football clubs in carlisle all vying for the top spot the old pals network and animosities seem to be very prevalent mon 3rd june busy night and early start 2 x prolapses why always at a bh the second one was a wild limousin heifer it charged me and sent me flying the only injury was a sore fist where i thumped it in the eye to try and deflect it as i was trying to get it away gave me a fright it was a heifer that was bred because he couldnt sell it store last year because of restrictions chatted to farmer who started getting up at 4 30 am during fmd because he couldnt sleep he is still doing it now he still has not got any sheep in because he cant face it he lost his sheep to the cull but kept his cattle i had started by admiring the view he said yeah it would be great apart from the damn windmills he has a brilliant viewing looking out over the solway and the great orton site and the windmills remind him and everyone else that their flocks are in a big pit he says he can still see them going and feels guilty i didnt have the heart to tell him that of the 10000 blood samples taken at gt orton only 2 were positive a very big mistake that has caused big hurt in this area and no one has admitted responsibility and no one ever will tues 4th june watched some of the jubilee stuff on tv in between calls amazing sight to see the mall full of people more than ever before yet rupert murdoch and his press would have us believe that the monarchy is finished we managed to cope with just the two of us on call so may be i was right also made a start on byre remind me next time we have a dinner party on a bh not to be working it as my poor wife had 4 kids and a dinner to prepare i was called out to a cow caesar at 3 30 and then had another call after that fortunately i had taken tim so there was one less to fight but got back to be told that i had to have a bath before i could help because i smelt evening was really good fun and hilariously funny so even i kept going to the wrong side of midnight which after an early start was pretty good going i will have to get phil to do his senator homes skit at the wedding weds 5th june did not feel like getting up this am at all and felt even less like going into work managed to extricate us from any problems with the cat with out its passport there is no give in the defra system which is to be expected richard had a suspect fmd calf on tuesday no wonder he was a bit jittery when i spoke to him later on even though you know that it probably isnt going to be a case and that the farmer is panicking it still sets the butterflies flying it was bvd spent over an hour and a half this morning on the phone sorting out what the aw calls the rubbish queries and being helpful and friendly and sorting out licensing and drugs and repeat prescriptions one was a woman complaining about the neighbouring practice which required a bit of tact i think the drs must have been as busy as us the tally for the celebrations are 1 off ill with flu and bad back one wrist sprained from scooter racing at a street party after all the kids had gone to bed and one who spent the w e visiting her boyfriend in hospital she had said that he needed to go in on friday but the doctors had put him off as it was the w e he was worse on sunday but had waited till after the football before ringing priorities priorities thursday went to house group which was really good and spent time praying for the group church area and for world situation friends are trying to work out what to do in india they are teaching at a boarding school in the south of india and have both their own family and also the school kids to think about the consensus is that the foreign office advice is aimed more at the indian and pakistani govts than the uk nationals ian is supposed to be visiting and has a flight booked so is still going at the moment i really cant believe that they would escalate the situation but it will be tit for tat and then going to the brink as neither will want to break face the ramifications of sept 11th still keep reverberating around the world as the balance of power alters makes fmd look like a picnic at least we have stable govt that says it abides by the laws friday the secretary asked this morning what did i want meaning tea or coffee and i replied as i had prayed wisdom but with 2 sugars we had a difficult partners meeting that lunch time poor timing and priorities again as england was playing i had assumed they would lose but the meeting went well and the issues were discussed amicably enough and frankly enough so we all know where we are at and issues were addressed but as james says not only about asking for wisdom but also putting it into action at night leant on the fence and talked to the neighbour as the thistles i was supposed to be cutting down carried on growing but it was a nice evening he works for stl the christian book distributors he was saying how the fire that they had just after he arrived at the time seemed a disaster and caused chaos but it made them make decisions that had to be made rather than continuing with the status quo and in hind sight was a very good thing i wonder when we look back whether the changes and opportunities of fmd will make us appreciate the decisions we have all had to make it made me think of the woman who came in today saying she was one of the lucky ones who didnt get fmd very much tongue in cheek as they are much worse off than those who did she gave up her job as they couldnt sell the calves as they were born and so some one had to look after them so she went back home to work on the farm her job of course has been filled in the mean time and she would have made a lot more money for less hassle if she had stayed sat 8th june finished the long period of work and on call on sat morning and it came down with heavy showers as we had hoped to climb helvellyn today it eased some what at night which was just as well as we were going to a bbq it was put on by a s african vet from defra who is now working in longtown the last time i drove through to charlie and ruths who were hosting the bbq was when the pyres were all burning it gave me a funny feeling driving back up there the food was good and the craic was good so we had a good time the kids would have kept going but they were beginning to get high the midges once you get north of the border are definitely worse we all had lumps all over in the morning sun 9th sb spoke at church on jesus healing the blind man at pool of siloam he was very easy to follow friends called in and stayed for tea he as usual blunt and controversial as ever he always has a good insight and dresses it up in taking things to extremes he is also very funny with it so had a good meal son is as high as a kite as he is going camping with the school this week so he has all his kit ready to go and would not settle to go to sleep and kept the other boys awake mon 10th pouring down in time for the school camp at borrowdale never mind theyll enjoy it any way 3 farms have had silage pits burst because the grass has been put in too wet if silage is made when the grass is too wet it flows very slowly and cannot support its own weight so it bursts the side walls and will flow out of the heap that it has been put in if there is plenty of effluent coming off it will usually escape from the normal collecting systems and if it gets into the becks it is worse than slurry hunters stream was black with effluent and the environment agency were out testing the water quality so they will be for the high jump the contractors are so far behind and the grass is getting so long and bulky that it doesnt dry out as quickly so there may well be a few more but at least the farmers will have had warning so it will be their own fault the school kids are back for their work experience week it must be hard for them to follow what is going on but they seem to enjoy them selves the worksheets definitely help to give some structure and a feel for what is going on crusaders meeting at night pretty disappointing response so not a lot we can do tues 11th june workload has set in and im just cruising and managed to get to the gym while on first so feel full of energy why do you feel full of energy after expending some spent half an hour on net trying to get holiday organised but finding places for 6 is not as easy the weather is better for son camping and should be better until the w e means we will hopefully be quiet at work as they all go out into the fields weds 12th no calls over night first time since finishing with defra not had a call at night summer is truly here there was a call just on half time at 815 which i did during the break so got to see the second half and england drew 0 0 but are through t o the next round caught up on paper work and have sorted a lot of things so they are in place for the 2 new vets thurs 13th meeting with bank manager for executive lunch sandwiches from bells he asked how was the new normality which seems an excellent phrase he seemed happy enough but it is always interesting to see how an outsider views the information given the problem is usually knowing the questions to ask i think that is probably he seemed happy enough but it is always interesting to see how an outsider views the information given the problem is usually knowing the questions to ask i think that is probably true of the inquiries into fmd unless you know the questions you will not get the right answers went abseiling up at sandale with the house group from church and had a bbq it would have been nicer if the wind hadnt howled i had gone prepared for british summer weather but it was still pretty nippy it was great fun fri read another test that had ir s for tb inconclusive that will have to be retested in 60 days while i was writing up the paper work the farmers wife was saying that the kids were all off school and nursery with hand foot and mouth she had taken the youngest who was ill with the middle kid to the doctor the doctor had said what it was and the middle kid burst into tears as he thought they were going to take her baby brother outside and shoot him it is funny but also very sad the same farmer was really fed up as the cows were all supposed to be tb tested prior to arriving on the farm he had also let them out into a long 5 acre field with the water troughs at the far end of the field half the cows had not found the trough and so were very thirsty by the time they came back at milking time the idea that you just go and replace the cows just like that is not quite the case sat 15th june saturday morning spent it gardening the strawberries are coming and even though the gooseberries arent quite ripe picked some to start the harvest and the one strawberry that was reddish then went to visit friend and the wide screen tv for the football match no one expected any more english progress but the lads surprised me and played a stormer so the game against brazil will become the match the practice bbq in watery june sunshine was good fun but the ground was too wet to play silly games or even footie the food was excellent aw was notable by her absence hey ho bbq is in need of a revamp maybe abseiling though i dont think i can see either r or aw going for it showed s around flat and met her parents remind me to be wise with my kids sun felt tired and ill and washed out after slowing down and switching off after a busy day yesterday and all week watched the ireland match which was very close spent rest of day sleeping or just chilling out mon went testing at k and td they are really nice lads but not too hot on the academic front but good fun they were in good form and hoping to get the low down on the new vets yes they are young free and single as far as i know i pity their chances spent a lazy day in the sun at a gentle pace so quite enjoyed myself caught up with the paperwork at night and feel mellow tuesday too many os one call was cancelled but the other one still wanted the call so some one went to the wrong o and i had to make a mad dash and pour oil on the waters to explain why we are so late oops so more testing and a quiet day wife also had her quiet day there was supposed to be a group of them going for a retreat day but the speaker had cancelled so she did it herself with r and it went very well she was exhausted after giving out all day met up with lads at night didnt get to gym again as i had to go and calve a schistasoma yuk weds tried again to work out what we are going to do with summer holidays no doubt we will get organised eventually came home early for lunch and had forgotten that it was coffee morning here so felt out of place amongst so many women skipped off early and went for a cycle to make up for missing gym did first part with a and annie and then zipped around for a bit which was good thursday k and t had an i r again i need a new supply of little green forms to put this in context prior to this year in 16 years in practice i have had 4 i rs i am doing that this week so another farm under restrictions friday bad hair day england lost och well never mind such is life richard drummonds report that the svs was unprepared yeah we had all been saying it but i did not realise that the svs had been saying it 2 years ago has been picked up by the audit office there is a report case of fmd in a pig from leicester mkt and i had another i r and met with jm a temporary vet with carlisle svs on why we had not done the tests allocated mostly cos they arent to do he also was very cynical about the changes in defra and the management ethos has not changed he brought a message back from them that the test we had sent back because the guy is an old recluse that is impossible to deal with we had to do as they did not have the resources what they are responsible for ensuring that they are done and sorting out the recalcitrant had the afternoon off and ran round after the kids while wife did reports next week must be better sat 22nd june wedding day for d and s yippee d and his best man and usher plus 3 others arrived last night and it was really nice to have young people around again i have forgotten how much i enjoy young people i must be getting too old and cynical c looked after our boys and a went into town it was really nice s could not stop smiling and it is wigton carnival day so there were two pipe bands as well which could be heard drifting over the vows was in his kilt i should have got mine on for the occasion the reception was at tullie house which is a really nice relaxed venue we were seated opposite friends so it was really nice catching up with them b d are just back from another wedding in vancouver and really impressed with bc they are out doors fanatics so the skiing mountains and whistler really is their thing barnes who was looking after the kids at night is going out there for his gap year to work in a book shop should be really great for him there was a celeidh in the evening but i only lasted for 3 dances i was absolutely exhausted i didnt realise how tired i was sunday fortunately it was a family service ie doesnt start until 1100 it was lead by the young adults group so was really fresh and good they also dont take themselves too seriously but do take jesus seriously and it was good monday missed swimming again cos work was really busy crusaders meeting at night at rydal very good met up with some of the leaders i havent met before folk who work with young people are always good fun and have a wicked sense of humour do you need one to do youth work or does youth work give you one tuesday diary did not get filled in from here on as on weds morning i reached into back of the car and my back went i tore muscles in it a long time ago and it often niggles but as long as i keep doing the exercises for stretching and building up the muscles it is ok but i have missed doing the swimming relevant any way saw stars and in agony so flat on my back and stretching every 2 hrs and sore saturday 29th june my back is slowly improving i can move around and type i can do the stretching ok but stiff and achy rather than spasm work must have been bad for the two left as it was going to be short staffed with out me dropping out nothing i can do about it the new vet called around to look at the flat before moving in a months time she came with her mother their farm was culled out with fmd late on and they had just got the herd to where they wanted the breeding her mum was talking about it was going through a grieving period and how some days it was yes carry on and get going again and other days it was why bother it is just all too much hassle it will take a long time for the memories in the farming community to fader and with the acknowledgement that it was much better to get the disease and get it over with the cooperation of farmers will be even less they are the 17th generation on the farm the whole concept of bio security needs to be looked at and farmer education on how the disease is spread the self imposed isolation of not sending kids to school etc is just stupid but to go against the flow is very difficult that as well as the defra imposed ridiculous rules they were not allowed to leave the house for 3 months they just view this as a punishment imposed because they refused to let the hefted flock be culled they were right not to the old tenants have moved out of the cottage eddie and ruth seemed to really enjoy it as a summer holiday while at work a change is as good as a rest so they say i have looked at jobs again but nothing appeals there is a job which i wouldnt mind doing as a consultancy but doubt anything will come will have to wait and continue to see what happens went out for a meal to giannis at night as my dad is up for the w e sunday p spoke at family focus at church and was very encouraging he is always a revelation as he takes things as they are not as they should be watched brazil beat germany to win the world cup wet weather and kids out of sorts and back still sore yuk monday drove for the first time and dropped my dad off in carlisle but it was pretty sore by the time i got back dad was in good form and he has enjoyed his time up here but he is getting older and with being in london we are going to have to visit on a more regular basis went into work and did some paper work and answered phone and felt better for doing sthg as pretty bored but couldnt sit still or really get going either came home and lay down again d came around at night called in absolutely hyper he and a going to split up which is not so good even if it is not that un expected the thing that has brought to a head is the fact a is seeing some one else who is also married not a good situation lads came around at night which was good fun and we had a good time tuesday i am now the father of a teenager as bday so it was good to see her opening her presents this morning back is easing a lot so did small animal today and i am moving freely but still doing the exercises as birthday is also always a time for reflection as she was born a year to the day after we arrived in cumbria so we have been here 14 years a long time the future is also looking a bit uncertain work wise with more farmers complaining about the prices of their milk and animals hence they dont want to pay their bills weds to saturday as usual the diary gets missed when the crisis hits so i am writing this on the following tuesday and bringing the diary entries up to date weds morning i was driving through wigton having done my first farm call since doing my back when there were lots of flashing lights and an ambulance and an unmarked police car with all its lights on going through wigton they stopped at the lay by in wigton high st the traffic was slow but i did not see anything later on i was coming back in to wigton from another call and the by pass was closed the office was full of news that the by pass had been closed because of a stabbing and that a welshman and a wigton woman had been taken to hospital and a wigton man had been arrested for attempted murder i got a sinking feeling as d had been around on monday saying about ali having a boy friend i said to wife but she said surely not i got back after work and a friend arrived and unfortunately it was d the story emerged over the next few days how he had forced his wife at knife point to take him to where she was meeting the boyfriend and there he attacked him the sort of story you only here about in the papers and crime programmes so we have had the police taking statements and trying to come to terms with it he is usually a mild almost submissive personality and he had flipped but really weird they have 3 girls who are now going to be really mixed up having a father who attempts to kill their mother is not nice so i missed the leaving party for the locum who has been working for us for the past few months which by all accounts was very good saturday 6th july still in shell shock over d and a i still cannot believe what has happened went in saturday morning and sorted my car and got testing list up to date there is a lot in the veterinary press about the future of the lvi system and the future of farm animal practice the future is not looking good the short term is fine if anything we will have a huge amount of work and we can live off the fmd capital that the farmers have but once that begins to run out they and we will be in serious difficulties the economics are against the farm animal practice went out for a brilliant meal and had a really good evening at cs her husband is a detective sgt and had been called out because there was yet another serious incident this time at a night club in cockermouth there is a 22 year old in newcastle hospital with head injuries so felt sorry for c as she cooked and hostessed with out her better half sunday church was good with sg on the character of god he was quite funny with his illustrations of fatherly things from his life espy as his son is quite a character met up with dc who was a defra vet from sa he was in good form and has another locum set up for when he finishes at longtown monday back into full swing again but not much happening read the test and felt a lot happier as i didnt have to leave the dreaded piece of green paper as everything passed of the farms i went on though it was interesting to note that the farmers are all having problems with their backs again while they were pressure washing and not amongst stock they were fine but going back to pushing animals around the bad backs are back the topic is probably raised because of the fact i have been off with a bad back du called in as he is replacing d on the railway until they can get something sorted on a more permanent basis he stayed for 2 years next door while doing his railtrack training the people at work cannot believe that dave has done sthg like this as he usually if anything a submissive guy du had just got the keys to his new house in manchester where he is based now and was not very happy to be posted back up to cumbria he hasnt even managed to move in tuesday work very quiet and long lunches good for getting other things done but pretty boring looked at rota and checked websites reports to be published on 18th july spent time sorting out rotas and booking up and reorganising my kit weds day off went into carlisle and was bounced by my wife in to getting my hair cut in what i assume is an expensive hairdressers she was getting hers done and dragged me in and it was a fait accompli at least i assume it is expensive as she wont tell me how much it is and she let me go off to tescos and said she would pay for both wandered around book shop in carlisle and met wife s mum off the bus the vet student from usa arrived for a couple of days jamie who is not as i assumed male but female it is amazing how you make assumptions when you read e mails and take messages she is in uk for 12 wks and friend has given her our address as his wife is about to have twins so he thought it better not to have more people than really necessary in his house there are a few babies at the moment got a photo of e this morning and friend called around to say other friends had had a baby but he couldnt remember whether it was a boy or a girl learnt later it is a boy thursday not a lot for j to see called in to see friends new kittens posh becks both have cat flu he is busy painting house and tidying up for the wedding never seen his yard as tidy must tell abbi to get a move on and maybe he will finish off some of the building work as well did 2 calvings in the afternoon and finally read through the audit office report which i downloaded ages ago they were pretty accurate apart from nick brown insisting it was all going splendidly well there really must be a better working relationship between the ministry svs vets and the vets in general practice and so much better communication the other point that is never made is that all farms should have a mass disposal plan as part of their iacs return in order to keep fmd on peoples minds as it is already disappearing as a part of history and history will repeat itself because nobody listens and most of the anguish and delays were in the disposal systems friday dropped j off in wigton to catch the train it is always strange with having students because they stay in our house they are very much part of our lives and then they drop out of our lives another former student who is just back from sa called in and it was good to catch up with her she was on her way back to edinburgh for her 5 year reunion he has been qualified 5 years and i thought it was 2 or three one of the vets was off ill so it meant a bit of a run around today as 2 others were on holiday but it was good to be busy and get some adrenalin pumping saturday 13th july working saturday morning on days like this i think it is great to be a small animal vet the consults were all straight forward and i could chat to the owners with out having to stop and think what to do about the animals that and 2 owners were really appreciative of what i was doing so felt good i think that is one of the things about working for defra no one appreciated what you were doing ok some appreciated the concern and effort and the way you did it but no one really thought what you were doing was good like putting pets down it is for the best but no one likes it beautiful day today too the sun shining and picking strawberries and having a bar b q was really very pleasant my brother always says the best thing about nz where he lives is that he can plan to have a barb in 2 wks time whereas here you have to go with the flow sun 14th first call so wandered around seeing ill cows several lots of drugs to put out as a lot for the restocking farms have yet to get their medicine cabinets back up to strength had a collie hit by a tractor and its eye had been knocked out of its socket urgh eyes give me the creeps mon 15th operating day as we are doing the anaesthetic monitoring so plenty of ops booked in health and safety requires us to check for operator exposure to anaesthetic gases as our new system has a scavenging system and is light years ahead of the one we use to have it is a waste of time but we have to have the checks done but i wonder how many other practices actually do we have never been checked up upon a police man arrived at the front desk while i was on the phone the head nurse disappeared as soon as she saw the marked police car which struck me as very suspicious after he had booked an appointment for his dog and he had left i was curious to know where she had disappeared to she had gone to check that the medicines cabinet where we keep the gun and dangerous drugs was in fact locked as while we are operating we keep it open so as to have easy access to the emergency drugs the gun licences insist that it is kept locked at all times and immediate access to a police officer coming to check it must be allowed and we never been checked up upon yet farmers are all busy with field work and are not wanting to even think about any routine work so it could be a quiet week tuesday 16th beautiful weather and raspberries coming along nicely wife s mum is busy making jam and mile high pies yum yum partners meeting at lunchtime why do they always make me so depressed the subjects were more of the same how do we cope with the changes in the drug sales prices and how do we compete with irish drugs being brought in illegally we got a little further forward and will hopefully be able to make a decision on it by the deadline in september we need to look at new ways of bringing in revenue streams but i dont think there is a willing ness to look at the radical so i will have to keep working away at it weds 17th met up with the lads last night to pray but the craic was good and did more chat and joking than praying twas good i is apparently having a good time at the cs lewis convention but has yet to open the book stall he sells books and specialises in antiquarian and first editions of cs lewis the one thing about the internet is that it frees up communication and searching for the really obscure sorry i the weather broke today and the rain came and with it all the calls as the farmers got all the routine stuff done which was good for the last of the school kids which have plagued us for the past few weeks vet students next but at least they can chat away with out me having to make all the effort thurs 18th went o a farm today which restocked in feb after doing its 4 months waiting and has yet to have a tb test asked him whether i should chase it up but he like everyone else should be leaving it to october and housing maff efficiency rules we also tested 44 imported heifers that were supposed to be blood sampled within 7 days of calving but they have been missed i have no confidence in either of the reports to actually achieve anything part of me feels i should try to contact the media and try to get them to push the agenda along but i dont feel it would achieve much apart from sticking my head above the parapet which would not do much i have asked for copies but none have arrived yet fri 19th demob happy im on holiday from 5 30pm so it will be good to catch up on all the things i should have done but not done the garden is a mess but we are getting on top of it slowly in some ways i am glad to be off when the lli is reporting as at least i will not get wound up so this is me signing off for the week next diary will be on sat week holiday week beginning saturday 20th july saturday 27th july having had a week off i am feeling a lot happier about life in general we have been to a few of the nights at the keswick convention it is an amazing set up with over 12000 people coming together over 3 weeks in keswick and meeting up for bible teaching and to worship god there is a big tent that is set up on the back of the convention centre by the time we arrive it is always full and we were not late on the friday evening there were people standing outside the kids went to a youth event on of all things ezekiel not exactly an easy choice of bible book to convey to 19 14 yr olds but they really enjoyed the wacky games and the way they mixed teaching and songs and games activities they seemed to be mostly uni students who seemed to get as much fun out of it as the kids my brother and family were up and the cousins love getting together and even a joined in the football and tennis even though her hand to eye co ordination is not the best she has taken up running every day so i have been out with her but my back is still not right and i can feel it at the slightest provocation must go swimming again my brother also asked wife what diy needed doing as he is a real enthusiast give me gardening any time so we made a door for one of the sheds which i have been putting off for the past 6 years as once i start there are another 5 to do he is also a sailing fan so hired a sail boat and went sailing which was great fun the kids had a canoe and we raced up and down the lake and the kids swapped around and went to explore islands it was really good the weather helped it was scorching we also went to a wedding of one of our close friends son i decided i am going to start teaching my kids the etiquette of weddings as the groom could have done a better job it isnt really his fault as he is young and has not thought things out sun went to the all age service at the tent at keswick there were too many kids even for me but the mix of action songs and asking kids things and an action talk meant that those leading it kept the kids involved it was good to see spent the afternoon on the lake it was really nice day mon yep it was a real monday morning with my in tray over flowing 2 rotas to sort and 2 weeks of testing to try to arrange the only goodish news was that the ministry have finally decided to put the restocking farms on annual testing which means at least we know where we stand and can plan it will mean a lot of work for us the bad news was that the oft investigation have sent us a horrific questionnaire which needs filled in and one of my partners has had a go and not got very far unfortunately and it needs to be in by tomorrow forget it the 2 new vets have started and so we are settling them in and they are picking up the ropes quite quickly which is ace on call at night out twice for bad calvings thats the end of my holiday f feeling good tuesday sore back from calvings and early mornings had forgotten i had arranged for some one to be with me all day today in a moment of weakness i had acquiesced to being put up for sale in a promise auction to raise money for african childrens choir so this was the promise being redeemed a morning with the vet so i put on my best charming manner all mr pr man and took her on a tour of the practice and on call and explained everything i was doing so it was a good thing we were not busy spent the afternoon consulting and supervising new vets and showing them the ropes weds we were suppose to be going walking up helvellyn but the torrential rain put us off so went into carlisle and did bits and pieces and i took kids to see stuart little 2 which is definitely one for the kids and jobbed around at home but the kids like it when we just potter around thursday felt really stiff and sore and decided again i must go swimming more often i just cannot seem to get there thats all must make time im working this w e and i am then off for 10 days finishing with fs wedding friends are up with their kids and it is really good to see them we dont see them that often but they are the sort of friends who you pick up on as soon as you meet them even if you havent seen them for ages m has left full time teaching as he couldnt cope with the pressure of all the paper work and hassle he is teaching supply and doing other things as well he is so creative and he has made a model of our house just while he was sitting chatting with us friday came home at lunchtime to see the kitchen table covered in drawings and paintings m had decided to have a painting day so all the kids were doing drawings and paintings he has done a watercolour of our house it is brilliant holiday for two weeks this is more a reflection of what i have been doing and thinking over the summer as i have not been writing up the diary but i want to put down some of the things that i think are important edited disclosive sat 24th aug another bank holiday w e to be worked but at least i am backing up our new young assistant we work a system where the new vets have a senior vet on call at the same time for the first few months so as to give them a hands on support and mentoring while this sounds very good and practical it is surprisingly uncommon when i started i was on my own from almost day one i started in august after getting married and in the second week of september my boss headed off to oman to do horse work out there the other large animal vet was off on long term sick and he could only get a small animal locum when i look back now that he left me in charge of the farm practice for 2 weeks after only being a month qualified i shudder but at the time i just got on with it sun 25th calvings coming thick and fast the good warm weather has made the grass spring and the cows are putting on too much weight and having problems j was at a football tournament at pirellis which i missed but he came back really tired having played his socks off did another pts put to sleep dog visit with assistant vet it is never the easiest of consults and she did really well she is finding her feet i find it hard helping people make euthanasia decisions over dogs so i feel quite strongly anti euthanasia when it comes to people mon 28th beautiful day too nice to work the morning was busy but the afternoon was quiet so i spent it lying in the sun dozing had bbq at night at js and chatted to a few folk who i know but not to speak to so was interesting spoke to one of our farmers daughters who told me her dad had just had his first calf since fmd and so he was really happy he had 2 holdings which were run as one he managed to keep his heifers which were on the second holding probably because they were the last ones in the area and these were the ones that were now calving he still blames the pyre from a neighbour for spreading the virus to his farm tuesday 27th the problem with having a day off is that you have problems stored up for when you come back today was really hectic finished at 6 30 after having come back from the belgian blue inspections to help out at surgery the inspections were fun but it gave me the creeps being in the mart and inspecting mouths as it brought back bad memories the mart is ridiculously clean and the last time i inspected mouths was for fmd after shooting a herd that was a dangerous contact i was trying to persuade london not to take out the other neighbour as well we got finished at 2am and went in for a cup of tea and to recover and the mother greeted me with the news that d had been next door and was starting to shoot them the other really annoying thing is that the basic hygiene is not being enforced and yet other rules are the rules are made in london by desk bound defra officials who dont have to implement them the mart uses mini dumper trucks to clean out the pens after they have been sold the same trucks are then used to put out straw and sawdust in the freshly cleansed and disinfected yards they are covered in muck and are a bio hazard m the owner of the animals we were inspecting put on her usual tantrum display to try and intimidate the secretary and inspectors which as i was expecting it i found quite amusing but i dont think she or they did had another bbq tonight with kids son cooked and loved it so i have found a new bbqer kids in brilliant form as they are enjoying being around and a has been baking weds 28th another tb reactor and the corresponding paper work and licensing had a weird oddball case in surgery and spent ages trying to take a history of what was going on the dog is not that unwell in itself but has an intermittent history of different things i look forward to seeing what it turns out to be or whether it resolves itself with time vetting is always varied j was at friends party after having a football school with blackburn rovers this morning so he was passed himself arranged to visit prisoner in prison on my next day off and went through a multitude of meaningless options to end up with a guy who sounded like he came straight off porridge it is amazing how intimidating trying to find your way around a bureaucracy can be i am not sure i want to go but thurs 29th from feast to famine not much work during the day at least al had 3 caesareans last night and was running out of steam by 5 oclock this afternoon meanwhile i did small animals and tried to organise my trip to london to visit my dad found web sites for chitty chitty bang bang london eye and madam tussards so should be able to book in advance if tickets are left for the half term week other children are staying so the house is full of excited kids friday 30th busy day sorting out the invitations to our open day 1st oct it is just a chance to get the farmers together we promised one to celebrate the end of fmd it is amazing going through the list off the computer how many farms are not restocked the list hasnt been updated since pre fmd as we dont really know how many will restock so we have been waiting for the end of fmd to redo it so there were a few deaths sales and moved away to take off the list time moves on sat 31st august last w e of the summer holidays we had a bbq at lunch time for borderline and then i promised to take the boys camping at bowscale tarn it was beautiful but really cold the weather was ok sat but sunday was glorious the boys wakened at first light so we climbed up on to the tops while the sun was still rising and it was one of those magical moments wonderful the boys were so excited and full of energy and so happy to be with their dad and enjoying life a time to treasure sun after coming down off the tops from bowscale tarn went to visit friends he is a vet in longtown and has just set up his own small animal practice in the north of carlisle the twins who are now 4 weeks old were wonderful there is always sthg very special about wee babies a was in her element with two to mother mon good weather continuing and so we are still quiet the vet student has arrived went blood sampling sheep for maedi visna to a farmer who imports and sells sheep as a bit of a dealer between him and his dad and his granddad they have 4 holding numbers which is making a mockery of the licensing system he knows a lot of the breeders and dealers and the yorkshire defra is even worse than this one and so the whole licensing system is allegedly being ignored there everyone in the office was trying to work out where we are going to go for the xmas party as it is now september tuesday it is friends last day at work tomorrow before the wedding so the girls spent most of the afternoon printing out posters and things to decorate his car before he goes tomorrow evening the farmers are phoning in to book tb tests for nov and dec as they know that we will be busy which makes life a lot easier for me we have sent out notes with the invitations to the open day and that has had a good response so we will start to get busy testing next week weds day off spent the morning fixing the shower drainage which had suffered from one too many footballs being kicked against it the problem was the broken part was also a metric to imperial converter one end was 40mm and the other was 43mm which once i discovered that was what i needed meant a trip to carlisle as nowhere in wigton had it so it got codged up with plenty of silicone the afternoon was spent going to visit prisoner he is the friend who stabbed his wifes boyfriend in wigton and so he is currently residing at her majestys pleasure in durham prison it was a very disheartening experience as with any organisation it takes time to work out where to go and what you need to get through the hoops i went from one part of the prison to another and backwards and forwards the staff where very friendly and helpful but they are all at fixed stations and so you are sent from one area to another the security although expected and natural still comes as a bit of a shock photographed in and issued with a barcode to get you in and out and you put all your belongings in a locker before you are allowed in of course i did not realise that you only need the id passport to get your bar code so i kept it to show at the entrance where all i needed was the bar code so they sent me back to put it in the locker prisoner was ok but he is still finding it hard to think about a future that does not include his wife even though the divorce papers are filed and he has done some pretty nasty things to her and the boyfriend he is pleading guilty and is expecting to go down for a good few years the whole visitors area was charged with emotion with people coming to see brothers husbands lovers there were lots of girls with young children coming to see their dads i felt very sad for them and for the kids who are growing up with out a dad or the stigma of a dad in jail his kids have written but he is realistic his wife is very anti him and they are unlikely to keep up with him in the long term as she at best is not going to be supportive at worst is going to try to dissuade them he was quite upset about that he is also not able to sort out his things or see his house before it is sold he did a lot of building work etc on it and has an emotional attachment to it but there is no real closure he had emotional problems before all this he is likely to have even more on his release his car on which there is still a car loan has been removed from the pound but he doesnt know where it is drove back over a66 very thoughtful and thankful for my family and freedom until the phone went to remind me i was on call and had i forgotten fortunately there were no calls as it takes quite a while to get from barnard castle to wigton oops thursday did my first isolation pens inspection which is a complete non sense the field has to be 50 m from any other livestock which in london probably sounds fine or in scotland where there are plenty of woods and other crops but here in cumbria where the main crop is grass and all the fields are grazed at this time of year then it is not so easy the forms are horrendous and the boxes to be filled in are greyed out to make it easy for you to know which boxes are to be filled in this obviously looks really good on a computer screen in london but on a photocopy writing in black ink makes the whole thing illegible but thats their problem when does common sense come in friday 6th september colleagues wedding one of the vets at the practice was married today at the parish church in wigton the wedding was some do he and his family in kilts there were over 200 at the wedding and reception at the grennhill hotel where brides uncle is a director the theme was an english rode and scottish thistle the flowers were all red roses in arrangements with thistles they were beautiful as was the bride he quickly adds there was a ceilidh afterwards and a fireworks display several of the neighbouring farmers complained to me the next day danced and talked the night away till after 2 am getting up the next day was a bit of a pain for morning surgery urgh sat 7th september why is it whenever you could do with a quiet day because of one reason or another it is always busiest managed to keep going most of the day with calvings and ill animals still recovering from the late night at wedding day was a bit of a wash out really sunday milk fever at 7 am to finish me off so missed church but went to hear sc at wigton in evening he is head of oasis trust and is very much a radical but believes in putting faith into action and was very challenging isiah 58 true fasting that god wants to spend your self on behalf of the poor in spirit wife went to hear the new bishop of carlisle who was speaking at hebron he is reaching out to all the local churches and seems to see outside the traditional denominational boundaries which is really encouraging monday had a crusaders meeting in rydal crusaders is a youth group organisation and i am on the area planning group we have had money given in a legacy to support some one full time to train leaders to organise area events and w e away and other joint activities which should be good it meant a rush and a long day so i am still feeling knackered from the w e tuesday i was almost speechless today the great era of decentralisation has hit defra i wish i rang them up because we still have not had confirmation for the appointments of our 2 new vets to enable them to do defra work what used to happen was that they went to a training session and chat with the dvm in carlisle and the appointments arrived 2 days later guess what all the paper work has to be sent to page st in london now and they have not got it back yet weds 11 09 02 it is funny how some anniversaries effect you and others do not i had just started back in to the practice when the hijackers crashed into the pentagon and the twin towers i was feeling at my most bruised and battered having had a major confrontation at defra and had to work through the psychological problems of being threatened and sidelined and yet wanting to keep my integrity by not reacting and blowing people out of the water the 9 11 bombers made me realise how fragile peace is and how fragile people are and the importance of not losing sight of the important things in life and trying to keep things in perspective people are more important friends and family and if i cant fight the civil service mentality that is their problem not mine i remember seeing one of the teachers husbands walking in to the kids school when i went to pick them up looking slumped and dejected and learning that their only son was in new york and they could not reach him 2 days later they heard he had visited the twin towers the day before and had taken photos from the top he was supposed be going back into the towers that morning but he had got up late and by the time he and his friends set off the towers had been hit the impact of the number of people who have either been in or visited the towers from all over the world does make it a potent symbol with worldwide resonance my sister worked in them for a while several years ago the anniversary brought a lot back up to the surface that i thought was past but was merely hidden thursday first on last night and 2nd on tonight so started early and finished late and running out of steam friday one of the farmers wives came in today for some wormers for her chickens that have gape worm she paid last months bill in cash as well as for the wormers 876 inc vat she is working away from the farm 2 days a week her husband is full time at a job he got after they went down with fmdi asked how her father in law who is 65 was doing he is lost and the farm is too quit its not right its too quiet they still have no animals back and are grass letting its funny she said whoosh and your life takes a complete change you never know whats going to happen next sat 14th september worked am and then had rest of w e off hooray sunday monday son s footie tuesday partnership meeting at lunchtime so had a sore head by the end of the day but a lot of good decisions made so feel as though we a re moving forward weds off as working the w e so caught up on paperwork and stuff at home and then went into carlisle to go shopping for lots of bits and pieces and a new bathroom thursday dvm called in to update us waste of time and i had forgotten what an annoying man he is a real career civil servant bureaucrat who has forgotten what real life is about if he ever knew had one of the vets around for tea as i was backing her up spent the evening playing take two and had fun friday a very bad day at the office dear oh dear oh dear the day was great to start with headed down to iselgate to see a lame bull to give it a certificate they are still suffering from both the financial and emotional scars of fmd mind you they were always odd she was talking about the isolation that was hard to break out of and get back in to doing things again they were also hoping to retire when they were 50 but bse hit so they decided to keep on and had no income from jan to october last year mind you they would only usually be selling stores any way the day was taking a turn for the worse when after sorting out umpteen decisions for the practice manager on organisational issues he said wasnt it easy when you were just being a vet fatal mistake as the next dog to be seen was an odd ball it had woken up that morning after being perfectly ok up til then it had growled at tis owner and he had decided to leave it for a while after an hour or so he went to get it up out of its bed and it flew at him and as he put it meant it so he rang up and brought it to the vets this change of behaviour meant he had put it in a kennel and left it so when i went in to examine it growled and flapped its ears at me and bit at the bars some dogs in pain or fear will growl or let you know that it is not happy but this one meant it we had a go at trying to get it examined by using the dog catcher and muzzles but it mean it left it to settle down over lunch but it was worse finally got it sedated it had a temp of 104 injected mm and so was a case of encephalitis with rage so after 3 vets all looking at it and umming and erring we decided to get a maff vet to have a look just to check that it wasnt rabies i had forgotten that none of them are clinical or able to handle animals but it was a bit of a joke but as there was no history with it of contact with abroad it has been left alive for the time being but the stress of both handling the dam thing and the worry of is it rabid and the consequences was some what tiring so i am washed out tonight tomorrow is another day week 27 sat 28th september saturday do tell me there is light at the end of the tunnel because at the moment i definitely feel there isnt so i have taken time off next week to catch up on all the things that need sorted at home we are supposed to be putting in a new bathroom and we need to get the stuff ordered so the guy can fit it you never know it may include doing a few diaries sunday my wife is on a counselling course this w e so i ma on the run around with the kids yesterday was spent watching the boys plat football and run here and there with friends son had 2 friends to come and camp last night so he is a little on the tired side the weather is warm and sunny a real indian summer the autumn raspberries that are usually delicious but quite sparse are huge and plentiful well i definitely have a teen age daughter as for the first time i had a phone call late in the evening from carlisle asking her to be picked up as her lift home had not worked out fortunately it was from the church youth group but it is the sign of things to come the youth group took the church service tonight so it was really good looking at our world the pressures on young people and how they respond as christians and applying their faith to their own situations very challenging monday we have an open night tomorrow night and it doesnt seem very organised yet not my pigeon i have made a resolution not to get worked u about things that are not my responsibility and just leave them be the 2 new vets are beginning to really pull their weight which is great and colleague is back from his honeymoon brown and jet lagged they spent time at the beach and on safari so had a great time nurse has headed off to the far blue yonder she is one of our nurses and has gone to nz for a month so it will be strange with out her other nurse is just back from states and another vet is about to go to the caribbean for 2 weeks so i am getting itchy feet time to travel at least i should be of to india in the new year tuesday year end oct 1st so stock taking which for me includes mucking out my car i thought it was quite normal to take the wheelie bin to the car and just hoy the contents in until my neighbour saw one of the rare occasions when it happens and burst out laughing he found it quite amusing i was a bit taken a back at the time but we always assume what we do is normal the open day was ok but wife was out so had to juggle things a bit i was on call so late finished and had to fetch son from football as his practice had been shifted to tuesdays with the dark nights so i owe friend a bottle of wine for turning up half an hour late to pick him up the boiler man arrived at 7pm to fix the boiler which was blowing fuses he needs a lesson on time management had several interesting conversations on fmd the most amusing one was about tony blair arranging his bust up with unions on the anniversary of the fmd out break finishing so as to keep it out the news the same farmer said about the govts response the countryside alliance march the fact that they have reduced the sparsity factor in the allocation of central funds to local authorities this means that those with a lower population density and therefore a higher perceived cost of providing services are going to have this downgraded or in this farmers opinion take money from the countryside to the town dont march or this govt will kick you where it hurts in a very subtle way the other one was probably more relevant in that in a group discussion admittedly fuelled by an intake of free alcohol several were saying that this year was harder to cope with than last as there was no crisis or adrenalin to keep them going and that the toll from last year was beginning to tell on them and their nerves two were still under court threats from trading standards defra for not complying with regulations both will in my opinions not result in anything but they are pretty pissed off to put it mildly there is also a real antagonism to doing the testing for ministry and we are in the cross fire as defra vets decide what is to be done and yet we are the ones trying to arrange and get the testing done while they do not have to pay us they do have to spend a fair chunk of time organising and actually getting the job done we are having a real problem with organising the testing on one of the common grazings there are 14 farmers with animals on it biosecurity is a joke when your animals are on common grazing with 14 others and trying to get 2 farmers to agree on a date and a method of doing it they all have different ideas and most do not want so and so there co he ll just wind the cattle up and well never catch them weds day off so caught up on garden and sleep thursday i really enjoyed the crack today there was just that right amount of work and banter to have a good day laughter and fun is infectious friday out for a meal at night which was great but 8 30 start tomorrow sat am is not going to be good october a young colleagues brother was killed in an accident and as m writes retrospectively see below there followed a very difficult month in which he was unable to keep a diary saturday 5th october it is in the smallest of things that suddenly life changes very suddenly and we then look back and see how we were and are not now i had a phone call at ten to five from one of the young vets father father was asking to speak to george or i that in itself was strange the receptionist came and found me with a quizzical look saying he did not want to speak to young vet when i answered the phone he said that they had bad news in that her brother had been killed in a traffic accident so i had to tell her the bad news and then sort out the consequences once she had got over the initial shock wife drove her to her parents home in her car the other partners are away so we are short staffed and young vet will obviously not be back for a while it is at times like this that i am always grateful that i can go back to god and trust in him even though i do not understand anything i know that i can trust god jan 2003 writing retrospectively about october 2002 there is a month of diaries missing from the death of vets brother onwards i always meant to go back and fill in the days that i missed but never made the time or the effort i found the time very difficult so how her parents and sister in law coped i do not know the funeral was at kirby and i am pleased that i went it was very sad to see some one in the prime of their life with so much to offer cut down in such a random way it was a very cumbrian farming gathering the red faced craggy farmers and yet there was a friend of the family who sang at the wedding who was a black american gospel singer the global village or world wide family of the church take your pick the death of some one young always makes you consider your own mortality and makes you think about what you are doing will you on your death bed wish that you had made different choices the next month was busy and stressful and probably a time which would have been useful for the study to have thoughts and reactions to my life when under stress but i suppose to a certain extent when we are close to something we go on automatic pilot and do the urgent leaving the things on the periphery he was killed while driving a tractor back from where they had been testing cattle for american bvd they had bought in pedigree world class dairy cattle this included a sibling to an embryo which had had the american bvd so the ministry were keen to make sure that it was not established within the uk hence the reason for the blood sampling i know you cannot look at history and say what if but if the cattle had not been culled there would have been no blood sampling to do and no reason to be on the road that day at that time linkage is not the way to go he may have had to go to feed stock or he could have been in an accident in another way but the ripples of actions continue to reverberate around at least in my head saturday 12th october again m is writing retrospectively here of his first thoughts after diagnosing his first fmd case these weeks were not completed because of my stress levels i have wanted to transcribe my first thoughts on fmd that were written in a hotel in newcastle at 2am after diagnosing my first case to my wife dear wife i dont know why i am writing this as i hope to see you tomorrow but i suppose i need to record what i feel for you and for me besides sleep eludes me today was a beautiful day of winter sunshine warm sunshine that speaks of the spring that is to come on frosted snow that is clear and white and pure a great day to be walking up in the hills on a sunday afternoon enjoying gods wonderful creation but this is a fallen world the only walkers are me the ministry man in disposable boiler suit and waterproof jacket and trousers and a farmer with a heavy heart we go into each field checking and inspecting all the pregnant ewes herding them into a corner to catch and examine them feet ok mouth ok a smile the only clue to the sadness on this mans heart is the slight acrid smell which wafts now and then on the wind the smell of his neighbours future burning on another ministry mans pyre its 2 oclock in the morning and why am i writing this because i cannot sleep the ministry man who then examined the cows blisters in its mouth blisters on its tongue temp 105f i am sorry i say it is theyll all go he manages to say fighting back tears if the lab confirms it yes i reply as a farm vet of 15 years experience i am not allowed to say it is foot and mouth disease only that i suspect it an anonymous telephone answerer in london makes stupid comments and stupid questions i take my samples from the cow i grab its tongue to pull it out to take a sample of the skin from the tongue the cows tongue comes off in my hand i try not to be sick and place the sample in the bottle we go into the farmhouse he is in tears she is in tears i feel like crying i wouldnt do your job for all the b tea in china she says i am a volunteer a tvi all big depts have their jargon and i dont speak it yet a temporary veterinary inspector i only started 3 days ago a clean vet who had not been in contact with the foot and mouth disease a volunteer from general practice seconded to be used as a pawn in the battle against fmd a man from the ministry as i leave a dirty vet having double disinfected with my samples and a heavy heart i take off the disposable boiler suit and put on my shoes i am me again not the man from the ministry hey lad nobody would know you from anyone else like that says the farmer he has seen me as i am i see him as he is living with his mother since his father died so as to be on hand to run the farm his wife and her mother in law trying to share a house and a kitchen while they convert a barn into a house the builder was told to stay away a week ago in case he brought disease onto the farm tomorrow he will be told to stay away as there will be no income for at least 6 months while i filled in forms i had never seen before with initials and jargon ive never heard she phoned her sister to pick up the prescription for anti depressants the doctor said she should go on them while the stress and worry of foot and mouth was about well its here he hasnt eaten and will not sleep tonight she is anxious and will not get any rest and the man from the ministry well its 2am and i am writing this far from home a volunteer a tvi a pawn in a bigger game but after 5 days of being dirty and i can rejoin life back to normal back to my home to my job and my future my farming couple 5 days of shooting and burning of disinfectants and diggers six months of quarantine and a future in farming maybe or maybe not the stories abound of three generations waiting for the men from the ministry but grandfather will not see the farm restocked the stress was too much for his already dodgy heart the countryside is under siege and pawns are being lost to win a greater gain and why are we having to work these long hours and sacrifice these pawns because some one was so arrogant so stupid and so lazy that he couldnt be bothered to heat the swill he fed to his pigs he couldnt keep to the rules that were made so this would not happen it is not intensive vs extensive organic vs agribusiness it is sheep vs goats and they will be sorted saturday 2nd november the start of writing diaries again after a break of a few weeks i am hoping to go back and fill in as time permits so this is today and forward looking working the w e with young vet and aw sat am she had a calving this morning at 4am and so is a little on the tired side so hope it is quiet for rest of the w e did surgery and then spent the afternoon trying to fix the out sidelights the front went 18monhts ago which shows how well i am keeping up with the maintaince on this house but the back one went recently and that is a real pain as you cant see your way to the car at night so i am more concerned about getting it fixed the old lights are just rusted up and you can no longer replace the bulbs so up the ladder to re wire new lights i went unfortunately i was on call and yes i suppose i was trying to do too much but if you dont try you dont succeed so i downed tools went off to calve a cow and then came back to find a neighbour plus her 4 children in our kitchen so i stopped had a cup of tea and then headed back up the ladder now wife maintains i should have noticed that there were lights on at this point i would like to point out that i should also notice when she has moved furniture had her hair cut or even spring cleaned the house as i am often berated for my lack of noticing these sorts of things yes i should have noticed but i didnt i was focussed on what i was trying to do as usual so up the ladder i went to connect up the light not knowing that wife had switched the electrics back on and yes when i was at the top of the ladder i grabbed the wires and then spent what seemed an awfully long time trying to let them go and stay on the ladder as the electric current was shocking me so the light did not get fixed as i was not going back up the ladder as i was now in shock ho hum sun finished the light while every one was out and then picked up a from a sleep over and went to church in wigton pm was speaking on the parable of the 10 bridesmaids which was good as i had never understood it as it is obviously related to a cultural thing that happened at weddings in jesus day the point being that the wise ones who were waiting for the return of the bridegroom had the oil in their lamps and the concept that this was the holy spirit that meant they could meet with the bridegroom i e christ i am not sure that the idea is entirely right since there is that big leap oil holy spirit but it was interesting i still think it was a cultural thing that was obvious to his original listeners and we just dont have a clue ali and andy called around in the evening it was really good to see him again he used to be a vet here who left several years ago and it looks that at long last he is going to look to settle down he was quite depressing about la vet practice though he is now 100 small animal so he is biased they are actively looking at taking tb testing from the vets in his area and the vets are dropping the farm practice as being uneconomic so much for the govt wanting more farm vets around at least this is a low cost area so at least we are not competing with small animal practices able to offer large wages to assistant vets he is looking to set up his own or buy a practice to settle into they are obviously looking to get married so that will be another wedding to go to we have been invited to lbs who is finally marrying p they have been following each other around the world for the last 2 years from disaster to disaster as they are both in humanitarian relief work she was a vet student here too mon monday monday tell me why i dont like mondays young vet is exhausted and everything is catching up with her so she is going to take the end of the week off the joiner finally arrived to put in the windows and had real problems writhing the old ones out and so has taken half the sand stone with them so they will have to be reconcreted which is a builders job ie he is not going to do it the bathroom is still in pieces 8 days it was supposed to take and we are now in the third week work was bedlam so i was queuing the ops up this morning i hate operating all morning as it is very draining as i have to concentrate on what i am doing while the office staff keep coming with more and more queries urgh got another stupid letter from the planners quibbling about listed building consent that i am trying to get for the windows that are being fitted as i speak i started the ball rolling in august no wonder the country is going to the dogs tuesday calmed down a bit having filled in the visa forms for our holiday to india the great legacy of the british the bureaucracy is alive and well why do they want to know my mothers place of birth and maiden name for a 2 week holiday civil servants missed the gym cos surgery went on and on i went to a farm and was asked a lot of questions about tb as they had had a reactor the ministry had been out testing but hadnt bothered to tell us mushroom farmers son is in the process of planning next years football team weds went to a farm today and he is complaining that he cannot get his cows in his restocked herd back in calf it seems to be an ongoing problem a lot of those who have restocked with whole herds are having reduced fertility in their herds it would be an interesting study to see the figures compared to non restocked herds thursday counting the days until i am off work continues to be too hectic vet who lost her brother is off and it makes the whole pack of cards of having enough vets to cover fall down i think too i am just very tired from being too busy for too long when planning staffing levels it is usual to be cautious rather than to have too many vets around not making any money we thought we were stretching it by employing the 2 new grads instead of the one it is also just being under pressure all the time with out a few days to cruise it went out to chris swifts for the vcf veterinary christian fellowship which was really good as usual f was telling us about the thanksgiving service that they had just held at barnard castle she has also just got engaged so it may curb her wanderings she is an explorer and mountaineer she is just back from antarctica and is currently doing some research and a phd at durham barnard castle practice seems well organised and also flexible in that she is only working 3 days a week to spend 2 days at durham on the phd it was really good speaking to friends about vets brother as paul was with them at the accident as he was taking the bloods so spent quite a while praying for them and for other things friday bad day had a phone call from the planners saying they were not going to allow double glazing and that they want the glazing bars to be 10mm not 20mm why there are no 10mm glazing bars on the spot the ministry london have decided that they are not going to train lay tb testers and that all the work is going to go out to lvis us so we are now looking at a lot of work again carlisle defra in conjunction with london have decided that they are going to want all the restocked herds tested annually with every animal tested not just the adult breeding stock so from looking at dropping 1 2 vets 10 days ago we are now going to be looking at employing extra staff if we can get hold of them how are we supposed to be planning for the future if it is so dependent on the whim of defra officials saturday 9th november went to the school pta pub quiz last night at the rugby club it was good fun but i was struggling both to stay awake and to dredge up the infotainment trivia of the previous year it is funny how the questions chosen reflected the people who were asking them what had stuck in their memory or that they had chosen nick and jane were across from newcastle i stayed with them for a few nights when working for defra across there when i could not face the faceless loneliness of the hotel consequently was completely zonked sat morning just went around the house being grumpy went to watch son play football they thrashed yewdale in the county cup it was good to be out in the fresh air and came back to sleep for a while before heading out to roy and christianas en famille we had to pick up fraser from wigton this is their son who has just started seeing a girl in wigton he is 14 and so was amusingly embarrassed we were talking about leaving the kids at what age do you leave them on their own and to look after the younger ones christiana told us about when she left all three boys for an hour and a half and the older two had got so fed up with youngest being annoying they hung him by his joggers from the post at the bottom of the stairs the middle one said in all seriousness that it was his fault that he had torn his trousers if he hadnt tried to escape the trousers would have been fine even now he considers that the wrongdoing was the ripping of the trousers not the fact that they had hung him up sun went to church in morning and fittingly for remembrance sunday it was on repentance and gods love daniels prayer in daniel 9 was very fitting some how lunch and more football and crashed in to bed exhausted mon tim is away for the first time on his own with the school on an outward bound week south of keswick he was so excited about going i think wife was a little put off that he was not thinking about missing home hey ho but that is a sign of secure roots i suppose met up with as maths teacher to discuss her maths there has been a lot of to and froing between the teachers but not much communication with home so we went to see what they were saying and have left it as the status quo which is what it should be first call today was a farmer who is just out of hospital having had his appendix removed for appendicitis he had seen this cow and said why havent you had the vet to it he is a good stocksman and with him being out of action they had a relief milker in who hadnt noticed it had a twisted uterus and was trying to calve if i had seen it on friday i could have sorted it out but because it was now to late i had to send it off it is sad but the agricultural industry is losing a lot of experience and a lot of stocksmanship and handling and general expertise it is not sthg that can be replaced we are seeing more twisted wombs because of the transport and fighting amongst restocked herds the sad thing is that he said to me we should never have restocked we should have taken the money and let it all go it is just too much hassle with the paper work and training cows they have just housed the cattle and so they are all fighting to come in to the parlour to get milked and just making life difficult there is a real disillusionment around at the moment but there are also those who are gearing up to milk more and more cows to stay still 300 tuesday the great european market combined with defras inflexibility is causing a few problems the dutch heifers that have been imported to replace some of the fmd losses have a unique identifier number which is on their ear tag so everyone knows who they are so far so good they also have nl on them rather than uk which means we know they are from holland the problem is they have a small check digit on them at the end this means dutch computers can recognise if the ear tag is a valid one or has been misread the uk tags have a check digit at the front of the number very useful to help rule out misreadings or transcribing of the ear tags however the defra computer doesnt recognise the numbers so we are being asked to retest heifers because they still have an outstanding record of the ear tag numbers as untested because the extra digit has or had not been entered on the uk system the number of out standing tests is dropping but we will not be able to keep up with this level of testing more allocations have arrived today managed to get all the bits sorted so i could leave at 5 30 for my few days off the only out standing thing is the stuff for the accountant end of year it was supposed to be in by 18th of oct but hey ho weds i have taken a few days off to try and paint the windows and new bathroom we are having put in the planners phoned to query again about the windows and i told them they were already in so it went down like a lead balloon and they are coming to tell me off they also started querying the other windows from 95 the problem with having a few days off is that i get very head achey and feel washed out and ill once the adrenalin stops i seem to crash thursday met up with charlie from longtown vets for lunch which was great his practice in carlisle that he has started is going well it is on the main road out to scotland and looks really good and he is getting lots of custom just by being there he is looking for a part time vet to start mornings friday repainted the bathroom walls after discovering i had used 2 different shades of green one was ming grey the other ming blue i just opened them one after the other and thought the difference was because the one had dried and the other was still wet ooops the plumber is having problems with the electrics and getting the lights to work so it was all fused out i am just glad we have a shower as well or we would all be getting rather smelly by now went to watch changing lanes at cinema a rather thoughtful if slow and unbelievable set up but nice escapism for an hour or two saturday november 16th working again but feel better for having had a few days off even if the bathroom isnt finished getting to be a bit of a saga oh well never mind sat morning surgery was busy and then several farm calls afterwards for the amount of stock around and the cost effectiveness of veterinary time we are doing an incredible amount of clinical work dan the sheep ai vet who locums for us on occasions phoned up wanting alisons phone number she was of course out it being sat night his technician is ill and he has 250 swales to ai tomorrow hope he finds some one all the sheep ai and embryo technicians are very busy as people try to build up their pedigree herds and flocks by breeding for top quality sun am busy with calls and then painted doors in bathroom while son painted the window very messy but he enjoyed it it will give him confidence to try again it is patience and practice went to church in the evening rob whitaker the principal of capernwray bible college was preaching he is so animated and relevant he was talking on feeding the 5000 and jesus compassion and just the circumstances jesus was in at the time how he used the disciples and then applying it to us and to the church in general espy compassion very challenging went on to meet up with lads and spent time praying phil is pretty down about not having a job it effects his self worth didnt help that fraser had a brand new merc sitting out side his house mon hit the maelstrom running with an in tray flowing out and still nothing together for year end to accountant so pushed practice manager and then started operating and haunting him every 20 mins in between ops and keeping him on task the problem is that there are so many other things going on at the moment that the non urgent keep disappearing in to tomorrow the new drugs discount system is working and generating a lot of interest and then hopefully will cut down on the black market with any luck the increased turn over will make up for margin usual problem solving and smoothing over and 2nd opinions to sort out the 20 day rule is not stopping one of our local cattle dealers from buying and selling he says the paperwork to run 5 holding numbers is horrendous ken and anne called around and it was really good to see them they have a lime spreading business and have been really busy over fmd both with lime for land that is going to be used for barley and crops rather than grass and with a lot of stone for building work and new pathways and for lonnings whereas farmers were happy to move cattle via roads they are trying to reduce the movements along roads and are putting in tracks for the cows tuesday more tracings to check for tb these are cattle bought from a farm where tb has since been confirmed and the paperwork to go with them ear tags dont correlate so going to be a problem rota nightmare at the moment as everyone is organising their skiing trips so we are going to have 1 2 vets off all of jan and most of feb took first box load of paperwork to the accountant he is an old fashioned up the back stairs not a computer in sight type of fella he is a wily old fox much more than he looks as he manages to keep the taxman happy and off our backs which is probably the most important the financial year doesnt look too bad but doesnt allow for the number of days of holiday carried over if we had to give the holiday pay or pay a vet to cover for those days it would make them look a lot less rosy got back in time for gym and then tuesday kid chauffer work then fell into bed and slept weds the phone stopped at 4 00pm and didnt ring again until 9 30 this morning weird the work has just stopped like a tap being turned off so got the rest of testing sorted sorted out the rest of the stuff for the accountant tidied the office wrote up my book and even thought about mucking my car out only got as far as thinking about it as coffee break arrived didnt earn much but felt a lot better for it skipped off early and gave the bathroom doors second coat thursday 21st november pay day decided that if defra was a business it would be bust by now we are on a rollercoaster trying to look at the future with them they only make up in a normal year about 20 of our farm fee income but that has been much higher over the past few years the chief defra vet has been flying kites as they say in politics to see what the reaction is or has been doing as he has been told by whitehall i dont know what the ins and outs of it are but the gist has been they are going to employ their own vets to do the testing as this would be much more efficient and cost effective when it was pointed out this wasnt going to be the case we went to they would employ non vets to do it as this would be much cheaper there would then not be any farm animal vets in large areas of the country as it would reduce the fee income even further where the farm side of vet businesses is marginal it would just be given up it would mean our business in a high stock area would probably drop 2 vets so london finally decided that the status quo would probably be best at the same time carlisle in consultation with page st decided that as there is so much tb being found in the restocked farms that all the restocked farms should be tested on an annual basis and that all animals not just breeding stock should be tested this means about a 25 increase in work load for the next 2 winters so instead of dropping a vet we should look to be taking one on but we cannot believe what is going to happen next as how can we plan when such drastic changes are proposed in the space of a month friday had a horrendous night with ill calves with pneumonia in the evening a calving at 1 am in silloth then a dog trying to die at 5am so was i ever pleased that it was my half day slept and played squash with l j in the afternoon the dog belonged to an old lady who had no children and it was her husbands dog who had died 4 years previously she was going to be on her own if it dies so she was very tearful and upset the dog is not looking good as it is 16yr poodle type thing she is isolated booth because she doesnt drive and lives out at the coast and because she and her husband retired to here and neither have any family around i felt for her made me appreciate my family so much more saturday 23rd november wife is away on a course today so for my w e off i am running the kids and doing the cooking i dropped of other son to squash did some errands in wigton and then watched the squash coaching they are very patient and encouraging the total contrast was shown at son s football they are a very good team but i really do not like the attitude of most of the coaches and teams in the carlisle teams i was late to arrive and they were already 4 0 up and this was the second half it was only when i walked around to where the coach was did he think about giving son and the other 2 subs a game we have had it out with him before that he should give all the kids a chance to play or else they find it crushing son was really fed up with the situation but he does love playing and is quite loyal the coach always justifies that he has to play his best team which he doesnt he plays his favourites friends sons but the point is irrelevant if you are winning by that margin then you can afford to have weaker players on the field they went on to win 10 0 we will have to get a thursby team organised for next year went on to longtown poultry sale very interesting lots of rare birds and waterfowl will have to go and buy next year and get some different types for a to breed up sun dan spoke on walking on water in his own inimitable style he is so refreshing and practical and honest made it a call to prayer as well didnt do much in morning as wife was on course but finally managed to finish bathroom hoorah mon decided that if defra was a business it would be bust by now we are on a rollercoaster trying to look at the future with them they only make up in a normal year about 20 of our farm fee income but that has been much higher over the past few years the chief defra vet has been flying kites as they say in politics to see what the reaction is or has been doing as he has been told by whitehall i dont know what the ins and outs of it are but the gist has been they are going to employ their own vets to do the testing as this would be much more efficient and cost effective when it was pointed out this wasnt going to be the case we went to they would employ non vets to do it as this would be much cheaper there would then not be any farm animal vets in large areas of the country as it would reduce the fee income even further where the farm side of vet businesses is marginal it would just be given up it would mean our business in a high stock area would probably drop 2 vets so london finally decided that the status quo would probably be best at the same time carlisle in consultation with page st decided that as there is so much tb being found in the restocked farms that all the restocked farms should be tested on an annual basis and that all animals not just breeding stock should be tested this means about a 25 increase in work load for the next 2 winters so instead of dropping a vet we should look to be taking one on but we cannot believe what is going to happen next as how can we plan when such drastic changes are proposed in the space of a month tuesday went to do routine fertility at a farm today and it was quite depressing in that a neighbour of theirs who has started up again has had a really bad time the problems of restocking on top of bad hips he was all gung ho to get restocked and although he had a sore leg he didnt go to the doctors while he had the chance when he had no stock as it was only a little sore but as soon as he got stock back and started to do a lot of physical work they were very sore so he went to the drs and has 2 hips which need replaced but as he is only 40 they dont want to do it yet and it would mean no physical work for a long period on top of that he has mastitis problems caused by taking his plant to pieces by defra he has lost 8 cows and heifers through calving illness or injury so after less than a year he looks set to give up disillusioned and a lot poorer the workload for us is easing as most cattle are now housed and a lot of the housing work is sorted i always feel it is a run down to christmas now with all the preparations and celebrations and kids and adult parties i was at another farm today who had meningitis a year ago and has still not really recovered properly he is still finding it hard to get going he lost all his animals and all his work during fmd and the additional strain has meant he has lost a lot of interest in the farming side he cant be bothered with all the hassle and paper work of farming sheep and cattle and so is growing a lot of veg which he and his wife have always enjoyed growing they just retail at the farm gate it doesnt make much money but as he says it just keeps things turning over and he and his wife have time for each other and no hassle life is more important than making a living very profound i am going to go part time i wish wednesday there seem to be a lot of problems still on restocking farms they are all having problems with getting the cows back in calf two farms today complained that even though they were more than pleased with the compensation at the time the costs of restocking are much much more it would be interesting to do a survey on the number of breeding animals bought in and those who have been lost either through illness or by failure to get in calf the old diseases are still causing the most problems lung worm a disease i thought was well under control and well understood has caused huge problems ibr or cow flu has caused so many problems that we can no longer get the vaccine as all the stocks have been used it was interesting today that one of the farms that is about to start milking having finally restocked ordered vaccine for lepto ibr and bvd almost as a matter of course but fertility is causing the most worries thursday feel a lot better after an early night apart from running to and from carlisle after my daughter youth group last night and evening shopping tonight son is still trying to organise an u14 thursby team for next year all he needs is a coach the problem is that it is a big commitment i wish i could do it but i work too many w es spent time day dreaming about what to do with the byre in our yard it is an old knackered building that needs bulldozing but wife s dad thinks we should just look after it and convert it into sthg but what i still think that there is an opening for herriot holidays taking people for a day at the vets and then a day at the mart and so on diversification is the name of the game friday had an interesting day what with one thing and another no lunch but hey whos complaining one of the nurses at work has a chicken shed with her husband and another farmer partner the fans and alarms all failed and so the air was not circulating the farmer was devastated it was a horrendous sight a carpet of dead chickens there were 23000 in the shed and we worked out there were roughly 2 3000 left alive 20000 dead it brought back memories of fmd also the logistics of disposing of 20 tonnes of dead chicken i hope the insurance covers it out for dinner at christianas had a vet friend call around at teatime he is a meat hygiene practice covering several different meat plants they have several vets covering all the different plants he has been asked to got to harrogate to discuss how the different proposed regulations can be implemented a marked improvement on the usual dumping of unworkable ideas from defra hq saturday 30th nov took a while to get going after being out for dinner last night though it was very pleasant spent day doing odds and ends went to watch son play footie and bought an orchid from the orchid farm the kids were making cards for mum and wrapping presents so it was fun james came down with his kids so there were 7 running riot which is really a bit too many after a late night sun 1st church in the morning and johnboy called around to see what time the prayer meeting finished as he had arranged a surprise party for wife s 40th so had loads of folks in sunday night which was great they had all crept in to the big kitchen and decorated it while we were in the front room a and son had been going back and forth so wife never noticed so it was special the kids were as high as kites mon 2nd wife is forty and theres a photo in the news and star to prove it the kids brought breakfast in bed and opened presents poor other son after 3 late nights did not want to go to school i hope they are all right for gran wife s mum and sister arrived nannies from ireland to the rescue they are going to look after the kids while we are away for a few days we have had a bit o banter about them looking after the kids sister found an advert for nannies from ireland which is an au pair service and sent of for the info which she forwarded to us she is a character so they have been asking about working conditions and pay i have been requesting police checks and giving as good as i get the winds are pretty strong so they have had a bad journey the super ferry was cancelled so they have had to come by boat which takes much longer a baked a cake and managed to get 40 candles on it both wife and i are looking forward to getting away as usual work was really busy and lots of loose ends to tie up prior to leaving but finished for 3 days hoorraaahhh tues 3rd spent the day travelling up to loch lomond stopped off at braeside and at gretna and bought some clothes and mooched around cameron house is beautiful with wonderful views and you can just walk down to the lake there is a pool so went for a swim before dinner very civilised we had just finished dinner when the waitress arrived with a cake with 4 candles and sang a rather wobbly happy birthday sister had been very keen that we left the phone number of cameron house even though she had our mobile numbers now we know why very pleasant surprise but we will never eat any cake let alone a whole one while we were strolling around after dinner came across the picture that one of our friends had used to decorate the kitchen with on sunday he had come across it somewhere in a book and it looks vaguely like wife so he had put it up with lady wife underneath and here was the original or at least a print of the same picture weird weds after a very lazy start a swim before breakfast full scottish we walked up eastern edge of loch in sunshine and showers we were only caught out in one shower there was a rainbow down to the loch edge a beautiful winter walk i have decided i am going to walk the west highland way with the boys had some fruit for lunch as cooked breakfast on top of dinner last night means i dont really need to eat for a week another swim thought about the gym but i am on holiday and felt wonderfully relaxed and then dinner thursday another lazy start and swim before breakfast a walk along the loch and the back to glasgow to the burrell collection we just wandered around the paintings i can sit and look at the impressionists and keep seeing something new they are very beautiful came back home in time for tea though did not eat anything as too much food made up a ditty for the nannies nannies from ireland came to stay so respondent and wife could go away off the children went to school while respondent and wife swam in the pool the nannies were left with all the dust cleaning dirt for their daily crust their experienced gleaned over all the years could not stop all other son s tears off to school you must go said a stern faced nanny lo the nannies go to tk max forgetting all about the cats something is sick on the mat the nannies really dont like that a m l begs go and fetch all the eggs on animals theyre not too what did the contract really mean keen they will not give another day until something is done about their pay so back to ireland with this tale they do go via cummersdale as their pay all disappears they decide on new careers lois thinks of a racing car ruth just of going far so our thanks to them are due the nannies from ireland crew its now their turn to go and play till theyre called another day edited to remove names in verse friday bad hair day having come back all relaxed and cheerful i was relaxed until i missed my lunch after working all day plenty of hassle from one thing and another i was then on call at night and it was very busy loch lomond and cameron house seem a long long time ago i am extremely fed up i do not want to calve another cow out side office hours ever again saturday 7th december worked this morning after a bad night on call and felt like death warmed up did surgery and then sorted stuff out and did some calls got finished at 1pm and went back to bed went to xmas party at white heather which was good fun but i was just too knackered to enjoy it sunday working a few calls and plenty of pneumonia drugs for calves there is a lot of pneumonia about with the east wind blowing it is a wee bitty cruel wind but at least it is dry not weather to be working out side it also seems to be getting dark really early i need some sun on my back 4 weeks to go till india had a migraine or flu at night and went to bed and started throwing up i cannot burn the candle at one end even at the moment mon off work ill but a new vet student starting and r is off as well xmas shopping so thrown in at deep end tuesday went back in and did my bit working at night but night work easing off thank goodness plenty of high cell count investigations to try and sort out weds took kids swimming after work with the vet student it was good to do some exercise and chill out went to staples prior to going to the pool where as usual there was no one on the desk for print cartridges so i went and found one of the girls chatting on the till to get me what i was looking for as i couldnt find an hp58 what i hadnt noticed was some one else just standing at the other end of the long counter who was then very upset and aggressive that i had jumped the queue he is obviously having a worse week than me as he could have gone and got some one from the tills as easily as i did but didnt so why he got so upset i dont know nowt as queer as folk other son was very upset tonight when we got back from swimming because he had shaved one side of his head wife had cut the others hair but his was still short and didnt need it he wanted it done so in the shower took things into his own hands and shaved off his side burn but only on one side he did not like getting laughed at either thursday christiana came to the rescue over the hair other son s and has managed to make it look not too bad but it was funny on call at night but as most nights seem double booked at the moment went to kids performance they are doing alice in wonderland very good they can really sing and perform the teachers do get a lot out of them tim was the knave of hearts character actor and other son was a frog footman grebbit grebbit it was good fun only had a phone call to put a client at ease about her cat so managed to wing it friday out at friends tonight kids younger 2 at performance older 2 are at xmas meal so a bit of a juggling act to get everyone at right place at right time missed out on the cumberland vet club social which was a shame but can only be in one place at a time saturday 14th december had a good meal out except only started talking about the publicity for as i was wanting to go and fall asleep some where i cannot take late nights it is just i am feeling too tired all the time i think that the adrenalin has run out and i just feel stale hope xmas sorts it out spent morning working did surgery and then sorted out queries with gg for the accountant spent the afternoon writing cards and trying to put together lists of folk we should send too a disaster got as far as m before running out of cards and initiative went around to ss for nibbles as a house warming she is some caterer her mother does it as a job so she has helped so great food could have done with some non vets to dilute down the vetiness sunday got up and took kids to church wife is doing a thing on borderline at night so she has to prepare that played football and caught up with a few bits and pieces and did some gardening chatted to a vet from chippenham who was complaining about the tb situation there they have one beef farm where when they first discovered tb the farm took a week to test as there were 600 head there are only 200 left so it only takes a day the farmer has been unable to but in store cattle to feed and has lost over 100 to defra it has been 2 monthly testing for almost 2 years now and he still has not had a clear test she was down too just from too much on call monday got up feeling exhausted but even though not very busy couldnt get going the dairy farms are all feeling very nervous over the nestle pull out farmers said to me that they were pleased that their sons are not going to be going into farming both teenagers one as year and one a year older both looking to work in it it used to be a point of sadness that the next generation is not following on but there seems to be a general air of resignation that farming is not going to be a good career sad really tuesday 17th december spent the day sorting out the remaining bits and pieces for the accountant we met with him at night which as usual was the sorting out of this and that the finding of the relevant pieces of paper and then what the unaccounted cheques were for we are still making money but only thanks to defra so three cheers for mrs beckett cynic it made it a very long day and lois is off for the week so we are short staffed again but last tests are today as we will not be able to get bloods to the labs because of the christmas post i do like this time of year where you hear from friends who you have not seen for ages and think the same as you did last year i will have to catch up with them soon hey ho weds 18th there is a lot of pneumonia about and the farmers are all buying vast quantities of drugs to treat whole batches of calves and stirks the is the usual mix but far more than normal i dont know whether to be pleased that the practice is doing well and invoicing a lot or sad that there is so much disease around and we will have a horrendous drugs bill a dilemma i dont think i should explore thurs 19th fri 20th kids went to ice rink in carlisle with wife they have set up an out door rink which the city council are sponsoring to attract people in to the centre i dont think that they really need to as the place seems crowded enough as it is son bashed his head quite badly and other son fell over and hurt his knee tim fell loads of times and just ended up wet and happy their different characters are coming out saturday 21st december the beginning of the christmas rota i feel as though we are in the run up to christmas now i have also made the mistake of not buying all my presents before now and went into carlisle to go shopping it was quite nice in some ways to see the ice rink and mingle in the crowds but an hour and a half was plenty the kids have decided that they are going to ask for money to take to india this year from the aunts and uncles and so there will be fewer presents to open as christmas seems to be getting more and more manic and commercialised i think that it is a very good idea well done a and son sunday 22nd carols by candlelight it was magical the church was packed out and so i ended up standing at the back which in some ways was quite nice as you look down the aisles to the stage and there are rows of candles and fairy lights down the sides pm lead it and there were different age groups taking part he spoke on being a christmas tree and how we end up all convoluted by our own wrong choices and how we can have lots of fairy lights and a star on top and have an image on the outside that looks wonderful but what are we like inside all those things we surround ourselves with god knows and he cares and he loves us enough to send a gift to help us his son immanuel god with us who will take away the sin of the world i was really quite moved by it all this is the real christmas mon 23rd bump reality bites back it is difficult to focus on the important things of life and keep a perspective on life if it keeps getting interrupted by monday mornings but that is where jesus should be in the smelly cattle shed and in the market place and making a difference i will have to think that one out while i have time in india the urgent as usual is pushing out the important managed to go swimming at foxes the first exercise i have had for ages must get back into it maybe wait for the new year resolutions as exercise wet weather and working over christmas dont really go together tues 24th christmas eve working but quiet apart from last minute panics as people think that their ill dogs and cats will not make it over christmas with out seeing the vet called in to pow heads for the turkey they really do have a good butchery and poultry business going now good to see direct selling by farmers or cooperatives is the only way forward to break the stranglehold of the supermarkets wife is panicking about not having enough food so i am dispatched to buy more bread and milk i think about protesting that if there were 5000 we still would not need a miracle but decide this is one of those occasions when it is better to just spend another 2 quid for the peace wife s parents arrive an hour later from belfast bringing 2 loaves of bread and 5 different types of irish bread and 6 pints of milk and another 3 boxes of food i wonder about making a joke about feeding the 5000 plus inflation but decide that discretion is the better part of valour and just put them in the freezer weds 25th kids started at 5 45 am and were unceremoniously sent back to bed but they were allowed to bring their stockings in at half past seven i was on 2nd call so while they all went off to church i spent an hour in the surgery seeing dogs one had meningitis and was very near deaths door and the owner was not that worried the other is just unwell and could have waited but the problem is you never know got back and made christmas dinner so wasnt all work though i do feel amongst all the commercialism and turkey dinners the true significance of immanuel god who is with us is lost thursday 26th on first call and lots of pneumonia drugs to put out and kept busy afternoon evening we had folk around lots of different ages and backgrounds so was a real mix and good fun friday 27th surgery reopened and was really busy i am pleased that we had put plenty of staff on the rota it is always a difficult balance to make trying to work out if there will be enough staff to cover the work no one wants to work over xmas new year but if there are not enough then it makes it really awful for those that are working but if you have people sitting around they resent that too but its nice to know i get it right sometimes doing a rota always strikes me as a no win situation as it is always a compromise between the two extremes saturday 28th december on call friday night and then i finished at lunchtime wife wanted me to go on church walk but i was knackered and we are all going out tonight for dinner so i went to bed for a few hours sleep much to my wifes displeasure having been on call for the whole period as soon as i stop i crash out as the adrenalin fades and i realise how tired i am but only mon am to work then prepare for india and hitting the beach it does take its toll on family life being on call especially over the christmas period the folk we are going to dinner with he is a policeman and they have similar frictions sun 29th the service at church tonight was memorable the last evening of the year they have people talking about what god has been doing in their lives so it is usually people who are not eloquent not used to speaking up front but who speak in a very real way about what jesus has been working in their lives over the past year dp who is 14 who has had bone cancer gave a very moving account about how he had nearly died how so often we compare our selves with those who have more than us whether in health or other things we should compare ourselves with those who have less we should appreciate our lives and thank god for who and what we are he has had his ups and downs but we are to follow gods guiding and his path for us our lives are in gods hands we are to pray and to trust in him for our future this is a young lad who has seen 4 of the friends he has made in hospital die it makes the trivia we fill our lives with back in perspective mon 30th last half day and lots of last minute things to sort out before i finish for new year and the 2 weeks in india the cash flow has gone to pot because of the large amount of pneumonia drugs we have sold and tax vat going out in end of jan so needed to make sure someone keeps an eye on it while i am away and makes sure that it all falls into place the problem with going away is that no one keeps up with all the admin type work that i do so my in tray will be overflowing by the time i get back tues 31st the young people are partying at our house so we left them to it rather than cramp their style so we had a very pleasant evening at some farming friends we rang up and called in on spec they have 5 boys so we knew they wouldnt want to get baby sitters for new years eve whereas we had about 40 they have stopped dairying but are now worried about how the new ruling will affect them at the moment they lease their quota which provides a fair amount of income the new german ruling will be applicable across the whole eec that non producers cannot hold and therefore lease quota this means they will have to either sell it in a flooded market or go back to dairy farming unless mr p can work a way around the new system they are also taking advice and looking at all sorts of diversification schemes some seem quite a good idea others i think are non starters they already have invested some of the fmd money into setting up a student house in carlisle the way house prices are going around here it is probably a very good investment not really the way forward for farming though the only depressing feature of the evening was i asked what they thought the future of cattle vets was the answer was none well thats a good start to 2003 we got home to find the party in full swing and we left them to it and went to bed 1st jan 2003 got up some what late after staying up for the new years eve the young people had cleared up after the party and we were amazed at how well they had done they had set off the dish washer and all we had to do was empty it i was impressed the only reminder they had been there was when we drew the curtains there were several glasses which had been missed as they were on the window sill and bizarrely an odd sock the sock game my daughter assures me was very funny but what i want to know is who went home with only one sock on started thinking about india a good job my wife is organised as we set off tomorrow 2nd jan thursday travelled down to see my brother and family it was really good to see them again played risk which was a bit of a christmas tradition when we were kids it was funny to be playing with him and both sets of kids as i felt like a kid again it was really nice though b won he managed to wipe people out and amass their risk cards he risked everything and it went to the last throw of the dice so it was quite exciting friday 3rd jan travelled down to my dads to have tea and drop off some stuff before heading for the airport i am pleased we have had a few days off before flying as it is a night flight and i hate travelling when i am already exhausted the weather was the usual british winter of rain and wind a friend of mine is convinced that this is due to global warming more energy in the system means more rain and wind in which case cumbria is not going to be the place to live as it is already wet and windy enough the next 2 weeks recall xs family holiday to india sat 4th january 2003 i am sitting in the nilgiri hills in southern india in shorts and t shirt enjoying the coolness of the high altitude it is almost twice the height of ben nevis on bbc world last night it showed a reporter in london with an umbrella trying to keep off the large wet snowflakes we are visiting friends who teach at a christian school here the contrasts of india always seem so great the poverty and the opulence side by side the beggars and the road repairers at the side of the road in make shift tents of plastic sheeting and huts of bamboo leaves then the huge opulent houses wooden floored and air conditioned with their own generators and the 4 hotels with marbled floors and artificial streams and waterfalls we came on a cheap charter flight as it was cheaper to come to trivandrum on a flight and a package with hotel b b than to just buy the flights the emphasis though should be on cheap it is the first time i have ever had to pay for drinks on the plane the air stewardesses seemed to be there for a good time rather than to look after the passengers cant complain though as it was cheap the only worry was the re routing we were originally supposed to be going via united arab emirates but the refuelling was transferred to bahrein as we flew in we were warned it was a military as well as civilian airport so no photography was allowed the build up of us forces in the gulf must be pretty major as even here there were large numbers of us air force planes and massive sinister looking helicopters it is difficult to believe that they are aiming to keep the peace by preparing for war the papers here are also full of sabre rattling between pakistan and india with daily reports of skirmishes in kashmir there is also exchanges of political rhetoric between the two states how much is actually for real and how much is sabre rattling no one knows the weekly telegraph is also reporting that iraq has shot down a reconnaissance drone the same sort that blew up one of the el quaedi leaders in yemen the us is obviously trying regime change by several methods the us response was to blow up several command and control facilities the war hasnt officially started yet but the skirmishes are going on the cost the previous year for the raf to patrol the no fly zone was 22 uk million the last quarter was 10 times that so there is money being spent the priorities of govts is often difficult to work out the indian govt doesnt have enough money at the local level to organise a proper refuse collection system yet has money to develop hi tech weaponry the attitudes to rubbish here is very different when we were at the beach the actual beach is combed by litter pickers but the areas in between are terrible there are 2 smart 4 hotels and the govt buildings where the tourism training takes place the grounds are immaculate and the flowers and area beautiful but once out side the grounds it is a cross between a rubbish dump and a building site with piles of rubbish and sand and rubble we went for a snorkelling trip around the coast to a fishing harbour where the sea was calm and there were plenty of rocks for the fish to hide in and swim in and out of the boats were a few bits of wood tied together with string seriously there were two central planks and two edge planks and then an aft piece of wood to hold the aft part together which was reinforced by cord the wood is so light that it floats with our weight fairly easily the oars were split bamboo with no grips so it made for interesting rowing or is it paddling they are more like large canadian canoes than boats very hawaii five o the planks were roughly shaped but as we rode the waves the water fountained up through the holes in the bottom h asked what wood they were made of but didnt understand the answer must be a type of balsa we set off from under the light house there was another group going at the same time i think they must have agreed to pay top whack whereas you soon learn to try to bargain about the price of everything here they had two helpers in the boat to paddle whereas we were the economy class with two paddles but only one guide in our two boats we took turns in helping to paddle whether we made much difference to the progression of the boat i don t know but it was fun it was a bit worrying that we were heading for the least scenic part of the coast the other way is beautiful sandy beaches for miles there is a wave powered generator at the edge of the harbour a few rusty wrecks and bits of broken concrete but when we arrived the snorkelling was brilliant it was like swimming in a tropical fish tank my favourite were small electric blue fish which darted away as soon as you came near there were big black and yellow striped tiger fish there were 2 sorts one with vertical stripes and one with horizontal not at all timid the angel fish with their long dangling barbs were shy and would only appear when you kept still there were some very large spiky sea anemones as big as a football loads of crabs and shoals of fish which swim hither and thither some were quite bizarre there were some that looked like sea horses that had been straightened out you almost could see a jockey getting a saddle ready to put on them for the saltwater derby the huge variety and colours were just outstanding we spent a few hours and then got thoroughly sun burnt on the way back the boys had been full of beans on the way there but were exhausted in the heat on the way back we spent today making and flying kites on top of a hill at pykara the kids or was it the dads made kites and then we tried to fly them hs won his design was copied from an original no stick design and managed to fly almost successfully my traditional kite shaped one flew once but its aerodynamics werent quite right son s yellow square was successful none however matched the ikea bought one we played cricket and frisbee as the water buffalos wandered passed in the typical indian way of having no real boundaries between one thing and another called in at the vederas which was very pleasant the garden was stunning as usual i love driving through the tea plantations with acres of terraced tea plants and through the forest to get there the hotel is an up market indian rather than a western which is great for us the décor lacks a little in taste and design concrete floors and that rather quaint unfinished look spotlessly clean and the thing about india is they love having kids around and spend ages talking with them and love having them around going out for meals in uk with children is always a bit stressful as low blood sugars combined with the general attitude of people to children does not make it a pleasant experience whereas even the hours wait for the food here is not stressful as the kids wander off play games read books etc son and other son have befriended a man at the blue moon gift shop he has spent hours playing chess and talking to them son won a little elephant off him by beating him at chess son decided he would buy josh the chess set and kept bargaining the price down he eventually paid 350 rupees for it 460 the beach is idyllic with palm trees and warm rolling sea the only problem is having to get the kids out of the sun during the red hot period between 12 and 2 we do keep slapping on the sun tan lotion i missed the widows peaks where my hair is receding and have sun burnt red patches either side of my head the boys have variable tanning depending on where the sun block was washed off first dear friends just a quick note to say that we are enjoying ourselves so much that we dont want to come home but we would miss all our friends we had a great time at the beach you know the palm trees the warm rolling sea the sandy beaches and unlike silloth 30 degrees warmth in fact some days it was to hot and we had to drag the boys out of the sea or else they would have been really sun burnt we are just back from 3 days at avalanche which is a bit of an unfortunate name for a mountain out door centre but as there isnt any snow i dont think the indians appreciate the irony it is up in the mountains a jungle area where there is very little apart from a few tea plantations reservoirs and hydroelectric plants and jungle and the wood men who harvest the wood every 10 years we left a bus and walked in to the centre while a truck took the bags food and the lazy ones it is incredibly beautiful with high hills and lakes but there is a drought at the moment so the reservoirs are all very low and everywhere is incredibly dry and dusty thick red dust which gets in to everything the facilities were basic the water ran from a stream to a tank to the taps no electric showers but fortunately as always in india there was a little man or in fact 3 who cooked for us all a is taking after wife their main concern was not meeting any rats we abseiled down a waterfall walked and swam in another well son and other son swam i am afraid it was too cold for me i will wait until we go back down to the beach we all went kayaking and sat around the campfire at night saturday 18th january 2003 the end of our indian holiday and escape from cumbrian weather wife saw the rep yesterday and the bus was arranged for 12 30 for a flight at 5 30 this tour company is something else so we are going to catch a taxi at about 3pm so we are not hanging around the airport for ages having 4 children and going through the bureaucracy of an indian airport is bad enough with out the additional hassle of waiting around for 3 hours with out reason the annoying part is that so much of it is pointless in that they put your bags through the security x ray in the main hall and then give you your bags back so that if you wanted to add stuff to your bag you could you have to go to 1 desk to check in another to get your seat another to exit indian immigration and customs and then identify your bags to get them put on the plane worse than defra so we spent a last morning swimming on the beach and then said good bye to the cs and gs wife had to buy her material fro the study we were all quite sad coming away i think we could have all stayed and enjoyed living in india but back to porridge sun 19th arrived at dads at 3am uk time after clearing customs flight was not too crowded thank goodness as the space allocated for my legs is not enough they had as before messed up their allocation of vegetarian meals with the height of european ignorance and stupidity they offered a hindu family by us a beef meal the stewardesses should have known better but i just cringed with inward embarrassment at their thoughtlessness left in t shirts and shorts arrived cold in jeans and fleeces the air conditioning i dont think was working properly and every one was coughing and dry mouthed as we arrived in gatwick drove back up to cumbria and back to the house it was a strange sensation to be back we had done so much and seemed changed and yet everything here was still the same and yet not really in some ways it is like after the fmd epidemic before and after everything is the same but nothing is the same part of you is trying to find where you fit in the new reality part of you wants the safety of the old ways slightly dislocated from your surroundings but the physical surroundings are the same but i suppose you have changed and the old certainties that were not certain but seemed it have made way for new changeable ways that are not certain and you know that they are not certain mon 20th i have taken the day off to recover the kids were all up really early because of the jet lag and so had no qualms about sending them to school i spent the day unpacking and sorting out with wife the pile of post was huge but seemed a lot more manageable by the time i had thrown out al the junk mail why do i need another 2 credit cards any way transferred money for tax bills and downloaded the emails there were only 50 so ploughed my way through them when you are away for any length of time it makes you realise how much work is required to keep a household going with all the bills and stuff tues 21st back to work and to face my in tray still feeling a little jet lagged and seeing an overflowing in tray as you arrive is a daunting feeling did some of it and then went out on call it was good to be back on farm and seeing folk again it always amazes me how everyone around here knows everything so they were all asking about india and had we had a good time so it was nice to feel part of the community as a friend of mine once commented there is only one thing worse than being talked about that is not being talked about there is still that funny feeling of having been away and having changed but nothing here is any different and yet thinking that it should be though why it should be i dont know weds 22nd george wanted a partners meeting at lunch time so we met up and had the usual decision making process to be honest the jet lag was still really kicking in so i was asleep on my feet it doesnt usually effect me for this long but both wife and i are shattered by 8pm the kids are ok and going to bed after us the sign of things to come the whole pets travel scheme is causing problems it has been presented as a passport for pets but all it really does is allow re entry to the uk from certain countries as long as you meet the conditions we have had a few problems and we do very few so what it must be like for those on the south coast i dread to think the problems are 2 main ones 1 that there is a 6 month period before you can come back into the uk after the paper work is completed you can go before the 6 months so people who spend the summer on a caravan site will take their dog abroad but cannot come back before the 6 month date there is also a problem where the forms have to be renewed it has to be done according to the manufactures directions which vary from country to country as in france it is a govt regulation that dogs are vaccinated annually so the vaccine manufactures stick to that in the uk dogs have to be done every 2 years cats annually so you cannot have your documentation renewed in france unless you vaccinate annually whereas in the uk you can renew it with vaccinating every 2 years the other problem is that the paperwork is so complex that according to defras figures there is a 18 failure rate ie 1 in 6 dont make it back in there is also a problem in that there has been at least one dog imported into cumbria with out any paperwork as the owners thought all they needed was a rabies vaccination we are dealing with it on a weekly basis and are confused so the poor punters dont stand a chance thursday 23rd there is a real problem with cow fertility in the restocking farms at the moment i went to 1 farm where of the 10 cows i checked only one was in calf which is a little sad no baby calves no milk production and more losses for the fmd farmers the compensation is looking very small the only ones who benefited are those who took the money and got out it is difficult trying to work out why these cows are having so much of a problem as usual i suspect there is no simple answer the blood tests and analyses do not help much the cows have been under a lot of stress the movement into new regimes and cattle systems where they have to learn where to go where the water troughs are where the milking parlour is they have had to sort out the pecking order of the cows which espy in the larger units is probably quite stressful where you add animals to a herd there are lead cows who know the set up and cows are very much follow my leader in their behaviour patterns where there is a complete cull and restocking there are no lead cows so no leader for the cows to follow there has also been a lot of illness in the herds which again will reduce fertility the other problem is the poor quality silage because of the bad weather the other factor that keeps coming up in conversation is what effect the topping of grass has on silage grazing quality which would have been an interesting study that will never be done now stress is a generality of a word but i cant think of a better more specific way of expressing the problems the stress of all the changes has caused fertility problems the difficulty is in finding where do you go from here i think a lot will end up culling fairly large numbers 15 20 because of fertility friday 24th one of the defra tvs called in on her way back from a test tb to let us know that there was still an ir causing problems she also said that it looked like there was going to be a complete herd cull for tb in the east of the county the farmer had restocked from three sources all were down to do as tracings as well as to be done under the restocking tb testing they found 32 reactors with lesions so they will probably cull the whole herd it is so depressing to think what the farmer must be thinking and whether he can face getting back into farming again after this further disaster does not bear thinking about saturday 25th january 2003 linda bs wedding travelled down to derby for wedding it was really nice to see them finally tie the knot as they have been talking about it for so long they have followed each other around several continents so at least that will have seen each other in different situations she first came as a student and has worked for us as a locum she spent 2 years at all nations bible college in london where she met him so a lot of their friends from all nations were there they have been doing agricultural relief work in the worlds hot spots from kosovo to indonesia from haiti to bolivia they are currently in bolivia working with church groups she has been setting up tb testing programme as there is a problem of human tb which has been blamed on the cattle but they have completed the testing and it is not the cattle it seems to be nearly all human to human spread so that at least they can make a start on eradicating tb in humans by treating the in contacts they went away from the church in a horse drawn carriage which was nice to see spent quite a lot of time catching up with vets and their friends who we have not seen for ages sun 26th we were staying with friends from carlisle who moved down to derbyshire when he started to teach we went to their church which is a house church and is a little different to put it mildly they meet in a school and it is very informal with a drumming band and a desire not to be restricted by convention or liturgy so it was a mixture of readings and worship songs they do seem to be reaching out to their local community as there were people from all walks of life there mon 27th back to work and not feeling very good had 2 weeks in india and no stomach bugs but a w e in derby and i have a very runny tummy came home from work early and went to bed tues 28th off work ill in bed being male this involves dying noisily in a corner some sympathy i get from my wife weds 29th not feeling good but dragged myself back in as i have had that much time off recently and i feel that i have to turn in but i am off tomorrow so i can recover then the only drawback is that i will be working the w e the sheep seem to have decided to start lambing or maybe decided not as we seem to be seeing a few if you get what i mean thursday had a good day off and spent time sleeping and doing household things even though i hate diy it was good to get some jobs sorted called in at vets to pick up stuff for court tomorrow friday the more i experience the legal proceedings the more i feel that they are a waste of time what is important is how good your lawyer is the case was all about whether or not this guy had starved his greyhounds or not he had but as he was on legal aid he thought it might be better to try to keep his other dogs and have fewer judgements against him he obviously knew his way around the legal system saturday 1st feb 2003 reflections on court case it is one of those really annoying things that you can never replay what has happened the case yesterday really churned me up with having to make huge moral decisions more or less on the spur of the moment the complicating factors were that c who was acting on the defence was acting outside the rcvs guidelines now i could have pointed out this to the rspca lawyer but as c has already been struck off once the matter could well have turned very badly for him even though it is his decision to get involved and a poor one then i think that it is not for me to land him in the muck i could have done so both on the fact he should not have been speaking and also that i could have pointed out that his record is tainted why he was being an expert witness in the first place for some one who is not even their client beadsmen beats me i had reservations about doing the legal work for the rspca and at least we do quite a lot of work for the local inspector so i decided not to trash c as a witness as i thought that it was not my place to do so and secondly the repercussions for local vet good will would not stand me in good stead but i have my doubts as to whether i did the correct thing there is no right and wrong the dilemmas are there because you to choose which horn you want to get impaled on sun lambing seems to have started with a vengeance spent most of the morning at the surgery with land rovers and trailers turning up one after another with sheep lambing or having peri natal problems i do like working out of the surgery at the w e as there is far less driving and working is so much easier and you dont have to keep getting changed in and out of protective clothes so got two vets work done by just keeping on asking for them to come to the surgery the farmers dont mind either as they generally have to put them in a pick up to bring them back to the farm from the field so it is as easy to drive on to the vets rather than hang around waiting for them mon went tt testing at ps farm i used his son a fair bit during fmd as they went out early on and he always has done a fair amount of contracting on the various farms he also has a very happy go lucky style in contrast to his dad who is a bit of a worrier i quite enjoyed the banter and we could just work away as there is no pressure too get finished as the numbers are not great tues went to os where they are again having problems getting the cows in calf the levels of infertility in the restocking herds are horrendous the sad thing is we seem to be achieving very little in actually improving it in spite of a lot of investigations and spending money on vaccine and on supplements the average loss must be 5 at least it would be interesting to compare the culling rates of the restocking farms and find out what the restocking losses actually are weds took the new vet student with me today and let her do the first lambing at rs they like everyone else says they are getting a lot of lambs these were dead and all tangled up and aborting so they could not get them out they had quads last night thursday went to s and stitched a teat this is now a fairly easy operation with the advent of using open crushes and decent epidural anaesthesia local is always fairly iffy as many a dentists patient will testify to it is very satisfying to fix something like that friday spent the morning doing certs these are otm22 certificates which were brought in by maff to compensate the farmer for cows that would have been sold for human consumption before the otm scheme banned them from human consumption if an animal is not fit to travel then it can be shot on the farm but to get the compensation they need a vets cert to say that it is fit for human consumption so it can be burnt on the scheme if it is not fit then they have to pay to have it taken away so there is a lot of pressure to sign them the scheme is supposed to be coming to an end this summer but as yet no markets exist for the casualty animals that are fir for human consumption the whole knackery injured animals burying of animals scheme is up for grabs and the govt needs to get some sort of scheme up and running but the govt thinks maybe rightly that it is an industry problem to get rid of its own waste and it is not up to the taxpayer to get farmers waste problems sorted leave it up to the industry market to sort it there is also a suggestion that as tb is not an important zoonosis in the uk anymore then it is a production problem and it should go the same way as sheep scab and be taken off the notifiable disease list and individual farms have to ensure they meet whatever standard that the buyers want to specify which is what is happening to a small extent in the dairy industry with buyers specifying farms must meet certain criteria saturday 8th feb 2003 wife is on her course for the w e so i was doing the run around to squash and football for sons mon 10th b is now renting all the land bush ghyll head he has taken it over as a grass letting another of the small farms is disappearing the reality is it has only ever been a small holding but they use to milk 20 odd cows which meant it got the status of a farm on our computer system the uncle who use to run it when first arrived was a real character he was always telling you about when farmers made money after the war a dozen eggs was 10 shilling none of your 50ps 10 whole shillings you could take a girl to the cinema and the lyons café and still have change from a pound even his free range hens eggs would not buy a cinema ticket for one these days he should of taken her as he ended up as a bachelor with his nephew taking over the farm tuesday 11th the partners meeting today was trying to address the fact that the mark up on fees is going to be eroded one of the things that barnard castle are doing is putting on their bills but as yet not charging for things like telephone advice and out of hours so we are going to be doing the same to try to get across the point that we are providing an all round service that needs to be paid for but i still think at the end of the day the economics will win if you cannot provide a service at a profit you cannot provide a service so where does that leave us weds harrisons are having problems with fertility who isnt the blood results are showing low levels of copper but i am not convinced that is what it is they will have to supplement the feed by adding more copper to the feed the problem with all these investigations is that we are looking for a simple answer when the actual problem is multi factorial the cows may be short in copper but they are not that low that it is really effecting them i often wonder with humans if you blood sampled them for lots of different minerals would we find that a percentage of the population is actually below normal for some or several minerals maybe our omnivorous diet and the fact we are not producing huge amounts of milk probably does come in to it we do have a much more varied diet most cows are now on complete rations here in the uk so that if the nutritionist gets it slightly wrong then you will find that the cows will be short i suppose the other thing that we do always forget is that they are usually working off either a single or 3 4 samples of silage so that there will be a spread of what is actually in the silage and the samples may or may not reflect it thursday on call tonight and busy which was ok r was up helping at wh house one of his suckler calves had managed to prolapse its rectum but it is as wild as thunder so we were all very careful about handling it i had to dope it any way to operate but when we put it back it was jumping up the walls which is always a wee bit disconcerting limousin stirks could be used for the grand national ds brother is not very well at all now he has cancer and went in for emergency surgery the day i shot all the cows i had a big row with senior staff at page st he had been admitted to the hospital at 2am and was to undergo emergency surgery that afternoon i did not want it put on the web site as they were announcing them on radio cumbria i did not want him to be going down for the surgery or just coming out of it and to find out from the radio that i was shooting all his cows i asked them to put an embargo on it of course the vets tried not to let it go out but it did and i was really angry i wrote some strongly worded letters and never even got a reply i should have followed it up and held some one to account but i am afraid it all got lost in the passing of time at least r is a lot better he had meningitis around the time of fmd he has had bad heads and depression ever since so it was good that he is back on farms and has started fencing again fri 14th valentines it is friend s birthday so we all went around to her house for dinner which was really nice and ended playing darts with the kids i was pleased to get some darts in the board as it is a long long time since i have played saturday 15th february 2003 sons birthday my little baby son is now 8 years old it is hard to believe where the time has gone and all the water that has passed under the bridge went around to friends at night and sat and eat and put the world to rights it is good every now and again to wind down and just enjoy talking with out having to think as we know them so well you can just come out with stuff sunday mon 17th spent the day tb testing at dl where they have had a nvl no visible lesions reactor taken colleague did the first test and we are not doing the fat stock on farms that have restocked as they will be going for slaughter fairly soon so it is deemed pointless and really it is so spent the day putting big bullocks through the crush and it is a dangerous work for the men who go in amongst them because they are very rarely handled and so dont take to it very well tuesday had an interesting lambing today and a consequence of fmd that you forget about there is an inherited genetic condition of suffolks called dandy walker syndrome causing hydrocephalus in the lambs so both the ewe and tup must carry the gene to produce the deformed lambs with heads too large to get through the mothers pelvis so it means doing a caesarean on a ewe that can only be used to breed fat lambs from it has to be put to another breed next year this years lambs are dead going to die so the economics are useless some breeders just shoot them at this point but he had called us to try to lamb it or caesaer it as she was a big ewe i eventually managed to lamb it he was saying though that it takes time to work out whether the stock you have bought will produce the breeding stock that you want you have to try the different combinations that you have to work out which lines work well together he reckons on about 4 8 years before he will be back to breeding decent suffolk sheep in spite of buying in good stock there is more to breeding than meets the eye wednesday rb had a stirk with mcf malignant catarhal fever it is a viral disease which is quite often fatal that they catch from sheep but they have really blue grey eyes from the change in the fluid in the eye and the severe iritis it must be incredibly painful for them thursday dixons tt2 is now clear so they have to have them all tested again in 42 days to clear the farm of restrictions un fortunately the vet from the ministry said it would be from the day the cow is taken not today so the whole thing is getting a bit complicated and jd is getting wound up understandably so friday tried to sort out some of the tracings that we are supposed to be doing there are a lot coming through but the quality of the info is very poor tracings are where the farm has sold animals and then subsequently gone down with tb or other notifiable disease the defra paper chase is so bad that ear tag nos are wrong or a farmer has bought several from the same source and only 1 2 are on the paper work from defra the thing seems to be falling apart a bit went and did a single animal up at the mill he usually buys in stores and fattens them but as the store trade has gone through the roof he has sold a lot of them on to let some one else fatten or if heifers breed from them the defra files have him as a fattening unit finisher so that they hadnt bothered to do tracings to him as they would be going for slaughter but of course he had sold one on that had gone down with tb so they wanted to know what was happening with these now saturday 22nd february 2003 saturday sunday monday tuesday had a funny sensation to day i suppose it was almost a flash back in some ways i went to a farm who has fancy pedigree sheep he has rented land and wanted them added to his holding for the mv scheme so he needs a vet inspection to say that the fields are double fenced so that the sheep do not come in contact to any others this inspection of fields is pretty meaningless as they know what needs to be done and so they are always up to scratch the last time i was doing it was for fmd wednesday thursday friday packed and got the last few things sorted for the vcf w e got the posters printed and the display boards together and set off down the motorway to pick up friend and spent most of the day travelling it was good talking to him he retired from practice just before fmd and then spent the first part of his retirement working for defra on the fmd first at preston and then at settle it seems they were better organised at preston and he was quite positive about the local teams i sometimes wonder if i am sill too close to it all and to emotional to take a clear headed look at what it was really like it was good to see friends at night and get set up for the w e sat 1st march sun 2003 vcf w e it is difficult for me to sum up the w e as i was so much in it and part of it so i have copied the report from one of the students who wrote a bit for the vcf magazine vcf triennial conference 28th feb 2nd march 2003 on a sunny weekend at the beginning of march over 70 vets vet students and families bravely took time out of their busy schedules and gathered expectantly at the hayes conference centre in derbyshire for the 2003 vcf conference we were a mixed bunch ranging in age from 2 months to 70 well nearly from many different places denominations and walks of veterinary life but we all had a common goal in mind to unite in our desire to love and serve the lord jesus christ in the vocation to which he has called us and to encourage one another to be salt and light in the veterinary world our distinguished speaker for the weekend was dr l a consultant psychiatrist and christian who drew from his own experience to bring us some thoughtful insights on the subject of god at work he emphasised the fact that although work is a godly activity and that we should view whatever we do as if working for the lord colossians 3 18 it must not be forgotten that a balance must be achieved between work church family life etc there was also an opportunity to discuss how we would respond as christians to a variety of ethical decisions that commonly present themselves in veterinary practice as well as the main talks there was the opportunity to join a variety of seminars on relevant practical subjects bt a vet and long serving missionary in thailand with omf led a most interesting seminar on the joys and challenges of both veterinary and evangelistic work in a different culture students and new graduates were well provided for in seminars on practicing reality living out ones faith in the university or veterinary practice environment m c bravely stepped in at short notice to lead a seminar on business ethics and vcf secretary generated some thought provoking discussion on a very relevant subject for many singleness it was not all work and no play however and we were much obliged to the scottish students for organising the saturday night ceilidh much fun was had by all so we all parted company on sunday feeling refreshed and well fed both physically and spiritually how encouraging to be reminded that you are not the only christian vet out there and that there are many others who grapple with the same issues you face the weekend was a time of friendships rekindled and hopefully new ones made a time of strengthening and a reminder of what is ultimately the most important thing in our busy lives leading the seminar on business ethics or rather winging it was very stressful but very good which was very interesting and very challenging the questions about is it right to make a profit were espy good to work through but it was incredibly draining by sun night i was exhausted drove back to friends for the night he live about 20 mins off motorway and it was coming through one of the wee villages i was flashed by a camera and so will have a fine and a speeding ticket to sort out mon had a really nice lie in and then went for a walk with friend around from his house across the fields it was beautiful then set off for preston to visit the friend who is in prison the road was closed on the way to the m6 so took me ages to find my way to the m6 and then after coming off at preston to find the way to the prisons the whole afternoon was very depressing there is something very intimidating about having to be processed for the visit under security cameras and by very polite but uncaring prison officers the being searched and going past sniffer dogs and having to give my finger prints which are now on the police computers prisoner was ok but fairly depressed about the outlook even now he is worried about how he is going to cope when he comes out the prison regime is very oppressive and after being there for an hour and a half i was glad to be going it is also a bizarre situation where you have to sit there and talk for that length of time there is also a lot of stuff that he wants to know about the kids and you just cant help him most of what we know is hearsay and not first and so difficult to sum up espy as some of it is not good they are not coping with the whole situation and it is basically his fault or his and their mothers so he is already feeling guilty enough with out giving him more angst to cope with but i was very glad to be coming out again into the fresh air spent the evening at as parents evening challenging senior management and giving them a hard time so quite a day tuesday as usual the disasters after a w e away continue the new bathroom was totally flooded from a leaking pipe i felt like wringing his neck he is the plumber the water was flowing back through the old kitchen and made a real mess managed to get hold of him after leaving more and more urgent phone messages at all his answer phones he has a mobile a telephone at his flat where he hardly ever is and at his girlfriends so the water was off most of the day until he found the leak and managed to fix it again he had to smash tiles and cut holes in the wall to fix it and the place looked a mess but boy o boy am i fed up with that stupid bathroom went into work to find no one had done the stuff i had left to be done and work was really busy the speeding ticket had landed already why are other govt depts not as efficient so spent the whole day until 6pm running around like a headless chicken and then decided that stuff it i was going to the gym for the circuits class weds the disasters continued with the washing machine giving up the ghost which in a house with 3 boys and a vet is a pretty serious problem i also had an argument with one of the other partners saying that if we did not get another vet we would have a rebellion or people going off sick through stress me being one of them and i have only been back 2 days still havent managed to read all of the stuff in my in tray yet let alone deal with it thursday finally convinced senior colleague we needed some help as the ministry got hold of him and asked if we could do a tracings herd test urgently on one of farms that has not restocked the cattle belong to some one else he then looked at the book and decided we could not idiot i told him weeks ago last september i think that this would happen so spent the day sorting out dc to come in between vetting he is not an lvi so have had to pull some wool and sweet talk them into training him in the baffling ways of defra but that meant i still have yet to reach the bottom of my in tray may be there is gold buried at the bottom i think this is one of those days when you look back were probably quite decisive but accidental days this was the first time i really thought that i was about to be killed i could see it happening and there was nothing i could have done differently to prevent it i went on a calving after work about 8pm met up with the farmers and one went to get water while the other and i walked into the box to where the cow was the cow gave me a funny look and i backed off to behind a pillar in the pen oh its ok its a quiet cow shes had 8 calves he said next time i will listen to my instincts so we went forward to where she was without warning or snorting or given it a second thought she charged caught me under the ribs with her head and threw me to the ground before i could react she butted me again in the head snorted kicked me and then backed off as the farmer started kicking and hitting her she then came again bashed me into the corner on my back and kept coming as her head flew at me i grabbed her nose and swung myself around on her nose kicked her with both feet taking all my weight on the one hand while shouting for help from the other guys one came back with a pitchfork as i was on the ground i kicked her again as they came with the fork and let go and scrambled away around the box she still came after me but i got to the gate past the two brothers who thumped her again and then backed off and slammed the gate shut i lay in a heap on a bale for 10 minutes breathing heavily while they asked did i need an ambulance or doctor i finally came to enough to splash water on my face and think that there must be an easier way to make a living it took all 4 brothers armed with sticks to get her into a crush where i then managed to calve 1 dead twin breach and 1 live twin just in her defence the cow had been calving for a while was in pain and had probably just got herself really wound up but she almost killed me i then sat having strong tea for quarter of an hour before summoning up the courage to drive home with hind sight i should have taken up there offer of a getting some one else out to calve the cow but the girl on 2nd was 5ft nothing and petite and didnt think dumping it on her was very fair the adrenaline was still flowing so i just kept on b i should however have let one of them drive me home or probably to casualty but i felt they would not do anything at the hospital except keep an eye on me so i just went home to my own bed and asked my wife to wake me up every two hours friday ill with head spinning every time i sit down to try and do something my head just goes around and i feel really tired and jet lagged i think i prefer india to being beaten up by cows time for a new job slept all afternoon but had friends for dinner it had been arrange months ago so wife didnt cancel and i kept going but drifted in and out a wee bit saturday 8th march had a lie in to 9 o clock yo still feeling pretty sore but at least my head is one piece i think showed flat to prospective tenants it is very rare that we dont have to get up for sthg when we are at home either for work or for football squash or something similar there is another squash competition but they are both later starts for our boys which is great took son to football and wife phoned up to say that the cs were going to watch the lord of the rings did i want to go so went to watch it and swapped younger kids with wife taking son and their youngsters and i went with the cs there are times when mobile phones are really useful to get things arranged the film was really good but boy was i stiff after sitting down for that length of time my knee was giving me real gyp spent evening at daubes but i faded so wife drove home and went to bed sunday 9th went to church in morning and picked up car friends came to lunch which was really good to see them but as a points out pointedly they do have 5 boys so there were 8 kids flying around but i did enjoy seeing them they are still trying to sort out their diversification plans and hope to have several strings to their bows as well as farming there is a teachers position at nelson thom so that is probably the most reliable form of income for friend mon 10th went to work but every time i bend over or move to fast my head spins so just did small animals i think cats and dogs are a much better idea but a lot of sympathy from folk at work mr h had been in and obviously given a fairly graphic description of what had happened that and my face is not the most becoming at the moment tues 11th back to work on the farms i was at rs for a fertility visit even though i know his cows and i am happy with them i did feel very nervous about going any where near them i have lost a lot of confidence which although i expected it i am still a bit wound up about it the rest of day was ok apart from several people whingeing about the current paper work requirements for selling cattle mind you when you see what they need to sell a few bullocks or a geld cow it is probably easier to be an asylum seeker spent evening at surgery showing d the ropes he is the locum who is going to be working with us for the next few weeks he is going to the ministry at newcastle tomorrow to do his lvi training at least that means he can do some of the tb testing and at least give us a break from that it is these sort of things managing staff showing people the ropes giving them back up and debriefing them that latkes huge amounts of time and energy and yet is never seen as work or relevant by a lot of people the rest of the partnership and yet in any small business it is the people that make all the difference and if they feel appreciated and supported and can debrief and be reassured then it makes such a difference to them and happy staff can deal with situations and people a lot better and easier than stressed ones weds 12th next year i am not going it is definitely some one elses turn i speak of the annual training day for senior lvis it just drives me up the wall the morning was spent fairly usefully talking about contingency planning for the next fmd or exotic disease epidemic the page st planners seemed fairly well clued in and taking on board a lot of the ideas and problems that had been seen in 2001 the afternoon was then totally depressing tb is now endemic in the south of the county there was a deer herd that had animals dying and so took them to the vic lab at penrith to find out why they had these animals losing weight and dying they had tb the ministry had known that there had been reactors all around that area but had never picked up on the fact these deer were here and should have been tested there were also complaints that forward tracings were not being done on some cattle to which the vety officer giving the talk said it was quite difficult to work out where cattle had gone this was met with some incredulity by the local vets as the paperwork and computerised passport scheme surely means that trace ability was one of the big issues to do with bse and if it cannot be done it means the whole thing is a useless sham well the answer is that you can trace a specific animal through markets and holdings but not animals on and off a holding so tracings are taking too much time so it is not getting done so tb is spreading idiots the best systems the best tools the best ideas the best businesses have to work through people so next year some one else can go and listen to the plans in the sky this was the meeting where we had an excellent talk on fmd in feb 2000 just a pity they did not listen to their own experts there was also a talk on the new scrapie scheme where the guy speaking knew less than his audience why i have to go back to the speaker at the vcf w e who said that when he came out of medical school he had spent 6 years being taught to be rational and scientific where disease was discussed logically and a rational conclusion was sought he came with the same idea to the national health service and struggled he said we live in a fallen world with fallen institutions and we have to accept that at times they do not make sense and that it is not in our power or capabilities to change them where we can we change them where we cannot we work within them thursday 13th day off prior to working w e went up high pike with friend snowed lightly on tops but beautiful but a wee bit chilly spent the afternoon getting the stuff sorted for vcf magazine and answering e mails and putting the details from the w e in to some sort of order i was trying also to put some responses down for yesterday but feeling to angry to risk putting it down on paper i just hope the govt is more in touch with the armed forces on the frontline in kuwait than the distant arm of govt in state vet service in cumbria friday 14th another day another test another dollar spent morning supervising the locum and trying to get on top of my in tray the stuff for partners meeting next week to try and get some decisions and a w e on call looms when i feel even though i have not been in work or worked too many w es tired and jaded being beaten up by the cow probably doesnt help saturday 15th march working the w e on first for the first time in a long time as i have been keeping the amount i am working back i am was way ahead in the amount worked so it brings the numbers in line i also need a break as feeling v tired and fed up and with not much prospect of rejuvenation the morning was fairly busy but we all finished by 12 so not that bad it was funny as julie who ahs been a receptionist since pre fmd said that she thought it was really busy but compared to the good old days of 8 years ago you thought it was a good sat am if you finished by 2 so it is surprising how things change and you get use to them the weather is beautiful with clear skies and frosty spring mornings and dry the good weather always makes you feel better any way spent afternoon doing bits and pieces in garden and jobbing around sunday 16th busy in morning but it shows how useful the new building is ok i know its 4 years old but things have never been normal and i still see it as new there were 2 lambings and a sheep to see and drugs to put out and because i was at the surgery they just kept on coming down to the surgery to the large animal bay so i did a lot of work with no driving and it makes such a difference what would have taken 3 4 hours was finished in an hour and a half missed church and did the same at night with more lambings the sheep are back the afternoon was spent sorting out after boys they went down to the pond and because it is all churned up they got their wellies stuck in the mud so they were cold and wet and covered i had to use planks to walk out to them so i did not sink in i made the mistake of fetching the planks and the spades back before sorting the boys so they had trailed mud all around the house grrrrr but i should have taken photos in the midst of this the new vet student rachael turned up so i could not give full vent to my annoyance mon 17th chaos at work with loads of emergencies and testing so we were all glad of students and d working more i rs found tb testing so it looks like it will continue still havent found time to put pen to paper or type writer to send a letter to contingency planning group at defra but hopefully will get on top of it soon tues 18th some days i should have stayed in bed a bad hair day started off badly with arriving at fertility visit as farmer was emerging from breakfast having been late as his wife was milk recording and he had to calve a cow so had to sort cows before checking to see in calf a very rotten lambing rotten as in lambs were disintegrating so stank and then more calls left for lunch at 12 45 to get half way and the called me back for another lambing there were 1 30 calls to do and then surgery worked at night and i was fed up of being on call stopping me doing stuff so went to gym and was bleeped out to speak to folk 4 times by now really wound up so went to house group and sat down chatted and phone went sorted that and then a cow caesarean this was followed by 2 more and 3 hours sleep must be an easier way to make a living weds 19th feeling my age no sleep on the night before you 40th birthday does not do you any good missed seeing kids in morning as i was out at caesar 3 during night on call the girls at work had got hold of loads of photos from my wife so they were all around the practice well i was a cute teenager worked through to lunch as morning was busy and partners meeting then did a 1 30 and went home for sleep opened presents with kids at 4 oclock and went out to ds for meal at night was good thurs 20th really quiet as no tb testing and lots of vets did more lambings and caught up on business side of organisation doing rota and organising work reflected on partners meeting and tried to work out whether i am out of sync with the rest of the world and right or out of sync and wrong time will tell iraq war started as predicted but seems to have been an opportunistic target i e saddam himself rather than all out assault weird but that is politics i must ask the history teachers about what caused the failure of the league of nations and whether this is going to be similar for un fri 21st despite being on back up went out for a meal it was the coffee mornings xmas bash that is traditionally now held in new year as there is too much else on during xmas period spent quite a while talking to ms about league of nations and the un he is fairly sceptical about the power and influence of un which in his view is more often than not used as a fig leaf for us or ussr ambitions and is not really the international community he was interesting to talk to about the history of iraq played pictionary boys vs girls which was fun saturday 22nd march 2003 worked am which was very busy as it was my 10th day i was feeling a bit drained either that or cos of out for meal last night i will let you decide the beautiful weather is continuing and we went for a lovely walk up above fellside the kids loved playing in the streams and the sunshine which for march is amazing came back to find that there was a house full of folk to celebrate my 40th birthday which was really nice though it was a good thing that the weather was good so the kids could play out side as there were lots of them chatted to p who is always full of energy and enthusiasm he is a whirlwind of ideas and concepts and philosophy one of the few people who i can sit and listen to for hours and hours he is intelligent and articulate in 7 languages and yet always ready to listen to anyone and hear what they have to say even if it is poorly thought out and very practical in his approach and very un materialistic he is quite happy to give books and ideas to anyone who will read and learn from them sunday 23rd this weather is amazing i still cannot get over it with the sun blazing down we went to watch son play football against silloth they won 2 0 but it was a tight match but very good to watch much better than carlisle as one spectators put it went on to beckfoot for a picnic in march the beach was deserted and yet it was warm enough for t shirts and shorts for the boys i lay in the sun and slept and counted my many blessings came home and planted seeds lettuce courgette and sweet pea must plant leeks and pumpkins if i get a a chance this week and buy onion sets wife spent a while after church talking to b about low moor difficult mon 24th sent my letter to richard drummond who was the rvo at harrogate and is now head of service delivery it is always a bit of a conscious effort to take up the cudgels against bureaucracy especially one like the svs that has in its culture a tendency to attack those who criticise it i hope that tomorrow will be quiet as i wish to write another letter to the contingency planning dept i also want to look at the updated contingency plans and make comments on it but doing all this does not pay the bills and at the moment when work is so busy i feel it is actually more important to spend time with the kids so i will sign off and go and watch the great escape which they bought me for my birthday copy of letter to richard drummond who wrote the drummond report before fmd saying that if there was an outbreak they would not be able to cope 21st march 2003 mr r d drummond address removed dear richard i am writing to express my concern with the current situation with tb we last met at the lvi meeting in cumbria where we had an excellent talk on foot and mouth disease and about how there was an increased risk becoming apparent this was in feb 2000 at the meeting this year as well as talks on contingency planning there was a lot of discussion on the emergence of tb on cumbrian farms there were also complaints that forward tracings were not being done on some cattle to which the vet officer giving the talk said it was quite difficult and time consuming to work out where cattle had gone this was met with some incredulity by the local vets as the paperwork and computerised passport scheme involved in moving cattle is a huge burden on farmers trace ability was one of the big issues to do with bse and if it cannot be done it means the whole paper exercise is a useless sham the answer was given that you can trace a specific animal through markets and holdings but not animals on and off a holding so tracings are taking too much time so tracings are not getting done in some divisions so tb is spreading whether this comes under your remit as head of service delivery i do not know but i would be grateful if you could forward it to the relevant department or to the minister so that a single enquiry to the cattle movements service at workington will ensure a comprehensive list of movements on and off a holding since the previous test if we cannot trace from herds with tuberculosis reactors the ability to track fmd is obviously a non starter thank you in advance for your help with this i hope in 3 years time we will not be contemplating what we should have learnt from an lvi meeting in hadrian house yours sincerely bvm s mrcvs tues 25th wife s cousin from vancouver arrived and it was really nice to see her again the canadians are always so up beat and down to earth they have a refreshingly positive can do mentality she and her daughter have been with a school choir singing in parts of europe and doing the european tour they are whistle stopping the lakes tomorrow it was good to catch up with them young vet who lost brother was with them my favourite mother in law she brought me a set of kitchen knives for my birthday present they are incredibly sharp so i dont think that letting the kids loose with them will be a good idea but at least we can pitch some of the old ones which needed sharpening every time you used them vet arrived back from skiing very sun burnt from the sunshine and wind she has had a really good time though weds 26th a and left as i arrived in to go to yps it was funny to see them very much the young ladies going out they live at opposite ends of the world and yet the fashion is the same little hand bags and scarves as belts globalisation is not just effecting agriculture they had spent time in keswick and around the lakes today making use of the gorgeous summer weather in march it really is warm hope we are in for a scorcher of a summer holidays thursday 27th spent the quietist night on call for a long long time nothing why is it as soon as you employ a locum as an extra pair of hands the work disappears still it will given everyone a chance to have a breather said good bye to the canadians and mother in law we are heading over to ireland to see the irish side of the family at easter so we will see vet friend again soon but it was funny saying goodbye all the same dont know why was doing a herd health plan today for a farm that has 50 dairy cows he said he did not really know why he is doing it as he is going to give up and go and milk for some one else as it is not viable to make it pay on that sort of small scale friday 28th havent got the workload right at all i think the sunshine has sent the farmers into the fields to work and the lambs and calves are all arriving un aided in to the sunshine it is amazing how the good weather makes you feel so much better so i have booked in extra testing for next week the only slightly sad thing was talking to one of the farmers who had just started lambing i was taking out rotten lambs that were aborting 2 weeks earlier it is his first season actually lambing as he only bought in fat sheep last year he said that it was at this stage 2 years ago that they came and took all his sheep he should not have let them do it it was wrong and he had not put up a fight he had just gone along with it he was fairly melancholic about it i tried to point out that every one had done it and it had seemed to be best thing to do at the time i did not think that pointing out i had not been convinced and argued against it and that only 2 out of 10000 blood samples of live sheep slaughtered had been exposed to the virus would have helped they were my granddads flock he said now we have all these problems he says looking at the dead lambs i have just pulled out lying in a heap in the corner of the trailer you never forget something like that lad he says never there are a lot of anniversaries to go through and all the farmers are saying the fun has gone out of it saturday 29th march the beautiful weather is carrying on and wife and i had a child free vet student free afternoon the sun was out and we went down for a walk along this side of bassenthwaite lake there were lots of daffodils out and a light breeze off the lake it was beautiful cool sunny day for walking and very pleasant we really enjoyed it son and a are on the young peoples church w e at edinburgh and will arrive back exhausted from lack of sleep the js had the boys for the afternoon so it was good met up with friends in the evening and spent the evening putting agriculture to rights he sells manages sales of fertiliser for norsk hydro sunday mothering sunday was a bit of a disaster with out a to organise the boys and i hadnt had time to get them organised church was r j on the beatitudes then met up with cs and went up bow scale fell sons friend and son complained the whole way they were in really bad form and i was fed up with them monday the work has dried up completely which for this time of year is unheard of we have employed a locum to try and get the testing done and no work for every one to do embarrassingly got it wrong usually at this time of year there is no testing and the vets are running around like idiots not very good news for us so wrote letters to the head of contingency planning at page st to amuse you i have copied it here name defra rm 803a 1a page st london sw1p 4pq dear name i am writing to thank you for travelling north to carlisle to come to speak to the recent lvi meeting at hadrian house carlisle i have also been reading the defra contingency plan and a lot of lessons do seem to have been learnt i appreciate this years deadline has been passed to place it before parliament but it is a living document my apologies but better late than never i would like to make a few comments as one of the early tvi volunteers at carlisle and as a partner of one of the practices at the eye of the storm 1 the whole issue of valuation of animals taken as a compulsory purchase by the state for the benefit of the farming community to eradicate disease has not been addressed one of the initial problems slowing the slaughter of infected animals was the valuation my own view then and now is that a simple standard valuation must be applied it must be high enough to be an incentive to reporting of disease but too low to make the possibility of disease seem financially attractive the price for compulsory purchase may be set higher for dangerous contacts or less for affected animals if there is a simple standard value then the diagnosing vet counts the number of bovines and shoots them the farmer knows in advance what compensation is going to be paid and individual animals of high merit could be insured for whatever sum the farmer is willing to pay premiums for this may be an unpopular nettle but it needs to be grasped even though i am sure my clients would disapprove of it the current tuberculosis problems are again high lighting the problems in this area there should be a standard procedure and valuation for all notifiable diseases and the values based on the last mid market rate there are apocryphal stories that the valuers are still running the system for their clients the farmers not defra 2 the second issue that has not been addressed is the tracings system with the advent of the british cattle movement services i was under the impression that traceability was a central part of government policy it was with some incredulity that in response to questioning at the lvi meeting we were told that bcms cannot give a list of movements on or off a holding so tracings for tb are still being done by a defra vet trawling through a farmers movement book why if the political will was there at the touch of a bottom the data base should be able to generate a list of animals moved in the past 6 months which markets they have been through and which holdings they have been through if this cannot be done for tb you can forget trying to do it for fmd or other fast contagious disease there is still a confusion over the database which should be based on holding numbers several farmers have multiple holding numbers several have a single holding number and multiple sites high genetic merit animals may have several owners a single holding may have stock from several different farms the rules for cph numbers need to be re evaluated centrally if a data base is to be of use it must be actively managed and updated that can only be done at a local level 3 disposal i know that this has been looked at but farm sizes are continuing to grow at an ever more rapid rate the average size of dairy farms in this area has grown by 20 cows since fmd this means there will be a bigger disposal problem as individual farms will have more and more stock 4 the local office should have stores to equip 20 tvis at 24hours notice we touched on this point at the meeting was the need for sudden recruitment of tvi or other veterinary staff while the svs can second small numbers of vets for short term availability there was a reluctance by some dvms to second staff who may yet be required in their own areas local lvis can provide veterinary cover but the whole structure of large animal practice is in flux and it may or may not be possible to provide veterinary inspections on an allocated on a temporary or part time basis the pay and conditions for such assistance need addressed and agreed the other part of this is orientation training at the local levels this by the end of the outbreak at carlisle was quite impressive however has that information been put together centrally should there be a central trainer who trains designated trainers for each svs office decc similarly with lay blood samplers vaccinators again local practices could provide nominated nurses lay staff for training during the out break here ai personnel were used very effectively for blood sampling and other procedures is this again something for the local plan but if the cost for training ai staff in blood sampling was met centrally it would encourage a register of trained personnel to be maintained locally the cumbria county council inquiry recommends the use of its emergency centre as a hub for multi agency response to any disease out break should there be some joined up government so that each county council as part of its contingency plan provides for an admin back up for any emergency civil disaster terrorist incident and do the local plans make use of this my main concern however is that when i asked at that meeting had the two way communications between page st and carlisle been sorted out it was met by nervous laughter i would like to emphasise that page st did not know what was going on in the field during fmd outbreak there was a communication barrier between the vets in the field and carlisle management and a huge gulf between carlisle and page street i would plead that this is addressed as the culture identified by iain anderson still seems to prevail i quote a culture predisposed to decision making by committee with an associated fear of personal risk taking such a climate does not encourage creative initiative it inhibits adaptive behaviour and organisational learning which over time lowers the quality of the decisions taken it seems to me that a reappraisal of prevailing attitudes and behaviours within the department would be beneficial it may be outside your remit but the northumberland report with its flow charts and recommendations actually lists lessons to be learned in dec 1969 the one about the svs who fared so poorly in fmd 2001 states we have considered the recruitment problem of the state veterinary service the reasons maybe the low initial salary or in part the to the nature of the duties within the service we consider it important for future development that the ministry of agriculture should attract a greater number of good young graduates willing to make a career in the service at the end of any plan are the people who are going to implement it they need well managed well led and given the resources to carry out the task they need to have confidence in both the political and civil service leadership there will need to be a risk management of tasks for financial reasons resource reasons and for the wider rural economy this requires flexible decision makers who are prepared to take risks and stick their head above the collective parapet i hope that this provides a few more thoughts for you to work on yours sincerely refs fmd 2001 lessons learned enquiry forward by chairman iain anderson p7 northumberland report presented to parliament dec 69 part 2 section 47 she spoke at the last lvi meeting and as usual the plans sound good but where reality hits is in the delivery tuesday did some small animal work and more testing tues evening always seems a rush went to gym and then on to ns for the new frontiers church meeting which was excellent weds managed some fertility work in the morning and spent the rest of the day bringing the practice database up to date it has been let go since foot and mouth as it tell us how much stock each farm has the numbers have been all over the place as people have been restocking and changing the direction their businesses are going some moving out some moving up in numbers and some going from dairy to beef or sheep the most interesting thing was the fact that a lot of farms that had restocked with adult animals have dropped by 5 10 cows since they restocked as older cows are lost or ill cows go but there are not the young stock replacements coming through to replace them the actual figures for dairy farms restocking are not yet entered in the computer i was hoping to have them but will get them thursday did some small animals and some otm22 but it still incredibly quiet consequently i have booked in a lot more work for the next few weeks so i hope i dont get it wrong the other way set up anne a vet student for her project on comparing fertility pre and post fmd finished off updating the database figures so they will hopefully get entered over next few days and we can do some comparisons march figures look ok but the long term out look is not so good the govt is doing a committee looking at farm animal vet practice the lakeland bva have asked for comments efracom inquiry into vets and veterinary services efracom is a defra committee terms of reference are to look at the provision of farm veterinary services in england and wales in particular it will look at 1 what impact current levels of farm income are having on the usage of veterinary services and in turn what effect any reduction in the usage of such services is having on the number of practices dealing with large animals 2 what effect any reduction in the usage of veterinary services and a shortage of large animal vets is having on health and welfare standards and on the effectiveness of surveillance for animal diseases 3 whether the requirements placed on farmers by government including those in the animal health and welfare strategy are realisable in such circumstances and 4 what is the impact on the work of the state veterinary service comments by 12 april please the day ended with the reading of a tb test on a farm that was hoping to become clear after going down when it first restocked 18months ago 1 reactor and 1 i r on normal interpretation they will probably take both on severe interpretation the government always looks as though problems are dealt with in isolation the defra vet who looks after our practice is not dealing with this case as his daughter is married to her brother the farming community is very incestuous friday work desperately quiet so i organised more testing to do i hope i havent over booked the work defra vets at carlisle are still learning the ropes when it come s to tb as it has been so rare in this part of the world so a few of the allocations have been wrong so i am having to go back and do extra animals so that set can be signed off the school held a curry evening tonight which for a cumbrian village school is very cosmopolitan there is an extended family of three pakistani families and they cooked though for the children there was also a bangers and chips option it was quite a nice time though wife was on her next level counselling course so i ended up just with kids but it was good to spend time with them i have enjoyed not working many w es recently it kind of gives you your life back that and not doing much at work saturday 5th april 2003 wife was at her level 2 course counselling so i had the kids for the w e took son to squash went into town for some bits and pieces and then i chatted to i while we waited for t and son to finish then took all the kids into town we are having a mothers day tomorrow to make up for the fact l a were away for the w e last week the kids have bought presents and made cards which was nice the cs and friend came for lunch and then spent a very muddy afternoon by the pond playing and building dens and generally making a mess and having fun son even decided showers were in order when he came back that shows you how dirty they were as he is mr allergic to water i made a fondue for tea with apple juice as the kids dont like the kick of the wine it was a great success and did taste rather good even if i do say so myself sunday i went to church on my own as wife was heading out again after an early lunch the talk was on gods leading which is always relevant the kids were great fun on the way back and full of craic they had a return trip to the cs as they were too late to find a sky tv for the match carlisle lost as usual but it is not every week they lose at the millennium stadium i picked the kids up from the cs and put all their bikes on the back of the car went to say good bye to cs in the meantime three of their boys were hiding in the boot of the car so they let me drive out with them before the giggles and laughter gave the game away so it caused much merriment all round met up with the lads sunday night felt really sorry for one guy who is having real problems getting access to his 7 year old as his ex wife is putting a lot of ve input into the wee one he can go down the legal route but will be expensive and probably counter productive as she is not wanting to negotiate or look at what is best for the wee girl it seems a real mess monday in spite of 4 tests the work is not there i spent the day testing though it is really quite amusing as i know the guys sister quite well and i always make sure i tell her how much the good lunch is appreciated so there builds up a rivalry between them as to who can provide the vet with the best food i am afraid i consciously flame the rivalry in spite of it not doing my waistline any good trying to concentrate after a three course lunch on a boring job is not easy you just have to think about coffee time and more cakes and tray bakes all of them distinctly unhealthy with the aim of feeding out door manual labour tuesday had a bad night as my hand was caught in the crush yesterday by a stirk throwing its head and it bent the finger back it seemed ok but is now throbbing like mad plenty of aspirin and corticosteroids did some ferty and then saw another lda the cows seem to be having a real problem with the feed this spring as we have seen 3 4 times the normal number went running with a as my finger meant i could not go to gym to work machines weds the speed cameras have arrived on the top road and unfortunately i was going too fast by the time i saw it so i will probably have another 3 points on my licence they have been building pads on the side of the road all along the a595 as it has a really bad record for car accidents the numbers killed continues to go up the speed cameras are in a van which can move around and hence trap the speeders it is called casualty reduction unit a bit of a pointed message even if you did slow down for them work is slow again today with no tb testing on mid week days it is my brothers birthday in nz and he sent a letter to say he is going to be a dad again so the trip to come across at xmas is off he is wanting us to all go there hm maybe thursday i has had 2 reactors and 4 i rs today so the future is not looking good for him as it looks like there will be tb there he has had real problems since the herd restocked with lung worm energy problems in the silage and atrocious fertility he is going to have to go and buy another 30 odd replacements at 800 to replace those that he has lost through ill health and fertility makes the compensation payments seem pretty small thats 24k he has lost out on already and his own heifers are only coming up to be served work is busy and i wonder if the spring rush is coming i was supposed to be at the school parents evening but got called out which was pretty irritating i hate the fact that you are just so unreliable when you are on call friday another tb testing day so busy all together not a good day the competition report is out and is fairly damning as expected so the pressure on drug margins is going to continue and the old fashioned way of providing a complete service will be going out the window we will have to charge for the out of hours and on call the telephone advice and try to make it pay but the whole economics of going out to see a single ill animal will be gone the clinical skills of veterinarians will be gone all academic as the cost for diagnosing a single animal in the new era will be too much so the diagnosis will all be done by post mortem of herd problems but if you have large herds the man power will not be there to look after the individual ill animal sad depressing day but i am off for the w e saturday 12th april 2003 woke up early and got up even though it is my day for a lie in i think i am particularly wound up it all ways takes me at least one day to wind down from work so i am tired and yet not feeling able to rest took son to football and other son to buy anew bike he was so excited it is his birthday coming up and he has out grown his old one so it will be good for him the kids spend ages flying around the yard on bikes and up and down the field when the grass is short they have a real ball here it is a great place to grow up as they have so much freedom to play and play and play my finger that was caught tb testing started throbbing again this afternoon so as it had improved and then got worse i decided i had to get it x rayed so i spent the afternoon in casualty waiting to get x rayed and then waiting for another hour before being told it was not broken a five minute consultation that took me almost 2 hours friends were up for the w e more friends are at capernwray bible college for an easter youth thing so they came on up so it was good to catch up sunday cooked lunch for everyone and then went to communion it was dire and reminded me why i dont usually bother spent the afternoon putting onions in and tidying in the garden it is incredibly dry and warm amazing really the 6 kids spent the whole afternoon messing around at the pond and were disgusting with mud everywhere and trailed all up the yard and wellies abandoned everywhere church was dm speaking and then the yps came back to ours afterwards mind you i think i had had enough kids for the time being but i was ok monday bad haircut day as there is only one day we can test this week i booked in fair amount which would have been tight but aw was off ill so we were too tight so a few ops have been put off until tomorrow d has a s african vet friend visiting so with him and the vet student the house is still full i however am knackered and not feeling sociable had a horrendous calving it is not often i cannot calve a cow but i am afraid after an hour i gave up and caesared it the calf was dead and rotten so whether she will do i dont know i did not want to caesarean but that is life it was either that or the farmer pay 60 to get some one to take it away after i euthed it tuesday we are in the period of anniversaries it is 2 years since the ls went down i was at a farm which did not get fmd and his uncles did he was saying what a sad day it was so his uncles must be feeling it more the beautiful spring weather with the grass growing in spite of the frosts definitely puts a bounce in to your step on days like this i think that it is an excellent life wandering around the countryside and enjoying the scenery the farms the animals and the farmers beats working in a factory any way went to the gym and felt a lot better for it exercise is a great way of getting a buzz but you have to be not too tired to a get there and b enjoy it i have gone often because i feel i should and just felt like a steam roller had run over me and its taken a day or two to recover balance in all things weds the commission report came out today difficult to believe that they will be able to implement it but having lived through the fmd there were quite a few things i thought that they would not be able to implement but they did we will have to if the minister decides and since it is dti not defra i think that the implementation may be effective provide prescriptions free of charge provide our clients with a list of pharmacies agricultural suppliers and other vets and web sites that will meet those prescriptions the cost of the most commonly prescribed medicines in the previous quarter the cross subsidy of professional fees by pharmaceuticals will not be allowed and how will the pharmacist make his money the other comment which did irk me some what was that the provision of 24 hour cover does not seem that onerous i do not often swear but really very depressed but daughter came on a caesaer with me as i was on call tonight it is really nice working from home and being able to take them with me it is a very healthy thing to do she is growing up and is very much the young lady the farmers wife is the dental receptionist and of course said hello a she was thrown as of course being out of context she could not figure how the farmers wife knew who she was thursday good friday it is sons bday today and the day started out great for him i was on duty and he arrived in our bedroom at 7am with the other 2 boys to start on the birthday celebrations our family tradition is that they have breakfast in bed in our bed dont know why but that is what happens the others all brought cards and presents in the phone went and it was a lambing so tim decided he would come and see the lambs being born so he was thrilled we opened the presents later on which included a new boiler suit which really thrilled him it is amazing what kids think of as their best present i never really like working good friday i always think one year i will be off and go to one of the contemplative services hebron being low church never really does anything like that which is a real shame easter is when i think the cathedrals old country churches and the church architecture can really be helpful in stopping and praying and helping to consider what jesus did on the cross finished work and went up to the friends they were both home and it was really good to see them played rounders and had a barbeque which was really nice james was in really good form as he was enjoying being back away from london where he has just started work as a high flying lawyer he is not enjoying london very much he is a hills and countryside lad his girlfriend was also there so was quite a good craic i didnt really want to come home but was so knackered that it was probably just as well the kids were with us and it was not a too late a night saturday 19th april 2004 spent most of the day either catching up on sleep or on the day to day things that seem to have been put to one side for a while there was also the preparations for the service tomorrow we are taking the easter sunday morning service which is one of those night mare services where everyone comes the age range is from 0 to 100 and everyone has different expectations i should explain that the normal sunday services are very different there is the family focus which is lively and very informal aimed at those with young children who go to sunday school there is then teaching for parents adults there is always a lot of noise children running around babies crying and shakers and childrens songs the communion service that follows is very traditional silence and solemnity rules all the older generation go and it is a very different service so we are going to be combining the two oil and water a lot of prayer has gone in to this one sunday wife got up at 6 am to go to the sunrise service at the crematorium she said she needed some input before the easter service we are leading it is a service organised by st james parish church but all the carlisle churches are asked to take part christiana had asked to go so wife went with her and it was really good christ is risen he is risen indeed the sermon was by the archdeacon from the cathedral who said that being a good anglican he wanted some liturgy through his sermon so every time he said are you dead the congregation had to reply no alive in christ at which point he would sound a hooter the service at hebron went very well oh ye of little faith i should pray more and worry less i have included our outline below and i have put in additional comments in blue easter sunday service welcome to hebron evangelical church this easter sunday morning when we are celebrating jesus is alive our opening hymn is our declaration that jesus is alive he has risen from the dead opening hymn we believe in god the father welcome intro me and welcome team this morning the service is in a different order from usual we are going to remember what jesus has done for us on the cross and bruce beattie one of our elders is going to help explain what the bread and wine mean to us as some of the children may not have been here for a communion service before then after taking communion we are going to celebrate jesus resurrection with reading singing and sharing the resurrection is the central part to our faith who knows what that long word resurrection means the answers from the kids were quite amusing but we got there in the end at the end of the service there will be the offering an opportunity to give our money as well as ourselves to the living god if during the service the young children get fed up there is a place at the back where they can do some making things it isnt easy to sit still when you are little or be quiet so please dont worry about the little ones being a distraction i often wonder what it was like when jesus fed the 5000plus crowd do you think the children all sat neat and quiet in rows i dont think so we are pleased to see them and hear them this is a time of family worship from the youngest to the oldest reading psalm 67 i had this up on a power point and we read it together may god be gracious to us and bless us and make his face shine upon us that your ways may be known on earth your salvation among all nations may the peoples praise you o god may all the peoples praise you may the nations be glad and sing for joy for you rule the people justly and guide the nations of the earth may the peoples praise you o god may all the peoples praise you then the land will yield its harvest and god our god will bless us god will bless us and all the ends of the earth will fear him psalm 67 prayer m as we sing this next hymn it would be good if the children came to sit at the front so that b can see you all when he talks to you hymn when i survey the wondrous cross communion b b gave an excellent talk about remembering he included a diary and a kitchen timer which he set to go of at the carefully timed point in his little bit he then used smarties to go through the easter story and the different colours i wish i had it written down we then had communion and he had smarties for the kids so that they could remember about the easter story while the adults took communion and remembered christs death and resurrection forgiveness is a wonderful thing we have just been remembering what jesus did for us on the cross he died for us what incredible love but thankfully the gospel doesnt end there son a and cerise are going to read on reading and luke 24 vs 1 12 they did a brilliant dramatic reading an empty tomb lets sing gods not dead he is alive sing it twice and use the instruments at the front to make a joyful noise we want you to have a little taste of what it was like to be around that day and so lets listen in to mary magdalene chatting on the phone to well you listen and see who she is talking to wife did a sketch about mary talking on the phone to marta having met the risen jesus she was very good really gave the facts to a contemporary feel hymn led like a lamb to the slaughter in the second verse would children come to help we have verses to give out to the big people and id like you to help give them out making sure all the big people get one for the children who may not be able to read yet we have some coloured stones to remind you of a huge stone that was rolled away when jesus rose from the dead you can keep it in your pocket or somewhere special to remind you that jesus is alive and he wants to be with you where ever you go a had made up tiny scrolls with verses about the resurrection which the kids all gave out it kept the wee ones busy and also gave everyone a verse to think about isnt it wonderful to know that we are singing hes alive he has risen and all over the world the church is singing the same message in revelation we get a little glimpse into what it will be like in heaven with a new song being sung to jesus christ close your eyes and listen to what it says rev 5 vs 9 11 we have the privilege in hebron of having a few representatives of different language people and nation here this morning let us listen to them christ is risen in different languages and prayer we then had one family say it in arabic another in german there is a philippino girl who said it in her language and some one else in spanish it was magical introduce lord we lift your name on high sung at mizpah orphanage with children some of whom had just heard the name jesus for the first time at christmas see picture we need helpers to do the actions to this song we are thankful that jesus is alive and so he speaks guides comforts and forgives us for all the sin the mess we make it is not only the marys and the peters and the thomases that have met with the risen lord we each have a story to tell of walking with the risen lord as you listen to some people here sharing a bit of their story i wonder what you would have to share take the opportunity to day to share what god is teaching you where he is changing you dont hide behind the weather or holidays share your journey to encourage real fellowship end in prayer over top song and offering this is your opportunity to offer yourself afresh to the risen lord an old song but a powerful one to make this song personal to you choose the verse where you will stand as a sign of your offering to the lord band will play it through twice as collection taken up and then we sing it if you want to sit until last verse when we sing take my love then we will all stand for last verse take my life this song has lots of parts about asking god to take and use different parts of our lives songs intellect strength money etc and by asking people to stand at the point they wanted it really meant they stopped and offered part of them selves back to god in response to the resurrection finish with thine be the glory the service went really well people came and said how well it had gone wife spent afternoon packing and feeling washed out giving out is tiring but the satisfaction is huge mon up early to catch the boat to n ireland the boat was not too busy which was good spent the boat ride filling in my thoughts on the future of large animal practice for the efracom enquiry bought lord of rings part 2 the two towers as i am wanting to re read it having seen the movie so that is my holiday reading sorted out had a chance when we got there to sit down with wife s parents and talk through our future which was good as campbell usually disappears out but a sit is a bank holiday he didnt they were fairly up beat about it which was good so i was pleased spent the evening with c and the cousins which was really good had a barbecue and chilled out c was not really surprised at the news as agriculture in ni is going through a bad time as well it is behind the uk and there are a lot of small uneconomic family farms and so a lot of consolidation is going on and farmers selling up tuesday spent the morning playing squash with the boys which w as great fun spent the afternoon in the garden trying to tidy it up went out for dinner with our bridesmaid who has also just handed in her notice or rather accepted a redundancy package it must be catching it was great to see her and also to be out in belfast which is such a cosmopolitan city these days with different languages cultures and nationalities all mixing in the downtown area a big change weds went to the new exhibition centre in the docks at belfast it has a multiplex and a science exhibition as well as shops and restaurants and so on it was amazing the kids could have spent all day playing on the exhibits and it was very well done so that you came away having learnt quite a lot wife now believes i cannot do colours as i am easily confused by them there was one exhibit where words in one coloured spelt the name of another colour ie the word was spelt y e l l o w but it was red in colour you then had to read the words or say the colours and i just could not do it my brain ended up really confused bought flowers and stuff for the garden and did the boxes for gran went out to dinner at rp she is a widow who is wife s parents age but is so much fun she loves giving dinner parties and having folk of all ages around she gave me some useful addresses there are lots of plans for wife s parents golden wedding thursday the day of the big photo shoot wife s brothers father in law is a photographer and while we were all together wife mum wanted a photo of all the family together so we spent an hour and a half getting positioned and photographed 7 kids and 7 adults and a very pernickety photographer travel back on the boat was ok but came back to find that everything had fused and that the phone was not working so fixed the fuses which are all trips thank goodness and got the electrics going the phone could not fix but did not worry while we were away there had been a lightning strike on to the phone line up the road and it had fried all the cables one of the neighbours had been in her kitchen and the phone had exploded and jumped off the wall it has left scorch marks down the wall i am just glad that there was no one on the phone at the time the other unfortunate thing is that the computer was attached and is dead as a dodo friday back to maelstrom i was really relaxed going back in to work and it lasted for may be half an hour no one had picked up on any of my admin things while i had been away in spite of asking people to do so this meant i had to start and get things organised for testing the rota and nestles as well as to try and do some work my in tray is a mess but never mind i also had to complete the report for efracom as the closing date is today i hope not by 5pm the report was actually finished by 10 15 and was e mailed off i would like to have polished it a bit more but the schedule today was not conducive during the evening when i was supposed to be writing it i had a casaers and a foal trying to die at farm they are not having much luck as they have had horrendous problems with restocking they are also under tb2 i enclose a copy of the report to efracom the right hon michael jack mp environment food and rural affairs chairman of the sub committee vets and veterinary services a submission summary this is a timely review of farm veterinary services i would submit that the current trends in veterinary practice are likely to accelerate rapidly in response both to present levels of farm income and imminent changes in veterinary practice in this submission i have briefly covered the following areas the current provision of veterinary services and how they are financed current trends and their likely impact on veterinary services the effect of the reduction in large animal clinicians on health and welfare standards and on surveillance the feasibility of the animal health and welfare strategy the impact on the svs the future and possible outcomes the current provision of veterinary services and how they are financed the income for rural farm veterinary practice that provides the majority of veterinary services to the agricultural industry has traditionally come from 5 major areas clinical services examining and diagnosing individual animals calvings lambings individual surgery routine fertility dehorning and castrating traditional on farm professional fee work lvi income from defra maff in the eradication of notifiable disease tuberculosis brucellosis anthrax etc many practices also were involved with meat hygiene and inspections at abattoirs the dispensing of pharmaceuticals the provision of veterinary advice on farm management and welfare the majority of veterinary partnerships are mixed practices a consideration must be given to the fact that small animal work makes up a variable proportion of the work and income to veterinary practice it is my opinion that clinical farm animal practice the examining and diagnosing of individual animals is already uneconomic for both the veterinary surgeon and the farmer it is only happening because of the cross subsidy of the professional fees by other income and because of the good will of most farmers to give animals a chance as the harsh economics are coming home to vets and farmers this is rapidly becoming with james herriot a part of rural history current trends and their likely impact on veterinary services what are the current trends within agriculture and veterinary practice and what effects will that have both in agriculture and farm veterinary practice there are trends that can be identified how fast how far these trends will go is difficult to predict but my own experience is that change when it comes change is often slow at starting but then dramatic in its speed the effect of decoupling and other eu decisions on agriculture are unknown but the current trends are likely to continue in agriculture farm size has to continue to grow as farms make less and less per animal they have to spread costs over larger and larger numbers the individual value of each animal continues to drop in real terms efficiency and mechanisation continues to increase chicken farms are now routinely 100000 animals plus since foot and mouth disease the average dairy herd size has increased from 90 to 114 an increase of 20 which talking to many dairy farmers is only going to increase as more herds are going to be 300 animals these increases are usually with out an increase in labour on the farms this means the care of individual animals is likely to be less important but the care of the overall heath of the herd much more in veterinary practice the major changes are likely to be from the competition inquiry in to the cost of pharmaceuticals the subsidy of professional fees by sales of pharmaceuticals has been an increasing trend since the late 60 s then professional fees were subsidised by the large scale eradication schemes by maff who paid very good fees to get the vets on the farm and help eradicate the notifiable diseases the competition inquiry is recommending that pharmaceuticals be dispensed by pharmacies as well and that prescriptions be provided free of charge which private organisation is going to provide a service free of charge has yet to be ascertained but the current level of income derived from pharmaceuticals is not going to be sustained this inevitably means that the cross subsidy will disappear and farmers will have to pay the full cost of veterinary clinical service and it will not be economic to do so at the same time the costs of providing veterinary services continues to rise the cost of veterinary time is continuing to rise students are now graduating with debts of 15 20k because of the loss of grants and payment of tuition fees this means there will need to be a further raise of 2 3k per annum to pay veterinary assistants to match the status quo farm animal practice already pays assistants less than companion animal practices despite offering a less favourable on call rota in the short term following fmd many practice principals worked additional on call to make the rota acceptable to attract assistant vets where this is viable in the short term in the long term it is not acceptable as partners profit becomes commensurate to the salaries they have to pay to veterinary assistants they will be aiming to increase charges for clinical work or look to other avenues for decreasing costs increasing turnover providing an out of hours emergency cover is not economically practical for vets except in the big cities where practices join together to provide an emergency clinic currently there is an rcvs obligation to provide 24hour cover but the rcvs is not involved in the commercial pricing of services as the value of individual animals continues to drop in real terms then the cost of treating individual animals becomes less and less viable where there is no cross subsidy for out of hours work it will become untenable as many mixed practices have a dwindling farm animal side that is less financially attractive many will decide to concentrate on the companion animal side of the business in a lot of mixed practices it is a senior partner who will do the largest amount of the farm work this means the younger vets will not have the case load to become experienced and confident in farm work there is a cohort of practitioners in this situation heading towards retirement in the near future will the practice continue to be involved with farm work as fewer practices become involved with farm veterinary services the cost of travel to the more distant farms has to rise beyond the already accelerated rate all this means that farm veterinary practices will lose income from clinical services and from pharmaceutical sales they will have to move more towards the pig poultry model of providing veterinary advice and charging for it vets have already moved out of nutritional advice leaving this field to nutritional experts the reason for this is that most nutritional advice is provided free to the farmer by the firms who then put that cost into the feeds that are sold to the farmers this cross subsidy of fees by sales is apparently acceptable where the subsidy of veterinary fees by pharmaceuticals is not this model is beginning to appear in other areas whereas vets provided most mastitis control the dairies who buy the milk are now providing free or subsidised advice to farms on cell counts and high bacterial counts including bacteriology with a variable back up and quality of advice nmr and other recording agencies are already offering fertility information on their recording products and it is a short step to actually providing the fertility work i believe that these factors will contribute to a dramatic decrease in farm animal clinicians in the next 5 years the effect of the reduction in large animal clinicians on health and welfare standards and on surveillance as the number of clinical veterinarians reduces then there will be much less on farm surveillance this means that outbreaks of novel or unusual diseases is much less likely to be noticed or recorded at an early stage the routine care for the animals will be done by stockmen under veterinary guidance the guidance will probably be by quarterly or 6 monthly or annual visits and by herd health plans individual animals are much more likely to be treated ad hoc by the stockmen rather than by veterinary surgeons the quality of this treatment in some cases may be adequate but in most will be poor the significance of symptoms or illness may not be appreciated diagnosis and treatment seen as a high cost and used as a last resort any outbreak of disease will be well developed and losses occurring before veterinary advice is sought as herd sizes increase and labour decreases then the attention to individual animals must reduce with a drop in welfare standards ill animals are likely to be culled quicker as limited manpower becomes more important the use of vets as additional expert man power for calvings lambings will be seen as too expensive the demands of the system must mean that high heath status is important with routine vaccination and herd health policies being put in place defra seems to set high regard to laboratory diagnosis results as a form of surveillance most of the common problems are diagnosed treated with out the resort to laboratory aids fertility lameness mastitis pneumonia pge are rarely referred to the lab except where treatment is not working most samples are taken referred by vets in practice fewer vets would mean fewer samples the lack of veterinary advice to ill pigs and ill sheep on farms at heddon on the wall shows how the lack of a clinical veterinary service can lead to in the terms of delay and spread of disease the local knowledge of the current lvi system is an invaluable asset that is in danger of being thrown away the idea that a farm is a box which can be assigned a number in page street and dealt with as a single entity is a problem that has still not been resolved the complexity of many of the local farming links through trade working together machinery shared grazing fell rights and family ties cannot be reduced to a computer screen on dcs the feasibility of the animal health and welfare strategy in my opinion they are not i was hoping to cover this more fully but lack of time has prevented me the impact on the svs the impact on the svs is likely to be slow to be realised the svs is not known for its ability to meet challenges or streamline its systems as the number of vets involved in farm work decreases it will have to provide more of its own resources to tackle tasks currently done by lvis the more flexible private practice takes up the challenge of getting backlogs in testing done and can respond to new challenges for example the licensing brought in during fmd private practice can fit the work around other duties whereas if it is going to be done by the svs it will be more expensive to take on vets to do these tasks alone the svs was notoriously unreliable in its work allocation during fmd the record being sending 5 vets to the same farm on the same day has yet to be beaten though i hope it would be a lot better in normal circumstances there are still problems with the allocation system that can only be put right by local knowledge in areas where there are few farm animals there may well not be lvis willing to carry out the routine testing for notifiable disease who is going to provide veterinary cover for these both for clinical caseload and for the lvi work there will not be vets available to second to defra for the next fmd or exotic disease outbreak the contingency plan confidently states that resources for 20 tvis are to be kept at each centre in case of an outbreak of notifiable disease with out addressing where these will come from there will not be 20 tvis available at short notice during march 2001 the majority of vets at the carlisle decc were lvis the future and possible outcomes the picture i have painted is what in my opinion will happen if the government allows the situation to develop i would hope that there would be some joined up government when decisions are to be made in response to the competition inquiry report there are a mixture of outcomes that are possible the numbers of vets in farm animal practice will reduce this can be minimised by maintaining the cross subsidy of professional fees for providing clinical services either directly by defra work in surveillance or other notifiable disease work and or from pharmaceutical sales the option of increasing fees is not possible veterinary services will be provided by other means eg vets working for feed firms dairies manufactures retailers to ensure a welfare surveillance standard consultancy firms providing fertility mastitis specialised advice defra local authority will have to provide vets for notifiable disease testing surveillance tasks developing the french model of farm cooperatives employing vets for their own farms the pig poultry model of regular advisory visits but minimal involvement in the day to day running or with individual animals only the first of these provides for the continuation of the successful lvi structure the other outcomes mean a loss of clinical veterinary services the loss of clinical services means a drop in welfare standards and the loss of on farm surveillance farm veterinary services are in a transitional time facing economic challenges changes in agriculture increased regulation and increased competition for the pharmaceutical and services they provide there will be increased competition between practices as they try to meet the higher expectations of new veterinary graduates starting their careers and providing a cost effective service to the rural community bvm s mrcvs brief c v currently a partner in one of the largest farm veterinary practices in cumbria having spent 17 years in mixed rural practice spent 6 months on secondment to maff at the carlisle decc during fmd sat 26th april 2003 having worked last night and done 2 caesaers and a calving on call on top of a long week i was completely washed out did sat am surgery and a call then went home to bed knackered and fed up and deciding i did not want to spend my life like this sunday a busy day on call but at least the calls did not stack up just kept coming in ones and twos so the stress levels were not to bad but boyzo am i tired mon this is the beginning of ds last week he has worked out really well and i hope that he will be able to work here at the back end to help with the testing he is easy going and has a good s african protestant work ethic always happy to oblige and is good to work with he is a good laugh too always teasing and playing silly jokes and has a great sense of humour spent most of the day on catch up after the week end did some calls and sorted car and drugs out and cleaned my kit the slippage of cleanliness since fmd is very noticeable especially at the w es but dont tell defra went swimming at foxes well to be honest sat in the jacuzzi and talked and then swam 2 lengths i was too tired to do much really i must start getting some proper exercise again or my back will suffer tues i am really annoyed at defra i rang and asked what would be needed to put our vets on to panel l which is what is needed to do the exports for nestle and panel l can just be added on as it is a simple export thing so it would take half an hour to do it this was last friday by now it is we have to go for training by svs it should only take half an hour to through the forms why can their yes not be yes and their no be no so we have to spend an afternoon going to carlisle to got through meaningless forms so that we can fill in meaning less forms so that nestle can get th milk through customs i am beginning to see why people just smuggle things rather than get involved in all this stupid bureaucracy weds went on the factory visit to nestles today to have a look around so that we know the plant and can give them certification for the milk powder for export the whole thing is ludicrous as dried milk powder is a sterile product it has to be or else it goes off very quickly so why we have to certify that it has been pasteurised i don not know but hey its money the size and quantity and the huge amount of machinery and very small number of people required to maintain and operate the plant was awesome we went to the distribution warehouse where there was just row upon row of pallets 3 7 high full of dried milk or cappuccino drinks weird to think mast of the instant cappuccino is made in dalston thursday went for panel l training it was as pointless as i thought it would be took the opportunity to go through with defra admin staff some of the queries and problems at the moment we do a lot of stuff for defra telling them who has stock and who does not have stock to ensure their database is relatively up to date but it is a headache as they are working off computer screens hence mrs f r of a farm does not correlate at all with mr e r of the same address the computer is not into relationships so that they are married and live together and own stock on the same piece of ground does not really get off the ground this evening was the final partners meeting where i handed in my notice the reasons for handing in my notice are complex most decisions probably are there are lots of factors some trivial to the outsider but important to me others may be important to others and similarly not to me several people have asked is it a reaction to fmd the last casualty in some ways it is for all the horrendous experiences for all the long hours and difficult ethical and to whom am i responsible dilemmas it taught me a lot about myself to see fear in the eyes of senior management when challenged to be able to organise a protest meeting of thirty vets with jim scudamore to do the tv interviews o see the effect of feeding information to journalists to be able to break through by fast talking and relying on my wits to organise completely new systems and manage projects that had never been done before to build teams from international backgrounds in the face of opposition from the hierarchy to be constantly caught on a tight rope between the different groupings i learnt that i have huge abilities and to go back to normality is difficult the future of farm animal practice is also very unpredictable there are a lot of farms who are yet to restock the cross subsidy of fees by drug sales is going to end and more and more work will be on behalf or paid for by defra they are at the whims of the politicians and the treasury they are also not the easiest client to deal with there is also the problem of being second in command and dealing with the frustrations of the partnership we are not united in the way we work or where we see the practice going this means my schemes for diversification for improving income streams and managing the bad debt will either not happen or will become part of my workload which is already over stretched add in to this cock tail the fact my wife is starting to work and i have been given a really bad scare by being tackled by a cow the question is do i want to do this job for the next 20 years the answer has to be no so the only answer is to hand in my resignation and start to look for something new as i have a 6 month notice period ending on an accounting date i have to jump before i have another job sorted out even so the decision was very hard and i was really choked up when i left them to discuss the future i could not go home as the kids would want to know what was going on so i went to js he already knew i will tell the kids on friday the practice manager on monday and work on tuesday i have said very little of my thoughts in the diary as i have learnt there are somethings better left unwritten until the time for the information to be public whatever issues are to do with confidentiality if you dont think something can be talked about then do not write it down as you never know who is going to read it a though got her self in to a stew as i rang wife to say i was going to js she then said she would come out she left a bit too hurriedly for a who then got it into her head that we had gone away on holiday with out telling them friday the whole day was unreal i knew i was going but no one else does told the kids at tea time and i was shocked by how upset they were it has come as a shock to them tim especially loves coming out and about around the farms with me there is also no what i am going to so it is just uncertainty on 2nd call sat 3rd may 2003 work then wash out i was on second last night and had 2 caesars and a calving what the second caesar was at 4am so i felt dreadful all day young vet had started operating and got stuck so i went to the rescue the cow had horrendous adhesions so nothing could be moved around we spent an hour and a half trying to pull the calf out and then stitching up the uterus in the cow i felt i needed diving gear on as i had both arms in to their full length with vet beside me trying to stitch by feel my arms were exhausted by the end of it i was like death warmed up all day but feel i have definitely made the right decision sunday after a good nights sleep feeling better my mother always use to say that the world looks very different after a good nights sleep and a cooked breakfast i do not need a cooked breakfast my stress levels have been that high that i have been eating far too much i am going to go on a diet the usual promise to myself my weight is going up fast so i will have to cut down and start to exercise a lot more went to see the practice manager to tell him that i have handed in my notice i have decided to see him on his own so that he has a chance to process it before work on tuesday he is overweight and stressed and that type to have a heart attack so treat him gently he is also a good friend so i should give him some warning so i spent an hour chatting it through and talking which is a good a way as any of spending a sunday afternoon mon bank holiday another bank holiday working but at least it is fairly quiet so spent most of the day working in the garden the kids were away in the morning doing various things and then met up for lunch with friends which was really nice they had been down to visit family in the lake district they had hired a couple of cottages for the w e and all met up they are really amazing people they are both doctors and i went out to visit them in thailand which was brilliant fun he was working with leprosy and aids cases they have come home and are sharing a gps job between them she is also doing a diploma in diabetes they are also doing deputation work to raise money for the work of omf in thailand and asia they have 4 kids and it was really nice to see them all again the kids are similar ages i really felt for them because they have gone from home schooling to schools in edinburgh in the big city so they have the double culture shock of coming to the uk and being schooled in a complete different way they are also very bright kids and having had individual attention from a very focussed mother they are miles ahead of the rest of their classes yet they do not have the social skills to adapt to the rough and tumble of life in a city comprehensive mobile phones are not a must have item in rural thailand good to see them all tuesday today i announced the fact i was leaving to those at work i had thought about how i should do it and what i was to say it is quite difficult both from an emotional point of view and from the fact that i think that the business in the longer term will have problems this has both a direct relevance for the lay staff and their jobs though there will still be a similar number needed as their workload is likely to remain the same and also for the vets two of whom may or may not be approached to buy into the business there will also in the longer term be a smaller number of vets needed but this will probably be managed by natural wastage i spoke first to the senior assistants and then lay staff it was hard as i have been there for as long as many of them 15 years which is a long time i think also there is an attitude that the ups and downs seem to be past for them there was a lot of upheaval over the move from b v up to s park fmd is over and things are suppose to be getting back on to an even keel and i throw a spanner in the works weds spent the evening phoning friends and relatives to let them know that i had handed in my notice and sending off for job details on two jobs and applying for another i am not sure what i am looking for so at the moment i am just sending off for anything that seems interesting and waiting and seeing it seems an unreal situation in so many ways i also had to phone the bank manager both to arrange our annual visit and to tell him that i was leaving again getting the balance between moving on and being positive with out pointing out the dangers in the future of large animal practice was a difficult balance after the initial shock all power to him as a salesman banker he then asked whether i would be needing any banking requirements so at least if i do start up an independent vet small business consultancy i will have a bank account to run it from thursday a quit day as no testing so tackled some of the back log in admin spent a lot of time setting up the systems and know how folder for nestle we have taken over the work for doing the lvi work for the nestle factory at dalston as they have fallen out with the previous practice when we took it on i assumed it would be the odd bit of work but in fact it is a huge amount of work so it is going to take some sorting out i also feel a bit off as i have handed in my notice and yet i am setting all this up and i ma not going to benefit from it at all i suppose it comes back to wanting to do what is right and that we should serve god and not man it is always a useful measuring stick to use to work out motivations and what should be done in a situation who am i trying to do this for me the practice the client or am i doing what jesus would do friday another bad hair day had real problems trying to fit the extra work into the day and so got a bit frayed around the edges fortunately next week will probably be the last thank goodness the practice that used to do the nestle work was on the phone to me and not very friendly hey ho went out for a meal with friends which was great they are the church youth leaders and are really switched on but i think need more support and help hopefully once the 1st of october hits i will be able to get more involved went to the royal oak at welton which just has been re done and is serving food on a proper basis as well as having a pub part more like a restaurant wife s food was excellent mine was ok i had an indian trio of samosa and 2 bharji to start with i am afraid i have been spoilt by real indian food so i should not have bothered going for it in a cumbrian pub saturday may 10th saturday may 10th a day off after too many days working and too much stress it was really nice just to be around home doing the garden and not really worrying what else is going on in the world i needed some space and i am pleased to have got it at long last it is amazing how much better the world looks after a good nights sleep and a some time off in the afternoon the c boys came around and we took them to see new chicks s was there and i did not want to go down the route of explaining why i had made the decision i had to leave so chickened out of telling her i suppose i am happy with it and i just want to forget about for the w e so we arrived with 7 boys which is quite brave fortunately we could not stay long as we had to be back to go out to giannis with d he took us out and it was really good fun the kids were all in good form came back and watched the first part of a dvd on john grishams book the client he is an excellent writer and although film can never develop the characters the same as a book so the film was good but only ok sunday 11th church was good this morning and it was good to be there and spent ages chatting to folk but came back to lunch with a couple who stayed too long there are some people i find really draining and she is one it is awful but i get really wound up and just want them to go after about 30 minutes they came for lunch and did not leave until after tea so i was almost going spare monday 12th i find the silence around the fact i am going a bit unnerving it is a bit elephant and coffee table really a lot of the farmers i suppose dont yet know or if they do how to respond todays frustrations are all with things not working bt have sent me a bill for 115 for fixing the line that was struck by lightening i was put through three depts before i gave up i may try just not paying and see if they can register the fact the bill is being disputed the other frustration is the car doors have gone again in wife s car which is incredibly frustrating they have been fixed and fixed and fixed although it is under warranty i am getting to the stage that i feel we are being fobbed off tues 13th i went to hear mg from the licc london institute of contemporary christianity speak at the living word this is a series that happens every spring and is organised by a group of ministers and folk from carlisle he is a very interesting speaker he is an ex ad man and his whole message is to get the church to look out side of it self he thinks that christianity in the west has become a leisure time activity and is not impacting the rest of peoples lives there is a concept of the sacred secular divide the church does not get involved in secular things work culture the arts sport and in some ways philosophy too whereas there should be no divide christ is either lord of all or not at all he also is a very amusing speaker he was talking about how technology is usually neutral but how it is used has very far reaching effects on family work and society he used the microwave as an example with a very amusing story about how he managed to save the sleep of the whole of north london by using the new fangled microwave to heat his daughters midnight bottle thereby saving the chancellor huge sums in lost revenue with typical jewish hyperbole he then moved on to his kids now teenagers not coming in for the meal he has prepared but reheating it in the microwave and how that led to a lack of communication and again hyperbole to his angst about not understanding the younger generation as this is a diary about fmd how do i relate this to my experience of fmd on the simple level the culture within defra needs to change servant hood whether by civil servants or politicians has been forgotten truth will out spin will fall computers should be a tool of all and master of none organisations need to have a human face for people to relate to whether it is the brigadier or the cvo people are individuals created by god and have feelings and are not numbers or statistics the post modernist human secularism where truth is relative where brown can announce that everything is under control can mislead parliament and people and it is acceptable i actually strongly feel that the current presidential style of where no one can make a decision with out refer to their boss is a poor model pain disaster illness and trouble are part of the human condition part of the fall of evil in the world enough philosophy its time for bed monday 17th may this was the big golden wedding anniversary day it was wife s parents golden wedding and her brothers and family all came to stay for the w e the celebration meal was at lyzzick hall in keswick the big surprise for wife s mum was that her bridesmaid and husband were coming over from canada j picked them up from the airport and took them to a b b other friends were also coming as a surprise rp started the surprises by coming in dressed as a waitress she came in and offered wife s mum a drink and she was really overcome the other surprises of bridesmaid and canadians was really nice to see the younger parts of the clan went off to the climbing wall while the older part went for a look at the lake in the rain it was a really nice day ended by a firework display thanks to c as he grew up in belfast during the troubles and fireworks were banned he has a real passion for them now as a big kid sunday went to church with everyone a very mixed group but they coped p spoke in the morning meeting he was very good he is a publisher and was talking about the church in china as he has just helped to publish a book about some of the christian house church it makes the materialistic church in the west look very weak and un spiritual in the evening mm spoke on the christian at work which was very good and very funny he was a bed sales man when he was a student and he was very funny about how he made shy engaged couples lie down and try the beds this really tickled other son age 8 much to his grans tut tutting the point he was making in between the jokes was that he had been told that he was to say that the bed s would all be delivered in 3 4 weeks when in fact it could be up to 6 weeks but the shop keeper thought this would put people off this meant that mm ended up in bother with couples arriving back from their honey moon to no bed so he decided to listen to gods way and tell the truth which he said like most biblical teaching is obvious once it is explained and tell people the truth not what they want to hear mon went and read the tb test for the tenant farmer there was 1 i r the reaction of the farmer took me back fairly badly and i was quite shocked at the sheer vehemence of his reaction fortunately it was mostly at defra he went out early on to the disease and he therefore got much lower compensation than a lot of the later ones he had some cattle wintering at his farm for some one else who went out later on with fmd at his home holding the difference in the valuations for the same type of cattle was horrendous he also has buildings that he owns on a small parcel of land the buildings were old and knackered but usable a lot of string and gates defra pulled them to pieces during fmd and then offered him peanuts o reinstate them which meant he could not get them back into a usable state so he is not a happy bunny spent the afternoon castrating horses which is not my favourite job if a stirk kicks you it hurts if a horse kicks you it usually means a trip in an ambulance you are therefore very tense and ready to move in awkward positions canadians and wife s parents headed off for a trip around the borders in our people carrier they are coming back to swap over cars at the end of the week wife has the tank to run around in for the week tuesday my back is twinging from the castrating and a calving yesterday and is really sore so did paperwork while sitting like a ramrod until i gave up and came back to lie down did the back exercises hourly but it just got stiffer and sorer weds spent morning reading in bed and doing back exercises but cannot get it moving went to see the accountant in the afternoon to sort out the practicalities of going freelance and finishing at the vets thursday back is a lot better and starting to move much more freely the first negative comment on me leaving today came from a farmer who has decided that the only way to make money is to go for 300 cows he has therefore planned all this designed new parlours been to look at other large herds thought it all through unfortunately his costings are on buying in dairy cows at 6 700 per head and just recently they have gone to over a thousand which means he is out by 60k oops but he said that he thought i was deserting them in a way i suppose i am back in to being on call with a vengeance a calving a caesar a prolapsed uterus hey ho friday interesting statistic on the radio whether it is right or wrong i do not know in the eu the average beef cow is subsidised to the tune of 2 per week the average african earns less than that the canadians and wife s parents arrived back from their trip around the borders the good news is they baby sat or teenage and child minded while we went out to the lemon lounge the bad news is they are to feed and look after over the w e my brother and family arrive tomorrow so it will be a bit crowded it was really nice to be out on our own with relative peace around us the noise from an office party does not impinge as it is nothing to do with us saturday 31st may 2003 a gardening day we decided that we would have to get the place sorted out so spent most of the day in the sunshine pulling weeds and sorting out the garden it was a beautiful day my back was pretty sore by the end of the day but we got it nearly all sorted which was good the boys cut the lawn and a sat on it and read her book another bbq by the end of the day a made the salads while the boys cooked so it was a family meal wife and the older two headed for tescos while i cleared the debris away sunday june 1st the sun is still flaming but the seeds and seedlings are looking a bit sad and whithered in spite of the watering i have really enjoyed the week off but there has been very little on fmd met up with friends at church home visiting parents in the evening caught up with the as he is an indian gastro enterologist who worked at carlisle they now work in bombay so it was good to see them they are hoping to set up an aids hospice there are currently over a million people who are hiv ve in bombay monday back to work and quite busy so it looks as if the june quiet period is not going to materialise with folk on holiday it makes it seem busier any way it took me until 4pm to get to my in tray which after a week was overflowing as usual tuesday this is more like june long lunch and spent the morning trying to get the accountancy package up to date sent off another speculative e mail job application a friend from church who is now studying physio therapy at glasgow came and insisted wife i went out for a walk together which was really nice he is a really nice young guy went to beach at beckfoot where we were the only ones walking the beach there was one serious kiter i have not seen such a serious kite for a long time it was fairly windy and he had it anchored behind him so as not to be taking off with it weds spent the morning doing fertilities and then spent time sorting out issues with george there was so little work it is boring for the assistants the june quiet patch ahs arrived the bills did not go due to a computer upgrade cocking the system up the systems are now so complex they are beyond any reasonable way of keeping tabs you have to trust the experts who you dont thursday day off spent it writing out a business proposal to try and get work via a consultancy firm then tried fixing the extractor fan and failed thursby football club is going really well with some more lads coming along the standard is variable but good fun friday tb testing again at fs they had just heard about me leaving and were full of questions the night was really busy on first call and had lots going on wife was at a retreat thinking through the future and reporting on the last year so i was trying to juggle kids as well saturday 7th june 2003 last night was terrible with a dog to see in the middle of the night and put down it was only a young dog but it had leukaemia and was not responding to treatment it had colic probably from the mesenteric lymph nodes and was rolling around in pain not nice for them or me sat am was busy too went to one of the organic farms to see an ill cow post calving he was saying that there are three farmers all none fmd giving up milking one is another organic dairy farm he was promised a premium of 10p per litre and his costings were based on 28p per litre he is getting a premium of less than 05p per litre which takes it to 16p the figures do not add up so he is giving up the other 2 are small farms who cannot make it work 40 50 cows slept in the afternoon and went to a party in the evening bizarrely as we were walking in the people whose dog i put to sleep last night walked in as well they live next door and had been invited as well weird spent time chatting but came to 10 and i was dead on my feet sunday 8th the on call changes from 2nd back up to 1st at 8 30 am the phone started at 8 35 urghhh i am finding it very hard to have any enthusiasm knowing that i ma leaving in a few months one of the farms i was on has given up dairy and were hoping to retire fmd year but lost money because of all the restrictions so they are now hoping to finish this back end may be they were hoping to keep the milk quota and lease it out as a pension but because of the new rules they will have to sell it and the price is low as there are a lot of non producers who are in the same boat it was at its height worth 1 per litre a lot was bought and sold in the 40 60p per litre it is now around the 10p mark funny world agriculture monday 9th calving at 5am followed by other calls so an early start busy day at work went to a meeting for the new crusaders support worker it is supposed to be county wide but is going to be based around kendal as that is where the legacy that is providing a lot of the money is based so it is less relevant tot this end of cumbria so i have backed out of the organisation committee as most of the meetings will be at rydal too far for me we were there tonight so did not get back until 11 30 which after a w e on call is too late for this bunny tuesday 10th spent 45 mins on the phone trying to work out what i am going to be doing in oct with a guy from pfizer i then had to spend the rest of the evening sorting out the emails i needed to send to him weds 11th spent the morning having nursery visits where the local infants schools come around the vets and i give my wee guided tour it is quite fun and the little things that we do they really love blowing up the anaesthetic bag the x ray quiz and listening to dogs hearts i always take some of son s chickens in as well as most kids are not use to having birds or handling them son has spent so many hours carrying them around they are fairly tame and used to being picked up i dont know that effort pays back in commercial terms but it is fun football training in the evening with 20 lads which was brilliant thursday 12th on call and exhausted after the excitement of the week the phone went at 7pm from the answering service to say that a women had rung and asked for the pass word for the alarm this of course meant nothing to those answering the phone i however put 2 2 together to work out that the alarm at the practice and gone off and that the police would be on their way why does this always happen when you are in the bath so i jumped out the bath and rushed down to find out what was going on there was a police man there who was waiting for me to lead the way in we found a very scared dog sitting in the prep room having escaped from its kennel it then took an hour to get the alarms reset life is a rich tapestry friday 13th went to lawyers today to meet up to go through the dissolution of the partnership bit sad in a way but another nail bashed in to my leaving coffin finished work and spent evening playing football and doing some coaching which was good fun son was off school today he was full of cold and just exhausted he just needed time out really he goes at everything at 110 saturday 14th june 2003 working am why is it even if you have a few quiet days in the week by the time the w e comes it is busy again really warm so sunshine and gardening a had decided she was going to do a changing rooms on the double room in the cottage so she and a friend worked away all day at it i was very impressed by the time we had finished our barbeque in the evening it was all back to ship shape and was finished she is some pup sunday went down to whitehaven to see the tall ships in the harbour there was only one there which was disappointing but it was good to look around there was a fair buzz about the place and heaving with people as the weather was great there was a display of jet skis which was fun to watch so the boys are now on at me to try and have a go the red arrows were brilliant they have a tremendous display and the coloured streams they leave behind in the sky always amaze me it is almost like they are writing in the sky monday finally decided the duck eggs were not going to hatch so broke them open to see if they were fertile 1 exploded it was so rotten urghh only one had a half formed egg in it so i think the eggs were the problem not the incubation tuesday testing some more i rs for tb though the history is wrong so i hope that they will clear a new vet student turned up in the afternoon she is staying with us until the w e then with colleague the vets is going to have to find new accommodation for students went to the training evening for the soccer coaching it was a form filling exercise and orientation so it was boring but i am on the course which is good at least i well have the piece of paper at the end of it weds footie training at night only the hard core turned up so looks like we will have a good group of 14 15 which means we will not have to choose and disappoint went for a run afterwards as feeling in need of exercise as not much large animal work at the moment means i am sitting around on the computer for a lot of the day which is sad must get fit is a constant resolution spent the evening up at sandal watching the sun go down away from the phone and chaos at home thursday i was at work when i had a phone call from some one who had apparently run over son at school never an easy phone call to take espy as she did not know what had happened fortunately he was ok he had been walking backwards and had stepped into the path of a car which had caught his heel the damage was slight but it had upset him the school exit is appalling and needs sorted as busses cars and bikes all share the same area as the kids walking inevitably kids are jostling and messing around so it is an accident waiting to happen friday half day as wife is starting her next w e counselling course could not really get going as a calving early this am and a call late last night so having run on adrenalin for all the week i collapse in to a heap and find it hard to get going and get motivated spent the afternoon getting organised for the visitors arriving as friends are coming and friend who was our bridesmaid is coming across for the w e saturday 21st june 2003 pay day i dont really know why it always sticks in my mind but at the moment with the 1st of october looming and the fact that the 21st will not be a pay day it is becoming a bit scary spent morning on run around and house jobs ferrying to and from squash went to town in pm with a son having left off the younger ones at cottinghams and spent a pleasant half hour in ottakars even they were running low on the book the latest harry potter which i had meant to order via internet but had not quite got around to the statistic is that she is expected to sell 6 every second over the w e she makes 1 per book which means 360 per minute 21600 per hour not a bad hourly rate or just over a million quid for the w e as every other person on the tills was buying a copy i can well believe it sun 22nd church in the morning was joint communion and was lead by the denton holm house group the church meets up in small groups mid week to pray and study bible and the denton holme grp lead the service it means you get a refreshingly different type of service with different people taking part and leading it was good followed by a picnic in the park which was ok but i just wanted to fall asleep in the sunshine i am suffering from stopping syndrome i can keep going on the adrenalin but when i stop thump i fall asleep and can not get going picked up liz from church in the evening having left youngest two at home as wife was late back from her course thank goodness for mobile phones or rather at least they manage to make a complex life possible really i should have let her pick up friend and missed church and upset a by telling her she couldnt go but it all worked out in the end mon 23rd friend arrived at some terrible hour she finally left bristol after 8pm after meaning to leave at lunchtime so as wife and i were exhausted we did not get up to welcome her work is really quiet with very little happening son is in a strop cos we will not let him go sailing after cricket after school as he will be exhausted he takes after us if there is a possibility we try to achieve it our own fault really but it is weird how you see your own faults coming through in your children tues 24th spent the day talking to people on the phone trying to get funding for the research project have a few leads and ideas to get together so should be interesting to see if it comes together weds 25th started at 4am with a caesarean which was really nice as that time in the morning is beautiful it is just a shame that the rest of the day is a bit of a wash out because of it went at night to the fa training course which was class room based on a warm sunny evening and i was struggling to stay with it i have also decided that i need to get fit as the practical day is going to be very long for my unfit legs thursday the electrician arrived to sort out the electrics in the bathroom which are still not right the lights keep fusing and the fan will not work i had a look at the wiring which is a mess and decided i could not follow it and after my last experience i decided i would just pay him to keep him in a job i had a very enjoyable day off played son at squash and lost now not only is he better than me at football but squash a swell all down hill from here on in went to church in the evening as rw was speaking it was interesting to hear him though was more a chat than a biblical exposition friday the email from the verse of the day seems to sum up a years worth of diaries when times are good be happy but when times are bad consider god has made the one as well as the other therefore a man cannot discover anything about his future ecclesiastes 7 14 new international version the future is uncertain i will leave my job in a few months time for a new start the pressures of fmd seem to be distant in the warm summer weather and in the quiet workload making me feel rested and relaxed the challenges both for agriculture the veterinary practice and for policymakers are still very large there is now a threat of bio terrorism to add to the food scares and the threat of exotic disease life carries on we may not learn from all our mistakes and government depts are a blunt slow awkward machine but the cows will still need to be milked and we will still need food on our table if in 68 you told some one that we had not had an outbreak of fmd for 35 years they would have said well done if you had said 2 men were milking 300 cows on a cumbrian farm and getting 7000 litres per cow he would never have believed you there is a time for everything and a season for every activity under the heaven a time to be born and a time to die a time to plant and a time to uproot a time to kill and a time to heal a time to tear down and a time to build a time to weep and a time to laugh a time to mourn and a time to dance a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them a time to embrace and a time to refrain a time to search and a time to give up a time to keep and a time to throw away a time to tear and a time to mend a time to be silent and a time to speak a time to love and a time to hate a time for war and a time for peace
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       information about diarist date of birth 1981 gender f occupation group 5 geographic region north cumbria paper diary has lots of newspaper cuttings and other related material week beginning 25th february 2002 after the snow which fell at the weekend melted combined with the additional rainfall many of the fields surrounding the village as well as the roads were flooded usually this wouldnt concern you much however with the burial site being so close and the number of underground streams in the area it does become worrying there isnt any guarantee that groundwater in the surrounding area wont become effected and to what extent there seem to be a number of aspects to me concerning this issue which remain unclear for example what exactly can be carried in water and how might this effect people in the area what is being tested for in the surrounding streams what exactly is classed as a danger and if problems did arise how would they be monitored and resolved all these issues do tend to make you anxious in particular on monday when i was out walking my dog i noticed a couple of drains which i passed looked as if they were blocked and there was a lot of water around it just makes you wonder how much has come possibly from the burial site and if it is actually safe my worries on monday about the groundwater were even more emphasised by the statement i heard on the border news on tuesday by the environment agency this statement was concerning the future safety of the groundwater in the area around the burial site the agency could give no guarantee that the groundwater would not become affected in the future since then i have heard no further news about the issue there may be more information on news reports i missed in my opinion not enough information is given to the public about these issues results of testing by the environment agency are meant to be available to the public however i have never heard much about the details i think more effort should be made to inform in particular resident near burial sites as these issues are bound to be important to them after hearing the news i did become more worried but at the end of the day there is little we can really do ourselves you find yourself having to trust people or agencies you know little about and just hoping everything will be alright on tuesday also noticed a horrible smell outside so did my fiancé but again you cant be sure exactly where this is coming from or what is causing it on thursday with news of possible foot and mouth case further south near leeds i became very worried that this whole thing was going to start all over again my worries were about the farmers and people involved and how they would be affected if other cases could be identified and in particular affecting my own life if animals would have to be slaughtered again in the future where would they be disposed of would existing burial sites be reopened as opposed to finding suitable sites for new burial sites it would seem easier to reopen burial sites but what would this mean for the future and to what extent would the health risks be increased i was very relieved to hear the testing of the foot and mouth cases came back negative i was relieved for the people involved and also residents near burial sites however this did raise questions in my mind of how this sort of situation would be handled in the future and what consequences it might have week 2 4th march on monday passed driving test and now fiancé and myself are insured on a small car this opens up so many opportunities and we have a huge sense of freedom last summer we had planned to go on a camping holiday with our dog dog we had al our equipment prepared but were unable to go due to the foot and mouth outbreak neither of us imagined how long and widespread the outbreak would be and thought at first it would be over in a few weeks now a year later we are able to replan our holiday this is exciting as we have waited so long it is unbelievable to think how long it has taken for restrictions on the countryside to return to as normal as can be possible due to the circumstances for the actual people directly involved in the foot and mouth crisis this must have seemed like far longer on tuesday i had a lovely surprise when i noticed the lambs in a field near my house when out walking my dog it was lovely to see and for a few minutes things almost seemed normal again even though the burial site is only about a mile away it is hidden from view from the village you never forget though as soon as you spot the windmills and remember the repeated pictures featured in the news seeing the lambs really did lift my spirits and the future after foot and mouth didnt seem as bad as thought the week before i cant recall the exact days but they were towards the beginning of the week on two particular occasions my fiance and i noticed a terrible smell outside we arent sure exactly what the smell was just that it was very unpleasant the only other incident which i can recall which stands out in my mind this past week is a conversation i had with my fiancés granddad we were talking about how bad last years foot and mouth outbreak had been and he recalled the outbreak of 1967 he commented on how he thought that outbreak had been far better controlled it was better as the animals were killed and buried on the actual farms in lime there was no transporting dead or live animals like last year he also commented on the fact that there were no pyres then and that he hadnt thought it a good idea last year overall he thought that last years outbreak could have been dealt with better and that action was taken far too late to prevent the disease spreading week 3 11th march one new thing i have noticed this week is the amount of birds there are flying around especially black crows i think it is because i have been driving and every time i drive past the fields at the south end of the village there are large amounts of crows hustled together can never remember it being quite like that last summer it makes you wonder why so many are drawn to just those fields as i drive past in the next few weeks i will see if it is still the same on about occasions this week fiancé and i have noticed a slight smell outside again not as foul smelling but still noticeable on tuesday saw new series featured on itv called rural lives i think this is a good idea as the issue of foot and mouth is still very painful to a lot of people and is not over yet the effects are still happening however on the news and in other media it isnt often mentioned and doesnt get the attention it deserves hopefully through programmes like this people will get a better understanding of the issues involved and what different people went through if an outbreak ever happened again all the people involved would hopefully have a better idea of how to handle the actual crisis and a better idea of peoples needs for example the farmers these are long term effects which cant be ignored my mum came out for a couple of nights she loves coming out to see us as she lives in carlisle it is a total change of scenery she thought it was great and enjoyed taking my dog on long walks which she was unable to do for a long time we went to see the lambs in the lovely weather shows we are able to start enjoying the countryside again especially coming up to spring and summer we were even able to go to dalston with my dog and wander about we have been so used to having to stick t the roads just in the local area it was lovely a nice change it does tend to make you more confident about the coming year and we are looking forward to the summer week 4 18th march this past week started of with a day out at bowness i went with my fiancé and took our dog dog it was lovely to let her off the lead to run she really enjoys it and got absolutely filthy travelling in the car is becoming easier for dog and she goes crazy when you arrive we have only had dog just over 2 years and for the past year we couldnt let her off the lead to run anywhere we are tiring t train her again she listens to a certain extent but we have to keep an eye on her cheeky side i remember wondering when the foot and mouth started how we were going to exercise dog as walking her on the roads used to be more difficult due to the large vehicles travelling up and down and also the fact dog isnt the best on the lead she used to be really energetic and a bit of a handful however now she has got used to a more relaxed life and at times i think she quite likes it it did us all good to have some exercise and fresh air and it was lovely to have a change of scenery apart from on monday i havent really been anywhere else apart from shopping and have been busy doing my a level work therefore i havent really noticed anything different this week and havent thought about foot and mouth as much my overall view this week has been quite confident and there has been no real significant happenings to change my view quite a good week overall week 5 25th march firstly i received the newsletter sent out to the standing panel it was a relief to finally get some information regarding the burial site it was good to have an explanation on how things work on the site in terms that we can understand it is a relief to know that everything so far is still safe however it is evident that there is much more work and monitoring to be carried out in the future even though it is still not possible to do anything ourselves our minds are at least put at rest by knowing something it surprises me how long it has taken for information like this to be made accessible to the public i think this newsletter is a very good step forward as information is reaching the public and participants are also given the opportunity to ask questions and put other ideas forward on wednesday my mum came out again to see us once again we took a walk to go see the lambs in the field near us it was enjoyable and we had lovely weather it makes you realise how much you take for granted around you without thinking twice my mum has made me realise this even more by seeing how much she enjoys such a simple thing and how special she thinks it is sometimes i think when you are surrounded by the country and nature all the time you forget how lucky you are my mum and gran would both love to live somewhere like here the biggest surprise this week was when i received the parish magazine for the month and found in it the watchtree news this is the first time i have ever seen anything like this from the parish council i think it is a very good idea as the information will be accessible to everyone in the appropriate parishes even though it is long overdue it is very worthwhile and i think will be very informative it covers a wide range of issues the majority of which i knew very little about and wouldnt have known for the future for example the maintenance going to be carried out between the a595 orton grange junction and the site entrance at least we now have knowledge of this before it is going to be carried out as it will affect other members of our family who live on the orton grange junction who would otherwise have had no idea some of the information was surprising for example the number of tankers that leave the site everyday which i didnt expect to be so high and which could rise important issues are also now being tackled such as the bad state of the local roads the affected people are also being encouraged to report these things themselves to the appropriate people i think this has been a significant development and will be very useful in the aftermath of foot and mouth communication between the appropriate authorities and the public is essential week 6 1st april unfortunately it has been all go this week one bit of work after another i havent had time to focus on very much else this past week despite this fact i have still had quite a positive week it is better studying out here as there are few distractions and everything is lovely and peaceful a drastic difference from last year at that time it was difficult to concentrate on anything for too long far too many distractions my fiancé however has been up to the burial site and nearby on sunday he went for a drive with a friend and wondered what it looked like up there we have only ever seen it on television reports but never been up there ourselves in a future diary when he has time he will write a few words on what he thought week 7 8th april once again this week has been full of work i havent had much time to do anything apart from work on thursday i had a break and my mom came out for a bbq for the first time this year we have put out our patio tables and chairs as the weather was staying pleasant we sat out for a while in the evening and had our bbq it was a lovely break for my mom as there is peace and quiet out here as opposed to in town we all really enjoyed it my mom and fiance both commented how lovely it was to sit outside in the nice weather without a nasty smell about over the past couple of weeks i havent noticed things smelling so bad as on a few occasions recently there has also been a decrease in the amount of birds in particular crows which have been in the fields to the south of where we are near the crossroads on the couple of occasions during the week when i have been past the fields there have only been a couple of birds flying around as opposed to a whole field full of crows at one time it was also lovely to hear the sheep especially as the evening became darker in the background you could hear the sheep just in the field next to us and also the lambs a few fields away it was something which we still arent quite used to but which we appreciate so much more now week 8 15th april i was feeling quite confident this week until friday when watch the news i saw the report on new bovine tb cases which are worrying even though it is said it wouldnt be as serious as foot and mouth it is still worrying as it has the potential to destroy many more lives and bankrupt more farmers who have probably just got over foot and mouth the worry must be especially bad for the farmers as it is bad enough for the general public especially after seeing the damage caused by foot and mouth in such a short space of time it would be absolutely terrible if this summer was anything like last summer how long would it take for everything to get back to normal then even though foot and mouth is evidently far different to bovine tb hopefully things will have been learned from last year which will prevent this from becoming a disaster too apart from that other aspects of the foot and mouth smell etc havent been as bad this past week i havent noticed any particular occasions when the smell has been particularly bad or noticeable in addition on the occasions when i have driven past the fields near the crossroads there have been hardly any crows near there which is a huge improvement there were a number of seagulls in one field but nowhere near the amount of crows there were before there has also been a decrease in the amount of tankers going by recently that i have noticed at first i didnt take much notice of it but then fiancé s grandad mentioned that he had hardly seen any he seems to notice them move more than we do as he lives on the orton grange junction with wigton road and they all have to go past there with all these things happening the presence of the burial site nearby seems less obvious week 9 22nd april the last week has been quite a pleasant week probably because i have eventually finished my coursework and have been able to have a bit of peace and quiet i think this combined with periods of lovely weather have made me feel quite good on tuesday when i travelled to town and back i went past the fields near the crossroads to the south of the village which in the past have been full of crows or seagulls as i have noticed on other odd occasions over the past week they appear to be empty now ill keep an eye on how this changes over the summer if it does on friday i noticed that there were a number of cattle and calves in the field just opposite our house i can stand and watch them from my back patio doors which is lovely with the reintroduction of the sheep and cattle in the area it is like everything is coming together finally after the foot and mouth and life is returning to normal in some sense the cattle seem to be the last part needed for everything to seem to be running properly and the animals finally moving about at last i think this fact combine with their being no significant incidents of nasty smells or the rumbling of the tankers going by has made things seem better when talking to fiance s grandad he mentioned again that there still havent been as many tankers going past his house at orton grange as there have been this past week there have been hardly any reminders of the burial site and the past foot and mouth problems living in the country has seemed quite normal after what seems a long time week 10 29th april all in all this week has been a good week overall with regard to the foot and mouth everything seems to have quietened down and there are hardly any visible reminders of the burial site and foot and mouth around the village as i mentioned last week there still havent been any noticeable occasions of smells possibly from the burial site the tankers have hardly been noticeable around the village and the fields near the crossroads have still been fairly empty of birds in particular crows this was explained and backed up in the watchtree newsletter in the parish magazines which i received this week it was good to read and very informative worth reading i still think it is a good idea and is being done well as it discusses issues happening now and also keeps you informed about action in the future the newsletter mentioned the reduction in the amount of tankers which i have noticed it also mentions that there might be a slight smell from the burial sited during work but so far i havent noticed anything once again it has been lovely seeing both the sheep and the cows in the surrounding fields especially at the moment when they are with their young on saturday on the way down to fiance s grandad there were road works near the baldwinholme bend in the road this part was in a bad condition and is now much better i think the damage was caused by the trucks etc used during foot and mouth however im not sure week 11 6th may this week has been my 21st birthday im growing up i had a lovely day on thursday and as a surprise i was taken t the lake district for the day it was lovely and i really enjoyed it firstly we stopped off at bassenthwaite lake for a bit fed the ducks and had a picnic then off to dodd wood for a coffee and to see the ospreys it was great to see them and i think we were quite lucky then we had a pleasant walk around myre house i was reminded of how lucky we are in cumbria to have such lovely places and i am glad that we are now able to go to these places again now weve got a car we are going to take better advantage of cumbria and what it has to offer once again i realised how much we take what we have for granted overall this has been a good week and reminders of foot and mouth and the burial site have been minimal there have been no smells i have noticed and hardly any signs of wagons it is still lovely to see the sheep and cattle around the village week 12 13th may on wednesday i met my mum in town and got the cumberland news off her i was reading about the county council inquiry at kendal i think it is good how the different people involved in the inquiry are all being honest about what happened that is the only way anything will be improved in the future if anything of a similar nature should happen again i really hope it doesnt from reading the articles written and what people have said it is clear what a wide range of people the foot and mouth crisis affected and also how badly when you read of other people who have had family who have been so low it has driven them to suicide you do seem to feel a bit guilty as when we complain it hasnt affected us is such a drastic way it brings the seriousness and the extent of the crisis to peoples attention despite the terrible things which took place during the crisis hopefully some good will come out of it for the present and the future on thursday fiance went to the doctors and was talking to a farmer in the waiting room as soon as fiance mentioned he lived in great orton the farmer asked straight away what it was like to live here so near to the burial site and how he couldnt imagine what it would have been like it too has been such a long time since anyone has said anything like that to either one of us at the time of the foot and mouth crisis people used to ask questions and what it was like to live so near it is strange when farmers in particular feel sympathy towards you for living near the burial site when on the other hand it is the farmers i feel sympathy for before the foot and mouth crisis a fair number of people even from carlisle didnt know where great orton was but now many do and realise how close to carlisle it actually is week 13 20th may i havent really done anything very exciting this past week unfortunately ive been revising again and preparing for a presentation for my a level which i have to do next week my presentation was on turrets and watchtowers which i found a bit confusing at first from the books ive been using so dragged fiance to drive and dog out past brampton to hadrians wall there i found a watchtower and a turret everything became much clearer on the way back we spotted a sign for a camping barn on hadrians wall banks east we were both very interested so sent away for the brochure at this point we decided to reconsider our holiday plans and realised we didnt need to go far afield like amsterdam our 1st choice then scotland 2nd choice we hadnt realised actually how many places there were so nearby which were ideal we came to the conclusion a holiday in cumbria would be the best choice as 1 we could take dog with us 2 we could go by car and 3 it would be a bit cheaper as fiance mentioned it would also be good after everything to put the money we were spending back into cumbria we were hoping to go next week as it is half term the week after and my exams after that hopefully we will get something organised on thursday we got the orton newsletter fiance and i were both quite disappointed when we read that land around this area are being sold for the building of houses it is good in a way as people are moving forward after f m but we wish it wasnt in a residential sense it is just a pity so much of the farming will be lost 6 houses at baldwinholme 4 in great orton even though i havent been brought up with a farming background from what i have seen it would be a pity for us to lose this part of our countryside week 14 27th may on monday saw cb and was pleased to hear the f m standing panel project was going well as i think its worthwhile and as much as possible should be learned for the future on tuesday i attended the meeting for the foot and mouth disease inquiry at great orton village hall at 7pm i was glad i attended the meeting as people could voice their opinions and try to get information about issues both about the present and the future my general view of the meeting and how it went was that the general feeling of the villagers etc was that they were losing interest and nothing was still being done there were many empty seats i estimated a total number of 50 60 people there was a whole new panel of faces even though this was a new inquiry so there were new people on the panel but between the meetings there is no feel of continuity as no one is sure of what has been said before and there are never the answers promised from one meeting to another it seems as if this is a way of avoiding answers and getting out of situations there were new aspects which were brought up which had not yet been disclosed never at any meeting i have attended such as the fact the burial was planned and used for the burial of uninfected animals which is not what we were led to believe with al the engineering on site again this is lack of communication and no one is sure of the facts defra also are only guaranteeing funding for this site for the next 5 years and it is worrying whos burden this will become after then a variety of other issues were discussed health roads handling of outbreak vaccination etc after the meeting i was glad i had been however i felt rather angry by the way in which the questions are handled the answers are often vague have no supporting evidence or are dismissed with ill have to get back to you on that or i cant comment in my opinion many of the farmers villagers etc just want this whole thing brought to an end ideally the remaining trenches filled in a nature reserve created and maintained there were no guarantees of the site not being used again or funding after the next five years will this ever be achieved on saturday morning fiance and i decided to go away for a short break to somewhere near and where we could take dog it was a spontaneous decision for the jubilee and because it was half term i was not at college we ended up going to a caravan site with dog for 4 nights i will update about my holiday in the next diary clipping from news and star here story about great orton public meeting and villagers request not to have site used again in the event of future emergencies holiday week beginning monday 3rd june week 15 10th june i am writing this a couple of days early just to tell you about our holiday it was lovely in the end we hadnt yet received the brochure on the camping barns so on saturday we decided we would like to go away as son as possible and would like something for the jubilee weekend after finding a caravan at caldbeck not far away relatively quiet we went by 5 pm on saturday fiance dog and i were there it was a lovely caravan site lovely caravan and even a tv for the world cup the caravan site was surrounded by common land sheep lovely and quiet and a lot of places to keep dog occupied we were so surprised at how quiet the campsite was over the jubilee weekend but thought most of the people actually lived there it would be lovely in the future to have a small caravan there to go away to the surrounding places we went to were really busy for example keswick bassenthwaite etc i was quite surprised but thought it was great to see cumbria lively again what a contrast to what i would have imagined these places to be like a year ago especially for the jubilee everyone seemed to make such an effort it was lovely to see we all had a lovely time so relaxing oi dont think dog has ever walked so far we were surprised that somewhere so close was exactly what we wanted we were also happy we could put our money back into cumbria we would definitely go back i feel so much more confident about the future especially in cumbria after this week if you didnt know about last year f m outbreak in some cases it would be hard to tell i really think cumbria seems as if it could recover from this hopefully on saturday and sunday ill in bed week 16 17th june with the combination of not feeling very well at the beginning of the week the car not running overt the week end and dog being in season i havent really been able to go anywhere this week it has been quite frustrating but i have had work to do anyway i still feel quite confident about the future this week after being on holiday this is better than a couple of weeks ago after the fmd inquiry meeting when i felt quite unsure at time of what was going to happen at gt orton i had the f m panel newsletter and watchtree newsletter with parish magazine i think both of these are good as you are able to gain information consistently about f m in cumbria and in particular the burial site this information would be difficult to come by otherwise in particular i enjoyed reading about children at milburn school with their memories of the f m outbreak and the effort they have made researcher had spoken with respondent about possibility of monthly diary and she decided to start straight away so although middle of month here follows monthly write up she continued to record her diary in this way at times she offers short daily entries drawing 4 weeks together within an overall reflective piece these daily entries are also recorded week 20 15th july writing up after 4 weeks i am looking forward to attending the social evening in dalston i am a bit nervous as am not used to doing these sorts of things but think it will be a good experience i was also pleased when i got the f m panel newsletter and saw the article i made notes for i have never done anything like this before and was quite pleased about the whole thing on the saturday of week one fiance and i went down to fiance s grandads and noticed there were more signs up for land being for sale again we both think this is quite sad as the area will inevitable be changing in the near future we wonder how much of the land will be reused for farming or sold for new houses taking into consideration the signs we have seen up in the past quite a bit of land is going to change over the past weeks i have also received the watchtree newsletter with our parish magazine i still think this is a good idea and worthwhile as you are updated every so often this will also reach everyone in the village so easily accessible over a period of a few days in week 2 of these 4 weeks fiance and i both noticed a strange smell outside we could smell it here but not at fiance s grandads which is only 2 miles away it smelt just like a burning smell so i am not sure whether it had anything to do with the burial site or anything being done up there i just thought i would mention it anyway last wednesday i rang up the archaeological support group in carlisle of which i have been a member for the past year and a half i had never been sent anything to do with it for along time and wondered why it turns out that last year as soon as f m hit cumbria everything was cancelled and stopped this i knew at the time and there was nothing else that could have happened the thing i didnt realise was that things have been so badly affected that nothing has been arranged as yet even so many months after f m broke out once again this is another example of how things have been affected still so many months after there is also uncertainty about the future of this archaeology group as nothing has been decided yet and it will depend on how things go this is a pity and i hope things pick up in the future on the first week of these 4 weeks fiance and i both noticed that we were coughing a bit more especially at night and early in the morning since then fiance has got better and is not coughing as much but now i have got a sore throat and a cold i dont think this is anything to do with the burial site or anything but we were not sure about the coughing and i thought i would mention it 12th august writing up after 4 weeks i do not feel quite as nervous now as i did about the evening at dalston village hall it was a bit intimidating at first as i was going on the same night as frontline workers and health professionals i felt a bit out of my depth when i wondered what sort of stories they would be telling compared to what i had seen these people would have had to deal with the situation first hand and must have seen some terrible things after a couple of weeks i grew used to the idea and didnt feel as bad it would turn out to be a good experience as it turns out the evening is now on the 21st august and everyone is going together things will be a bit more relaxed for me i think i hope i will be able to make it the one major event that has made me think over the past couple of week is fiance s auntie jean who has moved house from orton grange 2 miles away from us into the middle of town it made me think that i definitely wouldnt like to move back into the middle of carlisle after living here even though it hasnt been the most pleasant at times here with f m last year and the building of the burial site i would still miss everything about it once again i am reminded how lucky i am to be surrounded by fields cows sheep and a horse in the overlooking field it is also usually quiet and peaceful i can imagine quite different to the middle of carlisle i think jean will miss it quite a lot just over a week ago fiance and i were busy getting our garden ready for the village in bloom it was good to see everyone making an effort to everything looking nice everything felt a bit more normal this year whereas last year i think the village in bloom was the last thing on most peoples minds it made me feel more confident about the future perhaps everything or most things may return to normal eventually week 24 12th august nothing extremely significant concerning f m has happened this week i have noticed though now when working at village pub wellington even though i only do 1 day it has really become quite busy i think business has improved after they tried more advertising i can remember back to during the foot and mouth outbreak it was very quiet most people stayed away and the atmosphere in the pub was very depressing now over a year later things do seem to be picking up again and perhaps returning more to normal it is god to see monday 19th august all in all it has been a quiet week i havent really been out very much and not feeling well really i was a bit disappointed not being able to attend the social evening o wednesday as my mom was unable to get time off work or change her shift 26th august first of all we were noticing problems with our goldfish when we first got them about two and a half years ago we had very few problems with them over the past few months they have been getting ill we have tried all sorts different chemicals and still they have all died except one omar fiance s cousin who breeds fish came and had a look and was baffled the only explanation is that the chemicals have been changed or increased for example the chlorine which there appears to be a lot more of we obviously arent totally sure what the problem is but thought we should mention it anyway this week i also noticed the banner opposite the village shop in the village i have enclosed an article about this banner which appeared in the cumberland news this week i think this sums up the mood i have noticed at the village meetings nothing has yet been done to help the villagers etc so what difference have the promises made this is the main reason why i feel less confident about the future this week regarding foot and mouth as these things are still dragging on monday 2nd september during the first week of these diaries nothing really significant happened regarding foot and mouth i did comment however that when working at the pub on sundays how busy the pub was and how business had seemed to improve a lot from what i had seen during the foot and mouth crisis the atmosphere then had been depressing this made me feel more confident about the future regarding foot and mouth as another aspect of the foot and mouth had seemed to return back to normal this mood however did change during the third week of these diaries when i felt less confident about the future it all began when our goldfish started dying apart from oner we still are not sure exactly what caused it and are not sure whether or not it was because of the water here or something we did there just seems to be that little bit of doubt in my mind as you dont feel totally sure about what is happening in this area still and therefore i dont think really trust the organisations dealing with these issues the other thing that seemed to sum up some of my feelings was the banner which appeared opposite the village shop last week i think this shows the desperation and lengths some of the people in the village have to go through in order to get noticed and heard it seems ridiculous that the same basic issues brought up in the earlier meetings have still not been dealt with it does make you lose the trust you had in the organisations involved article enclosed this past week has been a little better however not that good i did receive the watchtree newsletter in the parish magazine which is still good to receive as it updates you on a number of different aspects of the burial site i also heard about the article in the newspaper regarding this inquiry from cathy as well as my mom who has saved it for me but as yet i have not read it i will comment on this in my next diary 9 15 september monday got free news star last week and found article on f m diaries not too bothered that it has been printed myself tuesday saw cathy said about articles not too bothered myself but can see why otherwise involved would be as things are not represented in the right way and are misleading good point though is that it may catch peoples attention and get the point across that people are still suffering got article from cumberland news mum saturday found article in cumberland news regarding village in bloom won a trophy for our special efforts in village in aftermath of f m crisis mark andrews trophy 16 22 september monday fiance and i noticed a burning smell when we came back home in the evening not sure what it is from reminds us of f m crisis wednesday road works in village didnt affect us too much thursday road works between here and fiance s grandads annoying at times has taken such a long time to do reminds us of f m crisis fiance and i noticed a burning smell again not sure where from friday good that watchtree newsletter told us of these road works as wouldnt have known saturday these aspects arent too bad on their own but the atmosphere reminds you of the f m crisis last year 23 29 september monday read the diarist and also had a look at the inquiry report i was sent after attending the village meeting tuesday have not had time to read very much of it but i will get round to it and then comment on it friday parish magazine and watchtree newsletter still good to be updated on what is going on 1 roads and 2 visiting the site 30 6th october monday rang up to book table at the autumn fayre being done in village hall people pleased that people in village getting involved tuesday water has been quite bad especially on tuesday full of chlorine had to leave for a while for everything to evaporate makes you quite concerned about whether or not it is safe to drink 6th october writing after 4 weeks during week i read the articles regarding those f m diaries which appeared in the cumberland news and the news and star they are enclosed after reading these and speaking to c i myself wasnt too bothered or offended by what was written but could easily have seen why other people would have been specially if they are finding things really difficult i think there is a good side to these articles as well though as they will have grabbed peoples attention and highlighted the fact that there are still problems regarding f m this long after the crisis even though the articles were misleading they have also done some good when reading the cumberland news i also found a mention of great orton regarding the village in bloom it turns out we were awarded the mark andrews trophy for special efforts during the aftermath of f m it would have been nice to win a better award but at least we were recognised for something i was quite please week 2 was probably the worst week i have had during the past month regarding f m as the whole week just seemed to remind me of what it was like during the crisis firstly there were road works between here and fiance s grandads only 2 miles away i understand these had to be carried out but it made it difficult and inconvenient to get to fiance s grandads as you didnt know which roads were gong to be closed when now that the work has been done everyone that i have spoken to about it think they will cause more trouble than before as when you pull out of the lay bys it is dangerous as the grass and verge have not been smoothed out i think they are alright if you already know the roads but i wouldnt be as confident if i hadnt driven on them before the other aspect which made the road works seem worse were two instances when fiance and i both noticed a burning smell monday and thursday we were not sure where this came from but it still reminded us of the crisis on week 3 i received a copy of the f m inquiry and glad i went to a meting in the village sometimes it feels good to be involved even though in such a small way i also received the diarist newsletter and watchtree newsletter which i am still glad i receive without the watchtree newsletter i dont think i would have been informed of the road works being carried out i am also glad the site is progressing and that people are now being given the opportunity to visit the site if they wish on week 4 there was only one major problem with our water on tuesday the water was that full of chlorine that we had to leave it for all the chlorine in it to evaporate or boil it even to give dog a drink this is the second time this has happened and it does concern you as firstly why is this being done and secondly is the water safe to drink we are not sure who to contact about this as last time we contacted united utilities who said it was just routine and nothing to worry about week beginning 7th october not much this week regarding fmd think i have been too busy thinking about other things week beginning 14th october monday relaxing a bit today as going to be a busy day tomorrow and away on wednesday tuesday fiance s exam turned out to be quiet here today which was good for fiance s exam as he did it at home would have been difficult last year with pressure of f m weds away on holiday it was a bit of a drive to what we are used to but we made it lovely views on way down and hawkshead a lovely place thursday this holiday very well suited for dog as plenty of places to walk a quiet campsite and shops and pubs which are suited for dogs things she is not quite used to friday lovely to be away for a break away from great orton on the one hand but then you remember how nice it is where we are and how luck we are on the other hand sunday had a very good week and confident about the future week beginning 21st october monday having quiet week as just got back quite tired but coping ok nice to be back in a way weds got watchtree newsletters in parish magazine also article out of news and star i think about renaming of site and farm that used to be there thursday watchtree newsletter interested in the open day think its a good idea and will be very interesting especially geology and fossil remains found on site i think would be beneficial as even though we live in the village and have been to the meetings still have little idea of how the site looks now and will in the future week beginning 28th october weds went to meet mom in town the roads into town were terrible mud on road everywhere and really busy with trucks etc must be where they are doing new building hope it doesnt get like this all the time as so much land round here seems to have been sold for new construction sat mom has got her own stall this week end at the craft fair in the village hall 1st time she has done this saw it in parish newsletter 2nd november writing after 4 weeks this past month has been one of the busiest i have had for a long time firstly there was fiance s final exam which was quite stressful for him at times revising and everything it reminded me of how difficult it had been when we were doing our first exams a year and a half before during f m crisis studying had been very difficult then due to constant interruptions and distractions constant sound of trucks smells noise tension im so glad it wasnt this bad this year as these things can be stressful enough shortly after fiance s exam fiance my mom and i went for a short break to hawkshead it was great we all enjoyed it and dog especially everything was suited for dog we took her shopping there are benches and water bowls outside every shop we went for a bar meal and sat outside with her and on our last night even too her with us and went for a pint apart from these things we also took her on plenty of walks being there made you realise how lovely cumbria is and how people who dont live here are attracted to it it is a pity how cumbria suffered during f m crisis as it is such a lovely place i do hope that due to the large amount of attractions in cumbria that things will hopefully be back to normal as can be expected i was quite surprised at how busy things were for that time of year it seems things must be improving which makes you confident i enjoyed my break but you realise maybe great orton isnt such a bad place to come back to during the past month i have also received the watchtree newsletter im quite interested in the open day later on this month i think it will be very interesting im really interested in the geology history of the site and also fossils found there during this work i dont know much about how the site looks or how it will be in the future it is amazing that you can live so near but still have no idea of what it is like all i can seem to remember are the pictures that were shown on the news months ago it seems difficult to imagine it any different this past week has been very busy as my mom is having a stall for the first time at the craft fair in the village hall i have been helping her a little bit and helped her on the stall i just sat with her really she decided to have a go as she likes crafts and is always making things it was nice to be involved in the village and the money from the hiring of the stalls went to the church which is good it was very quiet on saturday though and apparently that was the worst its been for a few years i wonder if this is an effect of the f m however the weather and other factors may have contributed week beginning monday 11th november tuesday fiance doctors wednesday me dentist and in town with mam missed the exhibition at the village hall disappointed but got an article from the cumberland news this is included i havent spoke with anyone that went no one has mentioned anything to me disappointed i missed it and also because this is probably one of the only opportunities we will get to know anything fiance and i both agree it is still like a big secret no one really allowed in and out it doesnt feel like local people are benefiting at all is it anything to do with us really friday children in need at the pub yesterday nice to see people taking part again big difference to during foot and mouth we just made a donation it was a bit busy for us 1045 raised sunday work at pub still very busy the pub at least it seems to have recovered after f m but from what i have heard they did suffer badly along with the other businesses here week beginning 18th november tuesday should have been playing darts at port carlisle had a break for a week the thing that is worrying about playing darts away is the travelling some of the country roads round here are terrible is this because of the wagons especially near wiggonby the road at fiance s granddad just gets worse its just mud and less grass terrible is it because of damage done by wagons and a combination of all the flooding in the area now saturday fiance and i talking about how the area has changed we remembered back to 4 years ago when we used to go to the airfield burial site for some peace even though only rubble then really enjoyed it there we could take the dog had first driving lesson off fiance not again had some fun and really miss it at times nowhere round here anymore to get peace cant even enjoy the nature reserve very frustrating week beginning monday 25th november monday keep realising when doing diaries that havent had a chance to look at cumbria foot and mouth disease inquiry report will have to make time for it soon saturday when i was at pub talking about new fence on park for children general mood is not very pleased as it doesnt fit into a country village setting and nothing else done sunday cant believe it is the beginning of december everything is passing too quick inevitable 31st november writing up after 4 weeks the past 4 weeks have been very busy compared to what i am used to and at the same time have been quite frustrating in a few ways the issues which have bothered fiance and i most are mainly to do with the onset of winter which of course is inevitable but this year they seem to be worse than we can previously remember since living here in winter the biggest issue is the state of the roads in the village and round about it is terrible with the amount of rain we have had there are puddles everywhere and everything is turning to mud the worst thing is that it is very difficult to walk or take dog anywhere which is frustrating you either get absolutely filthy or when walking down the roads you have to get soaked on the sides of the roads to avoid cars and going down the lonning isnt really an option as it is really muddy and there has been dumping we understand most of this will be due to the weather but we are sure some of it on the roads is due to all the traffic there has been especially at fiance s granddads outside the front of his gate and garden the grass has gradually been stripped away and has now turned to mud in all the ears he has lived there 50 years he has never seen it as bad the roads arent like this just nearby i have noticed other roads round about are also in a bad state when i have travelled away to other nearby village pubs when playing darts i was disappointed when i missed the exhibition at the village hall about the watchtree reserve as i had to go up town etc i have not spoken to anyone i know that attended the exhibition but wish there were more opportunities to learn more about it i did find a newspaper article enclosed about the watchtree it is quite annoying that this wont be open to the public it is understandable why this isnt possible but then on the other hand it is not benefiting anyone really who lives nearby fiance and i still remember back to when the airfield was still there and it was a lovely place to go walking and to relax by getting away from everything it used to be lovely and quiet and was also so nearby we do actually quite miss it sometimes as there is nowhere else like that round here now even though there have been quite a few negative issues this past month it has also been encouraging when i have been working at the pub it has been very busy when i have been there showing that it must be recovering from the effect of the foot and mouth crisis it was also encouraging when there was a night held for children in need when they raised approx 1045 it is good to see people involved and happy again one thing which i did notice was that the general mood about the improvements made to the park was not very good people were not impressed that the new fence does not look like it belongs to the country at all and that that is all that has changed i have not had time but will go and have a look for myself december 2002 writing up after 4 weeks average i havent felt too bad over christmas a little tired but since i have got a bit of a cold and sore throat not surprising at this time of year average i think it has been all right havent been able to walk very far near village due to weather and roads but this isnt surprising at this time of year these past 4 weeks have been rather hectic with christmas and everything but i have still had quite a bit to write in my diaries concerning foot and mouth i received the parish magazine for december in which there was a thank you to all involved in the craft fayre and there was 1 008 raised for st giles church it was good to be able to contribute to something in the village well it was my mum really but i helped it is good to see these sorts of things happening here its good for the village after everything i also received the watchtree newsletter in the parish magazine it is still good to receive this as it updates you on everything and also had information regarding the exhibition at the village hall which i missed i am glad it was a success and people attended especially the school children who were taken i also received the diarist which is good to read it is interesting to see what other panel members are up to and is surprising what things can lead to for example the diarist and the samson tractor over the past couple of weeks i have also collected a couple of articles from the cumberland news the first one lie returns to watchtree actually made me feel better that we were going to get something positive out of this whole experience but the only problem is that at some moments in time this wont be enough for some people involved as it does not change what happened and wont make up for what has been lost i think it just depends on how you are feeling at the time when reading the articles the other article village in running for top country award was also quite pleasing as at least we as a village are being remembered and recognised for what we went through it is surprising that now so long after the actual foot and mouth crisis that we are finally being recognised and so many things are now being written in the paper over the christmas period i have only really had one thing to complain about and that is the state of the roads after the rain the roads have been terrible to drive on with the flooding and the road sides turning into mud everything is filthy i know this is expected in winter out in the country but since i have been here it has never been so bad especially at fiance s grandads one improvement is the signs which have been put up at the passing places between here and fiance s grandad fiance and i both think these are much much better and a lot safer we have also spotted a couple of signs from watchtree which have been up now for a while but are still surprising to see now it is time to start everything again the new year and hopefully this will be a better year for great orton than the past couple has been i am glad it is going to be quiet here now for when i start my studying as opposed to the foot and mouth when studying was very very difficult monday 27th january writing up after 4 weeks this week i found an article in the daily mail which i thought was relevant it is called boom and doom and is about house prices all over england for 2002 prices in north yorkshire rose by 66 but in allerdale they only rose by 8 it did not mention why this was but some of it must be the result of the foot and mouth crisis and the effect on the area since then this made me think about the effect on great orton and how difficult it would probably be to sell houses here and if people would really want to move here there are two sides however as if more property was built in great orton and the surrounding area things would probably change and great orton might lose some of its farming background i definitely wouldnt want it to change too much despite the burial site i like it just the way it is the great thing about this week is the weather for once we have been able to go down the lonning with dog without getting filthy as it is frosty it has been great i cant believe how quickly 2003 is passing it is february already this past month has been totally hectic with appointments arrangement birthdays and the open university it makes you realise that whatever happens time goes on i think this must have been very difficult for people directly involved in the foot and mouth crisis as life would have had to carry on despite whatever was going on in their own lives i think as time has gone on i have got more used to the idea of watchtree and accept it more now i received the watchtree news during the previous week it is good to hear that the restoration and creation of the site is finally complete overall i dont think it has taken as long as i thought it would for the nature reserve to be established especially when you compare it to how long it has taken for the childrens playground to be improved nearly two years after the foot and mouth crisis however it is better late than never i am pleased at how the nature reserve sounds with al the different species of animal which had been included or seen especially the merlin the smallest bird of prey which was sited fiance and i both find these things very interesting it is good that this is happening so close to us last year we travelled to see the osprey viewpoint it was great over the past couple of weeks i have also found a few more articles two of these are regarding the 20 day standstill with not been directly involved in the farming side of the foot and mouth crisis i am not totally sure about all these sorts of rules etc but think it is good that at least things are trying to be improved for the future in case this may happen again and also as a result of learning from past events there was also an article showing watchtree as a finalist for the environmental project award i definitely think that watchtree deserves to be considered for this award as so much has happened here and at least some good is going to come out of it it would be nice to get this sort of award in recognition of the hard work of the people involved i think this year will hopefully be a better one for cumbria and people may have confidence even though the foot and mouth crisis was a tragedy i think cumbria and the people in it are able to recover from it as people from the newspaper articles seem more optimistic and this rubs off on you i think this year will be a better one and feel more confident about the future at this point monday 24th february writing up after 4 weeks so far these past four weeks i have not receive a watchtree newsletter but there was a small mention in the parish magazine about he playground work is underway and it is hoped to be finished by the summer it seems to be taking a long time to get the playground sorted but at least it will be good for the kids in the summer holidays it is better late than never there is only one thing that has bothered us over these past weeks our fish whenever we change the water the fish seem to be ill and now we have had to add more and more chemicals to reduce the amount of chlorine that seems to be in the water we did originally start off with 13 fish and now only have 2 left it does make you worry about the state of our water and why more chemicals are possibly being added the fact that the burial site is so near does make you worry if that is anything to do with it over the past four weeks i have been very confident about the future regarding foot and mouth with the sun shining again and the animals about it seems as if nothing bad has happened here but you know that for some people involved in the crisis the future will never be that easy or simple and i do feel sympathy for them for me it seems possible to be able to move on now after the crisis and it has been good to see the sheep and cows about and fiance has even seen a couple of birds of prey we are not sure what they were but think one might have been a merlin which was mentioned in a previous watchtree newsletter as being seen on site the article called record tourism figures for county was encouraging and shows that cumbria may be starting to recover after the foot and mouth crisis i also found another article called fears over bovine tb time bomb i think this is worrying and should definitely be taken seriously as it would be devastating to farmers and everyone in the county in the past fortnight it has also been my mams birthday she was really looking forward to spending some time out here and we went to bowness for the afternoon with dog once again you realise how lovely it is out here and how much it should be appreciated overall in my opinion the situation in cumbria over the past year has definitely improved and will hopefully continue to do so 24th march writing up after 4 weeks these past four weeks have been rather strange and worrying first of all there was the death of simon harris a man from the village who you would regularly see walking dogs and looking at the horses despite what most of the papers have said about him to me he was always polite and possibly just a bit shy i have enclosed an article about him that was in the paper shortly after his death the headline is not very nice but the article does include some of the best comments about simon i was quite shocked by the whole thing and think it could definitely have been handled better by the papers the people in the village could also have been a bit more respectful i do not think it was their place to comment in the way that they did secondly the whole issue of war with iraq is a worrying subject neither fiance or i agree with what is being done and how it is being carried out it is a particularly worrying time for fiance s aunty as her husband lives in kuwait with the rest of his family she came to england where she is originally from with her two children during the last gulf war she knows all too well what the danger are and what is involved it is a very worrying subject where you feel totally helpless and at the same time cannot get away from it however life still carries on as harsh as it may be i thought of this when looking at the past diaries i have written and how many have accumulated it is strange how quickly time goes by and how people are just expected to cope and carry on i thought in particular of the people worst affected by the foot and mouth crisis how helpless they must have felt and how they coped life can be a funny thing looking back i think this project has been very worth while and think it is great that they will be archived for the future writing these diaries seems to have become part of my routine now and i think it will definitely be strange when i no longer have to write them i have found quite a few newspaper articles over the past four weeks donella rebuilds the cumberland show was encouraging about the future of cumbria after the foot and mouth crisis however there are still worrying issues arising such as in the articles of mp calls for vaccination to keep f m under control and from uruguay with a threat which highlight issues of important to the farming industry i have also been very busy over the past few weeks as my second assignment was due for my university work which was quite hectic i have had a break for the past couple of days as i have not been very well a bad cough sore throat and stomach and a stuffy nose i havent done too badly over the winter months with illnesses so i cant really complain lastly our water hasnt been of the best quality lately on occasions it is white and fizzes not the most appetizing 21st april writing up after 4 weeks these past 4 weeks have just seem to fly by quite a few good things have happened and even though i am feeling quite tired i have had a good month firstly fiance dog and i have finally go t a small space of our own we have got an allotment about 8 miles away and it is surrounded by horses and fields it belongs to a man who lives there and owns all the land roundabout but unfortunately he is no longer well enough to work the land so has let us have it it will need a lot of work but will be good for us so far we have got potatoes raspberries and rhubarb growing dog even helps to dig even though we live in the country on our own block it is not always that easy to get any peace we have also had the opportunity to join the cumbria wildlife trust a leaflet came through our door and we thought it would be brilliant as we would be kept up to date with all the latest goings on in cumbria learn a lot more about the wildlife and also possibly get the chance to do some voluntary work fiance and i are really interested and think it is great we get sent though a certain number of magazines every year and every month we send a small donation so we feel like we are helping a little bit as well the article which i found in one of the magazines id enclosed on the next page the other thing which has made my month is knowing that we are going to hawkshead again my mam fiance dog and i are going for a short break just 3 nights for my birthday we have got it all booked and are really looking forward to it it was great last time especially for dog i just hope she doesnt get stuck under the bed in the caravan this time as she is a bit bigger now than she was then this past week i have also been in touch with my dad in south africa as it was his birthday it turns out that he may be passing through carlisle for a couple of days at the end of next week it would be lovely to see him again and i think he will love great orton and our allotment i think he has always liked the thought of living in the country and would love to retire to somewhere nice and quiet things will also have improved and we have grown up a bit since he was last here about 3 years ago it should be good it is funny that after living in south africa for so long he is still drawn to the lifestyle in cumbria lastly i have made a note of the final meeting for the foot and mouth diaries and hope to be there i bet it passes really quickly now and will be over before i know it how strange 28th april 4th may monday got 3 articles from cumberland news april 25th 2003 breeders hit out discrimination fmd burial site celebrates new life and my favourite its a dogs life for rosie the lamb tuesday saw c friday noticed the park is coming on a bit better for the children it was mentioned in the orton parish awarded 25 000 to reference drain level and re seed new play equipment will follow saturday some of the children were allowed to attend meetings to discuss it good to involve children about time too at least children will be able to play football 5th 11th may tuesday working really hard have to get assignment posted off tomorrow night before we go away on thursday hectic wednesday service held at watchtree unable to go but think it was a very good idea newspaper article enclosed was written before the service thursday away to hawskhead exciting friday my birthday had a lovely day went shopping in the morning to forest in the afternoon and for a meal at night lovely sunday back from holiday already it was lovely everyone was so friendly or perhaps we just noticed it more there 12th 18th may tuesday fiance at doctors not very well he has got a viral infection as well as fluid behind his ears told to just take it easy wednesday i have been sent info to chose courses for open university that i would like to do next year and in the future am going to take the environmental studies route hopefully leading to diploma in environment and development and possibly further to ba bsc in environmental studies i did like archaeology but think what i am doing is a lot more relevant to the future foot and mouth and watchtree made me realise that friday got watchtree newsletter this week i will enclose it this time as it covers quite a few areas and has a bit of information there is information about the service held awards that have been won and also new wildlife which are now present on the site lapwings oystercatchers and ringed plovers 19th 25th may 2003 tuesday dad has come to visit for a couple of days from south africa nice surprise enjoyed seeing him dad asking about fmd crisis he saw it on tv over there and how close it was i think he was quite shocked thursday i was surprised that even though south africa is so different he would still like to live somewhere in this country makes you think again how lucky you are and what you take for granted saturday article from cumberland news may 23 reward for post foot and mouth achievements 25th may writing up after 4 weeks every time i come to write these diaries i look back over the past four weeks and notice they are becoming more and more busy the past couple of weeks have been no exception it is already nearly half way through the year i cant believe it over the past 4 weeks i have been on holiday turned 22 and my dad had popped over from south africa for a few days hectic but good firstly hawkshead was lovely again i wouldnt say anything different it was great we all had a lovely time and i had a really good birthday when you are at home in great orton you forget how much is really out there in cumbria to do and see we definitely think we should take advantage of it more often shortly after we arrived back from hawkshead my dad popped up to carlisle for a couple of days it was a lovely surprise and it was good to see him he absolutely loves it where we are and thinks we are very lucky even though south africa is so different he still thinks it is lovely out here looking out onto fields this did make me realise how lucky we are despite what happened due to foot and mouth inevitably sometimes we do take it for granted my dad remembered watching about the foot and mouth crisis in south africa but did not realise exactly how close it was i think he was quite shocked foot and mouth has definitely made me more aware of my surroundings and how everything works i have definitely noticed this when i have been doing my studying for open university i am now at the point where i can chose my courses next year and therefore which path i am going to take i have decided to take courses leading to a diploma in environment and development and if everything goes to plan for an environmental studies degree i am really enjoying what i am doing at the minute and think it is definitely useful and relevant for the future i did enjoy studying archaeology but think the environment and related issues are more important at the present and in the future on the 7th may there was a memorial service at watchtree to mark a two year anniversary from when the last animal was buried at the site i think this was a good idea and it is appropriate to remember the animals that were killed i was unable to attend the service but have managed to get a newspaper article about it and it was also mentioned in the watchtree newsletter i have included this newsletter in with these diaries at it contains quite a bit of information on a few different aspects i think it is good about the wildlife which is emerging on the site the park or play area for children is also coming on fairly well at last it has finally been reseeded as well as levelled it looks better i have also included 4 newspaper articles from the cumberland news with my favourite being rosie the lamb i have put this article in as i thought it was lovely 22nd june 2004 writing up after 4 weeks how strange it seems that all this is coming to an end and really how quickly time has passed in my situation i would say that time has healed a few aspects of the foot and mouth crisis and things dont seem so bad 18 months on i enjoyed the foot and mouth evening and learnt a lot from it about other peoples views and experiences i enjoyed it a lot more than i thought i would and thought that the main themes found during the research were ones which i would have agreed with one thing which was said which has made me think was the comment that these diaries would be our type of memorial i had never once thought of this research in that sort of way but the more i think about it the more i agree and like the idea it definitely has been worthwhile being able to contribute to something especially if it may be able to help in some way in the future when compared to the article that i found in the cumberland news about a mans memorial to the animals that he lost during foot and mouth i definitely think ours is more fitting and will probably do some good i understand everyone has the right to express their views in their own way but to me this was too loud and too inappropriate however each to their own and at the end of the day at least people are trying to remember in a good way as opposed to sweeping it under the carpet the week of the foot and mouth evening we were without a car and noticed how much we relied on it and took it for granted especially out here as there is a very limited bus service everything is sorted out now and we are back to normal with a newer little car thank you very much c for the lift there and back in general the past few months just seem to have flown by and in particular the past couple of weeks i dont seem to have time to fit everything in and am trying to get my assignments done on time it turns out to be quite a bit more difficult than i thought it is hard work but will definitely be worth it in th end over the past 6 months even i have learnt so much the next special occasion which is coming up is fiance s birthday 21st july we are thinking of going back to hawkshead again for a few days we really like it there and im sure will return again and again it just shows you that you dont need to leave cumbria to have a good holiday well here we are at the end it just makes me wonder what life will be like in 18 months from now will things be any different they probably will be in some ways and hopefully will be for the best 20th july writing up after 4 weeks it does seem very strange to be sitting down to write my last lot of diaries it feels good to have completed something as worthwhile as this as well as it hopefully doing some good in the future concerning foot and mouth crisis or any other similar situation i also find it has helped me to become a bit more confident and aware of things around me i remember back to when i attended my first meeting and how nervous i was i think i can handle things like that a bit better now we have just got back from holiday we had a lovely time and did so much we went walking with dog to many places and they are all free it just shows you what a good holiday you can have in cumbria on a cheap budget you dont need much else the only disappointing thing is that some of the places fiance and i had been to in the past are now closed as they have been sold this has not yet happened to talkin tarn and i definitely think it should be given to the cumbria wildlife trust as people would still have access to it fiance and i both agree that the countryside is recovering and it is great to be able to wander about again i have collected a few more articles from the cumberland news related to foot and mouth it is good to see breeders doing well again and people getting back into the swing of things i would just like to thank everyone involved for involving me in this project and i wish them all the best in the future
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                                                 information about diarist date of birth 1937 gender m occupation group 5 geographic region north cumbria week 1 monday 11th march 2002 whilst watching the local tv news at 6 pm there was a news item that caused us to reflect back on the events a year ago a young lady had just left a court where she had been found guilty of assaulting a police officer and also being in change of an offensive weapon a knife the judge had acquitted her of the offences he showed leniency towards her last year during the fmd crisis she had returned to her home to find that her pet goat had been killed by slaughterers because the animal was within the 3 km radius she had gone berserk over this and threatened the police officer and others with the knife she had to be forcibly restrained she was very distraught over this killing even after she had appeared in court and had been acquitted of all charges she showed great emotion not only being freed but also quite upset over the loss of the goat perhaps her actions didnt happen to a lot of other people who had similar things happen to them however the loss of a lot of pet animals and in some cases needless slaughter of many farm animals still creates unhappy memories of 2001 week 2 tuesday whilst walking the dog i met a farmer from the edge of the village who has friends and stock in close proximity to the 2 land fill sites he is still very concerned about materials on these sites the nearest site contained hundreds of carcasses this has been completed and capped he is concerned about leachate from this site and feels that it doesnt matter how much clay and soil were used to contain this site the effects of heavy rain is bound to find a way down and also to drain it he doesnt want to plough these fields nor can he sell stock that have grazed the same fields there is pyre ash being tipped on the other site again what happens to the rainwater that runs off this site also there are concerns about the large flocks of seagulls that visit both sites daily another concern is what is happening to the open cast coal site that is situated almost due south of gilgarran village the farmer i talked to today is concerned about this huge site no coal has been moved from this site for months there are concerns that this site is going to be filled with waste will it be from fmd sites we as a village are very concerned about rumours of land fill on a huge scale friday noticed that there was work being carried out on the top of the burial site no villagers have commented on this despite large yellow diggers operating sunday work continuing on the burial site cannot make out what kind of work is being done there week 3 monday work is still going on at the burial site i still dont know what is going on but the diggers involved are the same as when animals were being buried there when animals were being buried there last year the smell coming from that site was terrible to say the least it was not coming from the dead animals as most observers thought but from decomposing waste material that had already been buried on the site prior to fmd when excavators dug into the soil to make trenches for the dead animals they dug into this decomposing matter hence the terrible smell despite the work that is going on there today no comments from villagers are forthcoming it seems to me that now that fmd has gone the general public are not interested any more unless they read something in the local papers written by some enterprising reporter week 4 tuesday work is still going on in the former burial site villagers dont seem to be bothered fmd is gone so nobody is interested any more wednesday whilst trying to gain comments from villagers over the effects of fmd one or two comments from some individuals show concern about the outbreak last year but dont seem too concerned over any after effects if any two interesting comments suggest that 1 the outbreak was started deliberately by this country in collusion with the agriculturists of the eec so as to concentrate meat production in europe and leave the uk to concentrate on arable farming 2 the outbreak was started by a terrorist attack the government would not declare this because it would cause widespread panic thursday 23 25 hours huge fire at the site where pyre ash is being tipped 250000 used tyres caught fire arson is suspected fire fighters tried to contain the blaze but couldnt use large amounts of water in case water courses became contaminated friday 05 00 fire still blazing at the pyre ash site later in the morning the fire was showing signs of dying down apparently it was left to burn itself out much heavy smoke pollution was evident drifting south west for about nine miles reading the local evening paper about the blaze there was also a report that villagers from disington 1 miles from gilgarran were complaining of the foul smell from both waste sites parish councillors are very concerned about this does it coincide with work currently being carried out on the burial site the smell from these sites plus the fact that animals were buried on one site and pyre ash plus the huge fire from the other site all happening this week is causing concern in this area but once this hue and cry dies down people will soon forget about it all week 5 monday through to friday observed work on top of the burial site dont know if any work is still going on on the northern and western sides friday local weekly paper carried the report on the recent large fire that occurred on the alco site last week when 250000 tyres caught fire somehow it was intersting to read that the fire brigade did not use any water to extinguish the blaze in case pollution occurred in water courses the fire was left to burn itself out saturday burial site it looks like there is new soil being tipped on top for some reason no reported comments froim the parish council over this despite very vociferous objections by them over the use of this and the alco site in the past sunday talked to our local county councillor who lives in this village he feels very strongly that these two sites are dangerous he thinks that both sites are a health hazard risk due to obnoxious odours and in particular the large fire that occurred last week which produced a lot of polluted smoke for a distance of six miles some people reckoned that the smell of burning tyres could be smelt here in gilgarran there have been numerous fires on these sites over the last few years these fires give rise to compaliant by people like us but more so from the nearer village of distington 1 miles west of here the councillor suggests that there could be more incidents of cancer cases in this area in coming years along with respiratory troubles as well as some cases of bronchitis related problems he himself has recently suddenly started sinusitis which he hasnt had before all in all he wasnt happy about the situation on both sites we dont know what is being tipped there all we can do as a community is accept what we are being told by the site owners as previously stated animal carcasses were being tipped and buried for about three days before we were told officially that this was so incidentally the site where animals are buried is owned by cumbria county council this seems to be totally against the advice of county council officials who look after the environment and the health of the population as ive written before there are going to be bigger concerns if the opencast coal site to the south of the village becomes a landfill site for refuse from parts of the county fifty miles away at the moment there are no suggestions that anything from the fmd outbreak will be dumped there having said that however we as villagers didnt know of carcasses being buried or pyre ash being tipped until after it had happened we await the outcome of this coal site with some trepidation after all no coal has come from this site for some months it has all the indication of becoming a land fill site week 6 monday to wednesday if work is still ongoing at the burial site it is not visible from our side of the site i still dont know what is going on there it may all be innocent and an improvement to the environment after all this is what the site owners have to do thursday a delegation of meps visit the north of the county they have come to assess the situation for themselves and to report back to the european parliament no doubt they will also report back to their own constituents in their own countries the delegation visit the auction mart at longtown where the disease was first noticed in this country and also visited the big burial site at great orton where it was estimated that half a million carcasses were buried good coverage by the local press radio and tv gave anyone interested the views of the delegation thursday saturday the mep delegation agreed that the fmd situation had been disastrous we all know that comments from some tourist and agriculture observers ranged from a waste of time to at least some politicians have bothered to visit us our own couldnt do that personally i think that some good came out of this particularly when it was reported that the dutch had used vaccination techniques when they had a small outbreak many people think that the british government should have had a public inquiry into the outbreak what have they to hide cumbria is holding its own inquiry quite rightly so other organisations such as lancaster university are holding research into the outbreak why not the government eventually we will know why perhaps not in my lifetime though the minister and maff have a lot to answer for week 7 thought it would be of interest to include copies of the newsletter that the local authorities issued to every household in the area regarding the disposal of carcasses and effluent it will be of note that there was a fire last year on the alco site also involving tyres very similar to last years only not as big a report on local tv today stated that the recent visit of meps to the area considered that vaccination should have been used at the outset and be should seriously considered should a future outbreak occur heard of reports of an outbreak of tb in cattle in other parts of the country this was reported to be more serious than fmd should a major outbreak occur this would lead to the question of disposal should the need arise as ive already reported in previous entries the use of the opencast coal site to the south east of here is causing concern in some quarters although the site didnt feature in the fmd crisis there is a feeling that it is being earmarked for use in the future should the need arise or even the rumour of an incinerator is planned for there the general feeling here and in the surrounding area is that we have had enough dumping of carcasses effluent toxic chemicals etc it could be that the authorities have seen that the sites concerned have handled those substances before that an extension of disposal sites in this area would be effective week 8 nothing of any significance to report this week week 9 now that cumbrias fmd inquiry has started a lot of people i have met this week recall the happenings of a year ago even more interesting is the coverage in the local press and tv plenty of publicity by the media shows how little the government an maff in particular let the farming and tourism industries of the county down there has been plenty of distressing stories by farmers not only of infected animals being slaughtered but also the slaughtering of healthy animals in the 3 km circle of an outbreak one particularly distressing point of evidence was when a farmer described to the panel the birth of a calf five days after its mother had been shot we at the time of the outbreak were hearing these stories on a daily basis and still maff and mr brown kept telling us that the outbreak was under control all i can say at this point is may heaven help us when it all happens again week 10 work is still going on at the burial site it looks like new soil is being dumped on top of the actual site and dozed to level it of and to smooth it out on the side all we can do is accept that the management of the site are making it better for all concerned and that they are as concerned as we are the much publicised cumbrian fmd inquiry team visited the land fill site they met local councillors who expressed their concern over this site and the alco site no other report was forthcoming from the team the inquiry team finish their evidence gathering this week one very important statement was made that the minister of the environment should make a statement over this outbreak and should even make a visit to these sites county wide there has been total silence from mrs becketts department over this request the same silence is observed from any government source for that matter everyone asks the same questions what have they got to hide why arent they interested what plans are being made and what lessons have been learned from last years outbreak a lot of farms are restocking and in this neighbourhood farm work is going on as before or so it looks as time goes on though there seems to be a smouldering anger that no one in authority is as concerned as well are week 11 work is still on going at the burial site no comments heard from any of the villagers or neighbours this week diary 12 monday from my own observation work is still ongoing at the burial site more heavy plant has been moved on to the top of the giant amount and it looks as though more topsoil is being laid over the mount perhaps to improve the site but water may still permeate into and through the site we can only believe the operators that this is a right thing to do friday talked to 2 it villagers about the after effects of fmd one said oh its all over now and forgotten about it doesnt bother me one bit the other said it all in the past we just have to forget about it it seems that life is returning to normal in all aspects of village life people dont think about last year unless the diarist mentions that sunday a bad day or weather wise this prolonged rain may halt work on the burial site most people are reluctant to talk about f m d now even if it was one of the worst economic and social disasters to hit this country and this county in particular now that it is over peoples memories begin to fade however some of us are not happy at having these two disposal sites within a 1000 metres of this village fmd may be over but these burial sites are here for a long time yet diary 13 observed in work on burial site more heavy machinery and plant moved in and large quantities of soil are being laid down and smoothed out diary 14 talked to some religious today about the after effects of fmd without exception they are not interested its all over with an idle one to be reminded about it are the general comments nobody seems bothered that there are hundreds of animals buried a 1000 yards from his village or the fact that there is leachate and pyre ash buried in another site looking at the burial site and the work that is going on there it does look as though the management there are doing everything to make the site safe diary 15 i met a smallholder today to whom i have talked to in the past about the effects and after effects of fmd he still not happy about the burial site despite the landscaping and smoothing off of the large quantities of topsoil only time will tell he says he does not have any stock near to the site but he has sheep on the farmers land since fmd finished though his stock movements are still restricted by new legislation that has come in since the area was declared free for instance or if he takes a sheep to auction he asked to have nine pieces of paper for this transaction if the price is not right and he has to take the she back to his land he was put them back in the same field that they came from and it cannot move them to three weeks he then has to obtain a licence to do this he does think that the authorities are not going to be as strict shortly this is just one of the precautions that have come in to try and combat any recurrence of fmd diary 16 i met the smallholder who rents land a from the farmer in the village his income from the sheep that he a breeds has been nil like many more people in similar circumstances fortunately for him had he has an income from another source the subject of compensation came up during our conversation i personally do not have any comment to make about this item as it maybe just a rumour apparently he got it bee in his bonnet about compensation paid out to people who were not in the agricultural business what seemed to upset him was that he had heard that some of fish and chip shop owner in the lake district had been paid 170 per month compensation for the loss of trade he didnt mind too much that hoteliers and guest house owners had claimed compensation but wondered where else would this kind of money go when he himself had been paid nothing this is the first time ive heard this one diary 17 attended the cumberland show at every to be park carlisle we as a family used to attend this annual show regularly both as spectators and competitors we have never seen the show like the one put on this year when will things really get back to normal many of us think that agriculture is back to pre fmd cattle and sheep on grazing in the fields lambing has reached new heights in produce on some farms calves are being born silage and haymaking is progressing when the weather permits but there are still restrictions on animal movements hence no sheep cattle or pigs at this years show only horses poultry dogs and rabbits not many pieces of agricultural machinery onshore either plenty of chartered accountants tents craft tents horse feeds and tack displays in the main arena and bands not an agricultural show as we knew it it seems to be the same at other shows ennerdale show is one of our local shows this year there isnt going to be any horses or sheep generally there are no cattle shown at the show but without sheep hill farmers dominate the show the there isnt going to be much on show at all it was always a good show for equestrian events at many levels this show was always a must for our family i dont think that we will be going this year diary 18 from the golf course and golf driving range i can look out on to the western side of the burial site i have written in previous weeks about the work there has been going on at this site viewing the site are from our village side would hardly know what that there ever was a burial site hundreds of tons of topsoil had been laid and smoothed out to make more or less like a landscaped feature it looks really good from the western side though things are little different work is still going on there large amounts of soil have been tipped and levelled off there are still portakabins there and heavy plant can still be seen moving about no doubt the western side well look as good as the eastern side before long diary 19 it is announced that the prime minister and his wife and son of his family at a visit to cumbria the pm arrives in west cumbria all kinds of reports are written in the local and national press about what he is going to do or not do or what he should be doing after all he is on holiday the pm did meet some farmers leaders the press as usual stirred things up or as to where he should be meeting tourism officials say that the trip was fantastic for tourism in the county or person they i cant see what difference it made if people want to come cumbria they will come irrespective of whether the pm comes or not diary 20 after a lot of protests it looks as though it the 20 day restriction on cattle movement will be lifted perhaps this will now mean that they could be cattle and sheep entries at local agricultural shows some shows are going ahead with very limited entries of livestock and some with no animal entries at all these shows have always been very popular with my family for over 20 years also living with in a farming community makes us feel part of the annual agricultural scene diary 21 ive written before regarding agricultural shows and the pride in which local people take in these shows although a lot of shows have gone ahead this season they have had a reduced animal showing or in some cases no animals at all today ive heard that one show has been cancelled altogether this particular show is one of the most popular in the area maybe because of lack of entries or the organisers just wanted to cancel because of the 3 week restriction on animal movement i dont know perhaps it would be better to cancel them than have a depleted show diary 22 spent a few hours in the fells today it was good to be able to wander the familiar paths and let our dog run free it was a good boost to our moral and perhaps the dogs too we all missed being able to do this last year diary 23 last bank holiday before xmas and the last before the schools go back at the golf course where i help out part time during the summer we had lots of customers a lot of them commented on how enjoyable it was to be on holiday in this area this year compared to the restrictions that were in place last year maybe the holiday establishments are getting back to normal there are no restrictions put on them like there is in place now with farmers and agriculture diary 26 sorting through the mail left whilst away on holiday and i came across a notice sent by the village committee notifying a harvest thanksgiving festival to be held next month in the village hall as we have no church in the village it is being held in some farm buildings in the centre of the village this will be a splendid event the farm did not have fmd but couldnt take animals from one field to another and couldnt market them when we consider the gloom that settled on this farm and community it is very welcome to have this unique event here in the heart of the village and the farmer and his wife will be at the centre of events a lovely gesture and i hope it will be well supported there will be a distribution of harvest gifts afterwards what a change from a year ago diary 27 with the aid of binoculars i have been able to have a closer look at the burial site from a westerly direction there are vents in the shape of small towers to extract gas from the site there are pipes connecting these vents a lot of work is still going on there however all this takes place in the western side which is the opposite side to where my village is situated from our side there is nothing to suggest the amount of work going on because of this fmd is pushed further into the backs of villagers minds it is something in the past it has happened so what people like myself who talk to farmers and agriculturalists do not easily forget these events personally i am still concerned about the burial site when inquiries are made about it all we can do is accept what we are told it does not look as though every precaution is being taken to alleviate an odours or contamination diary 28 i had to see the village farmer on another matter and was asked inside for coffee and a chat he was able to tell me of the full implications of the 20 day rule he accepts that this is a precaution to prevent another outbreak of fmd but there is a lot of work involved he told me of an isolation area that he has created and also the fencing arrangements where his land adjoins the neighbours land i would say that 95 of the public dont know about this even if they have heard of the 20 day rule for him he owns the largest farm in the area it is bad enough having to do all the physical work as regards fencing etc but for anyone such as a small holder it must be a nightmare if he has to bring animals back from market that havent been sold friday my wife and i played a round of golf at aspatria this course was badly restricted when fmd hit this area we were reminded that there are restrictions on adjoining land there were notices asking people who hit balls onto farm land not to cross the fence to retrieve them because of fmd precautions this was news to us it does make sense though the farmer wouldnt know where players had been walking prior to playing golf diary 29 attended the harvest festival held in the village farm a large cattle shed had been cleaned and decorated for this event chairs had been brought in fruit and vegetables were on display for auctioning at the end the place was packed a lot of money was raised and it was a very happy event well supported and a big boost for the farm and the village i dont think that the general public care much about fmd now that is has been a year since the last case was confirmed in cumbria the public may be reminded if they read the local newspapers intently for instance there was a letter to the editor published recently which referred to the results of the cumbria inquiry into fmd it may have been a farmer who wrote it i dont know but the writer certainly went to town in the scathing comments on the handling of fmd even caustic remarks regarding the efforts since fmd of defra and mrs beckett i certainly wouldnt like to cross the writer i also think the farming community must be holding its breath in case the present restrictions such as they are prove to be worthless then we will all suffer again week 30 what a difference a year makes despite some restrictions on public access to agricultural fields in some areas of the county it doesnt apply here although most locals confine themselves to footpaths and bridleways other people seem to think that all fields are recreation areas they walk and run across some of the fields in close proximity to the village regardless of the presence of stock they exercise dogs and treat it as a some kind of park one farmer is well know for being aggressive he used last years fmd outbreak to run people off his land i met a local councillor who expressed concerns regarding the proposed building of an incinerator to the south of the village on the current open cast mining site the two waste disposal sites to the west and north west of the village have become big issues in the last 18 months due to the burial of animals and the disposal of pyre ash and leachates it seems as though we are going to get over this ghastly fmd outbreak only to have this scenario thrust upon us week 31 met a small holder who keeps sheep near to this village he was very scathing over the report that the government and defra dont want to talk up an offer from the local authorities here to implement findings and recommendations from their local inquiry over fmd why what has this government who didnt perform very well during the outbreak got to hide and why shirk away from the findings instead of facing up to the failings that we all know about it also seems that they dont want to make any safeguards and recommendations to avoid a further outbreak as a non agriculturalist it doesnt surprise me in the least after all government has failed other industries in the country for as long as i can remember week 32 i am convinced that authorities in the area must think that the way animals were buried here and pyre ash and leachate were disposed of at another site nearby was all done as very successfully and that the two sites handled everything professionally therefore the sites would be more than capable of handling ash from an incinerator to me this is the legacy of fmd i am most annoyed over this together with a lot more of the villagers this village no longer has a representative on the parish council both have resigned for whatever reason and no one will step forward to take it one i have said that i would take a set on the parish council to represent the village and fight for our rights and future quality of life due to this i have uncovered a pile of claims and counter claims it seems that both parish and district counsellors know what is going on regarding the incinerator and that developers have made concessions to some councillors also there are claims that the developers have offered money to local landowners and farmers so that roads can be put in all these accusations have been strongly denied at the same time it is rumoured that some farmers have been offered local fields nearby because of what i have discovered in my own investigations it would seem that a lot of friendships gained over 20 years could come to an end i am fearful of what i have uncovered there are also claims that councillors are only in it for what there can get out and are not to be trusted i dont want that said of me also by the time all this is sorted out i will be 70 75 i certainly dont want to be fighting peoples battles at that age however i will support any effort to stop the proposed development week 33 once again the large farm in the centre of the village was the venue for the annual guy fawkes bonfire and fireworks organisers had been round the village asking for donations to provide fireworks a tractor and trailer toured the areas picking up things for the bonfire drinks and food were served in a barn after the fireworks this is another occasion when villagers and the farming community come together it is perhaps the only time that the general public of the village think about fmd and last years events if only briefly the farmer remarked that is the third time this year that there has been a public function on his farm the first was the jubilee party in june then on october 6th the harvest festival service these events keep farming in the public eye week 34 i havent written before about the proposed building of an incinerator nearby to burn the counties waste if as we all suspect the incinerator is built then the odours plus the disposal of ash to the fmd waste site is a legacy of fmd particularly regarding the nearby burial and disposal site week 35 this is week 35 of this project and for most of the 35 weeks i have written that i am not confident of the future there are numerous reasons for this mainly the situation in the middle east today i travelled to keswick to do some xmas shopping i was given a lift there by a neighbour who is in his 30s he was very upset about the terrorist situation not only was he concerned about the terror threat to the london underground but the threat closer to home as regards a plane crashing into the nearby sellafield complex we dont know the effect that this constant bad news has on people people who have already got serious worries eg families housing finance etc must feel really depressed about it all week 36 near to the next village is a long established farm of many acres recently the farms stock of animals and machinery was sold off the owner who had farmed for sixty years was leaving to live with one of his brothers he said that he wouldnt know how he would feel when he left the farm for the last time this weekend the farmhouse hasnt been sold yet and now stands empty its a strange place now where everything was hustle and bustle they even had a b b business there is now derelict and bare its a sad reflection on the agricultural business in the wake of fmd this farm isnt the only one in the area that has sold up some farm houses remain as dwellings but this particular one which we saw nearly every day is just an other sad reminder of the way farming has declined in this rural area week 39 tuesday boarded the train at penrith to journey to crewe to see our daughter during the journey i got into conversation with a fellow passenger he noticed i had got on the train at penrith and perhaps thought i was connected with the agricultural industry the conversation drifted into the previous years fmd outbreak it is rather strange that i live in a very rural area and fmd is rarely mentioned now however this fellow passenger although not from an agricultural background gave his views on the handling of the situation it was no different from the views expressed by locals at the time of the crisis it just goes to show that fmd is very much in peoples minds even if they were not connected to agriculture in any way week 40 friday now that the mep have published their critical report on the fmd crisis it is interesting to read an article published in our local weekly paper from a reader article entitled foot and mouth report included i dont have the knowledge or the data to support this readers comments however i have heard plenty of stories from mainly unreliable sources to confirm what he says it makes interesting reading i think week 41 tuesday no wonder my confidence in the future has taken a big plunge over the last few months the situation in iraq doesnt get any better mr tony blairs message to the armed forces of the uk bear this out being an ex serviceman i know what the situation holds for our troops but are we right to follow the usa in a war against iraq no doubt saddam hussein does pose a threat but so does india and pakistan to each other each of these two relatively poor countries has threatened each other as regards their nuclear arsenals now the loose cannon in the form of north korea is positioning itself as regards its position in the nuclear arms league personally i think that north korea poses a more dangerous threat than iraq it is not a very happy new year for a lot of people perhaps it will all be settled diplomatically i wonder week 42 nothing of any importance to write about due to refurbishment at home week 43 monday one of the items on the agenda for this months meeting of distington parish council is a report on the wood felling and the implications of this as i have written in the diary before there are strong rumours of the proposed plan to fell woods build a new road through the felled site and bring coal from the nearby opencast site to link up with an existing road then to transport the coal to a storage area on workington dock then when the coal is worked out to build an incinerator on the coal site ash from this development would then be transported on the new road to be disposed of on the waste disposal site that was used for fmd pyre ash and leachate thursday read a report of the aforesaid meeting the owners have declared that our worries are groundless in fact they say that they plan to eventually open the woodland to the public the owners of the woodland are the same operators of the opencast coal site footpaths will be created if a grant can be obtained a wooden wheeled ancient water mill will be restored after the closed meeting the operations director of the site said that there has been a misunderstanding what we are doing will benefit local people he said that a management project for the wood is being followed involving felling dead trees and fresh planting he added the felling and replanting will be done this year after which it will take time to become established were talking of a ten year programme but it should have long term benefits i think our pr at the start of this wasnt very good and in the future we will let the council know of our plans the council agreed to keep a watch on the work here in g this statement differs greatly from what some of us have been told by our village based county councillor there has never been any suggestion that the felled woods would become a land fill site but would be felled to provide the new road there was nothing mentioned at the meeting regarding the proposed incinerator being built the county council that this has ever been planned however our representative is adamant that this is not so week 44 tuesday for the first time my property has finally overcome a situation that was affected by fmd in july 2000 the electricity supplier notified me to say that the trees in my garden had grown so tall that the topmost branches were in close contact with an eleven thousand volt overhead power line and that they should be felled or severely pruned after some further negotiations it was decided to prune to some height that i wasnt happy with although the treetops were not actually touching the wires it was considered a risk in the forthcoming months however as time passed i couldnt wait for the foresters to arrive so i pruned the trees myself in january 2001 the electric supplier suggested that the trees should be pruned further a date was agreed but the foresters didnt arrive time dragged on and the trees grew back to their original height again the electric supplier suggested they be pruned or felled a new date was agreed upon however the foresters couldnt do the job because the isolator switch was on farmland and they couldnt get access to it because of fmd restrictions and so it dragged on despite visits by foresters and electric supplier reps the trees got bigger and i was forbidden to touch them neighbours could hear crackling noises coming from the wires and it became very worrying people suggested that i should do something about it i took the matter up directly with the supplier and the foresters i was promised dates only for them to be cancelled in december 2002 a date of 21st january 2003 was given this time they came and we agreed that two trees be felled and another pruned after 30 months it finally happened thursday met a small holder who has his land on the edge of this village who told me that the 20 day rule of animal restriction of animal movement was being lifted and replaced by a 6 day restriction this was good news for him and any other farmer later that day i met another farmer who didnt know that the restriction was being lifted you would have thought that i had told him hed won the lottery good news all round for the people friday listening to the local radio today and was surprised to hear a report that the citizens advice bureau in a small lakeland town had been receiving clients who were still experiencing hardship due to fmd it is now 18 months since the last outbreak and the effects according to the person being interviewed were still being felt not just by farmers and agriculturists but by guest houses hotels tradesmen and in particular some self employed debt seems to be the biggest problem it seems as though some people had weathered the hardships of fmd initially only to find that their plans had come adrift somehow afterwards quite disturbing to hear that the situation is still with us in this county to some degree week 45 these diaries were instituted to deal with the after effects of fmd although there were no cases of fmd in this village everyone knew about it particularly as nearly everyone who went to work from here would pass the main farm in the village centre or some of the farms on the outskirts of the village now that fmd is over most people who live here dont seem to think about it anymore the only people affected are the farmers naturally this is a strange village in lots of ways only the farmer and his immediate family are connected with agriculture the rest are professional people or people who work at nearby sellafield industries in workington and whitehaven or are retired there is no church no village pub no village shop no village community centre or meeting place only tradesmen that call are the milkman and the solid fuel merchant we are left to get on with life in our own way the parish of distington to which we belong have all the facilities associated with a larger community such as a church pub and community centre all of which are two miles away consequently the parish council meets there once a month and discusses all the problems of the area including ours however our representative on the council has resigned and no one has come forward to represent us anything that has been discussed at the parish council is reported in he local newspaper village pubs are a good venue to discuss local issues and to exchange views and mainly to gossip village tittle tattle as i call it as we have no pub the gossip is rife from one source or another with bits added on or left out as is the choice of the person concerned quite a lot of people one meets are experts in their own particular choice of subject whether it is politics finance or mrs jones current boy friend it is a fault to take on board all that is gossiped about when one meets a fellow villager in the country lanes whilst out walking the dog week 46 illness to a family member week 47 continued illness week 48 over the past few weeks there has been a lot of tree felling in the nearby woods this has led to a lot of disturbance to the villagers because of the use of large vehicles needed to remove the felled timber and also the foresters vehicles churning up the grass verges and the ditches a lot of concern was raised about the necessity of all the tree felling these concerns were raised in the press and also in the parish council i have written about these in diaries in the last few weeks it was reported in mid january that all the felled woods would be replanted this year with footpaths created for the enjoyment of the local population now all timber operations have ceased large areas of woodland have been left partly felled and a lot of felled timber is left lying about foresters vehicles have gone and nothing is happening despite assurances from the developers it looks as though something drastic has happened village tittle tattle says that the foresters have not been paid for their work so far and that the developers have run out of money if this is so what is going to happen now when felling started late last year i contacted two environmental agencies regarding the threat to the red squirrels badgers and buzzards that occupy these woods i was told that it was only a partial felling and they the environmental agencies were satisfied that any disturbances would be slight i think that they were told this by the developers and accepted what they were told without a site visit the developers have been known to mislead groups in the past including landowners farmers councils and individuals i personally am not happy about this situation i have always took a keen interest in wildlife and feel that we have been let down by the lies of developers and the lack of serious interest from wildlife agencies some of which are an offshoot of central government i for one will keep a close look on the situation with or without other villagers and in particular local councillors week 49 by chance i met three small holders all at the same time they were discussing farming by the roadside all of them were pleased that the 20 day ruling was coming to an end and that their lives were more or less coming back to normal they also expressed the opinion that the 20 day rule and the 6 day rule were only in force to protect their interests however they were unanimous in their condemnation over the importing of foreign meat and meat products into this country they feel that foreign meat is not subjected to enough checks before entry into the united kingdom week 51 met a farmer today who told me that hed seen a report based on findings by the eu and defra it stated all the things that everyone who is an agriculturalist and those who take an interest in the countryside had been saying about what was wrong with the handlers of the fmd outbreak it just proves that it doesnt take an academic genius to know what should have been done at the time everyone can be wiser after the event but statements by the nfu and individuals at the onset were not heeded for example the movement of animals should have been halted sooner and the army should have been brought in much sooner now the question of vaccination rumbles on should we or shouldnt we vaccinate there is a fear of the outbreak again particularly when the findings of the 1960 outbreak were not implemented since the sadness of fmd there has been quite a few instances of socialising at the farm such as harvest festival jubilee party and almost any excuse for a shindig good to see farmers enjoying themselves week 52 met out local farmer who told me that there is to be new legislation to dispose of fallen stock no longer can a farmer bury fallen stock on his land but must now provide an incinerator to dispose of dead animals this must be a costly business could dead animals not be taken to a central point and burned week 54 one thing about fmd was the effect that it had on the poaching fraternity living in a rural area we expect this to happen nobody seems to mind that a few rabbits and pheasants go missing what is really alarming is the use of dogs and high powered rifles to poach deer fmd put a stop to all this now a neighbour has told me of poachers near to the village using rifles and shooting deer the only people benefiting from this are the poachers and hoteliers who receive these dead beasts and no questions asked also the danger of villagers being hit by stray rifle shots causes alarm to others week 55 i think that there is a lot of jumping on the band wagon now that fmd has cleared up for instance i listened to an interview on the local radio station given by a hotelier things werent going well in his establishment having got over fmd and its implications visitors were slowly returning to the area but not in sufficient numbers to cause great joy
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informationaboutdiaristdateofbirth1975gendermoccupationgroup6geographicregionnorthcumbriadiary1thursdaymeetingnlakesfridaytbtestingonrestockingfarmusualchatanddefracommentsthemeetingresearchpanelgp6atthenorthlakeswasinterestingitsurprisesmesometimeshowpeoplemyselfincludedneverseemtotireofthesamestoriesandcomplaintsoverhowthecrisiswashandledsomeoftheepisodesrecountedmusthavebeentolddozensoftimesoverthelastyearbutwhoeversaysitalwaysseemsjustaskeentosayitagainperhapsareflectionofhowdeeplypeoplefeelabouttheeventsofthelastyearhavingsaidthatmostoftheresentmentsandrantsthatihearondailyfarmvisitsarefocusedfairlyandsquarelyatdefraandnotfmdvirusfarmersseemfarmoreupsetattheconstrictionputonthembydefrathantheydobythelossofstocknowalthoughiknowandsawhowutterlydevastatedmostwerewhentheywereactuallydiagnosedwiththevirusandintheweekortwofollowingmyworkinthepracticeisbecominglessandlessfmdorientatedastimegoesonlicensingandrestockingvisitsaredrawingtoacloseandwearestartingtoreturntonormalvetworkmylifehasbeenmoresettledsincetheendoffmdalthoughtherewasneverarealthreatofredundancytherewasagreatdealofuncertaintyastowhatformworkwouldtakeduringtheoutbreakitwasneverclearwhetheriwouldbebasedatthepracticeorworkingasadefravetfrommonthtomonthnowthatitisfinishedihopethepracticeandmyworkcangetbacktoaroutineandatleastknowingwhereillbebasedeachdayevenifnotwhichcallsaregoingtocomeinwithregardtofmdthebiggestinfluenceithasatthemomentandoverthelastweekisactingasalistenertofarmerswhostilltalkaboutitanddefraagreatdealdiary2monshaprestockinghavingtojustifyvisitwedmelmerbyiwenttoseeafarmerthisweektodothefirstinspectionofhissentinelanimalsthatheisrestockinghisfarmincommonwithmanyfarmershewasunwaveringinhisconvictionthathisanimalshadbeendeliberatelyinfectedandthattonyblairordefraweretheultimateculpritsthebeliefisthattheywanttoputfarmersoutofbusinessthisparticularfarmermadetheveryvalidpointthatdefracohadunderestimatedtheresilienceofthefarmingcommunityithinkthatthishasbeenverystrikingconsideringthestrainthattheyhavebeenunderinsomecasesworseforthosewhodidntgetfmdthanforthosewhodidithasbeenremarkablehowlittlethemajorityofourclientshavechangedadmittedlyweseemostofthemonaprofessionalbasisregardingtheiranimalshealthandnottheirownbutonthewholetheyseemtohavebeenveryforwardthinkingabouttheoutbreakmanyhavetakenitasachancetoincreasethesizeofherdsandtoeliminatemanyotherdiseasesaswellasfmdworkinthepracticehasbeenfairlysteadyasweekthenumberoffmdcallsisdecreasingoneoftheproblemswithdoingrestockinglicensingandtbcallsisthatweareonthefarmatdefrasinstructionnormallyitisthefarmerwhocallsusoutandthiscancausefrictionanythingrelatedtodefrawillputhacklesup9timesoutof10itdefinitelycausesstressattimesbutputsmydiplomacyskillsintogoodpracticeitsometimesfeelsasthoughsomefarmersjustneedanoutletandifitthebillafteragreeingwitheverythingtheysayandsympathisingitusuallysmoothesoutandendswithacupofteabutitdoesfeelasthoughwehavetojustifywhatwearedoingmuchmorethanpriortofebruary2001diary3thisweekwastheanniversaryoftheweekiwenttomyfirstipandassociatedslaughterpyrebuildingetcatseveraltimesduringtheweekifoundmyselfthinkingthistimelastyeariwasalthoughobviouslynotpleasantmemoriesthethoughtsdidnotparticularlyaffectmeinabadwayordistractmefromworkitjusttookmebacktothattimewhenihadtimetothinkiwenttoseeasickhorsenearcarlislewhichiswheretheipwasanditwasinterestingtodrivepastthefarmandseeanimalsinthebuildingsagainhopefullythefarmerconcernedisgettingbackontrackagainwithrespecttodailyroutineworkisgettingverybusylambingtimeisstartingtoreallygetgoingwiththeinevitableincreaseincallsalthoughitcanbehecticattimesitsbettertobekeptbusyratherthanhavingittooquietitsalsogoodtoactuallybedoinglambingsandothersheepworkasitstwoyearssincewedidanyapartfromeuthanasingsheeplastyearonmondayiwenttodoarestockingcheckonafarmthefarmerisconvincedhewasgivenfmddeliberatelyandonarrivaliwasgivenhisweeklytiraderegardingdefratonyblairhowimusthavemadethousandsofpoundsoutofitetcetcaftersometimeofnotrisingtothebaithecalmeddownandhalfanhourlaterwassweetnessandlightperhapshejustneedssomeonetoletpressureouttoonlyonesessionlikethataweekisnttoobadconsideringhowmanyfarmvisitswedodiary4mondaybroughtanotherdressingdownfromthefarmerimentionedlastweekitwasshorterandlesspassionatethistimeperhapshesmellowingabitidroveuptojunction40onedaywiththesunoutitremindedmeofasimilardayayearagowhenicouldcount15smokeplumesfrompyresonthesamebitofroadasisaidlastweekanniversarymemorieslikethisarentespeciallydifficultformetheyrejustthereinalotofwaysitsquitesatisfyingthinkingaboutwhatwashappeningayearagoandhowwellthingshaveprogressedsincethenmostofourfarmershaverestockedworkisreturningtonormaleventhingslikebeingabletodriveontofarmsagainratherthanhavingtoleavethecaratthefarmentrancemakesabigdifferenceworkcontinuestobeverybusywiththetypicalseasonalcallstosheepandcattlewehaveacoupleofvetstudentsdoingworkexperiencewithuswhichhadtostoplastmarchaswecouldnttakeextrasontofarmswithusanothersignofthecontinuingreturntonormalitysomedaysitseemsasifwehavereturnedtohowwewereayearagothemostobviouslegacyisperhapsthethoroughandextensiveclothingdisinfectionbetweeneachfarmagoodhabitwhichisveryhardtobreakdiary5ihadtoworkoneastermondaymorningwhichwasfairlyuneventfulasforthelastfewweeksthereweretheusualseasonalcallstosheepandcattlebutnothingtoostressfulontuesdayididthefinalbloodsamplingonthelastfarmthatwehavethatisstillatthesentinelstageofrestockingthefarmersseemedfairlymellowtodayandsparedmetheusuallectureattemptatargumentperhapsitsbecausetheendofhisrestrictionisinsightthetestwentverysmoothlyandididnthearfromhimuntiltheendoftheweekwhenihewasupsetprobablyjustifiablythathisresultsstillwerentbackasprocessingthebloodsisnotourresponsibilityallicoulddowassympathiseandpleadignorancetherestoftheweekwasfairlyroutineworkwisefridaywastakenupdoingabigtuberculinandbrucellosistestonarestockedfarmtheyallhavetobedonewithin3mthsofrestockingalthoughitwasabigjobitwasawellrunfarmwithplentyofhelpsowegotfinishedwithinthedayandwithasfewdelaysascouldbeexpectednowthattheeveningsarelighteritsmeantthatonnightsoffdutyivebeenabletogetoutmoreitsmadeaverywelcomechangetobeabletobikewalkonthefellsagainthisyearafteralltherestrictionsof2001longmayitandtheweathercontinuediary6finallyfinishedthelastarestockingjobsonmondaythefarmerwasgettingveryfrustratedprobablyjustifiablysoatthelengthoftimeitwastakingthebankholidaysetclastweekmeanttothatthelabswereclosedsothatbloodsamplestooklongertoprocessigottheresultsat445mondayeveningandinanattempttocreatesomegoodwillagreedtogotothefarmtodoafinalcheckthateveningonarrivaloftheusualtiradeaboutdefraandvetscamemywaywhichwasslightlyhardtotakehethensaidthathedidntblamemepersonallywhichwasniceofhimithinkhopeherealisesthatwecanonlytrytogetthingsgoingfasterandultimatelyitsoutoffourhandsatleastitsgoodtohavealltherestockingworkfinisheditfeelsasthoughthefirststageisoveringettingbacktowherewewereanothersignofreturningtousualisthecontinuingpaceofworknightsoncallareagainatimeforworkingratherthanthecallfreenightsofsummer2001thisweekhasbroughtearlymorninglambingmostdaystherestofthetimewereisasbusyasitsbeenforayearthedaybookisfulleachdayandweallseemtobedrivingaroundthecountymoreorlesskeepingupwiththejobswhichisagoodthingihadtheweekendoffandwasgoingtogotoedinburghtoseesomefriendsbutintheendstayedinpenrithforsomerrdiary7ihadahalfdayonmondayandwenttoriggindaleattheheadofhaweswaterwithafriendwhohadcometostayforanightortwotheplanwastoseethegoldeneaglesnestingthatuptounfortunatelytheywereoffonadaytriptoanotherpartofthelakedistrictbuttheweatherwasgoodanditmadeaverypleasantchangefromworkthepracticeisstillgoingflatoutwithseasonalworkthedailyflowoflambingandlambingrelatedsheepproblemsshowsnosignofebbingtherearealsoincreasingnumbersofcattleproblemsprobablyrelatedtocomingtowardsthespringturnoutofcattlethathavebeeninsidefor67monthsthefactthatmostofthemareinnewsurroundingsisalmostcertainlyaddingtotheproblemsonthewholeoffarmersarefairlypragmaticaboutthedifficultiestheyarehavingmostacceptthattheywereboundtohaveproblemswiththerestockingandonthewholearepleasedjusttohavestockonagainsomeareverykeentobeasefficientaspossiblewhereasotherswillmorereadilygoalongwiththeoldfarmingmantrathatwheretheresalivestocktheresadeadstocknotquitewhattheveterinaryprofessionwantstoencourageiwasoncallattheweekendandhadoneofthebusierfewdaysicanrememberagainitwasmostlyseasonalfarmworkwhichalthoughitwastimeconsumingisoftenquiterewardingimstillsurprisedbythenumberofsheepwearegettingcalledtoperhapsitsbecausefarmershavespentalotofmoneyonthemtorestockwithandnowfeeltheyrefinanciallyworthcallingusfordiary8madeacoupleofvisitstooneofourfarmerswhorestockedoverthewinterthisweekheshavingafewproblemswithcowsgettingillandgenerallynotsettlinginverywellhesoneofthemostamenablefarmersonourbooksandneverseemstotrytoblameanyoneforhistroublesattimesitsveryfrustratingnottobeabletodomoreforpeoplelikehimidliketobeabletogiveeveryoneofhiscowsamagicinjectionandsaythatitllgetbetterbutunfortunatelythatsnothowitworkswevehadalotofcoltcastrationstodothisweekwhichisnormalforthistimeofyearitputsmorepressureonusintermsofworkasweusuallytaketwovetstoeachcastrationconsideringhowbusyitisrelationsinthepracticearegenerallyverygoodithasbeenstressfulattimesbutonthewholethishasbeenstressrelatedtovolumeofjobstodoratherthanpeopleithasalsobeenaverydifferentandpreferabletypeofstressthanthistimeofthelastyearatleastalotofworkmakesusallfeelfairlystableratherthantheterribleuncertaintyoflastyearwevealsotakenonanextravetthisspringwhichwouldhavebeenunthinkablelastyearinthemiddleoftheweekididafarmvisitwithoneofthevetsfromthelocalveterinarylabtodiscussdiseasecontrolonarestockedfarmmostoftheworkintodiseasesurveillanceonafarmwasdefrafundedwhichwentdownwellwiththefarmersheatleastfeltasthoughshewasgettingsomethingbackafterfightingwithdefraforthelastfewmonthsitwasalsoencouragingtoseesomeonetakingaverypositiveapproachtodiseasecontrolinthefuturemycousinandsomeofhisfriendscamedownfromglasgowfortheweekendtogointothelakedistricttheweatherwasgoodonthewholeandseveralpeoplenotedhowgooditwastohavethepathsopenagaindiary9startedtheweekdoingabigtuberculinandbrucellosistestatarestockedfarmtherehasbeenabigbacklogtoclearaftertestingwasstoppedduringfmdlastyearsowehavetocatchupwiththosefarmsthatdidntgetthediseasebutaredueatestaswellastestingtherestockingfarmswereallverykeentokeepcumbriaasatbfreezonebutwithallthedifferentstockcominginitsgoingtobetrickymondaystestwaslongbutokayonthewholethesetupwasgoodandthefarmingfamilywereverypleasantwhichmakesahugedifferencetohowthedaygoesallwasclearwheniwenttoreadthetestonthursdayareliefforallconcernedoverallworkseemstobequieteningdownabitthisweekcomparedtothelastfewwearenowjustbusyratherthanalwaysfeelingasifwereonejobbehindallthetimeonwednesdayandthursdayoneofourclientsbroughtinhalfadozenshetlandponiestocastrateitmakesachangetohavealargeanimalthatissmallenoughtobeeasilyphysicallyrestrainedbyonepersonthecontinuinggoodweathermadedoinganafternoonsworkwiththeponiesinthepracticesfieldaverypleasantwaytospendafewhoursicanthelpfeelingthatnoraininaprilmeanswellgetloadslaterinthesummeriwasonasecondcallattheweekendsaturdaywasverybusywithsmallanimaljobswhichimainlylefttoacolleaguewhileitriedtoclearupthefarmandequinejobscalmwasprettymuchrestoredbylateafternoonafterwhichiwasntcalleduntilearlysundaymorninganotherofourrestockedclientsishavingconsiderabletroublewithsomeofhisnewanimalsandisbecomingincreasinglyfrustratedaboutitwealltrytohelpwiththemedicalsideofitanimalsbutinevitablyalsogettohearalotofhisotherworriestoohopefullythingswilllookupsoonandhellbeabletorideitoutokdiary10hadadayoffonbankholidaymondayalwaysthegoodwaytostarttheweekiwentuptopeeblesinscotlandwithsomefriendstogomountainbikingitwassurprisinglyemptyforaweekendandtheweatherwasgoodandididntfalloffallinallagooddayouttuesdaywasworkasusualihadtodoasmalltbtestonarestockingfarmitshouldnthavebeenalongjobbutthefacilitieswerentgreatsoitdidntgoasslicklyasitmighthavedoneweallmanagedtogetthroughinonepiecesoitcouldhavebeenworseoneofmycolleagueswentonmaternitythisweeksheisparttimebutdoesallsmallanimalworknowthatshesoffforthenextfewmonthsitmeansthatanextravetisneededeachmorningtostayinanddosmallanimaloperationswhileitsprobablynotmyfavouritesortofworkitdoesmakeachangefrombeingoutonfarmseverymorningitsalsogoodtogetabitmoreexperienceatsmallproceduresaswellasdoingsmalleranimalsthisweekhasbroughtseveralinterestingequinecasesihadtohospitaliseahorseforafewdaysforfairlyintensivetreatmentwhichfortunatelyappearstohavemadeagoodrecoverytherehavealsobeenacoupleofhorseoperationsatthepracticethisweektheyregenerallyquiteinterestingapartfromthestressinvolvedwithhavinghalfatonofhorseasleepontheoperatingtableihadtheweekendoffandwenttoedinburghforasmallreunionwithfriendsiwasatcollegewithalthoughwedotalkaboutotherthingsconversationinevitablycameroundtoworktheeffectoffmdanditsconsequencesarestillverymuchinpeoplesmindsfriendsallaskedhowitwaslastyearandwhetherfarmshaverestockedyetetcetcitsstuffwhichiseemtohavesaidhundredsoftimesoverthelastfewmonthsbutpeopleneverseemtotireofaskingitandtoanextentidontseemtogetboredofansweringitdiary11theweekstartedwithabigtbtestatarestockingdairyfarmtherewereverygoodfacilitiesanditsubsequentlywentverysmoothlyandquicklydespitethenumberofcowsinvolvedthefarmerseemstobequitepositiveaboutthenewstartandhasbeensparedalotoftheproblemsthatotherpeoplehaveexperiencedwhilerestockingintermsofdiseaseintheanimalseverythingwasclearwhenireadthetestlaterintheweekonwednesdayafternoonihadabitofachangeasiwentcastratetwoponiesbelongingtomymothershehadboughttwototallywildfellponieslastautumntheynowabittamerbutnotcompletelyusedtobeinghandledyetiwentwithoneofournursesandtheseniorpartneranditallwentprettymuchtoplanworkisstillbusytheresoneclientinparticularwhoisgivingusalottodoherestockedafewmonthsagoandisobviouslyhavingtroublelambinghissheepitgotabittryingwhenihadtogetuptohisthirdlambingofonenightbutthatswhatwearethereforisupposehesanicemanandalwaysseemspleasedtoseeuswhichhelpsihadtheweekendoffagainandwenttoglasgowtobebestmanatmycousinsweddingapartfromtheweatheritwentverywellithinkwithnounsolvableproblemsdiary12startedtheweekwithalongvisitfordairyfertilityworktooneofourbigdairyfarmersitsoneofthefarmerswhohasbeenhavingproblemsafterrestockingandavisitthatanothervetusuallydoessoifeltabitunderpressureitsthetypeofworkwhichisveryroutinebuthasthepotentialtogoquitebadlywrongonthewholeitwentfairlywellwithnomajorproblemsigetonprettywellwiththefarmerwhichalwayshelpsasitmakesthetimegobyquickersmallanimalworkisstillquitebusyihadtwodaysinsidethisweekdoingsmallanimalsoperationstherewasntanythingparticularlydifferentorunusualbutitstillhelpstodomoreofitoneofourfarmerswhomanagedtomissfmdisverybusywithhiscalvingscheduleatthemomenthestendingtohaveverybigcalvesandsubsequentlyweredoingalotofcaesareanstherethisweekhasbroughtatleasthalfadozenofwhichtwowereinthemiddleofthenighttherehavebeenafewvetsarelookingsleepdeprivedrecentlyihadtheweekendoffandwentsoseeacoupleoffriendsinedinburghwespentonedaycyclinginpeeblesandthenproceededtonothingstrenuousforthenextdiary13theweekstartedwithabigsessiondehorningcattleitsnotexactlytechnicalworkandisfairlyhardworkatleastitgetsmefitwewouldnormallydothematayoungeragebutquiteafewhavebeenmissedaswedidntgetoutontofarmsforsuchroutineworklastyearonthewholemostpeoplearefairlywellcaughtupnowthattheyverestockedbeenhavingroutineworkdoneforthelast8monthsorsobuttherearestillafewlaggingbehindihadacallfromafarmerwhowasoneofourmostconsistentlyandvehementlyantidefrapeoplelastyeariendedupdoingacaesareanandhadquitealongchatwithhimconversationendedupcomingroundtotheeventsoflastyearandheairedhisresentmentsagainitwasthefirsttimeinseveralweeksthatihadheardthiskindoftalkwhereasafewmonthsagoitwouldhavebeenadailyoccurrenceitwasntparticularlyaimedatmeorthepracticeinparticularbutjustfrustrationwiththesystemasawholeiwentforawalkupblencathraoneeveningduringtheweekbutthehighlightoftheweekhastobethestartoftheworldcupivebeenondutythiswebutmanagedtoseeallbutthelasttwominutesofthismorningsratherdisappointingdrawwithswedenmostfarmersarekeentowatchthematchestoosoletshopenottoomanycallscomeinatthewrongtimediary14ihadthebankholidayonmondayoffwhichwaswelcomeafteraweekendoncalliwentforawalkinthelakeswithacolleagueconsideringitwasabankholidayitwasnttoocrowdedhadtoworkonbankholidaytuesdaythoughitwasntespeciallybusyuntiltheeveningwhenihadtodoacaesareanonacowandthengoandseeabadlycuthorsebothseemtobedoingoktherestoftheweekwasworkedasusualnothingparticularlyoutoftheordinaryhappenedwithfairlyroutinecallsperhapsitwasbecauseeveryonewaspreoccupiedwitheventsinjapanandkoreaormaybethatisjustmeiwasbookedinforan11amcallonfridaybutmanagedtopersuadethefarmerconcernedthat930wouldbemoreappropriatesaidthatiorshouldthatbewecouldwatchthesecondenglandgamewemanagedtogetfinishedintimeanditwaswellworthitthe10winoverargentinaputeveryoneinagoodmoodfortherestofthedayandtheweekendiwasonfirstcallovertheweekendsaturdaymorningwasverybusyandwedidntgetallthecallsdoneuntilearlyafternoonafterthatitwasoneofthequietestweekendsivehadtheywereacoupleofthingstodoonsaturdayafternooneveningbutsundayhadnocallsuntilafterlunchalmostunheardofihadtocheckmyphonewasswitchedonlongmayitlastdiary15ivedonetwodaysinthepracticedoingsmallanimalsthisweekmorethanusualtheweatherhasnotbeenthebestsoitsnobadthingimanagedtogooutonroundsonwednesdaythoughsoimanagedtocatchthethirdenglandmatchsecondroundherewecomeispentmostoffridaymorningoperatingontwocowsatoneofourfarmstheybothhadaconditionwherepartofthegutdisplacesintheabdomenandisbestrepositionedsurgicallythefarmerobservedthatitwasprobablylinkedtofmdlastyearbecauseoffmdhehadtousemoresilagetokeephiscowsinsidelastsummerthismeanthehadlessstoredoverthewinterandsohadnoneavailabletofeedthisspringsummerthelackofsilagenowisalmostcertainlyimplicatedintheproblemshiscowshaditsveryunusualtohavetwooccurringononefarmatsametimeseeingashemissedgettingfmdlastyearthoughhethoughtitwasapriceworthpayingitwasactuallyquiteapleasantwaytospendamorninghesfromkirkbystephenwhereiwenttoschoolandididnthaveanyotherjobswaitingsoitwasquitearelaxedfewhoursthesurgerywentoktooihadahalfdayonfridayanddrovetovalleyjustbeyondalstontomeetoneofmyoldflatmatesfromedinburghforhisstagweekendwestayedinanoldbarninmiddleofnowheresoitwasntexactlyaconventionalstagpartybutveryenjoyableallthesamewewalkedtothenearestpubonsaturdaytoseeenglandsexcitingnextinstalment30thankyouverymuchafterthatitsbeenaleisurelydayanddrivebacktopenrithandivegotanothernighttogetmyheadbacktonormalforworktomorrowdiary16thisweekhasbeenquitesmallanimalorientatedagainivedonetwomorningsinthesurgeryandmoreconsultingthanusualimnotmeanttobeondutyfornightsthisweekbutivehadacoupletocoverforpeoplewhovebeenonholidayfortunatelybothnightswerefairlyquietimsurethefavourwillbereturnedsometimeduringthedayworkhasbeenfairlysteadywerenotquiteasbusyaslastweekbuttheresenoughtokeepusgoingthepracticelikemostofthecountrytriedtostopbrieflywhileenglandwerelosingtobrazilitsabitdisappointinghopefullyfarmersandtherestofourclientswontbetoodepressedaboutitallitwasgoodwhileitlastedattheweekendiwentdowntoaplacenearworcesterfortheweddingofthefriendwhosestagweekenditwasthelastweektherewerealotofpeoplefromedinburghtherewhyhaventseenforseveralyearsanditwasgreattocatchuptheweatherwasverykindandstayeddrydiary18onmondayiwenttodoabigtuberculosisandbrucellosistestatofoneourbigdairyfarmsthathadrestockedfewmonthsagotheyvegotseveralhundredcowsandittookalotlongerthananticipatedihadtogobackontuesdaytofinishthejobofftheyreafriendlyfamilysoitwasntreallytoomuchofachoretherehasbeenamoreobviouschangeinthemsincefmdthanformostofourclientswhohadthediseasetheyseemmuchquieterandlessconcernedaboutfarmingandlifesproblemsingeneralnowperhapstheythinkiftheycangetthrough2001thentheresnothingworthgettingstressedaboutincomparisonwednesdaywasspentdoingsmallanimalworkmadeachangeasonthursdayiwentbacktoreadthecowsresultsforthetbtestallnegativeonthursdaynightidrovedowntostaywithacollegefriendnearbirminghamforthestartofalongweekendonfridayicarriedonsouthtoanotherfriendinnorthdevonshesworkinganothervetinanareathatwasalsoseverelyaffectedbyfmdcumbriawassobadlyhitthatissometimeseasytoforgetthatotherplaceshadabadtimetoothankfullyworkindevonismoreorlessbacktonormalagainispenttherestoftheweekendinsouthdevonwheremydadhadhis60thbirthdaywewereluckywiththeweatherandhadfineishconditionstohaveabarbecueonthebeachiwasofftodaymondayaswellandspentthedaydrivingnorthtoofartogoforaweekenddiary19itsbeenashortworkingweekseeingasihadmondayoffivealsostartedamonthbackontheoutofthehoursofrotathisweekitworksamonthonamonthoffsystemsonightsandweekendshavebeenandwillbeabitbusierworkhasgenerallybeenabitquieterrecentlythisisfairlytypicalforthetimeofyearmainlybecauseanimalsareoutsideandfarmersarebusymakinghayandsilagerainpermittingwevehadtwovetsoffthisweeksoalthoughtherehavebeenfewerjobsinwearenotlefttwiddlingourthumbstherehasbeentheusualflowofaroutinefarmworkalongwithhorsesandsmallanimalsbutnothingtootaxingonthewholeihadanightonthursdayandwentupstsundaycraginthelakedistrictwithacoupleoffriendsfrombramptonitwasfurtherthaniremembereditbeingwedidntgetdownuntilitwasalmostdarkbutapartfrombeingunseasonablycoldsurprisesurpriseitwasafinenightitwasdutythisweekendiwasonfirstcallonfridaynightandhaditveryeasynocallsuntil1245pmwhenanothervetandihadtooperateonadoguntilthreeamicheckeditagainat530andthenhadtogotocalvingat645justasthatwasfinishediwascalledtoabadlycuthorsethensomelamecowsandthentothebaconrollshopforbreakfastiwasonlyonsecondcallfortherestoftheweekendandwasfairlyquietthismeanticouldgetonwithvariousmundanethingslikepaintingmyhousetidyingthegardenetcetcidealtasksforwhenicantdoanythingelsebecauseimoncallandthedogdidwellsoitmakesthenightwithnosleepworthwhilediary20havehadanothershortweekhadmondayoffasiwascomingbackfromalongweekendawayworkthisweekhasbeenfairlysteadyfarmersareoftenbusytryingtogetsilagehayinatthemomentsoroutineofvetworktakesabackseathavingsaidthatwehavebeenkeptatleastasbusyaswewouldexpectwithroutinefertilityvisitsandtheoccasionalsickcowetctherebeenafewoftherestockingfarmsthathavehadsomefairlyunusualdiseasesthatdidntobviouslyfallintotheonesweusuallyrecogniseordealwithasalotofthemhaveboughtstockinfromabroadwehavetoatleastkeepinmindthepossibilityofnewproblemsbeenbroughtinweveworkedquitecloselywiththelocaldefrarunveterinaryinvestigationcentreonafewofthesecasesbutthankfullynonehaveturnedouttobeanythingtobeundulyworriedaboutiwasondutythisweekendbuthavefortunatelybeenreasonablyquiettheonlythingouttheordinarywasahorsethathadtornitslegupquitebadlyonsomewirebutwithabitoftimeandbandagingitshoulddookaydiary212vetshavebeenoffthisweeksoitsbeenabitbusierfortherestofusagainaswithlastweekitsbeenamixtureofroutineandthestandardaetypeworktherehavebeenafewtuberculintestsgoingonstilltryingtoclearthebacklogfromlastyearitsgettingthereslowlybutalotofitwillhavetowaituntiltheautumnwinterwhenthecowsareinandthefarmershavemoretimeavailableournewvetwhostartedinaprilhasseemedtosettleinverywellhehadabitofabaddayearlierintheweekwhenacalvingdidgoquiteasplanneditsveryeasytodoespeciallywhenyoufeelunderpressureasisboundtohappenwhenyoustartanewjobitremindedmeofsomeoftheproblemsihadafewyearsagothefarmwhereithappenedisquiteanunderstandingtypesoitwontcreateanyrealproblemshockeytrainingisstartingagainwhichseemsabitprematureastheseasonisstillmonthsawayatleastitllencouragemetodoabitmoreexercisetogetfitformatchestheweatherhasmeantihaventbeenoutintothehillsasoftenasiwouldhavelikedbuthopefullytheresstilltimeforittobrightenupabithadtheweekendoffsoacoupleoffriendsfromcollegehenowlivingyorkcametostaywewentuptothebordersforthedayonsaturdayneartowhereiusedtoworkitdoesntseemtohavechangedmuchistillthinkimbetteroffdownheredespitelastyeardiary22wehadabitofarushonthisweekassometimesseemstohappenitcanbequietforcoupleofweeksandthenitsuddenlyitscrazyitmaybethatalotoffarmshavenowlargelygottheircropsinandaretryingtocatchuporperhapsitsjustthewaythingsgoseveralfarmshavehadongoingproblemsthisweekwithvisitsbeingrequiredseveraldaysrunningtherehavealsobeenalargenumberofhorsecallsthisisprobablyfairlycommonforthistimeofyearastheytendtogetriddeninthesupposedlybetterweatherwetendtogofurtherafieldforhorsesontuesdayiwenttokirkbylonsdaleareainmorningandhadtogonorthofcarlisleintheafternoonthemilesgetrackeduporfairlyquicklyandigettolearnwherethevariousblindspotsforphoneandradioreceptionareiwasondutyagainontheweekendwhichmeantthatiwasalsoonformondaywednesdayandfridaynightstheywerenttoobadapartfromfridaywhenihavetogoandseeacoupleofhorsesbeingondutyforthreeweeknightstendstolimitwhaticandoapartfromworkbutimanagedtomeetupwithsomefriendsworkinginbramptononenightandgoforawalkinthelakesonthursdaytheweekendwasfairlyquietbutiwasonlyonsecondcallsoifoundtimetodosomedecoratingintheroominmyhousewhichisthecurrentprojectileadsuchathrillinglifediary23thecalmafterthestormafterthefranticlevelsofworkwesawlastweekithasagainbeenabitmorecivilisedthisweekwevehadtimetohavecoffeeandlunchbreaksandactuallytalktocolleaguesfromtimetotimeiwouldntwanthaveeveryweekisquietasthisbutoccasionallyitsverywelcomeitsquiterelaxingtobeabletogoonacallknowingthatthereisnotanotheronewaitingitalsomeansthatiftheafternoo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lhistorycurrenttrendsandtheirlikelyimpactonveterinaryserviceswhatarethecurrenttrendswithinagricultureandveterinarypracticeandwhateffectswillthathavebothinagricultureandfarmveterinarypracticetherearetrendsthatcanbeidentifiedhowfasthowfarthesetrendswillgoisdifficulttopredictbutmyownexperienceisthatchangewhenitcomeschangeisoftenslowatstartingbutthendramaticinitsspeedtheeffectofdecouplingandothereudecisionsonagricultureareunknownbutthecurrenttrendsarelikelytocontinueinagriculturefarmsizehastocontinuetogrowasfarmsmakelessandlessperanimaltheyhavetospreadcostsoverlargerandlargernumberstheindividualvalueofeachanimalcontinuestodropinrealtermsefficiencyandmechanisationcontinuestoincreasechickenfarmsarenowroutinely100000animalsplussincefootandmouthdiseasetheaveragedairyherdsizehasincreasedfrom90to114anincreaseof20whichtalkingtomanydairyfarmersisonlygoingtoincreaseasmoreherdsaregoingtobe300animalstheseincreasesareusuallywithoutanincreaseinlabouronthefarmsthismeansthecareofindividualanimalsislikelytobelessimportantbutthecareoftheoverallheathoftheherdmuchmoreinveterinarypracticethemajorchangesarelikelytobefromthecompetitioninquiryintothecostofpharmaceuticalsthesubsidyofprofessionalfeesbysalesofpharmaceuticalshasbeenanincreasingtrendsincethelate60sthenprofessionalfeesweresubsidisedbythelargescaleeradicationschemesbymaffwhopaidverygoodfeestogetthevetsonthefarmandhelperadicatethenotifiablediseasesthecompetitioninquiryisrecommendingthatpharmaceuticalsbedispensedbypharmaciesaswellandthatprescriptionsbeprovidedfreeofchargewhichprivateorganisationisgoingtoprovideaservicefreeofchargehasyettobeascertainedbutthecurrentlevelofincomederivedfrompharmaceuticalsisnotgoingtobesustainedthisinevitablymeansthatthecrosssubsidywilldisappearandfarmerswillhavetopaythefullcostofveterinaryclinicalserviceanditwillnotbeeconomictodosoatthesametimethecostsofprovidingveterinaryservicescontinuestorisethecostofveterinarytimeiscontinuingtorisestudentsarenowgraduatingwithdebtsof1520kbecauseofthelossofgrantsandpaymentoftuitionfeesthismeanstherewillneedtobeafurtherraiseof23kperannumtopayveterinaryassistantstomatchthestatusquofarmanimalpracticealreadypaysassistantslessthancompanionanimalpracticesdespiteofferingalessfavourableoncallrotaintheshorttermfollowingfmdmanypracticeprincipalsworkedadditionaloncalltomaketherotaacceptabletoattractassistantvetswherethisisviableintheshortterminthelongtermitisnotacceptableaspartnersprofitbecomescommensuratetothesalariestheyhavetopaytoveterinaryassistantstheywillbeaimingtoincreasechargesforclinicalworkorlooktootheravenuesfordecreasingcostsincreasingturnoverprovidinganoutofhoursemergencycoverisnoteconomicallypracticalforvetsexceptinthebigcitieswherepracticesjointogethertoprovideanemergencycliniccurrentlythereisanrcvsobligationtoprovide24hourcoverbutthercvsisnotinvolvedinthecommercialpricingofservicesasthevalueofindividualanimalscontinuestodropinrealtermsthenthecostoftreatingindividualanimalsbecomeslessandlessviablewherethereisnocrosssubsidyforoutofhoursworkitwillbecomeuntenableasmanymixedpracticeshaveadwindlingfarmanimalsidethatislessfinanciallyattractivemanywilldecidetoconcentrateonthecompanionanimalsideofthebusinessinalotofmixedpracticesitisaseniorpartnerwhowilldothelargestamountofthefarmworkthismeanstheyoungervetswillnothavethecaseloadtobecomeexperiencedandconfidentinfarmworkthereisacohortofpractitionersinthissituationheadingtowardsretirementinthenearfuturewillthepracticecontinuetobeinvolvedwithfarmworkasfewerpracticesbecomeinvolvedwithfarmveterinaryservicesthecostoftraveltothemoredistantfarmshastorisebeyondthealreadyacceleratedrateallthismeansthatfarmveterinarypracticeswillloseincomefromclinicalservicesandfrompharmaceuticalsalestheywillhavetomovemoretowardsthepigpoultrymodelofprovidingveterinaryadviceandchargingforitvetshavealreadymovedoutofnutritionaladviceleavingthisfieldtonutritionalexpertsthereasonforthisisthatmostnutritionaladviceisprovidedfreetothefarmerbythefirmswhothenputthatcostintothefeedsthataresoldtothefarmersthiscrosssubsidyoffeesbysalesisapparentlyacceptablewherethesubsidyofveterinaryfeesbypharmaceuticalsisnotthismodelisbeginningtoappearinotherareaswhereasvetsprovidedmostmastitiscontrolthedairieswhobuythemilkarenowprovidingfreeorsubsidisedadvicetofarmsoncellcountsandhighbacterialcountsincludingbacteriologywithavariablebackupandqualityofadvicenmrandotherrecordingagenciesarealreadyofferingfertilityinformationontheirrecordingproductsanditisashortsteptoactuallyprovidingthefertilityworkibelievethatthesefactorswillcontributetoadramaticdecreaseinfarmanimalcliniciansinthenext5yearstheeffectofthereductioninlargeanimalcliniciansonhealthandwelfarestandardsandonsurveillanceasthenumberofclinicalveterinariansreducesthentherewillbemuchlessonfarmsurveillancethismeansthatoutbreaksofnovelorunusualdiseasesismuchlesslikelytobenoticedorrecordedatanearlystagetheroutinecarefortheanimalswillbedonebystockmenunderveterinaryguidancetheguidancewillprobablybebyquarterlyor6monthlyorannualvisitsandbyherdhealthplansindividualanimalsaremu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onlyeverseenitontelevisionreportsbutneverbeenupthereourselvesinafuturediarywhenhehastimehewillwriteafewwordsonwhathethoughtweek78thaprilonceagainthisweekhasbeenfullofworkihaventhadmuchtimetodoanythingapartfromworkonthursdayihadabreakandmymomcameoutforabbqforthefirsttimethisyearwehaveputoutourpatiotablesandchairsastheweatherwasstayingpleasantwesatoutforawhileintheeveningandhadourbbqitwasalovelybreakformymomasthereispeaceandquietouthereasopposedtointownweallreallyenjoyeditmymomandfiancebothcommentedhowlovelyitwastositoutsideintheniceweatherwithoutanastysmellaboutoverthepastcoupleofweeksihaventnoticedthingssmellingsobadasonafewoccasionsrecentlytherehasalsobeenadecreaseintheamountofbirdsinparticularcrowswhichhavebeeninthefieldstothesouthofwherewearenearthecrossroadsonthecoupleofoccasionsduringtheweekwhenihavebeenpastthefieldstherehaveonlybeenacoupleofbirdsflyingaroundasopposedtoawholefieldfullofcrowsatonetimeitwasalsolovelytohearthesheepespeciallyastheeveningbecamedarkerinthebackgroundyoucouldhearthesheepjustinthefieldnexttousandalsothelambsafewfieldsawayitwassomethingwhichwestillarentquiteusedtobutwhichweappreciatesomuchmorenowweek815thapriliwasfeelingquiteconfidentthisweekuntilfridaywhenwatchthenewsisawthereportonnewbovinetbcaseswhichareworryingeventhoughitissaiditwouldntbeasseriousasfootandmouthitisstillworryingasithasthepotentialtodestroymanymorelivesandbankruptmorefarmerswhohaveprobablyjustgotoverfootandmouththeworrymustbeespeciallybadforthefarmersasitisbadenoughforthegeneralpublicespeciallyafterseeingthedamagecausedbyfootandmouthinsuchashortspaceoftimeitwouldbeabsolutelyterribleifthissummerwasanythinglikelastsummerhowlongwouldittakeforeverythingtogetbacktonormaltheneventhoughfootandmouthisevidentlyfardifferenttobovinetbhopefullythingswillhavebeenlearnedfromlastyearwhichwillpreventthisfrombecomingadisastertooapartfromthatotheraspectsofthefootandmouthsmelletchaventbeenasbadthispastweekihaventnoticedanyparticularoccasionswhenthesmellhasbeenparticularlybadornoticeableinadditionontheoccasionswhenihavedrivenpastthefieldsnearthecrossroadstherehavebeenhardlyanycrowsneartherewhichisahugeimprovementtherewereanumberofseagullsinonefieldbutnowhereneartheamountofcrowstherewerebeforetherehasalsobeenadecreaseintheamountoftankersgoingbyrecentlythatihavenoticedatfirstididnttakemuchnoticeofitbutthenfiancésgrandadmentionedthathehadhardlyseenanyheseemstonoticethemmovemorethanwedoashelivesontheortongrangejunctionwithwigtonroadandtheyallhavetogopasttherewithallthesethingshappeningthepresenceoftheburialsitenearbyseemslessobviousweek922ndaprilthelastweekhasbeenquiteapleasantweekprobablybecauseihaveeventuallyfinishedmycourseworkandhavebeenabletohaveabitofpeaceandquietithinkthiscombinedwithperiodsoflovelyweatherhavemademefeelquitegoodontuesdaywhenitravelledtotownandbackiwentpastthefieldsnearthecrossroadstothesouthofthevillagewhichinthepasthavebeenfullofcrowsorseagullsasihavenoticedonotheroddoccasionsoverthepastweektheyappeartobeemptynowillkeepaneyeonhowthischangesoverthesummerifitdoesonfridayinoticedthattherewereanumberofcattleandcalvesinthefieldjustoppositeourhouseicanstandandwatchthemfrommybackpatiodoorswhichislovelywiththereintroductionofthesheepandcattleintheareaitislikeeverythingiscomingtogetherfinallyafterthefootandmouthandlifeisreturningtonormalinsomesensethecattleseemtobethelastpartneededforeverythingtoseemtoberunningproperlyandtheanimalsfinallymovingaboutatlastithinkthisfactcombinewiththeirbeingnosignificantincidentsofnastysmellsortherumblingofthetankersgoingbyhasmadethingsseembetterwhentalkingtofiancesgrandadhementionedagainthattherestillhaventbeenasmanytankersgoingpasthishouseatortongrangeastherehavebeenthispastweektherehavebeenhardlyanyremindersoftheburialsiteandthepastfootandmouthproblemslivinginthecountryhasseemedquitenormalafterwhatseemsalongtimeweek1029thaprilallinallthisweekhasbeenagoodweekoverallwithregardtothefootandmoutheverythingseemstohavequieteneddownandtherearehardlyanyvisibleremindersoftheburialsiteandfootandmoutharoundthevillageasimentionedlastweektherestillhaventbeenanynoticeableoccasionsofsmellspossiblyfromtheburialsitethetankershavehardlybeennoticeablearoundthevillageandthefieldsnearthecrossroadshavestillbeenfairlyemptyofbirdsinparticularcrowsthiswasexplainedandbackedupinthewatchtreenewsletterintheparishmagazineswhichireceivedthisweekitwasgoodtoreadandveryinformativeworthreadingistillthinkitisagoodideaandisbeingdonewellasitdiscussesissueshappeningnowandalsokeepsyouinformedaboutactioninthefuturethenewslettermentionedthereductionintheamountoftankerswhichihavenoticeditalsomentionsthattheremightbeaslightsmellfromtheburialsitedduringworkbutsofarihaventnoticedanythingonceagainithasbeenlovelyseeingboththesheepandthecowsinthesurroundingfieldsespeciallyatthemomentwhentheyarewiththeiryoungonsaturdayonthewaydowntofiancesgrandadtherewereroadworksnearthebaldwinholmebendintheroadthispartwasinabadconditionandisnowmuchbetterithinkthedamagewascausedbythetrucksetcusedduringfootandmouthhoweverimnotsureweek116thmaythisweek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informationaboutdiaristdateofbirth1937gendermoccupationgroup5geographicregionnorthcumbriaweek1monday11thmarch2002whilstwatchingthelocaltvnewsat6pmtherewasanewsitemthatcausedustoreflectbackontheeventsayearagoayoungladyhadjustleftacourtwhereshehadbeenfoundguiltyofassaultingapoliceofficerandalsobeinginchangeofanoffensiveweaponaknifethejudgehadacquittedheroftheoffencesheshowedleniencytowardsherlastyearduringthefmdcrisisshehadreturnedtoherhometofindthatherpetgoathadbeenkilledbyslaughterersbecausetheanimalwaswithinthe3kmradiusshehadgoneberserkoverthisandthreatenedthepoliceofficerandotherswiththeknifeshehadtobeforciblyrestrainedshewasverydistraughtoverthiskillingevenaftershehadappearedincourtandhadbeenacquittedofallchargessheshowedgreatemotionnotonlybeingfreedbutalsoquiteupsetoverthelossofthegoatperhapsheractionsdidnthappentoalotofotherpeoplewhohadsimilarthingshappentothemhoweverthelossofalotofpetanimalsandinsomecasesneedlessslaughterofmanyfarmanimalsstillcreatesunhappymemoriesof2001week2tuesdaywhilstwalkingthedogimetafarmerfromtheedgeofthevillagewhohasfriendsandstockincloseproximitytothe2landfillsitesheisstillveryconcernedaboutmaterialsonthesesitesthenearestsitecontainedhundredsofcarcassesthishasbeencompletedandcappedheisconcernedaboutleachatefromthissiteandfeelsthatitdoesntmatterhowmuchclayandsoilwereusedtocontainthissitetheeffectsofheavyrainisboundtofindawaydownandalsotodrainithedoesntwanttoploughthesefieldsnorcanhesellstockthathavegrazedthesamefieldsthereispyreashbeingtippedontheothersiteagainwhathappenstotherainwaterthatrunsoffthissitealsothereareconcernsaboutthelargeflocksofseagullsthatvisitbothsitesdailyanotherconcerniswhatishappeningtotheopencastcoalsitethatissituatedalmostduesouthofgilgarranvillagethefarmeritalkedtotodayisconcernedaboutthishugesitenocoalhasbeenmovedfromthissiteformonthsthereareconcernsthatthissiteisgoingtobefilledwithwastewillitbefromfmdsitesweasavillageareveryconcernedaboutrumoursoflandfillonahugescalefridaynoticedthattherewasworkbeingcarriedoutonthetopoftheburialsitenovillagershavecommentedonthisdespitelargeyellowdiggersoperatingsundayworkcontinuingontheburialsitecannotmakeoutwhatkindofworkisbeingdonethereweek3mondayworkisstillgoingonattheburialsiteistilldontknowwhatisgoingonbutthediggersinvolvedarethesameaswhenanimalswerebeingburiedtherewhenanimalswerebeingburiedtherelastyearthesmellcomingfromthatsitewasterribletosaytheleastitwasnotcomingfromthedeadanimalsasmostobserversthoughtbutfromdecomposingwastematerialthathadalreadybeenburiedonthesitepriortofmdwhenexcavatorsdugintothesoiltomaketrenchesforthedeadanimalstheydugintothisdecomposingmatterhencetheterriblesmelldespitetheworkthatisgoingontheretodaynocommentsfromvillagersareforthcomingitseemstomethatnowthatfmdhasgonethegeneralpublicarenotinterestedanymoreunlesstheyreadsomethinginthelocalpaperswrittenbysomeenterprisingreporterweek4tuesdayworkisstillgoingonintheformerburialsitevillagersdontseemtobebotheredfmdisgonesonobodyisinterestedanymorewednesdaywhilsttryingtogaincommentsfromvillagersovertheeffectsoffmdoneortwocommentsfromsomeindividualsshowconcernabouttheoutbreaklastyearbutdontseemtooconcernedoveranyaftereffectsifanytwointerestingcommentssuggestthat1theoutbreakwasstarteddeliberatelybythiscountryincollusionwiththeagriculturistsoftheeecsoastoconcentratemeatproductionineuropeandleavetheuktoconcentrateonarablefarming2theoutbreakwasstartedbyaterroristattackthegovernmentwouldnotdeclarethisbecauseitwouldcausewidespreadpanicthursday2325hourshugefireatthesitewherepyreashisbeingtipped250000usedtyrescaughtfirearsonissuspectedfirefighterstriedtocontaintheblazebutcouldntuselargeamountsofwaterincasewatercoursesbecamecontaminatedfriday0500firestillblazingatthepyreashsitelaterinthemorningthefirewasshowingsignsofdyingdownapparentlyitwaslefttoburnitselfoutmuchheavysmokepollutionwasevidentdriftingsouthwestforaboutninemilesreadingthelocaleveningpaperabouttheblazetherewasalsoareportthatvillagersfromdisington1milesfromgilgarranwerecomplainingofthefoulsmellfrombothwastesitesparishcouncillorsareveryconcernedaboutthisdoesitcoincidewithworkcurrentlybeingcarriedoutontheburialsitethesmellfromthesesitesplusthefactthatanimalswereburiedononesiteandpyreashplusthehugefirefromtheothersiteallhappeningthisweekiscausingconcerninthisareabutoncethishueandcrydiesdownpeoplewillsoonforgetaboutitallweek5mondaythroughtofridayobservedworkontopoftheburialsitedontknowifanyworkisstillgoingononthenorthernandwesternsidesfridaylocalweeklypapercarriedthereportontherecentlargefirethatoccurredonthealcositelastweekwhen250000tyrescaughtfiresomehowitwasinterstingtoreadthatthefirebrigadedidnotuseanywatertoextinguishtheblazeincasepollutionoccurredinwatercoursesthefirewaslefttoburnitselfoutsaturdayburialsiteitlookslikethereisnewsoilbeingtippedontopforsomereasonnoreportedcommentsfroimtheparishcounciloverthisdespiteveryvociferousobjectionsbythemovertheuseofthisandthealcositeinthepastsundaytalkedtoourlocalcountycouncillorwholivesinthisvillagehefeelsverystronglythatthesetwositesaredangeroushethinksthatbothsitesareahealthhazardriskduetoobnoxiousodoursandinparticularthelargefirethatoccurredlastweekwhichproducedalotofpollutedsmokeforadistanceofsixmilessomepeoplereckonedthatthesmellofburningtyrescouldbesmelthereingilgarrantherehavebeennumerousfiresonthesesitesoverthelastfewyearsthesefiresgiverisetocompaliantbypeoplelikeusbutmoresofromthenearervillageofdistington1mileswestofherethecouncillorsuggeststhattherecouldbemoreincidentsofcancercasesinthisareaincomingyearsalongwithrespiratorytroublesaswellassomecasesofbronchitisrelatedproblemshehimselfhasrecentlysuddenlystartedsinusitiswhichhehasnthadbeforeallinallhewasnthappyaboutthesituationonbothsiteswedontknowwhatisbeingtippedthereallwecandoasacommunityisacceptwhatwearebeingtoldbythesiteownersaspreviouslystatedanimalcarcasseswerebeingtippedandburiedforaboutthreedaysbeforeweweretoldofficiallythatthiswassoincidentallythesitewhereanimalsareburiedisownedbycumbriacountycouncilthisseemstobetotallyagainsttheadviceofcountycouncilofficialswholookaftertheenvironmentandthehealthofthepopulationasivewrittenbeforetherearegoingtobebiggerconcernsiftheopencastcoalsitetothesouthofthevillagebecomesalandfillsiteforrefusefrompartsofthecountyfiftymilesawayatthemomenttherearenosuggestionsthatanythingfromthefmdoutbreakwillbedumpedtherehavingsaidthathoweverweasvillagersdidntknowofcarcassesbeingburiedorpyreashbeingtippeduntilafterithadhappenedweawaittheoutcomeofthiscoalsitewithsometrepidationafterallnocoalhascomefromthissiteforsomemonthsithasalltheindicationofbecomingalandfillsiteweek6mondaytowednesdayifworkisstillongoingattheburialsiteitisnotvisiblefromoursideofthesiteistilldontknowwhatisgoingonthereitmayallbeinnocentandanimprovementtotheenvironmentafterallthisiswhatthesiteownershavetodothursdayadelegationofmepsvisitthenorthofthecountytheyhavecometoassessthesituationforthemselvesandtoreportbacktotheeuropeanparliamentnodoubttheywillalsoreportbacktotheirownconstituentsintheirowncountriesthedelegationvisittheauctionmartatlongtownwherethediseasewasfirstnoticedinthiscountryandalsovisitedthebigburialsiteatgreatortonwhereitwasestimatedthathalfamillioncarcasseswereburiedgoodcoveragebythelocalpressradioandtvgaveanyoneinterestedtheviewsofthedelegationthursdaysaturdaythemepdelegationagreedthatthefmdsituationhadbeendisastrousweallknowthatcommentsfromsometouristandagricultureobserversrangedfromawasteoftimetoatleastsomepoliticianshavebotheredtovisitusourowncouldntdothatpersonallyithinkthatsomegoodcameoutofthisparticularlywhenitwasreportedthatthedutchhadusedvaccinationtechniqueswhentheyhadasmalloutbreakmanypeoplethinkthatthebritishgovernmentshouldhavehadapublicinquiryintotheoutbreakwhathavetheytohidecumbriaisholdingitsowninquiryquiterightlysootherorganisationssuchaslancasteruniversityareholdingresearchintotheoutbreakwhynotthegovernmenteventuallywewillknowwhyperhapsnotinmylifetimethoughtheministerandmaffhavealottoanswerforweek7thoughtitwouldbeofinteresttoincludecopiesofthenewsletterthatthelocalauthoritiesissuedtoeveryhouseholdinthearearegardingthedisposalofcarcassesandeffluentitwillbeofnotethattherewasafirelastyearonthealcositealsoinvolvingtyresverysimilartolastyearsonlynotasbigareportonlocaltvtodaystatedthattherecentvisitofmepstotheareaconsideredthatvaccinationshouldhavebeenusedattheoutsetandbeshouldseriouslyconsideredshouldafutureoutbreakoccurheardofreportsofanoutbreakoftbincattleinotherpartsofthecountrythiswasreportedtobemoreseriousthanfmdshouldamajoroutbreakoccurthiswouldleadtothequestionofdisposalshouldtheneedariseasivealreadyreportedinpreviousentriestheuseoftheopencastcoalsitetothesoutheastofhereiscausingconcerninsomequartersalthoughthesitedidntfeatureinthefmdcrisisthereisafeelingthatitisbeingearmarkedforuseinthefutureshouldtheneedariseoreventherumourofanincineratorisplannedfortherethegeneralfeelinghereandinthesurroundingareaisthatwehavehadenoughdumpingofcarcasseseffluenttoxicchemicalsetcitcouldbethattheauthoritieshaveseenthatthesitesconcernedhavehandledthosesubstancesbeforethatanextensionofdisposalsitesinthisareawouldbeeffectiveweek8nothingofanysignificancetoreportthisweekweek9nowthatcumbriasfmdinquiryhasstartedalotofpeopleihavemetthisweekrecallthehappeningsofayearagoevenmoreinterestingisthecoverageinthelocalpressandtvplentyofpublicitybythemediashowshowlittlethegovernmentanmaffinparticularletthefarmingandtourismindustriesofthecountydowntherehasbeenplentyofdistressingstoriesbyfarmersnotonlyofinfectedanimalsbeingslaughteredbutalsotheslaughteringofhealthyanimalsinthe3kmcircleofanoutbreakoneparticularlydistressingpointofevidencewaswhenafarmerdescribedtothepanelthebirthofacalffivedaysafteritsmotherhadbeenshotweatthetimeoftheoutbreakwerehearingthesestoriesonadailybasisandstillmaffandmrbrownkepttellingusthattheoutbreakwasundercontrolallicansayatthispointismayheavenhelpuswhenitallhappensagainweek10workisstillgoingonattheburialsiteitlookslikenewsoilisbeingdumpedontopoftheactualsiteanddozedtolevelitofandtosmoothitoutonthesideallwecandoisacceptthatthemanagementofthesitearemakingitbetterforallconcernedandthattheyareasconcernedaswearethemuchpublicisedcumbrianfmdinquiryteamvisitedthelandfillsitetheymetlocalcouncillorswhoexpressedtheirconcernoverthissiteandthealcositenootherreportwasforthcomingfromtheteamtheinquiryteamfinishtheirevidencegatheringthisweekoneveryimportantstatementwasmadethattheministeroftheenvironmentshouldmakeastatementoverthisoutbreakandshouldevenmakeavisittothesesitescountywidetherehasbeentotalsilencefrommrsbeckettsdepartmentoverthisrequestthesamesilenceisobservedfromanygovernmentsourceforthatmattereveryoneasksthesamequestionswhathavetheygottohidewhyarenttheyinterestedwhatplansarebeingmadeandwhatlessonshavebeenlearnedfromlastyearsoutbreakalotoffarmsarerestockingandinthisneighbourhoodfarmworkisgoingonasbeforeorsoitlooksastimegoesonthoughthereseemstobeasmoulderingangerthatnooneinauthorityisasconcernedaswellareweek11workisstillongoingattheburialsitenocommentsheardfromanyofthevillagersorneighboursthisweekdiary12mondayfrommyownobservationworkisstillongoingattheburialsitemoreheavyplanthasbeenmovedontothetopofthegiantamountanditlooksasthoughmoretopsoilisbeinglaidoverthemountperhapstoimprovethesitebutwatermaystillpermeateintoandthroughthesitewecanonlybelievetheoperatorsthatthisisarightthingtodofridaytalkedto2itvillagersabouttheaftereffectsoffmdonesaidohitsallovernowandforgottenaboutitdoesntbothermeonebittheothersaiditallinthepastwejusthavetoforgetaboutititseemsthatlifeisreturningtonormalinallaspectsofvillagelifepeopledontthinkaboutlastyearunlessthediaristmentionsthatsundayabaddayorweatherwisethisprolongedrainmayhaltworkontheburialsitemostpeoplearereluctanttotalkaboutfmdnowevenifitwasoneoftheworsteconomicandsocialdisasterstohitthiscountryandthiscountyinparticularnowthatitisoverpeoplesmemoriesbegintofadehoweversomeofusarenothappyathavingthesetwodisposalsiteswithina1000metresofthisvillagefmdmaybeoverbuttheseburialsitesarehereforalongtimeyetdiary13observedinworkonburialsitemoreheavymachineryandplantmovedinandlargequantitiesofsoilarebeinglaiddownandsmoothedoutdiary14talkedtosomereligioustodayabouttheaftereffectsoffmdwithoutexceptiontheyarenotinteresteditsalloverwithanidleonetoberemindedaboutitarethegeneralcommentsnobodyseemsbotheredthattherearehundredsofanimalsburieda1000yardsfromhisvillageorthefactthatthereisleachateandpyreashburiedinanothersitelookingattheburialsiteandtheworkthatisgoingonthereitdoeslookasthoughthemanagementtherearedoingeverythingtomakethesitesafediary15imetasmallholdertodaytowhomihavetalkedtointhepastabouttheeffectsandaftereffectsoffmdhestillnothappyabouttheburialsitedespitethelandscapingandsmoothingoffofthelargequantitiesoftopsoilonlytimewilltellhesayshedoesnothaveanystockneartothesitebuthehassheeponthefarmerslandsincefmdfinishedthoughhisstockmovementsarestillrestrictedbynewlegislationthathascomeinsincetheareawasdeclaredfreeforinstanceorifhetakesasheeptoauctionheaskedtohaveninepiecesofpaperforthistransactionifthepriceisnotrightandhehastotaketheshebacktohislandhewasputthembackinthesamefieldthattheycamefromanditcannotmovethemtothreeweekshethenhastoobtainalicencetodothishedoesthinkthattheauthoritiesarenotgoingtobeasstrictshortlythisisjustoneoftheprecautionsthathavecomeintotryandcombatanyrecurrenceoffmddiary16imetthesmallholderwhorentslandafromthefarmerinthevillagehisincomefromthesheepthatheabreedshasbeennillikemanymorepeopleinsimilarcircumstancesfortunatelyforhimhadhehasanincomefromanothersourcethesubjectofcompensationcameupduringourconversationipersonallydonothaveanycommenttomakeaboutthisitemasitmaybejustarumourapparentlyhegotitbeeinhisbonnetaboutcompensationpaidouttopeoplewhowerenotintheagriculturalbusinesswhatseemedtoupsethimwasthathehadheardthatsomeoffishandchipshopownerinthelakedistricthadbeenpaid170permonthcompensationforthelossoftradehedidntmindtoomuchthathoteliersandguesthouseownershadclaimedcompensationbutwonderedwhereelsewouldthiskindofmoneygowhenhehimselfhadbeenpaidnothingthisisthefirsttimeiveheardthisonediary17attendedthecumberlandshowateverytobeparkcarlisleweasafamilyusedtoattendthisannualshowregularlybothasspectatorsandcompetitorswehaveneverseentheshowliketheoneputonthisyearwhenwillthingsreallygetbacktonormalmanyofusthinkthatagricultureisbacktoprefmdcattleandsheepongrazinginthefieldslambinghasreachednewheightsinproduceonsomefarmscalvesarebeingbornsilageandhaymakingisprogressingwhentheweatherpermitsbuttherearestillrestrictionsonanimalmovementshencenosheepcattleorpigsatthisyearsshowonlyhorsespoultrydogsandrabbitsnotmanypiecesofagriculturalmachineryonshoreeitherplentyofcharteredaccountantstentscrafttentshorsefeedsandtackdisplaysinthemainarenaandbandsnotanagriculturalshowasweknewititseemstobethesameatothershowsennerdaleshowisoneofourlocalshowsthisyearthereisntgoingtobeanyhorsesorsheepgenerallytherearenocattleshownattheshowbutwithoutsheephillfarmersdominatetheshowthethereisntgoingtobemuchonshowatallitwasalwaysagoodshowforequestrianeventsatmanylevelsthisshowwasalwaysamustforourfamilyidontthinkthatwewillbegoingthisyeardiary18fromthegolfcourseandgolfdrivingrangeicanlookoutontothewesternsideoftheburialsiteihavewritteninpreviousweeksabouttheworktherehasbeengoingonatthissiteviewingthesitearefromourvillagesidewouldhardlyknowwhatthatthereeverwasaburialsitehundredsoftonsoftopsoilhadbeenlaidandsmoothedouttomakemoreorlesslikealandscapedfeatureitlooksreallygoodfromthewesternsidethoughthingsarelittledifferentworkisstillgoingontherelargeamountsofsoilhavebeentippedandlevelledofftherearestillportakabinsthereandheavyplantcanstillbeseenmovingaboutnodoubtthewesternsidewelllookasgoodastheeasternsidebeforelongdiary19itisannouncedthattheprimeministerandhiswifeandsonofhisfamilyatavisittocumbriathepmarrivesinwestcumbriaallkindsofreportsarewritteninthelocalandnationalpressaboutwhatheisgoingtodoornotdoorwhatheshouldbedoingafterallheisonholidaythepmdidmeetsomefarmersleadersthepressasusualstirredthingsuporastowhereheshouldbemeetingtourismofficialssaythatthetripwasfantasticfortourisminthecountyorpersontheyicantseewhatdifferenceitmadeifpeoplewanttocomecumbriatheywillcomeirrespectiveofwhetherthepmcomesornotdiary20afteralotofprotestsitlooksasthoughitthe20dayrestrictiononcattlemovementwillbeliftedperhapsthiswillnowmeanthattheycouldbecattleandsheepentriesatlocalagriculturalshowssomeshowsaregoingaheadwithverylimitedentriesoflivestockandsomewithnoanimalentriesatalltheseshowshavealwaysbeenverypopularwithmyfamilyforover20yearsalsolivingwithinafarmingcommunitymakesusfeelpartoftheannualagriculturalscenediary21ivewrittenbeforeregardingagriculturalshowsandtheprideinwhichlocalpeopletakeintheseshowsalthoughalotofshowshavegoneaheadthisseasontheyhavehadareducedanimalshowingorinsomecasesnoanimalsatalltodayiveheardthatoneshowhasbeencancelledaltogetherthisparticularshowisoneofthemostpopularintheareamaybebecauseoflackofentriesortheorganisersjustwantedtocancelbecauseofthe3weekrestrictiononanimalmovementidontknowperhapsitwouldbebettertocancelthemthanhaveadepletedshowdiary22spentafewhoursinthefellstodayitwasgoodtobeabletowanderthefamiliarpathsandletourdogrunfreeitwasagoodboosttoourmoralandperhapsthedogstooweallmissedbeingabletodothislastyeardiary23lastbankholidaybeforexmasandthelastbeforetheschoolsgobackatthegolfcoursewhereihelpoutparttimeduringthesummerwehadlotsofcustomersalotofthemcommentedonhowenjoyableitwastobeonholidayinthisareathisyearcomparedtotherestrictionsthatwereinplacelastyearmaybetheholidayestablishmentsaregettingbacktonormaltherearenorestrictionsputonthemlikethereisinplacenowwithfarmersandagriculturediary26sortingthroughthemailleftwhilstawayonholidayandicameacrossanoticesentbythevillagecommitteenotifyingaharvestthanksgivingfestivaltobeheldnextmonthinthevillagehallaswehavenochurchinthevillageitisbeingheldinsomefarmbuildingsinthecentreofthevillagethiswillbeasplendideventthefarmdidnothavefmdbutcouldnttakeanimalsfromonefieldtoanotherandcouldntmarketthemwhenweconsiderthegloomthatsettledonthisfarmandcommunityitisverywelcometohavethisuniqueeventhereintheheartofthevillageandthefarmerandhiswifewillbeatthecentreofeventsalovelygestureandihopeitwillbewellsupportedtherewillbeadistributionofharvestgiftsafterwardswhatachangefromayearagodiary27withtheaidofbinocularsihavebeenabletohaveacloserlookattheburialsitefromawesterlydirectionthereareventsintheshapeofsmalltowerstoextractgasfromthesitetherearepipesconnectingtheseventsalotofworkisstillgoingontherehoweverallthistakesplaceinthewesternsidewhichistheoppositesidetowheremyvillageissituatedfromoursidethereisnothingtosuggesttheamountofworkgoingonbecauseofthisfmdispushedfurtherintothebacksofvillagersmindsitissomethinginthepastithashappenedsowhatpeoplelikemyselfwhotalktofarmersandagriculturalistsdonoteasilyforgettheseeventspersonallyiamstillconcernedabouttheburialsitewheninquiriesaremadeaboutitallwecandoisacceptwhatwearetolditdoesnotlookasthougheveryprecautionisbeingtakentoalleviateanodoursorcontaminationdiary28ihadtoseethevillagefarmeronanothermatterandwasaskedinsideforcoffeeandachathewasabletotellmeofthefullimplicationsofthe20dayruleheacceptsthatthisisaprecautiontopreventanotheroutbreakoffmdbutthereisalotofworkinvolvedhetoldmeofanisolationareathathehascreatedandalsothefencingarrangementswherehislandadjoinstheneighbourslandiwouldsaythat95ofthepublicdontknowaboutthiseveniftheyhaveheardofthe20dayruleforhimheownsthelargestfarmintheareaitisbadenoughhavingtodoallthephysicalworkasregardsfencingetcbutforanyonesuchasasmallholderitmustbeanightmareifhehastobringanimalsbackfrommarketthathaventbeensoldfridaymywifeandiplayedaroundofgolfataspatriathiscoursewasbadlyrestrictedwhenfmdhitthisareawewereremindedthattherearerestrictionsonadjoininglandtherewerenoticesaskingpeoplewhohitballsontofarmlandnottocrossthefencetoretrievethembecauseoffmdprecautionsthiswasnewstousitdoesmakesensethoughthefarmerwouldntknowwhereplayershadbeenwalkingpriortoplayinggolfdiary29attendedtheharvestfestivalheldinthevillagefarmalargecattleshedhadbeencleanedanddecoratedforthiseventchairshadbeenbroughtinfruitandvegetableswereondisplayforauctioningattheendtheplacewaspackedalotofmoneywasraisedanditwasaveryhappyeventwellsupportedandabigboostforthefarmandthevillageidontthinkthatthegeneralpubliccaremuchaboutfmdnowthatishasbeenayearsincethelastcasewasconfirmedincumbriathepublicmayberemindediftheyreadthelocalnewspapersintentlyforinstancetherewasalettertotheeditorpublishedrecentlywhichreferredtotheresultsofthecumbriainquiryintofmditmayhavebeenafarmerwhowroteitidontknowbutthewritercertainlywenttotowninthescathingcommentsonthehandlingoffmdevencausticremarksregardingtheeffortssincefmdofdefraandmrsbecketticertainlywouldntliketocrossthewriterialsothinkthefarmingcommunitymustbeholdingitsbreathincasethepresentrestrictionssuchastheyareprovetobeworthlessthenwewillallsufferagainweek30whatadifferenceayearmakesdespitesomerestrictionsonpublicaccesstoagriculturalfieldsinsomeareasofthecountyitdoesntapplyherealthoughmostlocalsconfinethemselvestofootpathsandbridlewaysotherpeopleseemtothinkthatallfieldsarerecreationareastheywalkandrunacrosssomeofthefieldsincloseproximitytothevillageregardlessofthepresenceofstocktheyexercisedogsandtreatitasasomekindofparkonefarmeriswellknowforbeingaggressiveheusedlastyearsfmdoutbreaktorunpeopleoffhislandimetalocalcouncillorwhoexpressedconcernsregardingtheproposedbuildingofanincineratortothesouthofthevillageonthecurrentopencastminingsitethetwowastedisposalsitestothewestandnorthwestofthevillagehavebecomebigissuesinthelast18monthsduetotheburialofanimalsandthedisposalofpyreashandleachatesitseemsasthoughwearegoingtogetoverthisghastlyfmdoutbreakonlytohavethisscenariothrustuponusweek31metasmallholderwhokeepssheepneartothisvillagehewasveryscathingoverthereportthatthegovernmentanddefradontwanttotalkupanofferfromthelocalauthoritiesheretoimplementfindingsandrecommendationsfromtheirlocalinquiryoverfmdwhywhathasthisgovernmentwhodidntperformverywellduringtheoutbreakgottohideandwhyshirkawayfromthefindingsinsteadoffacinguptothefailingsthatweallknowaboutitalsoseemsthattheydontwanttomakeanysafeguardsandrecommendationstoavoidafurtheroutbreakasanonagriculturalistitdoesntsurprisemeintheleastafterallgovernmenthasfailedotherindustriesinthecountryforaslongasicanrememberweek32iamconvincedthatauthoritiesintheareamustthinkthatthewayanimalswereburiedhereandpyreashandleachateweredisposedofatanothersitenearbywasalldoneasverysuccessfullyandthatthetwositeshandledeverythingprofessionallythereforethesiteswouldbemorethancapableofhandlingashfromanincineratortomethisisthelegacyoffmdiammostannoyedoverthistogetherwithalotmoreofthevillagersthisvillagenolongerhasarepresentativeontheparishcouncilbothhaveresignedforwhateverreasonandnoonewillstepforwardtotakeitoneihavesaidthatiwouldtakeasetontheparishcounciltorepresentthevillageandfightforourrightsandfuturequalityoflifeduetothisihaveuncoveredapileofclaimsandcounterclaimsitseemsthatbothparishanddistrictcounsellorsknowwhatisgoingonregardingtheincineratorandthatdevelopershavemadeconcessionstosomecouncillorsalsothereareclaimsthatthedevelopershaveofferedmoneytolocallandownersandfarmerssothatroadscanbeputinalltheseaccusationshavebeenstronglydeniedatthesametimeitisrumouredthatsomefarmershavebeenofferedlocalfieldsnearbybecauseofwhatihavediscoveredinmyowninvestigationsitwouldseemthatalotoffriendshipsgainedover20yearscouldcometoanendiamfearfulofwhatihaveuncoveredtherearealsoclaimsthatcouncillorsareonlyinitforwhattherecangetoutandarenottobetrustedidontwantthatsaidofmealsobythetimeallthisissortedoutiwillbe7075icertainlydontwanttobefightingpeoplesbattlesatthatagehoweveriwillsupportanyefforttostoptheproposeddevelopmentweek33onceagainthelargefarminthecentreofthevillagewasthevenuefortheannualguyfawkesbonfireandfireworksorganisershadbeenroundthevillageaskingfordonationstoprovidefireworksatractorandtrailertouredtheareaspickingupthingsforthebonfiredrinksandfoodwereservedinabarnafterthefireworksthisisanotheroccasionwhenvillagersandthefarmingcommunitycometogetheritisperhapstheonlytimethatthegeneralpublicofthevillagethinkaboutfmdandlastyearseventsifonlybrieflythefarmerremarkedthatisthethirdtimethisyearthattherehasbeenapublicfunctiononhisfarmthefirstwasthejubileepartyinjunethenonoctober6ththeharvestfestivalservicetheseeventskeepfarminginthepubliceyeweek34ihaventwrittenbeforeabouttheproposedbuildingofanincineratornearbytoburnthecountieswasteifasweallsuspecttheincineratorisbuiltthentheodoursplusthedisposalofashtothefmdwastesiteisalegacyoffmdparticularlyregardingthenearbyburialanddisposalsiteweek35thisisweek35ofthisprojectandformostofthe35weeksihavewrittenthatiamnotconfidentofthefuturetherearenumerousreasonsforthismainlythesituationinthemiddleeasttodayitravelledtokeswicktodosomexmasshoppingiwasgivenalifttherebyaneighbourwhoisinhis30shewasveryupsetabouttheterroristsituationnotonlywasheconcernedabouttheterrorthreattothelondonundergroundbutthethreatclosertohomeasregardsaplanecrashingintothenearbysellafieldcomplexwedontknowtheeffectthatthisconstantbadnewshasonpeoplepeoplewhohavealreadygotseriousworriesegfamilieshousingfinanceetcmustfeelreallydepressedaboutitallweek36neartothenextvillageisalongestablishedfarmofmanyacresrecentlythefarmsstockofanimalsandmach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armertodaywhotoldmethathedseenareportbasedonfindingsbytheeuanddefraitstatedallthethingsthateveryonewhoisanagriculturalistandthosewhotakeaninterestinthecountrysidehadbeensayingaboutwhatwaswrongwiththehandlersofthefmdoutbreakitjustprovesthatitdoesnttakeanacademicgeniustoknowwhatshouldhavebeendoneatthetimeeveryonecanbewiseraftertheeventbutstatementsbythenfuandindividualsattheonsetwerenotheededforexamplethemovementofanimalsshouldhavebeenhaltedsoonerandthearmyshouldhavebeenbroughtinmuchsoonernowthequestionofvaccinationrumblesonshouldweorshouldntwevaccinatethereisafearoftheoutbreakagainparticularlywhenthefindingsofthe1960outbreakwerenotimplementedsincethesadnessoffmdtherehasbeenquiteafewinstancesofsocialisingatthefarmsuchasharvestfestivaljubileepartyandalmostanyexcuseforashindiggoodtoseefarmersenjoyingthemselvesweek52metoutlocalfarmerwhotoldmethatthereistobenewlegislationtodisposeoffallenstocknolongercanafarmerburyfallenstockonhislandbutmustnowprovideanincineratortodisposeofdeadanimalsthismustbeacostlybusinesscoulddeadanimalsnotbetakentoacentralpointandburnedweek54onethingaboutfmdwastheeffectthatithadonthepoachingfraternitylivinginaruralareaweexpectthistohappennobodyseemstomindthatafewrabbitsandpheasantsgomissingwhatisreallyalarmingistheuseofdogsandhighpoweredriflestopoachdeerfmdputastoptoallthisnowaneighbourhastoldmeofpoachersneartothevillageusingriflesandshootingdeertheonlypeoplebenefitingfromthisarethepoachersandhotelierswhoreceivethesedeadbeastsandnoquestionsaskedalsothedangerofvillagersbeinghitbystrayrifleshotscausesalarmtoothersweek55ithinkthatthereisalotofjumpingonthebandwagonnowthatfmdhasclearedupforinstanceilistenedtoaninterviewonthelocalradiostationgivenbyahotelierthingswerentgoingwellinhisestablishmenthavinggotoverfmdanditsimplicationsvisitorswereslowlyreturningtotheareabutnotinsufficientnumberstocausegreatjoy
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work   practice  becoming less  less fmd orientated  time goes  licensing  restocking visits  drawing   close    starting  return  normal vet work  life    settled since  end  fmd although   never  real threat  redundancy    great deal  uncertainty    form work  take   outbreak   never clear whether    based   practice  working   defra vet  month  month now    finished  hope  practice   work can get back   routine   least knowing  ill  based  day even    calls  going  come   regard  fmd  biggest influence     moment    last week  acting   listener  farmers  still talk    defra  great deal diary 2 mon shap restocking   justify visit wed melmerby  went  see  farmer  week    first inspection   sentinel animals    restocking  farm  common  many farmers   unwavering   conviction   animals   deliberately infected   tony blair  defra   ultimate culprits  belief    want  put farmers   business  particular farmer made   valid point  defra co  underestimated  resilience   farming community  think      striking considering  strain        cases worse    didnt get fmd         remarkable  little  majority   clients  changed admittedly  see      professional basis regarding  animals health        whole  seem     forward thinking   outbreak many  taken    chance  increase  size  herds   eliminate many  diseases  well  fmd work   practice   fairly steady  week  number  fmd calls  decreasing one   problems   restocking licensing  tb calls       farm  defras instruction normally    farmer  calls us    can cause friction anything related  defra will put hackles  9 times   10  definitely causes stress  times  puts  diplomacy skills  good practice  sometimes feels  though  farmers just need  outlet   fit  bill  agreeing  everything  say  sympathising  usually smoothes   ends   cup  tea    feel  though    justify     much   prior  february 2001 diary 3  week   anniversary   week  went   first ip  associated slaughter pyre building etc  several times   week  found  thinking  time last year   although obviously  pleasant memories  thoughts   particularly affect    bad way  distract   work  just took  back   time    time  think  went  see  sick horse near carlisle     ip     interesting  drive past  farm  see animals   buildings  hopefully  farmer concerned  getting back  track   respect  daily routine work  getting  busy lambing time  starting  really get going   inevitable increase  calls although  can  hectic  times  better   kept busy rather     quiet  also good  actually   lambings   sheep work   two years since    apart  euthanasing sheep last year  monday  went    re stocking check   farm  farmer  convinced   given fmd deliberately   arrival   given  weekly tirade regarding defra tony blair   must  made thousands  pounds    etc etc  sometime   rising   bait  calmed   half  hour later  sweetness  light perhaps  just needs someone  let pressure    one session like   week isnt  bad considering  many farm visits   diary 4 monday brought another dressing    farmer  mentioned last week   shorter  less passionate  time perhaps hes mellowing  bit  drove   junction 40 one day   sun   reminded    similar day  year ago    count 15 smoke plumes  pyres    bit  road   said last week anniversary memories like  arent especially difficult   theyre just    lot  ways  quite satisfying thinking    happening  year ago   well things  progressed since     farmers  re stocked work  returning  normal even things like  able  drive onto farms  rather    leave  car   farm entrance makes  big difference work continues    busy   typical seasonal calls  sheep  cattle    couple  vet students  work experience  us    stop last march   couldnt take extras onto farms  us another sign   continuing return  normality  days  seems     returned      year ago   obvious legacy  perhaps  thorough  extensive clothing disinfection   farm  good habit    hard  break diary 5    work  easter monday morning   fairly uneventful    last  weeks    usual seasonal calls  sheep  cattle  nothing  stressful  tuesday    final blood sampling   last farm      still   sentinel stage  re stocking  farmers seemed fairly mellow today  spared   usual lecture attempt  argument perhaps    end   restriction   sight  test went  smoothly   didnt hear     end   week     upset probably justifiably   results still werent back  processing  bloods    responsibility      sympathise  plead ignorance  rest   week  fairly routine work wise friday  taken    big tuberculin  brucellosis test   re stocked farm      done within 3 mths  re stocking although    big job    well run farm  plenty  help   got finished within  day     delays    expected now   evenings  lighter  meant   nights  duty ive  able  get    made   welcome change   able  bike walk   fells   year    restrictions  2001 long may    weather continue diary 6 finally finished  last  restocking jobs  monday  farmer  getting  frustrated probably justifiably    length  time   taking  bank holidays etc last week meant    labs  closed   blood samples took longer  process  got  results  4 45 monday evening    attempt  create  goodwill agreed  go   farm    final check  evening  arrival   usual tirade  defra  vets came  way   slightly hard  take   said   didnt blame  personally   nice    think hope  realises   can  try  get things going faster  ultimately     hands  least  good     restocking work finished  feels  though  first stage    getting back     another sign  returning  usual   continuing pace  work nights  call    time  working rather   call free nights  summer 2001  week  brought early morning lambing  days  rest   time    busy      year  day book  full  day    seem   driving around  county   less keeping    jobs    good thing    weekend    going  go  edinburgh  see  friends    end stayed  penrith   r r diary 7    half day  monday  went  riggindale   head  haweswater   friend   come  stay   night  two  plan   see  golden eagles nesting    unfortunately      day trip  another part   lake district   weather  good   made   pleasant change  work  practice  still going flat   seasonal work  daily flow  lambing  lambing related sheep problems shows  sign  ebbing   also increasing numbers  cattle problems probably related  coming towards  spring turn   cattle    inside  6 7 months  fact       new surroundings  almost certainly adding   problems   whole  farmers  fairly pragmatic   difficulties     accept    bound   problems   restocking    whole  pleased just   stock      keen    efficient  possible whereas others will  readily go along   old farming mantra   theres  livestock theres  dead stock  quite   veterinary profession wants  encourage    call   weekend   one   busier  days  can remember    mostly seasonal farm work  although   time consuming  often quite rewarding im still surprised   number  sheep   getting called  perhaps   farmers  spent  lot  money    restock   now feel theyre financially worth calling us  diary 8 made  couple  visits  one   farmers  restocked   winter  week hes    problems  cows getting ill  generally  settling   well hes one    amenable farmers   books  never seems  try  blame anyone   troubles  times   frustrating    able     people like  id like   able  give every one   cows  magic injection  say  itll get better  unfortunately thats    works weve   lot  colt castrations    week   normal   time  year  puts  pressure  us  terms  work   usually take two vets   castration considering  busy   relations   practice  generally  good    stressful  times    whole    stress related  volume  jobs   rather  people   also    different  preferable type  stress   time   last year  least  lot  work makes us  feel fairly stable rather   terrible uncertainty  last year weve also taken   extra vet  spring     unthinkable last year   middle   week    farm visit  one   vets   local veterinary lab  discuss disease control   re stocked farm    work  disease surveillance   farm  defra funded  went  well   farmer   least felt  though   getting something back  fighting  defra   last  months   also encouraging  see someone taking   positive approach  disease control   future  cousin     friends came   glasgow   weekend  go   lake district  weather  good   whole  several people noted  good      paths open  diary 9 started  week   big tuberculin  brucellosis test   restocked farm     big backlog  clear  testing  stopped  fmd last year     catch    farms  didnt get  disease   due  test  well  testing  restocking farms    keen  keep cumbria   tb free zone     different stock coming   going   tricky mondays test  long  okay   whole  set   good   farming family   pleasant  makes  huge difference    day goes   clear   went  read  test  thursday  relief   concerned overall work seems   quietening   bit  week compared   last    now just busy rather  always feeling    one job behind   time  wednesday  thursday one   clients brought  half  dozen shetland ponies  castrate  makes  change    large animal   small enough   easily physically restrained  one person  continuing good weather made   afternoons work   ponies   practices field   pleasant way  spend   hours  cant help feeling   rain  april means well get loads later   summer     second call   weekend saturday   busy  small animal jobs   mainly left   colleague   tried  clear   farm  equine jobs calm  pretty much restored  late afternoon    wasnt called  early sunday morning another   re stocked clients   considerable trouble     new animals   becoming increasingly frustrated     try  help   medical side   animals  inevitably also get  hear  lot    worries  hopefully things will look  soon  hell  able  ride   ok diary 10   day   bank holiday monday always  good way  start  week  went   peebles  scotland   friends  go mountain biking   surprisingly empty   weekend   weather  good   didnt fall      good day  tuesday  work  usual      small tb test   restocking farm  shouldnt    long job   facilities werent great   didnt go  slickly   might  done   managed  get   one piece      worse one   colleagues went  maternity  week   part time    small animal work now  shes    next  months  means   extra vet  needed  morning  stay    small animal operations   probably   favourite sort  work   make  change     farms every morning  also good  get  bit  experience  small procedures  well   smaller animals  week  brought several interesting equine cases    hospitalise  horse    days  fairly intensive treatment  fortunately appears   made  good recovery   also   couple  horse operations   practice  week theyre generally quite interesting apart   stress involved   half  ton  horse asleep   operating table    weekend   went  edinburgh   small reunion  friends    college  although   talk   things conversation inevitably came round  work  effect  fmd   consequences  still  much  peoples minds friends  asked    last year  whether farms  restocked yet etc etc  s stuff   seem   said hundreds  times   last  months  people never seem  tire  asking     extent  dont seem  get bored  answering  diary 11  week started   big tb test   restocking dairy farm    good facilities   subsequently went  smoothly  quickly despite  number  cows involved  farmer seems   quite positive   new start    spared  lot   problems   people  experienced  restocking  terms  disease   animals everything  clear   read  test later   week  wednesday afternoon    bit   change   went castrate two ponies belonging   mother   bought two totally wild fell ponies last autumn  now  bit tamer   completely used   handled yet  went  one   nurses   senior partner    went pretty much  plan work  still busy theres one client  particular   giving us  lot    restocked   months ago   obviously  trouble lambing  sheep  got  bit trying     get    third lambing  one night  thats       suppose hes  nice man  always seems pleased  see us  helps    weekend    went  glasgow   best man   cousins wedding apart   weather  went  well  think   unsolvable problems diary 12 started  week   long visit  dairy fertility work  one   big dairy farmers  one   farmers     problems  restocking   visit  another vet usually    felt  bit  pressure   type  work    routine    potential  go quite badly wrong   whole  went fairly well   major problems  get  pretty well   farmer  always helps   makes  time go  quicker small animal work  still quite busy   two days inside  week  small animals operations  wasnt anything particularly different  unusual   still helps      one   farmers  managed  miss fmd   busy   calving schedule   moment hes tending    big calves  subsequently    lot  caesareans   week  brought  least half  dozen   two    middle   night      vets  looking sleep deprived recently    weekend   went  see  couple  friends  edinburgh  spent one day cycling  peebles   proceeded  nothing strenuous   next diary 13  week started   big session dehorning cattle   exactly technical work   fairly hard work  least  gets  fit   normally     younger age  quite     missed   didnt get  onto farms   routine work last year   whole  people  fairly well caught  now  theyve re stocked   routine work done   last 8 months      still   lagging behind    call   farmer   one    consistently  vehemently anti defra people last year  ended    caesarean   quite  long chat   conversation ended  coming round   events  last year   aired  resentments     first time  several weeks    heard  kind  talk whereas   months ago      daily occurrence  wasnt particularly aimed     practice  particular  just frustration   system   whole  went   walk  blencathra one evening   week   highlight   week     start   world cup ive   duty  w e  managed  see    last two minutes   mornings rather disappointing draw  sweden  farmers  keen  watch  matches   lets hope   many calls come    wrong time diary 14    bank holiday  monday    welcome   weekend  call  went   walk   lakes   colleague considering    bank holiday  wasnt  crowded   work  bank holiday tuesday though  wasnt especially busy   evening       caesarean   cow   go  see  badly cut horse  seem    ok  rest   week  worked  usual nothing particularly    ordinary happened  fairly routine calls perhaps    everyone  preoccupied  events  japan  korea  maybe   just    booked    11  call  friday  managed  persuade  farmer concerned  930    appropriate said         watch  second england game  managed  get finished  time    well worth   1 0 win  argentina put everyone   good mood   rest   day   weekend    first call   weekend saturday morning   busy   didnt get   calls done  early afternoon     one   quietest weekends ive     couple  things    saturday afternoon evening  sunday   calls   lunch almost unheard     check  phone  switched  long may  last diary 15 ive done two days   practice  small animals  week   usual  weather     best    bad thing  managed  go   rounds  wednesday though   managed  catch  third england match second round   come  spent   friday morning operating  two cows  one   farms     condition  part   gut displaces   abdomen   best repositioned surgically  farmer observed    probably linked  fmd last year   fmd    use  silage  keep  cows inside last summer  meant   less stored   winter    none available  feed  spring summer  lack  silage now  almost certainly implicated   problems  cows    unusual   two occurring  one farm   time seeing   missed getting fmd last year though  thought    price worth paying   actually quite  pleasant way  spend  morning hes  kirkby stephen   went  school   didnt    jobs waiting    quite  relaxed  hours  surgery went ok     half day  friday  drove  valley just beyond alston  meet one   old flat mates  edinburgh   stag weekend  stayed   old barn  middle  nowhere   wasnt exactly  conventional stag party   enjoyable     walked   nearest pub  saturday  see englands exciting next instalment 3 0 thank   much      leisurely day  drive back  penrith  ive got another night  get  head back  normal  work tomorrow diary 16  week   quite small animal orientated  ive done two mornings   surgery   consulting  usual im  meant    duty  nights  week  ive   couple  cover  people whove   holiday fortunately  nights  fairly quiet im sure  favour will  returned sometime   day work   fairly steady   quite  busy  last week  theres enough  keep us going  practice like    country tried  stop briefly  england  losing  brazil   bit disappointing hopefully farmers   rest   clients wont   depressed      good   lasted   weekend  went    place near worcester   wedding   friend whose stag weekend    last week    lot  people  edinburgh   havent seen  several years    great  catch   weather   kind  stayed dry diary 18  monday  went    big tuberculosis  brucellosis test   one  big dairy farms   restocked  months ago theyve got several hundred cows   took  lot longer  anticipated    go back  tuesday  finish  job  theyre  friendly family   wasnt really  much   chore      obvious change   since fmd      clients    disease  seem much quieter  less concerned  farming  lifes problems  general now perhaps  think   can get  2001  theres nothing worth getting stressed   comparison wednesday  spent  small animal work made  change   thursday  went back  read  cows results   tb test  negative  thursday night  drove   stay   college friend near birmingham   start   long weekend  friday  carried  south  another friend  north devon shes working another vet   area   also severely affected  fmd cumbria   badly hit   sometimes easy  forget   places   bad time  thankfully work  devon    less back  normal   spent  rest   weekend  south devon   dad   60th birthday   lucky   weather   fine ish conditions    barbecue   beach    today monday  well  spent  day driving north  far  go   weekend diary 19    short working week seeing    monday  ive also started  month back      hours  rota  week  works  month   month  system  nights  weekends    will   bit busier work  generally   bit quieter recently   fairly typical   time  year mainly  animals  outside  farmers  busy making hay  silage rain permitting weve  two vets   week  although    fewer jobs     left twiddling  thumbs     usual flow   routine farm work along  horses  small animals  nothing  taxing   whole    night  thursday  went  st sunday crag   lake district   couple  friends  brampton      remembered    didnt get     almost dark  apart   unseasonably cold surprise surprise    fine night   duty  weekend    first call  friday night     easy  calls  12 45pm  another vet     operate   dog  three   checked    530     go  calving  645 just    finished   called   badly cut horse   lame cows     bacon roll shop  breakfast     second call   rest   weekend   fairly quiet  meant   get   various mundane things like painting  house tidying  garden etc etc ideal tasks    cant  anything else  im  call   dog  well   makes  night   sleep worthwhile diary 20   another short week  monday     coming back   long weekend away work  week   fairly steady farmers  often busy trying  get silage hay    moment  routine  vet work takes  back seat  said     kept  least  busy    expect  routine fertility visits   occasional sick cow etc       restocking farms     fairly unusual diseases  didnt obviously fall   ones  usually recognise  deal    lot    bought stock   abroad     least keep  mind  possibility  new problems  brought  weve worked quite closely   local defra run veterinary investigation centre      cases  thankfully none  turned    anything   unduly worried     duty  weekend   fortunately  reasonably quiet   thing   ordinary   horse   torn  leg  quite badly   wire    bit  time  bandaging    okay diary 21 2 vets     week     bit busier   rest  us    last week    mixture  routine   standard  e type work      tuberculin tests going  still trying  clear  backlog  last year  getting  slowly   lot   will   wait   autumn winter   cows     farmers   time available  new vet  started  april  seemed  settle   well    bit   bad day earlier   week   calving  go quite  planned   easy   especially   feel  pressure   bound  happen   start  new job  reminded      problems     years ago  farm   happened  quite  understanding type   wont create  real problems hockey training  starting   seems  bit premature   season  still months away  least itll encourage     bit  exercise  get fit  matches  weather  meant  havent     hills  often     liked  hopefully theres still time    brighten   bit   weekend    couple  friends  college  now living york came  stay  went    borders   day  saturday near    used  work  doesnt seem   changed much  still think im better    despite last year diary 22    bit   rush   week  sometimes seems  happen  can  quiet  couple  weeks    suddenly  crazy  may    lot  farms  now largely got  crops    trying  catch   perhaps  just  way things go several farms   ongoing problems  week  visits  required several days running   also   large number  horse calls   probably fairly common   time  year   tend  get ridden   supposedly better weather  tend  go  afield  horses  tuesday  went  kirkby lonsdale area  morning    go north  carlisle   afternoon  miles get racked   fairly quickly   get  learn   various blind spots  phone  radio reception     duty    weekend  meant    also   monday wednesday  friday nights  werent  bad apart  friday     go  see  couple  horses   duty  three week nights tends  limit   can  apart  work   managed  meet    friends working  brampton one night  go   walk   lakes  thursday  weekend  fairly quiet      second call   found time    decorating   room   house    current project  lead   thrilling life diary 23  calm   storm   frantic levels  work  saw last week      bit  civilised  week weve  time   coffee  lunch breaks  actually talk  colleagues  time  time  wouldnt want  every week  quiet    occasionally   welcome  quite relaxing   able  go   call knowing     another one waiting  also means    afternoons  quiet one  us can usually   half day  got  nod  wednesday  went   kirkby stephen  see  folks theyve got  smallholding    various creatures  usually   ailment     bit   busmans holiday going     nice   close  tend see  every week  two  wednesday  vaccinated  couple  horses  trimmed   sheeps feet  went   joys  48 hourly surveillance inspections last year  somehow managed  come  unscathed  parish  one    ones   kirkby stephen area     weekend  went   glasgow  see  cousin     leaving party  didnt know many people     good  go   something completely removed   usual one   people   know came  stayed  penrith  sunday night    stunning day  went  lakes     best diary 24  week   first  four      rota   mean  nights   weekends  call cant  bad  monday   small tb test        pleasant farmer   cows behaved    wasnt  bad way  spend  morning hes imported  small herd  holland  seems  pleased    far  takes  bit time   f m farmers  get used   new stock     knew  old ones  well    whole people seemed fairly content   new ones   small animal ops  tuesday  wednesday  one   vets  usually     holiday weve got  new nurse starting  week     case  showing   ropes   seems     well one  best school friends got married  friday  typically   fairly quiet week  suddenly got busy  friday afternoon  managed  get  wedding    miss  afternoon reception  order  go  see  horse  appleby thats life   one   duty vets  lowther show  saturday  hadnt done       good time   generally fine weather     truly stunning teams  horses   driving event lots  competitors commented   good      show   running   last years cancellations  event passed without  major incident  vet wise     pretty calm day   really diary 25  weeks  fairly steady  seem      horses  anything else  didnt go  see  cow  friday several    ongoing cases   leg wounds   needed daily dressing changes   rest  selection  vaccinations lameness    arent quite right  quite enjoy  horse side   job    bit   usual    welcome change   planned  get  work   house  month   free evenings   doesnt really seem   worked like    know ive got  lot  free time nights tend  get booked  seeing people  home  near   ive temporarily lost touch  also seeing  summer seems   found us ive  trying  get   lakes  much  possible  house can wait till winter  weekend ive    wales  see  group  college friends  stayed   cottage owned  one   groups parents  played   rounds  golf  played  badly lost  lot  balls  became  frustrated     think  comes   lack  talent still   good  catch    people  havent seen since graduation  im sure  golf will  better next year diary 26 ive done  small animal work  anything else  week     disasters  fairly routine stuff one   small animal vets   away     cover  bit  didnt actually get  onto  farm  friday morning  gets  bit claustrophobic inside       good  get     call   weekend  also   college friend  stay    quiet    time  sunday evening   swapped duty      night  6 00pm  545 four calls  came      four corners   practice   didnt actually get finished  nearly 8pm thats  way  goes sometimes  suppose   another half day earlier   week    fairly quiet  took  bike    northern lakes    hours  blow away  cobwebs   inside  work diary 27    barbecue party  weekend  people  work   lot  friends  college    lot  people  thought id always keep  touch     time went   never    arranged  weekend  long way  advance  us   meet    28 people came     havent seen  least  year  two nobody seems   changed much    great  see     garden  house   taken  bit   pounding   think    mess  fairly superficial  went   walk near howtown today  clear  head   barbecue last night     good day weather wise  meant   lot  people     idea  us    variable week  work  days   quiet others flat  ive   ongoing case   young horse    caught   wire  monday evening   well beyond  stage      stitched   saw   itll   heal slowly  filling  wound  im sure itll  fine   going  take  long time  starting  get  lot  inquiries   new rules defra  bringing   allow farmers  bring animals    farms  isolation facilities   make things less restrictive   farmer   going      lot  inspections   since restocking checks last winter  weve really     sort  thing   checks probably wont   exhaustive       last year diary 28   fairly quiet week really    fairly standard mix  sick cows  couple  lame horses   continuation   young horse  wrecked  leg last week   going okay    fairly laid back   whole  time   coffee break   calls   done  first   inspections   new  farm isolation facilities  sheep   whole farmer compliance    good      whinges          can see    must  frustrating  suddenly  told   run stock movements  theyve always done  different way  can see  defra  insisting   though    aimed  reducing  risk   another situation like   last year      weekend one   old flat mates   wife came  stay  live  london  came north   weekend  clean living  fresh air  went  walks around cat bells  high street  saturday  sunday ate drank   generally fairly unstressed hope      looking  diary 29 ive   short week  terms  work   practice  week  ive   glasgow   equine conference  thursday  saturday  education   compulsory     formal structure     quite controversial   peoples eyes   royal college  vets  encourage us  keep   date    quota  asked  fulfil  year   three days will help  keep  track   several different courses   day  one lecture theatre  practitioner based subjects    expect  see   day  day basis  another called advanced clinical sessions  subjects  cases  obscure  youd  lucky  hear  one let alone see one     twice  didnt go  many   lectures  well   useful  terms  picking  new information   also  good chance  catch   old friends  college lots  people  hadnt seen   year  two      good  see   first three days   week  okay  went   tuesday morning  trim  lame cows feet  ended  accidentally trimming  skin   farmers thumb   hoof knife   bit embarrassing  felt  bad   didnt seem  fazed    hes   type  bear  grudge perhaps  shouldnt try  keep  knife  sharp another   weeks  interesting events   irish wolfhound  needed surgery  correct  twisted  distended stomach  fairly common   type  dog    real emergency another vet   operated    tuesday afternoon  took  couple  hours   far  seems    worth   hes done  well  apparently went home  friday diary 30  spent   monday afternoon evening irradiating   taking dozens  x rays   horses legs    sold   lot  money   insurance company wanted  check   joints  ok  insuring   took  lot longer  anticipated    difficult  get  positioned absolutely right   view   got    end     quite careful  exposure  x rays   x ray badge hasnt shown  high reading yet 2 vets     week one   honeymoon  one   away  ai  sheep  often  bit quieter now   seem    kept going    big routine fertility visit  one   dairy farms  wednesday one   main things     visits  manual pregnancy diagnosis    bad  dairy calves cows   theyre   calf   normally get another chance       beef farms   dairy cow   persistently  conceiving  sometimes  economic  get rid   cow  rather  persisting  theres  big incentive  us  get  right   least   say  cow isnt  calf    luckily    quite straightforward  week    last  going away   usa   fortnight  fly  new york tomorrow  meet    old flatmate  mine whos  journalist   im crossing  atlantic  see   hes given  directions   flat rather  meeting    airport  im arriving  premiership football   tv charming diary 31 two weeks   states cant  bad  flew  new york   stayed   friend whos working  manhattan    lot   usual tourist things empire state building boat trip around  island central park etc   size    relaxed place   lot  ways  feels  safe  although   loads going   never seem  get hassled  flew  new orleans   week supposedly   sun   deep south  landed just   tropical storm hit  mainland everything  closed  two days  bad  uk   snows   weather cleared   fine    went   tourists paddle boat   mississippi river    boat   louisiana swamps  look  alligators   bit  new orleans nightlife      days  new york  flying home diary 32 first week back  america   good trip   week   rather marred   death  one   hockey team   year mate  mine  school   tractor accident    hit   wagon    66  thursday  saw   wednesday night  hockey training    stiff  done  great north run   wife  weekend   didnt know   well  school   got    last  years via hockey   really   tremendously good person  will  much missed  lots  people   around kirkby stephen  weekends match  postponed   one   thought  playing   seems  trivial   sort  thing happens  couldnt  played anyway  im  duty  weekend  fortunately   fairly quiet  far  calving  2 caesareans   getting  calving season    par   course  first half   week  ok   even given  half day  tuesday  day   half  returning  holiday  went   walk   bottom end  derwent water   tried  sleep   jet lag diary 33  went  matthews funeral  tuesday  popular    reflected   number  people   arrived 25 minutes    due  start  still   stand    move    people tried  fit   chapel  almost seemed     kirkby  come   standstill  went  quite  long time     afternoon   went  see  parents  live near kirkby afterwards  cancelled hockey training  wednesday   seemed  soon  go   usual  decided play  scheduled match  saturday   team   opposition  two minute silence   match  ended  drawing 0 0      good close game  normally lose   team  played   competitive  fair spirit just   needed   first match back im actually  duty   weekend  one  colleagues covered      hours    go  play  cases  work   fairly steady  week im going  enrol    qualification  equine practice   next week  two im   reasonable amount  horse work   moment  will try    bit    next  months years   motivate   read   cases   find slightly  constructive ways  spend evenings  call diary 34 tb testing  biggest beef herd   post restocking test  week  600 cattle    done theres  way    done  one go      3 instead originally planned  two  ran   daylight   went smoothly   whole   least  well    expected  everything   cleared  negative  found   defra   weeks ago    actually  quite   tb cases   county since restocking  wed  clear  years previously  fmd   obviously  bit   worry  havent   cases   practice    cant stamp   new cases    found    matter  time   spreads  afield    get   county also means  will     testing   moment  begrudgingly accepted   farmers         can see    sense  humour failure   ultimately    interest  us  check   herd  free     big time commitment   dont get paid     spent two days testing  rest   week   bit  variety  saw  horses mainly lameness  also one  two   ailments    write  casebook   equine certificate im  im   lookout  suitable cases   rounds    weekend  played hockey  manchester   went  worcester  see  college friends    drive back via ely   trains  cancelled due   winds  meant  friend  stranded    direct route  cumbria diary 35  week started  monday morning  another tb test   restocking farm    big farm   one   late ones  get fmd  run    nice  quite intense family  son  taken re stocking  seriously   obviously thought    much   opportunity  start  scratch  try  eliminate    previous herd problems   consequently spent quite  bit  time advising    various vaccines available   relative pros  cons thankfully things seem   paying   far   problems  herd one   things   noticed   test    made one  two jokes  last year sorry forgotten exactly   said  thought  fact    able  now talk  fmd like      good sign   think     highly unlikely  year ago  wednesday afternoon  went   wigton  vet  horse   potential buyer   several minor things wrong    overall  seemed ok  always  responsibility vetting horses  someone  either trying  buy      basis    find   case  took quite  lot  convincing  buyer   imperfections    serious hopefully  wont subsequently turn     problem ive started   horse cases recently   tuesday sent   application form   accepted    exams  horse practice    wait  next year  find  whether ive  accepted  wont sit   2005     weekend  played hockey  manchester unfortunately  didnt win maybe next week saturday evening  went   kendal  see  old flatmate  lives  diary 36  tuesday  went  see  horse near carlisle   developed  swelling   lower jaw   fairly painful  touch     possibilities    likely      tooth root abscess  put    antibiotics  seeing    obviously  going     thought   worth taking  x rays   obvious destruction   tooth visible   x ray  probably means  needs removing    fairly major undertaking   horse      valuable creature still  training  thought  best  send  edinburgh vet school    done hopefully ill  able  go  see  done   day  twos time one   aspects drawbacks  really    vet   one  often asked  animal ailments   work im sure  happens  lot   jobs   mother   adept      really mind  elderly terrier   grew    started  one  two problems recently  suggested   possibilities  thought  best   went   local vets    looked   problem     bad tempered  terrier   couldnt safely blood sample      day   penrith     try  take blood    managed    less intact  fortunately  results seemed   less  order   least better   temper  general work   practice   fairly steady  week   farmers seem    quite   cows calving   moment    bit unseasonal   suppose  reasonable number tend  calve  year round  havent really got  calf pneumonia season yet   cant  long   start  keep us busy  will soon take   lungworm   main bovine respiratory problem  weekend    brought  victory   hockey match  start   winning streak perhaps  went   edinburgh   match  see   friends    start   week  wahey diary 37   week  cant  bad  didnt     planned due   unforeseen change  circumstances  still good     edinburgh last weekend  decided  stay    days   partly  see friends  also    referred  horse   bad tooth   mentioned last week voluntary work experience  time  dedication   rash  spent tuesday   vet school  edinburgh  one   old tutors  case   sent   successfully treated  far  removing  offending tooth    interesting  see       used  different technique   one weve used   practice  spent  rest   day    seeing  cases  felt  bit odd      student  came home  tuesday evening  went   kirkby stephen  see  folks  wednesday morning  spent    rest   week either   house  mine  things like stocking   firewood   winter sorting  house   making  start  stripping  wallpaper   hallway  normally go away   take time     actually  nice   things  home  change  made  quite  relaxing week   whole diary 38 back  work   good    week  last week  one   best things    work        never seem  feel reluctant  go back  work  think  must mean  enjoy    whole  tuesday  went back  see  horse     tooth removed last week    well   back  training   eating  well  soon   tooth came   amazing  animals often seem  deal  pain  stoically ill check   next week   things  well      tuesday afternoon  happened  see another slightly unusual case   horse   developed  lump   outside   cheek   closer inspection turned     large mass man inside  mouth  probably going     removed   come  next week     done  rest   week   usual mix   routine cases      farms  week    done     recently took   new dairy farm near appleby   went  see  cow    first time   first visit  always hope  something straightforward    easy  make  good first impression   occasion  cow   sick  wasnt really giving  many clues         treat    symptoms   showing  saw  twice  friday    saturday   evening     mend  never  reach  conclusive diagnosis   think  farmer  satisfied   fact    got better  spite   knowing quite   wrong    duty friday night  quiet   saturday apart   cow  mentioned   fairly easy going today  went   kirkby stephen  see  old friends staying   parents two weeks   tb testing itll change next week diary 39    fairly uneventful week  work  dont seem     particularly  going  notable cases   ways    bad thing   makes   fairly stress free time     can really switch     mean       fairly straightforward cases  see  possible  spend  time chatting   farmer owner without   work  hard finding whats wrong   patient  weeks  interesting case   horse  amazingly extensive arthritis   hind legs considering  age    terminal condition     implications     will  possible  use    future  situations like   can  quite difficult  give  client  right outlook  often expect  quick cure especially   young horse   tell    problem   present  months   years  will never completely go away can come   bit  shock  owner   case   sensible  seemed  taking   said  well   good thing   week   im    good run   duties ive    two nights  first call   phone hasnt gone   unusual   welcome  must  tempting fate ive   weekend     hockey match  saturday   lost   league leaders  avoided humiliation  rest   two days  spent trying  progress  decorating  hallway  friends come  stay  christmas  new year     young   spending weekends  decorating diary 40    good test   diplomacy skills  week   irate farmer   spent four hours   tb test    cold day     taken  one   half hours   rush  get defrosted   car afterwards  forgot  shut  gate   field    parked   return   surgery   greeted   news    rung wanting  head   stick  forbidding   ever setting foot   farm     tups  gone walkabout   gate id left open  advice   partners   practice  knew  better  gave   day  calm    wrote   grovelling letter   allowed  go back   end   week  read  test results  fortunately   clear  think hes forgiven  one    common cow operations     correct  displaced stomach   two   half years ive    practice weve always done  using one particular technique   circumstances  another method  indicated    seen   2 years   2  week   went well  far another two years   next  took  last day   2002  thursday   spent  decorating  thursday night    practice christmas meal  two vets  duty managed   get called     whole  think people werent  hung   friday last year    bit   debate   whether     christmas night    farmers  either just starting  restock  still cleaning   year   much  straightforward  friday night    annual night  hesket newmarket organised   local defra lab   local vets  want  meal  beers   good chance  catch    vets  neighbouring practices   informal atmosphere diary 41 ive   couple  vet students staying    week   knew      final year  edinburgh theyre  work experience  us   week    made  pleasant change    company      also acquired two stray kittens   last week  usual vet procedure  eventually finding  unwanted patient   cant resist taking    settling  ok  weve     one  two little discussions   benefits  using  litter tray rather   carpet  week  work   reasonably busy  good thing  week     three students    bit dull      nothing going     horse      week   severe respiratory infection  needed fairly intensive care  seems     mend now  may use    case  write   part   exam im hoping      years itll     new years resolution  get    writing  part   apart   horse    usual sort  mix   routine fertility visits  dairy farms   sick cows  horses etc    tb tests  week  ive managed  miss   must  saving    next year    lot  people  work   friday night  pre christmas mulled wine  mince pies im  quite sure  kittens knew   happening   think  rest  us enjoyed  ive   weekend   went   see  friend  birmingham  qualified last summer    second weekend  call   went  give moral support   call isnt stressful anymore   remember   first  times  difficult    aware   phone   time  hoping  doesnt ring  werent many calls     come   didnt need   suited  well diary 42  week  christmas   first job   week   replace  particularly contaminated uterine prolapse   cow  finally went back    hour    fairly fruitless efforts  festive  week  next   fewer vets  usual working  day       days   christmas new year   sometimes  bit busy   day  generally worth    extra time      monday night  went  kirkby stephen  see school friends back   holiday although  dont see    often   people dont really seem  change  much  good friend whose parents farm  f  m  sold    going  b b instead  think    hard decision  now  seen   quite relieved         duty  christmas eve  fortunately didnt   go   just  three phone calls  7  9 p m  people saying  dog  cat    food  periods varying  three weeks  10 days christmas eve seemed  odd time  notice   went home  kirkby stephen  christmas  boxing day  didnt really   much    look   couple  mums sheep       just  case   lazy  enjoying seasonal food  drink    duty  weekend  turned   fairly busy one   students  came  stay last week came back     call work  turned     useful  couple  cows  operate   caesar   displaced stomach  two pairs  hands  better  one  quite   small animals  see  diary 43 ive     week   new year tuesday  friday   pretty good going seen      christmas  well monday  fairly quiet  just   farm calls     small animals rather worryingly weve heard   local deer farm  one   customers  gone   tb apparently  quite   deer   herd    means  well    tb check tests     farms  neighbour  affected premises  new year  cousin  husband   five children young came  stay  wasnt  hectic   whole  just  occasional loss  humour  couple  friends  work came round  join us  new year  ive   work  weekend part   deal  getting four days  midweek    really   busy ive    second call       2 calls  far  easy return  work  new year excesses diary 44 back  normal quota  vets  work   week   good   seems     busy       usual sort  things   time  year cows starting  get lame    inside    months  metabolic problems probably related   poor silage last years summer rain created quite   farmers   large amount  2001 silage left   wasnt used  winter 2001 2002   hadnt restocked   whole  kept  well   many cases  better   crop  made last summer  fall    deer herd tb  arrived two neighbouring farms  test  week  first one  come back negative   relief   concerned    second one  friday  will read  tomorrow monday  farmers     concerned     understandable  hopefully groundless   lots  questions  asked along  lines        can answer      remind   bit  february 2001  fmd broke      sorts  queries   disease  progression etc  none  us really knew   didnt take long  us  know  answers     ive   weekend   hockey fixture list  started    christmas break  return  winning ways hopefully  continue diary 45  week   bad start  tb test   last friday produced two reactors  two inconclusive borderline reactors  means   farm isnt allowed  move   bovines     farm except directly  slaughter  licence  reactors  taken away  post mortem examination   inconclusive reactors  isolated  60 days   rest   herd  re tested  farmer   keen  get  inconclusive animals removed  well quite understandably   opinion    couldnt pose  threat   rest   herd apparently defra arent allowed     think largely due  financial reasons  fully appreciating  need  protect taxpayers money considering  much  spent  2001  think   potentially flawed argument perhaps  rules need   changed    im   epidemiologist  perhaps  dont actually pose  threat  farmer seemed  depressed     think  lot     feeling    stigma    farm  defra restrictions    also  aware   threat     neighbours   desperately keen  minimise   actually quite small   cows  still indoors   think people  still  much thinking   serious    neighbours  someone got fmd tb    different type  organism    question  getting people  understand   isnt  say     serious problem    day another farm   area    confirmed  tb   definitely progressing  cumbria depressing   can   follow defra instructions  testing  try  keep  top   one   colleagues tore  knee ligament last week  skiing  normally  mostly large animal calls seeing  hes now confined   practice  small animals ive taken  couple   farms   routine fertility visits   makes  change  spend time  farms  dont visit often although  hear  small animal nurses  quite keen  matt  get back    diary 46 one   dairy farmers    big outbreak  pneumonia   calves  week ive    farm  least  every day  week  tests weve done  usually pretty sensitive   failed  reveal    usual causes treatment seems    working   cases    others  hasnt lost   e none dead   loss  body weight   obvious     bit frustrating really hes   pleasant guy  hasnt said anything   treatments repeatedly fail  get expected  predicted results  cant help feeling   must  getting  bit sceptical    perhaps im just  paranoid   end   week  majority seem     mend  seeing   havent tracked   causative agent  hard  know  vaccination  recommend next year     tests  will come back  two weeks  may   revealing  midweek   one   fairly common operations  correct  twisted stomach   cow surprisingly    first time  dairy farmer   one done   took  convincing     good idea  persuaded someone  pay   procedure  always feel   bit  pressure  usual fortunately  went pretty well   cow   far  well    second call  weekend  turned    pretty quiet  think  must    lull  lambing really kicks  lets enjoy    lasts diary 47     testing last week    turn   week  wasnt  big one   30 cows     bit  risky  usual     herd  beef longhorns     long horns whilst trying  manoeuvre    crush  inject  necks  tuberculin  always    ready  take evasive action   made  sudden turn  dont think  ever tried  use  horns aggressively     big   become dangerous weapons    just moving normally   turned   one received  injuries   importantly  test  negative  week also brought  first lambing   year  people  done       first    couple  farms  lamb early   early lamb sales  seems  hard work   time  year   early prices  seem  make  worthwhile give  another week  two   sure theyll start  become  frequent  took friday      get  london  4 pm  get   eurostar  go skiing typically  one day   year   country ground  halt  thursday night friday  managed  make   waterloo station   find  station  chaos   eurostars   cancelled due  snow  france  least   just britain  cant cope     assured  none  run  24 hours  suddenly told us  board  1 hours late  pleasant surprise  ended  arriving  val disere  time  loads  snow  blue skies  tried  spare  thought  whoever   call  weekend  managed  just diary 48   weather almost prevented us  reaching val disere    clear   first  days    snow returned  three days  couldnt  much   time    mean    fantastic conditions   last  days    group  29  completely filled one large chalet      major skiing injuries within  group   think  good time     diary 49 back  work  week im never reluctant  go back   week   sometimes dare  say  even look forward   must   good sign apparently last week  ok  work   major dramas  still havent found   tb cases   screening continues   time one   rules  re stocking herds compared  herds  missed fmd    bovines  42 days old    tested rather  just  adults last year   werent many calves around  didnt make much difference  now  farms   least  years worth  calves  place  doubles  size   tests often calves wont fit  crushes    wild   can get quite exciting  seems  necessary policy though one   reactors  found   weeks ago   six month old stirk ive   fairly quiet week ive   couple  nights  duty    quiet theres  horse near carlisle   think ive mentioned    recurrent tooth problem  thought wed finally sorted    week  developed  problem  one   tendons   foreleg   bit disappointing   owner    bought  horse recently  order  compete    high standard   seems  permanently  training  one ailment  another  dont think   serious  hopefully  another week  two shell  back  work ive    weekend came second   weekends hockey match  real case  defeat  snatched   jaws  victory  went   walk around  great gable scafell area  sunday afternoon   amazing  much snow  ice  still left   winter weather  week   ago maybe  neednt  bothered going abroad diary 50  found another positive tb case  friday    test  tuesday    large beef herd   restocking farm including calves  must   just  400 cattle     one reactor  friday  two inconclusives    possibility     false positive  farm    big problems  something called  johnes disease   caused   similar type  bacterium   one  causes tb    small possibility   cow carrying johnes disease cross reacting   tb test injection  actually blood sampled   adult cows  tuesday  screen  herd  johnes  order  try  start eradicating   herd itll  interesting  see whether  positive test cow will  positive  johnes ultimately  doesnt really make much difference   short term  farms  placed  restrictions   affected cow   taken   post mortem one   colleagues found another positive reactor   different farm  friday  well thats three farms   practice now  around 50 60 within cumbria  big worry now     longer  stays around   likely inevitable   disease will get  wildlife reservoirs deer  perhaps badgers depending  whether  believe  badgers   influence   time will tell  im sure  going  keep us busy  several years    lot     test  monday  well   small farm  ive never     least testing  one way  getting   small farms  dont often need us  one   clear  remainder   week  spent   usual work lambings still  quite got  full swing although   seeing  slow increase   number  sheep  brought   surgery diary 51  tb testing    week    positive cases   practice  first case   found back  january  confirmed  carrying tb  week though although  bad news   farmer   quite reassuring  know   tests  methods  use  detect carrier animals reasonably accurately  week   fairly busy without ever getting  hectic  operated   cow  tuesday    number  reasons didnt go quite  smoothly   might  done  subsequently didnt   well post operatively    normally expect  coming week  see  improvement  hope  can never give cast iron guarantees   outcome  surgery    quite rare   op  fail  fingers crossed  monday    see  horse  colic earlier   week    first visit     suspicious    going  require surgery  correct  owner wasnt prepared   happen though     question  trying  manage  medically  euthanizing   wasnt  undue pain   gave   go medically  much   pleasant surprise   next  hours  visits    well just goes  show     knowing     interesting  know whether    surgical condition  somehow righted   whether    medical case  along  simply appeared  something  serious    work   hour    saturday morning  small animal consultations     rest   weekend   came second   hockey match     went   edinburgh  catch    college friends  havent seen    diary 52  week  really seen  start   lambing season  sheep every day  every  day  weve  seeing   last month    turned  one every  hours   day    night   cases  encouraging  farmers  still bringing   calling us   many feel  sheep arent worth paying vet fees   obviously creates  welfare problem  many situations  inappropriate  inadequate treatment  sometimes provided   farmer  said   can see   take  attitude   spending money    prices  often  low   aspect  lambing time   nights get  busy  monday    ewe caesarean  2am   horse   just foaled  315    hour    bed    sick cow  620 although  can   bit tiring   whole cases  see   hours    run   mill routine things     least make  interesting  isnt always  first thing   mind   phone rings  3am unfortunately  cow  operated  last week failed  improve     re operate  monday   far  ideal   carries  much higher risk  infection  first time operation somewhat   surprise  seems     well now cows seem   amazingly resilient  id  abdominal surgery twice   mucky cow byre im sure  wouldnt cope  well     op   different farm later   week  went much better id  getting worried   technique  two   row went wrong ive worked saturday morning  supposedly just   hour   turned   two   half  things kept coming   went   edinburgh   hockey came second   see someone whos left  job  go around  world  six months diary 54  beginning   week saw  visit   horse    chronic episode  laminitis  hoof condition   horses case   become  severe  really beyond  point  treatment  feasible euthanasia   best option   horse      lot  pain unfortunately  owner   reluctant    wanted  carry   treatment  sort  situation  crop   time  time   difficult   concerned   end  told  owners   thought  chances  recovery   let  make  decision    continue treatment hopefully ill  proved wrong   horse will recover   cant really see  happening  saw another case later   week  ended  going  liverpool university  surgery    small pony   managed  cut   severely  barbed wire horses always find something  injure      risk    penetrated  joint   sent   liverpool   flushed  far   know    well  far  rest   workload  week    usual stuff   time  year loads  lambing   tb tests negative generally kept busy  friday  went  edinburgh    days course  equine neurology  knew    speakers   delegates      student    good  see people    learnt   things  horses brains  nerves saturday   last hockey match   season  draw  didnt win  league   stretch   imagination   werent last either diary 55 another manic spring week goes  ive   duty  weekend   two  us  call  done  many calls   last two days  eight vets  expect    two week days   summer  havent  bored  didnt leave  practice building  lunchtime  saturday     constant flow  small animals  see     sheep brought   lambing problems  eventually left  130 p m  go  operate   cow   twisted stomach   meant   done  11   op went  ok     straight back   surgery    caesarean   whelping bitch   help   student   seeing practice  us    9 pm    variety  sick cows sheep  lamb   calf  lead poisoning   far end  ullswater      nice drive    hadnt    rush  top things     cow caesarean  9 pm    useful   student  help  day  think    bit   eye opener   sunday morning gave    caesareans sheep  time variety   spice  life  cat    mysteriously lost  leg overnight perhaps caught   trap    incredibly good health otherwise  amazing  animals can withstand   good supply   calls  keep    mischief   actually  quite enjoyable despite   hectic   think    cases   quite successful  always helps  rest   week seems  distant memory    whole          slower pace   another small tb test   negative anyway  night  tonight  need  pint diary 56 monday morning   60 day re test   first herd   found tb     sunny day    whole  test went  smoothly  farmers buildings  getting  overcrowded though      movement restriction due   tb first day started well    animals  giving negative readings   came  dreaded reaction   injections  gave   first day   four reactors  total three    borderline       obvious  frustrating thing    obvious one   borderline reactor last time  defra refused  take    isnt   policy  take inconclusive reactors found   routine test  means   animal   actually infected  left  premises  potentially infect  animals  farmer  tried  point   two months ago   avail   now vindicated   view     much consolation   fact   restrictions    continued   may well probably will  fact now   carriers  wont  found   next test  60 days time  reason   initially taking inconclusive reactors   save money   paying   animals   slaughtered  arent actually infected  cases like   seems    real false economy  doesnt win defra friends   farming community tuesday  wednesday  week  mainly horse jobs  horse   recurrent tooth problem  ive mentioned  came    x rays  finally seems    ok  competing  germany   week  two    hope  stays ok  weekend  went   walk   lakes  one   old flatmates  edinburgh  weather held   amazingly hot   time  year almost got sunburnt diary 57 ive   final year student  edinburgh staying    week  shes seeing practice  us final exams  looming   think  stress levels  rising   easy  think    things  dont know   think weve   less managed  convince     know enough     liability   qualifies  saw  interesting incident   call   early   week id gone  replace  uterine prolapse   cow  went okay   farmer  asked   falsely certify  cow  can give certificates  cows  30 months  age   bse scheme   farmers  compensated  cow    put   wasnt 30 months  another four days   understandably quite upset    let  know   sort  thing    nightmare  anyone  especially someone just starting  want  please  farmer  make  good impression   also  responsibility   abuse  ability  use  signature   end  explained   couldnt   certificate    calm  im sure vicky will  similar situations   long diplomatic  well  clinical skills develop  quickly   practice another interesting case came   thursday  year old foal needed emergency surgery   hernia  luck       first relatively quiet morning    weeks    enough vets  hand    surgery  anaesthetic  op went well   horse  gone home  weekend ive   second call  weekend  things   busy   unmanageable   2 belgian blue caesareans   space  six hours  one farm yesterday  since   just   reasonable stream  calls rather   madness  two weekends ago diary 58 following  going    course  neurology   weeks ago  case came   week   often   see neurological cases   quite  coincidence  think  must   kind  tumour   brain causing   show  various signs   unfortunately   way  firmly diagnose    post mortem     neurological cases end   alas  fear  one will   went    fertility check  one   dairy farms  tuesday  vet  normally   away   looked  bit put    turned   think hope  managed   abort    cows   seemed  cheery   time  left  suppose  understandable  farmers tend  want continuity   vet comes work continues    busy  indication   increase  daily workload   weve   introduce  specific messages book  work  theres  longer room  write people messages   day book    full  appointments  used     days   year   pages   day book  full  first day  fmd  penrith  one call   week 4 days   full  got    good sign really    think ive said    stop us   getting bored ive  three days   easter friday sunday  two friends   two mad dogs    stay  cats   impressed  good friday  went  plaice fell  accidentally brought us   much  direct route   intended      away  time   garden   patterdale hotel lifes hard yesterday  left  bank holiday crowds   lakes  went   walk   eden valley didnt see  soul  amazing  difference   miles can make  suppose  hasnt got  hills  isnt  famous   scenery  still pretty impressive  lets  tell anyone    might stay quiet  bank holidays diary 59    duty  easter monday   wasnt  hectic  fact   almost unbelievably quiet   three  us  duty bracing    usual spring onslaught      two calls     morning weird   sometimes turns  like  lambing  definitely quietening  now  5 10 lambings coming   day  turning  2 3  mostly fell sheep lambing now  tend   easier  lamb     need  farmers assistance  starting  get   horse castration season weve   odd one  two   last  weeks     five  week one   colleagues   next     terms  experience    started   together whereas   years ago    always    least one   partners  one  us  must  improving tb testing seems   calmed   bit    practice  pretty much   date     farmers start  turn  cows  theyll become  reluctant      way  spreading   county though    try  keep   date     really  going  get   hand ive   weekend     sisters birthday yesterday   went  meet    folks  lunch  sat outside  enjoyed  april sun  nice    farmers   wanting rain  dont hear  often  april   sun suits  fine    odds   bucketing   june  silage time diary 60 one   big dairy farms    big outbreak  ibr  week one   main respiratory viruses   whole  doesnt cause death   normally containable   occasion however  seems     virulent strain   caused  number  deaths   great deal  lost production  terms  lost milk  calves  thriving towards  end   week  went  shot three cows   terminally affected seeing three dead  bleeding cows   yard obviously reminded  farmer        whole herd shot    place  fmd     moved   sight  quickly  think  worst   outbreak   now    cows   vaccinated theres  one vet  junior qualified  less time     practice  started  year   ago  week  went    colt castrate together one surgeon one  anaesthetist   first time weve  done  lot   vets     first time weve  let loose   pair everything went  smoothly   looks  though  bosss confidence trust wasnt totally misplaced  friday morning    big dehorning session  one   beef farmers  fairly non cerebral type work   ok   change every now     farmer   pretty amenable sort  guy     said   weather     fairly laid back mornings work    afternoon   drove   edinburgh     bit   reunion  recent graduates   vet college    lot  people havent seen   long time    interesting  compare notes        diary 61  last weekend  edinburgh    come back  work  bank holiday monday   fairly manageable   whole   three  us  duty   morning   work  steady without ever getting  hectic    first call  1pm   surgery closed   remained fairly quiet   evening     sudden run  calls   came  one    rather  building   much  tuesday    60 day re test   second herd  cattle    previously found  reactor    big herd   took  day  get  done theyve   bit unfortunate  brought  several  diseases apart   suspected tb   re stocked one    enteric condition called johnes disease   chronic wasting problem   notoriously difficult  eradicate itll take years  blood testing  careful record keeping  get rid    frustrating      planning   post fmd period   disrupted  tb test showed   reactors  time  3 cows  inconclusive results  will    re tested   almost certainly   result   cows carrying antibodies  avian tb  causes  signs  disease  cows  disrupts  bovine tb test   good example    badly need   specific method  testing  tb   worked    moment  hopefully well get one one day  senior partner  work  supervising another vet      equine qualification  im enrolled   wednesday  came  spend  day  neil    equine anaesthetics   mainly castrates   operated  neil went   anaesthetics   student    useful  hear    detail     easy  get   habit  knowing  drugs work   dosages   actually really thinking    work   theyre better   drugs   use  useful day    made  realise ive got  lot     next  years diary 62 things  still remaining  busy  work lambing  pretty much finished now   work doesnt seem   easing  partners  decided  need another vet  help things along  final year student  edinburgh came   interview  week   looks  though hell get  job  will mean   rota will improve  hopefully will   quite  hectic   starts following  fantastically dry spring  now  wet   farmers    tearing  hair     first cut  silage  going   gathered  dry hopefully well get  dry spell  soon  ease  worries  found  potential case  write    equine casebook  week   mare  managed  get caught   wire  tear  big hole   shin   lower leg   big  defect  stitch  itll   heal   lot  bandaging  perhaps  skin grafts  always amazes   horses managed  give    horrendous injuries  fields   really doesnt seem    opportunity   clumsiness perhaps maybe  just enjoy pain  doubt    quite  bit  scanning  mares  pregnancy   moment  another thing  ive      year    past   bit daunting  times     lot  things  really  case  practising   much  possible   end   stud season itll hopefully  fairly straightforward  drove   oxford  friday evening  work  see  sister cousins friends  live    seemed  longish drive    well worth   catch     one   things  working weekends    makes weekends   much  appreciated diary 63    pleasant weekend     truly delightful first job  monday morning  cow   losing weight   last month also  reason  found       dead calf inside    spent  first hour   week pulling  bone  bone    fairly revolting job  wasnt actually something   especially resented  must mean im happy   work  perhaps just  bit weird   another fairly grim job later   week    called   4  m   foaling  foal  stuck half    dead   time  got   eventually managed  get  foal   initially  mare seemed ok  deteriorated   next 48 hours  eventually    euthanased thats just  way  goes sometimes   successful case came later   week   saw  foal   acutely lame  looked  first  though  might   infected elbow   taking samples   joint fluid   x rays  looked  though   actually  traumatic injury  stayed    hospital  four days   time  seemed  improve quite  bit   thoroughbred   good racing line hopefully   rest itll make  full recovery  win  grand national  2008    whole   bank holiday weekend  six college friends came  stay   weekend  cumbrian fresh air   pretty gloomy forecast  weather turned   well    went   lake district walk  day    pretty relaxed time except   cats four dogs also came  stay  didnt impress  cats  spent  whole time hiding   room diary 64  week started   tb test   small re stocking herd   bought  cattle   farm  subsequently tested positive  tb one   cattle   farm   tested positive   farm   weeks test   60 day re test     clear  time   obviously  relief   seeing     positive   farm last time  probably    another test  60 days  now  restrictions  lifted  farm isnt  big    tb restrictions  awkward    crippling     larger farms    room  relaxing  rules   moment though  recent news  ireland  says  think theyve proved  link  badgers makes  even  important  get    cumbria   gets  wildlife although  may well already   late    two testing days  week  seemed    lot  horse cases  wednesday  spent    day touring around cumbria seeing horses  wigton cockermouth  bassenthwaite    sunny day     pleasant way  spend  day great scenery  look  outside   driving  cases going  way   hoping   bad way  work ive   call  weekend     quiet  far yesterday  steady   reasonable number  calls  none stacking  ive done 2 cattle caesareans    farm  weekend one yesterday morning  seemed like  huge calf   one    morning   truly  freak    biggest calf    farmer  seen    result  selecting  extreme confirmation  beef breeds   pose serious welfare issues   cows    give birth naturally     fairly major abdominal surgery instead well never persuade farmers   though   consumer wants cheaper food  cheaper beef  made  bigger beef calves   seem tough   cows though      cynical diary 65  thought   interesting  see  much people still  willing  talk    2001   meeting  wednesday night   lot   conversation  routed around  subjects   come     last 18 months  often came back  talk  events  individual experiences   outbreak   stories must   told  dozens  occasions  people still want  tell    right time opportunity comes   included    many themes     come     electronic tags sheet   seems impossible  comment       seem  relevant   others   much trust   category  comes    couple  headings one   headings     knowledge  think    one    significant changes since fmd  far   farmer vet relationship  concerned defra  gone   eyed   suspicion  overt distrust  resentment   whole  dont get  much flack  veterinary gps       defra allocated jobs   tb testing   sometimes  general feeling    another task  try  wear    sent   authorities another regulation   caused huge resentment   whole animal movement licensing system   much easier now  causes fewer problems   year   ago    source  much stress    try  act  intermediary  farmers  defra  keep  sides happy  damage done   farmer defra trust will take  long time  ever  start  repair hopefully  trying      side  defra seem    trust    us   preserved    quietish week  work maybe  theres   bit  silaging going    farmers havent got time  routine work   time    bit quieter  summer lull hasnt materialised   yet  year  fact  taking  another vet  ease  workload   mention  last week   meantime  nice   time  draw breath  enjoy  sun   day  two diary 66  week seems   gone   pretty quickly maybe   im  holiday next week   thought    spurring    fly  split tomorrow   week  sailing   croatian coast   college friend   relatives itll   change  cumbria one   big dairy farmers  away  thailand  week  farm  left   run   usual workers   brother  mother despite   felt    take  mobile phone      rung twice   week   asked    done   couple  sick cows  suppose  either demonstrates extreme dedication   inability  forget  work       also shows  committed  lot  farmers      just  job    farms get bigger  concept    cows  individually known   farmer    friends becomes increasingly unrealistic    majority  cases theyre  just milk making machines   cared  pretty well   hard  see     hard  people  lose  herds    bit quieter  work last week  suddenly seems   become  hectic  work   week  havent   particularly time consuming jobs just lots  sick cows horse calls   usual mix  animal ailments  better   busy  quiet though  think  need  holiday  ill keep  phone switched  diary 67  week  work  go sailing  croatia easy life  meeting    boat   rest   group  starigrad  sailed  vis   fairly direct head wind   took quite  bit  tacking    bit   rough ride  also  stupidly underdid  sunscreen  managed  burn  back  careless   got less uncomfortable   week went   spent two nights  vis harbour   others   already  sailing   week wanted  rest  used    military island    definite signs   around although   obviously developing  now rapidly growing tourist trade  vis     hvar   anchored   small inlet   miles   town   night   went  hvar town   look around  castle   hill   impressive   town still feels  though   relatively unspoilt   moment  last couple  days  spent making  way slowly back  split  actually spent  last two days  split     strong northerly wind brewing       bit rough      uncle    skipper  board    croatia   last three years  said    noticeably  busy  year  seems  shame  spoil    tourist facilities    contributed    built  going  hopefully  wont   dramatically changed diary 68  week started  9am monday   tb test  one    basic run  farms  go     first time id    three   half years  working    dont make huge use   veterinary services one   bullocks  7 years old   casually asked   plans     seeing    missed  30 months cut  time  human consumption   told   just kept   friend   bull  test   slow   cattle handling facilities    best   planet    pleasant people  talk    soon became apparent     little time  defra nothing unusual   son  one   people     firearms confiscated  making threats   start  fm d  still felt resentful   way  police became involved   way   ultimately given  choice    came    farm  check  stock fortunately   cattle  negative  tb     need   add   distrust  defra  putting    restriction  rest   week   fairly steady theres  enough going   keep us busy without ever  frantic  horse  saw last week   neurological problem  become  bit worse   gone  edinburgh vet school  see one   neurologists    seemed fairly confused    well     say  found quite reassuring  weekend   bit   strenuous side  cousin    keen cyclist persuaded     good idea    big cumbrian yorkshire bike ride  went  penrith  alston  barnard castle  tan hill refreshments  kirkby stephen  penrith  saturday   recovered  sunday  seemed like  good idea   time    really feeling  now diary 69 looking back     quotes   recovery section   notes   meeting  noticeable  easy    forget   least    ones mind  much  affected  lot people  almost hard  remember  much   affected    know      unpleasant tasks   supervising slaughters  day  day work  often  frustrating   felt people overseeing  work  offices didnt really know    like   field   feel now    whole  work  finished life pretty much went  maybe  isnt actually  true reflection       just     detailed memories  fading often things dont seem  bad   actually    look back    know plenty  clients colleagues  friends whose lives  completely overtaken  fmd  perhaps mine     remember   also feel     people   remember   heavily affected  now   less completely   one   farms  went   week lost  son   road accident  two months  getting fmd  think  farmer  ready  give  everything   apparently  left  cleaning    farm  took  interest  anything time obviously helped  hes  back milking    sic last year   half   still changes though  seems  much quieter   laid back now   cow isnt  calf  things dont go quite right  doesnt seem  get stressed now      done work    bit quieter  week    expect   time  year one   farms  put  pedigree belgian blue embryos   limousin cross heifers  theyre starting  calve now   need caesars   calves  almost  big   heifers  produce    thing   said      can     sensible time  day rather   two   morning   know  theyre due diary 70 one   five categories  raised   meetings last month  trauma  one   subsections   chart  sounds smells visions sights  probably   frequent reminder  fmd now   certain bits  road   memories  example driving north   m6 just south  penrith   possible  count smoke plumes   20 pyres  one stage  fine days  always reminds      drive  stretch one farm   remains   pyre   started   built  never finished even things like driving across two lines  tar across  road   held   disinfectant mat people  didnt live    time wouldnt even notice    seems quite significant   rest  us  doesnt really bother   just   reminder   went    times  seems odd  quickly things  gone back  normal even something  simple   road  mud  animal muck    2001    stuck  like  sore thumb    warranted urgent action now im used  driving  dirty car   clean  sometimes    roads caked  dirt  difficult  imagine   farmers kept  clean two years ago    obviously    reminders people never tire  talking      day  day visions  places    regular work    bit quieter  week     caesar   cow    truly ridiculously enormous calf  need  move away  breeding continental beef breeds  go back  nice compact jerseys  aberdeen anguses  also saw  unusual neurological case   horse   uncoordinated   poor balance   kind  case  brain spinal scan   useful   facilities arent really available  horses  will  interesting  see   goes   next  days diary 71  last diary  18 months seem   gone  quickly things seem  much back       odd  think back    going    first started writing   think   pretty much   swing   restocking checks   endless blood sampling  sheep  last restocking checks     16 months ago  seems far longer although  say things  back     im sure   actually  lot  differences  just   dont notice   im used   things  now  practice  become  lot busier  october well    nine full time  two part time vets pre fmd   seven full time  two part time    increase  equine  small animal       farm practice part    directly linked  fmd eg  tb testing due  re stocking tests  re stocking  brought tb   county  factors arent  obvious   unquestionably fmd related  restocked farmers went back   stock   originally   overall   greater density  stock around  animals means  sick animals  means  calls   vet   shame   ways  see  small traditional farms  forced    hard  see   can manage  margins get smaller  larger neighbours get  stock   land fmd   way   several   smaller farms    bought   neighbours  none  sold  single units  ive said  recent weeks  time  year  usually quiet   become  bit less frantic recently   traditional summer lull hasnt materialised ive   vet  four years  last three   just   interesting  challenging       professionally  socially   point  view  living  penrith obviously fmd  devastating effects  thousands  people many     friends   whole  see   residual scars   still talked   less  less  time goes    one farmer  actually said   think  hindsight     good thing   im  sure   ever say    brought  much stress  sadness   many people     happened  think  much   benefit  hindsight im glad     chance   involved     start    recovery
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            information  diarist date  birth 1966 gender f occupation group 6 geographic region north cumbria diary 1 monday   usual long hard grind  accept     put  10 12 hours   dont mind   work    physically  mentally taxing    hate    lunch break just  little bit  selfish time  site   cigarette take  dogs   river see  horses whatever   resent  fact  w one   bosses almost always gets  lunch hour b   boss  gone  tremendously   opinion   way   gets    work  starts early finishes late hates derfa paperwork  rarely complains   definitely grinding     work like   least 4 days  week     huge advantage  last year  part time  work  days  obviously arent     used      get away   phone   demands  clients    clients   selfish   hadnt noticed   seem  think     ones   hassles  defra  remember saying  one complaining  problems  licensing    lucky   problems   one licence  first day  movement licenses came   applied  26  received  explanatory notes  defra    complete  paperwork 4 days later anyway managed   three final visits  complete    paperwork  9pm kirkby stephen  buzzing today  auction reopened   cattle sale  main street  full  shiny farmers  fish  chips   back lane  full  shiny  new land rovers  trailers trailers mostly new  fact mc told    soon   heard  bloods  come back clear restocking  washed  changed  went   mart  said    first time   felt clean since  day   infected  felt ok  go among  farmers  surprised      easy going  takes    stride   still says fmd    terrible  testicular cancer  hes right ad  one    final visits  doesnt give  bugger  anything happy  become  flower power farmer  doesnt care much   sheep  individuals   just numbers just  well    batch  bought  wales  sheep   legs  teeth  cant see  lasting long pissed    missed bryan adams concert  newcastle couldnt finish  time  join  bus  rest   lassies   brilliant time   least tracey benefited   ticket   go back   work  next day  finish  defra reports  fax   went  playgroup  talk  pets took  dog lurcher  childs rabbit dodgy combination     kids seemed   pets     lot   referred  granddads dogs  uncles cat   left college  pet population  increasing whats going  happen   next 15 years sister phoned worried   horse   haematuria im worried     tumour  feel  far away  helpless  things like  happen even though   lives  yorkshire im sure   help  whatever  outcome   lived closer  fact  think  miss  family  now   ever   dont know    age   thought  m   60    didnt see  much   last year  just    son now  can understand  mothers families feel  miss sisters   still dont phone  much  always think theyll  busy  can talk  mam three  four times  week  half  hour   time without thinking twice  must get fed  hearing  go     work etc   loves hearing   every tiny detail  sons antics  achievements will broached  subject   partnership   dont know   think   obvious thing      years ago    taken  hand   even 10  20 im just   excited          change will   better  will    better vet  will  spend  much time  figures  paperwork will  become  commercially aware   want  change can   bothered   extra hassle   ok    career   wife im trying    sometimes badly diary 2 mondays  shite  starts  busy  gets worse  cant   time management  bit better   look    might finish around 630  one stage   afternoon    called    calf  didnt really need  visit  6pm  night w said never mind youll  picking son  anyway  childminder lives   next door farm  hasnt got  clue   picked son      anges   8 hours  feel guilty enough  hes away   8 hours partner always picks    530    cope    well   get home   hard work    us   full day  work  partner  usually knackered  ready  peace  quiet   gets home   tired hungry wee lad anyway  ended    farm tour  night farmer   proud   new pedigree belgian blues   new shed hes  lucky  get    commercial stock   father     idea   past history hes  nice lad    producing  stunning beef calves    taken   least hes young enough  get going   hasnt said much  loosing  stock   havent asked    chat   aunt one day     upset   upsets   hate  people get emotional like   start filling    got back  find  sheep caesarean still   waste  time premature lambs  born alive 3   dead   finished stitching  uterus   put  tin hat   day  assistant   mother  prattled  nothing much   way   op    head     century away     outlook   still come away feeling     one   got   wrong maybe    dinner   table  shirts ironed etc  dont want   like  though   cant even sympathise   even though  lost   sheep im sure  must  taken  badly   dont think   ever let  feelings show  public something   way  spoke suggested    forcing   put  brave face  look forward probably    sons sake watched rural lives   tuesday cr came  well  though  couldnt help  snigger   slaughter team  discussing one   clients  made  kids carry away  dead piglets  theyd  slaughtered  team thought   terrible   knew  kids   help   farm  know   pigs go  kill  family even started   little slaughter house  cutting plant  fmd  dont think  kids   horrified sad maybe   felt sad   last year sad   healthy animals culled  sad   people caught    mess one disease   cure  worse mostly though  get angry   hear  talk  fmd  get angry  defra let us    politicians got  closely involved nothing happened fast enough  didnt seem   able   anything  knew  little  struggled  get reliable information  still get wound  thinking      marginalised  defra  felt     us   farmers versus derfa   three groups versus fmd  rumours  abounded just magnified  feelings  talked  length  fmd defra etc within  practice    clients    still talk    day even now  many things  unresolved   lost faith  defra especially since  changed  name    agriculture now  im glad    ignorant  politics   long     shining lights   government im heartily sick  authority interfering  regulating stuff thats going along quite nicely let  interfere  stuff thats  harm bad farmers need  shake  sheep dealers need  think   animal welfare   way things  going  good guys  toe  line will end  following   rules  regulations set   sort   bad guys  will  bother diary 3 possibly  best bit   week  sunday   eventually  13 months got back   horse  15 minutes    nerve wracking  thought  might just throw       tense actually     felt     forgotten   ride  stayed   field thinking    safer    two horses  flying   annoy us im  frustrated   havent  able  get  fit   start   endurance season theres  way wed  able  go   first ride  ullswater  theres  one   cumbria  year due  fmd    thought    still  curtailed  fmd    year   young horse   interested  saddle  bridle   put       ok  first   frightened  move      realised   ok  monday    strange request  go  hold  old pony   knacker  shoot  owners just didnt want   around    lovely morning   led     bite  grass   arrived   barely manage  breathe  swallow    time  cant believe   tumours  taken hold   since  turn   year mr  couldnt tell  wife  diagnosis initially   hadnt got  losing   pedigree sheep    taking  people  long time  get   loss  think  easier  get  losing  animal      one  helps  keep  focussed   living rather   dead  farmers havent  able  get restarted    ready      c d requirements anyway  knacker man told  good tales theres   nutters  shooting animals  even   guns taken   poor lad  given  days notice   knackey   part   slaughter team       paid  normal wage   boss collected   defra rate      good talking   probably   dont really know   didnt feel    upset    wasnt like  client   lost animals sometimes  hard  know   say  people get upset sometimes  enough  listen one    awkward situations  found    talking   farmer  lost  stock     depressed  started crying  cows   gone  see   gone last year   wouldnt    problems  also   unable  sell sheep   farm  completely overstocked overgrazed   little silage left  couldnt understand    still overstocking     sold sheep  cattle  restocking   slaughter quite easily   last  months maybe  just couldnt face  hassle  getting licences  maybe hes just  far   think straight  usually mention  sort  thing  b  w   think  important  everyone   practice knows whats happening  just   patients  also   clients diary 4    honour  completing  final final visit today    one   neighbours  soulby   surveillance visits poor lol couldnt find  defra paperwork     looking   files  found copies   valuation report    old cows   think  brought   back hes trying hard  move    understand   bitter since  whole  good milking herd  taken   dc  think  may  survived   infection  half  mile away   cows   ip land joined  watched  load   cows  coal wagons  s saturday afternoon  fact   midnight   last de tox wagon left  can   clean   cant even get  wellies clean   dark  hes worrying   new cows coming  holland  thinks   long way    travel   cant wait    arrive unlike  wife  thinks    restocking  going  fast  felt apprehensive    fortnight ago   feeling  subsiding  day  day normality  work  returning sheep  permitted  visit  surgery  treatment      much  normal march  wed  last year even though   still thousands  sheep missing   practice farmers  still bringing  lambs  value  stock  obviously   prime concern  theres life theres hope  wouldnt see ewes  lambs     cost  treatment versus  animals value  weighed   worried      flare  around lambing time theres  chance     fell sheep  exposed  fmd  theres  risk  virus recrudescence  times  stress    thinking    made   lambing  wed definitely  ok  weather  cheered    week everybody smiles    sunny  tempting  think  days  home  holidays   weathers  nice diary 5  forgot  april fools day   first time ever    busy  work       bank holiday  anything else   resent working bank holidays  monday   day    call b  offer      day     caesarean   cow  lambing  130   another call  6   hed  knackered enough   pay    days work    fair   give  days work   phone rang early tuesday   felt   id    bed 2 hours   regretting  passing   night duty  belgian blue calving caesarian mentally checked  kit   car  driving  ks definitely caesarean  shouldnt breed   cows  theyre  mature  getting loads  bother   new stock never mind  proper veterinary work anyway  heifer   right bag started  lying    doped    got    got  calf    tried  lye    wound peritonitis  follow  doubt  warned  farmer      calm   maybe none  us  really awake   made partner late  work    left holding  baby    well late setting   see  sister sister sister didnt mind  partner s bosses said   ok   still felt guilty   great time  sisters   bit  touristy stuff  found  really nice book  mams birthday  mrs herdie  used  holiday near home mam   watercolour     book   wildflowers  sister phoned  say horse  worse  think sister    wanted  go  yorkshire   heard  upset   sisters   close  twins   can understand  sister s going    horse  deaths door  didnt want us  go  said   drank  much red wine instead  watched  start  papillon good film    knackered though  stamina gives   lot sooner   influence  alcohol mams birthday   queer day  rare   get  chance  spend time     siblings  home     lovely day apart   fact     waiting  hear   going  happen  sister  phoned  say hed  put  bladder tumour  think  must  pretty rare  still said  shouldnt go  sister   easily gone  mam  lynxes  school hols jammy teacher  stayed  till quite late    brother  stepfather wanted  see son    excited  see  sometimes  just makes us  laugh    depressing start   day back  work just   month ago  amputated  dogs leg  leg  fractured  6 months ago appeared  heal   suddenly worsen  suspected  bone infection   didnt respond  treatment   x rayed     looked like  bone tumour   well   operation  last week   developed  hard knobbly swelling near  shoulder   lungs  infiltrated  felt  sad     family    lovely placid   brave dog    just  unfair  dont want  give    cases   feel  euthanasia   poor treatment   case   wanted     couple  years  never   put    family   ghastly op like amputation    known    get  little benefit  farmers son  worked  dog   retired  conspicuous   absence hes rebuilding  milking parlour ready  restock   sister   honours  came  help    switch  party mode sons 2nd birthday  sandpit   roaring success    trike  cake  grandma  granddad    super relaxing day mostly outdoors  weather makes life  lot easier  couldnt  coped    little boys inside escaped   horses  asby  take water   peaceful   ive really missed  able  go    last year theres still yellow tape   gate   dont even  livestock  wonder   defra thought  field belongs   get  riding  next week   bit  luck   bit  spare time  think ill   shelve  plans  show  arabs  havent got started soon enough diary 6  new vet started  week bright young enthusiastic  full  new ideas  feel    touch  didnt go   cpd courses last year     year  felt     unclean     tired  working  long days  seemed  much hard work  organise extra childcare etc  allow   go away     day  feel   touch generally though   lot       working part time big day  wednesday sons 1st morning  biggins nursery  think  new hobby  worrying     right thing setting   new extra  expensive childcare arrangements  think  feel guilty     benefit   extra work  now going  cost   extra 750  ride  horse   wednesday    starting  break horse   well   cant handle  4 year old horse   2 year old boy around anyway  nursery seemed  big hit     first ride   ashby fell  actually went   track   dowly tree instead    road   horse  quite anxious leading   two   bit excited      open space   fell     seems   just one lot  fell sheep    must  hs  think nobody else  started  heft sheep   yet  dowly tree will  looking sad  lonely   bit longer   missed     fell  much margaret little asking   going   village hall quiz  friday probably    going    meal  partner s birthday felt guilty   supporting village activities  started justifying     hate  though  people use fmd  make  feel bad  kept saying      last year  nice      village  get together etc  true   cant get babysitters  nights    everything  partner  way  important   village quiz  put     lot  shite last year  never complained far  tolerant    lovely meal   friday night son slept   ts   first time  ages   couldnt   lie     judges course   arab horse society  really enjoyed    arranged  last year     postponed due  fmd   worth waiting    couldnt  gone last year even      went  see sister  sisters boyfriend  sunday seemed  spend  day  fed shes like mam son took  real shine  sisters boyfriend  entertained us   seems   coping ok  horse s demise martin  cleaned  one   shoes  mounted    plaque hes  thoughtful diary 7   decided    happy  dry days   can ride  work  horses son   can get outside  play   hes happier  people  come  work   smiley  good days  son   went   birthday party  week    brilliant time   felt    place everybody else  immaculately dressed  made   son     rush back    bonfire  burn   old hay  musgrave field  quickly wash  change id rather  carried  tidying   field  still  real mess   least    grass seed now   better grow  price     really pleased  horse  wednesday hes coming  quite nicely   lunging now  seems   quite amenable dental appointment  friday  hope  dentist never retires  dont think  make dentists    interested  people   teeth  money    always   good chat     carried   discussion   working conditions comparing    sons etc hes  vet    quite surprised   told    partnership talks last time    good heart  heart     threatened redundancy   wonder  feel confused   future  times nearly 2 years ago     maternity leave  thought  might   make  redundant now  want  release  bit  capital  take things easier  want   buy   time last year  didnt know  partner      job now    decide  commit    least 20  years   vet went   girls  work   40th didnt really want  go   course    great time   got   think   got    habit  evenings  still cant get used   freedom  mobile phone gives us  spend   time checking  theres enough signal battery etc   hell   hangover  much draught coke hell  worse  cider diary 8  shit  hitting  fan   problems   imported dutch heifers   waiting   especially   particular farm  managements   best   father takes  advice   feed merchant  us vets   obviously  viral infection going   heifers  farmer b presumed   already vaccinated  documentation   also showing signs  gastro intestinal upset    management oh hell    buy 80 first calvers nobody  willingly put    stress new vet  interested  b  w  obviously trying  keep  distance theyve  embroiled  herd problems   farm    now obviously  senior vet  charge   problem  im  even  work every day   much  new vet  cope    farmer will get pissed  soon   bet  us  catch  flak cheered    1 hours  r r   horses  wednesday lovely day rode  onto  common    hard work    two horses  shouting  daisy   time      horse decided     bobbly   worked   im getting confident   know   mind works    bit   stand    made sure  didnt turn   battle       asked   end   finished   good note  think  will  quite satisfying bringing    even though  going  take months   rate  people work  young horses twice  day hes lucky   gets trained twice  week work  really settling  now  lambing time rush  passed   catching    tb testing  defra   bit  taxing     young animals   restocked herds   people  fairly well organised   going  get    herds done  turn   wonder  defra   recommendations  catching wild limousin heifers   middle   field probably   dont think  far ahead diary 9  hate mondays   supper  1145 pm    problem   mobile     call  hate mobiles  well   went  calve  cow one   half hours   first call came     mad firstly   dont make  clients wait  long   emergency  become  disaster  second  ws wife   idea  passing jobs     got another vet  go since   obviously busy   just passed  message   new vet  let  sort    ws wife gets paid    phones anyway alls well live cow   tremendous bull calf  one   easiest caesareans   done  ages b  w seem  forget     business  reputation  stake ultimately  buck stops      seem    enough  business management  hassle  last  lifetime last year  done  lot  damage   lot  people  know    lot less tolerant   used    week started badly  improved farrier came  trimmed  3 horses bollocked    hadnt  seen    year   tidy   bit  though   lovely afternoon  rheged  mam  started going  fmd      sort  neutral non agricultural ground  sat  chatted  son played   soft play centre everybody happy unfortunately  went    worst dose  food poisoning   ever      night went  work late  wouldnt  gone   except    2nd tb  test     restocked farm  couldnt bear  start  whole thing   recovered   afternoon went   even managed  dehorn 10 cows  thought  b sending fragile young new vet  help spurred    bit   knackered   finished took  another 2 days  recover horse  well bridle  saddle  now looking grown  im quite proud      chilled  today  tried long reining   confused      sensible norleen   didnt go   1st date   rochdale show  still didnt feel right  partner  going  fit  new fuel pump   car    started  feel ill    waste   saturday  made    show  sunday pretty good ridden classes    senior  hand classes   laughing      practice   two years worth  young stock  weve never seen due  babies  2000  fmd  2001  felt really   touch     imported stallions  mares   havent seen      brilliant day diary 10 whats worse  working  call  mondays yes working bank holidays  hoped  shut  12 ha ha  got home  lunch  2pm b kindly took  phones   couple  hours   afternoon  long enough  go anywhere    back  working  tea time  car failed  mot   back brake callipers   gunged   mechanic says  disinfectant    bloody defra  bet theres  chance  compensation    wouldnt   bad     practice car  now  im part time    paddle   canoe   local garage owners warned us last year   things  happen      felt obliged  drive    voluntary disinfectant sites  doesnt look good   local vets arent disinfecting  beautiful old audi god knows   horrors  lurking   fam  spilled   boot etc hell  makes  mad   destruction physical  mental     little  say     well  car spent  rest   week   garage   used borrowed wheels went    wee talk  stainsmore pre school  partner s transit van  professional  children didnt care  just wanted  meet  dog son missed  birthday party   saturday    still  work  guilt    knows  missed  lovely day  sunday   horse went   three hour ride   county durham  trailed round arable fields  nice lanes   different    horse   absolute saint    well    shoes   really  us proud diary 11 got  car back  cheered   bad news   imported heifers two   died  least  pm exams  sampling  free    restocked herd farmer getting angry now  dutch farmers  taking    new vet  unfair shes spent hours checking   cattle  taking samples didnt get  usual r r  wed absolutely piddling  started sorting    jobs     avoiding  sort  used    wet sundays now will become wet wednesday jobs called   work  coffee  ended    call   afternoon  interesting job  went  sedate two horses   dentist   absolutely fascinating son  another 2nd cousin  week  family  really sprouting   tough calving thursday night torsion   uterus  can   now  used  absolutely dread  unfortunately shed    long   calf  born dead heifer fine though  hate going   farm  farmer   right old perverted slime ball  ill dance   grave started   real head cold h crap went  see mam  stewart son  top form  brilliant seeing  interact   family   really strengthened  bonds   family son fevered  night starting    cold  presume  sleep   partner never seems  hear   commotion still felt ill  saturday sister  sister s birthday  least  remembered  post  cards  plenty  time  year went shopping  wallpaper  sunday  cheer   partner went  pest controlling   dogs  went   tubbys wood  found nothing   least  dogs   good ratch  says   now feels ok  walking across fields  didnt even realise   still felt   couldnt go round   old haunts  must talk  diary 19 tb test cancelled  monday  thursday  week   farmer cant cope   extra hassle hes  bit   woman   best  times  hes  even worse since fmd w   understanding  seems    farmers measure b didnt seem  understanding  upset  wednesday afternoon    put    terrier   took   chased  neighbours sheep   second time  cant understand   went  strange  used   fine  stock    miserable afternoon waiting  partner  come home  bury  id    good morning   horses  dizzy  horse   going well  felt better  partner came home  said id done  right thing   felt  though id failed somehow    never  happened   first place maybe     nothing   last year  interesting walks  rabbiting etc  dont know diary 20 brilliant time tues wed went   sisters  mam  son  much easier  keep  touch   family post fmd  hardly went anywhere last year  went shopping  edinburgh mams looking   outfit   brothers wedding unsuccessfully  far ive just realised   havent seen brother  wife   farm since fmd broke   must go soon   brilliant place  recharging batteries     best bit   step family  didnt go   cumberland show   horses  havent got back   swing  things yet  think    bit   washout without  farming side   rained  offered    biosecurity officer   local show     get things   running properly   money  trophies donated last year  new cattle classes     real interest  fat cattle classes  young handler classes now defra  bastards managed  put  committee  diary 21 sprayed weeds  field  depressing day  week  never going  recover properly  landlord arrived  wed just finished  first half  said hed decided  reseed   august  much discussion  persuaded      waste  time  money  put horses back   newly seeded field  winter now im worried   happens  spring will   terminated  just moved  another field  wish id moved  horses   usual time 1st april   wouldnt   caught  among ips  dcs something will sort   always  dairy 22 excellent week   malvern  friends   national arabian horse show son went   grannies   holiday    marvellous time  three days watching   beautiful horses  came back absolutely shattered diary 23  probs  work  new assistant shes  bit whiney shes always bending  ear   nearest receptionist    sick b  offered   12 month contract  whether   shell accept   another matter    can gather shes going  end   better working conditions   ws   happy     neither    willing  grasp  nettle theyve  backed  since last year  cant wait  get  home   cant step  since theyve changed  minds   partnership  im  part time good weekend lowther  saturday didnt see many   usual faces   thing  spoiled    mud  brought    fair share home  son   pushchair  biosecurity pressure washer anywhere diary 24  assistant  holiday  2 weeks things seem  like old times  cages arent full  animals  drips im working extra days  enjoying   tiring  good highlight   week  thursday brough show  werent many farmers   loads  horses  ponies instead  sheep much talk  defra regulations none complimentary  just wasnt   without  sheep  felt flat  wonder   gimmer lamb sales will  like diary 25 knackered dont think   cope  full time work   new vet still  holiday felt guilty  son  farmed   week  managed  work     charity horse show  saturday  tried  hand   organisation  three  folk  still ended  sorting    insurance  rosettes   changed  date    less time  organise   wasnt advertised    worst show weve ever   takes  much time  organise          many  felt  disappointed  thought     real good turnout  time    cancel last year oh well theres always next year ill need  make sure  dont change  date    least  might  able  take  horses next time decided  cheer    taking  horse   school  round  jumps   sunday   couldnt catch   must  known   just put  tin hat   weekend diary 26 two trotting meetings  week  landed      nights  call another bank holiday   time      take son    partner  grouse beating  meetings  quite relaxed    one nasty crash  appleby   really nice day   chatsworth game fair  helen  neil   first time weve managed  visit    took hours  get    invited last year   advert said  didnt want  cumbrians social outcasts    didnt feel like  armpit  british agriculture     really enjoyed  day   felt   wed   weekend away  just  day well   think    trips   easy just  stay  home  always  plenty   dairy 27  started  defra  found  new way  cock   lives   now complicated life  exemptions   20 day standstill including new stuff  isolation units  farmers    notified  post  havent read    read   dont understand  farmers   isolate new stock bought via auctions etc   contact   stock  50 m outside   can go  standstill   neighbours can move stock   next door field without  problem  mad  dont understand    coming  well   sort    usual  badly thought      sell  idea   farmers  will   policed will  matter   stop another massive outbreak  doesnt take much  wind everyone     helped  work  b defending  defra line  w dissing   will  clients think diary 28 crap week puncture  thursday  lunch hour struggled  get locking nuts  felt feckless god    little patience  days   missed beva congress couldnt sort  childminding etc   best days  friday  saturday    way   go   really disappointed nothing    fmd though  dont feel    get much encouragement  work   ok  paying  cpd courses   dont seem  make  easy  swap weekends etc theyre  bothered    suppose  dont understand   different things  get  cpd diary 29 worked extra  new vet  go  sheep meeting  malvern pissed     easy    job   husband   family  consider   suppose  timing stinks since  missed  equine course last week  week improved considerably  thursday  went  guilford   arab horse convention nothing    work   enjoyable ive  waiting   10 years    hope  live long enough  go   next one  talked   men   train unheard   surrey apparently  cumbria farming fmd  foxhunting   reassured   newcastle    cumbria    interesting crack  hardly ever meet anyone    connected  farming   countryside  really   idea   like  dont know anything   either     job   end  feeling  frustrated  agriculture  therefore large animal practice     precarious position  seems       basic fundamental part  life compared  computers  yet  emphasis    basic stuff anymore surely  need things like agriculture  basic manufacturing  underpin everything else  wonder nobody  bothered  us suffering anxiety fear confusion last year      throes  fmd   penrith spur  certainly  reported  wouldnt    many marches  london pre fmd diary 30 quite week still tired  last week loads  photos  develop    great saw horses id never seen   got 2 great videos  long dead horses  appear   horses pedigrees son   bit      picked   monday  bit unsettled   away  suppose oh  job just interferes   social life missed another wedding  week  call  diary 31 took  horse  penrith vets   x ray    super new hospital just   town seems really well set     really good attitude  work  clients  think  need  shake   work maybe new vet s way  working isnt  bad neil said   million   red   height  fmd  must    worried none  us knew  wed  left  weve definitely got  lot  routine work  weve lost   lot  dairy farms  never going       im  good  accepting change diary 32 sad week one   farmers sons  killed   rta   a66     married two years    real canny lad  shocked everyone   certainly made  take stock   restocked  fancy cattle   south   cattle may  contacted cattle   variant virus   usa      whole herd test   blame   fmd   hadnt lost  cattle  wouldnt  restocked   wouldnt  testing  cattle   wouldnt  happened  theyd stopped   extra cup  tea  client brought   copy   cumbria enquiry  didnt half stir   old feelings   things    angry  last year  summed   one phrase  read slack organisation  poor woman  brought  report  spent  1000 treating  dog   suffered chemical burns  fmd disinfectant   road map  now reacts  phenolic compounds including sheep dip  fresh tar theyre moving  scotland  hope  dog   better life  diary 33 funny old week everyone still shell shocked  farmers son s death  explanation     lorry crashed   tractor yet  begin  wonder   family can cope   sort  trauma b  w went   huge funeral  said  parents  amazing     strong faith   cant see   enough  went   graveyard  next day  see  flowers  ended   tears    messages   cards especially  ones   parents  brother  sister  felt  sad    went   wee walk  tracey  knows  quite well   talked  lot trying  make sense     blow    thursday  father  brother  part   syndicate   tup sales  paid  100000   swaledale tup  couldnt believe theyd even gone   auction never mind  something like   doesnt seem right    others   bought  tup    think thats awfully strange   another upset farmers wife  week  went  see  downer cow shed got stuck   cubicles    carry    straw box using  loader tractor   wife got really upset seeing  cow swinging   front   tractor  felt  bit guilty really   didnt think  just didnt connect  fmd slaughter   injured cow    didnt see    saw   herd went  diary 34 great week  brothers wedding son   page boy   kilt    quite well behaved apart   second lot  photos   well tired  hungry    love  home   brother  sisters   partners   great  way     much time  son  always laugh  much   clan gatherings im sure   therapeutic  amount  alcohol consumed     wedding  definitely  therapeutic  set    holiday maybe  first family holiday  day    rain   turned  ok later   lot  good stuff  one week diary 35   lovely day   worked  well  may try four  five days away next year now  weve got started   years since    proper holiday  usually miss   animals  im away    time  think son    filled  gap  bad news  wednesday partner s van failed  mot  transport  money   new motor mild panic slight depression   gradual return    will  work  somehow attitude    partner s mum  dad helped us      relinquish  little buy  new trailer fund   disaster  sunday morning caesarean   uncooperative cow  got  halfway   op  pushed  rumen  onto   dirty floor   started  haemorrhage  died four hours later  ended    exceptional bull calf   dead pedigree belgian blue cow  hate  things die  restocked farms  think   quite philosophical     went     whole thing   head b just said  theyre going  die  best  die soon less time  worry  everyone gets   quicker   think  may  right hes definitely easier  talk   days hes like  different person now  jans left diary 36 busy week testing  restocked herd monday thursday   travelled   5 miles   new home  bit   waste  time     nice day    really good turnout   village bonfire   new tradition started  2001     first village get together  fmd   end   week  headed south  cheshire   salisbury plain   friend ann   horse  compete   marathon   awful journey    rain poured  traffic crawled im glad  dont   use  m6   daily basis  really enjoyed  weekend away     pull  horse    half way point    hyped   couldnt get  heart rate    wasnt allowed  continue  felt really disappointed   sure     good chance well        vet check halfway  diary 37  bit   anticlimax  week    build    marathon      different  shed completed  course    better journey north except   puncture  handy     horse trailer   drove    way back  anns saw   horses   drove home another 2 hours oh    pleased  get home    good experience though  dont think either  us  trail  horse   way  salisbury plain   two hour race    fmd cases near ann  cheshire  didnt seem  catch hold like    cumbria maybe     bigger farms   arable land  went  see   july 2001   pointed  various fields    cleared  stock half   didnt even  gates     disinfectant  precautions visible    really starting  wipe   practice  home   unbelievable   sitting  cumbria thinking  agriculture  doomed  everything  cheshire  carrying   normal    rude awakening   diary 38  tb testing  day job testing stock  wouldnt normally  tested  theyre restocked   come  cheshire though    increase  risk   shocking migraine  day wednesday went  bed  soon  id dropped son   biggins  didnt wake   5pm 2 hours     collected    still felt awful   terrible driving   dark     stop three times   way home  went back  bed  9pm    fine  havent   migraine  ages   back  top form  next day though    tb readings  172 cattle  lunch cooking  gas diary 39 fed     testing   may      next 4 5 months sick  new vet moaning  work  dont know    take  make  happy  think  week  nearly    waste  time  havent made best use   free time   havent   top   job  work diary 40   dreading  week     many things    think  avoid adding extra   schedule   week   3 days away   night   cope   really dont like  thought  shopping  managed    christmas present locating  friday spent wednesday  b   better   expected   national scrapie plan training day   worse   expected bloody defra  dont     say much  raise  hackles    selecting   resistant genotype    spending   time injecting bse  sheeps brains  challenge     ever happen naturally nearly missed  night    work   10 pm   got    least  didnt miss  dancing  turned   really good night nearly everyone  work    j  ex receptionist  always   good laugh ended  working    morning dont know  w  hung   just idle  hell   pay    hours  dont work extra    goodness   heart now      overheads  fund new vet s  star  avoiding extra  dirty work   usually falls    says  wants  large animal work     best  avoid  diary 41 tired  week son came back  maviss full  cold improved  bit   woke  screaming  tuesday night     long night  partner wasnt even  t enjoy share   hed left  fly  tampa  5am  morning god  dont fancy   single mum  soon started  improve  24hrs  antibiotics ear  chest infection ive never seen    pain  course   nearly better   time partner got back  really struggled       take  day   thursday  still   go    second tb test otherwise      start     didnt  time  test  twice    restocked herd         really hard trying    best  everyone diary 42 pretty good week   weekend   good night   traceys birthday    really chuffed  invited son    well behaved  nut unfortunately now thinks  can go   pub     go   meetings  avoid  tantrum  dont really think   suffered many  effects  fmd except  lower anger threshold   loss  faith   powers   im much  worried     clients mental health  know   several   suffered severe depression      farmers   culled   sleepless nights  back   vengeance son started  chickenpox   weekend  nobody   sleep diary 43 absolutely shattered somebody elses chickenpox  nearly  bad     dont think     full nights sleep    fortnight  still   lovely time  christmas though   sure  partner  son   pleased   presents son suddenly brightened dup  christmas eve   way  mams  never broke stride     son top form    tired   fell asleep  saturday evening  missed  village hall christmas party  highlight   village social calendar diary 44  threat  tb rears  ugly head maybe tb   new fmd went    private tb test   farmer   restocked  passed  restocking checks unfortunately  bought 3 heifers  november   original farm  since gone   tb  isolated  heifers  soon   heard  waited  defra  didnt come     hoped   best  expected  worst one   heifers reacted  didnt know     say  farmers wife  really upset  wished  hadnt gone back  farming b  boss  phoned defra  morning regarding  heifers    told  youngstock dont pose much   risk  dont seem   much idea    dont   clue  getting    job theyve  three weeks  track   calves    cows   reactors  seem  let us  just   need   oh  make  boil    going    cope   aftermath  diary 45 felt  bit flat  tired  week  test    week  hard work trying  catch cows  cubicles   fun    covered  muck   end     second day  worse     14  rectal   test wednesday  day  respite  taken  looking  tracey  bed  cold shes really  still   cant seem   anything  make  feel better  know shell come    eventually   hard   able  help  just didnt feel      time    week   really missed    start working wednesdays im going  miss  every week ill    another plan   bit better   weekend   think   need  better weather   miss  stuff   horses diary 46 oh im mad   defra    go back   herd   reactor  test every single bovine   place except  two remaining heifers   infected herd  dont understand   cant just take   heifers   poor farmer   wife will   tender hooks   end  march   earliest   hadnt asked   private test goodness knows  defra   got     testing defra phoned  farmers wife  confirm   slaughtered heifer  visible lesions   puts paid   theory  youngstock werent  danger hope  news makes  get  finger    lovely day  mam  son  tuesday  sat  talked    hour   car park everything tested clear   check test  far  good bad day  thursday  behaviour course   enrolled    cancelled  explanation just  cheque returned   practice   wee note    disappointed even though   going    lot  extra work   next 10 months  extra hassle  extra childminding  think    coped   lunchtime  bent  car door  stopping  help somebody stuck   icy patch  havent got   bits sorted   knackered  fmd disinfecting yet  theres  repairs     pay    now   dont   practice car   well fed  dairy 47 busy week tb testing  started working odd wednesdays  week  spent  day wednesday   back end  suckler cows  dangerous taking bloods  brucellosis   blood sampling swaledales  scrapie testing    many tests still     many dreadfully   date   think weve done quite  lot   restocking tests    quite mind numbing stuff  much clinical acumen required  getting blood   cows just quick reactions  dodge shit  flying feet  late finished monday   time     paperwork done   college friend landed tuesday en route  leeds   herd health meeting 6 hours driving   meeting  talked  bit  fmd  worked   tvi towards  end   outbreak    lot  trouble  tb   aberdeenshire   gets   herd  struggle  get rid     hope  doesnt get    huge problem round  collected  fair  bruises  thursday pregnant heifers  dehorn     done  2001   course  routine work  put   dont know   excuse  leaving  al  2002    massive anyway  saved  going   gym  wednesday night diary 48   just handed   latest batch  diaries  started  new session    thinking  f m doesnt really affect  much anymore  work  changed    restocking   taken place since    new disease problems    bought   additional extras   extra tb testing etc  mentally    aware  even thinking   events  2001  often  still feel upset  someone tells     particular experiences   often heart rending  probably       discussing another devastating disease problem  still  little tolerance   workings  defra even though   providing us  lots  bread  butter work diary 51 im sick   caesareans  cows  encouraged   bloody beef farmers  restock  belgian blues im  sure     continuing  allow animals  breed  cant reproduce naturally  doesnt seem right    almost expect  caesarean  day   new cow  put  calf  used   occasional troubles     caesareans   belgian blues  now    least one caesarean every week b  two  one day    bloody hard work diary 52  always think   23rd feb    day   realised  might    shit  2001  wouldnt  passed unnoticed round  several people mentioned  date   following week yet  wasnt   4th april  f m came   practice loads   farmers lost  lot  seep early  though    wintering away  dairy farms    eden valley  used  just involve  hoggs  now   encouraged  leave  fells almost empty   paid  remove even pregnant ewes  lower ground  seems ludicrous   certain farms  fell sheep  spend summertime   fells  rest   time    bye land  tupping  lambing    wintered  sheep sheds   dairy farms sometimes quite far away  home   get quite upset   read  stories   book  time  think    empathy   tourism businesses affected  must    frustrated  probably ended  much worse    affected farmers   area  farmers  survived   ones  general   struggling  survival now   farms    capital investment    fact    survivors  still  bitter   whole episode   sad    done   people diary 55 check tb test  campbells went well finished  good time running  trouble    cows taken   winter  calving     room however   found someone  take  slaughter   big bullocks   going   moved  licence direct   slaughter house   least  will   income  first  year everything tested clear including  2 heifers brought    farm    reactor    feeling  little bit  confident diary 56 bloody defra cocked    cs test   go back  test 11 baby calves  cruel   go back  hs  well  test one inconclusive reactor     ok diary 60  think  lambing time rush  settling    course  arent quite  many fell sheep   usual  probably wont     payments  de coupled numbers wont   profitable  acres
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  information  diarist date  birth 1964 gender f occupation group 6 geographic region north cumbria week beginning 4th march 02 monday 4th march  decided  now need  staff  new vet   part time receptionist   take us back    previous staffing level pre fm bar  vet    probably going     recruitments   make  year   good sign  things begin  get back  normal work  increasing quite  lot now    farmers  restocked although  lot    us  still concerned   future tuesday 5th march  difficult day today  licences two   farmers needed sole occupancy authentitys soa    queries   land unless    fields   redefined   worried  stock  suffer   fm  worries  shown  much  care   stock  find   frustrating   dont understand   cant move  even   point  anger  tears   end   day thankfully   resolved  compromise   sides   lot  phone calls wednesday 6th march  decided  sort    paperwork  guidelines   received  defra   past twelve months   quite  pile   interesting looking back   sad  makes  realise just  deep  feelings went  although  sounds silly  surprising  quickly  feelings can return   smallest things anyway  done    feel good  box    put  away  got taken   lunch   ptizer rep    nice just  talk  usual things drug competition  much   going  sell thursday 7th march  busy day everyone   flat   day started  7am  morning got finished sort   730pm  tired hope  get  new vet soon  also   suspect bse case today informed defra  problems  soa   got  started one bit  good news  managed  get  new receptionist  2 days  week   just need one    3 friday 8th march quite  good day  major hassles today  still getting busier   staff meeting  arrange  open day  national pet week  may  sorted     bits  bobs   good chat   staff      busy  week  decided    much better   time last year      depressed emotionally drained laying  staff uncertain   future  least now       meant   saturday 9th march went shopping first thing  k   good time even though im   good shopper  went   farmers market  saw heather  works   auction   said    quite emotional  sales    hustle  bustle     happy  see people  hadnt seen  sometime met  mum   afternoon   snow  killington lake   good   driving  interesting sunday 10th march mothers day husband  daughter     day     lovely peaceful day    lot daughter got   funny card   little hedgehog model   collection   evening  collected  vet student  london   staying  us  3 weeks   will   behave  seems nice  settled   mad house easily mr w called   let us know  cows  arrived safely week beginning 11th march 02 monday 11th march   busy day   total change   time last year    day  first client  confirmed  f m  helped another vet   caesarean   cow   fun   farmers   moved farm  restocked  positive one   new receptionists started   didnt get much chance  see  due   caesar barbara looked   well   seemed  enjoy    lots  calls  just like  old days   really need another vet  adverts   thursday  fingers crossed tuesday another busy day  another caesar  calf  dead unfortunately  cow  query bse  taken away  tests   sad  highlight   day   farm across  us turned    cows    call   kitchen window view normally  can see sheep   fields   back   cows across  road  sheep came back  couple  months ago   cows   havent actually  able  see      special never really stopped today    dog training classes  night   collected daughter   yfc meeting  got fish  chips    went  bed  poor vet student   staying  us  exhausted shes  able  see    much wednesday today   little  controlled  went  according  plan   still  long day     dog   630pm   eaten  ball  hadnt passed      operate  remove  anyway finished  900pm  tea  went  bed daughter heard   got 2 weeks work experience  norbrook pharmaceutical   pleased   thursday   morning   last  days   rather hectic  girl   done work experience  us  couple  years ago called round    blue   still keen  train   vet nurse  wanted  write   practices   area  needed advice anyway  told    vacancy   well  long   short   starts   2nd april receptionist staff now sorted just need  vet  wish    easy friday husband  reading  tt test   farm  found  reactor pre f m cumbria  tb free     new stock coming   area   inevitable   will    case   already  two  cases   county  dropped   isolation notice   farmer      seemed okay  still  positive   always admired    courage  stamina   said  love farming     expect things like  managed  spend  afternoon  one   new receptionists    really well  settling  time  will grasp     time saturday ran daughter   friend  town  sorted   garage    achievement  dog  swallowed  ball wasnt eating   went  get  something tasty  going home later      lot happier daughter s still  town   took vet student  see hadrians wall shes  america    keen  see   really enjoyed       hadnt    couple  years just   nice quiet evening  sunday  sister   daughter came   day  niece  two   half years  need  say    busy playing  day week beginning monday 18th march 02 monday 18th march  looking fairly quiet  work  week   never know mr w farmer came    letting us know  restocking plans   one   farmers querying  compensation  never liked     compulsory purchased    received  compensation   although  got better money  others  maybe    taken  account anyway  missed  query deadline  two hours  defra  refusing  look   case    appear   lost    brother    breeding  cows  related went      got  average 300  per cow anyway  tried  look   future    looking forward  getting stock back   another tb reactor today   french cattle    receptionist  chatting  decided things  really getting back  normal although   added paperwork daughter   upset   came home  school     getting bullied   girl   year   chatted     wrote   teacher  see    find   tuesday daughter went  school fairly happy  just told   hand  letter   try  avoid  girl   going milk recording tonight   really enjoy  great   among  animals  talk   farmers    one farmer milk recording fully  present   12  farm  went    big dairy herd   now looking  expanding    good news bad news   means ill   get  earlier   mornings   recording never mind daughter  got  okay  school   teacher  really good    shes feeling happier    good kid  although hormonal  times   put    lot   fmd   unable  really go anywhere   anything although   try  keep  routine  worked longer hours    stressed   never complained  helped  lot went dog training  milk recording     long day wednesday early morning start today 5am  go milk recording   always get  lovely breakfast  also got invited   party   farm  may  thats something  look forward    fancy dress   will  fun    dress   childrens characters   attended  careers convention   sands centre  7 pm  another  long day  tired  saw  lot  children   interested  pursuing veterinary work   always encouraging  enjoy   careers days  interesting  see  next workforce  seem  grow   fast thursday  claim  fame today  seeing  princess royal  passed    junction  thought   seeing things  bored everyone   story    lovely staff lunch meeting   helped cook  sat  chatted   future    replies   advert   vet   decided  try another veterinary magazine  fingers crossed   afternoon  managed  get  well caught    paperwork    rarity   normally end  going somewhere  sorting something      pleased especially   year end  approaching friday discussed   ideas   nurse regarding  small animal side   possibility  getting  new equipment  shall     adding  husband    vet meeting locally    vets   area  thursday night    3  practices looking  vets       time without  luck     worrying   case loads increase   puts  strain   vets  fingers crossed  advert   tomorrow   afternoon  called  see one   evening receptionist    maternity leave  present   good  see    new addition    filling     news  gossip hopefully  will  back  work  second week  april although  birth   caesarean    told   see    feeling   will discuss   soon     fourth child   copes really well   looking really healthy saturday  snowed  went  meet  mum  killington      dog   went  holiday  nearly got stuck   snow  foot  mouth daughter  counted  stock   field  carlisle  penrith   m6 anyway     today last year  counted 2  year  counted 12 big difference sunday went   walk around  local wood   first time    year   amazing  overgrown   become  paths  still visible   places  just met    friends daughter  finalise arrangements   fathers surprise meal  next friday   50th birthday week beginning monday 25th march 02 monday 25th march another  busy day today still  answer   advert   new vet husband spoke  another vet   area       response nothing   good   busy   new receptionist   well  learning fast  thats taking  pressure     receptioinist completed  claim form  business link grant  helped  lot  enabled us   things  advertise   wouldnt   able  tuesday starting  prepare   end   financial year  always dread       done  will  nice  end another chapter  practice suffered badly last year     worrying  lost 3 vets  two lay staff  everyone  feeling     spoken    farmers today   opinion  well    lot better   time last year    interesting  see   effect   new stock  throw    getting called   lot    good  us     lot  lambings  lambing  set  go   may june time  year    busy testing   moment   gives us  opportunity  see  new animals  discuss plans   farmers  relationship   built   f m  now definitely benefiting  lot  said  helpful    feel  lot closer  family  business relationship  good wednesday    day  today   good  managed  catch     things   just hadnt  time      busy  got  lot organised   holiday   week end     looking forward    cant  get away together mainly due   new vet   financial year   least  will  get  bit   break daughter got  report today   done  well    proud    fingers crossed   gcses thursday  spoke  mrs w today     much  action since  got f m  even got  touch  politician etc  help give farmers  voice  mentioned  public inquiry  like  lot  people feels  maybe rather    finger pointing blaming session      ideas    felt  maybe trying  prevent  happening     better idea  personally  begun  realize recently just  much   deep  feelings run  think    emotional now       thick   friday spent  day knuckling    end  year  got  lot done husband daughter  vet student went    day   husband s first real day  since october     good   went    evening  celebrate  friends birthday   really good saturday holiday  today husband daughter  sister   daughter  gone away today   cottage near newton stewart   rented   week  weather  great      lovely time      holiday  year husband s back  monday   go  wednesday confusing isnt  never mind  least  will  get away    days sunday end  year day stocktaking counting sunny outside boring  never mind  done  vet student went home today   really enjoyed     enjoyed    bought us   lovely gifts  will  nice         will still miss  week beginning monday 1st april 02 monday 1st april    lovely day  day husband  daughter still away played   garden went   walk read    book lovely husband came back  tea time   went    meal perfect tuesday went  help another vet vet tt test  one   farms   restocked    positive   future    lovely day  great   amongst cows  wednesday sunday hols great  didnt realise just  much  needed   weather  great warm sunny  relaxing  charged   week beginning monday 8th april 02 monday 8th april back  work today   quite  lot  catching     couldnt really get   never mind  will  still   tomorrow hope  can get away   year even    days tuesday queen mums funeral today    quiet  gave  girls time   watch  funeral    nice funeral   can  one   commented   poem   read   thankful   life    sorry  must get   nurse suggested  giving   clients     pets put  sleep nice idea wednesday back   now   2  difficult soa  complete farmers  slowly getting  idea  find   paperwork hard    good chance    call    chat  coffee   seem  spend  awful lot  time   now   always good  see    coping thursday  large animal work   rapidly increasing     putting extra pressure    staff   really need another vet  another advert  still  response      work  hard    manage  get   work  chatted   staff  tried  reassure    future   can     cant get another vet  simply cant provide  service  clients need    worrying     sure   solution   future  think   paragraph  need   can   kick friday  new receptionists  settling  well     work   today   good     enthusiastic   years ago   taught nvq  animal care  one   receptionists  keen      organised  work     enjoyed  castrated  colt   afternoon sad  know   enjoyed  saturday went shopping  daughter   morning  buy   new clothes    good time  started  sewing   yfc field day    make shorts  t shirt   sport event well  havent really done sewing   pattern  years  lets just say   fun sunday went  newcastle   day via  fields    check   clients soa   lovely time  saw  blinking  winking im  sure  one     nice    day  together week beginning monday 15th april 02 monday 15th april  busy    175 miles today just dropping things   farmers  vets  trips   lab  also found  new supplier  paper towels  will save us  lot  money see  easy pleased    tiring    like       even managed two cups  coffee  farms  fmd  felt   relationship  vets  farmers  changing   relationship  fmd  change   better  feel good      way  happened   daughter   girls night   husband  away   fun tuesday 16th april husband away  bcva   new   committee  seems   enjoying       another vet  scotland   north invited onto  committee    putting together  suggestions  put   government re fmd poor another vet   busy   need  vet wednesday 17th april  went  see  elderly client    morning    old dog   going  hospital  wont go    worried   dog  offered   kelly  dog     hospital  told    found   cancelled     cross  enjoy talking     87 years    fit  funny  lunchtime   attacked  bayer rep  free goodies   open day    co operative  got away without  scratch  didnt   open day last year     fun back   routine thursday 18th april  bottomed  paperwork  morning  interference  phone calls  soa  productive   husband went  see  finical advisor   bank   afternoon   good   cant retire  year never mind  gave us  good ideas  fingers crossed  might just  able  retire one day friday 19th april  busy  need  vet repetitive isnt    looking back   visit book   time last year  year   21 calls    practise record last year   1    lot  general well  time last year   ways   seems  unbelievable    ways  still  sad  emotional  think  emotional now     actually happening   see farmers eyes filling  talking    used  worry  upsetting    feel   good  talk   also helps   dont know  thats right   seems  work saturday 20th  sunday 21st april huge sewing  yfc field day  also found  today    also baking  flower arranging oh joy week beginning monday 22nd april 02 monday 22nd april good day today ive   see  new girls  cows   road  us    one   see   practice    awful day   lasted  june anyway   good  see  new girls   think  amused  farmer    great time ive never enjoyed helping tt test    high tuesday 23rd april driving around today ive  trying  listen    euro inquiry people       lot    hear   talking   old farmer   afternoon   wasnt impressed either   agreed      well   inquires    going  help  suppose  time will tell   still feel  unless something  done   cause   chances   will happen     extent     learnt   will  different next time   one thing  must  prevented   effects  people nobody really got   always remember  samaritans advert nobody seemed  care probably  paperwork can  tell ive   particularly bad day   soa   good news   want  keep  permanently great wednesday 24th april  went  see mrs b  today    heard   hospital    going  next tuesday   arranged  collect k  monday afternoon im pleased shes   op   also   touch  one   daughters  devon  hopefully everything  go well now good news   heard   vet  defra   looking   job husband phoned     coming  saturday afternoon  fingers crossed thursday 25th april  cows got  tt reading  morning     okay   heard   farm  welton      killed    7 reactors   will need tested    quite   reactors   country  restocking     new stock coming   county     country   bound  happen friday 26th april sorted   open day next saturday got everything sorted   need whos getting  etc   receptionist went  smuts fancy dress  decided budget wouldnt go  costumes   got  face paint  masks   daughter   friend  mum went  see westlife ant newcastle   great fun saturday 27th april shopping washing  sewing  know   show   good time   went  another vet s  night   bbq   great fun cold  fun     lucky  another vet    nice  enthusiastic  interviewed  vet today  defra     little uncertain   wants     seems nice   told    needed  fingers crossed sunday 28th april finished  sewing week beginning monday 29th april monday  inquiry begins   good  will   find    mixed feelings part   thinks whats  point  another  expecting something  quite   dont yet someone  blame  solution  ability  turn back  clock  lesson  learn   end  last  know wont happen      repercussion will probably  felt    years yet tuesday 30th april sorry ill  bed today   cold  hell wednesday 1st may much better today   heard   vet  interviewed  saturday    accepted  offer  can start   27th may yippee holidays  easing   pressure  husband  another vet   still finding  saying well  time last year mrs r phoned  mentioned  saying     year ago today   cattle  killed    phoning  good news    first calf born healthy  well   wanted  tell us lovely thursday 2nd may  official soa    stay oh joy   contacted   farmers    yet got one   thought might need one  lots  chatting  catching   quite nice open day   saturday   still seems    awful lot  organise     busy  day  things  looking better  slightly  organised  havent seen  heard much   enquiry     hear   think  really went   weird friday 3rd may open day panic thats  ive done today     coming together   will  fine hopefully    quite  good response  people coming  people checking     whats happening  fingers crossed must go  bake  buns saturday 4th may open day  went really well  started  2 pm     steady stream  people  enjoying  hopefully  stayed fine  whole time thankfully  even got  face painted  another vet  vet  managed  raise 9671   pat dogs  2735  national pet week   bad  2 hours  staff came round  tea later   nice     jolly time sunday 5th may gardened  day till  dropped loved   grew quite fond   garden last year    another little escape week beginning monday 6th may monday 6th may bank holiday    lovely family day      rare    surprising    got  nearly  still feels strange  able  go  places     family  also  fact    long  didnt really go anywhere tuesday 7th may  busy      hollering  receptionist calls     actually    dropping  drugs  chatting  call  customer relations  still feel funny going onto farms      gate  months just momentarily  feel can   hard  explain  still feels normal  drop things   bucket  bin rather  driving onto  farm   good   coffee  proper milk  brill wednesday 8th may mr g  got  cows   one  thought wouldnt restock  although   sons    farm neither  interested  cows one  horses     everything else  turkeys dogs wallabies monkeys pheasants etc  real menagerie daddy g  66  couldnt decide weather  get  cows      bit  dad says yes sons say  anyway dad won  begin      sons side    came  beaming  laughing  full  joy    disagree     got fmd   called   practise     coffee    upset  friend  phoned   morning  say   fmd mr g just broke   sobbed   one   worst experiences  found   hard   join     strong  console      old gentlemen showed  depth  feeling  despair   around    lump now remembering  anyway  comparison  getting   cows  milk can make   big difference    happy   thursday 9th may went   meeting  preston  cl  vet  brampton   marsh report   regarding vets  privilege  dispense drugs anyway firstly  got lost  lost    arriving   meeting eventually    doom gloom  depressing just   thought things  getting  tract bam  changes  paperwork  will   wait  see just   effects us  effect us  will friday 10th may    half day  today   fun things like washing shopping  sorting bits  pieces   couldnt   housewife   time  ended  leaving  cooking  washing  took  dog  instead much  fun saturday 11th may took daughter    young farmers field day   brill    going  stay  hour anyway  stayed  day everyone     hadnt seen  ages    spoke     new faces   great  see   together   feel farmers   families   special people    wonderful sense  fun    solid    close mind   talk    find    related   also  proud      sad  public   see   way gone   days   farmer   hero  worked  hours  feed  nation well    wonderful day week beginning monday 13th may monday  busy milk recorded  afternoon   good fun   preparing   party  saturday night    fancy dress party   husband  going   cant say   yet j mentioned   friend    still  speaking    j never lost  cows  yet j said   tries  explain  hard     waiting  friend  accepted  invite   party  heres hopefully  friendship  shows  feelings can  easily run away   blown  something  silly       side    see  lot  changes   lot  people either bitterness resentment jealousy  emotionally drained   whole situation tuesday 14th may early morning milk recording got  outfit sorted   fancy dress party  saturday   friend went  try     good fun wednesday 15th may   done tons  backwards  forwarding today  ive  hearing   inquiry  bit today   decided   going   one  carlisle   interest  curiosity  still feel        may find    meeting   still waiting   day fmd   mentioned     dealing regarding  thursday 16th may  spoke   young couple  farm    enquiring   changes  buying drugs  caught   guard   knew   happen     arranged  meet    chat  see   wanted   think  will go   people  farming  different ways   used  pre fmd weather    result  fmd    dont know    going    lot  changes heading  way friday 17th may accountant day today   joy    brilliant   helped  much   years  last year   brilliant    one consolation  wouldnt   pay  much tax  year anyway spoke   rep   afternoon      usual offers   get every year   year  look good    buy   year  last year  can get      easy saturday 18th may party night   cruella deville  husband  bob  builder   great seeing people  hadnt seen  ages      recognise     really good   met  client       anti everything re fmd  feel   really suffering   bitter   little bo peep   lost  sheep  didnt know   find   mr blair can  preached  night  anyone    feel sorry    people  avoiding  sad sunday 19th may recovered week beginning monday 20th may 02 monday  new cattle fertility programme  now become available  vets  farmers two   people  work came along  see us  discuss  advantages  already    farmers keen    program installed  discussed  program later    farmers     keen recognising    going  need  program like   can help  keep  tighter control   herds fertility  health   enable   remain  business      realising   now running  company   family concern   quite exciting another step forward hopefully tuesday 21st may  busy today everyone stretched  will make life  much easier   new vet anne starts next week  got caught    paperwork  also managed  catch    others bits  needed done even got   soa defra paperwork sorted miracle wednesday 22nd may went  see two   farmers today  discuss  interherd cattle health  fertility computer program   good  chat  listen   plans hopes  dreams   concerns  lot  farmers  still  unsure   future  quite honestly  keeping  options open definitely gave   pause  thought    concerns thursday 23rd may quiet day today mr w one   farmers came today     chat   also worried   future  hope  good positive news comes soon friday 24th may friend     weeks    new vet  starting  monday  came  us 6 months 10 years ago    helped us  ever since    fmd  offered  help   great      worked  hours       husband  5 months      well deserved time   will come back part time   need  ill miss    says shes  lot  housework  catch   saturday 25th  sunday 26th may  sister  niece came  stay   weekend    nice time just pottering    week beginning monday 27h may monday new vet started    nervous   keen   spent 10 months working  defra   relieved   finished     mainly  involved  re stocking anyway  managed  well  hopefully will settle well tuesday 28th may  booked  holiday today  1st holiday   25 years      excited   going   barge near chester  hopefully  weather will  good  will  nice  go away together especially  last year  think   need    get used  staying  home     trouble  upset last year  will  nice cant wait wednesday 29th may   lovely day ended   lots  visiting around  farms dropping drugs   seeing another farm regarding  interherd program  went   large dairy farm     young couple   keen  enthusiastic   future     positive  encouraging   give   lift  helps put things back  track thursday 30th may    farmers coffee morning  planned  appeared      quite nice  quite interesting   hear  together   two elderly  one younger one   opinions hopes thoughts  experiences   different friday 31st may another mega paperwork day exciting played   garden  afternoon  walked  dog saturday 1st  sunday 2nd june   weekend  together  went visiting  walking  nice week beginning 3rd june monday  sister   daughter came  visit  went  carlisle  nothing  exciting  weather   disappointing    organised events  went   couple  got wet daughter  niece got  jubilee mugs  one   wednesday  ended  helping  new vet  new nurse  operate    good  dont get much chance  help   op room  days   enjoyed  thoroughly new vet    well shes   qualified 3 years    now   done much small animal    worried    like    seems   enjoying  thoroughly   settled  really well  seems like      ages thursday    first work experience   school  2 years    interested   fmd  said   done  bit    school   went      details   discussed  human side   hadnt really  discussed  school  finish   4 soa    well  joy friday  foolishly decided  decorate  surgery  op room  know   think    good idea  realise   bitten     can chew well  sunday night   dead  got   done    look better  nothing   done last year  boy   tired week beginning 10th june monday  new interherd disc arrived   went  installed   two farms    keen  get started   quite exciting    young sons   keen  farm also   helps sometimes  fee   can just get      times  feel whats  point    middle   road    try  make  work  fight  make  work tuesday 11th june quite busy today  daughter   brace taken  today    two visits   hospital  looks different without  brace now wednesday 12th june   day  today peaceful thursday 13th june nmr came  see us  discuss   can work  us  interherd   farmer   interesting  competitively priced    now another service  can offer   farmers  can  help long term  went  see another farmer  enter  interherd    lot  interest   trying  maintain  close contact   farmers  enable us  meet  needs  things progress   near future   going    lot  changes regarding  dispensing  drugs   alter  way  work    finalised  january 2003       sure just   will affect us friday 14th saturday 15th  sunday 16th june husband birthday    organised  surprise weekend away      wonderful time  thankfully  weather  good week beginning 17th june monday  quiet almost like last year  thankfully     reason    busy silaging normality  returning    still finding  difficult  new herds  really knowing  new cows yet    react one farmer said   like  new car    drive   good  miles     ease   seat  comfy well thats one way  putting  tuesday  went  see mr j  discuss  new interherd program  computer program   can keep records    herds records   can  analysis    quite exciting  interesting  shows farming  heading   computer age   farmers  learning another new skill  sure    comfy     shown mr j  program    use    keen  said   now   maybe go  cut    thistles weds thursday  quiet   catching   paperwork  went   walk  played outside   garden friday query fmd  pigs  effect     strange part  horror worry  another strange one   expecting  although   get   everything    sorting   normality  returning      waiting    appear   went back  watching  news listening   radio waiting fingers crossed sad day sat sun quiet weekend husband  working  results   pigs yet  bush telegraph  working     quite  number  worried farmers   phone   results  yet week beginning 24th june monday breakthrough  fmd talk   today  suddenly realised   evening   getting back  normal  everyone  coming  terms   paperwork farming    always  recently fallen  one disaster  another     proud   trade   now feel let     government   public   whatever reason dont seem     respect  farmers   used    just may  due       work  days tuesday pigs given   clear everyone breathes  sigh  relief     chilling effect   shows   still clear   disease  now weds   last  days    6 dairy herds   strange mastitis husband     visit    vet  vla penrith    yet   established  cause samples show nothing  usual treatments dont work     case  new herds new problems thursday day   friday sat sun   niece    lovely time   exhausting week beginning 1st july monday   invested  new interherd computer programme mon thurs  week       visiting farmers loading  explaining  new programme     havent   far   year  good  see   chat fmd  course  always still   top   list followed   milk price    regulations   amazing  sorrowful  see  deep  emotions run  stories  feelings    still  strong     emotional    resilient   still   deep feelings  wonder   effects will come    will take time friday    soa   first time  ages    look back     fill     going  review  shortly  watch  space   regulations    review   november   will see   come   sunday    vet student alison  two weeks staying  us  came  northumberland  fmd   interested  know   happened   everything      go    easier  becomes    involved   culling   found   hard     1 month   glad  leave week beginning 8th july monday tuesday  went milk recording  farm  go    get fmd    saying  hard         extent     hard  time  people  fmd just  different ways      checking  longer  farmer said  used  dread going   sheds   morning   dreaded   might find also washing  milk takers   able  visit friends  family   regulations re moving stock just   knowing  said  put quite  strain    one   ways  coped   built  tennis court  played  lot   games    family  brought  closer weds interherd day  held  meeting today  invite   farmers interested  using  programme  people  wrote  programme came along  talk   farmers    good   farmers seemed  enjoy     found   needing  sort  programme    new herds   unsure    fertilities  thurs fri visited mr w  mr j re interherd got  proper cup  coffee  proper milk thats   missed  last year  one   reasons  go  visit  sat sun  busy small animal operated  nursed  week end   shattered poor  week beginning 15th july monday visited farmer re interherd programme    positive   future    son    keen  can see  difference   attitude   past  months   first started going   unsure   done  right thing   seriously debated getting  stock back    cope   changes   regulations  paperwork    said  just loves farming    doesnt know anything else  just loves farming  now   progressed  working together within  family    good system  appear   enjoying   farm     family  generations  financially  can manage  hope  make    lovely people   real inspiration  report  fmd   recommendations    published soon      heard  far  doesnt say anything  didnt already know   recommendations   little sketchy  say  least  need  good sensible positive protocol   future outbreak   present    flared   tomorrow      mess    learnt hopefully time will tell tuesday sad news today one   clients  didnt get fmd  decided  give      tenanted farm  owners   keen   expansion  even repairing old buildings  remain competitive  sees  needs  cows  cant build   sheds    words   decided    maybe   life     mid forties    going  sell   try something new  brave  sad  think  will    first   clients    everyone asks   future    moment nothing  nobody  certain can  smaller farmers keep  will  bigger ones get bigger  new regulations  paperwork will  brought   time will tell weds husband   away   br cattle vet ass bcva committee meeting      committee   18 months now  enjoys     another feather   cap anyway  gave  talk   problems post fmd    problems farmers    experienced  also gave  talk     mastitis cases   appeared  new herds      strange mastitis cases  year anyway    competition   best talk  husband won    proud   none    vets   ever seen anything like     found  bad mastitis  cows  year  whether   change  area weather  housing  shall see thursday    visiting day today good fun  went t see  farmers    interherd    lots  coffee  proper milk yummy  also interesting  hear   different stories  feelings hopes  worries    many   ready   challenge ahead  unfortunately  arent nobody knows    things will change    next couple  years  will  good    good byee im    hols now yippee holiday week beginning 22nd july week beginning monday 29th july tuesday back  work  staff  coped really well  falling   problems   first time  nearly two years   left      bit worrying     great bunch    lucky  feel  relaxed    great fun seeing    paperwork     bit   lazy day  good weds poor mr g    terrible time  defra     restocking tt test    reactor   cow  slaughtered   lesions  found  herd    tested  60 days later  another reactor  found  slaughtered anyway   due another test  60 days    arranged  900am 900am came  went   1000am  phoned  see   happening   forgotten   come   1pm  good  last two times   tested   taken 6 hours  test  cows   still needed milked   mean   late finish mr graves explained    told   complain   bought  cows   country  tb          said  know   get people   side dont  anyway  heated discussion  pursued  eventually sense  seen  test  rearranged  another day  900am  fingers crossed thursday  got money  today   fmd recovery fund     useful  enabled us   things  wouldnt normally  able      vans sign written  got  laptop computer    great   interherd programme  got pens  pads  give  husband  able  hold meetings   farmers pre stocking  advise    look  etc     extremely useful   nice   given  money  people say     spent elsewhere   helped us immensely   feel   spent  wisely fri   paperwork catch  day today    quiet recently due  holidays  harvesting  thankfully  like last year  looked back   today last year    calls  today   four  although quiet   bad week beginning monday 5th august monday  quiet tuesday  quiet weds  quiet thursday daughter got  first job fri took daughter   sisters   week end sat quiet week end sun gardening going  holiday  next week yippee sorry    quiet  week  mentioned    usual  everyone   holiday   farmers  harvesting   caught     enjoying   days just poddling going   daughter shopping food  nice    catch  time  thursday daughter got  job  first proper job well nearly   travel inn   bottom   road    excited  already planning    going  spend  hard earned cash   friday  took daughter   sisters  lancashire   week end  came back  friday night   decided  meet   husband s mum  dads caravan near whitby  monday   week  another holiday  dont know   one   another anyway    good fun holiday week beginning monday 12thth august week beginning monday 19thth august monday visited mr  today  load interherd onto  computer   definitely decided  sell    hoping  early next year      sudden   son   longer interested   mr  said  can blame     new regulations  paperwork  lot  finding  hard tuesday    environment agency visit  morning  check     dispose   waste  practice thankfully    everything properly   visit took two   half hours  lots  form filling      check  things   extent  questionable mr g called   afternoon    problems   cows  keep going  colour    many new herds  started   well happy  settling  fine   3 4 months   arrived  start  ill  mastitis  colour  eating  milking properly  wide variety   strange  vets dont really know whats happening      regular blood sampling trying  find  changes weds   husband went   accountant  see just  bad financially  really  done last year  oh   surprise   bad  fact  nearly qualified  childrens tax relief  main thing   survived   fashion hopefully  will  better next year thursday  visited two farmers today   interherd   finding  brilliant    recently  farm assurance visits  interherd  helped  enormously  helped  reach  standards   appreciate  much easier      less paperwork heaven   good  find something  help  fri    phoning  main drug companys reps inviting    open evening   keen  think  just enjoy  crack week beginning monday 26th august  quiet  week   large  small animal  must   last holiday rush  going back  school  managed    catching   decided  four day week   nice   quite  bit  playing  interherd     visited farmers    knew   want  see    find      interested   medicines book   keeps excellent stock records    drug product  born    gone  batch numbers  expiry dates     information  need  produce   get inspected    manually can   time consuming week beginning 2nd september monday 2nd september irs 930 garst milk rec tuesday garst milk rec dog course weds daughter back  school exporting  back thursday exporting fri change date  open evening gb way now 15 10 02 exporting sat  sister  niece sun  monday every 2 years   checked   radiographer advisor  ensure everything  well     everything right  check  x ray machine  records   monitoring records  passed   afternoon  went milk recording    warm   flyie  good fun   thinking  getting  new parlour twice  big  mr g feels   future milk will    produced  quantity  quality    difficult  expensive decision  make    shall see tue early morning milk recording  morning   got  lovely breakfast  proper milk  got  check  large animal   got back  also started  new puppy training course   evening  went  well     1  1 basis  nurse runs   go along  help  moral support   good fun      long day  went  bed   got back weds daughter went back  school today ill miss  following  round helping    mum can  take   may   exporting  sheep  friday    pedigree texel sheep sale  h h borderway    first exporting   done   20 months   can guess  paper work  tripled    numerous phone calls  ad  defra trying  make sense     must say people     good  clarifying    written now theres  surprise thursday   spent  whole day either reading new expert regulations  running backwards  forwards  new paperwork     complete     bring well    fun friday well full really isnt  word   use  needed  paperwork  needed  paperwork  took    day     3 sheep  send draining  one good thing  seeing everyone   auction  new faces    gone week beginning 9th september monday ts 7th birthday   another vet student studying   moment  2 weeks    five  year  far  another  christmas   wont stay   house     carlisle   nice      makes us behave   wont   many next year     interested   fmd     chance  help     eye opener    spoke  student      affected everyone  happened   didnt now talking  almost  year   last case  dont find   hard   think  can hide  emotional      time  wasnt    angry  feel now fmd   aftermath  sadly become everyday life  dont rush  news    yearn information  think  directly  indirectly  live   everyday    really become part   lives    difficult  put  words  explain  also went  visit one   interherd farmers  lancaster    pleased     coping well mrs m  crushed   pet cow  month ago    lucky   two broken legs cuts  bruises needless  say  cow  gone  greener pastures    resilient   planning   future    nice    part   planning  also get proper milky coffee see  easy pleased milk recorded tonight  mr gs  early morning tomorrow im still trying  persuade   interherd  finger crossed tuesday early morning milk recording failed   interherd due   cow breaking  leg   never actually experienced  happening   generally hear farmers needing  slaughter cert   cow put   see    familys reaction   humbled  think   word    accident  can happen   look   faces   deep sorrow  father even places  head   hands  breakfast   talked       heifer getting ready   served   let time    difficult birth    helped well bred    jet black   huge white spot   side   prizes  guessing  name    farmer said  cant look   feed  care   day  day  without caring           afternoon  attended  course  management employment law customer service  barnard castle  went  till 9 pm  dinner    decided  stay   spoilt good course excellent food lovely hotel wednesday came back   course leisurely  stopped  penrith   bit  shopping  pleasant im   good shopper    nice    get back  11       new credit card machine fitted  duly arrived well   obnoxious man   moaning     switchboard    dial 9   wrong   wrong      going  get offered  coffee     told  without  special word    bit aghast  said please  swear     just come   course explaining customer service    murdered  god bless courses   course credit card machine men   afternoon   visited   rspca advertising company   want  advert   leaflet anyway   640  quarter   page  2 years   said  couldnt afford   suddenly dropped  410    little suspect   got receptionist  quietly check   company  connected   rspca anyway    waiting  said   still  little bit     afford   fmd see   useful  true   said      210   time   confirmed     rspca   said yes thank  bargain  rip  thursday  tried  get  head round isolation units  tried  explain   farmer    think  got  eventually  husband got back  got   explain  simple english    made  lot  sense  will  handy  people selling  buying stock    always  guidelines must   written  someone   never seen  farm  fields friday caught   paperwork  trolleyed  busy    lot  think  term  anyway   good week beginning 16th september  week   appraisal week   staff  didnt   last year   thought   better get back   swing  things  quite enjoy  appraisals   great opportunity    real good sort  get new ideas  try  recognise  potential problems  started  appraisals  bout 4 years ago   start   everyone  petrified  worried    nice  see  actually excited  enjoyed    quite time consuming   worthwhile   much     week week beginning 23rd september monday another suspect case  main difference       ones  felt cold sick scared  one  better  felt    going   positive whether   case       now  positive    just another one  confident    way   positive  definitely wasnt  worried  dont know     blasé cant spell sorry  definitely different tuesday just nicely busy today just enough  keep everyone busy husband   vet  away  week   just leaves new vet   vet     little worrying   got busy    last   dog training courses tonight   passed  tests well    pleased   progress   made    first 4 week course   run  feedback   positive  head nurse  put   awful lot  work fir      pleased    well  next one  planned  november weds experts  going  start   h h tomorrow  friday  will   first ones   done   18 months surprisingly  paperwork   side   changed much   irish paperwork  horrendous anyway  several phone calls  derfa  dard  various farmers   wishing  sell   sale  think    sorted  will see tomorrow thursday  friday ive put   one      felt    confident    everything  place   able  export  sheep first thing thursday morning dard like irish defra changed  regulations  paperwork  joy   can imagine  sent everyone   state  frenzy  another buzby full  phone calls  didnt   paperwork sorted  people  bought sheep   wanting  leave now  tempers  reaching fever pitch well   manage  export  away  thursday night 3 hours late     book different ferries  done  dusted  friday   busy congratulating   achieving  impossible      worked hard  accomplish   now  several  names   christmas card list yes  guessed    phone call  well let  say one  happy chappy    sleep catching  late ferry waiting   paperwork  arrive  larne port   sheep  impounded dard  added one  form   list  requirements   forgotten  send    mention  hours  phone calls  faxing later    pleased  say   sheep  released  free  go week beginning 7th october monday 7th october  made  trial arrangements   open evening next tuesday alls ready now    good night     enjoy   havent  one    years     good tuesday    now weve  wondering   practice  invest   house   assistant     response   advert   new vet   thought   go house hunting anyway  wasnt  much fun   first thought  start  obviously   quite  price   really isnt  easy   looked  one cardboard box  70000  apparently  went  82k frightening well  can keep  looking    vet coming   interview  saturday  fingers crossed im  tomorrow  away  bvna congress   weekend  im looking forward   week beginning 14th october monday 14th october    really good time   bvna british veterinary nurse assistant congress   loads  lectures  learned   new things got loads  freebies   trade stands  ordered  new vaporiser   anaesthetic machine  uses less isoflo oxygen  also   good halloween ball stayed   late  got back  sunday evening  3 days  congress    just settling   filling  husband  daughter     done  another vet came  wanting  hand   caesarean   dog ah well nothing like getting back   today anyway feeling  tired    start getting ready  open evening tomorrow night   farmers     lot  sorting   tidying      open  house   well  havent  one   couple  years    quite exciting  really enjoy   great    farmers round  mainly  nosh  natter night   year    drug companies paid      stands  various parts   house  surgery  normally everyone   good time tuesday open evening day  busy tidying   moving things around everyone helped  good  staff   excited    well    mucked    usual  us proud  evening   brilliant    nice  see   enjoying     nothing farmers like better   good natter food  beer quite   said   missed  open evening last year due  fmd  far  pr goes definitely worth  wednesday just clearing   sorting    staff said    good feedback  well done  everyone thursday back   now got new interherd update   spent quite  lot   day seeing  new buttons     clever interherd  sold  nmr now    helping us sell    farmers whose life  paperwork hope  make easier  man  charge  nmr  coming  see us next week  explain   milk recording side  ties   nmr  interherd friday today  one     rush round  day   feel unsure     actually done  busy   large  small side   tiring    prefer    busy week beginning 21st october monday 21st october monday  wednesday  thursday   meeting  id  nmr re interherd   going  give us cheap milk recording prices  help promote nmr  interherd   also released  version  interherd  farmers    given  first one   country  trial  see   thought    encouraging  nmr   past years  gained   slightly unpopular feel especially  cumbria   now seem  see    trying  hard   committed  improving     survey  now  area herd size etc  majority  dairy herds   cumbria even post fmd  fingers crossed friday  good day today husband  away   bcva council meeting br cattle vets ass  normally  goes mad dont know  anyway  didnt today everyone  busy   madly  large animal side       present    now tt  blood testing season   quite  lot  restocked herds         done every year  opposed  4 yearly  also   test everything    time consuming      tt test     two day job     farmer  us   two days   week   cant  anything else week beginning 28th october monday 28th october    asked  newton rigg college     interested  teaching  animal care courses   college    vicky went along   quite interesting   thought      together   work   said   think    let  know went milk recording   afternoon   enjoy playing   crack tuesday milk recorded   discussed interherd      going  use    pilot   nmr interherd job   will  interesting regarding  newton rigg offer  wont  able      part time nurse  leaving us    offered  place  dalston vets  will  able  train   vet nurse    dont     practice   will leave us short staffed   sad  everything happens   reason    now vet  nurse hunting   advertising  interviewing weds   sponsoring  class   northern expo holstein friesian shows    stand   good natter  took  photos    cows   freebies    good night barbara came     presented  prize   class  standard  cattle  amazing     really good show thursday    photos  took   northern expo  decided  make  photo album   went round    farms photographing   good fun  nice  see       good stock friday got  phone call today   sister   sold  house  lancaster   moving  near us  thats  exciting otherwise  quiet day today week beginning 4th november monday 4th november  went  show mr j  new interherd farmers version    interested  thought   save  lot  paperwork  time   say   paperwork since fmd  increased immensely along   regulations tuesday   decided    tv   waiting room  advertise products services staff etc  man  channel 6 came  took information    arrive next week   will  interesting  see   works weds  went   bank today  see  financial advisor     free service   useful   decided  buy  house   sister  live    moves    will   investment  well  bit  security just  case  last year  discovered just  quick things can change  went  just  3 months    lot  money coming   still wages  pay    now house hunting week beginning 11th november monday 11th november one   vets  recently started  dbr dip  bovine reproduction course  liverpool  part   studies   looking   cows milk quality pre  post calving  see   effects  relevant   overall performance  milk production  health   collect milk samples  certain cows twice  week   period  lactation    going  test   watch  space     lucky  another vet  enthusiasm  boundless    become   important member   team   persuaded mr j  b farm  milk record  us  thats  early morning jaunts  interherd  nmr trial  nearly ready  hopefully  middle  december everything   set   running hopefully tuesday two farmers  milk reading today     nice little trolly   treated     mr rs ice cream  nice well    support   new shop   farm    well  loaded  first farmer version interherd onto mr ws computer    impressed   keen  thankfully   worked well wednesday   computer bugs  good    spent    day   phone talking   debugging man thursday still got bugs weve   run  bug fixer disc   seven computers  takes ages peed  fed  going back  pen  paper friday  must  sounded fed    lovely little man came  fix   computers    use 3 different discs due    different bugs   meeting  discuss  nmr milk recording    quite  lot  farmers interested mainly    got  good price  nmr  fingers crossed  bugs  fixed yipeee week beginning 18th november monday 18th november due   junior nurse leaving    interviewing  week     lot  enquiries  decided  invite  possibles  come  play   morning  see   thought    got    staff   one   potential  sounds  nice   cant make   next monday   one  wrote  really good letter    came  well   sweet   really suitable  friday nurse left    little party  hope  copes okay  bought   lovely cow ornament  say thank    lovely week beginning 25th november monday 25th november ellen came   interview  good   keen  experience happy   hours    coming back tomorrow afternoon   play   went    vet   leaving  friday    chalet maid   french ski resort till april  will   sad  see  leave unfortunately still  joy   new vet front    going  leave  till  new year  try   vet  going  cover  unfortunately  means husband s  duty    bit reminiscent  fmd  well manage tuesday wednesday feeling  sorry   got  bad cold  got sent   room  everyone  fed    sneezing    honestly    shanning thursday much better today  sorted  whole load  interherd data     good play   heard  nestles cancelling contracts next year  one   farmers  felt  little unsure quite    affect       dealt another kick   teeth  quite amazing  many   heard questioning   went back  farming   feeling  effects  didnt seem   called   often   dont want  cows treated   extra expense   end  fmd  said   next couple  years    changes   way farmers   many farmers worked  frightening  see  actually starting  happen  seeing  effects   business everyone agrees  whole industry  changed   worst          pleasure now     total contrast   daughter went christmas shopping    lovely time  met husband  surgery  went   pizza lovely night friday everyones talking  nestles now  quite    angry  arent surprised  others just seem  resign       lunch party  leaving vet today   good  gave  pressies although        months  will  greatly missed  everyone  never know  may come back one day good news  offered ellen  nurses job  shes accepted  think  will   well week beginning 2nd december monday 2nd december spent  morning trolling around  countryside collecting another vet s milk samples   dbr    lovely morning chatted    farmers  lot  still talking  nestles tuesday   meeting  clarify  start   nmr milk recording gave    information  needed  set   herds  great   able  offer  farmers  good cheaper deal staff xmas party   good everyone seemed    good time wednesday day  shopping  joy thursday   interherd disaster today  couldnt get  load  normally takes 15 minutes instead took 2   half hours anyway  succeeded eventually   just bought   calf heifers    keen  keep   date records  information    one  farmer  restock now   thats everyone  will probably work    15 drop  work etc  waiting  interherd  load   telling      approached asking    wanted  appeal   amount  money   received   cattle  said  wouldnt   felt   already  overpaid   farmers  money grabbers apparently friday daughter starts  mock exams now   next fortnight    waiting   moods  start   yet   quiet long may  last    calm     actually  revising quite hard    ability       concentrate work wise ive done   lot  one   perks ive wandered around just playing  nice jobs quite  change week beginning 9th december monday 9th december daughter s 16th birthday scary even worse  can learn  drive next year never mind enjoy  safety  went   lunch    shopping   good  dont normally like shopping    enjoyed  came back  mayhem  client small animal    complaining   bill   caused  stink anyway  phoned      gone  everything  seemed happy hopefully   either misunderstood  hadnt  things explained   although difficult   better people say something rather  stewing    making   something    small animal  seem    problems  way   large animal  suppose  large animal  also  business   doesnt stop  caring  dont think        work  hours  work   didnt care sometimes  get  hard press   think     get  publicity unfortunately  like   farmers phone  say    sick cow   ask     quite often  reply  shes just   need  say anymore tuesday im going   play milk recording   new person via interherd   one   clients   quite  character old fashioned  yet   thirties   good    passionate  farming   survival    lot  ideas  wants  try  different cows   just bought  jerseys hence  wants  record  see    benefits  milked 60 cows  2 hours    farm  milk 190   time  good  see  ways weds early morning milk recording good fun  lot  relaxed    farm went  hairdressers straight  smelling  cows  pooh   hair   good job  know  well   didnt complain  much  rest   day  quite pleasant  bit  paperwork   skive sorry cant spell   lab thursday friday wow  think    christmas rush     shopping     busy   prefer  although  sit  now     good   nurse   good time  friday afternoon  helped  bath  groom  dog    naughty nicely    sweating buckets  soaked   skin   end     good laugh week beginning 16th december monday 16th december  daughter s mock exams   needed runs    school  various times  mums taxi    overtime     calm     shall see thursday  eventful   now   expectant nurse  vet watch   sit unfortunately    worry      nurse evening receptionist  worried  may  losing     several tests   obviously worried   going    scan  tuesday  fingers crossed vet  also pregnant    trying      something   long name wrong    causes   miscarriage    pleased worried excited scared   4 weeks   lambing     quite happy continuing    work  now  hope everything  ok     can  difficult working  animals   pregnant   long    careful    ok week beginning 23rd december monday 23rd december  much  getting quiet  christmas     busiest time    years   good   going  try advertising   new year   new vet especially now another vet  expecting  will  depend     may even need two  even  another vet   duty now husband     standby  case   lambings    couple  farmers starting anytime milk recording tonight  well   now    nmr well  literally    need record     bad  worked  will  xmas round  corner   mince pies made yet tuesday nurse phoned    positive   moment  hormone levels  increased     bled anymore  doesnt stop  worrying though surgery  busy    finish  130pm  sister  niece arrived  set   go christmas  ace  relaxing good fun loads  pressies didnt  time  eat  busy playing     warm friday back  work   busy day lots  calls  surgery appointments even  operations receptionist       charge  enjoyed  finding   everyone got  christmas week beginning 30th december monday 30th december busy day    receptionist  thought    quiet wrong never mind  coped tuesday nurse  lost  baby   losing   cant see anything   scan just  empty sac    going   dont know   call    can take  tablets  clear everything away   obviously  upset    say shes going  drop   two    goes     sad thursday 2nd january everybodys back  full crew  one knowing  day     get used   split weeks    moment  need  stuck   head quite busy  well   good trying  arrange tt test  farmers  never keen      threaten   defra coming     works friday went blood sampling sheep  scrapie  husband  day    beautiful day  cold    fun    stood next   stream women torture cold air  running water    nip back   van  various things   time  finished   frozen  test  part   national scrapie plan    sample sheep  scrapie      find bse  sheep  ones will    okay     plan  slaughter  national herd  bse  found    farmer said   already  human g pigs  years   indians eat sheep brains    removal  bone meal   dubious scabby sheep       problem   will wait  see week beginning 6th january 2003 mon 6th january 2003  new nurse started today  managed  well  didnt seem  confused   went home   worked  kennels     keen fingers crossed another vet    dbr   part        study   decided  look  progesterone   levels  cows post calving  6 weeks  see  happens   collect  sample   new calved cow  split   3 smaller pots  freeze awaiting testing  holland  exciting  quite boring  results   interesting though hopefully tuesday  forget   explaining      somebody new starts    nurse  written  step  step guide  c well sort     little things  havent   new nurse     hopefully  book can  used   new people  took  bit      pleased     end  spoke  mr g re  interherd   farm      now  get round  see     hard  pin   well try weds new nurse liked  new book     well   nice  us   always find  quite refreshing  someone  genuinely enthusiastic  us   close     areas  good  show someone else  can  scary   see just  much    thursday milk pot day  today  good thing  going  pick   samples   get  natter  monday  thursday  samples  collected split  frozen  quite time consuming  ive just realised  didnt ask another vet  long      friday   decided  try  get  accounts   date  see  things  going bar   able  find  vet   one   jobs  always mean  keep  top   never quite manage    much fun interruptions queries  assistance   welcome   got  good start week beginning 13th january monday 13th jan   started working  us  just two days  week  will help  lot  help take  pressure   surgery times etc  got  spend  day helping  tt testing   good fun   stayed fine    good day tuesday    milk recording day today 3  total   started using nmr now     new paperwork etc   going   cheaper   farmers  works   interherd programme anyway   went well  everybodys samples got away weds milk recorded   one   three farms first thing everytime  go    new plan     make  money  month     going  produce  new breed  cow  jersey x mri   will see   goes thursday  friday just catching   paperwork   nurse   training   new nurse   settling  really well   keen week beginning 20th january monday 20th january weds decorated  bedroom  looks brill    desperate need    like decorating  good  messy thursday  went   brucellosis testing training course   vlc   good fun  means     now tested 150 cattle  get  licence  will enable   blood test   turn will hopefully free   vet  will also give defra  bank  blood tester   future outbreak crafty  used  charge  800   course miraculously  now free clever friday     reply   advert hoorah well actually two    foreign one   germany    s africa    waiting   cvs fingers crossed defra  now changed  20 day standstill  6 days  general opinion seemed       interesting  actually find     well   regulations  actually working  well  feel    answer week beginning 27th january mon weds  busy  seem   spent  lot     car dropping  tooing  froing   nice    lose touch   happenings   surgery   tuesday things  obviously got fraught   sorted    smoothed  creases    lucky    dedicated staff due  vet shortage  another vet s pregnancy   add extra pressure  everyone none   incidents   serious  easily sorted thursday  went   sister  take niece   hospital  since   born     lump   side   head   eye   xrayed    fun persuading   lie still  stayed overnight  came back friday week beginning 3rd february monday 3rd feb    first blood sample   live cow today     abortion enquiry  due  another vet s pregnancy      ad  need  practice   good fun   hit  2nd time     pleased  another 145  go   get  licence tuesday  completed  accounts today  go   accountants   great fun  hope  come   good news   future  worrying  backlash   farmers   confident weds  cant remember   told  vet  expecting anyway  went   first scan today   far  good    worrying     problem   produces duff eggs  miscarriages  wants  carry   normal  possible  now   sheep  abortions etc  hop  works  time     4th attempt thursday  friday  nice everything worked well  mad rushes time  catch   discussed reducing    farm drugs    able  buy    internet   prescription   laws  rules will   likely  changing   beginning  march due   report done   govt regarding drugs  animal use  will make  difference    operate    remove  vet surgeons right  prescribe drugs ie vets can  write prescriptions   dispense drugs   alter things completely one way  another  farmers require  service   going    pay     now   always    reasonable mark   put   drugs   normally 50   will keep professional fees   vets   getting  money made  drugs  therefore   put  fees  although  farmer may  buying  drugs cheaper via  internet will  actually save  much  wonder  anyway    getting    pressure   number   farmers  compete   internet prices    selected   products    pay   time  can get  20   price  watch  space   will see  happens week beginning 10th february monday 10th feb  week  sum   blur   sad   funny memories  start receptionist   holiday   always seems  happen  soon  someone    get   busy  everyone    ticks along nicely mostly   enjoy    busy   worked 3 13 hour days  food  everyone worked really hard   excellent staff   sad note vet went   11 week scan  tuesday   baby  died   distraught    condition  causes      4th miscarriage   sad  called  see    just hugged   cried    say      tablets  clear away  placenta etc   gutted     longest   ever  pregnant   thought shes cracked   just  sad  funny tale   week   completely different note  helped immensely   vet  thursday      busy   farmer called     behind  still  ops     farmer settled     big chat normally   say    lot   departs    today   obviously  turn vet came    op room   know   naughty   wrote   card can    help ie  free  well instead  reading  note quietly oh   read     top   voice  added    need help     crawled    hole   opened    earth  swallow   pointed   message book  try  hide  predicament   said  loudly     want help  well  gave   decided  just fall   hole got rid  vet back   op room  continued alone   predicament   farmer  gone  thankfully seemed oblivious    happened  went  search  vet  kill  anyway  cheered us     say laughter   best medicine   can think  better ways week beginning 17th february monday 17th feb vet  lost baby came back  work    upset  weepy everyone   lovely   hopefully   just time  tlc    busy      enquiry   farmer   thinking  changing vets   really good news   three new farmers  total now     enough vets four practices around carlisle  advertised recently  none   positions   filled  quite worrying tuesday  took vet  lost baby home  today    well    lot  pain  shes gone back  bed  hope shes feeling better soon usual day otherwise weds vet   lot better today apparently  think  may   cocodamol   taking    lot happier  little drained  ok mr w came  today  cows  arriving  friday hopefully  will   last farm  restock     lot  alterations done   farm   new parlour   quite exciting thursday    sheep exports  slaughter  longtown today  first   sort  thing since fmd    course  bit   faf   now    retagged  checked   takes  little longer   afternoon    meeting  sr  university  reading   planning   research regarding  interherd programme    picked 3 vet practices  see   programme helps  vets   farmers work better together   improvements  makes   farmers record keeping    going  meet 3   farmers  use interherd  interview   give  free training    please  fri day    daughter went  newcastle shopping im   good shopper    behave     good day mr ws cows arrived  fit  healthy    us complete now ass     better sad news though  heard one   farmers dropped  dead suddenly    sad    seen    morning     normal self    quite  shock  family must  devastated mind  theres  good way  go thats  week beginning 24th february monday 24th feb another vet  lot better today almost back   normal cheery self    lot  positive  took  bull   horns   speak  reduced  prices   drugs  will   wait   10th march   find    government  going   regarding  selling  drugs   farmers   pleased tuesday  got another phone call  mr c   said   like  change vets  us  good news husband spoke   old vet  explained  etc    difficult   think    future  may   changing  vets     past  never happened  even farmers appreciate competition now    worrying milk recorded  mr g tonight  always good crack   say weds milk recorded early morning   showed   interherd programme   going  try   think   afternoon  went   vet  vet  horse  purchase  can  tricky sometimes  two pairs  eyes  better  one   turned   horse  lame   couldnt vet    will   go back another day thursday normal day    sheep exports   afternoon     efficient system  longtown   makes   lot easier fri  went  farmer s funeral  morning    sad  dont like funerals well  dont suppose anyone    stayed fine     good send    afternoon  got  opportunity     blood sampling just 15    good  getting used  handling everything  forgetting youre   end  shits  kicks  broken limbs   got blood week beginning 3rd march mon 3rd march  went  help  tt test   morning just taking numbers  now  4 farms  restrictions due  tb reactors    now   cows taken   tests  lesions   fund  now get    repeat 60 day test   farms now  defra cant keep  sounds familiar  saw  accountant   afternoon   sent 9 months  accounts     need  see   practice  now  anyway     bad   thought   income     slowly growing  main problem  farmers wont call   sick cows now  will leave  longer  try  treat   mainly due   watching  spending mr w   problem   interherd  needed  run  extensification figures   didnt add    spent  rest   day trying  figure    think  know      set   initially   may need  entry dates changed tues went tt testing   morning    lovely morning  spent  rest   day sorting mr ws problem    worked   chuffed  good   think  now understand extensifications weds caught    paperwork   morning  helped new nurse   dog grooming   afternoon   fun    really well  seems   enjoying    ended  soaked thanks   dog   looked loads better   went home good news  get  new vet  south africa starting 1403  worked    fmd  met someone   relationship  lasted hence  wants  job  carlisle  bingo  comes  holiday thursday friday  busy   practice everyone kept going    great team   really come      busy  love  way everyone pulls together    dedicated week beginning 10th march monday quiet day   monday   weather   nice      playing    quite   lambings   thats one thing   changed since fmd prior  fmd  hardly used    lambings  farmers  since  now  far  last year  put      new stock   seems      year tuesday today  milk recording day   3 recordings today   need boxes  paperwork  dont   help     milkings though   good    quite  way      nice day   drive weds thurs fri  end   weeks seem   busier   beginnings   moment    non stop one disadvantage     busy   dont   time  chat  often  took  drugs   farm  last one  restock     alterations done   amazing  see  transformations   made   farm  geared  one person  able    alone   cows interesting week beginning 17th march mon tuesday  went  another vet  mr cs   tt  blood test another vet   tt     blood  part   lay blood testers licence  needed   150   managed   good fun   weather  great    spread   2 days due   amount  cattle   really good practice     think ive cracked  now   talks  giving tt testing  lay people  quite     anyones guess weds  blood testing today ive really cracked  now  ive discovered muscles   arms  didnt know    enjoy  blood testing sad isnt  thursday    morning  alco waste management sorting    clinical waste regulations   need  detail   actually goes   waste  always provided  free service  farmers  disposing  sharps  old drug  empty drugs etc    going    start charging now   now 100 dearer  month    fri   husband spent  morning looking  fees income etc  seeing   can increase fees  help cover   lose  right  dispense drugs  farmers   still havent heard   continue     will   make  difference   just  week beginning 24th march monday   paperwork   tt test    beautiful day   enjoy   especially   weathers good     nice farmers  also get  spend  day  husband  makes  change although  work together  dont often get  see much    tuesday busy day spent    making sure everything got done  helping  weds  went   careers convention   sands centre    busy     lot  interest   long day  going someone phoned  say    collie dog running around   roundabout    new nurse went  see    catch  well  didnt want caught    really worried  got onto  motorway   phoned  police   dog warden  incidentally couldnt come  9am   didnt start til      politely explain        police dog handler wasnt much help   least  stopped  traffic bless   dog warden  appear 5 minutes later     830    managed  get  dog   roundabout  catch  everyone safe thankfully thurs fri busy days new vet  south africa phoned  hes coming  see us  monday  pick   vehicle  meet everyone  sounds pleasant   will see  joke   moment  people ask   found     got    internet    little worrying   met  first    work watch  space week beginning 31st march monday    l staying  two weeks shes  vet student  london  stayed  us   tine last year   interesting  go   changes   year ago last time    people  restocking     element  wariness    interesting  fill     things  now one thing  mentioned  noticing  stock   fields  nice       still last year talking  things  still hard sometimes although  seems  long time ago  feelings  emotions  still deep certain parts can still hit  raw nerve  seems    mere anger   moment generally people  farmers  wanting  know   still  restrictions   going  happen  shows  sales etc  will normality ever return unfortunately  think     way  want   tuesday  new vet started today  got   well   taken us  long  find  vet    work  testing carries  increasing   going  need another one wednesday  busy day husband s gone  talk   bcva conference  agm  poor new vet   thrown    deep end     busy   seems   coping well  clients   impressed  far  long may  last   good   new staff  new ideas  quite enjoy     definitely  big hit   female clients  really  make  embarrassed   female   go   consulting room  count  4   comes  girlie giggle quite funny thursday sad day today  sister   confirmed   cervical cancer      now friday  another interherd sale today one thing fmd  forced  farmers   need  efficient records  interherd  brilliant     clever one   farmers          120 milking cows now    daily records  5 10 minutes cant  bad week beginning 7th april monday busy day new vet  settling  really well  coping fine   carry    rate  will need another vet  lot   depends   much  testing   going  get   happens  commission report  dispensing drugs tuesday sr came today  uni  reading    interherd program  went round    farmers  used   helped sort   queries    good day  learnt  lot   farmers found  useful   said   come  later   year   think  might try  organise     come   practise   chat wednesday   interherd training  one   farmers wives  said just  hour   wasnt fully computer literate anyway 4 hours later   well  truly got  hang      keen   really enjoyed  thursday friday  blur  one      busy everyone   flat    going  start  vet advertising   another nurse receptionist week beginning 14th april monday got caught  today sorted    queries quite pleased   self tuesday went   local nursery  talk  vets  3 year olds   quite dreading   thankfully   great   really good  took  dressing  clothes  x ray instruments  teddy bears   operated    really good time one   asked     cows  sheep  better    still  funny feet  mouths week beginning 21st april tuesday wednesday quite busy days   lot  catch     went away  sister  niece  weekend  husband s mum  dads caravan    great time sister s biopsy  rest  week week beginning 28th april monday three farmers milk recording today  tomorrow  busy dropping pets  paperwork  advertised   vet today fingers crossed   two weeks helping sister  move interviewed  nurse receptionist   perfect  experienced  wrote  letter    husbands job  brought    area   starts 12th may  wish    easy finding  vet week beginning 12th may monday  new girlie started today    keen  capable   done really well even   computer system    dreading tuesday busy day also 2x milk recordings   bit  hollering    thinking     year    now  normal work everyone new appears   getting      saying goes everyone bears  scar    story  tell  realise           weds fri quite busy  capable  work daughter got  job   training   m apprentice course      moon    new learning curve  suddenly realise   growing  getting  job  leaving school unfortunately  morning daughter  decided  doesnt want  leave full time education yet   worried   job   wanting    business course   college   change     bid discussions   going  go   connexions next week sat yf young farmers field day today  love  days   amazing  effort  enjoyment  makes    good day   also   high standard    classes  admire  enthusiasm   young farmers  just hope  can survive somehow week beginning 19th may monday   found  course daughter wants    college thanks  connexions  bad news     done locally     local course     wasted time   extent big discussions    week   found    course  blackburn  preston  sister  mum live       happy    move   just dont know    ready  let  go  ill     big girl     sent application forms   will   wait  see now  try  get used   weds really good evening  penrith re  discussion    good  talk    diarists  realise   able  relate  closely    said   poignant  see   people  written  interesting  see    done  far   data collected    brilliant  hand   future study  enquiry    proof surely    people   wrong     many diarists start  finish  amazing im sure  can  used   many different topics amazing   personally  proud     part    although sometimes   wondered     writing   use  can see now   comes together      opportunity shame   better circumstances   helped     originally realised  thinking back    unbelievable   something   like  repeat   ever  optimist   im told   believe  hope things  farming can recover  fully  enough   able  show  people   wonderful life   hard  special week beginning 26th may never stopped  tuesday  bank holiday  busy new vet  settling  now   girlfriend cant find  job  thats  bit worrying  may leave sooner  expected oh   advertising   rest   week  uneventful really ticked along nicely  met    friends  wednesday evening  holiday   lakes  year    nice  see      good evening   also   thursday night   drug rep  nice meal    offered  pay  husband bri catt vet ass meeting  amsterdam  october     nice business link  also offered  help us get  consultant   see     ideas  improving maybe  can find vets     quite  exciting week week beginning 2nd june  exams  started everyone warns  beware  daughter   laid back     much  feel   long     best  went   accountants  look   books   end  year  far  quite finished yet  thankfully  wont  needing income support  year    much better  regulation  nothing  cant cope  honest week beginning 9th june daughter   interview  blackburn college  wasnt   nice place   im  going preston    25th   will decide   niece   ct scan   head   eventful  lisa   naughty jelly babies zapped  went well     bit sore  week beginning 23rd june monday went tt testing  another vet today    retest due     reactor    good day   nice people    father  2 sons  fmd    phone call one night    just someone crying   end    didnt know   say   wasnt sure      just spoke  mainly silly things  cant really remember   didnt get much   response just yes  nos   thought  recognised  voice    father    today anyway  lunch      farm   chatting   course got  fmd   thanked   took aback   said   appreciated  waffling     night   day  cows   shot    phoned  let us know   said  just broke   couldnt say anything anyway  laughed   said   going  hang    couldnt get word  edgeways    wittering   said   feel  bit better      good heart  heart tuesday caught    paperwork  sorted  bits  pieces  weds took daughter  preston college   interview   good  seems  nice place  cant believe  will  leaving home   end  august  scary im really going      big girl   thursday  went  visit business link  discuss   things    hopefully going  help us pay  firm  consultants  help us   see   can improve  move  practice   thats exciting fri went milk recording first thing    good fun  recording    collect one   elderly clients   dog   coming   operation  lady  92     dog   close   wanted  stay      sedated    pleased   come    girls  laugh      quite   little old ladies   visit  keep  check   pets week beginning 30th june   lot  excitement    week    kept going   caught   paperwork   going   sisters  week end  start sorting  spare bedroom  daughter week beginning 7th july mon spent  morning explaining   newest girlie  interherd    work   will enable   help    data entry side  also   little trip  around    farms  record  us  give   idea     tuesday went exporting sheep today      retagged   quite warm  much fun ill maybe get new girl   exporting weds 2 milk recordings today  quite busy  bottles  sheets  things       opposite direction    never mind    nice day  driving  thursday   got  new vet  replace vet  sa  seems  lovely   going  start  40803  used  agency    proved worthwhile  worked   rather  paying  endless adverts   give   go   seems   worked  thats exciting fri  went car hunting today     go    week end  becomes  bit crushed  sometimes  end  taking two vehicles    really splashed  rightly  wrongly  bought  new crv truck   posh   get   210703 week beginning 14th july monday person   interherd office came   see us   visited     farmers    interherd    nmr   really tried  providing quality  cost effective equipment   helpful   farmers  can now use interherd   milking parlours   really useful tues  went  see  horse   cough   treating  pony   chatting    converted  small barn   camping hostel  farm  along hadrians wall  since  foot  mouth    barn    nearly covered  costs  still    stock    many mr   saying   father used  milk  25 cows   able  make  good living    amazing  difference weds  got  new payroll package today   spent    day trying  understand     bog eyed   end   think  understand    seems  work well     lot easier  quicker thursday busy day   lots  ops  farm calls  couple  farmers   asking  prescriptions  soon  will  able  get  drugs  anywhere  lot  said  appreciate    pay   service one way  another   happy  carry        will lose money   extent   much remains   seen   will   cope friday  went  see westlife  daughter
## 4 information  diarist date  birth 1963 gender m occupation group 6 geographic region north cumbria saturday 9th march 2002  old african proverb states  best time  plant  tree  20 years ago  next best time  now    started  diary   year ago  keep track  changes   unrolling   fmd epidemic   feelings towards  today  probably  good day  start  diary      sit    really bad week  write  comments   lessons learned inquiry  thought   check  web site   update  found    considerable annoyance   inquiry  coming  cumbria  meet  defra  hold  open meeting  tuesday night    wanted  ticket  attend     apply   week ago  overall impression    govt   want  learn lessons   looking  kids  wife   counselling course     call sat morn  vets  busy   ended  taking children  vets    watched videos   waiting room   sorted   consulted coming   cold  spending friday tb testing  restocking farm   least  managed  avoid getting kicked  crushed  farm hand   one   hard lads  wigton refused  get    fat bulls  test   getting floored   kick   f ministry want  f tested  can f coming  etc etc   putting   letter  say     tested  see response didnt get finished  farm till 545 pm  started   caesarean  5 30ammust   easier way  make  living  farming economy  bizarre   moment   silage  heaps    farm  instead  feeding straw   incredibly expensive 70 ton   feeding  better quality silage   calves    big   30  calve    nights work   ever  go  farms  stories  farmers  wanting  get   chest   maff incompetence  inconsistency  bewildering    lot  anger    went    restocking sentinel visit  mg l fm   usually   laid back  guys   told    bringing  cattle     see   court     sentinel visits   farm   fmd 11 months ago  virus  lives  month sunday mothering sunday kids   got presents  cards  mum  brought      breakfast tray  cute  pear juice    carpet tim   spent sat night baking  chocolate cake    meant  hadnt got lunch never mind church  ps speaking  characters walking  god  talking  abraham setting    knowing    going maybe   follow suit  large animal vetting  reduced  tb testing  caesareans  evening service  really lively  hp  austria  turning every hour   god now       g r called around sun afternoon   pessimistic  fertiliser sales    much land  grass around   govt grants  extensification new regulations  nitrates  giving   headache though   points     fertiliser  cause  problems    used  grass   phosphates  slurry organics lough neigh  real problems  algal blooms    blaming fertiliser    bassenthwaite      fertiliser spread   fells    really agriculture monday read test    glad   clear   farm  origin  one  batches  gone   tb  testing  lunch organic farm   just   first pay check 23p per litre   promised 36p   started  convert 2 years ago     agriculture desperately behind  admin  vets  home   least  clinical work pays tuesday caught    lot  admin  back  6 vets  day 2 cows aborting  restocking farm  disease rota still  5vets yuk  evening open meeting poorly attendee due  poor publicity    local practitioner  phoned around  one   invited   seen advance publicity    feel     interested    will  listen  moving testimony   bullying culture came    frustration  anger  comes  dealing   faceless bureaucracy distant  london 11 million animals 2000 farms  cumbria businesses wrecked lives wrecked  crisis turned   disaster  bureaucratic incompetence  political considerations   pleased  went  feel    like  sense  closure  funeral   speak  end   spoke  wife   got back  feel  can lay  past   look   future weds day  k   lunch  sort  finances etc  write diary everyone  saying   time last year  glad  fmd  finished went  see grease  school production    well done brought back memories  6th form thurs 300 pages  a4 waiting      tray courtesy  defra   mindless   rang  speak  ah   got hold  n  told      order   get  blood pressure measured   one says defra stupid idiots  much  closure  feel  frustrated     future  farm practice anal glands   come  said  vets life aint glamorous managed  calm   get  next 2 weeks  testing organised    good job    organising   trying  get folk   phone  nt easy workload picking   managed  persuade gg  advertise even    tvi hq    local practices   advertised       responses   busy   defra work spent time singing grease songs much  nurses amusement  restocking visit  lynedraw  gave   look around   amazingly clean  even  pressure washing  spiders usually make  come back   buildings  sterile   cobwebs  insect life  usually abounds even  empty buildings weird  will   lot  flies next year news  pi  headship  nelson thom    can expect  discipline  improve  friday curry  quiz   boys school  cosmopolitan  cumbria   good fun   kids enjoyed     useless   photos    definitely need  tv spent time chatting  local gp    interesting    place   son  nelson thom   isnt keen saturday 16th march working  w e   call friday night    early start   caser  ewe  lambing hurray things  getting back  normal even     dutch beltex  farmer  really fed   wants ah   sacked   threatened  kill   recently imported dutch sheep   paper work   right   come  blood sampled    sent  results   brother   still  form    refused  permission  move    sheep    shouldnt       form      blood results  defra    joke   wasnt  serious oh    complaint   deluging us  paper yes  guessed   sent another 7 x 20 sheets  a4 idiots aw    tiz     get help  sat morning    shame  hey ho    coping   post fmd constant changing   goal posts went  susan ians  another curry    really good time   decided  phase  house group   coming hopefully low moor will set   3rd house group  wigton hebron  going  change  new outlook groups sun never managed  get  church  calls  day beautiful day though  weather  really picked  must get garden sorted  seeds planted  came   call  evening   one good point   job  allow  kids  join     really growing   wanted  go  cinema   wife  late  weather good  came back    walked  dog  wound   boys mon early morning call  see  farmer    scrap metal dealer  hates authority  therefore didnt want anyone   land  fmd  refused access  maff      working   caused real problems    gun removed  police   handled badly    rogue   colourful rumour    real reason   allowing anyone    amount  smuggled cigarettes   great  hide  also runs  fishery shellfish enterprise     beach  odd times   found guilty  fined 350   trouble  never paid   went bust  everything    wife  kids names    unsubstantiated rumour  quite amusing  push comes  shove  ministry   nothing    cooperation   farmers  vet students  arrived   feel  bit guilty      stay   feel  still need space   moment    making    royal oak prayer quad   lads   good  still   got stuff  magazine  spent time praying tues  dates important cos   birthday 39 today  kids  brought presents    breakfast  bed   really nice  number  ordinary calls  ill animals  increasing rapidly went  2 new restocking farms today  think one  day  probably enough    full  stories   ministry  wanted  unload   one  understood  first  particularly upsetting     admiring  new parlour  set     put   waiting  4 months    talking    animals getting slaughtered   wife  fighting back tears   also  unsure  whether     right thing  investing   new parlour    unsure   future      reaching 50    right thing    unfortunately  think   right   couldnt say   made reassuring noises    spent  money     late now  future  dairy   good  price  going  continue    world prices    current exchange rate  uneconomic   uk  second farm  sheep  drop    grazing   burial site    planted carrots  turnips   surrounding field  couldnt listen  another set  woes    still upset   first lot  kept conversation light   sheep weds  never realised  fmd  like   grief   anniversaries  get   fears  barriers   put  rest     farm  give certificates  2 heifers sold  calf    saying    year   day  fmd hit  village  ai fellow    well    talking         saying   thinks  will  years  everybody returns  normal   revisiting farms    helping   slaughter   ai   saying    take  deep breath every time  returns  one   farms    partners meeting  lunchtime  usual aw turned  late  finally decided  advertise  see whether   vets    will come  work  fmd country    bit frustrating   foresaw     busy     nabbed d  longtown  gg ever cautious  went completely around  circles trying different options    everything else   prediction  can make    know   dont know  much depends  govt decisions  supply  pharmaceuticals  farms    future   svs state vet service    usually  15   farm work   currently  50  thursday tomorrow  will get  lunch break    resolution   managed  stop  lunch  week yet  farm calls keep coming   partners meeting today  geckos bums  goose bums rectal prolapses variety   spice  life also  much laughter  watching norman   bath jgs tortoise   come   hibernation early   anorexic much clunking  bumping 2 lambings  cow caesaer  hours  busy  call   also  last house group    end   era        house   past 6 years  different folk    god speak  us   others      time  move  friday started  another caeaser  early morning start  didnt get  lunch break time  reconsider things   folk  dinner    arranged  long time ago  seemed like  good idea  time   enjoyable    14 hour day yesterday   10 hour one today    feeling life  soul   party one couple  still trying  decide  future   farm   thought  progressive family farm  yet    convinced      finds  difficult     three generations  consider  father  go   buy stock tomorrow   son wants  come home  work   feel   broaden  options  difficult   also saying   ha d helped  neighbour  flagged      going past  wanted help  move  cow     last time  touched  cow       slaughtered  knocked    stride   rest   day   good time    looked  time  1 o clock sat 23rd march wife went   counselling course  day  left   bit  edge  morning     call sat   looking  4 kids   managed    back sore  stiff  ive missed  gym  will go back  tues still managed  get  bit done  garden    great spring day  made  feel like summer  coming went  beckfoot  beach   afternoon  kids evening went  bed early  shattered sun 24th back stiffer  gardening  went  church davidsons  moved  thursby  will  good    around   school watched northbank beat stanwix u12 s 6 0  boys played well  passed  ball around  lot son played well  must work less w es  watch  boys play  mon 25th looking forward  finishing  friday  another large test today started  8 30am  finished  6pm   least  meant     office      face    usual hassle factors   good  see   place  always well run  organised  real family farm  three generations working together  granddad  75 still  much calling  shots  craic  good  lunch   sister  friendly   wife   got custard   rhubarb tart  wife doesnt like custard   never get     bothered  make   one   kids never       conservative   asking  view   future     sold bullocks privately ie    auction     21 day stand still   price  poorer  selling via  auction defra will  allow  trade   auction   farms   standstill     dead in24hrs   minimal risk    putting everyones backs  tues 26th went   first visit  another restocked farm    4 month waiting  well  visit new zealand   made  sandstone plaque 3ft  4 ft  carved   date  went   fmd   number  cattle   almost  head stone type memorial  cow  digestive problems  right displaced abomasums rda probably due   transit  change  diet weds 27th small animal day  trying  get everything organised  going away finalised advert  vet record  new assistant lots  adverts   applicants   local practices  advertising     takers  hope       shortage    lack  confidence   area defra havent paid us   lot  visits   needs sorted    record   visits  e   lost  claim forms   mountain  paper work  will  pay   originals     duplicates  will probably pay    well   well organised   really slipping back   old ways  paper chasing  frustration without  within  palpable   just quit   will   civil servant  removed unless things change  secretarys    fmd funded computer courses  digging   paper work will   wait thurs 28th demob happy just  test  read      10 days  test  clear   busy   locum came   look around  see     sa  several days  week  help  think will   help good friday missed   church  one   boys   complete wobbler     well just tired  end  term  hope  went walking  family  friends  must learn  shoot     says    little scramble   means    dangerous  kids    fun   enjoyed   weather  glorious   fells  crowded tourism  back went   sharp edge  blencathra kids  well holiday sat 6th april came back   late boat  belfast  arrived   wigton late  grandparents  sad  see us go   think   also found us  quite tiring  kids  enjoyed playing squash    something   like  continue sun 7th april beautiful frosty morning  went  church   speaker arrived much  ss relief just    announcing  last song   sermon  think   wondering    say instead   prepared sermon went  son s foot ball cup match   10 year olds   talking    referee  making several bad decisions including  dubious penalty   team northbank  crowd well  30  us    team   big crowd  getting  bit restless robbie  sprinting   wing  front   dad      sent flying  one   team  dad  shouted ref   gave  penalty    nothing    least give us  foul     point  ref blew  whistle  came across  thumped   whole thing    descend    brawl    another parent  trying  restore calm  telling everyone  walk away    followed   northbank kids game abandoned   await  fas report      carlisle manager  sacked   knightons trading insults   prospective buyer  carlisle  future  football  carlisle   looking good mon 8th last day   sorting  vcf magazine  getting   date  paper work etc  carrock fell     see another walker   sunny  cold  beautiful  night went  crusaders area meeting    trying  get  one  arrange area events  kids   support  group structure    one    time   funding  appoint  post     went around  circles   large degree  meeting decided  try  raise  funding tues 9th feel like    handed  notice  today   awful going back  response   advert   new vet now stands  2 students   yet  qualify   harry giving  grief   fact  defra promised     test  cattle prior  turn   e end  march  havent told us  helpful  allocation   even come    useless    one farm   half restocked   parlour   yet restored  heifers  calving    milking   dump bucket  throwing  milk away  cant get  stock     waiting testing  brucellosis   heifers     farm   french heifer  went   wanted  bring  direct    farm    let  bring  heifers    farm   paper work        allow multiple drop offs idiots   high levels  frustration  complete overload      good start back tomorrow  must see   hiding    tray   never   chance  look today weds 10th quieter day  managed  catch   paper work     lot  next week mapped   feel   control night work seems   easing  fewer lambings students seem   enjoying  time  us even though    little time  actually teach      luxury   time  go  cases     take    voluntary basis    moment lunch   higher priority   education im  selfish brat thurs 11th spoke  soon chaotic  managing workload   much fire brigade work    easy fire brigade work   emergency work  needs seen urgently ie today   now son isnt  well   tired easily  today  must make  appointment     vague signs fri 12th half day finish yo   really get   3   half day week   side      wife  going away   w e      finished  3 15  kids   want    people carrier  also   muck   car     bad since fmd another positive contribution  fmd  made   life  actually feel morally obliged  keep  car    biohazard ok  still needed  wheelie bin     post  notes  bits  cardboard   excessive packaging  surrounds  medical product  seems  find  way    back seat   car  always remember reading  sunday paper article   cars different people drove     lying around   back seat    showed   personality im sure       field day   car  use   able  tell farm vets cars   mile      gone clean  shiny sat 13th april  week end    thought   saturday morning lie  unfortunately    football tournament  carlisle today 9am start    usual  get  town  managed  get  staples     trying   since  birthday  spend  birthday money  difference  men  boys   size   toys   wife frequently reminds      proud owner   digital camera  question   will  find time  set   took back   library books  made  mistake  checking   librarian  says  also   talking book  another junior fiction well  thought     lucky  get     ever bring  fines  kids   sunk    wife keep track    came home  enjoyed  good weather  fortunately  team bottomed   didnt get   next round v asked   dropped  son    football   wife gone   son  said   away  gruerly      away   girlie w e    time   family cycle ride   kirkbride   coast   beautiful     really good time came back via wigton  supplies     desperate need   tesco shop sunday 14th   easy day  cooked    tomorrow   wife   supply next week  ages since   cooked even made scones church   video sermon   ok  different saw p  s back  nz  will   arrange  catch    incredibly jet lagged  must  sunday cos everyones  church 36 hrs travelling wife arrived back   week end away  capernwray    week end  sounded      gone back   teenage years  midnight feasts  playing tricks      quite tired  pleased    early night mon 15th  diary  unfortunately died   point    3 weeks later    going back  filling   details   remember    probably  bits   really important      much going   diary  remained     list together   tax return   small mountain  paperwork  reasons  varied  one      youngest lost  temper   computer  slammed   mouse  broke  left right bar   pointer   go    now  practice manager  learnt  computing   dark ages  doss assures     need  mouse  operate  computer     enough problems trying  get  stupid machine     want     mouse forget trying shortcut keys  arrows   new mouse  bought   man assured  wife  just   plug   hey presto   find  driver  work blank screens consult hand book try inserting disk try exploring disk try windows disk consult practice manager    may  gathered    guru  says  may need  install  driver   doesnt work  will    disk  dont   mouse  use  try  find  install  driver  assures    dont need  mouse  understand   youngest son lost  temper   stupid machine   mature adult   can  times   walk away  cool   dont feel like trying   24 hours   new mouse   man assured  wife  just   plug   hey presto   find  driver  work plugged    said looking  driver installing driver   worked    first time tuesday thursday riding lights went  see riding lights    christian theatre group   performing   senior school  night   extremely funny  hard hitting   pointed     time    magazine  sketches   sorts  different things modern interpretations  parables  bible stories sketches asking questions  society    view things  difficult  put  words  thought provoking  lots  levels sat 20th april  weds 24th april lost   mists  time thursday 25th starting  diary    missed 10 days   much going   spring work  chaotic   lot  problems   trying  run  practice  5 vets plus  part time locum instead  7 full time   time  year   said    advertised  tried  get  one  xmas   view   falling milk price  mean less work   defra tasting    making     havent restocked     gone   dairy  brings us   work  saying  told     help  ill just keep  big mouth shut   practice manager says  good old days   new   rota  going       just making      went along      year  crisis management now  end must  nigh     health survey apart  feeling pressure  work    also managed  catch ringworm   leg  fungal infection  cows    itchy  sore   responding   treatment  will   get gps opinion friday 26th april remind  next time   try  interview  busy periods    embarrassing  turn  late   interview    chaotic day  managed  interview    frighteningly well prepared   lists  questions  hope  didnt put      disorganised  think  sandale view will   influential  part   interview  always take    sandale viewpoint  show   practice spread  panoramically beneath  well  sold   job  finally getting finished   exhausted   people  dinner    stay awake   sociable sat 27th april  folk  dinner last night   working flat   probably    clever idea didnt fall asleep   morning  feel like death warmed     another interview  morning  dont think  can make  good impression     good job    looking  employ rather   employed  candidate    kirby stephen farmers daughter      immediate advantage  seems fine   will offer   job  question    offer    job went  bed feeling ill    migraine  slept  afternoon    bed  9pm sad   sun 28th feel  lot better   sleep  church  af speaking   always entertaining  opening slide  knighton         keep    footie  carlisle michael knighton   hated owner  carlisle united   trying  get  club relegated   can build houses   land   destroying  club     popular anyway  second slide    grace  forgiveness  went   say  church     failures  feel loved  welcome    need gods love  forgiveness   really good  entertaining  making real points spent time   garden  playing footie   boys mon 29th monday morning   sinking feeling  helped   wifes teaching 3 days  week   trustees meeting  borderline  means additional pressure  running around  morning  working   amount  holiday    owed  conclusion    will employ     owed 46 days holiday    can take 2 months   plus  sabbatical   owed means   take 5 months   wish   happening  5 vets  owed  200 days  us  will  almost  vet   year     health diary   mention  visit   doctor   half  hour wait past  appointment time fizzing knowing      make  time  later   evening  finally saw  doc  agreed   diagnosis  agreed   treatment   occupational hazard  farm work ring worm   take scrapings     tuesday testing next door    always end  working   pen   railway   middle   stream    build  pen  dry land away   trains  dont know  suppose   always done   way   first  know   train   thunder   goes   head  startles  cows  jump sending  muddy slurry flying everywhere william  still  wearing  helmet   quad bike   drives around despite  fathers protests  neighbour   way  brain damaged  coming   weds 1st  may mayday  radio  predicting riots  paris    le pen anti globalists  london   feel  real peace   turning   month   funny   different month can make  feel  different april  always  worst month  work   lot  routine work dehorning  testing   lot  lambings  calvings  emergencies even though  beginning  may  just    always feel   passed  peak   can cruise  summer  fact    accepted  jobs    will   cover helps though  will  start  summer thursday 2nd may  spite   yesterdays predictions  wasnt  trouble  paris  london  cyclists causing traffic jams     media     report  bad news   good news  havent seen anything beyond  cumberland news   farms restocking stopped  beckfoot   rounds  sat   sunshine   beach  10 mins  thought    life though  talking  one   neighbours one   farmers   real problems getting motivated   milking ayrshires really quiet cows     anything   idea  getting excited  turn  time  moving   fast amble   spring pastures   bought  really wild suckler limousin xs   look    wrong way  put  tails   air  take     dehorning   lost one  jumped   gate another put  tail   air  took   stopping   came   block wall   end   yard unfortunately  didnt stop fast enough  crashed headlong    now   definite tilt    wall isnt  hot either  think     look   likes    wouldnt   keen  get   bed either friday 3rd may spoke  early  things easing  2 bad calvings  caesarean  testing plus  usual ill animals  got finished  5 45  took  wife   dinner   cockatoo  cockermouth  pleasant    wanted  go   socialise  10pm  wanted home  bed sat 4th may  yippee took  kids  nichol end  went canoeing   lake got absolutely frozen   really good fun  rained  spite    good weather forecasts    style  canoeing   always soaked anyway   picnic  one   islands   fun came back  slept   afternoon   taken  boys  see  fa cup    happy playing around watched ghandi  dvd  night     moving film   ambiguities  politics came    muted extent   interesting  often makes  wonder   much  govt policy  personality driven   inability  individuals  fight  system came   front page   times  morning    toddler   died  post op haemorrhage following  use  disposable instruments   tonsillectomy large amounts  money   spent  disposable instruments   always inferior  good quality surgical kit several people  died    use   one wanted  take   small theoretical risk   may transfer nvcjd  approach  risk management  prioritisation within government   civil service   poor    fait    press   helpful   like  see prescott stand   say   wants  deaths   railways   never will  less money  spent  safety   railways  trains   convenient times  run  lower costs     fewer deaths   roads    one holds politicians responsible  deaths   roads  aint gonna happen sun 5th may church  dn   brilliant  getting  kids involved son s face lit     walking   church  see  walking  botchergate  guitar  hand    skin    cast   snake  based  songs   kids   talks      new creation cor 5 vs 17 getting rid   old self  hence  snake skin   brilliant   guitar   real performer wasted   tax inspector mon 6th may maybe getting  kids soaked  frozen  sat    good idea     coming   colds now tim   chesty      night hot  wheezy  infection always goes   chest  helvellyn will   wait  another day  concreted posts  pressure washed  yard  boys loved helping  demanded  play football  payment ag     dad  dropping   caravan   away   w e p called   manchester en route  thailand   handing   notice  going booked summer holiday  france  now   work        way   back tues 7th may went testing   really    kids bug  feel hot  feverish went  bed  rest  day weds 8th didnt feel like getting   bed  went  work first   deer rta   supposed  meet  police car    police either car  policeman   glad  wasnt  controversial  important    taken  details  hope     end    afternoon  spent chasing stirks around  field  abbeytown  dehorned      done  time last year   nt   fmd theyre now 2 yr old  means   really  big  go around upsetting two went   dyke one way   went    side   ones garden     abbeytown road     bit   rodeo  ended  charging m  hurt  shoulder trying  escape    happy   morning  got  letter asking   cut back  milk production   jokingly asked      winter    farmers will  given   christmas  long term  look   good   least  will  2 new graduates  training  cope   upturn    comes thurs 9th day  unfortunately spent  morning shopping  carlisle  meant wandering around shops  trying  find clothes  needed   daughter   dress sense leaves  lot   desired   keeps  right met gb another carlisle vet   good  havent seen    bit  lunch    nice though also got   bits   tennis net  will  able  get    annoying bit   got  parking ticket  sent  blood pressure  now  know  often park   paying    wrong places   just living dangerously      carlisle   decided  go   lunch    reason    wife s car  usual    change   car well  usual    money        blame  know  never  change   car    enough  2 hours   pocket    honest    opinion quite long enough  carlisle shops    way  lunch   made  special trip back   car park armed  coins ready  pay  city council  extortionate fee    spend  money  carlisle city shops  first machine refused  coins  even tried  2nd machine  also refused  accept  hard earned cash   left  note saying  machine   working   windscreen  yes  guessed   came back  find  traffic warden giving   ticket  justified  action  saying  w ere 4 machines      bought  ticket grrrrhhh fri 10th finish  another week   tb testing  lot  cows  netherlands mris meuse rhine issel  good beefy looking dairy cows dual purpose     test   dont know     keep page st happy    tested prior  export  holland   want  tested   farmer   bio security conscious    land    single block now bounded  roads  arable cultivation    cattle  insisted  tested     results prior  purchase  spite    good sense   still going    missing vials  porton    paranoid conspiracy theories   spread  fmd   part  cold flu feel  though things  getting back  track  can look   next 12 months  confidence thereafter depends  whether  wto wins   eu  get rid  subsidies  whether maintaining  food supply within  eu  seen  important  one thing  fmd  taught     never know  will  coming next   feel guilty  saying     train crashes  seeing  crash   news today  potters bar sat 11th may working  w e  saw another calf  ccn caused   deficiency  b1 usually rare  seems   much  prevalent  year due  old grass  pastures dont know   greyhound client  bringing   greyhound  behalf   one else    chased   practice  non payment    stressful half hour negotiating   irate idiot   paid  old bill  stumped  front   new one  seemed placated treating  animals  easy spent  afternoon   garden  fixing   tennis nat   given  old second hand net    fixed    concrete    good fun playing   kids  concrete   level   lots  loose stones   bounce   bit erratic went   50th birthday party     teased  work   maintain   friends   children   20 s    good craic   food  brilliant   one   partners   lawyers  carlisle  complaining       hourly rate  charging   185 consequently  couldnt attract good lawyers   firm   city firms  offering far greater salaries   charging   juniors  200  couldnt admit   hourly rate   45    think  45 hour   lot  money     9  5 lawyer sunday went  church nl   still half asleep   late night spent  afternoon  evening   calls  ok till  midnight call   decided    lawyer  probably  much better idea monday 13th half asleep   w e  took  little   get going  kept  week  bit quieter       lot  last minute dehorning  castrating  hasnt come    really  quieter    office work  trying  work    two computer systems        balances   accounts   tired sore head   worthwhile    preferable  sorting rotas    came home  sat  read tintin much   wifes disgust  also looked   cash flow predictions   totally   line  usually take  pessimistic view   err   side  caution    totally  fortunately  right way  partners think    waste  time  effort  try  predict  much   bills  farmers  going  pay   month  pay every month   pay every now   either    time  money    accountant  vat man needs  books  suppose   right  cares  long    pay also finally caught   gp  ringworm still  getting better  finally  antifungals   farmers couldnt get hold   vet pretty quickly  discuss whats going    give us earache tuesday 14th halfway  may  time  get  rest   planting done   garden beautiful weather  feels like summer   gg   visit  trading standards   bulls     given  certificate  fitness  travel   now  slaughterhouse within  hours drive    cattle ulverston   nearest   animal   fit   transported alive   reason eg    lame  blind etc      shot   farm   carcase transported   slaughterhouse however   new meat hygiene regulations  2 3 years ago  carcase   arrive within  hour   shot   fine  black brow  operating  slaughterhouse  since   closed    options   animals   shot   farm unless  put     freezer    consumption thus whereas    borderline cases    shot   farm   carcases transported now  pressure   get  transported alive   farmer loses  value   animal 500 600    pay 75  get  shot  disposed   sooner either carlisle slaughterhouse  black brow slaughterhouse get working   better weds 15th day  spent  morning catching   paper work feel better    never  favourite job    bits  pieces   place   tax return just waiting   final  pieces  paper wrote  caustic letter  council   parking ticket  sent   cheque   worth  fight went   front art gallery  lunch  one  made  set  peat rings   golden bowl   centre  wanted hundreds  pounds   art creation   dont ask  dont get spent afternoon running  kids  wife  taking   town  hair cut  girl time last football match  northbank  son lost thursday 16th  long lunch  back  wasnt much happening vet wise  still  lambing today   season  dragged  one restocking farmer   today   ewe   lambed   200 sheep   supposed   fattening  market 20  lambed  guy  bought    adamant   never near  tup someone needs  tell    birds   bees   also  good  slightly apocryphal story  defra licensing   needed  licence  move  bull  licensing department asked   bull going   used  breeding purposes yes   farmers reply will  animal  coming   contact    animals friday 17th another tb test another restocking farm  stories  best one   fact   cattle  lain   week   pasture field   shot  decided  plough    barley   back end  spent  summer pressure washing  farm buildings   gleaming state  sterility   animals  lain   still obvious contamination  blood etc   ploughed    failed  buildings  specks  dirt defra  just  interested  contaminated blood stained earth   also phoned  day   arrived  send  one   arrange tb testing  chaos   continues sat 18th may     best man  friend  around last night  news  getting married    wedding every month   next 4 months must  something   water   moment unfortunately  meant    really late night celebrating    working  w e   getting   saturday morning surgery   bit grim  survived       animals  worrying thing    sure  drs  just   spent  afternoon playing football  tennis   kids   yard  mowing  grass  farmers   now silaging   roads  full  tractors flying around   times  night  day sat evening went  wife  hear sa speak  kds   good  see   clare   visited   bombay   height  fmd   always puts things back  perspective  runs  mission hospital  thane  outskirt  bombay    self funding  charging  rich  luxury service  long way behind  nhs  providing  basic service foc   average indian   now talking  trying  raise funding  building  aids hospice  provide pain relief  dignity     dieing  aids    stigma  cost  risk  cross infection   hiv  tb  lot  aids patients  just thrown    homes  hiv ve babies  abandoned   says    epidemic sweeping bombay  will leave  lot  orphans  cause secondary epidemics   immuno suppression     really  addressed  thought provoking  makes  millions wasted  fmd look  sick   global perspective sun missed church   morning   seeing  cats  dogs   surgery  dripping calf   large animal bay spent   afternoon  visits  work   play  making   grumpy boy 2 w es   row   good mon aw   worse mood     least   worked w e   winding every one    attitude   sthg  will    addressed  will     partnership decision wife  interviewing fc tonight  christian viewpoint  carlisle  came back full     good  people  interviewing   also challenged   f  saying   importance  treating people  loved  valued  god   ways  similar  s  valuing aids patients    valued  god tuesday missed gym  3rd week   going   getting really unfit    duty   spent time talking  folk  work valuing     nice   came      always likes   call     never seem  know whats going    mind still waters run deep weds dad phoned   decided   come   w e away  w e    family reunion   looks like  will  just  family  ps   kids love meeting    cousins even   will  doubt complain      girl cousins     girl   wife s side   family  mine    bit worrying     losing confidence   anything outside  normal routine    times like   realise london   really  close   problem  working  many w es doesnt give much time   travelling     see  thursday g  away   course yesterday  came back full  doom  gloom  along time   relied   drug sales   substantial part   business    various government reports   queried  monopoly     move  insist   provide prescriptions    drugs   allow  farmers  pet owners  buy  drugs  whatever source  want internet pharmacy  us  means however   professional fees will inevitably   rise  compensate  means  will  uneconomic   farmers  use us   will    present economic climate  means  job carlisle brampton  dalston vets   starting  write prescriptions  means    going    follow suit  farmer  rents  field  silaging tonight  got back  house group  find  tractor follow    start rowing         day  decided  take  gates   hinges     narrow gap    time  night  clunk   pillar  ok   dont want    replace  wooden gates   just started  pick     went  bed  11pm   idea  time  finished friday g   ill help  looked  though  might miss    w e away    working  w e   fact    meant 3 w es   row  6 nights   row managed  help persuade one   assistants  step  thankfully   finished  lunch time  slept  catch     call   kids came home  school  set    w e saturday 25th may dovedale   derbyshire peak district definitely    w es away   working    great time   cousins stayed   farmhouse b b  use    working farm    high    small  sustain  dairy   went    3 yrs ago beef  sheep   making  money    concentrated  tourism  grass let  fields  neighbours  now renting  land  farming  beautiful walk along  valley   tea  relaxed  slept like  log sunday great british summer makes  wonder   one  want  go abroad wet  cold  went  water world  watched  kids big  little go flying around  flumes   good  catch    brother  family  boys  play footie  day long   happy monday   catch  breath  tidy  flat  tenants arriving thursday spent day trying  reduce  weeds  garden  went swimming  night  boys still wanted  play footie    get  energy    bottle    make  fortune tuesday  felt like hard work going back  work  time   always seem   tired  head achy  seems   hard work  get going  ai just dont feel like  anything including writing  diary   good news      new booted bantie bertie  cockerel    now ensconced   run   hoping  get   young ladies     distant future   cute      moon   weds getting going  spent time talking   wife   always puts things back   line communication went    pregnancy diagnosis early  morning   farmer  complaining   cost   vet bill   wanting  learn   check cows  see     calf prior  drying   whole economics  dairy practice  milk  13p per litre  beginning  hit home     nice starting    realise    make money    one    vets   really bad form  week   causing  lot  friction   will   deal     staff    arms  least    tomorrow prior  working jubilee w e  mother  law arrived   kids love complete   special treats   snowballs went   dinner  mother  law   tired  enjoy  due  early morning caesarean thursday  spent morning getting flat ready    new tenants moving   clearing    girls went shopping dry weather  intermittent heavy showers tackled  long grass  front   grass got  wet  clogged mower picked  kids    fatherly bit went  bed early  head achy  washed   caught   zzzzs friday start   jubilee w e   duty   next 5 days  5pm weds evening work busy  bits  pieces  farmers complaining     wet  silage one   vets  issued  pets export certificate   cat  come back  uk   put    2 years  one    valid  2 years  dogs  1 year  cats typical friday afternoon problem  sort   help line  closed  training  maff offices  closed   bh w e  dont think    way around  either  will   able  sort   till weds day    due  ferry  tuesday oops also  bitchs owner came   ask    open tues    due   date  will probably need  caesaer johnboy called   evening wanting   go   loyal supporters meeting  carlisle united   spy im  call  couldnt oblige thank goodness sat 1st june office staff  asking     2 vets   whole w e    beginning  feel     split      staff    least  others will get  break  come back refreshed   feel like   looking   barrel   gun horrendous calving   heifer    calf  mistake   father   supposed   gone back   breeder   buyer  still tied    twenty day rule  calf  died   gassed  ended   caesaering  spite  rotten calf 2 hours hard work   heifer will  best   ill  several days sun 2nd june  day  football went  church  made  quick exit  watch  football   everyone else  quite disappointed  hebron  night dm   goals   reactions     big screen   linked  romans 12 therefore  urge   offer  bodies  living sacrifices    act  spiritual worship talking  worship  god  everything   including   react    english football team perform  clever  memorable way  expounding  bible went straight   son s football presentations   quite fun    real football sub culture   amateur football clubs  carlisle  vying   top spot  old pals network  animosities seem    prevalent mon 3rd june busy night  early start 2 x prolapses  always   bh  second one   wild limousin heifer  charged   sent  flying   injury   sore fist   thumped    eye  try  deflect     trying  get  away gave   fright    heifer   bred   couldnt sell  store last year   restrictions chatted  farmer  started getting   4 30   fmd   couldnt sleep   still   now  still   got  sheep    cant face   lost  sheep   cull  kept  cattle   started  admiring  view  said yeah    great apart   damn windmills    brilliant viewing looking    solway   great orton site   windmills remind   everyone else   flocks    big pit  says  can still see  going  feels guilty  didnt   heart  tell     10000 blood samples taken  gt orton  2  positive   big mistake   caused big hurt   area   one  admitted responsibility   one ever will tues 4th june watched    jubilee stuff  tv   calls amazing sight  see  mall full  people   ever  yet rupert murdoch   press   us believe   monarchy  finished  managed  cope  just  two  us  call  may    right also made  start  byre remind  next time    dinner party   bh    working    poor wife  4 kids   dinner  prepare   called    cow caesar  3 30    another call   fortunately   taken tim    one less  fight  got back   told       bath    help   smelt evening  really good fun  hilariously funny  even  kept going   wrong side  midnight    early start  pretty good going  will   get phil    senator homes skit   wedding weds 5th june   feel like getting       felt even less like going  work managed  extricate us   problems   cat    passport    give   defra system     expected richard   suspect fmd calf  tuesday  wonder    bit jittery   spoke   later  even though  know   probably isnt going    case    farmer  panicking  still sets  butterflies flying   bvd spent   hour   half  morning   phone sorting    aw calls  rubbish queries   helpful  friendly  sorting  licensing  drugs  repeat prescriptions one   woman complaining   neighbouring practice  required  bit  tact  think  drs must    busy  us  tally   celebrations  1  ill  flu  bad back one wrist sprained  scooter racing   street party    kids  gone  bed  one  spent  w e visiting  boyfriend  hospital   said   needed  go   friday   doctors  put       w e   worse  sunday   waited till   football  ringing priorities priorities thursday went  house group   really good  spent time praying   group church area   world situation friends  trying  work      india   teaching   boarding school   south  india      family  also  school kids  think   consensus    foreign office advice  aimed    indian  pakistani govts   uk nationals ian  supposed   visiting    flight booked   still going   moment  really cant believe    escalate  situation   will  tit  tat   going   brink  neither will want  break face  ramifications  sept 11th still keep reverberating around  world   balance  power alters makes fmd look like  picnic  least   stable govt  says  abides   laws friday  secretary asked  morning    want meaning tea  coffee   replied    prayed wisdom   2 sugars    difficult partners meeting  lunch time poor timing  priorities   england  playing   assumed   lose   meeting went well   issues  discussed amicably enough  frankly enough    know      issues  addressed   james says    asking  wisdom  also putting   action  night leant   fence  talked   neighbour   thistles   supposed   cutting  carried  growing     nice evening  works  stl  christian book distributors   saying   fire    just   arrived   time seemed  disaster  caused chaos   made  make decisions     made rather  continuing   status quo   hind sight    good thing  wonder   look back whether  changes  opportunities  fmd will make us appreciate  decisions      make  made  think   woman  came  today saying   one   lucky ones  didnt get fmd  much tongue  cheek    much worse       gave   job   couldnt sell  calves    born    one   look     went back home  work   farm  job  course   filled   mean time     made  lot  money  less hassle    stayed sat 8th june finished  long period  work   call  sat morning   came   heavy showers    hoped  climb helvellyn today  eased    night   just  well    going   bbq   put    s african vet  defra   now working  longtown  last time  drove   charlie  ruths   hosting  bbq    pyres   burning  gave   funny feeling driving back    food  good   craic  good     good time  kids   kept going    beginning  get high  midges   get north   border  definitely worse    lumps     morning sun 9th sb spoke  church  jesus healing  blind man  pool  siloam    easy  follow friends called   stayed  tea   usual blunt  controversial  ever  always   good insight  dresses    taking things  extremes   also  funny      good meal son   high   kite    going camping   school  week      kit ready  go    settle  go  sleep  kept   boys awake mon 10th pouring   time   school camp  borrowdale never mind theyll enjoy   way 3 farms   silage pits burst   grass   put   wet  silage  made   grass   wet  flows  slowly   support   weight   bursts  side walls  will flow    heap     put     plenty  effluent coming   will usually escape   normal collecting systems    gets   becks   worse  slurry hunters stream  black  effluent   environment agency   testing  water quality   will    high jump  contractors   far behind   grass  getting  long  bulky   doesnt dry   quickly   may well       least  farmers will   warning   will    fault  school kids  back   work experience week  must  hard    follow   going    seem  enjoy  selves  worksheets definitely help  give  structure   feel    going  crusaders meeting  night pretty disappointing response    lot  can  tues 11th june workload  set   im just cruising  managed  get   gym   first  feel full  energy    feel full  energy  expending  spent half  hour  net trying  get holiday organised  finding places  6    easy  weather  better  son camping    better   w e means  will hopefully  quiet  work    go    fields weds 12th  calls  night first time since finishing  defra    call  night summer  truly     call just  half time  815      break  got  see  second half  england drew 0 0    t o  next round caught   paper work   sorted  lot  things     place   2 new vets thurs 13th meeting  bank manager  executive lunch sandwiches  bells  asked    new normality  seems  excellent phrase  seemed happy enough    always interesting  see   outsider views  information given  problem  usually knowing  questions  ask  think   probably  seemed happy enough    always interesting  see   outsider views  information given  problem  usually knowing  questions  ask  think   probably true   inquiries  fmd unless  know  questions  will  get  right answers went abseiling   sandale   house group  church    bbq     nicer   wind hadnt howled   gone prepared  british summer weather    still pretty nippy   great fun fri read another test   ir s  tb inconclusive  will    retested  60 days    writing   paper work  farmers wife  saying   kids    school  nursery  hand foot  mouth   taken  youngest   ill   middle kid   doctor  doctor  said      middle kid burst  tears   thought   going  take  baby brother outside  shoot    funny  also  sad   farmer  really fed    cows   supposed   tb tested prior  arriving   farm   also let     long 5 acre field   water troughs   far end   field half  cows   found  trough     thirsty   time  came back  milking time  idea   just go  replace  cows just like    quite  case sat 15th june saturday morning spent  gardening  strawberries  coming  even though  gooseberries arent quite ripe picked   start  harvest   one strawberry   reddish  went  visit friend   wide screen tv   football match  one expected   english progress   lads surprised   played  stormer   game  brazil will become  match  practice bbq  watery june sunshine  good fun   ground   wet  play silly games  even footie  food  excellent aw  notable   absence hey ho bbq   need   revamp maybe abseiling though  dont think  can see either r  aw going   showed s around flat  met  parents remind    wise   kids sun felt tired  ill  washed   slowing   switching    busy day yesterday   week watched  ireland match    close spent rest  day sleeping  just chilling  mon went testing  k  td   really nice lads    hot   academic front  good fun    good form  hoping  get  low    new vets yes   young free  single  far   know  pity  chances spent  lazy day   sun   gentle pace  quite enjoyed  caught    paperwork  night  feel mellow tuesday  many os one call  cancelled    one still wanted  call   one went   wrong o     make  mad dash  pour oil   waters  explain     late oops   testing   quiet day wife also   quiet day   supposed    group   going   retreat day   speaker  cancelled       r   went  well   exhausted  giving   day met   lads  night didnt get  gym      go  calve  schistasoma yuk weds tried   work     going    summer holidays  doubt  will get organised eventually came home early  lunch   forgotten    coffee morning   felt   place amongst  many women skipped  early  went   cycle  make   missing gym  first part    annie   zipped around   bit   good thursday k  t    r   need  new supply  little green forms  put   context prior   year  16 years  practice    4  rs      week  another farm  restrictions friday bad hair day england lost och well never mind   life richard drummonds report   svs  unprepared yeah     saying      realise   svs   saying  2 years ago   picked    audit office    report case  fmd   pig  leicester mkt    another  r  met  jm  temporary vet  carlisle svs      done  tests allocated mostly cos  arent    also   cynical   changes  defra   management ethos   changed  brought  message back     test   sent back   guy   old recluse   impossible  deal            resources    responsible  ensuring    done  sorting   recalcitrant   afternoon   ran round   kids  wife  reports next week must  better sat 22nd june wedding day  d  s yippee d   best man  usher plus 3 others arrived last night    really nice   young people around    forgotten  much  enjoy young people  must  getting  old  cynical c looked   boys   went  town   really nice s   stop smiling    wigton carnival day    two pipe bands  well    heard drifting   vows    kilt    got mine    occasion  reception   tullie house    really nice relaxed venue   seated opposite friends    really nice catching    b d  just back  another wedding  vancouver  really impressed  bc    doors fanatics   skiing mountains  whistler really   thing barnes   looking   kids  night  going     gap year  work   book shop   really great      celeidh   evening    lasted  3 dances   absolutely exhausted  didnt realise  tired   sunday fortunately    family service ie doesnt start  1100   lead   young adults group   really fresh  good  also dont take   seriously   take jesus seriously    good monday missed swimming  cos work  really busy crusaders meeting  night  rydal  good met      leaders  havent met  folk  work  young people  always good fun    wicked sense  humour   need one   youth work   youth work give  one tuesday diary   get filled       weds morning  reached  back   car   back went  tore muscles    long time ago   often niggles   long   keep   exercises  stretching  building   muscles   ok    missed   swimming relevant  way saw stars   agony  flat   back  stretching every 2 hrs  sore saturday 29th june  back  slowly improving  can move around  type  can   stretching ok  stiff  achy rather  spasm work must   bad   two left    going   short staffed    dropping  nothing  can     new vet called around  look   flat  moving   months time  came   mother  farm  culled   fmd late     just got  herd    wanted  breeding  mum  talking    going   grieving period    days   yes carry   get going    days    bother   just   much hassle  will take  long time   memories   farming community  fader    acknowledgement    much better  get  disease  get     cooperation  farmers will  even less    17th generation   farm  whole concept  bio security needs   looked   farmer education    disease  spread  self imposed isolation   sending kids  school etc  just stupid   go   flow   difficult   well   defra imposed ridiculous rules    allowed  leave  house  3 months  just view    punishment imposed   refused  let  hefted flock  culled   right    old tenants  moved    cottage eddie  ruth seemed  really enjoy    summer holiday   work  change   good   rest   say   looked  jobs   nothing appeals    job   wouldnt mind    consultancy  doubt anything will come will   wait  continue  see  happens went    meal  giannis  night   dad     w e sunday p spoke  family focus  church    encouraging   always  revelation   takes things         watched brazil beat germany  win  world cup wet weather  kids   sorts  back still sore yuk monday drove   first time  dropped  dad   carlisle    pretty sore   time  got back dad   good form    enjoyed  time      getting older     london   going    visit    regular basis went  work    paper work  answered phone  felt better   sthg  pretty bored  couldnt sit still  really get going either came home  lay   d came around  night called  absolutely hyper    going  split      good even      un expected  thing   brought   head   fact   seeing  one else   also married   good situation lads came around  night   good fun     good time tuesday   now  father   teenager  bday    good  see  opening  presents  morning back  easing  lot   small animal today    moving freely  still   exercises  birthday  also always  time  reflection    born  year   day   arrived  cumbria      14 years  long time  future  also looking  bit uncertain work wise   farmers complaining   prices   milk  animals hence  dont want  pay  bills weds  saturday  usual  diary gets missed   crisis hits    writing    following tuesday  bringing  diary entries   date weds morning   driving  wigton  done  first farm call since   back    lots  flashing lights   ambulance   unmarked police car    lights  going  wigton  stopped   lay   wigton high st  traffic  slow     see anything later    coming back   wigton  another call    pass  closed  office  full  news    pass   closed    stabbing    welshman   wigton woman   taken  hospital   wigton man   arrested  attempted murder  got  sinking feeling  d   around  monday saying  ali   boy friend  said  wife   said surely   got back  work   friend arrived  unfortunately   d  story emerged   next  days    forced  wife  knife point  take      meeting  boyfriend    attacked   sort  story       papers  crime programmes      police taking statements  trying  come  terms     usually  mild almost submissive personality    flipped  really weird   3 girls   now going   really mixed    father  attempts  kill  mother   nice   missed  leaving party   locum    working  us   past  months    accounts   good saturday 6th july still  shell shock  d    still  believe   happened went  saturday morning  sorted  car  got testing list   date    lot   veterinary press   future   lvi system   future  farm animal practice  future   looking good  short term  fine  anything  will   huge amount  work   can live   fmd capital   farmers     begins  run     will   serious difficulties  economics    farm animal practice went    brilliant meal    really good evening  cs  husband   detective sgt    called     yet another serious incident  time   night club  cockermouth    22 year old  newcastle hospital  head injuries  felt sorry  c   cooked  hostessed    better half sunday church  good  sg   character  god   quite funny   illustrations  fatherly things   life espy   son  quite  character met   dc    defra vet  sa    good form   another locum set     finishes  longtown monday back  full swing    much happening read  test  felt  lot happier   didnt   leave  dreaded piece  green paper  everything passed   farms  went  though   interesting  note   farmers    problems   backs     pressure washing   amongst stock   fine  going back  pushing animals around  bad backs  back  topic  probably raised    fact       bad back du called     replacing d   railway   can get something sorted    permanent basis  stayed  2 years next door    railtrack training  people  work  believe  dave  done sthg like    usually  anything  submissive guy du  just got  keys   new house  manchester    based now     happy   posted back   cumbria  hasnt even managed  move  tuesday work  quiet  long lunches good  getting  things done  pretty boring looked  rota  checked websites reports   published  18th july spent time sorting  rotas  booking   reorganising  kit weds day  went  carlisle   bounced   wife   getting  hair cut    assume   expensive hairdressers   getting  done  dragged       fait accompli  least  assume   expensive   wont tell   much     let  go   tescos  said   pay   wandered around book shop  carlisle  met wife s mum   bus  vet student  usa arrived   couple  days jamie      assumed male  female   amazing   make assumptions   read e mails  take messages    uk  12 wks  friend  given   address   wife     twins   thought  better     people  really necessary   house     babies   moment got  photo  e  morning  friend called around  say  friends    baby   couldnt remember whether    boy   girl learnt later    boy thursday   lot  j  see called   see friends new kittens posh becks   cat flu   busy painting house  tidying    wedding never seen  yard  tidy must tell abbi  get  move   maybe  will finish     building work  well  2 calvings   afternoon  finally read   audit office report   downloaded ages ago   pretty accurate apart  nick brown insisting    going splendidly well  really must   better working relationship   ministry svs vets   vets  general practice   much better communication   point   never made    farms    mass disposal plan  part   iacs return  order  keep fmd  peoples minds    already disappearing   part  history  history will repeat   nobody listens     anguish  delays    disposal systems friday dropped j   wigton  catch  train   always strange   students   stay   house    much part   lives    drop    lives another former student   just back  sa called     good  catch        way back  edinburgh   5 year reunion    qualified 5 years   thought   2  three one   vets   ill   meant  bit   run around today  2 others   holiday    good   busy  get  adrenalin pumping saturday 13th july working saturday morning  days like   think   great    small animal vet  consults   straight forward    chat   owners     stop  think      animals   2 owners  really appreciative       felt good  think   one   things  working  defra  one appreciated     ok  appreciated  concern  effort   way      one really thought      good like putting pets      best   one likes  beautiful day today   sun shining  picking strawberries    bar b q  really  pleasant  brother always says  best thing  nz   lives    can plan    barb  2 wks time whereas     go   flow sun 14th first call  wandered around seeing ill cows several lots  drugs  put    lot   restocking farms  yet  get  medicine cabinets back   strength   collie hit   tractor   eye   knocked    socket urgh eyes give   creeps mon 15th operating day      anaesthetic monitoring  plenty  ops booked  health  safety requires us  check  operator exposure  anaesthetic gases   new system   scavenging system   light years ahead   one  use      waste  time       checks done   wonder  many  practices actually    never  checked  upon  police man arrived   front desk      phone  head nurse disappeared  soon   saw  marked police car  struck    suspicious    booked  appointment   dog    left   curious  know    disappeared    gone  check   medicines cabinet   keep  gun  dangerous drugs   fact locked     operating  keep  open     easy access   emergency drugs  gun licences insist    kept locked   times  immediate access   police officer coming  check  must  allowed   never  checked  upon yet farmers   busy  field work    wanting  even think   routine work      quiet week tuesday 16th beautiful weather  raspberries coming along nicely wife s mum  busy making jam  mile high pies yum yum partners meeting  lunchtime    always make   depressed  subjects         cope   changes   drug sales prices     compete  irish drugs  brought  illegally  got  little  forward  will hopefully  able  make  decision     deadline  september  need  look  new ways  bringing  revenue streams   dont think    willing ness  look   radical   will   keep working away   weds 17th met    lads last night  pray   craic  good    chat  joking  praying twas good   apparently   good time   cs lewis convention   yet  open  book stall  sells books  specialises  antiquarian  first editions  cs lewis  one thing   internet    frees  communication  searching   really obscure sorry   weather broke today   rain came      calls   farmers got   routine stuff done   good   last   school kids   plagued us   past  weeks vet students next   least  can chat away      make   effort thurs 18th went o  farm today  restocked  feb    4 months waiting   yet    tb test asked  whether   chase     like everyone else   leaving   october  housing maff efficiency rules  also tested 44 imported heifers   supposed   blood sampled within 7 days  calving     missed    confidence  either   reports  actually achieve anything part   feels   try  contact  media  try  get   push  agenda along   dont feel   achieve much apart  sticking  head   parapet     much   asked  copies  none  arrived yet fri 19th demob happy im  holiday  5 30pm   will  good  catch     things    done   done  garden   mess    getting  top   slowly   ways   glad      lli  reporting   least  will  get wound      signing    week next diary will   sat week holiday week beginning saturday 20th july saturday 27th july    week    feeling  lot happier  life  general         nights   keswick convention    amazing set    12000 people coming together  3 weeks  keswick  meeting   bible teaching   worship god    big tent   set    back   convention centre   time  arrive   always full     late   friday evening   people standing outside  kids went   youth event    things ezekiel  exactly  easy choice  bible book  convey  19 14 yr olds   really enjoyed  wacky games   way  mixed teaching  songs  games activities  seemed   mostly uni students  seemed  get  much fun      kids  brother  family     cousins love getting together  even  joined   football  tennis even though  hand  eye co ordination    best   taken  running every day          back  still  right   can feel    slightest provocation must go swimming   brother also asked wife  diy needed      real enthusiast give  gardening  time   made  door  one   sheds     putting    past 6 years    start   another 5     also  sailing fan  hired  sail boat  went sailing   great fun  kids   canoe   raced     lake   kids swapped around  went  explore islands   really good  weather helped   scorching  also went   wedding  one   close friends son  decided   going  start teaching  kids  etiquette  weddings   groom   done  better job  isnt really  fault    young    thought things  sun went    age service   tent  keswick    many kids even     mix  action songs  asking kids things   action talk meant   leading  kept  kids involved   good  see spent  afternoon   lake   really nice day mon yep    real monday morning    tray  flowing 2 rotas  sort  2 weeks  testing  try  arrange   goodish news    ministry  finally decided  put  restocking farms  annual testing  means  least  know   stand  can plan  will mean  lot  work  us  bad news    oft investigation  sent us  horrific questionnaire  needs filled   one   partners    go   got  far unfortunately   needs     tomorrow forget   2 new vets  started     settling      picking   ropes quite quickly   ace  call  night  twice  bad calvings thats  end   holiday f feeling good tuesday sore back  calvings  early mornings  forgotten   arranged   one      day today   moment  weakness   acquiesced   put   sale   promise auction  raise money  african childrens choir     promise  redeemed  morning   vet   put   best charming manner  mr pr man  took    tour   practice   call  explained everything        good thing    busy spent  afternoon consulting  supervising new vets  showing   ropes weds   suppose   going walking  helvellyn   torrential rain put us   went  carlisle   bits  pieces   took kids  see stuart little 2   definitely one   kids  jobbed around  home   kids like    just potter around thursday felt really stiff  sore  decided   must go swimming  often  just  seem  get  thats  must make time im working  w e       10 days finishing  fs wedding friends     kids    really good  see   dont see   often     sort  friends   pick    soon   meet  even   havent seen   ages m  left full time teaching   couldnt cope   pressure    paper work  hassle   teaching supply    things  well    creative    made  model   house just    sitting chatting  us friday came home  lunchtime  see  kitchen table covered  drawings  paintings m  decided    painting day    kids   drawings  paintings   done  watercolour   house   brilliant holiday  two weeks     reflection        thinking   summer      writing   diary   want  put     things   think  important edited disclosive sat 24th aug another bank holiday w e   worked   least   backing   new young assistant  work  system   new vets   senior vet  call    time   first  months    give   hands  support  mentoring   sounds  good  practical   surprisingly uncommon   started       almost day one  started  august  getting married    second week  september  boss headed   oman   horse work     large animal vet    long term sick     get  small animal locum   look back now   left   charge   farm practice  2 weeks     month qualified  shudder    time  just got    sun 25th calvings coming thick  fast  good warm weather  made  grass spring   cows  putting   much weight   problems j    football tournament  pirellis   missed   came back really tired  played  socks   another pts put  sleep dog visit  assistant vet   never  easiest  consults    really well   finding  feet  find  hard helping people make euthanasia decisions  dogs   feel quite strongly anti euthanasia   comes  people mon 28th beautiful day  nice  work  morning  busy   afternoon  quiet   spent  lying   sun dozing  bbq  night  js  chatted    folk   know    speak    interesting spoke  one   farmers daughters  told   dad  just   first calf since fmd     really happy   2 holdings   run  one  managed  keep  heifers     second holding probably     last ones   area     ones   now calving  still blames  pyre   neighbour  spreading  virus   farm tuesday 27th  problem    day      problems stored     come back today  really hectic finished  6 30   come back   belgian blue inspections  help   surgery  inspections  fun   gave   creeps    mart  inspecting mouths   brought back bad memories  mart  ridiculously clean   last time  inspected mouths   fmd  shooting  herd    dangerous contact   trying  persuade london   take    neighbour  well  got finished  2am  went    cup  tea   recover   mother greeted    news  d   next door   starting  shoot    really annoying thing    basic hygiene    enforced  yet  rules   rules  made  london  desk bound defra officials  dont   implement   mart uses mini dumper trucks  clean   pens     sold   trucks   used  put  straw  sawdust   freshly cleansed  disinfected yards   covered  muck    bio hazard m  owner   animals   inspecting put   usual tantrum display  try  intimidate  secretary  inspectors     expecting   found quite amusing   dont think      another bbq tonight  kids son cooked  loved     found  new bbqer kids  brilliant form    enjoying  around     baking weds 28th another tb reactor   corresponding paper work  licensing   weird oddball case  surgery  spent ages trying  take  history    going   dog    unwell      intermittent history  different things  look forward  seeing   turns     whether  resolves   time vetting  always varied j   friends party    football school  blackburn rovers  morning    passed  arranged  visit prisoner  prison   next day   went   multitude  meaningless options  end    guy  sounded like  came straight  porridge   amazing  intimidating trying  find  way around  bureaucracy can     sure  want  go  thurs 29th  feast  famine  much work   day  least al  3 caesareans last night   running   steam  5 oclock  afternoon meanwhile   small animals  tried  organise  trip  london  visit  dad found web sites  chitty chitty bang bang london eye  madam tussards    able  book  advance  tickets  left   half term week  children  staying   house  full  excited kids friday 30th busy day sorting   invitations   open day 1st oct   just  chance  get  farmers together  promised one  celebrate  end  fmd   amazing going   list   computer  many farms   restocked  list hasnt  updated since pre fmd   dont really know  many will restock     waiting   end  fmd  redo       deaths sales  moved away  take   list time moves  sat 31st august last w e   summer holidays    bbq  lunch time  borderline    promised  take  boys camping  bowscale tarn   beautiful  really cold  weather  ok sat  sunday  glorious  boys wakened  first light   climbed     tops   sun  still rising    one   magical moments wonderful  boys   excited  full  energy   happy     dad  enjoying life  time  treasure sun  coming    tops  bowscale tarn went  visit friends    vet  longtown   just set    small animal practice   north  carlisle  twins   now 4 weeks old  wonderful   always sthg  special  wee babies     element  two  mother mon good weather continuing     still quiet  vet student  arrived went blood sampling sheep  maedi visna   farmer  imports  sells sheep   bit   dealer     dad   granddad   4 holding numbers   making  mockery   licensing system  knows  lot   breeders  dealers   yorkshire defra  even worse   one    whole licensing system  allegedly  ignored  everyone   office  trying  work     going  go   xmas party    now september tuesday   friends last day  work tomorrow   wedding   girls spent    afternoon printing  posters  things  decorate  car   goes tomorrow evening  farmers  phoning   book tb tests  nov  dec   know   will  busy  makes life  lot easier     sent  notes   invitations   open day      good response   will start  get busy testing next week weds day  spent  morning fixing  shower drainage   suffered  one  many footballs  kicked    problem   broken part  also  metric  imperial converter one end  40mm     43mm    discovered     needed meant  trip  carlisle  nowhere  wigton     got codged   plenty  silicone  afternoon  spent going  visit prisoner    friend  stabbed  wifes boyfriend  wigton     currently residing   majestys pleasure  durham prison     disheartening experience    organisation  takes time  work    go    need  get   hoops  went  one part   prison  another  backwards  forwards  staff   friendly  helpful      fixed stations     sent  one area  another  security although expected  natural still comes   bit   shock photographed   issued   barcode  get       put   belongings   locker    allowed   course    realise    need  id passport  get  bar code   kept   show   entrance    needed   bar code   sent  back  put    locker prisoner  ok    still finding  hard  think   future    include  wife even though  divorce papers  filed    done  pretty nasty things     boyfriend   pleading guilty   expecting  go    good  years  whole visitors area  charged  emotion  people coming  see brothers husbands lovers   lots  girls  young children coming  see  dads  felt  sad      kids   growing     dad   stigma   dad  jail  kids  written    realistic  wife   anti     unlikely  keep      long term    best   going   supportive  worst  going  try  dissuade    quite upset     also  able  sort   things  see  house    sold    lot  building work etc      emotional attachment       real closure   emotional problems      likely   even    release  car     still  car loan   removed   pound   doesnt know    drove back  a66  thoughtful  thankful   family  freedom   phone went  remind     call    forgotten fortunately    calls   takes quite    get  barnard castle  wigton oops thursday   first isolation pens inspection    complete non sense  field    50 m    livestock   london probably sounds fine   scotland    plenty  woods   crops    cumbria   main crop  grass    fields  grazed   time  year      easy  forms  horrendous   boxes   filled   greyed   make  easy    know  boxes    filled   obviously looks really good   computer screen  london    photocopy writing  black ink makes  whole thing illegible  thats  problem   common sense come  friday 6th september colleagues wedding one   vets   practice  married today   parish church  wigton  wedding       family  kilts    200   wedding  reception   grennhill hotel  brides uncle   director  theme   english rode  scottish thistle  flowers   red roses  arrangements  thistles   beautiful    bride  quickly adds    ceilidh afterwards   fireworks display several   neighbouring farmers complained    next day danced  talked  night away till  2  getting   next day   bit   pain  morning surgery urgh sat 7th september    whenever      quiet day   one reason  another   always busiest managed  keep going    day  calvings  ill animals still recovering   late night  wedding day   bit   wash  really sunday milk fever  7   finish    missed church  went  hear sc  wigton  evening   head  oasis trust    much  radical  believes  putting faith  action    challenging isiah 58 true fasting  god wants  spend  self  behalf   poor  spirit wife went  hear  new bishop  carlisle   speaking  hebron   reaching     local churches  seems  see outside  traditional denominational boundaries   really encouraging monday   crusaders meeting  rydal crusaders   youth group organisation      area planning group    money given   legacy  support  one full time  train leaders  organise area events  w e away   joint activities    good  meant  rush   long day    still feeling knackered   w e tuesday   almost speechless today  great era  decentralisation  hit defra  wish  rang     still    confirmation   appointments   2 new vets  enable    defra work  used  happen    went   training session  chat   dvm  carlisle   appointments arrived 2 days later guess    paper work    sent  page st  london now     got  back yet weds 11 09 02   funny   anniversaries effect   others     just started back    practice   hijackers crashed   pentagon   twin towers   feeling    bruised  battered    major confrontation  defra    work   psychological problems   threatened  sidelined  yet wanting  keep  integrity   reacting  blowing people    water  9 11 bombers made  realise  fragile peace    fragile people    importance   losing sight   important things  life  trying  keep things  perspective people   important friends  family    cant fight  civil service mentality    problem  mine  remember seeing one   teachers husbands walking    kids school   went  pick   looking slumped  dejected  learning    son   new york     reach  2 days later  heard   visited  twin towers  day    taken photos   top   supposed  going back   towers  morning    got  late    time    friends set   towers   hit  impact   number  people   either    visited  towers     world  make   potent symbol  worldwide resonance  sister worked      several years ago  anniversary brought  lot back    surface   thought  past   merely hidden thursday first  last night  2nd  tonight  started early  finished late  running   steam friday one   farmers wives came  today   wormers   chickens   gape worm  paid last months bill  cash  well    wormers 876 inc vat   working away   farm 2 days  week  husband  full time   job  got   went   fmdi asked   father  law   65     lost   farm   quit   right   quiet  still   animals back   grass letting  funny  said whoosh   life takes  complete change  never know whats going  happen next sat 14th september worked     rest  w e  hooray sunday monday son s footie tuesday partnership meeting  lunchtime    sore head   end   day   lot  good decisions made  feel  though   re moving forward weds   working  w e  caught   paperwork  stuff  home   went  carlisle  go shopping  lots  bits  pieces   new bathroom thursday dvm called   update us waste  time    forgotten   annoying man    real career civil servant bureaucrat   forgotten  real life     ever knew  one   vets around  tea    backing   spent  evening playing take two   fun friday   bad day   office dear oh dear oh dear  day  great  start  headed   iselgate  see  lame bull  give   certificate   still suffering    financial  emotional scars  fmd mind    always odd   talking   isolation   hard  break    get back    things    also hoping  retire    50  bse hit   decided  keep     income  jan  october last year mind     usually  selling stores  way  day  taking  turn   worse   sorting  umpteen decisions   practice manager  organisational issues  said wasnt  easy    just   vet fatal mistake   next dog   seen   odd ball   woken   morning   perfectly ok  til    growled  tis owner    decided  leave       hour    went  get      bed   flew      put  meant    rang   brought    vets  change  behaviour meant   put    kennel  left     went   examine  growled  flapped  ears    bit   bars  dogs  pain  fear will growl  let  know     happy   one meant     go  trying  get  examined  using  dog catcher  muzzles   mean  left   settle   lunch    worse finally got  sedated    temp  104 injected mm     case  encephalitis  rage   3 vets  looking    umming  erring  decided  get  maff vet    look just  check   wasnt rabies   forgotten  none    clinical  able  handle animals     bit   joke      history    contact  abroad    left alive   time    stress   handling  dam thing   worry    rabid   consequences    tiring    washed  tonight tomorrow  another day week 27 sat 28th september saturday  tell    light   end   tunnel    moment  definitely feel  isnt    taken time  next week  catch     things  need sorted  home   supposed   putting   new bathroom   need  get  stuff ordered   guy can fit   never know  may include    diaries sunday  wife    counselling course  w e   ma   run around   kids yesterday  spent watching  boys plat football  run     friends son  2 friends  come  camp last night     little   tired side  weather  warm  sunny  real indian summer  autumn raspberries   usually delicious  quite sparse  huge  plentiful well  definitely   teen age daughter    first time    phone call late   evening  carlisle asking    picked    lift home   worked  fortunately     church youth group     sign  things  come  youth group took  church service tonight    really good looking   world  pressures  young people    respond  christians  applying  faith    situations  challenging monday    open night tomorrow night   doesnt seem  organised yet   pigeon   made  resolution   get worked u  things     responsibility  just leave    2 new vets  beginning  really pull  weight   great  colleague  back   honeymoon brown  jet lagged  spent time   beach   safari    great time nurse  headed    far blue yonder   one   nurses   gone  nz   month   will  strange     nurse  just back  states  another vet    go   caribbean  2 weeks    getting itchy feet time  travel  least      india   new year tuesday year end oct 1st  stock taking    includes mucking   car  thought   quite normal  take  wheelie bin   car  just hoy  contents    neighbour saw one   rare occasions   happens  burst  laughing  found  quite amusing    bit taken  back   time   always assume     normal  open day  ok  wife      juggle things  bit    call  late finished    fetch son  football   practice   shifted  tuesdays   dark nights   owe friend  bottle  wine  turning  half  hour late  pick    boiler man arrived  7pm  fix  boiler   blowing fuses  needs  lesson  time management  several interesting conversations  fmd   amusing one   tony blair arranging  bust   unions   anniversary   fmd  break finishing    keep    news   farmer said   govts response  countryside alliance march  fact    reduced  sparsity factor   allocation  central funds  local authorities  means     lower population density  therefore  higher perceived cost  providing services  going    downgraded    farmers opinion take money   countryside   town dont march   govt will kick    hurts    subtle way   one  probably  relevant     group discussion admittedly fuelled   intake  free alcohol several  saying   year  harder  cope   last     crisis  adrenalin  keep  going    toll  last year  beginning  tell     nerves two  still  court threats  trading standards defra   complying  regulations  will   opinions  result  anything    pretty pissed   put  mildly   also  real antagonism    testing  ministry      cross fire  defra vets decide     done  yet    ones trying  arrange  get  testing done       pay us     spend  fair chunk  time organising  actually getting  job done     real problem  organising  testing  one   common grazings   14 farmers  animals   biosecurity   joke   animals   common grazing  14 others  trying  get 2 farmers  agree   date   method       different ideas     want     co  ll just wind  cattle   well never catch  weds day   caught   garden  sleep thursday  really enjoyed  crack today   just  right amount  work  banter    good day laughter  fun  infectious friday    meal  night   great  8 30 start tomorrow sat    going   good october  young colleagues brother  killed   accident   m writes retrospectively see   followed   difficult month     unable  keep  diary saturday 5th october     smallest  things  suddenly life changes  suddenly    look back  see       now    phone call  ten  five  one   young vets father father  asking  speak  george       strange  receptionist came  found    quizzical look saying    want  speak  young vet   answered  phone  said    bad news    brother   killed   traffic accident     tell   bad news   sort   consequences    got   initial shock wife drove    parents home   car   partners  away    short staffed  young vet will obviously   back       times like     always grateful   can go back  god  trust   even though    understand anything  know   can trust god jan 2003 writing retrospectively  october 2002    month  diaries missing   death  vets brother onwards  always meant  go back  fill   days   missed  never made  time   effort  found  time  difficult    parents  sister  law coped    know  funeral   kirby    pleased   went    sad  see  one   prime   life   much  offer cut     random way     cumbrian farming gathering  red faced craggy farmers  yet    friend   family  sang   wedding    black american gospel singer  global village  world wide family   church take  pick  death   one young always makes  consider   mortality  makes  think      will    death bed wish    made different choices  next month  busy  stressful  probably  time     useful   study   thoughts  reactions   life   stress   suppose   certain extent    close  something  go  automatic pilot    urgent leaving  things   periphery   killed  driving  tractor back      testing cattle  american bvd   bought  pedigree world class dairy cattle  included  sibling   embryo     american bvd   ministry  keen  make sure     established within  uk hence  reason   blood sampling  know   look  history  say      cattle    culled      blood sampling     reason     road  day   time linkage    way  go  may    go  feed stock        accident  another way   ripples  actions continue  reverberate around  least   head saturday 12th october  m  writing retrospectively    first thoughts  diagnosing  first fmd case  weeks   completed    stress levels   wanted  transcribe  first thoughts  fmd   written   hotel  newcastle  2am  diagnosing  first case   wife dear wife  dont know    writing    hope  see  tomorrow   suppose  need  record   feel      besides sleep eludes  today   beautiful day  winter sunshine warm sunshine  speaks   spring    come  frosted snow   clear  white  pure  great day   walking    hills   sunday afternoon enjoying gods wonderful creation     fallen world   walkers    ministry man  disposable boiler suit  waterproof jacket  trousers   farmer   heavy heart  go   field checking  inspecting   pregnant ewes herding    corner  catch  examine  feet ok mouth ok  smile   clue   sadness   mans heart   slight acrid smell  wafts now     wind  smell   neighbours future burning  another ministry mans pyre  2 oclock   morning     writing     sleep  ministry man   examined  cows blisters   mouth blisters   tongue temp 105f   sorry  say   theyll  go  manages  say fighting back tears   lab confirms  yes  reply   farm vet  15 years experience    allowed  say   foot  mouth disease    suspect   anonymous telephone answerer  london makes stupid comments  stupid questions  take  samples   cow  grab  tongue  pull    take  sample   skin   tongue  cows tongue comes    hand  try    sick  place  sample   bottle  go   farmhouse    tears    tears  feel like crying  wouldnt   job    b tea  china  says    volunteer  tvi  big depts   jargon   dont speak  yet  temporary veterinary inspector   started 3 days ago  clean vet      contact   foot  mouth disease  volunteer  general practice seconded   used   pawn   battle  fmd  man   ministry   leave  dirty vet  double disinfected   samples   heavy heart  take   disposable boiler suit  put   shoes       man   ministry hey lad nobody  know   anyone else like  says  farmer   seen      see     living   mother since  father died      hand  run  farm  wife   mother  law trying  share  house   kitchen   convert  barn   house  builder  told  stay away  week ago  case  brought disease onto  farm tomorrow  will  told  stay away   will   income   least 6 months   filled  forms   never seen   initials  jargon ive never heard  phoned  sister  pick   prescription  anti depressants  doctor said   go     stress  worry  foot  mouth   well    hasnt eaten  will  sleep tonight   anxious  will  get  rest   man   ministry well  2am    writing  far  home  volunteer  tvi  pawn   bigger game   5 days   dirty   can rejoin life back  normal back   home   job   future  farming couple 5 days  shooting  burning  disinfectants  diggers six months  quarantine   future  farming maybe  maybe   stories abound  three generations waiting   men   ministry  grandfather will  see  farm restocked  stress   much   already dodgy heart  countryside   siege  pawns   lost  win  greater gain       work  long hours  sacrifice  pawns   one   arrogant  stupid   lazy   couldnt  bothered  heat  swill  fed   pigs  couldnt keep   rules   made     happen    intensive vs extensive organic vs agribusiness   sheep vs goats   will  sorted saturday 2nd november  start  writing diaries    break    weeks   hoping  go back  fill   time permits    today  forward looking working  w e  young vet  aw sat     calving  morning  4am     little   tired side  hope   quiet  rest   w e  surgery   spent  afternoon trying  fix   sidelights  front went 18monhts ago  shows  well   keeping    maintaince   house   back one went recently     real pain   cant see  way   car  night     concerned  getting  fixed  old lights  just rusted    can  longer replace  bulbs    ladder  re wire new lights  went unfortunately    call  yes  suppose   trying    much    dont try  dont succeed   downed tools went   calve  cow   came back  find  neighbour plus  4 children   kitchen   stopped   cup  tea   headed back   ladder now wife maintains    noticed    lights    point   like  point     also notice    moved furniture   hair cut  even spring cleaned  house    often berated   lack  noticing  sorts  things yes    noticed   didnt   focussed     trying    usual    ladder  went  connect   light  knowing  wife  switched  electrics back   yes      top   ladder  grabbed  wires   spent  seemed  awfully long time trying  let  go  stay   ladder   electric current  shocking    light   get fixed     going back   ladder    now  shock ho hum sun finished  light  every one     picked     sleep   went  church  wigton pm  speaking   parable   10 bridesmaids   good    never understood     obviously related   cultural thing  happened  weddings  jesus day  point    wise ones   waiting   return   bridegroom   oil   lamps   concept     holy spirit  meant   meet   bridegroom  e christ    sure   idea  entirely right since    big leap oil holy spirit    interesting  still think    cultural thing   obvious   original listeners   just dont   clue ali  andy called around   evening   really good  see    used    vet   left several years ago   looks   long last   going  look  settle    quite depressing  la vet practice though   now 100 small animal    biased   actively looking  taking tb testing   vets   area   vets  dropping  farm practice   uneconomic  much   govt wanting  farm vets around  least    low cost area   least    competing  small animal practices able  offer large wages  assistant vets   looking  set     buy  practice  settle    obviously looking  get married   will  another wedding  go     invited  lbs   finally marrying p    following   around  world   last 2 years  disaster  disaster      humanitarian relief work    vet student   mon monday monday tell    dont like mondays young vet  exhausted  everything  catching       going  take  end   week   joiner finally arrived  put   windows   real problems writhing  old ones     taken half  sand stone     will    reconcreted    builders job ie    going     bathroom  still  pieces 8 days   supposed  take    now   third week work  bedlam    queuing  ops   morning  hate operating  morning     draining     concentrate        office staff keep coming     queries urgh got another stupid letter   planners quibbling  listed building consent    trying  get   windows    fitted   speak  started  ball rolling  august  wonder  country  going   dogs tuesday calmed   bit  filled   visa forms   holiday  india  great legacy   british  bureaucracy  alive  well    want  know  mothers place  birth  maiden name   2 week holiday civil servants missed  gym cos surgery went     went   farm   asked  lot  questions  tb      reactor  ministry    testing  hadnt bothered  tell us mushroom farmers son    process  planning next years football team weds went   farm today    complaining    get  cows   restocked herd back  calf  seems    ongoing problem  lot     restocked  whole herds   reduced fertility   herds     interesting study  see  figures compared  non restocked herds thursday counting  days     work continues    hectic vet  lost  brother     makes  whole pack  cards   enough vets  cover fall   think    just  tired    busy   long  planning staffing levels   usual   cautious rather     many vets around  making  money  thought   stretching   employing  2 new grads instead   one   also just   pressure   time     days  cruise  went   chris swifts   vcf veterinary christian fellowship   really good  usual f  telling us   thanksgiving service    just held  barnard castle   also just got engaged   may curb  wanderings    explorer  mountaineer   just back  antarctica   currently   research   phd  durham barnard castle practice seems well organised  also flexible      working 3 days  week  spend 2 days  durham   phd   really good speaking  friends  vets brother  paul      accident    taking  bloods  spent quite   praying      things friday bad day   phone call   planners saying    going  allow double glazing    want  glazing bars   10mm  20mm     10mm glazing bars   spot  ministry london  decided     going  train lay tb testers     work  going  go   lvis us    now looking   lot  work  carlisle defra  conjunction  london  decided    going  want   restocked herds tested annually  every animal tested  just  adult breeding stock   looking  dropping 1 2 vets 10 days ago   now going   looking  employing extra staff   can get hold      supposed   planning   future     dependent   whim  defra officials saturday 9th november went   school pta pub quiz last night   rugby club   good fun    struggling   stay awake   dredge   infotainment trivia   previous year   funny   questions chosen reflected  people   asking    stuck   memory     chosen nick  jane  across  newcastle  stayed      nights  working  defra across      face  faceless loneliness   hotel consequently  completely zonked sat morning just went around  house  grumpy went  watch son play football  thrashed yewdale   county cup   good      fresh air  came back  sleep     heading   roy  christianas en famille    pick  fraser  wigton    son   just started seeing  girl  wigton   14    amusingly embarrassed   talking  leaving  kids   age   leave       look   younger ones christiana told us    left  three boys   hour   half   older two  got  fed   youngest  annoying  hung    joggers   post   bottom   stairs  middle one said   seriousness     fault    torn  trousers   hadnt tried  escape  trousers    fine even now  considers   wrongdoing   ripping   trousers   fact    hung   sun went  church  morning  fittingly  remembrance sunday    repentance  gods love daniels prayer  daniel 9   fitting   lunch   football  crashed   bed exhausted mon tim  away   first time      school   outward bound week south  keswick    excited  going  think wife   little put      thinking  missing home hey ho     sign  secure roots  suppose met    maths teacher  discuss  maths     lot    froing   teachers   much communication  home   went  see    saying   left    status quo       first call today   farmer   just   hospital    appendix removed  appendicitis   seen  cow  said  havent    vet      good stocksman       action    relief milker   hadnt noticed    twisted uterus   trying  calve    seen   friday    sorted       now  late    send     sad   agricultural industry  losing  lot  experience   lot  stocksmanship  handling  general expertise    sthg  can  replaced   seeing  twisted wombs    transport  fighting amongst restocked herds  sad thing    said     never  restocked    taken  money  let   go   just  much hassle   paper work  training cows   just housed  cattle      fighting  come    parlour  get milked  just making life difficult    real disillusionment around   moment    also    gearing   milk    cows  stay still 300 tuesday  great european market combined  defras inflexibility  causing   problems  dutch heifers    imported  replace    fmd losses   unique identifier number     ear tag  everyone knows     far  good  also  nl   rather  uk  means  know    holland  problem     small check digit     end  means dutch computers can recognise   ear tag   valid one    misread  uk tags   check digit   front   number  useful  help rule  misreadings  transcribing   ear tags however  defra computer doesnt recognise  numbers     asked  retest heifers   still   outstanding record   ear tag numbers  untested   extra digit      entered   uk system  number   standing tests  dropping   will   able  keep    level  testing  allocations  arrived today managed  get   bits sorted    leave  5 30    days     standing thing   stuff   accountant end  year   supposed     18th  oct  hey ho weds   taken   days   try  paint  windows  new bathroom    put   planners phoned  query    windows   told    already    went  like  lead balloon    coming  tell    also started querying   windows  95  problem     days     get  head achey  feel washed   ill   adrenalin stops  seem  crash thursday met   charlie  longtown vets  lunch   great  practice  carlisle    started  going well     main road   scotland  looks really good    getting lots  custom just      looking   part time vet  start mornings friday repainted  bathroom walls  discovering   used 2 different shades  green one  ming grey   ming blue  just opened  one     thought  difference    one  dried     still wet ooops  plumber   problems   electrics  getting  lights  work     fused    just glad    shower  well      getting rather smelly  now went  watch changing lanes  cinema  rather thoughtful  slow  unbelievable set   nice escapism   hour  two saturday november 16th working   feel better      days  even   bathroom isnt finished getting    bit   saga oh well never mind sat morning surgery  busy   several farm calls afterwards   amount  stock around   cost effectiveness  veterinary time     incredible amount  clinical work dan  sheep ai vet  locums  us  occasions phoned  wanting alisons phone number    course    sat night  technician  ill    250 swales  ai tomorrow hope  finds  one   sheep ai  embryo technicians   busy  people try  build   pedigree herds  flocks  breeding  top quality sun  busy  calls   painted doors  bathroom  son painted  window  messy   enjoyed   will give  confidence  try    patience  practice went  church   evening rob whitaker  principal  capernwray bible college  preaching    animated  relevant   talking  feeding  5000  jesus compassion  just  circumstances jesus     time   used  disciples   applying   us    church  general espy compassion  challenging went   meet   lads  spent time praying phil  pretty      job  effects  self worth didnt help  fraser   brand new merc sitting  side  house mon hit  maelstrom running    tray flowing   still nothing together  year end  accountant  pushed practice manager   started operating  haunting  every 20 mins   ops  keeping   task  problem      many  things going    moment   non urgent keep disappearing   tomorrow  new drugs discount system  working  generating  lot  interest   hopefully will cut    black market   luck  increased turn  will make   margin usual problem solving  smoothing   2nd opinions  sort   20 day rule   stopping one   local cattle dealers  buying  selling  says  paperwork  run 5 holding numbers  horrendous ken  anne called around    really good  see     lime spreading business    really busy  fmd   lime  land   going   used  barley  crops rather  grass    lot  stone  building work  new pathways   lonnings whereas farmers  happy  move cattle via roads   trying  reduce  movements along roads   putting  tracks   cows tuesday  tracings  check  tb   cattle bought   farm  tb  since  confirmed   paperwork  go   ear tags dont correlate  going    problem rota nightmare   moment  everyone  organising  skiing trips    going   1 2 vets    jan    feb took first box load  paperwork   accountant    old fashioned   back stairs   computer  sight type  fella    wily old fox much    looks   manages  keep  taxman happy    backs   probably   important  financial year doesnt look  bad  doesnt allow   number  days  holiday carried      give  holiday pay  pay  vet  cover   days   make  look  lot less rosy got back  time  gym   tuesday kid chauffer work  fell  bed  slept weds  phone stopped  4 00pm  didnt ring   9 30  morning weird  work  just stopped like  tap  turned   got  rest  testing sorted sorted   rest   stuff   accountant tidied  office wrote   book  even thought  mucking  car   got  far  thinking    coffee break arrived didnt earn much  felt  lot better   skipped  early  gave  bathroom doors second coat thursday 21st november pay day decided   defra   business    bust  now     rollercoaster trying  look   future     make    normal year  20   farm fee income     much higher   past  years  chief defra vet   flying kites   say  politics  see   reaction          told  whitehall  dont know   ins  outs      gist     going  employ   vets    testing     much  efficient  cost effective    pointed   wasnt going    case  went    employ non vets        much cheaper       farm animal vets  large areas   country    reduce  fee income even    farm side  vet businesses  marginal   just  given    mean  business   high stock area  probably drop 2 vets  london finally decided   status quo  probably  best    time carlisle  consultation  page st decided      much tb  found   restocked farms    restocked farms   tested   annual basis    animals  just breeding stock   tested  means   25 increase  work load   next 2 winters  instead  dropping  vet   look   taking one     believe   going  happen next   can  plan   drastic changes  proposed   space   month friday   horrendous night  ill calves  pneumonia   evening  calving  1   silloth   dog trying  die  5am    ever pleased     half day slept  played squash  l j   afternoon  dog belonged   old lady    children     husbands dog   died 4 years previously   going        dies     tearful  upset  dog   looking good    16yr poodle type thing   isolated booth   doesnt drive  lives    coast      husband retired    neither   family around  felt   made  appreciate  family  much  saturday 23rd november wife  away   course today    w e    running  kids    cooking  dropped   son  squash   errands  wigton   watched  squash coaching    patient  encouraging  total contrast  shown  son s football     good team   really   like  attitude     coaches  teams   carlisle teams   late  arrive    already 4 0      second half      walked around    coach    think  giving son    2 subs  game            give   kids  chance  play  else  find  crushing son  really fed    situation    love playing   quite loyal  coach always justifies     play  best team   doesnt  plays  favourites friends sons   point  irrelevant    winning   margin   can afford   weaker players   field  went   win 10 0  will   get  thursby team organised  next year went   longtown poultry sale  interesting lots  rare birds  waterfowl will   go  buy next year  get  different types    breed  sun dan spoke  walking  water    inimitable style    refreshing  practical  honest made   call  prayer  well didnt  much  morning  wife   course  finally managed  finish bathroom hoorah mon decided   defra   business    bust  now     rollercoaster trying  look   future     make    normal year  20   farm fee income     much higher   past  years  chief defra vet   flying kites   say  politics  see   reaction          told  whitehall  dont know   ins  outs      gist     going  employ   vets    testing     much  efficient  cost effective    pointed   wasnt going    case  went    employ non vets        much cheaper       farm animal vets  large areas   country    reduce  fee income even    farm side  vet businesses  marginal   just  given    mean  business   high stock area  probably drop 2 vets  london finally decided   status quo  probably  best    time carlisle  consultation  page st decided      much tb  found   restocked farms    restocked farms   tested   annual basis    animals  just breeding stock   tested  means   25 increase  work load   next 2 winters  instead  dropping  vet   look   taking one     believe   going  happen next   can  plan   drastic changes  proposed   space   month tuesday went   routine fertility   farm today    quite depressing    neighbour     started      really bad time  problems  restocking  top  bad hips    gung ho  get restocked  although    sore leg  didnt go   doctors     chance     stock      little sore   soon   got stock back  started    lot  physical work    sore   went   drs   2 hips  need replaced      40  dont want    yet    mean  physical work   long period  top     mastitis problems caused  taking  plant  pieces  defra   lost 8 cows  heifers  calving illness  injury   less   year  looks set  give  disillusioned   lot poorer  workload  us  easing   cattle  now housed   lot   housing work  sorted  always feel    run   christmas now    preparations  celebrations  kids  adult parties    another farm today   meningitis  year ago   still  really recovered properly   still finding  hard  get going  lost   animals    work  fmd   additional strain  meant   lost  lot  interest   farming side  cant  bothered    hassle  paper work  farming sheep  cattle    growing  lot  veg     wife  always enjoyed growing  just retail   farm gate  doesnt make much money    says  just keeps things turning      wife  time      hassle life   important  making  living  profound   going  go part time  wish wednesday  seem    lot  problems still  restocking farms     problems  getting  cows back  calf two farms today complained  even though     pleased   compensation   time  costs  restocking  much much     interesting    survey   number  breeding animals bought       lost either  illness   failure  get  calf  old diseases  still causing   problems lung worm  disease  thought  well  control  well understood  caused huge problems ibr  cow flu  caused  many problems   can  longer get  vaccine    stocks   used   interesting today  one   farms     start milking  finally restocked ordered vaccine  lepto ibr  bvd almost   matter  course  fertility  causing   worries thursday feel  lot better   early night apart  running    carlisle   daughter youth group last night  evening shopping tonight son  still trying  organise  u14 thursby team  next year   needs   coach  problem      big commitment  wish       work  many w es spent time day dreaming       byre   yard    old knackered building  needs bulldozing  wife s dad thinks   just look    convert   sthg    still think     opening  herriot holidays taking people   day   vets    day   mart    diversification   name   game friday   interesting day   one thing  another  lunch  hey whos complaining one   nurses  work   chicken shed   husband  another farmer partner  fans  alarms  failed    air   circulating  farmer  devastated    horrendous sight  carpet  dead chickens   23000   shed   worked    roughly 2 3000 left alive 20000 dead  brought back memories  fmd also  logistics  disposing  20 tonnes  dead chicken  hope  insurance covers    dinner  christianas   vet friend call around  teatime    meat hygiene practice covering several different meat plants   several vets covering   different plants    asked  got  harrogate  discuss   different proposed regulations can  implemented  marked improvement   usual dumping  unworkable ideas  defra hq saturday 30th nov took    get going     dinner last night though    pleasant spent day  odds  ends went  watch son play footie  bought  orchid   orchid farm  kids  making cards  mum  wrapping presents    fun james came    kids    7 running riot   really  bit  many   late night sun 1st church   morning  johnboy called around  see  time  prayer meeting finished    arranged  surprise party  wife s 40th   loads  folks  sunday night   great    crept    big kitchen  decorated       front room   son   going back  forth  wife never noticed    special  kids   high  kites mon 2nd wife  forty  theres  photo   news  star  prove   kids brought breakfast  bed  opened presents poor  son  3 late nights   want  go  school  hope    right  gran wife s mum  sister arrived nannies  ireland   rescue   going  look   kids    away    days     bit o banter   looking   kids sister found  advert  nannies  ireland    au pair service  sent    info   forwarded  us    character     asking  working conditions  pay    requesting police checks  giving  good   get  winds  pretty strong      bad journey  super ferry  cancelled      come  boat  takes much longer  baked  cake  managed  get 40 candles    wife    looking forward  getting away  usual work  really busy  lots  loose ends  tie  prior  leaving  finished  3 days hoorraaahhh tues 3rd spent  day travelling   loch lomond stopped   braeside   gretna  bought  clothes  mooched around cameron house  beautiful  wonderful views   can just walk    lake    pool  went   swim  dinner  civilised   just finished dinner   waitress arrived   cake  4 candles  sang  rather wobbly happy birthday sister    keen   left  phone number  cameron house even though    mobile numbers now  know   pleasant surprise   will never eat  cake let alone  whole one    strolling around  dinner came across  picture  one   friends  used  decorate  kitchen   sunday   come across  somewhere   book   looks vaguely like wife    put    lady wife underneath     original   least  print    picture weird weds    lazy start  swim  breakfast full scottish  walked  eastern edge  loch  sunshine  showers    caught   one shower    rainbow    loch edge  beautiful winter walk   decided   going  walk  west highland way   boys   fruit  lunch  cooked breakfast  top  dinner last night means  dont really need  eat   week another swim thought   gym     holiday  felt wonderfully relaxed   dinner thursday another lazy start  swim  breakfast  walk along  loch   back  glasgow   burrell collection  just wandered around  paintings  can sit  look   impressionists  keep seeing something new    beautiful came back home  time  tea though   eat anything   much food made   ditty   nannies nannies  ireland came  stay  respondent  wife  go away   children went  school  respondent  wife swam   pool  nannies  left    dust cleaning dirt   daily crust  experienced gleaned    years   stop   son s tears   school  must go said  stern faced nanny lo  nannies go  tk max forgetting    cats something  sick   mat  nannies really dont like   m l begs go  fetch   eggs  animals theyre      contract really mean keen  will  give another day  something  done   pay  back  ireland   tale   go via cummersdale   pay  disappears  decide  new careers lois thinks   racing car ruth just  going far   thanks    due  nannies  ireland crew  now  turn  go  play till theyre called another day edited  remove names  verse friday bad hair day  come back  relaxed  cheerful   relaxed   missed  lunch  working  day plenty  hassle  one thing  another     call  night     busy loch lomond  cameron house seem  long long time ago   extremely fed     want  calve another cow  side office hours ever  saturday 7th december worked  morning   bad night  call  felt like death warmed   surgery   sorted stuff     calls got finished  1pm  went back  bed went  xmas party  white heather   good fun    just  knackered  enjoy  sunday working   calls  plenty  pneumonia drugs  calves    lot  pneumonia    east wind blowing    wee bitty cruel wind   least   dry  weather   working  side  also seems   getting dark really early  need  sun   back 4 weeks  go till india   migraine  flu  night  went  bed  started throwing    burn  candle  one end even   moment mon  work ill   new vet student starting  r    well xmas shopping  thrown   deep end tuesday went back     bit working  night  night work easing  thank goodness plenty  high cell count investigations  try  sort  weds took kids swimming  work   vet student   good    exercise  chill  went  staples prior  going   pool   usual    one   desk  print cartridges   went  found one   girls chatting   till  get     looking    couldnt find  hp58   hadnt noticed   one else just standing    end   long counter     upset  aggressive    jumped  queue   obviously   worse week       gone  got  one   tills  easily     didnt    got  upset  dont know nowt  queer  folk  son   upset tonight   got back  swimming    shaved one side   head wife  cut  others hair    still short  didnt need   wanted  done    shower took things    hands  shaved   side burn    one side    like getting laughed  either thursday christiana came   rescue   hair  son s   managed  make  look   bad    funny  call  night    nights seem double booked   moment went  kids performance    alice  wonderland  good  can really sing  perform  teachers  get  lot    tim   knave  hearts character actor   son   frog footman grebbit grebbit   good fun    phone call  put  client  ease   cat  managed  wing  friday   friends tonight kids younger 2  performance older 2   xmas meal   bit   juggling act  get everyone  right place  right time missed    cumberland vet club social    shame  can    one place   time saturday 14th december   good meal  except  started talking   publicity     wanting  go  fall asleep     take late nights   just   feeling  tired   time  think   adrenalin  run    just feel stale hope xmas sorts   spent morning working  surgery   sorted  queries  gg   accountant spent  afternoon writing cards  trying  put together lists  folk   send   disaster got  far  m  running   cards  initiative went around  ss  nibbles   house warming    caterer  mother     job    helped  great food   done   non vets  dilute   vetiness sunday got   took kids  church wife    thing  borderline  night     prepare  played football  caught     bits  pieces    gardening chatted   vet  chippenham   complaining   tb situation    one beef farm    first discovered tb  farm took  week  test    600 head    200 left    takes  day  farmer   unable    store cattle  feed   lost  100  defra    2 monthly testing  almost 2 years now   still     clear test     just   much  call monday got  feeling exhausted  even though   busy couldnt get going  dairy farms   feeling  nervous   nestle pull  farmers said      pleased   sons   going   going  farming  teenagers one  year  one  year older  looking  work    used    point  sadness   next generation   following    seems    general air  resignation  farming   going    good career sad really tuesday 17th december spent  day sorting   remaining bits  pieces   accountant  met    night   usual   sorting       finding   relevant pieces  paper     unaccounted cheques     still making money   thanks  defra  three cheers  mrs beckett cynic  made    long day  lois     week    short staffed   last tests  today   will   able  get bloods   labs    christmas post   like  time  year   hear  friends     seen  ages  think      last year  will   catch    soon hey ho weds 18th    lot  pneumonia    farmers   buying vast quantities  drugs  treat whole batches  calves  stirks    usual mix  far   normal  dont know whether   pleased   practice   well  invoicing  lot  sad     much disease around   will   horrendous drugs bill  dilemma  dont think   explore thurs 19th fri 20th kids went  ice rink  carlisle  wife   set    door rink   city council  sponsoring  attract people    centre  dont think   really need    place seems crowded enough    son bashed  head quite badly   son fell   hurt  knee tim fell loads  times  just ended  wet  happy  different characters  coming  saturday 21st december  beginning   christmas rota  feel  though     run   christmas now   also made  mistake   buying   presents  now  went  carlisle  go shopping   quite nice   ways  see  ice rink  mingle   crowds   hour   half  plenty  kids  decided    going  ask  money  take  india  year   aunts  uncles    will  fewer presents  open  christmas seems   getting    manic  commercialised  think      good idea well done   son sunday 22nd carols  candlelight   magical  church  packed     ended  standing   back    ways  quite nice   look   aisles   stage    rows  candles  fairy lights   sides pm lead     different age groups taking part  spoke    christmas tree    end   convoluted    wrong choices    can  lots  fairy lights   star  top    image   outside  looks wonderful     like inside   things  surround   god knows   cares   loves us enough  send  gift  help us  son immanuel god  us  will take away  sin   world   really quite moved       real christmas mon 23rd bump reality bites back   difficult  focus   important things  life  keep  perspective  life   keeps getting interrupted  monday mornings     jesus     smelly cattle shed    market place  making  difference  will   think  one     time  india  urgent  usual  pushing   important managed  go swimming  foxes  first exercise     ages must get back   maybe wait   new year resolutions  exercise wet weather  working  christmas dont really go together tues 24th christmas eve working  quiet apart  last minute panics  people think   ill dogs  cats will  make   christmas   seeing  vet called   pow heads   turkey  really    good butchery  poultry business going now good  see direct selling  farmers  cooperatives    way forward  break  stranglehold   supermarkets wife  panicking    enough food    dispatched  buy  bread  milk  think  protesting     5000  still   need  miracle  decide   one   occasions    better  just spend another 2 quid   peace wife s parents arrive  hour later  belfast bringing 2 loaves  bread  5 different types  irish bread  6 pints  milk  another 3 boxes  food  wonder  making  joke  feeding  5000 plus inflation  decide  discretion   better part  valour  just put    freezer weds 25th kids started  5 45    unceremoniously sent back  bed    allowed  bring  stockings   half past seven    2nd call     went   church  spent  hour   surgery seeing dogs one  meningitis    near deaths door   owner    worried    just unwell    waited   problem   never know got back  made christmas dinner  wasnt  work though   feel amongst   commercialism  turkey dinners  true significance  immanuel god    us  lost thursday 26th  first call  lots  pneumonia drugs  put   kept busy afternoon evening   folk around lots  different ages  backgrounds    real mix  good fun friday 27th surgery reopened   really busy   pleased    put plenty  staff   rota   always  difficult balance  make trying  work    will  enough staff  cover  work  one wants  work  xmas new year      enough   makes  really awful     working     people sitting around  resent     nice  know  get  right sometimes   rota always strikes     win situation    always  compromise   two extremes saturday 28th december  call friday night    finished  lunchtime wife wanted   go  church walk    knackered     going  tonight  dinner   went  bed    hours sleep much   wifes displeasure    call   whole period  soon   stop  crash    adrenalin fades   realise  tired     mon   work  prepare  india  hitting  beach   take  toll  family life   call especially   christmas period  folk   going  dinner     policeman    similar frictions sun 29th  service  church tonight  memorable  last evening   year   people talking   god      lives    usually people    eloquent  used  speaking  front   speak    real way   jesus   working   lives   past year dp   14    bone cancer gave   moving account     nearly died   often  compare  selves       us whether  health   things   compare      less   appreciate  lives  thank god           ups  downs     follow gods guiding   path  us  lives   gods hands    pray   trust     future    young lad   seen 4   friends   made  hospital die  makes  trivia  fill  lives  back  perspective mon 30th last half day  lots  last minute things  sort    finish  new year   2 weeks  india  cash flow  gone  pot    large amount  pneumonia drugs   sold  tax vat going   end  jan  needed  make sure someone keeps  eye      away  makes sure    falls  place  problem  going away    one keeps     admin type work       tray will  overflowing   time  get back tues 31st  young people  partying   house   left    rather  cramp  style      pleasant evening   farming friends  rang   called   spec   5 boys   knew  wouldnt want  get baby sitters  new years eve whereas    40   stopped dairying   now worried    new ruling will affect    moment  lease  quota  provides  fair amount  income  new german ruling will  applicable across  whole eec  non producers  hold  therefore lease quota  means  will   either sell    flooded market  go back  dairy farming unless mr p can work  way around  new system   also taking advice  looking   sorts  diversification schemes  seem quite  good idea others  think  non starters  already  invested    fmd money  setting   student house  carlisle  way house prices  going around    probably   good investment  really  way forward  farming though   depressing feature   evening   asked   thought  future  cattle vets   answer  none well thats  good start  2003  got home  find  party  full swing   left     went  bed 1st jan 2003 got    late  staying    new years eve  young people  cleared    party    amazed   well   done   set   dish washer        empty    impressed   reminder        drew  curtains   several glasses    missed      window sill  bizarrely  odd sock  sock game  daughter assures    funny    want  know   went home   one sock  started thinking  india  good job  wife  organised   set  tomorrow 2nd jan thursday travelled   see  brother  family   really good  see   played risk    bit   christmas tradition    kids   funny   playing     sets  kids   felt like  kid    really nice though b won  managed  wipe people   amass  risk cards  risked everything   went   last throw   dice    quite exciting friday 3rd jan travelled    dads   tea  drop   stuff  heading   airport   pleased      days   flying     night flight   hate travelling    already exhausted  weather   usual british winter  rain  wind  friend  mine  convinced    due  global warming  energy   system means  rain  wind   case cumbria   going    place  live    already wet  windy enough  next 2 weeks recall xs family holiday  india sat 4th january 2003   sitting   nilgiri hills  southern india  shorts  t shirt enjoying  coolness   high altitude   almost twice  height  ben nevis  bbc world last night  showed  reporter  london   umbrella trying  keep   large wet snowflakes   visiting friends  teach   christian school   contrasts  india always seem  great  poverty   opulence side  side  beggars   road repairers   side   road  make shift tents  plastic sheeting  huts  bamboo leaves   huge opulent houses wooden floored  air conditioned    generators   4 hotels  marbled floors  artificial streams  waterfalls  came   cheap charter flight    cheaper  come  trivandrum   flight   package  hotel b b   just buy  flights  emphasis though    cheap    first time   ever   pay  drinks   plane  air stewardesses seemed      good time rather   look   passengers cant complain though    cheap   worry   re routing   originally supposed   going via united arab emirates   refuelling  transferred  bahrein   flew    warned    military  well  civilian airport   photography  allowed  build   us forces   gulf must  pretty major  even    large numbers  us air force planes  massive sinister looking helicopters   difficult  believe    aiming  keep  peace  preparing  war  papers   also full  sabre rattling  pakistan  india  daily reports  skirmishes  kashmir   also exchanges  political rhetoric   two states  much  actually  real   much  sabre rattling  one knows  weekly telegraph  also reporting  iraq  shot   reconnaissance drone   sort  blew  one   el quaedi leaders  yemen  us  obviously trying regime change  several methods  us response   blow  several command  control facilities  war hasnt officially started yet   skirmishes  going   cost  previous year   raf  patrol   fly zone  22 uk million  last quarter  10 times     money  spent  priorities  govts  often difficult  work   indian govt doesnt  enough money   local level  organise  proper refuse collection system yet  money  develop hi tech weaponry  attitudes  rubbish    different      beach  actual beach  combed  litter pickers   areas    terrible   2 smart 4 hotels   govt buildings   tourism training takes place  grounds  immaculate   flowers  area beautiful    side  grounds    cross   rubbish dump   building site  piles  rubbish  sand  rubble  went   snorkelling trip around  coast   fishing harbour   sea  calm    plenty  rocks   fish  hide   swim      boats    bits  wood tied together  string seriously   two central planks  two edge planks    aft piece  wood  hold  aft part together   reinforced  cord  wood   light   floats   weight fairly easily  oars  split bamboo   grips   made  interesting rowing    paddling    like large canadian canoes  boats  hawaii five o  planks  roughly shaped    rode  waves  water fountained    holes   bottom h asked  wood   made   didnt understand  answer must   type  balsa  set     light house   another group going    time  think  must  agreed  pay top whack whereas  soon learn  try  bargain   price  everything    two helpers   boat  paddle whereas    economy class  two paddles   one guide   two boats  took turns  helping  paddle whether  made much difference   progression   boat  don t know    fun    bit worrying    heading   least scenic part   coast   way  beautiful sandy beaches  miles    wave powered generator   edge   harbour   rusty wrecks  bits  broken concrete    arrived  snorkelling  brilliant   like swimming   tropical fish tank  favourite  small electric blue fish  darted away  soon   came near   big black  yellow striped tiger fish   2 sorts one  vertical stripes  one  horizontal    timid  angel fish   long dangling barbs  shy    appear   kept still     large spiky sea anemones  big   football loads  crabs  shoals  fish  swim hither  thither   quite bizarre     looked like sea horses    straightened   almost  see  jockey getting  saddle ready  put     saltwater derby  huge variety  colours  just outstanding  spent   hours   got thoroughly sun burnt   way back  boys   full  beans   way    exhausted   heat   way back  spent today making  flying kites  top   hill  pykara  kids     dads made kites    tried  fly  hs won  design  copied   original  stick design  managed  fly almost successfully  traditional kite shaped one flew    aerodynamics werent quite right son s yellow square  successful none however matched  ikea bought one  played cricket  frisbee   water buffalos wandered passed   typical indian way    real boundaries  one thing  another called    vederas    pleasant  garden  stunning  usual  love driving   tea plantations  acres  terraced tea plants    forest  get   hotel    market indian rather   western   great  us  décor lacks  little  taste  design concrete floors   rather quaint unfinished look spotlessly clean   thing  india   love  kids around  spend ages talking    love   around going   meals  uk  children  always  bit stressful  low blood sugars combined   general attitude  people  children   make   pleasant experience whereas even  hours wait   food    stressful   kids wander  play games read books etc son   son  befriended  man   blue moon gift shop   spent hours playing chess  talking   son won  little elephant    beating   chess son decided   buy josh  chess set  kept bargaining  price   eventually paid 350 rupees   460  beach  idyllic  palm trees  warm rolling sea   problem    get  kids    sun   red hot period  12  2   keep slapping   sun tan lotion  missed  widows peaks   hair  receding   sun burnt red patches either side   head  boys  variable tanning depending    sun block  washed  first dear friends just  quick note  say    enjoying   much   dont want  come home    miss   friends    great time   beach  know  palm trees  warm rolling sea  sandy beaches  unlike silloth 30 degrees warmth  fact  days    hot     drag  boys    sea  else     really sun burnt   just back  3 days  avalanche    bit   unfortunate name   mountain  door centre    isnt  snow  dont think  indians appreciate  irony      mountains  jungle area     little apart    tea plantations reservoirs  hydroelectric plants  jungle   wood men  harvest  wood every 10 years  left  bus  walked    centre   truck took  bags food   lazy ones   incredibly beautiful  high hills  lakes     drought   moment   reservoirs    low  everywhere  incredibly dry  dusty thick red dust  gets   everything  facilities  basic  water ran   stream   tank   taps  electric showers  fortunately  always  india    little man   fact 3  cooked  us    taking  wife  main concern   meeting  rats  abseiled   waterfall walked  swam  another well son   son swam   afraid    cold    will wait   go back    beach   went kayaking  sat around  campfire  night saturday 18th january 2003  end   indian holiday  escape  cumbrian weather wife saw  rep yesterday   bus  arranged  12 30   flight  5 30  tour company  something else    going  catch  taxi   3pm     hanging around  airport  ages  4 children  going   bureaucracy   indian airport  bad enough    additional hassle  waiting around  3 hours   reason  annoying part    much    pointless    put  bags   security x ray   main hall   give   bags back     wanted  add stuff   bag      go  1 desk  check  another  get  seat another  exit indian immigration  customs   identify  bags  get  put   plane worse  defra   spent  last morning swimming   beach   said good bye   cs  gs wife   buy  material fro  study    quite sad coming away  think     stayed  enjoyed living  india  back  porridge sun 19th arrived  dads  3am uk time  clearing customs flight    crowded thank goodness   space allocated   legs   enough     messed   allocation  vegetarian meals   height  european ignorance  stupidity  offered  hindu family  us  beef meal  stewardesses   known better   just cringed  inward embarrassment   thoughtlessness left  t shirts  shorts arrived cold  jeans  fleeces  air conditioning  dont think  working properly  every one  coughing  dry mouthed   arrived  gatwick drove back   cumbria  back   house    strange sensation   back   done  much  seemed changed  yet everything   still    yet  really   ways   like   fmd epidemic    everything     nothing    part    trying  find   fit   new reality part   wants  safety   old ways slightly dislocated   surroundings   physical surroundings      suppose   changed   old certainties    certain  seemed   made way  new changeable ways    certain   know     certain mon 20th   taken  day   recover  kids    really early    jet lag     qualms  sending   school  spent  day unpacking  sorting   wife  pile  post  huge  seemed  lot  manageable   time   thrown  al  junk mail    need another 2 credit cards  way transferred money  tax bills  downloaded  emails    50  ploughed  way      away   length  time  makes  realise  much work  required  keep  household going    bills  stuff tues 21st back  work   face   tray still feeling  little jet lagged  seeing  overflowing  tray   arrive   daunting feeling       went   call   good   back  farm  seeing folk   always amazes   everyone around  knows everything     asking  india      good time    nice  feel part   community   friend  mine  commented    one thing worse   talked      talked    still  funny feeling    away   changed  nothing    different  yet thinking     though      dont know weds 22nd george wanted  partners meeting  lunch time   met     usual decision making process   honest  jet lag  still really kicking     asleep   feet  doesnt usually effect    long   wife    shattered  8pm  kids  ok  going  bed  us  sign  things  come  whole pets travel scheme  causing problems    presented   passport  pets    really   allow re entry   uk  certain countries  long   meet  conditions      problems         must  like     south coast  dread  think  problems  2 main ones 1     6 month period   can come back   uk   paper work  completed  can go   6 months  people  spend  summer   caravan site will take  dog abroad   come back   6 month date   also  problem   forms    renewed     done according   manufactures directions  vary  country  country   france    govt regulation  dogs  vaccinated annually   vaccine manufactures stick     uk dogs    done every 2 years cats annually      documentation renewed  france unless  vaccinate annually whereas   uk  can renew   vaccinating every 2 years   problem    paperwork   complex  according  defras figures    18 failure rate ie 1  6 dont make  back    also  problem       least one dog imported  cumbria    paperwork   owners thought   needed   rabies vaccination   dealing     weekly basis   confused   poor punters dont stand  chance thursday 23rd    real problem  cow fertility   restocking farms   moment  went  1 farm    10 cows  checked  one   calf    little sad  baby calves  milk production   losses   fmd farmers  compensation  looking  small   ones  benefited    took  money  got    difficult trying  work    cows    much   problem  usual  suspect    simple answer  blood tests  analyses   help much  cows     lot  stress  movement  new regimes  cattle systems     learn   go   water troughs    milking parlour      sort   pecking order   cows  espy   larger units  probably quite stressful   add animals   herd   lead cows  know  set   cows   much follow  leader   behaviour patterns     complete cull  restocking    lead cows   leader   cows  follow   also   lot  illness   herds   will reduce fertility   problem   poor quality silage    bad weather   factor  keeps coming   conversation   effect  topping  grass   silage grazing quality      interesting study  will never  done now stress   generality   word   cant think   better  specific way  expressing  problems  stress    changes  caused fertility problems  difficulty   finding    go    think  lot will end  culling fairly large numbers 15 20   fertility friday 24th one   defra tvs called    way back   test tb  let us know    still  ir causing problems  also said   looked like   going    complete herd cull  tb   east   county  farmer  restocked  three sources       tracings  well    done   restocking tb testing  found 32 reactors  lesions   will probably cull  whole herd    depressing  think   farmer must  thinking  whether  can face getting back  farming     disaster   bear thinking  saturday 25th january 2003 linda bs wedding travelled   derby  wedding   really nice  see  finally tie  knot     talking     long   followed   around several continents   least  will  seen    different situations  first came   student   worked  us   locum  spent 2 years   nations bible college  london   met    lot   friends   nations       agricultural relief work   worlds hot spots  kosovo  indonesia  haiti  bolivia   currently  bolivia working  church groups    setting  tb testing programme     problem  human tb    blamed   cattle    completed  testing      cattle  seems   nearly  human  human spread    least  can make  start  eradicating tb  humans  treating   contacts  went away   church   horse drawn carriage   nice  see spent quite  lot  time catching   vets   friends     seen  ages sun 26th   staying  friends  carlisle  moved   derbyshire   started  teach  went   church    house church    little different  put  mildly  meet   school     informal   drumming band   desire    restricted  convention  liturgy     mixture  readings  worship songs   seem   reaching    local community    people   walks  life  mon 27th back  work   feeling  good  2 weeks  india   stomach bugs   w e  derby      runny tummy came home  work early  went  bed tues 28th  work ill  bed  male  involves dying noisily   corner  sympathy  get   wife weds 29th  feeling good  dragged  back       much time  recently   feel     turn      tomorrow   can recover    drawback    will  working  w e  sheep seem   decided  start lambing  maybe decided    seem   seeing     get   mean thursday   good day   spent time sleeping   household things even though  hate diy   good  get  jobs sorted called   vets  pick  stuff  court tomorrow friday    experience  legal proceedings    feel     waste  time   important   good  lawyer   case    whether    guy  starved  greyhounds          legal aid  thought  might  better  try  keep   dogs   fewer judgements    obviously knew  way around  legal system saturday 1st feb 2003 reflections  court case   one   really annoying things   can never replay   happened  case yesterday really churned      make huge moral decisions   less   spur   moment  complicating factors   c   acting   defence  acting outside  rcvs guidelines now    pointed     rspca lawyer   c  already  struck    matter  well  turned  badly   even though    decision  get involved   poor one   think        land    muck    done     fact      speaking  also     pointed    record  tainted      expert witness   first place   one    even  client beadsmen beats    reservations    legal work   rspca   least   quite  lot  work   local inspector   decided   trash c   witness   thought      place     secondly  repercussions  local vet good will   stand   good stead     doubts   whether    correct thing    right  wrong  dilemmas      choose  horn  want  get impaled  sun lambing seems   started   vengeance spent    morning   surgery  land rovers  trailers turning  one  another  sheep lambing   peri natal problems   like working    surgery   w e    far less driving  working   much easier   dont   keep getting changed     protective clothes  got two vets work done  just keeping  asking    come   surgery  farmers dont mind either   generally   put    pick   bring  back   farm   field     easy  drive    vets rather  hang around waiting   mon went tt testing  ps farm  used  son  fair bit  fmd   went  early    always  done  fair amount  contracting   various farms  also    happy go lucky style  contrast   dad    bit   worrier  quite enjoyed  banter    just work away     pressure  get finished   numbers   great tues went  os      problems getting  cows  calf  levels  infertility   restocking herds  horrendous  sad thing   seem   achieving  little  actually improving   spite   lot  investigations  spending money  vaccine   supplements  average loss must  5  least    interesting  compare  culling rates   restocking farms  find    restocking losses actually  weds took  new vet student   today  let    first lambing  rs  like everyone else says   getting  lot  lambs   dead   tangled   aborting     get     quads last night thursday went  s  stitched  teat   now  fairly easy operation   advent  using open crushes  decent epidural anaesthesia local  always fairly iffy  many  dentists patient will testify     satisfying  fix something like  friday spent  morning  certs   otm22 certificates   brought   maff  compensate  farmer  cows     sold  human consumption   otm scheme banned   human consumption   animal   fit  travel   can  shot   farm   get  compensation  need  vets cert  say    fit  human consumption   can  burnt   scheme     fit     pay    taken away     lot  pressure  sign   scheme  supposed   coming   end  summer   yet  markets exist   casualty animals   fir  human consumption  whole knackery injured animals burying  animals scheme    grabs   govt needs  get  sort  scheme   running   govt thinks maybe rightly     industry problem  get rid    waste        taxpayer  get farmers waste problems sorted leave     industry market  sort    also  suggestion   tb    important zoonosis   uk anymore     production problem    go   way  sheep scab   taken   notifiable disease list  individual farms   ensure  meet whatever standard   buyers want  specify     happening   small extent   dairy industry  buyers specifying farms must meet certain criteria saturday 8th feb 2003 wife    course   w e      run around  squash  football  sons mon 10th b  now renting   land bush ghyll head   taken     grass letting another   small farms  disappearing  reality     ever   small holding   use  milk 20 odd cows  meant  got  status   farm   computer system  uncle  use  run   first arrived   real character   always telling    farmers made money   war  dozen eggs  10 shilling none   50ps 10 whole shillings   take  girl   cinema   lyons café  still  change   pound even  free range hens eggs   buy  cinema ticket  one  days    taken    ended    bachelor   nephew taking   farm tuesday 11th  partners meeting today  trying  address  fact   mark   fees  going   eroded one   things  barnard castle    putting   bills   yet  charging  things like telephone advice    hours    going       try  get across  point    providing   round service  needs   paid    still think   end   day  economics will win    provide  service   profit   provide  service     leave us weds harrisons   problems  fertility  isnt  blood results  showing low levels  copper     convinced       will   supplement  feed  adding  copper   feed  problem    investigations     looking   simple answer   actual problem  multi factorial  cows may  short  copper      low    really effecting   often wonder  humans   blood sampled   lots  different minerals   find   percentage   population  actually  normal    several minerals maybe  omnivorous diet   fact    producing huge amounts  milk probably  come        much  varied diet  cows  now  complete rations    uk     nutritionist gets  slightly wrong   will find   cows will  short  suppose   thing    always forget     usually working  either  single  3 4 samples  silage    will   spread    actually   silage   samples may  may  reflect  thursday  call tonight  busy   ok r   helping  wh house one   suckler calves  managed  prolapse  rectum     wild  thunder      careful  handling     dope   way  operate    put  back   jumping   walls   always  wee bit disconcerting limousin stirks   used   grand national ds brother    well   now   cancer  went   emergency surgery  day  shot   cows    big row  senior staff  page st    admitted   hospital  2am    undergo emergency surgery  afternoon    want  put   web site    announcing   radio cumbria    want    going    surgery  just coming      find    radio    shooting   cows  asked   put  embargo    course  vets tried   let  go        really angry  wrote  strongly worded letters  never even got  reply    followed    held  one  account    afraid   got lost   passing  time  least r   lot better   meningitis around  time  fmd    bad heads  depression ever since    good    back  farms   started fencing  fri 14th valentines   friend s birthday    went around   house  dinner   really nice  ended playing darts   kids   pleased  get  darts   board     long long time since   played saturday 15th february 2003 sons birthday  little baby son  now 8 years old   hard  believe   time  gone    water   passed   bridge went around  friends  night  sat  eat  put  world  rights   good every now    wind   just enjoy talking     think   know   well  can just come   stuff sunday mon 17th spent  day tb testing  dl      nvl  visible lesions reactor taken colleague   first test       fat stock  farms   restocked   will  going  slaughter fairly soon    deemed pointless  really    spent  day putting big bullocks   crush     dangerous work   men  go  amongst      rarely handled   dont take    well tuesday   interesting lambing today   consequence  fmd   forget     inherited genetic condition  suffolks called dandy walker syndrome causing hydrocephalus   lambs    ewe  tup must carry  gene  produce  deformed lambs  heads  large  get   mothers pelvis   means   caesarean   ewe  can   used  breed fat lambs      put  another breed next year  years lambs  dead going  die   economics  useless  breeders just shoot    point    called us  try  lamb   caesaer      big ewe  eventually managed  lamb    saying though   takes time  work  whether  stock   bought will produce  breeding stock   want    try  different combinations     work   lines work well together  reckons   4 8 years   will  back  breeding decent suffolk sheep  spite  buying  good stock     breeding  meets  eye wednesday rb   stirk  mcf malignant catarhal fever    viral disease   quite often fatal   catch  sheep    really blue grey eyes   change   fluid   eye   severe iritis  must  incredibly painful   thursday dixons tt2  now clear        tested   42 days  clear  farm  restrictions un fortunately  vet   ministry said      day  cow  taken  today   whole thing  getting  bit complicated  jd  getting wound  understandably  friday tried  sort     tracings    supposed       lot coming    quality   info   poor tracings    farm  sold animals   subsequently gone   tb   notifiable disease  defra paper chase   bad  ear tag nos  wrong   farmer  bought several    source   1 2    paper work  defra  thing seems   falling apart  bit went    single animal    mill  usually buys  stores  fattens     store trade  gone   roof   sold  lot     let  one else fatten   heifers breed    defra files     fattening unit finisher    hadnt bothered   tracings       going  slaughter   course   sold one    gone   tb   wanted  know   happening   now saturday 22nd february 2003 saturday sunday monday tuesday   funny sensation  day  suppose   almost  flash back   ways  went   farm   fancy pedigree sheep   rented land  wanted  added   holding   mv scheme   needs  vet inspection  say   fields  double fenced    sheep   come  contact   others  inspection  fields  pretty meaningless   know  needs   done     always   scratch  last time       fmd wednesday thursday friday packed  got  last  things sorted   vcf w e got  posters printed   display boards together  set    motorway  pick  friend  spent    day travelling   good talking    retired  practice just  fmd   spent  first part   retirement working  defra   fmd first  preston    settle  seems   better organised  preston    quite positive   local teams  sometimes wonder    sill  close      emotional  take  clear headed look     really like   good  see friends  night  get set    w e sat 1st march sun 2003 vcf w e   difficult    sum   w e     much    part      copied  report  one   students  wrote  bit   vcf magazine vcf triennial conference 28th feb 2nd march 2003   sunny weekend   beginning  march  70 vets vet students  families bravely took time    busy schedules  gathered expectantly   hayes conference centre  derbyshire   2003 vcf conference    mixed bunch ranging  age  2 months  70 well nearly  many different places denominations  walks  veterinary life      common goal  mind  unite   desire  love  serve  lord jesus christ   vocation     called us   encourage one another   salt  light   veterinary world  distinguished speaker   weekend  dr l  consultant psychiatrist  christian  drew    experience  bring us  thoughtful insights   subject  god  work  emphasised  fact  although work   godly activity     view whatever     working   lord colossians 3 18  must   forgotten   balance must  achieved  work church family life etc   also  opportunity  discuss    respond  christians   variety  ethical decisions  commonly present   veterinary practice  well   main talks    opportunity  join  variety  seminars  relevant practical subjects bt  vet  long serving missionary  thailand  omf led   interesting seminar   joys  challenges   veterinary  evangelistic work   different culture students  new graduates  well provided   seminars  practicing reality living  ones faith   university  veterinary practice environment m c bravely stepped   short notice  lead  seminar  business ethics  vcf secretary generated  thought provoking discussion    relevant subject  many singleness     work   play however    much obliged   scottish students  organising  saturday night ceilidh much fun        parted company  sunday feeling refreshed  well fed  physically  spiritually  encouraging   reminded       christian vet       many others  grapple    issues  face  weekend   time  friendships rekindled  hopefully new ones made  time  strengthening   reminder    ultimately   important thing   busy lives leading  seminar  business ethics  rather winging    stressful   good    interesting   challenging  questions    right  make  profit  espy good  work     incredibly draining  sun night   exhausted drove back  friends   night  live  20 mins  motorway    coming  one   wee villages   flashed   camera   will   fine   speeding ticket  sort  mon   really nice lie    went   walk  friend around   house across  fields   beautiful  set   preston  visit  friend    prison  road  closed   way   m6  took  ages  find  way   m6    coming   preston  find  way   prisons  whole afternoon   depressing   something  intimidating     processed   visit  security cameras    polite  uncaring prison officers   searched  going past sniffer dogs    give  finger prints   now   police computers prisoner  ok  fairly depressed   outlook even now   worried     going  cope   comes   prison regime   oppressive       hour   half   glad   going   also  bizarre situation     sit   talk   length  time   also  lot  stuff   wants  know   kids   just cant help      know  hearsay   first   difficult  sum  espy       good    coping   whole situation    basically  fault     mothers    already feeling guilty enough   giving   angst  cope      glad   coming     fresh air spent  evening   parents evening challenging senior management  giving   hard time  quite  day tuesday  usual  disasters   w e away continue  new bathroom  totally flooded   leaking pipe  felt like wringing  neck    plumber  water  flowing back   old kitchen  made  real mess managed  get hold    leaving    urgent phone messages    answer phones    mobile  telephone   flat   hardly ever     girlfriends   water      day   found  leak  managed  fix      smash tiles  cut holes   wall  fix    place looked  mess  boy o boy   fed    stupid bathroom went  work  find  one  done  stuff   left   done  work  really busy  speeding ticket  landed already    govt depts   efficient  spent  whole day  6pm running around like  headless chicken   decided  stuff    going   gym   circuits class weds  disasters continued   washing machine giving   ghost    house  3 boys   vet   pretty serious problem  also   argument  one    partners saying      get another vet     rebellion  people going  sick  stress   one        back 2 days still havent managed  read    stuff    tray yet let alone deal   thursday finally convinced senior colleague  needed  help   ministry got hold    asked      tracings herd test urgently  one  farms    restocked  cattle belong   one else   looked   book  decided    idiot  told  weeks ago last september  think    happen  spent  day sorting  dc  come   vetting     lvi     pull  wool  sweet talk   training    baffling ways  defra   meant  still  yet  reach  bottom    tray may    gold buried   bottom  think   one   days   look back  probably quite decisive  accidental days    first time  really thought       killed   see  happening    nothing    done differently  prevent   went   calving  work  8pm met    farmers  one went  get water      walked   box    cow   cow gave   funny look   backed   behind  pillar   pen oh  ok   quiet cow shes  8 calves  said next time  will listen   instincts   went forward     without warning  snorting  given   second thought  charged caught    ribs   head  threw    ground    react  butted     head snorted kicked    backed    farmer started kicking  hitting    came  bashed    corner   back  kept coming   head flew    grabbed  nose  swung  around   nose kicked    feet taking   weight   one hand  shouting  help    guys one came back   pitchfork      ground  kicked     came   fork  let go  scrambled away around  box  still came     got   gate past  two brothers  thumped     backed   slammed  gate shut  lay   heap   bale  10 minutes breathing heavily   asked   need  ambulance  doctor  finally came  enough  splash water   face  think   must   easier way  make  living  took  4 brothers armed  sticks  get    crush    managed  calve 1 dead twin breach  1 live twin just   defence  cow   calving      pain   probably just got  really wound    almost killed    sat  strong tea  quarter   hour  summoning   courage  drive home  hind sight    taken   offer   getting  one else   calve  cow   girl  2nd  5ft nothing  petite  didnt think dumping      fair  adrenaline  still flowing   just kept  b   however  let one   drive  home  probably  casualty   felt     anything   hospital except keep  eye     just went home    bed  asked  wife  wake   every two hours friday ill  head spinning every time  sit   try   something  head just goes around   feel really tired  jet lagged  think  prefer india   beaten   cows time   new job slept  afternoon   friends  dinner    arrange months ago  wife didnt cancel   kept going  drifted     wee bit saturday 8th march   lie   9 o clock yo still feeling pretty sore   least  head  one piece  think showed flat  prospective tenants    rare   dont   get   sthg     home either  work   football squash  something similar   another squash competition     later starts   boys   great took son  football  wife phoned   say   cs  going  watch  lord   rings   want  go  went  watch   swapped younger kids  wife taking son   youngsters   went   cs   times  mobile phones  really useful  get things arranged  film  really good  boy   stiff  sitting    length  time  knee  giving  real gyp spent evening  daubes   faded  wife drove home  went  bed sunday 9th went  church  morning  picked  car friends came  lunch   really good  see     points  pointedly    5 boys    8 kids flying around    enjoy seeing    still trying  sort   diversification plans  hope   several strings   bows  well  farming    teachers position  nelson thom    probably   reliable form  income  friend mon 10th went  work  every time  bend   move  fast  head spins  just  small animals  think cats  dogs   much better idea   lot  sympathy  folk  work mr h     obviously given  fairly graphic description    happened    face     becoming   moment tues 11th back  work   farms    rs   fertility visit even though  know  cows    happy     feel  nervous  going   near    lost  lot  confidence  although  expected    still  bit wound     rest  day  ok apart  several people whingeing   current paper work requirements  selling cattle mind    see   need  sell   bullocks   geld cow   probably easier    asylum seeker spent evening  surgery showing d  ropes    locum   going   working  us   next  weeks   going   ministry  newcastle tomorrow    lvi training  least  means  can     tb testing   least give us  break      sort  things managing staff showing people  ropes giving  back   debriefing   latkes huge amounts  time  energy  yet  never seen  work  relevant   lot  people  rest   partnership  yet   small business    people  make   difference    feel appreciated  supported  can debrief   reassured   makes   difference    happy staff can deal  situations  people  lot better  easier  stressed ones weds 12th next year    going   definitely  one elses turn  speak   annual training day  senior lvis  just drives    wall  morning  spent fairly usefully talking  contingency planning   next fmd  exotic disease epidemic  page st planners seemed fairly well clued   taking  board  lot   ideas  problems    seen  2001  afternoon   totally depressing tb  now endemic   south   county    deer herd   animals dying   took    vic lab  penrith  find      animals losing weight  dying   tb  ministry  known     reactors  around  area   never picked    fact  deer       tested   also complaints  forward tracings    done   cattle    vety officer giving  talk said   quite difficult  work   cattle  gone   met   incredulity   local vets   paperwork  computerised passport scheme surely means  trace ability  one   big issues    bse      done  means  whole thing   useless sham well  answer    can trace  specific animal  markets  holdings   animals     holding  tracings  taking  much time     getting done  tb  spreading idiots  best systems  best tools  best ideas  best businesses   work  people  next year  one else can go  listen   plans   sky    meeting     excellent talk  fmd  feb 2000 just  pity    listen    experts   also  talk   new scrapie scheme   guy speaking knew less   audience     go back   speaker   vcf w e  said    came   medical school   spent 6 years  taught   rational  scientific  disease  discussed logically   rational conclusion  sought  came    idea   national health service  struggled  said  live   fallen world  fallen institutions     accept   times    make sense        power  capabilities  change    can  change      work within  thursday 13th day  prior  working w e went  high pike  friend snowed lightly  tops  beautiful   wee bit chilly spent  afternoon getting  stuff sorted  vcf magazine  answering e mails  putting  details   w e    sort  order   trying also  put  responses   yesterday  feeling  angry  risk putting    paper  just hope  govt    touch   armed forces   frontline  kuwait   distant arm  govt  state vet service  cumbria friday 14th another day another test another dollar spent morning supervising  locum  trying  get  top    tray  stuff  partners meeting next week  try  get  decisions   w e  call looms   feel even though      work  worked  many w es tired  jaded  beaten    cow probably doesnt help saturday 15th march working  w e  first   first time   long time     keeping  amount   working back    way ahead   amount worked   brings  numbers  line  also need  break  feeling v tired  fed     much prospect  rejuvenation  morning  fairly busy    finished  12    bad   funny  julie  ahs   receptionist since pre fmd said   thought   really busy  compared   good old days  8 years ago  thought    good sat    finished  2    surprising  things change   get use    weather  beautiful  clear skies  frosty spring mornings  dry  good weather always makes  feel better  way spent afternoon  bits  pieces  garden  jobbing around sunday 16th busy  morning   shows  useful  new building  ok  know  4 years old  things  never  normal   still see   new   2 lambings   sheep  see  drugs  put        surgery  just kept  coming    surgery   large animal bay     lot  work   driving   makes   difference    taken 3 4 hours  finished   hour   half missed church      night   lambings  sheep  back  afternoon  spent sorting   boys  went    pond      churned   got  wellies stuck   mud    cold  wet  covered    use planks  walk        sink   made  mistake  fetching  planks   spades back  sorting  boys    trailed mud  around  house grrrrr     taken photos   midst    new vet student rachael turned      give full vent   annoyance mon 17th chaos  work  loads  emergencies  testing     glad  students  d working   rs found tb testing   looks like  will continue still havent found time  put pen  paper  type writer  send  letter  contingency planning group  defra  hopefully will get  top   soon tues 18th  days    stayed  bed  bad hair day started  badly  arriving  fertility visit  farmer  emerging  breakfast   late   wife  milk recording     calve  cow    sort cows  checking  see  calf   rotten lambing rotten   lambs  disintegrating  stank    calls left  lunch  12 45  get half way   called  back  another lambing   1 30 calls     surgery worked  night    fed     call stopping   stuff  went  gym   bleeped   speak  folk 4 times  now really wound   went  house group  sat  chatted  phone went sorted     cow caesarean   followed  2   3 hours sleep must   easier way  make  living weds 19th feeling  age  sleep   night   40th birthday      good missed seeing kids  morning      caesar 3  night  call  girls  work  got hold  loads  photos   wife     around  practice well    cute teenager worked   lunch  morning  busy  partners meeting    1 30  went home  sleep opened presents  kids  4 oclock  went   ds  meal  night  good thurs 20th really quiet   tb testing  lots  vets   lambings  caught   business side  organisation  rota  organising work reflected  partners meeting  tried  work  whether     sync   rest   world  right    sync  wrong time will tell iraq war started  predicted  seems     opportunistic target  e saddam  rather    assault weird    politics  must ask  history teachers   caused  failure   league  nations  whether   going   similar  un fri 21st despite   back  went    meal    coffee mornings xmas bash   traditionally now held  new year     much else   xmas period spent quite   talking  ms  league  nations   un   fairly sceptical   power  influence  un    view   often   used   fig leaf  us  ussr ambitions    really  international community   interesting  talk    history  iraq played pictionary boys vs girls   fun saturday 22nd march 2003 worked     busy     10th day   feeling  bit drained either   cos    meal last night  will let  decide  beautiful weather  continuing   went   lovely walk   fellside  kids loved playing   streams   sunshine   march  amazing came back  find     house full  folk  celebrate  40th birthday   really nice though    good thing   weather  good   kids  play  side    lots   chatted  p   always full  energy  enthusiasm    whirlwind  ideas  concepts  philosophy one    people   can sit  listen   hours  hours   intelligent  articulate  7 languages  yet always ready  listen  anyone  hear     say even    poorly thought    practical   approach   un materialistic   quite happy  give books  ideas  anyone  will read  learn   sunday 23rd  weather  amazing  still  get     sun blazing   went  watch son play football  silloth  won 2 0     tight match   good  watch much better  carlisle  one spectators put  went   beckfoot   picnic  march  beach  deserted  yet   warm enough  t shirts  shorts   boys  lay   sun  slept  counted  many blessings came home  planted seeds lettuce courgette  sweet pea must plant leeks  pumpkins   get   chance  week  buy onion sets wife spent    church talking  b  low moor difficult mon 24th sent  letter  richard drummond    rvo  harrogate   now head  service delivery   always  bit   conscious effort  take   cudgels  bureaucracy especially one like  svs     culture  tendency  attack   criticise   hope  tomorrow will  quiet   wish  write another letter   contingency planning dept  also want  look   updated contingency plans  make comments         pay  bills    moment  work   busy  feel   actually  important  spend time   kids   will sign   go  watch  great escape   bought    birthday copy  letter  richard drummond  wrote  drummond report  fmd saying      outbreak     able  cope 21st march 2003 mr r d drummond address removed dear richard   writing  express  concern   current situation  tb  last met   lvi meeting  cumbria     excellent talk  foot  mouth disease       increased risk becoming apparent    feb 2000   meeting  year  well  talks  contingency planning    lot  discussion   emergence  tb  cumbrian farms   also complaints  forward tracings    done   cattle    vet officer giving  talk said   quite difficult  time consuming  work   cattle  gone   met   incredulity   local vets   paperwork  computerised passport scheme involved  moving cattle   huge burden  farmers trace ability  one   big issues    bse      done  means  whole paper exercise   useless sham  answer  given   can trace  specific animal  markets  holdings   animals     holding  tracings  taking  much time  tracings   getting done   divisions  tb  spreading whether  comes   remit  head  service delivery    know     grateful    forward    relevant department    minister    single enquiry   cattle movements service  workington will ensure  comprehensive list  movements     holding since  previous test    trace  herds  tuberculosis reactors  ability  track fmd  obviously  non starter thank   advance   help    hope  3 years time  will   contemplating     learnt   lvi meeting  hadrian house  sincerely bvm s mrcvs tues 25th wife s cousin  vancouver arrived    really nice  see    canadians  always   beat    earth    refreshingly positive can  mentality    daughter     school choir singing  parts  europe    european tour   whistle stopping  lakes tomorrow   good  catch    young vet  lost brother     favourite mother  law  brought   set  kitchen knives   birthday present   incredibly sharp   dont think  letting  kids loose   will   good idea   least  can pitch    old ones  needed sharpening every time  used  vet arrived back  skiing  sun burnt   sunshine  wind     really good time though weds 26th   left   arrived   go  yps   funny  see   much  young ladies going   live  opposite ends   world  yet  fashion    little hand bags  scarves  belts globalisation   just effecting agriculture   spent time  keswick  around  lakes today making use   gorgeous summer weather  march  really  warm hope      scorcher   summer holidays thursday 27th spent  quietist night  call   long long time nothing     soon   employ  locum   extra pair  hands  work disappears still  will given everyone  chance    breather said good bye   canadians  mother  law   heading   ireland  see  irish side   family  easter   will see vet friend  soon    funny saying goodbye    dont know     herd health plan today   farm   50 dairy cows  said    really know         going  give   go  milk   one else     viable  make  pay   sort  small scale friday 28th havent got  workload right    think  sunshine  sent  farmers   fields  work   lambs  calves   arriving un aided    sunshine   amazing   good weather makes  feel  much better    booked  extra testing  next week   slightly sad thing  talking  one   farmers   just started lambing   taking  rotten lambs   aborting 2 weeks earlier    first season actually lambing    bought  fat sheep last year  said      stage 2 years ago   came  took   sheep     let      wrong     put   fight   just gone along     fairly melancholic    tried  point   every one  done     seemed   best thing     time    think  pointing      convinced  argued      2   10000 blood samples  live sheep slaughtered   exposed   virus   helped    granddads flock  said now     problems  says looking   dead lambs   just pulled  lying   heap   corner   trailer  never forget something like  lad  says never    lot  anniversaries  go     farmers  saying  fun  gone    saturday 29th march  beautiful weather  carrying   wife     child free vet student free afternoon  sun     went    walk along  side  bassenthwaite lake   lots  daffodils    light breeze   lake   beautiful cool sunny day  walking   pleasant  really enjoyed  son      young peoples church w e  edinburgh  will arrive back exhausted  lack  sleep  js   boys   afternoon    good met   friends   evening  spent  evening putting agriculture  rights  sells manages sales  fertiliser  norsk hydro sunday mothering sunday   bit   disaster     organise  boys   hadnt  time  get  organised church  r j   beatitudes  met   cs  went  bow scale fell sons friend  son complained  whole way    really bad form    fed    monday  work  dried  completely    time  year  unheard    employed  locum  try  get  testing done   work  every one   embarrassingly got  wrong usually   time  year    testing   vets  running around like idiots   good news  us  wrote letters   head  contingency planning  page st  amuse    copied   name defra rm 803a 1a page st london sw1p 4pq dear name   writing  thank   travelling north  carlisle  come  speak   recent lvi meeting  hadrian house carlisle   also  reading  defra contingency plan   lot  lessons  seem    learnt  appreciate  years deadline   passed  place   parliament     living document  apologies  better late  never   like  make   comments  one   early tvi volunteers  carlisle    partner  one   practices   eye   storm 1  whole issue  valuation  animals taken   compulsory purchase   state   benefit   farming community  eradicate disease    addressed one   initial problems slowing  slaughter  infected animals   valuation   view   now    simple standard valuation must  applied  must  high enough    incentive  reporting  disease   low  make  possibility  disease seem financially attractive  price  compulsory purchase may  set higher  dangerous contacts  less  affected animals     simple standard value   diagnosing vet counts  number  bovines  shoots   farmer knows  advance  compensation  going   paid  individual animals  high merit   insured  whatever sum  farmer  willing  pay premiums   may   unpopular nettle   needs   grasped even though   sure  clients  disapprove    current tuberculosis problems   high lighting  problems   area     standard procedure  valuation   notifiable diseases   values based   last mid market rate   apocryphal stories   valuers  still running  system   clients  farmers  defra 2  second issue     addressed   tracings system   advent   british cattle movement services     impression  traceability   central part  government policy     incredulity   response  questioning   lvi meeting   told  bcms  give  list  movements     holding  tracings  tb  still  done   defra vet trawling   farmers movement book    political will     touch   bottom  data base   able  generate  list  animals moved   past 6 months  markets       holdings         done  tb  can forget trying     fmd   fast contagious disease   still  confusion   database    based  holding numbers several farmers  multiple holding numbers several   single holding number  multiple sites high genetic merit animals may  several owners  single holding may  stock  several different farms  rules  cph numbers need   re evaluated centrally   data base     use  must  actively managed  updated  can   done   local level 3 disposal  know     looked   farm sizes  continuing  grow   ever  rapid rate  average size  dairy farms   area  grown  20 cows since fmd  means  will   bigger disposal problem  individual farms will     stock 4  local office   stores  equip 20 tvis  24hours notice  touched   point   meeting   need  sudden recruitment  tvi   veterinary staff   svs can second small numbers  vets  short term availability    reluctance   dvms  second staff  may yet  required    areas local lvis can provide veterinary cover   whole structure  large animal practice   flux   may  may   possible  provide veterinary inspections   allocated   temporary  part time basis  pay  conditions   assistance need addressed  agreed   part    orientation training   local levels    end   outbreak  carlisle  quite impressive however   information  put together centrally     central trainer  trains designated trainers   svs office decc similarly  lay blood samplers vaccinators  local practices  provide nominated nurses lay staff  training    break  ai personnel  used  effectively  blood sampling   procedures    something   local plan    cost  training ai staff  blood sampling  met centrally   encourage  register  trained personnel   maintained locally  cumbria county council inquiry recommends  use   emergency centre   hub  multi agency response   disease  break     joined  government    county council  part   contingency plan provides   admin back    emergency civil disaster terrorist incident    local plans make use    main concern however     asked   meeting   two way communications  page st  carlisle  sorted    met  nervous laughter   like  emphasise  page st   know   going    field  fmd outbreak    communication barrier   vets   field  carlisle management   huge gulf  carlisle  page street   plead    addressed   culture identified  iain anderson still seems  prevail  quote  culture predisposed  decision making  committee   associated fear  personal risk taking   climate   encourage creative initiative  inhibits adaptive behaviour  organisational learning   time lowers  quality   decisions taken  seems     reappraisal  prevailing attitudes  behaviours within  department   beneficial  may  outside  remit   northumberland report   flow charts  recommendations actually lists lessons   learned  dec 1969  one   svs  fared  poorly  fmd 2001 states   considered  recruitment problem   state veterinary service  reasons maybe  low initial salary   part    nature   duties within  service  consider  important  future development   ministry  agriculture  attract  greater number  good young graduates willing  make  career   service   end   plan   people   going  implement   need well managed well led  given  resources  carry   task  need   confidence    political  civil service leadership  will need    risk management  tasks  financial reasons resource reasons    wider rural economy  requires flexible decision makers   prepared  take risks  stick  head   collective parapet  hope   provides    thoughts    work   sincerely refs fmd 2001 lessons learned enquiry forward  chairman iain anderson p7 northumberland report presented  parliament dec 69 part 2 section 47  spoke   last lvi meeting   usual  plans sound good   reality hits    delivery tuesday   small animal work   testing tues evening always seems  rush went  gym     ns   new frontiers church meeting   excellent weds managed  fertility work   morning  spent  rest   day bringing  practice database   date    let go since foot  mouth   tell us  much stock  farm   numbers      place  people   restocking  changing  direction  businesses  going  moving   moving   numbers   going  dairy  beef  sheep   interesting thing   fact   lot  farms   restocked  adult animals  dropped  5 10 cows since  restocked  older cows  lost  ill cows go      young stock replacements coming   replace   actual figures  dairy farms restocking   yet entered   computer   hoping     will get  thursday   small animals   otm22   still incredibly quiet consequently   booked   lot  work   next  weeks   hope  dont get  wrong   way set  anne  vet student   project  comparing fertility pre  post fmd finished  updating  database figures   will hopefully get entered  next  days   can   comparisons march figures look ok   long term  look    good  govt    committee looking  farm animal vet practice  lakeland bva  asked  comments efracom inquiry  vets  veterinary services efracom   defra committee terms  reference   look   provision  farm veterinary services  england  wales  particular  will look  1  impact current levels  farm income     usage  veterinary services   turn  effect  reduction   usage   services     number  practices dealing  large animals 2  effect  reduction   usage  veterinary services   shortage  large animal vets    health  welfare standards    effectiveness  surveillance  animal diseases 3 whether  requirements placed  farmers  government including    animal health  welfare strategy  realisable   circumstances  4    impact   work   state veterinary service comments  12 april please  day ended   reading   tb test   farm   hoping  become clear  going    first restocked 18months ago 1 reactor  1  r  normal interpretation  will probably take   severe interpretation  government always looks  though problems  dealt   isolation  defra vet  looks   practice   dealing   case   daughter  married   brother  farming community   incestuous friday work desperately quiet   organised  testing    hope  havent  booked  work defra vets  carlisle  still learning  ropes   come s  tb      rare   part   world      allocations   wrong      go back   extra animals   set can  signed   school held  curry evening tonight    cumbrian village school   cosmopolitan    extended family  three pakistani families   cooked though   children   also  bangers  chips option   quite  nice time though wife    next level counselling course   ended  just  kids    good  spend time     enjoyed  working many w es recently  kind  gives   life back     much  work saturday 5th april 2003 wife    level 2 course counselling     kids   w e took son  squash went  town   bits  pieces    chatted     waited  t  son  finish  took   kids  town     mothers day tomorrow  make    fact l   away   w e last week  kids  bought presents  made cards   nice  cs  friend came  lunch   spent   muddy afternoon   pond playing  building dens  generally making  mess   fun son even decided showers   order   came back  shows   dirty      mr allergic  water  made  fondue  tea  apple juice   kids dont like  kick   wine    great success   taste rather good even    say   sunday  went  church     wife  heading     early lunch  talk   gods leading   always relevant  kids  great fun   way back  full  craic    return trip   cs     late  find  sky tv   match carlisle lost  usual     every week  lose   millennium stadium  picked  kids    cs  put   bikes   back   car went  say good bye  cs   meantime three   boys  hiding   boot   car   let  drive      giggles  laughter gave  game away   caused much merriment  round met    lads sunday night felt really sorry  one guy    real problems getting access   7 year old   ex wife  putting  lot  ve input   wee one  can go   legal route  will  expensive  probably counter productive     wanting  negotiate  look    best   wee girl  seems  real mess monday  spite  4 tests  work     spent  day testing though   really quite amusing   know  guys sister quite well   always make sure  tell   much  good lunch  appreciated   builds   rivalry      can provide  vet   best food   afraid  consciously flame  rivalry  spite      waistline  good trying  concentrate   three course lunch   boring job   easy  just   think  coffee time   cakes  tray bakes    distinctly unhealthy   aim  feeding  door manual labour tuesday   bad night   hand  caught   crush yesterday   stirk throwing  head   bent  finger back  seemed ok   now throbbing like mad plenty  aspirin  corticosteroids   ferty   saw another lda  cows seem     real problem   feed  spring    seen 3 4 times  normal number went running     finger meant    go  gym  work machines weds  speed cameras  arrived   top road  unfortunately   going  fast   time  saw    will probably  another 3 points   licence    building pads   side   road  along  a595     really bad record  car accidents  numbers killed continues  go   speed cameras    van  can move around  hence trap  speeders   called casualty reduction unit  bit   pointed message even    slow    work  slow  today   tb testing  mid week days    brothers birthday  nz   sent  letter  say   going    dad    trip  come across  xmas     wanting us   go  hm maybe thursday    2 reactors  4  rs today   future   looking good     looks like  will  tb     real problems since  herd restocked  lung worm energy problems   silage  atrocious fertility   going    go  buy another 30 odd replacements  800  replace     lost  ill health  fertility makes  compensation payments seem pretty small thats 24k   lost   already    heifers   coming    served work  busy   wonder   spring rush  coming   supposed     school parents evening  got called    pretty irritating  hate  fact    just  unreliable     call friday another tb testing day  busy  together   good day  competition report     fairly damning  expected   pressure  drug margins  going  continue   old fashioned way  providing  complete service will  going   window  will   charge     hours   call  telephone advice  try  make  pay   whole economics  going   see  single ill animal will  gone  clinical skills  veterinarians will  gone  academic   cost  diagnosing  single animal   new era will   much   diagnosis will   done  post mortem  herd problems     large herds  man power will     look   individual ill animal sad depressing day       w e saturday 12th april 2003 woke  early  got  even though    day   lie   think   particularly wound    ways takes   least one day  wind   work    tired  yet  feeling able  rest took son  football   son  buy anew bike    excited    birthday coming      grown  old one   will  good    kids spend ages flying around  yard  bikes      field   grass  short    real ball     great place  grow      much freedom  play  play  play  finger   caught tb testing started throbbing   afternoon     improved   got worse  decided    get  x rayed   spent  afternoon  casualty waiting  get x rayed   waiting  another hour   told    broken  five minute consultation  took  almost 2 hours friends     w e  friends   capernwray bible college   easter youth thing   came      good  catch  sunday cooked lunch  everyone   went  communion   dire  reminded    dont usually bother spent  afternoon putting onions   tidying   garden   incredibly dry  warm amazing really  6 kids spent  whole afternoon messing around   pond   disgusting  mud everywhere  trailed    yard  wellies abandoned everywhere church  dm speaking    yps came back   afterwards mind   think    enough kids   time     ok monday bad haircut day     one day  can test  week  booked  fair amount     tight  aw   ill     tight    ops   put   tomorrow d   s african vet friend visiting      vet student  house  still full  however  knackered   feeling sociable   horrendous calving    often   calve  cow    afraid   hour  gave   caesared   calf  dead  rotten  whether  will   dont know    want  caesarean    life   either    farmer pay 60  get  one  take  away   euthed  tuesday     period  anniversaries   2 years since  ls went      farm    get fmd   uncles    saying   sad day     uncles must  feeling    beautiful spring weather   grass growing  spite   frosts definitely puts  bounce    step  days like   think     excellent life wandering around  countryside  enjoying  scenery  farms  animals   farmers beats working   factory  way went   gym  felt  lot better   exercise   great way  getting  buzz        tired   get   b enjoy    gone often   feel    just felt like  steam roller  run     taken  day  two  recover balance   things weds  commission report came  today difficult  believe   will  able  implement    lived   fmd   quite   things  thought      able  implement     will     minister decides  since   dti  defra  think   implementation may  effective provide prescriptions free  charge provide  clients   list  pharmacies agricultural suppliers   vets  web sites  will meet  prescriptions  cost    commonly prescribed medicines   previous quarter  cross subsidy  professional fees  pharmaceuticals will   allowed   will  pharmacist make  money   comment   irk       provision  24 hour cover   seem  onerous    often swear  really  depressed  daughter came   caesaer       call tonight   really nice working  home   able  take        healthy thing     growing     much  young lady  farmers wife   dental receptionist   course said hello    thrown   course    context    figure   farmers wife knew    thursday good friday   sons bday today   day started  great      duty   arrived   bedroom  7am    2 boys  start   birthday celebrations  family tradition     breakfast  bed   bed dont know      happens  others  brought cards  presents   phone went     lambing  tim decided   come  see  lambs  born    thrilled  opened  presents later   included  new boiler suit  really thrilled    amazing  kids think    best present  never really like working good friday  always think one year  will    go  one   contemplative services hebron  low church never really  anything like     real shame easter    think  cathedrals old country churches   church architecture can really  helpful  stopping  praying  helping  consider  jesus    cross finished work  went    friends    home    really good  see  played rounders    barbeque   really nice james   really good form    enjoying  back away  london    just started work   high flying lawyer    enjoying london  much    hills  countryside lad  girlfriend  also    quite  good craic  didnt really want  come home    knackered    probably just  well  kids   us       late  night saturday 19th april 2004 spent    day either catching   sleep    day  day things  seem    put  one side      also  preparations   service tomorrow   taking  easter sunday morning service   one   night mare services  everyone comes  age range   0  100  everyone  different expectations   explain   normal sunday services   different    family focus   lively   informal aimed    young children  go  sunday school    teaching  parents adults   always  lot  noise children running around babies crying  shakers  childrens songs  communion service  follows   traditional silence  solemnity rules   older generation go      different service    going   combining  two oil  water  lot  prayer  gone    one sunday wife got   6   go   sunrise service   crematorium  said  needed  input   easter service   leading    service organised  st james parish church    carlisle churches  asked  take part christiana  asked  go  wife went      really good christ  risen   risen indeed  sermon    archdeacon   cathedral  said    good anglican  wanted  liturgy   sermon  every time  said   dead  congregation   reply  alive  christ   point   sound  hooter  service  hebron went  well oh ye  little faith   pray   worry less   included  outline     put  additional comments  blue easter sunday service welcome  hebron evangelical church  easter sunday morning    celebrating jesus  alive  opening hymn   declaration  jesus  alive   risen   dead opening hymn  believe  god  father welcome intro   welcome team  morning  service    different order  usual   going  remember  jesus  done  us   cross  bruce beattie one   elders  going  help explain   bread  wine mean  us     children may       communion service    taking communion   going  celebrate jesus resurrection  reading singing  sharing  resurrection   central part   faith  knows   long word resurrection means  answers   kids  quite amusing   got    end   end   service  will   offering  opportunity  give  money  well     living god    service  young children get fed     place   back   can   making things  isnt easy  sit still    little   quiet  please dont worry   little ones   distraction  often wonder    like  jesus fed  5000plus crowd   think  children  sat neat  quiet  rows  dont think    pleased  see   hear     time  family worship   youngest   oldest reading psalm 67       power point   read  together may god  gracious  us  bless us  make  face shine upon us   ways may  known  earth  salvation among  nations may  peoples praise  o god may   peoples praise  may  nations  glad  sing  joy   rule  people justly  guide  nations   earth may  peoples praise  o god may   peoples praise    land will yield  harvest  god  god will bless us god will bless us    ends   earth will fear  psalm 67 prayer m   sing  next hymn    good   children came  sit   front   b can see     talks   hymn   survey  wondrous cross communion b b gave  excellent talk  remembering  included  diary   kitchen timer   set  go    carefully timed point   little bit   used smarties  go   easter story   different colours  wish    written     communion    smarties   kids     remember   easter story   adults took communion  remembered christs death  resurrection forgiveness   wonderful thing   just  remembering  jesus   us   cross  died  us  incredible love  thankfully  gospel doesnt end  son   cerise  going  read  reading  luke 24 vs 1 12    brilliant dramatic reading  empty tomb lets sing gods  dead   alive sing  twice  use  instruments   front  make  joyful noise  want     little taste     like   around  day   lets listen   mary magdalene chatting   phone  well  listen  see    talking  wife   sketch  mary talking   phone  marta  met  risen jesus    good really gave  facts   contemporary feel hymn led like  lamb   slaughter   second verse  children come  help   verses  give    big people  id like   help give   making sure   big people get one   children  may   able  read yet    coloured stones  remind    huge stone   rolled away  jesus rose   dead  can keep    pocket  somewhere special  remind   jesus  alive   wants      ever  go   made  tiny scrolls  verses   resurrection   kids  gave   kept  wee ones busy  also gave everyone  verse  think  isnt  wonderful  know    singing hes alive   risen     world  church  singing   message  revelation  get  little glimpse    will  like  heaven   new song  sung  jesus christ close  eyes  listen    says rev 5 vs 9 11    privilege  hebron     representatives  different language people  nation   morning let us listen   christ  risen  different languages  prayer    one family say   arabic another  german    philippino girl  said    language   one else  spanish   magical introduce lord  lift  name  high sung  mizpah orphanage  children     just heard  name jesus   first time  christmas see picture  need helpers    actions   song   thankful  jesus  alive    speaks guides comforts  forgives us    sin  mess  make      marys   peters   thomases   met   risen lord     story  tell  walking   risen lord   listen   people  sharing  bit   story  wonder      share take  opportunity  day  share  god  teaching     changing  dont hide behind  weather  holidays share  journey  encourage real fellowship end  prayer  top song  offering    opportunity  offer  afresh   risen lord  old song   powerful one  make  song personal   choose  verse   will stand   sign   offering   lord band will play   twice  collection taken     sing    want  sit  last verse   sing take  love   will  stand  last verse take  life  song  lots  parts  asking god  take  use different parts   lives songs intellect strength money etc   asking people  stand   point  wanted  really meant  stopped  offered part   selves back  god  response   resurrection finish  thine   glory  service went really well people came  said  well   gone wife spent afternoon packing  feeling washed  giving   tiring   satisfaction  huge mon  early  catch  boat  n ireland  boat    busy   good spent  boat ride filling   thoughts   future  large animal practice   efracom enquiry bought lord  rings part 2  two towers    wanting  re read   seen  movie     holiday reading sorted    chance   got   sit   wife s parents  talk   future   good  campbell usually disappears    sit   bank holiday  didnt   fairly  beat     good    pleased spent  evening  c   cousins   really good   barbecue  chilled  c   really surprised   news  agriculture  ni  going   bad time  well   behind  uk     lot  small uneconomic family farms    lot  consolidation  going   farmers selling  tuesday spent  morning playing squash   boys  w  great fun spent  afternoon   garden trying  tidy   went   dinner   bridesmaid   also just handed   notice  rather accepted  redundancy package  must  catching   great  see   also     belfast     cosmopolitan city  days  different languages cultures  nationalities  mixing   downtown area  big change weds went   new exhibition centre   docks  belfast    multiplex   science exhibition  well  shops  restaurants      amazing  kids   spent  day playing   exhibits     well done    came away  learnt quite  lot wife now believes    colours    easily confused     one exhibit  words  one coloured spelt  name  another colour ie  word  spelt y e l l o w    red  colour     read  words  say  colours   just      brain ended  really confused bought flowers  stuff   garden    boxes  gran went   dinner  rp    widow   wife s parents age    much fun  loves giving dinner parties   folk   ages around  gave   useful addresses   lots  plans  wife s parents golden wedding thursday  day   big photo shoot wife s brothers father  law   photographer      together wife mum wanted  photo    family together   spent  hour   half getting positioned  photographed 7 kids  7 adults    pernickety photographer travel back   boat  ok  came back  find  everything  fused    phone   working  fixed  fuses    trips thank goodness  got  electrics going  phone   fix    worry    away     lightning strike    phone line   road    fried   cables one   neighbours     kitchen   phone  exploded  jumped   wall   left scorch marks   wall   just glad     one   phone   time   unfortunate thing    computer  attached   dead   dodo friday back  maelstrom   really relaxed going back   work   lasted  may  half  hour  one  picked      admin things     away  spite  asking people     meant    start  get things organised  testing  rota  nestles  well   try    work   tray   mess  never mind  also   complete  report  efracom   closing date  today  hope   5pm  report  actually finished  10 15   e mailed    like   polished   bit    schedule today   conducive   evening    supposed   writing     casaers   foal trying  die  farm     much luck     horrendous problems  restocking   also  tb2  enclose  copy   report  efracom  right hon michael jack mp environment food  rural affairs chairman   sub committee vets  veterinary services  submission summary    timely review  farm veterinary services   submit   current trends  veterinary practice  likely  accelerate rapidly  response   present levels  farm income  imminent changes  veterinary practice   submission   briefly covered  following areas  current provision  veterinary services     financed current trends   likely impact  veterinary services  effect   reduction  large animal clinicians  health  welfare standards   surveillance  feasibility   animal health  welfare strategy  impact   svs  future  possible outcomes  current provision  veterinary services     financed  income  rural farm veterinary practice  provides  majority  veterinary services   agricultural industry  traditionally come  5 major areas clinical services examining  diagnosing individual animals calvings lambings individual surgery routine fertility dehorning  castrating traditional  farm professional fee work lvi income  defra maff   eradication  notifiable disease tuberculosis brucellosis anthrax etc many practices also  involved  meat hygiene  inspections  abattoirs  dispensing  pharmaceuticals  provision  veterinary advice  farm management  welfare  majority  veterinary partnerships  mixed practices  consideration must  given   fact  small animal work makes   variable proportion   work  income  veterinary practice    opinion  clinical farm animal practice  examining  diagnosing  individual animals  already uneconomic    veterinary surgeon   farmer    happening    cross subsidy   professional fees   income     good will   farmers  give animals  chance   harsh economics  coming home  vets  farmers   rapidly becoming  james herriot  part  rural history current trends   likely impact  veterinary services    current trends within agriculture  veterinary practice   effects will     agriculture  farm veterinary practice   trends  can  identified  fast  far  trends will go  difficult  predict    experience   change   comes change  often slow  starting   dramatic   speed  effect  decoupling   eu decisions  agriculture  unknown   current trends  likely  continue  agriculture farm size   continue  grow  farms make less  less per animal    spread costs  larger  larger numbers  individual value   animal continues  drop  real terms efficiency  mechanisation continues  increase chicken farms  now routinely 100000 animals plus since foot  mouth disease  average dairy herd size  increased  90  114  increase  20  talking  many dairy farmers   going  increase   herds  going   300 animals  increases  usually    increase  labour   farms  means  care  individual animals  likely   less important   care   overall heath   herd much   veterinary practice  major changes  likely     competition inquiry    cost  pharmaceuticals  subsidy  professional fees  sales  pharmaceuticals    increasing trend since  late 60 s  professional fees  subsidised   large scale eradication schemes  maff  paid  good fees  get  vets   farm  help eradicate  notifiable diseases  competition inquiry  recommending  pharmaceuticals  dispensed  pharmacies  well   prescriptions  provided free  charge  private organisation  going  provide  service free  charge  yet   ascertained   current level  income derived  pharmaceuticals   going   sustained  inevitably means   cross subsidy will disappear  farmers will   pay  full cost  veterinary clinical service   will   economic       time  costs  providing veterinary services continues  rise  cost  veterinary time  continuing  rise students  now graduating  debts  15 20k    loss  grants  payment  tuition fees  means  will need     raise  2 3k per annum  pay veterinary assistants  match  status quo farm animal practice already pays assistants less  companion animal practices despite offering  less favourable  call rota   short term following fmd many practice principals worked additional  call  make  rota acceptable  attract assistant vets    viable   short term   long term    acceptable  partners profit becomes commensurate   salaries    pay  veterinary assistants  will  aiming  increase charges  clinical work  look   avenues  decreasing costs increasing turnover providing    hours emergency cover   economically practical  vets except   big cities  practices join together  provide  emergency clinic currently    rcvs obligation  provide 24hour cover   rcvs   involved   commercial pricing  services   value  individual animals continues  drop  real terms   cost  treating individual animals becomes less  less viable     cross subsidy    hours work  will become untenable  many mixed practices   dwindling farm animal side   less financially attractive many will decide  concentrate   companion animal side   business   lot  mixed practices    senior partner  will   largest amount   farm work  means  younger vets will    case load  become experienced  confident  farm work    cohort  practitioners   situation heading towards retirement   near future will  practice continue   involved  farm work  fewer practices become involved  farm veterinary services  cost  travel    distant farms   rise beyond  already accelerated rate   means  farm veterinary practices will lose income  clinical services   pharmaceutical sales  will   move  towards  pig poultry model  providing veterinary advice  charging   vets  already moved   nutritional advice leaving  field  nutritional experts  reason      nutritional advice  provided free   farmer   firms   put  cost   feeds   sold   farmers  cross subsidy  fees  sales  apparently acceptable   subsidy  veterinary fees  pharmaceuticals    model  beginning  appear   areas whereas vets provided  mastitis control  dairies  buy  milk  now providing free  subsidised advice  farms  cell counts  high bacterial counts including bacteriology   variable back   quality  advice nmr   recording agencies  already offering fertility information   recording products     short step  actually providing  fertility work  believe   factors will contribute   dramatic decrease  farm animal clinicians   next 5 years  effect   reduction  large animal clinicians  health  welfare standards   surveillance   number  clinical veterinarians reduces   will  much less  farm surveillance  means  outbreaks  novel  unusual diseases  much less likely   noticed  recorded   early stage  routine care   animals will  done  stockmen  veterinary guidance  guidance will probably   quarterly  6 monthly  annual visits   herd health plans individual animals  much  likely   treated ad hoc   stockmen rather   veterinary surgeons  quality   treatment   cases may  adequate    will  poor  significance  symptoms  illness may   appreciated diagnosis  treatment seen   high cost  used   last resort  outbreak  disease will  well developed  losses occurring  veterinary advice  sought  herd sizes increase  labour decreases   attention  individual animals must reduce   drop  welfare standards ill animals  likely   culled quicker  limited manpower becomes  important  use  vets  additional expert man power  calvings lambings will  seen   expensive  demands   system must mean  high heath status  important  routine vaccination  herd health policies  put  place defra seems  set high regard  laboratory diagnosis results   form  surveillance    common problems  diagnosed treated    resort  laboratory aids fertility lameness mastitis pneumonia pge  rarely referred   lab except  treatment   working  samples  taken referred  vets  practice fewer vets  mean fewer samples  lack  veterinary advice  ill pigs  ill sheep  farms  heddon   wall shows   lack   clinical veterinary service can lead    terms  delay  spread  disease  local knowledge   current lvi system   invaluable asset    danger   thrown away  idea   farm   box  can  assigned  number  page street  dealt    single entity   problem   still   resolved  complexity  many   local farming links  trade working together machinery shared grazing fell rights  family ties   reduced   computer screen  dcs  feasibility   animal health  welfare strategy   opinion      hoping  cover   fully  lack  time  prevented   impact   svs  impact   svs  likely   slow   realised  svs   known   ability  meet challenges  streamline  systems   number  vets involved  farm work decreases  will   provide     resources  tackle tasks currently done  lvis   flexible private practice takes   challenge  getting backlogs  testing done  can respond  new challenges  example  licensing brought   fmd private practice can fit  work around  duties whereas    going   done   svs  will   expensive  take  vets    tasks alone  svs  notoriously unreliable   work allocation  fmd  record  sending 5 vets    farm    day  yet   beaten though  hope     lot better  normal circumstances   still problems   allocation system  can   put right  local knowledge  areas     farm animals  may well   lvis willing  carry   routine testing  notifiable disease   going  provide veterinary cover     clinical caseload    lvi work  will   vets available  second  defra   next fmd  exotic disease outbreak  contingency plan confidently states  resources  20 tvis    kept   centre  case   outbreak  notifiable disease   addressing   will come   will   20 tvis available  short notice  march 2001  majority  vets   carlisle decc  lvis  future  possible outcomes  picture   painted     opinion will happen   government allows  situation  develop   hope      joined  government  decisions    made  response   competition inquiry report    mixture  outcomes   possible  numbers  vets  farm animal practice will reduce  can  minimised  maintaining  cross subsidy  professional fees  providing clinical services either directly  defra work  surveillance   notifiable disease work    pharmaceutical sales  option  increasing fees   possible veterinary services will  provided   means eg vets working  feed firms dairies manufactures retailers  ensure  welfare surveillance standard consultancy firms providing fertility mastitis specialised advice defra local authority will   provide vets  notifiable disease testing surveillance tasks developing  french model  farm cooperatives employing vets    farms  pig poultry model  regular advisory visits  minimal involvement   day  day running   individual animals   first   provides   continuation   successful lvi structure   outcomes mean  loss  clinical veterinary services  loss  clinical services means  drop  welfare standards   loss   farm surveillance farm veterinary services    transitional time facing economic challenges changes  agriculture increased regulation  increased competition   pharmaceutical  services  provide  will  increased competition  practices   try  meet  higher expectations  new veterinary graduates starting  careers  providing  cost effective service   rural community bvm s mrcvs brief c v currently  partner  one   largest farm veterinary practices  cumbria  spent 17 years  mixed rural practice spent 6 months  secondment  maff   carlisle decc  fmd sat 26th april 2003  worked last night  done 2 caesaers   calving  call  top   long week   completely washed   sat  surgery   call  went home  bed knackered  fed   deciding    want  spend  life like  sunday  busy day  call   least  calls   stack  just kept coming  ones  twos   stress levels    bad  boyzo   tired mon    beginning  ds last week   worked  really well   hope   will  able  work    back end  help   testing   easy going    good s african protestant work ethic always happy  oblige   good  work     good laugh  always teasing  playing silly jokes    great sense  humour spent    day  catch    week end   calls  sorted car  drugs   cleaned  kit  slippage  cleanliness since fmd   noticeable especially   w es  dont tell defra went swimming  foxes well   honest sat   jacuzzi  talked   swam 2 lengths    tired   much really  must start getting  proper exercise    back will suffer tues   really annoyed  defra  rang  asked    needed  put  vets   panel l     needed    exports  nestle  panel l can just  added      simple export thing    take half  hour      last friday  now      go  training  svs    take half  hour    forms  can  yes   yes          spend  afternoon going  carlisle  got  meaningless forms    can fill  meaning less forms   nestle can get th milk  customs   beginning  see  people just smuggle things rather  get involved    stupid bureaucracy weds went   factory visit  nestles today    look around    know  plant  can give  certification   milk powder  export  whole thing  ludicrous  dried milk powder   sterile product      else  goes   quickly      certify     pasteurised  don  know  hey  money  size  quantity   huge amount  machinery   small number  people required  maintain  operate  plant  awesome  went   distribution warehouse    just row upon row  pallets 3 7 high full  dried milk  cappuccino drinks weird  think mast   instant cappuccino  made  dalston thursday went  panel l training    pointless   thought    took  opportunity  go   defra admin staff    queries  problems   moment    lot  stuff  defra telling    stock      stock  ensure  database  relatively   date     headache    working  computer screens hence mrs f r   farm   correlate    mr e r    address  computer    relationships     married  live together   stock    piece  ground   really get   ground  evening   final partners meeting   handed   notice  reasons  handing   notice  complex  decisions probably    lots  factors  trivial   outsider  important   others may  important  others  similarly    several people  asked    reaction  fmd  last casualty   ways      horrendous experiences    long hours  difficult ethical      responsible dilemmas  taught   lot    see fear   eyes  senior management  challenged   able  organise  protest meeting  thirty vets  jim scudamore    tv interviews o see  effect  feeding information  journalists   able  break   fast talking  relying   wits  organise completely new systems  manage projects   never  done   build teams  international backgrounds   face  opposition   hierarchy   constantly caught   tight rope   different groupings  learnt    huge abilities   go back  normality  difficult  future  farm animal practice  also  unpredictable    lot  farms   yet  restock  cross subsidy  fees  drug sales  going  end     work will   behalf  paid   defra     whims   politicians   treasury   also   easiest client  deal    also  problem   second  command  dealing   frustrations   partnership    united   way  work    see  practice going  means  schemes  diversification  improving income streams  managing  bad debt will either  happen  will become part   workload   already  stretched add    cock tail  fact  wife  starting  work     given  really bad scare   tackled   cow  question    want    job   next 20 years  answer        answer   hand   resignation  start  look  something new     6 month notice period ending   accounting date    jump    another job sorted  even   decision   hard    really choked    left   discuss  future    go home   kids  want  know   going    went  js  already knew  will tell  kids  friday  practice manager  monday  work  tuesday   said  little   thoughts   diary    learnt   somethings better left unwritten   time   information   public whatever issues     confidentiality   dont think something can  talked     write     never know   going  read   though got  self    stew   rang wife  say   going  js   said   come   left  bit  hurriedly     got    head    gone away  holiday   telling  friday  whole day  unreal  knew   going   one else  told  kids  tea time    shocked   upset     come   shock   tim especially loves coming    around  farms     also     going     just uncertainty  2nd call sat 3rd may 2003 work  wash     second last night   2 caesars   calving   second caesar   4am   felt dreadful  day young vet  started operating  got stuck   went   rescue  cow  horrendous adhesions  nothing   moved around  spent  hour   half trying  pull  calf    stitching   uterus   cow  felt  needed diving gear      arms    full length  vet beside  trying  stitch  feel  arms  exhausted   end     like death warmed   day  feel   definitely made  right decision sunday   good nights sleep feeling better  mother always use  say   world looks  different   good nights sleep   cooked breakfast    need  cooked breakfast  stress levels    high     eating far  much   going  go   diet  usual promise    weight  going  fast   will   cut   start  exercise  lot  went  see  practice manager  tell     handed   notice   decided  see          chance  process   work  tuesday   overweight  stressed   type    heart attack  treat  gently   also  good friend    give   warning   spent  hour chatting    talking    good  way    spending  sunday afternoon mon bank holiday another bank holiday working   least   fairly quiet  spent    day working   garden  kids  away   morning  various things   met   lunch  friends   really nice      visit family   lake district   hired  couple  cottages   w e   met    really amazing people    doctors   went   visit   thailand   brilliant fun   working  leprosy  aids cases   come home   sharing  gps job     also   diploma  diabetes   also  deputation work  raise money   work  omf  thailand  asia   4 kids    really nice  see     kids  similar ages  really felt      gone  home schooling  schools  edinburgh   big city     double culture shock  coming   uk   schooled   complete different way   also  bright kids    individual attention    focussed mother   miles ahead   rest   classes yet      social skills  adapt   rough  tumble  life   city comprehensive mobile phones    must  item  rural thailand good  see   tuesday today  announced  fact   leaving    work   thought            say   quite difficult    emotional point  view    fact   think   business   longer term will  problems     direct relevance   lay staff   jobs though  will still   similar number needed   workload  likely  remain    also   vets two   may  may   approached  buy   business  will also   longer term   smaller number  vets needed   will probably  managed  natural wastage  spoke first   senior assistants   lay staff   hard        long  many   15 years    long time  think also    attitude   ups  downs seem   past      lot  upheaval   move  b v   s park fmd    things  suppose   getting back    even keel   throw  spanner   works weds spent  evening phoning friends  relatives  let  know    handed   notice  sending   job details  two jobs  applying  another    sure    looking     moment   just sending   anything  seems interesting  waiting  seeing  seems  unreal situation   many ways  also   phone  bank manager   arrange  annual visit   tell     leaving  getting  balance  moving    positive   pointing   dangers   future  large animal practice   difficult balance   initial shock  power     salesman banker   asked whether    needing  banking requirements   least    start   independent vet small business consultancy  will   bank account  run   thursday  quit day   testing  tackled    back log  admin spent  lot  time setting   systems  know  folder  nestle   taken   work    lvi work   nestle factory  dalston    fallen    previous practice   took    assumed     odd bit  work   fact    huge amount  work    going  take  sorting   also feel  bit     handed   notice  yet   setting      ma  going  benefit      suppose  comes back  wanting     right     serve god   man   always  useful measuring stick  use  work  motivations     done   situation    trying       practice  client      jesus   friday another bad hair day  real problems trying  fit  extra work   day   got  bit frayed around  edges fortunately next week will probably   last thank goodness  practice  used    nestle work    phone      friendly hey ho went    meal  friends   great    church youth leaders   really switched    think need  support  help hopefully   1st  october hits  will  able  get  involved went   royal oak  welton  just   re done   serving food   proper basis  well    pub part  like  restaurant wife s food  excellent mine  ok    indian trio  samosa  2 bharji  start    afraid    spoilt  real indian food      bothered going     cumbrian pub saturday may 10th saturday may 10th  day    many days working   much stress   really nice just   around home   garden   really worrying  else  going    world  needed  space    pleased   got   long last   amazing  much better  world looks   good nights sleep    time    afternoon  c boys came around   took   see new chicks s       want  go   route  explaining    made  decision    leave  chickened   telling   suppose   happy     just want  forget    w e   arrived  7 boys   quite brave fortunately    stay long      back  go   giannis  d  took us     really good fun  kids    good form came back  watched  first part   dvd  john grishams book  client    excellent writer  although film can never develop  characters     book   film  good   ok sunday 11th church  good  morning    good     spent ages chatting  folk  came back  lunch   couple  stayed  long    people  find really draining    one   awful   get really wound   just want   go   30 minutes  came  lunch    leave   tea    almost going spare monday 12th  find  silence around  fact   going  bit unnerving    bit elephant  coffee table really  lot   farmers  suppose dont yet know       respond todays frustrations    things  working bt  sent   bill  115  fixing  line   struck  lightening   put  three depts   gave   may try just  paying  see   can register  fact  bill   disputed   frustration   car doors  gone   wife s car   incredibly frustrating    fixed  fixed  fixed although    warranty   getting   stage   feel    fobbed  tues 13th  went  hear mg   licc london institute  contemporary christianity speak   living word    series  happens every spring   organised   group  ministers  folk  carlisle     interesting speaker    ex ad man   whole message   get  church  look  side   self  thinks  christianity   west  become  leisure time activity    impacting  rest  peoples lives    concept   sacred secular divide  church   get involved  secular things work culture  arts sport    ways philosophy  whereas     divide christ  either lord        also    amusing speaker   talking   technology  usually neutral     used   far reaching effects  family work  society  used  microwave   example    amusing story    managed  save  sleep   whole  north london  using  new fangled microwave  heat  daughters midnight bottle thereby saving  chancellor huge sums  lost revenue  typical jewish hyperbole   moved    kids now teenagers  coming    meal   prepared  reheating    microwave    led   lack  communication   hyperbole   angst   understanding  younger generation     diary  fmd    relate    experience  fmd   simple level  culture within defra needs  change servant hood whether  civil servants  politicians   forgotten truth will  spin will fall computers    tool    master  none organisations need    human face  people  relate  whether    brigadier   cvo people  individuals created  god   feelings    numbers  statistics  post modernist human secularism  truth  relative  brown can announce  everything   control can mislead parliament  people    acceptable  actually strongly feel   current presidential style    one can make  decision   refer   boss   poor model pain disaster illness  trouble  part   human condition part   fall  evil   world enough philosophy  time  bed monday 17th may    big golden wedding anniversary day   wife s parents golden wedding   brothers  family  came  stay   w e  celebration meal   lyzzick hall  keswick  big surprise  wife s mum    bridesmaid  husband  coming   canada j picked     airport  took    b b  friends  also coming   surprise rp started  surprises  coming  dressed   waitress  came   offered wife s mum  drink    really overcome   surprises  bridesmaid  canadians  really nice  see  younger parts   clan went    climbing wall   older part went   look   lake   rain    really nice day ended   firework display thanks  c   grew   belfast   troubles  fireworks  banned    real passion   now   big kid sunday went  church  everyone   mixed group   coped p spoke   morning meeting    good    publisher   talking   church  china    just helped  publish  book     christian house church  makes  materialistic church   west look  weak  un spiritual   evening mm spoke   christian  work    good   funny    bed sales man     student     funny    made shy engaged couples lie   try  beds  really tickled  son age 8 much   grans tut tutting  point   making    jokes      told     say   bed s    delivered  3 4 weeks   fact      6 weeks   shop keeper thought   put people   meant  mm ended   bother  couples arriving back   honey moon   bed   decided  listen  gods way  tell  truth   said like  biblical teaching  obvious    explained  tell people  truth    want  hear mon went  read  tb test   tenant farmer   1  r  reaction   farmer took  back fairly badly    quite shocked   sheer vehemence   reaction fortunately   mostly  defra  went  early    disease   therefore got much lower compensation   lot   later ones    cattle wintering   farm   one else  went  later   fmd   home holding  difference   valuations    type  cattle  horrendous  also  buildings   owns   small parcel  land  buildings  old  knackered  usable  lot  string  gates defra pulled   pieces  fmd   offered  peanuts o reinstate   meant    get  back   usable state      happy bunny spent  afternoon castrating horses     favourite job   stirk kicks   hurts   horse kicks   usually means  trip   ambulance   therefore  tense  ready  move  awkward positions canadians  wife s parents headed    trip around  borders   people carrier   coming back  swap  cars   end   week wife   tank  run around    week tuesday  back  twinging   castrating   calving yesterday   really sore   paperwork  sitting like  ramrod   gave   came back  lie    back exercises hourly   just got stiffer  sorer weds spent morning reading  bed   back exercises   get  moving went  see  accountant   afternoon  sort   practicalities  going freelance  finishing   vets thursday back   lot better  starting  move much  freely  first negative comment   leaving today came   farmer   decided    way  make money   go  300 cows   therefore planned   designed new parlours   look   large herds thought    unfortunately  costings   buying  dairy cows  6 700 per head  just recently   gone    thousand  means     60k oops   said   thought   deserting    way  suppose   back     call   vengeance  calving  caesar  prolapsed uterus hey ho friday interesting statistic   radio whether   right  wrong    know   eu  average beef cow  subsidised   tune  2 per week  average african earns less    canadians  wife s parents arrived back   trip around  borders  good news   baby sat  teenage  child minded   went    lemon lounge  bad news     feed  look    w e  brother  family arrive tomorrow   will   bit crowded   really nice        relative peace around us  noise   office party   impinge    nothing    us saturday 31st may 2003  gardening day  decided      get  place sorted   spent    day   sunshine pulling weeds  sorting   garden    beautiful day  back  pretty sore   end   day   got  nearly  sorted   good  boys cut  lawn   sat    read  book another bbq   end   day  made  salads   boys cooked     family meal wife   older two headed  tescos   cleared  debris away sunday june 1st  sun  still flaming   seeds  seedlings  looking  bit sad  whithered  spite   watering   really enjoyed  week       little  fmd met   friends  church home visiting parents   evening caught        indian gastro enterologist  worked  carlisle  now work  bombay    good  see    hoping  set   aids hospice   currently   million people   hiv ve  bombay monday back  work  quite busy   looks    june quiet period   going  materialise  folk  holiday  makes  seem busier  way  took   4pm  get    tray    week  overflowing  usual tuesday    like june long lunch  spent  morning trying  get  accountancy package   date sent  another speculative e mail job application  friend  church   now studying physio therapy  glasgow came  insisted wife  went    walk together   really nice    really nice young guy went  beach  beckfoot      ones walking  beach   one serious kiter    seen   serious kite   long time   fairly windy     anchored behind       taking    weds spent  morning  fertilities   spent time sorting  issues  george    little work   boring   assistants  june quiet patch ahs arrived  bills   go due   computer upgrade cocking  system   systems  now  complex   beyond  reasonable way  keeping tabs    trust  experts   dont thursday day  spent  writing   business proposal  try  get work via  consultancy firm  tried fixing  extractor fan  failed thursby football club  going really well    lads coming along  standard  variable  good fun friday tb testing   fs   just heard   leaving   full  questions  night  really busy  first call   lots going  wife    retreat thinking   future  reporting   last year    trying  juggle kids  well saturday 7th june 2003 last night  terrible   dog  see   middle   night  put      young dog    leukaemia    responding  treatment   colic probably   mesenteric lymph nodes   rolling around  pain  nice     sat   busy  went  one   organic farms  see  ill cow post calving   saying    three farmers  none fmd giving  milking one  another organic dairy farm   promised  premium  10p per litre   costings  based  28p per litre   getting  premium  less  05p per litre  takes   16p  figures   add     giving    2  small farms   make  work 40 50 cows slept   afternoon  went   party   evening bizarrely    walking   people whose dog  put  sleep last night walked   well  live next door    invited  well weird spent time chatting  came  10    dead   feet sunday 8th   call changes  2nd back   1st  8 30   phone started  8 35 urghhh   finding   hard    enthusiasm knowing   ma leaving    months one   farms     given  dairy   hoping  retire fmd year  lost money     restrictions    now hoping  finish  back end may    hoping  keep  milk quota  lease     pension     new rules  will   sell    price  low     lot  non producers      boat     height worth 1 per litre  lot  bought  sold   40 60p per litre   now around  10p mark funny world agriculture monday 9th calving  5am followed   calls   early start busy day  work went   meeting   new crusaders support worker   supposed   county wide   going   based around kendal      legacy   providing  lot   money  based    less relevant tot  end  cumbria    backed    organisation committee     meetings will   rydal  far      tonight    get back  11 30    w e  call   late   bunny tuesday 10th spent 45 mins   phone trying  work     going     oct   guy  pfizer     spend  rest   evening sorting   emails  needed  send   weds 11th spent  morning  nursery visits   local infants schools come around  vets   give  wee guided tour   quite fun   little things     really love blowing   anaesthetic bag  x ray quiz  listening  dogs hearts  always take   son s chickens   well   kids   use   birds  handling  son  spent  many hours carrying  around   fairly tame  used   picked   dont know  effort pays back  commercial terms    fun football training   evening  20 lads   brilliant thursday 12th  call  exhausted   excitement   week  phone went  7pm   answering service  say   women  rung  asked   pass word   alarm   course meant nothing   answering  phone  however put 2 2 together  work    alarm   practice  gone     police     way    always happen      bath   jumped   bath  rushed   find    going     police man    waiting    lead  way   found   scared dog sitting   prep room  escaped   kennel   took  hour  get  alarms reset life   rich tapestry friday 13th went  lawyers today  meet   go   dissolution   partnership bit sad   way  another nail bashed    leaving coffin finished work  spent evening playing football    coaching   good fun 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geographic region north cumbria paper diary  lots  newspaper cuttings   related material week beginning 25th february 2002   snow  fell   weekend melted combined   additional rainfall many   fields surrounding  village  well   roads  flooded usually  wouldnt concern  much however   burial site   close   number  underground streams   area   become worrying  isnt  guarantee  groundwater   surrounding area wont become effected    extent  seem    number  aspects   concerning  issue  remain unclear  example  exactly can  carried  water   might  effect people   area    tested    surrounding streams  exactly  classed   danger   problems  arise     monitored  resolved   issues  tend  make  anxious  particular  monday     walking  dog  noticed  couple  drains   passed looked     blocked     lot  water around  just makes  wonder  much  come possibly   burial site     actually safe  worries  monday   groundwater  even  emphasised   statement  heard   border news  tuesday   environment agency  statement  concerning  future safety   groundwater   area around  burial site  agency  give  guarantee   groundwater   become affected   future since    heard   news   issue  may   information  news reports  missed   opinion  enough information  given   public   issues results  testing   environment agency  meant   available   public however   never heard much   details  think  effort   made  inform  particular resident near burial sites   issues  bound   important    hearing  news   become  worried    end   day   little  can really    find    trust people  agencies  know little   just hoping everything will  alright  tuesday also noticed  horrible smell outside    fiancé    cant  sure exactly    coming     causing   thursday  news  possible foot  mouth case  south near leeds  became  worried   whole thing  going  start     worries    farmers  people involved      affected   cases   identified   particular affecting   life  animals     slaughtered    future     disposed   existing burial sites  reopened  opposed  finding suitable sites  new burial sites   seem easier  reopen burial sites     mean   future    extent   health risks  increased    relieved  hear  testing   foot  mouth cases came back negative   relieved   people involved  also residents near burial sites however   raise questions   mind    sort  situation   handled   future   consequences  might  week 2 4th march  monday passed driving test  now fiancé    insured   small car  opens   many opportunities     huge sense  freedom last summer   planned  go   camping holiday   dog dog   al  equipment prepared   unable  go due   foot  mouth outbreak neither  us imagined  long  widespread  outbreak    thought  first        weeks now  year later   able  replan  holiday   exciting    waited  long   unbelievable  think  long   taken  restrictions   countryside  return   normal  can  possible due   circumstances   actual people directly involved   foot  mouth crisis  must  seemed like far longer  tuesday    lovely surprise   noticed  lambs   field near  house   walking  dog   lovely  see     minutes things almost seemed normal  even though  burial site     mile away   hidden  view   village  never forget though  soon   spot  windmills  remember  repeated pictures featured   news seeing  lambs really  lift  spirits   future  foot  mouth didnt seem  bad  thought  week   cant recall  exact days    towards  beginning   week  two particular occasions  fiance   noticed  terrible smell outside  arent sure exactly   smell  just     unpleasant    incident   can recall  stands    mind  past week   conversation     fiancés granddad   talking   bad last years foot  mouth outbreak     recalled  outbreak  1967  commented    thought  outbreak   far better controlled   better   animals  killed  buried   actual farms  lime    transporting dead  live animals like last year  also commented   fact     pyres     hadnt thought   good idea last year overall  thought  last years outbreak    dealt  better   action  taken far  late  prevent  disease spreading week 3 11th march one new thing   noticed  week   amount  birds   flying around especially black crows  think       driving  every time  drive past  fields   south end   village   large amounts  crows hustled together can never remember   quite like  last summer  makes  wonder   many  drawn  just  fields   drive past   next  weeks  will see    still     occasions  week fiancé    noticed  slight smell outside    foul smelling  still noticeable  tuesday saw new series featured  itv called rural lives  think    good idea   issue  foot  mouth  still  painful   lot  people     yet  effects  still happening however   news    media  isnt often mentioned  doesnt get  attention  deserves hopefully  programmes like  people will get  better understanding   issues involved   different people went    outbreak ever happened    people involved  hopefully   better idea    handle  actual crisis   better idea  peoples needs  example  farmers   long term effects  cant  ignored  mum came    couple  nights  loves coming   see us   lives  carlisle    total change  scenery  thought   great  enjoyed taking  dog  long walks    unable     long time  went  see  lambs   lovely weather shows   able  start enjoying  countryside  especially coming   spring  summer   even able  go  dalston   dog  wander      used    stick t  roads just   local area   lovely  nice change   tend  make   confident   coming year    looking forward   summer week 4 18th march  past week started    day   bowness  went   fiancé  took  dog dog   lovely  let    lead  run  really enjoys   got absolutely filthy travelling   car  becoming easier  dog   goes crazy   arrive     dog just  2 years    past year  couldnt let    lead  run anywhere   tiring t train    listens   certain extent     keep  eye   cheeky side  remember wondering   foot  mouth started    going  exercise dog  walking    roads used    difficult due   large vehicles travelling     also  fact dog isnt  best   lead  used   really energetic   bit   handful however now   got used    relaxed life   times  think  quite likes    us  good    exercise  fresh air    lovely    change  scenery apart   monday  havent really  anywhere else apart  shopping    busy    level work therefore  havent really noticed anything different  week  havent thought  foot  mouth  much  overall view  week   quite confident      real significant happenings  change  view quite  good week overall week 5 25th march firstly  received  newsletter sent    standing panel    relief  finally get  information regarding  burial site   good    explanation   things work   site  terms   can understand    relief  know  everything  far  still safe however   evident    much  work  monitoring   carried    future even though   still  possible   anything   minds   least put  rest  knowing something  surprises   long   taken  information like    made accessible   public  think  newsletter    good step forward  information  reaching  public  participants  also given  opportunity  ask questions  put  ideas forward  wednesday  mum came    see us    took  walk  go see  lambs   field near us   enjoyable    lovely weather  makes  realise  much  take  granted around  without thinking twice  mum  made  realise  even   seeing  much  enjoys   simple thing   special  thinks   sometimes  think    surrounded   country  nature   time  forget  lucky    mum  gran   love  live somewhere like   biggest surprise  week    received  parish magazine   month  found    watchtree news    first time   ever seen anything like    parish council  think     good idea   information will  accessible  everyone   appropriate parishes even though   long overdue    worthwhile   think will   informative  covers  wide range  issues  majority    knew  little   wouldnt  known   future  example  maintenance going   carried    a595 orton grange junction   site entrance  least  now  knowledge      going   carried    will affect  members   family  live   orton grange junction   otherwise    idea    information  surprising  example  number  tankers  leave  site everyday   didnt expect    high    rise important issues  also now  tackled    bad state   local roads  affected people  also  encouraged  report  things    appropriate people  think     significant development  will   useful   aftermath  foot  mouth communication   appropriate authorities   public  essential week 6 1st april unfortunately     go  week one bit  work  another  havent  time  focus   much else  past week despite  fact   still  quite  positive week   better studying       distractions  everything  lovely  peaceful  drastic difference  last year   time   difficult  concentrate  anything   long far  many distractions  fiancé however      burial site  nearby  sunday  went   drive   friend  wondered   looked like      ever seen   television reports  never       future diary    time  will write   words    thought week 7 8th april    week   full  work  havent  much time   anything apart  work  thursday    break   mom came    bbq   first time  year   put   patio tables  chairs   weather  staying pleasant  sat       evening    bbq    lovely break   mom    peace  quiet    opposed   town   really enjoyed   mom  fiance  commented  lovely    sit outside   nice weather without  nasty smell    past couple  weeks  havent noticed things smelling  bad     occasions recently   also   decrease   amount  birds  particular crows      fields   south     near  crossroads   couple  occasions   week     past  fields      couple  birds flying around  opposed   whole field full  crows  one time   also lovely  hear  sheep especially   evening became darker   background   hear  sheep just   field next  us  also  lambs   fields away   something   still arent quite used     appreciate  much  now week 8 15th april   feeling quite confident  week  friday  watch  news  saw  report  new bovine tb cases   worrying even though   said  wouldnt   serious  foot  mouth   still worrying     potential  destroy many  lives  bankrupt  farmers   probably just got  foot  mouth  worry must  especially bad   farmers    bad enough   general public especially  seeing  damage caused  foot  mouth    short space  time    absolutely terrible   summer  anything like last summer  long   take  everything  get back  normal  even though foot  mouth  evidently far different  bovine tb hopefully things will   learned  last year  will prevent   becoming  disaster  apart    aspects   foot  mouth smell etc havent   bad  past week  havent noticed  particular occasions   smell   particularly bad  noticeable  addition   occasions    driven past  fields near  crossroads    hardly  crows near     huge improvement    number  seagulls  one field  nowhere near  amount  crows      also   decrease   amount  tankers going  recently    noticed  first  didnt take much notice     fiancé s grandad mentioned    hardly seen   seems  notice  move       lives   orton grange junction  wigton road      go past     things happening  presence   burial site nearby seems less obvious week 9 22nd april  last week   quite  pleasant week probably    eventually finished  coursework    able    bit  peace  quiet  think  combined  periods  lovely weather  made  feel quite good  tuesday   travelled  town  back  went past  fields near  crossroads   south   village    past   full  crows  seagulls    noticed   odd occasions   past week  appear   empty now ill keep  eye    changes   summer     friday  noticed     number  cattle  calves   field just opposite  house  can stand  watch    back patio doors   lovely   reintroduction   sheep  cattle   area   like everything  coming together finally   foot  mouth  life  returning  normal   sense  cattle seem    last part needed  everything  seem   running properly   animals finally moving   last  think  fact combine     significant incidents  nasty smells   rumbling   tankers going   made things seem better  talking  fiance s grandad  mentioned    still havent   many tankers going past  house  orton grange      past week    hardly  reminders   burial site   past foot  mouth problems living   country  seemed quite normal   seems  long time week 10 29th april     week    good week overall  regard   foot  mouth everything seems   quietened     hardly  visible reminders   burial site  foot  mouth around  village   mentioned last week  still havent   noticeable occasions  smells possibly   burial site  tankers  hardly  noticeable around  village   fields near  crossroads  still  fairly empty  birds  particular crows   explained  backed    watchtree newsletter   parish magazines   received  week   good  read   informative worth reading  still think    good idea    done well   discusses issues happening now  also keeps  informed  action   future  newsletter mentioned  reduction   amount  tankers    noticed  also mentions   might   slight smell   burial sited  work   far  havent noticed anything      lovely seeing   sheep   cows   surrounding fields especially   moment      young  saturday   way   fiance s grandad   road works near  baldwinholme bend   road  part    bad condition   now much better  think  damage  caused   trucks etc used  foot  mouth however im  sure week 11 6th may  week    21st birthday im growing     lovely day  thursday    surprise   taken t  lake district   day   lovely   really enjoyed  firstly  stopped   bassenthwaite lake   bit fed  ducks    picnic    dodd wood   coffee   see  ospreys   great  see    think   quite lucky     pleasant walk around myre house   reminded   lucky    cumbria    lovely places    glad    now able  go   places  now weve got  car   going  take better advantage  cumbria      offer    realised  much  take     granted overall     good week  reminders  foot  mouth   burial site   minimal     smells   noticed  hardly  signs  wagons   still lovely  see  sheep  cattle around  village week 12 13th may  wednesday  met  mum  town  got  cumberland news     reading   county council inquiry  kendal  think   good   different people involved   inquiry    honest   happened     way anything will  improved   future  anything   similar nature  happen   really hope  doesnt  reading  articles written   people  said   clear   wide range  people  foot  mouth crisis affected  also  badly   read   people    family     low   driven   suicide   seem  feel  bit guilty    complain  hasnt affected us    drastic way  brings  seriousness   extent   crisis  peoples attention despite  terrible things  took place   crisis hopefully  good will come      present   future  thursday fiance went   doctors   talking   farmer   waiting room  soon  fiance mentioned  lived  great orton  farmer asked straight away    like  live   near   burial site    couldnt imagine      like       long time since anyone  said anything like   either one  us   time   foot  mouth crisis people used  ask questions     like  live  near   strange  farmers  particular feel sympathy towards   living near  burial site     hand    farmers  feel sympathy    foot  mouth crisis  fair number  people even  carlisle didnt know  great orton   now many   realise  close  carlisle  actually  week 13 20th may  havent really done anything  exciting  past week unfortunately ive  revising   preparing   presentation    level      next week  presentation   turrets  watchtowers   found  bit confusing  first   books ive  using  dragged fiance  drive  dog  past brampton  hadrians wall   found  watchtower   turret everything became much clearer   way back  spotted  sign   camping barn  hadrians wall banks east     interested  sent away   brochure   point  decided  reconsider  holiday plans  realised  didnt need  go far afield like amsterdam  1st choice  scotland 2nd choice  hadnt realised actually  many places    nearby   ideal  came   conclusion  holiday  cumbria    best choice  1   take dog  us 2   go  car  3     bit cheaper  fiance mentioned   also  good  everything  put  money   spending back  cumbria   hoping  go next week    half term  week    exams   hopefully  will get something organised  thursday  got  orton newsletter fiance     quite disappointed   read  land around  area   sold   building  houses   good   way  people  moving forward  f m   wish  wasnt   residential sense   just  pity  much   farming will  lost 6 houses  baldwinholme 4  great orton even though  havent  brought    farming background     seen     pity  us  lose  part   countryside week 14 27th may  monday saw cb   pleased  hear  f m standing panel project  going well   think  worthwhile   much  possible   learned   future  tuesday  attended  meeting   foot  mouth disease inquiry  great orton village hall  7pm   glad  attended  meeting  people  voice  opinions  try  get information  issues    present   future  general view   meeting    went    general feeling   villagers etc     losing interest  nothing  still  done   many empty seats  estimated  total number  50 60 people    whole new panel  faces even though    new inquiry    new people   panel    meetings    feel  continuity   one  sure     said     never  answers promised  one meeting  another  seems      way  avoiding answers  getting   situations   new aspects   brought     yet  disclosed never   meeting   attended    fact  burial  planned  used   burial  uninfected animals       led  believe  al  engineering  site    lack  communication   one  sure   facts defra also   guaranteeing funding   site   next 5 years    worrying whos burden  will become    variety   issues  discussed health roads handling  outbreak vaccination etc   meeting   glad    however  felt rather angry   way    questions  handled  answers  often vague   supporting evidence   dismissed  ill   get back       cant comment   opinion many   farmers villagers etc just want  whole thing brought   end ideally  remaining trenches filled   nature reserve created  maintained    guarantees   site   used   funding   next five years will  ever  achieved  saturday morning fiance   decided  go away   short break  somewhere near     take dog    spontaneous decision   jubilee     half term     college  ended  going   caravan site  dog  4 nights  will update   holiday   next diary clipping  news  star  story  great orton public meeting  villagers request    site used    event  future emergencies holiday week beginning monday 3rd june week 15 10th june   writing   couple  days early just  tell    holiday   lovely   end  hadnt yet received  brochure   camping barns   saturday  decided   like  go away  son  possible   like something   jubilee weekend  finding  caravan  caldbeck  far away relatively quiet  went  5 pm  saturday fiance dog        lovely caravan site lovely caravan  even  tv   world cup  caravan site  surrounded  common land sheep lovely  quiet   lot  places  keep dog occupied    surprised   quiet  campsite    jubilee weekend  thought    people actually lived     lovely   future    small caravan   go away   surrounding places  went   really busy  example keswick bassenthwaite etc   quite surprised  thought   great  see cumbria lively    contrast      imagined  places   like  year ago especially   jubilee everyone seemed  make   effort   lovely  see     lovely time  relaxing oi dont think dog  ever walked  far   surprised  somewhere  close  exactly   wanted   also happy   put  money back  cumbria   definitely go back  feel  much  confident   future especially  cumbria   week   didnt know  last year f m outbreak   cases    hard  tell  really think cumbria seems     recover   hopefully  saturday  sunday ill  bed week 16 17th june   combination   feeling  well   beginning   week  car  running overt  week end  dog   season  havent really  able  go anywhere  week    quite frustrating     work   anyway  still feel quite confident   future  week    holiday   better   couple  weeks ago   fmd inquiry meeting   felt quite unsure  time    going  happen  gt orton    f m panel newsletter  watchtree newsletter  parish magazine  think     good    able  gain information consistently  f m  cumbria   particular  burial site  information   difficult  come  otherwise  particular  enjoyed reading  children  milburn school   memories   f m outbreak   effort   made researcher  spoken  respondent  possibility  monthly diary   decided  start straight away  although middle  month  follows monthly write   continued  record  diary   way  times  offers short daily entries drawing 4 weeks together within  overall reflective piece  daily entries  also recorded week 20 15th july writing   4 weeks   looking forward  attending  social evening  dalston    bit nervous    used    sorts  things  think  will   good experience   also pleased   got  f m panel newsletter  saw  article  made notes    never done anything like     quite pleased   whole thing   saturday  week one fiance   went   fiance s grandads  noticed    signs   land   sale    think   quite sad   area will inevitable  changing   near future  wonder  much   land will  reused  farming  sold  new houses taking  consideration  signs   seen    past quite  bit  land  going  change   past weeks   also received  watchtree newsletter   parish magazine  still think    good idea  worthwhile    updated every  often  will also reach everyone   village  easily accessible   period    days  week 2   4 weeks fiance    noticed  strange smell outside   smell      fiance s grandads    2 miles away  smelt just like  burning smell     sure whether   anything     burial site  anything  done    just thought   mention  anyway last wednesday  rang   archaeological support group  carlisle       member   past year   half   never  sent anything      along time  wondered   turns   last year  soon  f m hit cumbria everything  cancelled  stopped   knew   time    nothing else    happened  thing  didnt realise   things    badly affected  nothing   arranged  yet even  many months  f m broke      another example   things   affected still  many months    also uncertainty   future   archaeology group  nothing   decided yet   will depend   things go    pity   hope things pick    future   first week   4 weeks fiance    noticed    coughing  bit  especially  night  early   morning since  fiance  got better    coughing  much  now   got  sore throat   cold  dont think   anything     burial site  anything     sure   coughing   thought   mention  12th august writing   4 weeks    feel quite  nervous now      evening  dalston village hall    bit intimidating  first    going    night  frontline workers  health professionals  felt  bit    depth   wondered  sort  stories    telling compared     seen  people     deal   situation first hand  must  seen  terrible things   couple  weeks  grew used   idea  didnt feel  bad   turn     good experience   turns   evening  now   21st august  everyone  going together things will   bit  relaxed    think  hope  will  able  make   one major event   made  think   past couple  week  fiance s auntie jean   moved house  orton grange 2 miles away  us   middle  town  made  think   definitely wouldnt like  move back   middle  carlisle  living  even though  hasnt    pleasant  times   f m last year   building   burial site   still miss everything       reminded  lucky     surrounded  fields cows sheep   horse   overlooking field   also usually quiet  peaceful  can imagine quite different   middle  carlisle  think jean will miss  quite  lot just   week ago fiance    busy getting  garden ready   village  bloom   good  see everyone making  effort  everything looking nice everything felt  bit  normal  year whereas last year  think  village  bloom   last thing   peoples minds  made  feel  confident   future perhaps everything   things may return  normal eventually week 24 12th august nothing extremely significant concerning f m  happened  week   noticed though now  working  village pub wellington even though    1 day   really become quite busy  think business  improved   tried  advertising  can remember back    foot  mouth outbreak    quiet  people stayed away   atmosphere   pub   depressing now   year later things  seem   picking    perhaps returning   normal   god  see monday 19th august        quiet week  havent really    much   feeling well really    bit disappointed   able  attend  social evening o wednesday   mom  unable  get time  work  change  shift 26th august first     noticing problems   goldfish   first got   two   half years ago     problems     past  months    getting ill   tried  sorts different chemicals  still    died except one omar fiance s cousin  breeds fish came    look   baffled   explanation    chemicals   changed  increased  example  chlorine   appears    lot    obviously arent totally sure   problem   thought   mention  anyway  week  also noticed  banner opposite  village shop   village   enclosed  article   banner  appeared   cumberland news  week  think  sums   mood   noticed   village meetings nothing  yet  done  help  villagers etc   difference   promises made    main reason   feel less confident   future  week regarding foot  mouth   things  still dragging  monday 2nd september   first week   diaries nothing really significant happened regarding foot  mouth   comment however   working   pub  sundays  busy  pub    business  seemed  improve  lot     seen   foot  mouth crisis  atmosphere    depressing  made  feel  confident   future regarding foot  mouth  another aspect   foot  mouth  seemed  return back  normal  mood however  change   third week   diaries   felt less confident   future   began   goldfish started dying apart  oner  still   sure exactly  caused     sure whether        water   something    just seems    little bit  doubt   mind   dont feel totally sure    happening   area still  therefore  dont think really trust  organisations dealing   issues   thing  seemed  sum     feelings   banner  appeared opposite  village shop last week  think  shows  desperation  lengths    people   village   go   order  get noticed  heard  seems ridiculous    basic issues brought    earlier meetings  still   dealt    make  lose  trust     organisations involved article enclosed  past week    little better however   good   receive  watchtree newsletter   parish magazine   still good  receive   updates    number  different aspects   burial site  also heard   article   newspaper regarding  inquiry  cathy  well   mom   saved      yet    read   will comment     next diary 9 15 september monday got free news star last week  found article  f m diaries   bothered     printed  tuesday saw cathy said  articles   bothered   can see  otherwise involved    things   represented   right way   misleading good point though    may catch peoples attention  get  point across  people  still suffering got article  cumberland news mum saturday found article  cumberland news regarding village  bloom won  trophy   special efforts  village  aftermath  f m crisis mark andrews trophy 16 22 september monday fiance   noticed  burning smell   came back home   evening  sure     reminds us  f m crisis wednesday road works  village didnt affect us  much thursday road works    fiance s grandads annoying  times  taken   long time   reminds us  f m crisis fiance   noticed  burning smell   sure   friday good  watchtree newsletter told us   road works  wouldnt  known saturday  aspects arent  bad      atmosphere reminds    f m crisis last year 23 29 september monday read  diarist  also   look   inquiry report   sent  attending  village meeting tuesday    time  read  much     will get round     comment   friday parish magazine  watchtree newsletter still good   updated    going  1 roads  2 visiting  site 30 6th october monday rang   book table   autumn fayre  done  village hall people pleased  people  village getting involved tuesday water   quite bad especially  tuesday full  chlorine   leave     everything  evaporate makes  quite concerned  whether     safe  drink 6th october writing  4 weeks  week  read  articles regarding  f m diaries  appeared   cumberland news   news  star   enclosed  reading   speaking  c   wasnt  bothered  offended    written   easily  seen   people    specially    finding things really difficult  think    good side   articles  well though   will  grabbed peoples attention  highlighted  fact    still problems regarding f m  long   crisis even though  articles  misleading   also done  good  reading  cumberland news  also found  mention  great orton regarding  village  bloom  turns    awarded  mark andrews trophy  special efforts   aftermath  f m     nice  win  better award   least   recognised  something   quite please week 2  probably  worst week      past month regarding f m   whole week just seemed  remind      like   crisis firstly   road works    fiance s grandads  2 miles away  understand     carried    made  difficult  inconvenient  get  fiance s grandads   didnt know  roads  gong   closed  now   work   done everyone    spoken    think  will cause  trouble      pull    lay bys   dangerous   grass  verge    smoothed   think   alright   already know  roads   wouldnt   confident   hadnt driven      aspect  made  road works seem worse  two instances  fiance    noticed  burning smell monday  thursday    sure   came    still reminded us   crisis  week 3  received  copy   f m inquiry  glad  went   meting   village sometimes  feels good   involved even though    small way  also received  diarist newsletter  watchtree newsletter    still glad  receive without  watchtree newsletter  dont think     informed   road works  carried    also glad  site  progressing   people  now  given  opportunity  visit  site   wish  week 4    one major problem   water  tuesday  water   full  chlorine     leave     chlorine    evaporate  boil  even  give dog  drink    second time   happened    concern   firstly     done  secondly   water safe  drink    sure   contact    last time  contacted united utilities  said   just routine  nothing  worry  week beginning 7th october  much  week regarding fmd think     busy thinking   things week beginning 14th october monday relaxing  bit today  going    busy day tomorrow  away  wednesday tuesday fiance s exam turned    quiet  today   good  fiance s exam      home    difficult last year  pressure  f m weds away  holiday    bit   drive     used    made  lovely views  way   hawkshead  lovely place thursday  holiday  well suited  dog  plenty  places  walk  quiet campsite  shops  pubs   suited  dogs things    quite used  friday lovely   away   break away  great orton   one hand    remember  nice        luck      hand sunday    good week  confident   future week beginning 21st october monday  quiet week  just got back quite tired  coping ok nice   back   way weds got watchtree newsletters  parish magazine also article   news  star  think  renaming  site  farm  used    thursday watchtree newsletter interested   open day think   good idea  will   interesting especially geology  fossil remains found  site  think   beneficial  even though  live   village      meetings still  little idea    site looks now  will   future week beginning 28th october weds went  meet mom  town  roads  town  terrible mud  road everywhere  really busy  trucks etc must      new building hope  doesnt get like    time   much land round  seems    sold  new construction sat mom  got   stall  week end   craft fair   village hall 1st time   done  saw   parish newsletter 2nd november writing  4 weeks  past month   one   busiest      long time firstly   fiance s final exam   quite stressful    times revising  everything  reminded    difficult         first exams  year   half   f m crisis studying    difficult  due  constant interruptions  distractions constant sound  trucks smells noise tension im  glad  wasnt  bad  year   things can  stressful enough shortly  fiance s exam fiance  mom   went   short break  hawkshead   great   enjoyed   dog especially everything  suited  dog  took  shopping   benches  water bowls outside every shop  went   bar meal  sat outside      last night even    us  went   pint apart   things  also took   plenty  walks   made  realise  lovely cumbria    people  dont live   attracted      pity  cumbria suffered  f m crisis      lovely place   hope  due   large amount  attractions  cumbria  things will hopefully  back  normal  can  expected   quite surprised   busy things    time  year  seems things must  improving  makes  confident  enjoyed  break   realise maybe great orton isnt   bad place  come back    past month   also received  watchtree newsletter im quite interested   open day later   month  think  will   interesting im really interested   geology history   site  also fossils found    work  dont know much    site looks    will    future   amazing   can live  near  still   idea     like   can seem  remember   pictures   shown   news months ago  seems difficult  imagine   different  past week    busy   mom    stall   first time   craft fair   village hall    helping   little bit  helped    stall  just sat   really  decided    go   likes crafts   always making things   nice   involved   village   money   hiring   stalls went   church   good    quiet  saturday though  apparently    worst      years  wonder     effect   f m however  weather   factors may  contributed week beginning monday 11th november tuesday fiance doctors wednesday  dentist   town  mam missed  exhibition   village hall disappointed  got  article   cumberland news   included  havent spoke  anyone  went  one  mentioned anything   disappointed  missed   also    probably one    opportunities  will get  know anything fiance    agree   still like  big secret  one really allowed     doesnt feel like local people  benefiting     anything    us really friday children  need   pub yesterday nice  see people taking part  big difference   foot  mouth  just made  donation    bit busy  us 1045 raised sunday work  pub still  busy  pub  least  seems   recovered  f m      heard   suffer badly along    businesses  week beginning 18th november tuesday    playing darts  port carlisle   break   week  thing   worrying  playing darts away   travelling    country roads round   terrible      wagons especially near wiggonby  road  fiance s granddad just gets worse  just mud  less grass terrible     damage done  wagons   combination    flooding   area now saturday fiance   talking    area  changed  remembered back  4 years ago   used  go   airfield burial site   peace even though  rubble  really enjoyed     take  dog  first driving lesson  fiance     fun  really miss   times nowhere round  anymore  get peace cant even enjoy  nature reserve  frustrating week beginning monday 25th november monday keep realising   diaries  havent   chance  look  cumbria foot  mouth disease inquiry report will   make time   soon saturday     pub talking  new fence  park  children general mood    pleased   doesnt fit   country village setting  nothing else done sunday cant believe    beginning  december everything  passing  quick inevitable 31st november writing   4 weeks  past 4 weeks    busy compared     used      time   quite frustrating    ways  issues   bothered fiance     mainly     onset  winter   course  inevitable   year  seem   worse   can previously remember since living   winter  biggest issue   state   roads   village  round    terrible   amount  rain      puddles everywhere  everything  turning  mud  worst thing      difficult  walk  take dog anywhere   frustrating  either get absolutely filthy   walking   roads    get soaked   sides   roads  avoid cars  going   lonning isnt really  option    really muddy     dumping  understand    will  due   weather    sure      roads  due    traffic    especially  fiance s granddads outside  front   gate  garden  grass  gradually  stripped away   now turned  mud    ears   lived  50 years   never seen   bad  roads arent like  just nearby   noticed  roads round   also   bad state    travelled away   nearby village pubs  playing darts   disappointed   missed  exhibition   village hall   watchtree reserve     go  town etc    spoken  anyone  know  attended  exhibition  wish    opportunities  learn      find  newspaper article enclosed   watchtree   quite annoying   wont  open   public   understandable   isnt possible      hand    benefiting anyone really  lives nearby fiance   still remember back    airfield  still      lovely place  go walking   relax  getting away  everything  used   lovely  quiet   also  nearby   actually quite miss  sometimes    nowhere else like  round  now even though    quite   negative issues  past month   also  encouraging     working   pub     busy      showing   must  recovering   effect   foot  mouth crisis   also encouraging     night held  children  need   raised approx 1045   good  see people involved  happy  one thing    notice    general mood   improvements made   park    good people   impressed   new fence   look like  belongs   country          changed     time  will go    look   december 2002 writing   4 weeks average  havent felt  bad  christmas  little tired  since   got  bit   cold  sore throat  surprising   time  year average  think     right havent  able  walk  far near village due  weather  roads   isnt surprising   time  year  past 4 weeks   rather hectic  christmas  everything    still  quite  bit  write   diaries concerning foot  mouth  received  parish magazine  december      thank    involved   craft fayre    1 008 raised  st giles church   good   able  contribute  something   village well    mum really   helped   good  see  sorts  things happening   good   village  everything  also received  watchtree newsletter   parish magazine   still good  receive    updates   everything  also  information regarding  exhibition   village hall   missed   glad    success  people attended especially  school children   taken  also received  diarist   good  read   interesting  see   panel members      surprising  things can lead   example  diarist   samson tractor   past couple  weeks   also collected  couple  articles   cumberland news  first one lie returns  watchtree actually made  feel better    going  get something positive    whole experience    problem     moments  time  wont  enough   people involved     change  happened  wont make      lost  think  just depends     feeling   time  reading  articles   article village  running  top country award  also quite pleasing   least    village   remembered  recognised    went    surprising  now  long   actual foot  mouth crisis    finally  recognised   many things  now  written   paper   christmas period    really  one thing  complain      state   roads   rain  roads   terrible  drive    flooding   road sides turning  mud everything  filthy  know   expected  winter    country  since       never   bad especially  fiance s grandads one improvement   signs    put    passing places    fiance s grandad fiance    think   much much better   lot safer   also spotted  couple  signs  watchtree     now      still surprising  see now   time  start everything   new year  hopefully  will   better year  great orton   past couple     glad   going   quiet  now    start  studying  opposed   foot  mouth  studying    difficult monday 27th january writing   4 weeks  week  found  article   daily mail   thought  relevant   called boom  doom    house prices   england  2002 prices  north yorkshire rose  66   allerdale   rose  8    mention        must   result   foot  mouth crisis   effect   area since   made  think   effect  great orton   difficult   probably   sell houses    people  really want  move    two sides however    property  built  great orton   surrounding area things  probably change  great orton might lose    farming background  definitely wouldnt want   change  much despite  burial site  like  just  way    great thing   week   weather      able  go   lonning  dog without getting filthy    frosty    great  cant believe  quickly 2003  passing   february already  past month   totally hectic  appointments arrangement birthdays   open university  makes  realise  whatever happens time goes   think  must    difficult  people directly involved   foot  mouth crisis  life     carry  despite whatever  going     lives  think  time  gone    got  used   idea  watchtree  accept   now  received  watchtree news   previous week   good  hear   restoration  creation   site  finally complete overall  dont think   taken  long   thought     nature reserve   established especially   compare    long   taken   childrens playground   improved nearly two years   foot  mouth crisis however   better late  never   pleased    nature reserve sounds  al  different species  animal    included  seen especially  merlin  smallest bird  prey   sited fiance    find  things  interesting   good    happening  close  us last year  travelled  see  osprey viewpoint   great   past couple  weeks   also found    articles two    regarding  20 day standstill    directly involved   farming side   foot  mouth crisis    totally sure    sorts  rules etc  think   good   least things  trying   improved   future  case  may happen   also   result  learning  past events   also  article showing watchtree   finalist   environmental project award  definitely think  watchtree deserves   considered   award   much  happened    least  good  going  come       nice  get  sort  award  recognition   hard work   people involved  think  year will hopefully   better one  cumbria  people may  confidence even though  foot  mouth crisis   tragedy  think cumbria   people    able  recover    people   newspaper articles seem  optimistic   rubs     think  year will   better one  feel  confident   future   point monday 24th february writing   4 weeks  far  past four weeks    receive  watchtree newsletter     small mention   parish magazine   playground work  underway    hoped   finished   summer  seems   taking  long time  get  playground sorted   least  will  good   kids   summer holidays   better late  never    one thing   bothered us   past weeks  fish whenever  change  water  fish seem   ill  now     add    chemicals  reduce  amount  chlorine  seems     water   originally start   13 fish  now   2 left   make  worry   state   water    chemicals  possibly  added  fact   burial site   near  make  worry    anything       past four weeks     confident   future regarding foot  mouth   sun shining    animals   seems   nothing bad  happened    know    people involved   crisis  future will never   easy  simple    feel sympathy      seems possible   able  move  now   crisis     good  see  sheep  cows   fiance  even seen  couple  birds  prey    sure     think one might    merlin   mentioned   previous watchtree newsletter   seen  site  article called record tourism figures  county  encouraging  shows  cumbria may  starting  recover   foot  mouth crisis  also found another article called fears  bovine tb time bomb  think   worrying   definitely  taken seriously     devastating  farmers  everyone   county   past fortnight   also   mams birthday   really looking forward  spending  time     went  bowness   afternoon  dog    realise  lovely       much    appreciated overall   opinion  situation  cumbria   past year  definitely improved  will hopefully continue    24th march writing   4 weeks  past four weeks   rather strange  worrying first      death  simon harris  man   village    regularly see walking dogs  looking   horses despite     papers  said       always polite  possibly just  bit shy   enclosed  article       paper shortly   death  headline    nice   article  include    best comments  simon   quite shocked   whole thing  think   definitely   handled better   papers  people   village  also    bit  respectful    think    place  comment   way    secondly  whole issue  war  iraq   worrying subject neither fiance   agree     done      carried     particularly worrying time  fiance s aunty   husband lives  kuwait   rest   family  came  england    originally    two children   last gulf war  knows   well   danger     involved     worrying subject   feel totally helpless     time  get away   however life still carries   harsh   may   thought    looking   past diaries   written   many  accumulated   strange  quickly time goes    people  just expected  cope  carry   thought  particular   people worst affected   foot  mouth crisis  helpless  must  felt    coped life can   funny thing looking back  think  project    worth   think   great   will  archived   future writing  diaries seems   become part   routine now   think  will definitely  strange    longer   write    found quite   newspaper articles   past four weeks donella rebuilds  cumberland show  encouraging   future  cumbria   foot  mouth crisis however   still worrying issues arising     articles  mp calls  vaccination  keep f m  control   uruguay   threat  highlight issues  important   farming industry   also   busy   past  weeks   second assignment  due   university work   quite hectic     break   past couple  days       well  bad cough sore throat  stomach   stuffy nose  havent done  badly   winter months  illnesses   cant really complain lastly  water hasnt    best quality lately  occasions   white  fizzes    appetizing 21st april writing   4 weeks  past 4 weeks  just seem  fly  quite   good things  happened  even though   feeling quite tired     good month firstly fiance dog    finally go t  small space      got  allotment  8 miles away    surrounded  horses  fields  belongs   man  lives   owns   land roundabout  unfortunately    longer well enough  work  land   let us    will need  lot  work  will  good  us  far   got potatoes raspberries  rhubarb growing dog even helps  dig even though  live   country    block    always  easy  get  peace   also   opportunity  join  cumbria wildlife trust  leaflet came   door   thought    brilliant     kept   date    latest goings   cumbria learn  lot    wildlife  also possibly get  chance    voluntary work fiance    really interested  think   great  get sent though  certain number  magazines every year  every month  send  small donation   feel like   helping  little bit  well  article   found  one   magazines id enclosed   next page   thing   made  month  knowing    going  hawkshead   mam fiance dog    going   short break just 3 nights   birthday   got   booked   really looking forward     great last time especially  dog  just hope  doesnt get stuck   bed   caravan  time     bit bigger now      past week   also   touch   dad  south africa     birthday  turns    may  passing  carlisle   couple  days   end  next week    lovely  see     think  will love great orton   allotment  think   always liked  thought  living   country   love  retire  somewhere nice  quiet things will also  improved    grown   bit since   last   3 years ago    good   funny   living  south africa   long   still drawn   lifestyle  cumbria lastly   made  note   final meeting   foot  mouth diaries  hope     bet  passes really quickly now  will     know   strange 28th april 4th may monday got 3 articles  cumberland news april 25th 2003 breeders hit  discrimination fmd burial site celebrates new life   favourite   dogs life  rosie  lamb tuesday saw c friday noticed  park  coming   bit better   children   mentioned   orton parish awarded 25 000  reference drain level  re seed new play equipment will follow saturday    children  allowed  attend meetings  discuss  good  involve children  time   least children will  able  play football 5th 11th may tuesday working really hard   get assignment posted  tomorrow night   go away  thursday hectic wednesday service held  watchtree unable  go  think     good idea newspaper article enclosed  written   service thursday away  hawskhead exciting friday  birthday   lovely day went shopping   morning  forest   afternoon    meal  night lovely sunday back  holiday already   lovely everyone   friendly  perhaps  just noticed    12th 18th may tuesday fiance  doctors   well   got  viral infection  well  fluid behind  ears told  just take  easy wednesday    sent info  chose courses  open university    like   next year    future  going  take  environmental studies route hopefully leading  diploma  environment  development  possibly   ba bsc  environmental studies   like archaeology  think       lot  relevant   future foot  mouth  watchtree made  realise  friday got watchtree newsletter  week  will enclose   time   covers quite   areas    bit  information   information   service held awards    won  also new wildlife   now present   site lapwings oystercatchers  ringed plovers 19th 25th may 2003 tuesday dad  come  visit   couple  days  south africa nice surprise enjoyed seeing  dad asking  fmd crisis  saw   tv     close    think   quite shocked thursday   surprised  even though south africa   different   still like  live somewhere   country makes  think   lucky      take  granted saturday article  cumberland news may 23 reward  post foot  mouth achievements 25th may writing   4 weeks every time  come  write  diaries  look back   past four weeks  notice   becoming    busy  past couple  weeks    exception   already nearly half way   year  cant believe    past 4 weeks     holiday turned 22   dad  popped   south africa    days hectic  good firstly hawkshead  lovely   wouldnt say anything different   great     lovely time     really good birthday     home  great orton  forget  much  really    cumbria    see  definitely think   take advantage    often shortly   arrived back  hawkshead  dad popped   carlisle   couple  days    lovely surprise    good  see   absolutely loves      thinks    lucky even though south africa   different  still thinks   lovely   looking  onto fields   make  realise  lucky   despite  happened due  foot  mouth inevitably sometimes   take   granted  dad remembered watching   foot  mouth crisis  south africa    realise exactly  close    think   quite shocked foot  mouth  definitely made   aware   surroundings   everything works   definitely noticed        studying  open university   now   point   can chose  courses next year  therefore  path   going  take   decided  take courses leading   diploma  environment  development   everything goes  plan   environmental studies degree   really enjoying       minute  think   definitely useful  relevant   future   enjoy studying archaeology  think  environment  related issues   important   present    future   7th may    memorial service  watchtree  mark  two year anniversary    last animal  buried   site  think    good idea    appropriate  remember  animals   killed   unable  attend  service   managed  get  newspaper article      also mentioned   watchtree newsletter   included  newsletter    diaries   contains quite  bit  information    different aspects  think   good   wildlife   emerging   site  park  play area  children  also coming  fairly well  last   finally  reseeded  well  levelled  looks better   also included 4 newspaper articles   cumberland news   favourite  rosie  lamb   put  article    thought   lovely 22nd june 2004 writing   4 weeks  strange  seems     coming   end  really  quickly time  passed   situation   say  time  healed   aspects   foot  mouth crisis  things dont seem  bad 18 months   enjoyed  foot  mouth evening  learnt  lot     peoples views  experiences  enjoyed   lot    thought    thought   main themes found   research  ones     agreed  one thing   said   made  think   comment   diaries    type  memorial   never  thought   research   sort  way     think      agree  like  idea  definitely   worthwhile  able  contribute  something especially   may  able  help   way   future  compared   article   found   cumberland news   mans memorial   animals   lost  foot  mouth  definitely think    fitting  will probably   good  understand everyone   right  express  views    way       loud   inappropriate however        end   day  least people  trying  remember   good way  opposed  sweeping    carpet  week   foot  mouth evening   without  car  noticed  much  relied    took   granted especially        limited bus service everything  sorted  now    back  normal   newer little car thank   much c   lift   back  general  past  months just seem   flown    particular  past couple  weeks  dont seem   time  fit everything    trying  get  assignments done  time  turns    quite  bit  difficult   thought   hard work  will definitely  worth   th end   past 6 months even   learnt  much  next special occasion   coming   fiance s birthday 21st july   thinking  going back  hawkshead     days  really like    im sure will return     just shows    dont need  leave cumbria    good holiday well      end  just makes  wonder  life will  like  18 months  now will things   different  probably will    ways  hopefully will    best 20th july writing   4 weeks   seem  strange   sitting   write  last lot  diaries  feels good   completed something  worthwhile    well   hopefully   good   future concerning foot  mouth crisis    similar situation  also find   helped   become  bit  confident  aware  things around   remember back    attended  first meeting   nervous    think  can handle things like   bit better now   just got back  holiday    lovely time    much  went walking  dog  many places     free  just shows    good holiday  can   cumbria   cheap budget  dont need much else   disappointing thing      places fiance        past  now closed     sold    yet happened  talkin tarn   definitely think    given   cumbria wildlife trust  people  still  access   fiance    agree   countryside  recovering    great   able  wander     collected    articles   cumberland news related  foot  mouth   good  see breeders  well   people getting back   swing  things   just like  thank everyone involved  involving    project   wish    best   future
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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   information  diarist date  birth 1937 gender m occupation group 5 geographic region north cumbria week 1 monday 11th march 2002 whilst watching  local tv news  6 pm    news item  caused us  reflect back   events  year ago  young lady  just left  court     found guilty  assaulting  police officer  also   change   offensive weapon  knife  judge  acquitted    offences  showed leniency towards  last year   fmd crisis   returned   home  find   pet goat   killed  slaughterers   animal  within  3 km radius   gone berserk    threatened  police officer  others   knife     forcibly restrained    distraught   killing even    appeared  court    acquitted   charges  showed great emotion    freed  also quite upset   loss   goat perhaps  actions didnt happen   lot   people   similar things happen   however  loss   lot  pet animals    cases needless slaughter  many farm animals still creates unhappy memories  2001 week 2 tuesday whilst walking  dog  met  farmer   edge   village   friends  stock  close proximity   2 land fill sites   still  concerned  materials   sites  nearest site contained hundreds  carcasses    completed  capped   concerned  leachate   site  feels   doesnt matter  much clay  soil  used  contain  site  effects  heavy rain  bound  find  way   also  drain   doesnt want  plough  fields  can  sell stock   grazed   fields   pyre ash  tipped    site   happens   rainwater  runs   site also   concerns   large flocks  seagulls  visit  sites daily another concern    happening   open cast coal site   situated almost due south  gilgarran village  farmer  talked  today  concerned   huge site  coal   moved   site  months   concerns   site  going   filled  waste will    fmd sites    village   concerned  rumours  land fill   huge scale friday noticed    work  carried    top   burial site  villagers  commented   despite large yellow diggers operating sunday work continuing   burial site  make   kind  work   done  week 3 monday work  still going    burial site  still dont know   going    diggers involved      animals   buried   animals   buried  last year  smell coming   site  terrible  say  least    coming   dead animals   observers thought   decomposing waste material   already  buried   site prior  fmd  excavators dug   soil  make trenches   dead animals  dug   decomposing matter hence  terrible smell despite  work   going   today  comments  villagers  forthcoming  seems    now  fmd  gone  general public   interested   unless  read something   local papers written   enterprising reporter week 4 tuesday work  still going    former burial site villagers dont seem   bothered fmd  gone  nobody  interested   wednesday whilst trying  gain comments  villagers   effects  fmd one  two comments   individuals show concern   outbreak last year  dont seem  concerned    effects   two interesting comments suggest  1  outbreak  started deliberately   country  collusion   agriculturists   eec    concentrate meat production  europe  leave  uk  concentrate  arable farming 2  outbreak  started   terrorist attack  government   declare     cause widespread panic thursday 23 25 hours huge fire   site  pyre ash   tipped 250000 used tyres caught fire arson  suspected fire fighters tried  contain  blaze  couldnt use large amounts  water  case water courses became contaminated friday 05 00 fire still blazing   pyre ash site later   morning  fire  showing signs  dying  apparently   left  burn   much heavy smoke pollution  evident drifting south west   nine miles reading  local evening paper   blaze   also  report  villagers  disington 1 miles  gilgarran  complaining   foul smell   waste sites parish councillors   concerned     coincide  work currently  carried    burial site  smell   sites plus  fact  animals  buried  one site  pyre ash plus  huge fire    site  happening  week  causing concern   area    hue  cry dies  people will soon forget    week 5 monday   friday observed work  top   burial site dont know   work  still going    northern  western sides friday local weekly paper carried  report   recent large fire  occurred   alco site last week  250000 tyres caught fire somehow   intersting  read   fire brigade   use  water  extinguish  blaze  case pollution occurred  water courses  fire  left  burn   saturday burial site  looks like   new soil  tipped  top   reason  reported comments froim  parish council   despite  vociferous objections     use     alco site   past sunday talked   local county councillor  lives   village  feels  strongly   two sites  dangerous  thinks   sites   health hazard risk due  obnoxious odours   particular  large fire  occurred last week  produced  lot  polluted smoke   distance  six miles  people reckoned   smell  burning tyres   smelt   gilgarran    numerous fires   sites   last  years  fires give rise  compaliant  people like us      nearer village  distington 1 miles west    councillor suggests      incidents  cancer cases   area  coming years along  respiratory troubles  well   cases  bronchitis related problems    recently suddenly started sinusitis   hasnt       wasnt happy   situation   sites  dont know    tipped    can    community  accept     told   site owners  previously stated animal carcasses   tipped  buried   three days    told officially     incidentally  site  animals  buried  owned  cumbria county council  seems   totally   advice  county council officials  look   environment   health   population  ive written    going   bigger concerns   opencast coal site   south   village becomes  landfill site  refuse  parts   county fifty miles away   moment    suggestions  anything   fmd outbreak will  dumped   said  however   villagers didnt know  carcasses  buried  pyre ash  tipped     happened  await  outcome   coal site   trepidation    coal  come   site   months     indication  becoming  land fill site week 6 monday  wednesday  work  still ongoing   burial site    visible   side   site  still dont know   going    may   innocent   improvement   environment       site owners    thursday  delegation  meps visit  north   county   come  assess  situation     report back   european parliament  doubt  will also report back    constituents    countries  delegation visit  auction mart  longtown   disease  first noticed   country  also visited  big burial site  great orton    estimated  half  million carcasses  buried good coverage   local press radio  tv gave anyone interested  views   delegation thursday saturday  mep delegation agreed   fmd situation   disastrous   know  comments   tourist  agriculture observers ranged   waste  time   least  politicians  bothered  visit us   couldnt   personally  think   good came    particularly    reported   dutch  used vaccination techniques     small outbreak many people think   british government     public inquiry   outbreak     hide cumbria  holding   inquiry quite rightly   organisations   lancaster university  holding research   outbreak    government eventually  will know  perhaps    lifetime though  minister  maff   lot  answer  week 7 thought     interest  include copies   newsletter   local authorities issued  every household   area regarding  disposal  carcasses  effluent  will   note     fire last year   alco site also involving tyres  similar  last years    big  report  local tv today stated   recent visit  meps   area considered  vaccination    used   outset    seriously considered   future outbreak occur heard  reports   outbreak  tb  cattle   parts   country   reported    serious  fmd   major outbreak occur   lead   question  disposal   need arise  ive already reported  previous entries  use   opencast coal site   south east    causing concern   quarters although  site didnt feature   fmd crisis    feeling     earmarked  use   future   need arise  even  rumour   incinerator  planned    general feeling     surrounding area      enough dumping  carcasses effluent toxic chemicals etc      authorities  seen   sites concerned  handled  substances    extension  disposal sites   area   effective week 8 nothing   significance  report  week week 9 now  cumbrias fmd inquiry  started  lot  people   met  week recall  happenings   year ago even  interesting   coverage   local press  tv plenty  publicity   media shows  little  government  maff  particular let  farming  tourism industries   county     plenty  distressing stories  farmers    infected animals  slaughtered  also  slaughtering  healthy animals   3 km circle   outbreak one particularly distressing point  evidence    farmer described   panel  birth   calf five days   mother   shot    time   outbreak  hearing  stories   daily basis  still maff  mr brown kept telling us   outbreak   control   can say   point  may heaven help us    happens  week 10 work  still going    burial site  looks like new soil   dumped  top   actual site  dozed  level     smooth     side   can   accept   management   site  making  better   concerned      concerned     much publicised cumbrian fmd inquiry team visited  land fill site  met local councillors  expressed  concern   site   alco site   report  forthcoming   team  inquiry team finish  evidence gathering  week one  important statement  made   minister   environment  make  statement   outbreak   even make  visit   sites county wide    total silence  mrs becketts department   request   silence  observed   government source   matter everyone asks   questions    got  hide  arent  interested  plans   made   lessons   learned  last years outbreak  lot  farms  restocking    neighbourhood farm work  going       looks  time goes  though  seems    smouldering anger   one  authority   concerned  well  week 11 work  still  going   burial site  comments heard     villagers  neighbours  week diary 12 monday    observation work  still ongoing   burial site  heavy plant   moved    top   giant amount   looks  though  topsoil   laid   mount perhaps  improve  site  water may still permeate     site  can  believe  operators     right thing   friday talked  2  villagers    effects  fmd one said oh    now  forgotten   doesnt bother  one bit   said     past  just   forget    seems  life  returning  normal   aspects  village life people dont think  last year unless  diarist mentions  sunday  bad day  weather wise  prolonged rain may halt work   burial site  people  reluctant  talk  f m d now even    one   worst economic  social disasters  hit  country   county  particular now     peoples memories begin  fade however   us   happy    two disposal sites within  1000 metres   village fmd may     burial sites     long time yet diary 13 observed  work  burial site  heavy machinery  plant moved   large quantities  soil   laid   smoothed  diary 14 talked   religious today    effects  fmd without exception    interested      idle one   reminded     general comments nobody seems bothered    hundreds  animals buried  1000 yards   village   fact    leachate  pyre ash buried  another site looking   burial site   work   going     look  though  management    everything  make  site safe diary 15  met  smallholder today     talked    past   effects   effects  fmd  still  happy   burial site despite  landscaping  smoothing    large quantities  topsoil  time will tell  says      stock near   site    sheep   farmers land since fmd finished though  stock movements  still restricted  new legislation   come  since  area  declared free  instance    takes  sheep  auction  asked   nine pieces  paper   transaction   price   right     take   back   land   put  back    field   came     move   three weeks     obtain  licence      think   authorities   going    strict shortly   just one   precautions   come   try  combat  recurrence  fmd diary 16  met  smallholder  rents land    farmer   village  income   sheep    breeds   nil like many  people  similar circumstances fortunately       income  another source  subject  compensation came    conversation  personally     comment  make   item   maybe just  rumour apparently  got  bee   bonnet  compensation paid   people      agricultural business  seemed  upset      heard    fish  chip shop owner   lake district   paid 170 per month compensation   loss  trade  didnt mind  much  hoteliers  guest house owners  claimed compensation  wondered  else   kind  money go      paid nothing    first time ive heard  one diary 17 attended  cumberland show  every   park carlisle    family used  attend  annual show regularly   spectators  competitors   never seen  show like  one put   year  will things really get back  normal many  us think  agriculture  back  pre fmd cattle  sheep  grazing   fields lambing  reached new heights  produce   farms calves   born silage  haymaking  progressing   weather permits    still restrictions  animal movements hence  sheep cattle  pigs   years show  horses poultry dogs  rabbits  many pieces  agricultural machinery onshore either plenty  chartered accountants tents craft tents horse feeds  tack displays   main arena  bands   agricultural show   knew   seems       shows ennerdale show  one   local shows  year  isnt going    horses  sheep generally    cattle shown   show  without sheep hill farmers dominate  show   isnt going   much  show     always  good show  equestrian events  many levels  show  always  must   family  dont think   will  going  year diary 18   golf course  golf driving range  can look     western side   burial site   written  previous weeks   work    going    site viewing  site    village side  hardly know    ever   burial site hundreds  tons  topsoil   laid  smoothed   make   less like  landscaped feature  looks really good   western side though things  little different work  still going   large amounts  soil   tipped  levelled    still portakabins   heavy plant can still  seen moving   doubt  western side well look  good   eastern side  long diary 19   announced   prime minister   wife  son   family   visit  cumbria  pm arrives  west cumbria  kinds  reports  written   local  national press     going                 holiday  pm  meet  farmers leaders  press  usual stirred things         meeting tourism officials say   trip  fantastic  tourism   county  person   cant see  difference  made  people want  come cumbria  will come irrespective  whether  pm comes   diary 20   lot  protests  looks  though   20 day restriction  cattle movement will  lifted perhaps  will now mean     cattle  sheep entries  local agricultural shows  shows  going ahead   limited entries  livestock     animal entries    shows  always   popular   family   20 years also living    farming community makes us feel part   annual agricultural scene diary 21 ive written  regarding agricultural shows   pride   local people take   shows although  lot  shows  gone ahead  season     reduced animal showing    cases  animals   today ive heard  one show   cancelled altogether  particular show  one    popular   area maybe   lack  entries   organisers just wanted  cancel    3 week restriction  animal movement  dont know perhaps    better  cancel     depleted show diary 22 spent   hours   fells today   good   able  wander  familiar paths  let  dog run free    good boost   moral  perhaps  dogs    missed  able    last year diary 23 last bank holiday  xmas   last   schools go back   golf course   help  part time   summer   lots  customers  lot   commented   enjoyable      holiday   area  year compared   restrictions    place last year maybe  holiday establishments  getting back  normal    restrictions put   like    place now  farmers  agriculture diary 26 sorting   mail left whilst away  holiday   came across  notice sent   village committee notifying  harvest thanksgiving festival   held next month   village hall     church   village    held   farm buildings   centre   village  will   splendid event  farm    fmd  couldnt take animals  one field  another  couldnt market    consider  gloom  settled   farm  community    welcome    unique event    heart   village   farmer   wife will    centre  events  lovely gesture   hope  will  well supported  will   distribution  harvest gifts afterwards   change   year ago diary 27   aid  binoculars    able    closer look   burial site   westerly direction   vents   shape  small towers  extract gas   site   pipes connecting  vents  lot  work  still going   however   takes place   western side    opposite side    village  situated   side   nothing  suggest  amount  work going     fmd  pushed    backs  villagers minds   something   past   happened   people like   talk  farmers  agriculturalists   easily forget  events personally   still concerned   burial site  inquiries  made     can   accept    told    look  though every precaution   taken  alleviate  odours  contamination diary 28    see  village farmer  another matter   asked inside  coffee   chat   able  tell    full implications   20 day rule  accepts     precaution  prevent another outbreak  fmd     lot  work involved  told    isolation area    created  also  fencing arrangements   land adjoins  neighbours land   say  95   public dont know   even    heard   20 day rule    owns  largest farm   area   bad enough      physical work  regards fencing etc   anyone    small holder  must   nightmare     bring animals back  market  havent  sold friday  wife   played  round  golf  aspatria  course  badly restricted  fmd hit  area   reminded    restrictions  adjoining land   notices asking people  hit balls onto farm land   cross  fence  retrieve    fmd precautions   news  us   make sense though  farmer wouldnt know  players   walking prior  playing golf diary 29 attended  harvest festival held   village farm  large cattle shed   cleaned  decorated   event chairs   brought  fruit  vegetables   display  auctioning   end  place  packed  lot  money  raised      happy event well supported   big boost   farm   village  dont think   general public care much  fmd now      year since  last case  confirmed  cumbria  public may  reminded   read  local newspapers intently  instance    letter   editor published recently  referred   results   cumbria inquiry  fmd  may    farmer  wrote   dont know   writer certainly went  town   scathing comments   handling  fmd even caustic remarks regarding  efforts since fmd  defra  mrs beckett  certainly wouldnt like  cross  writer  also think  farming community must  holding  breath  case  present restrictions     prove   worthless   will  suffer  week 30   difference  year makes despite  restrictions  public access  agricultural fields   areas   county  doesnt apply  although  locals confine   footpaths  bridleways  people seem  think   fields  recreation areas  walk  run across    fields  close proximity   village regardless   presence  stock  exercise dogs  treat     kind  park one farmer  well know   aggressive  used last years fmd outbreak  run people   land  met  local councillor  expressed concerns regarding  proposed building   incinerator   south   village   current open cast mining site  two waste disposal sites   west  north west   village  become big issues   last 18 months due   burial  animals   disposal  pyre ash  leachates  seems  though   going  get   ghastly fmd outbreak     scenario thrust upon us week 31 met  small holder  keeps sheep near   village    scathing   report   government  defra dont want  talk   offer   local authorities   implement findings  recommendations   local inquiry  fmd     government  didnt perform  well   outbreak got  hide   shirk away   findings instead  facing    failings    know   also seems   dont want  make  safeguards  recommendations  avoid   outbreak   non agriculturalist  doesnt surprise    least   government  failed  industries   country   long   can remember week 32   convinced  authorities   area must think   way animals  buried   pyre ash  leachate  disposed   another site nearby   done   successfully    two sites handled everything professionally therefore  sites     capable  handling ash   incinerator      legacy  fmd    annoyed   together   lot    villagers  village  longer   representative   parish council   resigned  whatever reason   one will step forward  take  one   said    take  set   parish council  represent  village  fight   rights  future quality  life due     uncovered  pile  claims  counter claims  seems   parish  district counsellors know   going  regarding  incinerator   developers  made concessions   councillors also   claims   developers  offered money  local landowners  farmers   roads can  put    accusations   strongly denied    time   rumoured   farmers   offered local fields nearby      discovered    investigations   seem   lot  friendships gained  20 years  come   end   fearful     uncovered   also claims  councillors        can get       trusted  dont want  said   also   time    sorted   will  70 75  certainly dont want   fighting peoples battles   age however  will support  effort  stop  proposed development week 33    large farm   centre   village   venue   annual guy fawkes bonfire  fireworks organisers   round  village asking  donations  provide fireworks  tractor  trailer toured  areas picking  things   bonfire drinks  food  served   barn   fireworks   another occasion  villagers   farming community come together   perhaps   time   general public   village think  fmd  last years events   briefly  farmer remarked    third time  year      public function   farm  first   jubilee party  june   october 6th  harvest festival service  events keep farming   public eye week 34  havent written    proposed building   incinerator nearby  burn  counties waste     suspect  incinerator  built   odours plus  disposal  ash   fmd waste site   legacy  fmd particularly regarding  nearby burial  disposal site week 35   week 35   project      35 weeks   written     confident   future   numerous reasons   mainly  situation   middle east today  travelled  keswick    xmas shopping   given  lift    neighbour     30s    upset   terrorist situation     concerned   terror threat   london underground   threat closer  home  regards  plane crashing   nearby sellafield complex  dont know  effect   constant bad news   people people   already got serious worries eg families housing finance etc must feel really depressed    week 36 near   next village   long established farm  many acres recently  farms stock  animals  machinery  sold   owner   farmed  sixty years  leaving  live  one   brothers  said   wouldnt know    feel   left  farm   last time  weekend  farmhouse hasnt  sold yet  now stands empty   strange place now  everything  hustle  bustle  even   b b business   now derelict  bare   sad reflection   agricultural business   wake  fmd  farm isnt   one   area   sold   farm houses remain  dwellings   particular one   saw nearly every day  just   sad reminder   way farming  declined   rural area week 39 tuesday boarded  train  penrith  journey  crewe  see  daughter   journey  got  conversation   fellow passenger  noticed   got   train  penrith  perhaps thought   connected   agricultural industry  conversation drifted   previous years fmd outbreak   rather strange   live    rural area  fmd  rarely mentioned now however  fellow passenger although    agricultural background gave  views   handling   situation    different   views expressed  locals   time   crisis  just goes  show  fmd   much  peoples minds even     connected  agriculture   way week 40 friday now   mep  published  critical report   fmd crisis   interesting  read  article published   local weekly paper   reader article entitled foot  mouth report included  dont   knowledge   data  support  readers comments however   heard plenty  stories  mainly unreliable sources  confirm   says  makes interesting reading  think week 41 tuesday  wonder  confidence   future  taken  big plunge   last  months  situation  iraq doesnt get  better mr tony blairs message   armed forces   uk bear     ex serviceman  know   situation holds   troops    right  follow  usa   war  iraq  doubt saddam hussein  pose  threat    india  pakistan       two relatively poor countries  threatened    regards  nuclear arsenals now  loose cannon   form  north korea  positioning   regards  position   nuclear arms league personally  think  north korea poses   dangerous threat  iraq      happy new year   lot  people perhaps  will   settled diplomatically  wonder week 42 nothing   importance  write  due  refurbishment  home week 43 monday one   items   agenda   months meeting  distington parish council   report   wood felling   implications      written   diary    strong rumours   proposed plan  fell woods build  new road   felled site  bring coal   nearby opencast site  link    existing road   transport  coal   storage area  workington dock    coal  worked   build  incinerator   coal site ash   development    transported   new road   disposed    waste disposal site   used  fmd pyre ash  leachate thursday read  report   aforesaid meeting  owners  declared   worries  groundless  fact  say   plan  eventually open  woodland   public  owners   woodland    operators   opencast coal site footpaths will  created   grant can  obtained  wooden wheeled ancient water mill will  restored   closed meeting  operations director   site said      misunderstanding     will benefit local people  said   management project   wood   followed involving felling dead trees  fresh planting  added  felling  replanting will  done  year    will take time  become established  talking   ten year programme     long term benefits  think  pr   start   wasnt  good    future  will let  council know   plans  council agreed  keep  watch   work   g  statement differs greatly     us   told   village based county councillor   never   suggestion   felled woods  become  land fill site    felled  provide  new road   nothing mentioned   meeting regarding  proposed incinerator  built  county council    ever  planned however  representative  adamant      week 44 tuesday   first time  property  finally overcome  situation   affected  fmd  july 2000  electricity supplier notified   say   trees   garden  grown  tall   topmost branches   close contact   eleven thousand volt overhead power line      felled  severely pruned    negotiations   decided  prune   height   wasnt happy  although  treetops   actually touching  wires   considered  risk   forthcoming months however  time passed  couldnt wait   foresters  arrive   pruned  trees   january 2001  electric supplier suggested   trees   pruned   date  agreed   foresters didnt arrive time dragged    trees grew back   original height   electric supplier suggested   pruned  felled  new date  agreed upon however  foresters couldnt   job   isolator switch   farmland   couldnt get access     fmd restrictions    dragged  despite visits  foresters  electric supplier reps  trees got bigger    forbidden  touch  neighbours  hear crackling noises coming   wires   became  worrying people suggested     something    took  matter  directly   supplier   foresters   promised dates      cancelled  december 2002  date  21st january 2003  given  time  came   agreed  two trees  felled  another pruned  30 months  finally happened thursday met  small holder    land   edge   village  told    20 day rule  animal restriction  animal movement   lifted  replaced   6 day restriction   good news      farmer later  day  met another farmer  didnt know   restriction   lifted    thought    told  hed won  lottery good news  round   people friday listening   local radio today   surprised  hear  report   citizens advice bureau   small lakeland town   receiving clients   still experiencing hardship due  fmd   now 18 months since  last outbreak   effects according   person  interviewed  still  felt  just  farmers  agriculturists   guest houses hotels tradesmen   particular  self employed debt seems    biggest problem  seems  though  people  weathered  hardships  fmd initially   find   plans  come adrift somehow afterwards quite disturbing  hear   situation  still  us   county   degree week 45  diaries  instituted  deal    effects  fmd although    cases  fmd   village everyone knew   particularly  nearly everyone  went  work    pass  main farm   village centre     farms   outskirts   village now  fmd    people  live  dont seem  think   anymore   people affected   farmers naturally    strange village  lots  ways   farmer   immediate family  connected  agriculture  rest  professional people  people  work  nearby sellafield industries  workington  whitehaven   retired    church  village pub  village shop  village community centre  meeting place  tradesmen  call   milkman   solid fuel merchant   left  get   life    way  parish  distington    belong    facilities associated   larger community    church pub  community centre     two miles away consequently  parish council meets    month  discusses   problems   area including  however  representative   council  resigned   one  come forward  represent us anything    discussed   parish council  reported   local newspaper village pubs   good venue  discuss local issues   exchange views  mainly  gossip village tittle tattle   call      pub  gossip  rife  one source  another  bits added   left     choice   person concerned quite  lot  people one meets  experts    particular choice  subject whether   politics finance  mrs jones current boy friend    fault  take  board    gossiped   one meets  fellow villager   country lanes whilst  walking  dog week 46 illness   family member week 47 continued illness week 48   past  weeks     lot  tree felling   nearby woods   led   lot  disturbance   villagers    use  large vehicles needed  remove  felled timber  also  foresters vehicles churning   grass verges   ditches  lot  concern  raised   necessity    tree felling  concerns  raised   press  also   parish council   written    diaries   last  weeks   reported  mid january    felled woods   replanted  year  footpaths created   enjoyment   local population now  timber operations  ceased large areas  woodland   left partly felled   lot  felled timber  left lying  foresters vehicles  gone  nothing  happening despite assurances   developers  looks  though something drastic  happened village tittle tattle says   foresters    paid   work  far    developers  run   money       going  happen now  felling started late last year  contacted two environmental agencies regarding  threat   red squirrels badgers  buzzards  occupy  woods   told      partial felling    environmental agencies  satisfied   disturbances   slight  think    told    developers  accepted    told without  site visit  developers   known  mislead groups   past including landowners farmers councils  individuals  personally   happy   situation   always took  keen interest  wildlife  feel     let    lies  developers   lack  serious interest  wildlife agencies      offshoot  central government   one will keep  close look   situation   without  villagers   particular local councillors week 49  chance  met three small holders     time   discussing farming   roadside     pleased   20 day ruling  coming   end    lives    less coming back  normal  also expressed  opinion   20 day rule   6 day rule    force  protect  interests however   unanimous   condemnation   importing  foreign meat  meat products   country  feel  foreign meat   subjected  enough checks  entry   united kingdom week 51 met  farmer today  told   hed seen  report based  findings   eu  defra  stated   things  everyone    agriculturalist    take  interest   countryside   saying    wrong   handlers   fmd outbreak  just proves   doesnt take  academic genius  know     done   time everyone can  wiser   event  statements   nfu  individuals   onset   heeded  example  movement  animals    halted sooner   army    brought  much sooner now  question  vaccination rumbles     shouldnt  vaccinate    fear   outbreak  particularly   findings   1960 outbreak   implemented since  sadness  fmd    quite   instances  socialising   farm   harvest festival jubilee party  almost  excuse   shindig good  see farmers enjoying  week 52 met  local farmer  told       new legislation  dispose  fallen stock  longer can  farmer bury fallen stock   land  must now provide  incinerator  dispose  dead animals  must   costly business  dead animals   taken   central point  burned week 54 one thing  fmd   effect      poaching fraternity living   rural area  expect   happen nobody seems  mind    rabbits  pheasants go 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enough keep us go practic like countri tri stop briefli england lose brazil bit disappoint hope farmer rest client wont depress good last weekend went place near worcest wed friend whose stag weekend last week lot peopl edinburgh havent seen sever year great catch weather kind stay dri diari 18 monday went big tuberculosi brucellosi test one big dairi farm restock month ago theyv got sever hundr cow took lot longer anticip go back tuesday finish job theyr friend famili wasnt realli much chore obvious chang sinc fmd client diseas seem much quieter less concern farm life problem general now perhap think can get 2001 there noth worth get stress comparison wednesday spent small anim work made chang thursday went back read cow result tb test negat thursday night drove stay colleg friend near birmingham start long weekend friday carri south anoth friend north devon shes work anoth vet area also sever affect fmd cumbria bad hit sometim easi forget place bad time thank work devon less back normal spent rest weekend south devon dad 60th birthday lucki weather fine ish condit barbecu beach today monday well spent day drive north far go weekend diari 19 short work week see monday ive also start month back hour rota week work month month system night weekend will bit busier work general bit quieter recent fair typic time year main anim outsid farmer busi make hay silag rain permit weve two vet week although fewer job left twiddl thumb usual flow routin farm work along hors small anim noth tax whole night thursday went st sunday crag lake district coupl friend brampton rememb didnt get almost dark apart unseason cold surpris surpris fine night duti weekend first call friday night easi call 12 45pm anoth vet oper dog three check 530 go calv 645 just finish call bad cut hors lame cow bacon roll shop breakfast second call rest weekend fair quiet meant get various mundan thing like paint hous tidi garden etc etc ideal task cant anyth els im call dog well make night sleep worthwhil diari 20 anoth short week monday come back long weekend away work week fair steadi farmer often busi tri get silag hay moment routin vet work take back seat said kept least busi expect routin fertil visit occasion sick cow etc restock farm fair unusu diseas didnt obvious fall one usual recognis deal lot bought stock abroad least keep mind possibl new problem brought weve work quit close local defra run veterinari investig centr case thank none turn anyth unduli worri duti weekend fortun reason quiet thing ordinari hors torn leg quit bad wire bit time bandag okay diari 21 2 vet week bit busier rest us last week mixtur routin standard e type work tuberculin test go still tri clear backlog last year get slowli lot will wait autumn winter cow farmer time avail new vet start april seem settl well bit bad day earlier week calv go quit plan easi especi feel pressur bound happen start new job remind problem year ago farm happen quit understand type wont creat real problem hockey train start seem bit prematur season still month away least itll encourag bit exercis get fit match weather meant havent hill often like hope there still time brighten bit weekend coupl friend colleg now live york came stay went border day saturday near use work doesnt seem chang much still think im better despit last year diari 22 bit rush week sometim seem happen can quiet coupl week sudden crazi may lot farm now larg got crop tri catch perhap just way thing go sever farm ongo problem week visit requir sever day run also larg number hors call probabl fair common time year tend get ridden suppos better weather tend go afield hors tuesday went kirkbi lonsdal area morn go north carlisl afternoon mile get rack fair quick get learn various blind spot phone radio recept duti weekend meant also monday wednesday friday night werent bad apart friday go see coupl hors duti three week night tend limit can apart work manag meet friend work brampton one night go walk lake thursday weekend fair quiet second call found time decor room hous current project lead thrill life diari 23 calm storm frantic level work saw last week bit civilis week weve time coffe lunch break actual talk colleagu time time wouldnt want everi week quiet occasion welcom quit relax abl go call know anoth one wait also mean afternoon quiet one us can usual half day got nod wednesday went kirkbi stephen see folk theyv got smallhold various creatur usual ailment bit busman holiday go nice close tend see everi week two wednesday vaccin coupl hors trim sheep feet went joy 48 hour surveil inspect last year somehow manag come unscath parish one one kirkbi stephen area weekend went glasgow see cousin leav parti didnt know mani peopl good go someth complet remov usual one peopl know came stay penrith sunday night stun day went lake best diari 24 week first four rota mean night weekend call cant bad monday small tb test pleasant farmer cow behav wasnt bad way spend morn hes import small herd holland seem pleas far take bit time f m farmer get use new stock knew old one well whole peopl seem fair content new one small anim op tuesday wednesday one vet usual holiday weve got new nurs start week case show rope seem well one best school friend got marri friday typic fair quiet week sudden got busi friday afternoon manag get wed miss afternoon recept order go see hors applebi that life one duti vet lowther show saturday hadnt done good time general fine weather truli stun team hors drive event lot competitor comment good show run last year cancel event pass without major incid vet wise pretti calm day realli diari 25 week fair steadi seem hors anyth els didnt go see cow friday sever ongo case leg wound need daili dress chang rest select vaccin lame arent quit right quit enjoy hors side job bit usual welcom chang plan get work hous month free even doesnt realli seem work like know ive got lot free time night tend get book see peopl home near ive temporarili lost touch also see summer seem found us ive tri get lake much possibl hous can wait till winter weekend ive wale see group colleg friend stay cottag own one group parent play round golf play bad lost lot ball becam frustrat think come lack talent still good catch peopl havent seen sinc graduat im sure golf will better next year diari 26 ive done small anim work anyth els week disast fair routin stuff one small anim vet away cover bit didnt actual get onto farm friday morn get bit claustrophob insid good get call weekend also colleg friend stay quiet time sunday even swap duti night 6 00pm 545 four call came four corner practic didnt actual get finish near 8pm that way goe sometim suppos anoth half day earlier week fair quiet took bike northern lake hour blow away cobweb insid work diari 27 barbecu parti weekend peopl work lot friend colleg lot peopl thought id alway keep touch time went never arrang weekend long way advanc us meet 28 peopl came havent seen least year two nobodi seem chang much great see garden hous taken bit pound think mess fair superfici went walk near howtown today clear head barbecu last night good day weather wise meant lot peopl idea us variabl week work day quiet other flat ive ongo case young hors caught wire monday even well beyond stage stitch saw itll heal slowli fill wound im sure itll fine go take long time start get lot inquiri new rule defra bring allow farmer bring anim farm isol facil make thing less restrict farmer go lot inspect sinc restock check last winter weve realli sort thing check probabl wont exhaust last year diari 28 fair quiet week realli fair standard mix sick cow coupl lame hors continu young hors wreck leg last week go okay fair laid back whole time coffe break call done first inspect new farm isol facil sheep whole farmer complianc good whing can see must frustrat sudden told run stock movement theyv alway done differ way can see defra insist though aim reduc risk anoth situat like last year weekend one old flat mate wife came stay live london came north weekend clean live fresh air went walk around cat bell high street saturday sunday ate drank general fair unstress hope look diari 29 ive short week term work practic week ive glasgow equin confer thursday saturday educ compulsori formal structur quit controversi peopl eye royal colleg vet encourag us keep date quota ask fulfil year three day will help keep track sever differ cours day one lectur theatr practition base subject expect see day day basi anoth call advanc clinic session subject case obscur youd lucki hear one let alon see one twice didnt go mani lectur well use term pick new inform also good chanc catch old friend colleg lot peopl hadnt seen year two good see first three day week okay went tuesday morn trim lame cow feet end accident trim skin farmer thumb hoof knife bit embarrass felt bad didnt seem faze hes type bear grudg perhap shouldnt tri keep knife sharp anoth week interest event irish wolfhound need surgeri correct twist distend stomach fair common type dog real emerg anoth vet oper tuesday afternoon took coupl hour far seem worth hes done well appar went home friday diari 30 spent monday afternoon even irradi take dozen x ray hors leg sold lot money insur compani want check joint ok insur took lot longer anticip difficult get posit absolut right view got end quit care exposur x ray x ray badg hasnt shown high read yet 2 vet week one honeymoon one away ai sheep often bit quieter now seem kept go big routin fertil visit one dairi farm wednesday one main thing visit manual pregnanc diagnosi bad dairi calv cow theyr calf normal get anoth chanc beef farm dairi cow persist conceiv sometim econom get rid cow rather persist there big incent us get right least say cow isnt calf luckili quit straightforward week last go away usa fortnight fli new york tomorrow meet old flatmat mine whos journalist im cross atlant see hes given direct flat rather meet airport im arriv premiership footbal tv charm diari 31 two week state cant bad flew new york stay friend whos work manhattan lot usual tourist thing empir state build boat trip around island central park etc size relax place lot way feel safe although load go never seem get hassl flew new orlean week suppos sun deep south land just tropic storm hit mainland everyth close two day bad uk snow weather clear fine went tourist paddl boat mississippi river boat louisiana swamp look allig bit new orlean nightlif day new york fli home diari 32 first week back america good trip week rather mar death one hockey team year mate mine school tractor accid hit wagon 66 thursday saw wednesday night hockey train stiff done great north run wife weekend didnt know well school got last year via hockey realli tremend good person will much miss lot peopl around kirkbi stephen weekend match postpon one thought play seem trivial sort thing happen couldnt play anyway im duti weekend fortun fair quiet far calv 2 caesarean get calv season par cours first half week ok even given half day tuesday day half return holiday went walk bottom end derwent water tri sleep jet lag diari 33 went matthew funer tuesday popular reflect number peopl arriv 25 minut due start still stand move peopl tri fit chapel almost seem kirkbi come standstil went quit long time afternoon went see parent live near kirkbi afterward cancel hockey train wednesday seem soon go usual decid play schedul match saturday team opposit two minut silenc match end draw 0 0 good close game normal lose team play competit fair spirit just need first match back im actual duti weekend one colleagu cover hour go play case work fair steadi week im go enrol qualif equin practic next week two im reason amount hors work moment will tri bit next month year motiv read case find slight construct way spend even call diari 34 tb test biggest beef herd post restock test week 600 cattl done there way done one go 3 instead origin plan two ran daylight went smooth whole least well expect everyth clear negat found defra week ago actual quit tb case counti sinc restock wed clear year previous fmd obvious bit worri havent case practic cant stamp new case found matter time spread afield get counti also mean will test moment begrudg accept farmer can see sens humour failur ultim interest us check herd free big time commit dont get paid spent two day test rest week bit varieti saw hors main lame also one two ailment write casebook equin certif im im lookout suitabl case round weekend play hockey manchest went worcest see colleg friend drive back via eli train cancel due wind meant friend strand direct rout cumbria diari 35 week start monday morn anoth tb test restock farm big farm one late one get fmd run nice quit intens famili son taken re stock serious obvious thought much opportun start scratch tri elimin previous herd problem consequ spent quit bit time advis various vaccin avail relat pros con thank thing seem pay far problem herd one thing notic test made one two joke last year sorri forgotten exact said thought fact abl now talk fmd like good sign think high unlik year ago wednesday afternoon went wigton vet hors potenti buyer sever minor thing wrong overal seem ok alway respons vet hors someon either tri buy basi find case took quit lot convinc buyer imperfect serious hope wont subsequ turn problem ive start hors case recent tuesday sent applic form accept exam hors practic wait next year find whether ive accept wont sit 2005 weekend play hockey manchest unfortun didnt win mayb next week saturday even went kendal see old flatmat live diari 36 tuesday went see hors near carlisl develop swell lower jaw fair pain touch possibl like tooth root abscess put antibiot see obvious go thought worth take x ray obvious destruct tooth visibl x ray probabl mean need remov fair major undertak hors valuabl creatur still train thought best send edinburgh vet school done hope ill abl go see done day twos time one aspect drawback realli vet one often ask anim ailment work im sure happen lot job mother adept realli mind elder terrier grew start one two problem recent suggest possibl thought best went local vet look problem bad temper terrier couldnt safe blood sampl day penrith tri take blood manag less intact fortun result seem less order least better temper general work practic fair steadi week farmer seem quit cow calv moment bit unseason suppos reason number tend calv year round havent realli got calf pneumonia season yet cant long start keep us busi will soon take lungworm main bovin respiratori problem weekend brought victori hockey match start win streak perhap went edinburgh match see friend start week wahey diari 37 week cant bad didnt plan due unforeseen chang circumst still good edinburgh last weekend decid stay day part see friend also refer hors bad tooth mention last week voluntari work experi time dedic rash spent tuesday vet school edinburgh one old tutor case sent success treat far remov offend tooth interest see use differ techniqu one weve use practic spent rest day see case felt bit odd student came home tuesday even went kirkbi stephen see folk wednesday morn spent rest week either hous mine thing like stock firewood winter sort hous make start strip wallpap hallway normal go away take time actual nice thing home chang made quit relax week whole diari 38 back work good week last week one best thing work never seem feel reluct go back work think must mean enjoy whole tuesday went back see hors tooth remov last week well back train eat well soon tooth came amaz anim often seem deal pain stoical ill check next week thing well tuesday afternoon happen see anoth slight unusu case hors develop lump outsid cheek closer inspect turn larg mass man insid mouth probabl go remov come next week done rest week usual mix routin case farm week done recent took new dairi farm near applebi went see cow first time first visit alway hope someth straightforward easi make good first impress occas cow sick wasnt realli give mani clue treat symptom show saw twice friday saturday even mend never reach conclus diagnosi think farmer satisfi fact got better spite know quit wrong duti friday night quiet saturday apart cow mention fair easi go today went kirkbi stephen see old friend stay parent two week tb test itll chang next week diari 39 fair unev week work dont seem particular go notabl case way bad thing make fair stress free time can realli switch mean fair straightforward case see possibl spend time chat farmer owner without work hard find what wrong patient week interest case hors amaz extens arthriti hind leg consid age termin condit implic will possibl use futur situat like can quit difficult give client right outlook often expect quick cure especi young hors tell problem present month year will never complet go away can come bit shock owner case sensibl seem take said well good thing week im good run duti ive two night first call phone hasnt gone unusu welcom must tempt fate ive weekend hockey match saturday lost leagu leader avoid humili rest two day spent tri progress decor hallway friend come stay christma new year young spend weekend decor diari 40 good test diplomaci skill week irat farmer spent four hour tb test cold day taken one half hour rush get defrost car afterward forgot shut gate field park return surgeri greet news rung want head stick forbid ever set foot farm tup gone walkabout gate id left open advic partner practic knew better gave day calm wrote grovel letter allow go back end week read test result fortun clear think hes forgiven one common cow oper correct displac stomach two half year ive practic weve alway done use one particular techniqu circumst anoth method indic seen 2 year 2 week went well far anoth two year next took last day 2002 thursday spent decor thursday night practic christma meal two vet duti manag get call whole think peopl werent hung friday last year bit debat whether christma night farmer either just start restock still clean year much straightforward friday night annual night hesket newmarket organis local defra lab local vet want meal beer good chanc catch vet neighbour practic inform atmospher diari 41 ive coupl vet student stay week knew final year edinburgh theyr work experi us week made pleasant chang compani also acquir two stray kitten last week usual vet procedur eventu find unwant patient cant resist take settl ok weve one two littl discuss benefit use litter tray rather carpet week work reason busi good thing week three student bit dull noth go hors week sever respiratori infect need fair intens care seem mend now may use case write part exam im hope year itll new year resolut get write part apart hors usual sort mix routin fertil visit dairi farm sick cow hors etc tb test week ive manag miss must save next year lot peopl work friday night pre christma mull wine minc pie im quit sure kitten knew happen think rest us enjoy ive weekend went see friend birmingham qualifi last summer second weekend call went give moral support call isnt stress anymor rememb first time difficult awar phone time hope doesnt ring werent mani call come didnt need suit well diari 42 week christma first job week replac particular contamin uterin prolaps cow final went back hour fair fruitless effort festiv week next fewer vet usual work day day christma new year sometim bit busi day general worth extra time monday night went kirkbi stephen see school friend back holiday although dont see often peopl dont realli seem chang much good friend whose parent farm f m sold go b b instead think hard decis now seen quit reliev duti christma eve fortun didnt go just three phone call 7 9 p m peopl say dog cat food period vari three week 10 day christma eve seem odd time notic went home kirkbi stephen christma box day didnt realli much look coupl mum sheep just case lazi enjoy season food drink duti weekend turn fair busi one student came stay last week came back call work turn use coupl cow oper caesar displac stomach two pair hand better one quit small anim see diari 43 ive week new year tuesday friday pretti good go seen christma well monday fair quiet just farm call small anim rather worri weve heard local deer farm one custom gone tb appar quit deer herd mean well tb check test farm neighbour affect premis new year cousin husband five children young came stay wasnt hectic whole just occasion loss humour coupl friend work came round join us new year ive work weekend part deal get four day midweek realli busi ive second call 2 call far easi return work new year excess diari 44 back normal quota vet work week good seem busi usual sort thing time year cow start get lame insid month metabol problem probabl relat poor silag last year summer rain creat quit farmer larg amount 2001 silag left wasnt use winter 2001 2002 hadnt restock whole kept well mani case better crop made last summer fall deer herd tb arriv two neighbour farm test week first one come back negat relief concern second one friday will read tomorrow monday farmer concern understand hope groundless lot question ask along line can answer remind bit februari 2001 fmd broke sort queri diseas progress etc none us realli knew didnt take long us know answer ive weekend hockey fixtur list start christma break return win way hope continu diari 45 week bad start tb test last friday produc two reactor two inconclus borderlin reactor mean farm isnt allow move bovin farm except direct slaughter licenc reactor taken away post mortem examin inconclus reactor isol 60 day rest herd re test farmer keen get inconclus anim remov well quit understand opinion couldnt pose threat rest herd appar defra arent allow think larg due financi reason fulli appreci need protect taxpay money consid much spent 2001 think potenti flaw argument perhap rule need chang im epidemiologist perhap dont actual pose threat farmer seem depress think lot feel stigma farm defra restrict also awar threat neighbour desper keen minimis actual quit small cow still indoor think peopl still much think serious neighbour someon got fmd tb differ type organ question get peopl understand isnt say serious problem day anoth farm area confirm tb definit progress cumbria depress can follow defra instruct test tri keep top one colleagu tore knee ligament last week ski normal most larg anim call see hes now confin practic small anim ive taken coupl farm routin fertil visit make chang spend time farm dont visit often although hear small anim nurs quit keen matt get back diari 46 one dairi farmer big outbreak pneumonia calv week ive farm least everi day week test weve done usual pretti sensit fail reveal usual caus treatment seem work case other hasnt lost e none dead loss bodi weight obvious bit frustrat realli hes pleasant guy hasnt said anyth treatment repeat fail get expect predict result cant help feel must get bit sceptic perhap im just paranoid end week major seem mend see havent track causat agent hard know vaccin recommend next year test will come back two week may reveal midweek one fair common oper correct twist stomach cow surpris first time dairi farmer one done took convinc good idea persuad someon pay procedur alway feel bit pressur usual fortun went pretti well cow far well second call weekend turn pretti quiet think must lull lamb realli kick let enjoy last diari 47 test last week turn week wasnt big one 30 cow bit riski usual herd beef longhorn long horn whilst tri manoeuvr crush inject neck tuberculin alway readi take evas action made sudden turn dont think ever tri use horn aggress big becom danger weapon just move normal turn one receiv injuri import test negat week also brought first lamb year peopl done first coupl farm lamb earli earli lamb sale seem hard work time year earli price seem make worthwhil give anoth week two sure theyll start becom frequent took friday get london 4 pm get eurostar go ski typic one day year countri ground halt thursday night friday manag make waterloo station find station chao eurostar cancel due snow franc least just britain cant cope assur none run 24 hour sudden told us board 1 hour late pleasant surpris end arriv val diser time load snow blue sky tri spare thought whoever call weekend manag just diari 48 weather almost prevent us reach val diser clear first day snow return three day couldnt much time mean fantast condit last day group 29 complet fill one larg chalet major ski injuri within group think good time diari 49 back work week im never reluct go back week sometim dare say even look forward must good sign appar last week ok work major drama still havent found tb case screen continu time one rule re stock herd compar herd miss fmd bovin 42 day old test rather just adult last year werent mani calv around didnt make much differ now farm least year worth calv place doubl size test often calv wont fit crush wild can get quit excit seem necessari polici though one reactor found week ago six month old stirk ive fair quiet week ive coupl night duti quiet there hors near carlisl think ive mention recurr tooth problem thought wed final sort week develop problem one tendon foreleg bit disappoint owner bought hors recent order compet high standard seem perman train one ailment anoth dont think serious hope anoth week two shell back work ive weekend came second weekend hockey match real case defeat snatch jaw victori went walk around great gabl scafel area sunday afternoon amaz much snow ice still left winter weather week ago mayb neednt bother go abroad diari 50 found anoth posit tb case friday test tuesday larg beef herd restock farm includ calv must just 400 cattl one reactor friday two inconclus possibl fals posit farm big problem someth call john diseas caus similar type bacterium one caus tb small possibl cow carri john diseas cross react tb test inject actual blood sampl adult cow tuesday screen herd john order tri start erad herd itll interest see whether posit test cow will posit john ultim doesnt realli make much differ short term farm place restrict affect cow taken post mortem one colleagu found anoth posit reactor differ farm friday well that three farm practic now around 50 60 within cumbria big worri now longer stay around like inevit diseas will get wildlif reservoir deer perhap badger depend whether believ badger influenc time will tell im sure go keep us busi sever year lot test monday well small farm ive never least test one way get small farm dont often need us one clear remaind week spent usual work lamb still quit got full swing although see slow increas number sheep brought surgeri diari 51 tb test week posit case practic first case found back januari confirm carri tb week though although bad news farmer quit reassur know test method use detect carrier anim reason accur week fair busi without ever get hectic oper cow tuesday number reason didnt go quit smooth might done subsequ didnt well post oper normal expect come week see improv hope can never give cast iron guarante outcom surgeri quit rare op fail finger cross monday see hors colic earlier week first visit suspici go requir surgeri correct owner wasnt prepar happen though question tri manag medic euthan wasnt undu pain gave go medic much pleasant surpris next hour visit well just goe show know interest know whether surgic condit somehow right whether medic case along simpli appear someth serious work hour saturday morn small anim consult rest weekend came second hockey match went edinburgh catch colleg friend havent seen diari 52 week realli seen start lamb season sheep everi day everi day weve see last month turn one everi hour day night case encourag farmer still bring call us mani feel sheep arent worth pay vet fee obvious creat welfar problem mani situat inappropri inadequ treatment sometim provid farmer said can see take attitud spend money price often low aspect lamb time night get busi monday ewe caesarean 2am hors just foal 315 hour bed sick cow 620 although can bit tire whole case see hour run mill routin thing least make interest isnt alway first thing mind phone ring 3am unfortun cow oper last week fail improv re oper monday far ideal carri much higher risk infect first time oper somewhat surpris seem well now cow seem amaz resili id abdomin surgeri twice mucki cow byre im sure wouldnt cope well op differ farm later week went much better id get worri techniqu two row went wrong ive work saturday morn suppos just hour turn two half thing kept come went edinburgh hockey came second see someon whos left job go around world six month diari 54 begin week saw visit hors chronic episod lamin hoof condit hors case becom sever realli beyond point treatment feasibl euthanasia best option hors lot pain unfortun owner reluct want carri treatment sort situat crop time time difficult concern end told owner thought chanc recoveri let make decis continu treatment hope ill prove wrong hors will recov cant realli see happen saw anoth case later week end go liverpool univers surgeri small poni manag cut sever barb wire hors alway find someth injur risk penetr joint sent liverpool flush far know well far rest workload week usual stuff time year load lamb tb test negat general kept busi friday went edinburgh day cours equin neurolog knew speaker deleg student good see peopl learnt thing hors brain nerv saturday last hockey match season draw didnt win leagu stretch imagin werent last either diari 55 anoth manic spring week goe ive duti weekend two us call done mani call last two day eight vet expect two week day summer havent bore didnt leav practic build lunchtim saturday constant flow small anim see sheep brought lamb problem eventu left 130 p m go oper cow twist stomach meant done 11 op went ok straight back surgeri caesarean whelp bitch help student see practic us 9 pm varieti sick cow sheep lamb calf lead poison far end ullswat nice drive hadnt rush top thing cow caesarean 9 pm use student help day think bit eye open sunday morn gave caesarean sheep time varieti spice life cat mysteri lost leg overnight perhap caught trap incred good health otherwis amaz anim can withstand good suppli call keep mischief actual quit enjoy despit hectic think case quit success alway help rest week seem distant memori whole slower pace anoth small tb test negat anyway night tonight need pint diari 56 monday morn 60 day re test first herd found tb sunni day whole test went smooth farmer build get overcrowd though movement restrict due tb first day start well anim give negat read came dread reaction inject gave first day four reactor total three borderlin obvious frustrat thing obvious one borderlin reactor last time defra refus take isnt polici take inconclus reactor found routin test mean anim actual infect left premis potenti infect anim farmer tri point two month ago avail now vindic view much consol fact restrict continu may well probabl will fact now carrier wont found next test 60 day time reason initi take inconclus reactor save money pay anim slaughter arent actual infect case like seem real fals economi doesnt win defra friend farm communiti tuesday wednesday week main hors job hors recurr tooth problem ive mention came x ray final seem ok compet germani week two hope stay ok weekend went walk lake one old flatmat edinburgh weather held amaz hot time year almost got sunburnt diari 57 ive final year student edinburgh stay week shes see practic us final exam loom think stress level rise easi think thing dont know think weve less manag convinc know enough liabil qualifi saw interest incid call earli week id gone replac uterin prolaps cow went okay farmer ask fals certifi cow can give certif cow 30 month age bse scheme farmer compens cow put wasnt 30 month anoth four day understand quit upset let know sort thing nightmar anyon especi someon just start want pleas farmer make good impress also respons abus abil use signatur end explain couldnt certif calm im sure vicki will similar situat long diplomat well clinic skill develop quick practic anoth interest case came thursday year old foal need emerg surgeri hernia luck first relat quiet morn week enough vet hand surgeri anaesthet op went well hors gone home weekend ive second call weekend thing busi unmanag 2 belgian blue caesarean space six hour one farm yesterday sinc just reason stream call rather mad two weekend ago diari 58 follow go cours neurolog week ago case came week often see neurolog case quit coincid think must kind tumour brain caus show various sign unfortun way firm diagnos post mortem neurolog case end ala fear one will went fertil check one dairi farm tuesday vet normal away look bit put turn think hope manag abort cow seem cheeri time left suppos understand farmer tend want continu vet come work continu busi indic increas daili workload weve introduc specif messag book work there longer room write peopl messag day book full appoint use day year page day book full first day fmd penrith one call week 4 day full got good sign realli think ive said stop us get bore ive three day easter friday sunday two friend two mad dog stay cat impress good friday went plaic fell accident brought us much direct rout intend away time garden patterdal hotel life hard yesterday left bank holiday crowd lake went walk eden valley didnt see soul amaz differ mile can make suppos hasnt got hill isnt famous sceneri still pretti impress let tell anyon might stay quiet bank holiday diari 59 duti easter monday wasnt hectic fact almost unbeliev quiet three us duti brace usual spring onslaught two call morn weird sometim turn like lamb definit quieten now 5 10 lamb come day turn 2 3 most fell sheep lamb now tend easier lamb need farmer assist start get hors castrat season weve odd one two last week five week one colleagu next term experi start togeth wherea year ago alway least one partner one us must improv tb test seem calm bit practic pretti much date farmer start turn cow theyll becom reluct way spread counti though tri keep date realli go get hand ive weekend sister birthday yesterday went meet folk lunch sat outsid enjoy april sun nice farmer want rain dont hear often april sun suit fine odd bucket june silag time diari 60 one big dairi farm big outbreak ibr week one main respiratori virus whole doesnt caus death normal contain occas howev seem virul strain caus number death great deal lost product term lost milk calv thrive toward end week went shot three cow termin affect see three dead bleed cow yard obvious remind farmer whole herd shot place fmd move sight quick think worst outbreak now cow vaccin there one vet junior qualifi less time practic start year ago week went colt castrat togeth one surgeon one anaesthetist first time weve done lot vet first time weve let loos pair everyth went smooth look though bosss confid trust wasnt total misplac friday morn big dehorn session one beef farmer fair non cerebr type work ok chang everi now farmer pretti amen sort guy said weather fair laid back morn work afternoon drove edinburgh bit reunion recent graduat vet colleg lot peopl havent seen long time interest compar note diari 61 last weekend edinburgh come back work bank holiday monday fair manag whole three us duti morn work steadi without ever get hectic first call 1pm surgeri close remain fair quiet even sudden run call came one rather build much tuesday 60 day re test second herd cattl previous found reactor big herd took day get done theyv bit unfortun brought sever diseas apart suspect tb re stock one enter condit call john diseas chronic wast problem notori difficult erad itll take year blood test care record keep get rid frustrat plan post fmd period disrupt tb test show reactor time 3 cow inconclus result will re test almost certain result cow carri antibodi avian tb caus sign diseas cow disrupt bovin tb test good exampl bad need specif method test tb work moment hope well get one one day senior partner work supervis anoth vet equin qualif im enrol wednesday came spend day neil equin anaesthet main castrat oper neil went anaesthet student use hear detail easi get habit know drug work dosag actual realli think work theyr better drug use use day made realis ive got lot next year diari 62 thing still remain busi work lamb pretti much finish now work doesnt seem eas partner decid need anoth vet help thing along final year student edinburgh came interview week look though hell get job will mean rota will improv hope will quit hectic start follow fantast dri spring now wet farmer tear hair first cut silag go gather dri hope well get dri spell soon eas worri found potenti case write equin casebook week mare manag get caught wire tear big hole shin lower leg big defect stitch itll heal lot bandag perhap skin graft alway amaz hors manag give horrend injuri field realli doesnt seem opportun clumsi perhap mayb just enjoy pain doubt quit bit scan mare pregnanc moment anoth thing ive year past bit daunt time lot thing realli case practis much possibl end stud season itll hope fair straightforward drove oxford friday even work see sister cousin friend live seem longish drive well worth catch one thing work weekend make weekend much appreci diari 63 pleasant weekend truli delight first job monday morn cow lose weight last month also reason found dead calf insid spent first hour week pull bone bone fair revolt job wasnt actual someth especi resent must mean im happi work perhap just bit weird anoth fair grim job later week call 4 m foal foal stuck half dead time got eventu manag get foal initi mare seem ok deterior next 48 hour eventu euthanas that just way goe sometim success case came later week saw foal acut lame look first though might infect elbow take sampl joint fluid x ray look though actual traumat injuri stay hospit four day time seem improv quit bit thoroughbr good race line hope rest itll make full recoveri win grand nation 2008 whole bank holiday weekend six colleg friend came stay weekend cumbrian fresh air pretti gloomi forecast weather turn well went lake district walk day pretti relax time except cat four dog also came stay didnt impress cat spent whole time hide room diari 64 week start tb test small re stock herd bought cattl farm subsequ test posit tb one cattl farm test posit farm week test 60 day re test clear time obvious relief see posit farm last time probabl anoth test 60 day now restrict lift farm isnt big tb restrict awkward crippl larger farm room relax rule moment though recent news ireland say think theyv prove link badger make even import get cumbria get wildlif although may well alreadi late two test day week seem lot hors case wednesday spent day tour around cumbria see hors wigton cockermouth bassenthwait sunni day pleasant way spend day great sceneri look outsid drive case go way hope bad way work ive call weekend quiet far yesterday steadi reason number call none stack ive done 2 cattl caesarean farm weekend one yesterday morn seem like huge calf one morn truli freak biggest calf farmer seen result select extrem confirm beef breed pose serious welfar issu cow give birth natur fair major abdomin surgeri instead well never persuad farmer though consum want cheaper food cheaper beef made bigger beef calv seem tough cow though cynic diari 65 thought interest see much peopl still will talk 2001 meet wednesday night lot convers rout around subject come last 18 month often came back talk event individu experi outbreak stori must told dozen occas peopl still want tell right time opportun come includ mani theme come electron tag sheet seem imposs comment seem relev other much trust categori come coupl head one head knowledg think one signific chang sinc fmd far farmer vet relationship concern defra gone eye suspicion overt distrust resent whole dont get much flack veterinari gps defra alloc job tb test sometim general feel anoth task tri wear sent author anoth regul caus huge resent whole anim movement licens system much easier now caus fewer problem year ago sourc much stress tri act intermediari farmer defra keep side happi damag done farmer defra trust will take long time ever start repair hope tri side defra seem trust us preserv quietish week work mayb there bit silag go farmer havent got time routin work time bit quieter summer lull hasnt materialis yet year fact take anoth vet eas workload mention last week meantim nice time draw breath enjoy sun day two diari 66 week seem gone pretti quick mayb im holiday next week thought spur fli split tomorrow week sail croatian coast colleg friend relat itll chang cumbria one big dairi farmer away thailand week farm left run usual worker brother mother despit felt take mobil phone rung twice week ask done coupl sick cow suppos either demonstr extrem dedic inabl forget work also show commit lot farmer just job farm get bigger concept cow individu known farmer friend becom increas unrealist major case theyr just milk make machin care pretti well hard see hard peopl lose herd bit quieter work last week sudden seem becom hectic work week havent particular time consum job just lot sick cow hors call usual mix anim ailment better busi quiet though think need holiday ill keep phone switch diari 67 week work go sail croatia easi life meet boat rest group starigrad sail vis fair direct head wind took quit bit tack bit rough ride also stupid underdid sunscreen manag burn back careless got less uncomfort week went spent two night vis harbour other alreadi sail week want rest use militari island definit sign around although obvious develop now rapid grow tourist trade vis hvar anchor small inlet mile town night went hvar town look around castl hill impress town still feel though relat unspoilt moment last coupl day spent make way slowli back split actual spent last two day split strong norther wind brew bit rough uncl skipper board croatia last three year said notic busi year seem shame spoil tourist facil contribut built go hope wont dramat chang diari 68 week start 9am monday tb test one basic run farm go first time id three half year work dont make huge use veterinari servic one bullock 7 year old casual ask plan see miss 30 month cut time human consumpt told just kept friend bull test slow cattl handl facil best planet pleasant peopl talk soon becam appar littl time defra noth unusu son one peopl firearm confisc make threat start fm d still felt resent way polic becam involv way ultim given choic came farm check stock fortun cattl negat tb need add distrust defra put restrict rest week fair steadi there enough go keep us busi without ever frantic hors saw last week neurolog problem becom bit wors gone edinburgh vet school see one neurologist seem fair confus well say found quit reassur weekend bit strenuous side cousin keen cyclist persuad good idea big cumbrian yorkshir bike ride went penrith alston barnard castl tan hill refresh kirkbi stephen penrith saturday recov sunday seem like good idea time realli feel now diari 69 look back quot recoveri section note meet notic easi forget least one mind much affect lot peopl almost hard rememb much affect know unpleas task supervis slaughter day day work often frustrat felt peopl overse work offic didnt realli know like field feel now whole work finish life pretti much went mayb isnt actual true reflect just detail memori fade often thing dont seem bad actual look back know plenti client colleagu friend whose live complet overtaken fmd perhap mine rememb also feel peopl rememb heavili affect now less complet one farm went week lost son road accid two month get fmd think farmer readi give everyth appar left clean farm took interest anyth time obvious help hes back milk sic last year half still chang though seem much quieter laid back now cow isnt calf thing dont go quit right doesnt seem get stress now done work bit quieter week expect time year one farm put pedigre belgian blue embryo limousin cross heifer theyr start calv now need caesar calv almost big heifer produc thing said can sensibl time day rather two morn know theyr due diari 70 one five categori rais meet last month trauma one subsect chart sound smell vision sight probabl frequent remind fmd now certain bit road memori exampl drive north m6 just south penrith possibl count smoke plume 20 pyre one stage fine day alway remind drive stretch one farm remain pyre start built never finish even thing like drive across two line tar across road held disinfect mat peopl didnt live time wouldnt even notic seem quit signific rest us doesnt realli bother just remind went time seem odd quick thing gone back normal even someth simpl road mud anim muck 2001 stuck like sore thumb warrant urgent action now im use drive dirti car clean sometim road cake dirt difficult imagin farmer kept clean two year ago obvious remind peopl never tire talk day day vision place regular work bit quieter week caesar cow truli ridicul enorm calf need move away breed continent beef breed go back nice compact jersey aberdeen angus also saw unusu neurolog case hors uncoordin poor balanc kind case brain spinal scan use facil arent realli avail hors will interest see goe next day diari 71 last diari 18 month seem gone quick thing seem much back odd think back go first start write think pretti much swing restock check endless blood sampl sheep last restock check 16 month ago seem far longer although say thing back im sure actual lot differ just dont notic im use thing now practic becom lot busier octob well nine full time two part time vet pre fmd seven full time two part time increas equin small anim farm practic part direct link fmd eg tb test due re stock test re stock brought tb counti factor arent obvious unquestion fmd relat restock farmer went back stock origin overal greater densiti stock around anim mean sick anim mean call vet shame way see small tradit farm forc hard see can manag margin get smaller larger neighbour get stock land fmd way sever smaller farm bought neighbour none sold singl unit ive said recent week time year usual quiet becom bit less frantic recent tradit summer lull hasnt materialis ive vet four year last three just 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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                inform diarist date birth 1966 gender f occup group 6 geograph region north cumbria diari 1 monday usual long hard grind accept put 10 12 hour dont mind work physic mental tax hate lunch break just littl bit selfish time site cigarett take dog river see hors whatev resent fact w one boss almost alway get lunch hour b boss gone tremend opinion way get work start earli finish late hate derfa paperwork rare complain definit grind work like least 4 day week huge advantag last year part time work day obvious arent use get away phone demand client client selfish hadnt notic seem think one hassl defra rememb say one complain problem licens lucki problem one licenc first day movement licens came appli 26 receiv explanatori note defra complet paperwork 4 day later anyway manag three final visit complet paperwork 9pm kirkbi stephen buzz today auction reopen cattl sale main street full shini farmer fish chip back lane full shini new land rover trailer trailer most new fact mc told soon heard blood come back clear restock wash chang went mart said first time felt clean sinc day infect felt ok go among farmer surpris easi go take stride still say fmd terribl testicular cancer hes right ad one final visit doesnt give bugger anyth happi becom flower power farmer doesnt care much sheep individu just number just well batch bought wale sheep leg teeth cant see last long piss miss bryan adam concert newcastl couldnt finish time join bus rest lassi brilliant time least tracey benefit ticket go back work next day finish defra report fax went playgroup talk pet took dog lurcher child rabbit dodgi combin kid seem pet lot refer granddad dog uncl cat left colleg pet popul increas what go happen next 15 year sister phone worri hors haematuria im worri tumour feel far away helpless thing like happen even though live yorkshir im sure help whatev outcom live closer fact think miss famili now ever dont know age thought m 60 didnt see much last year just son now can understand mother famili feel miss sister still dont phone much alway think theyll busi can talk mam three four time week half hour time without think twice must get fed hear go work etc love hear everi tini detail son antic achiev will broach subject partnership dont know think obvious thing year ago taken hand even 10 20 im just excit chang will better will better vet will spend much time figur paperwork will becom commerci awar want chang can bother extra hassl ok career wife im tri sometim bad diari 2 monday shite start busi get wors cant time manag bit better look might finish around 630 one stage afternoon call calf didnt realli need visit 6pm night w said never mind youll pick son anyway childmind live next door farm hasnt got clue pick son ang 8 hour feel guilti enough hes away 8 hour partner alway pick 530 cope well get home hard work us full day work partner usual knacker readi peac quiet get home tire hungri wee lad anyway end farm tour night farmer proud new pedigre belgian blue new shed hes lucki get commerci stock father idea past histori hes nice lad produc stun beef calv taken least hes young enough get go hasnt said much loos stock havent ask chat aunt one day upset upset hate peopl get emot like start fill got back find sheep caesarean still wast time prematur lamb born aliv 3 dead finish stitch uterus put tin hat day assist mother prattl noth much way op head centuri away outlook still come away feel one got wrong mayb dinner tabl shirt iron etc dont want like though cant even sympathis even though lost sheep im sure must taken bad dont think ever let feel show public someth way spoke suggest forc put brave face look forward probabl son sake watch rural live tuesday cr came well though couldnt help snigger slaughter team discuss one client made kid carri away dead piglet theyd slaughter team thought terribl knew kid help farm know pig go kill famili even start littl slaughter hous cut plant fmd dont think kid horrifi sad mayb felt sad last year sad healthi anim cull sad peopl caught mess one diseas cure wors most though get angri hear talk fmd get angri defra let us politician got close involv noth happen fast enough didnt seem abl anyth knew littl struggl get reliabl inform still get wound think marginalis defra felt us farmer versus derfa three group versus fmd rumour abound just magnifi feel talk length fmd defra etc within practic client still talk day even now mani thing unresolv lost faith defra especi sinc chang name agricultur now im glad ignor polit long shine light govern im heartili sick author interf regul stuff that go along quit nice let interfer stuff that harm bad farmer need shake sheep dealer need think anim welfar way thing go good guy toe line will end follow rule regul set sort bad guy will bother diari 3 possibl best bit week sunday eventu 13 month got back hors 15 minut nerv wrack thought might just throw tens actual felt forgotten ride stay field think safer two hors fli annoy us im frustrat havent abl get fit start endur season there way wed abl go first ride ullswat there one cumbria year due fmd thought still curtail fmd year young hors interest saddl bridl put ok first frighten move realis ok monday strang request go hold old poni knacker shoot owner just didnt want around love morn led bite grass arriv bare manag breath swallow time cant believ tumour taken hold sinc turn year mr couldnt tell wife diagnosi initi hadnt got lose pedigre sheep take peopl long time get loss think easier get lose anim one help keep focuss live rather dead farmer havent abl get restart readi c d requir anyway knacker man told good tale there nutter shoot anim even gun taken poor lad given day notic knackey part slaughter team paid normal wage boss collect defra rate good talk probabl dont realli know didnt feel upset wasnt like client lost anim sometim hard know say peopl get upset sometim enough listen one awkward situat found talk farmer lost stock depress start cri cow gone see gone last year wouldnt problem also unabl sell sheep farm complet overstock overgraz littl silag left couldnt understand still overstock sold sheep cattl restock slaughter quit easili last month mayb just couldnt face hassl get licenc mayb hes just far think straight usual mention sort thing b w think import everyon practic know what happen just patient also client diari 4 honour complet final final visit today one neighbour soulbi surveil visit poor lol couldnt find defra paperwork look file found copi valuat report old cow think brought back hes tri hard move understand bitter sinc whole good milk herd taken dc think may surviv infect half mile away cow ip land join watch load cow coal wagon s saturday afternoon fact midnight last de tox wagon left can clean cant even get welli clean dark hes worri new cow come holland think long way travel cant wait arriv unlik wife think restock go fast felt apprehens fortnight ago feel subsid day day normal work return sheep permit visit surgeri treatment much normal march wed last year even though still thousand sheep miss practic farmer still bring lamb valu stock obvious prime concern there life there hope wouldnt see ewe lamb cost treatment versus anim valu weigh worri flare around lamb time there chanc fell sheep expos fmd there risk virus recrudesc time stress think made lamb wed definit ok weather cheer week everybodi smile sunni tempt think day home holiday weather nice diari 5 forgot april fool day first time ever busi work bank holiday anyth els resent work bank holiday monday day call b offer day caesarean cow lamb 130 anoth call 6 hed knacker enough pay day work fair give day work phone rang earli tuesday felt id bed 2 hour regret pass night duti belgian blue calv caesarian mental check kit car drive ks definit caesarean shouldnt breed cow theyr matur get load bother new stock never mind proper veterinari work anyway heifer right bag start lie dope got got calf tri lye wound periton follow doubt warn farmer calm mayb none us realli awak made partner late work left hold babi well late set see sister sister sister didnt mind partner s boss said ok still felt guilti great time sister bit touristi stuff found realli nice book mam birthday mrs herdi use holiday near home mam watercolour book wildflow sister phone say hors wors think sister want go yorkshir heard upset sister close twin can understand sister s go hors death door didnt want us go said drank much red wine instead watch start papillon good film knacker though stamina give lot sooner influenc alcohol mam birthday queer day rare get chanc spend time sibl home love day apart fact wait hear go happen sister phone say hed put bladder tumour think must pretti rare still said shouldnt go sister easili gone mam lynx school hol jammi teacher stay till quit late brother stepfath want see son excit see sometim just make us laugh depress start day back work just month ago amput dog leg leg fractur 6 month ago appear heal sudden worsen suspect bone infect didnt respond treatment x ray look like bone tumour well oper last week develop hard knobbl swell near shoulder lung infiltr felt sad famili love placid brave dog just unfair dont want give case feel euthanasia poor treatment case want coupl year never put famili ghast op like amput known get littl benefit farmer son work dog retir conspicu absenc hes rebuild milk parlour readi restock sister honour came help switch parti mode son 2nd birthday sandpit roar success trike cake grandma granddad super relax day most outdoor weather make life lot easier couldnt cope littl boy insid escap hors asbi take water peac ive realli miss abl go last year there still yellow tape gate dont even livestock wonder defra thought field belong get ride next week bit luck bit spare time think ill shelv plan show arab havent got start soon enough diari 6 new vet start week bright young enthusiast full new idea feel touch didnt go cpd cours last year year felt unclean tire work long day seem much hard work organis extra childcar etc allow go away day feel touch general though lot work part time big day wednesday son 1st morn biggin nurseri think new hobbi worri right thing set new extra expens childcar arrang think feel guilti benefit extra work now go cost extra 750 ride hors wednesday start break hors well cant handl 4 year old hors 2 year old boy around anyway nurseri seem big hit first ride ashbi fell actual went track dowli tree instead road hors quit anxious lead two bit excit open space fell seem just one lot fell sheep must hs think nobodi els start heft sheep yet dowli tree will look sad lone bit longer miss fell much margaret littl ask go villag hall quiz friday probabl go meal partner s birthday felt guilti support villag activ start justifi hate though peopl use fmd make feel bad kept say last year nice villag get togeth etc true cant get babysitt night everyth partner way import villag quiz put lot shite last year never complain far toler love meal friday night son slept ts first time age couldnt lie judg cours arab hors societi realli enjoy arrang last year postpon due fmd worth wait couldnt gone last year even went see sister sister boyfriend sunday seem spend day fed shes like mam son took real shine sister boyfriend entertain us seem cope ok hors s demis martin clean one shoe mount plaqu hes thought diari 7 decid happi dri day can ride work hors son can get outsid play hes happier peopl come work smiley good day son went birthday parti week brilliant time felt place everybodi els immacul dress made son rush back bonfir burn old hay musgrav field quick wash chang id rather carri tidi field still real mess least grass seed now better grow price realli pleas hors wednesday hes come quit nice lung now seem quit amen dental appoint friday hope dentist never retir dont think make dentist interest peopl teeth money alway good chat carri discuss work condit compar son etc hes vet quit surpris told partnership talk last time good heart heart threaten redund wonder feel confus futur time near 2 year ago matern leav thought might make redund now want releas bit capit take thing easier want buy time last year didnt know partner job now decid commit least 20 year vet went girl work 40th didnt realli want go cours great time got think got habit even still cant get use freedom mobil phone give us spend time check there enough signal batteri etc hell hangov much draught coke hell wors cider diari 8 shit hit fan problem import dutch heifer wait especi particular farm manag best father take advic feed merchant us vet obvious viral infect go heifer farmer b presum alreadi vaccin document also show sign gastro intestin upset manag oh hell buy 80 first calver nobodi will put stress new vet interest b w obvious tri keep distanc theyv embroil herd problem farm now obvious senior vet charg problem im even work everi day much new vet cope farmer will get piss soon bet us catch flak cheer 1 hour r r hors wednesday love day rode onto common hard work two hors shout daisi time hors decid bobbl work im get confid know mind work bit stand made sure didnt turn battl ask end finish good note think will quit satisfi bring even though go take month rate peopl work young hors twice day hes lucki get train twice week work realli settl now lamb time rush pass catch tb test defra bit tax young anim restock herd peopl fair well organis go get herd done turn wonder defra recommend catch wild limousin heifer middl field probabl dont think far ahead diari 9 hate monday supper 1145 pm problem mobil call hate mobil well went calv cow one half hour first call came mad first dont make client wait long emerg becom disast second ws wife idea pass job got anoth vet go sinc obvious busi just pass messag new vet let sort ws wife get paid phone anyway all well live cow tremend bull calf one easiest caesarean done age b w seem forget busi reput stake ultim buck stop seem enough busi manag hassl last lifetim last year done lot damag lot peopl know lot less toler use week start bad improv farrier came trim 3 hors bollock hadnt seen year tidi bit though love afternoon rhege mam start go fmd sort neutral non agricultur ground sat chat son play soft play centr everybodi happi unfortun went worst dose food poison ever night went work late wouldnt gone except 2nd tb test restock farm couldnt bear start whole thing recov afternoon went even manag dehorn 10 cow thought b send fragil young new vet help spur bit knacker finish took anoth 2 day recov hors well bridl saddl now look grown im quit proud chill today tri long rein confus sensibl norleen didnt go 1st date rochdal show still didnt feel right partner go fit new fuel pump car start feel ill wast saturday made show sunday pretti good ridden class senior hand class laugh practic two year worth young stock weve never seen due babi 2000 fmd 2001 felt realli touch import stallion mare havent seen brilliant day diari 10 what wors work call monday yes work bank holiday hope shut 12 ha ha got home lunch 2pm b kind took phone coupl hour afternoon long enough go anywher back work tea time car fail mot back brake callip gung mechan say disinfect bloodi defra bet there chanc compens wouldnt bad practic car now im part time paddl cano local garag owner warn us last year thing happen felt oblig drive voluntari disinfect site doesnt look good local vet arent disinfect beauti old audi god know horror lurk fam spill boot etc hell make mad destruct physic mental littl say well car spent rest week garag use borrow wheel went wee talk stainsmor pre school partner s transit van profession children didnt care just want meet dog son miss birthday parti saturday still work guilt know miss love day sunday hors went three hour ride counti durham trail round arabl field nice lane differ hors absolut saint well shoe realli us proud diari 11 got car back cheer bad news import heifer two die least pm exam sampl free restock herd farmer get angri now dutch farmer take new vet unfair shes spent hour check cattl take sampl didnt get usual r r wed absolut piddl start sort job avoid sort use wet sunday now will becom wet wednesday job call work coffe end call afternoon interest job went sedat two hors dentist absolut fascin son anoth 2nd cousin week famili realli sprout tough calv thursday night torsion uterus can now use absolut dread unfortun shed long calf born dead heifer fine though hate go farm farmer right old pervert slime ball ill danc grave start real head cold h crap went see mam stewart son top form brilliant see interact famili realli strengthen bond famili son fever night start cold presum sleep partner never seem hear commot still felt ill saturday sister sister s birthday least rememb post card plenti time year went shop wallpap sunday cheer partner went pest control dog went tubbi wood found noth least dog good ratch say now feel ok walk across field didnt even realis still felt couldnt go round old haunt must talk diari 19 tb test cancel monday thursday week farmer cant cope extra hassl hes bit woman best time hes even wors sinc fmd w understand seem farmer measur b didnt seem understand upset wednesday afternoon put terrier took chase neighbour sheep second time cant understand went strang use fine stock miser afternoon wait partner come home buri id good morn hors dizzi hors go well felt better partner came home said id done right thing felt though id fail somehow never happen first place mayb noth last year interest walk rabbit etc dont know diari 20 brilliant time tue wed went sister mam son much easier keep touch famili post fmd hard went anywher last year went shop edinburgh mam look outfit brother wed unsuccess far ive just realis havent seen brother wife farm sinc fmd broke must go soon brilliant place recharg batteri best bit step famili didnt go cumberland show hors havent got back swing thing yet think bit washout without farm side rain offer biosecur offic local show get thing run proper money trophi donat last year new cattl class real interest fat cattl class young handler class now defra bastard manag put committe diari 21 spray weed field depress day week never go recov proper landlord arriv wed just finish first half said hed decid rese august much discuss persuad wast time money put hors back newli seed field winter now im worri happen spring will termin just move anoth field wish id move hors usual time 1st april wouldnt caught among ip dcs someth will sort alway dairi 22 excel week malvern friend nation arabian hors show son went granni holiday marvel time three day watch beauti hors came back absolut shatter diari 23 prob work new assist shes bit whiney shes alway bend ear nearest receptionist sick b offer 12 month contract whether shell accept anoth matter can gather shes go end better work condit ws happi neither will grasp nettl theyv back sinc last year cant wait get home cant step sinc theyv chang mind partnership im part time good weekend lowther saturday didnt see mani usual face thing spoil mud brought fair share home son pushchair biosecur pressur washer anywher diari 24 assist holiday 2 week thing seem like old time cage arent full anim drip im work extra day enjoy tire good highlight week thursday brough show werent mani farmer load hors poni instead sheep much talk defra regul none complimentari just wasnt without sheep felt flat wonder gimmer lamb sale will like diari 25 knacker dont think cope full time work new vet still holiday felt guilti son farm week manag work chariti hors show saturday tri hand organis three folk still end sort insur rosett chang date less time organis wasnt advertis worst show weve ever take much time organis mani felt disappoint thought real good turnout time cancel last year oh well there alway next year ill need make sure dont chang date least might abl take hors next time decid cheer take hors school round jump sunday couldnt catch must known just put tin hat weekend diari 26 two trot meet week land night call anoth bank holiday time take son partner grous beat meet quit relax one nasti crash applebi realli nice day chatsworth game fair helen neil first time weve manag visit took hour get invit last year advert said didnt want cumbrian social outcast didnt feel like armpit british agricultur realli enjoy day felt wed weekend away just day well think trip easi just stay home alway plenti dairi 27 start defra found new way cock live now complic life exempt 20 day standstil includ new stuff isol unit farmer notifi post havent read read dont understand farmer isol new stock bought via auction etc contact stock 50 m outsid can go standstil neighbour can move stock next door field without problem mad dont understand come well sort usual bad thought sell idea farmer will polic will matter stop anoth massiv outbreak doesnt take much wind everyon help work b defend defra line w diss will client think diari 28 crap week punctur thursday lunch hour struggl get lock nut felt feckless god littl patienc day miss beva congress couldnt sort childmind etc best day friday saturday way go realli disappoint noth fmd though dont feel get much encourag work ok pay cpd cours dont seem make easi swap weekend etc theyr bother suppos dont understand differ thing get cpd diari 29 work extra new vet go sheep meet malvern piss easi job husband famili consid suppos time stink sinc miss equin cours last week week improv consider thursday went guilford arab hors convent noth work enjoy ive wait 10 year hope live long enough go next one talk men train unheard surrey appar cumbria farm fmd foxhunt reassur newcastl cumbria interest crack hard ever meet anyon connect farm countrysid realli idea like dont know anyth either job end feel frustrat agricultur therefor larg anim practic precari posit seem basic fundament part life compar comput yet emphasi basic stuff anymor sure need thing like agricultur basic manufactur underpin everyth els wonder nobodi bother us suffer anxieti fear confus last year throe fmd penrith spur certain report wouldnt mani march london pre fmd diari 30 quit week still tire last week load photo develop great saw hors id never seen got 2 great video long dead hors appear hors pedigre son bit pick monday bit unsettl away suppos oh job just interfer social life miss anoth wed week call diari 31 took hors penrith vet x ray super new hospit just town seem realli well set realli good attitud work client think need shake work mayb new vet s way work isnt bad neil said million red height fmd must worri none us knew wed left weve definit got lot routin work weve lost lot dairi farm never go im good accept chang diari 32 sad week one farmer son kill rta a66 marri two year real canni lad shock everyon certain made take stock restock fanci cattl south cattl may contact cattl variant virus usa whole herd test blame fmd hadnt lost cattl wouldnt restock wouldnt test cattl wouldnt happen theyd stop extra cup tea client brought copi cumbria enquiri didnt half stir old feel thing angri last year sum one phrase read slack organis poor woman brought report spent 1000 treat dog suffer chemic burn fmd disinfect road map now react phenol compound includ sheep dip fresh tar theyr move scotland hope dog better life diari 33 funni old week everyon still shell shock farmer son s death explan lorri crash tractor yet begin wonder famili can cope sort trauma b w went huge funer said parent amaz strong faith cant see enough went graveyard next day see flower end tear messag card especi one parent brother sister felt sad went wee walk tracey know quit well talk lot tri make sens blow thursday father brother part syndic tup sale paid 100000 swaledal tup couldnt believ theyd even gone auction never mind someth like doesnt seem right other bought tup think that aw strang anoth upset farmer wife week went see downer cow shed got stuck cubicl carri straw box use loader tractor wife got realli upset see cow swing front tractor felt bit guilti realli didnt think just didnt connect fmd slaughter injur cow didnt see saw herd went diari 34 great week brother wed son page boy kilt quit well behav apart second lot photo well tire hungri love home brother sister partner great way much time son alway laugh much clan gather im sure therapeut amount alcohol consum wed definit therapeut set holiday mayb first famili holiday day rain turn ok later lot good stuff one week diari 35 love day work well may tri four five day away next year now weve got start year sinc proper holiday usual miss anim im away time think son fill gap bad news wednesday partner s van fail mot transport money new motor mild panic slight depress gradual return will work somehow attitud partner s mum dad help us relinquish littl buy new trailer fund disast sunday morn caesarean uncoop cow got halfway op push rumen onto dirti floor start haemorrhag die four hour later end except bull calf dead pedigre belgian blue cow hate thing die restock farm think quit philosoph went whole thing head b just said theyr go die best die soon less time worri everyon get quicker think may right hes definit easier talk day hes like differ person now jan left diari 36 busi week test restock herd monday thursday travel 5 mile new home bit wast time nice day realli good turnout villag bonfir new tradit start 2001 first villag get togeth fmd end week head south cheshir salisburi plain friend ann hors compet marathon aw journey rain pour traffic crawl im glad dont use m6 daili basi realli enjoy weekend away pull hors half way point hype couldnt get heart rate wasnt allow continu felt realli disappoint sure good chanc well vet check halfway diari 37 bit anticlimax week build marathon differ shed complet cours better journey north except punctur handi hors trailer drove way back ann saw hors drove home anoth 2 hour oh pleas get home good experi though dont think either us trail hors way salisburi plain two hour race fmd case near ann cheshir didnt seem catch hold like cumbria mayb bigger farm arabl land went see juli 2001 point various field clear stock half didnt even gate disinfect precaut visibl realli start wipe practic home unbeliev sit cumbria think agricultur doom everyth cheshir carri normal rude awaken diari 38 tb test day job test stock wouldnt normal test theyr restock come cheshir though increas risk shock migrain day wednesday went bed soon id drop son biggin didnt wake 5pm 2 hour collect still felt aw terribl drive dark stop three time way home went back bed 9pm fine havent migrain age back top form next day though tb read 172 cattl lunch cook gas diari 39 fed test may next 4 5 month sick new vet moan work dont know take make happi think week near wast time havent made best use free time havent top job work diari 40 dread week mani thing think avoid ad extra schedul week 3 day away night cope realli dont like thought shop manag christma present locat friday spent wednesday b better expect nation scrapi plan train day wors expect bloodi defra dont say much rais hackl select resist genotyp spend time inject bse sheep brain challeng ever happen natur near miss night work 10 pm got least didnt miss danc turn realli good night near everyon work j ex receptionist alway good laugh end work morn dont know w hung just idl hell pay hour dont work extra good heart now overhead fund new vet s star avoid extra dirti work usual fall say want larg anim work best avoid diari 41 tire week son came back maviss full cold improv bit woke scream tuesday night long night partner wasnt even t enjoy share hed left fli tampa 5am morn god dont fanci singl mum soon start improv 24hrs antibiot ear chest infect ive never seen pain cours near better time partner got back realli struggl take day thursday still go second tb test otherwis start didnt time test twice restock herd realli hard tri best everyon diari 42 pretti good week weekend good night tracey birthday realli chuf invit son well behav nut unfortun now think can go pub go meet avoid tantrum dont realli think suffer mani effect fmd except lower anger threshold loss faith power im much worri client mental health know sever suffer sever depress farmer cull sleepless night back vengeanc son start chickenpox weekend nobodi sleep diari 43 absolut shatter somebodi els chickenpox near bad dont think full night sleep fortnight still love time christma though sure partner son pleas present son sudden brighten dup christma eve way mam never broke stride son top form tire fell asleep saturday even miss villag hall christma parti highlight villag social calendar diari 44 threat tb rear ugli head mayb tb new fmd went privat tb test farmer restock pass restock check unfortun bought 3 heifer novemb origin farm sinc gone tb isol heifer soon heard wait defra didnt come hope best expect worst one heifer react didnt know say farmer wife realli upset wish hadnt gone back farm b boss phone defra morn regard heifer told youngstock dont pose much risk dont seem much idea dont clue get job theyv three week track calv cow reactor seem let us just need oh make boil go cope aftermath diari 45 felt bit flat tire week test week hard work tri catch cow cubicl fun cover muck end second day wors 14 rectal test wednesday day respit taken look tracey bed cold shes realli still cant seem anyth make feel better know shell come eventu hard abl help just didnt feel time week realli miss start work wednesday im go miss everi week ill anoth plan bit better weekend think need better weather miss stuff hors diari 46 oh im mad defra go back herd reactor test everi singl bovin place except two remain heifer infect herd dont understand cant just take heifer poor farmer wife will tender hook end march earliest hadnt ask privat test good know defra got test defra phone farmer wife confirm slaughter heifer visibl lesion put paid theori youngstock werent danger hope news make get finger love day mam son tuesday sat talk hour car park everyth test clear check test far good bad day thursday behaviour cours enrol cancel explan just chequ return practic wee note disappoint even though go lot extra work next 10 month extra hassl extra childmind think cope lunchtim bent car door stop help somebodi stuck ici patch havent got bit sort knacker fmd disinfect yet there repair pay now dont practic car well fed dairi 47 busi week tb test start work odd wednesday week spent day wednesday back end suckler cow danger take blood brucellosi blood sampl swaledal scrapi test mani test still mani dread date think weve done quit lot restock test quit mind numb stuff much clinic acumen requir get blood cow just quick reaction dodg shit fli feet late finish monday time paperwork done colleg friend land tuesday en rout leed herd health meet 6 hour drive meet talk bit fmd work tvi toward end outbreak lot troubl tb aberdeenshir get herd struggl get rid hope doesnt get huge problem round collect fair bruis thursday pregnant heifer dehorn done 2001 cours routin work put dont know excus leav al 2002 massiv anyway save go gym wednesday night diari 48 just hand latest batch diari start new session think f m doesnt realli affect much anymor work chang restock taken place sinc new diseas problem bought addit extra extra tb test etc mental awar even think event 2001 often still feel upset someon tell particular experi often heart rend probabl discuss anoth devast diseas problem still littl toler work defra even though provid us lot bread butter work diari 51 im sick caesarean cow encourag bloodi beef farmer restock belgian blue im sure continu allow anim breed cant reproduc natur doesnt seem right almost expect caesarean day new cow put calf use occasion troubl caesarean belgian blue now least one caesarean everi week b two one day bloodi hard work diari 52 alway think 23rd feb day realis might shit 2001 wouldnt pass unnot round sever peopl mention date follow week yet wasnt 4th april f m came practic load farmer lost lot seep earli though winter away dairi farm eden valley use just involv hogg now encourag leav fell almost empti paid remov even pregnant ewe lower ground seem ludicr certain farm fell sheep spend summertim fell rest time bye land tup lamb winter sheep shed dairi farm sometim quit far away home get quit upset read stori book time think empathi tourism busi affect must frustrat probabl end much wors affect farmer area farmer surviv one general struggl surviv now farm capit invest fact survivor still bitter whole episod sad done peopl diari 55 check tb test campbel went well finish good time run troubl cow taken winter calv room howev found someon take slaughter big bullock go move licenc direct slaughter hous least will incom first year everyth test clear includ 2 heifer brought farm reactor feel littl bit confid diari 56 bloodi defra cock cs test go back test 11 babi calv cruel go back hs well test one inconclus reactor ok diari 60 think lamb time rush settl cours arent quit mani fell sheep usual probabl wont payment de coupl number wont profit acr
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place famili also fact long didnt realli go anywher tuesday 7th may busi holler receptionist call actual drop drug chat call custom relat still feel funni go onto farm gate month just momentarili feel can hard explain still feel normal drop thing bucket bin rather drive onto farm good coffe proper milk brill wednesday 8th may mr g got cow one thought wouldnt restock although son farm neither interest cow one hors everyth els turkey dog wallabi monkey pheasant etc real menageri daddi g 66 couldnt decid weather get cow bit dad say yes son say anyway dad won begin son side came beam laugh full joy disagre got fmd call practis coffe upset friend phone morn say fmd mr g just broke sob one worst experi found hard join strong consol old gentlemen show depth feel despair around lump now rememb anyway comparison get cow milk can make big differ happi thursday 9th may went meet preston cl vet brampton marsh report regard vet privileg dispens drug anyway first got lost lost arriv meet eventu doom gloom depress just thought thing get tract bam chang paperwork will wait see just effect us effect us will friday 10th may half day today fun thing like wash shop sort bit piec couldnt housewif time end leav cook wash took dog instead much fun saturday 11th may took daughter young farmer field day brill go stay hour anyway stay day everyon hadnt seen age spoke new face great see togeth feel farmer famili special peopl wonder sens fun solid close mind talk find relat also proud sad public see way gone day farmer hero work hour feed nation well wonder day week begin monday 13th may monday busi milk record afternoon good fun prepar parti saturday night fanci dress parti husband go cant say yet j mention friend still speak j never lost cow yet j said tri explain hard wait friend accept invit parti here hope friendship show feel can easili run away blown someth silli side see lot chang lot peopl either bitter resent jealousi emot drain whole situat tuesday 14th may earli morn milk record got outfit sort fanci dress parti saturday friend went tri good fun wednesday 15th may done ton backward forward today ive hear inquiri bit today decid go one carlisl interest curios still feel may find meet still wait day fmd mention deal regard thursday 16th may spoke young coupl farm enquir chang buy drug caught guard knew happen arrang meet chat see want think will go peopl farm differ way use pre fmd weather result fmd dont know go lot chang head way friday 17th may account day today joy brilliant help much year last year brilliant one consol wouldnt pay much tax year anyway spoke rep afternoon usual offer get everi year year look good buy year last year can get easi saturday 18th may parti night cruella devill husband bob builder great see peopl hadnt seen age recognis realli good met client anti everyth re fmd feel realli suffer bitter littl bo peep lost sheep didnt know find mr blair can preach night anyon feel sorri peopl avoid sad sunday 19th may recov week begin monday 20th may 02 monday new cattl fertil programm now becom avail vet farmer two peopl work came along see us discuss advantag alreadi farmer keen program instal discuss program later farmer keen recognis go need program like can help keep tighter control herd fertil health enabl remain busi realis now run compani famili concern quit excit anoth step forward hope tuesday 21st may busi today everyon stretch will make life much easier new vet ann start next week got caught paperwork also manag catch other bit need done even got soa defra paperwork sort miracl wednesday 22nd may went see two farmer today discuss interherd cattl health fertil comput program good chat listen plan hope dream concern lot farmer still unsur futur quit honest keep option open definit gave paus thought concern thursday 23rd may quiet day today mr w one farmer came today chat also worri futur hope good posit news come soon friday 24th may friend week new vet start monday came us 6 month 10 year ago help us ever sinc fmd offer help great work hour husband 5 month well deserv time will come back part time need ill miss say shes lot housework catch saturday 25th sunday 26th may sister niec came stay weekend nice time just potter week begin monday 27h may monday new vet start nervous keen spent 10 month work defra reliev finish main involv re stock anyway manag well hope will settl well tuesday 28th may book holiday today 1st holiday 25 year excit go barg near chester hope weather will good will nice go away togeth especi last year think need get use stay home troubl upset last year will nice cant wait wednesday 29th may love day end lot visit around farm drop drug see anoth farm regard interherd program went larg dairi farm young coupl keen enthusiast futur posit encourag give lift help put thing back track thursday 30th may farmer coffe morn plan appear quit nice quit interest hear togeth two elder one younger one opinion hope thought experi differ friday 31st may anoth mega paperwork day excit play garden afternoon walk dog saturday 1st sunday 2nd june weekend togeth went visit walk nice week begin 3rd june monday sister daughter came visit went carlisl noth excit weather disappoint organis event went coupl got wet daughter niec got jubile mug one wednesday end help new vet new nurs oper good dont get much chanc help op room day enjoy thorough new vet well shes qualifi 3 year now done much small anim worri like seem enjoy thorough settl realli well seem like age thursday first work experi school 2 year interest fmd said done bit school went detail discuss human side hadnt realli discuss school finish 4 soa well joy friday foolish decid decor surgeri op room know think good idea realis bitten can chew well sunday night dead got done look better noth done last year boy tire week begin 10th june monday new interherd disc arriv went instal two farm keen get start quit excit young son keen farm also help sometim fee can just get time feel what point middl road tri make work fight make work tuesday 11th june quit busi today daughter brace taken today two visit hospit look differ without brace now wednesday 12th june day today peac thursday 13th june nmr came see us discuss can work us interherd farmer interest competit price now anoth servic can offer farmer can help long term went see anoth farmer enter interherd lot interest tri maintain close contact farmer enabl us meet need thing progress near futur go lot chang regard dispens drug alter way work finalis januari 2003 sure just will affect us friday 14th saturday 15th sunday 16th june husband birthday organis surpris weekend away wonder time thank weather good week begin 17th june monday quiet almost like last year thank reason busi silag normal return still find difficult new herd realli know new cow yet react one farmer said like new car drive good mile eas seat comfi well that one way put tuesday went see mr j discuss new interherd program comput program can keep record herd record can analysi quit excit interest show farm head comput age farmer learn anoth new skill sure comfi shown mr j program use keen said now mayb go cut thistl wed thursday quiet catch paperwork went walk play outsid garden friday queri fmd pig effect strang part horror worri anoth strang one expect although get everyth sort normal return wait appear went back watch news listen radio wait finger cross sad day sat sun quiet weekend husband work result pig yet bush telegraph work quit number worri farmer phone result yet week begin 24th june monday breakthrough fmd talk today sudden realis even get back normal everyon come term paperwork farm alway recent fallen one disast anoth proud trade now feel let govern public whatev reason dont seem respect farmer use just may due work day tuesday pig given clear everyon breath sigh relief chill effect show still clear diseas now wed last day 6 dairi herd strang mastiti husband visit vet vla penrith yet establish caus sampl show noth usual treatment dont work case new herd new problem thursday day friday sat sun niec love time exhaust week begin 1st juli monday invest new interherd comput programm mon thur week visit farmer load explain new programm havent far year good see chat fmd cours alway still top list follow milk price regul amaz sorrow see deep emot run stori feel still strong emot resili still deep feel wonder effect will come will take time friday soa first time age look back fill go review short watch space regul review novemb will see come sunday vet student alison two week stay us came northumberland fmd interest know happen everyth go easier becom involv cull found hard 1 month glad leav week begin 8th juli monday tuesday went milk record farm go get fmd say hard extent hard time peopl fmd just differ way check longer farmer said use dread go shed morn dread might find also wash milk taker abl visit friend famili regul re move stock just know said put quit strain one way cope built tenni court play lot game famili brought closer wed interherd day held meet today invit farmer interest use programm peopl wrote programm came along talk farmer good farmer seem enjoy found need sort programm new herd unsur fertil thur fri visit mr w mr j re interherd got proper cup coffe proper milk that miss last year one reason go visit sat sun busi small anim oper nurs week end shatter poor week begin 15th juli monday visit farmer re interherd programm posit futur son keen can see differ attitud past month first start go unsur done right thing serious debat get stock back cope chang regul paperwork said just love farm doesnt know anyth els just love farm now progress work togeth within famili good system appear enjoy farm famili generat financi can manag hope make love peopl real inspir report fmd recommend publish soon heard far doesnt say anyth didnt alreadi know recommend littl sketchi say least need good sensibl posit protocol futur outbreak present flare tomorrow mess learnt hope time will tell tuesday sad news today one client didnt get fmd decid give tenant farm owner keen expans even repair old build remain competit see need cow cant build shed word decid mayb life mid forti go sell tri someth new brave sad think will first client everyon ask futur moment noth nobodi certain can smaller farmer keep will bigger one get bigger new regul paperwork will brought time will tell wed husband away br cattl vet ass bcva committe meet committe 18 month now enjoy anoth feather cap anyway gave talk problem post fmd problem farmer experienc also gave talk mastiti case appear new herd strang mastiti case year anyway competit best talk husband won proud none vet ever seen anyth like found bad mastiti cow year whether chang area weather hous shall see thursday visit day today good fun went t see farmer interherd lot coffe proper milk yummi also interest hear differ stori feel hope worri mani readi challeng ahead unfortun arent nobodi know thing will chang next coupl year will good good byee im hol now yippe holiday week begin 22nd juli week begin monday 29th juli tuesday back work staff cope realli well fall problem first time near two year left bit worri great bunch lucki feel relax great fun see paperwork bit lazi day good wed poor mr g terribl time defra restock tt test reactor cow slaughter lesion found herd test 60 day later anoth reactor found slaughter anyway due anoth test 60 day arrang 900am 900am came went 1000am phone see happen forgotten come 1pm good last two time test taken 6 hour test cow still need milk mean late finish mr grave explain told complain bought cow countri tb said know get peopl side dont anyway heat discuss pursu eventu sens seen test rearrang anoth day 900am finger cross thursday got money today fmd recoveri fund use enabl us thing wouldnt normal abl van sign written got laptop comput great interherd programm got pen pad give husband abl hold meet farmer pre stock advis look etc extrem use nice given money peopl say spent elsewher help us immens feel spent wise fri paperwork catch day today quiet recent due holiday harvest thank like last year look back today last year call today four although quiet bad week begin monday 5th august monday quiet tuesday quiet wed quiet thursday daughter got first job fri took daughter sister week end sat quiet week end sun garden go holiday next week yippe sorri quiet week mention usual everyon holiday farmer harvest caught enjoy day just poddl go daughter shop food nice catch time thursday daughter got job first proper job well near travel inn bottom road excit alreadi plan go spend hard earn cash friday took daughter sister lancashir week end came back friday night decid meet husband s mum dad caravan near whitbi monday week anoth holiday dont know one anoth anyway good fun holiday week begin monday 12thth august week begin monday 19thth august monday visit mr today load interherd onto comput definit decid sell hope earli next year sudden son longer interest mr said can blame new regul paperwork lot find hard tuesday environ agenc visit morn check dispos wast practic thank everyth proper visit took two half hour lot form fill check thing extent question mr g call afternoon problem cow keep go colour mani new herd start well happi settl fine 3 4 month arriv start ill mastiti colour eat milk proper wide varieti strang vet dont realli know what happen regular blood sampl tri find chang wed husband went account see just bad financi realli done last year oh surpris bad fact near qualifi children tax relief main thing surviv fashion hope will better next year thursday visit two farmer today interherd find brilliant recent farm assur visit interherd help enorm help reach standard appreci much easier less paperwork heaven good find someth help fri phone main drug compani rep invit open even keen think just enjoy crack week begin monday 26th august quiet week larg small anim must last holiday rush go back school manag catch decid four day week nice quit bit play interherd visit farmer knew want see find interest medicin book keep excel stock record drug product born gone batch number expiri date inform need produc get inspect manual can time consum week begin 2nd septemb monday 2nd septemb ir 930 garst milk rec tuesday garst milk rec dog cours wed daughter back school export back thursday export fri chang date open even gb way now 15 10 02 export sat sister niec sun monday everi 2 year check radiograph advisor ensur everyth well everyth right check x ray machin record monitor record pass afternoon went milk record warm flyie good fun think get new parlour twice big mr g feel futur milk will produc quantiti qualiti difficult expens decis make shall see tue earli morn milk record morn got love breakfast proper milk got check larg anim got back also start new puppi train cours even went well 1 1 basi nurs run go along help moral support good fun long day went bed got back wed daughter went back school today ill miss follow round help mum can take may export sheep friday pedigre texel sheep sale h h borderway first export done 20 month can guess paper work tripl numer phone call ad defra tri make sens must say peopl good clarifi written now there surpris thursday spent whole day either read new expert regul run backward forward new paperwork complet bring well fun friday well full realli isnt word use need paperwork need paperwork took day 3 sheep send drain one good thing see everyon auction new face gone week begin 9th septemb monday ts 7th birthday anoth vet student studi moment 2 week five year far anoth christma wont stay hous carlisl nice make us behav wont mani next year interest fmd chanc help eye open spoke student affect everyon happen didnt now talk almost year last case dont find hard think can hide emot time wasnt angri feel now fmd aftermath sad becom everyday life dont rush news yearn inform think direct indirect live everyday realli becom part live difficult put word explain also went visit one interherd farmer lancast pleas cope well mrs m crush pet cow month ago lucki two broken leg cut bruis needless say cow gone greener pastur resili plan futur nice part plan also get proper milki coffe see easi pleas milk record tonight mr gs earli morn tomorrow im still tri persuad interherd finger cross tuesday earli morn milk record fail interherd due cow break leg never actual experienc happen general hear farmer need slaughter cert cow put see famili reaction humbl think word accid can happen look face deep sorrow father even place head hand breakfast talk heifer get readi serv let time difficult birth help well bred jet black huge white spot side prize guess name farmer said cant look feed care day day without care afternoon attend cours manag employ law custom servic barnard castl went till 9 pm dinner decid stay spoilt good cours excel food love hotel wednesday came back cours leisur stop penrith bit shop pleasant im good shopper nice get back 11 new credit card machin fit duli arriv well obnoxi man moan switchboard dial 9 wrong wrong go get offer coffe told without special word bit aghast said pleas swear just come cours explain custom servic murder god bless cours cours credit card machin men afternoon visit rspca advertis compani want advert leaflet anyway 640 quarter page 2 year said couldnt afford sudden drop 410 littl suspect got receptionist quiet check compani connect rspca anyway wait said still littl bit afford fmd see use true said 210 time confirm rspca said yes thank bargain rip thursday tri get head round isol unit tri explain farmer think got eventu husband got back got explain simpl english made lot sens will handi peopl sell buy stock alway guidelin must written someon never seen farm field friday caught paperwork trolley busi lot think term anyway good week begin 16th septemb week apprais week staff didnt last year thought better get back swing thing quit enjoy apprais great opportun real good sort get new idea tri recognis potenti problem start apprais bout 4 year ago start everyon petrifi worri nice see actual excit enjoy quit time consum worthwhil much week week begin 23rd septemb monday anoth suspect case main differ one felt cold sick scare one better felt go posit whether case now posit just anoth one confid way posit definit wasnt worri dont know blasé cant spell sorri definit differ tuesday just nice busi today just enough keep everyon busi husband vet away week just leav new vet vet littl worri got busi last dog train cours tonight pass test well pleas progress made first 4 week cours run feedback posit head nurs put aw lot work fir pleas well next one plan novemb wed expert go start h h tomorrow friday will first one done 18 month surpris paperwork side chang much irish paperwork horrend anyway sever phone call derfa dard various farmer wish sell sale think sort will see tomorrow thursday friday ive put one felt confid everyth place abl export sheep first thing thursday morn dard like irish defra chang regul paperwork joy can imagin sent everyon state frenzi anoth buzbi full phone call didnt paperwork sort peopl bought sheep want leav now temper reach fever pitch well manag export away thursday night 3 hour late book differ ferri done dust friday busi congratul achiev imposs work hard accomplish now sever name christma card list yes guess phone call well let say one happi chappi sleep catch late ferri wait paperwork arriv larn port sheep impound dard ad one form list requir forgotten send mention hour phone call fax later pleas say sheep releas free go week begin 7th octob monday 7th octob made trial arrang open even next tuesday all readi now good night enjoy havent one year good tuesday now weve wonder practic invest hous assist respons advert new vet thought go hous hunt anyway wasnt much fun first thought start obvious quit price realli isnt easi look one cardboard box 70000 appar went 82k frighten well can keep look vet come interview saturday finger cross im tomorrow away bvna congress weekend im look forward week begin 14th octob monday 14th octob realli good time bvna british veterinari nurs assist congress load lectur learn new thing got load freebi trade stand order new vaporis anaesthet machin use less isoflo oxygen also good halloween ball stay late got back sunday even 3 day congress just settl fill husband daughter done anoth vet came want hand caesarean dog ah well noth like get back today anyway feel tire start get readi open even tomorrow night farmer lot sort tidi open hous well havent one coupl year quit excit realli enjoy great farmer round main nosh natter night year drug compani paid stand various part hous surgeri normal everyon good time tuesday open even day busi tidi move thing around everyon help good staff excit well muck usual us proud even brilliant nice see enjoy noth farmer like better good natter food beer quit said miss open even last year due fmd far pr goe definit worth wednesday just clear sort staff said good feedback well done everyon thursday back now got new interherd updat spent quit lot day see new button clever interherd sold nmr now help us sell farmer whose life paperwork hope make easier man charg nmr come see us next week explain milk record side tie nmr interherd friday today one rush round day feel unsur actual done busi larg small side tire prefer busi week begin 21st octob monday 21st octob monday wednesday thursday meet id nmr re interherd go give us cheap milk record price help promot nmr interherd also releas version interherd farmer given first one countri trial see thought encourag nmr past year gain slight unpopular feel especi cumbria now seem see tri hard commit improv survey now area herd size etc major dairi herd cumbria even post fmd finger cross friday good day today husband away bcva council meet br cattl vet ass normal goe mad dont know anyway didnt today everyon busi mad larg anim side present now tt blood test season quit lot restock herd done everi year oppos 4 year also test everyth time consum tt test two day job farmer us two day week cant anyth els week begin 28th octob monday 28th octob ask newton rigg colleg interest teach anim care cours colleg vicki went along quit interest thought togeth work said think let know went milk record afternoon enjoy play crack tuesday milk record discuss interherd go use pilot nmr interherd job will interest regard newton rigg offer wont abl part time nurs leav us offer place dalston vet will abl train vet nurs dont practic will leav us short staf sad everyth happen reason now vet nurs hunt advertis interview wed sponsor class northern expo holstein friesian show stand good natter took photo cow freebi good night barbara came present prize class standard cattl amaz realli good show thursday photo took northern expo decid make photo album went round farm photograph good fun nice see good stock friday got phone call today sister sold hous lancast move near us that excit otherwis quiet day today week begin 4th novemb monday 4th novemb went show mr j new interherd farmer version interest thought save lot paperwork time say paperwork sinc fmd increas immens along regul tuesday decid tv wait room advertis product servic staff etc man channel 6 came took inform arriv next week will interest see work wed went bank today see financi advisor free servic use decid buy hous sister live move will invest well bit secur just case last year discov just quick thing can chang went just 3 month lot money come still wage pay now hous hunt week begin 11th novemb monday 11th novemb one vet recent start dbr dip bovin reproduct cours liverpool part studi look cow milk qualiti pre post calv see effect relev overal perform milk product health collect milk sampl certain cow twice week period lactat go test watch space lucki anoth vet enthusiasm boundless becom import member team persuad mr j b farm milk record us that earli morn jaunt interherd nmr trial near readi hope middl decemb everyth set run hope tuesday two farmer milk read today nice littl trolli treat mr rs ice cream nice well support new shop farm well load first farmer version interherd onto mr ws comput impress keen thank work well wednesday comput bug good spent day phone talk debug man thursday still got bug weve run bug fixer disc seven comput take age peed fed go back pen paper friday must sound fed love littl man came fix comput use 3 differ disc due differ bug meet discuss nmr milk record quit lot farmer interest main got good price nmr finger cross bug fix yipee week begin 18th novemb monday 18th novemb due junior nurs leav interview week lot enquiri decid invit possibl come play morn see thought got staff one potenti sound nice cant make next monday one wrote realli good letter came well sweet realli suitabl friday nurs left littl parti hope cope okay bought love cow ornament say thank love week begin 25th novemb monday 25th novemb ellen came interview good keen experi happi hour come back tomorrow afternoon play went vet leav friday chalet maid french ski resort till april will sad see leav unfortun still joy new vet front go leav till new year tri vet go cover unfortun mean husband s duti bit reminisc fmd well manag tuesday wednesday feel sorri got bad cold got sent room everyon fed sneez honest shan thursday much better today sort whole load interherd data good play heard nestl cancel contract next year one farmer felt littl unsur quit affect dealt anoth kick teeth quit amaz mani heard question went back farm feel effect didnt seem call often dont want cow treat extra expens end fmd said next coupl year chang way farmer mani farmer work frighten see actual start happen see effect busi everyon agre whole industri chang worst pleasur now total contrast daughter went christma shop love time met husband surgeri went pizza love night friday everyon talk nestl now quit angri arent surpris other just seem resign lunch parti leav vet today good gave pressi although month will great miss everyon never know may come back one day good news offer ellen nurs job shes accept think will well week begin 2nd decemb monday 2nd decemb spent morn troll around countrysid collect anoth vet s milk sampl dbr love morn chat farmer lot still talk nestl tuesday meet clarifi start nmr milk record gave inform need set herd great abl offer farmer good cheaper deal staff xmas parti good everyon seem good time wednesday day shop joy thursday interherd disast today couldnt get load normal take 15 minut instead took 2 half hour anyway succeed eventu just bought calf heifer keen keep date record inform one farmer restock now that everyon will probabl work 15 drop work etc wait interherd load tell approach ask want appeal amount money receiv cattl said wouldnt felt alreadi overpaid farmer money grabber appar friday daughter start mock exam now next fortnight wait mood start yet quiet long may last calm actual revis quit hard abil concentr work wise ive done lot one perk ive wander around just play nice job quit chang week begin 9th decemb monday 9th decemb daughter s 16th birthday scari even wors can learn drive next year never mind enjoy safeti went lunch shop good dont normal like shop enjoy came back mayhem client small anim complain bill caus stink anyway phone gone everyth seem happi hope either misunderstood hadnt thing explain although difficult better peopl say someth rather stew make someth small anim seem problem way larg anim suppos larg anim also busi doesnt stop care dont think work hour work didnt care sometim get hard press think get public unfortun like farmer phone say sick cow ask quit often repli shes just need say anymor tuesday im go play milk record new person via interherd one client quit charact old fashion yet thirti good passion farm surviv lot idea want tri differ cow just bought jersey henc want record see benefit milk 60 cow 2 hour farm milk 190 time good see way wed earli morn milk record good fun lot relax farm went hairdress straight smell cow pooh hair good job know well didnt complain much rest day quit pleasant bit paperwork skive sorri cant spell lab thursday friday wow think christma rush shop busi prefer although sit now good nurs good time friday afternoon help bath groom dog naughti nice sweat bucket soak skin end good laugh week begin 16th decemb monday 16th decemb daughter s mock exam need run school various time mum taxi overtim calm shall see thursday event now expect nurs vet watch sit unfortun worri nurs even receptionist worri may lose sever test obvious worri go scan tuesday finger cross vet also pregnant tri someth long name wrong caus miscarriag pleas worri excit scare 4 week lamb quit happi continu work now hope everyth ok can difficult work anim pregnant long care ok week begin 23rd decemb monday 23rd decemb much get quiet christma busiest time year good go tri advertis new year new vet especi now anoth vet expect will depend may even need two even anoth vet duti now husband standbi case lamb coupl farmer start anytim milk record tonight well now nmr well liter need record bad work will xmas round corner minc pie made yet tuesday nurs phone posit moment hormon level increas bled anymor doesnt stop worri though surgeri busi finish 130pm sister niec arriv set go christma ace relax good fun load pressi didnt time eat busi play warm friday back work busi day lot call surgeri appoint even oper receptionist charg enjoy find everyon got christma week begin 30th decemb monday 30th decemb busi day receptionist thought quiet wrong never mind cope tuesday nurs lost babi lose cant see anyth scan just empti sac go dont know call can take tablet clear everyth away obvious upset say shes go drop two goe sad thursday 2nd januari everybodi back full crew one know day get use split week moment need stuck head quit busi well good tri arrang tt test farmer never keen threaten defra come work friday went blood sampl sheep scrapi husband day beauti day cold fun stood next stream women tortur cold air run water nip back van various thing time finish frozen test part nation scrapi plan sampl sheep scrapi find bse sheep one will okay plan slaughter nation herd bse found farmer said alreadi human g pig year indian eat sheep brain remov bone meal dubious scabbi sheep problem will wait see week begin 6th januari 2003 mon 6th januari 2003 new nurs start today manag well didnt seem confus went home work kennel keen finger cross anoth vet dbr part studi decid look progesteron level cow post calv 6 week see happen collect sampl new calv cow split 3 smaller pot freez await test holland excit quit bore result interest though hope tuesday forget explain somebodi new start nurs written step step guid c well sort littl thing havent new nurs hope book can use new peopl took bit pleas end spoke mr g re interherd farm now get round see hard pin well tri wed new nurs like new book well nice us alway find quit refresh someon genuin enthusiast us close area good show someon els can scari see just much thursday milk pot day today good thing go pick sampl get natter monday thursday sampl collect split frozen quit time consum ive just realis didnt ask anoth vet long friday decid tri get account date see thing go bar abl find vet one job alway mean keep top never quit manag much fun interrupt queri assist welcom got good start week begin 13th januari monday 13th jan start work us just two day week will help lot help take pressur surgeri time etc got spend day help tt test good fun stay fine good day tuesday milk record day today 3 total start use nmr now new paperwork etc go cheaper farmer work interherd programm anyway went well everybodi sampl got away wed milk record one three farm first thing everytim go new plan make money month go produc new breed cow jersey x mri will see goe thursday friday just catch paperwork nurs train new nurs settl realli well keen week begin 20th januari monday 20th januari wed decor bedroom look brill desper need like decor good messi thursday went brucellosi test train cours vlc good fun mean now test 150 cattl get licenc will enabl blood test turn will hope free vet will also give defra bank blood tester futur outbreak crafti use charg 800 cours miracul now free clever friday repli advert hoorah well actual two foreign one germani s africa wait cvs finger cross defra now chang 20 day standstil 6 day general opinion seem interest actual find well regul actual work well feel answer week begin 27th januari mon wed busi seem spent lot car drop too fro nice lose touch happen surgeri tuesday thing obvious got fraught sort smooth creas lucki dedic staff due vet shortag anoth vet s pregnanc add extra pressur everyon none incid serious easili sort thursday went sister take niec hospit sinc born lump side head eye xray fun persuad lie still stay overnight came back friday week begin 3rd februari monday 3rd feb first blood sampl live cow today abort enquiri due anoth vet s pregnanc ad need practic good fun hit 2nd time pleas anoth 145 go get licenc tuesday complet account today go account great fun hope come good news futur worri backlash farmer confid wed cant rememb told vet expect anyway went first scan today far good worri problem produc duff egg miscarriag want carri normal possibl now sheep abort etc hop work time 4th attempt thursday friday nice everyth work well mad rush time catch discuss reduc farm drug abl buy internet prescript law rule will like chang begin march due report done govt regard drug anim use will make differ oper remov vet surgeon right prescrib drug ie vet can write prescript dispens drug alter thing complet one way anoth farmer requir servic go pay now alway reason mark put drug normal 50 will keep profession fee vet get money made drug therefor put fee although farmer may buy drug cheaper via internet will actual save much wonder anyway get pressur number farmer compet internet price select product pay time can get 20 price watch space will see happen week begin 10th februari monday 10th feb week sum blur sad funni memori start receptionist holiday alway seem happen soon someon get busi everyon tick along nice most enjoy busi work 3 13 hour day food everyon work realli hard excel staff sad note vet went 11 week scan tuesday babi die distraught condit caus 4th miscarriag sad call see just hug cri say tablet clear away placenta etc gut longest ever pregnant thought shes crack just sad funni tale week complet differ note help immens vet thursday busi farmer call behind still op farmer settl big chat normal say lot depart today obvious turn vet came op room know naughti wrote card can help ie free well instead read note quiet oh read top voic ad need help crawl hole open earth swallow point messag book tri hide predica said loud want help well gave decid just fall hole got rid vet back op room continu alon predica farmer gone thank seem oblivi happen went search vet kill anyway cheer us say laughter best medicin can think better way week begin 17th februari monday 17th feb vet lost babi came back work upset weepi everyon love hope just time tlc busi enquiri farmer think chang vet realli good news three new farmer total now enough vet four practic around carlisl advertis recent none posit fill quit worri tuesday took vet lost babi home today well lot pain shes gone back bed hope shes feel better soon usual day otherwis wed vet lot better today appar think may cocodamol take lot happier littl drain ok mr w came today cow arriv friday hope will last farm restock lot alter done farm new parlour quit excit thursday sheep export slaughter longtown today first sort thing sinc fmd cours bit faf now retag check take littl longer afternoon meet sr univers read plan research regard interherd programm pick 3 vet practic see programm help vet farmer work better togeth improv make farmer record keep go meet 3 farmer use interherd interview give free train pleas fri day daughter went newcastl shop im good shopper behav good day mr ws cow arriv fit healthi us complet now ass better sad news though heard one farmer drop dead sudden sad seen morn normal self quit shock famili must devast mind there good way go that week begin 24th februari monday 24th feb anoth vet lot better today almost back normal cheeri self lot posit took bull horn speak reduc price drug will wait 10th march find govern go regard sell drug farmer pleas tuesday got anoth phone call mr c said like chang vet us good news husband spoke old vet explain etc difficult think futur may chang vet past never happen even farmer appreci competit now worri milk record mr g tonight alway good crack say wed milk record earli morn show interherd programm go tri think afternoon went vet vet hors purchas can tricki sometim two pair eye better one turn hors lame couldnt vet will go back anoth day thursday normal day sheep export afternoon effici system longtown make lot easier fri went farmer s funer morn sad dont like funer well dont suppos anyon stay fine good send afternoon got opportun blood sampl just 15 good get use handl everyth forget your end shit kick broken limb got blood week begin 3rd march mon 3rd march went help tt test morn just take number now 4 farm restrict due tb reactor now cow taken test lesion fund now get repeat 60 day test farm now defra cant keep sound familiar saw account afternoon sent 9 month account need see practic now anyway bad thought incom slowli grow main problem farmer wont call sick cow now will leav longer tri treat main due watch spend mr w problem interherd need run extensif figur didnt add spent rest day tri figur think know set initi may need entri date chang tue went tt test morn love morn spent rest day sort mr ws problem work chuf good think now understand extensif wed caught paperwork morn help new nurs dog groom afternoon fun realli well seem enjoy end soak thank dog look load better went home good news get new vet south africa start 1403 work fmd met someon relationship last henc want job carlisl bingo come holiday thursday friday busi practic everyon kept go great team realli come busi love way everyon pull togeth dedic week begin 10th march monday quiet day monday weather nice play quit lamb that one thing chang sinc fmd prior fmd hard use lamb farmer sinc now far last year put new stock seem year tuesday today milk record day 3 record today need box paperwork dont help milk though good quit way nice day drive wed thur fri end week seem busier begin moment non stop one disadvantag busi dont time chat often took drug farm last one restock alter done amaz see transform made farm gear one person abl alon cow interest week begin 17th march mon tuesday went anoth vet mr cs tt blood test anoth vet tt blood part lay blood tester licenc need 150 manag good fun weather great spread 2 day due amount cattl realli good practic think ive crack now talk give tt test lay peopl quit anyon guess wed blood test today ive realli crack now ive discov muscl arm didnt know enjoy blood test sad isnt thursday morn alco wast manag sort clinic wast regul need detail actual goe wast alway provid free servic farmer dispos sharp old drug empti drug etc go start charg now now 100 dearer month fri husband spent morn look fee incom etc see can increas fee help cover lose right dispens drug farmer still havent heard continu will make differ just week begin 24th march monday paperwork tt test beauti day enjoy especi weather good nice farmer also get spend day husband make chang although work togeth dont often get see much tuesday busi day spent make sure everyth got done help wed went career convent sand centr busi lot interest long day go someon phone say colli dog run around roundabout new nurs went see catch well didnt want caught realli worri got onto motorway phone polic dog warden incident couldnt come 9am didnt start til polit explain polic dog handler wasnt much help least stop traffic bless dog warden appear 5 minut later 830 manag get dog roundabout catch everyon safe thank thur fri busi day new vet south africa phone hes come see us monday pick vehicl meet everyon sound pleasant will see joke moment peopl ask found got internet littl worri met first work watch space week begin 31st march monday l stay two week shes vet student london stay us tine last year interest go chang year ago last time peopl restock element wari interest fill thing now one thing mention notic stock field nice still last year talk thing still hard sometim although seem long time ago feel emot still deep certain part can still hit raw nerv seem mere anger moment general peopl farmer want know still restrict go happen show sale etc will normal ever return unfortun think way want tuesday new vet start today got well taken us long find vet work test carri increas go need anoth one wednesday busi day husband s gone talk bcva confer agm poor new vet thrown deep end busi seem cope well client impress far long may last good new staff new idea quit enjoy definit big hit femal client realli make embarrass femal go consult room count 4 come girli giggl quit funni thursday sad day today sister confirm cervic cancer now friday anoth interherd sale today one thing fmd forc farmer need effici record interherd brilliant clever one farmer 120 milk cow now daili record 5 10 minut cant bad week begin 7th april monday busi day new vet settl realli well cope fine carri rate will need anoth vet lot depend much test go get happen commiss report dispens drug tuesday sr came today uni read interherd program went round farmer use help sort queri good day learnt lot farmer found use said come later year think might tri organis come practis chat wednesday interherd train one farmer wive said just hour wasnt fulli comput liter anyway 4 hour later well truli got hang keen realli enjoy thursday friday blur one busi everyon flat go start vet advertis anoth nurs receptionist week begin 14th april monday got caught today sort queri quit pleas self tuesday went local nurseri talk vet 3 year old quit dread thank great realli good took dress cloth x ray instrument teddi bear oper realli good time one ask cow sheep better still funni feet mouth week begin 21st april tuesday wednesday quit busi day lot catch went away sister niec weekend husband s mum dad caravan great time sister s biopsi rest week week begin 28th april monday three farmer milk record today tomorrow busi drop pet paperwork advertis vet today finger cross two week help sister move interview nurs receptionist perfect experienc wrote letter husband job brought area start 12th may wish easi find vet week begin 12th may monday new girli start today keen capabl done realli well even comput system dread tuesday busi day also 2x milk record bit holler think year now normal work everyon new appear get say goe everyon bear scar stori tell realis wed fri quit busi capabl work daughter got job train m apprentic cours moon new learn curv sudden realis grow get job leav school unfortun morn daughter decid doesnt want leav full time educ yet worri job want busi cours colleg chang bid discuss go go connexion next week sat yf young farmer field day today love day amaz effort enjoy make good day also high standard class admir enthusiasm young farmer just hope can surviv somehow week begin 19th may monday found cours daughter want colleg thank connexion bad news done local local cours wast time extent big discuss week found cours blackburn preston sister mum live happi move just dont know readi let go ill big girl sent applic form will wait see now tri get use wed realli good even penrith re discuss good talk diarist realis abl relat close said poignant see peopl written interest see done far data collect brilliant hand futur studi enquiri proof sure peopl wrong mani diarist start finish amaz im sure can use mani differ topic amaz person proud part although sometim wonder write use can see now come togeth opportun shame better circumst help origin realis think back unbeliev someth like repeat ever optimist im told believ hope thing farm can recov fulli enough abl show peopl wonder life hard special week begin 26th may never stop tuesday bank holiday busi new vet settl now girlfriend cant find job that bit worri may leav sooner expect oh advertis rest week unev realli tick along nice met friend wednesday even holiday lake year nice see good even also thursday night drug rep nice meal offer pay husband bri catt vet ass meet amsterdam octob nice busi link also offer help us get consult see idea improv mayb can find vet quit excit week week begin 2nd june exam start everyon warn bewar daughter laid back much feel long best went account look book end year far quit finish yet thank wont need incom support year much better regul noth cant cope honest week begin 9th june daughter interview blackburn colleg wasnt nice place im go preston 25th will decid niec ct scan head event lisa naughti jelli babi zap went well bit sore week begin 23rd june monday went tt test anoth vet today retest due reactor good day nice peopl father 2 son fmd phone call one night just someon cri end didnt know say wasnt sure just spoke main silli thing cant realli rememb didnt get much respons just yes nos thought recognis voic father today anyway lunch farm chat cours got fmd thank took aback said appreci waffl night day cow shot phone let us know said just broke couldnt say anyth anyway laugh said go hang couldnt get word edgeway witter said feel bit better good heart heart tuesday caught paperwork sort bit piec wed took daughter preston colleg interview good seem nice place cant believ will leav home end august scari im realli go big girl thursday went visit busi link discuss thing hope go help us pay firm consult help us see can improv move practic that excit fri went milk record first thing good fun record collect one elder client dog come oper ladi 92 dog close want stay sedat pleas come girl laugh quit littl old ladi visit keep check pet week begin 30th june lot excit week kept go caught paperwork go sister week end start sort spare bedroom daughter week begin 7th juli mon spent morn explain newest girli interherd work will enabl help data entri side also littl trip around farm record us give idea tuesday went export sheep today retag quit warm much fun ill mayb get new girl export wed 2 milk record today quit busi bottl sheet thing opposit direct never mind nice day drive thursday got new vet replac vet sa seem love go start 40803 use agenc prove worthwhil work rather pay endless advert give go seem work that excit fri went car hunt today go week end becom bit crush sometim end take two vehicl realli splash right wrong bought new crv truck posh get 210703 week begin 14th juli monday person interherd offic came see us visit farmer interherd nmr realli tri provid qualiti cost effect equip help farmer can now use interherd milk parlour realli use tue went see hors cough treat poni chat convert small barn camp hostel farm along hadrian wall sinc foot mouth barn near cover cost still stock mani mr say father use milk 25 cow abl make good live amaz differ wed got new payrol packag today spent day tri understand bog eye end think understand seem work well lot easier quicker thursday busi day lot op farm call coupl farmer ask prescript soon will abl get drug anywher lot said appreci pay servic one way anoth happi carri will lose money extent much remain seen will cope friday went see westlif daughter
## 4 inform diarist date birth 1963 gender m occup group 6 geograph region north cumbria saturday 9th march 2002 old african proverb state best time plant tree 20 year ago next best time now start diari year ago keep track chang unrol fmd epidem feel toward today probabl good day start diari sit realli bad week write comment lesson learn inquiri thought check web site updat found consider annoy inquiri come cumbria meet defra hold open meet tuesday night want ticket attend appli week ago overal impress govt want learn lesson look kid wife counsel cours call sat morn vet busi end take children vet watch video wait room sort consult come cold spend friday tb test restock farm least manag avoid get kick crush farm hand one hard lad wigton refus get fat bull test get floor kick f ministri want f test can f come etc etc put letter say test see respons didnt get finish farm till 545 pm start caesarean 5 30ammust easier way make live farm economi bizarr moment silag heap farm instead feed straw incred expens 70 ton feed better qualiti silag calv big 30 calv night work ever go farm stori farmer want get chest maff incompet inconsist bewild lot anger went restock sentinel visit mg l fm usual laid back guy told bring cattl see court sentinel visit farm fmd 11 month ago virus live month sunday mother sunday kid got present card mum brought breakfast tray cute pear juic carpet tim spent sat night bake chocol cake meant hadnt got lunch never mind church ps speak charact walk god talk abraham set know go mayb follow suit larg anim vet reduc tb test caesarean even servic realli live hp austria turn everi hour god now g r call around sun afternoon pessimist fertilis sale much land grass around govt grant extensif new regul nitrat give headach though point fertilis caus problem use grass phosphat slurri organ lough neigh real problem algal bloom blame fertilis bassenthwait fertilis spread fell realli agricultur monday read test glad clear farm origin one batch gone tb test lunch organ farm just first pay check 23p per litr promis 36p start convert 2 year ago agricultur desper behind admin vet home least clinic work pay tuesday caught lot admin back 6 vet day 2 cow abort restock farm diseas rota still 5vet yuk even open meet poor attende due poor public local practition phone around one invit seen advanc public feel interest will listen move testimoni bulli cultur came frustrat anger come deal faceless bureaucraci distant london 11 million anim 2000 farm cumbria busi wreck live wreck crisi turn disast bureaucrat incompet polit consider pleas went feel like sens closur funer speak end spoke wife got back feel can lay past look futur wed day k lunch sort financ etc write diari everyon say time last year glad fmd finish went see greas school product well done brought back memori 6th form thur 300 page a4 wait tray courtesi defra mindless rang speak ah got hold n told order get blood pressur measur one say defra stupid idiot much closur feel frustrat futur farm practic anal gland come said vet life aint glamor manag calm get next 2 week test organis good job organis tri get folk phone nt easi workload pick manag persuad gg advertis even tvi hq local practic advertis respons busi defra work spent time sing greas song much nurs amus restock visit lynedraw gave look around amaz clean even pressur wash spider usual make come back build steril cobweb insect life usual abound even empti build weird will lot fli next year news pi headship nelson thom can expect disciplin improv friday curri quiz boy school cosmopolitan cumbria good fun kid enjoy useless photo definit need tv spent time chat local gp interest place son nelson thom isnt keen saturday 16th march work w e call friday night earli start caser ewe lamb hurray thing get back normal even dutch beltex farmer realli fed want ah sack threaten kill recent import dutch sheep paper work right come blood sampl sent result brother still form refus permiss move sheep shouldnt form blood result defra joke wasnt serious oh complaint delug us paper yes guess sent anoth 7 x 20 sheet a4 idiot aw tiz get help sat morn shame hey ho cope post fmd constant chang goal post went susan ian anoth curri realli good time decid phase hous group come hope low moor will set 3rd hous group wigton hebron go chang new outlook group sun never manag get church call day beauti day though weather realli pick must get garden sort seed plant came call even one good point job allow kid join realli grow want go cinema wife late weather good came back walk dog wound boy mon earli morn call see farmer scrap metal dealer hate author therefor didnt want anyon land fmd refus access maff work caus real problem gun remov polic handl bad rogu colour rumour real reason allow anyon amount smuggl cigarett great hide also run fisheri shellfish enterpris beach odd time found guilti fine 350 troubl never paid went bust everyth wife kid name unsubstanti rumour quit amus push come shove ministri noth cooper farmer vet student arriv feel bit guilti stay feel still need space moment make royal oak prayer quad lad good still got stuff magazin spent time pray tue date import cos birthday 39 today kid brought present breakfast bed realli nice number ordinari call ill anim increas rapid went 2 new restock farm today think one day probabl enough full stori ministri want unload one understood first particular upset admir new parlour set put wait 4 month talk anim get slaughter wife fight back tear also unsur whether right thing invest new parlour unsur futur reach 50 right thing unfortun think right couldnt say made reassur nois spent money late now futur dairi good price go continu world price current exchang rate uneconom uk second farm sheep drop graze burial site plant carrot turnip surround field couldnt listen anoth set woe still upset first lot kept convers light sheep wed never realis fmd like grief anniversari get fear barrier put rest farm give certif 2 heifer sold calf say year day fmd hit villag ai fellow well talk say think will year everybodi return normal revisit farm help slaughter ai say take deep breath everi time return one farm partner meet lunchtim usual aw turn late final decid advertis see whether vet will come work fmd countri bit frustrat foresaw busi nab d longtown gg ever cautious went complet around circl tri differ option everyth els predict can make know dont know much depend govt decis suppli pharmaceut farm futur svs state vet servic usual 15 farm work current 50 thursday tomorrow will get lunch break resolut manag stop lunch week yet farm call keep come partner meet today gecko bum goos bum rectal prolaps varieti spice life also much laughter watch norman bath jgs tortois come hibern earli anorex much clunk bump 2 lamb cow caesaer hour busi call also last hous group end era hous past 6 year differ folk god speak us other time move friday start anoth caeaser earli morn start didnt get lunch break time reconsid thing folk dinner arrang long time ago seem like good idea time enjoy 14 hour day yesterday 10 hour one today feel life soul parti one coupl still tri decid futur farm thought progress famili farm yet convinc find difficult three generat consid father go buy stock tomorrow son want come home work feel broaden option difficult also say ha d help neighbour flag go past want help move cow last time touch cow slaughter knock stride rest day good time look time 1 o clock sat 23rd march wife went counsel cours day left bit edg morn call sat look 4 kid manag back sore stiff ive miss gym will go back tue still manag get bit done garden great spring day made feel like summer come went beckfoot beach afternoon kid even went bed earli shatter sun 24th back stiffer garden went church davidson move thursbi will good around school watch northbank beat stanwix u12 s 6 0 boy play well pass ball around lot son play well must work less w es watch boy play mon 25th look forward finish friday anoth larg test today start 8 30am finish 6pm least meant offic face usual hassl factor good see place alway well run organis real famili farm three generat work togeth granddad 75 still much call shot craic good lunch sister friend wife got custard rhubarb tart wife doesnt like custard never get bother make one kid never conserv ask view futur sold bullock privat ie auction 21 day stand still price poorer sell via auction defra will allow trade auction farm standstil dead in24hr minim risk put everyon back tue 26th went first visit anoth restock farm 4 month wait well visit new zealand made sandston plaqu 3ft 4 ft carv date went fmd number cattl almost head stone type memori cow digest problem right displac abomasum rda probabl due transit chang diet wed 27th small anim day tri get everyth organis go away finalis advert vet record new assist lot advert applic local practic advertis taker hope shortag lack confid area defra havent paid us lot visit need sort record visit e lost claim form mountain paper work will pay origin duplic will probabl pay well well organis realli slip back old way paper chase frustrat without within palpabl just quit will civil servant remov unless thing chang secretari fmd fund comput cours dig paper work will wait thur 28th demob happi just test read 10 day test clear busi locum came look around see sa sever day week help think will help good friday miss church one boy complet wobbler well just tire end term hope went walk famili friend must learn shoot say littl scrambl mean danger kid fun enjoy weather glorious fell crowd tourism back went sharp edg blencathra kid well holiday sat 6th april came back late boat belfast arriv wigton late grandpar sad see us go think also found us quit tire kid enjoy play squash someth like continu sun 7th april beauti frosti morn went church speaker arriv much ss relief just announc last song sermon think wonder say instead prepar sermon went son s foot ball cup match 10 year old talk refere make sever bad decis includ dubious penalti team northbank crowd well 30 us team big crowd get bit restless robbi sprint wing front dad sent fli one team dad shout ref gave penalti noth least give us foul point ref blew whistl came across thump whole thing descend brawl anoth parent tri restor calm tell everyon walk away follow northbank kid game abandon await fas report carlisl manag sack knighton trade insult prospect buyer carlisl futur footbal carlisl look good mon 8th last day sort vcf magazin get date paper work etc carrock fell see anoth walker sunni cold beauti night went crusad area meet tri get one arrang area event kid support group structur one time fund appoint post went around circl larg degre meet decid tri rais fund tue 9th feel like hand notic today aw go back respons advert new vet now stand 2 student yet qualifi harri give grief fact defra promis test cattl prior turn e end march havent told us help alloc even come useless one farm half restock parlour yet restor heifer calv milk dump bucket throw milk away cant get stock wait test brucellosi heifer farm french heifer went want bring direct farm let bring heifer farm paper work allow multipl drop off idiot high level frustrat complet overload good start back tomorrow must see hide tray never chanc look today wed 10th quieter day manag catch paper work lot next week map feel control night work seem eas fewer lamb student seem enjoy time us even though littl time actual teach luxuri time go case take voluntari basi moment lunch higher prioriti educ im selfish brat thur 11th spoke soon chaotic manag workload much fire brigad work easi fire brigad work emerg work need seen urgent ie today now son isnt well tire easili today must make appoint vagu sign fri 12th half day finish yo realli get 3 half day week side wife go away w e finish 3 15 kid want peopl carrier also muck car bad sinc fmd anoth posit contribut fmd made life actual feel moral oblig keep car biohazard ok still need wheeli bin post note bit cardboard excess packag surround medic product seem find way back seat car alway rememb read sunday paper articl car differ peopl drove lie around back seat show person im sure field day car use abl tell farm vet car mile gone clean shini sat 13th april week end thought saturday morn lie unfortun footbal tournament carlisl today 9am start usual get town manag get stapl tri sinc birthday spend birthday money differ men boy size toy wife frequent remind proud owner digit camera question will find time set took back librari book made mistak check librarian say also talk book anoth junior fiction well thought lucki get ever bring fine kid sunk wife keep track came home enjoy good weather fortun team bottom didnt get next round v ask drop son footbal wife gone son said away gruer away girli w e time famili cycl ride kirkbrid coast beauti realli good time came back via wigton suppli desper need tesco shop sunday 14th easi day cook tomorrow wife suppli next week age sinc cook even made scone church video sermon ok differ saw p s back nz will arrang catch incred jet lag must sunday cos everyon church 36 hrs travel wife arriv back week end away capernwray week end sound gone back teenag year midnight feast play trick quit tire pleas earli night mon 15th diari unfortun die point 3 week later go back fill detail rememb probabl bit realli import much go diari remain list togeth tax return small mountain paperwork reason vari one youngest lost temper comput slam mous broke left right bar pointer go now practic manag learnt comput dark age doss assur need mous oper comput enough problem tri get stupid machin want mous forget tri shortcut key arrow new mous bought man assur wife just plug hey presto find driver work blank screen consult hand book tri insert disk tri explor disk tri window disk consult practic manag may gather guru say may need instal driver doesnt work will disk dont mous use tri find instal driver assur dont need mous understand youngest son lost temper stupid machin matur adult can time walk away cool dont feel like tri 24 hour new mous man assur wife just plug hey presto find driver work plug said look driver instal driver work first time tuesday thursday ride light went see ride light christian theatr group perform senior school night extrem funni hard hit point time magazin sketch sort differ thing modern interpret parabl bibl stori sketch ask question societi view thing difficult put word thought provok lot level sat 20th april wed 24th april lost mist time thursday 25th start diari miss 10 day much go spring work chaotic lot problem tri run practic 5 vet plus part time locum instead 7 full time time year said advertis tri get one xmas view fall milk price mean less work defra tast make havent restock gone dairi bring us work say told help ill just keep big mouth shut practic manag say good old day new rota go just make went along year crisi manag now end must nigh health survey apart feel pressur work also manag catch ringworm leg fungal infect cow itchi sore respond treatment will get gps opinion friday 26th april remind next time tri interview busi period embarrass turn late interview chaotic day manag interview frighten well prepar list question hope didnt put disorganis think sandal view will influenti part interview alway take sandal viewpoint show practic spread panoram beneath well sold job final get finish exhaust peopl dinner stay awak sociabl sat 27th april folk dinner last night work flat probabl clever idea didnt fall asleep morn feel like death warm anoth interview morn dont think can make good impress good job look employ rather employ candid kirbi stephen farmer daughter immedi advantag seem fine will offer job question offer job went bed feel ill migrain slept afternoon bed 9pm sad sun 28th feel lot better sleep church af speak alway entertain open slide knighton keep footi carlisl michael knighton hate owner carlisl unit tri get club releg can build hous land destroy club popular anyway second slide grace forgiv went say church failur feel love welcom need god love forgiv realli good entertain make real point spent time garden play footi boy mon 29th monday morn sink feel help wife teach 3 day week truste meet borderlin mean addit pressur run around morn work amount holiday owe conclus will employ owe 46 day holiday can take 2 month plus sabbat owe mean take 5 month wish happen 5 vet owe 200 day us will almost vet year health diari mention visit doctor half hour wait past appoint time fizz know make time later even final saw doc agre diagnosi agre treatment occup hazard farm work ring worm take scrape tuesday test next door alway end work pen railway middl stream build pen dri land away train dont know suppos alway done way first know train thunder goe head startl cow jump send muddi slurri fli everywher william still wear helmet quad bike drive around despit father protest neighbour way brain damag come wed 1st may mayday radio predict riot pari le pen anti globalist london feel real peac turn month funni differ month can make feel differ april alway worst month work lot routin work dehorn test lot lamb calv emerg even though begin may just alway feel pass peak can cruis summer fact accept job will cover help though will start summer thursday 2nd may spite yesterday predict wasnt troubl pari london cyclist caus traffic jam media report bad news good news havent seen anyth beyond cumberland news farm restock stop beckfoot round sat sunshin beach 10 min thought life though talk one neighbour one farmer real problem get motiv milk ayrshir realli quiet cow anyth idea get excit turn time move fast ambl spring pastur bought realli wild suckler limousin xs look wrong way put tail air take dehorn lost one jump gate anoth put tail air took stop came block wall end yard unfortun didnt stop fast enough crash headlong now definit tilt wall isnt hot either think look like wouldnt keen get bed either friday 3rd may spoke earli thing eas 2 bad calv caesarean test plus usual ill anim got finish 5 45 took wife dinner cockatoo cockermouth pleasant want go socialis 10pm want home bed sat 4th may yippe took kid nichol end went cano lake got absolut frozen realli good fun rain spite good weather forecast style cano alway soak anyway picnic one island fun came back slept afternoon taken boy see fa cup happi play around watch ghandi dvd night move film ambigu polit came mute extent interest often make wonder much govt polici person driven inabl individu fight system came front page time morn toddler die post op haemorrhag follow use dispos instrument tonsillectomi larg amount money spent dispos instrument alway inferior good qualiti surgic kit sever peopl die use one want take small theoret risk may transfer nvcjd approach risk manag prioritis within govern civil servic poor fait press help like see prescott stand say want death railway never will less money spent safeti railway train conveni time run lower cost fewer death road one hold politician respons death road aint gonna happen sun 5th may church dn brilliant get kid involv son s face lit walk church see walk botcherg guitar hand skin cast snake base song kid talk new creation cor 5 vs 17 get rid old self henc snake skin brilliant guitar real perform wast tax inspector mon 6th may mayb get kid soak frozen sat good idea come cold now tim chesti night hot wheezi infect alway goe chest helvellyn will wait anoth day concret post pressur wash yard boy love help demand play footbal payment ag dad drop caravan away w e p call manchest en rout thailand hand notic go book summer holiday franc now work way back tue 7th may went test realli kid bug feel hot feverish went bed rest day wed 8th didnt feel like get bed went work first deer rta suppos meet polic car polic either car policeman glad wasnt controversi import taken detail hope end afternoon spent chase stirk around field abbeytown dehorn done time last year nt fmd theyr now 2 yr old mean realli big go around upset two went dyke one way went side one garden abbeytown road bit rodeo end charg m hurt shoulder tri escap happi morn got letter ask cut back milk product joke ask winter farmer will given christma long term look good least will 2 new graduat train cope upturn come thur 9th day unfortun spent morn shop carlisl meant wander around shop tri find cloth need daughter dress sens leav lot desir keep right met gb anoth carlisl vet good havent seen bit lunch nice though also got bit tenni net will abl get annoy bit got park ticket sent blood pressur now know often park pay wrong place just live danger carlisl decid go lunch reason wife s car usual chang car well usual money blame know never chang car enough 2 hour pocket honest opinion quit long enough carlisl shop way lunch made special trip back car park arm coin readi pay citi council extortion fee spend money carlisl citi shop first machin refus coin even tri 2nd machin also refus accept hard earn cash left note say machin work windscreen yes guess came back find traffic warden give ticket justifi action say w ere 4 machin bought ticket grrrrhhh fri 10th finish anoth week tb test lot cow netherland mris meus rhine issel good beefi look dairi cow dual purpos test dont know keep page st happi test prior export holland want test farmer bio secur conscious land singl block now bound road arabl cultiv cattl insist test result prior purchas spite good sens still go miss vial porton paranoid conspiraci theori spread fmd part cold flu feel though thing get back track can look next 12 month confid thereaft depend whether wto win eu get rid subsidi whether maintain food suppli within eu seen import one thing fmd taught never know will come next feel guilti say train crash see crash news today potter bar sat 11th may work w e saw anoth calf ccn caus defici b1 usual rare seem much preval year due old grass pastur dont know greyhound client bring greyhound behalf one els chase practic non payment stress half hour negoti irat idiot paid old bill stump front new one seem placat treat anim easi spent afternoon garden fix tenni nat given old second hand net fix concret good fun play kid concret level lot loos stone bounc bit errat went 50th birthday parti teas work maintain friend children 20 s good craic food brilliant one partner lawyer carlisl complain hour rate charg 185 consequ couldnt attract good lawyer firm citi firm offer far greater salari charg junior 200 couldnt admit hour rate 45 think 45 hour lot money 9 5 lawyer sunday went church nl still half asleep late night spent afternoon even call ok till midnight call decid lawyer probabl much better idea monday 13th half asleep w e took littl get go kept week bit quieter lot last minut dehorn castrat hasnt come realli quieter offic work tri work two comput system balanc account tire sore head worthwhil prefer sort rota came home sat read tintin much wife disgust also look cash flow predict total line usual take pessimist view err side caution total fortun right way partner think wast time effort tri predict much bill farmer go pay month pay everi month pay everi now either time money account vat man need book suppos right care long pay also final caught gp ringworm still get better final antifung farmer couldnt get hold vet pretti quick discuss what go give us earach tuesday 14th halfway may time get rest plant done garden beauti weather feel like summer gg visit trade standard bull given certif fit travel now slaughterhous within hour drive cattl ulverston nearest anim fit transport aliv reason eg lame blind etc shot farm carcas transport slaughterhous howev new meat hygien regul 2 3 year ago carcas arriv within hour shot fine black brow oper slaughterhous sinc close option anim shot farm unless put freezer consumpt thus wherea borderlin case shot farm carcas transport now pressur get transport aliv farmer lose valu anim 500 600 pay 75 get shot dispos sooner either carlisl slaughterhous black brow slaughterhous get work better wed 15th day spent morn catch paper work feel better never favourit job bit piec place tax return just wait final piec paper wrote caustic letter council park ticket sent chequ worth fight went front art galleri lunch one made set peat ring golden bowl centr want hundr pound art creation dont ask dont get spent afternoon run kid wife take town hair cut girl time last footbal match northbank son lost thursday 16th long lunch back wasnt much happen vet wise still lamb today season drag one restock farmer today ewe lamb 200 sheep suppos fatten market 20 lamb guy bought adam never near tup someon need tell bird bee also good slight apocryph stori defra licens need licenc move bull licens depart ask bull go use breed purpos yes farmer repli will anim come contact anim friday 17th anoth tb test anoth restock farm stori best one fact cattl lain week pastur field shot decid plough barley back end spent summer pressur wash farm build gleam state steril anim lain still obvious contamin blood etc plough fail build speck dirt defra just interest contamin blood stain earth also phone day arriv send one arrang tb test chao continu sat 18th may best man friend around last night news get marri wed everi month next 4 month must someth water moment unfortun meant realli late night celebr work w e get saturday morn surgeri bit grim surviv anim worri thing sure drs just spent afternoon play footbal tenni kid yard mow grass farmer now silag road full tractor fli around time night day sat even went wife hear sa speak kds good see clare visit bombay height fmd alway put thing back perspect run mission hospit thane outskirt bombay self fund charg rich luxuri servic long way behind nhs provid basic servic foc averag indian now talk tri rais fund build aid hospic provid pain relief digniti die aid stigma cost risk cross infect hiv tb lot aid patient just thrown home hiv ve babi abandon say epidem sweep bombay will leav lot orphan caus secondari epidem immuno suppress realli address thought provok make million wast fmd look sick global perspect sun miss church morn see cat dog surgeri drip calf larg anim bay spent afternoon visit work play make grumpi boy 2 w es row good mon aw wors mood least work w e wind everi one attitud sthg will address will partnership decis wife interview fc tonight christian viewpoint carlisl came back full good peopl interview also challeng f say import treat peopl love valu god way similar s valu aid patient valu god tuesday miss gym 3rd week go get realli unfit duti spent time talk folk work valu nice came alway like call never seem know what go mind still water run deep wed dad phone decid come w e away w e famili reunion look like will just famili ps kid love meet cousin even will doubt complain girl cousin girl wife s side famili mine bit worri lose confid anyth outsid normal routin time like realis london realli close problem work mani w es doesnt give much time travel see thursday g away cours yesterday came back full doom gloom along time reli drug sale substanti part busi various govern report queri monopoli move insist provid prescript drug allow farmer pet owner buy drug whatev sourc want internet pharmaci us mean howev profession fee will inevit rise compens mean will uneconom farmer use us will present econom climat mean job carlisl brampton dalston vet start write prescript mean go follow suit farmer rent field silag tonight got back hous group find tractor follow start row day decid take gate hing narrow gap time night clunk pillar ok dont want replac wooden gate just start pick went bed 11pm idea time finish friday g ill help look though might miss w e away work w e fact meant 3 w es row 6 night row manag help persuad one assist step thank finish lunch time slept catch call kid came home school set w e saturday 25th may dovedal derbyshir peak district definit w es away work great time cousin stay farmhous b b use work farm high small sustain dairi went 3 yrs ago beef sheep make money concentr tourism grass let field neighbour now rent land farm beauti walk along valley tea relax slept like log sunday great british summer make wonder one want go abroad wet cold went water world watch kid big littl go fli around flume good catch brother famili boy play footi day long happi monday catch breath tidi flat tenant arriv thursday spent day tri reduc weed garden went swim night boy still want play footi get energi bottl make fortun tuesday felt like hard work go back work time alway seem tire head achi seem hard work get go ai just dont feel like anyth includ write diari good news new boot banti berti cockerel now ensconc run hope get young ladi distant futur cute moon wed get go spent time talk wife alway put thing back line communic went pregnanc diagnosi earli morn farmer complain cost vet bill want learn check cow see calf prior dri whole econom dairi practic milk 13p per litr begin hit home nice start realis make money one vet realli bad form week caus lot friction will deal staff arm least tomorrow prior work jubile w e mother law arriv kid love complet special treat snowbal went dinner mother law tire enjoy due earli morn caesarean thursday spent morn get flat readi new tenant move clear girl went shop dri weather intermitt heavi shower tackl long grass front grass got wet clog mower pick kid father bit went bed earli head achi wash caught zzzzs friday start jubile w e duti next 5 day 5pm wed even work busi bit piec farmer complain wet silag one vet issu pet export certif cat come back uk put 2 year one valid 2 year dog 1 year cat typic friday afternoon problem sort help line close train maff offic close bh w e dont think way around either will abl sort till wed day due ferri tuesday oop also bitch owner came ask open tue due date will probabl need caesaer johnboy call even want go loyal support meet carlisl unit spi im call couldnt oblig thank good sat 1st june offic staff ask 2 vet whole w e begin feel split staff least other will get break come back refresh feel like look barrel gun horrend calv heifer calf mistak father suppos gone back breeder buyer still tie twenti day rule calf die gass end caesaer spite rotten calf 2 hour hard work heifer will best ill sever day sun 2nd june day footbal went church made quick exit watch footbal everyon els quit disappoint hebron night dm goal reaction big screen link roman 12 therefor urg offer bodi live sacrific act spiritu worship talk worship god everyth includ react english footbal team perform clever memor way expound bibl went straight son s footbal present quit fun real footbal sub cultur amateur footbal club carlisl vy top spot old pal network animos seem preval mon 3rd june busi night earli start 2 x prolaps alway bh second one wild limousin heifer charg sent fli injuri sore fist thump eye tri deflect tri get away gave fright heifer bred couldnt sell store last year restrict chat farmer start get 4 30 fmd couldnt sleep still now still got sheep cant face lost sheep cull kept cattl start admir view said yeah great apart damn windmil brilliant view look solway great orton site windmil remind everyon els flock big pit say can still see go feel guilti didnt heart tell 10000 blood sampl taken gt orton 2 posit big mistak caus big hurt area one admit respons one ever will tue 4th june watch jubile stuff tv call amaz sight see mall full peopl ever yet rupert murdoch press us believ monarchi finish manag cope just two us call may right also made start byre remind next time dinner parti bh work poor wife 4 kid dinner prepar call cow caesar 3 30 anoth call fortun taken tim one less fight got back told bath help smelt even realli good fun hilari funni even kept go wrong side midnight earli start pretti good go will get phil senat home skit wed wed 5th june feel like get felt even less like go work manag extric us problem cat passport give defra system expect richard suspect fmd calf tuesday wonder bit jitteri spoke later even though know probabl isnt go case farmer panick still set butterfli fli bvd spent hour half morn phone sort aw call rubbish queri help friend sort licens drug repeat prescript one woman complain neighbour practic requir bit tact think drs must busi us talli celebr 1 ill flu bad back one wrist sprain scooter race street parti kid gone bed one spent w e visit boyfriend hospit said need go friday doctor put w e wors sunday wait till footbal ring prioriti prioriti thursday went hous group realli good spent time pray group church area world situat friend tri work india teach board school south india famili also school kid think consensus foreign offic advic aim indian pakistani govt uk nation ian suppos visit flight book still go moment realli cant believ escal situat will tit tat go brink neither will want break face ramif sept 11th still keep reverber around world balanc power alter make fmd look like picnic least stabl govt say abid law friday secretari ask morn want mean tea coffe repli pray wisdom 2 sugar difficult partner meet lunch time poor time prioriti england play assum lose meet went well issu discuss amic enough frank enough know issu address jame say ask wisdom also put action night leant fenc talk neighbour thistl suppos cut carri grow nice even work stl christian book distributor say fire just arriv time seem disast caus chao made make decis made rather continu status quo hind sight good thing wonder look back whether chang opportun fmd will make us appreci decis make made think woman came today say one lucki one didnt get fmd much tongu cheek much wors gave job couldnt sell calv born one look went back home work farm job cours fill mean time made lot money less hassl stay sat 8th june finish long period work call sat morn came heavi shower hope climb helvellyn today eas night just well go bbq put s african vet defra now work longtown last time drove charli ruth host bbq pyre burn gave funni feel drive back food good craic good good time kid kept go begin get high midg get north border definit wors lump morn sun 9th sb spoke church jesus heal blind man pool siloam easi follow friend call stay tea usual blunt controversi ever alway good insight dress take thing extrem also funni good meal son high kite go camp school week kit readi go settl go sleep kept boy awak mon 10th pour time school camp borrowdal never mind theyll enjoy way 3 farm silag pit burst grass put wet silag made grass wet flow slowli support weight burst side wall will flow heap put plenti effluent come will usual escap normal collect system get beck wors slurri hunter stream black effluent environ agenc test water qualiti will high jump contractor far behind grass get long bulki doesnt dri quick may well least farmer will warn will fault school kid back work experi week must hard follow go seem enjoy selv worksheet definit help give structur feel go crusad meet night pretti disappoint respons lot can tue 11th june workload set im just cruis manag get gym first feel full energi feel full energi expend spent half hour net tri get holiday organis find place 6 easi weather better son camp better w e mean will hope quiet work go field wed 12th call night first time sinc finish defra call night summer truli call just half time 815 break got see second half england drew 0 0 t o next round caught paper work sort lot thing place 2 new vet thur 13th meet bank manag execut lunch sandwich bell ask new normal seem excel phrase seem happi enough alway interest see outsid view inform given problem usual know question ask think probabl seem happi enough alway interest see outsid view inform given problem usual know question ask think probabl true inquiri fmd unless know question will get right answer went abseil sandal hous group church bbq nicer wind hadnt howl gone prepar british summer weather still pretti nippi great fun fri read anoth test ir s tb inconclus will retest 60 day write paper work farmer wife say kid school nurseri hand foot mouth taken youngest ill middl kid doctor doctor said middl kid burst tear thought go take babi brother outsid shoot funni also sad farmer realli fed cow suppos tb test prior arriv farm also let long 5 acr field water trough far end field half cow found trough thirsti time came back milk time idea just go replac cow just like quit case sat 15th june saturday morn spent garden strawberri come even though gooseberri arent quit ripe pick start harvest one strawberri reddish went visit friend wide screen tv footbal match one expect english progress lad surpris play stormer game brazil will becom match practic bbq wateri june sunshin good fun ground wet play silli game even footi food excel aw notabl absenc hey ho bbq need revamp mayb abseil though dont think can see either r aw go show s around flat met parent remind wise kid sun felt tire ill wash slow switch busi day yesterday week watch ireland match close spent rest day sleep just chill mon went test k td realli nice lad hot academ front good fun good form hope get low new vet yes young free singl far know piti chanc spent lazi day sun gentl pace quit enjoy caught paperwork night feel mellow tuesday mani os one call cancel one still want call one went wrong o make mad dash pour oil water explain late oop test quiet day wife also quiet day suppos group go retreat day speaker cancel r went well exhaust give day met lad night didnt get gym go calv schistasoma yuk wed tri work go summer holiday doubt will get organis eventu came home earli lunch forgotten coffe morn felt place amongst mani women skip earli went cycl make miss gym first part anni zip around bit good thursday k t r need new suppli littl green form put context prior year 16 year practic 4 rs week anoth farm restrict friday bad hair day england lost och well never mind life richard drummond report svs unprepar yeah say realis svs say 2 year ago pick audit offic report case fmd pig leicest mkt anoth r met jm temporari vet carlisl svs done test alloc most cos arent also cynic chang defra manag etho chang brought messag back test sent back guy old reclus imposs deal resourc respons ensur done sort recalcitr afternoon ran round kid wife report next week must better sat 22nd june wed day d s yippe d best man usher plus 3 other arriv last night realli nice young peopl around forgotten much enjoy young peopl must get old cynic c look boy went town realli nice s stop smile wigton carniv day two pipe band well heard drift vow kilt got mine occas recept tulli hous realli nice relax venu seat opposit friend realli nice catch b d just back anoth wed vancouv realli impress bc door fanat ski mountain whistler realli thing barn look kid night go gap year work book shop realli great celeidh even last 3 danc absolut exhaust didnt realis tire sunday fortun famili servic ie doesnt start 1100 lead young adult group realli fresh good also dont take serious take jesus serious good monday miss swim cos work realli busi crusad meet night rydal good met leader havent met folk work young peopl alway good fun wick sens humour need one youth work youth work give one tuesday diari get fill wed morn reach back car back went tore muscl long time ago often niggl long keep exercis stretch build muscl ok miss swim relev way saw star agoni flat back stretch everi 2 hrs sore saturday 29th june back slowli improv can move around type can stretch ok stiff achi rather spasm work must bad two left go short staf drop noth can new vet call around look flat move month time came mother farm cull fmd late just got herd want breed mum talk go griev period day yes carri get go day bother just much hassl will take long time memori farm communiti fader acknowledg much better get diseas get cooper farmer will even less 17th generat farm whole concept bio secur need look farmer educ diseas spread self impos isol send kid school etc just stupid go flow difficult well defra impos ridicul rule allow leav hous 3 month just view punish impos refus let heft flock cull right old tenant move cottag eddi ruth seem realli enjoy summer holiday work chang good rest say look job noth appeal job wouldnt mind consult doubt anyth will come will wait continu see happen went meal gianni night dad w e sunday p spoke famili focus church encourag alway revel take thing watch brazil beat germani win world cup wet weather kid sort back still sore yuk monday drove first time drop dad carlisl pretti sore time got back dad good form enjoy time get older london go visit regular basi went work paper work answer phone felt better sthg pretti bore couldnt sit still realli get go either came home lay d came around night call absolut hyper go split good even un expect thing brought head fact see one els also marri good situat lad came around night good fun good time tuesday now father teenag bday good see open present morn back eas lot small anim today move freeli still exercis birthday also alway time reflect born year day arriv cumbria 14 year long time futur also look bit uncertain work wise farmer complain price milk anim henc dont want pay bill wed saturday usual diari get miss crisi hit write follow tuesday bring diari entri date wed morn drive wigton done first farm call sinc back lot flash light ambul unmark polic car light go wigton stop lay wigton high st traffic slow see anyth later come back wigton anoth call pass close offic full news pass close stab welshman wigton woman taken hospit wigton man arrest attempt murder got sink feel d around monday say ali boy friend said wife said sure got back work friend arriv unfortun d stori emerg next day forc wife knife point take meet boyfriend attack sort stori paper crime programm polic take statement tri come term usual mild almost submiss person flip realli weird 3 girl now go realli mix father attempt kill mother nice miss leav parti locum work us past month account good saturday 6th juli still shell shock d still believ happen went saturday morn sort car got test list date lot veterinari press futur lvi system futur farm anim practic futur look good short term fine anyth will huge amount work can live fmd capit farmer begin run will serious difficulti econom farm anim practic went brilliant meal realli good even cs husband detect sgt call yet anoth serious incid time night club cockermouth 22 year old newcastl hospit head injuri felt sorri c cook hostess better half sunday church good sg charact god quit funni illustr father thing life espi son quit charact met dc defra vet sa good form anoth locum set finish longtown monday back full swing much happen read test felt lot happier didnt leav dread piec green paper everyth pass farm went though interest note farmer problem back pressur wash amongst stock fine go back push anim around bad back back topic probabl rais fact bad back du call replac d railway can get someth sort perman basi stay 2 year next door railtrack train peopl work believ dave done sthg like usual anyth submiss guy du just got key new hous manchest base now happi post back cumbria hasnt even manag move tuesday work quiet long lunch good get thing done pretti bore look rota check websit report publish 18th juli spent time sort rota book reorganis kit wed day went carlisl bounc wife get hair cut assum expens hairdress get done drag fait accompli least assum expens wont tell much let go tesco said pay wander around book shop carlisl met wife s mum bus vet student usa arriv coupl day jami assum male femal amaz make assumpt read e mail take messag uk 12 wks friend given address wife twin thought better peopl realli necessari hous babi moment got photo e morn friend call around say friend babi couldnt rememb whether boy girl learnt later boy thursday lot j see call see friend new kitten posh beck cat flu busi paint hous tidi wed never seen yard tidi must tell abbi get move mayb will finish build work well 2 calv afternoon final read audit offic report download age ago pretti accur apart nick brown insist go splendid well realli must better work relationship ministri svs vet vet general practic much better communic point never made farm mass dispos plan part iac return order keep fmd peopl mind alreadi disappear part histori histori will repeat nobodi listen anguish delay dispos system friday drop j wigton catch train alway strang student stay hous much part live drop live anoth former student just back sa call good catch way back edinburgh 5 year reunion qualifi 5 year thought 2 three one vet ill meant bit run around today 2 other holiday good busi get adrenalin pump saturday 13th juli work saturday morn day like think great small anim vet consult straight forward chat owner stop think anim 2 owner realli appreci felt good think one thing work defra one appreci ok appreci concern effort way one realli thought good like put pet best one like beauti day today sun shine pick strawberri bar b q realli pleasant brother alway say best thing nz live can plan barb 2 wks time wherea go flow sun 14th first call wander around see ill cow sever lot drug put lot restock farm yet get medicin cabinet back strength colli hit tractor eye knock socket urgh eye give creep mon 15th oper day anaesthet monitor plenti op book health safeti requir us check oper exposur anaesthet gase new system scaveng system light year ahead one use wast time check done wonder mani practic actual never check upon polic man arriv front desk phone head nurs disappear soon saw mark polic car struck suspici book appoint dog left curious know disappear gone check medicin cabinet keep gun danger drug fact lock oper keep open easi access emerg drug gun licenc insist kept lock time immedi access polic offic come check must allow never check upon yet farmer busi field work want even think routin work quiet week tuesday 16th beauti weather raspberri come along nice wife s mum busi make jam mile high pie yum yum partner meet lunchtim alway make depress subject cope chang drug sale price compet irish drug brought illeg got littl forward will hope abl make decis deadlin septemb need look new way bring revenu stream dont think will ness look radic will keep work away wed 17th met lad last night pray craic good chat joke pray twas good appar good time cs lewi convent yet open book stall sell book specialis antiquarian first edit cs lewi one thing internet free communic search realli obscur sorri weather broke today rain came call farmer got routin stuff done good last school kid plagu us past week vet student next least can chat away make effort thur 18th went o farm today restock feb 4 month wait yet tb test ask whether chase like everyon els leav octob hous maff effici rule also test 44 import heifer suppos blood sampl within 7 day calv miss confid either report actual achiev anyth part feel tri contact media tri get push agenda along dont feel achiev much apart stick head parapet much ask copi none arriv yet fri 19th demob happi im holiday 5 30pm will good catch thing done done garden mess get top slowli way glad lli report least will get wound sign week next diari will sat week holiday week begin saturday 20th juli saturday 27th juli week feel lot happier life general night keswick convent amaz set 12000 peopl come togeth 3 week keswick meet bibl teach worship god big tent set back convent centr time arriv alway full late friday even peopl stand outsid kid went youth event thing ezekiel exact easi choic bibl book convey 19 14 yr old realli enjoy wacki game way mix teach song game activ seem most uni student seem get much fun kid brother famili cousin love get togeth even join footbal tenni even though hand eye co ordin best taken run everi day back still right can feel slightest provoc must go swim brother also ask wife diy need real enthusiast give garden time made door one shed put past 6 year start anoth 5 also sail fan hire sail boat went sail great fun kid cano race lake kid swap around went explor island realli good weather help scorch also went wed one close friend son decid go start teach kid etiquett wed groom done better job isnt realli fault young thought thing sun went age servic tent keswick mani kid even mix action song ask kid thing action talk meant lead kept kid involv good see spent afternoon lake realli nice day mon yep real monday morn tray flow 2 rota sort 2 week test tri arrang goodish news ministri final decid put restock farm annual test mean least know stand can plan will mean lot work us bad news oft investig sent us horrif questionnair need fill one partner go got far unfortun need tomorrow forget 2 new vet start settl pick rope quit quick ace call night twice bad calv that end holiday f feel good tuesday sore back calv earli morn forgotten arrang one day today moment weak acquiesc put sale promis auction rais money african children choir promis redeem morn vet put best charm manner mr pr man took tour practic call explain everyth good thing busi spent afternoon consult supervis new vet show rope wed suppos go walk helvellyn torrenti rain put us went carlisl bit piec took kid see stuart littl 2 definit one kid job around home kid like just potter around thursday felt realli stiff sore decid must go swim often just seem get that must make time im work w e 10 day finish fs wed friend kid realli good see dont see often sort friend pick soon meet even havent seen age m left full time teach couldnt cope pressur paper work hassl teach suppli thing well creativ made model hous just sit chat us friday came home lunchtim see kitchen tabl cover draw paint m decid paint day kid draw paint done watercolour hous brilliant holiday two week reflect think summer write diari want put thing think import edit disclos sat 24th aug anoth bank holiday w e work least back new young assist work system new vet senior vet call time first month give hand support mentor sound good practic surpris uncommon start almost day one start august get marri second week septemb boss head oman hors work larg anim vet long term sick get small anim locum look back now left charg farm practic 2 week month qualifi shudder time just got sun 25th calv come thick fast good warm weather made grass spring cow put much weight problem j footbal tournament pirelli miss came back realli tire play sock anoth pts put sleep dog visit assist vet never easiest consult realli well find feet find hard help peopl make euthanasia decis dog feel quit strong anti euthanasia come peopl mon 28th beauti day nice work morn busi afternoon quiet spent lie sun doze bbq night js chat folk know speak interest spoke one farmer daughter told dad just first calf sinc fmd realli happi 2 hold run one manag keep heifer second hold probabl last one area one now calv still blame pyre neighbour spread virus farm tuesday 27th problem day problem store come back today realli hectic finish 6 30 come back belgian blue inspect help surgeri inspect fun gave creep mart inspect mouth brought back bad memori mart ridicul clean last time inspect mouth fmd shoot herd danger contact tri persuad london take neighbour well got finish 2am went cup tea recov mother greet news d next door start shoot realli annoy thing basic hygien enforc yet rule rule made london desk bound defra offici dont implement mart use mini dumper truck clean pen sold truck use put straw sawdust fresh cleans disinfect yard cover muck bio hazard m owner anim inspect put usual tantrum display tri intimid secretari inspector expect found quit amus dont think anoth bbq tonight kid son cook love found new bbqer kid brilliant form enjoy around bake wed 28th anoth tb reactor correspond paper work licens weird oddbal case surgeri spent age tri take histori go dog unwel intermitt histori differ thing look forward see turn whether resolv time vet alway vari j friend parti footbal school blackburn rover morn pass arrang visit prison prison next day went multitud meaningless option end guy sound like came straight porridg amaz intimid tri find way around bureaucraci can sure want go thur 29th feast famin much work day least al 3 caesarean last night run steam 5 oclock afternoon meanwhil small anim tri organis trip london visit dad found web site chitti chitti bang bang london eye madam tussard abl book advanc ticket left half term week children stay hous full excit kid friday 30th busi day sort invit open day 1st oct just chanc get farmer togeth promis one celebr end fmd amaz go list comput mani farm restock list hasnt updat sinc pre fmd dont realli know mani will restock wait end fmd redo death sale move away take list time move sat 31st august last w e summer holiday bbq lunch time borderlin promis take boy camp bowscal tarn beauti realli cold weather ok sat sunday glorious boy waken first light climb top sun still rise one magic moment wonder boy excit full energi happi dad enjoy life time treasur sun come top bowscal tarn went visit friend vet longtown just set small anim practic north carlisl twin now 4 week old wonder alway sthg special wee babi element two mother mon good weather continu still quiet vet student arriv went blood sampl sheep maedi visna farmer import sell sheep bit dealer dad granddad 4 hold number make mockeri licens system know lot breeder dealer yorkshir defra even wors one whole licens system alleg ignor everyon offic tri work go go xmas parti now septemb tuesday friend last day work tomorrow wed girl spent afternoon print poster thing decor car goe tomorrow even farmer phone book tb test nov dec know will busi make life lot easier sent note invit open day good respons will start get busi test next week wed day spent morn fix shower drainag suffer one mani footbal kick problem broken part also metric imperi convert one end 40mm 43mm discov need meant trip carlisl nowher wigton got codg plenti silicon afternoon spent go visit prison friend stab wife boyfriend wigton current resid majesti pleasur durham prison dishearten experi organis take time work go need get hoop went one part prison anoth backward forward staff friend help fix station sent one area anoth secur although expect natur still come bit shock photograph issu barcod get put belong locker allow cours realis need id passport get bar code kept show entranc need bar code sent back put locker prison ok still find hard think futur includ wife even though divorc paper file done pretti nasti thing boyfriend plead guilti expect go good year whole visitor area charg emot peopl come see brother husband lover lot girl young children come see dad felt sad kid grow dad stigma dad jail kid written realist wife anti unlik keep long term best go support worst go tri dissuad quit upset also abl sort thing see hous sold lot build work etc emot attach real closur emot problem like even releas car still car loan remov pound doesnt know drove back a66 thought thank famili freedom phone went remind call forgotten fortun call take quit get barnard castl wigton oop thursday first isol pen inspect complet non sens field 50 m livestock london probabl sound fine scotland plenti wood crop cumbria main crop grass field graze time year easi form horrend box fill grey make easi know box fill obvious look realli good comput screen london photocopi write black ink make whole thing illeg that problem common sens come friday 6th septemb colleagu wed one vet practic marri today parish church wigton wed famili kilt 200 wed recept grennhil hotel bride uncl director theme english rode scottish thistl flower red rose arrang thistl beauti bride quick add ceilidh afterward firework display sever neighbour farmer complain next day danc talk night away till 2 get next day bit pain morn surgeri urgh sat 7th septemb whenev quiet day one reason anoth alway busiest manag keep go day calv ill anim still recov late night wed day bit wash realli sunday milk fever 7 finish miss church went hear sc wigton even head oasi trust much radic believ put faith action challeng isiah 58 true fast god want spend self behalf poor spirit wife went hear new bishop carlisl speak hebron reach local church seem see outsid tradit denomin boundari realli encourag monday crusad meet rydal crusad youth group organis area plan group money given legaci support one full time train leader organis area event w e away joint activ good meant rush long day still feel knacker w e tuesday almost speechless today great era decentralis hit defra wish rang still confirm appoint 2 new vet enabl defra work use happen went train session chat dvm carlisl appoint arriv 2 day later guess paper work sent page st london now got back yet wed 11 09 02 funni anniversari effect other just start back practic hijack crash pentagon twin tower feel bruis batter major confront defra work psycholog problem threaten sidelin yet want keep integr react blow peopl water 9 11 bomber made realis fragil peac fragil peopl import lose sight import thing life tri keep thing perspect peopl import friend famili cant fight civil servic mental problem mine rememb see one teacher husband walk kid school went pick look slump deject learn son new york reach 2 day later heard visit twin tower day taken photo top suppos go back tower morn got late time friend set tower hit impact number peopl either visit tower world make potent symbol worldwid reson sister work sever year ago anniversari brought lot back surfac thought past mere hidden thursday first last night 2nd tonight start earli finish late run steam friday one farmer wive came today wormer chicken gape worm paid last month bill cash well wormer 876 inc vat work away farm 2 day week husband full time job got went fmdi ask father law 65 lost farm quit right quiet still anim back grass let funni said whoosh life take complet chang never know what go happen next sat 14th septemb work rest w e hooray sunday monday son s footi tuesday partnership meet lunchtim sore head end day lot good decis made feel though re move forward wed work w e caught paperwork stuff home went carlisl go shop lot bit piec new bathroom thursday dvm call updat us wast time forgotten annoy man real career civil servant bureaucrat forgotten real life ever knew one vet around tea back spent even play take two fun friday bad day offic dear oh dear oh dear day great start head iselg see lame bull give certif still suffer financi emot scar fmd mind alway odd talk isol hard break get back thing also hope retir 50 bse hit decid keep incom jan octob last year mind usual sell store way day take turn wors sort umpteen decis practic manag organis issu said wasnt easi just vet fatal mistak next dog seen odd ball woken morn perfect ok til growl tis owner decid leav hour went get bed flew put meant rang brought vet chang behaviour meant put kennel left went examin growl flap ear bit bar dog pain fear will growl let know happi one meant go tri get examin use dog catcher muzzl mean left settl lunch wors final got sedat temp 104 inject mm case enceph rage 3 vet look um er decid get maff vet look just check wasnt rabi forgotten none clinic abl handl anim bit joke histori contact abroad left aliv time stress handl dam thing worri rabid consequ tire wash tonight tomorrow anoth day week 27 sat 28th septemb saturday tell light end tunnel moment definit feel isnt taken time next week catch thing need sort home suppos put new bathroom need get stuff order guy can fit never know may includ diari sunday wife counsel cours w e ma run around kid yesterday spent watch boy plat footbal run friend son 2 friend come camp last night littl tire side weather warm sunni real indian summer autumn raspberri usual delici quit spars huge plenti well definit teen age daughter first time phone call late even carlisl ask pick lift home work fortun church youth group sign thing come youth group took church servic tonight realli good look world pressur young peopl respond christian appli faith situat challeng monday open night tomorrow night doesnt seem organis yet pigeon made resolut get work u thing respons just leav 2 new vet begin realli pull weight great colleagu back honeymoon brown jet lag spent time beach safari great time nurs head far blue yonder one nurs gone nz month will strang nurs just back state anoth vet go caribbean 2 week get itchi feet time travel least india new year tuesday year end oct 1st stock take includ muck car thought quit normal take wheeli bin car just hoy content neighbour saw one rare occas happen burst laugh found quit amus bit taken back time alway assum normal open day ok wife juggl thing bit call late finish fetch son footbal practic shift tuesday dark night owe friend bottl wine turn half hour late pick boiler man arriv 7pm fix boiler blow fuse need lesson time manag sever interest convers fmd amus one toni blair arrang bust union anniversari fmd break finish keep news farmer said govt respons countrysid allianc march fact reduc sparsiti factor alloc central fund local author mean lower popul densiti therefor higher perceiv cost provid servic go downgrad farmer opinion take money countrysid town dont march govt will kick hurt subtl way one probabl relev group discuss admit fuell intak free alcohol sever say year harder cope last crisi adrenalin keep go toll last year begin tell nerv two still court threat trade standard defra compli regul will opinion result anyth pretti piss put mild also real antagon test ministri cross fire defra vet decid done yet one tri arrang get test done pay us spend fair chunk time organis actual get job done real problem organis test one common graze 14 farmer anim biosecur joke anim common graze 14 other tri get 2 farmer agre date method differ idea want co ll just wind cattl well never catch wed day caught garden sleep thursday realli enjoy crack today just right amount work banter good day laughter fun infecti friday meal night great 8 30 start tomorrow sat go good octob young colleagu brother kill accid m write retrospect see follow difficult month unabl keep diari saturday 5th octob smallest thing sudden life chang sudden look back see now phone call ten five one young vet father father ask speak georg strang receptionist came found quizzic look say want speak young vet answer phone said bad news brother kill traffic accid tell bad news sort consequ got initi shock wife drove parent home car partner away short staf young vet will obvious back time like alway grate can go back god trust even though understand anyth know can trust god jan 2003 write retrospect octob 2002 month diari miss death vet brother onward alway meant go back fill day miss never made time effort found time difficult parent sister law cope know funer kirbi pleas went sad see one prime life much offer cut random way cumbrian farm gather red face craggi farmer yet friend famili sang wed black american gospel singer global villag world wide famili church take pick death one young alway make consid mortal make think will death bed wish made differ choic next month busi stress probabl time use studi thought reaction life stress suppos certain extent close someth go automat pilot urgent leav thing peripheri kill drive tractor back test cattl american bvd bought pedigre world class dairi cattl includ sibl embryo american bvd ministri keen make sure establish within uk henc reason blood sampl know look histori say cattl cull blood sampl reason road day time linkag way go may go feed stock accid anoth way rippl action continu reverber around least head saturday 12th octob m write retrospect first thought diagnos first fmd case week complet stress level want transcrib first thought fmd written hotel newcastl 2am diagnos first case wife dear wife dont know write hope see tomorrow suppos need record feel besid sleep elud today beauti day winter sunshin warm sunshin speak spring come frost snow clear white pure great day walk hill sunday afternoon enjoy god wonder creation fallen world walker ministri man dispos boiler suit waterproof jacket trouser farmer heavi heart go field check inspect pregnant ewe herd corner catch examin feet ok mouth ok smile clue sad man heart slight acrid smell waft now wind smell neighbour futur burn anoth ministri man pyre 2 oclock morn write sleep ministri man examin cow blister mouth blister tongu temp 105f sorri say theyll go manag say fight back tear lab confirm yes repli farm vet 15 year experi allow say foot mouth diseas suspect anonym telephon answer london make stupid comment stupid question take sampl cow grab tongu pull take sampl skin tongu cow tongu come hand tri sick place sampl bottl go farmhous tear tear feel like cri wouldnt job b tea china say volunt tvi big dept jargon dont speak yet temporari veterinari inspector start 3 day ago clean vet contact foot mouth diseas volunt general practic second use pawn battl fmd man ministri leav dirti vet doubl disinfect sampl heavi heart take dispos boiler suit put shoe man ministri hey lad nobodi know anyon els like say farmer seen see live mother sinc father die hand run farm wife mother law tri share hous kitchen convert barn hous builder told stay away week ago case brought diseas onto farm tomorrow will told stay away will incom least 6 month fill form never seen initi jargon ive never heard phone sister pick prescript anti depress doctor said go stress worri foot mouth well hasnt eaten will sleep tonight anxious will get rest man ministri well 2am write far home volunt tvi pawn bigger game 5 day dirti can rejoin life back normal back home job futur farm coupl 5 day shoot burn disinfect digger six month quarantin futur farm mayb mayb stori abound three generat wait men ministri grandfath will see farm restock stress much alreadi dodgi heart countrysid sieg pawn lost win greater gain work long hour sacrific pawn one arrog stupid lazi couldnt bother heat swill fed pig couldnt keep rule made happen intens vs extens organ vs agribusi sheep vs goat will sort saturday 2nd novemb start write diari break week hope go back fill time permit today forward look work w e young vet aw sat calv morn 4am littl tire side hope quiet rest w e surgeri spent afternoon tri fix sidelight front went 18monht ago show well keep maintainc hous back one went recent real pain cant see way car night concern get fix old light just rust can longer replac bulb ladder re wire new light went unfortun call yes suppos tri much dont tri dont succeed down tool went calv cow came back find neighbour plus 4 children kitchen stop cup tea head back ladder now wife maintain notic light point like point also notic move furnitur hair cut even spring clean hous often berat lack notic sort thing yes notic didnt focuss tri usual ladder went connect light know wife switch electr back yes top ladder grab wire spent seem aw long time tri let go stay ladder electr current shock light get fix go back ladder now shock ho hum sun finish light everi one pick sleep went church wigton pm speak parabl 10 bridesmaid good never understood obvious relat cultur thing happen wed jesus day point wise one wait return bridegroom oil lamp concept holi spirit meant meet bridegroom e christ sure idea entir right sinc big leap oil holi spirit interest still think cultur thing obvious origin listen just dont clue ali andi call around even realli good see use vet left sever year ago look long last go look settl quit depress la vet practic though now 100 small anim bias activ look take tb test vet area vet drop farm practic uneconom much govt want farm vet around least low cost area least compet small anim practic abl offer larg wage assist vet look set buy practic settl obvious look get marri will anoth wed go invit lbs final marri p follow around world last 2 year disast disast humanitarian relief work vet student mon monday monday tell dont like monday young vet exhaust everyth catch go take end week joiner final arriv put window real problem writh old one taken half sand stone will reconcret builder job ie go bathroom still piec 8 day suppos take now third week work bedlam queu op morn hate oper morn drain concentr offic staff keep come queri urgh got anoth stupid letter planner quibbl list build consent tri get window fit speak start ball roll august wonder countri go dog tuesday calm bit fill visa form holiday india great legaci british bureaucraci aliv well want know mother place birth maiden name 2 week holiday civil servant miss gym cos surgeri went went farm ask lot question tb reactor ministri test hadnt bother tell us mushroom farmer son process plan next year footbal team wed went farm today complain get cow restock herd back calf seem ongo problem lot restock whole herd reduc fertil herd interest studi see figur compar non restock herd thursday count day work continu hectic vet lost brother make whole pack card enough vet cover fall think just tire busi long plan staf level usual cautious rather mani vet around make money thought stretch employ 2 new grad instead one also just pressur time day cruis went chris swift vcf veterinari christian fellowship realli good usual f tell us thanksgiv servic just held barnard castl also just got engag may curb wander explor mountain just back antarctica current research phd durham barnard castl practic seem well organis also flexibl work 3 day week spend 2 day durham phd realli good speak friend vet brother paul accid take blood spent quit pray thing friday bad day phone call planner say go allow doubl glaze want glaze bar 10mm 20mm 10mm glaze bar spot ministri london decid go train lay tb tester work go go lvis us now look lot work carlisl defra conjunct london decid go want restock herd test annual everi anim test just adult breed stock look drop 1 2 vet 10 day ago now go look employ extra staff can get hold suppos plan futur depend whim defra offici saturday 9th novemb went school pta pub quiz last night rugbi club good fun struggl stay awak dredg infotain trivia previous year funni question chosen reflect peopl ask stuck memori chosen nick jane across newcastl stay night work defra across face faceless loneli hotel consequ complet zonk sat morn just went around hous grumpi went watch son play footbal thrash yewdal counti cup good fresh air came back sleep head roy christiana en famill pick fraser wigton son just start see girl wigton 14 amus embarrass talk leav kid age leav look younger one christiana told us left three boy hour half older two got fed youngest annoy hung jogger post bottom stair middl one said serious fault torn trouser hadnt tri escap trouser fine even now consid wrongdo rip trouser fact hung sun went church morn fit remembr sunday repent god love daniel prayer daniel 9 fit lunch footbal crash bed exhaust mon tim away first time school outward bound week south keswick excit go think wife littl put think miss home hey ho sign secur root suppos met math teacher discuss math lot fro teacher much communic home went see say left status quo first call today farmer just hospit appendix remov append seen cow said havent vet good stocksman action relief milker hadnt notic twist uterus tri calv seen friday sort now late send sad agricultur industri lose lot experi lot stocksmanship handl general expertis sthg can replac see twist womb transport fight amongst restock herd sad thing said never restock taken money let go just much hassl paper work train cow just hous cattl fight come parlour get milk just make life difficult real disillusion around moment also gear milk cow stay still 300 tuesday great european market combin defra inflex caus problem dutch heifer import replac fmd loss uniqu identifi number ear tag everyon know far good also nl rather uk mean know holland problem small check digit end mean dutch comput can recognis ear tag valid one misread uk tag check digit front number use help rule misread transcrib ear tag howev defra comput doesnt recognis number ask retest heifer still outstand record ear tag number untest extra digit enter uk system number stand test drop will abl keep level test alloc arriv today manag get bit sort leav 5 30 day stand thing stuff account end year suppos 18th oct hey ho wed taken day tri paint window new bathroom put planner phone queri window told alreadi went like lead balloon come tell also start queri window 95 problem day get head achey feel wash ill adrenalin stop seem crash thursday met charli longtown vet lunch great practic carlisl start go well main road scotland look realli good get lot custom just look part time vet start morn friday repaint bathroom wall discov use 2 differ shade green one ming grey ming blue just open one thought differ one dri still wet ooop plumber problem electr get light work fuse just glad shower well get rather smelli now went watch chang lane cinema rather thought slow unbeliev set nice escap hour two saturday novemb 16th work feel better day even bathroom isnt finish get bit saga oh well never mind sat morn surgeri busi sever farm call afterward amount stock around cost effect veterinari time incred amount clinic work dan sheep ai vet locum us occas phone want alison phone number cours sat night technician ill 250 swale ai tomorrow hope find one sheep ai embryo technician busi peopl tri build pedigre herd flock breed top qualiti sun busi call paint door bathroom son paint window messi enjoy will give confid tri patienc practic went church even rob whitak princip capernwray bibl colleg preach anim relev talk feed 5000 jesus compass just circumst jesus time use discipl appli us church general espi compass challeng went meet lad spent time pray phil pretti job effect self worth didnt help fraser brand new merc sit side hous mon hit maelstrom run tray flow still noth togeth year end account push practic manag start oper haunt everi 20 min op keep task problem mani thing go moment non urgent keep disappear tomorrow new drug discount system work generat lot interest hope will cut black market luck increas turn will make margin usual problem solv smooth 2nd opinion sort 20 day rule stop one local cattl dealer buy sell say paperwork run 5 hold number horrend ken ann call around realli good see lime spread busi realli busi fmd lime land go use barley crop rather grass lot stone build work new pathway lon wherea farmer happi move cattl via road tri reduc movement along road put track cow tuesday trace check tb cattl bought farm tb sinc confirm paperwork go ear tag dont correl go problem rota nightmar moment everyon organis ski trip go 1 2 vet jan feb took first box load paperwork account old fashion back stair comput sight type fella wili old fox much look manag keep taxman happi back probabl import financi year doesnt look bad doesnt allow number day holiday carri give holiday pay pay vet cover day make look lot less rosi got back time gym tuesday kid chauffer work fell bed slept wed phone stop 4 00pm didnt ring 9 30 morn weird work just stop like tap turn got rest test sort sort rest stuff account tidi offic wrote book even thought muck car got far think coffe break arriv didnt earn much felt lot better skip earli gave bathroom door second coat thursday 21st novemb pay day decid defra busi bust now rollercoast tri look futur make normal year 20 farm fee incom much higher past year chief defra vet fli kite say polit see reaction told whitehal dont know in out gist go employ vet test much effici cost effect point wasnt go case went employ non vet much cheaper farm anim vet larg area countri reduc fee incom even farm side vet busi margin just given mean busi high stock area probabl drop 2 vet london final decid status quo probabl best time carlisl consult page st decid much tb found restock farm restock farm test annual basi anim just breed stock test mean 25 increas work load next 2 winter instead drop vet look take one believ go happen next can plan drastic chang propos space month friday horrend night ill calv pneumonia even calv 1 silloth dog tri die 5am ever pleas half day slept play squash l j afternoon dog belong old ladi children husband dog die 4 year previous go die tear upset dog look good 16yr poodl type thing isol booth doesnt drive live coast husband retir neither famili around felt made appreci famili much saturday 23rd novemb wife away cours today w e run kid cook drop son squash errand wigton watch squash coach patient encourag total contrast shown son s footbal good team realli like attitud coach team carlisl team late arriv alreadi 4 0 second half walk around coach think give son 2 sub game give kid chanc play els find crush son realli fed situat love play quit loyal coach alway justifi play best team doesnt play favourit friend son point irrelev win margin can afford weaker player field went win 10 0 will get thursbi team organis next year went longtown poultri sale interest lot rare bird waterfowl will go buy next year get differ type breed sun dan spoke walk water inimit style refresh practic honest made call prayer well didnt much morn wife cours final manag finish bathroom hoorah mon decid defra busi bust now rollercoast tri look futur make normal year 20 farm fee incom much higher past year chief defra vet fli kite say polit see reaction told whitehal dont know in out gist go employ vet test much effici cost effect point wasnt go case went employ non vet much cheaper farm anim vet larg area countri reduc fee incom even farm side vet busi margin just given mean busi high stock area probabl drop 2 vet london final decid status quo probabl best time carlisl consult page st decid much tb found restock farm restock farm test annual basi anim just breed stock test mean 25 increas work load next 2 winter instead drop vet look take one believ go happen next can plan drastic chang propos space month tuesday went routin fertil farm today quit depress neighbour start realli bad time problem restock top bad hip gung ho get restock although sore leg didnt go doctor chanc stock littl sore soon got stock back start lot physic work sore went drs 2 hip need replac 40 dont want yet mean physic work long period top mastiti problem caus take plant piec defra lost 8 cow heifer calv ill injuri less year look set give disillus lot poorer workload us eas cattl now hous lot hous work sort alway feel run christma now prepar celebr kid adult parti anoth farm today mening year ago still realli recov proper still find hard get go lost anim work fmd addit strain meant lost lot interest farm side cant bother hassl paper work farm sheep cattl grow lot veg wife alway enjoy grow just retail farm gate doesnt make much money say just keep thing turn wife time hassl life import make live profound go go part time wish wednesday seem lot problem still restock farm problem get cow back calf two farm today complain even though pleas compens time cost restock much much interest survey number breed anim bought lost either ill failur get calf old diseas still caus problem lung worm diseas thought well control well understood caus huge problem ibr cow flu caus mani problem can longer get vaccin stock use interest today one farm start milk final restock order vaccin lepto ibr bvd almost matter cours fertil caus worri thursday feel lot better earli night apart run carlisl daughter youth group last night even shop tonight son still tri organis u14 thursbi team next year need coach problem big commit wish work mani w es spent time day dream byre yard old knacker build need bulldoz wife s dad think just look convert sthg still think open herriot holiday take peopl day vet day mart diversif name game friday interest day one thing anoth lunch hey whos complain one nurs work chicken shed husband anoth farmer partner fan alarm fail air circul farmer devast horrend sight carpet dead chicken 23000 shed work rough 2 3000 left aliv 20000 dead brought back memori fmd also logist dispos 20 tonn dead chicken hope insur cover dinner christiana vet friend call around teatim meat hygien practic cover sever differ meat plant sever vet cover differ plant ask got harrog discuss differ propos regul can implement mark improv usual dump unwork idea defra hq saturday 30th nov took get go dinner last night though pleasant spent day odd end went watch son play footi bought orchid orchid farm kid make card mum wrap present fun jame came kid 7 run riot realli bit mani late night sun 1st church morn johnboy call around see time prayer meet finish arrang surpris parti wife s 40th load folk sunday night great crept big kitchen decor front room son go back forth wife never notic special kid high kite mon 2nd wife forti there photo news star prove kid brought breakfast bed open present poor son 3 late night want go school hope right gran wife s mum sister arriv nanni ireland rescu go look kid away day bit o banter look kid sister found advert nanni ireland au pair servic sent info forward us charact ask work condit pay request polic check give good get wind pretti strong bad journey super ferri cancel come boat take much longer bake cake manag get 40 candl wife look forward get away usual work realli busi lot loos end tie prior leav finish 3 day hoorraaahhh tue 3rd spent day travel loch lomond stop braesid gretna bought cloth mooch around cameron hous beauti wonder view can just walk lake pool went swim dinner civilis just finish dinner waitress arriv cake 4 candl sang rather wobbl happi birthday sister keen left phone number cameron hous even though mobil number now know pleasant surpris will never eat cake let alon whole one stroll around dinner came across pictur one friend use decor kitchen sunday come across somewher book look vagu like wife put ladi wife underneath origin least print pictur weird wed lazi start swim breakfast full scottish walk eastern edg loch sunshin shower caught one shower rainbow loch edg beauti winter walk decid go walk west highland way boy fruit lunch cook breakfast top dinner last night mean dont realli need eat week anoth swim thought gym holiday felt wonder relax dinner thursday anoth lazi start swim breakfast walk along loch back glasgow burrel collect just wander around paint can sit look impressionist keep see someth new beauti came back home time tea though eat anyth much food made ditti nanni nanni ireland came stay respond wife go away children went school respond wife swam pool nanni left dust clean dirt daili crust experienc glean year stop son s tear school must go said stern face nanni lo nanni go tk max forget cat someth sick mat nanni realli dont like m l beg go fetch egg anim theyr contract realli mean keen will give anoth day someth done pay back ireland tale go via cummersdal pay disappear decid new career loi think race car ruth just go far thank due nanni ireland crew now turn go play till theyr call anoth day edit remov name vers friday bad hair day come back relax cheer relax miss lunch work day plenti hassl one thing anoth call night busi loch lomond cameron hous seem long long time ago extrem fed want calv anoth cow side offic hour ever saturday 7th decemb work morn bad night call felt like death warm surgeri sort stuff call got finish 1pm went back bed went xmas parti white heather good fun just knacker enjoy sunday work call plenti pneumonia drug calv lot pneumonia east wind blow wee bitti cruel wind least dri weather work side also seem get dark realli earli need sun back 4 week go till india migrain flu night went bed start throw burn candl one end even moment mon work ill new vet student start r well xmas shop thrown deep end tuesday went back bit work night night work eas thank good plenti high cell count investig tri sort wed took kid swim work vet student good exercis chill went stapl prior go pool usual one desk print cartridg went found one girl chat till get look couldnt find hp58 hadnt notic one els just stand end long counter upset aggress jump queue obvious wors week gone got one till easili didnt got upset dont know nowt queer folk son upset tonight got back swim shave one side head wife cut other hair still short didnt need want done shower took thing hand shave side burn one side like get laugh either thursday christiana came rescu hair son s manag make look bad funni call night night seem doubl book moment went kid perform alic wonderland good can realli sing perform teacher get lot tim knave heart charact actor son frog footman grebbit grebbit good fun phone call put client eas cat manag wing friday friend tonight kid younger 2 perform older 2 xmas meal bit juggl act get everyon right place right time miss cumberland vet club social shame can one place time saturday 14th decemb good meal except start talk public want go fall asleep take late night just feel tire time think adrenalin run just feel stale hope xmas sort spent morn work surgeri sort queri gg account spent afternoon write card tri put togeth list folk send disast got far m run card initi went around ss nibbl hous warm cater mother job help great food done non vet dilut veti sunday got took kid church wife thing borderlin night prepar play footbal caught bit piec garden chat vet chippenham complain tb situat one beef farm first discov tb farm took week test 600 head 200 left take day farmer unabl store cattl feed lost 100 defra 2 month test almost 2 year now still clear test just much call monday got feel exhaust even though busi couldnt get go dairi farm feel nervous nestl pull farmer said pleas son go go farm teenag one year one year older look work use point sad next generat follow seem general air resign farm go good career sad realli tuesday 17th decemb spent day sort remain bit piec account met night usual sort find relev piec paper unaccount chequ still make money thank defra three cheer mrs beckett cynic made long day loi week short staf last test today will abl get blood lab christma post like time year hear friend seen age think last year will catch soon hey ho wed 18th lot pneumonia farmer buy vast quantiti drug treat whole batch calv stirk usual mix far normal dont know whether pleas practic well invoic lot sad much diseas around will horrend drug bill dilemma dont think explor thur 19th fri 20th kid went ice rink carlisl wife set door rink citi council sponsor attract peopl centr dont think realli need place seem crowd enough son bash head quit bad son fell hurt knee tim fell load time just end wet happi differ charact come saturday 21st decemb begin christma rota feel though run christma now also made mistak buy present now went carlisl go shop quit nice way see ice rink mingl crowd hour half plenti kid decid go ask money take india year aunt uncl will fewer present open christma seem get manic commercialis think good idea well done son sunday 22nd carol candlelight magic church pack end stand back way quit nice look aisl stage row candl fairi light side pm lead differ age group take part spoke christma tree end convolut wrong choic can lot fairi light star top imag outsid look wonder like insid thing surround god know care love us enough send gift help us son immanuel god us will take away sin world realli quit move real christma mon 23rd bump realiti bite back difficult focus import thing life keep perspect life keep get interrupt monday morn jesus smelli cattl shed market place make differ will think one time india urgent usual push import manag go swim fox first exercis age must get back mayb wait new year resolut exercis wet weather work christma dont realli go togeth tue 24th christma eve work quiet apart last minut panic peopl think ill dog cat will make christma see vet call pow head turkey realli good butcheri poultri busi go now good see direct sell farmer cooper way forward break stranglehold supermarket wife panick enough food dispatch buy bread milk think protest 5000 still need miracl decid one occas better just spend anoth 2 quid peac wife s parent arriv hour later belfast bring 2 loav bread 5 differ type irish bread 6 pint milk anoth 3 box food wonder make joke feed 5000 plus inflat decid discret better part valour just put freezer wed 25th kid start 5 45 unceremoni sent back bed allow bring stock half past seven 2nd call went church spent hour surgeri see dog one mening near death door owner worri just unwel wait problem never know got back made christma dinner wasnt work though feel amongst commerci turkey dinner true signific immanuel god us lost thursday 26th first call lot pneumonia drug put kept busi afternoon even folk around lot differ age background real mix good fun friday 27th surgeri reopen realli busi pleas put plenti staff rota alway difficult balanc make tri work will enough staff cover work one want work xmas new year enough make realli aw work peopl sit around resent nice know get right sometim rota alway strike win situat alway compromis two extrem saturday 28th decemb call friday night finish lunchtim wife want go church walk knacker go tonight dinner went bed hour sleep much wife displeasur call whole period soon stop crash adrenalin fade realis tire mon work prepar india hit beach take toll famili life call especi christma period folk go dinner policeman similar friction sun 29th servic church tonight memor last even year peopl talk god live usual peopl eloqu use speak front speak real way jesus work live past year dp 14 bone cancer gave move account near die often compar selv us whether health thing compar less appreci live thank god up down follow god guid path us live god hand pray trust futur young lad seen 4 friend made hospit die make trivia fill live back perspect mon 30th last half day lot last minut thing sort finish new year 2 week india cash flow gone pot larg amount pneumonia drug sold tax vat go end jan need make sure someon keep eye away make sure fall place problem go away one keep admin type work tray will overflow time get back tue 31st young peopl parti hous left rather cramp style pleasant even farm friend rang call spec 5 boy knew wouldnt want get babi sitter new year eve wherea 40 stop dairi now worri new rule will affect moment leas quota provid fair amount incom new german rule will applic across whole eec non produc hold therefor leas quota mean will either sell flood market go back dairi farm unless mr p can work way around new system also take advic look sort diversif scheme seem quit good idea other think non starter alreadi invest fmd money set student hous carlisl way hous price go around probabl good invest realli way forward farm though depress featur even ask thought futur cattl vet answer none well that good start 2003 got home find parti full swing left went bed 1st jan 2003 got late stay new year eve young peopl clear parti amaz well done set dish washer empti impress remind drew curtain sever glass miss window sill bizarr odd sock sock game daughter assur funni want know went home one sock start think india good job wife organis set tomorrow 2nd jan thursday travel see brother famili realli good see play risk bit christma tradit kid funni play set kid felt like kid realli nice though b won manag wipe peopl amass risk card risk everyth went last throw dice quit excit friday 3rd jan travel dad tea drop stuff head airport pleas day fli night flight hate travel alreadi exhaust weather usual british winter rain wind friend mine convinc due global warm energi system mean rain wind case cumbria go place live alreadi wet windi enough next 2 week recal xs famili holiday india sat 4th januari 2003 sit nilgiri hill southern india short t shirt enjoy cool high altitud almost twice height ben nevi bbc world last night show report london umbrella tri keep larg wet snowflak visit friend teach christian school contrast india alway seem great poverti opul side side beggar road repair side road make shift tent plastic sheet hut bamboo leav huge opul hous wooden floor air condit generat 4 hotel marbl floor artifici stream waterfal came cheap charter flight cheaper come trivandrum flight packag hotel b b just buy flight emphasi though cheap first time ever pay drink plane air stewardess seem good time rather look passeng cant complain though cheap worri re rout origin suppos go via unit arab emir refuel transfer bahrein flew warn militari well civilian airport photographi allow build us forc gulf must pretti major even larg number us air forc plane massiv sinist look helicopt difficult believ aim keep peac prepar war paper also full sabr rattl pakistan india daili report skirmish kashmir also exchang polit rhetor two state much actual real much sabr rattl one know week telegraph also report iraq shot reconnaiss drone sort blew one el quaedi leader yemen us obvious tri regim chang sever method us respons blow sever command control facil war hasnt offici start yet skirmish go cost previous year raf patrol fli zone 22 uk million last quarter 10 time money spent prioriti govt often difficult work indian govt doesnt enough money local level organis proper refus collect system yet money develop hi tech weaponri attitud rubbish differ beach actual beach comb litter picker area terribl 2 smart 4 hotel govt build tourism train take place ground immacul flower area beauti side ground cross rubbish dump build site pile rubbish sand rubbl went snorkel trip around coast fish harbour sea calm plenti rock fish hide swim boat bit wood tie togeth string serious two central plank two edg plank aft piec wood hold aft part togeth reinforc cord wood light float weight fair easili oar split bamboo grip made interest row paddl like larg canadian cano boat hawaii five o plank rough shape rode wave water fountain hole bottom h ask wood made didnt understand answer must type balsa set light hous anoth group go time think must agre pay top whack wherea soon learn tri bargain price everyth two helper boat paddl wherea economi class two paddl one guid two boat took turn help paddl whether made much differ progress boat don t know fun bit worri head least scenic part coast way beauti sandi beach mile wave power generat edg harbour rusti wreck bit broken concret arriv snorkel brilliant like swim tropic fish tank favourit small electr blue fish dart away soon came near big black yellow stripe tiger fish 2 sort one vertic stripe one horizont timid angel fish long dangl barb shi appear kept still larg spiki sea anemon big footbal load crab shoal fish swim hither thither quit bizarr look like sea hors straighten almost see jockey get saddl readi put saltwat derbi huge varieti colour just outstand spent hour got thorough sun burnt way back boy full bean way exhaust heat way back spent today make fli kite top hill pykara kid dad made kite tri fli hs won design copi origin stick design manag fli almost success tradit kite shape one flew aerodynam werent quit right son s yellow squar success none howev match ikea bought one play cricket frisbe water buffalo wander pass typic indian way real boundari one thing anoth call vedera pleasant garden stun usual love drive tea plantat acr terrac tea plant forest get hotel market indian rather western great us décor lack littl tast design concret floor rather quaint unfinish look spotless clean thing india love kid around spend age talk love around go meal uk children alway bit stress low blood sugar combin general attitud peopl children make pleasant experi wherea even hour wait food stress kid wander play game read book etc son son befriend man blue moon gift shop spent hour play chess talk son won littl eleph beat chess son decid buy josh chess set kept bargain price eventu paid 350 rupe 460 beach idyl palm tree warm roll sea problem get kid sun red hot period 12 2 keep slap sun tan lotion miss widow peak hair reced sun burnt red patch either side head boy variabl tan depend sun block wash first dear friend just quick note say enjoy much dont want come home miss friend great time beach know palm tree warm roll sea sandi beach unlik silloth 30 degre warmth fact day hot drag boy sea els realli sun burnt just back 3 day avalanch bit unfortun name mountain door centr isnt snow dont think indian appreci ironi mountain jungl area littl apart tea plantat reservoir hydroelectr plant jungl wood men harvest wood everi 10 year left bus walk centr truck took bag food lazi one incred beauti high hill lake drought moment reservoir low everywher incred dri dusti thick red dust get everyth facil basic water ran stream tank tap electr shower fortun alway india littl man fact 3 cook us take wife main concern meet rat abseil waterfal walk swam anoth well son son swam afraid cold will wait go back beach went kayak sat around campfir night saturday 18th januari 2003 end indian holiday escap cumbrian weather wife saw rep yesterday bus arrang 12 30 flight 5 30 tour compani someth els go catch taxi 3pm hang around airport age 4 children go bureaucraci indian airport bad enough addit hassl wait around 3 hour reason annoy part much pointless put bag secur x ray main hall give bag back want add stuff bag go 1 desk check anoth get seat anoth exit indian immigr custom identifi bag get put plane wors defra spent last morn swim beach said good bye cs gs wife buy materi fro studi quit sad come away think stay enjoy live india back porridg sun 19th arriv dad 3am uk time clear custom flight crowd thank good space alloc leg enough mess alloc vegetarian meal height european ignor stupid offer hindu famili us beef meal stewardess known better just cring inward embarrass thoughtless left t shirt short arriv cold jean fleec air condit dont think work proper everi one cough dri mouth arriv gatwick drove back cumbria back hous strang sensat back done much seem chang yet everyth still yet realli way like fmd epidem everyth noth part tri find fit new realiti part want safeti old way slight disloc surround physic surround suppos chang old certainti certain seem made way new changeabl way certain know certain mon 20th taken day recov kid realli earli jet lag qualm send school spent day unpack sort wife pile post huge seem lot manag time thrown al junk mail need anoth 2 credit card way transfer money tax bill download email 50 plough way away length time make realis much work requir keep household go bill stuff tue 21st back work face tray still feel littl jet lag see overflow tray arriv daunt feel went call good back farm see folk alway amaz everyon around know everyth ask india good time nice feel part communiti friend mine comment one thing wors talk talk still funni feel away chang noth differ yet think though dont know wed 22nd georg want partner meet lunch time met usual decis make process honest jet lag still realli kick asleep feet doesnt usual effect long wife shatter 8pm kid ok go bed us sign thing come whole pet travel scheme caus problem present passport pet realli allow re entri uk certain countri long meet condit problem must like south coast dread think problem 2 main one 1 6 month period can come back uk paper work complet can go 6 month peopl spend summer caravan site will take dog abroad come back 6 month date also problem form renew done accord manufactur direct vari countri countri franc govt regul dog vaccin annual vaccin manufactur stick uk dog done everi 2 year cat annual document renew franc unless vaccin annual wherea uk can renew vaccin everi 2 year problem paperwork complex accord defra figur 18 failur rate ie 1 6 dont make back also problem least one dog import cumbria paperwork owner thought need rabi vaccin deal week basi confus poor punter dont stand chanc thursday 23rd real problem cow fertil restock farm moment went 1 farm 10 cow check one calf littl sad babi calv milk product loss fmd farmer compens look small one benefit took money got difficult tri work cow much problem usual suspect simpl answer blood test analys help much cow lot stress movement new regim cattl system learn go water trough milk parlour sort peck order cow espi larger unit probabl quit stress add anim herd lead cow know set cow much follow leader behaviour pattern complet cull restock lead cow leader cow follow also lot ill herd will reduc fertil problem poor qualiti silag bad weather factor keep come convers effect top grass silag graze qualiti interest studi will never done now stress general word cant think better specif way express problem stress chang caus fertil problem difficulti find go think lot will end cull fair larg number 15 20 fertil friday 24th one defra tvs call way back test tb let us know still ir caus problem also said look like go complet herd cull tb east counti farmer restock three sourc trace well done restock tb test found 32 reactor lesion will probabl cull whole herd depress think farmer must think whether can face get back farm disast bear think saturday 25th januari 2003 linda bs wed travel derbi wed realli nice see final tie knot talk long follow around sever contin least will seen differ situat first came student work us locum spent 2 year nation bibl colleg london met lot friend nation agricultur relief work world hot spot kosovo indonesia haiti bolivia current bolivia work church group set tb test programm problem human tb blame cattl complet test cattl seem near human human spread least can make start erad tb human treat contact went away church hors drawn carriag nice see spent quit lot time catch vet friend seen age sun 26th stay friend carlisl move derbyshir start teach went church hous church littl differ put mild meet school inform drum band desir restrict convent liturgi mixtur read worship song seem reach local communiti peopl walk life mon 27th back work feel good 2 week india stomach bug w e derbi runni tummi came home work earli went bed tue 28th work ill bed male involv die noisili corner sympathi get wife wed 29th feel good drag back much time recent feel turn tomorrow can recov drawback will work w e sheep seem decid start lamb mayb decid seem see get mean thursday good day spent time sleep household thing even though hate diy good get job sort call vet pick stuff court tomorrow friday experi legal proceed feel wast time import good lawyer case whether guy starv greyhound legal aid thought might better tri keep dog fewer judgement obvious knew way around legal system saturday 1st feb 2003 reflect court case one realli annoy thing can never replay happen case yesterday realli churn make huge moral decis less spur moment complic factor c act defenc act outsid rcvs guidelin now point rspca lawyer c alreadi struck matter well turn bad even though decis get involv poor one think land muck done fact speak also point record taint expert wit first place one even client beadsmen beat reserv legal work rspca least quit lot work local inspector decid trash c wit thought place second repercuss local vet good will stand good stead doubt whether correct thing right wrong dilemma choos horn want get impal sun lamb seem start vengeanc spent morn surgeri land rover trailer turn one anoth sheep lamb peri natal problem like work surgeri w e far less drive work much easier dont keep get chang protect cloth got two vet work done just keep ask come surgeri farmer dont mind either general put pick bring back farm field easi drive vet rather hang around wait mon went tt test ps farm use son fair bit fmd went earli alway done fair amount contract various farm also happi go lucki style contrast dad bit worrier quit enjoy banter just work away pressur get finish number great tue went os problem get cow calf level infertil restock herd horrend sad thing seem achiev littl actual improv spite lot investig spend money vaccin supplement averag loss must 5 least interest compar cull rate restock farm find restock loss actual wed took new vet student today let first lamb rs like everyon els say get lot lamb dead tangl abort get quad last night thursday went s stitch teat now fair easi oper advent use open crush decent epidur anaesthesia local alway fair iffi mani dentist patient will testifi satisfi fix someth like friday spent morn cert otm22 certif brought maff compens farmer cow sold human consumpt otm scheme ban human consumpt anim fit travel can shot farm get compens need vet cert say fit human consumpt can burnt scheme fit pay taken away lot pressur sign scheme suppos come end summer yet market exist casualti anim fir human consumpt whole knackeri injur anim buri anim scheme grab govt need get sort scheme run govt think mayb right industri problem get rid wast taxpay get farmer wast problem sort leav industri market sort also suggest tb import zoonosi uk anymor product problem go way sheep scab taken notifi diseas list individu farm ensur meet whatev standard buyer want specifi happen small extent dairi industri buyer specifi farm must meet certain criteria saturday 8th feb 2003 wife cours w e run around squash footbal son mon 10th b now rent land bush ghyll head taken grass let anoth small farm disappear realiti ever small hold use milk 20 odd cow meant got status farm comput system uncl use run first arriv real charact alway tell farmer made money war dozen egg 10 shill none 50ps 10 whole shill take girl cinema lyon café still chang pound even free rang hen egg buy cinema ticket one day taken end bachelor nephew take farm tuesday 11th partner meet today tri address fact mark fee go erod one thing barnard castl put bill yet charg thing like telephon advic hour go tri get across point provid round servic need paid still think end day econom will win provid servic profit provid servic leav us wed harrison problem fertil isnt blood result show low level copper convinc will supplement feed ad copper feed problem investig look simpl answer actual problem multi factori cow may short copper low realli effect often wonder human blood sampl lot differ miner find percentag popul actual normal sever miner mayb omnivor diet fact produc huge amount milk probabl come much vari diet cow now complet ration uk nutritionist get slight wrong will find cow will short suppos thing alway forget usual work either singl 3 4 sampl silag will spread actual silag sampl may may reflect thursday call tonight busi ok r help wh hous one suckler calv manag prolaps rectum wild thunder care handl dope way oper put back jump wall alway wee bit disconcert limousin stirk use grand nation ds brother well now cancer went emerg surgeri day shot cow big row senior staff page st admit hospit 2am undergo emerg surgeri afternoon want put web site announc radio cumbria want go surgeri just come find radio shoot cow ask put embargo cours vet tri let go realli angri wrote strong word letter never even got repli follow held one account afraid got lost pass time least r lot better mening around time fmd bad head depress ever sinc good back farm start fenc fri 14th valentin friend s birthday went around hous dinner realli nice end play dart kid pleas get dart board long long time sinc play saturday 15th februari 2003 son birthday littl babi son now 8 year old hard believ time gone water pass bridg went around friend night sat eat put world right good everi now wind just enjoy talk think know well can just come stuff sunday mon 17th spent day tb test dl nvl visibl lesion reactor taken colleagu first test fat stock farm restock will go slaughter fair soon deem pointless realli spent day put big bullock crush danger work men go amongst rare handl dont take well tuesday interest lamb today consequ fmd forget inherit genet condit suffolk call dandi walker syndrom caus hydrocephalus lamb ewe tup must carri gene produc deform lamb head larg get mother pelvi mean caesarean ewe can use breed fat lamb put anoth breed next year year lamb dead go die econom useless breeder just shoot point call us tri lamb caesaer big ewe eventu manag lamb say though take time work whether stock bought will produc breed stock want tri differ combin work line work well togeth reckon 4 8 year will back breed decent suffolk sheep spite buy good stock breed meet eye wednesday rb stirk mcf malign catarh fever viral diseas quit often fatal catch sheep realli blue grey eye chang fluid eye sever iriti must incred pain thursday dixon tt2 now clear test 42 day clear farm restrict un fortun vet ministri said day cow taken today whole thing get bit complic jd get wound understand friday tri sort trace suppos lot come qualiti info poor trace farm sold anim subsequ gone tb notifi diseas defra paper chase bad ear tag nos wrong farmer bought sever sourc 1 2 paper work defra thing seem fall apart bit went singl anim mill usual buy store fatten store trade gone roof sold lot let one els fatten heifer breed defra file fatten unit finish hadnt bother trace go slaughter cours sold one gone tb want know happen now saturday 22nd februari 2003 saturday sunday monday tuesday funni sensat day suppos almost flash back way went farm fanci pedigre sheep rent land want ad hold mv scheme need vet inspect say field doubl fenc sheep come contact other inspect field pretti meaningless know need done alway scratch last time fmd wednesday thursday friday pack got last thing sort vcf w e got poster print display board togeth set motorway pick friend spent day travel good talk retir practic just fmd spent first part retir work defra fmd first preston settl seem better organis preston quit posit local team sometim wonder sill close emot take clear head look realli like good see friend night get set w e sat 1st march sun 2003 vcf w e difficult sum w e much part copi report one student wrote bit vcf magazin vcf triennial confer 28th feb 2nd march 2003 sunni weekend begin march 70 vet vet student famili brave took time busi schedul gather expect hay confer centr derbyshir 2003 vcf confer mix bunch rang age 2 month 70 well near mani differ place denomin walk veterinari life common goal mind unit desir love serv lord jesus christ vocat call us encourag one anoth salt light veterinari world distinguish speaker weekend dr l consult psychiatrist christian drew experi bring us thought insight subject god work emphasis fact although work god activ view whatev work lord colossian 3 18 must forgotten balanc must achiev work church famili life etc also opportun discuss respond christian varieti ethic decis common present veterinari practic well main talk opportun join varieti seminar relev practic subject bt vet long serv missionari thailand omf led interest seminar joy challeng veterinari evangelist work differ cultur student new graduat well provid seminar practic realiti live one faith univers veterinari practic environ m c brave step short notic lead seminar busi ethic vcf secretari generat thought provok discuss relev subject mani singl work play howev much oblig scottish student organis saturday night ceilidh much fun part compani sunday feel refresh well fed physic spiritu encourag remind christian vet mani other grappl issu face weekend time friendship rekindl hope new one made time strengthen remind ultim import thing busi live lead seminar busi ethic rather wing stress good interest challeng question right make profit espi good work incred drain sun night exhaust drove back friend night live 20 min motorway come one wee villag flash camera will fine speed ticket sort mon realli nice lie went walk friend around hous across field beauti set preston visit friend prison road close way m6 took age find way m6 come preston find way prison whole afternoon depress someth intimid process visit secur camera polit uncar prison offic search go past sniffer dog give finger print now polic comput prison ok fair depress outlook even now worri go cope come prison regim oppress hour half glad go also bizarr situat sit talk length time also lot stuff want know kid just cant help know hearsay first difficult sum espi good cope whole situat basic fault mother alreadi feel guilti enough give angst cope glad come fresh air spent even parent even challeng senior manag give hard time quit day tuesday usual disast w e away continu new bathroom total flood leak pipe felt like wring neck plumber water flow back old kitchen made real mess manag get hold leav urgent phone messag answer phone mobil telephon flat hard ever girlfriend water day found leak manag fix smash tile cut hole wall fix place look mess boy o boy fed stupid bathroom went work find one done stuff left done work realli busi speed ticket land alreadi govt dept effici spent whole day 6pm run around like headless chicken decid stuff go gym circuit class wed disast continu wash machin give ghost hous 3 boy vet pretti serious problem also argument one partner say get anoth vet rebellion peopl go sick stress one back 2 day still havent manag read stuff tray yet let alon deal thursday final convinc senior colleagu need help ministri got hold ask trace herd test urgent one farm restock cattl belong one els look book decid idiot told week ago last septemb think happen spent day sort dc come vet lvi pull wool sweet talk train baffl way defra meant still yet reach bottom tray may gold buri bottom think one day look back probabl quit decis accident day first time realli thought kill see happen noth done differ prevent went calv work 8pm met farmer one went get water walk box cow cow gave funni look back behind pillar pen oh ok quiet cow shes 8 calv said next time will listen instinct went forward without warn snort given second thought charg caught rib head threw ground react but head snort kick back farmer start kick hit came bash corner back kept come head flew grab nose swung around nose kick feet take weight one hand shout help guy one came back pitchfork ground kick came fork let go scrambl away around box still came got gate past two brother thump back slam gate shut lay heap bale 10 minut breath heavili ask need ambul doctor final came enough splash water face think must easier way make live took 4 brother arm stick get crush manag calv 1 dead twin breach 1 live twin just defenc cow calv pain probabl just got realli wound almost kill sat strong tea quarter hour summon courag drive home hind sight taken offer get one els calv cow girl 2nd 5ft noth petit didnt think dump fair adrenalin still flow just kept b howev let one drive home probabl casualti felt anyth hospit except keep eye just went home bed ask wife wake everi two hour friday ill head spin everi time sit tri someth head just goe around feel realli tire jet lag think prefer india beaten cow time new job slept afternoon friend dinner arrang month ago wife didnt cancel kept go drift wee bit saturday 8th march lie 9 o clock yo still feel pretti sore least head one piec think show flat prospect tenant rare dont get sthg home either work footbal squash someth similar anoth squash competit later start boy great took son footbal wife phone say cs go watch lord ring want go went watch swap younger kid wife take son youngster went cs time mobil phone realli use get thing arrang film realli good boy stiff sit length time knee give real gyp spent even daub fade wife drove home went bed sunday 9th went church morn pick car friend came lunch realli good see point point 5 boy 8 kid fli around enjoy see still tri sort diversif plan hope sever string bow well farm teacher posit nelson thom probabl reliabl form incom friend mon 10th went work everi time bend move fast head spin just small anim think cat dog much better idea lot sympathi folk work mr h obvious given fair graphic descript happen face becom moment tue 11th back work farm rs fertil visit even though know cow happi feel nervous go near lost lot confid although expect still bit wound rest day ok apart sever peopl whing current paper work requir sell cattl mind see need sell bullock geld cow probabl easier asylum seeker spent even surgeri show d rope locum go work us next week go ministri newcastl tomorrow lvi train least mean can tb test least give us break sort thing manag staff show peopl rope give back debrief latk huge amount time energi yet never seen work relev lot peopl rest partnership yet small busi peopl make differ feel appreci support can debrief reassur make differ happi staff can deal situat peopl lot better easier stress one wed 12th next year go definit one els turn speak annual train day senior lvis just drive wall morn spent fair use talk conting plan next fmd exot diseas epidem page st planner seem fair well clu take board lot idea problem seen 2001 afternoon total depress tb now endem south counti deer herd anim die took vic lab penrith find anim lose weight die tb ministri known reactor around area never pick fact deer test also complaint forward trace done cattl veti offic give talk said quit difficult work cattl gone met incredul local vet paperwork computeris passport scheme sure mean trace abil one big issu bse done mean whole thing useless sham well answer can trace specif anim market hold anim hold trace take much time get done tb spread idiot best system best tool best idea best busi work peopl next year one els can go listen plan sky meet excel talk fmd feb 2000 just piti listen expert also talk new scrapi scheme guy speak knew less audienc go back speaker vcf w e said came medic school spent 6 year taught ration scientif diseas discuss logic ration conclus sought came idea nation health servic struggl said live fallen world fallen institut accept time make sens power capabl chang can chang work within thursday 13th day prior work w e went high pike friend snow light top beauti wee bit chilli spent afternoon get stuff sort vcf magazin answer e mail put detail w e sort order tri also put respons yesterday feel angri risk put paper just hope govt touch arm forc frontlin kuwait distant arm govt state vet servic cumbria friday 14th anoth day anoth test anoth dollar spent morn supervis locum tri get top tray stuff partner meet next week tri get decis w e call loom feel even though work work mani w es tire jade beaten cow probabl doesnt help saturday 15th march work w e first first time long time keep amount work back way ahead amount work bring number line also need break feel v tire fed much prospect rejuven morn fair busi finish 12 bad funni juli ah receptionist sinc pre fmd said thought realli busi compar good old day 8 year ago thought good sat finish 2 surpris thing chang get use weather beauti clear sky frosti spring morn dri good weather alway make feel better way spent afternoon bit piec garden job around sunday 16th busi morn show use new build ok know 4 year old thing never normal still see new 2 lamb sheep see drug put surgeri just kept come surgeri larg anim bay lot work drive make differ taken 3 4 hour finish hour half miss church night lamb sheep back afternoon spent sort boy went pond churn got welli stuck mud cold wet cover use plank walk sink made mistak fetch plank spade back sort boy trail mud around hous grrrrr taken photo midst new vet student rachael turn give full vent annoy mon 17th chao work load emerg test glad student d work rs found tb test look like will continu still havent found time put pen paper type writer send letter conting plan group defra hope will get top soon tue 18th day stay bed bad hair day start bad arriv fertil visit farmer emerg breakfast late wife milk record calv cow sort cow check see calf rotten lamb rotten lamb disintegr stank call left lunch 12 45 get half way call back anoth lamb 1 30 call surgeri work night fed call stop stuff went gym bleep speak folk 4 time now realli wound went hous group sat chat phone went sort cow caesarean follow 2 3 hour sleep must easier way make live wed 19th feel age sleep night 40th birthday good miss see kid morn caesar 3 night call girl work got hold load photo wife around practic well cute teenag work lunch morn busi partner meet 1 30 went home sleep open present kid 4 oclock went ds meal night good thur 20th realli quiet tb test lot vet lamb caught busi side organis rota organis work reflect partner meet tri work whether sync rest world right sync wrong time will tell iraq war start predict seem opportunist target e saddam rather assault weird polit must ask histori teacher caus failur leagu nation whether go similar un fri 21st despit back went meal coffe morn xmas bash tradit now held new year much els xmas period spent quit talk ms leagu nation un fair sceptic power influenc un view often use fig leaf us ussr ambit realli intern communiti interest talk histori iraq play pictionari boy vs girl fun saturday 22nd march 2003 work busi 10th day feel bit drain either cos meal last night will let decid beauti weather continu went love walk fellsid kid love play stream sunshin march amaz came back find hous full folk celebr 40th birthday realli nice though good thing weather good kid play side lot chat p alway full energi enthusiasm whirlwind idea concept philosophi one peopl can sit listen hour hour intellig articul 7 languag yet alway readi listen anyon hear say even poor thought practic approach un materialist quit happi give book idea anyon will read learn sunday 23rd weather amaz still get sun blaze went watch son play footbal silloth won 2 0 tight match good watch much better carlisl one spectat put went beckfoot picnic march beach desert yet warm enough t shirt short boy lay sun slept count mani bless came home plant seed lettuc courgett sweet pea must plant leek pumpkin get chanc week buy onion set wife spent church talk b low moor difficult mon 24th sent letter richard drummond rvo harrog now head servic deliveri alway bit conscious effort take cudgel bureaucraci especi one like svs cultur tendenc attack criticis hope tomorrow will quiet wish write anoth letter conting plan dept also want look updat conting plan make comment pay bill moment work busi feel actual import spend time kid will sign go watch great escap bought birthday copi letter richard drummond wrote drummond report fmd say outbreak abl cope 21st march 2003 mr r d drummond address remov dear richard write express concern current situat tb last met lvi meet cumbria excel talk foot mouth diseas increas risk becom appar feb 2000 meet year well talk conting plan lot discuss emerg tb cumbrian farm also complaint forward trace done cattl vet offic give talk said quit difficult time consum work cattl gone met incredul local vet paperwork computeris passport scheme involv move cattl huge burden farmer trace abil one big issu bse done mean whole paper exercis useless sham answer given can trace specif anim market hold anim hold trace take much time trace get done divis tb spread whether come remit head servic deliveri know grate forward relev depart minist singl enquiri cattl movement servic workington will ensur comprehens list movement hold sinc previous test trace herd tuberculosi reactor abil track fmd obvious non starter thank advanc help hope 3 year time will contempl learnt lvi meet hadrian hous sincer bvm s mrcvs tue 25th wife s cousin vancouv arriv realli nice see canadian alway beat earth refresh posit can mental daughter school choir sing part europ european tour whistl stop lake tomorrow good catch young vet lost brother favourit mother law brought set kitchen knive birthday present incred sharp dont think let kid loos will good idea least can pitch old one need sharpen everi time use vet arriv back ski sun burnt sunshin wind realli good time though wed 26th left arriv go yps funni see much young ladi go live opposit end world yet fashion littl hand bag scarv belt globalis just effect agricultur spent time keswick around lake today make use gorgeous summer weather march realli warm hope scorcher summer holiday thursday 27th spent quietist night call long long time noth soon employ locum extra pair hand work disappear still will given everyon chanc breather said good bye canadian mother law head ireland see irish side famili easter will see vet friend soon funni say goodby dont know herd health plan today farm 50 dairi cow said realli know go give go milk one els viabl make pay sort small scale friday 28th havent got workload right think sunshin sent farmer field work lamb calv arriv un aid sunshin amaz good weather make feel much better book extra test next week slight sad thing talk one farmer just start lamb take rotten lamb abort 2 week earlier first season actual lamb bought fat sheep last year said stage 2 year ago came took sheep let wrong put fight just gone along fair melanchol tri point everi one done seem best thing time think point convinc argu 2 10000 blood sampl live sheep slaughter expos virus help granddad flock said now problem say look dead lamb just pull lie heap corner trailer never forget someth like lad say never lot anniversari go farmer say fun gone saturday 29th march beauti weather carri wife child free vet student free afternoon sun went walk along side bassenthwait lake lot daffodil light breez lake beauti cool sunni day walk pleasant realli enjoy son young peopl church w e edinburgh will arriv back exhaust lack sleep js boy afternoon good met friend even spent even put agricultur right sell manag sale fertilis norsk hydro sunday mother sunday bit disast organis boy hadnt time get organis church r j beatitud met cs went bow scale fell son friend son complain whole way realli bad form fed monday work dri complet time year unheard employ locum tri get test done work everi one embarrass got wrong usual time year test vet run around like idiot good news us wrote letter head conting plan page st amus copi name defra rm 803a 1a page st london sw1p 4pq dear name write thank travel north carlisl come speak recent lvi meet hadrian hous carlisl also read defra conting plan lot lesson seem learnt appreci year deadlin pass place parliament live document apolog better late never like make comment one earli tvi volunt carlisl partner one practic eye storm 1 whole issu valuat anim taken compulsori purchas state benefit farm communiti erad diseas address one initi problem slow slaughter infect anim valuat view now simpl standard valuat must appli must high enough incent report diseas low make possibl diseas seem financi attract price compulsori purchas may set higher danger contact less affect anim simpl standard valu diagnos vet count number bovin shoot farmer know advanc compens go paid individu anim high merit insur whatev sum farmer will pay premium may unpopular nettl need grasp even though sure client disapprov current tuberculosi problem high light problem area standard procedur valuat notifi diseas valu base last mid market rate apocryph stori valuer still run system client farmer defra 2 second issu address trace system advent british cattl movement servic impress traceabl central part govern polici incredul respons question lvi meet told bcms give list movement hold trace tb still done defra vet trawl farmer movement book polit will touch bottom data base abl generat list anim move past 6 month market hold done tb can forget tri fmd fast contagi diseas still confus databas base hold number sever farmer multipl hold number sever singl hold number multipl site high genet merit anim may sever owner singl hold may stock sever differ farm rule cph number need re evalu central data base use must activ manag updat can done local level 3 dispos know look farm size continu grow ever rapid rate averag size dairi farm area grown 20 cow sinc fmd mean will bigger dispos problem individu farm will stock 4 local offic store equip 20 tvis 24hour notic touch point meet need sudden recruit tvi veterinari staff svs can second small number vet short term avail reluct dvms second staff may yet requir area local lvis can provid veterinari cover whole structur larg anim practic flux may may possibl provid veterinari inspect alloc temporari part time basi pay condit assist need address agre part orient train local level end outbreak carlisl quit impress howev inform put togeth central central trainer train design trainer svs offic decc similar lay blood sampler vaccin local practic provid nomin nurs lay staff train break ai personnel use effect blood sampl procedur someth local plan cost train ai staff blood sampl met central encourag regist train personnel maintain local cumbria counti council inquiri recommend use emerg centr hub multi agenc respons diseas break join govern counti council part conting plan provid admin back emerg civil disast terrorist incid local plan make use main concern howev ask meet two way communic page st carlisl sort met nervous laughter like emphasis page st know go field fmd outbreak communic barrier vet field carlisl manag huge gulf carlisl page street plead address cultur identifi iain anderson still seem prevail quot cultur predispos decis make committe associ fear person risk take climat encourag creativ initi inhibit adapt behaviour organis learn time lower qualiti decis taken seem reapprais prevail attitud behaviour within depart benefici may outsid remit northumberland report flow chart recommend actual list lesson learn dec 1969 one svs fare poor fmd 2001 state consid recruit problem state veterinari servic reason mayb low initi salari part natur duti within servic consid import futur develop ministri agricultur attract greater number good young graduat will make career servic end plan peopl go implement need well manag well led given resourc carri task need confid polit civil servic leadership will need risk manag task financi reason resourc reason wider rural economi requir flexibl decis maker prepar take risk stick head collect parapet hope provid thought work sincer ref fmd 2001 lesson learn enquiri forward chairman iain anderson p7 northumberland report present parliament dec 69 part 2 section 47 spoke last lvi meet usual plan sound good realiti hit deliveri tuesday small anim work test tue even alway seem rush went gym ns new frontier church meet excel wed manag fertil work morn spent rest day bring practic databas date let go sinc foot mouth tell us much stock farm number place peopl restock chang direct busi go move move number go dairi beef sheep interest thing fact lot farm restock adult anim drop 5 10 cow sinc restock older cow lost ill cow go young stock replac come replac actual figur dairi farm restock yet enter comput hope will get thursday small anim otm22 still incred quiet consequ book lot work next week hope dont get wrong way set ann vet student project compar fertil pre post fmd finish updat databas figur will hope get enter next day can comparison march figur look ok long term look good govt committe look farm anim vet practic lakeland bva ask comment efracom inquiri vet veterinari servic efracom defra committe term refer look provis farm veterinari servic england wale particular will look 1 impact current level farm incom usag veterinari servic turn effect reduct usag servic number practic deal larg anim 2 effect reduct usag veterinari servic shortag larg anim vet health welfar standard effect surveil anim diseas 3 whether requir place farmer govern includ anim health welfar strategi realis circumst 4 impact work state veterinari servic comment 12 april pleas day end read tb test farm hope becom clear go first restock 18month ago 1 reactor 1 r normal interpret will probabl take sever interpret govern alway look though problem dealt isol defra vet look practic deal case daughter marri brother farm communiti incestu friday work desper quiet organis test hope havent book work defra vet carlisl still learn rope come s tb rare part world alloc wrong go back extra anim set can sign school held curri even tonight cumbrian villag school cosmopolitan extend famili three pakistani famili cook though children also banger chip option quit nice time though wife next level counsel cours end just kid good spend time enjoy work mani w es recent kind give life back much work saturday 5th april 2003 wife level 2 cours counsel kid w e took son squash went town bit piec chat wait t son finish took kid town mother day tomorrow make fact l away w e last week kid bought present made card nice cs friend came lunch spent muddi afternoon pond play build den general make mess fun son even decid shower order came back show dirti mr allerg water made fondu tea appl juic kid dont like kick wine great success tast rather good even say sunday went church wife head earli lunch talk god lead alway relev kid great fun way back full craic return trip cs late find sky tv match carlisl lost usual everi week lose millennium stadium pick kid cs put bike back car went say good bye cs meantim three boy hide boot car let drive giggl laughter gave game away caus much merriment round met lad sunday night felt realli sorri one guy real problem get access 7 year old ex wife put lot ve input wee one can go legal rout will expens probabl counter product want negoti look best wee girl seem real mess monday spite 4 test work spent day test though realli quit amus know guy sister quit well alway make sure tell much good lunch appreci build rivalri can provid vet best food afraid conscious flame rivalri spite waistlin good tri concentr three cours lunch bore job easi just think coffe time cake tray bake distinct unhealthi aim feed door manual labour tuesday bad night hand caught crush yesterday stirk throw head bent finger back seem ok now throb like mad plenti aspirin corticosteroid ferti saw anoth lda cow seem real problem feed spring seen 3 4 time normal number went run finger meant go gym work machin wed speed camera arriv top road unfortun go fast time saw will probabl anoth 3 point licenc build pad side road along a595 realli bad record car accid number kill continu go speed camera van can move around henc trap speeder call casualti reduct unit bit point messag even slow work slow today tb test mid week day brother birthday nz sent letter say go dad trip come across xmas want us go hm mayb thursday 2 reactor 4 rs today futur look good look like will tb real problem sinc herd restock lung worm energi problem silag atroci fertil go go buy anoth 30 odd replac 800 replac lost ill health fertil make compens payment seem pretti small that 24k lost alreadi heifer come serv work busi wonder spring rush come suppos school parent even got call pretti irrit hate fact just unreli call friday anoth tb test day busi togeth good day competit report fair damn expect pressur drug margin go continu old fashion way provid complet servic will go window will charg hour call telephon advic tri make pay whole econom go see singl ill anim will gone clinic skill veterinarian will gone academ cost diagnos singl anim new era will much diagnosi will done post mortem herd problem larg herd man power will look individu ill anim sad depress day w e saturday 12th april 2003 woke earli got even though day lie think particular wound way take least one day wind work tire yet feel abl rest took son footbal son buy anew bike excit birthday come grown old one will good kid spend age fli around yard bike field grass short real ball great place grow much freedom play play play finger caught tb test start throb afternoon improv got wors decid get x ray spent afternoon casualti wait get x ray wait anoth hour told broken five minut consult took almost 2 hour friend w e friend capernwray bibl colleg easter youth thing came good catch sunday cook lunch everyon went communion dire remind dont usual bother spent afternoon put onion tidi garden incred dri warm amaz realli 6 kid spent whole afternoon mess around pond disgust mud everywher trail yard welli abandon everywher church dm speak yps came back afterward mind think enough kid time ok monday bad haircut day one day can test week book fair amount tight aw ill tight op put tomorrow d s african vet friend visit vet student hous still full howev knacker feel sociabl horrend calv often calv cow afraid hour gave caesar calf dead rotten whether will dont know want caesarean life either farmer pay 60 get one take away euth tuesday period anniversari 2 year sinc ls went farm get fmd uncl say sad day uncl must feel beauti spring weather grass grow spite frost definit put bounc step day like think excel life wander around countrysid enjoy sceneri farm anim farmer beat work factori way went gym felt lot better exercis great way get buzz tire get b enjoy gone often feel just felt like steam roller run taken day two recov balanc thing wed commiss report came today difficult believ will abl implement live fmd quit thing thought abl implement will minist decid sinc dti defra think implement may effect provid prescript free charg provid client list pharmaci agricultur supplier vet web site will meet prescript cost common prescrib medicin previous quarter cross subsidi profession fee pharmaceut will allow will pharmacist make money comment irk provis 24 hour cover seem oner often swear realli depress daughter came caesaer call tonight realli nice work home abl take healthi thing grow much young ladi farmer wife dental receptionist cours said hello thrown cours context figur farmer wife knew thursday good friday son bday today day start great duti arriv bedroom 7am 2 boy start birthday celebr famili tradit breakfast bed bed dont know happen other brought card present phone went lamb tim decid come see lamb born thrill open present later includ new boiler suit realli thrill amaz kid think best present never realli like work good friday alway think one year will go one contempl servic hebron low church never realli anyth like real shame easter think cathedr old countri church church architectur can realli help stop pray help consid jesus cross finish work went friend home realli good see play rounder barbequ realli nice jame realli good form enjoy back away london just start work high fli lawyer enjoy london much hill countrysid lad girlfriend also quit good craic didnt realli want come home knacker probabl just well kid us late night saturday 19th april 2004 spent day either catch sleep day day thing seem put one side also prepar servic tomorrow take easter sunday morn servic one night mare servic everyon come age rang 0 100 everyon differ expect explain normal sunday servic differ famili focus live inform aim young children go sunday school teach parent adult alway lot nois children run around babi cri shaker children song communion servic follow tradit silenc solemn rule older generat go differ servic go combin two oil water lot prayer gone one sunday wife got 6 go sunris servic crematorium said need input easter servic lead servic organis st jame parish church carlisl church ask take part christiana ask go wife went realli good christ risen risen inde sermon archdeacon cathedr said good anglican want liturgi sermon everi time said dead congreg repli aliv christ point sound hooter servic hebron went well oh ye littl faith pray worri less includ outlin put addit comment blue easter sunday servic welcom hebron evangel church easter sunday morn celebr jesus aliv open hymn declar jesus aliv risen dead open hymn believ god father welcom intro welcom team morn servic differ order usual go rememb jesus done us cross bruce beatti one elder go help explain bread wine mean us children may communion servic take communion go celebr jesus resurrect read sing share resurrect central part faith know long word resurrect mean answer kid quit amus got end end servic will offer opportun give money well live god servic young children get fed place back can make thing isnt easi sit still littl quiet pleas dont worri littl one distract often wonder like jesus fed 5000plus crowd think children sat neat quiet row dont think pleas see hear time famili worship youngest oldest read psalm 67 power point read togeth may god gracious us bless us make face shine upon us way may known earth salvat among nation may peopl prais o god may peopl prais may nation glad sing joy rule peopl just guid nation earth may peopl prais o god may peopl prais land will yield harvest god god will bless us god will bless us end earth will fear psalm 67 prayer m sing next hymn good children came sit front b can see talk hymn survey wondrous cross communion b b gave excel talk rememb includ diari kitchen timer set go care time point littl bit use smarti go easter stori differ colour wish written communion smarti kid rememb easter stori adult took communion rememb christ death resurrect forgiv wonder thing just rememb jesus us cross die us incred love thank gospel doesnt end son ceris go read read luke 24 vs 1 12 brilliant dramat read empti tomb let sing god dead aliv sing twice use instrument front make joy nois want littl tast like around day let listen mari magdalen chat phone well listen see talk wife sketch mari talk phone marta met risen jesus good realli gave fact contemporari feel hymn led like lamb slaughter second vers children come help vers give big peopl id like help give make sure big peopl get one children may abl read yet colour stone remind huge stone roll away jesus rose dead can keep pocket somewher special remind jesus aliv want ever go made tini scroll vers resurrect kid gave kept wee one busi also gave everyon vers think isnt wonder know sing hes aliv risen world church sing messag revel get littl glimps will like heaven new song sung jesus christ close eye listen say rev 5 vs 9 11 privileg hebron repres differ languag peopl nation morn let us listen christ risen differ languag prayer one famili say arab anoth german philippino girl said languag one els spanish magic introduc lord lift name high sung mizpah orphanag children just heard name jesus first time christma see pictur need helper action song thank jesus aliv speak guid comfort forgiv us sin mess make mari peter thomas met risen lord stori tell walk risen lord listen peopl share bit stori wonder share take opportun day share god teach chang dont hide behind weather holiday share journey encourag real fellowship end prayer top song offer opportun offer afresh risen lord old song power one make song person choos vers will stand sign offer lord band will play twice collect taken sing want sit last vers sing take love will stand last vers take life song lot part ask god take use differ part live song intellect strength money etc ask peopl stand point want realli meant stop offer part selv back god respons resurrect finish thine glori servic went realli well peopl came said well gone wife spent afternoon pack feel wash give tire satisfact huge mon earli catch boat n ireland boat busi good spent boat ride fill thought futur larg anim practic efracom enquiri bought lord ring part 2 two tower want re read seen movi holiday read sort chanc got sit wife s parent talk futur good campbel usual disappear sit bank holiday didnt fair beat good pleas spent even c cousin realli good barbecu chill c realli surpris news agricultur ni go bad time well behind uk lot small uneconom famili farm lot consolid go farmer sell tuesday spent morn play squash boy w great fun spent afternoon garden tri tidi went dinner bridesmaid also just hand notic rather accept redund packag must catch great see also belfast cosmopolitan citi day differ languag cultur nation mix downtown area big chang wed went new exhibit centr dock belfast multiplex scienc exhibit well shop restaur amaz kid spent day play exhibit well done came away learnt quit lot wife now believ colour easili confus one exhibit word one colour spelt name anoth colour ie word spelt y e l l o w red colour read word say colour just brain end realli confus bought flower stuff garden box gran went dinner rp widow wife s parent age much fun love give dinner parti folk age around gave use address lot plan wife s parent golden wed thursday day big photo shoot wife s brother father law photograph togeth wife mum want photo famili togeth spent hour half get posit photograph 7 kid 7 adult pernicketi photograph travel back boat ok came back find everyth fuse phone work fix fuse trip thank good got electr go phone fix worri away lightn strike phone line road fri cabl one neighbour kitchen phone explod jump wall left scorch mark wall just glad one phone time unfortun thing comput attach dead dodo friday back maelstrom realli relax go back work last may half hour one pick admin thing away spite ask peopl meant start get thing organis test rota nestl well tri work tray mess never mind also complet report efracom close date today hope 5pm report actual finish 10 15 e mail like polish bit schedul today conduc even suppos write casaer foal tri die farm much luck horrend problem restock also tb2 enclos copi report efracom right hon michael jack mp environ food rural affair chairman sub committe vet veterinari servic submiss summari time review farm veterinari servic submit current trend veterinari practic like acceler rapid respons present level farm incom immin chang veterinari practic submiss briefli cover follow area current provis veterinari servic financ current trend like impact veterinari servic effect reduct larg anim clinician health welfar standard surveil feasibl anim health welfar strategi impact svs futur possibl outcom current provis veterinari servic financ incom rural farm veterinari practic provid major veterinari servic agricultur industri tradit come 5 major area clinic servic examin diagnos individu anim calv lamb individu surgeri routin fertil dehorn castrat tradit farm profession fee work lvi incom defra maff erad notifi diseas tuberculosi brucellosi anthrax etc mani practic also involv meat hygien inspect abattoir dispens pharmaceut provis veterinari advic farm manag welfar major veterinari partnership mix practic consider must given fact small anim work make variabl proport work incom veterinari practic opinion clinic farm anim practic examin diagnos individu anim alreadi uneconom veterinari surgeon farmer happen cross subsidi profession fee incom good will farmer give anim chanc harsh econom come home vet farmer rapid becom jame herriot part rural histori current trend like impact veterinari servic current trend within agricultur veterinari practic effect will agricultur farm veterinari practic trend can identifi fast far trend will go difficult predict experi chang come chang often slow start dramat speed effect decoupl eu decis agricultur unknown current trend like continu agricultur farm size continu grow farm make less less per anim spread cost larger larger number individu valu anim continu drop real term effici mechanis continu increas chicken farm now routin 100000 anim plus sinc foot mouth diseas averag dairi herd size increas 90 114 increas 20 talk mani dairi farmer go increas herd go 300 anim increas usual increas labour farm mean care individu anim like less import care overal heath herd much veterinari practic major chang like competit inquiri cost pharmaceut subsidi profession fee sale pharmaceut increas trend sinc late 60 s profession fee subsidis larg scale erad scheme maff paid good fee get vet farm help erad notifi diseas competit inquiri recommend pharmaceut dispens pharmaci well prescript provid free charg privat organis go provid servic free charg yet ascertain current level incom deriv pharmaceut go sustain inevit mean cross subsidi will disappear farmer will pay full cost veterinari clinic servic will econom time cost provid veterinari servic continu rise cost veterinari time continu rise student now graduat debt 15 20k loss grant payment tuition fee mean will need rais 2 3k per annum pay veterinari assist match status quo farm anim practic alreadi pay assist less companion anim practic despit offer less favour call rota short term follow fmd mani practic princip work addit call make rota accept attract assist vet viabl short term long term accept partner profit becom commensur salari pay veterinari assist will aim increas charg clinic work look avenu decreas cost increas turnov provid hour emerg cover econom practic vet except big citi practic join togeth provid emerg clinic current rcvs oblig provid 24hour cover rcvs involv commerci price servic valu individu anim continu drop real term cost treat individu anim becom less less viabl cross subsidi hour work will becom unten mani mix practic dwindl farm anim side less financi attract mani will decid concentr companion anim side busi lot mix practic senior partner will largest amount farm work mean younger vet will case load becom experienc confid farm work cohort practition situat head toward retir near futur will practic continu involv farm work fewer practic becom involv farm veterinari servic cost travel distant farm rise beyond alreadi acceler rate mean farm veterinari practic will lose incom clinic servic pharmaceut sale will move toward pig poultri model provid veterinari advic charg vet alreadi move nutrit advic leav field nutrit expert reason nutrit advic provid free farmer firm put cost feed sold farmer cross subsidi fee sale appar accept subsidi veterinari fee pharmaceut model begin appear area wherea vet provid mastiti control dairi buy milk now provid free subsidis advic farm cell count high bacteri count includ bacteriolog variabl back qualiti advic nmr record agenc alreadi offer fertil inform record product short step actual provid fertil work believ factor will contribut dramat decreas farm anim clinician next 5 year effect reduct larg anim clinician health welfar standard surveil number clinic veterinarian reduc will much less farm surveil mean outbreak novel unusu diseas much less like notic record earli stage routin care anim will done stockmen veterinari guidanc guidanc will probabl quarter 6 month annual visit herd health plan individu anim much like treat ad hoc stockmen rather veterinari surgeon qualiti treatment case may adequ will poor signific symptom ill may appreci diagnosi treatment seen high cost use last resort outbreak diseas will well develop loss occur veterinari advic sought herd size increas labour decreas attent individu anim must reduc drop welfar standard ill anim like cull quicker limit manpow becom import use vet addit expert man power calv lamb will seen expens demand system must mean high heath status import routin vaccin herd health polici put place defra seem set high regard laboratori diagnosi result form surveil common problem diagnos treat resort laboratori aid fertil lame mastiti pneumonia pge rare refer lab except treatment work sampl taken refer vet practic fewer vet mean fewer sampl lack veterinari advic ill pig ill sheep farm heddon wall show lack clinic veterinari servic can lead term delay spread diseas local knowledg current lvi system invalu asset danger thrown away idea farm box can assign number page street dealt singl entiti problem still resolv complex mani local farm link trade work togeth machineri share graze fell right famili tie reduc comput screen dcs feasibl anim health welfar strategi opinion hope cover fulli lack time prevent impact svs impact svs like slow realis svs known abil meet challeng streamlin system number vet involv farm work decreas will provid resourc tackl task current done lvis flexibl privat practic take challeng get backlog test done can respond new challeng exampl licens brought fmd privat practic can fit work around duti wherea go done svs will expens take vet task alon svs notori unreli work alloc fmd record send 5 vet farm day yet beaten though hope lot better normal circumst still problem alloc system can put right local knowledg area farm anim may well lvis will carri routin test notifi diseas go provid veterinari cover clinic caseload lvi work will vet avail second defra next fmd exot diseas outbreak conting plan confid state resourc 20 tvis kept centr case outbreak notifi diseas address will come will 20 tvis avail short notic march 2001 major vet carlisl decc lvis futur possibl outcom pictur paint opinion will happen govern allow situat develop hope join govern decis made respons competit inquiri report mixtur outcom possibl number vet farm anim practic will reduc can minimis maintain cross subsidi profession fee provid clinic servic either direct defra work surveil notifi diseas work pharmaceut sale option increas fee possibl veterinari servic will provid mean eg vet work feed firm dairi manufactur retail ensur welfar surveil standard consult firm provid fertil mastiti specialis advic defra local author will provid vet notifi diseas test surveil task develop french model farm cooper employ vet farm pig poultri model regular advisori visit minim involv day day run individu anim first provid continu success lvi structur outcom mean loss clinic veterinari servic loss clinic servic mean drop welfar standard loss farm surveil farm veterinari servic transit time face econom challeng chang agricultur increas regul increas competit pharmaceut servic provid will increas competit practic tri meet higher expect new veterinari graduat start career provid cost effect servic rural communiti bvm s mrcvs brief c v current partner one largest farm veterinari practic cumbria spent 17 year mix rural practic spent 6 month second maff carlisl decc fmd sat 26th april 2003 work last night done 2 caesaer calv call top long week complet wash sat surgeri call went home bed knacker fed decid want spend life like sunday busi day call least call stack just kept come one twos stress level bad boyzo tire mon begin ds last week work realli well hope will abl work back end help test easi go good s african protest work ethic alway happi oblig good work good laugh alway teas play silli joke great sens humour spent day catch week end call sort car drug clean kit slippag cleanli sinc fmd notic especi w es dont tell defra went swim fox well honest sat jacuzzi talk swam 2 length tire much realli must start get proper exercis back will suffer tue realli annoy defra rang ask need put vet panel l need export nestl panel l can just ad simpl export thing take half hour last friday now go train svs take half hour form can yes yes spend afternoon go carlisl got meaningless form can fill mean less form nestl can get th milk custom begin see peopl just smuggl thing rather get involv stupid bureaucraci wed went factori visit nestl today look around know plant can give certif milk powder export whole thing ludicr dri milk powder steril product els goe quick certifi pasteuris don know hey money size quantiti huge amount machineri small number peopl requir maintain oper plant awesom went distribut warehous just row upon row pallet 3 7 high full dri milk cappuccino drink weird think mast instant cappuccino made dalston thursday went panel l train pointless thought took opportun go defra admin staff queri problem moment lot stuff defra tell stock stock ensur databas relat date headach work comput screen henc mrs f r farm correl mr e r address comput relationship marri live togeth stock piec ground realli get ground even final partner meet hand notic reason hand notic complex decis probabl lot factor trivial outsid import other may import other similar sever peopl ask reaction fmd last casualti way horrend experi long hour difficult ethic respons dilemma taught lot see fear eye senior manag challeng abl organis protest meet thirti vet jim scudamor tv interview o see effect feed inform journalist abl break fast talk reli wit organis complet new system manag project never done build team intern background face opposit hierarchi constant caught tight rope differ group learnt huge abil go back normal difficult futur farm anim practic also unpredict lot farm yet restock cross subsidi fee drug sale go end work will behalf paid defra whim politician treasuri also easiest client deal also problem second command deal frustrat partnership unit way work see practic go mean scheme diversif improv incom stream manag bad debt will either happen will becom part workload alreadi stretch add cock tail fact wife start work given realli bad scare tackl cow question want job next 20 year answer answer hand resign start look someth new 6 month notic period end account date jump anoth job sort even decis hard realli choke left discuss futur go home kid want know go went js alreadi knew will tell kid friday practic manag monday work tuesday said littl thought diari learnt someth better left unwritten time inform public whatev issu confidenti dont think someth can talk write never know go read though got self stew rang wife say go js said come left bit hurri got head gone away holiday tell friday whole day unreal knew go one els told kid tea time shock upset come shock tim especi love come around farm also go just uncertainti 2nd call sat 3rd may 2003 work wash second last night 2 caesar calv second caesar 4am felt dread day young vet start oper got stuck went rescu cow horrend adhes noth move around spent hour half tri pull calf stitch uterus cow felt need dive gear arm full length vet besid tri stitch feel arm exhaust end like death warm day feel definit made right decis sunday good night sleep feel better mother alway use say world look differ good night sleep cook breakfast need cook breakfast stress level high eat far much go go diet usual promis weight go fast will cut start exercis lot went see practic manag tell hand notic decid see chanc process work tuesday overweight stress type heart attack treat gentl also good friend give warn spent hour chat talk good way spend sunday afternoon mon bank holiday anoth bank holiday work least fair quiet spent day work garden kid away morn various thing met lunch friend realli nice visit famili lake district hire coupl cottag w e met realli amaz peopl doctor went visit thailand brilliant fun work leprosi aid case come home share gps job also diploma diabet also deput work rais money work omf thailand asia 4 kid realli nice see kid similar age realli felt gone home school school edinburgh big citi doubl cultur shock come uk school complet differ way also bright kid individu attent focuss mother mile ahead rest class yet social skill adapt rough tumbl life citi comprehens mobil phone must item rural thailand good see tuesday today announc fact leav work thought say quit difficult emot point view fact think busi longer term will problem direct relev lay staff job though will still similar number need workload like remain also vet two may may approach buy busi will also longer term smaller number vet need will probabl manag natur wastag spoke first senior assist lay staff hard long mani 15 year long time think also attitud up down seem past lot upheav move b v s park fmd thing suppos get back even keel throw spanner work wed spent even phone friend relat let know hand notic send job detail two job appli anoth sure look moment just send anyth seem interest wait see seem unreal situat mani way also phone bank manag arrang annual visit tell leav get balanc move posit point danger futur larg anim practic difficult balanc initi shock power salesman banker ask whether need bank requir least start independ vet small busi consult will bank account run thursday quit day test tackl back log admin spent lot time set system know folder nestl taken work lvi work nestl factori dalston fallen previous practic took assum odd bit work fact huge amount work go take sort also feel bit hand notic yet set ma go benefit suppos come back want right serv god man alway use measur stick use work motiv done situat tri practic client jesus friday anoth bad hair day real problem tri fit extra work day got bit fray around edg fortun next week will probabl last thank good practic use nestl work phone friend hey ho went meal friend great church youth leader realli switch think need support help hope 1st octob hit will abl get involv went royal oak welton just re done serv food proper basi well pub part like restaur wife s food excel mine ok indian trio samosa 2 bharji start afraid spoilt real indian food bother go cumbrian pub saturday may 10th saturday may 10th day mani day work much stress realli nice just around home garden realli worri els go world need space pleas got long last amaz much better world look good night sleep time afternoon c boy came around took see new chick s want go rout explain made decis leav chicken tell suppos happi just want forget w e arriv 7 boy quit brave fortun stay long back go gianni d took us realli good fun kid good form came back watch first part dvd john grisham book client excel writer although film can never develop charact book film good ok sunday 11th church good morn good spent age chat folk came back lunch coupl stay long peopl find realli drain one aw get realli wound just want go 30 minut came lunch leav tea almost go spare monday 12th find silenc around fact go bit unnerv bit eleph coffe tabl realli lot farmer suppos dont yet know respond today frustrat thing work bt sent bill 115 fix line struck lighten put three dept gave may tri just pay see can regist fact bill disput frustrat car door gone wife s car incred frustrat fix fix fix although warranti get stage feel fob tue 13th went hear mg licc london institut contemporari christian speak live word seri happen everi spring organis group minist folk carlisl interest speaker ex ad man whole messag get church look side self think christian west becom leisur time activ impact rest peopl live concept sacr secular divid church get involv secular thing work cultur art sport way philosophi wherea divid christ either lord also amus speaker talk technolog usual neutral use far reach effect famili work societi use microwav exampl amus stori manag save sleep whole north london use new fangl microwav heat daughter midnight bottl therebi save chancellor huge sum lost revenu typic jewish hyperbol move kid now teenag come meal prepar reheat microwav led lack communic hyperbol angst 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                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    inform diarist date birth 1981 gender f occup group 5 geograph region north cumbria paper diari lot newspap cut relat materi week begin 25th februari 2002 snow fell weekend melt combin addit rainfal mani field surround villag well road flood usual wouldnt concern much howev burial site close number underground stream area becom worri isnt guarante groundwat surround area wont becom effect extent seem number aspect concern issu remain unclear exampl exact can carri water might effect peopl area test surround stream exact class danger problem aris monitor resolv issu tend make anxious particular monday walk dog notic coupl drain pass look block lot water around just make wonder much come possibl burial site actual safe worri monday groundwat even emphasis statement heard border news tuesday environ agenc statement concern futur safeti groundwat area around burial site agenc give guarante groundwat becom affect futur sinc heard news issu may inform news report miss opinion enough inform given public issu result test environ agenc meant avail public howev never heard much detail think effort made inform particular resid near burial site issu bound import hear news becom worri end day littl can realli find trust peopl agenc know littl just hope everyth will alright tuesday also notic horribl smell outsid fiancé cant sure exact come caus thursday news possibl foot mouth case south near leed becam worri whole thing go start worri farmer peopl involv affect case identifi particular affect life anim slaughter futur dispos exist burial site reopen oppos find suitabl site new burial site seem easier reopen burial site mean futur extent health risk increas reliev hear test foot mouth case came back negat reliev peopl involv also resid near burial site howev rais question mind sort situat handl futur consequ might week 2 4th march monday pass drive test now fiancé insur small car open mani opportun huge sens freedom last summer plan go camp holiday dog dog al equip prepar unabl go due foot mouth outbreak neither us imagin long widespread outbreak thought first week now year later abl replan holiday excit wait long unbeliev think long taken restrict countrysid return normal can possibl due circumst actual peopl direct involv foot mouth crisi must seem like far longer tuesday love surpris notic lamb field near hous walk dog love see minut thing almost seem normal even though burial site mile away hidden view villag never forget though soon spot windmil rememb repeat pictur featur news see lamb realli lift spirit futur foot mouth didnt seem bad thought week cant recal exact day toward begin week two particular occas fianc notic terribl smell outsid arent sure exact smell just unpleas incid can recal stand mind past week convers fiancé granddad talk bad last year foot mouth outbreak recal outbreak 1967 comment thought outbreak far better control better anim kill buri actual farm lime transport dead live anim like last year also comment fact pyre hadnt thought good idea last year overal thought last year outbreak dealt better action taken far late prevent diseas spread week 3 11th march one new thing notic week amount bird fli around especi black crow think drive everi time drive past field south end villag larg amount crow hustl togeth can never rememb quit like last summer make wonder mani drawn just field drive past next week will see still occas week fiancé notic slight smell outsid foul smell still notic tuesday saw new seri featur itv call rural live think good idea issu foot mouth still pain lot peopl yet effect still happen howev news media isnt often mention doesnt get attent deserv hope programm like peopl will get better understand issu involv differ peopl went outbreak ever happen peopl involv hope better idea handl actual crisi better idea peopl need exampl farmer long term effect cant ignor mum came coupl night love come see us live carlisl total chang sceneri thought great enjoy take dog long walk unabl long time went see lamb love weather show abl start enjoy countrysid especi come spring summer even abl go dalston dog wander use stick t road just local area love nice chang tend make confid come year look forward summer week 4 18th march past week start day bow went fiancé took dog dog love let lead run realli enjoy got absolut filthi travel car becom easier dog goe crazi arriv dog just 2 year past year couldnt let lead run anywher tire t train listen certain extent keep eye cheeki side rememb wonder foot mouth start go exercis dog walk road use difficult due larg vehicl travel also fact dog isnt best lead use realli energet bit hand howev now got use relax life time think quit like us good exercis fresh air love chang sceneri apart monday havent realli anywher els apart shop busi level work therefor havent realli notic anyth differ week havent thought foot mouth much overal view week quit confid real signific happen chang view quit good week overal week 5 25th march first receiv newslett sent stand panel relief final get inform regard burial site good explan thing work site term can understand relief know everyth far still safe howev evid much work monitor carri futur even though still possibl anyth mind least put rest know someth surpris long taken inform like made access public think newslett good step forward inform reach public particip also given opportun ask question put idea forward wednesday mum came see us took walk go see lamb field near us enjoy love weather make realis much take grant around without think twice mum made realis even see much enjoy simpl thing special think sometim think surround countri natur time forget lucki mum gran love live somewher like biggest surpris week receiv parish magazin month found watchtre news first time ever seen anyth like parish council think good idea inform will access everyon appropri parish even though long overdu worthwhil think will inform cover wide rang issu major knew littl wouldnt known futur exampl mainten go carri a595 orton grang junction site entranc least now knowledg go carri will affect member famili live orton grang junction otherwis idea inform surpris exampl number tanker leav site everyday didnt expect high rise import issu also now tackl bad state local road affect peopl also encourag report thing appropri peopl think signific develop will use aftermath foot mouth communic appropri author public essenti week 6 1st april unfortun go week one bit work anoth havent time focus much els past week despit fact still quit posit week better studi distract everyth love peac drastic differ last year time difficult concentr anyth long far mani distract fiancé howev burial site nearbi sunday went drive friend wonder look like ever seen televis report never futur diari time will write word thought week 7 8th april week full work havent much time anyth apart work thursday break mom came bbq first time year put patio tabl chair weather stay pleasant sat even bbq love break mom peac quiet oppos town realli enjoy mom fianc comment love sit outsid nice weather without nasti smell past coupl week havent notic thing smell bad occas recent also decreas amount bird particular crow field south near crossroad coupl occas week past field coupl bird fli around oppos whole field full crow one time also love hear sheep especi even becam darker background hear sheep just field next us also lamb field away someth still arent quit use appreci much now week 8 15th april feel quit confid week friday watch news saw report new bovin tb case worri even though said wouldnt serious foot mouth still worri potenti destroy mani live bankrupt farmer probabl just got foot mouth worri must especi bad farmer bad enough general public especi see damag caus foot mouth short space time absolut terribl summer anyth like last summer long take everyth get back normal even though foot mouth evid far differ bovin tb hope thing will learn last year will prevent becom disast apart aspect foot mouth smell etc havent bad past week havent notic particular occas smell particular bad notic addit occas driven past field near crossroad hard crow near huge improv number seagul one field nowher near amount crow also decreas amount tanker go recent notic first didnt take much notic fiancé s grandad mention hard seen seem notic move live orton grang junction wigton road go past thing happen presenc burial site nearbi seem less obvious week 9 22nd april last week quit pleasant week probabl eventu finish coursework abl bit peac quiet think combin period love weather made feel quit good tuesday travel town back went past field near crossroad south villag past full crow seagul notic odd occas past week appear empti now ill keep eye chang summer friday notic number cattl calv field just opposit hous can stand watch back patio door love reintroduct sheep cattl area like everyth come togeth final foot mouth life return normal sens cattl seem last part need everyth seem run proper anim final move last think fact combin signific incid nasti smell rumbl tanker go made thing seem better talk fianc s grandad mention still havent mani tanker go past hous orton grang past week hard remind burial site past foot mouth problem live countri seem quit normal seem long time week 10 29th april week good week overal regard foot mouth everyth seem quieten hard visibl remind burial site foot mouth around villag mention last week still havent notic occas smell possibl burial site tanker hard notic around villag field near crossroad still fair empti bird particular crow explain back watchtre newslett parish magazin receiv week good read inform worth read still think good idea done well discuss issu happen now also keep inform action futur newslett mention reduct amount tanker notic also mention might slight smell burial site work far havent notic anyth love see sheep cow surround field especi moment young saturday way fianc s grandad road work near baldwinholm bend road part bad condit now much better think damag caus truck etc use foot mouth howev im sure week 11 6th may week 21st birthday im grow love day thursday surpris taken t lake district day love realli enjoy first stop bassenthwait lake bit fed duck picnic dodd wood coffe see osprey great see think quit lucki pleasant walk around myre hous remind lucki cumbria love place glad now abl go place now weve got car go take better advantag cumbria offer realis much take grant overal good week remind foot mouth burial site minim smell notic hard sign wagon still love see sheep cattl around villag week 12 13th may wednesday met mum town got cumberland news read counti council inquiri kendal think good differ peopl involv inquiri honest happen way anyth will improv futur anyth similar natur happen realli hope doesnt read articl written peopl said clear wide rang peopl foot mouth crisi affect also bad read peopl famili low driven suicid seem feel bit guilti complain hasnt affect us drastic way bring serious extent crisi peopl attent despit terribl thing took place crisi hope good will come present futur thursday fianc went doctor talk farmer wait room soon fianc mention live great orton farmer ask straight away like live near burial site couldnt imagin like long time sinc anyon said anyth like either one us time foot mouth crisi peopl use ask question like live near strang farmer particular feel sympathi toward live near burial site hand farmer feel sympathi foot mouth crisi fair number peopl even carlisl didnt know great orton now mani realis close carlisl actual week 13 20th may havent realli done anyth excit past week unfortun ive revis prepar present level next week present turret watchtow found bit confus first book ive use drag fianc drive dog past brampton hadrian wall found watchtow turret everyth becam much clearer way back spot sign camp barn hadrian wall bank east interest sent away brochur point decid reconsid holiday plan realis didnt need go far afield like amsterdam 1st choic scotland 2nd choic hadnt realis actual mani place nearbi ideal came conclus holiday cumbria best choic 1 take dog us 2 go car 3 bit cheaper fianc mention also good everyth put money spend back cumbria hope go next week half term week exam hope will get someth organis thursday got orton newslett fianc quit disappoint read land around area sold build hous good way peopl move forward f m wish wasnt residenti sens just piti much farm will lost 6 hous baldwinholm 4 great orton even though havent brought farm background seen piti us lose part countrysid week 14 27th may monday saw cb pleas hear f m stand panel project go well think worthwhil much possibl learn futur tuesday attend meet foot mouth diseas inquiri great orton villag hall 7pm glad attend meet peopl voic opinion tri get inform issu present futur general view meet went general feel villag etc lose interest noth still done mani empti seat estim total number 50 60 peopl whole new panel face even though new inquiri new peopl panel meet feel continu one sure said never answer promis one meet anoth seem way avoid answer get situat new aspect brought yet disclos never meet attend fact burial plan use burial uninfect anim led believ al engin site lack communic one sure fact defra also guarante fund site next 5 year worri whos burden will becom varieti issu discuss health road handl outbreak vaccin etc meet glad howev felt rather angri way question handl answer often vagu support evid dismiss ill get back cant comment opinion mani farmer villag etc just want whole thing brought end ideal remain trench fill natur reserv creat maintain guarante site use fund next five year will ever achiev saturday morn fianc decid go away short break somewher near take dog spontan decis jubile half term colleg end go caravan site dog 4 night will updat holiday next diari clip news star stori great orton public meet villag request site use event futur emerg holiday week begin monday 3rd june week 15 10th june write coupl day earli just tell holiday love end hadnt yet receiv brochur camp barn saturday decid like go away son possibl like someth jubile weekend find caravan caldbeck far away relat quiet went 5 pm saturday fianc dog love caravan site love caravan even tv world cup caravan site surround common land sheep love quiet lot place keep dog occupi surpris quiet campsit jubile weekend thought peopl actual live love futur small caravan go away surround place went realli busi exampl keswick bassenthwait etc quit surpris thought great see cumbria live contrast imagin place like year ago especi jubile everyon seem make effort love see love time relax oi dont think dog ever walk far surpris somewher close exact want also happi put money back cumbria definit go back feel much confid futur especi cumbria week didnt know last year f m outbreak case hard tell realli think cumbria seem recov hope saturday sunday ill bed week 16 17th june combin feel well begin week car run overt week end dog season havent realli abl go anywher week quit frustrat work anyway still feel quit confid futur week holiday better coupl week ago fmd inquiri meet felt quit unsur time go happen gt orton f m panel newslett watchtre newslett parish magazin think good abl gain inform consist f m cumbria particular burial site inform difficult come otherwis particular enjoy read children milburn school memori f m outbreak effort made research spoken respond possibl month diari decid start straight away although middl month follow month write continu record diari way time offer short daili entri draw 4 week togeth within overal reflect piec daili entri also record week 20 15th juli write 4 week look forward attend social even dalston bit nervous use sort thing think will good experi also pleas got f m panel newslett saw articl made note never done anyth like quit pleas whole thing saturday week one fianc went fianc s grandad notic sign land sale think quit sad area will inevit chang near futur wonder much land will reus farm sold new hous take consider sign seen past quit bit land go chang past week also receiv watchtre newslett parish magazin still think good idea worthwhil updat everi often will also reach everyon villag easili access period day week 2 4 week fianc notic strang smell outsid smell fianc s grandad 2 mile away smelt just like burn smell sure whether anyth burial site anyth done just thought mention anyway last wednesday rang archaeolog support group carlisl member past year half never sent anyth along time wonder turn last year soon f m hit cumbria everyth cancel stop knew time noth els happen thing didnt realis thing bad affect noth arrang yet even mani month f m broke anoth exampl thing affect still mani month also uncertainti futur archaeolog group noth decid yet will depend thing go piti hope thing pick futur first week 4 week fianc notic cough bit especi night earli morn sinc fianc got better cough much now got sore throat cold dont think anyth burial site anyth sure cough thought mention 12th august write 4 week feel quit nervous now even dalston villag hall bit intimid first go night frontlin worker health profession felt bit depth wonder sort stori tell compar seen peopl deal situat first hand must seen terribl thing coupl week grew use idea didnt feel bad turn good experi turn even now 21st august everyon go togeth thing will bit relax think hope will abl make one major event made think past coupl week fianc s aunti jean move hous orton grang 2 mile away us middl town made think definit wouldnt like move back middl carlisl live even though hasnt pleasant time f m last year build burial site still miss everyth remind lucki surround field cow sheep hors overlook field also usual quiet peac can imagin quit differ middl carlisl think jean will miss quit lot just week ago fianc busi get garden readi villag bloom good see everyon make effort everyth look nice everyth felt bit normal year wherea last year think villag bloom last thing peopl mind made feel confid futur perhap everyth thing may return normal eventu week 24 12th august noth extrem signific concern f m happen week notic though now work villag pub wellington even though 1 day realli becom quit busi think busi improv tri advertis can rememb back foot mouth outbreak quiet peopl stay away atmospher pub depress now year later thing seem pick perhap return normal god see monday 19th august quiet week havent realli much feel well realli bit disappoint abl attend social even o wednesday mom unabl get time work chang shift 26th august first notic problem goldfish first got two half year ago problem past month get ill tri sort differ chemic still die except one omar fianc s cousin breed fish came look baffl explan chemic chang increas exampl chlorin appear lot obvious arent total sure problem thought mention anyway week also notic banner opposit villag shop villag enclos articl banner appear cumberland news week think sum mood notic villag meet noth yet done help villag etc differ promis made main reason feel less confid futur week regard foot mouth thing still drag monday 2nd septemb first week diari noth realli signific happen regard foot mouth comment howev work pub sunday busi pub busi seem improv lot seen foot mouth crisi atmospher depress made feel confid futur regard foot mouth anoth aspect foot mouth seem return back normal mood howev chang third week diari felt less confid futur began goldfish start die apart oner still sure exact caus sure whether water someth just seem littl bit doubt mind dont feel total sure happen area still therefor dont think realli trust organis deal issu thing seem sum feel banner appear opposit villag shop last week think show desper length peopl villag go order get notic heard seem ridicul basic issu brought earlier meet still dealt make lose trust organis involv articl enclos past week littl better howev good receiv watchtre newslett parish magazin still good receiv updat number differ aspect burial site also heard articl newspap regard inquiri cathi well mom save yet read will comment next diari 9 15 septemb monday got free news star last week found articl f m diari bother print tuesday saw cathi said articl bother can see otherwis involv thing repres right way mislead good point though may catch peopl attent get point across peopl still suffer got articl cumberland news mum saturday found articl cumberland news regard villag bloom won trophi special effort villag aftermath f m crisi mark andrew trophi 16 22 septemb monday fianc notic burn smell came back home even sure remind us f m crisi wednesday road work villag didnt affect us much thursday road work fianc s grandad annoy time taken long time remind us f m crisi fianc notic burn smell sure friday good watchtre newslett told us road work wouldnt known saturday aspect arent bad atmospher remind f m crisi last year 23 29 septemb monday read diarist also look inquiri report sent attend villag meet tuesday time read much will get round comment friday parish magazin watchtre newslett still good updat go 1 road 2 visit site 30 6th octob monday rang book tabl autumn fayr done villag hall peopl pleas peopl villag get involv tuesday water quit bad especi tuesday full chlorin leav everyth evapor make quit concern whether safe drink 6th octob write 4 week week read articl regard f m diari appear cumberland news news star enclos read speak c wasnt bother offend written easili seen peopl special find thing realli difficult think good side articl well though will grab peopl attent highlight fact still problem regard f m long crisi even though articl mislead also done good read cumberland news also found mention great orton regard villag bloom turn award mark andrew trophi special effort aftermath f m nice win better award least recognis someth quit pleas week 2 probabl worst week past month regard f m whole week just seem remind like crisi first road work fianc s grandad 2 mile away understand carri made difficult inconveni get fianc s grandad didnt know road gong close now work done everyon spoken think will caus troubl pull lay bys danger grass verg smooth think alright alreadi know road wouldnt confid hadnt driven aspect made road work seem wors two instanc fianc notic burn smell monday thursday sure came still remind us crisi week 3 receiv copi f m inquiri glad went mete villag sometim feel good involv even though small way also receiv diarist newslett watchtre newslett still glad receiv without watchtre newslett dont think inform road work carri also glad site progress peopl now given opportun visit site wish week 4 one major problem water tuesday water full chlorin leav chlorin evapor boil even give dog drink second time happen concern first done second water safe drink sure contact last time contact unit util said just routin noth worri week begin 7th octob much week regard fmd think busi think thing week begin 14th octob monday relax bit today go busi day tomorrow away wednesday tuesday fianc s exam turn quiet today good fianc s exam home difficult last year pressur f m wed away holiday bit drive use made love view way hawkshead love place thursday holiday well suit dog plenti place walk quiet campsit shop pub suit dog thing quit use friday love away break away great orton one hand rememb nice luck hand sunday good week confid futur week begin 21st octob monday quiet week just got back quit tire cope ok nice back way wed got watchtre newslett parish magazin also articl news star think renam site farm use thursday watchtre newslett interest open day think good idea will interest especi geolog fossil remain found site think benefici even though live villag meet still littl idea site look now will futur week begin 28th octob wed went meet mom town road town terribl mud road everywher realli busi truck etc must new build hope doesnt get like time much land round seem sold new construct sat mom got stall week end craft fair villag hall 1st time done saw parish newslett 2nd novemb write 4 week past month one busiest long time first fianc s final exam quit stress time revis everyth remind difficult first exam year half f m crisi studi difficult due constant interrupt distract constant sound truck smell nois tension im glad wasnt bad year thing can stress enough short fianc s exam fianc mom went short break hawkshead great enjoy dog especi everyth suit dog took shop bench water bowl outsid everi shop went bar meal sat outsid last night even us went pint apart thing also took plenti walk made realis love cumbria peopl dont live attract piti cumbria suffer f m crisi love place hope due larg amount attract cumbria thing will hope back normal can expect quit surpris busi thing time year seem thing must improv make confid enjoy break realis mayb great orton isnt bad place come back past month also receiv watchtre newslett im quit interest open day later month think will interest im realli interest geolog histori site also fossil found work dont know much site look will futur amaz can live near still idea like can seem rememb pictur shown news month ago seem difficult imagin differ past week busi mom stall first time craft fair villag hall help littl bit help stall just sat realli decid go like craft alway make thing nice involv villag money hire stall went church good quiet saturday though appar worst year wonder effect f m howev weather factor may contribut week begin monday 11th novemb tuesday fianc doctor wednesday dentist town mam miss exhibit villag hall disappoint got articl cumberland news includ havent spoke anyon went one mention anyth disappoint miss also probabl one opportun will get know anyth fianc agre still like big secret one realli allow doesnt feel like local peopl benefit anyth us realli friday children need pub yesterday nice see peopl take part big differ foot mouth just made donat bit busi us 1045 rais sunday work pub still busi pub least seem recov f m heard suffer bad along busi week begin 18th novemb tuesday play dart port carlisl break week thing worri play dart away travel countri road round terribl wagon especi near wiggonbi road fianc s granddad just get wors just mud less grass terribl damag done wagon combin flood area now saturday fianc talk area chang rememb back 4 year ago use go airfield burial site peac even though rubbl realli enjoy take dog first drive lesson fianc fun realli miss time nowher round anymor get peac cant even enjoy natur reserv frustrat week begin monday 25th novemb monday keep realis diari havent chanc look cumbria foot mouth diseas inquiri report will make time soon saturday pub talk new fenc park children general mood pleas doesnt fit countri villag set noth els done sunday cant believ begin decemb everyth pass quick inevit 31st novemb write 4 week past 4 week busi compar use time quit frustrat way issu bother fianc main onset winter cours inevit year seem wors can previous rememb sinc live winter biggest issu state road villag round terribl amount rain puddl everywher everyth turn mud worst thing difficult walk take dog anywher frustrat either get absolut filthi walk road get soak side road avoid car go lon isnt realli option realli muddi dump understand will due weather sure road due traffic especi fianc s granddad outsid front gate garden grass gradual strip away now turn mud ear live 50 year never seen bad road arent like just nearbi notic road round also bad state travel away nearbi villag pub play dart disappoint miss exhibit villag hall watchtre reserv go town etc spoken anyon know attend exhibit wish opportun learn find newspap articl enclos watchtre quit annoy wont open public understand isnt possibl hand benefit anyon realli live nearbi fianc still rememb back airfield still love place go walk relax get away everyth use love quiet also nearbi actual quit miss sometim nowher els like round now even though quit negat issu past month also encourag work pub busi show must recov effect foot mouth crisi also encourag night held children need rais approx 1045 good see peopl involv happi one thing notic general mood improv made park good peopl impress new fenc look like belong countri chang time will go look decemb 2002 write 4 week averag havent felt bad christma littl tire sinc got bit cold sore throat surpris time year averag think right havent abl walk far near villag due weather road isnt surpris time year past 4 week rather hectic christma everyth still quit bit write diari concern foot mouth receiv parish magazin decemb thank involv craft fayr 1 008 rais st gile church good abl contribut someth villag well mum realli help good see sort thing happen good villag everyth also receiv watchtre newslett parish magazin still good receiv updat everyth also inform regard exhibit villag hall miss glad success peopl attend especi school children taken also receiv diarist good read interest see panel member surpris thing can lead exampl diarist samson tractor past coupl week also collect coupl articl cumberland news first one lie return watchtre actual made feel better go get someth posit whole experi problem moment time wont enough peopl involv chang happen wont make lost think just depend feel time read articl articl villag run top countri award also quit pleas least villag rememb recognis went surpris now long actual foot mouth crisi final recognis mani thing now written paper christma period realli one thing complain state road rain road terribl drive flood road side turn mud everyth filthi know expect winter countri sinc never bad especi fianc s grandad one improv sign put pass place fianc s grandad fianc think much much better lot safer also spot coupl sign watchtre now still surpris see now time start everyth new year hope will better year great orton past coupl glad go quiet now start studi oppos foot mouth studi difficult monday 27th januari write 4 week week found articl daili mail thought relev call boom doom hous price england 2002 price north yorkshir rose 66 allerdal rose 8 mention must result foot mouth crisi effect area sinc made think effect great orton difficult probabl sell hous peopl realli want move two side howev properti built great orton surround area thing probabl chang great orton might lose farm background definit wouldnt want chang much despit burial site like just way great thing week weather abl go lon dog without get filthi frosti great cant believ quick 2003 pass februari alreadi past month total hectic appoint arrang birthday open univers make realis whatev happen time goe think must difficult peopl direct involv foot mouth crisi life carri despit whatev go live think time gone got use idea watchtre accept now receiv watchtre news previous week good hear restor creation site final complet overal dont think taken long thought natur reserv establish especi compar long taken children playground improv near two year foot mouth crisi howev better late never pleas natur reserv sound al differ speci anim includ seen especi merlin smallest bird prey site fianc find thing interest good happen close us last year travel see osprey viewpoint great past coupl week also found articl two regard 20 day standstil direct involv farm side foot mouth crisi total sure sort rule etc think good least thing tri improv futur case may happen also result learn past event also articl show watchtre finalist environment project award definit think watchtre deserv consid award much happen least good go come nice get sort award recognit hard work peopl involv think year will hope better one cumbria peopl may confid even though foot mouth crisi tragedi think cumbria peopl abl recov peopl newspap articl seem optimist rub think year will better one feel confid futur point monday 24th februari write 4 week far past four week receiv watchtre newslett small mention parish magazin playground work underway hope finish summer seem take long time get playground sort least will good kid summer holiday better late never one thing bother us past week fish whenev chang water fish seem ill now add chemic reduc amount chlorin seem water origin start 13 fish now 2 left make worri state water chemic possibl ad fact burial site near make worri anyth past four week confid futur regard foot mouth sun shine anim seem noth bad happen know peopl involv crisi futur will never easi simpl feel sympathi seem possibl abl move now crisi good see sheep cow fianc even seen coupl bird prey sure think one might merlin mention previous watchtre newslett seen site articl call record tourism figur counti encourag show cumbria may start recov foot mouth crisi also found 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africa long still drawn lifestyl cumbria last made note final meet foot mouth diari hope bet pass realli quick now will know strang 28th april 4th may monday got 3 articl cumberland news april 25th 2003 breeder hit discrimin fmd burial site celebr new life favourit dog life rosi lamb tuesday saw c friday notic park come bit better children mention orton parish award 25 000 refer drain level re seed new play equip will follow saturday children allow attend meet discuss good involv children time least children will abl play footbal 5th 11th may tuesday work realli hard get assign post tomorrow night go away thursday hectic wednesday servic held watchtre unabl go think good idea newspap articl enclos written servic thursday away hawskhead excit friday birthday love day went shop morn forest afternoon meal night love sunday back holiday alreadi love everyon friend perhap just notic 12th 18th may tuesday fianc doctor well got viral infect well fluid behind ear told just take easi wednesday 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                                       inform diarist date birth 1937 gender m occup group 5 geograph region north cumbria week 1 monday 11th march 2002 whilst watch local tv news 6 pm news item caus us reflect back event year ago young ladi just left court found guilti assault polic offic also chang offens weapon knife judg acquit offenc show lenienc toward last year fmd crisi return home find pet goat kill slaughter anim within 3 km radius gone berserk threaten polic offic other knife forcibl restrain distraught kill even appear court acquit charg show great emot freed also quit upset loss goat perhap action didnt happen lot peopl similar thing happen howev loss lot pet anim case needless slaughter mani farm anim still creat unhappi memori 2001 week 2 tuesday whilst walk dog met farmer edg villag friend stock close proxim 2 land fill site still concern materi site nearest site contain hundr carcass complet cap concern leachat site feel doesnt matter much clay soil use contain site effect heavi rain bound find way also drain doesnt want plough field can sell stock graze field pyre ash tip site happen rainwat run site also concern larg flock seagul visit site daili anoth concern happen open cast coal site situat almost due south gilgarran villag farmer talk today concern huge site coal move site month concern site go fill wast will fmd site villag concern rumour land fill huge scale friday notic work carri top burial site villag comment despit larg yellow digger oper sunday work continu burial site make kind work done week 3 monday work still go burial site still dont know go digger involv anim buri anim buri last year smell come site terribl say least come dead anim observ thought decompos wast materi alreadi buri site prior fmd excav dug soil make trench dead anim dug decompos matter henc terribl smell despit work go today comment villag forthcom seem now fmd gone general public interest unless read someth local paper written enterpris report week 4 tuesday work still go former burial site villag dont seem bother fmd gone nobodi interest wednesday whilst tri gain comment villag effect fmd one two comment individu show concern outbreak last year dont seem concern effect two interest comment suggest 1 outbreak start deliber countri collus agriculturist eec concentr meat product europ leav uk concentr arabl farm 2 outbreak start terrorist attack govern declar caus widespread panic thursday 23 25 hour huge fire site pyre ash tip 250000 use tyre caught fire arson suspect fire fighter tri contain blaze couldnt use larg amount water case water cours becam contamin friday 05 00 fire still blaze pyre ash site later morn fire show sign die appar left burn much heavi smoke pollut evid drift south west nine mile read local even paper blaze also report villag disington 1 mile gilgarran complain foul smell wast site parish councillor concern coincid work current carri burial site smell site plus fact anim buri one site pyre ash plus huge fire site happen week caus concern area hue cri die peopl will soon forget week 5 monday friday observ work top burial site dont know work still go northern western side friday local week paper carri report recent larg fire occur alco site last week 250000 tyre caught fire somehow interst read fire brigad use water extinguish blaze case pollut occur water cours fire left burn saturday burial site look like new soil tip top reason report comment froim parish council despit vocifer object use alco site past sunday talk local counti councillor live villag feel strong two site danger think site health hazard risk due obnoxi odour particular larg fire occur last week produc lot pollut smoke distanc six mile peopl reckon smell burn tyre smelt gilgarran numer fire site last year fire give rise compali peopl like us nearer villag distington 1 mile west councillor suggest incid cancer case area come year along respiratori troubl well case bronchiti relat problem recent sudden start sinus hasnt wasnt happi situat site dont know tip can communiti accept told site owner previous state anim carcass tip buri three day told offici incident site anim buri own cumbria counti council seem total advic counti council offici look environ health popul ive written go bigger concern opencast coal site south villag becom landfil site refus part counti fifti mile away moment suggest anyth fmd outbreak will dump said howev villag didnt know carcass buri pyre ash tip happen await outcom coal site trepid coal come site month indic becom land fill site week 6 monday wednesday work still ongo burial site visibl side site still dont know go may innoc improv environ site owner thursday deleg mep visit north counti come assess situat report back european parliament doubt will also report back constitu countri deleg visit auction mart longtown diseas first notic countri also visit big burial site great orton estim half million carcass buri good coverag local press radio tv gave anyon interest view deleg thursday saturday mep deleg agre fmd situat disastr know comment tourist agricultur observ rang wast time least politician bother visit us couldnt person think good came particular report dutch use vaccin techniqu small outbreak mani peopl think british govern public inquiri outbreak hide cumbria hold inquiri quit right organis lancast univers hold research outbreak govern eventu will know perhap lifetim though minist maff lot answer week 7 thought interest includ copi newslett local author issu everi household area regard dispos carcass effluent will note fire last year alco site also involv tyre similar last year big report local tv today state recent visit mep area consid vaccin use outset serious consid futur outbreak occur heard report outbreak tb cattl part countri report serious fmd major outbreak occur lead question dispos need aris ive alreadi report previous entri use opencast coal site south east caus concern quarter although site didnt featur fmd crisi feel earmark use futur need aris even rumour inciner plan general feel surround area enough dump carcass effluent toxic chemic etc author seen site concern handl substanc extens dispos site area effect week 8 noth signific report week week 9 now cumbria fmd inquiri start lot peopl met week recal happen year ago even interest coverag local press tv plenti public media show littl govern maff particular let farm tourism industri counti plenti distress stori farmer infect anim slaughter also slaughter healthi anim 3 km circl outbreak one particular distress point evid farmer describ panel birth calf five day mother shot time outbreak hear stori daili basi still maff mr brown kept tell us outbreak control can say point may heaven help us happen week 10 work still go burial site look like new soil dump top actual site doze level smooth side can accept manag site make better concern concern much publicis cumbrian fmd inquiri team visit land fill site met local councillor express concern site alco site report forthcom team inquiri team finish evid gather week one import statement made minist environ make statement outbreak even make visit site counti wide total silenc mrs beckett depart request silenc observ govern sourc matter everyon ask question got hide arent interest plan made lesson learn last year outbreak lot farm restock neighbourhood farm work go look time goe though seem smoulder anger one author concern well week 11 work still go burial site comment heard villag neighbour week diari 12 monday observ work still ongo burial site heavi plant move top giant amount look though topsoil laid mount perhap improv site water may still permeat site can believ oper right thing friday talk 2 villag effect fmd one said oh now forgotten doesnt bother one bit said past just forget seem life return normal aspect villag life peopl dont think last year unless diarist mention sunday bad day weather wise prolong rain may halt work burial site peopl reluct talk f m d now even one worst econom social disast hit countri counti particular now peopl memori begin fade howev us happi two dispos site within 1000 metr villag fmd may burial site long time yet diari 13 observ work burial site heavi machineri plant move larg quantiti soil laid smooth diari 14 talk religi today effect fmd without except interest idl one remind general comment nobodi seem bother hundr anim buri 1000 yard villag fact leachat pyre ash buri anoth site look burial site work go look though manag everyth make site safe diari 15 met smallhold today talk past effect effect fmd still happi burial site despit landscap smooth larg quantiti topsoil time will tell say stock near site sheep farmer land sinc fmd finish though stock movement still restrict new legisl come sinc area declar free instanc take sheep auction ask nine piec paper transact price right take back land put back field came move three week obtain licenc think author go strict short just one precaut come tri combat recurr fmd diari 16 met smallhold rent land farmer villag incom sheep breed nil like mani peopl similar circumst fortun incom anoth sourc subject compens came convers person comment make item mayb just rumour appar got bee bonnet compens paid peopl agricultur busi seem upset heard fish chip shop owner lake district paid 170 per month compens loss trade didnt mind much hoteli guest hous owner claim compens wonder els kind money go paid noth first time ive heard one diari 17 attend cumberland show everi park carlisl famili use attend annual show regular spectat competitor never seen show like one put year will thing realli get back normal mani us think agricultur back pre fmd cattl sheep graze field lamb reach new height produc farm calv born silag haymak progress weather permit still restrict anim movement henc sheep cattl pig year show hors poultri dog rabbit mani piec agricultur machineri onshor either plenti charter account tent craft tent hors feed tack display main arena band agricultur show knew seem show ennerdal show one local show year isnt go hors sheep general cattl shown show without sheep hill farmer domin show isnt go much show alway good show equestrian event mani level show alway must famili dont think will go year diari 18 golf cours golf drive rang can look western side burial site written previous week work go site view site villag side hard know ever burial site hundr ton topsoil laid smooth make less like landscap featur look realli good western side though thing littl differ work still go larg amount soil tip level still portakabin heavi plant can still seen move doubt western side well look good eastern side long diari 19 announc prime minist wife son famili visit cumbria pm arriv west cumbria kind report written local nation press go holiday pm meet farmer leader press usual stir thing meet tourism offici say trip fantast tourism counti person cant see differ made peopl want come cumbria will come irrespect whether pm come diari 20 lot protest look though 20 day restrict cattl movement will lift perhap will now mean cattl sheep entri local agricultur show show go ahead limit entri livestock anim entri show alway popular famili 20 year also live farm communiti make us feel part annual agricultur scene diari 21 ive written regard agricultur show pride local peopl take show although lot show gone ahead season reduc anim show case anim today ive heard one show cancel altogeth particular show one popular area mayb lack entri organis just want cancel 3 week restrict anim movement dont know perhap better cancel deplet show diari 22 spent hour fell today good abl wander familiar path let dog run free good boost moral perhap dog miss abl last year diari 23 last bank holiday xmas last school go back golf cours help part time summer lot custom lot comment enjoy holiday area year compar restrict place last year mayb holiday establish get back normal restrict put like place now farmer agricultur diari 26 sort mail left whilst away holiday came across notic sent villag committe notifi harvest thanksgiv festiv held next month villag hall church villag held farm build centr villag will splendid event farm fmd couldnt take anim one field anoth couldnt market consid gloom settl farm communiti welcom uniqu event heart villag farmer wife will centr event love gestur hope will well support will distribut harvest gift afterward chang year ago diari 27 aid binocular abl closer look burial site wester direct vent shape small tower extract gas site pipe connect vent lot work still go howev take place western side opposit side villag situat side noth suggest amount work go fmd push back villag mind someth past happen peopl like talk farmer agriculturalist easili forget event person still concern burial site inquiri made can accept told look though everi precaut taken allevi odour contamin diari 28 see villag farmer anoth matter ask insid coffe chat abl tell full implic 20 day rule accept precaut prevent anoth outbreak fmd lot work involv told isol area creat also fenc arrang land adjoin neighbour land say 95 public dont know even heard 20 day rule own largest farm area bad enough physic work regard fenc etc anyon small holder must nightmar bring anim back market havent sold friday wife play round golf aspatria cours bad restrict fmd hit area remind restrict adjoin land notic ask peopl hit ball onto farm land cross fenc retriev fmd precaut news us make sens though farmer wouldnt know player walk prior play golf diari 29 attend harvest festiv held villag farm larg cattl shed clean decor event chair brought fruit veget display auction end place pack lot money rais happi event well support big boost farm villag dont think general public care much fmd now year sinc last case confirm cumbria public may remind read local newspap intent instanc letter editor publish recent refer result cumbria inquiri fmd may farmer wrote dont know writer certain went town scath comment handl fmd even caustic remark regard effort sinc fmd defra mrs beckett certain wouldnt like cross writer also think farm communiti must hold breath case present restrict prove worthless will suffer week 30 differ year make despit restrict public access agricultur field area counti doesnt appli although local confin footpath bridleway peopl seem think field recreat area walk run across field close proxim villag regardless presenc stock exercis dog treat kind park one farmer well know aggress use last year fmd outbreak run peopl land met local councillor express concern regard propos build inciner south villag current open cast mine site two wast dispos site west north west villag becom big issu last 18 month due burial anim dispos pyre ash leachat seem though go get ghast fmd outbreak scenario thrust upon us week 31 met small holder keep sheep near villag scath report govern defra dont want talk offer local author implement find recommend local inquiri fmd govern didnt perform well outbreak got hide shirk away find instead face fail know also seem dont want make safeguard recommend avoid outbreak non agriculturalist doesnt surpris least govern fail industri countri long can rememb week 32 convinc author area must think way anim buri pyre ash leachat dispos anoth site nearbi done success two site handl everyth profession therefor site capabl handl ash inciner legaci fmd annoy togeth lot villag villag longer repres parish council resign whatev reason one will step forward take one said take set parish council repres villag fight right futur qualiti life due uncov pile claim counter claim seem parish district counsellor know go regard inciner develop made concess councillor also claim develop offer money local landown farmer road can put accus strong deni time rumour farmer offer local field nearbi discov investig seem lot friendship gain 20 year come end fear uncov also claim councillor can get trust dont want said also time sort will 70 75 certain dont want fight peopl battl age howev will support effort stop propos develop week 33 larg farm centr villag venu annual guy fawk bonfir firework organis round villag ask donat provid firework tractor trailer tour area pick thing bonfir drink food serv barn firework anoth occas villag farm communiti come togeth perhap time general public villag think fmd last year event briefli farmer remark third time year public function farm first jubile parti june octob 6th harvest festiv servic event keep farm public eye week 34 havent written propos build inciner nearbi burn counti wast suspect inciner built odour plus dispos ash fmd wast site legaci fmd particular regard nearbi burial dispos site week 35 week 35 project 35 week written confid futur numer reason main situat middl east today travel keswick xmas shop given lift neighbour 30s upset terrorist situat concern terror threat london underground threat closer home regard plane crash nearbi sellafield complex dont know effect constant bad news peopl peopl alreadi got serious worri eg famili hous financ etc must feel realli depress week 36 near next villag long establish farm mani acr recent farm stock anim machineri sold owner farm sixti year leav live one brother said wouldnt know feel left farm last time weekend farmhous hasnt sold yet now stand empti strang place now everyth hustl bustl even b b busi now derelict bare sad reflect agricultur busi wake fmd farm isnt one area sold farm hous remain dwell particular one saw near everi day just sad remind way farm declin rural area week 39 tuesday board train penrith journey crew see daughter journey got convers fellow passeng notic got train penrith perhap thought connect agricultur industri convers drift previous year fmd outbreak rather strang live rural area fmd rare mention now howev fellow passeng although agricultur background gave view handl situat differ view express local time crisi just goe show fmd much peopl mind even connect agricultur way week 40 friday now mep publish critic report fmd crisi interest read articl publish local week paper reader articl entitl foot mouth report includ dont knowledg data support reader comment howev heard plenti stori main unreli sourc confirm say make interest read think week 41 tuesday wonder confid futur taken big plung last month situat iraq doesnt get better mr toni blair messag arm forc uk bear ex serviceman know situat hold troop right follow usa war iraq doubt saddam hussein pose threat india pakistan two relat poor countri threaten regard nuclear arsenal now loos cannon form north korea posit regard posit nuclear arm leagu person think north korea pose danger threat iraq happi new year lot peopl perhap will settl diplomat wonder week 42 noth import write due refurbish home week 43 monday one item agenda month meet distington parish council report wood fell implic written diari strong rumour propos plan fell wood build new road fell site bring coal nearbi opencast site link exist road transport coal storag area workington dock coal work build inciner coal site ash develop transport new road dispos wast dispos site use fmd pyre ash leachat thursday read report aforesaid meet owner declar worri groundless fact say plan eventu open woodland public owner woodland oper opencast coal site footpath will creat grant can obtain wooden wheel ancient water mill will restor close meet oper director site said misunderstand will benefit local peopl said manag project wood follow involv fell dead tree fresh plant ad fell replant will done year will take time becom establish talk ten year programm long term benefit think pr start wasnt good futur will let council know plan council agre keep watch work g statement differ great us told villag base counti councillor never suggest fell wood becom land fill site fell provid new road noth mention meet regard propos inciner built counti council ever plan howev repres adam week 44 tuesday first time properti final overcom situat affect fmd juli 2000 electr supplier notifi say tree garden grown tall topmost branch close contact eleven thousand volt overhead power line fell sever prune negoti decid prune height wasnt happi although treetop actual touch wire consid risk forthcom month howev time pass couldnt wait forest arriv prune tree januari 2001 electr supplier suggest tree prune date agre forest didnt arriv time drag tree grew back origin height electr supplier suggest prune fell new date agre upon howev forest couldnt job isol switch farmland couldnt get access fmd restrict drag despit visit forest electr supplier rep tree got bigger forbidden touch neighbour hear crackl nois come wire becam worri peopl suggest someth took matter direct supplier forest promis date cancel decemb 2002 date 21st januari 2003 given time came agre two tree fell anoth prune 30 month final happen thursday met small holder land edg villag told 20 day rule anim restrict anim movement lift replac 6 day restrict good news farmer later day met anoth farmer didnt know restrict lift thought told hed won lotteri good news round peopl friday listen local radio today surpris hear report citizen advic bureau small lakeland town receiv client still experienc hardship due fmd now 18 month sinc last outbreak effect accord person interview still felt just farmer agriculturist guest hous hotel tradesmen particular self employ debt seem biggest problem seem though peopl weather hardship fmd initi find plan come adrift somehow afterward quit disturb hear situat still us counti degre week 45 diari institut deal effect fmd although case fmd villag everyon knew particular near everyon went work pass main farm villag centr farm outskirt villag now fmd peopl live dont seem think anymor peopl affect farmer natur strang villag lot way farmer immedi famili connect agricultur rest profession peopl peopl work nearbi sellafield industri workington whitehaven retir church villag pub villag shop villag communiti centr meet place tradesmen call milkman solid fuel merchant left get life way parish distington belong facil associ larger communiti church pub communiti centr two mile away consequ parish council meet month discuss problem area includ howev repres council resign one come forward repres us anyth discuss parish council report local newspap villag pub good venu discuss local issu exchang view main gossip villag tittl tattl call pub gossip rife one sourc anoth bit ad left choic person concern quit lot peopl one meet expert particular choic subject whether polit financ mrs jone current boy friend fault take board gossip one meet fellow villag countri lane whilst walk dog week 46 ill famili member week 47 continu ill week 48 past week lot tree fell nearbi wood led lot disturb villag use larg vehicl need remov fell timber also forest vehicl churn grass verg ditch lot concern rais necess tree fell concern rais press also parish council written diari last week report mid januari fell wood replant year footpath creat enjoy local popul now timber oper ceas larg area woodland left part fell lot fell timber left lie forest vehicl gone noth happen despit assur develop look though someth drastic happen villag tittl tattl say forest paid work far develop run money go happen now fell start late last year contact two environment agenc regard threat red squirrel badger buzzard occupi wood told partial fell environment agenc satisfi disturb slight think told develop accept told without site visit develop known mislead group past includ landown farmer council individu person happi situat alway took keen interest wildlif feel let lie develop lack serious interest wildlif agenc offshoot central govern one will keep close look situat without villag particular local councillor week 49 chanc met three small holder time discuss farm roadsid pleas 20 day rule come end live less come back normal also express opinion 20 day rule 6 day rule forc protect interest howev unanim condemn import foreign meat meat product countri feel foreign meat subject enough check entri unit kingdom week 51 met farmer today told hed seen report base find eu defra state thing everyon agriculturalist take interest countrysid say wrong handler fmd outbreak just prove doesnt take academ genius know done time everyon can wiser event statement nfu individu onset heed exampl movement anim halt sooner armi brought much sooner now question vaccin rumbl shouldnt vaccin fear outbreak particular find 1960 outbreak implement sinc sad fmd quit instanc socialis farm harvest festiv jubile parti almost excus shindig good see farmer enjoy week 52 met local farmer told new legisl dispos fallen stock longer can farmer buri fallen stock land must now provid inciner dispos dead anim must cost busi dead anim taken central point burn week 54 one thing fmd effect poach fratern live rural area expect happen nobodi seem mind rabbit pheasant go miss realli alarm use dog high power rifl poach deer fmd put stop now neighbour told poacher near villag use rifl shoot deer peopl benefit poacher hoteli receiv dead beast question ask also danger villag hit stray rifl shot caus alarm other week 55 think lot jump band wagon now fmd clear instanc listen interview local radio station given hoteli thing werent go well establish got fmd implic visitor slowli return area suffici number caus great joy

POS Tagging

Now it is time to tag that dataframe with POS-tags. This step is important because without POS-tags, everything by default will get treated like a noun.

This would then result in the Dataframe essentially going through a de-pluraliser, while all of the different verb tenses remain. So, before we lemmatise the Dataframe, we need to mark the corpus for part of speech tags, abbreviated to POS

Information on the udpipe package: Ready-made models for 65 languages trained on 101 treebanks from https://universaldependencies.org/ are provided to you. Some of these models were provided by the UDPipe community. Other models were build using this R package. You can either download these models manually in order to use it for annotation purposes or use udpipe_download_model to download these models for a specific language of choice. You have the following options:

udmodel <- udpipe_download_model(language = "english")
## Downloading udpipe model from https://raw.githubusercontent.com/jwijffels/udpipe.models.ud.2.5/master/inst/udpipe-ud-2.5-191206/english-ewt-ud-2.5-191206.udpipe to /Users/user/Documents/Text-Mining-Health/R_code/english-ewt-ud-2.5-191206.udpipe
##  - This model has been trained on version 2.5 of data from https://universaldependencies.org
##  - The model is distributed under the CC-BY-SA-NC license: https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-nc-sa/4.0
##  - Visit https://github.com/jwijffels/udpipe.models.ud.2.5 for model license details.
##  - For a list of all models and their licenses (most models you can download with this package have either a CC-BY-SA or a CC-BY-SA-NC license) read the documentation at ?udpipe_download_model. For building your own models: visit the documentation by typing vignette('udpipe-train', package = 'udpipe')
## Downloading finished, model stored at '/Users/user/Documents/Text-Mining-Health/R_code/english-ewt-ud-2.5-191206.udpipe'
udmodel <- udpipe_load_model(file = udmodel$file_model)


foot_mouth_df$pos_tags <- udpipe_annotate(udmodel, 
                     foot_mouth_df$no_spaces)

Lemmatisation

Lemmatisation is similar to stemming, in that it aims to turn various forms of the same word into a single form. However, lemmatisation is a bit more sophisticated because:

  • It recognises irregular plurals and returns the correct singular form. Example = ‘rocks’ –> ‘rock’ but ‘corpora’ –> ‘corpus’
  • If part of speech tags are supplied, it treats verbs, adjectives and nouns differenly, even if they have the same surface form. Example - ‘caring’ would not be changed if used as an adjective (as in ‘his caring manner’) but would go to ‘care’ if it was a verb (as in ‘he is caring for baby squirrels’. In contrast, stemming would remove the ‘ing’ and turn ‘caring’ into ‘car’.
  • If no part of speech tags are supplied, lemmatisation tools tend to assume words as nouns, so the process becomes a sophisticated de-pluraliser.
  • This is better for this research because since we will be looking into the meaning of the data, it will need to put into the most accurate base form as possible, if I were to stem this, a lot of words would lose meaning!
foot_mouth_df$lemm <- 
  textstem::lemmatize_words(foot_mouth_df$pos_tags)

Append and Save new datafram

#proceessed_data <- left_join(new_foot_mouth, foot_mouth_df, by = c("Filename"))

#save(foot_mouth_df, file = "processed_fm_data.RData")
#load("processed_fm_data.RData"))